mr. britling sees it through by h.g. wells copyright, , by h.g. wells contents book i matching's easy at ease i mr. direck visits mr. britling ii mr. britling continues his exposition iii the entertainment of mr. direck reaches a climax iv mr. britling in soliloquy v the coming of the day book ii matching's easy at war i onlookers ii taking part iii malignity iv in the web of the ineffective book iii the testament of matching's easy i mrs. teddy goes for a walk ii mr. britling writes until sunrise book i matching's easy at ease chapter the first mr. direck visits mr. britling section it was the sixth day of mr. direck's first visit to england, and he was at his acutest perception of differences. he found england in every way gratifying and satisfactory, and more of a contrast with things american than he had ever dared to hope. he had promised himself this visit for many years, but being of a sunny rather than energetic temperament--though he firmly believed himself to be a reservoir of clear-sighted american energy--he had allowed all sorts of things, and more particularly the uncertainties of miss mamie nelson, to keep him back. but now there were no more uncertainties about miss mamie nelson, and mr. direck had come over to england just to convince himself and everybody else that there were other interests in life for him than mamie.... and also, he wanted to see the old country from which his maternal grandmother had sprung. wasn't there even now in his bedroom in new york a water-colour of market saffron church, where the dear old lady had been confirmed? and generally he wanted to see europe. as an interesting side show to the excursion he hoped, in his capacity of the rather underworked and rather over-salaried secretary of the massachusetts society for the study of contemporary thought, to discuss certain agreeable possibilities with mr. britling, who lived at matching's easy. mr. direck was a type of man not uncommon in america. he was very much after the fashion of that clean and pleasant-looking person one sees in the advertisements in american magazines, that agreeable person who smiles and says, "good, it's the fizgig brand," or "yes, it's a wilkins, and that's the best," or "my shirt-front never rucks; it's a chesson." but now he was saying, still with the same firm smile, "good. it's english." he was pleased by every unlikeness to things american, by every item he could hail as characteristic; in the train to london he had laughed aloud with pleasure at the chequer-board of little fields upon the hills of cheshire, he had chuckled to find himself in a compartment without a corridor; he had tipped the polite yet kindly guard magnificently, after doubting for a moment whether he ought to tip him at all, and he had gone about his hotel in london saying "lordy! lordy! my _word!_" in a kind of ecstasy, verifying the delightful absence of telephone, of steam-heat, of any dependent bathroom. at breakfast the waiter (out of dickens it seemed) had refused to know what "cereals" were, and had given him his egg in a china egg-cup such as you see in the pictures in _punch_. the thames, when he sallied out to see it, had been too good to be true, the smallest thing in rivers he had ever seen, and he had had to restrain himself from affecting a marked accent and accosting some passer-by with the question, "say! but is this little wet ditch here the historical river thames?" in america, it must be explained, mr. direck spoke a very good and careful english indeed, but he now found the utmost difficulty in controlling his impulse to use a high-pitched nasal drone and indulge in dry "americanisms" and poker metaphors upon all occasions. when people asked him questions he wanted to say "yep" or "sure," words he would no more have used in america than he could have used a bowie knife. but he had a sense of rôle. he wanted to be visibly and audibly america eye-witnessing. he wanted to be just exactly what he supposed an englishman would expect him to be. at any rate, his clothes had been made by a strongly american new york tailor, and upon the strength of them a taxi-man had assumed politely but firmly that the shillings on his taximeter were dollars, an incident that helped greatly to sustain the effect of mr. direck, in mr. direck's mind, as something standing out with an almost representative clearness against the english scene.... so much so that the taxi-man got the dollars.... because all the time he had been coming over he had dreaded that it wasn't true, that england was a legend, that london would turn out to be just another thundering great new york, and the english exactly like new englanders.... section and now here he was on the branch line of the little old great eastern railway, on his way to matching's easy in essex, and he was suddenly in the heart of washington irving's england. washington irving's england! indeed it was. he couldn't sit still and just peep at it, he had to stand up in the little compartment and stick his large, firm-featured, kindly countenance out of the window as if he greeted it. the country under the june sunshine was neat and bright as an old-world garden, with little fields of corn surrounded by dog-rose hedges, and woods and small rushy pastures of an infinite tidiness. he had seen a real deer park, it had rather tumbledown iron gates between its shield-surmounted pillars, and in the distance, beyond all question, was bracebridge hall nestling among great trees. he had seen thatched and timbered cottages, and half-a-dozen inns with creaking signs. he had seen a fat vicar driving himself along a grassy lane in a governess cart drawn by a fat grey pony. it wasn't like any reality he had ever known. it was like travelling in literature. mr. britling's address was the dower house, and it was, mr. britling's note had explained, on the farther edge of the park at claverings. claverings! the very name for some stately home of england.... and yet this was only forty-two miles from london. surely it brought things within the suburban range. if matching's easy were in america, commuters would live there. but in supposing that, mr. direck displayed his ignorance of a fact of the greatest importance to all who would understand england. there is a gap in the suburbs of london. the suburbs of london stretch west and south and even west by north, but to the north-eastward there are no suburbs; instead there is essex. essex is not a suburban county; it is a characteristic and individualised county which wins the heart. between dear essex and the centre of things lie two great barriers, the east end of london and epping forest. before a train could get to any villadom with a cargo of season-ticket holders it would have to circle about this rescued woodland and travel for twenty unprofitable miles, and so once you are away from the main great eastern lines essex still lives in the peace of the eighteenth century, and london, the modern babylon, is, like the stars, just a light in the nocturnal sky. in matching's easy, as mr. britling presently explained to mr. direck, there are half-a-dozen old people who have never set eyes on london in their lives--and do not want to. "aye-ya!" "fussin' about thea." "mr. robinson, 'e went to lon', 'e did. that's 'ow 'e 'urt 'is fut." mr. direck had learnt at the main-line junction that he had to tell the guard to stop the train for matching's easy; it only stopped "by request"; the thing was getting better and better; and when mr. direck seized his grip and got out of the train there was just one little old essex station-master and porter and signalman and everything, holding a red flag in his hand and talking to mr. britling about the cultivation of the sweet peas which glorified the station. and there was the mr. britling who was the only item of business and the greatest expectation in mr. direck's european journey, and he was quite unlike the portraits mr. direck had seen and quite unmistakably mr. britling all the same, since there was nobody else upon the platform, and he was advancing with a gesture of welcome. "did you ever see such peas, mr. dick?" said mr. britling by way of introduction. "my _word_," said mr. direck in a good old farmer hayseed kind of voice. "aye-ya!" said the station-master in singularly strident tones. "it be a rare year for sweet peas," and then he slammed the door of the carriage in a leisurely manner and did dismissive things with his flag, while the two gentlemen took stock, as people say, of one another. section except in the doubtful instance of miss mamie nelson, mr. direck's habit was good fortune. pleasant things came to him. such was his position as the salaried secretary of this society of thoughtful massachusetts business men to which allusion has been made. its purpose was to bring itself expeditiously into touch with the best thought of the age. too busily occupied with practical realities to follow the thought of the age through all its divagations and into all its recesses, these massachusetts business men had had to consider methods of access more quintessential and nuclear. and they had decided not to hunt out the best thought in its merely germinating stages, but to wait until it had emerged and flowered to some trustworthy recognition, and then, rather than toil through recondite and possibly already reconsidered books and writings generally, to offer an impressive fee to the emerged new thinker, and to invite him to come to them and to lecture to them and to have a conference with them, and to tell them simply, competently and completely at first hand just all that he was about. to come, in fact, and be himself--in a highly concentrated form. in this way a number of interesting europeans had been given very pleasant excursions to america, and the society had been able to form very definite opinions upon their teaching. and mr. britling was one of the representative thinkers upon which this society had decided to inform itself. it was to broach this invitation and to offer him the impressive honorarium by which the society honoured not only its guests but itself, that mr. direck had now come to matching's easy. he had already sent mr. britling a letter of introduction, not indeed intimating his precise purpose, but mentioning merely a desire to know him, and the letter had been so happily phrased and its writer had left such a memory of pleasant hospitality on mr. britling's mind during mr. britling's former visit to new york, that it had immediately produced for mr. direck an invitation not merely to come and see him but to come and stay over the week-end. and here they were shaking hands. mr. britling did not look at all as mr. direck had expected him to look. he had expected an englishman in a country costume of golfing tweeds, like the englishman in country costume one sees in american illustrated stories. drooping out of the country costume of golfing tweeds he had expected to see the mildly unhappy face, pensive even to its drooping moustache, with which mr. britling's publisher had for some faulty and unfortunate reason familiarised the american public. instead of this, mr. britling was in a miscellaneous costume, and mildness was the last quality one could attribute to him. his moustache, his hair, his eyebrows bristled; his flaming freckled face seemed about to bristle too. his little hazel eyes came out with a "ping" and looked at mr. direck. mr. britling was one of a large but still remarkable class of people who seem at the mere approach of photography to change their hair, their clothes, their moral natures. no photographer had ever caught a hint of his essential britlingness and bristlingness. only the camera could ever induce mr. britling to brush his hair, and for the camera alone did he reserve that expression of submissive martyrdom mr. direck knew. and mr. direck was altogether unprepared for a certain casualness of costume that sometimes overtook mr. britling. he was wearing now a very old blue flannel blazer, no hat, and a pair of knickerbockers, not tweed breeches but tweed knickerbockers of a remarkable bagginess, and made of one of those virtuous socialistic homespun tweeds that drag out into woolly knots and strings wherever there is attrition. his stockings were worsted and wrinkled, and on his feet were those extraordinary slippers of bright-coloured bast-like interwoven material one buys in the north of france. these were purple with a touch of green. he had, in fact, thought of the necessity of meeting mr. direck at the station at the very last moment, and had come away from his study in the clothes that had happened to him when he got up. his face wore the amiable expression of a wire-haired terrier disposed to be friendly, and it struck mr. direck that for a man of his real intellectual distinction mr. britling was unusually short. for there can be no denying that mr. britling was, in a sense, distinguished. the hero and subject of this novel was at its very beginning a distinguished man. he was in the _who's who_ of two continents. in the last few years he had grown with some rapidity into a writer recognised and welcomed by the more cultivated sections of the american public, and even known to a select circle of british readers. to his american discoverers he had first appeared as an essayist, a serious essayist who wrote about aesthetics and oriental thought and national character and poets and painting. he had come through america some years ago as one of those kahn scholars, those promising writers and intelligent men endowed by auguste kahn of paris, who go about the world nowadays in comfort and consideration as the travelling guests of that original philanthropist--to acquire the international spirit. previously he had been a critic of art and literature and a writer of thoughtful third leaders in the london _times_. he had begun with a pembroke fellowship and a prize poem. he had returned from his world tour to his reflective yet original corner of _the times_ and to the production of books about national relationships and social psychology, that had brought him rapidly into prominence. his was a naturally irritable mind, which gave him point and passion; and moreover he had a certain obstinate originality and a generous disposition. so that he was always lively, sometimes spacious, and never vile. he loved to write and talk. he talked about everything, he had ideas about everything; he could no more help having ideas about everything than a dog can resist smelling at your heels. he sniffed at the heels of reality. lots of people found him interesting and stimulating, a few found him seriously exasperating. he had ideas in the utmost profusion about races and empires and social order and political institutions and gardens and automobiles and the future of india and china and aesthetics and america and the education of mankind in general.... and all that sort of thing.... mr. direck had read a very great deal of all this expressed opiniativeness of mr. britling: he found it entertaining and stimulating stuff, and it was with genuine enthusiasm that he had come over to encounter the man himself. on his way across the atlantic and during the intervening days, he had rehearsed this meeting in varying keys, but always on the supposition that mr. britling was a large, quiet, thoughtful sort of man, a man who would, as it were, sit in attentive rows like a public meeting and listen. so mr. direck had prepared quite a number of pleasant and attractive openings, and now he felt was the moment for some one of these various simple, memorable utterances. but in none of these forecasts had he reckoned with either the spontaneous activities of mr. britling or with the station-master of matching's easy. oblivious of any conversational necessities between mr. direck and mr. britling, this official now took charge of mr. direck's grip-sack, and, falling into line with the two gentlemen as they walked towards the exit gate, resumed what was evidently an interrupted discourse upon sweet peas, originally addressed to mr. britling. he was a small, elderly man with a determined-looking face and a sea voice, and it was clear he overestimated the distance of his hearers. "mr. darling what's head gardener up at claverings, _'e_ can't get sweet peas like that, try _'ow_ 'e will. tried everything 'e 'as. sand ballast, 'e's tried. seeds same as me. 'e came along 'ere only the other day, 'e did, and 'e says to me, 'e says, 'darned 'f i can see why a station-master should beat a professional gardener at 'is own game,' 'e says, 'but you do. and in your orf time, too, so's to speak,' 'e says. 'i've tried sile,' 'e says--" "your first visit to england?" asked mr. britling of his guest. "absolutely," said mr. direck. "i says to 'im, 'there's one thing you 'aven't tried,' i says," the station-master continued, raising his voice by a herculean feat still higher. "i've got a little car outside here," said mr. britling. "i'm a couple of miles from the station." "i says to 'im, i says, ''ave you tried the vibritation of the trains?' i says. 'that's what you 'aven't tried, mr. darling. that's what you _can't_ try,' i says. 'but you rest assured that that's the secret of my sweet peas,' i says, 'nothing less and nothing more than the vibritation of the trains.'" mr. direck's mind was a little confused by the double nature of the conversation and by the fact that mr. britling spoke of a car when he meant an automobile. he handed his ticket mechanically to the station-master, who continued to repeat and endorse his anecdote at the top of his voice as mr. britling disposed himself and his guest in the automobile. "you know you 'aven't 'urt that mud-guard, sir, not the slightest bit that matters," shouted the station-master. "i've been a looking at it--er. it's my fence that's suffered most. and that's only strained the post a lil' bit. shall i put your bag in behind, sir?" mr. direck assented, and then, after a momentary hesitation, rewarded the station-master's services. "ready?" asked mr. britling. "that's all right sir," the station-master reverberated. with a rather wide curve mr. britling steered his way out of the station into the highroad. section and now it seemed was the time for mr. direck to make his meditated speeches. but an unexpected complication was to defeat this intention. mr. direck perceived almost at once that mr. britling was probably driving an automobile for the first or second or at the extremest the third time in his life. the thing became evident when he struggled to get into the high gear--an attempt that stopped the engine, and it was even more startlingly so when mr. britling narrowly missed a collision with a baker's cart at a corner. "i pressed the accelerator," he explained afterwards, "instead of the brake. one does at first. i missed him by less than a foot." the estimate was a generous one. and after that mr. direck became too anxious not to distract his host's thoughts to persist with his conversational openings. an attentive silence came upon both gentlemen that was broken presently by a sudden outcry from mr. britling and a great noise of tormented gears. "damn!" cried mr. britling, and "how the _devil_?" mr. direck perceived that his host was trying to turn the car into a very beautiful gateway, with gate-houses on either side. then it was manifest that mr. britling had abandoned this idea, and then they came to a stop a dozen yards or so along the main road. "missed it," said mr. britling, and took his hands off the steering wheel and blew stormily, and then whistled some bars of a fretful air, and became still. "do we go through these ancient gates?" asked mr. direck. mr. britling looked over his right shoulder and considered problems of curvature and distance. "i think," he said, "i will go round outside the park. it will take us a little longer, but it will be simpler than backing and manoeuvring here now.... these electric starters are remarkably convenient things. otherwise now i should have to get down and wind up the engine." after that came a corner, the rounding of which seemed to present few difficulties until suddenly mr. britling cried out, "eh! _eh_! eh! oh, _damn_!" then the two gentlemen were sitting side by side in a rather sloping car that had ascended the bank and buried its nose in a hedge of dog-rose and honeysuckle, from which two missel thrushes, a blackbird and a number of sparrows had made a hurried escape.... section "perhaps," said mr. britling without assurance, and after a little peaceful pause, "i can reverse out of this." he seemed to feel some explanation was due to mr. direck. "you see, at first--it's perfectly simple--one steers _round_ a corner and then one doesn't put the wheels straight again, and so one keeps on going round--more than one meant to. it's the bicycle habit; the bicycle rights itself. one expects a car to do the same thing. it was my fault. the book explains all this question clearly, but just at the moment i forgot." he reflected and experimented in a way that made the engine scold and fuss.... "you see, she won't budge for the reverse.... she's--embedded.... do you mind getting out and turning the wheel back? then if i reverse, perhaps we'll get a move on...." mr. direck descended, and there were considerable efforts. "if you'd just grip the spokes. yes, so.... one, two, three!... no! well, let's just sit here until somebody comes along to help us. oh! somebody will come all right. won't you get up again?" and after a reflective moment mr. direck resumed his seat beside mr. britling.... section the two gentlemen smiled at each other to dispel any suspicion of discontent. "my driving leaves something to be desired," said mr. britling with an air of frank impartiality. "but i have only just got this car for myself--after some years of hired cars--the sort of lazy arrangement where people supply car, driver, petrol, tyres, insurance and everything at so much a month. it bored me abominably. i can't imagine now how i stood it for so long. they sent me down a succession of compact, scornful boys who used to go fast when i wanted to go slow, and slow when i wanted to go fast, and who used to take every corner on the wrong side at top speed, and charge dogs and hens for the sport of it, and all sorts of things like that. they would not even let me choose my roads. i should have got myself a car long ago, and driven it, if it wasn't for that infernal business with a handle one had to do when the engine stopped. but here, you see, is a reasonably cheap car with an electric starter--american, i need scarcely say. and here i am--going at my own pace." mr. direck glanced for a moment at the pretty disorder of the hedge in which they were embedded, and smiled and admitted that it was certainly much more agreeable. before he had finished saying as much mr. britling was talking again. he had a quick and rather jerky way of speaking; he seemed to fire out a thought directly it came into his mind, and he seemed to have a loaded magazine of thoughts in his head. he spoke almost exactly twice as fast as mr. direck, clipping his words much more, using much compacter sentences, and generally cutting his corners, and this put mr. direck off his game. that rapid attack while the transatlantic interlocutor is deploying is indeed a not infrequent defect of conversations between englishmen and americans. it is a source of many misunderstandings. the two conceptions of conversation differ fundamentally. the english are much less disposed to listen than the american; they have not quite the same sense of conversational give and take, and at first they are apt to reduce their visitors to the rôle of auditors wondering when their turn will begin. their turn never does begin. mr. direck sat deeply in his slanting seat with a half face to his celebrated host and said "yep" and "sure" and "that _is_ so," in the dry grave tones that he believed an englishman would naturally expect him to use, realising this only very gradually. mr. britling, from his praise of the enterprise that had at last brought a car he could drive within his reach, went on to that favourite topic of all intelligent englishmen, the adverse criticism of things british. he pointed out that the central position of the brake and gear levers in his automobile made it extremely easy for the american manufacturer to turn it out either as a left-handed or a right-handed car, and so adapt it either to the continental or to the british rule of the road. no english cars were so adaptable. we british suffered much from our insular rule of the road, just as we suffered much from our insular weights and measures. but we took a perverse pride in such disadvantages. the irruption of american cars into england was a recent phenomenon, it was another triumph for the tremendous organising ability of the american mind. they were doing with the automobile what they had done with clocks and watches and rifles, they had standardised and machined wholesale, while the british were still making the things one by one. it was an extraordinary thing that england, which was the originator of the industrial system and the original developer of the division of labour, should have so fallen away from systematic manufacturing. he believed this was largely due to the influence of oxford and the established church.... at this point mr. direck was moved by an anecdote. "it will help to illustrate what you are saying, mr. britling, about systematic organisation if i tell you a little incident that happened to a friend of mine in toledo, where they are setting up a big plant with a view to capturing the entire american and european market in the class of the thousand-dollar car--" "there's no end of such little incidents," said mr. britling, cutting in without apparent effort. "you see, we get it on both sides. our manufacturer class was, of course, originally an insurgent class. it was a class of distended craftsmen. it had the craftsman's natural enterprise and natural radicalism. as soon as it prospered and sent its boys to oxford it was lost. our manufacturing class was assimilated in no time to the conservative classes, whose education has always had a mandarin quality--very, very little of it, and very cold and choice. in america you have so far had no real conservative class at all. fortunate continent! you cast out your tories, and you were left with nothing but whigs and radicals. but our peculiar bad luck has been to get a sort of revolutionary who is a tory mandarin too. ruskin and morris, for example, were as reactionary and anti-scientific as the dukes and the bishops. machine haters. science haters. rule of thumbites to the bone. so are our current socialists. they've filled this country with the idea that the ideal automobile ought to be made entirely by the hand labour of traditional craftsmen, quite individually, out of beaten copper, wrought iron and seasoned oak. all this electric-starter business and this electric lighting outfit i have here, is perfectly hateful to the english mind.... it isn't that we are simply backward in these things, we are antagonistic. the british mind has never really tolerated electricity; at least, not that sort of electricity that runs through wires. too slippery and glib for it. associates it with italians and fluency generally, with volta, galvani, marconi and so on. the proper british electricity is that high-grade useless long-sparking stuff you get by turning round a glass machine; stuff we used to call frictional electricity. keep it in leyden jars.... at claverings here they still refuse to have electric bells. there was a row when the solomonsons, who were tenants here for a time, tried to put them in...." mr. direck had followed this cascade of remarks with a patient smile and a slowly nodding head. "what you say," he said, "forms a very marked contrast indeed with the sort of thing that goes on in america. this friend of mine i was speaking of, the one who is connected with an automobile factory in toledo--" "of course," mr. britling burst out again, "even conservatism isn't an ultimate thing. after all, we and your enterprising friend at toledo, are very much the same blood. the conservatism, i mean, isn't racial. and our earlier energy shows it isn't in the air or in the soil. england has become unenterprising and sluggish because england has been so prosperous and comfortable...." "exactly," said mr. direck. "my friend of whom i was telling you, was a man named robinson, which indicates pretty clearly that he was of genuine english stock, and, if i may say so, quite of your build and complexion; racially, i should say, he was, well--very much what you are...." section this rally of mr. direck's mind was suddenly interrupted. mr. britling stood up, and putting both hands to the sides of his mouth, shouted "yi-ah! aye-ya! thea!" at unseen hearers. after shouting again, several times, it became manifest that he had attracted the attention of two willing but deliberate labouring men. they emerged slowly, first as attentive heads, from the landscape. with their assistance the car was restored to the road again. mr. direck assisted manfully, and noted the respect that was given to mr. britling and the shillings that fell to the men, with an intelligent detachment. they touched their hats, they called mr. britling "sir." they examined the car distantly but kindly. "ain't 'urt 'e, not a bit 'e ain't, not really," said one encouragingly. and indeed except for a slight crumpling of the mud-guard and the detachment of the wire of one of the headlights the automobile was uninjured. mr. britling resumed his seat; mr. direck gravely and in silence got up beside him. they started with the usual convulsion, as though something had pricked the vehicle unexpectedly and shamefully behind. and from this point mr. britling, driving with meticulous care, got home without further mishap, excepting only that he scraped off some of the metal edge of his footboard against the gate-post of his very agreeable garden. his family welcomed his safe return, visitor and all, with undisguised relief and admiration. a small boy appeared at the corner of the house, and then disappeared hastily again. "daddy's got back all right at last," they heard him shouting to unseen hearers. section mr. direck, though he was a little incommoded by the suppression of his story about robinson--for when he had begun a thing he liked to finish it--found mr. britling's household at once thoroughly british, quite un-american and a little difficult to follow. it had a quality that at first he could not define at all. compared with anything he had ever seen in his life before it struck him as being--he found the word at last--sketchy. for instance, he was introduced to nobody except his hostess, and she was indicated to him by a mere wave of mr. britling's hand. "that's edith," he said, and returned at once to his car to put it away. mrs. britling was a tall, freckled woman with pretty bright brown hair and preoccupied brown eyes. she welcomed him with a handshake, and then a wonderful english parlourmaid--she at least was according to expectations--took his grip-sack and guided him to his room. "lunch, sir," she said, "is outside," and closed the door and left him to that and a towel-covered can of hot water. it was a square-looking old red-brick house he had come to, very handsome in a simple georgian fashion, with a broad lawn before it and great blue cedar trees, and a drive that came frankly up to the front door and then went off with mr. britling and the car round to unknown regions at the back. the centre of the house was a big airy hall, oak-panelled, warmed in winter only by one large fireplace and abounding in doors which he knew opened into the square separate rooms that england favours. bookshelves and stuffed birds comforted the landing outside his bedroom. he descended to find the hall occupied by a small bright bristling boy in white flannel shirt and knickerbockers and bare legs and feet. he stood before the vacant open fireplace in an attitude that mr. direck knew instantly was also mr. britling's. "lunch is in the garden," the britling scion proclaimed, "and i've got to fetch you. and, i say! is it true? are you american?" "why surely," said mr. direck. "well, i know some american," said the boy. "i learnt it." "tell me some," said mr. direck, smiling still more amiably. "oh! well--god darn you! ouch, gee-whizz! soak him, maud! it's up to you, duke...." "now where did you learn all that?" asked mr. direck recovering. "out of the sunday supplement," said the youthful britling. "why! then you know all about buster brown," said mr. direck. "he's fine--eh?" the britling child hated buster brown. he regarded buster brown as a totally unnecessary infant. he detested the way he wore his hair and the peculiar cut of his knickerbockers and--him. he thought buster brown the one drop of paraffin in the otherwise delicious feast of the sunday supplement. but he was a diplomatic child. "i think i like happy hooligan better," he said. "and dat ole maud." he reflected with joyful eyes, buster clean forgotten. "every week," he said, "she kicks some one." it came to mr. direck as a very pleasant discovery that a british infant could find a common ground with the small people at home in these characteristically american jests. he had never dreamt that the fine wine of maud and buster could travel. "maud's a treat," said the youthful britling, relapsing into his native tongue. mr. britling appeared coming to meet them. he was now in a grey flannel suit--he must have jumped into it--and altogether very much tidier.... section the long narrow table under the big sycamores between the house and the adapted barn that mr. direck learnt was used for "dancing and all that sort of thing," was covered with a blue linen diaper cloth, and that too surprised him. this was his first meal in a private household in england, and for obscure reasons he had expected something very stiff and formal with "spotless napery." he had also expected a very stiff and capable service by implacable parlourmaids, and the whole thing indeed highly genteel. but two cheerful women servants appeared from what was presumably the kitchen direction, wheeling a curious wicker erection, which his small guide informed him was called aunt clatter--manifestly deservedly--and which bore on its shelves the substance of the meal. and while the maids at this migratory sideboard carved and opened bottles and so forth, the small boy and a slightly larger brother, assisted a little by two young men of no very defined position and relationship, served the company. mrs. britling sat at the head of the table, and conversed with mr. direck by means of hostess questions and imperfectly accepted answers while she kept a watchful eye on the proceedings. the composition of the company was a matter for some perplexity to mr. direck. mr. and mrs. britling were at either end of the table, that was plain enough. it was also fairly plain that the two barefooted boys were little britlings. but beyond this was a cloud of uncertainty. there was a youth of perhaps seventeen, much darker than britling but with nose and freckles rather like his, who might be an early son or a stepson; he was shock-headed and with that look about his arms and legs that suggests overnight growth; and there was an unmistakable young german, very pink, with close-cropped fair hair, glasses and a panama hat, who was probably the tutor of the younger boys. (mr. direck also was wearing his hat, his mind had been filled with an exaggerated idea of the treacheries of the english climate before he left new york. every one else was hatless.) finally, before one reached the limits of the explicable there was a pleasant young man with a lot of dark hair and very fine dark blue eyes, whom everybody called "teddy." for him, mr. direck hazarded "secretary." but in addition to these normal and understandable presences, there was an entirely mysterious pretty young woman in blue linen who sat and smiled next to mr. britling, and there was a rather kindred-looking girl with darker hair on the right of mr. direck who impressed him at the very outset as being still prettier, and--he didn't quite place her at first--somehow familiar to him; there was a large irrelevant middle-aged lady in black with a gold chain and a large nose, between teddy and the tutor; there was a tall middle-aged man with an intelligent face, who might be a casual guest; there was an indian young gentleman faultlessly dressed up to his brown soft linen collar and cuffs, and thereafter an uncontrolled outbreak of fine bronze modelling and abundant fuzzy hair; and there was a very erect and attentive baby of a year or less, sitting up in a perambulator and gesticulating cheerfully to everybody. this baby it was that most troubled the orderly mind of mr. direck. the research for its paternity made his conversation with mrs. britling almost as disconnected and absent-minded as her conversation with him. it almost certainly wasn't mrs. britling's. the girl next to him or the girl next to mr. britling or the lady in black might any of them be married, but if so where was the spouse? it seemed improbable that they would wheel out a foundling to lunch.... realising at last that the problem of relationship must be left to solve itself if he did not want to dissipate and consume his mind entirely, mr. direck turned to his hostess, who was enjoying a brief lull in her administrative duties, and told her what a memorable thing the meeting of mr. britling in his own home would be in his life, and how very highly america was coming to esteem mr. britling and his essays. he found that with a slight change of person, one of his premeditated openings was entirely serviceable here. and he went on to observe that it was novel and entertaining to find mr. britling driving his own automobile and to note that it was an automobile of american manufacture. in america they had standardised and systematised the making of such things as automobiles to an extent that would, he thought, be almost startling to europeans. it was certainly startling to the european manufacturers. in illustration of that he might tell a little story of a friend of his called robinson--a man who curiously enough in general build and appearance was very reminiscent indeed of mr. britling. he had been telling mr. britling as much on his way here from the station. his friend was concerned with several others in one of the biggest attacks that had ever been made upon what one might describe in general terms as the thousand-dollar light automobile market. what they said practically was this: this market is a jig-saw puzzle waiting to be put together and made one. we are going to do it. but that was easier to figure out than to do. at the very outset of this attack he and his associates found themselves up against an unexpected and very difficult proposition.... at first mrs. britling had listened to mr. direck with an almost undivided attention, but as he had developed his opening the feast upon the blue linen table had passed on to a fresh phase that demanded more and more of her directive intelligence. the two little boys appeared suddenly at her elbows. "shall we take the plates and get the strawberries, mummy?" they asked simultaneously. then one of the neat maids in the background had to be called up and instructed in undertones, and mr. direck saw that for the present robinson's illuminating experience was not for her ears. a little baffled, but quite understanding how things were, he turned to his neighbour on his left.... the girl really had an extraordinarily pretty smile, and there was something in her soft bright brown eye--like the movement of some quick little bird. and--she was like somebody he knew! indeed she was. she was quite ready to be spoken to. "i was telling mrs. britling," said mr. direck, "what a very great privilege i esteem it to meet mr. britling in this highly familiar way." "you've not met him before?" "i missed him by twenty-four hours when he came through boston on the last occasion. just twenty-four hours. it was a matter of very great regret to me." "i wish i'd been paid to travel round the world." "you must write things like mr. britling and then mr. kahn will send you." "don't you think if i promised well?" "you'd have to write some promissory notes, i think--just to convince him it was all right." the young lady reflected on mr. britling's good fortune. "he saw india. he saw japan. he had weeks in egypt. and he went right across america." mr. direck had already begun on the liner to adapt himself to the hopping inconsecutiveness of english conversation. he made now what he felt was quite a good hop, and he dropped his voice to a confidential undertone. (it was probably adam in his first conversation with eve, who discovered the pleasantness of dropping into a confidential undertone beside a pretty ear with a pretty wave of hair above it.) "it was in india, i presume," murmured mr. direck, "that mr. britling made the acquaintance of the coloured gentleman?" "coloured gentleman!" she gave a swift glance down the table as though she expected to see something purple with yellow spots. "oh, that is one of mr. lawrence carmine's young men!" she explained even more confidentially and with an air of discussing the silver bowl of roses before him. "he's a great authority on indian literature, he belongs to a society for making things pleasant for indian students in london, and he has them down." "and mr. lawrence carmine?" he pursued. even more intimately and confidentially she indicated mr. carmine, as it seemed by a motion of her eyelash. mr. direck prepared to be even more _sotto-voce_ and to plumb a much profounder mystery. his eye rested on the perambulator; he leant a little nearer to the ear.... but the strawberries interrupted him. "strawberries!" said the young lady, and directed his regard to his left shoulder by a little movement of her head. he found one of the boys with a high-piled plate ready to serve him. and then mrs. britling resumed her conversation with him. she was so ignorant, she said, of things american, that she did not even know if they had strawberries there. at any rate, here they were at the crest of the season, and in a very good year. and in the rose season too. it was one of the dearest vanities of english people to think their apples and their roses and their strawberries the best in the world. "and their complexions," said mr. direck, over the pyramid of fruit, quite manifestly intending a compliment. so that was all right.... but the girl on the left of him was speaking across the table to the german tutor, and did not hear what he had said. so that even if it wasn't very neat it didn't matter.... then he remembered that she was like that old daguerreotype of a cousin of his grandmother's that he had fallen in love with when he was a boy. it was her smile. of course! of course!... and he'd sort of adored that portrait.... he felt a curious disposition to tell her as much.... "what makes this visit even more interesting if possible to me," he said to mrs. britling, "than it would otherwise be, is that this essex country is the country in which my maternal grandmother was raised, and also long way back my mother's father's people. my mother's father's people were very early new england people indeed.... well, no. if i said _mayflower_ it wouldn't be true. but it would approximate. they were essex hinkinsons. that's what they were. i must be a good third of me at least essex. my grandmother was an essex corner, i must confess i've had some thought--" "corner?" said the young lady at his elbow sharply. "i was telling mrs. britling i had some thought--" "but about those essex relatives of yours?" "well, of finding if they were still about in these parts.... say! i haven't dropped a brick, have i?" he looked from one face to another. "_she's_ a corner," said mrs. britling. "well," said mr. direck, and hesitated for a moment. it was so delightful that one couldn't go on being just discreet. the atmosphere was free and friendly. his intonation disarmed offence. and he gave the young lady the full benefit of a quite expressive eye. "i'm very pleased to meet you, cousin corner. how are the old folks at home?" section the bright interest of this consulship helped mr. direck more than anything to get the better of his robinson-anecdote crave, and when presently he found his dialogue with mr. britling resumed, he turned at once to this remarkable discovery of his long lost and indeed hitherto unsuspected relative. "it's an american sort of thing to do, i suppose," he said apologetically, "but i almost thought of going on, on monday, to market saffron, which was the locality of the hinkinsons, and just looking about at the tombstones in the churchyard for a day or so." "very probably," said mr. britling, "you'd find something about them in the parish registers. lots of our registers go back three hundred years or more. i'll drive you over in my lil' old car." "oh! i wouldn't put you to that trouble," said mr. direck hastily. "it's no trouble. i like the driving. what i have had of it. and while we're at it, we'll come back by harborough high oak and look up the corner pedigree. they're all over that district still. and the road's not really difficult; it's only a bit up and down and roundabout." "i couldn't think, mr. britling, of putting you to that much trouble." "it's no trouble. i want a day off, and i'm dying to take gladys--" "gladys?" said mr. direck with sudden hope. "that's my name for the lil' car. i'm dying to take her for something like a decent run. i've only had her out four times altogether, and i've not got her up yet to forty miles. which i'm told she ought to do easily. we'll consider that settled." for the moment mr. direck couldn't think of any further excuse. but it was very clear in his mind that something must happen; he wished he knew of somebody who could send a recall telegram from london, to prevent him committing himself to the casual destinies of mr. britling's car again. and then another interest became uppermost in his mind. "you'd hardly believe me," he said, "if i told you that that miss corner of yours has a quite extraordinary resemblance to a miniature i've got away there in america of a cousin of my maternal grandmother's. she seems a very pleasant young lady." but mr. britling supplied no further information about miss corner. "it must be very interesting," he said, "to come over here and pick up these american families of yours on the monuments and tombstones. you know, of course, that district south of evesham where every other church monument bears the stars and stripes, the arms of departed washingtons. i doubt though if you'll still find the name about there. nor will you find many hinkinsons in market saffron. but lots of this country here has five or six hundred-year-old families still flourishing. that's why essex is so much more genuinely old england than surrey, say, or kent. round here you'll find corners and fairlies, and then you get capels, and then away down towards dunmow and braintree maynards and byngs. and there are oaks and hornbeams in the park about claverings that have echoed to the howling of wolves and the clank of men in armour. all the old farms here are moated--because of the wolves. claverings itself is tudor, and rather fine too. and the cottages still wear thatch...." he reflected. "now if you went south of london instead of northward it's all different. you're in a different period, a different society. you're in london suburbs right down to the sea. you'll find no genuine estates left, not of our deep-rooted familiar sort. you'll find millionaires and that sort of people, sitting in the old places. surrey is full of rich stockbrokers, company-promoters, bookies, judges, newspaper proprietors. sort of people who fence the paths across their parks. they do something to the old places--i don't know what they do--but instantly the countryside becomes a villadom. and little sub-estates and red-brick villas and art cottages spring up. and a kind of new, hard neatness. and pneumatic tyre and automobile spirit advertisements, great glaring boards by the roadside. and all the poor people are inspected and rushed about until they forget who their grandfathers were. they become villa parasites and odd-job men, and grow basely rich and buy gramophones. this essex and yonder surrey are as different as russia and germany. but for one american who comes to look at essex, twenty go to godalming and guildford and dorking and lewes and canterbury. those surrey people are not properly english at all. they are strenuous. you have to get on or get out. they drill their gardeners, lecture very fast on agricultural efficiency, and have miniature rifle ranges in every village. it's a county of new notice-boards and barbed-wire fences; there's always a policeman round the corner. they dress for dinner. they dress for everything. if a man gets up in the night to look for a burglar he puts on the correct costume--or doesn't go. they've got a special scientific system for urging on their tramps. and they lock up their churches on a week-day. half their soil is hard chalk or a rationalistic sand, only suitable for bunkers and villa foundations. and they play golf in a large, expensive, thorough way because it's the thing to do.... now here in essex we're as lax as the eighteenth century. we hunt in any old clothes. our soil is a rich succulent clay; it becomes semi-fluid in winter--when we go about in waders shooting duck. all our fingerposts have been twisted round by facetious men years ago. and we pool our breeds of hens and pigs. our roses and oaks are wonderful; that alone shows that this is the real england. if i wanted to play golf--which i don't, being a decent essex man--i should have to motor ten miles into hertfordshire. and for rheumatics and longevity surrey can't touch us. i want you to be clear on these points, because they really will affect your impressions of this place.... this country is a part of the real england--england outside london and outside manufactures. it's one with wessex and mercia or old yorkshire--or for the matter of that with meath or lothian. and it's the essential england still...." section it detracted a little from mr. direck's appreciation of this flow of information that it was taking them away from the rest of the company. he wanted to see more of his new-found cousin, and what the baby and the bengali gentleman--whom manifestly one mustn't call "coloured"--and the large-nosed lady and all the other inexplicables would get up to. instead of which mr. britling was leading him off alone with an air of showing him round the premises, and talking too rapidly and variously for a question to be got in edgeways, much less any broaching of the matter that mr. direck had come over to settle. there was quite a lot of rose garden, it made the air delicious, and it was full of great tumbling bushes of roses and of neglected standards, and it had a long pergola of creepers and trailers and a great arbour, and underneath over the beds everywhere, contrary to all the rules, the blossom of a multitude of pansies and stock and little trailing plants swarmed and crowded and scrimmaged and drilled and fought great massed attacks. and then mr. britling talked their way round a red-walled vegetable garden with an abundance of fruit trees, and through a door into a terraced square that had once been a farmyard, outside the converted barn. the barn doors had been replaced by a door-pierced window of glass, and in the middle of the square space a deep tank had been made, full of rainwater, in which mr. britling remarked casually that "everybody" bathed when the weather was hot. thyme and rosemary and suchlike sweet-scented things grew on the terrace about the tank, and ten trimmed little trees of _arbor vitae_ stood sentinel. mr. direck was tantalisingly aware that beyond some lilac bushes were his new-found cousin and the kindred young woman in blue playing tennis with the indian and another young man, while whenever it was necessary the large-nosed lady crossed the stage and brooded soothingly over the perambulator. and mr. britling, choosing a seat from which mr. direck just couldn't look comfortably through the green branches at the flying glimpses of pink and blue and white and brown, continued to talk about england and america in relation to each other and everything else under the sun. presently through a distant gate the two small boys were momentarily visible wheeling small but serviceable bicycles, followed after a little interval by the german tutor. then an enormous grey cat came slowly across the garden court, and sat down to listen respectfully to mr. britling. the afternoon sky was an intense blue, with little puff-balls of cloud lined out across it. occasionally, from chance remarks of mr. britling's, mr. direck was led to infer that his first impressions as an american visitor were being related to his host, but as a matter of fact he was permitted to relate nothing; mr. britling did all the talking. he sat beside his guest and spirted and played ideas and reflections like a happy fountain in the sunshine. mr. direck sat comfortably, and smoked with quiet appreciation the one after-lunch cigar he allowed himself. at any rate, if he himself felt rather word-bound, the fountain was nimble and entertaining. he listened in a general sort of way to the talk, it was quite impossible to follow it thoughtfully throughout all its chinks and turnings, while his eyes wandered about the garden and went ever and again to the flitting tennis-players beyond the green. it was all very gay and comfortable and complete; it was various and delightful without being in the least _opulent_; that was one of the little secrets america had to learn. it didn't look as though it had been made or bought or cost anything, it looked as though it had happened rather luckily.... mr. britling's talk became like a wide stream flowing through mr. direck's mind, bearing along momentary impressions and observations, drifting memories of all the crowded english sights and sounds of the last five days, filmy imaginations about ancestral names and pretty cousins, scraps of those prepared conversational openings on mr. britling's standing in america, the explanation about the lecture club, the still incompletely forgotten purport of the robinson anecdote.... "nobody planned the british estate system, nobody planned the british aristocratic system, nobody planned the confounded constitution, it came about, it was like layer after layer wrapping round an agate, but you see it came about so happily in a way, it so suited the climate and the temperament of our people and our island, it was on the whole so cosy, that our people settled down into it, you can't help settling down into it, they had already settled down by the days of queen anne, and heaven knows if we shall ever really get away again. we're like that little shell the _lingula_, that is found in the oldest rocks and lives to-day: it fitted its easy conditions, and it has never modified since. why should it? it excretes all its disturbing forces. our younger sons go away and found colonial empires. our surplus cottage children emigrate to australia and canada or migrate into the towns. it doesn't alter _this_...." section mr. direck's eye had come to rest upon the barn, and its expression changed slowly from lazy appreciation to a brightening intelligence. suddenly he resolved to say something. he resolved to say it so firmly that he determined to say it even if mr. britling went on talking all the time. "i suppose, mr. britling," he said, "this barn here dates from the days of queen anne." "the walls of the yard here are probably earlier: probably monastic. that grey patch in the corner, for example. the barn itself is georgian." "and here it is still. and this farmyard, here it is still." mr. britling was for flying off again, but mr. direck would not listen; he held on like a man who keeps his grip on a lasso. "there's one thing i would like to remark about your barn, mr. britling, and i might, while i am at it, say the same thing about your farmyard." mr. britling was held. "what's that?" he asked. "well," said mr. direck, "the point that strikes me most about all this is that that barn isn't a barn any longer, and that this farmyard isn't a farmyard. there isn't any wheat or chaff or anything of that sort in the barn, and there never will be again: there's just a pianola and a dancing floor, and if a cow came into this farmyard everybody in the place would be shooing it out again. they'd regard it as a most unnatural object." he had a pleasant sense of talking at last. he kept right on. he was moved to a sweeping generalisation. "you were so good as to ask me, mr. britling, a little while ago, what my first impression of england was. well, mr. britling, my first impression of england that seems to me to matter in the least is this: that it looks and feels more like the traditional old england than any one could possibly have believed, and that in reality it is less like the traditional old england than any one would ever possibly have imagined." he was carried on even further. he made a tremendous literary epigram. "i thought," he said, "when i looked out of the train this morning that i had come to the england of washington irving. i find it is not even the england of mrs. humphry ward." chapter the second mr. britling continues his exposition section mr. direck found little reason to revise his dictum in the subsequent experiences of the afternoon. indeed the afternoon and the next day were steadily consistent in confirming what a very good dictum it had been. the scenery was the traditional scenery of england, and all the people seemed quicker, more irresponsible, more chaotic, than any one could have anticipated, and entirely inexplicable by any recognised code of english relationships.... "you think that john bull is dead and a strange generation is wearing his clothes," said mr. britling. "i think you'll find very soon it's the old john bull. perhaps not mrs. humphry ward's john bull, or mrs. henry wood's john bull but true essentially to shakespeare, fielding, dickens, meredith...." "i suppose," he added, "there are changes. there's a new generation grown up...." he looked at his barn and the swimming pool. "it's a good point of yours about the barn," he said. "what you say reminds me of that very jolly thing of kipling's about the old mill-wheel that began by grinding corn and ended by driving dynamos.... "only i admit that barn doesn't exactly drive a dynamo.... "to be frank, it's just a pleasure barn.... "the country can afford it...." section he left it at that for the time, but throughout the afternoon mr. direck had the gratification of seeing his thought floating round and round in the back-waters of mr. britling's mental current. if it didn't itself get into the stream again its reflection at any rate appeared and reappeared. he was taken about with great assiduity throughout the afternoon, and he got no more than occasional glimpses of the rest of the dower house circle until six o'clock in the evening. meanwhile the fountains of mr. britling's active and encyclopædic mind played steadily. he was inordinately proud of england, and he abused her incessantly. he wanted to state england to mr. direck as the amiable summation of a grotesque assembly of faults. that was the view into which the comforts and prosperities of his middle age had brought him from a radicalism that had in its earlier stages been angry and bitter. and for mr. britling england was "here." essex was the county he knew. he took mr. direck out from his walled garden by a little door into a trim paddock with two white goals. "we play hockey here on sundays," he said in a way that gave mr. direck no hint of the practically compulsory participation of every visitor to matching's easy in this violent and dangerous exercise, and thence they passed by a rich deep lane and into a high road that ran along the edge of the deer park of claverings. "we will call in on claverings later," said mr. britling. "lady homartyn has some people there for the week-end, and you ought to see the sort of thing it is and the sort of people they are. she wanted us to lunch there to-morrow, but i didn't accept that because of our afternoon hockey." mr. direck received this reason uncritically. the village reminded mr. direck of abbey's pictures. there was an inn with a sign standing out in the road, a painted sign of the clavering arms; it had a water trough (such as mr. weller senior ducked the dissenter in) and a green painted table outside its inviting door. there were also a general shop and a number of very pleasant cottages, each marked with the mainstay crest. all this was grouped about a green with real geese drilling thereon. mr. britling conducted his visitor (through a lych gate) into the church-yard, and there they found mossy, tumble-down tombstones, one with a skull and cross-bones upon it, that went back to the later seventeenth century. in the aisle of the church were three huge hatchments, and there was a side chapel devoted to the mainstay family and the barons homartyn, with a series of monuments that began with painted tudor effigies and came down to a vast stained glass window of the vilest commercial victorian. there were also mediæval brasses of parish priests, and a marble crusader and his lady of some extinguished family which had ruled matching's easy before the mainstays came. and as the two gentlemen emerged from the church they ran against the perfect vicar, mr. dimple, ample and genial, with an embracing laugh and an enveloping voice. "come to see the old country," he said to mr. direck. "so good of you americans to do that! so good of you...." there was some amiable sparring between the worthy man and mr. britling about bringing mr. direck to church on sunday morning. "he's terribly lax," said mr. dimple to mr. direck, smiling radiantly. "terribly lax. but then nowadays everybody _is_ so lax. and he's very good to my coal club; i don't know what we should do without him. so i just admonish him. and if he doesn't go to church, well, anyhow he doesn't go anywhere else. he may be a poor churchman, but anyhow he's not a dissenter...." "in england, you see," mr. britling remarked, after they had parted from the reverend gentleman, "we have domesticated everything. we have even domesticated god." for awhile mr. britling showed mr. direck english lanes, and then came back along narrow white paths across small fields of rising wheat, to the village and a little gate that led into the park. "well," said mr. direck, "what you say about domestication does seem to me to be very true indeed. why! even those clouds up there look as though they had a shepherd and were grazing." "ready for shearing almost," said mr. britling. "indeed," said mr. direck, raising his voice a little, "i've seen scarcely anything in england that wasn't domesticated, unless it was some of your back streets in london." mr. britling seemed to reflect for a moment. "they're an excrescence," he said.... section the park had a trim wildness like nature in an old italian picture; dappled fallow deer grouped close at hand and looked at the two men fearlessly; the path dropped through oak trees and some stunted bracken to a little loitering stream, that paused ever and again to play at ponds and waterfalls and bear a fleet of water-lily leaves; and then their way curved round in an indolent sweep towards the cedars and shrubberies of the great house. the house looked low and extensive to an american eye, and its red-brick chimneys rose like infantry in open order along its extended line. there was a glimpse of flower-bright garden and terraces to the right as they came round the corner to the front of the house through a path cut in the laurel bushes. mr. britling had a moment of exposition as they approached the entrance. "i expect we shall find philbert from the home office--or is it the local government board?--and sir thomas loot, the treasury man. there may be some other people of that sort, the people we call the governing class. wives also. and i rather fancy the countess of frensham is coming, she's strong on the irish question, and lady venetia trumpington, who they say is a beauty--i've never seen her. it's lady homartyn's way to expect me to come in--not that i'm an important item at these week-end social feasts--but she likes to see me on the table--to be nibbled at if any one wants to do so--like the olives and the salted almonds. and she always asks me to lunch on sunday and i always refuse--because of the hockey. so you see i put in an appearance on the saturday afternoon...." they had reached the big doorway. it opened into a large cool hall adorned with the heads of hippopotami and rhinoceroses and a stuffed lion, and furnished chiefly with a vast table on which hats and sticks and newspapers were littered. a manservant with a subdued, semi-confidential manner, conveyed to mr. britling that her ladyship was on the terrace, and took the hats and sticks that were handed to him and led the way through the house. they emerged upon a broad terrace looking out under great cedar trees upon flower beds and stone urns and tennis lawns and yew hedges that dipped to give a view of distant hills. on the terrace were grouped perhaps a dozen people for the most part holding teacups, they sat in deck chairs and folding seats about a little table that bore the tea-things. lady homartyn came forward to welcome the newcomers. mr. direck was introduced as a travelling american gratified to see a typical english country house, and lady homartyn in an habituated way ran over the points of her tudor specimen. mr. direck was not accustomed to titled people, and was suddenly in doubt whether you called a baroness "my lady" or "your ladyship," so he wisely avoided any form of address until he had a lead from mr. britling. mr. britling presently called her "lady homartyn." she took mr. direck and sat him down beside a lady whose name he didn't catch, but who had had a lot to do with the british embassy at washington, and then she handed mr. britling over to the rt. honble. george philbert, who was anxious to discuss certain points in the latest book of essays. the conversation of the lady from washington was intelligent but not exacting, and mr. direck was able to give a certain amount of attention to the general effect of the scene. he was a little disappointed to find that the servants didn't wear livery. in american magazine pictures and in american cinematograph films of english stories and in the houses of very rich americans living in england, they do so. and the mansion house is misleading; he had met a compatriot who had recently dined at the mansion house, and who had described "flunkeys" in hair-powder and cloth of gold--like thackeray's jeames yellowplush. but here the only servants were two slim, discreet and attentive young gentlemen in black coats with a gentle piety in their manner instead of pride. and he was a little disappointed too by a certain lack of splendour in the company. the ladies affected him as being ill-dressed; there was none of the hard snap, the "_there!_ and what do you say to it?" about them of the well-dressed american woman, and the men too were not so much tailored as unobtrusively and yet grammatically clothed. section he was still only in the fragmentary stage of conversation when everything was thrown into commotion by the important arrival of lady frensham, and there was a general reshuffling of places. lady frensham had arrived from london by automobile; she appeared in veils and swathings and a tremendous dust cloak, with a sort of nephew in her train who had driven the car. she was manifestly a constitutionally triumphant woman. a certain afternoon lassitude vanished in the swirl of her arrival. mr. philbert removed wrappings and handed them to the manservant. "i lunched with sir edward carson to-day, my dear," she told lady homartyn, and rolled a belligerent eye at philbert. "and is he as obdurate as ever?" asked sir thomas. "obdurate! it's redmond who's obdurate," cried lady frensham. "what do you say, mr. britling?" "a plague on both your parties," said mr. britling. "you can't keep out of things like that," said lady frensham with the utmost gusto, "when the country's on the very verge of civil war.... you people who try to pretend there isn't a grave crisis when there is one, will be more accountable than any one--when the civil war does come. it won't spare you. mark my words!" the party became a circle. mr. direck found himself the interested auditor of a real english country-house week-end political conversation. this at any rate was like the england of which mrs. humphry ward's novels had informed him, but yet not exactly like it. perhaps that was due to the fact that for the most part these novels dealt with the england of the 'nineties, and things had lost a little in dignity since those days. but at any rate here were political figures and titled people, and they were talking about the "country."... was it possible that people of this sort did "run" the country, after all?... when he had read mrs. humphry ward in america he had always accepted this theory of the story quite easily, but now that he saw and heard them--! but all governments and rulers and ruling classes when you look at them closely are incredible.... "i don't believe the country is on the verge of civil war," said mr. britling. "facts!" cried lady frensham, and seemed to wipe away delusions with a rapid gesture of her hands. "you're interested in ireland, mr. dirks?" asked lady homartyn. "we see it first when we come over," said mr. direck rather neatly, and after that he was free to attend to the general discussion. lady frensham, it was manifest, was one of that energetic body of aristocratic ladies who were taking up an irreconcilable attitude against home rule "in any shape or form" at that time. they were rapidly turning british politics into a system of bitter personal feuds in which all sense of imperial welfare was lost. a wild ambition to emulate the extremest suffragettes seems to have seized upon them. they insulted, they denounced, they refused every invitation lest they should meet that "traitor" the prime minister, they imitated the party hatreds of a fiercer age, and even now the moderate and politic philbert found himself treated as an invisible object. they were supported by the extremer section of the tory press, and the most extraordinary writers were set up to froth like lunatics against the government as "traitors," as men who "insulted the king"; the _morning post_ and the lighter-witted side of the unionist press generally poured out a torrent of partisan nonsense it is now almost incredible to recall. lady frensham, bridling over lady homartyn's party, and for a time leaving mr. britling, hurried on to tell of the newest developments of the great feud. she had a wonderful description of lady londonderry sitting opposite "that old rascal, the prime minister," at a performance of mozart's _zauberflöte_. "if looks could kill!" cried lady frensham with tremendous gusto. "sir edward is quite firm that ulster means to fight. they have machine-guns--ammunition. and i am sure the army is with us...." "where did they get those machine-guns and ammunition?" asked mr. britling suddenly. "ah! that's a secret," cried lady frensham. "um," said mr. britling. "you see," said lady frensham; "it _will_ be civil war! and yet you writing people who have influence do nothing to prevent it!" "what are we to do, lady frensham?" "tell people how serious it is." "you mean, tell the irish nationalists to lie down and be walked over. they won't be...." "we'll see about that," cried lady frensham, "we'll see about that!" she was a large and dignified person with a kind of figure-head nobility of carriage, but mr. direck was suddenly reminded of a girl cousin of his who had been expelled from college for some particularly elaborate and aimless rioting.... "may i say something to you, lady frensham," said mr. britling, "that you have just said to me? do you realise that this carsonite campaign is dragging these islands within a measurable distance of civil war?" "it's the fault of your lloyd george and his government. it's the fault of your socialists and sentimentalists. you've made the mischief and you have to deal with it." "yes. but do you really figure to yourself what a civil war may mean for the empire? surely there are other things in the world besides this quarrel between the 'loyalists' of ulster and the liberal government; there are other interests in this big empire than party advantages? yon think you are going to frighten this home rule government into some ridiculous sort of collapse that will bring in the tories at the next election. well, suppose you don't manage that. suppose instead that you really do contrive to bring about a civil war. very few people here or in ireland want it--i was over there not a month ago--but when men have loaded guns in their hands they sometimes go off. and then people see red. few people realise what an incurable sore opens when fighting begins. suppose part of the army revolts and we get some extraordinary and demoralising fighting over there. india watches these things. bengal may imitate ireland. at that distance rebellion and treason are rebellion and treason whether they are coloured orange or green. and then suppose the germans see fit to attack us!" lady frensham had a woman's elusiveness. "your redmondites would welcome them with open arms." "it isn't the redmondites who invite them now, anyhow," said mr. britling, springing his mine. "the other day one of your 'loyalists,' andrews, was talking in the _morning post_ of preferring conquest by germany to home rule; craig has been at the same game; major crawford, the man who ran the german mausers last april, boasted that he would transfer his allegiance to the german emperor rather than see redmond in power." "rhetoric!" said lady frensham. "rhetoric!" "but one of your ulster papers has openly boasted that arrangements have been made for a 'powerful continental monarch' to help an ulster rebellion." "which paper?" snatched lady frensham. mr. britling hesitated. mr. philbert supplied the name. "i saw it. it was the _irish churchman_." "you two have got your case up very well," said lady frensham. "i didn't know mr. britling was a party man." "the nationalists have been circulating copies," said philbert. "naturally." "they make it look worse than mere newspaper talk and speeches," mr. britling pressed. "carson, it seems, was lunching with the german emperor last autumn. a fine fuss you'd make if redmond did that. all this gun-running, too, is german gun-running." "what does it matter if it is?" said lady frensham, allowing a belligerent eye to rest for the first time on philbert. "you drove us to it. one thing we are resolved upon at any cost. johnny redmond may rule england if he likes; he shan't rule ireland...." mr. britling shrugged his shoulders, and his face betrayed despair. "my one consolation," he said, "in this storm is a talk i had last month with a young irishwoman in meath. she was a young person of twelve, and she took a fancy to me--i think because i went with her in an alleged dangerous canoe she was forbidden to navigate alone. all day the eternal irish question had banged about over her observant head. when we were out on the water she suddenly decided to set me right upon a disregarded essential. 'you english,' she said, 'are just a bit disposed to take all this trouble seriously. don't you fret yourself about it... half the time we're just laffing at you. you'd best leave us all alone....'" and then he went off at a tangent from his own anecdote. "but look at this miserable spectacle!" he cried. "here is a chance of getting something like a reconciliation of the old feud of english and irish, and something like a settlement of these ancient distresses, and there seems no power, no conscience, no sanity in any of us, sufficient to save it from this cantankerous bitterness, this sheer wicked mischief of mutual exasperation.... just when ireland is getting a gleam of prosperity.... a murrain on both your parties!" "i see, mr. britling, you'd hand us all over to jim larkin!" "i'd hand you all over to sir horace plunkett--" "that doctrinaire dairyman!" cried lady frensham, with an air of quite conclusive repartee. "you're hopeless, mr. britling. you're hopeless." and lady homartyn, seeing that the phase of mere personal verdicts drew near, created a diversion by giving lady frensham a second cup of tea, and fluttering like a cooling fan about the heated brows of the disputants. she suggested tennis.... section mr. britling was still flushed and ruffled as he and his guest returned towards the dower house. he criticised england himself unmercifully, but he hated to think that in any respect she fell short of perfection; even her defects he liked to imagine were just a subtler kind of power and wisdom. and lady frensham had stuck her voice and her gestures through all these amiable illusions. he was like a lover who calls his lady a foolish rogue, and is startled to find that facts and strangers do literally agree with him. but it was so difficult to resolve lady frensham and the irish squabble generally into anything better than idiotic mischief, that for a time he was unusually silent--wrestling with the problem, and mr. direck got the conversational initiative. "to an american mind it's a little--startling," said mr. direck, "to hear ladies expressing such vigorous political opinions." "i don't mind that," said mr. britling. "women over here go into politics and into public-houses--i don't see why they shouldn't. if such things are good enough for men they are good enough for women; we haven't your sort of chivalry. but it's the peculiar malignant silliness of this sort of toryism that's so discreditable. it's discreditable. there's no good in denying it. those people you have heard and seen are a not unfair sample of our governing class--of a certain section of our governing class--as it is to-day. not at all unfair. and you see how amazingly they haven't got hold of anything. there was a time when they could be politic.... hidden away they have politic instincts even now.... but it makes me sick to think of this irish business. because, you know, it's true--we _are_ drifting towards civil war there." "you are of that opinion?" said mr. direck. "well, isn't it so? here's all this ulster gun-running--you heard how she talked of it? isn't it enough to drive the south into open revolt?..." "is there very much, do you think, in the suggestion that some of this ulster trouble is a german intrigue? you and mr. philbert were saying things--" "i don't know," said mr. britling shortly. "i don't know," he repeated. "but it isn't because i don't think our unionists and their opponents aren't foolish enough for anything of the sort. it's only because i don't believe that the germans are so stupid as to do such things.... why should they?... "it makes me--expressionless with anger," said mr. britling after a pause, reverting to his main annoyance. "they won't consider any compromise. it's sheer love of quarrelling.... those people there think that nothing can possibly happen. they are like children in a nursery playing at rebellion. unscathed and heedless. until there is death at their feet they will never realise they are playing with loaded guns...." for a time he said no more; and listened perfunctorily while mr. direck tried to indicate the feeling in new england towards the irish question and the many difficult propositions an american politician has to face in that respect. and when mr. britling took up the thread of speech again it had little or no relation to mr. direck's observations. "the psychology of all this recent insubordination and violence is--curious. exasperating too.... i don't quite grasp it.... it's the same thing whether you look at the suffrage business or the labour people or at this irish muddle. people may be too safe. you see we live at the end of a series of secure generations in which none of the great things of life have changed materially. we've grown up with no sense of danger--that is to say, with no sense of responsibility. none of us, none of us--for though i talk my actions belie me--really believe that life can change very fundamentally any more forever. all this",--mr. britling waved his arm comprehensively--"looks as though it was bound to go on steadily forever. it seems incredible that the system could be smashed. it seems incredible that anything we can do will ever smash the system. lady homartyn, for example, is incapable of believing that she won't always be able to have week-end parties at claverings, and that the letters and the tea won't come to her bedside in the morning. or if her imagination goes to the point of supposing that some day _she_ won't be there to receive the tea, it means merely that she supposes somebody else will be. her pleasant butler may fear to lose his 'situation,' but nothing on earth could make him imagine a time when there will not be a 'situation' for him to lose. old asquith thinks that we always have got along, and that we always shall get along by being quietly artful and saying, 'wait and see.' and it's just because we are all convinced that we are so safe against a general breakdown that we are able to be so recklessly violent in our special cases. why shouldn't women have the vote? they argue. what does it matter? and bang goes a bomb in westminster abbey. why shouldn't ulster create an impossible position? and off trots some demented carsonite to germany to play at treason on some half word of the german emperor's and buy half a million rifles.... "exactly like children being very, very naughty.... "and," said mr. britling with a gesture to round off his discourse, "we do go on. we shall go on--until there is a spark right into the magazine. we have lost any belief we ever had that fundamental things happen. we are everlasting children in an everlasting nursery...." and immediately he broke out again. "the truth of the matter is that hardly any one has ever yet mastered the fact that the world is round. the world is round--like an orange. the thing is told us--like any old scandal--at school. for all practical purposes we forget it. practically we all live in a world as flat as a pancake. where time never ends and nothing changes. who really believes in any world outside the circle of the horizon? here we are and visibly nothing is changing. and so we go on to--nothing will ever change. it just goes on--in space, in time. if we could realise that round world beyond, then indeed we should go circumspectly.... if the world were like a whispering gallery, what whispers might we not hear now--from india, from africa, from germany, warnings from the past, intimations of the future.... "we shouldn't heed them...." section and indeed at the very moment when mr. britling was saying these words, in sarajevo in bosnia, where the hour was somewhat later, men whispered together, and one held nervously to a black parcel that had been given him and nodded as they repeated his instructions, a black parcel with certain unstable chemicals and a curious arrangement of detonators therein, a black parcel destined ultimately to shatter nearly every landmark of mr. britling's and lady frensham's cosmogony.... section when mr. direck and mr. britling returned to the dower house the guest was handed over to mrs. britling and mr. britling vanished, to reappear at supper time, for the britlings had a supper in the evening instead of dinner. when mr. britling did reappear every trace of his vexation with the levities of british politics and the british ruling class had vanished altogether, and he was no longer thinking of all that might be happening in germany or india.... while he was out of the way mr. direck extended his acquaintance with the britling household. he was taken round the garden and shown the roses by mrs. britling, and beyond the rose garden in a little arbour they came upon miss corner reading a book. she looked very grave and pretty reading a book. mr. direck came to a pause in front of her, and mrs. britling stopped beside him. the young lady looked up and smiled. "the last new novel?" asked mr. direck pleasantly. "campanella's 'city of the sun.'" "my word! but isn't that stiff reading?" "you haven't read it," said miss corner. "it's a dry old book anyhow." "it's no good pretending you have," she said, and there mr. direck felt the conversation had to end. "that's a very pleasant young lady to have about," he said to mrs. britling as they went on towards the barn court. "she's all at loose ends," said mrs. britling. "and she reads like a--whatever does read? one drinks like a fish. one eats like a wolf." they found the german tutor in a little court playing badminton with the two younger boys. he was a plump young man with glasses and compact gestures; the game progressed chiefly by misses and the score was counted in german. he won thoughtfully and chiefly through the ardour of the younger brother, whose enthusiastic returns invariably went out. instantly the boys attacked mrs. britling with a concerted enthusiasm. "mummy! is it to be dressing-up supper?" mrs. britling considered, and it was manifest that mr. direck was material to her answer. "we wrap ourselves up in curtains and bright things instead of dressing," she explained. "we have a sort of wardrobe of fancy dresses. do you mind?" mr. direck was delighted. and this being settled, the two small boys went off with their mother upon some special decorative project they had conceived and mr. direck was left for a time to herr heinrich. herr heinrich suggested a stroll in the rose garden, and as mr. direck had not hitherto been shown the rose garden by herr heinrich, he agreed. sooner or later everybody, it was evident, had got to show him that rose garden. "and how do you like living in an english household?" said mr. direck, getting to business at once. "it's interesting to an american to see this english establishment, and it must be still more interesting to a german." "i find it very different from pomerania," said herr heinrich. "in some respects it is more agreeable, in others less so. it is a pleasant life but it is not a serious life. "at any time," continued herr heinrich, "some one may say, 'let us do this thing,' or 'let us do that thing,' and then everything is disarranged. "people walk into the house without ceremony. there is much kindness but no politeness. mr. britling will go away for three or four days, and when he returns and i come forward to greet him and bow, he will walk right past me, or he will say just like this, 'how do, heinrich?'" "are you interested in mr. britling's writings?" mr. direck asked. "there again i am puzzled. his work is known even in germany. his articles are reprinted in german and austrian reviews. you would expect him to have a certain authority of manner. you would expect there to be discussion at the table upon questions of philosophy and aesthetics.... it is not so. when i ask him questions it is often that they are not seriously answered. sometimes it is as if he did not like the questions i askt of him. yesterday i askt of him did he agree or did he not agree with mr. bernard shaw. he just said--i wrote it down in my memoranda--he said: 'oh! mixt pickles.' what can one understand of that?--mixt pickles!"... the young man's sedulous blue eyes looked out of his pink face through his glasses at mr. direck, anxious for any light he could offer upon the atmospheric vagueness of this england. he was, he explained, a student of philology preparing for his doctorate. he had not yet done his year of military service. he was studying the dialects of east anglia-- "you go about among the people?" mr. direck inquired. "no, i do not do that. but i ask mr. carmine and mrs. britling and the boys many questions. and sometimes i talk to the gardener." he explained how he would prepare his thesis and how it would be accepted, and the nature of his army service and the various stages by which he would subsequently ascend in the orderly professorial life to which he was destined. he confessed a certain lack of interest in philology, but, he said, "it is what i have to do." and so he was going to do it all his life through. for his own part he was interested in ideas of universal citizenship, in esperanto and ido and universal languages and such-like attacks upon the barriers between man and man. but the authorities at home did not favour cosmopolitan ideas, and so he was relinquishing them. "here, it is as if there were no authorities," he said with a touch of envy. mr. direck induced him to expand that idea. herr heinrich made mr. britling his instance. if mr. britling were a german he would certainly have some sort of title, a definite position, responsibility. here he was not even called herr doktor. he said what he liked. nobody rewarded him; nobody reprimanded him. when herr heinrich asked him of his position, whether he was above or below mr. bernard shaw or mr. arnold white or mr. garvin or any other publicist, he made jokes. nobody here seemed to have a title and nobody seemed to have a definite place. there was mr. lawrence carmine; he was a student of oriental questions; he had to do with some public institution in london that welcomed indian students; he was a geheimrath-- "eh?" said mr. direck. "it is--what do they call it? the essex county council." but nobody took any notice of that. and when mr. philbert, who was a minister in the government, came to lunch he was just like any one else. it was only after he had gone that herr heinrich had learnt by chance that he was a minister and "right honourable...." "in germany everything is definite. every man knows his place, has his papers, is instructed what to do...." "yet," said mr. direck, with his eyes on the glowing roses, the neat arbour, the long line of the red wall of the vegetable garden and a distant gleam of cornfield, "it all looks orderly enough." "it is as if it had been put in order ages ago," said herr heinrich. "and was just going on by habit," said mr. direck, taking up the idea. their comparisons were interrupted by the appearance of "teddy," the secretary, and the indian young gentleman, damp and genial, as they explained, "from the boats." it seemed that "down below" somewhere was a pond with a punt and an island and a toy dinghy. and while they discussed swimming and boating, mr. carmine appeared from the direction of the park conversing gravely with the elder son. they had been for a walk and a talk together. there were proposals for a badminton foursome. mr. direck emerged from the general interchange with mr. lawrence carmine, and then strolled through the rose garden to see the sunset from the end. mr. direck took the opportunity to verify his impression that the elder son was the present mrs. britling's stepson, and he also contrived by a sudden admiration for a distant row of evening primroses to deflect their path past the arbour in which the evening light must now be getting a little too soft for miss corner's book. miss corner was drawn into the sunset party. she talked to mr. carmine and displayed, mr. direck thought, great originality of mind. she said "the city of the sun" was like the cities the boys sometimes made on the playroom floor. she said it was the dearest little city, and gave some amusing particulars. she described the painted walls that made the tour of the civitas solis a liberal education. she asked mr. carmine, who was an authority on oriental literature, why there were no indian nor chinese utopias. now it had never occurred to mr. direck to ask why there were no indian nor chinese utopias, and even mr. carmine seemed surprised to discover this deficiency. "the primitive patriarchal village _is_ utopia to india and china," said mr. carmine, when they had a little digested the inquiry. "or at any rate it is their social ideal. they want no utopias." "utopias came with cities," he said, considering the question. "and the first cities, as distinguished from courts and autocratic capitals, came with ships. india and china belong to an earlier age. ships, trade, disorder, strange relationships, unofficial literature, criticism--and then this idea of some novel remaking of society...." section then mr. direck fell into the hands of hugh, the eldest son, and anticipating the inevitable, said that he liked to walk in the rose garden. so they walked in the rose garden. "do you read utopias?" said mr. direck, cutting any preface, in the english manner. "oh, _rather_!" said hugh, and became at once friendly and confidential. "we all do," he explained. "in england everybody talks of change and nothing ever changes." "i found miss corner reading--what was it? the sun people?--some old classical italian work." "campanella," said hugh, without betraying the slightest interest in miss corner. "nothing changes in england, because the people who want to change things change their minds before they change anything else. i've been in london talking for the last half-year. studying art they call it. before that i was a science student, and i want to be one again. don't you think, sir, there's something about science--it's steadier than anything else in the world?" mr. direck thought that the moral truths of human nature were steadier than science, and they had one of those little discussions of real life that begin about a difference inadequately apprehended, and do not so much end as are abandoned. hugh struck him as being more speculative and detached than any american college youth of his age that he knew--but that might not be a national difference but only the britling strain. he seemed to have read more and more independently, and to be doing less. and he was rather more restrained and self-possessed. before mr. direck could begin a proper inquiry into the young man's work and outlook, he had got the conversation upon america. he wanted tremendously to see america. "the dad says in one of his books that over here we are being and that over there you are beginning. it must be tremendously stimulating to think that your country is still being made...." mr. direck thought that an interesting point of view. "unless something tumbles down here, we never think of altering it," the young man remarked. "and even then we just shore it up." his remarks had the effect of floating off from some busy mill of thought within him. hitherto mr. direck had been inclined to think this silent observant youth, with his hands in his pockets and his shoulders a little humped, as probably shy and adolescently ineffective. but the head was manifestly quite busy.... "miss corner," he began, taking the first thing that came into his head, and then he remembered that he had already made the remark he was going to make not five minutes ago. "what form of art," he asked, "are you contemplating in your studies at the present time in london?".... before this question could be dealt with at all adequately, the two small boys became active in the garden beating in everybody to "dress-up" before supper. the secretary, teddy, came in a fatherly way to look after mr. direck and see to his draperies. section mr. direck gave his very best attention to this business of draping himself, for he had not the slightest intention of appearing ridiculous in the eyes of miss corner. teddy came with an armful of stuff that he thought "might do." "what'll i come as?" asked mr. direck. "we don't wear costumes," said teddy. "we just put on all the brightest things we fancy. if it's any costume at all, it's futurist." "and surely why shouldn't one?" asked mr. direck, greatly struck by this idea. "why should we always be tied by the fashions and periods of the past?" he rejected a rather mephistopheles-like costume of crimson and a scheme for a brigand-like ensemble based upon what was evidently an old bolero of mrs. britling's, and after some reflection he accepted some black silk tights. his legs were not legs to be ashamed of. over this he tried various brilliant wrappings from the dower house _armoire_, and chose at last, after some hesitation in the direction of a piece of gold and purple brocade, a big square of green silk curtain stuff adorned with golden pheasants and other large and dignified ornaments; this he wore toga fashion over his light silken under-vest--teddy had insisted on the abandonment of his shirt "if you want to dance at all"--and fastened with a large green glass-jewelled brooch. from this his head and neck projected, he felt, with a tolerable dignity. teddy suggested a fillet of green ribbon, and this mr. direck tried, but after prolonged reflection before the glass rejected. he was still weighing the effect of this fillet upon the mind of miss corner when teddy left him to make his own modest preparations. teddy's departure gave him a chance for profile studies by means of an arrangement of the long mirror and the table looking-glass that he had been too shy to attempt in the presence of the secretary. the general effect was quite satisfactory. "wa-a-a-l," he said with a quaver of laughter, "now who'd have thought it?" and smiled a consciously american smile at himself before going down. the company was assembling in the panelled hall, and made a brilliant show in the light of the acetylene candles against the dark background. mr. britling in a black velvet cloak and black silk tights was a deeper shade among the shadows; the high lights were miss corner and her sister, in glittering garments of peacock green and silver that gave a snake-like quality to their lithe bodies. they were talking to the german tutor, who had become a sort of cotton cossack, a spectacled cossack in buff and bright green. mrs. britling was dignified and beautiful in a purple djibbah, and her stepson had become a handsome still figure of black and crimson. teddy had contrived something elaborate and effective in the egyptian style, with a fish-basket and a cuirass of that thin matting one finds behind washstands; the small boys were brigands, with immensely baggy breeches and cummerbunds in which they had stuck a selection of paper-knives and toy pistols and similar weapons. mr. carmine and his young man had come provided with real indian costumes; the feeling of the company was that mr. carmine was a mullah. the aunt-like lady with the noble nose stood out amidst these levities in a black silk costume with a gold chain. she refused, it seemed, to make herself absurd, though she encouraged the others to extravagance by nods and enigmatical smiles. nevertheless she had put pink ribbons in her cap. a family of father, golden-haired mother, and two young daughters, sympathetically attired, had just arrived, and were discarding their outer wrappings with the assistance of host and hostess. it was all just exactly what mr. direck had never expected in england, and equally unexpected was the supper on a long candle-lit table without a cloth. no servants were present, but on a sideboard stood a cold salmon and cold joints and kalter aufschnitt and kartoffel salat, and a variety of other comestibles, and many bottles of beer and wine and whisky. one helped oneself and anybody else one could, and mr. direck did his best to be very attentive to mrs. britling and miss corner, and was greatly assisted by the latter. everybody seemed unusually gay and bright-eyed. mr. direck found something exhilarating and oddly exciting in all this unusual bright costume and in this easy mutual service; it made everybody seem franker and simpler. even mr. britling had revealed a sturdy handsomeness that had not been apparent to mr. direck before, and young britling left no doubts now about his good looks. mr. direck forgot his mission and his position, and indeed things generally, in an irrational satisfaction that his golden pheasants harmonised with the glitter of the warm and smiling girl beside him. and he sat down beside her--"you sit anywhere," said mrs. britling--with far less compunction than in his ordinary costume he would have felt for so direct a confession of preference. and there was something in her eyes, it was quite indefinable and yet very satisfying, that told him that now he escaped from the stern square imperatives of his patriotic tailor in new york she had made a discovery of him. everybody chattered gaily, though mr. direck would have found it difficult to recall afterwards what it was they chattered about, except that somehow he acquired the valuable knowledge that miss corner was called cecily, and her sister letty, and then--so far old essex custom held--the masculine section was left for a few minutes for some imaginary drinking, and a lighting of cigars and cigarettes, after which everybody went through interwoven moonlight and afterglow to the barn. mr. britling sat down to a pianola in the corner and began the familiar cadences of "whistling rufus." "you dance?" said miss cecily corner. "i've never been much of a dancing man," said mr. direck. "what sort of dance is this?" "just anything. a two-step." mr. direck hesitated and regretted a well-spent youth, and then hugh came prancing forward with outstretched hands and swept her away. just for an instant mr. direck felt that this young man was a trifle superfluous.... but it was very amusing dancing. it wasn't any sort of taught formal dancing. it was a spontaneous retort to the leaping american music that mr. britling footed out. you kept time, and for the rest you did as your nature prompted. if you had a partner you joined hands, you fluttered to and from one another, you paced down the long floor together, you involved yourselves in romantic pursuits and repulsions with other couples. there was no objection to your dancing alone. teddy, for example, danced alone in order to develop certain egyptian gestures that were germinating in his brain. there was no objection to your joining hands in a cheerful serpent.... mr. direck hung on to cissie and her partner. they danced very well together; they seemed to like and understand each other. it was natural of course for two young people like that, thrown very much together, to develop an affection for one another.... still, she was older by three or four years. it seemed unreasonable that the boy anyhow shouldn't be in love with her.... it seemed unreasonable that any one shouldn't be in love with her.... then mr. direck remarked that cissie was watching teddy's manoeuvres over her partner's shoulder with real affection and admiration.... but then most refreshingly she picked up mr. direck's gaze and gave him the slightest of smiles. she hadn't forgotten him. the music stopped with an effect of shock, and all the bobbing, whirling figures became walking glories. "now that's not difficult, is it?" said miss corner, glowing happily. "not when you do it," said mr. direck. "i can't imagine an american not dancing a two-step. you must do the next with me. listen! it's 'away down indiana' ... ah! i knew you could." mr. direck, too, understood now that he could, and they went off holding hands rather after the fashion of two skaters. "my word!" said mr. direck. "to think i'd be dancing." but he said no more because he needed his breath. he liked it, and he had another attempt with one of the visitor daughters, who danced rather more formally, and then teddy took the pianola and mr. direck was astonished by the spectacle of an eminent british thinker in a whirl of black velvet and extremely active black legs engaged in a kind of apache dance in pursuit of the visitor wife. in which mr. lawrence carmine suddenly mingled. "in germany," said herr heinrich, "we do not dance like this. it could not be considered seemly. but it is very pleasant." and then there was a waltz, and herr heinrich bowed to and took the visitor wife round three times, and returned her very punctually and exactly to the point whence he had taken her, and the indian young gentleman (who must not be called "coloured") waltzed very well with cecily. mr. direck tried to take a tolerant european view of this brown and white combination. but he secured her as soon as possible from this asiatic entanglement, and danced with her again, and then he danced with her again. "come and look at the moonlight," cried mrs. britling. and presently mr. direck found himself strolling through the rose garden with cecily. she had the sweetest moonlight face, her white shining robe made her a thing of moonlight altogether. if mr. direck had not been in love with her before he was now altogether in love. mamie nelson, whose freakish unkindness had been rankling like a poisoned thorn in his heart all the way from massachusetts, suddenly became ancient history. a tremendous desire for eloquence arose in mr. direck's soul, a desire so tremendous that no conceivable phrase he could imagine satisfied it. so he remained tongue-tied. and cecily was tongue-tied, too. the scent of the roses just tinted the clear sweetness of the air they breathed. mr. direck's mood was an immense solemnity, like a dark ocean beneath the vast dome of the sky, and something quivered in every fibre of his being, like moonlit ripples on the sea. he felt at the same time a portentous stillness and an immense enterprise.... then suddenly the pianola, pounding a cake walk, burst out into ribald invitation.... "come back to dance!" cried cecily, like one from whom a spell has just been broken. and mr. direck, snatching at a vanishing scrap of everything he had not said, remarked, "i shall never forget this evening." she did not seem to hear that. they danced together again. and then mr. direck danced with the visitor lady, whose name he had never heard. and then he danced with mrs. britling, and then he danced with letty. and then it seemed time for him to look for miss cecily again. and so the cheerful evening passed until they were within a quarter of an hour of sunday morning. mrs. britling went to exert a restraining influence upon the pianola. "oh! one dance more!" cried cissie corner. "oh! one dance more!" cried letty. "one dance more," mr. direck supported, and then things really _had_ to end. there was a rapid putting out of candles and a stowing away of things by teddy and the sons, two chauffeurs appeared from the region of the kitchen and brought mr. lawrence carmine's car and the visitor family's car to the front door, and everybody drifted gaily through the moonlight and the big trees to the front of the house. and mr. direck saw the perambulator waiting--the mysterious perambulator--a little in the dark beyond the front door. the visitor family and mr. carmine and his young indian departed. "come to hockey!" shouted mr. britling to each departing car-load, and mr. carmine receding answered: "i'll bring three!" then mr. direck, in accordance with a habit that had been growing on him throughout the evening, looked around for miss cissie corner and failed to find her. and then behold she was descending the staircase with the mysterious baby in her arms. she held up a warning finger, and then glanced at her sleeping burthen. she looked like a silvery madonna. and mr. direck remembered that he was still in doubt about that baby.... teddy, who was back in his flannels, seized upon the perambulator. there was much careful baby stowing on the part of cecily; she displayed an infinitely maternal solicitude. letty was away changing; she reappeared jauntily taking leave, disregarding the baby absolutely, and teddy departed bigamously, wheeling the perambulator between the two sisters into the hazes of the moonlight. there was much crying of good nights. mr. direck's curiosities narrowed down to a point of great intensity.... of course, mr. britling's circle must be a very "advanced" circle.... section mr. direck found he had taken leave of the rest of the company, and drifted into a little parlour with mr. britling and certain glasses and siphons and a whisky decanter on a tray.... "it is a very curious thing," said mr. direck, "that in england i find myself more disposed to take stimulants and that i no longer have the need for iced water that one feels at home. i ascribe it to a greater humidity in the air. one is less dried and one is less braced. one is no longer pursued by a thirst, but one needs something to buck one up a little. thank you. that is enough." mr. direck took his glass of whisky and soda from mr. britling's hand. mr. britling seated himself in an armchair by the fireplace and threw one leg carelessly over the arm. in his black velvet cloak and cap, and his black silk tights, he was very like a minor character, a court chamberlain for example, in some cloak and rapier drama. "i find this week-end dancing and kicking about wonderfully wholesome," he said. "that and our sunday hockey. one starts the new week clear and bright about the mind. friday is always my worst working day." mr. direck leant against the table, wrapped in his golden pheasants, and appreciated the point. "your young people dance very cheerfully," he said. "we all dance very cheerfully," said mr. britling. "then this miss corner," said mr. direck, "she is the sister, i presume, is she? of that pleasant young lady who is married--she is married, isn't she?--to the young man you call teddy." "i should have explained these young people. they're the sort of young people we are producing over here now in quite enormous quantity. they are the sort of equivalent of the russian intelligentsia, an irresponsible middle class with ideas. teddy, you know, is my secretary. he's the son, i believe, of a kilburn solicitor. he was recommended to me by datcher of _the times_. he came down here and lived in lodgings for a time. then suddenly appeared the young lady." "miss corner's sister?" "exactly. the village was a little startled. the cottager who had let the rooms came to me privately. teddy is rather touchy on the point of his personal independence, he considers any demand for explanations as an insult, and probably all he had said to the old lady was, 'this is letty--come to share my rooms.' i put the matter to him very gently. 'oh, yes,' he said, rather in the manner of some one who has overlooked a trifle. 'i got married to her in the christmas holidays. may i bring her along to see mrs. britling?' we induced him to go into a little cottage i rent. the wife was the daughter of a colchester journalist and printer. i don't know if you talked to her." "i've talked to the sister rather." "well, they're both idea'd. they're highly educated in the sense that they do really think for themselves. almost fiercely. so does teddy. if he thinks he hasn't thought anything he thinks for himself, he goes off and thinks it different. the sister is a teacher who wants to take the b.a. degree in london university. meanwhile she pays the penalty of her sex." "meaning--?" asked mr. direck, startled. "oh! that she puts in a great deal too much of her time upon housework and minding her sister's baby." "she's a very interesting and charming young lady indeed," said mr. direck. "with a sort of western college freedom of mind--and something about her that isn't american at all." mr. britling was following the train of his own thoughts. "my household has some amusing contrasts," he said. "i don't know if you have talked to that german. "he's always asking questions. and you tell him any old thing and he goes and writes it down in his room upstairs, and afterwards asks you another like it in order to perplex himself by the variety of your answers. he regards the whole world with a methodical distrust. he wants to document it and pin it down. he suspects it only too justly of disorderly impulses, and a capacity for self-contradiction. he is the most extraordinary contrast to teddy, whose confidence in the universe amounts almost to effrontery. teddy carries our national laxness to a foolhardy extent. he is capable of leaving his watch in the middle of claverings park and expecting to find it a month later--being carefully taken care of by a squirrel, i suppose--when he happens to want it. he's rather like a squirrel himself--without the habit of hoarding. he is incapable of asking a question about anything; he would be quite sure it was all right anyhow. he would feel that asking questions betrayed a want of confidence--was a sort of incivility. but my german, if you notice,--his normal expression is one of grave solicitude. he is like a conscientious ticket-collector among his impressions. and did you notice how beautifully my pianola rolls are all numbered and catalogued? he did that. he set to work and did it as soon as he got here, just as a good cat when you bring it into the house sets to work and catches mice. previously the pianola music was chaos. you took what god sent you. "and he _looks_ like a german," said mr. britling. "he certainly does that," said mr. direck. "he has the fair type of complexion, the rather full habit of body, the temperamental disposition, but in addition that close-cropped head, it is almost as if it were shaved, the plumpness, the glasses--those are things that are made. and the way he carries himself. and the way he thinks. his meticulousness. when he arrived he was delightful, he was wearing a student's corps cap and a rucksack, he carried a violin; he seemed to have come out of a book. no one would ever dare to invent so german a german for a book. now, a young frenchman or a young italian or a young russian coming here might look like a foreigner, but he wouldn't have the distinctive national stamp a german has. he wouldn't be plainly french or italian or russian. other peoples are not made; they are neither made nor created but proceeding--out of a thousand indefinable causes. the germans are a triumph of directive will. i had to remark the other day that when my boys talked german they shouted. 'but when one talks german one _must_ shout,' said herr heinrich. 'it is taught so in the schools.' and it is. they teach them to shout and to throw out their chests. just as they teach them to read notice-boards and not think about politics. their very ribs are not their own. my herr heinrich is comparatively a liberal thinker. he asked me the other day, 'but why should i give myself up to philology? but then,' he reflected, 'it is what i have to do.'" mr. britling seemed to have finished, and then just as mr. direck was planning a way of getting the talk back by way of teddy to miss corner, he snuggled more deeply into his chair, reflected and broke out again. "this contrast between heinrich's carefulness and teddy's easy-goingness, come to look at it, is i suppose one of the most fundamental in the world. it reaches to everything. it mixes up with education, statecraft, morals. will you make or will you take? those are the two extreme courses in all such things. i suppose the answer of wisdom to that is, like all wise answers, a compromise. i suppose one must accept and then make all one can of it.... have you talked at all to my eldest son?" "he's a very interesting young man indeed," said mr. direck. "i should venture to say there's a very great deal in him. i was most impressed by the few words i had with him." "there, for example, is one of my perplexities," said mr. britling. mr. direck waited for some further light on this sudden transition. "ah! your troubles in life haven't begun yet. wait till you're a father. that cuts to the bone. you have the most delicate thing in the world in hand, a young kindred mind. you feel responsible for it, you know you are responsible for it; and you lose touch with it. you can't get at it. nowadays we've lost the old tradition of fatherhood by divine right--and we haven't got a new one. i've tried not to be a cramping ruler, a director, a domestic tyrant to that lad--and in effect it's meant his going his own way.... i don't dominate. i hoped to advise. but you see he loves my respect and good opinion. too much. when things go well i know of them. when the world goes dark for him, then he keeps his trouble from me. just when i would so eagerly go into it with him.... there's something the matter now, something--it may be grave. i feel he wants to tell me. and there it is!--it seems i am the last person to whom he can humiliate himself by a confession of blundering, or weakness.... something i should just laugh at and say, 'that's in the blood of all of us, dear spit of myself. let's see what's to be done.'..." he paused and then went on, finding in the unfamiliarity and transitoriness of his visitor a freedom he might have failed to find in a close friend. "i am frightened at times at all i don't know about in that boy's mind. i know nothing of his religiosities. he's my son and he must have religiosities. i know nothing of his ideas or of his knowledge about sex and all that side of life. i do not know of the things he finds beautiful. i can guess at times; that's all; when he betrays himself.... you see, you don't know really what love is until you have children. one doesn't love women. indeed you don't! one gives and gets; it's a trade. one may have tremendous excitements and expectations and overwhelming desires. that's all very well in its way. but the love of children is an exquisite tenderness: it rends the heart. it's a thing of god. and i lie awake at nights and stretch out my hands in the darkness to this lad--who will never know--until his sons come in their time...." he made one of his quick turns again. "and that's where our english way makes for distresses. mr. prussian respects and fears his father; respects authorities, attends, obeys and--_his father has a hold upon him_. but i said to myself at the outset, 'no, whatever happens, i will not usurp the place of god. i will not be the priest-patriarch of my children. they shall grow and i will grow beside them, helping but not cramping or overshadowing.' they grow more. but they blunder more. life ceases to be a discipline and becomes an experiment...." "that's very true," said mr. direck, to whom it seemed the time was ripe to say something. "this is the problem of america perhaps even more than of england. though i have not had the parental experience you have undergone.... i can see very clearly that a son is a very serious proposition." "the old system of life was organisation. that is where germany is still the most ancient of european states. it's a reversion to a tribal cult. it's atavistic.... to organise or discipline, or mould characters or press authority, is to assume that you have reached finality in your general philosophy. it implies an assured end. heinrich has his assured end, his philological professorship or thereabouts as a part of the germanic machine. and that too has its assured end in german national assertion. here, we have none of those convictions. we know we haven't finality, and so we are open and apologetic and receptive, rather than wilful.... you see all organisation, with its implication of finality, is death. we feel that. the germans don't. what you organise you kill. organised morals or organised religion or organised thought are dead morals and dead religion and dead thought. yet some organisation you must have. organisation is like killing cattle. if you do not kill some the herd is just waste. but you musn't kill all or you kill the herd. the unkilled cattle are the herd, the continuation; the unorganised side of life is the real life. the reality of life is adventure, not performance. what isn't adventure isn't life. what can be ruled about can be machined. but priests and schoolmasters and bureaucrats get hold of life and try to make it _all_ rules, _all_ etiquette and regulation and correctitude.... and parents and the love of parents make for the same thing. it is all very well to experiment for oneself, but when one sees these dear things of one's own, so young and inexperienced and so capable of every sort of gallant foolishness, walking along the narrow plank, going down into dark jungles, ah! then it makes one want to wrap them in laws and foresight and fence them about with 'verboten' boards in all the conceivable aspects...." "in america of course we do set a certain store upon youthful self-reliance," said mr. direck. "as we do here. it's in your blood and our blood. it's the instinct of the english and the irish anyhow to suspect government and take the risks of the chancy way.... and manifestly the russians, if you read their novelists, have the same twist in them.... when we get this young prussian here, he's a marvel to us. he really believes in law. he _likes_ to obey. that seems a sort of joke to us. it's curious how foreign these germans are--to all the rest of the world. because of their docility. scratch the russian and you get the tartar. educate the russian or the american or the englishman or the irishman or frenchman or any real northern european except the german, and you get the anarchist, that is to say the man who dreams of order without organisation--of something beyond organisation.... "it's one o'clock," said mr. britling abruptly, perceiving a shade of fatigue upon the face of his hearer and realising that his thoughts had taken him too far, "and sunday. let's go to bed." section for a time mr. direck could not sleep. his mind had been too excited by this incessant day with all its novelties and all its provocations to comparison. the whole complicated spectacle grouped itself, with a naturalness and a complete want of logic that all who have been young will understand, about cecily corner. she had to be in the picture, and so she came in as though she were the central figure, as though she were the quintessential england. there she was, the type, the blood, the likeness, of no end of massachusetts families, the very same stuff indeed, and yet she was different.... for a time his thoughts hovered ineffectively about certain details of her ear and cheek, and one may doubt if his interest in these things was entirely international.... then he found himself under way with an exposition of certain points to mr. britling. in the security of his bed he could imagine that he was talking very slowly and carefully while mr. britling listened; already he was more than half way to dreamland or he could not have supposed anything so incredible. "there's a curious sort of difference," he was saying. "it is difficult to define, but on the whole i might express it by saying that such a gathering as this if it was in america would be drawn with harder lines, would show its bones more and have everything more emphatic. and just to take one illustrative point: in america in such a gathering as this there would be bound to be several jokes going on as it were, running jokes and running criticisms, from day to day and from week to week.... there would be jokes about your writing and your influence and jokes about miss corner's advanced reading.... you see, in america we pay much more attention to personal character. here people, i notice, are not talked to about their personal characters at all, and many of them do not seem to be aware and do not seem to mind what personal characters they have.... "and another thing i find noteworthy is the way in which what i might call mature people seem to go on having a good time instead of standing by and applauding the young people having a good time.... and the young people do not seem to have set out to have a good time at all.... now in america, a charming girl like miss corner would be distinctly more aware of herself and her vitality than she is here, distinctly more. her peculiarly charming sidelong look, if i might make so free with her--would have been called attention to. it's a perfectly beautiful look, the sort of look some great artist would have loved to make immortal. it's a look i shall find it hard to forget.... but she doesn't seem to be aware in the least of it. in america she would be aware of it. she would be distinctly aware of it. she would have been _made_ aware of it. she would have been advised of it. it would be looked for and she would know it was looked for. she would _give_ it as a singer gives her most popular song. mamie nelson, for example, used to give a peculiar little throw back of the chin and a laugh.... it was talked about. people came to see it.... "of course mamie nelson was a very brilliant girl indeed. i suppose in england you would say we spoilt her. i suppose we did spoil her...." it came into mr. direck's head that for a whole day he had scarcely given a thought to mamie nelson. and now he was thinking of her--calmly. why shouldn't one think of mamie nelson calmly? she was a proud imperious thing. there was something southern in her. very dark blue eyes she had, much darker than miss corner's.... but how tortuous she had been behind that outward pride of hers! for four years she had let him think he was the only man who really mattered in the world, and all the time quite clearly and definitely she had deceived him. she had made a fool of him and she had made a fool of the others perhaps--just to have her retinue and play the queen in her world. and at last humiliation, bitter humiliation, and mamie with her chin in the air and her bright triumphant smile looking down on him. hadn't he, she asked, had the privilege of loving her? she took herself at the value they had set upon her. well--somehow--that wasn't right.... all the way across the atlantic mr. direck had been trying to forget her downward glance with the chin up, during that last encounter--and other aspects of the same humiliation. the years he had spent upon her! the time! always relying upon her assurance of a special preference for him. he tried to think he was suffering from the pangs of unrequited love, and to conceal from himself just how bitterly his pride and vanity had been rent by her ultimate rejection. there had been a time when she had given him reason to laugh in his sleeve at booth wilmington. perhaps booth wilmington had also had reason for laughing in his sleeve.... had she even loved booth wilmington? or had she just snatched at him?... wasn't he, direck, as good a man as booth wilmington anyhow?... for some moments the old sting of jealousy rankled again. he recalled the flaring rivalry that had ended in his defeat, the competition of gifts and treats.... a thing so open that all carrierville knew of it, discussed it, took sides.... and over it all mamie with her flashing smile had sailed like a processional goddess.... why, they had made jokes about him in the newspapers! one couldn't imagine such a contest in matching's easy. yet surely even in matching's easy there are lovers. is it something in the air, something in the climate that makes things harder and clearer in america?... cissie--why shouldn't one call her cissie in one's private thoughts anyhow?--would never be as hard and clear as mamie. she had english eyes--merciful eyes.... that was the word--_merciful_! the english light, the english air, are merciful.... merciful.... they tolerate old things and slow things and imperfect apprehensions. they aren't always getting at you.... they don't laugh at you.... at least--they laugh differently.... was england the tolerant country? with its kind eyes and its wary sidelong look. toleration. in which everything mellowed and nothing was destroyed. a soft country. a country with a passion for imperfection. a padded country.... england--all stuffed with soft feathers ... under one's ear. a pillow--with soft, kind corners ... beautiful rounded corners.... dear, dear corners. cissie corners. corners. could there be a better family? massachusetts--but in heaven.... harps playing two-steps, and kind angels wrapped in moonlight. very softly i and you, one turn, two turn, three turn, too. off we go!.... chapter the third the entertainment of mr. direck reaches a climax section breakfast was in the open air, and a sunny, easy-going feast. then the small boys laid hands on mr. direck and showed him the pond and the boats, while mr. britling strolled about the lawn with hugh, talking rather intently. and when mr. direck returned from the boats in a state of greatly enhanced popularity he found mr. britling conversing over his garden railings to what was altogether a new type of britisher in mr. direck's experience. it was a tall, lean, sun-bitten youngish man of forty perhaps, in brown tweeds, looking more like the englishman of the american illustrations than anything mr. direck had met hitherto. indeed he came very near to a complete realisation of that ideal except that there was a sort of intensity about him, and that his clipped moustache had the restrained stiffness of a wiry-haired terrier. this gentleman mr. direck learnt was colonel rendezvous. he spoke in clear short sentences, they had an effect of being punched out, and he was refusing to come into the garden and talk. "have to do my fourteen miles before lunch," he said. "you haven't seen manning about, have you?" "he isn't here," said mr. britling, and it seemed to mr. direck that there was the faintest ambiguity in this reply. "have to go alone, then," said colonel rendezvous. "they told me that he had started to come here." "i shall motor over to bramley high oak for your boy scout festival," said mr. britling. "going to have three thousand of 'em," said the colonel. "good show." his steely eyes seemed to search the cover of mr. britling's garden for the missing manning, and then he decided to give him up. "i must be going," he said. "so long. come up!" a well-disciplined dog came to heel, and the lean figure had given mr. direck a semi-military salutation and gone upon its way. it marched with a long elastic stride; it never looked back. "manning," said mr. britling, "is probably hiding up in my rose garden." "curiously enough, i guessed from your manner that that might be the case," said mr. direck. "yes. manning is a london journalist. he has a little cottage about a mile over there"--mr. britling pointed vaguely--"and he comes down for the week-ends. and rendezvous has found out he isn't fit. and everybody ought to be fit. that is the beginning and end of life for rendezvous. fitness. an almost mineral quality, an insatiable activity of body, great mental simplicity. so he takes possession of poor old manning and trots him for that fourteen miles--at four miles an hour. manning goes through all the agonies of death and damnation, he half dissolves, he pants and drags for the first eight or ten miles, and then i must admit he rather justifies rendezvous' theory. he is to be found in the afternoon in a hammock suffering from blistered feet, but otherwise unusually well. but if he can escape it, he does. he hides." "but if he doesn't want to go with rendezvous, why does he?" said mr. direck. "well, rendezvous is accustomed to the command of men. and manning's only way of refusing things is on printed forms. which he doesn't bring down to matching's easy. ah! behold!" far away across the lawn between two blue cedars there appeared a leisurely form in grey flannels and a loose tie, advancing with manifest circumspection. "he's gone," cried britling. the leisurely form, obviously amiable, obviously a little out of condition, became more confident, drew nearer. "i'm sorry to have missed him," he said cheerfully. "i thought he might come this way. it's going to be a very warm day indeed. let us sit about somewhere and talk. "of course," he said, turning to direck, "rendezvous is the life and soul of the country." they strolled towards a place of seats and hammocks between the big trees and the rose garden, and the talk turned for a time upon rendezvous. "they have the tidiest garden in essex," said manning. "it's not mrs. rendezvous' fault that it is so. mrs. rendezvous, as a matter of fact, has a taste for the picturesque. she just puts the things about in groups in the beds. she wants them, she says, to grow anyhow. she desires a romantic disorder. but she never gets it. when he walks down the path all the plants dress instinctively.... and there's a tree near their gate; it used to be a willow. you can ask any old man in the village. but ever since rendezvous took the place it's been trying to present arms. with the most extraordinary results. i was passing the other day with old windershin. 'you see that there old poplar,' he said. 'it's a willow,' said i. 'no,' he said, 'it did used to be a willow before colonel rendezvous he came. but now it's a poplar.'... and, by jove, it is a poplar!"... the conversation thus opened by manning centred for a time upon colonel rendezvous. he was presented as a monster of energy and self-discipline; as the determined foe of every form of looseness, slackness, and easy-goingness. "he's done wonderful work for the local boy scout movement," said manning. "it's kitchenerism," said britling. "it's the army side of the efficiency stunt," said manning. there followed a digression upon the boy scout movement, and mr. direck made comparisons with the propaganda of seton thompson in america. "colonel teddyism," said manning. "it's a sort of reaction against everything being too easy and too safe." "it's got its anti-decadent side," said mr. direck. "if there is such a thing as decadence," said mr. britling. "if there wasn't such a thing as decadence," said manning, "we journalists would have had to invent it."... "there is something tragical in all this--what shall i call it?--kitchenerism," mr. britling reflected "here you have it rushing about and keeping itself--screwed up, and trying desperately to keep the country screwed up. and all because there may be a war some day somehow with germany. provided germany _is_ insane. it's that war, like some sort of bee in rendezvous' brains, that is driving him along the road now to market saffron--he always keeps to the roads because they are severer--through all the dust and sunshine. when he might be here gossiping.... "and you know, i don't see that war coming," said mr. britling. "i believe rendezvous sweats in vain. i can't believe in that war. it has held off for forty years. it may hold off forever." he nodded his head towards the german tutor, who had come into view across the lawn, talking profoundly with mr. britling's eldest son. "look at that pleasant person. there he is--_echt deutsch_--if anything ever was. look at my son there! do you see the two of them engaged in mortal combat? the thing's too ridiculous. the world grows sane. they may fight in the balkans still; in many ways the balkan states are in the very rear of civilisation; but to imagine decent countries like this or germany going back to bloodshed! no.... when i see rendezvous keeping it up and keeping it up, i begin to see just how poor germany must be keeping it up. i begin to realise how sick germany must be getting of the high road and the dust and heat and the everlasting drill and restraint.... my heart goes out to the south germans. old manning here always reminds me of austria. think of germany coming like rendezvous on a sunday morning, and looking stiffly over austria's fence. 'come for a good hard walk, man. keep fit....'" "but suppose this balkan trouble becomes acute," said manning. "it hasn't; it won't. even if it did we should keep out of it." "but suppose russia grappled austria and germany flung herself suddenly upon france--perhaps taking belgium on the way." "oh!--we should fight. of course we should fight. could any one but a congenital idiot suppose we shouldn't fight? they know we should fight. they aren't altogether idiots in germany. but the thing's absurd. why _should_ germany attack france? it's as if manning here took a hatchet suddenly and assailed edith.... it's just the dream of their military journalists. it's such schoolboy nonsense. isn't that a beautiful pillar rose? edith only put it in last year.... i hate all this talk of wars and rumours of wars.... it's worried all my life. and it gets worse and it gets emptier every year...." section now just at that moment there was a loud report.... but neither mr. britling nor mr. manning nor mr. direck was interrupted or incommoded in the slightest degree by that report. because it was too far off over the curve of this round world to be either heard or seen at matching's easy. nevertheless it was a very loud report. it occurred at an open space by a river that ran through a cramped oriental city, a city spiked with white minarets and girt about by bare hills under a blazing afternoon sky. it came from a black parcel that the archduke francis ferdinand of austria, with great presence of mind, had just flung out from the open hood of his automobile, where, tossed from the side of the quay, it had descended a few seconds before. it exploded as it touched the cobbled road just under the front of the second vehicle in the procession, and it blew to pieces the front of the automobile and injured the aide-de-camp who was in it and several of the spectators. its thrower was immediately gripped by the bystanders. the procession stopped. there was a tremendous commotion amongst that brightly-costumed crowd, a hot excitement in vivid contrast to the sabbath calm of matching's easy.... mr. britling, to whom the explosion was altogether inaudible, continued his dissertation upon the common-sense of the world and the practical security of our western peace. section lunch was an open-air feast again. three visitors had dropped in; they had motored down from london piled up on a motor-cycle and a side-car; a brother and two sisters they seemed to be, and they had apparently reduced hilariousness to a principle. the rumours of coming hockey that had been floating on the outskirts of mr. direck's consciousness ever since his arrival, thickened and multiplied.... it crept into his mind that he was expected to play.... he decided he would not play. he took various people into his confidence. he told mr. britling, and mr. britling said, "we'll make you full back, where you'll get a hit now and then and not have very much to do. all you have to remember is to hit with the flat side of your stick and not raise it above your shoulders." he told teddy, and teddy said, "i strongly advise you to dress as thinly as you can consistently with decency, and put your collar and tie in your pocket before the game begins. hockey is properly a winter game." he told the maiden aunt-like lady with the prominent nose, and she said almost enviously, "every one here is asked to play except me. i assuage the perambulator. i suppose one mustn't be envious. i don't see why i shouldn't play. i'm not so old as all that." he told hugh, and hugh warned him to be careful not to get hold of one of the sprung sticks. he considered whether it wouldn't be wiser to go to his own room and lock himself in, or stroll off for a walk through claverings park. but then he would miss miss corner, who was certain, it seemed, to come up for hockey. on the other hand, if he did not miss her he might make himself ridiculous in her eyes, and efface the effect of the green silk stuff with the golden pheasants. he determined to stay behind until she arrived, and explain to her that he was not going to play. he didn't somehow want her to think he wasn't perfectly fit to play. mr. carmine arrived in an automobile with two indians and a gentleman who had been a prospector in alaska, the family who had danced overnight at the dower house reappeared, and then mrs. teddy, very detached with a special hockey stick, and miss corner wheeling the perambulator. then came further arrivals. at the earliest opportunity mr. direck secured the attention of miss corner, and lost his interest in any one else. "i can't play this hockey," said mr. direck. "i feel strange about it. it isn't an american game. now if it were baseball--!" he left her to suppose him uncommonly hot stuff at baseball. "if you're on my side," said cecily, "mind you pass to me." it became evident to mr. direck that he was going to play this hockey after all. "well," he said, "if i've got to play hockey, i guess i've got to play hockey. but can't i just get a bit of practice somewhere before the game begins?" so miss corner went off to get two sticks and a ball and came back to instruct mr. direck. she said he had a good eye. the two small boys scenting play in the air got sticks and joined them. the overnight visitor's wife appeared from the house in abbreviated skirts, and wearing formidable shin-guards. with her abundant fair hair, which was already breaking loose, so to speak, to join the fray, she looked like a short stout dismounted valkyr. her gaze was clear and firm. section hockey as it was played at the dower house at matching's easy before the war, was a game combining danger, physical exercise and kindliness in a very high degree. except for the infant in the perambulator and the outwardly calm but inwardly resentful aunt, who wheeled the child up and down in a position of maximum danger just behind the unnetted goal, every one was involved. quite able-bodied people acquainted with the game played forward, the less well-informed played a defensive game behind the forward line, elderly, infirm, and bulky persons were used chiefly as obstacles in goal. several players wore padded leg-guards, and all players were assumed to have them and expected to behave accordingly. proceedings began with an invidious ceremony called picking up. this was heralded by mr. britling, clad in the diaphanous flannels and bearing a hockey stick, advancing with loud shouts to the centre of the hockey field. "pick up! pick up!" echoed the young britlings. mr. direck became aware of a tall, drooping man with long hair and long digressive legs in still longer white flannel trousers, and a face that was somehow familiar. he was talking with affectionate intimacy to manning, and suddenly mr. direck remembered that it was in manning's weekly paper, _the sectarian_, in which a bitter caricaturist enlivened a biting text, that he had become familiar with the features of manning's companion. it was raeburn, raeburn the insidious, raeburn the completest product of the party system.... well, that was the english way. "come for the pick up!" cried the youngest britling, seizing upon mr. direck's elbow. it appeared that mr. britling and the overnight dinner guest--mr. direck never learnt his name--were picking up. names were shouted. "i'll take cecily!" mr. direck heard mr. britling say quite early. the opposing sides as they were picked fell into two groups. there seemed to be difficulties about some of the names. mr. britling, pointing to the more powerful looking of the indian gentlemen, said, "_you_, sir." "i'm going to speculate on mr. dinks," said mr. britling's opponent. mr. direck gathered that mr. dinks was to be his hockey name. "you're on _our_ side," said mrs. teddy. "i think you'll have to play forward, outer right, and keep a sharp eye on cissie." "i'll do what i can," said mr. direck. his captain presently confirmed this appointment. his stick was really a sort of club and the ball was a firm hard cricket ball.... he resolved to be very gentle with cecily, and see that she didn't get hurt. the sides took their places for the game, and a kind of order became apparent to mr. direck. in the centre stood mr. britling and the opposing captain, and the ball lay between them. they were preparing to "bully off" and start the game. in a line with each of them were four other forwards. they all looked spirited and intent young people, and mr. direck wished he had had more exercise to justify his own alert appearance. behind each centre forward hovered one of the britling boys. then on each side came a vaguer row of three backs, persons of gentler disposition or maturer years. they included mr. raeburn, who was considered to have great natural abilities for hockey but little experience. mr. raeburn was behind mr. direck. mrs. britling was the centre back. then in a corner of mr. direck's side was a small girl of six or seven, and in the half-circle about the goal a lady in a motoring dust coat and a very short little man whom mr. direck had not previously remarked. mr. lawrence carmine, stripped to the braces, which were richly ornamented with oriental embroidery, kept goal for our team. the centre forwards went through a rapid little ceremony. they smote their sticks on the ground, and then hit the sticks together. "one," said mr. britling. the operation was repeated. "two," ... "three." smack, mr. britling had got it and the ball had gone to the shorter and sturdier of the younger britlings, who had been standing behind mr. direck's captain. crack, and it was away to teddy; smack, and it was coming right at direck. "lordy!" he said, and prepared to smite it. then something swift and blue had flashed before him, intercepted the ball and shot it past him. this was cecily corner, and she and teddy were running abreast like the wind towards mr. raeburn. "hey!" cried mr. raeburn, "stop!" and advanced, as it seemed to mr. direck, with unseemly and threatening gestures towards cissie. but before mr. direck could adjust his mind to this new phase of affairs, cecily had passed the right honourable gentleman with the same mysterious ease with which she had flashed by mr. direck, and was bearing down upon the miscellaneous landwehr which formed the "backs" of mr. direck's side. "_you_ rabbit!" cried mr. raeburn, and became extraordinarily active in pursuit, administering great lengths of arm and leg with a centralised efficiency he had not hitherto displayed. running hard to the help of mr. raeburn was the youngest britling boy, a beautiful contrast. it was like a puff ball supporting and assisting a conger eel. in front of mr. direck the little stout man was being alert. teddy was supporting the attack near the middle of the field, crying "centre!" while mr. britling, very round and resolute, was bouncing straight towards the threatened goal. but mrs. teddy, running as swiftly as her sister, was between teddy and the ball. whack! the little short man's stick had clashed with cecily's. confused things happened with sticks and feet, and the little short man appeared to be trying to cut down cecily as one cuts down a tree, she tried to pass the ball to her centre forward--too late, and then mrs. teddy had intercepted it, and was flickering back towards mr. britling's goal in a rush in which mr. direck perceived it was his duty to join. yes, he had to follow up mrs. teddy and pick up the ball if he had a chance and send it in to her or the captain or across to the left forwards, as circumstances might decide. it was perfectly clear. then came his moment. the little formidably padded lady who had dined at the dower house overnight, made a gallant attack upon mrs. teddy. out of the confusion of this clash the ball spun into mr. direck's radius. where should he smite and how? a moment of reflection was natural. but now the easy-fitting discipline of the dower house style of hockey became apparent. mr. direck had last observed the tall young indian gentleman, full of vitality and anxious for destruction, far away in the distance on the opposing right wing. but now, regardless of the more formal methods of the game, this young man had resolved, without further delay and at any cost, to hit the ball hard, and he was travelling like some asiatic typhoon with an extreme velocity across the remonstrances of mr. britling and the general order of his side. mr. direck became aware of him just before his impact. there was a sort of collision from which mr. direck emerged with a feeling that one side of his face was permanently flattened, but still gallantly resolved to hit the comparatively lethargic ball. he and the staggered but resolute indian clashed sticks again. and mr. direck had the best of it. years of experience couldn't have produced a better pass to the captain.... "good pass!" apparently from one of the london visitors. but this was _some_ game! the ball executed some rapid movements to and fro across the field. our side was pressing hard. there was a violent convergence of miscellaneous backs and suchlike irregulars upon the threatened goal. mr. britling's dozen was rapidly losing its disciplined order. one of the sidecar ladies and the gallant indian had shifted their activities to the defensive back, and with them was a spectacled gentleman waving his stick, high above all recognised rules. mr. direck's captain and both britling boys hurried to join the fray. mr. britling, who seemed to mr. direck to be for a captain rather too demagogic, also ran back to rally his forces by loud cries. "pass outwardly!" was the burthen of his contribution. the struggle about the britling goal ceased to be a game and became something between a fight and a social gathering. mr. britling's goal-keeper could be heard shouting, "i can't see the ball! _lift your feet!_" the crowded conflict lurched towards the goal posts. "my shin!" cried mr. manning. "no, you _don't!_" whack, but again whack! whack! "ah! _would_ you?" whack. "goal!" cried the side-car gentleman. "goal!" cried the britling boys.... mr. manning, as goal-keeper, went to recover the ball, but one of the britling boys politely anticipated him. the crowd became inactive, and then began to drift back to loosely conceived positions. "it's no good swarming into goal like that," mr. britling, with a faint asperity in his voice, explained to his followers. "we've got to keep open and not _crowd_ each other." then he went confidentially to the energetic young indian to make some restrictive explanation of his activities. mr. direck strolled back towards cecily. he was very warm and a little blown, but not, he felt, disgraced. he was winning. "you'll have to take your coat off," she said. it was a good idea. it had occurred to several people and the boundary line was already dotted with hastily discarded jackets and wraps and so forth. but the lady in the motoring dust coat was buttoning it to the chin. "one goal love," said the minor britling boy. "we haven't begun yet, sunny," said cecily. "sonny! that's american," said mr. direck. "no. we call him sunny jim," said cecily. "they're bullying off again." "sunny jim's american too," said mr. direck, returning to his place.... the struggle was resumed. and soon it became clear that the first goal was no earnest of the quality of the struggle. teddy and cecily formed a terribly efficient combination. against their brilliant rushes, supported in a vehement but effective manner by the indian to their right and guided by loud shoutings from mr. britling (centre), mr. direck and the side-car lady and mr. raeburn struggled in vain. one swift advance was only checked by the dust cloak, its folds held the ball until help arrived; another was countered by a tremendous swipe of mr. raeburn's that sent the ball within an inch of the youngest britling's head and right across the field; the third resulted in a swift pass from cecily to the elder britling son away on her right, and he shot the goal neatly and swiftly through the lattice of mr. lawrence carmine's defensive movements. and after that very rapidly came another goal for mr. britling's side and then another. then mr. britling cried out that it was "half time," and explained to mr. direck that whenever one side got to three goals they considered it was half time and had five minutes' rest and changed sides. everybody was very hot and happy, except the lady in the dust cloak who was perfectly cool. in everybody's eyes shone the light of battle, and not a shadow disturbed the brightness of the afternoon for mr. direck except a certain unspoken anxiety about mr. raeburn's trousers. you see mr. direck had never seen mr. raeburn before, and knew nothing about his trousers. they appeared to be coming down. to begin with they had been rather loose over the feet and turned up, and as the game progressed, fold after fold of concertina-ed flannel gathered about his ankles. every now and then mr. raeburn would seize the opportunity of some respite from the game to turn up a fresh six inches or so of this accumulation. naturally mr. direck expected this policy to end unhappily. he did not know that the flannel trousers of mr. raeburn were like a river, that they could come down forever and still remain inexhaustible.... he had visions of this scene of happy innocence being suddenly blasted by a monstrous disaster.... apart from this worry mr. direck was as happy as any one there! perhaps these apprehensions affected his game. at any rate he did nothing that pleased him in the second half, cecily danced all over him and round and about him, and in the course of ten minutes her side had won the two remaining goals with a score of five-one; and five goals is "game" by the standards of matching's easy. and then with the very slightest of delays these insatiable people picked up again. mr. direck slipped away and returned in a white silk shirt, tennis trousers and a belt. this time he and cecily were on the same side, the cecily-teddy combination was broken, and he it seemed was to take the place of the redoubtable teddy on the left wing with her. this time the sides were better chosen and played a long, obstinate, even game. one-one. one-two. one-three. (half time.) two-three. three all. four-three. four all.... by this time mr. direck was beginning to master the simple strategy of the sport. he was also beginning to master the fact that cecily was the quickest, nimblest, most indefatigable player on the field. he scouted for her and passed to her. he developed tacit understandings with her. ideas of protecting her had gone to the four winds of heaven. against them teddy and a sidecar girl with raeburn in support made a memorable struggle. teddy was as quick as a cat. "four-three" looked like winning, but then teddy and the tall indian and mrs. teddy pulled square. they almost repeated this feat and won, but mr. manning saved the situation with an immense oblique hit that sent the ball to mr. direck. he ran with the ball up to raeburn and then dodged and passed to cecily. there was a lively struggle to the left; the ball was hit out by mr. raeburn and thrown in by a young britling; lost by the forwards and rescued by the padded lady. forward again! this time will do it! cecily away to the left had worked round mr. raeburn once more. teddy, realising that things were serious, was tearing back to attack her. mr. direck supported with silent intentness. "centre!" cried mr. britling. "cen-tre!" "mr. direck!" came her voice, full of confidence. (of such moments is the heroic life.) the ball shot behind the hurtling teddy. mr. direck stopped it with his foot, a trick he had just learnt from the eldest britling son. he was neither slow nor hasty. he was in the half-circle, and the way to the goal was barred only by the dust-cloak lady and mr. lawrence carmine. he made as if to shoot to mr. carmine's left and then smacked the ball, with the swiftness of a serpent's stroke, to his right. he'd done it! mr. carmine's stick and feet were a yard away. then hard on this wild triumph came a flash of horror. one can't see everything. his eye following the ball's trajectory.... directly in its line of flight was the perambulator. the ball missed the legs of the lady with the noble nose by a kind of miracle, hit and glanced off the wheel of the perambulator, and went spinning into a border of antirrhinums. "good!" cried cecily. "splendid shot!" he'd shot a goal. he'd done it well. the perambulator it seemed didn't matter. though apparently the impact had awakened the baby. in the margin of his consciousness was the figure of mr. britling remarking: "aunty. you really mustn't wheel the perambulator--_just_ there." "i thought," said the aunt, indicating the goal posts by a facial movement, "that those two sticks would be a sort of protection.... aah! _did_ they then?" never mind that. "that's _game!_" said one of the junior britlings to mr. direck with a note of high appreciation, and the whole party, relaxing and crumpling like a lowered flag, moved towards the house and tea. section "we'll play some more after tea," said cecily. "it will be cooler then." "my word, i'm beginning to like it," said mr. direck. "you're going to play very well," she said. and such is the magic of a game that mr. direck was humbly proud and grateful for her praise, and trotted along by the side of this creature who had revealed herself so swift and resolute and decisive, full to overflowing of the mere pleasure of just trotting along by her side. and after tea, which was a large confused affair, enlivened by wonderful and entirely untruthful reminiscences of the afternoon by mr. raeburn, they played again, with fewer inefficients and greater skill and swiftness, and mr. direck did such quick and intelligent things that everybody declared that he was a hockey player straight from heaven. the dusk, which at last made the position of the ball too speculative for play, came all too soon for him. he had played in six games, and he knew he would be as stiff as a dutch doll in the morning. but he was very, very happy. the rest of the sunday evening was essentially a sequel to the hockey. mr. direck changed again, and after using some embrocation that mrs. britling recommended very strongly, came down in a black jacket and a cheerfully ample black tie. he had a sense of physical well-being such as he had not experienced since he came aboard the liner at new york. the curious thing was that it was not quite the same sense of physical well-being that one had in america. that is bright and clear and a little dry, this was--humid. his mind quivered contentedly, like sunset midges over a lake--it had no hard bright flashes--and his body wanted to sit about. his sense of intimacy with cecily increased each time he looked at her. when she met his eyes she smiled. he'd caught her style now, he felt; he attempted no more compliments and was frankly her pupil at hockey and badminton. after supper mr. britling renewed his suggestion of an automobile excursion on the monday. "there's nothing to take you back to london," said mr. britling, "and we could just hunt about the district with the little old car and see everything you want to see...." mr. direck did not hesitate three seconds. he thought of gladys; he thought of miss cecily corner. "well, indeed," he said, "if it isn't burthening you, if i'm not being any sort of inconvenience here for another night, i'd be really very glad indeed of the opportunity of going around and seeing all these ancient places...." section the newspapers came next morning at nine, and were full of the sarajevo murders. mr. direck got the _daily chronicle_ and found quite animated headlines for a british paper. "who's this archduke," he asked, "anyhow? and where is this bosnia? i thought it was a part of turkey." "it's in austria," said teddy. "it's in the middle ages," said mr. britling. "what an odd, pertinaceous business it seems to have been. first one bomb, then another; then finally the man with the pistol. while we were strolling about the rose garden. it's like something out of 'the prisoner of zenda.'" "please," said herr heinrich. mr. britling assumed an attentive expression. "will not this generally affect european politics?" "i don't know. perhaps it will." "it says in the paper that serbia has sent those bombs to sarajevo." "it's like another world," said mr. britling, over his paper. "assassination as a political method. can you imagine anything of the sort happening nowadays west of the adriatic? imagine some one assassinating the american vice-president, and the bombs being at once ascribed to the arsenal at toronto!... we take our politics more sadly in the west.... won't you have another egg, direck?" "please! might this not lead to a war?" "i don't think so. austria may threaten serbia, but she doesn't want to provoke a conflict with russia. it would be going too near the powder magazine. but it's all an extraordinary business." "but if she did?" herr heinrich persisted. "she won't.... some years ago i used to believe in the inevitable european war," mr. britling explained to mr. direck, "but it's been threatened so long that at last i've lost all belief in it. the powers wrangle and threaten. they're far too cautious and civilised to let the guns go off. if there was going to be a war it would have happened two years ago when the balkan league fell upon turkey. or when bulgaria attacked serbia...." herr heinrich reflected, and received these conclusions with an expression of respectful edification. "i am naturally anxious," he said, "because i am taking tickets for my holidays at an esperanto conference at boulogne." section "there is only one way to master such a thing as driving an automobile," said mr. britling outside his front door, as he took his place in the driver's seat, "and that is to resolve that from the first you will take no risks. be slow if you like. stop and think when you are in doubt. but do nothing rashly, permit no mistakes." it seemed to mr. direck as he took his seat beside his host that this was admirable doctrine. they started out of the gates with an extreme deliberation. indeed twice they stopped dead in the act of turning into the road, and the engine had to be restarted. "you will laugh at me," said mr. britling; "but i'm resolved to have no blunders this time." "i don't laugh at you. it's excellent," said mr. direck. "it's the right way," said mr. britling. "care--oh damn! i've stopped the engine again. ugh!--ah!--_so!_--care, i was saying--and calm." "don't think i want to hurry you," said mr. direck. "i don't...." they passed through the tillage at a slow, agreeable pace, tooting loudly at every corner, and whenever a pedestrian was approached. mr. direck was reminded that he had still to broach the lecture project to mr. britling. so much had happened-- the car halted abruptly and the engine stopped. "i thought that confounded hen was thinking of crossing the road," said mr. britling. "instead of which she's gone through the hedge. she certainly looked this way.... perhaps i'm a little fussy this morning.... i'll warm up to the work presently." "i'm convinced you can't be too careful," said mr. direck. "and this sort of thing enables one to see the country better...." beyond the village mr. britling seemed to gather confidence. the pace quickened. but whenever other traffic or any indication of a side way appeared discretion returned. mr. britling stalked his sign posts, crawling towards them on the belly of the lowest gear; he drove all the morning like a man who is flushing ambuscades. and yet accident overtook him. for god demands more from us than mere righteousness. he cut through the hills to market saffron along a lane-road with which he was unfamiliar. it began to go up hill. he explained to mr. direck how admirably his engine would climb hills on the top gear. they took a curve and the hill grew steeper, and mr. direck opened the throttle. they rounded another corner, and still more steeply the hill rose before them. the engine began to make a chinking sound, and the car lost pace. and then mr. britling saw a pleading little white board with the inscription "concealed turning." for the moment he thought a turning might be concealed anywhere. he threw out his clutch and clapped on his brake. then he repented of what he had done. but the engine, after three herculean throbs, ceased to work. mr. britling with a convulsive clutch at his steering wheel set the electric hooter snarling, while one foot released the clutch again and the other, on the accelerator, sought in vain for help. mr. direck felt they were going back, back, in spite of all this vocalisation. he clutched at the emergency brake. but he was too late to avoid misfortune. with a feeling like sitting gently in butter, the car sank down sideways and stopped with two wheels in the ditch. mr. britling said they were in the ditch--said it with quite unnecessary violence.... this time two cart horses and a retinue of five men were necessary to restore gladys to her self-respect.... after that they drove on to market saffron, and got there in time for lunch, and after lunch mr. direck explored the church and the churchyard and the parish register.... after lunch mr. britling became more cheerful about his driving. the road from market saffron to blandish, whence one turns off to matching's easy, is the london and norwich high road; it is an old roman stane street and very straightforward and honest in its stretches. you can see the cross roads half a mile away, and the low hedges give you no chance of a surprise. everybody is cheered by such a road, and everybody drives more confidently and quickly, and mr. britling particularly was heartened by it and gradually let out gladys from the almost excessive restriction that had hitherto marked the day. "on a road like this nothing can happen," said mr. britling. "unless you broke an axle or burst a tyre," said mr. direck. "my man at matching's easy is most careful in his inspection," said mr. britling, putting the accelerator well down and watching the speed indicator creep from forty to forty-five. "he went over the car not a week ago. and it's not one month old--in use that is." yet something did happen. it was as they swept by the picturesque walls under the big old trees that encircle brandismead park. it was nothing but a slight miscalculation of distances. ahead of them and well to the left, rode a postman on a bicycle; towards them, with that curious effect of implacable fury peculiar to motor cycles, came a motor cyclist. first mr. britling thought that he would not pass between these two, then he decided that he would hurry up and do so, then he reverted to his former decision, and then it seemed to him that he was going so fast that he must inevitably run down the postman. his instinct not to do that pulled the car sharply across the path of the motor cyclist. "oh, my god!" cried mr. britling. "my god!" twisted his wheel over and distributed his feet among his levers dementedly. he had an imperfectly formed idea of getting across right in front of the motor cyclist, and then they were going down the brief grassy slope between the road and the wall, straight at the wall, and still at a good speed. the motor cyclist smacked against something and vanished from the problem. the wall seemed to rush up at them and then--collapse. there was a tremendous concussion. mr. direck gripped at his friend the emergency brake, but had only time to touch it before his head hit against the frame of the glass wind-screen, and a curtain fell upon everything.... he opened his eyes upon a broken wall, a crumpled motor car, and an undamaged motor cyclist in the aviator's cap and thin oilskin overalls dear to motor cyclists. mr. direck stared and then, still stunned and puzzled, tried to raise himself. he became aware of acute pain. "don't move for a bit," said the motor cyclist. "your arm and side are rather hurt, i think...." section in the course of the next twelve hours mr. direck was to make a discovery that was less common in the days before the war than it has been since. he discovered that even pain and injury may be vividly interesting and gratifying. if any one had told him he was going to be stunned for five or six minutes, cut about the brow and face and have a bone in his wrist put out, and that as a consequence he would find himself pleased and exhilarated, he would have treated the prophecy with ridicule; but here he was lying stiffly on his back with his wrist bandaged to his side and smiling into the darkness even more brightly than he had smiled at the essex landscape two days before. the fact is pain hurts or irritates, but in itself it does not make a healthily constituted man miserable. the expectation of pain, the certainty of injury may make one hopeless enough, the reality rouses our resistance. nobody wants a broken bone or a delicate wrist, but very few people are very much depressed by getting one. people can be much more depressed by smoking a hundred cigarettes in three days or losing one per cent. of their capital. and everybody had been most delightful to mr. direck. he had had the monopoly of damage. mr. britling, holding on to the steering wheel, had not even been thrown out. "unless i'm internally injured," he said, "i'm not hurt at all. my liver perhaps--bruised a little...." gladys had been abandoned in the ditch, and they had been very kindly brought home by a passing automobile. cecily had been at the dower house at the moment of the rueful arrival. she had seen how an american can carry injuries. she had made sympathy and helpfulness more delightful by expressed admiration. "she's a natural born nurse," said mr. direck, and then rather in the tone of one who addressed a public meeting: "but this sort of thing brings out all the good there is in a woman." he had been quite explicit to them and more particularly to her, when they told him he must stay at the dower house until his arm was cured. he had looked the application straight into her pretty eyes. "if i'm to stay right here just as a consequence of that little shake up, may be for a couple of weeks, may be three, and if you're coming to do a bit of a talk to me ever and again, then i tell you i don't call this a misfortune. it isn't a misfortune. it's right down sheer good luck...." and now he lay as straight as a mummy, with his soul filled with radiance of complete mental peace. after months of distress and confusion, he'd got straight again. he was in the middle of a real good story, bright and clean. he knew just exactly what he wanted. "after all," he said, "it's true. there's ideals. _she's_ an ideal. why, i loved her before ever i set eyes on mamie. i loved her before i was put into pants. that old portrait, there it was pointing my destiny.... it's affinity.... it's natural selection.... "well, i don't know what she thinks of me yet, but i do know very well what she's _got_ to think of me. she's got to think all the world of me--if i break every limb of my body making her do it. "i'd a sort of feeling it was right to go in that old automobile. "say what you like, there's a guidance...." he smiled confidentially at the darkness as if they shared a secret. chapter the fourth mr. britling in soliloquy section very different from the painful contentment of the bruised and broken mr. direck was the state of mind of his unwounded host. he too was sleepless, but sleepless without exaltation. the day had been too much for him altogether; his head, to borrow an admirable american expression, was "busy." how busy it was, a whole chapter will be needed to describe.... the impression mr. britling had made upon mr. direck was one of indefatigable happiness. but there were times when mr. britling was called upon to pay for his general cheerful activity in lump sums of bitter sorrow. there were nights--and especially after seasons of exceptional excitement and nervous activity--when the reckoning would be presented and mr. britling would welter prostrate and groaning under a stormy sky of unhappiness--active insatiable unhappiness--a beating with rods. the sorrows of the sanguine temperament are brief but furious; the world knows little of them. the world has no need to reckon with them. they cause no suicides and few crimes. they hurry past, smiting at their victim as they go. none the less they are misery. mr. britling in these moods did not perhaps experience the grey and hopeless desolations of the melancholic nor the red damnation of the choleric, but he saw a world that bristled with misfortune and error, with poisonous thorns and traps and swampy places and incurable blunderings. an almost insupportable remorse for being mr. britling would pursue him--justifying itself upon a hundred counts.... and for being such a britling!... why--he revived again that bitter question of a thousand and one unhappy nights--why was he such a fool? such a hasty fool? why couldn't he look before he leapt? why did he take risks? why was he always so ready to act upon the supposition that all was bound to go well? (he might as well have asked why he had quick brown eyes.) why, for instance, hadn't he adhered to the resolution of the early morning? he had begun with an extremity of caution.... it was a characteristic of these moods of mr. britling that they produced a physical restlessness. he kept on turning over and then turning over again, and sitting up and lying back, like a martyr on a gridiron.... this was just the latest instance of a life-long trouble. will there ever be a sort of man whose thoughts are quick and his acts slow? then indeed we shall have a formidable being. mr. britling's thoughts were quick and sanguine and his actions even more eager than his thoughts. already while he was a young man mr. britling had found his acts elbow their way through the hurry of his ideas and precipitate humiliations. long before his reasons were marshalled, his resolutions were formed. he had attempted a thousand remonstrances with himself; he had sought to remedy the defects in his own character by written inscriptions in his bedroom and memoranda inside his watch case. "keep steady!" was one of them. "keep the end in view." and, "go steadfastly, coherently, continuously; only so can you go where you will." in distrusting all impulse, scrutinising all imagination, he was persuaded lay his one prospect of escape from the surprise of countless miseries. otherwise he danced among glass bombs and barbed wire. there had been a time when he could exhort himself to such fundamental charge and go through phases of the severest discipline. always at last to be taken by surprise from some unexpected quarter. at last he had ceased to hope for any triumph so radical. he had been content to believe that in recent years age and a gathering habit of wisdom had somewhat slowed his leaping purpose. that if he hadn't overcome he had at least to a certain extent minimised it. but this last folly was surely the worst. to charge through this patient world with--how much did the car weigh? a ton certainly and perhaps more--reckless of every risk. not only to himself but others. at this thought, he clutched the steering wheel again. once more he saw the bent back of the endangered cyclist, once more he felt rather than saw the seething approach of the motor bicycle, and then through a long instant he drove helplessly at the wall.... hell perhaps is only one such incident, indefinitely prolonged.... anything might have been there in front of him. and indeed now, out of the dreamland to which he could not escape something had come, something that screamed sharply.... "good god!" he cried, "if i had hit a child! i might have hit a child!" the hypothesis flashed into being with the thought, tried to escape and was caught. it was characteristic of mr. britling's nocturnal imagination that he should individualise this child quite sharply as rather plain and slender, with reddish hair, staring eyes, and its ribs crushed in a vivid and dreadful manner, pinned against the wall, mixed up with some bricks, only to be extracted, oh! _horribly_. but this was not fair! he had hurt no child! he had merely pitched out mr. direck and broken his arm.... it wasn't his merit that the child hadn't been there! the child might have been there! mere luck. he lay staring in despair--as an involuntary god might stare at many a thing in this amazing universe--staring at the little victim his imagination had called into being only to destroy.... section if he had not crushed a child other people had. such things happened. vicariously at any rate he had crushed many children.... why are children ever crushed? and suddenly all the pain and destruction and remorse of all the accidents in the world descended upon mr. britling. no longer did he ask why am i such a fool, but why are we all such fools? he became man on the automobile of civilisation, crushing his thousands daily in his headlong and yet aimless career.... that was a trick of mr. britling's mind. it had this tendency to spread outward from himself to generalised issues. many minds are like that nowadays. he was not so completely individualised as people are supposed to be individualised--in our law, in our stories, in our moral judgments. he had a vicarious factor. he could slip from concentrated reproaches to the liveliest remorse for himself as the automobilist in general, or for himself as england, or for himself as man. from remorse for smashing his guest and his automobile he could pass by what was for him the most imperceptible of transitions to remorse for every accident that has ever happened through the error of an automobilist since automobiles began. all that long succession of blunderers became mr. britling. or rather mr. britling became all that vast succession of blunderers. these fluctuating lapses from individuation made mr. britling a perplexity to many who judged only by the old personal standards. at times he seemed a monster of cantankerous self-righteousness, whom nobody could please or satisfy, but indeed when he was most pitiless about the faults of his race or nation he was really reproaching himself, and when he seemed more egotistical and introspective and self-centred he was really ransacking himself for a clue to that same confusion of purposes that waste the hope and strength of humanity. and now through the busy distresses of the night it would have perplexed a watching angel to have drawn the line and shown when mr. britling, was grieving for his own loss and humiliation and when he was grieving for these common human weaknesses of which he had so large a share. and this double refraction of his mind by which a concentrated and individualised britling did but present a larger impersonal britling beneath, carried with it a duplication of his conscience and sense of responsibility. to his personal conscience he was answerable for his private honour and his debts and the dower house he had made and so on, but to his impersonal conscience he was answerable for the whole world. the world from the latter point of view was his egg. he had a subconscious delusion that he had laid it. he had a subconscious suspicion that he had let it cool and that it was addled. he had an urgency to incubate it. the variety and interest of his talk was largely due to that persuasion, it was a perpetual attempt to spread his mental feathers over the task before him.... section after this much of explanation it is possible to go on to the task which originally brought mr. direck to matching's easy, the task that massachusetts society had sent him upon, the task of organising the mental unveiling of mr. britling. mr. direck saw mr. britling only in the daylight, and with an increasing distraction of the attention towards miss cecily corner. we may see him rather _more_ clearly in the darkness, without any distraction except his own. now the smashing of gladys was not only the source of a series of reproaches and remorses directly arising out of the smash; it had also a wide system of collateral consequences, which were also banging and blundering their way through the britling mind. it was extraordinarily inconvenient in quite another direction that the automobile should be destroyed. it upset certain plans of mr. britling's in a direction growing right out from all the dower house world in which mr. direck supposed him to be completely set and rooted. there were certain matters from which mr. britling had been averting his mind most strenuously throughout the week-end. now, there was no averting his mind any more. mr. britling was entangled in a love affair. it was, to be exact, and disregarding minor affinities, his eighth love affair. and the new automobile, so soon as he could drive it efficiently, was to have played quite a solvent and conclusive part in certain entangled complications of this relationship. a man of lively imagination and quick impulses naturally has love affairs as he drives himself through life, just as he naturally has accidents if he drives an automobile. and the peculiar relations that existed between mr. britling and mrs. britling tended inevitably to make these love affairs troublesome, undignified and futile. especially when they were viewed from the point of view of insomnia. mr. britling's first marriage had been a passionately happy one. his second was by comparison a marriage in neutral tint. there is much to be said for that extreme catholic theory which would make marriage not merely lifelong but eternal. certainly mr. britling would have been a finer if not a happier creature if his sentimental existence could have died with his first wife or continued only in his love for their son. he had married in the glow of youth, he had had two years of clean and simple loving, helping, quarrelling and the happy ending of quarrels. something went out of him into all that, which could not be renewed again. in his first extremity of grief he knew that perfectly well--and then afterwards he forgot it. while there is life there is imagination, which makes and forgets and goes on. he met edith under circumstances that did not in any way recall his lost mary. he met her, as people say, "socially"; mary, on the other hand, had been a girl at newnham while he was a fellow of pembroke, and there had been something of accident and something of furtiveness in their lucky discovery of each other. there had been a flush in it; there was dash in it. but edith he saw and chose and had to woo. there was no rushing together; there was solicitation and assent. edith was a bachelor of science of london university and several things like that, and she looked upon the universe under her broad forehead and broad-waving brown hair with quiet watchful eyes that had nothing whatever to hide, a thing so incredible to mr. britling that he had loved and married her very largely for the serenity of her mystery. and for a time after their marriage he sailed over those brown depths plumbing furiously. of course he did not make his former passion for mary at all clear to her. indeed, while he was winning edith it was by no means clear to himself. he was making a new emotional drama, and consciously and subconsciously he dismissed a hundred reminiscences that sought to invade the new experience, and which would have been out of key with it. and without any deliberate intention to that effect he created an atmosphere between himself and edith in which any discussion of mary was reduced to a minimum, and in which hugh was accepted rather than explained. he contrived to believe that she understood all sorts of unsayable things; he invented miracles of quite uncongenial mute mutuality.... it was over the chess-board that they first began to discover their extensive difficulties of sympathy. mr. britling's play was characterised by a superficial brilliance, much generosity and extreme unsoundness; he always moved directly his opponent had done so--and then reflected on the situation. his reflection was commonly much wiser than his moves. mrs. britling was, as it were, a natural antagonist to her husband; she was as calm as he was irritable. she was never in a hurry to move, and never disposed to make a concession. quietly, steadfastly, by caution and deliberation, without splendour, without error, she had beaten him at chess until it led to such dreadful fits of anger that he had to renounce the game altogether. after every such occasion he would be at great pains to explain that he had merely been angry with himself. nevertheless he felt, and would not let himself think (while she concluded from incidental heated phrases), that that was not the complete truth about the outbreak. slowly they got through the concealments of that specious explanation. temperamentally they were incompatible. they were profoundly incompatible. in all things she was defensive. she never came out; never once had she surprised him halfway upon the road to her. he had to go all the way to her and knock and ring, and then she answered faithfully. she never surprised him even by unkindness. if he had a cut finger she would bind it up very skilfully and healingly, but unless he told her she never discovered he had a cut finger. he was amazed she did not know of it before it happened. he piped and she did not dance. that became the formula of his grievance. for several unhappy years she thwarted him and disappointed him, while he filled her with dumb inexplicable distresses. he had been at first so gay an activity, and then he was shattered; fragments of him were still as gay and attractive as ever, but between were outbreaks of anger, of hostility, of something very like malignity. only very slowly did they realise the truth of their relationship and admit to themselves that the fine bud of love between them had failed to flower, and only after long years were they able to delimit boundaries where they had imagined union, and to become--allies. if it had been reasonably possible for them to part without mutual injury and recrimination they would have done so, but two children presently held them, and gradually they had to work out the broad mutual toleration of their later relations. if there was no love and delight between them there was a real habitual affection and much mutual help. she was proud of his steady progress to distinction, proud of each intimation of respect he won; she admired and respected his work; she recognised that he had some magic, of liveliness and unexpectedness that was precious and enviable. so far as she could help him she did. and even when he knew that there was nothing behind it, that it was indeed little more than an imaginative inertness, he could still admire and respect her steady dignity and her consistent honourableness. her practical capacity was for him a matter for continual self-congratulation. he marked the bright order of her household, her flowering borders, the prosperous high-born roses of her garden with a wondering appreciation. he had never been able to keep anything in order. he relied more and more upon her. he showed his respect for her by a scrupulous attention to her dignity, and his confidence by a franker and franker emotional neglect. because she expressed so little he succeeded in supposing she felt little, and since nothing had come out of the brown depths of her eyes he saw fit at last to suppose no plumb-line would ever find anything there. he pursued his interests; he reached out to this and that; he travelled; she made it a matter of conscience to let him go unhampered; she felt, she thought--unrecorded; he did, and he expressed and re-expressed and over-expressed, and started this and that with quick irrepressible activity, and so there had accumulated about them the various items of the life to whose more ostensible accidents mr. direck was now for an indefinite period joined. it was in the nature of mr. britling to incur things; it was in the nature of mrs. britling to establish them. mr. britling had taken the dower house on impulse, and she had made it a delightful home. he had discovered the disorderly delights of mixed sunday hockey one week-end at pontings that had promised to be dull, and she had made it an institution.... he had come to her with his orphan boy and a memory of a passionate first loss that sometimes, and more particularly at first, he seemed to have forgotten altogether, and at other times was only too evidently lamenting with every fibre of his being. she had taken the utmost care of the relics of her duskily pretty predecessor that she found in unexpected abundance in mr. britling's possession, and she had done her duty by her sometimes rather incomprehensible stepson. she never allowed herself to examine the state of her heart towards this youngster; it is possible that she did not perceive the necessity for any such examination.... so she went through life, outwardly serene and dignified, one of a great company of rather fastidious, rather unenterprising women who have turned for their happiness to secondary things, to those fair inanimate things of household and garden which do not turn again and rend one, to aestheticisms and delicacies, to order and seemliness. moreover she found great satisfaction in the health and welfare, the growth and animation of her own two little boys. and no one knew, and perhaps even she had contrived to forget, the phases of astonishment and disillusionment, of doubt and bitterness and secret tears, that spread out through the years in which she had slowly realised that this strange, fitful, animated man who had come to her, vowing himself hers, asking for her so urgently and persuasively, was ceasing, had ceased, to love her, that his heart had escaped her, that she had missed it; she never dreamt that she had hurt it, and that after its first urgent, tumultuous, incomprehensible search for her it had hidden itself bitterly away.... section the mysterious processes of nature that had produced mr. britling had implanted in him an obstinate persuasion that somewhere in the world, from some human being, it was still possible to find the utmost satisfaction for every need and craving. he could imagine as existing, as waiting for him, he knew not where, a completeness of understanding, a perfection of response, that would reach all the gamut of his feelings and sensations from the most poetical to the most entirely physical, a beauty of relationship so transfiguring that not only would she--it went without saying that this completion was a woman--be perfectly beautiful in its light but, what was manifestly more incredible, that he too would be perfectly beautiful and quite at his ease.... in her presence there could be no self-reproaches, no lapses, no limitations, nothing but happiness and the happiest activities.... to such a persuasion half the imaginative people in the world succumb as readily and naturally as ducklings take to water. they do not doubt its truth any more than a thirsty camel doubts that presently it will come to a spring. this persuasion is as foolish as though a camel hoped that some day it would drink from such a spring that it would never thirst again. for the most part mr. britling ignored its presence in his mind, and resisted the impulses it started. but at odd times, and more particularly in the afternoon and while travelling and in between books, mr. britling so far succumbed to this strange expectation of a wonder round the corner that he slipped the anchors of his humour and self-contempt and joined the great cruising brotherhood of the pilgrims of love.... in fact--though he himself had never made a reckoning of it--he had been upon eight separate cruises. he was now upon the eighth.... between these various excursions--they took him round and about the world, so to speak, they cast him away on tropical beaches, they left him dismasted on desolate seas, they involved the most startling interventions and the most inconvenient consequences--there were interludes of penetrating philosophy. for some years the suspicion had been growing up in mr. britling's mind that in planting this persuasion in his being, the mysterious processes of nature had been, perhaps for some purely biological purpose, pulling, as people say, his leg, that there were not these perfect responses, that loving a woman is a thing one does thoroughly once for all--or so--and afterwards recalls regrettably in a series of vain repetitions, and that the career of the pilgrim of love, so soon as you strip off its credulous glamour, is either the most pitiful or the most vulgar and vile of perversions from the proper conduct of life. but this suspicion had not as yet grown to prohibitive dimensions with him, it was not sufficient to resist the seasons of high tide, the sudden promise of the salt-edged breeze, the invitation of the hovering sea-bird; and he was now concealing beneath the lively surface of activities with which mr. direck was now familiar, a very extensive system of distresses arising out of the latest, the eighth of these digressional adventures.... mr. britling had got into it very much as he had got into the ditch on the morning before his smash. he hadn't thought the affair out and he hadn't looked carefully enough. and it kept on developing in just the ways he would rather that it didn't. the seventh affair had been very disconcerting. he had made a fool of himself with quite a young girl; he blushed to think how young; it hadn't gone very far, but it had made his nocturnal reflections so disagreeable that he had--by no means for the first time--definitely and forever given up these foolish dreams of love. and when mrs. harrowdean swam into his circle, she seemed just exactly what was wanted to keep his imagination out of mischief. she came bearing flattery to the pitch of adoration. she was the brightest and cleverest of young widows. she wrote quite admirably criticism in the _scrutator_ and the _sectarian_, and occasionally poetry in the _right review_--when she felt disposed to do so. she had an intermittent vein of high spirits that was almost better than humour and made her quickly popular with most of the people she met, and she was only twenty miles away in her pretty house and her absurd little jolly park. there was something, she said, in his thought and work that was like walking in mountains. she came to him because she wanted to clamber about the peaks and glens of his mind. it was natural to reply that he wasn't by any means the serene mountain elevation she thought him, except perhaps for a kind of loneliness.... she was a great reader of eighteenth century memoirs, and some she conveyed to him. her mental quality was all in the vein of the friendships of rousseau and voltaire, and pleasantly and trippingly she led him along the primrose path of an intellectual liaison. she came first to matching's easy, where she was sweet and bright and vividly interested and a great contrast to mrs. britling, and then he and she met in london, and went off together with a fine sense of adventure for a day at richmond, and then he took some work with him to her house and stayed there.... then she went away into scotland for a time and he wanted her again tremendously and clamoured for her eloquently, and then it was apparent and admitted between them that they were admirably in love, oh! immensely in love. the transitions from emotional mountaineering to ardent intimacies were so rapid and impulsive that each phase obliterated its predecessor, and it was only with a vague perplexity that mr. britling found himself transferred from the rôle of a mountainous objective for pretty little pilgrims to that of a sedulous lover in pursuit of the happiness of one of the most uncertain, intricate, and entrancing of feminine personalities. this was not at all his idea of the proper relations between men and women, but mrs. harrowdean had a way of challenging his gallantry. she made him run about for her; she did not demand but she commanded presents and treats and surprises; she even developed a certain jealousy in him. his work began to suffer from interruptions. yet they had glowing and entertaining moments together that could temper his rebellious thoughts with the threat of irreparable loss. "one must love, and all things in life are imperfect," was how mr. britling expressed his reasons for submission. and she had a hold upon him too in a certain facile pitifulness. she was little; she could be stung sometimes by the slightest touch and then her blue eyes would be bright with tears. those possible tears could weigh at times even more than those possible lost embraces. and there was oliver. oliver was a person mr. britling had never seen. he grew into the scheme of things by insensible gradations. he was a government official in london; he was, she said, extraordinarily dull, he was lacking altogether in mr. britling's charm and interest, but he was faithful and tender and true. and considerably younger than mr. britling. he asked nothing but to love. he offered honourable marriage. and when one's heart was swelling unendurably one could weep in safety on his patient shoulder. this patient shoulder of oliver's ultimately became mr. britling's most exasperating rival. she liked to vex him with oliver. she liked to vex him generally. indeed in this by no means abnormal love affair, there was a very strong antagonism. she seemed to resent the attraction mr. britling had for her and the emotions and pleasure she had with him. she seemed under the sway of an instinctive desire to make him play heavily for her, in time, in emotion, in self-respect. it was intolerable to her that he could take her easily and happily. that would be taking her cheaply. she valued his gifts by the bother they cost him, and was determined that the path of true love should not, if she could help it, run smooth. mr. britling on the other hand was of the school of polite and happy lovers. he thought it outrageous to dispute and contradict, and he thought that making love was a cheerful, comfortable thing to be done in a state of high good humour and intense mutual appreciation. this levity offended the lady's pride. she drew unfavourable contrasts with oliver. if oliver lacked charm he certainly did not lack emotion. he desired sacrifice, it seemed, almost more than satisfactions. oliver was a person of the most exemplary miserableness; he would weep copiously and frequently. she could always make him weep when she wanted to do so. by holding out hopes and then dashing them if by no other expedient. why did mr. britling never weep? she wept. some base streak of competitiveness in mr. britling's nature made it seem impossible that he should relinquish the lady to oliver. besides, then, what would he do with his dull days, his afternoons, his need for a properly demonstrated affection? so mr. britling trod the path of his eighth digression, rather overworked in the matter of flowers and the selection of small jewellery, stalked by the invisible and indefatigable oliver, haunted into an unwilling industry of attentions--attentions on the model of the professional lover of the french novels--by the memory and expectation of tearful scenes. "then you don't love me! and it's all spoilt. i've risked talk and my reputation.... i was a fool ever to dream of making love beautifully...." exactly like running your car into a soft wet ditch when you cannot get out and you cannot get on. and your work and your interests waiting and waiting for you!... the car itself was an outcome of the affair. it was mrs. harrowdean's idea, she thought chiefly of pleasant expeditions to friendly inns in remote parts of the country, inns with a flavour of tacit complicity, but it fell in very pleasantly with mr. britling's private resentment at the extraordinary inconvenience of the railway communications between matching's easy and her station at pyecrafts, which involved a journey to liverpool street and a long wait at a junction. and now the car was smashed up--just when he had acquired skill enough to take it over to pyecrafts without shame, and on tuesday or wednesday at latest he would have to depart in the old way by the london train.... only the most superficial mind would assert nowadays that man is a reasonable creature. man is an unreasonable creature, and it was entirely unreasonable and human for mr. britling during his nocturnal self-reproaches to mix up his secret resentment at his infatuation for mrs. harrowdean with his ill-advised attack upon the wall of brandismead park. he ought never to have bought that car; he ought never to have been so ready to meet mrs. harrowdean more than halfway. what exacerbated his feeling about mrs. harrowdean was a new line she had recently taken with regard to mrs. britling. from her first rash assumption that mr. britling was indifferent to his wife, she had come to realise that on the contrary he was in some ways extremely tender about his wife. this struck her as an outrageous disloyalty. instead of appreciating a paradox she resented an infidelity. she smouldered with perplexed resentment for some days, and then astonished her lover by a series of dissertations of a hostile and devastating nature upon the lady of the dower house. he tried to imagine he hadn't heard all that he had heard, but mrs. harrowdean had a nimble pen and nimbler afterthoughts, and once her mind had got to work upon the topic she developed her offensive in half-a-dozen brilliant letters.... on the other hand she professed a steadily increasing passion for mr. britling. and to profess passion for mr. britling was to put him under a sense of profound obligation--because indeed he was a modest man. he found himself in an emotional quandary. you see, if mrs. harrowdean had left mrs. britling alone everything would have been quite tolerable. he considered mrs. harrowdean a charming human being, and altogether better than he deserved. ever so much better. she was all initiative and response and that sort of thing. and she was so discreet. she had her own reputation to think about, and one or two of her predecessors--god rest the ashes of those fires!--had not been so discreet. yet one could not have this sort of thing going on behind edith's back. all sorts of things one might have going on behind edith's back, but not this writing and saying of perfectly beastly things about edith. nothing could alter the fact that edith was his honour.... section throughout the week-end mr. britling had kept this trouble well battened down. he had written to mrs. harrowdean a brief ambiguous note saying, "i am thinking over all that you have said," and after that he had scarcely thought about her at all. or at least he had always contrived to be much more vividly thinking about something else. but now in these night silences the suppressed trouble burst hatches and rose about him. what a mess he had made of the whole scheme of his emotional life! there had been a time when he had started out as gaily with his passions and his honour as he had started out with gladys to go to market saffron. he had as little taste for complications as he had for ditches. and now his passions and his honour were in a worse case even than poor muddy smashed up gladys as the cart-horses towed her off, for she at any rate might be repaired. but he--he was a terribly patched fabric of explanations now. not indeed that he had ever stooped to explanations. but there he was! far away, like a star seen down the length of a tunnel, was that first sad story of a love as clean as starlight. it had been all over by eight-and-twenty and he could find it in his heart to grieve that he had ever given a thought to love again. he should have lived a decent widower.... then edith had come into his life, edith that honest and unconscious defaulter. and there again he should have stuck to his disappointment. he had stuck to it--nine days out of every ten. it's the tenth day, it's the odd seductive moment, it's the instant of confident pride--and there is your sanguine temperament in the ditch. he began to recapitulate items in the catalogue of his escapades, and the details of his automobile misadventures mixed themselves up with the story of his heart steering. for example there was that tremendous siddons affair. he had been taking the corner of a girlish friendship and he had taken it altogether too far. what a frightful mess that had been! when once one is off the road anything may happen, from a crumpled mud-guard to the car on the top of you. and there was his forty miles an hour spurt with the great and gifted delphine marquise--for whom he was to have written a play and been a perfect annunzio. until willersley appeared--very like the motor-cyclist--buzzing in the opposite direction. and then had ensued angers, humiliations.... had every man this sort of crowded catalogue? was every forty-five-year-old memory a dark tunnel receding from the star of youth? it is surely a pity that life cannot end at thirty. it comes to one clean and in perfect order.... is experience worth having? what a clean, straight thing the spirit of youth is. it is like a bright new spear. it is like a finely tempered sword. the figure of his boy took possession of his mind, his boy who looked out on the world with his mother's dark eyes, the slender son of that whole-hearted first love. he was a being at once fine and simple, an intimate mystery. must he in his turn get dented and wrinkled and tarnished? the boy was in trouble. what was the trouble? was it some form of the same trouble that had so tangled and tainted and scarred the private pride of his father? and how was it possible for mr. britling, disfigured by heedless misadventures, embarrassed by complications and concealments, to help this honest youngster out of his perplexities? he imagined possible forms of these perplexities. graceless forms. ugly forms. such forms as only the nocturnal imagination would have dared present.... oh, why had he been such a britling? why was he still such a britling? mr. britling sat up in his bed and beat at the bedclothes with his fists. he uttered uncompleted vows, "from this hour forth ... from this hour forth...." he must do something, he felt. at any rate he had his experiences. he could warn. he could explain away. perhaps he might help to extricate, if things had got to that pitch. should he write to his son? for a time he revolved a long, tactful letter in his mind. but that was impossible. suppose the trouble was something quite different? it would have to be a letter in the most general terms.... section it was in the doubly refracting nature of mr. britling's mind that while he was deploring his inefficiency in regard to his son, he was also deploring the ineffectiveness of all his generation of parents. quite insensibly his mind passed over to the generalised point of view. in his talks with mr. direck, mr. britling could present england as a great and amiable spectacle of carelessness and relaxation, but was it indeed an amiable spectacle? the point that mr. direck had made about the barn rankled in his thoughts. his barn was a barn no longer, his farmyard held no cattle; he was just living laxly in the buildings that ancient needs had made, he was living on the accumulated prosperity of former times, the spendthrift heir of toiling generations. not only was he a pampered, undisciplined sort of human being; he was living in a pampered, undisciplined sort of community. the two things went together.... this confounded irish business, one could laugh at it in the daylight, but was it indeed a thing to laugh at? we were drifting lazily towards a real disaster. we had a government that seemed guided by the principles of mr. micawber, and adopted for its watchword "wait and see." for months now this trouble had grown more threatening. suppose presently that civil war broke out in ireland! suppose presently that these irritated, mishandled suffragettes did some desperate irreconcilable thing, assassinated for example! the bomb in westminster abbey the other day might have killed a dozen people.... suppose the smouldering criticism of british rule in india and egypt were fanned by administrative indiscretions into a flame.... and then suppose germany had made trouble.... usually mr. britling kept his mind off germany. in the daytime he pretended germany meant nothing to england. he hated alarmists. he hated disagreeable possibilities. he declared the idea of a whole vast nation waiting to strike at us incredible. why should they? you cannot have seventy million lunatics.... but in the darkness of the night one cannot dismiss things in this way. suppose, after all, their army was more than a parade, their navy more than a protest? we might be caught--it was only in the vast melancholia of such occasions that mr. britling would admit such possibilities, but we might be caught by some sudden declaration of war.... and how should we face it? he recalled the afternoon's talk at claverings and such samples of our governmental machinery as he chanced to number among his personal acquaintance. suppose suddenly the enemy struck! with raeburn and his friends to defend us! or if the shock tumbled them out of power, then with these vituperative tories, these spiteful advocates of weak tyrannies and privileged pretences in the place of them. there was no leadership in england. in the lucid darkness he knew that with a terrible certitude. he had a horrible vision of things disastrously muffled; of lady frensham and her _morning post_ friends first garrulously and maliciously "patriotic," screaming her way with incalculable mischiefs through the storm, and finally discovering that the germans were the real aristocrats and organising our national capitulation on that understanding. he knew from talk he had heard that the navy was weak in mines and torpedoes, unprovided with the great monitors needed for a war with germany; torn by doctrinaire feuds; nevertheless the sea power was our only defence. in the whole country we might muster a military miscellany of perhaps three hundred thousand men. and he had no faith in their equipment, in their direction. general french, the one man who had his entire confidence, had been forced to resign through some lawyer's misunderstanding about the irish difficulty. he did not believe any plans existed for such a war as germany might force upon us, any calculation, any foresight of the thing at all. why had we no foresight? why had we this wilful blindness to disagreeable possibilities? why did we lie so open to the unexpected crisis? just what he said of himself he said also of his country. it was curious to remember that. to realise how closely dower house could play the microcosm to the whole empire.... it became relevant to the trend of his thoughts that his son had through his mother a strong strain of the dark irish in his composition. how we had wasted ireland! the rich values that lay in ireland, the gallantry and gifts, the possible friendliness, all these things were being left to the ulster politicians and the tory women to poison and spoil, just as we left india to the traditions of the chattering army women and the repressive instincts of our mandarins. we were too lazy, we were too negligent. we passed our indolent days leaving everything to somebody else. was this the incurable british, just as it was the incurable britling, quality? was the whole prosperity of the british, the far-flung empire, the securities, the busy order, just their good luck? it was a question he had asked a hundred times of his national as of his personal self. no doubt luck had favoured him. he was prosperous, and he was still only at the livelier end of middle age. but was there not also a personal factor, a meritorious factor? luck had favoured the british with a well-placed island, a hardening climate, accessible minerals, but then too was there not also a national virtue? once he had believed in that, in a certain gallantry, a noble levity, an underlying sound sense. the last ten years of politics had made him doubt that profoundly. he clung to it still, but without confidence. in the night that dear persuasion left him altogether.... as for himself he had a certain brightness and liveliness of mind, but the year of his fellowship had been a soft year, he had got on to _the times_ through something very like a misapprehension, and it was the chances of a dinner and a duchess that had given him the opportunity of the kahn show. he'd dropped into good things that suited him. that at any rate was the essence of it. and these lucky chances had been no incentive to further effort. because things had gone easily and rapidly with him he had developed indolence into a philosophy. here he was just over forty, and explaining to the world, explaining all through the week-end to this american--until even god could endure it no longer and the smash stopped him--how excellent was the backwardness of essex and english go-as-you-please, and how through good temper it made in some mysterious way for all that was desirable. a fat english doctrine. _punch_ has preached it for forty years. but this wasn't what he had always been. he thought of the strenuous intentions of his youth, before he had got into this turmoil of amorous experiences, while he was still out there with the clean star of youth. as hugh was.... in those days he had had no amiable doctrine of compromise. he had truckled to no "domesticated god," but talked of the "pitiless truth"; he had tolerated no easy-going pseudo-aristocratic social system, but dreamt of such a democracy "mewing its mighty youth" as the world had never seen. he had thought that his brains were to do their share in building up this great national _imago_, winged, divine, out of the clumsy, crawling, snobbish, comfort-loving caterpillar of victorian england. with such dreams his life had started, and the light of them, perhaps, had helped him to his rapid success. and then his wife had died, and he had married again and become somehow more interested in his income, and then the rather expensive first of the eight experiences had drained off so much of his imaginative energy, and the second had drained off so much, and there had been quarrels and feuds, and the way had been lost, and the days had passed. he hadn't failed. indeed he counted as a success among his generation. he alone, in the night watches, could gauge the quality of that success. he was widely known, reputably known; he prospered. much had come, oh! by a mysterious luck, but everything was doomed by his invincible defects. beneath that hollow, enviable show there ached waste. waste, waste, waste--his heart, his imagination, his wife, his son, his country--his automobile.... then there flashed into his mind a last straw of disagreeable realisation. he hadn't as yet insured his automobile! he had meant to do so. the papers were on his writing-desk. section on these black nights, when the personal mr. britling would lie awake thinking how unsatisfactorily mr. britling was going on, and when the impersonal mr. britling would be thinking how unsatisfactorily his universe was going on, the whole mental process had a likeness to some complex piece of orchestral music wherein the organ deplored the melancholy destinies of the race while the piccolo lamented the secret trouble of mrs. harrowdean; the big drum thundered at the irish politicians, and all the violins bewailed the intellectual laxity of the university system. meanwhile the trumpets prophesied wars and disasters, the cymbals ever and again inserted a clashing jar about the fatal delay in the automobile insurance, while the triangle broke into a plangent solo on the topic of a certain rotten gate-post he always forgot in the daytime, and how in consequence the cows from the glebe farm got into the garden and ate mrs. britling's carnations. time after time he had promised to see to that gate-post.... the organ _motif_ battled its way to complete predominance. the lesser themes were drowned or absorbed. mr. britling returned from the rôle of an incompetent automobilist to the rôle of a soul naked in space and time wrestling with giant questions. these cosmic solicitudes, it may be, are the last penalty of irreligion. was huxley right, and was all humanity, even as mr. britling, a careless, fitful thing, playing a tragically hopeless game, thinking too slightly, moving too quickly, against a relentless antagonist? or is the whole thing just witless, accidentally cruel perhaps, but not malignant? or is it wise, and merely refusing to pamper us? is there somewhere in the immensities some responsive kindliness, some faint hope of toleration and assistance, something sensibly on our side against death and mechanical cruelty? if so, it certainly refuses to pamper us.... but if the whole thing is cruel, perhaps also it is witless and will-less? one cannot imagine the ruler of everything a devil--that would be silly. so if at the worst it is inanimate then anyhow we have our poor wills and our poor wits to pit against it. and manifestly then, the good of life, the significance of any life that is not mere receptivity, lies in the disciplined and clarified will and the sharpened and tempered mind. and what for the last twenty years--for all his lectures and writings--had he been doing to marshal the will and harden the mind which were his weapons against the dark? he was ready enough to blame others--dons, politicians, public apathy, but what was he himself doing? what was he doing now? lying in bed! his son was drifting to ruin, his country was going to the devil, the house was a hospital of people wounded by his carelessness, the country roads choked with his smashed (and uninsured) automobiles, the cows were probably lined up along the borders and munching edith's carnations at this very moment, his pocketbook and bureau were stuffed with venomous insults about her--and he was just lying in bed! suddenly mr. britling threw back his bedclothes and felt for the matches on his bedside table. indeed this was by no means the first time that his brain had become a whirring torment in his skull. previous experiences had led to the most careful provision for exactly such states. over the end of the bed hung a light, warm pyjama suit of llama-wool, and at the feet of it were two tall boots of the same material that buckled to the middle of his calf. so protected, mr. britling proceeded to make himself tea. a primus stove stood ready inside the fender of his fireplace, and on it was a brightly polished brass kettle filled with water; a little table carried a tea-caddy, a tea-pot, a lemon and a glass. mr. britling lit the stove and then strolled to his desk. he was going to write certain "plain words about ireland." he lit his study lamp and meditated beside it until a sound of water boiling called him to his tea-making. he returned to his desk stirring the lemon in his glass of tea. he would write the plain common sense of this irish situation. he would put things so plainly that this squabbling folly would _have_ to cease. it should be done austerely, with a sort of ironical directness. there should be no abuse, no bitterness, only a deep passion of sanity. what is the good of grieving over a smashed automobile? he sipped his tea and made a few notes on his writing pad. his face in the light of his shaded reading lamp had lost its distraught expression, his hand fingered his familiar fountain pen.... section the next morning mr. britling came into mr. direck's room. he was pink from his morning bath, he was wearing a cheerful green-and-blue silk dressing gown, he had shaved already, he showed no trace of his nocturnal vigil. in the bathroom he had whistled like a bird. "had a good night?" he said. "that's famous. so did i. and the wrist and arm didn't even ache enough to keep you awake?" "i thought i heard you talking and walking about," said mr. direck. "i got up for a little bit and worked. i often do that. i hope i didn't disturb you. just for an hour or so. it's so delightfully quiet in the night...." he went to the window and blinked at the garden outside. his two younger sons appeared on their bicycles returning from some early expedition. he waved a hand of greeting. it was one of those summer mornings when attenuated mist seems to fill the very air with sunshine dust. "this is the sunniest morning bedroom in the house," he said. "it's south-east." the sunlight slashed into the masses of the blue cedar outside with a score of golden spears. "the dayspring from on high," he said.... "i thought of rather a useful pamphlet in the night. "i've been thinking about your luggage at that hotel," he went on, turning to his guest again. "you'll have to write and get it packed up and sent down here-- "no," he said, "we won't let you go until you can hit out with that arm and fell a man. listen!" mr. direck could not distinguish any definite sound. "the smell of frying rashers, i mean," said mr. britling. "it's the clarion of the morn in every proper english home.... "you'd like a rasher, coffee? "it's good to work in the night, and it's good to wake in the morning," said mr. britling, rubbing his hands together. "i suppose i wrote nearly two thousand words. so quiet one is, so concentrated. and as soon as i have had my breakfast i shall go on with it again." chapter the fifth the coming of the day section it was quite characteristic of the state of mind of england in the summer of that mr. britling should be mightily concerned about the conflict in ireland, and almost deliberately negligent of the possibility of a war with germany. the armament of germany, the hostility of germany, the consistent assertion of germany, the world-wide clash of british and german interests, had been facts in the consciousness of englishmen for more than a quarter of a century. a whole generation had been born and brought up in the threat of this german war. a threat that goes on for too long ceases to have the effect of a threat, and this overhanging possibility had become a fixed and scarcely disturbing feature of the british situation. it kept the navy sedulous and colonel rendezvous uneasy; it stimulated a small and not very influential section of the press to a series of reminders that bored mr. britling acutely, it was the excuse for an agitation that made national service ridiculous, and quite subconsciously it affected his attitude to a hundred things. for example, it was a factor in his very keen indignation at the tory levity in ireland, in his disgust with many things that irritated or estranged indian feeling. it bored him; there it was, a danger, and there was no denying it, and yet he believed firmly that it was a mine that would never be fired, an avalanche that would never fall. it was a nuisance, a stupidity, that kept europe drilling and wasted enormous sums on unavoidable preparations; it hung up everything like a noisy argument in a drawing-room, but that human weakness and folly would ever let the mine actually explode he did not believe. he had been in france in , he had seen how close things had come then to a conflict, and the fact that they had not come to a conflict had enormously strengthened his natural disposition to believe that at bottom germany was sane and her militarism a bluff. but the irish difficulty was a different thing. there, he felt, was need for the liveliest exertions. a few obstinate people in influential positions were manifestly pushing things to an outrageous point.... he wrote through the morning--and as the morning progressed the judicial calm of his opening intentions warmed to a certain regrettable vigour of phrasing about our politicians, about our political ladies, and our hand-to-mouth press.... he came down to lunch in a frayed, exhausted condition, and was much afflicted by a series of questions from herr heinrich. for it was an incurable characteristic of herr heinrich that he asked questions; the greater part of his conversation took the form of question and answer, and his thirst for information was as marked as his belief that german should not simply be spoken but spoken "out loud." he invariably prefaced his inquiries with the word "please," and he insisted upon ascribing an omniscience to his employer that it was extremely irksome to justify after a strenuous morning of enthusiastic literary effort. he now took the opportunity of a lull in the solicitudes and congratulations that had followed mr. direck's appearance--and mr. direck was so little shattered by his misadventure that with the assistance of the kindly teddy he had got up and dressed and come down to lunch--to put the matter that had been occupying his mind all the morning, even to the detriment of the lessons of the masters britling. "please!" he said, going a deeper shade of pink and partly turning to mr. britling. a look of resignation came into mr. britling's eyes. "yes?" he said. "i do not think it will be wise to take my ticket for the esperanto conference at boulogne. because i think it is probable to be war between austria and servia, and that russia may make war on austria." "that may happen. but i think it improbable." "if russia makes war on austria, germany will make war on russia, will she not?" "not if she is wise," said mr. britling, "because that would bring in france." "that is why i ask. if germany goes to war with france i should have to go to germany to do my service. it will be a great inconvenience to me." "i don't imagine germany will do anything so frantic as to attack russia. that would not only bring in france but ourselves." "england?" "of course. we can't afford to see france go under. the thing is as plain as daylight. so plain that it cannot possibly happen.... cannot.... unless germany wants a universal war." "thank you," said herr heinrich, looking obedient rather than reassured. "i suppose now," said mr. direck after a pause, "that there isn't any strong party in germany that wants a war. that young crown prince, for example." "they keep him in order," said mr. britling a little irritably. "they keep him in order.... "i used to be an alarmist about germany," said mr. britling, "but i have come to feel more and more confidence in the sound common sense of the mass of the german population, and in the emperor too if it comes to that. he is--if herr heinrich will permit me to agree with his own german comic papers--sometimes a little theatrical, sometimes a little egotistical, but in his operatic, boldly coloured way he means peace. i am convinced he means peace...." section after lunch mr. britling had a brilliant idea for the ease and comfort of mr. direck. it seemed as though mr. direck would be unable to write any letters until his wrist had mended. teddy tried him with a typewriter, but mr. direck was very awkward with his left hand, and then mr. britling suddenly remembered a little peculiarity he had which it was possible that mr. direck might share unconsciously, and that was his gift of looking-glass writing with his left hand. mr. britling had found out quite by chance in his schoolboy days that while his right hand had been laboriously learning to write, his left hand, all unsuspected, had been picking up the same lesson, and that by taking a pencil in his left hand and writing from right to left, without watching what he was writing, and then examining the scrawl in a mirror, he could reproduce his own handwriting in exact reverse. about three people out of five have this often quite unsuspected ability. he demonstrated his gift, and then miss cecily corner, who had dropped in in a casual sort of way to ask about mr. direck, tried it, and then mr. direck tried it. and they could all do it. and then teddy brought a sheet of copying carbon, and so mr. direck, by using the carbon reversed under his paper, was restored to the world of correspondence again. they sat round a little table under the cedar trees amusing themselves with these experiments, and after that cecily and mr. britling and the two small boys entertained themselves by drawing pigs with their eyes shut, and then mr. britling and teddy played hard at badminton until it was time for tea. and cecily sat by mr. direck and took an interest in his accident, and he told her about summer holidays in the adirondacks and how he loved to travel. she said she would love to travel. he said that so soon as he was better he would go on to paris and then into germany. he was extraordinarily curious about this germany and its tremendous militarism. he'd far rather see it than italy, which was, he thought, just all art and ancient history. his turn was for modern problems. though of course he didn't intend to leave out italy while he was at it. and then their talk was scattered, and there was great excitement because herr heinrich had lost his squirrel. he appeared coming out of the house into the sunshine, and so distraught that he had forgotten the protection of his hat. he was very pink and deeply moved. "but what shall i do without him?" he cried. "he has gone!" the squirrel, mr. direck gathered, had been bought by mrs. britling for the boys some month or so ago; it had been christened "bill" and adored and then neglected, until herr heinrich took it over. it had filled a place in his ample heart that the none too demonstrative affection of the britling household had left empty. he abandoned his pursuit of philology almost entirely for the cherishing and adoration of this busy, nimble little creature. he carried it off to his own room, where it ran loose and took the greatest liberties with him and his apartment. it was an extraordinarily bold and savage little beast even for a squirrel, but herr heinrich had set his heart and his very large and patient will upon the establishment of sentimental relations. he believed that ultimately bill would let himself be stroked, that he would make bill love him and understand him, and that his would be the only hand that bill would ever suffer to touch him. in the meanwhile even the untamed bill was wonderful to watch. one could watch him forever. his front paws were like hands, like a musician's hands, very long and narrow. "he would be a musician if he could only make his fingers go apart, because when i play my violin he listens. he is attentive." the entire household became interested in herr heinrich's attacks upon bill's affection. they watched his fingers with particular interest because it was upon those that bill vented his failures to respond to the stroking advances. "to-day i have stroked him once and he has bitten me three times," herr heinrich reported. "soon i will stroke him three times and he shall not bite me at all.... also yesterday he climbed up me and sat on my shoulder, and suddenly bit my ear. it was not hard he bit, but sudden. "he does not mean to bite," said herr heinrich. "because when he has bit me he is sorry. he is ashamed. "you can see he is ashamed." assisted by the two small boys, herr heinrich presently got a huge bough of oak and brought it into his room, converting the entire apartment into the likeness of an aviary. "for this," said herr heinrich, looking grave and diplomatic through his glasses, "billy will be very grateful. and it will give him confidence with me. it will make him feel we are in the forest together." mrs. britling came to console her husband in the matter. "it is not right that the bedroom should be filled with trees. all sorts of dust and litter came in with it." "if it amuses him," said mr. britling. "but it makes work for the servants." "do they complain?" "no." "things will adjust themselves. and it is amusing that he should do such a thing...." and now billy had disappeared, and herr heinrich was on the verge of tears. it was so ungrateful of billy. without a word. "they leave my window open," he complained to mr. direck. "often i have askit them not to. and of course he did not understand. he has out climbit by the ivy. anything may have happened to him. anything. he is not used to going out alone. he is too young. "perhaps if i call--" and suddenly he had gone off round the house crying: "beelee! beelee! here is an almond for you! an almond, beelee!" "makes me want to get up and help," said mr. direck. "it's a tragedy." everybody else was helping. even the gardener and his boy knocked off work and explored the upper recesses of various possible trees. "he is too young," said herr heinrich, drifting back.... and then presently: "if he heard my voice i am sure he would show himself. but he does not show himself." it was clear he feared the worst.... at supper billy was the sole topic of conversation, and condolence was in the air. the impression that on the whole he had displayed rather a brutal character was combated by herr heinrich, who held that a certain brusqueness was billy's only fault, and told anecdotes, almost sacred anecdotes, of the little creature's tenderer, nobler side. "when i feed him always he says, 'thank you,'" said herr heinrich. "he never fails." he betrayed darker thoughts. "when i went round by the barn there was a cat that sat and looked at me out of a laurel bush," he said. "i do not like cats." mr. lawrence carmine, who had dropped in, was suddenly reminded of that lugubrious old ballad, "the mistletoe bough," and recited large worn fragments of it impressively. it tells of how a beautiful girl hid away in a chest during a christmas game of hide-and-seek, and how she was found, a dried vestige, years afterwards. it took a very powerful hold upon herr heinrich's imagination. "let us now," he said, "make an examination of every box and cupboard and drawer. marking each as we go...." when mr. britling went to bed that night, after a long gossip with carmine about the bramo samaj and modern developments of indian thought generally, the squirrel was still undiscovered. the worthy modern thinker undressed slowly, blew out his candle and got into bed. still meditating deeply upon the god of the tagores, he thrust his right hand under his pillow according to his usual practice, and encountered something soft and warm and active. he shot out of bed convulsively, lit his candle, and lifted his pillow discreetly. he discovered the missing billy looking crumpled and annoyed. for some moments there was a lively struggle before billy was gripped. he chattered furiously and bit mr. britling twice. then mr. britling was out in the passage with the wriggling lump of warm fur in his hand, and paddling along in the darkness to the door of herr heinrich. he opened it softly. a startled white figure sat up in bed sharply. "billy," said mr. britling by way of explanation, dropped his capture on the carpet, and shut the door on the touching reunion. section a day was to come when mr. britling was to go over the history of that sunny july with incredulous minuteness, trying to trace the real succession of events that led from the startling crime at sarajevo to europe's last swift rush into war. in a sense it was untraceable; in a sense it was so obvious that he was amazed the whole world had not watched the coming of disaster. the plain fact of the case was that there was no direct connection; the sarajevo murders were dropped for two whole weeks out of the general consciousness, they went out of the papers, they ceased to be discussed; then they were picked up again and used as an excuse for war. germany, armed so as to be a threat to all the world, weary at last of her mighty vigil, watching the course of events, decided that her moment had come, and snatched the dead archduke out of his grave again to serve her tremendous ambition. it may well have seemed to the belligerent german patriot that all her possible foes were confused, divided within themselves, at an extremity of distraction and impotence. the british isles seemed slipping steadily into civil war. threat was met by counter-threat, violent fool competed with violent fool for the admiration of the world, the national volunteers armed against the ulster men; everything moved on with a kind of mechanical precision from parade and meeting towards the fatal gun-running of howth and the first bloodshed in dublin streets. that wretched affray, far more than any other single thing, must have stiffened germany in the course she had chosen. there can be no doubt of it; the mischief makers of ireland set the final confirmation upon the european war. in england itself there was a summer fever of strikes; liverpool was choked by a dockers' strike, the east anglian agricultural labourers were in revolt, and the building trade throughout the country was on the verge of a lockout. russia seemed to be in the crisis of a social revolution. from baku to st. petersburg there were insurrectionary movements in the towns, and on the rd--the very day of the austrian ultimatum--cossacks were storming barbed wire entanglements in the streets of the capital. the london stock exchange was in a state of panic disorganisation because of a vast mysterious selling of securities from abroad. and france, france it seemed was lost to all other consideration in the enthralling confrontations and denunciations of the caillaux murder trial, the trial of the wife of her ex-prime minister for the murder of a blackmailing journalist. it was a case full of the vulgarest sexual violence. before so piquant a spectacle france it seemed could have no time nor attention for the revelation of m. humbert, the reporter of the army committee, proclaiming that the artillery was short of ammunition, that her infantry had boots "thirty years old" and not enough of those.... such were the appearances of things. can it be wondered if it seemed to the german mind that the moment for the triumphant assertion of the german predominance in the world had come? a day or so before the dublin shooting, the murder of sarajevo had been dragged again into the foreground of the world's affairs by an ultimatum from austria to serbia of the extremest violence. from the hour when the ultimatum was discharged the way to armageddon lay wide and unavoidable before the feet of europe. after the dublin conflict there was no turning back. for a week europe was occupied by proceedings that were little more than the recital of a formula. austria could not withdraw her unqualified threats without admitting error and defeat, russia could not desert serbia without disgrace, germany stood behind austria, france was bound to russia by a long confederacy of mutual support, and it was impossible for england to witness the destruction of france or the further strengthening of a loud and threatening rival. it may be that germany counted on russia giving way to her, it may be she counted on the indecisions and feeble perplexities of england, both these possibilities were in the reckoning, but chiefly she counted on war. she counted on war, and since no nation in all the world had ever been so fully prepared in every way for war as she was, she also counted on victory. one writes "germany." that is how one writes of nations, as though they had single brains and single purposes. but indeed while mr. britling lay awake and thought of his son and lady frensham and his smashed automobile and mrs. harrowdean's trick of abusive letter-writing and of god and evil and a thousand perplexities, a multitude of other brains must also have been busy, lying also in beds or sitting in studies or watching in guard-rooms or chatting belatedly in cafés or smoking-rooms or pacing the bridges of battleships or walking along in city or country, upon this huge possibility the crime of sarajevo had just opened, and of the state of the world in relation to such possibilities. few women, one guesses, heeded what was happening, and of the men, the men whose decision to launch that implacable threat turned the destinies of the world to war, there is no reason to believe that a single one of them had anything approaching the imaginative power needed to understand fully what it was they were doing. we have looked for an hour or so into the seething pot of mr. britling's brain and marked its multiple strands, its inconsistencies, its irrational transitions. it was but a specimen. nearly every brain of the select few that counted in this cardinal determination of the world's destinies, had its streak of personal motive, its absurd and petty impulses and deflections. one man decided to say _this_ because if he said _that_ he would contradict something he had said and printed four or five days ago; another took a certain line because so he saw his best opportunity of putting a rival into a perplexity. it would be strange if one could reach out now and recover the states of mind of two such beings as the german kaiser and his eldest son as europe stumbled towards her fate through the long days and warm, close nights of that july. here was the occasion for which so much of their lives had been but the large pretentious preparation, coming right into their hands to use or forgo, here was the opportunity that would put them into the very forefront of history forever; this journalist emperor with the paralysed arm, this common-fibred, sly, lascivious son. it is impossible that they did not dream of glory over all the world, of triumphant processions, of a world-throne that would outshine caesar's, of a godlike elevation, of acting divus caesar while yet alive. and being what they were they must have imagined spectators, and the young man, who was after all a young man of particularly poor quality, imagined no doubt certain women onlookers, certain humiliated and astonished friends, and thought of the clothes he would wear and the gestures he would make. the nickname his english cousins had given this heir to all the glories was the "white rabbit." he was the backbone of the war party at court. and presently he stole bric-à-brac. that will help posterity to the proper values of things in . and the teutonic generals and admirals and strategists with their patient and perfect plans, who were so confident of victory, each within a busy skull must have enacted anticipatory dreams of his personal success and marshalled his willing and unwilling admirers. readers of histories and memoirs as most of this class of men are, they must have composed little eulogistic descriptions of the part themselves were to play in the opening drama, imagined pleasing vindications and interesting documents. some of them perhaps saw difficulties, but few foresaw failure. for all this set of brains the thing came as a choice to take or reject; they could make war or prevent it. and they chose war. it is doubtful if any one outside the directing intelligence of germany and austria saw anything so plain. the initiative was with germany. the russian brains and the french brains and the british brains, the few that were really coming round to look at this problem squarely, had a far less simple set of problems and profounder uncertainties. to mr. britling's mind the round table conference at buckingham palace was typical of the disunion and indecision that lasted up to the very outbreak of hostilities. the solemn violence of sir edward carson was intensely antipathetic to mr. britling, and in his retrospective inquiries he pictured to himself that dark figure with its dropping under-lip, seated, heavy and obstinate, at that discussion, still implacable though the king had but just departed after a little speech that was packed with veiled intimations of imminent danger... mr. britling had no mercy in his mind for the treason of obstinate egotism and for persistence in a mistaken course. his own temperamental weaknesses lay in such different directions. he was always ready to leave one trail for another; he was always open to conviction, trusting to the essentials of his character for an ultimate consistency. he hated carson in those days as a scotch terrier might hate a bloodhound, as something at once more effective and impressive, and exasperatingly, infinitely less intelligent. section thus--a vivid fact as yet only in a few hundred skulls or so--the vast catastrophe of the great war gathered behind the idle, dispersed and confused spectacle of an indifferent world, very much as the storms and rains of late september gathered behind the glow and lassitudes of august, and with scarcely more of set human intention. for the greater part of mankind the european international situation was at most something in the papers, no more important than the political disturbances in south africa, where the herzogites were curiously uneasy, or the possible trouble between turkey and greece. the things that really interested people in england during the last months of peace were boxing and the summer sales. a brilliant young frenchman, carpentier, who had knocked out bombardier wells, came over again to defeat gunboat smith, and did so to the infinite delight of france and the whole latin world, amidst the generous applause of anglo-saxondom. and there was also a british triumph over the americans at polo, and a lively and cultured newspaper discussion about a proper motto for the arms of the london county council. the trial of madame caillaux filled the papers with animated reports and vivid pictures; gregori rasputin was stabbed and became the subject of much lively gossip about the russian court; and ulivi, the italian impostor who claimed he could explode mines by means of an "ultra-red" ray, was exposed and fled with a lady, very amusingly. for a few days all the work at woolwich arsenal was held up because a certain mr. entwhistle, having refused to erect a machine on a concrete bed laid down by non-unionists, was rather uncivilly dismissed, and the irish trouble pounded along its tiresome mischievous way. people gave a divided attention to these various topics, and went about their individual businesses. and at dower house they went about their businesses. mr. direck's arm healed rapidly; cecily corner and he talked of their objects in life and utopias and the books of mr. britling, and he got down from a london bookseller baedeker's guides for holland and belgium, south germany and italy; herr heinrich after some doubt sent in his application form and his preliminary deposit for the esperanto conference at boulogne, and billy consented to be stroked three times but continued to bite with great vigour and promptitude. and the trouble about hugh, mr. britling's eldest son, resolved itself into nothing of any vital importance, and settled itself very easily. section after hugh had cleared things up and gone back to london mr. britling was inclined to think that such a thing as apprehension was a sin against the general fairness and integrity of life. of all things in the world hugh was the one that could most easily rouse mr. britling's unhappy aptitude for distressing imaginations. hugh was nearer by far to his heart and nerves than any other creature. in the last few years mr. britling, by the light of a variety of emotional excursions in other directions, had been discovering this. whatever mr. britling discovered he talked about; he had evolved from his realisation of this tenderness, which was without an effort so much tenderer than all the subtle and tremendous feelings he had attempted in his--excursions, the theory that he had expounded to mr. direck that it is only through our children that we are able to achieve disinterested love, real love. but that left unexplained that far more intimate emotional hold of hugh than of his very jolly little step-brothers. that was a fact into which mr. britling rather sedulously wouldn't look.... mr. britling was probably much franker and more open-eyed with himself and the universe than a great number of intelligent people, and yet there were quite a number of aspects of his relations with his wife, with people about him, with his country and god and the nature of things, upon which he turned his back with an attentive persistence. but a back too resolutely turned may be as indicative as a pointing finger, and in this retrogressive way, and tacitly even so far as his formal thoughts, his unspoken comments, went, mr. britling knew that he loved his son because he had lavished the most hope and the most imagination upon him, because he was the one living continuation of that dear life with mary, so lovingly stormy at the time, so fine now in memory, that had really possessed the whole heart of mr. britling. the boy had been the joy and marvel of the young parents; it was incredible to them that there had ever been a creature so delicate and sweet, and they brought considerable imagination and humour to the detailed study of his minute personality and to the forecasting of his future. mr. britling's mind blossomed with wonderful schemes for his education. all that mental growth no doubt contributed greatly to mr. britling's peculiar affection, and with it there interwove still tenderer and subtler elements, for the boy had a score of mary's traits. but there were other things still more conspicuously ignored. one silent factor in the slow widening of the breach between edith and mr. britling was her cool estimate of her stepson. she was steadfastly kind to this shock-headed, untidy little dreamer, he was extremely well cared for in her hands, she liked him and she was amused by him--it is difficult to imagine what more mr. britling could have expected--but it was as plain as daylight that she felt that this was not the child she would have cared to have borne. it was quite preposterous and perfectly natural that this should seem to mr. britling to be unfair to hugh. edith's home was more prosperous than mary's; she brought her own money to it; the bringing up of her children was a far more efficient business than mary's instinctive proceedings. hugh had very nearly died in his first year of life; some summer infection had snatched at him; that had tied him to his father's heart by a knot of fear; but no infection had ever come near edith's own nursery. and it was hugh that mr. britling had seen, small and green-faced and pitiful under an anaesthetic for some necessary small operation to his adenoids. his younger children had never stabbed to mr. britling's heart with any such pitifulness; they were not so thin-skinned as their elder brother, not so assailable by the little animosities of dust and germ. and out of such things as this evolved a shapeless cloud of championship for hugh. jealousies and suspicions are latent in every human relationship. we go about the affairs of life pretending magnificently that they are not so, pretending to the generosities we desire. and in all step-relationships jealousy and suspicion are not merely latent, they stir. it was mr. britling's case for hugh that he was something exceptional, something exceptionally good, and that the peculiar need there was to take care of him was due to a delicacy of nerve and fibre that was ultimately a virtue. the boy was quick, quick to hear, quick to move, very accurate in his swift way, he talked unusually soon, he began to sketch at an early age with an incurable roughness and a remarkable expressiveness. that he was sometimes ungainly, often untidy, that he would become so mentally preoccupied as to be uncivil to people about him, that he caught any malaise that was going, was all a part of that. the sense of mrs. britling's unexpressed criticisms, the implied contrasts with the very jolly, very uninspired younger family, kept up a nervous desire in mr. britling for evidences and manifestations of hugh's quality. not always with happy results; it caused much mutual irritation, but not enough to prevent the growth of a real response on hugh's part to his father's solicitude. the youngster knew and felt that his father was his father just as certainly as he felt that mrs. britling was not his mother. to his father he brought his successes and to his father he appealed. but he brought his successes more readily than he brought his troubles. so far as he himself was concerned he was disposed to take a humorous view of the things that went wrong and didn't come off with him, but as a "tremendous set-down for the proud parent" they resisted humorous treatment.... now the trouble that he had been hesitating to bring before his father was concerned with that very grave interest of the young, his object in life. it had nothing to do with those erotic disturbances that had distressed his father's imagination. whatever was going on below the surface of hugh's smiling or thoughtful presence in that respect had still to come to the surface and find expression. but he was bothered very much by divergent strands in his own intellectual composition. two sets of interests pulled at him, one--it will seem a dry interest to many readers, but for hugh it glittered and fascinated--was crystallography and molecular physics; the other was caricature. both aptitudes sprang no doubt from the same exceptional sensitiveness to form. as a schoolboy he exercised both very happily, but now he was getting to the age of specialisation, and he was fluctuating very much between science and art. after a spell of scientific study he would come upon a fatigue period and find nothing in life but absurdities and a lark that one could represent very amusingly; after a bout of funny drawings his mind went back to his light and crystals and films like a magdalen repenting in a church. after his public school he had refused cambridge and gone to university college, london, to work under the great and inspiring professor cardinal; simultaneously cardinal had been arranging to go to cambridge, and hugh had scarcely embarked upon his london work when cardinal was succeeded by the dull, conscientious and depressing pelkingham, at whose touch crystals became as puddings, bubble films like cotton sheets, transparency vanished from the world, and x rays dwarfed and died. and hugh degenerated immediately into a scoffing trifler who wished to give up science for art. he gave up science for art after grave consultation with his father, and the real trouble that had been fretting him, it seemed, was that now he repented and wanted to follow cardinal to cambridge, and--a year lost--go on with science again. he felt it was a discreditable fluctuation; he knew it would be a considerable expense; and so he took two weeks before he could screw himself up to broaching the matter. "so _that_ is all," said mr. britling, immensely relieved. "my dear parent, you didn't think i had backed a bill or forged a cheque?" "i thought you might have married a chorus girl or something of that sort," said mr. britling. "or bought a large cream-coloured motor-car for her on the instalment system, which she'd smashed up. no, that sort of thing comes later.... i'll just put myself down on the waiting list of one of those bits of delight in the cambridge tobacco shops--and go on with my studies for a year or two...." section though mr. britling's anxiety about his son was dispelled, his mind remained curiously apprehensive throughout july. he had a feeling that things were not going well with the world, a feeling he tried in vain to dispel by various distractions. perhaps some subtler subconscious analysis of the situation was working out probabilities that his conscious self would not face. and when presently he bicycled off to mrs. harrowdean for flattery, amusement, and comfort generally, he found her by no means the exalting confirmation of everything he wished to believe about himself and the universe, that had been her delightful rôle in the early stages of their romantic friendship. she maintained her hostility to edith; she seemed bent on making things impossible. and yet there were one or two phases of the old sustaining intimacies. they walked across her absurd little park to the summer-house with the view on the afternoon of his arrival, and they discussed the irish pamphlet which was now nearly finished. "of course," she said, "it will be a wonderful pamphlet." there was a reservation in her voice that made him wait. "but i suppose all sorts of people could write an irish pamphlet. nobody but you could write 'the silent places.' oh, _why_ don't you finish that great beautiful thing, and leave all this world of reality and newspapers, all these crude, vulgar, quarrelsome, jarring things to other people? you have the magic gift, you might be a poet, you can take us out of all these horrid things that are, away to beautyland, and you are just content to be a critic and a disputer. it's your surroundings. it's your sordid realities. it's that practicality at your elbow. you ought never to see a newspaper. you ought never to have an american come within ten miles of you. you ought to live on bowls of milk drunk in valleys of asphodel." mr. britling, who liked this sort of thing in a way, and yet at the same time felt ridiculously distended and altogether preposterous while it was going on, answered feebly and self-consciously. "there was your letter in the _nation_ the other day," she said. "why _do_ you get drawn into arguments? i wanted to rush into the _nation_ and pick you up and wipe the anger off you, and carry you out of it all--into some quiet beautiful place." "but one _has_ to answer these people," said mr. britling, rolling along by the side of her like a full moon beside venus, and quite artlessly falling in with the tone of her. she repeated lines from "the silent places" from memory. she threw quite wonderful emotion into her voice. she made the words glow. and he had only shown her the thing once.... was he indeed burying a marvellous gift under the dust of current affairs? when at last in the warm evening light they strolled back from the summer-house to dinner he had definitely promised her that he would take up and finish "the silent places."... and think over the irish pamphlet again before he published it.... pyecrafts was like a crystal casket of finer soil withdrawn from the tarred highways of the earth.... and yet the very next day this angel enemy of controversies broke out in the most abominable way about edith, and he had to tell her more plainly than he had done hitherto, that he could not tolerate that sort of thing. he wouldn't have edith guyed. he wouldn't have edith made to seem base. and at that there was much trouble between them, and tears and talk of oliver.... mr. britling found himself unable to get on either with "the silent places" or the pamphlet, and he was very unhappy.... afterwards she repented very touchingly, and said that if only he would love her she would swallow a thousand ediths. he waived a certain disrespect in the idea of her swallowing edith, and they had a beautiful reconciliation and talked of exalted things, and in the evening he worked quite well upon "the silent places" and thought of half-a-dozen quite wonderful lines, and in the course of the next day he returned to dower house and mr. direck and considerable piles of correspondence and the completion of the irish pamphlet. but he was restless. he was more restless in his house than he had ever been. he could not understand it. everything about him was just as it had always been, and yet it was unsatisfactory, and it seemed more unstable than anything had ever seemed before. he was bored by the solemn development of the irish dispute; he was irritated by the smouldering threat of the balkans; he was irritated by the suffragettes and by a string of irrational little strikes; by the general absence of any main plot as it were to hold all these wranglings and trivialities together.... at the dower house the most unpleasant thoughts would come to him. he even had doubts whether in "the silent places," he had been plagiarising, more or less unconsciously, from henry james's "great good place."... on the twenty-first of july gladys came back repaired and looking none the worse for her misadventure. next day he drove her very carefully over to pyecrafts, hoping to drug his uneasiness with the pretence of a grand passion and the praises of "the silent places," that beautiful work of art that was so free from any taint of application, and alas! he found mrs. harrowdean in an evil mood. he had been away from her for ten days--ten whole days. no doubt edith had manoeuvred to keep him. she hadn't! _hadn't_ she? how was he, poor simple soul! to tell that she hadn't? that was the prelude to a stormy afternoon. the burthen of mrs. harrowdean was that she was wasting her life, that she was wasting the poor, good, patient oliver's life, that for the sake of friendship she was braving the worst imputations and that he treated her cavalierly, came when he wished to do so, stayed away heartlessly, never thought she needed _little_ treats, _little_ attentions, _little_ presents. did he think she could settle down to her poor work, such as it was, in neglect and loneliness? he forgot women were dear little tender things, and had to be made happy and _kept_ happy. oliver might not be clever and attractive but he did at least in his clumsy way understand and try and do his duty.... towards the end of the second hour of such complaints the spirit of mr. britling rose in revolt. he lifted up his voice against her, he charged his voice with indignant sorrow and declared that he had come over to pyecrafts with no thought in his mind but sweet and loving thoughts, that he had but waited for gladys to be ready before he came, that he had brought over the manuscript of "the silent places" with him to polish and finish up, that "for days and days" he had been longing to do this in the atmosphere of the dear old summer-house with its distant view of the dear old sea, and that now all that was impossible, that mrs. harrowdean had made it impossible and that indeed she was rapidly making everything impossible.... and having delivered himself of this judgment mr. britling, a little surprised at the rapid vigour of his anger, once he had let it loose, came suddenly to an end of his words, made a renunciatory gesture with his arms, and as if struck with the idea, rushed out of her room and out of the house to where gladys stood waiting. he got into her and started her up, and after some trouble with the gear due to the violence of his emotion, he turned her round and departed with her--crushing the corner of a small bed of snapdragon as he turned--and dove her with a sulky sedulousness back to the dower house and newspapers and correspondence and irritations, and that gnawing and irrational sense of a hollow and aimless quality in the world that he had hoped mrs. harrowdean would assuage. and the further he went from mrs. harrowdean the harsher and unjuster it seemed to him that he had been to her. but he went on because he did not see how he could very well go back. section mr. direck's broken wrist healed sooner than he desired. from the first he had protested that it was the sort of thing that one can carry about in a sling, that he was quite capable of travelling about and taking care of himself in hotels, that he was only staying on at matching's easy because he just loved to stay on and wallow in mrs. britling's kindness and mr. britling's company. while as a matter of fact he wallowed as much as he could in the freshness and friendliness of miss cecily corner, and for more than a third of this period mr. britling was away from home altogether. mr. direck, it should be clear by this time, was a man of more than european simplicity and directness, and his intentions towards the young lady were as simple and direct and altogether honest as such intentions can be. it is the american conception of gallantry more than any other people's, to let the lady call the tune in these affairs; the man's place is to be protective, propitiatory, accommodating and clever, and the lady's to be difficult but delightful until he catches her and houses her splendidly and gives her a surprising lot of pocket-money, and goes about his business; and upon these assumptions mr. direck went to work. but quite early it was manifest to him that cecily did not recognise his assumptions. she was embarrassed when he got down one or two little presents of chocolates and flowers for her from london--the britling boys were much more appreciative--she wouldn't let him contrive costly little expeditions for her, and she protested against compliments and declared she would stay away when he paid them. and she was not contented by his general sentiments about life, but asked the most direct questions about his occupation and his activities. his chief occupation was being the well provided heir of a capable lawyer, and his activities in the light of her inquiries struck him as being light and a trifle amateurish, qualities he had never felt as any drawback about them before. so that he had to rely rather upon aspirations and the possibility, under proper inspiration, of a more actively serviceable life in future. "there's a feeling in the states," he said, "that we've had rather a tendency to overdo work, and that there is scope for a leisure class to develop the refinement and the wider meanings of life." "but a leisure class doesn't mean a class that does nothing," said cecily. "it only means a class that isn't busy in business." "you're too hard on me," said mr. direck with that quiet smile of his. and then by way of putting her on the defensive he asked her what she thought a man in his position ought to do. "_something_," she said, and in the expansion of this vague demand they touched on a number of things. she said that she was a socialist, and there was still in mr. direck's composition a streak of the old-fashioned american prejudice against the word. he associated socialists with anarchists and deported aliens. it was manifest too that she was deeply read in the essays and dissertations of mr. britling. she thought everybody, man or woman, ought to be chiefly engaged in doing something definite for the world at large. ("there's my secretaryship of the massachusetts modern thought society, anyhow," said mr. direck.) and she herself wanted to be doing something--it was just because she did not know what it was she ought to be doing that she was reading so extensively and voraciously. she wanted to lose herself in something. deep in the being of mr. direck was the conviction that what she ought to be doing was making love in a rapturously egotistical manner, and enjoying every scrap of her own delightful self and her own delightful vitality--while she had it, but for the purposes of their conversation he did not care to put it any more definitely than to say that he thought we owed it to ourselves to develop our personalities. upon which she joined issue with great vigour. "that is just what mr. britling says about you in his 'american impressions,'" she said. "he says that america overdoes the development of personalities altogether, that whatever else is wrong about america that is where america is most clearly wrong. i read that this morning, and directly i read it i thought, 'yes, that's exactly it! mr. direck is overdoing the development of personalities.'" "me!" "yes. i like talking to you and i don't like talking to you. and i see now it is because you keep on talking of my personality and your personality. that makes me uncomfortable. it's like having some one following me about with a limelight. and in a sort of way i do like it. i like it and i'm flattered by it, and then i go off and dislike it, dislike the effect of it. i find myself trying to be what you have told me i am--sort of acting myself. i want to glance at looking-glasses to see if i am keeping it up. it's just exactly what mr. britling says in his book about american women. they act themselves, he says; they get a kind of story and explanation about themselves and they are always trying to make it perfectly plain and clear to every one. well, when you do that you can't think nicely of other things." "we like a clear light on people," said mr. direck. "we don't. i suppose we're shadier," said cecily. "you're certainly much more in half-tones," said mr. direck. "and i confess it's the half-tones get hold of me. but still you haven't told me, miss cissie, what you think i ought to do with myself. here i am, you see, very much at your disposal. what sort of business do you think it's my duty to go in for?" "that's for some one with more experience than i have, to tell you. you should ask mr. britling." "i'd rather have it from you." "i don't even know for myself," she said. "so why shouldn't we start to find out together?" he asked. it was her tantalising habit to ignore all such tentatives. "one can't help the feeling that one is in the world for something more than oneself," she said.... section soon mr. direck could measure the time that was left to him at the dower house no longer by days but by hours. his luggage was mostly packed, his tickets to rotterdam, cologne, munich, dresden, vienna, were all in order. and things were still very indefinite between him and cecily. but god has not made americans clean-shaven and firm-featured for nothing, and he determined that matters must be brought to some sort of definition before he embarked upon travels that were rapidly losing their attractiveness in this concentration of his attention.... a considerable nervousness betrayed itself in his voice and manner when at last he carried out his determination. "there's just a lil' thing," he said to her, taking advantage of a moment when they were together after lunch, "that i'd value now more than anything else in the world." she answered by a lifted eyebrow and a glance that had not so much inquiry in it as she intended. "if we could just take a lil' walk together for a bit. round by claverings park and all that. see the deer again and the old trees. sort of scenery i'd like to remember when i'm away from it." he was a little short of breath, and there was a quite disproportionate gravity about her moment for consideration. "yes," she said with a cheerful acquiescence that came a couple of bars too late. "let's. it will be jolly." "these fine english afternoons are wonderful afternoons," he remarked after a moment or so of silence. "not quite the splendid blaze we get in our summer, but--sort of glowing." "it's been very fine all the time you've been here," she said.... after which exchanges they went along the lane, into the road by the park fencing, and so to the little gate that lets one into the park, without another word. the idea took hold of mr. direck's mind that until they got through the park gate it would be quite out of order to say anything. the lane and the road and the stile and the gate were all so much preliminary stuff to be got through before one could get to business. but after the little white gate the way was clear, the park opened out and one could get ahead without bothering about the steering. and mr. direck had, he felt, been diplomatically involved in lanes and by-ways long enough. "well," he said as he rejoined her after very carefully closing the gate. "what i really wanted was an opportunity of just mentioning something that happens to be of interest to you--if it does happen to interest you.... i suppose i'd better put the thing as simply as possible.... practically.... i'm just right over the head and all in love with you.... i thought i'd like to tell you...." immense silences. "of course i won't pretend there haven't been others," mr. direck suddenly resumed. "there have. one particularly. but i can assure you i've never felt the depth and height or anything like the sort of quiet clear conviction.... and now i'm just telling you these things, miss corner, i don't know whether it will interest you if i tell you that you're really and truly the very first love i ever had as well as my last. i've had sent over--i got it only yesterday--this lil' photograph of a miniature portrait of one of my ancestor's relations--a corner just as you are. it's here...." he had considerable difficulties with his pockets and papers. cecily, mute and flushed and inconvenienced by a preposterous and unaccountable impulse to weep, took the picture he handed her. "when i was a lil' fellow of fifteen," said mr. direck in the tone of one producing a melancholy but conclusive piece of evidence, "i _worshipped_ that miniature. it seemed to me--the loveliest person.... and--it's just you...." he too was preposterously moved. it seemed a long time before cecily had anything to say, and then what she had to say she said in a softened, indistinct voice. "you're very kind," she said, and kept hold of the little photograph. they had halted for the photograph. now they walked on again. "i thought i'd like to tell you," said mr. direck and became tremendously silent. cecily found him incredibly difficult to answer. she tried to make herself light and offhand, and to be very frank with him. "of course," she said, "i knew--i felt somehow--you meant to say something of this sort to me--when you asked me to come with you--" "well?" he said. "and i've been trying to make my poor brain think of something to say to you." she paused and contemplated her difficulties.... "couldn't you perhaps say something of the same kind--such as i've been trying to say?" said mr. direck presently, with a note of earnest helpfulness. "i'd be very glad if you could." "not exactly," said cecily, more careful than ever. "meaning?" "i think you know that you are the best of friends. i think you are, oh--a perfect dear." "well--that's all right--so far." "that _is_ as far." "you don't know whether you love me? that's what you mean to say." "no.... i feel somehow it isn't that.... yet...." "there's nobody else by any chance?" "no." cecily weighed things. "you needn't trouble about that." "only ... only you don't know." cecily made a movement of assent. "it's no good pretending i haven't thought about you," she said. "well, anyhow i've done my best to give you the idea," said mr. direck. "i seem now to have been doing that pretty nearly all the time." "only what should we do?" mr. direck felt this question was singularly artless. "why!--we'd marry," he said. "and all that sort of thing." "letty has married--and all that sort of thing," said cecily, fixing her eye on him very firmly because she was colouring brightly. "and it doesn't leave letty very much--forrader." "well now, they have a good time, don't they? i'd have thought they have a lovely time!" "they've had a lovely time. and teddy is the dearest husband. and they have a sweet little house and a most amusing baby. and they play hockey every sunday. and teddy does his work. and every week is like every other week. it is just heavenly. just always the same heavenly. every sunday there is a fresh week of heavenly beginning. and this, you see, isn't heaven; it is earth. and they don't know it but they are getting bored. i have been watching them, and they are getting dreadfully bored. it's heart-breaking to watch, because they are almost my dearest people. teddy used to be making perpetual jokes about the house and the baby and his work and letty, and now--he's made all the possible jokes. it's only now and then he gets a fresh one. it's like spring flowers and then--summer. and letty sits about and doesn't sing. they want something new to happen.... and there's mr. and mrs. britling. they love each other. much more than mrs. britling dreams, or mr. britling for the matter of that. once upon a time things were heavenly for them too, i suppose. until suddenly it began to happen to them that nothing new ever happened...." "well," said mr. direck, "people can travel." "but that isn't _real_ happening," said cecily. "it keeps one interested." "but real happening is doing something." "you come back to that," said mr. direck. "i never met any one before who'd quite got that spirit as you have it. i wouldn't alter it. it's part of you. it's part of this place. it's what mr. britling always seems to be saying and never quite knowing he's said it. it's just as though all the things that are going on weren't the things that ought to be going on--but something else quite different. somehow one falls into it. it's as if your daily life didn't matter, as if politics didn't matter, as if the king and the social round and business and all those things weren't anything really, and as though you felt there was something else--out of sight--round the corner--that you ought to be getting at. well, i admit, that's got hold of me too. and it's all mixed up with my idea of you. i don't see that there's really a contradiction in it at all. i'm in love with you, all my heart's in love with you, what's the good of being shy about it? i'd just die for your littlest wish right here now, it's just as though i'd got love in my veins instead of blood, but that's not taking me away from that other thing. it's bringing me round to that other thing. i feel as if without you i wasn't up to anything at all, but _with_ you--we'd not go settling down in a cottage or just touring about with a baedeker guide or anything of that kind. not for long anyhow. we'd naturally settle down side by side and _do_ ..." "but what should we do?" asked cecily. there came a hiatus in their talk. mr. direck took a deep breath. "you see that old felled tree there. i was sitting on it the day before yesterday and thinking of you. will you come there and sit with me on it? when you sit on it you get a view, oh! a perfectly lovely english view, just a bit of the house and those clumps of trees and the valley away there with the lily pond. i'd love to have you in my memory of it...." they sat down, and mr. direck opened his case. he was shy and clumsy about opening it, because he had been thinking dreadfully hard about it, and he hated to seem heavy or profound or anything but artless and spontaneous to cecily. and he felt even when he did open his case that the effect of it was platitudinous and disappointing. yet when he had thought it out it had seemed very profound and altogether living. "you see one doesn't want to use terms that have been used in a thousand different senses in any way that isn't a perfectly unambiguous sense, and at the same time one doesn't want to seem to be canting about things or pitching anything a note or two higher than it ought legitimately to go, but it seems to me that this sort of something that mr. britling is always asking for in his essays and writings and things, and what you are looking for just as much and which seems so important to you that even love itself is a secondary kind of thing until you can square the two together, is nothing more nor less than religion--i don't mean this religion or that religion but just religion itself, a big, solemn, comprehensive idea that holds you and me and all the world together in one great, grand universal scheme. and though it isn't quite the sort of idea of love-making that's been popular--well, in places like carrierville--for some time, it's the right idea; it's got to be followed out if we don't want love-making to be a sort of idle, troublesome game of treats and flatteries that is sure as anything to lead right away to disappointments and foolishness and unfaithfulness and--just hell. what you are driving at, according to my interpretation, is that marriage has got to be a religious marriage or else you are splitting up life, that religion and love are most of life and all the power there is in it, and that they can't afford to be harnessed in two different directions.... i never had these ideas until i came here and met you, but they come up now in my mind as though they had always been there.... and that's why you don't want to marry in a hurry. and that's why i'm glad almost that you don't want to marry in a hurry." he considered. "that's why i'll have to go on to germany and just let both of us turn things over in our minds." "yes," said cecily, weighing his speech. "_i_ think that is it. i think that i do want a religious marriage, and that what is wrong with teddy and letty is that they aren't religious. they pretend they are religious somewhere out of sight and round the corner.... only--" he considered her gravely. "what _is_ religion?" she asked. here again there was a considerable pause. "very nearly two-thirds of the papers read before our massachusetts society since my connection with it, have dealt with that very question," mr. direck began. "and one of our most influential members was able to secure the services of a very able and highly trained young woman from michigan university, to make a digest of all these representative utterances. we are having it printed in a thoroughly artistic mariner, as the club book for our autumn season. the drift of her results is that religion isn't the same thing as religions. that most religions are old and that religion is always new.... well, putting it simply, religion is the perpetual rediscovery of that great thing out there.... what the great thing is goes by all sorts of names, but if you know it's there and if you remember it's there, you've got religion.... that's about how she figured it out.... i shall send you the book as soon as a copy comes over to me.... i can't profess to put it as clearly as she puts it. she's got a real analytical mind. but it's one of the most suggestive lil' books i've ever seen. it just takes hold of you and _makes_ you think." he paused and regarded the ground before him--thoughtfully. "life," said cecily, "has either got to be religious or else it goes to pieces.... perhaps anyhow it goes to pieces...." mr. direck endorsed these observations by a slow nodding of the head. he allowed a certain interval to elapse. then a vaguely apprehended purpose that had been for a time forgotten in these higher interests came back to him. he took it up with a breathless sense of temerity. "well," he said, "then you don't hate me?" she smiled. "you don't dislike me or despise me?" she was still reassuring. "you don't think i'm just a slow american sort of portent?" "no." "you think, on the whole, i might even--someday--?" she tried to meet his eyes with a pleasant frankness, and perhaps she was franker than she meant to be. "look here," said mr. direck, with a little quiver of emotion softening his mouth. "i'll ask you something. we've got to wait. until you feel clearer. still.... could you bring yourself--? if just once--i could kiss you.... "i'm going away to germany," he went on to her silence. "but i shan't be giving so much attention to germany as i supposed i should when i planned it out. but somehow--if i felt--that i'd kissed you...." with a delusive effect of calmness the young lady looked first over her left shoulder and then over her right and surveyed the park about them. then she stood up. "we can go that way home," she said with a movement of her head, "through the little covert." mr. direck stood up too. "if i was a poet or a bird," said mr. direck, "i should sing. but being just a plain american citizen all i can do is just to talk about all i'd do if i wasn't...." and when they had reached the little covert, with its pathway of soft moss and its sheltering screen of interlacing branches, he broke the silence by saying, "well, what's wrong with right here and now?" and cecily stood up to him as straight as a spear, with gifts in her clear eyes. he took her soft cool face between his trembling hands, and kissed her sweet half-parted lips. when he kissed her she shivered, and he held her tighter and would have kissed her again. but she broke away from him, and he did not press her. and muter than ever, pondering deeply, and secretly trembling in the queerest way, these two outwardly sedate young people returned to the dower house.... and after tea the taxicab from the junction came for him and he vanished, and was last seen as a waving hat receding along the top of the dog-rose hedge that ran beyond the hockey field towards the village. "he will see germany long before i shall," said herr heinrich with a gust of nostalgia. "i wish almost i had not agreed to go to boulogne." and for some days miss cecily corner was a very grave and dignified young woman indeed. pondering.... section after the departure of mr. direck things international began to move forward with great rapidity. it was exactly as if his american deliberation had hitherto kept things waiting. before his postcard from rotterdam reached the dower house austria had sent an ultimatum to serbia, and before cecily had got the letter he wrote her from cologne, a letter in that curiously unformed handwriting the stenographer and the typewriter are making an american characteristic, russia was mobilising, and the vast prospect of a european war had opened like the rolling up of a curtain on which the interests of the former week had been but a trivial embroidery. so insistent was this reality that revealed itself that even the shooting of the dublin people after the gun-running of howth was dwarfed to unimportance. the mind of mr. britling came round from its restless wanderings to a more and more intent contemplation of the hurrying storm-clouds that swept out of nothingness to blacken all his sky. he watched it, he watched amazed and incredulous, he watched this contradiction of all his reiterated confessions of faith in german sanity and pacifism, he watched it with all that was impersonal in his being, and meanwhile his personal life ran in a continually deeper and narrower channel as his intelligence was withdrawn from it. never had the double refraction of his mind been more clearly defined. on the one hand the britling of the disinterested intelligence saw the habitual peace of the world vanish as the daylight vanishes when a shutter falls over the window of a cell; and on the other the britling of the private life saw all the pleasant comfort of his relations with mrs. harrowdean disappearing in a perplexing irrational quarrel. he did not want to lose mrs. harrowdean; he contemplated their breach with a profound and profoundly selfish dismay. it seemed the wanton termination of an arrangement of which he was only beginning to perceive the extreme and irreplaceable satisfactoriness. it wasn't that he was in love with her. he knew almost as clearly as though he had told himself as much that he was not. but then, on the other hand, it was equally manifest in its subdued and ignored way that as a matter of fact she was hardly more in love with him. what constituted the satisfactoriness of the whole affair was its essential unlovingness and friendly want of emotion. it left their minds free to play with all the terms and methods of love without distress. she could summon tears and delights as one summons servants, and he could act his part as lover with no sense of lost control. they supplied in each other's lives a long-felt want--if only, that is, she could control her curious aptitude for jealousy and the sexual impulse to vex. there, he felt, she broke the convention of their relations and brought in serious realities, and this little rift it was that had widened to a now considerable breach. he knew that in every sane moment she dreaded and wished to heal that breach as much as he did. but the deep simplicities of the instincts they had tacitly agreed to bridge over washed the piers of their reconciliation away. and unless they could restore the bridge things would end, and mr. britling felt that the ending of things would involve for him the most extraordinary exasperation. she would go to oliver for comfort; she would marry oliver; and he knew her well enough to be sure that she would thrust her matrimonial happiness with oliver unsparingly upon his attention; while he, on the other hand, being provided with no corresponding olivette, would be left, a sort of emotional celibate, with his slack times and his afternoons and his general need for flattery and amusement dreadfully upon his own hands. he would be tormented by jealousy. in which case--and here he came to verities--his work would suffer. it wouldn't grip him while all these vague demands she satisfied fermented unassuaged. and, after the fashion of our still too adolescent world, mr. britling and mrs. harrowdean proceeded to negotiate these extremely unromantic matters in the phrases of that simple, honest and youthful passionateness which is still the only language available, and at times mr. britling came very near persuading himself that he had something of the passionate love for her that he had once had for his mary, and that the possible loss of her had nothing to do with the convenience of pyecrafts or any discretion in the world. though indeed the only thing in the whole plexus of emotional possibility that still kept anything of its youthful freshness in his mind was the very strong objection indeed he felt to handing her over to anybody else in the world. and in addition he had just a touch of fatherly feeling that a younger man would not have had, and it made him feel very anxious to prevent her making a fool of herself by marrying a man out of spite. he felt that since an obstinate lover is apt to be an exacting husband, in the end the heavy predominance of oliver might wring much sincerer tears from her than she had ever shed for himself. but that generosity was but the bright edge to a mainly possessive jealousy. it was mr. britling who reopened the correspondence by writing a little apology for the corner of the small snapdragon bed, and this evoked an admirably touching reply. he replied quite naturally with assurances and declarations. but before she got his second letter her mood had changed. she decided that if he had really and truly been lovingly sorry, instead of just writing a note to her he would have rushed over to her in a wild, dramatic state of mind, and begged forgiveness on his knees. she wrote therefore a second letter to this effect, crossing his second one, and, her literary gift getting the better of her, she expanded her thesis into a general denunciation of his habitual off-handedness with her, to an abandonment of all hope of ever being happy with him, to a decision to end the matter once for all, and after a decent interval of dignified regrets to summon oliver to the reward of his patience and goodness. the european situation was now at a pitch to get upon mr. britling's nerves, and he replied with a letter intended to be conciliatory, but which degenerated into earnest reproaches for her "unreasonableness." meanwhile she had received his second and tenderly eloquent letter; it moved her deeply, and having now cleared her mind of much that had kept it simmering uncomfortably, she replied with a sweetly loving epistle. from this point their correspondence had a kind of double quality, being intermittently angry and loving; her third letter was tender, and it was tenderly answered in his fourth; but in the interim she had received his third and answered it with considerable acerbity, to which his fifth was a retort, just missing her generous and conclusive fifth. she replied to his fifth on a saturday evening--it was that eventful saturday, saturday the first of august, --by a telegram. oliver was abroad in holland, engaged in a much-needed emotional rest, and she wired to mr. britling: "have wired for oliver, he will come to me, do not trouble to answer this." she was astonished to get no reply for two days. she got no reply for two days because remarkable things were happening to the telegraph wires of england just then, and her message, in the hands of a boy scout on a bicycle, reached mr. britling's house only on monday afternoon. he was then at claverings discussing the invasion of belgium that made britain's participation in the war inevitable, and he did not open the little red-brown envelope until about half-past six. he failed to mark the date and hours upon it, but he perceived that it was essentially a challenge. he was expected, he saw, to go over at once with his renovated gladys and end this unfortunate clash forever in one striking and passionate scene. his mind was now so full of the war that he found this the most colourless and unattractive of obligations. but he felt bound by the mysterious code of honour of the illicit love affair to play his part. he postponed his departure until after supper--there was no reason why he should be afraid of motoring by moonlight if he went carefully--because hugh came in with cissie demanding a game of hockey. hockey offered a nervous refreshment, a scampering forgetfulness of the tremendous disaster of this war he had always believed impossible, that nothing else could do, and he was very glad indeed of the irruption.... section for days the broader side of mr. britling's mind, as distinguished from its egotistical edge, had been reflecting more and more vividly and coherently the spectacle of civilisation casting aside the thousand dispersed activities of peace, clutching its weapons and setting its teeth, for a supreme struggle against militarist imperialism. from the point of view of matching's easy that colossal crystallising of accumulated antagonisms was for a time no more than a confusion of headlines and a rearrangement of columns in the white windows of the newspapers through which those who lived in the securities of england looked out upon the world. it was a display in the sphere of thought and print immeasurably remote from the real green turf on which one walked, from the voice and the church-bells of mr. dimple that sounded their ample caresses in one's ears, from the clashing of the stags who were beginning to knock the velvet from their horns in the park, or the clatter of the butcher's cart and the respectful greeting of the butcher boy down the lane. it was the spectacle of the world less real even to most imaginations than the world of novels or plays. people talked of these things always with an underlying feeling that they romanced and intellectualised. on thursday, july rd, the austro-hungarian minister at belgrade presented his impossible ultimatum to the serbian government, and demanded a reply within forty-eight hours. with the wisdom of retrospect we know now clearly enough what that meant. the sarajevo crime was to be resuscitated and made an excuse for war. but nine hundred and ninety-nine europeans out of a thousand had still no suspicion of what was happening to them. the ultimatum figured prominently in the morning papers that came to matching's easy on friday, but it by no means dominated the rest of the news; sir edward carson's rejection of the government proposals for ulster was given the pride of place, and almost equally conspicuous with the serbian news were the caillaux trial and the storming of the st. petersburg barricades by cossacks. herr heinrich's questions at lunch time received reassuring replies. on saturday sir edward carson was still in the central limelight, russia had intervened and demanded more time for serbia, and the _daily chronicle_ declared the day a critical one for europe. dublin with bayonet charges and bullets thrust serbia into a corner on monday. no shots had yet been fired in the east, and the mischief in ireland that germany had counted on was well ahead. sir edward grey was said to be working hard for peace. "it's the cry of wolf," said mr. britling to herr heinrich. "but at last there did come a wolf," said herr heinrich. "i wish i had not sent my first moneys to that conference upon esperanto. i feel sure it will be put off." "see!" said teddy very cheerfully to herr heinrich on tuesday, and held up the paper, in which "the bloodshed in dublin" had squeezed the "war cloud lifting" into a quite subordinate position. "what did we tell you?" said mrs. britling. "nobody wants a european war." but wednesday's paper vindicated his fears. germany had commanded russia not to mobilise. "of course russia will mobilise," said herr heinrich. "or else forever after hold her peace," said teddy. "and then germany will mobilise," said herr heinrich, "and all my holiday will vanish. i shall have to go and mobilise too. i shall have to fight. i have my papers." "i never thought of you as a soldier before," said teddy. "i have deferred my service until i have done my thesis," said herr heinrich. "now all that will be--piff! and my thesis three-quarters finished." "that is serious," said teddy. "_verdammte dummheit!_" said herr heinrich. "why do they do such things?" on thursday, the th of july, caillaux, carson, strikes, and all the common topics of life had been swept out of the front page of the paper altogether; the stock exchanges were in a state of wild perturbation, and food prices were leaping fantastically. austria was bombarding belgrade, contrary to the rules of war hitherto accepted; russia was mobilising; mr. asquith was, he declared, not relaxing his efforts "to do everything possible to circumscribe the area of possible conflict," and the vienna conference of peace societies was postponed. "i do not see why a conflict between russia and austria should involve western europe," said mr. britling. "our concern is only for belgium and france." but herr heinrich knew better. "no," he said. "it is the war. it has come. i have heard it talked about in germany many times. but i have never believed that it was obliged to come. ach! it considers no one. so long as esperanto is disregarded, all these things must be." friday brought photographs of the mobilisation in vienna, and the news that belgrade was burning. young men in straw hats very like english or french or belgian young men in straw hats were shown parading the streets of vienna, carrying flags and banners portentously, blowing trumpets or waving hats and shouting. saturday saw all europe mobilising, and herr heinrich upon teddy's bicycle in wild pursuit of evening papers at the junction. mobilisation and the emotions of herr heinrich now became the central facts of the dower house situation. the two younger britlings mobilised with great vigour upon the playroom floor. the elder had one hundred and ninety toy soldiers with a considerable equipment of guns and wagons; the younger had a force of a hundred and twenty-three, not counting three railway porters (with trucks complete), a policeman, five civilians and two ladies. also they made a number of british and german flags out of paper. but as neither would allow his troops to be any existing foreign army, they agreed to be redland and blueland, according to the colour of their prevailing uniforms. meanwhile herr heinrich confessed almost promiscuously the complication of his distresses by a hitherto unexpected emotional interest in the daughter of the village publican. she was a placid receptive young woman named maud hickson, on whom the young man had, it seemed, imposed the more poetical name of marguerite. "often we have spoken together, oh yes, often," he assured mrs. britling. "and now it must all end. she loves flowers, she loves birds. she is most sweet and innocent. i have taught her many words in german and several times i have tried to draw her in pencil, and now i must go away and never see her any more." his implicit appeal to the whole literature of teutonic romanticism disarmed mrs. britling's objection that he had no business whatever to know the young woman at all. "also," cried herr heinrich, facing another aspect of his distresses, "how am i to pack my things? since i have been here i have bought many things, many books, and two pairs of white flannel trousers and some shirts and a tin instrument that i cannot work, for developing privately kodak films. all this must go into my little portmanteau. and it will not go into my little portmanteau! "and there is billy! who will now go on with the education of billy?" the hands of fate paused not for herr heinrich's embarrassments and distresses. he fretted from his room downstairs and back to his room, he went out upon mysterious and futile errands towards the village inn, he prowled about the garden. his head and face grew pinker and pinker; his eyes were flushed and distressed. everybody sought to say and do kind and reassuring things to him. "ach!" he said to teddy; "you are a civilian. you live in a free country. it is not your war. you can be amused at it...." but then teddy was amused at everything. something but very dimly apprehended at matching's easy, something methodical and compelling away in london, seemed to be fumbling and feeling after herr heinrich, and herr heinrich it appeared was responding. sunday's post brought the decision. "i have to go," he said. "i must go right up to london to-day. to an address in bloomsbury. then they will tell me how to go to germany. i must pack and i must get the taxi-cab from the junction and i must go. why are there no trains on the branch line on sundays for me to go by it?" at lunch he talked politics. "i am entirely opposed to the war," he said. "i am entirely opposed to any war." "then why go?" asked mr. britling. "stay here with us. we all like you. stay here and do not answer your mobilisation summons." "but then i shall lose all my country. i shall lose my papers. i shall be outcast. i must go." "i suppose a man should go with his own country," mr. britling reflected. "if there was only one language in all the world, none of such things would happen," herr heinrich declared. "there would be no english, no germans, no russians." "just esperantists," said teddy. "or idoists," said herr heinrich. "i am not convinced of which. in some ways ido is much better." "perhaps there would have to be a war between ido and esperanto to settle it," said teddy. "who shall we play skat with when you have gone?" asked mrs. britling. "all this morning," said herr heinrich, expanding in the warmth of sympathy, "i have been trying to pack and i have been unable to pack. my mind is too greatly disordered. i have been told not to bring much luggage. mrs. britling, please." mrs. britling became attentive. "if i could leave much of my luggage, my clothes, some of them, and particularly my violin, it would be much more to my convenience. i do not care to be mobilised with my violin. there may be much crowding. then i would but just take my rucksack...." "if you will leave your things packed up." "and afterwards they could be sent." but he did not leave them packed up. the taxi-cab, to order which he had gone to the junction in the morning on teddy's complaisant machine, came presently to carry him off, and the whole family and the first contingent of the usual hockey players gathered about it to see him off. the elder boy of the two juniors put a distended rucksack upon the seat. herr heinrich then shook hands with every one. "write and tell us how you get on," cried mrs. britling. "but if england also makes war!" "write to reynolds--let me give you his address; he is my agent in new york," said mr. britling, and wrote it down. "we'll come to the village corner with you, herr heinrich," cried the boys. "no," said herr heinrich, sitting down into the automobile, "i will part with you altogether. it is too much...." "_auf wiedersehen!_" cried mr. britling. "remember, whatever happens there will be peace at last!" "then why not at the beginning?" herr heinrich demanded with a reasonable exasperation and repeated his maturer verdict on the whole european situation; "_verdammte bummelei!_" "go," said mr. britling to the taxi driver. "_auf wiedersehen_, herr heinrich!" "_auf wiedersehen!_" "good-bye, herr heinrich!" "good luck, herr heinrich!" the taxi started with a whir, and herr heinrich passed out of the gates and along the same hungry road that had so recently consumed mr. direck. "give him a last send-off," cried teddy. "one, two, three! _auf wiedersehen!_" the voices, gruff and shrill, sounded raggedly together. the dog-rose hedge cut off the sight of the little face. then the pink head bobbed up again. he was standing up and waving the panama hat. careless of sunstroke.... then herr heinrich had gone altogether.... "well," said mr. britling, turning away. "i do hope they won't hurt him," said a visitor. "oh, they won't put a youngster like that in the fighting line," said mr. britling. "he's had no training yet. and he has to wear glasses. how can he shoot? they'll make a clerk of him." "he hasn't packed at all," said mrs. britling to her husband. "just come up for an instant and peep at his room. it's--touching." it was touching. it was more than touching; in its minute, absurd way it was symbolical and prophetic, it was the miniature of one small life uprooted. the door stood wide open, as he had left it open, careless of all the little jealousies and privacies of occupation and ownership. even the windows were wide open as though he had needed air; he who had always so sedulously shut his windows since first he came to england. across the empty fireplace stretched the great bough of oak he had brought in for billy, but now its twigs and leaves had wilted, and many had broken off and fallen on the floor. billy's cage stood empty upon a little table in the corner of the room. instead of packing, the young man had evidently paced up and down in a state of emotional elaboration; the bed was disordered as though he had several times flung himself upon it, and his books had been thrown about the room despairfully. he had made some little commencements of packing in a borrowed cardboard box. the violin lay as if it lay in state upon the chest of drawers, the drawers were all partially open, and in the middle of the floor sprawled a pitiful shirt of blue, dropped there, the most flattened and broken-hearted of garments. the fireplace contained an unsuccessful pencil sketch of a girl's face, torn across.... husband and wife regarded the abandoned room in silence for a time, and when mr. britling spoke he lowered his voice. "i don't see billy," he said. "perhaps he has gone out of the window," said mrs. britling also in a hushed undertone.... "well," said mr. britling abruptly and loudly, turning away from this first intimation of coming desolations, "let us go down to our hockey! he had to go, you know. and billy will probably come back again when he begins to feel hungry...." section monday was a public holiday, the first monday in august, and the day consecrated by long-established custom to the matching's easy flower show in claverings park. the day was to live in mr. britling's memory with a harsh brightness like the brightness of that sunshine one sees at times at the edge of a thunderstorm. there were tents with the exhibits, and a tent for "popular refreshments," there was a gorgeous gold and yellow steam roundabout with motor-cars and horses, and another in green and silver with wonderfully undulating ostriches and lions, and each had an organ that went by steam; there were cocoanut shies and many ingenious prize-giving shooting and dart-throwing and ring-throwing stalls, each displaying a marvellous array of crockery, clocks, metal ornaments, and suchlike rewards. there was a race of gas balloons, each with a postcard attached to it begging the finder to say where it descended, and you could get a balloon for a shilling and have a chance of winning various impressive and embarrassing prizes if your balloon went far enough--fish carvers, a silver-handled walking-stick, a bog-oak gramophone-record cabinet, and things like that. and by a special gate one could go for sixpence into the claverings gardens, and the sixpence would be doubled by lady homartyn and devoted next winter to the matching's easy coal club. and mr. britling went through all the shows with his boys, and finally left them with a shilling each and his blessing and paid his sixpence for the gardens and made his way as he had promised, to have tea with lady homartyn. the morning papers had arrived late, and he had been reading them and re-reading them and musing over them intermittently until his family had insisted upon his coming out to the festivities. they said that if for no other reason he must come to witness aunt wilshire's extraordinary skill at the cocoanut shy. she could beat everybody. well, one must not miss a thing like that. the headlines proclaimed, "the great powers at war; france invaded by germany; germany invaded by russia; , germans march into luxemburg; can england abstain? fifty million loan to be issued." and germany had not only violated the treaty of london but she had seized a british ship in the kiel canal.... the roundabouts were very busy and windily melodious, and the shooting gallery kept popping and jingling as people shot and broke bottles, and the voices of the young men and women inviting the crowd to try their luck at this and that rang loud and clear. teddy and letty and cissie and hugh were developing a quite disconcerting skill at the dart-throwing, and were bent upon compiling a complete tea-set for the teddy cottage out of their winnings. there was a score of automobiles and a number of traps and gigs about the entrance to the portion of the park that had been railed off for the festival, the small britling boys had met some nursery visitors from claverings house and were busy displaying skill and calm upon the roundabout ostriches, and less than four hundred miles away with a front that reached from nancy to liège more than a million and a quarter of grey-clad men, the greatest and best-equipped host the world had ever seen, were pouring westward to take paris, grip and paralyse france, seize the channel ports, invade england, and make the german empire the master-state of the earth. their equipment was a marvel of foresight and scientific organisation, from the motor kitchens that rumbled in their wake to the telescopic sights of the sharp-shooters, the innumerable machine-guns of the infantry, the supply of entrenching material, the preparations already made in the invaded country.... "let's try at the other place for the sugar-basin!" said teddy, hurrying past. "don't get _two_ sugar-basins," said cissie breathless in pursuit. "hugh is trying for a sugar-basin at the other place." then mr. britling heard a bellicose note. "let's have a go at the bottles," said a cheerful young farmer. "ought to keep up our shooting, these warlike times...." mr. britling ran against hickson from the village inn and learnt that he was disturbed about his son being called up as a reservist. "just when he was settling down here. it seems a pity they couldn't leave him for a bit." "'tis a noosence," said hickson, "but anyhow, they give first prize to his radishes. he'll be glad to hear they give first prize to his radishes. do you think, sir, there's very much probability of this war? it do seem to be beginning like." "it looks more like beginning than it has ever done," said mr. britling. "it's a foolish business." "i suppose if they start in on us we got to hit back at them," said mr. hickson. "postman--he's got his papers too...." mr. britling made his way through the drifting throng towards the little wicket that led into the gardens.... he was swung round suddenly by a loud bang. it was the gun proclaiming the start of the balloon race. he stood for some moments watching the scene. the balloon start had gathered a little crowd of people, village girls in white gloves and cheerful hats, young men in bright ties and ready-made sunday suits, fathers and mothers, boy scouts, children, clerks in straw hats, bicyclists and miscellaneous folk. over their heads rose mr. cheshunt, the factotum of the estate. he was standing on a table and handing the little balloons up into the air one by one. they floated up from his hand like many-coloured grapes, some rising and falling, some soaring steadily upward, some spinning and eddying, drifting eastward before the gentle breeze, a string of bubbles against the sky and the big trees that bounded the park. farther away to the right were the striped canvas tents of the flower-show, still farther off the roundabouts churned out their music, the shooting galleries popped, and the swing boats creaked through the air. cut off from these things by a line of fencing lay the open park in which the deer grouped themselves under the great trees and regarded the festival mistrustfully. teddy and hugh appeared breaking away from the balloon race cluster, and hurrying back to their dart-throwing. a man outside a little tent that stood apart was putting up a brave-looking notice, "unstinted teas one shilling." the teddy perambulator was moored against the cocoanut shy, and aunt wilshire was still displaying her terrible prowess at the cocoanuts. already she had won twenty-seven. strange children had been impressed by her to carry them, and formed her retinue. a wonderful old lady was aunt wilshire.... then across all the sunshine of this artless festival there appeared, as if it were writing showing through a picture, "france invaded by germany; germany invaded by russia." mr. britling turned again towards the wicket, with its collectors of tribute, that led into the gardens. section the claverings gardens, and particularly the great rockery, the lily pond, and the herbaceous borders, were unusually populous with unaccustomed visitors and shy young couples. mr. britling had to go to the house for instructions, and guided by the under-butler found lady homartyn hiding away in the walled dutch garden behind the dairy. she had been giving away the prizes of the flower-show, and she was resting in a deck chair while a spinster relation presided over the tea. mrs. britling had fled the outer festival earlier, and was sitting by the tea-things. lady meade and two or three visitors had motored out from hartleytree to assist, and manning had come in with his tremendous confirmation of all that the morning papers had foreshadowed. "have you any news?" asked mr. britling. "it's _war!_" said mrs. britling. "they are in luxemburg," said manning. "that can only mean that they are coming through belgium." "then i was wrong," said mr. britling, "and the world is altogether mad. and so there is nothing else for us to do but win.... why could they not leave belgium alone?" "it's been in all their plans for the last twenty years," said manning. "but it brings us in for certain." "i believe they have reckoned on that." "well!" mr. britling took his tea and sat down, and for a time he said nothing. "it is three against three," said one of the visitors, trying to count the powers engaged. "italy," said manning, "will almost certainly refuse to fight. in fact italy is friendly to us. she is bound to be. this is, to begin with, an austrian war. and japan will fight for us...." "i think," said old lady meade, "that this is the suicide of germany. they cannot possibly fight against russia and france and ourselves. why have they ever begun it?" "it may be a longer and more difficult war than people suppose," said manning. "the germans reckon they are going to win." "against us all?" "against us all. they are tremendously prepared." "it is impossible that germany should win," said mr. britling, breaking his silence. "against her germany has something more than armies; all reason, all instinct--the three greatest peoples in the world." "at present very badly supplied with war material." "that may delay things; it may make the task harder; but it will not alter the end. of course we are going to win. nothing else is thinkable. i have never believed they meant it. but i see now they meant it. this insolent arming and marching, this forty years of national blustering; sooner or later it had to topple over into action...." he paused and found they were listening, and he was carried on by his own thoughts into further speech. "this isn't the sort of war," he said, "that is settled by counting guns and rifles. something that has oppressed us all has become intolerable and has to be ended. and it will be ended. i don't know what soldiers and politicians think of our prospects, but i do know what ordinary reasonable men think of the business. i know that all we millions of reasonable civilised onlookers are prepared to spend our last shillings and give all our lives now, rather than see germany unbeaten. i know that the same thing is felt in america, and that given half a chance, given just one extra shake of that foolish mailed fist in the face of america, and america also will be in this war by our side. italy will come in. she is bound to come in. france will fight like one man. i'm quite prepared to believe that the germans have countless rifles and guns; have got the most perfect maps, spies, plans you can imagine. i'm quite prepared to hear that they have got a thousand tremendous surprises in equipment up their sleeves. i'm quite prepared for sweeping victories for them and appalling disasters for us. those are the first things. what i do know is that the germans understand nothing of the spirit of man; that they do not dream for a moment of the devil of resentment this war will arouse. didn't we all trust them not to let off their guns? wasn't that the essence of our liberal and pacific faith? and here they are in the heart of europe letting off their guns?" "and such a lot of guns," said manning. "then you think it will be a long war, mr. britling?" said lady meade. "long or short, it will end in the downfall of germany. but i do not believe it will be long. i do not agree with manning. even now i cannot believe that a whole great people can be possessed by war madness. i think the war is the work of the german armaments party and of the court party. they have forced this war on germany. well--they must win and go on winning. so long as they win, germany will hold together, so long as their armies are not clearly defeated nor their navy destroyed. but once check them and stay them and beat them, then i believe that suddenly the spirit of germany will change even as it changed after jena...." "willie nixon," said one of the visitors, "who came back from hamburg yesterday, says they are convinced they will have taken paris and st. petersburg and one or two other little places and practically settled everything for us by about christmas." "and london?" "i forgot if he said london. but i suppose a london more or less hardly matters. they don't think we shall dare come in, but if we do they will zeppelin the fleet and walk through our army--if you can call it an army." manning nodded confirmation. "they do not understand," said mr. britling. "sir george padish told me the same sort of thing," said lady homartyn. "he was in berlin in june." "of course the efficiency of their preparations is almost incredible," said another of lady meade's party. "they have thought out and got ready for everything--literally everything." section mr. britling had been a little surprised by the speech he had made. he hadn't realised before he began to talk how angry and scornful he was at this final coming into action of the teutonic militarism that had so long menaced his world. he had always said it would never really fight--and here it was fighting! he was furious with the indignation of an apologist betrayed. he had only realised the strength and passion of his own belligerent opinions as he had heard them, and as he walked back with his wife through the village to the dower house, he was still in the swirl of this self-discovery; he was darkly silent, devising fiercely denunciatory phrases against krupp and kaiser. "krupp and kaiser," he grasped that obvious, convenient alliteration. "it is all that is bad in mediævalism allied to all that is bad in modernity," he told himself. "the world," he said, startling mrs. britling with his sudden speech, "will be intolerable to live in, it will be unendurable for a decent human being, unless we win this war. "we must smash or be smashed...." his brain was so busy with such stuff that for a time he stared at mrs. harrowdean's belated telegram without grasping the meaning of a word of it. he realised slowly that it was incumbent upon him to go over to her, but he postponed his departure very readily in order to play hockey. besides which it would be a full moon, and he felt that summer moonlight was far better than sunset and dinner time for the declarations he was expected to make. and then he went on phrase-making again about germany until he had actually bullied off at hockey. suddenly in the midst of the game he had an amazing thought. it came to him like a physical twinge. "what the devil are we doing at this hockey?" he asked abruptly of teddy, who was coming up to bully after a goal. "we ought to be drilling or shooting against those infernal germans." teddy looked at him questioningly. "oh, come on!" said mr. britling with a gust of impatience, and snapped the sticks together. section mr. britling started for his moonlight ride about half-past nine that night. he announced that he could neither rest nor work, the war had thrown him into a fever; the driving of the automobile was just the distraction he needed; he might not, he added casually, return for a day or so. when he felt he could work again he would come back. he filled up his petrol tank by the light of an electric torch, and sat in his car in the garage and studied his map of the district. his thoughts wandered from the road to pyecrafts to the coast, and to the possible route of a raider. suppose the enemy anticipated a declaration of war! here he might come, and here.... he roused himself from these speculations to the business in hand. the evening seemed as light as day, a cool moonshine filled the world. the road was silver that flushed to pink at the approach of mr. britling's headlight, the dark turf at the wayside and the bushes on the bank became for a moment an acid green as the glare passed. the full moon was climbing up the sky, and so bright that scarcely a star was visible in the blue grey of the heavens. houses gleamed white a mile away, and ever and again a moth would flutter and hang in the light of the lamps, and then vanish again in the night. gladys was in excellent condition for a run, and so was mr. britling. he went neither fast nor slow, and with a quite unfamiliar confidence. life, which had seemed all day a congested confusion darkened by threats, became cool, mysterious and aloof and with a quality of dignified reassurance. he steered along the narrow road by the black dog-rose hedge, and so into the high road towards the village. the village was alight at several windows but almost deserted. out beyond, a coruscation of lights burnt like a group of topaz and rubies set in the silver shield of the night. the festivities of the flower show were still in full progress, and the reduction of the entrance fee after seven had drawn in every lingering outsider. the roundabouts churned out their relentless music, and the bottle-shooting galleries popped and crashed. the well-patronised ostriches and motorcars flickered round in a pulsing rhythm; black, black, black, before the naphtha flares. mr. britling pulled up at the side of the road, and sat for a little while watching the silhouettes move hither and thither from shadow to shadow across the bright spaces. "on the very brink of war--on the brink of armageddon," he whispered at last. "do they understand? do any of us understand?" he slipped in his gear to starting, and was presently running quietly with his engine purring almost inaudibly along the level road to hartleytree. the sounds behind him grew smaller and smaller, and died away leaving an immense unruffled quiet under the moon. there seemed no motion but his own, no sound but the neat, subdued, mechanical rhythm in front of his feet. presently he ran out into the main road, and heedless of the lane that turned away towards pyecrafts, drove on smoothly towards the east and the sea. never before had he driven by night. he had expected a fumbling and tedious journey; he found he had come into an undreamt-of silvery splendour of motion. for it seemed as though even the automobile was running on moonlight that night.... pyecrafts could wait. indeed the later he got to pyecrafts the more moving and romantic the little comedy of reconciliation would be. and he was in no hurry for that comedy. he felt he wanted to apprehend this vast summer calm about him, that alone of all the things of the day seemed to convey anything whatever of the majestic tragedy that was happening to mankind. as one slipped through this still vigil one could imagine for the first time the millions away there marching, the wide river valleys, villages, cities, mountain-ranges, ports and seas inaudibly busy. "even now," he said, "the battleships may be fighting." he listened, but the sound was only the low intermittent drumming of his cylinders as he ran with his throttle nearly closed, down a stretch of gentle hill. he felt that he must see the sea. he would follow the road beyond the rodwell villages, and then turn up to the crest of eastonbury hill. and thither he went and saw in the gap of the low hills beyond a v-shaped level of moonlit water that glittered and yet lay still. he stopped his car by the roadside, and sat for a long time looking at this and musing. and once it seemed to him three little shapes like short black needles passed in line ahead across the molten silver. but that may have been just the straining of the eyes.... all sorts of talk had come to mr. britling's ears about the navies of england and france and germany; there had been public disputes of experts, much whispering and discussion in private. we had the heavier vessels, the bigger guns, but it was not certain that we had the preeminence in science and invention. were they relying as we were relying on dreadnoughts, or had they their secrets and surprises for us? to-night, perhaps, the great ships were steaming to conflict.... to-night all over the world ships must be in flight and ships pursuing; ten thousand towns must be ringing with the immediate excitement of war.... only a year ago mr. britling had been lunching on a battleship and looking over its intricate machinery. it had seemed to him then that there could be no better human stuff in the world than the quiet, sunburnt, disciplined men and officers he had met.... and our little army, too, must be gathering to-night, the little army that had been chastened and reborn in south africa, that he was convinced was individually more gallant and self-reliant and capable than any other army in the world. he would have sneered or protested if he had heard another englishman say that, but in his heart he held the dear belief.... and what other aviators in the world could fly as the frenchmen and englishmen he had met once or twice at eastchurch and salisbury could fly? these are things of race and national quality. let the german cling to his gasbags. "we shall beat them in the air," he whispered. "we shall beat them on the seas. surely we shall beat them on the seas. if we have men enough and guns enough we shall beat them on land.... yet--for years they have been preparing...." there was little room in the heart of mr. britling that night for any love but the love of england. he loved england now as a nation of men. there could be no easy victory. good for us with our too easy natures that there could be no easy victory. but victory we must have now--or perish.... he roused himself with a sigh, restarted his engine, and went on to find some turning place. he still had a colourless impression that the journey's end was pyecrafts. "we must all do the thing we can," he thought, and for a time the course of his automobile along a winding down-hill road held his attention so that he could not get beyond it. he turned about and ran up over the hill again and down long slopes inland, running very softly and smoothly with his lights devouring the road ahead and sweeping the banks and hedges beside him, and as he came down a little hill through a village he heard a confused clatter and jingle of traffic ahead, and saw the danger triangle that warns of cross-roads. he slowed down and then pulled up abruptly. riding across the gap between the cottages was a string of horsemen, and then a grey cart, and then a team drawing a heavy object--a gun, and then more horsemen, and then a second gun. it was all a dim brown procession in the moonlight. a mounted officer came up beside him and looked at him and then went back to the cross-roads, but as yet england was not troubling about spies. four more guns passed, and then a string of carts and more mounted men, sitting stiffly. nobody was singing or shouting; scarcely a word was audible, and through all the column there was an effect of quiet efficient haste. and so they passed, and rumbled and jingled and clattered out of the scene, leaving mr. britling in his car in the dreaming village. he restarted his engine once more, and went his way thoughtfully. he went so thoughtfully that presently he missed the road to pyecrafts--if ever he had been on the road to pyecrafts at all--altogether. he found himself upon a highway running across a flattish plain, and presently discovered by the sight of the great bear, faint but traceable in the blue overhead, that he was going due north. well, presently he would turn south and west; that in good time; now he wanted to feel; he wanted to think. how could he best help england in the vast struggle for which the empty silence and beauty of this night seemed to be waiting? but indeed he was not thinking at all, but feeling, feeling wonder, as he had never felt it since his youth had passed from him. this war might end nearly everything in the world as he had known the world; that idea struggled slowly through the moonlight into consciousness, and won its way to dominance in his mind. the character of the road changed; the hedges fell away, the pine trees and pine woods took the place of the black squat shapes of the hawthorn and oak and apple. the houses grew rarer and the world emptier and emptier, until he could have believed that he was the only man awake and out-of-doors in all the slumbering land.... for a time a little thing caught hold of his dreaming mind. continually as he ran on, black, silent birds rose startled out of the dust of the road before him, and fluttered noiselessly beyond his double wedge of light. what sort of bird could they be? were they night-jars? were they different kinds of birds snatching at the quiet of the night for a dust bath in the sand? this little independent thread of inquiry ran through the texture of his mind and died away.... and at one place there was a great bolting of rabbits across the road, almost under his wheels.... the phrases he had used that afternoon at claverings came back presently into his head. they were, he felt assured, the phrases that had to be said now. this war could be seen as the noblest of wars, as the crowning struggle of mankind against national dominance and national aggression; or else it was a mere struggle of nationalities and pure destruction and catastrophe. its enormous significances, he felt, must not be lost in any petty bickering about the minor issues of the conflict. but were these enormous significances being stated clearly enough? were they being understood by the mass of liberal and pacific thinkers? he drove more and more slowly as these questions crowded upon his attention until at last he came to a stop altogether.... "certain things must be said clearly," he whispered. "certain things--the meaning of england.... the deep and long-unspoken desire for kindliness and fairness.... now is the time for speaking. it must be put as straight now as her gun-fire, as honestly as the steering of her ships." phrases and paragraphs began to shape themselves in his mind as he sat with one arm on his steering-wheel. suddenly he roused himself, turned over the map in the map-case beside him, and tried to find his position.... so far as he could judge he had strayed right into suffolk.... about one o'clock in the morning he found himself in newmarket. newmarket too was a moonlit emptiness, but as he hesitated at the cross-roads he became aware of a policeman standing quite stiff and still at the corner by the church. "matching's easy?" he cried. "that road, sir, until you come to market saffron, and then to the left...." mr. britling had a definite purpose now in his mind, and he drove faster, but still very carefully and surely. he was already within a mile or so of market saffron before he remembered that he had made a kind of appointment with himself at pyecrafts. he stared at two conflicting purposes. he turned over certain possibilities. at the market saffron cross-roads he slowed down, and for a moment he hung undecided. "oliver," he said, and as he spoke he threw over his steering-wheel towards the homeward way.... he finished his sentence when he had negotiated the corner safely. "oliver must have her...." and then, perhaps fifty yards farther along, and this time almost indignantly: "she ought to have married him long ago...." he put his automobile in the garage, and then went round under the black shadow of his cedars to the front door. he had no key, and for a long time he failed to rouse his wife by flinging pebbles and gravel at her half-open window. but at last he heard her stirring and called out to her. he explained he had returned because he wanted to write. he wanted indeed to write quite urgently. he went straight up to his room, lit his reading-lamp, made himself some tea, and changed into his nocturnal suit. daylight found him still writing very earnestly at his pamphlet. the title he had chosen was: "and now war ends." section in this fashion it was that the great war began in europe and came to one man in matching's easy, as it came to countless intelligent men in countless pleasant homes that had scarcely heeded its coming through all the years of its relentless preparation. the familiar scenery of life was drawn aside, and war stood unveiled. "i am the fact," said war, "and i stand astride the path of life. i am the threat of death and extinction that has always walked beside life, since life began. there can be nothing else and nothing more in human life until you have reckoned with me." book ii matching's easy at war chapter the first onlookers section on that eventful night of the first shots and the first deaths mr. britling did not sleep until daylight had come. he sat writing at this pamphlet of his, which was to hail the last explosion and the ending of war. for a couple of hours he wrote with energy, and then his energy flagged. there came intervals when he sat still and did not write. he yawned and yawned again and rubbed his eyes. the day had come and the birds were noisy when he undressed slowly, dropping his clothes anyhow upon the floor, and got into bed.... he woke to find his morning tea beside him and the housemaid going out of the room. he knew that something stupendous had happened to the world, but for a few moments he could not remember what it was. then he remembered that france was invaded by germany and germany by russia, and that almost certainly england was going to war. it seemed a harsh and terrible fact in the morning light, a demand for stresses, a certainty of destruction; it appeared now robbed of all the dark and dignified beauty of the night. he remembered just the same feeling of unpleasant, anxious expectation as he now felt when the boer war had begun fifteen years ago, before the first news came. the first news of the boer war had been the wrecking of a british armoured train near kimberley. what similar story might not the overdue paper tell when presently it came? suppose, for instance, that some important division of our fleet had been surprised and overwhelmed.... suppose the germans were already crumpling up the french armies between verdun and belfort, very swiftly and dreadfully.... suppose after all that the cabinet was hesitating, and that there would be no war for some weeks, but only a wrangle about belgian neutrality. while the germans smashed france.... or, on the other hand, there might be some amazing, prompt success on our part. our army and navy people were narrow, but in their narrow way he believed they were extraordinarily good.... what would the irish do?... his thoughts were no more than a thorny jungle of unanswerable questions through which he struggled in un-progressive circles. he got out of bed and dressed in a slow, distraught manner. when he reached his braces he discontinued dressing for a time; he opened the atlas at northern france, and stood musing over the belgian border. then he turned to whitaker's almanack to browse upon the statistics of the great european armies. he was roused from this by the breakfast gong. at breakfast there was no talk of anything but war. hugh was as excited as a cat in thundery weather, and the small boys wanted information about flags. the russian and the serbian flag were in dispute, and the flag page of webster's dictionary had to be consulted. newspapers and letters were both abnormally late, and mr. britling, tiring of supplying trivial information to his offspring, smoked cigarettes in the garden. he had an idea of intercepting the postman. his eyes and ears informed him of the approach of mrs. faber's automobile. it was an old, resolute-looking machine painted red, and driven by a trusted gardener; there was no mistaking it. mrs. faber was in it, and she stopped it outside the gate and made signals. mrs. britling, attracted by the catastrophic sounds of mrs. faber's vehicle, came out by the front door, and she and her husband both converged upon the caller. section "i won't come in," cried mrs. faber, "but i thought i'd tell you. i've been getting food." "food?" "provisions. there's going to be a run on provisions. look at my flitch of bacon!" "but--" "faber says we have to lay in what we can. this war--it's going to stop everything. we can't tell what will happen. i've got the children to consider, so here i am. i was at hickson's before nine...." the little lady was very flushed and bright-eyed. her fair hair was disordered, her hat a trifle askew. she had an air of enjoying unwonted excitements. "all the gold's being hoarded too," she said, with a crow of delight in her voice. "faber says that probably our cheques won't be worth _that_ in a few days. he rushed off to london to get gold at his clubs--while he can. i had to insist on hickson taking a cheque. 'never,' i said, 'will i deal with you again--never--unless you do....' even then he looked at me almost as if he thought he wouldn't. "it's famine!" she said, turning to mr. britling. "i've laid hands on all i can. i've got the children to consider." "but why is it famine?" asked mr. britling. "oh! it _is_!" she said. "but why?" "faber understands," she said. "of course it's famine...." "and would you believe me," she went on, going back to mrs. britling, "that man hickson stood behind his counter--where i've dealt with him for _years_, and refused absolutely to let me have more than a dozen tins of sardines. _refused!_ point blank! "i was there before nine, and even then hickson's shop was crowded--_crowded_, my dear!" "what have you got?" said mr. britling with an inquiring movement towards the automobile. she had got quite a lot. she had two sides of bacon, a case of sugar, bags of rice, eggs, a lot of flour. "what are all these little packets?" said mr. britling. mrs. faber looked slightly abashed. "cerebos salt," she said. "one gets carried away a little. i just got hold of it and carried it out to the car. i thought we might have to salt things later." "and the jars are pickles?" said mr. britling. "yes. but look at all my flour! that's what will go first...." the lady was a little flurried by mr. britling's too detailed examination of her haul. "what good is blacking?" he asked. she would not hear him. she felt he was trying to spoil her morning. she declared she must get on back to her home. "don't say i didn't warn you," she said. "i've got no end of things to do. there's peas! i want to show cook how to bottle our peas. for this year--it's lucky, we've got no end of peas. i came by here just for the sake of telling you." and with that she presently departed--obviously ruffled by mrs. britling's lethargy and mr. britling's scepticism. mr. britling watched her go off with a slowly rising indignation. "and that," he said, "is how england is going to war! scrambling for food--at the very beginning." "i suppose she is anxious for the children," said mrs. britling. "blacking!" "after all," said mr. britling, "if other people are doing that sort of thing--" "that's the idea of all panics. we've got not to do it.... the country hasn't even declared war yet! hallo, here we are! better late than never." the head of the postman, bearing newspapers and letters, appeared gliding along the top of the hedge as he cycled down the road towards the dower house corner. section england was not yet at war, but all the stars were marching to that end. it was as if an event so vast must needs take its time to happen. no doubt was left upon mr. britling's mind, though a whole-page advertisement in the _daily news_, in enormous type and of mysterious origin, implored great britain not to play into the hands of russia, russia the terrible, that bugbear of the sentimental radicals. the news was wide and sweeping, and rather inaccurate. the germans were said to be in belgium and holland, and they had seized english ships in the kiel canal. a moratorium had been proclaimed, and the reports of a food panic showed mrs. faber to be merely one example of a large class of excitable people. mr. britling found the food panic disconcerting. it did not harmonise with his leading _motif_ of the free people of the world rising against the intolerable burthen of militarism. it spoilt his picture.... mrs. britling shared the paper with mr. britling, they stood by the bed of begonias near the cedar tree and read, and the air was full of the cheerful activities of the lawn-mower that was being drawn by a carefully booted horse across the hockey field. presently hugh came flitting out of the house to hear what had happened. "one can't work somehow, with all these big things going on," he apologised. he secured the _daily news_ while his father and mother read _the times_. the voices of the younger boys came from the shade of the trees; they had brought all their toy soldiers out of doors, and were making entrenched camps in the garden. "the financial situation is an extraordinary one," said mr. britling, concentrating his attention.... "all sorts of staggering things may happen. in a social and economic system that has grown just anyhow.... never been planned.... in a world full of mrs. fabers...." "moratorium?" said hugh over his _daily news_. "in relation to debts and so on? modern side you sent me to, daddy. i live at hand to mouth in etymology. mors and crematorium--do we burn our bills instead of paying them?" "moratorium," reflected mr. britling; "moratorium. what nonsense you talk! it's something that delays, of course. nothing to do with death. just a temporary stoppage of payments.... of course there's bound to be a tremendous change in values...." section "there's bound to be a tremendous change in values." on that text mr. britling's mind enlarged very rapidly. it produced a wonderful crop of possibilities before he got back to his study. he sat down to his desk, but he did not immediately take up his work. he had discovered something so revolutionary in his personal affairs that even the war issue remained for a time in suspense. tucked away in the back of mr. britling's consciousness was something that had not always been there, something warm and comforting that made life and his general thoughts about life much easier and pleasanter than they would otherwise have been, the sense of a neatly arranged investment list, a shrewdly and geographically distributed system of holdings in national loans, municipal investments, railway debentures, that had amounted altogether to rather over five-and-twenty thousand pounds; his and mrs. britling's, a joint accumulation. this was, so to speak, his economic viscera. it sustained him, and kept him going and comfortable. when all was well he did not feel its existence; he had merely a pleasant sense of general well-being. when here or there a security got a little disarranged he felt a vague discomfort. now he became aware of grave disorders. it was as if he discovered he had been accidentally eating toadstools, and didn't quite know whether they weren't a highly poisonous sort. but an analogy may be carried too far.... at any rate, when mr. britling got back to his writing-desk he was much too disturbed to resume "and now war ends." "there's bound to be a tremendous change in values!" he had never felt quite so sure as most people about the stability of the modern financial system. he did not, he felt, understand the working of this moratorium, or the peculiar advantage of prolonging the bank holidays. it meant, he supposed, a stoppage of payment all round, and a cutting off of the supply of ready money. and hickson the grocer, according to mrs. faber, was already looking askance at cheques. even if the bank did reopen mr. britling was aware that his current balance was low; at the utmost it amounted to twenty or thirty pounds. he had been expecting cheques from his english and american publishers, and the usual _times_ cheque. suppose these payments were intercepted! all these people might, so far as he could understand, stop payment under this moratorium! that hadn't at first occurred to him. but, of course, quite probably they might refuse to pay his account when it fell due. and suppose _the times_ felt his peculiar vein of thoughtfulness unnecessary in these stirring days! and then if the bank really did lock up his deposit account, and his securities became unsaleable! mr. britling felt like an oyster that is invited to leave its shell.... he sat back from his desk contemplating these things. his imagination made a weak attempt to picture a world in which credit has vanished and money is of doubtful value. he supposed a large number of people would just go on buying and selling at or near the old prices by force of habit. his mind and conscience made a valiant attempt to pick up "and now war ends" and go on with it, but before five minutes were out he was back at the thoughts of food panic and bankruptcy.... section the conflict of interests at mr. britling's desk became unendurable. he felt he must settle the personal question first. he wandered out upon the lawn and smoked cigarettes. his first conception of a great convergent movement of the nations to make a world peace and an end to militant germany was being obscured by this second, entirely incompatible, vision of a world confused and disorganised. mrs. fabers in great multitudes hoarding provisions, riotous crowds attacking shops, moratorium, shut banks and waiting queues. was it possible for the whole system to break down through a shock to its confidence? without any sense of incongruity the dignified pacification of the planet had given place in his mind to these more intimate possibilities. he heard a rustle behind him, and turned to face his wife. "do you think," she asked, "that there is any chance of a shortage of food?" "if all the mrs. fabers in the world run and grab--" "then every one must grab. i haven't much in the way of stores in the house." "h'm," said mr. britling, and reflected.... "i don't think we must buy stores now." "but if we are short." "it's the chances of war," said mr. britling. he reflected. "those who join a panic make a panic. after all, there is just as much food in the world as there was last month. and short of burning it the only way of getting rid of it is to eat it. and the harvests are good. why begin a scramble at a groaning board?" "but people _are_ scrambling! it would be awkward--with the children and everything--if we ran short." "we shan't. and anyhow, you mustn't begin hoarding, even if it means hardship." "yes. but you won't like it if suddenly there's no sugar for your tea." mr. britling ignored this personal application. "what is far more serious than a food shortage is the possibility of a money panic." he paced the lawn with her and talked. he said that even now very few people realised the flimsiness of the credit system by which the modern world was sustained. it was a huge growth of confidence, due very largely to the uninquiring indolence of--everybody. it was sound so long as mankind did, on the whole, believe in it; give only a sufficient loss of faith and it might suffer any sort of collapse. it might vanish altogether--as the credit system vanished at the breaking up of italy by the goths--and leave us nothing but tangible things, real property, possession nine points of the law, and that sort of thing. did she remember that last novel of gissing's?--"veranilda," it was called. it was a picture of the world when there was no wealth at all except what one could carry hidden or guarded about with one. that sort of thing came to the roman empire slowly, in the course of lifetimes, but nowadays we lived in a rapider world--with flimsier institutions. nobody knew the strength or the weakness of credit; nobody knew whether even the present shock might not send it smashing down.... and then all the little life we had lived so far would roll away.... mrs. britling, he noted, glanced ever and again at her sunlit house--there were new sunblinds, and she had been happy in her choice of a colour--and listened with a sceptical expression to this disquisition. "a few days ago," said mr. britling, trying to make things concrete for her, "you and i together were worth five-and-twenty thousand pounds. now we don't know what we are worth; whether we have lost a thousand or ten thousand...." he examined his sovereign purse and announced he had six pounds. "what have you?" she had about eighteen pounds in the house. "we may have to get along with that for an indefinite time." "but the bank will open again presently," she said. "and people about here trust us." "suppose they don't?" she did not trouble about the hypothesis. "and our investments will recover. they always do recover." "everything may recover," he admitted. "but also nothing may recover. all this life of ours which has seemed so settled and secure--isn't secure. i have felt that we were fixed here and rooted--for all our lives. suppose presently things sweep us out of it? it's a possibility we may have to face. i feel this morning as if two enormous gates had opened in our lives, like the gates that give upon an arena, gates giving on a darkness--through which anything might come. even death. suppose suddenly we were to see one of those great zeppelins in the air, or hear the thunder of guns away towards the coast. and if a messenger came upon a bicycle telling us to leave everything and go inland...." "i see no reason why one should go out to meet things like that." "but there is no reason why one should not envisage them...." "the curious thing," said mr. britling, pursuing his examination of the matter, "is that, looking at these things as one does now, as things quite possible, they are not nearly so terrifying and devastating to the mind as they would have seemed--last week. i believe i should load you all into gladys and start off westward with a kind of exhilaration...." she looked at him as if she would speak, and said nothing. she suspected him of hating his home and affecting to care for it out of politeness to her.... "perhaps mankind tries too much to settle down. perhaps these stirrings up have to occur to save us from our disposition to stuffy comfort. there's the magic call of the unknown experience, of dangers and hardships. one wants to go. but unless some push comes one does not go. there is a spell that keeps one to the lair and the old familiar ways. now i am afraid--and at the same time i feel that the spell is broken. the magic prison is suddenly all doors. you may call this ruin, bankruptcy, invasion, flight; they are doors out of habit and routine.... i have been doing nothing for so long, except idle things and discursive things." "i thought that you managed to be happy here. you have done a lot of work." "writing is recording, not living. but now i feel suddenly that we are living intensely. it is as if the whole quality of life was changing. there are such times. there are times when the spirit of life changes altogether. the old world knew that better than we do. it made a distinction between weekdays and sabbaths, and between feasts and fasts and days of devotion. that is just what has happened now. week-day rules must be put aside. before--oh! three days ago, competition was fair, it was fair and tolerable to get the best food one could and hold on to one's own. but that isn't right now. war makes a sabbath, and we shut the shops. the banks are shut, and the world still feels as though sunday was keeping on...." he saw his own way clear. "the scale has altered. it does not matter now in the least if we are ruined. it does not matter in the least if we have to live upon potatoes and run into debt for our rent. these now are the most incidental of things. a week ago they would have been of the first importance. here we are face to face with the greatest catastrophe and the greatest opportunity in history. we have to plunge through catastrophe to opportunity. there is nothing to be done now in the whole world except to get the best out of this tremendous fusing up of all the settled things of life." he had got what he wanted. he left her standing upon the lawn and hurried back to his desk.... section when mr. britling, after a strenuous morning among high ideals, descended for lunch, he found mr. lawrence carmine had come over to join him at that meal. mr. carmine was standing in the hall with his legs very wide apart reading _the times_ for the fourth time. "i can do no work," he said, turning round. "i can't fix my mind. i suppose we are going to war. i'd got so used to the war with germany that i never imagined it would happen. gods! what a bore it will be.... and maxse and all those scaremongers cock-a-hoop and 'i told you so.' damn these germans!" he looked despondent and worried. he followed mr. britling towards the dining-room with his hands deep in his pockets. "it's going to be a tremendous thing," he said, after he had greeted mrs. britling and hugh and aunt wilshire and teddy, and seated himself at mr. britling's hospitable board. "it's going to upset everything. we don't begin to imagine all the mischief it is going to do." mr. britling was full of the heady draught of liberal optimism he had been brewing upstairs. "i am not sorry i have lived to see this war," he said. "it may be a tremendous catastrophe in one sense, but in another it is a huge step forward in human life. it is the end of forty years of evil suspense. it is crisis and solution." "i wish i could see it like that," said mr. carmine. "it is like a thaw--everything has been in a frozen confusion since that jew-german treaty of berlin. and since ." "why not since schleswig-holstein?" said mr. carmine. "why not? or since the treaty of vienna?" "or since--one might go back." "to the roman empire," said hugh. "to the first conquest of all," said teddy.... "i couldn't work this morning," said hugh. "i have been reading in the encyclopædia about races and religions in the balkans.... it's very mixed." "so long as it could only be dealt with piecemeal," said mr. britling. "and that is just where the tremendous opportunity of this war comes in. now everything becomes fluid. we can redraw the map of the world. a week ago we were all quarrelling bitterly about things too little for human impatience. now suddenly we face an epoch. this is an epoch. the world is plastic for men to do what they will with it. this is the end and the beginning of an age. this is something far greater than the french revolution or the reformation.... and we live in it...." he paused impressively. "i wonder what will happen to albania?" said hugh, but his comment was disregarded. "war makes men bitter and narrow," said mr. carmine. "war narrowly conceived," said mr. britling. "but this is an indignant and generous war." they speculated about the possible intervention of the united states. mr. britling thought that the attack on belgium demanded the intervention of every civilised power, that all the best instincts of america would be for intervention. "the more," he said, "the quicker." "it would be strange if the last power left out to mediate were to be china," said mr. carmine. "the one people in the world who really believe in peace.... i wish i had your confidence, britling." for a time they contemplated a sort of grand inquest on germany and militarism, presided over by the wisdom of the east. militarism was, as it were, to be buried as a suicide at four cross-roads, with a stake through its body to prevent any untimely resuscitation. section mr. britling was in a phase of imaginative release. such a release was one of the first effects of the war upon many educated minds. things that had seemed solid forever were visibly in flux; things that had seemed stone were alive. every boundary, every government, was seen for the provisional thing it was. he talked of his world congress meeting year by year, until it ceased to be a speculation and became a mere intelligent anticipation; he talked of the "manifest necessity" of a supreme court for the world. he beheld that vision at the hague, but mr. carmine preferred delhi or samarkand or alexandria or nankin. "let us get away from the delusion of europe anyhow," said mr. carmine.... as mr. britling had sat at his desk that morning and surveyed the stupendous vistas of possibility that war was opening, the catastrophe had taken on a more and more beneficial quality. "i suppose that it is only through such crises as these that the world can reconstruct itself," i said. and, on the whole that afternoon he was disposed to hope that the great military machine would not smash itself too easily. "we want the nations to feel the need of one another," he said. "too brief a campaign might lead to a squabble for plunder. the englishman has to learn his dependence on the irishman, the russian has to be taught the value of education and the friendship of the pole.... europe will now have to look to asia, and recognise that indians and chinamem are also 'white.'... but these lessons require time and stresses if they are to be learnt properly...." they discussed the possible duration of the war. mr. carmine thought it would be a long struggle; mr. britling thought that the russians would be in berlin by the next may. he was afraid they might get there before the end of the year. he thought that the germans would beat out their strength upon the french and belgian lines, and never be free to turn upon the russian at all. he was sure they had underrated the strength and energy of the french and of ourselves. "the russians meanwhile," he said, "will come on, slowly, steadily, inevitably...." section that day of vast anticipations drew out into the afternoon. it was a day--obsessed. it was the precursor of a relentless series of doomed and fettered days. there was a sense of enormous occurrences going on just out of sound and sight--behind the mask of essex peacefulness. from this there was no escape. it made all other interests fitful. games of badminton were begun and abruptly truncated by the arrival of the evening papers; conversations started upon any topic whatever returned to the war by the third and fourth remark.... after lunch mr. britling and mr. carmine went on talking. nothing else was possible. they repeated things they had already said. they went into things more thoroughly. they sat still for a time, and then suddenly broke out with some new consideration.... it had been their custom to play skat with herr heinrich, who had shown them the game very explicitly and thoroughly. but there was no longer any herr heinrich--and somehow german games were already out of fashion. the two philosophers admitted that they had already considered skat to be complicated without subtlety, and that its chief delight for them had been the pink earnestness of herr heinrich, his inability to grasp their complete but tacit comprehension of its innocent strategy, and his invariable ill-success to bring off the coups that flashed before his imagination. he would survey the destructive counter-stroke with unconcealed surprise. he would verify his first impression by craning towards it and adjusting his glasses on his nose. he had a characteristic way of doing this with one stiff finger on either side of his sturdy nose. "it is very fortunate for you that you have played that card," he would say, growing pinker and pinker with hasty cerebration. "or else--yes"--a glance at his own cards--"it would have been altogether bad for you. i had taken only a very small risk.... now i must--" he would reconsider his hand. "_zo!_" he would say, dashing down a card.... well, he had gone and skat had gone. a countless multitude of such links were snapping that day between hundreds of thousands of english and german homes. section the imminence of war produced a peculiar exaltation in aunt wilshire. she developed a point of view that was entirely her own. it was mr. britling's habit, a habit he had set himself to acquire after much irritating experience, to disregard aunt wilshire. she was not, strictly speaking, his aunt; she was one of those distant cousins we find already woven into our lives when we attain to years of responsibility. she had been a presence in his father's household when mr. britling was a boy. then she had been called "jane," or "cousin jane," or "your cousin wilshire." it had been a kindly freak of mr. britling's to promote her to aunty rank. she eked out a small inheritance by staying with relatives. mr. britling's earlier memories presented her as a slender young woman of thirty, with a nose upon which small boys were forbidden to comment. yet she commented upon it herself, and called his attention to its marked resemblance to that of the great duke of wellington. "he was, i am told," said cousin wilshire to the attentive youth, "a great friend of your great-grandmother's. at any rate, they were contemporaries. since then this nose has been in the family. he would have been the last to draw a veil over it, but other times, other manners. 'publish,' he said, 'and be damned.'" she had a knack of exasperating mr. britling's father, a knack which to a less marked degree she also possessed in relation to the son. but mr. britling senior never acquired the art of disregarding her. her method--if one may call the natural expression of a personality a method--was an invincibly superior knowledge, a firm and ill-concealed belief that all statements made in her hearing were wrong and most of them absurd, and a manner calm, assured, restrained. she may have been born with it; it is on record that at the age of ten she was pronounced a singularly trying child. she may have been born with the air of thinking the doctor a muff and knowing how to manage all this business better. mr. britling had known her only in her ripeness. as a boy, he had enjoyed her confidences--about other people and the general neglect of her advice. he grew up rather to like her--most people rather liked her--and to attach a certain importance to her unattainable approval. she was sometimes kind, she was frequently absurd.... with very little children she was quite wise and jolly.... so she circulated about a number of houses which at any rate always welcomed her coming. in the opening days of each visit she performed marvels of tact, and set a watch upon her lips. then the demons of controversy and dignity would get the better of her. she would begin to correct, quietly but firmly, she would begin to disapprove of the tone and quality of her treatment. it was quite common for her visit to terminate in speechless rage both on the side of host and of visitor. the remarkable thing was that this speechless rage never endured. though she could exasperate she could never offend. always after an interval during which she was never mentioned, people began to wonder how cousin jane was getting on.... a tentative correspondence would begin, leading slowly up to a fresh invitation. she spent more time in mr. britling's house than in any other. there was a legend that she had "drawn out" his mind, and that she had "stood up" for him against his father. she had certainly contradicted quite a number of those unfavourable comments that fathers are wont to make about their sons. though certainly she contradicted everything. and mr. britling hated to think of her knocking about alone in boarding-houses and hydropathic establishments with only the most casual chances for contradiction. moreover, he liked to see her casting her eye over the morning paper. she did it with a manner as though she thought the terrestrial globe a great fool, and quite beyond the reach of advice. and as though she understood and was rather amused at the way in which the newspaper people tried to keep back the real facts of the case from her. and now she was scornfully entertained at the behaviour of everybody in the war crisis. she confided various secrets of state to the elder of the younger britlings--preferably when his father was within earshot. "none of these things they are saying about the war," she said, "really matter in the slightest degree. it is all about a spoilt carpet and nothing else in the world--a madman and a spoilt carpet. if people had paid the slightest attention to common sense none of this war would have happened. the thing was perfectly well known. he was a delicate child, difficult to rear and given to screaming fits. consequently he was never crossed, allowed to do everything. nobody but his grandmother had the slightest influence with him. and she prevented him spoiling this carpet as completely as he wished to do. the story is perfectly well known. it was at windsor--at the age of eight. after that he had but one thought: war with england.... "everybody seemed surprised," she said suddenly at tea to mr. carmine. "i at least am not surprised. i am only surprised it did not come sooner. if any one had asked me i could have told them, three years, five years ago." the day was one of flying rumours, germany was said to have declared war on italy, and to have invaded holland as well as belgium. "they'll declare war against the moon next!" said aunt wilshire. "and send a lot of zeppelins," said the smallest boy. "herr heinrich told us they can fly thousands of miles." "he will go on declaring war until there is nothing left to declare war against. that is exactly what he has always done. once started he cannot desist. often he has had to be removed from the dinner-table for fear of injury. _now_, it is ultimatums." she was much pleased by a headline in the _daily express_ that streamed right across the page: "the mad dog of europe." nothing else, she said, had come so near her feelings about the war. "mark my words," said aunt wilshire in her most impressive tones. "he is insane. it will be proved to be so. he will end his days in an asylum--as a lunatic. i have felt it myself for years and said so in private.... knowing what i did.... to such friends as i could trust not to misunderstand me.... now at least i can speak out. "with his moustaches turned up!" exclaimed aunt wilshire after an interval of accumulation.... "they say he has completely lost the use of the joint in his left arm, he carries it stiff like a punch and judy--and he wants to conquer europe.... while his grandmother lived there was some one to keep him in order. he stood in awe of her. he hated her, but he did not dare defy her. even his uncle had some influence. now, nothing restrains him. "a double-headed mad dog," said aunt wilshire. "him and his eagles!... a man like that ought never to have been allowed to make a war.... not even a little war.... if he had been put under restraint when i said so, none of these things would have happened. but, of course i am nobody.... it was not considered worth attending to." section one remarkable aspect of the english attitude towards the war was the disposition to treat it as a monstrous joke. it is a disposition traceable in a vast proportion of the british literature of the time. in spite of violence, cruelty, injustice, and the vast destruction and still vaster dangers of the struggles, that disposition held. the english mind refused flatly to see anything magnificent or terrible in the german attack, or to regard the german emperor or the crown prince as anything more than figures of fun. from first to last their conception of the enemy was an overstrenuous, foolish man, red with effort, with protruding eyes and a forced frightfulness of demeanour. that he might be tremendously lethal did not in the least obscure the fact that he was essentially ridiculous. and if as the war went on the joke grew grimmer, still it remained a joke. the german might make a desert of the world; that could not alter the british conviction that he was making a fool of himself. and this disposition kept coming to the surface throughout the afternoon, now in a casual allusion, now in some deliberate jest. the small boys had discovered the goose step, and it filled their little souls with amazement and delight. that human beings should consent to those ridiculous paces seemed to them almost incredibly funny. they tried it themselves, and then set out upon a goose-step propaganda. letty and cissie had come up to the dower house for tea and news, and they were enrolled with teddy and hugh. the six of them, chuckling and swaying, marched, in vast scissor strides across the lawn. "left," cried hugh. "left." "toes _out_ more," said mr. lawrence carmine. "keep stiffer," said the youngest britling. "watch the zeppelins and look proud," said hugh. "with the chest out. _zo!_" mrs. britling was so much amused that she went in for her camera, and took a snapshot of the detachment. it was a very successful snapshot, and a year later mr. britling was to find a print of it among his papers, and recall the sunshine and the merriment.... section that night brought the british declaration of war against germany. to nearly every englishman that came as a matter of course, and it is one of the most wonderful facts in history that the germans were surprised by it. when mr. britling, as a sample englishman, had said that there would never be war between germany and england, he had always meant that it was inconceivable to him that germany should ever attack belgium or france. if germany had been content to fight a merely defensive war upon her western frontier and let belgium alone, there would scarcely have been such a thing as a war party in great britain. but the attack upon belgium, the westward thrust, made the whole nation flame unanimously into war. it settled a question that was in open debate up to the very outbreak of the conflict. up to the last the english had cherished the idea that in germany, just as in england, the mass of people were kindly, pacific, and detached. that had been the english mistake. germany was really and truly what germany had been professing to be for forty years, a war state. with a sigh--and a long-forgotten thrill--england roused herself to fight. even now she still roused herself sluggishly. it was going to be an immense thing, but just how immense it was going to be no one in england had yet imagined. countless men that day whom fate had marked for death and wounds stared open-mouthed at the news, and smiled with the excitement of the headlines, not dreaming that any of these things would come within three hundred miles of them. what was war to matching's easy--to all the matching's easies great and small that make up england? the last home that was ever burnt by an enemy within a hundred miles of matching's easy was burnt by the danes rather more than a thousand years ago.... and the last trace of those particular danes in england were certain horny scraps of indurated skin under the heads of the nails in the door of st. clement danes in london.... now again, england was to fight in a war which was to light fires in england and bring death to english people on english soil. there were inconceivable ideas in august, . such things must happen before they can be comprehended as possible. section this story is essentially the history of the opening and of the realisation of the great war as it happened to one small group of people in essex, and more particularly as it happened to one human brain. it came at first to all these people in a spectacular manner, as a thing happening dramatically and internationally, as a show, as something in the newspapers, something in the character of an historical epoch rather than a personal experience; only by slow degrees did it and its consequences invade the common texture of english life. if this story could be represented by sketches or pictures the central figure would be mr. britling, now sitting at his desk by day or by night and writing first at his tract "and now war ends" and then at other things, now walking about his garden or in claverings park or going to and fro in london, in his club reading the ticker or in his hall reading the newspaper, with ideas and impressions continually clustering, expanding, developing more and more abundantly in his mind, arranging themselves, reacting upon one another, building themselves into generalisations and conclusions.... all mr. britling's mental existence was soon threaded on the war. his more or less weekly _times_ leader became dissertations upon the german point of view; his reviews of books and literary supplement articles were all oriented more and more exactly to that one supreme fact.... it was rare that he really seemed to be seeing the war; few people saw it; for most of the world it came as an illimitable multitude of incoherent, loud, and confusing impressions. but all the time he was at least doing his utmost to see the war, to simplify it and extract the essence of it until it could be apprehended as something epic and explicable, as a stateable issue.... most typical picture of all would be mr. britling writing in a little circle of orange lamplight, with the blinds of his room open for the sake of the moonlight, but the window shut to keep out the moths that beat against it. outside would be the moon and the high summer sky and the old church tower dim above the black trees half a mile away, with its clock--which mr. britling heard at night but never noted by day--beating its way round the slow semicircle of the nocturnal hours. he had always hated conflict and destruction, and felt that war between civilised states was the quintessential expression of human failure, it was a stupidity that stopped progress and all the free variation of humanity, a thousand times he had declared it impossible, but even now with his country fighting he was still far from realising that this was a thing that could possibly touch him more than intellectually. he did not really believe with his eyes and finger-tips and backbone that murder, destruction, and agony on a scale monstrous beyond precedent was going on in the same world as that which slumbered outside the black ivy and silver shining window-sill that framed his peaceful view. war had not been a reality of the daily life of england for more than a thousand years. the mental habit of the nation for fifty generations was against its emotional recognition. the english were the spoilt children of peace. they had never been wholly at war for three hundred years, and for over eight hundred years they had not fought for life against a foreign power. spain and france had threatened in turn, but never even crossed the seas. it is true that england had had her civil dissensions and had made wars and conquests in every part of the globe and established an immense empire, but that last, as mr. britling had told mr. direck, was "an excursion." she had just sent out younger sons and surplus people, emigrants and expeditionary forces. her own soil had never seen any successful foreign invasion; her homeland, the bulk of her households, her general life, had gone on untouched by these things. nineteen people out of twenty, the middle class and most of the lower class, knew no more of the empire than they did of the argentine republic or the italian renaissance. it did not concern them. war that calls upon every man and threatens every life in the land, war of the whole national being, was a thing altogether outside english experience and the scope of the british imagination. it was still incredible, it was still outside the range of mr. britling's thoughts all through the tremendous onrush and check of the german attack in the west that opened the great war. through those two months he was, as it were, a more and more excited spectator at a show, a show like a baseball match, a spectator with money on the event, rather than a really participating citizen of a nation thoroughly at war.... section after the jolt of the food panic and a brief, financial scare, the vast inertia of everyday life in england asserted itself. when the public went to the banks for the new paper money, the banks tendered gold--apologetically. the supply of the new notes was very insufficient, and there was plenty of gold. after the first impression that a universal catastrophe had happened there was an effect as if nothing had happened. shops re-opened after the bank holiday, in a tentative spirit that speedily became assurance; people went about their business again, and the war, so far as the mass of british folk were concerned, was for some weeks a fever of the mind and intelligence rather than a physical and personal actuality. there was a keen demand for news, and for a time there was very little news. the press did its best to cope with this immense occasion. led by the _daily express_, all the halfpenny newspapers adopted a new and more resonant sort of headline, the streamer, a band of emphatic type that ran clean across the page and announced victories or disconcerting happenings. they did this every day, whether there was a great battle or the loss of a trawler to announce, and the public mind speedily adapted itself to the new pitch. there was no invitation from the government and no organisation for any general participation in war. people talked unrestrictedly; every one seemed to be talking; they waved flags and displayed much vague willingness to do something. any opportunity of service was taken very eagerly. lord kitchener was understood to have demanded five hundred thousand men; the war office arrangements for recruiting, arrangements conceived on a scale altogether too small, were speedily overwhelmed by a rush of willing young men. the flow had to be checked by raising the physical standard far above the national average, and recruiting died down to manageable proportions. there was a quite genuine belief that the war might easily be too exclusively considered; that for the great mass of people it was a disturbing and distracting rather than a vital interest. the phase "business as usual" ran about the world, and the papers abounded in articles in which going on as though there was no war at all was demonstrated to be the truest form of patriotism. "leave things to kitchener" was another watchword with a strong appeal to the national quality. "business as usual during alterations to the map of europe" was the advertisement of one cheerful barber, widely quoted.... hugh was at home all through august. he had thrown up his rooms in london with his artistic ambitions, and his father was making all the necessary arrangements for him to follow cardinal to cambridge. meanwhile hugh was taking up his scientific work where he had laid it down. he gave a reluctant couple of hours in the afternoon to the mysteries of little-go greek, and for the rest of his time he was either working at mathematics and mathematical physics or experimenting in a little upstairs room that had been carved out of the general space of the barn. it was only at the very end of august that it dawned upon him or mr. britling that the war might have more than a spectacular and sympathetic appeal for him. hitherto contemporary history had happened without his personal intervention. he did not see why it should not continue to happen with the same detachment. the last elections--and a general election is really the only point at which the life of the reasonable englishman becomes in any way public--had happened four years ago, when he was thirteen. section for a time it was believed in matching's easy that the german armies had been defeated and very largely destroyed at liège. it was a mistake not confined to matching's easy. the first raiding attack was certainly repulsed with heavy losses, and so were the more systematic assaults on august the sixth and seventh. after that the news from liège became uncertain, but it was believed in england that some or all of the forts were still holding out right up to the german entry into brussels. meanwhile the french were pushing into their lost provinces, occupying altkirch, mulhausen and saarburg; the russians were invading bukovina and east prussia; the _goeben_, the _breslau_ and the _panther_ had been sunk by the newspapers in an imaginary battle in the mediterranean, and togoland was captured by the french and british. neither the force nor the magnitude of the german attack through belgium was appreciated by the general mind, and it was possible for mr. britling to reiterate his fear that the war would be over too soon, long before the full measure of its possible benefits could be secured. but these apprehensions were unfounded; the lessons the war had in store for mr. britling were far more drastic than anything he was yet able to imagine even in his most exalted moods. he resisted the intimations of the fall of brussels and the appearance of the germans at dinant. the first real check to his excessive anticipations of victory for the allies came with the sudden reappearance of mr. direck in a state of astonishment and dismay at matching's easy. he wired from the strand office, "coming to tell you about things," and arrived on the heels of his telegram. he professed to be calling upon mr. and mrs. britling, and to a certain extent he was; but he had a quick eye for the door or windows; his glance roved irrelevantly as he talked. a faint expectation of cissie came in with him and hovered about him, as the scent of violets follows the flower. he was, however, able to say quite a number of things before mr. britling's natural tendency to do the telling asserted itself. "my word," said mr. direck, "but this is _some_ war. it is going on regardless of every decent consideration. as an american citizen i naturally expected to be treated with some respect, war or no war. that expectation has not been realised.... europe is dislocated.... you have no idea here yet how completely europe is dislocated.... "i came to europe in a perfectly friendly spirit--and i must say i am surprised. practically i have been thrown out, neck and crop. all my luggage is lost. away at some one-horse junction near the dutch frontier that i can't even learn the name of. there's joy in some german home, i guess, over my shirts; they were real good shirts. this tweed suit i have is all the wardrobe i've got in the world. all my money--good american notes--well, they laughed at them. and when i produced english gold they suspected me of being english and put me under arrest.... i can assure you that the english are most unpopular in germany at the present time, thoroughly unpopular.... considering that they are getting exactly what they were asking for, these germans are really remarkably annoyed.... well, i had to get the american consul to advance me money, and i've done more waiting about and irregular fasting and travelling on an empty stomach and viewing the world, so far as it was permitted, from railway sidings--for usually they made us pull the blinds down when anything important was on the track--than any cow that ever came to chicago.... i was handed as freight--low grade freight.... it doesn't bear recalling." mr. direck assumed as grave and gloomy an expression as the facial habits of years would permit. "i tell you i never knew there was such a thing as war until this happened to me. in america we don't know there is such a thing. it's like pestilence and famine; something in the story books. we've forgotten it for anything real. there's just a few grandfathers go around talking about it. judge holmes and sage old fellows like him. otherwise it's just a game the kids play at.... and then suddenly here's everybody running about in the streets--hating and threatening--and nice old gentlemen with white moustaches and fathers of families scheming and planning to burn houses and kill and hurt and terrify. and nice young women, too, looking for an englishman to spit at; i tell you i've been within range and very uncomfortable several times.... and what one can't believe is that they are really doing these things. there's a little village called visé near the dutch frontier; some old chap got fooling there with a fowling-piece; and they've wiped it out. shot the people by the dozen, put them out in rows three deep and shot them, and burnt the place. short of scalping, red indians couldn't have done worse. respectable german soldiers.... "no one in england really seems to have any suspicion what is going on in belgium. you hear stories--people tell them in holland. it takes your breath away. they have set out just to cow those belgians. they have started in to be deliberately frightful. you do not begin to understand.... well.... outrages. the sort of outrages americans have never heard of. that one doesn't speak of.... well.... rape.... they have been raping women for disciplinary purposes on tables in the market-place of liège. yes, sir. it's a fact. i was told it by a man who had just come out of belgium. knew the people, knew the place, knew everything. people over here do not seem to realise that those women are the same sort of women that you might find in chester or yarmouth, or in matching's easy for the matter of that. they still seem to think that continental women are a different sort of women--more amenable to that sort of treatment. they seem to think there is some special providential law against such things happening to english people. and it's within two hundred miles of you--even now. and as far as i can see there's precious little to prevent it coming nearer...." mr. britling thought there were a few little obstacles. "i've seen the new british army drilling in london, mr. britling. i don't know if you have. i saw a whole battalion. and they hadn't got half-a-dozen uniforms, and not a single rifle to the whole battalion. "you don't begin to realise in england what you are up against. you have no idea what it means to be in a country where everybody, the women, the elderly people, the steady middle-aged men, are taking war as seriously as business. they haven't the slightest compunction. i don't know what germany was like before the war, i had hardly gotten out of my train before the war began; but germany to-day is one big armed camp. it's all crawling with soldiers. and every soldier has his uniform and his boots and his arms and his kit. "and they're as sure of winning as if they had got london now. they mean to get london. they're cocksure they are going to walk through belgium, cocksure they will get to paris by sedan day, and then they are going to destroy your fleet with zeppelins and submarines and make a dash across the channel. they say it's england they are after, in this invasion of belgium. they'll just down france by the way. they say they've got guns to bombard dover from calais. they make a boast of it. they know for certain you can't arm your troops. they know you can't turn out ten thousand rifles a week. they come and talk to any one in the trains, and explain just how your defeat is going to be managed. it's just as though they were talking of rounding up cattle." mr. britling said they would soon be disillusioned. mr. direck, with the confidence of his authentic observations, remarked after a perceptible interval, "i wonder how." he reverted to the fact that had most struck upon his imagination. "grown-up people, ordinary intelligent experienced people, taking war seriously, talking of punishing england; it's a revelation. a sort of solemn enthusiasm. high and low.... "and the trainloads of men and the trainloads of guns...." "liège," said mr. britling. "liège was just a scratch on the paint," said mr. direck. "a few thousand dead, a few score thousand dead, doesn't matter--not a red cent to them. there's a man arrived at the cecil who saw them marching into brussels. he sat at table with me at lunch yesterday. all day it went on, a vast unending river of men in grey. endless waggons, endless guns, the whole manhood of a nation and all its stuff, marching.... "i thought war," said mr. direck, "was a thing when most people stood about and did the shouting, and a sort of special team did the fighting. well, germany isn't fighting like that.... i confess it, i'm scared.... it's the very biggest thing on record; it's the very limit in wars.... i dreamt last night of a grey flood washing everything in front of it. you and me--and miss corner--curious thing, isn't it? that she came into it--were scrambling up a hill higher and higher, with that flood pouring after us. sort of splashing into a foam of faces and helmets and bayonets--and clutching hands--and red stuff.... well, mr. britling, i admit i'm a little bit overwrought about it, but i can assure you you don't begin to realise in england what it is you've butted against...." section cissie did not come up to the dower house that afternoon, and so mr. direck, after some vague and transparent excuses, made his way to the cottage. here his report become even more impressive. teddy sat on the writing desk beside the typewriter and swung his legs slowly. letty brooded in the armchair. cissie presided over certain limited crawling operations of the young heir. "they could have the equal of the whole british army killed three times over and scarcely know it had happened. they're _all_ in it. it's a whole country in arms." teddy nodded thoughtfully. "there's our fleet," said letty. "well, _that_ won't save paris, will it?" mr. direck didn't, he declared, want to make disagreeable talk, but this was a thing people in england had to face. he felt like one of them himself--"naturally." he'd sort of hurried home to them--it was just like hurrying home--to tell them of the tremendous thing that was going to hit them. he felt like a man in front of a flood, a great grey flood. he couldn't hide what he had been thinking. "where's our army?" asked letty suddenly. "lost somewhere in france," said teddy. "like a needle in a bottle of hay." "what i keep on worrying at is this," mr. direck resumed. "suppose they did come, suppose somehow they scrambled over, sixty or seventy thousand men perhaps." "every man would turn out and take a shot at them," said letty. "but there's no rifles!" "there's shot guns." "that's exactly what i'm afraid of," said mr. direck. "they'd massacre.... "you may be the bravest people on earth," said mr. direck, "but if you haven't got arms and the other chaps have--you're just as if you were sheep." he became gloomily pensive. he roused himself to describe his experiences at some length, and the extraordinary disturbance of his mind. he related more particularly his attempts to see the sights of cologne during the stir of mobilisation. after a time his narrative flow lost force, and there was a general feeling that he ought to be left alone with cissie. teddy had a letter that must be posted; letty took the infant to crawl on the mossy stones under the pear tree. mr. direck leant against the window-sill and became silent for some moments after the door had closed on letty. "as for you, cissie," he began at last, "i'm anxious. i'm real anxious. i wish you'd let me throw the mantle of old glory over you." he looked at her earnestly. "old glory?" asked cissie. "well--the stars and stripes. i want you to be able to claim american citizenship--in certain eventualities. it wouldn't be so very difficult. all the world over, cissie, americans are respected.... nobody dares touch an american citizen. we are--an inviolate people." he paused. "but how?" asked cissie. "it would be perfectly easy--perfectly." "how?" "just marry an american citizen," said mr. direck, with his face beaming with ingenuous self-approval. "then you'd be safe, and i'd not have to worry." "because we're in for a stiff war!" cried cissie, and direck perceived he had blundered. "because we may be invaded!" she said, and mr. direck's sense of error deepened. "i vow--" she began. "no!" cried mr. direck, and held out a hand. there was a moment of crisis. "never will i desert my country--while she is at war," said cissie, reducing her first fierce intention, and adding as though she regretted her concession, "anyhow." "then it's up to me to end the war, cissie," said mr. direck, trying to get her back to a less spirited attitude. but cissie wasn't to be got back so easily. the war was already beckoning to them in the cottage, and drawing them down from the auditorium into the arena. "this is the rightest war in history," she said. "if i was an american i should be sorry to be one now and to have to stand out of it. i wish i was a man now so that i could do something for all the decency and civilisation the germans have outraged. i can't understand how any man can be content to keep out of this, and watch belgium being destroyed. it is like looking on at a murder. it is like watching a dog killing a kitten...." mr. direck's expression was that of a man who is suddenly shown strange lights upon the world. section mr. britling found mr. direck's talk very indigestible. he was parting very reluctantly from his dream of a disastrous collapse of german imperialism, of a tremendous, decisive demonstration of the inherent unsoundness of militarist monarchy, to be followed by a world conference of chastened but hopeful nations, and--the millennium. he tried now to think that mr. direck had observed badly and misconceived what he saw. an american, unused to any sort of military occurrences, might easily mistake tens of thousands for millions, and the excitement of a few commercial travellers for the enthusiasm of a united people. but the newspapers now, with a kindred reluctance, were beginning to qualify, bit by bit, their first representation of the german attack through belgium as a vast and already partly thwarted parade of incompetence. the germans, he gathered, were being continually beaten in belgium; but just as continually they advanced. each fresh newspaper name he looked up on the map marked an oncoming tide. alost--charleroi. farther east the french were retreating from the saales pass. surely the british, who had now been in france for a fortnight, would presently be manifest, stemming the onrush; somewhere perhaps in brabant or east flanders. it gave mr. britling an unpleasant night to hear at claverings that the french were very ill-equipped; had no good modern guns either at lille or maubeuge, were short of boots and equipment generally, and rather depressed already at the trend of things. mr. britling dismissed this as pessimistic talk, and built his hopes on the still invisible british army, hovering somewhere-- he would sit over the map of belgium, choosing where he would prefer to have the british hover.... namur fell. the place names continued to shift southward and westward. the british army or a part of it came to light abruptly at mons. it had been fighting for thirty-eight hours and defeating enormously superior forces of the enemy. that was reassuring until a day or so later "the cambray--le cateau line" made mr. britling realise that the victorious british had recoiled five and twenty miles.... and then came the sunday of _the times_ telegram, which spoke of a "retreating and a broken army." mr. britling did not see this, but mr. manning brought over the report of it in a state of profound consternation. things, he said, seemed to be about as bad as they could be. the english were retreating towards the coast and in much disorder. they were "in the air" and already separated from the trench. they had narrowly escaped "a sedan" under the fortifications of maubeuge.... mr. britling was stunned. he went to his study and stared helplessly at maps. it was as if david had flung his pebble--and missed! but in the afternoon mr. manning telephoned to comfort his friend. a reassuring despatch from general french had been published and--all was well--practically--and the british had been splendid. they had been fighting continuously for several days round and about mons; they had been attacked at odds of six to one, and they had repulsed and inflicted enormous losses on the enemy. they had established an incontestable personal superiority over the germans. the germans had been mown down in heaps; the british had charged through their cavalry like charging through paper. so at last and very gloriously for the british, british and german had met in battle. after the hard fighting of the th about landrecies, the british had been comparatively unmolested, reinforcements covering double the losses had joined them and the german advance was definitely checked ... mr. britling's mind swung back to elation. he took down the entire despatch from mr. manning's dictation, and ran out with it into the garden where mrs. britling, with an unwonted expression of anxiety, was presiding over the teas of the usual casual sunday gathering.... the despatch was read aloud twice over. after that there was hockey and high spirits, and then mr. britling went up to his study to answer a letter from mrs. harrowdean, the first letter that had come from her since their breach at the outbreak of the war, and which he was now in a better mood to answer than he had been hitherto. she had written ignoring his silence and absence, or rather treating it as if it were an incident of no particular importance. apparently she had not called upon the patient and devoted oliver as she had threatened; at any rate, there were no signs of oliver in her communication. but she reproached mr. britling for deserting her, and she clamoured for his presence and for kind and strengthening words. she was, she said, scared by this war. she was only a little thing, and it was all too dreadful, and there was not a soul in the world to hold her hand, at least no one who understood in the slightest degree how she felt. (but why was not oliver holding her hand?) she was like a child left alone in the dark. it was perfectly horrible the way that people were being kept in the dark. the stories one heard, "_often from quite trustworthy sources_," were enough to depress and terrify any one. battleship after battleship had been sunk by german torpedoes, a thing kept secret from us for no earthly reason, and prince louis of battenberg had been discovered to be a spy and had been sent to the tower. haldane too was a spy. our army in france had been "practically _sold_" by the french. almost all the french generals were in german pay. the censorship and the press were keeping all this back, but what good was it to keep it back? it was folly not to trust people! but it was all too dreadful for a poor little soul whose only desire was to live happily. why didn't he come along to her and make her feel she had protecting arms round her? she couldn't think in the daytime: she couldn't sleep at night.... then she broke away into the praises of serenity. never had she thought so much of his beautiful "silent places" as she did now. how she longed to take refuge in some such dreamland from violence and treachery and foolish rumours! she was weary of every reality. she wanted to fly away into some secret hiding-place and cultivate her simple garden there--as voltaire had done.... sometimes at night she was afraid to undress. she imagined the sound of guns, she imagined landings and frightful scouts "in masks" rushing inland on motor bicycles.... it was an ill-timed letter. the nonsense about prince louis of battenberg and lord haldane and the torpedoed battleships annoyed him extravagantly. he had just sufficient disposition to believe such tales as to find their importunity exasperating. the idea of going over to pyecrafts to spend his days in comforting a timid little dear obsessed by such fears, attracted him not at all. he had already heard enough adverse rumours at claverings to make him thoroughly uncomfortable. he had been doubting whether after all his "examination of war" was really much less of a futility than "and now war ends"; his mind was full of a sense of incomplete statements and unsubstantial arguments. he was indeed in a state of extreme intellectual worry. he was moreover extraordinarily out of love with mrs. harrowdean. never had any affection in the whole history of mr. britling's heart collapsed so swiftly and completely. he was left incredulous of ever having cared for her at all. probably he hadn't. probably the whole business had been deliberate illusion from first to last. the "dear little thing" business, he felt, was all very well as a game of petting, but times were serious now, and a woman of her intelligence should do something better than wallow in fears and elaborate a winsome feebleness. a very unnecessary and tiresome feebleness. he came almost to the pitch of writing that to her. the despatch from general french put him into a kindlier frame of mind. he wrote instead briefly but affectionately. as a gentleman should. "how could you doubt our fleet or our army?" was the gist of his letter. he ignored completely every suggestion of a visit to pyecrafts that her letter had conveyed. he pretended that it had contained nothing of the sort.... and with that she passed out of his mind again under the stress of more commanding interests.... mr. britling's mood of relief did not last through the week. the defeated germans continued to advance. through a week of deepening disillusionment the main tide of battle rolled back steadily towards paris. lille was lost without a struggle. it was lost with mysterious ease.... the next name to startle mr. britling as he sat with newspaper and atlas following these great events was compiègne. "here!" manifestly the british were still in retreat. then the germans were in possession of laon and rheims and still pressing south. maubeuge surrounded and cut off for some days, had apparently fallen.... it was on sunday, september the sixth, that the final capitulation of mr. britling's facile optimism occurred. he stood in the sunshine reading the _observer_ which the gardener's boy had just brought from the may tree. he had spread it open on a garden table under the blue cedar, and father and son were both reading it, each as much as the other would let him. there was fresh news from france, a story of further german advances, fighting at senlis--"but that is quite close to paris!"--and the appearance of german forces at nogent-sur-seine. "sur seine!" cried mr. britling. "but where can that be? south of the marne? or below paris perhaps?" it was not marked upon the _observer's_ map, and hugh ran into the house for the atlas. when he returned mr. manning was with his father, and they both looked grave. hugh opened the map of northern france. "here it is," he said. mr. britling considered the position. "manning says they are at rouen," he told hugh. "our base is to be moved round to la rochelle...." he paused before the last distasteful conclusion. "practically," he admitted, taking his dose, "they have got paris. it is almost surrounded now." he sat down to the map. mr. manning and hugh stood regarding him. he made a last effort to imagine some tremendous strategic reversal, some stone from an unexpected sling that should fell this goliath in the midst of his triumph. "russia," he said, without any genuine hope.... section and then it was that mr. britling accepted the truth. "one talks," he said, "and then weeks and months later one learns the meaning of the things one has been saying. i was saying a month ago that this is the biggest thing that has happened in history. i said that this was the supreme call upon the will and resources of england. i said there was not a life in all our empire that would not be vitally changed by this war. i said all these things; they came through my mouth; i suppose there was a sort of thought behind them.... only at this moment do i understand what it is that i said. now--let me say it over as if i had never said it before; this _is_ the biggest thing in history, that we _are_ all called upon to do our utmost to resist this tremendous attack upon the peace and freedom of the world. well, doing our utmost does not mean standing about in pleasant gardens waiting for the newspaper.... it means the abandonment of ease and security.... "how lazy we english are nowadays! how readily we grasp the comforting delusion that excuses us from exertion. for the last three weeks i have been deliberately believing that a little british army--they say it is scarcely a hundred thousand men--would somehow break this rush of millions. but it has been driven back, as any one not in love with easy dreams might have known it would be driven back--here and then here and then here. it has been fighting night and day. it has made the most splendid fight--and the most ineffectual fight.... you see the vast swing of the german flail through belgium. and meanwhile we have been standing about talking of the use we would make of our victory.... "we have been asleep," he said. "this country has been asleep.... "at the back of our minds," he went on bitterly, "i suppose we thought the french would do the heavy work on land--while we stood by at sea. so far as we thought at all. we're so temperate-minded; we're so full of qualifications and discretions.... and so leisurely.... well, france is down. we've got to fight for france now over the ruins of paris. because you and i, manning, didn't grasp the scale of it, because we indulged in generalisations when we ought to have been drilling and working. because we've been doing 'business as usual' and all the rest of that sort of thing, while western civilisation has been in its death agony. if this is to be another ' , on a larger scale and against not merely france but all europe, if prussianism is to walk rough-shod over civilisation, if france is to be crushed and belgium murdered, then life is not worth having. compared with such an issue as that no other issue, no other interest matters. yet what are we doing to decide it--you and i? how can it end in anything but a german triumph if you and i, by the million, stand by...." he paused despairfully and stared at the map. "what ought we to be doing?" asked mr. manning. "every man ought to be in training," said mr. britling. "every one ought to be participating.... in some way.... at any rate we ought not to be taking our ease at matching's easy any more...." section "it interrupts everything," said hugh suddenly. "these prussians are the biggest nuisance the world has ever seen." he considered. "it's like every one having to run out because the house catches fire. but of course we have to beat them. it has to be done. and every one has to take a share. "then we can get on with our work again." mr. britling turned his eyes to his eldest son with a startled expression. he had been speaking--generally. for the moment he had forgotten hugh. chapter the second taking part section there were now two chief things in the mind of mr. britling. one was a large and valiant thing, a thing of heroic and processional quality, the idea of taking up one's share in the great conflict, of leaving the dower house and its circle of habits and activities and going out--. from that point he wasn't quite sure where he was to go, nor exactly what he meant to do. his imagination inclined to the figure of a volunteer in an improvised uniform inflicting great damage upon a raiding invader from behind a hedge. the uniform, one presumes, would have been something in the vein of the costume in which he met mr. direck. with a "brassard." or he thought of himself as working at a telephone or in an office engaged upon any useful quasi-administrative work that called for intelligence rather than training. still, of course, with a "brassard." a month ago he would have had doubts about the meaning of "brassard"; now it seemed to be the very keyword for national organisation. he had started for london by the early train on monday morning with the intention of immediate enrolment in any such service that offered; of getting, in fact, into his brassard at once. the morning papers he bought at the station dashed his conviction of the inevitable fall of paris into hopeful doubts, but did not shake his resolution. the effect of rout and pursuit and retreat and retreat and retreat had disappeared from the news. the german right was being counter-attacked, and seemed in danger of getting pinched between paris and verdun with the british on its flank. this relieved his mind, but it did nothing to modify his new realisation of the tremendous gravity of the war. even if the enemy were held and repulsed a little there was still work for every man in the task of forcing them back upon their own country. this war was an immense thing, it would touch everybody.... that meant that every man must give himself. that he had to give himself. he must let nothing stand between him and that clear understanding. it was utterly shameful now to hold back and not to do one's utmost for civilisation, for england, for all the ease and safety one had been given--against these drilled, commanded, obsessed millions. mr. britling was a flame of exalted voluntaryism, of patriotic devotion, that day. but behind all this bravery was the other thing, the second thing in the mind of mr. britling, a fear. he was prepared now to spread himself like some valiant turkey-gobbler, every feather at its utmost, against the aggressor. he was prepared to go out and flourish bayonets, march and dig to the limit of his power, shoot, die in a ditch if needful, rather than permit german militarism to dominate the world. he had no fear for himself. he was prepared to perish upon the battlefield or cut a valiant figure in the military hospital. but what he perceived very clearly and did his utmost not to perceive was this qualifying and discouraging fact, that the war monster was not nearly so disposed to meet him as he was to meet the war, and that its eyes were fixed on something beside and behind him, that it was already only too evidently stretching out a long and shadowy arm past him towards teddy--and towards hugh.... the young are the food of war.... teddy wasn't mr. britling's business anyhow. teddy must do as he thought proper. mr. britling would not even advise upon that. and as for hugh-- mr. britling did his best to brazen it out. "my eldest boy is barely seventeen," he said. "he's keen to go, and i'd be sorry if he wasn't. he'll get into some cadet corps of course--he's already done something of that kind at school. or they'll take him into the territorials. but before he's nineteen everything will be over, one way or another. i'm afraid, poor chap, he'll feel sold...." and having thrust hugh safely into the background of his mind as--juvenile, doing a juvenile share, no sort of man yet--mr. britling could give a free rein to his generous imaginations of a national uprising. from the idea of a universal participation in the struggle he passed by an easy transition to an anticipation of all britain armed and gravely embattled. across gulfs of obstinate reality. he himself was prepared to say, and accordingly he felt that the great mass of the british must be prepared to say to the government: "here we are at your disposal. this is not a diplomatists' war nor a war office war; this is a war of the whole people. we are all willing and ready to lay aside our usual occupations and offer our property and ourselves. whim and individual action are for peace times. take us and use us as you think fit. take all we possess." when he thought of the government in this way, he forgot the governing class he knew. the slack-trousered raeburn, the prim, attentive philbert, lady frensham at the top of her voice, stern, preposterous carson, boozy bandershoot and artful taper, wily asquith, the eloquent yet unsubstantial george, and the immobile grey, vanished out of his mind; all those representative exponents of the way things are done in great britain faded in the glow of his imaginative effort; he forgot the dreary debates, the floundering newspapers, the "bluffs," the intrigues, the sly bargains of the week-end party, the "schoolboy honour" of grown men, the universal weak dishonesty in thinking; he thought simply of a simplified and ideal government that governed. he thought vaguely of something behind and beyond them, england, the ruling genius of the land; something with a dignified assurance and a stable will. he imagined this shadowy ruler miraculously provided with schemes and statistics against this supreme occasion which had for so many years been the most conspicuous probability before the country. his mind leaping forwards to the conception of a great nation reluctantly turning its vast resources to the prosecution of a righteous defensive war, filled in the obvious corollaries of plan and calculation. he thought that somewhere "up there" there must be people who could count and who had counted everything that we might need for such a struggle, and organisers who had schemed and estimated down to practicable and manageable details.... such lapses from knowledge to faith are perhaps necessary that human heroism may be possible.... his conception of his own share in the great national uprising was a very modest one. he was a writer, a footnote to reality; he had no trick of command over men, his rôle was observation rather than organisation, and he saw himself only as an insignificant individual dropping from his individuality into his place in a great machine, taking a rifle in a trench, guarding a bridge, filling a cartridge--just with a brassard or something like that on--until the great task was done. sunday night was full of imaginations of order, of the countryside standing up to its task, of roads cleared and resources marshalled, of the petty interests of the private life altogether set aside. and mingling with that it was still possible for mr. britling, he was still young enough, to produce such dreams of personal service, of sudden emergencies swiftly and bravely met, of conspicuous daring and exceptional rewards, such dreams as hover in the brains of every imaginative recruit.... the detailed story of mr. britling's two days' search for some easy and convenient ladder into the service of his threatened country would be a voluminous one. it would begin with the figure of a neatly brushed patriot, with an intent expression upon his intelligent face, seated in the londonward train, reading the war news--the first comforting war news for many days--and trying not to look as though his life was torn up by the roots and all his being aflame with devotion; and it would conclude after forty-eight hours of fuss, inquiry, talk, waiting, telephoning, with the same gentleman, a little fagged and with a kind of weary apathy in his eyes, returning by the short cut from the station across claverings park to resume his connection with his abandoned roots. the essential process of the interval had been the correction of mr. britling's temporary delusion that the government of the british empire is either intelligent, instructed, or wise. the great "business as usual" phase was already passing away, and london was in the full tide of recruiting enthusiasm. that tide was breaking against the most miserable arrangements for enlistment it is possible to imagine. overtaxed and not very competent officers, whose one idea of being very efficient was to refuse civilian help and be very, very slow and circumspect and very dignified and overbearing, sat in dirty little rooms and snarled at this unheard-of england that pressed at door and window for enrolment. outside every recruiting office crowds of men and youths waited, leaning against walls, sitting upon the pavements, waited for long hours, waiting to the end of the day and returning next morning, without shelter, without food, many sick with hunger; men who had hurried up from the country, men who had thrown up jobs of every kind, clerks, shopmen, anxious only to serve england and "teach those damned germans a lesson." between them and this object they had discovered a perplexing barrier; an inattention. as mr. britling made his way by st. martin's church and across trafalgar square and marked the weary accumulation of this magnificently patriotic stuff, he had his first inkling of the imaginative insufficiency of the war office that had been so suddenly called upon to organise victory. he was to be more fully informed when he reached his club. his impression of the streets through which he passed was an impression of great unrest. there were noticeably fewer omnibuses and less road traffic generally, but there was a quite unusual number of drifting pedestrians. the current on the pavements was irritatingly sluggish. there were more people standing about, and fewer going upon their business. this was particularly the case with the women he saw. many of them seemed to have drifted in from the suburbs and outskirts of london in a state of vague expectation, unable to stay in their homes. everywhere there were the flags of the allies; in shop windows, over doors, on the bonnets of automobiles, on people's breasts, and there was a great quantity of recruiting posters on the hoardings and in windows: "your king and country need you" was the chief text, and they still called for "a hundred thousand men" although the demand of lord kitchener had risen to half a million. there were also placards calling for men on nearly all the taxicabs. the big windows of the offices of the norddeutscher lloyd in cockspur street were boarded up, and plastered thickly with recruiting appeals. at his club mr. britling found much talk and belligerent stir. in the hall wilkins the author was displaying a dummy rifle of bent iron rod to several interested members. it was to be used for drilling until rifles could be got, and it could be made for eighteen pence. this was the first intimation mr. britling got that the want of foresight of the war office only began with its unpreparedness for recruits. men were talking very freely in the club; one of the temporary effects of the war in its earlier stages was to produce a partial thaw in the constitutional british shyness; and men who had glowered at mr. britling over their lunches and had been glowered at by mr. britling in silence for years now started conversations with him. "what is a man of my sort to do?" asked a clean-shaven barrister. "exactly what i have been asking," said mr. britling. "they are fixing the upward age for recruits at thirty; it's absurdly low. a man well over forty like myself is quite fit to line a trench or guard a bridge. i'm not so bad a shot...." "we've been discussing home defence volunteers," said the barrister. "anyhow we ought to be drilling. but the war office sets its face as sternly against our doing anything of the sort as though we were going to join the germans. it's absurd. even if we older men aren't fit to go abroad, we could at least release troops who could." "if you had the rifles," said a sharp-featured man in grey to the right of mr. britling. "i suppose they are to be got," said mr. britling. the sharp-featured man indicated by appropriate facial action and head-shaking that this was by no means the case. "every dead man, many wounded men, most prisoners," he said, "mean each one a rifle lost. we have lost five-and-twenty thousand rifles alone since the war began. quite apart from arming new troops we have to replace those rifles with the drafts we send out. do you know what is the maximum weekly output of rifles at the present time in this country?" mr. britling did not know. "nine thousand." mr. britling suddenly understood the significance of wilkins and his dummy gun. the sharp-featured man added with an air of concluding the matter: "it's the barrels are the trouble. complicated machinery. we haven't got it and we can't make it in a hurry. and there you are!" the sharp-featured man had a way of speaking almost as if he was throwing bombs. he threw one now. "zinc," he said. "we're not short of zinc?" said the lawyer. the sharp-featured man nodded, and then became explicit. zinc was necessary for cartridges; it had to be refined zinc and very pure, or the shooting went wrong. well, we had let the refining business drift away from england to belgium and germany. there were just one or two british firms still left.... unless we bucked up tremendously we should get caught short of cartridges.... at any rate of cartridges so made as to ensure good shooting. "and there you are!" said the sharp-featured man. but the sharp-featured man did not at that time represent any considerable section of public thought. "i suppose after all we can get rifles from america," said the lawyer. "and as for zinc, if the shortage is known the shortage will be provided for...." the prevailing topic in the smoking-room upstairs was the inability of the war office to deal with the flood of recruits that was pouring in, and its hostility to any such volunteering as mr. britling had in mind. quite a number of members wanted to volunteer; there was much talk of their fitness; "i'm fifty-four," said one, "and i could do my twenty-five miles in marching kit far better than half those boys of nineteen." another was thirty-eight. "i must hold the business together," he said; "but why anyhow shouldn't i learn to shoot and use a bayonet?" the personal pique of the rejected lent force to their criticisms of the recruiting and general organisation. "the war office has one incurable system," said a big mine-owner. "during peace time it runs all its home administration with men who will certainly be wanted at the front directly there is a war. directly war comes, therefore, there is a shift all round, and a new untried man--usually a dug-out in an advanced state of decay--is stuck into the job. chaos follows automatically. the war office always has done this, and so far as one can see it always will. it seems incapable of realising that another man will be wanted until the first is taken away. its imagination doesn't even run to that." mr. britling found a kindred spirit in wilkins. wilkins was expounding his tremendous scheme for universal volunteering. everybody was to be accepted. everybody was to be assigned and registered and--_badged_. "a brassard," said mr. britling. "it doesn't matter whether we really produce a fighting force or not," said wilkins. "everybody now is enthusiastic--and serious. everybody is willing to put on some kind of uniform and submit to some sort of orders. and the thing to do is to catch them in the willing stage. now is the time to get the country lined up and organised, ready to meet the internal stresses that are bound to come later. but there's no disposition whatever to welcome this universal offering. it's just as though this war was a treat to which only the very select friends of the war office were to be admitted. and i don't admit that the national volunteers would be ineffective--even from a military point of view. there are plenty of fit men of our age, and men of proper age who are better employed at home--armament workers for example, and there are all the boys under the age. they may not be under the age before things are over...." he was even prepared to plan uniforms. "a brassard," repeated mr. britling, "and perhaps coloured strips on the revers of a coat." "colours for the counties," said wilkins, "and if there isn't coloured cloth to be got there's--red flannel. anything is better than leaving the mass of people to mob about...." a momentary vision danced before mr. britling's eyes of red flannel petticoats being torn up in a rapid improvisation of soldiers to resist a sudden invasion. passing washerwomen suddenly requisitioned. but one must not let oneself be laughed out of good intentions because of ridiculous accessories. the idea at any rate was the sound one.... the vision of what ought to be done shone brightly while mr. britling and mr. wilkins maintained it. but presently under discouraging reminders that there were no rifles, no instructors, and, above all, the open hostility of the established authorities, it faded again.... afterwards in other conversations mr. britling reverted to more modest ambitions. "is there no clerical work, no minor administrative work, a man might be used for?" he asked. "any old dug-out," said the man with the thin face, "any old doddering colonel newcome, is preferred to you in that matter...." mr. britling emerged from his club about half-past three with his mind rather dishevelled and with his private determination to do something promptly for his country's needs blunted by a perplexing "how?" his search for doors and ways where no doors and ways existed went on with a gathering sense of futility. he had a ridiculous sense of pique at being left out, like a child shut out from a room in which a vitally interesting game is being played. "after all, it is _our_ war," he said. he caught the phrase as it dropped from his lips with a feeling that it said more than he intended. he turned it over and examined it, and the more he did so the more he was convinced of its truth and soundness.... section by night there was a new strangeness about london. the authorities were trying to suppress the more brilliant illumination of the chief thoroughfares, on account of the possibility of an air raid. shopkeepers were being compelled to pull down their blinds, and many of the big standard lights were unlit. mr. britling thought these precautions were very fussy and unnecessary, and likely to lead to accidents amidst the traffic. but it gave a rembrandtesque quality to the london scene, turned it into mysterious arrangements of brown shadows and cones and bars of light. at first many people were recalcitrant, and here and there a restaurant or a draper's window still blazed out and broke the gloom. there were also a number of insubordinate automobiles with big head-lights. but the police were being unusually firm.... "it will all glitter again in a little time," he told himself. he heard an old lady who was projecting from an offending automobile at piccadilly circus in hot dispute with a police officer. "zeppelins indeed!" she said. "what nonsense! as if they would _dare_ to come here! who would _let_ them, i should like to know?" probably a friend of lady frensham's, he thought. still--the idea of zeppelins over london did seem rather ridiculous to mr. britling. he would not have liked to have been caught talking of it himself.... there never had been zeppelins over london. they were gas bags.... section on wednesday morning mr. britling returned to the dower house, and he was still a civilian unassigned. in the hall he found a tall figure in khaki standing and reading _the times_ that usually lay upon the hall table. the figure turned at mr. britling's entry, and revealed the aquiline features of mr. lawrence carmine. it was as if his friend had stolen a march on him. but carmine's face showed nothing of the excitement and patriotic satisfaction that would have seemed natural to mr. britling. he was white and jaded, as if he had not slept for many nights. "you see," he explained almost apologetically of the three stars upon his sleeve, "i used to be a captain of volunteers." he had been put in charge of a volunteer force which had been re-embodied and entrusted with the care of the bridges, gasworks, factories and railway tunnels, and with a number of other minor but necessary duties round about easinghampton. "i've just got to shut up my house," said captain carmine, "and go into lodgings. i confess i hate it.... but anyhow it can't last six months.... but it's beastly.... ugh!..." he seemed disposed to expand that "ugh," and then thought better of it. and presently mr. britling took control of the conversation. his two days in london had filled him with matter, and he was glad to have something more than hugh and teddy and mrs. britling to talk it upon. what was happening now in great britain, he declared, was _adjustment_. it was an attempt on the part of a great unorganised nation, an attempt, instinctive at present rather than intelligent, to readjust its government and particularly its military organisation to the new scale of warfare that germany had imposed upon the world. for two strenuous decades the british navy had been growing enormously under the pressure of german naval preparations, but the british military establishment had experienced no corresponding expansion. it was true there had been a futile, rather foolishly conducted agitation for universal military service, but there had been no accumulation of material, no preparation of armament-making machinery, no planning and no foundations for any sort of organisation that would have facilitated the rapid expansion of the fighting forces of a country in a time of crisis. such an idea was absolutely antagonistic to the mental habits of the british military caste. the german method of incorporating all the strength and resources of the country into one national fighting machine was quite strange to the british military mind--still. even after a month of war. war had become the comprehensive business of the german nation; to the british it was an incidental adventure. in germany the nation was militarised, in england the army was specialised. the nation for nearly every practical purpose got along without it. just as political life had also become specialised.... now suddenly we wanted a government to speak for every one, and an army of the whole people. how were we to find it? mr. britling dwelt upon this idea of the specialised character of the british army and navy and government. it seemed to him to be the clue to everything that was jarring in the london spectacle. the army had been a thing aloof, for a special end. it had developed all the characteristics of a caste. it had very high standards along the lines of its specialisation, but it was inadaptable and conservative. its exclusiveness was not so much a deliberate culture as a consequence of its detached function. it touched the ordinary social body chiefly through three other specialised bodies, the court, the church, and the stage. apart from that it saw the great unofficial civilian world as something vague, something unsympathetic, something possibly antagonistic, which it comforted itself by snubbing when it dared and tricking when it could, something that projected members of parliament towards it and was stingy about money. directly one grasped how apart the army lived from the ordinary life of the community, from industrialism or from economic necessities, directly one understood that the great mass of englishmen were simply "outsiders" to the war office mind, just as they were "outsiders" to the political clique, one began to realise the complete unfitness of either government or war office for the conduct of so great a national effort as was now needed. these people "up there" did not know anything of the broad mass of english life at all, they did not know how or where things were made; when they wanted things they just went to a shop somewhere and got them. this was the necessary psychology of a small army under a clique government. nothing else was to be expected. but now--somehow--the nation had to take hold of the government that it had neglected so long.... "you see," said mr. britling, repeating a phrase that was becoming more and more essential to his thoughts, "this is _our_ war.... "of course," said mr. britling, "these things are not going to be done without a conflict. we aren't going to take hold of our country which we have neglected so long without a lot of internal friction. but in england we can make these readjustments without revolution. it is our strength.... "at present england is confused--but it's a healthy confusion. it's astir. we have more things to defeat than just germany.... "these hosts of recruits--weary, uncared for, besieging the recruiting stations. it's symbolical.... our tremendous reserves of will and manhood. our almost incredible insufficiency of direction.... "those people up there have no idea of the will that surges up in england. they are timid little manoeuvring people, afraid of property, afraid of newspapers, afraid of trade-unions. they aren't leading us against the germans; they are just being shoved against the germans by necessity...." from this mr. britling broke away into a fresh addition to his already large collection of contrasts between england and germany. germany was a nation which has been swallowed up and incorporated by an army and an administration; the prussian military system had assimilated to itself the whole german life. it was a state in a state of repletion, a state that had swallowed all its people. britain was not a state. it was an unincorporated people. the british army, the british war office, and the british administration had assimilated nothing; they were little old partial things; the british nation lay outside them, beyond their understanding and tradition; a formless new thing, but a great thing; and now this british nation, this real nation, the "outsiders," had to take up arms. suddenly all the underlying ideas of that outer, greater english life beyond politics, beyond the services, were challenged, its tolerant good humour, its freedom, and its irresponsibility. it was not simply english life that was threatened; it was all the latitudes of democracy, it was every liberal idea and every liberty. it was civilisation in danger. the uncharted liberal system had been taken by the throat; it had to "make good" or perish.... "i went up to london expecting to be told what to do. there is no one to tell any one what to do.... much less is there any one to compel us what to do.... "there's a war office like a college during a riot, with its doors and windows barred; there's a government like a cockle boat in an atlantic gale.... "one feels the thing ought to have come upon us like the sound of a trumpet. instead, until now, it has been like a great noise, that we just listened to, in the next house.... and now slowly the nation awakes. london is just like a dazed sleeper waking up out of a deep sleep to fire and danger, tumult and cries for help, near at hand. the streets give you exactly that effect. people are looking about and listening. one feels that at any moment, in a pause, in a silence, there may come, from far away, over the houses, faint and little, the boom of guns or the small outcries of little french or belgian villages in agony...." such was the gist of mr. britling's discourse. he did most of the table talk, and all that mattered. teddy was an assenting voice, hugh was silent and apparently a little inattentive, mrs. britling was thinking of the courses and the servants and the boys, and giving her husband only half an ear, captain carmine said little and seemed to be troubled by some disagreeable preoccupation. now and then he would endorse or supplement the things mr. britling was saying. thrice he remarked: "people still do not begin to understand."... section it was only when they sat together in the barn court out of the way of mrs. britling and the children that captain carmine was able to explain his listless bearing and jaded appearance. he was suffering from a bad nervous shock. he had hardly taken over his command before one of his men had been killed--and killed in a manner that had left a scar upon his mind. the man had been guarding a tunnel, and he had been knocked down by one train when crossing the line behind another. so it was that the bomb of sarajevo killed its first victim in essex. captain carmine had found the body. he had found the body in a cloudy moonlight; he had almost fallen over it; and his sensations and emotions had been eminently disagreeable. he had had to drag the body--it was very dreadfully mangled--off the permanent way, the damaged, almost severed head had twisted about very horribly in the uncertain light, and afterwards he had found his sleeves saturated with blood. he had not noted this at the time, and when he had discovered it he had been sick. he had thought the whole thing more horrible and hateful than any nightmare, but he had succeeded in behaving with a sufficient practicality to set an example to his men. since this had happened he had not had an hour of dreamless sleep. "one doesn't expect to be called upon like that," said captain carmine, "suddenly here in england.... when one is smoking after supper...." mr. britling listened to this experience with distressed brows. all his talking and thinking became to him like the open page of a monthly magazine. across it this bloody smear, this thing of red and black, was dragged.... section the smear was still bright red in mr. britling's thoughts when teddy came to him. "i must go," said teddy, "i can't stop here any longer." "go where?" "into khaki. i've been thinking of it ever since the war began. do you remember what you said when we were bullying off at hockey on bank holiday--the day before war was declared?" mr. britling had forgotten completely; he made an effort. "what did i say?" "you said, 'what the devil are we doing at this hockey? we ought to be drilling or shooting against those confounded germans!' ... i've never forgotten it.... i ought to have done it before. i've been a scout-master. in a little while they will want officers. in london, i'm told, there are a lot of officers' training corps putting men through the work as quickly as possible.... if i could go...." "what does letty think?" said mr. britling after a pause. this was right, of course--the only right thing--and yet he was surprised. "she says if you'd let her try to do my work for a time...." "she _wants_ you to go?" "of course she does," said teddy. "she wouldn't like me to be a shirker.... but i can't unless you help." "i'm quite ready to do that," said mr. britling. "but somehow i didn't think it of you. i hadn't somehow thought of _you_--" "what _did_ you think of me?" asked teddy. "it's bringing the war home to us.... of course you ought to go--if you want to go." he reflected. it was odd to find teddy in this mood, strung up and serious and businesslike. he felt that in the past he had done teddy injustice; this young man wasn't as trivial as he had thought him.... they fell to discussing ways and means; there might have to be a loan for teddy's outfit, if he did presently secure a commission. and there were one or two other little matters.... mr. britling dismissed a ridiculous fancy that he was paying to send teddy away to something that neither that young man nor letty understood properly.... the next day teddy vanished londonward on his bicycle. he was going to lodge in london in order to be near his training. he was zealous. never before had teddy been zealous. mrs. teddy came to the dower house for the correspondence, trying not to look self-conscious and important. two mondays later a very bright-eyed, excited little boy came running to mr. britling, who was smoking after lunch in the rose garden. "daddy!" squealed the small boy. "teddy! in khaki!" the other junior britling danced in front of the hero, who was walking beside mrs. britling and trying not to be too aggressively a soldierly figure. he looked a very man in khaki and more of a boy than ever. mrs. teddy came behind, quietly elated. mr. britling had a recurrence of that same disagreeable fancy that these young people didn't know exactly what they were going into. he wished he was in khaki himself; then he fancied this compunction wouldn't trouble him quite so much. the afternoon with them deepened his conviction that they really didn't in the slightest degree understand. life had been so good to them hitherto, that even the idea of teddy's going off to the war seemed a sort of fun to them. it was just a thing he was doing, a serious, seriously amusing, and very creditable thing. it involved his dressing up in these unusual clothes, and receiving salutes in the street.... they discussed every possible aspect of his military outlook with the zest of children, who recount the merits of a new game. they were putting teddy through his stages at a tremendous pace. in quite a little time he thought he would be given the chance of a commission. "they want subalterns badly. already they've taken nearly a third of our people," he said, and added with the wistfulness of one who glances at inaccessible delights: "one or two may get out to the front quite soon." he spoke as a young actor might speak of a star part. and with a touch of the quality of one who longs to travel in strange lands.... one must be patient. things come at last.... "if i'm killed she gets eighty pounds a year," teddy explained among many other particulars. he smiled--the smile of a confident immortal at this amusing idea. "he's my little annuity," said letty, also smiling, "dead or alive." "we'll miss teddy in all sorts of ways," said mr. britling. "it's only for the duration of the war," said teddy. "and letty's very intelligent. i've done my best to chasten the evil in her." "if you think you're going to get back your job after the war," said letty, "you're very much mistaken. i'm going to raise the standard." "_you_!" said teddy, regarding her coldly, and proceeded ostentatiously to talk of other things. section "hugh's going to be in khaki too," the elder junior told teddy. "he's too young to go out in kitchener's army, but he's joined the territorials. he went off on thursday.... i wish gilbert and me was older...." mr. britling had known his son's purpose since the evening of teddy's announcement. hugh had come to his father's study as he was sitting musing at his writing-desk over the important question whether he should continue his "examination of war" uninterruptedly, or whether he should not put that on one side for a time and set himself to state as clearly as possible the not too generally recognised misfit between the will and strength of britain on the one hand and her administrative and military organisation on the other. he felt that an enormous amount of human enthusiasm and energy was being refused and wasted; that if things went on as they were going there would continue to be a quite disastrous shortage of gear, and that some broadening change was needed immediately if the swift exemplary victory over germany that his soul demanded was to be ensured. suppose he were to write some noisy articles at once, an article, for instance, to be called "the war of the mechanics" or "the war of gear," and another on "without civil strength there is no victory." if he wrote such things would they be noted or would they just vanish indistinguishably into the general mental tumult? would they be audible and helpful shouts, or just waste of shouting?... that at least was what he supposed himself to be thinking; it was, at any rate, the main current of his thinking; but all the same, just outside the circle of his attention a number of other things were dimly apprehended, bobbing up and down in the flood and ready at the slightest chance to swirl into the centre of his thoughts. there was, for instance, captain carmine in the moonlight lugging up a railway embankment something horrible, something loose and wet and warm that had very recently been a man. there was teddy, serious and patriotic--filling a futile penman with incredulous respect. there was the thin-faced man at the club, and a curious satisfaction he had betrayed in the public disarrangement. and there was hugh. particularly there was hugh, silent but watchful. the boy never babbled. he had his mother's gift of deep dark silences. out of which she was wont to flash, a black princess waving a sword. he wandered for a little while among memories.... but hugh didn't come out like that, though it always seemed possible he might--perhaps he didn't come out because he was a son. revelation to his father wasn't his business.... what was he thinking of it all? what was he going to do? mr. britling was acutely anxious that his son should volunteer; he was almost certain that he would volunteer, but there was just a little shadow of doubt whether some extraordinary subtlety of mind mightn't have carried the boy into a pacifist attitude. no! that was impossible. in the face of belgium.... but as greatly--and far more deeply in the warm flesh of his being--did mr. britling desire that no harm, no evil should happen to hugh.... the door opened, and hugh came in.... mr. britling glanced over his shoulder with an affectation of indifference. "hal-_lo!_" he said. "what do you want?" hugh walked awkwardly to the hearthrug. "oh!" he said in an off-hand tone; "i suppose i've got to go soldiering for a bit. i just thought--i'd rather like to go off with a man i know to-morrow...." mr. britling's manner remained casual. "it's the only thing to do now, i'm afraid," he said. he turned in his chair and regarded his son. "what do you mean to do? o.t.c.?" "i don't think i should make much of an officer. i hate giving orders to other people. we thought we'd just go together into the essex regiment as privates...." there was a little pause. both father and son had rehearsed this scene in their minds several times, and now they found that they had no use for a number of sentences that had been most effective in these rehearsals. mr. britling scratched his cheek with the end of his pen. "i'm glad you want to go, hugh," he said. "i _don't_ want to go," said hugh with his hands deep in his pockets. "i want to go and work with cardinal. but this job has to be done by every one. haven't you been saying as much all day?... it's like turning out to chase a burglar or suppress a mad dog. it's like necessary sanitation...." "you aren't attracted by soldiering?" "not a bit. i won't pretend it, daddy. i think the whole business is a bore. germany seems to me now just like some heavy horrible dirty mass that has fallen across belgium and france. we've got to shove the stuff back again. that's all...." he volunteered some further remarks to his father's silence. "you know i can't get up a bit of tootle about this business," he said. "i think killing people or getting killed is a thoroughly nasty habit.... i expect my share will be just drilling and fatigue duties and route marches, and loafing here in england...." "you can't possibly go out for two years," said mr. britling, as if he regretted it. a slight hesitation appeared in hugh's eyes. "i suppose not," he said. "things ought to be over by then--anyhow," mr. britling added, betraying his real feelings. "so it's really just helping at the furthest end of the shove," hugh endorsed, but still with that touch of reservation in his manner.... the pause had the effect of closing the theoretical side of the question. "where do you propose to enlist?" said mr. britling, coming down to practical details. section the battle of the marne passed into the battle of the aisne, and then the long lines of the struggle streamed north-westward until the british were back in belgium failing to clutch menin and then defending ypres. the elation of september followed the bedazzlement and dismay of august into the chapter of forgotten moods; and mr. britling's sense of the magnitude, the weight and duration of this war beyond all wars, increased steadily. the feel of it was less and less a feeling of crisis and more and more a feeling of new conditions. it wasn't as it had seemed at first, the end of one human phase and the beginning of another; it was in itself a phase. it was a new way of living. and still he could find no real point of contact for himself with it all except the point of his pen. only at his writing-desk, and more particularly at night, were the great presences of the conflict his. yet he was always desiring some more personal and physical participation. hugh came along one day in october in an ill-fitting uniform, looking already coarser in fibre and with a nose scorched red by the autumnal sun. he said the life was rough, but it made him feel extraordinarily well; perhaps man was made to toil until he dropped asleep from exhaustion, to fast for ten or twelve hours and then eat like a wolf. he was acquiring a taste for woodbine cigarettes, and a heady variety of mineral waters called monsters. he feared promotion; he felt he could never take the high line with other human beings demanded of a corporal. he was still trying to read a little chemistry and crystallography, but it didn't "go with the life." in the scanty leisure of a recruit in training it was more agreeable to lie about and write doggerel verses and draw caricatures of the men in one's platoon. invited to choose what he liked by his family, he demanded a large tuckbox such as he used to have at school, only "_much_ larger," and a big tin of insect powder. it must be able to kill ticks.... when he had gone, the craving for a personal share in the nation's physical exertions became overpowering in mr. britling. he wanted, he felt, to "get his skin into it." he had decided that the volunteer movement was a hopeless one. the war office, after a stout resistance to any volunteer movement at all, decided to recognise it in such a manner as to make it ridiculous. the volunteers were to have no officers and no uniforms that could be remotely mistaken for those of the regulars, so that in the event of an invasion the germans would be able to tell what they had to deal with miles away. wilkins found his conception of a whole nation, all enrolled, all listed and badged according to capacity, his dream of every one falling into place in one great voluntary national effort, treated as the childish dreaming of that most ignorant of all human types, a "novelist." _punch_ was delicately funny about him; he was represented as wearing a preposterous cocked hat of his own design, designing cocked hats for every one. wilkins was told to "shut up" in a multitude of anonymous letters, and publicly and privately to "leave things to kitchener." to bellow in loud clear tones "leave things to kitchener," and to depart for the theatre or the river or an automobile tour, was felt very generally at that time to be the proper conduct for a patriot. there was a very general persuasion that to become a volunteer when one ought to be just modestly doing nothing at all, was in some obscure way a form of disloyalty.... so mr. britling was out of conceit with volunteering, and instead he went and was duly sworn and entrusted with the badge of a special constable. the duties of a special constable were chiefly not to understand what was going on in the military sphere, and to do what he was told in the way of watching and warding conceivably vulnerable points. he had also to be available in the event of civil disorder. mr. britling was provided with a truncheon and sent out to guard various culverts, bridges, and fords in the hilly country to the north-westward of matching's easy. it was never very clear to him what he would do if he found a motor-car full of armed enemies engaged in undermining a culvert, or treacherously deepening some strategic ford. he supposed he would either engage them in conversation, or hit them with his truncheon, or perhaps do both things simultaneously. but as he really did not believe for a moment that any human being was likely to tamper with the telegraphs, telephones, ways and appliances committed to his care, his uncertainty did not trouble him very much. he prowled the lonely lanes and paths in the darkness, and became better acquainted with a multitude of intriguing little cries and noises that came from the hedges and coverts at night. one night he rescued a young leveret from a stoat, who seemed more than half inclined to give him battle for its prey until he cowed and defeated it with the glare of his electric torch.... as he prowled the countryside under the great hemisphere of essex sky, or leant against fences or sat drowsily upon gates or sheltered from wind and rain under ricks or sheds, he had much time for meditation, and his thoughts went down and down below his first surface impressions of the war. he thought no longer of the rights and wrongs of this particular conflict but of the underlying forces in mankind that made war possible; he planned no more ingenious treaties and conventions between the nations, and instead he faced the deeper riddles of essential evil and of conceivable changes in the heart of man. and the rain assailed him and thorns tore him, and the soaked soft meadows bogged and betrayed his wandering feet, and the little underworld of the hedges and ditches hissed and squealed in the darkness and pursued and fled, and devoured or were slain. and one night in april he was perplexed by a commotion among the pheasants and a barking of distant dogs, and then to his great astonishment he heard noises like a distant firework display and saw something like a phantom yellowish fountain-pen in the sky far away to the east lit intermittently by a quivering search-light and going very swiftly. and after he had rubbed his eyes and looked again, he realised that he was looking at a zeppelin--a zeppelin flying londonward over essex. and all that night was wonder.... section while mr. britling was trying to find his duty in the routine of a special constable, mrs. britling set to work with great energy to attend various classes and qualify herself for red cross work. and early in october came the great drive of the germans towards antwerp and the sea, the great drive that was apparently designed to reach calais, and which swept before it multitudes of flemish refugees. there was an exodus of all classes from antwerp into holland and england, and then a huge process of depopulation in flanders and the pas de calais. this flood came to the eastern and southern parts of england and particularly to london, and there hastily improvised organisations distributed it to a number of local committees, each of which took a share of the refugees, hired and furnished unoccupied houses for the use of the penniless, and assisted those who had means into comfortable quarters. the matching's easy committee found itself with accommodation for sixty people, and with a miscellaneous bag of thirty individuals entrusted to its care, who had been part of the load of a little pirate steam-boat from ostend. there were two flemish peasant families, and the rest were more or less middle-class refugees from antwerp. they were brought from the station to the tithe barn at claverings, and there distributed, under the personal supervision of lady homartyn and her agent, among those who were prepared for their entertainment. there was something like competition among the would-be hosts; everybody was glad of the chance of "doing something," and anxious to show these belgians what england thought of their plucky little country. mr. britling was proud to lead off a mr. van der pant, a neat little bearded man in a black tail-coat, a black bowler hat, and a knitted muffler, with a large rucksack and a conspicuously foreign-looking bicycle, to the hospitalities of dower house. mr. van der pant had escaped from antwerp at the eleventh hour, he had caught a severe cold and, it would seem, lost his wife and family in the process; he had much to tell mr. britling, and in his zeal to tell it he did not at once discover that though mr. britling knew french quite well he did not know it very rapidly. the dinner that night at the dower house marked a distinct fresh step in the approach of the great war to the old habits and securities of matching's easy. the war had indeed filled every one's mind to the exclusion of all other topics since its very beginning; it had carried off herr heinrich to germany, teddy to london, and hugh to colchester, it had put a special brassard round mr. britling's arm and carried him out into the night, given mrs. britling several certificates, and interrupted the frequent visits and gossip of mr. lawrence carmine; but so far it had not established a direct contact between the life of matching's easy and the grim business of shot, shell, and bayonet at the front. but now here was the dower house accomplishing wonderful idioms in anglo-french, and an animated guest telling them--sometimes one understood clearly and sometimes the meaning was clouded--of men blown to pieces under his eyes, of fragments of human beings lying about in the streets; there was trouble over the expression _omoplate d'une femme_, until one of the youngsters got the dictionary and found out it was the shoulder-blade of a woman; of pools of blood--everywhere--and of flight in the darkness. mr. van der pant had been in charge of the dynamos at the antwerp power station, he had been keeping the electrified wires in the entanglements "alive," and he had stuck to his post until the german high explosives had shattered his wires and rendered his dynamos useless. he gave vivid little pictures of the noises of the bombardment, of the dead lying casually in the open spaces, of the failure of the german guns to hit the bridge of boats across which the bulk of the defenders and refugees escaped. he produced a little tourist's map of the city of antwerp, and dotted at it with a pencil-case. "the--what do you call?--_obus_, ah, shells! fell, so and so and so." across here he had fled on his _bécane_, and along here and here. he had carried off his rifle, and hid it with the rifles of various other belgians between floor and ceiling of a house in zeebrugge. he had found the pirate steamer in the harbour, its captain resolved to extract the uttermost fare out of every refugee he took to london. when they were all aboard and started they found there was no food except the hard ration biscuits of some belgian soldiers. they had portioned this out like shipwrecked people on a raft.... the _mer_ had been _calme_; thank heaven! all night they had been pumping. he had helped with the pumps. but mr. van der pant hoped still to get a reckoning with the captain of that ship. mr. van der pant had had shots at various zeppelins. when the zeppelins came to antwerp everybody turned out on the roofs and shot at them. he was contemptuous of zeppelins. he made derisive gestures to express his opinion of them. they could do nothing unless they came low, and if they came low you could hit them. one which ventured down had been riddled; it had had to drop all its bombs--luckily they fell in an open field--in order to make its lame escape. it was all nonsense to say, as the english papers did, that they took part in the final bombardment. not a zeppelin.... so he talked, and the britling family listened and understood as much as they could, and replied and questioned in anglo-french. here was a man who but a few days ago had been steering his bicycle in the streets of antwerp to avoid shell craters, pools of blood, and the torn-off arms and shoulder-blades of women. he had seen houses flaring, set afire by incendiary bombs, and once at a corner he had been knocked off his bicycle by the pouff of a bursting shell.... not only were these things in the same world with us, they were sitting at our table. he told one grim story of an invalid woman unable to move, lying in bed in her _appartement_, and of how her husband went out on the balcony to look at the zeppelin. there was a great noise of shooting. ever and again he would put his head back into the room and tell her things, and then after a time he was silent and looked in no more. she called to him, and called again. becoming frightened, she raised herself by a great effort and peered through the glass. at first she was too puzzled to understand what had happened. he was hanging over the front of the balcony, with his head twisted oddly. twisted and shattered. he had been killed by shrapnel fired from the outer fortifications.... these are the things that happen in histories and stories. they do not happen at matching's easy.... mr. van der pant did not seem to be angry with the germans. but he manifestly regarded them as people to be killed. he denounced nothing that they had done; he related. they were just an evil accident that had happened to belgium and mankind. they had to be destroyed. he gave mr. britling an extraordinary persuasion that knives were being sharpened in every cellar in brussels and antwerp against the day of inevitable retreat, of a resolution to exterminate the invader that was far too deep to be vindictive.... and the man was most amazingly unconquered. mr. britling perceived the label on his habitual dinner wine with a slight embarrassment. "do you care," he asked, "to drink a german wine? this is berncasteler from the moselle." mr. van der pant reflected. "but it is a good wine," he said. "after the peace it will be belgian.... yes, if we are to be safe in the future from such a war as this, we must have our boundaries right up to the rhine." so he sat and talked, flushed and, as it were, elated by the vividness of all that he had undergone. he had no trace of tragic quality, no hint of subjugation. but for his costume and his trimmed beard and his language he might have been a dubliner or a cockney. he was astonishingly cut off from all his belongings. his house in antwerp was abandoned to the invader; valuables and cherished objects very skilfully buried in the garden; he had no change of clothing except what the rucksack held. his only footwear were the boots he came in. he could not get on any of the slippers in the house, they were all too small for him, until suddenly mrs. britling bethought herself of herr heinrich's pair, still left unpacked upstairs. she produced them, and they fitted exactly. it seemed only poetical justice, a foretaste of national compensations, to annex them to belgium forthwith.... also it became manifest that mr. van der pant was cut off from all his family. and suddenly he became briskly critical of the english way of doing things. his wife and child had preceded him to england, crossing by ostend and folkestone a fortnight ago; her parents had come in august; both groups had been seized upon by improvised british organisations and very thoroughly and completely lost. he had written to the belgian embassy and they had referred him to a committee in london, and the committee had begun its services by discovering a madame van der pant hitherto unknown to him at camberwell, and displaying a certain suspicion and hostility when he said she would not do. there had been some futile telegrams. "what," asked mr. van der pant, "ought one to do?" mr. britling temporised by saying he would "make inquiries," and put mr. van der pant off for two days. then he decided to go up to london with him and "make inquiries on the spot." mr. van der pant did not discover his family, but mr. britling discovered the profound truth of a comment of herr heinrich's which he had hitherto considered utterly trivial, but which had nevertheless stuck in his memory. "the english," herr heinrich had said, "do not understanding indexing. it is the root of all good organisation." finally, mr. van der pant adopted the irregular course of asking every belgian he met if they had seen any one from his district in antwerp, if they had heard of the name of "van der pant," if they had encountered so-and-so or so-and-so. and by obstinacy and good fortune he really got on to the track of madame van der pant; she had been carried off into kent, and a day later the dower house was the scene of a happy reunion. madame was a slender lady, dressed well and plainly, with a belgian common sense and a catholic reserve, and andré was like a child of wax, delicate and charming and unsubstantial. it seemed incredible that he could ever grow into anything so buoyant and incessant as his father. the britling boys had to be warned not to damage him. a sitting-room was handed over to the belgians for their private use, and for a time the two families settled into the dower house side by side. anglo-french became the table language of the household. it hampered mr. britling very considerably. and both families set themselves to much unrecorded observation, much unspoken mutual criticism, and the exercise of great patience. it was tiresome for the english to be tied to a language that crippled all spontaneous talk; these linguistic gymnastics were fun to begin with, but soon they became very troublesome; and the belgians suspected sensibilities in their hosts and a vast unwritten code of etiquette that did not exist; at first they were always waiting, as it were, to be invited or told or included; they seemed always deferentially backing out from intrusions. moreover, they would not at first reveal what food they liked or what they didn't like, or whether they wanted more or less.... but these difficulties were soon smoothed away, they anglicised quickly and cleverly. andré grew bold and cheerful, and lost his first distrust of his rather older english playmates. every day at lunch he produced a new, carefully prepared piece of english, though for some time he retained a marked preference for "good morning, saire," and "thank you very mush," over all other locutions, and fell back upon them on all possible and many impossible occasions. and he could do some sleight-of-hand tricks with remarkable skill and humour, and fold paper with quite astonishing results. meanwhile mr. van der pant sought temporary employment in england, went for long rides upon his bicycle, exchanged views with mr. britling upon a variety of subjects, and became a wonderful player of hockey. he played hockey with an extraordinary zest and nimbleness. always he played in the tail coat, and the knitted muffler was never relinquished; he treated the game entirely as an occasion for quick tricks and personal agility; he bounded about the field like a kitten, he pirouetted suddenly, he leapt into the air and came down in new directions; his fresh-coloured face was alive with delight, the coat tails and the muffler trailed and swished about breathlessly behind his agility. he never passed to other players; he never realised his appointed place in the game; he sought simply to make himself a leaping screen about the ball as he drove it towards the goal. but andré he would not permit to play at all, and madame played like a lady, like a madonna, like a saint carrying the instrument of her martyrdom. the game and its enthusiasms flowed round her and receded from her; she remained quite valiant but tolerant, restrained; doing her best to do the extraordinary things required of her, but essentially a being of passive dignities, living chiefly for them; letty careering by her, keen and swift, was like a creature of a different species.... mr. britling cerebrated abundantly about these contrasts. "what has been blown in among us by these german shells," he said, "is essentially a catholic family. blown clean out of its setting.... we who are really--neo-europeans.... "at first you imagine there is nothing separating us but language. presently you find that language is the least of our separations. these people are people living upon fundamentally different ideas from ours, ideas far more definite and complete than ours. you imagine that home in antwerp as something much more rounded off, much more closed in, a cell, a real social unit, a different thing altogether from this place of meeting. our boys play cheerfully with all comers; little andré hasn't learnt to play with any outside children at all. we must seem incredibly _open_ to these van der pants. a house without sides.... last sunday i could not find out the names of the two girls who came on bicycles and played so well. they came with kitty westropp. and van der pant wanted to know how they were related to us. or how was it they came?... "look at madame. she's built on a fundamentally different plan from any of our womenkind here. tennis, the bicycle, co-education, the two-step, the higher education of women.... say these things over to yourself, and think of her. it's like talking of a nun in riding breeches. she's a specialised woman, specialising in womanhood, her sphere is the home. soft, trailing, draping skirts, slow movements, a veiled face; for no oriental veil could be more effectual than her beautiful catholic quiet. catholicism invented the invisible purdah. she is far more akin to that sweet little indian lady with the wonderful robes whom carmine brought over with her tall husband last summer, than she is to letty or cissie. she, too, undertook to play hockey. and played it very much as madame van der pant played it.... "the more i see of our hockey," said mr. britling, "the more wonderful it seems to me as a touchstone of character and culture and breeding...." mr. manning, to whom he was delivering this discourse, switched him on to a new track by asking what he meant by "neo-european." "it's a bad phrase," said mr. britling. "i'll withdraw it. let me try and state exactly what i have in mind. i mean something that is coming up in america and here and the scandinavian countries and russia, a new culture, an escape from the levantine religion and the catholic culture that came to us from the mediterranean. let me drop neo-european; let me say northern. we are northerners. the key, the heart, the nucleus and essence of every culture is its conception of the relations of men and women; and this new culture tends to diminish the specialisation of women as women, to let them out from the cell of the home into common citizenship with men. it's a new culture, still in process of development, which will make men more social and co-operative and women bolder, swifter, more responsible and less cloistered. it minimises instead of exaggerating the importance of sex.... "and," said mr. britling, in very much the tones in which a preacher might say "sixthly," "it is just all this northern tendency that this world struggle is going to release. this war is pounding through europe, smashing up homes, dispersing and mixing homes, setting madame van der pant playing hockey, and andré climbing trees with my young ruffians; it is killing young men by the million, altering the proportions of the sexes for a generation, bringing women into business and office and industry, destroying the accumulated wealth that kept so many of them in refined idleness, flooding the world with strange doubts and novel ideas...." section but the conflict of manners and customs that followed the invasion of the english villages by french and belgian refugees did not always present the immigrants as catholics and the hosts as "neo-european." in the case of mr. dimple it was the other way round. he met mr. britling in claverings park and told him his troubles.... "of course," he said, "we have to do our utmost for brave little belgium. i would be the last to complain of any little inconvenience one may experience in doing that. still, i must confess i think you and dear mrs. britling are fortunate, exceptionally fortunate, in the belgians you have got. my guests--it's unfortunate--the man is some sort of journalist and quite--oh! much too much--an atheist. an open positive one. not simply honest doubt. i'm quite prepared for honest doubt nowadays. you and i have no quarrel over that. but he is aggressive. he makes remarks about miracles, quite derogatory remarks, and not always in french. sometimes he almost speaks english. and in front of my sister. and he goes out, he says, looking for a café. he never finds a café, but he certainly finds every public house within a radius of miles. and he comes back smelling dreadfully of beer. when i drop a little hint, he blames the beer. he says it is not good beer--our good essex beer! he doesn't understand any of our simple ways. he's sophisticated. the girls about here wear belgian flags--and air their little bits of french. and he takes it as an encouragement. only yesterday there was a scene. it seems he tried to kiss the hickson girl at the inn--maudie.... and his wife; a great big slow woman--in every way she is--ample; it's dreadful even to seem to criticise, but i do so _wish_ she would not see fit to sit down and nourish her baby in my poor old bachelor drawing-room--often at the most _unseasonable_ times. and--so lavishly...." mr. britling attempted consolations. "but anyhow," said mr. dimple, "i'm better off than poor dear mrs. bynne. she secured two milliners. she insisted upon them. and their clothes were certainly beautifully made--even my poor old unworldly eye could tell that. and she thought two milliners would be so useful with a large family like hers. they certainly _said_ they were milliners. but it seems--i don't know what we shall do about them.... my dear mr. britling, those young women are anything but milliners--anything but milliners...." a faint gleam of amusement was only too perceptible through the good man's horror. "sirens, my dear mr. britling. sirens. by profession."... section october passed into november, and day by day mr. britling was forced to apprehend new aspects of the war, to think and rethink the war, to have his first conclusions checked and tested, twisted askew, replaced. his thoughts went far and wide and deeper--until all his earlier writing seemed painfully shallow to him, seemed a mere automatic response of obvious comments to the stimulus of the war's surprise. as his ideas became subtler and profounder, they became more difficult to express; he talked less; he became abstracted and irritable at table. to two people in particular mr. britling found his real ideas inexpressible, to mr. direck and to mr. van der pant. each of these gentlemen brought with him the implication or the intimation of a critical attitude towards england. it was all very well for mr. britling himself to be critical of england; that is an englishman's privilege. to hear mr. van der pant questioning british efficiency or to suspect mr. direck of high, thin american superiorities to war, was almost worse than to hear mrs. harrowdean saying hostile things about edith. it roused an even acuter protective emotion. in the case of mr. van der pant matters were complicated by the difficulty of the language, which made anything but the crudest statements subject to incalculable misconception. mr. van der pant had not the extreme tactfulness of his so typically catholic wife; he made it only too plain that he thought the british postal and telegraph service slow and slack, and the management of the great eastern branch lines wasteful and inefficient. he said the workmen in the fields and the workmen he saw upon some cottages near the junction worked slowlier and with less interest than he had ever seen any workman display in all his life before. he marvelled that mr. britling lit his house with acetylene and not electric light. he thought fresh eggs were insanely dear, and his opinion of matching's easy pig-keeping was uncomplimentary. the roads, he said, were not a means of getting from place to place, they were a _dédale_; he drew derisive maps with his finger on the table-cloth of the lane system about the dower house. he was astonished that there was no café in matching's easy; he declared that the "public house" to which he went with considerable expectation was no public house at all; it was just a sly place for drinking beer.... all these were things mr. britling might have remarked himself; from a belgian refugee he found them intolerable. he set himself to explain to mr. van der pant firstly that these things did not matter in the slightest degree, the national attention, the national interest ran in other directions; and secondly that they were, as a matter of fact and on the whole, merits slightly disguised. he produced a pleasant theory that england is really not the englishman's field, it is his breeding place, his resting place, a place not for efficiency but good humour. if mr. van der pant were to make inquiries he would find there was scarcely a home in matching's easy that had not sent some energetic representative out of england to become one of the english of the world. england was the last place in which english energy was spent. these hedges, these dilatory roads were full of associations. there was a road that turned aside near market saffron to avoid turk's wood; it had been called turk's wood first in the fourteenth century after a man of that name. he quoted chesterton's happy verses to justify these winding lanes. "the road turned first towards the left, where perkin's quarry made the cleft; the path turned next towards the right, because the mastiff used to bite...." and again: "and i should say they wound about to find the town of roundabout, the merry town of roundabout that makes the world go round." if our easy-going ways hampered a hard efficiency, they did at least develop humour and humanity. our diplomacy at any rate had not failed us.... he did not believe a word of this stuff. his deep irrational love for england made him say these things.... for years he had been getting himself into hot water because he had been writing and hinting just such criticisms as mr. van der pant expressed so bluntly.... but he wasn't going to accept foreign help in dissecting his mother.... and another curious effect that mr. van der pant had upon mr. britling was to produce an obstinate confidence about the war and the nearness of the german collapse. he would promise mr. van der pant that he should be back in antwerp before may; that the germans would be over the rhine by july. he knew perfectly well that his ignorance of all the military conditions was unqualified, but still he could not restrain himself from this kind of thing so soon as he began to speak entente cordiale--anglo-french, that is to say. something in his relationship to mr. van der pant obliged him to be acutely and absurdly the protecting british.... at times he felt like a conscious bankrupt talking off the hour of disclosure. but indeed all that mr. britling was trying to say against the difficulties of a strange language and an alien temperament, was that the honour of england would never be cleared until belgium was restored and avenged.... while mr. britling was patrolling unimportant roads and entertaining mr. van der pant with discourses upon the nearness of victory and the subtle estimableness of all that was indolent, wasteful and evasive in english life, the war was passing from its first swift phases into a slower, grimmer struggle. the german retreat ended at the aisne, and the long outflanking manoeuvres of both hosts towards the channel began. the english attempts to assist belgium in october came too late for the preservation of antwerp, and after a long and complicated struggle in flanders the british failed to outflank the german right, lost ghent, menin and the belgian coast, but held ypres and beat back every attempt of the enemy to reach dunkirk and calais. meanwhile the smaller german colonies and islands were falling to the navy, the australian battleship _sydney_ smashed the _emden_ at cocos island, and the british naval disaster of coronel was wiped out by the battle of the falklands. the russians were victorious upon their left and took lemberg, and after some vicissitudes of fortune advanced to przemysl, occupying the larger part of galicia; but the disaster of tannenberg had broken their progress in east prussia, and the germans were pressing towards warsaw. turkey had joined the war, and suffered enormous losses in the caucasus. the dardanelles had been shelled for the first time, and the british were at basra on the euphrates. section the christmas of found england, whose landscape had hitherto been almost as peaceful and soldierless as massachusetts, already far gone along the path of transformation into a country full of soldiers and munition makers and military supplies. the soldiers came first, on the well-known and greatly admired british principle of "first catch your hare" and then build your kitchen. always before, christmas had been a time of much gaiety and dressing up and prancing and two-stepping at the dower house, but this year everything was too uncertain to allow of any gathering of guests. hugh got leave for the day after christmas, but teddy was tied; and cissie and letty went off with the small boy to take lodgings near him. the van der pants had hoped to see an english christmas at matching's easy, but within three weeks of christmas day mr. van der pant found a job that he could do in nottingham, and carried off his family. the two small boys cheered their hearts with paper decorations, but the christmas tree was condemned as too german, and it was discovered that santa claus had suddenly become old father christmas again. the small boys discovered that the price of lead soldiers had risen, and were unable to buy electric torches, on which they had set their hearts. there was to have been a christmas party at claverings, but at the last moment lady homartyn had to hurry off to an orphan nephew who had been seriously wounded near ypres, and the light of claverings was darkened. soon after christmas there were rumours of an impending descent of the headquarters staff of the south-eastern army upon claverings. then mr. britling found lady homartyn back from france, and very indignant because after all the headquarters were to go to lady wensleydale at ladyholt. it was, she felt, a reflection upon claverings. lady homartyn became still more indignant when presently the new armies, which were gathering now all over england like floods in a low-lying meadow, came pouring into the parishes about claverings to the extent of a battalion and a territorial battery. mr. britling heard of their advent only a day or two before they arrived; there came a bright young officer with an orderly, billeting; he was much exercised to get, as he expressed it several times, a quart into a pint bottle. he was greatly pleased with the barn. he asked the size of it and did calculations. he could "stick twenty-five men into it--easy." it would go far to solve his problems. he could manage without coming into the house at all. it was a ripping place. "no end." "but beds," said mr. britling. "lord! they don't want _beds_," said the young officer.... the whole britling family, who were lamenting the loss of their belgians, welcomed the coming of the twenty-five with great enthusiasm. it made them feel that they were doing something useful once more. for three days mrs. britling had to feed her new lodgers--the kitchen motors had as usual gone astray--and she did so in a style that made their boastings about their billet almost insufferable to the rest of their battery. the billeting allowance at that time was ninepence a head, and mr. britling, ashamed of making a profit out of his country, supplied not only generous firing and lighting, but unlimited cigarettes, cards and games, illustrated newspapers, a cocoa supper with such little surprises as sprats and jam roly-poly, and a number of more incidental comforts. the men arrived fasting under the command of two very sage middle-aged corporals, and responded to mrs. britling's hospitalities by a number of good resolutions, many of which they kept. they never made noises after half-past ten, or at least only now and then when a singsong broke out with unusual violence; they got up and went out at five or six in the morning without a sound; they were almost inconveniently helpful with washing-up and tidying round. in quite a little time mrs. britling's mind had adapted itself to the spectacle of half-a-dozen young men in khaki breeches and shirts performing their toilets in and about her scullery, or improvising an unsanctioned game of football between the hockey goals. these men were not the miscellaneous men of the new armies; they were the earlier territorial type with no heroics about them; they came from the midlands; and their two middle-aged corporals kept them well in hand and ruled them like a band of brothers. but they had an illegal side, that developed in directions that set mr. britling theorising. they seemed, for example, to poach by nature, as children play and sing. they possessed a promiscuous white dog. they began to add rabbits to their supper menu, unaccountable rabbits. one night there was a mighty smell of frying fish from the kitchen, and the cook reported trout. "trout!" said mr. britling to one of the corporals; "now where did you chaps get trout?" the "fisherman," they said, had got them with a hair noose. they produced the fisherman, of whom they were manifestly proud. it was, he explained, a method of fishing he had learnt when in new york harbour. he had been a stoker. he displayed a confidence in mr. britling that made that gentleman an accessory after his offence, his very serious offence against pre-war laws and customs. it was plain that the trout were the trout that mr. pumshock, the stock-broker and amateur gentleman, had preserved so carefully in the easy. hitherto the countryside had been forced to regard mr. pumshock's trout with an almost superstitious respect. a year ago young snooker had done a month for one of those very trout. but now things were different. "but i don't really fancy fresh-water fish," said the fisherman. "it's just the ketchin' of 'em i like...." and a few weeks later the trumpeter, an angel-faced freckled child with deep-blue eyes, brought in a dozen partridge eggs which he wanted mary to cook for him.... the domesticity of the sacred birds, it was clear, was no longer safe in england.... then again the big guns would go swinging down the road and into claverings park, and perform various exercises with commendable smartness and a profound disregard for lady homartyn's known objection to any departure from the public footpath.... and one afternoon as mr. britling took his constitutional walk, a reverie was set going in his mind by the sight of a neglected-looking pheasant with a white collar. the world of matching's easy was getting full now of such elderly birds. would _that_ go on again after the war? he imagined his son hugh as a grandfather, telling the little ones about parks and preserves and game laws, and footmen and butlers and the marvellous game of golf, and how, suddenly, mars came tramping through the land in khaki and all these things faded and vanished, so that presently it was discovered they were gone.... chapter the third malignity section and while the countryside of england changed steadily from its lax pacific amenity to the likeness of a rather slovenly armed camp, while long-fixed boundaries shifted and dissolved and a great irreparable wasting of the world's resources gathered way, mr. britling did his duty as a special constable, gave his eldest son to the territorials, entertained belgians, petted his soldiers in the barn, helped teddy to his commission, contributed to war charities, sold out securities at a loss and subscribed to the war loan, and thought, thought endlessly about the war. he could think continuously day by day of nothing else. his mind was as caught as a galley slave, as unable to escape from tugging at this oar. all his universe was a magnetic field which oriented everything, whether he would have it so or not, to this one polar question. his thoughts grew firmer and clearer; they went deeper and wider. his first superficial judgments were endorsed and deepened or replaced by others. he thought along the lonely lanes at night; he thought at his desk; he thought in bed; he thought in his bath; he tried over his thoughts in essays and leading articles and reviewed them and corrected them. now and then came relaxation and lassitude, but never release. the war towered over him like a vigilant teacher, day after day, week after week, regardless of fatigue and impatience, holding a rod in its hand. section certain things had to be forced upon mr. britling because they jarred so greatly with his habits of mind that he would never have accepted them if he could have avoided doing so. notably he would not recognise at first the extreme bitterness of this war. he would not believe that the attack upon britain and western europe generally expressed the concentrated emotion of a whole nation. he thought that the allies were in conflict with a system and not with a national will. he fought against the persuasion that the whole mass of a great civilised nation could be inspired by a genuine and sustained hatred. hostility was an uncongenial thing to him; he would not recognise that the greater proportion of human beings are more readily hostile than friendly. he did his best to believe--in his "and now war ends" he did his best to make other people believe--that this war was the perverse exploit of a small group of people, of limited but powerful influences, an outrage upon the general geniality of mankind. the cruelty, mischief, and futility of war were so obvious to him that he was almost apologetic in asserting them. he believed that war had but to begin and demonstrate its quality among the western nations in order to unify them all against its repetition. they would exclaim: "but we can't do things like this to one another!" he saw the aggressive imperialism of germany called to account even by its own people; a struggle, a collapse, a liberal-minded conference of world powers, and a universal resumption of amiability upon a more assured basis of security. he believed--and many people in england believed with him--that a great section of the germans would welcome triumphant allies as their liberators from intolerable political obsessions. the english because of their insularity had been political amateurs for endless generations. it was their supreme vice, it was their supreme virtue, to be easy-going. they had lived in an atmosphere of comedy, and denied in the whole tenor of their lives that life is tragic. not even the americans had been more isolated. the americans had had their indians, their negroes, their war of secession. until the great war the channel was as broad as the atlantic for holding off every vital challenge. even ireland was away--a four-hour crossing. and so the english had developed to the fullest extent the virtues and vices of safety and comfort; they had a hatred of science and dramatic behaviour; they could see no reason for exactness or intensity; they disliked proceeding "to extremes." ultimately everything would turn out all right. but they knew what it is to be carried into conflicts by energetic minorities and the trick of circumstances, and they were ready to understand the case of any other country which has suffered that fate. all their habits inclined them to fight good-temperedly and comfortably, to quarrel with a government and not with a people. it took mr. britling at least a couple of months of warfare to understand that the germans were fighting in an altogether different spirit. the first intimations of this that struck upon his mind were the news of the behaviour of the kaiser and the berlin crowd upon the declaration of war, and the violent treatment of the british subjects seeking to return to their homes. everywhere such people had been insulted and ill-treated. it was the spontaneous expression of a long-gathered bitterness. while the british ambassador was being howled out of berlin, the german ambassador to england was taking a farewell stroll, quite unmolested, in st. james's park.... one item that struck particularly upon mr. britling's imagination was the story of the chorus of young women who assembled on the railway platform of the station through which the british ambassador was passing to sing--to his drawn blinds--"deutschland, deutschland über alles." mr. britling could imagine those young people, probably dressed more or less uniformly in white, with flushed faces and shining eyes, letting their voices go, full throated, in the modern german way.... and then came stories of atrocities, stories of the shooting of old men and the butchery of children by the wayside, stories of wounded men bayoneted or burnt alive, of massacres of harmless citizens, of looting and filthy outrages.... mr. britling did his utmost not to believe these things. they contradicted his habitual world. they produced horrible strains in his mind. they might, he hoped, be misreported so as to seem more violent or less justifiable than they were. they might be the acts of stray criminals, and quite disconnected from the normal operations of the war. here and there some weak-minded officer may have sought to make himself terrible.... and as for the bombardment of cathedrals and the crime of louvain, well, mr. britling was prepared to argue that gothic architecture is not sacrosanct if military necessity cuts through it.... it was only after the war had been going on some months that mr. britling's fluttering, unwilling mind was pinned down by official reports and a cloud of witnesses to a definite belief in the grim reality of systematic rape and murder, destruction, dirtiness and abominable compulsions that blackened the first rush of the prussians into belgium and champagne.... they came hating and threatening the lands they outraged. they sought occasion to do frightful deeds.... when they could not be frightful in the houses they occupied, then to the best of their ability they were destructive and filthy. the facts took mr. britling by the throat.... the first thing that really pierced mr. britling with the conviction that there was something essentially different in the english and the german attitude towards the war was the sight of a bale of german comic papers in the study of a friend in london. they were filled with caricatures of the allies and more particularly of the english, and they displayed a force and quality of passion--an incredible force and quality of passion. their amazing hate and their amazing filthiness alike overwhelmed mr. britling. there was no appearance of national pride or national dignity, but a bellowing patriotism and a limitless desire to hurt and humiliate. they spat. they were red in the face and they spat. he sat with these violent sheets in his hands--_ashamed_. "but i say!" he said feebly. "it's the sort of thing that might come out of a lunatic asylum...." one incredible craving was manifest in every one of them. the german caricaturist seemed unable to represent his enemies except in extremely tight trousers or in none; he was equally unable to represent them without thrusting a sword or bayonet, spluttering blood, into the more indelicate parts of their persons. this was the _leit-motif_ of the war as the german humorists presented it. "but," said mr. britling, "these things can't represent anything like the general state of mind in germany." "they do," said his friend. "but it's blind fury--at the dirt-throwing stage." "the whole of germany is in that blind fury," said his friend. "while we are going about astonished and rather incredulous about this war, and still rather inclined to laugh, that's the state of mind of germany.... there's a sort of deliberation in it. they think it gives them strength. they _want_ to foam at the mouth. they do their utmost to foam more. they write themselves up. have you heard of the 'hymn of hate'?" mr. britling had not. "there was a translation of it in last week's _spectator_.... this is the sort of thing we are trying to fight in good temper and without extravagance. listen, britling! "_you_ will we hate with a lasting hate; we will never forgo our hate-- hate by water and hate by land, hate of the head and hate of the hand, hate of the hammer and hate of the crown, hate of seventy millions, choking down; we love as one, we hate as one, we have _one_ foe, and one alone-- england!" he read on to the end. "well," he said when he had finished reading, "what do you think of it?" "i want to feel his bumps," said mr. britling after a pause. "it's incomprehensible." "they're singing that up and down germany. lissauer, i hear, has been decorated...." "it's--stark malignity," said mr. britling. "what have we done?" "it's colossal. what is to happen to the world if these people prevail?" "i can't believe it--even with this evidence before me.... no! i want to feel their bumps...." section "you see," said mr. britling, trying to get it into focus, "i have known quite decent germans. there must be some sort of misunderstanding.... i wonder what makes them hate us. there seems to me no reason in it." "i think it is just thoroughness," said his friend. "they are at war. to be at war is to hate." "that isn't at all my idea." "we're not a thorough people. when we think of anything, we also think of its opposite. when we adopt an opinion we also take in a provisional idea that it is probably nearly as wrong as it is right. we are--atmospheric. they are concrete.... all this filthy, vile, unjust and cruel stuff is honest genuine war. we pretend war does not hurt. they know better.... the germans are a simple honest people. it is their virtue. possibly it is their only virtue...." section mr. britling was only one of a multitude who wanted to feel the bumps of germany at that time. the effort to understand a people who had suddenly become incredible was indeed one of the most remarkable facts in english intellectual life during the opening phases of the war. the english state of mind was unlimited astonishment. there was an enormous sale of any german books that seemed likely to illuminate the mystery of this amazing concentration of hostility; the works of bernhardi, treitschke, nietzsche, houston stewart chamberlain, became the material of countless articles and interminable discussions. one saw little clerks on the way to the office and workmen going home after their work earnestly reading these remarkable writers. they were asking, just as mr. britling was asking, what it was the british empire had struck against. they were trying to account for this wild storm of hostility that was coming at them out of central europe. it was a natural next stage to this, when after all it became manifest that instead of there being a liberal and reluctant germany at the back of imperialism and junkerdom, there was apparently one solid and enthusiastic people, to suppose that the germans were in some distinctive way evil, that they were racially more envious, arrogant, and aggressive than the rest of mankind. upon that supposition a great number of english people settled. they concluded that the germans had a peculiar devil of their own--and had to be treated accordingly. that was the second stage in the process of national apprehension, and it was marked by the first beginnings of a spy hunt, by the first denunciation of naturalised aliens, and by some anti-german rioting among the mixed alien population in the east end. most of the bakers in the east end of london were germans, and for some months after the war began they went on with their trade unmolested. now many of these shops were wrecked.... it was only in october that the british gave these first signs of a sense that they were fighting not merely political germany but the germans. but the idea of a peculiar malignity in the german quality as a key to the broad issue of the war was even less satisfactory and less permanent in mr. britling's mind than his first crude opposition of militarism and a peaceful humanity as embodied respectively in the central powers and the russo-western alliance. it led logically to the conclusion that the extermination of the german peoples was the only security for the general amiability of the world, a conclusion that appealed but weakly to his essential kindliness. after all, the germans he had met and seen were neither cruel nor hate-inspired. he came back to that obstinately. from the harshness and vileness of the printed word and the unclean picture, he fell back upon the flesh and blood, the humanity and sterling worth, of--as a sample--young heinrich. who was moreover a thoroughly german young german--a thoroughly prussian young prussian. at times young heinrich alone stood between mr. britling and the belief that germany and the whole german race was essentially wicked, essentially a canting robber nation. young heinrich became a sort of advocate for his people before the tribunal of mr. britling's mind. (and on his shoulder sat an absurdly pampered squirrel.) s fresh, pink, sedulous face, very earnest, adjusting his glasses, saying "please," intervened and insisted upon an arrest of judgment.... since the young man's departure he had sent two postcards of greeting directly to the "familie britling," and one letter through the friendly intervention of mr. britling's american publisher. once also he sent a message through a friend in norway. the postcards simply recorded stages in the passage of a distraught pacifist across holland to his enrolment. the letter by way of america came two months later. he had been converted into a combatant with extreme rapidity. he had been trained for three weeks, had spent a fortnight in hospital with a severe cold, and had then gone to belgium as a transport driver--his father had been a horse-dealer and he was familiar with horses. "if anything happens to me," he wrote, "please send my violin at least very carefully to my mother." it was characteristic that he reported himself as very comfortably quartered in courtrai with "very nice people." the niceness involved restraints. "only never," he added, "do we talk about the war. it is better not to do so." he mentioned the violin also in the later communication through norway. therein he lamented the lost fleshpots of courtrai. he had been in posen, and now he was in the carpathians, up to his knees in snow and "very uncomfortable...." and then abruptly all news from him ceased. month followed month, and no further letter came. "something has happened to him. perhaps he is a prisoner...." "i hope our little heinrich hasn't got seriously damaged.... he may be wounded...." "or perhaps they stop his letters.... very probably they stop his letters." section mr. britling would sit in his armchair and stare at his fire, and recall conflicting memories of germany--of a pleasant land, of friendly people. he had spent many a jolly holiday there. so recently as all the britling family had gone up the rhine from rotterdam, had visited a string of great cities and stayed for a cheerful month of sunshine at neunkirchen in the odenwald. the little village perches high among the hills and woods, and at its very centre is the inn and the linden tree and--adam meyer. or at least adam meyer _was_ there. whether he is there now, only the spirit of change can tell; if he live to be a hundred no friendly english will ever again come tramping along by the track of the blaue breiecke or the weisse streiche to enjoy his hospitality; there are rivers of blood between, and a thousand memories of hate.... it was a village distended with hospitalities. not only the inn but all the houses about the place of the linden tree, the shoe-maker's, the post-mistress's, the white house beyond, every house indeed except the pastor's house, were full of adam meyer's summer guests. and about it and over it went and soared adam meyer, seeing they ate well, seeing they rested well, seeing they had music and did not miss the moonlight--a host who forgot profit in hospitality, an inn-keeper with the passion of an artist for his inn. music, moonlight, the simple german sentiment, the hearty german voices, the great picnic in a stuhl wagen, the orderly round games the boys played with the german children, and the tramps and confidences hugh had with kurt and karl, and at last a crowning jollification, a dance, with some gipsy musicians whom mr. britling discovered, when the germans taught the english various entertaining sports with baskets and potatoes and forfeits and the english introduced the germans to the licence of the two-step. and everybody sang "britannia, rule the waves," and "deutschland, deutschland über alles," and adam meyer got on a chair and made a tremendous speech more in dialect than ever, and there was much drinking of beer and sirops in the moonlight under the linden.... afterwards there had been a periodic sending of postcards and greetings, which indeed only the war had ended. right pleasant people those germans had been, sun and green-leaf lovers, for whom "frisch auf" seemed the most natural of national cries. mr. britling thought of the individual germans who had made up the assembly, of the men's amusingly fierce little hats of green and blue with an inevitable feather thrust perkily into the hatband behind, of the kindly plumpnesses behind their turned-up moustaches, of the blonde, sedentary women, very wise about the comforts of life and very kind to the children, of their earnest pleasure in landscape and art and great writers, of their general frequent desire to sing, of their plasticity under the directing hands of adam meyer. he thought of the mellow south german landscape, rolling away broad and fair, of the little clean red-roofed townships, the old castles, the big prosperous farms, the neatly marked pedestrian routes, the hospitable inns, and the artless abundant aussichtthurms.... he saw all those memories now through a veil of indescribable sadness--as of a world lost, gone down like the cities of lyonesse beneath deep seas.... right pleasant people in a sunny land! yet here pressing relentlessly upon his mind were the murders of visé, the massacres of dinant, the massacres of louvain, murder red-handed and horrible upon an inoffensive people, foully invaded, foully treated; murder done with a sickening cant of righteousness and racial pretension.... the two pictures would not stay steadily in his mind together. when he thought of the broken faith that had poured those slaughtering hosts into the decent peace of belgium, that had smashed her cities, burnt her villages and filled the pretty gorges of the ardennes with blood and smoke and terror, he was flooded with self-righteous indignation, a self-righteous indignation that was indeed entirely teutonic in its quality, that for a time drowned out his former friendship and every kindly disposition towards germany, that inspired him with destructive impulses, and obsessed him with a desire to hear of death and more death and yet death in every german town and home.... section it will be an incredible thing to the happier reader of a coming age--if ever this poor record of experience reaches a reader in the days to come--to learn how much of the mental life of mr. britling was occupied at this time with the mere horror and atrocity of warfare. it is idle and hopeless to speculate now how that future reader will envisage this war; it may take on broad dramatic outlines, it may seem a thing, just, logical, necessary, the burning of many barriers, the destruction of many obstacles. mr. britling was too near to the dirt and pain and heat for any such broad landscape consolations. every day some new detail of evil beat into his mind. now it would be the artless story of some belgian refugee. there was a girl from alost in the village for example, who had heard the fusillade that meant the shooting of citizens, the shooting of people she had known, she had seen the still blood-stained wall against which two murdered cousins had died, the streaked sand along which their bodies had been dragged; three german soldiers had been quartered in her house with her and her invalid mother, and had talked freely of the massacres in which they had been employed. one of them was in civil life a young schoolmaster, and he had had, he said, to kill a woman and a baby. the girl had been incredulous. yes, he had done so! of course he had done so! his officer had made him do it, had stood over him. he could do nothing but obey. but since then he had been unable to sleep, unable to forget. "we had to punish the people," he said. "they had fired on us." and besides, his officer had been drunk. it had been impossible to argue. his officer had an unrelenting character at all times.... over and over again mr. britling would try to imagine that young schoolmaster soldier at alost. he imagined with a weak staring face and watery blue eyes behind his glasses, and that memory of murder.... then again it would be some incident of death and mutilation in antwerp, that van der pant described to him. the germans in belgium were shooting women frequently, not simply for grave spying but for trivial offences.... then came the battleship raid on whitby and scarborough, and the killing among other victims of a number of children on their way to school. this shocked mr. britling absurdly, much more than the belgian crimes had done. they were _english_ children. at home!... the drowning of a great number of people on a torpedoed ship full of refugees from flanders filled his mind with pitiful imaginings for days. the zeppelin raids, with their slow crescendo of blood-stained futility, began before the end of .... it was small consolation for mr. britling to reflect that english homes and women and children were, after all, undergoing only the same kind of experience that our ships have inflicted scores of times in the past upon innocent people in the villages of africa and polynesia.... each month the war grew bitterer and more cruel. early in the germans began their submarine war, and for a time mr. britling's concern was chiefly for the sailors and passengers of the ships destroyed. he noted with horror the increasing indisposition of the german submarines to give any notice to their victims; he did not understand the grim reasons that were turning every submarine attack into a desperate challenge of death. for the germans under the seas had pitted themselves against a sea power far more resourceful, more steadfast and skilful, sterner and more silent, than their own. it was not for many months that mr. britling learnt the realities of the submarine blockade. submarine after submarine went out of the german harbours into the north sea, never to return. no prisoners were reported, no boasting was published by the british fishers of men; u boat after u boat vanished into a chilling mystery.... only later did mr. britling begin to hear whispers and form ideas of the noiseless, suffocating grip that sought through the waters for its prey. the _falaba_ crime, in which the german sailors were reported to have jeered at the drowning victims in the water, was followed by the sinking of the _lusitania_. at that a wave of real anger swept through the empire. hate was begetting hate at last. there were violent riots in great britain and in south africa. wretched little german hairdressers and bakers and so forth fled for their lives, to pay for the momentary satisfaction of the kaiser and herr ballin. scores of german homes in england were wrecked and looted; hundreds of germans maltreated. war is war. hard upon the _lusitania_ storm came the publication of the bryce report, with its relentless array of witnesses, its particulars of countless acts of cruelty and arrogant unreason and uncleanness in belgium and the occupied territory of france. came also the gasping torture of "gas," the use of flame jets, and a new exacerbation of the savagery of the actual fighting. for a time it seemed as though the taking of prisoners along the western front would cease. tales of torture and mutilation, tales of the kind that arise nowhere and out of nothing, and poison men's minds to the most pitiless retaliations, drifted along the opposing fronts.... the realities were evil enough without any rumours. over various dinner-tables mr. britling heard this and that first-hand testimony of harshness and spite. one story that stuck in his memory was of british prisoners on the journey into germany being put apart at a station from their french companions in misfortune, and forced to "run the gauntlet" back to their train between the fists and bayonets of files of german soldiers. and there were convincing stories of the same prisoners robbed of overcoats in bitter weather, baited with dogs, separated from their countrymen, and thrust among russians and poles with whom they could hold no speech. so lissauer's hate song bore its fruit in a thousand cruelties to wounded and defenceless men. the english had cheated great germany of another easy victory like that of ' . they had to be punished. that was all too plainly the psychological process. at one german station a woman had got out of a train and crossed a platform to spit on the face of a wounded englishman.... and there was no monopoly of such things on either side. at some journalistic gathering mr. britling met a little white-faced, resolute lady who had recently been nursing in the north of france. she told of wounded men lying among the coal of coal-sheds, of a shortage of nurses and every sort of material, of an absolute refusal to permit any share in such things to reach the german "swine." ... "why have they come here? let our own boys have it first. why couldn't they stay in their own country? let the filth die." two soldiers impressed to carry a wounded german officer on a stretcher had given him a "joy ride," pitching him up and down as one tosses a man in a blanket. "he was lucky to get off with that."... "all _our_ men aren't angels," said a cheerful young captain back from the front. "if you had heard a little group of our east london boys talking of what they meant to do when they got into germany, you'd feel anxious...." "but that was just talk," said mr. britling weakly, after a pause.... there were times when mr. britling's mind was imprisoned beyond any hope of escape amidst such monstrous realities.... he was ashamed of his one secret consolation. for nearly two years yet hugh could not go out to it. there would surely be peace before that.... section tormenting the thought of mr. britling almost more acutely than this growing tale of stupidly inflicted suffering and waste and sheer destruction was the collapse of the british mind from its first fine phase of braced-up effort into a state of bickering futility. too long had british life been corrupted by the fictions of loyalty to an uninspiring and alien court, of national piety in an official church, of freedom in a politician-rigged state, of justice in an economic system where the advertiser, the sweater and usurer had a hundred advantages over the producer and artisan, to maintain itself now steadily at any high pitch of heroic endeavour. it had bought its comfort with the demoralisation of its servants. it had no completely honest organs; its spirit was clogged by its accumulated insincerities. brought at last face to face with a bitter hostility and a powerful and unscrupulous enemy, an enemy socialistic, scientific and efficient to an unexampled degree, it seemed indeed to be inspired for a time by an unwonted energy and unanimity. youth and the common people shone. the sons of every class went out to fight and die, full of a splendid dream of this war. easy-going vanished from the foreground of the picture. but only to creep back again as the first inspiration passed. presently the older men, the seasoned politicians, the owners and hucksters, the charming women and the habitual consumers, began to recover from this blaze of moral exaltation. old habits of mind and procedure reasserted themselves. the war which had begun so dramatically missed its climax; there was neither heroic swift defeat nor heroic swift victory. there was indecision; the most trying test of all for an undisciplined people. there were great spaces of uneventful fatigue. before the battle of the yser had fully developed the dramatic quality had gone out of the war. it had ceased to be either a tragedy or a triumph; for both sides it became a monstrous strain and wasting. it had become a wearisome thrusting against a pressure of evils.... under that strain the dignity of england broke, and revealed a malignity less focussed and intense than the german, but perhaps even more distressing. no paternal government had organised the british spirit for patriotic ends; it became now peevish and impatient, like some ill-trained man who is sick, it directed itself no longer against the enemy alone but fitfully against imagined traitors and shirkers; it wasted its energies in a deepening and spreading net of internal squabbles and accusations. now it was the wily indolence of the prime minister, now it was the german culture of the lord chancellor, now the imaginative enterprise of the first lord of the admiralty that focussed a vindictive campaign. there began a hunt for spies and of suspects of german origin in every quarter except the highest; a denunciation now of "traitors," now of people with imaginations, now of scientific men, now of the personal friend of the commander-in-chief, now of this group and then of that group.... every day mr. britling read his three or four newspapers with a deepening disappointment. when he turned from the newspaper to his post, he would find the anonymous letter-writer had been busy.... perhaps mr. britling had remarked that germans were after all human beings, or that if england had listened to matthew arnold in the 'eighties our officers by this time might have added efficiency to their courage and good temper. perhaps he had himself put a touch of irritant acid into his comment. back flared the hate. "who are _you_, sir? what are _you_, sir? what right have _you_, sir? what claim have _you_, sir?"... section "life had a wrangling birth. on the head of every one of us rests the ancestral curse of fifty million murders." so mr. britling's thoughts shaped themselves in words as he prowled one night in march, chill and melancholy, across a rushy meadow under an overcast sky. the death squeal of some little beast caught suddenly in a distant copse had set loose this train of thought. "life struggling under a birth curse?" he thought. "how nearly i come back at times to the christian theology!... and then, redemption by the shedding of blood." "life, like a rebellious child, struggling out of the control of the hate which made it what it is." but that was mr. britling's idea of gnosticism, not of orthodox christianity. he went off for a time into faded reminiscences of theological reading. what had been the gnostic idea? that the god of the old testament was the devil of the new? but that had been the idea of the manichæans!... mr. britling, between the black hedges, came back presently from his attempts to recall his youthful inquiries into man's ancient speculations, to the enduring riddles that have outlasted a thousand speculations. has hate been necessary, and is it still necessary, and will it always be necessary? is all life a war forever? the rabbit is nimble, lives keenly, is prevented from degenerating into a diseased crawling eater of herbs by the incessant ferret. without the ferret of war, what would life become?... war is murder truly, but is not peace decay? it was during these prowling nights in the first winter of the war that mr. britling planned a new writing that was to go whole abysses beneath the facile superficiality of "and now war ends." it was to be called the "anatomy of hate." it was to deal very faithfully with the function of hate as a corrective to inefficiency. so long as men were slack, men must be fierce. this conviction pressed upon him.... in spite of his detestation of war mr. britling found it impossible to maintain that any sort of peace state was better than a state of war. if wars produced destructions and cruelties, peace could produce indolence, perversity, greedy accumulation and selfish indulgences. war is discipline for evil, but peace may be relaxation from good. the poor man may be as wretched in peace time as in war time. the gathering forces of an evil peace, the malignity and waste of war, are but obverse and reverse of the medal of ill-adjusted human relationships. was there no greater peace possible; not a mere recuperative pause in killing and destruction, but a phase of noble and creative living, a phase of building, of discovery, of beauty and research? he remembered, as one remembers the dead, dreams he had once dreamt of the great cities, the splendid freedoms, of a coming age, of marvellous enlargements of human faculty, of a coming science that would be light and of art that could be power.... but would that former peace have ever risen to that?... after all, had such visions ever been more than idle dreams? had the war done more than unmask reality?... he came to a gate and leant over it. the darkness drizzled about him; he turned up his collar and watched the dim shapes of trees and hedges gather out of the night to meet the dismal dawn. he was cold and hungry and weary. he may have drowsed; at least he had a vision, very real and plain, a vision very different from any dream of utopia. it seemed to him that suddenly a mine burst under a great ship at sea, that men shouted and women sobbed and cowered, and flares played upon the rain-pitted black waves; and then the picture changed and showed a battle upon land, and searchlights were flickering through the rain and shells flashed luridly, and men darkly seen in silhouette against red flames ran with fixed bayonets and slipped and floundered over the mud, and at last, shouting thinly through the wind, leapt down into the enemy trenches.... and then he was alone again staring over a wet black field towards a dim crest of shapeless trees. section abruptly and shockingly, this malignity of warfare, which had been so far only a festering cluster of reports and stories and rumours and suspicions, stretched out its arm into essex and struck a barb of grotesque cruelty into the very heart of mr. britling. late one afternoon came a telegram from filmington-on-sea, where aunt wilshire had been recovering her temper in a boarding-house after a round of visits in yorkshire and the moorlands. and she had been "very seriously injured" by an overnight german air raid. it was a raid that had not been even mentioned in the morning's papers. she had asked to see him. it was, ran the compressed telegraphic phrase, "advisable to come at once." mrs. britling helped him pack a bag, and came with him to the station in order to drive the car back to the dower house; for the gardener's boy who had hitherto attended to these small duties had now gone off as an unskilled labourer to some munition works at chelmsford. mr. britling sat in the slow train that carried him across country to the junction for filmington, and failed altogether to realise what had happened to the old lady. he had an absurd feeling that it was characteristic of her to intervene in affairs in this manner. she had always been so tough and unbent an old lady that until he saw her he could not imagine her as being really seriously and pitifully hurt.... but he found her in the hospital very much hurt indeed. she had been smashed in some complicated manner that left the upper part of her body intact, and lying slantingly upon pillows. over the horror of bandaged broken limbs and tormented flesh below sheets and a counterpane were drawn. morphia had been injected, he understood, to save her from pain, but presently it might be necessary for her to suffer. she lay up in her bed with an effect of being enthroned, very white and still, her strong profile with its big nose and her straggling hair and a certain dignity gave her the appearance of some very important, very old man, of an aged pope for instance, rather than of an old woman. she had made no remark after they had set her and dressed her and put her to bed except "send for hughie britling, the dower house, matching's easy. he is the best of the bunch." she had repeated the address and this commendation firmly over and over again, in large print as it were, even after they had assured her that a telegram had been despatched. in the night, they said, she had talked of him. he was not sure at first that she knew of his presence. "here i am, aunt wilshire," he said. she gave no sign. "your nephew hugh." "mean and preposterous," she said very distinctly. but she was not thinking of mr. britling. she was talking of something else. she was saying: "it should not have been known i was here. there are spies everywhere. everywhere. there is a spy now--or a lump very like a spy. they pretend it is a hot-water bottle. pretext.... oh, yes! i admit--absurd. but i have been pursued by spies. endless spies. endless, endless spies. their devices are almost incredible.... he has never forgiven me.... "all this on account of a carpet. a palace carpet. over which i had no control. i spoke my mind. he knew i knew of it. i never concealed it. so i was hunted. for years he had meditated revenge. now he has it. but at what a cost! and they call him emperor. emperor! "his arm is withered; his son--imbecile. he will die--without dignity...." her voice weakened, but it was evident she wanted to say something more. "i'm here," said mr. britling. "your nephew hughie." she listened. "can you understand me?" he asked. she became suddenly an earnest, tender human being. "my dear!" she said, and seemed to search for something in her mind and failed to find it. "you have always understood me," she tried. "you have always been a good boy to me, hughie," she said, rather vacantly, and added after some moments of still reflection, "_au fond_." after that she was silent for some minutes, and took no notice of his whispers. then she recollected what had been in her mind. she put out a hand that sought for mr. britling's sleeve. "hughie!" "i'm here, auntie," said mr. britling. "i'm here." "don't let him get at _your_ hughie.... too good for it, dear. oh! much--much too good.... people let these wars and excitements run away with them.... they put too much into them.... they aren't--they aren't worth it. don't let him get at your hughie." "no!" "you understand me, hughie?" "perfectly, auntie." "then don't forget it. ever." she had said what she wanted to say. she had made her testament. she closed her eyes. he was amazed to find this grotesque old creature had suddenly become beautiful, in that silvery vein of beauty one sometimes finds in very old men. she was exalted as great artists will sometimes exalt the portraits of the aged. he was moved to kiss her forehead. there came a little tug at his sleeve. "i think that is enough," said the nurse, who had stood forgotten at his elbow. "but i can come again?" "perhaps." she indicated departure by a movement of her hand. section the next day aunt wilshire was unconscious of her visitor. they had altered her position so that she lay now horizontally, staring inflexibly at the ceiling and muttering queer old disconnected things. the windsor castle carpet story was still running through her mind, but mixed up with it now were scraps of the current newspaper controversies about the conduct of the war. and she was still thinking of the dynastic aspects of the war. and of spies. she had something upon her mind about the king's more german aunts. "as a precaution," she said, "as a precaution. watch them all.... the princess christian.... laying foundation stones.... cement.... guns. or else why should they always be laying foundation stones?... always.... why?... hushed up.... "none of these things," she said, "in the newspapers. they ought to be." and then after an interval, very distinctly, "the duke of wellington. my ancestor--in reality.... publish and be damned." after that she lay still.... the doctors and nurses could hold out only very faint hopes to mr. britling's inquiries; they said indeed it was astonishing that she was still alive. and about seven o'clock that evening she died.... section mr. britling, after he had looked at his dead cousin for the last time, wandered for an hour or so about the silent little watering-place before he returned to his hotel. there was no one to talk to and nothing else to do but to think of her death. the night was cold and bleak, but full of stars. he had already mastered the local topography, and he knew now exactly where all the bombs that had been showered upon the place had fallen. here was the corner of blackened walls and roasted beams where three wounded horses had been burnt alive in a barn, here the row of houses, some smashed, some almost intact, where a mutilated child had screamed for two hours before she could be rescued from the debris that had pinned her down, and taken to the hospital. everywhere by the dim light of the shaded street lamps he could see the black holes and gaps of broken windows; sometimes abundant, sometimes rare and exceptional, among otherwise uninjured dwellings. many of the victims he had visited in the little cottage hospital where aunt wilshire had just died. she was the eleventh dead. altogether fifty-seven people had been killed or injured in this brilliant german action. they were all civilians, and only twelve were men. two zeppelins had come in from over the sea, and had been fired at by an anti-aircraft gun coming on an automobile from ipswich. the first intimation the people of the town had had of the raid was the report of this gun. many had run out to see what was happening. it was doubtful if any one had really seen the zeppelins, though every one testified to the sound of their engines. then suddenly the bombs had come streaming down. only six had made hits upon houses or people; the rest had fallen ruinously and very close together on the local golf links, and at least half had not exploded at all and did not seem to have been released to explode. a third at least of the injured people had been in bed when destruction came upon them. the story was like a page from some fantastic romance of jules verne's; the peace of the little old town, the people going to bed, the quiet streets, the quiet starry sky, and then for ten minutes an uproar of guns and shells, a clatter of breaking glass, and then a fire here, a fire there, a child's voice pitched high by pain and terror, scared people going to and fro with lanterns, and the sky empty again, the raiders gone.... five minutes before, aunt wilshire had been sitting in the boarding-house drawing-room playing a great stern "patience," the emperor patience ("napoleon, my dear!--not that potsdam creature") that took hours to do. five minutes later she was a thing of elemental terror and agony, bleeding wounds and shattered bones, plunging about in the darkness amidst a heap of wreckage. and already the german airmen were buzzing away to sea again, proud of themselves, pleased no doubt--like boys who have thrown a stone through a window, beating their way back to thanks and rewards, to iron crosses and the proud embraces of delighted fraus and fräuleins.... for the first time it seemed to mr. britling he really saw the immediate horror of war, the dense cruel stupidity of the business, plain and close. it was as if he had never perceived anything of the sort before, as if he had been dealing with stories, pictures, shows and representations that he knew to be shams. but that this dear, absurd old creature, this thing of home, this being of familiar humours and familiar irritations, should be torn to pieces, left in torment like a smashed mouse over which an automobile has passed, brought the whole business to a raw and quivering focus. not a soul among all those who had been rent and torn and tortured in this agony of millions, but was to any one who understood and had been near to it, in some way lovable, in some way laughable, in some way worthy of respect and care. poor aunt wilshire was but the sample thrust in his face of all this mangled multitude, whose green-white lips had sweated in anguish, whose broken bones had thrust raggedly through red dripping flesh.... the detested features of the german crown prince jerked into the centre of mr. britling's picture. the young man stood in his dapper uniform and grinned under his long nose, carrying himself jauntily, proud of his extreme importance to so many lives.... and for a while mr. britling could do nothing but rage. "devils they are!" he cried to the stars. "devils! devilish fools rather. cruel blockheads. apes with all science in their hands! my god! but _we will teach them a lesson yet!_..." that was the key of his mood for an hour of aimless wandering, wandering that was only checked at last by a sentinel who turned him back towards the town.... he wandered, muttering. he found great comfort in scheming vindictive destruction for countless germans. he dreamt of swift armoured aeroplanes swooping down upon the flying airship, and sending it reeling earthward, the men screaming. he imagined a shattered zeppelin staggering earthward in the fields behind the dower house, and how he would himself run out with a spade and smite the germans down. "quarter indeed! kamerad! take _that_, you foul murderer!" in the dim light the sentinel saw the retreating figure of mr. britling make an extravagant gesture, and wondered what it might mean. signalling? what ought an intelligent sentry to do? let fly at him? arrest him?... take no notice?... mr. britling was at that moment killing count zeppelin and beating out his brains. count zeppelin was killed that night and the german emperor was assassinated; a score of lesser victims were offered up to the _manes_ of aunt wilshire; there were memorable cruelties before the wrath and bitterness of mr. britling was appeased. and then suddenly he had had enough of these thoughts; they were thrust aside, they vanished out of his mind. section all the while that mr. britling had been indulging in these imaginative slaughterings and spending the tears and hate that had gathered in his heart, his reason had been sitting apart and above the storm, like the sun waiting above thunder, like a wise nurse watching and patient above the wild passions of a child. and all the time his reason had been maintaining silently and firmly, without shouting, without speech, that the men who had made this hour were indeed not devils, were no more devils than mr. britling was a devil, but sinful men of like nature with himself, hard, stupid, caught in the same web of circumstance. "kill them in your passion if you will," said reason, "but understand. this thing was done neither by devils nor fools, but by a conspiracy of foolish motives, by the weak acquiescences of the clever, by a crime that was no man's crime but the natural necessary outcome of the ineffectiveness, the blind motives and muddleheadedness of all mankind." so reason maintained her thesis, like a light above the head of mr. britling at which he would not look, while he hewed airmen to quivering rags with a spade that he had sharpened, and stifled german princes with their own poison gas, given slowly and as painfully as possible. "and what of the towns _our_ ships have bombarded?" asked reason unheeded. "what of those tasmanians _our_ people utterly swept away?" "what of french machine-guns in the atlas?" reason pressed the case. "of himalayan villages burning? of the things we did in china? especially of the things we did in china...." mr. britling gave no heed to that. "the germans in china were worse than we were," he threw out.... he was maddened by the thought of the zeppelin making off, high and far in the sky, a thing dwindling to nothing among the stars, and the thought of those murderers escaping him. time after time he stood still and shook his fist at boötes, slowly sweeping up the sky.... and at last, sick and wretched, he sat down on a seat upon the deserted parade under the stars, close to the soughing of the invisible sea below.... his mind drifted back once more to those ancient heresies of the gnostics and the manichæans which saw the god of the world as altogether evil, which sought only to escape by the utmost abstinences and evasions and perversions from the black wickedness of being. for a while his soul sank down into the uncongenial darknesses of these creeds of despair. "i who have loved life," he murmured, and could have believed for a time that he wished he had never had a son.... is the whole scheme of nature evil? is life in its essence cruel? is man stretched quivering upon the table of the eternal vivisector for no end--and without pity? these were thoughts that mr. britling had never faced before the war. they came to him now, and they came only to be rejected by the inherent quality of his mind. for weeks, consciously and subconsciously, his mind had been grappling with this riddle. he had thought of it during his lonely prowlings as a special constable; it had flung itself in monstrous symbols across the dark canvas of his dreams. "is there indeed a devil of pure cruelty? does any creature, even the very cruellest of creatures, really apprehend the pain it causes, or inflict it for the sake of the infliction?" he summoned a score of memories, a score of imaginations, to bear their witness before the tribunal of his mind. he forgot cold and loneliness in this speculation. he sat, trying all being, on this score, under the cold indifferent stars. he thought of certain instances of boyish cruelty that had horrified him in his own boyhood, and it was clear to him that indeed it was not cruelty, it was curiosity, dense textured, thick skinned, so that it could not feel even the anguish of a blinded cat. those boys who had wrung his childish soul to nigh intolerable misery, had not indeed been tormenting so much as observing torment, testing life as wantonly as one breaks thin ice in the early days of winter. in very much cruelty the real motive is surely no worse than that obtuse curiosity; a mere step of understanding, a mere quickening of the nerves and mind, makes it impossible. but that is not true of all or most cruelty. most cruelty has something else in it, something more than the clumsy plunging into experience of the hobbledehoy; it is vindictive or indignant; it is never tranquil and sensuous; it draws its incentive, however crippled and monstrous the justification may be, from something punitive in man's instinct, something therefore that implies a sense, however misguided, of righteousness and vindication. that factor is present even in spite; when some vile or atrocious thing is done out of envy or malice, that envy and malice has in it always--_always?_ yes, always--a genuine condemnation of the hated thing as an unrighteous thing, as an unjust usurpation, as an inexcusable privilege, as a sinful overconfidence. those men in the airship?--he was coming to that. he found himself asking himself whether it was possible for a human being to do any cruel act without an excuse--or, at least, without the feeling of excusability. and in the case of these germans and the outrages they had committed and the retaliations they had provoked, he perceived that always there was the element of a perceptible if inadequate justification. just as there would be if presently he were to maltreat a fallen german airman. there was anger in their vileness. these germans were an unsubtle people, a people in the worst and best sense of the words, plain and honest; they were prone to moral indignation; and moral indignation is the mother of most of the cruelty in the world. they perceived the indolence of the english and russians, they perceived their disregard of science and system, they could not perceive the longer reach of these greater races, and it seemed to them that the mission of germany was to chastise and correct this laxity. surely, they had argued, god was not on the side of those who kept an untilled field. so they had butchered these old ladies and slaughtered these children just to show us the consequences: "all along of dirtiness, all along of mess, all along of doing things rather more or less." the very justification our english poet has found for a thousand overbearing actions in the east! "forget not order and the real," that was the underlying message of bomb and gas and submarine. after all, what right had we english _not_ to have a gun or an aeroplane fit to bring down that zeppelin ignominiously and conclusively? had we not undertaken empire? were we not the leaders of great nations? had we indeed much right to complain if our imperial pose was flouted? "there, at least," said mr. britling's reason, "is one of the lines of thought that brought that unseen cruelty out of the night high over the houses of filmington-on-sea. that, in a sense, is the cause of this killing. cruel it is and abominable, yes, but is it altogether cruel? hasn't it, after all, a sort of stupid rightness?--isn't it a stupid reaction to an indolence at least equally stupid?" what was this rightness that lurked below cruelty? what was the inspiration of this pressure of spite, this anger that was aroused by ineffective gentleness and kindliness? was it indeed an altogether evil thing; was it not rather an impulse, blind as yet, but in its ultimate quality _as good as mercy_, greater perhaps in its ultimate values than mercy? this idea had been gathering in mr. britling's mind for many weeks; it had been growing and taking shape as he wrote, making experimental beginnings for his essay, "the anatomy of hate." is there not, he now asked himself plainly, a creative and corrective impulse behind all hate? is not this malignity indeed only the ape-like precursor of the great disciplines of a creative state? the invincible hopefulness of his sanguine temperament had now got mr. britling well out of the pessimistic pit again. already he had been on the verge of his phrase while wandering across the rushy fields towards market saffron; now it came to him again like a legitimate monarch returning from exile. "when hate shall have become creative energy.... "hate which passes into creative power; gentleness which is indolence and the herald of euthanasia.... "pity is but a passing grace; for mankind will not always be pitiful." but meanwhile, meanwhile.... how long were men so to mingle wrong with right, to be energetic without mercy and kindly without energy?... for a time mr. britling sat on the lonely parade under the stars and in the sound of the sea, brooding upon these ideas. his mind could make no further steps. it had worked for its spell. his rage had ebbed away now altogether. his despair was no longer infinite. but the world was dark and dreadful still. it seemed none the less dark because at the end there was a gleam of light. it was a gleam of light far beyond the limits of his own life, far beyond the life of his son. it had no balm for these sufferings. between it and himself stretched the weary generations still to come, generations of bickering and accusation, greed and faintheartedness, and half truth and the hasty blow. and all those years would be full of pitiful things, such pitiful things as the blackened ruins in the town behind, the little grey-faced corpses, the lives torn and wasted, the hopes extinguished and the gladness gone.... he was no longer thinking of the germans as diabolical. they were human; they had a case. it was a stupid case, but our case, too, was a stupid case. how stupid were all our cases! what was it we missed? something, he felt, very close to us, and very elusive. something that would resolve a hundred tangled oppositions.... his mind hung at that. back upon his consciousness came crowding the horrors and desolations that had been his daily food now for three quarters of a year. he groaned aloud. he struggled against that renewed envelopment of his spirit. "oh, blood-stained fools!" he cried, "oh, pitiful, tormented fools! "even that vile airship was a ship of fools! "we are all fools still. striving apes, irritated beyond measure by our own striving, easily moved to anger." some train of subconscious suggestion brought a long-forgotten speech back into mr. britling's mind, a speech that is full of that light which still seeks so mysteriously and indefatigably to break through the darkness and thickness of the human mind. he whispered the words. no unfamiliar words could have had the same effect of comfort and conviction. he whispered it of those men whom he still imagined flying far away there eastward, through the clear freezing air beneath the stars, those muffled sailors and engineers who had caused so much pain and agony in this little town. "_father, forgive them, for they know not what they do._" chapter the fourth in the web of the ineffective section hugh's letters were becoming a very important influence upon mr. britling's thought. hugh had always been something of a letter-writer, and now what was perhaps an inherited desire to set things down was manifest. he had been accustomed to decorate his letters from school with absurd little sketches--sometimes his letters had been all sketches--and now he broke from drawing to writing and back to drawing in a way that pleased his father mightily. the father loved this queer trick of caricature; he did not possess it himself, and so it seemed to him the most wonderful of all hugh's little equipment of gifts. mr. britling used to carry these letters about until their edges got grimy; he would show them to any one he felt capable of appreciating their youthful freshness; he would quote them as final and conclusive evidence to establish this or that. he did not dream how many thousands of mothers and fathers were treasuring such documents. he thought other sons were dull young men by comparison with hugh. the earlier letters told much of the charms of discipline and the open air. "all the bother about what one has to do with oneself is over," wrote hugh. "one has disposed of oneself. that has the effect of a great relief. instead of telling oneself that one ought to get up in the morning, a bugle tells you that.... and there's no nonsense about it, no chance of lying and arguing about it with oneself.... i begin to see the sense of men going into monasteries and putting themselves under rules. one is carried along in a sort of moral automobile instead of trudging the road...." and he was also sounding new physical experiences. "never before," he declared, "have i known what fatigue is. it's a miraculous thing. one drops down in one's clothes on any hard old thing and sleeps...." and in his early letters he was greatly exercised by the elementary science of drill and discipline, and the discussion of whether these things were necessary. he began by assuming that their importance was overrated. he went on to discover that they constituted the very essentials of all good soldiering. "in a crisis," he concluded, "there is no telling what will get hold of a man, his higher instincts or his lower. he may show courage of a very splendid sort--or a hasty discretion. a habit is much more trustworthy than an instinct. so discipline sets up a habit of steady and courageous bearing. if you keep your head you are at liberty to be splendid. if you lose it, the habit will carry you through." the young man was also very profound upon the effects of the suggestion of various exercises upon the mind. "it is surprising how bloodthirsty one feels in a bayonet charge. we have to shout; we are encouraged to shout. the effect is to paralyse one's higher centres. one ceases to question--anything. one becomes a 'bayoneteer.' as i go bounding forward i imagine fat men, succulent men ahead, and i am filled with the desire to do them in neatly. this sort of thing--" a sketch of slaughter followed, with a large and valiant hugh leaving a train of fallen behind him. "not like this. this is how i used to draw it in my innocent childhood, but it is incorrect. more than one german on the bayonet at a time is an incumbrance. and it would be swank--a thing we detest in the army." the second sketch showed the same brave hero with half a dozen of the enemy skewered like cat's-meat. "as for the widows and children, i disregard 'em." section but presently hugh began to be bored. "route marching again," he wrote. "for no earthly reason than that they can do nothing else with us. we are getting no decent musketry training because there are no rifles. we are wasting half our time. if you multiply half a week by the number of men in the army you will see we waste centuries weekly.... if most of these men here had just been enrolled and left to go about their business while we trained officers and instructors and got equipment for them, and if they had then been put through their paces as rapidly as possible, it would have been infinitely better for the country.... in a sort of way we are keeping raw; in a sort of way we are getting stale.... i get irritated by this. i feel we are not being properly done by. "half our men are educated men, reasonably educated, but we are always being treated as though we were too stupid for words.... "no good grousing, i suppose, but after statesminster and a glimpse of old cardinal's way of doing things, one gets a kind of toothache in the mind at the sight of everything being done twice as slowly and half as well as it need be." he went off at a tangent to describe the men in his platoon. "the best man in our lot is an ex-grocer's assistant, but in order to save us from vain generalisations it happens that the worst man--a moon-faced creature, almost incapable of lacing up his boots without help and objurgation--is also an ex-grocer's assistant. our most offensive member is a little cad with a snub nose, who has read kipling and imagines he is the nearest thing that ever has been to private ortheris. he goes about looking for the other two of the soldiers three; it is rather like an unpopular politician trying to form a ministry. and he is conscientiously foul-mouthed. he feels losing a chance of saying 'bloody' as acutely as a snob feels dropping an h. he goes back sometimes and says the sentence over again and puts the 'bloody' in. i used to swear a little out of the range of your parental ear, but ortheris has cured me. when he is about i am mincing in my speech. i perceive now that cursing is a way of chewing one's own dirt. in a platoon there is no elbow-room for indifference; you must either love or hate. i have a feeling that my first taste of battle will not be with germans, but with private ortheris...." and one letter was just a picture, a parody of the well-known picture of the bivouac below and the soldier's dream of return to his beloved above. but master hugh in the dream was embracing an enormous retort, while a convenient galvanometer registered his emotion and little tripods danced around him. section then came a letter which plunged abruptly into criticism. "my dear parent, this is a swearing letter. i must let go to somebody. and somehow none of the other chaps are convenient. i don't know if i ought to be put against a wall and shot for it, but i hereby declare that all the officers of this battalion over and above the rank of captain are a constellation of incapables--and several of the captains are herewith included. some of them are men of a pleasant disposition and carefully aborted mental powers, and some are men of an unpleasant disposition and no mental powers at all. and i believe--a little enlightened by your recent letter to _the times_--that they are a fair sample of the entire 'army' class which has got to win this war. usually they are indolent, but when they are thoroughly roused they are fussy. the time they should spend in enlarging their minds and increasing their military efficiency they devote to keeping fit. they are, roughly speaking, fit--for nothing. they cannot move us thirty miles without getting half of us left about, without losing touch with food and shelter, and starving us for thirty-six hours or so in the process, and they cannot count beyond the fingers of one hand, not having learnt to use the nose for arithmetical operations.... i conclude this war is going to be a sort of battle of inkerman on a large scale. we chaps in the ranks will have to do the job. leading is 'off.'... "all of this, my dear parent, is just a blow off. i have been needlessly starved, and fagged to death and exasperated. we have moved five-and-twenty miles across country--in fifty-seven hours. and without food for about eighteen hours. i have been with my captain, who has been billeting us here in cheasingholt. oh, he is a muff! oh god! oh god of heaven! what a muff! he is afraid of printed matter, but he controls himself heroically. he prides himself upon having no 'sense of locality, confound it!' prides himself! he went about this village, which is a little dispersed, at a slight trot, and wouldn't avail himself of the one-inch map i happened to have. he judged the capacity of each room with his eye and wouldn't let me measure, even with god's own paces. not with the legs i inherit. 'we'll put five fellahs hea!' he said. 'what d'you want to measure the room for? we haven't come to lay down carpets.' then, having assigned men by _coup d'oeil_, so as to congest half the village miserably, he found the other half unoccupied and had to begin all over again. 'if you measured the floor space first, sir,' i said, 'and made a list of the houses--' 'that isn't the way i'm going to do it,' he said, fixing me with a pitiless eye.... "that isn't the way they are going to do it, daddy! the sort of thing that is done over here in the green army will be done over there in the dry. they won't be in time; they'll lose their guns where now they lose our kitchens. i'm a mute soldier; i've got to do what i'm told; still, i begin to understand the battle of neuve chapelle. "they say the relations of men and officers in the new army are beautiful. some day i may learn to love my officer--but not just yet. not till i've forgotten the operations leading up to the occupation of cheasingholt.... he muffs his real job without a blush, and yet he would rather be shot than do his bootlaces up criss-cross. what i say about officers applies only and solely to him really.... how well i understand now the shooting of officers by their men.... but indeed, fatigue and exasperation apart, this shift has been done atrociously...." the young man returned to these criticisms in a later letter. "you will think i am always carping, but it does seem to me that nearly everything is being done here in the most wasteful way possible. we waste time, we waste labour, we waste material, oh lord! how we waste our country's money. these aren't, i can assure you, the opinions of a conceited young man. it's nothing to be conceited about.... we're bored to death by standing about this infernal little village. there is nothing to do--except trail after a small number of slatternly young women we despise and hate. i _don't_, daddy. and i don't drink. why have i inherited no vices? we had a fight here yesterday--sheer boredom. ortheris has a swollen lip, and another private has a bad black eye. there is to be a return match. i perceive the chief horror of warfare is boredom.... "our feeding here is typical of the whole system. it is a system invented not with any idea of getting the best results--that does not enter into the war office philosophy--but to have a rule for everything, and avoid arguments. there is rather too generous an allowance of bread and stuff per man, and there is a very fierce but not very efficient system of weighing and checking. a rather too generous allowance is, of course, a direct incentive to waste or stealing--as any one but our silly old duffer of a war office would know. the checking is for quantity, which any fool can understand, rather than for quality. the test for the quality of army meat is the smell. if it doesn't smell bad, it is good.... "then the raw material is handed over to a cook. he is a common soldier who has been made into a cook by a simple ceremony. he is told, 'you are a cook.' he does his best to be. usually he roasts or bakes to begin with, guessing when the joint is done, afterwards he hacks up what is left of his joints and makes a stew for next day. a stew is hacked meat boiled up in a big pot. it has much fat floating on the top. after you have eaten your fill you want to sit about quiet. the men are fed usually in a large tent or barn. we have a barn. it is not a clean barn, and just to make it more like a picnic there are insufficient plates, knives and forks. (i tell you, no army people can count beyond eight or ten.) the corporals after their morning's work have to carve. when they have done carving they tell me they feel they have had enough dinner. they sit about looking pale, and wander off afterwards to the village pub. (i shall probably become a corporal soon.) in these islands before the war began there was a surplus of women over men of about a million. (see the publications of the fabian society, now so popular among the young.) none of these women have been trusted by the government with the difficult task of cooking and giving out food to our soldiers. no man of the ordinary soldier class ever cooks anything until he is a soldier.... all food left over after the stew or otherwise rendered uneatable by the cook is thrown away. we throw away pail-loads. _we bury meat_.... "also we get three pairs of socks. we work pretty hard. we don't know how to darn socks. when the heels wear through, come blisters. bad blisters disable a man. of the million of surplus women (see above) the government has not had the intelligence to get any to darn our socks. so a certain percentage of us go lame. and so on. and so on. "you will think all this is awful grousing, but the point i want to make--i hereby to ease my feelings make it now in a fair round hand--is that all this business could be done far better and far cheaper if it wasn't left to these absolutely inexperienced and extremely exclusive military gentlemen. they think they are leading england and showing us all how; instead of which they are just keeping us back. why in thunder are they doing everything? not one of them, when he is at home, is allowed to order the dinner or poke his nose into his own kitchen or check the household books.... the ordinary british colonel is a helpless old gentleman; he ought to have a nurse.... this is not merely the trivial grievance of my insulted stomach, it is a serious matter for the country. sooner or later the country may want the food that is being wasted in all these capers. in the aggregate it must amount to a daily destruction of tons of stuff of all sorts. tons.... suppose the war lasts longer than we reckon!" from this point hugh's letter jumped to a general discussion of the military mind. "our officers are beastly good chaps, nearly all of them. that's where the perplexity of the whole thing comes in. if only they weren't such good chaps! if only they were like the prussian officers to their men, then we'd just take on a revolution as well as the war, and make everything tidy at once. but they are decent, they are charming.... only they do not think hard, and they do not understand that doing a job properly means doing it as directly and thought-outly as you possibly can. they won't worry about things. if their tempers were worse perhaps their work might be better. they won't use maps or timetables or books of reference. when we move to a new place they pick up what they can about it by hearsay; not one of our lot has the gumption to possess a contoured map or a michelin guide. they have hearsay minds. they are fussy and petty and wasteful--and, in the way of getting things done, pretentious. by their code they're paragons of honour. courage--they're all right about that; no end of it; honesty, truthfulness, and so on--high. they have a kind of horsey standard of smartness and pluck, too, that isn't bad, and they have a fine horror of whiskers and being unbuttoned. but the mistake they make is to class thinking with whiskers, as a sort of fussy sidegrowth. instead of classing it with unbuttonedupness. they hate economy. and preparation.... "they won't see that inefficiency is a sort of dishonesty. if a man doesn't steal sixpence, they think it a light matter if he wastes half a crown. here follows wisdom! _from the point of view of a nation at war, sixpence is just a fifth part of half a crown_.... "when i began this letter i was boiling with indignation, complicated, i suspect, by this morning's 'stew'; now i have written thus far i feel i'm an ungenerous grumbler.... it is remarkable, my dear parent, that i let off these things to you. i like writing to you. i couldn't possibly say the things i can write. heinrich had a confidential friend at breslau to whom he used to write about his soul. i never had one of those teutonic friendships. and i haven't got a soul. but i have to write. one must write to some one--and in this place there is nothing else to do. and now the old lady downstairs is turning down the gas; she always does at half-past ten. she didn't ought. she gets--ninepence each. excuse the pencil...." that letter ended abruptly. the next two were brief and cheerful. then suddenly came a new note. "we've got rifles! we're real armed soldiers at last. every blessed man has got a rifle. and they come from japan! they are of a sort of light wood that is like new oak and art furniture, and makes one feel that one belongs to the first garden suburb regiment; but i believe much can be done with linseed oil. and they are real rifles, they go bang. we are a little light-headed about them. only our training and discipline prevent our letting fly at incautious spectators on the skyline. i saw a man yesterday about half a mile off. i was possessed by the idea that i could get him--right in the middle.... ortheris, the little beast, has got a motor-bicycle, which he calls his 'b----y oto'--no one knows why--and only death or dishonourable conduct will save me, i gather, from becoming a corporal in the course of the next month...." section a subsequent letter threw fresh light on the career of the young man with the "oto." before the rifle and the "oto," and in spite of his fights with some person or persons unknown, ortheris found trouble. hugh told the story with the unblushing _savoir-faire_ of the very young. "by the by, ortheris, following the indications of his creator and succumbing to the universal boredom before the rifles came, forgot lord kitchener's advice and attempted 'seduktion.' with painful results which he insists upon confiding to the entire platoon. he has been severely smacked and scratched by the proposed victim, and warned off the premises (licensed premises) by her father and mother--both formidable persons. they did more than warn him off the premises. they had displayed neither a proper horror of don juan nor a proper respect for the king's uniform. mother, we realise, got hold of him and cuffed him severely. 'what the 'ell's a chap to do?' cried ortheris. 'you can't go 'itting a woman back.' father had set a dog on him. a less ingenuous character would be silent about such passages--i should be too egotistical and humiliated altogether--but that is not his quality. he tells us in tones of naïve wonder. he talks about it and talks about it. 'i don't care what the old woman did,' he says, 'not--reely. what 'urts me about it is that i jest made a sort of mistake 'ow _she'd_ tike it. you see, i sort of feel i've 'urt and insulted _'er_. and reely i didn't mean to. swap me, i didn't mean to. gawd 'elp me. i wouldn't 'ave 'ad it 'appened as it 'as 'appened, not for worlds. and now i can't get round to 'er, or anyfing, not to explain.... you chaps may laugh, but you don't know what there is _in_ it.... i tell you it worries me something frightful. you think i'm just a little cad who took liberties he didn't ought to. (note of anger drowning uncharitable grunts of assent.) 'ow the 'ell is 'e to know _when_ 'e didn't ought to? ... i _swear_ she liked me....' "this kind of thing goes on for hours--in the darkness. "'i'd got regular sort of fond of 'er.' "and the extraordinary thing is it makes me begin to get regular fond of ortheris. "i think it is because the affair has surprised him right out of acting ortheris and tommy atkins for a bit, into his proper self. he's frightfully like some sort of mongrel with a lot of wiry-haired terrier and a touch of airedale in it. a mongrel you like in spite of the flavour of all the horrid things he's been nosing into. and he's as hard as nails and, my dear daddy! he can't box for nuts." section mr. britling, with an understanding much quickened by hugh's letters, went about essex in his automobile, and on one or two journeys into berkshire and buckinghamshire, and marked the steady conversion of the old pacific countryside into an armed camp. he was disposed to minimise hugh's criticisms. he found in them something of the harshness of youth, which is far too keen-edged to be tolerant with half performance and our poor human evasion of perfection's overstrain. "our poor human evasion of perfection's overstrain"; this phrase was mr. britling's. to mr. britling, looking less closely and more broadly, the new army was a pride and a marvel. he liked to come into some quiet village and note the clusters of sturdy khaki-clad youngsters going about their business, the tethered horses, the air of subdued bustle, the occasional glimpses of guns and ammunition trains. wherever one went now there were soldiers and still more soldiers. there was a steady flow of men into flanders, and presently to gallipoli, but it seemed to have no effect upon the multitude in training at home. he was pleasantly excited by the evident increase in the proportion of military material upon the railways; he liked the promise and mystery of the long lines of trucks bearing tarpaulin-covered wagons and carts and guns that he would pass on his way to liverpool street station. he could apprehend defeat in the silence of the night, but when he saw the men, when he went about the land, then it was impossible to believe in any end but victory.... but through the spring and summer there was no victory. the "great offensive" of may was checked and abandoned after a series of ineffective and very costly attacks between ypres and soissons. the germans had developed a highly scientific defensive in which machine-guns replaced rifles and a maximum of punishment was inflicted upon an assaulting force with a minimum of human loss. the war office had never thought much of machine-guns before, but now it thought a good deal. moreover, the energies of britain were being turned more and more towards the dardanelles. the idea of an attack upon the dardanelles had a traditional attractiveness for the british mind. old men had been brought up from childhood with "forcing the dardanelles" as a familiar phrase; it had none of the flighty novelty and vulgarity about it that made an "aerial offensive" seem so unwarrantable a proceeding. forcing the dardanelles was historically british. it made no break with tradition. soon after turkey entered the war british submarines appeared in the sea of marmora, and in february a systematic bombardment of the dardanelles began; this was continued intermittently for a month, the defenders profiting by their experiences and by spells of bad weather to strengthen their works. this first phase of the attack culminated in the loss of the _irresistible_, _ocean_, and _bouvet_, when on the th of march the attacking fleet closed in upon the narrows. after an interlude of six weeks to allow of further preparations on the part of the defenders, who were now thoroughly alive to what was coming, the allied armies gathered upon the scene, and a difficult and costly landing was achieved at two points upon the peninsula of gallipoli. with that began a slow and bloody siege of the defences of the dardanelles, clambering up to the surprise landing of a fresh british army in suvla bay in august, and its failure in the battle of anafarta, through incompetent commanders and a general sloppiness of leading, to cut off and capture maidos and the narrows defences.... meanwhile the russian hosts, which had reached their high-water mark in the capture of przemysl, were being forced back first in the south and then in the north. the germans recaptured lemberg, entered warsaw, and pressed on to take brest litowsk. the russian lines rolled back with an impressive effect of defeat, and the germans thrust towards riga and petrograd, reaching vilna about the middle of september.... day after day mr. britling traced the swaying fortunes of the conflict, with impatience, with perplexity, but with no loss of confidence in the ultimate success of britain. the country was still swarming with troops, and still under summer sunshine. a second hay harvest redeemed the scantiness of the first, the wheat crops were wonderful, and the great fig tree at the corner of the dower house had never borne so bountifully nor such excellent juicy figs.... and one day in early june while those figs were still only a hope, teddy appeared at the dower house with letty, to say good-bye before going to the front. he was going out in a draft to fill up various gaps and losses; he did not know where. essex was doing well but bloodily over there. mrs. britling had tea set out upon the lawn under the blue cedar, and mr. britling found himself at a loss for appropriate sayings, and talked in his confusion almost as though teddy's departure was of no significance at all. he was still haunted by that odd sense of responsibility for teddy. teddy was not nearly so animated as he had been in his pre-khaki days; there was a quiet exaltation in his manner rather than a lively excitement. he knew now what he was in for. he knew now that war was not a lark, that for him it was to be the gravest experience he had ever had or was likely to have. there were no more jokes about letty's pension, and a general avoidance of the topics of high explosives and asphyxiating gas.... mr. and mrs. britling took the young people to the gate. "good luck!" cried mr. britling as they receded. teddy replied with a wave of the hand. mr. britling stood watching them for some moments as they walked towards the little cottage which was to be the scene of their private parting. "i don't like his going," he said. "i hope it will be all right with him.... teddy's so grave nowadays. it's a mean thing, i know, it has none of the roman touch, but i am glad that this can't happen with hugh--" he computed. "not for a year and three months, even if they march him into it upon his very birthday.... "it may all he over by then...." section in that computation he reckoned without hugh. within a month hugh was also saying "good-bye." "but how's this?" protested mr. britling, who had already guessed the answer. "you're not nineteen." "i'm nineteen enough for this job," said hugh. "in fact, i enlisted as nineteen." mr. britling said nothing for a little while. then he spoke with a catch in his breath. "i don't blame you," he said. "it was--the right spirit." drill and responsibilities of non-commissioned rank had imposed a novel manliness upon the bearing of corporal britling. "i always classified a little above my age at statesminster," he said as though that cleared up everything. he looked at a rosebud as though it interested him. then he remarked rather casually: "i thought," he said, "that if i was to go to war i'd better do the thing properly. it seemed--sort of half and half--not to be eligible for the trenches.... i ought to have told you...." "yes," mr. britling decided. "i was shy about it at first.... i thought perhaps the war would be over before it was necessary to discuss anything.... didn't want to go into it." "exactly," said mr. britling as though that was a complete explanation. "it's been a good year for your roses," said hugh. section hugh was to stop the night. he spent what seemed to him and every one a long, shy, inexpressive evening. only the small boys were really natural and animated. they were much impressed and excited by his departure, and wanted to ask a hundred questions about the life in the trenches. many of them hugh had to promise to answer when he got there. then he would see just exactly how things were. mrs. britling was motherly and intelligent about his outfit. "will you want winter things?" she asked.... but when he was alone with his father after every one had gone to bed they found themselves able to talk. "this sort of thing seems more to us than it would be to a french family," hugh remarked, standing on the hearthrug. "yes," agreed mr. britling. "their minds would be better prepared.... they'd have their appropriate things to say. they have been educated by the tradition of service--and ' ." then he spoke--almost resentfully. "the older men ought to go before you boys. who is to carry on if a lot of you get killed?" hugh reflected. "in the stiffest battle that ever can be the odds are against getting killed," he said. "i suppose they are." "one in three or four in the very hottest corners." mr. britling expressed no satisfaction. "every one is going through something of this sort." "all the decent people, at any rate," said mr. britling.... "it will be an extraordinary experience. somehow it seems out of proportion--" "with what?" "with life generally. as one has known it." "it isn't in proportion," mr. britling admitted. "incommensurables," said hugh. he considered his phrasing. "it's not," he said, "as though one was going into another part of the same world, or turning up another side of the world one was used to. it is just as if one had been living in a room and one had been asked to step outside.... it makes me think of a queer little thing that happened when i was in london last winter. i got into queer company. i don't think i told you. i went to have supper with some students in chelsea. i hadn't been to the place before, but they seemed all right--just people like me--and everybody. and after supper they took me on to some people _they_ didn't know very well; people who had to do with some school of dramatic art. there were two or three young actresses there and a singer and people of that sort, sitting about smoking cigarettes, and we began talking plays and books and picture shows and all that stuff; and suddenly there was a knocking at the door and some one went out and found a policeman with a warrant on the landing. they took off our host's son.... it had to do with a murder...." hugh paused. "it was the bedford mansions mystery. i don't suppose you remember about it or read about it at the time. he'd killed a man.... it doesn't matter about the particulars anyhow, but what i mean is the effect. the effect of a comfortable well-lit orderly room and the sense of harmless people--and then the door opening and the policeman and the cold draught flowing in. _murder!_ a girl who seemed to know the people well explained to me in whispers what was happening. it was like the opening of a trap-door going down into some pit you have always known was there, but never really believed in." "i know," said mr. britling. "i know." "that's just how i feel about this war business. there's no real death over here. it's laid out and boxed up. and accidents are all padded about. if one got a toss from a horse here, you'd be in bed and comfortable in no time.... and there; it's like another planet. it's outside.... i'm going outside.... instead of there being no death anywhere, it is death everywhere, outside there. we shall be using our utmost wits to kill each other. a kind of reverse to this world." mr. britling nodded. "i've never seen a dead body yet. in dower-house land there aren't dead bodies." "we've kept things from you--horrid things of that sort." "i'm not complaining," said hugh.... "but--master hugh--the master hugh you kept things from--will never come back." he went on quickly as his father raised distressed eyes to him. "i mean that anyhow _this_ hugh will never come back. another one may. but i shall have been outside, and it will all be different...." he paused. never had mr. britling been so little disposed to take up the discourse. "like a man," he said, seeking an image and doing no more than imitate his son's; "who goes out of a busy lighted room through a trap-door into a blizzard, to mend the roof...." for some moments neither father nor son said anything more. they had a queer sense of insurmountable insufficiency. neither was saying what he had wanted to say to the other, but it was not clear to them now what they had to say to one another.... "it's wonderful," said mr. britling. hugh could only manage: "the world has turned right over...." "the job has to be done," said mr. britling. "the job has to be done," said hugh. the pause lengthened. "you'll be getting up early to-morrow," said mr. britling.... section when mr. britling was alone in his own room all the thoughts and feelings that had been held up downstairs began to run more and more rapidly and abundantly through his mind. he had a feeling--every now and again in the last few years he had had the same feeling--as though he was only just beginning to discover hugh. this perpetual rediscovery of one's children is the experience of every observant parent. he had always considered hugh as a youth, and now a man stood over him and talked, as one man to another. and this man, this very new man, mint new and clean and clear, filled mr. britling with surprise and admiration. it was as if he perceived the beauty of youth for the first time in hugh's slender, well balanced, khaki-clad body. there was infinite delicacy in his clear complexion, his clear eyes; the delicately pencilled eyebrow that was so exactly like his mother's. and this thing of brightness and bravery talked as gravely and as wisely as any weather-worn, shop-soiled, old fellow.... the boy was wise. hugh thought for himself; he thought round and through his position, not egotistically but with a quality of responsibility. he wasn't just hero-worshipping and imitating, just spinning some self-centred romance. if he was a fair sample of his generation then it was a better generation than mr. britling's had been.... at that mr. britling's mind went off at a tangent to the grievance of the rejected volunteer. it was acutely shameful to him that all these fine lads should be going off to death and wounds while the men of forty and over lay snug at home. how stupid it was to fix things like that! here were the fathers, who had done their work, shot their bolts, returned some value for the costs of their education, unable to get training, unable to be of any service, shamefully safe, doing april fool work as special constables; while their young innocents, untried, all their gathering possibilities of service unbroached, went down into the deadly trenches.... the war would leave the world a world of cripples and old men and children.... he felt himself as a cowardly brute, fat, wheezy, out of training, sheltering behind this dear one branch of mary's life. he writhed with impotent humiliation.... how stupidly the world is managed. he began to fret and rage. he could not lie in peace in his bed; he got up and prowled about his room, blundering against chairs and tables in the darkness.... we were too stupid to do the most obvious things; we were sending all these boys into hardship and pitiless danger; we were sending them ill-equipped, insufficiently supported, we were sending our children through the fires to moloch, because essentially we english were a world of indolent, pampered, sham good-humoured, old and middle-aged men. (so he distributed the intolerable load of self-accusation.) why was he doing nothing to change things, to get them better? what was the good of an assumed modesty, an effort at tolerance for and confidence in these boozy old lawyers, these ranting platform men, these stiff-witted officers and hide-bound officials? they were butchering the youth of england. old men sat out of danger contriving death for the lads in the trenches. that was the reality of the thing. "my son!" he cried sharply in the darkness. his sense of our national deficiencies became tormentingly, fantastically acute. it was as if all his cherished delusions had fallen from the scheme of things.... what was the good of making believe that up there they were planning some great counter-stroke that would end in victory? it was as plain as daylight that they had neither the power of imagination nor the collective intelligence even to conceive of a counter-stroke. any dull mass may resist, but only imagination can strike. imagination! to the end we should not strike. we might strike through the air. we might strike across the sea. we might strike hard at gallipoli instead of dribbling inadequate armies thither as our fathers dribbled men at the redan.... but the old men would sit at their tables, replete and sleepy, and shake their cunning old heads. the press would chatter and make odd ambiguous sounds like a shipload of monkeys in a storm. the political harridans would get the wrong men appointed, would attack every possible leader with scandal and abuse and falsehood.... the spirit and honour and drama had gone out of this war. our only hope now was exhaustion. our only strategy was to barter blood for blood--trusting that our tank would prove the deeper.... while into this tank stepped hugh, young and smiling.... the war became a nightmare vision.... section in the morning mr. britling's face was white from his overnight brain storm, and hugh's was fresh from wholesome sleep. they walked about the lawn, and mr. britling talked hopefully of the general outlook until it was time for them to start to the station.... the little old station-master grasped the situation at once, and presided over their last hand-clasp. "good luck, hugh!" cried mr. britling. "good luck!" cried the little old station-master. "it's not easy a-parting," he said to mr. britling as the train slipped down the line. "there's been many a parting hea' since this here old war began. many. and some as won't come back again neether." section for some days mr. britling could think of nothing but hugh, and always with a dull pain at his heart. he felt as he had felt long ago while he had waited downstairs and hugh upstairs had been under the knife of a surgeon. but this time the operation went on and still went on. at the worst his boy had but one chance in five of death or serious injury, but for a time he could think of nothing but that one chance. he felt it pressing upon his mind, pressing him down.... then instead of breaking under that pressure, he was released by the trick of the sanguine temperament. his mind turned over, abruptly, to the four chances out of five. it was like a dislocated joint slipping back into place. it was as sudden as that. he found he had adapted himself to the prospect of hugh in mortal danger. it had become a fact established, a usual thing. he could bear with it and go about his affairs. he went up to london, and met other men at the club in the same emotional predicament. he realised that it was neither very wonderful nor exceptionally tragic now to have a son at the front. "my boy is in gallipoli," said one. "it's tough work there." "my lad's in flanders," said mr. britling. "nothing would satisfy him but the front. he's three months short of eighteen. he misstated his age." and they went on to talk newspaper just as if the world was where it had always been. but until a post card came from hugh mr. britling watched the postman like a lovesick girl. hugh wrote more frequently than his father had dared to hope, pencilled letters for the most part. it was as if he was beginning to feel an inherited need for talk, and was a little at a loss for a sympathetic ear. park, his schoolmate, who had enlisted with him, wasn't, it seemed, a theoriser. "park becomes a martinet," hugh wrote. "also he is a sergeant now, and this makes rather a gulf between us." mr. britling had the greatest difficulty in writing back. there were many grave deep things he wanted to say, and never did. instead he gave elaborate details of the small affairs of the dower house. once or twice, with a half-unconscious imitation of his boy's style, he took a shot at the theological and philosophical hares that hugh had started. but the exemplary letters that he composed of nights from a father to a son at war were never written down. it was just as well, for there are many things of that sort that are good to think and bad to say.... hugh was not very explicit about his position or daily duties. what he wrote now had to pass through the hands of a censor, and any sort of definite information might cause the suppression of his letter. mr. britling conceived him for the most part as quartered some way behind the front, but in a flat, desolated country and within hearing of great guns. he assisted his imagination with the illustrated papers. sometimes he put him farther back into pleasant old towns after the fashion of beauvais, and imagined loitering groups in the front of cafés; sometimes he filled in the obvious suggestions of the phrase that all the pas de calais was now one vast british camp. then he crowded the picture with tethered horses and tents and grey-painted wagons, and hugh in the foreground--bare-armed, with a bucket.... hugh's letters divided themselves pretty fairly between two main topics; the first was the interest of the art of war, the second the reaction against warfare. "after one has got over the emotion of it," he wrote, "and when one's mind has just accepted and forgotten (as it does) the horrors and waste of it all, then i begin to perceive that war is absolutely the best game in the world. that is the real strength of war, i submit. not as you put it in that early pamphlet of yours; ambition, cruelty, and all those things. those things give an excuse for war, they rush timid and base people into war, but the essential matter is the hold of the thing itself upon an active imagination. it's such a big game. instead of being fenced into a field and tied down to one set of tools as you are in almost every other game, you have all the world to play and you may use whatever you can use. you can use every scrap of imagination and invention that is in you. and it's wonderful.... but real soldiers aren't cruel. and war isn't cruel in its essence. only in its consequences. over here one gets hold of scraps of talk that light up things. most of the barbarities were done--it is quite clear--by an excited civilian sort of men, men in a kind of inflamed state. the great part of the german army in the early stage of the war was really an army of demented civilians. trained civilians no doubt, but civilians in soul. they were nice orderly clean law-abiding men suddenly torn up by the roots and flung into quite shocking conditions. they felt they were rushing at death, and that decency was at an end. they thought every belgian had a gun behind the hedge and a knife in his trouser leg. they saw villages burning and dead people, and men smashed to bits. they lived in a kind of nightmare. they didn't know what they were doing. they did horrible things just as one does them sometimes in dreams...." he flung out his conclusion with just his mother's leaping consecutiveness. "conscript soldiers are the ruin of war.... half the germans and a lot of the french ought never to have been brought within ten miles of a battlefield. "what makes all this so plain are the diaries the french and english have been finding on the dead. you know at the early state of the war every german soldier was expected to keep a diary. he was ordered to do it. the idea was to keep him interested in the war. consequently, from the dead and wounded our people have got thousands.... it helps one to realise that the germans aren't really soldiers at all. not as our men are. they are obedient, law-abiding, intelligent people, who have been shoved into this. they have to see the war as something romantic and melodramatic, or as something moral, or as tragic fate. they have to bellow songs about 'deutschland,' or drag in 'gott.' they don't take to the game as our men take to the game.... "i confess i'm taking to the game. i wish at times i had gone into the o.t.c. with teddy, and got a better hold of it. i was too high-browed about this war business. i dream now of getting a commission.... "that diary-hunting strategy is just the sort of thing that makes this war intellectually fascinating. everything is being thought out and then tried over that can possibly make victory. the germans go in for psychology much more than we do, just as they go in for war more than we do, but they don't seem to be really clever about it. so they set out to make all their men understand the war, while our chaps are singing 'tipperary.' but what the men put down aren't the beautiful things they ought to put down; most of them shove down lists of their meals, some of the diaries are all just lists of things eaten, and a lot of them have written the most damning stuff about outrages and looting. which the french are translating and publishing. the germans would give anything now to get back these silly diaries. and now they have made an order that no one shall go into battle with any written papers at all.... our people got so keen on documenting and the value of chance writings that one of the principal things to do after a german attack had failed had been to hook in the documentary dead, and find out what they had on them.... it's a curious sport, this body fishing. you have a sort of triple hook on a rope, and you throw it and drag. they do the same. the other day one body near hooghe was hooked by both sides, and they had a tug-of-war. with a sharpshooter or so cutting in whenever our men got too excited. several men were hit. the irish--it was an irish regiment--got him--or at least they got the better part of him.... "now that i am a sergeant, park talks to me again about all these things, and we have a first lieutenant too keen to resist such technical details. they are purely technical details. you must take them as that. one does not think of the dead body as a man recently deceased, who had perhaps a wife and business connections and a weakness for oysters or pale brandy. or as something that laughed and cried and didn't like getting hurt. that would spoil everything. one thinks of him merely as a uniform with marks upon it that will tell us what kind of stuff we have against us, and possibly with papers that will give us a hint of how far he and his lot are getting sick of the whole affair.... "there's a kind of hardening not only of the body but of the mind through all this life out here. one is living on a different level. you know--just before i came away--you talked of dower-house-land--and outside. this is outside. it's different. our men here are kind enough still to little things--kittens or birds or flowers. behind the front, for example, everywhere there are tommy gardens. some are quite bright little patches. but it's just nonsense to suppose we are tender to the wounded up here--and, putting it plainly, there isn't a scrap of pity left for the enemy. not a scrap. not a trace of such feeling. they were tender about the wounded in the early days--men tell me--and reverent about the dead. it's all gone now. there have been atrocities, gas, unforgettable things. everything is harder. our people are inclined now to laugh at a man who gets hit, and to be annoyed at a man with a troublesome wound. the other day, they say, there was a big dead german outside the essex trenches. he became a nuisance, and he was dragged in and taken behind the line and buried. after he was buried, a kindly soul was putting a board over him with 'somebody's fritz' on it, when a shell burst close by. it blew the man with the board a dozen yards and wounded him, and it restored fritz to the open air. he was lifted clean out. he flew head over heels like a windmill. this was regarded as a tremendous joke against the men who had been at the pains of burying him. for a time nobody else would touch fritz, who was now some yards behind his original grave. then as he got worse and worse he was buried again by some devoted sanitarians, and this time the inscription was 'somebody's fritz. r.i.p.' and as luck would have it, he was spun up again. in pieces. the trench howled with laughter and cries of 'good old fritz!' 'this isn't the resurrection, fritz.'... "another thing that appeals to the sunny humour of the trenches as a really delicious practical joke is the trick of the fuses. we have two kinds of fuse, a slow-burning fuse such as is used for hand-grenades and such-like things, a sort of yard-a-minute fuse, and a rapid fuse that goes a hundred yards a second--for firing mines and so on. the latter is carefully distinguished from the former by a conspicuous red thread. also, as you know, it is the habit of the enemy and ourselves when the trenches are near enough, to enliven each other by the casting of homely but effective hand-grenades made out of tins. when a grenade drops in a british trench somebody seizes it instantly and throws it back. to hoist the german with his own petard is particularly sweet to the british mind. when a grenade drops into a german trench everybody runs. (at least that is what i am told happens by the men from our trenches; though possibly each side has its exceptions.) if the bomb explodes, it explodes. if it doesn't, hans and fritz presently come creeping back to see what has happened. sometimes the fuse hasn't caught properly, it has been thrown by a nervous man; or it hasn't burnt properly. then hans or fritz puts in a new fuse and sends it back with loving care. to hoist the briton with his own petard is particularly sweet to the german mind.... but here it is that military genius comes in. some gifted spirit on our side procured (probably by larceny) a length of mine fuse, the rapid sort, and spent a laborious day removing the red thread and making it into the likeness of its slow brother. then bits of it were attached to tin-bombs and shied--unlit of course--into the german trenches. a long but happy pause followed. i can see the chaps holding themselves in. hans and fritz were understood to be creeping back, to be examining the unlit fuse, to be applying a light thereunto, in order to restore it to its maker after their custom.... "a loud bang in the german trenches indicated the moment of lighting, and the exit of hans and fritz to worlds less humorous. "the genius in the british trenches went on with the preparation of the next surprise bomb--against the arrival of kurt and karl.... "hans, fritz, kurt, karl, michael and wilhelm; it went for quite a long time before they grew suspicious.... "you once wrote that all fighting ought to be done nowadays by metal soldiers. i perceive, my dear daddy, that all real fighting is...." section not all hugh's letters were concerned with these grim technicalities. it was not always that news and gossip came along; it was rare that a young man with a commission would condescend to talk shop to two young men without one; there were few newspapers and fewer maps, and even in france and within sound of guns, hugh could presently find warfare almost as much a bore as it had been at times in england. but his criticism of military methods died away. "things are done better out here," he remarked, and "we're nearer reality here. i begin to respect my captain. who is developing a sense of locality. happily for our prospects." and in another place he speculated in an oddly characteristic manner whether he was getting used to the army way, whether he was beginning to see the sense of the army way, or whether it really was that the army way braced up nearer and nearer to efficiency as it got nearer to the enemy. "and here one hasn't the haunting feeling that war is after all an hallucination. it's already common sense and the business of life.... "in england i always had a sneaking idea that i had 'dressed up' in my uniform.... "i never dreamt before i came here how much war is a business of waiting about and going through duties and exercises that were only too obviously a means of preventing our discovering just how much waiting about we were doing. i suppose there is no great harm in describing the place i am in here; it's a kind of scenery that is somehow all of a piece with the life we lead day by day. it is a village that has been only partly smashed up; it has never been fought through, indeed the germans were never within two miles of it, but it was shelled intermittently for months before we made our advance. almost all the houses are still standing, but there is not a window left with a square foot of glass in the place. one or two houses have been burnt out, and one or two are just as though they had been kicked to pieces by a lunatic giant. we sleep in batches of four or five on the floors of the rooms; there are very few inhabitants about, but the village inn still goes on. it has one poor weary billiard-table, very small with very big balls, and the cues are without tops; it is the amusement of the place. ortheris does miracles at it. when he leaves the army he says he's going to be a marker, 'a b----y marker.' the country about us is flat--featureless--desolate. how i long for hills, even for essex mud hills. then the road runs on towards the front, a brick road frightfully worn, lined with poplars. just at the end of the village mechanical transport ends and there is a kind of depot from which all the stuff goes up by mules or men or bicycles to the trenches. it is the only movement in the place, and i have spent hours watching men shift grub or ammunition or lending them a hand. all day one hears guns, a kind of thud at the stomach, and now and then one sees an aeroplane, very high and small. just beyond this point there is a group of poplars which have been punished by a german shell. they are broken off and splintered in the most astonishing way; all split and ravelled out like the end of a cane that has been broken and twisted to get the ends apart. the choice of one's leisure is to watch the a.s.c. or play football, twenty a side, or sit about indoors, or stand in the doorway, or walk down to the estaminet and wait five or six deep for the billiard-table. ultimately one sits. and so you get these unconscionable letters." "unconscionable," said mr. britling. "of course--he will grow out of that sort of thing. "and he'll write some day, sure enough. he'll write." he went on reading the letter. "we read, of course. but there never could be a library here big enough to keep us going. we can do with all sorts of books, but i don't think the ordinary sensational novel is quite the catch it was for a lot of them in peace time. some break towards serious reading in the oddest fashion. old park, for example, says he wants books you can chew; he is reading a cheap edition of 'the origin of species.' he used to regard florence warden and william le queux as the supreme delights of print. i wish you could send him metchnikoff's 'nature of man' or pearson's 'ethics of freethought.' i feel i am building up his tender mind. not for me though, daddy. nothing of that sort for me. these things take people differently. what i want here is literary opium. i want something about fauns and nymphs in broad low glades. i would like to read spenser's 'faerie queen.' i don't think i have read it, and yet i have a very distinct impression of knights and dragons and sorcerers and wicked magic ladies moving through a sort of pre-raphaelite tapestry scenery--only with a light on them. i could do with some hewlett of the 'forest lovers' kind. or with joseph conrad in his kew palm-house mood. and there is a book, i once looked into it at a man's room in london; i don't know the title, but it was by richard garnett, and it was all about gods who were in reduced circumstances but amidst sunny picturesque scenery. scenery without steel or poles or wire. a thing after the manner of heine's 'florentine nights.' any book about greek gods would be welcome, anything about temples of ivory-coloured stone and purple seas, red caps, chests of jewels, and lizards in the sun. i wish there was another 'thais.' the men here are getting a kind of newspaper sheet of literature scraps called _the times_ broadsheets. snippets, but mostly from good stuff. they're small enough to stir the appetite, but not to satisfy it. rather an irritant--and one wants no irritant.... i used to imagine reading was meant to be a stimulant. out here it has to be an anodyne.... "have you heard of a book called 'tom cringle's log'? "war is an exciting game--that i never wanted to play. it excites once in a couple of months. and the rest of it is dirt and muddle and boredom, and smashed houses and spoilt roads and muddy scenery and boredom, and the lumbering along of supplies and the lumbering back of the wounded and weary--and boredom, and continual vague guessing of how it will end and boredom and boredom and boredom, and thinking of the work you were going to do and the travel you were going to have, and the waste of life and the waste of days and boredom, and splintered poplars and stink, everywhere stink and dirt and boredom.... and all because these accursed prussians were too stupid to understand what a boredom they were getting ready when they pranced and stuck their chests out and earnt the praises of mr. thomas carlyle.... _gott strafe deutschland_.... so send me some books, books of dreams, books about china and the willow-pattern plate and the golden age and fairyland. and send them soon and address them very carefully...." section teddy's misadventure happened while figs were still ripening on mr. britling's big tree. it was cissie brought the news to mr. britling. she came up to the dower house with a white, scared face. "i've come up for the letters," she said. "there's bad news of teddy, and letty's rather in a state." "he's not--?" mr. britling left the word unsaid. "he's wounded and missing," said cissie. "a prisoner!" said mr. britling. "and wounded. _how_, we don't know." she added: "letty has gone to telegraph." "telegraph to whom?" "to the war office, to know what sort of wound he has. they tell nothing. it's disgraceful." "it doesn't say _severely_?" "it says just nothing. wounded and missing! surely they ought to give us particulars." mr. britling thought. his first thought was that now news might come at any time that hugh was wounded and missing. then he set himself to persuade cissie that the absence of "seriously" meant that teddy was only quite bearably wounded, and that if he was also "missing" it might be difficult for the war office to ascertain at once just exactly what she wanted to know. but cissie said merely that "letty was in an awful state," and after mr. britling had given her a few instructions for his typing, he went down to the cottage to repeat these mitigatory considerations to letty. he found her much whiter than her sister, and in a state of cold indignation with the war office. it was clear she thought that organisation ought to have taken better care of teddy. she had a curious effect of feeling that something was being kept back from her. it was manifest too that she was disposed to regard mr. britling as biased in favour of the authorities. "at any rate," she said, "they could have answered my telegram promptly. i sent it at eight. two hours of scornful silence." this fierce, strained, unjust letty was a new aspect to mr. britling. her treatment of his proffered consolations made him feel slightly henpecked. "and just fancy!" she said. "they have no means of knowing if he has arrived safely on the german side. how can they know he is a prisoner without knowing that?" "but the word is 'missing.'" "that _means_ a prisoner," said letty uncivilly.... section mr. britling returned to the dower house perplexed and profoundly disturbed. he had a distressful sense that things were far more serious with teddy than he had tried to persuade letty they were; that "wounded and missing" meant indeed a man abandoned to very sinister probabilities. he was distressed for teddy, and still more acutely distressed for mrs. teddy, whose every note and gesture betrayed suppositions even more sinister than his own. and that preposterous sense of liability, because he had helped teddy to get his commission, was more distressful than it had ever been. he was surprised that letty had not assailed him with railing accusations. and this event had wiped off at one sweep all the protective scab of habituation that had gathered over the wound of hugh's departure. he was back face to face with the one evil chance in five.... in the hall there was lying a letter from hugh that had come by the second post. it was a relief even to see it.... hugh had had his first spell in the trenches. before his departure he had promised his half brothers a long and circumstantial account of what the trenches were really like. here he redeemed his promise. he had evidently written with the idea that the letter would be handed over to them. "tell the bruddykinses i'm glad they're going to brinsmead school. later on, i suppose, they will go on to statesminster. i suppose that you don't care to send them so far in these troubled times.... "and now about those trenches--as i promised. the great thing to grasp is that they are narrow. they are a sort of negative wall. they are more like giant cracks in the ground than anything else.... but perhaps i had better begin by telling how we got there. we started about one in the morning ladened up with everything you can possibly imagine on a soldier, and in addition i had a kettle--filled with water--most of the chaps had bundles of firewood, and some had extra bread. we marched out of our quarters along the road for a mile or more, and then we took the fields, and presently came to a crest and dropped into a sort of maze of zigzag trenches going up to the front trench. these trenches, you know, are much deeper than one's height; you don't see anything. it's like walking along a mud-walled passage. you just trudge along them in single file. every now and then some one stumbles into a soakaway for rainwater or swears at a soft place, or somebody blunders into the man in front of him. this seems to go on for hours and hours. it certainly went on for an hour; so i suppose we did two or three miles of it. at one place we crossed a dip in the ground and a ditch, and the trench was built up with sandbags up to the ditch and there was a plank. overhead there were stars, and now and then a sort of blaze thing they send up lit up the edges of the trench and gave one a glimpse of a treetop or a factory roof far away. then for a time it was more difficult to go on because you were blinded. suddenly just when you were believing that this sort of trudge was going on forever, we were in the support trenches behind the firing line, and found the men we were relieving ready to come back. "and the firing line itself? just the same sort of ditch with a parapet of sandbags, but with dug-outs, queer big holes helped out with sleepers from a nearby railway track, opening into it from behind. dug-outs vary a good deal. many are rather like the cubby-house we made at the end of the orchard last summer; only the walls are thick enough to stand a high explosive shell. the best dug-out in our company's bit of front was quite a dressy affair with some woodwork and a door got from the ruins of a house twenty or thirty yards behind us. it had a stove in it too, and a chimbley, and pans to keep water in. it was the best dug-out for miles. this house had a well, and there was a special trench ran back to that, and all day long there was a coming and going for water. there had once been a pump over the well, but a shell had smashed that.... "and now you expect me to tell of germans and the fight and shelling and all sorts of things. _i haven't seen a live german_; i haven't been within two hundred yards of a shell burst, there has been no attack and i haven't got the v.c. i have made myself muddy beyond describing; i've been working all the time, but i've not fired a shot or fought a ha'porth. we were busy all the time--just at work, repairing the parapet, which had to be done gingerly because of snipers, bringing our food in from the rear in big carriers, getting water, pushing our trench out from an angle slantingways forward. getting meals, clearing up and so on takes a lot of time. we make tea in big kettles in the big dug-out, which two whole companies use for their cooking, and carry them with a pole through the handles to our platoons. we wash up and wash and shave. dinner preparation (and consumption) takes two or three hours. tea too uses up time. it's like camping out and picnicking in the park. this first time (and next too) we have been mixed with some sussex men who have been here longer and know the business.... it works out that we do most of the fatigue. afterwards we shall go up alone to a pitch of our own.... "but all the time you want to know about the germans. they are a quarter of a mile away at this part, or nearly a quarter of a mile. when you snatch a peep at them it is like a low parti-coloured stone wall--only the stones are sandbags. the germans have them black and white, so that you cannot tell which are loopholes and which are black bags. our people haven't been so clever--and the war office love of uniformity has given us only white bags. no doubt it looks neater. but it makes our loopholes plain. for a time black sandbags were refused. the germans sniped at us, but not very much. only one of our lot was hit, by a chance shot that came through the sandbag at the top of the parapet. he just had a cut in the neck which didn't prevent his walking back. they shelled the trenches half a mile to the left of us though, and it looked pretty hot. the sandbags flew about. but the men lie low, and it looks worse than it is. the weather was fine and pleasant, as general french always says. and after three days and nights of cramped existence and petty chores, one in the foremost trench and two a little way back, and then two days in support, we came back--and here we are again waiting for our second go. "the night time is perhaps a little more nervy than the day. you get your head up and look about, and see the flat dim country with its ruined houses and its lumps of stuff that are dead bodies and its long vague lines of sandbags, and the searchlights going like white windmill arms and an occasional flare or star shell. and you have a nasty feeling of people creeping and creeping all night between the trenches.... "some of us went out to strengthen a place in the parapet that was only one sandbag thick, where a man had been hit during the day. we made it four bags thick right up to the top. all the while you were doing it, you dreaded to find yourself in the white glare of a searchlight, and you had a feeling that something would hit you suddenly from behind. i had to make up my mind not to look round, or i should have kept on looking round.... also our chaps kept shooting over us, within a foot of one's head. just to persuade the germans that we were not out of the trench.... "nothing happened to us. we got back all right. it was silly to have left that parapet only one bag thick. there's the truth, and all of my first time in the trenches. "and the germans? "i tell you there was no actual fighting at all. i never saw the head of one. "but now see what a good bruddykins i am. i have seen a fight, a real exciting fight, and i have kept it to the last to tell you about.... it was a fight in the air. and the british won. it began with a german machine appearing, very minute and high, sailing towards our lines a long way to the left. we could tell it was a german because of the black cross; they decorate every aeroplane with a black iron cross on its wings and tail; that our officer could see with his glasses. (he let me look.) suddenly whack, whack, whack, came a line of little puffs of smoke behind it, and then one in front of it, which meant that our anti-aircraft guns were having a go at it. then, as suddenly, archibald stopped, and we could see the british machine buzzing across the path of the german. it was just like two birds circling in the air. or wasps. they buzzed like wasps. there was a little crackling--like brushing your hair in frosty weather. they were shooting at each other. then our lieutenant called out, 'hit, by jove!' and handed the glasses to park and instantly wanted them back. he says he saw bits of the machine flying off. "when he said that you could fancy you saw it too, up there in the blue. "anyhow the little machine cocked itself up on end. rather slowly.... then down it came like dropping a knife.... "it made you say 'ooooo!' to see that dive. it came down, seemed to get a little bit under control, and then dive down again. you could hear the engine roar louder and louder as it came down. i never saw anything fall so fast. we saw it hit the ground among a lot of smashed-up buildings on the crest behind us. it went right over and flew to pieces, all to smithereens.... "it hurt your nose to see it hit the ground.... "somehow--i was sort of overcome by the thought of the men in that dive. i was trying to imagine how they felt it. from the moment when they realised they were going. "what on earth must it have seemed like at last? "they fell seven thousand feet, the men say; some say nine thousand feet. a mile and a half! "but all the chaps were cheering.... and there was our machine hanging in the sky. you wanted to reach up and pat it on the back. it went up higher and away towards the german lines, as though it was looking for another german. it seemed to go now quite slowly. it was an english machine, though for a time we weren't sure; our machines are done in tri-colour just as though they were french. but everybody says it was english. it was one of our crack fighting machines, and from first to last it has put down seven germans.... and that's really all the fighting there was. there has been fighting here; a month ago. there are perhaps a dozen dead germans lying out still in front of the lines. little twisted figures, like overthrown scarecrows, about a hundred yards away. but that is all. "no, the trenches have disappointed me. they are a scene of tiresome domesticity. they aren't a patch on our quarters in the rear. there isn't the traffic. i've not found a single excuse for firing my rifle. i don't believe i shall ever fire my rifle at an enemy--ever.... "you've seen rendezvous' fresh promotion, i suppose? he's one of the men the young officers talk about. everybody believes in him. do you remember how manning used to hide from him?..." section mr. britling read this through, and then his thoughts went back to teddy's disappearance and then returned to hugh. the youngster was right in the front now, and one had to steel oneself to the possibilities of the case. somehow mr. britling had not expected to find hugh so speedily in the firing line, though he would have been puzzled to find a reason why this should not have happened. but he found he had to begin the lesson of stoicism all over again. he read the letter twice, and then he searched for some indication of its date. he suspected that letters were sometimes held back.... four days later this suspicion was confirmed by the arrival of another letter from hugh in which he told of his second spell in the trenches. this time things had been much more lively. they had been heavily shelled and there had been a german attack. and this time he was writing to his father, and wrote more freely. he had scribbled in pencil. "things are much livelier here than they were. our guns are getting to work. they are firing in spells of an hour or so, three or four times a day, and just when they seem to be leaving off they begin again. the germans suddenly got the range of our trenches the day before yesterday, and begun to pound us with high explosive.... well, it's trying. you never seem quite to know when the next bang is coming, and that keeps your nerves hung up; it seems to tighten your muscles and tire you. we've done nothing but lie low all day, and i feel as weary as if i had marched twenty miles. then 'whop,' one's near you, and there is a flash and everything flies. it's a mad sort of smash-about. one came much too close to be pleasant; as near as the old oil jars are from the barn court door. it bowled me clean over and sent a lot of gravel over me. when i got up there was twenty yards of trench smashed into a mere hole, and men lying about, and some of them groaning and one three-quarters buried. we had to turn to and get them out as well as we could.... "i felt stunned and insensitive; it was well to have something to do.... "our guns behind felt for the german guns. it was the damnest racket. like giant lunatics smashing about amidst colossal pots and pans. they fired different sorts of shells; stink shells as well as jack johnsons, and though we didn't get much of that at our corner there was a sting of chlorine in the air all through the afternoon. most of the stink shells fell short. we hadn't masks, but we rigged up a sort of protection with our handkerchiefs. and it didn't amount to very much. it was rather like the chemistry room after heinrich and the kids had been mixing things. most of the time i was busy helping with the men who had got hurt. suddenly there came a lull. then some one said the germans were coming, and i had a glimpse of them. "you don't look at anything steadily while the guns are going. when a big gun goes off or a shell bursts anywhere near you, you seem neither to see nor hear for a moment. you keep on being intermittently stunned. one sees in a kind of flicker in between the impacts.... "well, there they were. this time i saw them. they were coming out and running a little way and dropping, and our shell was bursting among them and behind them. a lot of it was going too far. i watched what our men were doing, and poured out a lot of cartridges ready to my hand and began to blaze away. half the german attack never came out of their trench. if they really intended business against us, which i doubt, they were half-hearted in carrying it out. they didn't show for five minutes, and they left two or three score men on the ground. whenever we saw a man wriggle we were told to fire at him; it might be an unwounded man trying to crawl back. for a time our guns gave them beans. then it was practically over, but about sunset their guns got back at us again, and the artillery fight went on until it was moonlight. the chaps in our third company caught it rather badly, and then our guns seemed to find something and get the upper hand.... "in the night some of our men went out to repair the wire entanglements, and one man crawled halfway to the enemy trenches to listen. but i had done my bit for the day, and i was supposed to sleep in the dug-out. i was far too excited to sleep. all my nerves were jumping about, and my mind was like a lot of flying fragments flying about very fast.... "they shelled us again next day and our tea dixy was hit; so that we didn't get any tea.... "i slept thirty hours after i got back here. and now i am slowly digesting these experiences. most of our fellows are. my mind and nerves have been rather bumped and bruised by the shelling, but not so much as you might think. i feel as though i'd presently not think very much of it. some of our men have got the stun of it a lot more than i have. it gets at the older men more. everybody says that. the men of over thirty-five don't recover from a shelling for weeks. they go about--sort of hesitatingly.... "life is very primitive here--which doesn't mean that one is getting down to anything fundamental, but only going back to something immediate and simple. it's fetching and carrying and getting water and getting food and going up to the firing line and coming back. one goes on for weeks, and then one day one finds oneself crying out, 'what is all this for? when is it to end?' i seemed to have something ahead of me before this war began, education, science, work, discoveries; all sorts of things; but it is hard to feel that there is anything ahead of us here.... "somehow the last spell in the fire trench has shaken up my mind a lot. i was getting used to the war before, but now i've got back to my original amazement at the whole business. i find myself wondering what we are really up to, why the war began, why we were caught into this amazing routine. it looks, it feels orderly, methodical, purposeful. our officers give us orders and get their orders, and the men back there get their orders. everybody is getting orders. back, i suppose, to lord kitchener. it goes on for weeks with the effect of being quite sane and intended and the right thing, and then, then suddenly it comes whacking into one's head, 'but this--this is utterly _mad_!' this going to and fro and to and fro and to and fro; this monotony which breaks ever and again into violence--violence that never gets anywhere--is exactly the life that a lunatic leads. melancholia and mania.... it's just a collective obsession--by war. the world is really quite mad. i happen to be having just one gleam of sanity, that won't last after i have finished this letter. i suppose when an individual man goes mad and gets out of the window because he imagines the door is magically impossible, and dances about in the street without his trousers jabbing at passers-by with a toasting-fork, he has just the same sombre sense of unavoidable necessity that we have, all of us, when we go off with our packs into the trenches.... "it's only by an effort that i can recall how life felt in the spring of . do you remember heinrich and his attempt to make a table chart of the roses, so that we could sit outside the barn and read the names of all the roses in the barn court? like the mountain charts they have on tables in switzerland. what an inconceivable thing that is now! for all i know i shot heinrich the other night. for all i know he is one of the lumps that we counted after the attack went back. "it's a queer thing, daddy, but i have a sort of _seditious_ feeling in writing things like this. one gets to feel that it is wrong to think. it's the effect of discipline. of being part of a machine. still, i doubt if i ought to think. if one really looks into things in this spirit, where is it going to take us? ortheris--his real name by the by is arthur jewell--hasn't any of these troubles. 'the b----y germans butted into belgium,' he says. 'we've got to 'oof 'em out again. that's all abart it. leastways it's all _i_ know.... i don't know nothing about serbia, i don't know nothing about anything, except that the germans got to stop this sort of gime for everlasting, amen.'... "sometimes i think he's righter than i am. sometimes i think he is only madder." section these letters weighed heavily upon mr. britling's mind. he perceived that this precociously wise, subtle youngster of his was now close up to the line of injury and death, going to and fro from it, in a perpetual, fluctuating danger. at any time now in the day or night the evil thing might wing its way to him. if mr. britling could have prayed, he would have prayed for hugh. he began and never finished some ineffectual prayers. he tried to persuade himself of a roman stoicism; that he would be sternly proud, sternly satisfied, if this last sacrifice for his country was demanded from him. he perceived he was merely humbugging himself.... this war had no longer the simple greatness that would make any such stern happiness possible.... the disaster to teddy and mrs. teddy hit him hard. he winced at the thought of mrs. teddy's white face; the unspoken accusation in her eyes. he felt he could never bring himself to say his one excuse to her: "i did not keep hugh back. if i had done that, then you might have the right to blame." if he had overcome every other difficulty in the way to an heroic pose there was still hugh's unconquerable lucidity of outlook. war _was_ a madness.... but what else was to be done? what else could be done? we could not give in to germany. if a lunatic struggles, sane men must struggle too.... mr. britling had ceased to write about the war at all. all his later writings about it had been abandoned unfinished. he could not imagine them counting, affecting any one, producing any effect. indeed he was writing now very intermittently. his contributions to _the times_ had fallen away. he was perpetually thinking now about the war, about life and death, about the religious problems that had seemed so remote in the days of the peace; but none of his thinking would become clear and definite enough for writing. all the clear stars of his mind were hidden by the stormy clouds of excitement that the daily newspaper perpetually renewed and by the daily developments of life. and just as his professional income shrank before his mental confusion and impotence, the private income that came from his and his wife's investments became uncertain. she had had two thousand pounds in the constantinople loan, seven hundred in debentures of the ottoman railway; he had held similar sums in two hungarian and one bulgarian loan, in a linoleum factory at rouen and in a swiss hotel company. all these stopped payments, and the dividends from their other investments shrank. there seemed no limit set to the possibilities of shrinkage of capital and income. income tax had leapt to colossal dimensions, the cost of most things had risen, and the tangle of life was now increased by the need for retrenchments and economies. he decided that gladys, the facetiously named automobile, was a luxury, and sold her for a couple of hundred pounds. he lost his gardener, who had gone to higher priced work with a miller, and he had great trouble to replace him, so that the garden became disagreeably unkempt and unsatisfactory. he had to give up his frequent trips to london. he was obliged to defer statesminster for the boys. for a time at any rate they must go as day boys to brinsmead. at every point he met this uncongenial consideration of ways and means. for years now he had gone easy, lived with a certain self-indulgence. it was extraordinarily vexatious to have one's greater troubles for one's country and one's son and one's faith crossed and complicated by these little troubles of the extra sixpence and the untimely bill. what worried his mind perhaps more than anything else was his gradual loss of touch with the essential issues of the war. at first the militarism, the aggression of germany, had seemed so bad that he could not see the action of britain and her allies as anything but entirely righteous. he had seen the war plainly and simply in the phrase, "now this militarism must end." he had seen germany as a system, as imperialism and junkerism, as a callous materialist aggression, as the spirit that makes war, and the allies as the protest of humanity against all these evil things. insensibly, in spite of himself, this first version of the war was giving place to another. the tawdry, rhetorical german emperor, who had been the great antagonist at the outset, the last upholder of cæsarism, god's anointed with the withered arm and the mailed fist, had receded from the foreground of the picture; that truer germany which is thought and system, which is the will to do things thoroughly, the germany of ostwald and the once rejected hindenburg, was coming to the fore. it made no apology for the errors and crimes that had been imposed upon it by its hohenzollern leadership, but it fought now to save itself from the destruction and division that would be its inevitable lot if it accepted defeat too easily; fought to hold out, fought for a second chance, with discipline, with skill and patience, with a steadfast will. it fought with science, it fought with economy, with machines and thought against all too human antagonists. it necessitated an implacable resistance, but also it commanded respect. against it fought three great peoples with as fine a will; but they had neither the unity, the habitual discipline, nor the science of germany, and it was the latter defect that became more and more the distressful matter of mr. britling's thoughts. france after her initial experiences, after her first reeling month, had risen from the very verge of defeat to a steely splendour of resolution, but england and russia, those twin slack giants, still wasted force, were careless, negligent, uncertain. everywhere up and down the scale, from the stupidity of the uniform sandbags and hugh's young officer who would not use a map, to the general conception and direction of the war, mr. britling's inflamed and oversensitised intelligence perceived the same bad qualities for which he had so often railed upon his countrymen in the days of the peace, that impatience, that indolence, that wastefulness and inconclusiveness, that failure to grip issues and do obviously necessary things. the same lax qualities that had brought england so close to the supreme imbecility of a civil war in ireland in july, , were now muddling and prolonging the war, and postponing, it might be for ever, the victory that had seemed so certain only a year ago. the politician still intrigued, the ineffectives still directed. against brains used to the utmost their fight was a stupid thrusting forth of men and men and yet more men, men badly trained, under-equipped, stupidly led. a press clamour for invention and scientific initiative was stifled under a committee of elderly celebrities and eminent dufferdom; from the outset, the ministry of munitions seemed under the influence of the "business man."... it is true that righteousness should triumph over the tyrant and the robber, but have carelessness and incapacity any right to triumph over capacity and foresight? men were coming now to dark questionings between this intricate choice. and, indeed, was our cause all righteousness? there surely is the worst doubt of all for a man whose son is facing death. were we indeed standing against tyranny for freedom? there came drifting to mr. britling's ears a confusion of voices, voices that told of reaction, of the schemes of employers to best the trade unions, of greedy shippers and greedy house landlords reaping their harvest, of waste and treason in the very households of the ministry, of religious cant and intolerance at large, of self-advertisement written in letters of blood, of forestalling and jobbery, of irrational and exasperating oppressions in india and egypt.... it came with a shock to him, too, that hugh should see so little else than madness in the war, and have so pitiless a realisation of its essential futility. the boy forced his father to see--what indeed all along he had been seeing more and more clearly. the war, even by the standards of adventure and conquest, had long since become a monstrous absurdity. some way there must be out of this bloody entanglement that was yielding victory to neither side, that was yielding nothing but waste and death beyond all precedent. the vast majority of people everywhere must be desiring peace, willing to buy peace at any reasonable price, and in all the world it seemed there was insufficient capacity to end the daily butchery and achieve the peace that was so universally desired, the peace that would be anything better than a breathing space for further warfare.... every day came the papers with the balanced story of battles, losses, destructions, ships sunk, towns smashed. and never a decision, never a sign of decision. one saturday afternoon mr. britling found himself with mrs. britling at claverings. lady homartyn was in mourning for her two nephews, the glassington boys, who had both been killed, one in flanders, the other in gallipoli. raeburn was there too, despondent and tired-looking. there were three young men in khaki, one with the red of a staff officer; there were two or three women whom mr. britling had not met before, and miss sharsper the novelist, fresh from nursing experience among the convalescents in the south of france. but he was disgusted to find that the gathering was dominated by his old antagonist, lady frensham, unsubdued, unaltered, rampant over them all, arrogant, impudent, insulting. she was in mourning, she had the most splendid black furs mr. britling had ever seen; her large triumphant profile came out of them like the head of a vulture out of its ruff; her elder brother was a wounded prisoner in germany, her second was dead; it would seem that hers were the only sacrifices the war had yet extorted from any one. she spoke as though it gave her the sole right to criticise the war or claim compensation for the war. her incurable propensity to split the country, to make mischievous accusations against classes and districts and public servants, was having full play. she did her best to provoke mr. britling into a dispute, and throw some sort of imputation upon his patriotism as distinguished from her own noisy and intolerant conceptions of "loyalty." she tried him first with conscription. she threw out insults at the shirkers and the "funk classes." all the middle-class people clung on to their wretched little businesses, made any sort of excuse.... mr. britling was stung to defend them. "a business," he said acidly, "isn't like land, which waits and grows rich for its owner. and these people can't leave ferrety little agents behind them when they go off to serve. tens of thousands of middle-class men have ruined themselves and flung away every prospect they had in the world to go to this war." "and scores of thousands haven't!" said lady frensham. "they are the men i'm thinking of."... mr. britling ran through a little list of aristocratic stay-at-homes that began with a duke. "and not a soul speaks to them in consequence," she said. she shifted her attack to the labour people. they would rather see the country defeated than submit to a little discipline. "because they have no faith in the house of lawyers or the house of landlords," said mr. britling. "who can blame them?" she proceeded to tell everybody what she would do with strikers. she would give them "short shrift." she would give them a taste of the prussian way--homoeopathic treatment. "but of course old vote-catching asquith daren't--he daren't!" mr. britling opened his mouth and said nothing; he was silenced. the men in khaki listened respectfully but ambiguously; one of the younger ladies it seemed was entirely of lady frensham's way of thinking, and anxious to show it. the good lady having now got her hands upon the cabinet proceeded to deal faithfully with its two-and-twenty members. winston churchill had overridden lord fisher upon the question of gallipoli, and incurred terrible responsibilities. lord haldane--she called him "tubby haldane"--was a convicted traitor. "the man's a german out and out. oh! what if he hasn't a drop of german blood in his veins? he's a german by choice--which is worse." "i thought he had a certain capacity for organisation," said mr. britling. "we don't want his organisation, and we don't want _him_," said lady frensham. mr. britling pleaded for particulars of the late lord chancellor's treasons. there were no particulars. it was just an idea the good lady had got into her head, that had got into a number of accessible heads. there was only one strong man in all the country now, lady frensham insisted. that was sir edward carson. mr. britling jumped in his chair. "but has he ever done anything?" he cried, "except embitter ireland?" lady frensham did not hear that question. she pursued her glorious theme. lloyd george, who had once been worthy only of the gallows, was now the sole minister fit to put beside her hero. he had won her heart by his condemnation of the working man. he was the one man who was not afraid to speak out, to tell them they drank, to tell them they shirked and loafed, to tell them plainly that if defeat came to this country the blame would fall upon _them_! "_no!_" cried mr. britling. "yes," said lady frensham. "upon them and those who have flattered and misled them...." and so on.... it presently became necessary for lady homartyn to rescue mr. britling from the great lady's patriotic tramplings. he found himself drifting into the autumnal garden--the show of dahlias had never been so wonderful--in the company of raeburn and the staff officer and a small woman who was presently discovered to be remarkably well-informed. they were all despondent. "i think all this promiscuous blaming of people is quite the worst--and most ominous--thing about us just now," said mr. britling after the restful pause that followed the departure from the presence of lady frensham. "it goes on everywhere," said the staff officer. "is it really--honest?" said mr. britling. raeburn, after reflection, decided to answer. "as far as it is stupid, yes. there's a lot of blame coming; there's bound to be a day of reckoning, and i suppose we've all got an instinctive disposition to find a scapegoat for our common sins. the tory press is pretty rotten, and there's a strong element of mere personal spite--in the churchill attacks for example. personal jealousy probably. our 'old families' seem to have got vulgar-spirited imperceptibly--in a generation or so. they quarrel and shirk and lay blame exactly as bad servants do--and things are still far too much in their hands. things are getting muffed, there can be no doubt about that--not fatally, but still rather seriously. and the government--it was human before the war, and we've added no archangels. there's muddle. there's mutual suspicion. you never know what newspaper office lloyd george won't be in touch with next. he's honest and patriotic and energetic, but he's mortally afraid of old women and class intrigues. he doesn't know where to get his backing. he's got all a labour member's terror of the dagger at his back. there's a lack of nerve, too, in getting rid of prominent officers--who have friends." the staff officer nodded. "northcliffe seems to me to have a case," said mr. britling. "every one abuses him." "i'd stop his _daily mail_," said raeburn. "i'd leave _the times_, but i'd stop the _daily mail_ on the score of its placards alone. it overdoes northcliffe. it translates him into the shrieks and yells of underlings. the plain fact is that northcliffe is scared out of his wits by german efficiency--and in war time when a man is scared out of his wits, whether he is honest or not, you put his head in a bag or hold a pistol to it to calm him.... what is the good of all this clamouring for a change of government? we haven't a change of government. it's like telling a tramp to get a change of linen. our men, all our public men, are second-rate men, with the habits of advocates. there is nothing masterful in their minds. how can you expect the system to produce anything else? but they are doing as well as they can, and there is no way of putting in any one else now, and there you are." "meanwhile," said mr. britling, "our boys--get killed." "they'd get killed all the more if you had--let us say--carson and lloyd george and northcliffe and lady frensham, with, i suppose, austin harrison and horatio bottomley thrown in--as a strong silent government.... i'd rather have northcliffe as dictator than that.... we can't suddenly go back on the past and alter our type. we didn't listen to matthew arnold. we've never thoroughly turned out and cleaned up our higher schools. we've resisted instruction. we've preferred to maintain our national luxuries of a bench of bishops and party politics. and compulsory greek and the university sneer. and lady frensham. and all that sort of thing. and here we are!... well, damn it, we're in for it now; we've got to plough through with it--with what we have--as what we are." the young staff officer nodded. he thought that was "about it." "you've got no sons," said mr. britling. "i'm not even married," said raeburn, as though he thanked god. the little well-informed lady remarked abruptly that she had two sons; one was just home wounded from suvla bay. what her son told her made her feel very grave. she said that the public was still quite in the dark about the battle of anafarta. it had been a hideous muddle, and we had been badly beaten. the staff work had been awful. nothing joined up, nothing was on the spot and in time. the water supply, for example, had gone wrong; the men had been mad with thirst. one regiment which she named had not been supported by another; when at last the first came back the two battalions fought in the trenches regardless of the enemy. there had been no leading, no correlation, no plan. some of the guns, she declared, had been left behind in egypt. some of the train was untraceable to this day. it was mislaid somewhere in the levant. at the beginning sir ian hamilton had not even been present. he had failed to get there in time. it had been the reckless throwing away of an army. and so hopeful an army! her son declared it meant the complete failure of the dardanelles project.... "and when one hears how near we came to victory!" she cried, and left it at that. "three times this year," said raeburn, "we have missed victories because of the badness of our staff work. it's no good picking out scapegoats. it's a question of national habit. it's because the sort of man we turn out from our public schools has never learnt how to catch trains, get to an office on the minute, pack a knapsack properly, or do anything smartly and quickly--anything whatever that he can possibly get done for him. you can't expect men who are habitually easy-going to keep bucked up to a high pitch of efficiency for any length of time. all their training is against it. all their tradition. they hate being prigs. an englishman will be any sort of stupid failure rather than appear a prig. that's why we've lost three good fights that we ought to have won--and thousands and thousands of men--and material and time, precious beyond reckoning. we've lost a year. we've dashed the spirit of our people." "my boy in flanders," said mr. britling, "says about the same thing. he says our officers have never learnt to count beyond ten, and that they are scared at the sight of a map...." "and the war goes on," said the little woman. "how long, oh lord! how long?" cried mr. britling. "i'd give them another year," said the staff officer. "just going as we are going. then something _must_ give way. there will be no money anywhere. there'll be no more men.... i suppose they'll feel that shortage first anyhow. russia alone has over twenty millions." "that's about the size of it," said raeburn.... "do you think, sir, there'll be civil war?" asked the young staff officer abruptly after a pause. there was a little interval before any one answered this surprising question. "after the peace, i mean," said the young officer. "there'll be just the devil to pay," said raeburn. "one thing after another in the country is being pulled up by its roots," reflected mr. britling. "we've never produced a plan for the war, and it isn't likely we shall have one for the peace," said raeburn, and added: "and lady frensham's little lot will be doing their level best to sit on the safety-valve.... they'll rake up ireland and ulster from the very start. but i doubt if ulster will save 'em." "we shall squabble. what else do we ever do?" no one seemed able to see more than that. a silence fell on the little party. "well, thank heaven for these dahlias," said raeburn, affecting the philosopher. the young staff officer regarded the dahlias without enthusiasm.... section mr. britling sat one september afternoon with captain lawrence carmine in the sunshine of the barn court, and smoked with him and sometimes talked and sometimes sat still. "when it began i did not believe that this war could be like other wars," he said. "i did not dream it. i thought that we had grown wiser at last. it seemed to me like the dawn of a great clearing up. i thought the common sense of mankind would break out like a flame, an indignant flame, and consume all this obsolete foolery of empires and banners and militarism directly it made its attack upon human happiness. a score of things that i see now were preposterous, i thought must happen--naturally. i thought america would declare herself against the belgian outrage; that she would not tolerate the smashing of the great sister republic--if only for the memory of lafayette. well--i gather america is chiefly concerned about our making cotton contraband. i thought the balkan states were capable of a reasonable give and take; of a common care for their common freedom. i see now three german royalties trading in peasants, and no men in their lands to gainsay them. i saw this war, as so many frenchmen have seen it, as something that might legitimately command a splendid enthusiasm of indignation.... it was all a dream, the dream of a prosperous comfortable man who had never come to the cutting edge of life. everywhere cunning, everywhere small feuds and hatreds, distrusts, dishonesties, timidities, feebleness of purpose, dwarfish imaginations, swarm over the great and simple issues.... it is a war now like any other of the mobbing, many-aimed cataclysms that have shattered empires and devastated the world; it is a war without point, a war that has lost its soul, it has become mere incoherent fighting and destruction, a demonstration in vast and tragic forms of the stupidity and ineffectiveness of our species...." he stopped, and there was a little interval of silence. captain carmine tossed the fag end of his cigar very neatly into a tub of hydrangeas. "three thousand years ago in china," he said, "there were men as sad as we are, for the same cause." "three thousand years ahead perhaps," said mr. britling, "there will still be men with the same sadness.... and yet--and yet.... no. just now i have no elasticity. it is not in my nature to despair, but things are pressing me down. i don't recover as i used to recover. i tell myself still that though the way is long and hard the spirit of hope, the spirit of creation, the generosities and gallantries in the heart of man, must end in victory. but i say that over as one repeats a worn-out prayer. the light is out of the sky for me. sometimes i doubt if it will ever come back. let younger men take heart and go on with the world. if i could die for the right thing now--instead of just having to live on in this world of ineffective struggle--i would be glad to die now, carmine...." section in these days also mr. direck was very unhappy. for cissie, at any rate, had not lost touch with the essential issues of the war. she was as clear as ever that german militarism and the german attack on belgium and france was the primary subject of the war. and she dismissed all secondary issues. she continued to demand why america did not fight. "we fight for belgium. won't you fight for the dutch and norwegian ships? won't you even fight for your own ships that the germans are sinking?" mr. direck attempted explanations that were ill received. "you were ready enough to fight the spaniards when they blew up the _maine_. but the germans can sink the _lusitania_! that's--as you say--a different proposition." his mind was shot by an extraordinary suspicion that she thought the _lusitania_ an american vessel. but mr. direck was learning his cissie, and he did not dare to challenge her on this score. "you haven't got hold of the american proposition," he said. "we're thinking beyond wars." "that's what we have been trying to do," said cissie. "do you think we came into it for the fun of the thing?" "haven't i shown in a hundred ways that i sympathise?" "oh--sympathy!..." he fared little better at mr. britling's hands. mr. britling talked darkly, but pointed all the time only too plainly at america. "there's two sorts of liberalism," said mr. britling, "that pretend to be the same thing; there's the liberalism of great aims and the liberalism of defective moral energy...." section it was not until teddy had been missing for three weeks that hugh wrote about him. the two essex battalions on the flanders front were apparently wide apart, and it was only from home that hugh learnt what had happened. "you can't imagine how things narrow down when one is close up against them. one does not know what is happening even within a few miles of us, until we get the newspapers. then, with a little reading between the lines and some bold guessing, we fit our little bit of experience with a general shape. of course i've wondered at times about teddy. but oddly enough i've never thought of him very much as being out here. it's queer, i know, but i haven't. i can't imagine why.... "i don't know about 'missing.' we've had nothing going on here that has led to any missing. all our men have been accounted for. but every few miles along the front conditions alter. his lot may have been closer up to the enemy, and there may have been a rush and a fight for a bit of trench either way. in some parts the german trenches are not thirty yards away, and there is mining, bomb throwing, and perpetual creeping up and give and take. here we've been getting a bit forward. but i'll tell you about that presently. and, anyhow, i don't understand about 'missing.' there's very few prisoners taken now. but don't tell letty that. i try to imagine old teddy in it.... "missing's a queer thing. it isn't tragic--or pitiful. or partly reassuring like 'prisoner.' it just sends one speculating and speculating. i can't find any one who knows where the th essex are. things move about here so mysteriously that for all i know we may find them in the next trench next time we go up. but there _is_ a chance for teddy. it's worth while bucking letty all you can. and at the same time there's odds against him. there plainly and unfeelingly is how things stand in my mind. i think chiefly of letty. i'm glad cissie is with her, and i'm glad she's got the boy. keep her busy. she was frightfully fond of him. i've seen all sorts of things between them, and i know that.... i'll try and write to her soon, and i'll find something hopeful to tell her. "meanwhile i've got something to tell you. i've been through a fight, a big fight, and i haven't got a scratch. i've taken two prisoners with my lily hand. men were shot close to me. i didn't mind that a bit. it was as exciting as one of those bitter fights we used to have round the hockey goal. i didn't mind anything till afterwards. then when i was in the trench in the evening i trod on something slippery--pah! and after it was all over one of my chums got it--sort of unfairly. and i keep on thinking of those two things so much that all the early part is just dreamlike. it's more like something i've read in a book, or seen in the _illustrated london news_ than actually been through. one had been thinking so often, how will it feel? how shall i behave? that when it came it had an effect of being flat and ordinary. "they say we hadn't got enough guns in the spring or enough ammunition. that's all right now--anyhow. they started in plastering the germans overnight, and right on until it was just daylight. i never heard such a row, and their trenches--we could stand up and look at them without getting a single shot at us--were flying about like the crater of a volcano. we were not in our firing trench. we had gone back into some new trenches, at the rear--i think to get out of the way of the counter fire. but this morning they weren't doing very much. for once our guns were on top. there was a feeling of anticipation--very like waiting for an examination paper to be given out; then we were at it. getting out of a trench to attack gives you an odd feeling of being just hatched. suddenly the world is big. i don't remember our gun fire stopping. and then you rush. 'come on! come on!' say the officers. everybody gives a sort of howl and rushes. when you see men dropping, you rush the faster. the only thing that checks you at all is the wire twisted about everywhere. you don't want to trip over that. the frightening thing is the exposure. after being in the trenches so long you feel naked. you run like a scared child for the german trench ahead. i can't understand the iron nerve of a man who can expose his back by turning to run away. and there's a thirsty feeling with one's bayonet. but they didn't wait. they dropped rifles and ran. but we ran so fast after them that we caught one or two in the second trench. i got down into that, heard a voice behind me, and found my two prisoners lying artful in a dug-out. they held up their hands as i turned. if they hadn't i doubt if i should have done anything to them. i didn't feel like it. i felt _friendly_. "not all the germans ran. three or four stuck to their machine-guns until they got bayoneted. both the trenches were frightfully smashed about, and in the first one there were little knots and groups of dead. we got to work at once shying the sandbags over from the old front of the trench to the parados. our guns had never stopped all the time; they were now plastering the third line trenches. and almost at once the german shells began dropping into us. of course they had the range to an inch. one didn't have any time to feel and think; one just set oneself with all one's energy to turn the trench over.... "i don't remember that i helped or cared for a wounded man all the time, or felt anything about the dead except to step over them and not on them. i was just possessed by the idea that we had to get the trench into a sheltering state before they tried to come back. and then stick there. i just wanted to win, and there was nothing else in my mind.... "they did try to come back, but not very much.... "then when i began to feel sure of having got hold of the trench for good, i began to realise just how tired i was and how high the sun had got. i began to look about me, and found most of the other men working just as hard as i had been doing. 'we've done it!' i said, and that was the first word i'd spoken since i told my two germans to come out of it, and stuck a man with a wounded leg to watch them. 'it's a bit of all right,' said ortheris, knocking off also, and lighting a half-consumed cigarette. he had been wearing it behind his ear, i believe, ever since the charge. against this occasion. he'd kept close up to me all the time, i realised. and then old park turned up very cheerful with a weak bayonet jab in his forearm that he wanted me to rebandage. it was good to see him practically all right too. "'i took two prisoners,' i said, and everybody i spoke to i told that. i was fearfully proud of it. "i thought that if i could take two prisoners in my first charge i was going to be some soldier. "i had stood it all admirably. i didn't feel a bit shaken. i was as tough as anything. i'd seen death and killing, and it was all just hockey. "and then that confounded ortheris must needs go and get killed. "the shell knocked me over, and didn't hurt me a bit. i was a little stunned, and some dirt was thrown over me, and when i got up on my knees i saw jewell lying about six yards off--and his legs were all smashed about. ugh! pulped! "he looked amazed. 'bloody,' he said, 'bloody.' he fixed his eyes on me, and suddenly grinned. you know we'd once had two fights about his saying 'bloody,' i think i told you at the time, a fight and a return match, he couldn't box for nuts, but he stood up like a briton, and it appealed now to his sense of humour that i should be standing there too dazed to protest at the old offence. 'i thought _you_ was done in,' he said. 'i'm in a mess--a bloody mess, ain't i? like a stuck pig. bloody--right enough. bloody! i didn't know i 'ad it _in_ me.' "he looked at me and grinned with a sort of pale satisfaction in keeping up to the last--dying good ortheris to the finish. i just stood up helpless in front of him, still rather dazed. "he said something about having a thundering thirst on him. "i really don't believe he felt any pain. he would have done if he had lived. "and then while i was fumbling with my water-bottle, he collapsed. he forgot all about ortheris. suddenly he said something that cut me all to ribbons. his face puckered up just like the face of a fretful child which refuses to go to bed. 'i didn't want to be aut of it,' he said petulantly. 'and i'm done!' and then--then he just looked discontented and miserable and died--right off. turned his head a little way over. as if he was impatient at everything. fainted--and fluttered out. "for a time i kept trying to get him to drink.... "i couldn't believe he was dead.... "and suddenly it was all different. i began to cry. like a baby. i kept on with the water-bottle at his teeth long after i was convinced he was dead. i didn't want him to be aut of it! god knows how i didn't. i wanted my dear little cockney cad back. oh! most frightfully i wanted him back. "i shook him. i was like a scared child. i blubbered and howled things.... it's all different since he died. "my dear, dear father, i am grieving and grieving--and it's altogether nonsense. and it's all mixed up in my mind with the mess i trod on. and it gets worse and worse. so that i don't seem to feel anything really, even for teddy. "it's been just the last straw of all this hellish foolery.... "if ever there was a bigger lie, my dear daddy, than any other, it is that man is a reasonable creature.... "war is just foolery--lunatic foolery--hell's foolery.... "but, anyhow, your son is sound and well--if sorrowful and angry. we were relieved that night. and there are rumours that very soon we are to have a holiday and a refit. we lost rather heavily. we have been praised. but all along, essex has done well. i can't reckon to get back yet, but there are such things as leave for eight-and-forty hours or so in england.... "i shall be glad of that sort of turning round.... "i'm tired. oh! i'm tired.... "i wanted to write all about jewell to his mother or his sweetheart or some one; i wanted to wallow in his praises, to say all the things i really find now that i thought about him, but i haven't even had that satisfaction. he was a poor law child; he was raised in one of those awful places between sutton and banstead in surrey. i've told you of all the sweethearting he had. 'soldiers three' was his bible; he was always singing 'tipperary,' and he never got the tune right nor learnt more than three lines of it. he laced all his talk with 'b----y'; it was his jewel, his ruby. but he had the pluck of a robin or a squirrel; i never knew him scared or anything but cheerful. misfortunes, humiliations, only made him chatty. and he'd starve to have something to give away. "well, well, this is the way of war, daddy. this is what war is. damn the kaiser! damn all fools.... give my love to the mother and the bruddykins and every one...." section it was just a day or so over three weeks after this last letter from hugh that mr. direck reappeared at matching's easy. he had had a trip to holland--a trip that was as much a flight from cissie's reproaches as a mission of inquiry. he had intended to go on into belgium, where he had already been doing useful relief work under mr. hoover, but the confusion of his own feelings had checked him and brought him back. mr. direck's mind was in a perplexity only too common during the stresses of that tragic year. he was entangled in a paradox; like a large majority of americans at that time his feelings were quite definitely pro-ally, and like so many in that majority he had a very clear conviction that it would be wrong and impossible for the united states to take part in the war. his sympathies were intensely with the dower house and its dependent cottage; he would have wept with generous emotion to see the stars and stripes interwoven with the three other great banners of red, white and blue that led the world against german imperialism and militarism, but for all that his mind would not march to that tune. against all these impulses fought something very fundamental in mr. direck's composition, a preconception of america that had grown almost insensibly in his mind, the idea of america as a polity aloof from the old world system, as a fresh start for humanity, as something altogether too fine and precious to be dragged into even the noblest of european conflicts. america was to be the beginning of the fusion of mankind, neither german nor british nor french nor in any way national. she was to be the great experiment in peace and reasonableness. she had to hold civilisation and social order out of this fray, to be a refuge for all those finer things that die under stress and turmoil; it was her task to maintain the standards of life and the claims of humanitarianism in the conquered province and the prisoners' compound, she had to be the healer and arbitrator, the remonstrance and not the smiting hand. surely there were enough smiting hands. but this idea of an america judicial, remonstrating, and aloof, led him to a conclusion that scandalised him. if america will not, and should not use force in the ends of justice, he argued, then america has no right to make and export munitions of war. she must not trade in what she disavows. he had a quite exaggerated idea of the amount of munitions that america was sending to the allies, he was inclined to believe that they were entirely dependent upon their transatlantic supplies, and so he found himself persuaded that the victory of the allies and the honour of america were incompatible things. and--in spite of his ethical aloofness--he loved the allies. he wanted them to win, and he wanted america to abandon a course that he believed was vitally necessary to their victory. it was an intellectual dilemma. he hid this self-contradiction from matching's easy with much the same feelings that a curate might hide a poisoned dagger at a tea-party.... it was entirely against his habits of mind to hide anything--more particularly an entanglement with a difficult proposition--but he perceived quite clearly that neither cecily nor mr. britling were really to be trusted to listen calmly to what, under happier circumstances, might be a profoundly interesting moral complication. yet it was not in his nature to conceal; it was in his nature to state. and cecily made things much more difficult. she was pitiless with him. she kept him aloof. "how can i let you make love to me," she said, "when our english men are all going to the war, when teddy is a prisoner and hugh is in the trenches. if i were a man--!" she couldn't be induced to see any case for america. england was fighting for freedom, and america ought to be beside her. "all the world ought to unite against this german wickedness," she said. "i'm doing all i can to help in belgium," he protested. "aren't i working? we've fed four million people." he had backbone, and he would not let her, he was resolved, bully him into a falsehood about his country. america was aloof. she was right to be aloof.... at the same time, cecily's reproaches were unendurable. and he could feel he was drifting apart from her.... _he_ couldn't make america go to war. in the quiet of his london hotel he thought it all out. he sat at a writing-table making notes of a perfectly lucid statement of the reasonable, balanced liberal american opinion. an instinct of caution determined him to test it first on mr. britling. but mr. britling realised his worst expectations. he was beyond listening. "i've not heard from my boy for more than three weeks," said mr. britling in the place of any salutation. "this morning makes three-and-twenty days without a letter." it seemed to mr. direck that mr. britling had suddenly grown ten years older. his face was more deeply lined; the colour and texture of his complexion had gone grey. he moved restlessly and badly; his nerves were manifestly unstrung. "it's intolerable that one should be subjected to this ghastly suspense. the boy isn't three hundred miles away." mr. direck made obvious inquiries. "always before he's written--generally once a fortnight." they talked of hugh for a time, but mr. britling was fitful and irritable and quite prepared to hold mr. direck accountable for the laxity of the war office, the treachery of bulgaria, the ambiguity of roumania or any other barb that chanced to be sticking into his sensibilities. they lunched precariously. then they went into the study to smoke. there mr. direck was unfortunate enough to notice a copy of that innocent american publication _the new republic_, lying close to two or three numbers of _the fatherland_, a pro-german periodical which at that time inflicted itself upon english writers with the utmost determination. mr. direck remarked that _the new republic_ was an interesting effort on the part of "_la jeunesse américaine_." mr. britling regarded the interesting effort with a jaded, unloving eye. "you americans," he said, "are the most extraordinary people in the world." "our conditions are exceptional," said mr. direck. "you think they are," said mr. britling, and paused, and then began to deliver his soul about america in a discourse of accumulating bitterness. at first he reasoned and explained, but as he went on he lost self-control; he became dogmatic, he became denunciatory, he became abusive. he identified mr. direck more and more with his subject; he thrust the uncivil "you" more and more directly at him. he let his cigar go out, and flung it impatiently into the fire. as though america was responsible for its going out.... like many britons mr. britling had that touch of patriotic feeling towards america which takes the form of impatient criticism. no one in britain ever calls an american a foreigner. to see faults in germany or spain is to tap boundless fountains of charity; but the faults of america rankle in an english mind almost as much as the faults of england. mr. britling could explain away the faults of england readily enough; our hanoverian monarchy, our established church and its deadening effect on education, our imperial obligations and the strain they made upon our supplies of administrative talent were all very serviceable for that purpose. but there in america was the old race, without crown or church or international embarrassment, and it was still falling short of splendid. his speech to mr. direck had the rancour of a family quarrel. let me only give a few sentences that were to stick in mr. direck's memory. "you think you are out of it for good and all. so did we think. we were as smug as you are when france went down in ' .... yours is only one further degree of insularity. you think this vacuous aloofness of yours is some sort of moral superiority. so did we, so did we.... "it won't last you ten years if we go down.... "do you think that our disaster will leave the atlantic for you? do you fancy there is any freedom of the seas possible beyond such freedom as we maintain, except the freedom to attack you? for forty years the british fleet has guarded all america from european attack. your monroe doctrine skulks behind it now.... "i'm sick of this high thin talk of yours about the war.... you are a nation of ungenerous onlookers--watching us throttle or be throttled. you gamble on our winning. and we shall win; we shall win. and you will profit. and when we have won a victory only one shade less terrible than defeat, then you think you will come in and tinker with our peace. bleed us a little more to please your hyphenated patriots...." he came to his last shaft. "you talk of your new ideals of peace. you say that you are too proud to fight. but your business men in new york give the show away. there's a little printed card now in half the offices in new york that tells of the real pacificism of america. they're busy, you know. trade's real good. and so as not to interrupt it they stick up this card: 'nix on the war!' think of it!--'nix on the war!' here is the whole fate of mankind at stake, and america's contribution is a little grumbling when the germans sank the _lusitania_, and no end of grumbling when we hold up a ship or two and some fool of a harbour-master makes an overcharge. otherwise--'nix on the war!'... "well, let it be nix on the war! don't come here and talk to me! you who were searching registers a year ago to find your essex kin. let it be nix! explanations! what do i want with explanations? and"--he mocked his guest's accent and his guest's mode of thought--"dif'cult prap'sitions." he got up and stood irresolute. he knew he was being preposterously unfair to america, and outrageously uncivil to a trusting guest; he knew he had no business now to end the talk in this violent fashion. but it was an enormous relief. and to mend matters--_no!_ he was glad he'd said these things.... he swung a shoulder to mr. direck, and walked out of the room.... mr. direck heard him cross the hall and slam the door of the little parlour.... mr. direck had been stirred deeply by the tragic indignation of this explosion, and the ring of torment in mr. britling's voice. he had stood up also, but he did not follow his host. "it's his boy," said mr. direck at last, confidentially to the writing-desk. "how can one argue with him? it's just hell for him...." section mr. direck took his leave of mrs. britling, and went very slowly towards the little cottage. but he did not go to the cottage. he felt he would only find another soul in torment there. "what's the good of hanging round talking?" said mr. direck. he stopped at the stile in the lane, and sat thinking deeply. "only one thing will convince her," he said. he held out his fingers. "first this," he whispered, "and then that. yes." he went on as far as the bend from which one sees the cottage, and stood for a little time regarding it. he returned still more sorrowfully to the junction, and with every step he took it seemed to him that he would rather see cecily angry and insulting than not see her at all. at the post office he stopped and wrote a letter-card. "dear cissie," he wrote. "i came down to-day to see you--and thought better of it. i'm going right off to find out about teddy. somehow i'll get that settled. i'll fly around and do that somehow if i have to go up to the german front to do it. and when i've got that settled i've got something else in my mind--well, it will wipe out all this little trouble that's got so big between us about neutrality. and i love you dearly, cissie." that was all the card would hold. section and then as if it were something that every one in the dower house had been waiting for, came the message that hugh had been killed. the telegram was brought up by a girl in a pinafore instead of the boy of the old dispensation, for boys now were doing the work of youths and youths the work of the men who had gone to the war. mr. britling was standing at the front door; he had been surveying the late october foliage, touched by the warm light of the afternoon, when the messenger appeared. he opened the telegram, hoping as he had hoped when he opened any telegram since hugh had gone to the front that it would not contain the exact words he read; that it would say wounded, that at the worst it would say "missing," that perhaps it might even tell of some pleasant surprise, a brief return to home such as the last letter had foreshadowed. he read the final, unqualified statement, the terse regrets. he stood quite still for a moment or so, staring at the words.... it was a mile and a quarter from the post office to the dower house, and it was always his custom to give telegraph messengers who came to his house twopence, and he wanted very much to get rid of the telegraph girl, who stood expectantly before him holding her red bicycle. he felt now very sick and strained; he had a conviction that if he did not by an effort maintain his bearing cool and dry he would howl aloud. he felt in his pocket for money; there were some coppers and a shilling. he pulled it all out together and stared at it. he had an absurd conviction that this ought to be a sixpenny telegram. the thing worried him. he wanted to give the brat sixpence, and he had only threepence and a shilling, and he didn't know what to do and his brain couldn't think. it would be a shocking thing to give her a shilling, and he couldn't somehow give just coppers for so important a thing as hugh's death. then all this problem vanished and he handed the child the shilling. she stared at him, inquiring, incredulous. "is there a reply, sir, please?" "no," he said, "that's for you. all of it.... this is a peculiar sort of telegram.... it's news of importance...." as he said this he met her eyes, and had a sudden persuasion that she knew exactly what it was the telegram had told him, and that she was shocked at this gala-like treatment of such terrible news. he hesitated, feeling that he had to say something else, that he was socially inadequate, and then he decided that at any cost he must get his face away from her staring eyes. she made no movement to turn away. she seemed to be taking him in, recording him, for repetition, greedily, with every fibre of her being. he stepped past her into the garden, and instantly forgot about her existence.... section he had been thinking of this possibility for the last few weeks almost continuously, and yet now that it had come to him he felt that he had never thought about it before, that he must go off alone by himself to envisage this monstrous and terrible fact, without distraction or interruption. he saw his wife coming down the alley between the roses. he was wrenched by emotions as odd and unaccountable as the emotions of adolescence. he had exactly the same feeling now that he had had when in his boyhood some unpleasant admission had to be made to his parents. he felt he could not go through a scene with her yet, that he could not endure the task of telling her, of being observed. he turned abruptly to his left. he walked away as if he had not seen her, across his lawn towards the little summer-house upon a knoll that commanded the high road. she called to him, but he did not answer.... he would not look towards her, but for a time all his senses were alert to hear whether she followed him. safe in the summer-house he could glance back. it was all right. she was going into the house. he drew the telegram from his pocket again furtively, almost guiltily, and re-read it. he turned it over and read it again.... _killed._ then his own voice, hoarse and strange to his ears, spoke his thought. "my god! how unutterably silly.... why did i let him go? why did i let him go?" section mrs. britling did not learn of the blow that had struck them until after dinner that night. she was so accustomed to ignore his incomprehensible moods that she did not perceive that there was anything tragic about him until they sat at table together. he seemed heavy and sulky and disposed to avoid her, but that sort of moodiness was nothing very strange to her. she knew that things that seemed to her utterly trivial, the reading of political speeches in _the times_, little comments on life made in the most casual way, mere movements, could so avert him. she had cultivated a certain disregard of such fitful darknesses. but at the dinner-table she looked up, and was stabbed to the heart to see a haggard white face and eyes of deep despair regarding her ambiguously. "hugh!" she said, and then with a chill intimation, "_what is it?_" they looked at each other. his face softened and winced. "my hugh," he whispered, and neither spoke for some seconds. "_killed_," he said, and suddenly stood up whimpering, and fumbled with his pocket. it seemed he would never find what he sought. it came at last, a crumpled telegram. he threw it down before her, and then thrust his chair back clumsily and went hastily out of the room. she heard him sob. she had not dared to look at his face again. "oh!" she cried, realising that an impossible task had been thrust upon her. "but what can i _say_ to him?" she said, with the telegram in her hand. the parlourmaid came into the room. "clear the dinner away!" said mrs. britling, standing at her place. "master hugh is killed...." and then wailing: "oh! what can i _say_? what can i _say_?" section that night mrs. britling made the supreme effort of her life to burst the prison of self-consciousness and inhibition in which she was confined. never before in all her life had she so desired to be spontaneous and unrestrained; never before had she so felt herself hampered by her timidity, her self-criticism, her deeply ingrained habit of never letting herself go. she was rent by reflected distress. it seemed to her that she would be ready to give her life and the whole world to be able to comfort her husband now. and she could conceive no gesture of comfort. she went out of the dining-room into the hall and listened. she went very softly upstairs until she came to the door of her husband's room. there she stood still. she could hear no sound from within. she put out her hand and turned the handle of the door a little way, and then she was startled by the loudness of the sound it made and at her own boldness. she withdrew her hand, and then with a gesture of despair, with a face of white agony, she flitted along the corridor to her own room. her mind was beaten to the ground by this catastrophe, of which to this moment she had never allowed herself to think. she had never allowed herself to think of it. the figure of her husband, like some pitiful beast, wounded and bleeding, filled her mind. she gave scarcely a thought to hugh. "oh, what can i _do_ for him?" she asked herself, sitting down before her unlit bedroom fire.... "what can i say or do?" she brooded until she shivered, and then she lit her fire.... it was late that night and after an eternity of resolutions and doubts and indecisions that mrs. britling went to her husband. he was sitting close up to the fire with his chin upon his hands, waiting for her; he felt that she would come to him, and he was thinking meanwhile of hugh with a slow unprogressive movement of the mind. he showed by a movement that he heard her enter the room, but he did not turn to look at her. he shrank a little from her approach. she came and stood beside him. she ventured to touch him very softly, and to stroke his head. "my dear," she said. "my poor dear! "it is so dreadful for you," she said, "it is so dreadful for you. i know how you loved him...." he spread his hands over his face and became very still. "my poor dear!" she said, still stroking his hair, "my poor dear!" and then she went on saying "poor dear," saying it presently because there was nothing more had come into her mind. she desired supremely to be his comfort, and in a little while she was acting comfort so poorly that she perceived her own failure. and that increased her failure, and that increased her paralysing sense of failure.... and suddenly her stroking hand ceased. suddenly the real woman cried out from her. "i can't _reach_ you!" she cried aloud. "i can't reach you. i would do anything.... you! you with your heart half broken...." she turned towards the door. she moved clumsily, she was blinded by her tears. mr. britling uncovered his face. he stood up astonished, and then pity and pitiful understanding came storming across his grief. he made a step and took her in his arms. "my dear," he said, "don't go from me...." she turned to him weeping, and put her arms about his neck, and he too was weeping. "my poor wife!" he said, "my dear wife. if it were not for you--i think i could kill myself to-night. don't cry, my dear. don't, don't cry. you do not know how you comfort me. you do not know how you help me." he drew her to him; he put her cheek against his own.... his heart was so sore and wounded that he could not endure that another human being should go wretched. he sat down in his chair and drew her upon his knees, and said everything he could think of to console her and reassure her and make her feel that she was of value to him. he spoke of every pleasant aspect of their lives, of every aspect, except that he never named that dear pale youth who waited now.... he could wait a little longer.... at last she went from him. "good night," said mr. britling, and took her to the door. "it was very dear of you to come and comfort me," he said.... section he closed the door softly behind her. the door had hardly shut upon her before he forgot her. instantly he was alone again, utterly alone. he was alone in an empty world.... loneliness struck him like a blow. he had dependents, he had cares. he had never a soul to whom he might weep.... for a time he stood beside his open window. he looked at the bed--but no sleep he knew would come that night--until the sleep of exhaustion came. he looked at the bureau at which he had so often written. but the writing there was a shrivelled thing.... this room was unendurable. he must go out. he turned to the window, and outside was a troublesome noise of night-jars and a distant roaring of stags, black trees, blacknesses, the sky clear and remote with a great company of stars.... the stars seemed attentive. they stirred and yet were still. it was as if they were the eyes of watchers. he would go out to them.... very softly he went towards the passage door, and still more softly felt his way across the landing and down the staircase. once or twice he paused to listen. he let himself out with elaborate precautions.... across the dark he went, and suddenly his boy was all about him, playing, climbing the cedars, twisting miraculously about the lawn on a bicycle, discoursing gravely upon his future, lying on the grass, breathing very hard and drawing preposterous caricatures. once again they walked side by side up and down--it was athwart this very spot--talking gravely but rather shyly.... and here they had stood a little awkwardly, before the boy went in to say good-bye to his stepmother and go off with his father to the station.... "i will work to-morrow again," whispered mr. britling, "but to-night--to-night.... to-night is yours.... can you hear me, can you hear? your father ... who had counted on you...." section he went into the far corner of the hockey paddock, and there he moved about for a while and then stood for a long time holding the fence with both hands and staring blankly into the darkness. at last he turned away, and went stumbling and blundering towards the rose garden. a spray of creeper tore his face and distressed him. he thrust it aside fretfully, and it scratched his hand. he made his way to the seat in the arbour, and sat down and whispered a little to himself, and then became very still with his arm upon the back of the seat and his head upon his arm. book iii the testament of matching's easy chapter the first mrs. teddy goes for a walk section all over england now, where the livery of mourning had been a rare thing to see, women and children went about in the october sunshine in new black clothes. everywhere one met these fresh griefs, mothers who had lost their sons, women who had lost their men, lives shattered and hopes destroyed. the dyers had a great time turning coloured garments to black. and there was also a growing multitude of crippled and disabled men. it was so in england, much more was it so in france and russia, in all the countries of the allies, and in germany and austria; away into asia minor and egypt, in india and japan and italy there was mourning, the world was filled with loss and mourning and impoverishment and distress. and still the mysterious powers that required these things of mankind were unappeased, and each day added its quota of heart-stabbing messages and called for new mourning, and sent home fresh consignments of broken and tormented men. some clung to hopes that became at last almost more terrible than black certainties.... mrs. teddy went about the village in a coloured dress bearing herself confidently. teddy had been listed now as "missing, since reported killed," and she had had two letters from his comrades. they said teddy had been left behind in the ruins of a farm with one or two other wounded, and that when the canadians retook the place these wounded had all been found butchered. none had been found alive. afterwards the canadians had had to fall back. mr. direck had been at great pains to hunt up wounded men from teddy's company, and also any likely canadians both at the base hospital in france and in london, and to get what he could from them. he had made it a service to cissie. only one of his witnesses was quite clear about teddy, but he, alas! was dreadfully clear. there had been only one lieutenant among the men left behind, he said, and obviously that must have been teddy. "he had been prodded in half-a-dozen places. his head was nearly severed from his body." direck came down and told the story to cissie. "shall i tell it to her?" he asked. cissie thought. "not yet," she said.... letty's face changed in those pitiful weeks when she was denying death. she lost her pretty colour, she became white; her mouth grew hard and her eyes had a hard brightness. she never wept, she never gave a sign of sorrow, and she insisted upon talking about teddy, in a dry offhand voice. constantly she referred to his final return. "teddy," she said, "will be surprised at this," or "teddy will feel sold when he sees how i have altered that." "presently we shall see his name in a list of prisoners," she said. "he is a wounded prisoner in germany." she adopted that story. she had no justification for it, but she would hear no doubts upon it. she presently began to prepare parcels to send him. "they want almost everything," she told people. "they are treated abominably. he has not been able to write to me yet, but i do not think i ought to wait until he asks me." cissie was afraid to interfere with this. after a time letty grew impatient at the delay in getting any address and took her first parcel to the post office. "unless you know what prison he is at," said the postmistress. "pity!" said letty. "i don't know that. must it wait for that? i thought the germans were so systematic that it didn't matter." the postmistress made tedious explanations that letty did not seem to hear. she stared straight in front of her at nothing. then in a pause in the conversation she picked up her parcel. "it's tiresome for him to have to wait," she said. "but it can't be long before i know." she took the parcel back to the cottage. "after all," she said, "it gives us time to get the better sort of throat lozenges for him--the sort the syndicate shop doesn't keep." she put the parcel conspicuously upon the dresser in the kitchen where it was most in the way, and set herself to make a jersey for teddy against the coming of the cold weather. but one night the white mask fell for a moment from her face. cissie and she had been sitting in silence before the fire. she had been knitting--she knitted very badly--and cissie had been pretending to read, and had been watching her furtively. cissie eyed the slow, toilsome growth of the slack woolwork for a time, and the touch of angry effort in every stroke of the knitting needles. then she was stirred to remonstrance. "poor letty!" she said very softly. "suppose after all, he is dead?" letty met her with a pitiless stare. "he is a prisoner," she said. "isn't that enough? why do you jab at me by saying that? a wounded prisoner. isn't that enough despicable trickery for god even to play on teddy--our teddy? to the very last moment he shall not be dead. until the war is over. until six months after the war.... "i will tell you why, cissie...." she leant across the table and pointed her remarks with her knitting needles, speaking in a tone of reasonable remonstrance. "you see," she said, "if people like teddy are to be killed, then all our ideas that life is meant for, honesty and sweetness and happiness, are wrong, and this world is just a place of devils; just a dirty cruel hell. getting born would be getting damned. and so one must not give way to that idea, however much it may seem likely that he is dead.... "you see, if he _is_ dead, then cruelty is the law, and some one must pay me for his death.... some one must pay me.... i shall wait for six months after the war, dear, and then i shall go off to germany and learn my way about there. and i will murder some german. not just a common german, but a german who belongs to the guilty kind. a sacrifice. it ought, for instance, to be comparatively easy to kill some of the children of the crown prince or some of the bavarian princes. i shall prefer german children. i shall sacrifice them to teddy. it ought not to be difficult to find people who can be made directly responsible, the people who invented the poison gas, for instance, and kill them, or to kill people who are dear to them. or necessary to them.... women can do that so much more easily than men.... "that perhaps is the only way in which wars of this kind will ever be brought to an end. by women insisting on killing the kind of people who make them. rooting them out. by a campaign of pursuit and assassination that will go on for years and years after the war itself is over.... murder is such a little gentle punishment for the crime of war.... it would be hardly more than a reproach for what has happened. falling like snow. death after death. flake by flake. this prince. that statesman. the count who writes so fiercely for war.... that is what i am going to do. if teddy is really dead.... we women were ready enough a year or so ago to starve and die for the vote, and that was quite a little thing in comparison with this business.... don't you see what i mean? it's so plain and sensible, cissie. whenever a man sits and thinks whether he will make a war or not, then he will think too of women, women with daggers, bombs; of a vengeance that will never tire nor rest; of consecrated patient women ready to start out upon a pilgrimage that will only end with his death.... i wouldn't hurt these war makers. no. in spite of the poison gas. in spite of trench feet and the men who have been made blind and the wounded who have lain for days, dying slowly in the wet. women ought not to hurt. but i would kill. like killing dangerous vermin. it would go on year by year. balkan kings, german princes, chancellors, they would have schemed for so much--and come to just a rattle in the throat.... and if presently other kings and emperors began to prance about and review armies, they too would go.... "until all the world understood that women would not stand war any more forever.... "of course i shall do something of the sort. what else is there to do now for me?" letty's eyes were bright and intense, but her voice was soft and subdued. she went on after a pause in the same casual voice. "you see now, cissie, why i cling to the idea that teddy is alive. if teddy is alive, then even if he is wounded, he will get some happiness out of it--and all this won't be--just rot. if he is dead then everything is so desperately silly and cruel from top to bottom--" she smiled wanly to finish her sentence. "but, letty!" said cissie, "there is the boy!" "i shall leave the boy to you. compared with teddy i don't care _that_ for the boy. i never did. what is the good of pretending? some women are made like that." she surveyed her knitting. "poor stitches," she said.... "i'm hard stuff, cissie. i take after mother more than father. teddy is my darling. all the tenderness of my life is teddy. if it goes, it goes.... i won't crawl about the world like all these other snivelling widows. if they've killed my man i shall kill. blood for blood and loss for loss. i shall get just as close to the particular germans who made this war as i can, and i shall kill them and theirs.... "the women's association for the extirpation of the whole breed of war lords," she threw out. "if i _do_ happen to hurt--does it matter?" she looked at her sister's shocked face and smiled again. "you think i go about staring at nothing," she remarked.... "not a bit of it! i have been planning all sorts of things.... i have been thinking how i could get to germany.... or one might catch them in switzerland.... i've had all sorts of plans. they can't go guarded for ever.... "oh, it makes me despise humanity to see how many soldiers and how few assassins there are in the world.... after the things we have seen. if people did their duty by the dagger there wouldn't be such a thing as a war lord in the world. not one.... the kaiser and his sons and his sons' sons would know nothing but fear now for all their lives. fear would only cease to pursue as the coffin went down into the grave. fear by sea, fear by land, for the vessel he sailed in, the train he travelled in, fear when he slept for the death in his dreams, fear when he waked for the death in every shadow; fear in every crowd, fear whenever he was alone. fear would stalk him through the trees, hide in the corner of the staircase; make all his food taste perplexingly, so that he would want to spit it out...." she sat very still brooding on that idea for a time, and then stood up. "what nonsense one talks!" she cried, and yawned. "i wonder why poor teddy doesn't send me a post card or something to tell me his address. i tell you what i _am_ afraid of sometimes about him, cissie." "yes?" said cissie. "loss of memory. suppose a beastly lump of shell or something whacked him on the head.... i had a dream of him looking strange about the eyes and not knowing me. that, you know, really _may_ have happened.... it would be beastly, of course...." cissie's eyes were critical, but she had nothing ready to say. there were some moments of silence. "oh! bed," said letty. "though i shall just lie scheming." section cissie lay awake that night thinking about her sister as if she had never thought about her before. she began to weigh the concentrated impressions of a thousand memories. she and her sister were near in age; they knew each other with an extreme intimacy, and yet it seemed to cissie that night as though she did not know letty at all. a year ago she would have been certain she knew everything about her. but the old familiar letty, with the bright complexion, and the wicked eye, with her rebellious schoolgirl insistence upon the beautifulness of "boof'l young men," and her frank and glowing passion for teddy, with her delight in humorous mystifications and open-air exercise and all the sunshine and laughter of life, this sister letty, who had been so satisfactory and complete and final, had been thrust aside like a mask. cissie no longer knew her sister's eyes. letty's hand had become thin and unfamiliar and a little wrinkled; she was sharp-featured and thin-lipped; her acts, which had once been predictable, were incomprehensible, and cissie was thrown back upon speculations. in their schooldays letty had had a streak of intense sensibility; she had been easily moved to tears. but never once had she wept or given any sign of weeping since teddy's name had appeared in the casualty list.... what was the strength of this tragic tension? how far would it carry her? was letty really capable of becoming a charlotte corday? of carrying out a scheme of far-seeing vengeance, of making her way through long months and years nearer and nearer to revenge? were such revenges possible? would people presently begin to murder the makers of the great war? what a strange thing it would be in history if so there came a punishment and end to the folly of kings! only a little while ago cissie's imagination might have been captured by so romantic a dream. she was still but a year or so out of the stage of melodrama. but she was out of it. she was growing up now to a subtler wisdom. people, she was beginning to realise, do not do these simple things. they make vows of devotion and they are not real vows of devotion; they love--quite honestly--and qualify. there are no great revenges but only little mean ones; no life-long vindications except the unrelenting vengeance of the law. there is no real concentration of people's lives anywhere such as romance demands. there is change, there is forgetfulness. everywhere there is dispersal. even to the tragic story of teddy would come the modifications of time. even to the wickedness of the german princes would presently be added some conflicting aspects. could letty keep things for years in her mind, hard and terrible, as they were now? surely they would soften; other things would overlay them.... there came a rush of memories of letty in a dozen schoolgirl adventures, times when she had ventured, and times when she had failed; letty frightened, letty vexed, letty launching out to great enterprises, going high and hard and well for a time, and then failing. she had seen letty snivelling and dirty; letty shamed and humiliated. she knew her letty to the soul. poor letty! poor dear letty! with a sudden clearness of vision cissie realised what was happening in her sister's mind. all this tense scheming of revenges was the imaginative play with which letty warded off the black alternative to her hope; it was not strength, it was weakness. it was a form of giving way. she could not face starkly the simple fact of teddy's death. that was too much for her. so she was building up this dream of a mission of judgment against the day when she could resist the facts no longer. she was already persuaded, only she would not be persuaded until her dream was ready. if this state of suspense went on she might establish her dream so firmly that it would at last take complete possession of her mind. and by that time also she would have squared her existence at matching's easy with the elaboration of her reverie. she would go about the place then, fancying herself preparing for this tremendous task she would never really do; she would study german maps; she would read the papers about german statesmen and rulers; perhaps she would even make weak attempts to obtain a situation in switzerland or in germany. perhaps she would buy a knife or a revolver. perhaps presently she would begin to hover about windsor or sandringham when peace was made, and the german cousins came visiting again.... into cissie's mind came the image of the thing that might be; letty, shabby, draggled, with her sharp bright prettiness become haggard, an assassin dreamer, still dependent on mr. britling, doing his work rather badly, in a distraught unpunctual fashion. she must be told, she must be convinced soon, or assuredly she would become an eccentric, a strange character, a matching's easy miss flite.... section cissie could think more clearly of letty's mind than of her own. she herself was in a tangle. she had grown to be very fond of mr. direck, and to have a profound trust and confidence in him, and her fondness seemed able to find no expression at all except a constant girding at his and america's avoidance of war. she had fallen in love with him when he was wearing fancy dress; she was a young woman with a stronger taste for body and colour than she supposed; what indeed she resented about him, though she did not know it, was that he seemed never disposed to carry the spirit of fancy dress into everyday life. to begin with he had touched both her imagination and senses, and she wanted him to go on doing that. instead of which he seemed lapsing more and more into reiterated assurances of devotion and the flat competent discharge of humanitarian duties. always nowadays he was trying to persuade her that what he was doing was the right and honourable thing for him to do; what he did not realise, what indeed she did not realise, was the exasperation his rightness and reasonableness produced in her. when he saw he exasperated her he sought very earnestly to be righter and reasonabler and more plainly and demonstrably right and reasonable than ever. withal, as she felt and perceived, he was such a good thing, such a very good thing; so kind, so trustworthy, with a sort of slow strength, with a careful honesty, a big good childishness, a passion for fairness. and so helpless in her hands. she could lash him and distress him. yet she could not shake his slowly formed convictions. when cissie had dreamt of the lover that fate had in store for her in her old romantic days, he was to be _perfect_ always, he and she were always to be absolutely in the right (and, if the story needed it, the world in the wrong). she had never expected to find herself tied by her affections to a man with whom she disagreed, and who went contrary to her standards, very much as if she was lashed on the back of a very nice elephant that would wince to but not obey the goad.... so she nagged him and taunted him, and would hear no word of his case. and he wanted dreadfully to discuss his case. he felt that the point of conscience about the munitions was particularly fine and difficult. he wished she would listen and enter into it more. but she thought with that more rapid english flash which is not so much thinking as feeling. he loved that flash in her in spite of his persuasion of its injustice. her thought that he ought to go to the war made him feel like a renegade; but her claim that he was somehow still english held him in spite of his reason. in the midst of such perplexities he was glad to find one neutral task wherein he could find himself whole-heartedly with and for cissie. he hunted up the evidence of teddy's fate with a devoted pertinacity. and in the meanwhile the other riddle resolved itself. he had had a certain idea in his mind for some time. he discovered one day that it was an inspiration. he could keep his conscientious objection about america, and still take a line that would satisfy cissie. he took it. when he came down to matching's easy at her summons to bear his convincing witness of teddy's fate, he came in an unwonted costume. it was a costume so wonderful in his imagination that it seemed to cry aloud, to sound like a trumpet as he went through london to liverpool street station; it was a costume like an international event; it was a costume that he felt would blare right away to berlin. and yet it was a costume so commonplace, so much the usual wear now, that cissie, meeting him at the station and full of the thought of letty's trouble, did not remark it, felt indeed rather than observed that he was looking more strong and handsome than he had ever done since he struck upon her imagination in the fantastic wrap that teddy had found for him in the merry days when there was no death in the world. and letty too, resistant, incalculable, found no wonder in the wonderful suit. he bore his testimony. it was the queer halting telling of a patched-together tale.... "i suppose," said letty, "if i tell you now that i don't believe that that officer was teddy you will think i am cracked.... but i don't." she sat staring straight before her for a time after saying this. then suddenly she got up and began taking down her hat and coat from the peg behind the kitchen door. the hanging strap of the coat was twisted and she struggled with it petulantly until she tore it. "where are you going?" cried cissie. letty's voice over her shoulder was the harsh voice of a scolding woman. "i'm going out--anywhere." she turned, coat in hand. "can't i go out if i like?" she asked. "it's a beautiful day.... mustn't i go out?... i suppose you think i ought to take in what you have told me in a moment. just smile and say '_indeed!_' ... abandoned!--while his men retreated! how jolly! and then not think of it any more.... besides, i must go out. you two want to be left together. you want to canoodle. do it while you can!" then she put on coat and hat, jamming her hat down on her head, and said something that cissie did not immediately understand. "_he'll_ have his turn in the trenches soon enough. now that he's made up his mind.... he might have done it sooner...." she turned her back as though she had forgotten them. she stood for a moment as though her feet were wooden, not putting her feet as she usually put her feet. she took slow, wide, unsure steps. she went out--like something that is mortally injured and still walks--into the autumnal sunshine. she left the door wide open behind her. section and cissie, with eyes full of distress for her sister, had still to grasp the fact that direck was wearing a canadian uniform.... he stood behind her, ashamed that in such a moment this fact and its neglect by every one could be so vivid in his mind. section cissie's estimate of her sister's psychology had been just. the reverie of revenge had not yet taken a grip upon letty's mind sufficiently strong to meet the challenge of this conclusive evidence of teddy's death. she walked out into a world of sunshine now almost completely convinced that teddy was dead, and she knew quite well that her dream of some dramatic and terrible vindication had gone from her. she knew that in truth she could do nothing of that sort.... she walked out with a set face and eyes that seemed unseeing, and yet it was as if some heavy weight had been lifted from her shoulders. it was over; there was no more to hope for and there was nothing more to fear. she would have been shocked to realise that her mind was relieved. she wanted to be alone. she wanted to be away from every eye. she was like some creature that after a long nightmare incubation is at last born into a clear, bleak day. she had to feel herself; she had to stretch her mind in this cheerless sunshine, this new world, where there was to be no more teddy and no real revenge nor compensation for teddy. teddy was past.... hitherto she had had an angry sense of being deprived of teddy--almost as though he were keeping away from her. now, there was no more teddy to be deprived of.... she went through the straggling village, and across the fields to the hillside that looks away towards mertonsome and its steeple. and where the hill begins to fall away she threw herself down under the hedge by the path, near by the stile into the lane, and lay still. she did not so much think as remain blank, waiting for the beginning of impressions.... it was as it were a blank stare at the world.... she did not know if it was five minutes or half an hour later that she became aware that some one was looking at her. she turned with a start, and discovered the reverend dimple with one foot on the stile, and an expression of perplexity and consternation upon his chubby visage. instantly she understood. already on four different occasions since teddy's disappearance she had seen the good man coming towards her, always with a manifest decision, always with the same faltering doubt as now. often in their happy days had she and teddy discussed him and derided him and rejoiced over him. they had agreed he was as good as jane austen's mr. collins. he really was very like mr. collins, except that he was plumper. and now, it was as if he was transparent to her hard defensive scrutiny. she knew he was impelled by his tradition, by his sense of fitness, by his respect for his calling, to offer her his ministrations and consolations, to say his large flat amiabilities over her and pat her kindly with his hands. and she knew too that he dreaded her. she knew that the dear old humbug knew at the bottom of his heart quite certainly that he was a poor old humbug, and that she was in his secret. and at the bottom of his heart he found himself too honest to force his poor platitudes upon any who would not be glad of them. if she could have been glad of them he would have had no compunction. he was a man divided against himself; failing to carry through his rich pretences, dismayed. he had been taking his afternoon "constitutional." he had discovered her beyond the stile just in time to pull up. then had come a fatal, a preposterous hesitation. she stared at him now, with hard, expressionless eyes. he stared back at her, until his plump pink face was all consternation. he was extraordinarily distressed. it was as if a thousand unspoken things had been said between them. "no wish," he said, "intrude." if he had had the certain balm, how gladly would he have given it! he broke the spell by stepping back into the lane. he made a gesture with his hands, as if he would have wrung them. and then he had fled down the lane--almost at a run. "po' girl," he shouted. "po' girl," and left her staring. staring--and then she laughed. this was good. this was the sort of thing one could tell teddy, when at last he came back and she could tell him anything. and then she realised again; there was no more teddy, there would be no telling. and suddenly she fell weeping. "oh, teddy, teddy," she cried through her streaming tears. "how could you leave me? how can i bear it?" never a tear had she shed since the news first came, and now she could weep, she could weep her grief out. she abandoned herself unreservedly to this blessed relief.... section there comes an end to weeping at last, and letty lay still, in the red light of the sinking sun. she lay so still that presently a little foraging robin came dirting down to the grass not ten yards away and stopped and looked at her. and then it came a hop or so nearer. she had been lying in a state of passive abandonment, her swollen wet eyes open, regardless of everything. but those quick movements caught her back to attention. she began to watch the robin, and to note how it glanced sidelong at her and appeared to meditate further approaches. she made an almost imperceptible movement, and straightway the little creature was in a projecting spray of berried hawthorn overhead. her tear-washed mind became vaguely friendly. with an unconscious comfort it focussed down to the robin. she rolled over, sat up, and imitated his friendly "cheep." section presently she became aware of footsteps rustling through the grass towards her. she looked over her shoulder and discovered mr. britling approaching by the field path. he looked white and tired and listless, even his bristling hair and moustache conveyed his depression; he was dressed in an old tweed knickerbocker suit and carrying a big atlas and some papers. he had an effect of hesitation in his approach. it was as if he wanted to talk to her and doubted her reception for him. he spoke without any preface. "direck has told you?" he said, standing over her. she answered with a sob. "i was afraid it was so, and yet i did not believe it," said mr. britling. "until now." he hesitated as if he would go on, and then he knelt down on the grass a little way from her and seated himself. there was an interval of silence. "at first it hurts like the devil," he said at last, looking away at mertonsome spire and speaking as if he spoke to no one in particular. "and then it hurts. it goes on hurting.... and one can't say much to any one...." he said no more for a time. but the two of them comforted one another, and knew that they comforted each other. they had a common feeling of fellowship and ease. they had been stricken by the same thing; they understood how it was with each other. it was not like the attempted comfort they got from those who had not loved and dreaded.... she took up a little broken twig and dug small holes in the ground with it. "it's strange," she said, "but i'm glad i know for sure." "i can understand that," said mr. britling. "it stops the nightmares.... it isn't hopes i've had so much as fears.... i wouldn't admit he was dead or hurt. because--i couldn't think it without thinking it--horrible. _now_--" "it's final," said mr. britling. "it's definite," she said after a pause. "it's like thinking he's asleep--for good." but that did not satisfy her. there was more than this in her mind. "it does away with the half and half," she said. "he's dead or he is alive...." she looked up at mr. britling as if she measured his understanding. "you don't still doubt?" he said. "i'm content now in my mind--in a way. he wasn't anyhow there--unless he was dead. but if i saw teddy coming over the hedge there to me--it would be just natural.... no, don't stare at me. i know really he is dead. and it is a comfort. it is peace.... all the thoughts of him being crushed dreadfully or being mutilated or lying and screaming--or things like that--they've gone. he's out of his spoilt body. he's my unbroken teddy again.... out of sight somewhere.... unbroken.... sleeping." she resumed her excavation with the little stick, with the tears running down her face. mr. britling presently went on with the talk. "for me it came all at once, without a doubt or a hope. i hoped until the last that nothing would touch hugh. and then it was like a black shutter falling--in an instant...." he considered. "hugh, too, seems just round the corner at times. but at times, it's a blank place.... "at times," said mr. britling, "i feel nothing but astonishment. the whole thing becomes incredible. just as for weeks after the war began i couldn't believe that a big modern nation could really go to war--seriously--with its whole heart.... and they have killed teddy and hugh.... "they have killed millions. millions--who had fathers and mothers and wives and sweethearts...." section "somehow i can't talk about this to edith. it is ridiculous, i know. but in some way i can't.... it isn't fair to her. if i could, i would.... quite soon after we were married i ceased to talk to her. i mean talking really and simply--as i do to you. and it's never come back. i don't know why.... and particularly i can't talk to her of hugh.... little things, little shadows of criticism, but enough to make it impossible.... and i go about thinking about hugh, and what has happened to him sometimes... as though i was stifling." letty compared her case. "i don't want to talk about teddy--not a word." "that's queer.... but perhaps--a son is different. now i come to think of it--i've never talked of mary.... not to any one ever. i've never thought of that before. but i haven't. i couldn't. no. losing a lover, that's a thing for oneself. i've been through that, you see. but a son's more outside you. altogether. and more your own making. it's not losing a thing _in_ you; it's losing a hope and a pride.... once when i was a little boy i did a drawing very carefully. it took me a long time.... and a big boy tore it up. for no particular reason. just out of cruelty.... that--that was exactly like losing hugh...." letty reflected. "no," she confessed, "i'm more selfish than that." "it isn't selfish," said mr. britling. "but it's a different thing. it's less intimate, and more personally important." "i have just thought, 'he's gone. he's gone.' sometimes, do you know, i have felt quite angry with him. why need he have gone--so soon?" mr. britling nodded understandingly. "i'm not angry. i'm not depressed. i'm just bitterly hurt by the ending of something i had hoped to watch--always--all my life," he said. "i don't know how it is between most fathers and sons, but i admired hugh. i found exquisite things in him. i doubt if other people saw them. he was quiet. he seemed clumsy. but he had an extraordinary fineness. he was a creature of the most delicate and rapid responses.... these aren't my fond delusions. it was so.... you know, when he was only a few days old, he would start suddenly at any strange sound. he was alive like an Æolian harp from the very beginning.... and his hair when he was born--he had a lot of hair--was like the down on the breast of a bird. i remember that now very vividly--and how i used to like to pass my hand over it. it was silk, spun silk. before he was two he could talk--whole sentences. he had the subtlest ear. he loved long words.... and then," he said with tears in his voice, "all this beautiful fine structure, this brain, this fresh life as nimble as water--as elastic as a steel spring, it is destroyed.... "i don't make out he wasn't human. often and often i have been angry with him, and disappointed in him. there were all sorts of weaknesses in him. we all knew them. and we didn't mind them. we loved him the better. and his odd queer cleverness!.... and his profound wisdom. and then all this beautiful and delicate fabric, all those clear memories in his dear brain, all his whims, his sudden inventions.... "you know, i have had a letter from his chum park. he was shot through a loophole. the bullet went through his eye and brow.... think of it! "an amazement ... a blow ... a splattering of blood. rags of tormented skin and brain stuff.... in a moment. what had taken eighteen years--love and care...." he sat thinking for an interval, and then went on, "the reading and writing alone! i taught him to read myself--because his first governess, you see, wasn't very clever. she was a very good methodical sort, but she had no inspiration. so i got up all sorts of methods for teaching him to read. but it wasn't necessary. he seemed to leap all sorts of difficulties. he leapt to what one was trying to teach him. it was as quick as the movement of some wild animal.... "he came into life as bright and quick as this robin looking for food.... "and he's broken up and thrown away.... like a cartridge case by the side of a covert...." he choked and stopped speaking. his elbows were on his knees, and he put his face between his hands and shuddered and became still. his hair was troubled. the end of his stumpy moustache and a little roll of flesh stood out at the side of his hand, and made him somehow twice as pitiful. his big atlas, from which papers projected, seemed forgotten by his side. so he sat for a long time, and neither he nor letty moved or spoke. but they were in the same shadow. they found great comfort in one another. they had not been so comforted before since their losses came upon them. section it was mr. britling who broke silence. and when he drew his hands down from his face and spoke, he said one of the most amazing and unexpected things she had ever heard in her life. "the only possible government in albania," he said, looking steadfastly before him down the hill-side, "is a group of republican cantons after the swiss pattern. i can see no other solution that is not offensive to god. it does not matter in the least what we owe to serbia or what we owe to italy. we have got to set this world on a different footing. we have got to set up the world at last--on justice and reason." then, after a pause, "the treaty of bucharest was an evil treaty. it must be undone. whatever this german king of bulgaria does, that treaty must be undone and the bulgarians united again into one people. they must have themselves, whatever punishment they deserve, they must have nothing more, whatever reward they win." she could not believe her ears. "after this precious blood, after this precious blood, if we leave one plot of wickedness or cruelty in the world--" and therewith he began to lecture letty on the importance of international politics--to every one. how he and she and every one must understand, however hard it was to understand. "no life is safe, no happiness is safe, there is no chance of bettering life until we have made an end to all that causes war.... "we have to put an end to the folly and vanity of kings, and to any people ruling any people but themselves. there is no convenience, there is no justice in any people ruling any people but themselves; the ruling of men by others, who have not their creeds and their languages and their ignorances and prejudices, that is the fundamental folly that has killed teddy and hugh--and these millions. to end that folly is as much our duty and business as telling the truth or earning a living...." "but how can you alter it?" he held out a finger at her. "men may alter anything if they have motive enough and faith enough." he indicated the atlas beside him. "here i am planning the real map of the world," he said. "every sort of district that has a character of its own must have its own rule; and the great republic of the united states of the world must keep the federal peace between them all. that's the plain sense of life; the federal world-republic. why do we bother ourselves with loyalties to any other government but that? it needs only that sufficient men should say it, and that republic would be here now. why have we loitered so long--until these tragic punishments come? we have to map the world out into its states, and plan its government and the way of its tolerations." "and you think it will come?" "it will come." "and you believe that men will listen to such schemes?" said letty. mr. britling, with his eyes far away over the hills, seemed to think. "yes," he said. "not perhaps to-day--not steadily. but kings and empires die; great ideas, once they are born, can never die again. in the end this world-republic, this sane government of the world, is as certain as the sunset. only...." he sighed, and turned over a page of his atlas blindly. "only we want it soon. the world is weary of this bloodshed, weary of all this weeping, of this wasting of substance and this killing of sons and lovers. we want it soon, and to have it soon we must work to bring it about. we must give our lives. what is left of our lives.... "that is what you and i must do, letty. what else is there left for us to do?... i will write of nothing else, i will think of nothing else now but of safety and order. so that all these dear dead--not one of them but will have brought the great days of peace and man's real beginning nearer, and these cruel things that make men whimper like children, that break down bright lives into despair and kill youth at the very moment when it puts out its clean hands to take hold of life--these cruelties, these abominations of confusion, shall cease from the earth forever." section letty regarded him, frowning, and with her chin between her fists.... "but do you really believe," said letty, "that things can be better than they are?" "but--_yes!_" said mr. britling. "i don't," said letty. "the world is cruel. it is just cruel. so it will always be." "it need not be cruel," said mr. britling. "it is just a place of cruel things. it is all set with knives. it is full of diseases and accidents. as for god--either there is no god or he is an idiot. he is a slobbering idiot. he is like some idiot who pulls off the wings of flies." "no," said mr. britling. "there is no progress. nothing gets better. how can _you_ believe in god after hugh? _do_ you believe in god?" "yes," said mr. britling after a long pause; "i do believe in god." "who lets these things happen!" she raised herself on her arm and thrust her argument at him with her hand. "who kills my teddy and your hugh--and millions." "no," said mr. britling. "but he _must_ let these things happen. or why do they happen?" "no," said mr. britling. "it is the theologians who must answer that. they have been extravagant about god. they have had silly absolute ideas--that he is all powerful. that he's omni-everything. but the common sense of men knows better. every real religious thought denies it. after all, the real god of the christians is christ, not god almighty; a poor mocked and wounded god nailed on a cross of matter.... some day he will triumph.... but it is not fair to say that he causes all things now. it is not fair to make out a case against him. you have been misled. it is a theologian's folly. god is not absolute; god is finite.... a finite god who struggles in his great and comprehensive way as we struggle in our weak and silly way--who is _with_ us--that is the essence of all real religion.... i agree with you so--why! if i thought there was an omnipotent god who looked down on battles and deaths and all the waste and horror of this war--able to prevent these things--doing them to amuse himself--i would spit in his empty face...." "any one would...." "but it's your teachers and catechisms have set you against god.... they want to make out he owns all nature. and all sorts of silly claims. like the heralds in the middle ages who insisted that christ was certainly a great gentleman entitled to bear arms. but god is within nature and necessity. necessity is a thing beyond god--beyond good and ill, beyond space and time, a mystery everlastingly impenetrable. god is nearer than that. necessity is the uttermost thing, but god is the innermost thing. closer he is than breathing and nearer than hands and feet. he is the other thing than this world. greater than nature or necessity, for he is a spirit and they are blind, but not controlling them.... not yet...." "they always told me he was the maker of heaven and earth." "that's the jew god the christians took over. it's a quack god, a panacea. it's not my god." letty considered these strange ideas. "i never thought of him like that," she said at last. "it makes it all seem different." "nor did i. but i do now.... i have suddenly found it and seen it plain. i see it so plain that i am amazed that i have not always seen it.... it is, you see, so easy to understand that there is a god, and how complex and wonderful and brotherly he is, when one thinks of those dear boys who by the thousand, by the hundred thousand, have laid down their lives.... ay, and there were german boys too who did the same.... the cruelties, the injustice, the brute aggression--they saw it differently. they laid down their lives--they laid down their lives.... those dear lives, those lives of hope and sunshine.... "don't you see that it must be like that, letty? don't you see that it must be like that?" "no," she said, "i've seen things differently from that." "but it's so plain to me," said mr. britling. "if there was nothing else in all the world but our kindness for each other, or the love that made you weep in this kind october sunshine, or the love i bear hugh--if there was nothing else at all--if everything else was cruelty and mockery and filthiness and bitterness, it would still be certain that there was a god of love and righteousness. if there were no signs of god in all the world but the godliness we have seen in those two boys of ours; if we had no other light but the love we have between us.... "you don't mind if i talk like this?" said mr. britling. "it's all i can think of now--this god, this god who struggles, who was in hugh and teddy, clear and plain, and how he must become the ruler of the world...." "this god who struggles," she repeated. "i have never thought of him like that." "of course he must be like that," said mr. britling. "how can god be a person; how can he be anything that matters to man, unless he is limited and defined and--human like ourselves.... with things outside him and beyond him." section letty walked back slowly through the fields of stubble to her cottage. she had been talking to mr. britling for an hour, and her mind was full of the thought of this changed and simplified man, who talked of god as he might have done of a bird he had seen or of a tree he had sheltered under. and all mixed up with this thought of mr. britling was this strange idea of god who was also a limited person, who could come as close as teddy, whispering love in the darkness. she had a ridiculous feeling that god really struggled like mr. britling, and that with only some indefinable inferiority of outlook mr. britling loved like god. she loved him for his maps and his dreams and the bareness of his talk to her. it was strange how the straining thought of the dead teddy had passed now out of her mind. she was possessed by a sense of ending and beginning, as though a page had turned over in her life and everything was new. she had never given religion any thought but contemptuous thought for some years, since indeed her growing intelligence had dismissed it as a scheme of inexcusable restraints and empty pretences, a thing of discords where there were no discords except of its making. she had been a happy atheist. she had played in the sunshine, a natural creature with the completest confidence in the essential goodness of the world in which she found herself. she had refused all thought of painful and disagreeable things. until the bloody paw of war had wiped out all her assurance. teddy, the playmate, was over, the love game was ended for ever; the fresh happy acceptance of life as life; and in the place of teddy was the sorrow of life, the pity of life, and this coming of god out of utter remoteness into a conceivable relation to her own existence. she had left mr. britling to his atlas. he lay prone under the hedge with it spread before him. his occupation would have seemed to her only a little while ago the absurdest imaginable. he was drawing boundaries on his maps very carefully in red ink, with a fountain pen. but now she understood. she knew that those red ink lines of mr. britling's might in the end prove wiser and stronger than the bargains of the diplomats.... in the last hour he had come very near to her. she found herself full of an unwonted affection for him. she had never troubled her head about her relations with any one except teddy before. now suddenly she seemed to be opening out to all the world for kindness. this new idea of a friendly god, who had a struggle of his own, who could be thought of as kindred to mr. britling, as kindred to teddy--had gripped her imagination. he was behind the autumnal sunshine; he was in the little bird that had seemed so confident and friendly. whatever was kind, whatever was tender; there was god. and a thousand old phrases she had read and heard and given little heed to, that had lain like dry bones in her memory, suddenly were clothed in flesh and became alive. this god--if this was god--then indeed it was not nonsense to say that god was love, that he was a friend and companion.... with him it might be possible to face a world in which teddy and she would never walk side by side again nor plan any more happiness for ever. after all she had been very happy; she had had wonderful happiness. she had had far more happiness, far more love, in her short years or so than most people had in their whole lives. and so in the reaction of her emotions, letty, who had gone out with her head full of murder and revenge, came back through the sunset thinking of pity, of the thousand kindnesses and tendernesses of teddy that were, after all, perhaps only an intimation of the limitless kindnesses and tendernesses of god.... what right had she to a white and bitter grief, self-centred and vindictive, while old britling could still plan an age of mercy in the earth and a red-gold sunlight that was warm as a smile from teddy lay on all the world.... she must go into the cottage and kiss cissie, and put away that parcel out of sight until she could find some poor soldier to whom she could send it. she had been pitiless towards cissie in her grief. she had, in the egotism of her sorrow, treated cissie as she might have treated a chair or a table, with no thought that cissie might be weary, might dream of happiness still to come. cissie had still to play the lover, and her man was already in khaki. there would be no such year as letty had had in the days before the war darkened the world. before cissie's marrying the peace must come, and the peace was still far away. and direck too would have to take his chances.... letty came through the little wood and over the stile that brought her into sight of the cottage. the windows of the cottage as she saw it under the bough of the big walnut tree, were afire from the sun. the crimson rambler over the porch that she and teddy had planted was still bearing roses. the door was open and people were moving in the porch. some one was coming out of the cottage, a stranger, in an unfamiliar costume, and behind him was a man in khaki--but that was mr. direck! and behind him again was cissie. but the stranger! he came out of the frame of the porch towards the garden gate.... who--who was this stranger? it was a man in queer-looking foreign clothes, baggy trousers of some soft-looking blue stuff and a blouse, and he had a white-bandaged left arm. he had a hat stuck at the back of his head, and a beard.... he was entirely a stranger, a foreigner. was she going insane? of course he was a stranger! and then he moved a step, he made a queer sideways pace, a caper, on the path, and instantly he ceased to be strange and foreign. he became amazingly, incredibly, familiar by virtue of that step.... _no!_ her breath stopped. all letty's being seemed to stop. and this stranger who was also incredibly familiar, after he had stared at her motionless form for a moment, waved his hat with a gesture--a gesture that crowned and scaled the effect of familiarity. she gave no sign in reply. no, that familiarity was just a mad freakishness in things. this strange man came from belgium perhaps, to tell something about teddy.... and then she surprised herself by making a groaning noise, an absurd silly noise, just like the noise when one imitates a cow to a child. she said "mooo-oo." and she began to run forward, with legs that seemed misfits, waving her hands about, and as she ran she saw more and more certainly that this wounded man in strange clothing was teddy. she ran faster and still faster, stumbling and nearly falling. if she did not get to him speedily the world would burst. to hold him, to hold close to him!... "letty! letty! just one arm...." she was clinging to him and he was holding her.... it was all right. she had always known it was all right. (hold close to him.) except just for a little while. but that had been foolishness. hadn't she always known he was alive? and here he was alive! (hold close to him.) only it was so good to be sure--after all her torment; to hold him, to hang about him, to feel the solid man, kissing her, weeping too, weeping together with her. "teddy my love!" section letty was in the cottage struggling to hear and understand things too complicated for her emotion-crowded mind. there was something that mr. direck was trying to explain about a delayed telegram that had come soon after she had gone out. there was much indeed that mr. direck was trying to explain. what did any explanation really matter when you had teddy, with nothing but a strange beard and a bandaged arm between him and yourself? she had an absurd persuasion at first that those two strangenesses would also presently be set aside, so that teddy would become just exactly what teddy had always been. teddy had been shot through the upper arm.... "my hand has gone, dear little letty. it's my left hand, luckily. i shall have to wear a hook like some old pirate...." there was something about his being taken prisoner. "that other officer"--that was mr. direck's officer--"had been lying there for days." teddy had been shot through the upper arm, and stunned by a falling beam. when he came to he was disarmed, with a german standing over him.... then afterwards he had escaped. in quite a little time he had escaped. he had been in a railway station somewhere in belgium; locked in a waiting-room with three or four french prisoners, and the junction had been bombed by french and british aeroplanes. their guard and two of the prisoners had been killed. in the confusion the others had got away into the town. there were trucks of hay on fire, and a store of petrol was in danger. "after that one was bound to escape. one would have been shot if one had been found wandering about." the bomb had driven some splinters of glass and corrugated iron into teddy's wrist; it seemed a small place at first; it didn't trouble him for weeks. but then some dirt got into it. in the narrow cobbled street beyond the station he had happened upon a woman who knew no english, but who took him to a priest, and the priest had hidden him. letty did not piece together the whole story at first. she did not want the story very much; she wanted to know about this hand and arm. there would be queer things in the story when it came to be told. there was an old peasant who had made teddy work in his fields in spite of his smashed and aching arm, and who had pointed to a passing german when teddy demurred; there were the people called "they" who had at that time organised the escape of stragglers into holland. there was the night watch, those long nights in succession before the dash for liberty. but letty's concern was all with the hand. inside the sling there was something that hurt the imagination, something bandaged, a stump. she could not think of it. she could not get away from the thought of it. "but why did you lose your hand?" it was only a little place at first, and then it got painful.... "but i didn't go into a hospital because i was afraid they would intern me, and so i wouldn't be able to come home. and i was dying to come home. i was--homesick. no one was ever so homesick. i've thought of this place and the garden, and how one looked out of the window at the passers-by, a thousand times. i seemed always to be seeing them. old dimple with his benevolent smile, and mrs. wolker at the end cottage, and how she used to fetch her beer and wink when she caught us looking at her, and little charlie slobberface sniffing on his way to the pigs and all the rest of them. and you, letty. particularly you. and how we used to lean on the window-sill with our shoulders touching, and your cheek just in front of my eyes.... and nothing aching at all in one.... "how i thought of that and longed for that!... "and so, you see, i didn't go to the hospital. i kept hoping to get to england first. and i left it too long...." "life's come back to me with you!" said letty. "until just to-day i've believed you'd come back. and to-day--i doubted.... i thought it was all over--all the real life, love and the dear fun of things, and that there was nothing before me, nothing before me but just holding out--and keeping your memory.... poor arm. poor arm. and being kind to people. and pretending you were alive somewhere.... i'll not care about the arm. in a little while.... i'm glad you've gone, but i'm gladder you're back and can never go again.... and i will be your right hand, dear, and your left hand and all your hands. both my hands for your dear lost left one. you shall have three hands instead of two...." section letty stood by the window as close as she could to teddy in a world that seemed wholly made up of unexpected things. she could not heed the others, it was only when teddy spoke to the others, or when they spoke to teddy, that they existed for her. for instance, teddy was presently talking to mr. direck. they had spoken about the canadians who had come up and relieved the essex men after the fight in which teddy had been captured. and then it was manifest that mr. direck was talking of his regiment. "i'm not the only american who has gone canadian--for the duration of the war." he had got to his explanation at last. "i've told a lie," he said triumphantly. "i've shifted my birthplace six hundred miles. "mind you, i don't admit a thing that cissie has ever said about america--not one thing. you don't understand the sort of proposition america is up against. america is the new world, where there are no races and nations any more; she is the melting pot, from which we will cast the better state. i've believed that always--in spite of a thousand little things i believe it now. i go back on nothing. i'm not fighting as an american either. i'm fighting simply as myself.... i'm not going fighting for england, mind you. don't you fancy that. i don't know i'm so particularly in love with a lot of english ways as to do that. i don't see how any one can be very much in love with your empire, with its dead-alive court, its artful politicians, its lords and ladies and snobs, its way with the irish and its way with india, and everybody shifting responsibility and telling lies about your common people. i'm not going fighting for england. i'm going fighting for cissie--and justice and belgium and all that--but more particularly for cissie. and anyhow i can't look pa britling in the face any more.... and i want to see those trenches--close. i reckon they're a thing it will be interesting to talk about some day.... so i'm going," said mr. direck. "but chiefly--it's cissie. see?" cissie had come and stood by the side of him. she looked from poor broken teddy to him and back again. "up to now," she said, "i've wanted you to go...." tears came into her eyes. "i suppose i must let you go," she said. "oh! i'd hate you not to go...." section "good god! how old the master looks!" cried teddy suddenly. he was standing at the window, and as mr. direck came forward inquiringly he pointed to the figure of mr. britling passing along the road towards the dower house. "he does look old. i hadn't noticed," said mr. direck. "why, he's gone grey!" cried teddy, peering. "he wasn't grey when i left." they watched the knickerbockered figure of mr. britling receding up the hill, atlas and papers in his hands behind his back. "i must go out to him," said teddy, disengaging himself from letty. "no," she said, arresting him with her hand. "but he will be glad--" she stood in her husband's way. she had a vision of mr. britling suddenly called out of his dreams of god ruling the united states of the world, to rejoice at teddy's restoration.... "no," she said; "it will only make him think again of hugh--and how he died. don't go out, teddy. not now. what does he care for _you_?... let him rest from such things.... leave him to dream over his atlas.... he isn't so desolate--if you knew.... i will tell you, teddy--when i can.... "but just now--no, he will think of hugh again.... let him go.... he has god and his atlas there.... they're more than you think." chapter the second mr. britling writes until sunrise section it was some weeks later. it was now the middle of november, and mr. britling, very warmly wrapped in his thick dressing-gown and his thick llama wool pyjamas, was sitting at his night desk, and working ever and again at an essay, an essay of preposterous ambitions, for the title of it was "the better government of the world." latterly he had had much sleepless misery. in the day life was tolerable, but in the night--unless he defended himself by working, the losses and cruelties of the war came and grimaced at him, insufferably. now he would be haunted by long processions of refugees, now he would think of the dead lying stiff and twisted in a thousand dreadful attitudes. then again he would be overwhelmed with anticipations of the frightful economic and social dissolution that might lie ahead.... at other times he thought of wounds and the deformities of body and spirit produced by injuries. and sometimes he would think of the triumph of evil. stupid and triumphant persons went about a world that stupidity had desolated, with swaggering gestures, with a smiling consciousness of enhanced importance, with their scornful hatred of all measured and temperate and kindly things turned now to scornful contempt. and mingling with the soil they walked on lay the dead body of hugh, face downward. at the back of the boy's head, rimmed by blood-stiffened hair--the hair that had once been "as soft as the down of a bird"--was a big red hole. that hole was always pitilessly distinct. they stepped on him--heedlessly. they heeled the scattered stuff of his exquisite brain into the clay.... from all such moods of horror mr. britling's circle of lamplight was his sole refuge. his work could conjure up visions, like opium visions, of a world of order and justice. amidst the gloom of world bankruptcy he stuck to the prospectus of a braver enterprise--reckless of his chances of subscribers.... section but this night even this circle of lamplight would not hold his mind. doubt had crept into this last fastness. he pulled the papers towards him, and turned over the portion he had planned. his purpose in the book he was beginning to write was to reason out the possible methods of government that would give a stabler, saner control to the world. he believed still in democracy, but he was realising more and more that democracy had yet to discover its method. it had to take hold of the consciences of men, it had to equip itself with still unformed organisations. endless years of patient thinking, of experimenting, of discussion lay before mankind ere this great idea could become reality, and right, the proven right thing, could rule the earth. meanwhile the world must still remain a scene of blood-stained melodrama, of deafening noise, contagious follies, vast irrational destructions. one fine life after another went down from study and university and laboratory to be slain and silenced.... was it conceivable that this mad monster of mankind would ever be caught and held in the thin-spun webs of thought? was it, after all, anything but pretension and folly for a man to work out plans for the better government of the world?--was it any better than the ambitious scheming of some fly upon the wheel of the romantic gods? man has come, floundering and wounding and suffering, out of the breeding darknesses of time, that will presently crush and consume him again. why not flounder with the rest, why not eat, drink, fight, scream, weep and pray, forget hugh, stop brooding upon hugh, banish all these priggish dreams of "the better government of the world," and turn to the brighter aspects, the funny and adventurous aspects of the war, the chestertonian jolliness, _punch_ side of things? think you because your sons are dead that there will be no more cakes and ale? let mankind blunder out of the mud and blood as mankind has blundered in.... let us at any rate keep our precious sense of humour.... he pulled his manuscript towards him. for a time he sat decorating the lettering of his title, "the better government of the world," with little grinning gnomes' heads and waggish tails.... section on the top of mr. britling's desk, beside the clock, lay a letter, written in clumsy english and with its envelope resealed by a label which testified that it had been "opened by censor." the friendly go-between in norway had written to tell mr. britling that herr heinrich also was dead; he had died a wounded prisoner in russia some months ago. he had been wounded and captured, after undergoing great hardships, during the great russian attack upon the passes of the carpathians in the early spring, and his wound had mortified. he had recovered partially for a time, and then he had been beaten and injured again in some struggle between german and croatian prisoners, and he had sickened and died. before he died he had written to his parents, and once again he had asked that the fiddle he had left in mr. britling's care should if possible be returned to them. it was manifest that both for him and them now it had become a symbol with many associations. the substance of this letter invaded the orange circle of the lamp; it would have to be answered, and the potentialities of the answer were running through mr. britling's brain to the exclusion of any impersonal composition. he thought of the old parents away there in pomerania--he believed but he was not quite sure, that heinrich had been an only son--and of the pleasant spectacled figure that had now become a broken and decaying thing in a prisoner's shallow grave.... another son had gone--all the world was losing its sons.... he found himself thinking of young heinrich in the very manner, if with a lesser intensity, in which he thought about his own son, as of hopes senselessly destroyed. his mind took no note of the fact that heinrich was an enemy, that by the reckoning of a "war of attrition" his death was balance and compensation for the death of hugh. he went straight to the root fact that they had been gallant and kindly beings, and that the same thing had killed them both.... by no conceivable mental gymnastics could he think of the two as antagonists. between them there was no imaginable issue. they had both very much the same scientific disposition; with perhaps more dash and inspiration in the quality of hugh; more docility and method in the case of karl. until war had smashed them one against the other.... he recalled his first sight of heinrich at the junction, and how he had laughed at the sight of his excessive teutonism. the close-cropped shining fair head surmounted by a yellowish-white corps cap had appeared dodging about among the people upon the platform, and manifestly asking questions. the face had been very pink with the effort of an unaccustomed tongue. the young man had been clad in a suit of white flannel refined by a purple line; his boots were of that greenish yellow leather that only a german student could esteem "chic"; his rucksack was upon his back, and the precious fiddle in its case was carried very carefully in one hand; this same dead fiddle. the other hand held a stick with a carved knob and a pointed end. he had been too german for belief. "herr heinrich!" mr. britling had said, and straightway the heels had clashed together for a bow, a bow from the waist, a bow that a heedless old lady much burthened with garden produce had greatly disarranged. from first to last amidst our off-hand english ways herr heinrich had kept his bow--and always it had been getting disarranged. that had been his constant effect; a little stiff, a little absurd, and always clean and pink and methodical. the boys had liked him without reserve, mrs. britling had liked him; everybody had found him a likeable creature. he never complained of anything except picnics. but he did object to picnics; to the sudden departure of the family to wild surroundings for the consumption of cold, knifeless and forkless meals in the serious middle hours of the day. he protested to mr. britling, respectfully but very firmly. it was, he held, implicit in their understanding that he should have a cooked meal in the middle of the day. otherwise his magen was perplexed and disordered. in the evening he could not eat with any gravity or profit.... their disposition towards under-feeding and a certain lack of fine sentiment were the only flaws in the english scheme that herr heinrich admitted. he certainly found the english unfeeling. his heart went even less satisfied than his magen. he was a being of expressive affections; he wanted great friendships, mysterious relationships, love. he tried very bravely to revere and to understand and be occultly understood by mr. britling; he sought long walks and deep talks with hugh and the small boys; he tried to fill his heart with cissie; he found at last marvels of innocence and sweetness in the hickson girl. she wore her hair in a pigtail when first he met her, and it made her almost marguerite. this young man had cried aloud for love, warm and filling, like the mittagsessen that was implicit in their understanding. and all these essex people failed to satisfy him; they were silent, they were subtle, they slipped through the fat yet eager fingers of his heart, so that he fell back at last upon himself and his german correspondents and the idealisation of maud hickson and the moral education of billy. billy. mr. britling's memories came back at last to the figure of young heinrich with the squirrel on his shoulder, that had so often stood in the way of the utter condemnation of germany. that, seen closely, was the stuff of one brutal prussian. what quarrel had we with him?... other memories of heinrich flitted across mr. britling's reverie. heinrich at hockey, running with extreme swiftness and little skill, tricked and baffled by letty, dodged by hugh, going headlong forward and headlong back, and then with a cry flinging himself flat on the ground exhausted.... or again heinrich very grave and very pink, peering through his glasses at his cards at skat.... or heinrich in the boats upon the great pond, or heinrich swimming, or heinrich hiding very, very artfully from the boys about the garden on a theory of his own, or heinrich in strange postures, stalking the deer in claverings park. for a time he had had a great ambition to creep quite close to a deer and _touch_ it.... or heinrich indexing. he had a passion for listing and indexing books, music, any loose classifiable thing. his favourite amusement was devising schemes for the indentation of dictionary leaves, so that one could turn instantly to the needed word. he had bought and cut the edges of three dictionaries; each in succession improved upon the other; he had had great hopes of patents and wealth arising therefrom.... and his room had been a source of strange sounds; his search for music upon the violin. he had hoped when he came to matching's easy to join "some string quartette." but matching's easy produced no string quartette. he had to fall back upon the pianola, and try to play duets with that. only the pianola did all the duet itself, and in the hands of a small britling was apt to betray a facetious moodiness; sudden alternations between extreme haste and extreme lassitude.... then there came a memory of heinrich talking very seriously; his glasses magnifying his round blue eyes, talking of his ideas about life, of his beliefs and disbeliefs, of his ambitions and prospects in life. he confessed two principal ambitions. they varied perhaps in their absolute dimensions, but they were of equal importance in his mind. the first of these was, so soon as he had taken his doctorate in philology, to give himself to the perfecting of an international language; it was to combine all the virtues of esperanto and ido. "and then," said herr heinrich, "i do not think there will be any more wars--ever." the second ambition, which was important first because herr heinrich found much delight in working at it, and secondly because he thought it would give him great wealth and opportunity for propagating the perfect speech, was the elaboration of his system of marginal indentations for dictionaries and alphabetical books of reference of all sorts. it was to be so complete that one would just stand over the book to be consulted, run hand and eye over its edges and open the book--"at the very exact spot." he proposed to follow this business up with a quite germanic thoroughness. "presently," he said, "i must study the machinery by which the edges of books are cut. it is possible i may have to invent these also." this was the double-barrelled scheme of herr heinrich's career. and along it he was to go, and incidentally develop his large vague heart that was at present so manifestly unsatisfied.... such was the brief story of herr heinrich. that story was over--just as hugh's story was over. that first volume would never now have a second and a third. it ended in some hasty grave in russia. the great scheme for marginal indices would never be patented, the duets with the pianola would never be played again. imagination glimpsed a little figure toiling manfully through the slush and snow of the carpathians; saw it staggering under its first experience of shell fire; set it amidst attacks and flights and fatigue and hunger and a rush perhaps in the darkness; guessed at the wounding blow. then came the pitiful pilgrimage of the prisoners into captivity, captivity in a land desolated, impoverished and embittered. came wounds wrapped in filthy rags, pain and want of occupation, and a poor little bent and broken heinrich sitting aloof in a crowded compound nursing a mortifying wound.... he used always to sit in a peculiar attitude with his arms crossed on his crossed legs, looking slantingly through his glasses.... so he must have sat, and presently he lay on some rough bedding and suffered, untended, in infinite discomfort; lay motionless and thought at times, it may be, of matching's easy and wondered what hugh and teddy were doing. then he became fevered, and the world grew bright-coloured and fantastic and ugly for him. until one day an infinite weakness laid hold of him, and his pain grew faint and all his thoughts and memories grew faint--and still fainter.... the violin had been brought into mr. britling's study that afternoon, and lay upon the further window-seat. poor little broken sherd, poor little fragment of a shattered life! it looked in its case like a baby in a coffin. "i must write a letter to the old father and mother," mr. britling thought. "i can't just send the poor little fiddle--without a word. in all this pitiful storm of witless hate--surely there may be one greeting--not hateful. "from my blackness to yours," said mr. britling aloud. he would have to write it in english. but even if they knew no english some one would be found to translate it to them. he would have to write very plainly. section he pushed aside the manuscript of "the better government of the world," and began to write rather slowly, shaping his letters roundly and distinctly: _dear sir,_ _i am writing this letter to you to tell you i am sending back the few little things i had kept for your son at his request when the war broke out. i am sending them--_ mr. britling left that blank for the time until he could arrange the method of sending to the norwegian intermediary. _especially i am sending his violin, which he had asked me thrice to convey to you. either it is a gift from you or it symbolised many things for him that he connected with home and you. i will have it packed with particular care, and i will do all in my power to ensure its safe arrival._ _i want to tell you that all the stress and passion of this war has not made us here in matching's easy forget our friend your son. he was one of us, he had our affection, he had friends here who are still his friends. we found him honourable and companionable, and we share something of your loss. i have got together for you a few snapshots i chance to possess in which you will see him in the sunshine, and which will enable you perhaps to picture a little more definitely than you would otherwise do the life he led here. there is one particularly that i have marked. our family is lunching out-of-doors, and you will see that next to your son is a youngster, a year or so his junior, who is touching glasses with him. i have put a cross over his head. he is my eldest son, he was very dear to me, and he too has been, killed in this war. they are, you see, smiling very pleasantly at each other._ while writing this mr. britling had been struck by the thought of the photographs, and he had taken them out of the little drawer into which he was accustomed to thrust them. he picked out the ones that showed the young german, but there were others, bright with sunshine, that were now charged with acquired significances; there were two showing the children and teddy and hugh and cissie and letty doing the goose step, and there was one of mr. van der pant, smiling at the front door, in heinrich's abandoned slippers. there were endless pictures of teddy also. it is the happy instinct of the kodak to refuse those days that are overcast, and the photographic record of a life is a chain of all its kindlier aspects. in the drawer above these snapshots there were hugh's letters and a miscellany of trivial documents touching on his life. mr. britling discontinued writing and turned these papers over and mused. heinrich's letters and postcards had got in among them, and so had a letter of teddy's.... the letters reinforced the photographs in their reminder how kind and pleasant a race mankind can be. until the wild asses of nationalism came kicking and slaying amidst them, until suspicion and jostling greed and malignity poison their minds, until the fools with the high explosives blow that elemental goodness into shrieks of hate and splashes of blood. how kindly men are--up to the very instant of their cruelties! his mind teemed suddenly with little anecdotes and histories of the goodwill of men breaking through the ill-will of war, of the mutual help of sorely wounded germans and english lying together in the mud and darkness between the trenches, of the fellowship of captors and prisoners, of the saxons at christmas fraternising with the english.... of that he had seen photographs in one of the daily papers.... his mind came back presently from these wanderings to the task before him. he tried to picture these heinrich parents. he supposed they were kindly, civilised people. it was manifest the youngster had come to him from a well-ordered and gentle-spirited home. but he imagined them--he could not tell why--as people much older than himself. perhaps young heinrich had on some occasion said they were old people--he could not remember. and he had a curious impulse too to write to them in phrases of consolation; as if their loss was more pitiable than his own. he doubted whether they had the consolation of his sanguine temperament, whether they could resort as readily as he could to his faith, whether in pomerania there was the same consoling possibility of an essay on the better government of the world. he did not think this very clearly, but that was what was at the back of his mind. he went on writing. _if you think that these two boys have both perished, not in some noble common cause but one against the other in a struggle of dynasties and boundaries and trade routes and tyrannous ascendancies, then it seems to me that you must feel as i feel that this war is the most tragic and dreadful thing that has ever happened to mankind._ he sat thinking for some minutes after he had written that, and when presently he resumed his writing, a fresh strain of thought was traceable even in his opening sentence. _if you count dead and wounds this is the most dreadful war in history; for you as for me, it has been almost the extremity of personal tragedy.... black sorrow.... but is it the most dreadful war?_ _i do not think it is. i can write to you and tell you that i do indeed believe that our two sons have died not altogether in vain. our pain and anguish may not be wasted--may be necessary. indeed they may be necessary. here am i bereaved and wretched--and i hope. never was the fabric of war so black; that i admit. but never was the black fabric of war so threadbare. at a thousand points the light is shining through._ mr. britling's pen stopped. there was perfect stillness in the study bedroom. "the tinpot style," said mr. britling at last in a voice of extreme bitterness. he fell into an extraordinary quarrel with his style. he forgot about those pomeranian parents altogether in his exasperation at his own inexpressiveness, at his incomplete control of these rebel words and phrases that came trailing each its own associations and suggestions to hamper his purpose with it. he read over the offending sentence. "the point is that it is true," he whispered. "it is exactly what i want to say."... exactly?... his mind stuck on that "exactly."... when one has much to say style is troublesome. it is as if one fussed with one's uniform before a battle.... but that is just what one ought to do before a battle.... one ought to have everything in order.... he took a fresh sheet and made three trial beginnings. _"war is like a black fabric."_... _"war is a curtain of black fabric across the pathway."_ _"war is a curtain of dense black fabric across all the hopes and kindliness of mankind. yet always it has let through some gleams of light, and now--i am not dreaming--it grows threadbare, and here and there and at a thousand points the light is breaking through. we owe it to all these dear youths--"_ his pen stopped again. "i must work on a rough draft," said mr. britling. section three hours later mr. britling was working by daylight, though his study lamp was still burning, and his letter to old heinrich was still no better than a collection of material for a letter. but the material was falling roughly into shape, and mr. britling's intentions were finding themselves. it was clear to him now that he was no longer writing as his limited personal self to those two personal selves grieving, in the old, large, high-walled, steep-roofed household amidst pine woods, of which heinrich had once shown him a picture. he knew them too little for any such personal address. he was writing, he perceived, not as mr. britling but as an englishman--that was all he could be to them--and he was writing to them as germans; he could apprehend them as nothing more. he was just england bereaved to germany bereaved.... he was no longer writing to the particular parents of one particular boy, but to all that mass of suffering, regret, bitterness and fatigue that lay behind the veil of the "front." slowly, steadily, the manhood of germany was being wiped out. as he sat there in the stillness he could think that at least two million men of the central powers were dead, and an equal number maimed and disabled. compared with that our british losses, immense and universal as they were by the standard of any previous experience, were still slight; our larger armies had still to suffer, and we had lost irrevocably not very much more than a quarter of a million. but the tragedy gathered against us. we knew enough already to know what must be the reality of the german homes to which those dead men would nevermore return.... if england had still the longer account to pay, the french had paid already nearly to the limits of endurance. they must have lost well over a million of their mankind, and still they bled and bled. russia too in the east had paid far more than man for man in this vast swapping off of lives. in a little while no censorship would hold the voice of the peoples. there would be no more talk of honour and annexations, hegemonies and trade routes, but only europe lamenting for her dead.... the germany to which he wrote would be a nation of widows and children, rather pinched boys and girls, crippled men, old men, deprived men, men who had lost brothers and cousins and friends and ambitions. no triumph now on land or sea could save germany from becoming that. france too would be that, russia, and lastly britain, each in their degree. before the war there had been no germany to which an englishman could appeal; germany had been a threat, a menace, a terrible trampling of armed men. it was as little possible then to think of talking to germany as it would have been to have stopped the kaiser in mid career in his hooting car down the unter den linden and demand a quiet talk with him. but the germany that had watched those rushes with a slightly doubting pride had her eyes now full of tears and blood. she had believed, she had obeyed, and no real victory had come. still she fought on, bleeding, agonising, wasting her substance and the substance of the whole world, to no conceivable end but exhaustion, so capable she was, so devoted, so proud and utterly foolish. and the mind of germany, whatever it was before the war, would now be something residual, something left over and sitting beside a reading-lamp as he was sitting beside a reading-lamp, thinking, sorrowing, counting the cost, looking into the dark future.... and to that he wrote, to that dimly apprehended figure outside a circle of the light like his own circle of light--which was the father of heinrich, which was great germany, germany which lived before and which will yet outlive the flapping of the eagles.... _our boys_, he wrote, _have died, fighting one against the other. they have been fighting upon an issue so obscure that your german press is still busy discussing what it was. for us it was that belgium was invaded and france in danger of destruction. nothing else could have brought the english into the field against you. but why you invaded belgium and france and whether that might have been averted we do not know to this day. and still this war goes on and still more boys die, and these men who do not fight, these men in the newspaper offices and in the ministries plan campaigns and strokes and counter-strokes that belong to no conceivable plan at all. except that now for them there is something more terrible than war. and that is the day of reckoning with their own people._ _what have we been fighting for? what are we fighting for? do you know? does any one know? why am i spending what is left of my substance and you what is left of yours to keep on this war against each other? what have we to gain from hurting one another still further? why should we be puppets any longer in the hands of crowned fools and witless diplomatists? even if we were dumb and acquiescent before, does not the blood of our sons now cry out to us that this foolery should cease? we have let these people send our sons to death._ _it is you and i who must stop these wars, these massacres of boys._ _massacres of boys! that indeed is the essence of modern war. the killing off of the young. it is the destruction of the human inheritance, it is the spending of all the life and material of the future upon present-day hate and greed. fools and knaves, politicians, tricksters, and those who trade on the suspicions and thoughtless, generous angers of men, make wars; the indolence and modesty of the mass of men permit them. are you and i to suffer such things until the whole fabric of our civilisation, that has been so slowly and so laboriously built up, is altogether destroyed?_ _when i sat down to write to you i had meant only to write to you of your son and mine. but i feel that what can be said in particular of our loss, need not be said; it can be understood without saying. what needs to be said and written about is this, that war must be put an end to and that nobody else but you and me and all of us can do it. we have to do that for the love of our sons and our race and all that is human. war is no longer human; the chemist and the metallurgist have changed all that. my boy was shot through the eye; his brain was blown to pieces by some man who never knew what he had done. think what that means!... it is plain to me, surely it is plain to you and all the world, that war is now a mere putting of the torch to explosives that flare out to universal ruin. there is nothing for one sane man to write to another about in these days but the salvation of mankind from war._ _now i want you to be patient with me and hear me out. there was a time in the earlier part of this war when it was hard to be patient because there hung over us the dread of losses and disaster. now we need dread no longer. the dreaded thing has happened. sitting together as we do in spirit beside the mangled bodies of our dead, surely we can be as patient as the hills._ _i want to tell you quite plainly and simply that i think that germany which is chief and central in this war is most to blame for this war. writing to you as an englishman to a german and with war still being waged, there must be no mistake between us upon this point. i am persuaded that in the decade that ended with your overthrow of france in , germany turned her face towards evil, and that her refusal to treat france generously and to make friends with any other great power in the world, is the essential cause of this war. germany triumphed--and she trampled on the loser. she inflicted intolerable indignities. she set herself to prepare for further aggressions; long before this killing began she was making war upon land and sea, launching warships, building strategic railways, setting up a vast establishment of war material, threatening, straining all the world to keep pace with her threats.... at last there was no choice before any european nation but submission to the german will, or war. and it was no will to which righteous men could possibly submit. it came as an illiberal and ungracious will. it was the will of zabern. it is not as if you had set yourselves to be an imperial people and embrace and unify the world. you did not want to unify the world. you wanted to set the foot of an intensely national germany, a sentimental and illiberal germany, a germany that treasured the portraits of your ridiculous kaiser and his litter of sons, a germany wearing uniform, reading black letter, and despising every kultur but her own, upon the neck of a divided and humiliated mankind. it was an intolerable prospect. i had rather the whole world died._ _forgive me for writing "you." you are as little responsible for that germany as i am for--sir edward grey. but this happened over you; you did not do your utmost to prevent it--even as england has happened, and i have let it happen over me...._ "it is so dry; so general," whispered mr. britling. "and yet--it is this that has killed our sons." he sat still for a time, and then went on reading a fresh sheet of his manuscript. _when i bring these charges against germany i have little disposition to claim any righteousness for britain. there has been small splendour in this war for either germany or britain or russia; we three have chanced to be the biggest of the combatants, but the glory lies with invincible france. it is france and belgium and serbia who shine as the heroic lands. they have fought defensively and beyond all expectation, for dear land and freedom. this war for them has been a war of simple, definite issues, to which they have risen with an entire nobility. englishman and german alike may well envy them that simplicity. i look to you, as an honest man schooled by the fierce lessons of this war, to meet me in my passionate desire to see france, belgium and serbia emerge restored from all this blood and struggle, enlarged to the limits of their nationality, vindicated and secure. russia i will not write about here; let me go on at once to tell you about my own country; remarking only that between england and russia there are endless parallelisms. we have similar complexities, kindred difficulties. we have for instance an imported dynasty, we have a soul-destroying state church which cramps and poisons the education of our ruling class, we have a people out of touch with a secretive government, and the same traditional contempt for science. we have our irelands and polands. even our kings bear a curious likeness...._ at this point there was a break in the writing, and mr. britling made, as it were, a fresh beginning. _politically the british empire is a clumsy collection of strange accidents. it is a thing as little to be proud of as the outline of a flint or the shape of a potato. for the mass of english people india and egypt and all that side of our system mean less than nothing; our trade is something they do not understand, our imperial wealth something they do not share. britain has been a group of four democracies caught in the net of a vast yet casual imperialism; the common man here is in a state of political perplexity from the cradle to the grave. none the less there is a great people here even as there is a great people in russia, a people with a soul and character of its own, a people of unconquerable kindliness and with a peculiar genius, which still struggle towards will and expression. we have been beginning that same great experiment that france and america and switzerland and china are making, the experiment of democracy. it is the newest form of human association, and we are still but half awake to its needs and necessary conditions. for it is idle to pretend that the little city democracies of ancient times were comparable to the great essays in practical republicanism that mankind is making to-day. this age of the democratic republics that dawn is a new age. it has not yet lasted for a century, not for a paltry hundred years.... all new things are weak things; a rat can kill a man-child with ease; the greater the destiny, the weaker the immediate self-protection may be. and to me it seems that your complete and perfect imperialism, ruled by germans for germans, is in its scope and outlook a more antiquated and smaller and less noble thing than these sprawling emergent giant democracies of the west that struggle so confusedly against it...._ _but that we do struggle confusedly, with pitiful leaders and infinite waste and endless delay; that it is to our indisciplines and to the dishonesties and tricks our incompleteness provokes, that the prolongation of this war is to be ascribed, i readily admit. at the outbreak of this war i had hoped to see militarism felled within a year...._ section from this point onward mr. britling's notes became more fragmentary. they had a consecutiveness, but they were discontinuous. his thought had leapt across gaps that his pen had had no time to fill. and he had begun to realise that his letter to the old people in pomerania was becoming impossible. it had broken away into dissertation. "yet there must be dissertations," he said. "unless such men as we are take these things in hand, always we shall be misgoverned, always the sons will die...." section _i do not think you germans realise how steadily you were conquering the world before this war began. had you given half the energy and intelligence you have spent upon this war to the peaceful conquest of men's minds and spirits, i believe that you would have taken the leadership of the world tranquilly--no man disputing. your science was five years, your social and economic organisation was a quarter of a century in front of ours.... never has it so lain in the power of a great people to lead and direct mankind towards the world republic and universal peace. it needed but a certain generosity of the imagination...._ _but your junkers, your imperial court, your foolish vicious princes; what were such dreams to them?... with an envious satisfaction they hurled all the accomplishment of germany into the fires of war...._ section _your boy, as no doubt you know, dreamt constantly of such a world peace as this that i foreshadow; he was more generous than his country. he could envisage war and hostility only as misunderstanding. he thought that a world that could explain itself clearly would surely be at peace. he was scheming always therefore for the perfection and propagation of esperanto or ido, or some such universal link. my youngster too was full of a kindred and yet larger dream, the dream of human science, which knows neither king nor country nor race_.... _these boys, these hopes, this war has killed_.... that fragment ended so. mr. britling ceased to read for a time. "but has it killed them?" he whispered.... "if you had lived, my dear, you and your england would have talked with a younger germany--better than i can ever do...." he turned the pages back, and read here and there with an accumulating discontent. section "dissertations," said mr. britling. never had it been so plain to mr. britling that he was a weak, silly, ill-informed and hasty-minded writer, and never had he felt so invincible a conviction that the spirit of god was in him, and that it fell to him to take some part in the establishment of a new order of living upon the earth; it might be the most trivial part by the scale of the task, but for him it was to be now his supreme concern. and it was an almost intolerable grief to him that his services should be, for all his desire, so poor in quality, so weak in conception. always he seemed to be on the verge of some illuminating and beautiful statement of his cause; always he was finding his writing inadequate, a thin treachery to the impulse of his heart, always he was finding his effort weak and ineffective. in this instance, at the outset he seemed to see with a golden clearness the message of brotherhood, or forgiveness, of a common call. to whom could such a message be better addressed than to those sorrowing parents; from whom could it come with a better effect than from himself? and now he read what he had made of this message. it seemed to his jaded mind a pitifully jaded effort. it had no light, it had no depth. it was like the disquisition of a debating society. he was distressed by a fancy of an old german couple, spectacled and peering, puzzled by his letter. perhaps they would be obscurely hurt by his perplexing generalisations. why, they would ask, should this englishman preach to them? he sat back in his chair wearily, with his chin sunk upon his chest. for a time he did not think, and then, he read again the sentence in front of his eyes. _"these boys, these hopes, this war has killed."_ the words hung for a time in his mind. "no!" said mr. britling stoutly. "they live!" and suddenly it was borne in upon his mind that he was not alone. there were thousands and tens of thousands of men and women like himself, desiring with all their hearts to say, as he desired to say, the reconciling word. it was not only his hand that thrust against the obstacles.... frenchmen and russians sat in the same stillness, facing the same perplexities; there were germans seeking a way through to him. even as he sat and wrote. and for the first time clearly he felt a presence of which he had thought very many times in the last few weeks, a presence so close to him that it was behind his eyes and in his brain and hands. it was no trick of his vision; it was a feeling of immediate reality. and it was hugh, hugh that he had thought was dead, it was young heinrich living also, it was himself, it was those others that sought, it was all these and it was more, it was the master, the captain of mankind, it was god, there present with him, and he knew that it was god. it was as if he had been groping all this time in the darkness, thinking himself alone amidst rocks and pitfalls and pitiless things, and suddenly a hand, a firm strong hand, had touched his own. and a voice within him bade him be of good courage. there was no magic trickery in that moment; he was still weak and weary, a discouraged rhetorician, a good intention ill-equipped; but he was no longer lonely and wretched, no longer in the same world with despair. god was beside him and within him and about him.... it was the crucial moment of mr. britling's life. it was a thing as light as the passing of a cloud on an april morning; it was a thing as great as the first day of creation. for some moments he still sat back with his chin upon his chest and his hands dropping from the arms of his chair. then he sat up and drew a deep breath.... this had come almost as a matter of course. for weeks his mind had been playing about this idea. he had talked to letty of this finite god, who is the king of man's adventure in space and time. but hitherto god had been for him a thing of the intelligence, a theory, a report, something told about but not realised.... mr. britling's thinking about god hitherto had been like some one who has found an empty house, very beautiful and pleasant, full of the promise of a fine personality. and then as the discoverer makes his lonely, curious explorations, he hears downstairs, dear and friendly, the voice of the master coming in.... there was no need to despair because he himself was one of the feeble folk. god was with him indeed, and he was with god. the king was coming to his own. amidst the darknesses and confusions, the nightmare cruelties and the hideous stupidities of the great war, god, the captain of the world republic, fought his way to empire. so long as one did one's best and utmost in a cause so mighty, did it matter though the thing one did was little and poor? "i have thought too much of myself," said mr. britling, "and of what i would do by myself. i have forgotten _that which was with me_...." section he turned over the rest of the night's writing presently, and read it now as though it was the work of another man. these later notes were fragmentary, and written in a sprawling hand. _"let us make ourselves watchers and guardians of the order of the world...._ _"if only for love of our dead...._ _"let us pledge ourselves to service. let us set ourselves with all our minds and all our hearts to the perfecting and working out of the methods of democracy and the ending for ever of the kings and emperors and priestcrafts and the bands of adventurers, the traders and owners and forestallers who have betrayed mankind into this morass of hate and blood--in which our sons are lost--in which we flounder still...."_ how feeble was this squeak of exhortation! it broke into a scolding note. "who have betrayed," read mr. britling, and judged the phrase. "who have fallen with us," he amended.... "one gets so angry and bitter--because one feels alone, i suppose. because one feels that for them one's reason is no reason. one is enraged by the sense of their silent and regardless contradiction, and one forgets the power of which one is a part...." the sheet that bore the sentence he criticised was otherwise blank except that written across it obliquely in a very careful hand were the words "hugh," and "hugh philip britling."... on the next sheet he had written: "let us set up the peace of the world republic amidst these ruins. let it be our religion, our calling." there he had stopped. the last sheet of mr. britling's manuscript may be more conveniently given in fac-simile than described. [handwritten: hugh hugh my dear hugh lawyers princes dealers in contention _honesty_ 'blood blood ... [transcriber's note: illegible] an end to them ] section he sighed. he looked at the scattered papers, and thought of the letter they were to have made. his fatigue spoke first. "perhaps after all i'd better just send the fiddle...." he rested his cheeks between his hands, and remained so for a long time. his eyes stared unseeingly. his thoughts wandered and spread and faded. at length he recalled his mind to that last idea. "just send the fiddle--without a word." "no. i must write to them plainly. "about god as i have found him. "as he has found me...." he forgot the pomeranians for a time. he murmured to himself. he turned over the conviction that had suddenly become clear and absolute in his mind. "religion is the first thing and the last thing, and until a man has found god and been found by god, he begins at no beginning, he works to no end. he may have his friendships, his partial loyalties, his scraps of honour. but all these things fall into place and life falls into place only with god. only with god. god, who fights through men against blind force and night and non-existence; who is the end, who is the meaning. he is the only king.... of course i must write about him. i must tell all my world of him. and before the coming of the true king, the inevitable king, the king who is present whenever just men foregather, this blood-stained rubbish of the ancient world, these puny kings and tawdry emperors, these wily politicians and artful lawyers, these men who claim and grab and trick and compel, these war makers and oppressors, will presently shrivel and pass--like paper thrust into a flame...." then after a time he said: "our sons who have shown us god...." section he rubbed his open hands over his eyes and forehead. the night of effort had tired his brain, and he was no longer thinking actively. he had a little interval of blankness, sitting at his desk with his hands pressed over his eyes.... he got up presently, and stood quite motionless at the window, looking out. his lamp was still burning, but for some time he had not been writing by the light of his lamp. insensibly the day had come and abolished his need for that individual circle of yellow light. colour had returned to the world, clean pearly colour, clear and definite like the glance of a child or the voice of a girl, and a golden wisp of cloud hung in the sky over the tower of the church. there was a mist upon the pond, a soft grey mist not a yard high. a covey of partridges ran and halted and ran again in the dewy grass outside his garden railings. the partridges were very numerous this year because there had been so little shooting. beyond in the meadow a hare sat up as still as a stone. a horse neighed.... wave after wave of warmth and light came sweeping before the sunrise across the world of matching's easy. it was as if there was nothing but morning and sunrise in the world. from away towards the church came the sound of some early worker whetting a scythe. the end anticipations of the reaction of mechanical and scientific progress upon human life and thought by h. g. wells author of "love and mr. lewisham," "the island of dr. moreau," and "tales of space and time." _second edition_ london: chapman & hall, ld. contents i. locomotion in the twentieth century ii. the probable diffusion of great cities iii. developing social elements iv. certain social reactions v. the life-history of democracy vi. war in the twentieth century vii. the conflict of languages viii. the larger synthesis ix. faith, morals, and public policy in the twentieth century anticipations i locomotion in the twentieth century it is proposed in this book to present in as orderly an arrangement as the necessarily diffused nature of the subject admits, certain speculations about the trend of present forces, speculations which, taken all together, will build up an imperfect and very hypothetical, but sincerely intended forecast of the way things will probably go in this new century.[ ] necessarily diffidence will be one of the graces of the performance. hitherto such forecasts have been presented almost invariably in the form of fiction, and commonly the provocation of the satirical opportunity has been too much for the writer;[ ] the narrative form becomes more and more of a nuisance as the speculative inductions become sincerer, and here it will be abandoned altogether in favour of a texture of frank inquiries and arranged considerations. our utmost aim is a rough sketch of the coming time, a prospectus, as it were, of the joint undertaking of mankind in facing these impending years. the reader is a prospective shareholder--he and his heirs--though whether he will find this anticipatory balance-sheet to his belief or liking is another matter. for reasons that will develop themselves more clearly as these papers unfold, it is extremely convenient to begin with a speculation upon the probable developments and changes of the means of land locomotion during the coming decades. no one who has studied the civil history of the nineteenth century will deny how far-reaching the consequences of changes in transit may be, and no one who has studied the military performances of general buller and general de wet but will see that upon transport, upon locomotion, may also hang the most momentous issues of politics and war. the growth of our great cities, the rapid populating of america, the entry of china into the field of european politics are, for example, quite obviously and directly consequences of new methods of locomotion. and while so much hangs upon the development of these methods, that development is, on the other hand, a process comparatively independent, now at any rate, of most of the other great movements affected by it. it depends upon a sequence of ideas arising, and of experiments made, and upon laws of political economy, almost as inevitable as natural laws. such great issues, supposing them to be possible, as the return of western europe to the roman communion, the overthrow of the british empire by germany, or the inundation of europe by the "yellow peril," might conceivably affect such details, let us say, as door-handles and ventilators or mileage of line, but would probably leave the essential features of the evolution of locomotion untouched. the evolution of locomotion has a purely historical relation to the western european peoples. it is no longer dependent upon them, or exclusively in their hands. the malay nowadays sets out upon his pilgrimage to mecca in an excursion steamship of iron, and the immemorial hindoo goes a-shopping in a train, and in japan and australasia and america, there are plentiful hands and minds to take up the process now, even should the european let it fall. the beginning of this twentieth century happens to coincide with a very interesting phase in that great development of means of land transit that has been the distinctive feature (speaking materially) of the nineteenth century. the nineteenth century, when it takes its place with the other centuries in the chronological charts of the future, will, if it needs a symbol, almost inevitably have as that symbol a steam engine running upon a railway. this period covers the first experiments, the first great developments, and the complete elaboration of that mode of transit, and the determination of nearly all the broad features of this century's history may be traced directly or indirectly to that process. and since an interesting light is thrown upon the new phases in land locomotion that are now beginning, it will be well to begin this forecast with a retrospect, and to revise very shortly the history of the addition of steam travel to the resources of mankind. a curious and profitable question arises at once. how is it that the steam locomotive appeared at the time it did, and not earlier in the history of the world? because it was not invented. but why was it not invented? not for want of a crowning intellect, for none of the many minds concerned in the development strikes one--as the mind of newton, shakespeare, or darwin strikes one--as being that of an unprecedented man. it is not that the need for the railway and steam engine had only just arisen, and--to use one of the most egregiously wrong and misleading phrases that ever dropped from the lips of man--the demand created the supply; it was quite the other way about. there was really no urgent demand for such things at the time; the current needs of the european world seem to have been fairly well served by coach and diligence in , and, on the other hand, every administrator of intelligence in the roman and chinese empires must have felt an urgent need for more rapid methods of transit than those at his disposal. nor was the development of the steam locomotive the result of any sudden discovery of steam. steam, and something of the mechanical possibilities of steam, had been known for two thousand years; it had been used for pumping water, opening doors, and working toys, before the christian era. it may be urged that this advance was the outcome of that new and more systematic handling of knowledge initiated by lord bacon and sustained by the royal society; but this does not appear to have been the case, though no doubt the new habits of mind that spread outward from that centre played their part. the men whose names are cardinal in the history of this development invented, for the most part, in a quite empirical way, and trevithick's engine was running along its rails and evan's boat was walloping up the hudson a quarter of a century before carnot expounded his general proposition. there were no such deductions from principles to application as occur in the story of electricity to justify our attribution of the steam engine to the scientific impulse. nor does this particular invention seem to have been directly due to the new possibilities of reducing, shaping, and casting iron, afforded by the substitution of coal for wood in iron works; through the greater temperature afforded by a coal fire. in china coal has been used in the reduction of iron for many centuries. no doubt these new facilities did greatly help the steam engine in its invasion of the field of common life, but quite certainly they were not sufficient to set it going. it was, indeed, not one cause, but a very complex and unprecedented series of causes, that set the steam locomotive going. it was indirectly, and in another way, that the introduction of coal became the decisive factor. one peculiar condition of its production in england seems to have supplied just one ingredient that had been missing for two thousand years in the group of conditions that were necessary before the steam locomotive could appear. this missing ingredient was a demand for some comparatively simple, profitable machine, upon which the elementary principles of steam utilization could be worked out. if one studies stephenson's "rocket" in detail, as one realizes its profound complexity, one begins to understand how impossible it would have been for that structure to have come into existence _de novo_, however urgently the world had need of it. but it happened that the coal needed to replace the dwindling forests of this small and exceptionally rain-saturated country occurs in low hollow basins overlying clay, and not, as in china and the alleghanies for example, on high-lying outcrops, that can be worked as chalk is worked in england. from this fact it followed that some quite unprecedented pumping appliances became necessary, and the thoughts of practical men were turned thereby to the long-neglected possibilities of steam. wind was extremely inconvenient for the purpose of pumping, because in these latitudes it is inconstant: it was costly, too, because at any time the labourers might be obliged to sit at the pit's mouth for weeks together, whistling for a gale or waiting for the water to be got under again. but steam had already been used for pumping upon one or two estates in england--rather as a toy than in earnest--before the middle of the seventeenth century, and the attempt to employ it was so obvious as to be practically unavoidable.[ ] the water trickling into the coal measures[ ] acted, therefore, like water trickling upon chemicals that have long been mixed together dry and inert. immediately the latent reactions were set going. savery, newcomen, a host of other workers, culminating in watt, working always by steps that were at least so nearly obvious as to give rise again and again to simultaneous discoveries, changed this toy of steam into a real, a commercial thing, developed a trade in pumping engines, created foundries and a new art of engineering, and almost unconscious of what they were doing, made the steam locomotive a well-nigh unavoidable consequence. at last, after a century of improvement on pumping engines, there remained nothing but the very obvious stage of getting the engine that had been developed on wheels and out upon the ways of the world. ever and again during the eighteenth century an engine would be put upon the roads and pronounced a failure--one monstrous palæoferric creature was visible on a french high road as early as --but by the dawn of the nineteenth century the problem had very nearly got itself solved. by trevithick had a steam locomotive indisputably in motion and almost financially possible, and from his hands it puffed its way, slowly at first, and then, under stephenson, faster and faster, to a transitory empire over the earth. it was a steam locomotive--but for all that it was primarily _a steam engine for pumping_ adapted to a new end; it was a steam engine whose ancestral stage had developed under conditions that were by no means exacting in the matter of weight. and from that fact followed a consequence that has hampered railway travel and transport very greatly, and that is tolerated nowadays only through a belief in its practical necessity. the steam locomotive was all too huge and heavy for the high road--it had to be put upon rails. and so clearly linked are steam engines and railways in our minds that, in common language now, the latter implies the former. but indeed it is the result of accidental impediments, of avoidable difficulties that we travel to-day on rails. railway travelling is at best a compromise. the quite conceivable ideal of locomotive convenience, so far as travellers are concerned, is surely a highly mobile conveyance capable of travelling easily and swiftly to any desired point, traversing, at a reasonably controlled pace, the ordinary roads and streets, and having access for higher rates of speed and long-distance travelling to specialized ways restricted to swift traffic, and possibly furnished with guide-rails. for the collection and delivery of all sorts of perishable goods also the same system is obviously altogether superior to the existing methods. moreover, such a system would admit of that secular progress in engines and vehicles that the stereotyped conditions of the railway have almost completely arrested, because it would allow almost any new pattern to be put at once upon the ways without interference with the established traffic. had such an ideal been kept in view from the first the traveller would now be able to get through his long-distance journeys at a pace of from seventy miles or more an hour without changing, and without any of the trouble, waiting, expense, and delay that arises between the household or hotel and the actual rail. it was an ideal that must have been at least possible to an intelligent person fifty years ago, and, had it been resolutely pursued, the world, instead of fumbling from compromise to compromise as it always has done and as it will do very probably for many centuries yet, might have been provided to-day, not only with an infinitely more practicable method of communication, but with one capable of a steady and continual evolution from year to year. but there was a more obvious path of development and one immediately cheaper, and along that path went short-sighted nineteenth century progress, quite heedless of the possibility of ending in a _cul-de-sac_. the first locomotives, apart from the heavy tradition of their ancestry, were, like all experimental machinery, needlessly clumsy and heavy, and their inventors, being men of insufficient faith, instead of working for lightness and smoothness of motion, took the easier course of placing them upon the tramways that were already in existence--chiefly for the transit of heavy goods over soft roads. and from that followed a very interesting and curious result. these tram-lines very naturally had exactly the width of an ordinary cart, a width prescribed by the strength of one horse. few people saw in the locomotive anything but a cheap substitute for horseflesh, or found anything incongruous in letting the dimensions of a horse determine the dimensions of an engine. it mattered nothing that from the first the passenger was ridiculously cramped, hampered, and crowded in the carriage. he had always been cramped in a coach, and it would have seemed "utopian"--a very dreadful thing indeed to our grandparents--to propose travel without cramping. by mere inertia the horse-cart gauge, the ft. ½ in. gauge, _nemine contradicente_, established itself in the world, and now everywhere the train is dwarfed to a scale that limits alike its comfort, power, and speed. before every engine, as it were, trots the ghost of a superseded horse, refuses most resolutely to trot faster than fifty miles an hour, and shies and threatens catastrophe at every point and curve. that fifty miles an hour, most authorities are agreed, is the limit of our speed for land travel, so far as existing conditions go.[ ] only a revolutionary reconstruction of the railways or the development of some new competing method of land travel can carry us beyond that. people of to-day take the railways for granted as they take sea and sky; they were born in a railway world, and they expect to die in one. but if only they will strip from their eyes the most blinding of all influences, acquiescence in the familiar, they will see clearly enough that this vast and elaborate railway system of ours, by which the whole world is linked together, is really only a vast system of trains of horse-waggons and coaches drawn along rails by pumping-engines upon wheels. is that, in spite of its present vast extension, likely to remain the predominant method of land locomotion--even for so short a period as the next hundred years? now, so much capital is represented by the existing type of railways, and they have so firm an establishment in the acquiescence of men, that it is very doubtful if the railways will ever attempt any very fundamental change in the direction of greater speed or facility, unless they are first exposed to the pressure of our second alternative, competition, and we may very well go on to inquire how long will it be before that second alternative comes into operation--if ever it is to do so. let us consider what other possibilities seem to offer themselves. let us revert to the ideal we have already laid down, and consider what hopes and obstacles to its attainment there seem to be. the abounding presence of numerous experimental motors to-day is so stimulating to the imagination, there are so many stimulated persons at work upon them, that it is difficult to believe the obvious impossibility of most of them--their convulsiveness, clumsiness, and, in many cases, exasperating trail of stench will not be rapidly fined away.[ ] i do not think that it is asking too much of the reader's faith in progress to assume that so far as a light powerful engine goes, comparatively noiseless, smooth-running, not obnoxious to sensitive nostrils, and altogether suitable for high road traffic, the problem will very speedily be solved. and upon that assumption, in what direction are these new motor vehicles likely to develop? how will they react upon the railways? and where finally will they take us? at present they seem to promise developments upon three distinct and definite lines. there will, first of all, be the motor truck for heavy traffic. already such trucks are in evidence distributing goods and parcels of various sorts. and sooner or later, no doubt, the numerous advantages of such an arrangement will lead to the organization of large carrier companies, using such motor trucks to carry goods in bulk or parcels on the high roads. such companies will be in an exceptionally favourable position to organize storage and repair for the motors of the general public on profitable terms, and possibly to co-operate in various ways with the manufactures of special types of motor machines. in the next place, and parallel with the motor truck, there will develop the hired or privately owned motor carriage. this, for all except the longest journeys, will add a fine sense of personal independence to all the small conveniences of first-class railway travel. it will be capable of a day's journey of three hundred miles or more, long before the developments to be presently foreshadowed arrive. one will change nothing--unless it is the driver--from stage to stage. one will be free to dine where one chooses, hurry when one chooses, travel asleep or awake, stop and pick flowers, turn over in bed of a morning and tell the carriage to wait--unless, which is highly probable, one sleeps aboard.[ ]... and thirdly there will be the motor omnibus, attacking or developing out of the horse omnibus companies and the suburban lines. all this seems fairly safe prophesying. and these things, which are quite obviously coming even now, will be working out their many structural problems when the next phase in their development begins. the motor omnibus companies competing against the suburban railways will find themselves hampered in the speed of their longer runs by the slower horse traffic on their routes, and they will attempt to secure, and, it may be, after tough legislative struggles, will secure the power to form private roads of a new sort, upon which their vehicles will be free to travel up to the limit of their very highest possible speed. it is along the line of such private tracks and roads that the forces of change will certainly tend to travel, and along which i am absolutely convinced they will travel. this segregation of motor traffic is probably a matter that may begin even in the present decade. once this process of segregation from the high road of the horse and pedestrian sets in, it will probably go on rapidly. it may spread out from short omnibus routes, much as the london metropolitan railway system has spread. the motor carrier companies, competing in speed of delivery with the quickened railways, will conceivably co-operate with the long-distance omnibus and the hired carriage companies in the formation of trunk lines. almost insensibly, certain highly profitable longer routes will be joined up--the london to brighton, for example, in england. and the quiet english citizen will, no doubt, while these things are still quite exceptional and experimental in his lagging land, read one day with surprise in the violently illustrated popular magazines of , that there are now so many thousand miles of these roads already established in america and germany and elsewhere. and thereupon, after some patriotic meditations, he may pull himself together. we may even hazard some details about these special roads. for example, they will be very different from macadamized roads; they will be used only by soft-tired conveyances; the battering horseshoes, the perpetual filth of horse traffic, and the clumsy wheels of laden carts will never wear them. it may be that they will have a surface like that of some cycle-racing tracks, though since they will be open to wind and weather, it is perhaps more probable they will be made of very good asphalt sloped to drain, and still more probable that they will be of some quite new substance altogether--whether hard or resilient is beyond my foretelling. they will have to be very wide--they will be just as wide as the courage of their promoters goes--and if the first made are too narrow there will be no question of gauge to limit the later ones. their traffic in opposite directions will probably be strictly separated, and it will no doubt habitually disregard complicated and fussy regulations imposed under the initiative of the railway interest by such official bodies as the board of trade. the promoters will doubtless take a hint from suburban railway traffic and from the current difficulty of the metropolitan police, and where their ways branch the streams of traffic will not cross at a level but by bridges. it is easily conceivable that once these tracks are in existence, cyclists and motors other than those of the constructing companies will be able to make use of them. and, moreover, once they exist it will be possible to experiment with vehicles of a size and power quite beyond the dimensions prescribed by our ordinary roads--roads whose width has been entirely determined by the size of a cart a horse can pull.[ ] countless modifying influences will, of course, come into operation. for example, it has been assumed, perhaps rashly, that the railway influence will certainly remain jealous and hostile to these growths: that what may be called the "bicycle ticket policy" will be pursued throughout. assuredly there will be fights of a very complicated sort at first, but once one of these specialized lines is in operation, it may be that some at least of the railway companies will hasten to replace their flanged rolling stock by carriages with rubber tyres, remove their rails, broaden their cuttings and embankments, raise their bridges, and take to the new ways of traffic. or they may find it answer to cut fares, widen their gauges, reduce their gradients, modify their points and curves, and woo the passenger back with carriages beautifully hung and sumptuously furnished, and all the convenience and luxury of a club. few people would mind being an hour or so longer going to paris from london, if the railway travelling was neither rackety, cramped, nor tedious. one could be patient enough if one was neither being jarred, deafened, cut into slices by draughts, and continually more densely caked in a filthy dust of coal; if one could write smoothly and easily at a steady table, read papers, have one's hair cut, and dine in comfort[ ]--none of which things are possible at present, and none of which require any new inventions, any revolutionary contrivances, or indeed anything but an intelligent application of existing resources and known principles. our rage for fast trains, so far as long-distance travel is concerned, is largely a passion to end the extreme discomfort involved. it is in the daily journey, on the suburban train, that daily tax of time, that speed is in itself so eminently desirable, and it is just here that the conditions of railway travel most hopelessly fail. it must always be remembered that the railway train, as against the motor, has the advantage that its wholesale traction reduces the prime cost by demanding only one engine for a great number of coaches. this will not serve the first-class long-distance passenger, but it may the third. against that economy one must balance the necessary delay of a relatively infrequent service, which latter item becomes relatively greater and greater in proportion to the former, the briefer the journey to be made. and it may be that many railways, which are neither capable of modification into suburban motor tracks, nor of development into luxurious through routes, will find, in spite of the loss of many elements of their old activity, that there is still a profit to be made from a certain section of the heavy goods traffic, and from cheap excursions. these are forms of work for which railways seem to be particularly adapted, and which the diversion of a great portion of their passenger traffic would enable them to conduct even more efficiently. it is difficult to imagine, for example, how any sort of road-car organization could beat the railways at the business of distributing coal and timber and similar goods, which are taken in bulk directly from the pit or wharf to local centres of distribution. it must always be remembered that at the worst the defeat of such a great organization as the railway system does not involve its disappearance until a long period has elapsed. it means at first no more than a period of modification and differentiation. before extinction can happen a certain amount of wealth in railway property must absolutely disappear. though under the stress of successful competition the capital value of the railways may conceivably fall, and continue to fall, towards the marine store prices, fares and freights pursue the sweated working expenses to the vanishing point, and the land occupied sink to the level of not very eligible building sites: yet the railways will, nevertheless, continue in operation until these downward limits are positively attained. an imagination prone to the picturesque insists at this stage upon a vision of the latter days of one of the less happily situated lines. along a weedy embankment there pants and clangs a patched and tarnished engine, its paint blistered, its parts leprously dull. it is driven by an aged and sweated driver, and the burning garbage of its furnace distils a choking reek into the air. a huge train of urban dust trucks bangs and clatters behind it, _en route_ to that sequestered dumping ground where rubbish is burnt to some industrial end. but that is a lapse into the merely just possible, and at most a local tragedy. almost certainly the existing lines of railway will develop and differentiate, some in one direction and some in another, according to the nature of the pressure upon them. almost all will probably be still in existence and in divers ways busy, spite of the swarming new highways i have ventured to foreshadow, a hundred years from now. in fact, we have to contemplate, not so much a supersession of the railways as a modification and specialization of them in various directions, and the enormous development beside them of competing and supplementary methods. and step by step with these developments will come a very considerable acceleration of the ferry traffic of the narrow seas through such improvements as the introduction of turbine engines. so far as the high road and the longer journeys go this is the extent of our prophecy.[ ] but in the discussion of all questions of land locomotion one must come at last to the knots of the network, to the central portions of the towns, the dense, vast towns of our time, with their high ground values and their narrow, already almost impassable, streets. i hope at a later stage to give some reasons for anticipating that the centripetal pressure of the congested towns of our epoch may ultimately be very greatly relieved, but for the next few decades at least the usage of existing conditions will prevail, and in every town there is a certain nucleus of offices, hotels, and shops upon which the centrifugal forces i anticipate will certainly not operate. at present the streets of many larger towns, and especially of such old-established towns as london, whose central portions have the narrowest arteries, present a quite unprecedented state of congestion. when the green of some future _history of the english people_ comes to review our times, he will, from his standpoint of comfort and convenience, find the present streets of london quite or even more incredibly unpleasant than are the filthy kennels, the mudholes and darkness of the streets of the seventeenth century to our enlightened minds. he will echo our question, "why _did_ people stand it?" he will be struck first of all by the omnipresence of mud, filthy mud, churned up by hoofs and wheels under the inclement skies, and perpetually defiled and added to by innumerable horses. imagine his description of a young lady crossing the road at the marble arch in london, on a wet november afternoon, "breathless, foul-footed, splashed by a passing hansom from head to foot, happy that she has reached the further pavement alive at the mere cost of her ruined clothes."... "just where the bicycle might have served its most useful purpose," he will write, "in affording a healthy daily ride to the innumerable clerks and such-like sedentary toilers of the central region, it was rendered impossible by the danger of side-slip in this vast ferocious traffic." and, indeed, to my mind at least, this last is the crowning absurdity of the present state of affairs, that the clerk and the shop hand, classes of people positively starved of exercise, should be obliged to spend yearly the price of a bicycle upon a season-ticket, because of the quite unendurable inconvenience and danger of urban cycling. now, in what direction will matters move? the first and most obvious thing to do, the thing that in many cases is being attempted and in a futile, insufficient way getting itself done, the thing that i do not for one moment regard as the final remedy, is the remedy of the architect and builder--profitable enough to them, anyhow--to widen the streets and to cut "new arteries." now, every new artery means a series of new whirlpools of traffic, such as the pensive londoner may study for himself at the intersection of shaftesbury avenue with oxford street, and unless colossal--or inconveniently steep--crossing-bridges are made, the wider the affluent arteries the more terrible the battle of the traffic. imagine regent's circus on the scale of the place de la concorde. and there is the value of the ground to consider; with every increment of width the value of the dwindling remainder in the meshes of the network of roads will rise, until to pave the widened streets with gold will be a mere trifling addition to the cost of their "improvement." there is, however, quite another direction in which the congestion may find relief, and that is in the "regulation" of the traffic. this has already begun in london in an attack on the crawling cab and in the new bye-laws of the london county council, whereby certain specified forms of heavy traffic are prohibited the use of the streets between ten and seven. these things may be the first beginning of a process of restriction that may go far. many people living at the present time, who have grown up amidst the exceptional and possibly very transient characteristics of this time, will be disposed to regard the traffic in the streets of our great cities as a part of the natural order of things, and as unavoidable as the throng upon the pavement. but indeed the presence of all the chief constituents of this vehicular torrent--the cabs and hansoms, the vans, the omnibuses--everything, indeed, except the few private carriages--are as novel, as distinctively things of the nineteenth century, as the railway train and the needle telegraph. the streets of the great towns of antiquity, the streets of the great towns of the east, the streets of all the mediæval towns, were not intended for any sort of wheeled traffic at all--were designed primarily and chiefly for pedestrians. so it would be, i suppose, in any one's ideal city. surely town, in theory at least, is a place one walks about as one walks about a house and garden, dressed with a certain ceremonious elaboration, safe from mud and the hardship and defilement of foul weather, buying, meeting, dining, studying, carousing, seeing the play. it is the growth in size of the city that has necessitated the growth of this coarser traffic that has made "town" at last so utterly detestable. but if one reflects, it becomes clear that, save for the vans of goods, this moving tide of wheeled masses is still essentially a stream of urban pedestrians, pedestrians who, by reason of the distances they have to go, have had to jump on 'buses and take cabs--in a word, to bring in the high road to their aid. and the vehicular traffic of the street is essentially the high road traffic very roughly adapted to the new needs. the cab is a simple development of the carriage, the omnibus of the coach, and the supplementary traffic of the underground and electric railways is a by no means brilliantly imagined adaptation of the long-route railway. these are all still new things, experimental to the highest degree, changing and bound to change much more, in the period of specialization that is now beginning. now, the first most probable development is a change in the omnibus and the omnibus railway. a point quite as important with these means of transit as actual speed of movement is frequency: time is wasted abundantly and most vexatiously at present in waiting and in accommodating one's arrangements to infrequent times of call and departure. _the more frequent a local service, the more it comes to be relied upon._ another point--and one in which the omnibus has a great advantage over the railway--is that it should be possible to get on and off at any point, or at as many points on the route as possible. but this means a high proportion of stoppages, and this is destructive to speed. there is, however, one conceivable means of transit that is not simply frequent but continuous, that may be joined or left at any point without a stoppage, that could be adapted to many existing streets at the level or quite easily sunken in tunnels, or elevated above the street level,[ ] and that means of transit is the moving platform, whose possibilities have been exhibited to all the world in a sort of mean caricature at the paris exhibition. let us imagine the inner circle of the district railway adapted to this conception. i will presume that the parisian "rolling platform" is familiar to the reader. the district railway tunnel is, i imagine, about twenty-four feet wide. if we suppose the space given to six platforms of three feet wide and one (the most rapid) of six feet, and if we suppose each platform to be going four miles an hour faster than its slower fellow (a velocity the paris experiment has shown to be perfectly comfortable and safe), we should have the upper platform running round the circle at a pace of twenty-eight miles an hour. if, further, we adopt an ingenious suggestion of professor perry's, and imagine the descent to the line made down a very slowly rotating staircase at the centre of a big rotating wheel-shaped platform, against a portion of whose rim the slowest platform runs in a curve, one could very easily add a speed of six or eight miles an hour more, and to that the man in a hurry would be able to add his own four miles an hour by walking in the direction of motion. if the reader is a traveller, and if he will imagine that black and sulphurous tunnel, swept and garnished, lit and sweet, with a train much faster than the existing underground trains perpetually ready to go off with him and never crowded--if he will further imagine this train a platform set with comfortable seats and neat bookstalls and so forth, he will get an inkling in just one detail of what he perhaps misses by living now instead of thirty or forty years ahead. i have supposed the replacement to occur in the case of the london inner circle railway, because there the necessary tunnel already exists to help the imagination of the english reader, but that the specific replacement will occur is rendered improbable by the fact that the circle is for much of its circumference entangled with other lines of communication--the north-western railway, for example. as a matter of fact, as the american reader at least will promptly see, the much more practicable thing is that upper footpath, with these moving platforms beside it, running out over the street after the manner of the viaduct of an elevated railroad. but in some cases, at any rate, the demonstrated cheapness and practicability of tunnels at a considerable depth will come into play. will this diversion of the vast omnibus traffic of to-day into the air and underground, together with the segregation of van traffic to specific routes and times, be the only change in the streets of the new century? it may be a shock, perhaps, to some minds, but i must confess i do not see what is to prevent the process of elimination that is beginning now with the heavy vans spreading until it covers all horse traffic, and with the disappearance of horse hoofs and the necessary filth of horses, the road surface may be made a very different thing from what it is at present, better drained and admirably adapted for the soft-tired hackney vehicles and the torrent of cyclists. moreover, there will be little to prevent a widening of the existing side walks, and the protection of the passengers from rain and hot sun by awnings, or such arcades as distinguish turin, or sir f. bramwell's upper footpaths on the model of the chester rows. moreover, there is no reason but the existing filth why the roadways should not have translucent _velaria_ to pull over in bright sunshine and wet weather. it would probably need less labour to manipulate such contrivances than is required at present for the constant conflict with slush and dust. now, of course, we tolerate the rain, because it facilitates a sort of cleaning process.... enough of this present speculation. i have indicated now the general lines of the roads and streets and ways and underways of the twentieth century. but at present they stand vacant in our prophecy, not only awaiting the human interests--the characters and occupations, and clothing of the throng of our children and our children's children that flows along them, but also the decorations our children's children's taste will dictate, the advertisements their eyes will tolerate, the shops in which they will buy. to all that we shall finally come, and even in the next chapter i hope it will be made more evident how conveniently these later and more intimate matters follow, instead of preceding, these present mechanical considerations. and of the beliefs and hopes, the thought and language, the further prospects of this multitude as yet unborn--of these things also we shall make at last certain hazardous guesses. but at first i would submit to those who may find the "machinery in motion" excessive in this chapter, we must have the background and fittings--the scene before the play.[ ] footnotes: [ ] in the earlier papers, of which this is the first, attention will be given to the probable development of the civilized community in general. afterwards these generalizations will be modified in accordance with certain broad differences of race, custom, and religion. [ ] of quite serious forecasts and inductions of things to come, the number is very small indeed; a suggestion or so of mr. herbert spencer's, mr. kidd's _social evolution_, some hints from mr. archdall reid, some political forecasts, german for the most part (hartmann's _earth in the twentieth century_, e.g.), some incidental forecasts by professor langley (_century magazine_, december, , e.g.), and such isolated computations as professor crookes' wheat warning, and the various estimates of our coal supply, make almost a complete bibliography. of fiction, of course, there is abundance: _stories of the year_ , and _battles of dorking_, and the like--i learn from mr. peddie, the bibliographer, over one hundred pamphlets and books of that description. but from its very nature, and i am writing with the intimacy of one who has tried, fiction can never be satisfactory in this application. fiction is necessarily concrete and definite; it permits of no open alternatives; its aim of illusion prevents a proper amplitude of demonstration, and modern prophecy should be, one submits, a branch of speculation, and should follow with all decorum the scientific method. the very form of fiction carries with it something of disavowal; indeed, very much of the fiction of the future pretty frankly abandons the prophetic altogether, and becomes polemical, cautionary, or idealistic, and a mere footnote and commentary to our present discontents. [ ] it might have been used in the same way in italy in the first century, had not the grandiose taste for aqueducts prevailed. [ ] and also into the cornwall mines, be it noted. [ ] it might be worse. if the biggest horses had been shetland ponies, we should be travelling now in railway carriages to hold two each side at a maximum speed of perhaps twenty miles an hour. there is hardly any reason, beyond this tradition of the horse, why the railway carriage should not be even nine or ten feet wide, the width, that is, of the smallest room in which people can live in comfort, hung on such springs and wheels as would effectually destroy all vibration, and furnished with all the equipment of comfortable chambers. [ ] explosives as a motive power were first attempted by huyghens and one or two others in the seventeenth century, and, just as with the turbine type of apparatus, it was probably the impetus given to the development of steam by the convenient collocation of coal and water and the need of an engine, that arrested the advance of this parallel inquiry until our own time. explosive engines, in which gas and petroleum are employed, are now abundant, but for all that we can regard the explosive engine as still in its experimental stages. so far, research in explosives has been directed chiefly to the possibilities of higher and still higher explosives for use in war, the neglect of the mechanical application of this class of substance being largely due to the fact, that chemists are not as a rule engineers, nor engineers chemists. but an easily portable substance, the decomposition of which would evolve energy, or--what is, from the practical point of view, much the same thing--an easily portable substance, which could be decomposed electrically by wind or water power, and which would then recombine and supply force, either in intermittent thrusts at a piston, or as an electric current, would be infinitely more convenient for all locomotive purposes than the cumbersome bunkers and boilers required by steam. the presumption is altogether in favour of the possibility of such substances. their advent will be the beginning of the end for steam traction on land and of the steam ship at sea: the end indeed of the age of coal and steam. and even with regard to steam there may be a curious change of method before the end. it is beginning to appear that, after all, the piston and cylinder type of engine is, for locomotive purposes--on water at least, if not on land--by no means the most perfect. another, and fundamentally different type, the turbine type, in which the impulse of the steam spins a wheel instead of shoving a piston, would appear to be altogether better than the adapted pumping engine, at any rate, for the purposes of steam navigation. hero, of alexandria, describes an elementary form of such an engine, and the early experimenters of the seventeenth century tried and abandoned the rotary principle. it was not adapted to pumping, and pumping was the only application that then offered sufficient immediate encouragement to persistence. the thing marked time for quite two centuries and a half, therefore, while the piston engines perfected themselves; and only in the eighties did the requirements of the dynamo-electric machine open a "practicable" way of advance. the motors of the dynamo-electric machine in the nineteenth century, in fact, played exactly the _rôle_ of the pumping engine in the eighteenth, and by so many difficulties of detail had been settled, that a syndicate of capitalists and scientific men could face the construction of an experimental ship. this ship, the _turbinia_, after a considerable amount of trial and modification, attained the unprecedented speed of ½ knots an hour, and his majesty's navy has possessed, in the _turbinia's_ younger and greater sister, the _viper_, now unhappily lost, a torpedo-destroyer capable of miles an hour. there can be little doubt that the sea speeds of and even miles an hour will be attained within the next few years. but i do not think that these developments will do more than delay the advent of the "explosive" or "storage of force" engine. [ ] the historian of the future, writing about the nineteenth century, will, i sometimes fancy, find a new meaning in a familiar phrase. it is the custom to call this the most "democratic" age the world has ever seen, and most of us are beguiled by the etymological contrast, and the memory of certain legislative revolutions, to oppose one form of stupidity prevailing to another, and to fancy we mean the opposite to an "aristocratic" period. but indeed we do not. so far as that political point goes, the chinaman has always been infinitely more democratic than the european. but the world, by a series of gradations into error, has come to use "democratic" as a substitute for "wholesale," and as an opposite to "individual," without realizing the shifted application at all. thereby old "aristocracy," the organization of society for the glory and preservation of the select dull, gets to a flavour even of freedom. when the historian of the future speaks of the past century as a democratic century, he will have in mind, more than anything else, the unprecedented fact that we seemed to do everything in heaps--we read in epidemics; clothed ourselves, all over the world, in identical fashions; built and furnished our houses in stereo designs; and travelled--that naturally most individual proceeding--in bales. to make the railway train a perfect symbol of our times, it should be presented as uncomfortably full in the third class--a few passengers standing--and everybody reading the current number either of the _daily mail_, _pearson's weekly_, _answers_, _tit bits_, or whatever greatest novel of the century happened to be going.... but, as i hope to make clearer in my later papers, this "democracy," or wholesale method of living, like the railways, is transient--a first makeshift development of a great and finally (to me at least) quite hopeful social reorganization. [ ] so we begin to see the possibility of laying that phantom horse that haunts the railways to this day so disastrously. [ ] a correspondent, mr. rudolf cyrian, writes to correct me here, and i cannot do better, i think, than thank him and quote what he says. "it is hardly right to state that fifty miles an hour 'is the limit of our speed for land travel, so far as existing conditions go.' as far as english traffic is concerned, the statement is approximately correct. in the united states, however, there are several trains running now which average over considerable distances more than sixty miles an hour, stoppages included, nor is there much reason why this should not be considerably increased. what especially hampers the development of railways in england--as compared with other countries--is the fact that the rolling-stock templet is too small. hence carriages in england have to be narrower and lower than carriages in the united states, although both run on the same standard gauge ( feet ½ inches). the result is that several things which you describe as not possible at present, such as to 'write smoothly and easily at a steady table, read papers, have one's hair cut, and dine in comfort,' are not only feasible, but actually attained on some of the good american trains. for instance, on the _present_ empire state express, running between new york and buffalo, or on the _present_ pennsylvania, limited, running between new york and chicago, and on others. with the pennsylvania, limited, travel stenographers and typewriters, whose services are placed at the disposal of passengers free of charge. but the train on which there is the least vibration of any is probably the new empire state express, and on this it is certainly possible to write smoothly and easily at a steady table." [ ] since this appeared in the _fortnightly review_ i have had the pleasure of reading 'twentieth century inventions,' by mr. george sutherland, and i find very much else of interest bearing on these questions--the happy suggestion (for the ferry transits, at any rate) of a rail along the sea bottom, which would serve as a guide to swift submarine vessels, out of reach of all that superficial "motion" that is so distressing, and of all possibilities of collision. [ ] to the level of such upper story pavements as sir f. bramwell has proposed for the new holborn to strand street, for example. [ ] i have said nothing in this chapter, devoted to locomotion, of the coming invention of flying. this is from no disbelief in its final practicability, nor from any disregard of the new influences it will bring to bear upon mankind. but i do not think it at all probable that aeronautics will ever come into play as a serious modification of transport and communication--the main question here under consideration. man is not, for example, an albatross, but a land biped, with a considerable disposition towards being made sick and giddy by unusual motions, and however he soars he must come to earth to live. we must build our picture of the future from the ground upward; of flying--in its place. ii the probable diffusion of great cities now, the velocity at which a man and his belongings may pass about the earth is in itself a very trivial matter indeed, but it involves certain other matters not at all trivial, standing, indeed, in an almost fundamental relation to human society. it will be the business of this chapter to discuss the relation between the social order and the available means of transit, and to attempt to deduce from the principles elucidated the coming phases in that extraordinary expansion, shifting and internal redistribution of population that has been so conspicuous during the last hundred years. let us consider the broad features of the redistribution of the population that has characterized the nineteenth century. it may be summarized as an unusual growth of great cities and a slight tendency to depopulation in the country. the growth of the great cities is the essential phenomenon. these aggregates having populations of from eight hundred thousand upward to four and five millions, are certainly, so far as the world outside the limits of the chinese empire goes, entirely an unprecedented thing. never before, outside the valleys of the three great chinese rivers, has any city--with the exception of rome and perhaps (but very doubtfully) of babylon--certainly had more than a million inhabitants, and it is at least permissible to doubt whether the population of rome, in spite of its exacting a tribute of sea-borne food from the whole of the mediterranean basin, exceeded a million for any great length of time.[ ] but there are now ten town aggregates having a population of over a million, nearly twenty that bid fair to reach that limit in the next decade, and a great number at or approaching a quarter of a million. we call these towns and cities, but, indeed, they are of a different order of things to the towns and cities of the eighteenth-century world. concurrently with the aggregation of people about this new sort of centre, there has been, it is alleged, a depletion of the country villages and small townships. but, so far as the counting of heads goes, this depletion is not nearly so marked as the growth of the great towns. relatively, however, it is striking enough. now, is this growth of large towns really, as one may allege, a result of the development of railways in the world, or is it simply a change in human circumstances that happens to have arisen at the same time? it needs only a very general review of the conditions of the distribution of population to realize that the former is probably the true answer. it will be convenient to make the issue part of a more general proposition, namely, that _the general distribution of population in a country must always be directly dependent on transport facilities_. to illustrate this point roughly we may build up an imaginary simple community by considering its needs. over an arable country-side, for example, inhabited by a people who had attained to a level of agricultural civilization in which war was no longer constantly imminent, the population would be diffused primarily by families and groups in farmsteads. it might, if it were a very simple population, be almost all so distributed. but even the simplest agriculturists find a certain convenience in trade. certain definite points would be convenient for such local trade and intercourse as the people found desirable, and here it is that there would arise the germ of a town. at first it might be no more than an appointed meeting place, a market square, but an inn and a blacksmith would inevitably follow, an altar, perhaps, and, if these people had writing, even some sort of school. it would have to be where water was found, and it would have to be generally convenient of access to its attendant farmers. now, if this meeting place was more than a certain distance from any particular farm, it would be inconvenient for that farmer to get himself and his produce there and back, and to do his business in a comfortable daylight. he would not be able to come and, instead, he would either have to go to some other nearer centre to trade and gossip with his neighbours or, failing this, not go at all. evidently, then, there would be a maximum distance between such places. this distance in england, where traffic has been mainly horse traffic for many centuries, seems to have worked out, according to the gradients and so forth, at from eight to fifteen miles, and at such distances do we find the country towns, while the horseless man, the serf, and the labourer and labouring wench have marked their narrow limits in the distribution of the intervening villages. if by chance these gathering places have arisen at points much closer than this maximum, they have come into competition, and one has finally got the better of the other, so that in england the distribution is often singularly uniform. agricultural districts have their towns at about eight miles, and where grazing takes the place of the plough, the town distances increase to fifteen.[ ] and so it is, entirely as a multiple of horse and foot strides, that all the villages and towns of the world's country-side have been plotted out.[ ] a third, and almost final, factor determining town distribution in a world without railways, would be the seaport and the navigable river. ports would grow into dimensions dependent on the population of the conveniently accessible coasts (or river-banks), and on the quality and quantity of their products, and near these ports, as the conveniences of civilization increased, would appear handicraft towns--the largest possible towns of a foot-and-horse civilization--with industries of such a nature as the produce of their coasts required. it was always in connection with a port or navigable river that the greater towns of the pre-railway periods arose, a day's journey away from the coast when sea attack was probable, and shifting to the coast itself when that ceased to threaten. such sea-trading handicraft towns as bruges, venice, corinth, or london were the largest towns of the vanishing order of things. very rarely, except in china, did they clamber above a quarter of a million inhabitants, even though to some of them there was presently added court and camp. in china, however, a gigantic river and canal system, laced across plains of extraordinary fertility, has permitted the growth of several city aggregates with populations exceeding a million, and in the case of the hankow trinity of cities exceeding five million people. in all these cases the position and the population limit was entirely determined by the accessibility of the town and the area it could dominate for the purposes of trade. and not only were the commercial or natural towns so determined, but the political centres were also finally chosen for strategic considerations, in a word--communications. and now, perhaps, the real significance of the previous paper, in which sea velocities of fifty miles an hour, and land travel at the rate of a hundred, and even cab and omnibus journeys of thirty or forty miles, were shown to be possible, becomes more apparent. at the first sight it might appear as though the result of the new developments was simply to increase the number of giant cities in the world by rendering them possible in regions where they had hitherto been impossible--concentrating the trade of vast areas in a manner that had hitherto been entirely characteristic of navigable waters. it might seem as though the state of affairs in china, in which population has been concentrated about densely-congested "million-cities," with pauper masses, public charities, and a crowded struggle for existence, for many hundreds of years, was merely to be extended over the whole world. we have heard so much of the "problem of our great cities"; we have the impressive statistics of their growth; the belief in the inevitableness of yet denser and more multitudinous agglomerations in the future is so widely diffused, that at first sight it will be thought that no other motive than a wish to startle can dictate the proposition that not only will many of these railway-begotten "giant cities" reach their maximum in the commencing century, but that in all probability they, and not only they, but their water-born prototypes in the east also, are destined to such a process of dissection and diffusion as to amount almost to obliteration, so far, at least, as the blot on the map goes, within a measurable further space of years. in advancing this proposition, the present writer is disagreeably aware that in this matter he has expressed views entirely opposed to those he now propounds; and in setting forth the following body of considerations he tells the story of his own disillusionment. at the outset he took for granted--and, very naturally, he wishes to imagine that a great number of other people do also take for granted--that the future of london, for example, is largely to be got as the answer to a sort of rule-of-three sum. if in one hundred years the population of london has been multiplied by seven, then in two hundred years--! and one proceeds to pack the answer in gigantic tenement houses, looming upon colossal roofed streets, provide it with moving ways (the only available transit appliances suited to such dense multitudes), and develop its manners and morals in accordance with the laws that will always prevail amidst over-crowded humanity so long as humanity endures. the picture of this swarming concentrated humanity has some effective possibilities, but, unhappily, if, instead of that obvious rule-of-three sum, one resorts to an analysis of operating causes, its plausibility crumbles away, and it gives place to an altogether different forecast--a forecast, indeed, that is in almost violent contrast to the first anticipation. it is much more probable that these coming cities will not be, in the old sense, cities at all; they will present a new and entirely different phase of human distribution. the determining factor in the appearance of great cities in the past, and, indeed, up to the present day, has been the meeting of two or more transit lines, the confluence of two or more streams of trade, and easy communication. the final limit to the size and importance of the great city has been the commercial "sphere of influence" commanded by that city, the capacity of the alluvial basin of its commerce, so to speak, the volume of its river of trade. about the meeting point so determined the population so determined has grouped itself--and this is the point i overlooked in those previous vaticinations--in accordance with _laws that are also considerations of transit_. the economic centre of the city is formed, of course, by the wharves and landing places--and in the case of railway-fed cities by the termini--where passengers land and where goods are landed, stored, and distributed. both the administrative and business community, traders, employers, clerks, and so forth, must be within a convenient access of this centre; and the families, servants, tradesmen, amusement purveyors dependent on these again must also come within a maximum distance. at a certain stage in town growth the pressure on the more central area would become too great for habitual family life there, and an office region would differentiate from an outer region of homes. beyond these two zones, again, those whose connection with the great city was merely intermittent would constitute a system of suburban houses and areas. but the grouping of these, also, would be determined finally by the convenience of access to the dominant centre. that secondary centres, literary, social, political, or military, may arise about the initial trade centre, complicates the application but does not alter the principle here stated. they must all be within striking distance. the day of twenty-four hours is an inexorable human condition, and up to the present time all intercourse and business has been broken into spells of definite duration by intervening nights. moreover, almost all effective intercourse has involved personal presence at the point where intercourse occurs. the possibility, therefore, of going and coming and doing that day's work has hitherto fixed the extreme limits to which a city could grow, and has exacted a compactness which has always been very undesirable and which is now for the first time in the world's history no longer imperative. so far as we can judge without a close and uncongenial scrutiny of statistics, that daily journey, that has governed and still to a very considerable extent governs the growth of cities, has had, and probably always will have, a maximum limit of two hours, one hour each way from sleeping place to council chamber, counter, workroom, or office stool. and taking this assumption as sound, we can state precisely the maximum area of various types of town. a pedestrian agglomeration such as we find in china, and such as most of the european towns probably were before the nineteenth century, would be swept entirely by a radius of four miles about the business quarter and industrial centre; and, under these circumstances, where the area of the feeding regions has been very large the massing of human beings has probably reached its extreme limit.[ ] of course, in the case of a navigable river, for example, the commercial centre might be elongated into a line and the circle of the city modified into an ellipse with a long diameter considerably exceeding eight miles, as, for example, in the case of hankow. if, now, horseflesh is brought into the problem, an outer radius of six or eight miles from the centre will define a larger area in which the carriage folk, the hackney users, the omnibus customers, and their domestics and domestic camp followers may live and still be members of the city. towards that limit london was already probably moving at the accession of queen victoria, and it was clearly the absolute limit of urban growth--until locomotive mechanisms capable of more than eight miles an hour could be constructed. and then there came suddenly the railway and the steamship, the former opening with extraordinary abruptness a series of vast through-routes for trade, the latter enormously increasing the security and economy of the traffic on the old water routes. for a time neither of these inventions was applied to the needs of intra-urban transit at all. for a time they were purely centripetal forces. they worked simply to increase the general volume of trade, to increase, that is, the pressure of population upon the urban centres. as a consequence the social history of the middle and later thirds of the nineteenth century, not simply in england but all over the civilized world, is the history of a gigantic rush of population into the magic radius of--for most people--four miles, to suffer there physical and moral disaster less acute but, finally, far more appalling to the imagination than any famine or pestilence that ever swept the world. well has mr. george gissing named nineteenth-century london in one of his great novels the "whirlpool," the very figure for the nineteenth-century great city, attractive, tumultuous, and spinning down to death. but, indeed, these great cities are no permanent maëlstroms. these new forces, at present still so potently centripetal in their influence, bring with them, nevertheless, the distinct promise of a centrifugal application that may be finally equal to the complete reduction of all our present congestions. the limit of the pre-railway city was the limit of man and horse. but already that limit has been exceeded, and each day brings us nearer to the time when it will be thrust outward in every direction with an effect of enormous relief. so far the only additions to the foot and horse of the old dispensation that have actually come into operation, are the suburban railways, which render possible an average door to office hour's journey of ten or a dozen miles--further only in the case of some specially favoured localities. the star-shaped contour of the modern great city, thrusting out arms along every available railway line, knotted arms of which every knot marks a station, testify sufficiently to the relief of pressure thus afforded. great towns before this century presented rounded contours and grew as a puff-ball swells; the modern great city looks like something that has burst an intolerable envelope and splashed. but, as our previous paper has sought to make clear, these suburban railways are the mere first rough expedient of far more convenient and rapid developments. we are--as the census returns for quite clearly show--in the early phase of a great development of centrifugal possibilities. and since it has been shown that a city of pedestrians is inexorably limited by a radius of about four miles, and that a horse-using city may grow out to seven or eight, it follows that the available area of a city which can offer a cheap suburban journey of thirty miles an hour is a circle with a radius of thirty miles. and is it too much, therefore, in view of all that has been adduced in this and the previous paper, to expect that the available area for even the common daily toilers of the great city of the year , or earlier, will have a radius very much larger even than that? now, a circle with a radius of thirty miles gives an area of over square miles, which is almost a quarter that of belgium. but thirty miles is only a very moderate estimate of speed, and the reader of the former paper will agree, i think, that the available area for the social equivalent of the favoured season-ticket holders of to-day will have a radius of over one hundred miles, and be almost equal to the area of ireland.[ ] the radius that will sweep the area available for such as now live in the outer suburbs will include a still vaster area. indeed, it is not too much to say that the london citizen of the year a.d. may have a choice of nearly all england and wales south of nottingham and east of exeter as his suburb, and that the vast stretch of country from washington to albany will be all of it "available" to the active citizen of new york and philadelphia before that date. this does not for a moment imply that cities of the density of our existing great cities will spread to these limits. even if we were to suppose the increase of the populations of the great cities to go on at its present rate, this enormous extension of available area would still mean a great possibility of diffusion. but though most great cities are probably still very far from their maxima, though the network of feeding railways has still to spread over africa and china, and though huge areas are still imperfectly productive for want of a cultivating population, yet it is well to remember that for each great city, quite irrespective of its available spaces, a maximum of population is fixed. each great city is sustained finally by the trade and production of a certain proportion of the world's surface--by the area it commands commercially. the great city cannot grow, except as a result of some quite morbid and transitory process--to be cured at last by famine and disorder--beyond the limit the commercial capacity of that commanded area prescribes. long before the population of this city, with its inner circle a third of the area of belgium, rose towards the old-fashioned city density, this restriction would come in. even if we allowed for considerable increase in the production of food stuffs in the future, it still remains inevitable that the increase of each city in the world must come at last upon arrest. yet, though one may find reasons for anticipating that this city will in the end overtake and surpass that one and such-like relative prophesying, it is difficult to find any data from which to infer the absolute numerical limits of these various diffused cities. or perhaps it is more seemly to admit that no such data have occurred to the writer. so far as london, st. petersburg, and berlin go, it seems fairly safe to assume that they will go well over twenty millions; and that new york, philadelphia, and chicago will probably, and hankow almost certainly, reach forty millions. yet even forty millions over thirty-one thousand square miles of territory is, in comparison with four millions over fifty square miles, a highly diffused population. how far will that possible diffusion accomplish itself? let us first of all consider the case of those classes that will be free to exercise a choice in the matter, and we shall then be in a better position to consider those more numerous classes whose general circumstances are practically dictated to them. what will be the forces acting upon the prosperous household, the household with a working head and four hundred a year and upwards to live upon, in the days to come? will the resultant of these forces be, as a rule, centripetal or centrifugal? will such householders in the greater london of a.d. still cluster for the most part, as they do to-day, in a group of suburbs as close to london as is compatible with a certain fashionable maximum of garden space and air; or will they leave the ripened gardens and the no longer brilliant villas of surbiton and norwood, tooting and beckenham, to other and less independent people? first, let us weigh the centrifugal attractions. the first of these is what is known as the passion for nature, that passion for hillside, wind, and sea that is evident in so many people nowadays, either frankly expressed or disguising itself as a passion for golfing, fishing, hunting, yachting, or cycling; and, secondly, there is the allied charm of cultivation, and especially of gardening, a charm that is partly also the love of dominion, perhaps, and partly a personal love for the beauty of trees and flowers and natural things. through that we come to a third factor, that craving--strongest, perhaps, in those low german peoples, who are now ascendant throughout the world--for a little private _imperium_ such as a house or cottage "in its own grounds" affords; and from that we pass on to the intense desire so many women feel--and just the women, too, who will mother the future--their almost instinctive demand, indeed, for a household, a separate sacred and distinctive household, built and ordered after their own hearts, such as in its fulness only the country-side permits. add to these things the healthfulness of the country for young children, and the wholesome isolation that is possible from much that irritates, stimulates prematurely, and corrupts in crowded centres, and the chief positive centrifugal inducements are stated, inducements that no progress of inventions, at any rate, can ever seriously weaken. what now are the centripetal forces against which these inducements contend? in the first place, there are a group of forces that will diminish in strength. there is at present the greater convenience of "shopping" within a short radius of the centre of the great city, a very important consideration indeed to many wives and mothers. all the inner and many of the outer suburbs of london obtain an enormous proportion of the ordinary household goods from half a dozen huge furniture, grocery, and drapery firms, each of which has been enabled by the dearness and inefficiency of the parcels distribution of the post-office and railways to elaborate a now very efficient private system of taking orders and delivering goods. collectively these great businesses have been able to establish a sort of monopoly of suburban trade, to overwhelm the small suburban general tradesman (a fate that was inevitable for him in some way or other), and--which is a positive world-wide misfortune--to overwhelm also many highly specialized shops and dealers of the central district. suburban people nowadays get their wine and their novels, their clothes and their amusements, their furniture and their food, from some one vast indiscriminate shop or "store" full of respectable mediocre goods, as excellent a thing for housekeeping as it is disastrous to taste and individuality.[ ] but it is doubtful if the delivery organization of these great stores is any more permanent than the token coinage of the tradespeople of the last century. just as it was with that interesting development, so now it is with parcels distribution: private enterprise supplies in a partial manner a public need, and with the organization of a public parcels and goods delivery on cheap and sane lines in the place of our present complex, stupid, confusing, untrustworthy, and fantastically costly chaos of post-office, railways, and carriers, it is quite conceivable that messrs. omnium will give place again to specialized shops. it must always be remembered how timid, tentative, and dear the postal and telephone services of even the most civilized countries still are, and how inexorably the needs of revenue, public profit, and convenience fight in these departments against the tradition of official leisure and dignity. there is no reason now, except that the thing is not yet properly organized, why a telephone call from any point in such a small country as england to any other should cost much more than a postcard. there is no reason now, save railway rivalries and retail ideas--obstacles some able and active man is certain to sweep away sooner or later--why the post-office should not deliver parcels anywhere within a radius of a hundred miles in a few hours at a penny or less for a pound and a little over,[ ] put our newspapers in our letter-boxes direct from the printing-office, and, in fact, hand in nearly every constant need of the civilized household, except possibly butcher's meat, coals, green-grocery, and drink. and since there is no reason, but quite removable obstacles, to prevent this development of the post-office, i imagine it will be doing all these things within the next half-century. when it is, this particular centripetal pull, at any rate, will have altogether ceased to operate. a second important centripetal consideration at present is the desirability of access to good schools and to the doctor. to leave the great centres is either to abandon one's children, or to buy air for them at the cost of educational disadvantages. but access, be it noted, is another word for transit. it is doubtful if these two needs will so much keep people close to the great city centres as draw them together about secondary centres. new centres they may be--compare hindhead, for example--in many cases; but also, it may be, in many cases the more healthy and picturesque of the existing small towns will develop a new life. already, in the case of the london area, such once practically autonomous places as guildford, tunbridge wells, and godalming have become economically the centres of lax suburbs, and the same fate may very probably overtake, for example, shrewsbury, stratford, and exeter, and remoter and yet remoter townships. indeed, for all that this particular centripetal force can do, the confluent "residential suburbs" of london, of the great lancashire-yorkshire city, and of the scotch city, may quite conceivably replace the summer lodging-house watering-places of to-day, and extend themselves right round the coast of great britain, before the end of the next century, and every open space of mountain and heather be dotted--not too thickly--with clumps of prosperous houses about school, doctor, engineers, book and provision shops. a third centripetal force will not be set aside so easily. the direct antagonist it is to that love of nature that drives people out to moor and mountain. one may call it the love of the crowd; and closely allied to it is that love of the theatre which holds so many people in bondage to the strand. charles lamb was the richard jefferies of this group of tendencies, and the current disposition to exaggerate the opposition force, especially among english-speaking peoples, should not bind us to the reality of their strength. moreover, interweaving with these influences that draw people together are other more egotistical and intenser motives, ardent in youth and by no means--to judge by the folkestone leas--extinct in age, the love of dress, the love of the crush, the hot passion for the promenade. here, no doubt, what one may speak of loosely as "racial" characteristics count for much. the common actor and actress of all nationalities, the neapolitan, the modern roman, the parisian, the hindoo, i am told, and that new and interesting type, the rich and liberated jew emerging from his ghetto and free now absolutely to show what stuff he is made of, flame out most gloriously in this direction. to a certain extent this group of tendencies may lead to the formation of new secondary centres within the "available" area, theatrical and musical centres--centres of extreme fashion and selectness, centres of smartness and opulent display--but it is probable that for the large number of people throughout the world who cannot afford to maintain households in duplicate these will be for many years yet strictly centripetal forces, and will keep them within the radius marked by whatever will be the future equivalent in length of, say, the present two-shilling cab ride in london. and, after all, for all such "shopping" as one cannot do by telephone or postcard, it will still be natural for the shops to be gathered together in some central place. and "shopping" needs refreshment, and may culminate in relaxation. so that bond street and regent street, the boulevard des capuchins, the corso, and broadway will still be brilliant and crowded for many years for all the diffusion that is here forecast--all the more brilliant and crowded, perhaps, for the lack of a thronging horse traffic down their central ways. but the very fact that the old nucleus is still to be the best place for all who trade in a concourse of people, for novelty shops and art shops, and theatres and business buildings, by keeping up the central ground values will operate against residence there and shift the "masses" outwardly. and once people have been driven into cab, train, or omnibus, the only reason why they should get out to a residence here rather than there is the necessity of saving time, and such a violent upward gradient of fares as will quite outbalance the downward gradient of ground values. we have, however, already forecast a swift, varied, and inevitably competitive suburban traffic. and so, though the centre will probably still remain the centre and "town," it will be essentially a bazaar, a great gallery of shops and places of concourse and rendezvous, a pedestrian place, its pathways reinforced by lifts and moving platforms, and shielded from the weather, and altogether a very spacious, brilliant, and entertaining agglomeration. enough now has been said to determine the general nature of the expansion of the great cities in the future, so far as the more prosperous classes are concerned. it will not be a regular diffusion like the diffusion of a gas, but a process of throwing out the "homes," and of segregating various types of people. the omens seem to point pretty unmistakably to a wide and quite unprecedented diversity in the various suburban townships and suburban districts. of that aspect of the matter a later paper must treat. it is evident that from the outset racial and national characteristics will tell in this diffusion. we are getting near the end of the great democratic, wholesale, or homogeneous phase in the world's history. the sport-loving englishman, the sociable frenchman, the vehement american will each diffuse his own great city in his own way. and now, how will the increase in the facilities of communication we have assumed affect the condition of those whose circumstances are more largely dictated by economic forces? the mere diffusion of a large proportion of the prosperous and relatively free, and the multiplication of various types of road and mechanical traction, means, of course, that in this way alone a perceptible diffusion of the less independent classes will occur. to the subsidiary centres will be drawn doctor and schoolmaster, and various dealers in fresh provisions, baker, grocer, butcher; or if they are already established there they will flourish more and more, and about them the convenient home of the future, with its numerous electrical and mechanical appliances, and the various bicycles, motor-cars, photographic and phonographic apparatus that will be included in its equipment will gather a population of repairers, "accessory" dealers and working engineers, a growing class which from its necessary intelligence and numbers will play a very conspicuous part in the social development of the twentieth century. the much more elaborate post-office and telephone services will also bring intelligent ingredients to these suburban nuclei, these restorations of the old villages and country towns. and the sons of the cottager within the affected area will develop into the skilled vegetable or flower gardeners, the skilled ostler--with some veterinary science--and so forth, for whom also there will evidently be work and a living. and dotted at every convenient position along the new roads, availing themselves no doubt whenever possible of the picturesque inns that the old coaching days have left us, will be wayside restaurants and tea houses, and motor and cycle stores and repair places. so much diffusion is practically inevitable. in addition, as we have already intimated, many londoners in the future may abandon the city office altogether, preferring to do their business in more agreeable surroundings. such a business as book publishing, for example, has no unbreakable bonds to keep it in the region of high rent and congested streets. the days when the financial fortunes of books depended upon the colloquial support of influential people in a small society are past; neither publishers nor authors as a class have any relation to society at all, and actual access to newspaper offices is necessary only to the ranker forms of literary imposture. that personal intercourse between publishers and the miscellaneous race of authors which once justified the central position has, i am told, long since ceased. and the withdrawing publishers may very well take with them the printers and binders, and attract about them their illustrators and designers.... so, as a typical instance, one--now urban--trade may detach itself. publishing is, however, only one of the many similar trades equally profitable and equally likely to move outward to secondary centres, with the development and cheapening of transit. it is all a question of transit. limitation of transit contracts the city, facilitation expands and disperses it. all this case for diffusion so far is built up entirely on the hypothesis we attempted to establish in the first paper, that transit of persons and goods alike is to become easier, swifter, and altogether better organized than it is at present. the telephone will almost certainly prove a very potent auxiliary indeed to the forces making for diffusion. at present that convenience is still needlessly expensive in great britain, and a scandalously stupid business conflict between telephone company and post-office delays, complicates, and makes costly and exasperating all trunk communications; but even under these disadvantages the thing is becoming a factor in the life of ordinary villadom. consider all that lies within its possibilities. take first the domestic and social side; almost all the labour of ordinary shopping can be avoided--goods nowadays can be ordered and sent either as sold outright, or on approval, to any place within a hundred miles of london, and in one day they can be examined, discussed, and returned--at any rate, in theory. the mistress of the house has all her local tradesmen, all the great london shops, the circulating library, the theatre box-office, the post-office and cab-rank, the nurses' institute and the doctor, within reach of her hand. the instrument we may confidently expect to improve, but even now speech is perfectly clear and distinct over several hundred miles of wire. appointments and invitations can be made; and at a cost varying from a penny to two shillings any one within two hundred miles of home may speak day or night into the ear of his or her household. were it not for that unmitigated public nuisance, the practical control of our post-office by non-dismissable civil servants, appointed so young as to be entirely ignorant of the unofficial world, it would be possible now to send urgent messages at any hour of the day or night to any part of the world; and even our sacred institution of the civil service can scarcely prevent this desirable consummation for many years more. the business man may then sit at home in his library and bargain, discuss, promise, hint, threaten, tell such lies as he dare not write, and, in fact, do everything that once demanded a personal encounter. already for a great number of businesses it is no longer necessary that the office should be in london, and only habit, tradition, and minor considerations keep it there. with the steady cheapening and the steady increase in efficiency of postal and telephonic facilities, and of goods transit, it seems only reasonable to anticipate the need for that expensive office and the irksome daily journey will steadily decline. in other words, what will still be economically the "city," as distinguished from the "agricultural" population, will probably be free to extend, in the case of all the prosperous classes not tied to large establishments in need of personal supervision, far beyond the extreme limits of the daily hour journey. but the diffusion of the prosperous, independent, and managing classes involves in itself a very considerable diffusion of the purely "working" classes also. their centres of occupation will be distributed, and their freedom to live at some little distance from their work will be increased. whether this will mean dotting the country with dull, ugly little streets, slum villages like buckfastleigh in devon, for example, or whether it may result in entirely different and novel aspects, is a point for which at present we are not ready. but it bears upon the question that ugliness and squalor upon the main road will appeal to the more prosperous for remedy with far more vigour than when they are stowed compactly in a slum. enough has been said to demonstrate that old "town" and "city" will be, in truth, terms as obsolete as "mail coach." for these new areas that will grow out of them we want a term, and the administrative "urban district" presents itself with a convenient air of suggestion. we may for our present purposes call these coming town provinces "urban regions." practically, by a process of confluence, the whole of great britain south of the highlands seems destined to become such an urban region, laced all together not only by railway and telegraph, but by novel roads such as we forecast in the former chapter, and by a dense network of telephones, parcels delivery tubes, and the like nervous and arterial connections. it will certainly be a curious and varied region, far less monotonous than our present english world, still in its thinner regions, at any rate, wooded, perhaps rather more abundantly wooded, breaking continually into park and garden, and with everywhere a scattering of houses. these will not, as a rule, i should fancy, follow the fashion of the vulgar ready-built villas of the existing suburb, because the freedom people will be able to exercise in the choice of a site will rob the "building estate" promoter of his local advantage; in many cases the houses may very probably be personal homes, built for themselves as much as the tudor manor-houses were, and even, in some cases, as æsthetically right. each district, i am inclined to think, will develop its own differences of type and style. as one travels through the urban region, one will traverse open, breezy, "horsey" suburbs, smart white gates and palings everywhere, good turf, a grand stand shining pleasantly; gardening districts all set with gables and roses, holly hedges, and emerald lawns; pleasant homes among heathery moorlands and golf links, and river districts with gaily painted boat-houses peeping from the osiers. then presently a gathering of houses closer together, and a promenade and a whiff of band and dresses, and then, perhaps, a little island of agriculture, hops, or strawberry gardens, fields of grey-plumed artichokes, white-painted orchard, or brightly neat poultry farm. through the varied country the new wide roads will run, here cutting through a crest and there running like some colossal aqueduct across a valley, swarming always with a multitudinous traffic of bright, swift (and not necessarily ugly) mechanisms; and everywhere amidst the fields and trees linking wires will stretch from pole to pole. ever and again there will appear a cluster of cottages--cottages into which we shall presently look more closely--about some works or workings, works, it may be, with the smoky chimney of to-day replaced by a gaily painted windwheel or waterwheel to gather and store the force for the machinery; and ever and again will come a little town, with its cherished ancient church or cathedral, its school buildings and museums, its railway-station, perhaps its fire-station, its inns and restaurants, and with all the wires of the countryside converging to its offices. all that is pleasant and fair of our present countryside may conceivably still be there among the other things. there is no reason why the essential charm of the country should disappear; the new roads will not supersede the present high roads, which will still be necessary for horses and subsidiary traffic; and the lanes and hedges, the field paths and wild flowers, will still have their ample justification. a certain lack of solitude there may be perhaps, and-- will conspicuous advertisements play any part in the landscape?... but i find my pen is running ahead, an imagination prone to realistic constructions is struggling to paint a picture altogether prematurely. there is very much to be weighed and decided before we can get from our present generalization to the style of architecture these houses will show, and to the power and nature of the public taste. we have laid down now the broad lines of road, railway, and sea transit in the coming century, and we have got this general prophecy of "urban regions" established, and for the present that much must suffice. and as for the world beyond our urban regions? the same line of reasoning that leads to the expectation that the city will diffuse itself until it has taken up considerable areas and many of the characteristics, the greenness, the fresh air, of what is now country, leads us to suppose also that the country will take to itself many of the qualities of the city. the old antithesis will indeed cease, the boundary lines will altogether disappear; it will become, indeed, merely a question of more or less populous. there will be horticulture and agriculture going on within the "urban regions," and "urbanity" without them. everywhere, indeed, over the land of the globe between the frozen circles, the railway and the new roads will spread, the net-work of communication wires and safe and convenient ways. to receive the daily paper a few hours late, to wait a day or so for goods one has ordered, will be the extreme measure of rusticity save in a few remote islands and inaccessible places. the character of the meshes in that wider network of roads that will be the country, as distinguished from the urban district, will vary with the soil, the climate and the tenure of the land--will vary, too, with the racial and national differences. but throughout all that follows, this mere relativity of the new sort of town to the new sort of country over which the new sorts of people we are immediately to consider will be scattered, must be borne in mind. * * * * * [at the risk of insistence, i must repeat that, so far, i have been studiously taking no account of the fact that there is such a thing as a boundary line or a foreigner in the world. it will be far the best thing to continue to do this until we can get out all that will probably happen universally or generally, and in particular the probable changes in social forces, social apparatus and internal political methods. we shall then come to the discussion of language, nationality and international conflicts, equipped with such an array of probabilities and possibilities as will enable us to guess at these special issues with an appearance of far more precision than would be the case if we considered them now.] footnotes: [ ] it is true that many scholars estimate a high-water mark for the roman population in excess of two millions; and one daring authority, by throwing out suburbs _ad libitum_ into the campagna, suburbs of which no trace remains, has raised the two to ten. the colosseum could, no doubt, seat over , spectators; the circuit of the bench frontage of the circus maximus was very nearly a mile in length, and the romans of imperial times certainly used ten times as much water as the modern romans. but, on the other hand, habits change, and rome as it is defined by lines drawn at the times of its greatest ascendancy--the city, that is, enclosed by the walls of aurelian and including all the regiones of augustus, an enclosure from which there could have been no reason for excluding half or more of its population--could have scarcely contained a million. it would have packed very comfortably within the circle of the grands boulevards of paris--the paris, that is, of louis xiv., with a population of , ; and the rome of to-day, were the houses that spread so densely over the once vacant campus martius distributed in the now deserted spaces in the south and east, and the vatican suburb replaced within the ancient walls, would quite fill the ancient limits, in spite of the fact that the population is under , . but these are incidental doubts on a very authoritative opinion, and, whatever their value, they do not greatly affect the significance of these new great cities, which have arisen all over the world, as if by the operation of a natural law, as the railways have developed. [ ] it will be plain that such towns must have clearly defined limits of population, _dependant finally on the minimum yearly produce of the district they control_. if ever they rise above that limit the natural checks of famine, and of pestilence following enfeeblement, will come into operation, and they will always be kept near this limit by the natural tendency of humanity to increase. the limit would rise with increasing public intelligence, and the organization of the towns would become more definite. [ ] i owe the fertilizing suggestion of this general principle to a paper by grant allen that i read long ago in _longman's magazine_. [ ] it is worth remarking that in the density of population in the city of london was half as dense again as that of any district, even of the densest "slum" districts, to-day. [ ] be it noted that the phrase "available area" is used, and various other modifying considerations altogether waived for the present. [ ] their temporary suppression of the specialist is indeed carried to such an extent that one may see even such things as bronze ornaments and personal jewellery listed in messrs. omnium's list, and stored in list designs and pattern; and their assistants will inform you that their brooch, no. , is now "very much worn," without either blush or smile. [ ] the present system of charging parcels by the pound, when goods are sold by the pound, and so getting a miserly profit in the packing, is surely one of the absurdest disregards of the obvious it is possible to imagine. iii developing social elements the mere differences in thickness of population and facility of movement that have been discussed thus far, will involve consequences remarkable enough, upon the _facies_ of the social body; but there are certain still broader features of the social order of the coming time, less intimately related to transit, that it will be convenient to discuss at this stage. they are essentially outcomes of the enormous development of mechanism which has been the cardinal feature of the nineteenth century; for this development, by altering the method and proportions of almost all human undertakings,[ ] has altered absolutely the grouping and character of the groups of human beings engaged upon them. throughout the world for forty centuries the more highly developed societies have always presented under a considerable variety of superficial differences certain features in common. always at the base of the edifice, supporting all, subordinate to all, and the most necessary of all, there has been the working cultivator, peasant, serf, or slave. save for a little water-power, a little use of windmills, the traction of a horse or mule, this class has been the source of all the work upon which the community depends. and, moreover, whatever labour town developments have demanded has been supplied by the muscle of its fecund ranks. it has been, in fact--and to some extent still is--the multitudinous living machinery of the old social order; it carried, cropped, tilled, built, and made. and, directing and sometimes owning this human machinery, there has always been a superior class, bound usually by a point of honour not to toil, often warlike, often equestrian, and sometimes cultivated. in england this is the gentility, in most european countries it is organized as a nobility; it is represented in the history of india by the "twice born" castes, and in china--the most philosophically conceived and the most stably organized social system the old order ever developed--it finds its equivalent in the members of a variously buttoned mandarinate, who ride, not on horses, but on a once adequate and still respectable erudition. these two primary classes may and do become in many cases complicated by subdivisions; the peasant class may split into farmers and labourers, the gentlemen admit a series of grades and orders, kings, dukes, earls, and the like, but the broad distinction remains intact, as though it was a distinction residing in the nature of things.[ ] from the very dawn of history until the first beginnings of mechanism in the eighteenth century, this simple scheme of orders was the universal organization of all but savage humanity, and the chief substance of history until these later years has been in essence the perpetual endeavour of specific social systems of this type to attain in every region the locally suitable permanent form, in face of those two inveterate enemies of human stability, innovation, and that secular increase in population that security permits. the imperfection of the means of communication rendered political unions of a greater area than that swept by a hundred-mile radius highly unstable. it was a world of small states. lax empires came and went, at the utmost they were the linking of practically autonomous states under a common _pax_. wars were usually wars between kingdoms, conflicts of this local experiment in social organization with that. through all the historical period these two well-defined classes of gentle and simple acted and reacted upon each other, every individual in each class driven by that same will to live and do, that imperative of self-establishment and aggression that is the spirit of this world. until the coming of gunpowder, the man on horseback--commonly with some sort of armour--was invincible in battle in the open. wherever the land lay wide and unbroken, and the great lines of trade did not fall, there the horseman was master--or the clerkly man behind the horseman. such a land was aristocratic and tended to form castes. the craftsman sheltered under a patron, and in guilds in a walled town, and the labourer was a serf. he was ruled over by his knight or by his creditor--in the end it matters little how the gentleman began. but where the land became difficult by reason of mountain or forest, or where water greatly intersected it, the pikeman or closer-fighting swordsman or the bowman could hold his own, and a democratic flavour, a touch of repudiation, was in the air. in such countries as italy, greece, the alps, the netherlands, and great britain, the two forces of the old order, the aristocrat and the common man, were in a state of unstable equilibrium through the whole period of history. a slight change[ ] in the details of the conflict for existence could tilt the balance. a weapon a little better adapted to one class than the other, or a slight widening of the educational gap, worked out into historically imposing results, to dynastic changes, class revolutions and the passing of empires. throughout it was essentially one phase of human organization. when one comes to examine the final result, it is astonishing to remark the small amount of essential change, of positively final and irreparable alteration, in the conditions of the common life. consider, for example, how entirely in sympathy was the close of the eighteenth century with the epoch of horace, and how closely equivalent were the various social aspects of the two periods. the literature of rome was living reading in a sense that has suddenly passed away, it fitted all occasions, it conflicted with no essential facts in life. it was a commonplace of the thought of that time that all things recurred, all things circled back to their former seasons; there was nothing new under the sun. but now almost suddenly the circling has ceased, and we find ourselves breaking away. correlated with the sudden development of mechanical forces that first began to be socially perceptible in the middle eighteenth century, has been the appearance of great masses of population, having quite novel functions and relations in the social body, and together with this appearance such a suppression, curtailment, and modification of the older classes, as to point to an entire disintegration of that system. the _facies_ of the social fabric has changed, and--as i hope to make clear--is still changing in a direction from which, without a total destruction and rebirth of that fabric, there can never be any return. the most striking of the new classes to emerge is certainly the shareholding class, the owners of a sort of property new in the world's history. before the eighteenth century the only property of serious importance consisted of land and buildings. these were "real" estate. beyond these things were live-stock, serfs, and the furnishings of real estate, the surface aspect of real estate, so to speak, personal property, ships, weapons, and the semitic invention of money. all such property had to be actually "held" and administered by the owner, he was immediately in connection with it and responsible for it. he could leave it only precariously to a steward and manager, and to convey the revenue of it to him at a distance was a difficult and costly proceeding. to prevent a constant social disturbance by lapsing and dividing property, and in the absence of any organized agency to receive lapsed property, inheritance and preferably primogeniture were of such manifest advantage that the old social organization always tended in the direction of these institutions. such usury as was practised relied entirely on the land and the anticipated agricultural produce of the land. but the usury and the sleeping partnerships of the joint stock company system which took shape in the eighteenth and the earlier half of the nineteenth century opened quite unprecedented uses for money, and created a practically new sort of property and a new proprietor class. the peculiar novelty of this property is easily defined. given a sufficient sentiment of public honesty, share property is property that can be owned at any distance and that yields its revenue without thought or care on the part of its proprietor; it is, indeed, absolutely irresponsible property, a thing that no old world property ever was. but, in spite of its widely different nature, the laws of inheritance that the social necessities of the old order of things established have been applied to this new species of possession without remark. it is indestructible, imperishable wealth, subject only to the mutations of value that economic changes bring about. related in its character of absolute irresponsibility to this shareholding class is a kindred class that has grown with the growth of the great towns, the people who live upon ground rents. there is every indication that this element of irresponsible, independent, and wealthy people in the social body, people who feel the urgency of no exertion, the pressure of no specific positive duties, is still on the increase, and may still for a long time increasingly preponderate. it overshadows the responsible owner of real property or of real businesses altogether. and most of the old aristocrats, the old knightly and landholding people, have, so to speak, converted themselves into members of this new class. it is a class with scarcely any specific characteristics beyond its defining one, of the possession of property and all the potentialities property entails, with a total lack of function with regard to that property. it is not even collected into a distinct mass. it graduates insensibly into every other class, it permeates society as threads and veins of gold permeate quartz. it includes the millionaire snob, the political-minded plutocrat, the wealthy sensualist, open-handed religious fanatics, the "charitable," the smart, the magnificently dull, the great army of timid creatures who tremble through life on a safe bare sufficiency,[ ] travellers, hunters, minor poets, sporting enthusiasts, many of the officers in the british army, and all sorts and conditions of amateurs. in a sense it includes several modern royalties, for the crown in several modern constitutional states is a _corporation sole_, and the monarch the unique, unlimited, and so far as necessity goes, quite functionless shareholder. he may be a heavy-eyed sensualist, a small-minded leader of fashion, a rival to his servants in the gay science of etiquette, a frequenter of race-courses and music-halls, a literary or scientific quack, a devotee, an amateur anything--the point is that his income and sustenance have no relation whatever to his activities. if he fancies it, or is urged to it by those who have influence over him, he may even "be a king!" but that is not compulsory, not essential, and there are practically no conditional restrictions whatever laid upon him. those who belong to this shareholding class only partially, who partially depend upon dividends and partially upon activities, occur in every rank and order of the whole social body. the waiter one tips probably has a hundred or so in some remote company, the will of the eminent labour reformer reveals an admirably distributed series of investments, the bishop sells tea and digs coal, or at any rate gets a profit from some unknown persons tea-selling or coal-digging, to eke out the direct recompense of his own modest corn-treading. indeed, above the labouring class, the number of individuals in the social body whose gross income is entirely the result of their social activities is very small. previously in the world's history, saving a few quite exceptional aspects, the possession and retention of property was conditional upon activities of some sort, honest or dishonest, work, force, or fraud. but the shareholding ingredient of our new society, so far as its shareholding goes, has no need of strength or wisdom; the countless untraceable owner of the modern world presents in a multitudinous form the image of a merovingian king. the shareholder owns the world _de jure_, by the common recognition of the rights of property; and the incumbency of knowledge, management, and toil fall entirely to others. he toils not, neither does he spin; he is mechanically released from the penalty of the fall, he reaps in a still sinful world all the practical benefits of a millennium--without any of its moral limitations. it will be well to glance at certain considerations which point to the by no means self-evident proposition, that this factor of irresponsible property is certain to be present in the social body a hundred years ahead. it has, no doubt, occurred to the reader that all the conditions of the shareholder's being unfit him for co-operative action in defence of the interests of his class. since shareholders do nothing in common, except receive and hope for dividends, since they may be of any class, any culture, any disposition, or any level of capacity, since there is nothing to make them read the same papers, gather in the same places, or feel any sort of sympathy with each other beyond the universal sympathy of man for man, they will, one may anticipate, be incapable of any concerted action to defend the income they draw from society against any resolute attack. such crude and obvious denials of the essential principles of their existence as the various socialistic bodies have proclaimed have, no doubt, encountered a vast, unorganized, negative opposition from them, but the subtle and varied attack of natural forces they have neither the collective intelligence to recognize, nor the natural organization to resist. the shareholding body is altogether too chaotic and diffused for positive defence. and the question of the prolonged existence of this comparatively new social phenomenon, either in its present or some modified form, turns, therefore, entirely on the quasi-natural laws of the social body. if they favour it, it will survive; when they do not, it will vanish as the mists of the morning before the sun. neglecting a few exceptional older corporations which, indeed, in their essence are not usurious, but of unlimited liability, the shareholding body appeared first, in its present character, in the seventeenth century, and came to its full development in the mid-nineteenth. was its appearance then due only to the attainment of a certain necessary degree of public credit, or was it correlated with any other force? it seems in accordance with facts to relate it to another force, the development of mechanism, so far as certain representative aspects go. hitherto the only borrower had been the farmer, then the exploring trader had found a world too wide for purely individual effort, and then suddenly the craftsmen of all sorts and the carriers discovered the need of the new, great, wholesale, initially expensive appliances that invention was offering them. it was the development of mechanism that created the great bulk of modern shareholding, it took its present shape distinctively only with the appearance of the railways. the hitherto necessary but subordinate craftsman and merchant classes were to have new weapons, new powers, they were to develop to a new importance, to a preponderance even in the social body. but before they could attain these weapons, before this new and novel wealth could be set up, it had to pay its footing in an apportioned world, it had to buy its right to disturb the established social order. the dividend of the shareholder was the tribute the new enterprise had to pay the old wealth. the share was the manumission money of machinery. and essentially the shareholder represents and will continue to represent the responsible managing owner of a former state of affairs in process of supersession. if the great material developments of the nineteenth century had been final, if they had, indeed, constituted merely a revolution and not an absolute release from the fixed conditions about which human affairs circled, we might even now be settling accounts with our merovingians as the socialists desire. but these developments were not final, and one sees no hint as yet of any coming finality. invention runs free and our state is under its dominion. the novel is continually struggling to establish itself at the relative or absolute expense of the old. the statesman's conception of social organization is no longer stability but growth. and so long as material progress continues, this tribute must continue to be paid; so long as the stream of development flows, this necessary back eddy will endure. even if we "municipalize" all sorts of undertakings we shall not alter the essential facts, we shall only substitute for the shareholder the corporation stockholder. the figure of an eddy is particularly appropriate. enterprises will come and go, the relative values of kinds of wealth will alter, old appliances, old companies, will serve their time and fall in value, individuals will waste their substance, individual families and groups will die out, certain portions of the share property of the world may be gathered, by elaborate manipulation, into a more or less limited number of hands, conceivably even families and groups will be taxed out by graduated legacy duties and specially apportioned income taxes, but, for all such possible changes and modifications, the shareholding element will still endure, so long as our present progressive and experimental state of society obtains. and the very diversity, laxity, and weakness of the general shareholding element, which will work to prevent its organizing itself in the interests of its property, or of evolving any distinctive traditions or positive characters, will obviously prevent its obstructing the continual appearance of new enterprises, of new shareholders to replace the loss of its older constituents.... at the opposite pole of the social scale to that about which shareholding is most apparent, is a second necessary and quite inevitable consequence of the sudden transition that has occurred from a very nearly static social organization to a violently progressive one. this second consequence of progress is the appearance of a great number of people without either property or any evident function in the social organism. this new ingredient is most apparent in the towns, it is frequently spoken of as the urban poor, but its characteristic traits are to be found also in the rural districts. for the most part its individuals are either criminal, immoral, parasitic in more or less irregular ways upon the more successful classes, or labouring, at something less than a regular bare subsistence wage, in a finally hopeless competition against machinery that is as yet not so cheap as their toil. it is, to borrow a popular phrase, the "submerged" portion of the social body, a leaderless, aimless multitude, a multitude of people drifting down towards the abyss. essentially it consists of people who have failed to "catch on" to the altered necessities the development of mechanism has brought about, they are people thrown out of employment by machinery, thrown out of employment by the escape of industries along some newly opened line of communication to some remote part of the world, or born under circumstances that give them no opportunity of entering the world of active work. into this welter of machine-superseded toil there topples the non-adaptable residue of every changing trade; its members marry and are given in marriage, and it is recruited by the spendthrifts, weaklings, and failures of every superior class. since this class was not apparent in masses in the relatively static, relatively less eliminatory, society of former times, its appearance has given rise to a belief that the least desirable section of the community has become unprecedentedly prolific, that there is now going on a "rapid multiplication of the unfit." but sooner or later, as every east end doctor knows, the ways of the social abyss lead to death, the premature death of the individual, or death through the death or infertility of the individual's stunted offspring, or death through that extinction which moral perversion involves. it is a recruited class, not a breeding multitude. whatever expedients may be resorted to, to mitigate or conceal the essential nature of this social element, it remains in its essence wherever social progress is being made, the contingent of death. humanity has set out in the direction of a more complex and exacting organization, and until, by a foresight to me at least inconceivable, it can prevent the birth of just all the inadaptable, useless, or merely unnecessary creatures in each generation, there must needs continue to be, in greater or less amount, this individually futile struggle beneath the feet of the race; somewhere and in some form there must still persist those essentials that now take shape as the slum, the prison, and the asylum. all over the world, as the railway network has spread, in chicago and new york as vividly as in london or paris, the commencement of the new movement has been marked at once by the appearance of this bulky irremovable excretion, the appearance of these gall stones of vicious, helpless, and pauper masses. there seems every reason to suppose that this phenomenon of unemployed citizens, who are, in fact, unemployable, will remain present as a class, perishing individually and individually renewed, so long as civilization remains progressive and experimental upon its present lines. their drowning existences may be utilized, the crude hardship of their lot may be concealed or mitigated,[ ] they may react upon the social fabric that is attempting to eliminate them, in very astounding ways, but their presence and their individual doom, it seems to me, will be unavoidable--at any rate, for many generations of men. they are an integral part of this physiological process of mechanical progress, as inevitable in the social body as are waste matters and disintegrating cells in the body of an active and healthy man. the appearance of these two strange functionless elements, although the most striking symptom of the new phase of progressive mechanical civilization now beginning, is by no means the most essential change in progress. these appearances involve also certain disappearances. i have already indicated pretty clearly that the vast irregular development of irresponsible wealthy people is swallowing up and assimilating more and more the old class of administrative land-owning gentlemen in all their grades and degrees. the old upper class, as a functional member of the state, is being effaced. and i have also suggested that the old lower class, the broad necessary base of the social pyramid, the uneducated inadaptable peasants and labourers, is, with the development of toil-saving machinery, dwindling and crumbling down bit by bit towards the abyss. but side by side with these two processes is a third process of still profounder significance, and that is the reconstruction and the vast proliferation of what constituted the middle class of the old order. it is now, indeed, no longer a middle class at all. rather all the definite classes in the old scheme of functional precedence have melted and mingled,[ ] and in the molten mass there has appeared a vast intricate confusion of different sorts of people, some sailing about upon floating masses of irresponsible property, some buoyed by smaller fragments, some clinging desperately enough to insignificant atoms, a great and varied multitude swimming successfully without aid, or with an amount of aid that is negligible in relation to their own efforts, and an equally varied multitude of less capable ones clinging to the swimmers, clinging to the floating rich, or clutching empty-handed and thrust and sinking down. this is the typical aspect of the modern community. it will serve as a general description of either the united states or any western european state, and the day is not far distant when the extension of means of communication, and of the shareholding method of conducting affairs, will make it applicable to the whole world. save, possibly, in a few islands and inaccessible places and regardless of colour or creed, this process of deliquescence seems destined to spread. in a great diversity of tongues, in the phases of a number of conflicting moral and theological traditions, in the varying tones of contrasting racial temperaments, the grandchildren of black and white, and red and brown, will be seeking more or less consciously to express themselves in relation to these new and unusual social conditions. but the change itself is no longer amenable to their interpretations, the world-wide spreading of swift communication, the obliteration of town and country, the deliquescence of the local social order, have an air of being processes as uncontrollable by such collective intelligence as men can at present command, and as indifferent to his local peculiarities and prejudices as the movements of winds and tides.... it will be obvious that the interest of this speculation, at any rate, centres upon this great intermediate mass of people who are neither passively wealthy, the sleeping partners of change, nor helplessly thrust out of the process. indeed, from our point of view--an inquiry into coming things--these non-effective masses would have but the slightest interest were it not for their enormous possibilities of reaction upon the really living portion of the social organism. this really living portion seems at first sight to be as deliquescent in its nature, to be drifting down to as chaotic a structure as either the non-functional owners that float above it or the unemployed who sink below. what were once the definite subdivisions of the middle class modify and lose their boundaries. the retail tradesman of the towns, for example--once a fairly homogeneous class throughout europe--expands here into vast store companies, and dwindles there to be an agent or collector, seeks employment or topples outright into the abyss. but under a certain scrutiny one can detect here what we do not detect in our other two elements, and that is that, going on side by side with the processes of dissolution and frequently masked by these, there are other processes by which men, often of the most diverse parentage and antecedent traditions, are being segregated into a multitude of specific new groups which may presently develop very distinctive characters and ideals. there are, for example, the unorganized myriads that one can cover by the phrase "mechanics and engineers," if one uses it in its widest possible sense. at present it would be almost impossible to describe such a thing as a typical engineer, to predicate any universally applicable characteristic of the engineer and mechanic. the black-faced, oily man one figures emerging from the engine-room serves well enough, until one recalls the sanitary engineer with his additions of crockery and plumbing, the electrical engineer with his little tests and wires, the mining engineer, the railway maker, the motor builder, and the irrigation expert. even if we take some specific branch of all this huge mass of new employment the coming of mechanism has brought with it, we still find an undigested miscellany. consider the rude levy that is engaged in supplying and repairing the world's new need of bicycles! wheelwrights, watchmakers, blacksmiths, music-dealers, drapers, sewing-machine repairers, smart errand boys, ironmongers, individuals from all the older aspects of engineering, have been caught up by the new development, are all now, with a more or less inadequate knowledge and training, working in the new service. but is it likely that this will remain a rude levy? from all these varied people the world requires certain things, and a failure to obtain them involves, sooner or later, in this competitive creation, an individual replacement and a push towards the abyss. the very lowest of them must understand the machine they contribute to make and repair, and not only is it a fairly complex machine in itself, but it is found in several types and patterns, and so far it has altered, and promises still to alter, steadily, by improvements in this part and that. no limited stock-in-trade of knowledge, such as suffices for a joiner or an ostler, will serve. they must keep on mastering new points, new aspects, they must be intelligent and adaptable, they must get a grasp of that permanent something that lies behind the changing immediate practice. in other words, they will have to be educated rather than trained after the fashion of the old craftsman. just now this body of irregulars is threatened by the coming of the motors. the motors promise new difficulties, new rewards, and new competition. it is an ill look-out for the cycle mechanic who is not prepared to tackle the new problems that will arise. for all this next century this particular body of mechanics will be picking up new recruits and eliminating the incompetent and the rule-of-thumb sage. can it fail, as the years pass, to develop certain general characters, to become so far homogeneous as to be generally conscious of the need of a scientific education, at any rate in mechanical and chemical matters, and to possess, down to its very lowest ranks and orders, a common fund of intellectual training? but the makers and repairers of cycles, and that larger multitude that will presently be concerned with motors, are, after all, only a small and specialized section of the general body of mechanics and engineers. every year, with the advance of invention, new branches of activity, that change in their nature and methods all too rapidly for the establishment of rote and routine workers of the old type, call together fresh levies of amateurish workers and learners who must surely presently develop into, or give place to, bodies of qualified and capable men. and the point i would particularly insist upon here is, that throughout all its ranks and ramifications, from the organizing heads of great undertakings down to the assistant in the local repair shop, this new, great, and expanding body of mechanics and engineers will tend to become an educated and adaptable class in a sense that the craftsmen of former times were not educated and adaptable. just how high the scientific and practical education may rise in the central levels of this body is a matter for subsequent speculation, just how much initiative will be found in the lowest ranks depends upon many very complex considerations. but that here we have at least the possibility, the primary creative conditions of a new, numerous, intelligent, educated, and capable social element is, i think, a proposition with which the reader will agree. what are the chief obstacles in the way of the emergence, from out the present chaos, of this social element equipped, organized, educated, conscious of itself and of distinctive aims, in the next hundred years? in the first place there is the spirit of trade unionism, the conservative contagion of the old craftsmanship. trade unions arose under the tradition of the old order, when in every business, employer and employed stood in marked antagonism, stood as a special instance of the universal relationship of gentle or intelligent, who supplied no labour, and simple, who supplied nothing else. the interest of the employer was to get as much labour as possible out of his hirelings; the complementary object in life of the hireling, whose sole function was drudgery, who had no other prospect until death, was to give as little to his employer as possible. in order to keep the necessary labourer submissive, it was a matter of public policy to keep him uneducated and as near the condition of a beast of burden as possible, and in order to keep his life tolerable against that natural increase which all the moral institutions of his state promoted, the labourer--stimulated if his efforts slackened by the touch of absolute misery--was forced to devise elaborate rules for restricting the hours of toil, making its performance needlessly complex, and shirking with extreme ingenuity and conscientiousness. in the older trades, of which the building trade is foremost, these two traditions, reinforced by unimaginative building regulations, have practically arrested any advance whatever.[ ] there can be no doubt that this influence has spread into what are practically new branches of work. even where new conveniences have called for new types of workmen and have opened the way for the elevation of a group of labourers to the higher level of versatile educated men,[ ] the old traditions have to a very large extent prevailed. the average sanitary plumber of to-day in england insists upon his position as a mere labourer as though it were some precious thing, he guards himself from improvement as a virtuous woman guards her honour, he works for specifically limited hours and by the hour with specific limitations in the practice of his trade, on the fairly sound assumption that but for that restriction any fool might do plumbing as well as he; whatever he learns he learns from some other plumber during his apprenticeship years--after which he devotes himself to doing the minimum of work in the maximum of time until his brief excursion into this mysterious universe is over. so far from invention spurring him onward, every improvement in sanitary work in england, at least, is limited by the problem whether "the men" will understand it. a person ingenious enough to exceed this sacred limit might as well hang himself as trouble about the improvement of plumbing. if england stood alone, i do not see why each of the new mechanical and engineering industries, so soon as it develops sufficiently to have gathered together a body of workers capable of supporting a trade union secretary, should not begin to stagnate in the same manner. only england does not stand alone, and the building trade is so far not typical, inasmuch as it possesses a national monopoly that the most elaborate system of protection cannot secure any other group of trades. one must have one's house built where one has to live, the importation of workmen in small bodies is difficult and dear, and if one cannot have the house one wishes, one must needs have the least offensive substitute; but bicycle and motor, iron-work and furniture, engines, rails, and ships one can import. the community, therefore, that does least to educate its mechanics and engineers out of the base and servile tradition of the old idea of industry will in the coming years of progress simply get a disproportionate share of the rejected element, the trade will go elsewhere, and the community will be left in possession of an exceptionally large contingent for the abyss. at present, however, i am dealing not with the specific community, but with the generalized civilized community of a.d. --we disregard the fate of states and empires for a time--and, for that emergent community, wherever it may be, it seems reasonable to anticipate, replacing and enormously larger and more important than the classes of common workmen and mechanics of to-day, a large fairly homogeneous body--big men and little men, indeed, but with no dividing lines--of more or less expert mechanics and engineers, with a certain common minimum of education and intelligence, and probably a common-class consciousness--a new body, a new force, in the world's history. for this body to exist implies the existence of much more than the primary and initiating nucleus of engineers and skilled mechanics. if it is an educated class, its existence implies a class of educators, and just as far as it does get educated the schoolmasters will be skilled and educated men. the shabby-genteel middle-class schoolmaster of the england of to-day, in--or a little way out of--orders, with his smattering of greek, his latin that leads nowhere, his fatuous mathematics, his gross ignorance of pedagogics, and his incomparable snobbishness, certainly does not represent the schoolmaster of this coming class. moreover, the new element will necessarily embody its collective, necessarily distinctive, and unprecedented thoughts in a literature of its own, its development means the development of a new sort of writer and of new elements in the press. and since, if it does emerge, a revolution in the common schools of the community will be a necessary part of the process, then its emergence will involve a revolutionary change in the condition of classes that might otherwise remain as they are now--the older craftsman, for example. the process of attraction will not end even there; the development of more and more scientific engineering and of really adaptable operatives will render possible agricultural contrivances that are now only dreams, and the diffusion of this new class over the country side--assuming the reasoning in my second chapter to be sound--will bring the lever of the improved schools under the agriculturist. the practically autonomous farm of the old epoch will probably be replaced by a great variety of types of cultivation, each with its labour-saving equipment. in this, as in most things, the future spells variation. the practical abolition of impossible distances over the world will tend to make every district specialize in the production for which it is best fitted, and to develop that production with an elaborate precision and economy. the chief opposing force to this tendency will be found in those countries where the tenure of the land is in small holdings. a population of small agriculturists that has really got itself well established is probably as hopelessly immovable a thing as the forces of progressive change will have to encounter. the arcadian healthiness and simplicity of the small holder, and the usefulness of little hands about him, naturally results in his keeping the population on his plot up to the limit of bare subsistence. he avoids over-education, and his beasts live with him and his children in a natural kindly manner. he will have no idlers, and even grand-mamma goes weeding. his nett produce is less than the production of the larger methods, but his gross is greater, and usually it is mortgaged more or less. along the selvage of many of the new roads we have foretold, his hens will peck and his children beg, far into the coming decades. this simple, virtuous, open-air life is to be found ripening in the north of france and belgium, it culminated in ireland in the famine years, it has held its own in china--with a use of female infanticide--for immemorable ages, and a number of excellent persons are endeavouring to establish it in england at the present time. at the cape of good hope, under british rule, kaffirs are being settled upon little inalienable holdings that must inevitably develop in the same direction, and over the southern states the nigger squats and multiplies. it is fairly certain that these stagnant ponds of population, which will grow until public intelligence rises to the pitch of draining them, will on a greater scale parallel in the twentieth century the soon-to-be-dispersed urban slums of the nineteenth. but i do not see how they can obstruct, more than locally, the reorganization of agriculture and horticulture upon the ampler and more economical lines mechanism permits, or prevent the development of a type of agriculturist as adaptable, alert, intelligent, unprejudiced, and modest as the coming engineer. another great section of the community, the military element, will also fall within the attraction of this possible synthesis, and will inevitably undergo profound modification. of the probable development of warfare a later chapter shall treat, and here it will suffice to point out that at present science stands proffering the soldier vague, vast possibilities of mechanism, and, so far, he has accepted practically nothing but rifles which he cannot sight and guns that he does not learn to move about. it is quite possible the sailor would be in the like case, but for the exceptional conditions that begot ironclads in the american civil war. science offers the soldier transport that he does not use, maps he does not use, entrenching devices, road-making devices, balloons and flying scouts, portable foods, security from disease, a thousand ways of organizing the horrible uncertainties of war. but the soldier of to-day--i do not mean the british soldier only--still insists on regarding these revolutionary appliances as mere accessories, and untrustworthy ones at that, to the time-honoured practice of his art. he guards his technical innocence like a plumber. every european army is organized on the lines of the once fundamental distinction of the horse and foot epoch, in deference to the contrast of gentle and simple. there is the officer, with all the traditions of old nobility, and the men still, by a hundred implications, mere sources of mechanical force, and fundamentally base. the british army, for example, still cherishes the tradition that its privates are absolutely illiterate, and such small instruction as is given them in the art of war is imparted by bawling and enforced by abuse upon public drill grounds. almost all discussion of military matters still turns upon the now quite stupid assumption that there are two primary military arms and no more, horse and foot. "cyclists are infantry," the war office manual of gallantly declares in the face of this changing universe. after fifty years of railways, there still does not exist, in a world which is said to be over devoted to military affairs, a skilled and organized body of men, specially prepared to seize, repair, reconstruct, work, and fight such an important element in the new social machinery as a railway system. such a business, in the next european war, will be hastily entrusted to some haphazard incapables drafted from one or other of the two prehistoric arms.... i do not see how this condition of affairs can be anything but transitory. there may be several wars between european powers, prepared and organized to accept the old conventions, bloody, vast, distressful encounters that may still leave the art of war essentially unmodified, but sooner or later--it may be in the improvised struggle that follows the collapse of some one of these huge, witless, fighting forces--the new sort of soldier will emerge, a sober, considerate, engineering man--no more of a gentleman than the man subordinated to him or any other self-respecting person.... certain interesting side questions i may glance at here, only for the present, at least, to set them aside unanswered, the reaction, for example, of this probable development of a great mass of educated and intelligent efficients upon the status and quality of the medical profession, and the influence of its novel needs in either modifying the existing legal body or calling into being a parallel body of more expert and versatile guides and assistants in business operations. but from the mention of this latter section one comes to another possible centre of aggregation in the social welter. opposed in many of their most essential conditions to the capable men who are of primary importance in the social body, is the great and growing variety of non-productive but active men who are engaged in more or less necessary operations of organization, promotion, advertisement, and trade. there are the business managers, public and private, the political organizers, brokers, commission agents, the varying grades of financier down to the mere greedy camp followers of finance, the gamblers pure and simple, and the great body of their dependent clerks, typewriters, and assistants. all this multitude will have this much in common, that it will be dealing, not with the primary inexorable logic of natural laws, but with the shifting, uncertain prejudices and emotions of the general mass of people. it will be wary and cunning rather than deliberate and intelligent, smart rather than prompt, considering always the appearance and effect before the reality and possibilities of things. it will probably tend to form a culture about the political and financial operator as its ideal and central type, opposed to, and conflicting with, the forces of attraction that will tend to group the new social masses about the scientific engineer.[ ]... here, then (in the vision of the present writer), are the main social elements of the coming time: (i.) the element of irresponsible property; (ii.) the helpless superseded poor, that broad base of mere toilers now no longer essential; (iii.) a great inchoate mass of more or less capable people engaged more or less consciously in applying the growing body of scientific knowledge to the general needs, a great mass that will inevitably tend to organize itself in a system of interdependent educated classes with a common consciousness and aim, but which may or may not succeed in doing so; and (iv.) a possibly equally great number of non-productive persons living in and by the social confusion. all these elements will be mingled confusedly together, passing into one another by insensible gradations, scattered over the great urban regions and intervening areas our previous anticipations have sketched out. moreover, they are developing, as it were unconsciously, under the stimulus of mechanical developments, and with the bandages of old tradition hampering their movements. the laws they obey, the governments they live under, are for the most part laws made and governments planned before the coming of steam. the areas of administration are still areas marked out by conditions of locomotion as obsolete as the quadrupedal method of the pre-arboreal ancestor. in great britain, for example, the political constitution, the balance of estates and the balance of parties, preserves the compromise of long-vanished antagonisms. the house of lords is a collection of obsolete territorial dignitaries fitfully reinforced by the bishops and a miscellany (in no sense representative) of opulent moderns; the house of commons is the seat of a party conflict, a faction fight of initiated persons, that has long ceased to bear any real relation to current social processes. the members of the lower chamber are selected by obscure party machines operating upon constituencies almost all of which have long since become too vast and heterogeneous to possess any collective intelligence or purpose at all. in theory the house of commons guards the interests of classes that are, in fact, rapidly disintegrating into a number of quite antagonistic and conflicting elements. the new mass of capable men, of which the engineers are typical, these capable men who must necessarily be the active principle of the new mechanically equipped social body, finds no representation save by accident in either assembly. the man who has concerned himself with the public health, with army organization, with educational improvement, or with the vital matters of transport and communication, if he enter the official councils of the kingdom at all, must enter ostensibly as the guardian of the interests of the free and independent electors of a specific district that has long ceased to have any sort of specific interests at all.[ ]... and the same obsolescence that is so conspicuous in the general institutions of the official kingdom of england, and that even english people can remark in the official empire of china, is to be traced in a greater or lesser degree in the nominal organization and public tradition throughout the whole world. the united states, for example, the social mass which has perhaps advanced furthest along the new lines, struggles in the iron bonds of a constitution that is based primarily on a conception of a number of comparatively small, internally homogeneous, agricultural states, a bunch of pre-johannesburg transvaals, communicating little, and each constituting a separate autonomous democracy of free farmers--slaveholding or slaveless. every country in the world, indeed, that is organized at all, has been organized with a view to stability within territorial limits; no country has been organized with any foresight of development and inevitable change, or with the slightest reference to the practical revolution in topography that the new means of transit involve. and since this is so, and since humanity is most assuredly embarked upon a series of changes of which we know as yet only the opening phases, a large part of the history of the coming years will certainly record more or less conscious endeavours to adapt these obsolete and obsolescent contrivances for the management of public affairs to the new and continually expanding and changing requirements of the social body, to correct or overcome the traditions that were once wisdom and which are now obstruction, and to burst the straining boundaries that were sufficient for the ancient states. there are here no signs of a millennium. internal reconstruction, while men are still limited, egotistical, passionate, ignorant, and ignorantly led, means seditions and revolutions, and the rectification of frontiers means wars. but before we go on to these conflicts and wars certain general social reactions must be considered. footnotes: [ ] even the characteristic conditions of writing books, that least mechanical of pursuits, have been profoundly affected by the typewriter. [ ] to these two primary classes the more complicated societies have added others. there is the priest, almost always in the social order of the pre-railway period, an integral part, a functional organ of the social body, and there are the lawyer and the physician. and in the towns--constituting, indeed, the towns--there appear, as an outgrowth of the toiling class, a little emancipated from the gentleman's direct control, the craftsman, the merchant, and the trading sailor, essentially accessory classes, producers of, and dealers in, the accessories of life, and mitigating and clouding only very slightly that broad duality. [ ] slight, that is, in comparison with nineteenth-century changes. [ ] it included, one remembers, schopenhauer, but, as he remarked upon occasion, not hegel. [ ] a very important factor in this mitigation, a factor over which the humanely minded cannot too greatly rejoice, will be the philanthropic amusements of the irresponsible wealthy. there is a growing class of energetic people--organizers, secretaries, preachers--who cater to the philanthropic instinct, and who are, for all practical purposes, employing a large and increasing section of suitable helpless people, in supplying to their customers, by means of religious acquiescence and light moral reforms, that sense of well-doing which is one of the least objectionable of the functionless pleasures of life. the attempts to reinstate these failures by means of subsidized industries will, in the end, of course, merely serve to throw out of employment other just subsisting strugglers; it will probably make little or no difference in the nett result of the process. [ ] i reserve any consideration of the special case of the "priest." [ ] i find it incredible that there will not be a sweeping revolution in the methods of building during the next century. the erection of a house-wall, come to think of it, is an astonishingly tedious and complex business; the final result exceedingly unsatisfactory. it has been my lot recently to follow in detail the process of building a private dwelling-house, and the solemn succession of deliberate, respectable, perfectly satisfied men, who have contributed each so many days of his life to this accumulation of weak compromises, has enormously intensified my constitutional amazement at my fellow-creatures. the chief ingredient in this particular house-wall is the common brick, burnt earth, and but one step from the handfuls of clay of the ancestral mud hut, small in size and permeable to damp. slowly, day by day, the walls grew tediously up, to a melody of tinkling trowels. these bricks are joined by mortar, which is mixed in small quantities, and must vary very greatly in its quality and properties throughout the house. in order to prevent the obvious evils of a wall of porous and irregular baked clay and lime mud, a damp course of tarred felt, which cannot possibly last more than a few years, was inserted about a foot from the ground. then the wall, being quite insufficient to stand the heavy drift of weather to which it is exposed, was dabbled over with two coatings of plaster on the outside, the outermost being given a primitive picturesqueness by means of a sham surface of rough-cast pebbles and white-wash, while within, to conceal the rough discomfort of the surface, successive coatings of plaster, and finally, paper, were added, with a wood-skirting at the foot thrice painted. everything in this was hand work, the laying of the bricks, the dabbing of the plaster, the smoothing of the paper; it is a house built of hands--and some i saw were bleeding hands--just as in the days of the pyramids, when the only engines were living men. the whole confection is now undergoing incalculable chemical reactions between its several parts. lime, mortar, and microscopical organisms are producing undesigned chromatic effects in the paper and plaster; the plaster, having methods of expansion and contraction of its own, crinkles and cracks; the skirting, having absorbed moisture and now drying again, opens its joints; the rough-cast coquettes with the frost and opens chinks and crannies for the humbler creation. i fail to see the necessity of (and, accordingly, i resent bitterly) all these coral-reef methods. better walls than this, and better and less life-wasting ways of making them, are surely possible. in the wall in question, concrete would have been cheaper and better than bricks if only "the men" had understood it. but i can dream at last of much more revolutionary affairs, of a thing running to and fro along a temporary rail, that will squeeze out wall as one squeezes paint from a tube, and form its surface with a pat or two as it sets. moreover, i do not see at all why the walls of small dwelling-houses should be so solid as they are. there still hangs about us the monumental traditions of the pyramids. it ought to be possible to build sound, portable, and habitable houses of felted wire-netting and weather-proofed paper upon a light framework. this sort of thing is, no doubt, abominably ugly at present, but that is because architects and designers, being for the most part inordinately cultured and quite uneducated, are unable to cope with its fundamentally novel problems. a few energetic men might at any time set out to alter all this. and with the inevitable revolutions that must come about in domestic fittings, and which i hope to discuss more fully in the next paper, it is open to question whether many ground landlords may not find they have work for the house-breakers rather than wealth unlimited falling into their hands when the building leases their solicitors so ingeniously draw up do at last expire. [ ] the new aspects of building, for example, that have been brought about by the entrance of water and gas into the house, and the application of water to sanitation. [ ] the future of the servant class and the future of the artist are two interesting questions that will be most conveniently mentioned at a later stage, when we come to discuss the domestic life in greater detail than is possible before we have formed any clear notion of the sort of people who will lead that life. [ ] even the physical conditions under which the house of commons meets and plays at government, are ridiculously obsolete. every disputable point is settled by a division, a bell rings, there is shouting and running, the members come blundering into the chamber and sort themselves with much loutish shuffling and shoving into the division lobbies. they are counted, as illiterate farmers count sheep; amidst much fuss and confusion they return to their places, and the tellers vociferate the result. the waste of time over these antics is enormous, and they are often repeated many times in an evening. for the lack of time, the house of commons is unable to perform the most urgent and necessary legislative duties--it has this year hung up a cryingly necessary education bill, a delay that will in the end cost great britain millions--but not a soul in it has had the necessary common sense to point out that an electrician and an expert locksmith could in a few weeks, and for a few hundred pounds, devise and construct a member's desk and key, committee-room tapes and voting-desks, and a general recording apparatus, that would enable every member within the precincts to vote, and that would count, record, and report the votes within the space of a couple of minutes. iv certain social reactions we are now in a position to point out and consider certain general ways in which the various factors and elements in the deliquescent society of the present time will react one upon another, and to speculate what definite statements, if any, it may seem reasonable to make about the individual people of the year --or thereabouts--from the reaction of these classes we have attempted to define. to begin with, it may prove convenient to speculate upon the trend of development of that class about which we have the most grounds for certainty in the coming time. the shareholding class, the rout of the abyss, the speculator, may develop in countless ways according to the varying development of exterior influences upon them, but of the most typical portion of the central body, the section containing the scientific engineering or scientific medical sort of people, we can postulate certain tendencies with some confidence. certain ways of thought they must develop, certain habits of mind and eye they will radiate out into the adjacent portions of the social mass. we can even, i think, deduce some conception of the home in which a fairly typical example of this body will be living within a reasonable term of years. the mere fact that a man is an engineer or a doctor, for example, should imply now, and certainly will imply in the future, that he has received an education of a certain definite type; he will have a general acquaintance with the scientific interpretation of the universe, and he will have acquired certain positive and practical habits of mind. if the methods of thought of any individual in this central body are not practical and positive, he will tend to drift out of it to some more congenial employment. he will almost necessarily have a strong imperative to duty quite apart from whatever theological opinions he may entertain, because if he has not such an inherent imperative, life will have very many more alluring prospects than this. his religious conclusions, whatever they may be, will be based upon some orderly theological system that must have honestly admitted and reconciled his scientific beliefs; the emotional and mystical elements in his religion will be subordinate or absent. essentially he will be a moral man, certainly so far as to exercise self-restraint and live in an ordered way. unless this is so, he will be unable to give his principal energies to thought and work--that is, he will not be a good typical engineer. if sensuality appear at all largely in this central body, therefore,--a point we must leave open here--it will appear without any trappings of sentiment or mysticism, frankly on pauline lines, wine for the stomach's sake, and it is better to marry than to burn, a concession to the flesh necessary to secure efficiency. assuming in our typical case that pure indulgence does not appear or flares and passes, then either he will be single or more or less married. the import of that "more or less" will be discussed later, for the present we may very conveniently conceive him married under the traditional laws of christendom. having a mind considerably engaged, he will not have the leisure for a wife of the distracting, perplexing personality kind, and in our typical case, which will be a typically sound and successful one, we may picture him wedded to a healthy, intelligent, and loyal person, who will be her husband's companion in their common leisure, and as mother of their three or four children and manager of his household, as much of a technically capable individual as himself. he will be a father of several children, i think, because his scientific mental basis will incline him to see the whole of life as a struggle to survive; he will recognize that a childless, sterile life, however pleasant, is essentially failure and perversion, and he will conceive his honour involved in the possession of offspring. such a couple will probably dress with a view to decent convenience, they will not set the fashions, as i shall presently point out, but they will incline to steady and sober them, they will avoid exciting colour contrasts and bizarre contours. they will not be habitually promenaders, or greatly addicted to theatrical performances; they will probably find their secondary interests--the cardinal one will of course be the work in hand--in a not too imaginative prose literature, in travel and journeys and in the less sensuous aspects of music. they will probably take a considerable interest in public affairs. their _ménage_, which will consist of father, mother, and children, will, i think, in all probability, be servantless. they will probably not keep a servant for two very excellent reasons, because in the first place they will not want one, and in the second they will not get one if they do. a servant is necessary in the small, modern house, partly to supplement the deficiencies of the wife, but mainly to supplement the deficiencies of the house. she comes to cook and perform various skilled duties that the wife lacks either knowledge or training, or both, to perform regularly and expeditiously. usually it must be confessed that the servant in the small household fails to perform these skilled duties completely. but the great proportion of the servant's duties consists merely in drudgery that the stupidities of our present-day method of house construction entail, and which the more sanely constructed house of the future will avoid. consider, for instance, the wanton disregard of avoidable toil displayed in building houses with a service basement without lifts! then most dusting and sweeping would be quite avoidable if houses were wiselier done. it is the lack of proper warming appliances which necessitates a vast amount of coal carrying and dirt distribution, and it is this dirt mainly that has so painfully to be removed again. the house of the future will probably be warmed in its walls from some power-generating station, as, indeed, already very many houses are lit at the present day. the lack of sane methods of ventilation also enhances the general dirtiness and dustiness of the present-day home, and gas-lighting and the use of tarnishable metals, wherever possible, involve further labour. but air will enter the house of the future through proper tubes in the walls, which will warm it and capture its dust, and it will be spun out again by a simple mechanism. and by simple devices such sweeping as still remains necessary can be enormously lightened. the fact that in existing homes the skirting meets the floor at right angles makes sweeping about twice as troublesome as it will be when people have the sense and ability to round off the angle between wall and floor. so one great lump of the servant's toil will practically disappear. two others are already disappearing. in many houses there are still the offensive duties of filling lamps and blacking boots to be done. our coming house, however, will have no lamps to need filling, and, as for the boots, really intelligent people will feel the essential ugliness of wearing the evidence of constant manual toil upon their persons. they will wear sorts of shoes and boots that can be cleaned by wiping in a minute or so. take now the bedroom work. the lack of ingenuity in sanitary fittings at present forbids the obvious convenience of hot and cold water supply to the bedroom, and there is a mighty fetching and carrying of water and slops to be got through daily. all that will cease. every bedroom will have its own bath-dressing room which any well-bred person will be intelligent and considerate enough to use and leave without the slightest disarrangement. this, so far as "upstairs" goes, really only leaves bedmaking to be done, and a bed does not take five minutes to make. downstairs a vast amount of needless labour at present arises out of table wear. "washing up" consists of a tedious cleansing and wiping of each table utensil in turn, whereas it should be possible to immerse all dirty table wear in a suitable solvent for a few minutes and then run that off for the articles to dry. the application of solvents to window cleaning, also, would be a possible thing but for the primitive construction of our windows, which prevents anything but a painful rub, rub, rub, with the leather. a friend of mine in domestic service tells me that this rubbing is to get the window dry, and this seems to be the general impression, but i think it incorrect. the water is not an adequate solvent, and enough cannot be used under existing conditions. consequently, if the window is cleaned and left wet, it dries in drops, and these drops contain dirt in solution which remain as spots. but water containing a suitable solvent could quite simply be made to run down a window for a few minutes from pinholes in a pipe above into a groove below, and this could be followed by pure rain water for an equal time, and in this way the whole window cleaning in the house could, i imagine, be reduced to the business of turning on a tap. there remains the cooking. to-day cooking, with its incidentals, is a very serious business; the coaling, the ashes, the horrible moments of heat, the hot black things to handle, the silly vague recipes, the want of neat apparatus, and the want of intelligence to demand or use neat apparatus. one always imagines a cook working with a crimsoned face and bare blackened arms. but with a neat little range, heated by electricity and provided with thermometers, with absolutely controllable temperatures and proper heat screens, cooking might very easily be made a pleasant amusement for intelligent invalid ladies. which reminds one, by-the-by, as an added detail to our previous sketch of the scenery of the days to come, that there will be no chimneys at all to the house of the future of this type, except the flue for the kitchen smells.[ ] this will not only abolish the chimney stack, but make the roof a clean and pleasant addition to the garden spaces of the home. i do not know how long all these things will take to arrive. the erection of a series of experimental labour-saving houses by some philanthropic person, for exhibition and discussion, would certainly bring about a very extraordinary advance in domestic comfort even in the immediate future, but the fashions in philanthropy do not trend in such practical directions; if they did, the philanthropic person would probably be too amenable to flattery to escape the pushful patentee and too sensitive to avail himself of criticism (which rarely succeeds in being both penetrating and polite), and it will probably be many years before the cautious enterprise of advertising firms approximates to the economies that are theoretically possible to-day. but certainly the engineering and medical sorts of person will be best able to appreciate the possibilities of cutting down the irksome labours of the contemporary home, and most likely to first demand and secure them. the wife of this ideal home may probably have a certain distaste for vicarious labour, that so far as the immediate minimum of duties goes will probably carry her through them. there will be few servants obtainable for the small homes of the future, and that may strengthen her sentiments. hardly any woman seems to object to a system of things which provides that another woman should be made rough-handed and kept rough-minded for her sake, but with the enormous diffusion of levelling information that is going on, a perfectly valid objection will probably come from the other side in this transaction. the servants of the past and the only good servants of to-day are the children of servants or the children of the old labour base of the social pyramid, until recently a necessary and self-respecting element in the state. machinery has smashed that base and scattered its fragments; the tradition of self-respecting inferiority is being utterly destroyed in the world. the contingents of the abyss, even, will not supply daughters for this purpose. in the community of the united states no native-born race of white servants has appeared, and the emancipated young negress degenerates towards the impossible--which is one of the many stimulants to small ingenuities that may help very powerfully to give that nation the industrial leadership of the world. the servant of the future, if indeed she should still linger in the small household, will be a person alive to a social injustice and the unsuccessful rival of the wife. such servants as wealth will retain will be about as really loyal and servile as hotel waiters, and on the same terms. for the middling sort of people in the future maintaining a separate _ménage_ there is nothing for it but the practically automatic house or flat, supplemented, perhaps, by the restaurant or the hotel. almost certainly, for reasons detailed in the second chapter of these anticipations, this household, if it is an ideal type, will be situated away from the central "town" nucleus and in pleasant surroundings. and i imagine that the sort of woman who would be mother and mistress of such a home would not be perfectly content unless there were a garden about the house. on account of the servant difficulty, again, this garden would probably be less laboriously neat than many of our gardens to-day--no "bedding-out," for example, and a certain parsimony of mown lawn.... to such a type of home it seems the active, scientifically trained people will tend. but usually, i think, the prophet is inclined to over estimate the number of people who will reach this condition of affairs in a generation or so, and to under estimate the conflicting tendencies that will make its attainment difficult to all, and impossible to many, and that will for many years tint and blotch the achievement of those who succeed with patches of unsympathetic colour. to understand just how modifications may come in, it is necessary to consider the probable line of development of another of the four main elements in the social body of the coming time. as a consequence and visible expression of the great new growth of share and stock property there will be scattered through the whole social body, concentrated here perhaps, and diffused there, but everywhere perceived, the members of that new class of the irresponsible wealthy, a class, as i have already pointed out in the preceding chapter, miscellaneous and free to a degree quite unprecedented in the world's history. quite inevitably great sections of this miscellany will develop characteristics almost diametrically opposed to those of the typical working expert class, and their gravitational attraction may influence the lives of this more efficient, finally more powerful, but at present much less wealthy, class to a very considerable degree of intimacy. the rich shareholder and the skilled expert must necessarily be sharply contrasted types, and of the two it must be borne in mind that it is the rich shareholder who spends the money. while occupation and skill incline one towards severity and economy, leisure and unlimited means involve relaxation and demand the adventitious interest of decoration. the shareholder will be the decorative influence in the state. so far as there will be a typical shareholder's house, we may hazard that it will have rich colours, elaborate hangings, stained glass adornments, and added interests in great abundance. this "leisure class" will certainly employ the greater proportion of the artists, decorators, fabric makers, and the like, of the coming time. it will dominate the world of art--and we may say, with some confidence, that it will influence it in certain directions. for example, standing apart from the movement of the world, as they will do to a very large extent, the archaic, opulently done, will appeal irresistibly to very many of these irresponsible rich as the very quintessence of art. they will come to art with uncritical, cultured minds, full of past achievements, ignorant of present necessities. art will be something added to life--something stuck on and richly reminiscent--not a manner pervading all real things. we may be pretty sure that very few will grasp the fact that an iron bridge or a railway engine may be artistically done--these will not be "art" objects, but hostile novelties. and, on the other hand, we can pretty confidently foretell a spacious future and much amplification for that turgid, costly, and deliberately anti-contemporary group of styles of which william morris and his associates have been the fortunate pioneers. and the same principles will apply to costume. a non-functional class of people cannot have a functional costume, the whole scheme of costume, as it will be worn by the wealthy classes in the coming years, will necessarily be of that character which is called fancy dress. few people will trouble to discover the most convenient forms and materials, and endeavour to simplify them and reduce them to beautiful forms, while endless enterprising tradesmen will be alert for a perpetual succession of striking novelties. the women will ransack the ages for becoming and alluring anachronisms, the men will appear in the elaborate uniforms of "games," in modifications of "court" dress, in picturesque revivals of national costumes, in epidemic fashions of the most astonishing sort.... now, these people, so far as they are spenders of money, and so far as he is a spender of money, will stand to this ideal engineering sort of person, who is the vitally important citizen of a progressive scientific state, in a competitive relation. in most cases, whenever there is something that both want, one against the other, the shareholder will get it; in most cases, where it is a matter of calling the tune, the shareholder will call the tune. for example, the young architect, conscious of exceptional ability, will have more or less clearly before him the alternatives of devoting himself to the novel, intricate, and difficult business of designing cheap, simple, and mechanically convenient homes for people who will certainly not be highly remunerative, and will probably be rather acutely critical, or of perfecting himself in some period of romantic architecture, or striking out some startling and attractive novelty of manner or material which will be certain, sooner or later, to meet its congenial shareholder. even if he hover for a time between these alternatives, he will need to be a person not only of exceptional gifts, but what is by no means a common accompaniment of exceptional gifts, exceptional strength of character, to take the former line. consequently, for many years yet, most of the experimental buildings and novel designs, that initiate discussion and develop the general taste, will be done primarily to please the more originative shareholders and not to satisfy the demands of our engineer or doctor; and the strictly commercial builders, who will cater for all but the wealthiest engineers, scientific investigators, and business men, being unable to afford specific designs, will--amidst the disregarded curses of these more intelligent customers--still simply reproduce in a cheaper and mutilated form such examples as happen to be set. practically, that is to say, the shareholder will buy up almost all the available architectural talent. this modifies our conception of the outer appearance of that little house we imagined. unless it happens to be the house of an exceptionally prosperous member of the utilitarian professions, it will lack something of the neat directness implicit in our description, something of that inevitable beauty that arises out of the perfect attainment of ends--for very many years, at any rate. it will almost certainly be tinted, it may even be saturated, with the secondhand archaic. the owner may object, but a busy man cannot stop his life work to teach architects what they ought to know. it may be heated electrically, but it will have sham chimneys, in whose darkness, unless they are built solid, dust and filth will gather, and luckless birds and insects pass horrible last hours of ineffectual struggle. it may have automatic window-cleaning arrangements, but they will be hidden by "picturesque" mullions. the sham chimneys will, perhaps, be made to smoke genially in winter by some ingenious contrivance, there may be sham open fireplaces within, with ingle nooks about the sham glowing logs. the needlessly steep roofs will have a sham sag and sham timbered gables, and probably forced lichens will give it a sham appearance of age. just that feeble-minded contemporary shirking of the truth of things that has given the world such stockbroker in armour affairs as the tower bridge and historical romance, will, i fear, worry the lucid mind in a great multitude of the homes that the opening half, at least, of this century will produce. in quite a similar way the shareholding body will buy up all the clever and more enterprising makers and designers of clothing and adornment, he will set the fashion of almost all ornament, in bookbinding and printing and painting, for example, furnishing, and indeed of almost all things that are not primarily produced "for the million," as the phrase goes. and where that sort of thing comes in, then, so far as the trained and intelligent type of man goes, for many years yet it will be simply a case of the nether instead of the upper millstone. just how far the influence and contagion of the shareholding mass will reach into this imaginary household of non-shareholding efficients, and just how far the influence of science and mechanism will penetrate the minds and methods of the rich, becomes really one of the most important questions with which these speculations will deal. for this argument that he will perhaps be able to buy up the architect and the tailor and the decorator and so forth is merely preliminary to the graver issue. it is just possible that the shareholder may, to a very large extent--in a certain figurative sense, at least--buy up much of the womankind that would otherwise be available to constitute those severe, capable, and probably by no means unhappy little establishments to which our typical engineers will tend, and so prevent many women from becoming mothers of a regenerating world. the huge secretion of irresponsible wealth by the social organism is certain to affect the tone of thought of the entire feminine sex profoundly--the exact nature of this influence we may now consider. the gist of this inquiry lies in the fact that, while a man's starting position in this world of to-day is entirely determined by the conditions of his birth and early training, and his final position the slow elaborate outcome of his own sustained efforts to live, a woman, from the age of sixteen onward--as the world goes now--is essentially adventurous, the creature of circumstances largely beyond her control and foresight. a virile man, though he, too, is subject to accidents, may, upon most points, still hope to plan and determine his life; the life of a woman is all accident. normally she lives in relation to some specific man, and until that man is indicated her preparation for life must be of the most tentative sort. she lives, going nowhere, like a cabman on the crawl, and at any time she may find it open to her to assist some pleasure-loving millionaire to spend his millions, or to play her part in one of the many real, original, and only derivatives of the former aristocratic "society" that have developed themselves among independent people. even if she is a serious and labour-loving type, some shareholder may tempt her with the prospect of developing her exceptional personality in ease and freedom and in "doing good" with his money. with the continued growth of the shareholding class, the brighter-looking matrimonial chances, not to speak of the glittering opportunities that are not matrimonial, will increase. reading is now the privilege of all classes, there are few secrets of etiquette that a clever lower-class girl will fail to learn, there are few such girls, even now, who are not aware of their wide opportunities, or at least their wide possibilities, of luxury and freedom, there are still fewer who, knowing as much, do not let it affect their standards and conception of life. the whole mass of modern fiction written by women for women, indeed, down to the cheapest novelettes, is saturated with the romance of _mésalliance_. and even when the specific man has appeared, the adventurous is still not shut out of a woman's career. a man's affections may wander capriciously and leave him but a little poorer or a little better placed; for the women they wander from, however, the issue is an infinitely graver one, and the serious wandering of a woman's fancy may mean the beginning of a new world for her. at any moment the chances of death may make the wife a widow, may sweep out of existence all that she had made fundamental in her life, may enrich her with insurance profits or hurl her into poverty, and restore all the drifting expectancy of her adolescence.... now, it is difficult to say why we should expect the growing girl, in whom an unlimited ambition and egotism is as natural and proper a thing as beauty and high spirits, to deny herself some dalliance with the more opulent dreams that form the golden lining to these precarious prospects? how can we expect her to prepare herself solely, putting all wandering thoughts aside, for the servantless cookery, domestic kindergarten work, the care of hardy perennials, and low-pitched conversation of the engineer's home? supposing, after all, there is no predestinate engineer! the stories the growing girl now prefers, and i imagine will in the future still prefer, deal mainly with the rich and free; the theatre she will prefer to visit will present the lives and loves of opulent people with great precision and detailed correctness; her favourite periodicals will reflect that life; her schoolmistress, whatever her principles, must have an eye to her "chances." and even after fate or a gust of passion has whirled her into the arms of our busy and capable fundamental man, all these things will still be in her imagination and memory. unless he is a person of extraordinary mental prepotency, she will almost insensibly determine the character of the home in a direction quite other than that of our first sketch. she will set herself to realize, as far as her husband's means and credit permit, the ideas of the particular section of the wealthy that have captured her. if she is a fool, her ideas of life will presently come into complete conflict with her husband's in a manner that, as the fumes of the love potion leave his brain, may bring the real nature of the case home to him. if he is of that resolute strain to whom the world must finally come, he may rebel and wade through tears and crises to his appointed work again. the cleverer she is, and the finer and more loyal her character up to a certain point, the less likely this is to happen, the more subtle and effective will be her hold upon her husband, and the more probable his perversion from the austere pursuit of some interesting employment, towards the adventures of modern money-getting in pursuit of her ideals of a befitting life. and meanwhile, since "one must live," the nursery that was implicit in the background of the first picture will probably prove unnecessary. she will be, perforce, a person not only of pleasant pursuits, but of leisure. if she endears herself to her husband, he will feel not only the attraction but the duty of her vacant hours; he will not only deflect his working hours from the effective to the profitable, but that occasional burning of the midnight oil, that no brain-worker may forego if he is to retain his efficiency, will, in the interests of some attractive theatrical performance or some agreeable social occasion, all too frequently have to be put off or abandoned. this line of speculation, therefore, gives us a second picture of a household to put beside our first, a household, or rather a couple, rather more likely to be typical of the mass of middling sort of people in those urban regions of the future than our first projection. it will probably not live in a separate home at all, but in a flat in "town," or at one of the subordinate centres of the urban region we have foreseen. the apartments will be more or less agreeably adorned in some decorative fashion akin to but less costly than some of the many fashions that will obtain among the wealthy. they will be littered with a miscellaneous literature, novels of an entertaining and stimulating sort predominating, and with _bric-à-brac_; in a childless household there must certainly be quaint dolls, pet images, and so forth, and perhaps a canary would find a place. i suspect there would be an edition or so of "omar" about in this more typical household of "moderns," but i doubt about the bible. the man's working books would probably be shabby and relegated to a small study, and even these overlaid by abundant copies of the _financial_--something or other. it would still be a servantless household, and probably not only without a nursery but without a kitchen, and in its grade and degree it would probably have social relations directly or intermediately through rich friends with some section, some one of the numerous cults of the quite independent wealthy. quite similar households to this would be even more common among those neither independent nor engaged in work of a primarily functional nature, but endeavouring quite ostensibly to acquire wealth by political or business ingenuity and activity, and also among the great multitude of artists, writers, and that sort of people, whose works are their children. in comparison with the state of affairs fifty years ago, the child-infested household is already conspicuously rare in these classes. these are two highly probably _ménages_ among the central mass of the people of the coming time. but there will be many others. the _ménage à deux_, one may remark, though it may be without the presence of children, is not necessarily childless. parentage is certainly part of the pride of many men--though, curiously enough, it does not appear to be felt among modern european married women as any part of their honour. many men will probably achieve parentage, therefore, who will not succeed in inducing, or who may possibly even be very loth to permit, their wives to undertake more than the first beginnings of motherhood. from the moment of its birth, unless it is kept as a pet, the child of such marriages will be nourished, taught, and trained almost as though it were an orphan, it will have a succession of bottles and foster-mothers for body and mind from the very beginning. side by side with this increasing number of childless homes, therefore, there may develop a system of kindergarten boarding schools. indeed, to a certain extent such schools already exist, and it is one of the unperceived contrasts of this and any former time how common such a separation of parents and children becomes. except in the case of the illegitimate and orphans, and the children of impossible (many public-house children, _e.g._), or wretched homes, boarding schools until quite recently were used only for quite big boys and girls. but now, at every seaside town, for example, one sees a multitude of preparatory schools, which are really not simply educational institutions, but supplementary homes. in many cases these are conducted and very largely staffed by unmarried girls and women who are indeed, in effect, assistant mothers. this class of capable schoolmistresses is one of the most interesting social developments of this period. for the most part they are women who from emotional fastidiousness, intellectual egotism, or an honest lack of passion, have refused the common lot of marriage, women often of exceptional character and restraint, and it is well that, at any rate, their intelligence and character should not pass fruitlessly out of being. assuredly for this type the future has much in store. there are, however, still other possibilities to be considered in this matter. in these anticipations it is impossible to ignore the forces making for a considerable relaxation of the institution of permanent monogamous marriage in the coming years, and of a much greater variety of establishments than is suggested by these possibilities within the pale. i guess, without attempting to refer to statistics, that our present society must show a quite unprecedented number and increasing number of male and female celibates--not religious celibates, but people, for the most part, whose standard of personal comfort has such a relation to their earning power that they shirk or cannot enter the matrimonial grouping. the institution of permanent monogamous marriage--except in the ideal roman catholic community, where it is based on the sanction of an authority which in real roman catholic countries a large proportion of the men decline to obey--is sustained at present entirely by the inertia of custom, and by a number of sentimental and practical considerations, considerations that may very possibly undergo modification in the face of the altered relationship of husband and wife that the present development of childless _ménages_ is bringing about. the practical and sustaining reason for monogamy is the stability it gives to the family; the value of a stable family lies in the orderly upbringing in an atmosphere of affection that it secures in most cases for its more or less numerous children. the monogamous family has indisputably been the civilizing unit of the pre-mechanical civilized state. it must be remembered that both for husband and wife in most cases monogamic life marriage involves an element of sacrifice, it is an institution of late appearance in the history of mankind, and it does not completely fit the psychology or physiology of any but very exceptional characters in either sex. for the man it commonly involves considerable restraint; he must ride his imagination on the curb, or exceed the code in an extremely dishonouring, furtive, and unsatisfactory manner while publicly professing an impossible virtue; for the woman it commonly implies many uncongenial submissions. there are probably few married couples who have escaped distressful phases of bitterness and tears, within the constraint of their, in most cases, practically insoluble bond. but, on the other hand, and as a reward that in the soberer, mainly agricultural civilization of the past, and among the middling class of people, at any rate, has sufficed, there comes the great development of associations and tendernesses that arises out of intimate co-operation in an established home, and particularly out of the linking love and interest of children's lives.... but how does this fit into the childless, disunited, and probably shifting _ménage_ of our second picture? it must be borne in mind that it has been the middling and lower mass of people, the tenants and agriculturists, the shopkeepers, and so forth, men needing before all things the absolutely loyal help of wives, that has sustained permanent monogamic marriage whenever it has been sustained. public monogamy has existed on its merits--that is, on the merits of the wife. merely ostensible reasons have never sufficed. no sort of religious conviction, without a real practical utility, has ever availed to keep classes of men, unhampered by circumstances, to its restrictions. in all times, and holding all sorts of beliefs, the specimen humanity of courts and nobilities is to be found developing the most complex qualifications of the code. in some quiet corner of elysium the bishops of the early georges, the ecclesiastical dignitaries of the contemporary french and spanish courts, the patriarchs of vanished byzantium, will find a common topic with the spiritual advisers of the kingdoms of the east in this difficult theme,--the theme of the concessions permissible and expedient to earnest believers encumbered with leisure and a superfluity of power.... it is not necessary to discuss religious development, therefore, before deciding this issue. we are dealing now with things deeper and forces infinitely more powerful than the mere convictions of men. will a generation to whom marriage will be no longer necessarily associated with the birth and rearing of children, or with the immediate co-operation and sympathy of husband and wife in common proceedings, retain its present feeling for the extreme sanctity of the permanent bond? will the agreeable, unemployed, childless woman, with a high conception of her personal rights, who is spending her husband's earnings or income in some pleasant discrepant manner, a type of woman there are excellent reasons for anticipating will become more frequent--will she continue to share the honours and privileges of the wife, mother, and helper of the old dispensation? and in particular, will the great gulf that is now fixed by custom between her and the agreeable unmarried lady who is similarly employed remain so inexorably wide? charity is in the air, and why should not charming people meet one another? and where is either of these ladies to find the support that will enable her to insist upon the monopoly that conventional sentiment, so far as it finds expression, concedes her? the danger to them both of the theory of equal liberty is evident enough. on the other hand, in the case of the unmarried mother who may be helped to hold her own, or who may be holding her own in the world, where will the moral censor of the year find his congenial following to gather stones? much as we may regret it, it does very greatly affect the realities of this matter, that with the increased migration of people from home to home amidst the large urban regions that, we have concluded, will certainly obtain in the future, even if moral reprobation and minor social inconveniences do still attach to certain sorts of status, it will probably be increasingly difficult to determine the status of people who wish to conceal it for any but criminal ends. in another direction there must be a movement towards the relaxation of the marriage law and of divorce that will complicate status very confusingly. in the past it has been possible to sustain several contrasting moral systems in each of the practically autonomous states of the world, but with a development and cheapening of travel and migration that is as yet only in its opening phase, an increasing conflict between dissimilar moral restrictions must appear. even at present, with only the most prosperous classes of the american and western european countries migrating at all freely, there is a growing amount of inconvenience arising out of these--from the point of view of social physiology--quite arbitrary differences. a man or woman may, for example, have been the injured party in some conjugal complication, may have established a domicile and divorced the erring spouse in certain of the united states, may have married again there with absolute local propriety, and may be a bigamist and a criminal in england. a child may be a legal child in denmark or australia, and a bastard in this austerer climate. these things are, however, only the first intimations of much more profound reactions. almost all the great european powers, and the united states also, are extending their boundaries to include great masses of non-christian polygamous peoples, and they are permeating these peoples with railways, printed matter, and all the stimulants of our present state. with the spread of these conveniences there is no corresponding spread of christianity. these people will not always remain in the ring fence of their present regions; their superseded princes, and rulers, and public masters, and managers, will presently come to swell the shareholding mass of the appropriating empire. europeans, on the other hand, will drift into these districts, and under the influence of their customs, intermarriages and interracial reaction will increase; in a world which is steadily abolishing locality, the compromise of local concessions, of localized recognition of the "custom of the country," cannot permanently avail. statesmen will have to face the alternative of either widening the permissible variations of the marriage contract, or of acute racial and religious stresses, of a vast variety of possible legal betrayals, and the appearance of a body of self-respecting people, outside the law and public respect, a body that will confer a touch of credit upon, because it will share the stigma of, the deliberately dissolute and criminal. and whether the moral law shrivels relatively by mere exclusiveness--as in religious matters the church of england, for example, has shrivelled to the proportions of a mere sectarian practice--or whether it broadens itself to sustain justice in a variety of sexual contracts, the nett result, so far as our present purpose goes, will be the same. all these forces, making for moral relaxation in the coming time, will probably be greatly enhanced by the line of development certain sections of the irresponsible wealthy will almost certainly follow. let me repeat that the shareholding rich man of the new time is in a position of freedom almost unparalleled in the history of men. he has sold his permission to control and experiment with the material wealth of the community for freedom--for freedom from care, labour, responsibility, custom, local usage and local attachment. he may come back again into public affairs if he likes--that is his private concern. within the limits of the law and his capacity and courage, he may do as the imagination of his heart directs. now, such an experimental and imperfect creature as man, a creature urged by such imperious passions, so weak in imagination and controlled by so feeble a reason, receives such absolute freedom as this only at infinite peril. to a great number of these people, in the second or third generation, this freedom will mean vice, the subversion of passion to inconsequent pleasures. we have on record, in the personal history of the roman emperors, how freedom and uncontrolled power took one representative group of men, men not entirely of one blood nor of one bias, but reinforced by the arbitrary caprice of adoption and political revolution. we have in the history of the russian empresses a glimpse of similar feminine possibilities. we are moving towards a time when, through this confusion of moral standards i have foretold, the pressure of public opinion in these matters must be greatly relaxed, when religion will no longer speak with a unanimous voice, and when freedom of escape from disapproving neighbours will be greatly facilitated. in the past, when depravity had a centre about a court, the contagion of its example was limited to the court region, but every idle rich man of this great, various, and widely diffused class, will play to a certain extent the moral _rôle_ of a court. in these days of universal reading and vivid journalism, every novel infraction of the code will be known of, thought about, and more or less thoroughly discussed by an enormous and increasing proportion of the common people. in the past it has been possible for the churches to maintain an attitude of respectful regret towards the lapses of the great, and even to co-operate in these lapses with a sympathetic privacy, while maintaining a wholesome rigour towards vulgar vice. but in the coming time there will be no great, but many rich, the middling sort of people will probably be better educated as a whole than the rich, and the days of their differential treatment are at an end. it is foolish, in view of all these things, not to anticipate and prepare for a state of things when not only will moral standards be shifting and uncertain, admitting of physiologically sound _ménages_ of very variable status, but also when vice and depravity, in every form that is not absolutely penal, will be practised in every grade of magnificence and condoned. this means that not only will status cease to be simple and become complex and varied, but that outside the system of _ménages_ now recognized, and under the disguise of which all other _ménages_ shelter, there will be a vast drifting and unstable population grouped in almost every conceivable form of relation. the world of georgian england was a world of homes; the world of the coming time will still have its homes, its real mothers, the custodians of the human succession, and its cared-for children, the inheritors of the future, but in addition to this home world, frothing tumultuously over and amidst these stable rocks, there will be an enormous complex of establishments, and hotels, and sterile households, and flats, and all the elaborate furnishing and appliances of a luxurious extinction. and since in the present social chaos there does not yet exist any considerable body of citizens--comparable to the agricultural and commercial middle class of england during the period of limited monarchy--that will be practically unanimous in upholding any body of rules of moral restraint, since there will probably not appear for some generations any body propounding with wide-reaching authority a new definitely different code to replace the one that is now likely to be increasingly disregarded, it follows that the present code with a few interlined qualifications and grudging legal concessions will remain nominally operative in sentiment and practice while being practically disregarded, glossed, or replaced in numberless directions. it must be pointed out that in effect, what is here forecast for questions of _ménage_ and moral restraints has already happened to a very large extent in religious matters. there was a time when it was held--and i think rightly--that a man's religious beliefs, and particularly his method of expressing them, was a part not of his individual but of his social life. but the great upheavals of the reformation resulted finally in a compromise, a sort of truce, that has put religious belief very largely out of intercourse and discussion. it is conceded that within the bounds of the general peace and security a man may believe and express his belief in matters of religion as he pleases, not because it is better so, but because for the present epoch there is no way nor hope of attaining unanimous truth. there is a decided tendency that will, i believe, prevail towards the same compromise in the question of private morals. there is a convention to avoid all discussion of creeds in general social intercourse; and a similar convention to avoid the point of status in relation to marriage, one may very reasonably anticipate, will be similarly recognized. but this impending dissolution of a common standard of morals does not mean universal depravity until some great reconstruction obtains any more than the obsolescence of the conventicle act means universal irreligion. it means that for one morality there will be many moralities. each human being will, in the face of circumstances, work out his or her particular early training as his or her character determines. and although there will be a general convention upon which the most diverse people will meet, it will only be with persons who have come to identical or similar conclusions in the matter of moral conduct and who are living in similar _ménages_, just as now it is only with people whose conversation implies a certain community or kinship of religious belief, that really frequent and intimate intercourse will go on. in other words, there will be a process of moral segregation[ ] set up. indeed, such a process is probably already in operation, amidst the deliquescent social mass. people will be drawn together into little groups of similar _ménages_ having much in common. and this--in view of the considerations advanced in the first two chapters, considerations all converging on the practical abolition of distances and the general freedom of people to live anywhere they like over large areas--will mean very frequently an actual local segregation. there will be districts that will be clearly recognized and marked as "nice," fast regions, areas of ramshackle bohemianism, regions of earnest and active work, old-fashioned corners and hill tops. whole regions will be set aside for the purposes of opulent enjoyment--a thing already happening, indeed, at points along the riviera to-day. already the superficial possibilities of such a segregation have been glanced at. it has been pointed out that the enormous urban region of the future may present an extraordinary variety of districts, suburbs, and subordinate centres within its limiting boundaries, and here we have a very definite enforcement of that probability. in the previous chapter i spoke of boating centres and horsey suburbs, and picturesque hilly districts and living places by the sea, of promenade centres and theatrical districts; i hinted at various fashions in architecture, and suchlike things, but these exterior appearances will be but the outward and visible sign of inward and more spiritual distinctions. the people who live in the good hunting country and about that glittering grand stand, will no longer be even pretending to live under the same code as those picturesque musical people who have concentrated on the canoe-dotted river. where the promenaders gather, and the bands are playing, and the pretty little theatres compete, the pleasure seeker will be seeking such pleasure as he pleases, no longer debased by furtiveness and innuendo, going his primrose path to a congenial, picturesque, happy and highly desirable extinction. just over the hills, perhaps, a handful of opulent shareholders will be pleasantly preserving the old traditions of a landed aristocracy, with servants, tenants, vicar, and other dependents all complete, and what from the point of view of social physiology will really be an arrested contingent of the abyss, but all nicely washed and done good to, will pursue home industries in model cottages in a quite old english and exemplary manner. here the windmills will spin and the waterfalls be trapped to gather force, and the quiet-eyed master of the machinery will have his office and perhaps his private home. here about the great college and its big laboratories there will be men and women reasoning and studying; and here, where the homes thicken among the ripe gardens, one will hear the laughter of playing children, the singing of children in their schools, and see their little figures going to and fro amidst the trees and flowers.... and these segregations, based primarily on a difference in moral ideas and pursuits and ideals, will probably round off and complete themselves at last as distinct and separate cultures. as the moral ideas realize themselves in _ménage_ and habits, so the ideals will seek to find expression in a literature, and the passive drifting together will pass over into a phase of more or less conscious and intentional organization. the segregating groups will develop fashions of costume, types of manners and bearing, and even, perhaps, be characterized by a certain type of facial expression. and this gives us a glimpse, an aspect of the immediate future of literature. the kingdoms of the past were little things, and above the mass of peasants who lived and obeyed and died, there was just one little culture to which all must needs conform. literature was universal within the limits of its language. where differences of view arose there were violent controversies, polemics, and persecutions, until one or other rendering had won its ascendency. but this new world into which we are passing will, for several generations at least, albeit it will be freely inter-communicating and like a whispering gallery for things outspoken, possess no universal ideals, no universal conventions: there will be the literature of the thought and effort of this sort of people, and the literature, thought, and effort of that.[ ] life is already most wonderfully arbitrary and experimental, and for the coming century this must be its essential social history, a great drifting and unrest of people, a shifting and regrouping and breaking up again of groups, great multitudes seeking to find themselves. the safe life in the old order, where one did this because it was right, and that because it was the custom, when one shunned this and hated that, as lead runs into a mould, all that is passing away. and presently, as the new century opens out, there will become more and more distinctly emergent many new cultures and settled ways. the grey expanse of life to-day is grey, not in its essence, but because of the minute confused mingling and mutual cancelling of many-coloured lives. presently these tints and shades will gather together here as a mass of one colour, and there as a mass of another. and as these colours intensify and the tradition of the former order fades, as these cultures become more and more shaped and conscious, as the new literatures grow in substance and power, as differences develop from speculative matter of opinion to definite intentions, as contrasts and affinities grow sharper and clearer, there must follow some very extensive modifications in the collective public life. but one series of tints, one colour must needs have a heightening value amidst this iridescent display. while the forces at work in the wealthy and purely speculative groups of society make for disintegration, and in many cases for positive elimination, the forces that bring together the really functional people will tend more and more to impose upon them certain common characteristics and beliefs, and the discovery of a group of similar and compatible class interests upon which they can unite. the practical people, the engineering and medical and scientific people, will become more and more homogeneous in their fundamental culture, more and more distinctly aware of a common "general reason" in things, and of a common difference from the less functional masses and from any sort of people in the past. they will have in their positive science a common ground for understanding the real pride of life, the real reason for the incidental nastiness of vice, and so they will be a sanely reproductive class, and, above all, an educating class. just how much they will have kept or changed of the deliquescent morality of to-day, when in a hundred years or so they do distinctively and powerfully emerge, i cannot speculate now. they will certainly be a moral people. they will have developed the literature of their needs, they will have discussed and tested and thrashed out many things, they will be clear where we are confused, resolved where we are undecided and weak. in the districts of industrial possibility, in the healthier quarters of the town regions, away from the swamps and away from the glare of the midnight lights, these people will be gathered together. they will be linked in professions through the agency of great and sober papers--in england the _lancet_, the _british medical journal_, and the already great periodicals of the engineering trades, foreshadow something, but only a very little, of what these papers may be. the best of the wealthy will gravitate to their attracting centres.... unless some great catastrophe in nature break down all that man has built, these great kindred groups of capable men and educated, adequate women must be, under the operation of the forces we have considered so far, the element finally emergent amidst the vast confusions of the coming time. footnotes: [ ] that interesting book by mr. george sutherland, _twentieth century inventions_, is very suggestive on these as on many other matters. [ ] i use the word "segregation" here and always as it is used by mineralogists to express the slow conveyance of diffused matter upon centres of aggregation, such a process as, for example, must have occurred in the growth of flints. [ ] already this is becoming apparent enough. the literary "boom," for example, affected the entire reading public of the early nineteenth century. it was no figure of speech that "everyone" was reading byron or puzzling about the waverley mystery, that first and most successful use of the unknown author dodge. the booming of dickens, too, forced him even into the reluctant hands of omar's fitzgerald. but the factory-syren voice of the modern "boomster" touches whole sections of the reading public no more than fog-horns going down channel. one would as soon think of skinner's soap for one's library as so-and-so's hundred thousand copy success. instead of "everyone" talking of the great new book, quite considerable numbers are shamelessly admitting they don't read that sort of thing. one gets used to literary booms just as one gets used to motor cars, they are no longer marvellous, universally significant things, but merely something that goes by with much unnecessary noise and leaves a faint offence in the air. distinctly we segregate. and while no one dominates, while for all this bawling there are really no great authors of imperial dimensions, indeed no great successes to compare with the waverley boom, or the boom of macaulay's history, many men, too fine, too subtle, too aberrant, too unusually fresh for any but exceptional readers, men who would probably have failed to get a hearing at all in the past, can now subsist quite happily with the little sect they have found, or that has found them. they live safely in their islands; a little while ago they could not have lived at all, or could have lived only on the shameful bread of patronage, and yet it is these very men who are often most covetously bitter against the vulgar preferences of the present day. v the life-history of democracy in the preceding four chapters there has been developed, in a clumsy laborious way, a smudgy, imperfect picture of the generalized civilized state of the coming century. in terms, vague enough at times, but never absolutely indefinite, the general distribution of the population in this state has been discussed, and its natural development into four great--but in practice intimately interfused--classes. it has been shown--i know not how convincingly--that as the result of forces that are practically irresistible, a world-wide process of social and moral deliquescence is in progress, and that a really functional social body of engineering, managing men, scientifically trained, and having common ideals and interests, is likely to segregate and disentangle itself from our present confusion of aimless and ill-directed lives. it has been pointed out that life is presenting an unprecedented and increasing variety of morals, _ménages_, occupations and types, at present so mingled as to give a general effect of greyness, but containing the promise of local concentration that may presently change that greyness into kaleidoscopic effects. that image of concentrating contrasted colours will be greatly repeated in this present chapter. in the course of these inquiries, we have permitted ourselves to take a few concrete glimpses of households, costumes, conveyances, and conveniences of the coming time, but only as incidental realizations of points in this general thesis. and now, assuming, as we must necessarily do, the soundness of these earlier speculations, we have arrived at a stage when we may consider how the existing arrangements for the ostensible government of the state are likely to develop through their own inherent forces, and how they are likely to be affected by the processes we have forecast. so far, this has been a speculation upon the probable development of a civilized society _in vacuo_. attention has been almost exclusively given to the forces of development, and not to the forces of conflict and restraint. we have ignored the boundaries of language that are flung athwart the great lines of modern communication, we have disregarded the friction of tariffs, the peculiar groups of prejudices and irrational instincts that inspire one miscellany of shareholders, workers, financiers, and superfluous poor such as the english, to hate, exasperate, lie about, and injure another such miscellany as the french or the germans. moreover, we have taken very little account of the fact that, quite apart from nationality, each individual case of the new social order is developing within the form of a legal government based on conceptions of a society that has been superseded by the advent of mechanism. it is this last matter that we are about to take into consideration. now, this age is being constantly described as a "democratic" age; "democracy" is alleged to have affected art, literature, trade and religion alike in the most remarkable ways. it is not only tacitly present in the great bulk of contemporary thought that this "democracy" is now dominant, but that it is becoming more and more overwhelmingly predominant as the years pass. allusions to democracy are so abundant, deductions from its influence so confident and universal, that it is worth while to point out what a very hollow thing the word in most cases really is, a large empty object in thought, of the most vague and faded associations and the most attenuated content, and to inquire just exactly what the original implications and present realities of "democracy" may be. the inquiry will leave us with a very different conception of the nature and future of this sort of political arrangement from that generally assumed. we have already seen in the discussion of the growth of great cities, that an analytical process may absolutely invert the expectation based on the gross results up-to-date, and i believe it will be equally possible to show cause for believing that the development of democracy also is, after all, not the opening phase of a world-wide movement going on unbendingly in its present direction, but the first impulse of forces that will finally sweep round into a quite different path. flying off at a tangent is probably one of the gravest dangers and certainly the one most constantly present, in this enterprise of prophecy. one may, i suppose, take the rights of man as they are embodied in the french declaration as the ostentations of democracy; our present democratic state may be regarded as a practical realization of these claims. as far as the individual goes, the realization takes the form of an untrammelled liberty in matters that have heretofore been considered a part of social procedure, in the lifting of positive religious and moral compulsions, in the recognition of absolute property, and in the abolition of special privileges and special restrictions. politically modern democracy takes the form of denying that any specific person or persons shall act as a matter of intrinsic right or capacity on behalf of the community as a whole. its root idea is representation. government is based primarily on election, and every ruler is, in theory at least, a delegate and servant of the popular will. it is implicit in the democratic theory that there _is_ such a thing as a popular will, and this is supposed to be the net sum of the wills of all the citizens in the state, so far as public affairs are concerned. in its less perfect and more usual state the democratic theory is advanced either as an ethical theory which postulates an absence of formal acquiescence on the part of the governed as injustice, or else as a convenient political compromise, the least objectionable of all possible methods of public control, because it will permit only the minimum of general unhappiness.... i know of no case for the elective democratic government of modern states that cannot be knocked to pieces in five minutes. it is manifest that upon countless important public issues there is no collective will, and nothing in the mind of the average man except blank indifference; that an electional system simply places power in the hands of the most skilful electioneers; that neither men nor their rights are identically equal, but vary with every individual, and, above all, that the minimum or maximum of general happiness is related only so indirectly to the public control that people will suffer great miseries from their governments unresistingly, and, on the other hand, change their rulers on account of the most trivial irritations. the case against all the prolusions of ostensible democracy is indeed so strong that it is impossible to consider the present wide establishment of democratic institutions as being the outcome of any process of intellectual conviction; it arouses suspicion even whether ostensible democracy may not be a mere rhetorical garment for essentially different facts, and upon that suspicion we will now inquire. democracy of the modern type, manhood suffrage and so forth, became a conspicuous phenomenon in the world only in the closing decades of the eighteenth century. its genesis is so intimately connected with the first expansion of the productive element in the state, through mechanism and a co-operative organization, as to point at once to a causative connection. the more closely one looks into the social and political life of the eighteenth century the more plausible becomes this view. new and potentially influential social factors had begun to appear--the organizing manufacturer, the intelligent worker, the skilled tenant, and the urban abyss, and the traditions of the old land-owning non-progressive aristocratic monarchy that prevailed in christendom, rendered it incapable--without some destructive shock or convulsion--of any re-organization to incorporate or control these new factors. in the case of the british empire an additional stress was created by the incapacity of the formal government to assimilate the developing civilization of the american colonies. everywhere there were new elements, not as yet clearly analyzed or defined, arising as mechanism arose; everywhere the old traditional government and social system, defined and analyzed all too well, appeared increasingly obstructive, irrational, and feeble in its attempts to include and direct these new powers. but now comes a point to which i am inclined to attach very great importance. the new powers were as yet shapeless. it was not the conflict of a new organization with the old. it was the preliminary dwarfing and deliquescence of the mature old beside the embryonic mass of the new. it was impossible then--it is, i believe, only beginning to be possible now--to estimate the proportions, possibilities, and inter-relations of the new social orders out of which a social organization has still to be built in the coming years. no formula of definite re-construction had been evolved, or has even been evolved yet, after a hundred years. and these swelling inchoate new powers, whose very birth condition was the crippling, modification, or destruction of the old order, were almost forced to formulate their proceedings for a time, therefore, in general affirmative propositions that were really in effect not affirmative propositions at all, but propositions of repudiation and denial. "these kings and nobles and people privileged in relation to obsolescent functions cannot manage our affairs"--that was evident enough, that was the really essential question at that time, and since no other effectual substitute appeared ready made, the working doctrine of the infallible judgment of humanity in the gross, as distinguished from the quite indisputable incapacity of sample individuals, became, in spite of its inherent absurdity, a convenient and acceptable working hypothesis. modern democracy thus came into being, not, as eloquent persons have pretended, by the sovereign people consciously and definitely assuming power--i imagine the sovereign people in france during the first revolution, for example, quite amazed and muddle-headed with it all--but by the decline of old ruling classes in the face of the _quasi_-natural growth of mechanism and industrialism, and by the unpreparedness and want of organization in the new intelligent elements in the state. i have compared the human beings in society to a great and increasing variety of colours tumultuously smashed up together, and giving at present a general and quite illusory effect of grey, and i have attempted to show that there is a process in progress that will amount at last to the segregation of these mingled tints into recognizable distinct masses again. it is not a monotony, but an utterly disorderly and confusing variety that makes this grey, but democracy, for practical purposes, does really assume such a monotony. like 'infinity', the democratic formula is a concrete-looking and negotiable symbol for a negation. it is the aspect in political disputes and contrivances of that social and moral deliquescence the nature and possibilities of which have been discussed in the preceding chapters of this volume. modern democracy first asserted itself in the ancient kingdoms of france and great britain (counting the former british colonies in america as a part of the latter), and it is in the french and english-speaking communities that democracy has developed itself most completely. upon the supposition we have made, democracy broke out first in these states because they were leading the way in material progress, because they were the first states to develop industrialism, wholesale mechanisms, and great masses of insubordinate activity outside the recognized political scheme, and the nature and time and violence of the outbreak was determined by the nature of the superseded government, and the amount of stress between it and the new elements. but the detachment of a great section of the new middle-class from the aristocratic order of england to form the united states of america, and the sudden rejuvenescence of france by the swift and thorough sloughing of its outworn aristocratic monarchy, the consequent wars and the napoleonic adventure, checked and modified the parallel development that might otherwise have happened in country after country over all europe west of the carpathians. the monarchies that would probably have collapsed through internal forces and given place to modern democratic states were smashed from the outside, and a process of political re-construction, that has probably missed out the complete formal democratic phase altogether--and which has been enormously complicated through religious, national, and dynastic traditions--set in. throughout america, in england, and, after extraordinary experiments, in france, political democracy has in effect legally established itself--most completely in the united states--and the reflection and influence of its methods upon the methods of all the other countries in intellectual contact with it, have been so considerable as practically to make their monarchies as new in their kind, almost, as democratic republics. in germany, austria, and italy, for example, there is a press nearly as audible as in the more frankly democratic countries, and measurably akin in influence; there are constitutionally established legislative assemblies, and there is the same unofficial development of powerful financial and industrial powers with which the ostensible government must make terms. in a vast amount of the public discussion of these states, the postulates of democracy are clearly implicit. quite as much in reality as the democratic republics of america, are they based not on classes but upon a confusion; they are, in their various degrees and with their various individual differences, just as truly governments of the grey. it has been argued that the grey is illusory and must sooner or later pass, and that the colour that will emerge to predominance will take its shape as a scientifically trained middle-class of an unprecedented sort, not arising out of the older middle-classes, but replacing them. this class will become, i believe, at last consciously _the_ state, controlling and restricting very greatly the three non-functional masses with which it is as yet almost indistinguishably mingled. the general nature of its formation within the existing confusion and its emergence may, i think, with a certain degree of confidence, be already forecast, albeit at present its beginnings are singularly unpromising and faint. at present the class of specially trained and capable people--doctors, engineers, scientific men of all sorts--is quite disproportionally absent from political life, it does not exist as a factor in that life, it is growing up outside that life, and has still to develop, much more to display, a collective intention to come specifically in. but the forces are in active operation to drag it into the centre of the stage for all that. the modern democracy or democratic quasi-monarchy conducts its affairs as though there was no such thing as special knowledge or practical education. the utmost recognition it affords to the man who has taken the pains to know, and specifically to do, is occasionally to consult him upon specific points and override his counsels in its ampler wisdom, or to entrust to him some otherwise impossible duty under circumstances of extreme limitation. the man of special equipment is treated always as if he were some sort of curious performing animal. the gunnery specialist, for example, may move and let off guns, but he may not say where they are to be let off--some one a little ignorant of range and trajectory does that; the engineer may move the ship and fire the battery, but only with some man, who does not perfectly understand, shouting instructions down a tube at him. if the cycle is to be adapted to military requirements, the thing is entrusted to lieutenant-colonel balfour. if horses are to be bought for the british army in india, no specialist goes, but lord edward cecil. these people of the governing class do not understand there is such a thing as special knowledge or an inexorable fact in the world; they have been educated at schools conducted by amateur schoolmasters, whose real aim in life--if such people can be described as having a real aim in life--is the episcopal bench, and they have learnt little or nothing but the extraordinary power of appearances in these democratic times. to look right and to be of good report is to succeed. what else is there? the primarily functional men are ignored in the ostensible political scheme, it operates as though they did not exist, as though nothing, in fact, existed but the irresponsible wealthy, and the manipulators of irresponsible wealth, on the one hand, and a great, grey, politically indifferent community on the other. having regard only to the present condition of political life, it would seem as though this state of affairs must continue indefinitely, and develop only in accordance with the laws of inter-action between our charlatan governing class on the one hand, and the grey mass of governed on the other. there is no way apparent in the existing political and social order, whereby the class of really educated persons that the continually more complicated mechanical fabric of social life is developing may be expected to come in. and in a very great amount of current political speculation, the development and final emergence of this class is ignored, and attention is concentrated entirely upon the inherent process of development of the political machine. and even in that it is very easy to exaggerate the preponderance of one or other of what are really very evenly balanced forces in the machine of democratic government. there are two chief sets of parts in the machine that have a certain antagonistic relation, that play against each other, and one's conception of coming developments is necessarily determined by the relative value one gives to these opposing elements. one may compare these two groups to the power and the work, respectively, at the two ends of a lever.[ ] on the one hand there is that which pays for the machine, which distributes salaries and rewards, subsidizes newspapers and so forth--the central influence.[ ] on the other hand, there is the collectively grey voting mass, with certain prejudices and traditions, and certain laws and limitations of thought upon which the newspapers work, and which, within the confines of its inherent laws, they direct. if one dwell chiefly on the possibilities of the former element, one may conjure up a practical end to democracy in the vision of a state "run" entirely by a group of highly forcible and intellectual persons--usually the dream takes the shape of financiers and their associates, their perfected mechanism of party control working the elections boldly and capably, and their public policy being directed towards financial ends. one of the common prophecies of the future of the united states is such a domination by a group of trust organizers and political bosses. but a man, or a group of men, so strong and intelligent as would be needed to hold an entire party machine within the confines of his--or their collective--mind and will, could, at the most, be but a very transitory and incidental phenomenon in the history of the world. either such an exploitation of the central control will have to be covert and subtle beyond any precedent in human disingenuousness, or else its domination will have to be very amply modified indeed, by the requirements of the second factor, and its proceedings made very largely the resultant of that second factor's forces. moreover, very subtle men do not aim at things of this sort, or aiming, fail, because subtlety of intelligence involves subtlety of character, a certain fastidiousness and a certain weakness. now that the garrulous period, when a flow of language and a certain effectiveness of manner was a necessary condition to political pre-eminence, is passing away, political control falls more and more entirely into the hands of a barristerish intriguing sort of person with a tough-wearing, leathery, practical mind. the sort of people who will work the machine are people with "faith," as the popular preachers say, meaning, in fact, people who do not analyze, people who will take the machine as it is, unquestioningly, shape their ambitions to it, and--saving their vanity--work it as it wants to go. the man who will be boss will be the man who wants to be boss, who finds, in being boss, a complete and final satisfaction, and not the man who complicates things by wanting to be boss in order to be, or do, something else. the machines are governed to-day, and there is every reason to believe that they will continue to be governed, by masterful-looking resultants, masters of nothing but compromise, and that little fancy of an inner conspiracy of control within the machine and behind ostensible politics is really on all fours with the wonderful rodin (of the juif errant) and as probable as anything else in the romances of eugene sue. if, on the other hand, we direct attention to the antagonistic element in the machine, to public opinion, to the alleged collective mind of the grey mass, and consider how it is brought to believe in itself and its possession of certain opinions by the concrete evidence of daily newspapers and eloquent persons saying as much, we may also very readily conjure up a contrasted vision of extraordinary demagogues or newspaper syndicates working the political machine from that direction. so far as the demagogue goes, the increase of population, the multiplication of amusements and interests, the differentiation of social habits, the diffusion of great towns, all militate against that sufficient gathering of masses of voters in meeting-houses which gave him his power in the recent past. it is improbable that ever again will any flushed undignified man with a vast voice, a muscular face in incessant operation, collar crumpled, hair disordered, and arms in wild activity, talking, talking, talking, talking copiously out of the windows of railway carriages, talking on railway platforms, talking from hotel balconies, talking on tubs, barrels, scaffoldings, pulpits--tireless and undammable--rise to be the most powerful thing in any democratic state in the world. continually the individual vocal demagogue dwindles, and the element of bands and buttons, the organization of the press and procession, the share of the machine, grows. mr. harmsworth, of the london _daily mail_, in a very interesting article has glanced at certain possibilities of power that may vest in the owners of a great system of world-wide "simultaneous" newspapers, but he does not analyze the nature of the influence exercised by newspapers during the successive phases of the nineteenth century, nor the probable modifications of that influence in the years to come, and i think, on the whole, he inclines very naturally to over estimate the amount of intentional direction that may be given by the owner of a paper to the minds and acts of his readers, and to exceed the very definite limits within which that influence is confined. in the earlier victorian period, the more limited, partly educated, and still very homogeneous enfranchised class, had a certain habit of thinking; its tranquil assurance upon most theological and all moral and æsthetic points left political questions as the chief field of exercise for such thinking as it did, and, as a consequence, the dignified newspapers of that time were able to discuss, and indeed were required to discuss not only specific situations but general principles. that indeed was their principal function, and it fell rather to the eloquent men to misapply these principles according to the necessity of the occasion. the papers did then very much more than they do now to mould opinion, though they did not direct affairs to anything like the extent of their modern successors. they made roads upon which events presently travelled in unexpected fashions. but the often cheaper and always more vivid newspapers that have come with the new democracy do nothing to mould opinion. indeed, there is no longer upon most public questions--and as i have tried to make clear in my previous paper, there is not likely to be any longer--a collective opinion to be moulded. protectionists, for example, are a mere band, free traders are a mere band; on all these details we are in chaos. and these modern newspapers simply endeavour to sustain a large circulation and so merit advertisements by being as miscellaneously and vividly interesting as possible, by firing where the crowd seems thickest, by seeking perpetually and without any attempt at consistency, the greatest excitement of the greatest number. it is upon the cultivation and rapid succession of inflammatory topics that the modern newspaper expends its capital and trusts to recover its reward. its general news sinks steadily to a subordinate position; criticism, discussion, and high responsibility pass out of journalism, and the power of the press comes more and more to be a dramatic and emotional power, the power to cry "fire!" in the theatre, the power to give enormous value for a limited time to some personality, some event, some aspect, true or false, without any power of giving a specific direction to the forces this distortion may set going. directly the press of to-day passes from that sort of thing to some specific proposal, some implication of principles and beliefs, directly it chooses and selects, then it passes from the miscellaneous to the sectarian, and out of touch with the grey indefiniteness of the general mind. it gives offence here, it perplexes and bores there; no more than the boss politician can the paper of great circulation afford to work consistently for any ulterior aim. this is the limit of the power of the modern newspaper of large circulation, the newspaper that appeals to the grey element, to the average democratic man, the newspaper of the deliquescence, and if our previous conclusion that human society has ceased to be homogeneous and will presently display new masses segregating from a great confusion, holds good, that will be the limit of its power in the future. it may undergo many remarkable developments and modifications,[ ] but none of these tend to give it any greater political importance than it has now. and so, after all, our considerations of the probable developments of the party machine give us only negative results, so long as the grey social confusion continues. subject to that continuance the party machine will probably continue as it is at present, and democratic states and governments follow the lines upon which they run at the present time. now, how will the emergent class of capable men presently begin to modify the existing form of government in the ostensibly democratic countries and democratic monarchies? there will be very many variations and modifications of the methods of this arrival, an infinite complication of detailed incidents, but a general proposition will be found to hold good. the suppression of the party machine in the purely democratic countries and of the official choice of the rich and privileged rulers in the more monarchical ones, by capable operative and administrative men inspired by the belief in a common theory of social order, will come about--peacefully and gradually as a process of change, or violently as a revolution--but inevitably as the outcome either of the imminence or else of the disasters of war. that all these governments of confusion will drift towards war, with a spacious impulse and a final vehemence quite out of comparison greater than the warlike impulses of former times, is a remarkable but by no means inexplicable thing. a tone of public expression, jealous and patriotic to the danger-point, is an unavoidable condition under which democratic governments exist. to be patriotically quarrelsome is imperative upon the party machines that will come to dominate the democratic countries. they will not possess detailed and definite policies and creeds because there are no longer any detailed and definite public opinions, but they will for all that require some ostensible purpose to explain their cohesion, some hold upon the common man that will ensure his appearance in numbers at the polling place sufficient to save the government from the raids of small but determined sects. that hold can be only of one sort. without moral or religious uniformity, with material interests as involved and confused as a heap of spelicans, there remains only one generality for the politician's purpose, the ampler aspect of a man's egotism, his pride in what he imagines to be his particular kind--his patriotism. in every country amenable to democratic influences there emerges, or will emerge, a party machine, vividly and simply patriotic--and indefinite upon the score of any other possible consideration between man and man. this will hold true, not only of the ostensibly democratic states, but also of such reconstituted modern monarchies as italy and germany, for they, too, for all their legal difference, rest also on the grey. the party conflicts of the future will turn very largely on the discovery of the true patriot, on the suspicion that the crown or the machine in possession is in some more or less occult way traitorous, and almost all other matters of contention will be shelved and allowed to stagnate, for fear of breaking the unity of the national mechanism. now, patriotism is not a thing that flourishes in the void,--one needs a foreigner. a national and patriotic party is an anti-foreign party; the altar of the modern god, democracy, will cry aloud for the stranger men. simply to keep in power, and out of no love of mischief, the government or the party machine will have to insist upon dangers and national differences, to keep the voter to the poll by alarms, seeking ever to taint the possible nucleus of any competing organization with the scandal of external influence. the party press will play the watch-dog and allay all internal dissensions with its warning bay at some adjacent people, and the adjacent peoples, for reasons to be presently expanded, will be continually more sensitive to such baying. already one sees country yelping at country all over the modern world, not only in the matter of warlike issues, but with a note of quite furious commercial rivalry--quite furious and, indeed, quite insane, since its ideal of trading enormously with absolutely ruined and tradeless foreigners, exporting everything and importing nothing, is obviously outside reason altogether. the inexorable doom of these governments based on the grey, is to foster enmity between people and people. even their alliances are but sacrifices to intenser antagonisms. and the phases of the democratic sequence are simple and sure. forced on by a relentless competition, the tone of the outcries will become fiercer and fiercer; the occasions of excitement, the perilous moments, the ingenuities of annoyance, more and more dramatic,--from the mere emptiness and disorder of the general mind! jealousies and anti-foreign enactments, tariff manipulations and commercial embitterment, destructive, foolish, exasperating obstructions that benefit no human being, will minister to this craving without completely allaying it. nearer, and ever nearer, the politicians of the coming times will force one another towards the verge, not because they want to go over it, not because any one wants to go over it, but because they are, by their very nature, compelled to go that way, because to go in any other direction is to break up and lose power. and, consequently, the final development of the democratic system, so far as intrinsic forces go, will be, not the rule of the boss, nor the rule of the trust, nor the rule of the newspaper; no rule, indeed, but international rivalry, international competition, international exasperation and hostility, and at last--irresistible and overwhelming--the definite establishment of the rule of that most stern and educational of all masters--_war_. at this point there opens a tempting path, and along it historical precedents, like a forest of notice-boards, urge us to go. at the end of the vista poses the figure of napoleon with "cæsarism" written beneath it. disregarding certain alien considerations for a time, assuming the free working out of democracy to its conclusion, we perceive that, in the case of our generalized state, the party machine, together with the nation entrusted to it, must necessarily be forced into passionate national war. but, having blundered into war, the party machine will have an air of having accomplished its destiny. a party machine or a popular government is surely as likely a thing to cause a big disorder of war and as unlikely a thing to conduct it, as the wit of man, working solely to that end, could ever have devised. i have already pointed out why we can never expect an elected government of the modern sort to be guided by any far-reaching designs, it is constructed to get office and keep office, not to do anything in office, the conditions of its survival are to keep appearances up and taxes down,[ ] and the care and management of army and navy is quite outside its possibilities. the military and naval professions in our typical modern state will subsist very largely upon tradition, the ostensible government will interfere with rather than direct them, and there will be no force in the entire scheme to check the corrupting influence of a long peace, to insist upon adequate exercises for the fighting organization or ensure an adequate adaptation to the new and perpetually changing possibilities of untried apparatus. incapable but confident and energetic persons, having political influence, will have been permitted to tamper with the various arms of the service, the equipment will be largely devised to create an impression of efficiency in times of peace in the minds of the general voting public, and the really efficient soldiers will either have fretted themselves out of the army or have been driven out as political non-effectives, troublesome, innovating persons anxious to spend money upon "fads." so armed, the new democracy will blunder into war, and the opening stage of the next great war will be the catastrophic breakdown of the formal armies, shame and disasters, and a disorder of conflict between more or less equally matched masses of stupefied, scared, and infuriated people. just how far the thing may rise from the value of an alarming and edifying incident to a universal catastrophe, depends upon the special nature of the conflict, but it does not alter the fact that any considerable war is bound to be a bitter, appalling, highly educational and constitution-shaking experience for the modern democratic state. now, foreseeing this possibility, it is easy to step into the trap of the napoleonic precedent. one hastens to foretell that either with the pressure of coming war, or in the hour of defeat, there will arise the man. he will be strong in action, epigrammatic in manner, personally handsome and continually victorious. he will sweep aside parliaments and demagogues, carry the nation to glory, reconstruct it as an empire, and hold it together by circulating his profile and organizing further successes. he will--i gather this from chance lights upon contemporary anticipations--codify everything, rejuvenate the papacy, or, at any rate, galvanize christianity, organize learning in meek intriguing academies of little men, and prescribe a wonderful educational system. the grateful nations will once more deify a lucky and aggressive egotism.... and there the vision loses breath. nothing of the sort is going to happen, or, at any rate, if it happens, it will happen as an interlude, as no necessary part in the general progress of the human drama. the world is no more to be recast by chance individuals than a city is to be lit by sky rockets. the purpose of things emerges upon spacious issues, and the day of individual leaders is past. the analogies and precedents that lead one to forecast the coming of military one-man-dominions, the coming of such other parodies of cæsar's career as that misapplied, and speedily futile chess champion, napoleon i. contrived, are false. they are false because they ignore two correlated things; first, the steady development of a new and quite unprecedented educated class as a necessary aspect of the expansion of science and mechanism, and secondly, the absolute revolution in the art of war that science and mechanism are bringing about. this latter consideration the next chapter will expand, but here, in the interests of this discussion, we may in general terms anticipate its gist. war in the past has been a thing entirely different in its nature from what war, with the apparatus of the future, will be--it has been showy, dramatic, emotional, and restricted; war in the future will be none of these things. war in the past was a thing of days and heroisms; battles and campaigns rested in the hand of the great commander, he stood out against the sky, picturesquely on horseback, visibly controlling it all. war in the future will be a question of preparation, of long years of foresight and disciplined imagination, there will be no decisive victory, but a vast diffusion of conflict--it will depend less and less on controlling personalities and driving emotions, and more and more upon the intelligence and personal quality of a great number of skilled men. all this the next chapter will expand. and either before or after, but, at any rate, in the shadow of war, it will become apparent, perhaps even suddenly, that the whole apparatus of power in the country is in the hands of a new class of intelligent and scientifically-educated men. they will probably, under the development of warlike stresses, be discovered--they will discover themselves--almost surprisingly with roads and railways, carts and cities, drains, food supply, electrical supply, and water supply, and with guns and such implements of destruction and intimidation as men scarcely dream of yet, gathered in their hands. and they will be discovered, too, with a growing common consciousness of themselves as distinguished from the grey confusion, a common purpose and implication that the fearless analysis of science is already bringing to light. they will find themselves with bloodshed and horrible disasters ahead, and the material apparatus of control entirely within their power. "suppose, after all," they will say, "we ignore these very eloquent and showy governing persons above, and this very confused and ineffectual multitude below. suppose now we put on the brakes and try something a little more stable and orderly. these people in possession have, of course, all sorts of established rights and prescriptions; they have squared the law to their purpose, and the constitution does not know us; they can get at the judges, they can get at the newspapers, they can do all sorts of things except avoid a smash--but, for our part, we have these really most ingenious and subtle guns. suppose instead of our turning them and our valuable selves in a fool's quarrel against the ingenious and subtle guns of other men akin to ourselves, we use them in the cause of the higher sanity, and clear that jabbering war tumult out of the streets."... there may be no dramatic moment for the expression of this idea, no moment when the new cromwellism and the new ironsides will come visibly face to face with talk and baubles, flags and patriotic dinner bells; but, with or without dramatic moments, the idea will be expressed and acted upon. it will be made quite evident then, what is now indeed only a pious opinion, namely, that wealth is, after all, no ultimate power at all, but only an influence among aimless, police-guarded men. so long as there is peace the class of capable men may be mitigated and gagged and controlled, and the ostensible present order may flourish still in the hands of that other class of men which deals with the appearances of things. but as some supersaturated solution will crystallize out with the mere shaking of its beaker, so must the new order of men come into visibly organized existence through the concussions of war. the charlatans can escape everything except war, but to the cant and violence of nationality, to the sustaining force of international hostility, they are ruthlessly compelled to cling, and what is now their chief support must become at last their destruction. and so it is i infer that, whether violently as a revolution or quietly and slowly, this grey confusion that is democracy must pass away inevitably by its own inherent conditions, as the twilight passes, as the embryonic confusion of the cocoon creature passes, into the higher stage, into the higher organism, the world-state of the coming years. footnotes: [ ] the fulcrum, which is generally treated as being absolutely immovable, being the general belief in the theory of democracy. [ ] in the united states, a vast rapidly developing country, with relatively much kinetic wealth, this central influence is the financial support of the boss, consisting for the most part of active-minded, capable business organizers; in england, the land where irresponsible realized wealth is at a maximum, a public-spirited section of the irresponsible, inspired by the tradition of an aristocratic functional past, qualifies the financial influence with an amateurish, indolent, and publicly unprofitable integrity. in germany an aggressively functional court occupies the place and plays the part of a permanently dominant party machine. [ ] the nature of these modifications is an interesting side issue. there is every possibility of papers becoming at last papers of world-wide circulation, so far as the language in which they are printed permits, with editions that will follow the sun and change into to-morrow's issue as they go, picking up literary criticism here, financial intelligence there, here to-morrow's story, and there to-morrow's scandal, and, like some vast intellectual garden-roller, rolling out local provincialism at every revolution. this, for papers in english, at any rate, is merely a question of how long it will be before the price of the best writing (for journalistic purposes) rises actually or relatively above the falling cost of long distance electrical type setting. each of the local editions of these world travelling papers, in addition to the identical matter that will appear almost simultaneously everywhere, will no doubt have its special matter and its special advertisements. illustrations will be telegraphed just as well as matter, and probably a much greater use will be made of sketch and diagram than at present. if the theory advanced in this book that democracy is a transitory confusion be sound, there will not be one world paper of this sort only--like moses' serpent after its miraculous struggle--but several, and as the non-provincial segregation of society goes on, these various great papers will take on more and more decided specific characteristics, and lose more and more their local references. they will come to have not only a distinctive type of matter, a distinctive method of thought and manner of expression, but distinctive fundamental implications, and a distinctive class of writer. this difference in character and tone renders the advent of any napoleonic master of the newspaper world vastly more improbable than it would otherwise be. these specializing newspapers will, as they find their class, throw out many features that do not belong to that class. it is highly probable that many will restrict the space devoted to news and sham news; that forged and inflated stuff made in offices, that bulks out the foreign intelligence of so many english papers, for example. at present every paper contains a little of everything, inadequate sporting stuff, inadequate financial stuff, vague literary matter, voluminous reports of political vapourings, because no newspaper is quite sure of the sort of readers it has--probably no daily newspaper has yet a distinctive sort of reader. many people, with their minds inspired by the number of editions which evening papers pretend to publish and do not, incline to believe that daily papers may presently give place to hourly papers, each with the last news of the last sixty minutes photographically displayed. as a matter of fact no human being wants that, and very few are so foolish as to think they do; the only kind of news that any sort of people clamours for hot and hot is financial and betting fluctuations, lottery lists and examination results; and the elaborated and cheapened telegraphic and telephonic system of the coming days, with tapes (or phonograph to replace them) in every post-office and nearly every private house, so far from expanding this department, will probably sweep it out of the papers altogether. one will subscribe to a news agency which will wire all the stuff one cares to have so violently fresh, into a phonographic recorder perhaps, in some convenient corner. there the thing will be in every house, beside the barometer, to hear or ignore. with the separation of that function what is left of the newspaper will revert to one daily edition--daily, i think, because of the power of habit to make the newspaper the specific business of some definite moments in the day; the breakfast hour, i suppose, or the "up-to-town" journey with most englishmen now. quite possibly some one will discover some day that there is now machinery for folding and fastening a paper into a form that will not inevitably get into the butter, or lead to bitterness in a railway carriage. this pitch of development reached, i incline to anticipate daily papers much more like the _spectator_ in form than these present mainsails of our public life. they will probably not contain fiction at all, and poetry only rarely, because no one but a partial imbecile wants these things in punctual daily doses, and we are anticipating an escape from a period of partial imbecility. my own culture and turn of mind, which is probably akin to that of a respectable mechanic of the year , inclines me towards a daily paper that will have in addition to its concentrated and absolutely trustworthy daily news, full and luminous accounts of new inventions, new theories, and new departures of all sorts (usually illustrated), witty and penetrating comments upon public affairs, criticisms of all sorts of things, representations of newly produced works of art, and an ample amount of ably written controversy upon everything under the sun. the correspondence columns, instead of being an exercising place for bores and conspicuous people who are not mercenary, will be the most ample, the most carefully collected, and the most highly paid of all departments in this paper. personal paragraphs will be relegated to some obscure and costly corner next to the births, deaths, and marriages. this paper will have, of course, many pages of business advertisements, and these will usually be well worth looking through, for the more intelligent editors of the days to come will edit this department just like any other, and classify their advertisements in a descending scale of freshness and interest that will also be an ascending scale of price. the advertiser who wants to be an indecent bore, and vociferate for the ten millionth time some flatulent falsehood about a pill, for instance, will pay at nuisance rates. probably many papers will refuse to print nasty and distressful advertisements about people's insides at all. the entire paper will be as free from either greyness or offensive stupidity in its advertisement columns as the shop windows in bond street to-day, and for much the same reason,--because the people who go that way do not want that sort of thing. it has been supposed that, since the real income of the newspaper is derived from advertisements, large advertisers will combine in the future to own papers confined to the advertisements of their specific wares. some such monopoly is already attempted; several publishing firms own or partially own a number of provincial papers, which they adorn with strange "book chat" columns conspicuously deficient in their information; and a well-known cycle tyre firm supplies "cycling" columns that are mere pedestals for the head-of-king-charles make of tyre. many quack firms publish and give away annual almanacks replete with economical illustrations, offensive details, and bad jokes. but i venture to think, in spite of such phenomena, that these suggestions and attempts are made with a certain disregard of the essential conditions of sound advertisement. sound advertisement consists in perpetual alertness and newness, in appearance in new places and in new aspects, in the constant access to fresh minds. the devotion of a newspaper to the interest of one particular make of a commodity or group of commodities will inevitably rob its advertisement department of most of its interest for the habitual readers of the paper. that is to say, the newspaper will fail in what is one of the chief attractions of a good newspaper. moreover, such a devotion will react upon all the other matter in the paper, because the editor will need to be constantly alert to exclude seditious reflections upon the health-extract-of-horse-flesh or saved-by-boiling-jam. his sense of this relation will taint his self-respect and make him a less capable editor than a man whose sole affair is to keep his paper interesting. to these more interesting rival papers the excluded competitor will be driven, and the reader will follow in his wake. there is little more wisdom in the proprietor of an article in popular demand buying or creating a newspaper to contain all his advertisements than in his buying a coal pit for the same purpose. such a privacy of advertisement will never work, i think, on a large scale; it is probably at or near its maximum development now, and this anticipation of the advertiser-owned paper, like that of hourly papers, and that wonderfully powerful cosmic newspaper syndicate, is simply another instance of prophesying based only on a present trend, an expansion of the obvious, instead of an analysis of determining forces. [ ] one striking illustration of the distinctive possibilities of democratic government came to light during the last term of office of the present patriotic british government. as a demonstration of patriotism large sums of money were voted annually for the purpose of building warships, and the patriotic common man paid the taxes gladly with a dream of irresistible naval predominance to sweeten the payment. but the money was not spent on warships; only a portion of it was spent, and the rest remained to make a surplus and warm the heart of the common man in his tax-paying capacity. this artful dodge was repeated for several years; the artful dodger is now a peer, no doubt abjectly respected, and nobody in the most patriotic party so far evolved is a bit the worse for it. in the organizing expedients of all popular governments, as in the prospectuses of unsound companies, the disposition is to exaggerate the nominal capital at the expense of the working efficiency. democratic armies and navies are always short, and probably will always be short, of ammunition, paint, training and reserve stores; battalions and ships, since they count as units, are over-numerous and go short-handed, and democratic army reform almost invariably works out to some device for multiplying units by fission, and counting men three times instead of twice in some ingenious and plausible way. and this must be so, because the sort of men who come inevitably to power under democratic conditions are men trained by all the conditions of their lives to so set appearances before realities as at last to become utterly incapable of realities. vi war in shaping anticipations of the future of war there arises a certain difficulty about the point of departure. one may either begin upon such broad issues as the preceding forecasts have opened, and having determined now something of the nature of the coming state and the force of its warlike inclination, proceed to speculate how this vast ill-organized fourfold organism will fight; or one may set all that matter aside for a space, and having regard chiefly to the continually more potent appliances physical science offers the soldier, we may try to develop a general impression of theoretically thorough war, go from that to the nature of the state most likely to be superlatively efficient in such warfare, and so arrive at the conditions of survival under which these present governments of confusion will struggle one against the other. the latter course will be taken here. we will deal first of all with war conducted for its own sake, with a model army, as efficient as an imaginative training can make it, and with a model organization for warfare of the state behind it, and then the experience of the confused modern social organism as it is impelled, in an uncongenial metamorphosis, towards this imperative and finally unavoidable efficient state, will come most easily within the scope of one's imagination. the great change that is working itself out in warfare is the same change that is working itself out in the substance of the social fabric. the essential change in the social fabric, as we have analyzed it, is the progressive supersession of the old broad labour base by elaborately organized mechanism, and the obsolescence of the once valid and necessary distinction of gentle and simple. in warfare, as i have already indicated, this takes the form of the progressive supersession of the horse and the private soldier--which were the living and sole engines of the old time--by machines, and the obliteration of the old distinction between leaders, who pranced in a conspicuously dangerous and encouraging way into the picturesque incidents of battle, and the led, who cheered and charged and filled the ditches and were slaughtered in a wholesale dramatic manner. the old war was a matter of long dreary marches, great hardships of campaigning, but also of heroic conclusive moments. long periods of campings--almost always with an outbreak of pestilence--of marchings and retreats, much crude business of feeding and forage, culminated at last, with an effect of infinite relief, in an hour or so of "battle." the battle was always a very intimate tumultuous affair, the men were flung at one another in vast excited masses, in living fighting machines as it were, spears or bayonets flashed, one side or the other ceased to prolong the climax, and the thing was over. the beaten force crumpled as a whole, and the victors as a whole pressed upon it. cavalry with slashing sabres marked the crowning point of victory. in the later stages of the old warfare musketry volleys were added to the physical impact of the contending regiments, and at last cannon, as a quite accessory method of breaking these masses of men. so you "gave battle" to and defeated your enemy's forces wherever encountered, and when you reached your objective in his capital the war was done.... the new war will probably have none of these features of the old system of fighting. the revolution that is in progress from the old war to a new war, different in its entire nature from the old, is marked primarily by the steady progress in range and efficiency of the rifle and of the field-gun--and more particularly of the rifle. the rifle develops persistently from a clumsy implement, that any clown may learn to use in half a day, towards a very intricate mechanism, easily put out of order and easily misused, but of the most extraordinary possibilities in the hands of men of courage, character, and high intelligence. its precision at long range has made the business of its care, loading and aim subsidiary to the far more intricate matter of its use in relation to the contour of the ground within its reach. even its elaboration as an instrument is probably still incomplete. one can conceive it provided in the future with cross-thread telescopic sights, the focussing of which, corrected by some ingenious use of hygroscopic material, might even find the range, and so enable it to be used with assurance up to a mile or more. it will probably also take on some of the characters of the machine-gun. it will be used either for single shots or to quiver and send a spray of almost simultaneous bullets out of a magazine evenly and certainly, over any small area the rifleman thinks advisable. it will probably be portable by one man, but there is no reason really, except the bayonet tradition, the demands of which may be met in other ways, why it should be the instrument of one sole man. it will, just as probably, be slung with its ammunition and equipment upon bicycle wheels, and be the common care of two or more associated soldiers. equipped with such a weapon, a single couple of marksmen even, by reason of smokeless powder and carefully chosen cover, might make themselves practically invisible, and capable of surprising, stopping, and destroying a visible enemy in quite considerable numbers who blundered within a mile of them. and a series of such groups of marksmen so arranged as to cover the arrival of reliefs, provisions, and fresh ammunition from the rear, might hold out against any visible attack for an indefinite period, unless the ground they occupied was searched very ably and subtly by some sort of gun having a range in excess of their rifle fire. if the ground they occupied were to be properly tunnelled and trenched, even that might not avail, and there would be nothing for it but to attack them by an advance under cover either of the night or of darkness caused by smoke-shells, or by the burning of cover about their position. even then they might be deadly with magazine fire at close quarters. save for their liability to such attacks, a few hundreds of such men could hold positions of a quite vast extent, and a few thousand might hold a frontier. assuredly a mere handful of such men could stop the most multitudinous attack or cover the most disorderly retreat in the world, and even when some ingenious, daring, and lucky night assault had at last ejected them from a position, dawn would simply restore to them the prospect of reconstituting in new positions their enormous advantage of defence. the only really effective and final defeat such an attenuated force of marksmen could sustain, would be from the slow and circumspect advance upon it of a similar force of superior marksmen, creeping forward under cover of night or of smoke-shells and fire, digging pits during the snatches of cessation obtained in this way, and so coming nearer and nearer and getting a completer and completer mastery of the defender's ground until the approach of the defender's reliefs, food, and fresh ammunition ceased to be possible. thereupon there would be nothing for it but either surrender or a bolt in the night to positions in the rear, a bolt that might be hotly followed if it were deferred too late. probably between contiguous nations that have mastered the art of war, instead of the pouring clouds of cavalry of the old dispensation,[ ] this will be the opening phase of the struggle, a vast duel all along the frontier between groups of skilled marksmen, continually being relieved and refreshed from the rear. for a time quite possibly there will be no definite army here or there, there will be no controllable battle, there will be no great general in the field at all. but somewhere far in the rear the central organizer will sit at the telephonic centre of his vast front, and he will strengthen here and feed there and watch, watch perpetually the pressure, the incessant remorseless pressure that is seeking to wear down his countervailing thrust. behind the thin firing line that is actually engaged, the country for many miles will be rapidly cleared and devoted to the business of war, big machines will be at work making second, third, and fourth lines of trenches that may be needed if presently the firing line is forced back, spreading out transverse paths for the swift lateral movement of the cyclists who will be in perpetual alertness to relieve sudden local pressures, and all along those great motor roads our first "anticipations" sketched, there will be a vast and rapid shifting to and fro of big and very long range guns. these guns will probably be fought with the help of balloons. the latter will hang above the firing line all along the front, incessantly ascending and withdrawn; they will be continually determining the distribution of the antagonist's forces, directing the fire of continually shifting great guns upon the apparatus and supports in the rear of his fighting line, forecasting his night plans and seeking some tactical or strategic weakness in that sinewy line of battle. it will be evident that such warfare as this inevitable precision of gun and rifle forces upon humanity, will become less and less dramatic as a whole, more and more as a whole a monstrous thrust and pressure of people against people. no dramatic little general spouting his troops into the proper hysterics for charging, no prancing merely brave officers, no reckless gallantry or invincible stubbornness of men will suffice. for the commander-in-chief on a picturesque horse sentimentally watching his "boys" march past to death or glory in battalions, there will have to be a loyal staff of men, working simply, earnestly, and subtly to keep the front tight, and at the front, every little isolated company of men will have to be a council of war, a little conspiracy under the able man its captain, as keen and individual as a football team, conspiring against the scarcely seen company of the foe over yonder. the battalion commander will be replaced in effect by the organizer of the balloons and guns by which his few hundreds of splendid individuals will be guided and reinforced. in the place of hundreds of thousands of more or less drunken and untrained young men marching into battle--muddle-headed, sentimental, dangerous and futile hobbledehoys--there will be thousands of sober men braced up to their highest possibilities, intensely doing their best; in the place of charging battalions, shattering impacts of squadrons and wide harvest-fields of death, there will be hundreds of little rifle battles fought up to the hilt, gallant dashes here, night surprises there, the sudden sinister faint gleam of nocturnal bayonets, brilliant guesses that will drop catastrophic shell and death over hills and forests suddenly into carelessly exposed masses of men. for eight miles on either side of the firing lines--whose fire will probably never altogether die away while the war lasts--men will live and eat and sleep under the imminence of unanticipated death.... such will be the opening phase of the war that is speedily to come. and behind the thin firing line on either side a vast multitude of people will be at work; indeed, the whole mass of the efficients in the state will have to be at work, and most of them will be simply at the same work or similar work to that done in peace time--only now as combatants upon the lines of communication. the organized staffs of the big road managements, now become a part of the military scheme, will be deporting women and children and feeble people and bringing up supplies and supports; the doctors will be dropping from their civil duties into pre-appointed official places, directing the feeding and treatment of the shifting masses of people and guarding the valuable manhood of the fighting apparatus most sedulously from disease;[ ] the engineers will be entrenching and bringing up a vast variety of complicated and ingenious apparatus designed to surprise and inconvenience the enemy in novel ways; the dealers in food and clothing, the manufacturers of all sorts of necessary stuff, will be converted by the mere declaration of war into public servants; a practical realization of socialistic conceptions will quite inevitably be forced upon the fighting state. the state that has not incorporated with its fighting organization all its able-bodied manhood and all its material substance, its roads, vehicles, engines, foundries, and all its resources of food and clothing; the state which at the outbreak of war has to bargain with railway and shipping companies, replace experienced station-masters by inexperienced officers, and haggle against alien interests for every sort of supply, will be at an overwhelming disadvantage against a state which has emerged from the social confusion of the present time, got rid of every vestige of our present distinction between official and governed, and organized every element in its being. i imagine that in this ideal war as compared with the war of to-day, there will be a very considerable restriction of the rights of the non-combatant. a large part of existing international law involves a curious implication, a distinction between the belligerent government and its accredited agents in warfare and the general body of its subjects. there is a disposition to treat the belligerent government, in spite of the democratic status of many states, as not fully representing its people, to establish a sort of world-citizenship in the common mass outside the official and military class. protection of the non-combatant and his property comes at last--in theory at least--within a measurable distance of notice boards: "combatants are requested to keep off the grass." this disposition i ascribe to a recognition of that obsolescence and inadequacy of the formal organization of states, which has already been discussed in this book. it was a disposition that was strongest perhaps in the earliest decades of the nineteenth century, and stronger now than, in the steady and irresistible course of strenuous and universal military preparation, it is likely to be in the future. in our imaginary twentieth century state, organized primarily for war, this tendency to differentiate a non-combatant mass in the fighting state will certainly not be respected, the state will be organized as a whole to fight as a whole, it will have triumphantly asserted the universal duty of its citizens. the military force will be a much ampler organization than the "army" of to-day, it will be not simply the fists but the body and brain of the land. the whole apparatus, the whole staff engaged in internal communication, for example, may conceivably not be state property and a state service, but if it is not it will assuredly be as a whole organized as a volunteer force, that may instantly become a part of the machinery of defence or aggression at the outbreak of war.[ ] the men may very conceivably not have a uniform, for military uniforms are simply one aspect of this curious and transitory phase of restriction, but they will have their orders and their universal plan. as the bells ring and the recording telephones click into every house the news that war has come, there will be no running to and fro upon the public ways, no bawling upon the moving platforms of the central urban nuclei, no crowds of silly useless able-bodied people gaping at inflammatory transparencies outside the offices of sensational papers because the egregious idiots in control of affairs have found them no better employment. every man will be soberly and intelligently setting about the particular thing he has to do--even the rich shareholding sort of person, the hereditary mortgager of society, will be given something to do, and if he has learnt nothing else he will serve to tie up parcels of ammunition or pack army sausage. very probably the best of such people and of the speculative class will have qualified as cyclist marksmen for the front, some of them may even have devoted the leisure of peace to military studies and may be prepared with novel weapons. recruiting among the working classes--or, more properly speaking, among the people of the abyss--will have dwindled to the vanishing point; people who are no good for peace purposes are not likely to be any good in such a grave and complicated business as modern war. the spontaneous traffic of the roads in peace, will fall now into two streams, one of women and children coming quietly and comfortably out of danger, the other of men and material going up to the front. there will be no panics, no hardships, because everything will have been amply pre-arranged--we are dealing with an ideal state. quietly and tremendously that state will have gripped its adversary and tightened its muscles--that is all. now the strategy of this new sort of war in its opening phase will consist mainly in very rapid movements of guns and men behind that thin screen of marksmen, in order to deal suddenly and unexpectedly some forcible blow, to snatch at some position into which guns and men may be thrust to outflank and turn the advantage of the ground against some portion of the enemy's line. the game will be largely to crowd and crumple that line, to stretch it over an arc to the breaking point, to secure a position from which to shell and destroy its supports and provisions, and to capture or destroy its guns and apparatus, and so tear it away from some town or arsenal it has covered. and a factor of primary importance in this warfare, because of the importance of seeing the board, a factor which will be enormously stimulated to develop in the future, will be the aerial factor. already we have seen the captive balloon as an incidental accessory of considerable importance even in the wild country warfare of south africa. in the warfare that will go on in the highly-organized european states of the opening century, the special military balloon used in conjunction with guns, conceivably of small calibre but of enormous length and range, will play a part of quite primary importance. these guns will be carried on vast mechanical carriages, possibly with wheels of such a size as will enable them to traverse almost all sorts of ground.[ ] the aeronauts, provided with large scale maps of the hostile country, will mark down to the gunners below the precise point upon which to direct their fire, and over hill and dale the shell will fly--ten miles it may be--to its billet, camp, massing night attack, or advancing gun. great multitudes of balloons will be the argus eyes of the entire military organism, stalked eyes with a telephonic nerve in each stalk, and at night they will sweep the country with search-lights and come soaring before the wind with hanging flares. certainly they will be steerable. moreover, when the wind admits, there will be freely-moving steerable balloons wagging little flags to their friends below. and so far as the resources of the men on the ground go, the balloons will be almost invulnerable. the mere perforation of balloons with shot does them little harm, and the possibility of hitting a balloon that is drifting about at a practically unascertainable distance and height so precisely as to blow it to pieces with a timed shell, and to do this in the little time before it is able to give simple and precise instructions as to your range and position to the unseen gunners it directs, is certainly one of the most difficult and trying undertakings for an artilleryman that one can well imagine. i am inclined to think that the many considerations against a successful attack on balloons from the ground, will enormously stimulate enterprise and invention in the direction of dirigible aerial devices that can fight. few people, i fancy, who know the work of langley, lilienthal, pilcher, maxim, and chanute, but will be inclined to believe that long before the year a.d. , and very probably before , a successful aeroplane will have soared and come home safe and sound. directly that is accomplished the new invention will be most assuredly applied to war. the nature of the things that will ultimately fight in the sky is a matter for curious speculation. we begin with the captive balloon. against that the navigable balloon will presently operate. i am inclined to think the practicable navigable balloon will be first attained by the use of a device already employed by nature in the swimming-bladder of fishes. this is a closed gas-bag that can be contracted or expanded. if a gas-bag of thin, strong, practically impervious substance could be enclosed in a net of closely interlaced fibres (interlaced, for example, on the pattern of the muscles of the bladder in mammals), the ends of these fibres might be wound and unwound, and the effect of contractility attained. a row of such contractile balloons, hung over a long car which was horizontally expanded into wings, would not only allow that car to rise and fall at will, but if the balloon at one end were contracted and that at the other end expanded, and the intermediate ones allowed to assume intermediate conditions, the former end would drop, the expanded wings would be brought into a slanting condition over a smaller area of supporting air, and the whole apparatus would tend to glide downwards in that direction. the projection of a small vertical plane upon either side would make the gliding mass rotate in a descending spiral, and so we have all the elements of a controllable flight. such an affair would be difficult to overset. it would be able to beat up even in a fair wind, and then it would be able to contract its bladders and fall down a long slant in any direction. from some such crude beginning a form like a soaring, elongated, flat-brimmed hat might grow, and the possibilities of adding an engine-driven screw are obvious enough. it is difficult to see how such a contrivance could carry guns of any calibre unless they fired from the rear in the line of flight. the problem of recoil becomes a very difficult one in aerial tactics. it would probably have at most a small machine-gun or so, which might fire an explosive shell at the balloons of the enemy, or kill their aeronauts with distributed bullets. the thing would be a sort of air-shark, and one may even venture to picture something of the struggle the deadlocked marksmen of , lying warily in their rifle-pits, will see. one conceives them at first, each little hole with its watchful, well-equipped couple of assassins, turning up their eyes in expectation. the wind is with our enemy, and his captive balloons have been disagreeably overhead all through the hot morning. his big guns have suddenly become nervously active. then, a little murmur along the pits and trenches, and from somewhere over behind us, this air-shark drives up the sky. the enemy's balloons splutter a little, retract, and go rushing down, and we send a spray of bullets as they drop. then against our aerostat, and with the wind driving them clean overhead of us, come the antagonistic flying-machines. i incline to imagine there will be a steel prow with a cutting edge at either end of the sort of aerostat i foresee, and conceivably this aerial ram will be the most important weapon of the affair. when operating against balloons, such a fighting-machine will rush up the air as swiftly as possible, and then, with a rapid contraction of its bladders, fling itself like a knife at the sinking war-balloon of the foe. down, down, down, through a vast alert tension of flight, down it will swoop, and, if its stoop is successful, slash explosively at last through a suffocating moment. rifles will crack, ropes tear and snap; there will be a rending and shouting, a great thud of liberated gas, and perhaps a flare. quite certainly those flying machines will carry folded parachutes, and the last phase of many a struggle will be the desperate leap of the aeronauts with these in hand, to snatch one last chance of life out of a mass of crumpling, fallen wreckage. but in such a fight between flying-machine and flying-machine as we are trying to picture, it will be a fight of hawks, complicated by bullets and little shells. they will rush up and up to get the pitch of one another, until the aeronauts sob and sicken in the rarefied air, and the blood comes to eyes and nails. the marksmen below will strain at last, eyes under hands, to see the circling battle that dwindles in the zenith. then, perhaps, a wild adventurous dropping of one close beneath the other, an attempt to stoop, the sudden splutter of guns, a tilting up or down, a disengagement. what will have happened? one combatant, perhaps, will heel lamely earthward, dropping, dropping, with half its bladders burst or shot away, the other circles down in pursuit.... "what are they doing?" our marksmen will snatch at their field-glasses, tremulously anxious, "is that a white flag or no?... if they drop now we have 'em!" but the duel will be the rarer thing. in any affair of ramming there is an enormous advantage for the side that can contrive, anywhere in the field of action, to set two vessels at one. the mere ascent of one flying-ram from one side will assuredly slip the leashes of two on the other, until the manoeuvring squadrons may be as thick as starlings in october. they will wheel and mount, they will spread and close, there will be elaborate manoeuvres for the advantage of the wind, there will be sudden drops to the shelter of entrenched guns. the actual impact of battle will be an affair of moments. they will be awful moments, but not more terrible, not more exacting of manhood than the moments that will come to men when there is--and it has not as yet happened on this earth--equal fighting between properly manned and equipped ironclads at sea. (and the well-bred young gentlemen of means who are privileged to officer the british army nowadays will be no more good at this sort of thing than they are at controversial theology or electrical engineering or anything else that demands a well-exercised brain.)... once the command of the air is obtained by one of the contending armies, the war must become a conflict between a seeing host and one that is blind. the victor in that aerial struggle will tower with pitilessly watchful eyes over his adversary, will concentrate his guns and all his strength unobserved, will mark all his adversary's roads and communications, and sweep them with sudden incredible disasters of shot and shell. the moral effect of this predominance will be enormous. all over the losing country, not simply at his frontier but everywhere, the victor will soar. everybody everywhere will be perpetually and constantly looking up, with a sense of loss and insecurity, with a vague stress of painful anticipations. by day the victor's aeroplanes will sweep down upon the apparatus of all sorts in the adversary's rear, and will drop explosives and incendiary matters upon them,[ ] so that no apparatus or camp or shelter will any longer be safe. at night his high floating search-lights will go to and fro and discover and check every desperate attempt to relieve or feed the exhausted marksmen of the fighting line. the phase of tension will pass, that weakening opposition will give, and the war from a state of mutual pressure and petty combat will develop into the collapse of the defensive lines. a general advance will occur under the aerial van, ironclad road fighting-machines may perhaps play a considerable part in this, and the enemy's line of marksmen will be driven back or starved into surrender, or broken up and hunted down. as the superiority of the attack becomes week by week more and more evident, its assaults will become more dashing and far-reaching. under the moonlight and the watching balloons there will be swift noiseless rushes of cycles, precipitate dismounts, and the never-to-be-quite-abandoned bayonet will play its part. and now men on the losing side will thank god for the reprieve of a pitiless wind, for lightning, thunder, and rain, for any elemental disorder that will for a moment lift the descending scale! then, under banks of fog and cloud, the victorious advance will pause and grow peeringly watchful and nervous, and mud-stained desperate men will go splashing forward into an elemental blackness, rain or snow like a benediction on their faces, blessing the primordial savagery of nature that can still set aside the wisest devices of men, and give the unthrifty one last desperate chance to get their own again or die. such adventures may rescue pride and honour, may cause momentary dismay in the victor and palliate disaster, but they will not turn back the advance of the victors, or twist inferiority into victory. presently the advance will resume. with that advance the phase of indecisive contest will have ended, and the second phase of the new war, the business of forcing submission, will begin. this should be more easy in the future even than it has proved in the past, in spite of the fact that central governments are now elusive, and small bodies of rifle-armed guerillas far more formidable than ever before. it will probably be brought about in a civilized country by the seizure of the vital apparatus of the urban regions--the water supply, the generating stations for electricity (which will supply all the heat and warmth of the land), and the chief ways used in food distribution. through these expedients, even while the formal war is still in progress, an irresistible pressure upon a local population will be possible, and it will be easy to subjugate or to create afresh local authorities, who will secure the invader from any danger of a guerilla warfare upon his rear. through that sort of an expedient an even very obdurate loser will be got down to submission, area by area. with the destruction of its military apparatus and the prospective loss of its water and food supply, however, the defeated civilized state will probably be willing to seek terms as a whole, and bring the war to a formal close. in cases where, instead of contiguous frontiers, the combatants are separated by the sea, the aerial struggle will probably be preceded or accompanied by a struggle for the command of the sea. of this warfare there have been many forecasts. in this, as in all the warfare of the coming time, imaginative foresight, a perpetual alteration of tactics, a perpetual production of unanticipated devices, will count enormously. other things being equal, victory will rest with the force mentally most active. what type of ship may chance to be prevalent when the great naval war comes is hard guessing, but i incline to think that the naval architects of the ablest peoples will concentrate more and more upon speed and upon range and penetration, and, above all, upon precision of fire. i seem to see a light type of ironclad, armoured thickly only over its engines and magazines, murderously equipped, and with a ram--as alert and deadly as a striking snake. in the battles of the open she will have little to fear from the slow fumbling treacheries of the submarine, she will take as little heed of the chance of a torpedo as a barefooted man in battle does of the chance of a fallen dagger in his path. unless i know nothing of my own blood, the english and americans will prefer to catch their enemies in ugly weather or at night, and then they will fight to ram. the struggle on the high seas between any two naval powers (except, perhaps, the english and american, who have both quite unparalleled opportunities for coaling) will not last more than a week or so. one or other force will be destroyed at sea, driven into its ports and blockaded there, or cut off from its supply of coal (or other force-generator), and hunted down to fight or surrender. an inferior fleet that tries to keep elusively at sea will always find a superior fleet between itself and coal, and will either have to fight at once or be shot into surrender as it lies helpless on the water. some commerce-destroying enterprise on the part of the loser may go on, but i think the possibilities of that sort of thing are greatly exaggerated. the world grows smaller and smaller, the telegraph and telephone go everywhere, wireless telegraphy opens wider and wider possibilities to the imagination, and how the commerce-destroyer is to go on for long without being marked down, headed off, cut off from coal, and forced to fight or surrender, i do not see. the commerce-destroyer will have a very short run; it will have to be an exceptionally good and costly ship in the first place, it will be finally sunk or captured, and altogether i do not see how that sort of thing will pay when once the command of the sea is assured. a few weeks will carry the effective frontier of the stronger power up to the coast-line of the weaker, and permit of the secure resumption of the over-sea trade of the former. and then will open a second phase of naval warfare, in which the submarine may play a larger part. i must confess that my imagination, in spite even of spurring, refuses to see any sort of submarine doing anything but suffocate its crew and founder at sea. it must involve physical inconvenience of the most demoralizing sort simply to be in one for any length of time. a first-rate man who has been breathing carbonic acid and oil vapour under a pressure of four atmospheres becomes presently a second-rate man. imagine yourself in a submarine that has ventured a few miles out of port, imagine that you have headache and nausea, and that some ship of the _cobra_ type is flashing itself and its search-lights about whenever you come up to the surface, and promptly tearing down on your descending bubbles with a ram, trailing perhaps a tail of grapples or a net as well. even if you get their boat, these nicely aerated men you are fighting know they have a four to one chance of living; while for your submarine to be "got" is certain death. you may, of course, throw out a torpedo or so, with as much chance of hitting vitally as you would have if you were blindfolded, turned round three times, and told to fire revolver-shots at a charging elephant. the possibility of sweeping for a submarine with a seine would be vividly present in the minds of a submarine crew. if you are near shore you will probably be near rocks--an unpleasant complication in a hurried dive. there would, probably, very soon be boats out too, seeking with a machine-gun or pompom for a chance at your occasionally emergent conning-tower. in no way can a submarine be more than purblind, it will be, in fact, practically blind. given a derelict ironclad on a still night within sight of land, a carefully handled submarine might succeed in groping its way to it and destroying it; but then it would be much better to attack such a vessel and capture it boldly with a few desperate men on a tug. at the utmost the submarine will be used in narrow waters, in rivers, or to fluster or destroy ships in harbour or with poor-spirited crews--that is to say, it will simply be an added power in the hands of the nation that is predominant at sea. and, even then, it can be merely destructive, while a sane and high-spirited fighter will always be dissatisfied if, with an indisputable superiority of force, he fails to take.[ ] no; the naval warfare of the future is for light, swift ships, almost recklessly not defensive and with splendid guns and gunners. they will hit hard and ram, and warfare which is taking to cover on land will abandon it at sea. and the captain, and the engineer, and the gunner will have to be all of the same sort of men: capable, headlong men, with brains and no ascertainable social position. they will differ from the officers of the british navy in the fact that the whole male sex of the nation will have been ransacked to get them. the incredible stupidity that closes all but a menial position in the british navy to the sons of those who cannot afford to pay a hundred a year for them for some years, necessarily brings the individual quality of the british naval officer below the highest possible, quite apart from the deficiencies that must exist on account of the badness of secondary education in england. the british naval officer and engineer are not made the best of, good as they are, indisputably they might be infinitely better both in quality and training. the smaller german navy, probably, has an ampler pick of men relatively, is far better educated, less confident, and more strenuous. but the abstract navy i am here writing of will be superior to either of these, and like the american, in the absence of any distinction between officers and engineers. the officer will be an engineer. the military advantages of the command of the sea will probably be greater in the future than they have been in the past. a fleet with aerial supports would be able to descend upon any portion of the adversary's coast it chose, and to dominate the country inland for several miles with its gun-fire. all the enemy's sea-coast towns would be at its mercy. it would be able to effect landing and send raids of cyclist-marksmen inland, whenever a weak point was discovered. landings will be enormously easier than they have ever been before. once a wedge of marksmen has been driven inland they would have all the military advantages of the defence when it came to eject them. they might, for example, encircle and block some fortified post, and force costly and disastrous attempts to relieve it. the defensive country would stand at bay, tethered against any effective counter-blow, keeping guns, supplies, and men in perpetual and distressing movement to and fro along its sea-frontiers. its soldiers would get uncertain rest, irregular feeding, unhealthy conditions of all sorts in hastily made camps. the attacking fleet would divide and re-unite, break up and vanish, amazingly reappear. the longer the defender's coast the more wretched his lot. never before in the world's history was the command of the sea worth what it is now. but the command of the sea is, after all, like military predominance on land, to be insured only by superiority of equipment in the hands of a certain type of man, a type of man that it becomes more and more impossible to improvise, that a country must live for through many years, and that no country on earth at present can be said to be doing its best possible to make. all this elaboration of warfare lengthens the scale between theoretical efficiency and absolute unpreparedness. there was a time when any tribe that had men and spears was ready for war, and any tribe that had some cunning or emotion at command might hope to discount any little disparity in numbers between itself and its neighbour. luck and stubbornness and the incalculable counted for much; it was half the battle not to know you were beaten, and it is so still. even to-day, a great nation, it seems, may still make its army the plaything of its gentlefolk, abandon important military appointments to feminine intrigue, and trust cheerfully to the homesickness and essential modesty of its influential people, and the simpler patriotism of its colonial dependencies when it comes at last to the bloody and wearisome business of "muddling through." but these days of the happy-go-lucky optimist are near their end. war is being drawn into the field of the exact sciences. every additional weapon, every new complication of the art of war, intensifies the need of deliberate preparation, and darkens the outlook of a nation of amateurs. warfare in the future, on sea or land alike, will be much more one-sided than it has ever been in the past, much more of a foregone conclusion. save for national lunacy, it will be brought about by the side that will win, and because that side knows that it will win. more and more it will have the quality of surprise, of pitiless revelation. instead of the seesaw, the bickering interchange of battles of the old time, will come swiftly and amazingly blow, and blow, and blow, no pause, no time for recovery, disasters cumulative and irreparable. the fight will never be in practice between equal sides, never be that theoretical deadlock we have sketched, but a fight between the more efficient and the less efficient, between the more inventive and the more traditional. while the victors, disciplined and grimly intent, full of the sombre yet glorious delight of a grave thing well done, will, without shouting or confusion, be fighting like one great national body, the losers will be taking that pitiless exposure of helplessness in such a manner as their natural culture and character may determine. war for the losing side will be an unspeakable pitiable business. there will be first of all the coming of the war, the wave of excitement, the belligerent shouting of the unemployed inefficients, the flag-waving, the secret doubts, the eagerness for hopeful news, the impatience of the warning voice. i seem to see, almost as if he were symbolic, the grey old general--the general who learnt his art of war away in the vanished nineteenth century, the altogether too elderly general with his epaulettes and decorations, his uniform that has still its historical value, his spurs and his sword--riding along on his obsolete horse, by the side of his doomed column. above all things he is a gentleman. and the column looks at him lovingly with its countless boys' faces, and the boys' eyes are infinitely trustful, for he has won battles in the old time. they will believe in him to the end. they have been brought up in their schools to believe in him and his class, their mothers have mingled respect for the gentlefolk with the simple doctrines of their faith, their first lesson on entering the army was the salute. the "smart" helmets his majesty, or some such unqualified person, chose for them, lie hotly on their young brows, and over their shoulders slope their obsolete, carelessly-sighted guns. tramp, tramp, they march, doing what they have been told to do, incapable of doing anything they have not been told to do, trustful and pitiful, marching to wounds and disease, hunger, hardship, and death. they know nothing of what they are going to meet, nothing of what they will have to do; religion and the ratepayer and the rights of the parent working through the instrumentality of the best club in the world have kept their souls and minds, if not untainted, at least only harmlessly veneered, with the thinnest sham of training or knowledge. tramp, tramp, they go, boys who will never be men, rejoicing patriotically in the nation that has thus sent them forth, badly armed, badly clothed, badly led, to be killed in some avoidable quarrel by men unseen. and beside them, an absolute stranger to them, a stranger even in habits of speech and thought, and at any rate to be shot with them fairly and squarely, marches the subaltern--the son of the school-burking, shareholding class--a slightly taller sort of boy, as ill-taught as they are in all that concerns the realities of life, ignorant of how to get food, how to get water, how to keep fever down and strength up, ignorant of his practical equality with the men beside him, carefully trained under a clerical headmaster to use a crib, play cricket rather nicely, look all right whatever happens, believe in his gentility, and avoid talking "shop."... the major you see is a man of the world, and very pleasantly meets the grey general's eye. he is, one may remark by the way, something of an army reformer, without offence, of course, to the court people or the government people. his prospects--if only he were not going to be shot--are brilliant enough. he has written quite cleverly on the question of recruiting, and advocated as much as twopence more a day and billiard rooms under the chaplain's control; he has invented a military bicycle with a wheel of solid iron that can be used as a shield; and a war correspondent and, indeed, any one who writes even the most casual and irresponsible article on military questions is a person worth his cultivating. he is the very life and soul of army reform, as it is known to the governments of the grey--that is to say, army reform without a single step towards a social revolution.... so the gentlemanly old general--the polished drover to the shambles--rides, and his doomed column march by, in this vision that haunts my mind. i cannot foresee what such a force will even attempt to do, against modern weapons. nothing can happen but the needless and most wasteful and pitiful killing of these poor lads, who make up the infantry battalions, the main mass of all the european armies of to-day, whenever they come against a sanely-organized army. there is nowhere they can come in, there is nothing they can do. the scattered invisible marksmen with their supporting guns will shatter their masses, pick them off individually, cover their line of retreat and force them into wholesale surrenders. it will be more like herding sheep than actual fighting. yet the bitterest and cruellest things will have to happen, thousands and thousands of poor boys will be smashed in all sorts of dreadful ways and given over to every conceivable form of avoidable hardship and painful disease, before the obvious fact that war is no longer a business for half-trained lads in uniform, led by parson-bred sixth-form boys and men of pleasure and old men, but an exhaustive demand upon very carefully-educated adults for the most strenuous best that is in them, will get its practical recognition.[ ]... well, in the ampler prospect even this haunting tragedy of innumerable avoidable deaths is but an incidental thing. they die, and their troubles are over. the larger fact after all is the inexorable tendency in things to make a soldier a skilled and educated man, and to link him, in sympathy and organization, with the engineer and the doctor, and all the continually developing mass of scientifically educated men that the advance of science and mechanism is producing. we are dealing with the inter-play of two world-wide forces, that work through distinctive and contrasted tendencies to a common end. we have the force of invention insistent upon a progress of the peace organization, which tends on the one hand to throw out great useless masses of people, the people of the abyss, and on the other hand to develop a sort of adiposity of functionless wealthy, a speculative elephantiasis, and to promote the development of a new social order of efficients, only very painfully and slowly, amidst these growing and yet disintegrating masses. and on the other hand we have the warlike drift of such a social body, the inevitable intensification of international animosities in such a body, the absolute determination evident in the scheme of things to smash such a body, to smash it just as far as it is such a body, under the hammer of war, that must finally bring about rapidly and under pressure the same result as that to which the peaceful evolution slowly tends. while we are as yet only thinking of a physiological struggle, of complex reactions and slow absorptions, comes war with the surgeon's knife. war comes to simplify the issue and line out the thing with knife-like cuts. the law that dominates the future is glaringly plain. a people must develop and consolidate its educated efficient classes or be beaten in war and give way upon all points where its interests conflict with the interests of more capable people. it must foster and accelerate that natural segregation, which has been discussed in the third and fourth chapters of these "anticipations," or perish. the war of the coming time will really be won in schools and colleges and universities, wherever men write and read and talk together. the nation that produces in the near future the largest proportional development of educated and intelligent engineers and agriculturists, of doctors, schoolmasters, professional soldiers, and intellectually active people of all sorts; the nation that most resolutely picks over, educates, sterilizes, exports, or poisons its people of the abyss; the nation that succeeds most subtly in checking gambling and the moral decay of women and homes that gambling inevitably entails; the nation that by wise interventions, death duties and the like, contrives to expropriate and extinguish incompetent rich families while leaving individual ambitions free; the nation, in a word, that turns the greatest proportion of its irresponsible adiposity into social muscle, will certainly be the nation that will be the most powerful in warfare as in peace, will certainly be the ascendant or dominant nation before the year . in the long run no heroism and no accidents can alter that. no flag-waving, no patriotic leagues, no visiting of essentially petty imperial personages hither and thither, no smashing of the windows of outspoken people nor seizures of papers and books, will arrest the march of national defeat. and this issue is already so plain and simple, the alternatives are becoming so pitilessly clear, that even in the stupidest court and the stupidest constituencies, it must presently begin in some dim way to be felt. a time will come when so many people will see this issue clearly that it will gravely affect political and social life. the patriotic party--the particular gang, that is, of lawyers, brewers, landlords, and railway directors that wishes to be dominant--will be forced to become an efficient party in profession at least, will be forced to stimulate and organize that educational and social development that may at last even bring patriotism under control. the rulers of the grey, the democratic politician and the democratic monarch, will be obliged year by year by the very nature of things to promote the segregation of colours within the grey, to foster the power that will finally supersede democracy and monarchy altogether, the power of the scientifically educated, disciplined specialist, and that finally is the power of saints, the power of the thing that is provably right. it may be delayed, but it cannot be defeated; in the end it must arrive--if not to-day and among our people, then to-morrow and among another people, who will triumph in our overthrow. this is the lesson that must be learnt, that some tongue and kindred of the coming time must inevitably learn. but what tongue it will be, and what kindred that will first attain this new development, opens far more complex and far less certain issues than any we have hitherto considered. footnotes: [ ] even along such vast frontiers as the russian and austrian, for example, where m. bloch anticipates war will be begun with an invasion of clouds of russian cavalry and great cavalry battles, i am inclined to think this deadlock of essentially defensive marksmen may still be the more probable thing. small bodies of cyclist riflemen would rush forward to meet the advancing clouds of cavalry, would drop into invisible ambushes, and announce their presence--in unknown numbers--with carefully aimed shots difficult to locate. a small number of such men could always begin their fight with a surprise at the most advantageous moment, and they would be able to make themselves very deadly against a comparatively powerful frontal attack. if at last the attack were driven home before supports came up to the defenders, they would still be able to cycle away, comparatively immune. to attempt even very wide flanking movements against such a snatched position would be simply to run risks of blundering upon similar ambushes. the clouds of cavalry would have to spread into thin lines at last and go forward with the rifle. invading clouds of cyclists would be in no better case. a conflict of cyclists against cyclists over a country too spacious for unbroken lines, would still, i think, leave the struggle essentially unchanged. the advance of small unsupported bodies would be the wildest and most unprofitable adventure; every advance would have to be made behind a screen of scouts, and, given a practical equality in the numbers and manhood of the two forces, these screens would speedily become simply very attenuated lines. [ ] so far, pestilence has been a feature of almost every sustained war in the world, but there is really no reason whatever why it should be so. there is no reason, indeed, why a soldier upon active service on the victorious side should go without a night's rest or miss a meal. if he does, there is muddle and want of foresight somewhere, and that our hypothesis excludes. [ ] lady maud rolleston, in her very interesting _yeoman service_, complains of the boers killing an engine-driver during an attack on a train at kroonstadt, "which was," she writes, "an abominable action, as he is, in law, a non-combatant." the implicit assumption of this complaint would cover the engineers of an ironclad or the guides of a night attack, everybody, in fact, who was not positively weapon in hand. [ ] experiments will probably be made in the direction of armoured guns, armoured search-light carriages, and armoured shelters for men, that will admit of being pushed forward over rifle-swept ground. to such possibilities, to possibilities even of a sort of land ironclad, my inductive reason inclines; the armoured train seems indeed a distinct beginning of this sort of thing, but my imagination proffers nothing but a vision of wheels smashed by shells, iron tortoises gallantly rushed by hidden men, and unhappy marksmen and engineers being shot at as they bolt from some such monster overset. the fact of it is, i detest and fear these thick, slow, essentially defensive methods, either for land or sea fighting. i believe invincibly that the side that can go fastest and hit hardest will always win, with or without or in spite of massive defences, and no ingenuity in devising the massive defence will shake that belief. [ ] or, in deference to the rules of war, fire them out of guns of trivial carrying power. [ ] a curious result might very possibly follow a success of submarines on the part of a naval power finally found to be weaker and defeated. the victorious power might decide that a narrow sea was no longer, under the new conditions, a comfortable boundary line, and might insist on marking its boundary along the high-water mark of its adversary's adjacent coasts. [ ] there comes to hand as i correct these proofs a very typical illustration of the atmosphere of really almost imbecile patronage in which the british private soldier lives. it is a circular from some one at lydd, some one who evidently cannot even write english, but who is nevertheless begging for an iron hut in which to inflict lessons on our soldiers. "at present," says this circular, "it is pretty to see in the home a group of gunners busily occupied in wool-work or learning basket-making, whilst one of their number sings or recites, and others are playing games or letter-writing, but even quite recently the members of the bible reading union and one of the ladies might have been seen painfully crowded behind screens, choosing the 'golden text' with lowered voices, and trying to pray 'without distraction,' whilst at the other end of the room men were having supper, and halfway down a dozen irish militia (who don't care to read, but are keen on a story) were gathered round another lady, who was telling them an amusing temperance tale, trying to speak so that the bible readers should not hear her and yet that the leinsters _should_ was a difficulty, but when the irishmen begged for a song--difficulty became _impossibility_, and their friend had to say, '_no._' yet this is just the double work required in soldiers' homes, and above all at lydd, where there is so little safe amusement to be had in camp, and none in the village." these poor youngsters go from this "safe amusement" under the loving care of "lady workers," this life of limitation, make-believe and spiritual servitude that a self-respecting negro would find intolerable, into a warfare that exacts initiative and a freely acting intelligence from all who take part in it, under the bitterest penalties of shame and death. what can you expect of them? and how can you expect any men of capacity and energy, any men even of mediocre self-respect to knowingly place themselves under the tutelage of the sort of people who dominate these organized degradations? i am amazed the army gets so many capable recruits as it does. and while the private lives under these conditions, the would-be capable officer stifles amidst equally impossible surroundings. he must associate with the uneducated products of the public schools, and listen to their chatter about the "sports" that delight them, suffer social indignities from the "army woman," worry and waste money on needless clothes, and expect to end by being shamed or killed under some unfairly promoted incapable. nothing illustrates the intellectual blankness of the british army better than its absolute dearth of military literature. no one would dream of gaining any profit by writing or publishing a book upon such a subject, for example, as mountain warfare in england, because not a dozen british officers would have the sense to buy such a book, and yet the british army is continually getting into scrapes in mountain districts. a few unselfish men like major peech find time to write an essay or so, and that is all. on the other hand, i find no less than five works in french on this subject in mm. chapelet & cie.'s list alone. on guerilla warfare again, and after two years of south africa, while there is nothing in english but some scattered papers by dr. t. miller maguire, there are nearly a dozen good books in french. as a supplement to these facts is the spectacle of the officers of the guards telegraphing to sir thomas lipton on the occasion of the defeat of his shamrock ii., "hard luck. be of good cheer. brigade of guards wish you every success." this is not the foolish enthusiasm of one or two subalterns, it is collective. they followed that yacht race with emotion! is a really important thing to them. no doubt the whole mess was in a state of extreme excitement. how can capable and active men be expected to live and work between this upper and that nether millstone? the british army not only does not attract ambitious, energetic men, it repels them. i must confess that i see no hope either in the rulers, the traditions, or the manhood of the british regular army, to forecast its escape from the bog of ignorance and negligence in which it wallows. far better than any of projected reforms would it be to let the existing army severely alone, to cease to recruit for it, to retain (at the expense of its officers, assisted perhaps by subscriptions from ascendant people like sir thomas lipton) its messes, its uniforms, its games, bands, entertainments, and splendid memories as an appendage of the court, and to create, in absolute independence of it, battalions and batteries of efficient professional soldiers, without social prestige or social distinctions, without bands, dress uniforms, colours, chaplains or honorary colonels, and to embody these as a real marching army perpetually _en route_ throughout the empire--a reading, thinking, experimenting army under an absolutely distinct war office, with its own colleges, depôts and training camps perpetually ready for war. i cannot help but think that, if a hint were taken from the _turbinia_ syndicate, a few enterprising persons of means and intelligence might do much by private experiment to supplement and replace the existing state of affairs. vii the conflict of languages we have brought together thus far in these anticipations the material for the picture of a human community somewhere towards the year . we have imagined its roads, the type and appearance of its homes, its social developments, its internal struggle for organization; we have speculated upon its moral and æsthetic condition, read its newspaper, made an advanced criticism upon the lack of universality in its literature, and attempted to imagine it at war. we have decided in particular that unlike the civilized community of the immediate past which lived either in sharply-defined towns or agriculturally over a wide country, this population will be distributed in a quite different way, a little more thickly over vast urban regions and a little less thickly over less attractive or less convenient or less industrial parts of the world. and implicit in all that has been written there has appeared an unavoidable assumption that the coming community will be vast, something geographically more extensive than most, and geographically different from almost all existing communities, that the outline its creative forces will draw not only does not coincide with existing political centres and boundaries, but will be more often than not in direct conflict with them, uniting areas that are separated and separating areas that are united, grouping here half a dozen tongues and peoples together and there tearing apart homogeneous bodies and distributing the fragments among separate groups. and it will now be well to inquire a little into the general causes of these existing divisions, the political boundaries of to-day, and the still older contours of language and race. it is first to be remarked that each of these sets of boundaries is superposed, as it were, on the older sets. the race areas, for example, which are now not traceable in europe at all must have represented old regions of separation; the language areas, which have little or no essential relation to racial distribution, have also given way long since to the newer forces that have united and consolidated nations. and the still newer forces that have united and separated the nineteenth century states have been, and in many cases are still, in manifest conflict with "national" ideas. now, in the original separation of human races, in the subsequent differentiation and spread of languages, in the separation of men into nationalities, and in the union and splitting of states and empires, we have to deal essentially with the fluctuating manifestations of the same fundamental shaping factor which will determine the distribution of urban districts in the coming years. every boundary of the ethnographical, linguistic, political, and commercial map--as a little consideration will show--has indeed been traced in the first place by the means of transit, under the compulsion of geographical contours. there are evident in europe four or five or more very distinct racial types, and since the methods and rewards of barbaric warfare and the nature of the chief chattels of barbaric trade have always been diametrically opposed to racial purity, their original separation could only have gone on through such an entire lack of communication as prevented either trade or warfare between the bulk of the differentiating bodies. these original racial types are now inextricably mingled. unobservant, over-scholarly people talk or write in the profoundest manner about a teutonic race and a keltic race, and institute all sorts of curious contrasts between these phantoms, but these are not races at all, if physical characteristics have anything to do with race. the dane, the bavarian, the prussian, the frieslander, the wessex peasant, the kentish man, the virginian, the man from new jersey, the norwegian, the swede, and the transvaal boer, are generalized about, for example, as teutonic, while the short, dark, cunning sort of welshman, the tall and generous highlander, the miscellaneous irish, the square-headed breton, and any sort of cornwall peasant are kelts within the meaning of this oil-lamp anthropology.[ ] people who believe in this sort of thing are not the sort of people that one attempts to convert by a set argument. one need only say the thing is not so; there is no teutonic race, and there never has been; there is no keltic race, and there never has been. no one has ever proved or attempted to prove the existence of such races, the thing has always been assumed; they are dogmas with nothing but questionable authority behind them, and the onus of proof rests on the believer. this nonsense about keltic and teutonic is no more science than lombroso's extraordinary assertions about criminals, or palmistry, or the development of religion from a solar myth. indisputably there are several races intermingled in the european populations--i am inclined to suspect the primitive european races may be found to be so distinct as to resist confusion and pamnyxia through hybridization--but there is no inkling of a satisfactory analysis yet that will discriminate what these races were and define them in terms of physical and moral character. the fact remains there is no such thing as a racially pure and homogeneous community in europe distinct from other communities. even among the jews, according to erckert and chantre and j. jacobs, there are markedly divergent types, there may have been two original elements and there have been extensive local intermixtures. long before the beginnings of history, while even language was in its first beginnings--indeed as another aspect of the same process as the beginning of language--the first complete isolations that established race were breaking down again, the little pools of race were running together into less homogeneous lagoons and marshes of humanity, the first paths were being worn--war paths for the most part. still differentiation would be largely at work. without frequent intercourse, frequent interchange of women as the great factor in that intercourse, the tribes and bands of mankind would still go on separating, would develop dialectic and customary, if not physical and moral differences. it was no longer a case of pools perhaps, but they were still in lakes. there were as yet no open seas of mankind. with advancing civilization, with iron weapons and war discipline, with established paths and a social rule and presently with the coming of the horse, what one might call the areas of assimilation would increase in size. a stage would be reached when the only checks to transit of a sufficiently convenient sort to keep language uniform would be the sea or mountains or a broad river or--pure distance. and presently the rules of the game, so to speak, would be further altered and the unifications and isolations that were establishing themselves upset altogether and brought into novel conflict by the beginnings of navigation, whereby an impassable barrier became a highway. the commencement of actual european history coincides with the closing phases of what was probably a very long period of a foot and (occasional) horseback state of communications; the adjustments so arrived at being already in an early state of rearrangement through the advent of the ship. the communities of europe were still for the larger part small isolated tribes and kingdoms, such kingdoms as a mainly pedestrian militia, or at any rate a militia without transport, and drawn from (and soon drawn home again by) agricultural work, might hold together. the increase of transit facilities between such communities, by the development of shipping and the invention of the wheel and the made road, spelt increased trade perhaps for a time, but very speedily a more extensive form of war, and in the end either the wearing away of differences and union, or conquest. man is the creature of a struggle for existence, incurably egoistic and aggressive. convince him of the gospel of self-abnegation even, and he instantly becomes its zealous missionary, taking great credit that his expedients to ram it into the minds of his fellow-creatures do not include physical force--and if that is not self-abnegation, he asks, what is? so he has been, and so he is likely to remain. not to be so, is to die of abnegation and extinguish the type. improvement in transit between communities formerly for all practical purposes isolated, means, therefore, and always has meant, and i imagine, always will mean, that now they can get at one another. and they do. they inter-breed and fight, physically, mentally, and spiritually. unless providence is belied in his works that is what they are meant to do. a third invention which, though not a means of transit like the wheeled vehicle and the ship, was yet a means of communication, rendered still larger political reactions possible, and that was the development of systems of writing. the first empires and some sort of written speech arose together. just as a kingdom, as distinguished from a mere tribal group of villages, is almost impossible without horses, so is an empire without writing and post-roads. the history of the whole world for three thousand years is the history of a unity larger than the small kingdom of the heptarchy type, endeavouring to establish itself under the stress of these discoveries of horse-traffic and shipping and the written word, the history, that is, of the consequences of the partial shattering of the barriers that had been effectual enough to prevent the fusion of more than tribal communities through all the long ages before the dawn of history. east of the gobi pamir barrier there has slowly grown up under these new conditions the chinese system. west and north of the sahara gobi barrier of deserts and mountains, the extraordinarily strong and spacious conceptions of the romans succeeded in dominating the world, and do, indeed, in a sort of mutilated way, by the powers of great words and wide ideas, in cæsarism and imperialism, in the titles of czar, kaiser, and imperator, in papal pretension and countless political devices, dominate it to this hour. for awhile these conceptions sustained a united and to a large extent organized empire over very much of this space. but at its stablest time, this union was no more than a political union, the spreading of a thin layer of latin-speaking officials, of a thin network of roads and a very thin veneer indeed of customs and refinements, over the scarcely touched national masses. it checked, perhaps, but it nowhere succeeded in stopping the slow but inevitable differentiation of province from province and nation from nation. the forces of transit that permitted the roman imperialism and its partial successors to establish wide ascendancies, were not sufficient to carry the resultant unity beyond the political stage. there was unity, but not unification. tongues and writing ceased to be pure without ceasing to be distinct. sympathies, religious and social practices, ran apart and rounded themselves off like drops of oil on water. travel was restricted to the rulers and the troops and to a wealthy leisure class; commerce was for most of the constituent provinces of the empire a commerce in superficialities, and each province--except for italy, which latterly became dependent on an over-seas food supply--was in all essential things autonomous, could have continued in existence, rulers and ruled, arts, luxuries, and refinements just as they stood, if all other lands and customs had been swept out of being. local convulsions and revolutions, conquests and developments, occurred indeed, but though the stones were altered the mosaic remained, and the general size and character of its constituent pieces remained. so it was under the romans, so it was in the eighteenth century, and so it would probably have remained as long as the post-road and the sailing-ship were the most rapid forms of transit within the reach of man. wars and powers and princes came and went, that was all. nothing was changed, there was only one state the more or less. even in the eighteenth century the process of real unification had effected so little, that not one of the larger kingdoms of europe escaped a civil war--not a class war, but a really _internal_ war--between one part of itself and another, in that hundred years. in spite of rome's few centuries of unstable empire, internal wars, a perpetual struggle against finally triumphant disruption seemed to be the unavoidable destiny of every power that attempted to rule over a larger radius than at most a hundred miles. so evident was this that many educated english persons thought then, and many who are not in the habit of analyzing operating causes, still think to-day, that the wide diffusion of the english-speaking people is a mere preliminary to their political, social, and linguistic disruption--the eighteenth-century breach with the united states is made a precedent of, and the unification that followed the war of union and the growing unification of canada is overlooked--that linguistic differences, differences of custom, costume, prejudice, and the like, will finally make the australian, the canadian of english blood, the virginian, and the english africander, as incomprehensible and unsympathetic one to another as spaniard and englishman or frenchman and german are now. on such a supposition all our current imperialism is the most foolish defiance of the inevitable, the maddest waste of blood, treasure, and emotion that man ever made. so, indeed, it might be--so, indeed, i certainly think it would be--if it were not that the epoch of post-road and sailing-ship is at an end. we are in the beginning of a new time, with such forces of organization and unification at work in mechanical traction, in the telephone and telegraph, in a whole wonderland of novel, space-destroying appliances, and in the correlated inevitable advance in practical education, as the world has never felt before. the operation of these unifying forces is already to be very distinctly traced in the check, the arrest indeed, of any further differentiation in existing tongues, even in the most widely spread. in fact, it is more than an arrest even, the forces of differentiation have been driven back and an actual process of assimilation has set in. in england at the commencement of the nineteenth century the common man of somerset and the common man of yorkshire, the sussex peasant, the caithness cottar and the common ulsterman, would have been almost incomprehensible to one another. they differed in accent, in idiom, and in their very names for things. they differed in their ideas about things. they were, in plain english, foreigners one to another. now they differ only in accent, and even that is a dwindling difference. their language has become ampler because now they read. they read books--or, at any rate, they learn to read out of books--and certainly they read newspapers and those scrappy periodicals that people like bishops pretend to think so detrimental to the human mind, periodicals that it is cheaper to make at centres and uniformly, than locally in accordance with local needs. since the newspaper cannot fit the locality, the locality has to broaden its mind to the newspaper, and to ideas acceptable in other localities. the word and the idiom of the literary language and the pronunciation suggested by its spelling tends to prevail over the local usage. and moreover there is a persistent mixing of peoples going on, migration in search of employment and so on, quite unprecedented before the railways came. few people are content to remain in that locality and state of life "into which it has pleased god to call them." as a result, dialectic purity has vanished, dialects are rapidly vanishing, and novel differentiations are retarded or arrested altogether. such novelties as do establish themselves in a locality are widely disseminated almost at once in books and periodicals. a parallel arrest of dialectic separation has happened in france, in italy, in germany, and in the states. it is not a process peculiar to any one nation. it is simply an aspect of the general process that has arisen out of mechanical locomotion. the organization of elementary education has no doubt been an important factor, but the essential influence working through this circumstance is the fact that paper is relatively cheap to type-setting, and both cheap to authorship--even the commonest sorts of authorship--and the wider the area a periodical or book serves the bigger, more attractive, and better it can be made for the same money. and clearly this process of assimilation will continue. even local differences of accent seem likely to follow. the itinerant dramatic company, the itinerant preacher, the coming extension of telephones and the phonograph, which at any time in some application to correspondence or instruction may cease to be a toy, all these things attack, or threaten to attack, the weeds of differentiation before they can take root.... and this process is not restricted to dialects merely. the native of a small country who knows no other language than the tongue of his country becomes increasingly at a disadvantage in comparison with the user of any of the three great languages of the europeanized world. for his literature he depends on the scanty writers who are in his own case and write, or have written, in his own tongue. necessarily they are few, because necessarily with a small public there can be only subsistence for a few. for his science he is in a worse case. his country can produce neither teachers nor discoverers to compare with the numbers of such workers in the larger areas, and it will neither pay them to write original matter for his instruction nor to translate what has been written in other tongues. the larger the number of people reading a tongue, the larger--other things being equal--will be not only the output of more or less original literature in that tongue, but also the more profitable and numerous will be translations of whatever has value in other tongues. moreover, the larger the reading public in any language the cheaper will it be to supply copies of the desired work. in the matter of current intelligence the case of the speaker of the small language is still worse. his newspaper will need to be cheaply served, his home intelligence will be cut and restricted, his foreign news belated and second hand. moreover, to travel even a little distance or to conduct anything but the smallest business enterprise will be exceptionally inconvenient to him. the englishman who knows no language but his own may travel well-nigh all over the world and everywhere meet some one who can speak his tongue. but what of the welsh-speaking welshman? what of the basque and the lithuanian who can speak only his mother tongue? everywhere such a man is a foreigner and with all the foreigner's disadvantages. in most places he is for all practical purposes deaf and dumb. the inducements to an englishman, frenchman or german to become bi-lingual are great enough nowadays, but the inducements to a speaker of the smaller languages are rapidly approaching compulsion. he must do it in self-defence. to be an educated man in his own vernacular has become an impossibility, he must either become a mental subject of one of the greater languages or sink to the intellectual status of a peasant. but if our analysis of social development was correct the peasant of to-day will be represented to-morrow by the people of no account whatever, the classes of extinction, the people of the abyss. if that analysis was correct, the essential nation will be all of educated men, that is to say, the essential nation will speak some dominant language or cease to exist, whatever its primordial tongue may have been. it will pass out of being and become a mere local area of the lower social stratum,--a problem for the philanthropic amateur. the action of the force of attraction of the great tongues is cumulative. it goes on, as bodies fall, with a steady acceleration. the more the great tongues prevail over the little languages the less will be the inducement to write and translate into these latter, the less the inducement to master them with any care or precision. and so this attack upon the smaller tongues, this gravitation of those who are born to speak them, towards the great languages, is not only to be seen going on in the case of such languages as flemish, welsh, or basque, but even in the case of norwegian and of such a great and noble tongue as the italian, i am afraid that the trend of things makes for a similar suppression. all over italy is the french newspaper and the french book. french wins its way more and more there, as english, i understand, is doing in norway, and english and german in holland. and in the coming years when the reading public will, in the case of the western nations, be practically the whole functional population, when travel will be more extensive and abundant, and the inter-change of printed matter still cheaper and swifter--and above all with the spread of the telephone--the process of subtle, bloodless, unpremeditated annexation will conceivably progress much more rapidly even than it does at present. the twentieth century will see the effectual crowding out of most of the weaker languages--if not a positive crowding out, yet at least (as in flanders) a supplementing of them by the superposition of one or other of a limited number of world-languages over the area in which each is spoken. this will go on not only in europe, but with varying rates of progress and local eddies and interruptions over the whole world. except in the special case of china and japan, where there may be a unique development, the peoples of the world will escape from the wreckage of their too small and swamped and foundering social systems, only up the ladders of what one may call the aggregating tongues. what will these aggregating world-languages be? if one has regard only to its extension during the nineteenth century one may easily incline to overrate the probabilities of english becoming the chief of these. but a great part of the vast extension of english that has occurred has been due to the rapid reproduction of originally english-speaking peoples, the emigration of foreigners into english-speaking countries in quantities too small to resist the contagion about them, and the compulsion due to the political and commercial preponderance of a people too illiterate to readily master strange tongues. none of these causes have any essential permanence. when one comes to look more closely into the question one is surprised to discover how slow the extension of english has been in the face of apparently far less convenient tongues. english still fails to replace the french language in french canada, and its ascendency is doubtful to-day in south africa, after nearly a century of british dominion. it has none of the contagious quality of french, and the small class that monopolizes the direction of british affairs, and probably will monopolize it yet for several decades, has never displayed any great zeal to propagate its use. of the few ideas possessed by the british governing class, the destruction and discouragement of schools and colleges is, unfortunately, one of the chief, and there is an absolute incapacity to understand the political significance of the language question. the hindoo who is at pains to learn and use english encounters something uncommonly like hatred disguised in a facetious form. he will certainly read little about himself in english that is not grossly contemptuous, to reward him for his labour. the possibilities that have existed, and that do still in a dwindling degree exist, for resolute statesmen to make english the common language of communication for all asia south and east of the himalayas, will have to develop of their own force or dwindle and pass away. they may quite probably pass away. there is no sign that either the english or the americans have a sufficient sense of the importance of linguistic predominance in the future of their race to interfere with natural processes in this matter for many years to come. among peoples not actually subject to british or american rule, and who are neither waiters nor commercial travellers, the inducements to learn english, rather than french or german, do not increase. if our initial assumptions are right, the decisive factor in this matter is the amount of science and thought the acquisition of a language will afford the man who learns it. it becomes, therefore, a fact of very great significance that the actual number of books published in english is less than that in french or german, and that the proportion of serious books is very greatly less. a large proportion of english books are novels adapted to the minds of women, or of boys and superannuated business men, stories designed rather to allay than stimulate thought--they are the only books, indeed, that are profitable to publisher and author alike. in this connection they do not count, however; no foreigner is likely to learn english for the pleasure of reading miss marie corelli in the original, or of drinking untranslatable elements from _the helmet of navarre_. the present conditions of book production for the english reading public offer no hope of any immediate change in this respect. there is neither honour nor reward--there is not even food or shelter--for the american or englishman who devotes a year or so of his life to the adequate treatment of any spacious question, and so small is the english reading public with any special interest in science, that a great number of important foreign scientific works are never translated into english at all. such interesting compilations as bloch's work on war, for example, must be read in french; in english only a brief summary of his results is to be obtained, under a sensational heading.[ ] schopenhauer again is only to be got quite stupidly bowdlerized, explained, and "selected" in english. many translations that are made into english are made only to sell, they are too often the work of sweated women and girls--very often quite without any special knowledge of the matter they translate--they are difficult to read and untrustworthy to quote. the production of books in english, except the author be a wealthy amateur, rests finally upon the publishers, and publishers to-day stand a little lower than ordinary tradesmen in not caring at all whether the goods they sell are good or bad. unusual books, they allege--and all good books are unusual--are "difficult to handle," and the author must pay the fine--amounting, more often than not, to the greater portion of his interest in the book. there is no criticism to control the advertising enterprises of publishers and authors, and no sufficiently intelligent reading public has differentiated out of the confusion to encourage attempts at critical discrimination. the organs of the great professions and technical trades are as yet not alive to the part their readers must play in the public life of the future, and ignore all but strictly technical publications. a bastard criticism, written in many cases by publishers' employees, a criticism having a very direct relation to the advertisement columns, distributes praise and blame in the periodic press. there is no body of great men either in england or america, no intelligence in the british court, that might by any form of recognition compensate the philosophical or scientific writer for poverty and popular neglect. the more powerful a man's intelligence the more distinctly he must see that to devote himself to increase the scientific or philosophical wealth of the english tongue will be to sacrifice comfort, the respect of the bulk of his contemporaries, and all the most delightful things of life, for the barren reward of a not very certain righteous self-applause. by brewing and dealing in tied houses,[ ] or by selling pork and tea, or by stock-jobbing and by pandering with the profits so obtained to the pleasures of the established great, a man of energy may hope to rise to a pitch of public honour and popularity immeasurably in excess of anything attainable through the most splendid intellectual performances. heaven forbid i should overrate public honours and the company of princes! but it is not always delightful to be splashed by the wheels of cabs. always before there has been at least a convention that the court of this country, and its aristocracy, were radiant centres of moral and intellectual influence, that they did to some extent check and correct the judgments of the cab-rank and the beer-house. but the british crown of to-day, so far as it exists for science and literature at all, exists mainly to repudiate the claims of intellectual performance to public respect. these things, if they were merely the grievances of the study, might very well rest there. but they must be recognized here because the intellectual decline of the published literature of the english language--using the word to cover all sorts of books--involves finally the decline of the language and of all the spacious political possibilities that go with the wide extension of a language. conceivably, if in the coming years a deliberate attempt were made to provide sound instruction in english to all who sought it, and to all within the control of english-speaking governments, if honour and emolument were given to literary men instead of being left to them to most indelicately take, and if the present sordid trade of publishing were so lifted as to bring the whole literature, the whole science, and all the contemporary thought of the world--not some selection of the world's literature, not some obsolete encyclopædia sold meanly and basely to choke hungry minds, but a real publication of all that has been and is being done--within the reach of each man's need and desire who had the franchise of the tongue, then by the year i would prophesy that the whole functional body of human society would read, and perhaps even write and speak, our language. and not only that, but it might be the prevalent and everyday language of scandinavia and denmark and holland, of all africa, all north america, of the pacific coasts of asia and of india, the universal international language, and in a fair way to be the universal language of mankind. but such an enterprise demands a resolve and intelligence beyond all the immediate signs of the times; it implies a veritable renascence of intellectual life among the english-speaking peoples. the probabilities of such a renascence will be more conveniently discussed at a later stage, when we attempt to draw the broad outline of the struggle for world-wide ascendency that the coming years will see. but here it is clear that upon the probability of such a renascence depends the extension of the language, and not only that, but the preservation of that military and naval efficiency upon which, in this world of resolute aggression, the existence of the english-speaking communities finally depends. french and german will certainly be aggregating languages during the greater portion of the coming years. of the two i am inclined to think french will spread further than german. there is a disposition in the world, which the french share, to grossly undervalue the prospects of all things french, derived, so far as i can gather, from the facts that the french were beaten by the germans in , and that they do not breed with the _abandon_ of rabbits or negroes. these are considerations that affect the dissemination of french very little. the french reading public is something different and very much larger than the existing french political system. the number of books published in french is greater than that published in english; there is a critical reception for a work published in french that is one of the few things worth a writer's having, and the french translators are the most alert and efficient in the world. one has only to see a parisian bookshop, and to recall an english one, to realize the as yet unattainable standing of french. the serried ranks of lemon-coloured volumes in the former have the whole range of human thought and interest; there are no taboos and no limits, you have everything up and down the scale, from frank indecency to stark wisdom. it is a shop for men. i remember my amazement to discover three copies of a translation of that most wonderful book, the _text-book of psychology_ of professor william james,[erratum: for 'the text book of psychology,' _read_ 'the principles of psychology'.] in a shop in l'avenue de l'opera--three copies of a book that i have never seen anywhere in england outside my own house,--and i am an attentive student of bookshop windows! and the french books are all so pleasant in the page, and so cheap--they are for a people that buys to read. one thinks of the english bookshop, with its gaudy reach-me-downs of gilded and embossed cover, its horribly printed novels still more horribly "illustrated," the exasperating pointless variety in the size and thickness of its books. the general effect of the english book is that it is something sold by a dealer in _bric-à-brac_, honestly sorry the thing is a book, but who has done _his_ best to remedy it, anyhow! and all the english shopful is either brand new fiction or illustrated travel (of '_buns with the grand lama_' type), or gilded versions of the classics of past times done up to give away. while the french bookshop reeks of contemporary intellectual life! these things count for french as against english now, and they will count for infinitely more in the coming years. and over german also french has many advantages. in spite of the numerical preponderance of books published in germany, it is doubtful if the german reader has quite such a catholic feast before him as the reader of french. there is a mass of german fiction probably as uninteresting to a foreigner as popular english and american romance. and german compared with french is an unattractive language; unmelodious, unwieldy, and cursed with a hideous and blinding lettering that the german is too patriotic to sacrifice. there has been in germany a more powerful parallel to what one may call the "honest saxon" movement among the english, that queer mental twist that moves men to call an otherwise undistinguished preface a "foreword," and find a pleasurable advantage over their fellow-creatures in a familiarity with "eftsoons." this tendency in german has done much to arrest the simplification of idiom, and checked the development of new words of classical origin. in particular it has stood in the way of the international use of scientific terms. the englishman, the frenchman, and the italian have a certain community of technical, scientific, and philosophical phraseology, and it is frequently easier for an englishman with some special knowledge of his subject to read and appreciate a subtle and technical work in french, than it is for him to fully enter into the popular matter of the same tongue. moreover, the technicalities of these peoples, being not so immediately and constantly brought into contrast and contact with their latin or greek roots as they would be if they were derived (as are so many "patriotic" german technicalities) from native roots, are free to qualify and develop a final meaning distinct from their original intention. in the growing and changing body of science this counts for much. the indigenous german technicality remains clumsy and compromised by its everyday relations, to the end of time it drags a lengthening chain of unsuitable associations. and the shade of meaning, the limited qualification, that a frenchman or englishman can attain with a mere twist of the sentence, the german must either abandon or laboriously overstate with some colossal wormcast of parenthesis.... moreover, against the german tongue there are hostile frontiers, there are hostile people who fear german preponderance, and who have set their hearts against its use. in roumania, and among the slav, bohemian, and hungarian peoples, french attacks german in the flank, and has as clear a prospect of predominance. these two tongues must inevitably come into keen conflict; they will perhaps fight their battle for the linguistic conquest of europe, and perhaps of the world, in a great urban region that will arise about the rhine. politically this region lies now in six independent states, but economically it must become one in the next fifty years. it will almost certainly be the greatest urban region in all the world except that which will arise in the eastern states of north america, and that which may arise somewhere about hankow. it will stretch from lille to kiel, it will drive extensions along the rhine valley into switzerland, and fling an arm along the moldau to prague, it will be the industrial capital of the old world. paris will be its west end, and it will stretch a spider's web of railways and great roads of the new sort over the whole continent. even when the coal-field industries of the plain give place to the industrial application of mountain-born electricity, this great city region will remain, i believe, in its present position at the seaport end of the great plain of the old world. considerations of transit will keep it where it has grown, and electricity will be brought to it in mighty cables from the torrents of the central european mountain mass. its westward port may be bordeaux or milford haven, or even some port in the south-west of ireland--unless, which is very unlikely, the velocity of secure sea-travel can be increased beyond that of land locomotion. i do not see how this great region is to unify itself without some linguistic compromise--the germanization of the french-speaking peoples by force is too ridiculous a suggestion to entertain. almost inevitably with travel, with transport communications, with every condition of human convenience insisting upon it, formally or informally a bi-lingual compromise will come into operation, and to my mind at least the chances seem even that french will emerge on the upper hand. unless, indeed, that great renascence of the english-speaking peoples should, after all, so overwhelmingly occur as to force this european city to be tri-lingual, and prepare the way by which the whole world may at last speak together in one tongue. these are the aggregating tongues. i do not think that any other tongues than these are quite likely to hold their own in the coming time. italian may flourish in the city of the po valley, but only with french beside it. spanish and russian are mighty languages, but without a reading public how can they prevail, and what prospect of a reading public has either? they are, i believe, already judged. by a.d. all these languages will be tending more and more to be the second tongues of bi-lingual communities, with french, or english, or less probably german winning the upper hand. but when one turns to china there are the strangest possibilities. it is in eastern asia alone that there seems to be any possibility of a synthesis sufficiently great to maintain itself, arising outside of, and independently of, the interlocked system of mechanically sustained societies that is developing out of mediæval christendom. throughout eastern asia there is still, no doubt, a vast wilderness of languages, but over them all rides the chinese writing. and very strong--strong enough to be very gravely considered--is the possibility of that writing taking up an orthodox association of sounds, and becoming a world speech. the japanese written language, the language of japanese literature, tends to assimilate itself to chinese, and fresh chinese words and expressions are continually taking root in japan. the japanese are a people quite abnormal and incalculable, with a touch of romance, a conception of honour, a quality of imagination, and a clearness of intelligence that renders possible for them things inconceivable of any other existing nation. i may be the slave of perspective effects, but when i turn my mind from the pettifogging muddle of the english house of commons, for example, that magnified vestry that is so proud of itself as a club--when i turn from that to this race of brave and smiling people, abruptly destiny begins drawing with a bolder hand. suppose the japanese were to make up their minds to accelerate whatever process of synthesis were possible in china! suppose, after all, i am not the victim of atmospheric refraction, and they are, indeed, as gallant and bold and intelligent as my baseless conception of them would have them be! they would almost certainly find co-operative elements among the educated chinese.... but this is no doubt the lesser probability. in front and rear of china the english language stands. it has the start of all other languages--the mechanical advantage--the position. and if only we, who think and write and translate and print and put forth, could make it worth the world's having! footnotes: [ ] under the intoxication of the keltic renascence the most diverse sorts of human beings have foregathered and met face to face, and been photographed pan-keltically, and have no doubt gloated over these collective photographs, without any of them realizing, it seems, what a miscellaneous thing the keltic race must be. there is nothing that may or may not be a kelt, and i know, for example, professional kelts who are, so far as face, manners, accents, morals, and ideals go, indistinguishable from other people who are, i am told, indisputably assyroid jews. [ ] _is war now impossible?_ and see also footnote, p. . [ ] it is entirely for their wealth that brewers have been ennobled in england, never because of their services as captains of a great industry. indeed, these services have been typically poor. while these men were earning their peerages by the sort of proceedings that do secure men peerages under the british crown, the german brewers were developing the art and science of brewing with remarkable energy and success. the germans and bohemians can now make light beers that the english brewers cannot even imitate; they are exporting beer to england in steadily increasing volume. viii the larger synthesis we have seen that the essential process arising out of the growth of science and mechanism, and more particularly out of the still developing new facilities of locomotion and communication science has afforded, is the deliquescence of the social organizations of the past, and the synthesis of ampler and still ampler and more complicated and still more complicated social unities. the suggestion is powerful, the conclusion is hard to resist, that, through whatever disorders of danger and conflict, whatever centuries of misunderstanding and bloodshed, men may still have to pass, this process nevertheless aims finally, and will attain to the establishment of one world-state at peace within itself. in the economic sense, indeed, a world-state is already established. even to-day we do all buy and sell in the same markets--albeit the owners of certain ancient rights levy their tolls here and there--and the hindoo starves, the italian feels the pinch, before the germans or the english go short of bread. there is no real autonomy any more in the world, no simple right to an absolute independence such as formerly the swiss could claim. the nations and boundaries of to-day do no more than mark claims to exemptions, privileges, and corners in the market--claims valid enough to those whose minds and souls are turned towards the past, but absurdities to those who look to the future as the end and justification of our present stresses. the claim to political liberty amounts, as a rule, to no more than the claim of a man to live in a parish without observing sanitary precautions or paying rates because he had an excellent great-grandfather. against all these old isolations, these obsolescent particularisms, the forces of mechanical and scientific development fight, and fight irresistibly; and upon the general recognition of this conflict, upon the intelligence and courage with which its inflexible conditions are negotiated, depends very largely the amount of bloodshed and avoidable misery the coming years will hold. the final attainment of this great synthesis, like the social deliquescence and reconstruction dealt with in the earlier of these anticipations, has an air of being a process independent of any collective or conscious will in man, as being the expression of a greater will; it is working now, and may work out to its end vastly, and yet at times almost imperceptibly, as some huge secular movement in nature, the raising of a continent, the crumbling of a mountain-chain, goes on to its appointed culmination. or one may compare the process to a net that has surrounded, and that is drawn continually closer and closer upon, a great and varied multitude of men. we may cherish animosities, we may declare imperishable distances, we may plot and counter-plot, make war and "fight to a finish;" the net tightens for all that. already the need of some synthesis at least ampler than existing national organizations is so apparent in the world, that at least five spacious movements of coalescence exist to-day; there is the movement called anglo-saxonism, the allied but finally very different movement of british imperialism, the pan-germanic movement, pan-slavism, and the conception of a great union of the "latin" peoples. under the outrageous treatment of the white peoples an idea of unifying the "yellow" peoples is pretty certain to become audibly and visibly operative before many years. these are all deliberate and justifiable suggestions, and they all aim to sacrifice minor differences in order to link like to like in greater matters, and so secure, if not physical predominance in the world, at least an effective defensive strength for their racial, moral, customary, or linguistic differences against the aggressions of other possible coalescences. but these syntheses or other similar synthetic conceptions, if they do not contrive to establish a rational social unity by sanely negotiated unions, will be forced to fight for physical predominance in the world. the whole trend of forces in the world is against the preservation of _local_ social systems however greatly and spaciously conceived. yet it is quite possible that several or all of the cultures that will arise out of the development of these pan-this-and-that movements may in many of their features survive, as the culture of the jews has survived, political obliteration, and may disseminate themselves, as the jewish system has disseminated itself, over the whole world-city. unity by no means involves homogeneity. the greater the social organism the more complex and varied its parts, the more intricate and varied the interplay of culture and breed and character within it. it is doubtful if either the latin or the pan-slavic idea contains the promise of any great political unification. the elements of the latin synthesis are dispersed in south and central america and about the mediterranean basin in a way that offers no prospect of an economic unity between them. the best elements of the french people lie in the western portion of what must become the greatest urban region of the old world, the rhine-netherlandish region; the interests of north italy draw that region away from the italy of rome and the south towards the swiss and south germany, and the spanish and portuguese speaking halfbreeds of south america have not only their own coalescences to arrange, but they lie already under the political tutelage of the united states. nowhere except in france and north italy is there any prospect of such an intellectual and educational evolution as is necessary before a great scheme of unification can begin to take effect. and the difficulties in the way of the pan-slavic dream are far graver. its realization is enormously hampered by the division of its languages, and the fact that in the bohemian language, in polish and in russian, there exist distinct literatures, almost equally splendid in achievement, but equally insufficient in quantity and range to establish a claim to replace all other slavonic dialects. russia, which should form the central mass of this synthesis, stagnates, relatively to the western states, under the rule of reactionary intelligences; it does not develop, and does not seem likely to develop, the merest beginnings of that great educated middle class, with which the future so enormously rests. the russia of to-day is indeed very little more than a vast breeding-ground for an illiterate peasantry, and the forecasts of its future greatness entirely ignore that dwindling significance of mere numbers in warfare which is the clear and necessary consequence of mechanical advance. to a large extent, i believe, the western slavs will follow the prussians and lithuanians, and be incorporated in the urbanization of western europe, and the remoter portions of russia seem destined to become--are indeed becoming--abyss, a wretched and disorderly abyss that will not even be formidable to the armed and disciplined peoples of the new civilization, the last quarter of the earth, perhaps, where a barbaric or absentee nobility will shadow the squalid and unhappy destinies of a multitude of hopeless and unmeaning lives. to a certain extent, russia may play the part of a vaster ireland, in her failure to keep pace with the educational and economic progress of nations which have come into economic unity with her. she will be an ireland without emigration, a place for famines. and while russia delays to develop anything but a fecund orthodoxy and this simple peasant life, the grooves and channels are growing ever deeper along which the currents of trade, of intellectual and moral stimulus, must presently flow towards the west. i see no region where anything like the comparatively dense urban regions that are likely to arise about the rhineland and over the eastern states of america, for example, can develop in russia. with railways planned boldly, it would have been possible, it might still be possible, to make about odessa a parallel to chicago, but the existing railways run about odessa as though asia were unknown; and when at last the commercial awakening of what is now the turkish empire comes, the railway lines will probably run, not north or south, but from the urban region of the more scientific central europeans down to constantinople. the long-route land communications in the future will become continually more swift and efficient than baltic navigation, and it is unlikely, therefore, that st. petersburg has any great possibilities of growth. it was founded by a man whose idea of the course of trade and civilization was the sea wholly and solely, and in the future the sea must necessarily become more and more a last resort. with its spacious prospects, its architectural magnificence, its political quality, its desertion by the new commerce, and its terrible peasant hinterland, it may come about that a striking analogy between st. petersburg and dublin will finally appear. so much for the pan-slavic synthesis. it seems improbable that it can prevail against the forces that make for the linguistic and economic annexation of the greater part of european russia and of the minor slavonic masses, to the great western european urban region. the political centre of gravity of russia, in its resistance to these economic movements, is palpably shifting eastward even to-day, but that carries it away from the central european synthesis only towards the vastly more enormous attracting centre of china. politically the russian government may come to dominate china in the coming decades, but the reality beneath any such formal predominance will be the absorption of russia beyond the range of the european pull by the synthesis of eastern asia. neither the russian literature nor the russian language and writing, nor the russian civilization as a whole have the qualities to make them irresistible to the energetic and intelligent millions of the far east. the chances seem altogether against the existence of a great slavonic power in the world at the beginning of the twenty-first century. they seem, at the first glance, to lie just as heavily in favour of an aggressive pan-germanic power struggling towards a great and commanding position athwart central europe and western asia, and turning itself at last upon the defeated slavonic disorder. there can be no doubt that at present the germans, with the doubtful exception of the united states, have the most efficient middle class in the world, their rapid economic progress is to a very large extent, indeed, a triumph of intelligence, and their political and probably their military and naval services are still conducted with a capacity and breadth of view that find no parallel in the world. but the very efficiency of the german as a german to-day, and the habits and traditions of victory he has accumulated for nearly forty years, may prove in the end a very doubtful blessing to europe as a whole, or even to his own grandchildren. geographical contours, economic forces, the trend of invention and social development, point to a unification of all western europe, but they certainly do not point to its germanization. i have already given reasons for anticipating that the french language may not only hold its own, but prevail against german in western europe. and there are certain other obstacles in the way even of the union of indisputable germans. one element in germany's present efficiency must become more and more of an encumbrance as the years pass. the germanic idea is deeply interwoven with the traditional empire and with the martinet methods of the prussian monarchy. the intellectual development of the germans is defined to a very large extent by a court-directed officialdom. in many things that court is still inspired by the noble traditions of education and discipline that come from the days of german adversity, and the predominance of the imperial will does, no doubt, give a unity of purpose to german policy and action that adds greatly to its efficacy. but for a capable ruler, even more than for a radiantly stupid monarch, the price a nation must finally pay is heavy. most energetic and capable people are a little intolerant of unsympathetic capacity, are apt on the under side of their egotism to be jealous, assertive, and aggressive. in the present empire of germany there are no other great figures to balance the imperial personage, and i do not see how other great figures are likely to arise. a great number of fine and capable persons must be failing to develop, failing to tell, under the shadow of this too prepotent monarchy. there are certain limiting restrictions imposed upon germans through the imperial activity, that must finally be bad for the intellectual atmosphere which is germany's ultimate strength. for example, the emperor professes a violent and grotesque christianity with a ferocious pro-teutonic father and a negligible son, and the public mind is warped into conformity with the finally impossible cant of this eccentric creed. his imperial majesty's disposition to regard criticism as hostility stifles the public thought of germany. he interferes in university affairs and in literary and artistic matters with a quite remarkable confidence and incalculable consequences. the inertia of a century carries him and his germany onward from success to success, but for all that one may doubt whether the extraordinary intellectuality that distinguished the german atmosphere in the early years of the century, and in which such men as blumenthal and moltke grew to greatness, in which germany grew to greatness, is not steadily fading in the heat and blaze of the imperial sunshine. discipline and education have carried germany far; they are essential things, but an equally essential need for the coming time is a free play for men of initiative and imagination. is germany to her utmost possibility making capable men? that, after all, is the vital question, and not whether her policy is wise or foolish, or her commercial development inflated or sound. or is germany doing no more than cash the promises of those earlier days? after all, i do not see that she is in a greatly stronger position than was france in the early sixties, and, indeed, in many respects her present predominance is curiously analogous to that of the french empire in those years. death at any time may end the career of the present ruler of germany--there is no certain insurance of one single life. this withdrawal would leave germany organized entirely with reference to a court, and there is no trustworthy guarantee that the succeeding royal personality may not be something infinitely more vain and aggressive, or something weakly self-indulgent or unpatriotic and morally indifferent. much has been done in the past of germany, the infinitely less exacting past, by means of the tutor, the chamberlain, the chancellor, the wide-seeing power beyond the throne, who very unselfishly intrigues his monarch in the way that he should go. but that sort of thing is remarkably like writing a letter by means of a pen held in lazy tongs instead of the hand. a very easily imagined series of accidents may place the destinies of germany in such lazy tongs again. when that occasion comes, will the new class of capable men on which we have convinced ourselves in these anticipations the future depends--will it be ready for its enlarged responsibilities, or will the flower of its possible members be in prison for _lèse majesté_, or naturalized englishmen or naturalized americans or troublesome privates under officers of indisputably aristocratic birth, or well-broken labourers, won "back to the land," under the auspices of an agrarian league? in another way the intensely monarchical and aristocratic organization of the german empire will stand in the way of the political synthesis of greater germany. indispensable factors in that synthesis will be holland and switzerland--little, advantageously situated peoples, saturated with ideas of personal freedom. one can imagine a german swiss, at any rate, merging himself in a great pan-germanic republican state, but to bow the knee to the luridly decorated god of his imperial majesty's fathers will be an altogether more difficult exploit for a self-respecting man.... moreover, before germany can unify to the east she must fight the russian, and to unify to the west she must fight the french and perhaps the english, and she may have to fight a combination of these powers. i think the military strength of france is enormously underrated. upon this matter m. bloch should be read. indisputably the french were beaten in , indisputably they have fallen behind in their long struggle to maintain themselves equal with the english on the sea, but neither of these things efface the future of the french. the disasters of were probably of the utmost benefit to the altogether too sanguine french imagination. they cleared the french mind of the delusion that personal imperialism is the way to do the desirable thing, a delusion many germans (and, it would seem, a few queer englishmen and still queerer americans) entertain. the french have done much to demonstrate the possibility of a stable military republic. they have disposed of crown and court, and held themselves in order for thirty good years; they have dissociated their national life from any form of religious profession; they have contrived a freedom of thought and writing that, in spite of much conceit to the contrary, is quite impossible among the english-speaking peoples. i find no reason to doubt the implication of m. bloch that on land to-day the french are relatively far stronger than they were in , that the evolution of military expedients has been all in favour of the french character and intelligence, and that even a single-handed war between france and germany to-day might have a very different issue from that former struggle. in such a conflict it will be germany, and not france, that will have pawned her strength to the english-speaking peoples on the high seas. and france will not fight alone. she will fight for switzerland or luxembourg, or the mouth of the rhine. she will fight with the gravity of remembered humiliations, with the whole awakened slav-race at the back of her antagonist, and very probably with the support of the english-speaking peoples. it must be pointed out how strong seems the tendency of the german empire to repeat the history of holland upon a larger scale. while the dutch poured out all their strength upon the seas, in a conflict with the english that at the utmost could give them only trade, they let the possibilities of a great low german synthesis pass utterly out of being. (in those days low germany stretched to arras and douay.) they positively dragged the english into the number of their enemies. and to-day the germans invade the sea with a threat and intention that will certainly create a countervailing american navy, fundamentally modify the policy of great britain, such as it is, and very possibly go far to effect the synthesis of the english-speaking peoples. so involved, i do not see that the existing germanic synthesis is likely to prevail in the close economic unity, the urban region that will arise in western europe. i imagine that the german empire--that is, the organized expression of german aggression to-day--will be either shattered or weakened to the pitch of great compromises by a series of wars by land and sea; it will be forced to develop the autonomy of its rational middle class in the struggles that will render these compromises possible, and it will be finally not imperial german ideas, but central european ideas possibly more akin to swiss conceptions, a civilized republicanism finding its clearest expression in the french language, that will be established upon a bilingual basis throughout western europe, and increasingly predominant over the whole european mainland and the mediterranean basin, as the twentieth century closes. the splendid dream of a federal europe, which opened the nineteenth century for france, may perhaps, after all, come to something like realization at the opening of the twenty-first. but just how long these things take, just how easily or violently they are brought about, depends, after all, entirely upon the rise in general intelligence in europe. an ignorant, a merely trained or a merely cultured people, will not understand these coalescences, will fondle old animosities and stage hatreds, and for such a people there must needs be disaster, forcible conformities and war. europe will have her irelands as well as her scotlands, her irelands of unforgettable wrongs, kicking, squalling, bawling most desolatingly, for nothing that any one can understand. there will be great scope for the shareholding dilettanti, great opportunities for literary quacks, in "national" movements, language leagues, picturesque plotting, and the invention of such "national" costumes as the world has never seen. the cry of the little nations will go up to heaven, asserting the inalienable right of all little nations to sit down firmly in the middle of the high-road, in the midst of the thickening traffic, and with all their dear little toys about them, play and play--just as they used to play before the road had come.... and while the great states of the continent of europe are hammering down their obstructions of language and national tradition or raising the educational level above them until a working unity is possible, and while the reconstruction of eastern asia--whether that be under russian, japanese, english, or native chinese direction--struggles towards attainment, will there also be a great synthesis of the english-speaking peoples going on? i am inclined to believe that there will be such a synthesis, and that the head and centre of the new unity will be the great urban region that is developing between chicago and the atlantic, and which will lie mainly, but not entirely, south of the st. lawrence. inevitably, i think, that region must become the intellectual, political, and industrial centre of any permanent unification of the english-speaking states. there will, i believe, develop about that centre a great federation of white english-speaking peoples, a federation having america north of mexico as its central mass (a federation that may conceivably include scandinavia) and its federal government will sustain a common fleet, and protect or dominate or actually administer most or all of the non-white states of the present british empire, and in addition much of the south and middle pacific, the east and west indies, the rest of america, and the larger part of black africa. quite apart from the dominated races, such an english-speaking state should have by the century-end a practically homogeneous citizenship of at least a hundred million sound-bodied and educated and capable _men_. it should be the first of the three powers of the world, and it should face the organizing syntheses of europe and eastern asia with an intelligent sympathy. by the year all its common citizens should certainly be in touch with the thought of continental europe through the medium of french; its english language should be already rooting firmly through all the world beyond its confines, and its statesmanship should be preparing openly and surely, and discussing calmly with the public mind of the european, and probably of the yellow state, the possible coalescences and conventions, the obliteration of custom-houses, the homologization of laws and coinage and measures, and the mitigation of monopolies and special claims, by which the final peace of the world may be assured for ever. such a synthesis, at any rate, of the peoples now using the english tongue, i regard not only as a possible, but as a probable, thing. the positive obstacles to its achievement, great though they are, are yet trivial in comparison with the obstructions to that lesser european synthesis we have ventured to forecast. the greater obstacle is negative, it lies in the want of stimulus, in the lax prosperity of most of the constituent states of such a union. but such a stimulus, the renascence of eastern asia, or a great german fleet upon the ocean, may presently supply. now, all these three great coalescences, this shrivelling up and vanishing of boundary lines, will be the outward and visible accompaniment of that inward and social reorganization which it is the main object of these anticipations to display. i have sought to show that in peace and war alike a process has been and is at work, a process with all the inevitableness and all the patience of a natural force, whereby the great swollen, shapeless, hypertrophied social mass of to-day must give birth at last to a naturally and informally organized, educated class, an unprecedented sort of people, a new republic dominating the world. it will be none of our ostensible governments that will effect this great clearing up; it will be the mass of power and intelligence altogether outside the official state systems of to-day that will make this great clearance, a new social hercules that will strangle the serpents of war and national animosity in his cradle. now, the more one descends from the open uplands of wide generalization to the parallel jungle of particulars, the more dangerous does the road of prophesying become, yet nevertheless there may be some possibility of speculating how, in the case of the english-speaking synthesis at least, this effective new republic may begin visibly to shape itself out and appear. it will appear first, i believe, as a conscious organization of intelligent and quite possibly in some cases wealthy men, as a movement having distinct social and political aims, confessedly ignoring most of the existing apparatus of political control, or using it only as an incidental implement in the attainment of these aims. it will be very loosely organized in its earlier stages, a mere movement of a number of people in a certain direction, who will presently discover with a sort of surprise the common object towards which they are all moving. already there are some interesting aspects of public activity that, diverse though their aims may seem, do nevertheless serve to show the possible line of development of this new republic in the coming time. for example, as a sort of preliminary sigh before the stirring of a larger movement, there are various anglo-american movements and leagues to be noted. associations for entertaining travelling samples of the american leisure class in guaranteed english country houses, for bringing them into momentary physical contact with real titled persons at lunches and dinners, and for having them collectively lectured by respectable english authors and divines, are no doubt trivial things enough; but a snob sometimes shows how the wind blows better than a serious man. the empire may catch the american as the soldier caught the tartar. there is something very much more spacious than such things as this, latent in both the british and the american mind, and observable, for instance, in the altered tone of the presses of both countries since the venezuela message and the spanish american war. certain projects of a much ampler sort have already been put forward. an interesting proposal of an interchangeable citizenship, so that with a change of domicile an englishman should have the chance of becoming a citizen of the united states, and an american a british citizen or a voter in an autonomous british colony, for example, has been made. such schemes will, no doubt, become frequent, and will afford much scope for discussion in both countries during the next decade or so.[ ] the american constitution and the british crown and constitution have to be modified or shelved at some stage in this synthesis, and for certain types of intelligence there could be no more attractive problem. certain curious changes in the colonial point of view will occur as these discussions open out. the united states of america are rapidly taking, or have already taken, the ascendency in the iron and steel and electrical industries out of the hands of the british; they are developing a far ampler and more thorough system of higher scientific education than the british, and the spirit of efficiency percolating from their more efficient businesses is probably higher in their public services. these things render the transfer of the present mercantile and naval ascendency of great britain to the united states during the next two or three decades a very probable thing, and when this is accomplished the problem how far colonial loyalty is the fruit of royal visits and sporadic knighthoods, and how far it has relation to the existence of a predominant fleet, will be near its solution. an interesting point about such discussions as this, in which indeed in all probability the nascent consciousness of the new republic will emerge, will be the solution this larger synthesis will offer to certain miserable difficulties of the present time. government by the elect of the first families of great britain has in the last hundred years made ireland and south africa two open sores of irreconcilable wrong. these two english-speaking communities will never rest and never emerge from wretchedness under the vacillating vote-catching incapacity of british imperialism, and it is impossible that the british power, having embittered them, should ever dare to set them free. but within such an ampler synthesis as the new republic will seek, these states could emerge to an equal fellowship that would take all the bitterness from their unforgettable past. another type of public activity which foreshadows an aspect under which the new republic will emerge is to be found in the unofficial organizations that have come into existence in great britain to watch and criticize various public departments. there is, for example, the navy league, a body of intelligent and active persons with a distinctly expert qualification which has intervened very effectively in naval control during the last few years. there is also at present a vast amount of disorganized but quite intelligent discontent with the tawdry futilities of army reform that occupy the war office. it becomes apparent that there is no hope of a fully efficient and well-equipped official army under parliamentary government, and with that realization there will naturally appear a disposition to seek some way to military efficiency, as far as is legally possible, outside war office control. already recruiting is falling off, it will probably fall off more and more as the patriotic emotions evoked by the boer war fade away, and no trivial addition to pay or privilege will restore it. elementary education has at last raised the intelligence of the british lower classes to a point when the prospect of fighting in distant lands under unsuitably educated british officers of means and gentility with a defective war office equipment and inferior weapons has lost much of its romantic glamour. but an unofficial body that set itself to the establishment of a school of military science, to the sane organization and criticism of military experiments in tactics and equipment, and to the raising for experimental purposes of volunteer companies and battalions, would find no lack of men.... what an unofficial syndicate of capable persons of the new sort may do in these matters has been shown in the case of the _turbinia_, the germ of an absolute revolution in naval construction. such attempts at unofficial soldiering would be entirely in the spirit in which i believe the new republic will emerge, but it is in another line of activity that the growing new consciousness will presently be much more distinctly apparent. it is increasingly evident that to organize and control public education is beyond the power of a democratic government. the meanly equipped and pretentiously conducted private schools of great britain, staffed with ignorant and incapable young men, exist, on the other hand, to witness that public education is no matter to be left to merely commercial enterprise working upon parental ignorance and social prejudice. the necessary condition to the effective development of the new republic is a universally accessible, spacious, and varied educational system working in an atmosphere of efficient criticism and general intellectual activity. schools alone are of no avail, universities are merely dens of the higher cramming, unless the schoolmasters and schoolmistresses and lecturers are in touch with and under the light of an abundant, contemporary, and fully adult intellectuality. at present, in great britain at least, the headmasters entrusted with the education of the bulk of the influential men of the next decades are conspicuously second-rate men, forced and etiolated creatures, scholarship boys manured with annotated editions, and brought up under and protected from all current illumination by the kale-pot of the thirty-nine articles. many of them are less capable teachers and even less intelligent men than many board school teachers. there is, however, urgent need of an absolutely new type of school--a school that shall be, at least, so skilfully conducted as to supply the necessary training in mathematics, dialectics, languages, and drawing, and the necessary knowledge of science, without either consuming all the leisure of the boy or destroying his individuality, as it is destroyed by the ignorant and pretentious blunderers of to-day; and there is an equally manifest need of a new type of university, something other than a happy fastness for those precociously brilliant creatures--creatures whose brilliance is too often the hectic indication of a constitutional unsoundness of mind--who can "get in" before the portcullis of the nineteenth birthday falls. these new educational elements may either grow slowly through the steady and painful pressure of remorseless facts, or, as the effort to evoke the new republic becomes more conscious and deliberate, they may be rapidly brought into being by the conscious endeavours of capable men. assuredly they will never be developed by the wisdom of the governments of the grey. it may be pointed out that in an individual and disorganized way a growing sense of such needs is already displayed. such great business managers as mr. andrew carnegie, for example, and many other of the wealthy efficients of the united states of america, are displaying a strong disinclination to found families of functionless shareholders, and a strong disposition to contribute, by means of colleges, libraries, and splendid foundations, to the future of the whole english-speaking world. of course, mr. carnegie is not an educational specialist, and his good intentions will be largely exploited by the energetic mediocrities who control our educational affairs. but it is the intention that concerns us now, and not the precise method or effect. indisputably these rich americans are at a fundamentally important work in these endowments, and as indisputably many of their successors--i do not mean the heirs to their private wealth, but the men of the same type who will play their _rôle_ in the coming years--will carry on this spacious work with a wider prospect and a clearer common understanding. the establishment of modern and efficient schools is alone not sufficient for the intellectual needs of the coming time. the school and university are merely the preparation for the life of mental activity in which the citizen of the coming state will live. the three years of university and a lifetime of garrulous stagnation which constitutes the mind's history of many a public schoolmaster, for example, and most of the clergy to-day, will be impossible under the new needs. the old-fashioned university, secure in its omniscience, merely taught; the university of the coming time will, as its larger function, criticize and learn. it will be organized for research--for the criticism, that is, of thought and nature. and a subtler and a greater task before those who will presently swear allegiance to the new republic is to aid and stimulate that process of sound adult mental activity which is the cardinal element in human life. after all, in spite of the pretentious impostors who trade upon the claim, literature, contemporary literature, is the breath of civilized life, and those who sincerely think and write the salt of the social body. to mumble over the past, to live on the classics, however splendid, is senility. the new republic, therefore, will sustain its authors. in the past the author lived within the limits of his patron's susceptibility, and led the world, so far as he did lead it, from that cage. in the present he lives within the limits of a particularly distressful and ill-managed market. he must please and interest the public before he may reason with it, and even to reach the public ear involves other assiduities than writing. to write one's best is surely sufficient work for a man, but unless the author is prepared to add to his literary toil the correspondence and alert activity of a business man, he may find that no measure of acceptance will save him from a mysterious poverty. publishing has become a trade, differing only from the trade in pork or butter in the tradesman's careless book-keeping and his professed indifference to the quality of his goods. but unless the whole mass of argument in these anticipations is false, publishing is as much, or even more, of a public concern than education, and as little to be properly discharged by private men working for profit. on the other hand, it is not to be undertaken by a government of the grey, for a confusion cannot undertake to clarify itself; it is an activity in which the new republic will necessarily engage. the men of the new republic will be intelligently critical men, and they will have the courage of their critical conclusions. for the sake of the english tongue, for the sake of the english peoples, they will set themselves to put temptingly within the reach of all readers of the tongue, and all possible readers of the tongue, an abundance of living literature. they will endeavour to shape great publishing trusts and associations that will have the same relation to the publishing office of to-day that a medical association has to a patent-medicine dealer. they will not only publish, but sell; their efficient book-shops, their efficient system of book-distribution will replace the present haphazard dealings of quite illiterate persons under whose shadows people in the provinces live.[ ] if one of these publishing groups decides that a book, new or old, is of value to the public mind, i conceive the copyright will be secured and the book produced all over the world in every variety of form and price that seems necessary to its exhaustive sale. moreover, these publishing associations will sustain spaciously conceived organs of opinion and criticism, which will begin by being patiently and persistently good, and so develop into power. and the more distinctly the new republic emerges, the less danger there will be of these associations being allowed to outlive their service in a state of ossified authority. new groups of men and new phases of thought will organize their publishing associations as children learn to talk.[ ] and while the new republic is thus developing its idea of itself and organizing its mind, it will also be growing out of the confused and intricate businesses and undertakings and public services of the present time, into a recognizable material body. the synthetic process that is going on in the case of many of the larger of the businesses of the world, that formation of trusts that bulks so large in american discussion, is of the utmost significance in this connection. conceivably the first impulse to form trusts came from a mere desire to control competition and economize working expenses, but even in its very first stages this process of coalescence has passed out of the region of commercial operations into that of public affairs. the trust develops into the organization under men far more capable than any sort of public officials, of entire industries, of entire departments of public life, quite outside the ostensible democratic government system altogether. the whole apparatus of communications, which we have seen to be of such primary importance in the making of the future, promises to pass, in the case of the united states at least, out of the region of scramble into the domain of deliberate control. even to-day the trusts are taking over quite consciously the most vital national matters. the american iron and steel industries have been drawn together and developed in a manner that is a necessary preliminary to the capture of the empire of the seas. that end is declaredly within the vista of these operations, within their initial design. these things are not the work of dividend-hunting imbeciles, but of men who regard wealth as a convention, as a means to spacious material ends. there is an animated little paper published in los angeles in the interests of mr. wilshire, which bears upon its forefront the maxim, "let the nation own the trusts." well, under their mantle of property, the trusts grow continually more elaborate and efficient machines of production and public service, while the formal nation chooses its bosses and buttons and reads its illustrated press. i must confess i do not see the negro and the poor irishman and all the emigrant sweepings of europe, which constitute the bulk of the american abyss, uniting to form that great socialist party of which mr. wilshire dreams, and with a little demonstrating and balloting taking over the foundry and the electrical works, the engine shed and the signal box, from the capable men in charge. but that a confluent system of trust-owned business organisms, and of universities and re-organized military and naval services may presently discover an essential unity of purpose, presently begin thinking a literature, and behaving like a state, is a much more possible thing.... in its more developed phases i seem to see the new republic as (if i may use an expressive bull) a sort of outspoken secret society, with which even the prominent men of the ostensible state may be openly affiliated. a vast number of men admit the need but hesitate at the means of revolution, and in this conception of a slowly growing new social order organized with open deliberation within the substance of the old, there are no doubt elements of technical treason, but an enormous gain in the thoroughness, efficiency, and stability of the possible change. so it is, or at least in some such ways, that i conceive the growing sense of itself which the new class of modern efficients will develop, will become manifest in movements and concerns that are now heterogeneous and distinct, but will presently drift into co-operation and coalescence. this idea of a synthetic reconstruction within the bodies of the english-speaking states may very possibly clothe itself in quite other formulæ than my phrase of the new republic; but the need is with us, the social elements are developing among us, the appliances are arranging themselves for the hands that will use them, and i cannot but believe that the idea of a spacious common action will presently come. in a few years i believe many men who are now rather aimless--men who have disconsolately watched the collapse of the old liberalism--will be clearly telling themselves and one another of their adhesion to this new ideal. they will be working in schools and newspaper offices, in foundries and factories, in colleges and laboratories, in county councils and on school boards--even, it may be, in pulpits--for the time when the coming of the new republic will be ripe. it may be dawning even in the schools of law, because presently there will be a new and scientific handling of jurisprudence. the highly educated and efficient officers' mess will rise mechanically and drink to the monarch, and sit down to go on discussing the new republic's growth. i do not see, indeed, why an intelligent monarch himself, in these days, should not waive any silliness about divine right, and all the ill-bred pretensions that sit so heavily on a gentlemanly king, and come into the movement with these others. when the growing conception touches, as in america it has already touched, the legacy-leaving class, there will be fewer new asylums perhaps, but more university chairs.... so it is i conceive the elements of the new republic taking shape and running together through the social mass, picking themselves out more and more clearly, from the shareholder, the parasitic speculator and the wretched multitudes of the abyss. the new republicans will constitute an informal and open freemasonry. in all sorts of ways they will be influencing and controlling the apparatus of the ostensible governments, they will be pruning irresponsible property, checking speculators and controlling the abyssward drift, but at that, at an indirect control, at any sort of fiction, the new republic, from the very nature of its cardinal ideas, will not rest. the clearest and simplest statement, the clearest and simplest method, is inevitably associated with the conceptions of that science upon which the new republic will arise. there will be a time, in peace it may be, or under the stresses of warfare, when the new republic will find itself ready to arrive, when the theory will have been worked out and the details will be generally accepted, and the new order will be ripe to begin. and then, indeed, it will begin. what life or strength will be left in the old order to prevent this new order beginning? footnotes: [ ] i foresee great scope for the ingenious persons who write so abundantly to the london evening papers upon etymological points, issues in heraldry, and the correct union jack, in the very pleasing topic of a possible anglo-american flag (for use at first only on unofficial occasions). [ ] in a large town like folkestone, for example, it is practically impossible to buy any book but a "boomed" novel unless one has ascertained the names of the author, the book, the edition, and the publisher. there is no index in existence kept up to date that supplies these particulars. if, for example, one wants--as i want ( ) to read all that i have not read of the work of mr. frank stockton, ( ) to read a book of essays by professor ray lankaster the title of which i have forgotten, and ( ) to buy the most convenient edition of the works of swift, one has to continue wanting until the british museum library chances to get in one's way. the book-selling trade supplies no information at all on these points. [ ] one of the least satisfactory features of the intellectual atmosphere of the present time is the absence of good controversy. to follow closely an honest and subtle controversy, and to have arrived at a definite opinion upon some general question of real and practical interest and complicated reference, is assuredly the most educational exercise in the world--i would go so far as to say that no person is completely educated who has not done as much. the memorable discussions in which huxley figured, for example, were extraordinarily stimulating. we lack that sort of thing now. a great number of people are expressing conflicting opinions upon all sorts of things, but there is a quite remarkable shirking of plain issues of debate. there is no answering back. there is much indirect answering, depreciation of the adversary, attempts to limit his publicity, restatements of the opposing opinion in a new way, but no conflict in the lists. we no longer fight obnoxious views, but assassinate them. from first to last, for example, there has been no honest discussion of the fundamental issues in the boer war. something may be due to the multiplication of magazines and newspapers, and the confusion of opinions that has scattered the controversy-following public. it is much to be regretted that the laws of copyright and the methods of publication stand in the way of annotated editions of works of current controversial value. for example, mr. andrew lang has assailed the new edition of the "golden bough." his criticisms, which are, no doubt, very shrewd and penetrating, ought to be accessible with the text he criticizes. yet numerous people will read his comments who will never read the "golden bough;" they will accept his dinted sword as proof of the slaughter of mr. fraser, and many will read the "golden bough" and never hear of mr. lang's comments. why should it be so hopeless to suggest an edition of the "golden bough" with footnotes by mr. lang and mr. fraser's replies? there are all sorts of books to which mr. lang might add footnotes with infinite benefit to every one. mr. mallock, again, is going to explain how science and religion stand at the present time. if only some one would explain in the margin how mr. mallock stands, the thing would be complete. such a book, again, as these "anticipations" would stand a vast amount of controversial footnoting. it bristles with pegs for discussion--vacant pegs; it is written to provoke. i hope that some publisher, sooner or later, will do something of this kind, and will give us not only the text of an author's work, but a series of footnotes and appendices by reputable antagonists. the experiment, well handled, might prove successful enough to start a fashion--a very beneficial fashion for authors and readers alike. people would write twice as carefully and twice as clearly with that possible second edition (with footnotes by x and y) in view. imagine "the impregnable rock of holy scripture" as it might have been edited by the late professor huxley; froude's edition of the "grammar of assent;" mr. g. b. shaw's edition of the works of mr. lecky; or the criticism of art and life of ruskin,--the "beauties of ruskin" annotated by mr. whistler and carefully prepared for the press by professor william james. like the tomato and the cucumber, every book would carry its antidote wrapped about it. impossible, you say. but is it? or is it only unprecedented? if novelists will consent to the illustration of their stories by artists whose chief aim appears to be to contradict their statements, i do not see why controversial writers who believe their opinions are correct should object to the checking of their facts and logic by persons with a different way of thinking. why should not men of opposite opinions collaborate in their discussion? ix the faith, morals, and public policy of the new republic if the surmise of a developing new republic--a republic that must ultimately become a world state of capable rational men, developing amidst the fading contours and colours of our existing nations and institutions--be indeed no idle dream, but an attainable possibility in the future, and to that end it is that the preceding anticipations have been mainly written, it becomes a speculation of very great interest to forecast something of the general shape and something even of certain details of that common body of opinion which the new republic, when at last it discovers and declares itself, will possess. since we have supposed this new republic will already be consciously and pretty freely controlling the general affairs of humanity before this century closes, its broad principles and opinions must necessarily shape and determine that still ampler future of which the coming hundred years is but the opening phase. there are many processes, many aspects of things, that are now, as it were, in the domain of natural laws and outside human control, or controlled unintelligently and superstitiously, that in the future, in the days of the coming new republic, will be definitely taken in hand as part of the general work of humanity, as indeed already, since the beginning of the nineteenth century, the control of pestilences has been taken in hand. and in particular, there are certain broad questions much under discussion to which, thus far, i have purposely given a value disproportionately small:-- while the new republic is gathering itself together and becoming aware of itself, that other great element, which i have called the people of the abyss, will also have followed out its destiny. for many decades that development will be largely or entirely out of all human control. to the multiplying rejected of the white and yellow civilizations there will have been added a vast proportion of the black and brown races, and collectively those masses will propound the general question, "what will you do with us, we hundreds of millions, who cannot keep pace with you?" if the new republic emerges at all it will emerge by grappling with this riddle; it must come into existence by the passes this sphinx will guard. moreover, the necessary results of the reaction of irresponsible wealth upon that infirm and dangerous thing the human will, the spreading moral rot of gambling which is associated with irresponsible wealth, will have been working out, and will continue to work out, so long as there is such a thing as irresponsible wealth pervading the social body. that too the new republic must in its very development overcome. in the preceding chapter it is clearly implicit that i believe that the new republic, as its consciousness and influence develop together, will meet, check, and control these things; but the broad principles upon which the control will go, the nature of the methods employed, still remain to be deduced. and to make that deduction, it is necessary that the primary conception of life, the fundamental, religious, and moral ideas of these predominant men of the new time should first be considered. now, quite inevitably, these men will be religious men. being themselves, as by the nature of the forces that have selected them they will certainly be, men of will and purpose, they will be disposed to find, and consequently they will find, an effect of purpose in the totality of things. either one must believe the universe to be one and systematic, and held together by some omnipresent quality, or one must believe it to be a casual aggregation, an incoherent accumulation with no unity whatsoever outside the unity of the personality regarding it. all science and most modern religious systems presuppose the former, and to believe the former is, to any one not too anxious to quibble, to believe in god. but i believe that these prevailing men of the future, like many of the saner men of to-day, having so formulated their fundamental belief, will presume to no knowledge whatever, will presume to no possibility of knowledge of the real being of god. they will have no positive definition of god at all. they will certainly not indulge in "that something, not ourselves, that makes for righteousness" (not defined) or any defective claptrap of that sort. they will content themselves with denying the self-contradictory absurdities of an obstinately anthropomorphic theology,[ ] they will regard the whole of being, within themselves and without, as the sufficient revelation of god to their souls, and they will set themselves simply to that revelation, seeking its meaning towards themselves faithfully and courageously. manifestly the essential being of man in this life is his will; he exists consciously only to _do_; his main interest in life is the choice between alternatives; and, since he moves through space and time to effects and consequences, a general purpose in space and time is the limit of his understanding. he can know god only under the semblance of a pervading purpose, of which his own individual freedom of will is a part, but he can understand that the purpose that exists in space and time is no more god than a voice calling out of impenetrable darkness is a man. to men of the kinetic type belief in god so manifest as purpose is irresistible, and, to all lucid minds, the being of god, save as that general atmosphere of imperfectly apprehended purpose in which our individual wills operate, is incomprehensible. to cling to any belief more detailed than this, to define and limit god in order to take hold of him, to detach one's self and parts of the universe from god in some mysterious way in order to reduce life to a dramatic antagonism, is not faith, but infirmity. excessive strenuous belief is not faith. by faith we disbelieve, and it is the drowning man, and not the strong swimmer, who clutches at the floating straw. it is in the nature of man, it is in the present purpose of things, that the real world of our experience and will should appear to us not only as a progressive existence in space and time, but as a scheme of good and evil. but choice, the antagonism of good and evil, just as much as the formulation of things in space and time, is merely a limiting condition of human being, and in the thought of god as we conceive of him in the light of faith, this antagonism vanishes. god is no moralist, god is no partisan; he comprehends and cannot be comprehended, and our business is only with so much of his purpose as centres on our individual wills. so, or in some such phrases, i believe, these men of the new republic will formulate their relationship to god. they will live to serve this purpose that presents him, without presumption and without fear. for the same spacious faith that will render the idea of airing their egotisms in god's presence through prayer, or of any such quite personal intimacy, absurd, will render the idea of an irascible and punitive deity ridiculous and incredible.... the men of the new republic will hold and understand quite clearly the doctrine that in the real world of man's experience, there is free will. they will understand that constantly, as a very condition of his existence, man is exercising choice between alternatives, and that a conflict between motives that have different moral values constantly arises. that conflict between predestination and free will, which is so puzzling to untrained minds, will not exist for them. they will know that in the real world of sensory experience, will is free, just as new sprung grass is green, wood hard, ice cold, and toothache painful. in the abstract world of reasoning science there is no green, no colour at all, but certain lengths of vibration; no hardness, but a certain reaction of molecules; no cold and no pain, but certain molecular consequences in the nerves that reach the misinterpreting mind. in the abstract world of reasoning science, moreover, there is a rigid and inevitable sequence of cause and effect; every act of man could be foretold to its uttermost detail, if only we knew him and all his circumstances fully; in the abstract world of reasoned science all things exist now potentially down to the last moment of infinite time. but the human will does not exist in the abstract world of reasoned science, in the world of atoms and vibrations, that rigidly predestinate scheme of things in space and time. the human will exists in this world of men and women, in this world where the grass is green and desire beckons and the choice is often so wide and clear between the sense of what is desirable and what is more widely and remotely right. in this world of sense and the daily life, these men will believe with an absolute conviction, that there is free will and a personal moral responsibility in relation to that indistinctly seen purpose which is the sufficient revelation of god to them so far as this sphere of being goes.... the conception they will have of that purpose will necessarily determine their ethical scheme. it follows manifestly that if we do really believe in almighty god, the more strenuously and successfully we seek in ourselves and his world to understand the order and progress of things, and the more clearly we apprehend his purpose, the more assured and systematic will our ethical basis become. if, like huxley, we do not positively believe in god, then we may still cling to an ethical system which has become an organic part of our lives and habits, and finding it manifestly in conflict with the purpose of things, speak of the non-ethical order of the universe. but to any one whose mind is pervaded by faith in god, a non-ethical universe in conflict with the incomprehensibly ethical soul of the agnostic, is as incredible as a black horned devil, an active material anti-god with hoofs, tail, pitchfork, and dunstan-scorched nose complete. to believe completely in god is to believe in the final rightness of all being. the ethical system that condemns the ways of life as wrong, or points to the ways of death as right, that countenances what the scheme of things condemns, and condemns the general purpose in things as it is now revealed to us, must prepare to follow the theological edifice upon which it was originally based. if the universe is non-ethical by our present standards, we must reconsider these standards and reconstruct our ethics. to hesitate to do so, however severe the conflict with old habits and traditions and sentiments may be, is to fall short of faith. now, so far as the intellectual life of the world goes, this present time is essentially the opening phase of a period of ethical reconstruction, a reconstruction of which the new republic will possess the matured result. throughout the nineteenth century there has been such a shattering and recasting of fundamental ideas, of the preliminaries to ethical propositions, as the world has never seen before. this breaking down and routing out of almost all the cardinal assumptions on which the minds of the eighteenth century dwelt securely, is a process akin to, but independent of, the development of mechanism, whose consequences we have traced. it is a part of that process of vigorous and fearless criticism which is the reality of science, and of which the development of mechanism and all that revolution in physical and social conditions we have been tracing, is merely the vast imposing material bye product. at present, indeed, its more obvious aspect on the moral and ethical side is destruction, any one can see the chips flying, but it still demands a certain faith and patience to see the form that ensues. but it is not destruction, any more than a sculptor's work is stone-breaking. the first chapter in the history of this intellectual development, its definite and formal opening, coincides with the opening of the nineteenth century and the publication of malthus's _essay on population_. malthus is one of those cardinal figures in intellectual history who state definitely for all time, things apparent enough after their formulation, but never effectively conceded before. he brought clearly and emphatically into the sphere of discussion a vitally important issue that had always been shirked and tabooed heretofore, the fundamental fact that the main mass of the business of human life centres about reproduction. he stated in clear, hard, decent, and unavoidable argument what presently schopenhauer was to discover and proclaim, in language, at times, it would seem, quite unfitted for translation into english. and, having made his statement, malthus left it, in contact with its immediate results. probably no more shattering book than the _essay on population_ has ever been, or ever will be, written. it was aimed at the facile liberalism of the deists and atheists of the eighteenth century; it made as clear as daylight that all forms of social reconstruction, all dreams of earthly golden ages must be either futile or insincere or both, until the problems of human increase were manfully faced. it proffered no suggestions for facing them (in spite of the unpleasant associations of malthus's name), it aimed simply to wither the rationalistic utopias of the time and by anticipation, all the communisms, socialisms, and earthly paradise movements that have since been so abundantly audible in the world. that was its aim and its immediate effect. incidentally it must have been a torturing soul-trap for innumerable idealistic but intelligent souls. its indirect effects have been altogether greater. aiming at unorthodox dreamers, it has set such forces in motion as have destroyed the very root-ideas of orthodox righteousness in the western world. impinging on geological discovery, it awakened almost simultaneously in the minds of darwin and wallace, that train of thought that found expression and demonstration at last in the theory of natural selection. as that theory has been more and more thoroughly assimilated and understood by the general mind, it has destroyed, quietly but entirely, the belief in human equality which is implicit in all the "liberalizing" movements of the world. in the place of an essential equality, distorted only by tradition and early training, by the artifices of those devils of the liberal cosmogony, "kingcraft" and "priestcraft," an equality as little affected by colour as the equality of a black chess pawn and a white, we discover that all men are individual and unique, and, through long ranges of comparison, superior and inferior upon countless scores. it has become apparent that whole masses of human population are, as a whole, inferior in their claim upon the future, to other masses, that they cannot be given opportunities or trusted with power as the superior peoples are trusted, that their characteristic weaknesses are contagious and detrimental in the civilizing fabric, and that their range of incapacity tempts and demoralizes the strong. to give them equality is to sink to their level, to protect and cherish them is to be swamped in their fecundity. the confident and optimistic radicalism of the earlier nineteenth century, and the humanitarian philanthropic type of liberalism, have bogged themselves beyond hope in these realizations. the socialist has shirked them as he has shirked the older crux of malthus. liberalism is a thing of the past, it is no longer a doctrine, but a faction. there must follow some newborn thing. and as effectually has the mass of criticism that centres about darwin destroyed the dogma of the fall upon which the whole intellectual fabric of christianity rests. for without a fall there is no redemption, and the whole theory and meaning of the pauline system is vain. in conjunction with the wide vistas opened by geological and astronomical discovery, the nineteenth century has indeed lost the very habit of thought from which the belief in a fall arose. it is as if a hand had been put upon the head of the thoughtful man and had turned his eyes about from the past to the future. in matters of intelligence, at least, if not yet in matters of ethics and conduct, this turning round has occurred. in the past thought was legal in its spirit, it deduced the present from pre-existing prescription, it derived everything from the offences and promises of the dead; the idea of a universe of expiation was the most natural theory amidst such processes. the purpose the older theologians saw in the world was no more than the revenge--accentuated by the special treatment of a favoured minority--of a mysteriously incompetent deity exasperated by an unsatisfactory creation. but modern thought is altogether too constructive and creative to tolerate such a conception, and in the vaster past that has opened to us, it can find neither offence nor promise, only a spacious scheme of events, opening out--perpetually opening out--with a quality of final purpose as irresistible to most men's minds as it is incomprehensible, opening out with all that inexplicable quality of design that, for example, some great piece of music, some symphony of beethoven's, conveys. we see future beyond future and past behind past. it has been like the coming of dawn, at first a colourless dawn, clear and spacious, before which the mists whirl and fade, and there opens to our eyes not the narrow passage, the definite end we had imagined, but the rocky, ill-defined path we follow high amidst this limitless prospect of space and time. at first the dawn is cold--there is, at times, a quality of terror almost in the cold clearness of the morning twilight; but insensibly its coldness passes, the sky is touched with fire, and presently, up out of the dayspring in the east, the sunlight will be pouring.... and these men of the new republic will be going about in the daylight of things assured. and men's concern under this ampler view will no longer be to work out a system of penalties for the sins of dead men, but to understand and participate in this great development that now dawns on the human understanding. the insoluble problems of pain and death, gaunt, incomprehensible facts as they were, fall into place in the gigantic order that evolution unfolds. all things are integral in the mighty scheme, the slain builds up the slayer, the wolf grooms the horse into swiftness, and the tiger calls for wisdom and courage out of man. all things are integral, but it has been left for men to be consciously integral, to take, at last, a share in the process, to have wills that have caught a harmony with the universal will, as sand grains flash into splendour under the blaze of the sun. there will be many who will never be called to this religious conviction, who will lead their little lives like fools, playing foolishly with religion and all the great issues of life, or like the beasts that perish, having sense alone; but those who, by character and intelligence, are predestinate to participate in the reality of life, will fearlessly shape all their ethical determinations and public policy anew, from a fearless study of themselves and the apparent purpose that opens out before them. very much of the cry for faith that sounds in contemporary life so loudly, and often with so distressing a note of sincerity, comes from the unsatisfied egotisms of unemployed, and, therefore, unhappy and craving people; but much is also due to the distress in the minds of active and serious men, due to the conflict of inductive knowledge, with conceptions of right and wrong deduced from unsound, but uncriticised, first principles. the old ethical principles, the principle of equivalents or justice, the principle of self-sacrifice, the various vague and arbitrary ideas of purity, chastity, and sexual "sin," came like rays out of the theological and philosophical lanterns men carried in the darkness. the ray of the lantern indicated and directed, and one followed it as one follows a path. but now there has come a new view of man's place in the scheme of time and space, a new illumination, dawn; the lantern rays fade in the growing brightness, and the lanterns that shone so brightly are becoming smoky and dim. to many men this is no more than a waning of the lanterns, and they call for new ones, or a trimming of the old. they blame the day for putting out these flares. and some go apart, out of the glare of life, into corners of obscurity, where the radiation of the lantern may still be faintly traced. but, indeed, with the new light there has come the time for new methods; the time of lanterns, the time of deductions from arbitrary first principles is over. the act of faith is no longer to follow your lantern, but to put it down. we can see about us, and by the landscape we must go.[ ] how will the landscape shape itself to the dominant men of the new time and in relation to themselves? what is the will and purpose that these men of will and purpose will find above and comprehending their own? into this our inquiry resolves itself. they will hold with schopenhauer, i believe, and with those who build themselves on malthus and darwin, that the scheme of being, in which we live is a struggle of existences to expand and develop themselves to their full completeness, and to propagate and increase themselves. but, being men of action, they will feel nothing of the glamour of misery that irresponsible and sexually vitiated shareholder, schopenhauer, threw over this recognition. the final object of this struggle among existences they will not understand; they will have abandoned the search for ultimates; they will state this scheme of a struggle as a proximate object, sufficiently remote and spacious to enclose and explain all their possible activities. they will seek god's purpose in the sphere of their activities, and desire no more, as the soldier in battle desires no more, than the immediate conflict before him. they will admit failure as an individual aspect of things, as a soldier seeking victory admits the possibility of death; but they will refuse to admit as a part of their faith in god that any existence, even if it is an existence that is presently entirely erased, can be needless or vain. it will have reacted on the existences that survive; it will be justified for ever in the modification it has produced in them. they will find in themselves--it must be remembered i am speaking of a class that has naturally segregated, and not of men as a whole--a desire, a passion almost, to create and organize, to put in order, to get the maximum result from certain possibilities. they will all be artists in reality, with a passion for simplicity and directness and an impatience of confusion and inefficiency. the determining frame of their ethics, the more spacious scheme to which they will shape the schemes of their individual wills, will be the elaboration of that future world state to which all things are pointing. they will not conceive of it as a millennial paradise, a blissful inconsequent stagnation, but as a world state of active ampler human beings, full of knowledge and energy, free from much of the baseness and limitations, the needless pains and dishonours of the world disorder of to-day, but still struggling, struggling against ampler but still too narrow restrictions and for still more spacious objects than our vistas have revealed. for that as a general end, for the special work that contributes to it as an individual end, they will make the plans and the limiting rules of their lives. it is manifest that a reconstructed ethical system, reconstructed in the light of modern science and to meet the needs of such temperaments and characters as the evolution of mechanism will draw together and develop, will give very different values from those given by the existing systems (if they can be called systems) to almost all the great matters of conduct. under scientific analysis the essential facts of life are very clearly shown to be two--birth and death. all life is the effort of the thing born, driven by fears, guided by instincts and desires, to evade death, to evade even the partial death of crippling or cramping or restriction, and to attain to effective procreation, to the victory of another birth. procreation is the triumph of the living being over death; and in the case of man, who adds mind to his body, it is not only in his child but in the dissemination of his thought, the expression of his mind in things done and made, that his triumph is to be found. and the ethical system of these men of the new republic, the ethical system which will dominate the world state, will be shaped primarily to favour the procreation of what is fine and efficient and beautiful in humanity--beautiful and strong bodies, clear and powerful minds, and a growing body of knowledge--and to check the procreation of base and servile types, of fear-driven and cowardly souls, of all that is mean and ugly and bestial in the souls, bodies, or habits of men. to do the latter is to do the former; the two things are inseparable. and the method that nature has followed hitherto in the shaping of the world, whereby weakness was prevented from propagating weakness, and cowardice and feebleness were saved from the accomplishment of their desires, the method that has only one alternative, the method that must in some cases still be called in to the help of man, is death. in the new vision death is no inexplicable horror, no pointless terminal terror to the miseries of life, it is the end of all the pain of life, the end of the bitterness of failure, the merciful obliteration of weak and silly and pointless things.... the new ethics will hold life to be a privilege and a responsibility, not a sort of night refuge for base spirits out of the void; and the alternative in right conduct between living fully, beautifully, and efficiently will be to die. for a multitude of contemptible and silly creatures, fear-driven and helpless and useless, unhappy or hatefully happy in the midst of squalid dishonour, feeble, ugly, inefficient, born of unrestrained lusts, and increasing and multiplying through sheer incontinence and stupidity, the men of the new republic will have little pity and less benevolence. to make life convenient for the breeding of such people will seem to them not the most virtuous and amiable thing in the world, as it is held to be now, but an exceedingly abominable proceeding. procreation is an avoidable thing for sane persons of even the most furious passions, and the men of the new republic will hold that the procreation of children who, by the circumstances of their parentage, _must_ be diseased bodily or mentally--i do not think it will be difficult for the medical science of the coming time to define such circumstances--is absolutely the most loathsome of all conceivable sins. they will hold, i anticipate, that a certain portion of the population--the small minority, for example, afflicted with indisputably transmissible diseases, with transmissible mental disorders, with such hideous incurable habits of mind as the craving for intoxication--exists only on sufferance, out of pity and patience, and on the understanding that they do not propagate; and i do not foresee any reason to suppose that they will hesitate to kill when that sufferance is abused. and i imagine also the plea and proof that a grave criminal is also insane will be regarded by them not as a reason for mercy, but as an added reason for death. i do not see how they can think otherwise on the principles they will profess. the men of the new republic will not be squeamish, either, in facing or inflicting death, because they will have a fuller sense of the possibilities of life than we possess. they will have an ideal that will make killing worth the while; like abraham, they will have the faith to kill, and they will have no superstitions about death. they will naturally regard the modest suicide of incurably melancholy, or diseased or helpless persons as a high and courageous act of duty rather than a crime. and since they will regard, as indeed all men raised above a brutish level do regard, a very long term of imprisonment as infinitely worse than death, as being, indeed, death with a living misery added to its natural terror, they will, i conceive, where the whole tenor of a man's actions, and not simply some incidental or impulsive action, seems to prove him unfitted for free life in the world, consider him carefully, and condemn him, and remove him from being. all such killing will be done with an opiate, for death is too grave a thing to be made painful or dreadful, and used as a deterrent from crime. if deterrent punishments are used at all in the code of the future, the deterrent will neither be death, nor mutilation of the body, nor mutilation of the life by imprisonment, nor any horrible things like that, but good scientifically caused pain, that will leave nothing but a memory. yet even the memory of overwhelming pain is a sort of mutilation of the soul. the idea that only those who are fit to live freely in an orderly world-state should be permitted to live, is entirely against the use of deterrent punishments at all. against outrageous conduct to children or women, perhaps, or for very cowardly or brutal assaults of any sort, the men of the future may consider pain a salutary remedy, at least during the ages of transition while the brute is still at large. but since most acts of this sort done under conditions that neither torture nor exasperate, point to an essential vileness in the perpetrator, i am inclined to think that even in these cases the men of the coming time will be far less disposed to torture than to kill. they will have another aspect to consider. the conscious infliction of pain _for the sake of the pain_ is against the better nature of man, and it is unsafe and demoralizing for any one to undertake this duty. to kill under the seemly conditions science will afford is a far less offensive thing. the rulers of the future will grudge making good people into jailers, warders, punishment-dealers, nurses, and attendants on the bad. people who cannot live happily and freely in the world without spoiling the lives of others are better out of it. that is a current sentiment even to-day, but the men of the new republic will have the courage of their opinions. and the type of men that i conceive emerging in the coming years will deal simply and logically not only with the business of death, but with birth. at present the sexual morality of the civilized world is the most illogical and incoherent system of wild permissions and insane prohibitions, foolish tolerance and ruthless cruelty that it is possible to imagine. our current civilization is a sexual lunatic. and it has lost its reason in this respect under the stresses of the new birth of things, largely through the difficulties that have stood in the way, and do still, in a diminishing degree, stand in the way of any sane discussion of the matter as a whole. to approach it is to approach excitement. so few people seem to be leading happy and healthy sexual lives that to mention the very word "sexual" is to set them stirring, to brighten the eye, lower the voice, and blanch or flush the cheek with a flavour of guilt. we are all, as it were, keeping our secrets and hiding our shames. one of the most curious revelations of this fact occurred only a few years ago, when the artless outpourings in fiction of certain young women who had failed to find light on problems that pressed upon them for solution (and which it was certainly their business as possible wives and mothers to solve) roused all sorts of respectable people to a quite insane vehemence of condemnation. now, there are excellent reasons and a permanent necessity for the preservation of decency, and for a far more stringent suppression of matter that is merely intended to excite than at present obtains, and the chief of these reasons lies in the need of preserving the young from a premature awakening, and indeed, in the interests of civilization, in positively delaying the period of awakening, retarding maturity and lengthening the period of growth and preparation as much as possible. but purity and innocence may be prolonged too late; innocence is really no more becoming to adults than a rattle or a rubber consoler, and the bashfulness that hampers this discussion, that permits it only in a furtive silly sort of way, has its ugly consequences in shames and cruelties, in miserable households and pitiful crises, in the production of countless, needless, and unhappy lives. indeed, too often we carry our decency so far as to make it suggestive and stimulating in a non-natural way; we invest the plain business of reproduction with a mystic religious quality far more unwholesome than a savage nakedness could possibly be. the essential aspect of all this wild and windy business of the sexual relations is, after all, births. upon this plain fact the people of the emergent new republic will unhesitatingly go. the pre-eminent value of sexual questions in morality lies in the fact that the lives which will constitute the future are involved. if they are not involved, if we can dissociate this relationship from this issue, then sexual questions become of no more importance than the morality of one's deportment at chess, or the general morality of outdoor games. indeed, then the question of sexual relationships would be entirely on all fours with, and probably very analogous to, the question of golf. in each case it would be for the medical man and the psychologist to decide how far the thing was wholesome and permissible, and how far it was an aggressive bad habit and an absorbing waste of time and energy. an able-bodied man continually addicted to love-making that had no result in offspring would be just as silly and morally objectionable as an able-bodied man who devoted his chief energies to hitting little balls over golf-links. but no more. both would probably be wasting the lives of other human beings--the golfer must employ his caddie. it is entirely the matter of births, and a further consideration to be presently discussed, that makes this analogy untrue. it does not, however, make it so untrue as to do away with the probability that in many cases the emergent men of the new time will consider sterile gratification a moral and legitimate thing. st. paul tells us that it is better to marry than to burn, but to beget children on that account will appear, i imagine, to these coming men as an absolutely loathsome proceeding. they will stifle no spread of knowledge that will diminish the swarming misery of childhood in the slums, they will regard the disinclination of the witless "society" woman to become a mother as a most amiable trait in her folly. in our bashfulness about these things we talk an abominable lot of nonsense; all this uproar one hears about the rapid multiplication of the unfit and the future of the lower races takes on an entirely different complexion directly we face known, if indelicate, facts. most of the human types, that by civilized standards are undesirable, are quite willing to die out through such suppressions if the world will only encourage them a little. they multiply in sheer ignorance, but they do not desire multiplication even now, and they can easily be made to dread it. sensuality aims not at life, but at itself. i believe that the men of the new republic will deliberately shape their public policy along these lines. they will rout out and illuminate urban rookeries and all places where the base can drift to multiply; they will contrive a land legislation that will keep the black, or yellow, or mean-white squatter on the move; they will see to it that no parent can make a profit out of a child, so that childbearing shall cease to be a hopeful speculation for the unemployed poor; and they will make the maintenance of a child the first charge upon the parents who have brought it into the world. only in this way can progress escape being clogged by the products of the security it creates. the development of science has lifted famine and pestilence from the shoulders of man, and it will yet lift war--for some other end than to give him a spell of promiscuous and finally cruel and horrible reproduction. no doubt the sentimentalist and all whose moral sense has been vigorously trained in the old school will find this rather a dreadful suggestion; it amounts to saying that for the abyss to become a "hotbed" of sterile immorality will fall in with the deliberate policy of the ruling class in the days to come. at any rate, it will be a terminating evil. at present the abyss is a hotbed breeding undesirable and too often fearfully miserable children. _that_ is something more than a sentimental horror. under the really very horrible morality of to-day, the spectacle of a mean-spirited, under-sized, diseased little man, quite incapable of earning a decent living even for himself, married to some underfed, ignorant, ill-shaped, plain and diseased little woman, and guilty of the lives of ten or twelve ugly ailing children, is regarded as an extremely edifying spectacle, and the two parents consider their reproductive excesses as giving them a distinct claim upon less fecund and more prosperous people. benevolent persons throw themselves with peculiar ardour into a case of this sort, and quite passionate efforts are made to strengthen the mother against further eventualities and protect the children until they attain to nubile years. until the attention of the benevolent persons is presently distracted by a new case.... yet so powerful is the suggestion of current opinions that few people seem to see nowadays just what a horrible and criminal thing this sort of family, seen from the point of view of social physiology, appears. and directly such principles as these come into effective operation, and i believe that the next hundred years will see this new phase of the human history beginning, there will recommence a process of physical and mental improvement in mankind, a raising and elaboration of the average man, that has virtually been in suspense during the greater portion of the historical period. it is possible that in the last hundred years, in the more civilized states of the world, the average of humanity has positively fallen. all our philanthropists, all our religious teachers, seem to be in a sort of informal conspiracy to preserve an atmosphere of mystical ignorance about these matters, which, in view of the irresistible nature of the sexual impulse, results in a swelling tide of miserable little lives. consider what it will mean to have perhaps half the population of the world, in every generation, restrained from or tempted to evade reproduction! this thing, this euthanasia of the weak and sensual, is possible. on the principles that will probably animate the predominant classes of the new time, it will be permissible, and i have little or no doubt that in the future it will be planned and achieved. if birth were all the making of a civilized man, the men of the future, on the general principles we have imputed to them, would under no circumstances find the birth of a child, healthy in body and brain, more than the most venial of offences. but birth gives only the beginning, the raw material, of a civilized man. the perfect civilized man is not only a sound strong body but a very elaborate fabric of mind. he is a fabric of moral suggestions that become mental habits, a magazine of more or less systematized ideas, a scheme of knowledge and training and an æsthetic culture. he is the child not only of parents but of a home and of an education. he has to be carefully guarded from physical and moral contagions. a reasonable probability of ensuring home and education and protection without any parasitic dependence on people outside the kin of the child, will be a necessary condition to a moral birth under such general principles as we have supposed. now, this sweeps out of reason any such promiscuity of healthy people as the late mr. grant allen is supposed to have advocated--but, so far as i can understand him, did not. but whether it works out to the taking over of the permanent monogamic marriage of the old morality, as a going concern, is another matter. upon this matter i must confess my views of the trend of things in the future do not seem to be finally shaped. the question involves very obscure physiological and psychological considerations. a man who aims to become a novelist naturally pries into these matters whenever he can, but the vital facts are very often hard to come by. it is probable that a great number of people could be paired off in couples who would make permanently happy and successful monogamic homes for their sound and healthy children. at any rate, if a certain freedom of regrouping were possible within a time limit, this might be so. but i am convinced that a large proportion of married couples in the world to-day are not completely and happily matched, that there is much mutual limitation, mutual annulment and mutual exasperation. home with an atmosphere of contention is worse than none for the child, and it is the interest of the child, and that alone, that will be the test of all these things. i do not think that the arrangement in couples is universally applicable, or that celibacy (tempered by sterile vice) should be its only alternative. nor can i see why the union of two childless people should have an indissoluble permanence or prohibit an ampler grouping. the question is greatly complicated by the economic disadvantage of women, which makes wifehood the chief feminine profession, while only for an incidental sort of man is marriage a source of income, and further by the fact that most women have a period of maximum attractiveness after which it would be grossly unfair to cast them aside. from the point of view we are discussing, the efficient mother who can make the best of her children, is the most important sort of person in the state. she is a primary necessity to the coming civilization. can the wife in any sort of polygamic arrangement, or a woman of no assured status, attain to the maternal possibilities of the ideal monogamic wife? one is disposed to answer, no. but then, on the other hand, does the ordinary monogamic wife do that? we are dealing with the finer people of the future, strongly individualized people, who will be much freer from stereotyped moral suggestions and much less inclined to be dealt with wholesale than the people of to-day. i have already shown cause in these anticipations to expect a period of disorder and hypocrisy in matters of sexual morality. i am inclined to think that, when the new republic emerges on the other side of this disorder, there will be a great number of marriage contracts possible between men and women, and that the strong arm of the state will insist only upon one thing--the security and welfare of the child. the inevitable removal of births from the sphere of an uncontrollable providence to the category of deliberate acts, will enormously enhance the responsibility of the parent--and of the state that has failed to adequately discourage the philoprogenitiveness of the parent--towards the child. having permitted the child to come into existence, public policy and the older standard of justice alike demand, under these new conditions, that it must be fed, cherished, and educated, not merely up to a respectable minimum, but to the full height of its possibilities. the state will, therefore, be the reserve guardian of all children. if they are being undernourished, if their education is being neglected, the state will step in, take over the responsibility of their management, and enforce their charge upon the parents. the first liability of a parent will be to his child, and for his child; even the dues of that darling of our current law, the landlord, will stand second to that. this conception of the responsibility of the parents and the state to the child and the future runs quite counter to the general ideas of to-day. these general ideas distort grim realities. under the most pious and amiable professions, all the christian states of to-day are, as a matter of fact, engaged in slave-breeding. the chief result, though of course it is not the intention, of the activities of priest and moralist to-day in these matters, is to lure a vast multitude of little souls into this world, for whom there is neither sufficient food, nor love, nor schools, nor any prospect at all in life but the insufficient bread of servitude. it is a result that endears religion and purity to the sweating employer, and leads unimaginative bishops, who have never missed a meal in their lives, and who know nothing of the indescribable bitterness of a handicapped entry into this world, to draw a complacent contrast with irreligious france. it is a result that must necessarily be recognized in its reality, and faced by these men who will presently emerge to rule the world; men who will have neither the plea of ignorance, nor moral stupidity, nor dogmatic revelation to excuse such elaborate cruelty. and having set themselves in these ways to raise the quality of human birth, the new republicans will see to it that the children who do at last effectually get born come into a world of spacious opportunity. the half-educated, unskilled pretenders, professing impossible creeds and propounding ridiculous curricula, to whom the unhappy parents of to-day must needs entrust the intelligences of their children; these heavy-handed barber-surgeons of the mind, these schoolmasters, with their ragtag and bobtail of sweated and unqualified assistants, will be succeeded by capable, self-respecting men and women, constituting the most important profession of the world. the windy pretences of "forming character," supplying moral training, and so forth, under which the educationalist of to-day conceals the fact that he is incapable of his proper task of training, developing and equipping the mind, will no longer be made by the teacher. nor will the teacher be permitted to subordinate his duties to the entirely irrelevant business of his pupils' sports. the teacher will teach, and confine his moral training, beyond enforcing truth and discipline, to the exhibition of a capable person doing his duty as well as it can be done. he will know that his utmost province is only a part of the educational process, that equally important educational influences are the home and the world of thought about the pupil and himself. the whole world will be thinking and learning; the old idea of "completing" one's education will have vanished with the fancy of a static universe; every school will be a preparatory school, every college. the school and college will probably give only the keys and apparatus of thought, a necessary language or so, thoroughly done, a sound mathematical training, drawing, a wide and reasoned view of philosophy, some good exercises in dialectics, a training in the use of those stores of fact that science has made. so equipped, the young man and young woman will go on to the technical school of their chosen profession, and to the criticism of contemporary practice for their special efficiency, and to the literature of contemporary thought for their general development.... and while the emergent new republic is deciding to provide for the swarming inferiority of the abyss, and developing the morality and educational system of the future, in this fashion, it will be attacking that mass of irresponsible property that is so unavoidable and so threatening under present conditions. the attack will, of course, be made along lines that the developing science of economics will trace in the days immediately before us. a scheme of death duties and of heavy graduated taxes upon irresponsible incomes, with, perhaps, in addition, a system of terminable liability for borrowers, will probably suffice to control the growth of this creditor elephantiasis. the detailed contrivances are for the specialist to make. if there is such a thing as bitterness in the public acts of the new republicans, it will probably be found in the measures that will be directed against those who are parasitic, or who attempt to be parasitic, upon the social body, either by means of gambling, by manipulating the medium of exchange, or by such interventions upon legitimate transactions as, for example, the legal trade union in great britain contrives in the case of house property and land. simply because he fails more often than he succeeds, there is still a disposition among sentimental people to regard the gambler or the speculator as rather a dashing, adventurous sort of person, and to contrast his picturesque gallantry with the sober certainties of honest men. the men of the new republic will be obtuse to the glamour of such romance; they will regard the gambler simply as a mean creature who hangs about the social body in the hope of getting something for nothing, who runs risks to filch the possessions of other men, exactly as a thief does. they will put the two on a footing, and the generous gambler, like the kindly drunkard, in the face of their effectual provision for his little weakness, will cease to complain that his worst enemy is himself. and, in dealing with speculation, the new republic will have the power of an assured faith and purpose, and the resources of an economic science that is as yet only in its infancy. in such matters the new republic will entertain no superstition of _laissez faire_. money and credit are as much human contrivances as bicycles, and as liable to expansion and modification as any other sort of prevalent but imperfect machine. and how will the new republic treat the inferior races? how will it deal with the black? how will it deal with the yellow man? how will it tackle that alleged termite in the civilized woodwork, the jew? certainly not as races at all. it will aim to establish, and it will at last, though probably only after a second century has passed, establish a world-state with a common language and a common rule. all over the world its roads, its standards, its laws, and its apparatus of control will run. it will, i have said, make the multiplication of those who fall behind a certain standard of social efficiency unpleasant and difficult, and it will have cast aside any coddling laws to save adult men from themselves.[ ] it will tolerate no dark corners where the people of the abyss may fester, no vast diffused slums of peasant proprietors, no stagnant plague-preserves. whatever men may come into its efficient citizenship it will let come--white, black, red, or brown; the efficiency will be the test. and the jew also it will treat as any other man. it is said that the jew is incurably a parasite on the apparatus of credit. if there are parasites on the apparatus of credit, that is a reason for the legislative cleaning of the apparatus of credit, but it is no reason for the special treatment of the jew. if the jew has a certain incurable tendency to social parasitism, and we make social parasitism impossible, we shall abolish the jew, and if he has not, there is no need to abolish the jew. we are much more likely to find we have abolished the caucasian solicitor. i really do not understand the exceptional attitude people take up against the jews. there is something very ugly about many jewish faces, but there are gentile faces just as coarse and gross. the jew asserts himself in relation to his nationality with a singular tactlessness, but it is hardly for the english to blame that. many jews are intensely vulgar in dress and bearing, materialistic in thought, and cunning and base in method, but no more so than many gentiles. the jew is mentally and physically precocious, and he ages and dies sooner than the average european, but in that and in a certain disingenuousness he is simply on all fours with the short, dark welsh. he foregathers with those of his own nation, and favours them against the stranger, but so do the scotch. i see nothing in his curious, dispersed nationality to dread or dislike. he is a remnant and legacy of mediævalism, a sentimentalist, perhaps, but no furtive plotter against the present progress of things. he was the mediæval liberal; his persistent existence gave the lie to catholic pretensions all through the days of their ascendency, and to-day he gives the lie to all our yapping "nationalisms," and sketches in his dispersed sympathies the coming of the world-state. he has never been known to burke a school. much of the jew's usury is no more than social scavenging. the jew will probably lose much of his particularism, intermarry with gentiles, and cease to be a physically distinct element in human affairs in a century or so. but much of his moral tradition will, i hope, never die.... and for the rest, those swarms of black, and brown, and dirty-white, and yellow people, who do not come into the new needs of efficiency? well, the world is a world, not a charitable institution, and i take it they will have to go. the whole tenor and meaning of the world, as i see it, is that they have to go. so far as they fail to develop sane, vigorous, and distinctive personalities for the great world of the future, it is their portion to die out and disappear. the world has a purpose greater than happiness; our lives are to serve god's purpose, and that purpose aims not at man as an end, but works through him to greater issues.... this, i believe, will be the distinctive quality of the new republican's belief. and, for that reason, i have not even speculated whether he will hold any belief in human immortality or no. he will certainly not believe there is any _post mortem_ state of rewards and punishments because of his faith in the sanity of god, and i do not see how he will trace any reaction between this world and whatever world there may be of disembodied lives. active and capable men of all forms of religious profession to-day tend in practice to disregard the question of immortality altogether. so, to a greater degree, will the kinetic men of the coming time. we may find that issue interesting enough when we turn over the leaf, but at present we have not turned over the leaf. on this side, in this life, the relevancy of things points not in the slightest towards the immortality of our egotisms, but convergently and overpoweringly to the future of our race, to that spacious future, of which these weak, ambitious anticipations are, as it were, the dim reflection seen in a shallow and troubled pool. for that future these men will live and die. footnotes: [ ] as, for example, that god is an omniscient mind. this is the last vestige of that barbaric theology which regarded god as a vigorous but uncertain old gentleman with a beard and an inordinate lust for praise and propitiation. the modern idea is, indeed, scarcely more reasonable than the one it has replaced. a mind thinks, and feels, and wills; it passes from phase to phase; thinking and willing are a succession of mental states which follow and replace one another. but omniscience is a complete knowledge, not only of the present state, but of all past and future states, and, since it is all there at any moment, it cannot conceivably pass from phase to phase, it is stagnant, infinite, and eternal. an omniscient mind is as impossible, therefore, as an omnipresent moving body. god is outside our mental scope; only by faith can we attain him; our most lucid moments serve only to render clearer his inaccessibility to our intelligence. we stand a little way up in a scale of existences that may, indeed, point towards him, but can never bring him to our scope. as the fulness of the conscious mental existence of a man stands to the subconscious activities of an amoeba or of a visceral ganglion cell, so our reason forces us to admit other possible mental existences may stand to us. but such an existence, inconceivably great as it would be to us, would be scarcely nearer that transcendental god in whom the serious men of the future will, as a class, believe. [ ] it is an interesting byway from our main thesis to speculate on the spiritual pathology of the functionless wealthy, the half-educated independent women of the middle class, and the people of the abyss. while the segregating new middle class, whose religious and moral development forms our main interest, is developing its spacious and confident theism, there will, i imagine, be a steady decay in the various protestant congregations. they have played a noble part in the history of the world, their spirit will live for ever, but their formulæ and organization wax old like a garment. their moral austerity--that touch of contempt for the unsubstantial æsthetic, which has always distinguished protestantism--is naturally repellent to the irresponsible rich and to artistic people of the weaker type, and the face of protestantism has ever been firm even to hardness against the self-indulgent, the idler, and the prolific, useless poor. the rich as a class and the people of the abyss, so far as they move towards any existing religious body, will be attracted by the moral kindliness, the picturesque organization and venerable tradition of the roman catholic church. we are only in the very beginning of a great roman catholic revival. the diversified countryside of the coming time will show many a splendid cathedral, many an elaborate monastic palace, towering amidst the abounding colleges and technical schools. along the moving platforms of the urban centre, and athwart the shining advertisements that will adorn them, will go the ceremonial procession, all glorious with banners and censer-bearers, and the meek blue-shaven priests and barefooted, rope-girdled, holy men. and the artful politician of the coming days, until the broom of the new republic sweep him up, will arrange the miraculous planks of his platform always with an eye upon the priest. within the ample sheltering arms of the mother church many eccentric cults will develop. the curious may study the works of m. huysmans to learn of the mystical propitiation of god, who made heaven and earth, by the bedsores of hysterical girls. the future as i see it swarms with durtals and sister teresas; countless ecstatic nuns, holding their maker as it were _in deliciæ_, will shelter from the world in simple but costly refuges of refined austerity. where miracles are needed, miracles will occur. except for a few queer people, nourished on "maria monk" and suchlike anti-papal pornography, i doubt if there will be any protestants left among the irresponsible rich. those who do not follow the main current will probably take up with weird science-denouncing sects of the faith-healing type, or with such pseudo-scientific gibberish as theosophy. mrs. piper (in an inelegant attitude and with only the whites of her eyes showing) has restored the waning faith of professor james in human immortality, and i do not see why that lady should stick at one dogma amidst the present quite insatiable demand for creeds. shintoism and either a cleaned or, more probably, a scented obi, might in vigorous hands be pushed to a very considerable success in the coming years; and i do not see any absolute impossibility in the idea of an after-dinner witch-smelling in park lane with a witchdoctor dressed in feathers. it might be made amazingly picturesque. people would attend it with an air of intellectual liberality, not, of course, believing in it absolutely, but admitting "there must be something in it." that something in it! "the fool hath said in his heart, there is no god," and after that he is ready to do anything with his mind and soul. it is by faith we disbelieve. and, of course, there will be much outspoken atheism and anti-religion of the type of the parisian devil-worship imbecilities. young men of means will determine to be "wicked." they will do silly things that will strike them as being indecent and blasphemous and dreadful--black masses and suchlike nonsense--and then they will get scared. the sort of thing it will be to shock orthodox maiden aunts and make olympus ring with laughter. a taking sort of nonsense already loose, i find, among very young men is to say, "understand, i am non-moral." two thoroughly respectable young gentlemen coming from quite different circles have recently introduced their souls to me in this same formula. both, i rejoice to remark, are married, both are steady and industrious young men, trustworthy in word and contract, dressed in accordance with current conceptions, and behaving with perfect decorum. one, no doubt for sinister ends, aspires to better the world through a socialistic propaganda. that is all. but in a tight corner some day that silly little formula may just suffice to trip up one or other of these men. to many of the irresponsible rich, however, that little "understand, i am non-moral" may prove of priceless worth. [ ] _vide_ mr. archdall read's excellent and suggestive book, "the present evolution of man." the end * * * * * printed by william clowes and sons, limited, london and beccles. certain personal matters by h.g. wells london t. fisher unwin paternoster square, e.c. contents page thoughts on cheapness and my aunt charlotte the trouble of life on the choice of a wife the house of di sorno of conversation in a literary household on schooling and the phases of mr. sandsome the poet and the emporium the language of flowers the literary regimen house-hunting as an outdoor amusement of blades and bladery of cleverness the pose novel the veteran cricketer concerning a certain lady the shopman the book of curses dunstone's dear lady euphemia's new entertainment (_this is illustrated_) for freedom of spelling incidental thoughts on a bald head of a book unwritten the extinction of man the writing of essays the parkes museum bleak march in epping forest the theory of quotation on the art of staying at the seaside concerning chess the coal-scuttle bagarrow the book of essays dedicatory through a microscope the pleasure of quarrelling the amateur nature-lover from an observatory the mode in monuments how i died certain personal matters thoughts on cheapness and my aunt charlotte the world mends. in my younger days people believed in mahogany; some of my readers will remember it--a heavy, shining substance, having a singularly close resemblance to raw liver, exceedingly heavy to move, and esteemed on one or other count the noblest of all woods. such of us as were very poor and had no mahogany pretended to have mahogany; and the proper hepatite tint was got by veneering. that makes one incline to think it was the colour that pleased people. in those days there was a word "trashy," now almost lost to the world. my dear aunt charlotte used that epithet when, in her feminine way, she swore at people she did not like. "trashy" and "paltry" and "brummagem" was the very worst she could say of them. and she had, i remember, an intense aversion to plated goods and bronze halfpence. the halfpence of her youth had been vast and corpulent red-brown discs, which it was folly to speak of as small change. they were fine handsome coins, and almost as inconvenient as crown-pieces. i remember she corrected me once when i was very young. "don't call a penny a copper, dear," she said; "copper is a metal. the pennies they have nowadays are bronze." it is odd how our childish impressions cling to us. i still regard bronze as a kind of upstart intruder, a mere trashy pretender among metals. all my aunt charlotte's furniture was thoroughly good, and most of it extremely uncomfortable; there was not a thing for a little boy to break and escape damnation in the household. her china was the only thing with a touch of beauty in it--at least i remember nothing else--and each of her blessed plates was worth the happiness of a mortal for days together. and they dressed me in a nessus suit of valuable garments. i learned the value of thoroughly good things only too early. i knew the equivalent of a teacup to the very last scowl, and i have hated good, handsome property ever since. for my part i love cheap things, trashy things, things made of the commonest rubbish that money can possibly buy; things as vulgar as primroses, and as transitory as a morning's frost. think of all the advantages of a cheap possession--cheap and nasty, if you will--compared with some valuable substitute. suppose you need this or that. "get a good one," advises aunt charlotte; "one that will last." you do--and it does last. it lasts like a family curse. these great plain valuable things, as plain as good women, as complacently assured of their intrinsic worth--who does not know them? my aunt charlotte scarcely had a new thing in her life. her mahogany was avuncular; her china remotely ancestral; her feather beds and her bedsteads!--they were haunted; the births, marriages, and deaths associated with the best one was the history of our race for three generations. there was more in her house than the tombstone rectitude of the chair-backs to remind me of the graveyard. i can still remember the sombre aisles of that house, the vault-like shadows, the magnificent window curtains that blotted out the windows. life was too trivial for such things. she never knew she tired of them, but she did. that was the secret of her temper, i think; they engendered her sombre calvinism, her perception of the trashy quality of human life. the pretence that they were the accessories to human life was too transparent. _we_ were the accessories; we minded them for a little while, and then we passed away. they wore us out and cast us aside. we were the changing scenery; they were the actors who played on through the piece. it was even so with clothing. we buried my other maternal aunt--aunt adelaide--and wept, and partly forgot her; but her wonderful silk dresses--they would stand alone--still went rustling cheerfully about an ephemeral world. all that offended my sense of proportion, my feeling of what is due to human life, even when i was a little boy. i want things of my own, things i can break without breaking my heart; and, since one can live but once, i want some change in my life--to have this kind of thing and then that. i never valued aunt charlotte's good old things until i sold them. they sold remarkably well: those chairs like nether millstones for the grinding away of men; the fragile china--an incessant anxiety until accident broke it, and the spell of it at the same time; those silver spoons, by virtue of which aunt charlotte went in fear of burglary for six-and-fifty years; the bed from which i alone of all my kindred had escaped; the wonderful old, erect, high-shouldered, silver-faced clock. but, as i say, our ideas are changing--mahogany has gone, and repp curtains. articles are made for man, nowadays, and not man, by careful early training, for articles. i feel myself to be in many respects a link with the past. commodities come like the spring flowers, and vanish again. "who steals my watch steals trash," as some poet has remarked; the thing is made of i know not what metal, and if i leave it on the mantel for a day or so it goes a deep blackish purple that delights me exceedingly. my grandfather's hat--i understood when i was a little boy that i was to have that some day. but now i get a hat for ten shillings, or less, two or three times a year. in the old days buying clothes was well-nigh as irrevocable as marriage. our flat is furnished with glittering things--wanton arm-chairs just strong enough not to collapse under you, books in gay covers, carpets you are free to drop lighted fusees upon; you may scratch what you like, upset your coffee, cast your cigar ash to the four quarters of heaven. our guests, at anyrate, are not snubbed by our furniture. it knows its place. but it is in the case of art and adornment that cheapness is most delightful. the only thing that betrayed a care for beauty on the part of my aunt was her dear old flower garden, and even there she was not above suspicion. her favourite flowers were tulips, rigid tulips with opulent crimson streaks. she despised wildings. her ornaments were simply displays of the precious metal. had she known the price of platinum she would have worn that by preference. her chains and brooches and rings were bought by weight. she would have turned her back on benvenuto cellini if he was not carats fine. she despised water-colour art; her conception of a picture was a vast domain of oily brown by an old master. the babbages at the hall had a display of gold plate swaggering in the corner of the dining-room; and the visitor (restrained by a plush rope from examining the workmanship) was told the value, and so passed on. i like my art unadorned: thought and skill, and the other strange quality that is added thereto, to make things beautiful--and nothing more. a farthing's worth of paint and paper, and, behold! a thing of beauty!--as they do in japan. and if it should fall into the fire--well, it has gone like yesterday's sunset, and to-morrow there will be another. these japanese are indeed the apostles of cheapness. the greeks lived to teach the world beauty, the hebrews to teach it morality, and now the japanese are hammering in the lesson that men may be honourable, daily life delightful, and a nation great without either freestone houses, marble mantelpieces, or mahogany sideboards. i have sometimes wished that my aunt charlotte could have travelled among the japanese nation. she would, i know, have called it a "parcel of trash." their use of paper--paper suits, paper pocket-handkerchiefs--would have made her rigid with contempt. i have tried, but i cannot imagine my aunt charlotte in paper underclothing. her aversion to paper was extraordinary. her book of beauty was printed on satin, and all her books were bound in leather, the boards regulated rather than decorated with a severe oblong. her proper sphere was among the ancient babylonians, among which massive populace even the newspapers were built of brick. she would have compared with the king's daughter whose raiment was of wrought gold. when i was a little boy i used to think she had a mahogany skeleton. however, she is gone, poor old lady, and at least she left me her furniture. her ghost was torn in pieces after the sale--must have been. even the old china went this way and that. i took what was perhaps a mean revenge of her for the innumerable black-holeings, bread-and-water dinners, summary chastisements, and impossible tasks she inflicted upon me for offences against her too solid possessions. you will see it at woking. it is a light and graceful cross. it is a mere speck of white between the monstrous granite paperweights that oppress the dead on either side of her. sometimes i am half sorry for that. when the end comes i shall not care to look her in the face--she will be so humiliated. the trouble of life i do not know whether this will awaken a sympathetic lassitude in, say, fifty per cent. of its readers, or whether my experience is unique and my testimony simply curious. at anyrate, it is as true as i can make it. whether this is a mere mood, and a certain flagrant exhilaration my true attitude towards things, or this is my true attitude and the exuberant phase a lapse from it, i cannot say. probably it does not matter. the thing is that i find life an extremely troublesome affair. i do not want to make any railing accusations against life; it is--to my taste--neither very sad nor very horrible. at times it is distinctly amusing. indeed, i know nothing in the same line that can quite compare with it. but there is a difference between general appreciation and uncritical acceptance. at times i find life a bother. the kind of thing that i object to is, as a good example, all the troublesome things one has to do every morning in getting up. there is washing. this is an age of unsolicited personal confidences, and i will frankly confess that if it were not for euphemia i do not think i should wash at all. there is a vast amount of humbug about washing. vulgar people not only profess a passion for the practice, but a physical horror of being unwashed. it is a sort of cant. i can understand a sponge bath being a novelty the first time and exhilarating the second and third. but day after day, week after week, month after month, and nothing to show at the end of it all! then there is shaving. i have to get shaved because euphemia hates me with a blue jowl, and i will admit i hate myself. yet, if i were left alone, i do not think my personal taste would affect my decision; i will say that for myself. either i hack about with a blunt razor--my razors are always blunt--until i am a kind of whitechapel horror, and with hair in tufts upon my chin like the top of a bosjesman's head, or else i have to spend all the morning being dabbed about the face by a barber with damp hands. in either case it is a repulsive thing to have, eating into one's time when one might be living; and i have calculated that all the hair i have lost in this way, put end to end, would reach to berlin. all that vital energy thrown away! however, "thorns and bristles shall it bring forth to thee." i suppose it is part of the primal curse, and i try and stand it like a man. but the thing is a bother all the same. then after shaving comes the hunt for the collar-stud. of all idiotic inventions the modern collar is the worst. a man who has to write things for such readers as mine cannot think over-night of where he puts his collar-stud; he has to keep his mind at an altogether higher level. consequently he walks about the bedroom, thinking hard, and dropping things about: here a vest and there a collar, and sowing a bitter harvest against the morning. or he sits on the edge of the bed jerking his garments this way and that. "i shot a slipper in the air," as the poet sings, and in the morning it turns up in the most impossible quarters, and where you least expect it. and, talking of going to bed, before euphemia took the responsibility over, i was always forgetting to wind my watch. but now that is one of the things she neglects. then, after getting up, there is breakfast. autolycus of the _pall mall gazette_ may find heaven there, but i am differently constituted. there is, to begin with the essence of the offence--the stuff that has to be eaten somehow. then there is the paper. unless it is the face of a fashionable beauty, i know of nothing more absolutely uninteresting than a morning paper. you always expect to find something in it, and never do. it wastes half my morning sometimes, going over and over the thing, and trying to find out why they publish it. if i edited a daily i think i should do like my father does when he writes to me. "things much the same," he writes; "the usual fussing about the curate's red socks"--a long letter for him. the rest margin. and, by the bye, there are letters every morning at breakfast, too! now i do not grumble at letters. you can read them instead of getting on with your breakfast. they are entertaining in a way, and you can tear them up at the end, and in that respect at least they are better than people who come to see you. usually, too, you need not make a reply. but sometimes euphemia gets hold of some still untorn, and says in her dictatorial way that they _have_ to be answered--insists--says i _must_. yet she knows that nothing fills me with a livelier horror than having to answer letters. it paralyses me. i waste whole days sometimes mourning over the time that i shall have to throw away presently, answering some needless impertinence--requests for me to return books lent to me; reminders from the london library that my subscription is overdue; proposals for me to renew my ticket at the stores--euphemia's business really; invitations for me to go and be abashed before impertinent distinguished people: all kinds of bothering things. and speaking of letters and invitations brings me round to friends. i dislike most people; in london they get in one's way in the street and fill up railway carriages, and in the country they stare at you--but i _hate_ my friends. yet euphemia says i _must_ "keep up" my friends. they would be all very well if they were really true friends and respected my feelings and left me alone, just to sit quiet. but they come wearing shiny clothes, and mop and mow at me and expect me to answer their gibberings. polite conversation always appears to me to be a wicked perversion of the blessed gift of speech, which, i take it, was given us to season our lives rather than to make them insipid. new friends are the worst in this respect. with old friends one is more at home; you give them something to eat or drink, or look at, or something--whatever they seem to want--and just turn round and go on smoking quietly. but every now and then euphemia or destiny inflicts a new human being upon me. i do not mean a baby, though the sentence has got that turn somehow, but an introduction; and the wretched thing, all angles and offence, keeps bobbing about me and discovering new ways of worrying me, trying, i believe, to find out what topics interest me, though the fact is no topics interest me. once or twice, of course, i have met human beings i think i could have got on with very well, after a time; but in this mood, at least, i doubt if any human being is quite worth the bother of a new acquaintance. these are just sample bothers--shaving, washing, answering letters, talking to people. i could specify hundreds more. indeed, in my sadder moments, it seems to me life is all compact of bothers. there are the details of business--knowing the date approximately (an incessant anxiety) and the time of day. then, having to buy things. euphemia does most of this, it is true, but she draws the line at my boots and gloves and hosiery and tailoring. then, doing up parcels and finding pieces of string or envelopes or stamps--which euphemia might very well manage for me. then, finding your way back after a quiet, thoughtful walk. then, having to get matches for your pipe. i sometimes dream of a better world, where pipe, pouch, and matches all keep together instead of being mutually negatory. but euphemia is always putting everything into some hiding-hole or other, which she calls its "place." trivial things in their way, you may say, yet each levying so much toll on my brain and nervous system, and demanding incessant vigilance and activity. i calculated once that i wasted a masterpiece upon these mountainous little things about every three months of my life. can i help thinking of them, then, and asking why i suffer thus? and can i avoid seeing at last how it is they hang together? for there is still one other bother, a kind of _bother botherum_, to tell of, though i hesitate at the telling. it brings this rabble herd of worries into line and makes them formidable; it is, so to speak, the bother commander-in-chief. well! euphemia. i simply worship the ground she treads upon, mind, but at the same time the truth is the truth. euphemia is a bother. she is a brave little woman, and helps me in every conceivable way. but i wish she would not. it is so obviously all her doing. she makes me get up of a morning--i would not stand as much from anybody else--and keeps a sharp eye on my chin and collar. if it were not for her i could sit about always with no collar or tie on in that old jacket she gave to the tramp, and just smoke and grow a beard and let all the bothers slide. i would never wash, never shave, never answer any letters, never go to see any friends, never do any work--except, perhaps, an insulting postcard to a publisher now and again. i would just sit about. sometimes i think this may be peculiar in me. at other times i fancy i am giving voice to the secret feeling of every member of my sex. i suspect, then, that we would all do as the noble savage does, take our things off and lie about comfortable, if only someone had the courage to begin. it is these women--all love and reverence to euphemia notwithstanding--who make us work and bother us with things. they keep us decent, and remind us we have a position to support. and really, after all, this is not my original discovery! there is the third chapter of genesis, for instance. and then who has not read carlyle's gloating over a certain historical suit of leather? it gives me a queer thrill of envy, that quaker fox and his suit of leather. conceive it, if you can! one would never have to quail under the scrutiny of a tailor any more. thoreau, too, come to think of it, was, by way of being a prophet, a pioneer in this emancipation of man from bothery. then the silent gentry who brew our chartreuse; what are they in retirement for? looking back into history, with the glow of discovery in my eyes, i find records of wise men--everyone acknowledged they were wise men--who lived apart. in every age the same associate of solitude, silence, and wisdom. the holy hermits!... i grant it, they professed to flee wickedness and seek after righteousness, but now my impression is that they fled bothers. we all know they had an intense aversion to any savour of domesticity, and they never shaved, washed, dined, visited, had new clothes. holiness, indeed! they were _viveurs_.... we have witnessed religion without theology, and why not an unsectarian thebaid? i sometimes fancy it needs only one brave man to begin.... if it were not for the fuss euphemia would make i certainly should. but i know she would come and worry me worse than st. anthony was worried until i put them all on again, and that keeps me from the attempt. i am curious whether mine is the common experience. i fancy, after all, i am only seeing in a clearer way, putting into modern phrase, so to speak, an observation old as the pentateuch. and looking up i read upon a little almanac with which euphemia has cheered my desk:-- "the world was sad" (sweet sadness!) "the garden was a wild" (a picturesque wild) "and man the hermit" (he made no complaint) "till the woman smiled."--campbell. [and very shortly after he had, as you know, all that bother about the millinery.] on the choice of a wife wife-choosing is an unending business. this sounds immoral, but what i mean will be clearer in the context. people have lived--innumerable people--exhausted experience, and yet other people keep on coming to hand, none the wiser, none the better. it is like a waterfall more than anything else in the world. every year one has to turn to and warn another batch about these stale old things. yet it is one's duty--the last thing that remains to a man. and as a piece of worldly wisdom, that has nothing to do with wives, always leave a few duties neglected for the comfort of your age. there are such a lot of other things one can do when one is young. now, the kind of wife a young fellow of eight- or nine-and-twenty insists on selecting is something of one-and-twenty or less, inexperienced, extremely pretty, graceful, and well dressed, not too clever, accomplished; but i need not go on, for the youthful reader can fill in the picture himself from his own ideal. every young man has his own ideal, as a matter of course, and they are all exactly alike. now, i do not intend to repeat all the stale old saws of out-of-date wiseacres. most of them are even more foolish than the follies they reprove. take, for instance, the statement that "beauty fades." absurd; everyone knows perfectly well that, as the years creep on, beauty simply gets more highly coloured. and then, "beauty is only skin-deep." fantastically wrong! some of it is not that; and, for the rest, is a woman like a toy balloon?--just a surface? to hear that proverb from a man is to know him at once for a phonographic kind of fool. the fundamental and enduring grace of womanhood goes down to the skeleton; you cannot have a pretty face without a pretty skull, just as you cannot have one without a good temper. yet all the same there is an excellent reason why one should shun beauty in a prospective wife, at anyrate obvious beauty--the kind of beauty people talk about, and which gets into the photographers' windows. the common beautiful woman has a style of her own, a favourite aspect. after all, she cannot be perfect. she comes upon you, dazzles you, marries you; there is a time of ecstasy. people envy you, continue to envy you. after a time you envy yourself--yourself of the day before yesterday. for the imperfection, the inevitable imperfection--in one case i remember it was a smile--becomes visible to you, becomes your especial privilege. that is the real reason. no beauty is a beauty to her husband. but with the plain woman--the thoroughly plain woman--it is different. at first--i will not mince matters--her ugliness is an impenetrable repulse. face it. after a time little things begin to appear through the violent discords: little scraps of melody--a shy tenderness in her smile that peeps out at you and vanishes, a something that is winning, looking out of her eyes. you find a waviness of her hair that you never saw at the beginning, a certain surprising, pleasing, enduring want of clumsiness in part of her ear. and it is yours. you can see she strikes the beholder with something of a shock; and while the beauty of the beauty is common for all the world to rejoice in, you will find in your dear, plain wife beauty enough and to spare; exquisite--for it is all your own, your treasure-trove, your safely-hidden treasure.... then, in the matter of age; though young fellows do not imagine it, it is very easy to marry a wife too young. marriage has been defined as a foolish bargain in which one man provides for another man's daughter, but there is no reason why this should go so far as completing her education. if your conception of happiness is having something pretty and innocent and troublesome about you, something that you can cherish and make happy, a pet rabbit is in every way preferable. at the worst that will nibble your boots. i have known several cases of the girl-wife, and it always began like an idyll, charmingly; the tenderest care on one hand, winsome worship on the other--until some little thing, a cut chin or a missing paper, startled the pure and natural man out of his veneer, dancing and blaspheming, with the most amazing consequences. only a proven saint should marry a girl-wife, and his motives might be misunderstood. the idyllic wife is a beautiful thing to read about, but in practice idylls should be kept episodes; in practice the idyllic life is a little too like a dinner that is all dessert. a common man, after a time, tires of winsome worship; he craves after companionship, and a sympathy based on experience. the ordinary young man, with the still younger wife, i have noticed, continues to love her with all his heart--and spends his leisure telling somebody else's wife all about it. if in these days of blatant youth an experienced man's counsel is worth anything, it would be to marry a woman considerably older than oneself, if one must marry at all. and while upon this topic--and i have lived long--the ideal wife, i am persuaded, from the close observation of many years, is invariably, by some mishap, a widow.... avoid social charm. it was the capacity for entertaining visitors that ruined paradise. it grows upon a woman. an indiscriminating personal magnetism is perhaps the most dreadful vice a wife can have. you think you have married the one woman in the world, and you find you have married a host--that is to say, a hostess. instead of making a home for you she makes you something between an ethnographical museum and a casual ward. you find your rooms littered with people and teacups and things, strange creatures that no one could possibly care for, that seem scarcely to care for themselves. you go about the house treading upon chance geniuses, and get tipped by inexperienced guests. and even when she does not entertain, she is continually going out. i do not deny that charming people are charming, that their company should be sought, but seeking it in marriage is an altogether different matter. then, i really must insist that young men do not understand the real truth about accomplishments. there comes a day when the most variegated wife comes to the end of her tunes, and another when she ends them for the second time; _vita longa, ars brevis_--at least, as regards the art of the schoolgirl. it is only like marrying a slightly more complicated barrel-organ. and, for another point, watch the young person you would honour with your hand for the slightest inkling of economy or tidiness. young men are so full of poetry and emotion that it does not occur to them how widely the sordid vices are distributed in the other sex. if you are a hotel proprietor, or a school proprietor, or a day labourer, such weaknesses become a strength, of course, but not otherwise. for a literary person--if perchance you are a literary person--it is altogether too dreadful. you are always getting swept and garnished, straightened up and sent out to be shaved. and home--even your study--becomes a glittering, spick-and-span mechanism. but you know the parable of the seven devils? to conclude, a summary. the woman you choose should be plain, as plain as you can find, as old or older than yourself, devoid of social gifts or accomplishments, poor--for your self-respect--and with a certain amiable untidiness. of course no young man will heed this, but at least i have given my counsel, and very excellent reasons for that counsel. and possibly i shall be able to remind him that i told him as much, in the course of a few years' time. and, by the bye, i had almost forgotten! never by any chance marry a girl whose dresses do up at the back, unless you can afford her a maid or so of her own. the house of di sorno a manuscript found in a box and the box, euphemia's. brutally raided it was by an insensate husband, eager for a tie and too unreasonably impatient to wait an hour or so until she could get home and find it for him. there was, of course, no tie at all in that box, for all his stirring--as anyone might have known; but, if there was no tie, there were certain papers that at least suggested a possibility of whiling away the time until the chooser and distributer of ties should return. and, after all, there is no reading like your accidental reading come upon unawares. it was a discovery, indeed, that euphemia _had_ papers. at the first glance these close-written sheets suggested a treasonable keynote, and the husband gripped it with a certain apprehension mingling with his relief at the opiate of reading. it was, so to speak, the privilege of police he exercised, so he justified himself. he began to read. but what is this? "she stood on the balcony outside the window, while the noblest-born in the palace waited on her every capricious glance, and watched for an unbending look to relieve her hauteur, but in vain." none of your snippy-snappy keynote there! then he turned over a page or so of the copy, doubting if the privilege of police still held good. standing out by virtue of a different ink, and coming immediately after "bear her to her proud father," were the words, "how many yards of carpet / yds. wide will cover room, width ft., length - / ft.?" then he knew he was in the presence of the great romance that euphemia wrote when she was sixteen. he had heard something of it before. he held it doubtfully in his hands, for the question of conscience still troubled him. "bah!" he said abruptly, "not to find it irresistible was to slight the authoress and her skill." and with that he sat plump down among the things in the box very comfortably and began reading, and, indeed, read until euphemia arrived. but she, at the sight of his head and legs, made several fragmentary and presumably offensive remarks about crushing some hat or other, and proceeded with needless violence to get him out of the box again. however, that is my own private trouble. we are concerned now with the merits of euphemia's romance. the hero of the story is a venetian, named (for some unknown reason) ivan di sorno. so far as i ascertained, he is the entire house of di sorno referred to in the title. no other di sornos transpired. like others in the story, he is possessed of untold wealth, tempered by a profound sorrow, for some cause which remains unmentioned, but which is possibly internal. he is first displayed "pacing a sombre avenue of ilex and arbutus that reflected with singular truth the gloom of his countenance," and "toying sadly with the jewelled hilt of his dagger." he meditates upon his loveless life and the burthen of riches. presently he "paces the long and magnificent gallery," where a "hundred generations of di sornos, each with the same flashing eye and the same marble brow, look down with the same sad melancholy upon the beholder"--a truly monotonous exhibition. it would be too much for anyone, day after day. he decides that he will travel. incognito. the next chapter is headed "in old madrid," and di sorno, cloaked to conceal his grandeur, "moves sad and observant among the giddy throng." but "gwendolen"--the majestic gwendolen of the balcony--"marked his pallid yet beautiful countenance." and the next day at the bull-fight she "flung her bouquet into the arena, and turning to di sorno"--a perfect stranger, mind you--"smiled commandingly." "in a moment he had flung himself headlong down among the flashing blades of the toreadors and the trampling confusion of bulls, and in another he stood before her, bowing low with the recovered flowers in his hand. 'fair sir,' she said, 'methinks my poor flowers were scarce worth your trouble.'" a very proper remark. and then suddenly i put the manuscript down. my heart was full of pity for euphemia. thus had she gone a-dreaming. a man of imposing physique and flashing eye, who would fling you oxen here and there, and vault in and out of an arena without catching a breath, for his lady's sake--and here i sat, the sad reality, a lean and slippered literary pretender, and constitutionally afraid of cattle. poor little euphemia! for after all is said and done, and the new woman gibed out of existence, i am afraid we do undeceive these poor wives of ours a little after the marrying is over. it may be they have deceived themselves, in the first place, but that scarcely affects their disappointment. these dream-lovers of theirs, these monsters of unselfishness and devotion, these tall fair donovans and dark worshipping wanderers! and then comes the rabble rout of us poor human men, damning at our breakfasts, wiping pens upon our coat sleeves, smelling of pipes, fearing our editors, and turning euphemia's private boxes into public copy. and they take it so steadfastly--most of them. they never let us see the romance we have robbed them of, but turn to and make the best of it--and us--with such sweet grace. only now and then--as in the instance of a flattened hat--may a cry escape them. and even then---- but a truce to reality! let us return to di sorno. this individual does not become enamoured of gwendolen, as the crude novel reader might anticipate. he answers her "coldly," and his eye rests the while on her "tirewoman, the sweet margot." then come scenes of jealousy and love, outside a castle with heavily mullioned windows. the sweet margot, though she turns out to be the daughter of a bankrupt prince, has one characteristic of your servant all the world over--she spends all her time looking out of the window. di sorno tells her of his love on the evening of the bull-fight, and she cheerfully promises to "learn to love him," and therafter he spends all his days and nights "spurring his fiery steed down the road" that leads by the castle containing the young scholar. it becomes a habit with him--in all, he does it seventeen times in three chapters. then, "ere it is too late," he implores margot to fly. gwendolen, after a fiery scene with margot, in which she calls her a "petty minion,"--pretty language for a young gentlewoman,--"sweeps with unutterable scorn from the room," never, to the reader's huge astonishment, to appear in the story again, and margot flies with di sorno to grenada, where the inquisition, consisting apparently of a single monk with a "blazing eye," becomes extremely machinatory. a certain countess di morno, who intends to marry di sorno, and who has been calling into the story in a casual kind of way since the romance began, now comes prominently forward. she has denounced margot for heresy, and at a masked ball the inquisition, disguised in a yellow domino, succeeds in separating the young couple, and in carrying off "the sweet margot" to a convent. "di sorno, half distraught, flung himself into a cab and drove to all the hotels in grenada" (he overlooked the police station), and, failing to find margot, becomes mad. he goes about ejaculating "mad, mad!" than which nothing could be more eloquent of his complete mental inversion. in his paroxysms the countess di morno persuades him to "lead her to the altar," but on the way (with a certain indelicacy they go to church in the same conveyance) she lets slip a little secret. so di sorno jumps out of the carriage, "hurling the crowd apart," and, "flourishing his drawn sword," "clamoured at the gate of the inquisition" for margot. the inquisition, represented by the fiery-eyed monk, "looked over the gate at him." no doubt it felt extremely uncomfortable. now it was just at this thrilling part that euphemia came home, and the trouble about the flattened hat began. i never flattened her hat. it was in the box, and so was i; but as for deliberate flattening----it was just a thing that happened. she should not write such interesting stories if she expects me to go on tiptoe through the world looking about for her hats. to have that story taken away just at that particular moment was horrible. there was fully as much as i had read still to come, so that a lot happened after this duel of sword _v._ fiery eye. i know from a sheet that came out of place that margot stabbed herself with a dagger ("richly jewelled"), but of all that came between i have not the faintest suspicion. that is the peculiar interest of it. at this particular moment the one book i want to read in all the world is the rest of this novel of euphemia's. and simply, on the score of a new hat needed, she keeps it back and haggles! of conversation an apology i must admit that in conversation i am not a brilliant success. partly, indeed, that may be owing to the assiduity with which my aunt suppressed my early essays in the art: "children," she said, "should be seen but not heard," and incontinently rapped my knuckles. to a larger degree, however, i regard it as intrinsic. this tendency to silence, to go out of the rattle and dazzle of the conversation into a quiet apart, is largely, i hold, the consequence of a certain elevation and breadth and tenderness of mind; i am no blowfly to buzz my way through the universe, no rattle that i should be expected to delight my fellow-creatures by the noises i produce. i go about to this social function and that, deporting myself gravely and decently in silence, taking, if possible, a back seat; and, in consequence of that, people who do not understand me have been heard to describe me as a "stick," as "shy," and by an abundance of the like unflattering terms. so that i am bound almost in self-justification to set down my reasons for this temperance of mine in conversation. speech, no doubt, is a valuable gift, but at the same time it is a gift that may be abused. what is regarded as polite conversation is, i hold, such an abuse. alcohol, opium, tea, are all very excellent things in their way; but imagine continuous alcohol, an incessant opium, or to receive, ocean-like, a perennially flowing river of tea! that is my objection to this conversation: its continuousness. you have to keep on. you find three or four people gathered together, and instead of being restful and recreative, sitting in comfortable attitudes and at peace with themselves and each other, and now and again, perhaps three or four times in an hour, making a worthy and memorable remark, they are all haggard and intent upon keeping this fetish flow agoing. a fortuitous score of cows in a field are a thousand times happier than a score of people deliberately assembled for the purposes of happiness. these conversationalists say the most shallow and needless of things, impart aimless information, simulate interest they do not feel, and generally impugn their claim to be considered reasonable creatures. why, when people assemble without hostile intentions, it should be so imperative to keep the trickling rill of talk running, i find it impossible to imagine. it is a vestige of the old barbaric times, when men murdered at sight for a mere whim; when it was good form to take off your sword in the antechamber, and give your friend your dagger-hand, to show him it was no business visit. similarly, you keep up this babblement to show your mind has no sinister concentration, not necessarily because you have anything to say, but as a guarantee of good faith. you have to make a noise all the time, like the little boy who was left in the room with the plums. it is the only possible explanation. to a logical mind there is something very distressing in this social law of gabble. out of regard for mrs. a, let us say, i attend some festival she has inaugurated. there i meet for the first time a young person of pleasant exterior, and i am placed in her company to deliver her at a dinner-table, or dance her about, or keep her out of harm's way, in a cosy nook. she has also never seen me before, and probably does not want particularly to see me now. however, i find her nice to look at, and she has taken great pains to make herself nice to look at, and why we cannot pass the evening, i looking at her and she being looked at, i cannot imagine. but no; we must talk. now, possibly there are topics she knows about and i do not--it is unlikely, but suppose so; on these topics she requires no information. again, i know about other topics things unknown to her, and it seems a mean and priggish thing to broach these, since they put her at a disadvantage. thirdly, comes a last group of subjects upon which we are equally informed, and upon which, therefore, neither of us is justified in telling things to the other. this classification of topics seems to me exhaustive. these considerations, i think, apply to all conversations. in every conversation, every departure must either be a presumption when you talk into your antagonist's special things, a pedantry when you fall back upon your own, or a platitude when you tell each other things you both know. i don't see any other line a conversation can take. the reason why one has to keep up the stream of talk is possibly, as i have already suggested, to manifest goodwill. and in so many cases this could be expressed so much better by a glance, a deferential carriage, possibly in some cases a gentle pressure of the hand, or a quiet persistent smile. and suppose there is some loophole in my reasoning--though i cannot see it--and that possible topics exist, how superficial and unexact is the best conversation to a second-rate book! even with two people you see the objection, but when three or four are gathered together the case is infinitely worse to a man of delicate perceptions. let us suppose--i do not grant it--that there is a possible sequence of things to say to the person a that really harmonise with a and yourself. grant also that there is a similar sequence between yourself and b. now, imagine yourself and a and b at the corners of an equilateral triangle set down to talk to each other. the kind of talk that a appreciates is a discord with b, and similarly b's sequence is impossible in the hearing of a. as a matter of fact, a real conversation of three people is the most impossible thing in the world. in real life one of the three always drops out and becomes a mere audience, or a mere partisan. in real life you and a talk, and b pretends to be taking a share by interjecting interruptions, or one of the three talks a monologue. and the more subtle your sympathy and the greater your restraint from self-assertion, the more incredible triple and quadruple conversation becomes. i have observed that there is even nowadays a certain advance towards my views in this matter. men may not pick out antagonists, and argue to the general audience as once they did: there is a tacit taboo of controversy, neither may you talk your "shop," nor invite your antagonist to talk his. there is also a growing feeling against extensive quotations or paraphrases from the newspapers. again, personalities, scandal, are, at least in theory, excluded. this narrows the scope down to the "last new book," "the last new play," "impressions de voyage," and even here it is felt that any very ironical or satirical remarks, anything unusual, in fact, may disconcert your adversary. you ask: have you read the _wheels of chance_? the answer is "yes." "do you like it?" "a little vulgar, i thought." and so forth. most of this is stereo. it is akin to responses in church, a prescription, a formula. and, following out this line of thought, i have had a vision of the twentieth century dinner. at a distance it is very like the nineteenth century type; the same bright light, the same pleasant deglutition, the same hum of conversation; but, approaching, you discover each diner has a little drum-shaped body under his chin--his phonograph. so he dines and babbles at his ease. in the smoking-room he substitutes his anecdote record. i imagine, too, the suburban hostess meeting the new maiden: "i hope, dear, you have brought a lot of conversation," just as now she asks for the music. for my own part, i must confess i find this dinner conversation particularly a bother. if i could eat with my eye it would be different. i lose a lot of friends through this conversational difficulty. they think it is my dulness or my temper, when really it is only my refined mind, my subtlety of consideration. it seems to me that when i go to see a man, i go to see him--to enjoy his presence. if he is my friend, the sight of him healthy and happy is enough for me. i don't want him to keep his vocal cords, and i don't want to keep my own vocal cords, in incessant vibration all the time i am in his company. if i go to see a man, it distracts me to have to talk and it distracts me to hear him talking. i can't imagine why one should not go and sit about in people's rooms, without bothering them and without their bothering you to say all these stereotyped things. quietly go in, sit down, look at your man until you have seen him enough, and then go. why not? let me once more insist that this keeping up a conversation is a sign of insecurity, of want of confidence. all those who have had real friends know that when the friendship is assured the gabble ceases. you are not at the heart of your friend, if either of you cannot go off comfortably to sleep in the other's presence. speech was given us to make known our needs, and for imprecation, expostulation, and entreaty. this pitiful necessity we are under, upon social occasions, to say something--however inconsequent--is, i am assured, the very degradation of speech. in a literary household in the literary household of fiction and the drama, things are usually in a distressing enough condition. the husband, as you know, has a hacking cough, and the wife a dying baby, and they write in the intervals of these cares among the litter of the breakfast things. occasionally a comic, but sympathetic, servant brings in an armful--"heaped up and brimming over"--of rejected mss., for, in the dramatic life, it never rains but it pours. instead of talking about editors in a bright and vigorous fashion, as the recipients of rejections are wont, the husband groans and covers his face with his hands, and the wife, leaving the touching little story she is writing--she posts this about p.m., and it brings in a publisher and £ or so before . --comforts him by flopping suddenly over his shoulder. "courage," she says, stroking his hyacinthine locks (whereas all real literary men are more or less grey or bald). sometimes, as in _our flat_, comic tradesmen interrupt the course of true literature with their ignoble desire for cash payment, and sometimes, as in _our boys_, uncles come and weep at the infinite pathos of a bad breakfast egg. but it's always a very sordid, dusty, lump-in-your-throaty affair, and no doubt it conduces to mortality by deterring the young and impressionable from literary vices. as for its truth, that is another matter altogether. yet it must not be really imagined that a literary household is just like any other. there is the brass paper-fastener, for instance. i have sometimes thought that euphemia married me with an eye to these conveniences. she has two in her grey gloves, and one (with the head inked) in her boot in the place of a button. others i suspect her of. then she fastened the lamp shade together with them, and tried one day to introduce them instead of pearl buttons as efficient anchorage for cuffs and collars. and she made a new handle for the little drawer under the inkstand with one. indeed, the literary household is held together, so to speak, by paper-fasteners, and how other people get along without them we are at a loss to imagine. and another point, almost equally important, is that the husband is generally messing about at home. that is, indeed, to a superficial observer, one of the most remarkable characteristics of the literary household. other husbands are cast out in the morning to raven for income and return to a home that is swept and garnished towards the end of the day; but the literary husband is ever in possession. his work must not be disturbed even when he is merely thinking. the study is consequently a kind of domestic cordite factory, and you are never certain when it may explode. the concussion of a dust-pan and brush may set it going, the sweeping of a carpet in the room upstairs. then behold a haggard, brain-weary man, fierce and dishevelled, and full of shattered masterpiece--expostulating. other houses have their day of cleaning out this room, and their day for cleaning out that; but in the literary household there is one uniform date for all such functions, and that is "to-morrow." so that mrs. mergles makes her purifying raids with her heart in her mouth, and has acquired a way of leaving the pail and brush, or whatever artillery she has with her, in a manner that unavoidably engages the infuriated brute's attention and so covers her retreat. it is a problem that has never been probably solved, this discord of order and orderly literary work. possibly it might be done by making the literary person live elsewhere or preventing literary persons from having households. however it might be done, it is not done. this is a thing innocent girls exposed to the surreptitious proposals of literary men do not understand. they think it will be very fine to have photographs of themselves and their "cosy nooks" published in magazines, to illustrate the man's interviews, and the full horror of having this feral creature always about the house, and scarcely ever being able to do any little thing without his knowing it, is not brought properly home to them until escape is impossible. and then there is the taint of "copy" everywhere. that is really the fundamental distinction. it is the misfortune of literary people, that they have to write about something. there is no reason, of course, why they should, but the thing is so. consequently, they are always looking about them for something to write about. they cannot take a pure-minded interest in anything in earth or heaven. their servant is no servant, but a character; their cat is a possible reservoir of humorous observation; they look out of window and see men as columns walking. even the sanctity of their own hearts, their self-respect, their most private emotions are disregarded. the wife is infected with the taint. her private opinion of her husband she makes into a short story--forgets its origin and shows it him with pride--while the husband decants his heart-beats into occasional verse and minor poetry. it is amazing what a lot of latter-day literature consists of such breaches of confidence. and not simply latter-day literature. the visitor is fortunate who leaves no marketable impression behind. the literary entertainers eye you over, as if they were dealers in a slave mart, and speculate on your uses. they try to think how you would do as a scoundrel, and mark your little turns of phrase and kinks of thought to that end. the innocent visitor bites his cake and talks about theatres, while the meditative person in the arm-chair may be in imagination stabbing him, or starving him on a desert island, or even--horrible to tell!--flinging him headlong into the arms of the young lady to the right and "covering her face with a thousand passionate kisses." a manuscript in the rough of euphemia's, that i recently suppressed, was an absolutely scandalous example of this method of utilising one's acquaintances. mrs. harborough, who was indeed euphemia's most confidential friend for six weeks and more, she had made to elope with scrimgeour--as steady and honourable a man as we know, though unpleasant to euphemia on account of his manner of holding his teacup. i believe there really was something--quite harmless, of course--between mrs. harborough and scrimgeour, and that, imparted in confidence, had been touched up with vivid colour here and there and utilised freely. scrimgeour is represented as always holding teacups in his peculiar way, so that anyone would recognise him at once. euphemia calls that character. then harborough, who is really on excellent terms with his wife, and, in spite of his quiet manner, a very generous and courageous fellow, is turned aside from his headlong pursuit of the fugitives across wimbledon common--they elope, by the bye, on scrimgeour's tandem bicycle--by the fear of being hit by a golf ball. i pointed out to euphemia that these things were calculated to lose us friends, and she promises to destroy the likeness; but i have no confidence in her promise. she will probably clap a violent auburn wig on mrs. harborough and make scrimgeour squint and give harborough a big beard. the point that she won't grasp is, that with that fatal facility for detail, which is one of the most indisputable proofs of woman's intellectual inferiority, she has reproduced endless remarks and mannerisms of these excellent people with more than photographic fidelity. but this is really a private trouble, though it illustrates very well the shameless way in which those who have the literary taint will bring to market their most intimate affairs. on schooling and the phases of mr. sandsome i do not know if you remember your "dates." indeed, i do not know if anyone does. my own memory is of a bridge; like that bridge of goldsmith's, standing firm and clear on its hither piers and then passing into a cloud. in the beginning of days was "william the conqueror, ," and the path lay safe and open to henry the second; then came titanic forms of kings, advancing and receding, elongating and dwindling, exchanging dates, losing dates, stealing dates from battles and murders and great enactments--even inventing dates, vacant years that were really no dates at all. the things i have suffered--prisons, scourgings, beating with rods, wild masters, in bounds often, a hundred lines often, standing on forms and holding out books often--on account of these dates! i knew, and knew well before i was fifteen, what these "heredity" babblers are only beginning to discover--that the past is the curse of the present. but i never knew my dates--never. and i marvel now that all little boys do not grow up to be republicans, seeing how much they suffer for the mere memory of kings. then there were pedigrees, and principal parts and conjugations, and county towns. every county had a county town, and it was always on a river. mr. sandsome never allowed us a town without that colophon. i remember in my early manhood going to guildford on the wey, and trying to find that unobtrusive rivulet. i went over the downs for miles. it is not only the wey i have had a difficulty in finding. there are certain verses--heaven help me, but i have forgotten them!--about "_i_ vel _e_ dat" (_was_ it dat?) "utrum malis"--if i remember rightly--and all that about _amo, amas, amat_. there was a multitude of such things i acquired, and they lie now, in the remote box-rooms and lumber recesses of my mind, a rusting armoury far gone in decay. i have never been able to find a use for them. i wonder even now why mr. sandsome equipped me with them. yet he seemed to be in deadly earnest about this learning, and i still go in doubt. in those early days he impressed me, chiefly in horizontal strips, with the profoundest respect for his mental and physical superiority. i credited him then, and still incline to believe he deserved to be credited, with a sincere persuasion that unless i learnt these things i should assuredly go--if i may be frank--to the devil. it may be so. i may be living in a fool's paradise, prospering--like that wicked man the psalmist disliked. some unsuspected gulf may open, some undreamt-of danger thrust itself through the phantasmagoria of the universe, and i may learn too late the folly of forgetting my declensions. i remember mr. sandsome chiefly as sitting at his desk, in a little room full of boys, a humming hive whose air was thick with dust, as the slanting sunbeams showed. when we were not doing sums or writing copies, we were always learning or saying lessons. in the early morning mr. sandsome sat erect and bright, his face animated, his ruddy eyes keen and observant, the cane hanging but uncertainly upon its hook. there was a standing up of classes, a babble of repetition, now and then a crisis. how long the days were then! i have heard that scientific people--professor c. darwin is their leader, unless i err--which probably i do, for names and dates i have hated from my youth up--say the days grow longer. anyhow, whoever says it, it is quite wrong. but as the lank hours of that vast schooltime drawled on, mr. sandsome lost energy, drooped like a flower,--especially if the day was at all hot,--his sandy hair became dishevelled, justice became nerveless, hectic, and hasty. finally came copybooks; and yawns and weird rumblings from mr. sandsome. and so the world aged to the dinner-hour. when i had been home--it was a day school, for my aunt, who had an appetite for such things, knew that boarding-schools were sinks of iniquity--and returned, i had mr. sandsome at another phase. he had dined--for we were simple country folk. the figurative suggestions of that "phase" are irresistible--the lunar quality. may i say that mr. sandsome was at his full? we now stood up, thirty odd of us altogether, to read, reading out of books in a soothing monotone, and he sat with his reading-book before him, ruddy as the setting sun, and slowly, slowly settling down. but now and then he would jerk back suddenly into staring wakefulness as though he were fishing--with himself as bait--for schoolboy crimes in the waters of oblivion--and fancied a nibble. that was a dangerous time, full of anxiety. at last he went right under and slept, and the reading grew cheerful, full of quaint glosses and unexpected gaps, leaping playfully from boy to boy, instead of travelling round with a proper decorum. but it never ceased, and little hurkley's silly little squeak of a voice never broke in upon its mellow flow. (it took a year for hurkley's voice to break.) any such interruption and mr. sandsome woke up and into his next phase forthwith--a disagreeable phase always, and one we made it our business to postpone as long as possible. during that final period, the last quarter, mr. sandsome was distinctly malignant. it was hard to do right; harder still to do wrong. a feverish energy usually inspired our government. "let us try to get some work done," mr. sandsome would say--and i have even known him teach things then. more frequently, with a needless bitterness, he set us upon impossible tasks, demanding a colossal tale of sums perhaps, scattering pens and paper and sowing the horrors of bookkeeping, or chastising us with the scorpions of parsing and translation. and even in wintry weather the little room grew hot and stuffy, and we terminated our schoolday, much exhausted, with minds lax, lounging attitudes, and red ears. what became of mr. sandsome after the giving-out of home-work, the concluding prayer, and the aftermath of impositions, i do not know. i stuffed my books, such as came to hand--very dirty they were inside, and very neat out with my aunt charlotte's chintz covers--into my green baize bag, and went forth from the mysteries of schooling into the great world, up the broad white road that went slanting over the down. i say "the mysteries of schooling" deliberately. i wondered then, i wonder still, what it was all for. reading, almost my only art, i learnt from aunt charlotte; a certain facility in drawing i acquired at home and took to school, to my own undoing. "undoing," again, is deliberate--it was no mere swish on the hand, gentle reader. but the things i learnt, more or less partially, at school, lie in my mind, like the "sarsen" stones of wiltshire--great, disconnected, time-worn chunks amidst the natural herbage of it. "the rivers of the east coast; the tweed, the tyne, the wear, the tees, the humber"--why is that, for instance, sticking up among my ferns and wild flowers? it is not only useless but misleading, for the humber is not another tweed. i sometimes fancy the world may be mad--yet that seems egotistical. the fact remains that for the greater part of my young life mr. sandsome got an appetite upon us from nine till twelve, and digested his dinner, at first placidly and then with petulance, from two until five--and we thirty odd boys were sent by our twenty odd parents to act as a sort of chorus to his physiology. and he was fed (as i judge) more than sufficiently, clothed, sheltered, and esteemed on account of this relation. i think, after all, there must have been something in that schooling. i can't believe the world mad. and i have forgotten it--or as good as forgotten it--all! at times i feel a wild impulse to hunt up all those chintz-covered books, and brush up my dates and paradigms, before it is too late. the poet and the emporium "i am beginning life," he said, with a sigh. "great heavens! i have spent a day--_a day!_--in a shop. three bedroom suites and a sideboard are among the unanticipated pledges of our affection. have you lithia? for a man of twelve limited editions this has been a terrible day." i saw to his creature comforts. his tie was hanging outside his waistcoat, and his complexion was like white pasteboard that has got wet. "courage," said i. "it will not occur again----" "it will," said he. "we have to get there again tomorrow. we have--what is it?--carpets, curtains----" he produced his tablets. i was amazed. those receptacles of choice thoughts! "the amber sunlight splashing through the leaky--leafy interlacing green," he read. "no!--that's not it. ah, here! curtains! drawing-room--not to cost more than thirty shillings! and there's all the kitchen hardware! (thanks.) dining-room chairs--query--rush bottoms? what's this? g.l.i.s.--ah! "glistering thro' deeps of glaucophane"--that's nothing. mem. to see can we afford indian needlework chairs-- s. d.? it's dreadful, bellows!" he helped himself to a cigarette. "find the salesman pleasant?" said i. "delightful. assumed i was a spendthrift millionaire at first. produced in an off-hand way an eighty-guinea bedroom suite--we're trying to do the entire business, you know, on about two hundred pounds. well--that's ten editions, you know. came down, with evidently dwindling respect, to things that were still ruinously expensive. i told him we wanted an idyll--love in a cottage, and all that kind of thing. he brushed that on one side, said idols were upstairs in the japanese department, and that perhaps we might _do_ with a servant's set of bedroom furniture. do with a set! he was a gloomy man with (i should judge) some internal pain. i tried to tell him that there was quite a lot of middle-class people like myself in the country, people of limited or precarious means, whose existence he seemed to ignore; assured him some of them led quite beautiful lives. but he had no ideas beyond wardrobes. i quite forgot the business of shopping in an attempt to kindle a little human enthusiasm in his heart. we were in a great vast place full of wardrobes, with a remote glittering vista of brass bedsteads--skeleton beds, you know--and i tried to inspire him with some of the poetry of his emporium; tried to make him imagine these beds and things going east and west, north and south, to take sorrow, servitude, joy, worry, failing strength, restless ambition in their impartial embraces. he only turned round to annie, and asked her if she thought she could _do_ with 'enamelled.' but i was quite taken with my idea----where is it? i left annie to settle with this misanthrope, amidst his raw frameworks of the homes of the future." he fumbled with his tablets. "mats for hall--not to exceed s. d.... kerbs ... inquire tiled hearth ... ah! here we are: 'ballade of the bedroom suite':-- "'noble the oak you are now displaying, subtly the hazel's grainings go, walnut's charm there is no gainsaying, red as red wine is your rosewood's glow; brave and brilliant the ash you show, rich your mahogany's hepatite shine, cool and sweet your enamel: but oh! _where are the wardrobes of painted pine?_' "they have 'em in the catalogue at five guineas, with a picture--quite as good they are as the more expensive ones. to judge by the picture." "but that's scarcely the idea you started with," i began. "not; it went wrong--ballades often do. the preoccupation of the 'painted pine' was too much for me. what's this? 'n.b.--sludge sells music stools at--' no. here we are (first half unwritten):-- "'white enamelled, like driven snow, picked with just one delicate line. price you were saying is? fourteen!--no! _where are the wardrobes of painted pine?_' "comes round again, you see! then _l'envoy_:-- "'salesman, sad is the truth i trow: winsome walnut can never be mine. poets are cheap. and their poetry. so _where are the wardrobes of painted pine?_' "prosaic! as all true poetry is, nowadays. but, how i tired as the afternoon moved on! at first i was interested in the shopman's amazing lack of imagination, and the glory of that fond dream of mine--love in a cottage, you know--still hung about me. i had ideas come--like that ballade--and every now and then annie told me to write notes. i think my last gleam of pleasure was in choosing the drawing-room chairs. there is scope for fantasy in chairs. then----" he took some more whisky. "a kind of grey horror came upon me. i don't know if i can describe it. we went through vast vistas of chairs, of hall-tables, of machine-made pictures, of curtains, huge wildernesses of carpets, and ever this cold, unsympathetic shopman led us on, and ever and again made us buy this or that. he had a perfectly grey eye--the colour of an overcast sky in january--and he seemed neither to hate us nor to detest us, but simply to despise us, to feel such an overwhelming contempt for our petty means and our petty lives, as an archangel might feel for an apple-maggot. it made me think...." he lit a fresh cigarette. "i had a kind of vision. i do not know if you will understand. the warehouse of life, with our individual fate hurrying each of us through. showing us with a covert sneer all the good things that we cannot afford. a magnificent rosewood love affair, for instance, deep and rich, fitted complete, some hours of perfect life, some acts of perfect self-sacrifice, perfect self-devotion.... you ask the price." he shrugged his shoulders. "where are the wardrobes of painted pine?" i quoted. "that's it. all the things one might do, if the purse of one's courage were not so shallow. if it wasn't for the lack of that coinage, bellows, every man might be magnificent. there's heroism, there's such nobility as no one has ever attained to, ready to hand. anyone, if it were not for this lack of means, might be a human god in twenty-four hours.... you see the article. you cannot buy it. no one buys it. it stands in the emporium, i suppose, for show--on the chance of a millionaire. and the shopman waves his hand to it on your way to the painted pine. "then you meet other couples and solitary people going about, each with a gloomy salesman leading. the run of them look uncomfortable; some are hot about the ears and in the spiteful phase of ill-temper; all look sick of the business except the raw new-comers. it's the only time they will ever select any furniture, their first chance and their last. most of their selections are hurried a little. the salesman must not be kept all day.... yet it goes hard with you if you buy your object in life and find it just a 'special line' made to sell.... we're all amateurs at living, just as we are all amateurs at furnishing--or dying. some of the poor devils one meets carry tattered little scraps of paper, and fumble conscientiously with stumpy pencils. it's a comfort to see how you go, even if you do have to buy rubbish. 'if we have _this_ so good, dear, i don't know _how_ we shall manage in the kitchen,' says the careful housewife.... so it is we do our shopping in the great emporium." "you will have to rewrite your ballade," said i, "and put all that in." "i wish i could," said the poet. "and while you were having these very fine moods?" "annie and the shopman settled most of the furniture between them. perhaps it's just as well. i was never very good at the practical details of life.... cigarette's out! have you any more matches?" "horribly depressed you are!" i said. "there's to-morrow. well, well...." and then he went off at a tangent to tell me what he expected to make by his next volume of poems, and so came to the congenial business of running down his contemporaries, and became again the cheerful little poet that i know. the language of flowers during the early victorian revival of chivalry the language of flowers had some considerable vogue. the romeo of the mutton-chop whiskers was expected to keep this delicate symbolism in view, and even to display his wit by some dainty conceits in it. an ignorance of the code was fraught with innumerable dangers. a sprig of lilac was a suggestion, a moss-rosebud pushed the matter, was indeed evidence to go to court upon; and unless charlotte parried with white poplar--a by no means accessible flower--or apricot blossom, or failing these dabbed a cooling dock-leaf at the fellow, he was at her with tulip, heliotrope, and honeysuckle, peach-blossom, white jonquil, and pink, and a really overpowering and suffocating host of attentions. i suppose he got at last to three-cornered notes in the vernacular; and meanwhile what could a poor girl do? there was no downright "no!" in the language of flowers, nothing equivalent to "go away, please," no flower for "idiot!" the only possible defence was something in this way: "your cruelty causes me sorrow," "your absence is a pleasure." for this, according to the code of mr. thomas miller (third edition, , with elegantly coloured plates) you would have to get a sweet-pea blossom for pleasure, wormwood for absence, and indicate sorrow by the yew, and cruelty by the stinging-nettle. there is always a little risk of mixing your predicates in this kind of communication, and he might, for instance, read that his absence caused you sorrow, but he could scarcely miss the point of the stinging-nettle. that and the gorse carefully concealed were about the only gleams of humour possible in the language. but then it was the appointed tongue of lovers, and while their sickness is upon them they have neither humour nor wit. this mr. thomas miller wrote abundant flowers of language in his book, and the plates were coloured by hand. by the bye, what a blessed thing colour-printing is! these hand-tinted plates, to an imaginative person, are about as distressing as any plates can very well be. whenever i look at these triumphs of art over the beauties of nature, with all their weary dabs of crimson, green, blue, and yellow, i think of wretched, anæmic girls fading their youth away in some dismal attic over a publisher's, toiling through the whole edition tint by tint, and being mocked the while by mr. miller's alliterative erotics. and they _are_ erotics! in one place he writes, "beautiful art thou, o broom! on the breezy bosom of the bee-haunted heath"; and throughout he buds and blossoms into similar delights. he wallows in doves and coy toyings and modest blushes, and bowers and meads. he always adds, "wonderful boy!" to chatterton's name as if it were a university degree (w.b.), and he invariably refers to moore as the bard of erin, and to milton as the bard of paradise--though bard of the bottomless pit would be more appropriate. however, we are not concerned with mr. miller's language so much as with a very fruitful suggestion he throws out, that "it is surely worth while to trace a resemblance between the flower and the emblem it represents" (a turn like that is nothing to mr. miller) "which shall at least have some show of reason in it." come to think of it, there is something singularly unreasonable about almost all floral symbolism. there is your forget-me-not, pink in the bud, and sapphire in the flower, with a fruit that breaks up into four, the very picture of inconstancy and discursiveness. yet your lover, with a singular blindness, presents this to his lady when they part. then the white water-lily is supposed to represent purity of heart, and, mark you, it is white without and its centre is all set about with innumerable golden stamens, while in the middle lies, to quote the words of that distinguished botanist, mr. oliver, "a fleshy disc." could there be a better type of sordid and mercenary deliberation maintaining a fair appearance? the tender apple-blossom, rather than pretence, is surely a reminder of eden and the fall of love's devotion into inflated worldliness. the poppy which flaunts its violent colours athwart the bearded corn, and which frets and withers like the second mrs. tanqueray so soon as you bring it to the shelter of a decent home, is made the symbol of repose. one might almost think aimé martin and the other great authorities on this subject wrote in a mood of irony. the daisy, too, presents you innocence, "companion of the milk-white lamb," mr. miller calls it. i am sorry for the milk-white lamb. it was one of the earliest discoveries of systematic botany that the daisy is a fraud, a complicated impostor. _the daisy is not a flower at all._ it is a favourite trap in botanical examinations, a snare for artless young men entering the medical profession. each of the little yellow things in the centre of the daisy is a flower in itself,--if you look at one with a lens you will find it not unlike a cowslip flower,--and the white rays outside are a great deal more than the petals they ought to be if the innocence theory is to hold good. there is no such thing as an innocent flower; they are all so many deliberate advertisements to catch the eye of the undecided bee, but any flower almost is simpler than this one. we would make it the emblem of artistic deception, and the confidence trick expert should wear it as his crest. the violet, again, is a greatly overrated exemplar. it stimulates a certain bashfulness, hangs its head, and passed as modest among our simple grandparents. its special merit is its perfume, and it pretends to wish to hide that from every eye. but, withal, the fragrance is as far-reaching as any i know. it droops ingenuously. "how _could_ you come to me," it seems to say, "when all these really brilliant flowers invite you?" mere fishing for compliments. all the while it is being sweet, to the very best of its undeniable ability. then it comes, too, in early spring, without a chaperon, and catches our hearts fresh before they are jaded with the crowded beauties of may. a really modest flower would wait for the other flowers to come first. a subtle affectation is surely a different thing from modesty. the violet is simply artful, the young widow among flowers, and to hold up such a flower as an example is not doing one's duty by the young. for true modesty commend me to the agave, which flowers once only in half a hundred years, as one may see for oneself at the royal botanical gardens. enough has been said to show what scope there is for revision of this sentimental volapuk. mr. martin himself scarcely goes so far as i have done, though i have merely worked out his suggestion. his only revolutionary proposal is to displace the wind star by the "rathe primrose" for forsaken, on the strength of a quotation familiar to every reader of mason's little text-book on the english language. for the rest he followed his authorities, and has followed them now to the remote recesses of the literary lumber-room and into the twopenny book-box. from that receptacle one copy of him was disinterred only a day or so ago; a hundred and seventy pages of prose, chiefly alliterative, several coloured plates, enthusiastic pencil-marking of a vanished somebody, and, besides, an early victorian flavour of dust and a dim vision of a silent conversation in a sunlit flower garden--altogether i think very cheap at twopence. the fashion has changed altogether now. in these days we season our love-making with talk about heredity, philanthropy, and sanitation, and present one another with fabian publications instead of wild flowers. but in the end, i fancy, the business comes to very much the same thing. the literary regimen at the risk of offending the young beginner's illusions, he must be reminded of one or two homely but important facts bearing upon literary production. homely as they are, they explain much that is at first puzzling. this perplexing question of distinction; the quality of being somehow _fresh_--individual. really it is a perfectly simple matter. it is common knowledge that, after a prolonged fast, the brain works in a feeble manner, the current of one's thoughts is pallid and shallow, it is difficult to fix the attention and impossible to mobilise the full forces of the mind. on the other hand, immediately after a sound meal, the brain feels massive, but static. tea is conducive to a gentle flow of pleasing thoughts, and anyone who has taken easton's syrup of the hypophosphites will recall at once the state of cerebral erethrism, of general mental alacrity, that followed on a dose. again, champagne (followed perhaps by a soupçon of whisky) leads to a mood essentially humorous and playful, while about three dozen oysters, taken fasting, will in most cases produce a profound and even ominous melancholy. one might enlarge further upon this topic, on the brutalising influence of beer, the sedative quality of lettuce, the stimulating consequences of curried chicken; but enough has been said to point our argument. it is, that such facts as this can surely indicate only one conclusion, and that is the entire dependence of literary qualities upon the diet of the writer. i may remind the reader, in confirmation of this suggestion, of what is perhaps the most widely known fact about carlyle, that on one memorable occasion he threw his breakfast out of the window. why did he throw his breakfast out of the window? surely his friends have cherished the story out of no petty love of depreciatory detail? there are, however, those who would have us believe it was mere childish petulance at a chilly rasher or a hard-boiled egg. such a supposition is absurd. on the other hand, what is more natural than an outburst of righteous indignation at the ruin of some carefully studied climax of feeding? the thoughtful literary beginner who is not altogether submerged in foolish theories of inspiration and natural genius will, we fancy, see pretty clearly that i am developing what is perhaps after all the fundamental secret of literary art. to come now to more explicit instructions. it is imperative, if you wish to write with any power and freshness at all, that you should utterly ruin your digestion. any literary person will confirm this statement. at any cost the thing must be done, even if you have to live on german sausage, onions, and cheese to do it. so long as you turn all your dietary to flesh and blood you will get no literature out of it. "we learn in suffering what we teach in song." this is why men who live at home with their mothers, or have their elder sisters to see after them, never, by any chance, however great their literary ambition may be, write anything but minor poetry. they get their meals at regular hours, and done to a turn, and that plays the very devil--if you will pardon the phrase--with one's imagination. a careful study of the records of literary men in the past, and a considerable knowledge of living authors, suggests two chief ways of losing one's digestion and engendering literary capacity. you go and live in humble lodgings,--we could name dozens of prominent men who have fed a great ambition in this way,--or you marry a nice girl who does not understand housekeeping. the former is the more efficacious method, because, as a rule, the nice girl wants to come and sit on your knee all day, and that is a great impediment to literary composition. belonging to a club--even a literary club--where you can dine is absolute ruin to the literary beginner. many a bright young fellow, who has pushed his way, or has been pushed by indiscreet friends, into the society of successful literary men, has been spoilt by this fatal error, and he has saved his stomach to lose his reputation. having got rid of your digestion, then, the common condition of all good literature, the next thing is to arrange your dietary for the particular literary effect you desire. and here we may point out the secrecy observed in such matters by literary men. stevenson fled to samoa to hide his extremely elaborate methods, and to keep his kitchen servants out of the reach of bribery. even sir walter besant, though he is fairly communicative to the young aspirant, has dropped no hints of the plain, pure, and wholesome menu he follows. sala professed to eat everything, but that was probably his badinage. possibly he had one staple, and took the rest as condiment. then what did shakespeare live on? bacon? and mr. barrie, though he has written a delightful book about his pipe and tobacco, full of suggestion to the young humorist, lets out nothing or next to nothing of his meat and drink. his hints about pipes are very extensively followed, and nowadays every ambitious young pressman smokes in public at least one well-burnt briar with an eccentric stem--even at some personal inconvenience. but this jealous reticence on the part of successful men--you notice they never let even the interviewer see their kitchens or the débris of a meal--necessarily throws one back upon rumour and hypothesis in this matter. mr. andrew lang, for instance, is popularly associated with salmon, but that is probably a wilful delusion. excessive salmon, far from engendering geniality, will be found in practice a vague and melancholy diet, tending more towards the magnificent despondency of mr. hall caine. nor does mr. haggard feed entirely on raw meat. indeed, for lurid and somewhat pessimistic narrative, there is nothing like the ordinary currant bun, eaten new and in quantity. a light humorous style is best attained by soda-water and dry biscuits, following café-noir. the soda-water may be either scotch or irish as the taste inclines. for a florid, tawdry style the beginner must take nothing but boiled water, stewed vegetables, and an interest in the movements against vivisection, opium, alcohol, tobacco, sarcophagy, and the male sex. for contributions to the leading reviews, boiled pork and cabbage may be eaten, with bottled beer, followed by apple dumpling. this effectually suppresses any tendency to facetiousness, or what respectable english people call _double entendre_, and brings you _en rapport_ with the serious people who read these publications. so soon as you begin to feel wakeful and restless discontinue writing. for what is vulgarly known as the _fin-de-siècle_ type of publication, on the other hand, one should limit oneself to an aërated bread shop for a week or so, with the exception of an occasional tea in a literary household. all people fed mainly on scones become clever. and this regimen, with an occasional debauch upon macaroons, chocolate, and cheap champagne, and brisk daily walks from oxford circus, through regent street, piccadilly, and the green park, to westminster and back, should result in an animated society satire. it is not known what mr. kipling takes to make him so peculiar. many of us would like to know. possibly it is something he picked up in the jungle--berries or something. a friend who made a few tentative experiments to this end turned out nothing beyond a will, and that he dictated and left incomplete. (it was scarcely on the lines of an ordinary will, being blasphemous, and mentioning no property except his inside.) for short stories of the detective type, strong cold tea and hard biscuits are fruitful eating, while for a social science novel one should take an abundance of boiled rice and toast and water. however, these remarks are mainly by way of suggestion. every writer in the end, so soon as his digestion is destroyed, must ascertain for himself the peculiar diet that suits him best--that is, which disagrees with him the most. if everything else fails he might try some chemical food. "jabber's food for authors," by the bye, well advertised, and with portraits of literary men, in their drawing-rooms, "fed entirely on jabber's food," with medical certificates of its unwholesomeness, and favourable and expurgated reviews of works written on it, ought to be a brilliant success among literary aspirants. a small but sufficient quantity of arsenic might with advantage be mixed in. house-hunting as an outdoor amusement since adam and eve went hand in hand out of the gates of paradise, the world has travailed under an infinite succession of house-hunts. to-day in every eligible suburb you may see new adams and new eves by the score, with rusty keys and pink order-forms in hand, wandering still, in search of the ideal home. to them it is anything but an amusement. most of these poor pilgrims look simply tired, some are argumentative in addition, but all are disappointed, anxious, and unhappy, their hands dirty with prying among cisterns, and their garments soiled from cellar walls. all, in the exaltation of the wooing days, saw at least the indistinct reflection of the perfect house, but now the quest is irrevocably in hand they seek and do not find. and such a momentous question it is to them. are they not choosing the background, the air and the colour, as it were, of the next three or four years, the cardinal years, too! of their lives? perhaps the exquisite exasperation of the business for the man who hunts among empty houses for a home is, that it is so entirely a choice of second-hand, or at least ready-made goods. to me, at least, there is a decided suggestion of the dead body in your empty house that has once been occupied. here, like pale ghosts upon the wall paper, are outlined the pictures of the departed tenant; here are the nails of the invisible curtains, this dent in the wall is all that is sensible of a vanished piano. i could fancy all these things creeping back to visibility as the light grew dim. someone was irritable in the house, perhaps, and a haunting fragrance of departed quarrels is to be found in the loose door-handles, and the broken bell-pull. then the blind in the bedroom has a broken string. he was a beer-drinker, for the drip of the tap has left its mark in the cellar; a careless man, for this wall is a record of burst water-pipes; and rough in his methods, as his emendation of the garden gate--a remedy rather worse than the disease--shows. the mark of this prepotent previous man is left on the house from cellar to attic. it is his house really, not mine. and against these haunting individualities set the horrible wholesale flavour, the obvious dexterous builder's economies of a new house. yet, whatever your repulsion may be, the end is always the same. after you have asked for your ideal house a hundred times or so you begin to see you do not get it. you go the way of your kind. all houses are taken in despair. but such disgusts as this are for the man who really aims at taking a house. the artist house-hunter knows better than that. he hunts for the hunt's sake, and does not mar his work with a purpose. then house-hunting becomes a really delightful employment, and one strangely neglected in this country. i have heard, indeed, of old ladies who enlivened the intervals of their devotions in this manner, but to the general run of people the thing is unknown. yet a more entertaining way of spending a half-holiday--having regard to current taste--it should be difficult to imagine. an empty house is realistic literature in the concrete, full of hints and allusions if a little wanting in tangible humanity, and it outdoes the modern story in its own line, by beginning as well as ending in a note of interrogation. that it is not more extensively followed i can only explain by supposing that its merits are generally unsuspected. in which case this book should set a fashion. one singular thing the house-hunter very speedily discovers is, that the greater portion of the houses in this country are owned by old gentlemen or old ladies who live next door. after a certain age, and especially upon retired tradespeople, house property, either alone or in common with gardening, exercises an irresistible fascination. you always know you are going to meet a landlord or landlady of this type when you read on your order to view, "key next door but one." calling next door but one, you are joined after the lapse of a few minutes by a bald, stout gentleman, or a lady of immemorial years, who offers to go over "the property" with you. apparently the intervals between visits to view are spent in slumber, and these old people come out refreshed and keen to scrutinise their possible new neighbours. they will tell you all about the last tenant, and about the present tenants on either side, and about themselves, and how all the other houses in the neighbourhood are damp, and how they remember when the site of the house was a cornfield, and what they do for their rheumatism. as one hears them giving a most delightful vent to their loquacity, the artistic house-hunter feels all the righteous self-applause of a kindly deed. sometimes they get extremely friendly. one old gentleman--to whom anyone under forty must have seemed puerile--presented the gentle writer with three fine large green apples as a kind of earnest of his treatment: apples, no doubt, of some little value, since they excited the audible envy of several little boys before they were disposed of. sometimes the landlord has even superintended the building of the house himself, and then it often has peculiar distinctions--no coal cellar, or a tower with turrets, or pillars of ornamental marble investing the portico with disproportionate dignity. one old gentleman, young as old gentlemen go, short of stature, of an agreeable red colour, and with short iron-grey hair, had a niche over the front door containing a piece of statuary. it gave one the impression of the venus of milo in chocolate pyjamas. "it was nood at first," said the landlord, "but the neighbourhood is hardly educated up to art, and objected. so i gave it that brown paint." on one expedition the artistic house-hunter was accompanied by euphemia. then it was he found hill crest, a vast edifice at the incredible rent of £ a year, with which a megatherial key was identified. it took the two of them, not to mention an umbrella, to turn this key. the rent was a mystery, and while they were in the house--a thunderstorm kept them there some time--they tried to imagine the murder. from the top windows they could see the roofs of the opposite houses in plan. "i wonder how long it would take to get to the top of the house from the bottom?" said euphemia. "certainly longer than we could manage every day," said the artistic house-hunter. "fancy looking for my pipe in all these rooms. starting from the top bedroom at the usual time, i suppose one would arrive downstairs to breakfast about eleven, and then we should have to be getting upstairs again by eight o'clock if we wanted any night's rest worth having. or we might double or treble existence, live a gargantuan life to match the house, make our day of forty-eight hours instead of twenty-four. by doubling everything we should not notice the hole it made in our time getting about the place. perhaps by making dinner last twice as long, eating twice as much, and doing everything on the scale of two to one, we might adapt ourselves to our environment in time, grow twice as big." "_then_ we might be very comfortable here," said euphemia. they went downstairs again. by that time it was thundering and raining heavily. the rooms were dark and gloomy. the big side door, which would not shut unless locked from the outside, swayed and banged as the gusts of wind swept round the house. but they had a good time in the front kitchen, playing cricket with an umbrella and the agent's order crumpled into a ball. presently the artistic house-hunter lifted euphemia on to the tall dresser, and they sat there swinging their feet patiently until the storm should leave off and release them. "i should feel in this kitchen," said euphemia, "like one of my little dolls must have felt in the dolls'-house kitchen i had once. the top of her head just reached the level of the table. there were only four plates on the dresser, but each was about half her height across----" "your reminiscences are always entertaining," said the artistic house-hunter; "still they fail to explain the absorbing mystery of this house being to let at £ a year." the problem raised his curiosity, but though he made inquiries he found no reason for the remarkably low rent or the continued emptiness of the house. it was a specimen puzzle for the house-hunter. a large house with a garden of about half an acre, and with accommodation for about six families, going begging for £ a year. would it let at eighty? some such problem, however, turns up in every house-hunt, and it is these surprises that give the sport its particular interest and delight. always provided the mind is not unsettled by any ulterior notion of settling down. of blades and bladery the blade is not so much a culture as a temperament, and bladery--if the thing may have the name--a code of sentiments rather than a ritual. it is the rococo school of behaviour, the flamboyant gentleman, the gargoyle life. the blade is the tribute innocence pays to vice. he may look like a devil and belong to a church. and the clothing of the blade, being symbolical, is a very important part of him. it must show not only a certain tastiness, but also decision in the accent, courage in the pattern, and a dudley hardihood of outline. a blade must needs take the colour of his social standing, but all blades have the same essential qualities. and all blades have this quality, that they despise and contemn other blades from the top downward. (but where the bottommost blade comes no man can tell.) a well-bred blade--though he be a duke--tends to wear his hat tilted a little over the right eyebrow, and a piece of hair is pulled coquettishly down just below the brim. his collar is high, and a very large bow is worn slightly askew. this may be either cream-coloured or deep blue, with spots of white, or it may be red, or buff, but not green, because of badinage. the blade of the middle class displays a fine gold watch-chain, and his jacket and vest may be of a rough black cloth or blue serge. the trousering may be of a suit with the jacket, or tasteful, and the shoes must be long. the betting man, adorned, is a perfect blade. there is often a large and ornamental stick, which is invariably carried head downwards. and note, that the born blade instinctively avoids any narrowness of pose. in walking he thrusts out his shoulders, elbows, and knees, and it is rather the thing to dominate a sphere of influence beyond this by swinging his stick. at first the beginner will find this weapon a little apt to slip from the hand and cause inconvenience to the general public; but he must not mind that. after a few such misadventures he will acquire dexterity. all blades smoke--publicly at least. to smoke a white meerschaum in the streets, however, is very inferior form. the proper smoking is a briar, and, remember, it is not smart to have a new pipe. so soon as he buys it, the blade takes his pipe home, puts it on a glowing fire to burn the rim, scrapes this away, burns it again, and so on until it looks a sullen desperado of a pipe--a pipe with a wild past. sometimes he cannot smoke a pipe. in this case he may--for his stomach's sake--smoke a cigarette. and, besides, there is something cynical about a cigarette. for the very young blade there are certain makes of cigarette that burn well--they are mixed with nitre--and these may be smoked by holding them in the left hand and idly swinging them to and fro in the air. if it were not for the public want of charity, i would recommend a well-known brand. a blade may always escape a cigar by feigning a fastidious taste. "none of your cabanas" is rather good style. the blade, it must be understood--especially by the blade's friends--spends his time in a whirl of dissipation. that is the symbolism of the emphatic obliquity of the costume. first, he drinks. the blade at harrow, according to a reliable authority, drinks cherry brandy and even champagne; other blades consume whisky-and-soda; the less costly kind of blade does it on beer. and here the beginner is often at a loss. let us say he has looked up the street and down, ascertained that there are no aunts in the air, and then plunged into his first public-house. how shall he ask for his liquor? "i will take a glass of ale, if you please, miss," seems tame for a blade. it may be useful to know a more suitable formula. just at present, we may assure the blade neophyte, it is all the rage to ask for "two of swipes, ducky." go in boldly, bang down your money as loudly as possible, and shout that out at the top of your voice. if it is a barman, though, you had better not say "ducky." the slang will, we can assure him, prove extremely effective. then the blade gambles; but over the gambling of the blade it is well to draw a veil--a partially translucent and coquettish veil, through which we can see the thing dimly, and enhanced in its enormity. you must patronise the turf, of course, and have money on horses, or you are no blade at all, but a mere stick. the harrow blade has his book on all the big races in the calendar; and the great and noble game of nap--are not blades its worshippers wherever the sun shines and a pack of cards is obtainable? baccarat, too. many a glorious blade has lost his whole term's pocket-money at a single sitting at that noble game. and the conversation of the blade must always be brilliant in the extreme, like the flashing of steel in the sunlight. it is usually cynical and worldly, sometimes horrible enough to make a governess shudder, but always epigrammatic. epigrams and neat comparisons are much easier to make than is vulgarly supposed. "schoolmasters hang about the crops of knowledge like dead crows about a field, examples and warnings to greedy souls." "marriage is the beginning of philosophy, and the end is, 'do not marry.'" "all women are constant, but some discover mistakes." "one is generally repentant when one is found out, and remorseful when one can't do it again." a little practice, and this kind of thing may be ground out almost without thinking. occasionally, in your conversation with ladies, you may let an oath slip. (better not let your aunt hear you.) apologise humbly at once, of course. but it will give them a glimpse of the lurid splendour of your private life. and that brings us to the central thing of the blade's life, the eternal feminine! pity them, be a little sorry for them--the poor souls cannot be blades. they must e'en sit and palpitate while the blade flashes. the accomplished blade goes through life looking unspeakable wickedness at everything feminine he meets, old and young, rich and poor, one with another. he reeks with intrigue. every blade has his secrets and mysteries in this matter--remorse even for crimes. you do not know all that his handsome face may hide. even he does not know. he may have sat on piers and talked to shop-girls, kissed housemaids, taken barmaids to music halls, conversed with painted wickedness in public places--nothing is too much for him. and oh! the reckless protestations of love he has made, the broken promises, the broken hearts! yet men must be blades, though women may weep; and every blade must take his barmaid to a music hall at least once, even if she be taller than himself. until then his manhood is not assured. just one hint in conclusion. a blade who collects stamps, or keeps tame rabbits, or eats sweets, oranges, or apples in the streets, or calls names publicly after his friends, is no blade at all, but a boy still. so, with our blessing, he swaggers on his way and is gone. a don juan as fresh as spring, a rosebud desperado. may he never come upon just cause for repentance! of cleverness Ã�propos of one crichton crichton is an extremely clever person--abnormally, indeed almost unnaturally, so. he is not merely clever at this or that, but clever all round; he gives you no consolations. he goes about being needlessly brilliant. he caps your jests and corrects your mistakes, and does your special things over again in newer and smarter ways. any really well-bred man who presumed so far would at least be plain or physically feeble, or unhappily married by way of apology, but the idea of so much civility seems never to have entered crichton's head. he will come into a room where we are jesting perhaps, and immediately begin to flourish about less funny perhaps but decidedly more brilliant jests, until at last we retire one by one from the conversation and watch him with savage, weary eyes over our pipes. he invariably beats me at chess, invariably. people talk about him and ask my opinion of him, and if i venture to criticise him they begin to look as though they thought i was jealous. grossly favourable notices of his books and his pictures crop up in the most unlikely places; indeed i have almost given up newspapers on account of him. yet, after all---- this cleverness is not everything. it never pleases me, and i doubt sometimes if it pleases anyone. suppose you let off some clever little thing, a subtlety of expression, a paradox, an allusive suggestive picture; how does it affect ordinary people? those who are less clever than yourself, the unspecialised, unsophisticated average people, are simply annoyed by the puzzle you set them; those who are cleverer find your cleverness mere obvious stupidity; and your equals, your competitors in cleverness, are naturally your deadly rivals. the fact is this cleverness, after all, is merely egotism in its worst and unwisest phase. it is an incontinence of brilliance, graceless and aggressive, a glaring swagger. the drunken helot of cleverness is the creature who goes about making puns. a mere step above comes the epigram, the isolated epigram framed and glazed. then such impressionist art as crichton's pictures, mere puns in paint. what they mean is nothing, they arrest a quiet decent-minded man like myself with the same spasmodic disgust as a pun in literature--the subject is a transparent excuse; they are mere indecent and unedifying exhibitions of himself. he thinks it is something superlative to do everything in a startling way. he cannot even sign his name without being offensive. he lacks altogether the fundamental quality of a gentleman, the magnanimity to be commonplace. i---- on the score of personal dignity, why should a young man of respectable antecedents and some natural capacity stoop to this kind of thing? to be clever is the last desperate resort of the feeble, it is the merit of the ambitious slave. you cannot conquer _vi et armis_, you cannot stomach a decent inferiority, so you resort to lively, eccentric, and brain-wearying brilliance to ingratiate yourself. the cleverest animal by far is the monkey, and compare that creature's undignified activity with the mountainous majesty of the elephant! and i cannot help thinking, too, that cleverness must be the greatest obstacle a man can possibly have in his way upward in the world. one never sees really clever people in positions of trust, never widely influential or deeply rooted. look, for instance, at the royal academy, at the judges, at----but there! the very idea of cleverness is an all-round readiness and looseness that is the very negation of stability. whenever crichton has been particularly exasperating, getting himself appreciated in a new quarter, or rising above his former successes, i find some consolation in thinking of my uncle augustus. he was the glory of our family. even aunt charlotte's voice drooped a little in the mention of his name. he was conspicuous for an imposing and even colossal stupidity: he rose to eminence through it, and, what is more, to wealth and influence. he was as reliable, as unlikely to alter his precise position, or do anything unexpected, as the pyramids of egypt. i do not know any topic upon which he was not absolutely uninformed, and his contributions to conversation, delivered in that ringing baritone of his, were appallingly dull. often i have seen him utterly flatten some cheerful clever person of the crichton type with one of his simple garden-roller remarks--plain, solid, and heavy, which there was no possibility either of meeting or avoiding. he was very successful in argument, and yet he never fenced. he simply came down. it was, so to speak, a case of small sword _versus_ the avalanche. his moral inertia was tremendous. he was never excited, never anxious, never jaded; he was simply massive. cleverness broke upon him like shipping on an ironbound coast. his monument is like him--a plain large obelisk of coarse granite, unpretending in its simple ugliness and prominent a mile off. among the innumerable little white sorrows of the cemetery it looks exactly as he used to look among clever people. depend upon it cleverness is the antithesis of greatness. the british empire, like the roman, was built up by dull men. it may be we shall be ruined by clever ones. imagine a regiment of lively and eccentric privates! there never was a statesman yet who had not some ballast of stupidity, and it seems to me that part at least of the essentials of a genius is a certain divine dulness. the people we used to call the masters--shakespeare, raphael, milton, and so forth--had a certain simplicity crichton lacks. they do not scintillate nearly so much as he does, and they do not give that same uncomfortable feeling of internal strain. even homer nods. there are restful places in their work, broad meadows of breezy flatness, calms. but crichton has no pacific ocean to mitigate his everlasting weary passage of cape horn: it is all point and prominence, point and prominence. no doubt this crichton is having a certain vogue now, but it cannot last. i wish him no evil, of course, but i cannot help thinking he will presently have had his day. this epoch of cleverness must be very near its last flare. the last and the abiding thought of humanity is peace. a dull man will presently be sought like the shadow of a great rock in a thirsty land. dulness will be the new genius. "give us dull books," people will cry, "great dull restful pictures. we are weary, very weary." this hectic, restless, incessant phase in which we travail--_fin-de-siècle_, "decadent," and all the rest of it--will pass away. a chubby, sleepy literature, large in aim, colossal in execution, rotund and tranquil will lift its head. and this crichton will become a classic, messrs. mudie will sell surplus copies of his works at a reduction, and i shall cease to be worried by his disgusting success. the pose novel i watched the little spurts of flame jet out from between the writhing pages of my manuscript, watched the sheets coil up in their fiery anguish and start one from another. i helped the fire to the very vitals of the mass by poking the brittle heap, and at last the sacrifice was over, the flames turned from pink to blue and died out, the red glow gave place to black, little luminous red streaks coiled across the charred sheets and vanished at the margins, and only the ashes of my inspiration remained. the ink was a lustrous black on the dull blackness of the burnt paper. i could still read this much of my indiscretion remaining, "he smiled at them all and said nothing." "fool!" i said, and stirred the crackling mass into a featureless heap of black scraps. then with my chin on my fists and elbows on knees i stared at the end of my labours. i suppose, after all, there has been some profit out of the thing. satan finds some mischief still for idle hands to do, and one may well thank heaven it was only a novel. still, it means many days out of my life, and i would be glad to find some positive benefit accruing. clearly, in the first place, i have eased my mind of some execrable english. i am cleaner now by some dozen faulty phrases that i committed and saw afterwards in all the nakedness of typewriting. (thank heaven for typewriting! were it not for that, this thing had gone to the scoffing of some publisher's reader, and another had known my shame.) and i shall not write another pose novel. i am inclined to think these pose novels the wild oats of authorship. we sit down in the heyday of our youth to write the masterpiece. obviously, it must be a novel about a man and a woman, and something as splendid as we can conceive of in that way. we look about us. we do not go far for perfection. one of the brace holds the pen and the other is inside his or her head; and so off! to the willing pen. only a few years ago we went slashing among the poppies with a walking-stick, and were, we said boldly and openly, harolds and hectors slaying our thousands. now of course we are grown up to self-respect, and must needs be a little disingenuous about it. but as the story unfolds there is no mistaking the likeness, in spite of the transfiguration. this bold, decided man who performs such deeds of derring-do in the noisome slum, knocks down the burly wife-beater, rescues an unmistakable miss clapton from the knife of a lascar, and is all the while cultivating a virtuous consumption that stretches him on an edifying, pathetic, and altogether beautiful deathbed in the last chapter----my dear authorling, cry my friends, we hear the squeak of that little voice of yours in every word he utters. is _that_ what you aspire to be, that twopence-coloured edition of yourself? heaven defend you from your desires! yet there was a singular fascination in writing the book; to be in anticipation my own sympathetic historian, to joy with my joys yet to come, and sorrow with my sorrows, to bear disaster like a man, and at last to close my own dear eyes, and with a swelling heart write my own epitaph. the pleasure remained with me until i reached the end. how admirably i strutted in front of myself! and i and the better self of me that was flourishing about in the book--we pretended not to know each other for what we were. he was myself with a wig and a sham visiting card, and i owed it to myself to respect my disguise. i made him with very red hair--my hair is fairly dark--and shifted his university from london to cambridge. clearly it could not be the same person, i argued. but i endowed him with all the treasures of myself; i made him say all the good things i might have said had i thought of them opportunely, and all the noble thoughts that occurred to me afterwards occurred to him at the time. he was myself--myself at a premium, myself without any drawbacks, the quintessence and culmination of me. and yet somehow when he came back from the typewriter he seemed a bit of an ass. probably every tadpole author writes a pose novel--at least i hope so for the sake of my self-respect. most, after my fashion, burn the thing, or benevolent publishers lose it. it is an ill thing if by some accident the tadpole tale survives the tadpole stage. the authoress does the feminine equivalent, but i should judge either that she did it more abundantly or else that she burned less. has she never swept past you with a scornful look, disdained you in all the pride of her beauty, rippled laughter at you, or amazed you with her artless girlishness? and even after the early stages some of the trick may survive, unless i read books with malice instead of charity. i must confess, though, that i have a weakness for finding mine author among his puppets. i conceive him always taking the best parts, like an actor-manager or a little boy playing with his sisters. i do not read many novels with sincere belief, and i like to get such entertainment from them as i can. so that these artless little self-revelations are very sweet and precious to me among all the lay figures, tragedy and comedy. since the deception is transparent i make the most of the transparency, and love to see the clumsy fingers on the strings of the marionettes. and this will be none the less pleasant now that i have so narrowly escaped giving this entertainment to others. i suppose this stage is a necessary one. we begin with ignorance and the imagination, the material of the pose novel. later come self-knowledge, disappointments and self-consciousness, and the prodigals of fiction stay themselves upon the husks of epigram and cynicism, and in the place of artless aspiration are indeed in plain black and white very desperate characters. it is after all only another pose--the pose of not posing. we, the common clay of the world of letters, must needs write in this way, because we cannot forget our foolish little selves in our work. but some few there are who sit as gods above their private universes, and write without passion or vanity. at least, so i have been told. these be the true artists of letters, the white windows upon the truth of things. we by comparison are but stained glass in our own honour, and do but obstruct the view with our halos and attitudes. yet even shakespeare, the critics tell us--and they say they know--posed in the character of hamlet. after all, the pose novel method has at times attained to the level of literature. charlotte brontë might possibly have found no other topic had she disdained the plain little woman with a shrewish tongue; and where had charles kingsley been if the vision of a curate rampant had not rejoiced his heart? still, i am not sorry that this novel is burned. even now it was ridiculous, and the time might have come when this book, full of high, if foolish aims, and the vain vast promise of well-meaning youth, had been too keen a reproach to be endured. three volumes of good intentions! it is too much. there was more than a novel burning just now. after this i shall be in a position to take a humorist's view of life. the veteran cricketer my old cricketer was seized, he says, some score of years ago now, by sciatica, clutched indeed about the loins thereby, and forcibly withdrawn from the practice of the art; since when a certain predisposition to a corpulent habit has lacked its natural check of exercise, and a broadness almost dutch has won upon him. were it not for this, which renders his contours and his receding aspect unseemly, he would be indeed a venerable-looking person, having a profile worthy of a patriarch, tinged though it may be with an unpatriarchal jollity, and a close curly beard like that of king david. he lives by himself in a small cottage outside the village--hating women with an unaccountable detestation--and apparently earns a precarious livelihood, and certainly the sincere aversion of the country side, by umpiring in matches, and playing whist and "nap" with such as will not be so discreet and economical as to bow before his superior merit. his neighbours do not like him, because he will not take their cricket or their whist seriously, because he will persist in offering counsel and the stimulus of his gift of satire. all whist than his he avers is "bumble-puppy." his umpiring is pedagogic in tone; he fails to see the contest in the game. to him, who has heard his thousands roar as the bails of the best of all england went spinning, these village matches are mere puerile exercises to be corrected. his corrections, too, are olympian, done, as it were, in red ink, vivid, and without respect of persons. particularly he gibes. he never uses vulgar bad language himself, but has a singular power of engendering it in others. he has a word "gaby," which he will sometimes enlarge to "stuppid gaby," the which, flung neatly into a man who has just missed a catch, will fill the same with a whirl of furious curses difficult to restrain. and if perchance one should escape, my ancient cricketer will be as startled as cadmus at the crop he has sown. and not only startled but pained at human wickedness and the follies of a new generation. "why can't you play without swearing, muster gibbs?" he will say, catching the whispered hope twenty yards away, and proclaiming it to a censorious world. and so gibbs, our grocer and draper, and one made much of by the vicar, is shamed before the whole parish, and damned even as he desired. to our vicar, a well-meaning, earnest, and extremely nervous man, he displays a methodical antagonism. our vicar is the worst of all possible rural vicars--unripe, a glaring modern, no classical scholar, no lover of nature, offensively young and yet not youthful, an indecent politician. he was meant to labour amid urban myriads, to deal with social evils, home rule, the woman question, and the reunion of christendom, attend conferences and go with the _weltgeist_--damn him!--wherever the _weltgeist_ is going. he presents you jerkily--a tall lean man of ascetic visage and ample garments, a soul clothed not so much in a fleshy body as in black flaps that ever trail behind its energy. where they made him heaven knows. no university owns him. it may be he is a renegade dissenting minister, neither good church nor wholesome nonconformity. him my cricketer regards with malignant respect. respect he shows by a punctilious touching of his hat brim, directed to the sacred office; all the rest is malignity, and aimed at the man that fills it. they come into contact on the cricket-field, and on the committee of our reading-room. for our vicar, in spite of a tendency to myopia, conceives it his duty to encourage cricket by his participation. _duty_--to encourage cricket! so figure the scene to yourself. the sunlit green, and a match in progress,--the ball has just snipped a stump askew,--my ancient, leaning on a stout cabbage stick, and with the light overcoat that is sacred to umpires upon his arm. "_out_, billy durgan," says he, and adds, _ex cathedrâ_, "and one you ought to ha' hit for four." then appears our vicar in semi-canonicals, worn "to keep up his position," or some such folly, nervous about the adjustment of his hat and his eyeglasses. he approaches the pitch, smiling the while to show his purely genial import and to anticipate and explain any amateurish touches. he reaches the wicket and poses himself, as the convenient book he has studied directs. "you'll be caught, muster shackleforth, if you keep your shoulder up like that," says the umpire. "ya-a-ps! that's worse!"--forgetting himself in his zeal for attitude. and then a voice cries "play!" the vicar swipes wildly, cuts the ball for two, and returns to his wicket breathless but triumphant. next comes a bye, and then over. the misguided cleric, ever pursuing a theory of foolish condescension to his betters at the game, and to show there is no offence at the "yaaps," takes the opportunity, although panting, of asking my ancient if his chicks--late threatened with staggers--are doing well. what would he think if my cricketer retaliated by asking, in the pause before the sermon, how the vicarage pony took his last bolus? the two men do not understand one another. my cricketer waves the hens aside, and revenges himself, touching his hat at intervals, by some offensively obvious remarks--as to a mere beginner--about playing with a straight bat. and the field sniggers none too furtively. i sympathise with his malice. cricket is an altogether too sacred thing to him to be tampered with on merely religious grounds. however, our vicar gets himself caught at the first opportunity, and so being removed from my veteran's immediate environment, to their common satisfaction, the due ritual of the great game is resumed. my ancient cricketer abounds in reminiscence of the glorious days that have gone for ever. he can still recall the last echoes of the "throwing" controversy that agitated nyren, when over-arm bowling began, and though he never played himself in a beaver hat, he can, he says, recollect seeing matches so played. in those days everyone wore tall hats--the policeman, the milkman, workmen of all sorts. some people i fancy must have bathed in them and gone to bed wearing them. he recalls the titans of that and the previous age, and particularly delights in the legend of noah mann, who held it a light thing to walk twenty miles from northchapel to hambledon to practise every tuesday afternoon, and wander back after dark. he himself as a stripling would run a matter of four miles, after a day's work in the garden where he was employed, to attend an hour's practice over the downs before the twilight made the balls invisible. and afterwards came teutonic revelry or wanderings under the summer starlight, as the mood might take him. for there was a vein of silent poetry in the youth of this man. he hates your modern billiard-table pitch, and a batting of dexterous snickery. he likes "character" in a game, gigantic hitting forward, bowler-planned leg catches, a cunning obliquity in a wicket that would send the balls mysteriously askew. but dramatic breaks are now a thing unknown in trade cricket. one legend of his i doubt; he avers that once at brighton, in a match between surrey and sussex, he saw seven wickets bowled by some such aid in two successive overs. i have never been able to verify this. i believe that, as a matter of fact, the thing has never occurred, but he tells it often in a fine crescendo of surprise, and the refrain, "out he came." his first beginning is a cheerful anecdote of a crew of "young gentlemen" from cambridge staying at the big house, and a challenge to the rustic talent of "me and billy hall," who "played a bit at that time," "of me and billy hall" winning the pitch and going in first, of a memorable if uncivil stand at the wickets through a long hot afternoon, and a number of young gentlemen from cambridge painfully discovering local talent by exhaustive fielding in the park, a duty they honourably discharged. i am fond of my old cricketer, in spite of a certain mendacious and malign element in him. his yarns of gallant stands and unexpected turns of fortune, of memorable hits and eccentric umpiring, albeit tending sometimes incredibly to his glory, are full of the flavour of days well spent, of bright mornings of play, sunlit sprawlings beside the score tent, warmth, the flavour of bitten grass stems, and the odour of crushed turf. one seems to hear the clapping hands of village ancients, and their ululations of delight. one thinks of stone jars with cool drink swishing therein, of shouting victories and memorable defeats, of eleven men in a drag, and tuneful and altogether glorious home-comings by the light of the moon. his were the olympian days of the sport, when noble squires were its patrons, and every village a home and nursery of stalwart cricketers, before the epoch of special trains, gate-money, star elevens, and the tumultuous gathering of idle cads to jabber at a game they cannot play. concerning a certain lady this lady wears a blue serge suit and a black hat, without flippancy; she is a powerfully built lady and generally more or less flushed, and she is aunt, apparently, to a great number of objectionable-looking people. i go in terror of her. yet the worm will turn at last, and so will the mild, pacific literary man. her last outrage was too much even for my patience. it was committed at gloucester road station the other afternoon. i was about to get into a train for wimbledon,--and there are only two of them to the hour,--and, so far as i could see, the whole world was at peace with me. i felt perfectly secure. the ægis of the _pax britannica_--if you will pardon the expression--was over me. for the moment the thought of the lady in the blue serge was quite out of my mind. i had just bought a newspaper, and had my hand on the carriage door. the guard was fluttering his flag. then suddenly she swooped out of space, out of the infinite unknown, and hit me. she always hits me when she comes near me, and i infer she hits everyone she comes across. she hit me this time in the chest with her elbow and knocked me away from the door-handle. she hit me very hard; indeed, she was as fierce as i have ever known her. with her there were two nieces and a nephew, and the nephew hit me too. he was a horrid little boy in an eton suit of the kind that they do not wear at eton, and he hit me with his head and pushed at me with his little pink hands. the nieces might have been about twenty-two and thirteen respectively, and i infer that they were apprenticed to her. all four people seemed madly excited. "it's just starting!" they screamed, and the train was, indeed, slowly moving. their object--so far as they had an object and were not animated by mere fury--appeared to be to assault me and then escape in the train. the lady in blue got in and then came backwards out again, sweeping the smaller girl behind her upon the two others, who were engaged in hustling me. "it's 'smoking!'" she cried. i could have told her that, if she had asked instead of hitting me. the elder girl, by backing dexterously upon me, knocked my umbrella out of my hand, and when i stooped to pick it up the little boy knocked my hat off. i will confess they demoralised me with their archaic violence. i had some thought of joining in their wild amuck, whooping, kicking out madly, perhaps assaulting a porter,--i think the lady in blue would have been surprised to find what an effective addition to her staff she had picked up,--but before i could collect my thoughts sufficiently to do any definite thing the whole affair was over. a porter was slamming doors on them, the train was running fast out of the station, and i was left alone with an unmannerly newsboy and an unmannerly porter on the platform. i waited until the porter was out of the way, and then i hit the newsboy for laughing at me, but even with that altercation it was a tedious wait for the next train to wimbledon. this is the latest of my encounters with this lady, but it has decided me to keep silence no longer. she has been persecuting me now for years in all parts of london. it may be i am her only victim, but, on the other hand, she may be in the habit of annoying the entire class of slender and inoffensive young men. if so, and they will communicate with me through the publishers of this little volume, we might do something towards suppressing her, found an anti-energetic-lady-league, or something of that sort. for if there was ever a crying wrong that clamoured for suppression it is this violent woman. she is, even now, flagrantly illegal. she might be given in charge for hitting people at any time, and be warned, or fined, or given a week. but somehow it is only when she is overpast and i am recovering my wits that i recollect that she might be dealt with in this way. she is the chartered libertine of british matrons, and assaulteth where she listeth. the blows i have endured from her? she fights people who are getting into 'buses. it is no mere accidental jostling, but a deliberate shouldering, poking with umbrellas, and clawing. it is her delight to go to the regent circus corner of piccadilly, about half-past seven in the evening, accompanied by a genteel rout of daughters, and fill up whole omnibuses with them. at that hour there are work-girls and tired clerks, and the like worn-out anæmic humanity trying to get home for an hour or so of rest before bed, and they crowd round the 'buses very eagerly. they are little able to cope with her exuberant vitality, being ill-nourished and tired from the day's work, and she simply mows through them and fills up every vacant place they covet before their eyes. then, i can never count change even when my mind is tranquil, and she knows that, and swoops threateningly upon me in booking offices and stationers' shops. when i am dodging cabs at crossings she will appear from behind an omnibus or carriage and butt into me furiously. she holds her umbrella in her folded arms just as the punch puppet does his staff, and with as deadly effect. sometimes she discards her customary navy blue and puts on a glittering bonnet with bead trimmings, and goes and hurts people who are waiting to enter the pit at theatres, and especially to hurt me. she is fond of public shows, because they afford such possibilities of hurting me. once i saw her standing partly on a seat and partly on another lady in the church of st. george's, hanover square, partly, indeed, watching a bride cry, but chiefly, i expect, scheming how she could get round to me and hurt me. then there was an occasion at the academy when she was peculiarly aggressive. i was sitting next my lame friend when she marked me. of course she came at once and sat right upon us. "come along, jane," i heard her say, as i struggled to draw my flattened remains from under her; "this gentleman will make room." my friend was not so entangled and had escaped on the other side. she noticed his walk. "oh, don't _you_ get up," she said. "_this_ gentleman," she indicated my convulsive struggles to free myself, "will do that. _i did not see that you were a cripple._" it may be some of my readers will recognise the lady now. it can be--for the honour of womankind--only one woman. she is an atavism, a survival of the age of violence, a palæolithic squaw in petticoats. i do not know her name and address or i would publish it. i do not care if she kills me the next time she meets me, for the limits of endurance have been passed. if she kills me i shall die a martyr in the cause of the queen's peace. and if it is only one woman, then it was the same lady, more than half intoxicated, that i saw in the whitechapel road cruelly ill-treating a little costermonger. if it was not she it was certainly her sister, and i do not care who knows it. what to do with her i do not know. a league, after all, seems ineffectual; she would break up any league. i have thought of giving her in charge for assault, but i shrink from the invidious publicity of that. still, i am in grim earnest to do something. i think at times that the compulsory adoption of a narrow doorway for churches and places of public entertainment might be some protection for quiet, inoffensive people. how she would rage outside to be sure! yet that seems a great undertaking. but this little paper is not so much a plan of campaign as a preliminary defiance. life is a doubtful boon while one is never safe from assault, from hitting and shoving, from poking with umbrellas, being sat upon, and used as a target for projectile nephews and nieces. i warn her--possibly with a certain quaver in my voice--that i am in revolt. if she hits me again----i will not say the precise thing i will do, but i warn her, very solemnly and deliberately, that she had better not hit me again. and so for the present the matter remains. the shopman if i were really opulent, i would not go into a shop at all--i would have a private secretary. if i were really determined, euphemia would do these things. as it is, i find buying things in a shop the most exasperating of all the many trying duties of life. i am sometimes almost tempted to declare myself adamite to escape it. the way the shopman eyes you as you enter his den, the very spread of his fingers, irritate me. "what can i have the pleasure?" he says, bowing forward at me, and with his eye on my chin--and so waits. now i hate incomplete sentences, and confound his pleasure! i don't go into a shop to give a shopman pleasure. but your ordinary shopman must needs pretend you delight and amuse him. i say, trying to display my dislike as plainly as possible, "gloves." "gloves, yessir," he says. why should he? i suppose he thinks i require to be confirmed in my persuasion that i want gloves. "calf--kid--dogskin?" how should _i_ know the technicalities of his traffic? "ordinary gloves," i say, disdaining his petty distinctions. "about what price, sir?" he asks. now that always maddens me. why should i be expected to know the price of gloves? i'm not a commercial traveller nor a wholesale dealer, and i don't look like one. neither am i constitutionally parsimonious nor petty. i am a literary man, unworldly, and i wear long hair and a soft hat and a peculiar overcoat to indicate the same to ordinary people. why, i say, should i know the price of gloves? i know they are some ordinary price--elevenpence-halfpenny, or three-and-six, or seven-and-six, or something--one of those prices that everything is sold at--but further i don't go. perhaps i say elevenpence-halfpenny at a venture. his face lights up with quiet malice. "don't keep them, sir," he says. i can tell by his expression that i am ridiculously low, and so being snubbed. i think of trying with three-and-six, or seven-and-six; the only other probable prices for things that i know, except a guinea and five pounds. then i see the absurdity of the business, and my anger comes surging up. "look here!" i say, as bitterly as possible. "i don't come here to play at guessing games. never mind your prices. i want some gloves. get me some!" this cows him a little, but very little. "may i ask your size, sir?" he says, a trifle more respectfully. one would think i spent all my time remembering the size of my gloves. however, it is no good resenting it. "it's either seven or nine," i say in a tired way. he just begins another question, and then he catches my eye and stops and goes away to obtain some gloves, and i get a breathing space. but why do they keep on with this cross-examination? if i knew exactly what i wanted--description, price, size--i should not go to a shop at all, it would save me such a lot of trouble just to send a cheque to the stores. the only reason why i go into a tradesman's shop is because i don't know what i want exactly, am in doubt about the name or the size, or the price, or the fashion, and want a specialist to help me. the only reason for having shopmen instead of automatic machines is that one requires help in buying things. when i want gloves, the shopman ought to understand his business sufficiently well to know better than i do what particular kind of gloves i ought to be wearing, and what is a fair price for them. i don't see why i should teach him what is in fashion and what is not. a doctor does not ask you what kind of operation you want and what price you will pay for it. but i really believe these outfitter people would let me run about london wearing white cotton gloves and a plaid comforter without lifting a finger to prevent me. and, by the bye, that reminds me of a scandalous trick these salesmen will play you. sometimes they have not the thing you want, and then they make you buy other things. i happen to have, through no fault of my own, a very small head, and consequently for one long summer i wore a little boy's straw hat about london with the colours of a paddington board school, simply because a rascal outfitter hadn't my size in a proper kind of headgear, and induced me to buy the thing by specious representations. he must have known perfectly well it was not what i ought to wear. it seems never to enter into a shopman's code of honour that he ought to do his best for his customer. since that, however, i have noticed lots of people about who have struck me in a new light as triumphs of the salesman, masterpieces in the art of incongruity; age in the garb of youth, corpulence put off with the size called "slender men's"; unhappy, gentle, quiet men with ties like oriflammes, breasts like a kingfisher's, and cataclysmal trouser patterns. even so, if the shopkeeper had his will, should we all be. those poor withered maiden ladies, too, who fill us with a kind of horror, with their juvenile curls, their girlish crudity of colouring, their bonnets, giddy, tottering, hectic. it overcomes me with remorse to think that i myself have accused them of vanity and folly. it overcomes me with pain to hear the thoughtless laugh aloud after them, in the public ways. for they are simply short-sighted trustful people, the myopic victims of the salesman and saleswoman. the little children gibe at them, pelt even.... and somewhere in the world a draper goes unhung. however, the gloves are bought. i select a pair haphazard, and he pretends to perceive they fit perfectly by putting them over the back of my hand. i make him assure me of the fit, and then buy the pair and proceed to take my old ones off and put the new on grimly. if they split or the fingers are too long--glovemakers have the most erratic conceptions of the human finger--i have to buy another pair. but the trouble only begins when you have bought your thing. "nothing more, sir?" he says. "nothing," i say. "braces?" he says. "no, thank you," i say. "collars, cuffs?" he looks at mine swiftly but keenly, and with an unendurable suspicion. he goes on, item after item. am i in rags, that i should endure this thing? and i get sick of my everlasting "no, thank you"--the monotony shows up so glaringly against his kaleidoscope variety. i feel all the unutterable pettiness, the mean want of enterprise of my poor little purchase compared with the catholic fling he suggests. i feel angry with myself for being thus played upon, furiously angry with him. "_no, no_!" i say. "these tie-holders are new." he proceeds to show me his infernal tie-holders. "they prevent the tie puckering," he says with his eye on mine. it's no good. "how much?" i say. this whets him to further outrage. "look here, my man!" i say at last, goaded to it, "i came here for gloves. after endless difficulties i at last induced you to let me have gloves. i have also been intimidated, by the most shameful hints and insinuations, into buying that _beastly_ tie-holder. i'm not a child that i don't know my own needs. now _will_ you let me go? how much do you want?" that usually checks him. the above is a fair specimen of a shopman--a favourable rendering. there are other things they do, but i simply cannot write about them because it irritates me so to think of them. one infuriating manoeuvre is to correct your pronunciation. another is to make a terrible ado about your name and address--even when it is quite a well-known name. after i have bought things at a shop i am quite unfit for social intercourse. i have to go home and fume. there was a time when euphemia would come and discuss my purchase with a certain levity, but on one occasion.... some day these shopmen will goad me too far. it's almost my only consolation, indeed, to think what i am going to do when i do break out. there is a salesman somewhere in the world, he going on his way and i on mine, who will, i know, prove my last straw. it may be he will read this--amused--recking little of the mysteries of fate.... is killing a salesman murder, like killing a human being? the book of curses professor gargoyle, you must understand, has travelled to and fro in the earth, culling flowers of speech: a kind of recording angel he is, but without any sentimental tears. to be plain, he studies swearing. his collection, however, only approaches completeness in the western departments of european language. going eastward he found such an appalling and tropical luxuriance of these ornaments as to despair at last altogether of even a representative selection. "they do not curse," he says, "at door-handles, and shirt-studs, and such other trifles as will draw down the meagre discharge of an occidental, but when they do begin---- "i hired a promising-looking man at calcutta, and after a month or so refused to pay his wages. he was unable to get at me with the big knife he carried, because the door was locked, so he sat on his hams outside under the verandah, from a quarter-past six in the morning until nearly ten, cursing--cursing in one steady unbroken flow--an astonishing spate of blasphemy. first he cursed my family, from me along the female line back to eve, and then, having toyed with me personally for a little while, he started off along the line of my possible posterity to my remotest great-grandchildren. then he cursed me by this and that. my hand ached taking it down, he was so very rich. it was a perfect anthology of bengali blasphemy--vivid, scorching, and variegated. not two alike. and then he turned about and dealt with different parts of me. i was really very fortunate in him. yet it was depressing to think that all this was from one man, and that there are six hundred million people in asia." "naturally," said the professor in answer to my question, "these investigations involve a certain element of danger. the first condition of curse-collecting is to be unpopular, especially in the east, where comminatory swearing alone is practised, and you have to offend a man very grievously to get him to disgorge his treasure. in this country, except among ladies in comparatively humble circumstances, anything like this fluent, explicit, detailed, and sincere cursing, aimed, missile-fashion, at a personal enemy, is not found. it was quite common a few centuries ago; indeed, in the middle ages it was part of the recognised procedure. aggrieved parties would issue a father's curse, an orphan's curse, and so forth, much as we should take out a county court summons. and it played a large part in ecclesiastical policy too. at one time the entire church militant here on earth was swearing in unison, and the latin tongue, at the republic of venice--a very splendid and imposing spectacle. it seems to me a pity to let these old customs die out so completely. i estimate that more than half these gothic forms have altogether passed out of memory. there must have been some splendid things in erse and gaelic too; for the celtic mind, with its more vivid sense of colour, its quicker transitions, and deeper emotional quality, has ever over-cursed the stolid teuton. but it is all getting forgotten. "indeed, your common englishman now scarcely curses at all. a more colourless and conventional affair than what in england is called swearing one can scarcely imagine. it is just common talk, with some half-dozen orthodox bad words dropped in here and there in the most foolish and illogical manner. fancy having orthodox unorthodox words! i remember one day getting into a third-class smoking carriage on the metropolitan railway about one o'clock, and finding it full of rough working men. everything they said was seasoned with one incredibly stupid adjective, and no doubt they thought they were very desperate characters. at last i asked them not to say that word again. one forthwith asked me 'what the ----'--i really cannot quote these puerilities--'what the idiotic _cliché_ that mattered to me?' so i looked at him quietly over my glasses, and i began. it was a revelation to these poor fellows. they sat open-mouthed, gasping. then those that were nearest me began to edge away, and at the very next station they all bundled out of the carriage before the train stopped, as though i had some infectious disease. and the thing was just a rough imperfect rendering of some mere commonplaces, passing the time of day as it were, with which the heathen of aleppo used to favour the servants of the american missionary. indeed," said professor gargoyle, "if it were not for women there would be nothing in england that one could speak of as swearing at all." "i say," said i, "is not that rather rough on the ladies?" "not at all; they have agreed to consider certain words, for no very good reason, bad words. it is a pure convention; it has little or nothing to do with the actual meaning, because for every one of these bad words there is a paraphrase or synonym considered to be quite suitable for polite ears. hence the feeblest creature can always produce a sensation by breaking the taboo. but women are learning how to undo this error of theirs now. the word 'damn,' for instance, is, i hear, being admitted freely into the boudoir and feminine conversation; it is even considered a rather prudish thing to object to this word. now, men, especially feeble men, hate doing things that women do. as a consequence, men who go about saying 'damn' are now regarded by their fellow-men as only a shade less effeminate than those who go about saying 'nasty' and 'horrid.' the subtler sex will not be long in noticing what has happened to this objectionable word. when they do they will, of course, forthwith take up all the others. it will be a little startling perhaps at first, but in the end there will be no swearing left. i have no doubt there will be those who will air their petty wit on the pioneer women, but where a martyr is wanted a woman can always be found to offer herself. she will clothe herself in cursing, like the ungodly, and perish in that nessus shirt, a martyr to pure language. and then this dull cad swearing--a mere unnecessary affectation of coarseness--will disappear. and a very good job too. "there is a pretty department of the subject which i might call grace swearing. 'od's fish,' cried the king, when he saw the man climbing salisbury spire; 'he shall have a patent for it--no one else shall do it.' one might call such little things wardour street curses. 'od's bodkins' is a ladylike form, and 'od's possles' a variety i met in the british museum. every gentleman once upon a time aspired to have his own particular grace curse, just as he liked to have his crest, and his bookplate, and his characteristic signature. it fluttered pleasantly into his conversation, as mr. whistler's butterfly comes into his pictures--a signature and a delight. 'od's butterfly!' i have sometimes thought of a little book of grace-words and heraldic curses, printed with wide margins on the best of paper. its covers should be of soft red leather, stamped with little gold flowers. it might be made a birthday book, or a pocket diary--'daily invocations.' "coming back to wrathy swearing, i must confess i am sorry to see it decay. it was such a thoroughly hygienic and moral practice. you see, if anything annoying happens to a man, or if any powerful emotion seizes him, his brain under the irritation begins to disengage energy at a tremendous rate. he has to use all his available force of control in keeping the energy in. some of it will leak away into the nerves of his face and distort his features, some may set his tear-glands at work, some may travel down his vagus nerve and inhibit his heart's action so that he faints, or upset the blood-vessels in his head and give him a stroke. or if he pens it up, without its reaching any of these vents, it may rise at last to flood-level, and you will have violent assaults, the breaking of furniture, 'murther' even. for all this energy a good flamboyant, ranting swear is nature's outlet. all primitive men and most animals swear. it is an emotional shunt. your cat swears at you because she does not want to scratch your face. and the horse, because he cannot swear, drops dead. so you see my reason for regretting the decay of this excellent and most wholesome practice.... "however, i must be getting on. just now i am travelling about london paying cabmen their legal fares. sometimes one picks up a new variant, though much of it is merely stereo." and with that, flinging a playful curse at me, he disappeared at once into the tobacco smoke from which i had engendered him. an amusing and cheerful person on the whole, though i will admit his theme was a little undesirable. dunstone's dear lady the story of dunstone is so slight, so trivial in its cardinal incidents, such a business of cheap feathers and bits of ribbon on the surface, that i should hesitate to tell it, were it not for its inwardness, what one might call the symbolism of the thing. frankly, i do not clearly see what that symbolism is, but i feel it hovering in some indefinable way whenever i recall his case. it is one of those things that make a man extend his arm and twiddle his fingers, and say, blinking, "like _that_, you know." so do not imagine for one moment that this is a shallow story, simply because it is painted, so to speak, not in heart's blood but in table claret. dunstone was a strong, quiet kind of man--a man of conspicuous mediocrity, and rising rapidly, therefore, in his profession. he was immensely industrious, and a little given to melancholia in private life. he smoked rather too many cigars, and took his social occasions seriously. he dressed faultlessly, with a scrupulous elimination of style. unlike mr. grant allen's ideal man, he was not constitutionally a lover; indeed, he seemed not to like the ordinary girl at all--found her either too clever or too shallow, lacking a something. i don't think _he_ knew quite what it was. neither do i--it is a case for extended hand and twiddling fingers. moreover, i don't think the ordinary girl took to dunstone very much. he suffered, i fancy, from a kind of mental greyness; he was all subtle tones; the laughter of girls jarred upon him; foolish smartness or amiable foolishness got on his nerves; he detested, with equal sincerity, bright dressing, artistic dabbling, piety, and the glow of health. and when, as his confidential friend--confidential, that is, so far as his limits allowed--i heard that he intended to marry, i was really very much surprised. i expected something quintessential; i was surprised to find she was a visiting governess. harringay, the artist, thought there was nothing in her, but sackbut, the art critic, was inclined to admire her bones. for my own part, i took rather a liking to her. she was small and thin, and, to be frank, i think it was because she hardly got enough to eat--of the delicate food she needed. she was shabby, too, dressed in rusty mourning--she had recently lost her mother. but she had a sweet, low voice, a shrinking manner, rather a graceful carriage, i thought, and, though she spoke rarely, all she said was sweet and sane. she struck me as a refined woman in a blatant age. the general effect of her upon me was favourable; upon dunstone it was tremendous. he lost a considerable proportion of his melancholia, and raved at times like a common man. he called her in particular his "dear lady" and his "sweet lady," things that i find eloquent of what he found in her. what that was i fancy i understand, and yet i cannot say it quite. one has to resort to the extended arm and fingers vibratile. before he married her--which he did while she was still in half-mourning--there was anxiety about her health, and i understood she needed air and exercise and strengthening food. but she recovered rapidly after her marriage, her eyes grew brighter, we saw less of sackbut's "delicious skeleton." and then, in the strangest way, she began to change. it is none of my imagining; i have heard the change remarked upon by half a dozen independent observers. yet you would think a girl of three-and-twenty (as she certainly was) had attained her development as a woman. i have heard her compared to a winter bud, cased in its sombre scales, until the sun shone, and the warm, moist winds began to blow. i noticed first that the delicate outline of her cheek was filling, and then came the time when she reverted to colour in her dress. her first essays were charitably received. her years of struggle, her year of mourning, had no doubt dwarfed her powers in this direction; presently her natural good taste would reassert itself. but the next effort and the next were harder to explain. it was not the note of nervousness or inexperience we saw; there was an undeniable decision, and not a token of shame. the little black winter bud grew warm-coloured above, and burst suddenly into extravagant outlines and chromatic confusion. harringay, who is a cad, first put what we were all feeling into words. "i've just seen dunstone and his donah," he said. clearly she was one of those rare women who cannot dress. and that was not all. a certain buoyancy, hitherto unsuspected, crept into her manner, as the corpuscles multiplied in her veins--an archness. she talked more, and threw up a spray of playfulness. and, with a growing energy, she began to revise the exquisite æsthetic balance of dunstone's house. she even enamelled a chair. for a year or so i was in the east. when i returned mrs. dunstone amazed me. in some odd way she had grown, she had positively grown. she was taller, broader, brighter--infinitely brighter. she wore a diamond brooch in the afternoon. the "delicious skeleton" had vanished in plumpness. she moved with emphasis. her eye--which glittered--met mine bravely, and she talked as one who would be heard. in the old days you saw nothing but a rare timid glance from under the pretty lids. she talked now of this and that, of people of "good family," and the difficulty of getting a suitable governess for her little boy. she said she objected to meeting people "one would not care to invite to one's house." she swamped me with tea and ruled the conversation, so that dunstone and i, who were once old friends, talked civil twaddle for the space of one hour--theatres, concerts, and assemblies chiefly--and then parted again. the furniture had all been altered--there were two "cosy nooks" in the room after the recipe in the _born lady_. it was plain to me, it is plain to everyone, i find, that mrs. dunstone is, in the sun of prosperity, rapidly developing an extremely florid vulgarity. and afterwards i discovered that she had forgotten her music, and evidently enjoyed her meals. yet i for one can witness that five years ago there was _that_ about her--i can only extend my arm with quivering digits. but it was something very sweet and dainty, something that made her white and thoughtful, and marked her off from the rest of womankind. i sometimes fancy it may have been anæmia in part, but it was certainly poverty and mourning in the main. you may think that this is a story of disillusionment. when i first heard the story, i thought so too. but, so far as dunstone goes, that is not the case. it is rare that i see him now, but the other day we smoked two cigars apiece together. and in a moment of confidence he spoke of her. he said how anxious he felt for her health, called her his "dainty little lady," and spoke of the coarseness of other women. i am afraid this is not a very eventful story, and yet there is _that_----that very convenient gesture, an arm protruded and flickering fingers, conveys my meaning best. perhaps you will understand. euphemia's new entertainment euphemia has great ideas of putting people at their ease, a thousand little devices for thawing the very stiffest among them with a home-like glow. far be it from me to sing her praises, but i must admit that at times she is extremely successful in this--at times almost too successful. that tea-cake business, for instance. no doubt it's a genial expedient to make your guests toast his own tea-cake: down he must go upon his knees upon your hearthrug, and his poses will melt away like the dews of the morning before the rising sun. nevertheless, when it comes to roasting a gallant veteran like major augustus, deliberately roasting him, in spite of the facts that he has served his country nobly through thirty irksome years of peace, and that he admires euphemia with a delicate fervour--roasting him, i say, alive, as if he were a strasburg goose, or suddenly affixing a delicate young genius to the hither end of a toasting-fork while he is in the midst of a really very subtle and tender conversation, the limits of social warmth seem to be approaching dangerously near. however, this scarcely concerns euphemia's new entertainment. this new entertainment is modelling in clay. euphemia tells me it is to be quite the common thing this winter. it is intended especially for the evening, after a little dinner. as the reader is aware, the evening after a little dinner is apt to pall. a certain placid contentment creeps over people. i don't know in what organ originality resides; but it's a curious thing, and one i must leave to the consideration of psychologists, that people's output of original remarks appears to be obstructed in some way after these gastronomic exercises. then a little dinner always confirms my theory of the absurdity of polygonal conversation. music and songs, too, have their drawbacks, especially gay songs; they invariably evoke a vaporous melancholy. card-playing euphemia objects to because her uncle, the dean, is prominent in connection with some ridiculous association for the suppression of gambling; and in what are called "games" no rational creature esteeming himself an immortal soul would participate. in this difficulty it was that euphemia--decided, i fancy, by the possession of certain really very becoming aprons--took up this business of clay-modelling. you have a lump of greyish clay and a saucer of water and certain small tools of wood (for which i cannot discover the slightest use in the world) given you, and euphemia puts on a very winning bib. then, moistening the clay until it acquires sufficient plasticity, and incidentally splashing your cuffs and coat-sleeves with an agreeably light tinted mud, you set to work. at first people are a little disgusted at the apparent dirtiness of the employment, and also perhaps rather diffident. the eldest lady says weakly deprecatory things, and the feeblest male is jocular after his wont. but it is remarkable how soon the charm of this delightful occupation seizes hold of you. for really the sensations of moulding this plastic matter into shape are wonderfully and quite unaccountably pleasing. it is ever so much easier than drawing things--"anyone can do it," as the advertisement people say--and the work is so much more substantial in its effects. technical questions arise. in moulding a head, do you take a lump and fine it down, or do you dab on the features after the main knob of it is shaped? so soon as your guests realise the plastic possibilities before them, a great silence, a delicious absorption comes over them. some rash person states that he is moulding an apollo, or a vase, or a bust of mr. gladstone, or an elephant, or some such animal. the wiser ones go to work in a speculative spirit, aiming secretly at this perhaps, but quite willing to go on with that, if providence so wills it. buddhas are good subjects; there is a certain genial rotundity not difficult to attain, and the pyramidal build of the idol is well suited to the material. you can start a buddha, and hedge to make it a loaf of bread if the features are unsatisfactory. for slender objects a skeletal substructure of bent hairpins or matches is advisable. the innate egotism of the human animal becomes very conspicuous. "his tail is too large," says the lady with the fish, in self-criticism. "i haven't put his tail on yet--that's his trunk," answers the young man with the elephant. [illustration] it's a pretty sight to see the first awakening of the artistic passion in your guests--the flush of discovery, the glow of innocent pride as the familiar features of mr. gladstone emerge from the bust of clytie. an accidental stroke of the thumbnail develops new marvels of expression. (by the bye, it's just as well to forbid deliberate attempts at portraiture.) and i know no more becoming expression for everyone than the look of intent and pleasing effort--a divine touch almost--that comes over the common man modelling. for my own part, i feel a being infinitely my own superior when i get my fingers upon the clay. and, incidentally, how much pleasanter this is than writing articles--to see the work grow altogether under your hands; to begin with the large masses and finish with the details, as every artist should! just to show how easy the whole thing is, i append a little sketch of the first work i ever did. i had had positively no previous instruction. unfortunately the left ear of the animal--a cat, by the bye--has fallen off. (the figure to the left is the back view of a buddha.) however, i have said enough to show the charm of the new amusement. it will prove a boon to many a troubled hostess. the material is called modelling-clay, and one may buy it of any dealer in artists' materials, several pounds for sixpence. this has to be renewed at intervals, as a good deal is taken away by the more careless among your guests upon their clothes. for freedom of spelling the discovery of an art it is curious that people do not grumble more at having to spell correctly. yet one may ask, do we not a little over-estimate the value of orthography? this is a natural reflection enough when the maker of artless happy phrases has been ransacking the dictionary for some elusive wretch of a word which in the end proves to be not yet naturalised, or technical, or a mere local vulgarity; yet one does not often hear the idea canvassed in polite conversation. dealers in small talk, of the less prolific kind, are continually falling back upon the silk hat or dress suit, or some rule of etiquette or other convention as a theme, but spelling seems to escape them. the suspicion seems quaint, but one may almost fancy that an allusion to spelling savoured a little of indelicacy. it must be admitted, though where the scruples come from would be hard to say, that there is a certain diffidence even here in broaching my doubts in the matter. for some inexplicable reason spelling has become mixed up with moral feeling. one cannot pretend to explain things in a little paper of this kind; the fact is so. spelling is not appropriate or inappropriate, elegant or inelegant; it is right or wrong. we do not greatly blame a man for turn-down collars when the vogue is erect; nor, in these liberal days, for theological eccentricity; but we esteem him "nithing" and an outcast if he but drop a "p" from opportunity. it is not an anecdote, but a scandal, if we say a man cannot spell his own name. there is only one thing esteemed worse before we come to the deadly crimes, and that is the softening of language by dropping the aspirate. after all, it is an unorthodox age. we are all horribly afraid of being bourgeois, and unconventionality is the ideal of every respectable person. it is strange that we should cling so steadfastly to correct spelling. yet again, one can partly understand the business, if one thinks of the little ways of your schoolmaster and schoolmistress. this sanctity of spelling is stamped upon us in our earliest years. the writer recalls a period of youth wherein six hours a week were given to the study of spelling, and four hours to all other religious instruction. so important is it, that a writer who cannot spell is almost driven to abandon his calling, however urgent the thing he may have to say, or his need of the incidentals of fame. yet in the crisis of such a struggle rebellious thoughts may arise. even this: why, after all, should correct spelling be the one absolutely essential literary merit? for it is less fatal for an ambitious scribe to be as dull as hoxton than to spell in diverse ways. yet correct spelling of english has not been traced to revelation; there was no grammatical sinai, with a dictionary instead of tables of stone. indeed, we do not even know certainly when correct spelling began, which word in the language was first spelt the right way, and by whom. correct spelling may have been evolved, or it may be the creation of some master mind. its inventor, if it had an inventor, is absolutely forgotten. thomas cobbett would have invented it, but that he was born more than two centuries too late, poor man. all that we certainly know is that, contemporaneously with the rise of extreme puritanism, the belief in orthography first spread among elizabethan printers, and with the hanoverian succession the new doctrine possessed the whole length and breadth of the land. at that time the world passed through what extension lecturers call, for no particular reason, the classical epoch. nature--as, indeed, all the literature manuals testify--was in the remotest background then of human thought. the human mind, in a mood of the severest logic, brought everything to the touchstone of an orderly reason; the conception of "correctness" dominated all mortal affairs. for instance, one's natural hair with its vagaries of rat's tails, duck's tails, errant curls, and baldness, gave place to an orderly wig, or was at least decently powdered. the hoop remedied the deficiencies of the feminine form, and the gardener clipped his yews into respectability. all poetry was written to one measure in those days, and a royal academy with a lady member was inaugurated that art might become at least decent. dictionaries began. the crowning glory of hanoverian literature was a great lexicographer. in those days it was believed that the spelling of every english word had been settled for all time. thence to the present day, though the severities then inaugurated, so far as metre and artistic composition are concerned, been generously relaxed--though we have had a whistler, a walt whitman, and a wagner--the rigours of spelling have continued unabated. there is just one right way of spelling, and all others are held to be not simply inelegant or undesirable, but wrong; and unorthodox spelling, like original morality, goes hand in hand with shame. yet even at the risk of shocking the religious convictions of some, may not one ask whether spelling is in truth a matter of right and wrong at all? might it not rather be an art? it is too much to advocate the indiscriminate sacking of the alphabet, but yet it seems plausible that there is a happy medium between a reckless debauch of errant letters and our present dead rigidity. for some words at anyrate may there not be sometimes one way of spelling a little happier, sometimes another? we do something of this sort even now with our "phantasy" and "fantasie," and we might do more. how one would spell this word or that would become, if this latitude were conceded, a subtle anxiety of the literary exquisite. people are scarcely prepared to realise what shades of meaning may be got by such a simple device. let us take a simple instance. you write, let us say, to all your cousins, many of your friends, and even, it may be, to this indifferent intimate and that familiar enemy, "my dear so-and-so." but at times you feel even as you write, sometimes, that there is something too much and sometimes something lacking. you may even get so far in the right way occasionally as to write, "my dr. so-and-so," when your heart is chill. and people versed in the arts of social intercourse know the subtle insult of misspelling a person's name, or flicking it off flippantly with a mere waggling wipe of the pen. but these are mere beginnings. let the reader take a pen in hand and sit down and write, "my very dear wife." clean, cold, and correct this is, speaking of orderly affection, settled and stereotyped long ago. in such letters is butcher's meat also "very dear." try now, "migh verrie deare wyfe." is it not immediately infinitely more soft and tender? is there not something exquisitely pleasant in lingering over those redundant letters, leaving each word, as it were, with a reluctant caress? such spelling is a soft, domestic, lovingly wasteful use of material. or, again, if you have no wife, or object to an old-fashioned conjugal tenderness, try "mye owne sweete dearrest marrie." there is the tremble of a tenderness no mere arrangement of trim everyday letters can express in those double _r's_. "sweete" my ladie must be; sweet! why pump-water and inferior champagne, spirits of nitrous ether and pancreatic juice are "sweet." for my own part i always spell so, with lots of f's and g's and such like tailey, twirley, loopey things, when my heart is in the tender vein. and i hold that a man who will not do so, now he has been shown how to do it, is, in plain english, neither more nor less than a prig. the advantages of a varied spelling of names are very great. industrious, rather than intelligent, people have given not a little time, and such minds as they have, to the discussion of the right spelling of our great poet's name. but he himself never dreamt of tying himself down to one presentation of himself, and was--we have his hand for it--shakespeare, shakspear, shakespear, shakspeare, and so forth, as the mood might be. it would be almost as reasonable to debate whether shakespeare smiled or frowned. my dear friend simmongues is the same. he is "sims," a mere slash of the pen, to those he scorns, simmonds or simmongs to his familiars, and simmons, a.t. simmons, esq., to all europe. from such mere introductory departures from precision, such petty escapades as these, we would we might seduce the reader into an utter debauch of spelling. but a sudden mænad dance of the letters on the page, gleeful and iridescent spelling, a wild rush and procession of howling vowels and clattering consonants, might startle the half-won reader back into orthodoxy. besides, there is another reader--the printer's reader--to consider. for if an author let his wit run to these matters, he must write elaborate marginal exhortations to this authority, begging his mercy, to let the little flowers of spelling alone. else the plough of that philistine's uniformity will utterly root them out. such high art of spelling as is thus hinted at is an art that has still to gather confidence and brave the light of publicity. a few, indeed, practise it secretly for love--in letters and on spare bits of paper. but, for the most part, people do not know that there is so much as an art of spelling possible; the tyranny of orthography lies so heavily on the land. your common editors and their printers are a mere orthodox spelling police, and at the least they rigorously blot out all the delightful frolics of your artist in spelling before his writings reach the public eye. but commonly, as i have proved again and again, the slightest lapse into rococo spelling is sufficient to secure the rejection of a manuscript without further ado. and to end,--a word about phonographers. it may be that my title has led the reader to anticipate some mention of these before. they are a kind of religious sect, a heresy from the orthodox spelling. they bind one another by their mysteries and a five-shilling subscription in a "soseiti to introduis an impruvd method of spelinj." they come across the artistic vision, they and their soseiti, with an altogether indefinable offence. perhaps the essence of it is the indescribable meanness of their motive. for this phonography really amounts to a study of the cheapest way of spelling words. these phonographers are sweaters of the queen's english, living meanly on the selvage of honest mental commerce by clipping the coin of thought. but enough of them. they are mentioned here only to be disavowed. they would substitute one narrow orthodoxy for another, and i would unfold the banner of freedom. spell, my brethren, as you will! awake, arise, o language living in chains; let butter's spelling be our bastille! so with a prophetic vision of liberated words pouring out of the dungeons of a spelling-book, this plea for freedom concludes. what trivial arguments there are for a uniform spelling i must leave the reader to discover. this is no place to carp against the liberation i foresee, with the glow of the dawn in my eyes. incidental thoughts on a bald head i was asked to go, quite suddenly, and found myself there before i had time to think of what it might be. i understood her to say it was a meeting of some "sunday society," some society that tried to turn the sabbath from a day of woe to a day of rejoicing. "st. george's hall, langham place," a cab, and there we were. i thought they would be picturesque pagans. but the entertainment was the oddest it has ever been my lot to see, a kind of mystery. the place was dark, except for a big circle of light on a screen, and a dismal man with a long stick was talking about the effects of alcohol on your muscles. he talked and talked, and people went to sleep all about us. euphemia's face looked so very pretty in the dim light that i tried to talk to her and hold her hand, but she only said "ssh!" and then they began showing pictures on the screen--the most shocking things!--stomachs, and all that kind of thing. they went on like that for an hour, and then there was a lot of thumping with umbrellas, and they turned the lights up and we went home. curious way of spending sunday afternoon, is it not? but you may imagine i had a dismal time all that hour. i understood the people about me were sceptics, the kind of people who don't believe things--a singular class, and, i am told, a growing one. these excellent people, it seems, have conscientious objections to going to chapel or church, but at the same time the devotional habit of countless generations of pious forerunners is strong in them. consequently they have invented things like these lectures to go to, with a professor instead of a priest, and a lantern slide of a stomach by way of altar-piece; and alcohol they make their devil, and their god is hygiene--a curious and instructive case of mental inertia. i understand, too, there are several other temples of this cult in london--south place chapel and essex hall, for instance, where they worship the spirit of the innermost. but the thing that struck me so oddly was the number of bald heads glimmering faintly in the reflected light from the lantern circle. and that set me thinking upon a difficulty i have never been able to surmount. you see these people, and lots of other people, too, believe in a thing they call natural selection. they think, as part of that belief, that men are descended from hairy simian ancestors; assert that even a hundred thousand years ago the ancestor was hairy--hairy, heavy, and almost as much a brute as if he lived in mr. arthur morrison's whitechapel. for my own part i think it a pretty theory, and would certainly accept it were it not for one objection. the thing i cannot understand is how our ancestor lost that hair. i see no reason why he should not have kept his hair on. according to the theory of natural selection, materially favourable variations survive, unfavourable disappear; the only way in which the loss is to be accounted for is by explaining it as advantageous; but where is the advantage of losing your hair? the disadvantages appear to me to be innumerable. a thick covering of hair, like that of a capuchin monkey, would be an invaluable protection against sudden changes of temperature, far better than any clothing can be. had i that, for instance, i should be rid of the perpetual cold in the head that so disfigures my life; and the multitudes who die annually of chills, bronchitis, and consumption, and most of those who suffer from rheumatic pains, neuralgia, and so forth, would not so die and suffer. and in the past, when clothing was less perfect and firing a casual commodity, the disadvantages of losing hair were all the greater. in very hot countries hair is perhaps even more important in saving the possessor from the excessive glare of the sun. before the invention of the hat, thick hair on the head at least was absolutely essential to save the owner of the skull from sunstroke. that, perhaps, explains why the hair has been retained there, and why it is going now that we have hats, but it certainly does not explain why it has gone from the rest of the body. one--remarkably weak--explanation has been propounded: an appeal to our belief in human vanity. he picked it out by the roots, because he thought he was prettier without. but that is no reason at all. suppose he did, it would not affect his children. professor weismann has at least convinced scientific people of this: that the characters acquired by a parent are rarely, if ever, transmitted to its offspring. an individual given to such wanton denudation would simply be at a disadvantage with his decently covered fellows, would fall behind in the race of life, and perish with his kind. besides, if man has been at such pains to uncover his skin, why have quite a large number of the most respected among us such a passionate desire to have it covered up again? yet that is the only attempted explanation i have ever come upon, and the thing has often worried me. i think it is just as probably a change in dietary. i have noticed that most of your vegetarians are shock-headed, ample-bearded men, and i have heard the ancestor was vegetarian. or it may be, i sometimes fancy, a kind of inherent disposition on the part of your human animal to dwindle. that came back in my memory vividly as i looked at the long rows of sceptics, typical advanced people, and marked their glistening crania. i recalled other losses. here is humanity, thought i, growing hairless, growing bald, growing toothless, unemotional, irreligious, losing the end joint of the little toe, dwindling in its osseous structures, its jawbone and brow ridges, losing all the full, rich curvatures of its primordial beauty. it seems almost like what the scientific people call a law. and by strenuous efforts the creature just keeps pace with his losses--devises clothes, wigs, artificial teeth, paddings, shoes--what civilised being could use his bare feet for his ordinary locomotion? imagine him on a furze-sprinkled golf links. then stays, an efficient substitute for the effete feminine backbone. so the thing goes on. long ago his superficies became artificial, and now the human being shrinks like a burning cigar, and the figure he has abandoned remains distended with artificial ashes, dead dry protections against the exposures he so unaccountably fears. will he go on shrinking, i wonder?--become at last a mere lurking atomy in his own recesses, a kind of hermit crab, the bulk of him a complex mechanism, a thing of rags and tatters and papier-maché, stolen from the earth and the plant-world and his fellow beasts? and at last may he not disappear altogether, none missing him, and a democracy of honest machinery, neatly clad and loaded up with sound principles of action, walk to and fro in a regenerate world? thus it was my mind went dreaming in st. george's hall. but presently, as i say, came the last word about stomachs, and the bald men woke up, rattled their umbrellas, said it was vastly interesting, and went toddling off home in an ecstasy of advanced liberalism. and we two returned to the place whence we came. of a book unwritten accomplished literature is all very well in its way, no doubt, but much more fascinating to the contemplative man are the books that have not been written. these latter are no trouble to hold; there are no pages to turn over. one can read them in bed on sleepless nights without a candle. turning to another topic, primitive man in the works of the descriptive anthropologist is certainly a very entertaining and quaint person, but the man of the future, if we only had the facts, would appeal to us more strongly. yet where are the books? as ruskin has said somewhere, _à propos_ of darwin, it is not what man has been, but what he will be, that should interest us. the contemplative man in his easy-chair, pondering this saying, suddenly beholds in the fire, through the blue haze of his pipe, one of these great unwritten volumes. it is large in size, heavy in lettering, seemingly by one professor holzkopf, presumably professor at weissnichtwo. "the necessary characters of the man of the remote future deduced from the existing stream of tendency" is the title. the worthy professor is severely scientific in his method, and deliberate and cautious in his deductions, the contemplative man discovers as he pursues his theme, and yet the conclusions are, to say the least, remarkable. we must figure the excellent professor expanding the matter at great length, voluminously technical, but the contemplative man--since he has access to the only copy--is clearly at liberty to make such extracts and abstracts as he chooses for the unscientific reader. here, for instance, is something of practicable lucidity that he considers admits of quotation. "the theory of evolution," writes the professor, "is now universally accepted by zoologists and botanists, and it is applied unreservedly to man. some question, indeed, whether it fits his soul, but all agree it accounts for his body. man, we are assured, is descended from ape-like ancestors, moulded by circumstances into men, and these apes again were derived from ancestral forms of a lower order, and so up from the primordial protoplasmic jelly. clearly then, man, unless the order of the universe has come to an end, will undergo further modification in the future, and at last cease to be man, giving rise to some other type of animated being. at once the fascinating question arises, what will this being be? let us consider for a little the plastic influences at work upon our species. "just as the bird is the creature of the wing, and is all moulded and modified to flying, and just as the fish is the creature that swims, and has had to meet the inflexible conditions of a problem in hydrodynamics, so man is the creature of the brain; he will live by intelligence, and not by physical strength, if he live at all. so that much that is purely 'animal' about him is being, and must be, beyond all question, suppressed in his ultimate development. evolution is no mechanical tendency making for perfection, according to the ideas current in the year of grace ; it is simply the continual adaptation of plastic life, for good or evil, to the circumstances that surround it.... we notice this decay of the animal part around us now, in the loss of teeth and hair, in the dwindling hands and feet of men, in their smaller jaws, and slighter mouths and ears. man now does by wit and machinery and verbal agreement what he once did by bodily toil; for once he had to catch his dinner, capture his wife, run away from his enemies, and continually exercise himself, for love of himself, to perform these duties well. but now all this is changed. cabs, trains, trams, render speed unnecessary, the pursuit of food becomes easier; his wife is no longer hunted, but rather, in view of the crowded matrimonial market, seeks him out. one needs wits now to live, and physical activity is a drug, a snare even; it seeks artificial outlets, and overflows in games. athleticism takes up time and cripples a man in his competitive examinations, and in business. so is your fleshly man handicapped against his subtler brother. he is unsuccessful in life, does not marry. the better adapted survive." the coming man, then, will clearly have a larger brain, and a slighter body than the present. but the professor makes one exception to this. "the human hand, since it is the teacher and interpreter of the brain, will become constantly more powerful and subtle as the rest of the musculature dwindles." then in the physiology of these children of men, with their expanding brains, their great sensitive hands and diminishing bodies, great changes were necessarily worked. "we see now," says the professor, "in the more intellectual sections of humanity an increasing sensitiveness to stimulants, a growing inability to grapple with such a matter as alcohol, for instance. no longer can men drink a bottleful of port; some cannot drink tea; it is too exciting for their highly-wrought nervous systems. the process will go on, and the sir wilfrid lawson of some near generation may find it his duty and pleasure to make the silvery spray of his wisdom tintinnabulate against the tea-tray. these facts lead naturally to the comprehension of others. fresh raw meat was once a dish for a king. now refined persons scarcely touch meat unless it is cunningly disguised. again, consider the case of turnips; the raw root is now a thing almost uneatable, but once upon a time a turnip must have been a rare and fortunate find, to be torn up with delirious eagerness and devoured in ecstasy. the time will come when the change will affect all the other fruits of the earth. even now, only the young of mankind eat apples raw--the young always preserving ancestral characteristics after their disappearance in the adult. some day even boys will regard apples without emotion. the boy of the future, one must believe, will gaze on an apple with the same unspeculative languor with which he now regards a flint"--in the absence of a cat. "furthermore, fresh chemical discoveries came into action as modifying influences upon men. in the prehistoric period even, man's mouth had ceased to be an instrument for grasping food; it is still growing continually less prehensile, his front teeth are smaller, his lips thinner and less muscular; he has a new organ, a mandible not of irreparable tissue, but of bone and steel--a knife and fork. there is no reason why things should stop at partial artificial division thus afforded; there is every reason, on the contrary, to believe my statement that some cunning exterior mechanism will presently masticate and insalivate his dinner, relieve his diminishing salivary glands and teeth, and at last altogether abolish them." then what is not needed disappears. what use is there for external ears, nose, and brow ridges now? the two latter once protected the eye from injury in conflict and in falls, but in these days we keep on our legs, and at peace. directing his thoughts in this way, the reader may presently conjure up a dim, strange vision of the latter-day face: "eyes large, lustrous, beautiful, soulful; above them, no longer separated by rugged brow ridges, is the top of the head, a glistening, hairless dome, terete and beautiful; no craggy nose rises to disturb by its unmeaning shadows the symmetry of that calm face, no vestigial ears project; the mouth is a small, perfectly round aperture, toothless and gumless, jawless, unanimal, no futile emotions disturbing its roundness as it lies, like the harvest moon or the evening star, in the wide firmament of face." such is the face the professor beholds in the future. of course parallel modifications will also affect the body and limbs. "every day so many hours and so much energy are required for digestion; a gross torpidity, a carnal lethargy, seizes on mortal men after dinner. this may and can be avoided. man's knowledge of organic chemistry widens daily. already he can supplement the gastric glands by artificial devices. every doctor who administers physic implies that the bodily functions may be artificially superseded. we have pepsine, pancreatine, artificial gastric acid--i know not what like mixtures. why, then, should not the stomach be ultimately superannuated altogether? a man who could not only leave his dinner to be cooked, but also leave it to be masticated and digested, would have vast social advantages over his food-digesting fellow. this is, let me remind you here, the calmest, most passionless, and scientific working out of the future forms of things from the data of the present. at this stage the following facts may perhaps stimulate your imagination. there can be no doubt that many of the arthropods, a division of animals more ancient and even now more prevalent than the vertebrata, have undergone more phylogenetic modification"--a beautiful phrase--"than even the most modified of vertebrated animals. simple forms like the lobsters display a primitive structure parallel with that of the fishes. however, in such a form as the degraded 'chondracanthus,' the structure has diverged far more widely from its original type than in man. among some of these most highly modified crustaceans the whole of the alimentary canal--that is, all the food-digesting and food-absorbing parts--form a useless solid cord: the animal is nourished--it is a parasite--by absorption of the nutritive fluid in which it swims. is there any absolute impossibility in supposing man to be destined for a similar change; to imagine him no longer dining, with unwieldy paraphernalia of servants and plates, upon food queerly dyed and distorted, but nourishing himself in elegant simplicity by immersion in a tub of nutritive fluid? "there grows upon the impatient imagination a building, a dome of crystal, across the translucent surface of which flushes of the most glorious and pure prismatic colours pass and fade and change. in the centre of this transparent chameleon-tinted dome is a circular white marble basin filled with some clear, mobile, amber liquid, and in this plunge and float strange beings. are they birds? "they are the descendants of man--at dinner. watch them as they hop on their hands--a method of progression advocated already by bjornsen--about the pure white marble floor. great hands they have, enormous brains, soft, liquid, soulful eyes. their whole muscular system, their legs, their abdomens, are shrivelled to nothing, a dangling, degraded pendant to their minds." the further visions of the professor are less alluring. "the animals and plants die away before men, except such as he preserves for his food or delight, or such as maintain a precarious footing about him as commensals and parasites. these vermin and pests must succumb sooner or later to his untiring inventiveness and incessantly growing discipline. when he learns (the chemists are doubtless getting towards the secret now) to do the work of chlorophyll without the plant, then his necessity for other animals and plants upon the earth will disappear. sooner or later, where there is no power of resistance and no necessity, there comes extinction. in the last days man will be alone on the earth, and his food will be won by the chemist from the dead rocks and the sunlight. "and--one may learn the full reason in that explicit and painfully right book, the _data of ethics_--the irrational fellowship of man will give place to an intellectual co-operation, and emotion fall within the scheme of reason. undoubtedly it is a long time yet, but a long time is nothing in the face of eternity, and every man who dares think of these things must look eternity in the face." then the earth is ever radiating away heat into space, the professor reminds us. and so at last comes a vision of earthly cherubim, hopping heads, great unemotional intelligences, and little hearts, fighting together perforce and fiercely against the cold that grips them tighter and tighter. for the world is cooling--slowly and inevitably it grows colder as the years roll by. "we must imagine these creatures," says the professor, "in galleries and laboratories deep down in the bowels of the earth. the whole world will be snow-covered and piled with ice; all animals, all vegetation vanished, except this last branch of the tree of life. the last men have gone even deeper, following the diminishing heat of the planet, and vast metallic shafts and ventilators make way for the air they need." so with a glimpse of these human tadpoles, in their deep close gallery, with their boring machinery ringing away, and artificial lights glaring and casting black shadows, the professor's horoscope concludes. humanity in dismal retreat before the cold, changed beyond recognition. yet the professor is reasonable enough, his facts are current science, his methods orderly. the contemplative man shivers at the prospect, starts up to poke the fire, and the whole of this remarkable book that is not written vanishes straightway in the smoke of his pipe. this is the great advantage of this unwritten literature: there is no bother in changing the books. the contemplative man consoles himself for the destiny of the species with the lost portion of kubla khan. the extinction of man it is part of the excessive egotism of the human animal that the bare idea of its extinction seems incredible to it. "a world without _us_!" it says, as a heady young cephalaspis might have said it in the old silurian sea. but since the cephalaspis and the coccostëus many a fine animal has increased and multiplied upon the earth, lorded it over land or sea without a rival, and passed at last into the night. surely it is not so unreasonable to ask why man should be an exception to the rule. from the scientific standpoint at least any reason for such exception is hard to find. no doubt man is undisputed master at the present time--at least of most of the land surface; but so it has been before with other animals. let us consider what light geology has to throw upon this. the great land and sea reptiles of the mesozoic period, for instance, seem to have been as secure as humanity is now in their pre-eminence. but they passed away and left no descendants when the new orders of the mammals emerged from their obscurity. so, too, the huge titanotheria of the american continent, and all the powerful mammals of pleistocene south america, the sabre-toothed lion, for instance, and the machrauchenia suddenly came to a finish when they were still almost at the zenith of their rule. _and in no case does the record of the fossils show a really dominant species succeeded by its own descendants._ what has usually happened in the past appears to be the emergence of some type of animal hitherto rare and unimportant, and the extinction, not simply of the previously ruling species, but of most of the forms that are at all closely related to it. sometimes, indeed, as in the case of the extinct giants of south america, they vanished without any considerable rivals, victims of pestilence, famine, or, it may be, of that cumulative inefficiency that comes of a too undisputed life. so that the analogy of geology, at anyrate, is against this too acceptable view of man's certain tenure of the earth for the next few million years or so. and, after all, even now man is by no means such a master of the kingdoms of life as he is apt to imagine. the sea, that mysterious nursery of living things, is for all practical purposes beyond his control. the low-water mark is his limit. beyond that he may do a little with seine and dredge, murder a few million herrings a year as they come in to spawn, butcher his fellow air-breather, the whale, or haul now and then an unlucky king-crab or strange sea-urchin out of the deep water, in the name of science; but the life of the sea as a whole knows him not, plays out its slow drama of change and development unheeding him, and may in the end, in mere idle sport, throw up some new terrestrial denizens, some new competitor for space to live in and food to live upon, that will sweep him and all his little contrivances out of existence, as certainly and inevitably as he has swept away auk, bison, and dodo during the last two hundred years. for instance, there are the crustacea. as a group the crabs and lobsters are confined below the high-water mark. but experiments in air-breathing are no doubt in progress in this group--we already have tropical land-crabs--and as far as we know there is no reason why in the future these creatures should not increase in size and terrestrial capacity. in the past we have the evidence of the fossil _paradoxides_ that creatures of this kind may at least attain a length of six feet, and, considering their intense pugnacity, a crab of such dimensions would be as formidable a creature as one could well imagine. and their amphibious capacity would give them an advantage against us such as at present is only to be found in the case of the alligator or crocodile. if we imagine a shark that could raid out upon the land, or a tiger that could take refuge in the sea, we should have a fair suggestion of what a terrible monster a large predatory crab might prove. and so far as zoological science goes we must, at least, admit that such a creature is an evolutionary possibility. then, again, the order of the cephalopods, to which belong the cuttle-fish and the octopus (sacred to victor hugo), may be, for all we can say to the contrary, an order with a future. their kindred, the gastropods, have, in the case of the snail and slug, learnt the trick of air-breathing. and not improbably there are even now genera of this order that have escaped the naturalist, or even well-known genera whose possibilities in growth and dietary are still unknown. suppose some day a specimen of a new species is caught off the coast of kent. it excites remark at a royal society soirée, engenders a science note or so, "a huge octopus!" and in the next year or so three or four other specimens come to hand, and the thing becomes familiar. "probably a new and larger variety of _octopus_ so-and-so, hitherto supposed to be tropical," says professor gargoyle, and thinks he has disposed of it. then conceive some mysterious boating accidents and deaths while bathing. a large animal of this kind coming into a region of frequent wrecks might so easily acquire a preferential taste for human nutriment, just as the colorado beetle acquired a new taste for the common potato and gave up its old food-plants some years ago. then perhaps a school or pack or flock of _octopus gigas_ would be found busy picking the sailors off a stranded ship, and then in the course of a few score years it might begin to stroll up the beaches and batten on excursionists. soon it would be a common feature of the watering-places--possibly at last commoner than excursionists. suppose such a creature were to appear--and it is, we repeat, a possibility, if perhaps a remote one--how could it be fought against? something might be done by torpedoes; but, so far as our past knowledge goes, man has no means of seriously diminishing the numbers of any animal of the most rudimentary intelligence that made its fastness in the sea. even on land it is possible to find creatures that with a little modification might become excessively dangerous to the human ascendency. most people have read of the migratory ants of central africa, against which no man can stand. on the march they simply clear out whole villages, drive men and animals before them in headlong rout, and kill and eat every living creature they can capture. one wonders why they have not already spread the area of their devastations. but at present no doubt they have their natural checks, of ant-eating birds, or what not. in the near future it may be that the european immigrant, as he sets the balance of life swinging in his vigorous manner, may kill off these ant-eating animals, or otherwise unwittingly remove the checks that now keep these terrible little pests within limits. and once they begin to spread in real earnest, it is hard to see how their advance could be stopped. a world devoured by ants seems incredible now, simply because it is not within our experience; but a naturalist would have a dull imagination who could not see in the numerous species of ants, and in their already high intelligence, far more possibility of strange developments than we have in the solitary human animal. and no doubt the idea of the small and feeble organism of man, triumphant and omnipresent, would have seemed equally incredible to an intelligent mammoth or a palæolithic cave bear. and, finally, there is always the prospect of a new disease. as yet science has scarcely touched more than the fringe of the probabilities associated with the minute fungi that constitute our zymotic diseases. but the bacilli have no more settled down into their final quiescence than have men; like ourselves, they are adapting themselves to new conditions and acquiring new powers. the plagues of the middle ages, for instance, seem to have been begotten of a strange bacillus engendered under conditions that sanitary science, in spite of its panacea of drainage, still admits are imperfectly understood, and for all we know even now we may be quite unwittingly evolving some new and more terrible plague--a plague that will not take ten or twenty or thirty per cent., as plagues have done in the past, but the entire hundred. no; man's complacent assumption of the future is too confident. we think, because things have been easy for mankind as a whole for a generation or so, we are going on to perfect comfort and security in the future. we think that we shall always go to work at ten and leave off at four, and have dinner at seven for ever and ever. but these four suggestions, out of a host of others, must surely do a little against this complacency. even now, for all we can tell, the coming terror may be crouching for its spring and the fall of humanity be at hand. in the case of every other predominant animal the world has ever seen, i repeat, the hour of its complete ascendency has been the eve of its entire overthrow. but if some poor story-writing man ventures to figure this sober probability in a tale, not a reviewer in london but will tell him his theme is the utterly impossible. and, when the thing happens, one may doubt if even then one will get the recognition one deserves. the writing of essays the art of the essayist is so simple, so entirely free from canons of criticism, and withal so delightful, that one must needs wonder why all men are not essayists. perhaps people do not know how easy it is. or perhaps beginners are misled. rightly taught it may be learnt in a brief ten minutes or so, what art there is in it. and all the rest is as easy as wandering among woodlands on a bright morning in the spring. then sit you down if you would join us, taking paper, pens, and ink; and mark this, your pen is a matter of vital moment. for every pen writes its own sort of essay, and pencils also after their kind. the ink perhaps may have its influence too, and the paper; but paramount is the pen. this, indeed, is the fundamental secret of essay-writing. wed any man to his proper pen, and the delights of composition and the birth of an essay are assured. only many of us wander through the earth and never meet with her--futile and lonely men. and, of all pens, your quill for essays that are literature. there is a subtle informality, a delightful easiness, perhaps even a faint immorality essentially literary, about the quill. the quill is rich in suggestion and quotation. there are quills that would quote you montaigne and horace in the hands of a trades-union delegate. and those quirky, idle noises this pen makes are delightful, and would break your easy fluency with wit. all the classical essayists wrote with a quill, and addison used the most expensive kind the government purchased. and the beginning of the inferior essay was the dawn of the cheap steel pen. the quill nibs they sell to fit into ordinary pen-holders are no true quills at all, lacking dignity, and may even lead you into the new humour if you trust overmuch to their use. after a proper quill commend me to a stumpy bb pencil; you get less polish and broader effects, but you are still doing good literature. sometimes the work is close--mr. george meredith, for instance, is suspected of a soft pencil--and always it is blunter than quill work and more terse. with a hard pencil no man can write anything but a graceless style--a kind of east wind air it gives--and smile you cannot. so that it is often used for serious articles in the half-crown reviews. there follows the host of steel pens. that bald, clear, scientific style, all set about with words like "evolution" and "environment," which aims at expressing its meaning with precision and an exemplary economy of words, is done with fine steel nibs--twelve a penny at any stationer's. the j pen to the lady novelist, and the stylograph to the devil--your essayist must not touch the things. so much for the pen. if you cannot write essays easily, that is where the hitch comes in. get a box of a different kind of pen and begin again, and so on again and again until despair or joy arrests you. as for a typewriter, you could no more get an essay out of a typewriter than you could play a sonata upon its keys. no essay was ever written with a typewriter yet, nor ever will be. besides its impossibility, the suggestion implies a brutal disregard of the division of labour by which we live and move and have our being. if the essayist typewrite, the unemployed typewriter, who is commonly a person of superior education and capacity, might take to essays, and where is your living then? one might as reasonably start at once with the linotype and print one's wit and humour straight away. and taking the invasion of other trades one step further one might, after an attempt to sell one's own newspaper, even get to the pitch of having to read it oneself. no; even essayists must be reasonable. if its mechanical clitter-clatter did not render composition impossible, the typewriter would still be beneath the honour of a literary man. then for the paper. the luxurious, expensive, small-sized cream-laid note is best, since it makes your essay choice and compact; and, failing that, ripped envelopes and the backs of bills. some men love ruled paper, because they can write athwart the lines, and some take the fly-leaves of their friends' books. but whosoever writes on cheap sermon paper full of hairs should write far away from the woman he loves, lest he offend her ears. it is good, however, for a terse, forcible style. the ink should be glossy black as it leaves your pen, for polished english. violet inks lead to sham sentiment, and blue-black to vulgarity. red ink essays are often good, but usually unfit for publication. this is as much almost as anyone need know to begin essay writing. given your proper pen and ink, or pencil and paper, you simply sit down and write the thing. the value of an essay is not its matter, but its mood. you must be comfortable, of course; an easy-chair with arm-rests, slippers, and a book to write upon are usually employed, and you must be fed recently, and your body clothed with ease rather than grandeur. for the rest, do not trouble to stick to your subject, or any subject; and take no thought for the editor or the reader, for your essay should be as spontaneous as the lilies of the field. so long as you do not begin with a definition you may begin anyhow. an abrupt beginning is much admired, after the fashion of the clown's entry through the chemist's window. then whack at your reader at once, hit him over the head with the sausages, brisk him up with the poker, bundle him into the wheelbarrow, and so carry him away with you before he knows where you are. you can do what you like with a reader then, if you only keep him nicely on the move. so long as you are happy your reader will be so too. but one law must be observed: an essay, like a dog that wishes to please, must have a lively tail, short but as waggish as possible. like a rocket, an essay goes only with fizzle and sparks at the end of it. and, know, that to stop writing is the secret of writing an essay; the essay that the public loves dies young. the parkes museum the place to spend a happy day by way of jest, my morning daily paper constantly includes in its menu of "to-day" the parkes museum, margaret street, adding, seductively, "free"; and no doubt many a festive jonas chuzzlewit has preened himself for a sight-seeing, and all unaware of the multitudes of margaret streets--surely only charlottes of that ilk are more abundant--has started forth, he and his feminine, to find this parkes museum. one may even conceive a rare bank holiday thoughtfully put aside for the quest, and spent all vainly in the asking of policemen, and in traversing this vast and tiresome metropolis, from margaret street to margaret street, the freshness of the morning passing into the dry heat of the day, fatigue spreading from the feet upwards, discussion, difference, denial, "words," and a day of recreation dying at last into a sunset of lurid sulks. such possibility was too painful to think of, and a philanthropic inquirer has at last by persistent investigation won the secret of the missing museum and opened the way to it for all future investigators. the margaret street in question is an apparently derelict thoroughfare, opening into great portland street. immemorial dust is upon its pavements, and a profound silence broods over its vacant roadway. the blinds of its houses are mostly down, and, where the blackness of some window suggests a dark interior, no face appears to reassure us in our doubt of humanity within. it may be that somewhen in the past the entire population of this street set out on a boating party up the river, and was overset by steam launches, and so never returned, or perchance it has all been locked up for a long term of imprisonment--though the houses seem almost too respectable for that; or the glamour of the sleeping beauty is upon it all. certainly we saw the figure of a porter in an attitude of repose in the little glass lodge in the museum doorway. he _may_ have been asleep. but we feared to touch him--and indeed slipped very stealthily by him--lest he should suddenly crumble into dust. and so to the museum and its wonders. this parkes museum is a kind of armoury of hygiene, a place full of apparatus for being healthy--in brief, a museum of sanitary science. to that large and growing class of people who take no thought of anything but what they eat and what they drink, and wherewithal they should be clothed, it should prove intensely interesting. apart from the difficulty of approach we cannot understand how it is so neglected by an intelligent public. you can see germicides and a model convict prison, pentonville cells in miniature, statistical diagrams and drain pipes--if only there was a little more about heredity, it would be exactly the kind of thing that is popular in literature now, as literature goes. and yet excepting ourselves and the sleeping porter--if he was sleeping--and the indistinct and motionless outline, visible through a glass door, of a human body sitting over a book, there was not a suggestion or memory of living humanity about the place. the exhibits of food are especially remarkable. we cleaned the glass case with our sleeves and peered at the most appetising revelations. there are dozens of little bottles hermetically sealed, containing such curios as a sample of "bacon common (gammon) uncooked," and then the same cooked--it looked no nicer cooked--irish sausage, pork sausage, black pudding, welsh mutton, and all kinds of rare and exquisite feeding. there are ever so many cases of this kind of thing. we saw, for instance, further along, several good specimens of the common oyster shell (_ostrea edulis_), cockle shells, and whelks, both "almonds" and "whites," and then came breadstuffs. the breadstuffs are particularly impressive, of a grey, scientific aspect, a hard, hoary antiquity. we always knew that stale bread was good for one, but yet the parkes museum startled us with the antique pattern it recommended. there was a muffin, too, identified and labelled, but without any latin name, a captured crumpet, a collection of buns, a dinner-roll, and a something novel to us, called pumpernickel, that we had rather be without, or rather--for the expression is ambiguous--that we had rather not be without, but altogether remote from. and all these things have been tested by an analyst, with the most painful results. nitrogen, oxygen, hydrogen, and the like nasty chemical things seem indeed to have occurred in everything he touched. those sturdy mendicants who go about complaining that they cannot get food should visit this parkes museum and see what food is really like, and learn contentment with their lot. there were no real vegetables, but only the ideals of a firm of seedsmen, made of wax and splendidly coloured, with something of the boldness and vigour of michael angelo about the modelling of them. and among other food stuffs were sweetmeats and yellow capers, liver flukes, british wines, and snuff. at last we felt replete with food stuffs, and went on to see the models to illustrate ventilation, and the exhibits of hygienic glazed tiles arranged around a desert lecture-theatre. hygienic tiles stimulate the eye vigorously rather than relax it by any æsthetic weakness; and the crematory appliances are so attractive as they are, and must have such an added charm of neatness and brightness when alight, that one longs to lose a relative or so forthwith, for the mere pleasure of seeing them in operation. a winding staircase designed upon hygienic principles, to bump your head at intervals, takes one to a little iron gallery full of the most charming and varied display of cooking-stoves and oil-lamps. here, also, there are flaunted the resources of civilisation for the prevention of accidents, which resources are four, namely, a patent fire-escape, a patent carriage pole, a coal plate, and a dog muzzle. but the labels, though verbose, are scarcely full enough. they do not tell you, for instance, if you wish to prevent cramp while bathing, whether the dog muzzle or the coal plate should be employed, nor do they show how the fire-escape will prevent the explosion of a paraffin lamp. however, this is a detail. we feel assured that no intelligent person will regret a visit to this most interesting and instructive exhibition. it offers you valuable hints how to live, and suggests the best and tidiest way in which you can, when dead, dispose of your body. we feel assured that the public only needs this intimation of its whereabouts to startle the death-like slumbers of margaret street with an unaccustomed tumult. and the first to arrive will, no doubt, find legibly and elegantly written in the dust that covers the collection the record of its discovery by euphemia and me. bleak march in epping forest all along the selvage of epping forest there was excitement. before the swallows, before the violets, long before the cuckoo, with only untimely honeysuckle bushes showing a trace of green, two trippers had been seen traversing the district, making their way towards high beech, and settling awhile near the forest hotel. whether they were belated survivals from last season or exceptionally early hatchings of the coming year, was a question of considerable moment to the natives, and has since engaged the attention of the local natural history society. but we know that, as a matter of fact, they were of little omen, being indeed but insignificant people from hampstead and not true trippers at all, who were curious to see this forest in raw winter. for some have argued that there is no epping forest at all in the winter-time; that it is, in fact, taken up and put away, and that agriculture is pursued there. others assert that the forest is shrouded with wrappers, even as a literary man's study is shrouded by dusty women when they clean him out. others, again, have supposed that it is a delightful place in winter, far more delightful than in summer, but that this is not published, because no writing man hath ever been there in the cold season. and much more of unreal speculation, but nothing which bore upon it the stamp of truth. so these two--and i am one of the two--went down to epping forest to see that it was still there, and how it fared in the dismal weather. the sky was a greasy grey that guttered down to the horizon, and the wind smote damp and chill. there was a white fringe of ice in the cart-wheel ruts, but withal the frost was not so crisp as to prevent a thin and slippery glaze of softened clay upon the road. the decaying triumphal arch outside the station sadly lacked a coat of paint, and was indistinctly regretful of remote royal visits and processions gone for ever. then we passed shuddering by many vacant booths that had once resounded with the revelry of ninepenny teas and the gingerbeer cork's staccato, and their forms were piled together and their trestles overturned. and the wind ravened, and no human beings were to be seen. so up the hill to the left, and along the road leading by devious windings between the black hedges and through clay wallows to the hilly part round high beech. but upon the shoulder of a hill we turned to a gate to scrape off the mud that made our boots unwieldy. at that moment came a threadbare place in the cloudy curtain that was sweeping across the sun, and our shadows showed themselves for an instant to comfort us. the amber patch of sunlight presently slipped from us and travelled down the meadows towards the distant blue of the hills by waltham abbey, touching with miraculous healing a landscape erst dead and shrouded in grey. this transitory gleam of light gladdened us mightily at the time, but it made the after-sky seem all the darker. so through the steep and tortuous village to high beech, and then leaving the road we wandered in among big trees and down slopes ankle deep with rustling leaves towards chingford again. here was pleasanter walking than the thawing clay, but now and then one felt the threat of an infinite oozy softness beneath the stiff frozen leaves. once again while we were here the drifting haze of the sky became thinner, and the smooth green-grey beech stems and rugged oak trunks were brightly illuminated. but only for a moment, and thereafter the sky became not simply unsympathetic but ominous. and the misery of the wind grew apace. presently we wandered into that sinister corner of the forest where the beech trees have grown so closely together that they have had perforce to lift their branches vertically. divested of leaves, the bare grey limbs of these seem strangely restless. these trees, reaching so eagerly upward, have an odd resemblance to the weird figures of horror in which william blake delighted--arms, hands, hair, all stretch intensely to the zenith. they seem to be straining away from the spot to which they are rooted. it is a laocoon grouping, a wordless concentrated struggle for the sunlight, and disagreeably impressive. the trippers longed to talk and were tongue-tied; they looked now and then over their shoulders. they were glad when the eerie influence was passed, though they traversed a morass to get away from it. then across an open place, dismal with the dun hulls of lost cows and the clatter of their bells, over a brook full of dead leaves and edged with rusty clay, through a briery thicket that would fain have detained us, and so to a pathway of succulent green, that oozed black under our feet. here some poor lost wayfarer has blazed his way with rustic seats, now rheumatic and fungus-eaten. and here, too, the wind, which had sought us howling, found us at last, and stung us sharply with a shower of congealing raindrops. this grew to a steady downfall as the open towards chingford station was approached at last, after devious winding in the forest. then, coming upon the edge of the wood and seeing the lone station against the grey sky, we broke into a shout and began running. but it is dismal running on imperfectly frozen clay, in rain and a gusty wind. we slipped and floundered, and one of us wept sore that she should never see her home again. and worse, the only train sleeping in the station was awakened by our cries, and, with an eldritch shriek at the unseasonable presence of trippers, fled incontinently londonward. smeared with clay and dead leaves almost beyond human likeness, we staggered into the derelict station, and found from an outcast porter that perhaps another train might after the lapse of two hours accumulate sufficiently to take us back to gospel oak and a warm world again. so we speered if there were amusements to be got in this place, and he told us "some very nice walks." to refrain from homicide we left the station, and sought a vast red hotel that loomed through the drift on a steep hill, and in the side of this a door that had not been locked. happily one had been forgotten, and, entering at last, we roused a hibernating waiter, and he exhumed us some of his winter victual. in this way we were presently to some degree comforted, and could play chess until a train had been sent for our relief. and this did at last happen, and towards the hour of dinner we rejoined our anxious friends, and all the evening time we boasted of a pleasant day and urged them to go even as we had gone. the theory of quotation the nobler method of quotation is not to quote at all. for why should one repeat good things that are already written? are not the words in their fittest context in the original? clearly, then, your new setting cannot be quite so congruous, which is, forthwith, an admission of incongruity. your quotation is evidently a plug in a leak, an apology for a gap in your own words. but your vulgar author will even go out of his way to make the clothing of his thoughts thus heterogeneous. he counts every stolen scrap he can work in an improvement--a literary caddis worm. yet would he consider it improvement to put a piece of even the richest of old tapestry or gold embroidery into his new pair of breeks? the passion for quotation is peculiar to literature. we do not glory to quote our costume, dress in cast-off court robes, or furnish our houses from the marine store. neither are we proud of alien initials on the domestic silver. we like things new and primarily our own. we have a wholesome instinct against infection, except, it seems, in the matter of ideas. an authorling will deliberately inoculate his copy with the inverted comma bacillus, till the page swims unsteadily, counting the fever a glow of pure literary healthiness. yet this reproduction, rightly considered, is merely a proof that his appetite for books has run beyond his digestion. or his industry may be to seek. you expect an omelette, and presently up come the unbroken eggs. a tissue of quotation wisely looked at is indeed but a motley garment, eloquent either of a fool, or an idle knave in a fool's disguise. nevertheless at times--the truth must be told--we must quote. as for admitting that we have quoted, that is another matter altogether. but the other man's phrase will lie at times so close in one's mind to the trend of one's thoughts, that, all virtue notwithstanding, they must needs run into the groove of it. there are phrases that lie about in the literary mind like orange peel on a pavement. you are down on them before you know where you are. but does this necessitate acknowledgment to the man, now in hades, who sucked that orange and strewed the peel in your way? rather, is it not more becoming to be angry at his careless anticipation? one may reasonably look at it in this way. what business has a man to think of things right in front of you, poke his head, as it were, into your light? what right has he to set up dams and tunnel out swallow-holes to deflect the current of your thoughts? surely you may remove these obstructions, if it suits you, and put them where you will. else all literature will presently be choked up, and the making of books come to an end. one might as well walk ten miles out of one's way because some deaf oaf or other chose to sit upon a necessary stile. surely shakespeare or lamb, or what other source you contemplate, has had the thing long enough? out of the road with them. turn and turn about. and inverted commas are so inhospitable. if you _must_ take in another man's offspring, you should surely try to make the poor foundlings feel at home. away with such uncharitable distinctions between the children of the house and the stranger within your gates. i never see inverted commas but i think of the necessary persecuted mediæval jew in yellow gabardine. at least, never put the name of the author you quote. think of the feelings of the dead. don't let the poor spirit take it to heart that its monumental sayings would pass unrecognised without your advertisement. you mean well, perhaps, but it is in the poorest taste. yet i have seen patience on a monument honourably awarded to william shakespeare, and fenced in by commas from all intercourse with the general text. there is something so extremely dishonest, too, in acknowledging quotations. possibly the good people who so contrive that such signatures as "shakespeare," "homer," or "st. paul," appear to be written here and there to parts of their inferior work, manage to justify the proceeding in their conscience; but it is uncommonly like hallmarking pewter on the strength of an infinitesimal tinge of silver therein. the point becomes at once clear if we imagine some obscure painter quoting the style of raphael and fragments of his designs, and acknowledging his indebtedness by appending the master's signature. blank forgery! and a flood of light was thrown on the matter by a chance remark of one of euphemia's aunts--she is a great reader of pure fiction--anent a popular novel: "i am sure it must be a nice book," said she, "or she could not get all these people to write the mottoes for the chapters." no, it is all very well to play with one's conscience. i have known men so sophisticated as to assert that unacknowledged quotation was wrong. but very few really reasonable people will, i think, refuse to agree with me that the only artistic, the only kindly, and the only honest method of quotation is plagiary. if you cannot plagiarise, surely it were better not to quote. on the art of staying at the seaside a meditation at eastbourne to stay at the seaside properly, one should not think. but even in staying at the seaside there are intervals, waking moments when meals come, even if there are no appointed meal-times. moreover, now and then, one must go to buy tobacco, a matter one can trust to no hireling, lest he get it dry. it cannot be always seaside, even as it cannot be always may, and through the gaps thought creeps in. going over the cliff and along the parade, and down by the circulating library to the cigar divan, where they sell parique tobacco, the swinging of one's legs seems to act like a pendulum to the clockwork of one's brain. one meditates all the way, and chiefly on how few people there are who can really--to a critical adept--be said to stay at the seaside. people seem to think that one can take a ticket to eastbourne, or bognor, or ventnor, and come and stay at the seaside straight away, just as i have known new-hatched undergraduates tell people they were going to play billiards. thousands and thousands of people think they have stayed at the seaside, and have not, just as thousands of people erroneously imagine they have played whist. for the latter have played not whist, but bumble-puppy, and the former have only frequented a watering-place for a time. your true staying at the seaside is an art, demanding not only railway fares but special aptitude, and, moreover, needing culture, like all worthy arts. the most insurmountable difficulty of the beginner is the classical simplicity of the whole thing. to stay at the seaside properly you just spread yourself out on the extreme edge of the land and let the sunlight soak in. your eyes are fixed upon the horizon. some have it that your head should be towards the sea, but the best authorities think that this determines blood to that region, and so stimulates thought. this is all the positive instruction; the rest is prohibition. you must not think, and you must not move, neither may you go to sleep. in a few minutes the adept becomes as a god, even as a god that sits upon the lotus leaf. new light and colour come into the sky and sea, and the surges chant his praises. but those who are not of the elect get pins and needles all over them. it must be freely admitted that staying at the seaside such as this, staying at the seaside in its perfection, is a thing for a select few. you want a broad stretch of beach and all the visible sea to yourself. you cannot be disturbed by even the most idyllic children trying to bury you with sand and suchlike playfulness, nor by boatloads of the democracy rowing athwart your sea and sky. and the absence of friend or wife goes without saying. i notice down here a very considerable quantity of evidently married pairs, and the huge majority of the rest of the visitors run in couples, and are to all appearances engaged. if they are not, i would submit that they ought to be. probably there is a certain satisfaction in sitting by the sea with the girl you are in love with, or your wife for the matter of that, just as many people undoubtedly find tea with milk and sugar very nice. but the former is no more the way to get the full and perfect pleasure of staying at the seaside than the latter is the way to get the full and perfect flavour of the tea. true staying at the seaside is neither the repetition of old conversations in new surroundings nor the exposure of one's affections to ozone. it is something infinitely higher. it is pure quiescence. it is the experience of a waking inanition savouring of buddha and the divine. now, staying at the seaside is so rarely done well, because of the littleness of man. to do it properly needs many of the elements of greatness. your common man, while he has life in him, can let neither himself nor the universe alone. he must be asserting himself in some way, even if it is only by flinging pebbles at a stick. that self-forgetfulness which should be a delight is a terror to him. he brings dogs down to the beach to stand between him and the calm of nature, and yelp. he does worse than that. the meditative man going daily over by the cliff and along the parade, to get his ounce of tobacco, has a sad spectacle of what human beings may be driven to in this way. one sees altogether some hundreds of people there who have heard perhaps that staying at the seaside is good, and who have, anyhow, got thus far towards it, and stopped. they have not the faintest idea how to make themselves happy. the general expression is veiled curiosity. they sit--mostly with their backs to the sea--talking poorly of indifferent topics and watching one another. most obviously they want hints of what to do with themselves. behind them is a bank of flowers like those in battersea park, and another parallel parade, and beyond are bathing-machines. the pier completely cuts the horizon out of the background. there is a stout lady, in dark blue, bathing. the only glances directed seaward are furtive ones at her. many seem to be doubting whether this is not what they came down for. others lean dubiously to the invitations of the boatmen. others again listen to vocalists and dramatic outcasts who, for ha'pence, render obvious the reason of their professional degradation. it seems eccentric to travel seventy or eighty miles to hear a man without a voice demonstrate that he is unfit to have one, but they do. anyone curious in these matters need only go to a watering-place to see and, what is worse, to hear for himself. after an excursion train to eastbourne, upwards of a thousand people have been seen thus heaped together over an oblong space of a mile long by twenty yards wide. only three miles away there was a towering white cliff overhanging a practically desert beach; and one seagull circled above one solitary, motionless, supine man, really staying at the seaside. you cannot walk six miles anywhere along the south coast without coming upon one of these heaps of people, called a watering-place. there will be a town of houses behind wherein the people lodge, until, as they think, they have stayed a sufficient time at the sea, and they return, hot, cross, and mystified, to london. the sea front will be bricked or paved for a mile or so, and there will be rows of boats and bathing-machines, and other contrivances to screen off the view of the sea. and, as we have indicated, watering-places and staying by the seaside are incompatible things. the true stayer by the seaside goes into the watering-place because he must; because there is little food, and that uncooked, and no tobacco, between the cliffs and the sea. having purchased what he needs he flees forth again. what time the whole selvage of england becomes watering-place, there will be no more staying by the seaside at all in the land. but this is a gloomy train of thought that we will not pursue. there have been those who assert that one end of staying at the seaside is bathing; but it is easy to show that this is not so. your proper bathing-place is up the river, where the trees bend to the green and brown shadows of the water. there the bath is sweet, fresh out of the sky, or but just filtered through the blue hills of the distant water-shed; and it is set about with flowers. but the sea--the sea has stood there since the beginning of things, and with small prospect of change, says mr. kipling, to all eternity. the water in the sea, geologists tell us, has _not been changed for fifty million years_! the same chemist who sets me against all my food with his chemical names speaks of the sea as a weak solution of drowned men. be that as it may, it leaves the skin harsh with salt, and the hair sticky. moreover, it is such a promiscuous bathing-place. however, we need scarcely depreciate the sea as a bath, for what need is there of that when the river is clearly better? no one can deny that the river is better. people who bathe in the sea bathe by mistake, because they have come to the side of the sea, and know not how else to use it. so, too, with the boating. it is hard to imagine how human beings who have drifted down streams, and watched the brown fish in the shallows, and peered through the tall sedges at the forget-me-nots, and fought with the ropes of the water-lilies, and heard the ripple under the bows, can ever think of going to and fro, pitching spasmodically, in front of a watering-place. and as for fishing--they catch fish at sea, indeed, but it is not fishing at all; neither rods nor flies have they, and there is an end to that matter. an eastbourne meditative man returning to where he stays, with his daily ounce of tobacco already afire, sees in the streets what are called by the natives "cherry-bangs," crowded with people, and, further, cabriolets and such vehicles holding parties and families. the good folks are driving away from the sea for the better part of the day, going to battle and other places inland. the puzzle of what to do with their sea is too much for them, and they are going away for a little to rest their minds. regarded as a centre of drives one might think an inland place would be preferable to a seaside town, which at best commands but a half-circle. however that may be, the fact remains that one of the chief occupations of your common visitor to the seaside is going away from it. than this fact there can be nothing more conclusive in support of my argument that ordinary people are absolutely ignorant and incapable of staying by the seaside. concerning chess the passion for playing chess is one of the most unaccountable in the world. it slaps the theory of natural selection in the face. it is the most absorbing of occupations, the least satisfying of desires, an aimless excrescence upon life. it annihilates a man. you have, let us say, a promising politician, a rising artist, that you wish to destroy. dagger or bomb are archaic, clumsy, and unreliable--but teach him, inoculate him with chess! it is well, perhaps, that the right way of teaching chess is so little known, that consequently in most cases the plot fails in the performance, the dagger turns aside. else we should all be chess-players--there would be none left to do the business of the world. our statesmen would sit with pocket boards while the country went to the devil, our army would bury itself in chequered contemplation, our bread-winners would forget their wives in seeking after impossible mates. the whole world would be disorganised. i can fancy this abominable hypnotism so wrought into the constitution of men that the cabmen would go trying to drive their horses in knights' moves up and down charing cross road. and now and again a suicide would come to hand with the pathetic inscription pinned to his chest: "i checked with my queen too soon. i cannot bear the thought of it." there is no remorse like the remorse of chess. only, happily, as we say, chess is taught the wrong way round. people put out the board before the learner with all the men in battle array, sixteen a side, with six different kinds of moves, and the poor wretch is simply crushed and appalled. a lot of things happen, mostly disagreeable, and then a mate comes looming up through the haze of pieces. so he goes away awestricken but unharmed, secretly believing that all chess-players are humbugs, and that intelligent chess, which is neither chancy nor rote-learned, is beyond the wit of man. but clearly this is an unreasonable method of instruction. before the beginner can understand the beginning of the game he must surely understand the end; how can he commence playing until he knows what he is playing for? it is like starting athletes on a race, and leaving them to find out where the winning-post is hidden. your true teacher of chess, your subtle chess-poisoner, your cunning comus who changes men to chess-players, begins quite the other way round. he will, let us say, give you king, queen, and pawn placed out in careless possible positions. so you master the militant possibilities of queen and pawn without perplexing complications. then king, queen, and bishop perhaps; king, queen, and knight; and so on. it ensures that you always play a winning game in these happy days of your chess childhood, and taste the one sweet of chess-playing, the delight of having the upper hand of a better player. then to more complicated positions, and at last back to the formal beginning. you begin to see now to what end the array is made, and understand why one gambit differeth from another in glory and virtue. and the chess mania of your teacher cleaveth to you thenceforth and for evermore. it is a curse upon a man. there is no happiness in chess--mr. st. george mivart, who can find happiness in the strangest places, would be at a loss to demonstrate it upon the chess-board. the mild delight of a pretty mate is the least unhappy phase of it. but, generally, you find afterwards that you ought to have mated two moves before, or at the time that an unforeseen reply takes your queen. no chess-player sleeps well. after the painful strategy of the day one fights one's battles over again. you see with more than daylight clearness that it was the rook you should have moved, and not the knight. no! it is impossible! no common sinner innocent of chess knows these lower deeps of remorse. vast desert boards lie for the chess-player beyond the gates of horn. stalwart rooks ram headlong at one, knights hop sidelong, one's pawns are all tied, and a mate hangs threatening and never descends. and once chess has been begun in the proper way, it is flesh of your flesh, bone of your bone; you are sold, and the bargain is sealed, and the evil spirit hath entered in. the proper outlet for the craving is the playing of games, and there is a class of men--shadowy, unhappy, unreal-looking men--who gather in coffee-houses, and play with a desire that dieth not, and a fire that is not quenched. these gather in clubs and play tournaments, such tournaments as he of the table round could never have imagined. but there are others who have the vice who live in country places, in remote situations--curates, schoolmasters, rate collectors--who go consumed from day to day and meet no fit companion, and who must needs find some artificial vent for their mental energy. no one has ever calculated how many sound problems are possible, and no doubt the psychical research people would be glad if professor karl pearson would give his mind to the matter. all the possible dispositions of the pieces come to such a vast number, however, that, according to the theory of probability, and allowing a few thousand arrangements each day, the same problem ought never to turn up more than twice in a century or so. as a matter of fact--it is probably due to some flaw in the theory of probability--the same problem has a way of turning up in different publications several times in a month or so. it may be, of course, that, after all, quite "sound" problems are limited in number, and that we keep on inventing and reinventing them; that, if a record were kept, the whole system, up to four or five moves, might be classified, and placed on record in the course of a few score years. indeed, if we were to eliminate those with conspicuously bad moves, it may be we should find the number of reasonable games was limited enough, and that even our brilliant lasker is but repeating the inspirations of some long-buried persian, some mute inglorious hindoo, dead and forgotten ages since. it may be over every game there watches the forgotten forerunners of the players, and that chess is indeed a dead game, a haunted game, played out centuries ago, even, as beyond all cavil, is the game of draughts. the artistic temperament, the gay irresponsible cast of mind, does what it can to lighten the gravity of this too intellectual game. to a mortal there is something indescribably horrible in these champions with their four moves an hour--the bare thought of the mental operations of the fifteen minutes gives one a touch of headache. compulsory quick moving is the thing for gaiety, and that is why, though we revere steinitz and lasker, it is bird we love. his victories glitter, his errors are magnificent. the true sweetness of chess, if it ever can be sweet, is to see a victory snatched, by some happy impertinence, out of the shadow of apparently irrevocable disaster. and talking of cheerfulness reminds me of lowson's historical game of chess. lowson said he had been cheerful sometimes--but, drunk! perish the thought! challenged, he would have proved it by some petty tests of pronunciation, some good templar's shibboleths. he offered to walk along the kerb, to work any problem in mathematics we could devise, finally to play macbryde at chess. the other gentleman was appointed judge, and after putting the antimacassar over his head ("jush wigsh") immediately went to sleep in a disorderly heap on the sofa. the game was begun very solemnly, so i am told. macbryde, in describing it to me afterwards, swayed his hands about with the fingers twiddling in a weird kind of way, and said the board went like that. the game was fierce but brief. it was presently discovered that both kings had been taken. lowson was hard to convince, but this came home to him. "man," he is reported to have said to macbryde, "i'm just drunk. there's no doubt in the matter. i'm feeling very ashamed of myself." it was accordingly decided to declare the game drawn. the position, as i found it next morning, is an interesting one. lowson's queen was at k kt , his bishop at q b , he had several pawns, and his knight occupied a commanding position at the intersection of four squares. macbryde had four pawns, two rooks, a queen, a draught, and a small mantel ornament arranged in a rough semicircle athwart the board. i have no doubt chess exquisites will sneer at this position, but in my opinion it is one of the cheerfulest i have ever seen. i remember i admired it very much at the time, in spite of a slight headache, and it is still the only game of chess that i recall with undiluted pleasure. and yet i have played many games. the coal-scuttle a study in domestic Ã�sthetics euphemia, who loves to have home dainty and delightful, would have no coals if she could dispense with them, much less a coal-scuttle. indeed, it would seem she would have no fireplace at all, if she had her will. all the summer she is happy, and the fireplace is anything but the place for a fire; the fender has vanished, the fireirons are gone, it is draped and decorated and disguised. so would dear euphemia drape and disguise the whole iron framework of the world, with that decorative and decent mind of hers, had she but the scope. there are exotic ferns there, spreading their fanlike fronds, and majolica glows and gleams; and fabrics, of which morris is the actual or spiritual begetter, delight the eye. in summer-time our fireplace is indeed a thing of beauty, but, alas for the solar system! it is not a joy for ever. the sun at last recedes beyond the equinoxes, and the black bogey who has slept awakens again. euphemia restores the fender kerb and the brazen dogs and the fireirons that will clatter; and then all the winter, whenever she sits before the fire, her trouble is with her. even when the red glow of the fire lights up her features most becomingly, and flattery is in her ear, every now and then a sidelong glance at her ugly foe shows that the thought of it is in her mind, and that the crumpled roseleaf, if such a phrase may be used for a coal-scuttle, insists on being felt. and she has even been discovered alone, sitting elbows on knees, and chin on her small clenched fist, frowning at it, puzzling how to circumvent the one enemy of her peace. "_it_" is what euphemia always calls this utensil, when she can bring herself to give the indescribable an imperfect vent in speech. but commonly the feeling is too deep for words. her war with this foeman in her household, this coarse rebel in her realm of soft prettiness, is one of those silent ones, those grim struggles without outcry or threat or appeal for quarter that can never end in any compromise, never find a rest in any truce, except the utter defeat of her antagonist. and how she has tried--the happy thoughts, the faint hopes, the new departures and outflanking movements! and even to-day there the thing defies her--a coal-box, with a broad smile that shows its black teeth, thick and squat, filling a snug corner and swaggering in unmanly triumph over the outrage upon her delicacy that it commits. one of euphemia's brightest ideas was to burn wood. logs make even a picturesque pile in a corner--look "uncommon." but there are objections to wood. wood finely divided burns with gay quirks and jets of flame, and making cheerful crackling noises the while; but its warmth and brightness are as evanescent as love's young dream. and your solid log has a certain irritating inertness. it is an absentee fuel, spending its fire up the chimney, and after its youthful clouds of glory turns but a cheerless side of black and white char towards the room. and, above all, the marital mind is strangely exasperated by the log. smite it with the poker, and you get but a sullen resonance, a flight of red sparks, a sense of an unconquerable toughness. it is worse than coke. the crisp fracture of coal, the spitting flames suddenly leaping into existence from the shiny new fissures, are altogether wanting. old-seasoned timber burns indeed most delightfully, but then it is as ugly as coal, and withal very dear. so euphemia went back to coal again with a sigh. possibly if euphemia had been surrounded by the wealth she deserves this trouble would not have arisen. a silent servant, bearing the due dose of fresh fuel, would have come gliding from a mysterious beneath, restored the waning animation of the grate, and vanished noiselessly again. but this was beyond the range of euphemia's possibilities. and so we are face to face with this problem of the scuttle again. at first she would feign there was no such thing as coal. it was too horrible. only a zola would admit it. it was the epoch of concealment. the thing purchased was like a little cupboard on four legs; it might have held any convenient trifle; and there was a shelf upon the top and a book of poetry and a piece of crackled satsuma. you took a little brass handle and pulled it down, and the front of the little cupboard came forward, and there you found your coal. but a dainty little cupboard can no more entertain black coal and inelegant firewood and keep its daintiness than a mind can entertain black thoughts and yet be sweet. this cabinet became demoralised with amazing quickness; it became incontinent with its corruptions, a hinge got twisted, and after a time it acquired the habit of suddenly, and with an unpleasant oscillatory laughing noise, opening of its own accord and proclaiming its horrid secret to euphemia's best visitors. an air of wickedness, at once precocious and senile, came upon it; it gaped and leered at euphemia as the partner of her secret with such a familiar air of "i and you" that she could stand it no longer, and this depraved piece of furniture was banished at last from her presence, and relegated to its proper sphere of sham gentility below stairs, where it easily passed itself upon the cook as an exquisite. euphemia tried to be sensible then, and determined, since she must have coal in her room, to let no false modesty intervene, but to openly proclaim its presence to all the world. the next thing, therefore, was a cylinder of brass, broadly open above, saying to the world, as it were, "look! i contain coal." and there were brass tongs like sugar tongs wherewith euphemia would regale the fire and brighten it up, handing it a lump at a time in the prettiest way. but brass dints. the brazen thing was quiet and respectable enough upstairs, but ever and again it went away to be filled. what happened on these holiday jaunts euphemia has never ascertained. but a chance blow or worse cause ran a crease athwart the forehead of the thing, and below an almost imperceptible bulging hinted at a future corpulency. and there was complaint of the quantity of polishing it needed, and an increasing difficulty in keeping it bright. and except when it was full to the brim, the lining was unsightly; and this became more so. one day ithuriel must have visited euphemia's apartment, and the tarnished brilliancy of the thing stood confessed. for some days there was an interregnum, and a coal-scuttle from downstairs--a black unstable thing on flat foot and with a vast foolish nether lip--did its duty with inelegant faithfulness. then euphemia had a really pretty fancy. she procured one of those big open garden baskets and painted it a pleasant brown, and instead of a garden fork she had a little half horticultural scoop. in this basket she kept her coals, and she tied a pink ribbon on the handle. one might fancy she had been in some dewy garden and had dug a few coals as one might dig up bulbs, and brought them in and put them down. it attracted attention from all her visitors, and set a kind of fashion in the neighbourhood. for a time euphemia was almost contented. but one day a malignant woman called, and looked at this device through her gilt eye-glasses, while she secretly groped in the dark of her mind for an unpleasant thing to say. then suddenly she remarked, "why not put your coal in a bassinette? or keep it _all_ on the floor?" euphemia's face fell. the thing was undeniably very like a cradle, in the light of this suggestion; the coal certainly did seem a little out of place there; and besides, if there were more than three or four lumps they had a way of tumbling over the edge upon the carpet when the fire was replenished. the tender shoot of euphemia's satisfaction suddenly withered and died. so the struggle has gone on. sometimes it has been a wrought iron tripod with a subtle tendency to upset in certain directions; sometimes a coal-box; once even the noisy old coal-box of japanned tin, making more noise than a salvation army service, and strangely decorated with "art" enamels, had a turn. at present euphemia is enduring a walnut "casket," that since its first week of office has displayed an increasing indisposition to shut. but things cannot stay like this. the worry and anxiety and vexation, euphemia declares, are making her old before her time. a delicate woman should not be left alone to struggle against brazen monsters. a closed gas stove is happily impossible, but the husband of the household is threatened with one of those beastly sham fires, wherein gas jets flare among firebrick--a mechanical fire without vitality or variety, that never dances nor crackles nor blazes, a monotonous horror, a fire you cannot poke. that is what it will certainly come to if the problem remains unsolved. bagarrow frankly, i detest this bagarrow. yet it is quite generally conceded that bagarrow is a very well-meaning fellow. but the trouble is to understand him. to do that i have been at some pains, and yet i am still a mere theorist. an anthropometric estimate of the man fails to reveal any reason for the distinction of my aversion. he is of passable height, breadth, and density, and, save for a certain complacency of expression, i find no salient objection in his face. he has bluish eyes and a whitish skin, and average-coloured hair--none of them distinctly indictable possessions. it is something in his interior and unseen mechanism, i think, that must be wrong; some internal lesion that finds expression in his acts. his mental operations, indeed, were at first as inconceivable to me as a crab's or a cockchafer's. that is where all the trouble came in. for that reason alone they fascinated me and aggrieved me. from the conditions of our acquaintance--we were colleagues--i had to study him with some thoroughness, observing him under these circumstances and those. i have, by the bye, sometimes wondered idly how he would react to alcohol--a fluid he avoids. it would, i am sure, be an entirely novel and remarkable kind of drunk, and i am also certain it would be an offensive one. but i can't imagine it; i have no data. i could as soon evolve from my inner consciousness an intoxicated giraffe. but, as i say, this interesting experience has hitherto been denied me. now my theory of bagarrow is this, that he has a kind of disease in his ideals, some interruption of nutrition that has left them small and emasculate. he aims, it appears, at a state called "really nice" or the "true gentleman," the outward and visible signs of which are a conspicuous quietness of costume, gloves in all weathers, and a tightly-rolled umbrella. but coupled in some way with this is a queer smack of the propagandist, a kind of dwarfed prophetic passion. that is the particular oddness of him. he displays a timid yet persistent desire to foist this true gentleman of his upon an unwilling world, to make you really nice after his own pattern. i always suspect him of trying to convert me by stealth when i am not looking. so far as i can see, bagarrow's conception of this true gentleman of his is at best a compromise, mainly holiness, but a tinted kind of holiness--goodness in clean cuffs and with something neat in ties. he renounces the flesh and the devil willingly enough, but he wants to keep up a decent appearance. now a stark saint i can find sympathy for. i respect your prophet unkempt and in a hair shirt denouncing sin--and mundane affairs in general--with hoarse passion and a fiery hate. i would not go for my holidays with nor make a domestic pet of such a man, but i respect him. but bagarrow's pose is different. bagarrow would call that carrying things to extremes. his is an unobtrusive virtue, a compromising dissent, inaggressive aggressions on sin. so i take it. and at times he puts it to you in a drawling argument, a stream of bagarrowisms, until you have to hurt his feelings--happily he is always getting his feelings hurt--just to stop the flow of him. "life," said bagarrow, in a moment of expansiveness, "is scarcely worth living unless you are doing good to someone." that i take to be the keystone of him. "i want to be a good influence upon all the people i meet." i do not think it has ever dawned upon him that he himself is any way short of perfection; and, so far as i can see, the triumph and end of his good influence is cleanliness of cuff, compactness of umbrella, and general assimilation to the bagarrow ideal. hear him upon one's social duties--this living soul in this world of wonders! "in moderation," said bagarrow, opening out to questions on that matter, "social relaxation is desirable, and i will even go so far as to admit that i think it well to have at hand some pleasant expedient for entertaining people and passing the time. a humorous song or a recitation--provided it is in really good taste--is harmless enough, and sometimes it may even be turned to good account. and everyone should try to master some instrument or other. the flute, perhaps, is as convenient as any; for the fiddle and piano, you know, are difficult and expensive to learn, and require constant practice. a little legerdemain is also a great acquisition for a man. some may differ from me in that," continued bagarrow, "but i see no harm in it. there are hundreds of perfectly proper and innocent tricks with coins and bits of paper, and pieces of string, that will make an evening pass most delightfully. one may get quite a little reputation as an entertainer with these things." "and it is," pursued bagarrow, quite glowing with liberality, "just a little pharisaical to object to card tricks. there are quantities of really quite clever and mathematical things that one may do with a chosen card, dealing the pack into heaps and counting slowly. of course it is not for mere pleasuring that i learn these things. it gives anyone with a little tact an opportunity for stopping card-playing. when the pack is brought in, and all the party are intent upon gaming, you may seize your opportunity and take the cards, saying, 'let me show you a little trick,' or, 'have you seen maskelyne's new trick with the cards?' before anyone can object you are displaying your skill to their astonished eyes, and in their wonder at your cleverness the objectionable game may be indefinitely postponed." "yet so set at times is your gambler upon his abominable pursuit," says bagarrow, "that in practice even this ingenious expedient has been known to fail." he tried it once, it seems, in a race train to kempton park, and afterwards he had to buy a new hat. that incident, indeed, gives you the very essence of bagarrow in his insidious attacks on evil. i remember that on another occasion he went out of his way to promise a partially intoxicated man a drink; and taking him into a public-house ordered two lemon squashes! drinks! he liked lemon squash himself and he did not like beer, and he thought he had only to introduce the poor fallen creature to the delights of temperance to ensure his conversion there and then. i think he expected the man to fall upon him, crying "my benefactor!" but he did not say "my benefactor," at anyrate, though he fell upon him, cheerfully enough. to avoid the appearance of priggishness, which he dreads with some reason, he even went so far as to procure a herb tobacco, which he smokes with the help of frequent sulphur matches. this he recommends to us strongly. "won't you try it?" he says, with a winning smile. "just once." and he is the only man i ever met who drinks that facetious fluid, non-alcoholic beer. once he proposed to wean me upon that from my distinctive vice, which led indeed to our first rupture. "_i_ find it delicious," he said in pathetic surprise. it is one of his most inveterate habits to tell you quietly what he does, or would do under the circumstances. seeing you at kipling, he will propound the proposition that "all true literature has a distinct aim." his test of literary merit is "what good does it do you?" he is a great lender of books, especially of carlyle and ruskin, which authors for some absolutely inscrutable reason he considers provocative of bagarrowism, and he goes to the county council lectures on dairy-work, because it encourages others to improve themselves. but i have said enough to display him, and of bagarrow at least--as i can well testify--it is easy to have more than enough. indeed, after whole days with him i have gone home to dream of the realisation of his ideals, a sort of bagarrow millennium, a world of bagarrows. all kinds of men--falstaffs, don quixotes, alan stewarts, john the baptists, john knoxes, quilps, and benvenuto cellinis--all, so to speak, bagarrowed, all with clean cuffs, tight umbrellas, and temperate ways, passing to and fro in a regenerate earth. and so he goes on his way through this wonderful universe with his eyes fixed upon two or three secondary things, without the lust or pride of life, without curiosity or adventure, a mere timid missionary of a religion of "nicer ways," a quiet setter of a good example. i can assure you this is no exaggeration, but a portrait. it seems to me that the thing must be pathological, that he and this goodness of his have exactly the same claim upon lombroso, let us say, as the born criminal. he is born good, a congenital good example, a sufferer from atrophy of his original sin. the only hope i can see for bagarrow, short of murder, is forcible trepanning. he ought to have the seat of his ideals lanced, and all this wash about doing good to people by stealth taken away. it may be he might prove a very decent fellow then--if there was anything left of him, that is. the book of essays dedicatory i have been bothered about this book this three months. i have written scarcely anything since llewellyn asked me for it, for when he asked me i had really nothing on hand. i had just published every line i had ever written, at my own expense, with prigsbys. yet three months should suffice for one of llewellyn's books, which consist chiefly of decorous fly-leaves and a dedication or so, and margins. of course you know llewellyn's books--the most delightful things in the market: the sweetest covers, with little gilt apples and things carelessly distributed over luminous grey, and bright red initials, and all these delightful fopperies. but it was the very slightness of these bibelots that disorganised me. and perhaps, also, the fact that no one has ever asked me for a book before. i had no trouble with the title though--"lichens." i have wondered the thing was never used before. lichens, variegated, beautiful, though on the most arid foundations, half fungoid, half vernal--the very name for a booklet of modern verse. and that, of course, decided the key of the cover and disposed of three or four pages. a fly-leaf, a leaf with "lichens" printed fair and beautiful a little to the left of the centre, then a title-page--"lichens. by h.g. wells. london: mdcccxcv. stephen llewellyn." then a restful blank page, and then--the dedication. it was the dedication stopped me. the title-page, it is true, had some points of difficulty. should the christian name be printed in full or not, for instance; but it had none of the fatal fascination of the dedicatory page. i had, so to speak, to look abroad among the ranks of men, and make one of those fretful forgotten millions--immortal. it seemed a congenial task. i went to work forthwith. it was only this morning that i realised the magnitude of my accumulations. ever since then--it was three months ago--i have been elaborating this dedication. i turned the pile over, idly at first. presently i became interested in tracing my varying moods, as they had found a record in the heap. this struck me-- [illustration: a handwritten dedication, "to my dearest friend" followed by three successive names, two crossed out, then the whole dedication struck out] then again, a little essay in gratitude came to hand-- to professor augustus flood, whose admirable lectures on palæontology first turned my attention to literature. there was a tinge of pleasantry in the latter that pleased me very greatly when i wrote it, and i find immediately overlying it another essay in the same line-- to the latter-day reviewer, these pearls. for some days i was smitten with the idea of dedicating my little booklet to one of my numerous personal antagonists, and conveying some subtly devised insult with an air of magnanimity. i thought, for instance, of blizzard-- sir joseph blizzard, the most distinguished, if not the greatest, of contemporary anatomists. i think it was "x.l.'s" book, _aut diabolus aut nihil_, that set me upon another line. there is, after all, your reader to consider in these matters, your average middle-class person to impress in some way. they say the creature is a snob, and absolutely devoid of any tinge of humour, and i must confess that i more than half believe it. at anyrate, it was that persuasion inspired-- to the countess of x., in memory of many happy days. i know no countess of x., as a matter of fact, but if the public is such an ass as to think better of my work for the suspicion, i do not care how soon i incur it. and this again is a pretty utilisation of the waste desert of politics-- my dear salisbury,--pray accept this unworthy tribute of my affectionate esteem. there were heaps of others. and looking at those heaps it suddenly came sharp and vivid before my mind that there--there was the book i needed, already written! a blank page, a dedication, a blank page, a dedication, and so on. i saw no reason to change the title. it only remained to select the things, and the book was done. i set to work at once, and in a very little while my bibelot was selected. there were dedications fulsome and fluid, dedications acrid and uncharitable, dedications in verse and dedications in the dead languages: all sorts and conditions of dedications, even the simple "to j.h. gabbles"--so suggestive of the modest white stones of the village churchyard. altogether i picked out one hundred and three dedications. at last only one thing remained to complete the book. and that was--the dedication. you will scarcely credit it, but that worries me still.... i am almost inclined to think that dedications are going out of fashion. through a microscope some moral reflections this dabbler person has recently disposed of his camera and obtained a microscope--a short, complacent-looking implement it is, of brass--and he goes about everywhere now with little glass bottles in his pocket, ready to jump upon any stray polly-woggle he may find, and hale it home and pry into its affairs. within his study window are perhaps half a dozen jars and basins full of green scum and choice specimens of black mud in which his victims live. he persists in making me look through this instrument, though i would rather i did not. it seems to me a kind of impropriety even when i do it. he gets innumerable things in a drop of green water, and puts it on a glass slip under the object glass, and, of course, they know nothing of the change in their condition, and go on living just as they did before they were observed. it makes me feel at times like a public moralist, or peeping tom of coventry, or some such creature. certainly there are odd things enough in the water. among others, certain queer green things that are neither plants nor animals. most of the time they are plants, quiet green threads matted together, but every now and then the inside comes out of one, so to speak, and starts off with a fine red eye and a long flickering tail, to see the world. the dabbler says it's quite a usual thing among the lower plants--_algæ_ he calls them, for some reason--to disgorge themselves in this way and go swimming about; but it has quite upset my notions of things. if the lower plants, why not the higher? it may be my abominable imagination, but since he told me about these--swarm spores i think he called them--i don't feel nearly so safe with my geraniums as i did. a particularly objectionable thing in these water drops, the dabbler insists upon my spying at is the furious activity of everything you see in them. you look down his wretched tube, and there, bright and yellow with the lamplight in the round field of the microscope, is a perfect riot of living things. perhaps it's the water he got from hampstead, and a dozen flat things the shape of shortbreads will be fussing about. they are all quite transparent and colourless, and move about like galleys by means of a lot of minute oars that stick out all over them. never a moment's rest. and, presently, one sees that even the green plant threads are wriggling across the field. the dabbler tries to moralise on this in the vein of charles kingsley, and infer we have much to learn from these ridiculous creatures; but, so far as i can see, it's a direct incentive to sloth to think how low in the scale of creation these things are, in spite of all their fussing. if they had sat about more and thought, they might be fishing the dabbler out of ponds and examining him instead of his examining them. your energetic people might do worse things than have a meditative half-hour at the microscope. then there are green things with a red spot and a tail, that creep about like slugs, and are equally transparent. _euglena viridis_ the dabbler calls them, which seems unnecessary information. in fact all the things he shows me are transparent. even the little one-eyed crustacea, the size of a needle-point, that discredit the name of cyclops. you can see their digestion and muscle and nerve, and, in fact, everything. it's at least a blessing we are not the same. fancy the audible comments of the temperance advocate when you get in the bus! no use pulling yourself together then. "pretty full!" and "look," people would say, "his wife gives him cold mutton." speaking of the name of cyclops reminds me that these scientific people have been playing a scurvy trick upon the classics behind our backs. it reminds one of epistemon's visit to hades, when he saw alexander a patcher of clouts and xerxes a crier of mustard. aphrodite, the dabbler tells me, is a kind of dirty mud-worm, and much dissected by spectacled pretenders to the london b.sc.; every candidate, says the syllabus, must be able to dissect, to the examiner's satisfaction, and demonstrate upon aphrodite, nereis, palæmon. were the gods ever so insulted? then the snaky medusa and pandora, our mother, are jelly-fish; astræa is still to be found on coral reefs, a poor thing, and much browsed upon by parrot fish; and doris and tethys and cydippe are sea slugs. it's worse than heine's vision of the gods grown old. they can't be content with the departed gods merely. evadne is a water flea--they'll make something out of mrs. sarah grand next; and autolycus, my autolycus! is a polymorphic worm, whatever subtlety of insult "polymorphic worm" may convey. however, i wander from the microscope. these shortbread things are fussing about hither and thither across the field, and now and then an amoeba comes crawling into view. these are invertebrate jelly-like things of no particular shape, and they keep on thrusting out a part here, and withdrawing a part there, and changing and advancing just as though they were popular democratic premiers. then diatoms keep gliding athwart the circle. these diatoms are, to me at least, the most perplexing things in the universe. imagine a highly ornamental thing in white and brown, the shape of a spectacle case, without any limbs or other visible means of progression, and without any wriggling of the body, or indeed any apparent effort at all, gliding along at a smart pace. that's your diatom. the dabbler really knows nothing of how they do it. he mumbles something about bütschli and grenfell. imagine the thing on a larger scale, cleopatra's needle, for instance, travelling on its side up the thames embankment, and all unchaperoned, at the rate of four or five miles an hour. there's another odd thing about these microscope things which redeems, to some extent at least, their singular frankness. to use the decorous phrase of the text-book, "they multiply by fission." your amoeba or vorticella, as the case may be, splits in two. then there are two amoebæ or vorticellæ. in this way the necessity of the family, that middle-class institution so abhorrent to the artistic mind, is avoided. in my friend's drop of ditch-water, as in heaven, there is neither marrying nor giving in marriage. there are no waste parents, which should appeal to the scholastic mind, and the simple protozoon has none of that fitful fever of falling in love, that distressingly tender state that so bothers your mortal man. they go about their business with an enviable singleness of purpose, and when they have eaten and drunk, and attained to the fulness of life, they divide and begin again with renewed zest the pastime of living. in a sense they are immortal. for we may look at this matter in another light, and say our exuberant protozoon has shed a daughter, and remains. in that case the amoeba i look at may have crawled among the slime of the silurian seas when the common ancestor of myself and the royal family was an unassuming mud-fish like those in the reptile house in the zoo. his memoirs would be interesting. the thought gives a solemn tint to one's meditations. if the dabbler wash him off this slide into his tube of water again, this trivial creature may go on feeding and growing and dividing, and presently be thrown away to wider waters, and so escape to live ... after i am dead, after my masterpieces are forgotten, after our empire has passed away, after the human animal has passed through i know not what vicissitudes. it may be he will still, with the utmost nonchalance, be pushing out his pseudopodia, and ingesting diatoms when the fretful transitory life of humanity has passed altogether from the earth. one may catch him in specimen tubes by the dozen; but still, when one thinks of this, it is impossible to deny him a certain envious, if qualified, respect. and all the time these creatures are living their vigorous, fussy little lives; in this drop of water they are being watched by a creature of whose presence they do not dream, who can wipe them all out of existence with a stroke of his thumb, and who is withal as finite, and sometimes as fussy and unreasonably energetic, as themselves. he sees them, and they do not see him, because he has senses they do not possess, because he is too incredibly vast and strange to come, save as an overwhelming catastrophe, into their lives. even so, it may be, the dabbler himself is being curiously observed.... the dabbler is good enough to say that the suggestion is inconceivable. i can imagine a decent amoeba saying the same thing. the pleasure of quarrelling your cultivated man is apt to pity the respectable poor, on the score of their lack of small excitements, and even in the excess of his generous sympathy to go a toynbee-halling in their cause. and sir walter besant once wrote a book about hoxton, saying, among other things, how monotonous life was there. that is your modern fallacy respecting the lower middle class. one might multiply instances. the tenor of the pity is always the same. "no music," says the cultivated man, "no pictures, no books to read nor leisure to read in. how can they pass their lives?" the answer is simple enough, as emily brontë knew. they quarrel. and an excellent way of passing the time it is; so excellent, indeed, that the pity were better inverted. but we all lack the knowledge of our chiefest needs. in the first place, and mainly, it is hygienic to quarrel, it disengages floods of nervous energy, the pulse quickens, the breathing is accelerated, the digestion improved. then it sets one's stagnant brains astir and quickens the imagination; it clears the mind of vapours, as thunder clears the air. and, finally, it is a natural function of the body. in his natural state man is always quarrelling--by instinct. not to quarrel is indeed one of the vices of our civilisation, one of the reasons why we are neurotic and anæmic, and all these things. and, at last, our enfeebled palates have even lost the capacity for enjoying a "jolly good row." there can be no more melancholy sight in the world than that of your young man or young woman suffering from suppressed pugnacity. up to the end of the school years it was well with them; they had ample scope for this wholesome commerce, the neat give and take of offence. in the family circle, too, there are still plentiful chances of acquiring the taste. then, suddenly, they must be gentle and considerate, and all the rest of it. a wholesome shindy, so soon as toga and long skirts arrive, is looked upon as positively wrong; even the dear old institution of the "cut" is falling into disrepute. the quarrelling is all forced back into the system, as it were; it poisons the blood. this is why our literature grows sinister and bitter, and our daughters yearn after this and that, write odd books, and ride about on bicycles in remarkable clothes. they have shut down the safety valve, they suffer from the present lamentable increase of gentleness. they must find some outlet, or perish. if they could only put their arms akimbo and tell each other a piece of their minds for a little, in the ancient way, there can be not the slightest doubt that much of this _fin-de-siècle_ unwholesomeness would disappear. possibly this fashion of gentleness will pass. yet it has had increasing sway now for some years. an unhealthy generation has arisen--among the more educated class at least--that quarrels little, regards the function as a vice or a nuisance, as the east-ender does a taste for fine art or literature. we seem indeed to be getting altogether out of the way of it. rare quarrels, no doubt, occur to everyone, but rare quarrelling is no quarrelling at all. like beer, smoking, sea-bathing, cycling, and the like delights, you cannot judge of quarrelling by the early essay. but to show how good it is--did you ever know a quarrelsome person give up the use? alcohol you may wean a man from, and barrie says he gave up the arcadia mixture, and de quincey conquered opium. but once you are set as a quarreller you quarrel and quarrel till you die. how to quarrel well and often has ever been something of an art, and it becomes more of an art with the general decline of spirit. for it takes two to make a quarrel. time was when you turned to the handiest human being, and with small care or labour had the comfortable warmth you needed in a minute or so. there was theology, even in the fifties it was ample cause with two out of three you met. now people will express a lamentable indifference. then politics again, but a little while ago fat for the fire of any male gathering, is now a topic of mere tepidity. so you are forced to be more subtle, more patient in your quarrelling. you play like a little boy playing cricket with his sisters, with those who do not understand. a fellow-votary is a rare treat. as a rule you have to lure and humour your antagonist like a child. the wooing is as intricate and delicate as any wooing can well be. to quarrel now, indeed, requires an infinity of patience. the good old days of thumb-biting--"do you bite your thumbs at us, sir?" and so to clash and stab--are gone for ever. there are certain principles in quarrelling, however, that the true quarreller ever bears in mind, and which, duly observed, do much to facilitate encounters. in the first place, cultivate distrust. have always before you that this is a wicked world, full of insidious people, and you never know what villainous encroachments upon you may be hidden under fair-seeming appearances. that is the flavour of it. at the first suspicion, "stick up for your rights," as the vulgar say. and see that you do it suddenly. smite promptly, and the surprise and sting of your injustice should provoke an excellent reply. and where there is least ground for suspicion, there, remember, is the most. the right hand of fellowship extended towards you is one of the best openings you have. "not such a fool," is the kind of attitude to assume, and "you don't put upon _me_ so easy." your adversary resents this a little, and, rankling, tries to explain. you find a personal inference in the expostulation. next to a wariness respecting your interests is a keen regard for your honour. have concealed in the privacy of your mind a code of what is due to you. expand or modify it as occasion offers. be as it were a collector of what are called "slights," and never let one pass you. watch your friend in doorways, passages; when he eats by you, when he drinks with you, when he addresses you, when he writes you letters. it will be hard if you cannot catch him smuggling some deadly insult into your presence. tax him with it. he did not think, forsooth! tell him no gentleman would do such a thing, thinkingly or not; that you certainly will not stand it again. say you will show him. he will presently argue or contradict. so to your climax. then, again, there is the personal reference. "meaning me, sir?" your victim with a blithe heart babbles of this or that. you let him meander here and there, watching him as if you were in ambush. presently he comes into your spring. "of course," you say, "i saw what you were driving at just this minute, when you mentioned mustard in salad dressing, but if i am peppery i am not mean. and if i have a thing to say i say it straight out." a good gambit this, and well into him from the start. the particular beauty of this is that you get him apologetic at first, and can score heavily before he rises to the defensive. then, finally, there is your abstract cause, once very fruitful indeed, but now sadly gone in decay, except perhaps in specialist society. as an example, let there be one who is gibing genially at some topic or other, at japanese king-crabs, or the inductive process, or any other topic which cannot possibly affect you one atom. then is the time to drop all these merely selfish interests, and to champion the cause of truth. fall upon him in a fine glow of indignation, and bring your contradiction across his face--whack!--so that all the table may hear. tell him, with his pardon, that the king-crab is no more a crab than you are a jelly-fish, or that mill has been superseded these ten years. ask: "how can you say such things?" from thence to his general knowledge is a short flight, and so to his veracity, his reasoning powers, his mere common sense. "let me tell you, sir," is the special incantation for the storm. these are the four chief ways of quarrelling, the four gates to this delightful city. for it is delightful, once your 'prentice days are past. in a way it is like a cold bath on a winter's morning, and you glow all day. in a way it is like football, as the nimble aggravation dances to and fro. in a way it is like chess. indeed, all games of skill are watered quarrels, quarrel and soda, come to see them in a proper light. and without quarrelling you have not fully appreciated your fellow-man. for in the ultimate it is the train and complement of love, the shadow that rounds off the delight we take in poor humanity. it is the vinegar and pepper of existence, and long after our taste for sweets has vanished it will be the solace of our declining years. the amateur nature-lover it is possible that an education entirely urban is not the best conceivable preparation for descriptive articles upon the country. on the other hand, your professional nature-lover is sometimes a little over-familiar with his subject. he knows the names of all the things, and he does not spare you. besides, he is subtle. the prominent features are too familiar to him, and he goes into details. what respectable townsman, for instance, knows what "scabiosa" is? it sounds very unpleasant. then the professional nature-lover assumes that you know trees. no englishman can tell any tree from any other tree, except a very palpable oak or poplar. so that we may at least, as an experiment, allow a good londoner to take his unsophisticated eyes out into the sweet country for once, and try his skill at nature-loving, though his botany has been learned over the counter of flower-shops, and his zoology on saturday afternoons when they have the band in the gardens. he makes his way, then, over by epsom downs towards sutton, trying to assimilate his mood to the proper flavour of appreciation as he goes, and with a little notebook in the palm of his hand to assist an ill-trained memory. and the burthen of his song is of course the autumn tints. the masses of trees towards epsom and ewell, with the red houses and elizabethan façades peeping through their interstices, contain, it would seem, every conceivable colour, except perhaps sky-blue; there are brilliant yellow trees, and a kind of tree of the most amazing gamboge green, almost the green of spring come back, and tan-coloured trees, deep brown, red, and deep crimson trees. here and there the wind has left its mark, and the grey-brown branches and their purple tracery of twigs, with a suggestion of infinite depth behind, show through the rents in the leafy covering. there are deep green trees--the amateur nature-lover fancies they may be yews--with their dense warm foliage arranged in horizontal masses, like the clouds low down in a sunset; and certain other evergreens, one particularly, with a bluish-green covering of upstanding needles, are intensely conspicuous among the flame tints around. on a distant church tower, and nearer, disputing the possession of a gabled red house with a glowing creeper, is some ivy; and never is the perennial green of ivy so delightful as it is now, when all else is alight with the sombre fire of the sunset of the year.... the amateur nature-lover proceeds over the down, appreciating all this as hard as he can appreciate, and anon gazing up at the grey and white cloud shapes melting slowly from this form to that, and showing lakes, and wide expanses, and serene distances of blue between their gaps. and then he looks round him for a zoological item. underfoot the grass of the down is recovering from the summer drought and growing soft and green again, and plentiful little flattened snail shells lie about, and here and there a late harebell still nods in the breeze. yonder bolts a rabbit, and then something whizzes by the amateur nature-lover's ear. they shoot here somewhere, he remembers suddenly; and then looking round, in a palpitating state, is reassured by the spectacle of a lone golfer looming over the brow of the down, and gesticulating black and weird against the sky. the londoner, with an abrupt affectation of nonchalance, flings himself flat upon his back, and so remains comparatively safe until the golfer has passed. these golfers are strange creatures, rabbit-coloured, except that many are bright red about the middle, and they repel and yet are ever attracted by a devil in the shape of a little white ball, which leads them on through toothed briars, sharp furzes, pricking goss, and thorns; cursing the thing, weeping even, and anon laughing at their own foolish rambling; muttering, heeding no one to the right or left of their career,--demented creatures, as though these balls were their souls, that they ever sought to lose, and ever repented losing. and silent, ever at the heel of each, is a familiar spirit, an eerie human hedgehog, all set about with walking-sticks, a thing like a cylindrical umbrella-stand with a hat and boots and a certain suggestion of leg. and so they pass and are gone. rising, the amateur nature-lover finds he has been reclining on a puff-ball. these puff-balls are certainly the most remarkable example of adaptation to circumstances known to english botanists. they grow abundantly on golf grounds, and are exactly like golf-balls in external appearance. they are, however, pharisees and whited sepulchres, and within they are full of a soft mess of a most unpleasant appearance--the amateur nature-lover has some on him now--which stuff contains the spores. it is a case of what naturalists call "mimicry"--one of nature's countless adaptations. the golf-player smites these things with force, covering himself with ridicule--and spores, and so disseminating this far-sighted and ingenious fungus far and wide about the links. the amateur nature-lover passes off the down, and towards banstead village. he is on the watch for characteristic objects of the countryside, and rustling through the leaves beneath a chestnut avenue he comes upon an old boot. it is a very, very old boot, all its blacking washed off by the rain, and two spreading chestnut leaves, yellow they are with blotches of green, with their broad fingers extended, rest upon it, as if they would protect and altogether cover the poor old boot in its last resting-place. it is as if mother nature, who lost sight of her product at the tanner's yard, meant to claim her own trampled child again at last, after all its wanderings. so we go on, noting a sardine tin gleaming brightly in the amber sunlight, through a hazel hedge, and presently another old boot. some hawthorn berries, some hoary clematis we notice--and then another old boot. altogether, it may be remarked, in this walk the amateur nature-lover saw eleven old boots, most of them dropped in the very sweetest bits of hedge tangle and grassy corner about banstead. it is natural to ask, "whence come all these old boots?" they are, as everyone knows, among the commonest objects in a country walk, so common, indeed, that the professional nature-lover says very little about them. they cannot grow there, they cannot be dropped from above--they are distinctly earth-worn boots. i have inquired of my own domestic people, and caused inquiry to be made in a large number of households, and there does not appear to be any regular custom of taking boots away to remote and picturesque spots to abandon them. some discarded boots of my own were produced, but they were quite different from the old boot of the outer air. these home-kept old boots were lovely in their way, hoary with mould running into the most exquisite tints of glaucophane and blue-grey, but it was a different way altogether from that of the wild boot. a friend says, that these boots are cast away by tramps. people, he states, give your tramp old boots and hats in great profusion, and the modesty of the recipient drives him to these picturesque and secluded spots to effect the necessary change. but no nature-lover has ever observed the tramp or tramp family in the act of changing their clothes, and since there are even reasons to suppose that their garments are not detachable, it seems preferable to leave the wayside boot as a pleasant flavouring of mystery to our ramble. another point, which also goes to explode this tramp theory, is that these countryside boots _never occur in pairs_, as any observer of natural history can testify.... so our cockney jefferies proceeds, presently coming upon a cinder path. they use cinders a lot about sutton, to make country paths with; it gives you an unexpected surprise the first time it occurs. you drop suddenly out of a sweetly tangled lane into a veritable bit of the black country, and go on with loathing in your soul for your fellow-creatures. there is also an abundance of that last product of civilisation, barbed wire. oh that i were gideon! with thorns and briers of the wilderness would i teach these elders of sutton! but a truce to dark thoughts! we take our last look at the country from the open down above sutton. blue hills beyond blue hills recede into the remote distance; from banstead down one can see into oxfordshire. windsor castle is in minute blue silhouette to the left, and to the right and nearer is the crystal palace. and closer, clusters red-roofed sutton and its tower, then cheam, with its white spire, and further is ewell, set in a variegated texture of autumn foliage. water gleams--a silver thread--at ewell, and the sinking sun behind us catches a window here and there, and turns it into an eye of flame. and so to sutton station and home to cockneydom once more. from an observatory it will be some time yet before the rising of the moon. looking down from the observatory one can see the pathways across the park dotted out in yellow lamps, each with a fringe of dim green; and further off, hot and bright, is the tracery of the illuminated streets, through which the people go to and fro. save for an occasional stirring, or a passing voice speaking out of the dimness beneath me, the night is very still. not a cloud is to be seen in the dark midwinter sky to hide one speck of its broad smears of star dust and its shining constellations. as the moon rises, heaven will be flooded with blue light, and one after another the stars will be submerged and lost, until only a solitary shining pinnacle of brightness will here and there remain out of the whole host of them. it is curious to think that, were the moon but a little brighter and truly the ruler of the night, rising to its empire with the setting of the sun, we should never dream of the great stellar universe in which our little solar system swims--or know it only as a traveller's tale, a strange thing to be seen at times in the arctic circle. nay, if the earth's atmosphere were some few score miles higher, a night-long twilight would be drawn like an impenetrable veil across the stars. by a mere accident of our existence we see their multitude ever and again, when the curtains of the daylight and moonlight, and of our own narrow pressing necessities, are for a little while drawn back. then, for an interval, we look, as if out of a window, into the great deep of heaven. so far as physical science goes, there is nothing in the essential conditions of our existence to necessitate that we should have these transitory glimpses of infinite space. we can imagine men just like ourselves without such an outlook. but it happens that we have it. if we had not this vision, if we had always so much light in the sky that we could not perceive the stars, our lives, so far as we can infer, would be very much as they are now; there would still be the same needs and desires, the same appliances for our safety and satisfaction; this little gaslit world below would scarcely miss the stars now, if they were blotted out for ever. but our science would be different in some respects had we never seen them. we should still have good reason, in foucault's pendulum experiment, for supposing that the world rotated upon its axis, and that the sun was so far relatively fixed; but we should have no suspicion of the orbital revolution of the world. instead we should ascribe the seasonal differences to a meridional movement of the sun. our spectroscopic astronomy--so far as it refers to the composition of the sun and moon--would stand precisely where it does, but the bulk of our mathematical astronomy would not exist. our calendar would still be in all essential respects as it is now; our year with the solstices and equinoxes as its cardinal points. the texture of our poetry might conceivably be the poorer without its star spangles; our philosophy, for the want of a nebular hypothesis. these would be the main differences. yet, to those who indulge in speculative dreaming, how much smaller life would be with a sun and a moon and a blue beyond for the only visible, the only thinkable universe. and it is, we repeat, from the scientific standpoint a mere accident that the present--the daylight--world periodically opens, as it were, and gives us this inspiring glimpse of the remoteness of space. one may imagine countless meteors and comets streaming through the solar system, unobserved by those who dwelt under such conditions as have just been suggested, or some huge dark body from the outer depths sweeping straight at that little visible universe, and all unsuspected by the inhabitants. one may imagine the scientific people of such a world, calm in their assurance of the permanence of things, incapable almost of conceiving any disturbing cause. one may imagine how an imaginative writer who doubted that permanence would be pooh-poohed. "cannot we see to the uttermost limits of space?" they might argue, "and is it not altogether blue and void?" then, as the unseen visitor draws near, begin the most extraordinary perturbations. the two known heavenly bodies suddenly fail from their accustomed routine. the moon, hitherto invariably full, changes towards its last quarter--and then, behold! for the first time the rays of the greater stars visibly pierce the blue canopy of the sky. how suddenly--painfully almost--the minds of thinking men would be enlarged when this rash of the stars appeared. and what then if _our_ heavens were to open? very thin indeed is the curtain between us and the unknown. there is a fear of the night that is begotten of ignorance and superstition, a nightmare fear, the fear of the impossible; and there is another fear of the night--of the starlit night--that comes with knowledge, when we see in its true proportion this little life of ours with all its phantasmal environment of cities and stores and arsenals, and the habits, prejudices, and promises of men. down there in the gaslit street such things are real and solid enough, the only real things, perhaps; but not up here, not under the midnight sky. here for a space, standing silently upon the dim, grey tower of the old observatory, we may clear our minds of instincts and illusions, and look out upon the real. and now to the eastward the stars are no longer innumerable, and the sky grows wan. then a faint silvery mist appears above the housetops, and at last in the midst of this there comes a brilliantly shining line--the upper edge of the rising moon. the mode in monuments stray thoughts in highgate cemetery on a sharp, sunlight morning, when the white clouds are drifting swiftly across the luminous blue sky, there is no finer walk about london than the highgate ridge. one may stay awhile on the archway looking down upon the innumerable roofs of london stretching southward into the haze, and shining here and there with the reflection of the rising sun, and then wander on along the picturesque road by the college of saint aloysius to the new catholic church, and so through the waterlow park to the cemetery. the waterlow park is a pleasant place, full of children and aged persons in perambulators during the middle hours of the day, and in the summer evening time a haunt of young lovers; but your early wanderer finds it solitary save for vertumnus, who, with l.c.c. on the front of him, is putting in crocuses. so we wander down to the little red lodge, whence a sinuous road runs to hampstead, and presently into the close groves of monuments that whiten the opposite slope. how tightly these white sepulchres are packed here! how different this congestion of sorrow from the mossy latitude of god's acre in the country! the dead are crammed together as closely as the living seemed in that bird's-eye view from the archway. there is no ample shadow of trees, no tangled corners where mother earth may weave flower garlands over her returning children. the monuments positively jostle and elbow each other for frontage upon the footways. and they are so rawly clean and assertive. most of them are conspicuously new whitened, with freshly-blackened or newly-gilt inscriptions, bare of lichen, moss, or mystery, and altogether so restless that it seems to the meditative man that the struggle for existence, for mere standing room and a show in the world, still rages among the dead. the unstable slope of the hill, with its bristling array of obelisks, crosses and urns, craning one above another, is as directly opposed to the restfulness of the village churchyard with its serene outspreading yews as midday fleet street to a sabbath evening amidst the sussex hills. this cemetery is, indeed, a veritable tumult of tombs. another thing that presently comes painfully home to one is the lack of individuality among all these dead. not a necessary lack of individuality so much as a deliberate avoidance of it. as one wanders along the steep, narrow pathways one is more and more profoundly impressed by the wholesale flavour of the mourning, the stereotyping of the monuments. the place is too modern for _memento mori_ and the hour-glass and the skull. instead, slap & dash, that excellent firm of monumental masons, everywhere crave to be remembered. truly, the firm of slap & dash have much to answer for among these graves, and they do not seem to be ashamed of it. from one elevated point in this cemetery one can count more than a hundred urns, getting at last weary and confused with the receding multitude. the urn is not dissimilar to the domestic mantel ornament, and always a stony piece of textile fabric is feigned to be thrown over its shoulder. at times it is wreathed in stony flowers. the only variety is in the form. sometimes your urn is broad and squat, a silenus among urns; sometimes fragile and high-shouldered, like a slender old maid; here an "out-size" in urns stalwart and strong, and there a dwarf peeping quaintly from its wrapping. the obelisks, too, run through a long scale of size and refinement. but the curious man finds no hidden connection between the carriage of the monument and the character of the dead. messrs. slap & dash apparently take the urn or obelisk that comes readiest to hand. one wonders dimly why mourners have this overwhelming proclivity for messrs. slap & dash and their obelisk and urn. the reason why the firm produces these articles may be guessed at. they are probably easy to make, and require scarcely any skill. the contemplative man has a dim vision of a grimy shed in a back street, where a human being passes dismally through life the while he chips out an unending succession of these cheap urns and obelisks for his employers' retailing. but the question why numberless people will profane the memory of their departed by these public advertisements of slap & dash, and their evil trade, is a more difficult problem. for surely nothing could be more unmeaning or more ungainly than the monumental urn, unless it be the monumental obelisk. the plain cross, by contrast, has the tenderest meaning, and is a simple and fitting monument that no repetition can stale. the artistic cowardice of the english is perhaps the clue to the mystery. your englishman is always afraid to commit himself to criticism without the refuge of a _tu quoque_. he is covered dead, just as he is covered living, with the "correct thing." a respectable stock-in-trade is proffered him by the insinuating shopman, to whom it is our custom to go. he is told this is selling well, or that is much admired. heaven defend that he should admire on his own account! he orders the stock urn or the stock slab because it is large and sufficiently expensive for his means and sorrow, and because he knows of nothing better. so we mourn as the stonemason decrees, or after the example and pattern of the smiths next door. but some day it will dawn upon us that a little thought and a search after beauty are far more becoming than an order and a cheque to the nearest advertising tradesman. or it may be we shall conclude that the anonymous peace of a grassy mould is better than his commercial brutalities, and so there will be an end of him. one may go from end to end of this cemetery and find scarcely anything beautiful, appropriate, or tender. a lion, ill done, and yet to some degree impressive, lies complacently above a menagerie keeper, and near this is a tomb of some imagination, with reliefs of the life of christ. in one place a grotesque horse, with a head disproportionately vast, is to be seen. perhaps among all these monuments the one to mrs. blake is the most pleasing. it is a simply and quaintly executed kneeling figure, with a certain quiet and pathetic reverence of pose that is strangely restful against the serried vulgarity around it. but the tradesman ghoul will not leave us; he follows us up and down, indecently clamouring his name and address, and at last turns our meditation to despair. certain stock devices become as painful as popular autotypes. there is the lily broken on its stalk; we meet it here on a cross and there on an obelisk, presently on the pedestal of an urn. there is the hand pointing upward, here balanced on the top of an obelisk and there upon a cross. the white-robed angel, free from the remotest shadow of expression, meets us again and again. "all this is mine," says the tradesman ghoul. "behold the names of me--slap & dash here, the ugliness company there, and this the work of the cheap and elegant funeral association. this is where we slew the art of sculpture. these are our trophies that sculpture is no more. all this marble might have been beautiful, all this sorrow might have been expressive, had it not been for us. see, this is our border, no. a , and our pedestal no. e, and our second quality urn, along of a nice appropriate text--a pretty combination and a cheap one. or we can do it you better in border a , and pedestal c, and a larger urn or a hangel----" the meditative man is seized with a dismal horror, and retreats to the gates. even there a wooden advertisement grins broadly at him in his discomfiture, and shouts a name athwart his route. and so down the winding road to the valley, and then up parliament hill towards hampstead and its breeze-whipped ponds. and the mind of him is full of a dim vision of days that have been, when sculptor and stonemason were one, when the artist put his work in the porch for all the world to see, when people had leisure to think how things should be done and heart to do them well, when there was beauty in the business of life and dignity in death. and he wonders rather hopelessly if people will ever rise up against these damnable tradesmen who ruin our arts, make our lives costly and dismal, and advertise, advertise even on our graves. how i died it is now ten years ago since i received my death warrant. all these ten years i have been, and i am, and shall be, i hope, for years yet, a doomed man. it only occurred to me yesterday that i had been dodging--missing rather than dodging--the common enemy for such a space of time. _then_, i know, i respected him. it seemed he marched upon me, inexorable, irresistible; even at last i felt his grip upon me. i bowed in the shadow. and he passed. ten years ago, and once since, he and i have been very near. but now he seems to me but a blind man, and we, with all our solemn folly of medicine and hygiene, but players in a game of blind man's buff. the gaunt, familiar hand comes out suddenly, swiftly, this time surely? and it passes close to my shoulder; i hear someone near me cry, and it is over.... another ream of paper; there is time at least for the great book still. very close to the tragedy of life is the comedy, brightest upon the very edge of the dark, and i remember now with a queer touch of sympathetic amusement my dear departed self of the middle eighties. how the thing staggered me! i was full of the vast ambition of youth; i was still at the age when death is quite out of sight, when life is still an interminable vista of years; and then suddenly, with a gout of blood upon my knuckle, with a queer familiar taste in my mouth, that cough which had been a bother became a tragedy, and this world that had been so solid grew faint and thin. i saw through it; saw his face near to my own; suddenly found him beside me, when i had been dreaming he was far beyond there, far away over the hills. my first phase was an immense sorrow for myself. it was a purely selfish emotion. you see i had been saving myself up, denying myself half the pride of life and most of its indulgence, drilling myself like a drill-sergeant, with my eyes on those now unattainable hills. had i known it was to end so soon, i should have planned everything so differently. i lay in bed mourning my truncated existence. then presently the sorrow broadened. they were so sorry, so genuinely sorry for me. and they considered me so much now. i had this and that they would never have given me before--the stateliest bedding, the costliest food. i could feel from my bed the suddenly disorganised house, the distressed friends, the new-born solicitude. insensibly a realisation of enhanced importance came to temper my regrets for my neglected sins. the lost world, that had seemed so brilliant and attractive, dwindled steadily as the days of my illness wore on. i thought more of the world's loss, and less of my own. then came the long journey; the princely style of it! the sudden awakening on the part of external humanity, which had hitherto been wont to jostle me, to help itself before me, to turn its back upon me, to my importance. "he has a diseased lung--cannot live long".... i was going into the dark and i was not afraid--with ostentation. i still regard that, though now with scarcely so much gravity as heretofore, as a very magnificent period in my life. for nearly four months i was dying with immense dignity. plutarch might have recorded it. i wrote--in touchingly unsteady pencil--to all my intimate friends, and indeed to many other people. i saw the littleness of hate and ambition. i forgave my enemies, and they were subdued and owned to it. how they must regret these admissions! i made many memorable remarks. this lasted, i say, nearly four months. the medical profession, which had pronounced my death sentence, reiterated it steadily--has, indeed, done so now this ten years. towards the end of those four months, however, dying lost its freshness for me. i began to detect a certain habitual quality in my service. i had exhausted all my memorable remarks upon the subject, and the strain began to tell upon all of us. one day in the spring-time i crawled out alone, carefully wrapped, and with a stick, to look once more--perhaps for the last time--on sky and earth, and the first scattered skirmishers of the coming army of flowers. it was a day of soft wind, when the shadows of the clouds go sweeping over the hills. quite casually i happened upon a girl clambering over a hedge, and her dress had caught in a bramble, and the chat was quite impromptu and most idyllic. i remember she had three or four wood anemones in her hand--"wind stars" she called them, and i thought it a pretty name. and we talked of this and that, with a light in our eyes, as young folks will. i quite forgot i was a doomed man. i surprised myself walking home with a confident stride that jarred with the sudden recollection of my funereal circumstances. for a moment i tried in vain to think what it was had slipped my memory. then it came, colourless and remote. "oh! death.... he's a bore," i said; "i've done with him," and laughed to think of having done with him. "and why not so?" said i. the end _this book appeared some years ago at another price and in another form. the publisher believes that its present guise will bring it within the reach of all and sundry, who, while delighting in the marriage of_ wit _with_ wisdom, _cannot complete the trilogy with the third desideratum of_ wealth. printed by morrison and gibb limited, edinburgh [illustration: front book cover] certain personal matters by h.g. wells _author of the "time machine"_ london t. fisher unwin paternoster square _price one shilling_ _also issued in cloth, price s._ [illustration: back book cover] to furnish smartly without disturbing capital [illustration: bed-time] by means of a perfectly simple plan (commended by the editor of _truth_ and many others) you may furnish your house, chambers, or flat throughout,--and to the extent of linen, silver, and cutlery,--_out of income without drawing upon capital_ by dividing the initial outlay into , , or monthly, or quarterly payments. at any period the option may be exercised of paying off the balance, and so take advantage of the cash discount. a beautifully coloured catalogue given on personal application. consult: norman & stacey, ltd., _artistic house furnishers_, , queen victoria st., e.c. the mayfair set iii conversations with an uncle [illustration: title page] select conversations with an uncle (now extinct) and two other reminiscences by h. g. wells london: john lane new york the merriam company _copyrighted in the united states._ _all rights reserved._ _second edition_ to my dearest and best friend r. a. c. prefatory he was, i remember, short, but by no means conspicuously short, and of a bright, almost juvenile, complexion, very active in his movements and garrulous--or at least very talkative. his judgments were copious and frequent in the old days, and some at least i found entertaining. at times his fluency was really remarkable. he had a low opinion of eminent people--a thing i have been careful to suppress, and his dissertations had ever an irresponsible gaiety of manner that may have blinded me to their true want of merit. that, i say, was in the old days, before his abrupt extinction, before the cares of this world suddenly sprang upon, and choked him. i would listen to him, cheerfully, and afterwards i would go away and make articles out of him for the _pall mall gazette_, so adding a certain material advantage to my mental and moral benefit. but all that has gone now, to my infinite regret; and sorrowing, i have arranged this unworthy little tribute to his memory, this poor dozen of casual monologues that were so preserved. the merits of the monument are his entirely; its faults entirely my own. contents select conversations-- of conversation and the anatomy of fashion the theory of the perpetual discomfort of humanity the use of ideals the art of being photographed bagshot's mural decorations on social music the joys of being engaged la belle dame sans merci on a tricycle an unsuspected masterpiece the great change the pains of marriage a misunderstood artist the man with a nose of conversation and the anatomy of fashion this uncle of mine, you must understand, having attained--by the purest accident--some trifles of distinction and a certain affluence in south africa, came over at the earliest opportunity to london to be photographed and lionised. he took to fame easily, as one who had long prepared in secret. he lurked in my chambers for a week while the new dress suit was a-making--his old one i really had to remonstrate against--and then we went out to be admired. during the week's retirement he secreted quite a wealth of things to say--appropriate remarks on edibles, on music, on popular books, on conversation, off-hand little things, jotting them down in a note-book as they came into his mind, for he had a high conception of social intercourse, and the public expectation. he was ever a methodical little gentleman, and all these accumulations that he could not get into his talk, he proposed to put away for the big volume of "reminiscences" that was to round off his life. at last he was a mere conversational firework, crammed with latent wit and jollity, and ready to blaze and sparkle in fizzing style as soon as the light of social intercourse should touch him. but after we had circulated for a week or so, my uncle began to manifest symptoms of distress. he had not had a chance. people did not seem to talk at all in his style. "where do the literary people meet together, george? i am afraid you have chosen your friends ill. surely those long-haired serious people who sat round my joke like old cats round a beetle--what is it?--were not the modern representatives of a _salon_. those abominable wig-makers' eccentricities who talked journalistic 'shop,' and posed all over that preposterous room with the draperies! those hectic young men who have done nothing except run down everybody! don't tell me that is the literary society of london, george. where do they let off wit now, george? where do they sparkle? i want to sparkle. badly. i shall burst, george, if i don't." now really, you know, there are no salons now--i suppose we turn all our conversation into "copy"--or the higher education has eliminated the witty woman--and my uncle became more and more distressed. he said a lot of his good things to me, which was sheer waste. i became afraid. i got him all the introductions i could, pushed him into every lion's den i had access to. but there was no relief. "i see what it is, george," said my uncle, "these literary people write themselves out. they say nothing for private use. their brains are weary when they come into company. they get up in the morning fresh and bright, and write, write, write. then, when they are jaded, they condescend to social intercourse. it is their way of resting. but why don't they go to bed? no more clever people for me, george. let us try the smart. perhaps among them we shall find smart talking still surviving. _allons_, george!" that is how my uncle came into collision with fashion, how i came to take him to the fitz-brilliants. of course you have heard of the fitz-brilliants? if you have not, it is not their fault. they are the smartest people in london. always hard at work, keeping up to date, are the fitz-brilliants. but my uncle did not appreciate them. worse! they did not appreciate my uncle. he came to me again, more pent up than ever, and the thing i had feared happened. he began to discourse to me. it was about fashion, with a decided reference to the fitz-brilliants, and some reflections upon the alleys of literary ability and genius i had taken him through. "george," said my uncle, "_this fashion is just brand-new vulgarity_. it is merely the regal side of the medal. the highly fashionable and the absolutely vulgar are but two faces of the common coin of humanity, struck millions at a time. spin the thing in the light of wealth, and i defy you, as it whizzes from the illumination of riches to the shadow of poverty, to distinguish the one stamp from the other. you cannot say, here the _mode_ ends, and there the unspeakable thing, its counterpart, has its beginning. their distinction of mere position has vanished, and they are in seeming as in substance one and indivisible." my uncle was now fairly under way. "the fashionable is the foam on the ocean of vulgarity, george, cast up by the waves of that ocean, and caught by the light of the sun. it is the vulgar--blossoming. the flower it is of that earthly plant, destined hereafter to run to seed, and to beget new groves and thickets, new jungles, of vulgar things. "note, george, how true this is of that common property of the vulgar and fashionable--slang. the apt phrase falls and applause follows, and then down it goes. the essential feature of slang is words misapplied; the essential distinction of a coarse mind from one refined, an inability to appreciate fine distinctions and minor discords; the essential of the vulgar, good example misused. first the fashionable get the apt phrase, and bandy it about in inapt connections until even the novelty of its discordance has ceased to charm, and thereafter it sinks down, down. _fin de siècle_ and _cliché_ have, for instance, passed downward from the courts of the fashionable among journalists into the unspeakable depths below. soon, if not already, _fin de siècle_ gin and onions and haddocks will be for sale in the whitechapel-road, and harriet will be calling billy a "cliché faced swine." even so do ostrich feathers begin a career of glory at the drawing-room and the fashionable photographer's, and, after endless re-dyeing, come to their last pose before a hampstead camera on a bright bank holiday. "the fashionable and vulgar are after all but the expression of man's gregarious instinct. every poor mortal is torn by the conflicting dreads of being 'common-place,' and of being 'eccentric.' he, and more particularly she, is continually imitating and avoiding imitation, trying to be singular and yet like other people. in the exquisitely fashionable and in the entirely vulgar the sheep-like longing is triumphant, and the revolting individual has disappeared. the former is a mechanical vehicle upon which the new 'correct thing' rides forth, to extort the astonishment of men; the latter a lifeless bier bearing its corrupt and unrecognisable remains away to final oblivion, amidst universal execration. "it is curious to notice, george, that there has of late been a fashion in 'originality.' the commonplace has turned, as it were, upon itself, and vehemently denied its identity. so that people who were not eccentric have become rare, and genius, so far as it is a style of hairdressing, and originality, so far as it is a matter of etiquette or morals, have become the habitual garments of the commonplace. the introduction of the word 'bourgeois' as a comminatory epithet into the english language, by bourgeois writers writing for the bourgeois, will remain a memorial for ever, for the philological humourist to chuckle over. if good resolutions could change the natures of men, opinion has lately set so decidedly against the fashionable and the vulgar that their continued existence in this world would be very doubtful. but the leopard cannot change his spots so easily. while the stars go on in their courses, until the cooling of the earth puts an end to the career of life, and the last trace of his ancestral tendency to imitation disappears as the last man becomes an angel, depend upon it, george, the fashionable will ever pursue this chimæra of distinguished correctness, and trail the inseparable howling vulgar in its wake--for ever chased, like a dog with a tin can attached, by the horror of its own tail." thus my uncle. he had said a few of his things. it is possible his trick of talking like a disarticulated essay had something to do with his social discomfort. but anyhow he seemed all the better for the release. "talking of tails, george," he said, "reminds me. i noticed the men at the fitz-brilliants' had their coats cut--well, i should say, just a half inch shorter here than this of mine. your man is not up to date. i must get the thing altered to-morrow." the theory of the perpetual discomfort of humanity he had been sitting with his feet upon the left jamb of my mantel, admiring the tips of his shoes in silence for some time. "george," he said, dropping his cigar-ash thoughtfully into my inkstand, in order, i imagine, to save my carpet, "have you ever done pioneer work for humanity?" "never," i said. "how do you get that sort of work?" "i don't know. i met a man and a woman, though, the other night, who said they were engaged in that kind of thing. it seems to me to be exhausting work, and it makes the hair very untidy. they do it chiefly with their heads. it consists, so i understand, of writing stuff in a hurry, rushing about in cabs, wearing your hair in some unpleasant manner, and holding disorderly meetings." "who are these people?" "never heard of them before, though they told me they were quite well known. the lady asked me if i had been to chicago." i chuckled. i could imagine no more hideous insult to my uncle. "i told her that i had been to most places south-eastward and eastward, but never across the atlantic. she informed me that i ought to have gone to chicago, and that america was a great country, and i remarked that i had always thought it was so great that one could best appreciate it at a distance. then she asked me what i thought of the condition of the lower classes, and i told her i was persuaded, from various things i had noticed, that a lot of them were frightfully hard up. and with that she started off to show whose fault it was, by the socratic method." "entertaining?" "a little. i did not get all my answers right. for instance, when she asked, 'who sends the members of parliament to westminster?' i answered her, 'the governors of the young ones and the wives of the others.' and when she said that was wrong--i don't remember socrates ever saying bluntly that an answer was wrong--i said i supposed she referred to the evil one. it was very dull of me, of course, and it obliged her to dictate the right solution. "afterwards she threw over teaching me anything, and explained to me all about her movements. at least, i got really interested in her movements. one thing she said struck me very much, though it could hardly be called novel. it was that the fads of one age were the fashions of the next; that while the majority of people were engaged in their little present-day chores, persons like herself are making the laws and preparing the customs for the generation to follow." "poor generations to follow!" i said. "yes, but there is a lot of truth in it; and do you know there flashed upon me all at once a great theory, the theory of the perpetual discomfort of humanity. just let me explain it to you, george," he said, bringing himself round so that his legs hung over the arm of his chair. "i think you will see i have made a very great discovery, gone to the root of the whole of this bother of reform movement, advancement of humanity, and the rest of it." he sucked his cigar for a moment. "each age," he said, "has its own ideals of what constitutes human happiness." "a very profound observation," said i. "looking down the vista of history, one may generalise and say that we see human beings continually troubled by the conditions under which they live. i can think of no time in the world when there was not some question or other getting fussed about: at one time episcopal celibacy, at another time the pict and scot problem, and so on. always a crumpled rose-leaf. hence reform movements. now, reforms move slowly, and by the time these reforms come about, the people whom they would have made happy, and who fussed and encountered dislike and satire and snubbing, and burning and boiling in oil, and suchlike discouragements, for the sake of them, were dead and buried and mere sanitary problems. the new people had new and quite different needs, and the reforms for which their fathers fought and died more or less uncomfortably, and got into debt with the printers, so soon as there were printers to get into debt with, were about as welcome as belated dinner guests. you take me? ireland, when home rule comes home to it, will simply howl with indignation. and we are living in the embodied discontent of the eighteenth century. adam smith, tom paine, and priestley would have looked upon this age and seen that it was good--devilish good; and as you know, george, to us it is--well, a bit of a nuisance anyhow. however, most people are like myself, and try to be as comfortable as they can, and no doubt the next generation might do very well with it. and then the pioneer people begin legislating, agitating, and ordering things differently. as you know, george, i am inclined to conservatism. constitutionally, i tend to adapt myself to my circumstances. it seems to me so much easier to fit the man to the age than to fit the age to the man. let us, i say, settle down. we shall never be able to settle down while they keep altering things. it may not be a perfect world, but then i am not a perfect man: some of the imperfections are, at least, very convenient. so my theory is this: the people whom the age suits fairly well don't bother--_i_ don't bother; the others do. it is these confounded glaring and unshorn anachronisms that upset everything. they go about flapping their ideals at you, and writing novels with a motive, and starting movements and societies, and generally poking one's epoch to rags, until at last it is worn out and you have to start a new one. my conception of the progress of humanity is something after the wandering jew pattern. your average humanity i figure as a comfortable person like myself, always trying to sit down and put its legs somewhere out of the way, and being continually stirred up by women in felt hats and short skirts, and haggard men with those beastly, long, insufficient beards, and soulful eyes, and trumpet-headed creatures, and bogles with spectacles and bald heads, and nephews who look at watches. what are you looking at your watch for, george? i'm very happy as i am. "has it ever occurred to you, george, that one of the most uncomfortable things in the world must be to outlive your age? to have all the reforms of your boyish liberalism coming home to roost, just as you are settling down to the old order.... "six o'clock, by jove! we shall keep them waiting if we don't mind." the use of ideals "ideals!" said my uncle; "certainly ideals. of course one must have ideals, else life would be bare materialism. bare fact alone, naked necessity, is impossible barren rock for a soul to root upon. life, indeed, is an unfurnished house, an empty glass in a thirsty land--good and necessary for foundation, but insufficient for any satisfaction unless we have ideals. or, again, ideals are the flesh upon the skeleton of reality, and it cannot live without them. "it always appears to me," said my uncle, "that the comparison of ideals to furniture is particularly appropriate. they are the draperies of the mind, and they hide the nakedness of truth. your fireplace is ugly, your mere necessary shelves and seats but planks and crudity, all your surroundings so much office furniture, until the skilful hand and the draperies come in. then a few cunning loopings and foldings, and behold softness and delicacy, crudity gone, and life well worth the living. so that you cannot value ideals too highly. "yet at the same time----" my uncle became meditative. "i would not have a man the _slave_ of his ideals. hangings make the room comfortable, but, after all, hangings _are_ hangings. perhaps, now and then--of course, i would not suggest continual inconstancy--a slight change, a little rearrangement, even a partial replacement, might brighten up the dear old dwelling-place. an ideal may be clung to too fondly. when the moth gets into it, or the dust--did not carlyle warn us against this, lest they 'accumulate and at last produce suffocation'? i am exactly at one with him there. "and that, as any cabinet minister explains every time he opens a public library, is why we have literature. good books are the warehouses of ideals. does it strike you your furniture is sombre, a bit calvinistic and severe--try a statuette by pope, or a classical piece out of heine. too much white and gold for every-day purposes--then the reverend laurence sterne will oblige. urban tone may be corrected by hardy, and lowell will give you urbanity. and, however well you match and balance them, remember there is a time for ideals, and a time when they are better out of the way. "the philistine of victorian literature, is a person without ideals, the practical man. but just now the fashion is all for the things. ruskin and carlyle set it going, and to-day the demand for ideals exceeds the supply. and as a result, we meet with innumerable people anxious to have the correct thing, but a little unsympathetic or inexpert, and those unavoidable people who do not like the things but feel compelled to get them. ideals are not the easiest possessions to have and manage, and they may even rise to the level of serious inconveniences. so that i sometimes wonder these extension people have not taken up the subject of their management and use. "note, for instance, the folly of bringing ideals too much into the daily life; it is childish, like a baby insisting on its new toy at meal times, and taking it to bed. never use an ideal as a standard, and avoid any that reflect upon your conduct. the extremest decorative people refrain from enamelling their kettles, and my cook though a 'born lady' does not wear her silk dress in the kitchen. ideals are the full dress of the soul. a business man, for instance, who let visions of reverend venetian and genoese seigniors interfere with his agile city movements--who, to carry out our comparison, draped his mind with these things--would be uncommonly like a bowler in a dressing-gown. "then an ideal, we are also told, is an elevating influence in life; but unless one is very careful one may get hoist with one's own petard to a pitifully transitory soar above common humanity. the soar itself is not unpleasant, but the sequel is sometimes disagreeable. "to show how an ideal may trip up an inexpert mortal, take that man javvers and his wife. she also had an ideal husband, which was, indeed, a kind of bigamy, and her constant references to this creation of hers used to drive poor old javvers frantic. it became as objectionable as if she had been its sorrowing widow, and ultimately it wrecked the happiness of their little home very completely. "the seat of ideals, then, in one's mind, should be, as it were, a lounge, over which these hangings may drape and flap harmlessly; but it may easily become as the bed of procrustes. to turn ideals to idols, and to command your whole world to bow down to them, savours of the folly of nebuchadnezzar the king. let your ideal world be far away from reality, fit it with rococo furniture, angels and birds-of-paradise, minnesinger flowers and views of the delectable mountains: and go there occasionally and rest--to return without illusions, without encumbrance, but with renewed zest, to the sordid world of the actual, the world of every day. herein is the real use of the ideal; all other is fanaticism and folly." the art of being photographed "an album," said my uncle, as he sat and turned over my collection of physiognomy, "is, i think, the best reading in the world. you get such sidelights on the owner's heredity, george; distant cousins caricature his features and point the moral of his nose, and ancestral faces prophesy his fate. his friends, moreover, figure the secret of his soul. but what a lot we have to learn yet in the art of being photographed, what grotesque and awkward blunders your common sitters make! why, for instance, do men brush their hair so excessively when they go before the lens? your cousin here looks like a cheap chess pawn about the head, whereas as i know him his head is a thing like a worn-out paint-brush. where but in a photograph would you see a parting so straight as this? it is unnatural. you flatten down all a man's character; for nothing shows that more than the feathers and drakes' tails, the artful artlessness, or revolutionary tumult of his hair. mind you, i am not one of those who would prohibit a man wearing what he conceives to be his best clothes to the photographer's. i like to see the little vanity peeping out--the last moment's folly of a foolish tie, nailed up for a lifetime. yet all the same, people should understand that the camera takes no note of newness, but much of the cut and fit. and a man should certainly not go and alter his outline into a feminine softness, by pouring oil on his troubled mane and plastering it down with a brush and comb. it is not tidiness, but hypocrisy. "we have indeed very much to learn in this matter. it is a thing that needs teaching, like deportment or dancing. plenty of men i have noticed, who would never do it in real life, commit the sin of being over-gentlemanly in an album. their clothes are even indecently immaculate. they become, not portraits, but fashion-plates. i hate a man who is not rumpled and creased a little, as much as i do a brand new pipe. and, as a sad example of sin on the other hand, on the side of carelessness, i have seen renderings of a very august personage indeed, in a hat--a _hat_! it was tilted, and to add to the atrocity, he was holding a cigar. this i regard as horrible. think! your photograph may go into boudoirs. imagine gladys opening the album to Ænone; 'now i will show you _him_.' and there you sit, leering at their radiant sweetness, hat on, and a cigar reeking between your fingers. "no, george, a man should go very softly to a photographer's, and he should sit before the camera with reverence in his heart and in his attitude, as if he were in the presence of the woman he loved." he turned to mrs harborough's portrait, looked at it, hesitated, looked again, and passed on. "i often think we do not take this business of photography in a sufficiently serious spirit. issuing a photograph is like marriage: you can only undo the mischief with infinite woe. i know of one man who has an error of youth of this kind on his mind--a fancy-dress costume affair, crusader or templar--of which he is more ashamed than many men would be of the meanest sins. for sometimes the camera has its mordant moods, and amazes you by its saturnine estimate of your merits. this man was perhaps a little out of harmony with the garments of chivalry, and a trifle complacent and vain at the time. but the photograph of him is so cynical and contemptuous, so merciless in its exposure of his element of foolishness, that we may almost fancy the spook of carlyle had got mixed up with the chemicals upon the film. yet it never really dawned upon him until he had distributed this advertisement of his little weakness far and wide, that the camera had called him a fool to his face. i believe he would be glad now to buy them all back at five pounds a copy. "this of minnie hobson is a work of art. bless me, the girl must be thirty-seven or thirty-eight now, and just look at her! these photographers have got a trick now, if your face is one of the long kind, of raising the camera, bending your head forward, and firing down at you. so our minnie becomes quite chubby again. then, this thing has been retouched." my uncle peered into the photograph. "it seems to me it is pretty nearly all retouching. for instance, if you look at the eye, that high light is not perfectly even; that was touched in on the negative with a pencil. then about the neck of our minnie i have observed certain bones, just the slightest indication of her collar-bone, george, but that has disappeared under the retoucher's pencil. then the infantile smoothness of her cheek, and the beautifully-rounded outline, is produced by the retoucher carefully scraping off the surface of the film where the cheekbone projected with a sharp knife. there are also in real life little lines between the corner of our minnie's mouth and her nostril. and again, minnie is one of those people whose dresses never seem to fit, but this fits like a glove. these retouchers are like midas, and they turn all that comes to their hands to gold; or, like spring, the flowers come back at their approach. they reverse the work of ithuriel, and restore brightness to the fallen. they sit at their little desks, and scratch, scratch, scratch with those delicate pencils of theirs, scratching away age, scratching away care, making the crooked straight, and the rough smooth. they are the fairies of photography, and fill our albums with winsome changelings. their ministry anticipates in a little way the angels who will take us when we die, releasing us from the worn and haggard body of this death, and showing something of the eternal life and youth that glows within. or one might say that the spirit of the retoucher is the spirit of love. it makes plain women beautiful, and common men heroic. her regal fingers touch for the evil of ungainliness, and, behold, we are restored. her pencil is like the queen's sword, and it makes knights out of common men. "when i have my photograph taken," said my uncle, "i always like to think of the retoucher. i idealise her; i fancy her with the sweetest eyes i have ever seen, and an expression infinitely soft and tender. and she looks closely into my face, and her little pencil goes gently and lovingly over my features. tickle, tickle. in that way, george, i get a really very nice expression indeed." my uncle turned to his own presentment, and mused pleasantly for a space. then he looked again at mrs harborough as if inadvertently, and asked her name. "i like this newer way of taking your photograph, against a mere grey background; just the head of you. one should always beware of the property furniture of the photographer. in the seventies they were great at such aids--a pedestal, a cork rustic stile, wide landscape in the distance, but i think that we are at least getting beyond that now. people in those days must have been afraid to be left alone before a camera, or they wanted it to seem that they were taken unawares, quite against their modesty--did not know what the camera was, and were just looking at it. a very favourite pose for girls was a graceful droop over a sofa, chin on elegant hand. when i was at dribblebridge--i was a bright young fellow then--i collected a number of local photographs, ladies chiefly, and the thing was very noticeable when i put them in a row over my mantleshelf. the local 'artist' was intensely fond of that pose. but fancy the local leader finding her cook drooping over the same sofa as herself! nowadays, i see, you get merely the heads of your girls, with their hair flossed up, intense light from above, and faces in shadow. i think it is infinitely better. what horrible things hands become in a photograph! i wonder how it is that the hand in a photograph is always four shades darker than the arm. every girl who goes to be photographed in evening dress should be solemnly warned to keep her hands out of the picture. they will look as though she has been enamelling the grate, or toying with a bucket of pitch. there is something that sins against my conception of womanly purity in those dark hands." my uncle shut the album. "yes, it is a neglected field of education, an important branch of deportment altogether forgotten. our well-bred ease fails us before the camera; we are lucky if we merely look stiff and self-conscious. i should fancy there would be an opening for some clever woman to teach people how to dress for the occasion and how to sit, what to avoid and how to avoid it. as it is, we go in a state of nervous agitation, obsequiously costumed; our last vestige of self-assertion vanishes before the unwinking cyclops eye of the instrument, and we cower at the mercy of the thing and its attendant. they make what they will of us, and the retoucher simply edits the review with an eye to the market. so history is falsified before our faces, and we prepare a lie for our grandchildren. we fail to stamp our individualities upon our photographs, and are mere 'dumb-driven cattle' in the matter. we sin against ourselves in this neglect, and act against the spirit of the age. sooner or later this haphazard treatment of posterity must come to an end." he meditated for a moment. then, as if pursuing a train of thought, "that mrs harborough is a very pretty woman, george. where did you happen to meet her?" bagshot's mural decorations bagshot was rather proud of his new quarters until my uncle called upon him. up to then he felt assured he was doing right; had, indeed, not the faintest doubt in the matter until my uncle unsettled him. "nice carpet, bagshot," said my uncle, "nice and soft. this chair certainly very comfortable. but what the mischief do you mean--you, with your pretence to culture--by hanging your dwelling with all those framed and glazed photograph and autograph dittoes? i should have thought you at least would have known better. love and life, and love and death, the daphnephoria, rembrandt's portrait--wild havoc, man! what were you thinking of?" bagshot seemed staggered. he ventured to intimate feebly his persuasion that the things were rather good. "good they certainly are, and well reproduced, but only the bible and shakspeare could stand this incessant reiteration, and not all shakspeare. these things are in shop windows, man--drawing-rooms, offices, everywhere. they afflict me like popular songs--like popular quotations. they are good enough--as a matter of fact they are too good. only, don't you know willis has love and life and love and death? and so has smith, and bays has rembrandt's portrait in his office, and my niece euphemia has the daphnephoria in her drawing-room. i can't understand, george, why you let it stay there. it is possible to have too much of a good thing. there is no getting away from these all too popular triumphs. they cover up the walls everywhere. they consume all other art. i shall write a schedule some day of the fifty correct pictures of the british people. and to find _you_, bagshot, among the philistines!" "i thought they showed rather an improvement in the general taste," said bagshot. "there is no reason why a thing should not be common, and yet very beautiful. primroses, for instance----" "that is true enough, but pictures are not primroses," said my uncle. "besides, i think we like primroses all the better because they must soon be over; but these are perennial blossoms, like the everlasting flowers and dried grass of a lodging house. they may still be beautiful, but by this time, bagshot, they are awfully dry and dusty. who looks at them? i notice our eyes avoid them even while we talk about them. we have all noticed everything there is to be noticed, and said all the possible things that are to be said about them long ago. surely a picture must be a little fresh to please. else we shall come at last to the perfect picture, and art will have an end. don't you see the mere popularity of these things of the pavement is enough to condemn them in the estimation of every right-minded person?" "i don't see it," said bagshot, making head against the torrent. "i cannot afford to go to these swells and get original work of theirs----" "what do you want with 'these swells' and their original work?" interrupted my uncle fiercely. "haven't they used up all their originality ages ago? is it not open to such men as yourself to discover new men? there are men pining in garrets now for you, bagshot. fancy the delight of having pictures that are unfamiliar, pictures that catch the eye and are actually to be looked at, pictures that suggest new remarks, pictures by a name that the stray visitor has never heard of and which therefore puzzle him dreadfully because he hasn't the faintest idea whether to praise or blame them! isn't it worth hunting studios for, and even, maybe, going to the academy? besides, suppose your struggling artist comes to the front. what price the five-guinea specimen of his early style then? your artistic virtue is indeed its own reward, and, besides, you can boast about finding him. the poor man of culture and the struggling artist live for one another, or at least they ought to--though i am afraid it is not much of a living for the struggling artist." he paused abruptly. "i suppose that autotype cost thirty shillings, and this carpet about five pounds?" bagshot assumed an elegant attitude against his bureau. he had discovered his reply. "you know you are bitten by the fashion for originality. why should i make my room hideous with the work of third-rate mediocrity, or of men who are still learning to paint, simply in order to be unlike my neighbour?" "why," returned my uncle, "should you hang up things less interesting than your wall paper, in mere imitation of your neighbours? for this on your walls, bagshot, deny it though you may, is not art but fashion. i tell you, you do not care a rap for art. you think pictures are a part of virtue, like a silk hat--or evening dress at dinner. and in your choice of pictures you follow after your kind. i never met a true-born briton yet who dared to buy a picture on his own accord--unless he was a dealer. and then usually he was not really a true-born briton. he waits to see what is being hung. he has these things now because he thinks they are right, not because they are beautiful, just as he used to have the stag at bay and the boastful hound. it is leighton now; it was landseer then. really i believe that very soon the ladies' papers will devote a column to pictures. something in this style. 'smart people are taking down their rossetti's annunciations now, and are hanging gambler bolton's new hippopotamus in the place of it. this hippopotamus is to be the correct thing in pictures this year, and no woman with any claim to be considered smart will fail to have it over her piano. marcus stone's new engraving will also be rather chic. watts's hope is now considered a little dowdy.' and so forth. this gregarious admiration is the very antithesis of artistic appreciation, which i tell you, simply must be individual." "go on," said bagshot, "go on." "and that," said my uncle, with the glow of discovery in his face, "that is where the vulgar critic goes wrong. he conceives an orthodoxy. he tries to explain why velasquez is better than raphael and raphael better than gerard dow. as well say why a cirrus cloud is better than a sycamore and a sycamore better than a scarlet hat. every painter, unless he is a mere operative, must have his peculiar public. it is incredible that any painter can really satisfy the æsthetic needs of such a public as these reproductions indicate. true art is always sectarian. why were landseer and sidney cooper popular a few years ago, and why does every tea-table sneer at them now? there must be something admirable in them, or they would never have been admired. then why has my niece annie dropped admiring poynter, and why does she pretend--and a very thin pretence it is--to admire whistler?" "you are wandering from my pictures," said bagshot. "i want to," said my uncle. "but why do you try and hide your taste under these mere formalities in frames? why do you always say 'i pass' in the game of decoration? better a mess of green amateurs and love therewith, than the richest autotypes and dull complacency. have what you like. there is no such thing as absolute beauty. that is the magna charta of the world of art. what is beautiful to me is not beautiful to another man, in art as in women. but take care to get the art that fits you. frankly, that 'love and death' suits you, bagshot, about as much as a purple toga would. orchardson is in your style. i tell you that the greengrocer who buys an original oil painting for sixteen shillings with frame complete is far nearer artistic salvation than the patron of the popular autotype. surely you will wake up presently, bagshot, and wonder what you have been about. "half-past four, by jove! i must be getting on. well, bagshot, ta-ta. one must talk, you know. i really hope you will be comfortable in your new rooms." and so good-bye to bagshot, staring in a puzzled way at his reviled and desecrated walls. on social music my poor uncle came to me the other evening in a most distressful state, broken down to common blasphemy. his ample front was rumpled with sorrow and his tie disorderly aslant. his hair had gone rough with his troubles. "the time i have had, george!" he panted. "give me something to drink in the name of holy charity." since the _pall mall gazette_ took to reporting his little sayings about photographs and ornaments, ideals and fashions, he has been setting up as a conversationalist. he thinks he was designed by providence to that end, and aids his destiny as much as he can by elaborately preparing remarks. yet this thing had happened. "they put," said my uncle, "a little chap at the piano, and me at a very nice girl indeed as she looked; and the little chap began, and so did i. i said a prelude thing of mine, brand new and rather pretty." he stopped. he turned to nerve himself with whisky. "well," i said, when the pause seemed sufficient; "what did she say?" my uncle looked unspeakable things. then in a whisper, bending towards me: "_she said----sssh_!" he repeated it that i might grasp its full enormity, "_sssh_!--so!" "what _is_ music," said my uncle, after a moody silence, "that reasonable people should listen to it? i _had_ to listen to it myself, and it struck me. it was just a tune this little chap was trying to remember, and now he would come at it this way and now that. he never got it quite right, though he fumbled about it for ten minutes or a quarter of an hour. and then two girls went, and one punished the piano while the other, with a wrist rather than an ear for music, drowned its cries with a violin. so it went on all the evening, and when i moved they all looked at me; i had been put on a nervous wicker chair, and i knew my shoes squeaked like a carnival of swine, and so i could not get away. and all the things that kept coming into my head, george, the neat remarks and graceful sayings! "you see, i look at it in this light. music is merely background, and ought to be kept in its place. i am no enemy of music, george. the air in a room should be melodious, for the same reason that it should be faintly pleasing to the olfactory sense, and neither hot nor stuffy. just as the walls should be delightfully coloured and softly lit, and the refreshments pleasant and at the moment of need. but surely we meet for human intercourse. when i go to see people i go to see the people--not to hear a hired boy play the piano. but these people plant a _chevaux de frise_ of singers and performers upon instruments of music between themselves and me. they gag me with a few pennyworths of second-hand opera. there i was bursting to talk, and nice, intelligent-looking girls to talk to, and whenever i began to say something they said '_sssh_!' tantalus in a drawing-room it was--the very hades of hospitality. "surely some day we shall learn refinement in our entertaining. your modern hostess issues her invitations and seems overcome with consternation at her gathering. 'what _shall_ i do with all these people?' she seems to ask. so she dabs cakes upon them, piles coffee cups over them: 'eat,' she says, 'and shut up!' and stifles their protests with a clamorous woman and a painful piano. "no, of course i don't object to having music. but it is an accessory, not an object, in life. it is, after all, a physical comfort, a pleasant vibration in one's ears. to make an object of it is sensuality. it is on all-fours with worshipping the wallpaper. some wall-papers are very beautiful things nowadays, harmonious in form and colour, skilful in invention; but people do not expect you to sit down and admire wall-paper, or promise you 'wallpaper at eight.' neither do they put an extinguisher over any girl who does not go with the wall-paper, or expect you to dress in neutral tint on account of it, and they are not hurt if you go away without seeming to see it. gustatory harmony, too, is very delicious. yet there is no hush during dinner; they do not insist upon a persistent gnawing in honour of the feast. but these musical people! their god is their piano. they set up an idol in their salon, and command all the world to bow down to it. they found a priestcraft of pianists, and an inquisition of fiddlers. when i came away they were all crowded round a violin, the women especially. they could not have fussed more if it had been a baby. they stroked it and admired its figure. it _had_ rather a fashionable figure, but the neck was too long...." i began to suspect the cause of this bitterness. "yes. she was there. and while some of this piano was going on she looked at the ear of the man who was playing with a dreamy, tender look.... no. i couldn't get a word with her the whole evening." the joys of being engaged as i was passing the london university the other day i saw my uncle emerge from the branch of the bank of england opposite, and proceed in the direction of the burlington arcade. he was elaborately disguised as a young man, even to the youthful flower, and i was incontinently smitten with curiosity respecting the dark purpose he might veil in this way. there is, to me, a peculiar and possibly rather a childish fascination in watching my more intimate friends unobserved, and, curiously enough, i had never before studied the avuncular back view. i found something singularly entertaining in the study of the graceful contour of his new frock coat, and in the cheerful carriage of his cane. he paraded, a dignified procession of one, some way down the arcade, hesitated for a moment outside a jeweller's shop, and then entered it. i strolled on as far as piccadilly, returned to the shop, and so fell upon him suddenly in the midst of his buying. "hullo, george!" he said hastily, facing me so as to hide as much of the counter as possible. "how's euphemia?" i looked him fairly in the eye. "you are buying a _ring_," i said in a firm, decided voice. he turned to the counter with an air of surprise. "by jove, so i am!" "a lady's ring," i said. he was, i could see, hastily collecting his sufficiently nimble powers of subterfuge. "one must buy something, you know, george, sometimes," he said feebly. he had selected some dozen or so already, the most palpable engagement rings i think i ever saw. one of them had visible on its inner curvature the four letters mizp--. he looked at them, saw the posy, and then, glancing at me, laughed affably. "i meant to tell you yesterday, george--i will take these," to the shopman. and we emerged with a superficial amiability; the case of rings in my uncle's pocket. the thing was rather a shock to me, coming so suddenly and unexpectedly. i had anticipated some innocent purchase of the jewellery he reviles so much, but certainly not significant rings, golden fetters for others to wear and enslave him; and we were past the flowershop towards hyde park before either of us spoke. it seemed so dreadful to me that the cheerful, talkative man beside me, my own father's little brother, a traveller in distant countries, and a most innocent man, and with all the inveterate habits of thirty years' honourable bachelorhood and all the mellowness of life upon him, should, without consulting me, have taken the first irrevocable step towards becoming a ratepayer, a pew tenant, paterfamilias, a fighter with schoolmasters, and the serf of a butler, that i scarcely knew what to say adequate to the occasion. "well," said i at last, with an involuntary sigh, "i suppose i must congratulate you." "don't look at it in that light, george," said my uncle; and he added in a more cheerful tone, "i am only going to get engaged, you know." "you can scarcely imagine, george," he proceeded, "how i have longed to be engaged. all my life it has been my hope and goal. it is, i think, the ideal state of man. there was a chap with me when i was at kimberley who first put the idea into my head. his ways were animated and cheerful even for a diamond field, where you know animation and cheerfulness are, so to speak, _de rigueur_. whisky he affected, and jesting of the kind that paints cities scarlet. and he used every night, before festivities began, to write a long letter to some girl in england, and say, within limits, how bad he had been and how he longed to reform and be with her, and never, never do anything wrong any more. he poured all the higher and better parts of his nature into the letter, and folded it up and sealed it very carefully. and then he came to us in a singularly relieved frame of mind, and would be the life and soul of as merry a game of follow-your-leader as one can well imagine." pleasant reminiscences occupied him for a moment. "every man should be engaged, i think, to at least one woman. it is the homage we owe to womankind, and a duty to our souls. his _fiancée_ is indeed the madonna of a true-hearted man; the thought of her is a shrine at the wayside of one's meditations, and her presence a temple wherein we cleanse our souls. she is mysterious, worshipful, and inaccessible, something perhaps of the woman, possibly even propitious and helpful, and yet something of the holy grail as well. you have no rights with her, nor she with you; you owe her no definite duties, and yet she is singularly yours. a smile is a favour, a touch of her fingers, a faint pressure of your hand, is an infinite privilege. you cannot demand the slightest help or concern of her, so you ask it with diffident grace and there is an overflowing stream of gratitude from small occasions. whatever you give her is a gift too, while a husband is just property, a mere draught-camel for her service. all your functions are decorative, you hang her shrine with flowers and precious stones. you treat her to art and literature, and as for vulgar necessities--some one else sees to that." "until you are married," began i. "i am speaking of being engaged. marriage is altogether a different thing. the essence of a proper engagement is reverence, distance, and mystery; the essence of marriage is familiarity. a _fiancée_ is a living eidolon; a wife, from my point of view at least, should be a confidential companion, a fellow-conspirator, an accessory after the fact, at least, to one's little errors; should take some share of the burthen and heat of the day with one, and have the humour to bear with a mood of vexation or a fit of the blues. i doubt, do you know, if the same kind of girl is suitable for engagements as for marriage. for an engagement give me something very innocent, a little awe-inspiring on that account, absolutely and tenderly worshipful, yet given to moods of caressing affection, and altogether graceful and beautiful. a man, i think, ought to be incapable of smoking or lounging in front of the girl he professes to love, so reverent ought his love to be. but for marriage let me have humour and some community of taste, a woman who can climb stiles and stand tobacco smoke, and who knows a good cook by her fruits.... it is a complicated business, this marrying. "the familiarity of the marriage state, if it does not breed positive contempt on the part of the angel, engenders at times, i think, a considerable craving for change on the side of both parties. we men are poor creatures at the best--i always pity your euphemia. married people, for instance, always get too much of each other's conversation. they do not have sufficient opportunity to recuperate their topics from original sources. they get interested in outside people, merely from a perfectly legitimate desire to get some amusing novel ideas for each other, and then comes jealousy. i sometimes think that if adam and eve had been merely engaged, she would not have talked with the serpent; and the world had been saved an infinity of misery. "no, george: engagements for me. it is the state we were made for. i have delayed this matter all too long. but, thank heaven, i am engaged at last--i hope for all the rest of my life. now, will you not congratulate me?" "it may be very nice as you put it, but engagements end as well as begin," i insisted. "you cannot be a law unto yourself in these matters. when will you get married?" "good heavens!" exclaimed my uncle. "get married and end this delightful state! you don't think she will want me to marry her, do you? besides, she told me some time ago that she did not intend to marry again. it was only that encouraged me to suggest an engagement to her. though she is a wonderful woman, george--a wonderful woman. still, i think she looks at things very much as i do." he paused thoughtfully. then added with fervour, "at least i hope so." la belle dame sans merci a rhapsody i found him in his own apartments, and strangely disordered. he went to and fro, raving--beginning so soon as i entered the room. i noticed a book half out of its cover, flung carelessly into the corner of the room. "i am enchanted of an impalpable woman, george," he said, "i am in bonds to a spirit of the air. i can neither think nor work nor eat nor sleep because of her. sometimes i go out suddenly, tramping through seething streets, through fog and drizzle or dry east wind, mourning for her sake. my life is rapidly becoming one colourless melancholy through her spells and twining sorceries. i sometimes wish that i were dead. "yet i have never seen her. often, indeed, i imagine her, anon as of this shape, and anon of that. i know her only by her victims, those she slays daily, and daily revives to slay. they come to me with their complaints, mutilated, pathetic, terrible. i try to shut my ears to them in vain. i have tried wool, but it made little or no difference. "the business always begins with the slamming of a door and a healthy footfall across the room. the piano is opened. then some occasional noises--the falling of a piece of music behind the piano, perhaps, and its extraction by means of the tongs--i know it is tongs she uses by the clang. then the music-stool creaks, and la belle dame is ready to play. she puts both her hands upon the key-board, and the treble shrieks apprehensively, and the bass roars like a city in revolt. after that this hush. just this interval. "yet i sometimes think this hush is really the worst of it all. it is a voluminous apprehension, a towering impendency. you don't understand, george. you can't. the poor devil in poe's 'pit and the pendulum' must have had a taste of my sensations. a first victim is being chosen. i have a vision of the spirits of composers small and great--standing up like suspects awaiting identification, while her eye ranges over them. chopin tries to edge behind wagner, a difficult and forbidding person, and gounod seeks eclipse of mendelssohn, who suddenly drops and crawls on all fours between gounod's legs; sullivan cowers, and even piccolomini's iron-framed nerves desert him. she extends her hand. there is a frantic rush to escape. have you ever seen a little boy picking dormice out of a cage? i always see this same nightmare during that dreadful pause, a vision of a writhing heap of kicking, struggling, maddened composers, and of a ghoulish piano grinning expectant, jaw raised--lid i mean--and showing all its black and yellow keys. ... a melancholy shriek. do you hear, george? tito mattel is captured. a song. "'pum--so long the way--pum--so dark the day--pum--dear heart! before you come.' so tito mattel comes pumming through the wall into my presence. i don't pity him. indeed it is a positive relief that it is only tito mattel. the man's no deity at the best, and a little pulling out, and pulling crooked, and general patching together of limbs in the wrong place scarcely matters so far as he and my taste are concerned. yet i always leave my work, george, when that begins, and walk about the room. i try to persuade myself that i need fresh air, but the autumnal day, the damp shiny street, has all the uninviting harshness of truth--i admit i do not. tito flops about, is riddled with dropped notes and racked with hesitations, and presently becomes still. the murder is over. "what next? that study of chopin's! this time the thing is more inspiring. once upon a time it was a favourite of mine. now it is a favourite of the unseen lady's. she plays it with spirit, and conjures up strange fancies in my brain. the noises that come through the wall now, quicker, thicker, louder, are full of a tale of weltering confusion, marine disaster, a ship in sore labour; there is a steady beating like the sound of pumps, and a trickle of treble notes. there are black silences, like thunderclouds, that burst into flashes of music. now the poor melody swings up into the air--then comes one of those terrible pauses, and now down into the abyss. a crash, an ineffectual beating, a spasmodic rush. i seem to hear the pumps again, distant, remote, ineffectual. but that is not so; the struggle is over. chopin's study has been battered to pieces; only disarticulated fragments toss amidst the froth. high up the confusion of the stormy sky she drives in a sieve dropping notes--the witch of the storm. la belle dame sans merci. "but the third piece in her repertory has begun--rubinstein. this, at any rate, is familiar. she plays with the confidence born of long unpunished misdoing. that rubinstein must indeed be sorry, and unless their elysium is like the library of the linnæan society, and fitted with double windows, all the great departed musicians must be sorry too, that he ever wrote a melody in f. daily from the altars of a thousand, of ten thousand, school pianos that melody cries to heaven. from the empire of the music master, upon which the sun never sets, day and night, week in week out, from year to year, rubinstein's melody in f streams up for ever. these school pieces are like the latin ritual before the reformation, they link all christendom by a common use. as the earth spins, and the sunlight sweeps ever westward, that melody passes with the day. now it is tinkling in a grey moravian school, now it dawns upon the adige and begins in alsace, now it has reached madrid, paris, london. then a devotee in some connemara establishment for young ladies sets to. presently tall ships upon the silent main resound with it, and they are at it in the azores and in iceland, and then--one solitary tinkling, doubling, reduplicating, manifolding into an innumerable multitude--new york takes up the wondrous tale. on then with the dawn to desolate cattle ranches, the tablelands of mexico, the level plains of illinois and michigan. so the great tide that started in rubinstein's cranium proceeds upon its destiny. always somewhere between the hours of eleven and two it comes back to me here, poor hunted composition, running its eternal world gauntlet, pursuing its wandering jew pilgrimage, and i curse and pity it as it goes by.... it has gone. the 'maiden's prayer' is next usually. then one of the 'lieder ohne worte,' then the 'dead march'--all of them but the meagre and mutilated skeletons of themselves; things of gaps and tatters, like gibbet trophies. they are as knocked about as a fleet coming out of action, they are as twisted and garbled as a chinese war telegram; it is like an hospital for congenitally diseased compositions taking the air. and they have to hobble along sharply too; there is a certain cruel decision in the way the notes are struck, a nurse gillespie touch about this invisible lady. or it may be the callousness of old habit, a certain sense of a duty overdone, a certain impatience at the long delay. you will hear. "listen!--_tum tum ti-ti-tum_--no!--_tum_. slight pause. tum _tum twiddle_--vigorous crescendo--tum. this is unusual! a stranger? a new piece for la belle dame sans merci? her wonted reckless dash deserts her. she is, as it were, exploring a new region, and advances with mischievous coyness, with an affectation of a faltering heart, with hesitating steps. my imagination is stimulated by these dripping notes. i see her, as it were, on an uneven pavement; here the flags are set on end, there fungi have tilted them, a sharp turning of the page may reveal heaven knows what horrors; presently comes a black gap with a vault of dusty silence below. a pause, an incoherency, a repetition! she has encountered some difficulty, some slumbering coil of sharps and flats, and it raises its bristling front in her way.... she has fled back to the opening again. i begin to wonder what unhappy musician lies hidden in this new ruin, behind the bars of this melancholy confusion. there is something familiar but elusive, like a face that one has known and loved and lost and met again after the cruel changes of intervening years. it conjures up oddly enough a vision of a long room in the twilight, and an acacia in silhouette against the pale gold of the western sky. ah! now i know! "_that_ of all pieces! "i must have my walk, george. i cannot bear to hear that old-familiar music so evilly entreated. but, all the same, the memory it has touched will vibrate and smart; to-day and to-morrow, and i know not for how many days, it will re-echo in my brain. all the old cloudy remorse that has subsided will be set astir again. i shall hear again a light touch upon the keys, see again the shadowy face against the sunset, try to recall the sound of a voice.... what evil spirit has put this mockery into the head of la belle dame? surely without this----" he made a dive at the folding doors and presently reappeared in his coat. it was the only intimation i ever had that my dear little uncle had such a thing as a past. on a tricycle i sat on the parapet of the bridge, and swung my feet over the water that frothed and fretted at the central pier below. above the bridge the stream broadened into a cress-bespangled pool, over which the sapphire dragon-flies hovered, and its earlier course was hidden by the big oak trees that bent towards each other from either bank. through their speckled tracery of green one saw the hazy blue depths of the further forest. i was watching the proceedings of some quick-moving brown bird amid the rushes and marsh marigolds of the opposite bank. "pleasant," said a voice beside me. i turned, and saw my uncle. he was disguised in a costume of reddish-brown cloth. "golf here?" said i, and then i noticed the tricycle. "a vagrom man on wheels!" both the suit and the machine became him very well. the machine was low, and singularly broad between the wheels, and altogether equal to him, and it had chubby pneumatic tires and a broad and even imposing wallet. "yes," said he, following my eye. "it is a handsome machine, a full dress concern with all its plating and brown leather, and in use it is as willing and quiet as any tricycle could be, a most urbane and gentlemanly affair--if you will pardon the adjective. i am glad these things have not come too late for me. frankly, the bicycle is altogether too flippant for a man of my age, and the tricycle hitherto, with its two larger wheels behind and a smaller one in front, has been so indecently suggestive of a perambulator that really, george, i could not bring myself to it. but a bishop might ride _that_ thing." he swung himself up upon the parapet beside me and lit a cigar. "the bicycle for boys, george--or fools. the things will not keep up for a moment without you work at them, they need constant attention; i would as soon ride a treadmill. you cannot loaf with them, and the only true pleasure of cycling is to loaf. yet only this morning did i meet an elderly gentleman with a beard fit for abraham, his face all crimson and deliquescent with heat, and all distorted with the fury of his haste, toiling up a hill on one of these unstable instruments. when he saw me coming down in all my ease and dignity he damned at me with his bell. now, i do not like to see a bicycle wobble under a load of years, and steer into the irascible. as years increase tempers shorten, and bicycles, even the best of bicycles, are seductively irritating. "besides, the devil of the wandering jew has power over all such as go upon two wheels. 'onward,' he says, 'onward! faster, thou man! this green and breezy earth is no abiding place for you!' and hard-breathing, crook-shaped, whirling, bell-banging lunatics try and race you. they whiz by, thinking indignities of your dignified progress, and sometimes saying them. not one cyclist in a dozen, george, and seemingly not a solitary bicyclist, seems to think of anything but getting to the end of his pleasure. i meet these servants of the wheel at the inns, and they tell short stories and sketches about their pace, and show each other their shoes and saddles, and compare maps and roads; some even try to trade machines. they talk most indecently of the makes and prices. i would as soon ask a man who was his tailor or where he got his hair cut and how much he paid. one man i met was not so much a man as a hoarding, blatant about the gaspipe machine company. for them no flowers exist, no wild birds, no trees, no landscapes, no historical memorials, and no geological associations, nothing but the roads they traverse and the bicycles they ride. those that have other interests have them in the form of cheap portable cameras, malignant things that can find no beauty in earth or heaven." "george," said my uncle, suddenly, and i knew he had come upon a great discovery; "real human beings are scarce in this world." "you speak bitterly," said i. "i know what has happened. you are hot from an inn full of the viler type of cyclist, and i presume that, after their custom, they mocked at your machinery. but don't blacken a popular exercise on that account." "but these men are so aggressive! i tell you, george, it requires moral courage to ride a tricycle about at a moderate pace, as a man of discretion should. they want to make a sport of it; they are race-struck, incapable of understanding a man who rides at seven miles an hour when he might ride at fifteen. read their special papers. they mock and sneer at everything but pace; they worship the makes of ' in the interests of their advertising columns; touring simply means hotel-touting to them, and landscape, deals in cameras; in the end they will kill cycling--indeed, they are killing it. it is not nice to be mocked at even when you are in the right; a blatant cad is like a rhinoceros, and admits of no parleying, only since you must not kill him you are obliged to keep out of his way. the common cyclist has already driven ladies off the roads by forcing the pace, the honeymoon tandem returns with its feelings hurt at his jesting, and now he is driving off all quiet men." "all this," said i, "because they said something disrespectful about your machine at the last inn... you don't, i see, approve of the feminine bicycle?" my uncle did his best to be calm and judicial. "a woman in a hurry is one of the most painful sights in the world, for exertion does not become a woman as it does a man. let us avoid all prejudice in this matter, george, and discuss it with open minds. she has, in the first place, a considerable length of hair, and she does it up into rich and beautiful shapes with things called hairpins and with curling irons. very few people have hair that curls naturally, george. you are young, but you are married, and i see nothing improper in telling you these things. well, when a woman rides about, exerting herself violently to keep a bicycle going, her hair gets damp and the pleasing curls lose their curliness and become wet, straggling bands of hair plastered over her venous forehead. and a tragic anxiety is manifest, an expression painful for a man to meet. also her hairpins come out and fall on the road to wait for pneumatic tires, and her hair is no longer rich and beautiful in form. then she gets dirty, horribly dirty, as though she had been used to sweep the roads with. and her skirts have to be weirdly altered, even to the divided skirt, so that when she rides she looks like a short, squat little man. she not only loses her beauty but her dignity. now, for my own part, i think a man wants a woman to worship--it is a man's point of view, of course, but i can't help my sex--and the worshipping of these zouaves is incredible. she is nothing more than a shorter, fuller, and feebler man. heaven help her! for the woman on the tricycle there are ampler excuses as well as ampler skirts, the exertion is not too violent for grace and coolness, and the offensive bulging above one narrow wheel is avoided. but women will never sacrifice so much for so little; worshipfulness, beauty, repose, and comfort for a paltry two or three miles more an hour of pace. they know too well the graces of delay. to do things slowly, george, is part of the art of living. our sex learns that when its youthful fervour is over and all the things are done. but women are born wise." "by the bye," said i, "how is mrs harborough?" "very well, thanks. how is euphemia? your bit of view, george, is pretty, but i think i will have some heather now. there is a common three miles ahead. this indeed is the true merit of cycling. for a view, a panorama; for one picture, a gallery. your true artist in cycling sits by the roadside, and rides only by way of an interlude. as for the worship of the machine, i would as soon worship a scene-shifter." he dropped off the bridge and mounted his machine, and was presently pursuing his smooth and noiseless way. as he vanished round the corner he sounded his gong. it was really a most potent, grave, and reverend gong, with a certain note of philosophical melancholy in its tone, as different from the vulgar tang of your common cycle as one can well imagine. it asked you, at your convenience, sir (or madam), to get out of the way, to stand aside and see a most worthy and dignified spectacle roll by, if so be you had the mind for it. as for any scolding insistence, any threat of imminent collision, there was none of it. it was the bell of a man who loved margins, who was at his ease, and would have all the world at its ease. more than anything else, it reminded me of the boom of some ivy-clad church tower, warning the world without unseemly haste that another hour had, with leisurely completeness, accomplished itself. and so he passed out of my sight and was gone. an unsuspected masterpiece (authoress unknown) he pushed it away from him. "i felt as though i had disturbed the graves of the long departed," he said with a grimace, and then addressing the egg: "forgive me the sacrilege: they sold you to me as new laid, a mere thing of yesterday. i had no idea i was opening the immemorial past. _de mortuis nihil nisi bonum_--to you at least the quotation will be novel. or i might call you bad, you poor mummy. "unhappy, pent-up, ineffectual thing!" he said, waving his jilted bread and butter, and addressing the discarded inedible. "poor old maid among eggs! and so it has come to this absolute failure with you. why were you ever laid? surely, since you were once alive, some lurking aspiration, some lowly, and yet not lowly, but most divine, striving towards the higher and the better, hath stirred within you. the warm sunlight shone through your translucent shell, the sweet air stirred the sweet hay of the nest, and life called you from your dreaming to awake, and join it in its interplay. and now! you might have been--what might you not have been? a prize hen, fountain of a broadening stream of hens, chicks, dozens of chicks, hundreds of chicks, a surging ocean of chickens. had you been hatched among the early victorian chickens that were, i presume, your contemporaries, by now you might have been a million fowl, and the delight and support of hundreds of thousands of homes. you might have been worth thousands of pounds and have eaten corn by the ton. they might have written articles about you in half-crown reviews and devoted poultry farms to your sole support. and instead you have been narrowed down to this sordid back-street tragedy, a mere offence, tempting a struggling tradesman to risk the honour of my patronage of his books, for a paltry fraction of a pennyworth of profit. why, i ask you, were you not hatched? was it lack of courage? a fear of the unknown dangers that lie outside the shell? "an indescribable pity wells up in me for this lost egg, this dead end in the tree of life, george. one thinks of the humble but deserving amoeba, the primordial metazöon, the first fish, the remote reptile ancestor, the countless generations of forefathers that, so far as this egg went, have lived and learnt and suffered in vain. the torrent of life had split and rushed by on either side of it. and you might," cried he, turning to the egg again, "have been a variety, a novelty, and an improvement in chickens. no chick now will ever be _exactly_ the chick you might have been. only an olive schreiner could do full justice to your failure, you poor nun, you futile eremite, you absolute and hopeless impasse. was it, i ask again, a lack of courage? "perhaps a lack of opportunity? it may be you stirred and hoped in the distant past, and the warmth to quicken you never came. ambition may have fretted you. indeed, now i think of it, there is something in the flavour of you, singularly suggestive of disappointed ambition. in literature, and more particularly in criticism, i can assure you i have met the very fellow of your quality, from literary rotten eggs whose opening came too late. they are like the genii in the 'arabian nights' whom solomon, the son of david, sealed in the pot. at first he promised infinite delights to his discoverer--and his discoverer lagged. in the end he was filled with unreasonable hatred against all the feeble free, and emerged as a malignant fume, eager to wreak himself upon the world. "a sudden thought, george! i see my egg in a new light, and all my pity changes to respect. surely it is a most potent egg, a gallinaceous swift. after all, anything but pointless and childless, since it has this strange quality of being offensive and engendering thought. food for the mind if not food for the body--didactic if not delightful--a bit of modern literature, earnest and fundamentally real. i must try and understand you, ibsen ovarum. possibly it is a profound parable i have stumbled upon. though i scarcely reckoned on a parable with my bread and butter. frankly, i must confess i bought it for the eating." now that my uncle had at last begun to grasp the true greatness of his egg, he apparently considered it becoming to drop the tone of half-patronising pity he had previously adopted. "come," said he, smiling, with a dash of raillery, over his coffee-cup; "admit you are a humbug, you whitened sepulchre of an anticipated chick! until you found a congenial soul and overwhelmed me with your confidence, what a career of deception--not mean, of course, but cynical--ironical--you have been leading. what a jest it must have been to you to be sold as new laid! how you laughed in your quiet way at the mockery of life. surely it was a worthy pair to swift in cassock and bands conducting a marriage service. i can well fancy your silent scorn of the hand that put you in the bag. new laid! but now i have the full humour of you. you must pardon my dulness of apprehension. i grasp your meaning now; your quiet insistent teaching that all life is decay and all decay is life. no forcing the accent, no crudity, but a pervading persuasion. a noble gospel!" he paused impressively, placed the egg respectfully upon his bureau, and presently went off at a tangent to something else. "shall i throw this away?" said the girl. "good heavens! throw it away? certainly not. put it in the library." (the library used to be the corner of the room by the window.) she stared at me with a certain attempt at confidence. she is a callous, impertinent kind of girl, and i fear inclined to be bold. "it _do_ smell, sir," she said to him. "that's the merit of it. it's irony. go and put it on the fourth shelf near the window. there are some yellow-covered books there, and swift, some comedies by a gentleman named ibsen, and a couple of novels by two gentlemen named george ------. but there! you don't know one book from another! the fourth shelf from the top on the right-hand side." as the girl did so she looked over her hand at me, and lifted her eyebrows very slightly. the great change my uncle had been hectic all day. i knew and dreaded what was coming, and said nothing that by any chance could lead up to it. he absent-mindedly tipped the emu sixpence. then we came to the wart hog. "a bachelor," he said, meditatively, scratching the brute's back. i hastily felt for a saving topic in the apprehensive darkness of my mind, and could find none. "i expect i shall be married in october," said my uncle. then, sighing: "the idyll of my engagement was short-lived." it was out. now, the day--my last idle day with my poor uncle--was a hideous wreck. all the topics he had fluttered round vanished, and, cold and awful, there loomed over us the one great topic. "what do you _think_ of marriage, george?" said my uncle, after a pause, prodding the wart hog suddenly. "that's your privilege," said i. "married men don't dare to think of it. bigamy." "privilege! is it such a headlong wreck of one's ideals as they say?" said my uncle. "is that dreamland furniture really so unstable in use?" "of course," said i, "it's different from what one expects. but it seems to be worse for the other party. at least to judge from the novels they engender in their agony." "so far as i can see," he proceeded, "what happens is very similar to a thing a scientific chap was explaining to me the other day. there are some little beasts in the sea called ascidians, and they begin life as cheerful little tadpole things, with waggling tails and big expressive eyes. they move freely about hither and thither, and often travel vast distances in an adventurous way. then what he called metamorphosis begins. the little tadpole waggles his way to a rock and fixes himself head downward. then he undergoes the oddest changes, becomes indeed a mere vegetative excrescence on the stone, secretes a lot of tough muck round himself, and is altogether lost to free oceanic society. he loses the cheerful tail, loses most of his brain, loses his bright expressive eye." "the bother of it," said i, "is that very often the wandering expressive eye is not lost in the human metamorphosis." "putting it in another way, one might say that the kind of story that ovid is so fond of describing, the affairs of daphne and io, for instance, are fables of the same thing: an interlude of sentiment and then a change into something new and domesticated, rooted, fixed, and bounded in." "it is certainly always a settling down," said i. "i don't like this idea of settling down, george." he shuddered. "it must be a dreadful thing to go about always with a house on your mind." "you get used to it. and, besides, you don't go about so much." he gave the bachelor wart hog a parting dig, and we walked slowly and silently through the zebra-house towards the elephants. "of course we do not intend to settle down," he said presently, with a clumsy effort to render his previous remarks impersonal. "a marriage invalidates all promises," i explained. "the law recognises this in the case of wills." "that's a new view," he said, evidently uncomfortable about something. "it follows from your doctrine of metamorphosis. a marries b. then the great change begins. a gradually alters into a new fixed form, c, while b flattens and broadens out as d. it is a different couple, and they cannot reasonably be held responsible for the vagaries of a and b." "that ought to be better understood." "it would perhaps be as well. before marriage edwin vows to devote his life to angelina, and angelina vows she will devote her life to edwin. after marriage this leads to confusion if they continue to believe such promises. marriage certainly has that odd effect on the memory. you remember angelina's promises and forget your own, and _vice versa_." "there is no apparition more distressing than the ghost of a dead promise," said my uncle. "especially when it is raised in the house of your friends." we passed through the elephant house in silence. "i wonder what kind of man i shall be after the change, george. it's all a toss-up," he continued, after an interval. "i have seen some men improved by it. you, for instance. you were a mere useless, indecent aspirant to genius before the thing came upon you. now you are a respectable journalist and gracefully anxious to give satisfaction to your editor. but my own impression is that a man has to be a bit of an ass before he can be improved by marriage. most men get so mercenary, they simply work and do nothing a rational creature should. they are like the male ants that shed their wings after the nuptial flight. and their wives go round talking fashion articles, and calling them dear old stupids, and flirting over teacups with the unmarried men, or writing novelettes about the child-man, and living their own lives. i've been an unmarried man and i know all about it. every intelligent woman now seems to want to live her own life when she is not engaged in taking the child-man out into polite society, and trying to wean him from alcohol and tobacco. however, this scarcely applies to me." "not now," i said. and he winced. "i wonder how it feels. most men go into this without knowing of the change that hangs over them. but i am older. it would not be nice for a caterpillar if he knew he was going to rip up all along his back in a minute or so. yet i could sympathise with such a caterpillar now. anyhow, george, i hope the change will be complete. i would not like to undergo only a partial metamorphosis, and become a queer speckled monster all spotted with bachelor habits. yet i sometimes think i am beyond the adolescent stage, and my habits rather deeply rooted. hitherto, i have always damned a little at braces and collars and things like that. i wish i knew where one could pick up a few admissible expletives. and i loaf about london all day sometimes without any very clear idea of what i am after, telling chaps in studios how to paint, and talking to leisurely barristers, and all that kind of thing." "_she_," i said, "will probably help you to conquer habits of that sort." "yes, i dare say she will," said my uncle. "i forgot that for the minute." the pains of marriage my uncle came to a stop outside a stationer's shop in oxford-street. when i saw what had caught his attention i reproached myself for my thoughtlessness. "come," said i, "tell me what you think of--of representative government." "it's no good, george. you did the same thing at the cake shop. do you think i never saw the cake shop? since this affair was settled i think every shop i pass reminds me of it--even the gunsmith's. i never suspected before how entirely retail trade turned on marriage--except, perhaps, the second-hand book shops. the whole world seems a-marrying. "it's queer," said he, "that a little while ago the thing that worried me to the exclusion of everything else was the idea of being married, and now it is so near it's entirely the getting married that upsets me. i have forgotten the horrid consequences in the horror of the operation." "it's much the same," said i, "at an execution." "look at those cards." he waved his hand towards a neat array of silver and white pasteboard. "'jemima smith,' with an arrow through the smith, and 'podger' written above it, and on the opposite side 'mr and mrs john podger.' that is where it has me, george." we went on past a display of electroplate with a card about presents in the window, past a window full of white flowers, past a carriage-builder's and a glove shop. "it's like death," said my uncle; "it turns up everywhere and is just the same for everybody. in that cake shop there were piles and piles of cakes, from little cakes ten inches across up to cakes of three hundredweight or so; all just the same rich, uneatable, greasy stuff, and with just the same white sugar on the top of them. i suppose every day they pack off scores. it makes one think of marrying in swarms, like the gnats. i catch myself wondering sometimes if the run of people really are separate individuals, or only a kind of replicas, without any tastes of their own. there are people who would rather not marry than marry without one of those cakes, george. to me it seems to be almost the most asinine position a couple of adults can be in, to have to buy a stone or so of that concentrated biliousness and cut it up, or procure other people to cut it up, and send it round to other adults who would almost as soon eat arsenic. and why cake--infantile cake? why not biscuits, or cigarettes, or chocolate? it seems to me to be playing the fool with a solemn occasion." "you see, it is the custom to have cake." "well, anyhow, i intend to break the custom." "so did i, but i had it all the same." my uncle looked at me. "you see," said i, "when a woman says you must do this or that--must have cake at a wedding, for instance--you must do it. it is not a case for argument. it is a kind of privilege they have--the categorical imperative. you will soon learn that." evidently the question was open. "but _why_ do they say you must?" "other women tell them to. they would despise any one dreadfully who did not have a really big cake--from that shop." "but why?" "my dear uncle," said i, "you are going into matrimony. you do not show a proper spirit." "the cake," said my uncle, "is only a type. there is this trousseau business again. why should a woman who is going to marry require a complete outfit of that sort? it seems to suggest--well, pre-nuptial rags at least, george. then the costume. why should a sane healthy woman be covered up in white gauze like the confectionery in a shop window when the flies are about? and why----?" he was going on in quite an aggressive tone. "there isn't a _why_," i said, "for any of it." this sort of talk always irritates a married man because it revives his own troubles. "it's just the rule. surely, if a wife is worth having she is worth being ridiculous for? you ought to be jolly glad you don't have to wear a fool's cap and paint your nose red. 'more precious than rubies'----" "don't," he said. "it must be these tradesmen," he began bitterly after an interval. "some one must be responsible, and it's just their way. do you know, george, i sometimes fancy that they have hypnotised womankind into the belief that all these uncomfortable things are absolutely necessary to a valid marriage--just as they have persuaded the landlady class that no house is complete without a big mirror over the fireplace and a bulgy sideboard. there is a very strong flavour of mesmeric suggestion about a woman's attitude towards these matters, considered in the light of her customary common sense. do you know, george, i really believe there is a secret society of tradesmen, a kind of priesthood, who get hold of our womenkind and muddle them up with all these fancies. it's a sort of white magic. have you ever been in a draper's shop, george?" "never," i said: "i always wait outside--among the dogs." "have you ever read a ladies' newspaper?" "i didn't know," said i, "that there was any part to read. it's all advertisements; all the articles are advertisements, all the paragraphs, the stories, the answers to correspondents--everything." "that's exactly what makes me think the tradesmen have hypnotised the sex. it may be they do it in those drapers' dens. a man spots that kind of thing at once and drops the paper. women go on year after year, simply worshipping a paper hoarding of that kind, and doing patiently everything they are told to do therein. anyhow, it is only in this way that i can account for all these expensive miseries of matrimony. i can't understand a woman in full possession of her faculties deliberately exasperating the man she has to live with--i suppose all men submit to it under protest--for these stale and stereotyped antics. she _must_ be magnetised." "they are not stale to her," i said. "mrs harborough----" he began. "of course, a widow!--i forgot," i said. "but she seems so young, you know." "and putting aside the details," said my uncle, with a transient dash of cheerfulness at my mistake; "i object to the publicity of the whole thing. it's not nice. to bring the street arab into the affair, to subject yourself to the impertinent congratulations and presents of every aspirant to your intimacy, to be patted on the back in the local newspapers as though you were going to do something clever. confound them! it's not their affair. and i'm too old to be a blushing bridegroom. then think, what am i to do, george, if that cad hagshot sends me a present?" "it would be like him if he did," i said. "i fancy he will." "i can't go and kick him," said my uncle. "declined with thanks," i suggested, "owing to pressure of other matter." "you are getting shoppy, george," said my uncle, in as near an approach to a querulous tone as i have heard from him. "you are getting married," i replied, with the complacency of one whose troubles are over. "but it's a horrible nuisance, anyhow. still, the world grows wiser, and the burden is not quite so bad as it used to be. a hundred years hence----" "i'd be willing enough to wait," said my uncle; "but i'm not the only party in this affair." he was willing enough to wait, perhaps, but time was inexorable. save for one hurried interview, i did not see him again for a week, and then it was before the altar. his garrulity had fallen from him like a garment. he was preoccupied and a trifle bashful. he fumbled with the ring. i felt almost as though he was my younger brother. i stood by him to the end, and at last came the hour of parting. i grasped his hand in silence: silently he mastered a becoming emotion. and in silence he went from me unto the new life. a misunderstood artist the gentleman with the jovian coiffure began to speak as the train moved. "'tis the utmost degradation of art," he said. he had apparently fallen into conversation with his companion upon the platform. "i don't see it," said this companion, a prosperous-looking gentleman with a gold watch-chain. "this art for art's sake--i don't believe in it, i tell you. art should have an aim. if it don't do you good, if it ain't moral, i'd as soon not have it. what good is it? i believe in ruskin. i tell you----" "_bah_!" said the gentleman in the corner, with almost explosive violence. he fired it like a big gun across the path of the incipient argument, and slew the prosperous-looking gentleman at once. he met our eyes, as we turned to him, with a complacent smile on his large white, clean-shaven face. he was a corpulent person, dressed in black, and with something of the quality of a second-hand bishop in his appearance. the demolished owner of the watch-chain made some beginnings of a posthumous speech. "_bah_!" said the gentleman in the corner, with even more force than before, and so finished him. "these people will never understand," he said, after a momentary pause, addressing the gentleman with the jovian coiffure, and indicating the remains of the prosperous gentleman by a wave of a large white hand. "why do you argue? art is ever for the few." "i did not argue," said the gentleman with the hair. "i was interrupted." the owner of the watch-chain, who had been sitting struggling with his breath, now began to sob out his indignation. "what do you _mean_, sir? saying _bah_! sir, when i am talking----" the gentleman with the large face held up a soothing hand. "peace, peace," he said. "i did not interrupt you. i annihilated you. why did you presume to talk to artists about art? go away, or i shall have to say bah! again. go and have a fit. leave us--two rare souls who may not meet again--to our talking." "did you ever see such abominable _rudeness_, sir?" said the gentleman with the watch-chain, appealing to me. there were tears in his eyes. at the same time the young man with the aureole made some remark to the corpulent gentleman that i failed to catch. "these artists," said i, "are unaccountable, irresponsible. you must----" "take it from whence it comes," said the insulted one, very loudly, and bitterly glaring at his opponent. but the two artists were conversing serenely. i felt the undignified quality of our conversation. "have you seen _punch_?" said i, thrusting it into his hand. he looked at the paper for a moment in a puzzled way; then understood, thanked me, and began to read with a thunderous scowl, every now and then shooting murderous glances at his antagonist in the opposite corner, or coughing in an aggressive manner. "you do your best," the gentleman with the long hair was saying; "and they say, 'what is it for?' 'it is for itself,' you say. like the stars." "but these people," said the stout gentleman, "think the stars were made to set their clocks by. they lack the magnanimity to drop the personal reference. a friend, a _confrère_, saw a party of these horrible extension people at rome before that exquisite venus of titian. 'and now, mr something-or-other,' said one of the young ladies, addressing the pedagogue in command, 'what is _this_ to teach us?'" "i have had the same experience," said the young gentleman with the hair. "a man sent to me only a week ago to ask what my sonnet 'the scarlet thread' _meant_?" the stout person shook his head as though such things passed all belief. "gur-r-r-r," said the gentleman with _punch_, and scraped with his foot on the floor of the carriage. "i gave him answer," said the poet, "'twas a sonnet; not a symbol." "precisely," said the stout gentleman. "'tis the fate of all art to be misunderstood. i am always grossly misunderstood--by every one. they call me fantastic, whereas i am but inevitably new; indecent, because i am unfettered by mere trivial personal restrictions; unwholesome." "it is what they say to me. they are always trying to pull me to earth. 'is it wholesome?' they say; 'nutritious?' i say to them, 'i do not know. i am an artist. i do not care. it is beautiful.'" "you rhyme?" said the poet. "no. my work is--more plastic. i cook." for a moment, perhaps, the poet was disconcerted. "a noble art," he said, recovering. "the noblest," said the cook. "but sorely misunderstood; degraded to utilitarian ends; tested by impossible standards. i have been seriously asked to render oily food palatable to a delicate patient. seriously!" "he said, 'bah!' bah! to _me_!" mumbled the defunct gentleman with _punch_, apparently addressing the cartoon. "a cook! good _lord_!" "i resigned. 'cookery,' i said, 'is an art. i am not a fattener of human cattle. think: is it art to write a book with an object, to paint a picture for strategy?' 'are we,' i said, 'in the sixties or the nineties? here, in your kitchen, i am inspired with beautiful dinners, and i produce them. it is your place to gather together, from this place one, and from that, one, the few precious souls who can appreciate that rare and wonderful thing, a dinner, graceful, harmonious, exquisite, perfect.' and he argued i must study his guests!" "no artist is of any worth," said the poet, "who primarily studies what the public needs." "as i told him. but the next man was worse--hygienic. while with this creature i read poe for the first time, and i was singularly fascinated by some of his grotesques. i tried--it was an altogether new development, i believe, in culinary art--the bizarre. i made some curious arrangements in pork and strawberries, with a sauce containing beer. quite by accident i mentioned my design to him on the evening of the festival. all the philistine was aroused in him. 'it will ruin my digestion.' 'my friend,' i said, 'i am not your doctor; i have nothing to do with your digestion. only here is a beautiful japanese thing, a quaint, queer, almost eerie dinner, that is in my humble opinion worth many digestions. you may take it or leave it, but 'tis the last dinner i cook for you.' ... i knew i was wasted upon him. "then i produced some nocturnes in imitation of mr whistler, with mushrooms, truffles, grilled meat, pickled walnuts, black pudding, french plums, porter--a dinner in soft velvety black, eaten in a starlight of small scattered candles. that, too, led to a resignation: art will ever demand its martyrs." the poet made sympathetic noises. "always. the awful many will never understand. their conception of my skill is altogether on a level with their conceptions of music, of literature, of painting. for wall decorations they love autotypes; for literature, harmless volumes of twaddle that leave no vivid impressions on the mind; for dinners, harmless dishes that are forgotten as they are eaten. _my_ dinners stick in the memory. i cannot study these people--my genius is all too imperative. if i needed a flavour of almonds and had nothing else to hand, i would use prussic acid. do right, i say, as your art instinct commands, and take no heed of the consequences. our function is to make the beautiful gastronomic thing, not to pander to gluttony, not to be the jesuits of hygiene. my friend, you should see some of my compositions. at home i have books and books in manuscript, symphonies, picnics, fantasies, _etudes_..." the train was now entering clapham junction. the gentleman with the gold watch-chain returned my _punch_. "a cook," he said in a whisper; "just a common cook!" he lifted his eyebrows and shook his head at me, and proceeded to extricate himself and his umbrella from the carriage. "out of a situation too!" he said--a little louder--as i prepared to follow him. "mere dripping!" said the artist in cookery, with a regal wave of the hand. had i felt sure i was included, i should of course have resented the phrase. the man with a nose "i never see thy face but i think upon hell-fire, and dives that lived in purple, for there he is in his robes, burning, burning." "my nose has been the curse of my life." the other man started. they had not spoken before. they were sitting, one at either end, on that seat on the stony summit of primrose hill which looks towards regent's park. it was night. the paths on the slope below were dotted out by yellow lamps; the albert-road was a line of faintly luminous pale green--the tint of gaslight seen among trees; beyond, the park lay black and mysterious, and still further, a yellow mist beneath and a coppery hue in the sky above marked the blaze of the marylebone thoroughfares. the nearer houses in the albert-terrace loomed large and black, their blackness pierced irregularly by luminous windows. above, starlight. both men had been silent, lost apparently in their own thoughts, mere dim black figures to each other, until one had seen fit to become a voice also, with this confidence. "yes," he said, after an interval, "my nose has always stood in my way, always." the second man had scarcely seemed to notice the first remark, but now he peered through the night at his interlocutor. it was a little man he saw, with face turned towards him. "i see nothing wrong with your nose." "if it were luminous you might," said the first speaker. "however, i will illuminate it." he fumbled with something in his pocket, then held this object in his hand. there was a scratch, a streak of greenish phosphorescent light, and then all the world beyond became black, as a fusee vesta flared. there was silence for the space of a minute. an impressive pause. "well?" said the man with the nose, putting his heel on the light. "i have seen worse," said the second man. "i doubt it," said the man with the nose; "and even so, it is poor comfort. did you notice the shape? the size? the colour? like snowdon, it has a steep side and a gentle slope. the size is preposterous: my face is like a hen-house built behind a portico. and the tints!" "it is not all red," said the second man, "anyhow." "no, there is purple, and blue, '_lapis lazuli_, blue as a vein over the madonna's breast,' and in one place a greyish mole. bah! the thing is not a nose at all, but a bit of primordial chaos clapped on to my face. but, being where the nose should be, it gets the credit of its position from unthinking people. there is a gap in the order of the universe in front of my face, a lump of unwrought material left over. in that my true nose is hidden, as a statue is hidden in a lump of marble, until the appointed time for the revelation shall come. at the resurrection---- but one must not anticipate. well, well. i do not often talk about my nose, my friend, but you sat with a sympathetic pose, it seemed to me, and to-night my heart is full of it. this cursed nose! but do i weary you, thrusting my nose into your meditations?" "if," said the second man, his voice a little unsteady, as though he was moved, "if it eases your mind to talk of your nose, pray talk." "this nose, i say then, makes me think of the false noses of carnival times. your dullest man has but to stick one on, and lo! mirth, wit, and jollity. they are enough to make anything funny. i doubt if even an anglican bishop could wear one with impunity. put an angel in one. how would you like one popped on to _you_ now? think of going love-making, or addressing a public meeting, or dying gloriously, in a nose like mine! angelina laughs in your face, the public laughs, the executioner at your martyrdom can hardly light the faggots for laughing. by heaven! it is no joke. often and often i have rebelled, and said, 'i will not have this nose!'" "but what can one do?" "it is destiny. the bitter tragedy of it is that it is so comic. only, god knows, how glad i shall be when the carnival is over, and i may take the thing off and put it aside. the worst has been this business of love. my mind is not unrefined, my body is healthy. i know what tenderness is. but what woman could overlook a nose like mine? how could she shut out her visions of it, and look her love into my eyes, glaring at her over its immensity? i should have to make love through an inquisitor's hood, with its holes cut for the eyes--and even then the shape would show. i have read, i have been told, i can imagine what a lover's face is like--a sweet woman's face radiant with love. but this millbank penitentiary of flesh chills their dear hearts." he broke off suddenly, with loud ferocious curses. a young man who had been sitting very close to a young woman on an adjacent seat, started up and said "ssh!". he whom the man with the nose had addressed now spoke. "i have certainly never thought before of a red nose as a sorrowful thing, but as you put it...." "i thought you would understand. i have had this nose all my life. the outline was done, even though the colour was wanting, in my school days. they called me 'nosey,' 'ovid,' 'cicero,' 'rhino,' and the 'excrescence.' it has ripened with the slow years, as fate deepens in the progress of a tragedy. love, the business of life, is a sealed book to me. to be alone! i would thank heaven.... but no! a blind woman could feel the shape of it." "besides love," interrupted the young man thoughtfully, "there are other things worth living for--duty. an unattractive nose would not interfere with that. some people think it is rather more important than love. i admit your loss, of course." "that only carries out the evidence of your voice, and tells me you are young. my dear young fellow, duty is a very fine thing indeed, but believe me, it is too colourless as a motive. there is no delight in duty. you will know that at my age. and besides, i have an infinite capacity for love and sympathy, an infinite bitterness in this solitude of my soul. i infer that you would moralise on my discontent, but i know i have seen a little of men and things from behind this ambuscade--only a truly artistic man would fall into the sympathetic attitude that attracted me. my life has had even too much of observation in it, and to the systematic anthropologist, nothing tells a man's character more than his pose after dark, when nobody seems watching. as you sit, the black outline of you is clear against the sky. ah! _now_ you are sitting stiffer. but you are no calvinist. my friend, the best of life is its delights, and the best of delights is loving and being loved. and for that--this nose! well, there are plenty of second-best things. after dark i can forget the monster a little. spring is delightful, air on the downs is delightful; it is fine to see the stars circling in the sky, while lying among the heather. even this london sky is soothing at night, though the edge is all inflamed. the shadow of my nose is darkest by day. but to-night i am bitter, because of to-morrow." "why, to-morrow?" said the younger man. "i have to meet some new people to-morrow," said the man with the nose. "there is an odd look, a mingling of amusement and pity, i am only too familiar with. my cousin, who is a gifted hostess, promises people my nose as a treat." "yes, that must be bad for you," said the young man. and then the silence healed again, and presently the man with the nose got up and passed into the dimness upon the slope of the hill. the young man watched him vanish, wondering vainly how it would be possible to console a soul under such a burthen. the passionate friends by h. g. wells author of "marriage." [illustration] with frontispiece a. l. burt company, publishers - east twenty-third street - - new york published by arrangement with harper & brothers copyright, , by harper & brothers printed in the united states of america published october, to l. e. n. s. [illustration: "our kisses were kisses of moonlight" see p. ] contents chap. page i. mr. stratton to his son ii. boyhood iii. intentions and the lady mary christian iv. the marriage of the lady mary christian v. the war in south africa vi. lady mary justin vii. beginning again viii. this swarming business of mankind ix. the spirit of the new world x. mary writes xi. the last meeting xii. the arraignment of jealousy the passionate friends chapter the first mr. stratton to his son § i want very much to set down my thoughts and my experiences of life. i want to do so now that i have come to middle age and now that my attitudes are all defined and my personal drama worked out i feel that the toil of writing and reconsideration may help to clear and fix many things that remain a little uncertain in my thoughts because they have never been fully stated, and i want to discover any lurking inconsistencies and unsuspected gaps. and i have a story. i have lived through things that have searched me. i want to tell that story as well as i can while i am still a clear-headed and active man, and while many details that may presently become blurred and altered are still rawly fresh in my mind. and to one person in particular do i wish to think i am writing, and that is to you, my only son. i want to write my story not indeed to the child you are now, but to the man you are going to be. you are half my blood and temperamentally altogether mine. a day will come when you will realize this, and want to know how life has gone with me, and then it may be altogether too late for me to answer your enquiries. i may have become inaccessible as old people are sometimes inaccessible. and so i think of leaving this book for you--at any rate, i shall write it as if i meant to leave it for you. afterwards i can consider whether i will indeed leave it.... the idea of writing such a book as this came to me first as i sat by the dead body of your grandfather--my father. it was because i wanted so greatly such a book from him that i am now writing this. he died, you must know, only a few months ago, and i went to his house to bury him and settle all his affairs. at one time he had been my greatest friend. he had never indeed talked to me about himself or his youth, but he had always showed an extraordinary sympathy and helpfulness for me in all the confusion and perplexities into which i fell. this did not last to the end of his life. i was the child of his middle years, and suddenly, in a year or less, the curtains of age and infirmity fell between us. there came an illness, an operation, and he rose from it ailing, suffering, dwarfed and altogether changed. of all the dark shadows upon life i think that change through illness and organic decay in the thoughts and spirits of those who are dear and close to us is the most evil and distressing and inexplicable. suddenly he was a changeling, a being querulous and pitiful, needing indulgence and sacrifices. in a little while a new state of affairs was established. i ceased to consider him as a man to whom one told things, of whom one could expect help or advice. we all ceased to consider him at all in that way. we humored him, put pleasant things before him, concealed whatever was disagreeable. a poor old man he was indeed in those concluding years, weakly rebellious against the firm kindliness of my cousin, his housekeeper and nurse. he who had once been so alert was now at times astonishingly apathetic. at times an impish malice i had never known in him before gleamed in little acts and speeches. his talk rambled, and for the most part was concerned with small, long-forgotten contentions. it was indistinct and difficult to follow because of a recent loss of teeth, and he craved for brandy, to restore even for a moment the sense of strength and well-being that ebbed and ebbed away from him. so that when i came to look at his dead face at last, it was with something like amazement i perceived him grave and beautiful--more grave and beautiful than he had been even in the fullness of life. all the estrangement of the final years was wiped in an instant from my mind as i looked upon his face. there came back a rush of memories, of kind, strong, patient, human aspects of his fatherhood. and i remembered as every son must remember--even you, my dear, will some day remember because it is in the very nature of sonship--insubordinations, struggles, ingratitudes, great benefits taken unthankfully, slights and disregards. it was not remorse i felt, nor repentance, but a tremendous regret that so things had happened and that life should be so. why is it, i thought, that when a son has come to manhood he cannot take his father for a friend? i had a curious sense of unprecedented communion as i stood beside him now. i felt that he understood my thoughts; his face seemed to answer with an expression of still and sympathetic patience. i was sensible of amazing gaps. we had never talked together of love, never of religion. all sorts of things that a man of twenty-eight would not dream of hiding from a coeval he had hidden from me. for some days i had to remain in his house, i had to go through his papers, handle all those intimate personal things that accumulate around a human being year by year--letters, yellowing scraps of newspaper, tokens, relics kept, accidental vestiges, significant litter. i learnt many things i had never dreamt of. at times i doubted whether i was not prying, whether i ought not to risk the loss of those necessary legal facts i sought, and burn these papers unread. there were love letters, and many such touching things. my memories of him did not change because of these new lights, but they became wonderfully illuminated. i realized him as a young man, i began to see him as a boy. i found a little half-bound botanical book with stencil-tinted illustrations, a good-conduct prize my father had won at his preparatory school; a rolled-up sheet of paper, carbonized and dry and brittle, revealed itself as a piece of specimen writing, stiff with boyish effort, decorated in ambitious and faltering flourishes and still betraying the pencil rulings his rubber should have erased. already your writing is better than that. and i found a daguerreotype portrait of him in knickerbockers against a photographer's stile. his face then was not unlike yours. i stood with that in my hand at the little bureau in his bedroom, and looked at his dead face. the flatly painted portrait of his father, my grandfather, hanging there in the stillness above the coffin, looking out on the world he had left with steady, humorous blue eyes that followed one about the room,--that, too, was revivified, touched into reality and participation by this and that, became a living presence at a conference of lives. things of his were there also in that life's accumulation.... there we were, three strattons together, and down in the dining-room were steel engravings to take us back two generations further, and we had all lived full lives, suffered, attempted, signified. i had a glimpse of the long successions of mankind. what a huge inaccessible lumber-room of thought and experience we amounted to, i thought; how much we are, how little we transmit. each one of us was but a variation, an experiment upon the stratton theme. all that i had now under my hands was but the merest hints and vestiges, moving and surprising indeed, but casual and fragmentary, of those obliterated repetitions. man is a creature becoming articulate, and why should those men have left so much of the tale untold--to be lost and forgotten? why must we all repeat things done, and come again very bitterly to wisdom our fathers have achieved before us? my grandfather there should have left me something better than the still enigma of his watching face. all my life so far has gone in learning very painfully what many men have learnt before me; i have spent the greater part of forty years in finding a sort of purpose for the uncertain and declining decades that remain. is it not time the generations drew together and helped one another? cannot we begin now to make a better use of the experiences of life so that our sons may not waste themselves so much, cannot we gather into books that men may read in an hour or so the gist of these confused and multitudinous realities of the individual career? surely the time is coming for that, when a new private literature will exist, and fathers and mothers behind their rôles of rulers, protectors, and supporters, will prepare frank and intimate records of their thought and their feeling, told as one tells things to equals, without authority or reserves or discretions, so that, they being dead, their children may rediscover them as contemporaries and friends. that desire for self-expression is indeed already almost an instinct with many of us. man is disposed to create a traditional wisdom. for me this book i contemplate is a need. i am just a year and a half from a bitter tragedy and the loss of a friend as dear as life to me. it is very constantly in my mind. she opened her mind to me as few people open their minds to anyone. in a way, little stephen, she died for you. and i am so placed that i have no one to talk to quite freely about her. the one other person to whom i talk, i cannot talk to about her; it is strange, seeing how we love and trust one another, but so it is; you will understand that the better as this story unfolds. for eight long years before the crisis that culminated in her tragic death i never saw her; yet, quite apart from the shock and distresses of that time, it has left me extraordinarily lonely and desolate. and there was a kind of dreadful splendor in that last act of hers, which has taken a great hold upon my imagination; it has interwoven with everything else in my mind, it bears now upon every question. i cannot get away from it, while it is thus pent from utterance.... perhaps having written this to you i may never show it you or leave it for you to see. but yet i must write it. of all conceivable persons you, when you have grown to manhood, are the most likely to understand. § you did not come to see your dead grandfather, nor did you know very much about the funeral. nowadays we do not bring the sweet egotisms, the vivid beautiful personal intensities of childhood, into the cold, vast presence of death. i would as soon, my dear, have sent your busy little limbs toiling up the matterhorn. i have put by a photograph of my father for you as he lay in that last stillness of his, that you will see at a properer time. your mother and i wore black only at his funeral and came back colored again into your colored world, and in a very little while your interest in this event that had taken us away for a time turned to other, more assimilable things. but there happened a little incident that laid hold upon me; you forgot it, perhaps, in a week or less, but i shall never forget it; and this incident it was that gathered up the fruits of those moments beside my father's body and set me to write this book. it had the effect of a little bright light held up against the vague dark immensities of thought and feeling that filled my mind because of my father's death. now that i come to set it down i see that it is altogether trivial, and i cannot explain how it is that it is to me so piercingly significant. i had to whip you. your respect for the admirable and patient mademoiselle potin, the protectress and companion of your public expeditions, did in some slight crisis suddenly fail you. in the extreme publicity of kensington gardens, in the presence of your two little sisters, before a startled world, you expressed an opinion of her, in two languages and a loud voice, that was not only very unjust, but extremely offensive and improper. it reflected upon her intelligence and goodness; it impeached her personal appearance; it was the kind of outcry no little gentleman should ever permit himself, however deeply he may be aggrieved. you then, so far as i was able to disentangle the evidence, assaulted her violently, hurled a stone at her, and fled her company. you came home alone by a route chosen by yourself, flushed and wrathful, braving the dangers of kensington high street. this, after my stern and deliberate edict that, upon pain of corporal punishment, respect and obedience must be paid to mademoiselle potin. the logic of the position was relentless. but where your behavior was remarkable, where the affair begins to touch my imagination, was that you yourself presently put the whole business before me. alone in the schoolroom, you seem to have come to some realization of the extraordinary dreadfulness of your behavior. such moments happen in the lives of all small boys; they happened to me times enough, to my dead father, to that grandfather of the portrait which is now in my study, to his father and his, and so on through long series of strattons, back to inarticulate, shock-haired little sinners slinking fearfully away from the awful wrath, the bellowings and limitless violence of the hairy old man of the herd. the bottom goes out of your heart then, you are full of a conviction of sin. so far you did but carry on the experience of the race. but to ask audience of me, to come and look me in the eye, to say you wanted my advice on a pressing matter, that i think marks almost a new phase in the long developing history of father and son. and your account of the fracas struck me as quite reasonably frank and honest. "i didn't seem able," you observed, "not to go on being badder and badder." we discussed the difficulties of our situation, and you passed sentence upon yourself. i saw to it that the outraged dignity of mademoiselle potin was mocked by no mere formality of infliction. you did your best to be stoical, i remember, but at last you yelped and wept. then, justice being done, you rearranged your costume. the situation was a little difficult until you, still sobbing and buttoning--you are really a shocking bad hand at buttons--and looking a very small, tender, ruffled, rueful thing indeed, strolled towards my study window. "the pear tree is out next door," you remarked, without a trace of animosity, and sobbing as one might hiccough. i suppose there are moments in the lives of all grown men when they come near to weeping aloud. in some secret place within myself i must have been a wild river of tears. i answered, however, with the same admirable detachment from the smarting past that you had achieved, that my study window was particularly adapted to the appreciation of our neighbor's pear tree, because of its height from the ground. we fell into a conversation about blossom and the setting of fruit, kneeling together upon my window-seat and looking up into the pear tree against the sky, and then down through its black branches into the gardens all quickening with spring. we were on so friendly a footing when presently mademoiselle potin returned and placed her dignity or her resignation in my hands, that i doubt if she believed a word of all my assurances until the unmistakable confirmation of your evening bath. then, as i understood it, she was extremely remorseful to you and indignant against my violence.... but when i knelt with you, little urchin, upon my window-seat, it came to me as a thing almost intolerably desirable that some day you should become my real and understanding friend. i loved you profoundly. i wanted to stretch forward into time and speak to you, man myself to the man you are yet to be. it seemed to me that between us there must needs be peculiar subtleties of sympathy. and i remembered that by the time you were a man fully grown and emerging from the passionately tumultuous openings of manhood, capable of forgiving me all my blundering parentage, capable of perceiving all the justifying fine intention of my ill-conceived disciplines and misdirections, i might be either an old man, shriveling again to an inexplicable egotism, or dead. i saw myself as i had seen my father--first enfeebled and then inaccessibly tranquil. when presently you had gone from my study, i went to my writing-desk and drew a paper pad towards me, and sat thinking and making idle marks upon it with my pen. i wanted to exceed the limits of those frozen silences that must come at last between us, write a book that should lie in your world like a seed, and at last, as your own being ripened, flower into living understanding by your side. this book, which before had been only an idea for a book, competing against many other ideas and the demands of that toilsome work for peace and understanding to which i have devoted the daily energies of my life, had become, i felt, an imperative necessity between us. § and then there happened one of those crises of dread and apprehension and pain that are like a ploughing of the heart. it was brought home to me that you might die even before the first pages of this book of yours were written. you became feverish, complained of that queer pain you had felt twice before, and for the third time you were ill with appendicitis. your mother and i came and regarded your touzled head and flushed little face on the pillow as you slept uneasily, and decided that we must take no more risks with you. so soon as your temperature had fallen again we set about the business of an operation. we told each other that nowadays these operations were as safe as going to sleep in your bed, but we knew better. our own doctor had lost his son. "that," we said, "was different." but we knew well enough in our hearts that you were going very near to the edge of death, nearer than you had ever been since first you came clucking into the world. the operation was done at home. a capable, fair-complexioned nurse took possession of us; and my study, because it has the best light, was transfigured into an admirable operating-room. all its furnishings were sent away, every cloth and curtain, and the walls and floor were covered with white sterilized sheets. the high little mechanical table they erected before the window seemed to me like an altar on which i had to offer up my son. there were basins of disinfectants and towels conveniently about, the operator came, took out his array of scalpels and forceps and little sponges from the black bag he carried, put them ready for his hand, and then covered them from your sight with a white cloth, and i brought you down in my arms, wrapped in a blanket, from your bedroom to the anæsthetist. you were beautifully trustful and submissive and unafraid. i stood by you until the chloroform had done its work, and then left you there, lest my presence should in the slightest degree embarrass the surgeon. the anæsthetic had taken all the color out of your face, and you looked pinched and shrunken and greenish and very small and pitiful. i went into the drawing-room and stood there with your mother and made conversation. i cannot recall what we said, i think it was about the moorland to which we were going for your convalescence. indeed, we were but the ghosts of ourselves; all our substance seemed listening, listening to the little sounds that came to us from the study. then after long ages there was a going to and fro of feet, a bump, the opening of a door, and our own doctor came into the room rubbing his hands together and doing nothing to conceal his profound relief. "admirable," he said, "altogether successful." i went up to you and saw a tumbled little person in the bed, still heavily insensible and moaning slightly. by the table were bloody towels, and in a shallow glass tray was a small object like a damaged piece of earthworm. "not a bit too soon," said the surgeon, holding this up in his forceps for my inspection. "it's on the very verge of perforation." i affected a detached and scientific interest, but the prevailing impression in my mind was that this was a fragment from very nearly the centre of your being. he took it away with him, i know not whither. perhaps it is now in spirits in a specimen jar, an example to all medical students of what to avoid in an appendix; perhaps it was stained and frozen, and microtomized into transparent sections as they do such things, and mounted on glass slips and distributed about the world for curious histologists to wreak their eyes upon. for a time you lay uneasily still and then woke up to pain. even then you got a fresh purchase on my heart. it has always been our custom to discourage weeping and outcries, and you did not forget your training. "i shan't mind so much, dadda," you remarked to me, "if i may yelp." so for a day, by special concession, you yelped, and then the sting of those fresh wounds departed. within a fortnight, so quickly does an aseptic wound heal up again, you were running about in the sun, and i had come back, as one comes back to a thing forgotten, to the first beginnings of this chapter on my desk. but for a time i could not go on working at it because of the fear i had felt, and it is only now in june, in this house in france to which we have come for the summer, with you more flagrantly healthy than i have ever known you before, that my heart creeps out of its hole again, and i can go on with my story. chapter the second boyhood § i was a harbury boy as my father and grandfather were before me and as you are presently to be. i went to harbury at the age of fourteen. until then i was educated at home, first by a governess and then by my father's curate, mr. siddons, who went from us to st. philip's in hampstead, and, succeeding marvellously there, is now bishop of exminster. my father became rector of burnmore when i was nine; my mother had been dead four years, and my second cousin, jane stratton, was already his housekeeper. my father held the living until his resignation when i was nearly thirty. so that all the most impressionable years of my life centre upon the burnmore rectory and the easy spaciousness of burnmore park. my boyhood and adolescence alternated between the ivied red-brick and ancient traditions of harbury (and afterwards christ-church) and that still untroubled countryside. i was never a town dweller until i married and we took our present house in holland park. i went into london at last as one goes into an arena. it cramps me and wearies me and at times nearly overwhelms me, but there it is that the life of men centres and my work lies. but every summer we do as we have done this year and go to some house in the country, near to forests or moorland or suchlike open and uncultivated country, where one may have the refreshment of freedom among natural and unhurried things. this year we are in a walled garden upon the seine, about four miles above château galliard, and with the forest reaching up to the paddock beyond the orchard close.... you will understand better when i have told you my story why i saw burnmore for the last time when i was one-and-twenty and why my memories of it shine so crystalline clear. i have a thousand vivid miniatures of it in my mind and all of them are beautiful to me, so that i could quite easily write a whole book of landscapes from the park alone. i can still recall quite vividly the warm beauty-soaked sensation of going out into the morning sunshine of the park, with my lunch in a little green swiss tin under my arm and the vast interminable day all before me, the gigantic, divinely unconditional day that only boyhood knows, and the park so great and various that it was more than two hours' going for me to reach its eastern fences. i was only a little older then than you are now. sometimes i went right up through the woods to the house to companion with philip and guy christian and their sister--i loved her then, and one day i was to love her with all my heart--but in those boyish times i liked most to go alone. my memories of the park are all under blue sky and sunshine, with just a thunderstorm or so; on wet days and cold days i was kept to closer limits; and it seems to me now rather an intellectual conviction than a positive memory that save for a few pine-clad patches in the extreme south-east, its soil was all thick clay. that meant for me only beautiful green marshes, a number of vividly interesting meres upon the course of its stream, and a wealth of gigantic oaks. the meres lay at various levels, and the hand of lady ladislaw had assisted nature in their enrichment with lilies and water plants. there were places of sedge and scented rush, amidst which were sapphire mists of forget-me-not for long stretches, skirmishing commandoes of yellow iris and wide wastes of floating water-lilies. the gardens passed insensibly into the park, and beyond the house were broad stretches of grass, sun-lit, barred with the deep-green shadows of great trees, and animated with groups and lines of fallow deer. near the house was an italianate garden, with balustradings and statuary, and a great wealth of roses and flowering shrubs. then there were bracken wildernesses in which the does lurked with the young fawns, and a hollow, shallow and wide, with the turf greatly attacked by rabbits, and exceptionally threadbare, where a stricken oak, lightning-stripped, spread out its ghastly arms above contorted rotting branches and the mysterious skeletons of i should think five several deer. in the evening-time the woods behind this place of bones--they were woods of straight-growing, rather crowded trees and standing as it were a little aloof--became even under the warmest sunset grey and cold--and as if they waited.... and in the distant corner where the sand was, rose suddenly a steep little hill, surmounted by a wild and splendid group of pines, through which one looked across a vale of cornfields at an ancient town that became strange and magical as the sun went down, so that i was held gazing at it, and afterwards had to flee the twilight across the windy spaces and under the dim and darkling trees. it is only now in the distant retrospect that i identify that far-off city of wonder, and luminous mist with the commonplace little town, through whose narrow streets we drove to the railway station. but, of course, that is what it must have been. there are persons to be found mixed up in those childish memories,--lady ladislaw, tall and gracious, in dresses of floating blue or grey, or thin, subtly folding, flowering stuffs, philip and his sister, guy, the old butler, a multitude of fainter figures long become nameless and featureless; they are far less vivid in my memory than the fine solitudes of the park itself--and the dreams i had there. i wonder if you dream as i dreamt. i wonder whether indeed i dreamt as now i think i did. have i, in these latter years, given form and substance and a name to things as vague in themselves as the urgencies of instinct? did i really go into those woods and waving green places as one keeps a tryst, expectant of a fellowship more free and delicate and delightful than any i knew. did i know in those days of nymphs and dryads and fauns and all those happy soulless beings with which the desire of man's heart has animated the wilderness. once certainly i crawled slowly through the tall bracken and at last lay still for an interminable while, convinced that so i should see those shadows populous with fairies, with green little people. how patiently i lay! but the stems creaked and stirred, and my heart would keep on beating like a drum in my throat. it is incredible that once a furry whispering half-human creature with bright brown eyes came and for a time played with me near where the tall ferns foam in a broad torrent from between the big chestnuts down to the upper mere. that must have been real dreaming, and yet now, with all my sanities and scepticisms, i could half believe it real. § you become reserved. perhaps not exceptionally so, but as all children become reserved. already you understand that your heart is very preciously your own. you keep it from me and everyone, so much so, so justifiably so, that when by virtue of our kindred and all that we have in common i get sudden glimpses right into your depths, there mixes with the swift spasm of love i feel, a dread--lest you should catch me, as it were, spying into you and that one of us, i know not which, should feel ashamed. every child passes into this secret stage; it closes in from its first frankness; it carries off the growing jewel of its consciousness to hide from all mankind.... i think i can see why this should be so, but i cannot tell why in so many cases no jewel is given back again at last, alight, ripened, wonderful, glowing with the deep fires of experience. i think that is what ought to happen; it is what does happen now with true poets and true artists. someday i think it will be the life of all normal human souls. but usually it does not seem to happen at all. children pass out of a stage--open, beautiful, exquisitely simple--into silences and discretions beneath an imposed and artificial life. and they are lost. out of the finished, careful, watchful, restrained and limited man or woman, no child emerges again.... i remember very distinctly how i myself came by imperceptible increments of reservation to withdraw those early delicacies of judgments, those original and personal standards and appreciations, from sight and expression. i can recall specific moments when i perceive now that my little childish figure stood, as it were, obstinately and with a sense of novelty in a doorway denying the self within. it was partly, i think, a simple instinct that drew that curtain of silences and concealments, it was much more a realization that i had no power of lucidity to save the words and deeds i sought to make expressive from complete misunderstanding. but most of all it was the perception that i was under training and compulsion for ends that were all askew and irrelevant to the trend of my imaginations, the quality of my dreams. there was around me something unfriendly to this inner world--something very ready to pass from unfriendliness to acute hostility; and if, indeed, i succeeded in giving anything of my inner self to others, it was only, as people put it, to give myself away. my nurses, my governess, my tutor, my father, the servants about me, seemed all bent upon imposing an artificial personality upon me. only in a very limited sense did they want me. what they wanted was something that could be made out of me by extensive suppressions and additions. they ignored the fact that i had been born with a shape of my own; they were resolved i should be pressed into a mould and cast. it was not that they wanted outer conformity to certain needs and standards--that, i think, would be a reasonable thing enough to demand--but they wanted me to subdue my most private thoughts to their ideals. my nurses and my governesses would rate me for my very feelings, would clamor for gratitude and reproach me bitterly for betraying that i did not at some particular moment--love. (only yesterday i heard mademoiselle potin doing that very same thing to you. "it is that you do not care, master steve. it is that you do not care. you do not want to care.") they went too far in that invasion of my personal life, but i perceive quite clearly the present need for most of the process of moulding and subjugation that children must undergo. human society is a new thing upon the earth, an invention of the last ten thousand years. man is a creature as yet not freely and instinctively gregarious; in his more primordial state he must have been an animal of very small groups and limited associations, an animal rather self-centred and fierce, and he is still but imperfectly adapted either morally or physically to the wider social life his crowding interactions force upon him. he still learns speech and computation and civility and all the devices of this artificially extended and continually broadening tribal life with an extreme reluctance. he has to be shaped in the interests of the species, i admit, to the newer conditions; the growing social order must be protected from the keen edge of his still savage individuality, and he must be trained in his own interests to save himself from the destruction of impossible revolts. but how clumsily is the thing done! how we are caught and jammed and pressed and crippled into citizenship! how excessive and crushing is the suppression, and how inadequate! every child feels that, even if every child does not clearly know it. every child presently begins to hide itself from the confused tyrannies of the social process, from the searching inspections and injunctions and interferences of parent and priest and teacher. "i have got to be _so_," we all say deep down in ourselves and more or less distinctly according to the lucidities of our minds; "but in my heart i am _this_." and in the outcome we all try to seem at least to be _so_, while an ineffectual rebel struggles passionately, like a beast caught in a trap, for ends altogether more deep and dangerous, for the rose and the star and the wildfire,--for beauty and beautiful things. these, we all know in our darkly vital recesses, are the real needs of life, the obediences imposed upon us by our crude necessities and jostling proximities, mere incidentals on our way to those profounder purposes.... and when i write thus of our selves i mean our bodies quite as much as our imaginations; the two sides of us are covered up alike and put alike into disguises and unnatural shapes, we are taught and forced to hide them for the same reasons, from a fear of ourselves and a fear of the people about us. the sense of beauty, the sense of one's body, the freedom of thought and of desire and the wonder of life, are all interwoven strands. i remember that in the park of burnmore one great craving i had was to take off my clothes there altogether, and bathe in a clear place among loosestrife and meadowsweet, and afterwards lie wet and naked upon the soft green turf with the sun shining upon me. but i thought also that that was a very wicked and shameful craving to have, and i never dared give way to it. § as i think of myself and all these glowing secrecies and hidden fancies within, walking along beside old siddons, and half listening to his instructive discourse, i see myself as though i was an image of all humanity under tuition for the social life. i write "old siddons," for so he seemed to me then. in truth he was scarcely a dozen years older than i, and the other day when i exchanged salutations with his gaitered presence in the haymarket, on his way i suppose to the athenæum, it struck me that he it is who is now the younger man. but at burnmore he was eighteen inches or more above my head and all the way of school and university beyond me; full of the world they had fitted him for and eager to impart its doctrines. he went along in his tweeds that were studiously untidy, a norfolk jacket of one clerically-greyish stuff and trousers of another somewhat lighter pattern, in thick boots, the collar of his calling, and a broad-minded hat, bearing his face heavenward as he talked, and not so much aware of me as appreciating the things he was saying. and sometimes he was manifestly talking to himself and airing his outlook. he carried a walking-stick, a manly, homely, knobby, donnish walking-stick. he forced the pace a little, for his legs were long and he had acquired the habit of strenuous pedestrianism at oxford with all the other things; he obliged me to go at a kind of skipping trot, and he preferred the high roads towards wickenham for our walks, because they were flatter and there was little traffic upon them in those days before the motor car, and we could keep abreast and go on talking uninterruptedly. that is to say, he could. what talk it was! of all the virtues that the young should have. he spoke of courage and how splendid it was to accustom oneself not even to feel fear; of truth, and difficult cases when one might conceivably injure others by telling the truth and so perhaps, perhaps qualify the rigor of one's integrity, but how one should never hesitate to injure one's own self in that matter. then in another phase he talked of belief--and the disagreeableness of dissenters. but here, i remember, there was a discussion. i have forgotten how i put the thing, but in some boyish phrasing or other i must have thrown out the idea that thought is free and beliefs uncontrollable. what of conformity, if the truth was that you doubted? "not if you make an effort," i remember him saying, "not if you make an effort. i have had my struggles. but if you say firmly to yourself, the church teaches this. if you dismiss mere carping and say that." "but suppose you can't," i must have urged. "you can if you will," he said with a note near enthusiasm. "i have been through all that. i did it. i dismissed doubts. i wouldn't listen. i felt, _this won't do. all this leads nowhere._" and he it was told me the classic story of that presumptuous schoolboy who went to his head master and declared himself an atheist. there were no dialectics but a prompt horse-whipping. "in after life," said mr. siddons, with unctuous gratification, "he came to recognize that thrashing as the very best thing that had ever happened to him. the kindest thing." "yes," urged the obstinate rebel within me, "but--the truth, that fearless insistence on the truth!" i could, however, find nothing effective to say aloud, and siddons prevailed over me. that story made my blood boil, it filled me with an anticipatory hatred of and hostility to head masters, and at the same time there was something in it, brutally truer to the conditions of human association than any argument. i do not remember the various steps by which i came to be discussing doubts so early in my life. i could not have been much more than thirteen when that conversation occurred. i am i think perhaps exceptionally unconscious about myself. i find i can recall the sayings and even the gestures of other people far more distinctly than the things i said and did myself. even my dreams and imaginings are more active than my positive thoughts and proceedings. but i was no doubt very much stimulated by the literature lying about my home and the gleans and echoes of controversies that played like summer lightning round and about the horizons of my world. over my head and after i had gone to bed, my father and siddons were talking, my cousin was listening with strained apprehensions, there was a new spirit in my father's sermons; it was the storm of huxley-darwin controversies that had at last reached burnmore. i was an intelligent little listener, an eager reader of anything that came to hand, mr. siddons had a disposition to fight his battles over again in his monologues to me; and after all at thirteen one isn't a baby. the small boy of the lower classes used in those days to start life for himself long before then. how dramatic a phase it was in the history of the human mind when science suddenly came into the vicarages, into all the studies and quiet places that had been the fastnesses of conviction and our ideals, and denied, with all the power of evidence it had been accumulating for so long, and so obscurely and inaggressively, with fossils and strata, with embryology and comparative anatomy, the doctrine of the historical fall and all the current scheme of orthodoxy that was based on that! what a quickening shock it must have been in countless thousands of educated lives! and my father after a toughly honest resistance was won over to darwinism, the idea of evolution got hold of him, the idea that life itself was intolerant of vain repetitions; and he had had to "consider his position" in the church. to him as to innumerable other honest, middle-aged and comfortable men, darwinism came as a dreadful invitation to go out into the wilderness. over my head and just out of range of my ears he was debating that issue with siddons as a foil and my cousin as a horrified antagonist. slowly he was developing his conception of compromise. and meanwhile he wasn't going out into the wilderness at all, but punctually to and fro, along the edge of the lawn by the bed of hollyhocks and through the little green door in the garden wall, and across the corner of the churchyard to the vestry and the perennial services and sacraments of the church. but he never talked to me privately of religion. he left that for my cousin and mr. siddons to do or not to do as they felt disposed, and in those silences of his i may have found another confirmation of my growing feeling that religion was from one point of view a thing somehow remote and unreal, claiming unjustifiable interventions in the detailed conduct of my life, and from another a peculiar concern of my father's and mr. siddons', to which they went--through the vestry, changing into strange garments on the way. § i do not want to leave the impression which my last section may have conveyed that at the age of thirteen or thereabouts i walked about with mr. siddons discussing doubt in a candid and intelligent manner and maintaining theological positions. that particular conversation, you must imagine with mr. siddons somewhat monologuing, addressing himself not only to my present self, but with an unaccustomed valiance to my absent father. what i may have said or not said, whether i did indeed dispute or merely and by a kind of accident implied objections, i have altogether forgotten long ago. a boy far more than a man is mentally a discontinuous being. the drifting chaos of his mind makes its experimental beginnings at a hundred different points and in a hundred different spirits and directions; here he flashes into a concrete realization, here into a conviction unconsciously incompatible; here is something originally conceived, here something uncritically accepted. i know that i criticized mr. siddons quite acutely, and disbelieved in him. i know also that i accepted all sorts of suggestions from him quite unhesitatingly and that i did my utmost to satisfy his standards and realize his ideals of me. like an outer casing to that primordial creature of senses and dreams which came to the surface in the solitudes of the park was my siddonsesque self, a high-minded and clean and brave english boy, conscientiously loyal to queen and country, athletic and a good sportsman and acutely alive to good and bad "form." mr. siddons made me aware of my clothed self as a visible object, i surveyed my garmented being in mirrors and was trained to feel the "awfulness" of various other small boys who appeared transitorily in the smaller park when lady ladislaw extended her wide hospitality to certain benevolent london associations. their ill-fitting clothing, their undisciplined outcries, their slouching, their bad throwing and defective aspirates were made matters for detestation in my plastic mind. those things, i was assured, placed them outside the pale of any common humanity. "very unfortunate and all that," said mr. siddons, "and uncommonly good of lady ladislaw to have them down. but dirty little cads, stephen, dirty little cads; so don't go near 'em if you can help it." they played an indecent sort of cricket with coats instead of a wicket! mr. siddons was very grave about games and the strict ritual and proper apparatus for games. he believed that waterloo was won by the indirect influence of public school cricket--disregarding many other contributory factors. we did not play very much, but we "practised" sedulously at a net in the paddock with the gardener and the doctor's almost grown-up sons. i thought missing a possible catch was an impropriety. i studiously maintained the correct attitude, alert and elastic, while i was fielding. moreover i had a shameful secret, that i did not really know where a ball ought to pitch. i wasn't clear about it and i did not dare to ask. also until i was nearly thirteen i couldn't bowl overarm. such is the enduring force of early suggestion, my dear son, that i feel a faint twinge of shame as i set this down for your humiliated eyes. but so it was. may you be more precocious! then i was induced to believe that i really liked hunting and killing things. in the depths of my being i was a gentle and primitive savage towards animals; i believed they were as subtle and wise as myself and full of a magic of their own, but mr. siddons nevertheless got me out into the south warren, where i had often watched the rabbits setting their silly cock-eared sentinels and lolloping out to feed about sundown, and beguiled me into shooting a furry little fellow-creature--i can still see its eyelid quiver as it died--and carrying it home in triumph. on another occasion i remember i was worked up into a ferocious excitement about the rats in the old barn. we went ratting, just as though i was tom brown or harry east or any other of the beastly little models of cant and cruelty we english boys were trained to imitate. it was great sport. it was a tremendous spree. the distracted movements, the scampering and pawing of the little pink forefeet of one squawking little fugitive, that i hit with a stick and then beat to a shapeless bag of fur, haunted my dreams for years, and then i saw the bowels of another still living victim that had been torn open by one of the terriers, and abruptly i fled out into the yard and was violently sick; the best of the fun was over so far as i was concerned. my cousin saved me from the uttermost shame of my failure by saying that i had been excited too soon after my dinner.... and also i collected stamps and birds' eggs. mr. siddons hypnotized me into believing that i really wanted these things; he gave me an egg-cabinet for a birthday present and told me exemplary stories of the wonderful collections other boys had made. my own natural disposition to watch nests and establish heaven knows what friendly intimacy with the birds--perhaps i dreamt their mother might let me help to feed the young ones--gave place to a feverish artful hunting, a clutch, and then, detestable process, the blowing of the egg. of course we were very humane; we never took the nest, but just frightened off the sitting bird and grabbed a warm egg or so. and the poor perforated, rather damaged little egg-shells accumulated in the drawers, against the wished-for but never actually realized day of glory when we should meet another collector who wouldn't have--something that we had. so far as it was for anything and not mere imbecile imitativeness, it was for that. and writing thus of eggs reminds me that i got into a row with mr. siddons for cruelty. i discovered there was the nest of a little tit in a hole between two stones in the rock bank that bordered the lawn. i found it out when i was sitting on the garden seat near by, learning latin irregular verbs. i saw the minute preposterous round birds going and coming, and i found something so absurdly amiable and confiding about them--they sat balancing and oscillating on a standard rose and cheeped at me to go and then dived nestward and gave away their secret out of sheer impatience--that i could not bring myself to explore further, and kept the matter altogether secret from the enthusiasm of mr. siddons. and in a few days there were no more eggs and i could hear the hungry little nestlings making the minutest of fairy hullabaloos, the very finest spun silk of sound; a tremendous traffic in victual began and i was the trusted friend of the family. then one morning i was filled with amazement and anguish. there was a rock torn down and lying in the path; a paw had gone up to that little warm place. across the gravel, shreds of the nest and a wisp or so of down were scattered. i could imagine the brief horrors of that night attack. i started off, picking up stones as i went, to murder that sandy devil, the stable cat. i got her once--alas! that i am still glad to think of it--and just missed her as she flashed, a ginger streak, through the gate into the paddock. "_now_ steve! now!" came mr. siddons' voice behind me.... how can one explain things of that sort to a man like siddons? i took my lecture on the utter caddishness of wanton cruelty in a black rebellious silence. the affair and my own emotions were not only far beyond my powers of explanation, but far beyond my power of understanding. just then my soul was in shapeless and aimless revolt against something greater and higher and deeper and darker than siddons, and his reproaches were no more than the chattering of a squirrel while a storm uproots great trees. i wanted to kill the cat. i wanted to kill whatever had made that cat. § mr. siddons it was who first planted the conception of life as a career in my mind. in those talks that did so much towards shaping me into the likeness of a modest, reserved, sporting, seemly, clean and brave, patriotic and decently slangy young englishman, he was constantly reverting to that view of existence. he spoke of failures and successes, talked of statesmen and administrators, peerages and westminster abbey. "nelson," he said, "was once a clergyman's son like you." "england has been made by the sons of the clergy." he talked of the things that led to failure and the things that had made men prominent and famous. "discursiveness ruins a man," i remember him saying. "choose your goal and press to it." "never do anything needlessly odd. it's a sort of impertinence to all the endless leaders of the past who created our traditions. do not commit yourself hastily to opinions, but once you have done so, stick to them. the world would far rather have a firm man wrong, than a weak man hesitatingly right. stick to them." "one has to remember," i recall him meditating, far over my head with his face upturned, "that institutions are more important than views. very often one adopts a view only to express one's belief in an institution.... men can do with almost all sorts of views, but only with certain institutions. all this doubt doesn't touch a truth like that. one does not refuse to live in a house because of the old symbols one finds upon the door.... if they _are_ old symbols...." out of such private contemplations he would descend suddenly upon me. "what are _you_ going to do with your life, steve?" he would ask. "there is no happiness in life without some form of service. where do you mean to serve? with your bent for science and natural history, it wouldn't be difficult for you to get into the i.c.s. i doubt if you'd do anything at the law; it's a rough game, steve, though the prizes are big. big prizes the lawyers get. i've known a man in the privy council under forty--and that without anything much in the way of a family.... but always one must concentrate. the one thing england will not stand is a loafer, a wool-gatherer, a man who goes about musing and half-awake. it's our energy. we're western. it's that has made us all we are." i knew whither that pointed. never so far as i can remember did mr. siddons criticize either myself or my father directly, but i understood with the utmost clearness that he found my father indolent and hesitating, and myself more than a little bit of a mollycoddle, and in urgent need of pulling together. § harbury went on with that process of suppressing, encrusting, hardening, and bracing-up which mr. siddons had begun. for a time i pulled myself together very thoroughly. i am not ungrateful nor unfaithful to harbury; in your turn you will go there, you will have to live your life in this british world of ours and you must learn its language and manners, acquire its reserves and develop the approved toughness and patterning of cuticle. afterwards if you please you may quarrel with it. but don't when the time comes quarrel with the present conditions of human association and think it is only with harbury you quarrel. what man has become and may become beneath the masks and impositions of civilization, in his intimate texture and in the depths of his being, i begin now in my middle age to appreciate. no longer is he an instinctive savage but a creature of almost incredible variability and wonderful new possibilities. marvels undreamt of, power still inconceivable, an empire beyond the uttermost stars; such is man's inheritance. but for the present, until we get a mastery of those vague and mighty intimations at once so perplexing and so reassuring, if we are to live at all in the multitudinousness of human society we must submit to some scheme of clumsy compromises and conventions or other,--and for us strattons the harbury system is the most convenient. you will have to go to the old school. i went to rendle's. i just missed getting into college; i was two places below the lowest successful boy. i was maxton's fag to begin with, and my chief chum was raymond, who is your friend also, and who comes so often to this house. i preferred water to land, boats to cricket, because of that difficulty about pitch i have already mentioned. but i was no great sportsman. raymond and i shared a boat, and spent most of the time we gave to it under the big trees near dartpool lock, reading or talking. we would pull up to sandy hall perhaps once a week. i never rowed in any of the eights, though i was urged to do so. i swam fairly well, and got my colors on the strength of my diving. on the whole i found harbury a satisfactory and amusing place, i was neither bullied nor do i think i greatly bullied, and of all that furtive and puerile lasciviousness of which one hears so many hints nowadays--excitable people talk of it as though it was the most monstrous and singular of vices instead of a slightly debasing but almost unavoidable and very obvious result of heaping boys together under the inefficient control of a timid pretentious class of men--of such uncleanness as i say, scarcely more than a glimpse and a whisper and a vague tentative talk or so reached me. little more will reach you, for that kind of thing, like the hells of swedenborg, finds its own. i had already developed my growing instinct for observance to a very considerable extent under siddons, and at harbury i remember myself, and people remember me, as an almost stiffly correct youth. i was pretty good at most of the work, and exceptionally so at history, geology, and the biological side of natural science. i had to restrain my interest in these latter subjects lest i should appear to be a "swat," and a modern-side swat at that. i was early in the sixth, and rather a favorite with old latimer. he incited me to exercise what he called a wholesome influence on the younger boys, and i succeeded in doing this fairly well without any gross interventions. i implied rather than professed soundly orthodox views about things in general, and i was extremely careful to tilt my straw hat forward over my nose so as just not to expose the crown of my head behind, and to turn up my trousers with exactly that width of margin which the judgment of my fellow-creatures had decided was correct. my socks were spirited without being vulgar, and the ties i wore were tied with a studious avoidance of either slovenliness or priggish neatness. i wrote two articles in the harburonian, became something of a debater in the literacy and political, conducted many long conversations with my senior contemporaries upon religion, politics, sport and social life, and concealed my inmost thoughts from every human being. indeed, so effective had been the training of harbury and mr. siddons, that i think at that time i came very near concealing them from myself. i could suppress wonder, i could pass by beauty as if i did not see it, almost i think i did not see it for a time, and yet i remember it in those years too--a hundred beautiful things. harbury itself is a very beautiful place. the country about it has all the charm of river scenery in a settled and ancient land, and the great castle and piled town of wetmore, cliffs of battlemented grey wall rising above a dense cluster of red roofs, form the background to innumerable gracious prospects of great stream-fed trees, level meadows of buttercups, sweeping curves of osier and rush-rimmed river, the playing fields and the sedgy, lily-spangled levels of avonlea. the college itself is mostly late tudor and stuart brickwork, very ripe and mellow now, but the great grey chapel with its glorious east window floats over the whole like a voice singing in the evening. and the evening cloudscapes of harbury are a perpetual succession of glorious effects, now serene, now mysteriously threatening and profound, now towering to incredible heights, now revealing undreamt-of distances of luminous color. assuredly i must have delighted in all those aspects, or why should i remember them so well? but i recall, i mean, no confessed recognition of them; no deliberate going-out of my spirit, open and unashamed, to such things. i suppose one's early adolescence is necessarily the period of maximum shyness in one's life. even to raymond i attempted no extremities of confidence. even to myself i tried to be the thing that was expected of me. i professed a modest desire for temperate and tolerable achievement in life, though deep in my lost depths i wanted passionately to excel; i worked hard, much harder than i allowed to appear, and i said i did it for the credit of the school; i affected a dignified loyalty to queen and country and church; i pretended a stoical disdain for appetites and delights and all the arts, though now and then a chance fragment of poetry would light me like a fire, or a lovely picture stir unwonted urgencies, though visions of delight haunted the shadows of my imagination and did not always fly when i regarded them. but on the other hand i affected an interest in games that i was far from feeling. of some boys i was violently jealous, and this also i masked beneath a generous appreciation. certain popularities i applauded while i doubted. whatever my intimate motives i became less and less disposed to obey them until i had translated them into a plausible rendering of the accepted code. if i could not so translate them i found it wise to control them. when i wanted urgently one summer to wander by night over the hills towards kestering and lie upon heather and look up at the stars and wonder about them, i cast about and at last hit upon the well-known and approved sport of treacling for moths, as a cloak for so strange an indulgence. i must have known even then what a mask and front i was, because i knew quite well how things were with other people. i listened politely and respected and understood the admirable explanations of my friends. when some fellow got a scholarship unexpectedly and declared it was rotten bad luck on the other chap, seeing the papers he had done, and doubted whether he shouldn't resign, i had an intuitive knowledge that he wouldn't resign, and i do not remember any time in my career as the respectful listener to mr. siddons' aspirations for service and devotion, when i did not perceive quite clearly his undeviating eye upon a bishopric. he thought of gaiters though he talked of wings. how firmly the bonds of an old relationship can hold one! i remember when a few years ago he reached that toiled-for goal, i wrote in a tone of gratified surprise that in this blatant age, such disinterested effort as his should receive even so belated a recognition. yet what else was there for me to write? we all have our siddonses, with whom there are no alternatives but insincerity or a disproportionate destructiveness. i am still largely siddonsized, little son, and so, i fear, you will have to be. § the clue to all the perplexities of law and custom lies in this, that human association is an artificiality. we do not run together naturally and easily as grazing deer do or feeding starlings or a shoal of fish. we are a sort of creature which is only resuming association after a long heredity of extreme separation. we are beings strongly individualized, we are dominated by that passion which is no more and no less than individuality in action,--jealousy. jealousy is a fierce insistence on ourselves, an instinctive intolerance of our fellow-creatures, ranging between an insatiable aggression as its buoyant phase and a savage defensiveness when it is touched by fear. in our expansive moments we want to dominate and control everyone and destroy every unlikeness to ourselves; in our recessive phases our homes are our castles and we want to be let alone. now all law, all social order, all custom, is a patch-up and a concession to this separating passion of self-insistence. it is an evasion of conflict and social death. human society is as yet only a truce and not an alliance. when you understand that, you will begin to understand a thousand perplexing things in legislation and social life. you will understand the necessity of all those restrictions that are called "conventionality," and the inevitableness of the general hostility to singularity. to be exceptional is to assert a difference, to disregard the banked-up forces of jealousy and break the essential conditions of the social contract. it invites either resentment or aggression. so we all wear much the same clothing, affect modesty, use the same phrases, respect one another's "rights," and pretend a greater disinterestedness than we feel.... you have to face this reality as you must face all reality. this is the reality of laws and government; this is the reality of customs and institutions; _a convention between jealousies_. this is reality, just as the cat's way with the nestlings was reality, and the squealing rat one smashed in a paroxysm of cruelty and disgust in the barn. but it isn't the only reality. equally real is the passionate revolt of my heart against cruelty, and the deep fluctuating impulse not to pretend, to set aside fear and jealousy, to come nakedly out of the compromises and secretive methods of every-day living into the light, into a wide impersonal love, into a new way of living for mankind.... chapter the third intentions and the lady mary christian § i know that before the end of my harbury days i was already dreaming of a career, of some great and conspicuous usefulness in the world. that has always haunted my mind and haunts it now. i may be cured perhaps of the large and showy anticipations of youth, i may have learnt to drop the "great and conspicuous," but still i find it necessary to believe that i matter, that i play a part no one else can play in a progress, in a universal scheme moving towards triumphant ends. almost wholly i think i was dreaming of public service in those days. the harbury tradition pointed steadfastly towards the state, and all my world was bare of allurements to any other type of ambition. success in art or literature did not appeal to us, and a harbury boy would as soon think of being a great tinker as a great philosopher. science we called "stinks"; our three science masters were _ex officio_ ridiculous and the practical laboratory a refuge for oddities. but a good half of our fathers at least were peers or members of parliament, and our sense of politics was close and keen. history, and particularly history as it came up through the eighteenth century to our own times, supplied us with a gallery of intimate models, our great uncles and grandfathers and ancestors at large figured abundantly in the story and furnished the pattern to which we cut our anticipations of life. it was a season of imperialism, the picturesque imperialism of the earlier kipling phase, and we were all of us enthusiasts for the empire. it was the empire of the white man's burthen in those days; the sordid anti-climax of the tariff reform movement was still some years ahead of us. it was easier for us at harbury to believe then than it has become since, in our own racial and national and class supremacy. we were the anglo-saxons, the elect of the earth, leading the world in social organization, in science and economic method. in india and the east more particularly we were the apostles of even-handed justice, relentless veracity, personal cleanliness, and modern efficiency. in a spirit of adventurous benevolence we were spreading those blessings over a reluctant and occasionally recalcitrant world of people for the most part "colored." our success in this had aroused the bitter envy and rivalry of various continental nations, and particularly of france, russia, and germany. but france had been diverted to north africa, russia to eastern asia, and germany was already the most considered antagonist in our path towards an empire over the world. this was the spacious and by no means ignoble project of the later nineties. most of us harbury boys, trained as i had been trained to be uncritical, saw the national outlook in those terms. we knew little or nothing, until the fierce wranglings of the free traders and tariff reformers a few years later brought it home to us, of the commercial, financial and squalid side of our relations with the vast congeries of exploited new territories and subordinated and subjugated populations. we knew nothing of the social conditions of the mass of people in our own country. we were blankly ignorant of economics. we knew nothing of that process of expropriation and the exploitation of labor which is giving the world the servile state. the very phrase was twenty years ahead of us. we believed that an englishman was a better thing in every way than any other sort of man, that english literature, science and philosophy were a shining and unapproachable light to all other peoples, that our soldiers were better than all other soldiers and our sailors than all other sailors. such civilization and enterprise as existed in germany for instance we regarded as a shadow, an envious shadow, following our own; it was still generally believed in those days that german trade was concerned entirely with the dishonest imitation of our unapproachable english goods. and as for the united states, well, the united states though blessed with a strain of english blood, were nevertheless "out of it," marooned in a continent of their own and--we had to admit it--corrupt. given such ignorance, you know, it wasn't by any means ignoble to be patriotic, to dream of this propagandist empire of ours spreading its great peace and culture, its virtue and its amazing and unprecedented honesty,--its honesty!--round the world. § when i look and try to recover those early intentions of mine i am astonished at the way in which i took them ready-made from the world immediately about me. in some way i seem to have stopped looking--if ever i had begun looking--at the heights and depths above and below that immediate life. i seem to have regarded these profounder realities no more during this phase of concentration than a cow in a field regards the sky. my father's vestments, the burnmore altar, the harbury pulpit and mr. siddons, stood between me and the idea of god, so that it needed years and much bitter disillusionment before i discovered my need of it. and i was as wanting in subtlety as in depth. we did no logic nor philosophy at harbury, and at oxford it was not so much thought we came to deal with as a mistranslation and vulgarization of ancient and alien exercises in thinking. there is no such effective serum against philosophy as the scholarly decoction of a dead philosopher. the philosophical teaching of oxford at the end of the last century was not so much teaching as a protective inoculation. the stuff was administered with a mysterious gilding of greek and reverence, old hegel's monstrous web was the ultimate modernity, and plato, that intellectual journalist-artist, that bright, restless experimentalist in ideas, was as it were the god of wisdom, only a little less omniscient (and on the whole more of a scholar and a gentleman) than the god of fact.... so i fell back upon the empire in my first attempts to unify my life. i would serve the empire. that should be my total significance. there was a roman touch, i perceive, in this devotion. just how or where i should serve the empire i had not as yet determined. at times i thought of the civil service, in my more ambitious moments i turned my thoughts to politics. but it was doubtful whether my private expectations made the last a reasonable possibility. i would serve the empire. § and all the while that the first attempts to consolidate, to gather one's life together into a purpose and a plan of campaign, are going on upon the field of the young man's life, there come and go and come again in the sky above him the threatening clouds, the ethereal cirrus, the red dawns and glowing afternoons of that passion of love which is the source and renewal of being. there are times when that solicitude matters no more than a spring-time sky to a runner who wins towards the post, there are times when its passionate urgency dominates every fact in his world. § one must have children and love them passionately before one realizes the deep indignity of accident in life. it is not that i mind so much when unexpected and disconcerting things happen to you or your sisters, but that i mind before they happen. my dreams and anticipations of your lives are all marred by my sense of the huge importance mere chance encounters and incalculable necessities will play in them. and in friendship and still more here, in this central business of love, accident rules it seems to me almost altogether. what personalities you will encounter in life, and have for a chief interest in life, is nearly as much a matter of chance as the drift of a grain of pollen in the pine forest. and once the light hazard has blown it has blown, never to drive again. in other schoolrooms and nurseries, in slum living-rooms perhaps or workhouse wards or palaces, round the other side of the earth, in canada or russia or china, other little creatures are trying their small limbs, clutching at things about them with infantile hands, who someday will come into your life with a power and magic monstrous and irrational and irresistible. they will break the limits of your concentrating self, call you out to the service of beauty and the service of the race, sound you to your highest and your lowest, give you your chance to be godlike or filthy, divine or utterly ignoble, react together with you upon the very core and essence of your being. these unknowns are the substance of your fate. you will in extreme intimacy love them, hate them, serve them, struggle with them, and in that interaction the vital force in you and the substance of your days will be spent. and who they may chance to be and their peculiar quality and effect is haphazard, utterly beyond designing. law and custom conspire with the natural circumstances of man to exaggerate every consequence of this accumulating accident, and make it definite and fatal.... i find it quite impossible now to recall the steps and stages by which this power of sex invaded my life. it seems to me now that it began very much as a gale begins, in catspaws upon the water and little rustlings among the leaves, and then stillness and then a distant soughing again and a pause, and then a wider and longer disturbance and so more and more, with a gathering continuity, until at last the stars were hidden, the heavens were hidden; all the heights and depths of life were obscured by stormy impulses and passionate desires. i suppose that quite at the first there were simple curiosities; no doubt they were vivid at the time but they have left scarcely a trace; there were vague first intimations of a peculiar excitement. i do remember more distinctly phases when there was a going-out from myself towards these things, these interests, and then a reaction of shame and concealment. and these memories were mixed up with others not sexual at all, and particularly with the perception of beauty in things inanimate, with lights seen at twilight and the tender mysteriousness of the dusk and the confused disturbing scents of flowers in the evening and the enigmatical serene animation of stars in the summer sky.... i think perhaps that my boyhood was exceptionally free from vulgarizing influences in this direction. there were few novels in my father's house and i neither saw nor read any plays until i was near manhood, so that i thought naturally about love and not rather artificially round and about love as so many imaginative young people are trained to do. i fell in love once or twice while i was still quite a boy. these earliest experiences rarely got beyond a sort of dumb awe, a vague, vast, ineffectual desire for self-immolation. for a time i remember i worshipped lady ladislaw with all my being. then i talked to a girl in a train--i forget upon what journey--but i remember very vividly her quick color and a certain roguish smile. i spread my adoration at her feet, fresh and frank. i wanted to write to her. indeed i wanted to devote all my being to her. i begged hard, but there was someone called auntie who had to be considered, an atropos for that thread of romance. then there was a photograph in my father's study of the delphic sibyl from the sistine chapel, that for a time held my heart, and--yes, there was a girl in a tobacconist's shop in the harbury high street. drawn by an irresistible impulse i used to go and buy cigarettes--and sometimes converse about the weather. but afterwards in solitude i would meditate tremendous conversations and encounters with her. the cigarettes increased the natural melancholy of my state and led to a reproof from old henson. almost always i suppose there is that girl in the tobacconist's shop.... i believe if i made an effort i could disinter some dozens of such memories, more and more faded until the marginal ones would be featureless and all but altogether effaced. as i look back at it now i am struck by an absurd image; it is as if a fish nibbled at this bait and then at that. given but the slightest aid from accidental circumstances and any of those slight attractions might have become a power to deflect all my life. the day of decision arrived when, the lady mary christian came smiling out of the sunshine to me into the pavilion at burnmore. with that the phase of stirrings and intimations was over for ever in my life. all those other impressions went then to the dusty lumber room from which i now so slightingly disinter them. § we five had all been playmates together. there were lord maxton, who was killed at paardeberg while i was in ladysmith, he was my senior by nearly a year, philip, who is now earl ladislaw and who was about eighteen months younger than i, mary, my contemporary within eight days, and guy, whom we regarded as a baby and who was called, apparently on account of some early linguistic efforts, "brugglesmith." he did his best to avenge his juniority as time passed on by an enormous length of limb. i had more imagination than maxton and was a good deal better read, so that mary and i dominated most of the games of indians and warfare and exploration in which we passed our long days together. when the christians were at burnmore, and they usually spent three or four months in the year there, i had a kind of standing invitation to be with them. sometimes there would also be two christian cousins to swell our party, and sometimes there would be a raid of the fawney children with a detestable governess who was perpetually vociferating reproaches, but these latter were absent-minded, lax young persons, and we did not greatly love them. it is curious how little i remember of mary's childhood. all that has happened between us since lies between that and my present self like some luminous impenetrable mist. i know we liked each other, that i was taller than she was and thought her legs unreasonably thin, and that once when i knelt by accident on a dead stick she had brought into an indian camp we had made near the end of the west shrubbery, she flew at me in a sudden fury, smacked my face, scratched me and had to be suppressed, and was suppressed with extreme difficulty by the united manhood of us three elder boys. then it was i noted first the blazing blueness of her eyes. she was light and very plucky, so that none of us cared to climb against her, and she was as difficult to hold as an eel. but all these traits and characteristics vanished when she was transformed. for what seems now a long space of time i had not seen her or any of the family except philip; it was certainly a year or more, probably two; maxton was at a crammer's and i think the others must have been in canada with lord ladislaw. then came some sort of estrangement between him and his wife, and she returned with mary and guy to burnmore and stayed there all through the summer. i was in a state of transition between the infinitely great and the infinitely little. i had just ceased to be that noble and potent being, that almost statesmanlike personage, a sixth form boy at harbury, and i was going to be an oxford undergraduate. philip and i came down together by the same train from harbury, i shared the burnmore dog-cart and luggage cart, and he dropped me at the rectory. i was a long-limbed youngster of seventeen, as tall as i am now, and fair, so fair that i was still boyish-faced while most of my contemporaries and philip (who favored his father) were at least smudgy with moustaches. with the head-master's valediction and the grave elder-brotherliness of old henson, and the shrill cheers of a little crowd of juniors still echoing in my head, i very naturally came home in a mood of exalted gravity, and i can still remember pacing up and down the oblong lawn behind the rockery and the fig-tree wall with my father, talking of my outlook with all the tremendous _savoir faire_ that was natural to my age, and noting with a secret gratification that our shoulders were now on a level. no doubt we were discussing oxford and all that i was to do at oxford; i don't remember a word of our speech though i recall the exact tint of its color and the distinctive feeling of our measured equal paces in the sunshine.... i must have gone up to burnmore house the following afternoon. i went up alone and i was sent out through the little door at the end of the big gallery into the garden. in those days lady ladislaw had made an indian pavilion under the tall trees at the east end of the house, and here i found her with her cousin helena christian entertaining a mixture of people, a carriageful from hampton end, the two elder fawneys and a man in brown who had i think ridden over from chestoxter castle. lady ladislaw welcomed me with ample graciousness--as though i was a personage. "the children" she said were still at tennis, and as she spoke i saw guy, grown nearly beyond recognition and then a shining being in white, very straight and graceful, with a big soft hat and overshadowed eyes that smiled, come out from the hurried endearments of the sunflakes under the shadows of the great chestnuts, into the glow of summer light before the pavilion. "steve arrived!" she cried, and waved a welcoming racquet. i do not remember what i said to her or what else she said or what anyone said. but i believe i could paint every detail of her effect. i know that when she came out of the brightness into the shadow of the pavilion it was like a regal condescension, and i know that she was wonderfully self-possessed and helpful with her mother's hospitalities, and that i marvelled i had never before perceived the subtler sweetness in the cadence of her voice. i seem also to remember a severe internal struggle for my self-possession, and that i had to recall my exalted position in the sixth form to save myself from becoming tongue-tied and abashed and awkward and utterly shamed. you see she had her hair up and very prettily dressed, and those aggressive lean legs of hers had vanished, and she was sheathed in muslin that showed her the most delicately slender and beautiful of young women. and she seemed so radiantly sure of herself! after our first greeting i do not think i spoke to her or looked at her again throughout the meal. i took things that she handed me with an appearance of supreme indifference, was politely attentive to the elder miss fawney, and engaged with lady ladislaw and the horsey little man in brown in a discussion of the possibility of mechanical vehicles upon the high road. that was in the early nineties. we were all of opinion that it was impossible to make a sufficiently light engine for the purpose. afterwards mary confessed to me how she had been looking forward to our meeting, and how snubbed i had made her feel.... then a little later than this meeting in the pavilion, though i am not clear now whether it was the same or some subsequent afternoon, we are walking in the sunken garden, and great clouds of purple clematis and some less lavish heliotrope-colored creeper, foam up against the ruddy stone balustrading. just in front of us a fountain gushes out of a grotto of artificial stalagmite and bathes the pedestal of an absurd little statuette of the god of love. we are talking almost easily. she looks sideways at my face, already with the quiet controlled watchfulness of a woman interested in a man, she smiles and she talks of flowers and sunshine, the canadian winter--and with an abrupt transition, of old times we've had together in the shrubbery and the wilderness of bracken out beyond. she seems tremendously grown-up and womanly to me. i am talking my best, and glad, and in a manner scared at the thrill her newly discovered beauty gives me, and keeping up my dignity and coherence with an effort. my attention is constantly being distracted to note how prettily she moves, to wonder why it is i never noticed the sweet fall, the faint delightful whisper of a lisp in her voice before. we agree about the flowers and the sunshine and the canadian winter--about everything. "i think so often of those games we used to invent," she declares. "so do i," i say, "so do i." and then with a sudden boldness: "once i broke a stick of yours, a rotten stick you thought a sound one. do you remember?" then we laugh together and seem to approach across a painful, unnecessary distance that has separated us. it vanishes for ever. "i couldn't now," she says, "smack your face like that, stephen." that seems to me a brilliantly daring and delightful thing for her to say, and jolly of her to use my christian name too! "i believe i scratched," she adds. "you never scratched," i assert with warm conviction. "never." "i did," she insists and i deny. "you couldn't." "we're growing up," she cries. "that's what has happened to us. we shall never fight again with our hands and feet, never--until death do us part." "for better, or worse," i say, with a sense of wit and enterprise beyond all human precedent. "for richer, or poorer," she cries, taking up my challenge with a lifting laugh in her voice. and then to make it all nothing again, she exclaims at the white lilies that rise against masses of sweet bay along the further wall.... how plainly i can recall it all! how plainly and how brightly! as we came up the broad steps at the further end towards the tennis lawn, she turned suddenly upon me and with a novel assurance of command told me to stand still. "_there_," she said with a hand out and seemed to survey me with her chin up and her white neck at the level of my eyes. "yes. a whole step," she estimated, "and more, taller than i. you will look down on me, stephen, now, for all the rest of our days." "i shall always stand," i answered, "a step or so below you." "no," she said, "come up to the level. a girl should be smaller than a man. you are a man, stephen--almost.... you must be near six feet.... here's guy with the box of balls." she flitted about the tennis court before me, playing with philip against guy and myself. she punished some opening condescensions with a wicked vigor--and presently guy and i were straining every nerve to save the set. she had a low close serve i remember that seemed perfectly straightforward and simple, and was very difficult to return. § all that golden summer on the threshold of my manhood was filled by mary. i loved her with the love of a boy and a man. either i was with mary or i was hoping and planning to be with mary or i was full of some vivid new impression of her or some enigmatical speech, some pregnant nothing, some glance or gesture engaged and perplexed my mind. in those days i slept the profound sweet sleep of youth, but whenever that deep flow broke towards the shallows, as i sank into it at night and came out of it at morning, i passed through dreams of mary to and from a world of waking thought of her. there must have been days of friendly intercourse when it seemed we talked nothings and wandered and meandered among subjects, but always we had our eyes on one another. and afterwards i would spend long hours in recalling and analyzing those nothings, questioning their nothingness, making out of things too submerged and impalpable for the rough drags of recollection, promises and indications. i would invent ingenious things to say, things pushing out suddenly from nothingness to extreme significance. i rehearsed a hundred declarations. it was easy for us to be very much together. we were very free that summer and life was all leisure. lady ladislaw was busied with her own concerns; she sometimes went away for two or three days leaving no one but an attenuated governess with even the shadow of a claim to interfere with mary. moreover she was used to seeing me with her children at burnmore; we were still in her eyes no more than children.... and also perhaps she did not greatly mind if indeed we did a little fall in love together. to her that may have seemed a very natural and slight and transitory possibility.... one afternoon of warm shadows in the wood near the red-lacquered chinese bridge, we two were alone together and we fell silent. i was trembling and full of a wild courage. i can feel now the exquisite surmise, the doubt of that moment. our eyes met. she looked up at me with an unwonted touch of fear in her expression and i laid my hands on her. she did not recoil, she stood mute with her lips pressed together, looking at me steadfastly. i can feel that moment now as a tremendous hesitation, blank and yet full of light and life, like a clear sky in the moment before dawn.... she made a little move towards me. impulsively, with no word said, we kissed. § i would like very much to give you a portrait of mary as she was in those days. every portrait i ever had of her i burnt in the sincerity of what was to have been our final separation, and now i have nothing of her in my possession. i suppose that in the files of old illustrated weeklies somewhere, a score of portraits must be findable. yet photographs have a queer quality of falsehood. they have no movement and always there was a little movement about mary just as there is always a little scent about flowers. she was slender and graceful, so that she seemed taller than she was, she had beautifully shaped arms and a brightness in her face; it seemed to me always that there was light in her face, more than the light that shone upon it. her fair, very slightly reddish hair--it was warm like australian gold--flowed with a sort of joyous bravery back from her low broad forehead; the color under her delicate skin was bright and quick, and her mouth always smiled faintly. there was a peculiar charm for me about her mouth, a whimsicality, a sort of humorous resolve in the way in which the upper lip fell upon the lower and in a faint obliquity that increased with her quickening smile. she spoke with a very clear delicate intonation that made one want to hear her speak again; she often said faintly daring things, and when she did, she had that little catch in the breath--of one who dares. she did not talk hastily; often before she spoke came a brief grave pause. her eyes were brightly blue except when the spirit of mischief took her and then they became black, and there was something about the upper and lower lids that made them not only the prettiest but the sweetest and kindliest eyes in the world. and she moved with a quiet rapidity, without any needless movements, to do whatever she had a mind to do.... but how impossible it is to convey the personal charm of a human being. i catalogue these things and it is as if she moved about silently behind my stumbling enumeration and smiled at me still, with her eyes a little darkened, mocking me. that phantom will never be gone from my mind. it was all of these things and none of these things that made me hers, as i have never been any other person's.... we grew up together. the girl of nineteen mingles in my memory with the woman of twenty-five. always we were equals, or if anything she was the better of us two. i never made love to her in the commoner sense of the word, a sense in which the woman is conceived of as shy, unawakened, younger, more plastic, and the man as tempting, creating responses, persuading and compelling. we made love to each other as youth should, we were friends lit by a passion.... i think that is the best love. if i could wish your future i would have you love someone neither older and stronger nor younger and weaker than yourself. i would have you have neither a toy nor a devotion, for the one makes the woman contemptible and the other the man. there should be something almost sisterly between you. love neither a goddess nor a captive woman. but i would wish you a better fate in your love than chanced to me. mary was not only naturally far more quick-minded, more swiftly understanding than i, but more widely educated. mine was the stiff limited education of the english public school and university; i could not speak and read and think french and german as she could for all that i had a pedantic knowledge of the older forms of those tongues; and the classics and mathematics upon which i had spent the substance of my years were indeed of little use to me, have never been of any real use to me, they were ladders too clumsy to carry about and too short to reach anything. my general ideas came from the newspapers and the reviews. she on the other hand had read much, had heard no end of good conversation, the conversation of people who mattered, had thought for herself and had picked the brains of her brothers. her mother had let her read whatever books she liked, partly because she believed that was the proper thing to do, and partly because it was so much less trouble to be liberal in such things. we had the gravest conversations. i do not remember that we talked much of love, though we were very much in love. we kissed; sometimes greatly daring we walked hand in hand; once i took her in my arms and carried her over a swampy place beyond the killing wood, and held her closely to me; that was a great event between us; but we were shy of one another, shy even of very intimate words; and a thousand daring and beautiful things i dreamt of saying to her went unsaid. i do not remember any endearing names from that time. but we jested and shared our humors, shaped our developing ideas in quaint forms to amuse one another and talked--as young men talk together. we talked of religion; i think she was the first person to thaw the private silences that had kept me bound in these matters even from myself for years. i can still recall her face, a little flushed and coming nearer to mine after avowals and comparisons. "but stephen," she says; "if none of these things are really true, why do they keep on telling them to us? what is true? what are we for? what is everything for?" i remember the awkwardness i felt at these indelicate thrusts into topics i had come to regard as forbidden. "i suppose there's a sort of truth in them," i said, and then more siddonsesquely: "endless people wiser than we are----" "yes," she said. "but that doesn't matter to us. endless people wiser than we are have said one thing, and endless people wiser than we are have said exactly the opposite. it's _we_ who have to understand--for ourselves.... we don't understand, stephen." i was forced to a choice between faith and denial. but i parried with questions. "don't you," i asked, "feel there is a god?" she hesitated. "there is something--something very beautiful," she said and stopped as if her breath had gone. "that is all i know, stephen...." and i remember too that we talked endlessly about the things i was to do in the world. i do not remember that we talked about the things she was to do, by some sort of instinct and some sort of dexterity she evaded that, from the very first she had reserves from me, but my career and purpose became as it were the form in which we discussed all the purposes of life. i became man in her imagination, the protagonist of the world. at first i displayed the modest worthy desire for respectable service that harbury had taught me, but her clear, sceptical little voice pierced and tore all those pretences to shreds. "do some decent public work," i said, or some such phrase. "but is that all you want?" i hear her asking. "is that all you want?" i lay prone upon the turf and dug up a root of grass with my penknife. "before i met you it was," i said. "and now?" "i want you." "i'm nothing to want. i want you to want all the world.... _why shouldn't you?_" i think i must have talked of the greatness of serving the empire. "yes, but splendidly," she insisted. "not doing little things for other people--who aren't doing anything at all. i want you to conquer people and lead people.... when i see you, stephen, sometimes--i almost wish i were a man. in order to be able to do all the things that you are going to do." "for you," i said, "for you." i stretched out my hand for hers, and my gesture went disregarded. she sat rather crouched together with her eyes gazing far away across the great spaces of the park. "that is what women are for," she said. "to make men see how splendid life can be. to lift them up--out of a sort of timid grubbiness----" she turned upon me suddenly. "stephen," she said, "promise me. whatever you become, you promise and swear here and now never to be grey and grubby, never to be humpy and snuffy, never to be respectable and modest and dull and a little fat, like--like everybody. ever." "i swear," i said. "by me." "by you. no book to kiss! please, give me your hand." § all through that summer we saw much of each other. i was up at the house perhaps every other day; we young people were supposed to be all in a company together down by the tennis lawns, but indeed we dispersed and came and went by a kind of tacit understanding, guy and philip each with one of the fawney girls and i with mary. i put all sorts of constructions upon the freedom i was given with her, but i perceive now that we still seemed scarcely more than children to lady ladislaw, and that the idea of our marriage was as inconceivable to her as if we had been brother and sister. matrimonially i was as impossible as one of the stable boys. all the money i could hope to earn for years to come would not have sufficed even to buy mary clothes. but as yet we thought little of matters so remote, glad in our wonderful new discovery of love, and when at last i went off to oxford, albeit the parting moved us to much tenderness and vows and embraces, i had no suspicion that never more in all our lives would mary and i meet freely and gladly without restriction. yet so it was. from that day came restraints and difficulties; the shadow of furtiveness fell between us; our correspondence had to be concealed. i went to oxford as one goes into exile; she to london. i would post to her so that the letters reached landor house before lunch time when the sun of lady ladislaw came over the horizon, but indeed as yet no one was watching her letters. afterwards as she moved about she gave me other instructions, and for the most part i wrote to her in envelopes addressed for her by one of the fawney girls, who was under her spell and made no enquiry for what purpose these envelopes were needed. to me of course mary wrote without restraint. all her letters to me were destroyed after our crisis, but some of mine to her she kept for many years; at last they came back to me so that i have them now. and for all their occasional cheapness and crudity, i do not find anything in them to be ashamed of. they reflect, they are chiefly concerned with that search for a career of fine service which was then the chief preoccupation of my mind, the bias is all to a large imperialism, but it is manifest that already the first ripples of a rising tide of criticism against the imperialist movement had reached and were exercising me. in one letter i am explaining that imperialism is not a mere aggressiveness, but the establishment of peace and order throughout half the world. "we may never withdraw," i wrote with all the confidence of a foreign secretary, "from all these great territories of ours, but we shall stay only to raise their peoples ultimately to an equal citizenship with ourselves." and then in the same letter: "and if i do not devote myself to the empire what else is there that gives anything like the same opportunity of a purpose in life." i find myself in another tolerantly disposed to "accept socialism," but manifestly hostile to "the narrow mental habits of the socialists." the large note of youth! and in another i am clearly very proud and excited and a little mock-modest over the success of my first two speeches in the union. on the whole i like the rather boyish, tremendously serious young man of those letters. an egotist, of course, but what youth was ever anything else? i may write that much freely now, for by this time he is almost as much outside my personality as you or my father. he is the young stratton, one of a line. i like his gravity; if youth is not grave with all the great spectacle of life opening at its feet, then surely no age need be grave. i love and envy his simplicity and honesty. his sham modesty and so forth are so translucent as scarcely to matter. it is clear i was opening my heart to myself as i opened it to mary. i wasn't acting to her. i meant what i said. and as i remember her answers she took much the same high tone with me, though her style of writing was far lighter than mine, more easy and witty and less continuous. she flashed and flickered. as for confessed love-making there is very little,--i find at the end of one of my notes after the signature, "i love you, i love you." and she was even more restrained. such little phrases as "dear stevenage"--that was one of her odd names for me--"i wish you were here," or "dear, _dear_ stevenage," were epistolary events, and i would re-read the blessed wonderful outbreak a hundred times.... our separation lengthened. there was a queer detached unexpected meeting in london in december, for some afternoon gathering. i was shy and the more disconcerted because she was in winter town clothes that made her seem strange and changed. then came the devastating intimation that all through the next summer the ladislaws were to be in scotland. i did my boyish utmost to get to scotland. they were at lankart near invermoriston, and the nearest thing i could contrive was to join a reading party in skye, a reading party of older men who manifestly had no great desire for me. for more than a year we never met at all, and all sorts of new things happened to us both. i perceived they happened to me, but i did not think they happened to her. of course we changed. of course in a measure and relatively we forgot. of course there were weeks when we never thought of each other at all. then would come phases of hunger. i remember a little note of hers. "oh stevenage," it was scrawled, "perhaps next easter!" next easter was an aching desolation. the blinds of burnmore house remained drawn; the place was empty except for three old servants on board-wages. the christians went instead to the canary isles, following some occult impulse of lady ladislaw's. lord ladislaw spent the winter in italy. what an empty useless beauty the great park possessed during those seasons of intermission! there were a score of places in it we had made our own.... her letters to oxford would cease for weeks, and suddenly revive and become frequent. now and then would come a love-letter that seemed to shine like stars as i read it; for the most part they were low-pitched, friendly or humorous letters in a roundish girlish writing that was maturing into a squarely characteristic hand. my letters to her too i suppose varied as greatly. we began to be used to living so apart. there were weeks of silence.... yet always when i thought of my life as a whole, mary ruled it. with her alone i had talked of my possible work and purpose; to her alone had i confessed to ambitions beyond such modest worthiness as a public school drills us to affect.... then the whole sky of my life lit up again with a strange light of excitement and hope. i had a note, glad and serenely friendly, to say they were to spend all the summer at burnmore. i remember how i handled and scrutinized that letter, seeking for some intimation that our former intimacy was still alive. we were to meet. how should we meet? how would she look at me? what would she think of me? § of course it was all different. our first encounter in this new phase had a quality of extreme disillusionment. the warm living creature, who would whisper, who would kiss with wonderful lips, who would say strange daring things, who had soft hair one might touch with a thrilling and worshipful hand, who changed one at a word or a look into a god of pride, became as if she had been no more than a dream. a self-possessed young aristocrat in white and brown glanced at me from amidst a group of brilliant people on the terrace, nodded as it seemed quite carelessly in acknowledgment of my salutation, and resumed her confident conversation with a tall stooping man, no less a person than evesham, the prime minister. he was lunching at burnmore on his way across country to the rileys. i heard that dear laugh of hers, as ready and easy as when she laughed with me. i had not heard it for nearly three years--nor any sound that had its sweetness. "but mr. evesham," she was saying, "nowadays we don't believe that sort of thing----" "there are a lot of things still for you to believe," says mr. evesham beaming. "a lot of things! one's capacity increases. it grows with exercise. justin will bear me out." beyond her stood an undersized, brown-clad middle-aged man with a big head, a dark face and expressive brown eyes fixed now in unrestrained admiration on mary's laughing face. this then was justin, the incredibly rich and powerful, whose comprehensive operations could make and break a thousand fortunes in a day. he answered evesham carelessly, with his gaze still on mary, and in a voice too low for my straining ears. there was some woman in the group also, but she has left nothing upon my mind whatever except an effect of black and a very decorative green sunshade. she greeted justin's remark, i remember, with the little yelp of laughter that characterized that set. i think too there was someone else in the group; but i cannot clearly recall who.... presently as i and philip made unreal conversation together i saw mary disengage herself and come towards us. it was as if a princess came towards a beggar. absurd are the changes of phase between women and men. a year or so ago and all of us had been but "the children" together; now here were i and philip mere youths still, nobodies, echoes and aspirations, crude promises at the best, and here was mary in full flower, as glorious and central as the hampton court azaleas in spring. "and this is stephen," she said, aglow with happy confidence. i made no memorable reply, and there was a little pause thick with mute questionings. "after lunch," she said with her eye on mine, "i am going to measure against you on the steps. i'd hoped--when you weren't looking--i might creep up----" "i've taken no advantage," i said. "you've kept your lead." justin had followed her towards us, and now held out a hand to philip. "well, philip my boy," he said, and defined our places. philip made some introductory gesture with a word or so towards me. justin glanced at me as one might glance at someone's new dog, gave an expressionless nod to my stiff movement of recognition, and addressed himself at once to mary. "lady mary," he said, "i've wanted to tell you----" i caught her quick eye for a moment and knew she had more to say to me, but neither she nor i had the skill and alacrity to get that said. "i wanted to tell you," said justin, "i've found a little japanese who's done exactly what you wanted with that group of dwarf maples." she clearly didn't understand. "but what did i want, mr. justin?" she asked. "don't say that you forget?" cried justin. "oh don't tell me you forget! you wanted a little exact copy of a japanese house---- i've had it done. beneath the trees...." "and so you're back in burnmore, mr. stratton," said lady ladislaw intervening between me and their duologue. and i never knew how pleased mary was with this faithful realization of her passing and forgotten fancy. my hostess greeted me warmly and pressed my hand, smiled mechanically and looked over my shoulder all the while to mr. evesham and her company generally, and then came the deep uproar of a gong from the house and we were all moving in groups and couples luncheonward. justin walked with lady mary, and she was i saw an inch taller than his squat solidity. a tall lady in rose-pink had taken possession of guy, evesham and lady ladislaw made the two centres of a straggling group who were bandying recondite political allusions. then came one or two couples and trios with nothing very much to say and active ears. philip and i brought up the rear silently and in all humility. even young guy had gone over our heads. i was too full of a stupendous realization for any words. of course, during those years, she had been doing--no end of things! and while i had been just drudging with lectures and books and theorizing about the empire and what i could do with it, and taking exercise, she had learnt, it seemed--the world. § lunch was in the great dining-room. there was a big table and two smaller ones; we sat down anyhow, but the first comers had grouped themselves about lady ladislaw and evesham and justin and mary in a central orb, and i had to drift perforce to one of the satellites. i secured a seat whence i could get a glimpse ever and again over justin's assiduous shoulders of a delicate profile, and i found myself immediately engaged in answering the innumerable impossible questions of lady viping, the widow of terrible old sir joshua, that devastating divorce court judge who didn't believe in divorces. his domestic confidences had i think corrupted her mind altogether. she cared for nothing but evidence. she was a rustling, incessant, sandy, peering woman with a lorgnette and rapid, confidential lisping undertones, and she wanted to know who everybody was and how they were related. this kept us turning towards the other tables--and when my information failed she would call upon sir godfrey klavier, who was explaining, rather testily on account of her interruptions, to philip christian and a little lady in black and the elder fawney girl just why he didn't believe lady ladislaw's new golf course would succeed. there were two or three other casual people at our table; one of the roden girls, a young guardsman and, i think, some other man whom i don't clearly remember. "and so that's the great mr. justin," rustled lady viping and stared across me. (i saw evesham, leaning rather over the table to point some remark at mary, and noted her lips part to reply.) "what _is_ the word?" insisted lady viping like a fly in my ear. i turned on her guiltily. "whether it's brachy," said lady viping, "or whether it's dolly--_i_ can never remember?" i guessed she was talking of justin's head. "oh!--brachycephalic," i said. i had lost mary's answer. "they say he's a woman hater," said lady viping. "it hardly looks like it now, does it?" "who?" i asked. "what?--oh!--justin." "the great financial cannibal. suppose she turned him into a philanthropist! stranger things have happened. look!--now. the man's face is positively tender." i hated looking, and i could not help but look. it was as if this detestable old woman was dragging me down and down, down far below all dignity to her own level of a peeping observer. justin was saying something to mary in an undertone, something that made her glance up swiftly and at me before she answered, and there i was with my head side by side with those quivering dyed curls, that flighty black bonnet, that remorseless observant lorgnette. i could have sworn aloud at the hopeless indignity of my pose. i saw mary color quickly before i looked away. "charming, isn't she?" said lady viping, and i discovered those infernal glasses were for a moment honoring me. they shut with a click. "ham," said lady viping. "i told him no ham--and now i remember--i like ham. or rather i like spinach. i forgot the spinach. one has the ham for the spinach,--don't you think? yes,--tell him. she's a perfect dresden ornament, mr. stratton. she's adorable ... (lorgnette and search for fresh topics). who is the dark lady with the slight moustache--sitting there next to guy? sir godfrey, who is the dark lady? no, i don't mean mary fitton. over there! mrs. roperstone. ooh. _the_ mrs. roperstone. (renewed lorgnette and click.) yes--ham. with spinach. a lot of spinach. there's mr. evesham laughing again. he's greatly amused. unusual for him to laugh twice. at least, aloud. (rustle and adjustment of lorgnette.) mr. stratton, don't you think?--exactly like a little shepherdess. only i can't say i think mr. justin is like a shepherd. on the whole, more like a large cloisonné jar. now guy would do. as a pair they're beautiful. pity they're brother and sister. curious how that boy manages to be big and yet delicate. h'm. mixed mantel ornaments. sir godfrey, how old _is_ mrs. roperstone?... you never know on principle. i think i shall make mr. stratton guess. what do you think, mr. stratton?... you never guess on principle! well, we're all very high principled. (fresh exploratory movements of the lorgnette.) mr. stratton, tell me; is that little peaked man near lady ladislaw mr. roperstone? i thought as much!" all this chatter is mixed up in my mind with an unusual sense of hovering attentive menservants, who seemed all of them to my heated imagination to be watching me (and particularly one clean-shaven, reddish-haired, full-faced young man) lest i looked too much at the lady mary christian. of course they were merely watching our plates and glasses, but my nerves and temper were now in such a state that if my man went off to the buffet to get sir godfrey the pickled walnuts, i fancied he went to report the progress of my infatuation, and if a strange face appeared with the cider cup, that this was a new observer come to mark the revelation of my behavior. my food embarrassed me. i found hidden meanings in the talk of the roden girl and her guardsman, and an ironical discovery in sir godfrey's eye.... i felt indignant with mary. i felt she disowned me and deserted me and repudiated me, that she ought in some manner to have recognized me. i gave her no credit for her speech to me before the lunch, or her promise to measure against me again. i blinded myself to all her frank friendliness. i felt she ought not to notice justin, ought not to answer him.... clearly she liked those men to flatter her, she liked it.... i remember too, so that i must have noted it and felt it then as a thing perceived for the first time, the large dignity of the room, the tall windows and splendid rich curtains, the darkened hoppners upon the walls. i noted too the quality and abundance of the table things, and there were grapes and peaches, strawberries, cherries and green almonds, piled lavishly above the waiting dessert plates with the golden knives and forks, upon a table in the sunshine of the great bay. the very sunshine filtered through the tall narrow panes from the great chestnut trees without, seemed of a different quality from the common light of day.... i felt like a poor relation. i sympathized with anarchists. we had come out of the park now finally, both mary and i--into this.... "mr. stratton i am sure agrees with me." for a time i had been marooned conversationally, and lady viping had engaged sir godfrey. evidently he was refractory and she was back at me. "look at it now in profile," she said, and directed me once more to that unendurable grouping. justin again! "it's a heavy face," i said. "it's a powerful face. i wouldn't care anyhow to be up against it--as people say." and the lorgnette shut with a click. "what is this? peaches!--yes, and give me some cream." ... i hovered long for that measuring i had been promised on the steps, but either mary had forgotten or she deemed it wiser to forget. § i took my leave of lady ladislaw when the departure of evesham broke the party into dispersing fragments. i started down the drive towards the rectory and then vaulted the railings by the paddock and struck across beyond the mere. i could not go home with the immense burthen of thought and new ideas and emotions that had come upon me. i felt confused and shattered to incoherence by the new quality of mary's atmosphere. i turned my steps towards the wilder, lonelier part of the park beyond the killing wood, and lay down in a wide space of grass between two divergent thickets of bracken, and remained there for a very long time. there it was in the park that for the first time i pitted myself against life upon a definite issue, and prepared my first experience of defeat. "i _will_ have her," i said, hammering at the turf with my fist. "i will. i do not care if i give all my life...." then i lay still and bit the sweetness out of joints of grass, and presently thought and planned. chapter the fourth the marriage of the lady mary christian § for three or four days i could get no word with mary. i could not now come and go as i had been able to do in the days when we were still "the children." i could not work, i could not rest, i prowled as near as i could to burnmore house hoping for some glimpse of her, waiting for the moment when i could decently present myself again at the house. when at last i called, justin had gone and things had some flavor of the ancient time. lady ladislaw received me with an airy intimacy, all the careful responsibility of her luncheon party manner thrown aside. "and how goes cambridge?" she sang, sailing through the great saloon towards me, and i thought that for the occasion cambridge instead of oxford would serve sufficiently well. "you'll find them all at tennis," said lady ladislaw, and waved me on to the gardens. there i found all four of them and had to wait until their set was finished. "mary," i said at the first chance, "are we never to talk again?" "it's all different," she said. "i am dying to talk to you--as we used to talk." "and i--stevenage. but---- you see?" "next time i come," i said, "i shall bring you a letter. there is so much----" "no," she said. "can't you get up in the morning? very early--five or six. no one is up until ever so late." "i'd stay up all night." "serve!" said maxton, who was playing the two of us and had stopped i think to tighten a shoe. things conspired against any more intimacy for a time. but we got our moment on the way to tea. she glanced back at philip, who was loosening the net, and then forward to estimate the distance of maxton and guy. "they're all three going," she said, "after tuesday. then--before six." "wednesday?" "yes." "suppose after all," she threw out, "i can't come." "fortunes of war." "if i can't come one morning i may come another," she spoke hastily, and i perceived that guy and maxton had turned and were waiting for us. "you know the old ice house?" "towards the gardens?" "yes. on the further side. don't come by the road, come across by the end of the mere. lie in the bracken until you see me coming.... i've not played tennis a dozen times this year. not half a dozen." this last was for the boys. "you've played twenty times at least since you've been here," said guy, with the simple bluntness of a brother. "i'm certain." § to this day a dewy morning in late august brings back the thought of mary and those stolen meetings. i have the minutest recollection of the misty bloom upon the turf, and the ragged, filmy carpet of gossamer on either hand, of the warm wetness of every little blade and blossom and of the little scraps and seeds of grass upon my soaking and discolored boots. our footsteps were dark green upon the dew-grey grass. and i feel the same hungry freshness again at the thought of those stolen meetings. presently came the sunrise, blinding, warming, dew-dispelling arrows of gold smiting through the tree stems, a flood of light foaming over the bracken and gilding the under sides of the branches. everything is different and distinctive in those opening hours; everything has a different value from what it has by day. all the little things upon the ground, fallen branches, tussocks, wood-piles, have a peculiar intensity and importance, seem magnified, because of the length of their shadows in the slanting rays, and all the great trees seem lifted above the light and merged with the sky. and at last, a cool grey outline against the blaze and with a glancing iridescent halo about her, comes mary, flitting, adventurous, friendly, wonderful. "oh stevenage!" she cries, "to see you again!" we each hold out both our hands and clasp and hesitate and rather shyly kiss. "come!" she says, "we can talk for an hour. it's still not six. and there is a fallen branch where we can sit and put our feet out of the wet. oh! it's so good to be out of things again--clean out of things--with you. look! there is a stag watching us." "you're glad to be with me?" i ask, jealous of the very sunrise. "i am always glad," she says, "to be with you. why don't we always get up at dawn, stevenage, every day of our lives?" we go rustling through the grass to the prostrate timber she has chosen. (i can remember even the thin bracelet on the wrist of the hand that lifted her skirt.) i help her to clamber into a comfortable fork from which her feet can swing.... such fragments as this are as bright, as undimmed, as if we had met this morning. but then comes our conversation, and that i find vague and irregularly obliterated. but i think i must have urged her to say she loved me, and beat about the bush of that declaration, too fearful to put my heart's wish to the issue, that she would promise to wait three years for me--until i could prove it was not madness for her to marry me. "i have been thinking of it all night and every night since i have been here," i said. "somehow i will do something. in some way--i will get hold of things. believe me!--with all my strength." i was standing between the forking boughs, and she was looking down upon me. "stephen dear," she said, "dear, dear boy; i have never wanted to kiss you so much in all my life. dear, come close to me." she bent her fresh young face down to mine, her fingers were in my hair. "my knight," she whispered close to me. "my beautiful young knight." i whispered back and touched her dew fresh lips.... "and tell me what you would do to conquer the world for me?" she asked. i cannot remember now a word of all the vague threatenings against the sundering universe with which i replied. her hand was on my shoulder as she listened.... but i do know that even on this first morning she left me with a sense of beautiful unreality, of having dipped for some precious moments into heroic gossamer. all my world subjugation seemed already as evanescent as the morning haze and the vanishing dews as i stood, a little hidden in the shadows of the killing wood and ready to plunge back at the first hint of an observer, and watched her slender whiteness flit circumspectly towards the house. § our next three or four meetings are not so clearly defined. we did not meet every morning for fear that her early rising should seem too punctual to be no more than a chance impulse, nor did we go to the same place. but there stands out very clearly a conversation in a different mood. we had met at the sham ruins at the far end of the great shrubbery, a huge shattered corinthian portico of rather damaged stucco giving wide views of the hills towards alfridsham between its three erect pillars, and affording a dry seat upon its fallen ones. it was an overcast morning, i remember probably the hour was earlier; a kind of twilight clearness made the world seem strange and the bushes and trees between us and the house very heavy and still and dark. and we were at cross purpose, for now it was becoming clear to me that mary did not mean to marry me, that she dreaded making any promise to me for the future, that all the heroic common cause i wanted with her, was quite alien to her dreams. "but mary," i said looking at her colorless delicate face, "don't you love me? don't you want me?" "you know i love you, stevenage," she said. "you know." "but if two people love one another, they want to be always together, they want to belong to each other." she looked at me with her face very intent upon her meaning. "stevenage," she said after one of those steadfast pauses of hers, "i want to belong to myself." "naturally," i said with an air of disposing of an argument, and then paused. "why should one have to tie oneself always to one other human being?" she asked. "why must it be like that?" i do not remember how i tried to meet this extraordinary idea. "one loves," i may have said. the subtle scepticisms of her mind went altogether beyond my habits of thinking; it had never occurred to me that there was any other way of living except in these voluntary and involuntary mutual servitudes in which men and women live and die. "if you love me," i urged, "if you love me---- i want nothing better in all my life but to love and serve and keep you and make you happy." she surveyed me and weighed my words against her own. "i love meeting you," she said. "i love your going because it means that afterwards you will come again. i love this--this slipping out to you. but up there, there is a room in the house that is _my_ place--me--my own. nobody follows me there. i want to go on living, stevenage, just as i am living now. i don't want to become someone's certain possession, to be just usual and familiar to anyone. no, not even to you." "but if you love," i cried. "to you least of all. don't you see?--i want to be wonderful to you, stevenage, more than to anyone. i want--i want always to make your heart beat faster. i want always to be coming to you with my own heart beating faster. always and always i want it to be like that. just as it has been on these mornings. it has been beautiful--altogether beautiful." "yes," i said, rather helplessly, and struggled with great issues i had never faced before. "it isn't," i said, "how people live." "it is how i want to live," said mary. "it isn't the way life goes." "i want it to be. why shouldn't it be? why at any rate shouldn't it be for me?" § i made some desperate schemes to grow suddenly rich and powerful, and i learnt for the first time my true economic value. already my father and i had been discussing my prospects in life and he had been finding me vague and difficult. i was full of large political intentions, but so far i had made no definite plans for a living that would render my political ambitions possible. it was becoming apparent to me that for a poor man in england, the only possible route to political distinction is the bar, and i was doing my best to reconcile myself to the years of waiting and practice that would have to precede my political début. my father disliked the law. and i do not think it reconciled him to the idea of my being a barrister that afterwards i hoped to become a politician. "it isn't in our temperament, stephen," he said. "it's a pushing, bullying, cramming, base life. i don't see you succeeding there, and i don't see myself rejoicing even if you do succeed. you have to shout, and strattons don't shout; you have to be smart and tricky and there's never been a smart and tricky stratton yet; you have to snatch opportunities and get the better of the people and misrepresent the realities of every case you touch. you're a paid misrepresenter. they say you'll get a fellowship, stephen. why not stay up, and do some thinking for a year or so. there'll be enough to keep you. write a little." "the bar," i said, "is only a means to an end." "if you succeed." "if i succeed. one has to take the chances of life everywhere." "and what is the end?" "constructive statesmanship." "not in that way," said my father, pouring himself a second glass of port, and turned over my high-sounding phrase with a faint hint of distaste; "constructive statesmanship. no. once a barrister always a barrister. you'll only be a party politician.... vulgar men.... vulgar.... if you succeed that is...." he criticized me but he did not oppose me, and already in the beginning of the summer we had settled that i should be called to the bar. now suddenly i wanted to go back upon all these determinations. i began to demand in the intellectual slang of the time "more actuality," and to amaze my father with talk about empire makers and the greatness of lord strathcona and cecil rhodes. why, i asked, shouldn't i travel for a year in search of opportunity? at oxford i had made acquaintance with a son of pramley's, the big mexican and borneo man, and to him i wrote, apropos of a half-forgotten midnight talk in the rooms of some common friend. he wrote back with the suggestion that i should go and talk to his father, and i tore myself away from mary and went up to see that great exploiter of undeveloped possibilities and have one of the most illuminating and humiliating conversations in the world. he was, i remember, a little pale-complexioned, slow-speaking man with a humorous blue eye, a faint, just perceptible northern accent and a trick of keeping silent for a moment after you had finished speaking, and he talked to me as one might talk to a child of eight who wanted to know how one could become a commander-in-chief. his son had evidently emphasized my union reputation, and he would have been quite willing, i perceived, to give me employment if i had displayed the slightest intelligence or ability in any utilizable direction. but quite dreadfully he sounded my equipment with me and showed me the emptiness of my stores. "you want some way that gives you a chance of growing rich rapidly," he said. "aye. it's not a bad idea. but there's others, you know, have tried that game before ye. "you don't want riches just for riches but for an end. aye! aye! it's the spending attracts ye. you'd not have me think you'd the sin of avarice. i'm clear on that about ye. "well," he explained, "it's all one of three things we do, you know--prospecting and forestalling and--just stealing, and the only respectable way is prospecting. you'd prefer the respectable way, i suppose?... i knew ye would. well, let's see what chances ye have." and he began to probe my practical knowledge. it was like an unfit man stripping for a medical inspection. did i know anything of oil, of rubber, of sugar, of substances generally, had i studied mineralogy or geology, had i any ideas of industrial processes, of technical chemistry, of rare minerals, of labor problems and the handling of alien labor, of the economics of railway management or of camping out in dry, thinly populated countries, or again could i maybe speak spanish or italian or russian? the little dons who career about oxford afoot and awheel, wearing old gowns and mortarboards, giggling over spooner's latest, and being tremendous "characters" in the intervals of concocting the ruling-class mind, had turned my mind away from such matters altogether. i had left that sort of thing to germans and east-end jews and young men from the upper-grade board schools of sheffield and birmingham. i was made to realize appalling wildernesses of ignorance.... "you see," said old pramley, "you don't seem to know anything whatever. it's a deeficulty. it'll stand in your way a little now, though no doubt you'd be quick at the uptake--after all the education they've given ye.... but it stands in your way, if ye think of setting out to do something large and effective, just immediately...." moreover it came out, i forget now how, that i hadn't clearly grasped the difference between cumulative and non-cumulative preference shares.... i remember too how i dined alone that evening in a mood between frantic exasperation and utter abasement in the window of the mediated universities club, of which i was a junior member under the undergraduate rule. and i lay awake all night in one of the austere club bedrooms, saying to old pramley a number of extremely able and penetrating things that had unhappily not occurred to me during the progress of our interview. i didn't go back to burnmore for several days. i had set my heart on achieving something, on returning with some earnest of the great attack i was to make upon the separating great world between myself and mary. i am far enough off now from that angry and passionate youngster to smile at the thought that my subjugation of things in general and high finance in particular took at last the form of proposing to go into the office of bean, medhurst, stockton, and schnadhorst upon half commission terms. i was awaiting my father's reply to this startling new suggestion when i got a telegram from mary. "we are going to scotland unexpectedly. come down and see me." i went home instantly, and told my father i had come to talk things over with him. a note from mary lay upon the hall-table as i came in and encountered my father. "i thought it better to come down to you," i said with my glance roving to find that, and then i met his eye. it wasn't altogether an unkindly eye, but i winced dishonestly. "talking is better for all sorts of things," said my father, and wanted to know if the weather had been as hot in london as it had been in burnmore. mary's note was in pencil, scribbled hastily. i was to wait after eleven that night near the great rose bushes behind the pavilion. long before eleven i was there, on a seat in a thick shadow looking across great lakes of moonlight towards the phantom statuary of the italianate garden and the dark laurels that partly masked the house. i waited nearly an hour, an hour of stillness and small creepings and cheepings and goings to and fro among the branches. in the bushes near by me a little green glow-worm shared my vigil. and then, wrapped about in a dark velvet cloak, still in her white dinner dress, with shining, gleaming, glancing stones about her dear throat, warm and wonderful and glowing and daring, mary came flitting out of the shadows to me. "my dear," she whispered, panting and withdrawing a little from our first passionate embrace, "oh my dear!... how did i come? twice before, when i was a girl, i got out this way. by the corner of the conservatory and down the laundry wall. you can't see from here, but it's easy--easy. there's a tree that helps. and now i have come that way to you. _you!..._ "oh! love me, my stephen, love me, dear. love me as if we were never to love again. am i beautiful, my dear? am i beautiful in the moonlight? tell me!... "perhaps this is the night of our lives, dear! perhaps never again will you and i be happy!... "but the wonder, dear, the beauty! isn't it still? it's as if nothing really stood solid and dry. as if everything floated.... "everyone in all the world has gone to sleep to-night and left the world to us. come! come this way and peep at the house, there. stoop--under the branches. see, not a light is left! and all its blinds are drawn and its eyes shut. one window is open, _my_ little window, stephen! but that is in the shadow where that creeper makes everything black. "along here a little further is night-stock. now--now! sniff, stephen! sniff! the scent of it! it lies--like a bank of scented air.... and stephen, there! look!... a star--a star without a sound, falling out of the blue! it's gone!" there was her dear face close to mine, soft under the soft moonlight, and the breath of her sweet speech mingled with the scent of the night-stock.... that was indeed the most beautiful night of my life, a night of moonlight and cool fragrance and adventurous excitement. we were transported out of this old world of dusty limitations; it was as if for those hours the curse of man was lifted from our lives. no one discovered us, no evil thing came near us. for a long time we lay close in one another's arms upon a bank of thyme. our heads were close together; her eyelashes swept my cheek, we spoke rarely and in soft whispers, and our hearts were beating, beating. we were as solemn as great mountains and as innocent as sleeping children. our kisses were kisses of moonlight. and it seemed to me that nothing that had ever happened or could happen afterwards, mattered against that happiness.... it was nearly three when at last i came back into my father's garden. no one had missed me from my room and the house was all asleep, but i could not get in because i had closed a latch behind me, and so i stayed in the little arbor until day, watching the day break upon long beaches of pale cloud over the hills towards alfridsham. i slept at last with my head upon my arms upon the stone table, until the noise of shooting bolts and doors being unlocked roused me to watch my chance and slip back again into the house, and up the shuttered darkened staircase to my tranquil, undisturbed bedroom. § it was in the vein of something evasive in mary's character that she let me hear first of her engagement to justin through the _times_. away there in scotland she got i suppose new perspectives, new ideas; the glow of our immediate passion faded. the thing must have been drawing in upon her for some time. perhaps she had meant to tell me of it all that night when she had summoned me to burnmore. looking back now i am the more persuaded that she did. but the thing came to me in london with the effect of an immense treachery. within a day or so of the newspaper's announcement she had written me a long letter answering some argument of mine, and saying nothing whatever of the people about her. even then justin must have been asking her to marry him. her mind must have been full of that question. then came a storm of disappointment, humiliation and anger with this realization. i can still feel myself writing and destroying letters to her, letters of satire, of protest. oddly enough i cannot recall the letter that at last i sent her, but it is eloquent of the weak boyishness of my position that i sent it in our usual furtive manner, accepted every precaution that confessed the impossibility of our relationship. "no," she scribbled back, "you do not understand. i cannot write. i must talk to you." we had a secret meeting. with beatrice normandy's connivance she managed to get away for the better part of the day, and we spent a long morning in argument in the botanical gardens--that obvious solitude--and afterwards we lunched upon ham and ginger beer at a little open-air restaurant near the broad walk and talked on until nearly four. we were so young that i think we both felt, beneath our very real and vivid emotions, a gratifying sense of romantic resourcefulness in this prolonged discussion. there is something ridiculously petty and imitative about youth, something too, naïvely noble and adventurous. i can never determine if older people are less generous and imaginative or merely less absurd. i still recall the autumnal melancholy of that queer, neglected-looking place, in which i had never been before, and which i have never revisited--a memory of walking along narrow garden paths beside queer leaf-choked artificial channels of water under yellow-tinted trees, of rustic bridges going nowhere in particular, and of a kind of brickwork ruined castle, greatly decayed and ivy-grown, in which we sat for a long time looking out upon a lawn and a wide gravel path leading to a colossal frontage of conservatory. i must have been resentful and bitter in the beginning of that talk. i do not remember that i had any command of the situation or did anything but protest throughout that day. i was too full of the egotism of the young lover to mark mary's moods and feelings. it was only afterwards that i came to understand that she was not wilfully and deliberately following the course that was to separate us, that she was taking it with hesitations and regrets. yet she spoke plainly enough, she spoke with a manifest sincerity of feeling. and while i had neither the grasp nor the subtlety to get behind her mind i perceive now as i think things out that lady ladislaw had both watched and acted, had determined her daughter's ideas, sown her mind with suggestions, imposed upon her a conception of her situation that now dominated all her thoughts. "dear stephen," reiterated mary, "i love you. i do, clearly, definitely, deliberately love you. haven't i told you that? haven't i made that plain to you?" "but you are going to marry justin!" "stephen dear, can i possibly marry you? can i?" "why not? why not make the adventure of life with me? dare!" she looked down on me. she was sitting upon a parapet of the brickwork and i was below her. she seemed to be weighing possibilities. "why not?" i cried. "even now. why not run away with me, throw our two lives together? do as lovers have dared to do since the beginning of things! let us go somewhere together----" "but stephen," she asked softly, "_where_?" "anywhere!" she spoke as an elder might do to a child. "no! tell me where--exactly. where would it be? where should we go? how should we live? tell me. make me see it, stephen." "you are too cruel to me, mary," i said. "how can i--on the spur of the moment--arrange----?" "but dear, suppose it was somewhere very grimy and narrow! something--like some of those back streets i came through to get here. suppose it was some dreadful place. and you had no money. and we were both worried and miserable. one gets ill in such places. if i loved you, stephen--i mean if you and i--if you and i were to be together, i should want it to be in sunshine, i should want it to be among beautiful forests and mountains. somewhere very beautiful...." "why not?" "because--to-day i know. there are no such places in the world for us. stephen, they are dreams." "for three years now," i said, "i have dreamed such dreams. "oh!" i cried out, stung by my own words, "but this is cowardice! why should we submit to this old world! why should we give up--things you have dreamed as well as i! you said once--to hear my voice--calling in the morning.... let us take each other, mary, now. _now!_ let us take each other, and"--i still remember my impotent phrase--"afterwards count the cost!" "if i were a queen," said mary. "but you see i am not a queen." ... so we talked in fragments and snatches of argument, and all she said made me see more clearly the large hopelessness of my desire. "at least," i urged, "do not marry justin now. give me a chance. give me three years, mary, three short years, to work, to do something!" she knew so clearly now the quality of her own intentions. "dear stephen," she explained, "if i were to come away with you and marry you, in just a little time i should cease to be your lover, i should be your squaw. i should have to share your worries and make your coffee--and disappoint you, disappoint you and fail you in a hundred ways. think! should i be any good as a squaw? how can one love when one knows the coffee isn't what it should be, and one is giving one's lover indigestion? and i don't _want_ to be your squaw. i don't want that at all. it isn't how i feel for you. i don't _want_ to be your servant and your possession." "but you will be justin's--squaw, you are going to marry him!" "that is all different, stevenage. between him and me there will be space, air, dignity, endless servants----" "but," i choked. "you! he! he will make love to you, mary." "you don't understand, stephen." "he will make love to you, mary. mary! don't you understand? these things---- we've never talked of them.... you will bear him children!" "no," she said. "but----" "no. he promises. stephen,--i am to own myself." "but--he marries you!" "yes. because he--he admires me. he cannot live without me. he loves my company. he loves to be seen with me. he wants me with him to enjoy all the things he has. can't you understand, stephen?" "but do you mean----?" our eyes met. "stephen," she said, "i swear." "but---- he hopes." "i don't care. he has promised. i have his promise. i shall be free. oh! i shall be free--free! he is a different man from you, stephen. he isn't so fierce; he isn't so greedy." "but it parts us!" "only from impossible things." "it parts us." "it does not even part us, stevenage. we shall see one another! we shall talk to one another." "i shall lose you." "i shall keep you." "but i--do you expect me to be content with _this_?" "i will make you content. oh! stephen dear, can't there be love--love without this clutching, this gripping, this carrying off?" "you will be carried altogether out of my world." "if i thought that, stephen, indeed i would not marry him." but i insisted we should be parted, and parted in the end for ever, and there i was the wiser of the two. i knew the insatiable urgency within myself. i knew that if i continued to meet mary i should continue to desire her until i possessed her altogether. § i cannot reproduce with any greater exactness than this the quality and gist of our day-long conversation. between us was a deep affection, and instinctive attraction, and our mental temperaments and our fundamental ideas were profoundly incompatible. we were both still very young in quality, we had scarcely begun to think ourselves out, we were greatly swayed by the suggestion of our circumstances, complex, incoherent and formless emotions confused our minds. but i see now that in us there struggled vast creative forces, forces that through a long future, in forms as yet undreamt of, must needs mould the destiny of our race. far more than mary i was accepting the conventions of our time. it seemed to me not merely reasonable but necessary that because she loved me she should place her life in my youthful and inexpert keeping, share my struggles and the real hardships they would have meant for her, devote herself to my happiness, bear me children, be my inspiration in imaginative moments, my squaw, helper and possession through the whole twenty-four hours of every day, and incidentally somehow rear whatever family we happened to produce, and i was still amazed in the depths of my being that she did not reciprocate this simple and comprehensive intention. i was ready enough i thought for equivalent sacrifices. i was prepared to give my whole life, subordinate all my ambitions, to the effort to maintain our home. if only i could have her, have her for my own, i was ready to pledge every hour i had still to live to that service. it seemed mere perversity to me then that she should turn even such vows as that against me. "but i don't want it, stevenage," she said. "i don't want it. i want you to go on to the service of the empire, i want to see you do great things, do all the things we've talked about and written about. don't you see how much better that is for you and for me--and for the world and our lives? i don't want you to become a horrible little specialist in feeding and keeping me." "then--then _wait_ for me!" i cried. "but--i want to live myself! i don't want to wait. i want a great house, i want a great position, i want space and freedom. i want to have clothes--and be as splendid as your career is going to be. i want to be a great and shining lady in your life. i can't always live as i do now, dependent on my mother, whirled about by her movements, living in her light. why should i be just a hard-up vestal virgin, stephen, in your honor? you will not be able to marry me for years and years and years--unless you neglect your work, unless you throw away everything that is worth having between us in order just to get me." "but i want _you_, mary," i cried, drumming at the little green table with my fist. "i want you. i want nothing else in all the world unless it has to do with you." "you've got me--as much as anyone will ever have me. you'll always have me. always i will write to you, talk to you, watch you. why are you so greedy, stephen? why are you so ignoble? if i were to come now and marry you, it wouldn't help you. it would turn you into--a wife-keeper, into the sort of uninteresting preoccupied man one sees running after and gloating over the woman he's bought--at the price of his money and his dignity--and everything.... it's not proper for a man to live so for a woman and her children. it's dwarfish. it's enslaving. it's--it's indecent. stephen! i'd hate you so." ... § we parted at last at a cab-rank near a bridge over the canal at the western end of park village. i remember that i made a last appeal to her as we walked towards it, and that we loitered on the bridge, careless of who might see us there, in a final conflict of our wills. "before it is too late, mary, dear," i said. she shook her head, her white lips pressed together. "but after the things that have happened. that night--the moonlight!" "it's not fair," she said, "for you to talk of that. it isn't fair." "but mary. this is parting. this indeed is parting." she answered never a word. "then at least talk to me again for one time more." "afterwards," she said. "afterwards i will talk to you. don't make things too hard for me, stephen." "if i could i would make this impossible. it's--it's hateful." she turned to the kerb, and for a second or so we stood there without speaking. then i beckoned to a hansom. she told me beatrice normandy's address. i helped her into the cab. "good-bye," i said with a weak affectation of an everyday separation, and i turned to the cabman with her instructions. then again we looked at one another. the cabman waited. "all right, sir?" he asked. "go ahead!" i said, and lifted my hat to the little white face within. i watched the cab until it vanished round the curve of the road. then i turned about to a world that had become very large and empty and meaningless. § i struggled feebly to arrest the course of events. i wrote mary some violent and bitter letters. i treated her as though she alone were responsible for my life and hers; i said she had diverted my energies, betrayed me, ruined my life. i hinted she was cold-blooded, mercenary, shameless. someday you, with that quick temper of yours and your power of expression, will understand that impulse to write, to pour out a passionately unjust interpretation of some nearly intolerable situation, and it is not the least of all the things i owe to mary that she understood my passion and forgave those letters and forgot them. i tried twice to go and see her. but i do not think i need tell you, little son, of these self-inflicted humiliations and degradations. an angry man is none the less a pitiful man because he is injurious. the hope that had held together all the project of my life was gone, and all my thoughts and emotions lay scattered in confusion.... you see, my little son, there are two sorts of love; we use one name for very different things. the love that a father bears his children, that a mother feels, that comes sometimes, a strange brightness and tenderness that is half pain, at the revelation of some touching aspect of one long known to one, at the sight of a wife bent with fatigue and unsuspicious of one's presence, at the wretchedness and perplexity of some wrong-doing brother, or at an old servant's unanticipated tears, that is love--like the love god must bear us. that is the love we must spread from those of our marrow until it reaches out to all mankind, that will some day reach out to all mankind. but the love of a young man for a woman takes this quality only in rare moments of illumination and complete assurance. my love for mary was a demand, it was a wanton claim i scored the more deeply against her for every moment of happiness she gave me. i see now that as i emerged from the first abjection of my admiration and began to feel assured of her affection, i meant nothing by her but to possess her, i did not want her to be happy as i want you to be happy even at the price of my life; i wanted her. i wanted her as barbarians want a hunted enemy, alive or dead. it was a flaming jealousy to have her mine. that granted, then i was prepared for all devotions.... this is how men love women. almost as exclusively and fiercely i think do women love men. and the deepest question before humanity is just how far this jealous greed may be subdued to a more generous passion. the fierce jealousy of men for women and women for men is the very heart of all our social jealousies, the underlying tension of this crowded modern life that has grown out of the ampler, simpler, ancient life of men. that is why we compete against one another so bitterly, refuse association and generous co-operations, keep the struggle for existence hard and bitter, hamper and subordinate the women as they in their turn would if they could hamper and subordinate the men--because each must thoroughly have his own. and i knew my own heart too well to have any faith in justin and his word. he was taking what he could, and his mind would never rest until some day he had all. i had seen him only once, but the heavy and resolute profile above his bent back and slender shoulders stuck in my memory. if he was cruel to mary, i told her, or broke his least promise to her, i should kill him. § my distress grew rather than diminished in the days immediately before her marriage, and that day itself stands out by itself in my memory, a day of wandering and passionate unrest. my imagination tormented me with thoughts of justin as a perpetual privileged wooer. well, well,--i will not tell you, i will not write the ugly mockeries my imagination conjured up. i was constantly on the verge of talking and cursing aloud to myself, or striking aimlessly at nothing with clenched fists. i was too stupid to leave london, too disturbed for work or any distraction of my mind. i wandered about the streets of london all day. in the morning i came near going to the church and making some preposterous interruptions. and i remember discovering three or four carriages adorned with white favors and a little waiting crowd outside that extinguisher-spired place at the top of regent street, and wondering for a moment or so at their common preoccupation, and then understanding. of course, another marriage! of all devilish institutions! what was i to do with my life now? what was to become of my life? i can still recall the sense of blank unanswerableness with which these questions dominated my mind, and associated with it is an effect of myself as a small human being, singular and apart, wandering through a number of london landscapes. at one time i was in a great grey smoke-rimmed autumnal space of park, much cut up by railings and worn by cricket pitches, far away from any idea of the thames, and in the distance over the tops of trees i discovered perplexingly the clustering masts and spars of ships. i have never seen that place since. then the angel at islington is absurdly mixed up with the distresses of this day. i attempted some great detour thence, and found myself with a dumb irritation returning to the place from another direction. i remember too a wide street over which passes a thundering railway bridge borne upon colossal rounded pillars of iron, and carrying in white and blue some big advertisement, i think of the _daily telegraph_. near there i thought a crowd was gathered about the victim of some accident, and thrusting myself among the people with a vague idea of help, discovered a man selling a remedy for corns. and somewhere about this north region i discovered i was faint with hunger, and got some bread and cheese and beer in a gaudily decorated saloon bar with a sanded floor. i resisted a monstrous impulse to stay in that place and drink myself into inactivity and stupefaction with beer. then for a long time i sat upon an iron seat near some flower beds in a kind of garden that had the headstones of graves arranged in a row against a yellow brick wall. the place was flooded with the amber sunshine of a september afternoon. i shared the seat with a nursemaid in charge of a perambulator and several scuffling uneasy children, and i kept repeating to myself: "by now it is all over. the thing is done." my sense of the enormity of london increased with the twilight, and began to prevail a little against my intense personal wretchedness. i remember wastes of building enterprise, interminable vistas of wide dark streets, with passing trams, and here and there at strategic corners coruscating groups of shops. and somewhere i came along a narrow street suddenly upon the distant prospect of a great monstrous absurd place on a steep hill against the last brightness of the evening sky, a burlesque block of building with huge truncated pyramids at either corner, that i have since learnt was the alexandra palace. it was so queer and bulky that it arrested and held my attention, struck on my memory with an almost dreamlike quality, so that years afterwards i went to muswell hill to see if indeed there really was such a place on earth, or whether i had had a waking nightmare during my wanderings.... i wandered far that night, very far. some girl accosted me, a thin-faced ruined child younger by a year or so than myself. i remembered how i talked to her, foolish rambling talk. "if you loved a man, and he was poor, you'd wait," i said, "you'd stick to him. you'd not leave him just to get married to a richer man." we prowled talking for a time, and sat upon a seat somewhere near the regent's park canal. i rather think i planned to rescue her from a fallen life, but somehow we dropped that topic. i know she kissed me. i have a queer impression that it came into my head to marry her. i put all my loose money in her hands at last and went away extraordinarily comforted by her, i know not how, leaving her no doubt wondering greatly. i did not go to bed that night at all, nor to the office next morning. i never showed myself in the office again. instead i went straight down to my father, and told him i wanted to go to the war forthwith. i had an indistinct memory of a promise i had made mary to stay in england, but i felt it was altogether unendurable that i should ever meet her again. my father sat at table over the remains of his lunch, and regarded me with astonishment, with the beginnings of protest. "i want to get away," i said, and to my own amazement and shame i burst into tears. "my boy!" he gasped, astonished and terrified. "you've--you've not done--some foolish thing?" "no," i said, already wiping the tears from my face, "nothing.... but i want to go away." "you shall do as you please," he said, and sat for a moment regarding his only son with unfathomable eyes. then he got up with a manner altogether matter-of-fact, came half-way round the table and mixed me a whisky and soda. "it won't be much of a war, i'm told," he said with the syphon in his hands, breaking a silence. "i sometimes wish--i had seen a bit of soldiering. and this seems to be an almost unavoidable war. now, at any rate, it's unavoidable.... drink this and have a biscuit." he turned to the mantelshelf, and filled his pipe with his broad back to me. "yes," he said, "you---- you'll be interested in the war. i hope---- i hope you'll have a good time there...." chapter the fifth the war in south africa § mary and i did not meet again for five years, and for nearly all that time i remained in south africa. i went from england a boy; i came back seasoned into manhood. they had been years of crowded experience, rapid yet complicated growth, disillusionment and thought. responsibility had come to me. i had seen death, i had seen suffering, and held the lives of men in my hands. of course one does not become a soldier on active service at once for the wishing, and there was not at first that ready disposition on the part of the home military authorities which arose later, to send out young enthusiasts. i could ride and shoot fairly well, and accordingly i decided to go on my own account to durban--for it was manifest that things would begin in natal--and there attach myself to some of the local volunteer corps that would certainly be raised. this took me out of england at once, a thing that fell in very well with my mood. i would, i was resolved, begin life afresh. i would force myself to think of nothing but the war. i would never if i could help it think of mary again. the war had already begun when i reached durban. the town was seething with the news of a great british victory at dundee. we came into the port through rain and rough weather and passed a big white liner loaded up feverishly from steam tenders with wealthy refugees going england-ward. from two troopships against the wharves there was a great business of landing horses--the horses of the dragoons and hussars from india. i spent the best part of my first night in south africa in the streets looking in vain for a bedroom, and was helped at last by a kindly rickshaw zulu to a shanty where i slept upon three chairs. i remember i felt singularly unwanted. the next day i set about my volunteering. by midday i had opened communications with that extremely untried and problematical body, the imperial light horse, and in three days more i was in the company of a mixed batch of men, mostly australian volunteers, on my way to a place i had never heard of before called ladysmith, through a country of increasing picturesqueness and along a curious curving little line whose down traffic seemed always waiting in sidings, and consisted of crowded little trains full of pitiful fugitives, white, brown, and black, stifled and starving. they were all clamoring to buy food and drink--and none seemed forthcoming. we shunted once to allow a southbound train to pass, a peculiar train that sent everyone on to the line to see--prisoners of war! there they were, real live enemies, rather glum, looking out at us with faces very like our own--but rather more unshaven. they had come from the battle of elandslaagte.... i had never been out of england before except for a little mountaineering in the french alps and one walking excursion in the black forest, and the scenery of lower natal amazed me. i had expected nothing nearly so tropical, so rich and vivid. there were little mozambique monkeys chattering in the thick-set trees beside the line and a quantity of unfamiliar birds and gaudy flowers amidst the abundant deep greenery. there were aloe and cactus hedges, patches of unfamiliar cultivation upon the hills; bunchy, frondy growths that i learnt were bananas and plantains, and there were barbaric insanitary-looking kaffir kraals which i supposed had vanished before our civilization. there seemed an enormous quantity of kaffirs all along the line--and all of them, men, women, and children, were staring at the train. the scenery grew finer and bolder, and more bare and mountainous, until at last we came out into the great basin in which lay this ladysmith. it seemed a poor unimportant, dusty little street of huts as we approached it, but the great crests beyond struck me as very beautiful in the morning light.... i forgot the beauty of those hills as we drew into the station. it was the morning after the surrender of nicholson's nek. i had come to join an army already tremendously astonished and shattered. the sunny prospect of a triumphal procession to pretoria which had been still in men's minds at durban had vanished altogether. in rather less than a fortnight of stubborn fighting we had displayed a strategy that was flighty rather than brilliant, and lost a whole battery of guns and nearly twelve hundred prisoners. we had had compensations, our common soldiers were good stuff at any rate, but the fact was clear that we were fighting an army not only very much bigger than ours but better equipped, with bigger guns, better information, and it seemed superior strategy. we were being shoved back into this ladysmith and encircled. this confused, disconcerted, and thoroughly bad-tempered army, whose mules and bullocks cumbered the central street of the place, was all that was left of the british empire in natal. behind it was an unprotected country and the line to pietermaritzburg, durban, and the sea. you cannot imagine how amazed i felt at it. i had been prepared for a sort of kentucky quality in the enemy, illiteracy, pluck, guile and good shooting, but to find them with more modern arms than our own, more modern methods! weren't we there, after all, to teach _them_! weren't we the twentieth and they the eighteenth century? the town had been shelled the day before from those very hills i had admired; at any time it might be shelled again. the nose of a big gun was pointed out to me by a blasphemous little private in the devons. it was a tremendous, a profoundly impressive, black snout. his opinions of the directing wisdom at home were unquotable. the platform was a wild confusion of women and children and colored people,--there was even an invalid lady on a stretcher. every non-combatant who could be got out of ladysmith was being hustled out that day. everyone was smarting with the sense of defeat in progress, everyone was disappointed and worried; one got short answers to one's questions. for a time i couldn't even find out where i had to go.... § i fired my first shot at a fellow-creature within four days of my arrival. we rode out down the road to the south to search some hills, and found the boers in fair strength away to the east of us. we were dismounted and pushed up on foot through a wood to a grassy crest. there for the first time i saw the enemy, little respectable-looking unsoldierlike figures, mostly in black, dodging about upon a ridge perhaps a mile away. i took a shot at one of these figures just before it vanished into a gully. one or two bullets came overhead, and i tried to remember what i had picked up about cover. they made a sound, _whiff-er-whiff_, a kind of tearing whistle, and there was nothing but a distant crackling to give one a hint of their direction until they took effect. i remember the peculiar smell of the grass amidst which i crouched, my sudden disgust to realize i was lying, and had to lie now for an indefinite time, in the open sunlight and far from any shade, and how i wondered whether after all i had wanted to come to this war. we lay shooting intermittently until the afternoon, i couldn't understand why; we went forward a little, and at last retired upon ladysmith. on the way down to the horses, i came upon my first dead man. he was lying in a crumpled heap not fifty yards from where i had been shooting. there he lay, the shattered mirror of a world. one side of his skull over the ear had been knocked away by a nearly spent bullet, and he was crumpled up and face upward as though he had struggled to his feet and fallen back. he looked rather horrible, with blue eyes wide open and glassily amazed, and the black flies clustering upon his clotted wound and round his open mouth.... i halted for a moment at the sight, and found the keen scrutiny of a fellow trooper upon me. "no good waiting for him," i said with an affectation of indifference. but all through the night i saw him again, and marvelled at the stupendous absurdity of such a death. i was a little feverish, i remember, and engaged in an interminable theological argument with myself, why when a man is dead he should leave so queer and irrelevant a thing as a body to decay.... i was already very far away from london and burnmore park. i doubt if i thought of mary at all for many days. § it isn't my business to write here any consecutive story of my war experiences. luck and some latent quality in my composition made me a fairly successful soldier. among other things i have an exceptionally good sense of direction, and that was very useful to me, and in burnmore park i suppose i had picked up many of the qualities of a scout. i did some fair outpost work during the ladysmith siege, i could report as well as crawl and watch, and i was already a sergeant when we made a night attack and captured and blew up long tom. there, after the fight, while we were covering the engineers, i got a queer steel ball about the size of a pea in my arm, a bicycle bearings ball it was, and had my first experience of an army surgeon's knife next day. it was much less painful than i had expected. i was also hit during the big assault on the sixth of january in the left shoulder, but so very slightly that i wasn't technically disabled. they were the only wounds i got in the war, but i went under with dysentery before the relief; and though i was by no means a bad case i was a very yellow-faced, broken-looking convalescent when at last the boer hosts rolled northward again and buller's men came riding across the flats.... i had seen some stimulating things during those four months of actual warfare, a hundred intense impressions of death, wounds, anger, patience, brutality, courage, generosity and wasteful destruction--above all, wasteful destruction--to correct the easy optimistic patriotism of my university days. there is a depression in the opening stages of fever and a feebleness in a convalescence on a starvation diet that leads men to broad and sober views. (heavens! how i hated the horse extract--'chevril' we called it--that served us for beef tea.) when i came down from ladysmith to the sea to pick up my strength i had not an illusion left about the serene, divinely appointed empire of the english. but if i had less national conceit, i had certainly more patriotic determination. that grew with every day of returning health. the reality of this war had got hold of my imagination, as indeed for a time it got hold of the english imagination altogether, and i was now almost fiercely keen to learn and do. at the first chance i returned to active service, and now i was no longer a disconsolate lover taking war for a cure, but an earnest, and i think reasonably able, young officer, very alert for chances. i got those chances soon enough. i rejoined our men beyond kimberley, on the way to mafeking,--we were the extreme british left in the advance upon pretoria--and i rode with mahon and was ambushed with him in a little affair beyond koodoosrand. it was a sudden brisk encounter. we got fired into at close quarters, but we knew our work by that time, and charged home and brought in a handful of prisoners to make up for the men we had lost. a few days later we came into the flattened ruins of the quaintest siege in history.... three days after we relieved mafeking i had the luck to catch one of snyman's retreating guns rather easily, the only big gun that was taken at mafeking. i came upon it unexpectedly with about twenty men, spotted a clump of brush four hundred yards ahead, galloped into it before the boers realized the boldness of our game, shot all the draught oxen while they hesitated, and held them up until chambers arrived on the scene. the incident got perhaps a disproportionate share of attention in the papers at home, because of the way in which mafeking had been kept in focus. i was mentioned twice again in despatches before we rode across to join roberts in pretoria and see what we believed to be the end of the war. we were too late to go on up to komatipoort, and had some rather blank and troublesome work on the north side of the town. that was indeed the end of the great war; the rest was a struggle with guerillas. everyone thought things were altogether over. i wrote to my father discussing the probable date of my return. but there were great chances still to come for an active young officer; the guerilla war was to prolong the struggle yet for a whole laborious, eventful year, and i was to make the most of those later opportunities.... those years in south africa are stuck into my mind like--like those pink colored pages about something else one finds at times in a railway _indicateur_. chance had put this work in my way, and started me upon it with a reputation that wasn't altogether deserved, and i found i could only live up to it and get things done well by a fixed and extreme concentration of my attention. but the whole business was so interesting that i found it possible to make that concentration. essentially warfare is a game of elaborate but witty problems in precaution and anticipation, with amazing scope for invention. you so saturate your mind with the facts and possibilities of the situation that intuitions emerge. it did not do to think of anything beyond those facts and possibilities and dodges and counterdodges, for to do so was to let in irrelevant and distracting lights. during all that concluding year of service i was not so much myself as a forced and artificial thing i made out of myself to meet the special needs of the time. i became a boer-outwitting animal. when i was tired of this specialized thinking, then the best relief, i found, was some quite trivial occupation--playing poker, yelling in the chorus of some interminable song one of the men would sing, or coining south african limericks or playing burlesque _bouts-rimés_ with fred maxim, who was then my second in command.... yet occasionally thought overtook me. i remember lying one night out upon a huge dark hillside, in a melancholy wilderness of rock-ribbed hills, waiting for one of the flying commandoes that were breaking northward from cape colony towards the orange river in front of colonel eustace. we had been riding all day, i was taking risks in what i was doing, and there is something very cheerless in a fireless bivouac. my mind became uncontrollably active. it was a clear, still night. the young moon set early in a glow of white that threw the jagged contours of a hill to the south-east into strange, weird prominence. the patches of moonshine evaporated from the summits of the nearer hills, and left them hard and dark. then there was nothing but a great soft black darkness below that jagged edge and above it the stars very large and bright. somewhere under that enormous serenity to the south of us the hunted boers must be halting to snatch an hour or so of rest, and beyond them again extended the long thin net of the pursuing british. it all seemed infinitely small and remote, there was no sound of it, no hint of it, no searchlight at work, no faintest streamer of smoke nor the reflection of a solitary fire in the sky.... all this business that had held my mind so long was reduced to insignificance between the blackness of the hills and the greatness of the sky; a little trouble, it seemed of no importance under the southern cross. and i fell wondering, as i had not wondered for long, at the forces that had brought me to this occupation and the strangeness of this game of war which had filled the minds and tempered the spirit of a quarter of a million of men for two hard-living years. i fell thinking of the dead. no soldier in a proper state of mind ever thinks of the dead. at times of course one suspects, one catches a man glancing at the pair of boots sticking out stiffly from under a blanket, but at once he speaks of other things. nevertheless some suppressed part of my being had been stirring up ugly and monstrous memories, of distortion, disfigurement, torment and decay, of dead men in stained and ragged clothes, with their sole-worn boots drawn up under them, of the blood trail of a dying man who had crawled up to a dead comrade rather than die alone, of kaffirs heaping limp, pitiful bodies together for burial, of the voices of inaccessible wounded in the rain on waggon hill crying in the night, of a heap of men we found in a donga three days dead, of the dumb agony of shell-torn horses, and the vast distressful litter and heavy brooding stench, the cans and cartridge-cases and filth and bloody rags of a shelled and captured laager. i will confess i have never lost my horror of dead bodies; they are dreadful to me--dreadful. i dread their stiff attitudes, their terrible intent inattention. to this day such memories haunt me. that night they nearly overwhelmed me.... i thought of the grim silence of the surgeon's tent, the miseries and disordered ravings of the fever hospital, of the midnight burial of a journalist at ladysmith with the distant searchlight on bulwana flicking suddenly upon our faces and making the coffin shine silver white. what a vast trail of destruction south africa had become! i thought of the black scorched stones of burnt and abandoned farms, of wretched natives we had found shot like dogs and flung aside, rottenly amazed, decaying in infinite indignity; of stories of treachery and fierce revenges sweeping along in the trail of the greater fighting. i knew too well of certain atrocities,--one had to believe them incredibly stupid to escape the conviction that they were incredibly evil. for a time my mind could make no headway against its monstrous assemblage of horror. there was something in that jagged black hill against the moonshine and the gigantic basin of darkness out of which it rose that seemed to gather all these gaunt and grisly effects into one appalling heap of agonizing futility. that rock rose up and crouched like something that broods and watches. i remember i sat up in the darkness staring at it. i found myself murmuring: "get the proportions of things, get the proportions of things!" i had an absurd impression of a duel between myself and the cavernous antagonism of the huge black spaces below me. i argued that all this pain and waste was no more than the selvedge of a proportionately limitless fabric of sane, interested, impassioned and joyous living. these stiff still memories seemed to refute me. but why us? they seemed to insist. in some way it's essential,--this margin. i stopped at that. "if all this pain, waste, violence, anguish is essential to life, why does my spirit rise against it? what is wrong with me?" i got from that into a corner of self-examination. did i respond overmuch to these painful aspects in life? when i was a boy i had never had the spirit even to kill rats. siddons came into the meditation, siddons, the essential englishman, a little scornful, throwing out contemptuous phrases. soft! was i a soft? what was a soft? something not rough, not hearty and bloody! i felt i had to own to the word--after years of resistance. a dreadful thing it is when a great empire has to rely upon soft soldiers. was civilization breeding a type of human being too tender to go on living? i stuck for a time as one does on these nocturnal occasions at the word "hypersensitive," going round it and about it.... i do not know now how it was that i passed from a mood so darkened and sunless to one of exceptional exaltation, but i recall very clearly that i did. i believe that i made a crowning effort against this despair and horror that had found me out in the darkness and overcome. i cried in my heart for help, as a lost child cries, to god. i seem to remember a rush of impassioned prayer, not only for myself, not chiefly for myself, but for all those smashed and soiled and spoilt and battered residues of men whose memories tormented me. i prayed to god that they had not lived in vain, that particularly those poor kaffir scouts might not have lived in vain. "they are like children," i said. "it was a murder of children.... _by children!_" my horror passed insensibly. i have to feel the dreadfulness of these things, i told myself, because it is good for such a creature as i to feel them dreadful, but if one understood it would all be simple. not dreadful at all. i clung to that and repeated it,--"it would all be perfectly simple." it would come out no more horrible than the things that used to frighten me as a child,--the shadow on the stairs, the white moonrise reflected on a barked and withered tree, a peculiar dream of moving geometrical forms, an ugly illustration in the "arabian nights." ... i do not know how long i wrestled with god and prayed that night, but abruptly the shadows broke; and very suddenly and swiftly my spirit seemed to flame up into space like some white beacon that is set alight. everything became light and clear and confident. i was assured that all was well with us, with us who lived and fought and with the dead who rotted now in fifty thousand hasty graves.... for a long time it seemed i was repeating again and again with soundless lips and finding the deepest comfort in my words:--"and out of our agonies comes victory, out of our agonies comes victory! have pity on us, god our father!" i think that mood passed quite insensibly from waking to a kind of clear dreaming. i have an impression that i fell asleep and was aroused by a gun. yet i was certainly still sitting up when i heard that gun. i was astonished to find things darkly visible about me. i had not noted that the stars were growing pale until the sound of this gun very far away called my mind back to the grooves in which it was now accustomed to move. i started into absolute wakefulness. a gun?... i found myself trying to see my watch. i heard a slipping and clatter of pebbles near me, and discovered fred maxim at my side. "look!" he said, hoarse with excitement. "already!" he pointed to a string of dim little figures galloping helter-skelter over the neck and down the gap in the hills towards us. they came up against the pale western sky, little nodding swaying black dots, and flashed over and were lost in the misty purple groove towards us. they must have been riding through the night--the british following. to them we were invisible. behind us was the shining east, we were in a shadow still too dark to betray us. in a moment i was afoot and called out to the men, my philosophy, my deep questionings, all torn out of my mind like a page of scribbled poetry plucked out of a business note-book. khaki figures were up all about me passing the word and hurrying to their places. all the dispositions i had made overnight came back clear and sharp into my mind. we hadn't long for preparations.... it seems now there were only a few busy moments before the fighting began. it must have been much longer in reality. by that time we had seen their gun come over and a train of carts. they were blundering right into us. every moment it was getting lighter, and the moment of contact nearer. then "crack!" from down below among the rocks, and there was a sudden stoppage of the trail of dark shapes upon the hillside. "crack!" came a shot from our extreme left. i damned the impatient men who had shot away the secret of our presence. but we had to keep them at a shooting distance. would the boers have the wit to charge through us before the daylight came, or should we hold them? i had a swift, disturbing idea. would they try a bolt across our front to the left? had we extended far enough across the deep valley to our left? but they'd hesitate on account of their gun. the gun couldn't go that way because of the gullies and thickets.... but suppose they tried it! i hung between momentous decisions.... then all up the dim hillside i could make out the boers halting and riding back. one rifle across there flashed. we held them!... we had begun the fight of pieters nek which ended before midday with the surrender of simon botha and over seven hundred men. it was the crown of all my soldiering. § i came back to england at last when i was twenty-six. after the peace of vereeniging i worked under the repatriation commission which controlled the distribution of returning prisoners and concentrated population to their homes; for the most part i was distributing stock and grain, and presently manoeuvring a sort of ploughing flying column that the dearth of horses and oxen made necessary, work that was certainly as hard as if far less exciting than war. that particular work of replanting the desolated country with human beings took hold of my imagination, and for a time at least seemed quite straightforward and understandable. the comfort of ceasing to destroy! no one has written anything that really conveys the quality of that repatriation process; the queer business of bringing these suspicious, illiterate, despondent people back to their desolated homes, reuniting swarthy fathers and stockish mothers, witnessing their touchingly inexpressive encounters, doing what one could to put heart into their resumption. memories come back to me of great littered heaps of luggage, bundles, blankets, rough boxes, piled newly purchased stores, ready-made doors, window sashes heaped ready for the waggons, slow-moving, apathetic figures sitting and eating, an infernal squawking of parrots, sometimes a wailing of babies. repatriation went on to a parrot obligato, and i never hear a parrot squawk without a flash of south africa across my mind. all the prisoners, i believe, brought back parrots--some two or three. i had to spread these people out, over a country still grassless, with teams of war-worn oxen, mules and horses that died by the dozen on my hands. the end of each individual instance was a handshake, and one went lumbering on, leaving the children one had deposited behind one already playing with old ration-tins or hunting about for cartridge-cases, while adults stared at the work they had to do. there was something elementary in all that redistribution. i felt at times like a child playing in a nursery and putting out its bricks and soldiers on the floor. there was a kind of greatness too about the process, a quality of atonement. and the people i was taking back, the men anyhow, were for the most part charming and wonderful people, very simple and emotional, so that once a big bearded man, when i wanted him in the face of an overflowing waggon to abandon about half-a-dozen great angular colored west indian shells he had lugged with him from bermuda, burst into tears of disappointment. i let him take them, and at the end i saw them placed with joy and reverence in a little parlor, to become the war heirlooms no doubt of a long and bearded family. as we shook hands after our parting coffee he glanced at them with something between gratitude and triumph in his eyes. yes, that was a great work, more especially for a ripening youngster such as i was at that time. the memory of long rides and tramps over that limitless veld returns to me, lonely in spite of the creaking, lumbering waggons and transport riders and kaffirs that followed behind. south africa is a country not only of immense spaces but of an immense spaciousness. everything is far apart; even the grass blades are far apart. sometimes one crossed wide stony wastes, sometimes came great stretches of tall, yellow-green grass, wheel-high, sometimes a little green patch of returning cultivation drew nearer for an hour or so, sometimes the blundering, toilsome passage of a torrent interrupted our slow onward march. and constantly one saw long lines of torn and twisted barbed wire stretching away and away, and here and there one found archipelagoes as it were in this dry ocean of the skeletons of cattle, and there were places where troops had halted and their scattered ration-tins shone like diamonds in the sunshine. occasionally i struck talk, some returning prisoner, some group of discharged british soldiers become carpenters or bricklayers again and making their pound a day by the work of rebuilding; always everyone was ready to expatiate upon the situation. usually, however, i was alone, thinking over this immense now vanished tornado of a war and this equally astonishing work of healing that was following it. i became keenly interested in all this great business, and thought at first of remaining indefinitely in africa. repatriation was presently done and finished. i had won milner's good opinion, and he was anxious for me to go on working in relation to the labor difficulty that rose now more and more into prominence behind the agricultural re-settlement. but when i faced that i found myself in the middle of a tangle infinitely less simple than putting back an agricultural population upon its land. § for the first time in my life i was really looking at the social fundamental of labor. there is something astonishingly naïve in the unconsciousness with which people of our class float over the great economic realities. all my life i had been hearing of the working classes, of industrialism, of labor problems and the organization of labor; but it was only now in south africa, in this chaotic, crude illuminating period of putting a smashed and desolated social order together again, that i perceived these familiar phrases represented something--something stupendously real. there were, i began to recognize, two sides to civilization; one traditional, immemorial, universal, the side of the homestead, the side i had been seeing and restoring; and there was another, ancient, too, but never universal, as old at least as the mines of syracuse and the building of the pyramids, the side that came into view when i emerged from the dusty station and sighted the squat shanties and slender chimneys of johannesburg, that uprooted side of social life, that accumulation of toilers divorced from the soil, which is industrialism and labor and which carries such people as ourselves, and whatever significance and possibilities we have, as an elephant carries its rider. now all johannesburg and pretoria were discussing labor and nothing but labor. bloemfontein was in conference thereon. our work of repatriation which had loomed so large on the southernward veld became here a business at once incidental and remote. one felt that a little sooner or a little later all that would resume and go on, as the rains would, and the veld-grass. but this was something less kindred to the succession of the seasons and the soil. this was a hitch in the upper fabric. here in the great ugly mine-scarred basin of the rand, with its bare hillsides, half the stamps were standing idle, machinery was eating its head off, time and water were running to waste amidst an immense exasperated disputation. something had given way. the war had spoilt the kaffir "boy," he was demanding enormous wages, he was away from johannesburg, and above all, he would no longer "go underground." implicit in all the argument and suggestion about me was this profoundly suggestive fact that some people, quite a lot of people, scores of thousands, had to "go underground." implicit too always in the discourse was the assumption that the talker or writer in question wasn't for a moment to be expected to go there. those others, whoever they were, had to do that for us. before the war it had been the artless portuguese kaffir, but he alas! was being diverted to open-air employment at delagoa bay. should we raise wages and go on with the fatal process of "spoiling the workers," should we by imposing a tremendous hut-tax drive the kaffir into our toils, should we carry the labor hunt across the zambesi into central africa, should we follow the lead of lord kitchener and mr. creswell and employ the rather dangerous unskilled white labor (with "ideas" about strikes and socialism) that had drifted into johannesburg, should we do tremendous things with labor-saving machinery, or were we indeed (desperate yet tempting resort!) to bring in the cheap indian or chinese coolie? steadily things were drifting towards that last tremendous experiment. there was a vigorous opposition in south africa and in england (growing there to an outcry), but behind that proposal was the one vitalizing conviction in modern initiative:--indisputably it would pay, _it would pay_!... the human mind has a much more complex and fluctuating process than most of those explanatory people who write about psychology would have us believe. instead of that simple, direct movement, like the movement of a point, forward and from here to there, one's thoughts advance like an army, sometimes extended over an enormous front, sometimes in échelon, sometimes bunched in a column throwing out skirmishing clouds of emotion, some flying and soaring, some crawling, some stopping and dying.... in this matter of labor, for example, i have thought so much, thought over the ground again and again, come into it from this way and from that way, that for the life of me i find it impossible to state at all clearly how much i made of these questions during that johannesburg time. i cannot get back into those ancient ignorances, revive my old astonishments and discoveries. certainly i envisaged the whole process much less clearly than i do now, ignored difficulties that have since entangled me, regarded with a tremendous perplexity aspects that have now become lucidly plain. i came back to england confused, and doing what confused people are apt to do, clinging to an inadequate phrase that seemed at any rate to define a course of action. the word "efficiency" had got hold of me. all our troubles came, one assumed, from being "inefficient." one turned towards politics with a bustling air, and was all for fault-finding and renovation. i sit here at my desk, pen in hand, and trace figures on the blotting-paper, and wonder how much i understood at that time. i came back to england to work on the side of "efficiency," that is quite certain. a little later i was writing articles and letters about it, so that much is documented. but i think i must have apprehended too by that time some vague outline at least of those wider issues in the sæcular conflict between the new forms of human association and the old, to which contemporary politics and our national fate are no more than transitory eddies and rufflings of the surface waters. it was all so nakedly plain there. on the one hand was the primordial, on the other the rankly new. the farm on the veld stood on the veld, a thing of the veld, a thing rooted and established there and nowhere else. the dusty, crude, brick-field desolation of the rand on the other hand did not really belong with any particularity to south africa at all. it was one with our camps and armies. it was part of something else, something still bigger: a monstrous shadowy arm had thrust out from europe and torn open this country, erected these chimneys, piled these heaps--and sent the ration-tins and cartridge-cases to follow them. it was gigantic kindred with that ancient predecessor which had built the walls of zimbabwe. and this hungry, impatient demand for myriads of toilers, this threatening inundation of black or brown or yellow bond-serfs was just the natural voice of this colossal system to which i belonged, which had brought me hither, and which i now perceived i did not even begin to understand.... one day when asking my way to some forgotten destination, i had pointed out to me the grey and roberts deep mine. some familiarity in the name set me thinking until i recalled that this was the mine in which i had once heard lady ladislaw confess large holdings, this mine in which gangs of indentured chinamen would presently be sweating to pay the wages of the game-keepers and roadmenders in burnmore park.... yes, this was what i was taking in at that time, but it found me--inexpressive; what i was saying on my return to england gave me no intimation of the broad conceptions growing in my mind. i came back to be one of the many scores of energetic and ambitious young men who were parroting "efficiency," stirring up people and more particularly stirring up themselves with the utmost vigor,--and all the time within their secret hearts more than a little at a loss.... § while i had been in south africa circumstances had conspired to alter my prospects in life very greatly. unanticipated freedoms and opportunities had come to me, and it was no longer out of the question for me to think of a parliamentary career. our fortunes had altered. my father had ceased to be rector of burnmore, and had become a comparatively wealthy man. my second cousin, reginald stratton, had been drowned in finland, and his father had only survived the shock of his death a fortnight; his sister, arthur mason's first wife, had died in giving birth to a stillborn child the year before, and my father found himself suddenly the owner of all that large stretch of developing downland and building land which old reginald had bought between shaddock and golding on the south and west esher station on the north, and in addition of considerable investments in northern industrials. it was an odd collusion of mortality; we had had only the coldest relations with our cousins, and now abruptly through their commercial and speculative activities, which we had always affected to despise and ignore, i was in a position to attempt the realization of my old political ambitions. my cousins' house had not been to my father's taste. he had let it, and i came to a new home in a pleasant, plain red-brick house, a hundred and fifty years old perhaps, on an open and sunny hillside, sheltered by trees eastward and northward, a few miles to the south-west of guildford. it had all the gracious proportions, the dignified simplicity, the roomy comfort of the good building of that time. it looked sunward; we breakfasted in sunshine in the library, and outside was an old wall with peach trees and a row of pillar roses heavily in flower. i had a little feared this place; burnmore rectory had been so absolutely home to me with its quiet serenities, its ample familiar garden, its greenhouses and intimately known corners, but i perceived i might have trusted my father's character to preserve his essential atmosphere. he was so much himself as i remembered him that i did not even observe for a day or so that he had not only aged considerably but discarded the last vestiges of clerical costume in his attire. he met me in front of the house and led me into a wide panelled hall and wrung my hand again and again, deeply moved and very inexpressive. "did you have a good journey?" he asked again and again, with tears in his eyes. "did you have a comfortable journey?" "i've not seen the house," said i. "it looks fine." "_you're_ a man," he said, and patted my shoulder. "of course! it was at burnmore." "you're not changed," i said. "you're not an atom changed." "how could i?" he replied. "come--come and have something to eat. you ought to have something to eat." we talked of the house and what a good house it was, and he took me out into the garden to see the peaches and grape vine and then brought me back without showing them to me in order to greet my cousin. "it's very like burnmore," he said with his eyes devouring me, "very like. a little more space and--no services. no services at all. that makes a gap of course. there's a little chap about here, you'll find--his name is wednesday--who sorts my papers and calls himself my secretary.... not necessary perhaps but--_i missed the curate_." he said he was reading more than he used to do now that the parish was off his hands, and he was preparing material for a book. it was, he explained later, to take the form of a huge essay ostensibly on secular canons, but its purport was to be no less than the complete secularization of the church of england. at first he wanted merely to throw open the cathedral chapters to distinguished laymen, irrespective of their theological opinions, and to make each english cathedral a centre of intellectual activity, a college as it were of philosophers and writers. but afterwards his suggestions grew bolder, the articles of religion were to be set aside, the creeds made optional even for the clergy. his dream became more and more richly picturesque until at last he saw canterbury a realized thelema, and st. paul's a new academic grove. he was to work at that remarkable proposal intermittently for many years, and to leave it at last no more than a shapeless mass of memoranda, fragmentary essays, and selected passages for quotation. yet mere patchwork and scrapbook as it would be, i still have some thought of publishing it. there is a large human charity about it, a sun too broad and warm, a reasonableness too wide and free perhaps for the timid convulsive quality of our time, yet all good as good wine for the wise. is it incredible that a day should come when our great grey monuments to the norman spirit should cease to be occupied by narrow-witted parsons and besieged by narrow-souled dissenters, the soul of our race in exile from the home and place our fathers built for it?... if he was not perceptibly changed, i thought my cousin jane had become more than a little sharper and stiffer. she did not like my uncle's own personal secularization, and still less the glimpses she got of the ampler intentions of his book. she missed the proximity to the church and her parochial authority. but she was always a silent woman, and made her comments with her profile and not with her tongue.... "i'm glad you've come back, stephen," said my father as we sat together after dinner and her departure, with port and tall silver candlesticks and shining mahogany between us. "i've missed you. i've done my best to follow things out there. i've got, i suppose, every press mention there's been of you during the war and since. i've subscribed to two press-cutting agencies, so that if one missed you the other fellow got you. perhaps you'll like to read them over one of these days.... you see, there's not been a soldier in the family since the peninsular war, and so i've been particularly interested.... you must tell me all the things you're thinking of, and what you mean to do. this last stuff--this chinese business--it puzzles me. i want to know what you think of it--and everything." i did my best to give him my ideas such as they were. and as they were still very vague ideas i have no doubt he found me rhetorical. i can imagine myself talking of the white man's burthen, and how in africa it had seemed at first to sit rather staggeringly upon our under-trained shoulders. i spoke of slackness and planlessness. "i've come back in search of efficiency." i have no doubt i said that at any rate. "we're trying to run this big empire," i may have explained, "with under-trained, under-educated, poor-spirited stuff, and we shall come a cropper unless we raise our quality. i'm still imperialist, more than ever i was. but i'm an imperialist on a different footing. i've no great illusions left about the superiority of the anglo-saxons. all that has gone. but i do think it will be a monstrous waste, a disaster to human possibilities if this great liberal-spirited empire sprawls itself asunder for the want of a little gravity and purpose. and it's here the work has to be done, the work of training and bracing up and stimulating the public imagination...." yes, that would be the sort of thing i should have said in those days. there's an old _national review_ on my desk as i write, containing an article by me with some of those very phrases in it. i have been looking at it in order to remind myself of my own forgotten eloquence. "yes," i remember my father saying. "yes." and then after reflection, "but those coolies, those chinese coolies. you can't build up an imperial population by importing coolies." "i don't like that side of the business myself," i said. "it's detail." "perhaps. but the liberals will turn you out on it next year. and then start badgering public houses and looting the church.... and then this tariff talk! everybody on our side seems to be mixing up the unity of the empire with tariffs. it's a pity. salisbury wouldn't have stood it. unity! unity depends on a common literature and a common language and common ideas and sympathies. it doesn't unite people for them to be forced to trade with each other. trading isn't friendship. i don't trade with my friends and i don't make friends with my tradesmen. natural enemies--polite of course but antagonists. are you keen over this tariff stuff, steve?" "not a bit," i said. "that too seems a detail." "it doesn't seem to be keeping its place as a detail," said my father. "very few men can touch tariffs and not get a little soiled. i hate all this international sharping, all these attempts to get artificial advantages, all this making poor people buy inferior goods dear, in the name of the flag. if it comes to that, damn the flag! custom-houses are ugly things, stephen; the dirty side of nationality. dirty things, ignoble, cross, cunning things.... they wake you up in the small hours and rout over your bags.... an imperial people ought to be an urbane people, a civilizing people--above such petty irritating things. i'd as soon put barbed wire along the footpath across that field where the village children go to school. or claim that our mushrooms are cultivated. or prosecute a sunday-society cockney for picking my primroses. custom-houses indeed! it's chinese. there are things a great country mustn't do, stephen. a country like ours ought to get along without the manners of a hard-breathing competitive cad.... if it can't i'd rather it didn't get along.... what's the good of a huckster country?--it's like having a wife on the streets. it's no excuse that she brings you money. but since the peace, and that man chamberlain's visit to africa, you imperialists seem to have got this nasty spirit all over you.... the germans do it, you say!" my father shut one eye and regarded the color of his port against the waning light. "let _'em_," he said.... "fancy!--quoting the _germans_! when i was a boy, there weren't any germans. they came up after ' . statecraft from germany! and statesmen from birmingham! german silver and electroplated empires.... no." "it's just a part of our narrow outlook," i answered from the hearthrug, after a pause. "it's because we're so--limited that everyone is translating the greatness of empire into preferential trading and jealousy of germany. it's for something bigger than that that i've returned." "those big things come slowly," said my father. and then with a sigh: "age after age. they seem at times--to be standing still. good things go with the bad; bad things come with the good...." i remember him saying that as though i could still hear him. it must have been after dinner, for he was sitting, duskily indistinct, against the light, with a voice coming out to him. the candles had not been brought in, and the view one saw through the big plate glass window behind him was very clear and splendid. those little wealden hills in surrey and sussex assume at times, for all that by swiss standards they are the merest ridges of earth, the dignity and mystery of great mountains. now, the crests of hindhead and blackdown, purple black against the level gold of the evening sky, might have been some high-flung boundary chain. nearer there gathered banks and pools of luminous lavender-tinted mist out of which hills of pinewood rose like islands out of the sea. the intervening spaces were magnified to continental dimensions. and the closer lowlier things over which we looked, the cottages below us, were grey and black and dim, pierced by a few luminous orange windows and with a solitary street lamp shining like a star; the village might have been nestling a mountain's height below instead of a couple of hundred feet. i left my hearthrug, and walked to the window to survey this. "who's got all that land stretching away there; that little blunted sierra of pines and escarpments i mean?" my father halted for an instant in his answer, and glanced over his shoulder. "wardingham and baxter share all those coppices," he remarked. "they come up to my corner on each side." "but the dark heather and pine land beyond. with just the gables of a house among the trees." "oh? _that_," he said with a careful note of indifference. "that's--justin. you know justin. he used to come to burnmore park." chapter the sixth lady mary justin § i did not see lady mary justin for nearly seven months after my return to england. of course i had known that a meeting was inevitable, and i had taken that very carefully into consideration before i decided to leave south africa. but many things had happened to me during those crowded years, so that it seemed possible that that former magic would no longer sway and distress me. not only had new imaginative interests taken hold of me but--i had parted from adolescence. i was a man. i had been through a great war, seen death abundantly, seen hardship and passion, and known hunger and shame and desire. a hundred disillusioning revelations of the quality of life had come to me; once for example when we were taking some people to the concentration camps it had been necessary to assist at the premature birth of a child by the wayside, a startlingly gory and agonizing business for a young man to deal with. heavens! how it shocked me! i could give a score of such grim pictures--and queer pictures.... and it wasn't only the earthlier aspects of the life about me but also of the life within me that i had been discovering. the first wonder and innocence, the worshipping, dawn-clear passion of youth, had gone out of me for ever.... § we met at a dinner. it was at a house the tarvrilles had taken for the season in mayfair. the drawing-room was a big white square apartment with several big pictures and a pane of plate glass above the fireplace in the position in which one usually finds a mirror; this showed another room beyond, containing an exceptionally large, gloriously colored portrait in pastel--larger than i had ever thought pastels could be. except for the pictures both rooms were almost colorless. it was a brilliant dinner, with a predominating note of ruby; three of the women wore ruby velvet; and ellersley was present just back from arabia, and ethel manton, lady hendon and the duchess of clynes. i was greeted by lady tarvrille, spoke to ellersley and lady hendon, and then discovered a lady in a dress of blue and pearls standing quite still under a picture in the opposite corner of the room and regarding me attentively. it was mary. some man was beside her, a tall grey man with a broad crimson ribbon, and i think he must have spoken of me to her. it was as if she had just turned to look at me. constantly during those intervening months i had been thinking of meeting her. none the less there was a shock, not so much of surprise as of deferred anticipation. there she stood like something amazingly forgotten that was now amazingly recalled. she struck me in that brief crowded instant of recognition as being exactly the person she had been when we had made love in burnmore park; there were her eyes, at once frank and sidelong, the old familiar sweep of her hair, the old familiar tilt of the chin, the faint humor of her lip, and at the same time she seemed to be something altogether different from the memories i had cherished, she was something graver, something inherently more splendid than they had recorded. her face lit now with recognition. i went across to her at once, with some dull obviousness upon my lips. "and so you are back from africa at last," she said, still unsmiling. "i saw about you in the papers.... you had a good time." "i had great good luck," i replied. "i never dreamt when we were boy and girl together that you would make a soldier." i think i said that luck made soldiers. then i think we found a difficulty in going on with our talk, and began a dull little argument that would have been stupidly egotistical on my part if it hadn't been so obviously merely clumsy, about luck making soldiers or only finding them out. i saw that she had not intended to convey any doubt of my military capacity but only of that natural insensitiveness which is supposed to be needed in a soldier. but our minds were remote from the words upon our lips. we were like aphasiacs who say one thing while they intend something altogether different. the impulse that had brought me across to her had brought me up to a wall of impossible utterances. it was with a real quality of rescue that our hostess came between us to tell us our partners at the dinner-table, and to introduce me to mine. "you shall have him again on your other side," she said to lady mary with a charming smile for me, treating me as if i was a lion in request instead of the mere outsider i was. we talked very little at dinner. both of us i think were quite unequal to the occasion. whatever meetings we had imagined, certainly neither of us had thought of this very possible encounter, a long disconcerting hour side by side. i began to remember old happenings with an astonishing vividness; there within six inches of me was the hand i had kissed; her voice was the same to its lightest shade, her hair flowed off her forehead with the same amazingly familiar wave. was she too remembering? but i perhaps had changed altogether.... "why did you go away as you did?" she asked abruptly, when for a moment we were isolated conversationally. "why did you never write?" she had still that phantom lisp. "what else could i do?" she turned away from me and answered the man on her left, who had just addressed her.... when the mid-dinner change came we talked a little about indifferent things, making a stiff conversation like a bridge over a torrent of unspoken intimacies. we discussed something; i think lady tarvrille's flowers and the cape flora and gardens. she told me she had a japanese garden with three japanese gardeners. they were wonderful little men to watch. "humming-bird gardeners," she called them. "they wear their native costume." "we are your neighbors in surrey," she said, going off abruptly from that. "we are quite near to your father." she paused with that characteristic effect of deliberation in her closed lips. then she added: "i can see the trees behind your father's house from the window of my room." "yes," i said. "you take all our southward skyline." she turned her face to me with the manner of a great lady adding a new acquaintance to her collection. but her eyes met mine very steadily and intimately. "mr. stratton," she said--it was the first time in her life she had called me that--"when we come back to surrey i want you to come and see me and tell me of all the things you are going to do. will you?" § that meeting, that revival, must have been late in november or early in december. already by that time i had met your mother. i write to you, little son, not to you as you are now, but to the man you are someday to be. i write to understand myself, and, so far as i can understand, to make you understand. so that i want you to go back with me for a time into the days before your birth, to think not of that dear spirit of love who broods over you three children, that wise, sure mother who rules your life, but of a young and slender girl, rachel more, younger then than you will be when at last this story comes into your hands. for unless you think of her as being a girl, if you let your present knowledge of her fill out this part in our story, you will fail to understand the proportions of these two in my life. so i shall write of her here as rachel more, as if she were someone as completely dissociated from yourself as lady mary; as if she were someone in the story of my life who had as little to do with yours. i had met her in september. the house my father lived in is about twelve miles away from your mother's home at ridinghanger, and i was taken over by percy restall in his motor-car. restall had just become a convert to this new mode of locomotion, and he was very active with a huge, malignant-looking french car that opened behind, and had a kind of poke bonnet and all sorts of features that have since disappeared from the automobile world. he took everyone that he could lay hands upon for rides,--he called it extending their range, and he called upon everyone else to show off the car; he was responsible for more introduction and social admixture in that part of surrey than had occurred during the previous century. we punctured in the ridinghanger drive, restall did his own repairs, and so it was we stayed for nearly four hours and instead of a mere caller i became a familiar friend of the family. your mother then was still not eighteen, a soft white slip of being, tall, slender, brown-haired and silent, with very still deep dark eyes. she and your three aunts formed a very gracious group of young women indeed; alice then as now the most assertive, with a gay initiative and a fluent tongue; molly already a sun-brown gipsy, and norah still a pig-tailed thing of lank legs and wild embraces and the pinkest of swift pink blushes; your uncle sidney, with his shy lank moodiness, acted the brotherly part of a foil. there were several stray visitors, young men and maidens, there were always stray visitors in those days at ridinghanger, and your grandmother, rosy and bright-eyed, maintained a gentle flow of creature comforts and kindly but humorous observations. i do not remember your grandfather on this occasion; probably he wasn't there. there was tea, and we played tennis and walked about and occasionally visited restall, who was getting dirtier and dirtier, and crosser and crosser at his repairs, and spreading a continually more remarkable assemblage of parts and instruments over the grass about him. he looked at last more like a pitch in the caledonian market than a decent country gentleman paying an afternoon call. and then back to more tennis and more talk. we fell into a discussion of tariff reform as we sat taking tea. two of the visitor youths were strongly infected by the new teachings which were overshadowing the outlook of british imperialism. some mean phrase about not conquering africa for the german bagman, some ugly turn of thought that at a touch brought down empire to the level of a tradesman's advantage, fell from one of them, and stirred me to sudden indignation. i began to talk of things that had been gathering in my mind for some time. i do not know what i said. it was in the vein of my father's talk no doubt. but i think that for once i may have been eloquent. and in the midst of my demand for ideals in politics that were wider and deeper than artful buying and selling, that looked beyond a vulgar aggression and a churl's dread and hatred of foreign things, while i struggled to say how great and noble a thing empire might be, i saw rachel's face. this, it was manifest, was a new kind of talk to her. her dark eyes were alight with a beautiful enthusiasm for what i was trying to say, and for what in the light of that glowing reception i seemed to be. i felt that queer shame one feels when one is taken suddenly at the full value of one's utmost expressions. i felt as though i had cheated her, was passing myself off for something as great and splendid as the empire of my dreams. it is hard to dissociate oneself from the fine things to which one aspires. i stopped almost abruptly. dumbly her eyes bade me go on, but when i spoke again it was at a lower level.... that look in rachel's eyes remained with me. my mind had flashed very rapidly from the realization of its significance to the thought that if one could be sure of that, then indeed one could pitch oneself high. rachel, i felt, had something for me that i needed profoundly, without ever having known before that i needed it. she had the supreme gifts of belief and devotion; in that instant's gleam it seemed she held them out to me. never before in my life had it seemed credible to me that anyone could give me that, or that i could hope for such a gift of support and sacrifice. love as i had known it had been a community and an alliance, a frank abundant meeting; but this was another kind of love that shone for an instant and promised, and vanished shyly out of sight as i and rachel looked at one another. some interruption occurred. restall came, i think, blackened by progress, to drink a cup of tea and negotiate the loan of a kitchen skewer. a kitchen skewer it appeared was all that was needed to complete his reconstruction in the avenue. norah darted off for a kitchen skewer, while restall drank. and then there was a drift to tennis, and rachel and i were partners. all this time i was in a state of startled attention towards her, full of this astounding impression that something wonderful and unprecedented had flowed out from her towards my life, full too of doubts now whether that shining response had ever occurred, whether some trick of light and my brain had not deceived me. i wanted tremendously to talk to her, and did not know how to begin in any serious fashion. beyond everything i wanted to see again that deep onset of belief.... "come again," said your grandmother to me, "come again!" after she had tried in vain to make restall stay for an informal supper. i was all for staying, but restall said darkly, "there are the lamps." "but they will be all right," said mrs. more. "i can't trust 'em," said restall, with a deepening gloom. "not after _that_." the motor-car looked self-conscious and uncomfortable, but said nothing by way of excuse, and restall took me off in it like one whose sun has set for ever. "i wouldn't be surprised," said restall as we went down the drive, "if the damned thing turned a somersault. it might do--anything." those were the brighter days of motoring. the next time i went over released from restall's limitations, and stayed to a jolly family supper. i found remarkably few obstacles in my way to a better acquaintance with rachel. you see i was an entirely eligible and desirable young man in mrs. more's eyes.... § when i recall these long past emotions again, i am struck by the profound essential difference between my feelings for your mother and for mary. they were so different that it seems scarcely rational to me that they should be called by the same name. yet each was love, profoundly deep and sincere. the contrast lies, i think, in our relative ages, and our relative maturity; that altered the quality of all our emotions. the one was the love of a man of six-and-twenty, exceptionally seasoned and experienced and responsible for his years, for a girl still at school, a girl attractively beautiful, mysterious and unknown to him; the other was the love of coevals, who had been playmates and intimate companions, and of whom the woman was certainly as capable and wilful as the man. now it is exceptional for men to love women of their own age, it is the commoner thing that they should love maidens younger and often much younger than themselves. this is true more particularly of our own class; the masculine thirties and forties marry the feminine twenties, all the prevailing sentiment and usage between the sexes rises naturally out of that. we treat this seniority as though it were a virile characteristic; we treat the man as though he were a natural senior, we expect a weakness, a timid deference, in the girl. i and mary had loved one another as two rivers run together on the way to the sea, we had grown up side by side to the moment when we kissed; but i sought your mother, i watched her and desired her and chose her, very tenderly and worshipfully indeed, to be mine. i do not remember that there was any corresponding intention in my mind to be hers. i do not think that that idea came in at all. she was something to be won, something playing an inferior and retreating part. and i was artificial in all my attitudes to her, i thought of what would interest her, what would please her, i knew from the outset that what she saw in me to rouse that deep, shy glow of exaltation in her face was illusion, illusion it was my business to sustain. and so i won her, and long years had to pass, years of secret loneliness and hidden feelings, of preposterous pretences and covert perplexities, before we escaped from that crippling tradition of inequality and looked into one another's eyes with understanding and forgiveness, a woman and a man. i made no great secret of the interest and attraction i found in rachel, and the mores made none of their entire approval of me. i walked over on the second occasion, and ridinghanger opened out, a great flower of genial appreciation that i came alone, hiding nothing of its dawning perception that it was rachel in particular i came to see. your grandmother's match-making was as honest as the day. there was the same salad of family and visitors as on the former afternoon, and this time i met freshman, who was destined to marry alice; there was tea, tennis, and, by your grandmother's suggestion, a walk to see the sunset from the crest of the hill. rachel and i walked across the breezy moorland together, while i talked and tempted her to talk. what, i wonder, did we talk about? english scenery, i think, and african scenery and the weald about us, and the long history of the weald and its present and future, and at last even a little of politics. i had never explored the mind of a girl of seventeen before; there was a surprise in all she knew and a delight in all she didn't know, and about herself a candor, a fresh simplicity of outlook that was sweeter than the clear air about us, sweeter than sunshine or the rising song of a lark. she believed so gallantly and beautifully, she was so perfectly, unaffectedly and certainly prepared to be a brave and noble person--if only life would let her. and she hadn't as yet any suspicion that life might make that difficult.... i went to ridinghanger a number of times in the spring and early summer. i talked a great deal with rachel, and still i did not make love to her. it was always in my mind that i would make love to her, the heavens and earth and all her family were propitious, glowing golden with consent and approval, i thought she was the most wonderful and beautiful thing in life, and her eyes, the intonation of her voice, her hurrying color and a hundred little involuntary signs told me how she quickened at my coming. but there was a shyness. i loved her as one loves and admires a white flower or a beautiful child--some stranger's child. i felt that i might make her afraid of me. i had never before thought that to make love is a coarse thing. but still at high summer when i met mary again no definite thing had been said between myself and rachel. but we knew, each of us knew, that somewhere in a world less palpable, in fairyland, in dreamland, we had met and made our vows. § you see how far my imagination had gone towards readjustment when mary returned into my life. you see how strange and distant it was to meet her again, changed completely into the great lady she had intended to be, speaking to me with the restrained and practised charm of a woman who is young and beautiful and prominent and powerful and secure. there was no immediate sense of shock in that resumption of our broken intercourse, it seemed to me that night simply that something odd and curious had occurred. i do not remember how we parted that evening or whether we even saw each other after dinner was over, but from that hour forth mary by insensible degrees resumed her old predominance in my mind. i woke up in the night and thought about her, and next day i found myself thinking of her, remembering things out of the past and recalling and examining every detail of the overnight encounter. how cold and ineffective we had been, both of us! we had been like people resuming a disused and partially forgotten language. had she changed towards me? did she indeed want to see me again or was that invitation a mere demonstration of how entirely unimportant seeing me or not seeing me had become? then i would find myself thinking with the utmost particularity of her face. had it changed at all? was it altogether changed? i seemed to have forgotten everything and remembered everything; that peculiar slight thickness of her eyelids that gave her eyes their tenderness, that light firmness of her lips. of course she would want to talk to me, as now i perceived i wanted to talk to her. was i in love with her still? it seemed to me then that i was not. it had not been that hesitating fierceness, that pride and demand and doubt, which is passionate love, that had made all my sensations strange to me as i sat beside her. it had been something larger and finer, something great and embracing, a return to fellowship. here beside me, veiled from me only by our transient embarrassment and the tarnish of separation and silences, was the one person who had ever broken down the crust of shy insincerity which is so incurably my characteristic and talked intimately of the inmost things of life to me. i discovered now for the first time how intense had been my loneliness for the past five years. i discovered now that through all those years i had been hungry for such talk as mary alone could give me. my mind was filled with talk, filled with things i desired to say to her; that chaos began to take on a multitudinous expression at the touch of her spirit. i began to imagine conversations with her, to prepare reports for her of those new worlds of sensation and activity i had discovered since that boyish parting. but when at last that talk came it was altogether different from any of those i had invented. she wrote to me when she came down into surrey and i walked over to martens the next afternoon. i found her in her own sitting-room, a beautiful characteristic apartment with tall french windows hung with blue curtains, a large writing-desk and a great litter of books. the room gave upon a broad sunlit terrace with a balustrading of yellowish stone, on which there stood great oleanders. beyond was a flower garden and then the dark shadows of cypresses. she was standing as i came in to her, as though she had seen me coming across the lawns and had been awaiting my entrance. "i thought you might come to-day," she said, and told the manservant to deny her to other callers. again she produced that queer effect of being at once altogether the same and altogether different from the mary i had known. "justin," she said, "is in paris. he comes back on friday." i saw then that the change lay in her bearing, that for the easy confidence of the girl she had now the deliberate dignity and control of a married woman--a very splendidly and spaciously married woman. her manner had been purged of impulse. since we had met she had stood, the mistress of great houses, and had dealt with thousands of people. "you walked over to me?" "i walked," i said. "it is nearly a straight path. you know it?" "you came over the heather beyond our pine wood," she confirmed. and then i think we talked some polite unrealities about surrey scenery and the weather. it was so formal that by a common impulse we let the topic suddenly die. we stood through a pause, a hesitation. were we indeed to go on at that altitude of cold civility? she turned to the window as if the view was to serve again. "sit down," she said and dropped into a chair against the light, looking away from me across the wide green space of afternoon sunshine. i sat down on a little sofa, at a loss also. "and so," she said, turning her face to me suddenly, "you come back into my life." and i was amazed to see that the brightness of her eyes was tears. "we've lived--five years." "you," i said clumsily, "have done all sorts of things. i hear of you--patronizing young artists--organizing experiments in village education." "yes," she said, "i've done all sorts of things. one has to. forced, unreal things for the most part. you i expect have done--all sorts of things also.... but yours have been real things...." "all things," i remarked sententiously, "are real. and all of them a little unreal. south africa has been wonderful. and now it is all over one doubts if it really happened. like that incredulous mood after a storm of passion." "you've come back for good?" "for good. i want to do things in england." "politics?" "if i can get into that." again a pause. there came the characteristic moment of deliberation that i remembered so well. "i never meant you," she said, "to go away.... you could have written. you never answered the notes i sent." "i was frantic," i said, "with loss and jealousy. i wanted to forget." "and you forgot?" "i did my best." "i did my best," said mary. "and now---- have you forgotten?" "nothing." "nor i. i thought i had. until i saw you again. i've thought of you endlessly. i've wanted to talk to you. we had a way of talking together. but you went away. you turned your back as though all that was nothing--not worth having. you--you drove home my marriage, stephen. you made me know what a thing of sex a woman is to a man--and how little else...." she paused. "you see," i said slowly. "you had made me, as people say, in love with you.... i don't know--if you remember everything...." she looked me in the eyes for a moment. "i hadn't been fair," she said with an abrupt abandonment of accusation. "but you know, stephen, that night---- i meant to explain. and afterwards.... things sometimes go as one hasn't expected them to go, even the things one has planned to say. i suppose--i treated you--disgustingly." i protested. "yes," she said. "i treated you as i did--and i thought you would stand it. i _knew_, i knew then as well as you do now that male to my female you wouldn't stand it, but somehow--i thought there were other things. things that could override that...." "not," i said, "for a boy of one-and-twenty." "but in a man of twenty-six?" i weighed the question. "things are different," i said, and then, "yes. anyhow now--if i may come back penitent,--to a friendship." we looked at one another gravely. faintly in our ears sounded the music of past and distant things. we pretended to hear nothing of that, tried honestly to hear nothing of it. i had not remembered how steadfast and quiet her face could be. "yes," she said, "a friendship." "i've always had you in my mind, stephen," she said. "when i saw i couldn't marry you, it seemed to me i had better marry and be free of any further hope. i thought we could get over that. 'let's get it over,' i thought. now--at any rate--we have got over that." her eyes verified her words a little doubtfully. "and we can talk and you can tell me of your life, and the things you want to do that make life worth living. oh! life has been _stupid_ without you, stephen, large and expensive and aimless....tell me of your politics. they say--justin told me--you think of parliament?" "i want to do that. i have been thinking---- in fact i am going to stand." i found myself hesitating on the verge of phrases in the quality of a review article. it was too unreal for her presence. and yet it was this she seemed to want from me. "this," i said, "is a phase of great opportunities. the war has stirred the empire to a sense of itself, to a sense of what it might be. of course this tariff reform row is a squalid nuisance; it may kill out all the fine spirit again before anything is done. everything will become a haggle, a chaffering of figures.... all the more reason why we should try and save things from the commercial traveller. if the empire is anything at all, it is something infinitely more than a combination in restraint of trade...." "yes," she said. "and you want to take that line. the high line." "if one does not take the high line," i said, "what does one go into politics for?" "stephen," she smiled, "you haven't lost a sort of simplicity---- people go into politics because it looks important, because other people go into politics, because they can get titles and a sense of influence and--other things. and then there are quarrels, old grudges to serve." "these are roughnesses of the surface." "old stephen!" she cried with the note of a mother. "they will worry you in politics." i laughed. "perhaps i'm not altogether so simple." "oh! you'll get through. you have a way of going on. but i shall have to watch over you. i see i shall have to watch over you. tell me of the things you mean to do. where are you standing?" i began to tell her a little disjointedly of the probabilities of my yorkshire constituency.... § i have a vivid vignette in my memory of my return to my father's house, down through the pine woods and by the winding path across the deep valley that separated our two ridges. i was thinking of mary and nothing but mary in all the world and of the friendly sweetness of her eyes and the clean strong sharpness of her voice. that sweet white figure of rachel that had been creeping to an ascendancy in my imagination was moonlight to her sunrise. i knew it was mary i loved and had always loved. i wanted passionately to be as she desired, the friend she demanded, that intimate brother and confederate, but all my heart cried out for her, cried out for her altogether. i would be her friend, i repeated to myself, i would be her friend. i would talk to her often, plan with her, work with her. i could put my meanings into her life and she should throw her beauty over mine. i began already to dream of the talk of to-morrow's meeting.... § and now let me go on to tell at once the thing that changed life for both of us altogether, that turned us out of the courses that seemed set for us, our spacious, successful and divergent ways, she to the tragedy of her death and i from all the prospects of the public career that lay before me to the work that now, toilsomely, inadequately and blunderingly enough, i do. it was to pierce and slash away the appearances of life for me, it was to open my way to infinite disillusionment, and unsuspected truths. within a few weeks of our second meeting mary and i were passionately in love with one another; we had indeed become lovers. the arrested attractions of our former love released again, drew us inevitably to that. we tried to seem outwardly only friends, with this hot glow between us. our tormented secret was half discovered and half betrayed itself. there followed a tragi-comedy of hesitations and disunited struggle. within four months the crisis of our two lives was past.... it is not within my purpose to tell you, my son, of the particular events, the particular comings and goings, the chance words, the chance meetings, the fatal momentary misunderstandings that occurred between us. i want to tell of something more general than that. this misadventure is in our strain. it is our inheritance. it is a possibility in the inheritance of all honest and emotional men and women. there are no doubt people altogether cynical and adventurous to whom these passions and desires are at once controllable and permissible indulgences without any radiation of consequences, a secret and detachable part of life, and there may be people of convictions so strong and simple that these disturbances are eliminated, but we strattons are of a quality neither so low nor so high, we stoop and rise, we are not convinced about our standards, and for many generations to come, with us and with such people as the christians, and indeed with most of our sort of people, we shall be equally desirous of free and intimate friendship and prone to blaze into passion and disaster at that proximity. this is one of the essential riddles in the adaptation of such human beings as ourselves to that greater civilized state of which i dream. it is the gist of my story. it is one of the two essential riddles that confront our kind. the servitude of sex and the servitude of labor are the twin conditions upon which human society rests to-day, the two limitations upon its progress towards a greater social order, to that greater community, those uplands of light and happy freedom, towards which that being who was my father yesterday, who thinks in myself to-day, and who will be you to-morrow and your sons after you, by his very nature urges and must continue to urge the life of mankind. the story of myself and mary is a mere incident in that gigantic, scarce conscious effort to get clear of toils and confusions and encumbrances, and have our way with life. we are like little figures, dots ascendant upon a vast hillside; i take up our intimacy for an instant and hold it under a lens for you. i become more than myself then, and mary stands for innumerable women. it happened yesterday, and it is just a part of that same history that made edmond stratton of the hays elope with charlotte anstruther and get himself run through the body at haddington two hundred years ago, which drove the laidlaw-christians to virginia in ' , gave stratton street to the moneylenders when george iv. was regent, and broke the heart of margaret stratton in the days when charles the first was king. with our individual variations and under changed conditions the old desires and impulses stirred us, the old antagonisms confronted us, the old difficulties and sloughs and impassable places baffled us. there are times when i think of my history among all those widespread repeated histories, until it seems to me that the human lover is like a creature who struggles for ever through a thicket without an end.... there are no universal laws of affection and desire, but it is manifestly true that for the most of us free talk, intimate association, and any real fellowship between men and women turns with an extreme readiness to love. and that being so it follows that under existing conditions the unrestricted meeting and companionship of men and women in society is a monstrous sham, a merely dangerous pretence of encounters. the safe reality beneath those liberal appearances is that a woman must be content with the easy friendship of other women and of one man only, letting a superficial friendship towards all other men veil impassable abysses of separation, and a man must in the same way have one sole woman intimate. to all other women he must be a little blind, a little deaf, politely inattentive. he must respect the transparent, intangible, tacit purdah about them, respect it but never allude to it. to me that is an intolerable state of affairs, but it is reality. if you live in the spirit of any other understanding you will court social disaster. i suppose it is a particularly intolerable state of affairs to us strattons because it is in our nature to want things to seem what they are. that translucent yet impassible purdah outrages our veracity. and it is plain to me that our social order cannot stand and is not standing the tensions it creates. the convention that passions and emotions are absent when they are palpably present broke down between mary and myself, as it breaks down in a thousand other cases, as it breaks down everywhere. our social life is honeycombed and rotten with secret hidden relationships. the rigid, the obtuse and the unscrupulously cunning escape; the honest passion sooner or later flares out and destroys.... here is a difficulty that no bullying imposition of arbitrary rules on the one hand nor any reckless abandonment of law on the other, can solve. humanity has yet to find its method in sexual things; it has to discover the use and the limitation of jealousy. and before it can even begin to attempt to find, it has to cease its present timid secret groping in shame and darkness and turn on the light of knowledge. none of us knows much and most of us do not even know what is known. § the house is very quiet to-day. it is your mother's birthday, and you three children have gone with her and mademoiselle potin into the forest to celebrate the occasion. presently i shall join you. the sunlit garden, with its tall dreaming lilies against the trellised vines upon the wall, the cedars and the grassy space about the sundial, have that distinguished stillness, that definite, palpable and almost outlined emptiness which is so to speak your negative presence. it is like a sheet of sunlit colored paper out of which your figures have been cut. there is a commotion of birds in the jasmine, and your barker reclines with an infinite tranquillity, a masterless dog, upon the lawn. i take up this writing again after an interval of some weeks. i have been in paris, attending the sabotage conference, and dealing with those intricate puzzles of justice and discipline and the secret sources of contentment that have to be solved if sabotage is ever to vanish from labor struggles again. i think a few points have been made clearer in that curious riddle of reconciliations.... now i resume this story. i turn over the sheets that were written and finished before my departure, and come to the notes for what is to follow. perhaps my days of work in paris have carried my mind on beyond the point at which i left the narrative. i sit as it were among a pile of memories that are now all disordered and mixed up together, their proper sequences and connexions lost. i cannot trace the phases through which our mutual passion rode up through the restrained and dignified intentions of our friendship. but i know that presently we were in a white heat of desire. there must have been passages that i now altogether forget, moments of tense transition. i am more and more convinced that our swiftest, intensest, mental changes leave far less vivid memories than impressions one receives when one is comparatively passive. and of this phase in my life of which i am now telling i have clear memories of a time when we talked like brother and sister, or like angels if you will, and hard upon that came a time when we were planning in all our moments together how and when and where we might meet in secret and meet again. things drift with a phantom-like uncertainty into my mind and pass again; those fierce motives of our transition have lost now all stable form and feature, but i believe there was a curious tormenting urgency in our jealousy of those others, of justin on my part and of rachel on hers. at first we had talked quite freely about rachel, had discussed my conceivable marriage with her. we had indeed a little forced that topic, as if to reassure ourselves of the honesty of our new footing. but the force that urged us nearer pervaded all our being. it was hard enough to be barred apart, to snatch back our hands from touching, to avoid each other's eyes, to hurry a little out of the dusk towards the lit house and its protecting servants, but the constant presence and suggestion of those others from whom there were no bars, or towards whom bars could be abolished at a look, at an impulse, exacerbated that hardship, roused a fierce insatiable spirit of revolt within us. at times we grew angry with each other's formalism, came near to quarrelling.... i associate these moods with the golden stillnesses of a prolonged and sultry autumn, and with slowly falling leaves.... i will not tell you how that step was taken, it matters very little to my story, nor will i tell which one of us it was first broke the barriers down. § but i do want to tell you certain things. i want to tell you them because they are things that affect you closely. there was almost from the first a difference between mary and myself in this, that i wanted to be public about our love, i wanted to be open and defiant, and she--hesitated. she wanted to be secret. she wanted to keep me; i sometimes think that she was moved to become my mistress because she wanted to keep me. but she also wanted to keep everything else in her life,--her position, her ample freedoms and wealth and dignity. our love was to be a secret cavern, endymion's cave. i was ready enough to do what i could to please her, and for a time i served that secrecy, lied, pretended, agreed to false addresses, assumed names, and tangled myself in a net-work of furtive proceedings. these are things that poison and consume honest love. you will learn soon enough as you grow to be a man that beneath the respectable assumptions of our social life there is an endless intricate world of subterfuge and hidden and perverted passion,--for all passion that wears a mask is perversion--and that thousands of people of our sort are hiding and shamming about their desires, their gratifications, their true relationships. i do not mean the open offenders, for they are mostly honest and gallant people, but the men and women who sin in the shadows, the people who are not clean and scandalous, but immoral and respectable. this underworld is not for us. i wish that i who have looked into it could in some way inoculate you now against the repetition of my misadventure. we strattons are daylight men, and if i work now for widened facilities of divorce, for an organized freedom and independence of women, and greater breadth of toleration, it is because i know in my own person the degradations, the falsity, the bitterness, that can lurk beneath the inflexible pretentions of the established code to-day. and i want to tell you too of something altogether unforeseen that happened to us, and that was this, that from the day that passion carried us and we became in the narrower sense of the word lovers, all the wider interests we had in common, our political intentions, our impersonal schemes, began to pass out of our intercourse. our situation closed upon us like a trap and hid the sky. something more intense had our attention by the feet, and we used our wings no more. i do not think that we even had the real happiness and beauty and delight of one another. because, i tell you, there is no light upon kiss or embrace that is not done with pride. i do not know why it should be so, but people of our race and quality are a little ashamed of mere gratification in love. always we seem in my memory to have been whispering with flushed cheeks, and discussing interminably--_situation_. had something betrayed us, might something betray, was this or that sufficiently cunning? had we perhaps left a footmark or failed to burn a note, was the second footman who was detailed as my valet even now pausing astonished in the brushing of my clothes with our crumpled secret in his hand? between myself and the clear vision of this world about me this infernal net-work of precautions spread like a veil. and it was not only a matter of concealments but of positive deceptions. the figure of justin comes back to me. it is a curious thing that in spite of our bitter antagonism and the savage jealousy we were to feel for one another, there has always been, and there remains now in my thought of him, a certain liking, a regret at our opposition, a quality of friendliness. his broad face, which the common impression and the caricaturist make so powerful and eagle-like, is really not a brutal or heavy face at all. it is no doubt aquiline, after the fashion of an eagle-owl, the mouth and chin broad and the eyes very far apart, but there is a minute puckering of the brows which combines with that queer streak of brown discoloration that runs across his cheek and into the white of his eyes, to give something faintly plaintive and pitiful to his expression, an effect enhanced by the dark softness of his eyes. they are gentle eyes; it is absurd to suppose them the eyes of a violently forceful man. and indeed they do not belie justin. it is not by vehemence or pressure that his wealth and power have been attained; it is by the sheer detailed abundance of his mind. in that queer big brain of his there is something of the calculating boy and not a little of the chess champion; he has a kind of financial gift, he must be rich, and grows richer. what else is there for him to do? how many times have i not tried to glance carelessly at his face and scrutinize that look in his eyes, and ask myself was that his usual look, or was it lit by an instinctive jealousy? did he perhaps begin to suspect? i had become a persistent visitor in the house, he might well be jealous of such minor favors as she showed me, for with him she talked but little and shared no thoughts. his manner with her was tinctured by an habituated despair. they were extraordinarily polite and friendly with one another.... i tried a hundred sophistications of my treachery to him. i assured myself that a modern woman is mistress and owner of herself; no chattel, and so forth. but he did not think so, and neither she nor i were behaving as though we thought so. in innumerable little things we were doing our best tacitly to reassure him. and so you see me shaking hands with this man, affecting an interest in his topics and affairs, staying in his house, eating his food and drinking his wine, that i might be the nearer to his wife. it is not the first time that has been done in the world, there are esoteric codes to justify all i did; i perceive there are types of men to whom such relationships are attractive by the very reason of their illicit excitement. but we strattons are honest people, there is no secretive passion in our blood; this is no game for us; never you risk the playing of it, little son, big son as you will be when you read this story. perhaps, but i hope indeed not, this may reach you too late to be a warning, come to you in mid-situation. go through with it then, inheritor of mine, and keep as clean as you can, follow the warped honor that is still left to you--and if you can, come out of the tangle.... it is not only justin haunts the memories of that furtive time, but rachel more. i see her still as she was then, a straight, white-dressed girl with big brown eyes that regarded me now with perplexity, now with a faint dismay. i still went over to see her, and my manner had changed. i had nothing to say to her now and everything to hide. everything between us hung arrested, and nothing could occur to make an end. i told mary i must cease my visits to the mores. i tried to make her feel my own sense of an accumulating cruelty to rachel. "but it explains away so much," she said. "if you stop going there--everyone will talk. everything will swing round--and point here." "rachel!" i protested. "no," she said, overbearing me, "you must keep on going to ridinghanger. you must. you must." ... for a long time i had said nothing to mary of the burthen these pretences were to me; it had seemed a monstrous ingratitude to find the slightest flaw in the passionate love and intimacy she had given me. but at last the divergence of our purposes became manifest to us both. a time came when we perceived it clearly and discussed it openly. i have still a vivid recollection of a golden october day when we had met at the edge of the plantation that overlooks bearshill. she had come through the gardens into the pine-wood, and i had jumped the rusty banked stream that runs down the bearshill valley, and clambered the barbed wire fence. i came up the steep bank and through a fringe of furze to where she stood in the shade; i kissed her hand, and discovered mine had been torn open by one of the thorns of the wire and was dripping blood. "mind my dress," she said, and we laughed as we kissed with my arm held aloof. we sat down side by side upon the warm pine needles that carpeted the sand, and she made a mothering fuss about my petty wound, and bound it in my handkerchief. we looked together across the steep gorge at the blue ridge of trees beyond. "anyone," she said, "might have seen us this minute." "i never thought," i said, and moved a foot away from her. "it's too late if they have," said she, pulling me back to her. "over beyond there, that must be hindhead. someone with a telescope----!" "that's less credible," i said. and it occurred to me that the grey stretch of downland beyond must be the ridge to the west of ridinghanger. "i wish," i said, "it didn't matter. i wish i could come and go and fear nobody--and spend long hours with you--oh! at our ease." "now," she said, "we spend short hours. i wonder if i would like---- it's no good, stephen, letting ourselves think of things that can't be. here we are. kiss that hand, my lover, there, just between wrist and thumb--the little hollow. yes, exactly there." but thoughts had been set going in my mind. "why," i said presently, "should you always speak of things that can't be? why should we take all this as if it were all that there could be? i want long hours. i want you to shine all the day through on my life. now, dear, it's as if the sun was shown ever and again, and then put back behind an eclipse. i come to you half-blinded, i go away unsatisfied. all the world is dark in between, and little phantom _yous_ float over it." she rested her cheek on her hand and looked at me gravely. "you are hard to satisfy, brother heart," she said. "i live in snatches of brightness and all the rest of life is waiting and thinking and waiting." "what else is there? haven't we the brightness?" "i want you," i said. "i want _you_ altogether." "after so much?" "i want the more. mary, i want you to come away with me. no, listen! this life--don't think i'm not full of the beauty, the happiness, the wonder---- but it's a suspense. it doesn't go on. it's just a dawn, dear, a splendid dawn, a glory of color and brightness and freshness and hope, and--no sun rises. i want the day. everything else has stopped with me and stopped with you. i do nothing with my politics now,--i pretend. i have no plans in life except plans for meeting you and again meeting you. i want to go on, i want to go on with you and take up work and the world again--you beside me. i want you to come out of all this life--out of all this immense wealthy emptiness of yours----" "stop," she said, "and listen to me, stephen." she paused with her lips pressed together, her brows a little knit. "i won't," she said slowly. "i am going on like this. i and you are going to be lovers--just as we are lovers now--secret lovers. and i am going to help you in all your projects, hold your party together--for you will have a party--my house shall be its centre----" "but justin----" "he takes no interest in politics. he will do what pleases me." i took some time before i answered. "you don't understand how men feel," i said. she waited for what else i had to say. i lay prone, and gathered together and shaped and reshaped a little heap of pine needles. "you see---- i can't do it. i want you." she gripped a handful of my hair, and tugged hard between each word. "haven't you got me?" she asked between her teeth. "what more _could_ you have?" "i want you openly." she folded her arms beneath her. "_no_," she said. for a little while neither of us spoke. "it's the trouble of the deceit?" she asked. "it's--the deceit." "we can stop all that," she said. i looked up at her face enquiringly. "by having no more to hide," she said, with her eyes full of tears. "if it's nothing to you----" "it's everything to me," i said. "it's overwhelming me. oh mary, heart of my life, my dear, come out of this! come with me, come and be my wife, make a clean thing of it! let me take you away, and then let me marry you. i know it's asking you--to come to a sort of poverty----" but mary's blue eyes were alight with anger. "isn't it a clean thing _now_, stephen?" she was crying. "do you mean that you and i aren't clean now? will you never understand?" "oh clean," i answered, "clean as eve in the garden. but can we keep clean? won't the shadow of our falsehoods darken at all? come out of it while we are still clean. come with me. justin will divorce you. we can stay abroad and marry and come back." mary was kneeling up now with her hands upon her knees. "come back to what?" she cried. "parliament?--after that? you _boy!_ you sentimentalist! you--you duffer! do you think i'd let you do it for your own sake even? do you think i want you--spoilt? we should come back to mope outside of things, we should come back to fret our lives out. i won't do it, stephen, i won't do it. end _this_ if you like, break our hearts and throw them away and go on without them, but to turn all our lives into a scandal, to give ourselves over to the mean and the malicious, a prey to old women--and _you_ damned out of everything! a man partly forgiven! a man who went wrong for a woman! _no!_" she sprang lightly to her feet and stood over me as i knelt before her. "and i came here to be made love to, stephen! i came here to be loved! and you talk that nonsense! you remind me of everything--wretched!" she lifted up her hands and then struck down with them, a gesture of infinite impatience. her face as she bent to me was alive with a friendly anger, her eyes suddenly dark. "you _duffer_!" she repeated.... § discovery followed hard upon that meeting. i had come over to martens with some book as a pretext; the man had told me that lady mary awaited me in her blue parlor, and i went unannounced through the long gallery to find her. the door stood a little ajar, i opened it softly so that she did not hear me, and saw her seated at her writing-desk with her back to me, and her cheek and eyebrow just touched by the sunlight from the open terrace window. she was writing a note. i put my hand about her shoulder, and bent to kiss her as she turned. then as she came round to me she started, was for a moment rigid, then thrust me from her and rose very slowly to her feet. i turned to the window and became as rigid, facing justin. he was standing on the terrace, staring at us, with a face that looked stupid and inexpressive and--very white. the sky behind him, appropriately enough, was full of the tattered inky onset of a thunderstorm. so we remained for a lengthy second perhaps, a trite _tableau vivant_. we two seemed to hang helplessly upon justin, and he was the first of us to move. he made a queer, incomplete gesture with one hand, as if he wanted to undo the top button of his waistcoat and then thought better of it. he came very slowly into the room. when he spoke his voice had neither rage nor denunciation in it. it was simply conversational. "i felt this was going on," he said. and then to his wife with the note of one who remarks dispassionately on a peculiar situation. "yet somehow it seemed wrong and unnatural to think such a thing of you." his face took on something of the vexed look of a child who struggles with a difficult task. "do you mind," he said to me, "will you go?" i took a moment for my reply. "no," i said. "since you know at last---- there are things to be said." "no," said mary, suddenly. "go! let me talk to him." "no," i said, "my place is here beside you." he seemed not to hear me. his eyes were fixed on mary. he seemed to think he had dismissed me, and that i was no longer there. his mind was not concerned about me, but about her. he spoke as though what he said had been in his mind, and no doubt it had been in his mind, for many days. "i didn't deserve this," he said to her. "i've tried to make your life as you wanted your life. it's astonishing to find--i haven't. you gave no sign. i suppose i ought to have felt all this happening, but it comes upon me surprisingly. i don't know what i'm to do." he became aware of me again. "and _you_!" he said. "what am i to do? to think that you--while i have been treating her like some sacred thing...." the color was creeping back into his face. indignation had come into his voice, the first yellow lights of rising jealousy showed in his eyes. "stephen," i heard mary say, "will you leave me to talk to my husband?" "there is only one thing to do," i said. "what is the need of talking? we two are lovers, justin." i spoke to both of them. "we two must go out into the world, go out now together. this marriage of yours--it's no marriage, no real marriage...." i think i said that. i seem to remember saying that; perhaps with other phrases that i have forgotten. but my memory of what we said and did, which is so photographically clear of these earlier passages that i believe i can answer for every gesture and nearly every word that i have set down, becomes suddenly turbid. the high tension of our first confrontation was giving place to a flood of emotional impulse. we all became eager to talk, to impose interpretations and justifications upon our situation. we all three became divided between our partial attention to one another and our urgent necessity to keep hold of our points of view. that i think is the common tragedy of almost all human conflicts, that rapid breakdown from the first cool apprehension of an issue to heat, confusion, and insistence. i do not know if indeed we raised our voices, but my memory has an effect of raised voices, and when at last i went out of the house it seemed to me that the men-servants in the hall were as hushed as beasts before a thunderstorm, and all of them quite fully aware of the tremendous catastrophe that had come to martens. and moreover, as i recalled afterwards with astonishment, i went past them and out into the driving rain unprotected, and not one of them stirred a serviceable hand.... what was it we said? i have a vivid sense of declaring not once only but several times that mary and i were husband and wife "in the sight of god." i was full of the idea that now she must inevitably be mine. i must have spoken to justin at times as if he had come merely to confirm my view of the long dispute there had been between us. for a while my mind resisted his extraordinary attitude that the matter lay between him and mary, that i was in some way an interloper. it seemed to me there was nothing for it now but that mary should stand by my side and face justin with the world behind him. i remember my confused sense that presently she and i would have to go straight out of martens. and she was wearing a tea-gown, easy and open, and the flimsiest of slippers. any packing, any change of clothing, struck me as an incredible anti-climax. i had visions of our going forth, hand in hand. outside was the soughing of a coming storm, a chill wind drove a tumult of leaves along the terrace, the door slammed and yawned open again, and then came the rain. justin, i remember, still talking, closed the door. i tried to think how i could get to the station five miles away, and then what we could do in london. we should seem rather odd visitors to an hotel--without luggage. all this was behind my valiant demand that she should come with me, and come now. and then my mind was lanced by the thin edge of realization that she did not intend to come now, and that justin was resolved she should not do so. after the first shock of finding herself discovered she had stood pale but uncowed before her bureau, with her eyes rather on him than on me. her hands, i think, were behind her upon the edge of the writing flap, and she was a little leaning upon them. she had the watchful alert expression of one who faces an unanticipated but by no means overwhelming situation. she cast a remark to me. "but i do not want to come with you," she said. "i have told you i do not want to come with you." all her mind seemed concentrated upon what she should do with justin. "you must send him away," he was saying. "it's an abominable thing. it must stop. how can you dream it should go on?" "but you said when you married me i should be free, i should own myself! you gave me this house----" "what! to disgrace myself!" i was moved to intervene. "you must choose between us, mary," i cried. "it is impossible you should stay here! you cannot stay here." she turned upon me, a creature at bay. "why shouldn't i stay here? why must i choose between two men? i want neither of you. i want myself. i'm not a thing. i'm a human being. i'm not your thing, justin--nor yours, stephen. yet you want to quarrel over me--like two dogs over a bone. i am going to stay here--in my house! it's my house. i made it. every room of it is full of me. here i am!" she stood there making this magnificently extravagant claim; her eyes blazing blue, her hair a little dishevelled with a strand across her cheek. both i and justin spoke together, and then turned in helpless anger upon one another. i remember that with the clumsiest of weak gestures he bade me begone from the house, and that i with a now rather deflated rhetoric answered i would go only with mary at my side. and there she stood, less like a desperate rebel against the most fundamental social relations than an indignant princess, and demanded of us and high heaven, "why should i be fought for? why should i be fought for?" and then abruptly she gathered her skirts in her hand and advanced. "open that door, stephen," she said, and was gone with a silken whirl and rustle from our presence. we were left regarding one another with blank expressions. her departure had torn the substance out of our dispute. for the moment we found ourselves left with a new situation for which there is as yet no tradition of behavior. we had become actors in that new human comedy that is just beginning in the world, that comedy in which men still dispute the possession and the manner of the possession of woman according to the ancient rules, while they on their side are determining ever more definitely that they will not be possessed.... we had little to say to one another,--mere echoes and endorsements of our recent declarations. "she must come to me," said i. and he, "i will save her from that at any cost." that was the gist of our confrontation, and then i turned about and walked along the gallery towards the entrance, with justin following me slowly. i was full of the wrath of baffled heroics; i turned towards him with something of a gesture. down the perspective of the white and empty gallery he appeared small and perplexed. the panes of the tall french windows were slashed with rain.... § i forget now absolutely what i may have expected to happen next. i cannot remember my return to my father's house that day. but i know that what did happen was the most unanticipated and incredible experience of my life. it was as if the whole world of mankind were suddenly to turn upside down and people go about calmly in positions of complete inversion. i had a note from mary on the morning after this discovery that indeed dealt with that but was otherwise not very different from endless notes i had received before our crisis. it was destroyed, so that i do not know its exact text now, but it did not add anything material to the situation, or give me the faintest shadow to intimate what crept close upon us both. she repeated her strangely thwarting refusal to come away and live with me. she seemed indignant that we had been discovered--as though justin had indulged in an excess of existence by discovering us. i completed and despatched to her a long letter i had already been writing overnight in which i made clear the hopeless impossibility of her attitude, vowed all my life and strength to her, tried to make some picture of the happiness that was possible for us together, sketched as definitely as i could when and where we might meet and whither we might go. it must have made an extraordinary jumble of protest, persuasion and practicality. it never reached her; it was intercepted by justin. i have gathered since that after i left martens he sent telegrams to guy and philip and her cousin lord tarvrille. he was i think amazed beyond measure at this revelation of the possibilities of his cold and distant wife, with a vast passion of jealousy awaking in him, and absolutely incapable of forming any plan to meet the demands of his extraordinary situation. guy and philip got to him that night, tarvrille came down next morning, and martens became a debate. justin did not so much express views and intentions as have them extracted from him; it was manifest he was prepared for the amplest forgiveness of his wife if only i could be obliterated from their world. confronted with her brothers, the two men in the world who could be frankly brutal to her, mary's dignity suffered; she persisted she meant to go on seeing me, but she was reduced to passionate tears. into some such state of affairs i came that morning on the heels of my letter, demanding lady mary of a scared evasive butler. maxton and tarvrille appeared: "hullo, stratton!" said tarvrille, with a fine flavor of an agreeable chance meeting. philip had doubts about his greeting me, and then extended his reluctant hand with a nervous grin to excuse the delay. "i want to see lady mary," said i, stiffly. "she's not up yet," said tarvrille, with a hand on my shoulder. "come and have a talk in the garden." we went out with tarvrille expanding the topic of the seasons. "it's a damned good month, november, say what you like about it." philip walked grimly silent on my other hand. "and it's a damned awkward situation you've got us into, stratton," said tarvrille, "say what you like about it." "it isn't as though old justin was any sort of beast," he reflected, "or anything like that, you know. he's a most astonishing decent chap, clean as they make them." "this isn't a beastly intrigue," i said. "it never is," said tarvrille genially. "we've loved each other a long time. it's just flared out here." "no doubt of that," said tarvrille. "it's been like a beacon to all surrey." "it's one of those cases where things have to be readjusted. the best thing to do is for mary and me to go abroad----" "yes, but does mary think so?" "look here!" said philip in a voice thick with rage. "i won't have mary divorced. i won't. see? i won't." "what the devil's it got to do with _you_?" i asked with an answering flash of fury. tarvrille's arm ran through mine. "nobody's going to divorce mary," he said reassuringly. "not even justin. he doesn't want to, and nobody else can, and there you are!" "but we two----" "you two have had a tremendously good time. you've got found out--and there you are!" "this thing has got to stop absolutely now," said philip and echoed with a note of satisfaction in his own phrasing, "absolutely _now_." "you see, stratton," said tarvrille as if he were expanding philip's assertion, "there's been too many divorces in society. it's demoralizing people. it's discrediting us. it's setting class against class. everybody is saying why don't these big people either set about respecting the law or altering it. common people are getting too infernally clear-headed. hitherto it's mattered so little.... but we can't stand any more of it, stratton, now. it's something more than a private issue; it's a question of public policy. we can't stand any more divorces." he reflected. "we have to consider something more than our own personal inclinations. we've got no business to be here at all if we're not a responsible class. we owe something--to ourselves." it was as if tarvrille was as concerned as i was for this particular divorce, as if he struggled with a lively desire to see me and mary happily married after the shortest possible interval. and indeed he manifestly wasn't unsympathetic; he had the strongest proclivity for the romantic and picturesque, and it was largely the romantic picturesqueness of renunciation that he urged upon me. philip for the most part maintained a resentful silence; he was a clenched anger against me, against mary, against the flaming possibilities that threatened the sister of lord maxton, that most promising and distinguished young man. of course their plans must have been definitely made before this talk, probably they had made them overnight, and probably it was tarvrille had given them a practicable shape, but he threw over the whole of our talk so satisfying a suggestion of arrest and prolonged discussion that it never occurred to me that i should not be able to come again on the morrow and renew my demand to see mary. even when next day i turned my face to martens and saw the flag had vanished from the flagstaff, it seemed merely a token of that household's perturbation. i thought the house looked oddly blank and sleepy as i drew near, but i did not perceive that this was because all the blinds were drawn. the door upon the lawn was closed, and presently the butler came to open it. he was in an old white jacket, and collarless. "lady mary!" he said. "lady mary has gone, sir. she and mr. justin went yesterday after you called." "gone!" said i. "but where?" "i _think_ abroad, sir." "abroad!" "i _think_ abroad." "but---- they've left an address?" "only to mr. justin's office," said the man. "any letters will be forwarded from there." i paused upon the step. he remained stiffly deferential, but with an air of having disposed of me. he reproved me tacitly for forgetting that i ought to conceal my astonishment at this disappearance. he was indeed an admirable man-servant. "thank you," said i, and dropped away defeated from the door. i went down the broad steps, walked out up the lawn, and surveyed house and trees and garden and sky. to the heights and the depths and the uttermost, i knew now what it was to be amazed.... § i had felt myself an actor in a drama, and now i had very much the feeling an actor would have who answers to a cue and finds himself in mid-stage with the scenery and the rest of the cast suddenly vanished behind him. by that mixture of force and persuasion which avails itself of a woman's instinctive and cultivated dread of disputes and raised voices and the betrayal of contention to strangers, by the sheer tiring down of nerves and of sleepless body and by threats of an immediate divorce and a campaign of ruin against me, these three men had obliged mary to leave martens and go with them to southampton, and thence they took her in justin's yacht, the _water-witch_, to waterford, and thence by train to a hired house, an adapted old castle at mirk near crogham in mayo. there for all practical purposes she was a prisoner. they took away her purse, and she was four miles from a pillar-box and ten from a telegraph office. this house they had taken furnished without seeing it on the recommendation of a london agent, and in the name of justin's solicitor. thither presently went lady ladislaw, and an announcement appeared in the _times_ that justin and lady mary had gone abroad for a time and that no letters would be forwarded. i have never learnt the particulars of that abduction, but i imagine mary astonished, her pride outraged, humiliated, helpless, perplexed and maintaining a certain outward dignity. moreover, as i was presently to be told, she was ill. guy and philip were, i believe, the moving spirits in the affair; tarvrille was their apologetic accomplice, justin took the responsibility for what they did and bore the cost, he was bitterly ashamed to have these compulsions applied to his wife, but full now of a gusty fury against myself. he loved mary still with a love that was shamed and torn and bleeding, but his ruling passion was that infinitely stronger passion than love in our poor human hearts, jealousy. he was prepared to fight for her now as men fight for a flag, tearing it to pieces in the struggle. he meant now to keep mary. that settled, he was prepared to consider whether he still loved her or she him.... now here it may seem to you that we are on the very verge of romance. here is a beautiful lady carried off and held prisoner in a wild old place, standing out half cut off from the mainland among the wintry breakers of the west coast of ireland. here is the lover, baffled but insistent. here are the fierce brothers and the stern dragon husband, and you have but to make out that the marriage was compulsory, irregular and, on the ground of that irregularity, finally dissoluble, to furnish forth a theme for marriott watson in his most admirable and adventurous vein. you can imagine the happy chances that would have guided me to the hiding-place, the trusty friend who would have come with me and told the story, the grim siege of the place--all as it were _sotto voce_ for fear of scandal--the fight with guy in the little cave, my attempted assassination, the secret passage. would to heaven life had those rich simplicities, and one could meet one's man at the end of a sword! my siege of mirk makes a very different story from that. in the first place i had no trusted friend of so extravagant a friendship as such aid would demand. i had no one whom it seemed permissible to tell of our relations. i was not one man against three or four men in a romantic struggle for a woman. i was one man against something infinitely greater than that, i was one man against nearly all men, one man against laws, traditions, instincts, institutions, social order. whatever my position had been before, my continuing pursuit of mary was open social rebellion. and i was in a state of extreme uncertainty how far mary was a willing agent in this abrupt disappearance. i was disposed to think she had consented far more than she had done to this astonishing step. carrying off an unwilling woman was outside my imaginative range. it was luminously clear in my mind that so far she had never countenanced the idea of flight with me, and until she did i was absolutely bound to silence about her. i felt that until i saw her face to face again, and was sure she wanted me to release her, that prohibition held. yet how was i to get at her and hear what she had to say? clearly it was possible that she was under restraint, but i did not know; i was not certain, i could not prove it. at guildford station i gathered, after ignominious enquiries, that the justins had booked to london. i had two days of nearly frantic inactivity at home, and then pretended business that took me to london, for fear that i should break out to my father. i came up revolving a dozen impossible projects of action in my mind. i had to get into touch with mary, at that my mind hung and stopped. all through the twenty-four hours my nerves jumped at every knock upon my door; this might be the letter, this might be the telegram, this might be herself escaped and come to me. the days passed like days upon a painful sick-bed, grey or foggy london days of an appalling length and emptiness. if i sat at home my imagination tortured me; if i went out i wanted to be back and see if any communication had come. i tried repeatedly to see tarvrille. i had an idea of obtaining a complete outfit for an elopement, but i was restrained by my entire ignorance of what a woman may need. i tried to equip myself for a sudden crisis by the completest preparation of every possible aspect. i did some absurd and ill-advised things. i astonished a respectable solicitor in a grimy little office behind a queer little court with trees near cornhill, by asking him to give advice to an anonymous client and then putting my anonymous case before him. "suppose," said i, "it was for the plot of a play." he nodded gravely. my case as i stated it struck me as an unattractive one. "application for a writ of habeas corpus," he considered with eyes that tried to remain severely impartial, "by a wife's lover, who wants to find out where she is.... it's unusual. you will be requiring the husband to produce her corpus.... i don't think--speaking in the same general terms as those in which you put the circumstances, it would be likely to succeed.... no." then i overcame a profound repugnance and went to a firm of private detectives. it had occurred to me that if i could have justin, tarvrille, guy or philip traced i might get a clue to mary's hiding-place. i remember a queer little office, a blusterous, frock-coated creature with a pock-marked face, iron-grey hair, an eyeglass and a strained tenor voice, who told me twice that he was a gentleman and several times that he would prefer not to do business than to do it in an ungentlemanly manner, and who was quite obviously ready and eager to blackmail either side in any scandal into which spite or weakness admitted his gesticulating fingers. he alluded vaguely to his staff, to his woman helpers, "some personally attached to me," to his remarkable underground knowledge of social life--"the illicit side." what could he do for me? there was nothing, i said, illicit about me. his interest waned a little. i told him that i was interested in certain financial matters, no matter what they were, and that i wanted to have a report of the movements of justin and his brothers-in-law for the past few weeks and for a little time to come. "you want them watched?" said my private enquiry agent, leaning over the desk towards me and betraying a slight squint. "exactly," said i. "i want to know what sort of things they are looking at just at present." "have you any inkling----?" "none." "if our agents have to travel----" i expressed a reasonable generosity in the matter of expenses, and left him at last with a vague discomfort in my mind. how far mightn't this undesirable unearth the whole business in the course of his investigations? and then what could he do? suppose i went back forthwith and stopped his enquiries before they began! i had a disagreeable feeling of meanness that i couldn't shake off; i felt i was taking up a weapon that justin didn't deserve. yet i argued with myself that the abduction of mary justified any such course. as i was still debating this i saw philip. he was perhaps twenty yards ahead of me, he was paying off a hansom which had just put him down outside blake's. "philip," i cried, following him up the steps and overtaking him and seizing his arm as the commissionaire opened the door for him. "philip! what have you people done with mary? where is mary?" he turned a white face to me. "how dare you," he said with a catch of the breath, "mention my sister?" i spoke in an undertone, and stepped a little between him and the man at the door in order that the latter might not hear what i said. "i want to see her," i expostulated. "i _must_ see her. what you are doing is not playing the game. i've _got_ to see her." "let go of my arm, sir!" cried he, and suddenly i felt a whirlwind of rage answering the rage in his eyes. the pent-up exasperation of three weeks rushed to its violent release. he struck me in the face with the hand that was gripped about his umbrella. he meant to strike me in the face and then escape into his club, but before he could get away from me after his blow i had flung out at him, and had hit him under the jawbone. my blow followed his before guard or counter was possible. i hit with all my being. it was an amazing flare up of animal passion; from the moment that i perceived he was striking at me to the moment when both of us came staggering across the door-mat into the dignified and spacious hall-way of blake's, we were back at the ancestral ape, and we did exactly what the ancestral ape would have done. the arms of the commissionaire about my waist, the rush of the astonished porter from his little glass box, two incredibly startled and delighted pages, and an intervening member bawling out "sir! sir!" converged to remind us that we were a million years or so beyond those purely arboreal days.... we seemed for a time to be confronted before an audience that hesitated to interfere. "how dare you name my sister to me?" he shouted at me, and brought to my mind the amazing folly of which he was capable. i perceived mary's name flung to the four winds of heaven. "you idiot, philip!" i cried. "i don't _know_ your sister. i've not seen her--scarcely seen her for years. i ask you--i ask you for a match-box or something and you hit me." "if you dare to speak to her----!" "you fool!" i cried, going nearer to him and trying to make him understand. but he winced and recoiled defensively. "i'm sorry," i said to the commissionaire who was intervening. "lord maxton has made a mistake." "is he a member?" said someone in the background, and somebody else suggested calling a policeman. i perceived that only a prompt retreat would save the whole story of our quarrel from the newspapers. so far as i could see nobody knew me there except philip. i had to take the risks of his behavior; manifestly i couldn't control it. i made no further attempt to explain anything to anybody. everyone was a little too perplexed for prompt action, and so the advantage in that matter lay with me. i walked through the door, and with what i imagined to be an appearance of the utmost serenity down the steps. i noted an ascending member glance at me with an expression of exceptional interest, but it was only after i had traversed the length of pall mall that i realized that my lip and the corner of my nostril were both bleeding profusely. i called a cab when i discovered my handkerchief scarlet, and retreated to my flat and cold ablutions. then i sat down to write a letter to tarvrille, with a clamorous "urgent, please forward if away" above the address, and tell him at least to suppress philip. but within the club that blockhead, thinking of nothing but the appearances of our fight and his own credit, was varying his assertion that he had thrashed me, with denunciations of me as a "blackguard," and giving half a dozen men a highly colored, improvised, and altogether improbable account of my relentless pursuit and persecution of lady mary justin, and how she had left london to avoid me. they listened, no doubt, with extreme avidity. the matrimonial relations of the justins had long been a matter for speculative minds. and while philip was doing this, guy, away in mayo still, was writing a tender, trusting, and all too explicit letter to a well-known and extremely impatient lady in london to account for his continued absence from her house. "so that is it!" said the lady, reading, and was at least in the enviable position of one who had confirmatory facts to impart.... and so quite suddenly the masks were off our situation and we were open to an impertinent world. for some days i did not realize what had happened, and lived in hope that philip had been willing and able to cover his lapse. i went about with my preoccupation still, as i imagined, concealed, and with an increasing number of typed letters from my private enquiry agent in my pocket containing inaccurate and worthless information about the movements of justin, which appeared to have been culled for the most part from a communicative young policeman stationed at the corner nearest to the justins' house, or expanded from _who's who_ and other kindred works of reference. the second letter, i remember, gave some particulars about the financial position of the younger men, and added that justin's credit with the west-end tradesmen was "limitless," points upon which i had no sort of curiosity whatever.... i suppose a couple of hundred people in london knew before i did that lady mary justin had been carried off to ireland and practically imprisoned there by her husband because i was her lover. the thing reached me at last through little fred riddling, who came to my rooms in the morning while i was sitting over my breakfast. "stratton!" said he, "what is all this story of your shaking justin by the collar, and threatening to kill him if he didn't give up his wife to you? and why do you want to fight a duel with maxton? what's it all about? fire-eater you must be! i stood up for you as well as i could, but i heard you abused for a solid hour last night, and there was a chap there simply squirting out facts and dates and names. got it all.... what have you been up to?" he stood on my hearthrug with an air of having called for an explanation to which he was entitled, and he very nearly got one. but i just had some scraps of reserve left, and they saved me. "tell me first," i said, delaying myself with the lighting of a cigarette, "the particulars ... as you heard them." riddling embarked upon a descriptive sketch, and i got a minute or so to think. "go on," i said with a note of irony, when he paused. "go on. tell me some more. where did you say they have taken her; let us have it right." by the time his little store had run out i knew exactly what to do with him. "riddling," said i, and stood up beside him suddenly and dropped my hand with a little added weight upon his shoulder, "riddling, do you know the only right and proper thing to do when you hear scandal about a friend?" "come straight to him," said riddling virtuously, "as i have done." "no. say you don't believe it. ask the scandal-monger how he knows and insist on his telling you--insist. and if he won't--be very, very rude to him. insist up to the quarrelling point. now who were those people?" "well--that's a bit stiff.... one chap i didn't know at all." "you should have pulled him up and insisted upon knowing who he was, and what right he had to lie about me. for it's lying, riddling. listen! it isn't true that i'm besieging lady mary justin. so far from besieging her i didn't even know where she was until you told me. justin is a neighbor of my father's and a friend of mine. i had tea with him and his wife not a month ago. i had tea with them together. i knew they were going away, but it was a matter of such slight importance to me, such slight importance"--i impressed this on his collarbone--"that i was left with the idea that they were going to the south of france. i believe they are in the south of france. and there you are. i'm sorry to spoil sport, but that's the bleak unromantic truth of the matter." "you mean to say that there is nothing in it all?" "nothing." he was atrociously disappointed. "but everybody," he said, "everybody has got something." "somebody will get a slander case if this goes on. i don't care what they've got." "good lord!" he said, and stared at the rug. "you'll take your oath----" he glanced up and met my eye. "oh, of course it's all right what you say." he was profoundly perplexed. he reflected. "but then, i say stratton, why did you go for maxton at blake's? _that_ i had from an eye-witness. you can't deny a scrap like that--in broad daylight. why did you do that?" "oh _that's_ it," said i. "i begin to have glimmerings. there's a little matter between myself and maxton...." i found it a little difficult to improvise a plausible story. "but he said it was his sister," persisted riddling. "he said so afterwards, in the club." "maxton," said i, losing my temper, "is a fool and a knave and a liar. his sister indeed! lady mary! if he can't leave his sister out of this business i'll break every bone of his body." ... i perceived my temper was undoing me. i invented rapidly but thinly. "as a matter of fact, riddling, it's quite another sort of lady has set us by the ears." riddling stuck his chin out, tucked in the corners of his mouth, made round eyes at the breakfast things and, hands in pockets, rocked from heels to toes and from toes to heels. "i see stratton, yes, i see. yes, all this makes it very plain, of course. very plain.... stupid thing, scandal is.... thanks! no, i won't have a cigarette." and he left me presently with an uncomfortable sense that he did see, and didn't for one moment intend to restrain his considerable histrionic skill in handing on his vision to others. for some moments i stood savoring this all too manifest possibility, and then my thoughts went swirling into another channel. at last the curtain was pierced. i was no longer helplessly in the dark. i got out my bradshaw, and sat with the map spread out over the breakfast things studying the routes to mayo. then i rang for williams, the man i shared with the two adjacent flat-holders, and told him to pack my kit-bag because i was suddenly called away. § many of the particulars of my journey to ireland have faded out of my mind altogether. i remember most distinctly my mood of grim elation that at last i had to deal with accessible persons again.... the weather was windy and violent, and i was sea-sick for most of the crossing, and very tired and exhausted when i landed. williams had thought of my thick over-coat and loaded me with wraps and rugs, and i sat in the corner of a compartment in that state of mental and bodily fatigue that presses on the brows like a painless headache. i got to some little junction at last where i had to wait an hour for a branch-line train. i tasted all the bitterness of irish hospitality, and such coffee as ireland alone can produce. then i went on to a station called clumber or clumboye, or some such name, and thence after some difficulty i got a car for my destination. it was a wretched car in which hens had been roosting, and it was drawn by a steaming horse that had sores under its mended harness. an immense wet wind was blowing as we came over the big hill that lies to the south of mirk. everything was wet, the hillside above me was either intensely green sodden turf or great streaming slabs of limestone, seaward was a rocky headland, a ruin of a beehive shape, and beyond a vast waste of tumbling waters unlit by any sun. not a tree broke that melancholy wilderness, nor any living thing but ourselves. the horse went stumblingly under the incessant stimulation of the driver's lash and tongue.... "yonder it is," said my man, pointing with his whip, and i twisted round to see over his shoulder, not the rhine-like castle i had expected, but a long low house of stone upon a headland, backed by a distant mountain that vanished in a wild driven storm of rain as i looked. but at the sight of mirk my lassitude passed, my nerves tightened, and my will began to march again. now, thought i, we bring things to an issue. now we come to something personal and definite. the vagueness is at an end. i kept my eyes upon the place, and thought it more and more like a prison as we drew nearer. perhaps from that window mary was looking for me now. had she wondered why i did not come to her before? now at any rate i had found her. i sprang off the car, found a bell-handle, and set the house jangling. the door opened, and a little old man appeared with his fingers thrust inside his collar as though he were struggling against strangulation. he regarded me for a second, and spoke before i could speak. "what might you be wanting?" said he, as if he had an answer ready. "i want to see lady mary justin," i said. "you can't," he said. "she's gone." "gone!" "the day before yesterday she went to london. you'll have to be getting back there." "she's gone to london." "no less." "willingly?" the little old man struggled with his collar. "anyone would go willingly," he said, and seemed to await my further commands. he eyed me obliquely with a shadow of malice in his eyes. it was then my heart failed, and i knew that we lovers were beaten. i turned from the door without another word to the janitor. "back," said i to my driver, and got up behind him. but it is one thing to decide to go back, and another to do it. at the little station i studied time-tables, and i could not get to england again without a delay of half a day. somewhere i must wait. i did not want to wait where there was any concourse of people. i decided to stay in the inn by the station for the intervening six hours, and get some sleep before i started upon my return, but when i saw the bedroom i changed my plan and went down out of the village by a steep road towards the shore. i wandered down through the rain and spindrift to the very edge of the sea, and there found a corner among the rocks a little sheltered from the wind, and sat, inert and wretched; my lips salt, my hair stiff with salt, and my body wet and cold; a miserable defeated man. for i had now an irrational and entirely overwhelming conviction of defeat. i saw as if i ought always to have seen that i had been pursuing a phantom of hopeless happiness, that my dream of ever possessing mary again was fantastic and foolish, and that i had expended all my strength in vain. over me triumphed a law and tradition more towering than those cliffs and stronger than those waves. i was overwhelmed by a sense of human weakness, of the infinite feebleness of the individual man against wind and wave and the stress of tradition and the ancient usages of mankind. "we must submit," i whispered, crouching close, "we must submit." ... far as the eye could reach the waves followed one another in long unhurrying lines, an inexhaustible succession, rolling, hissing, breaking, and tossing white manes of foam, to gather at last for a crowning effort and break thunderously, squirting foam two hundred feet up the streaming faces of the cliffs. the wind tore and tugged at me, and wind and water made together a clamor as though all the evil voices in the world, all the violent passions and all the hasty judgments were seeking a hearing above the more elemental uproar.... § and while i was in this phase of fatigue and despair in mayo, the scene was laid and all the other actors were waiting for the last act of my defeat in london. i came back to find two letters from mary and a little accumulation of telegrams and notes, one written in my flat, from tarvrille. mary's letters were neither of them very long, and full of a new-born despair. she had not realized how great were the forces against her and against us both. she let fall a phrase that suggested she was ill. she had given in, she said, to save herself and myself and others from the shame and ruin of a divorce, and i must give in too. we had to agree not to meet or communicate for three years, and i was to go out of england. she prayed me to accept this. she knew, she said, she seemed to desert me, but i did not know everything,--i did not know everything,--i must agree; she could not come with me; it was impossible. _now_ certainly it was impossible. she had been weak, but i did not know all. if i knew all i should be the readier to understand and forgive her, but it was part of the conditions that i could not know all. justin had been generous, in his way.... justin had everything in his hands, the whole world was behind him against us, and i must give in. those letters had a quality i had never before met in her, they were broken-spirited. i could not understand them fully, and they left me perplexed, with a strong desire to see her, to question her, to learn more fully what this change in her might mean. tarvrille's notes recorded his repeated attempts to see me, i felt that he alone was capable of clearing up things for me, and i went out again at once and telegraphed to him for an appointment. he wired to me from that same house in mayfair in which i had first met mary after my return. he asked me to come to him in the afternoon, and thither i went through a november fog, and found him in the drawing-room that had the plate glass above the fireplace. but now he was vacating the house, and everything was already covered up, the pictures and their frames were under holland, the fine furniture all in covers of faded stuff, the chandeliers and statues wrapped up, the carpets rolled out of the way. even the window-curtains were tucked into wrappers, and the blinds, except one he had raised, drawn down. he greeted me and apologized for the cold inhospitality of the house. "it was convenient here," he said. "i came here to clear out my papers and boxes. and there's no chance of interruptions." he went and stood before the empty fireplace, and plunged into the middle of the matter. "you know, my dear stratton, in this confounded business my heart's with you. it has been all along. if i could have seen a clear chance before you--for you and mary to get away--and make any kind of life of it--though she's my cousin--i'd have helped you. indeed i would. but there's no sort of chance--not the ghost of a chance...." he began to explain very fully, quite incontrovertibly, that entire absence of any chance for mary and myself together. he argued to the converted. "you know as well as i do what that romantic flight abroad, that ouidaesque casa in some secluded valley, comes to in reality. all round florence there's no end of such scandalous people, i've been among them, the nine circles of the repenting scandalous, all cutting one another." "i agree," i said. "and yet----" "what?" "we could have come back." tarvrille paused, and then leant forward. "no." "but people have done so. it would have been a clean sort of divorce." "you don't understand justin. justin would ruin you. if you were to take mary away.... he's a queer little man. everything is in his hands. everything always is in the husband's hands in these affairs. if he chooses. and keeps himself in the right. for an injured husband the law sanctifies revenge.... "and you see, you've got to take justin's terms. he's changed. he didn't at first fully realize. he feels--cheated. we've had to persuade him. there's a case for justin, you know. he's had to stand--a lot. i don't wonder at his going stiff at last. no doubt it's hard for you to see that. but you have to see it. you've got to go away as he requires--three years out of england, you've got to promise not to correspond, not to meet afterwards----" "it's so extravagant a separation." "the alternative is--not for you to have mary, but for you two to be flung into the ditch together--that's what it comes to, stratton. justin's got his case. he's set like--steel. you're up against the law, up against social tradition, up against money--any one of those a man may fight, but not all three. and she's ill, stratton. you owe her consideration. you of all people. that's no got-up story; she's truly ill and broken. she can no longer fly with you and fight with you, travel in uncomfortable trains, stay in horrible little inns. you don't understand. the edge is off her pluck, stratton." "what do you mean?" i asked, and questioned his face. "just exactly what i say." a gleam of understanding came to me.... "why can't i see her?" i broke in, with my voice full of misery and anger. "why can't i see her? as if seeing her once more could matter so very greatly now!" he appeared to weigh something in his mind. "you can't," he said. "how do i know that she's not being told some story of my abandonment of her? how do i know she isn't being led to believe i no longer want her to come to me?" "she isn't," said tarvrille, still with that arrested judicial note in his voice. "you had her letters?" he said. "two." "yes. didn't they speak?" "i want to see her. damn it, tarvrille!" i cried with sudden tears in my smarting eyes. "let _her_ send me away. this isn't---- not treating us like human beings." "women," said tarvrille and looked at his boot toes, "are different from men. you see, stratton----" he paused. "you always strike me, stratton, as not realizing that women are weak things. we've got to take _care_ of them. you don't seem to feel that as i do. their moods--fluctuate--more than ours do. if you hold 'em to what they say in the same way you hold a man--it isn't fair...." he halted as though he awaited my assent to that proposition. "if you were to meet mary now, you see, and if you were to say to her, come--come and we'll jump down etna together, and you said it in the proper voice and with the proper force, she'd do it, stratton. you know that. any man knows a thing like that. and she wouldn't _want_ to do it...." "you mean that's why i can't see her." "that's why you can't see her." "because we'd become--dramatic." "because you'd become--romantic and uncivilized." "well," i said sullenly, realizing the bargain we were making, "i won't." "you won't make any appeal?" "no." he made no answer, and i looked up to discover him glancing over his shoulder through the great glass window into the other room. i stood up very quickly, and there in the further apartment were guy and mary, standing side by side. our eyes met, and she came forward towards the window impulsively, and paused, with that unpitying pane between us.... then guy was opening the door for her and she stood in the doorway. she was in dark furs wrapped about her, but in the instant i could see how ill she was and how broken. she came a step or so towards me and then stopped short, and so we stood, shyly and awkwardly under guy and tarvrille's eyes, two yards apart. "you see," she said, and stopped lamely. "you and i," i said, "have to part, mary. we---- we are beaten. is that so?" "stephen, there is nothing for us to do. we've offended. we broke the rules. we have to pay." "by parting?" "what else is there to do?" "no," i said. "there's nothing else." ... "i tried," she said, "that you shouldn't be sent from england." "that's a detail," i answered. "but your politics--your work?" "that does not matter. the great thing is that you are ill and unhappy--that i can't help you. i can't do anything.... i'd go anywhere ... to save you.... all i can do, i suppose, is to part like this and go." "i shan't be--altogether unhappy. and i shall think of you----" she paused, and we stood facing one another, tongue-tied. there was only one word more to say, and neither of us would say it for a moment. "good-bye," she whispered at last, and then, "don't think i deserted you, stephen my dear. don't think ill of me. i couldn't come--i couldn't come to you," and suddenly her face changed slowly and she began to weep, my fearless playmate whom i had never seen weeping before; she began to weep as an unhappy child might weep. "oh my mary!" i cried, weeping also, and held out my arms, and we clung together and kissed with tear-wet faces. "no," cried guy belatedly, "we promised justin!" but tarvrille restrained his forbidding arm, and then after a second's interval put a hand on my shoulder. "come," he said.... and so it was mary and i parted from one another. chapter the seventh beginning again § in operas and romances one goes from such a parting in a splendid dignity of gloom. but i am no hero, and i went down the big staircase of tarvrille's house the empty shuck of an abandoned desire. i was acutely ashamed of my recent tears. in the centre of the hall was a marble figure swathed about with yellow muslin. "on account of the flies," i said, breaking our silence. my words were far too unexpected for tarvrille to understand. "the flies," i repeated with an air of explanation. "you're sure she'll be all right?" i said abruptly. "you've done the best thing you can for her." "i suppose i have. i have to go." and then i saw ahead of me a world full of the tiresome need of decisions and arrangements and empty of all interest. "where the _devil_ am i to go, tarvrille? i can't even get out of things altogether...." and then with a fresh realization of painful difficulties ahead: "i have to tell this to my father. i've got to explain---- and he thought--he expected----" tarvrille opened the half of the heavy front door for me, hesitated, and came down the broad steps into the chilly grey street and a few yards along the pavement with me. he wanted to say something that he found difficult to say. when at last he did find words they were quite ridiculous in substance, and yet at the time i took them as gravely as he intended them. "it's no good quoting marcus aurelius," said tarvrille, "to a chap with his finger in the crack of a door." "i suppose it isn't," i said. "one doesn't want to be a flatulent ass of course," said tarvrille, "still----" he resumed with an air of plunging. "it will sound just rot to you now, stratton, but after all it comes to this. behind us is a--situation--with half-a-dozen particular persons. out here--i mean here round the world--before you've done with them--there's a thousand million people--men and women." "oh! what does that matter to me?" said i. "everything," said tarvrille. "at least--it ought to." he stopped and held out his hand. "good-bye, stratton--good luck to you! good-bye." "yes," i said. "good-bye." i turned away from him. the image of mary crying as a child cries suddenly blinded me and blotted out the world. § i want to give you as clearly as i can some impression of the mental states that followed this passion and this collapse. it seems to me one of the most extraordinary aspects of all that literature of speculative attack which is called psychology, that there is no name and no description at all of most of the mental states that make up life. psychology, like sociology, is still largely in the scholastic stage, it is ignorant and intellectual, a happy refuge for the lazy industry of pedants; instead of experience and accurate description and analysis it begins with the rash assumption of elements and starts out upon ridiculous syntheses. who with a sick soul would dream of going to a psychologist?... now here was i with a mind sore and inflamed. i did not clearly understand what had happened to me. i had blundered, offended, entangled myself; and i had no more conception than a beast in a bog what it was had got me, or the method or even the need of escape. the desires and passionate excitements, the anger and stress and strain and suspicion of the last few months had worn deep grooves in my brain, channels without end or issue, out of which it seemed impossible to keep my thoughts. i had done dishonorable things, told lies, abused the confidence of a friend. i kept wrestling with these intolerable facts. if some momentary distraction released me for a time, back i would fall presently before i knew what was happening, and find myself scheming once more to reverse the accomplished, or eloquently restating things already intolerably overdiscussed in my mind, justifying the unjustifiable or avenging defeat. i would dream again and again of some tremendous appeal to mary, some violent return and attack upon the situation.... one very great factor in my mental and moral distress was the uncertain values of nearly every aspect of the case. there is an invincible sense of wild rightness about passionate love that no reasoning and no training will ever altogether repudiate; i had a persuasion that out of that i would presently extract a magic to excuse my deceits and treacheries and assuage my smarting shame. and round these deep central preoccupations were others of acute exasperation and hatred towards secondary people. there had been interventions, judgments upon insufficient evidence, comments, and often quite justifiable comments, that had filled me with an extraordinary savagery of resentment. i had a persuasion, illogical but invincible, that i was still entitled to all the respect due to a man of unblemished honor. i clung fiercely to the idea that to do dishonorable things isn't necessarily to be dishonorable.... this state of mind i am describing is, i am convinced, the state of every man who has involved himself in any affair at once questionable and passionate. he seems free, but he is not free; he is the slave of the relentless paradox of his position. and we were all of us more or less in deep grooves we had made for ourselves, philip, guy, justin, the friends involved, and all in the measure of our grooves incapable of tolerance or sympathetic realization. even when we slept, the clenched fist of the attitudes we had assumed gave a direction to our dreams. you see the same string of events that had produced all this system of intense preoccupations had also severed me from the possible resumption of those wider interests out of which our intrigue had taken me. i had had to leave england and all the political beginnings i had been planning, and to return to those projects now, those now impossible projects, was to fall back promptly into hopeless exasperation.... and then the longing, the longing that is like a physical pain, that hunger of the heart for some one intolerably dear! the desire for a voice! the arrested habit of phrasing one's thoughts for a hearer who will listen in peace no more! from that lonely distress even rage, even the concoction of insult and conflict, was a refuge. from that pitiless travail of emptiness i was ready to turn desperately to any offer of excitement and distraction. from all those things i was to escape at last unhelped, but i want you to understand particularly these phases through which i passed; it falls to many and it may fall to you to pass through such a period of darkness and malign obsession. make the groove only a little deeper, a little more unclimbable, make the temperament a little less sanguine, and suicide stares you in the face. and things worse than suicide, that suicide of self-respect which turns men to drugs and inflammatory vices and the utmost outrageous defiance of the dreaming noble self that has been so despitefully used. into these same inky pools i have dipped my feet, where other men have drowned. i understand why they drown. and my taste of misdeed and resentment has given me just an inkling of what men must feel who go to prison. i know what it is to quarrel with a world. § my first plan when i went abroad was to change my harbury french, which was poor stuff and pedantic, into a more colloquial article, and then go into germany to do the same thing with my german, and then perhaps to remain in germany studying german social conditions--and the quality of the german army. it seemed to me that when the term of my exile was over i might return to england and re-enter the army. but all these were very anæmic plans conceived by a tired mind, and i set about carrying them out in a mood of slack lassitude. i got to paris, and in paris i threw them all overboard and went to switzerland. i remember very clearly how i reached paris. i arrived about sunset--i suppose at st. lazare or the gare du nord--sent my luggage to the little hotel in the rue d'antin where i had taken rooms, and dreading their loneliness decided to go direct to a restaurant and dine. i remember walking out into the streets just as shops and windows and street lamps were beginning to light up, and strolling circuitously through the clear bright stir of the parisian streets to find a dinner at the café de la paix. some day you will know that peculiar sharp definite excitement of paris. all cities are exciting, and each i think in a different way. and as i walked down along some boulevard towards the centre of things i saw a woman coming along a side street towards me, a woman with something in her body and something in her carriage that reminded me acutely of mary. her face was downcast, and then as we converged she looked up at me, not with the meretricious smile of her class but with a steadfast, friendly look. her face seemed to me sane and strong. i passed and hesitated. an extraordinary impulse took me. i turned back. i followed this woman across the road and a little way along the opposite pavement. i remember i did that, but i do not remember clearly what was in my mind at the time; i think it was a vague rush towards the flash of companionship in her eyes. there i had seemed to see the glimmer of a refuge from my desolation. then came amazement and reaction. i turned about and went on my way, and saw her no more. but afterwards, later, i went out into the streets of paris bent upon finding that woman. she had become a hope, a desire. i looked for her for what seemed a long time, half an hour perhaps or two hours. i went along, peering at the women's faces, through the blazing various lights, the pools of shadowy darkness, the flickering reflections and transient glitter, one of a vast stream of slow-moving adventurous human beings. i crossed streams of traffic, paused at luminous kiosks, became aware of dim rows of faces looking down upon me from above the shining enamel of the omnibuses.... my first intentness upon one person, so that i disregarded any distracting intervention, gave place by insensible degrees to a more general apprehension of the things about me. that original woman became as it were diffused. i began to look at the men and women sitting at the little tables behind the panes of the cafés, and even on the terraces--for the weather was still dry and open. i scrutinized the faces i passed, faces for the most part animated by a sort of shallow eagerness. many were ugly, many vile with an intense vulgarity, but some in that throng were pretty, some almost gracious. there was something pathetic and appealing for me in this great sweeping together of people into a little light, into a weak community of desire for joy and eventfulness. there came to me a sense of tolerance, of fellowship, of participation. from an outer darkness of unhappiness or at least of joylessness, they had all come hither--as i had come. i was like a creature that slips back again towards some deep waters out of which long since it came, into the light and air. it was as if old forgotten things, prenatal experiences, some magic of ancestral memories, urged me to mingle again with this unsatisfied passion for life about me.... then suddenly a wave of feeling between self-disgust and fear poured over me. this vortex was drawing me into deep and unknown things.... i hailed a passing _fiacre_, went straight to my little hotel, settled my account with the proprietor, and caught a night train for switzerland. all night long my head ached, and i lay awake swaying and jolting and listening to the rhythms of the wheels, paris clean forgotten so soon as it was left, and my thoughts circling continually about justin and philip and mary and the things i might have said and done. § one day late in february i found myself in vevey. i had come down with the break-up of the weather from montana, where i had met some oxford men i knew and had learned to ski. i had made a few of those vague acquaintances one makes in a winter-sport hotel, but now all these people were going back to england and i was thrown back upon myself once more. i was dull and angry and unhappy still, full of self-reproaches and dreary indignations, and then very much as the sky will sometimes break surprisingly through storm clouds there began in me a new series of moods. they came to me by surprise. one clear bright afternoon i sat upon the wall that runs along under the limes by the lake shore, envying all these people who were going back to england and work and usefulness. i thought of myself, of my career spoilt, my honor tarnished, my character tested and found wanting. so far as english politics went my prospects had closed for ever. even after three years it was improbable that i should be considered by the party managers again. and besides, it seemed to me i was a man crippled. my other self, the mate and confirmation of my mind, had gone from me. i was no more than a mutilated man. my life was a thing condemned; i had joined the ranks of loafing, morally-limping, english exiles. i looked up. the sun was setting, a warm glow fell upon the dissolving mountains of savoy and upon the shining mirror of the lake. the luminous, tranquil breadth of it caught me and held me. "i am done for." the light upon the lake and upon the mountains, the downward swoop of a bird over the water and something in my heart, gave me the lie. "what nonsense!" i said, and felt as if some dark cloud that had overshadowed me had been thrust back. i stared across at savoy as though that land had spoken. why should i let all my life be ruled by the blunders and adventures of one short year of adventure? why should i become the votary of a train of consequences? what had i been dreaming of all this time? over there were gigantic uplands i had never seen and trodden; and beyond were great plains and cities, and beyond that the sea, and so on, great spaces and multitudinous things all round about the world. what did the things i had done, the things i had failed to do, the hopes crushed out of me, the tears and the anger, matter to _that_? and in some amazing way this thought so took possession of me that the question seemed also to carry with it the still more startling collateral, what then did they matter to me? "come out of yourself," said the mountains and all the beauty of the world. "whatever you have done or suffered is nothing to the inexhaustible offer life makes you. we are you, just as much as the past is you." it was as though i had forgotten and now remembered how infinitely multitudinous life can be. it was as if tarvrille's neglected words to me had sprouted in the obscurity of my mind and borne fruit.... i cannot explain how that mood came, i am doing my best to describe it, and it is not easy even to describe. and i fear that to you who will have had i hope no experience of such shadows as i had passed through, it is impossible to convey its immense elation.... i remember once i came in a boat out of the caves of han after two hours in the darkness, and there was the common daylight that is nothing wonderful at all, and its brightness ahead there seemed like trumpets and cheering, like waving flags and like the sunrise. and so it was with this mood of my release. there is a phrase of peter e. noyes', that queer echo of emerson whom people are always rediscovering and forgetting again, a phrase that sticks in my mind,--"every living soul is heir to an empire and has fallen into a pit." it's an image wonderfully apt to describe my change of mental attitude, and render the contrast between those intensely passionate personal entanglements that had held me tight and that wide estate of life that spreads about us all, open to all of us in just the measure that we can scramble out of our individual selves--to a more general self. i seemed to be hanging there at the brim of my stale and painful den, staring at the unthought-of greatness of the world, with an unhoped-for wind out of heaven blowing upon my face. i suppose the intention of the phrase "finding salvation," as religious people use it, is very much this experience. if it is not the same thing it is something very closely akin. it is as if someone were scrambling out of a pit into a largeness--a largeness that is attainable by every man just in the measure that he realizes it is there. i leave these fine discriminations to the theologian. i know that i went back to my hotel in vevey with my mind healed, with my will restored to me, and my ideas running together into plans. and i know that i had come out that day a broken and apathetic man. § the next day my mood declined again; it was as if that light, that sense of release that had shone so clear and strong in my mind, had escaped me. i sought earnestly to recover it. but i could not do so, and i found my old narrow preoccupations calling urgently to me again. i thought that perhaps i might get back those intimations of outlook and relief if i clambered alone into some high solitude and thought. i had a crude attractive vision of myself far above the heat and noise, communing with the sky. it was the worst season for climbing, and on the spur of the moment i could do nothing but get up the rochers de naye on the wrong side, and try and find some eyrie that was neither slippery nor wet. i did not succeed. in one place i slipped down a wet bank for some yards and held at last by a root; if i had slipped much further i should not be writing here now; and i came back a very weary and bruised climber, without any meditation.... three nights after when i was in bed i became very lucidly awake--it must have been about two or three in the morning--and the vision of life returned to me, with that same effect of enlargement and illumination. it was as if the great stillness that is behind and above and around the world of sense did in some way communicate with me. it bade me rouse my spirit and go on with the thoughts and purposes that had been stirring and proliferating in my mind when i had returned to england from the cape. "dismiss your passion." but i urged that that i could not do; there was the thought of mary subjugated and weeping, the smarting memory of injury and defeat, the stains of subterfuge and discovery, the aching separation. no matter, the stillness answered, in the end all that is just to temper you for your greater uses.... i cannot forget, i insisted. do not forget, but for the present this leads you no whither; this chapter has ended; dismiss it and turn to those other things. you are not only stephen stratton who fell into adultery; in these silences he is a little thing and far away; here and with me you are man--everyman--in this round world in which your lot has fallen. but mary, i urged, to forget mary is a treason, an ingratitude, seeing that she loved me. but the stillness did not command me to forget her, but only to turn my face now to the great work that lies before mankind. and that work? that work, so far as your share goes, is first to understand, to solve, and then to achieve, to work out in the measure of yourself that torment of pity and that desire for order and justice which together saturate your soul. go about the world, embrue yourself with life, make use of that confusedly striving brain that i have lifted so painfully out of the deadness of matter.... "but who are you?" i cried out suddenly to the night. "who are you?" i sat up on the side of my bed. the dawn was just beginning to break up the featureless blackness of the small hours. "this is just some odd corner of my brain," i said.... yet---- how did i come to have this odd corner in my brain? what _is_ this lucid stillness?... § let me tell you rather of my thoughts than of my moods, for there at least one comes to something with a form that may be drawn and a substance that is measurable; one ceases to struggle with things indefinable and the effort to convey by metaphors and imaginary voices things that are at once bodiless and soundless and lightless and yet infinitely close and real. and moreover with that mysterious and subtle change of heart in me there came also a change in the quality and range of my ideas. i seemed to rise out of a tangle of immediacies and misconceptions, to see more largely and more freely than i had ever done before. i have told how in my muddled and wounded phase i had snatched at the dull project of improving my languages, and under the cloak of that spying a little upon german military arrangements. now my mind set such petty romanticism on one side. it had recovered the strength to look on the whole of life and on my place in it. it could resume the ideas that our storm of passion had for a time thrust into the background of my thoughts. i took up again all those broad generalizations that had arisen out of my experiences in south africa, and which i had been not so much fitting into as forcing into the formulæ of english politics; i recalled my disillusionment with british imperialism, my vague but elaborating apprehension of a profound conflict between enterprise and labor, a profound conflict between the life of the farm and the life of trade and finance and wholesale production, as being something far truer to realities than any of the issues of party and patriotism upon which men were spending their lives. so far as this rivalry between england and germany, which so obsessed the imagination of europe, went, i found that any faith i may have had in its importance had simply fallen out of my mind. as a danger to civilization, as a conceivable source of destruction and delay, it was a monstrous business enough, but that in the long run it mattered how or when they fought and which won i did not believe. in the development of mankind the thing was of far less importance than the struggle for flanders or the wars of france and burgundy. i was already coming to see europe as no more than the dog's-eared corner of the page of history,--like most europeans i had thought it the page--and my recovering mind was eager and open to see the world beyond and form some conception of the greater forces that lay outside our insularities. what is humanity as a whole doing? what is the nature of the world process of which i am a part? why should i drift from cradle to grave wearing the blinkers of my time and nationality, a mere denizen of christendom, accepting its beliefs, its stale antagonisms, its unreal purposes? that perhaps had been tolerable while i was still an accepted member of the little world into which my lot had fallen, but now that i was thrust out its absurdity glared. for me the alternative was to be a world-man or no man. i had seemed sinking towards the latter: now i faced about and began to make myself what i still seek to make myself to-day, a son of mankind, a conscious part of that web of effort and perplexity which wraps about our globe.... all this i say came into my mind as if it were a part of that recovery of my mind from its first passionate abjection. and it seemed a simple and obvious part of the same conversion to realize that i was ignorant and narrow, and that, too, in a world which is suffering like a beast in a slime pit by reason of ignorance and narrowness of outlook, and that it was my manifest work and purpose to make myself less ignorant and to see and learn with all my being. it came to me as a clear duty that i should get out of the land of hotels and leisure and go seeking the facts and clues to human inter-relationship nearer the earthy roots of things, and i turned my thoughts to india and china, those vast enigmas of human accumulation, in a spirit extraordinarily like that of some mystic who receives a call. i felt i must go to asia and from asia perhaps round the world. but it was the greatness of asia commanded me. i wanted to see the east not as a spectacle but as the simmering vat in which the greater destiny of man brews and brews.... § it was necessary to tell my father of my intentions. i made numerous beginnings. i tore up several letters and quarrelled bitterly with the hotel pens. at first i tried to describe the change that had happened to my mind, to give him some impression of the new light, the release that had come to me. but how difficult this present world is with its tainted and poisoned phrases and its tangled misunderstandings! here was i writing for the first time in my life of something essentially religious and writing it to him whose profession was religion, and i could find no words to convey my meaning to him that did not seem to me fraught with the possibilities of misinterpretation. one evening i made a desperate resolve to let myself go, and scrawled my heart out to him as it seemed that night, a strange, long letter. it was one of the profoundest regrets that came to me when i saw him dead last winter that i did not risk his misunderstanding and post that letter. but when i re-read it in the next morning's daylight it seemed to me so rhetorical, so full of--what shall i call it?--spiritual bombast, it so caricatured and reflected upon the deep feelings sustaining me, that i could not post it for shamefacedness, and i tore it up into little pieces and sent instead the briefest of notes. "i am doing no good here in switzerland," i wrote. "would you mind if i went east? i want to see something of the world outside europe. i have a fancy i may find something to do beyond there. of course, it will cost rather more than my present allowance. i will do my best to economize. don't bother if it bothers you--i've been bother enough to you...." he replied still more compactly. "by all means. i will send you some circular notes, poste restante, rome. that will be on your way. good wishes to you, stephen. i'm glad you want to go east instead of just staying in switzerland." i sit here now and wonder, little son, what he thought, what he supposed, what he understood. i loved my father, and i began to perceive he loved me wonderfully. i can imagine no man i would have sooner had for a priest than him; all priestcraft lays hands if it can, and with an excellent wisdom, upon the titles and dignity of fatherhood; and yet here am i left to guessing--i do not know whether my father ever worshipped, whether he ever prayed with his heart bared to god. there are times when the inexpressiveness of life comes near to overwhelming me, when it seems to me we are all asleep or entranced, and but a little way above the still cows who stand munching slowly in a field. why couldn't we and why didn't we talk together?... we fear bathos too much, are shyly decent to the pitch of mania. we have neither the courage of our bodies nor of our souls.... i went almost immediately to rome. i stayed in rome some days, getting together an outfit, and incidentally seeing that greater city of the dead in whose embrace the modern city lies. i was now becoming interested in things outside my grooves, though my grooves were still there, deep and receptive, and i went about the place at last almost eagerly, tracing the outlines of that great departed city on whose colossal bones the churches and palaces of the middle ages cluster like weeds in the spaces and ruins of a magnificent garden. i found myself one day in the forum, thinking of that imperialism that had built the basilica of julius cæsar, and comparing its cramped vestiges with that vaster second administrative effort which has left the world the monstrous arches of constantine. i sat down over against these last among the ruins of the vestals' house, and mused on that later reconstruction when the empire, with its science aborted and its literature and philosophy shrivelled to nothing, its social fabric ruined by the extravagances of financial adventure and its honor and patriotism altogether dead, united itself, in a desperate effort to continue, with all that was most bickeringly intolerant and destructive in christianity--only to achieve one common vast decay. all europe to this day is little more than the sequel to that failure. it is the roman empire in disintegration. the very churches whose domes rise to the northward of the ancient remains are built of looted stones and look like parasitic and fungoid growths, and the tourists stream through those spaces day by day, stare at the marble fragments, the arches, the fallen carvings and rich capitals, with nothing greater in their minds and nothing clearer.... i discovered i was putting all this into the form of a letter to mary. i was writing to her in my mind, as many people talk to themselves. and i remember that i wandered upon the palatine hill musing over the idea of writing a long letter to her, a long continuous letter to her, a sort of diary of impressions and ideas, that somewhen, years ahead, i might be able to put into her hands. one does not carry out such an idea into reality; it is so much easier to leave the letter imagined and unwritten if there lives but little hope of its delivery; yet for many years i kept up an impalpable correspondence in my thoughts, a stream of expression to which no answer came--until at last the habits of public writing and the gathering interests of a new rôle in life diverted it to other ends. § one morning on the way from brindisi to egypt i came up on deck at dawn because my mind was restless and i could not sleep. another solitary passenger was already up, so intently watching a pink-lit rocky coast-line away to the north of us that for a time he did not observe me. "that's crete," he said, when at last he became aware of me close at hand. "crete!" said i. "yes," he said, "crete." he came nearer to me. "that, sir," he said with a challenging emphasis, "is the most wonderful island i've ever yet set eyes on,--quite the most wonderful." "five thousand years ago," he remarked after a pause that seemed to me to be calculated, "they were building palaces there, better than the best we can build to-day. and things--like modern things. they had bathrooms there, beautifully fitted bathrooms--and admirable sanitation--admirable. practically--american. they had better artists to serve them than your king edward has, why! minos would have laughed or screamed at all that windsor furniture. and the things they made of gold, sir--you couldn't get them done anywhere to-day. not for any money. there was a go about them.... they had a kind of writing, too--before the phoenicians. no man can read it now, and there it is. fifty centuries ago it was; and to-day--they grow oranges and lemons. and they riot.... everything else gone.... it's as if men struggled up to a certain pitch and then--grew tired.... all this mediterranean; it's a tired sea...." that was the beginning of a curious conversation. he was an american, a year or so younger than myself, going, he said, "to look at egypt." "in our country," he explained, "we're apt to forget all these worked-out regions. too apt. we don't get our perspectives. we think the whole blessed world is one everlasting boom. it hit me first down in yucatan that that wasn't so. why! the world's littered with the remains of booms and swaggering beginnings. americanism!--there's always been americanism. this mediterranean is just a museum of old americas. i guess tyre and sidon thought they were licking creation all the time. it's set me thinking. what's _really_ going on? why--anywhere,--you're running about among ruins--anywhere. and ruins of something just as good as anything we're doing to-day. better--in some ways. it takes the heart out of you...." it was gidding, who is now my close friend and ally. i remember very vividly the flavor of morning freshness as we watched crete pass away northward and i listened to his talk. "i was coming out of new york harbor a month ago and looking back at the skyscrapers," he said, "and suddenly it hit me in the mind;--'that's just the next ruin,' i thought." i remember that much of our first talk, but the rest of it now is indistinct. we had however struck up an acquaintance, we were both alone, and until he left me on his way to abydos we seem now to have been conversing all the time. and almost all the time we were discussing human destiny and the causes of effort and decay, and whether the last few ascendant centuries the world has seen have in them anything more persistent than the countless beginnings that have gone before. "there's science," said i a little doubtfully. "at cnossus there they had dædalus, sir, fifty centuries ago. dædalus! he was an f.r.s. all right. i haven't a doubt he flew. if they hadn't steel they had brass. we're too conceited about our little modern things." § i found something very striking and dramatic in the passage from europe to asia. one steams slowly through a desert that comes up close to the ship; the sand stretches away, hillock and mound beyond hillock and mound; one sees camels in the offing stringing out to some ancient destination; one is manifestly passing across a barrier,--the canal has changed nothing of that. suez is a first dab of tumultuous orientalism, noisy and vivid. and then, after that gleam of turmoil, one opens out into the lonely dark blue waters of the red sea. right and left the shore is a bitter, sun-scorched desolation; eastward frowns a great rampart of lowering purple mountains towering up to sinai. it is like no european landscape. the boat goes slowly as if uncharted dangers lurked ahead. it is a new world with a new atmosphere. then comes wave upon wave of ever more sultry air, and the punkahs begin to swing and the white clothes appear. everyone casts off europe, assumes an asiatic livery. the very sun, rushing up angrily and abruptly after a heated night, is unfamiliar, an asiatic sun. and so one goes down that reef-fringed waterway to aden; it is studded with lonely-looking lighthouses that burn, it seems, untended, and sometimes in their melancholy isolation swing great rhythmic arms of light. and then, land and the last lateen sails of aden vanishing together, one stands out into the hot thundery monotonies of the indian ocean; into imprisonment in a blue horizon across whose titan ring the engines seem to throb in vain. how one paces the ship day by day, and eats and dozes and eats again, and gossips inanely and thanks heaven even for a flight of flying fish or a trail of smoke from over the horizon to take one's mind a little out of one's oily quivering prison!... a hot portentous delay; a sinister significant pause; that is the voyage from europe to india still. i suppose by the time that you will go to india all this prelude will have vanished, you will rattle through in a train-de-luxe from calais, by way of baku or constantinople; you will have none of this effect of a deliberate sullen approach across limitless miles of sea. but that is how i went to india. everything seemed to expand; i was coming out of the frequent landfalls, the neighborly intimacies and neighborly conflicts of the mediterranean into something remoter; into larger seas and greater lands, rarer communications and a vaster future.... to go from europe to asia is like going from norway to russia, from something slight and "advanced" to something massive and portentous. i felt that nearly nine years ago; to-day all asia seems moving forward to justify my feelings.... and i remember too that as i went down the red sea and again in the indian ocean i had a nearly intolerable passion of loneliness. a wound may heal and still leave pain. i was coming out of europe as one comes out of a familiar house into something larger and stranger, i seemed but a little speck of life, and behind me, far away and silent and receding, was the one other being to whom my thoughts were open. it seemed very cruel to me that i could not write to her. such moods were to come to me again and again, and particularly during the inactivities of voyages and in large empty spaces and at night when i was weary. at other times i could banish and overcome them by forcing myself to be busy and by going to see novel and moving things. chapter the eighth this swarming business of mankind § i do not think i could now arrange into a consecutive history my travellings, my goings and returnings in my wandering effort to see and comprehend the world. and certainly even if i could arrange my facts i should still be at a loss to tell of the growth of ideas that is so much more important than any facts, to trace the increasing light to its innumerable sources, to a chink here, to a glowing reflection there, to a leap of burning light from some long inert darkness close at hand. but steadily the light grew, and this vast world of man, in which our world, little son, is the world of a limited class in a small island, began to take on definite forms, to betray broad universal movements; what seemed at first chaotic, a drift and tangle of passions, traditions, foolish ideas, blundering hostilities, careless tolerances, became confusedly systematic, showed something persistent and generalized at work among its multitudinous perplexity. i wonder now if i can put before you very briefly the main generalizations that were growing up in my mind during my exile, the simplified picture into which i translated the billions of sights and sounds and--smells, for every part of the world has its distinctive olfactory palette as much as its palette of colors--that rained daily and nightly upon my mind. before, my eyes again as i sit here in this quiet walled french garden, the great space before the jumna musjid at delhi reappears, as i saw it in the evening stillness against a glowing sky of gold, and the memory of countless worshippers within, praying with a devotion no european displays. and then comes a memory of that long reef of staircases and temples and buildings, the ghats of benares, in the blazing morning sun, swarming with a vast multitude of multicolored people and the water also swarming with brown bodies. it has the colors of a bed of extravagantly splendid flowers and the light that is indian alone. even as i sit here these places are alive with happening. it is just past midday here; at this moment the sun sinks in the skies of india, the jumna musjid flushes again with the glow of sunset, the smoke of evening fires streams heavenward against its subtle lines, and upon those steps at benares that come down the hillside between the conquering mosque of aurangzeb and the shining mirror of the ganges a thousand silent seated figures fall into meditation. and other memories recur and struggle with one another; the crowded river-streets of canton, the rafts and houseboats and junks innumerable, riding over inky water, begin now to twinkle with a thousand lights. they are ablaze in osaka and yokohama and tokio, and the swarming staircase streets of hong kong glitter with a wicked activity now that night has come. i flash a glimpse of burmese temples, of villages in java, of the sombre purple masses of the walls of the tartar city at pekin with squat pagoda-guarded gates. how those great outlines lowered at me in the twilight, full of fresh memories and grim anticipations of baseness and violence and bloodshed! i sit here recalling it--feeling it all out beyond the trellised vine-clad wall that bounds my physical vision.... vast crowded world that i have seen! going from point to point seeking for clues, for generalities, until at last it seems to me that there emerges--something understandable. i think i have got something understandable out of it all. what a fantastically courageous thing is this mind of ours! my thoughts seem to me at once presumptuous and inevitable. i do not know why it is that i should dare, that any of us should dream of this attempt to comprehend. but we who think are everyone impelled to this amazing effort to get it all together into some simple generality. it is not reason but a deep-seated instinct that draws our intelligence towards explanations, that sets us perpetually seeking laws, seeking statements that will fit into infinite, incessantly interweaving complexities, and be true of them all! there is i perceive a valiant and magnificent stupidity about the human mind, a disregard of disproportion and insufficiency--like the ferret which will turn from the leveret it has seized to attack even man if he should interfere. by these desperate feats of thinking it is that our species has achieved its victories. by them it survives. by them it must stand the test of ultimate survival. some forgotten man in our ancestry--for every begetting man alive was in my individual ancestry and yours three thousand years ago--first dared to think of the world as round,--an astounding temerity. he rolled up the rivers and mountains, the forests and plains and broad horizons that stretched beyond his ken, that seemed to commonsense to go on certainly for ever, into a ball, into a little ball "like an orange." magnificent feat of the imagination, outdoing thor's deep draught of the sea! and once he had done it, all do it and no one falters at the deed. you are not yet seven as i write and already you are serenely aware that you live upon a sphere. and in much the same manner it is that we, who are sociologists and economists, publicists and philosophers and what not, are attempting now to roll up the vast world of facts which concern human intercourse, the whole indeed of history and archæology, into some similar imaginable and manageable shape, that presently everyone will be able to grasp. i suppose there was a time when nobody bothered at all about the shape of the earth, when nobody had even had the idea that the earth could be conceived as having a shape, and similarly it is true that it is only in recent centuries that people have been able to suppose that there was a shape to human history. it is indeed not much more than a century since there was any real emergence from theological assumptions and pure romanticism and accidentalism in these matters. old adam smith it was, probing away at the roots of economics, who set going the construction of ampler propositions. from him spring all those new interpretations which have changed the writing of history from a record of dramatic reigns and wars and crises to an analysis of economic forces. how impossible it would be for anyone now to write that great chapter of gibbon's in which he sweeps together into one contempt the history of sixty emperors and six hundred years of time. his note of weariness and futility vanishes directly one's vision penetrates the immediate surface. those heraclians and isaurians and comneni were not history, a schoolboy nowadays knows that their record is not history, knows them for the mere scum upon the stream. and still to-day we have our great interpretations to make. ours is a time of guesses, theories and provisional generalizations. our phase corresponds to the cosmography that was still a little divided between discs and domes and spheres and cosmic eggs; that was still a thousand years from measuring and weighing a planet. for a long time my mind hovered about the stimulating theories of socialism and particularly about those more systematic forms of socialist teaching that centre about karl marx. he rose quite naturally out of those early economists who saw all the world in terms of production and saving. he was a necessary step for me at least, on the way to understanding. for a time i did so shape the world in my mind that it seemed to me no more than a vast enterprise for the organization and exploitation of labor. for a time i thought human life was essentially a labor problem, that working and controlling work and lending and selling and "speculating" made the essential substance of human life, over which the forms of politics ran as the stripes of a tiger's skin run and bend over its living muscles. i followed my period in thinking that. you will find in ferrero's "roman decline," which was published early in this century, and which waits for you in the library, almost exactly the method of interpretation that was recommending itself to me in and . well, the labor problem concerns a great--_substantial_, shall i say?--in human society. it is only i think the basis and matter of society, not its shape and life and reality, but it had to be apprehended before i could get on to more actual things. insensibly the idea that contemporary political forms mattered very fundamentally to men, was fading out of my mind. the british empire and the german empire, the unity of italy, and anglo-saxon ascendency, the yellow peril and all the other vast phantoms of the world-politician's mythology were fading out of my mind in those years, as the olympic cosmogony must have faded from the mind of some inquiring greek philosopher in the days of heraclitus. and i revised my history altogether in the new light. the world had ceased to be chaotic in my mind; it had become a vast if as yet a quite inconclusive drama between employer and employed. it makes a wonderful history, this history of mankind as a history of labor, as a history of the perpetual attempts of an intelligent minority to get things done by other people. it does not explain how that aggression of the minority arose nor does it give any conception of a primordial society which corresponds with our knowledge of the realities of primitive communities. one begins rather in the air with a human society that sells and barters and sustains contracts and permits land to be privately owned, and having as hastily as possible got away from that difficulty of beginnings, having ignored the large areas of the world which remain under a pacific and unprogressive agriculture to this day, the rest of the story becomes extremely convincing and illuminating. it does indeed give a sustaining explanation to a large part of recorded history, this generalization about the proclivity of able and energetic people to make other people do things. one ignores what is being done as if that mattered nothing, and concentrates upon the use and enslavement of men. one sees that enslavement to labor progressing from crude directness to the most subtly indirect methods. the first expedient of enterprise was the sword and then the whip, and still there are remote and ugly corners of the world, in the mexican valle nazionale or in portuguese south africa, where the whip whistles still and the threat of great suffering and death follows hard upon the reluctant toiler. but the larger part of our modern slavery is past the stage of brand and whip. we have fallen into methods at once more subtle and more effective. we stand benevolently in front of our fellow man, offering, almost as if it were food and drink and shelter and love, the work we want him to do; and behind him, we are acutely aware, is necessity, sometimes quite of our making, as when we drive him to work by a hut-tax or a poll tax or a rent, that obliges him to earn money, and sometimes not so obviously of our making, sometimes so little of our making that it is easy to believe we have no power to remove it. instead of flicking the whip, we groan at last with harriet martineau at the inexorable laws of political economy that condemn us to comfort and direction, and those others to toil and hardship and indignity.... and through the consideration of these latter later aspects it was that i came at last to those subtler problems of tacit self-deception, of imperfect and unwilling apprehension, of innocently assumed advantages, of wilfully disregarded unfairness; and also to all those other problems of motive, those forgotten questions of why we make others work for us long after our personal needs are satisfied, why men aggrandize and undertake, which gradually have become in my mind the essential problems of human relationship, replacing the crude problems of labor altogether in that position, making _them_ at last only questions of contrivance and management on the way to greater ends. i have come to believe now that labor problems are problems merely by the way. they have played their part in a greater scheme. this phase of expropriation and enslavement, this half designed and half unconscious driving of the duller by the clever, of the pacific by the bolder, of those with weak appetites and imaginations by those with stronger appetites and imaginations, has been a necessary phase in human development. with my innate passionate desire to find the whole world purposeful, i cannot but believe that. but however necessary it has been, it is necessary no longer. strangest of saviors, there rises over the conflicts of mankind the glittering angular promise of the machine. there is no longer any need for slavery, open or disguised. we do not need slaves nor toilers nor mere laborers any more; they are no longer essential to a civilization. man has ridden on his brother man out of the need of servitude. he struggles through to a new phase, a phase of release, a phase when leisure and an unexampled freedom is possible to every human being. is possible. and it is there one halts seeing that splendid possibility of aspiration and creation before mankind--and seeing mankind for the most part still downcast, quite unaware or incredulous, following the old rounds, the grooves of ancient and superseded assumptions and subjections.... but here i will not trace in any detail the growth of my conviction that the ancient and heavy obligation to work hard and continually throughout life has already slipped from man's shoulders. suffice it that now i conceive of the task before mankind as a task essentially of rearrangement, as a problem in relationships, extremely complex and difficult indeed, but credibly solvable. during my indian and chinese journey i was still at the marxist stage. i went about the east looking at labor, watching its organization and direction, seeing great interests and enterprises replace the diffused life of an earlier phase; the disputes and discussions in the transvaal which had first opened my mind to these questions came back to me, and steadily i lost my interest in those mere political and national issues with their paraphernalia of kings and flags and governments and parties that had hitherto blinded me to these more fundamental interactions. § it happened that in bombay circumstances conspired to bring the crude facts of labor enslavement vividly before me. i found a vigorous agitation raging in the english press against the horrible sweating that was going on in the cotton mills, i met the journalist most intimately concerned in the business on my second day in india, and before a week was out i was hard at work getting up the question and preparing a memorandum with him on the possibility of immediate legislative intervention. the very name of bombay, which for most people recalls a spacious and dignified landfall, lateen sails, green islands and jutting precipices, a long city of trees and buildings like a bright and various breakwater between the great harbor and the sea, and then exquisite little temples, painted bullock carriages, towers of silence, parsis, and an amazingly kaleidoscopic population,--is for me a reminder of narrow, foetid, plague-stricken streets and tall insanitary tenement-houses packed and dripping with humanity, and of terrible throbbing factories working far into the night, blazing with electric light against the velvet-black night-sky of india, damp with the steam-clouds that are maintained to moisten the thread, and swarming with emaciated overworked brown children--for even the adults, spare and small, in those mills seem children to a western eye. i plunged into this heated dreadful business with a passionate interest and went back to the yacht club only when the craving for air and a good bath and clean clothes and space and respect became unendurable. i waded deep in labor, in this process of consuming humanity for gain, chasing my facts through throbbing quivering sheds reeking of sweat and excrement under the tall black-smoking chimneys,--chasing them in very truth, because when we came prying into the mills after the hour when child-labor should cease, there would be a shrill whistle, a patter of feet and a cuffing and hiding of the naked little creatures we were trying to rescue. they would be hidden under rugs, in boxes, in the most impossible places, and we dragged them out scared and lying. many of them were perhaps seven years old at most; and the adults--men and women of fourteen that is to say--we could not touch at all, and they worked in that indian heat, in a noisome air drenched with steam for fourteen and fifteen hours a day. and essential to that general impression is a memory of a slim parsi mill-manager luminously explaining the inherited passion for toil in the indian weaver, and a certain bulky hindu with a lemon-yellow turban and a strip of plump brown stomach showing between his clothes, who was doing very well, he said, with two wives and five children in the mills. that is my bombay, that and the columns of crossed circles marking plague cases upon the corners of houses and a peculiar acrid smell, and the polychromatic stir of crowded narrow streets between cliffs of architecture with carved timbers and heavy ornamentations, into which the sun strikes obliquely and lights a thousand vivid hues.... bombay, the gateway of what silly people were still calling in those days "the immemorial east," bombay, which is newer than boston or new york, bombay which has grown beneath the englishman's shadow out of a portuguese fort in the last two hundred years.... § i came out of these dark corners presently into the sunblaze of india. i was now intensely interested in the whole question of employment and engaged in preparing matter for my first book, "enterprise and india," and therein you may read how i went first to assam and then down to ceylon following up this perplexing and complicated business of human enslavement to toil, exercised by this great spectacle of human labor, and at once attracted by and stimulated by and dissatisfied with those socialist generalizations that would make all this vast harsh spectacle of productive enterprise a kind of wickedness and outrage upon humanity. and behind and about the things i was looking for were other things for which i was not looking, that slowly came into and qualified the problem. it dawned upon me by degrees that india is not so much one country as a vast spectacle of human development at every stage, in infinite variety. one ranges between naked savages and the most sophisticated of human beings. i pursued my enquiries about great modern enterprises, about railway labor, canal labor, tea-planting, across vast stretches of country where men still lived, illiterate, agricultural, unprogressive and simple, as men lived before the first stirrings of recorded history. one sees by the tanks of those mud-built villages groups of women with brass vessels who are identical in pose and figure and quality with the women modelled in tanagra figures, and the droning wall-wheel is the same that irrigated the fields of ancient greece, and the crops and beasts and all the life is as it was in greece and italy, phoenicia and judea before the very dawn of history. by imperceptible degrees i came to realize that this matter of expropriation and enslavement and control, which bulks so vastly upon the modern consciousness, which the socialists treat as though it was the comprehensive present process of mankind, is no more than one aspect of an overlife that struggles out of a massive ancient and traditional common way of living, struggles out again and again--blindly and always so far with a disorderly insuccess.... i began to see in their proper proportion the vast enduring normal human existence, the peasant's agricultural life, unlettered, laborious and essentially unchanging on the one hand, and on the other those excrescences of multitudinous city aggregation, those stormy excesses of productive energy that flare up out of that life, establish for a time great unstable strangenesses of human living, palaces, cities, roads, empires, literatures, and then totter and fall back again into ruin. in india even more than about the mediterranean all this is spectacular. there the peasant goes about his work according to the usage of fifty thousand years. he has a primitive version of religion, a moral tradition, a social usage, closely adapted by countless years of trial and survival to his needs, and the whole land is littered with the vestiges and abandoned material of those newer, bolder, more experimental beginnings, beginnings that merely began. it was when i was going through the panther-haunted palaces of akbar at fatehpur sikri that i first felt how tremendously the ruins of the past may face towards the future; the thing there is like a frozen wave that rose and never broke; and once i had caught that light upon things, i found the same quality in all the ruins i saw, in amber and vijayanagar and chitor, and in all that i have seen or heard of, in ancient rome and ancient verona, in pæstum and cnossus and ancient athens. none of these places was ever really finished and done with; the basilicas of cæsar and constantine just as much as the baths and galleries and halls of audience at fatehpur sikri express not ends achieved but thwarted intentions of permanence. they embody repulse and rejection. they are trials, abandoned trials, towards ends vaguely apprehended, ends felt rather than known. even so was i moved by the bruges-like emptinesses of pekin, in the vast pretensions of its forbidden city, which are like a cry, long sustained, that at last dies away in a wail. i saw the place in in that slack interval after the european looting and before the great awakening that followed the russo-japanese war. pekin in a century or so may be added in its turn to the list of abandoned endeavors. insensibly the sceptre passes.... nearer home than any of these places have i imagined the same thing; in paris it seemed to me i felt the first chill shadow of that same arrest, that impalpable ebb and cessation at the very crest of things, that voice which opposes to all the hasty ambitions and gathering eagerness of men: "it is not here, it is not yet." only the other day as i came back from paris to this quiet place and walked across the fields from the railway station to this house, i saw an old woman, a grandmother, a bent old crone with two children playing about her as she cut grass by the wayside, and she cut it, except that her sickle was steel, exactly as old women were cutting grass before there was writing, before the dawn of history, before men laid the first stones one upon the other of the first city that ever became a ruin.... you see civilization has never yet existed, it has only continually and obstinately attempted to be. our civilization is but the indistinct twilight before the dawn. it is still only a confused attempt, a flourish out of barbarism, and the normal life of men, the toiling earthy life of the field and the byre, goes on still like a stream that at once supports and carries to destruction the experimental ships of some still imperfect inventor. india gives it all from first to last, and now the modern movement, the latest half-conscious struggle of the new thing in mankind, throws up bombay and calcutta, vast feverish pustules upon the face of the peninsula, bridges the sacred rivers with hideous iron lattice-work and smears the sky of the dusty ruin-girdled city of delhi,--each ruin is the vestige of an empire,--with the black smoke of factory chimneys. altogether scattered over that sun-burnt plain there are the remains of five or six extinguished delhis, that played their dramas of frustration before the delhi of the great mogul. this present phase of human living--its symbol at delhi is now, i suppose, a scaffold-bristling pile of neo-georgian building--is the latest of the constructive synthetic efforts to make a newer and fuller life for mankind. who dares call it the last? i question myself constantly whether this life we live to-day, whether that too, is more than a trial of these blind constructive forces, more universal perhaps, more powerful perhaps than any predecessor but still a trial, to litter the world with rusting material when the phase of recession recurs. but yet i can never quite think that is so. this time, surely, it is different. this time may indeed be the beginning of a permanent change; this time there are new elements, new methods and a new spirit at work upon construction that the world has never known before. mankind may be now in the dawn of a fresh phase of living altogether. it is possible. the forces of construction are proportionally gigantic. there was never so much clear and critical thought in the world as there is now, never so large a body of generally accessible knowledge and suggestion, never anything like the same breadth of outlook, the same universality of imaginative freedom. that is so in spite of infinite turmoil and confusion. moreover the effort now is less concentrated, less dramatic. there is no one vital center to the modern movement which disaster can strike or decay undermine. if paris or new york slacken and grow dull and materialist, if berlin and london conspire for a mutual destruction, tokio or baku or valparaiso or christiania or smyrna or delhi will shelter and continue the onward impetus. and this time too it is not any one person, any one dynasty, any one cult or race which carries our destiny. human thought has begun to free itself from individual entanglements and dramatic necessities and accidental standards. it becomes a collective mind, a collective will towards achievement, greater than individuals or cities or kingdoms or peoples, a mind and will to which we all contribute and which none of us may command nor compromise by our private errors. it ceases to be aristocratic; it detaches itself from persons and takes possession of us all. we are involved as it grows free and dominant, we find ourselves, in spite of ourselves, in spite of quarrels and jealousies and conflicts, helping and serving in the making of a new world-city, a new greater state above our legal states, in which all human life becomes a splendid enterprise, free and beautiful, whose aptest symbol in all our world is a huge gothic cathedral lit to flame by the sun, whose scheme is the towering conquest of the universe, whose every little detail is the wrought-out effort of a human soul.... such were the ideas that grew together in my mind as i went about india and the east, across those vast sunlit plains, where men and women still toil in their dusty fields for a harsh living and live in doorless hovels on floors of trampled cow-dung, persecuted by a hundred hostile beasts and parasites, caught and eaten by tigers and panthers as cats eat mice, and grievously afflicted by periodic famine and pestilence, even as men and women lived before the dawn of history, for untold centuries, for hundreds of thousands of years. § how strange we english seem in india, a little scattered garrison. are we anything more than accidental, anything more than the messenger-boy who has brought the impetus of the new effort towards civilization through the gates of the east? are we makers or just a means, casually taken up and used by the great forces of god? i do not know, i have never been able to tell. i have never been able to decide whether we are the greatest or the dullest of peoples. i think we are an imaginative people with an imagination at once gigantic, heroic and shy, and also we are a strangely restrained and disciplined people who are yet neither subdued nor subordinated.... these are flat contradictions to state, and yet how else can one render the paradox of the english character and this spectacle of a handful of mute, snobbish, not obviously clever and quite obviously ill-educated men, holding together kingdoms, tongues and races, three hundred millions of them, in a restless fermenting peace? again and again in india i would find myself in little circles of the official english,-supercilious, pretentious, conventional, carefully "turned out" people, living gawkily, thinking gawkily, talking nothing but sport and gossip, relaxing at rare intervals into sentimentality and levity as mean as a banjo tune, and a kind of despairful disgust would engulf me. and then in some man's work, in some huge irrigation scheme, some feat of strategic foresight, some simple, penetrating realization of deep-lying things, i would find an effect, as if out of a thickly rusted sheath one had pulled a sword and found it--flame.... i recall one evening i spent at a little station in bengal, between lucknow and delhi, an evening given over to private theatricals. the theatre was a huge tent, and the little roughly improvised stage was lit by a row of oil footlights and so small as barely to give a foothold for the actors and actresses in the more crowded scenes. about me were the great people, the colonel's wife, a touring young man of family, officers and the wife of the manager of the big sugar refinery close at hand. behind were english of a more dubious social position, also connected with the sugar refinery, a eurasian family or so, very dressy and aggressive and terribly snubbed, and then i think various portuguese and other nondescripts and groups of non-commissioned officers and men, some with their wives. the play, admirably chosen, was that crystallization of liberal victorian snobbery, _caste_, and i remember there was a sub-current of amusement because the young officer who played--what _is_ the name of the hero's friend? i forget--had in the haste of his superficiality adopted a moustache that would not keep on and an eyeglass that would not keep in. everybody was acting very badly, nobody was word-perfect and a rasping prompter would not keep ahead as he ought to have done; the scenery and the make-ups were daubs, and i was filled with amazement that having quite wantonly undertaken to do this thing these people could then do it so slackly. then a certain sudden warmth in the applause about me quickened my attention, and i realized the satirical purport of drunken old father eccles, and the moral intention of his son-in-law, the plumber. between them they expressed the whole duty of the workingman as the prosperous victorians conceived it. he was to work hard always at any job he could find for any wages he could get, and if he didn't he was a "drunken shirker" and the dupe of "paid agitators." a comforting but misleading doctrine. and here were these people a decade on in the twentieth century, with time, death, and judgment close upon them, still eagerly applauding, eager to excuse their minds with this one-sided, ungracious, old-fashioned nonsense, that has done so much to intensify the deepening class antagonisms that strain us now at home almost to the breaking point! how amazingly, it seemed, those people didn't understand and wouldn't understand any class but their own, any race but their own, any usage other than their use! covertly i surveyed the colonel's profile. it expressed nothing but entire satisfaction with these disastrous interpretations. what a weather-worn thought-free face that grizzled veteran showed the world! i was seized with a sudden curiosity to see how the private soldiers behind me were taking old eccles. i turned round to discover cropped heads and faces as expressionless as masks, and behind them dusky faces watching very alertly, and then other dusky faces, eurasians, inferiors, servants, natives. then at a sharp edge the glare of our lighting ceased and the canvas walls of our narrow world of illusion opened into a vast blue twilight. at the opening stood two white-clad sikhs, very, very still and attentive, watching the performance, and beyond them was a great space of sky over a dim profile of trees and roofs and a minaret, a sky darkling down to the flushed red memory--such a short memory it is in india--of a day that had gone for ever. i remained staring at that for some time. "isn't old eccles _good_?" whispered the colonel's wife beside me, and recalled me to the play.... somehow that picture of a narrow canvas tent in the midst of immensities has become my symbol for the whole life of the governing english, the english of india and switzerland and the riviera and the west end and the public services.... but they are not england, they are not the english reality, which is a thing at once bright and illuminating and fitful, a thing humorous and wise and adventurous--shakespeare, dickens, newton, darwin, nelson, bacon, shelley--english names every one--like the piercing light of lanterns swinging and swaying among the branches of dark trees at night. § i went again to ceylon to look into the conditions of coolie importation, and then i was going back into assam once more, still in the wake of indentured labor, when i chanced upon a misadventure. i had my first and only experience of big game shooting in the garo hills, i was clawed out of a tree by a wounded panther, he missed his hold and i got back to my branch, but my shoulder was put out, my thigh was badly torn, and my blood was poisoned by the wound. i had an evil uncomfortable time. my injury hampered me greatly, and for a while it seemed likely i should be permanently lamed. i had to keep to vehicles and reasonably good roads. i wound up my convalescence with a voyage to singapore, and from thence i went on rather disconnectedly to a number of exploratory journeys--excursions rather than journeys--into china. i got to pekin and then suddenly faced back to europe, returning overland through russia. i wanted now to study the conditions of modern industrialism at its sources, and my disablement did but a little accelerate a return already decided upon. i had got my conception of the east as a whole and of the shape of the historical process. i no longer felt adrift in a formless chaos of forces. i perceived now very clearly that human life is essentially a creative struggle out of the usage of immemorial years, that the synthesis of our contemporary civilization is this creative impulse rising again in its latest and greatest effort, the creative impulse rising again, as a wave rises from the trough of its predecessors, out of the ruins of our parent system, imperial rome. but this time, and for the first time, the effort is world-wide, and china and iceland, patagonia and central africa all swing together with us to make--or into another catastrophic failure to make--the great state of mankind. all this i had now distinctly in my mind. the new process i perceive had gone further in the west; was most developed in the west. the lighter end lifts first. so back i came away from the great body of mankind, which is asia, to its head. and since i was still held by my promise from returning to england i betook myself first to the pas de calais and then to belgium and thence into industrial germany, to study the socialistic movement at its sources. and i was beginning to see too very clearly by the time of my return that what is confusedly called the labor problem is really not one problem at all, but two. there is the old problem, the problem as old as zimbabwe and the pyramids, the declining problem, the problem of organizing masses of unskilled labor to the constructive ends of a great state, and there is the new modification due to machinery, which has rendered unskilled labor and labor of a low grade of skill almost unnecessary to mankind, added coal, oil, wind and water, the elementary school and the printing-press to our sources of power, and superseded the ancient shepherding and driving of men by the possibility of their intelligent and willing co-operation. the two are still mixed in every discussion, even as they are mixed in the practice of life, but inevitably they will be disentangled. we break free from slavery, open or disguised, just as we illuminate and develop this disentanglement.... i have long since ceased to trouble about the economics of human society. ours are not economic but psychological difficulties. there is enough for everyone, and only a fool can be found to deny it. but our methods of getting and making are still ruled by legal and social traditions from the time before we had tapped these new sources of power, before there was more than enough for everyone, and when a bare supply was only secured by jealous possession and unremitting toil. we have no longer to secure enough by a stern insistence. we have come to a plenty. the problem now is to make that plenty go round, and _keep it enough_ while we do. our real perplexities are altogether psychological. there are no valid arguments against a great-spirited socialism but this, that people will not. indolence, greed, meanness of spirit, the aggressiveness of authority, and above all jealousy, jealousy for our pride and vanity, jealousy for what we esteem our possessions, jealousy for those upon whom we have set the heavy fetters of our love, a jealousy of criticism and association, these are the real obstacles to those brave large reconstructions, those profitable abnegations and brotherly feats of generosity that will yet turn human life--of which our individual lives are but the momentary parts--into a glad, beautiful and triumphant co-operation all round this sunlit world. if but humanity could have its imagination touched---- i was already beginning to see the great problem of mankind as indeed nothing other than a magnification of the little problem of myself, as a problem in escape from grooves, from preoccupations and suspicions, precautions and ancient angers, a problem of escape from these spiritual beasts that prowl and claw, to a new generosity and a new breadth of view. for all of us, little son, as for each of us, salvation is that. we have to get away from ourselves to a greater thing, to a giant's desire and an unending life, ours and yet not our own. § it is a queer experience to be even for a moment in the grip of a great beast. i had been put into the fork of a tree, so that i could shoot with the big stem behind my back. the fork wasn't, i suppose, more than a score of feet from the ground. it was a safe enough place from a tiger, and that is what we expected. we had been misled by our tracker, who had mistaken the pugs of a big leopard for a tiger's,--they were over rocky ground for the most part and he had only the spoor of a chance patch of half-dried mud to go upon. the beast had killed a goat and was beaten out of a thicket near by me in which he had been lying up. the probability had seemed that he would go away along a tempting ravine to where captain crosby, who was my host, awaited him; i, as the amateur, was intended to be little more than a spectator. but he broke back towards the wing of the line of beaters and came across the sunlit rocks within thirty yards of my post. seen going along in that way, flattened almost to the ground, he wasn't a particularly impressive beast, and i shot at his shoulder as one might blaze away at a rabbit,--perhaps just a little more carefully, feeling as a lord of creation should who dispenses a merited death. i expected him either to roll over or bolt. then instantly he was coming in huge bounds towards me.... he came so rapidly that he was covered by the big limb of the tree on which i was standing until he was quite beneath me, and my second shot, which i thought in the instant must have missed him, was taken rapidly as he crouched to spring up the trunk. then you know came a sort of astonishment, and i think,--because afterwards crosby picked up a dropped cartridge at the foot of the tree--that i tried to reload. i believe i was completely incredulous that the beast was going to have me until he actually got me. the thing was too completely out of my imaginative picture. i don't believe i thought at all while he was coming up the tree. i merely noted how astonishingly he resembled an angry cat. then he'd got my leg, he was hanging on to it first by two claws and then by one claw, and the whole weight of him was pulling me down. it didn't seem to be my leg. i wasn't frightened, i felt absolutely nothing, i was amazed. i slipped, tried to get a hold on the tree trunk, felt myself being hauled down, and then got my arm about the branch. i still clung to my unloaded gun as an impoverished aristocrat might cling to his patent of nobility. that was, i felt, my answer for him yet. i suppose the situation lasted a fraction of a second, though it seemed to me to last an interminable time. then i could feel my leggings rip and his claw go scoring deeply down my calf. that hurt in a kind of painless, impersonal interesting way. was my leg coming off? boot? the weight had gone, that enormous weight! he'd missed his hold altogether! i heard his claws tear down the bark of the tree and then his heavy, soft fall upon the ground. i achieved a cat-like celerity. in another second i was back in my fork reloading, my legs tucked up as tightly as possible. i peered down through the branches ready for him. he wasn't there. not up the tree again?... then i saw him making off, with a halting gait, across the scorching rocks some thirty yards away, but i could not get my gun into a comfortable position before he was out of sight behind a ridge.... i wondered why the sunlight seemed to be flickering like an electric light that fails, was somehow aware of blood streaming from my leg down the tree-stem; it seemed a torrent of blood, and there was a long, loose ribbon of flesh very sickening to see; and then i fainted and fell out of the tree, bruising my arm and cheek badly and dislocating my shoulder in the fall.... some of the beaters saw me fall, and brought crosby in sufficient time to improvise a _torniquet_ and save my life. chapter the ninth the spirit of the new world § i met rachel again in germany through the devices of my cousin the fürstin letzlingen. i had finished seeing what i wanted to see in westphalia and i was preparing to go to the united states. there i thought i should be able to complete and round off that large view of the human process i had been developing in my mind. but my departure was delayed by an attack of influenza that i picked up at a socialist congress in munich, and the dear durchlaucht, hearing of this and having her own views of my destiny, descended upon me while i was still in bed there, made me get up and carried me off in her car, to take care of me herself at her villa at boppard, telling me nothing of any fellow-guests i might encounter. she had a villa upon the rhine under a hill of vineyards, where she devoted herself--she was a widow--to matchmaking and belated regrets for the childlessness that necessitated a perpetual borrowing of material for her pursuit. she had a motor-car, a steam-launch, several rowing boats and canoes, a tennis-lawn, a rambling garden, a devious house and a rapid mind, and in fact everything that was necessary for throwing young people together. she made her surprise seem easy and natural, and with returning health i found myself already back upon my old footing of friendly intimacy with rachel. i found her a new and yet a familiar rachel. she had grown up, she was no longer a schoolgirl, crystalline clear with gleams of emotion and understanding, and what she had lost in transparency she had gained in depth. and she had become well-informed, she had been reading very widely and well, i could see, and not simply reading but talking and listening and thinking. she showed a vivid interest in the current of home politics,--at that time the last government of mr. balfour was ebbing to its end and my old transvaal friends, the chinese coolies, were to avenge themselves on their importers. the tariff reformers my father detested were still struggling to unseat the premier from his leadership of conservatism.... it was queer to hear once more, after my asiatic wanderings and dreamings, those west-end dinner-table politics, those speculations about "winston's" future and the possibility of lloyd george or ramsay macdonald or macnamara taking office with the liberals and whether there might not ultimately be a middle party in which haldane and balfour, grey and the cecils could meet upon common ground. it seemed now not only very small but very far off. she told me too of the huge popularity of king edward. he had proved to be interested, curious, understanding and clever, an unexpectedly successful king. she described how he was breaking out of the narrow official limits that had kept his mother in a kind of social bandbox, extending his solvent informality of friendliness to all sorts of men. he had won the heart of will crooks, the labor member for poplar, for example, made john burns a social success and warmed all france for england. i surveyed this novel picture of the english throne diffusing amiability. "i suppose it's what the throne ought to do," said rachel. "if it can't be inspiration, at any rate it can tolerate and reconcile and take the ill-bred bitterness out of politics." "my father might have said that." "i got that from your father," she said; and added after a momentary pause, "i go over and talk to him." "you talk to my father!" "i like to. or rather i listen and take it in. i go over in the afternoon. i go sometimes twice or three times a week." "that's kind of you." "not at all. you see---- it sounds impudent, i know, for a girl to say so, but we've so many interests in common." § i was more and more interested by rachel as the days went on. a man must be stupid who does not know that a woman is happy in his presence, and for two years now and more i had met no one with a very strong personal feeling for me. and quite apart from that, her mind was extraordinarily interesting to me because it was at once so active and so clear and so limited by her entirely english circumstances. she had the prosperous english outlook. she didn't so much see the wide world as get glimpses of it through the tangle of westminster and of west end and week-end limitations. she wasn't even aware of that greater unprosperous england, already sulking and darkling outside her political world, that greater england which was presently to make its first audible intimations of discontent in that remarkable anti-climax to king george's coronation, the railway strike. india for her was the land of people's cousins, germany and the german dreadnoughts bulked far larger, and all the tremendous gathering forces of the east were beyond the range of her imagination. i set myself to widen her horizons. i told her something of the intention and range of my travels, and something of the views that were growing out of their experiences. i have a clear little picture in my mind of an excursion we made to that huge national denkmal which rears its head out of the amiable vineyards of assmannshausen and rudesheim over against bingen. we landed at the former place, went up its little funicular to eat our lunch and drink its red wine at the pleasant inn above, and then strolled along through the woods to the monument. the fürstin fell behind with her unwilling escort, a newly arrived medical student from england, a very pleasant youngster named berwick, who was all too obviously anxious to change places with me. she devised delays, and meanwhile i, as yet unaware of the state of affairs, went on with rachel to that towering florid monument with its vast gesticulating germania, which triumphs over the conquered provinces. we fell talking of war and the passions and delusions that lead to war. rachel's thoughts were strongly colored by those ideas of a natural rivalry between germany and england and of a necessary revenge for france which have for nearly forty years diverted the bulk of european thought and energy to the mere waste of military preparations. i jarred with an edifice of preconceptions when i scoffed and scolded at these assumptions. "our two great peoples are disputing for the leadership of the world," i said, "and meanwhile the whole world sweeps past us. we're drifting into a quarrelsome backwater." i began to tell of the fermentation and new beginnings that were everywhere perceptible throughout the east, of the vast masses of human ability and energy that were coming into action in china and india, of the unlimited future of both north and south america, of the mere accidentalness of the european advantage. "history," i said, "is already shifting the significance out of western europe altogether, and we english cannot see it; we can see no further than berlin, and these germans can think of nothing better than to taunt the french with such tawdry effigies as _this_! europe goes on to-day as india went on in the eighteenth century, making aimless history. and the sands of opportunity run and run...." i shrugged my shoulders and we stood for a little while looking down on the shining crescent of the rhine. "suppose," said rachel, "that someone were to say that--in the house." "the house," i said, "doesn't hear things at my pitch. bat outcries. too shrill altogether." "it might. if _you_----" she halted, hesitated for a moment on the question and asked abruptly: "when are you coming back to england, mr. stratton?" "certainly not for six months," i said. a movement of her eyes made me aware of the fürstin and berwick emerging from the trees. "and then?" asked rachel. i didn't want to answer that question, in which the personal note sounded so clearly. "i am going to america to see america," i said, "and america may be rather a big thing to see." "you must see it?" "i want to be sure of it--as something comprehensive. i want to get a general effect of it...." rachel hesitated, looked back to measure the distance of the fürstin and her companion and put her question again, but this time with a significance that did not seem even to want to hide itself. "_then_ will you come back?" she said. her face flamed scarlet, but her eyes met mine boldly. between us there was a flash of complete understanding. my answer, if it was lame and ungallant to such a challenge, was at least perfectly honest. "i can't make up my mind," i said. "i've been near making plans--taking steps.... something holds me back...." i had no time for an explanation. "i can't make up my mind," i repeated. she stood for a moment rather stiffly, staring away towards the blue hills of alsace. then she turned with a smiling and undisturbed countenance to the fürstin. her crimson had given place to white. "the triumph of it," she said with a slight gesture to the flamboyant teutonism that towered over us, and boldly repeating words i had used scarcely five minutes before, "makes me angry. they conquered--ungraciously...." she had overlooked something in her effort to seem entirely self-possessed. she collapsed. "my dear!" she cried,--"i forgot!" "oh! i'm only a german by marriage!" cried the fürstin. "and i can assure you i quite understand--about the triumph of it...." she surveyed the achievement of her countrymen. "it is--ungracious. but indeed it's only a sort of artlessness if you see the thing properly.... it's not vulgarity--it's childishness.... they've hardly got over it yet--their intense astonishment at being any good at war.... that large throaty victory! she's not so militant as she seems. she's too plump.... of course what a german really appreciates is nutrition. but i quite agree with you both.... i'm beginning to want my tea, mr. stratton.... rachel!" her eyes had been on rachel as she chattered. the girl had turned to the distant hills again, and had forgotten even to pretend to listen to the answer she had evoked. now she came back sharply to the sound of her name. "tea?" said the fürstin. "oh!" cried rachel. "yes. yes, certainly. rather. tea." § it was clear to me that after that i must as people say "have things out" with rachel. but before i could do anything of the sort the fürstin pounced upon me. she made me sit up that night after her other guests had gone to their rooms, in the cosy little turret apartment she called her study and devoted to the reading of whatever was most notorious in contemporary british fiction. "sit down," said she, "by the fire in that chair there and tell me all about it. it's no good your pretending you don't know what i mean. what are you up to with her, and why don't you go straight to your manifest destiny as a decent man should?" "because manifestly it isn't my destiny," i said. "stuff," said the fürstin. "you know perfectly well why i am out of england." "everybody knows--except of course quite young persons who are being carefully brought up." "does _she_ know?" "she doesn't seem to." "well, that's what i want to know." "need she know?" "well, it does seem rather essential----" "i suppose if you think so----" "will you tell her?" "tell her yourself, if she must be told. down there in surrey, she _must_ have seen things and heard things. but i don't see that she wants a lot of ancient history." "if it is ancient history!" "oh! two years and a half,--it's an era." i made no answer to that, but sat staring into the fire while my cousin watched my face. at length i made my confession. "i don't think it is ancient history at all," i said. "i think if i met mary again now----" "you mean lady mary justin?" "of course." "it would be good for your mind if you remembered to call her by her proper name.... you think if you met her again you two would begin to carry on. but you see,--you aren't going to meet her. everybody will see that doesn't happen." "i mean that i---- well----" "you'd better not say it. besides, it's nonsense. i doubt if you've given her a thought for weeks and weeks." "until i came here perhaps that was almost nearly true. but you've stirred me up, sweet cousin, and old things, old memories and habits have come to the surface again. mary wrote herself over my life--in all sorts of places.... i can't tell you. i've never talked of her to anyone. i'm not able, very well, to talk about my feelings.... perhaps a man of my sort--doesn't love twice over." i disregarded a note of dissent from my cousin. "that was all so magic, all my youth, all my hope, all the splendid adventure of it. why should one pretend?... i'm giving none of that to rachel. it isn't there any more to give...." "one would think," remarked the fürstin, "there was no gift of healing." she waited for me to speak, and then irritated by my silence struck at me sharply with that wicked little tongue of hers. "do you think that lady mary justin thinks of you--as you think of her? do you think she hasn't settled down?" i looked up at her quickly. "she's just going to have a second child," the fürstin flung out. yes, that did astonish me. i suppose my face showed it. "that girl," said the fürstin, "that clean girl would have sooner died--ten thousand deaths.... and she's never--never been anything to you." i think that for an instant she had been frightened at her own words. she was now quite angry and short of breath. she had contrived a rapid indignation against mary and myself. "i didn't know mary had had any child at all," i said. "this makes two," said the fürstin, and held up a brace of fingers, "with scarcely a year and a half between them. not much more anyhow.... it was natural, i suppose. a natural female indecency. i don't blame her. when a woman gives in she ought to do it thoroughly. but i don't see that it leaves _you_ much scope for philandering, stephen, does it?... and there you are, and here is rachel. and why don't you make a clean job of your life?..." "i didn't understand." "i wonder what you imagined." i reflected. "i wonder what i did. i suppose i thought of mary--just as i had left her--always." i remained with my mind filled with confused images of mary, memories, astonishment.... i perceived the fürstin was talking. "maundering about," she was saying, "like a huntsman without a horse.... you've got work to do--blood in your veins. i'm not one of your ignorant women, stephen. you ought to have a wife...." "rachel's too good," i said, at the end of a pause and perceiving i had to say something, "to be that sort of wife." "no woman's too good for a man," said the fürstin von letzlingen with conviction. "it's what god made her for." § my visit to boppard was drawing to an end before i had a clear opportunity to have things out with rachel. it was in a little garden, under the very shadow of that gracious cathedral at worms, the sort of little garden to which one is admitted by ringing a bell and tipping a custodian. i think worms is in many respects one of the most beautiful cathedrals i have ever seen, so perfectly proportioned, so delicately faded, so aloof, so free from pride or presumption, and it rises over this green and flowery peace, a towering, lithe, light brown, sunlit, easy thing, as unconsciously and irrelevantly splendid as a tall ship in the evening glow under a press of canvas. we looked up at it for a time and then went on with the talk to which we had been coming slowly since the fürstin had packed us off for it, while she went into the town with berwick to buy toys for her gatekeeper's children. i had talked about myself, and the gradual replacement of my ambition to play a part in imperial politics by wider intentions. "you know," i asked abruptly, "why i left england?" she thought through the briefest of pauses. "no," she decided at last. "i made love," i said, "to lady mary justin, and we were found out. we couldn't go away together----" "why not?" she interjected. "it was impossible." for some moments neither of us spoke. "something," she said, and then, "some vague report," and left these fragments to be her reply. "we were old playmates; we were children together. we have--something--that draws us to each other. she--she made a mistake in marrying. we were both very young and the situation was difficult. and then afterwards we were thrown together.... but you see that has made a great difference to my life; it's turned me off the rails on which men of my sort usually run. i've had to look to these other things.... they've become more to me than to most people if only because of that...." "you mean these ideas of yours--learning as much as you can about the world, and then doing what you can to help other people to a better understanding." "yes," i said. "and that--will fill your life." "it ought to." "i suppose it ought. i suppose--you find--it does." "don't you think it ought to fill my life?" "i wondered if it did." "but why shouldn't it?" "it's so--so cold." my questioning silence made her attempt to explain. "one wants life more beautiful than that," she said. "one wants---- there are things one needs, things nearer one." we became aware of a jangling at the janitor's bell. our opportunity for talk was slipping away. and we were both still undecided, both blunderingly nervous and insecure. we were hurried into clumsy phrases that afterwards we would have given much to recall. "but how could life be more beautiful," i said, "than when it serves big human ends?" her brows were knit. she seemed to be listening for the sound of the unlocking gate. "but," she said, and plunged, "one wants to be loved. surely one needs that." "you see, for me--that's gone." "why should it be gone?" "it is. one doesn't begin again. i mean--myself. _you_--can. you've never begun. not when you've loved--loved really." i forced that on her. i over emphasized. "it was real love, you know; the real thing.... i don't mean the mere imaginative love, blindfold love, but love that sees.... i want you to understand that. i loved--altogether...." across the lawn under its trim flowering-trees appeared berwick loaded with little parcels, and manifestly eager to separate us, and the fürstin as manifestly putting on the drag. "there's a sort of love," i hurried, "that doesn't renew itself ever. don't let yourself believe it does. something else may come in its place, but that is different. it's youth,--a wonderful newness.... look at that youngster. _he_ can love you like that. i've watched him. he does. you know he does...." "yes," she said, as hurriedly; "but then, you see, i don't love him." "you don't?" "i can't." "but he's such a fresh clean human being----" "that's not all," said rachel. "that's not all.... you don't understand." the two drew near. "it is so hard to explain," she said. "things that one hardly sees for oneself. sometimes it seems one cannot help oneself. you can't choose. you are taken...." she seemed about to say something more, and stopped and bit her lip. in another moment i was standing up, and the fürstin was calling to us across ten feet of space. "such amoosin' little toyshops. we've got a heap of things. just look at him!" he smiled over his load with anxious eyes upon our faces. "ten separate parcels," he said, appealing for rachel's sympathy. "i'm doing my best not to complain." and rather adroitly he contrived to let two of them slip, and captured rachel to assist him. he didn't relinquish her again. § the fürstin and i followed them along the broad, pleasant, tree-lined street towards the railway station. "a boy of that age ought not to marry a girl of that age," said the fürstin, breaking a silence. i didn't answer. "well?" she said, domineering. "my dear cousin," i said, "i know all that you have in your mind. i admit--i covet her. you can't make me more jealous than i am. she's clean and sweet--it is marvellous how the god of the rest of the world can have made a thing so brave and honest and wonderful. she's better than flowers. but i think i'm going away to-night, nevertheless." "you don't mean you're going to carry chivalry to the point of giving that boy a chance--for he hasn't one while you're about." "no. you see--i want to give rachel a chance. you know as well as i do--the things in my mind." "that you've got to forget." "that i don't forget." "that you're bound in honor to forget. and who could help you better?" "i'm going," i said and then, wrathfully, "if you think i want to use rachel as a sort of dressing--for my old sores----" i left the sentence unfinished. "oh _nonsense_!" cried the fürstin, and wouldn't speak to me again until we got to that entirely teutonic "art" station that is not the least among the sights of worms. "sores, indeed!" said the fürstin presently, as we walked up the end of the platform. "there's nothing," said the fürstin, with an unusual note of petulance, "she'd like better." "i can't think what men are coming to," she went on. "you're in love with her, or you wouldn't be so generous. and she's head over heels with you. and here you are! i'll give you one more chance----" "i won't take it," i interrupted. "it isn't fair. i tell you i won't take it. i'll go two days earlier to prevent you. unless you promise me---- of course i see how things are with her. she's not a sphinx. but it isn't fair. it isn't. not to her, or to him--or myself. _he's_ got some claims. he's got more right to her than i...." "a boy like that! no man has any rights about women--until he's thirty. and as for me and all the pains _i've_ taken---- oh! i _hate_ worms. dust and ashes! well here thank heaven! comes the train. if nothing else could stir you, stephen, at least i could have imagined some decent impulse of gratitude to me. stephen, you're disgusting. you've absolutely spoilt this trip for me--absolutely. when only a little reasonableness on your part---- oh!" she left her sentence unfinished. berwick and i had to make any conversation that was needed on the way back to boppard. rachel did not talk and the fürstin did not want to. § directly i had parted from rachel's questioning eyes i wanted to go back to them. it seems to me now that all the way across to america, in that magnificent german liner i joined at hamburg, i was thinking in confused alternations of her and of mary. there are turns of thought that still bring back inseparably with them the faint echo of the airs of the excellent but industrious band that glorified our crossing. i had been extraordinarily shocked and concerned at the thought of mary bearing children. it is a grotesque thing to confess but i had never let myself imagine the possibility of such a thing for her who had been so immensely mine.... we are the oddest creatures, little son, beasts and barbarians and brains, neither one nor the other but all confusedly, and here was i who had given up mary and resigned her and freed myself from her as i thought altogether, cast back again into my old pit by the most obvious and necessary consequence of her surrender and mine. and it's just there and in that relation that we men and women are so elaborately insecure. we try to love as equals and behave as equals and concede a level freedom, and then comes a crisis,--our laboriously contrived edifice of liberty collapses and we perceive that so far as sex goes the woman remains to the man no more than a possession--capable of loyalty or treachery. there, still at that barbaric stage, the situation stands. you see i had always wanted to own mary, and always she had disputed that. that is our whole story, the story of an instinctive subjugation struggling against a passionate desire for fellowship. she had denied herself to me, taken herself away; that much i could endure; but now came this blazing fact that showed her as it seemed in the most material and conclusive way--overcome. i had storms of retrospective passion at the thoroughness of her surrender.... yes, and that's in everyone of us,--in everyone. i wonder if in all decent law-abiding london there lives a single healthy adult man who has not at times longed to trample and kill.... for once i think the fürstin miscalculated consequences. i think i should have engaged myself to rachel before i went to america if it had not been for the fürstin's revelation, but this so tore me that i could no longer go on falling in love again, naturally and sweetly. no man falls in love if he has just been flayed.... i could no longer think of rachel except as a foil to mary. i was moved to marry her by a new set of motives; to fling her so to speak in mary's face, and from the fierce vulgarity of that at least i recoiled--and let her go as i have told you. § i had thought all that was over. i remember my struggles to recover my peace. i remember how very late one night i went up to the promenade deck to smoke a cigar before turning in. it was a warm moonlight night. the broad low waves of ebony water that went seething past below, foamed luminous and were streaked and starred with phosphorescence. the recumbent moon, past its full and sinking westward, seemed bigger than i had ever seen it before, and the roundness of the watery globe was manifest about the edge of the sky. one had that sense so rare on land, so common in the night at sea, of the world as a conceivable sphere, and of interstellar space as of something clear and close at hand. there came back to me again that feeling i had lost for a time in germany of being not myself but man consciously on his little planet communing with god. but my spirit was saying all the time, "i am still in my pit, in my pit. after all i am still in my pit." and then there broke the answer on my mind, that all our lives we must struggle out of our pits, that to struggle out of our pit is this life, there is no individual life but that, and that there comes no escape here, no end to that effort, until the release of death. continually or frequently we may taste salvation, but never may we achieve it while we are things of substance. each moment in our lives we come to the test and are lost again or saved again. to be assured of one's security is to forget and fall away. and standing at the rail with these thoughts in my mind, suddenly i prayed.... i remember how the engine-throbs beat through me like the beating of a heart, and that far below, among the dim lights that came up from the emigrants in the steerage, there was a tinkling music as i prayed and a man's voice singing a plaintive air in some strange slavonic tongue. that voice of the invisible singer and the spirit of the unknown song-maker and the serenity of the sky, they were all, i perceived, no more and no less than things in myself that i did not understand. they were out beyond the range of understanding. and yet they fell into the completest harmony that night with all that i seemed to understand.... § the onset of new york was extraordinarily stimulating to me. i write onset. it is indeed that. new york rides up out of the waters, a cliff of man's making; its great buildings at a distance seem like long chinese banners held up against the sky. from sandy hook to the great landing stages and the swirling hooting traffic of the hudson river there fails nothing in that magnificent crescendo of approach. and new york keeps the promise of its first appearance. there is no such fulness of life elsewhere in all the world. the common man in the streets is a bigger common man than any old world city can show, physically bigger; there is hope in his eyes and a braced defiance. new york may be harsh and blusterous and violent, but there is a breeze from the sea and a breeze of fraternity in the streets, and the americans of all peoples in the world are a nation of still unbroken men. i went to america curious, balancing between hope and scepticism. the european world is full of the criticism of america, and for the matter of that america too is full of it; hostility and depreciation prevail,--overmuch, for in spite of rawness and vehemence and a scum of blatant, oh! quite asinine folly, the united states of america remains the greatest country in the world and the living hope of mankind. it is the supreme break with the old tradition; it is the freshest and most valiant beginning that has ever been made in human life. here was the antithesis of india; here were no peasants whatever, no traditional culture, no castes, no established differences (except for the one schism of color); this amazing place had never had a famine, never a plague; here were no temples and no priesthoods dominating the lives of the people,--old trinity church embedded amidst towering sky-scrapers was a symbol for as much as they had of all that; and here too there was no crown, no affectations of an ancient loyalty, no visible army, no traditions of hostility, for the old defiance of britain is a thing now ridiculous and dead; and everyone i met had an air as if he knew that to-morrow must be different from to-day and different and novel and remarkable by virtue of himself and such as himself. i went about new york, with the incredulous satisfaction of a man who has long doubted, to find that after all america was coming true. the very clatter pleased me, the crowds, the camp-like slovenliness, a disorder so entirely different from the established and accepted untidiness of china or india. here was something the old world had never shown me, a new enterprise, a fresh vigor. in the old world there is change, a mighty wave now of change, but it drives men before it as if it were a power outside them and not in them; they do not know, they do not believe; but here the change is in the very blood and spirit of mankind. they breathe it in even before the launch has brought their feet to ellis island soil. in six months they are americanized. does it matter that a thing so gigantic should be a little coarse and blundering in detail, if this stumbling giant of the new time breaks a gracious relic or so in his eager clutch and treads a little on the flowers? § and in this setting of energy and activity, towering city life and bracing sea breezes, i met gidding again, whom i had last seen departing into egypt to look more particularly at the prehistoric remains and the temples of the first and second dynasty at abydos. it was at a dinner-party, one of those large gatherings that welcome interesting visitors. it wasn't, of course, i who was the centre of interest, but a distinguished french portrait painter; i was there as just any guest. i hadn't even perceived gidding until he came round to me in that precious gap of masculine intercourse that ensues upon the departure of the ladies. that gap is one of the rare opportunities for conversation men get in america. "i don't know whether you will remember me," he said, "but perhaps you remember crete--in the sunrise." "and no end of talk afterwards," i said, grasping his hand, "no end--for we didn't half finish. did you have a good time in egypt?" "i'm not going to talk to you about egypt," said gidding. "i'm through with ruins. i'm going to ask you--you know what i'm going to ask you." "what i think of america. it's the same inevitable question. i think everything of it. it's the stepping-off place. i've come here at last, because it matters most." "that's what we all want to believe," said gidding. "that's what we want you to tell us." he reflected. "it's immense, isn't it, perfectly immense? but---- i am afraid at times we're too disposed to forget just what it's all about. we've got to be reminded. that, you know, is why we keep on asking." he went on to question me where i had been, what i had done, what i made of things. he'd never, he said, forgotten our two days' gossip in the levant, and all the wide questions about the world and ourselves that we had broached then and left so open. i soon found myself talking very freely to him. i am not a ready or abundant talker, but gidding has the knack of precipitating my ideas. he is america to my europe, and at his touch all that has been hanging in concentrated solution in my mind comes crystallizing out. he has to a peculiar degree that directness and simplicity which is the distinctive american quality. i tried to explain to his solemnly nodding head and entirely intelligent eyes just exactly what i was making of things, of the world, of humanity, of myself.... it was an odd theme for two men to attempt after dinner, servants hovering about them, their two faces a little flushed by wine and good eating, their keen interest masked from the others around them by a gossiping affectation, their hands going out as they talked for matches or cigarette, and before we had gone further than to fling out a few intimations to each other our colloquy was interrupted by our host standing up and by the general stir that preluded our return to feminine society. "we've got more to say than this," said gidding. "we've got to _talk_." he brought out a little engagement book that at once drew out mine in response. and a couple of days after, we spent a morning and afternoon together and got down to some very intimate conversation. we motored out to lunch at a place called nyack, above the palisades, we crossed on a ferry to reach it, and we visited the house of washington irving near yonkers on our way. i've still a vivid picture in my mind of the little lawn at irvington that looks out upon the rushing steel of hudson river, where gidding opened his heart to me. i can see him now as he leant a little forward over the table, with his wrists resting upon it, his long clean-shaven face very solemn and earnest and grey against the hard american sunlight in the greenery about us, while he told me in that deliberate american voice of his and with the deliberate american solemnity, of his desire to "do some decent thing with life." he was very anxious to set himself completely before me, i remember, on that occasion. there was a peculiar mental kinship between us that even the profound differences of our english and american trainings could not mask. and now he told me almost everything material about his life. for the first time i learnt how enormously rich he was, not only by reason of his father's acquisitions, but also because of his own almost instinctive aptitude for business. "i've got," he said, "to begin with, what almost all men spend their whole lives in trying to get. and it amounts to nothing. it leaves me with life like a blank sheet of paper, and nothing in particular to write on it." "you know," he said, "it's--exasperating. i'm already half-way to three-score and ten, and i'm still wandering about wondering what to do with this piece of life god has given me...." he had "lived" as people say, he had been in scrapes and scandals, tasted to the full the bitter intensities of the personal life; he had come by a different route to the same conclusions as myself, was as anxious as i to escape from memories and associations and feuds and that excessive vividness of individual feeling which blinds us to the common humanity, the common interest, the gentler, larger reality, which lies behind each tawdrily emphatic self.... "it's a sort of inverted homoeopathy i want," he said. "the big thing to cure the little thing...." but i will say no more of that side of our friendship, because the ideas of it are spread all through this book from the first page to the last.... what concerns me now is not our sympathy and agreement, but that other aspect of our relations in which gidding becomes impulse and urgency. "seeing we have these ideas," said he,--"and mind you there must be others who have them or are getting to them, for nobody thinks all alone in this world,--seeing we have these ideas what are we going to _do_?" § that meeting was followed by another before i left new york, and presently gidding joined me at denver, where i was trying to measure the true significance of a labor paper called _the appeal to reason_ that, in spite of a rigid boycott by the ordinary agencies for news distribution went out in the middle west to nearly half a million subscribers, and was filled with such a fierceness of insurrection against labor conditions, such a hatred, blind and impassioned, as i had never known before. gidding remained with me there and came back with me to chicago, where i wanted to see something of the americanization of the immigrant, and my survey of america, the social and economic problem of america, resolved itself more and more into a conference with him. there is no more fruitless thing in the world than to speculate how life would have gone if this thing or that had not happened. yet i cannot help but wonder how far i might have travelled along the lines of my present work if i had gone to america and not met gidding, or if i had met him without visiting america. the man and his country are inextricably interwoven in my mind. yet i do think that his simplicity and directness, his force of initiative that turned me from a mere enquirer into an active writer and organizer, are qualities less his in particular than america's in general. there is in america a splendid crudity, a directness that cleared my spirit as a bracing wind will sweep the clouds from mountain scenery. compared with our older continents america is mankind stripped for achievement. so many things are not there at all, need not be considered; no institutional aristocracy, no kaisers, czars, nor king-emperors to maintain a litigious sequel to the empire of rome; it has no uneducated immovable peasantry rooted to the soil, indeed it has no rooting to the soil at all; it is, from the forty-ninth parallel to the tip of cape horn, one triumphant embodiment of freedom and deliberate agreement. for i mean all america, spanish-speaking as well as english-speaking; they have this detachment from tradition in common. see how the united states, for example, stands flatly on that bare piece of eighteenth-century intellectualism the constitution, and is by virtue of that a structure either wilful and intellectual or absurd. that sense of incurable servitude to fate and past traditions, that encumbrance with ruins, pledges, laws and ancient institutions, that perpetual complication of considerations and those haunting memories of preceding human failures which dwarf the courage of destiny in europe and asia, vanish from the mind within a week of one's arrival in the new world. naturally one begins to do things. one is inspired to do things. one feels that one has escaped, one feels that the time is _now_. all america, north and south alike, is one tremendous escape from ancient obsessions into activity and making. and by the time i had reached america i had already come to see that just as the issues of party politics at home and international politics abroad are mere superficialities above the greater struggle of an energetic minority to organize and exploit the labor of the masses of mankind, so that struggle also is only a huge incident in the still more than half unconscious impulse to replace the ancient way of human living by a more highly organized world-wide social order, by a world civilization embodying itself in a world state. and i saw now how that impulse could neither cease nor could it on the other hand realize itself until it became conscious and deliberate and merciful, free from haste and tyranny, persuasive and sustained by a nearly universal sympathy and understanding. for until that arrives the creative forces must inevitably spend themselves very largely in blind alleys, futile rushes and destructive conflicts. upon that our two minds were agreed. "we have," said gidding, "to understand and make understanding. that is the real work for us to do, stratton, that is our job. the world, as you say, has been floundering about, half making civilization and never achieving it. now _we_, i don't mean just you and me, stratton, particularly, but every intelligent man among us, have got to set to and make it thorough. there is no other sane policy for a man outside his private passions but that. so let's get at it----" i find it now impossible to trace the phases by which i reached these broad ideas upon which i rest all my work, but certainly they were present very early in my discussions with gidding. we two men had been thinking independently but very similarly, and it is hard to say just what completing touches either of us gave to the other's propositions. we found ourselves rather than arrived at the conception of ourselves as the citizens neither of the united states nor of england but of a state that had still to come into being, a world state, a great unity behind and embracing the ostensible political fabrics of to-day--a unity to be reached by weakening antagonisms, by developing understandings and toleration, by fostering the sense of brotherhood across the ancient bounds. we believed and we believe that such a creative conception of a human commonweal can be fostered in exactly the same way that the idea of german unity was fostered behind the dukedoms, the free cities and kingdoms of germany, a conception so creative that it can dissolve traditional hatreds, incorporate narrower loyalties and replace a thousand suspicions and hostilities by a common passion for collective achievement, so creative that at last the national boundaries of to-day may become obstacles as trivial to the amplifying good-will of men as the imaginary line that severs normandy from brittany, or berwick from northumberland. and it is not only a great peace about the earth that this idea of a world state means for us, but social justice also. we are both convinced altogether that there survives no reason for lives of toil, for hardship, poverty, famine, infectious disease, for the continuing cruelties of wild beasts and the greater multitude of crimes, but mismanagement and waste, and that mismanagement and waste spring from no other source than ignorance and from stupid divisions and jealousies, base patriotisms, fanaticisms, prejudices and suspicions that are all no more than ignorance a little mingled with viciousness. we have looked closely into this servitude of modern labor, we have seen its injustice fester towards syndicalism and revolutionary socialism, and we know these things for the mere aimless, ignorant resentments they are; punishments, not remedies. we have looked into the portentous threat of modern war, and it is ignorant vanity and ignorant suspicion, the bargaining aggression of the british prosperous and the swaggering vulgarity of the german junker that make and sustain that monstrous european devotion to arms. and we are convinced there is nothing in these evils and conflicts that light may not dispel. we believe that these things can be dispelled, that the great universals, science which has limitations neither of race nor class, art which speaks to its own in every rank and nation, philosophy and literature which broaden sympathy and banish prejudice, can flood and submerge and will yet flow over and submerge every one of these separations between man and man. i will not say that this great state, this world republic of civilized men, is our dream, because it is not a dream, it is a manifestly reasonable possibility. it is our intention. it is what we are deliberately making and what in a little while very many men and women will be making. we are secessionists from all contemporary nationalities and loyalties. we have set ourselves with all the capacity and energy at our disposal to create a world-wide common fund of ideas and knowledge, and to evoke a world-wide sense of human solidarity in which the existing limitations of political structure must inevitably melt away. it was gidding and his americanism, his inborn predisposition to innovation and the large freedom of his wealth that turned these ideas into immediate concrete undertakings. i see more and more that it is here that we of the old european stocks, who still grow upon the old wood, differ most from those vigorous grafts of our race in america and africa and australia on the one hand and from the renascent peoples of the east on the other: that we have lost the courage of youth and have not yet gained the courage of desperate humiliations, in taking hold of things. to gidding it was neither preposterous nor insufferably magnificent that we should set about a propaganda of all science, all knowledge, all philosophical and political ideas, round about the habitable globe. his mind began producing concrete projects as a fire-work being lit produces sparks, and soon he was "figuring out" the most colossal of printing and publishing projects, as a man might work out the particulars for an alteration to his bathroom. it was so entirely natural to him, it was so entirely novel to me, to go on from the proposition that understanding was the primary need of humanity to the systematic organization of free publishing, exhaustive discussion, intellectual stimulation. he set about it as a company of pharmacists might organize the distribution of some beneficial cure. "say, stratton," he said, after a conversation that had seemed to me half fantasy; "let's _do_ it." there are moments still when it seems to me that this life of mine has become the most preposterous of adventures. we two absurd human beings are spending our days and nights in a sustained and growing attempt to do what? to destroy certain obsessions and to give the universal human mind a form and a desire for expression. we have put into the shape of one comprehensive project that force of released wealth that has already dotted america with universities, libraries, institutions for research and enquiry. already there are others at work with us, and presently there will be a great number. we have started an avalanche above the old politics and it gathers mass and pace.... and there never was an impulse towards endeavor in a human heart that wasn't preposterous. man is a preposterous animal. thereby he ceases to be a creature and becomes a creator, he turns upon the powers that made him and subdues them to his service; by his sheer impudence he establishes his claim to possess a soul.... but i need not write at all fully of my work here. this book is not about that but about my coming to that. long before this manuscript reaches your hands--if ultimately i decide that it shall reach your hands--you will be taking your share, i hope, in this open conspiracy against potentates and prejudices and all the separating powers of darkness. § i would if i could omit one thing that i must tell you here, because it goes so close to the very core of all this book has to convey. i wish i could leave it out altogether. i wish i could simplify my story by smoothing out this wrinkle at least and obliterating a thing that was at once very real and very ugly. you see i had at last struggled up to a sustaining idea, to a conception of work and duty to which i could surely give my life. i had escaped from my pit so far. and it was natural that now with something to give i should turn not merely for consolation and service but for help and fellowship to that dear human being across the seas who had offered them to me so straightly and sweetly. all that is brave and good and as you would have me, is it not? only, dear son, that is not all the truth. there was still in my mind, for long it remained in my mind, a bitterness against mary. i had left her, i had lost her, we had parted; but from germany to america and all through america and home again to my marriage and with me after my marriage, it rankled that she could still go on living a life independent of mine. i had not yet lost my desire to possess her, to pervade and dominate her existence; my resentment that though she loved me she had first not married me and afterwards not consented to come away with me was smouldering under the closed hatches of my mind. and so while the better part of me was laying hold of this work because it gave me the hope of a complete distraction and escape from my narrow and jealous self, that lower being of the pit was also rejoicing in the great enterprises before me and in the marriage upon which i had now determined, because it was a last trampling upon my devotion to mary, because it defied and denied some lurking claims to empire i could suspect in her. i want to tell you that particularly because so i am made, so you are made, so most of us are made. there is scarcely a high purpose in all the world that has no dwarfish footman at its stirrup, no base intention over which there does not ride at least the phantom of an angel. constantly in those days, it seems to me now, i was haunted by my own imagination of mary amiably reconciled to justin, bearing him children, forgetful of or repudiating all the sweetness, all the wonder and beauty we had shared.... it was an unjust and ungenerous conception, i knew it for a caricature even as i entertained it, and yet it tormented me. it stung me like a spur. it kept me at work, and if i strayed into indolence brought me back to work with a mind galled and bleeding.... § and i suppose it is mixed up with all this that i could not make love easily and naturally to rachel. i could not write love-letters to her. there is a burlesque quality in these scruples, i know, seeing that i was now resolved to marry her, but that is the quality, that is the mixed texture of life. we overcome the greater things and are conscience-stricken by the details. i wouldn't, even at the price of losing her--and i was now passionately anxious not to lose her--use a single phrase of endearment that did not come out of me almost in spite of myself. at any rate i would not cheat her. and my offer of marriage when at last i sent it to her from chicago was, as i remember it, almost business-like. i atoned soon enough for that arid letter in ten thousand sweet words that came of themselves to my lips. and she paid me at any rate in my own coin when she sent me her answer by cable, the one word "yes." and indeed i was already in love with her long before i wrote. it was only a dread of giving her a single undeserved cheapness that had held me back so long. it was that and the perplexity that mary still gripped my feelings; my old love for her was there in my heart in spite of my new passion for rachel, it was blackened perhaps and ruined and changed but it was there. it was as if a new crater burnt now in the ampler circumference of an old volcano, which showed all the more desolate and sorrowful and obsolete for the warm light of the new flames.... how impatiently i came home! thoughts of england i had not dared to think for three long years might now do what they would in me. i dreamt of the surrey hills and the great woods of burnmore park, of the changing skies and stirring soft winds of our grey green motherland. there was fog in the irish sea, and we lost the better part of a day hooting our way towards liverpool while i fretted about the ship with all my luggage packed, staring at the grey waters that weltered under the mist. it was the longest day in my life. my heart was full of desire, my eyes ached for the little fields and golden october skies of england, england that was waiting to welcome me back from my exile with such open arms. i was coming home,--home. i hurried through london into surrey and in my father's study, warned by a telegram, i found a bright-eyed, resolute young woman awaiting me, with the quality about her of one who embarks upon a long premeditated adventure. and i found too a family her sisters and her brother all gladly ready for me, my father too was a happy man, and on the eighth of november in rachel and i were married in the little church at shere. we stayed for a week or so in hampshire near ringwood, the season was late that year and the trees still very beautiful; and then we went to portofino on the ligurian coast. there presently gidding joined us and we began to work out the schemes we had made in america, the schemes that now fill my life. chapter the tenth mary writes § it was in the early spring of that i had a letter from mary. by that time my life was set fully upon its present courses, gidding and i had passed from the stage of talking and scheming to definite undertakings. indeed by things were already organized upon their present lines. we had developed a huge publishing establishment with one big printing plant in barcelona and another in manchester, and we were studying the peculiar difficulties that might attend the establishment of a third plant in america. our company was an english company under the name of alphabet and mollentrave, and we were rapidly making it the broadest and steadiest flow of publication the world had ever seen. its streams already reached further and carried more than any single firm had ever managed to do before. we were reprinting, in as carefully edited and revised editions as we could, the whole of the english, spanish and french literature, and we were only waiting for the release of machinery to attack german, russian and italian, and were giving each language not only its own but a very complete series of good translations of the classical writers in every other tongue. we had a little band of editors and translators permanently in our service at each important literary centre. we had, for example, more than a score of men at work translating bengali fiction and verse into english,--a lot of that new literature is wonderfully illuminating to an intelligent englishman--and we had a couple of men hunting about for new work in arabic. we meant to give so good and cheap a book, and to be so comprehensive in our choice of books, excluding nothing if only it was real and living, on account of any inferiority of quality, obscurity of subject or narrowness of demand, that in the long run anybody, anywhere, desiring to read anything would turn naturally and inevitably to our lists. ours was to be in the first place a world literature. then afterwards upon its broad currents of distribution and in the same forms we meant to publish new work and new thought. we were also planning an encyclopædia. behind our enterprise of translations and reprints we were getting together and putting out a series of guide-books, gazetteers, dictionaries, text-books and books of reference, and we were organizing a revising staff for these, a staff that should be constantly keeping them up to date. it was our intention to make every copy we printed bear the date of its last revision in a conspicuous place, and we hoped to get the whole line of these books ultimately upon an annual basis, and to sell them upon repurchasing terms that would enable us to issue a new copy and take back and send the old one to the pulping mill at a narrow margin of profit. then we meant to spread our arms wider, and consolidate and offer our whole line of text-books, guide-books and gazetteers, bibliographies, atlases, dictionaries and directories as a new world encyclopædia, that should also annually or at longest biennially renew its youth. so far we had gone in the creation of a huge international organ of information, and of a kind of gigantic modern bible of world literature, and in the process of its distribution we were rapidly acquiring an immense detailed knowledge of the book and publishing trade, finding congestions here, neglected opportunities there, and devising and drawing up a hundred schemes for relief, assistance, amalgamation and rearrangement. we had branches in china, japan, peru, iceland and a thousand remote places that would have sounded as far off as the moon to an english or american bookseller in the seventies. china in particular was a growing market. we had a subsidiary company running a flourishing line of book shops in the east-end of london, and others in new jersey, chicago, buenos ayres, the south of france, and ireland. incidentally we had bought up some thousands of miles of labrador forest to ensure our paper supply, and we could believe that before we died there would not be a corner of the world in which any book of interest or value whatever would not be easily attainable by any intelligent person who wanted to read it. and already we were taking up the more difficult and ambitious phase of our self-appointed task, and considering the problem of using these channels we were mastering and deepening and supplementing for the stimulation and wide diffusion of contemporary thought. there we went outside the province of alphabet and mollentrave and into an infinitely subtler system of interests. we wanted to give sincere and clear-thinking writers encouragement and opportunity, to improve the critical tribunal and make it independent of advertising interests, so that there would be a readier welcome for luminous thinking and writing and a quicker explosion of intellectual imposture. we sought to provide guides and intelligencers to contemporary thought. we had already set up or subsidized or otherwise aided a certain number of magazines and periodicals that seemed to us independent-spirited, out-spoken and well handled, but we had still to devise our present scheme of financing groups of men to create magazines and newspapers, which became their own separate but inalienable property after so many years of success. but all this i hope you will already have become more or less familiar with when this story reaches your hands, and i hope by the time it does so we shall be far beyond our present stage of experiment and that you will have come naturally to play your part in this most fascinating business of maintaining an onward intellectual movement in the world, a movement not simply independent of but often running counter to all sorts of political and financial interests. i tell you this much here for you to understand that already in and considering the business side of my activities alone, i was a hard worker and very strenuously employed. and in addition to all this huge network of enterprises i had developed with gidding, i was still pretty actively a student. i wasn't--i never shall be--absolutely satisfied with my general ideas. i was enquiring keenly and closely into those problems of group and crowd psychology from which all this big publishing work has arisen, and giving particular attention to the war-panics and outbreaks of international hostility that were then passing in deepening waves across europe. i had already accumulated a mass of notes for the book upon "group jealousy in religious persecution, racial conflicts and war" which i hope to publish the year after next, and which therefore i hope you will have read long before this present book can possibly come to you. and moreover rachel and i had established our home in london--in the house we now occupy during the winter and spring--and both you and your little sister had begun your careers as inhabitants of this earth. your little sister had indeed but just begun. and then one morning at the breakfast-table i picked a square envelope out of a heap of letters, and saw the half-forgotten and infinitely familiar handwriting of lady mary justin.... the sight of it gave me an odd mixture of sensations. i was startled, i was disturbed, i was a little afraid. i hadn't forgiven her yet; it needed but this touch to tell me how little i had forgotten.... § i sat with it in my hand for a moment or so before i opened it, hesitating as one hesitates before a door that may reveal a dramatic situation. then i pushed my chair a little back from the table and ripped the envelope. it was a far longer letter than mary had ever written me in the old days, and in a handwriting as fine as ever but now rather smaller. i have it still, and here i open its worn folds and, except for a few trifling omissions, copy it out for you.... a few trifling omissions, i say,--just one there is that is not trifling, but that i must needs make.... you will never see any of these letters because i shall destroy them so soon as this copy is made. it has been difficult--or i should have destroyed them before. but some things can be too hard for us.... this first letter is on the martens note-paper; its very heading was familiar to me. the handwriting of the earlier sentences is a little stiff and disjointed, and there are one or two scribbled obliterations; it is like someone embarrassed in speaking; and then it passes into her usual and characteristic ease.... and as i read, slowly my long-cherished anger evaporated, and the real mary, outspoken and simple, whom i had obscured by a cloud of fancied infidelities, returned to me.... "my dear stephen," she begins, "about six weeks ago i saw in the _times_ that you have a little daughter. it set me thinking, picturing you with a mite of a baby in your arms--what _little_ things they are, stephen!--and your old face bent over it, so that presently i went to my room and cried. it set me thinking about you so that i have at last written you this letter.... i love to think of you with wife and children about you stephen,--i heard of your son for the first time about a year ago, but--don't mistake me,--something wrings me too.... "well, i too have children. have you ever thought of me as a mother? i am. i wonder how much you know about me now. i have two children and the youngest is just two years old. and somehow it seems to me that now that you and i have both given such earnests of our good behavior, such evidence that _that_ side of life anyhow is effectually settled for us, there is no reason remaining why we shouldn't correspond. you are my brother, stephen, and my friend and my twin and the core of my imagination, fifty babies cannot alter that, we can live but once and then die, and, promise or no promise, i will not be dead any longer in your world when i'm not dead, nor will i have you, if i can help it, a cold unanswering corpse in mine.... "too much of my life and being, stephen, has been buried, and i am in rebellion. this is a breach of the tomb if you like, an irregular private premature resurrection from an interment in error. out of my alleged grave i poke my head and say hello! to you. stephen, old friend! dear friend! how are you getting on? what is it like to you? how do you feel? i want to know about you.... i'm not doing this at all furtively, and you can write back to me, stephen, as openly as your heart desires. i have told justin i should do this. i rise, you see, blowing my own trump. let the other graves do as they please.... "your letters will be respected, stephen.... if you choose to rise also and write me a letter. "stephen, i've been wanting to do this for--for all the time. if there was thought-reading you would have had a thousand letters. but formerly i was content to submit, and latterly i've chafed more. i think that as what they call passion has faded, the immense friendliness has become more evident, and made the bar less and less justifiable. you and i have had so much between us beyond what somebody the other day--it was in a report in the _times_, i think--was calling _materia matrimoniala_. and of course i hear about you from all sorts of people, and in all sorts of ways--whatever you have done about me i've had a woman's sense of honor about you and i've managed to learn a great deal without asking forbidden questions. i've pricked up my ears at the faintest echo of your name. "they say you have become a publisher with an american partner, a sort of harmsworth and nelson and times book club and hooper and jackson all rolled into one. that seems so extraordinary to me that for that alone i should have had to write to you. i want to know the truth of that. i never see any advertisement of stratton & co. or get any inkling of what it is you publish. are you the power behind the respectable murgatroyd and the honest milvain? i know them both and neither has the slightest appearance of being animated by you. and equally perplexing is your being mixed up with an american like that man gidding in peace conferences and social reform congresses and so forth. it's so--carnegieish. there i'm surer because i've seen your name in reports of meetings and i've read your last two papers in the _fortnightly_. i can't imagine you of all people, with your touch of reserve, launching into movements and rubbing shoulders with faddists. what does it mean, stephen? i had expected to find you coming back into english politics--speaking and writing on the lines of your old beginning, taking up that work you dropped--it's six years now ago. i've been accumulating disappointment for two years. mr. arthur, you see, on our side,"--this you will remember was in --"still steers our devious party courses, and the tariff reformers have still to capture us. weston massinghay was comparing them the other night, at a dinner at the clynes', to a crowded piratical galley trying to get alongside a good seaman in rough weather. he was very funny about leo maxse in the poop, white and shrieking with passion and the motion, and all the capitalists armed to the teeth and hiding snug in the hold until the grappling-irons were fixed.... why haven't you come into the game? i'd hoped it if only for the sake of meeting you again. what are you doing out beyond there? "we are in it so far as i can contrive. but i contrive very little. we are pillars of the conservative party--on that justin's mind is firmly settled--and every now and then i clamor urgently that we must do more for it. but justin's ideas go no further than writing cheques--doing more for the party means writing a bigger cheque--and there are moments when i feel we shall simply bring down a peerage upon our heads and bury my ancient courtesy title under the ignominy of a new creation. he would certainly accept it. he writes his cheque and turns back at the earliest opportunity to his miniature gardens and the odd little freaks of collecting that attract him. have you ever heard of chintz oil jars? 'no,' you will say. nor has anyone else yet except our immediate circle of friends and a few dealers who are no doubt industriously increasing the present scanty supply. we possess three. they are matronly shaped jars about two feet or a yard high, of a kind of terra-cotta with wooden tops surmounted by gilt acorns, and they have been covered with white paint and on this flowers and birds and figures from some very rich old chintz have been stuck very cunningly, and then everything has been varnished--and there you are. our first and best was bought for seven-and-sixpence, brought home in the car, put upon a console table on the second landing and worshipped. it's really a very pleasant mellow thing to see. nobody had ever seen the like. guests, sycophantic people of all sorts were taken to consider it. it was looked at with heads at every angle, one man even kept his head erect and one went a little upstairs and looked at it under his arm. also the most powerful lenses have been used for a minute examination, and one expert licked the varnish and looked extremely thoughtful and wise at me as he turned the booty over his gifted tongue. and now, god being with us, we mean to possess every specimen in existence--before the americans get hold of the idea. yesterday justin got up and motored sixty miles to look at an alleged fourth.... "oh my dear! i am writing chatter. you perceive i've reached the chattering stage. it is the fated end of the clever woman in a good social position nowadays, her mind beats against her conditions for the last time and breaks up into this carping talk, this spume of observation and comment, this anecdotal natural history of the restraining husband, as waves burst out their hearts in a foam upon a reef. but it isn't chatter i want to write to you. "stephen, i'm intolerably wretched. no creature has ever been gladder to have been born than i was for the first five and twenty years of my life. i was full of hope and i was full, i suppose, of vanity and rash confidence. i thought i was walking on solid earth with my head reaching up to the clouds, and that sea and sky and all mankind were mine for the smiling. and i am nothing and worse than nothing, i am the ineffectual mother of two children, a daughter whom i adore--but of her i may not tell you--and a son,--a son who is too like his father for any fury of worship, a stolid little creature.... that is all i have done in the world, a mere blink of maternity, and my blue persian who is scarcely two years old, has already had nine kittens. my husband and i have never forgiven each other the indefinable wrong of not pleasing each other; that embitters more and more; to take it out of each other is our rôle; i have done my duty to the great new line of justin by giving it the heir it needed, and now a polite and silent separation has fallen between us. we hardly speak except in company. i have not been so much married, stephen, i find, as collected, and since our tragic misadventure--but there were beautiful moments, stephen, unforgettable glimpses of beauty in that--thank god, i say impenitently for that--the door of the expensively splendid cabinet that contains me, when it is not locked, is very discreetly--watched. i have no men friends, no social force, no freedom to take my line. my husband is my official obstacle. we barb the limitations of life for one another. a little while ago he sought to chasten me--to rouse me rather--through jealousy, and made me aware indirectly but a little defiantly of a young person of artistic gifts in whose dramatic career he was pretending a conspicuous interest. i was jealous and roused, but scarcely in the way he desired. 'this,' i said quite cheerfully, 'means freedom for _me_, justin,'--and the young woman vanished from the visible universe with an incredible celerity. i hope she was properly paid off and not simply made away with by a minion, but i become more and more aware of my ignorance of a great financier's methods as i become more and more aware of them.... "stephen, my dear, my brother, i am intolerably unhappy. i do not know what to do with myself, or what there is to hope for in life. i am like a prisoner in a magic cage and i do not know the word that will release me. how is it with you? are you unhappy beyond measure or are you not; and if you are not, what are you doing with life? have you found any secret that makes living tolerable and understandable? write to me, write to me at least and tell me that.... please write to me. "do you remember how long ago you and i sat in the old park at burnmore, and how i kept pestering you and asking you what is all this _for_? and you looked at the question as an obstinate mule looks at a narrow bridge he could cross but doesn't want to. well, stephen, you've had nearly--how many years is it now?--to get an answer ready. what _is_ it all for? what do you make of it? never mind my particular case, or the case of women with a capital _w_, tell me _your_ solution. you are active, you keep doing things, you find life worth living. is publishing a way of peace for the heart? i am prepared to believe even that. but justify yourself. tell me what you have got there to keep your soul alive." § i read this letter to the end and looked up, and there was my home about me, a room ruddy-brown and familiar, with the row of old pewter things upon the dresser, the steel engravings of former strattons that came to me from my father, a convex mirror exaggerating my upturned face. and rachel just risen again sat at the other end of the table, a young mother, fragile and tender-eyed. the clash of these two systems of reality was amazing. it was as though i had not been parted from mary for a day, as though all that separation and all that cloud of bitter jealousy had been a mere silence between two people in the same room. indeed it was extraordinarily like that, as if i had been sitting at a desk, imagining myself alone, reading my present life as one reads in a book at a shaded lamp, and then suddenly that silent other had spoken. and then i looked at the page of my life before me and became again a character in the story. i met the enquiry in rachel's eyes. "it's a letter from mary justin," i said. she did not answer for a few moments. she became interested in the flame of the little spirit lamp that kept her coffee hot. she finished what she had to do with that and then remarked, "i thought you two were not to correspond." "yes," i said, putting the letter down; "that was the understanding." there was a little interval of silence, and then i got up and went to the fireplace where the bacon and sausages stood upon a trivet. "i suppose," said rachel, "she wants to hear from you again." "she thinks that now we have children, and that she has two, we can consider what was past, past and closed and done with, and she wants to hear--about me.... apart from everything else--we were very great friends." "of course," said rachel with lips a little awry, "of course. you must have been great friends. and it's natural for her to write." "i suppose," she added, "her husband knows." "she's told him, she says...." her eye fell on the letter in my hand for the smallest fraction of a second, and it was as if hastily she snatched away a thought from my observation. i had a moment of illuminating embarrassment. so far we had contrived to do as most young people do when they marry, we had sought to make our lives unreservedly open to one another, we had affected an entire absence of concealments about our movements, our thoughts. if perhaps i had been largely silent to her about mary it was not so much that i sought to hide things from her as that i myself sought to forget. it is one of the things that we learn too late, the impossibility of any such rapid and wilful coalescences of souls. but we had maintained a convention of infinite communism since our marriage; we had shown each other our letters as a matter of course, shared the secrets of our friends, gone everywhere together as far as we possibly could. i wanted now to give her the letter in my hand to read--and to do so was manifestly impossible. something had arisen between us that made out of our unity two abruptly separated figures masked and veiled. here were things i knew and understood completely and that i could not even describe to rachel. what would she make of mary's "write to me. write to me"? a mere wish to resume.... i would not risk the exposure of mary's mind and heart and unhappiness, to her possible misinterpretation.... that letter fell indeed like a pitiless searchlight into all that region of differences ignored, over which we had built the vaulted convention of our complete mutual understanding. in my memory it seems to me now as though we hung silent for quite a long time over the evasions that were there so abruptly revealed. then i put the letter into my pocket with a clumsy assumption of carelessness, and knelt down to the fender and sausages. "it will be curious," i said, "to write to her again.... to tell her about things...." and then with immense interest, "are these chichester sausages you've got here, rachel, or some new kind?" rachel roused herself to respond with an equal affectation, and we made an eager conversation about bacon and sausages--for after that startling gleam of divergence we were both anxious to get back to the superficialities of life again. § i did not answer mary's letter for seven or eight days. during that period my mind was full of her to the exclusion of every other interest. i re-read all that she had to say many times, and with each reading the effect of her personality deepened. it was all so intensely familiar, the flashes of insight, the blazing frankness, the quick turns of thought, and her absurd confidence in a sort of sane stupidity that she had always insisted upon my possessing. and her unembarrassed affectionateness. her quick irregular writing seemed to bring back with it the changing light in her eyes, the intonations of her voice, something of her gesture.... i didn't go on discussing with myself whether we two ought to correspond; that problem disappeared from my thoughts. her challenge to me to justify myself took possession of my mind. that thrust towards self-examination was the very essence of her ancient influence. how did i justify myself? i was under a peculiar compulsion to answer that to her satisfaction. she had picked me up out of my work and accumulating routines with that demand, made me look at myself and my world again as a whole.... i had a case. i have a case. it is a case of passionate faith triumphing over every doubt and impossibility, a case real enough to understand for those who understand, but very difficult to state. i tried to convey it to her. i do not remember at all clearly what i wrote to her. it has disappeared from existence. but it was certainly a long letter. throughout this book i have been trying to tell you the growth of my views of life and its purpose, from my childish dreams and harbury attitudes to those ideas of human development that have made me undertake the work i do. it is not glorious work i know, as the work of great artists and poets and leaders is glorious, but it is what i find best suits my gifts and my want of gifts. greater men will come at last to build within my scaffoldings. in some summary phrasing i must have set out the gist of this. i must have explained my sense of the supreme importance of mental clarification in human life. all this is manifest in her reply. and i think too i did my best to tell her plainly the faith that was in me, and why life seemed worth while to me.... her second letter came after an interval of only a few days from the despatch of mine. she began abruptly. "i won't praise your letter or your beliefs. they are fine and large--and generous--like you. just a little artificial (but you will admit that), as though you had felt them _give_ here and there and had made up your mind they shouldn't. at times it's oddly like looking at the alps, the real alps, and finding that every now and then the mountains have been eked out with a plank and canvas earl's court background.... yes, i like what you say about faith. i believe you are right. i wish i could--perhaps some day i shall--light up and _feel_ you are right. but--but---- that large, _respectable_ project, the increase of wisdom and freedom and self-knowledge in the world, the calming of wars, the ending of economic injustice and so on and so on---- "when i read it first it was like looking at a man in profile and finding him solid and satisfactory, and then afterwards when i thought it all over and looked for the particular things that really matter to me and tried to translate it into myself--nothing is of the slightest importance in the world that one cannot translate into oneself--then i began to realize just how amazingly deficient you are. it was like walking round that person in profile and finding his left side wasn't there--with everything perfect on the right, down to the buttons. a kind of intellectual lorelei--sideways. you've planned out your understandings and tolerances and enquiries and clearings-up as if the world were all just men--or citizens--and nothing doing but racial and national and class prejudices and the exacting and shirking of labor, and you seem to ignore altogether that man is a sexual animal first--first, stephen, first--that he has that in common with all the animals, that it made him indeed because he has it more than they have--and after that, a long way after that, he is the labor-economizing, war-and feud-making creature you make him out to be. a long way after that.... "man is the most sexual of all the beasts, stephen. half of him, womankind, rather more than half, isn't simply human at all, it's specialized, specialized for the young, not only naturally and physically as animals are, but mentally and artificially. womankind isn't human, it's reduced human. it's 'the sex' as the victorians used to say, and from the point of view of the lex julia and the point of view of mr. malthus, and the point of view of biologists and saints and artists and everyone who deals in feeling and emotion--and from the point of view of all us poor specialists, smothered up in our clothes and restrictions--the future of the sex is the centre of the whole problem of the human future, about which you are concerned. all this great world-state of your man's imagination is going to be wrecked by us if you ignore us, we women are going to be the goths and huns of another decline and fall. we are going to sit in the conspicuous places of the world and _loot_ all your patient accumulations. we are going to abolish your offspring and turn the princes among you into undignified slaves. because, you see, specialized as we are, we are not quite specialized, we are specialized under duress, and at the first glimpse of a chance we abandon our cradles and drop our pots and pans and go for the vast and elegant side possibilities--of our specialization. out we come, looking for the fun the men are having. dress us, feed us, play with us! we'll pay you in excitement,--tremendous excitement. the state indeed! all your little triumphs of science and economy, all your little accumulations of wealth that you think will presently make the struggle for life an old story and the millennium possible--_we spend_. and all your dreams of brotherhood!--we will set you by the ears. we hold ourselves up as my little christian nephews--philip's boys--do some coveted object, and say _quis?_ and the whole brotherhood shouts '_ego!_' to the challenge.... back you go into individualism at the word and all your brotherhood crumbles to dust again. "how are you going to remedy it, how are you going to protect that great state of your dreams from this anti-citizenship of sex? you give no hint. "you are planning nothing, stephen, nothing to meet this. you are fighting with an army all looting and undisciplined, frantic with the private jealousies that centre about _us_, feuds, cuts, expulsions, revenges, and you are giving out orders for an army of saints. you treat us as a negligible quantity, and we are about as negligible as a fire in the woodwork of a house that is being built.... "i read what i have written, stephen, and i perceive i have the makings of a fine scold in me. perhaps under happier conditions----... i should certainly have scolded you, constantly, continually.... never did a man so need scolding.... and like any self-respecting woman i see that i use half my words in the wrong meanings in order to emphasize my point. of course when i write woman in all that has gone before i don't mean woman. it is a woman's privilege to talk or write incomprehensibly and insist upon being understood. so that i expect you already to understand that what i mean isn't that men are creative and unselfish and brotherly and so forth and that women are spoiling and going to spoil the game--although and notwithstanding that is exactly what i have written--but that humans are creative and unselfish et cetera and so forth, and that it is their sexual, egotistical, passionate side (which is ever so much bigger relatively in a woman than in a man, and that is why i wrote as i did) which is going to upset your noble and beautiful apple-cart. but it is not only that by nature we are more largely and gravely and importantly sexual than men but that men have shifted the responsibility for attraction and passion upon us and made us pay in servitude and restriction and blame for the common defect of the species. so that you see really i was right all along in writing of this as though it was women when it wasn't, and i hope now it is unnecessary for me to make my meaning clearer than it is now and always has been in this matter. and so, resuming our discourse, stephen, which only my sense of your invincible literalness would ever have interrupted, what are you going to do with us? "i gather from a hint rather than accept as a statement that you propose to give us votes. "stephen!--do you really think that we are going to bring anything to bear upon public affairs worth having? i know something of the contemporary feminine intelligence. justin makes no serious objection to a large and various circle of women friends, and over my little sitting-room fire in the winter and in my corners of our various gardens in the summer and in walks over the heather at martens and in scotland there are great talks and confessions of love, of mental freedom, of ambitions, and belief and unbelief--more particularly of unbelief. i have sometimes thought of compiling a dictionary of unbelief, a great list of the things that a number of sweet, submissive, value-above-rubies wives have told me they did not believe in. it would amaze their husbands beyond measure. the state of mind of women about these things, stephen, is dreadful--i mean about all these questions--you know what i mean. the bold striving spirits do air their views a little, and always in a way that makes one realize how badly they need airing--but most of the nicer women are very chary of talk, they have to be drawn out, a hint of opposition makes them start back or prevaricate, and i see them afterwards with their husbands, pretty silken furry feathery jewelled _silences_. all their suppression doesn't keep them orthodox, it only makes them furtive and crumpled and creased in their minds--in just the way that things get crumpled and creased if they are always being shoved back into a drawer. you have only to rout about in their minds for a bit. they pretend at first to be quite correct, and then out comes the nasty little courage of the darkness. sometimes there is even an apologetic titter. they are quite emancipated, they say; i have misunderstood them. their emancipation is like those horrid white lizards that grow in the kentucky caves out of the sunlight. they tell you they don't see why they shouldn't do this or that--mean things, underhand things, cheap, vicious, sensual things.... are there, i wonder, the same dreadful little caverns in men? i doubt it. and then comes a situation that really tries their quality.... think of the quandary i got into with you, stephen. and for my sex i'm rather a daring person. the way in which i went so far--and then ran away. i had a kind of excuse--in my illness. that illness! such a queer untimely feminine illness.... "we're all to pieces, stephen. that's what brought down rome. the women went to pieces then, and the women are going to pieces to-day. what's the good of having your legions in the grampians and marching up to philae, while the wives are talking treason in your houses? it's no good telling us to go back to the ancient virtues. the ancient virtues haven't _kept_. the ancient virtues in an advanced state of decay is what was the matter with rome and what is the matter with us. you can't tell a woman to go back to the spinning-wheel and the kitchen and the cradle, when you have power-looms, french cooks, hotels, restaurants and modern nurseries. we've overflowed. we've got to go on to a lot of new virtues. and in all the prospect before me--i can't descry one clear simple thing to do.... "but i'm running on. i want to know, stephen, why you've got nothing to say about all this. it must have been staring you in the face ever since i spent my very considerable superfluous energies in wrecking your career. because you know i wrecked it, stephen. i _knew_ i was wrecking it and i wrecked it. i knew exactly what i was doing all the time. i had meant to be so fine a thing for you, a mothering friend, to have that dear consecutive kindly mind of yours steadying mine, to have seen you grow to power over men, me helping, me admiring. it was to have been so fine. so fine! didn't i urge you to marry rachel, make you talk of her. don't you remember that? and one day when i saw you thinking of rachel, saw a kind of pride in your eyes!--suddenly i couldn't stand it. i went to my room after you had gone and thought of you and her until i wanted to scream. i couldn't bear it. it was intolerable. i was violent to my toilet things. i broke a hand-glass. your dignified, selfish, self-controlled mary _smashed_ a silver hand-mirror. i never told you that. you know what followed. i pounced on you and took you. wasn't i--a soft and scented hawk? was either of us better than some creature of instinct that does what it does because it must? it was like a gust of madness--and i cared, i found, no more for your career than i cared for any other little thing, for honor, for rachel, for justin, that stood between us.... "my dear, wasn't all that time, all that heat and hunger of desire, all that secret futility of passion, the very essence of the situation between men and women now? we are all trying most desperately to be human beings, to walk erect, to work together--what was your phrase?--'in a multitudinous unity,' to share what you call a common collective thought that shall rule mankind, and this tremendous force which seizes us and says to us: 'make that other being yours, bodily yours, mentally yours, wholly yours--at any price, no matter the price,' bars all our unifications. it splits the whole world into couples watching each other. until all our laws, all our customs seem the servants of that. it is the passion of the body swamping the brain; it's an ape that has seized a gun, a beautiful modern gun. here am i, justin's captive, and he mine, he mine because at the first escapade of his i get my liberty. here are we two, i and you, barred for ever from the sight of one another, and i and you writing--i at any rate--in spite of the ill-concealed resentment of my partner. we're just two, peeping through our bars, of a universal multitude. everywhere this prison of sex. have you ever thought just all that it means when every woman in the world goes dressed in a costume to indicate her sex, her cardinal fact, so that she dare not even mount a bicycle in knickerbockers, she has her hair grown long to its longest because yours is short, and everything conceivable is done to emphasize and remind us (and you) of the fundamental trouble between us? as if there was need of reminding! stephen, is there no way out of this? is there no way at all? because if there is not, then i had rather go back to the hareem than live as i do now imprisoned in glass--with all of life in sight of me and none in reach. i had rather justin beat me into submission and mental tranquillity and that i bore him an annual--probably deciduous--child. i can understand so well now that feminine attitude that implies, 'well, if i must have a master, then the more master the better.' perhaps that is the way; that nature will not let us poor humans get away from sex, and i am merely--what is it?--an abnormality--with whiskers of enquiry sprouting from my mind. yet i don't feel like that.... "i'm pouring into these letters, stephen, the concentrated venom of years of brooding. my heart is black with rebellion against my lot and against the lot of woman. i have been given life and a fine position in the world, i made one fatal blunder in marrying to make these things secure, and now i can do nothing with it all and i have nothing to do with it. it astounds me to think of the size of our establishments, stephen, of the extravagant way in which whole counties and great countries pay tribute to pile up the gigantic heap of wealth upon which we two lead our lives of futile entanglement. in this place alone there are fourteen gardeners and garden helps, and this is not one of our garden places. three weeks ago i spent a thousand pounds on clothes in one great week of shopping, and our yearly expenditure upon personal effect, upon our magnificence and our margins cannot be greatly less than forty-five thousand pounds. i walk about our house and gardens, i take one of the carriages or one of the automobiles and go to some large pointless gathering of hundreds and thousands and thousands of pounds, and we walk about and say empty little things, and the servants don't laugh at us, the butlers don't laugh at us, the people in the street tolerate us.... it has an effect of collective insanity.... you know the story of one of those dear barons of the cinque ports--a decent plumber-body from rye or winchelsea--one of the six--or eight--who claimed the privilege of carrying the canopy over the king"--she is speaking of king edward's coronation of course--"how that he was discovered suddenly to be speaking quite audibly to the sacred presence so near to him: 'it is very remarkable--we should be here, your majesty--very remarkable.' and then he subsided--happily unheard--into hopeless embarrassment. that is exactly how i feel, stephen. i feel i can't stand it much longer, that presently i shall splutter and spoil the procession.... "perhaps i don't properly estimate our position in the fabric, but i can't get away from the feeling that everything in social life leads up to this--to us,--the ridiculous canopy. if so, then the universe means--_nothing_; it's blowing great forms and shapes as a swamp blows bubbles; a little while ago it was megatheriums and plesiosauriums--if that's the name for them--and now it is country-houses and motor-cars and coronation festivals. and in the end--it is all nonsense, stephen. it is utter nonsense. "if it isn't nonsense, tell me what it is. for me at any rate it's nonsense, and for every intelligent woman about me--for i talk to some of them, we indulge in seditious whisperings and wit--and there isn't one who seems to have been able to get to anything solider than i have done. each of us has had her little fling at maternity--about as much as a washerwoman does in her odd time every two or three years--and that is our uttermost reality. all the rest,--trimmings! we go about the world, stephen, dressing and meeting each other with immense ceremony, we have our seasonal movements in relation to the ritual of politics and sport, we travel south for the budget and north for the grouse, we play games to amuse the men who keep us--not a woman would play a game for its own sake--we dabble with social reform and politics, for which few of us care a rap except as an occupation, we 'discover' artists or musicians or lecturers (as though we cared), we try to believe in lovers or, still harder, try to believe in old or new religions, and most of us--i don't--do our best to give the gratifications and exercise the fascinations that are expected of us.... "something has to be done for women, stephen. we are the heart of life, birth and begetting, the home where the future grows, and your schemes ignore us and slide about over the superficialities of things. we are spoiling the whole process of progress, we are turning all the achievements of mankind to nothingness. men invent, create, do miracles with the world, and we translate it all into shopping, into a glitter of dresses and households, into an immense parade of pride and excitement. we excite men, we stir them to get us and keep us. men turn from their ideas of brotherhood to elaborate our separate cages.... "i am justin's wife; not a thing in my heavens or my earth that is not subordinated to that. "something has to be done for women, stephen, something--urgently--and nothing is done until that is done, some release from their intolerable subjection to sex, so that for us everything else in life, respect, freedom, social standing, is entirely secondary to that. but what has to be done? we women do not know. our efforts to know are among the most desolating of spectacles. i read the papers of those suffrage women; the effect is more like agitated geese upon a common than anything human has a right to be.... that's why i turn to you. years ago i felt, and now i know, there is about you a simplicity of mind, a foolishness of faith, that is stronger and greater than the cleverness of any woman alive. you are one of those strange men who take high and sweeping views--as larks soar. it isn't that you yourself are high and sweeping.... no, but still i turn to you. in the old days i used to turn to you and shake your mind and make you think about things you seemed too sluggish to think about without my clamor. once do you remember at martens i shook you by the ears.... and when i made you think, you thought, as i could never do. think now--about women. "stephen, there are moments when it seems to me that this futility of women, this futility of men's effort _through_ women, is a fated futility in the very nature of things. we may be saddled with it as we are with all the animal infirmities we have, with appendixes and suchlike things inside of us, and the passions and rages of apes and a tail--i believe we have a tail curled away somewhere, haven't we? perhaps mankind is so constituted that badly as they get along now they couldn't get along at all if they let women go free and have their own way with life. perhaps you can't have _two_ sexes loose together. you must shut up one. i've a horrible suspicion that all these anti-suffrage men like lord cromer and sir ray lankester must know a lot about life that i do not know. and that other man sir something-or-other wright, who said plainly that men cannot work side by side with women because they get excited.... and yet, you know, women have had glimpses of a freedom that was not mischievous. i could have been happy as a lady abbess--i must have space and dignity, stephen--and those women had things in their hands as no women have things in their hands to-day. they came to the house of lords. but they lost all that. was there some sort of natural selection?... "stephen, you were made to answer my mind, and if you cannot do it nobody can. what is your outlook for women? are we to go back to seclusion or will it be possible to minimize sex? if you are going to minimize sex how are you going to do it? suppression? there is plenty of suppression now. increase or diminish the pains and penalties? my nephew, philip's boy, philip christian, was explaining to me the other day that if you boil water in an open bowl it just boils away, and that if you boil it in a corked bottle it bangs everything to pieces, and you have, he says, 'to look out.' but i feel that's a bad image. boiling-water isn't frantically jealous, and men and women are. but still suppose, suppose you trained people not to make such an awful fuss about things. _now_ you train them to make as much fuss as possible.... "oh bother it all, stephen! where's your mind in these matters? why haven't you tackled these things? why do you leave it to _me_ to dig these questions into you--like opening a reluctant oyster? aren't they patent? you up and answer them, stephen--or this correspondence will become abusive...." § it was true that i did ignore or minimize sexual questions as much as i could. i was forced now to think why i did this. that carried me back to those old days of passion, memories i had never stirred for many years. and i wrote to mary that there was indeed no reason but a reasonable fear, that in fact i had dismissed them because they had been beyond my patience and self-control, because i could not think very much about them without an egotistical reversion to the bitterness of my own case. and in avoiding them i was only doing what the great bulk of men in business and men in affairs find themselves obliged to do. they train themselves not to think of the rights and wrongs of sexual life, not to tolerate liberties even in their private imaginations. they know it is like carrying a torch into a powder magazine. they feel they cannot trust their own minds beyond the experience, tested usages, and conventions of the ages, because they know how many of those who have ventured further have been blinded by mists and clouds of rhetoric, lost in inexplicable puzzles and wrecked disastrously. there in those half explored and altogether unsettled hinterlands, lurk desires that sting like adders and hatreds cruel as hell.... and then i went on--i do not clearly remember now the exact line of argument i adopted--to urge upon her that our insoluble puzzles were not necessarily insoluble puzzles for the world at large, that no one soldier fights anything but a partial battle, and that it wasn't an absolute condemnation of me to declare that i went on living and working for social construction with the cardinal riddles of social order, so far as they affected her, unsolved. wasn't i at any rate preparing apparatus for that huge effort at solution that mankind must ultimately make? wasn't this dredging out and deepening of the channels of thought about the best that we could hope to do at the present time, seeing that to launch a keel of speculation prematurely was only to strand oneself among hopeless reefs and confusions? better prepare for a voyage to-morrow than sail to destruction to-day. whatever i put in that forgotten part of my letter was put less strikingly than my first admissions, and anyhow it was upon these that mary pounced to the disregard of any other point. "there you are," she wrote, with something like elation, "there is a tiger in the garden and you won't talk or think about it for fear of growing excited. that is my grievance against so much historical and political and social discussion; its hopeless futility because of its hopeless omissions. you plan the world's future, taking the women and children for granted, with egotistical sex, as you call it, a prowling monster upsetting everything you do...." but i will not give you that particular letter in its order, nor its successors. altogether she wrote me twenty-two letters, and i one or two more than that number to her, and--a thing almost inevitable in a discussion by correspondence--there is a lot of overlapping and recapitulation. those letters spread over a space of nearly two and a half years. again and again she insists upon the monstrous exaggeration of the importance of sex in human life and of the need of some reduction of its importance, and she makes the boldest experimental suggestions for the achievement of that end. but she comes slowly to recognize that there is a justification for an indirect attack, that sex and the position of women do not constitute the primary problem in that bristling system of riddles that lies like a hostile army across the path of mankind. and she realized too that through art, through science and literature and the whole enquiring and creative side of man's nature, lies the path by which those positions are to be outflanked, and those eternal-looking impossibles and inconceivables overcome. here is a fragment--saturated with the essence of her thought. three-quarters of her earlier letters are variations on this theme.... "what you call 'social order,' stephen, all the arrangements seem to me to be _built_ on subjection to sex even more than they are built (as you say) on labor subjection. and this is an age of release, you say it is an age of release for the workers and they know it. and so do the women. just as much. 'wild hopes' indeed! the workers' hopes are nothing to the women's! it is not only the workers who are saying let us go free, manage things differently so that we may have our lives relieved from this intolerable burthen of constant toil, but the women also are saying let us go free. they are demanding release just as much from their intolerable endless specialization as females. the tramp on the roads who won't work, the swindler and the exploiter who contrive not to work, the strikers who throw down their tools, no longer for twopences and sixpences as you say but because their way of living is no longer tolerable to them, and we women, who don't bear children or work or help; we are all in one movement together. we are part of the general strike. i have been a striker all my life. we are doing nothing--by the hundred thousand. your old social machine is working without us and in spite of us, it carries us along with it and we are sand in the bearings. i'm not a wheel, stephen, i'm grit. what you say about the reactionaries and suppressionists who would stifle the complaints of labor and crush out its struggles to be free, is exactly true about the reactionaries and suppressionists who would stifle the discussion of the woman's position and crush out her hopes of emancipation...." and here is a page of the peculiar doubt that was as characteristic of her as the quick changes of her eyes. it gives just that pessimistic touch that tempered her valiant adventurousness, that gave a color at last to the tragedy of her death.... "have you ever thought, stephen, that perhaps these (repressionist) people are righter than you are--that if the worker gets free he _won't_ work and that if the woman gets free she won't furl her sex and stop disturbing things? suppose she _is_ wicked as a sex, suppose she _will_ trade on her power of exciting imaginative men. a lot of these new women run with the hare and hunt with the hounds, beguile some poor innocent of a man to ruin them and then call in fathers, brother, husbands, friends, chivalry, all the rest of it, and make the best of both sides of a sex. suppose we go on behaving like that. after we've got all our emancipations. suppose that the liberation of common people simply means loafing, no discipline, nothing being done, an end to labor and the beginning of nothing to replace it, and that the liberation of women simply means the elaboration of mischief. suppose that it is so. suppose you are just tumbling the contents of the grate into the middle of the room. then all this emancipation _is_ a decay, even as conservative-minded people say,--it's none the less a decay because we want it,--and the only thing to stop it is to stop it, and to have more discipline and more suppression and say to women and the common people: 'back to the sterner virtues; back to servitude!' i wish i hadn't these reactionary streaks in my thoughts, but i have and there you are...." and then towards the second year her letters began to break away from her preoccupation with her position as a woman and to take up new aspects of life, more general aspects of life altogether. it had an effect not of her having exhausted the subject but as if, despairing of a direct solution, she turned deliberately to the relief of other considerations. she ceased to question her own life, and taking that for granted, wrote more largely of less tangible things. she remembered that she had said that life, if it was no more than its present appearances, was "utter nonsense." she went back to that. "one says things like that," she wrote "and not for a moment does one believe it. i grumble at my life, i seem to be always weakly and fruitlessly fighting my life, and i love it. i would not be willingly dead--for anything. i'd rather be an old match-woman selling matches on a freezing night in the streets than be dead. nothing nonsensical ever held me so tightly or kept me so interested. i suppose really i am full of that very same formless faith on which you rely. but with me it's not only shapeless but intangible.... i nibble at religion. i am immensely attracted. i stand in the doorway. only when they come out to persuade me to come in i am like a shy child and i go away. the temples beguile me and the music, but not the men. i feel i want to join _it_ and they say 'join _us_.' they are--like vergers. such small things! such dreadful little _arguing_ men! they don't let you come in, they want you to say they are right. all the really religious people seem to be outside nowadays and all the pretending, cheating, atheistical, vain and limited people within.... "but the beautiful things religion gives! the beauty! do you know saint paul's, stephen? latterly i have been there time after time. it is the most beautiful interior in all the world, so great, so sombrely dignified, so perfectly balanced--and filled with such wonderful music, brimming with music just as crystal water brims in a bowl of crystal. the other day i went there, up into a little gallery high up under the dome, to hear bach's passion music, the st. matthew passion. one hangs high and far above the little multitudes below, the white-robed singers, the white-robed musicians, ranks and ranks, the great organ, the rows and rows and rows of congregation, receding this way, that way, into the haze of the aisle and the transepts, and out of it all streams the sound and the singing, it pours up past you like a river, a river that rushes upward to some great sea, some unknown sea. the whole place is music and singing.... i hang on to the railings, stephen, and weep--i have to weep--and i wonder and wonder.... "one prays then as naturally as one drinks when one is thirsty and cold water comes to hand. i don't know whom i pray to, but i pray;--of course i pray. latterly, stephen, i have been reading devotional works and trying to catch that music again. i never do--definitely. never. but at times i put down the book and it seems to me that surely a moment ago i heard it, that if i sit very still in a moment i shall hear it again. and i can feel it is there, i know it is there, like a bat's cry, pitched too high for my ears. i know it is there, just as i should still know there was poetry somewhere if some poor toothless idiot with no roof to his mouth and no knowledge of any but the commonest words tried to read shelley to me.... "i wish i could pray with you, stephen; i wish i could kneel down somewhere with you of all people and pray." § presently our correspondence fell away. the gaps between our letters lengthened out. we never wrote regularly because for that there must be a free exchange upon daily happenings, and neither of us cared to dwell too closely on our immediate lives. we had a regard for one another that left our backgrounds vague and shadowy. she had made her appeal across the sundering silences to me and i had answered, and we had poured out certain things from our minds. we could not go on discussing. i was a very busy man now, and she did not write except on my replies. for a gap of nearly four months neither of us had anything to say in a letter at all. i think that in time our correspondence might have altogether died away. then she wrote again in a more familiar strain to tell me of certain definite changes of relationship and outlook. she said that the estrangement between herself and justin had increased during the past year; that they were going to live practically apart; she for the most part in the surrey house where her two children lived with their governesses and maids. but also she meant to snatch weeks and seasons for travel. upon that they had been disputing for some time. "i know it is well with the children," she wrote; "why should i be in perpetual attendance? i do nothing for them except an occasional kiss, or half-an-hour's romping. why should one pretend? justin and i have wrangled over this question of going away, for weeks, but at last feminine persistence has won. i am going to travel in my own fashion and see the world. with periodic appearances at his side in london and scotland. we have agreed at least on one thing, and that is upon a companion; she is to be my secretary in title, my moral guarantor in fact, and her name which is her crowning glory is stella summersley satchel. she is blonde, erect, huffy-mannered and thoroughly up to both sides of her work. i partly envy her independence and rectitude--partly only. it's odd and quite inconsistent of me that i don't envy her altogether. in theory i insist that a woman should not have charm,--it is our undoing. but when i meet one without it----! "i shall also trail a maid, but i guess that young woman will learn what it is to be left behind in half the cities of europe before i have done with her. i always lose my maids. they are so much more passive and forgettable than luggage--abroad that is. and justin usually in the old days used to remember about them. and his valet used to see after them,--a most attentive man. justin cannot, he says, have his wife abroad with merely a companion; people would talk; maid it must be as well. and so in a week or less i shall start, unusually tailor-made, for south germany and all that jolly country, companioned and maided. i shall tramp--on the feet god has given me--in stout boots. miss summersley satchel marches, i understand, like the british infantry but on a vegetarian 'basis,'--fancy calling your nourishment a 'basis'!--the maid and so forth by _Èilgut_...." § after the letter containing that announcement she wrote to me twice again, once from oban and then after a long interval from siena. the former was a scornfully minute description of the english at their holidays and how the conversation went among the women after dinner. "they are like a row of japanese lanterns, all blown out long ago and swinging about in a wind," she wrote--an extravagant image that yet conveys something of the large, empty, unilluminating effect of a sort of social intercourse very vividly. in the second letter she was concerned chiefly with the natural beauty of italy and how latterly she had thrice wept at beautiful things, and what this mystery of beauty could be that had such power over her emotions. "all up the hillside before the window as i write the herbage is thick with anemones. they aren't scattered evenly and anyhow amongst the other things but in little clusters and groups that die away and begin again, like the repetitions of an air in some musical composition. i have been sitting and looking at them for the better part of an hour, loving them more and then more, and the sweet sunlight that is on them and in among them.... how marvellous are these things, stephen! all these little exquisite things that are so abundant in the world, the gleaming lights and blossoms, the drifting scents! at times these things bring me to weeping.... i can't help it. it is as if god who is so stern and high, so terrible to all our appeals, took pity for a moment and saw fit to speak very softly and tenderly...." that was the last letter i was ever to have from her. chapter the eleventh the last meeting § in the summer of immediately after the coronation of king george there came one of those storms of international suspicion that ever and again threaten europe with war. it seems to have been brewed by some german adepts at welt-politik, those privileged makers of giant bombs who sit at the ears of foreign ministers suggesting idiotic wickedness, and it was brewed with a sublime ignorance of nearly every reality in the case. a german warship without a word of notice seized agadir on the atlantic coast of morocco, within the regions reserved to french influence; an english demand for explanations was uncivilly disregarded and england and france and presently germany began vigorous preparations for war. all over the world it was supposed that germany had at last flung down the gauntlet. in england the war party was only too eager to grasp what it considered to be a magnificent opportunity. heaven knows what the germans had hoped or intended by their remarkable coup; the amazing thing to note is that they were not prepared to fight, they had not even the necessary money ready and they could not get it; they had perhaps never intended to fight, and the autumn saw the danger disperse again into diplomatic bickerings and insincerely pacific professions. but in the high summer the danger had not dispersed, and in common with every reasonable man i found myself under the shadow of an impending catastrophe that would have been none the less gigantic and tragic because it was an imbecility. it was an occasion when everyone needs must act, however trivially disproportionate his action may be to the danger. i cabled gidding who was in america to get together whatever influences were available there upon the side of pacific intervention, and i set such british organs as i could control or approach in the same direction. it seemed probable that italy would be drawn into any conflict that might ensue; it happened that there was to be a conference of peace societies in milan early in september, and thither i decided to go in the not very certain hope that out of that assemblage some form of european protest might be evolved. that august i was very much run down. i had been staying in london through almost intolerably hot weather to attend a races congress that had greatly disappointed me. i don't know particularly now why i had been disappointed nor how far the feeling was due to my being generally run down by the pressure of detailed work and the stress of thinking about large subjects in little scraps of time. but i know that a kind of despair came over me as i sat and looked at that multicolored assembly and heard in succession the heavy platitudes of white men, the slick, thin cleverness of hindoos, the rich-toned florid rhetoric of negroes. i lost sight of any germ of splendid possibility in all those people, and saw all too plainly the vanity, the jealousy, the self-interests that show up so harshly against the professions of every altruistic movement. it seemed all such a windy business against the firm prejudices, the vast accumulated interests that grind race against race. we had no common purpose at all at that conference, no proposal to hold us together. so much of it was like bleating on a hillside.... i wanted a holiday badly, and then came this war crisis and i felt unable to go away for any length of time. even bleating it seemed to me was better than acquiescence in a crime against humanity. so to get heart to bleat at milan i snatched at ten days in the swiss mountains en route. a tour with some taciturn guide involving a few middling climbs and glacier excursions seemed the best way of recuperating. i had never had any time for switzerland since my first exile there years ago. i took the advice of a man in the club whose name i now forget--if ever i knew it, a dark man with a scar--and went up to the schwarzegg hut above grindelwald, and over the strahlegg to the grimsel. i had never been up into the central mass of the bernese oberland before, and i was amazed and extraordinarily delighted by the vast lonely beauty of those interminable uplands of ice. i wished i could have lingered up there. but that is the tragedy of those sunlit desolations; one may not stay; one sees and exclaims and then looks at a watch. i wonder no one has ever taken an arctic equipment up into that wilderness, and had a good healing spell of lonely exaltation. i found the descent from the strahlegg as much of a climb as i was disposed to undertake; for an hour we were coming down frozen snow that wasn't so much a slope as a slightly inclined precipice.... from the grimsel i went over the rhone glacier to the inn on the furka pass, and then, paying off my guide and becoming frankly a pedestrian, i made my way round by the schöllenen gorge to goeschenen, and over the susten joch to the susten pass and stein, meaning to descend to meiringen. but i still had four days before i went on to italy, and so i decided to take one more mountain. i slept at the stein inn, and started in the morning to do that agreeable first mountain of all, the titlis, whose shining genial head attracted me. i did not think a guide necessary, but a boy took me up by a track near gadmen, and left me to my siegfried map some way up the great ridge of rocks that overlooks the engstlen alp. i a little overestimated my mountaineering, and it came about that i was benighted while i was still high above the joch pass on my descent. some of this was steep and needed caution. i had to come down slowly with my folding lantern, in which a reluctant candle went out at regular intervals, and i did not reach the little inn at engstlen alp until long after eleven at night. by that time i was very tired and hungry. they told me i was lucky to get a room, only one stood vacant; i should certainly not have enjoyed sleeping on a billiard table after my day's work, and i ate a hearty supper, smoked for a time, meditated emptily, and went wearily to bed. but i could not sleep. usually, i am a good sleeper, but ever and again when i have been working too closely or over-exerting myself i have spells of wakefulness, and that night after perhaps an hour's heavy slumber i became thinly alert and very weary in body and spirit, and i do not think i slept again. the pain in my leg that the panther had torn had been revived by the day's exertion. for the greater part of my life insomnia has not been disagreeable to me. in the night, in the stillness, one has a kind of detachment from reality, one floats there without light, without weight, feeling very little of one's body. one has a certain disembodiment and one can achieve a magnanimity of thought, forgiveness and self-forgetfulness that are impossible while the body clamors upon one's senses. but that night, because, i suppose, i was so profoundly fatigued, i was melancholy and despondent. i could feel again the weight of the great beast upon me as he clawed me down and i clung--desperately, in that interminable instant before he lost his hold.... yes, i was extraordinarily wretched that night. i was filled with self-contempt and self-disgust. i felt that i was utterly weak and vain, and all the pretensions and effort of my life mere florid, fruitless pretensions and nothing more. i had lost all control over my mind. things that had seemed secondary before became primary, difficult things became impossible things. i had been greatly impeded and irritated in london by the manoeuvres of a number of people who were anxious to make capital out of the crisis, self-advertising people who wanted at any cost to be lifted into a position of unique protest.... you see, that unfortunate nobel prize has turned the advocacy of peace into a highly speculative profession; the qualification for the winner is so vaguely defined that a vast multitude of voluntary idealists has been created and a still greater number diverted from the unendowed pursuit of human welfare in other directions. such a man as myself who is known to command a considerable publicity is necessarily a prey to those moral _entrepreneurs_. all sorts of ridiculous and petty incidents had forced this side of public effort upon me, but hitherto i had been able to say, with a laugh or sigh as the case warranted, "so much is dear old humanity and all of us"; and to remember the great residuum of nobility that remained. now that last saving consideration refused to be credible. i lay with my body and my mind in pain thinking these people over, thinking myself over too with the rest of my associates, thinking drearily and weakly, recalling spites, dishonesties and vanities, feuds and absurdities, until i was near persuaded that all my dreams of wider human understandings, of great ends beyond the immediate aims and passions of common everyday lives, could be at best no more than the refuge of shy and weak and ineffective people from the failure of their personal lives.... we idealists are not jolly people, not honest simple people; the strain tells upon us; even to ourselves we are unappetizing. aren't the burly, bellowing fellows after all righter, with their simple natural hostility to everything foreign, their valiant hatred of everything unlike themselves, their contempt for aspiring weakness, their beer and lush sentiment, their here-to-day-and-gone-tomorrow conviviality and fellowship? good fellows! while we others, lost in filmy speculations, in moon-and-star snaring and the chase of dreams, stumble where even they walk upright.... you know i have never quite believed in myself, never quite believed in my work or my religion. so it has always been with me and always, i suppose, will be. i know i am purblind, i know i do not see my way clearly nor very far; i have to do with things imperfectly apprehended. i cannot cheat my mind away from these convictions. i have a sort of hesitation of the soul as other men have a limp in their gait. god, i suppose, has a need for lame men. god, i suppose, has a need for blind men and fearful and doubting men, and does not intend life to be altogether swallowed up in staring sight. some things are to be reached best by a hearing that is not distracted by any clearer senses. but so it is with me, and this is the innermost secret i have to tell you. i go valiantly for the most part i know, but despair is always near to me. in the common hours of my life it is as near as a shark may be near a sleeper in a ship; the thin effectual plank of my deliberate faith keeps me secure, but in these rare distresses of the darkness the plank seems to become transparent, to be on the verge of dissolution, a sense of life as of an abyssmal flood, full of cruelty, densely futile, blackly aimless, penetrates my defences.... i don't think i can call these stumblings from conviction unbelief; the limping man walks for all his limping, and i go on in spite of my falls. "though he slay me yet will i trust in him...." i fell into an inconsecutive review of my life under this light that touched every endeavor with the pale tints of failure. and as that flow of melancholy reflection went on, it was shot more and more frequently with thoughts of mary. it was not a discursive thinking about mary but a definite fixed direction of thought towards her. i had not so thought of her for many years. i wanted her, i felt, to come to me and help me out of this distressful pit into which my spirit had fallen. i believed she could. i perceived our separation as an irreparable loss. she had a harder, clearer quality than i, a more assured courage, a readier, surer movement of the mind. always she had "lift" for me. and then i had a curious impression that i had heard her voice calling my name, as one might call out in one's sleep. i dismissed it as an illusion, and then i heard it again. so clearly that i sat up and listened--breathless.... mixed up with all this was the intolerable uproar and talking of a little cascade not fifty yards from the hotel. it is curious how distressing that clamor of running water, which is so characteristic of the alpine night, can become. at last those sounds can take the likeness of any voice whatever. the water, i decided, had called to me, and now it mocked and laughed at me.... the next morning i descended at some late hour by swiss reckoning, and discovered two ladies in the morning sunlight awaiting breakfast at a little green table. one rose slowly at the sight of me, and stood and surveyed me with a glad amazement. § there she stood real and solid, a little unfamiliar in her tweeds and with her shining eyes intimate and unforgettable, as though i had never ceased to see them for all those intervening years. and bracing us both and holding back our emotion was, quite unmistakably, miss summersley satchel, a blonde business-like young woman with a stumpy nose very cruelly corrugated and inflamed by a pince-nez that savagely did much more than its duty by its name. she remained seated, tilting her chair a little, pushing herself back from the table and regarding me--intelligently. it was one of those moments in life when one is taken unawares. i think our common realization of the need of masking the reality of our encounter, the hasty search in our minds for some plausible face upon this meeting, must have been very obvious to the lady who observed us. mary's first thought was for a pseudonym. mine was to make it plain we met by accident. "it's mr.--stephen!" said mary. "it's you!" "dropped out of the sky!" "from over there. i was benighted and go there late." "very late?" "one gleam of light--and a yawning waiter. or i should have had to break windows.... and then i meet you!" then for a moment or so we were silent, with our sense of the immense gravity of this position growing upon us. a little tow-headed waiter-boy appeared with their coffee and rolls on a tray poised high on his hand. "you'll have your coffee out here with us?" said mary. "where else?" said i, as though there was no conceivable alternative, and told the tow-headed waiter. belatedly mary turned to introduce me to her secretary: "my friend miss summersley satchel. mr.--stephen." miss satchel and i bowed to each other and agreed that the lake was very beautiful in the morning light. "mr. stephen," said mary, in entirely unnecessary explanation, "is an old friend of my mother's. and i haven't seen him for years. how is mrs. stephen--and the children?" i answered briefly and began to tell of my climb down the titlis. i addressed myself with unnecessary explicitness to miss satchel. i did perhaps over-accentuate the extreme fortuitousness of my appearance.... from where i stood, the whole course of the previous day after i had come over the shoulder was visible. it seemed a soft little shining pathway to the top, but the dangers of the descent had a romantic intensification in the morning light. "the rule of the game," said i, "is that one stops and waits for daylight. i wonder if anyone keeps that rule." we talked for a time of mountains, i still standing a little aloof until my coffee came. miss summersley satchel produced that frequent and most unpleasant bye-product of a british education, an intelligent interest in etymology. "i wonder," she said, with a brow of ruffled omniscience and eyeing me rather severely with a magnified eye, "why it is _called_ titlis. there must be _some_ reason...." presently miss satchel was dismissed indoors on a transparent excuse and mary and i were alone together. we eyed one another gravely. perhaps all the more gravely because of the wild excitement that was quickening our pulse and breathing, and thrilling through our nerves. she pushed back the plate before her and put her dear elbows on the table and dropped her chin between her hands in an attitude that seemed all made of little memories. "i suppose," she said, "something of this kind was bound to happen." she turned her eyes to the mountains shining in the morning light. "i'm glad it has happened in a beautiful place. it might have been--anywhere." "last night," i said, "i was thinking of you and wanting to hear your voice again. i thought i did." "i too. i wonder--if we had some dim perception...." she scanned my face. "stephen, you're not much changed. you're looking well.... but your eyes--they're dog-tired eyes. have you been working too hard?" "a conference--what did you call them once?--a carnegieish conference in london. hot weather and fussing work and endless hours of weak grey dusty speeches, and perhaps that clamber over there yesterday was too much. it _was_ too much. in india i damaged a leg.... i had meant to rest here for a day." "well,--rest here." "with you!" "why not? now you are here." "but---- after all, we've promised." "it's none of our planning, stephen." "it seems to me i ought to go right on--so soon as breakfast is over." she weighed that with just the same still pause, the same quiet moment of lips and eyes that i recalled so well. it was as things had always been between us that she should make her decision first and bring me to it. "it isn't natural," she decided, "with the sun rising and the day still freshly beginning that you should go or that i should go. i've wanted to meet you like this and talk about things,--ten thousand times. and as for me stephen i _won't_ go. and i won't let you go if i can help it. not this morning, anyhow. no. go later in the day if you will, and let us two take this one talk that god himself has given us. we've not planned it. it's his doing, not ours." i sat, yielding. "i am not so sure of god's participation," i said. "but i know i am very tired, and glad to be with you. i can't tell you how glad. so glad---- i think i should weep if i tried to say it...." "three, four, five hours perhaps--even if people know. is it so much worse than thirty minutes? we've broken the rules already; we've been flung together; it's not our doing, stephen. a little while longer--adds so little to the offence and means to us----" "yes," i said, "but--if justin knows?" "he won't." "your companion?" there was the briefest moment of reflection. "she's discretion itself," she said. "still----" "if he's going to know the harm is done. we may as well be hung for a sheep as a lamb. and he won't know. no one will know." "the people here." "nobody's here. not a soul who matters. i doubt if they know my name.... no one ever talks to me." i sat in the bright sunshine, profoundly enervated and quite convinced, but still maintaining out of mere indolence a show of hesitation.... "you take the good things god sends you, stephen--as i do. you stay and talk with me now, before the curtain falls again. we've tired of letters. you stay and talk to me. "here we are, stephen, and it's the one chance that is ever likely to come to us in all our lives. we'll keep the point of honor; and you shall go to-day. but don't let's drive the point of honor into the quick. go easy stephen, old friend.... my dear, my dear! what has happened to you? have you forgotten? of course! is it possible for you to go, mute, with so much that we can say.... and these mountains and this sunlight!..." i looked up to see her with her elbows on the table and her hands clasped under her chin; that face close to mine, her dear blue eyes watching me and her lips a little apart. no other human being has ever had that effect upon me, so that i seem to feel the life and stir in that other body more than i feel my own. § from the moment when i confessed my decision to stay we gave no further thought to the rightfulness or wisdom of spending the next few hours together. we thought only of those hours. things lent themselves to us. we stood up and walked out in front of the hotel and there moored to a stake at the edge of the water was a little leaky punt, the one vessel on the engstlen see. we would take food with us as we decided and row out there to where the vast cliffs came sheer from the water, out of earshot or interference and talk for all the time we had. and i remember now how mary stood and called to miss satchel's window to tell her of this intention, and how i discovered again that exquisite slender grace i knew so well. you know the very rowing out from the shore had in it something sweet and incredible. it was as if we were but dreaming together and might at any moment awaken again, countless miles and a thousand things apart. i rowed slowly with those clumsy swiss oars that one must thrust forward, breaking the smooth crystal of the lake, and she sat sideways looking forward, saying very little and with much the same sense i think of enchantment and unreality. and i saw now for the first time as i watched her over my oars that her face was changed; she was graver and, i thought, stronger than the mary i had known. even now i can still doubt if that boat and lake were real. and yet i remember even minute and irrelevant details of the day's impressions with an extraordinary and exquisite vividness. perhaps it is that very luminous distinctness which distinguishes these events from the common experiences of life and puts them so above the quality of things that are ordinarily real. we rowed slowly past a great headland and into the bay at the upper end of the water. we had not realized at first that we could row beyond the range of the hotel windows. the rock that comes out of the lake is a clear dead white when it is dry, and very faintly tinted, but when it is wetted it lights warmly with flashes and blotches of color, and is seen to be full of the most exquisite and delicate veins. it splinters vertically and goes up in cliffs, very high and sculptured, with a quality almost of porcelain, that at a certain level suddenly become more rude and massive and begin to overhang. under the cliffs the water is very deep and blue-green, and runs here and there into narrow clefts. this place where we landed was a kind of beach left by the recession of the ice, all the rocks immediately about us were ice-worn, and the place was paved with ice-worn boulders. two huge bluffs put their foreheads together above us and hid the glacier from us, but one could feel the near presence of ice in the air. out between them boiled a little torrent, and spread into a hundred intercommunicating channels amidst the great pebbles. and those pebbles were covered by a network of marvellously gnarled and twisted stems bearing little leaves and blossoms, a network at once very ancient and very fresh, giving a peculiar gentleness and richness to the alpine severity that had dwarfed and tangled them. it was astounding that any plant could find nourishment among those stones. the great headland, with patches of yellowish old snow still lingering here and there upon its upper masses, had crept insensibly between us and the remote hotel and now hid it altogether. there was nothing to remind us of the world that had separated us, except that old and leaky boat we had drawn up upon the stones at the limpid water's edge. "it is as if we had come out of life together," she whispered, giving a voice to my thought. she sat down upon a boulder and i sat on a lower slab a yard or so away, and we looked at one another. "it's still unreal," she said. i felt awkward and at a loss as i sat there before her, as a man unused to drawing-rooms might feel in the presence of a strange hostess. "you are so _you_," i said; "so altogether my nearest thing--and so strange too, so far off, that i feel--shy.... "i'm shy," i repeated. "i feel that if i speak loudly all this will vanish...." i looked about me. "but surely this is the most beautiful place in the whole world! is it indeed in the world?" "stephen, my dear," she began presently, "what a strange thing life is! strange! the disproportions! the things that will not fit together. the little things that eat us up, and the beautiful things that might save us and don't save us, don't seem indeed to have any meaning in regard to ordinary sensible affairs.... this _beauty_.... "do you remember, stephen, how long ago in the old park you and i talked about immortality and you said then you did not want to know anything of what comes after life. even now do you want to know? you are too busy and i am not busy enough. i want to be sure, not only to know, but to know that it is so, that this life--no, not _this_ life, but that life, is only the bleak twilight of the morning. i think death--just dead death--after the life i have had is the most impossible of ends.... you don't want--particularly? i want to passionately. i _want_ to live again--out of this body, stephen, and all that it carves with it, to be free--as beautiful things are free. to be free as this is free--an exquisite clean freedom.... "i can't believe that the life of this earth is all that there is for us--or why should we ever think it strange? why should we still find the ordinary matter-of-fact things of everyday strange? we do--because they aren't--_us_.... eating. stuffing into ourselves thin slices of what were queer little hot and eager beasts.... the perpetual need to do such things. and all the mad fury of sex, stephen!... we don't live, we suffocate in our living bodies. they storm and rage and snatch; it isn't _us_, stephen, really. it can't be us. it's all so excessive--if it is anything more than the first furious rush into existence of beings that will go on--go on at last to quite beautiful real things. like this perhaps. to-day the world is beautiful indeed with the sun shining and love shining and you, my dear, so near to me.... it's so incredible that you and i must part to-day. it's as if--someone told me the sun was a little mad. it's so perfectly natural to be with you again...." her voice sank. she leant a little forward towards me. "stephen, suppose that you and i were dead to-day. suppose that when you imagined you were climbing yesterday, you died. suppose that yesterday you died and that you just thought you were still climbing as you made your way to me. perhaps you are dead up there on the mountain and i am lying dead in my room in this hotel, and this is the great beginning.... "stephen, i am talking nonsense because i am so happy to be with you here...." § for a time we said very little. then irregularly, disconnectedly, we began to tell each other things about ourselves. the substance of our lives seemed strangely objective that day; we had as it were come to one another clean out of our common conditions. she told me of her troubles and her secret weaknesses; we bared our spirits and confessed. both of us had the same tale of mean and angry and hasty impulses, both of us could find kindred inconsistencies, both had an exalted assurance that the other would understand completely and forgive and love. she talked for the most part, she talked much more than i, with a sort of wonder at the things that had happened to her, and for long spaces we did not talk at all nor feel the need of talking, and what seems very strange to me now, seeing that we had been impassioned lovers, we never kissed; we never kissed at all; i do not even remember that i thought of kissing her. we had a shyness between us that kept us a little apart, and i cannot remember that we ever touched one another except that for a time she took me and led me by the hand towards a little place of starry flowers that had drawn her eyes and which she wished me to see. already for us two our bodies were dead and gone. we were shy, shy of any contact, we were a little afraid of one another, there was a kind of awe between us that we had met again. and in that strange and beautiful place her fancy that we were dead together had a fitness that i cannot possibly convey to you. i cannot give you by any writing the light and the sweet freshness of that high desolation. you would need to go there. what was lovely in our talk, being said in that setting, would seem but a rambling discourse were i to write it down,--as i believe that even now i could write it down--word for word almost, every thought of it, so fresh does it remain with me.... my dear, some moments are eternal. it seems to me that as i write to tell you of this i am telling you not of something that happened two years ago but of a thing immortal. it is as if i and mary were together there holding the realities of our lives before us as though they were little sorry tales written in books upon our knees.... § it was still in the early afternoon that we came down again across the meandering ice-water streams to our old boat, and pushed off and rowed slowly out of that magic corner back to every-day again.... little we knew to what it was we rowed. as we glided across the water and rounded the headland and came slowly into view of the hotel again, mary was reminded of our parting and for a little while she was disposed to make me remain. "if you could stay a little longer," she said,--"another day? if any harm is done, it's done." "it has been beautiful," i said, "this meeting. it's just as if--when i was so jaded and discouraged that i could have put my work aside and despaired altogether,--some power had said, 'have you forgotten the friendship i gave you?' ... but we shall have had our time. we've met,--we've seen one another, we've heard one another. we've hurt no one...." "you will go?" "to-day. before sunset. isn't it right that i should go?" "stay," she whispered, with a light in her eyes. "no. i dare not." she did not speak for a long time. "of course," she said at last, "you're right. you only said--i would have said it for you if you had not. you're so right, stephen.... i suppose, poor silly little things, that if you stayed we should certainly begin making love to each other. it would be--necessary. we should fence about a little and then there it would be. no barrier--to stop us. and neither of us wants it to happen. it isn't what we want. you would become urgent, i suppose, and i should be--coquettish. in spite of ourselves that power would make us puppets. as if already we hadn't made love.... i could find it in my heart now.... stephen i could _make_ you stay.... "oh! why are we so tormented, stephen? in the next world we shall meet, and this will trouble us no longer. the love will be there--oh, the love will be there, like something that has at last got itself fully born, got itself free from some queer clinging seed-case.... "we shall be rid of jealousy, stephen, that inflammation of the mind, that bitterness, that pitiless sore, so that i shan't be tormented by the thought of rachel and she will be able to tolerate me. she was so sweet and wonderful a girl--with those dark eyes. and i've never done her justice--never. nor she me. i snatched you from her. i snatched you.... "someday we shall be different.... all this putting oneself round another person like a fence, against everyone else, almost against everything else; it's so wicked, so fierce. "it's so possible to be different. sometimes now, sometimes for long parts of a day i have no base passions at all--even in this life. to be like that always! but i can't see clearly how these things can be; one dreams of them in a kind of luminous mist, and if one looks directly at them, they vanish again...." § and at last we came to the landing, and moored the little boat and walked up the winding path to the hotel. the dull pain of separation was already upon us. i think we had forgotten miss summersley satchel altogether. but she appeared as we sat down to tea at that same table at which we had breakfasted, and joined us as a matter of course. conceivably she found the two animated friends of the morning had become rather taciturn. indeed there came a lapse of silence so portentous that i roused myself to effort and told her, all over again, as i realized afterwards, the difficulties that had benighted me upon titlis. then miss satchel regaled mary with some particulars of the various comings and goings of the hotel. i became anxious to end this tension and went into the inn to pay my bill and get my knapsack. when i came out mary stood up. "i'll come just a little way with you, stephen," she said, and i could have fancied the glasses of the companion flashed to hear the surname of the morning reappear a christian name in the afternoon.... "is that woman behind us safe?" i asked, breaking the silence as we went up the mountain-side. mary looked over her shoulder for a contemplative second. "she's always been--discretion itself." we thought no more of miss satchel. "this parting," said mary, "is the worst of the price we have to pay.... now it comes to the end there seem a thousand things one hasn't said...." and presently she came back to that. "we shan't remember this so much perhaps. it was there we met, over there in the sunlight--among those rocks. i suppose--perhaps--we managed to say something...." as the ascent grew steeper it became clear that if i was to reach the melch see inn by nightfall, our moment for parting had come. and with a "well," and a white-lipped smile and a glance at the argus-eyed hotel, she held out her hand to me. "i shall live on this, brother stephen," she said, "for years." "i too," i answered.... it was wonderful to stand and face her there, and see her real and living with the warm sunlight on her, and her face one glowing tenderness. we clasped hands; all the warm life of our hands met and clung and parted. i went on alone up the winding path,--it zigzags up the mountain-side in full sight of the hotel for the better part of an hour--climbing steadily higher and looking back and looking back until she was just a little strip of white--that halted and seemed to wave to me. i waved back and found myself weeping. "you fool!" i said to myself, "go on"; and it was by an effort that i kept on my way instead of running back to her again. presently the curvature of the slope came up between us and hid her altogether, hid the hotel, hid the lakes and the cliffs.... it seemed to me that i could not possibly see her any more. it was as if i knew that sun had set for ever. § i lay at the melch see inn that night, and rose betimes and started down that wild grey gorge in the early morning light. i walked to sachseln, caught an early train to lucerne and went on in the afternoon to como. and there i stayed in the sunshine taking a boat and rowing alone far up the lake and lying in it, thinking of love and friendship and the accidents and significance of my life, and for the most part not thinking at all but feeling, feeling the glow of our meeting and the finality of our separation, as one feels the clear glow of a sunset when the wind rises and the cold night draws near. everything was pervaded by the sense of her. just over those mountains, i thought, is mary. i was alone in my boat, but her presence filled the sky. it seemed to me that at any moment i could go to her. and the last vestige of any cloud between us for anything we had done or failed to do in these crises of distress and separation, had vanished and gone altogether. in the afternoon i wrote to rachel. i had not written to her for three days, and even now i told her nothing of my meeting with mary. i had not written partly because i could not decide whether i should tell her of that or not; in the end i tried to hide it from her. it seemed a little thing in regard to her, a thing that could not hurt her, a thing as detached from her life and as inconsecutive as a dream in my head. three days later i reached milan, a day before the formal opening of the peace congress. but i found a telegram had come that morning to the poste restante to banish all thought of my pacific mission from my mind. it came from paris and its blue ribbon of text ran: _"come back at once to london. justin has been told of our meeting and is resolved upon divorce. will do all in my power to explain and avert but feel you should know at once."_ there are some things so monstrously destructive to all we hold dear that for a time it is impossible to believe them. i remember now that as i read that amazing communication through--at the first reading it was a little difficult to understand because the italian operator had guessed at one or two of the words, no real sense of its meaning came to me. that followed sluggishly. i felt as one might feel when one opens some offensive anonymous letter or hears some preposterous threat. "what _nonsense_!" i said, faint-heartedly. i stood for a time at my bedroom window trying to shake this fact altogether off my mind. but it stayed, and became more and more real. suddenly with a start i perceived it was real. i had to do things forthwith. i rang the bell and asked for an _orario_. "i shan't want these rooms. i have to go back to england," i said. "yes,--i have had bad news." ... § "we've only got to explain," i told myself a hundred times during that long sleepless journey. the thundering wheels so close beneath my head echoed: "explain. oh yes! explain! explain! explain!" and something, a voice to which i would not listen, urged: "suppose they do not choose to believe what you explain." when i sat face to face with maxwell hartington, my solicitor, in his ink-splashed, dirty, yellow-grained room with its rows of black tin boxes, i could no longer ignore that possibility. maxwell hartington sat back in his chair after his fashion, listening to my story, breathing noisily through his open mouth, perspiring little beads and looking more out of condition than ever. i never knew a man so wine-sodden and so sharp-witted. "that's all very well, stratton," he said, "between ourselves. very unfortunate and all that sort of thing. but it doesn't satisfy justin evidently; and we've got to put a different look on it if we can, before we go before a jury: you see----" he seemed to be considering and rejecting unpalatable phrases "they won't understand." "but," i said, "after all--, a mere chance of the same hotel. there must be more evidence than that." "you spent the night in adjacent rooms," he said dryly. "adjacent rooms!" i cried. he regarded me for a moment with something bordering on admiration. "didn't you know?" he said. "no." "they've routed that out. you were sleeping with your two heads within a yard of one another anyhow. thirty-six you had, and she had thirty-seven." "but," i said and stopped. maxwell hartington's admiration gave place i think to a slight resentment at my sustained innocence. "and lady mary changed rooms with her secretary two nights before--to be near the vacant room. the secretary went into number on the floor below,--a larger room, at thirteen francs a day, and one not exposed to the early daylight...." he turned over a paper on his desk. "you didn't know, of course," he said. "but what i want to have"--and his voice grew wrathful--"is sure evidence that you didn't know. no jury on earth is going to believe you didn't know. no jury!---- why,"--his mask dropped--"no man on earth is going to believe a yarn like that! if that's all you have, stratton----" § our london house was not shut up--two servants were there on board-wages against the possibility of such a temporary return as i was now making--rachel was away with you three children at cromingham. i had not told her i was returning to london, and i had put up at one of my clubs. until i had had a second interview with maxwell hartington i still would not let myself think that it was possible that mary and i would fail with our explanations. we had the common confidence of habitually unchallenged people that our word would be accepted. i had hoped indeed to get the whole affair settled and abolished without anything of it coming to rachel's ears. then at my leisure i should be able to tell her exactly how things had come about. but each day made it clearer that things were not going to be settled, that the monstrous and the incredible was going to happen and that justin had set his mind implacably upon a divorce. my sense of complete innocence had already been shaken by maxwell hartington; i had come to perceive that we had been amazingly indiscreet, i was beginning to think we had been criminally indiscreet. i saw maxwell hartington for a second time, and it became clear to me i must abandon any hope of keeping things further from rachel. i took my luggage round to my house, to the great astonishment of the two servants,--they had supposed of course that i was in italy--and then went down on the heels of a telegram to rachel. i forget the wording of that telegram, but it was as little alarming as possible; i think i said something about "back in london for documents; shall try to get down to you." i did not specify any particular train or indeed state definitely that i was coming that day. i had never been to cromingham before. i went to the house you occupied on the esplanade and learnt that you were all upon the beach. i walked along the sea-wall scrutinizing the various bright groups of children and nursemaids and holiday people that were scattered over the sands. it was a day of blazing sunshine, and, between the bright sky and the silver drabs of the sand stretched the low levels of a sea that had its customary green-grey touched for once with something of the sapphire glow of the mediterranean. here and there were gay little umbrella tents or canvas shelters, and a bather or so and pink and white wading children broke the dazzling edge of foam. and i sought you with a kind of reluctance as though finding you would bring nearer the black irrational disaster that hung over us all. and when i found you at last you were all radiantly happy and healthy, the prettiest of families, and only your mother was touched with any gravity deeper than the joy of sunshine and sea. you and mademoiselle potin--in those days her ministrations were just beginning--were busy constructing a great sea-wall that should really and truly stop the advancing tide. rachel two was a little apart, making with infinite contentment an endless multitude of conical sand pies with her little tin pail. margaret, a pink inarticulate lump, scrabbled in the warm sand under jessica's care. your mother sat and watched you--thoughtfully. and before any of you knew that i was there my shadow fell across you all. you accepted my appearance when i ought to have been in italy with the unquestioning confidence with which you still take all my comings and goings. for you, italy, america, any place is just round the corner. i was kissed with affection but haste, and you got back to your sand-works as speedily as possible. i inspected rachel two's mounds,--she was giving them the names of her various aunts and uncles--and patted the crowing margaret, who ignored me. rachel had sprung to her feet and kissed me and now hovered radiant over me as i caressed you youngsters. it was all so warm, so real, that for an instant the dark threat that hung over us all vanished from my skies, to return with the force of a blow. "and what has brought you back?" said rachel. "i had expected a month of widowhood. what can have brought you back?" the dancing gladness in her eyes vanished swiftly as she waited for an answer to her question. she caught the note of tragedy from my face. "why have you come back from italy?" she asked in an altered voice. "rachel," i said taking her arm, with a desolating sense of the futility in my gesture of protection; "let us walk along the beach. i want to tell you something---- something rather complicated." "is there going to be war, stephen?" she asked abruptly. it seemed then that this question which merely concerned the welfare of a hundred million people or so and pain, destruction and disaster beyond measure, was the most trivial of digressions. "no," i said. "i haven't thought about the war." "but i thought--you were thinking of nothing else." "this has put it out of my head. it's something---- something disastrous to us." "something has happened to our money?" "i wish that was all." "then what is it?" her mind flashed out. "it has something to do with mary justin." "how did you know that?" "i guessed." "well. it is. you see--in switzerland we met." "you _met_!" "by accident. she had been staying at the hotel on engstlen alp." "you slept there!" cried rachel. "i didn't know she was in the hotel until the next day." "and then you came away!" "that day." "but you talked together?" "yes." "and for some reason---- you never told me, stephen! you never told me. and you met. but---- why is this, disaster?" "because justin knows and he means to divorce her--and it may be he will succeed...." rachel's face had become white, for some time she said nothing. then slowly, "and if he had not known and done that--i should never have known." i had no answer to make to that. it was true. rachel's face was very still, and her eyes stared at the situation laid bare to her. "when you began," she choked presently, "when she wrote--i knew--i felt----" she ceased for fear she might weep, and for a time we walked in silence. "i suppose," she said desperately at last, "he will get his divorce." "i am afraid he will." "there's no evidence--you didn't...." "no." "and i never dreamt----!" then her passion tore at her. "stephen my dear," she wept, "you didn't? you didn't? stephen, indeed you didn't, did you? you kept faith with me as a husband should. it was an accident--a real accident--and there was no planning for you to meet together. it was as you say? i've never doubted your word ever--i've never doubted you." well, at any rate i could answer that plainly, and i did. "and you know, stephen," she said, "i believe you. and i _can't_ believe you. my heart is tormented. why did you write to her? why did you two write and go on writing? and why did you tell me nothing of that meeting? i believe you because i can't do anything but believe you. it would kill me not to believe you in a thing that came so near to us. and yet, there it is, like a knife being twisted in my heart--that you met. should i have known of your meeting, stephen--ever? i know i'm talking badly for you.... but this thing strikes me suddenly. out of this clear beautiful sky! and the children there--so happy in the sunshine! i was so happy. so happy. with you coming.... it will mean shames and law-courts and newspapers, losses of friends, losses of money and freedom.... my mother and my people!... and you and all the work you do!... people will never forget it, never forgive it. they will say you promised.... if she had never written, if she had kept to her bargain----" "we should still have met." "stephen!... stephen, you must bear with me...." "this is a thing," i said, "that falls as you say out of the sky. it seemed so natural--for her to write.... and the meeting ... it is like some tremendous disaster of nature. i do not feel i have deserved it. it is--irrational. but there it is, little rachel of my heart, and we have to face it. whatever happens we have to go on. it doesn't alter the work we have to do. if it clips our wings--we have to hop along with clipped wings.... for you--i wish it could spare you. and she--she too is a victim, rachel." "she need not have written," said rachel. "she need not have written. and then if you had met----" she could not go on with that. "it is so hard," i said, "to ask you to be just to her--and me. i wish i could have come to you and married you--without all that legacy--of things remembered.... i was what i was.... one can't shake off a thing in one's blood. and besides--besides----" i stopped helplessly. § and then mary came herself to tell me there would be no divorce. she came to me unexpectedly. i had returned to town that evening, and next morning as i was sitting down in my study to answer some unimportant questions maxwell hartington had sent me, my parlormaid appeared. "can you speak," she asked, "to lady mary justin?" i stood up to receive my visitor. she came in, a tall dark figure, and stood facing me in silence until the door had closed behind her. her face was white and drawn and very grave. she stooped a little, i could see she had had no sleep, never before had i seen her face marked by pain. and she hesitated.... "my dear!" i said; "why have you come to me?" i put a chair for her and she sat down. for a moment she controlled herself with difficulty. she put her hand over her eyes, she seemed on the verge of bitter weeping.... "i came," she said at last.... "i came. i had to come ... to see you." i sat down in a chair beside her. "it wasn't wise," i said. "but--never mind. you look so tired, my dear!" she sat quite still for a little while. then she moved her arm as though she felt for me blindly, and i put my arms about her and drew her head to my shoulder and she wept.... "i knew," she sobbed, "if i came to you...." presently her weeping was over. "get me a little cold water, stephen," she said. "let me have a little cold water on my face. i've got my courage now again. just then,--i was down too low. yes--cold water. because i want to tell you--things you will be glad to hear." "you see, stephen," she said--and now all her self-possession had returned; "there mustn't be a divorce. i've thought it all out. and there needn't be a divorce." "needn't be?" "no." "what do you mean?" "i can stop it." "but how?" "i can stop it. i can manage---- i can make a bargain.... it's very sweet, dear stephen, to be here talking to you again." she stood up. "sit at your desk, my dear," she said. "i'm all right now. that water was good. how good cold things can be! sit down at your desk and let me sit here. and then i will talk to you. i've had such a time, my dear. ah!" she paused and stuck her elbows on the desk and looked me in the eyes. and suddenly that sweet, frank smile of hers swept like sunshine across the wintry desolation of her face. "we've both been having a time," she said. "this odd little world,--it's battered us with its fists. for such a little. and we were both so ridiculously happy. do you remember it, the rocks and the sunshine and all those twisted and tangled little plants? and how the boat leaked and you baled it out! and the parting, and how you trudged up that winding path away from me! a grey figure that stopped and waved--a little figure--such a virtuous figure! and then, this storm! this _awful_ hullabaloo! lawyers, curses, threats----. and stella summersley satchel like a fury of denunciation. what hatred that woman has hidden from me! it must have accumulated.... it's terrible to think, stephen, how much i must have tried her.... oh! how far away those alps are now, stephen! like something in another life.... and here we are!--among the consequences." "but,--you were saying we could stop the divorce." "yes. we can. i can. but i wanted to see you,--before i did. somehow i don't feel lonely with you. i had to see you.... it's good to see you." she looked me in the face. her tired eyes lit with a gleam of her former humor. "have you thought," she asked, "of all that will happen if there is a divorce?" "i mean to fight every bit of it." "they'll beat you." "we'll see that." "but they will. and then?" "why should one meet disaster half way?" "stephen!" she said; "what will happen to you when i am not here to make you look at things? because i shan't be here. not within reach of you.... there are times when i feel like a mother to you. never more than now...." and then with rapid touches she began to picture the disaster before me. she pictured the court and our ineffectual denials, she made me realize the storm of hostility that was bound to burst over us. "and think of me," she said. "stripped i shall be and outcast." "not while i live!" "but what can you do for me? you will have rachel. how can you stand by me? you can't be cruel to rachel. you know you can't be cruel to rachel. look me in the face, stephen; tell me. yes.... then how can you stand by me?" "somehow!" i cried foolishly and stopped. "they'll use me to break your back with costs and damages. there'll be those children of yours to think of...." "my god!" i cried aloud. "why do you torment me? haven't i thought enough of those things?... haven't i seen the ruin and the shame, the hopeless trap, men's trust in me gone, my work scattered and ended again, my children growing up to hear this and that exaggeration of our story. and you----. all the bravery of your life scattered and wasted. the thing will pursue us all, cling to us. it will be all the rest of our lives for us...." i covered my face with my hands. when i looked up, her face was white and still, and full of a strange tenderness. "i wouldn't have you, stephen--i wouldn't have you be cruel to rachel.... i just wanted to know--something.... but we're wandering. we're talking nonsense. because as i said, there need be no divorce. there will be no divorce at all. that's what i came to tell you. i shall have to pay--in a way, stephen.... not impossibly. don't think it is anything impossible...." then she bit her lips and sat still.... "my dear," i whispered, "if we had taken one another at the beginning...." but she went on with her own thoughts. "you love those little children of yours," she said. "and that trusting girl-wife.... of course you love them. they're yours. oh! they're so deeply--yours.... yours...." "oh my dear! don't torture me! i do love them. but i love you too." "no," she said, "not as you do them." i made a movement of protest. "no," she said, whitely radiant with a serenity i had never seen before in her face. "you love me with your brain. with your soul if you like. i _know_, my poor bleeding stephen!--aren't those tears there? don't mind my seeing them, stephen.... poor dear! poor dear!.... you love _them_ with your inmost heart. why should you mind that i see you do?... all my life i've been wrong, stephen, and now i know too late. it's the things we own we love, the things we buy with our lives.... always i have been hard, i've been a little hard.... stephen, my dear, i loved you, always i have loved you, and always i have tried to keep myself.... it's too late.... i don't know why i am talking like this.... but you see i can make a bargain now--it's not an impossible bargain--and save you and save your wife and save your children----" "but how?" i said, still doubting. "never mind how, stephen. don't ask me how now. nothing very difficult. easy. but i shall write you no more letters--see you--no more. never. and that's why i had to come, you see, why i was able to come to you, just to see you and say good-bye to you, and take leave of you, dear love that i threw away and loved too late...." she bit her lip and faced me there, a sweet flushed living thing, with a tear coursing down her cheek, and her mouth now firm and steady. "you can stop this divorce?" i said, "but how, mary?" "no, don't ask me how. at a price. it's a bargain. no, no! don't think that,--a bargain with justin, but not degrading. don't, my dear, let the thought of it distress you. i have to give earnests.... never, dear, never through all the dusty rest of life again will you and i speak together. never! even if we come face to face once more--no word...." "mary," i said, "what is it you have to do? you speak as if---- what is it justin demands?" "no! do not ask me that.... tell me--you see we've so much to talk about, stephen--tell me of all you are going to do. everything. because i've got to make a great vow of renunciation--of you. not to think again--not even to think of you again.... no, no. i'm not even to look for you in the papers any more. there's to be no tricks this time. and so you see i want to fill up my mind with you. to store myself with you. tell me your work is worth it--that it's not like the work of everyone. tell me, stephen--_that_. i want to believe that--tremendously. don't be modest now. that will be cruel. i want to believe that i am at last to do something that is worth doing, something not fruitless...." "are you to go into seclusion," i asked suddenly, "to be a nun----?" "it is something like that," she said; "very like that. but i have promised--practically--not to tell you that. tell me your soul, stephen, now. give me something i may keep in my mind through--through all those years of waiting...." "but where?" i cried. "what years of waiting?" "in a lonely place, my dear--among mountains. high and away. very beautiful, but lonely. a lake. great rocks.... yes,--like that place. so odd.... i shall have so much time to think, and i shall have no papers--no news. i mustn't talk to you of that. don't let me talk to you of that. i want to hear about this world, this world i am going to leave, and how you think you are going on fighting in the hot and dusty struggle--to make the world cool and kind and reasonable, to train minds better, to broaden ideas ... all those things you believe in. all those things you believe in and stick to--even when they are dull. now i am leaving it, i begin to see how fine it is--to fight as you want to fight. a tiresome inglorious lifelong fight.... you really believe, stephen?" § and then suddenly i read her purpose. "mary," i cried, and stood up and laid my hand upon her arm, "tell me what is it you mean to do. what do you mean to do?" she looked up at me defensively and for a moment neither of us spoke. "mary," i said, and could not say what was in my thoughts. "you are wrong," she lied at last.... she stood up too and faced me. i held her shoulder and looked into her eyes. the gong of my little clock broke the silence. "i must go, stephen," she said. "i did not see how the time was slipping by." i began to entreat her and she to deny. "you don't understand," she said, "you don't understand. stephen!--i had hoped you would understand. you see life,--not as i see it. i wanted--all sorts of splendid things and you--begin to argue. you are shocked, you refuse to understand.... no. no. take your hands off me, stephen dear, and let me go. let me go!" "but," i said, stupid and persistent, "what are you going to do?" "i've told you. stephen. i've told you. as much as i can tell you. and you think--this foolish thing. as though i could do that! stephen, if i promise, will you let me go?..." § my mind leaps from that to the moment in the afternoon, when torn by intolerable distresses and anxiety i knocked and rang, and again knocked at the door of the house she occupied in south street, with the intention of making one last appeal to her to live--if, indeed, it was death she had in mind. i had let her go from me and instantly a hundred neglected things had come into my head. i could go away with her, i could threaten to die with her; it seemed to me that nothing in all the world mattered if only i could thrust back the dark hand of death to which she had so manifestly turned. i knew, i knew all along that her extorted promise would not bind her. i knew and i let the faintest shadow of uncertainty weaken and restrain me. and i went to her too late. i saw instantly that i was too late when the door opened and showed me the scared face of a young footman whose eyes were red with tears. "are you doctor----?" he asked of my silence. "i want----" i said. "i must speak to lady mary." he was wordless for a moment. "she--she died, sir," he said. "she's died suddenly." his face quivered, he was blubbering. he couldn't say anything more; he stood snivelling in the doorway. for some moments i remained confronting him as if i would dispute his words. some things the mind contests in the face of invincible conviction. one wants to thrust back time.... chapter the twelfth the arraignment of jealousy § i sit here in this graciously proportioned little room which i shall leave for ever next week, for already your mother begins to pack for england again. i look out upon the neat french garden that i have watched the summer round, and before me is the pile of manuscript that has grown here, the story of my friendship and love for mary and of its tragic end, and of all the changes of my beliefs and purposes that have arisen out of that. i had meant it to be the story of my life, but how little of my life is in it! it gives, at most, certain acute points, certain salient aspects. i begin to realize for the first time how thin and suggestive and sketchy a thing any novel or biography must be. how we must simplify! how little can we convey the fullness of life, the glittering interests, the interweaving secondary aspects, the dawns and dreams and double refractions of experience! even mary, of whom i have labored to tell you, seems not so much expressed as hidden beneath these corrected sheets. she who was so abundantly living, who could love like a burst of sunshine and give herself as god gives the world, is she here at all in this pile of industrious inexpert writing? life is so much fuller than any book can be. all this story can be read, i suppose, in a couple of hours or so, but i have been living and reflecting upon and reconsidering the substance of it for over forty years. i do not see how this book can give you any impression but that of a career all strained upon the frame of one tragic relationship, yet no life unless it is a very short young life can have that simplicity. of all the many things i have found beautiful and wonderful, mary was the most wonderful to me, she is in my existence like a sunlit lake seen among mountains, of all the edges by which life has wrought me she was the keenest. nevertheless she was not all my life, nor the form of all my life. for a time after her death i could endure nothing of my home, i could not bear the presence of your mother or you, i hated the possibility of consolation, i went away into italy, and it was only by an enormous effort that i could resume my interest in that scheme of work to which my life is given. but it is manifest i still live, i live and work and feel and share beauty.... it seems to me more and more as i live longer, that most poetry and most literature and particularly the literature of the past is discordant with the vastness and variety, the reserves and resources and recuperations of life as we live it to-day. it is the expression of life under cruder and more rigid conditions than ours, lived by people who loved and hated more naïvely, aged sooner and died younger than we do. solitary persons and single events dominated them as they do not dominate us. we range wider, last longer, and escape more and more from intensity towards understanding. and already this astounding blow begins to take its place among other events, as a thing strange and terrible indeed, but related to all the strangeness and mystery of life, part of the universal mysteries of despair and futility and death that have troubled my consciousness since childhood. for a time the death of mary obscured her life for me, but now her living presence is more in my mind again. i begin to see that it is the reality of her existence and not the accidents of her end that matter most. it signifies less that she should have flung out of life when it seemed that her living could only have meant disaster to herself and to all she loved, than that all her life should have been hampered and restricted. through all her life this brave and fine and beautiful being was for the most part of her possibilities, wasted in a splendid setting, magnificently wasted if you will, but wasted. § it was that idea of waste that dominated my mind in a strange interview i had with justin. for it became necessary for me to see justin in order that we should stamp out the whispers against her that followed her death. he had made it seem an accidental death due to an overdose of the narcotic she employed, but he had not been able to obliterate altogether the beginnings of his divorce proceedings. there had been talk on the part of clerks and possible witnesses. but of all that i need not tell you here; what matters is that justin and i could meet without hatred or violence. i met a justin grey-haired and it seemed to me physically shrunken, more than ever slow-speaking, with his habit of attentive silences more marked and that dark scar spread beyond his brows. we had come to our parting, we had done our business with an affectation of emotional aloofness, and then suddenly he gripped me by the arm. "stratton," he said, "we two---- we killed her. we tore her to pieces between us...." i made no answer to this outbreak. "we tore her to pieces," he repeated. "it's so damned silly. one gets angry--like an animal." i became grotesquely anxious to assure him that, indeed, she and i had been, as they say, innocent throughout our last day together. "you were wrong in all that," i said. "she kept her faith with you. we never planned to meet and when we met----. if we had been brother and sister----. indeed there was nothing." "i suppose," he said, "i ought to be glad of that. but now it doesn't seem to matter very much. we killed her.... what does that matter to me now?" § and it is upon this effect of sweet and beautiful possibilities, caught in the net of animal jealousies and thoughtless motives and ancient rigid institutions, that i would end this writing. in mary, it seems to me, i found both womanhood and fellowship, i found what many have dreamt of, love and friendship freely given, and i could do nothing but clutch at her to make her my possession. i would not permit her to live except as a part of my life. i see her now and understand her better than when she was alive, i recall things that she said and wrote and it is clear to me, clearer perhaps than it ever was to her, that she, with her resentment at being in any sense property, her self-reliant thought, her independence of standard, was the very prototype of that sister-lover who must replace the seductive and abject womanhood, owned, mastered and deceiving, who waste the world to-day. and she was owned, she was mastered, she was forced into concealment. what alternative was there for her? what alternative is there for any woman? she might perhaps have kept her freedom by some ill-paid work and at the price of every other impulse in her swift and eager nature. she might have become one of those poor neuters, an independent woman.... life was made impossible for her and she was forced to die, according to the fate of all untimely things. she was destroyed, not merely by the unconsidered, undisciplined passions of her husband and her lover, but by the vast tradition that sustains and enforces the subjugation of her sex. what i had from her, and what she was, is but a mere intimation of all that she and i might have made of each other and the world. and perhaps in this story i have said enough for you to understand why mary has identified herself with something world-wide, has added to herself a symbolical value, and why it is i find in the whole crowded spectacle of mankind, a quality that is also hers, a sense of fine things entangled and stifled and unable to free themselves from the ancient limiting jealousies which law and custom embody. for i know that a growing multitude of men and women outwear the ancient ways. the blood-stained organized jealousies of religious intolerance, the delusions of nationality and cult and race, that black hatred which simple people and young people and common people cherish against all that is not in the likeness of themselves, cease to be the undisputed ruling forces of our collective life. we want to emancipate our lives from this slavery and these stupidities, from dull hatreds and suspicion. the ripening mind of our race tires of these boorish and brutish and childish things. a spirit that is like hers, arises and increases in human affairs, a spirit that demands freedom and gracious living as our inheritance too long deferred, and i who loved her so blindly and 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_gilbert parker_ the wife of sir isaac harman by h. g. wells new york the macmillan company all rights reserved copyright, , by h. g. wells. set up and electrotyped. published september, . contents chapter page i. introduces lady harman ii. the personality of sir isaac iii. lady harman at home iv. the beginnings of lady harman v. the world according to sir isaac vi. the adventurous afternoon vii. lady harman learns about herself viii. sir isaac as petruchio ix. mr. brumley is troubled by difficult ideas x. lady harman comes out xi. the last crisis xii. love and a serious lady the wife of sir isaac harman chapter the first introduces lady harman § the motor-car entered a little white gate, came to a porch under a thick wig of jasmine, and stopped. the chauffeur indicated by a movement of the head that this at last was it. a tall young woman with a big soft mouth, great masses of blue-black hair on either side of a broad, low forehead, and eyes of so dark a brown you might have thought them black, drooped forward and surveyed the house with a mixture of keen appreciation and that gentle apprehension which is the shadow of desire in unassuming natures.... the little house with the white-framed windows looked at her with a sleepy wakefulness from under its blinds, and made no sign. beyond the corner was a glimpse of lawn, a rank of delphiniums, and the sound of a wheel-barrow. "clarence!" the lady called again. clarence, with an air of exceeding his duties, decided to hear, descended slowly, and came to the door. "very likely--if you were to look for a bell, clarence...." clarence regarded the porch with a hostile air, made no secret that he thought it a fool of a porch, seemed on the point of disobedience, and submitted. his gestures suggested a belief that he would next be asked to boil eggs or do the boots. he found a bell and rang it with the needless violence of a man who has no special knowledge of ringing bells. how was _he_ to know? he was a chauffeur. the bell did not so much ring as explode and swamp the place. sounds of ringing came from all the windows, and even out of the chimneys. it seemed as if once set ringing that bell would never cease.... clarence went to the bonnet of his machine, and presented his stooping back in a defensive manner against anyone who might come out. he wasn't a footman, anyhow. he'd rung that bell all right, and now he must see to his engine. "he's rung so _loud!_" said the lady weakly--apparently to god. the door behind the neat white pillars opened, and a little red-nosed woman, in a cap she had evidently put on without a proper glass, appeared. she surveyed the car and its occupant with disfavour over her also very oblique spectacles. the lady waved a pink paper to her, a house-agent's order to view. "is this black strands?" she shouted. the little woman advanced slowly with her eyes fixed malevolently on the pink paper. she seemed to be stalking it. "this is black strands?" repeated the tall lady. "i should be so sorry if i disturbed you--if it isn't; ringing the bell like that--and all. you can't think----" "this is black _strand_," said the little old woman with a note of deep reproach, and suddenly ceased to look over her glasses and looked through them. she looked no kindlier through them, and her eye seemed much larger. she was now regarding the lady in the car, though with a sustained alertness towards the pink paper. "i suppose," she said, "you've come to see over the place?" "if it doesn't disturb anyone; if it is quite convenient----" "mr. brumley is _hout_," said the little old woman. "and if you got an order to view, you got an order to view." "if you think i might." the lady stood up in the car, a tall and graceful figure of doubt and desire and glossy black fur. "i'm sure it looks a very charming house." "it's _clean_," said the little old woman, "from top to toe. look as you may." "i'm sure it is," said the tall lady, and put aside her great fur coat from her lithe, slender, red-clad body. (she was permitted by a sudden civility of clarence's to descend.) "why! the windows," she said, pausing on the step, "are like crystal." "these very 'ands," said the little old woman, and glanced up at the windows the lady had praised. the little old woman's initial sternness wrinkled and softened as the skin of a windfall does after a day or so upon the ground. she half turned in the doorway and made a sudden vergerlike gesture. "we enter," she said, "by the 'all.... them's mr. brumley's 'ats and sticks. every 'at or cap 'as a stick, and every stick 'as a 'at _or_ cap, and on the 'all table is the gloves corresponding. on the right is the door leading to the kitching, on the left is the large droring-room which mr. brumley 'as took as 'is study." her voice fell to lowlier things. "the other door beyond is a small lavatory 'aving a basing for washing 'ands." "it's a perfectly delightful hall," said the lady. "so low and wide-looking. and everything so bright--and lovely. those long, italian pictures! and how charming that broad outlook upon the garden beyond!" "you'll think it charminger when you see the garding," said the little old woman. "it was mrs. brumley's especial delight. much of it--with 'er own 'ands." "we now enter the droring-room," she proceeded, and flinging open the door to the right was received with an indistinct cry suggestive of the words, "oh, _damn_ it!" the stout medium-sized gentleman in an artistic green-grey norfolk suit, from whom the cry proceeded, was kneeling on the floor close to the wide-open window, and he was engaged in lacing up a boot. he had a round, ruddy, rather handsome, amiable face with a sort of bang of brown hair coming over one temple, and a large silk bow under his chin and a little towards one ear, such as artists and artistic men of letters affect. his profile was regular and fine, his eyes expressive, his mouth, a very passable mouth. his features expressed at first only the naïve horror of a shy man unveiled. intelligent appreciation supervened. there was a crowded moment of rapid mutual inspection. the lady's attitude was that of the enthusiastic house-explorer arrested in full flight, falling swiftly towards apology and retreat. (it was a frightfully attractive room, too, full of the brightest colour, and with a big white cast of a statue--a venus!--in the window.) she backed over the threshold again. "i thought you was out by that window, sir," said the little old woman intimately, and was nearly shutting the door between them and all the beginnings of this story. but the voice of the gentleman arrested and wedged open the closing door. "i----are you looking at the house?" he said. "i say! just a moment, mrs. rabbit." he came down the length of the room with a slight flicking noise due to the scandalized excitement of his abandoned laces. the lady was reminded of her not so very distant schooldays, when it would have been considered a suitable answer to such a question as his to reply, "no, i am walking down piccadilly on my hands." but instead she waved that pink paper again. "the agents," she said. "recommended--specially. so sorry if i intrude. i ought, i know, to have written first; but i came on an impulse." by this time the gentleman in the artistic tie, who had also the artistic eye for such matters, had discovered that the lady was young, delightfully slender, either pretty or beautiful, he could scarcely tell which, and very, very well dressed. "i am glad," he said, with remarkable decision, "that i was not out. _i_ will show you the house." "'ow _can_ you, sir?" intervened the little old woman. "oh! show a house! why not?" "the kitchings--you don't understand the range, sir--it's beyond you. and upstairs. you can't show a lady upstairs." the gentleman reflected upon these difficulties. "well, i'm going to show her all i can show her anyhow. and after that, mrs. rabbit, you shall come in. you needn't wait." "i'm thinking," said mrs. rabbit, folding stiff little arms and regarding him sternly. "you won't be much good after tea, you know, if you don't get your afternoon's exercise." "rendez-vous in the kitchen, mrs. rabbit," said mr. brumley, firmly, and mrs. rabbit after a moment of mute struggle disappeared discontentedly. "i do not want to be the least bit a bother," said the lady. "i'm intruding, i know, without the least bit of notice. i _do_ hope i'm not disturbing you----" she seemed to make an effort to stop at that, and failed and added--"the least bit. do please tell me if i am." "not at all," said mr. brumley. "i hate my afternoon's walk as a prisoner hates the treadmill." "she's such a nice old creature." "she's been a mother--and several aunts--to us ever since my wife died. she was the first servant we ever had." "all this house," he explained to his visitor's questioning eyes, "was my wife's creation. it was a little featureless agent's house on the edge of these pine-woods. she saw something in the shape of the rooms--and that central hall. we've enlarged it of course. twice. this was two rooms, that is why there is a step down in the centre." "that window and window-seat----" "that was her addition," said mr. brumley. "all this room is--replete--with her personality." he hesitated, and explained further. "when we prepared this house--we expected to be better off--than we subsequently became--and she could let herself go. much is from holland and italy." "and that beautiful old writing-desk with the little single rose in a glass!" "she put it there. she even in a sense put the flower there. it is renewed of course. by mrs. rabbit. she trained mrs. rabbit." he sighed slightly, apparently at some thought of mrs. rabbit. "you--you write----" the lady stopped, and then diverted a question that she perhaps considered too blunt, "there?" "largely. i am--a sort of author. perhaps you know my books. not very important books--but people sometimes read them." the rose-pink of the lady's cheek deepened by a shade. within her pretty head, her mind rushed to and fro saying "brumley? brumley?" then she had a saving gleam. "are you _george_ brumley?" she asked,--"_the_ george brumley?" "my name _is_ george brumley," he said, with a proud modesty. "perhaps you know my little euphemia books? they are still the most read." the lady made a faint, dishonest assent-like noise; and her rose-pink deepened another shade. but her interlocutor was not watching her very closely just then. "euphemia was my wife," he said, "at least, my wife gave her to me--a kind of exhalation. _this_"--his voice fell with a genuine respect for literary associations--"was euphemia's home." "i still," he continued, "go on. i go on writing about euphemia. i have to. in this house. with my tradition.... but it is becoming painful--painful. curiously more painful now than at the beginning. and i want to go. i want at last to make a break. that is why i am letting or selling the house.... there will be no more euphemia." his voice fell to silence. the lady surveyed the long low clear room so cleverly prepared for life, with its white wall, its dutch clock, its dutch dresser, its pretty seats about the open fireplace, its cleverly placed bureau, its sun-trap at the garden end; she could feel the rich intention of living in its every arrangement and a sense of uncertainty in things struck home to her. she seemed to see a woman, a woman like herself--only very, very much cleverer--flitting about the room and making it. and then this woman had vanished--nowhither. leaving this gentleman--sadly left--in the care of mrs. rabbit. "and she is dead?" she said with a softness in her dark eyes and a fall in her voice that was quite natural and very pretty. "she died," said mr. brumley, "three years and a half ago." he reflected. "almost exactly." he paused and she filled the pause with feeling. he became suddenly very brave and brisk and businesslike. he led the way back into the hall and made explanations. "it is not so much a hall as a hall living-room. we use that end, except when we go out upon the verandah beyond, as our dining-room. the door to the right is the kitchen." the lady's attention was caught again by the bright long eventful pictures that had already pleased her. "they are copies of two of carpaccio's st. george series in venice," he said. "we bought them together there. but no doubt you've seen the originals. in a little old place with a custodian and rather dark. one of those corners--so full of that delightful out-of-the-wayishness which is so characteristic, i think, of venice. i don't know if you found that in venice?" "i've never been abroad," said the lady. "never. i should love to go. i suppose you and your wife went--ever so much." he had a transitory wonder that so fine a lady should be untravelled, but his eagerness to display his backgrounds prevented him thinking that out at the time. "two or three times," he said, "before our little boy came to us. and always returning with something for this place. look!" he went on, stepped across an exquisite little brick court to a lawn of soft emerald and turning back upon the house. "that dellia robbia placque we lugged all the way back from florence with us, and that stone bird-bath is from siena." "how bright it is!" murmured the lady after a brief still appreciation. "delightfully bright. as though it would shine even if the sun didn't." and she abandoned herself to the rapture of seeing a house and garden that were for once better even than the agent's superlatives. and within her grasp if she chose--within her grasp. she made the garden melodious with soft appreciative sounds. she had a small voice for her size but quite a charming one, a little live bird of a voice, bright and sweet. it was a clear unruffled afternoon; even the unseen wheel-barrow had very sensibly ceased to creak and seemed to be somewhere listening.... only one trivial matter marred their easy explorations;--his boots remained unlaced. no propitious moment came when he could stoop and lace them. he was not a dexterous man with eyelets, and stooping made him grunt and his head swim. he hoped these trailing imperfections went unmarked. he tried subtly to lead this charming lady about and at the same time walk a little behind her. she on her part could not determine whether he would be displeased or not if she noticed this slight embarrassment and asked him to set it right. they were quite long leather laces and they flew about with a sturdy negligence of anything but their own offensive contentment, like a gross man who whistles a vulgar tune as he goes round some ancient church; flick, flock, they went, and flip, flap, enjoying themselves, and sometimes he trod on one and halted in his steps, and sometimes for a moment she felt her foot tether him. but man is the adaptable animal and presently they both became more used to these inconveniences and more mechanical in their efforts to avoid them. they treated those laces then exactly as nice people would treat that gross man; a minimum of polite attention and all the rest pointedly directed away from him.... the garden was full of things that people dream about doing in their gardens and mostly never do. there was a rose garden all blooming in chorus, and with pillar-roses and arches that were not so much growths as overflowing cornucopias of roses, and a neat orchard with shapely trees white-painted to their exact middles, a stone wall bearing clematis and a clothes-line so gay with mr. brumley's blue and white flannel shirts that it seemed an essential part of the design. and then there was a great border of herbaceous perennials backed by delphiniums and monkshood already in flower and budding hollyhocks rising to their duty; a border that reared its blaze of colour against a hill-slope dark with pines. there was no hedge whatever to this delightful garden. it seemed to go straight into the pine-woods; only an invisible netting marked its limits and fended off the industrious curiosity of the rabbits. "this strip of wood is ours right up to the crest," he said, "and from the crest one has a view. one has two views. if you would care----?" the lady made it clear that she was there to see all she could. she radiated her appetite to see. he carried a fur stole for her over his arm and flicked the way up the hill. flip, flap, flop. she followed demurely. "this is the only view i care to show you now," he said at the crest. "there was a better one beyond there. but--it has been defiled.... those hills! i knew you would like them. the space of it! and ... yet----. this view--lacks the shining ponds. there are wonderful distant ponds. after all i must show you the other! but you see there is the high-road, and the high-road has produced an abomination. along here we go. now. don't look down please." his gesture covered the foreground. "look right over the nearer things into the distance. there!" the lady regarded the wide view with serene appreciation. "i don't see," she said, "that it's in any way ruined. it's perfect." "you don't see! ah! you look right over. you look high. i wish i could too. but that screaming board! i wish the man's crusts would choke him." and indeed quite close at hand, where the road curved about below them, the statement that staminal bread, the true staff of life, was sold only by the international bread shops, was flung out with a vigour of yellow and prussian blue that made the landscape tame. his finger directed her questioning eye. "_oh!_" said the lady suddenly, as one who is convicted of a stupidity and coloured slightly. "in the morning of course it is worse. the sun comes directly on to it. then really and truly it blots out everything." the lady stood quite silent for a little time, with her eyes on the distant ponds. then he perceived that she was blushing. she turned to her interlocutor as a puzzled pupil might turn to a teacher. "it really is very good bread," she said. "they make it----oh! most carefully. with the germ in. and one has to tell people." her point of view surprised him. he had expected nothing but a docile sympathy. "but to tell people _here_!" he said. "yes, i suppose one oughtn't to tell them here." "man does not live by bread alone." she gave the faintest assent. "this is the work of one pushful, shoving creature, a man named harman. imagine him! imagine what he must be! don't you feel his soul defiling us?--this summit of a stupendous pile of--dough, thinking of nothing but his miserable monstrous profits, seeing nothing in the delight of life, the beauty of the world but something that attracts attention, draws eyes, something that gives him his horrible opportunity of getting ahead of all his poor little competitors and inserting--_this!_ it's the quintessence of all that is wrong with the world;--squalid, shameless huckstering!" he flew off at a tangent. "four or five years ago they made this landscape disease,--a knight!" he looked at her for a sympathetic indignation, and then suddenly something snapped in his brain and he understood. there wasn't an instant between absolute innocence and absolute knowledge. "you see," she said as responsive as though he had cried out sharply at the horror in his mind, "sir isaac is my husband. naturally ... i ought to have given you my name to begin with. it was silly...." mr. brumley gave one wild glance at the board, but indeed there was not a word to be said in its mitigation. it was the crude advertisement of a crude pretentious thing crudely sold. "my dear lady!" he said in his largest style, "i am desolated! but i have said it! it isn't a pretty board." a memory of epithets pricked him. "you must forgive--a certain touch of--rhetoric." he turned about as if to dismiss the board altogether, but she remained with her brows very faintly knit, surveying the cause of his offence. "it isn't a _pretty_ board," she said. "i've wondered at times.... it isn't." "i implore you to forget that outbreak--mere petulance--because, i suppose, of a peculiar liking for that particular view. there are--associations----" "i've wondered lately," she continued, holding on to her own thoughts, "what people _did_ think of them. and it's curious--to hear----" for a moment neither spoke, she surveyed the board and he the tall ease of her pose. and he was thinking she must surely be the most beautiful woman he had ever encountered. the whole country might be covered with boards if it gave us such women as this. he felt the urgent need of some phrase, to pull the situation out of this pit into which it had fallen. he was a little unready, his faculties all as it were neglecting his needs and crowding to the windows to stare, and meanwhile she spoke again, with something of the frankness of one who thinks aloud. "you see," she said, "one _doesn't_ hear. one thinks perhaps----and there it is. when one marries very young one is apt to take so much for granted. and afterwards----" she was wonderfully expressive in her inexpressiveness, he thought, but found as yet no saving phrase. her thought continued to drop from her. "one sees them so much that at last one doesn't see them." she turned away to survey the little house again; it was visible in bright strips between the red-scarred pine stems. she looked at it chin up, with a still approval--but she was the slenderest loveliness, and with such a dignity!--and she spoke at length as though the board had never existed. "it's like a little piece of another world; so bright and so--perfect." there was the phantom of a sigh in her voice. "i think you'll be charmed by our rockery," he said. "it was one of our particular efforts. every time we two went abroad we came back with something, stonecrop or alpine or some little bulb from the wayside." "how can you leave it!" he was leaving it because it bored him to death. but so intricate is the human mind that it was with perfect sincerity he answered: "it will be a tremendous wrench.... i have to go." "and you've written most of your books here and lived here!" the note of sympathy in her voice gave him a sudden suspicion that she imagined his departure due to poverty. now to be poor as an author is to be unpopular, and he valued his popularity--with the better sort of people. he hastened to explain. "i have to go, because here, you see, here, neither for me nor my little son, is it life. it's a place of memories, a place of accomplished beauty. my son already breaks away,--a preparatory school at margate. healthier, better, for us to break altogether i feel, wrench though it may. it's full for us at least--a new tenant would be different of course--but for _us_ it's full of associations we can't alter, can't for the life of us change. nothing you see goes on. and life you know _is_ change--change and going on." he paused impressively on his generalization. "but you will want----you will want to hand it over to--to sympathetic people of course. people," she faltered, "who will understand." mr. brumley took an immense stride--conversationally. "i am certain there is no one i would more readily see in that house than yourself," he said. "but----" she protested. "and besides, you don't know me!" "one knows some things at once, and i am as sure you would--understand--as if i had known you twenty years. it may seem absurd to you, but when i looked up just now and saw you for the first time, i thought--this, this is the tenant. this is her house.... not a doubt. that is why i did not go for my walk--came round with you." "you really think you would like us to have that house?" she said. "_still?_" "no one better," said mr. brumley. "after the board?" "after a hundred boards, i let the house to you...." "my husband of course will be the tenant," reflected lady harman. she seemed to brighten again by an effort: "i have always wanted something like this, that wasn't gorgeous, that wasn't mean. i can't _make_ things. it isn't every one--can _make_ a place...." § mr. brumley found their subsequent conversation the fullest realization of his extremest hopes. behind his amiable speeches, which soon grew altogether easy and confident again, a hundred imps of vanity were patting his back for the intuition, the swift decision that had abandoned his walk so promptly. in some extraordinary way the incident of the board became impossible; it hadn't happened, he felt, or it had happened differently. anyhow there was no time to think that over now. he guided the lady to the two little greenhouses, made her note the opening glow of the great autumnal border and brought her to the rock garden. she stooped and loved and almost kissed the soft healthy cushions of pampered saxifrage: she appreciated the cleverness of the moss-bed--where there were droseras; she knelt to the gentians; she had a kindly word for that bank-holiday corner where london pride still belatedly rejoiced; she cried out at the delicate iceland poppies that thrust up between the stones of the rough pavement; and so in the most amiable accord they came to the raised seat in the heart of it all, and sat down and took in the whole effect of the place, and backing of woods, the lush borders, the neat lawn, the still neater orchard, the pergola, the nearer delicacies among the stones, and the gable, the shining white rough-cast of the walls, the casement windows, the projecting upper story, the carefully sought-out old tiles of the roof. and everything bathed in that caressing sunshine which does not scorch nor burn but gilds and warms deliciously, that summer sunshine which only northward islands know. recovering from his first astonishment and his first misadventure, mr. brumley was soon himself again, talkative, interesting, subtly and gently aggressive. for once one may use a hackneyed phrase without the slightest exaggeration; he was charmed... he was one of those very natural-minded men with active imaginations who find women the most interesting things in a full and interesting universe. he was an entirely good man and almost professionally on the side of goodness, his pen was a pillar of the home and he was hostile and even actively hostile to all those influences that would undermine and change--anything; but he did find women attractive. he watched them and thought about them, he loved to be with them, he would take great pains to please and interest them, and his mind was frequently dreaming quite actively of them, of championing them, saying wonderful and impressive things to them, having great friendships with them, adoring them and being adored by them. at times he had to ride this interest on the curb. at times the vigour of its urgencies made him inconsistent and secretive.... comparatively his own sex was a matter of indifference to him. indeed he was a very normal man. even such abstractions as goodness and justice had rich feminine figures in his mind, and when he sat down to write criticism at his desk, that pretty little slut of a delphic sibyl presided over his activities. so that it was a cultivated as well as an attentive eye that studied the movements of lady harman and an experienced ear that weighed the words and cadences of her entirely inadequate and extremely expressive share in their conversation. he had enjoyed the social advantages of a popular and presentable man of letters, and he had met a variety of ladies; but he had never yet met anyone at all like lady harman. she was pretty and quite young and fresh; he doubted if she was as much as four-and-twenty; she was as simple-mannered as though she was ever so much younger than that, and dignified as though she was ever so much older; and she had a sort of lustre of wealth about her----. one met it sometimes in young richly married jewesses, but though she was very dark she wasn't at all of that type; he was inclined to think she must be welsh. this manifest spending of great lots of money on the richest, finest and fluffiest things was the only aspect of her that sustained the parvenu idea; and it wasn't in any way carried out by her manners, which were as modest and silent and inaggressive as the very best can be. personally he liked opulence, he responded to countless-guinea furs.... soon there was a neat little history in his mind that was reasonably near the truth, of a hard-up professional family, fatherless perhaps, of a mercenary marriage at seventeen or so--and this.... and while mr. brumley's observant and speculative faculties were thus active, his voice was busily engaged. with the accumulated artistry of years he was developing his pose. he did it almost subconsciously. he flung out hint and impulsive confidence and casual statement with the careless assurance of the accustomed performer, until by nearly imperceptible degrees that finished picture of the two young lovers, happy, artistic, a little bohemian and one of them doomed to die, making their home together in an atmosphere of sunny gaiety, came into being in her mind.... "it must have been beautiful to have begun life like that," she said in a voice that was a sigh, and it flashed joyfully across mr. brumley's mind that this wonderful person could envy his euphemia. "yes," he said, "at least we had our spring." "to be together," said the lady, "and--so beautifully poor...." there is a phase in every relationship when one must generalize if one is to go further. a certain practice in this kind of talk with ladies blunted the finer sensibilities of mr. brumley. at any rate he was able to produce this sentence without a qualm. "life," he said, "is sometimes a very extraordinary thing." lady harman reflected upon this statement and then responded with an air of remembered moments: "isn't it." "one loses the most precious things," said mr. brumley, "and one loses them and it seems as though one couldn't go on. and one goes on." "and one finds oneself," said lady harman, "without all sorts of precious things----" and she stopped, transparently realizing that she was saying too much. "there is a sort of vitality about life," said mr. brumley, and stopped as if on the verge of profundities. "i suppose one hopes," said lady harman. "and one doesn't think. and things happen." "things happen," assented mr. brumley. for a little while their minds rested upon this thought, as chasing butterflies might rest together on a flower. "and so i am going to leave this," mr. brumley resumed. "i am going up there to london for a time with my boy. then perhaps we may travel-germany, italy, perhaps-in his holidays. it is beginning again, i feel with him. but then even we two must drift apart. i can't deny him a public school sooner or later. his own road...." "it will be lonely for you," sympathized the lady. "i have my work," said mr. brumley with a sort of valiant sadness. "yes, i suppose your work----" she left an eloquent gap. "there, of course, one's fortunate," said mr. brumley. "i wish," said lady harman, with a sudden frankness and a little quickening of her colour, "that i had some work. something--that was my own." "but you have----there are social duties. there must be all sorts of things." "there are--all sorts of things. i suppose i'm ungrateful. i have my children." "you have children, lady harman!" "i've _four_." he was really astonished, "your _own_?" she turned her fawn's eyes on his with a sudden wonder at his meaning. "my own!" she said with the faintest tinge of astonished laughter in her voice. "what else could they be?" "i thought----i thought you might have step-children." "oh! of course! no! i'm their mother;--all four of them. they're mine as far as that goes. anyhow." and her eye questioned him again for his intentions. but his thought ran along its own path. "you see," he said, "there is something about you--so freshly beginning life. so like--spring." "you thought i was too young! i'm nearly six-and-twenty! but all the same,--though they're mine,--_still_----why shouldn't a woman have work in the world, mr. brumley? in spite of all that." "but surely--that's the most beautiful work in the world that anyone could possibly have." lady harman reflected. she seemed to hesitate on the verge of some answer and not to say it. "you see," she said, "it may have been different with you.... when one has a lot of nurses, and not very much authority." she coloured deeply and broke back from the impending revelations. "no," she said, "i would like some work of my own." § at this point their conversation was interrupted by the lady's chauffeur in a manner that struck mr. brumley as extraordinary, but which the tall lady evidently regarded as the most natural thing in the world. mr. clarence appeared walking across the lawn towards them, surveying the charms of as obviously a charming garden as one could have, with the disdain and hostility natural to a chauffeur. he did not so much touch his cap as indicate that it was within reach, and that he could if he pleased touch it. "it's time you were going, my lady," he said. "sir isaac will be coming back by the five-twelve, and there'll be a nice to-do if you ain't at home and me at the station and everything in order again." manifestly an abnormal expedition. "must we start at once, clarence?" asked the lady consulting a bracelet watch. "you surely won't take two hours----" "i can give you fifteen minutes more, my lady," said clarence, "provided i may let her out and take my corners just exactly in my own way." "and i must give you tea," said mr. brumley, rising to his feet. "and there is the kitchen." "and upstairs! i'm afraid, clarence, for this occasion only you must--what is it?--let her out." "and no 'oh clarence!' my lady?" she ignored that. "i'll tell mrs. rabbit at once," said mr. brumley, and started to run and trod in some complicated way on one of his loose laces and was precipitated down the rockery steps. "oh!" cried the lady. "mind!" and clasped her hands. he made a sound exactly like the word "damnation" as he fell, but he didn't so much get up as bounce up, apparently in the brightest of tempers, and laughed, held out two earthy hands for sympathy with a mock rueful grimace, and went on, earthy-green at the knees and a little more carefully towards the house. clarence, having halted to drink deep satisfaction from this disaster, made his way along a nearly parallel path towards the kitchen, leaving his lady to follow as she chose to the house. "_you'll_ take a cup of tea?" called mr. brumley. "oh! _i'll_ take a cup all right," said clarence in the kindly voice of one who addresses an amusing inferior.... mrs. rabbit had already got the tea-things out upon the cane table in the pretty verandah, and took it ill that she should be supposed not to have thought of these preparations. mr. brumley disappeared for a few minutes into the house. he returned with a conscious relief on his face, clean hands, brushed knees, and his boots securely laced. he found lady harman already pouring out tea. "you see," she said, to excuse this pleasant enterprise on her part, "my husband has to be met at the station with the car.... and of course he has no idea----" she left what it was of which sir isaac had no idea to the groping speculations of mr. brumley. § that evening mr. brumley was quite unable to work. his mind was full of this beautiful dark lady who had come so unexpectedly into his world. perhaps there are such things as premonitions. at any rate he had an altogether disproportionate sense of the significance of the afternoon's adventure,--which after all was a very small adventure indeed. a mere talk. his mind refused to leave her, her black furry slenderness, her dark trustful eyes, the sweet firmness of her perfect lips, her appealing simplicity that was yet somehow compatible with the completest self-possession. he went over the incident of the board again and again, scraping his memory for any lurking crumb of detail as a starving man might scrape an insufficient plate. her dignity, her gracious frank forgiveness; no queen alive in these days could have touched her.... but it wasn't a mere elaborate admiration. there was something about her, about the quality of their meeting. most people know that sort of intimation. this person, it says, so fine, so brave, so distant still in so many splendid and impressive qualities, is yet in ways as yet undefined and unexplored, subtly and abundantly--for _you_. it was that made all her novelty and distinction and high quality and beauty so dominating among mr. brumley's thoughts. without that his interest might have been almost entirely--academic. but there was woven all through her the hints of an imaginable alliance, with _us_, with the things that are brumley, with all that makes beautiful little cottages and resents advertisements in lovely places, with us as against something over there lurking behind that board, something else, something out of which she came. he vaguely adumbrated what it was out of which she came. a closed narrow life--with horrid vast enviable quantities of money. a life, could one use the word _vulgar_?--so that carpaccio, della robbia, old furniture, a garden unostentatiously perfect, and the atmosphere of _belles-lettres_, seemed things of another more desirable world. (she had never been abroad.) a world, too, that would be so willing, so happy to enfold her, furs, funds, freshness--everything. and all this was somehow animated by the stirring warmth in the june weather, for spring raised the sap in mr. brumley as well as in his trees, had been a restless time for him all his life. this spring particularly had sensitized him, and now a light had shone. he was so unable to work that for twenty minutes he sat over a pleasant little essay on shakespear's garden that by means of a concordance and his natural aptitude he was writing for the book of the national shakespear theatre, without adding a single fancy to its elegant playfulness. then he decided he needed his afternoon's walk after all, and he took cap and stick and went out, and presently found himself surveying that yellow and blue board and seeing it from an entirely new point of view.... it seemed to him that he hadn't made the best use of his conversational opportunities, and for a time this troubled him.... toward the twilight he was walking along the path that runs through the heather along the edge of the rusty dark ironstone lake opposite the pine-woods. he spoke his thoughts aloud to the discreet bat that flitted about him. "i wonder," he said, "whether i shall ever set eyes on her again...." in the small hours when he ought to have been fast asleep he decided she would certainly take the house, and that he would see her again quite a number of times. a long tangle of unavoidable detail for discussion might be improvised by an ingenious man. and the rest of that waking interval passed in such inventions, which became more and more vague and magnificent and familiar as mr. brumley lapsed into slumber again.... next day the garden essay was still neglected, and he wrote a pretty vague little song about an earthly mourner and a fresh presence that set him thinking of the story of persephone and how she passed in the springtime up from the shadows again, blessing as she passed.... he pulled himself together about midday, cycled over to gorshott for lunch at the clubhouse and a round with horace toomer in the afternoon, re-read the poem after tea, decided it was poor, tore it up and got himself down to his little fantasy about shakespear's garden for a good two hours before supper. it was a sketch of that fortunate poet (whose definitive immortality is now being assured by an influential committee) walking round his stratford garden with his daughter, quoting himself copiously with an accuracy and inappropriateness that reflected more credit upon his heart than upon his head, and saying in addition many distinctively brumley things. when mrs. rabbit, with a solicitude acquired from the late mrs. brumley, asked him how he had got on with his work--the sight of verse on his paper had made her anxious--he could answer quite truthfully, "like a house afire." chapter the second the personality of sir isaac § it is to be remarked that two facts, usually esteemed as supremely important in the life of a woman, do not seem to have affected mr. brumley's state of mind nearly so much as quite trivial personal details about lady harman. the first of these facts was the existence of the lady's four children, and the second, sir isaac. mr. brumley did not think very much of either of these two facts; if he had they would have spoilt the portrait in his mind; and when he did think of them it was chiefly to think how remarkably little they were necessary to that picture's completeness. he spent some little time however trying to recall exactly what it was she had said about her children. he couldn't now succeed in reproducing her words, if indeed it had been by anything so explicit as words that she had conveyed to him that she didn't feel her children were altogether hers. "incidental results of the collapse of her girlhood," tried mr. brumley, "when she married harman." expensive nurses, governesses--the best that money without prestige or training could buy. and then probably a mother-in-law. and as for harman----? there mr. brumley's mind desisted for sheer lack of material. given this lady and that board and his general impression of harman's refreshment and confectionery activity--the data were insufficient. a commonplace man no doubt, a tradesman, energetic perhaps and certainly a little brassy, successful by the chances of that economic revolution which everywhere replaces the isolated shop by the syndicated enterprise, irrationally conceited about it; a man perhaps ultimately to be pitied--with this young goddess finding herself.... mr. brumley's mind sat down comfortably to the more congenial theme of a young goddess finding herself, and it was only very gradually in the course of several days that the personality of sir isaac began to assume its proper importance in the scheme of his imaginings. § in the afternoon as he went round the links with horace toomer he got some definite lights upon sir isaac. his mind was so full of lady harman that he couldn't but talk of her visit. "i've a possible tenant for my cottage," he said as he and toomer, full of the sunny contentment of english gentlemen who had played a proper game in a proper manner, strolled back towards the clubhouse. "that man harman." "not the international stores and staminal bread man." "yes. odd. considering my hatred of his board." "he ought to pay--anyhow," said toomer. "they say he has a pretty wife and keeps her shut up." "she came," said brumley, neglecting to add the trifling fact that she had come alone. "pretty?" "charming, i thought." "he's jealous of her. someone was saying that the chauffeur has orders not to take her into london--only for trips in the country. they live in a big ugly house i'm told on putney hill. did she in any way _look_--as though----?" "not in the least. if she isn't an absolutely straight young woman i've never set eyes on one." "_he_," said toomer, "is a disgusting creature." "morally?" "no, but--generally. spends his life ruining little tradesmen, for the fun of the thing. he's three parts an invalid with some obscure kidney disease. sometimes he spends whole days in bed, drinking contrexéville water and planning the bankruptcy of decent men.... so the party made a knight of him." "a party must have funds, toomer." "he didn't pay nearly enough. blapton is an idiot with the honours. when it isn't mrs. blapton. what can you expect when ---- ----" (but here toomer became libellous.) toomer was an interesting type. he had a disagreeable disposition profoundly modified by a public school and university training. two antagonistic forces made him. he was the spirit of scurrility incarnate, that was, as people say, innate; and by virtue of those moulding forces he was doing his best to be an english gentleman. that mysterious impulse which compels the young male to make objectionable imputations against seemly lives and to write rare inelegant words upon clean and decent things burnt almost intolerably within him, and equally powerful now was the gross craving he had acquired for personal association with all that is prominent, all that is successful, all that is of good report. he had found his resultant in the censorious defence of established things. he conducted the _british critic_, attacking with a merciless energy all that was new, all that was critical, all those fresh and noble tentatives that admit of unsavoury interpretations, and when the urgent yahoo in him carried him below the pretentious dignity of his accustomed organ he would squirt out his bitterness in a little sham facetious bookstall volume with a bright cover and quaint woodcuts, in which just as many prominent people as possible were mentioned by name and a sauce of general absurdity could be employed to cover and, if need be, excuse particular libels. so he managed to relieve himself and get along. harman was just on the border-line of the class he considered himself free to revile. harman was an outsider and aggressive and new, one of mrs. blapton's knights, and of no particular weight in society; so far he was fair game; but he was not so new as he had been, he was almost through with the running of the toomer gauntlet, he had a tremendous lot of money and it was with a modified vehemence that the distinguished journalist and humourist expatiated on his offensiveness to mr. brumley. he talked in a gentle, rather weary voice, that came through a moustache like a fringe of light tobacco. "personally i've little against the man. a wife too young for him and jealously guarded, but that's all to his credit. nowadays. if it wasn't for his blatancy in his business.... and the knighthood.... i suppose he can't resist taking anything he can get. bread made by wholesale and distributed like a newspaper can't, i feel, be the same thing as the loaf of your honest old-fashioned baker--each loaf made with individual attention--out of wholesome english flour--hand-ground--with a personal touch for each customer. still, everything drifts on to these hugger-mugger large enterprises; chicago spreads over the world. one thing goes after another, tobacco, tea, bacon, drugs, bookselling. decent homes destroyed right and left. not harman's affair, i suppose. the girls in his london tea-shops have of course to supplement their wages by prostitution--probably don't object to that nowadays considering the novels we have. and his effect on the landscape----until they stopped him he was trying very hard to get shakespear's cliff at dover. he did for a time have the toad rock at tunbridge. still"--something like a sigh escaped from toomer,--"his private life appears to be almost as blameless as anybody's can be.... thanks no doubt to his defective health. i made the most careful enquiries when his knighthood was first discussed. someone has to. before his marriage he seems to have lived at home with his mother. at highbury. very quietly and inexpensively." "then he's not the conventional vulgarian?" "much more of the rockefeller type. bad health, great concentration, organizing power.... applied of course to a narrower range of business.... i'm glad i'm not a small confectioner in a town he wants to take up." "he's--hard?" "merciless. hasn't the beginnings of an idea of fair play.... none at all.... no human give or take.... are you going to have tea here, or are you walking back now?" § it was fully a week before mr. brumley heard anything more of lady harman. he began to fear that this shining furry presence would glorify black strand no more. then came a telegram that filled him with the liveliest anticipations. it was worded: "coming see cottage saturday afternoon harman...." on saturday morning mr. brumley dressed with an apparent ease and unusual care.... he worked rather discursively before lunch. his mind was busy picking up the ends of their previous conversation and going on with them to all sorts of bright knots, bows and elegant cats' cradling. he planned openings that might give her tempting opportunities of confidences if she wished to confide, and artless remarks and questions that would make for self-betrayal if she didn't. and he thought of her, he thought of her imaginatively, this secluded rare thing so happily come to him, who was so young, so frank and fresh and so unhappily married (he was sure) to a husband at least happily mortal. yes, dear reader, even on that opening morning mr. brumley's imagination, trained very largely upon victorian literature and _belles-lettres_, leapt forward to the very ending of this story.... we, of course, do nothing of the sort, our lot is to follow a more pedestrian route.... he lapsed into a vague series of meditations, slower perhaps but essentially similar, after his temperate palatable lunch. he was apprised of the arrival of his visitor by the sudden indignant yaup followed by the general subdued uproar of a motor-car outside the front door, even before clarence, this time amazingly prompt, assaulted the bell. then the whole house was like that poem by edgar allan poe, one magnificent texture of clangour. at the first toot of the horn mr. brumley had moved swiftly into the bay, and screened partly by the life-size venus of milo that stood in the bay window, and partly by the artistic curtains, surveyed the glittering vehicle. he was first aware of a vast fur coat enclosing a lean grey-headed obstinate-looking man with a diabetic complexion who was fumbling with the door of the car and preventing clarence's assistance. mr. brumley was able to remark that the gentleman's nose projected to a sharpened point, and that his thin-lipped mouth was all awry and had a kind of habitual compression, the while that his eyes sought eagerly for the other occupant of the car. she was unaccountably invisible. could it be that that hood really concealed her? could it be?... the white-faced gentleman descended, relieved himself tediously of the vast fur coat, handed it to clarence and turned to the house. reverentially clarence placed the coat within the automobile and closed the door. still the protesting mind of mr. brumley refused to believe!... he heard the house-door open and mrs. rabbit in colloquy with a flat masculine voice. he heard his own name demanded and conceded. then a silence, not the faintest suggestion of a feminine rustle, and then the sound of mrs. rabbit at the door-handle. conviction stormed the last fastness of the disappointed author's mind. "oh _damn_!" he shouted with extreme fervour. he had never imagined it was possible that sir isaac could come alone. § but the house had to be let, and it had to be let to sir isaac harman. in another moment an amiable though distinguished man of letters was in the hall interviewing the great _entrepreneur_. the latter gentleman was perhaps three inches shorter than mr. brumley, his hair was grey-shot brown, his face clean-shaven, his features had a thin irregularity, and he was dressed in a neat brown suit with a necktie very exactly matching it. "sir isaac harman?" said mr. brumley with a note of gratification. "that's it," said sir isaac. he appeared to be nervous and a little out of breath. "come," he said, "just to look over it. just to see it. probably too small, but if it doesn't put you out----" he blew out the skin of his face about his mouth a little. "delighted to see you anyhow," said mr. brumley, filling the world of unspoken things with singularly lurid curses. "this. nice little hall,--very," said sir isaac. "pretty, that bit at the end. many rooms are there?" mr. brumley answered inexactly and meditated a desperate resignation of the whole job to mrs. rabbit. then he made an effort and began to explain. "that clock," said sir isaac interrupting in the dining-room, "is a fake." mr. brumley made silent interrogations. "been there myself," said sir isaac. "they sell those brass fittings in ho'bun." they went upstairs together. when mr. brumley wasn't explaining or pointing out, sir isaac made a kind of whistling between his clenched teeth. "this bathroom wants refitting anyhow," he said abruptly. "i daresay lady harman would like that room with the bay--but it's all--small. it's really quite pretty; you've done it cleverly, but--the size of it! i'd have to throw out a wing. and that you know might spoil the style. that roof,--a gardener's cottage?... i thought it might be. what's this other thing here? old barn. empty? that might expand a bit. couldn't do only just this anyhow." he walked in front of mr. brumley downstairs and still emitting that faint whistle led the way into the garden. he seemed to regard mr. brumley merely as a source of answers to his questions, and a seller in process of preparation for an offer. it was clear he meant to make an offer. "it's not the house i should buy if i was alone in this," he said, "but lady harman's taken a fancy somehow. and it might be adapted...." from first to last mr. brumley never said a single word about euphemia and the young matrimony and all the other memories this house enshrined. he felt instinctively that it would not affect sir isaac one way or the other. he tried simply to seem indifferent to whether sir isaac bought the place or not. he tried to make it appear almost as if houses like this often happened to him, and interested him only in the most incidental manner. they had their proper price, he tried to convey, which of course no gentleman would underbid. in the exquisite garden sir isaac said: "one might make a very pretty little garden of this--if one opened it out a bit." and of the sunken rock-garden: "that might be dangerous of a dark night." "i suppose," he said, indicating the hill of pines behind, "one could buy or lease some of that. if one wanted to throw it into the place and open out more. "from my point of view," he said, "it isn't a house. it's----" he sought in his mind for an expression--"a cottage ornay." this history declines to record either what mr. brumley said or what he did not say. sir isaac surveyed the house thoughtfully for some moments from the turf edging of the great herbaceous border. "how far," he asked, "is it from the nearest railway station?..." mr. brumley gave details. "four miles. and an infrequent service? nothing in any way suburban? better to motor into guildford and get the express. h'm.... and what sort of people do we get about here?" mr. brumley sketched. "mildly horsey. that's not bad. no officers about?... nothing nearer than aldershot.... that's eleven miles, is it? h'm. i suppose there aren't any _literary_ people about here, musicians or that kind of thing, no advanced people of that sort?" "not when i've gone," said mr. brumley, with the faintest flavour of humour. sir isaac stared at him for a moment with eyes vacantly thoughtful. "it mightn't be so bad," said sir isaac, and whistled a little between his teeth. mr. brumley was suddenly minded to take his visitor to see the view and the effect of his board upon it. but he spoke merely of the view and left sir isaac to discover the board or not as he thought fit. as they ascended among the trees, the visitor was manifestly seized by some strange emotion, his face became very white, he gasped and blew for breath, he felt for his face with a nervous hand. "four thousand," he said suddenly. "an outside price." "a minimum," said mr. brumley, with a slight quickening of the pulse. "you won't get three eight," gasped sir isaac. "not a business man, but my agent tells me----" panted mr. brumley. "three eight," said sir isaac. "we're just coming to the view," said mr. brumley. "just coming to the view." "practically got to rebuild the house," said sir isaac. "there!" said mr. brumley, and waved an arm widely. sir isaac regarded the prospect with a dissatisfied face. his pallor had given place to a shiny, flushed appearance, his nose, his ears, and his cheeks were pink. he blew his face out, and seemed to be studying the landscape for defects. "this might be built over at any time," he complained. mr. brumley was reassuring. for a brief interval sir isaac's eyes explored the countryside vaguely, then his expression seemed to concentrate and run together to a point. "h'm," he said. "that board," he remarked, "quite wrong there." "_well!_" said mr. brumley, too surprised for coherent speech. "quite," said sir isaac harman. "don't you see what's the matter?" mr. brumley refrained from an eloquent response. "they ought to be," sir isaac went on, "white and a sort of green. like the county council notices on hampstead heath. so as to blend.... you see, an ad. that hits too hard is worse than no ad. at all. it leaves a dislike.... advertisements ought to blend. it ought to seem as though all this view were saying it. not just that board. now suppose we had a shade of very light brown, a kind of light khaki----" he turned a speculative eye on mr. brumley as if he sought for the effect of this latter suggestion on him. "if the whole board was invisible----" said mr. brumley. sir isaac considered it. "just the letters showing," he said. "no,--that would be going too far in the other direction." he made a faint sucking noise with his lips and teeth as he surveyed the landscape and weighed this important matter.... "queer how one gets ideas," he said at last, turning away. "it was my wife told me about that board." he stopped to survey the house from the exact point of view his wife had taken nine days before. "i wouldn't give this place a second thought," said sir isaac, "if it wasn't for lady harman." he confided. "_she_ wants a week-end cottage. but _i_ don't see why it _should_ be a week-end cottage. i don't see why it shouldn't be made into a nice little country house. compact, of course. by using up that barn." he inhaled three bars of a tune. "london," he explained, "doesn't suit lady harman." "health?" asked mr. brumley, all alert. "it isn't her health exactly," sir isaac dropped out. "you see--she's a young woman. she gets ideas." "you know," he continued, "i'd like to have a look at that barn again. if we develop that--and a sort of corridor across where the shrubs are--and ran out offices...." § mr. brumley's mind was still vigorously struggling with the flaming implications of sir isaac's remark that lady harman "got ideas," and sir isaac was gently whistling his way towards an offer of three thousand nine hundred when they came down out of the pines into the path along the edge of the herbaceous border. and then mr. brumley became aware of an effect away between the white-stemmed trees towards the house as if the cambridge boat-race crew was indulging in a vigorous scrimmage. drawing nearer this resolved itself into the fluent contours of lady beach-mandarin, dressed in sky-blue and with a black summer straw hat larger than ever and trimmed effusively with marguerites. "here," said sir isaac, "can't i get off? you've got a friend." "you must have some tea," said mr. brumley, who wanted to suggest that they should agree to sir isaac's figure of three thousand eight hundred, but not as pounds but guineas. it seemed to him a suggestion that might prove insidiously attractive. "it's a charming lady, my friend lady beach-mandarin. she'll be delighted----" "i don't think i can," said sir isaac. "not in the habit--social occasions." his face expressed a panic terror of this gallant full-rigged lady ahead of them. "but you see now," said mr. brumley, with a detaining grip, "it's unavoidable." and the next moment sir isaac was mumbling his appreciations of the introduction. i must admit that lady beach-mandarin was almost as much to meet as one can meet in a single human being, a broad abundant billowing personality with a taste for brims, streamers, pennants, panniers, loose sleeves, sweeping gestures, top notes and the like that made her altogether less like a woman than an occasion of public rejoicing. even her large blue eyes projected, her chin and brows and nose all seemed racing up to the front of her as if excited by the clarion notes of her abundant voice, and the pinkness of her complexion was as exuberant as her manners. exuberance--it was her word. she had evidently been a big, bouncing, bright gaminesque girl at fifteen, and very amusing and very much admired; she had liked the rôle and she had not so much grown older as suffered enlargement--a very considerable enlargement. "ah!" she cried, "and so i've caught you at home, mr. brumley! and, poor dear, you're at my mercy." and she shook both his hands with both of hers. that was before mr. brumley introduced sir isaac, a thing he did so soon as he could get one of his hands loose and wave a surviving digit or so at that gentleman. "you see, sir isaac," she said, taking him in, in the most generous way; "i and mr. brumley are old friends. we knew each other of yore. we have our jokes." sir isaac seemed to feel the need of speech but got no further than a useful all-round noise. "and one of them is that when i want him to do the least little thing for me he hides away! always. by a sort of instinct. it's such a small thing, sir isaac." sir isaac was understood to say vaguely that they always did. but he had become very indistinct. "aren't i always at your service?" protested mr. brumley with a responsive playfulness. "and i don't even know what it is you want." lady beach-mandarin, addressing herself exclusively to sir isaac, began a tale of a shakespear bazaar she was holding in an adjacent village, and how she knew mr. brumley (naughty man) meant to refuse to give her autographed copies of his littlest book for the book stall she was organizing. mr. brumley confuted her gaily and generously. so discoursing they made their way to the verandah where lady harman had so lately "poured." sir isaac was borne along upon the lady's stream of words in a state of mulish reluctance, nodding, saying "of course" and similar phrases, and wishing he was out of it all with an extreme manifestness. he drank his tea with unmistakable discomfort, and twice inserted into the conversation an entirely irrelevant remark that he had to be going. but lady beach-mandarin had her purposes with him and crushed these quivering tentatives. lady beach-mandarin had of course like everybody else at that time her own independent movement in the great national effort to create an official british theatre upon the basis of william shakespear, and she saw in the as yet unenlisted resources of sir isaac strong possibilities of reinforcement of her own particular contribution to the great work. he was manifestly shy and sulky and disposed to bolt at the earliest possible moment, and so she set herself now with a swift and concentrated combination of fascination and urgency to commit him to participations. she flattered and cajoled and bribed. she was convinced that even to be called upon by lady beach-mandarin is no light privilege for these new commercial people, and so she made no secret of her intention of decorating the hall of his large but undistinguished house in putney, with her redeeming pasteboard. she appealed to the instances of venice and florence to show that "such men as you, sir isaac," who control commerce and industry, have always been the guardians and patrons of art. and who more worthy of patronage than william shakespear? also she said that men of such enormous wealth as his owed something to their national tradition. "you have to pay your footing, sir isaac," she said with impressive vagueness. "putting it in round figures," said sir isaac, suddenly and with a white gleam of animosity in his face, the animosity of a trapped animal at the sight of its captors, "what does coming on your committee mean, lady beach-mandarin?" "it's your name we want," said the lady, "but i'm sure you'd not be ungenerous. the tribute success owes the arts." "a hundred?" he threw out,--his ears red. "guineas," breathed lady beach-mandarin with a lofty sweetness of consent. he stood up hastily as if to escape further exaction, and the lady rose too. "and you'll let me call on lady harman," she said, honestly doing her part in the bargain. "can't keep the car waiting," was what brumley could distinguish in his reply. "i expect you have a perfectly splendid car, sir isaac," said lady beach-mandarin, drawing him out. "quite the modernest thing." sir isaac replied with the reluctance of an income tax return that it was a forty-five rolls royce, good of course but nothing amazing. "we must see it," she said, and turned his retreat into a procession. she admired the car, she admired the colour of the car, she admired the lamps of the car and the door of the car and the little fittings of the car. she admired the horn. she admired the twist of the horn. she admired clarence and the uniform of clarence and she admired and coveted the great fur coat that he held ready for his employer. (but if she had it, she said, she would wear the splendid fur outside to show every little bit of it.) and when the car at last moved forward and tooted--she admired the note--and vanished softly and swiftly through the gates, she was left in the porch with mr. brumley still by sheer inertia admiring and envying. she admired sir isaac's car number z . (such an easy one to remember!) then she stopped abruptly, as one might discover that the water in the bathroom was running to waste and turn it off. she had a cynicism as exuberant as the rest of her. "well," she said, with a contented sigh and an entire flattening of her tone, "i laid it on pretty thick that time.... i wonder if he'll send me that hundred guineas or whether i shall have to remind him of it...." her manner changed again to that of a gigantic gamin. "i mean to have that money," she said with bright determination and round eyes.... she reflected and other thoughts came to her. "plutocracy," she said, "_is_ perfectly detestable, don't you think so, mr. brumley?" ... and then, "i can't _imagine_ how a man who deals in bread and confectionery can manage to go about so completely half-baked." "he's a very remarkable type," said mr. brumley. he became urgent: "i do hope, dear lady beach-mandarin, you will contrive to call on lady harman. she is--in relation to _that_--quite the most interesting woman i have seen." § presently as they paced the croquet lawn together, the preoccupation of mr. brumley's mind drew their conversation back to lady harman. "i wish," he repeated, "you would go and see these people. she's not at all what you might infer from him." "what could one infer about a wife from a man like that? except that she'd have a lot to put up with." "you know,--she's a beautiful person, tall, slender, dark...." lady beach-mandarin turned her full blue eye upon him. "_now!_" she said archly. "i'm interested in the incongruity." lady beach-mandarin's reply was silent and singular. she compressed her lips very tightly, fixed her eye firmly on mr. brumley's, lifted her finger to the level of her left eyelash, and then shook it at him very deliberately five times. then with a little sigh and a sudden and complete restoration of manner she remarked that never in any year before had she seen peonies quite so splendid. "i've a peculiar sympathy with peonies," she said. "they're so exactly my style." chapter the third lady harman at home § exactly three weeks after that first encounter between lady beach-mandarin and sir isaac harman, mr. brumley found himself one of a luncheon party at that lady's house in temperley square and talking very freely and indiscreetly about the harmans. lady beach-mandarin always had her luncheons in a family way at a large round table so that nobody could get out of her range, and she insisted upon conversation being general, except for her mother who was impenetrably deaf and the swiss governess of her only daughter phyllis who was incomprehensible in any european tongue. the mother was incalculably old and had been a friend of victor hugo and alfred de musset; she maintained an intermittent monologue about the private lives of those great figures; nobody paid the slightest attention to her but one felt she enriched the table with an undertow of literary associations. a small dark stealthy butler and a convulsive boy with hair (apparently) taking the place of eyes waited. on this occasion lady beach-mandarin had gathered together two cousins, maiden ladies from perth, wearing valiant hats, toomer the wit and censor, and miss sharsper the novelist (whom toomer detested), a gentleman named roper whom she had invited under a misapprehension that he was the arctic roper, and mr. brumley. she had tried mr. roper with questions about penguins, seals, cold and darkness, icebergs and glaciers, captain scott, doctor cook and the shape of the earth, and all in vain, and feeling at last that something was wrong, she demanded abruptly whether mr. brumley had sold his house. "i'm selling it," said mr. brumley, "by almost imperceptible degrees." "he haggles?" "haggles and higgles. he higgles passionately. he goes white and breaks into a cold perspiration. he wants me now to include the gardener's tools--in whatever price we agree upon." "a rich man like that ought to be easy and generous," said lady beach-mandarin. "then he wouldn't be a rich man like that," said mr. toomer. "but doesn't it distress you highly, mr. brumley," one of the perth ladies asked, "to be leaving euphemia's home to strangers? the man may go altering it." "that--that weighs with me very much," said mr. brumley, recalled to his professions. "there--i put my trust in lady harman." "you've seen her again?" asked lady beach-mandarin. "yes. she came with him--a few days ago. that couple interests me more and more. so little akin." "there's eighteen years between them," said toomer. "it's one of those cases," began mr. brumley with a note of scientific detachment, "where one is really tempted to be ultra-feminist. it's clear, he uses every advantage. he's her owner, her keeper, her obstinate insensitive little tyrant.... and yet there's a sort of effect, as though nothing was decided.... as if she was only just growing up." "they've been married six or seven years," said toomer. "she was just eighteen." "they went over the house together and whenever she spoke he contradicted her with a sort of vicious playfulness. tried to poke clumsy fun at her. called her 'lady harman.' only it was quite evident that what she said stuck in his mind.... very queer--interesting people." "i wouldn't have anyone allowed to marry until they were five-and-twenty," said lady beach-mandarin. "sweet seventeen sometimes contrives to be very marriageable," said the gentleman named roper. "sweet seventeen must contrive to wait," said lady beach-mandarin. "sweet fourteen has to--and when i was fourteen--i was ardent! there's no earthly objection to a little harmless flirtation of course. it's the marrying." "you'd conduce to romance," said miss sharsper, "anyhow. eighteen won't bear restriction and everyone would begin by eloping--illegally." "i'd put them back," said lady beach-mandarin. "oh! remorselessly." mr. roper, who was more and more manifestly not the arctic one, remarked that she would "give the girls no end of an adolescence...." mr. brumley did not attend very closely to the subsequent conversation. his mind had gone back to black strand and the second visit that lady harman, this time under her natural and proper protection, had paid him. a little thread from the old lady's discourse drifted by him. she had scented marriage in the air and she was saying, "of course they ought to have let victor hugo marry over and over again. he would have made it all so beautiful. he could throw a splendour over--over almost anything." mr. brumley sank out of attention altogether. it was so difficult to express his sense of lady harman as a captive, enclosed but unsubdued. she had been as open and shining as a celandine flower in the sunshine on that first invasion, but on the second it had been like overcast weather and her starry petals had been shut and still. she hadn't been in the least subdued or effaced, but closed, inaccessible to conversational bees, that astonishing honey of trust and easy friendship had been hidden in a dignified impenetrable reserve. she had had the effect of being not so much specially shut against mr. brumley as habitually shut against her husband, as a protection against his continual clumsy mental interferences. and once when sir isaac had made a sudden allusion to price mr. brumley had glanced at her and met her eyes.... "of course," he said, coming up to the conversational surface again, "a woman like that is bound to fight her way out." "queen mary!" cried miss sharsper. "fight her way out!" "queen mary!" said mr. brumley, "no!--lady harman." "_i_ was talking of queen mary," said miss sharsper. "and mr. brumley was thinking of lady harman!" cried lady beach-mandarin. "well," said mr. brumley, "i confess i do think about her. she seems to me to be so typical in many ways of--of everything that is weak in the feminine position. as a type--yes, she's perfect." "i've never seen this lady," said miss sharsper. "is she beautiful?" "i've not seen her myself yet," said lady beach-mandarin. "she's mr. brumley's particular discovery." "you haven't called?" he asked with a faint reproach. "but i've been going to--oh! tremendously. and you revive all my curiosity. why shouldn't some of us this very afternoon----?" she caught at her own passing idea and held it. "let's go," she cried. "let's visit the wife of this ogre, the last of the women in captivity. we'll take the big car and make a party and call _en masse_." mr. toomer protested he had no morbid curiosities. "but you, susan?" miss sharsper declared she would _love_ to come. wasn't it her business to study out-of-the-way types? mr. roper produced a knowing sort of engagement--"i'm provided for already, lady beach-mandarin," he said, and the cousins from perth had to do some shopping. "then we three will be the expedition," said the hostess. "and afterwards if we survive we'll tell you our adventures. it's a house on putney hill, isn't it, where this christian maiden, so to speak, is held captive? i've had her in my mind, but i've always intended to call with agatha alimony; she's so inspiring to down-trodden women." "not exactly down-trodden," said mr. brumley, "not down-trodden. that's what's so curious about it." "and what shall we do when we get there?" cried lady beach-mandarin. "i feel we ought to do something more than call. can't we carry her off right away, mr. brumley? i want to go right in to her and say 'look here! i'm on your side. your husband's a tyrant. i'm help and rescue. i'm all that a woman ought to be--fine and large. come out from under that unworthy man's heel!'" "suppose she isn't at all the sort of person you seem to think she is," said miss sharsper. "and suppose she came!" "suppose she didn't," reflected mr. roper. "i seem to see your flight," said mr. toomer. "and the newspaper placards and head-lines. 'lady beach-mandarin elopes with the wife of an eminent confectioner. she is stopped at the landing stage by the staff of the dover branch establishment. recapture of the fugitive after a hot struggle. brumley, the eminent _littérateur_, stunned by a spent bun....'" "we're all talking great nonsense," said lady beach-mandarin. "but anyhow we'll make our call. and _i_ know!--i'll make her accept an invitation to lunch without him." "if she won't?" threw out mr. roper. "i _will_," said lady beach-mandarin with roguish determination. "and if i can't----" "not ask him too!" protested mr. brumley. "why not get her to come to your social friends meeting," said miss sharsper. § when mr. brumley found himself fairly launched upon this expedition he had the grace to feel compunction. the harmans, he perceived, had inadvertently made him the confidant of their domestic discords and to betray them to these others savoured after all of treachery. and besides much as he had craved to see lady harman again, he now realized he didn't in the least want to see her in association with the exuberant volubility of lady beach-mandarin and the hard professional observation, so remarkably like the ferrule of an umbrella being poked with a noiseless persistence into one's eye, of miss sharsper. and as he thought these afterthoughts lady beach-mandarin's chauffeur darted and dodged and threaded his way with an alacrity that was almost distressing to putney. they ran over the ghost of swinburne, at the foot of putney hill,--or perhaps it was only the rhythm of the engine changed for a moment, and in a couple of minutes more they were outside the harman residence. "here we are!" said lady beach-mandarin, more capaciously gaminesque than ever. "we've done it now." mr. brumley had an impression of a big house in the distended stately-homes-of-england style and very necessarily and abundantly covered by creepers and then he was assisting the ladies to descend and the three of them were waiting clustered in the ample victorian doorway. for some little interval there came no answer to the bell mr. brumley had rung, but all three of them had a sense of hurried, furtive and noiseless readjustments in progress behind the big and bossy oak door. then it opened and a very large egg-shaped butler with sandy whiskers appeared and looked down himself at them. there was something paternal about this man, his professional deference was touched by the sense of ultimate responsibility. he seemed to consider for a moment whether he should permit lady harman to be in, before he conceded that she was. they were ushered through a hall that resembled most of the halls in the world, it was dominated by a handsome oak staircase and scarcely gave miss sharsper a point, and then across a creation of the victorian architect, a massive kind of conservatory with classical touches--there was an impluvium in the centre and there were arches hung with manifestly costly syrian rugs, into a large apartment looking through four french windows upon a verandah and a large floriferous garden. at a sideways glance it seemed a very pleasant garden indeed. the room itself was like the rooms of so many prosperous people nowadays; it had an effect of being sedulously and yet irrelevantly over-furnished. it had none of the large vulgarity that mr. brumley would have considered proper to a wealthy caterer, but it confessed a compilation of "pieces" very carefully authenticated. some of them were rather splendid "pieces"; three big bureaus burly and brassy dominated it; there was a queen anne cabinet, some exquisite coloured engravings, an ormolu mirror and a couple of large french vases that set miss sharsper, who had a keen eye for this traffic, confusedly cataloguing. and a little incongruously in the midst of this exhibit, stood lady harman, as if she was trying to conceal the fact that she too was a visitor, in a creamy white dress and dark and defensive and yet entirely unabashed. the great butler gave his large vague impression of lady beach-mandarin's name, and stood aside and withdrew. "i've heard so much of you," said lady beach-mandarin advancing with hand upraised. "i had to call. mr. brumley----" "lady beach-mandarin met sir isaac at black strand," mr. brumley intervened to explain. miss sharsper was as it were introduced by default. "my vividest anticipations outdone," said lady beach-mandarin, squeezing lady harman's fingers with enthusiasm. "and what a charming garden you have, and what a delightful situation! such air! and on the very verge of london, high, on this delightful _literary_ hill, and ready at any moment to swoop in that enviable great car of yours. i suppose you come a great deal into london, lady harman?" "no," reflected lady harman, "not very much." she seemed to weigh the accuracy of this very carefully. "no," she added in confirmation. "but you should, you ought to; it's your duty. you've no right to hide away from us. i was telling sir isaac. we look to him, we look to you. you've no right to bury your talents away from us; you who are rich and young and brilliant and beautiful----" "but if i go on i shall begin to flatter you," said lady beach-mandarin with a delicious smile. "i've begun upon sir isaac already. i've made him promise a hundred guineas and his name to the shakespear dinners society,--nothing he didn't mention eaten (_you_ know) and all the profits to the national movement--and i want your name too. i know you'll let us have your name too. grant me that, and i'll subside into the ordinariest of callers." "but surely; isn't his name enough?" asked lady harman. "without yours, it's only half a name!" cried lady beach-mandarin. "if it were a _business_ thing----! different of course. but on my list, i'm like dear old queen victoria you know, the wives must come too." "in that case," hesitated lady harman.... "but really i think sir isaac----" she stopped. and then mr. brumley had a psychic experience. it seemed to him as he stood observing lady harman with an entirely unnecessary and unpremeditated intentness, that for the briefest interval her attention flashed over lady beach-mandarin's shoulder to the end verandah window; and following her glance, he saw--and then he did not see--the arrested figure, the white face of sir isaac, bearing an expression in which anger and horror were extraordinarily intermingled. if it was sir isaac he dodged back with amazing dexterity; if it was a phantom of the living it vanished with an air of doing that. without came the sound of a flower-pot upset and a faint expletive. mr. brumley looked very quickly at lady beach-mandarin, who was entirely unconscious of anything but her own uncoiling and enveloping eloquence, and as quickly at miss sharsper. but miss sharsper was examining a blackish bureau through her glasses as though she were looking for birthmarks and meant if she could find one to claim the piece as her own long-lost connection. with a mild but gratifying sense of exclusive complicity mr. brumley reverted to lady harman's entire self-possession. "but, dear lady harman, it's entirely unnecessary you should consult him,--entirely," lady beach-mandarin was saying. "i'm sure," said mr. brumley with a sense that somehow he had to intervene, "that sir isaac would not possibly object. i'm sure that if lady harman consults him----" the sandy-whiskered butler appeared hovering. "shall i place the tea-things in the garden, me lady?" he asked, in the tone of one who knows the answer. "oh _please_ in the garden!" cried lady beach-mandarin. "please! and how delightful to _have_ a garden, a london garden, in which one _can_ have tea. without being smothered in blacks. the south-west wind. the dear _english_ wind. all your blacks come to _us_, you know." she led the way upon the verandah. "such a wonderful garden! the space, the breadth! why! you must have acres!" she surveyed the garden--comprehensively; her eye rested for a moment on a distant patch of black that ducked suddenly into a group of lilacs. "is dear sir isaac at home?" she asked. "he's very uncertain," said lady harman, with a quiet readiness that pleased mr. brumley. "yes, snagsby, please, under the big cypress. and tell my mother and sister." lady beach-mandarin having paused a moment or so upon the verandah admiring the garden as a whole, now prepared to go into details. she gathered her ample skirts together and advanced into the midst of the large lawn, with very much of the effect of a fleet of captive balloons dragging their anchors. mr. brumley followed, as it were in attendance upon her and lady harman. miss sharsper, after one last hasty glance at the room, rather like the last hasty glance of a still unprepared schoolboy at his book, came behind with her powers of observation strainingly alert. mr. brumley was aware of a brief mute struggle between the two ladies of title. it was clear that lady harman would have had them go to the left, to where down a vista of pillar roses a single large specimen cypress sounded a faint but recognizable italian note, and he did his loyal best to support her, but lady beach-mandarin's attraction to that distant clump of lilac on the right was equally great and much more powerful. she flowed, a great and audible tide of socially influential womanhood, across the green spaces of the garden, and drew the others with her. and it seemed to mr. brumley--not that he believed his eyes--that beyond those lilacs something ran out, something black that crouched close to the ground and went very swiftly. it flashed like an arrow across a further space of flower-bed, dropped to the ground, became two agitatedly receding boot soles and was gone. had it ever been? he glanced at lady harman, but she was looking back with the naïve anxiety of a hostess to her cypress,--at lady beach-mandarin, but she was proliferating compliments and decorative scrolls and flourishes like the engraved frontispiece to a seventeenth-century book. "i know i'm inordinately curious," said lady beach-mandarin, "but gardens are my joy. i want to go into every corner of this. peep into everything. and i feel somehow"--and here she urged a smile on lady harman's attention--"that i shan't begin to know _you_, until i know all your environment." she turned the flank of the lilacs as she said these words and advanced in echelon with a stately swiftness upon the laurels beyond. lady harman said there was nothing beyond but sycamores and the fence, but lady beach-mandarin would press on through a narrow path that pierced the laurel hedge, in order, she said, that she might turn back and get the whole effect of the grounds. and so it was they discovered the mushroom shed. "a mushroom shed!" cried lady beach-mandarin. "and if we look in--shall we see hosts and regiments of mushrooms? i must--i must." "i _think_ it is locked," said lady harman. mr. brumley darted forward; tried the door and turned quickly. "it's locked," he said and barred lady beach-mandarin's advance. "and besides," said lady harman, "there's no mushrooms there. they won't come up. it's one of my husband's--annoyances." lady beach-mandarin had turned round and now surveyed the house. "what a splendid idea," she cried, "that wistaria! all mixed with the laburnum. i don't think i have ever seen such a charming combination of blossoms!" the whole movement of the party swept about and faced cypress-ward. away there the sandy-whiskered butler and a footman and basket chairs and a tea-table, with a shining white cloth, and two ladies were now grouping themselves.... but the mind of mr. brumley gave little heed to these things. his mind was full of a wonder, and the wonder was this, that the mushroom shed had behaved like a living thing. the door of the mushroom shed was not locked and in that matter he had told a lie. the door of the mushroom shed had been unlocked quite recently and the key and padlock had been dropped upon the ground. and when he had tried to open the mushroom shed it had first of all yielded to his hand and then it had closed again with great strength--exactly as a living mussel will behave if one takes it unawares. but in addition to this passionate contraction the mushroom shed had sworn in a hoarse whisper and breathed hard, which is more than your mussel can do.... § mr. brumley's interest in lady harman was to be almost too crowded by detail before that impulsive call was over. superposed upon the mystery of the mushroom shed was the vivid illumination of lady harman by her mother and sister. they had an effect of having reluctantly become her social inferiors for her own good; the mother--her name he learnt was mrs. sawbridge--had all lady harman's tall slenderness, but otherwise resembled her only in the poise of her neck and an occasional gesture; she was fair and with a kind of ignoble and premeditated refinement in her speech and manner. she was dressed with the restraint of a prolonged and attenuated widowhood, in a rich and complicatedly quiet dress of mauve and grey. she was obviously a transitory visitor and not so much taking the opulence about her and particularly the great butler for granted as pointedly and persistently ignoring it in an effort to seem to take it for granted. the sister, on the other hand, had lady harman's pale darkness but none of her fineness of line. she missed altogether that quality of fineness. her darkness was done with a quite perceptible heaviness, her dignity passed into solidity and her profile was, with an entire want of hesitation, handsome. she was evidently the elder by a space of some years and she was dressed with severity in grey. these two ladies seemed to mr. brumley to offer a certain resistance of spirit to the effusion of lady beach-mandarin, rather as two small anchored vessels might resist the onset of a great and foaming tide, but after a time it was clear they admired her greatly. his attention was, however, a little distracted from them by the fact that he was the sole representative of the more serviceable sex among five women and so in duty bound to stand by lady harman and assist with various handings and offerings. the tea equipage was silver and not only magnificent but, as certain quick movements of miss sharsper's eyes and nose at its appearance betrayed, very genuine and old. lady beach-mandarin having praised the house and garden all over again to mrs. sawbridge, and having praised the cypress and envied the tea things, resumed her efforts to secure the immediate establishment of permanent social relations with lady harman. she reverted to the question of the shakespear dinners society and now with a kind of large skilfulness involved mrs. sawbridge in her appeal. "won't _you_ come on our committee?" said lady beach-mandarin. mrs. sawbridge gave a pinched smile and said she was only staying in london for quite a little time, and when pressed admitted that there seemed no need whatever for consulting sir isaac upon so obviously foregone a conclusion as lady harman's public adhesion to the great movement. "i shall put his hundred guineas down to sir isaac and lady harman," said lady beach-mandarin with an air of conclusion, "and now i want to know, dear lady harman, whether we can't have _you_ on our committee of administration. we want--just one other woman to complete us." lady harman could only parry with doubts of her ability. "you ought to go on, ella," said miss sawbridge suddenly, speaking for the first time and in a manner richly suggestive of great principles at stake. "ella," thought the curious mind of mr. brumley. "and is that eleanor now or ellen or--is there any other name that gives one ella? simply ella?" "but what should i have to do?" fenced lady harman, resisting but obviously attracted. lady beach-mandarin invented a lengthy paraphrase for prompt acquiescences. "i shall be chairwoman," she crowned it with. "i can so easily _see you through_ as they say." "ella doesn't go out half enough," said miss sawbridge suddenly to miss sharsper, who was regarding her with furtive intensity--as if she was surreptitiously counting her features. miss sharsper caught in mid observation started and collected her mind. "one ought to go out," she said. "certainly." "and independently," said miss sawbridge, with meaning. "oh independently!" assented miss sharsper. it was evident she would now have to watch her chance and begin counting all over again from the beginning. mr. brumley had an impression that mrs. sawbridge had said something quite confidential in his ear. he turned perplexed. "such charming weather," the lady repeated in the tone of one who doesn't wish so pleasant a little secret to be too generally discussed. "never known a better summer," agreed mr. brumley. and then all these minor eddies were submerged in lady beach-mandarin's advance towards her next step, an invitation to lunch. "there," said she, "i'm not victorian. i always separate husbands and wives--by at least a week. you must come alone." it was clear to mr. brumley that lady harman wanted to come alone--and was going to accept, and equally clear that she and her mother and sister regarded this as a very daring thing to do. and when that was settled lady beach-mandarin went on to the altogether easier topic of her social friends, a society of smart and influential women; who devoted a certain fragment of time every week to befriending respectable girls employed in london, in a briskly amiable manner, having them to special teas, having them to special evenings with special light refreshments, knowing their names as far as possible and asking about their relations, and generally making them feel that society was being very frank and amiable to them and had an eye on them and meant them well, and was better for them than socialism and radicalism and revolutionary ideas. to this also lady harman it seemed was to come. it had an effect to mr. brumley's imagination as if the painted scene of that lady's life was suddenly bursting out into open doors--everywhere. "many of them are _quite_ lady-like," echoed mrs. sawbridge suddenly, picking up the whole thing instantly and speaking over her tea cup in that quasi-confidential tone of hers to mr. brumley. "of course they are mostly quite dreadfully sweated," said lady beach-mandarin. "especially in the confectionery----" she thought of her position in time. "in the inferior class of confectioners' establishments," she said and then hurried on to: "of course when you come to lunch,--agatha alimony. i'm most anxious for you and her to meet." "is that _the_ agatha alimony?" asked miss sawbridge abruptly. "the one and only," said lady beach-mandarin, flashing a smile at her. "and what a marvel she is! i do so want you to know her, lady harman. she'd be a revelation to you...." everything had gone wonderfully so far. "and now," said lady beach-mandarin, thrusting forward a face of almost exaggerated motherliness and with an unwonted tenderness suffusing her voice, "show me the chicks." there was a brief interrogative pause. "your chicks," expanded lady beach-mandarin, on the verge of crooning. "your _little_ chicks." "_oh!_" cried lady harman understanding. "the children." "lucky woman!" cried lady beach-mandarin. "yes." "one hasn't begun to be friends," she added, "until one has seen--them...." "so _true_," mrs. sawbridge confided to mr. brumley with a look that almost languished.... "certainly," said mr. brumley, "rather." he was a little distraught because he had just seen sir isaac step forward in a crouching attitude from beyond the edge of the lilacs, peer at the tea-table with a serpent-like intentness and then dart back convulsively into cover.... if lady beach-mandarin saw him mr. brumley felt that anything might happen. § lady beach-mandarin always let herself go about children. it would be unjust to the general richness of lady beach-mandarin to say that she excelled herself on this occasion. on all occasions lady beach-mandarin excelled herself. but never had mr. brumley noted quite so vividly lady beach-mandarin's habitual self-surpassingness. she helped him, he felt, to understand better those stories of great waves that sweep in from the ocean and swamp islands and devastate whole littorals. she poured into the harman nursery and filled every corner of it. she rose to unprecedented heights therein. it seemed to him at moments that they ought to make marks on the walls, like the marks one sees on the houses in the lower valley of the main to record the more memorable floods. "the dears!" she cried: "the _little_ things!" before the nursery door was fairly opened. (there should have been a line for that at once on the jamb just below the lintel.) the nursery revealed itself as a large airy white and green apartment entirely free from old furniture and done rather in the style of an æsthetically designed hospital, with a tremendously humorous decorative frieze of cocks and puppies and very bright-coloured prints on the walls. the dwarfish furniture was specially designed in green-stained wood and the floor was of cork carpet diversified by white furry rugs. the hospital quality was enhanced by the uniformed and disciplined appearance of the middle-aged and reliable head nurse and her subdued but intelligent subordinate. three sturdy little girls, with a year step between each of them, stood up to receive lady beach-mandarin's invasion; an indeterminate baby sprawled regardless of its dignity on a rug. "aah!" cried lady beach-mandarin, advancing in open order. "come and be hugged, you dears! come and be hugged!" before she knelt down and enveloped their shrinking little persons mr. brumley was able to observe that they were pretty little things, but not the beautiful children he could have imagined from lady harman. peeping through their infantile delicacy, hints all too manifest of sir isaac's characteristically pointed nose gave mr. brumley a peculiar--a eugenic, qualm. he glanced at lady harman and she was standing over the ecstasies of her tremendous visitor, polite, attentive--with an entirely unemotional speculation in her eyes. miss sawbridge, stirred by the great waves of violent philoprogenitive enthusiasm that circled out from lady beach-mandarin, had caught up the baby and was hugging it and addressing it in terms of humorous rapture, and the nurse and her assistant were keeping respectful but wary eyes upon the handling of their four charges. miss sharsper was taking in the children's characteristics with a quick expertness. mrs. sawbridge stood a little in the background and caught mr. brumley's eye and proffered a smile of sympathetic tolerance. mr. brumley was moved by a ridiculous impulse, which he just succeeded in suppressing, to say to mrs. sawbridge, "yes, i admit it looks very well. but the essential point, you know, is that it isn't so...." that it wasn't so, indeed, entirely dominated his impression of that nursery. there was lady beach-mandarin winning lady harman's heart by every rule of the game, rejoicing effusively in those crowning triumphs of a woman's being, there was miss sawbridge vociferous in support and mrs. sawbridge almost offering to join hands in rapturous benediction, and there was lady harman wearing her laurels, not indeed with indifference but with a curious detachment. one might imagine her genuinely anxious to understand why lady beach-mandarin was in such a stupendous ebullition. one might have supposed her a mere cold-hearted intellectual if it wasn't that something in her warm beauty absolutely forbade any such interpretation. there came to mr. brumley again a thought that had occurred to him first when sir isaac and lady harman had come together to black strand, which was that life had happened to this woman before she was ready for it, that her mind some years after her body was now coming to womanhood, was teeming with curiosity about all she had hitherto accepted, about sir isaac, about her children and all her circumstances.... there was a recapitulation of the invitations, a renewed offering of outlooks and vistas and agatha alimony. "you'll not forget," insisted lady beach-mandarin. "you'll not afterwards throw us over." "no," said lady harman, with that soft determination of hers. "i'll certainly come." "i'm so sorry, so very sorry, not to have seen sir isaac," lady beach-mandarin insisted. the raid had accomplished its every object and was drifting doorward. for a moment lady beach-mandarin desisted from lady harman and threw her whole being into an eddying effort to submerge the already subjugated mrs. sawbridge. miss sawbridge was behind up the oak staircase explaining sir isaac's interest in furniture-buying to miss sharsper. mr. brumley had his one moment with lady harman. "i gather," he said, and abandoned that sentence. "i hope," he said, "that you will have my little house down there. i like to think of _you_--walking in my garden." "i shall love that garden," she said. "but i shall feel unworthy." "there are a hundred little things i want to tell you--about it." then all the others seemed to come into focus again, and with a quick mutual understanding--mr. brumley was certain of its mutuality--they said no more to one another. he was entirely satisfied he had said enough. he had conveyed just everything that was needed to excuse and explain and justify his presence in that company.... upon a big table in the hall he noticed that a silk hat and an umbrella had appeared since their arrival. he glanced at miss sharsper but she was keenly occupied with the table legs. he began to breathe freely again when the partings were over and he could get back into the automobile. "toot," said the horn and he made a last grave salutation to the slender white figure on the steps. the great butler stood at the side of the entrance and a step or so below her, with the air of a man who has completed a difficult task. a small attentive valet hovered out of the shadows behind. § (a fragment of the conversation in lady beach-mandarin's returning automobile may be recorded in a parenthesis here. "but did you see sir isaac?" she cried, abruptly. "sir isaac?" defended the startled mr. brumley. "where?" "he was dodging about in the garden all the time." "dodging about the garden!... i saw a sort of gardener----" "i'm sure i saw him," said lady beach-mandarin. "positive. he hid away in the mushroom shed. the one you found locked." "but my _dear_ lady beach-mandarin!" protested mr. brumley with the air of one who listens to preposterous suggestions. "what can make you think----?" "oh i _know_ i saw him," said lady beach-mandarin. "i know. he seemed all over the place. like a boy scout. didn't you see him too, susan?" miss sharsper was roused from deep preoccupation. "what, dear?" she asked. "see sir isaac?" "sir isaac?" "dodging about the garden when we went through it." the novelist reflected. "i didn't notice," she said. "i was busy observing things.") § lady beach-mandarin's car passed through the open gates and was swallowed up in the dusty stream of traffic down putney hill; the great butler withdrew, the little manservant vanished, mrs. sawbridge and her elder daughter had hovered and now receded from the back of the hall; lady harman remained standing thoughtfully in the large bulwer-lyttonesque doorway of her house. her face expressed a vague expectation. she waited to be addressed from behind. then she became aware of the figure of her husband standing before her. he had come out of the laurels in front. his pale face was livid with anger, his hair dishevelled, there was garden mould and greenness upon his knees and upon his extended hands. she was startled out of her quiet defensiveness. "why, isaac!" she cried. "where have you been?" it enraged him further to be asked so obviously unnecessary a question. he forgot his knightly chivalry. "what the devil do you mean," he cried, "by chasing me all round the garden?" "chasing you? all round the garden?" "you heard me breaking my shins on that infernal flower-pot you put for me, and out you shot with all your pack of old women and chased me round the garden. what do you mean by it?" "i didn't think you were in the garden." "any fool could have told i was in the garden. any fool might have known i was in the garden. if i wasn't in the garden, then where the devil was i? eh? where else could i be? of course i was in the garden, and what you wanted was to hunt me down and make a fool of me. and look at me! look, i say! look at my hands!" lady harman regarded the lord of her being and hesitated before she answered. she knew what she had to say would enrage him, but she had come to a point in their relationship when a husband's good temper is no longer a supreme consideration. "you've had plenty of time to wash them," she said. "yes," he shouted. "and instead i kept 'em to show you. i stayed out here to see the last of that crew for fear i might run against 'em in the house. of all the infernal old women----" his lips were providentially deprived of speech. he conveyed his inability to express his estimate of lady beach-mandarin by a gesture of despair. "if--if anyone calls and i am at home i have to receive them," said lady harman, after a moment's deliberation. "receiving them's one thing. making a fool of yourself----" his voice was rising. "isaac," said lady harman, leaning forward and then in a low penetrating whisper, "_snagsby!_" (it was the name of the great butler.) "_damn_ snagsby!" hissed sir isaac, but dropping his voice and drawing near to her. what his voice lost in height it gained in intensity. "what i say is this, ella, you oughtn't to have brought that old woman out into the garden at all----" "she insisted on coming." "you ought to have snubbed her. you ought to have done--anything. how the devil was i to get away, once she was through the verandah? there i was! _bagged!_" "you could have come forward." "what! and meet _her_!" "_i_ had to meet her." sir isaac felt that his rage was being frittered away upon details. "if you hadn't gone fooling about looking at houses," he said, and now he stood very close to her and spoke with a confidential intensity, "you wouldn't have got that holy terror on our track, see? and now--here we are!" he walked past her into the hall, and the little manservant suddenly materialised in the middle of the space and came forward to brush him obsequiously. lady harman regarded that proceeding for some moments in a preoccupied manner and then passed slowly into the classical conservatory. she felt that in view of her engagements the discussion of lady beach-mandarin was only just beginning. § she reopened it herself in the long drawing-room into which they both drifted after sir isaac had washed the mould from his hands. she went to a french window, gathered courage, it seemed, by a brief contemplation of the garden, and turned with a little effort. "i don't agree," she said, "with you about lady beach-mandarin." sir isaac appeared surprised. he had assumed the incident was closed. "_how?_" he asked compactly. "i don't agree," said lady harman. "she seems friendly and jolly." "she's a holy terror," said sir isaac. "i've seen her twice, lady harman." "a call of that kind," his wife went on, "--when there are cards left and so on--has to be returned." "you won't," said sir isaac. lady harman took a blind-tassel in her hand,--she felt she had to hold on to something. "in any case," she said, "i should have to do that." "in any case?" she nodded. "it would be ridiculous not to. we----it is why we know so few people--because we don't return calls...." sir isaac paused before answering. "we don't _want_ to know a lot of people," he said. "and, besides----why! anybody could make us go running about all over london calling on them, by just coming and calling on us. no sense in it. she's come and she's gone, and there's an end of it." "no," said lady harman, gripping her tassel more firmly. "i shall have to return that call." "i tell you, you won't." "it isn't only a call," said lady harman. "you see, i promised to go there to lunch." "lunch!" "and to go to a meeting with her." "go to a meeting!" "--of a society called the social friends. and something else. oh! to go to the committee meetings of her shakespear dinners movement." "i've heard of that." "she said you supported it--or else of course...." sir isaac restrained himself with difficulty. "well," he said at last, "you'd better write and tell her you can't do any of these things; that's all." he thrust his hands into his trousers pockets and walked to the french window next to the one in which she stood, with an air of having settled this business completely, and being now free for the tranquil contemplation of horticulture. but lady harman had still something to say. "i am going to _all_ these things," she said. "i said i would, and i will." he didn't seem immediately to hear her. he made the little noise with his teeth that was habitual to him. then he came towards her. "this is your infernal sister," he said. lady harman reflected. "no," she decided. "it's myself." "i might have known when we asked her here," said sir isaac with an habitual disregard of her judgments that was beginning to irritate her more and more. "you can't take on all these people. they're not the sort of people we want to know." "i want to know them," said lady harman. "i don't." "i find them interesting," lady harman said. "and i've promised." "well you oughtn't to have promised without consulting me." her reply was the material of much subsequent reflection on the part of sir isaac. there was something in her manner.... "you see, isaac," she said, "you kept so out of the way...." in the pause that followed her words, mrs. sawbridge appeared from the garden smiling with a determined amiability, and bearing a great bunch of the best roses (which sir isaac hated to have picked) in her hands. chapter the fourth the beginnings of lady harman § lady harman had been married when she was just eighteen. mrs. sawbridge was the widow of a solicitor who had been killed in a railway collision while his affairs, as she put it, were unsettled; and she had brought up her two daughters in a villa at penge upon very little money, in a state of genteel protest. ellen was the younger. she had been a sturdy dark-eyed doll-dragging little thing and had then shot up very rapidly. she had gone to a boarding-school at wimbledon because mrs. sawbridge thought the penge day-school had made georgina opiniated and unladylike, besides developing her muscular system to an unrefined degree. the wimbledon school was on less progressive lines, and anyhow ellen grew taller and more feminine than her sister and by seventeen was already womanly, dignified and intensely admired by a number of schoolmates and a large circle of their cousins and brothers. she was generally very good and only now and then broke out with a venturesome enterprise that hurt nobody. she got out of a skylight, for example, and perambulated the roof in the moonshine to see how it felt and did one or two other little things of a similar kind. otherwise her conduct was admirable and her temper in those days was always contagiously good. that attractiveness which mr. brumley felt, was already very manifest, and a little hindered her in the attainment of other distinctions. most of her lessons were done for her by willing slaves, and they were happy slaves because she abounded in rewarding kindnesses; but on the other hand the study of english literature and music was almost forced upon her by the zeal of the two visiting professors of these subjects. and at seventeen, which is the age when girls most despise the boyishness of young men, she met sir isaac and filled him with an invincible covetousness.... § the school at wimbledon was a large, hushed, faded place presided over by a lady of hidden motives and great exterior calm named miss beeton clavier. she was handsome without any improper attractiveness, an associate in arts of st. andrew's university and a cousin of mr. blenker of the _old country gazette_. she was assisted by several resident mistresses and two very carefully married visiting masters for music and shakespear, and playground and shrubbery and tennis-lawn were all quite effectively hidden from the high-road. the curriculum included latin grammar--nobody ever got to the reading of books in that formidable tongue--french by an english lady who had been in france, hanoverian german by an irascible native, the more seemly aspects of english history and literature, arithmetic, algebra, political economy and drawing. there was no hockey played within the precincts, science was taught without the clumsy apparatus or objectionable diagrams that are now so common, and stress was laid upon the carriage of the young ladies and the iniquity of speaking in raised voices. miss beeton clavier deprecated the modern "craze for examinations," and released from such pressure her staff did not so much give courses of lessons as circle in a thorough-looking and patient manner about their subjects. this turn-spit quality was reflected in the school idiom; one did not learn algebra or latin or so-forth, one _did_ algebra, one was _put into_ latin.... the girls went through this system of exercises and occupations, evasively and as it were _sotto voce_, making friends, making enemies, making love to one another, following instincts that urged them to find out something about life--in spite of the most earnest discouragement.... none of them believed for a moment that the school was preparing them for life. most of them regarded it as a long inexplicable passage of blank, grey occupations through which they had to pass. beyond was the sunshine. ellen gathered what came to her. she realized a certain beauty in music in spite of the biographies of great musicians, the technical enthusiasms and the general professionalism of her teacher; the literature master directed her attention to memoirs and through these she caught gleams of understanding when the characters of history did for brief intervals cease to be rigidly dignified and institutional like miss beeton clavier and became human--like schoolfellows. and one little spectacled mistress, who wore art dresses and adorned her class-room with flowers, took a great fancy to her, talked to her with much vagueness and emotion of high aims, and lent her with an impressive furtiveness the works of emerson and shelley and a pamphlet by bernard shaw. it was a little difficult to understand what these writers were driving at, they were so dreadfully clever, but it was clear they reflected criticism upon the silences of her mother and the rigidities of miss beeton clavier. in that suppressed and evasive life beneath the outer forms and procedures of school and home, there came glimmerings of something that seemed charged with the promise of holding everything together, the key, religion. she was attracted to religion, much more attracted than she would confess even to herself, but every circumstance in her training dissuaded her from a free approach. her mother treated religion with a reverence that was almost indistinguishable from huffiness. she never named the deity and she did not like the mention of his name: she threw a spell of indelicacy over religious topics that ellen never thoroughly cast off. she put god among objectionable topics--albeit a sublime one. miss beeton clavier sustained this remarkable suggestion. when she read prayers in school she did so with the balanced impartiality of one who offers no comment. she seemed pained as she read and finished with a sigh. whatever she intended to convey, she conveyed that even if the divinity was not all he should be, if, indeed, he was a person almost primitive, having neither the restraint nor the self-obliteration of a refined gentlewoman, no word of it should ever pass her lips. and so ellen as a girl never let her mind go quite easily into this reconciling core of life, and talked of it only very rarely and shyly with a few chosen coevals. it wasn't very profitable talk. they had a guilty feeling, they laughed a little uneasily, they displayed a fatal proclivity to stab the swelling gravity of their souls with some forced and silly jest and so tumble back to ground again before they rose too high.... yet great possibilities of faith and devotion stirred already in the girl's heart. she thought little of god by day, but had a strange sense of him in the starlight; never under the moonlight--that was in no sense divine--but in the stirring darkness of the stars. and it is remarkable that after a course of astronomical enlightenment by a visiting master and descriptions of masses and distances, incredible aching distances, then even more than ever she seemed to feel god among the stars.... a fatal accident to a schoolfellow turned her mind for a time to the dark stillnesses of death. the accident happened away in wales during the summer holidays; she saw nothing of it, she only knew of its consequence. hitherto she had assumed it was the function of girls to grow up and go out from the grey intermediate state of school work into freedoms and realities beyond. death happened, she was aware, to young people, but not she had thought to the people one knew. this termination came with a shock. the girl was no great personal loss to ellen, they had belonged to different sets and classes, but the conception of her as lying very very still for ever was a haunting one. ellen felt she did not want to be still for evermore in a confined space, with life and sunshine going on all about her and above her, and it quickened her growing appetite for living to think that she might presently have to be like that. how stifled one would feel! it couldn't be like that. she began to speculate about that future life upon which religion insists so much and communicates so little. was it perhaps in other planets, under those wonderful, many-mooned, silver-banded skies? she perceived more and more a kind of absurdity in the existence all about her. was all this world a mere make-believe, and would miss beeton clavier and every one about her presently cast aside a veil? manifestly there was a veil. she had a very natural disposition to doubt whether the actual circumstances of her life were real. her mother for instance was so lacking in blood and fire, so very like the stiff paper wrapping of something else. but if these things were not real, what was real? what might she not presently do? what might she not presently be? perhaps death had something to do with that. was death perhaps no more than the flinging off of grotesque outer garments by the newly arrived guests at the feast of living? she had that feeling that there might be a feast of living. these preoccupations were a jealously guarded secret, but they gave her a quality of slight detachment that added a dreaming dignity to her dark tall charm. there were moments of fine, deep excitement that somehow linked themselves in her mind with these thoughts as being set over against the things of every day. these too were moments quite different and separate in quality from delight, from the keen appreciation of flowers or sunshine or little vividly living things. daylight seemed to blind her to them, as they blinded her to starshine. they too had a quality of reference to things large and remote, distances, unknown mysteries of light and matter, the thought of mountains, cool white wildernesses and driving snowstorms, or great periods of time. such were the luminous transfigurations that would come to her at the evening service in church. the school used to sit in the gallery over against the organist, and for a year and more ellen had the place at the corner from which she could look down the hazy candle-lit vista of the nave and see the congregation as ranks and ranks of dim faces and vaguely apprehended clothes, ranks that rose with a peculiar deep and spacious rustle to sing, and sang with a massiveness of effect she knew in no other music. certain hymns in particular seemed to bear her up and carry her into another larger, more wonderful world: "heart's abode, celestial salem" for example, a world of luminous spiritualized sensuousness. of such a quality she thought the heavenly city must surely be, away there and away. but this persuasion differed from those other mystical intimations in its detachment from any sense of the divinity. and remarkably mixed up with it and yet not belonging to it, antagonistic and kindred like a silver dagger stuck through a mystically illuminated parchment, was the angelic figure of a tall fair boy in a surplice who stood out amidst the choir below and sang, it seemed to her, alone. she herself on these occasions of exaltation would be far too deeply moved to sing. she was inundated by a swimming sense of boundaries nearly transcended, as though she was upon the threshold of a different life altogether, the real enduring life, and as though if she could only maintain herself long enough in this shimmering exaltation she would get right over; things would happen, things that would draw her into that music and magic and prevent her ever returning to everyday life again. there one would walk through music between great candles under eternal stars, hand-in-hand with a tall white figure. but nothing ever did happen to make her cross that boundary; the hymn ceased, the "amen" died away, as if a curtain fell. the congregation subsided. reluctantly she would sink back into her seat.... but all through the sermon, to which she never gave the slightest attention, her mind would feel mute and stilled, and she used to come out of church silent and preoccupied, returning unwillingly to the commonplaces of life.... § ellen met sir isaac--in the days before he was sir isaac--at the house of a school friend with whom she was staying at hythe, and afterwards her mother and sister came down and joined her for a fortnight at a folkstone boarding house. mr. harman had caught a chill while inspecting his north wales branches and had come down with his mother to recuperate. he and his mother occupied a suite of rooms in the most imposing hotel upon the leas. ellen's friend's people were partners in a big flour firm and had a pleasant new æsthetic white and green house of rough-cast and slates in the pretty country beyond the hythe golf links, and ellen's friend's father was deeply anxious to develop amiable arrangements with mr. harman. there was much tennis, much croquet, much cycling to the hythe sea-wall and bathing from little tents and sitting about in the sunshine, and mr. harman had his first automobile with him--they were still something of a novelty in those days--and was urgent to take picnic parties to large lonely places on the downs. there were only two young men in that circle, one was engaged to ellen's friend's sister, and the other was bound to a young woman remote in italy; neither was strikingly attractive and both regarded harman with that awe tempered by undignified furtive derision which wealth and business capacity so often inspire in the young male. at first he was quiet and simply looked at her, as it seemed any one might look, then she perceived he looked at her intently and continuously, and was persistently close to her and seemed always to be trying to do things to please her and attract her attention. and then from the general behaviour of the women about her, her mother and mrs. harman and her friend's mother and her friend's sister, rather than from any one specific thing they said, it grew upon her consciousness that this important and fabulously wealthy person, who was also it seemed to her so modest and quiet and touchingly benevolent, was in love with her. "your daughter," said mrs. harman repeatedly to mrs. sawbridge, "is charming, perfectly charming." "she's _such_ a child," said mrs. sawbridge repeatedly in reply. and she told ellen's friend's mother apropos of ellen's friend's engagement that she wanted all her daughters to marry for love, she didn't care what the man had so long as they loved each other, and meanwhile she took the utmost care that isaac had undisputed access to the girl, was watchfully ready to fend off anyone else, made her take everything he offered and praised him quietly and steadily to her. she pointed out how modest and unassuming he was, in spite of the fact that he was "controlling an immense business" and in his own particular trade "a perfect napoleon." "for all one sees to the contrary he might be just a private gentleman. and he feeds thousands and thousands of people...." "sooner or later," said mrs. harman, "i suppose isaac will marry. he's been such a good son to me that i shall feel it dreadfully, and yet, you know, i wish i could see him settled. then _i_ shall settle--in a little house of my own somewhere. just a little place. i don't believe in coming too much between son and daughter-in-law...." harman's natural avidity was tempered by a proper modesty. he thought ellen so lovely and so infinitely desirable--and indeed she was--that it seemed incredible to him that he could ever get her. and yet he had got most of the things in life he had really and urgently wanted. his doubts gave his love-making an eager, lavish and pathetic delicacy. he watched her minutely in an agony of appreciation. he felt ready to give or promise anything. she was greatly flattered by his devotion and she liked the surprises and presents he heaped upon her extremely. also she was sorry for him beyond measure. in the deep recesses of her heart was an oleographic ideal of a large brave young man with blue eyes, a wave in his fair hair, a wonderful tenor voice and--she could not help it, she tried to look away and not think of it--a broad chest. with him she intended to climb mountains. so clearly she could not marry mr. harman. and because of that she tried to be very kind indeed to him, and when he faltered that she could not possibly care for him, she reassured him so vaguely as to fill him with wild gusts of hope and herself with a sense of pledges. he told her one day between two sets of tennis--which he played with a certain tricky skill--that he felt that the very highest happiness he could ever attain would be to die at her feet. presently her pity and her sense of responsibility had become so large and deep that the dream hero with the blue eyes was largely overlaid and hidden by them. then, at first a little indirectly and then urgently and with a voice upon the edge of tears, harman implored her to marry him. she had never before in the whole course of her life seen a grown-up person on the very verge of tears. she felt that the release of such deep fountains as that must be averted at any cost. she felt that for a mere schoolgirl like herself, a backward schoolgirl who had never really mastered quadratics, to cause these immense and tragic distresses was abominable. she was sure her former headmistress would disapprove very highly of her. "i will make you a queen," said harman, "i will give all my life to your happiness." she believed he would. she refused him for the second time but with a weakening certainty in a little white summer-house that gave a glimpse of the sea between green and wooded hills. she sat and stared at the sea after he had left her, through a mist of tears; so pitiful did he seem. he had beaten his poor fists on the stone table and then caught up her hand, kissed it and rushed out.... she had not dreamt that love could hurt like that. and all that night--that is to say for a full hour before her wet eyelashes closed in slumber--she was sleepless with remorse for the misery she was causing him. the third time when he said with suicidal conviction that he could not live without her, she burst into tears of pity and yielded. and instantly, amazingly, with the famished swiftness of a springing panther he caught her body into his arms and kissed her on the lips.... § they were married with every circumstance of splendour, with very expensive music, and portraits in the illustrated newspapers and a great glitter of favours and carriages. the bridegroom was most thoughtful and generous about the sawbridge side of the preparations. only one thing was a little perplexing. in spite of his impassioned impatience he delayed the wedding. full of dark hints and a portentous secret, he delayed the wedding for twenty-five whole days in order that it should follow immediately upon the publication of the birthday honours list. and then they understood. "you will be lady harman," he exulted; "_lady_ harman. i would have given double.... i have had to back the _old country gazette_ and i don't care a rap. i'd have done anything. i'd have bought the rotten thing outright.... lady harman!" he remained loverlike until the very eve of their marriage. then suddenly it seemed to her that all the people she cared for in the world were pushing her away from them towards him, giving her up, handing her over. he became--possessive. his abjection changed to pride. she perceived that she was going to be left tremendously alone with him, with an effect, as if she had stepped off a terrace on to what she believed to be land and had abruptly descended into very deep water.... and while she was still feeling quite surprised by everything and extremely doubtful whether she wanted to go any further with this business, which was manifestly far more serious, out of all proportion more serious, than anything that had ever happened to her before--and _unpleasant_, abounding indeed in crumpling indignities and horrible nervous stresses, it dawned upon her that she was presently to be that strange, grown-up and preoccupied thing, a mother, and that girlhood and youth and vigorous games, mountains and swimming and running and leaping were over for her as far as she could see for ever.... both the prospective grandmothers became wonderfully kind and helpful and intimate, preparing with gusto and an agreeable sense of delegated responsibility for the child that was to give them all the pride of maternity again and none of its inconveniences. chapter the fifth the world according to sir isaac § her marriage had carried ellen out of the narrow world of home and school into another that had seemed at first vastly larger, if only on account of its freedom from the perpetual achievement of small economies. hitherto the urgent necessity of these had filled life with irksome precautions and clipped the wings of every dream. this new life into which sir isaac led her by the hand promised not only that release but more light, more colour, more movement, more people. there was to be at any rate so much in the way of rewards and compensation for her pity of him. she found the establishment at putney ready for her. sir isaac had not consulted her about it, it had been his secret, he had prepared it for her with meticulous care as a surprise. they returned from a honeymoon in skye in which the attentions of sir isaac and the comforts of a first-class hotel had obscured a marvellous background of sombre mountain and wide stretches of shining sea. sir isaac had been very fond and insistent and inseparable, and she was doing her best to conceal a strange distressful jangling of her nerves which she now feared might presently dispose her to scream. sir isaac had been goodness itself, but how she craved now for solitude! she was under the impression now that they were going to his mother's house in highbury. then she thought he would have to go away to business for part of the day at any rate, and she could creep into some corner and begin to think of all that had happened to her in these short summer months. they were met at euston by his motor-car. "_home_," said sir isaac, with a little gleam of excitement, when the more immediate luggage was aboard. as they hummed through the west-end afternoon ellen became aware that he was whistling through his teeth. it was his invariable indication of mental activity, and her attention came drifting back from her idle contemplation of the shoppers and strollers of piccadilly to link this already alarming symptom with the perplexing fact that they were manifestly travelling west. "but this," she said presently, "is knightsbridge." "goes to kensington," he replied with attempted indifference. "but your mother doesn't live this way." "_we_ do," said sir isaac, shining at every point of his face. "but," she halted. "isaac!--where are we going?" "home," he said. "you've not taken a house?" "bought it." "but,--it won't be ready!" "i've seen to that." "servants!" she cried in dismay. "that's all right." his face broke into an excited smile. his little eyes danced and shone. "everything," he said. "but the servants!" she said. "you'll see," he said. "there's a butler--and everything." "a butler!" he could now no longer restrain himself. "i was weeks," he said, "getting it ready. weeks and weeks.... it's a house.... i'd had my eye on it before ever i met you. it's a real _good_ house, elly...." the fortunate girl-wife went on through brompton to walham green with a stunned feeling. so women have felt in tumbrils. a nightmare of butlers, a galaxy of possible butlers, filled her soul. no one was quite so big and formidable as snagsby, towering up to receive her, upon the steps of the home her husband was so amazingly giving her. the reader has already been privileged to see something of this house in the company of lady beach-mandarin. at the top of the steps stood mrs. crumble, the new and highly recommended cook-housekeeper in her best black silk flounced and expanded, and behind her peeped several neat maids in caps and aprons. a little valet-like under-butler appeared and tried to balance snagsby by hovering two steps above him on the opposite side of the victorian mediæval porch. assisted officiously by snagsby and amidst the deferential unhelpful gestures of the under-butler, sir isaac handed his wife out of the car. "everything all right, snagsby?" he asked brusquely if a little breathless. "everything in order, sir isaac." "and here;--this is her ladyship." "i 'ope her ladyship 'ad a pleasent journey to 'er new 'ome. i'm sure if i may presume, sir isaac, we shall all be very glad to serve her ladyship." (like all well-trained english servants, snagsby always dropped as many h's as he could when conversing with his superiors. he did this as a mark of respect and to prevent social confusion, just as he was always careful to wear a slightly misfitting dress coat and fold his trousers so that they creased at the sides and had a wide flat effect in front.) lady harman bowed a little shyly to his good wishes and was then led up to mrs. crumble, in a stiff black silk, who curtseyed with a submissive amiability to her new mistress. "i'm sure, me lady," she said. "i'm sure----" there was a little pause. "here they are, you see, right and ready," said sir isaac, and then with an inspiration, "got any tea for us, snagsby?" snagsby addressing his mistress inquired if he should serve tea in the garden or the drawing-room, and sir isaac decided for the garden. "there's another hall beyond this," he said, and took his wife's arm, leaving mrs. crumble still bowing amiably before the hall table. and every time she bowed she rustled richly.... "it's quite a big garden," said sir isaac. § and so the woman who had been a girl three weeks ago, this tall, dark-eyed, slightly perplexed and very young-looking lady, was introduced to the home that had been made for her. she went about it with an alarmed sense of strange responsibilities, not in the least feeling that anything was being given to her. and sir isaac led her from point to point full of the pride and joy of new possession--for it was his first own house as well as hers--rejoicing over it and exacting gratitude. "it's all right, isn't it?" he asked looking up at her. "it's wonderful. i'd no idea." "see," he said, indicating a great brass bowl of perennial sunflowers on the landing, "your favourite flower!" "my favourite flower?" "you said it was--in that book. perennial sunflower." she was perplexed and then remembered. she understood now why he had said downstairs, when she had glanced at a big photographic enlargement of a portrait of doctor barnardo, "your favourite hero in real life." he had brought her at hythe one day a popular victorian device, a confession album, in which she had had to write down on a neat rose-tinted page, her favourite author, her favourite flower, her favourite colour, her favourite hero in real life, her "pet aversion," and quite a number of such particulars of her subjective existence. she had filled this page in a haphazard manner late one night, and she was disconcerted to find how thoroughly her careless replies had come home to roost. she had put down "pink" as her favourite colour because the page she was writing upon suggested it, and the paper of the room was pale pink, the curtains strong pink with a pattern of paler pink and tied with large pink bows, and the lamp shades, the bedspread, the pillow-cases, the carpet, the chairs, the very crockery--everything but the omnipresent perennial sunflowers--was pink. confronted with this realization, she understood that pink was the least agreeable of all possible hues for a bedroom. she perceived she had to live now in a chromatic range between rather underdone mutton and salmon. she had said that her favourite musical composers were bach and beethoven; she really meant it, and a bust of beethoven materialized that statement, but she had made doctor barnardo her favourite hero in real life because his name also began with a b and she had heard someone say somewhere that he was a very good man. the predominance of george eliot's pensive rather than delightful countenance in her bedroom and the array of all that lady's works in a lusciously tooled pink leather, was due to her equally reckless choice of a favourite author. she had said too that nelson was her favourite historical character, but sir isaac with a delicate jealousy had preferred to have this heroic but regrettably immoral personality represented in his home only by an engraving of the battle of copenhagen.... she stood surveying this room, and her husband watched her eagerly. she was, he felt, impressed at last!... certainly she had never seen such a bedroom in her life. by comparison even with the largest of the hotel apartments they had occupied it was vast; it had writing-tables and a dainty bookcase and a blushing sofa, and dressing-tables and a bureau and a rose-red screen and three large windows. her thoughts went back to the narrow little bedroom at penge with which she had hitherto been so entirely content. her own few little books, a photograph or so,--they'd never dare to come here, even if she dared to bring them. "here," said sir isaac, flinging open a white door, "is your dressing-room." she was chiefly aware of a huge white bath standing on a marble slab under a window of crinkled pink-stained glass, and of a wide space of tiled floor with white fur rugs. "and here," he said, opening a panel that was covered by wall paper, "is _my_ door." "yes," he said to the question in her eyes, "that's my room. you got this one--for your own. it's how people do now. people of our position.... there's no lock." he shut the door slowly again and surveyed the splendours he had made with infinite satisfaction. "all right?" he said, "isn't it?"... he turned to the pearl for which the casket was made, and slipped an arm about her waist. his arm tightened. "got a kiss for me, elly?" he whispered. at this moment, a gong almost worthy of snagsby summoned them to tea. it came booming in to them with a vast officious arrogance that brooked no denial. it made one understand the imperatives of the last trump, albeit with a greater dignity.... there was a little awkward pause. "i'm so dirty and trainy," she said, disengaging herself from his arm. "and we ought to go to tea." § the same exceptional aptitude of sir isaac for detailed administration that had relieved his wife from the need of furnishing and arranging a home, made the birth of her children and the organization of her nursery an almost detached affair for her. sir isaac went about in a preoccupied way, whistling between his teeth and planning with expert advice the equipment of an ideal nursery, and her mother and his mother became as it were voluminous clouds of uncommunicative wisdom and precaution. in addition the conversation of miss crump, the extremely skilled and costly nurse, who arrived a full advent before the child, fresh from the birth of a viscount, did much to generalize whatever had remained individual of this thing that was happening. with so much intelligence focussed, there seemed to lady harman no particular reason why she should not do her best to think as little as possible about the impending affair, which meant for her, she now understood quite clearly, more and more discomfort culminating in an agony. the summer promised to be warm, and sir isaac took a furnished house for the great event in the hills behind torquay. the maternal instinct is not a magic thing, it has to be evoked and developed, and i decline to believe it is indicative of any peculiar unwomanliness in lady harman that when at last she beheld her newly-born daughter in the hands of the experts, she moaned druggishly, "oh! please take it away. oh! take it--away. anywhere--anywhere." it was very red and wrinkled and aged-looking and, except when it opened its mouth to cry, extraordinarily like its father. this resemblance disappeared--along with a crop of darkish red hair--in the course of a day or two, but it left a lurking dislike to its proximity in her mind long after it had become an entirely infantile and engaging baby. § those early years of their marriage were the happiest period of sir isaac's life. he seemed to have everything that man could desire. he was still only just forty at his marriage; he had made for himself a position altogether dominant in the world of confectionery and popular refreshment, he had won a title, he had a home after his own heart, a beautiful young wife, and presently delightful children in his own image, and it was only after some years of contentment and serenity and with a certain incredulity that he discovered that something in his wife, something almost in the nature of discontent with her lot, was undermining and threatening all the comfort and beauty of his life. sir isaac was one of those men whom modern england delights to honour, a man of unpretentious acquisitiveness, devoted to business and distracted by no æsthetic or intellectual interests. he was the only son of his mother, the widow of a bankrupt steam-miller, and he had been a delicate child to rear. he left mr. gambard's college at ealing after passing the second-class examination of the college of preceptors at the age of sixteen, to go into a tea-office as clerk without a salary, a post he presently abandoned for a clerkship in the office of a large refreshment catering firm. he attracted the attention of his employers by suggesting various administrative economies, and he was already drawing a salary of two hundred and fifty pounds a year when he was twenty-one. many young men would have rested satisfied with so rapid an advancement, and would have devoted themselves to the amusements that are now considered so permissible to youth, but young harman was made of sterner stuff, and it only spurred him to further efforts. he contrived to save a considerable proportion of his salary for some years, and at the age of twenty-seven he started, in association with a firm of flour millers, the international bread and cake stores, which spread rapidly over the country. they were not in any sense of the word "international," but in a search for inflated and inflating adjectives this word attracted him most, and the success of the enterprise justified his choice. originally conceived as a syndicated system of baker's shops running a specially gritty and nutritious line of bread, the staminal bread, in addition to the ordinary descriptions, it rapidly developed a catering side, and in a little time there were few centres of clerkly employment in london or the midlands where an international could not be found supplying the midday scone or poached egg, washed down by a cup of tea, or coffee, or lemonade. it meant hard work for isaac harman. it drew lines on his cheeks, sharpened his always rather pointed nose to an extreme efficiency, greyed his hair, and gave an acquired firmness to his rather retreating mouth. all his time was given to the details of this development; always he was inspecting premises, selecting and dismissing managers, making codes of rules and fines for his growing army of employees, organizing and reorganizing his central offices and his central bakeries, hunting up cheaper and cheaper supplies of eggs and flour, and milk and ham, devising advertisements and agency developments. he had something of an artist's passion in these things; he went about, a little bent and peaky, calculating and planning and hissing through his teeth, and feeling not only that he was getting on, but that he was getting on in the most exemplary way. manifestly, anybody in his line of business who wanted to be leisurely, or to be generous, who possessed any broader interests than the shop, who troubled to think about the nation or the race or any of the deeper mysteries of life, was bound to go down before him. he dealt privately with every appetite--until his marriage no human being could have suspected him of any appetite but business--he disposed of every distracting impulse with unobtrusive decision; and even his political inclination towards radicalism sprang chiefly from an irritation with the legal advantages of landlordism natural to a man who is frequently leasing shops. at school sir isaac had not been a particularly prominent figure; his disposition at cricket to block and to bowl "sneaks" and "twisters" under-arm had raised his average rather than his reputation; he had evaded fights and dramatic situations, and protected himself upon occasions of unavoidable violence by punching with his white knuckles held in a peculiar and vicious manner. he had always been a little insensitive to those graces of style, in action if not in art, which appeal so strongly to the commoner sort of english mind; he played first for safety, and that assured, for the uttermost advantage. these tendencies became more marked with maturity. when he took up tennis for his health's sake he developed at once an ungracious service that had to be killed like vermin; he developed an instinct for the deadest ball available, and his returns close up to the net were like assassinations. indeed, he was inherently incapable of any vision beyond the express prohibitions and permissions of the rules of the games he played, or beyond the laws and institutions under which he lived. his idea of generosity was the undocumented and unqualified purchase of a person by payments made in the form of a gift. and this being the quality of sir isaac's mind, it followed that his interpretations of the relationship of marriage were simple and strict. a woman, he knew, had to be wooed to be won, but when she was won, she was won. he did not understand wooing after that was settled. there was the bargain and her surrender. he on his side had to keep her, dress her, be kind to her, give her the appearances of pride and authority, and in return he had his rights and his privileges and undefined powers of control. that you know, by the existing rules, is the reality of marriage where there are no settlements and no private property of the wife's. that is to say, it is the reality of marriage in ninety-nine cases out of the hundred. and it would have shocked sir isaac extremely, and as a matter of fact it did shock him, for any one to suggest the slightest revision of so entirely advantageous an arrangement. he was confident of his good intentions, and resolved to the best of his ability to make his wife the happiest of living creatures, subject only to reasonable acquiescences and general good behaviour. never before had he cared for anything so much as he did for her--not even for the international bread and cake stores. he gloated upon her. she distracted him from business. he resolved from the outset to surround her with every luxury and permit her no desire that he had not already anticipated. even her mother and georgina, whom he thought extremely unnecessary persons, were frequent visitors to his house. his solicitude for her was so great that she found it difficult even to see her doctor except in his presence. and he bought her a pearl necklace that cost six hundred pounds. he was, in fact, one of those complete husbands who grow rare in these decadent days. the social circle to which sir isaac introduced his wife was not a very extensive one. the business misadventures of his father had naturally deprived his mother of most of her friends; he had made only acquaintances at school, and his subsequent concentration upon business had permitted very few intimacies. renewed prosperity had produced a certain revival of cousins, but mrs. harman, established in a pleasant house at highbury, had received their attentions with a well-merited stiffness. his chief associates were his various business allies, and these and their wives and families formed the nucleus of the new world to which ellen was gradually and temperately introduced. there were a few local callers, but putney is now too deeply merged with london for this practice of the countryside to have any great effect upon a new-comer's visiting circle. perhaps mr. charterson might claim to be sir isaac's chief friend at the time of that gentleman's marriage. transactions in sugar had brought them together originally. he was sir isaac's best man, and the new knight entertained a feeling of something very like admiration for him. moreover, mr. charterson had very large ears, more particularly was the left one large, extraordinarily large and projecting upper teeth, which he sought vainly to hide beneath an extravagant moustache, and a harsh voice, characteristics that did much to allay the anxieties natural to a newly married man. mr. charterson was moreover adequately married to a large, attentive, enterprising, swarthy wife, and possessed a splendid house in belgravia. not quite so self-made as sir isaac, he was still sufficiently self-made to take a very keen interest in his own social advancement and in social advancement generally, and it was through him that sir isaac's attention had been first directed to those developing relations with politics that arise as a business grows to greatness. "i'm for parliament," said charterson. "sugar's in politics, and i'm after it. you'd better come too, harman. those chaps up there, they'll play jiggery-pokery with sugar if we aren't careful. and it won't be only sugar, harman!" pressed to expand this latter sentence, he pointed out to his friend that "any amount of interfering with employment" was in the air--"any amount." "and besides," said mr. charterson, "men like us have a stake in the country, harman. we're getting biggish people. we ought to do our share. i don't see the fun of leaving everything to the landlords and the lawyers. men of our sort have got to make ourselves felt. we want a business government. of course--one pays. so long as i get a voice in calling the tune i don't mind paying the piper a bit. there's going to be a lot of interference with trade. all this social legislation. and there's what you were saying the other day about these leases...." "i'm not much of a talker," said harman. "i don't see myself gassing in the house." "oh! i don't mean going into parliament," said charterson. "that's for some of us, perhaps.... but come into the party, make yourself felt." under charterson's stimulation it was that harman joined the national liberal club, and presently went on to the climax, and through him he came to know something of that inner traffic of arrangements and bargains which does so much to keep a great historical party together and maintain its vitality. for a time he was largely overshadowed by the sturdy radicalism of charterson, but presently as he understood this interesting game better, he embarked upon a line of his own. charterson wanted a seat, and presently got it; his maiden speech on the sugar bounties won a compliment from mr. evesham; and harman, who would have piloted a monoplane sooner than address the house, decided to be one of those silent influences that work outside our national assembly. he came to the help of an embarrassed liberal weekly, and then, in a fleet street crisis, undertook the larger share of backing the _old country gazette_, that important social and intellectual party organ. his knighthood followed almost automatically. such political developments introduced a second element into the intermittent social relations of the harman household. before his knighthood and marriage sir isaac had participated in various public banquets and private parties and little dinners in the vaults of the house and elsewhere, arising out of his political intentions, and with the appearance of a lady harman there came a certain urgency on the part of those who maintain in a state of hectic dullness the social activities of the great liberal party. horatio blenker, sir isaac's editor, showed a disposition to be socially very helpful, and after mrs. blenker had called in a state of worldly instructiveness, there was a little dinner at the blenkers' to introduce young lady harman to the great political world. it was the first dinner-party of her life, and she found it dazzling rather than really agreeable. she felt very slender and young and rather unclothed about the arms and neck, in spite of the six hundred pound pearl necklace that had been given to her just as she stood before the mirror in her white-and-gold dinner dress ready to start. she had to look down at that dress ever and again and at her shining arms to remind herself that she wasn't still in schoolgirl clothes, and it seemed to her there was not another woman in the room who was not fairly entitled to send her off to bed at any moment. she had been a little nervous about the details of the dinner, but there was nothing strange or difficult but caviare, and in that case she waited for some one else to begin. the chartersons were there, which was very reassuring, and the abundant flowers on the table were a sort of protection. the man on her right was very nice, gently voluble, and evidently quite deaf, so that she had merely to make kind respectful faces at him. he talked to her most of the time, and described the peasant costumes in marken and walcheren. and mr. blenker, with a fine appreciation of sir isaac's watchful temperament and his own magnetism, spoke to her three times and never looked at her once all through the entertainment. a few weeks later they went to dinner at the chartersons', and then she gave a dinner, which was arranged very skilfully by sir isaac and snagsby and the cook-housekeeper, with a little outside help, and then came a big party reception at lady barleypound's, a multitudinous miscellaneous assembly in which the obviously wealthy rubbed shoulders with the obviously virtuous and the not quite so obviously clever. it was a great orgy of standing about and seeing the various blenkers and the cramptons and the weston massinghays and the daytons and mrs. millingham with her quivering lorgnette and her last tame genius and lewis, and indeed all the tapirs and tadpoles of liberalism, being tremendously active and influential and important throughout the evening. the house struck ellen as being very splendid, the great staircase particularly so, and never before had she seen a great multitude of people in evening dress. lady barleypound in the golden parlour at the head of the stairs shook hands automatically, lest it would seem in some amiable dream, mrs. blapton and a daughter rustled across the gathering in a hasty vindictive manner and vanished, and a number of handsome, glittering, dark-eyed, splendidly dressed women kept together in groups and were tremendously but occultly amused. the various blenkers seemed everywhere, horatio in particular with his large fluent person and his luminous tenor was like a shop-walker taking customers to the departments: one felt he was weaving all these immiscibles together into one great wise liberal purpose, and that he deserved quite wonderful things from the party; he even introduced five or six people to lady harman, looking sternly over her head and restraining his charm as he did so on account of sir isaac's feelings. the people he brought up to her were not very interesting people, she thought, but then that was perhaps due to her own dreadful ignorance of politics. lady harman ceased even to dip into the vortex of london society after march, and in june she went with her mother and a skilled nurse to that beautiful furnished house sir isaac had found near torquay, in preparation for the birth of their first little daughter. § it seemed to her husband that it was both unreasonable and ungrateful of her to become a tearful young woman after their union, and for a phase of some months she certainly was a tearful young woman, but his mother made it clear to him that this was quite a correct and permissible phase for her, as she was, and so he expressed his impatience with temperance, and presently she was able to pull herself together and begin to readjust herself to a universe that had seemed for a time almost too shattered for endurance. she resumed the process of growing up that her marriage had for a time so vividly interrupted, and if her schooldays were truncated and the college phase omitted, she had at any rate a very considerable amount of fundamental experience to replace these now customary completions. three little girls she brought into the world in the first three years of her married life, then after a brief interval of indifferent health she had a fourth girl baby of a physique quite obviously inferior to its predecessors, and then, after--and perhaps as a consequence of--much whispered conversation of the two mothers-in-law, protests and tactful explanation on the part of the elderly and trustworthy family doctor and remarks of an extraordinary breadth (and made at table too, almost before the door had closed on snagsby!) from ellen's elder sister, there came a less reproductive phase.... but by that time lady harman had acquired the habit of reading and the habit of thinking over what she read, and from that it is an easy step to thinking over oneself and the circumstances of one's own life. the one thing trains for the other. now the chief circumstance in the life of lady harman was sir isaac. indeed as she grew to a clear consciousness of herself and her position, it seemed to her he was not so much a circumstance as a circumvallation. there wasn't a direction in which she could turn without immediately running up against him. he had taken possession of her extremely. and from her first resignation to this as an inevitable fact she had come, she hardly knew how, to a renewed disposition to regard this large and various universe beyond him and outside of him, with something of the same slight adventurousness she had felt before he so comprehensively happened to her. after her first phase of despair she had really done her best to honour the bargain she had rather unwittingly made and to love and to devote herself and be a loyal and happy wife to this clutching, hard-breathing little man who had got her, and it was the insatiable excesses of his demands quite as much as any outer influence that made her realize the impossibility of such a concentration. his was a supremely acquisitive and possessive character, so that he insulted her utmost subjugations by an obtrusive suspicion and jealousy, he was jealous of her childish worship of her dead father, jealous of her disposition to go to church, jealous of the poet wordsworth because she liked to read his sonnets, jealous because she loved great music, jealous when she wanted to go out; if she seemed passionless and she seemed more and more passionless he was jealous, and the slightest gleam of any warmth of temperament filled him with a vile and furious dread of dishonouring possibilities. and the utmost resolution to believe in him could not hide from her for ever the fact that his love manifested itself almost wholly as a parade of ownership and a desire, without kindliness, without any self-forgetfulness. all his devotion, his self-abjection, had been the mere qualms of a craving, the flush of eager courtship. do as she would to overcome these realizations, forces within her stronger than herself, primordial forces with the welfare of all life in their keeping, cried out upon the meanness of his face, the ugly pointed nose and the thin compressed lips, the weak neck, the clammy hands, the ungainly nervous gestures, the tuneless whistling between the clenched teeth. he would not let her forget a single detail. whenever she tried to look at any created thing, he thrust himself, like one of his own open-air advertisements, athwart the attraction. as she grew up to an achieved womanhood--and it was even a physical growing-up, for she added more than an inch of stature after her marriage--her life became more and more consciously like a fencing match in which her vision flashed over his head and under his arms and this side of him and that, while with a toiling industry he fought to intercept it. and from the complete acceptance of her matrimonial submission, she passed on by almost insensible degrees towards a conception of her life as a struggle, that seemed at first entirely lonely and unsupported, to exist--_against_ him. in every novel as in every picture there must be an immense simplification, and so i tell the story of lady harman's changing attitude without any of those tangled leapings-forward or harkings-back, those moods and counter moods and relapses which made up the necessary course of her mind. but sometimes she was here and sometimes she was there, sometimes quite back to the beginning an obedient, scrupulously loyal and up-looking young wife, sometimes a wife concealing the humiliation of an unhappy choice in a spurious satisfaction and affection. and mixed up with widening spaces of criticism and dissatisfaction and hostility there were, you must understand, moments of real liking for this outrageous little man and streaks of an absurd maternal tenderness for him. they had been too close together to avoid that. she had a woman's affection of ownership too, and disliked to see him despised or bettered or untidy; even those ridiculous muddy hands had given her a twinge of solicitude.... and all the while she was trying to see the universe also, the great background of their two little lives, and to think what it might mean for her over and above their too obliterating relationship. § it would be like counting the bacteria of an infection to trace how ideas of insubordination came drifting into sir isaac's paradise. the epidemic is in the air. there is no tempter nowadays, no definitive apple. the disturbing force has grown subtler, blows in now like a draught, creeps and gathers like the dust,--a disseminated serpent. sir isaac brought home his young, beautiful and rather crumpled and astonished eve and by all his standards he was entitled to be happy ever afterwards. he knew of one danger, but against that he was very watchful. never once for six long years did she have a private duologue with another male. but mudie and sir jesse boot sent parcels to the house unchecked, the newspaper drifted in not even censored: the nurses who guided ellen through the essential incidents of a feminine career talked of something called a "movement." and there was georgina.... the thing they wanted they called the vote, but that demand so hollow, so eyeless, had all the terrifying effect of a mask. behind that mask was a formless invincible discontent with the lot of womanhood. it wanted,--it was not clear what it wanted, but whatever it wanted, all the domestic instincts of mankind were against admitting there was anything it could want. that remarkable agitation had already worked up to the thunderous pitch, there had been demonstrations at public meetings, scenes in the ladies' gallery and something like rioting in parliament square before ever it occurred to sir isaac that this was a disturbance that touched his home. he had supposed suffragettes were ladies of all too certain an age with red noses and spectacles and a masculine style of costume, who wished to be hugged by policemen. he said as much rather knowingly and wickedly to charterson. he could not understand any woman not coveting the privileges of lady harman. and then one day while georgina and her mother were visiting them, as he was looking over the letters at the breakfast table according to his custom before giving them out, he discovered two identical newspaper packets addressed to his wife and his sister-in-law, and upon them were these words printed very plainly, "votes for women." "good lord!" he cried. "what's this? it oughtn't to be allowed." and he pitched the papers at the wastepaper basket under the sideboard. "i'll thank you," said georgina, "not to throw away our _votes for women_. we subscribe to that." "eh?" cried sir isaac. "we're subscribers. snagsby, just give us those papers." (a difficult moment for snagsby.) he picked up the papers and looked at sir isaac. "put 'em down there," said sir isaac, waving to the sideboard and then in an ensuing silence handed two letters of no importance to his mother-in-law. his face was pale and he was breathless. snagsby with an obvious tactfulness retired. sir isaac watched the door close. his remark pointedly ignored georgina. "what you been thinking about, elly," he asked, "subscribing to _that_ thing?" "i wanted to read it." "but you don't hold with all that rubbish----" "_rubbish!_" said georgina, helping herself to marmalade. "well, rot then, if you like," said sir isaac, unamiably and panting. with that as snagsby afterwards put it--for the battle raged so fiercely as to go on even when he presently returned to the room--"the fat was in the fire." the harman breakfast-table was caught up into the great controversy with heat and fury like a tree that is overtaken by a forest fire. it burnt for weeks, and smouldered still when the first white heats had abated. i will not record the arguments of either side, they were abominably bad and you have heard them all time after time; i do not think that whatever side you have taken in this matter you would find much to please you in sir isaac's goadings or georgina's repartees. sir isaac would ask if women were prepared to go as soldiers and georgina would enquire how many years of service he had done or horrify her mother by manifest allusion to the agonies and dangers of maternity,--things like that. it gave a new interest to breakfast for snagsby; and the peculiarly lady-like qualities of mrs. sawbridge, a gift for silent, pallid stiffness, a disposition, tactful but unsuccessful, to "change the subject," an air of being about to leave the room in disdain, had never shone with such baleful splendour. our interest here is rather with the effect of these remarkable disputes, which echoed in sir isaac's private talk long after georgina had gone again, upon lady harman. he could not leave this topic of feminine emancipation alone, once it had been set going, and though ellen would always preface her remarks by, "of course georgina goes too far," he worried her slowly into a series of definite insurgent positions. sir isaac's attacks on georgina certainly brought out a good deal of absurdity in her positions, and georgina at times left sir isaac without a leg to stand on, and the net result of their disputes as of most human controversies was not conviction for the hearer but release. her mind escaped between them, and went exploring for itself through the great gaps they had made in the simple obedient assumptions of her girlhood. that question originally put in paradise, "why shouldn't we?" came into her mind and stayed there. it is a question that marks a definite stage in the departure from innocence. things that had seemed opaque and immutable appeared translucent and questionable. she began to read more and more in order to learn things and get a light upon things, and less and less to pass the time. ideas came to her that seemed at first strange altogether and then grotesquely justifiable and then crept to a sort of acceptance by familiarity. and a disturbing intermittent sense of a general responsibility increased and increased in her. you will understand this sense of responsibility which was growing up in lady harman's mind if you have felt it yourself, but if you have not then you may find it a little difficult to understand. you see it comes, when it comes at all, out of a phase of disillusionment. all children, i suppose, begin by taking for granted the rightness of things in general, the soundness of accepted standards, and many people are at least so happy that they never really grow out of this assumption. they go to the grave with an unbroken confidence that somewhere behind all the immediate injustices and disorders of life, behind the antics of politics, the rigidities of institutions, the pressure of custom and the vagaries of law, there is wisdom and purpose and adequate provision, they never lose that faith in the human household they acquired amongst the directed securities of home. but for more of us and more there comes a dissolution of these assurances; there comes illumination as the day comes into a candle-lit uncurtained room. the warm lights that once rounded off our world so completely are betrayed for what they are, smoky and guttering candles. beyond what once seemed a casket of dutiful security is now a limitless and indifferent universe. ours is the wisdom or there is no wisdom; ours is the decision or there is no decision. that burthen is upon each of us in the measure of our capacity. the talent has been given us and we may not bury it. § and as we reckon up the disturbing influences that were stirring lady harman out of that life of acquiescences to which women are perhaps even more naturally disposed than men, we may pick out the conversation of susan burnet as something a little apart from the others, as something with a peculiar barbed pointedness of its own that was yet in other respects very representative of a multitude of nudges and nips and pricks and indications that life was giving lady harman's awaking mind. susan burnet was a woman who came to renovate and generally do up the putney curtains and furniture and loose covers every spring; she was mrs. crumble's discovery, she was sturdy and short and she had open blue eyes and an engaging simplicity of manner that attracted lady harman from the outset. she was stuck away in one of the spare bedrooms and there she was available for any one, so long, she explained, as they didn't fluster her when she was cutting out, with a flow of conversation that not even a mouth full of pins seemed to interrupt. and lady harman would go and watch susan burnet by the hour together and think what an enviably independent young woman she was, and listen with interest and something between horror and admiration to the various impressions of life she had gathered during a hardy and adventurous career. their early conversations were about susan burnet's business and the general condition of things in that world of upholsterers' young women in which susan had lived until she perceived the possibilities of a "connexion," and set up for herself. and the condition of things in that world, as susan described it, brought home to lady harman just how sheltered and limited her own upbringing had been. "it isn't right," said susan, "the way they send girls out with fellers into empty houses. naturally the men get persecuting them. they don't seem hardly able to help it, some of them, and i will say this for them, that a lot of the girls go more than half way with them, leading them on. still there's a sort of man won't leave you alone. one i used to be sent out with and a married man too he was, oh!--he used to give me a time. why i've bit his hands before now, bit hard, before he'd leave go of me. it's my opinion the married men are worse than the single. bolder they are. i pushed him over a scuttle once and he hit his head against a bookcase. i was fair frightened of him. 'you little devil,' he says; 'i'll be even with you yet....' oh! i've been called worse things than that.... of course a respectable girl gets through with it, but it's trying and to some it's a sort of temptation...." "i should have thought," reflected lady harman, "you could have told someone." "it's queer," said susan; "but it never seemed to me the sort of thing a girl ought to go telling. it's a kind of private thing. and besides, it isn't exactly easy to tell.... i suppose the firm didn't want to be worried by complaints and disputes about that sort of thing. and it isn't always easy to say just which of the two is to blame." "but how old are the girls they send out?" asked lady harman. "some's as young as seventeen or eighteen. it all depends on the sort of work that's wanted to be done...." "of course a lot of them have to marry...." this lurid little picture of vivid happenings in unoccupied houses and particularly of the prim, industrious, capable susan burnet, biting aggressive wrists, stuck in lady harman's imagination. she seemed to be looking into hitherto unsuspected pits of simple and violent living just beneath her feet. susan told some upholsteress love tales, real love tales, with a warmth and honesty of passion in them that seemed at once dreadful and fine to lady harman's underfed imagination. under encouragement susan expanded the picture, beyond these mere glimpses of workshop and piece-work and furtive lust. it appeared that she was practically the head of her family; there was a mother who had specialized in ill-health, a sister of defective ability who stayed at home, a brother in south africa who was very good and sent home money, and three younger sisters growing up. and father,--she evaded the subject of father at first. then presently lady harman had some glimpses of an earlier phase in susan burnet's life "before any of us were earning money." father appeared as a kindly, ineffectual, insolvent figure struggling to conduct a baker's and confectioner's business in walthamstow, mother was already specializing, there were various brothers and sisters being born and dying. "how many were there of you altogether?" asked lady harman. "thirteen there was. father always used to laugh and say he'd had a fair baker's dozen. there was luke to begin with----" susan began to count on her fingers and recite braces of scriptural names. she could only make up her tale to twelve. she became perplexed. then she remembered. "of course!" she cried: "there was nicodemus. he was still-born. i _always_ forget nicodemus, poor little chap! but he came--was it sixth or seventh?--seventh after anna." she gave some glimpses of her father and then there was a collapse of which she fought shy. lady harman was too delicate to press her to talk of that. but one day in the afternoon susan's tongue ran. she was telling how first she went to work before she was twelve. "but i thought the board schools----" said lady harman. "i had to go before the committee," said susan. "i had to go before the committee and ask to be let go to work. there they was, sitting round a table in a great big room, and they was as kind as anything, one old gentleman with a great white beard, he was as kind as could be. 'don't you be frightened, my dear,' he says. 'you tell us why you want to go out working.' 'well,' i says, '_somebody's_ got to earn something,' and that made them laugh in a sort of fatherly way, and after that there wasn't any difficulty. you see it was after father's inquest, and everybody was disposed to be kind to us. 'pity they can't all go instead of this educational tommy rot,' the old gentleman says. 'you learn to work, my dear'--and i did...." she paused. "father's inquest?" said lady harman. susan seemed to brace herself to the occasion. "father," she said, "was drowned. i know--i hadn't told you that before. he was drowned in the lea. it's always been a distress and humiliation to us there had to be an inquest. and they threw out things.... it's why we moved to haggerston. it's the worst that ever happened to us in all our lives. far worse. worse than having the things sold or the children with scarlet fever and having to burn everything.... i don't like to talk about it. i can't help it but i don't.... "i don't know why i talk to you as i do, lady harman, but i don't seem to mind talking to you. i don't suppose i've opened my mouth to anyone about it, not for years--except to one dear friend i've got--her who persuaded me to be a church member. but what i've always said and what i will always say is this, that i don't believe any evil of father, i don't believe, i won't ever believe he took his life. i won't even believe he was in drink. i don't know how he got in the river, but i'm certain it wasn't so. he was a weak man, was father, i've never denied he was a weak man. but a harder working man than he was never lived. he worried, anyone would have worried seeing the worries he had. the shop wasn't paying as it was; often we never tasted meat for weeks together, and then there came one of these internationals, giving overweight and underselling...." "one of these internationals?" "yes, i don't suppose you've ever heard of them. they're in the poorer neighbourhoods chiefly. they sell teas and things mostly now but they began as bakers' shops and what they did was to come into a place and undersell until all the old shops were ruined and shut up. that was what they tried to do and father hadn't no more chance amongst them than a mouse in a trap.... it was just like being run over. all the trade that stayed with us after a bit was bad debts. you can't blame people i suppose for going where they get more and pay less, and it wasn't till we'd all gone right away to haggerston that they altered things and put the prices up again. of course father lost heart and all that. he didn't know what to do, he'd sunk all he had in the shop; he just sat and moped about. really,--he was pitiful. he wasn't able to sleep; he used to get up at nights and go about downstairs. mother says she found him once sweeping out the bakehouse at two o'clock in the morning. he got it into his head that getting up like that would help him. but i don't believe and i won't believe he wouldn't have seen it through if he could. not to my dying day will i believe that...." lady harman reflected. "but couldn't he have got work again--as a baker?" "it's hard after you've had a shop. you see all the younger men've come on. they know the new ways. and a man who's had a shop and failed, he's lost heart. and these stores setting up make everything drivinger. they do things a different way. they make it harder for everyone." both lady harman and susan burnet reflected in silence for a few seconds upon the international stores. the sewing woman was the first to speak. "things like that," she said, "didn't ought to be. one shop didn't ought to be allowed to set out to ruin another. it isn't fair trading, it's a sort of murder. it oughtn't to be allowed. how was father to know?..." "there's got to be competition," said lady harman. "i don't call that competition," said susan burnet. "but,--i suppose they give people cheaper bread." "they do for a time. then when they've killed you they do what they like.... luke--he's one of those who'll say anything--well, he used to say it was a regular monopoly. but it's hard on people who've set out to live honest and respectable and bring up a family plain and decent to be pushed out of the way like that." "i suppose it is," said lady harman. "what was father to _do_?" said susan, and turned to sir isaac's armchair from which this discourse had distracted her. and then suddenly, in a voice thick with rage, she burst out: "and then alice must needs go and take their money. that's what sticks in _my_ throat." still on her knees she faced about to lady harman. "alice goes into one of their ho'burn branches as a waitress, do what i could to prevent her. it makes one mad to think of it. time after time i've said to her, 'alice,' i've said, 'sooner than touch their dirty money i'd starve in the street.' and she goes! she says it's all nonsense of me to bear a spite. laughs at me! 'alice,' i told her, 'it's a wonder the spirit of poor father don't rise up against you.' and she laughs. calls that bearing a spite.... of course she was little when it happened. she can't remember, not as i remember...." lady harman reflected for a time. "i suppose you don't know," she began, addressing susan's industrious back; "you don't know who--who owns these international stores?" "i suppose it's some company," said susan. "i don't see that it lets them off--being in a company." § we have done much in the last few years to destroy the severe limitations of victorian delicacy, and all of us, from princesses and prime-ministers' wives downward, talk of topics that would have been considered quite gravely improper in the nineteenth century. nevertheless, some topics have, if anything, become more indelicate than they were, and this is especially true of the discussion of income, of any discussion that tends, however remotely, to inquire, who is it at the base of everything who really pays in blood and muscle and involuntary submissions for _your_ freedom and magnificence? this, indeed, is almost the ultimate surviving indecency. so that it was with considerable private shame and discomfort that lady harman pursued even in her privacy the train of thought that susan burnet had set going. it had been conveyed into her mind long ago, and it had settled down there and grown into a sort of security, that the international bread and cake stores were a very important contribution to progress, and that sir isaac, outside the gates of his home, was a very useful and beneficial personage, and richly meriting a baronetcy. she hadn't particularly analyzed this persuasion, but she supposed him engaged in a kind of daily repetition, but upon modern scientific lines, of the miracle of the loaves and fishes, feeding a great multitude that would otherwise have gone hungry. she knew, too, from the advertisements that flowered about her path through life, that this bread in question was exceptionally clean and hygienic; whole front pages of the _daily messenger_, headed the "fauna of small bakehouses," and adorned with a bordering of _blatta orientalis_, the common cockroach, had taught her that, and she knew that sir isaac's passion for purity had also led to the _old country gazette's_ spirited and successful campaign for a non-party measure securing additional bakehouse regulation and inspection. and her impression had been that the growing and developing refreshment side of the concern was almost a public charity; sir isaac gave, he said, a larger, heavier scone, a bigger pat of butter, a more elegant teapot, ham more finely cut and less questionable pork-pies than any other system of syndicated tea-shops. she supposed that whenever he sat late at night going over schemes and papers, or when he went off for days together to cardiff or glasgow or dublin, or such-like centres, or when he became preoccupied at dinner and whistled thoughtfully through his teeth, he was planning to increase the amount or diminish the cost of tea and cocoa-drenched farinaceous food in the stomachs of that section of our national adolescence which goes out daily into the streets of our great cities to be fed. and she knew his vans and catering were indispensable to the british army upon its manoeuvres.... now the smashing up of the burnet family by the international stores was disagreeably not in the picture of these suppositions. and the remarkable thing is that this one little tragedy wouldn't for a moment allow itself to be regarded as an exceptional accident in an otherwise fair vast development. it remained obstinately a specimen--of the other side of the great syndication. it was just as if she had been doubting subconsciously all along.... in the silence of the night she lay awake and tried to make herself believe that the burnet case was just a unique overlooked disaster, that it needed only to come to sir isaac's attention to be met by the fullest reparation.... after all she did not bring it to sir isaac's attention. but one morning, while this phase of new doubts was still lively in her mind, sir isaac told her he was going down to brighton, and then along the coast road in a car to portsmouth, to pay a few surprise visits, and see how the machine was working. he would be away a night, an unusual breach in his habits. "are you thinking of any new branches, isaac?" "i may have a look at arundel." "isaac." she paused to frame her question carefully. "i suppose there are some shops at arundel now." "i've got to see to that." "if you open----i suppose the old shops get hurt. what becomes of the people if they do get hurt?" "that's _their_ look-out," said sir isaac. "isn't it bad for them?" "progress is progress, elly." "it _is_ bad for them. i suppose----wouldn't it be sometimes kinder if you took over the old shop--made a sort of partner of him, or something?" sir isaac shook his head. "i want younger men," he said. "you can't get a move on the older hands." "but, then, it's rather bad----i suppose these little men you shut up,--some of them must have families." "you're theorizing a bit this morning, elly," said sir isaac, looking up over his coffee cup. "i've been thinking--about these little people." "someone's been talking to you about my shops," said sir isaac, and stuck out an index finger. "if that's georgina----" "it isn't georgina," said lady harman, but she had it very clear in her mind that she must not say who it was. "you can't make a business without squeezing somebody," said sir isaac. "it's easy enough to make a row about any concern that grows a bit. some people would like to have every business tied down to a maximum turnover and so much a year profit. i dare say you've been hearing of these articles in the _london lion_. pretty stuff it is, too. this fuss about the little shopkeepers; that's a new racket. i've had all that row about the waitresses before, and the yarn about the normandy eggs, and all that, but i don't see that you need go reading it against me, and bringing it up at the breakfast-table. a business is a business, it isn't a charity, and i'd like to know where you and i would be if we didn't run the concern on business lines.... why, that _london lion_ fellow came to me with the first two of those articles before the thing began. i could have had the whole thing stopped if i liked, if i'd chosen to take the back page of his beastly cover. that shows the stuff the whole thing is made of. that shows you. why!--he's just a blackmailer, that's what he is. much he cares for my waitresses if he can get the dibs. little shopkeepers, indeed! i know 'em! nice martyrs they are! there isn't one wouldn't _skin_ all the others if he got half a chance...." sir isaac gave way to an extraordinary fit of nagging anger. he got up and stood upon the hearthrug to deliver his soul the better. it was an altogether unexpected and illuminating outbreak. he was flushed with guilt. the more angry and eloquent he became, the more profoundly thoughtful grew the attentive lady at the head of his table.... when at last sir isaac had gone off in the car to victoria, lady harman rang for snagsby. "isn't there a paper," she asked, "called the _london lion_?" "it isn't one i think your ladyship would like," said snagsby, gently but firmly. "i know. but i want to see it. i want copies of all the issues in which there have been articles upon the international stores." "they're thoroughly volgar, me lady," said snagsby, with a large dissuasive smile. "i want you to go out into london and get them now." snagsby hesitated and went. within five minutes he reappeared with a handful of buff-covered papers. "there 'appened to be copies in the pantry, me lady," he said. "we can't imagine 'ow they got there; someone must have brought them in, but 'ere they are quite at your service, me lady." he paused for a discreet moment. something indescribably confidential came into his manner. "i doubt if sir isaac will quite like to 'ave them left about, me lady--after you done with them." she was in a mood of discovery. she sat in the room that was all furnished in pink (her favourite colour) and read a bitter, malicious, coarsely written and yet insidiously credible account of her husband's business methods. something within herself seemed to answer, "but didn't you know this all along?" that large conviction that her wealth and position were but the culmination of a great and honourable social service, a conviction that had been her tacit comfort during much distasteful loyalty seemed to shrivel and fade. no doubt the writer was a thwarted blackmailer; even her accustomed mind could distinguish a twang of some such vicious quality in his sentences; but that did not alter the realities he exhibited and exaggerated. there was a description of how sir isaac pounced on his managers that was manifestly derived from a manager he had dismissed. it was dreadfully like him. convincingly like him. there was a statement of the wages he paid his girl assistants and long extracts from his codes of rules and schedules of fines.... when she put down the paper she was suddenly afflicted by a vivid vision of susan burnet's father, losing heart and not knowing what to do. she had an unreasonable feeling that susan burnet's father must have been a small, kindly, furry, bunnyish, little man. of course there had to be progress and the survival of the fittest. she found herself weighing what she imagined susan burnet's father to be like, against the ferrety face, stooping shoulders and scheming whistle of sir isaac. there were times now when she saw her husband with an extreme distinctness. § as this cold and bracing realization that all was not right with her position, with sir isaac's business procedure and the world generally, took possession of lady harman's thoughts there came also with it and arising out of it quite a series of new moods and dispositions. at times she was very full of the desire "to do something," something that would, as it were, satisfy and assuage this growing uneasiness of responsibility in her mind. at times her consuming wish was not to assuage but escape from this urgency. it worried her and made her feel helpless, and she wanted beyond anything else to get back to that child's world where all experiences are adventurous and everything is finally right. she felt, i think, that it was a little unfair to her that this something within her should be calling upon her to take all sorts of things gravely--hadn't she been a good wife and brought four children into the world...? i am setting down here as clearly as possible what wasn't by any means clear in lady harman's mind. i am giving you side by side phases that never came side by side in her thoughts but which followed and ousted and obliterated one another. she had moods of triviality. she had moods of magnificence. she had moods of intense secret hostility to her urgent little husband, and moods of genial tolerance for everything there was in her life. she had moods, and don't we all have moods?--of scepticism and cynicism, much profounder than the conventions and limitations of novel-writing permit us to tell here. and for hardly any of these moods had she terms and recognitions.... it isn't a natural thing to keep on worrying about the morality of one's material prosperity. these are proclivities superinduced by modern conditions of the conscience. there is a natural resistance in every healthy human being to such distressful heart-searchings. strong instincts battled in lady harman against this intermittent sense of responsibility that was beginning to worry her. an immense lot of her was for simply running away from these troublesome considerations, for covering herself up from them, for distraction. and about this time she happened upon "elizabeth and her german garden," and was very greatly delighted and stimulated by that little sister of montaigne. she was charmed by the book's fresh gaiety, by its gallant resolve to set off all the good things there are in this world, the sunshine and flowers and laughter, against the limitations and thwartings and disappointments of life. for a time it seemed to her that these brave consolations were solutions, and she was stirred by an imitative passion. how stupid had she not been to let life and sir isaac overcome her! she felt that she must make herself like elizabeth, exactly like elizabeth; she tried forthwith, and a certain difficulty she found, a certain deadness, she ascribed to the square modernity of her house and something in the putney air. the house was too large, it dominated the garden and controlled her. she felt she must get away to some place that was chiefly exterior, in the sunshine, far from towns and struggling, straining, angry and despairing humanity, from syndicated shops and all the embarrassing challenges of life. somehow there it would be possible to keep sir isaac at arm's length; and the ghost of susan burnet's father could be left behind to haunt the square rooms of the london house. and there she would live, horticultural, bookish, whimsical, witty, defiant, happily careless. and it was this particular conception of evasion that had set her careering about the countryside in her car, looking for conceivable houses of refuge from this dark novelty of social and personal care, and that had driven her into the low long room of black strand and the presence of mr. brumley. of what ensued and the appearance and influence of lady beach-mandarin and how it led among other things to a lunch invitation from that lady the reader has already been informed. chapter the sixth the adventurous afternoon § you will perhaps remember that before i fell into this extensive digression about lady harman's upbringing, we had got to the entry of mrs. sawbridge into the house bearing a plunder of sir isaac's best roses. she interrupted a conversation of some importance. those roses at this point are still unwithered and fragrant, and moreover they are arranged according to mrs. sawbridge's ideas of elegance about sir isaac's home.... and sir isaac, when that conversation could be renewed, categorically forbade lady harman to go to lady beach-mandarin's lunch and lady harman went to lady beach-mandarin's lunch. she had some peculiar difficulties in getting to that lunch. it is necessary to tell certain particulars. they are particulars that will distress the delicacy of mrs. sawbridge unspeakably if ever she chances to read this book. but a story has to be told. you see sir isaac harman had never considered it advisable to give his wife a private allowance. whatever she wished to have, he maintained, she could have. the bill would afterwards be paid by his cheque on the first day of the month following the receipt of the bill. he found a generous pleasure in writing these cheques, and lady harman was magnificently housed, fed and adorned. moreover, whenever she chose to ask for money he gave her money, usually double of what she demanded,--and often a kiss or so into the bargain. but after he had forbidden her to go to lady beach-mandarin's so grave an estrangement ensued that she could not ask him for money. a door closed between them. and the crisis had come at an unfortunate moment. she possessed the sum of five shillings and eightpence. she perceived quite early that this shortness of money would greatly embarrass the rebellion she contemplated. she was exceptionally ignorant of most worldly things, but she knew there was never yet a campaign without a war chest. she felt entitled to money.... she planned several times to make a demand for replenishment with a haughty dignity; the haughty dignity was easy enough to achieve, but the demand was not. a sensitive dread of her mother's sympathetic curiosity barred all thoughts of borrowing in that direction,--she and her mother "never discussed money matters." she did not want to get georgina into further trouble. and besides, georgina was in devonshire. even to get to lady beach-mandarin's became difficult under these circumstances. she knew that clarence, though he would take her into the country quite freely, had been instructed, on account of sir isaac's expressed dread of any accident happening to her while alone, not to plunge with her into the vortex of london traffic. only under direct orders from sir isaac would clarence take her down putney hill; though she might go up and away--to anywhere. she knew nothing of pawnshops or any associated methods of getting cash advances, and the possibility of using the telephone to hire an automobile never occurred to her. but she was fully resolved to go. she had one advantage in the fact that sir isaac didn't know the precise date of the disputed engagement. when that arrived she spent a restless morning and dressed herself at last with great care. she instructed peters, her maid, who participated in these preparations with a mild astonishment, that she was going out to lunch, asked her to inform mrs. sawbridge of the fact and, outwardly serene, made a bolt for it down the staircase and across the hall. the great butler appeared; she had never observed how like a large note of interrogation his forward contours could be. "i shall be out to lunch, snagsby," she said, and went past him into the sunshine. she left a discreetly astonished snagsby behind her. ("now where are we going out to lunch?" said snagsby presently to peters. "i've never known her so particular with her clothes," said the maid. "never before--not in the same way; it's something new and special to this affair," snagsby reflected, "i wonder now if sir isaac...." "one can't help observing things," said the maid, after a pause. "mute though we be.") lady harman had the whole five and eightpence with her. she had managed to keep it intact in her jewel case, declaring she had no change when any small demands were made on her. with an exhilaration so great that she wanted sorely to laugh aloud she walked out through her big open gates and into the general publicity of putney hill. why had she not done as much years ago? how long she had been, working up to this obvious thing! she hadn't been out in such complete possession of herself since she had been a schoolgirl. she held up a beautifully gloved hand to a private motor-car going downhill and then to an engaged taxi going up, and then with a slightly dashed feeling, picked up her skirt and walked observantly downhill. her reason dispelled a transitory impression that these two vehicles were on sir isaac's side against her. there was quite a nice taxi on the rank at the bottom of the hill. the driver, a pleasant-looking young man in a white cap, seemed to have been waiting for her in particular; he met her timid invitation halfway and came across the road to her and jumped down and opened the door. he took her instructions as though they were after his own heart, and right in front of her as she sat was a kind of tin cornucopia full of artificial flowers that seemed like a particular attention to her. his fare was two and eightpence and she gave him four shillings. he seemed quite gratified by her largesse, his manner implied he had always thought as much of her, from first to last their relations had been those of sunny contentment, and it was only as she ascended the steps of lady beach-mandarin's portico, that it occurred to her that she now had insufficient money for an automobile to take her home. but there were railways and buses and all sorts of possibilities; the day was an adventure; and she entered the drawing-room with a brow that was beautifully unruffled. she wanted to laugh still; it animated her eyes and lips with the pleasantest little stir you can imagine. "a-a-a-a-a-h!" cried lady beach-mandarin in a high note, and threw out--it had an effect of being quite a number of arms--as though she was one of those brass indian goddesses one sees. lady harman felt taken in at once to all that capacious bosom involved and contained.... § it was quite an amusing lunch. but any lunch would have been amusing to lady harman in the excitement of her first act of deliberate disobedience. she had never been out to lunch alone in all her life before; she experienced a kind of scared happiness, she felt like someone at lourdes who has just thrown away crutches. she was seated between a pink young man with an eyeglass whose place was labelled "bertie trevor" and who was otherwise unexplained, and mr. brumley. she was quite glad to see mr. brumley again, and no doubt her eyes showed it. she had hoped to see him. miss sharsper was sitting nearly opposite to her, a real live novelist pecking observations out of life as a hen pecks seeds amidst scenery, and next beyond was a large-headed inattentive fluffy person who was mr. keystone the well-known critic. and there was agatha alimony under a rustling vast hat of green-black cock's feathers next to sir markham crosby, with whom she had been having an abusive controversy in the _times_ and to whom quite elaborately she wouldn't speak, and there was lady viping with her lorgnette and adolphus blenker, horatio's younger and if possible more gentlemanly brother--horatio of the _old country gazette_ that is--sole reminder that there was such a person as sir isaac in the world. lady beach-mandarin's mother and the swiss governess and the tall but retarded daughter, phyllis, completed the party. the reception was lively and cheering; lady beach-mandarin enfolded her guests in generosities and kept them all astir like a sea-swell under a squadron, and she introduced lady harman to miss alimony by public proclamation right across the room because there were two lavish tables of bric-à-brac, a marble bust of old beach-mandarin and most of the rest of the party in the way. and at the table conversation was like throwing bread, you never knew whom you might hit or who might hit you. (but lady beach-mandarin produced an effect of throwing whole loaves.) bertie trevor was one of those dancing young men who talk to a woman as though they were giving a dog biscuits, and mostly it was mr. brumley who did such talking as reached lady harman's ear. mr. brumley was in very good form that day. he had contrived to remind her of all their black strand talk while they were still eating _petites bouchées à la reine_. "have you found that work yet?" he asked and carried her mind to the core of her situation. then they were snatched up into a general discussion of bazaars. sir markham spoke of a great bazaar that was to be held on behalf of one of the many shakespear theatre movements that were then so prevalent. was lady beach-mandarin implicated? was anyone? he told of novel features in contemplation. he generalized about bazaars and, with an air of having forgotten the presence of miss alimony, glanced at the suffrage bazaar--it was a season of bazaars. he thought poorly of the suffrage bazaar. the hostess intervened promptly with anecdotes of her own cynical daring as a bazaar-seller, miss sharsper offered fragments of a reminiscence about signing one of her own books for a bookstall, blenker told a well-known bazaar anecdote brightly and well, and the impending skirmish was averted. while the bazaar talk still whacked to and fro about the table mr. brumley got at lady harman's ear again. "rather tantalizing these meetings at table," he said. "it's like trying to talk while you swim in a rough sea...." then lady beach-mandarin intervened with demands for support for her own particular bazaar project and they were eating salad before there was a chance of another word between them. "i must confess that when i want to talk to people i like to get them alone," said mr. brumley, and gave form to thoughts that were already on the verge of crystallization in her own mind. she had been recalling that she had liked his voice before, noting something very kindly and thoughtful and brotherly about his right profile and thinking how much an hour's talk with him would help to clear up her ideas. "but it's so difficult to get one alone," said lady harman, and suddenly an idea of the utmost daring and impropriety flashed into her mind. she was on the verge of speaking it forthwith and then didn't, she met something in his eye that answered her own and then lady beach-mandarin was foaming over them like a dam-burst over an american town. "what do _you_ think, mr. brumley?" demanded lady beach-mandarin. "?" "about sir markham's newspaper symposium. they asked him what allowance he gave his wife. sent a prepaid reply telegram." "but he hasn't got a wife!" "they don't stick at a little thing like that," said sir markham grimly. "i think a husband and wife ought to have everything in common like the early christians," said lady beach-mandarin. "_we_ always did," and so got the discussion afloat again off the sandbank of mr. brumley's inattention. it was quite a good discussion and lady harman contributed an exceptionally alert and intelligent silence. sir markham distrusted lady beach-mandarin's communism and thought that anyhow it wouldn't do for a financier or business man. he favoured an allowance. "so did sir joshua," said the widow viping. this roused agatha alimony. "allowance indeed!" she cried. "is a wife to be on no better footing than a daughter? the whole question of a wife's financial autonomy needs reconsidering...." adolphus blenker became learned and lucid upon pin-money and dowry and the customs of savage tribes, and mr. brumley helped with corroboration.... mr. brumley managed to say just one other thing to lady harman before the lunch was over. it struck her for a moment as being irrelevant. "the gardens at hampton court," he said, "are delightful just now. have you seen them? autumnal fires. all the september perennials lifting their spears in their last great chorus. it's the _götterdämmerung_ of the year." she was going out of the room before she appreciated his possible intention. lady beach-mandarin delegated sir markham to preside over the men's cigars and bounced and slapped her four ladies upstairs to the drawing-room. her mother disappeared and so did phyllis and the governess. lady harman heard a large aside to lady viping: "isn't she perfectly lovely?" glanced to discover the lorgnette in appreciative action, and then found herself drifting into a secluded window-seat and a duologue with miss agatha alimony. miss alimony was one of that large and increasing number of dusky, grey-eyed ladies who go through life with an air of darkly incomprehensible significance. she led off lady harman as though she took her away to reveal unheard-of mysteries and her voice was a contralto undertone that she emphasized in some inexplicable way by the magnetic use of her eyes. her hat of cock's feathers which rustled like familiar spirits greatly augmented the profundity of her effect. as she spoke she glanced guardedly at the other ladies at the end of the room and from first to last she seemed undecided in her own mind whether she was a conspirator or a prophetess. she had heard of lady harman before, she had been longing impatiently to talk to her all through the lunch. "you are just what we want," said agatha. "what who want?" asked lady harman, struggling against the hypnotic influence of her interlocutor. "_we_," said miss agatha, "the cause. the g.s.w.s. "we want just such people as you," she repeated, and began in panting rhetorical sentences to urge the militant cause. for her it was manifestly a struggle against "the men." miss alimony had no doubts of her sex. it had nothing to learn, nothing to be forgiven, it was compact of obscured and persecuted marvels, it needed only revelation. "they know nothing," she said of the antagonist males, bringing deep notes out of the melodious caverns of her voice; "they know _nothing_ of the deeper secrets of woman's nature." her discourse of a general feminine insurrection fell in very closely with the spirit of lady harman's private revolt. "we want the vote," said agatha, "and we want the vote because the vote means autonomy. and then----" she paused voluminously. she had already used that word "autonomy" at the lunch table and it came to her hearer to supply a long-felt want. now she poured meanings into it, and lady harman with each addition realized more clearly that it was still a roomy sack for more. "a woman should be absolute mistress of herself," said miss alimony, "absolute mistress of her person. she should be free to develop----" germinating phrases these were in lady harman's ear. she wanted to know about the suffrage movement from someone less generously impatient than georgina, for georgina always lost her temper about it and to put it fairly _ranted_, this at any rate was serene and confident, and she asked tentative ill-formed questions and felt her way among miss alimony's profundities. she had her doubts, her instinctive doubts about this campaign of violence, she doubted its wisdom, she doubted its rightness, and she perceived, but she found it difficult to express her perception, that miss alimony wasn't so much answering her objections as trying to swamp her with exalted emotion. and if there was any flaw whatever in her attention to miss alimony's stirring talk, it was because she was keeping a little look-out in the tail of her eye for the reappearance of the men, and more particularly for the reappearance of mr. brumley with whom she had a peculiar feeling of uncompleted relations. and at last the men came and she caught his glance and saw that her feeling was reciprocated. she was presently torn from agatha, who gasped with pain at the parting and pursued her with a sedulous gaze as a doctor might watch an injected patient, she parted with lady beach-mandarin with a vast splash of enthusiasm and mutual invitations, and lady viping came and pressed her to come to dinner and rapped her elbow with her lorgnette to emphasize her invitation. and lady harman after a still moment for reflection athwart which the word autonomy flickered, accepted this invitation also. § mr. brumley hovered for a few moments in the hall conversing with lady beach-mandarin's butler, whom he had known for some years and helped about a small investment, and who was now being abjectly polite and grateful to him for his attention. it gave mr. brumley a nice feudal feeling to establish and maintain such relationships. the furry-eyed boy fumbled with the sticks and umbrellas in the background and wondered if he too would ever climb to these levels of respectful gilt-tipped friendliness. mr. brumley hovered the more readily because he knew lady harman was with the looking-glass in the little parlour behind the dining-room on her way to the outer world. at last she emerged. it was instantly manifest to mr. brumley that she had expected to find him there. she smiled frankly at him, with the faintest admission of complicity in her smile. "taxi, milady?" said the butler. she seemed to reflect. "no, i will walk." she hesitated over a glove button. "mr. brumley, is there a tube station near here?" "not two minutes. but can't i perhaps take you in a taxi?" "i'd rather walk." "i will show you----" he found himself most agreeably walking off with her. still more agreeable things were to follow for mr. brumley. she appeared to meditate upon a sudden idea. she disregarded some conversational opening of his that he forgot in the instant. "mr. brumley," she said, "i didn't intend to go directly home." "i'm altogether at your service," said mr. brumley. "at least," said lady harman with that careful truthfulness of hers, "it occurred to me during lunch that i wouldn't go directly home." mr. brumley reined in an imagination that threatened to bolt with him. "i want," said lady harman, "to go to kensington gardens, i think. this can't be far from kensington gardens--and i want to sit there on a green chair and--meditate--and afterwards i want to find a tube railway or something that will take me back to putney. there is really no need for me to go directly home.... it's very stupid of me but i don't know my way about london as a rational creature should do. so will you take me and put me in a green chair and--tell me how afterwards i can find the tube and get home? do you mind?" "all my time, so long as you want it, is at your service," said mr. brumley with convincing earnestness. "and it's not five minutes to the gardens. and afterwards a taxi-cab----" "no," said lady harman mindful of her one-and-eightpence, "i prefer a tube. but that we can talk about later. you're sure, mr. brumley, i'm not invading your time?" "i wish you could see into my mind," said mr. brumley. she became almost barefaced. "it is so true," she said, "that at lunch one can't really talk to anyone. and i've so wanted to talk to you. ever since we met before." mr. brumley conveyed an unfeigned delight. "since then," said lady harman, "i've read your _euphemia_ books." then after a little unskilful pause, "again." then she blushed and added, "i _had_ read one of them, you know, before." "exactly," he said with an infinite helpfulness. "and you seem so sympathetic, so understanding. i feel that all sorts of things that are muddled in my mind would come clear if i could have a really good talk. to you...." they were now through the gates approaching the albert memorial. mr. brumley was filled with an idea so desirable that it made him fear to suggest it. "of course we can talk very comfortably here," he said, "under these great trees. but i do so wish----have you seen those great borders at hampton court? the whole place is glowing, and in such sunshine as this----a taxi--will take us there under the hour. if you are free until half-past five." _why shouldn't she?_ the proposal seemed so outrageous to all the world of lady harman that in her present mood she felt it was her duty in the cause of womanhood to nerve herself and accept it.... "i mustn't be later than half-past five." "we could snatch a glimpse of it all and be back before then." "in that case----it would be very agreeable." (_why shouldn't she?_ it would no doubt make sir isaac furiously angry--if he heard of it. but it was the sort of thing other women of her class did; didn't all the novels testify? she had a perfect right---- and besides, mr. brumley was so entirely harmless.) § it had been lady harman's clear intention to have a luminous and illuminating discussion of the peculiar difficulties and perplexities of her position with mr. brumley. since their first encounter this idea had grown up in her mind. she was one of those women who turn instinctively to men and away from women for counsel. there was to her perception something wise and kindly and reassuring in him; she felt that he had lived and suffered and understood and that he was ready to help other people to live; his heart she knew from his published works was buried with his dead euphemia, and he seemed as near a thing to a brother and a friend as she was ever likely to meet. she wanted to tell him all this and then to broach her teeming and tangled difficulties, about her own permissible freedoms, about her social responsibilities, about sir isaac's business. but now as their taxi dodged through the traffic of kensington high street and went on its way past olympia and so out westwards, she found it extremely difficult to fix her mind upon the large propositions with which it had been her intention to open. do as she would to feel that this was a momentous occasion, she could not suppress, she could not ignore an obstinate and entirely undignified persuasion that she was having a tremendous lark. the passing vehicles, various motors, omnibuses, vans, carriages, the thronging pedestrians, the shops and houses, were all so distractingly interesting that at last she had to put it fairly to herself whether she hadn't better resign herself to the sensations of the present and reserve that sustained discussion for an interval she foresaw as inevitable on some comfortable seat under great trees at hampton court. you cannot talk well and penetratingly about fundamental things when you are in a not too well-hung taxi which is racing to get ahead of a vast red motor-omnibus.... with a certain discretion mr. brumley had instructed the chauffeur to cross the river not at putney but at hammersmith, and so they went by barnes station and up a still almost rural lane into richmond park, and there suddenly they were among big trees and bracken and red deer and it might have been a hundred miles from london streets. mr. brumley directed the driver to make a detour that gave them quite all the best of the park. the mind of mr. brumley was also agreeably excited and dispersed on this occasion. it was an occasion of which he had been dreaming very frequently of late, he had invented quite remarkable dialogues during those dreams, and now he too was conversationally inadequate and with a similar feeling of unexpected adventure. he was now no more ready to go to the roots of things than lady harman. he talked on the way down chiefly of the route they were following, of the changes in the london traffic due to motor traction and of the charm and amenity of richmond park. and it was only after they had arrived at hampton court and dismissed the taxi and spent some time upon the borders, that they came at last to a seat under a grove beside a long piece of water bearing water lilies, and sat down and made a beginning with the good talk. then indeed she tried to gather together the heads of her perplexity and mr. brumley did his best to do justice to confidence she reposed in him.... it wasn't at all the conversation he had dreamt of; it was halting, it was inconclusive, it was full of a vague dissatisfaction. the roots of this dissatisfaction lay perhaps more than anything else in her inattention to him--how shall i say it?--as _him_. hints have been conveyed to the reader already that for mr. brumley the universe was largely a setting, a tangle, a maze, a quest enshrining at the heart of it and adumbrating everywhere, a mystical her, and his experience of this world had pointed him very definitely to the conclusion that for that large other half of mankind which is woman, the quality of things was reciprocal and centred, for all the appearances and pretences of other interests, in--him. and he was disposed to believe that the other things in life, not merely the pomp and glories but the faiths and ambitions and devotions, were all demonstrably little more than posings and dressings of this great duality. a large part of his own interests and of the interests of the women he knew best, was the sustained and in some cases recurrent discovery and elaboration of lights and glimpses of him or her as the case might be, in various definite individuals; and it was a surprise to him, it perplexed him to find that this lovely person, so beautifully equipped for those mutual researches which constituted, he felt, the heart of life, was yet completely in her manner unaware of this primary sincerity and looking quite simply, as it were, over him and through him at such things as the ethics of the baking, confectionery and refreshment trade and the limits of individual responsibility in these matters. the conclusion that she was "unawakened" was inevitable. the dream of "awakening" this sleeping beauty associated itself in a logical sequence with his interpretations. i do not say that such thoughts were clear in mr. brumley's mind, they were not, but into this shape the forms of his thoughts fell. such things dimly felt below the clear level of consciousness were in him. and they gave his attempt to take up and answer the question that perplexed her, something of the quality of an attempt to clothe and serve hidden purposes. it could not but be evident to him that the effort of lady harman to free herself a little from her husband's circumvallation and to disentangle herself a little from the realities of his commercial life, might lead to such a liberation as would leave her like a nascent element ready to recombine. and it was entirely in the vein of this drift of thought in him that he should resolve upon an assiduous proximity against that moment of release and awakening.... i do not do mr. brumley as the human lover justice if i lead you to suppose that he plotted thus clearly and calculatingly. yet all this was in his mind. all this was in mr. brumley, but it wasn't mr. brumley. presented with it as a portrait of his mind, he would have denied it indignantly--and, knowing it was there, have grown a little flushed in his denials. quite equally in his mind was a simple desire to please her, to do what she wished, to help her because she wanted help. and a quite keen desire to be clean and honest about her and everything connected with her, for his own sake as well as for her sake--for the sake of the relationship.... so you have mr. brumley on the green seat under the great trees at hampton court, in his neat london clothes, his quite becoming silk-hat, above his neatly handsome and intelligent profile, with his gloves in his hand and one arm over the seat back, going now very earnestly and thoughtfully into the question of the social benefit of the international bread and cake stores and whether it was possible for her to "do anything" to repair any wrongs that might have arisen out of that organization, and you will understand why there is a little flush in his cheek and why his sentences are a trifle disconnected and tentative and why his eye wanders now to the soft raven tresses about lady harman's ear, now to the sweet movement of her speaking lips and now to the gracious droop of her pose as she sits forward, elbow upon crossed knee and chin on glove, and jabs her parasol at the ground in her unaccustomed efforts to explain and discuss the difficulties of her position. and you will understand too why it is that he doesn't deal with the question before him so simply and impartially as he seems to do. obscuring this extremely interesting problem of a woman growing to man-like sense of responsibility in her social consequences, is the dramatic proclivity that makes him see all this merely as something which must necessarily weaken lady harman's loyalty and qualify her submission to sir isaac, that makes him want to utilize it and develop it in that direction.... § moreover so complex is the thought of man, there was also another stream of mental activity flowing in the darker recesses of mr. brumley's mind. unobtrusively he was trying to count the money in his pockets and make certain estimates. it had been his intention to replenish his sovereign purse that afternoon at his club and he was only reminded of this abandoned plan when he paid off his taxi at the gates of hampton court. the fare was nine and tenpence and the only piece of gold he had was a half-sovereign. but there was a handful of loose silver in his trouser pocket and so the fare and tip were manageable. "will you be going back, sir?" asked the driver. and mr. brumley reflected too briefly and committed a fatal error. "no," he said with his mind upon that loose silver. "we shall go back by train." now it is the custom with taxi-cabs that take people to such outlying and remote places as hampton court, to be paid off and to wait loyally until their original passengers return. thereby the little machine is restrained from ticking out twopences which should go in the main to the absent proprietor, and a feeling of mutuality is established between the driver and his fare. but of course this cab being released presently found another passenger and went away.... i have written in vain if i have not conveyed to you that mr. brumley was a gentleman of great and cultivated delicacy, that he liked the seemly and handsome side of things and dreaded the appearance of any flaw upon his prosperity as only a man trained in an english public school can do. it was intolerable to think of any hitch in this happy excursion which was to establish he knew not what confidence between himself and lady harman. from first to last he felt it had to go with an air--and what was the first class fare from hampton court to putney--which latter station he believed was on the line from hampton court to london--and could one possibly pretend it was unnecessary to have tea? and so while lady harman talked about her husband's business--"our business" she called it--and shrank from ever saying anything more about the more intimate question she had most in mind, the limits to a wife's obedience, mr. brumley listened with these financial solicitudes showing through his expression and giving it a quality of intensity that she found remarkably reassuring. and once or twice they made him miss points in her remarks that forced him back upon that very inferior substitute for the apt answer, a judicious "um." (it would be quite impossible to go without tea, he decided. he himself wanted tea quite badly. he would think better when he had had some tea....) the crisis came at tea. they had tea at the inn upon the green that struck mr. brumley as being most likely to be cheap and which he pretended to choose for some trivial charm about the windows. and it wasn't cheap, and when at last mr. brumley was faced by the little slip of the bill and could draw his money from his pocket and look at it, he knew the worst and the worst was worse than he had expected. the bill was five shillings (should he dispute it? too ugly altogether, a dispute with a probably ironical waiter!) and the money in his hand amounted to four shillings and sixpence. he acted surprise with the waiter's eye upon him. (should he ask for credit? they might be frightfully disagreeable in such a cockney resort as this.) "tut, tut," said mr. brumley, and then--a little late for it--resorted to and discovered the emptiness of his sovereign purse. he realized that this was out of the picture at this stage, felt his ears and nose and cheeks grow hot and pink. the waiter's colleague across the room became interested in the proceedings. "i had no idea," said mr. brumley, which was a premeditated falsehood. "is anything the matter?" asked lady harman with a sisterly interest. "my dear lady harman, i find myself----ridiculous position. might i borrow half a sovereign?" he felt sure that the two waiters exchanged glances. he looked at them,--a mistake again--and got hotter. "oh!" said lady harman and regarded him with frank amusement in her eyes. the thing struck her at first in the light of a joke. "i've only got one-and-eightpence. i didn't expect----" she blushed as beautifully as ever. then she produced a small but plutocratic-looking purse and handed it to him. "most remarkable--inconvenient," said mr. brumley, opening the precious thing and extracting a shilling. "that will do," he said and dismissed the waiter with a tip of sixpence. then with the open purse still in his hand, he spent much of his remaining strength trying to look amused and unembarrassed, feeling all the time that with his flushed face and in view of all the circumstances of the case he must be really looking very silly and fluffy. "it's really most inconvenient," he remarked. "i never thought of the--of this. it was silly of me," said lady harman. "oh no! oh dear no! the silliness i can assure you is all mine. i can't tell you how entirely apologetic----ridiculous fix. and after i had persuaded you to come here." "still we were able to pay," she consoled him. "but you have to get home!" she hadn't so far thought of that. it brought sir isaac suddenly into the picture. "by half-past five," she said with just the faintest flavour of interrogation. mr. brumley looked at his watch. it was ten minutes to five. "waiter," he said, "how do the trains run from here to putney?" "i don't _think_, sir, that we have any trains from here to putney----" an a.b.c. railway guide was found and mr. brumley learnt for the first time that putney and hampton court are upon two distinct and separate and, as far as he could judge by the time-table, mutually hostile branches of the south western railway, and that at the earliest they could not get to putney before six o'clock. mr. brumley was extremely disconcerted. he perceived that he ought to have kept his taxi. it amounted almost to a debt of honour to deliver this lady secure and untarnished at her house within the next hour. but this reflection did not in the least degree assist him to carry it out and as a matter of fact mr. brumley became flurried and did not carry it out. he was not used to being without money, it unnerved him, and he gave way to a kind of hectic _savoir faire_. he demanded a taxi of the waiter. he tried to evolve a taxi by will power alone. he went out with lady harman and back towards the gates of hampton court to look for taxis. then it occurred to him that they might be losing the . up. so they hurried over the bridge of the station. he had a vague notion that he would be able to get tickets on credit at the booking office if he presented his visiting card. but the clerk in charge seemed to find something uncongenial in his proposal. he did not seem to like what he saw of mr. brumley through his little square window and mr. brumley found something slighting and unpleasant in his manner. it was one of those little temperamental jars which happen to men of delicate sensibilities and mr. brumley tried to be reassuringly overbearing in his manner and then lost his temper and was threatening and so wasted precious moments what time lady harman waited on the platform, with a certain shadow of doubt falling upon her confidence in him, and watched the five-twenty-five gather itself together and start londonward. mr. brumley came out of the ticket office resolved to travel without tickets and carry things through with a high hand just as it became impossible to do so by that train, and then i regret to say he returned for some further haughty passages with the ticket clerk upon the duty of public servants to point out such oversights as his, that led to repartee and did nothing to help lady harman on her homeward way. then he discovered a current time-table and learnt that now even were all the ticket difficulties over-ridden he could not get lady harman to putney before twenty minutes past seven, so completely is the south western railway not organized for conveying people from hampton court to putney. he explained this as well as he could to lady harman, and then led her out of the station in another last desperate search for a taxi. "we can always come back for that next train," he said. "it doesn't go for half an hour." "i cannot blame myself sufficiently," he said for the eighth or ninth time.... it was already well past a quarter to six before mr. brumley bethought himself of the london county council tramcars that run from the palace gates. along these an ample four-pennyworth was surely possible and at the end would be taxis----there _must_ be taxis. the tram took them--but oh! how slowly it seemed!--to hammersmith by a devious route through interminable roads and streets, and long before they reached that spot twilight had passed into darkness, and all the streets and shops were flowering into light and the sense of night and lateness was very strong. after they were seated in the tram a certain interval of silence came between them and then lady harman laughed and mr. brumley laughed--there was no longer any need for him to be energetic and fussy--and they began to have that feeling of adventurous amusement which comes on the further side of desperation. but beneath the temporary elation lady harman was a prey to grave anxieties and mr. brumley could not help thinking he had made a tremendous ass of himself in that ticket clerk dispute.... at hammersmith they got out, two quite penniless travellers, and after some anxious moments found a taxi. it took them to putney hill. lady harman descended at the outer gates of her home and walked up the drive in the darkness while mr. brumley went on to his club and solvency again. it was five minutes past eight when he entered the hall of his club.... § it had been lady harman's original intention to come home before four, to have tea with her mother and to inform her husband when he returned from the city of her entirely dignified and correct disobedience to his absurd prohibitions. then he would have bullied at a disadvantage, she would have announced her intention of dining with lady viping and making the various calls and expeditions for which she had arranged and all would have gone well. but you see how far accident and a spirit of enterprise may take a lady from so worthy a plan, and when at last she returned to the victorian baronial home in putney it was very nearly eight and the house blazed with crisis from pantry to nursery. even the elder three little girls, who were accustomed to be kissed goodnight by their "boofer muvver," were still awake and--catching the subtle influence of the atmosphere of dismay about them--in tears. the very under-housemaids were saying: "where _ever_ can her ladyship 'ave got to?" sir isaac had come home that day at an unusually early hour and with a peculiar pinched expression that filled even snagsby with apprehensive alertness. sir isaac had in fact returned in a state of quite unwonted venom. he had come home early because he wished to vent it upon ellen, and her absence filled him with something of that sensation one has when one puts out a foot for the floor and instead a step drops one down--it seems abysmally. "but where's she gone, snagsby?" "her ladyship _said_ to lunch, sir isaac," said snagsby. "good gracious! where?" "her ladyship didn't _say_, sir isaac." "but where? where the devil----?" "i have--'ave no means whatever of knowing, sir isaac." he had a defensive inspiration. "perhaps mrs. sawbridge, sir isaac...." mrs. sawbridge was enjoying the sunshine upon the lawn. she sat in the most comfortable garden chair, held a white sunshade overhead, had the last new novel by mrs. humphry ward upon her lap, and was engaged in trying not to wonder where her daughter might be. she beheld with a distinct blenching of the spirit sir isaac advancing towards her. she wondered more than ever where ellen might be. "here!" cried her son-in-law. "where's ellen gone?" mrs. sawbridge with an affected off-handedness was sure she hadn't the faintest idea. "then you _ought_ to have," said isaac. "she ought to be at home." mrs. sawbridge's only reply was to bridle slightly. "where's she got to? where's she gone? haven't you any idea at all?" "i was not favoured by ellen's confidence," said mrs. sawbridge. "but you _ought_ to know," cried sir isaac. "she's your daughter. don't you know anything of _either_ of your daughters. i suppose you don't care where they are, either of them, or what mischief they're up to. here's a man--comes home early to his tea--and no wife! after hearing all i've done at the club." mrs. sawbridge stood up in order to be more dignified than a seated position permitted. "it is scarcely my business, sir isaac," she said, "to know of the movements of your wife." "nor georgina's apparently either. good god! i'd have given a hundred pounds that this shouldn't have happened!" "if you must speak to me, sir isaac, will you please kindly refrain from--from the deity----" "oh! shut it!" said sir isaac, blazing up to violent rudeness. "why! don't you know, haven't you an idea? the infernal foolery! those tickets. she got those women----look here, if you go walking away with your nose in the air before i've done----look here! mrs. sawbridge, you listen to me----georgina. i'm speaking of georgina." the lady was walking now swiftly and stiffly towards the house, her face very pale and drawn, and sir isaac hurrying beside her in a white fury of expostulation. "i tell you," he cried, "georgina----" there was something maddeningly incurious about her. he couldn't understand why she didn't even pause to hear what georgina had done and what he had to say about it. a person so wrapped up in her personal and private dignity makes a man want to throw stones. perhaps she knew of georgina's misdeeds. perhaps she sympathized.... a sense of the house windows checked his pursuit of her ear. "then go," he said to her retreating back. "_go!_ i don't care if you go for good. i don't care if you go altogether. if _you_ hadn't had the upbringing of these two girls----" she was manifestly out of earshot and in full yet almost queenly flight for the house. he wanted to say things about her. _to_ someone. he was already saying things to the garden generally. what does one marry a wife for? his mind came round to ellen again. where had she got to? even if she had gone out to lunch, it was time she was back. he went to his study and rang for snagsby. "lady harman back yet?" he asked grimly. "no, sir isaac." "why isn't she back?" snagsby did his best. "perhaps, sir isaac, her ladyship has experienced--'as hexperienced a naxident." sir isaac stared at that idea for a moment. then he thought, 'someone would have telephoned,' "no," he said, "she's out. that's where she is. and i suppose i can wait here, as well as i can until she chooses to come home. degenerate foolish nonsense!..." he whistled between his teeth like an escape of steam. snagsby, after the due pause of attentiveness, bowed respectfully and withdrew.... he had barely time to give a brief outline of the interview to the pantry before a violent ringing summoned him again. sir isaac wished to speak to peters, lady harman's maid. he wanted to know where lady harman had gone; this being impossible, he wanted to know where lady harman had seemed to be going. "her ladyship _seemed_ to be going out to lunch, sir isaac," said peters, her meek face irradiated by helpful intelligence. "oh _get_ out!" said sir isaac. "_get_ out!" "yes, sir isaac," said peters and obeyed.... "he's in a rare bait about her," said peters to snagsby downstairs. "i'm inclined to think her ladyship will catch it pretty hot," said snagsby. "he can't _know_ anything," said peters. "what about?" asked snagsby. "oh, _i_ don't know," said peters. "don't ask _me_ about her...." about ten minutes later sir isaac was heard to break a little china figure of the goddess kwannon, that had stood upon his study mantel-shelf. the fragments were found afterwards in the fireplace.... the desire for self-expression may become overwhelming. after sir isaac had talked to himself about georgina and lady harman for some time in his study, he was seized with a great longing to pour some of this spirited stuff into the entirely unsympathetic ear of mrs. sawbridge. so he went about the house and garden looking for her, and being at last obliged to enquire about her, learnt from a scared defensive housemaid whom he cornered suddenly in the conservatory, that she had retired to her own room. he went and rapped at her door but after one muffled "who's that?" he could get no further response. "i want to tell you about georgina," he said. he tried the handle but the discreet lady within had turned the key upon her dignity. "i want," he shouted, "to tell you about georgina.... georgina! oh _damn_!" silence. tea awaited him downstairs. he hovered about the drawing-room, making noises between his teeth. "snagsby," said sir isaac, "just tell mrs. sawbridge i shall be obliged if she will come down to tea." "mrs. sawbridge 'as a '_ead_ache, sir isaac," said mr. snagsby with extreme blandness. "she asked me to acquaint you. she 'as ordered tea in 'er own apartment." for a moment sir isaac was baffled. then he had an inspiration. "just get me the _times_, snagsby," he said. he took the paper and unfolded it until a particular paragraph was thrown into extreme prominence. this he lined about with his fountain pen and wrote above it with a quivering hand, "these women's tickets were got by georgina under false pretences from me." he handed the paper thus prepared back to snagsby. "just take this paper to mrs. sawbridge," he said, "and ask her what she thinks of it?" but mrs. sawbridge tacitly declined this proposal for a correspondence _viâ_ snagsby. § there was no excuse for georgina. georgina had obtained tickets from sir isaac for the great party reception at barleypound house, under the shallow pretext that she wanted them for "two spinsters from the country," for whose good behaviour she would answer, and she had handed them over to that organization of disorder which swayed her mind. the historical outrage upon mr. blapton was the consequence. two desperate and misguided emissaries had gone to the great reception, dressed and behaving as much as possible like helpful liberal women; they had made their way towards the brilliant group of leading liberals of which mr. blapton was the centre, assuming an almost whig-like expression and bearing to mask the fires within, and had then suddenly accosted him. it was one of those great occasions when the rank and file of the popular party is privileged to look upon court dress. the ministers and great people had come on from buckingham palace in their lace and legs. scarlet and feathers, splendid trains and mysterious ribbons and stars, gave an agreeable intimation of all that it means to be in office to the dazzled wives and daughters of the party stalwarts and fired the ambition of innumerable earnest but earnestly competitive young men. it opened the eyes of the labour leaders to the higher possibilities of parliament. and then suddenly came a stir, a rush, a cry of "tear off his epaulettes!" and outrage was afoot. and two quite nice-looking young women! it is unhappily not necessary to describe the scene that followed. mr. blapton made a brave fight for his epaulettes, fighting chiefly with his cocked hat, which was bent double in the struggle. mrs. blapton gave all the assistance true womanliness could offer and, in fact, she boxed the ears of one of his assailants very soundly. the intruders were rescued in an extremely torn and draggled condition from the indignant statesmen who had fallen upon them by tardy but decisive police.... such scenes sprinkle the recent history of england with green and purple patches and the interest of this particular one for us is only because of georgina's share in it. that was brought home to sir isaac, very suddenly and disagreeably, while he was lunching at the climax club with sir robert charterson. a man named gobbin, an art critic or something of that sort, one of those flimsy literary people who mar the solid worth of so many great clubs, a man with a lot of hair and the sort of loose tie that so often seems to be less of a tie than a detachment from all decent restraints, told him. charterson was holding forth upon the outrage. "that won't suit sir isaac, sir robert," said gobbin presuming on his proximity. sir isaac tried to give him a sort of look one gives to an unsatisfactory clerk. "they went there with sir isaac's tickets," said gobbin. "they _never_----!" "horatio blenker was looking for you in the hall. haven't you seen him? after all the care they took. the poor man's almost in tears." "they never had tickets of mine!" cried sir isaac stoutly and indignantly. and then the thought of georgina came like a blow upon his heart.... in his flurry he went on denying.... the subsequent conversation in the smoking-room was as red-eared and disagreeable for sir isaac as any conversation could be. "but how _could_ such a thing have happened?" he asked in a voice that sounded bleached to him. "how could such a thing have come about?" their eyes were dreadful. did they guess? could they guess? conscience within him was going up and down shouting out, "georgina, your sister-in-law, georgina," so loudly that he felt the whole smoking-room must be hearing it.... § as lady harman came up through the darkness of the drive to her home, she was already regretting very deeply that she had not been content to talk to mr. brumley in kensington gardens instead of accepting his picturesque suggestion of hampton court. there was an unpleasant waif-like feeling about this return. she was reminded of pictures published in the interests of doctor barnardo's philanthropies,--dr. barnardo her favourite hero in real life,--in which wistful little outcasts creep longingly towards brightly lit but otherwise respectable homes. it wasn't at all the sort of feeling she would have chosen if she had had a choice of feelings. she was tired and dusty and as she came into the hall the bright light was blinding. snagsby took her wrap. "sir isaac, me lady, 'as been enquiring for your ladyship," he communicated. sir isaac appeared on the staircase. "good gracious, elly!" he shouted. "where you been?" lady harman decided against an immediate reply. "i shall be ready for dinner in half an hour," she told snagsby and went past him to the stairs. sir isaac awaited her. "where you been?" he repeated as she came up to him. a housemaid on the staircase and the second nursemaid on the nursery landing above shared sir isaac's eagerness to hear her answer. but they did not hear her answer, for lady harman with a movement that was all too reminiscent of her mother's in the garden, swept past him towards the door of her own room. he followed her and shut the door on the thwarted listeners. "here!" he said, with a connubial absence of restraint. "where the devil you been? what the deuce do you think you've been getting up to?" she had been calculating her answers since the moment she had realized that she was to return home at a disadvantage. (it is not my business to blame her for a certain disingenuousness; it is my business simply to record it.) "i went out to lunch at lady beach-mandarin's," she said. "i told you i meant to." "lunch!" he cried. "why, it's eight!" "i met--some people. i met agatha alimony. i have a perfect right to go out to lunch----" "you met a nice crew i'll bet. but that don't account for your being out to eight, does it? with all the confounded household doing as it pleases!" "i went on--to see the borders at hampton court." "with _her_?" "_yes_," said lady harman.... it wasn't what she had meant to happen. it was an inglorious declension from her contemplated pose of dignified assertion. she was impelled to do her utmost to get away from this lie she had uttered at once, to eliminate agatha from the argument by an emphatic generalization. "i've a perfect right," she said, suddenly nearly breathless, "to go to hampton court with anyone i please, talk about anything i like and stay there as long as i think fit." he squeezed his thin lips together for a silent moment and then retorted. "you've got nothing of the sort, nothing of the sort. you've got to do your duty like everybody else in the world, and your duty is to be in this house controlling it--and not gossiping about london just where any silly fancy takes you." "i don't think that _is_ my duty," said lady harman after a slight pause to collect her forces. "of _course_ it's your duty. you know it's your duty. you know perfectly well. it's only these rotten, silly, degenerate, decadent fools who've got ideas into you----" the sentence staggered under its load of adjectives like a camel under the last straw and collapsed. "_see?_" he said. lady harman knitted her brows. "i do my duty," she began. but sir isaac was now resolved upon eloquence. his mind was full with the accumulations of an extremely long and bitter afternoon and urgent to discharge. he began to answer her and then a passion of rage flooded him. suddenly he wanted to shout and use abusive expressions and it seemed to him there was nothing to prevent his shouting and using abusive expressions. so he did. "call this your duty," he said, "gadding about with some infernal old suffragette----" he paused to gather force. he had never quite let himself go to his wife before; he had never before quite let himself go to anyone. he had always been in every crisis just a little too timid to let himself go. but a wife is privileged. he sought strength and found it in words from which he had hitherto abstained. it was not a discourse to which print could do justice; it flickered from issue to issue. he touched upon georgina, upon the stiffness of mrs. sawbridge's manner, upon the neurotic weakness of georgina's unmarried state, upon the general decay of feminine virtue in the community, upon the laxity of modern literature, upon the dependent state of lady harman, upon the unfairness of their relations which gave her every luxury while he spent his days in arduous toil, upon the shame and annoyance in the eyes of his servants that her unexplained absence had caused him. he emphasized his speech by gestures. he thrust out one rather large ill-shaped hand at her with two vibrating fingers extended. his ears became red, his nose red, his eyes seemed red and all about these points his face was wrathful white. his hair rose up into stiff scared listening ends. he had his rights, he had some _little_ claim to consideration surely, he might be just nobody but he wasn't going to stand this much anyhow. he gave her fair warning. what was she, what did she know of the world into which she wanted to rush? he lapsed into views of lady beach-mandarin--unfavourable views. i wish lady beach-mandarin could have heard him.... ever and again lady harman sought to speak. this incessant voice confused and baffled her; she had a just attentive mind at bottom and down there was a most weakening feeling that there must indeed be some misdeed in her to evoke so impassioned a storm. she had a curious and disconcerting sense of responsibility for his dancing exasperation, she felt she was to blame for it, just as years ago she had felt she was to blame for his tears when he had urged her so desperately to marry him. some irrational instinct made her want to allay him. it is the supreme feminine weakness, that wish to allay. but she was also clinging desperately to her resolution to proclaim her other forthcoming engagements. her will hung on to that as a man hangs on to a mountain path in a thunderburst. she stood gripping her dressing-table and ever and again trying to speak. but whenever she did so sir isaac lifted a hand and cried almost threateningly: "you hear me out, elly! you hear me out!" and went on a little faster.... (limburger in his curious "_sexuelle unterschiede der seele_," points out as a probably universal distinction between the sexes that when a man scolds a woman, if only he scolds loudly enough and long enough, conviction of sin is aroused, while in the reverse case the result is merely a murderous impulse. this he further says is not understood by women, who hope by scolding to produce the similar effect upon men that they themselves would experience. the passage is illustrated by figures of ducking stools and followed by some carefully analyzed statistics of connubial crime in berlin in the years - . but in this matter let the student compare the achievement of paulina in _the winter's tale_ and reflect upon his own life. and moreover it is difficult to estimate how far the twinges of conscience that lady harman was feeling were not due to an entirely different cause, the falsification of her position by the lie she had just told sir isaac.) and presently upon this noisy scene in the great pink bedroom, with sir isaac walking about and standing and turning and gesticulating and lady harman clinging on to her dressing-table, and painfully divided between her new connections, her sense of guilty deception and the deep instinctive responsibilities of a woman's nature, came, like one of those rows of dots that are now so frequent and so helpful in the art of fiction, the surging, deep, assuaging note of snagsby's gong: booooooom. boom. boooooom.... "damn it!" cried sir isaac, smiting at the air with both fists clenched and speaking as though this was ellen's crowning misdeed, "and we aren't even dressed for dinner!" § dinner had something of the stiffness of court ceremonial. mrs. sawbridge, perhaps erring on the side of discretion, had consumed a little soup and a wing of chicken in her own room. sir isaac was down first and his wife found him grimly astride before the great dining-room fire awaiting her. she had had her dark hair dressed with extreme simplicity and had slipped on a blue velvet tea-gown, but she had been delayed by a visit to the nursery, where the children were now flushed and uneasily asleep. husband and wife took their places at the genuine sheraton dining-table--one of the very best pieces sir isaac had ever picked up--and were waited on with a hushed, scared dexterity by snagsby and the footman. lady harman and her husband exchanged no remarks during the meal; sir isaac was a little noisy with his soup as became a man who controls honest indignation, and once he complained briefly in a slightly hoarse voice to snagsby about the state of one of the rolls. between the courses he leant back in his chair and made faint sounds with his teeth. these were the only breach of the velvety quiet. lady harman was surprised to discover herself hungry, but she ate with thoughtful dignity and gave her mind to the attempted digestion of the confusing interview she had just been through. it was a very indigestible interview. on the whole her heart hardened again. with nourishment and silence her spirit recovered a little from its abasement, and her resolution to assert her freedom to go hither and thither and think as she chose renewed itself. she tried to plan some way of making her declaration so that she would not again be overwhelmed by a torrent of response. should she speak to him at the end of dinner? should she speak to him while snagsby was in the room? but he might behave badly even with snagsby in the room and she could not bear to think of him behaving badly to her in the presence of snagsby. she glanced at him over the genuine old silver bowl of roses in the middle of the table--all the roses were good _new_ sorts--and tried to estimate how he might behave under various methods of declaration. the dinner followed its appointed ritual to the dessert. came the wine and snagsby placed the cigars and a little silver lamp beside his master. she rose slowly with a speech upon her lips. sir isaac remained seated looking up at her with a mitigated fury in his little red-brown eyes. the speech receded from her lips again. "i think," she said after a strained pause, "i will go and see how mother is now." "she's only shamming," said sir isaac belatedly to her back as she went out of the room. she found her mother in a wrap before her fire and made her dutiful enquiries. "it's only quite a _slight_ headache," mrs. sawbridge confessed. "but isaac was so upset about georgina and about"--she flinched--"about--everything, that i thought it better to be out of the way." "what exactly has georgina done?" "it's in the paper, dear. on the table there." ellen studied the _times_. "georgina got them the tickets," mrs. sawbridge explained. "i wish she hadn't. it was so--so unnecessary of her." there was a little pause as lady harman read. she put down the paper and asked her mother if she could do anything for her. "i--i suppose it's all right, dear, now?" mrs. sawbridge asked. "quite," said her daughter. "you're sure i can do nothing for you, mummy?" "i'm kept so in the dark about things." "it's quite all right now, mummy." "he went on--dreadfully." "it was annoying--of georgina." "it makes my position so difficult. i do wish he wouldn't want to speak to me--about all these things.... georgina treats me like a perfect nonentity and then he comes----it's so inconsiderate. starting disputes. do you know, dear, i really think--if i were to go for a little time to bournemouth----?" her daughter seemed to find something attractive in the idea. she came to the hearthrug and regarded her mother with maternal eyes. "don't you _worry_ about things, mummy," she said. "mrs. bleckhorn told me of such a nice quiet boarding-house, almost looking on the sea.... one would be safe from insult there. you know----" her voice broke for a moment, "he was insulting, he _meant_ to be insulting. i'm--upset. i've been thinking over it ever since." § lady harman came out upon the landing. she felt absolutely without backing in the world. (if only she hadn't told a lie!) then with an effort she directed her course downstairs to the dining-room. (the lie had been necessary. it was only a detail. it mustn't blind her to the real issue.) she entered softly and found her husband standing before the fire plunged in gloomy thoughts. upon the marble mantel-shelf behind him was a little glass; he had been sipping port in spite of the express prohibition of his doctor and the wine had reddened the veins of his eyes and variegated the normal pallor of his countenance with little flushed areas. "hel-lo," he said looking up suddenly as she closed the door behind her. for a moment there was something in their two expressions like that on the faces of men about to box. "i want you to understand," she said, and then; "the way you behaved----" there was an uncontrollable break in her voice. she had a dreadful feeling that she might be going to cry. she made a great effort to be cold and clear. "i don't think you have a right--just because i am your wife--to control every moment of my time. in fact you haven't. and i have a right to make engagements.... i want you to know i am going to an afternoon meeting at lady beach-mandarin's. next week. and i have promised to go to miss alimony's to tea." "go on," he encouraged grimly. "i am going to lady viping's to dinner, too; she asked me and i accepted. later." she stopped. he seemed to deliberate. then suddenly he thrust out a face of pinched determination. "you _won't_, my lady," he said. "you bet your life you won't. _no!_ so _now_ then!" and then gripping his hands more tightly behind him, he made a step towards her. "you're losing your bearings, lady harman," he said, speaking with much intensity in a low earnest voice. "you don't seem to be remembering where you are. you come and you tell me you're going to do this and that. don't you know, lady harman, that it's your wifely duty to obey, to do as i say, to behave as i wish?" he brought out a lean index finger to emphasize his remarks. "and i am going to make you do it!" he said. "i've a perfect right," she repeated. he went on, regardless of her words. "what do you think you can do, lady harman? you're going to all these places--how? not in _my_ motor-car, not with _my_ money. you've not a thing that isn't mine, that _i_ haven't given you. and if you're going to have a lot of friends i haven't got, where're they coming to see you? not in _my_ house! i'll chuck 'em out if i find 'em. i won't have 'em. i'll turn 'em out. see?" "i'm not a slave." "you're a wife--and a wife's got to do what her husband wishes. you can't have two heads on a horse. and in _this_ horse--this house i mean, the head's--_me_!" "i'm not a slave and i won't be a slave." "you're a wife and you'll stick to the bargain you made when you married me. i'm ready in reason to give you anything you want--if you do your duty as a wife should. why!--i spoil you. but this going about on your own, this highty-flighty go-as-you-please,--no man on earth who's worth calling a man will stand it. i'm not going to begin to stand it.... you try it on. you try it, lady harman.... you'll come to your senses soon enough. see? you start trying it on now--straight away. we'll make an experiment. we'll watch how it goes. only don't expect me to give you any money, don't expect me to help your struggling family, don't expect me to alter my arrangements because of you. let's keep apart for a bit and you go your way and i'll go mine. and we'll see who's sick of it first, we'll see who wants to cry off." "i came down here," said lady harman, "to give you a reasonable notice----" "and you found _i_ could reason too," interrupted sir isaac in a kind of miniature shout, "you found i could reason too!" "you think----reason! i _won't_," said lady harman, and found herself in tears. by an enormous effort she recovered something of her dignity and withdrew. he made no effort to open the door, but stood a little hunchbacked and with a sense of rhetorical victory surveying her retreat. § after lady harman's maid had left her that night, she sat for some time in a low easy chair before her fire, trying at first to collect together into one situation all the events of the day and then lapsing into that state of mind which is not so much thinking as resting in the attitude of thought. presently, in a vaguely conceived future, she would go to bed. she was stunned by the immense dimensions of the row her simple act of defiance had evoked. and then came an incredible incident, so incredible that next day she still had great difficulty in deciding whether it was an actuality or a dream. she heard a little very familiar sound. it was the last sound she would have expected to hear and she turned sharply when she heard it. the paper-covered door in the wall of her husband's apartment opened softly, paused, opened some more and his little undignified head appeared. his hair was already tumbled from his pillow. he regarded her steadfastly for some moments with an expression between shame and curiosity and smouldering rage, and then allowed his body, clad now in purple-striped pyjamas, to follow his head into her room. he advanced guiltily. "elly," he whispered. "elly!" she caught her dressing-gown about her and stood up. "what is it, isaac?" she asked, feeling curiously abashed at this invasion. "elly," he said, still in that furtive undertone. "_make it up!_" "i want my freedom," she said, after a little pause. "don't be _silly_, elly," he whispered in a tone of remonstrance and advancing slowly towards her. "make it up. chuck all these ideas." she shook her head. "we've got to get along together. you can't go going about just anywhere. we've got--we've got to be reasonable." he halted, three paces away from her. his eyes weren't sorrowful eyes, or friendly eyes; they were just shiftily eager eyes. "look here," he said. "it's all nonsense.... elly, old girl; let's--let's make it up." she looked at him and it dawned upon her that she had always imagined herself to be afraid of him and that indeed she wasn't. she shook her head obstinately. "it isn't reasonable," he said. "here, we've been the happiest of people----anything in reason i'll let you have." he paused with an effect of making an offer. "i want my autonomy," she said. "autonomy!" he echoed. "autonomy! what's autonomy? autonomy!" this strange word seemed first to hold him in distressful suspense and then to infuriate him. "i come in here to make it up," he said, with a voice charged with griefs, "after all you've done, and you go and you talk of autonomy!" his feelings passed beyond words. an extremity of viciousness flashed into his face. he gave vent to a snarl of exasperation, "ya-ap!" he said, he raised his clenched fists and seemed on the verge of assault, and then with a gesture between fury and despair, he wheeled about and the purple-striped pyjamas danced in passionate retreat from her room. "autonomy!..." a slam, a noise of assaulted furniture, and then silence. lady harman stood for some moments regarding the paper-covered door that had closed behind him. then she bared her white forearm and pinched it--hard. it wasn't a dream! this thing had happened. § at a quarter to three in the morning, lady harman was surprised to find herself wide awake. it was exactly a quarter to three when she touched the stud of the ingenious little silver apparatus upon the table beside her bed which reflected a luminous clock-face upon the ceiling. and her mind was no longer resting in the attitude of thought but extraordinarily active. it was active, but as she presently began to realize it was not progressing. it was spinning violently round and round the frenzied figure of a little man in purple-striped pyjamas retreating from her presence, whirling away from her like something blown before a gale. that seemed to her to symbolize the completeness of the breach the day had made between her husband and herself. she felt as a statesman might feel who had inadvertently--while conducting some trivial negotiations--declared war. she was profoundly alarmed. she perceived ahead of her abundant possibilities of disagreeable things. and she wasn't by any means as convinced of the righteousness of her cause as a happy warrior should be. she had a natural disposition towards truthfulness and it worried her mind that while she was struggling to assert her right to these common social freedoms she should be tacitly admitting a kind of justice in her husband's objections by concealing the fact that her afternoon's companion was a man. she tried not to recognize the existence of a doubt, but deep down in her mind there did indeed lurk a weakening uncertainty about the right of a woman to free conversation with any man but her own. her reason disowned that uncertainty with scorn. but it wouldn't go away for all her reason. she went about in her mind doing her utmost to cut that doubt dead.... she tried to go back to the beginning and think it all out. and as she was not used to thinking things out, the effort took the form of an imaginary explanation to mr. brumley of the difficulties of her position. she framed phrases. "you see, mr. brumley," she imagined herself to be saying, "i want to do my duty as a wife, i have to do my duty as a wife. but it's so hard to say just where duty leaves off and being a mere slave begins. i cannot believe that _blind_ obedience is any woman's duty. a woman needs--autonomy." then her mind went off for a time to a wrestle with the exact meaning of autonomy, an issue that had not arisen hitherto in her mind.... and as she planned out such elucidations, there grew more and more distinct in her mind a kind of idealized mr. brumley, very grave, very attentive, wonderfully understanding, saying illuminating helpful tonic things, that made everything clear, everything almost easy. she wanted someone of that quality so badly. the night would have been unendurable if she could not have imagined mr. brumley of that quality. and imagining him of that quality her heart yearned for him. she felt that she had been terribly inexpressive that afternoon, she had shirked points, misstated points, and yet he had been marvellously understanding. ever and again his words had seemed to pierce right through what she had been saying to what she had been thinking. and she recalled with peculiar comfort a kind of abstracted calculating look that had come at times into his eyes, as though his thoughts were going ever so much deeper and ever so much further than her blundering questionings could possibly have taken them. he weighed every word, he had a guarded way of saying "um...." her thoughts came back to the dancing little figure in purple-striped pyjamas. she had a scared sense of irrevocable breaches. what would he do to-morrow? what should she do to-morrow? would he speak to her at breakfast or should she speak first to him?... she wished she had some money. if she could have foreseen all this she would have got some money before she began.... so her mind went on round and round and the dawn was breaking before she slept again. § mr. brumley, also, slept little that night. he was wakefully mournful, recalling each ungraceful incident of the afternoon's failure in turn and more particularly his dispute with the ticket clerk, and thinking over all the things he might have done--if only he hadn't done the things he had done. he had made an atrocious mess of things. he felt he had hopelessly shattered the fair fabric of impressions of him that lady harman had been building up, that image of a wise humane capable man to whom a woman would gladly turn; he had been flurried, he had been incompetent, he had been ridiculously incompetent, and it seemed to him that life was a string of desolating inadequacies and that he would never smile again. the probable reception of lady harman by her husband never came within his imaginative scope. nor did the problems of social responsibility that lady harman had been trying to put to him exercise him very greatly. the personal disillusionment was too strong for that. about half-past four a faint ray of comfort came with the consideration that after all a certain practical incapacity is part of the ensemble of a literary artist, and then he found himself wondering what flowers of wisdom montaigne might not have culled from such a day's experience; he began an imitative essay in his head and he fell asleep upon this at last at about ten minutes past five in the morning. there were better things than this in the composition of mr. brumley, we shall have to go deep into these reserves before we have done with him, but when he had so recently barked the shins of his self-esteem they had no chance at all. chapter the seventh lady harman learns about herself § so it was that the great and long incubated quarrel between lady harman and her husband broke into active hostilities. in spite of my ill-concealed bias in favour of lady harman i have to confess that she began this conflict rashly, planlessly, with no equipment and no definite end. particularly i would emphasize that she had no definite end. she had wanted merely to establish a right to go out by herself occasionally, exercise a certain choice of friends, take on in fact the privileges of a grown-up person, and in asserting that she had never anticipated that the participation of the household would be invoked, or that a general breach might open between herself and her husband. it had seemed just a definite little point at issue, but at sir isaac's angry touch a dozen other matters that had seemed safely remote, matters she had never yet quite properly thought about, had been drawn into controversy. it was not only that he drew in things from outside; he evoked things within herself. she discovered she was disposed to fight not simply to establish certain liberties for herself but also--which had certainly not been in her mind before--to keep her husband away from herself. something latent in the situation had surprised her with this effect. it had arisen out of the quarrel like a sharpshooter out of an ambuscade. her right to go out alone had now only the value of a mere pretext for far more extensive independence. the ultimate extent of these independences, she still dared not contemplate. she was more than a little scared. she wasn't prepared for so wide a revision of her life as this involved. she wasn't at all sure of the rightfulness of her position. her conception of the marriage contract at that time was liberal towards her husband. after all, didn't she owe obedience? didn't she owe him a subordinate's co-operation? didn't she in fact owe him the whole marriage service contract? when she thought of the figure of him in his purple-striped pyjamas dancing in a paroxysm of exasperation, that sense of responsibility which was one of her innate characteristics reproached her. she had a curious persuasion that she must be dreadfully to blame for provoking so ridiculous, so extravagant an outbreak.... § she heard him getting up tumultuously and when she came down,--after a brief interview with her mother who was still keeping her room,--she found him sitting at the breakfast-table eating toast and marmalade in a greedy malignant manner. the tentative propitiations of his proposal to make things up had entirely disappeared, he was evidently in a far profounder rage with her than he had been overnight. snagsby too, that seemly domestic barometer, looked extraordinarily hushed and grave. she made a greeting-like noise and sir isaac scrunched "morning" up amongst a crowded fierce mouthful of toast. she helped herself to tea and bacon and looking up presently discovered his eye fixed upon her with an expression of ferocious hatred.... he went off in the big car, she supposed to london, about ten and she helped her mother to pack and depart by a train a little after midday. she made a clumsy excuse for not giving that crisp little trifle of financial assistance she was accustomed to, and mrs. sawbridge was anxiously tactful about the disappointment. they paid a visit of inspection and farewell to the nursery before the departure. then lady harman was left until lunch to resume her meditation upon this unprecedented breach that had opened between her husband and herself. she was presently moved to write a little note to lady beach-mandarin expressing her intention of attending a meeting of the social friends and asking whether the date was the following wednesday or thursday. she found three penny stamps in the bureau at which she wrote and this served to remind her of her penniless condition. she spent some time thinking out the possible consequences of that. how after all was she going to do things, with not a penny in the world to do them with? lady harman was not only instinctively truthful but also almost morbidly honourable. in other words, she was simple-minded. the idea of a community of goods between husband and wife had never established itself in her mind, she took all sir isaac's presents in the spirit in which he gave them, presents she felt they were on trust, and so it was that with a six-hundred pound pearl necklace, a diamond tiara, bracelets, lockets, rings, chains and pendants of the most costly kind--there had been a particularly beautiful bracelet when millicent was born, a necklace on account of florence, a fan painted by charles conder for annette and a richly splendid set of old spanish jewellery--yellow sapphires set in gold--to express sir isaac's gratitude for the baby--with all sorts of purses, bags, boxes, trinkets and garments, with a bedroom and morning-room rich in admirable loot, and with endless tradespeople willing to give her credit it didn't for some time occur to her that there was any possible means of getting pocket-money except by direct demand from sir isaac. she surveyed her balance of two penny stamps and even about these she felt a certain lack of negotiable facility. she thought indeed that she might perhaps borrow money, but there again her paralyzing honesty made her recoil from the prospect of uncertain repayment. and besides, from whom could she borrow?... it was on the evening of the second day that a chance remark from peters turned her mind to the extensive possibilities of liquidation that lay close at hand. she was discussing her dinner dress with peters, she wanted something very plain and high and unattractive, and peters, who disapproved of this tendency and was all for female wiles and propitiations, fell into an admiration of the pearl necklace. she thought perhaps by so doing she might induce lady harman to wear it, and if she wore it sir isaac might be a little propitiated, and if sir isaac was a little propitiated it would be much more comfortable for snagsby and herself and everyone. she was reminded of a story of a lady who sold one and substituted imitation pearls, no one the wiser, and she told this to her mistress out of sheer garrulousness. "but if no one found out," said lady harman, "how do you know?" "not till her death, me lady," said peters, brushing, "when all things are revealed. her husband, they say, made it a present of to another lady and the other lady, me lady, had it valued...." once the idea had got into lady harman's head it stayed there very obstinately. she surveyed the things on the table before her with a slightly lifted eyebrow. at first she thought the idea of disposing of them an entirely dishonourable idea, and if she couldn't get it out of her head again at least she made it stand in a corner. and while it stood in a corner she began putting a price for the first time in her life first upon this coruscating object and then that. then somehow she found herself thinking more and more whether among all these glittering possessions there wasn't something that she might fairly regard as absolutely her own. there were for example her engagement ring and, still more debateable, certain other pre-nuptial trinkets sir isaac had given her. then there were things given her on her successive birthdays. a birthday present of all presents is surely one's very own? but selling is an extreme exercise of ownership. since those early schooldays when she had carried on an unprofitable traffic in stamps she had never sold anything--unless we are to reckon that for once and for all she had sold herself. concurrently with these insidious speculations lady harman found herself trying to imagine how one sold jewels. she tried to sound peters by taking up the story of the necklace again. but peters was uninforming. "but where," asked lady harman, "could such a thing be done?" "there are places, me lady," said peters. "but where?" "in the west end, me lady. the west end is full of places--for things of that sort. there's scarcely anything you can't do there, me lady--if only you know how." that was really all that peters could impart. "how _does_ one sell jewels?" lady harman became so interested in this side of her perplexities that she did a little lose sight of those subtler problems of integrity that had at first engaged her. do jewellers buy jewels as well as sell them? and then it came into her head that there were such things as pawnshops. by the time she had thought about pawnshops and tried to imagine one, her original complete veto upon any idea of selling had got lost to sight altogether. instead there was a growing conviction that if ever she sold anything it would be a certain sapphire and diamond ring which she didn't like and never wore that sir isaac had given her as a birthday present two years ago. but of course she would never dream of selling anything; at the utmost she need but pawn. she reflected and decided that on the whole it would be wiser not to ask peters how one pawned. it occurred to her to consult the _encyclopædia britannica_ on the subject, but though she learnt that the chinese pawnshops must not charge more than three per cent. per annum, that king edward the third pawned his jewels in and that father bernardino di feltre who set up pawnshops in assisi and padua and pavia was afterward canonized, she failed to get any very clear idea of the exact ritual of the process. and then suddenly she remembered that she knew a finished expert in pawnshop work in the person of susan burnet. susan could tell her everything. she found some curtains in the study that needed replacement, consulted mrs. crumble and, with a view to economizing her own resources, made that lady send off an urgent letter to susan bidding her come forthwith. § it has been said that fate is a plagiarist. lady harman's fate at any rate at this juncture behaved like a benevolent plagiarist who was also a little old-fashioned. this phase of speechless hostility was complicated by the fact that two of the children fell ill, or at least seemed for a couple of days to be falling ill. by all the rules of british sentiment, this ought to have brought about a headlong reconciliation at the tumbled bedside. it did nothing of the sort; it merely wove fresh perplexities into the tangled skein of her thoughts. on the day after her participation in that forbidden lunch millicent, her eldest daughter, was discovered with a temperature of a hundred and one, and then annette, the third, followed suit with a hundred. this carried lady harman post haste to the nursery, where to an unprecedented degree she took command. latterly she had begun to mistrust the physique of her children and to doubt whether the trained efficiency of mrs. harblow the nurse wasn't becoming a little blunted at the edges by continual use. and the tremendous quarrel she had afoot made her keenly resolved not to let anything go wrong in the nursery and less disposed than she usually was to leave things to her husband's servants. she interviewed the doctor herself, arranged for the isolation of the two flushed and cross little girls, saw to the toys and amusements which she discovered had become a little flattened and disused by the servants' imperatives of tidying up and putting away, and spent the greater part of the next two days between the night and day nurseries. she was a little surprised to find how readily she did this and how easily the once entirely authoritative mrs. harblow submitted. it was much the same surprise that growing young people feel when they reach some shelf that has hitherto been inaccessible. the crisis soon passed. at his first visit the doctor was a little doubtful whether the harman nursery wasn't under the sway of measles, which were then raging in a particularly virulent form in london; the next day he inclined to the view that the trouble was merely a feverish cold, and before night this second view was justified by the disappearance of the "temperatures" and a complete return to normal conditions. but as for that hushed reconciliation in the fevered presence of the almost sacrificial offspring, it didn't happen. sir isaac merely thrust aside the stiff silences behind which he masked his rage to remark: "this is what happens when wimmen go gadding about!" that much and glaring eyes and compressed lips and emphasizing fingers and then he had gone again. indeed rather than healing their widening breach this crisis did much to spread it into strange new regions. it brought lady harman to the very verge of realizing how much of instinct and how much of duty held her the servant of the children she had brought into the world, and how little there mingled with that any of those factors of pride and admiration that go to the making of heroic maternal love. she knew what is expected of a mother, the exalted and lyrical devotion, and it was with something approaching terror that she perceived that certain things in these children of hers she _hated_. it was her business she knew to love them blindly; she lay awake at night in infinite dismay realizing she did nothing of the sort. their weakness held her more than anything else, the invincible pathos of their little limbs in discomfort so that she was ready to die she felt to give them ease. but so she would have been held, she was assured, by the little children of anybody if they had fallen with sufficient helplessness into her care. just how much she didn't really like her children she presently realized when in the feeble irascibility of their sickness they fell quarrelling. they became--horrid. millicent and annette being imprisoned in their beds it seemed good to florence when she came back from the morning's walk, to annex and hide a selection of their best toys. she didn't take them and play with them, she hid them with an industrious earnestness in a box window-seat that was regarded as peculiarly hers, staggering with armfuls across the nursery floor. then millicent by some equally mysterious agency divined what was afoot and set up a clamour for a valued set of doll's furniture, which immediately provoked a similar outcry from little annette for her teddy bear. followed woe and uproar. the invalids insisted upon having every single toy they possessed brought in and put upon their beds; florence was first disingenuous and then surrendered her loot with passionate howlings. the teddy bear was rescued from baby after a violent struggle in which one furry hind leg was nearly twisted off. it jars upon the philoprogenitive sentiment of our time to tell of these things and still more to record that all four, stirred by possessive passion to the profoundest depths of their beings, betrayed to an unprecedented degree in their little sharp noses, their flushed faces, their earnest eyes, their dutiful likeness to sir isaac. he peeped from under millicent's daintily knitted brows and gestured with florence's dimpled fists. it was as if god had tried to make him into four cherubim and as if in spite of everything he was working through. lady harman toiled to pacify these disorders, gently, attentively, and with a faint dismay in her dark eyes. she bribed and entreated and marvelled at mental textures so unlike her own. baby was squared with a brand new teddy bear, a rare sort, a white one, which snagsby went and purchased in the putney high street and brought home in his arms, conferring such a lustre upon the deed that the lower orders, the very street-boys, watched him with reverence as he passed. annette went to sleep amidst a discomfort of small treasures and woke stormily when mrs. harblow tried to remove some of the spikier ones. and lady harman went back to her large pink bedroom and meditated for a long time upon these things and tried to remember whether in her own less crowded childhood with georgina, either of them had been quite so inhumanly hard and grasping as these feverish little mites in her nursery. she tried to think she had been, she tried to think that all children were such little distressed lumps of embittered individuality, and she did what she could to overcome the queer feeling that this particular clutch of offspring had been foisted upon her and weren't at all the children she could now imagine and desire,--gentle children, sweet-spirited children.... § susan burnet arrived in a gusty mood and brought new matter for lady harman's ever broadening consideration of the wifely position. susan, led by a newspaper placard, had discovered sir isaac's relations to the international bread and cake stores. "at first i thought i wouldn't come," said susan. "i really did. i couldn't hardly believe it. and then i thought, 'it isn't _her_. it can't be _her_!' but i'd never have dreamt before that i could have been brought to set foot in the house of the man who drove poor father to ruin and despair.... you've been so kind to me...." susan's simple right-down mind stopped for a moment with something very like a sob, baffled by the contradictions of the situation. "so i came," she said, with a forced bright smile. "i'm glad you came," said lady harman. "i wanted to see you. and you know, susan, i know very little--very little indeed--of sir isaac's business." "i quite believe it, my lady. i've never for one moment thought _you_----i don't know how to say it, my lady." "and indeed i'm not," said lady harman, taking it as said. "i knew you weren't," said susan, relieved to be so understood. and the two women looked perplexedly at one another over the neglected curtains susan had come to "see to," and shyness just snatched back lady harman from her impulse to give susan a sisterly kiss. nevertheless susan who was full of wise intuitions felt that kiss that was never given, and in the remote world of unacted deeds returned it with effusion. "but it's hard," said susan, "to find one's own second sister mixed up in a strike, and that's what it's come to last week. they've struck, all the international waitresses have struck, and last night in piccadilly they were standing on the kerb and picketing and her among them. with a crowd cheering.... and me ready to give my right hand to keep that girl respectable!" and with a volubility that was at once tumultuous and effective, susan sketched in the broad outlines of the crisis that threatened the dividends and popularity of the international bread and cake stores. the unsatisfied demands of that bright journalistic enterprise, _the london lion_, lay near the roots of the trouble. _the london lion_ had stirred it up. but it was only too evident that _the london lion_ had merely given a voice and form and cohesion to long smouldering discontents. susan's account of the matter had that impartiality which comes from intellectual incoherence, she hadn't so much a judgment upon the whole as a warring mosaic of judgments. it was talking upon post impressionist lines, talking in the manner of picasso. she had the firmest conviction that to strike against employment, however ill-paid or badly conditioned, was a disgraceful combination of folly, ingratitude and general wickedness, and she had an equally strong persuasion that the treatment of the employees of the international bread and cake stores was such as no reasonably spirited person ought to stand. she blamed her sister extremely and sympathized with her profoundly, and she put it all down in turn to _the london lion_, to sir isaac, and to a small round-faced person called babs wheeler, who appeared to be the strike leader and seemed always to be standing on tables in the branches, or clambering up to the lions in trafalgar square, or being cheered in the streets. but there could be no mistaking the quality of sir isaac's "international" organization as susan's dabs of speech shaped it out. it was indeed what we all of us see everywhere about us, the work of the base energetic mind, raw and untrained, in possession of the keen instruments of civilization, the peasant mind allied and blended with the ghetto mind, grasping and acquisitive, clever as a norman peasant or a jew pedlar is clever, and beyond that outrageously stupid and ugly. it was a new view and yet the old familiar view of her husband, but now she saw him not as little eager eyes, a sharp nose, gaunt gestures and a leaden complexion, but as shops and stores and rules and cash registers and harsh advertisements and a driving merciless hurry to get--to get anything and everything, money, monopoly, power, prominence, whatever any other human being seemed to admire or seemed to find desirable, a lust rather than a living soul. now that her eyes were at last opened lady harman, who had seen too little heretofore, now saw too much; she saw all that she had not seen, with an excess of vision, monstrous, caricatured. susan had already dabbed in the disaster of sir isaac's unorganized competitors going to the wall--for charity or the state to neglect or bandage as it might chance--the figure of that poor little "father," moping hopelessly before his "accident" symbolized that; and now she gave in vivid splotches of allusion, glimpses of the business machine that had replaced those shattered enterprises and carried sir isaac to the squalid glory of a liberal honours list,--the carefully balanced antagonisms and jealousies of the girls and the manageresses, those manageresses who had been obliged to invest little bunches of savings as guarantees and who had to account for every crumb and particle of food stock that came to the branch, and the hunt for cases and inefficiency by the inspectors, who had somehow to justify a salary of two hundred a year, not to mention a percentage of the fines they inflicted. "there's all that business of the margarine," said susan. "every branch gets its butter under weight,--the water squeezes out,--and every branch has over weight margarine. of course the rules say that mixing's forbidden and if they get caught they go, but they got to pay-in for that butter, and it's setting a snare for their feet. people who've never thought to cheat, when they get it like that, day after day, they cheat, my lady.... and the girls get left food for rations. there's always trouble, it's against what the rules say, but they get it. of course it's against the rules, but what can a manageress do?--if the waste doesn't fall on them, it falls on her. she's tied there with her savings.... such driving, my lady, it's against the very spirit of god. it makes scoffers point. it makes people despise law and order. there's luke, he gets bitterer and bitterer; he says that it's in the word we mustn't muzzle the ox that treadeth out the corn, but these stores, he says, they'd muzzle the ox and keep it hungry and make it work a little machine, he says, whenever it put down its head in the hope of finding a scrap...." so susan, bright-eyed, flushed and voluble, pleading the cause of that vague greatness in humanity that would love, that would loiter, that would think, that would if it could give us art, delight and beauty, that turns blindly and stumblingly towards joy, towards intervals, towards the mysterious things of the spirit, against all this sordid strenuousness, this driving destructive association of hardfisted peasant soul and ghetto greed, this fool's "efficiency," that rules our world to-day. then susan lunged for a time at the waitress life her sister led. "she has 'er 'ome with us, but some--they haven't homes." "they make a fuss about all this white slave traffic," said susan, "but if ever there were white slaves it's the girls who work for a living and keep themselves respectable. and nobody wants to make an example of the men who get rich out of _them_...." and after some hearsay about the pressure in the bake-houses and the accidents to the van-men, who worked on a speeding-up system that sir isaac had adopted from an american business specialist, susan's mental discharge poured out into the particulars of the waitresses' strike and her sister's share in that. "she _would_ go into it," said susan, "she let herself be drawn in. i asked her never to take the place. better service, i said, a thousand times. i begged her, i could have begged her on my bended knees...." the immediate cause of the strike it seemed was the exceptional disagreeableness of one of the london district managers. "he takes advantage of his position," repeated susan with face aflame, and lady harman was already too wise about susan's possibilities to urge her towards particulars.... now as lady harman listened to all this confused effective picturing of the great catering business which was the other side of her husband and which she had taken on trust so long, she had in her heart a quite unreasonable feeling of shame that she should listen at all, a shyness, as though she was prying, as though this really did not concern her. she knew she had to listen and still she felt beyond her proper jurisdiction. it is against instinct, it is with an enormous reluctance that women are bringing their quick emotions, their flashing unstable intelligences, their essential romanticism, their inevitable profound generosity into the world of politics and business. if only they could continue believing that all that side of life is grave and wise and admirably managed for them they would. it is not in a day or a generation that we shall un-specialize women. it is a wrench nearly as violent as birth for them to face out into the bleak realization that the man who goes out for them into business, into affairs, and returns so comfortably loaded with housings and wrappings and trappings and toys, isn't, as a matter of fact, engaged in benign creativeness while he is getting these desirable things. § lady harman's mind was so greatly exercised by susan burnet's voluminous confidences that it was only when she returned to her own morning room that she recalled the pawning problem. she went back to sir isaac's study and found susan with all her measurements taken and on the very edge of departure. "oh susan!" she said. she found the matter a little difficult to broach. susan remained in an attitude of respectful expectation. "i wanted to ask you," said lady harman and then broke off to shut the door. susan's interest increased. "you know, susan," said lady harman with an air of talking about commonplace things, "sir isaac is very rich and--of course--very generous.... but sometimes one feels, one wants a little money of one's own." "i think i can understand that, my lady," said susan. "i knew you would," said lady harman and then with a brightness that was slightly forced, "i can't always get money of my own. it's difficult--sometimes." and then blushing vividly: "i've got lots of _things_.... susan, have you ever pawned anything?" and so she broached it. "not since i got fairly into work," said susan; "i wouldn't have it. but when i was little we were always pawning things. why! we've pawned kettles!..." she flashed three reminiscences. meanwhile lady harman produced a little glittering object and held it between finger and thumb. "if i went into a pawnshop near here," she said, "it would seem so odd.... this ring, susan, must be worth thirty or forty pounds. and it seems so silly when i have it that i should really be wanting money...." susan displayed a peculiar reluctance to handle the ring. "i've never," she said, "pawned anything valuable--not valuable like that. suppose--suppose they wanted to know how i had come by it." "it's more than alice earns in a year," she said. "it's----" she eyed the glittering treasure; "it's a queer thing for me to have." a certain embarrassment arose between them. lady harman's need of money became more apparent. "i'll do it for you," said susan, "indeed i'll do it. but----there's one thing----" her face flushed hotly. "it isn't that i want to make difficulties. but people in our position--we aren't like people in your position. it's awkward sometimes to explain things. you've got a good character, but people don't know it. you can't be too careful. it isn't sufficient--just to be honest. if i take that----if you were just to give me a little note--in your handwriting--on your paper--just asking me----i don't suppose i need show it to anyone...." "i'll write the note," said lady harman. a new set of uncomfortable ideas was dawning upon her. "but susan----you don't mean that anyone, anyone who's really honest--might get into trouble?" "you can't be too careful," said susan, manifestly resolved not to give our highly civilized state half a chance with her. § the problem of sir isaac and just what he was doing and what he thought he was doing and what he meant to do increased in importance in lady harman's mind as the days passed by. he had an air of being malignantly up to something and she could not imagine what this something could be. he spoke to her very little but he looked at her a great deal. he had more and more of the quality of a premeditated imminent explosion.... one morning she was standing quite still in the drawing-room thinking over this now almost oppressive problem of why the situation did not develop further with him, when she became aware of a thin flat unusual book upon the small side table near the great armchair at the side of the fire. he had been reading that overnight and it lay obliquely--it might almost have been left out for her. she picked it up. it was _the taming of the shrew_ in that excellent folio edition of henley's which makes each play a comfortable thin book apart. a curiosity to learn what it was had drawn her husband to english literature made her turn over the pages. _the taming of the shrew_ was a play she knew very slightly. for the harmans, though deeply implicated like most other rich and striving people in plans for honouring the immortal william, like most other people found scanty leisure to read him. as she turned over the pages a pencil mark caught her eye. thence words were underlined and further accentuated by a deeply scored line in the margin. "but for my bonny kate, she must with me. nay; look not big, nor stamp, nor stare, nor fret; i will be master of what is mine own: she is my goods, my chattels; she is my house, she is my household stuff, my field, my barn, my horse, my ox, my ass, my any thing: and here she stands, touch her whoever dare; i'll bring mine action on the proudest he, that stops my way in padua." with a slightly heightened colour, lady harman read on and presently found another page slashed with sir isaac's approval.... her face became thoughtful. did he mean to attempt--petruchio? he could never dare. there were servants, there were the people one met, the world.... he would never dare.... what a strange play it was! shakespear of course was wonderfully wise, the crown of english wisdom, the culminating english mind,--or else one might almost find something a little stupid and clumsy.... did women nowadays really feel like these elizabethan wives who talked--like girls, very forward girls indeed, but girls of sixteen?... she read the culminating speech of katherine and now she had so forgotten sir isaac she scarcely noted the pencil line that endorsed the immortal words. "thy husband is thy lord, thy life, thy keeper, thy head, thy sovereign; one who cares for thee, and for thy maintenance commits his body to painful labour both by sea and land, to watch the night in storms, the day in cold, while thou liest warm at home, secure and safe; and craves no other tribute at thy hands but love, fair looks, and true obedience; too little payment for so great a debt. such duty as the subject owes the prince, even such a woman oweth to her husband; and when she is froward, peevish, sullen, sour, and not obedient to his honest will, what is she but a foul contending rebel and graceless traitor to her loving lord? i am ashamed that women are so simple to offer war, where they should kneel for peace; * * * * * my mind has been as big as one of yours, my heat as great; my reason, haply, more, to bandy word for word and frown for frown. but now i see our lances are but straws; our strength is weak, our weakness past compare, seeming that most which we indeed least are...." she wasn't indignant. something in these lines took hold of her protesting imagination. she knew that so she could have spoken of a man. but that man,--she apprehended him as vaguely as an anglican bishop apprehends god. he was obscured altogether by shadows; he had only one known characteristic, that he was totally unlike sir isaac. and the play was false she felt in giving this speech to a broken woman. such things are not said by broken women. broken women do no more than cheat and lie. but so a woman might speak out of her unconquered wilfulness, as a queen might give her lover a kingdom out of the fullness of her heart. § the evening after his wife had had this glimpse into sir isaac's mental processes he telephoned that charterson and horatio blenker were coming home to dinner with him. neither lady charterson nor mrs. blenker were to be present; it was to be a business conversation and not a social occasion, and lady harman he desired should wear her black and gold with just a touch of crimson in her hair. charterson wanted a word or two with the flexible horatio on sugar at the london docks, and sir isaac had some vague ideas that a turn might be given to the public judgment upon the waitresses' strike, by a couple of horatio's thoughtful yet gentlemanly articles. and in addition charterson seemed to have something else upon his mind; he did not tell as much to sir isaac but he was weighing the possibilities of securing a controlling share in the _daily spirit_, which simply didn't know at present where it was upon the sugar business, and of installing horatio's brother, adolphus, as its editor. he wanted to form some idea from horatio of what adolphus might expect before he approached adolphus. lady harman wore the touch of crimson in her hair as her husband had desired, and the table was decorated simply with a big silver bowl of crimson roses. a slight shade of apprehension in sir isaac's face changed to approval at the sight of her obedience. after all perhaps she was beginning to see the commonsense of her position. charterson struck her as looking larger, but then whenever she saw him he struck her as looking larger. he enveloped her hand in a large amiable paw for a minute and asked after the children with gusto. the large teeth beneath his discursive moustache gave him the effect of a perennial smile to which his asymmetrical ears added a touch of waggery. he always betrayed a fatherly feeling towards her as became a man who was married to a handsome wife old enough to be her mother. even when he asked about the children he did it with something of the amused knowingness of assured seniority, as if indeed he knew all sorts of things about the children that she couldn't as yet even begin to imagine. and though he confined his serious conversation to the two other men, he would ever and again show himself mindful of her and throw her some friendly enquiry, some quizzically puzzling remark. blenker as usual treated her as if she were an only very indistinctly visible presence to whom an effusive yet inattentive politeness was due. he was clearly nervous almost to the pitch of jumpiness. he knew he was to be spoken to about the sugar business directly he saw charterson, and he hated being spoken to about the sugar business. he had his code of honour. of course one had to make concessions to one's proprietors, but he could not help feeling that if only they would consent to see his really quite obvious gentlemanliness more clearly it would be better for the paper, better for the party, better for them, far better for himself. he wasn't altogether a fool about that sugar; he knew how things lay. they ought to trust him more. his nervousness betrayed itself in many little ways. he crumbled his bread constantly until, thanks to snagsby's assiduous replacement, he had made quite a pile of crumbs, he dropped his glasses in the soup--a fine occasion for snagsby's _sang-froid_--and he forgot not to use a fish knife with the fish as lady grove directs and tried when he discovered his error to replace it furtively on the table cloth. moreover he kept on patting the glasses on his nose--after snagsby had whisked his soup plate away, rescued, wiped and returned them to him--until that feature glowed modestly at such excesses of attention, and the soup and sauces and things bothered his fine blond moustache unusually. so that mr. blenker what with the glasses, the napkin, the food and the things seemed as restless as a young sparrow. lady harman did her duties as hostess in the quiet key of her sombre dress, and until the conversation drew her out into unexpected questionings she answered rather than talked, and she did not look at her husband once throughout the meal. at first the talk was very largely charterson. he had no intention of coming to business with blenker until lady harman had given place to the port and the man's nerves were steadier. he spoke of this and that in the large discursive way men use in clubs, and it was past the fish before the conversation settled down upon the topic of business organization and sir isaac, a little warmed by champagne, came out of the uneasily apprehensive taciturnity into which he had fallen in the presence of his wife. horatio blenker was keenly interested in the idealization of commercial syndication, he had been greatly stirred by a book of mr. gerald stanley lee's called _inspired millionaires_ which set out to show just what magnificent airs rich men might give themselves, and he had done his best to catch its tone and to find _inspired millionaires_ in sir isaac and charterson and to bring it to their notice and to the notice of the readers of the _old country gazette_. he felt that if only sir isaac and charterson would see getting rich as a great creative act it would raise their tone and his tone and the tone of the _old country gazette_ tremendously. it wouldn't of course materially alter the methods or policy of the paper but it would make them all feel nobler, and blenker was of that finer clay that does honestly want to feel nobler. he hated pessimism and all that criticism and self-examination that makes weak men pessimistic, he wanted to help weak men and be helped himself, he was all for that school of optimism that would have each dunghill was a well-upholstered throne, and his nervous, starry contributions to the talk were like patches of water ranunculuses trying to flower in the overflow of a sewer. because you know it is idle to pretend that the talk of charterson and sir isaac wasn't a heavy flow of base ideas; they hadn't even the wit to sham very much about their social significance. they cared no more for the growth, the stamina, the spirit of the people whose lives they dominated than a rat cares for the stability of the house it gnaws. they _wanted_ a broken-spirited people. they were in such relations wilfully and offensively stupid, and i do not see why we people who read and write books should pay this stupidity merely because it is prevalent even the mild tribute of an ironical civility. charterson talked of the gathering trouble that might lead to a strike of the transport workers in london docks, and what he had to say, he said,--he repeated it several times--was, "_let_ them strike. we're ready. the sooner they strike the better. devonport's a man and this time we'll _beat_ 'em...." he expanded generally on strikes. "it's a question practically whether we are to manage our own businesses or whether we're to have them managed for us. _managed_ i say!..." "they know nothing of course of the details of organization," said blenker, shining with intelligence and looking quickly first to the right and then to the left. "nothing." sir isaac broke out into confirmatory matter. there was an idea in his head that this talk might open his wife's eyes to some sense of the magnitude of his commercial life, to the wonder of its scale and quality. he compared notes with charterson upon a speeding-up system for delivery vans invented by an american specialist and it made blenker flush with admiration and turn as if for sympathy to lady harman to realize how a modification in a tailboard might mean a yearly saving in wages of many thousand pounds. "the sort of thing they don't understand," he said. and then sir isaac told of some of his own little devices. he had recently taken to having the returns of percentage increase and decrease from his various districts printed on postcards and circulated monthly among the district managers, postcards endorsed with such stimulating comments in red type as "well done cardiff!" or "what ails portsmouth?"--the results had been amazingly good; "neck and neck work," he said, "everywhere"--and thence they passed to the question of confidential reports and surprise inspectors. thereby they came to the rights and wrongs of the waitress strike. and then it was that lady harman began to take a share in the conversation. she interjected a question. "yes," she said suddenly and her interruption was so unexpected that all three men turned their eyes to her. "but how much do the girls get a week?" "i thought," she said to some confused explanations by blenker and charterson, "that gratuities were forbidden." blenker further explained that most of the girls of the class sir isaac was careful to employ lived at home. their income was "supplementary." "but what happens to the others who don't live at home, mr. blenker?" she asked. "very small minority," said mr. blenker reassuring himself about his glasses. "but what do they do?" charterson couldn't imagine whether she was going on in this way out of sheer ignorance or not. "sometimes their fines make big unexpected holes in their week's pay," she said. sir isaac made some indistinct remark about "utter nonsense." "it seems to me to be driving them straight upon the streets." the phrase was susan's. its full significance wasn't at that time very clear to lady harman and it was only when she had uttered it that she realized from horatio blenker's convulsive start just what a blow she had delivered at that table. his glasses came off again. he caught them and thrust them back, he seemed to be holding his nose on, holding his face on, preserving those carefully arranged features of himself from hideous revelations; his free hand made weak movements with his dinner napkin. he seemed to be holding it in reserve against the ultimate failure of his face. charterson surveyed her through an immense pause open-mouthed; then he turned his large now frozen amiability upon his host. "these are awful questions," he gasped, "rather beyond us don't you think?" and then magnificently; "harman, things are looking pretty queer in the far east again. i'm told there are chances--of revolution--even in pekin...." lady harman became aware of snagsby's arm and his steady well-trained breathing beside her as, tenderly almost but with a regretful disapproval, he removed her plate.... § if lady harman had failed to remark at the time the deep impression her words had made upon her hearers, she would have learnt it later from the extraordinary wrath in which sir isaac, as soon as his guests had departed, visited her. he was so angry he broke the seal of silence he had set upon his lips. he came raging into the pink bedroom through the paper-covered door as if they were back upon their old intimate footing. he brought a flavour of cigars and manly refreshment with him, his shirt front was a little splashed and crumpled and his white face was variegated with flushed patches. "what ever d'you mean," he cried, "by making a fool of me in front of those fellers?... what's my business got to do with you?" lady harman was too unready for a reply. "i ask you what's my business got to do with you? it's _my_ affair, _my_ side. you got no more right to go shoving your spoke into that than--anything. see? what do _you_ know of the rights and wrongs of business? how can _you_ tell what's right and what isn't right? and the things you came out with--the things you came out with! why charterson--after you'd gone charterson said, she doesn't know, she can't know what she's talking about! a decent woman! a _lady_! talking of driving girls on the street. you ought to be ashamed of yourself! you aren't fit to show your face.... it's these damned papers and pamphlets, all this blear-eyed stuff, these decadent novels and things putting narsty thoughts, _narsty dirty_ thoughts into decent women's heads. it ought to be rammed back down their throats, it ought to be put a stop to!" sir isaac suddenly gave way to woe. "what have i _done_?" he cried, "what have i done? here's everything going so well! we might be the happiest of couples! we're rich, we got everything we want.... and then you go harbouring these ideas, fooling about with rotten people, taking up with socialism----yes, i tell you--socialism!" his moment of pathos ended. "no?" he shouted in an enormous voice. he became white and grim. he emphasized his next words with a shaken finger. "it's got to end, my lady. it's going to end sooner than you expect. that's all!..." he paused at the papered door. he had a popular craving for a vivid curtain and this he felt was just a little too mild. "it's going to end," he repeated and then with great violence, with almost alcoholic violence, with the round eyes and shouting voice and shaken fist and blaspheming violence of a sordid, thrifty peasant enraged, "it's going to end a damned sight sooner than you expect." chapter the eighth sir isaac as petruchio § twice had sir isaac come near to betraying the rapid and extensive preparations for the subjugation of his wife, that he hid behind his silences. he hoped that their estrangement might be healed by a certain display of strength and decision. he still refused to let himself believe that all this trouble that had arisen between them, this sullen insistence upon unbecoming freedoms of intercourse and movement, this questioning spirit and a gaucherie of manner that might almost be mistaken for an aversion from his person, were due to any essential evil in her nature; he clung almost passionately to the alternative that she was the victim of those gathering forces of discontent, of that interpretation which can only be described as decadent and that veracity which can only be called immodest, that darken the intellectual skies of our time, a sweet thing he held her still though touched by corruption, a prey to "idees," "idees" imparted from the poisoned mind of her sister, imbibed from the carelessly edited columns of newspapers, from all too laxly censored plays, from "blear-eyed" bookshow he thanked the archbishop of york for that clever expressive epithet!--from the careless talk of rashly admitted guests, from the very atmosphere of london. and it had grown clearer and clearer to him that his duty to himself and the world and her was to remove her to a purer, simpler air, beyond the range of these infections, to isolate her and tranquillize her and so win her back again to that acquiescence, that entirely hopeless submissiveness that had made her so sweet and dear a companion for him in the earlier years of their married life. long before lady beach-mandarin's crucial luncheon, his deliberate foreseeing mind had been planning such a retreat. black strand even at his first visit had appeared to him in the light of a great opportunity, and the crisis of their quarrel did but release that same torrential energy which had carried him to a position of napoleonic predominance in the world of baking, light catering and confectionery, into the channels of a scheme already very definitely formed in his mind. his first proceeding after the long hours of sleepless passion that had followed his wife's hampton court escapade, had been to place himself in communication with mr. brumley. he learnt at mr. brumley's club that that gentleman had slept there overnight and had started but a quarter of an hour before, back to black strand. sir isaac in hot pursuit and gathering force and assistance in mid flight reached black strand by midday. it was with a certain twinge of the conscience that mr. brumley perceived his visitor, but it speedily became clear that sir isaac had no knowledge of the guilty circumstances of the day before. he had come to buy black strand--incontinently, that was all. he was going, it became clear at once, to buy it with all its fittings and furnishings as it stood, lock, stock and barrel. mr. brumley, concealing that wild elation, that sense of a joyous rebirth, that only the liquidation of nearly all one's possessions can give, was firm but not excessive. sir isaac haggled as a wave breaks and then gave in and presently they were making a memorandum upon the pretty writing-desk beneath the traditional rose euphemia had established there when mr. brumley was young and already successful. this done, and it was done in less than fifteen minutes, sir isaac produced a rather crumpled young architect from the motor-car as a conjurer might produce a rabbit from a hat, a builder from aleham appeared astonishingly in a dog-cart--he had been summoned by telegram--and sir isaac began there and then to discuss alterations, enlargements and, more particularly, with a view to his nursery requirements, the conversion of the empty barn into a nursery wing and its connexion with the house by a corridor across the shrubbery. "it will take you three months," said the builder from aleham. "and the worst time of the year coming." "it won't take three weeks--if i have to bring down a young army from london to do it," said sir isaac. "but such a thing as plastering----" "we won't have plastering." "there's canvas and paper, of course," said the young architect. "there's canvas and paper," said sir isaac. "and those new patent building units, so far as the corridor goes. i've seen the ads." "we can whitewash 'em. they won't show much," said the young architect. "oh if you do things in _that_ way," said the builder from aleham with bitter resignation.... § the morning dawned at last when the surprise was ripe. it was four days after susan's visit, and she was due again on the morrow with the money that would enable her employer to go to lady viping's now imminent dinner. lady harman had had to cut the social friends' meeting altogether, but the day before the surprise agatha alimony had come to tea in her jobbed car, and they had gone together to the committee meeting of the shakespear dinner society. sir isaac had ignored that defiance, and it was an unusually confident and quite unsuspicious woman who descended in a warm october sunshine to the surprise. in the breakfast-room she discovered an awe-stricken snagsby standing with his plate-basket before her husband, and her husband wearing strange unusual tweeds and gaiters,--buttoned gaiters, and standing a-straddle,--unusually a-straddle, on the hearthrug. "that's enough, snagsby," said sir isaac, at her entrance. "bring it all." she met snagsby's eye, and it was portentous. latterly snagsby's eye had lost the assurance of his former days. she had noted it before, she noted it now more than ever; as though he was losing confidence, as though he was beginning to doubt, as though the world he had once seemed to rule grew insecure beneath his feet. for a moment she met his eye; it might have been a warning he conveyed, it might have been an appeal for sympathy, and then he had gone. she looked at the table. sir isaac had breakfasted acutely. in silence, among the wreckage and with a certain wonder growing, lady harman attended to her needs. sir isaac cleared his throat. she became aware that he had spoken. "what did you say, isaac?" she asked, looking up. he seemed to have widened his straddle almost dangerously, and he spoke with a certain conscious forcefulness. "we're going to move out of this house, elly," he said. "we're going down into the country right away." she sat back in her chair and regarded his pinched and determined visage. "what do you mean?" she asked. "i've bought that house of brumley's,--black strand. we're going to move down there--_now_. i've told the servants.... when you've done your breakfast, you'd better get peters to pack your things. the big car's going to be ready at half-past ten." lady harman reflected. "to-morrow evening," she said, "i was going out to dinner at lady viping's." "not my affair--seemingly," said sir isaac with irony. "well, the car's going to be ready at half-past ten." "but that dinner----!" "we'll think about it when the time comes." husband and wife regarded each other. "i've had about enough of london," said sir isaac. "so we're going to shift the scenery. see?" lady harman felt that one might adduce good arguments against this course if only one knew of them. sir isaac had a bright idea. he rang. "snagsby," he said, "just tell peters to pack up lady harman's things...." "_well!_" said lady harman, as the door closed on snagsby. her mind was full of confused protest, but she had again that entirely feminine and demoralizing conviction that if she tried to express it she would weep or stumble into some such emotional disaster. if now she went upstairs and told peters _not_ to pack----! sir isaac walked slowly to the window, and stood for a time staring out into the garden. extraordinary bumpings began overhead in sir isaac's room. no doubt somebody was packing something.... lady harman realized with a deepening humiliation that she dared not dispute before the servants, and that he could. "but the children----" she said at last. "i've told mrs. harblow," he said, over his shoulder. "told her it was a bit of a surprise." he turned, with a momentary lapse into something like humour. "you see," he said, "it _is_ a bit of a surprise." "but what are you going to do with this house?" "lock it all up for a bit.... i don't see any sense in living where we aren't happy. perhaps down there we shall manage better...." it emerged from the confusion of lady harman's mind that perhaps she had better go to the nursery, and see how things were getting on there. sir isaac watched her departure with a slightly dubious eye, made little noises with his teeth for a time, and then went towards the telephone. in the hall she found two strange young men in green aprons assisting the under-butler to remove the hats and overcoats and such-like personal material into a motor-van outside. she heard two of the housemaids scurrying upstairs. "'arf an hour," said one, "isn't what i call a proper time to pack a box in." in the nursery the children were disputing furiously what toys were to be taken into the country. lady harman was a very greatly astonished woman. the surprise had been entirely successful. § it has been said, i think, by limburger, in his already cited work, that nothing so excites and prevails with woman as rapid and extensive violence, sparing and yet centring upon herself, and certainly it has to be recorded that, so far from being merely indignant, and otherwise a helplessly pathetic spectacle, lady harman found, though perhaps she did not go quite so far as to admit to herself that she found, this vehement flight from the social, moral, and intellectual contaminations of london an experience not merely stimulating but entertaining. it lifted her delicate eyebrows. something, it may have been a sense of her own comparative immobility amid this sudden extraordinary bustle of her home, put it into her head that so it was long ago that lot must have bundled together his removable domesticities. she made one attempt at protest. "isaac," she said, "isn't all this rather ridiculous----" "don't speak to me!" he answered, waving her off. "don't speak to me! you should have spoken before, elly. _now_,--things are happening." the image of black strand as, after all, a very pleasant place indeed returned to her. she adjudicated upon the nursery difficulties, and then went in a dreamlike state of mind to preside over her own more personal packing. she found peters exercising all that indecisive helplessness which is characteristic of ladies' maids the whole world over. it was from peters she learnt that the entire household, men and maids together, was to be hurled into surrey. "aren't they all rather surprised?" asked lady harman. "yes, m'm," said peters on her knees, "but of course if the drains is wrong the sooner we all go the better." (so that was what he had told them.) a vibration and a noise of purring machinery outside drew the lady to the window, and she discovered that at least four of the large motor-vans from the international stores were to co-operate in the trek. there they were waiting, massive and uniform. and then she saw snagsby in his alpaca jacket _running_ towards the house from the gates. of course he was running only very slightly indeed, but still he was running, and the expression of distress upon his face convinced her that he was being urged to unusual and indeed unsuitable tasks under the immediate personal supervision of sir isaac.... then from round the corner appeared the under butler or at least the legs of him going very fast, under a pile of shirt boxes and things belonging to sir isaac. he dumped them into the nearest van and heaved a deep sigh and returned houseward after a remorseful glance at the windows. a violent outcry from baby, who, with more than her customary violence was making her customary morning protest against being clad, recalled lady harman from the contemplation of these exterior activities.... the journey to black strand was not accomplished without misadventure; there was a puncture near farnham, and as clarence with a leisurely assurance entertained himself with the stepney, they were passed first by the second car with the nursery contingent, which went by in a shrill chorus, crying, "_we-e-e_ shall get there first, _we-e-e_ shall get there first," and then by a large hired car all agog with housemaids and mrs. crumble and with snagsby, as round and distressed as the full moon, and the under butler, cramped and keen beside the driver. there followed the leading international stores car, and then the stepney was on and they could hasten in pursuit.... and at last they came to black strand, and when they saw black strand it seemed to lady harman that the place had blown out a huge inflamed red cheek and lost its pleasant balance altogether. "_oh!_" she cried. it was the old barn flushed by the strain of adaptation to a new use, its comfortable old wall ruptured by half a dozen brilliant new windows, a light red chimney stack at one end. from it a vividly artistic corridor ran to the house and the rest of the shrubbery was all trampled and littered with sheds, bricks, poles and material generally. black strand had left the hands of the dilettante school and was in the grip of those vigorous moulding forces that are shaping our civilization to-day. the jasmine wig over the porch had suffered a strenuous clipping; the door might have just come out of prison. in the hall the carpaccio copies still glowed, but there were dust sheets over most of the furniture and a plumber was moving his things out with that eleventh hour reluctance so characteristic of plumbers. mrs. rabbit, a little tearful, and dressed for departure very respectably in black was giving the youngest and least experienced housemaid a faithful history of mr. brumley's earlier period. "'appy we all was," said mrs. rabbit, "as birds in a nest." through the windows two of the putney gardeners were busy replacing mr. brumley's doubtful roses by recognized sorts, the _right_ sorts.... "i've been doing all i can to make it ready for you," said sir isaac at his wife's ear, bringing a curious reminiscence of the first home-coming to putney into her mind. § "and now," said sir isaac with evident premeditation and a certain deliberate amiability, "now we got down here, now we got away a bit from all those london things with nobody to cut in between us, me and you can have a bit of a talk, elly, and see what it's all about." they had lunched together in the little hall-dining room,--the children had had a noisily cheerful picnic in the kitchen with mrs. harblow, and now lady harman was standing at the window surveying the ravages of rose replacement. she turned towards him. "yes," she said. "i think--i think we can't go on like this." "_i_ can't," said sir isaac, "anyhow." he too came and stared at the rose planting. "if we were to go up there--among the pine woods"--he pointed with his head at the dark background of euphemia's herbaceous borders--"we shouldn't hear quite so much of this hammering...." husband and wife walked slowly in the afternoon sunlight across the still beautiful garden. each was gravely aware of an embarrassed incapacity for the task they had set themselves. they were going to talk things over. never in their lives had they really talked to each other clearly and honestly about anything. indeed it is scarcely too much to say that neither had ever talked about anything to anyone. she was too young, her mind was now growing up in her and feeling its way to conscious expression, and he had never before wanted to express himself. he did now want to express himself. for behind his rant and fury sir isaac had been thinking very hard indeed during the last three weeks about his life and her life and their relations; he had never thought so much about anything except his business economics. so far he had either joked at her, talked "silly" to her, made, as they say, "remarks," or vociferated. that had been the sum of their mental intercourse, as indeed it is the sum of the intercourse of most married couples. his attempt to state his case to her had so far always flared into rhetorical outbreaks. but he was discontented with these rhetorical outbreaks. his dispositions to fall into them made him rather like a nervous sepia that cannot keep its ink sac quiet while it is sitting for its portrait. in the earnestness of his attempt at self-display he vanished in his own outpourings. he wanted now to reason with her simply and persuasively. he wanted to say quietly impressive and convincing things in a low tone of voice and make her abandon every possible view except his view. he walked now slowly meditating the task before him, making a faint thoughtful noise with his teeth, his head sunken in the collar of the motor overcoat he wore because of a slight cold he had caught. and he had to be careful about colds because of his constitutional defect. she too felt she had much to say. much too she had in her mind that she couldn't say, because this strange quarrel had opened unanticipated things for her; she had found and considered repugnances in her nature she had never dared to glance at hitherto.... sir isaac began rather haltingly when they had reached a sandy, ant-infested path that ran slantingly up among the trees. he affected a certain perplexity. he said he did not understand what it was his wife was "after," what she "thought she was doing" in "making all this trouble"; he wanted to know just what it was she wanted, how she thought they ought to live, just what she considered his rights were as her husband and just what she considered were her duties as his wife--if, that is, she considered she had any duties. to these enquiries lady harman made no very definite reply; their estrangement instead of clearing her mind had on the whole perplexed it more, by making her realize the height and depth and extent of her possible separation from him. she replied therefore with an unsatisfactory vagueness; she said she wanted to feel that she possessed herself, that she was no longer a child, that she thought she had a right to read what she chose, see what people she liked, go out a little by herself, have a certain independence--she hesitated, "have a certain definite allowance of my own." "have i ever refused you money?" cried sir isaac protesting. "it isn't that," said lady harman; "it's the feeling----" "the feeling of being able to--defy--anything i say," said sir isaac with a note of bitterness. "as if i didn't understand!" it was beyond lady harman's powers to express just how that wasn't the precise statement of the case. sir isaac, reverting to his tone of almost elaborate reasonableness, expanded his view that it was impossible for husband and wife to have two different sets of friends;--let alone every other consideration, he explained, it wasn't convenient for them not to be about together, and as for reading or thinking what she chose he had never made any objection to anything unless it was "decadent rot" that any decent man would object to his womanfolk seeing, rot she couldn't understand the drift of--fortunately. blear-eyed humbug.... he checked himself on the verge of an almost archiepiscopal outbreak in order to be patiently reasonable again. he was prepared to concede that it would be very nice if lady harman could be a good wife and also an entirely independent person, very nice, but the point was--his tone verged on the ironical--that she couldn't be two entirely different people at the same time. "but you have your friends," she said, "you go away alone----" "that's different," said sir isaac with a momentary note of annoyance. "it's business. it isn't that i want to." lady harman had a feeling that they were neither of them gaining any ground. she blamed herself for her lack of lucidity. she began again, taking up the matter at a fresh point. she said that her life at present wasn't full, that it was only half a life, that it was just home and marriage and nothing else; he had his business, he went out into the world, he had politics and--"all sorts of things"; she hadn't these interests; she had nothing in the place of them---- sir isaac closed this opening rather abruptly by telling her that she should count herself lucky she hadn't, and again the conversation was suspended for a time. "but i want to know about these things," she said. sir isaac took that musingly. "there's things go on," she said; "outside home. there's social work, there's interests----am i never to take any part--in that?" sir isaac still reflected. "there's one thing," he said at last, "i want to know. we'd better have it out--_now_." but he hesitated for a time. "elly!" he blundered, "you aren't--you aren't getting somehow--not fond of me?" she made no immediate reply. "look here!" he said in an altered voice. "elly! there isn't something below all this? there isn't something been going on that i don't know?" her eyes with a certain terror in their depths questioned him. "something," he said, and his face was deadly white--"_some other man, elly?_" she was suddenly crimson, a flaming indignation. "isaac!" she said, "what do you _mean_? how can you _ask_ me such a thing?" "if it's that!" said sir isaac, his face suddenly full of malignant force, "i'll----but i'd _kill_ you...." "if it isn't that," he went on searching his mind; "why should a woman get restless? why should she want to go away from her husband, go meeting other people, go gadding about? if a woman's satisfied, she's satisfied. she doesn't harbour fancies.... all this grumbling and unrest. natural for your sister, but why should you? you've got everything a woman needs, husband, children, a perfectly splendid home, clothes, good jewels and plenty of them, respect! why should you want to go out after things? it's mere spoilt-childishness. of course you want to wander out--and if there isn't a man----" he caught her wrist suddenly. "there isn't a man?" he demanded. "isaac!" she protested in horror. "then there'll be one. you think i'm a fool, you think i don't know anything all these literary and society people know. i _do_ know. i know that a man and a woman have got to stick together, and if you go straying--you may think you're straying after the moon or social work or anything--but there's a strange man waiting round the corner for every woman and a strange woman for every man. think _i_'ve had no temptations?... oh! i _know_, i _know_. what's life or anything but that? and it's just because we've not gone on having more children, just because we listened to all those fools who said you were overdoing it, that all this fretting and grumbling began. we've got on to the wrong track, elly, and we've got to get back to plain wholesome ways of living. see? that's what i've come down here for and what i mean to do. we've got to save ourselves. i've been too--too modern and all that. i'm going to be a husband as a husband should. i'm going to protect you from these idees--protect you from your own self.... and that's about where we stand, elly, as i make it out." he paused with the effect of having delivered himself of long premeditated things. lady harman essayed to speak. but she found that directly she set herself to speak she sobbed and began weeping. she choked for a moment. then she determined she would go on, and if she must cry, she must cry. she couldn't let a disposition to tears seal her in silence for ever. "it isn't," she said, "what i expected--of life. it isn't----" "it's what life is," sir isaac cut in. "when i think," she sobbed, "of what i've lost----" "_lost!_" cried sir isaac. "lost! oh come now, elly, i like that. what!--_lost_. hang it! you got to look facts in the face. you can't deny----marrying like this,--you made a jolly good thing of it." "but the beautiful things, the noble things!" "_what's_ beautiful?" cried sir isaac in protesting scorn. "_what's_ noble? rot! doing your duty if you like and being sensible, that's noble and beautiful, but not fretting about and running yourself into danger. you've got to have a sense of humour, elly, in this life----" he created a quotation. "as you make your bed--so shall you lie." for an interval neither of them spoke. they crested the hill, and came into view of that advertisement board she had first seen in mr. brumley's company. she halted, and he went a step further and halted too. he recalled his ideas about the board. he had meant to have them all altered but other things had driven it from his mind.... "then you mean to imprison me here," said lady harman to his back. he turned about. "it isn't much like a prison. i'm asking you to stay here--and be what a wife _should_ be." "i'm to have no money." "that's--that depends entirely on yourself. you know that well enough." she looked at him gravely. "i won't stand it," she said at last with a gentle deliberation. she spoke so softly that he doubted his hearing. "_what?_" he asked sharply. "i won't stand it," she repeated. "no." "but--what can you do?" "i don't know," she said, after a moment of grave consideration. for some moments his mind hunted among possibilities. "it's me that's standing it," he said. he came closely up to her. he seemed on the verge of rhetoric. he pressed his thin white lips together. "standing it! when we might be so happy," he snapped, and shrugged his shoulders and turned with an expression of mournful resolution towards the house again. she followed slowly. he felt that he had done all that a patient and reasonable husband could do. _now_--things must take their course. § the imprisonment of lady harman at black strand lasted just one day short of a fortnight. for all that time except for such interludes as the urgent needs of the strike demanded, sir isaac devoted himself to the siege. he did all he could to make her realize how restrainedly he used the powers the law vests in a husband, how little he forced upon her the facts of marital authority and wifely duty. at times he sulked, at times he affected a cold dignity, and at times a virile anger swayed him at her unsubmissive silences. he gave her little peace in that struggle, a struggle that came to the edge of physical conflict. there were moments when it seemed to her that nothing remained but that good old-fashioned connubial institution, the tussle for the upper hand, when with a feminine horror she felt violence shouldering her shoulder or contracting ready to grip her wrist. against violence she doubted her strength, was filled with a desolating sense of yielding nerve and domitable muscle. but just short of violence sir isaac's spirit failed him. he would glower and bluster, half threaten, and retreat. it might come to that at last but at present it had not come to that. she could not understand why she had neither message nor sign from susan burnet, but she hid that anxiety and disappointment under her general dignity. she spent as much time with the children as she could, and until sir isaac locked up the piano she played, and was surprised to find far more in chopin than she had ever suspected in the days when she had acquired a passable dexterity of execution. she found, indeed, the most curious things in chopin, emotional phrases, that stirred and perplexed and yet pleased her.... the weather was very fine and open that year. a golden sunshine from october passed on into november and lady harman spent many of these days amidst the pretty things the builder from aleham had been too hurried to desecrate, dump, burn upon, and flatten into indistinguishable mire, after the established custom of builders in gardens since the world began. she would sit in the rockery where she had sat with mr. brumley and recall that momentous conversation, and she would wander up the pine-wood slopes behind, and she would spend long musing intervals among euphemia's perennials, thinking sometimes, and sometimes not so much thinking as feeling the warm tendernesses of nature and the perplexing difficulties of human life. with an amused amazement lady harman reflected as she walked about the pretty borders and the little patches of lawn and orchard that in this very place she was to have realized an imitation of the immortal "elizabeth" and have been wise, witty, gay, defiant, gallant and entirely successful with her "man of wrath." evidently there was some temperamental difference, or something in her situation, that altered the values of the affair. it was clearly a different sort of man for one thing. she didn't feel a bit gay, and her profound and deepening indignation with the alternative to this stagnation was tainted by a sense of weakness and incapacity. she came very near surrender several times. there were afternoons of belated ripened warmth, a kind of summer that had been long in the bottle, with a certain lassitude in the air and a blue haze among the trees, that made her feel the folly of all resistances to fate. why, after all, shouldn't she take life as she found it, that is to say, as sir isaac was prepared to give it to her? he wasn't really so bad, she told herself. the children--their noses were certainly a little sharp, but there might be worse children. the next might take after herself more. who was she to turn upon her appointed life and declare it wasn't good enough? whatever happened the world was still full of generous and beautiful things, trees, flowers, sunset and sunrise, music and mist and morning dew.... and as for this matter of the sweated workers, the harshness of the business, the ungracious competition, suppose if instead of fighting her husband with her weak powers, she persuaded him. she tried to imagine just exactly how he might be persuaded.... she looked up and discovered with an extraordinary amazement mr. brumley with eager gestures and a flushed and excited visage hurrying towards her across the croquet lawn. § lady viping's dinner-party had been kept waiting exactly thirty-five minutes for lady harman. sir isaac, with a certain excess of zeal, had intercepted the hasty note his wife had written to account for her probable absence. the party was to have centred entirely upon lady harman, it consisted either of people who knew her already, or of people who were to have been specially privileged to know her, and lady viping telephoned twice to putney before she abandoned hope. "it's disconnected," she said, returning in despair from her second struggle with the great public service. "they can't get a reply." "it's that little wretch," said lady beach-mandarin. "he hasn't let her come. _i_ know him." "it's like losing a front tooth," said lady viping, surveying her table as she entered the dining-room. "but surely--she would have written," said mr. brumley, troubled and disappointed, regarding an aching gap to the left of his chair, a gap upon which a pathetic little card bearing lady harman's name still lay obliquely. naturally the talk tended to centre upon the harmans. and naturally lady beach-mandarin was very bold and outspoken and called sir isaac quite a number of vivid things. she also aired her views of the marriage of the future, which involved a very stringent treatment of husbands indeed. "half his property and half his income," said lady beach-mandarin, "paid into her separate banking account." "but," protested mr. brumley, "would men marry under those conditions?" "men will marry anyhow," said lady beach-mandarin, "under _any_ conditions." "exactly sir joshua's opinion," said lady viping. all the ladies at the table concurred and only one cheerful bachelor barrister dissented. the other men became gloomy and betrayed a distaste for this general question. even mr. brumley felt a curious faint terror and had for a moment a glimpse of the possibilities that might lie behind the vote. lady beach-mandarin went bouncing back to the particular instance. at present, she said, witness lady harman, women were slaves, pampered slaves if you will, but slaves. as things were now there was nothing to keep a man from locking up his wife, opening all her letters, dressing her in sack-cloth, separating her from her children. most men, of course, didn't do such things, they were amenable to public opinion, but sir isaac was a jealous little ogre. he was a gnome who had carried off a princess.... she threw out projects for assailing the ogre. she would descend to-morrow morning upon the putney house, a living flamboyant writ of habeas corpus. mr. brumley, who had been putting two and two together, was abruptly moved to tell of the sale of black strand. "they may be there," he said. "he's carried her off," cried lady beach-mandarin on a top note. "it might be the eighteenth century for all he cares. but if it's black strand,--i'll go to black strand...." but she had to talk about it for a week before she actually made her raid, and then, with an instinctive need for an audience, she took with her a certain miss garradice, one of those mute, emotional nervous spinsters who drift detachedly, with quick sudden movements, glittering eyeglasses, and a pent-up imminent look, about our social system. there is something about this type of womanhood--it is hard to say--almost as though they were the bottled souls of departed buccaneers grown somehow virginal. she came with lady beach-mandarin quietly, almost humorously, and yet it was as if the pirate glittered dimly visible through the polished glass of her erect exterior. "here we are!" said lady beach-mandarin, staring astonished at the once familiar porch. "now for it!" she descended and assailed the bell herself and miss garradice stood beside her with the light of combat in her eyes and glasses and cheeks. "shall i offer to take her for a drive!" "_let's_," said miss garradice in an enthusiastic whisper. "_right away! for ever._" "_i will_," said lady beach-mandarin, and nodded desperately. she was on the point of ringing again when snagsby appeared. he stood with a large obstructiveness in the doorway. "lady 'arman, my lady" he said with a well-trained deliberation, "is not a tome." "not at home!" queried lady beach-mandarin. "not a tome, my lady," repeated snagsby invincibly. "but--when will she be at home?" "i can't say, my lady." "is sir isaac----?" "sir isaac, my lady, is not a tome. nobody is a tome, my lady." "but we've come from london!" said lady beach-mandarin. "i'm very sorry, my lady." "you see, i want my friend to see this house and garden." snagsby was visibly disconcerted. "i 'ave no instructions, my lady," he tried. "oh, but lady harman would never object----" snagsby's confusion increased. he seemed to be wanting to keep his face to the visitors and at the same time glance over his shoulder. "i will," he considered, "i will enquire, my lady." he backed a little, and seemed inclined to close the door upon them. lady beach-mandarin was too quick for him. she got herself well into the open doorway. "and of whom are you going to enquire?" a large distress betrayed itself in snagsby's eye. "the 'ousekeeper," he attempted. "it falls to the 'ousekeeper, my lady." lady beach-mandarin turned her face to miss garradice, shining in support. "stuff and nonsense," she said, "of course we shall come in." and with a wonderful movement that was at once powerful and perfectly lady-like this intrepid woman--"butted" is not the word--collided herself with snagsby and hurled him backward into the hall. miss garradice followed closely behind and at once extended herself in open order on lady beach-mandarin's right. "go and enquire," said lady beach-mandarin with a sweeping gesture of her arm. "go and enquire." for a moment snagsby surveyed the invasion with horror and then fled precipitately into the recesses of the house. "of _course_ they're at home!" said lady beach-mandarin. "fancy that--that--that _navigable_--trying to shut the door on us!" for a moment the two brightly excited ladies surveyed each other and then lady beach-mandarin, with a quickness of movement wonderful in one so abundant, began to open first one and then another of the various doors that opened into the long hall-living room. at a peculiar little cry from miss garradice she turned from a contemplation of the long low study in which so much of the euphemia books had been written, to discover sir isaac behind her, closely followed by an agonized snagsby. "a-a-a-a-h!" she cried, with both hands extended, "and so you've come in, sir isaac! that's perfectly delightful. this is my friend miss garradice, who's _dying_ to see anything you've left of poor euphemia's garden. and _how_ is dear lady harman?" for some crucial moments sir isaac was unable to speak and regarded his visitors with an expression that was unpretendingly criminal. then he found speech. "you can't," he said. "it--can't be managed." he shook his head; his lips were whitely compressed. "but all the way from london, sir isaac!" "lady harman's ill," lied sir isaac. "she mustn't be disturbed. everything has to be kept quiet. see? not even shouting. not even ordinarily raised voices. a voice like yours--might kill her. that's why snagsby here said we were not at home. we aren't at home--not to anyone." lady beach-mandarin was baffled. "snagsby," said sir isaac, "open that door." "but can't i see her--just for a moment?" sir isaac's malignity had softened a little at the prospect of victory. "absolutely impossible," he said. "everything disturbs her, every tiny thing. you----you'd be certain to." lady beach-mandarin looked at her companion and it was manifest that she was at the end of her resources. miss garradice after the fashion of highly strung spinsters suddenly felt disappointed in her leader. it wasn't, her silence intimated, for her to offer suggestions. the ladies were defeated. when at last that stiff interval ended their dresses rustled doorward, and sir isaac broke out into the civilities of a victor.... it was only when they were a mile away from black strand that fluent speech returned to lady beach-mandarin. "the little--crippen," she said. "he's got her locked up in some cellar.... horrid little face he has! he looked like a rat at bay." "i think perhaps if we'd done _differently_," said miss garradice in a tone of critical irresponsibility. "i'll write to her. that's what i'll do," said lady beach-mandarin contemplating her next step. "i'm really--concerned. and didn't you feel--something sinister. that butler-man's expression--a kind of round horror." that very evening she told it all--it was almost the trial trip of the story--to mr. brumley.... sir isaac watched their departure furtively from the study window and then ran out to the garden. he went right through into the pine woods beyond and presently, far away up the slopes, he saw his wife loitering down towards him, a gracious white tallness touched by a ray of sunlight--and without a suspicion of how nearly rescue had come to her. § so you see under what excitement mr. brumley came down to black strand. luck was with him at first and he forced the defence with ridiculous ease. "lady harman, sir, is not a tome," said snagsby. "ah!" said mr. brumley, with all the assurance of a former proprietor, "then i'll just have a look round the garden," and was through the green door in the wall and round the barn end before snagsby's mind could function. that unfortunate man went as far as the green door in pursuit and then with a gesture of despair retreated to the pantry and began cleaning all his silver to calm his agonized spirit. he could pretend perhaps that mr. brumley had never rung at the front door at all. if not---- moreover mr. brumley had the good fortune to find lady harman quite unattended and pensive upon the little seat that euphemia had placed for the better seeing of her herbaceous borders. "lady harman!" he said rather breathlessly, taking both her hands with an unwonted assurance and then sitting down beside her, "i am so glad to see you. i came down to see you--to see if i couldn't be of any service to you." "it's so kind of you to come," she said, and her dark eyes said as much or more. she glanced round and he too glanced round for sir isaac. "you see," he said. "i don't know.... i don't want to be impertinent.... but i feel--if i can be of any service to you.... i feel perhaps you want help here. i don't want to seem to be taking advantage of a situation. or making unwarrantable assumptions. but i want to assure you--i would willingly die--if only i could do anything.... ever since i first saw you." he said all this in a distracted way, with his eyes going about the garden for the possible apparition of sir isaac, and all the time his sense of possible observers made him assume an attitude as though he was engaged in the smallest of small talk. her colour quickened at the import of his words, and emotion, very rich and abundant emotion, its various factors not altogether untouched perhaps by the spirit of laughter, lit her eyes. she doubted a little what he was saying and yet she had anticipated that somehow, some day, in quite other circumstances, mr. brumley might break into some such strain. "you see," he went on with a quality of appeal in his eyes, "there's so little time to say things--without possible interruption. i feel you are in difficulties and i want to make you understand----we----every beautiful woman, i suppose, has a sort of right to a certain sort of man. i want to tell you--i'm not really presuming to make love to you--but i want to tell you i am altogether yours, altogether at your service. i've had sleepless nights. all this time i've been thinking about you. i'm quite clear, i haven't a doubt, i'll do anything for you, without reward, without return, i'll be your devoted brother, anything, if only you'll make use of me...." her colour quickened. she looked around and still no one appeared. "it's so kind of you to come like this," she said. "you say things--but i _have_ felt that you wanted to be brotherly...." "whatever i _can_ be," assured mr. brumley. "my situation here," she said, her dark frankness of gaze meeting his troubled eyes. "it's so strange and difficult. i don't know what to do. i don't know--what i _want_ to do...." "in london," said mr. brumley, "they think--they say--you have been taken off--brought down here--to a sort of captivity." "i _have_," admitted lady harman with a note of recalled astonishment in her voice. "if i can help you to escape----!" "but where can i escape?" and one must admit that it is a little difficult to indicate a correct refuge for a lady who finds her home intolerable. of course there was mrs. sawbridge, but lady harman felt that her mother's disposition to lock herself into her bedroom at the slightest provocation made her a weak support for a defensive fight, and in addition that boarding-house at bournemouth did not attract her. yet what other wall in all the world was there for lady harman to set her back against? during the last few days mr. brumley's mind had been busy with the details of impassioned elopements conducted in the most exalted spirit, but now in the actual presence of the lady these projects did in the most remarkable manner vanish. "couldn't you," he said at last, "go somewhere?" and then with an air of being meticulously explicit, "i mean, isn't there somewhere, where you might safely go?" (and in his dreams he had been crossing high passes with her; he had halted suddenly and stayed her mule. in his dream because he was a man of letters and a poet it was always a mule, never a _train de luxe_. "look," he had said, "below there,--_italy!_--the country you have never seen before.") "there's nowhere," she answered. "now _where_?" asked mr. brumley, "and how?" with the tone and something of the gesture of one who racks his mind. "if you only trust yourself to me----oh! lady harman, if i dared ask it----" he became aware of sir isaac walking across the lawn towards them.... the two men greeted each other with a reasonable cordiality. "i wanted to see how you were getting on down here," said mr. brumley, "and whether there was anything i could do for you." "we're getting on all right," said sir isaac with no manifest glow of gratitude. "you've altered the old barn--tremendously." "come and see it," said sir isaac. "it's a wing." mr. brumley remained seated. "it was the first thing that struck me, lady harman. this evidence of sir isaac's energy." "come and look over it," sir isaac persisted. mr. brumley and lady harman rose together. "one's enough to show him that," said sir isaac. "i was telling lady harman how much we missed her at lady viping's, sir isaac." "it was on account of the drains," sir isaac explained. "you can't--it's foolhardy to stay a day when the drains are wrong, dinners or no dinners." "you know _i_ was extremely sorry not to come to lady viping's. i hope you'll tell her. i wrote." but mr. brumley didn't remember clearly enough to make any use of that. "everybody naturally _is_ sorry on an occasion of that sort," said sir isaac. "but you come and see what we've done in that barn. in three weeks. they couldn't have got it together in three months ten years ago. it's--system." mr. brumley still tried to cling to lady harman. "have you been interested in this building?" he asked. "i still don't understand the system of the corridor," she said, rising a little belatedly to the occasion. "i _will_ come." sir isaac regarded her for a moment with a dubious expression and then began to explain the new method of building with large prepared units and shaped pieces of reinforced concrete instead of separate bricks that messrs. prothero & cuthbertson had organized and which had enabled him to create this artistic corridor so simply. it was a rather uncomfortable three-cornered conversation. sir isaac addressed his exposition exclusively to mr. brumley and mr. brumley made repeated ineffectual attempts to bring lady harman, and lady harman made repeated ineffectual attempts to bring herself, into a position in the conversation. their eyes met, the glow of mr. brumley's declarations remained with them, but neither dared risk any phrase that might arouse sir isaac's suspicions or escape his acuteness. and when they had gone through the new additions pretty thoroughly--the plumbers were still busy with the barn bathroom--sir isaac asked mr. brumley if there was anything more he would like to see. in the slight pause that ensued lady harman suggested tea. but tea gave them no opportunity of resuming their interrupted conversation, and as sir isaac's invincible determination to shadow his visitor until he was well off the premises became more and more unmistakable,--he made it quite ungraciously unmistakable,--mr. brumley's inventiveness failed. one thing came to him suddenly, but it led to nothing of any service to him. "but i heard you were dangerously ill, lady harman!" he cried. "lady beach-mandarin called here----" "but when?" asked lady harman, astonished over the tea-things. "but you _know_ she called!" said mr. brumley and looked in affected reproach at sir isaac. "i've not been ill at all!" "sir isaac told her." "told her i was ill!" "dangerously ill. that you couldn't bear to be disturbed." "but _when_, mr. brumley?" "three days ago." they both looked at sir isaac who was sitting on the music stool and eating a piece of tea-cake with a preoccupied air. he swallowed and then spoke thoughtfully--in a tone of detached observation. nothing but a slight reddening of the eyes betrayed any unusual feeling in him. "it's my opinion," he said, "that that old lady--lady beach-mandarin i mean--doesn't know what she's saying half the time. she says--oh! remarkable things. saying _that_ for example!" "but did she call on me?" "she called. i'm surprised you didn't hear. and she was all in a flurry for going on.... did you come down, mr. brumley, to see if lady harman was ill?" "that weighed with me." "well,--you see she isn't," said sir isaac and brushed a stray crumb from his coat.... mr. brumley was at last impelled gateward and sir isaac saw him as far as the high-road. "good-bye!" cried mr. brumley with excessive amiability. sir isaac with soundless lips made a good-bye like gesture. "and now," said sir isaac to himself with extreme bitterness, "now to see about getting a dog." "bull mastiff?" said sir isaac developing his idea as he went back to lady harman. "or perhaps a thoroughly vicious collie?" "how did that chap get in?" he demanded. "what had he got to say to you?" "he came in--to look at the garden," said lady harman. "and of course he wanted to know if i had been well--because of lady viping's party. and i suppose because of what you told lady beach-mandarin." sir isaac grunted doubtfully. he thought of snagsby and of all the instructions he had given snagsby. he turned about and went off swiftly and earnestly to find snagsby.... snagsby lied. but sir isaac was able to tell from the agitated way in which he was cleaning his perfectly clean silver at that unseasonable hour that the wretched man was lying. § quite a number of words came to the lips of mr. brumley as he went unwillingly along the pleasant country road that led from black strand to the railway station. but the word he ultimately said showed how strongly the habits of the gentlemanly _littérateur_ prevailed in him. it was the one inevitable word for his mood,--"baffled!" close upon its utterance came the weak irritation of the impotent man. "what the _devil_?" cried mr. brumley. some critical spirit within him asked him urgently why he was going to the station, what he thought he was doing, what he thought he had done, and what he thought he was going to do. to all of which questions mr. brumley perceived he had no adequate reply. earlier in the day he had been inspired by a vague yet splendid dream of large masterful liberations achieved. he had intended to be very disinterested, very noble, very firm, and so far as sir isaac was concerned, a trifle overbearing. you know now what he said and did. "of course if we could have talked for a little longer," he said. from the stormy dissatisfaction of his retreat this one small idea crystallized, that he had not talked enough without disturbance to lady harman. the thing he had to do was to talk to her some more. to go on with what he had been saying. that thought arrested his steps. on that hypothesis there was no reason whatever why he should go on to the station and london. instead----he stopped short, saw a convenient gate ahead, went to it, seated himself upon its topmost rail and attempted a calm survey of the situation. he had somehow to continue that conversation with lady harman. was it impossible to do that by going back to the front door of black strand? his instinct was against that course. he knew that if he went back now openly he would see nobody but sir isaac or his butler. he must therefore not go back openly. he must go round now and into the pine-woods at the back of black strand; thence he must watch the garden and find his opportunity of speaking to the imprisoned lady. there was something at once attractively romantic and repellently youthful about this course of action. mr. brumley looked at his watch, then he surveyed the blue clear sky overhead, with just one warm tinted wisp of cloud. it would be dark in an hour and it was probable that lady harman had already gone indoors for the day. might it be possible after dark to approach the house? no one surely knew the garden so well as he. of course this sort of thing is always going on in romances; in the stories of that last great survivor of the stevensonian tradition, h.b. marriot watson, the heroes are always creeping through woods, tapping at windows, and scaling house-walls, but mr. brumley as he sat on his gate became very sensible of his own extreme inexperience in such adventures. and yet anything seemed in his present mood better than going back to london. suppose he tried his luck! he knew of course the lie of the land about black strand very well indeed and his harmless literary social standing gave him a certain freedom of trespass. he dropped from his gate on the inner side and taking a bridle path through a pine-wood was presently out upon the moorland behind his former home. he struck the high-road that led past the staminal bread board and was just about to clamber over the barbed wire on his left and make his way through the trees to the crest that commanded the black strand garden when he perceived a man in a velveteen coat and gaiters strolling towards him. he decided not to leave the road until he was free from observation. the man was a stranger, an almost conventional gamekeeper, and he endorsed mr. brumley's remark upon the charmingness of the day with guarded want of enthusiasm. mr. brumley went on for some few minutes, then halted, assured himself that the stranger was well out of sight and returned at once towards the point where high-roads were to be left and adventure begun. but he was still some yards away when he became aware of that velveteen-coated figure approaching again. "damn!" said mr. brumley and slacked his eager paces. this time he expressed a view that the weather was extremely mild. "very," said the man in velveteen with a certain lack of respect in his manner. it was no good turning back again. mr. brumley went on slowly, affected to botanize, watched the man out of sight and immediately made a dash for the pine-woods, taking the barbed wire in a manner extremely detrimental to his left trouser leg. he made his way obliquely up through the trees to the crest from which he had so often surveyed the shining ponds of aleham. there he paused to peer back for that gamekeeper--whom he supposed in spite of reason to be stalking him--to recover his breath and to consider his further plans. the sunset was very fine that night, a great red sun was sinking towards acutely outlined hill-crests, the lower nearer distances were veiled in lavender mists and three of the ponds shone like the fragments of a shattered pink topaz. but mr. brumley had no eye for landscape.... about two hours after nightfall mr. brumley reached the railway station. his trousers and the elbow of his coat bore witness to a second transit of the barbed-wire fence in the darkness, he had manifestly walked into a boggy place and had some difficulty in recovering firm ground and he had also been sliding in a recumbent position down a bank of moist ferruginous sand. moreover he had cut the palm of his left hand. there was a new strange stationmaster who regarded him without that respect to which he had grown accustomed. he received the information that the winter train service had been altered and that he would have to wait forty-five minutes for the next train to london with the resignation of a man already chastened by misfortune and fatigue. he went into the waiting-room and after a vain search for the poker--the new stationmaster evidently kept it in a different place--sat down in front of an irritatingly dull fire banked up with slack, and nursed his damaged hand and meditated on his future plans. his plans were still exactly in the state in which they had been when sir isaac parted from him at the gate of black strand. they remained in the same state for two whole days. throughout all that distressing period his general intention of some magnificent intervention on behalf of lady harman remained unchanged, it produced a number of moving visions of flights at incredible speeds in (recklessly hired) motor-cars of colossal power,--most of the purchase money for black strand was still uninvested at his bank--of impassioned interviews with various people, of a divorce court with a hardened judge congratulating the manifestly quite formal co-respondent on the moral beauty of his behaviour, but it evolved no sort of concrete practicable detail upon which any kind of action might be taken. and during this period of indecision mr. brumley was hunted through london by a feverish unrest. when he was in his little flat in pont street he was urged to go to his club, when he got to his club he was urged to go anywhere else, he called on the most improbable people and as soon as possible fled forth again, he even went to the british museum and ordered out a lot of books on matrimonial law. long before that great machine had disgorged them for him he absconded and this neglected, this widowed pile of volumes still standing to his account only came back to his mind in the middle of the night suddenly and disturbingly while he was trying to remember the exact words he had used in his brief conversation with lady harman.... § two days after mr. brumley's visit susan burnet reached black strand. she too had been baffled for a while. for some week or more she couldn't discover the whereabouts of lady harman and lived in the profoundest perplexity. she had brought back her curtains to the putney house in a large but luggable bundle, they were all made and ready to put up, and she found the place closed and locked, in the charge of a caretaker whose primary duty it was to answer no questions. it needed several days of thought and amazement, and a vast amount of "i wonder," and "i just would like to know," before it occurred to susan that if she wrote to lady harman at the putney address the letter might be forwarded. and even then she almost wrecked the entire enterprise by mentioning the money, and it was by a quite exceptional inspiration that she thought after all it was wiser not to say that but to state that she had finished the curtains and done everything (underlined) that lady harman had desired. sir isaac read it and tossed it over to his wife. "make her send her bill," he remarked. whereupon lady harman set mrs. crumble in motion to bring susan down to black strand. this wasn't quite easy because as mrs. crumble pointed out they hadn't the slightest use for susan's curtains there, and lady harman had to find the morning light quite intolerable in her bedroom--she always slept with window wide open and curtains drawn back--to create a suitable demand for susan's services. but at last susan came, too humbly invisible for sir isaac's attention, and directly she found lady harman alone in the room with her, she produced a pawn ticket and twenty pounds. "i 'ad to give all sorts of particulars," she said. "it was a job. but i did it...." the day was big with opportunity, for sir isaac had been unable to conceal the fact that he had to spend the morning in london. he had gone up in the big car and his wife was alone, and so, with susan upstairs still deftly measuring for totally unnecessary hangings, lady harman was able to add a fur stole and a muff and some gloves to her tweed gardening costume, walk unchallenged into the garden and from the garden into the wood and up the hillside and over the crest and down to the high-road and past that great advertisement of staminal bread and so for four palpitating miles, to the railway station and the outer world. she had the good fortune to find a train imminent,--the twelve-seventeen. she took a first-class ticket for london and got into a compartment with another woman because she felt it would be safer. § lady harman reached miss alimony's flat at half-past three in the afternoon. she had lunched rather belatedly and uncomfortably in the waterloo refreshment room and she had found out that miss alimony was at home through the telephone. "i want to see you urgently," she said, and miss alimony received her in that spirit. she was hatless but she had a great cloud of dark fuzzy hair above the grey profundity of her eyes and she wore an artistic tea-gown that in spite of a certain looseness at neck and sleeve emphasized the fine lines of her admirable figure. her flat was furnished chiefly with books and rich oriental hangings and vast cushions and great bowls of scented flowers. on the mantel-shelf was the crystal that amused her lighter moments and above it hung a circular allegory by florence swinstead, very rich in colour, the awakening of woman, in a heavy gold frame. miss alimony conducted her guest to an armchair, knelt flexibly on the hearthrug before her, took up a small and elegant poker with a brass handle and a spear-shaped service end of iron and poked the fire. the service end came out from the handle and fell into the grate. "it always does that," said miss alimony charmingly. "but never mind." she warmed both hands at the blaze. "tell me all about it," she said, softly. lady harman felt she would rather have been told all about it. but perhaps that would follow. "you see," she said, "i find----my married life----" she halted. it _was_ very difficult to tell. "everyone," said agatha, giving a fine firelit profile, and remaining gravely thoughtful through a little pause. "do you mind," she asked abruptly, "if i smoke?" when she had completed her effect with a delicately flavoured cigarette, she encouraged lady harman to proceed. this lady harman did in a manner do. she said her husband left her no freedom of mind or movement, gave her no possession of herself, wanted to control her reading and thinking. "he insists----" she said. "yes," said miss agatha sternly blowing aside her cigarette smoke. "they all insist." "he insists," said lady harman, "on seeing all my letters, choosing all my friends. i have no control over my house or my servants, no money except what he gives me." "in fact you are property." "i'm simply property." "a harem of one. and all _that_ is within the provisions of the law!" "how any woman can marry!" said miss agatha, after a little interval. "i sometimes think that is where the true strike of the sex ought to begin. if none of us married! if we said all of us, 'no,--definitely--we refuse this bargain! it is a man-made contract. we have had no voice in it. we decline.' perhaps it will come to that. and i knew that you, you with that quiet beautiful penetration in your eyes would come to see it like that. the first task, after the vote is won, will be the revision of that contract. the very first task of our women statesmen...." she ceased and revived her smouldering cigarette and mused blinking through the smoke. she seemed for a time almost lost to the presence of her guest in a great daydream of womanstatecraft. "and so," she said, "you've come, as they all come,--to join us." "_well_," said lady harman in a tone that made agatha turn eyes of surprise upon her. "of course," continued lady harman, "i suppose--i shall join you; but as a matter of fact you see, what i've done to-day has been to come right away.... you see i am still in my garden tweeds.... there it was down there, a sort of stale mate...." agatha sat up on her heels. "but my dear!" she said, "you don't mean you've run away?" "yes,--i've run away." "but--run away!" "i sold a ring and got some money and here i am!" "but--what are you going to do?" "i don't know. i thought you perhaps--might advise." "but--a man like your husband! he'll pursue you!" "if he knows where i am, he will," said lady harman. "he'll make a scandal. my dear! are you wise? tell me, tell me exactly, _why_ have you run away? i didn't understand at all--that you had run away." "because," began lady harman and flushed hotly. "it was impossible," she said. miss alimony regarded her deeply. "i wonder," she said. "i feel," said lady harman, "if i stayed, if i gave in----i mean after--after i had once--rebelled. then i should just be--a wife--ruled, ordered----" "it wasn't your place to give in," said miss alimony and added one of those parliament touches that creep more and more into feminine phraseology; "i agree to that--_nemine contradicente_. but--i _wonder_...." she began a second cigarette and thought in profile again. "i think, perhaps, i haven't explained, clearly, how things are," said lady harman, and commenced a rather more explicit statement of her case. she felt she had not conveyed and she wanted to convey to miss alimony that her rebellion was not simply a desire for personal freedom and autonomy, that she desired these things because she was becoming more and more aware of large affairs outside her home life in which she ought to be not simply interested but concerned, that she had been not merely watching the workings of the business that made her wealthy, but reading books about socialism, about social welfare that had stirred her profoundly.... "but he won't even allow me to know of such things," she said.... miss alimony listened a little abstractedly. suddenly she interrupted. "tell me," she said, "one thing.... i confess," she explained, "i've no business to ask. but if i'm to advise----if my advice is to be worth anything...." "yes?" asked lady harman. "is there----is there someone else?" "someone else?" lady harman was crimson. "on _your_ side!" "someone else on my side?" "i mean--someone. a man perhaps? some man that you care for? more than you do for your husband?..." "_i can't imagine_," whispered lady harman, "_anything_----" and left her sentence unfinished. her breath had gone. her indignation was profound. "then i can't understand why you should find it so important to come away." lady harman could offer no elucidation. "you see," said miss alimony, with an air of expert knowledge, "our case against our opponents is just exactly their great case against us. they say to us when we ask for the vote, 'the woman's place is the home.' 'precisely,' we answer, 'the woman's place _is_ the home. _give_ us our homes!' now _your_ place is your home--with your children. that's where you have to fight your battle. running away--for you it's simply running away." "but----if i stay i shall be beaten." lady harman surveyed her hostess with a certain dismay. "do you understand, agatha? i _can't_ go back." "but my dear! what else can you do? what had you thought?" "you see," said lady harman, after a little struggle with that childish quality in her nerves that might, if it wasn't controlled, make her eyes brim. "you see, i didn't expect you quite to take this view. i thought perhaps you might be disposed----if i could have stayed with you here, only for a little time, i could have got some work or something----" "it's so dreadful," said miss alimony, sitting far back with the relaxation of infinite regrets. "it's dreadful." "of course if you don't see it as i do----" "i can't," said miss alimony. "i can't." she turned suddenly upon her visitor and grasped her knees with her shapely hands. "oh let me implore you! don't run away. please for my sake, for all our sakes, for the sake of womanhood, don't run away! stay at your post. you mustn't run away. you must _not_. if you do, you admit everything. everything. you must fight in your home. it's _your_ home. that is the great principle you must grasp,--it's not his. it's there your duty lies. and there are your children--_your_ children, your little ones! think if you go--there may be a fearful fuss--proceedings. lawyers--a search. very probably he will take all sorts of proceedings. it will be a matrimonial case. how can i be associated with that? we mustn't mix up women's freedom with matrimonial cases. impossible! we _dare_ not! a woman leaving her husband! think of the weapon it gives our enemies. if once other things complicate the vote,--the vote is lost. after all our self-denial, after all our sacrifices.... you see! don't you _see_?... "_fight!_" she summarized after an eloquent interval. "you mean," said lady harman,--"you think i ought to go back." miss alimony paused to get her full effect. "_yes_," she said in a profound whisper and endorsed it, "oh so much so!--yes." "now?" "instantly." for an interval neither lady spoke. it was the visitor at last who broke the tension. "do you think," she asked in a small voice and with the hesitation of one whom no refusal can surprise; "you could give me a cup of tea?" miss alimony rose with a sigh and a slow unfolding rustle. "i forgot," she said. "my little maid is out." lady harman left alone sat for a time staring at the fire with her eyes rather wide and her eyebrows raised as though she mutely confided to it her infinite astonishment. this was the last thing she had expected. she would have to go to some hotel. can a woman stay alone at an hotel? her heart sank. inflexible forces seemed to be pointing her back to home--and sir isaac. he would be a very triumphant sir isaac, and she'd not have much heart left in her.... "i _won't_ go back," she whispered to herself. "whatever happens i _won't_ go back...." then she became aware of the evening newspaper miss alimony had been reading. the headline, "suffrage raid on regent street," caught her eye. a queer little idea came into her head. it grew with tremendous rapidity. she put out a hand and took up the paper and read. she had plenty of time to read because her hostess not only got the tea herself but went during that process to her bedroom and put on one of those hats that have contributed so much to remove the stigma of dowdiness from the suffrage cause, as an outward and visible sign that she was presently ceasing to be at home.... lady harman found an odd fact in the report before her. "one of the most difficult things to buy at the present time in the west end of london," it ran, "is a hammer...." then a little further: "the magistrate said it was impossible to make discriminations in this affair. all the defendants must have a month's imprisonment...." when miss alimony returned lady harman put down the paper almost guiltily. afterwards miss alimony recalled that guilty start, and the still more guilty start that had happened, when presently she went out of the room again and returned with a lamp, for the winter twilight was upon them. afterwards, too, she was to learn what had become of the service end of her small poker, the little iron club, which she missed almost as soon as lady harman had gone.... lady harman had taken that grubby but convenient little instrument and hidden it in her muff, and she had gone straight out of miss alimony's flat to the post office at the corner of jago street, and there, with one simple effective impact, had smashed a ground-glass window, the property of his majesty king george the fifth. and having done so, she had called the attention of a youthful policeman, fresh from yorkshire, to her offence, and after a slight struggle with his incredulity and a visit to the window in question, had escorted him to the south hampsmith police-station, and had there made him charge her. and on the way she explained to him with a newfound lucidity why it was that women should have votes. and all this she did from the moment of percussion onward, in a mood of exaltation entirely strange to her, but, as she was astonished to find, by no means disagreeable. she found afterwards that she only remembered very indistinctly her selection of the window and her preparations for the fatal blow, but that the effect of the actual breakage remained extraordinarily vivid upon her memory. she saw with extreme distinctness both as it was before and after the breakage, first as a rather irregular grey surface, shining in the oblique light of a street lamp, and giving pale phantom reflections of things in the street, and then as it was after her blow. it was all visual impression in her memory; she could not recollect afterwards if there had been any noise at all. where there had been nothing but a milky dinginess a thin-armed, irregular star had flashed into being, and a large triangular piece at its centre, after what seemed an interminable indecision, had slid, first covertly downward, and then fallen forward at her feet and shivered into a hundred fragments.... lady harman realized that a tremendous thing had been done--irrevocably. she stared at her achievement open-mouthed. the creative lump of iron dropped from her hand. she had a momentary doubt whether she had really wanted to break that window at all; and then she understood that this business had to be seen through, and seen through with neatness and dignity; and that wisp of regret vanished absolutely in her concentration upon these immediate needs. § some day, when the arts of the writer and illustrator are more closely blended than they are to-day, it will be possible to tell of all that followed this blow, with an approach to its actual effect. here there should stand a page showing simply and plainly the lower half of the window of the jago street post office, a dark, rather grimy pane, reflecting the light of a street lamp--and _broken_. below the pane would come a band of evilly painted woodwork, a corner of letter-box, a foot or so of brickwork, and then the pavement with a dropped lump of iron. that would be the sole content of this page, and the next page would be the same, but very slightly fainter, and across it would be printed a dim sentence or so of explanation. the page following that would show the same picture again, but now several lines of type would be visible, and then, as one turned over, the smashed window would fade a little, and the printed narrative, still darkened and dominated by it, would nevertheless resume. one would read on how lady harman returned to convince the incredulous young yorkshireman of her feat, how a man with a barrow-load of bananas volunteered comments, and how she went in custody, but with the extremest dignity, to the police-station. then, with some difficulty, because that imposed picture would still prevail over the letterpress, and because it would be in small type, one would learn how she was bailed out by lady beach-mandarin, who was clearly the woman she ought to have gone to in the first place, and who gave up a dinner with a duchess to entertain her, and how sir isaac, being too torn by his feelings to come near her spent the evening in a frantic attempt to keep the whole business out of the papers. he could not manage it. the magistrate was friendly next morning, but inelegant in his friendly expedients; he remanded lady harman until her mental condition could be inquired into, but among her fellow-defendants--there had been quite an epidemic of window-smashing that evening--lady harman shone pre-eminently sane. she said she had broken this window because she was assured that nothing would convince people of the great dissatisfaction of women with their conditions except such desperate acts, and when she was reminded of her four daughters she said it was precisely the thought of how they too would grow up to womanhood that had made her strike her blow. the statements were rather the outcome of her evening with lady beach-mandarin than her own unaided discoveries, but she had honestly assimilated them, and she expressed them with a certain simple dignity. sir isaac made a pathetic appearance before the court, and lady harman was shocked to see how worn he was with distress at her scandalous behaviour. he looked a broken man. that curious sense of personal responsibility, which had slumbered throughout the black strand struggle, came back to her in a flood, and she had to grip the edge of the dock tightly to maintain her self-control. unaccustomed as he was to public speaking, sir isaac said in a low, sorrow-laden voice, he had provided himself with a written statement dissociating himself from the views his wife's rash action might seem to imply, and expressing his own opinions upon woman's suffrage and the relations of the sexes generally, with especial reference to contemporary literature. he had been writing it most of the night. he was not, however, permitted to read this, and he then made an unstudied appeal for the consideration and mercy of the court. he said lady harman had always been a good mother and a faithful wife; she had been influenced by misleading people and bad books and publications, the true significance of which she did not understand, and if only the court would regard this first offence leniently he was ready to take his wife away and give any guarantee that might be specified that it should not recur. the magistrate was sympathetic and kindly, but he pointed out that this window-breaking had to be stamped out, and that it could only be stamped out by refusing any such exception as sir isaac desired. and so sir isaac left the court widowed for a month, a married man without a wife, and terribly distressed. all this and more one might tell in detail, and how she went to her cell, and the long tedium of her imprisonment, and how deeply snagsby felt the disgrace, and how miss alimony claimed her as a convert to the magic of her persuasions, and many such matters--there is no real restraint upon a novelist fully resolved to be english and gothic and unclassical except obscure and inexplicable instincts. but these obscure and inexplicable instincts are at times imperative, and on this occasion they insist that here must come a break, a pause, in the presence of this radiating gap in the postmaster-general's glass, and the phenomenon of this gentle and beautiful lady, the mother of four children, grasping in her gloved hand, and with a certain amateurishness, a lumpish poker-end of iron. we make the pause by ending the chapter here and by resuming the story at a fresh point--with an account of various curious phases in the mental development of mr. brumley. chapter the ninth mr. brumley is troubled by difficult ideas § then as that picture of a post office pane, smashed and with a large hole knocked clean through it, fades at last upon the reader's consciousness, let another and a kindred spectacle replace it. it is the carefully cleaned and cherished window of mr. brumley's mind, square and tidy and as it were "frosted" against an excess of light, and in that also we have now to record the most jagged all and devastating fractures. little did mr. brumley reckon when first he looked up from his laces at black strand, how completely that pretty young woman in the dark furs was destined to shatter all the assumptions that had served his life. but you have already had occasion to remark a change in mr. brumley's bearing and attitude that carries him far from the kindly and humorous conservatism of his earlier work. you have shared lady harman's astonishment at the ardour of his few stolen words in the garden, an astonishment that not only grew but flowered in the silences of her captivity, and you know something of the romantic impulses, more at least than she did, that gave his appearance at the little local railway station so belated and so disreputable a flavour. in the chilly ill-flavoured solitude of her prison cell and with a mind quickened by meagre and distasteful fare, lady harman had ample leisure to reflect upon many things, she had already fully acquainted herself with the greater proportion of mr. brumley's published works, and she found the utmost difficulty in reconciling the flushed impassioned quality of his few words of appeal, with the moral assumptions of his published opinions. on the whole she was inclined to think that her memory had a little distorted what he had said. in this however she was mistaken; mr. brumley had really been proposing an elopement and he was now entirely preoccupied with the idea of rescuing, obtaining and possessing lady harman for himself as soon as the law released her. one may doubt whether this extensive change from a humorous conservatism to a primitive and dangerous romanticism is to be ascribed entirely to the personal charm, great as it no doubt was, of lady harman; rather did her tall soft dark presence come to release a long accumulating store of discontent and unrest beneath the polished surfaces of mr. brumley's mind. things had been stirring in him for some time; the latter euphemia books had lacked much of the freshness of their precursors and he had found it increasingly hard, he knew not why, to keep up the lightness, the geniality, the friendly badinage of successful and accepted things, the sunny disregard of the grim and unamiable aspects of existence, that were the essential merits of that optimistic period of our literature in which mr. brumley had begun his career. with every justification in the world mr. brumley had set out to be an optimist, even in the _granta_ his work had been distinguished by its gay yet steadfast superficiality, and his early success, his rapid popularity, had done much to turn this early disposition into a professional attitude. he had determined that for all his life he would write for comfortable untroubled people in the character of a light-spirited, comfortable, untroubled person, and that each year should have its book of connubial humour, its travel in picturesque places, its fun and its sunshine, like roses budding in succession on a stem. he did his utmost to conceal from himself the melancholy realization that the third and the fourth roses were far less wonderful than the first and the second, and that by continuing the descending series a rose might be attained at last that was almost unattractive, but he was already beginning to suspect that he was getting less animated and a little irritable when euphemia very gently and gracefully but very firmly and rather enigmatically died, and after an interval of tender and tenderly expressed regrets he found himself, in spite of the most strenuous efforts to keep bright and kindly and optimistic in the best style, dull and getting duller--he could disguise the thing no longer. and he weighed more. six--eight--eleven pounds more. he took a flat in london, dined and lunched out lightly but frequently, sought the sympathetic friendship of several charming ladies, and involved himself deeply in the affairs of the academic committee. indeed he made a quite valiant struggle to feel that optimism was just where it always had been and everything all right and very bright with him and with the world about him. he did not go under without a struggle. but as max beerbohm's caricature--the one i mean--brought out all too plainly, there was in his very animation, something of the alert liveliness of the hunted man. do what he would he had a terrible irrational feeling that things, as yet scarce imagined things, were after him and would have him. even as he makes his point, even as he gesticulates airily, with his rather distinctively north european nose beerbohmically enlarged and his sensitive nostril in the air, he seems to be looking at something he does not want to look at, something conceivably pursuing, out of the corner of his eye. the thing that was assailing mr. brumley and making his old established humour and tenderness seem dull and opaque and giving this new uneasy quality to his expression was of course precisely the thing that sir isaac meant when he talked about "idees" and their disturbing influence upon all the once assured tranquillities and predominances of putney life. it was criticism breaking bounds. as a basis and substance for the tissue of whimsically expressed happiness and confident appreciation of the good things of life, which mr. brumley had set before himself as his agreeable--and it was to be hoped popular and profitable--life-task, certain assumptions had been necessary. they were assumptions he had been very willing to make and which were being made in the most exemplary way by the writers who were succeeding all about him at the commencement of his career. and these assumptions had had such an air then of being quite trustworthy, as being certain to wash and wear! already nowadays it is difficult to get them stated; they have become incredible while still too near to justify the incredibility that attaches to history. it was assumed, for example, that in the institutions, customs and culture of the middle victorian period, humanity had, so far as the broad lines of things are concerned, achieved its goal. there were of course still bad men and women--individually--and classes one had to recognize as "lower," but all the main things were right, general ideas were right; the law was right, institutions were right, consols and british railway debentures were right and were going to keep right for ever. the abolition of slavery in america had been the last great act which had inaugurated this millennium. except for individual instances the tragic intensities of life were over now and done with; there was no more need for heroes and martyrs; for the generality of humanity the phase of genial comedy had begun. there might be improvements and refinements ahead, but social, political and economic arrangement were now in their main outlines settled for good and all; nothing better was possible and it was the agreeable task of the artist and the man of letters to assist and celebrate this establishment. there was to be much editing of shakespear and charles lamb, much delightful humour and costume romance, and an academy of refined fine writers would presently establish belles-lettres on the reputable official basis, write _finis_ to creative force and undertake the task of stereotyping the language. literature was to have its once terrible ferments reduced to the quality of a helpful pepsin. ideas were dead--or domesticated. the last wild idea, in an impoverished and pitiful condition, had been hunted down and killed in the mobbing of, "the woman who did." for a little time the world did actually watch a phase of english writing that dared nothing, penetrated nothing, suppressed everything and aspired at most to charm, creep like a transitory patch of sunlight across a storm-rent universe. and vanish.... at no time was it a perfectly easy task to pretend that the crazy makeshifts of our legal and political systems, the staggering accidents of economic relationship, the festering disorder of contemporary philosophy and religious teaching, the cruel and stupid bed of king og that is our last word in sexual adjustment, really constituted a noble and enduring sanity, and it became less and less so with the acute disillusionments that arose out of the boer war. the first decade of the twentieth century was for the english a decade of badly sprained optimism. our empire was nearly beaten by a handful of farmers amidst the jeering contempt of the whole world--and we felt it acutely for several years. we began to question ourselves. mr. brumley found his gay but entirely respectable irresponsibility harder and harder to keep up as that decade wore on. and close upon the south african trouble came that extraordinary new discontent of women with a woman's lot which we have been observing as it reached and troubled the life of lady harman. women who had hitherto so passively made the bulk of that reading public which sustained mr. brumley and his kind--they wanted something else! and behind and beneath these immediately disconcerting things still more sinister hintings and questioning were beginning to pluck at contentment. in nobody would have dreamt of asking and in even mr. brumley was asking, "are things going on much longer?" a hundred little incidents conspired to suggest that a christianity that had, to put it mildly, shirked the darwinian challenge, had no longer the palliating influence demanded of a national religion, and that down there in the deep levels of labour where they built railways to carry mr. brumley's food and earn him dividends, where they made engines and instruments and textiles and drains for his little needs, there was a new, less bounded discontent, a grimmer spirit, something that one tried in vain to believe was only the work of "agitators," something that was to be pacified no longer by the thin pretences of liberalism, something that might lead ultimately--optimism scarcely dared to ask whither.... mr. brumley did his best to resist the influence of these darkening ideas. he tried to keep it up that everything was going well and that most of these shadows and complaints were the mischief of a few incurably restless personalities. he tried to keep it up that to belong to the working class was a thoroughly jolly thing--for those who were used to it. he declared that all who wanted to alter our laws or our ideas about property or our methods of production were envious and base and all who wanted any change between the sexes, foolish or vicious. he tried to go on disposing of socialists, agitators, feminists, women's suffragists, educationists and every sort of reformer with a good-humoured contempt. and he found an increasing difficulty in keeping his contempt sufficiently good-humoured. instead of laughing down at folly and failure, he had moments when he felt that he was rather laughing up--a little wryly--at monstrous things impending. and since ideas are things of atmosphere and the spirit, insidious wolves of the soul, they crept up to him and gnawed the insides out of him even as he posed as their manful antagonist. insensibly mr. brumley moved with his times. it is the necessary first phase in the break-up of any system of unsound assumptions that a number of its votaries should presently set about padding its cutting corners and relieving the harsh pressure of its injustices by exuberances of humour and sentimentality. mr. brumley became charitable and romantic,--orthodox still but charitable and romantic. he was all for smashing with the generalization, but now in the particular instance he was more and more for forgiveness. one finds creeping into the later euphemia books a bret-harte-like doctrine that a great number of bad women are really good and a persuasion in the 'raffles' key that a large proportion of criminals are really very picturesque and admirable fellows. one wonders how far mr. brumley's less ostensible life was softening in harmony with this exterior change, this tender twilight of principle. he wouldn't as yet face the sterner fact that most people who are condemned by society, whether they are condemned justly or not, are by the very gregariousness of man's nature debased, and that a law or custom that stamps you as bad makes you bad. a great state should have high and humane and considerate laws nobly planned, nobly administered and needing none of these shabby little qualifications _sotto voce_. to find goodness in the sinner and justification in the outcast is to condemn the law, but as yet mr. brumley's heart failed where his intelligence pointed towards that conclusion. he hadn't the courage to revise his assumptions about right and wrong to that extent; he just allowed them to get soft and sloppy. he waded, where there should be firm ground. he waded toward wallowing. this is a perilous way of living and the sad little end of euphemia, flushed and coughing, left him no doubt in many ways still more exposed to the temptations of the sentimental byway and the emotional gloss. happily this is a book about lady harman and not an exhaustive monograph upon mr. brumley. we will at least leave him the refuge of a few shadows. occasionally he would write an important signed review for the _twentieth century_ or the _hebdomadal review_, and on one such occasion he took in hand several studies of contemporary conditions by various 'new witnesses,' 'young liberals,' _new age_ rebels and associated insurgent authors. he intended to be rather kindly with them, rather disillusioned, quite sympathetic but essentially conventional and conservative and sane. he sat at a little desk near the drooping venus, under the benediction of euphemia's posthumous rose, and turned over the pages of one of the least familiar of the group. the stuff was written with a crude force that at times became almost distinguished, but with a bitterness that he felt he must reprove. and suddenly he came upon a passionate tirade against the present period. it made him nibble softly with his lips at the top of his fountain pen as he read. "we live," said the writer, "in a second byzantine age, in one of those multitudinous accumulations of secondary interests, of secondary activities and conventions and colossal intricate insignificances, that lie like dust heaps in the path of the historian. the true history of such periods is written in bank books and cheque counterfoils and burnt to save individual reputations; it sneaks along under a thousand pretences, it finds its molelike food and safety in the dirt; its outer forms remain for posterity, a huge débris of unfathomable riddles." "hm!" said mr. brumley. "he slings it out. and what's this?" "a civilization arrested and decayed, waiting through long inglorious ages of unscheduled crime, unchallenged social injustice, senseless luxury, mercenary politics and universal vulgarity and weakness, for the long overdue scavenging of the turk." "i wonder where the children pick up such language," whispered mr. brumley with a smile. but presently he had pushed the book away and was thinking over this novel and unpleasant idea that perhaps after all his age didn't matter as some ages have mattered and as he had hitherto always supposed it did matter. byzantine, with the gold of life stolen and the swans changed to geese? of course always there had been a certain qualification upon heroes, even cæsar had needed a wreath, but at any rate the age of cæsar had mattered. kings no doubt might be more kingly and the issues of life plainer and nobler, but this had been true of every age. he tried to weigh values against values, our past against our present, temperately and sanely. our art might perhaps be keener for beauty than it seemed to be, but still--it flourished. and our science at least was wonderful--wonderful. there certainly this young detractor of existing things went astray. what was there in byzantium to parallel with the electric light, the electric tram, wireless telegraphy, aseptic surgery? of course this about "unchallenged social injustice" was nonsense. rant. why! we were challenging social injustice at every general election--plainly and openly. and crime! what could the man mean about unscheduled crime? mere words! there was of course a good deal of luxury, but not _wicked_ luxury, and to compare our high-minded and constructive politics with the mere conflict of unscrupulous adventurers about that semi-oriental throne! it was nonsense! "this young man must be spanked," said mr. brumley and, throwing aside an open illustrated paper in which a full-length portrait of sir edward carson faced a picture of the king and queen in their robes sitting side by side under a canopy at the coronation durbar, he prepared himself to write in an extremely salutary manner about the follies of the younger generation, and incidentally to justify his period and his professional contentment. § one is reminded of those houses into which the white ants have eaten their way; outwardly still fair and solid, they crumble at the touch of a hand. and now you will begin to understand those changes of bearing that so perplexed lady harman, that sudden insurgence of flushed half-furtive passion in the garden, through the thin pretences of a liberal friendship. his hollow honour had been gripped and had given way. he had begun so well. at first lady harman had occupied his mind in the properest way. she was another man's wife and sacred--according to all honourable standards, and what he wanted was merely to see more of her, talk to her, interest her in himself, share whatever was available outside her connubial obligations,--and think as little of sir isaac as possible. how quickly the imaginative temperament of mr. brumley enlarged that to include a critical hostility to sir isaac, we have already recorded. lady harman was no longer simply a charming, suppressed young wife, crying out for attentive development; she became an ill-treated beautiful woman--misunderstood. still scrupulously respecting his own standards, mr. brumley embarked upon the dangerous business of inventing just how sir isaac might be outraging them, and once his imagination had started to hunt in that field, it speedily brought in enough matter for a fine state of moral indignation, a white heat of not altogether justifiable chivalry. assisted by lady beach-mandarin mr. brumley had soon converted the little millionaire into a matrimonial ogre to keep an anxious lover very painfully awake at nights. because by that time and quite insensibly he had become an anxious lover--with all the gaps in the thread of realities that would have made him that, quite generously filled up from the world of reverie. moral indignation is jealousy with a halo. it is the peculiar snare of the perplexed orthodox, and soon mr. brumley was in a state of nearly unendurable moral indignation with sir isaac for a hundred exaggerations of what he was and of what conceivably he might have done to his silent yet manifestly unsuitably mated wife. and now that romantic streak which is as i have said the first certain symptom of decay in a system of moral assumptions began to show itself in mr. brumley's thoughts and conversation. "a marriage like that," said mr. brumley to lady beach-mandarin, "isn't a marriage. it flouts the true ideal of marriage. it's slavery--following a kidnapping...." but this is a wide step from the happy optimism of the cambridge days. what becomes of the sanctity of marriage and the institution of the family when respectable gentlemen talk of something called "true marriage," as non-existent in relation to a lady who is already the mother of four children? i record this lapsing of mr. brumley into romanticism without either sympathy or mitigation. the children, it presently became apparent, were not "true" children. "forced upon her," said mr. brumley. "it makes one ill to think of it!" it certainly very nearly made him ill. and as if these exercises in distinction had inflamed his conscience mr. brumley wrote two articles in the _hebdomadal_ denouncing impure literature, decadence, immorality, various recent scandalous instances, and the suffragettes, declaring that woman's place was the home and that "in a pure and exalted monogamy lies the sole unitary basis for a civilized state." the most remarkable thing about this article is an omission. that sir isaac's monogamy with any other instances that might be akin to it was not pure and exalted, and that it needed--shall we call it readjustment? is a view that in this article mr. brumley conspicuously doesn't display. it's as if for a moment, pen in hand, he had eddied back to his old absolute positions.... in a very little while mr. brumley and lady beach-mandarin had almost persuaded each other that sir isaac was applying physical torture to his proudly silent wife, and mr. brumley was no longer dreaming and glancing at but steadily facing the possibility of a pure-minded and handsomely done elopement to "free" lady harman, that would be followed in due course by a marriage, a "true marriage" on a level of understanding far above any ordinary respectable wedding, amidst universal sympathy and admiration and the presence of all the very best people. in these anticipations he did rather remarkably overlook the absence of any sign of participation on the part of lady harman in his own impassioned personal feelings, and he overlooked still more remarkably as possible objections to his line of conduct, millicent, florence, annette and baby. these omissions no doubt simplified but also greatly falsified his outlook. this proposal that all the best people shall applaud the higher rightness that was to be revealed in his projected elopement, is in the very essence of the romantic attitude. all other people are still to remain under the law. there is to be nothing revolutionary. but with exceptional persons under exceptional conditions---- mr. brumley stated his case over and over again to his utmost satisfaction, and always at great moral altitudes and with a kind of transcendent orthodoxy. the more difficult any aspect of the affair appeared from the orthodox standpoint the more valiantly mr. brumley soared; if it came to his living with lady harman for a time before they could be properly married amidst picturesque foreign scenery in a little _casa_ by the side of a stream, then the water in that stream was to be quite the purest water conceivable and the scenery and associations as morally faultless as a view that had passed the exacting requirements of mr. john ruskin. and mr. brumley was very clear in his mind that what he proposed to do was entirely different in quality even if it was similar in form from anything that anyone else had ever done who had ever before made a scandal or appeared in the divorce court. this is always the way in such cases--always. the scandal was to be a noble scandal, a proud scandal, one of those instances of heroical love that turn aside misdemeanours--admittedly misdemeanours--into edifying marvels. this was the state of mind to which mr. brumley had attained when he made his ineffectual raid upon black strand, and you will remark about it, if you are interested in the changes in people's ideas that are going on to-day, that although he was prepared to make the most extensive glosses in this particular instance upon the commonly accepted rules of what is right and proper, he was not for a moment prepared to accord the terrible gift of an independent responsibility to lady harman. in that direction lay regions that mr. brumley had still to explore. lady harman he considered was married wrongly and disastrously and this he held to be essentially the fault of sir isaac--with perhaps some slight blame attaching to lady harman's mother. the only path of escape he could conceive as yet for lady harman lay through the chivalry of some other man. that a woman could possibly rebel against one man without the sympathy and moral maintenance of another was still outside the range of mr. brumley's understanding. it is still outside the range of most men's understandings--and of a great many women's. if he generalized at all from these persuasions it was in the direction that in the interest of "true marriage" there should be greater facilities for divorce and also a kind of respectable-ization of divorce. then these "false marriages" might be rectified without suffering. the reasons for divorce he felt should be extended to include things not generally reprehensible, and chivalrous people coming into court should be protected from the indelicate publicity of free reporting.... § mr. brumley was still contemplating rather inconclusively the possibility of a long and intimate talk leading up to and preparing for an elopement with lady harman, when he read of her jago street escapade and of her impending appearance at the south hampsmith police court. he was astonished. the more he contemplated the thing the greater became his astonishment. even at the first impact he realized that the line she had taken wasn't quite in the picture with the line he had proposed for her. he felt--left out. he felt as though a door had slammed between himself and affairs to which he had supposed himself essential. he could not understand why she had done this thing instead of coming straight to his flat and making use of all that chivalrous service she surely knew was at her disposal. this self-reliance, this direct dealing with the world, seemed to him, even in the height of his concern, unwomanly, a deeper injury to his own abandoned assumptions than any he had contemplated. he felt it needed explanation, and he hurried to secure an elbowed unsavoury corner in the back of the court in order to hear her defence. he had to wait through long stuffy spaces of time before she appeared. there were half a dozen other window smashers,--plain or at least untidy-looking young women. the magistrate told them they were silly and the soul of mr. brumley acquiesced. one tried to make a speech, and it was such a poor speech--squeaky.... when at last lady harman entered the box--the strangest place it seemed for her--he tried to emerge from the jostling crowd about him into visibility, to catch her eye, to give her the support of his devoted presence. twice at least she glanced in his direction but gave no sign of seeing him. he was surprised that she could look without fear or detestation, indeed once with a gesture of solicitude, at sir isaac. she was astonishingly serene. there seemed to be just the faintest shadow of a smile about her lips as the stipendiary explained the impossibility of giving her anything less than a month. an uneasy object like the smashed remains of a colossal box of bonbons that was riding out a gale, down in the middle of the court, turned round at last completely and revealed itself as the hat of lady beach-mandarin, but though mr. brumley waved his hand he could not even make that lady aware of his presence. a powerful rude criminal-looking man who stood in front of him and smelt grossly of stables, would not give him a fair chance of showing himself, and developed a strong personal hostility to him on account of his alleged "shoving about." it would not he felt be of the slightest help to lady harman for him to involve himself in a personal struggle with a powerful and powerfully flavoured criminal. it was all very dreadful. after the proceedings were over and lady harman had been led away into captivity, he went out and took a taxi in an agitated distraught manner to lady beach-mandarin's house. "she meant," said lady beach-mandarin, "to have a month's holiday from him and think things out. and she's got it." perhaps that was it. mr. brumley could not tell, and he spent some days in that state of perplexity which, like the weariness that heralds a cold, marks so often the onset of a new series of ideas.... why hadn't she come to him? had he after all rather overloaded his memory of her real self with imaginative accessories? had she really understood what he had been saying to her in the garden? afterwards when he had met her eyes as he and she went over the new wing with sir isaac she had so manifestly--and, when one came to think of it, so tranquilly--seemed to understand.... it was such an extraordinary thing to go smashing a window like that--when there he was at hand ready to help her. she knew his address? did she? for a moment mr. brumley cherished that wild surmise. was that perhaps it? but surely she could have looked in the telephone directory or who's who.... but if that was the truth of the matter she would have looked and behaved differently in court--quite differently. she would have been looking for him. she would have seen him.... it was queer too to recall what she had said in court about her daughters.... could it be, he had a frightful qualm, that after all--he wasn't the man? how little he knew of her really.... "this wretched agitation," said mr. brumley, trying to flounder away anyhow from these disconcerting riddles; "it seems to unbalance them all." but he found it impossible to believe that lady harman was seriously unbalanced. § and if mr. brumley's system of romantically distorted moral assumptions was shattered by lady harman's impersonal blow at a post office window when all the rules seemed to require her to fly from the oppression of one man to the chivalry of another, what words can convey the devastating effect upon him of her conduct after her release? to that crisis he had been looking forward continually; to record the variety of his expectations would fill a large volume, but throughout them all prevailed one general idea, that when she came out of prison her struggle with her husband would be resumed, and that this would give mr. brumley such extraordinary opportunities of displaying his devotion that her response, which he was now beginning to suspect might be more reluctant than his earlier dreams had assumed, was ultimately inevitable. in all these dreams and meditations that response figured as the crown. he had to win and possess lady harman. the idea had taken hold of his busy yet rather pointless life, had become his directing object. he was full of schemes for presently arresting and captivating her imagination. he was already convinced that she cared for him; he had to inflame interest and fan liking into the fire of passion. and with a mind so occupied, mr. brumley wrote this and that and went about his affairs. he spent two days and a night at margate visiting his son at his preparatory school, and he found much material for musing in the question of just how the high romantic affairs ahead of him would affect this delicately intelligent boy. for a time perhaps he might misjudge his father.... he spent a week-end with lady viping and stayed on until wednesday and then he came back to london. his plans were still unformed when the day came for lady harman's release, and indeed beyond an idea that he would have her met at the prison gates by an enormous bunch of snowy-white and crimson chrysanthemums he had nothing really concrete at all in his mind. she had, however, been released stealthily a day before her time, and this is what she had done. she had asked that--of all improbable people!--sir isaac's mother should meet her, the biggest car had come to the prison gates, and she had gone straight down with mrs. harman to her husband--who had taken a chill and was in bed drinking contrexéville water--at black strand. as these facts shaped themselves in answer to the blanched inquiries of mr. brumley his amazement grew. he began to realize that there must have been a correspondence during her incarceration, that all sorts of things had been happening while he had been dreaming, and when he went round to lady beach-mandarin, who was just packing up to be the life and soul of a winter-sports party at a nice non-lunnite hotel at lenzerheide, he learnt particulars that chilled him to the marrow. "they've made it up," said lady beach-mandarin. "but how?" gasped mr. brumley, with his soul in infinite distress. "but how?" "the ogre, it seems, has come to see that bullying won't do. he's given in tremendously. he's let her have her way with the waitress strike and she's going to have an allowance of her own and all kinds of things. it's settled. it's his mother and that man charterson talked him over. you know--his mother came to me--as her friend. for advice. wanted to find out what sort of things we might have been putting in her head. she said so. a curious old thing--vulgar but--_wise_. i liked her. he's her darling--and she just knows what he is.... he doesn't like it but he's taken his dose. the thought of her going to prison again----! he's let her do anything rather than that...." "and she's gone to him!" "naturally," said lady beach-mandarin with what he felt to be deliberate brutality. surely she must have understood---- "but the waitress strike--what has it got to do with the waitress strike?" "she cared--tremendously." "_did_ she?" "tremendously. and they all go back and the system of inspection is being altered, and he's even forgiven babs wheeler. it made him ill to do it but he did." "and she's gone back to him." "like godiva," said lady beach-mandarin with that sweeping allusiveness that was part of her complicated charm. § for three days mr. brumley was so staggered by these things that it did not occur to him that it was quite possible for him to see lady harman for himself and find out just how things stood. he remained in london with an imagination dazed. and as it was the christmas season and as george edmund in a rather expectant holiday state had now come up from margate, mr. brumley went in succession to the hippodrome, to peter pan and to an exhibition at olympia, assisted at an afternoon display of the kinemacolor at la scala theatre, visited hamley's and lunched george edmund once at the criterion and twice at the climax club, while thinking of nothing in all the world but the incalculable strangeness of women. george edmund thought him a very passive leadable parent indeed, less querulous about money matters and altogether much improved. the glitter and colour of these various entertainments reflected themselves upon the surface of that deep flood of meditation, hook-armed wooden-legged pirates, intelligent elephants, ingenious but extremely expensive toys, flickering processions, comic turns, snatches of popular music and george edmund's way of eating an orange, pictured themselves on his mind confusedly without in any way deflecting its course. then on the fourth day he roused himself, gave george edmund ten shillings to get himself a cutlet at the café royal and do the cinematographs round and about the west end, and so released reached aleham in time for a temperate lunch. he chartered the aleham car to take him to black strand and arrived there about a quarter past three, in a great effort to feel himself a matter-of-course visitor. it ought to be possible to record that mr. brumley's mind was full of the intensest sense of lady harman during that journey and of nothing else, but as a matter of fact his mind was now curiously detached and reflective, the tensions and expectation of the past month and the astonishment of the last few days had worked themselves out and left him as it were the passive instrument of the purpose of his more impassioned moods. this distressed lover approached black strand in a condition of philosophical lassitude. the road from aleham to black strand is a picturesque old english road, needlessly winding and badly graded, wriggling across a healthy wilderness with occasional pine-woods. something in that familiar landscape--for his life had run through it since first he and euphemia on a tandem bicycle and altogether very young had sought their ideal home in the south of england--set his mind swinging and generalizing. how freshly youthful he and euphemia had been when first he came along that road, how crude, how full of happy expectations of success; it had been as bright and it was now as completely gone as the sunsets they had seen together. how great a thing life is! how much greater than any single romance, or any individual affection! since those days he had grown, he had succeeded, he had suffered in a reasonable way of course, still he could recall with a kind of satisfaction tears and deep week-long moods of hopeless melancholy--and he had changed. and now dominating this landscape, filling him with new emotions and desires and perplexing intimations of ignorance and limitations he had never suspected in his youth, was this second figure of a woman. she was different from euphemia. with euphemia everything had been so simple and easy; until that slight fading, that fatigue of entire success and satisfaction, of the concluding years. he and euphemia had always kept it up that they had no thought in the world except for one another.... yet if that had been true, why hadn't he died when she did. he hadn't died--with remarkable elasticity. clearly in his case there had been these unexplored, unsuspected hinterlands of possibility towards which lady harman seemed now to be directing him. it came to him that afternoon as an entirely fresh thought that there might also have been something in euphemia beyond their simple, so charmingly treated relationship. he began to recall moments when euphemia had said perplexing little things, had looked at him with an expression that was unexpected, had been--difficult.... i write of mr. brumley to tell you things about him and not to explain him. it may be that the appetite for thorough good talks with people grows upon one, but at any rate it did occur to mr. brumley on his way to talk to lady harman, it occurred to him as a thing distressingly irrevocable that he could now never have a thorough good talk with euphemia about certain neglected things between them. it would have helped him so much.... his eyes rested as he thought of these things upon the familiar purple hill crests, patched that afternoon with the lingering traces of a recent snowstorm, the heather slopes, the dark mysterious woods, the patches of vivid green where a damp and marshy meadow or so broke the moorland surface. to-day in spite of the sun there was a bright blue-white line of frost to the northward of every hedge and bank, the trees were dripping down the white edgings of the morning into the pine-needle mud at their feet; he had seen it so like this before; years hence he might see it all like this again; all this great breezy countryside had taken upon itself a quality of endurance, as though it would still be real and essential in his mind when lady harman had altogether passed again. it would be real when he himself had passed away, and in other costumes and other vehicles fresh euphemias and new crude george brumleys would come along, feeling in the ultimate bright new wisdom of youth that it was all for them--a subservient scenery, when really it was entirely indifferent in its careless permanence to all their hopes and fancies.... § mr. brumley's thoughts on the permanence of landscape and the mutability of human affairs were more than a little dashed when he came within sight of black strand and perceived that once cosily beautiful little home clipped and extended, its shrubbery wrecked and the old barn now pierced with windows and adorned--for its new chimneys were not working very well--by several efficient novelties in chimney cowls. up the slopes behind sir isaac had extended his boundaries, and had been felling trees and levelling a couple of tennis courts for next summer. something was being done to the porch, and the jasmine had been cleared away altogether. mr. brumley could not quite understand what was in progress; sir isaac he learnt afterwards had found a wonderful bargain in a real genuine georgian portal of great dignity and simplicity in aleham, and he was going to improve black strand by transferring it thither--with the utmost precaution and every piece numbered--from its original situation. mr. brumley stood among the preparatory débris of this and rang a quietly resolute electric bell, which was answered no longer by mrs. rabbit but by the ample presence of snagsby. snagsby in that doorway had something of the preposterous effect of a very large face beneath a very small hat. he had to mr. brumley's eyes a restored look, as though his self-confidence had been thoroughly done up since their last encounter. bygones were bygones. mr. brumley was admitted as one is admitted to any normal home. he was shown into the little study-drawing-room with the stepped floor, which had been so largely the scene of his life with euphemia, and he was left there for the better part of a quarter of an hour before his hostess appeared. the room had been changed very little. euphemia's solitary rose had gone, and instead there were several bowls of beaten silver scattered about, each filled with great chrysanthemums from london. sir isaac's jackdaw acquisitiveness had also overcrowded the corner beyond the fireplace with a very fine and genuine queen anne cabinet; there were a novel by elizabeth robins and two or three feminist and socialist works lying on the table which would certainly not have been visible, though they might have been in the house, during the brumley régime. otherwise things were very much as they always had been. a room like this, thought mr. brumley among much other mental driftage, is like a heart,--so long as it exists it must be furnished and tenanted. no matter what has been, however bright and sweet and tender, the spaces still cry aloud to be filled again. the very essence of life is its insatiability. how complete all this had seemed in the moment when first he and euphemia had arranged it. and indeed how complete life had seemed altogether at seven-and-twenty. every year since then he had been learning--or at any rate unlearning. until at last he was beginning to realize he had still everything to learn.... the door opened and the tall dark figure of lady harman stood for a moment in the doorway before she stepped down into the room. she had always the same effect upon him, the effect of being suddenly remembered. when he was away from her he was always sure that she was a beautiful woman, and when he saw her again he was always astonished to see how little he had borne her beauty in mind. for a moment they regarded one another silently. then she closed the door behind her and came towards him. all mr. brumley's philosophizing had vanished at the sight of her. his spirit was reborn within him. he thought of her and of his effect upon her, vividly, and of nothing else in the world. she was paler he thought beneath her dusky hair, a little thinner and graver.... there was something in her manner as she advanced towards him that told him he mattered to her, that his coming there was something that moved her imagination as well as his own. with an almost impulsive movement she held out both her hands to him, and with an inspiration as sudden he took them and kissed them. when he had done so he was ashamed of his temerity; he looked up to meet in her dark eyes the scared shyness of a fallow deer. she suddenly remembered to withdraw her hands, and it became manifest to both of them that the incident must never have happened. she went to the window, stood almost awkwardly for a moment looking out of it, then turned. she put her hands on the back of the chair and stood holding it. "i knew you would come to see me," she said. "i've been very anxious about you," he said, and on that their minds rested through a little silence. "you see," he explained, "i didn't know what was happening to you. or what you were doing." "after asking your advice," she said. "exactly." "i don't know why i broke that window. except i think that i wanted to get away." "but why didn't you come to me?" "i didn't know where you were. and besides--i didn't somehow want to come to you." "but wasn't it wretched in prison? wasn't it miserably cold? i used to think of you of nights in some wretched ill-aired cell.... you...." "it _was_ cold," she admitted. "but it was very good for me. it was quiet. the first few days seemed endless; then they began to go by quickly. quite quickly at last. and i came to think. in the day there was a little stool where one sat. i used to sit on that and brood and try to think things out--all sorts of things i've never had the chance to think about before." "yes," said mr. brumley. "all this," she said. "and it has brought you back here!" he said, with something of the tone of one who has a right to enquire, with some flavour too of reproach. "you see," she said after a little pause, "during that time it was possible to come to understandings. neither i nor my husband had understood the other. in that interval it was possible--to explain. "yes. you see, mr. brumley, we--we both misunderstood. it was just because of that and because i had no one who seemed able to advise me that i turned to you. a novelist always seems so wise in these things. he seems to know so many lives. one can talk to you as one can scarcely talk to anyone; you are a sort of doctor--in these matters. and it was necessary--that my husband should realize that i had grown up and that i should have time to think just how one's duty and one's--freedom have to be fitted together.... and my husband is ill. he has been ill, rather short of breath--the doctor thinks it is asthma--for some time, and all the agitation of this business has upset him and made him worse. he is upstairs now--asleep. of course if i had thought i should make him ill i could never have done any of this. but it's done now and here i am, mr. brumley, back in my place. with all sorts of things changed. put right...." "i see," said mr. brumley stupidly. her speech was like the falling of an opaque curtain upon some romantic spectacle. she stood there, almost defensively behind her chair as she made it. there was a quality of premeditation in her words, yet something in her voice and bearing made him feel that she knew just how it covered up and extinguished his dreams and impulses. he heard her out and then suddenly his spirit rebelled against her decision. "no!" he cried. she waited for him to go on. "you see," he said, "i thought that it was just that you wanted to get away----that this life was intolerable----that you were----forgive me if i seem to be going beyond--going beyond what i ought to be thinking about you. only, why should i pretend? i care, i care for you tremendously. and it seemed to me that you didn't love your husband, that you were enslaved and miserable. i would have done anything to help you--anything in the world, lady harman. i know--it may sound ridiculous--there have been times when i would have faced death to feel you were happy and free. i thought all that, i felt all that,--and then--then you come back here. you seem not to have minded. as though i had misunderstood...." he paused and his face was alive with an unwonted sincerity. his self-consciousness had for a moment fallen from him. "i know," she said, "it _was_ like that. i knew you cared. that is why i have so wanted to talk to you. it looked like that...." she pressed her lips together in that old familiar hunt for words and phrases. "i didn't understand, mr. brumley, all there was in my husband or all there was in myself. i just saw his hardness and his--his hardness in business. it's become so different now. you see, i forgot he has bad health. he's ill; i suppose he was getting ill then. instead of explaining himself--he was--excited and--unwise. and now----" "now i suppose he has--explained," said mr. brumley slowly and with infinite distaste. "lady harman, _what_ has he explained?" "it isn't so much that he has explained, mr. brumley," said lady harman, "as that things have explained themselves." "but how, lady harman? how?" "i mean about my being a mere girl, almost a child when i married him. naturally he wanted to take charge of everything and leave nothing to me. and quite as naturally he didn't notice that now i am a woman, grown up altogether. and it's been necessary to do things. and naturally, mr. brumley, they shocked and upset him. but he sees now so clearly, he wrote to me, such a fair letter--an unusual letter--quite different from when he talks--it surprised me, telling me he wanted me to feel free, that he meant to make me--to arrange things that is, so that i should feel free and more able to go about as i pleased. it was a _generous_ letter, mr. brumley. generous about all sorts of affairs that there had been between us. he said things, quite kind things, not like the things he has ever said before----" she stopped short and then began again. "you know, mr. brumley, it's so hard to tell things without telling other things that somehow are difficult to tell. yet if i don't tell you them, you won't know them and then you won't be able to understand in the least how things are with us." her eyes appealed to him. "tell me," he said, "whatever you think fit." "when one has been afraid of anyone and felt they were ever so much stronger and cruel and hard than one is and one suddenly finds they aren't. it alters everything." he nodded, watching her. her voice fell nearly to a whisper. "mr. brumley," she said, "when i came back to him--you know he was in bed here--instead of scolding me--he _cried_. he cried like a vexed child. he put his face into the pillow--just misery.... i'd never seen him cry--at least only once--long ago...." mr. brumley looked at her flushed and tender face and it seemed to him that indeed he could die for her quite easily. "i saw how hard i had been," she said. "in prison i'd thought of that, i'd thought women mustn't be hard, whatever happens to them. and when i saw him like that i knew at once how true that was.... he begged me to be a good wife to him. no!--he just said, 'be a wife to me,' not even a good wife--and then he cried...." for a moment or so mr. brumley didn't respond. "i see," he said at last. "yes." "and there were the children--such helpless little things. in the prison i worried about them. i thought of things for them. i've come to feel--they are left too much to nurses and strangers.... and then you see he has agreed to nearly everything i had wanted. it wasn't only the personal things--i was anxious about those silly girls--the strikers. i didn't want them to be badly treated. it distressed me to think of them. i don't think you know how it distressed me. and he--he gave way upon all that. he says i may talk to him about the business, about the way we do our business--the kindness of it i mean. and this is why i am back here. where else _could_ i be?" "no," said mr. brumley still with the utmost reluctance. "i see. only----" he paused downcast and she waited for him to speak. "only it isn't what i expected, lady harman. i didn't think that matters could be settled by such arrangements. it's sane, i know, it's comfortable and kindly. but i thought--oh! i thought of different things, quite different things from all this. i thought of you who are so beautiful caught in a loveless passionless world. i thought of the things there might be for you, the beautiful and wonderful things of which you are deprived.... never mind what i thought! never mind! you've made your choice. but i thought that you didn't love, that you couldn't love--this man. it seemed to me that you felt too--that to live as you are doing--with him--was a profanity. something--i'd give everything i have, everything i am, to save you from. because--because i care.... i misunderstood you. i suppose you can--do what you are doing." he jumped to his feet as he spoke and walked three paces away and turned to utter his last sentences. she too stood up. "mr. brumley," she said weakly, "i don't understand. what do you mean? i have to do what i am doing. he--he is my husband." he made a gesture of impatience. "do you understand nothing of _love_?" he cried. she pressed her lips together and remained still and silent, dark against the casement window. there came a sound of tapping from the room above. three taps and again three taps. lady harman made a little gesture as though she would put this sound aside. "love," she said at last. "it comes to some people. it happens. it happens to young people.... but when one is married----" her voice fell almost to a whisper. "one must not think of it," she said. "one must think of one's husband and one's duty. life cannot begin again, mr. brumley." the taps were repeated, a little more urgently. "that is my husband," she said. she hesitated through a little pause. "mr. brumley," she said, "i want friendship so badly, i want some one to be my friend. i don't want to think of things--disturbing things--things i have lost--things that are spoilt. _that_--that which you spoke of; what has it to do with me?" she interrupted him as he was about to speak. "be my friend. don't talk to me of impossible things. love! mr. brumley, what has a married woman to do with love? i never think of it. i never read of it. i want to do my duty. i want to do my duty by him and by my children and by all the people i am bound to. i want to help people, weak people, people who suffer. i want to help him to help them. i want to stop being an idle, useless, spending woman...." she made a little gesture of appeal with her hands. "oh!" he sighed, and then, "you know if i can help you----rather than distress you----" her manner changed. it became confidential and urgent. "mr. brumley," she said, "i must go up to my husband. he will be impatient. and when i tell him you are here he will want to see you.... you will come up and see him?" mr. brumley sought to convey the struggle within him by his pose. "i will do what you wish, lady harman," he said, with an almost theatrical sigh. he closed the door after her and was alone in his former study once more. he walked slowly to his old writing-desk and sat down in his familiar seat. presently he heard her footfalls across the room above. mr. brumley's mind under the stress of the unfamiliar and the unexpected was now lapsing rapidly towards the theatrical. "my _god_!" said mr. brumley. he addressed that friendly memorable room in tones that mingled amazement and wrong. "he is her husband!" he said, and then: "the power of words!" ... § it seemed to mr. brumley's now entirely disordered mind that sir isaac, propped up with cushions upon a sofa in the upstairs sitting-room, white-faced, wary and very short of breath, was like proprietorship enthroned. everything about him referred deferentially to him. even his wife dropped at once into the position of a beautiful satellite. his illness, he assured his visitor with a thin-lipped emphasis, was "quite temporary, quite the sort of thing that might happen to anyone." he had had a queer little benumbing of one leg, "just a trifle of nerve fag did it," and the slight asthma that came and went in his life had taken advantage of his condition to come again with a little beyond its usual aggressiveness. "elly is going to take me off to marienbad next week or the week after," he said. "i shall have a cure and she'll have a treat, and we shall come back as fit as fiddles." the incidents of the past month were to be put on a facetious footing it appeared. "it's a mercy they didn't crop her hair," he said, apropos of nothing and with an air of dry humour. no further allusion was made to lady harman's incarceration. he was dressed in a lama wool bedroom suit and his resting leg was covered by a very splendid and beautiful fur rug. all euphemia's best and gayest cushions sustained his back. the furniture had been completely rearranged for his comfort and convenience. close to his hand was a little table with carefully selected remedies and aids and helps and stimulants, and the latest and best of the light fiction of the day was tossed about between the table, the couch and the floor. at the foot of the couch euphemia's bedroom writing-table had been placed, and over this there were scattered traces of the stenographer who had assisted him to wipe off the day's correspondence. three black cylinders and other appliances in the corner witnessed that his slight difficulty in breathing could be relieved by oxygen, and his eyes were regaled by a great abundance of london flowers at every available point in the room. of course there were grapes, fabulous looking grapes. everything conspired to give sir isaac and his ownership the centre of the picture. mr. brumley had been brought upstairs to him, and the tea table, with scarcely a reference to anyone else, was arranged by snagsby conveniently to his hand. and sir isaac himself had a confidence--the assurance of a man who has been shaken and has recovered. whatever tears he had ever shed had served their purpose and were forgotten. "elly" was his and the house was his and everything about him was his--he laid his hand upon her once when she came near him, his possessiveness was so gross--and the strained suspicion of his last meeting with mr. brumley was replaced now by a sage and wizened triumph over anticipated and arrested dangers. their party was joined by sir isaac's mother, and the sight of her sturdy, swarthy, and rather dignified presence flashed the thought into mr. brumley's mind that sir isaac's father must have been a very blond and very nosey person indeed. she was homely and practical and contributed very usefully to a conversation that remained a trifle fragmentary and faintly uncomfortable to the end. mr. brumley avoided as much as he could looking at lady harman, because he knew sir isaac was alert for that, but he was acutely aware of her presence dispensing the tea and moving about the room, being a good wife. it was his first impression of lady harman as a good wife and he disliked the spectacle extremely. the conversation hovered chiefly about marienbad, drifted away and came back again. mrs. harman made several confidences that provoked the betrayal of a strain of irritability in sir isaac's condition. "we're all looking forward to this marienbad expedition," she said. "i do hope it will turn out well. neither of them have ever been abroad before--and there's the difficulty of the languages." "ow," snarled sir isaac, with a glance at his mother that was almost vicious and a lapse into cockney intonations and phrases that witnessed how her presence recalled his youth, "it'll _go_ all right, mother. _you_ needn't fret." "of course they'll have a courier to see to their things, and go train de luxe and all that," mrs. harman explained with a certain gusto. "but still it's an adventure, with him not well, and both as i say more like children than grown-up people." sir isaac intervened with a crushing clumsiness to divert this strain of explanation, with questions about the quality of the soil in the wood where the ground was to be cleared and levelled for his tennis lawns. mr. brumley did his best to behave as a man of the world should. he made intelligent replies about the sand, he threw out obvious but serviceable advice upon travel upon the continent of europe, and he tried not to think that this was the way of living into which the sweetest, tenderest, most beautiful woman in the world had been trapped. he avoided looking at her until he felt it was becoming conspicuous, a negative stare. why had she come back again? fragmentary phrases she had used downstairs came drifting through his mind. "i never think of it. i never read of it." and she so made for beautiful love and a beautiful life! he recalled lady beach-mandarin's absurdly apt, absurdly inept, "like godiva," and was suddenly impelled to raise the question of those strikers. "your trouble with your waitresses is over, sir isaac?" sir isaac finished a cup of tea audibly and glanced at his wife. "i never meant to be hard on them," he said, putting down his cup. "never. the trouble blew up suddenly. one can't be all over a big business everywhere all at once, more particularly if one is worried about other things. as soon as i had time to look into it i put things right. there was misunderstandings on both sides." he glanced up again at lady harman. (she was standing behind mr. brumley so that he could not see her but--did their eyes meet?) "as soon as we are back from marienbad," sir isaac volunteered, "lady harman and i are going into all that business thoroughly." mr. brumley concealed his intense aversion for this association under a tone of intelligent interest. "into--i don't quite understand--what business?" "women employees in london--hostels--all that kind of thing. bit more sensible than suffragetting, eh, elly?" "very interesting," said mr. brumley with a hollow cordiality, "very." "done on business lines, mind you," said sir isaac, looking suddenly very sharp and keen, "done on proper business lines, there's no end of a change possible. and it's a perfectly legitimate outgrowth from such popular catering as ours. it interests me." he made a little whistling noise with his teeth at the end of this speech. "i didn't know lady harman was disposed to take up such things," he said. "or i'd have gone into them before." "he's going into them now," said mrs. harman, "heart and soul. why! we have to take his temperature over it, to see he doesn't work himself up into a fever." her manner became reasonable and confidential. she spoke to mr. brumley as if her son was slightly deaf. "it's better than his fretting," she said.... § mr. brumley returned to london in a state of extreme mental and emotional unrest. the sight of lady harman had restored all his passion for her, the all too manifest fact that she was receding beyond his reach stirred him with unavailing impulses towards some impossible extremity of effort. she had filled his mind so much that he could not endure the thought of living without hope of her. but what hope was there of her? and he was jealous, detestably jealous, so jealous that in that direction he did not dare to let his mind go. he sawed at the bit and brought it back, or he would have had to writhe about the carriage. his thoughts ran furiously all over the place to avoid that pit. and now he found himself flashing at moments into wild and hopeless rebellion against the institution of marriage, of which he had hitherto sought always to be the dignified and smiling champion against the innovator, the over-critical and the young. he had never rebelled before. he was so astonished at the violence of his own objection that he lapsed from defiance to an incredulous examination of his own novel attitude. "it's not _true_ marriage i object to," he told himself. "it's this marriage like a rat trap, alluring and scarcely unavoidable, so that in we all go, and then with no escape--unless you tear yourself to rags. no escape...." it came to him that there was at least one way out for lady harman: _sir isaac might die!_ ... he pulled himself up presently, astonished and dismayed at the activities of his own imagination. among other things he had wondered if by any chance lady harman had ever allowed her mind to travel in this same post-mortem direction. at times surely the thing must have shone upon her as a possibility, a hope. from that he had branched off to a more general speculation. how many people were there in the world, nice people, kind people, moral and delicate-minded people, to whom the death of another person means release from that inflexible barrier--possibilities of secretly desired happiness, the realization of crushed and forbidden dreams? he had a vision of human society, like the vision of a night landscape seen suddenly in a lightning flash, as of people caught by couples in traps and quietly hoping for one another's deaths. "good heavens!" said mr. brumley, "what are we coming to," and got up in his railway compartment--he had it to himself--and walked up and down its narrow limits until a jolt over a point made him suddenly sit down again. "most marriages are happy," said mr. brumley, like a man who has fallen into a river and scrambles back to safety. "one mustn't judge by the exceptional cases.... "though of course there are--a good many--exceptional cases." ... he folded his arms, crossed his legs, frowned and reasoned with himself,--resolved to dismiss post-mortem speculations--absolutely. he was not going to quarrel with the institution of marriage. that was going too far. he had never been able to see the beginnings of reason in sexual anarchy, never. it is against the very order of things. man is a marrying animal just as much as he was a fire-making animal; he goes in pairs like mantel ornaments; it is as natural for him to marry and to exact and keep good faith--if need be with a savage jealousy, as it is for him to have lobes to his ears and hair under his armpits. these things jar with the dream perhaps; the gods on painted ceilings have no such ties, acting beautifully by their very nature; and here on the floor of the world one had them and one had to make the best of them.... are we making the best of them? mr. brumley was off again. that last thought opened the way to speculative wildernesses, and into these mr. brumley went wandering with a novel desperate enterprise to find a kind of marriage that would suit him. he began to reform the marriage laws. he did his utmost not to think especially of lady harman and himself while he was doing so. he would just take up the whole question and deal with it in a temperate reasonable way. it was so necessary to be reasonable and temperate in these questions--and not to think of death as a solution. marriages to begin with were too easy to make and too difficult to break; countless girls--lady harman was only a type--were married long before they could know the beginnings of their own minds. we wanted to delay marriage--until the middle twenties, say. why not? or if by the infirmities of humanity one must have marriage before then, there ought to be some especial opportunity of rescinding it later. (lady harman ought to have been able to rescind her marriage.) what ought to be the marriageable age in a civilized community? when the mind was settled into its general system of opinions mr. brumley thought, and then lapsed into a speculation whether the mind didn't keep changing and developing all through life; lady harman's was certainly still doing so.... this pointed to logical consequences of an undesirable sort.... (some little mind-slide occurred just at this point and he found himself thinking that perhaps sir isaac might last for years and years, might even outlive a wife exhausted by nursing. and anyhow to wait for death! to leave the thing one loved in the embrace of the moribund!) he wrenched his thoughts back as quickly as possible to a disinterested reform of the marriage laws. what had he decided so far? only for more deliberation and a riper age in marrying. surely that should appeal even to the most orthodox. but that alone would not eliminate mistakes and deceptions altogether. (sir isaac's skin had a peculiar, unhealthy look.) there ought in addition to be the widest facilities for divorce possible. mr. brumley tried to draw up a schedule in his head of the grounds for divorce that a really civilized community would entertain. but there are practical difficulties. marriage is not simply a sexual union, it is an economic one of a peculiarly inseparable sort,--and there are the children. and jealousy! of course so far as economics went, a kind of marriage settlement might meet most of the difficulties, and as for the children, mr. brumley was no longer in that mood of enthusiastic devotion to children that had made the birth of george edmund so tremendous an event. children, alone, afforded no reason for indissoluble lifelong union. face the thing frankly. how long was it absolutely necessary for people to keep a home together for their children? the prosperous classes, the best classes in the community, packed the little creatures off to school at the age of nine or ten. one might overdo--we were overdoing in our writing nowadays this--philoprogenitive enthusiasm.... he found himself thinking of george meredith's idea of ten year marriages.... his mind recoiled to sir isaac's pillowed-up possession. what flimsy stuff all this talk of altered marriage was! these things did not even touch the essentials of the matter. he thought of sir isaac's thin lips and wary knowing eyes. what possible divorce law could the wit of man devise that would release a desired woman from that--grip? marriage was covetousness made law. as well ask such a man to sell all his goods and give to the poor as expect the sir isaacs of this world to relax the matrimonial subjugation of the wife. our social order is built on jealousy, sustained by jealousy, and those brave schemes we evolve in our studies for the release of women from ownership,--and for that matter for the release of men too,--they will not stand the dusty heat of the market-place for a moment, they wilt under the first fierce breath of reality. marriage and property are the twin children of man's individualistic nature; only on these terms can he be drawn into societies.... mr. brumley found his little scheme for novelties in marriage and divorce lying dead and for the most part still-born in his mind; himself in despair. to set to work to alter marriage in any essential point was, he realized, as if an ant should start to climb a thousand feet of cliff. this great institution rose upon his imagination like some insurmountable sierra, blue and sombre, between himself and the life of lady harman and all that he desired. there might be a certain amount of tinkering with matrimonial law in the next few years, of petty tinkering that would abolish a few pretences and give ease to a few amiable people, but if he were to come back to life a thousand years hence he felt he would still find the ancient gigantic barrier, crossed perhaps by a dangerous road, pierced perhaps by a narrow tunnel or so, but in all its great essentials the same, between himself and lady harman. it wasn't that it was rational, it wasn't that it was justifiable, but it was one with the blood in one's veins and the rain-cloud in the sky, a necessity in the nature of present things. before mankind emerged from the valley of these restraints--if ever they did emerge--thousands of generations must follow one another, there must be tens of thousands of years of struggle and thought and trial, in the teeth of prevalent habit and opinion--and primordial instincts. a new humanity.... his heart sank to hopelessness. meanwhile? meanwhile we had to live our lives. he began to see a certain justification for the hidden cults that run beneath the fair appearances of life, those social secrecies by which people--how could one put it?--people who do not agree with established institutions, people, at any rate not merely egoistic and jealous as the crowd is egoistic and jealous, hide and help one another to mitigate the inflexible austerities of the great unreason. yes, mr. brumley had got to a phrase of that quality for the undiscriminating imperatives of the fundamental social institution. you see how a particular situation may undermine the assumptions of a mind originally devoted to uncritical acceptances. he still insisted it was a necessary great unreason, absolutely necessary--for the mass of people, a part of them, a natural expression of them, but he could imagine the possibility--of 'understandings.' ... mr. brumley was very vague about those understandings, those mysteries of the exalted that were to filch happiness from the destroying grasp of the crude and jealous. he had to be vague. for secret and noble are ideas like oil and water; you may fling them together with all the force of your will but in a little while they will separate again. for a time this dream of an impossible secrecy was uppermost in mr. brumley's meditations. it came into his head with the effect of a discovery that always among the unclimbable barriers of this supreme institution there had been,--caves. he had been reading anatole france recently and the lady of _le lys rouge_ came into his thoughts. there was something in common between lady harman and the countess martin, they were tall and dark and dignified, and lady harman was one of those rare women who could have carried the magnificent name of thérèse. and there in the setting of paris and florence was a whole microcosm of love, real but illicit, carried out as it were secretly and tactfully, beneath the great shadow of the cliff. but he found it difficult to imagine lady harman in that. or sir isaac playing count martin's part.... how different were those frenchwomen, with their afternoons vacant except for love, their detachment, their lovers, those secret, convenient, romantically furnished flats, that compact explicit business of _l'amour_! he had indeed some moments of regret that lady harman wouldn't go into that picture. she was different--if only in her simplicity. there was something about these others that put them whole worlds apart from her, who was held so tethered from all furtive adventure by her filmy tentacles of responsibility, her ties and strands of relationship, her essential delicacy. that momentary vision of ellen as the countess martin broke up into absurdities directly he looked at it fully and steadfastly. from thinking of the two women as similar types he passed into thinking of them as opposites; thérèse, hard, clear, sensuous, secretive, trained by a brilliant tradition in the technique of connubial betrayal, was the very antithesis of ellen's vague but invincible veracity and openness. not for nothing had anatole france made his heroine the daughter of a grasping financial adventurer.... of course the cave is a part of the mountain.... his mind drifted away to still more general speculations, and always he was trying not to see the figure of sir isaac, grimly and yet meanly resolute--in possession. always too like some open-mouthed yokel at a fair who knows nothing of the insult chalked upon his back, he disregarded how he himself coveted and desired and would if he could have gripped. he forgot his own watchful attention to euphemia in the past, nor did he think what he might have been if lady harman had been his wife. it needed the chill veracities of the small hours to bring him to that. he thought now of crude egotism as having sir isaac's hands and sir isaac's eyes and sir isaac's position. he forgot any egotism he himself was betraying. all the paths of enlightenment he thought of, led to lady harman. § that evening george edmund, who had come home with his mind aglitter with cinematograph impressions, found his father a patient but inattentive listener. for indeed mr. brumley was not listening at all; he was thinking and thinking. he made noises like "ah!" and "um," at george edmund and patted the boy's shoulder kindly and repeated words unintelligently, such as, "red indians, eh!" or "came out of the water backwards! my eye!" sometimes he made what george edmund regarded as quite footling comments. still george edmund had to tell someone and there was no one else to tell. so george edmund went on talking and mr. brumley went on thinking. § mr brumley could not sleep at all until it was nearly five. his intelligence seemed to be making up at last for years of speculative restraint. in a world for the most part given up to slumber mr. brumley may be imagined as clambering hand over fist in the silences, feverishly and wonderfully overtaking his age. in the morning he got up pallid and he shaved badly, but he was a generation ahead of his own euphemia series, and the school of charm and quiet humour and of letting things slide with a kind of elegant donnishness, had lost him for ever.... and among all sorts of things that had come to him in that vast gulf of nocturnal thinking was some vivid self-examination. at last he got to that. he had been dragged down to very elemental things indeed by the manifest completeness of lady harman's return to her husband. he had had at last to look at himself starkly for the male he was, to go beneath the gentlemanly airs, the refined and elegant virilities of his habitual poses. either this thing was unendurable--there were certainly moments when it came near to being unendurable--or it was not. on the whole and excepting mere momentary paroxysms it was not, and so he had to recognize and he did recognize with the greatest amazement that there could be something else besides sexual attraction and manoeuvring and possession between a beautiful woman and a man like himself. he loved lady harman, he loved her, he now began to realize just how much, and she could defeat him and reject him as a conceivable lover, turn that aside as a thing impossible, shame him as the romantic school would count shame and still command him with her confident eyes and her friendly extended hands. he admitted he suffered, let us rather say he claimed to suffer the heated torments of a passionate nature, but he perceived like fresh air and sunrise coming by blind updrawn and opened window into a foetid chamber, that also he loved her with a clean and bodiless love, was anxious to help her, was anxious now--it was a new thing--to understand her, to reassure her, to give unrequited what once he had sought rather to seem to give in view of an imagined exchange. he perceived too in these still hours how little he had understood her hitherto. he had been blinded,--obsessed. he had been seeing her and himself and the whole world far too much as a display of the eternal dualism of sex, the incessant pursuit. now with his sexual imaginings newly humbled and hopeless, with a realization of her own tremendous minimization of that fundamental of romance, he began to see all that there was in her personality and their possible relations outside that. he saw how gravely and deeply serious was her fine philanthropy, how honest and simple and impersonal her desire for knowledge and understandings. there is the brain of her at least, he thought, far out of sir isaac's reach. she wasn't abased by her surrenders, their simplicity exalted her, showed her innocent and himself a flushed and congested soul. he perceived now with the astonishment of a man newly awakened just how the great obsession of sex had dominated him--for how many years? since his early undergraduate days. had he anything to put beside her own fine detachment? had he ever since his manhood touched philosophy, touched a social question, thought of anything human, thought of art, or literature or belief, without a glancing reference of the whole question to the uses of this eternal hunt? during that time had he ever talked to a girl or woman with an unembarrassed sincerity? he stripped his pretences bare; the answer was no. his very refinements had been no more than indicative fig-leaves. his conservatism and morality had been a mere dalliance with interests that too brutal a simplicity might have exhausted prematurely. and indeed hadn't the whole period of literature that had produced him been, in its straining purity and refinement, as it were one glowing, one illuminated fig-leaf, a vast conspiracy to keep certain matters always in mind by conspicuously covering them away? but this wonderful woman--it seemed--she hadn't them in mind! she shamed him if only by her trustful unsuspiciousness of the ancient selfish game of him and her that he had been so ardently playing.... he idealized and worshipped this clean blindness. he abased himself before it. "no," cried mr. brumley suddenly in the silence of the night, "i will rise again. i will rise again by love out of these morasses.... she shall be my goddess and by virtue of her i will end this incessant irrational craving for women.... i will be her friend and her faithful friend." he lay still for a time and then he said in a whisper very humbly: "_god help me_." he set himself in those still hours which are so endless and so profitable to men in their middle years, to think how he might make himself the perfect lover instead of a mere plotter for desire, and how he might purge himself from covetousness and possessiveness and learn to serve. and if very speedily his initial sincerity was tinged again with egotism and if he drowsed at last into a portrait of himself as beautifully and admirably self-sacrificial, you must not sneer too readily at him, for so god has made the soul of mr. brumley and otherwise it could not do. chapter the tenth lady harman comes out § the treaty between lady harman and her husband which was to be her great charter, the constitutional basis of her freedoms throughout the rest of her married life, had many practical defects. the chief of these was that it was largely undocumented; it had been made piecemeal, in various ways, at different times and for the most part indirectly through diverse intermediaries. charterson had introduced large vaguenesses by simply displaying more of his teeth at crucial moments, mrs. harman had conveyed things by hugging and weeping that were afterwards discovered to be indistinct; sir isaac writing from a bed of sickness had frequently been totally illegible. one cannot therefore detail the clauses of this agreement or give its provisions with any great precision; one can simply intimate the kind of understanding that had had an air of being arrived at. the working interpretations were still to come. before anything else it was manifestly conceded by lady harman that she would not run away again, and still more manifest that she undertook to break no more windows or do anything that might lead to a second police court scandal. and she was to be a true and faithful wife and comfort, as a wife should be, to sir isaac. in return for that consideration and to ensure its continuance sir isaac came great distances from his former assumption of a matrimonial absolutism. she was to be granted all sorts of small autonomies,--the word autonomy was carefully avoided throughout but its spirit was omnipresent. she was in particular to have a banking account for her dress and personal expenditure into which sir isaac would cause to be paid a hundred pounds monthly and it was to be private to herself alone until he chose to go through the cashed cheques and counterfoils. she was to be free to come and go as she saw fit, subject to a punctual appearance at meals, the comfort and dignity of sir isaac and such specific engagements as she might make with him. she might have her own friends, but there the contract became a little misty; a time was to come when sir isaac was to betray a conviction that the only proper friends that a woman can have are women. there were also non-corroborated assurances as to the privacy of her correspondence. the second rolls-royce car was to be entirely at her service, and clarence was to be immediately supplemented by a new and more deferential man, and as soon as possible assisted to another situation and replaced. she was to have a voice in the further furnishing of black strand and in the arrangement of its garden. she was to read what she chose and think what she liked within her head without too minute or suspicious an examination by sir isaac, and short of flat contradiction at his own table she was to be free to express her own opinions in any manner becoming a lady. but more particularly if she found her ideas infringing upon the management or influence of the international bread and cake stores, she was to convey her objections and ideas in the first instance privately and confidentially to sir isaac. upon this point he displayed a remarkable and creditable sensitiveness. his pride in that organization was if possible greater than his original pride in his wife, and probably nothing in all the jarring of their relationship had hurt him more than her accessibility to hostile criticism and the dinner-table conversation with charterson and blenker that had betrayed this fact. he began to talk about it directly she returned to him. his protestations and explanations were copious and heart-felt. it was perhaps the chief discovery made by lady harman at this period of reconstruction that her husband's business side was not to be explained completely as a highly energetic and elaborate avarice. he was no doubt acquisitive and retentive and mean-spirited, but these were merely the ugly aspects of a disposition that involved many other factors. he was also incurably a schemer. he liked to fit things together, to dove-tail arrangements, to devise economies, to spread ingeniously into new fields, he had a love of organization and contrivance as disinterested as an artist's love for the possibilities of his medium. he would rather have made a profit of ten per cent. out of a subtly planned shop than thirty by an unforeseen accident. he wouldn't have cheated to get money for the world. he knew he was better at figuring out expenditures and receipts than most people and he was as touchy about his reputation for this kind of cleverness as any poet or painter for his fame. now that he had awakened to the idea that his wife was capable of looking into and possibly even understanding his business, he was passionately anxious to show her just how wonderfully he had done it all, and when he perceived she was in her large, unskilled, helpless way, intensely concerned for all the vast multitude of incompetent or partially competent young women who floundered about in badly paid employment in our great cities, he grasped at once at the opportunity of recovering her lost interest and respect by doing some brilliant feats of contrivance in that direction. why shouldn't he? he had long observed with a certain envy the admirable advertisement such firms as lever and cadbury and burroughs & wellcome gained from their ostentatiously able and generous treatment of their workpeople, and it seemed to him conceivable that in the end it might not be at all detrimental to his prosperity to put his hand to this long neglected piece of social work. the babs wheeler business had been a real injury in every way to the international bread and cake stores and even if he didn't ultimately go to all the lengths his wife seemed to contemplate, he was resolved at any rate that an affair of that kind should not occur again. the expedition to marienbad took with it a secretary who was also a stenographer. a particularly smart young inspector and graper, the staff manager, had brisk four-day holidays once or twice for consultation purposes; sir isaac's rabbit-like architect was in attendance for a week and the harmans returned to putney with the first vivid greens of late march,--for the putney hill house was to be reopened and black strand reserved now for week-end and summer use--with plans already drawn out for four residential hostels in london primarily for the girl waitresses of the international stores who might have no homes or homes at an inconvenient distance, and, secondarily, if any vacant accommodation remained over, for any other employed young women of the same class.... § lady harman came back to england from the pine-woods and bright order and regimen and foreign novelty of their bohemian kur-ort, in a state of renewed perplexity. already that undocumented magna charta was manifestly not working upon the lines she had anticipated. the glosses sir isaac put upon it were extensive and remarkable and invariably in the direction of restricting her liberties and resuming controls she had supposed abandoned. marienbad had done wonders for him; his slight limp had disappeared, his nervous energy was all restored; except for a certain increase in his natural irritability and occasional panting fits, he seemed as well as he had ever been. at the end of their time at the kur he was even going for walks. once he went halfway up the podhorn on foot. and with every increment in his strength his aggressiveness increased, his recognition of her new freedoms was less cordial and her sense of contrition and responsibility diminished. moreover, as the scheme of those hostels, which had played so large a part in her conception of their reconciliation, grew more and more definite, she perceived more and more that it was not certainly that fine and humanizing thing she had presumed it would be. she began to feel more and more that it might be merely an extension of harman methods to cheap boarding-houses for young people. but faced with a mass of detailed concrete projects and invited to suggest modifications she was able to realize for the first time how vague, how ignorant and incompetent her wishes had been, how much she had to understand and how much she had to discover before she could meet sir isaac with his "i'm doing it all for you, elly. if you don't like it, you tell me what you don't like and i'll alter it. but just vague doubting! one can't do anything with vague doubting." she felt that once back in england out of this picturesque toylike german world she would be able to grasp realities again and deal with these things. she wanted advice, she wanted to hear what people said of her ideas. she would also, she imagined, begin to avail herself of those conceded liberties which their isolation together abroad and her husband's constant need of her presence had so far prevented her from tasting. she had an idea that susan burnet might prove suggestive about the hostels. and moreover, if now and then she could have a good talk with someone understanding and intelligent, someone she could trust, someone who cared enough for her to think with her and for her.... § we have traced thus far the emergence of lady harman from that state of dutiful subjection and social irresponsibility which was the lot of woman in the past to that limited, ill-defined and quite unsecured freedom which is her present condition. and now we have to give an outline of the ideas of herself and her uses and what she had to do, which were forming themselves in her mind. she had made a determination of herself, which carried her along the lines of her natural predisposition, to duty, to service. there she displayed that acceptance of responsibility which is so much more often a feminine than a masculine habit of thinking. but she brought to the achievement of this determination a discriminating integrity of mind that is more frequently masculine than feminine. she wanted to know clearly what she was undertaking and how far its consequences would reach and how it was related to other things. her confused reading during the last few years and her own observation and such leakages of fact into her life as the talk of susan burnet, had all contributed to her realization that the world was full of needless discomfort and hardships and failure, due to great imperfectly apprehended injustices and maladjustments in the social system, and recently it had been borne in upon her, upon the barbed point of the _london lion_ and the quick tongue of susan, that if any particular class of people was more answerable than any other for these evils, it was the people of leisure and freedom like herself, who had time to think, and the directing organizing people like her husband, who had power to change. she was called upon to do something, at times the call became urgent, and she could not feel any assurance which it was of the many vague and conflicting suggestions that came drifting to her that she had to do. her idea of hostels for the international waitresses had been wrung out of her prematurely during her earlier discussions with her husband. she did not feel that it was anything more than a partial remedy for a special evil. she wanted something more general than that, something comprehensive enough to answer completely so wide a question as "what ought i to be doing with all my life?" in the honest simplicity of her nature she wanted to find an answer to that. out of the confusion of voices about us she hoped to be able to disentangle directions for her life. already she had been reading voraciously: while she was still at marienbad she had written to mr. brumley and he had sent her books and papers, advanced and radical in many cases, that she might know, "what are people thinking?" many phrases from her earlier discussions with sir isaac stuck in her mind in a curiously stimulating way and came back to her as she read. she recalled him, for instance, with his face white and his eyes red and his flat hand sawing at her, saying: "i dessay i'm all wrong, i dessay i don't know anything about anything and all those chaps you read, bernud shaw, and gosworthy, and all the rest of them are wonderfully clever; but you tell me, elly, what they say we've got to do! you tell me that. you go and ask some of those chaps just what they want a man like me to do.... they'll ask me to endow a theatre or run a club for novelists or advertise the lot of them in the windows of my international stores or something. and that's about all it comes to. you go and see if i'm not right. they grumble and they grumble; i don't say there's not a lot to grumble at, but give me something they'll back themselves for all they're worth as good to get done.... that's where i don't agree with all these idees. they're wind, elly, weak wind at that." it is distressing to record how difficult it was for lady harman to form even the beginnings of a disproof of that. her life through all this second phase of mitigated autonomy was an intermittent pilgrimage in search of that disproof. she could not believe that things as they were, this mass of hardships, cruelties, insufficiencies and heartburnings were the ultimate wisdom and possibility of human life, yet when she went from them to the projects that would replace or change them she seemed to pass from things of overwhelming solidity to matters more thin and flimsy than the twittering of sparrows on the gutter. so soon as she returned to london she started upon her search for a solution; she supplemented mr. brumley's hunt for books with her own efforts, she went to meetings--sometimes sir isaac took her, once or twice she was escorted by mr. brumley, and presently her grave interest and her personal charm had gathered about her a circle of companionable friends. she tried to talk to people and made great efforts to hear people who seemed authoritative and wise and leaderlike, talking. there were many interruptions to this research, but she persevered. quite early she had an illness that ended in a miscarriage, an accident for which she was by no means inconsolable, and before she had completely recovered from that sir isaac fell ill again, the first of a series of relapses that necessitated further foreign travel--always in elaborately comfortable trains with maid, courier, valet, and secretary, to some warm and indolent southward place. and few people knew how uncertain her liberties were. sir isaac was the victim of an increasing irritability, at times he had irrational outbursts of distrust that would culminate in passionate outbreaks and scenes that were truncated by an almost suffocating breathlessness. on several occasions he was on the verge of quarrelling violently with her visitors, and he would suddenly oblige her to break engagements, pour abuse upon her and bring matters back to the very verge of her first revolt. and then he would break her down by pitiful appeals. the cylinders of oxygen would be resorted to, and he would emerge from the crisis, rather rueful, tamed and quiet for the time. he was her chief disturbance. her children were healthy children and fell in with the routines of governess and tutor that their wealth provided. she saw them often, she noted their increasing resemblance to their father, she did her best to soften the natural secretiveness and aggressiveness of their manners, she watched their teachers and intervened whenever the influences about them seemed to her to need intervention, she dressed them and gave them presents and tried to believe she loved them, and as sir isaac's illness increased she took a larger and larger share in the direction of the household.... through all these occupations and interruptions and immediacies she went trying to comprehend and at times almost believing she comprehended life, and then the whole spectacle of this modern world of which she was a part would seem to break up again into a multitude of warring and discordant fragments having no conceivable common aim or solution. those moments of unifying faith and confidence, that glowed so bravely and never endured, were at once tantalizing and sustaining. she could never believe but that ultimately she would not grasp and hold--something.... many people met her and liked her and sought to know more of her; lady beach-mandarin and lady viping were happy to be her social sponsors, the blenkers and the chartersons met her out and woke up cautiously to this new possibility; her emergence was rapid in spite of the various delays and interruptions i have mentioned and she was soon in a position to realize just how little one meets when one meets a number of people and how little one hears when one has much conversation. her mind was presently crowded with confused impressions of pleasant men evading her agreeably and making out of her gravities an opportunity for bright sayings, and of women being vaguely solemn and quite indefinite. she went into the circle of movements, was tried over by mrs. hubert plessington, she questioned this and that promoter of constructive schemes, and instead of mental meat she was asked to come upon committees and sounded for subscriptions. on several occasions, escorted by mr. brumley--some instinct made her conceal or minimize his share in these expeditions to her husband--she went as inconspicuously as possible to the backs of public meetings in which she understood great questions were being discussed or great changes inaugurated. some public figures she even followed up for a time, distrusting her first impressions. she became familiar with the manners and bearing of our platform class, with the solemn dummy-like chairman or chairwoman, saying a few words, the alert secretary or organizer, the prominent figures sitting with an air of grave responsibility, generously acting an intelligent attention to others until the moment came for them themselves to deliver. then with an ill-concealed relief some would come to the footlights, some leap up in their places with a tenoring eagerness, some would be facetious and some speak with neuralgic effort, some were impertinent, some propitiatory, some dull, but all were--disappointing, disappointing. god was not in any of them. a platform is no setting for the shy processes of an honest human mind,--we are all strained to artificiality in the excessive glare of attention that beats upon us there. one does not exhibit opinions at a meeting, one acts them, the very truth must rouge its cheeks and blacken its eyebrows to tell, and to lady harman it was the acting chiefly and the make-up that was visible. they didn't grip her, they didn't lift her, they failed to convince her even of their own belief in what they supported. § but occasionally among the multitude of conversations that gave her nothing, there would come some talk that illuminated and for the time almost reconciled her to the effort and the loss of time and distraction her social expeditions involved. one evening at one of lady tarvrille's carelessly compiled parties she encountered edgar wilkins the novelist and got the most suggestive glimpses of his attitude towards himself and towards the world of intellectual ferment to which he belonged. she had been taken down by an amiable but entirely uninteresting permanent official who when the time came turned his stereotyped talk over to the other side of him with a quiet mechanical indifference, and she was left for a little while in silence until wilkins had disengaged himself. he was a flushed man with untidy hair, and he opened at once with an appeal to her sympathies. "oh! bother!" he said. "i say,--i've eaten that mutton. i didn't notice. one eats too much at these affairs. one doesn't notice at the time and then afterwards one finds out." she was a little surprised at his gambit and could think of nothing but a kindly murmur. "detestable thing," he said; "my body." "but surely not," she tried and felt as she said it that was a trifle bold. "you're all right," he said making her aware he saw her. "but i've this thing that wheezes and fattens at the slightest excuse and--it encumbers me--bothers me to take exercise.... but i can hardly expect you to be interested in my troubles, can i?" he made an all too manifest attempt to read her name on the slip of card that lay before her among the flowers and as manifestly succeeded. "we people who write and paint and all that sort of thing are a breed of insatiable egotists, lady harman. with the least excuse. don't you think so?" "not--not exceptionally," she said. "exceptionally," he insisted. "it isn't my impression," she said. "you're--franker." "but someone was telling me--you've been taking impressions of us lately. i mean all of us people who go flapping ideas about in the air. somebody--was it lady beach-mandarin?--was saying you'd come out looking for intellectual heroes--and found bernard shaw.... but what could you have expected?" "i've been trying to find out and understand what people are thinking. i want ideas." "it's disheartening, isn't it?" "it's--perplexing sometimes." "you go to meetings, and try to get to the bottom of movements, and you want to meet and know the people who write the wonderful things? get at the wonderful core of it?" "one feels there are things going on." "great illuminating things." "well--yes." "and when you see those great thinkers and teachers and guides and brave spirits and high brows generally----" he laughed and stopped just in time on the very verge of taking pheasant. "oh, take it away," he cried sharply. "we've all been through that illusion, lady harman," he went on. "but i don't like to think----aren't great men after all--great?" "in their ways, in their places--yes. but not if you go up to them and look at them. not at the dinner table, not in their beds.... what a time of disillusionment you must have had! "you see, lady harman," he said, leaning back from his empty plate, inclining himself confidentially to her ear and speaking in a privy tone; "it's in the very nature of things that we--if i may put myself into the list--we ideologists, should be rather exceptionally loose and untrustworthy and disappointing men. rotters--to speak plain contemporary english. if you come to think of it, it has to be so." "but----" she protested. he met her eye firmly. "it has to be." "why?" "the very qualities that make literature entertaining, vigorous, inspiring, revealing, wonderful, beautiful and--all that sort of thing, make its producers--if you will forgive the word again--rotters." she smiled and lifted her eyebrows protestingly. "sensitive nervous tissue," he said with a finger up to emphasize his words. "quick responsiveness to stimulus, a vivid, almost uncontrollable, expressiveness; that's what you want in your literary man." "yes," said lady harman following cautiously. "yes, i suppose it is." "can you suppose for a moment that these things conduce to self-control, to reserve, to consistency, to any of the qualities of a trustworthy man?... of course you can't. and so we _aren't_ trustworthy, we _aren't_ consistent. our virtues are our vices.... _my_ life," said mr. wilkins still more confidentially, "won't bear examination. but that's by the way. it need not concern us now." "but mr. brumley?" she asked on the spur of the moment. "i'm not talking of him," said wilkins with careless cruelty. "he's restrained. i mean the really imaginative people, the people with vision, the people who let themselves go. you see now why they are rotten, why they must be rotten. (no! no! take it away. i'm talking.) i feel so strongly about this, about the natural and necessary disreputableness of everybody who produces reputable writing--and for the matter of that, art generally--that i set my face steadily against all these attempts that keep on cropping up to make figures of us. we aren't figures, lady harman; it isn't our line. of all the detestable aspects of the victorian period surely that disposition to make figures of its artists and literary men was the most detestable. respectable figures--examples to the young. the suppressions, the coverings up that had to go on, the white-washing of dickens,--who was more than a bit of a rip, you know, the concealment of thackeray's mistresses. did you know he had mistresses? oh rather! and so on. it's like that bust of jove--or bacchus was it?--they pass off as plato, who probably looked like any other literary grub. that's why i won't have anything to do with these academic developments that my friend brumley--do you know him by the way?--goes in for. he's the third man down----you _do_ know him. and he's giving up the academic committee, is he? i'm glad he's seen it at last. what _is_ the good of trying to have an academy and all that, and put us in uniform and make out we are somebodies, and respectable enough to be shaken hands with by george and mary, when as a matter of fact we are, by our very nature, a collection of miscellaneous scandals----we _must_ be. bacon, shakespear, byron, shelley--all the stars.... no, johnson wasn't a star, he was a character by boswell.... oh! great things come out of us, no doubt, our arts are the vehicles of wonder and hope, the world is dead without these things we produce, but that's no reason why--why the mushroom-bed should follow the mushrooms into the soup, is it? perfectly fair image. (no, take it away.)" he paused and then jumped in again as she was on the point of speaking. "and you see even if our temperaments didn't lead inevitably to our--dipping rather, we should still have to--_dip_. asking a writer or a poet to be seemly and academic and so on, is like asking an eminent surgeon to be stringently decent. it's--you see, it's incompatible. now a king or a butler or a family solicitor--if you like." he paused again. lady harman had been following him with an attentive reluctance. "but what are we to do," she asked, "we people who are puzzled by life, who want guidance and ideas and--help, if--if all the people we look to for ideas are----" "bad characters." "well,--it's your theory, you know--bad characters?" wilkins answered with the air of one who carefully disentangles a complex but quite solvable problem. "it doesn't follow," he said, "that because a man is a bad character he's not to be trusted in matters where character--as we commonly use the word--doesn't come in. these sensitives, these--would you mind if i were to call myself an Æolian harp?--these Æolian harps; they can't help responding to the winds of heaven. well,--listen to them. don't follow them, don't worship them, don't even honour them, but listen to them. don't let anyone stop them from saying and painting and writing and singing what they want to. freedom, canvas and attention, those are the proper honours for the artist, the poet and the philosopher. listen to the noise they make, watch the stuff they produce, and presently you will find certain things among the multitude of things that are said and shown and put out and published, something--light in _your_ darkness--a writer for you, something for you. nobody can have a greater contempt for artists and writers and poets and philosophers than i, oh! a squalid crew they are, mean, jealous, pugnacious, disgraceful in love, _disgraceful_--but out of it all comes the greatest serenest thing, the mind of the world, literature. nasty little midges, yes,--but fireflies--carrying light for the darkness." his face was suddenly lit by enthusiasm and she wondered that she could have thought it rather heavy and commonplace. he stopped abruptly and glanced beyond her at her other neighbour who seemed on the verge of turning to them again. "if i go on," he said with a voice suddenly dropped, "i shall talk loud." "you know," said lady harman, in a halty undertone, "you--you are too hard upon--upon clever people, but it is true. i mean it is true in a way...." "go on, i understand exactly what you are saying." "i mean, there _are_ ideas. it's just that, that is so--so----i mean they seem never to be just there and always to be present." "like god. never in the flesh--now. a spirit everywhere. you think exactly as i do, lady harman. it is just that. this is a great time, so great that there is no chance for great men. every chance for great work. and we're doing it. there is a wind--blowing out of heaven. and when beautiful people like yourself come into things----" "i try to understand," she said. "i want to understand. i want--i want not to miss life." he was on the verge of saying something further and then his eyes wandered down the table and he stopped short. he ended his talk as he had begun it with "bother! lady tarvrille, lady harman, is trying to catch your eye." lady harman turned her face to her hostess and answered her smile. wilkins caught at his chair and stood up. "it would have been jolly to have talked some more," he said. "i hope we shall." "well!" said wilkins, with a sudden hardness in his eyes and she was swept away from him. she found no chance of talking to him upstairs, sir isaac came for her early; but she went in hope of another meeting. it did not come. for a time that expectation gave dinners and luncheon parties a quite appreciable attraction. then she told agatha alimony. "i've never met him but that once," she said. "one doesn't meet him now," said agatha, deeply. "but why?" deep significance came into miss alimony's eyes. "my dear," she whispered, and glanced about them. "don't you _know_?" lady harman was a radiant innocence. and then miss alimony began in impressive undertones, with awful omissions like pits of darkness and with such richly embroidered details as serious spinsters enjoy, adding, indeed, two quite new things that came to her mind as the tale unfolded, and, naming no names and giving no chances of verification or reply, handed on the fearful and at that time extremely popular story of the awful wickedness of wilkins the author. upon reflection lady harman perceived that this explained all sorts of things in their conversation and particularly the flash of hardness at the end. even then, things must have been hanging over him.... § and while lady harman was making these meritorious and industrious attempts to grasp the significance of life and to get some clear idea of her social duty, the developments of those hostels she had started--she now felt so prematurely--was going on. there were times when she tried not to think of them, turned her back on them, fled from them, and times when they and what she ought to do about them and what they ought to be and what they ought not to be, filled her mind to the exclusion of every other topic. rigorously and persistently sir isaac insisted they were hers, asked her counsel, demanded her appreciation, presented as it were his recurring bill for them. five of them were being built, not four but five. there was to be one, the largest, in a conspicuous position in bloomsbury near the british museum, one in a conspicuous position looking out upon parliament hill, one conspicuously placed upon the waterloo road near st. george's circus, one at sydenham, and one in the kensington road which was designed to catch the eye of people going to and fro to the various exhibitions at olympia. in sir isaac's study at putney there was a huge and rather splendid-looking morocco portfolio on a stand, and this portfolio bore in excellent gold lettering the words, international bread and cake hostels. it was her husband's peculiar pleasure after dinner to take her to turn over this with him; he would sit pencil in hand, while she, poised at his request upon the arm of his chair, would endorse a multitude of admirable modifications and suggestions. these hostels were to be done--indeed they were being done--by sir isaac's tame architect, and the interlacing yellow and mauve tiles, and the doulton ware mouldings that were already familiar to the public as the uniform of the stores, were to be used upon the façades of the new institutions. they were to be boldly labelled international hostels right across the front. the plans revealed in every case a site depth as great as the frontage, and the utmost ingenuity had been used to utilize as much space as possible. "every room we get in," said sir isaac, "adds one to the denominator in the cost;" and carried his wife back to her schooldays. at last she had found sense in fractions. there was to be a series of convenient and spacious rooms on the ground floor, a refectory, which might be cleared and used for meetings--"dances," said lady harman. "hardly the sort of thing we want 'em to get up to," said sir isaac--various offices, the matron's apartments--"we ought to begin thinking about matrons," said sir isaac;--a bureau, a reading-room and a library--"we can pick good, serious stuff for them," said sir isaac, "instead of their filling their heads with trash"--one or two workrooms with tables for cutting out and sewing; this last was an idea of susan burnet's. upstairs there was to be a beehive of bedrooms, floor above floor, and each floor as low as the building regulations permitted. there were to be long dormitories with cubicles at three-and-sixpence a week--make your own beds--and separate rooms at prices ranging from four-and-sixpence to seven-and-sixpence. every three cubicles and every bedroom had lavatory basins with hot and cold water; there were pull-out drawers under the beds and a built-in chest of drawers, a hanging cupboard, a looking-glass and a radiator in each cubicle, and each floor had a box-room. it was ship-shape. "a girl can get this cubicle for three-and-six a week," said sir isaac, tapping the drawing before him with his pencil. "she can get her breakfast with a bit of bacon or a sausage for two shillings a week, and she can get her high tea, with cold meat, good potted salmon, shrimp paste, jam and cetera, for three-and-six a week. say her bus fares and lunch out mean another four shillings. that means she can get along on about twelve-and-six a week, comfortable, read the papers, have a book out of the library.... there's nothing like it to be got now for twice the money. the sort of thing they have now is one room, dingy, badly fitted, extra for coals. "that's the answer to your problem, elly," he said. "there we are. every girl who doesn't live at home can live here--with a matron to keep her eye on her.... and properly run, elly, properly run the thing's going to pay two or three per cent,--let alone the advertisement for the stores. "we can easily make these hostels obligatory on all our girls who don't live at their own homes," he said. "that ought to keep them off the streets, if anything can. i don't see how even miss babs wheeler can have the face to strike against that. "and then we can arrange with some of the big firms, drapers' shops and all that sort of thing near each hostel, to take over most of our other cubicle space. a lot of them--overflow. "of course we'll have to make sure the girls get in at night." he reached out for a ground floor plan of the bloomsbury establishment which was to be the first built. "if," he said, "we were to have a sort of porter's lodge with a book--and make 'em ring a bell after eleven say--just here...." he took out a silver pencil case and got to work. lady harman's expression as she leant over him became thoughtful. there were points about this project that gave her the greatest misgivings; that matron, keeping her eye on the girls, that carefully selected library, the porter's bell, these casual allusions to "discipline" that set her thinking of scraps of the babs wheeler controversy. there was a regularity, an austerity about this project that chilled her, she hardly knew why. her own vague intentions had been an amiable, hospitable, agreeably cheap establishment to which the homeless feminine employees in london could resort freely and cheerfully, and it was only very slowly that she perceived that her husband was by no means convinced of the spontaneity of their coming. he seemed always glancing at methods for compelling them to come in and oppressions when that compulsion had succeeded. there had already hovered over several of these anticipatory evenings, his very manifest intention to have very carefully planned "rules." she felt there lay ahead of them much possibility for divergence of opinion about these "rules." she foresaw a certain narrowness and hardness. she herself had made her fight against the characteristics of sir isaac and--perhaps she was lacking in that aristocratic feeling which comes so naturally to most successful middle-class people in england--she could not believe that what she had found bad and suffocating for herself could be agreeable and helpful for her poorer sisters. it occurred to her to try the effect of the scheme upon susan burnet. susan had such a knack of seeing things from unexpected angles. she contrived certain operations upon the study blinds, and then broached the business to susan casually in the course of an enquiry into the welfare of the burnet family. susan was evidently prejudiced against the idea. "yes," said susan after various explanations and exhibitions, "but where's the home in it?" "the whole thing is a home." "barracks _i_ call it," said susan. "nobody ever felt at home in a room coloured up like that--and no curtains, nor vallances, nor toilet covers, nor anywhere where a girl can hang a photograph or anything. what girl's going to feel at home in a strange place like that?" "they ought to be able to hang up photographs," said lady harman, making a mental note of it. "and of course there'll be all sorts of rules." "_some_ rules." "homes, real homes don't have rules. and i daresay--fines." "no, there shan't be any fines," said lady harman quickly. "i'll see to that." "you got to back up rules somehow--once you got 'em," said susan. "and when you get a crowd, and no father and mother, and no proper family feeling, i suppose there's got to be rules." lady harman pointed out various advantages of the project. "i'm not saying it isn't cheap and healthy and social," said susan, "and if it isn't too strict i expect you'll get plenty of girls to come to it, but at the best it's an institution, lady harman. it's going to be an institution. that's what it's going to be." she held the front elevation of the bloomsbury hostel in her hand and reflected. "of course for my part, i'd rather lodge with nice struggling believing christian people anywhere than go into a place like that. it's the feeling of freedom, of being yourself and on your own. even if the water wasn't laid on and i had to fetch it myself.... if girls were paid properly there wouldn't be any need of such places, none at all. it's the poverty makes 'em what they are.... and after all, somebody's got to lose the lodgers if this place gets them. suppose this sort of thing grows up all over the place, it'll just be the story of the little bakers and little grocers and all those people over again. why in london there are thousands of people just keep a home together by letting two or three rooms or boarding someone--and it stands to reason, they'll have to take less or lose the lodgers if this kind of thing's going to be done. nobody isn't going to build a hostel for them." "no," said lady harman, "i never thought of them." "lots of 'em haven't anything in the world but their bits of furniture and their lease and there they are stuck and tied. there's aunt hannah, father's sister, she's like that. sleeps in the basement and works and slaves, and often i've had to lend her ten shillings to pay the rent with, through her not being full. this sort of place isn't going to do much good to her." lady harman surveyed the plan rather blankly. "i suppose it isn't." "and then if you manage this sort of place easy and attractive, it's going to draw girls away from their homes. there's girls like alice who'd do anything to get a bit of extra money to put on their backs and seem to think of nothing but chattering and laughing and going about. such a place like this would be fine fun for alice; in when she liked and out when she liked, and none of us to ask her questions. she'd be just the sort to go, and mother, who's had the upbringing of her, how's she to make up for alice's ten shillings what she pays in every week? there's lots like alice. she's not bad isn't alice, she's a good girl and a good-hearted girl; i will say that for her, but she's shallow, say what you like she's shallow, she's got no thought and she's wild for pleasure, and sometimes it seems to me that that's as bad as being bad for all the good it does to anyone else in the world, and so i tell her. but of course she hasn't seen things as i've seen them and doesn't feel as i do about all these things...." thus susan. her discourse so puzzled lady harman that she bethought herself of mr. brumley and called in his only too readily accorded advice. she asked him to tea on a day when she knew unofficially that sir isaac would be away, she showed him the plans and sketched their probable development. then with that charming confidence of hers in his knowledge and ability she put her doubts and fears before him. what did he really think of these places? what did he think of susan burnet's idea of ruined lodging-house keepers? "i used to think our stores were good things," she said. "is this likely to be a good thing at all?" mr. brumley said "um" a great number of times and realized that he was a humbug. he fenced with her and affected sagacity for a time and suddenly he threw down his defences and confessed he knew as little of the business as she did. "but i see it is a complex question and--it's an interesting one too. may i enquire into it for you? i think i might be able to hunt up a few particulars...." he went away in a glow of resolution. georgina was about the only intimate who regarded the new development without misgiving. "you think you're going to do all sorts of things with these hostels, ella," she said, "but as a matter of fact they're bound to become just exactly what we've always wanted." "and what may that be?" asked mrs. sawbridge over her macramé work. "strongholds for a garrison of suffragettes," said georgina with the light of the great insane movement in her eyes and a ringing note in her voice. "fort chabrols for women." § for some months in a negative and occasionally almost negligent fashion mr. brumley had been living up to his impassioned resolve to be an unselfish lover of lady harman. he had been rather at loose ends intellectually, deprived of his old assumptions and habitual attitudes and rather chaotic in the matter of his new convictions. he had given most of his productive hours to the writing of a novel which was to be an entire departure from the euphemia tradition. the more he got on with this, the more clearly he realized that it was essentially insignificant. when he re-read what he had written he was surprised by crudities where he had intended sincerities and rhetoric where the scheme had demanded passion. what was the matter with him? he was stirred that lady harman should send for him, and his inability to deal with her perplexities deepened his realization of the ignorance and superficiality he had so long masked even from himself beneath the tricks and pretensions of a gay scepticism. he went away fully resolved to grapple with the entire hostel question, and he put the patched and tortured manuscript of the new novel aside with a certain satisfaction to do this. the more he reflected upon the nature of this study he proposed for himself the more it attracted him. it was some such reality as this he had been wanting. he could presently doubt whether he would ever go back to his novel-writing again, or at least to the sort of novel-writing he had been doing hitherto. to invent stories to save middle-aged prosperous middle-class people from the distresses of thinking, is surely no work for a self-respecting man. stevenson in the very deeps of that dishonourable traffic had realized as much and likened himself to a _fille de joie_, and haggard, of the same school and period, had abandoned blood and thunder at the climax of his success for the honest study of agricultural conditions. the newer successes were turning out work, less and less conventional and agreeable and more and more stiffened with facts and sincerities.... he would show lady harman that a certain debonair quality he had always affected, wasn't incompatible with a powerful grasp of general conditions.... and she wanted this done. suppose he did it in a way that made him necessary to her. suppose he did it very well. he set to work, and understanding as you do a certain quality of the chameleon in mr. brumley's moral nature, you will understand that he worked through a considerable variety of moods. sometimes he worked with disinterested passion and sometimes he was greatly sustained by this thought that here was something that would weave him in with the gravities of her life and give him perhaps a new inlet to intimacy. and presently a third thing came to his help, and that was the discovery that the questions arising out of this attempt to realize the importance of those hostels, were in themselves very fascinating questions for an intelligent person. because before you have done with the business of the modern employé, you must, if you are an intelligent person, have taken a view of the whole vast process of social reorganization that began with the development of factory labour and big towns, and which is even now scarcely advanced enough for us to see its general trend. for a time mr. brumley did not realize the magnitude of the thing he was looking at; when he did, theories sprouted in his mind like mushrooms and he babbled with mental excitement. he came in a state of the utmost lucidity to explain his theories to lady harman, and they struck that lady at the time as being the most illuminating suggestions she had ever encountered. they threw an appearance of order, of process, over a world of trade and employment and competition that had hitherto seemed too complex and mysterious for any understanding. "you see," said mr. brumley--they had met that day in kensington gardens and they were sitting side by side upon green chairs near the frozen writings of physical energy--"you see, if i may lecture a little, putting the thing as simply as possible, the world has been filling up new spaces ever since the discovery of america; all the period from then to about , let us say, was a period of rapid increase of population in response to new opportunities of living and new fulnesses of life in every direction. during that time, four hundred years of it roughly, there was a huge development of family life; to marry and rear a quite considerable family became the chief business of everybody, celibacy grew rare, monasteries and nunneries which had abounded vanished like things dissolving in a flood and even the priests became protestant against celibacy and took unto themselves wives and had huge families. the natural checks upon increase, famine and pestilence, were lifted by more systematized communication and by scientific discovery; and altogether and as a consequence the world now has probably three or four times the human population it ever carried before. everywhere in that period the family prevailed again, the prospering multiplying household; it was a return to the family, to the reproductive social grouping of early barbaric life, and naturally all the thought of the modern world which has emerged since the fifteenth century falls into this form. so i see it, lady harman. the generation of our grandfathers in the opening nineteenth century had two shaping ideas, two forms of thought, the family and progress, not realizing that that very progress which had suddenly reopened the doors of opportunity for the family that had revived the ancient injunction to increase and multiply and replenish the earth, might presently close that door again and declare the world was filled. but that is what is happening now. the doors close. that immense swarming and multiplying of little people is over, and the forces of social organization have been coming into play now, more and more for a century and a half, to produce new wholesale ways of doing things, new great organizations, organizations that invade the autonomous family more and more, and are perhaps destined ultimately to destroy it altogether and supersede it. at least it is so i make my reading of history in these matters." "yes," said lady harman, with knitted brows, "yes," and wondered privately whether it would be possible to get from that opening to the matter of her hostels before it was time for her to return for sir isaac's tea. mr. brumley continued to talk with his eyes fixed as it were upon his thoughts. "these things, lady harman, go on at different paces in different regions. i will not trouble you with a discussion of that, or of emigration, of any of the details of the vast proliferation that preceded the present phase. suffice it, that now all the tendency is back towards restraints upon increase, to an increasing celibacy, to a fall in the birth-rate and in the average size of families, to--to a release of women from an entire devotion to a numerous offspring, and so at last to the supersession of those little family units that for four centuries have made up the substance of social life and determined nearly all our moral and sentimental attitudes. the autonomy of the family is being steadily destroyed, and it is being replaced by the autonomy of the individual in relation to some syndicated economic effort." "i think," said lady harman slowly, arresting him by a gesture, "if you could make that about autonomy a little clearer...." mr. brumley did. he went on to point out with the lucidity of a university extension lecturer what he meant by these singular phrases. she listened intelligently but with effort. he was much too intent upon getting the thing expressed to his own satisfaction to notice any absurdity in his preoccupation with these theories about the population of the world in the face of her immediate practical difficulties. he declared that the onset of this new phase in human life, the modern phase, wherein there was apparently to be no more "proliferating," but instead a settling down of population towards a stable equilibrium, became apparent first with the expropriation of the english peasantry and the birth of the factory system and machine production. "since that time one can trace a steady substitution of wholesale and collective methods for household and family methods. it has gone far with us now. instead of the woman drawing water from a well, the pipes and taps of the water company. instead of the home-made rushlight, the electric lamp. instead of home-spun, ready-made clothes. instead of home-brewed, the brewer's cask. instead of home-baked, first the little baker and then, clean and punctual, the international bread and cake stores. instead of the child learning at its mother's knee, the compulsory elementary school. flats take the place of separate houses. instead of the little holding, the big farm, and instead of the children working at home, the factory. everywhere synthesis. everywhere the little independent proprietor gives place to the company and the company to the trust. you follow all this, lady harman?" "go on," she said, encouraged by that transitory glimpse of the stores in his discourse. "now london--and england generally--had its period of expansion and got on to the beginnings at least of this period of synthesis that is following it, sooner than any other country in the world; and because it was the first to reach the new stage it developed the characteristics of the new stage with a stronger flavour of the old than did such later growths of civilization as new york or bombay or berlin. that is why london and our british big cities generally are congestions of little houses, little homes, while the newer great cities run to apartments and flats. we hadn't grasped the logical consequences of what we were in for so completely as the people abroad did who caught it later, and that is why, as we began to develop our new floating population of mainly celibate employees and childless people, they had mostly to go into lodgings, they went into the homes that were intended for families as accessories to the family, and they were able to go in because the families were no longer so numerous as they used to be. london is still largely a city of landladies and lodgings, and in no other part of the world is there so big a population of lodgers. and this business of your hostels is nothing more nor less than the beginning of the end of that. just as the great refreshment caterers have mopped up the ancient multitude of coffee-houses and squalid little special feeding arrangements of the days of tittlebat titmouse and dick swiveller, so now your hostels are going to mop up the lodging-house system of london. of course there are other and kindred movements. naturally. the y.w.c.a., the y.m.c.a., the london girls club union and so forth are all doing kindred work." "but what, mr. brumley, what is to become of the landladies?" asked lady harman. mr. brumley was checked in mid theory. "i hadn't thought of the landladies," he said, after a short pause. "they worry me," said lady harman. "um," said mr. brumley, thrown out. "do you know the other day i went into chelsea, where there are whole streets of lodgings, and--i suppose it was wrong of me, but i went and pretended to be looking for rooms for a girl clerk i knew, and i saw--oh! no end of rooms. and such poor old women, such dingy, worked-out, broken old women, with a kind of fearful sharpness, so eager, so dreadfully eager to get that girl clerk who didn't exist...." she looked at him with an expression of pained enquiry. "that," said mr. brumley, "that i think is a question, so to speak, for the social ambulance. if perhaps i might go on----that particular difficulty we might consider later. i think i was talking of the general synthesis." "yes," said lady harman. "and what is it exactly that is to take the place of these isolated little homes and these dreary little lodgings? here are we, my husband and i, rushing in with this new thing, just as he rushed in with his stores thirty years ago and overset little bakers and confectioners and refreshment dealers by the hundred. some of them--poor dears--they----i don't like to think. and it wasn't a good thing he made after all,--only a hard sort of thing. he made all those shops of his--with the girls who strike and say they are sweated and driven.... and now here we are making a kind of barrack place for people to live in!" she expressed the rest of her ideas with a gesture of the hands. "i admit the process has its dangers," said mr. brumley. "it's like the supersession of the small holdings by the _latifundia_ in italy. but that's just where our great opportunity comes in. these synthetic phases have occurred before in the world's history and their history is a history of lost opportunities.... but need ours be?" she had a feeling as though something had slipped through her fingers. "i feel," she said, "that it is more important to me than anything else in life, that these hostels, anyhow, which are springing so rapidly from a chance suggestion of mine, shouldn't be lost opportunities." "exactly," said mr. brumley, with the gesture of one who recovers a thread. "that is just what i am driving at." the fingers of his extended hand felt in the warm afternoon air for a moment, and then he said "ah!" in a tone of recovery while she waited respectfully for the resumed thread. "you see," he said, "i regard this process of synthesis, this substitution of wholesale and collective methods for homely and individual ones as, under existing conditions, inevitable--inevitable. it's the phase we live in, it's to this we have to adapt ourselves. it is as little under your control or mine as the movement of the sun through the zodiac. practically, that is. and what we have to do is not, i think, to sigh for lost homes and the age of gold and spade husbandry, and pigs and hens in the home, and so on, but to make this new synthetic life tolerable for the mass of men and women, hopeful for the mass of men and women, a thing developing and ascending. that's where your hostels come in, lady harman; that's where they're so important. they're a pioneer movement. if they succeed--and things in sir isaac's hands have a way of succeeding at any rate to the paying point--then there'll be a headlong rush of imitations, imitating your good features, imitating your bad features, deepening a groove.... you see my point?" "yes," she said. "it makes me--more afraid than ever." "but hopeful," said mr. brumley, presuming to lay his hand for an instant on her arm. "it's big enough to be inspiring." "but i'm afraid," she said. "it's laying down the lines of a new social life--no less. and what makes it so strange, so typical, too, of the way social forces work nowadays, is that your husband, who has all the instinctive insistence upon every right and restriction of the family relation in his private life, who is narrowly, passionately _for_ the home in his own case, who hates all books and discussion that seem to touch it, should in his business activities be striking this tremendous new blow at the ancient organization. for that, you see, is what it amounts to." "yes," said lady harman slowly. "yes. of course, he doesn't know...." mr. brumley was silent for a little while. "you see," he resumed, "at the worst this new social life may become a sort of slavery in barracks; at the best--it might become something very wonderful. my mind's been busy now for days thinking just how wonderful the new life might be. instead of the old bickering, crowded family home, a new home of comrades...." he made another pause, and his thoughts ran off upon a fresh track. "in looking up all these things i came upon a queer little literature of pamphlets and so forth, dealing with the case of the shop assistants. they have a great grievance in what they call the living-in system. the employers herd them in dormitories over the shops, and usually feed them by gaslight in the basements; they fine them and keep an almost intolerable grip upon them; make them go to bed at half-past ten, make them go to church on sundays,--all sorts of petty tyrannies. the assistants are passionately against this, but they've got no power to strike. where could they go if they struck? into the street. only people who live out and have homes of their own to sulk in _can_ strike. naturally, therefore, as a preliminary to any other improvement in the shop assistant's life, these young people want to live out. practically that's an impossible demand at present, because they couldn't get lodgings and live out with any decency at all on what it costs their employers to lodge and feed them _in_. well, here you see a curious possibility for your hostels. you open the prospect of a living-out system for shop assistants. but just in the degree in which you choose to interfere with them, regulate them, bully and deal with them wholesale through their employers, do you make the new living-out method approximate to the living-in. _that's_ a curious side development, isn't it?" lady harman appreciated that. "that's only the beginning of the business. there's something more these hostels might touch...." mr. brumley gathered himself together for the new aspect. "there's marriage," he said. "one of the most interesting and unsatisfactory aspects of the life of the employee to-day--and you know the employee is now in the majority in the adult population--is this. you see, we hold them celibate. we hold them celibate for a longer and longer period; the average age at marriage rises steadily; and so long as they remain celibate we are prepared with some sort of ideas about the future development of their social life, clubs, hostels, living-in, and so forth. but at present we haven't any ideas at all about the adaptation of the natural pairing instinct to the new state of affairs. ultimately the employee marries; they hold out as long as they possibly can, but ultimately they have to. they have to, even in the face of an economic system that holds out no prospects of anything but insecurity and an increasing chance of trouble and disaster to the employee's family group. what happens is that they drop back into a distressful, crippled, insecure imitation of the old family life as one had it in what i might call the multiplying periods of history. they start a home,--they dream of a cottage, but they drift to a lodging, and usually it isn't the best sort of lodging, for landladies hate wives and the other lodgers detest babies. often the young couple doesn't have babies. you see, they are more intelligent than peasants, and intelligence and fecundity vary reciprocally," said mr. brumley. "you mean?" interrupted lady harman softly. "there is a world-wide fall in the birth-rate. people don't have the families they did." "yes," said lady harman. "i understand now." "and the more prosperous or the more sanguine take these suburban little houses, these hutches that make such places as hendon nightmares of monotony, or go into ridiculous jerry-built sham cottages in some garden suburb, where each young wife does her own housework and pretends to like it. they have a sort of happiness for a time, i suppose; the woman stops all outside work, the man, very much handicapped, goes on competing against single men. then--nothing more happens. except difficulties. the world goes dull and grey for them. they look about for a lodger, perhaps. have you read gissing's _paying guest_?..." "i suppose," said lady harman, "i suppose it is like that. one tries not to think it is so." "one needn't let oneself believe that dullness is unhappiness," said mr. brumley. "i don't want to paint things sadder than they are. but it's not a fine life, it's not a full life, that life in a neo-malthusian suburban hutch." "neo----?" asked lady harman. "a mere phrase," said mr. brumley hastily. "the extraordinary thing is that, until you set me looking into these things with your questions, i've always taken this sort of thing for granted, as though it couldn't be otherwise. now i seem to see with a kind of freshness. i'm astounded at the muddle of it, the waste and aimlessness of it. and here again it is, lady harman, that i think your opportunity comes in. with these hostels as they might be projected now, you seem to have the possibility of a modernized, more collective and civilized family life than the old close congestion of the single home, and i see no reason at all why you shouldn't carry that collective life on to the married stage. as things are now these little communities don't go beyond the pairing--and out they drift to find the homestead they will never possess. what has been borne in upon me more and more forcibly as i have gone through your--your nest of problems, is the idea that the new social--association, that has so extensively replaced the old family group, might be carried on right through life, that it might work in with all sorts of other discontents and bad adjustments.... the life of the women in these little childless or one-or-two-child homes is more unsatisfactory even than the man's." mr. brumley's face flushed with enthusiasm and he wagged a finger to emphasize his words. "why not make hostels, lady harman, for married couples? why not try that experiment so many people have talked about of the conjoint kitchen and refectory, the conjoint nursery, the collective social life, so that the children who are single children or at best children in small families of two or three, may have the advantages of playfellows, and the young mothers still, if they choose, continue to have a social existence and go on with their professional or business, work? that's the next step your hostels might take ... incidentally you see this opens a way to a life of relative freedom for the woman who is married.... i don't know if you have read mrs. stetson. yes, charlotte perkins gilman stetson.... yes, _woman and economics_, that's the book. "i know," mr. brumley went on, "i seem to be opening out your project like a concertina, but i want you to see just how my thoughts have been going about all this. i want you to realize i haven't been idle during these last few weeks. i know it's a far cry from what the hostels are to all these ideas of what they might begin to be, i know the difficulties in your way--all sorts of difficulties. but when i think just how you stand at the very centre of the moulding forces in these changes...." he dropped into an eloquent silence. lady harman looked thoughtfully at the sunlight under the trees. "you think," she said, "that it comes to as much as all this." "more," said mr. brumley. "i was frightened before. _now_----you make me feel as though someone had put the wheel of a motor car in my hand, started it and told me to steer...." § lady harman went home from that talk in a taxi, and on the way she passed the building operations in kensington road. a few weeks ago it had been a mere dusty field of operation for the house-wreckers; now its walls were already rising to the second storey. she realized how swiftly nowadays the search for wisdom can be outstripped by reinforced concrete. § it was only by slow degrees and rather in the absence of a more commanding interest than through any invincible quality in their appeal to her mind that these hostels became in the next three years the grave occupation of lady harman's thoughts and energies. she yielded to them reluctantly. for a long time she wanted to look over them and past them and discover something--she did not know what--something high and domineering to which it would be easy to give herself. it was difficult to give herself to the hostels. in that mr. brumley, actuated by a mixture of more or less admirable motives, did his best to assist her. these hostels alone he thought could give them something upon which they could meet, give them a common interest and him a method of service and companionship. it threw the qualities of duty and justification over their more or less furtive meetings, their little expeditions together, their quiet frequent association. together they made studies of the girls' clubs which are scattered about london, supplementary homes that have in such places as walworth and soho worked small miracles of civilization. these institutions appealed to a lower social level than the one their hostels were to touch, but they had been organized by capable and understanding minds and lady harman found in one or two of their evening dances and in the lunch she shared one morning with a row of cheerful young factory girls from soho just that quality of concrete realization for which her mind hungered. then mr. brumley took her once or twice for evening walks, just when the stream of workers is going home; he battled his way with her along the footpath of charing cross railway bridge from the waterloo side, they swam in the mild evening sunshine of september against a trampling torrent of bobbing heads, and afterwards they had tea together in one of the international stores near the strand, where mr. brumley made an unsuccessful attempt to draw out the waitress on the subject of babs wheeler and the recent strike. the young woman might have talked freely to a man alone or freely to lady harman alone but the combination of the two made her shy. the bridge experience led to several other expeditions, to see home-going on the tube, at the big railway termini, on the train--and once they followed up the process to streatham and saw how the people pour out of the train at last and scatter--until at last they are just isolated individuals running up steps, diving into basements. and then it occurred to mr. brumley that he knew someone who would take them over "gerrard," that huge telephone exchange, and there lady harman saw how the national telephone company, as it was in those days, had a care for its staff, the pleasant club rooms, the rest room, and stood in that queer rendez-vous of messages, where the "hello" girl sits all day, wearing a strange metallic apparatus over ear and mouth, watching small lights that wink significantly at her and perpetually pulling out and slipping in and releasing little flexible strings that seem to have a resilient volition of their own. they hunted out mrs. barnet and heard her ideas about conjoint homes for spinsters in the garden suburb. and then they went over a training college for elementary teachers and visited the post office and then came back to more unobtrusive contemplation, from the customer's little table, of the ministering personalities of the international stores. there were times when all these things seen, seemed to fall into an entirely explicable system under mr. brumley's exposition, when they seemed to be giving and most generously giving the clearest indications of what kind of thing the hostels had to be, and times when this all vanished again and her mind became confused and perplexed. she tried to express just what it was she missed to mr. brumley. "one doesn't," she said, "see all of them and what one sees isn't what we have to do with. i mean we see them dressed up and respectable and busy and then they go home and the door shuts. it's the home that we are going to alter and replace--and what is it like?" mr. brumley took her for walks in highbury and the newer parts of hendon and over to clapham. "i want to go inside those doors," she said. "that's just what they won't let you do," said mr. brumley. "nobody visits but relations--and prospective relations, and the only other social intercourse is over the garden wall. perhaps i can find books----" he got her novels by edwin pugh and pett ridge and frank swinnerton and george gissing. they didn't seem to be attractive homes. and it seemed remarkable to her that no woman had ever given the woman's view of the small london home from the inside.... she overcame her own finer scruples and invaded the burnet household. apart from fresh aspects of susan's character in the capacity of a hostess she gained little light from that. she had never felt so completely outside a home in her life as she did when she was in the burnets' parlour. the very tablecloth on which the tea was spread had an air of being new and protective of familiar things; the tea was manifestly quite unlike their customary tea, it was no more intimate than the confectioner's shop window from which it mostly came; the whole room was full of the muffled cries of things hastily covered up and specially put away. vivid oblongs on the faded wallpaper betrayed even a rearrangement of the pictures. susan's mother was a little dingy woman, wearing a very smart new cap to the best of her ability; she had an air of having been severely shaken up and admonished, and her general bearing confessed only too plainly how shattered those preparations had left her. she watched her capable daughter for cues. susan's sisters displayed a disposition to keep their backs against something and at the earliest opportunity to get into the passage and leave susan and her tremendous visitor alone but within earshot. they started convulsively when they were addressed and insisted on "your ladyship." susan had told them not to but they would. when they supposed themselves to be unobserved they gave themselves up to the impassioned inspection of lady harman's costume. luke had fled into the street, and in spite of various messages conveyed to him by the youngest sister he refused to enter until lady harman had gone again and was well out of the way. and susan was no longer garrulous and at her ease; she had no pins in her mouth and that perhaps hampered her speech; she presided flushed and bright-eyed in a state of infectious nervous tension. her politeness was awful. never in all her life had lady harman felt her own lack of real conversational power so acutely. she couldn't think of a thing that mightn't be construed as an impertinence and that didn't remind her of district visiting. yet perhaps she succeeded better than she supposed. "what a family you have had!" she said to mrs. burnet. "i have four little girls, and i find them as much as we can manage." "you're young yet, my ladyship," said mrs. burnet, "and they aren't always the blessings they seem to be. it's the rearing's the difficulty." "they're all such healthy-looking--people." "i wish we could get hold of luke, my ladyship, and show you _'im_. he's that sturdy. and yet when 'e was a little feller----" she was launched for a time on those details that were always so dear to the mothers of the past order of things. her little spate of reminiscences was the only interlude of naturalness in an afternoon of painfully constrained behaviour.... lady harman returned a trifle shamefacedly from this abortive dip into realities to mr. brumley's speculative assurance. § while lady harman was slowly accustoming her mind to this idea that the development of those hostels was her appointed career in life, so far as a wife may have a career outside her connubial duties, and while she was getting insensibly to believe in mr. brumley's theory of their exemplary social importance, the hostels themselves with a haste that she felt constantly was premature, were achieving a concrete existence. they were developing upon lines that here and there disregarded mr. brumley's ideas very widely; they gained in practicality what perhaps they lost in social value, through the entirely indirect relations between mr. brumley on the one hand and sir isaac on the other. for sir isaac manifestly did not consider and would have been altogether indisposed to consider mr. brumley as entitled to plan or suggest anything of the slightest importance in this affair, and whatever of mr. brumley reached that gentleman reached him in a very carefully transmitted form as lady harman's own unaided idea. sir isaac had sound victorian ideas about the place of literature in life. if anyone had suggested to him that literature could supply ideas to practical men he would have had a choking fit, and he regarded mr. brumley's sedulous attentions to these hostel schemes with feelings, the kindlier elements of whose admixture was a belief that ultimately he would write some elegant and respectful approval of the established undertaking. the entire admixture of sir isaac's feelings towards mr. brumley was by no means kindly. he disliked any man to come near lady harman, any man at all; he had a faint uneasiness even about waiters and hotel porters and the clergy. of course he had agreed she should have friends of her own and he couldn't very well rescind that without something definite to go upon. but still this persistent follower kept him uneasy. he kept this uneasiness within bounds by reassuring himself upon the point of lady harman's virtuous obedience, and so reassured he was able to temper his distrust with a certain contempt. the man was in love with his wife; that was manifest enough, and dangled after her.... let him dangle. what after all did he get for it?... but occasionally he broke through this complacency, betrayed a fitful ingenious jealousy, interfered so that she missed appointments and had to break engagements. he was now more and more a being of pathological moods. the subtle changes of secretion that were hardening his arteries, tightening his breath and poisoning his blood, reflected themselves upon his spirit in an uncertainty of temper and exasperating fatigues and led to startling outbreaks. then for a time he would readjust himself, become in his manner reasonable again, become accessible. he was the medium through which this vision that was growing up in her mind of a reorganized social life, had to translate itself, as much as it could ever translate itself, into reality. he called these hostels her hostels, made her the approver of all he did, but he kept every particle of control in his own hands. all her ideas and desires had to be realized by him. and his attitudes varied with his moods; sometimes he was keenly interested in the work of organization and then he terrified her by his bias towards acute economies, sometimes he was resentful at the burthen of the whole thing, sometimes he seemed to scent brumley or at least some moral influence behind her mind and met her suggestions with a bitter resentment as though any suggestion must needs be a disloyalty to him. there was a remarkable outbreak upon her first tentative proposal that the hostel system might ultimately be extended to married couples. he heard her with his lips pressing tighter and tighter together until they were yellow white and creased with a hundred wicked little horizontal creases. then he interrupted her with silent gesticulations. then words came. "i never did, elly," he said. "i never did. reely--there are times when you ain't rational. married couples who're assistants in shops and places!" for a little while he sought some adequate expression of his point of view. "nice thing to go keeping a place for these chaps to have their cheap bits of skirt in," he said at last. then further: "if a man wants a girl let him work himself up until he can keep her. married couples indeed!" he began to expand the possibilities of the case with a quite unusual vividness. "double beds in each cubicle, i suppose," he said, and played for a time about this fancy.... "well, to hear such an idea from you of all people, elly. i never did." he couldn't leave it alone. he had to go on to the bitter end with the vision she had evoked in his mind. he was jealous, passionately jealous, it was only too manifest, of the possible happinesses of these young people. he was possessed by that instinctive hatred for the realized love of others which lies at the base of so much of our moral legislation. the bare thought--whole corridors of bridal chambers!--made his face white and his hand quiver. _his_ young men and young women! the fires of a hundred vigilance committees blazed suddenly in his reddened eyes. he might have been a concentrated society for preventing the rapid multiplication of the unfit. the idea of facilitating early marriages was manifestly shameful to him, a disgraceful service to render, a job for pandarus. what was she thinking of? elly of all people! elly who had been as innocent as driven snow before georgina came interfering! it ended in a fit of abuse and a panting seizure, and for a day or so he was too ill to resume the discussion, to do more than indicate a disgusted aloofness.... and then it may be the obscure chemicals at work within him changed their phase of reaction. at any rate he mended, became gentler, was more loving to his wife than he had been for some time and astonished her by saying that if she wanted hostels for married couples, it wasn't perhaps so entirely unreasonable. selected cases, he stipulated, it would have to be and above a certain age limit, sober people. "it might even be a check on immorality," he said, "properly managed...." but that was as far as his acquiescence went and lady harman was destined to be a widow before she saw the foundation of any hostel for young married couples in london. § the reinforced concrete rose steadily amidst lady harman's questionings and mr. brumley's speculations. the harmans returned from a recuperative visit to kissingen, to which sir isaac had gone because of a suspicion that his marienbad specialist had failed to cure him completely in order to get him back again, to find the first of the five hostels nearly ripe for its opening. there had to be a manageress and a staff organized and neither lady harman nor mr. brumley were prepared for that sort of business. a number of abler people however had become aware of the opportunities of the new development and mrs. hubert plessington, that busy publicist, got the harmans to a helpful little dinner, before lady harman had the slightest suspicion of the needs that were now so urgent. there shone a neat compact widow, a mrs. pembrose, who had buried her husband some eighteen months ago after studying social questions with him with great éclat for ten happy years, and she had done settlement work and girls' club work and had perhaps more power of organization--given a suitable director to provide for her lack of creativeness, mrs. plessington told sir isaac, than any other woman in london. afterwards sir isaac had an opportunity of talking to her; he discussed the suffrage movement with her and was pleased to find her views remarkably sympathetic with his own. she was, he declared, a sensible woman, anxious to hear a man out and capable, it was evident, of a detachment from feminist particularism rare in her sex at the present time. lady harman had seen less of the lady that evening, she was chiefly struck by her pallor, by a kind of animated silence about her, and by the deep impression her capabilities had made on mr. plessington, who had hitherto seemed to her to be altogether too overworked in admiring his wife to perceive the points of any other human being. afterwards lady harman was surprised to hear from one or two quite separate people that mrs. pembrose was the only possible person to act as general director of the new hostels. lady beach-mandarin was so enthusiastic in the matter that she made a special call. "you've known her a long time?" said lady harman. "long enough to see what a chance she is!" said lady beach-mandarin. lady harman perceived equivocation. "now how long is that really?" she said. "count not in years, nor yet in moments on a dial," said lady beach-mandarin with a fine air of quotation. "i'm thinking of her quiet strength of character. mrs. plessington brought her round to see me the other afternoon." "did she talk to you?" "i saw, my dear, i saw." a vague aversion from mrs. pembrose was in some mysterious way strengthened in lady harman by this extraordinary convergence of testimony. when sir isaac mentioned the lady with a kind of forced casualness at breakfast as the only conceivable person for the work of initiation and organization that lay before them, lady harman determined to see more of her. with a quickened subtlety she asked her to tea. "i have heard so much of your knowledge of social questions and i want you to advise me about my work," she wrote, and then scribbled a note to mr. brumley to call and help her judgments. mrs. pembrose appeared dressed in dove colour with a near bonnetesque straw hat to match. she had a pale slightly freckled complexion, little hard blue-grey eyes with that sort of nose which redeems a squarish shape by a certain delicacy of structure; her chin was long and protruding and her voice had a wooden resonance and a ghost of a lisp. her talk had a false consecutiveness due to the frequent use of the word "yes." her bearing was erect and her manner guardedly alert. from the first she betrayed a conviction that mr. brumley was incidental and unnecessary and that her real interest lay with sir isaac. she might almost have been in possession of special information upon that point. "yes," she said, "i'm rather specially _up_ in this sort of question. i worked side by side with my poor frederick all his life, we were collaborators, and this question of the urban distributive employee was one of his special studies. yes, he would have been tremendously interested in sir isaac's project." "you know what we are doing?" "every one is interested in sir isaac's enterprise. naturally. yes, i think i have a fairly good idea of what you mean to do. it's a great experiment." "you think it is likely to answer?" said mr. brumley. "in sir isaac's hands it is _very_ likely to answer," said mrs. pembrose with her eye steadily on lady harman. there was a little pause. "yes, now you wrote of difficulties and drawing upon my experience. of course just now i'm quite at sir isaac's disposal." lady harman found herself thrust perforce into the rôle of her husband's spokeswoman. she asked mrs. pembrose if she knew the exact nature of the experiment they contemplated. mrs. pembrose hadn't a doubt she knew. of course for a long time and more especially in the metropolis where the distances were so great and increasing so rapidly, there had been a gathering feeling not only in the catering trade, but in very many factory industries, against the daily journey to employment and home again. it was irksome and wasteful to everyone concerned, there was a great loss in control, later hours of beginning, uncertain service. "yes, my husband calculated the hours lost in london every week, hours that are neither work nor play, mere tiresome stuffy journeying. it made an enormous sum. it worked out at hundreds of working lives per week." sir isaac's project was to abolish all that, to bring his staff into line with the drapers and grocers who kept their assistants on the living-in system.... "i thought people objected to the living-in system," said mr. brumley. "there's an agitation against it on the part of a small trade union of shop assistants," said mrs. pembrose. "but they have no real alternative to propose." "and this isn't living in," said mr. brumley. "yes, i think you'll find it is," said mrs. pembrose with a nice little expert smile. "living-in isn't _quite_ what we want," said lady harman slowly and with knitted brows, seeking a method of saying just what the difference was to be. "yes, not perhaps in the strictest sense," said mrs. pembrose giving her no chance, and went on to make fine distinctions. strictly speaking, living-in meant sleeping over the shop and eating underneath it, and this hostel idea was an affair of a separate house and of occupants who would be assistants from a number of shops. "yes, collectivism, if you like," said mrs. pembrose. but the word collectivism, she assured them, wouldn't frighten her, she was a collectivist, a socialist, as her husband had always been. the day was past when socialist could be used as a term of reproach. "yes, instead of the individual employer of labour, we already begin to have the collective employer of labour, with a labour bureau--and so on. we share them. we no longer compete for them. it's the keynote of the time." mr. brumley followed this with a lifted eyebrow. he was still new to these modern developments of collectivist ideas, this socialism of the employer. the whole thing mrs. pembrose declared was a step forward in civilization, it was a step in the organization and discipline of labour. of course the unruly and the insubordinate would cry out. but the benefits were plain enough, space, light, baths, association, reasonable recreations, opportunities for improvement---- "but freedom?" said mr. brumley. mrs. pembrose inclined her head a little on one side, looked at him this time and smiled the expert smile again. "if you knew as much as i do of the difficulties of social work," she said, "you wouldn't be very much in love with freedom." "but--it's the very substance of the soul!" "you must permit me to differ," said mrs. pembrose, and for weeks afterwards mr. brumley was still seeking a proper polite retort to that difficult counterstroke. it was such a featureless reply. it was like having your nose punched suddenly by a man without a face. they descended to a more particular treatment of the problems ahead. mrs. pembrose quoted certain precedents from the girls' club union. "the people lady harman contemplates--entertaining," said mr. brumley, "are of a slightly more self-respecting type than those young women." "it's largely veneer," said mrs. pembrose.... "detestable little wretch," said mr. brumley when at last she had departed. he was very uncomfortable. "she's just the quintessence of all one fears and dreads about these new developments, she's perfect--in that way--self-confident, arrogant, instinctively aggressive, with a tremendous class contempt. there's a multitude of such people about who hate the employed classes, who _want_ to see them broken in and subjugated. i suppose that kind of thing is in humanity. every boy's school has louts of that kind, who love to torment fags for their own good, who spring upon a chance smut on the face of a little boy to scrub him painfully, who have a kind of lust to dominate under the pretence of improving. i remember----but never mind that now. keep that woman out of things or your hostels work for the devil." "yes," said lady harman. "certainly she shall not----. no." but there she reckoned without her husband. "i've settled it," he said to her at dinner two nights later. "what?" "mrs. pembrose." "you've not made her----?" "yes, i have. and i think we're very lucky to get her." "but--isaac! i don't want her!" "you should have told me that before, elly. i've made an agreement." she suddenly wanted to cry. "but----you said i should manage these hostels myself." "so you shall, elly. but we must have somebody. when we go abroad and all that and for all the sort of business stuff and looking after things that you can't do. we've _got_ to have her. she's the only thing going of her sort." "but--i don't like her." "well," cried sir isaac, "why in goodness couldn't you tell me that before, elly? i've been and engaged her." she sat pale-faced staring at him with wide open eyes in which tears of acute disappointment were shining. she did not dare another word because of her trick of weeping. "it's all right, elly," said sir isaac. "how touchy you are! anything you want about these hostels of yours, you've only got to tell me and it's done." § lady harman was still in a state of amazement at the altered prospects of her hostels when the day arrived for the formal opening of the first of these in bloomsbury. they made a little public ceremony of it in spite of her reluctance, and mr. brumley had to witness things from out of the general crowd and realize just how completely he wasn't in it, in spite of all his efforts. mrs. pembrose was modestly conspicuous, like the unexpected in all human schemes. there were several reporters present, and horatio blenker who was going to make a loyal leader about it, to be followed by one or two special articles for the _old country gazette_. horatio had procured mrs. blapton for the opening after some ineffectual angling for the princess adeline, and the thing was done at half-past three in the afternoon. in the bright early july sunshine outside the new building there was a crimson carpet down on the pavement and an awning above it, there was a great display of dog-daisies at the windows and on the steps leading up to the locked portals, an increasing number of invited people lurked shyly in the ground-floor rooms ready to come out by the back way and cluster expectantly when mrs. blapton arrived, graper the staff manager and two assistants in dazzling silk hats seemed everywhere, the rabbit-like architect had tried to look doggish in a huge black silk tie and only looked more like a rabbit than ever, and there was a steady driftage of small boys and girls, nurses with perambulators, cab touts, airing grandfathers and similar unemployed people towards the promise of the awning, the carpet and the flowers. the square building in all its bravery of doulton ware and yellow and mauve tiles and its great gilt inscription international hostels above the windows of the second storey seemed typical of all those modern forces that are now invading and dispelling the ancient residential peace of bloomsbury. mrs. blapton appeared only five minutes late, escorted by bertie trevor and her husband's spare secretary. graper became so active at the sight of her that he seemed more like some beast out of the apocalypse with seven hands and ten hats than a normal human being; he marshalled the significant figures into their places, the door was unlocked without serious difficulty, and lady harman found herself in the main corridor beside mr. trevor and a little behind mrs. blapton, engaged in being shown over the new creation. sir isaac (driven by graper at his elbow) was in immediate attendance on the great political lady, and mrs. pembrose, already with an air of proprietorship, explained glibly on her other hand. close behind lady harman came lady beach-mandarin, expanding like an appreciative gas in a fine endeavour to nestle happily into the whole big place, and with her were mrs. hubert plessington and mr. pope, one of those odd people who are called publicists because one must call them something, and who take chairs and political sides and are vice-presidents of everything and organize philanthropies, write letters to the papers and cannot let the occasion pass without saying a few words and generally prevent the institutions of this country from falling out of human attention. he was a little abstracted in his manner, every now and then his lips moved as he imagined a fresh turn to some classic platitude; anyone who knew him might have foretold the speech into which he presently broke. he did this in the refectory where there was a convenient step up at the end. beginning with the customary confession of incontinence, "could not let the occasion pass," he declared that he would not detain them long, but he felt that everyone there would agree with him that they shared that day in no slight occasion, no mean enterprise, that here was one of the most promising, one of the most momentous, nay! he would go further and add with due deference to them all, one of the most pregnant of social experiments in modern social work. in the past he had himself--if he might for a moment allow a personal note to creep into his observations, he himself had not been unconnected with industrial development.--(querulous voice, "who the devil is that?" and whispered explanations on the part of horatio blenker; "pope--very good man--east purblow experiment--payment in kind instead of wages--yes.").... lady harman ceased to listen to mr. pope's strained but not unhappy tenor. she had heard him before, and she had heard his like endlessly. he was the larger moiety of every public meeting she had ever attended. she had ceased even to marvel at the dull self-satisfaction that possessed him. to-day her capacity for marvelling was entirely taken up by the details of this extraordinary reality which had sprung from her dream of simple, kindly, beautiful homes for distressed and overworked young women; nothing in the whole of life had been so amazing since that lurid occasion when she had been the agonized vehicle for the entry of miss millicent harman upon this terrestrial scene. it was all so entirely what she could never have thought possible. a few words from other speakers followed, mrs. blapton, with the young secretary at hand to prompt, said something, and sir isaac was poked forwards to say, "thank you very much. it's all my wife's doing, really.... oh dash it! thank you very much." it had the effect of being the last vestige of some more elaborate piece of eloquence that had suddenly disintegrated in his mind. "and now, elly," he said, as their landaulette took them home, "you're beginning to have your hostels." "then they _are_ my hostels?" she asked abruptly. "didn't i say they were?" the satisfaction of his face was qualified by that fatigued irritability that nowadays always followed any exertion or excitement. "if i want things done? if i want things altered?" "of course you may, of course you may. what's the matter with you, elly? what's been putting ideers into your head? you got to have a directress to the thing; you must have a woman of education who knows a bit about things to look after the matrons and so on. very likely she isn't everything you want. she's the only one we could get, and i don't see----. here i go and work hard for a year and more getting these things together to please you, and then suddenly you don't like 'em. there's a lot of the spoilt child in you, elly--first and last. there they are...." they were silent for the rest of the journey to putney, both being filled with incommunicable things. § and now lady harman began to share the trouble of all those who let their minds pass out of the circle of their immediate affections with any other desire save interest and pleasure. assisted in this unhappy development by the sedulous suggestions of mr. brumley she had begun to offend against the most sacred law in our sensible british code, she was beginning to take herself and her hostels seriously, and think that it mattered how she worked for them and what they became. she tried to give all the attention her children's upbringing, her husband's ailments and the general demands of her household left free, to this complex, elusive, puzzling and worrying matter. instead of thinking that these hostels were just old hostels and that you start them and put in a mrs. pembrose and feel very benevolent and happy and go away, she had come to realize partly by dint of her own conscientious thinking and partly through mr. brumley's strenuous resolve that she should not take sir isaac's gift horse without the most exhaustive examination of its quality, that this new work, like most new things in human life, was capable not only of admirable but of altogether detestable consequences, and that it rested with her far more than with any other human being to realize the former and avoid the latter. and directly one has got to this critical pose towards things, just as one ceases to be content with things anyhow and to want them precisely somehow, one begins to realize just how intractable, confused and disingenuous are human affairs. mr. brumley had made himself see and had made her see how inevitable these big wholesale ways of doing things, these organizations and close social co-operations, have become unless there is to be a social disintegration and set back, and he had also brought himself and her to realize how easily they may develop into a new servitude, how high and difficult is the way towards methods of association that will ensure freedom and permit people to live fine individual lives. every step towards organization raises a crop of vices peculiar to itself, fresh developments of the egotism and greed and vanity of those into whose hands there falls control, fresh instances of that hostile pedantry which seems so natural to officials and managers, insurgencies and obstinacies and suspicions on the part of everyone. the poor lady had supposed that when one's intentions were obviously benevolent everyone helped. she only faced the realities of this task that she had not so much set for herself as had happened to her, after dreadful phases of disillusionment and dismay. "these hostels," said mr. brumley in his most prophetic mood, "can be made free, fine things--or no--just as all the world of men we are living in, could be made a free, fine world. and it's our place to see they are that. it's just by being generous and giving ourselves, helping without enslaving, and giving without exacting gratitude, planning and protecting with infinite care, that we bring that world nearer.... since i've known you i've come to know such things are possible...." the bloomsbury hostel started upon its career with an embarrassing difficulty. the young women of the international stores refreshment departments for whom these institutions were primarily intended displayed what looked extremely like a concerted indisposition to come in. they had been circularized and informed that henceforth, to ensure the "good social tone" of the staff, all girls not living at home with their parents or close relations would be expected to reside in the new hostels. there followed an attractive account of the advantages of the new establishment. in drawing up this circular with the advice of mrs. pembrose, sir isaac had overlooked the fact that his management was very imperfectly informed just where the girls did live, and that after its issue it was very improbable that it would be possible to find out this very necessary fact. but the girls seemed to be unaware of this ignorance at headquarters, miss babs wheeler was beginning to feel a little bored by good behaviour and crave for those dramatic cessations at the lunch hour, those speeches, with cheers, from a table top, those interviews with reporters, those flushed and eager councils of war and all the rest of that good old crisis feeling that had previously ended so happily. mr. graper came to his proprietor headlong, mrs. pembrose was summoned and together they contemplated the lamentable possibility of this great social benefit they had done the world being discredited at the outset by a strike of the proposed beneficiaries. sir isaac fell into a state of vindictiveness and was with difficulty restrained by mr. graper from immediately concluding the negotiations that were pending with three great oxford street firms that would have given over the hostels to their employees and closed them against the international girls for ever. even mrs. pembrose couldn't follow sir isaac in that, and remarked: "as i understand it, the whole intention was to provide proper housing for our own people first and foremost." "and haven't we provided it, _damn_ them?" said sir isaac in white desperation.... it was lady harman who steered the newly launched institutions through these first entanglements. it was her first important advantage in the struggle that had hitherto been going relentlessly against her. she now displayed her peculiar gift, a gift that indeed is unhappily all too rare among philanthropists, the gift of not being able to classify the people with whom she was dealing, but of continuing to regard them as a multitude of individualized souls as distinct and considerable as herself. that makes no doubt for slowness and "inefficiency" and complexity in organization, but it does make for understandings. and now, through a little talk with susan burnet about her sister's attitude upon the dispute, she was able to take the whole situation in the flank. like many people who are not easily clear, lady harman when she was clear acted with very considerable decision, which was perhaps none the less effective because of the large softnesses of her manner. she surprised sir isaac by coming of her own accord into his study, where with an altogether novel disfavour he sat contemplating the detailed plans for the sydenham hostel. "i think i've found out what the trouble is," she said. "what trouble?" "about my hostel." "how do you know?" "i've been finding out what the girls are saying." "they'd say anything." "i don't think they're clever enough for that," said lady harman after consideration. she recovered her thread. "you see, isaac, they've been frightened by the rules. i didn't know you had printed a set of rules." "one must _have_ rules, elly." "in the background," she decided. "but you see these rules--were made conspicuous. they were printed in two colours on wall cards just exactly like that list of rules and scale of fines you had to withdraw----" "i know," said sir isaac, shortly. "it reminded the girls. and that circular that seems to threaten them if they don't give up their lodgings and come in. and the way the front is got up to look just exactly like one of the refreshment-room branches--it makes them feel it will be un-homelike, and that there will be a kind of repetition in the evening of all the discipline and regulations they have to put up with during the day." "have to put up with!" murmured sir isaac. "i wish that had been thought of sooner. if we had made the places look a little more ordinary and called them osborne house or something a little old-fashioned like that, something with a touch of the old queen about it and all that kind of thing." "we can't go to the expense of taking down all those big gilt letters just to please the fancies of miss babs wheeler." "it's too late now to do that, perhaps. but we could do something, i think, to remove the suspicions ... i want, isaac----i think----" she pulled herself together to announce her determination. "i think if i were to go to the girls and meet a delegation of them, and just talk to them plainly about what we mean by this hostel." "_you_ can't go making speeches." "it would just be talking to them." "it's such a come down," said sir isaac, after a momentary contemplation of the possibility. for some time they talked without getting very far from these positions they had assumed. at last sir isaac shifted back upon his expert. "can't we talk about it to mrs. pembrose? she knows more about this sort of business than we do." "i'm not going to talk to mrs. pembrose," said lady harman, after a little interval. some unusual quality in her quiet voice made sir isaac lift his eyes to her face for a moment. so one saturday afternoon, lady harman had a meeting with a roomful of recalcitrant girls at the regent street refreshment branch, which looked very odd to her with grey cotton wrappers over everything and its blinds down, and for the first time she came face to face with the people for whom almost in spite of herself she was working. it was a meeting summoned by the international branch of the national union of waitresses and miss babs wheeler and mr. graper were so to speak the north and south poles of the little group upon the improvised platform from which lady harman was to talk to the gathering. she would have liked the support of mr. brumley, but she couldn't contrive any unostentatious way of bringing him into the business without putting it upon a footing that would have involved the appearance of sir isaac and mrs. pembrose and--everybody. and essentially it wasn't to be everybody. it was to be a little talk. lady harman rather liked the appearance of miss babs wheeler, and met more than an answering approval in that insubordinate young woman's eye. miss wheeler was a minute swaggering person, much akimbo, with a little round blue-eyed innocent face that shone with delight at the lark of living. her three companions who were in the lobby with her to receive and usher in lady harman seemed just as young, but they were relatively unilluminated except by their manifest devotion to their leader. they displayed rather than concealed their opinion of her as a "dear" and a "fair wonder." and the meeting generally it seemed to her was a gathering of very human young women, rather restless, then agog to see her and her clothes, and then somehow allayed by her appearance and quite amiably attentive to what she had to say. a majority were young girls dressed with the cheap smartness of the suburbs, the rest were for the most part older and dingier, and here and there were dotted young ladies of a remarkable and questionable smartness. in the front row, full of shy recognitions and a little disguised by an unfamiliar hat was susan's sister alice. as lady harman had made up her mind that she was not going to deliver a speech she felt no diffidence in speaking. she was far too intent on her message to be embarrassed by any thought of the effect she was producing. she talked as she might have talked in one of her easier moods to mr. brumley. and as she talked it happened that miss babs wheeler and quite a number of the other girls present watched her face and fell in love with her. she began with her habitual prelude. "you see," she said, and stopped and began again. she wanted to tell them and with a clumsy simplicity she told them how these hostels had arisen out of her desire that they should have something better than the uncomfortable lodgings in which they lived. they weren't a business enterprise, but they weren't any sort of charity. "and i wanted them to be the sort of place in which you would feel quite free. i hadn't any sort of intention of having you interfered with. i hate being interfered with myself, and i understand just as well as anyone can that you don't like it either. i wanted these hostels to be the sort of place that you might perhaps after a time almost manage and run for yourselves. you might have a committee or something.... only you know it isn't always easy to do as one wants. things don't always go in this world as one wants them to go--particularly if one isn't clever." she lost herself for a moment at that point, and then went on to say she didn't like the new rules. they had been drawn up in a hurry and she had only read them after they were printed. all sorts of things in them---- she seemed to be losing her theme again, and mr. graper handed her the offending card, a big varnished wall placard, with eyelets and tape complete. she glanced at it. for example, she said, it wasn't her idea to have fines. (great and long continued applause.) there was something she had always disliked about fines. (renewed applause.) but these rules could easily be torn up. and as she said this and as the meeting broke into acquiescence again it occurred to her that there was the card of rules in her hands, and nothing could be simpler than to tear it up there and then. it resisted her for a moment, she compressed her lips and then she had it in halves. this tearing was so satisfactory to her that she tore it again and then again. as she tore it, she had a pleasant irrational feeling that she was tearing mrs. pembrose. mr. graper's face betrayed his shocked feelings, and the meeting which had become charged with a strong desire to show how entirely it approved of her, made a crowning attempt at applause. they hammered umbrellas on the floor, they clapped hands, they rattled chairs and gave a shrill cheer. a chair was broken. "i wish," said lady harman when that storm had abated, "you'd come and look at the hostel. couldn't you come next saturday afternoon? we could have a stand-up tea and you could see the place and then afterwards your committee and i--and my husband--could make out a real set of rules...." she went on for some little time longer, she appealed to them with all the strength of her honest purpose to help her to make this possible good thing a real good thing, not to suspect, not to be hard on her--"and my husband"--not to make a difficult thing impossible, it was so easy to do that, and when she finished she was in the happiest possession of her meeting. they came thronging round her with flushed faces and bright eyes, they wanted to come near her, wanted to touch her, wanted to assure her that for her they were quite prepared to live in any kind of place. for her. "you come and talk to us, lady harman," said one; "_we'll_ show you." "nobody hasn't told us, lady harman, how these hostels were _yours_." "you come and talk to us again, lady harman." ... they didn't wait for the following saturday. on monday morning mrs. pembrose received thirty-seven applications to take up rooms. § for the next few years it was to be a matter of recurrent heart-searching for lady harman whether she had been profoundly wise or extremely foolish in tearing up that card of projected rules. at the time it seemed the most natural and obvious little action imaginable; it was long before she realized just how symbolical and determining a few movements of the hand and wrist can be. it fixed her line not so much for herself as for others. it put her definitely, much more definitely than her convictions warranted, on the side of freedom against discipline. for indeed her convictions like most of our convictions kept along a tortuous watershed between these two. it is only a few rare extravagant spirits who are wholly for the warp or wholly for the woof of human affairs. the girls applauded and loved her. at one stroke she had acquired the terrible liability of partisans. they made her their champion and sanction; she was responsible for an endless succession of difficulties that flowered out of their interpretations of her act. these hostels that had seemed passing out of her control, suddenly turned back upon her and took possession of her. and they were never simple difficulties. right and wrong refused to unravel for her; each side of every issue seemed to be so often in suicidal competition with its antagonist for the inferior case. if the forces of order and discipline showed themselves perennially harsh and narrow, it did not blind her perplexed eyes to the fact that the girls were frequently extremely naughty. she wished very often, she did so wish--they wouldn't be. they set out with a kind of eagerness for conflict. their very loyalty to her expressed itself not so much in any sustained attempt to make the hostels successful as in cheering inconveniently, in embarrassing declarations of a preference, in an ingenious and systematic rudeness to anyone suspected of imperfect devotion to her. the first comers into the hostels were much more like the swelling inrush of a tide than, as mrs. pembrose would have preferred, like something laid on through a pipe, and when this lady wanted to go on with the old rules until sir isaac had approved of the new, the new arrivals went into the cutting-out room and manifested. lady harman had to be telephoned for to allay the manifestation. and then arose questions of deportment, trivial in themselves, but of the gravest moment for the welfare of the hostels. there was a phrase about "noisy or improper conduct" in the revised rules. few people would suspect a corridor, ten feet wide and two hundred feet long, as a temptation to impropriety, but mrs. pembrose found it was so. the effect of the corridors upon undisciplined girls quite unaccustomed to corridors was for a time most undesirable. for example they were moved to _run_ along them violently. they ran races along them, when they overtook they jostled, when they were overtaken they squealed. the average velocity in the corridors of the lady occupants of the bloomsbury hostel during the first fortnight of its existence was seven miles an hour. was that violence? was that impropriety? the building was all steel construction, but one _heard_ even in the head matron's room. and then there was the effect of the rows and rows of windows opening out upon the square. the square had some pleasant old trees and it was attractive to look down into their upper branches, where the sparrows mobbed and chattered perpetually, and over them at the chimneys and turrets and sky signs of the london world. the girls looked. so far they were certainly within their rights. but they did not look modestly, they did not look discreetly. they looked out of wide-open windows, they even sat perilously and protrudingly on the window sills conversing across the façade from window to window, attracting attention, and once to mrs. pembrose's certain knowledge a man in the street joined in. it was on a sunday morning, too, a bloomsbury sunday morning! but graver things were to rouse the preventive prohibitionist in the soul of mrs. pembrose. there was the visiting of one another's rooms and cubicles. most of these young people had never possessed or dreamt of possessing a pretty and presentable apartment to themselves, and the first effect of this was to produce a decorative outbreak, a vigorous framing of photographs and hammering of nails ("dust-gathering litter."--_mrs. pembrose_) and then--visiting. they visited at all hours and in all costumes; they sat in groups of three or four, one on the chair and the rest on the bed conversing into late hours,--entirely uncensored conversations too often accompanied by laughter. when mrs. pembrose took this to lady harman she found her extraordinarily blind to the conceivable evils of this free intercourse. "but lady harman!" said mrs. pembrose, with a note of horror, "some of them--kiss each other!" "but if they're fond of each other," said lady harman. "i'm sure i don't see----" and when the floor matrons were instructed to make little surprise visits up and down the corridors the girls who occupied rooms took to locking their doors--and lady harman seemed inclined to sustain their right to do that. the floor matrons did what they could to exercise authority, one or two were former department manageresses, two were ex-elementary teachers, crowded out by younger and more certificated rivals, one, and the most trustworthy one, mrs. pembrose found, was an ex-wardress from holloway. the natural result of these secret talkings and conferrings in the rooms became apparent presently in some mild ragging and in the concoction of petty campaigns of annoyance designed to soften the manners of the more authoritative floor matrons. here again were perplexing difficulties. if a particular floor matron has a clear commanding note in her voice, is it or is it not "violent and improper" to say "haw!" in clear commanding tones whenever you suppose her to be within earshot? as for the door-locking mrs. pembrose settled that by carrying off all the keys. complaints and incidents drifted towards definite scenes and "situations." both sides in this continuing conflict of dispositions were so definite, so intolerant, to the mind of the lady with the perplexed dark eyes who mediated. her reason was so much with the matrons; her sympathies so much with the girls. she did not like the assured brevity of mrs. pembrose's judgments and decisions; she had an instinctive perception of the truth that all compact judgments upon human beings are unjust judgments. the human spirit is but poorly adapted either to rule or to be ruled, and the honesty of all the efforts of mrs. pembrose and her staffs--for soon the hostels at sydenham and west kensington were open--were marred not merely by arrogance but by an irritability, a real hostility to complexities and difficulties and resisters and troublesome characters. and it did not help the staff to a triumphant achievement of its duties that the girls had an exaggerated perception that lady harman's heart was on their side. and presently the phrase "weeding out" crept into the talk of mrs. pembrose. some of the girls were being marked as ringleaders, foci of mischief, characters it was desirable to "get rid of." confronted with it lady harman perceived she was absolutely opposed to this idea of getting rid of anyone--unless it was mrs. pembrose. she liked her various people; she had no desire for a whittled success with a picked remnant of subdued and deferential employees. she put that to mr. brumley and mr. brumley was indignant and eloquent in his concurrence. a certain mary trunk, a dark young woman with a belief that it became her to have a sweet disorder in her hair, and a large blond girl named lucy baxandall seemed to be the chief among the bad influences of the bloomsbury hostel, and they took it upon themselves to appeal to lady harman against mrs. pembrose. they couldn't, they complained, "do a thing right for her...." so the tangle grew. presently lady harman had to go to the riviera with sir isaac and when she came back mary trunk and lucy baxandall had vanished from both the international hostel and the international stores. she tried to find out why, and she was confronted by inadequate replies and enigmatical silences. "they decided to go," said mrs. pembrose, and dropped "fortunately" after that statement. she disavowed any exact knowledge of their motives. but she feared the worst. susan burnet was uninforming. whatever had happened had failed to reach alice burnet's ears. lady harman could not very well hold a commission of enquiry into the matter, but she had an uneasy sense of a hidden campaign of dislodgement. and about the corridors and cubicles and club rooms there was she thought a difference, a discretion, a flavour of subjugation.... chapter the eleventh the last crisis § it would be quite easy for anyone with the knack of reserve to go on from this point with a history of lady harman that would present her as practically a pure philanthropist. for from these beginnings she was destined to proceed to more and more knowledge and understanding and clear purpose and capable work in this interesting process of collective regrouping, this process which may even at last justify mr. brumley's courageous interpretations and prove to be an early experiment in the beginning of a new social order. perhaps some day there will be an official biography, another addition to the inscrutable records of british public lives, in which all these things will be set out with tact and dignity. horatio blenker or adolphus blenker may survive to be entrusted with this congenial task. she will be represented as a tall inanimate person pursuing one clear benevolent purpose in life from her very beginning, and sir isaac and her relations with sir isaac will be rescued from reality. the book will be illustrated by a number of carefully posed photographer's photographs of her, studies of the putney house and perhaps an unappetizing woodcut of her early home at penge. the aim of all british biography is to conceal. a great deal of what we have already told will certainly not figure in any such biography, and still more certainly will the things we have yet to tell be missing. lady harman was indeed only by the force of circumstances and intermittently a pure philanthropist, and it is with the intercalary passages of less exalted humanity that we are here chiefly concerned. at times no doubt she did really come near to filling and fitting and becoming identical with that figure of the pure philanthropist which was her world-ward face, but for the most part that earnest and dignified figure concealed more or less extensive spaces of nothingness, while the errant soul of the woman within strayed into less exalted ways of thinking. there were times when she was almost sure of herself--mrs. hubert plessington could scarcely have been surer of herself, and times when the whole magnificent project of constructing a new urban social life out of those difficult hostels, a collective urban life that should be liberal and free, broke into grimacing pieces and was the most foolish of experiments. her struggles with mrs. pembrose thereupon assumed a quality of mere bickering and she could even doubt whether mrs. pembrose wasn't justified in her attitude and wiser by her very want of generosity. she felt then something childish in the whole undertaking that otherwise escaped her, she was convicted of an absurd self-importance, she discovered herself an ignorant woman availing herself of her husband's power and wealth to attempt presumptuous experiments. in these moods of disillusionment, her mind went adrift and was driven to and fro from discontent to discontent; she would find herself taking soundings and seeking an anchorage upon the strangest, most unfamiliar shoals. and in her relations and conflicts with her husband there was a smouldering shame for her submissions to him that needed only a phase of fatigue to become acute. so long as she believed in her hostels and her mission that might be endured, but forced back upon her more personal life its hideousness stood unclothed. mr. brumley could sometimes reassure her by a rhetorical effort upon the score of her hostels, but most of her more intimate and inner life was not, for very plain reasons, to be shown to him. he was full of the intention of generous self-denials, but she had long since come to measure the limits of his self-denial.... mr. brumley was a friend in whom smouldered a love, capable she knew quite clearly of tormented and tormenting jealousies. it would be difficult to tell, and she certainly could never have told how far she knew of this by instinct, how far it came out of rapid intuitions from things seen and heard. but she understood that she dared not let a single breath of encouragement, a hint of physical confidence, reach that banked-up glow. a sentinel discretion in her brain was always on the watch for that danger, and that restraint, that added deliberate inexpressiveness, kept them most apart, when most her spirit cried out for companionship. the common quality of all these moods of lassitude was a desolating loneliness. she had at times a need that almost overwhelmed her to be intimate, to be comforted and taken up out of the bleak harsh disappointments and stresses of her customary life. at times after sir isaac had either been too unloving or too loving, or when the girls or the matrons had achieved some new tangle of mutual unreasonableness, or when her faith failed, she would lie in the darkness of her own room with her soul crying out for--how can one put it?--the touch of other soul-stuff. and perhaps it was the constant drift of mr. brumley's talk, the little suggestions that fell drop by drop into her mind from his, that disposed her to believe that this aching sense of solitude in the void was to be assuaged by love, by some marvel of close exaltation that one might reach through a lover. she had told mr. brumley long ago that she would never let herself think of love, she still maintained to him that attitude of resolute aloofness, but almost without noting what she did, she was tampering now in her solitude with the seals of that locked chamber. she became secretly curious about love. perhaps there was something in it of which she knew nothing. she found herself drawn towards poetry, found a new attraction in romance; more and more did she dally with the idea that there was some unknown beauty in the world, something to which her eyes might presently open, something deeper and sweeter than any thing she had ever known, close at hand, something to put all the world into proportion for her. in a little while she no longer merely tampered with these seals, for quite silently the door had opened and she was craning in. this love it seemed to her might after all be so strange a thing that it goes unsuspected and yet fills the whole world of a human soul. an odd grotesque passage in a novel by wilkins gave her that idea. he compared love to electricity, of all things in the world; that throbbing life amidst the atoms that we now draw upon for light, warmth, connexion, the satisfaction of a thousand wants and the cure of a thousand ills. there it is and always has been in the life of man, and yet until a century ago it worked unsuspected, was known only for a disregarded oddity of amber, a crackling in frost-dry hair and thunder.... and then she remembered how mr. brumley had once broken into a panegyric of love. "it makes life a different thing. it is like the home-coming of something lost. all this dispersed perplexing world _centres_. think what true love means; to live always in the mind of another and to have that other living always in your mind.... only there can be no restraints, no reserves, no admission of prior rights. one must feel _safe_ of one's welcome and freedoms...." wasn't it worth the risk of almost any breach of boundaries to get to such a light as that?... she hid these musings from every human being, she was so shy with them, she hid them almost from herself. rarely did they have their way with her and when they did, presently she would accuse herself of slackness and dismiss them and urge herself to fresh practicalities in her work. but her work was not always at hand, sir isaac's frequent relapses took her abroad to places where she found herself in the midst of beautiful scenery with little to do and little to distract her from these questionings. then such thoughts would inundate her. this feeling of the unsatisfactoriness of life, of incompleteness and solitariness, was not of that fixed sort that definitely indicates its demand. under its oppression she tried the idea of love, but she also tried certain other ideas. very often this vague appeal had the quality of a person, sometimes a person shrouded in night, a soundless whisper, the unseen lover who came to psyche in the darkness. and sometimes that person became more distinct, less mystic and more companionable. perhaps because imaginations have a way of following the line of least resistance, it took upon itself something of the form, something of the voice and bearing of mr. brumley. she recoiled from her own thoughts when she discovered herself wondering what manner of lover mr. brumley might make--if suddenly she lowered her defences, freed his suffocating pleading, took him to herself. in my anxiety to draw mr. brumley as he was, i have perhaps a little neglected to show him as lady harman saw him. we have employed the inconsiderate verisimilitude of a novelist repudiating romance in his portrayal; towards her he kept a better face. he was at least a very honest lover and there was little disingenuousness in the flow of fine mental attitudes that met her; the thought and presence of her made him fine; as soon could he have turned his shady side towards the sun. and she was very ready and eager to credit him with generous qualities. we of his club and circle, a little assisted perhaps by max beerbohm's diabolical index finger, may have found and been not unwilling to find his face chiefly expressive of a kind of empty alertness; but when it was turned to her its quite pleasantly modelled features glowed and it was transfigured. so far as she was concerned, with sir isaac as foil, he was real enough and good enough for her. and by the virtue of that unlovely contrast even a certain ineffectiveness--became infinite delicacy.... the thought of mr. brumley in that relation and to that extent of clearness came but rarely into her consciousness, and when it did it was almost immediately dismissed again. it was the most fugitive of proffered consolations. and it is to be remarked that it made its most successful apparitions when mr. brumley was far away, and by some weeks or months of separation a little blurred and forgotten.... and sometimes this unrest of her spirit, this unhappiness turned her in quite another direction as it seemed and she had thoughts of religion. with a deepened shame she would go seeking into that other, that greater indelicacy, from which her upbringing had divorced her mind. she would even secretly pray. greatly daring she fled on several occasions from her visitation of the hostels or slipped out of her home, and evading mr. brumley, went once to the brompton oratory, once or twice to the westminster cathedral and then having discovered saint paul's, to saint paul's in search of this nameless need. it was a need that no plain and ugly little place of worship would satisfy. it was a need that demanded choir and organ. she went to saint paul's haphazard when her mood and opportunity chanced together and there in the afternoons she found a wonder of great music and chanting voices, and she would kneel looking up into those divine shadows and perfect archings and feel for a time assuaged, wonderfully assuaged. sometimes, there, she seemed to be upon the very verge of grasping that hidden reality which makes all things plain. sometimes it seemed to her that this very indulgence was the hidden reality. she could never be sure in her mind whether these secret worshippings helped or hampered her in her daily living. they helped her to a certain disregard of annoyances and indignities and so far they were good, but they also helped towards a more general indifference. she might have told these last experiences to mr. brumley if she had not felt them to be indescribable. they could not be half told. they had to be told completely or they were altogether untellable. so she had them hid, and at once accepted and distrusted the consolation they brought her, and went on with the duties and philanthropies that she had chosen as her task in the world. § one day in lent--it was nearly three years after the opening of the first hostel--she went to saint paul's. she was in a mood of great discouragement; the struggle between mrs. pembrose and the bloomsbury girls had suddenly reopened in an acute form and sir isaac, who was sickening again after a period of better health, had become strangely restless and irritable and hostile to her. he had thwarted her unusually and taken the side of the matrons in a conflict in which susan burnet's sister alice was now distinguished as the chief of the malcontents. the new trouble seemed to lady harman to be traceable in one direction to that ardent unionist, miss babs wheeler, under the spell of whose round-faced, blue-eyed, distraught personality alice had altogether fallen. miss babs wheeler was fighting for the union; she herself lived at highbury with her mother, and alice was her chosen instrument in the hostels. the union had always been a little against the lady-like instincts of many of the waitresses; they felt strikes were vulgar and impaired their social standing, and this feeling had been greatly strengthened by irruptions of large contingents of shop assistants from various department stores. the bloomsbury hostel in particular now accommodated a hundred refined and elegant hands--they ought rather to be called figures--from the great oxford street costume house of eustace and mills, young people with a tall sweeping movement and an elevation of chin that had become nearly instinctive, and a silent yet evident intention to find the international girls "low" at the slightest provocation. it is only too easy for poor humanity under the irritation of that tacit superiority to respond with just the provocation anticipated. what one must regretfully speak of as the vulgar section of the international girls had already put itself in the wrong by a number of aggressive acts before the case came to lady harman's attention. mrs. pembrose seized the occasion for weeding on a courageous scale, and miss alice burnet and three of her dearest friends were invited to vacate their rooms "pending redecoration". with only too much plausibility the threatened young women interpreted this as an expulsion, and declined to remove their boxes and personal belongings. miss babs wheeler thereupon entered the bloomsbury hostel, and in the teeth of three express prohibitions from mrs. pembrose, went a little up the staircase and addressed a confused meeting in the central hall. there was loud and continuous cheering for lady harman at intervals during this incident. thereupon mrs. pembrose demanded sweeping dismissals, not only from the hostels but the shops as an alternative to her resignation, and lady harman found herself more perplexed than ever.... georgina sawbridge had contrived to mingle herself in an entirely characteristic way in these troubles by listening for a brief period to an abstract of her sister's perplexities, then demanding to be made director-general of the whole affair, refusing to believe this simple step impossible and retiring in great dudgeon to begin a series of letters of even more than sisterly bitterness. and mr. brumley when consulted had become dangerously sentimental. under these circumstances lady harman's visit to saint paul's had much of the quality of a flight. it was with an unwonted sense of refuge that she came from the sombre stress and roar of london without into the large hushed spaces of the cathedral. the door closed behind her--and all things changed. here was meaning, coherence, unity. here instead of a pelting confusion of movements and motives was a quiet concentration upon the little focus of light about the choir, the gentle complete dominance of a voice intoning. she slipped along the aisle and into the nave and made her way to a seat. how good this was! outside she had felt large, awkwardly responsible, accessible to missiles, a distressed conspicuous thing; within this living peace she suddenly became no more than one of a tranquil hushed community of small black-clad lenten people; she found a chair and knelt and felt she vanished even from her own consciousness.... how beautiful was this place! she looked up presently at the great shadowy arcs far above her, so easy, so gracious that it seemed they had not so much been built by men as shaped by circling flights of angels. the service, a little clustering advance of voices unsustained by any organ, mingled in her mind with the many-pointed glow of candles. and then into this great dome of worship and beauty, like a bed of voices breaking into flower, like a springtime breeze of sound, came allegri's miserere.... her spirit clung to this mood of refuge. it seemed as though the disorderly, pugnacious, misunderstanding universe had opened and shown her luminous mysteries. she had a sense of penetration. all that conflict, that jar of purposes and motives, was merely superficial; she had left it behind her. for a time she had no sense of effort in keeping hold of this, only of attainment, she drifted happily upon the sweet sustaining sounds, and then--then the music ceased. she came back into herself. close to her a seated man stirred and sighed. she tried to get back her hold upon that revelation but it had gone. inexorably, opaque, impenetrable doors closed softly on her moment of vision.... all about her was the stir of departure. she walked out slowly into the cold march daylight, to the leaden greys, the hurrying black shapes, the chaotic afternoon traffic of london. she paused on the steps, still but half reawakened. a passing omnibus obtruded the familiar inscription, "international stores for staminal bread." she turned like one who remembers, to where her chauffeur stood waiting. § as her motor car, with a swift smoothness, carried her along the embankment towards the lattice bar of charing cross bridge and the remoter towers of the houses of parliament, grey now and unsubstantial against the bright western sky, her mind came back slowly to her particular issues in life. but they were no longer the big exasperatingly important things that had seemed to hold her life by a hundred painful hooks before she went into the cathedral. they were small still under this dome of evening, small even by the measure of the grey buildings to the right of her and the warm lit river to her left, by the measure of the clustering dark barges, the teeming trams, the streaming crowds of people, the note of the human process that sounds so loud there. she felt small even to herself, for the touch of beauty saves us from our own personalities, makes gods of us to our own littleness. she passed under the railway bridge at charing cross, watched the square cluster of westminster's pinnacles rise above her until they were out of sight overhead, ran up the little incline and round into parliament square, and was presently out on the riverside embankment again with the great chimneys of chelsea smoking athwart the evening gold. and thence with a sudden effect of skies shut and curtains drawn she came by devious ways to the fulham road and the crowding traffic of putney bridge and putney high street and so home. snagsby, assisted by a new under-butler, a lean white-faced young man with red hair, received her ceremoniously and hovered serviceably about her. on the hall table lay three or four visiting cards of no importance, some circulars and two letters. she threw the circulars into the basket placed for them and opened her first letter. it was from georgina; it was on several sheets and it began, "i still cannot believe that you refuse to give me the opportunity the director-generalship of your hostels means to me. it is not as if you yourself had either the time or the abilities necessary for them yourself; you haven't, and there is something almost dog-in-the-manger-ish to my mind in the way in which you will not give me my chance, the chance i have always been longing for----" at this point lady harman put down this letter for subsequent perusal and took its companion, which was addressed in an unfamiliar hand. it was from alice burnet and it was written in that sprawling hand and diffused style natural to a not very well educated person with a complicated story to tell in a state of unusual emotion. but the gist was in the first few sentences which announced that alice had been evicted from the hostel. "i found my things on the pavement," wrote alice. lady harman became aware of snagsby still hovering at hand. "mrs. pembrose, my lady, came here this afternoon," he said, when he had secured her attention. "came here." "she asked for you, my lady, and when i told her you were not at 'ome, she asked if she might see sir isaac." "and did she?" "sir isaac saw her, my lady. they 'ad tea in the study." "i wish i had been at home to see her," said lady harman, after a brief interval of reflection. she took her two letters and turned to the staircase. they were still in her hand when presently she came into her husband's study. "i don't want a light," he said, as she put out her hand to the electric switch. his voice had a note of discontent, but he was sitting in the armchair against the window so that she could not see his features. "how are you feeling this afternoon?" she asked. "i'm feeling all right," he answered testily. he seemed to dislike inquiries after his health almost as much as he disliked neglect. she came and stood by him and looked out from the dusk of the room into the garden darkening under a red-barred sky. "there is fresh trouble between mrs. pembrose and the girls," she said. "she's been telling me about it." "she's been here?" "pretty nearly an hour," said sir isaac. lady harman tried to imagine that hour's interview on the spur of the moment and failed. she came to her immediate business. "i think," she said, "that she has been--high-handed...." "you would," said sir isaac after an interval. his tone was hostile, so hostile that it startled her. "don't you?" he shook his head. "my idees and your idees--or anyhow the idees you've got hold of--somewhere--somehow----i don't know where you _get_ your idees. we haven't got the same idees, anyhow. you got to keep order in these places--anyhow...." she perceived that she was in face of a prepared position. "i don't think," she threw out, "that she does keep order. she represses--and irritates. she gets an idea that certain girls are against her...." "and you get an idea she's against certain girls...." "practically she expels them. she has in fact just turned one out into the street." "you got to expel 'em. you got to. you can't run these places on sugar and water. there's a sort of girl, a sort of man, who makes trouble. there's a sort makes strikes, makes mischief, gets up grievances. you got to get rid of 'em somehow. you got to be practical somewhere. you can't go running these places on a lot of littry idees and all that. it's no good." the phrase "littry idees" held lady harman's attention for a moment. but she could not follow it up to its implications, because she wanted to get on with the issue she had in hand. "i want to be consulted about these expulsions. girl after girl has been sent away----" sir isaac's silhouette was obstinate. "she knows her business," he said. he seemed to feel the need of a justification. "they shouldn't make trouble." on that they rested for a little while in silence. she began to realize with a gathering emotion that this matter was far more crucial than she had supposed. she had been thinking only of the reinstatement of alice burnet, she hadn't yet estimated just what that overriding of mrs. pembrose might involve. "i don't want to have any girl go until i have looked into her case. it's----it's vital." "she says she can't run the show unless she has some power." neither spoke for some seconds. she had the feeling of hopeless vexation that might come to a child that has wandered into a trap. "i thought," she began. "these hostels----" she stopped short. sir isaac's hand tightened on the arm of his chair. "i started 'em to please you," he said. "i didn't start 'em to please your friends." she turned her eyes quickly to his grey up-looking face. "i didn't start them for you and that chap brumley to play about with," he amplified. "and now you know about it, elly." the thing had found her unprepared. "as if----" she said at last. "as if!" he mocked. she stood quite still staring blankly at this unmanageable situation. he was the first to break silence. he lifted one hand and dropped it again with a dead impact on the arm of his chair. "i got the things," he said, "and there they are. anyhow,--they got to be run in a proper way." she made no immediate answer. she was seeking desperately for phrases that escaped her. "do you think," she began at last. "do you really think----?" he stared out of the window. he answered in tones of excessive reasonableness: "i didn't start these hostels to be run by you and your--friend." he gave the sentence the quality of an ultimatum, an irreducible minimum. "he's my friend," she explained, "only--because he does work--for the hostels." sir isaac seemed for a moment to attempt to consider that. then he relapsed upon his predetermined attitude. "god!" he exclaimed, "but i have been a fool!" she decided that that must be ignored. "i care more for those hostels than i care for anything--anything else in the world," she told him. "i want them to work--i want them to succeed.... and then----" he listened in sceptical silence. "mr. brumley is nothing to me but a helper. he----how can you imagine, isaac----? _i!_ how can you dare? to suggest----!" "very well," said sir isaac and reflected and made his old familiar sound with his teeth. "run the hostels without him, elly," he propounded. "then i'll believe." she perceived that suddenly she was faced by a test or a bargain. in the background of her mind the figure of mr. brumley, as she had seen him last, in brown and with a tie rather to one side, protested vainly. she did what she could for him on the spur of the moment. "but," she said, "he's so helpful. he's so--harmless." "that's as may be," said sir isaac and breathed heavily. "how can one suddenly turn on a friend?" "i don't see that you ever wanted a friend," said sir isaac. "he's been so good. it isn't reasonable, isaac. when anyone has--_slaved_." "i don't say he isn't a good sort of chap," said sir isaac, with that same note of almost superhuman rationality, "only--he isn't going to run my hostels." "but what do you mean, isaac?" "i mean you got to choose." he waited as if he expected her to speak and then went on. "what it comes to is this, elly, i'm about sick of that chap. i'm sick of him." he paused for a moment because his breath was short. "if you go on with the hostels he's--phew--got to mizzle. _then_--i don't mind--if you want that girl burnet brought back in triumph.... it'll make mrs. pembrose chuck the whole blessed show, you know, but i say--i don't mind.... only in that case, i don't want to see or hear--or hear about--phew--or hear about your mr. brumley again. and i don't want you to, either.... i'm being pretty reasonable and pretty patient over this, with people--people--talking right and left. still,--there's a limit.... you've been going on--if i didn't know you were an innocent--in a way ... i don't want to talk about that. there you are, elly." it seemed to her that she had always expected this to happen. but however much she had expected it to happen she was still quite unprepared with any course of action. she wanted with an equal want of limitation to keep both mr. brumley and her hostels. "but isaac," she said. "what do you suspect? what do you think? this friendship has been going on----how can i end it suddenly?" "don't you be too innocent, elly. you know and i know perfectly well what there is between men and women. i don't make out i know--anything i don't know. i don't pretend you are anything but straight. only----" he suddenly gave way to his irritation. his self-control vanished. "damn it!" he cried, and his panting breath quickened; "the thing's got to end. as if i didn't understand! as if i didn't understand!" she would have protested again but his voice held her. "it's got to end. it's got to end. of course you haven't done anything, of course you don't know anything or think of anything.... only here i am ill.... _you_ wouldn't be sorry if i got worse.... _you_ can wait; you can.... all right! all right! and there you stand, irritating me--arguing. you know--it chokes me.... got to end, i tell you.... got to end...." he beat at the arms of his chair and then put a hand to his throat. "go away," he cried to her. "go to hell!" § i cannot tell whether the reader is a person of swift decisions or one of the newer race of doubters; if he be the latter he will the better understand how lady harman did in the next two days make up her mind definitely and conclusively to two entirely opposed lines of action. she decided that her relations with mr. brumley, innocent as they were, must cease in the interests of the hostels and her struggle with mrs. pembrose, and she decided with quite equal certainty that her husband's sudden veto upon these relations was an intolerable tyranny that must be resisted with passionate indignation. also she was surprised to find how difficult it was now to think of parting from mr. brumley. she made her way to these precarious conclusions and on from whichever it was to the other through a jungle of conflicting considerations and feelings. when she thought of mrs. pembrose and more particularly of the probable share of mrs. pembrose in her husband's objection to mr. brumley her indignation kindled. she perceived mrs. pembrose as a purely evil personality, as a spirit of espionage, distrust, calculated treachery and malignant intervention, as all that is evil in rule and officialism, and a vast wave of responsibility for all those difficult and feeble and likeable young women who elbowed and giggled and misunderstood and blundered and tried to live happily under the commanding stresses of mrs. pembrose's austerity carried her away. she had her duty to do to them and it overrode every other duty. if a certain separation from mr. brumley's assiduous aid was demanded, was it too great a sacrifice? and no sooner was that settled than the whole question reopened with her indignant demand why anyone at any price had the right to prohibit a friendship that she had so conscientiously kept innocent. if she gave way to this outrageous restriction to-day, what fresh limitations might not sir isaac impose to-morrow? and now, she was so embarrassed in her struggle by his health. she could not go to him and have things out with him, she could not directly defy him, because that might mean a suffocating seizure for him.... it was entirely illogical, no doubt, but extremely natural for lady harman to decide that she must communicate her decision, whichever one it was, to mr. brumley in a personal interview. she wrote to him and arranged to meet and talk to him in kew gardens, and with a feeling of discretion went thither not in the automobile but in a taxi-cab. and so delicately now were her two irrevocable decisions balanced in her mind that twice on her way to kew she swayed over from one to the other. arrived at the gardens she found herself quite disinclined to begin the announcement of either decision. she was quite exceptionally glad to see mr. brumley; he was dressed in a new suit of lighter brown that became him very well indeed, the day was warm and bright, a day of scyllas and daffodils and snow-upon-the-mountains and green-powdered trees and frank sunshine,--and the warmth of her feelings for her friend merged indistinguishably with the springtime stir and glow. they walked across the bright turf together in a state of unjustifiable happiness, purring little admirations at the ingenious elegance of creation at its best as gardeners set it out for our edification, and the whole tenor of lady harman's mind was to make this occasion an escape from the particular business that had brought her thither. "we'll look for daffodils away there towards the river under the trees," said mr. brumley, and it seemed preposterous not to enjoy those daffodils at least before she broached the great issue between an irresistible force and an immoveable post, that occupied her mental background. mr. brumley was quite at his best that afternoon. he was happy, gay and deferential; he made her realize by his every tone and movement that if he had his choice of the whole world that afternoon and all its inhabitants and everything, there was no other place in which he would be, no other companion, no other occupation than this he had. he talked of spring and flowers, quoted poets and added the treasures of a well-stored mind to the amenities of the day. "it's good to take a holiday at times," he said, and after that it was more difficult than ever to talk about the trouble of the hostels. she was able to do this at last while they were having tea in the little pavilion near the pagoda. it was the old pavilion, the one that miss alimony's suffragettes were afterwards to burn down in order to demonstrate the relentless logic of women. they did it in the same eventful week when miss alimony was, she declared, so nearly carried off by white slave traders (disguised as nurses but, fortunately for her, smelling of brandy) from the brixton temperance bazaar. but in those simpler days the pavilion still existed; it was tended by agreeable waiters whose evening dress was mitigated by cheerful little straw hats, and an enormous multitude of valiant and smutty cockney sparrows chirped and squeaked and begged and fluttered and fought, venturing to the very tables and feet of the visitors. and here, a little sobered from their first elation by much walking about and the presence of jam and watercress, mr. brumley and lady harman could think again of the work they were doing for the reconstitution of society upon collective lines. she began to tell him of the conflict between mrs. pembrose and alice burnet that threatened the latter with extinction. she found it more convenient to talk at first as though the strands of decision were still all in her hands; afterwards she could go on to the peculiar complication of the situation through the unexpected weakening of her position in relation to mrs. pembrose. she described the particular of the new trouble, the perplexing issue between the "lady-like," for which as a feminine ideal there was so much to be said on the one hand and the "genial," which was also an admirable quality, on the other. "you see," she said, "it's very rude to cough at people and make noises, but then it's so difficult to explain to the others that it's equally rude to go past people and pretend not to see or hear them. girls of that sort always seem so much more underbred when they are trying to be superior than when they are not; they get so stiff and--exasperating. and this keeping out of the union because it isn't genteel, it's the very essence of the trouble with all these employees. we've discussed that so often. those drapers' girls seem full of such cold, selfish, base, pretentious notions; much more full even than our refreshment girls. and then as if it wasn't all difficult enough comes mrs. pembrose and her wardresses doing all sorts of hard, clumsy things, and one can't tell them just how little they are qualified to judge good behaviour. their one idea of discipline is to speak to people as if they were servants and to be distant and crushing. and long before one can do anything come trouble and tart replies and reports of "gross impertinence" and expulsion. we keep on expelling girls. this is the fourth time girls have had to go. what is to become of them? i know this burnet girl quite well as you know. she's just a human, kindly little woman.... she'll feel disgraced.... how can i let a thing like that occur?" she spread her hands apart over the tea things. mr. brumley held his chin in his hand and said "um" and looked judicial, and admired lady harman very much, and tried to grasp the whole trouble and wring out a solution. he made some admirable generalizations about the development of a new social feeling in response to changed conditions, but apart from a remark that mrs. pembrose was all organization and no psychology, and quite the wrong person for her position, he said nothing in the slightest degree contributory to the particular drama under consideration. from that utterance, however, lady harman would no doubt have gone on to the slow, tentative but finally conclusive statement of the new difficulty that had arisen out of her husband's jealousy and to the discussion of the more fundamental decisions it forced upon her, if a peculiar blight had not fallen upon their conversation and robbed it at last of even an appearance of ease. this blight crept upon their minds.... it began first with mr. brumley. mr. brumley was rarely free from self-consciousness. whenever he was in a restaurant or any such place of assembly, then whatever he did or whatever he said he had a kind of surplus attention, a quickening of the ears, a wandering of the eyes, to the groups and individuals round about him. and while he had seemed entirely occupied with lady harman, he had nevertheless been aware from the outset that a dingy and inappropriate-looking man in a bowler hat and a ready-made suit of grey, was listening to their conversation from an adjacent table. this man had entered the pavilion oddly. he had seemed to dodge in and hesitate. then he had chosen his table rather deliberately--and he kept looking, and trying not to seem to look. that was not all. mr. brumley's expression was overcast by the effort to recall something. he sat elbows on table and leant forward towards lady harman and at the blossom-laden trees outside the pavilion and trifled with two fingers on his lips and spoke between them in a voice that was speculative and confidential and muffled and mysterious. "where have i seen our friend to the left before?" she had been aware of his distraction for some time. she glanced at the man and found nothing remarkable in him. she tried to go on with her explanations. mr. brumley appeared attentive and then he said again: "but where have i seen him?" and from that point their talk was blighted; the heart seemed to go out of her. mr. brumley she felt was no longer taking in what she was saying. at the time she couldn't in any way share his preoccupation. but what had been difficult before became hopeless and she could no longer feel that even presently she would be able to make him understand the peculiar alternatives before her. they drifted back by the great conservatory and the ornamental water, aripple with ducks and swans, to the gates where his taxi waited. even then it occurred to her that she ought to tell him something of the new situation. but now their time was running out, she would have to be concise, and what wife could ever say abruptly and offhand that frequent fact, "oh, by the by, my husband is jealous of you"? then she had an impulse to tell him simply, without any explanation at all, that for a time he must not meet her. and while she gathered herself together for that, his preoccupations intervened again. he stood up in the open taxi-cab and looked back. "that chap," he said, "is following us." § the effect of this futile interview upon lady harman was remarkable. she took to herself an absurd conviction that this inconclusiveness had been an achievement. confronted by a dilemma, she had chosen neither horn and assumed an attitude of inoffensive defiance. springs in england vary greatly in their character; some are easterly and quarrelsome, some are north-westerly and wetly disastrous, a bleak invasion from the ocean; some are but the broken beginnings of what are not so much years as stretches of meteorological indecision. this particular spring was essentially a south-westerly spring, good and friendly, showery but in the lightest way and so softly reassuring as to be gently hilarious. it was a spring to get into the blood of anyone; it gave lady harman the feeling that mrs. pembrose would certainly be dealt with properly and without unreasonable delay by heaven, and that meanwhile it was well to take the good things of existence as cheerfully as possible. the good things she took were very innocent things. feeling unusually well and enjoying great draughts of spring air and sunshine were the chief. and she took them only for three brief days. she carried the children down to black strand to see her daffodils, and her daffodils surpassed expectation. there was a delirium of blackthorn in the new wild garden she had annexed from the woods and a close carpet of encouraged wild primroses. even the putney garden was full of happy surprises. the afternoon following her visit to black strand was so warm that she had tea with her family in great gaiety on the lawn under the cedar. her offspring were unusually sweet that day, they had new blue cotton sunbonnets, and baby and annette at least succeeded in being pretty. and millicent, under the new swiss governess, had acquired, it seemed quite suddenly, a glib colloquial french that somehow reconciled one to the extreme thinness and shapelessness of her legs. then an amazing new fact broke into this gleam of irrational contentment, a shattering new fact. she found she was being watched. she discovered that dingy man in the grey suit following her. the thing came upon her one afternoon. she was starting out for a talk with georgina. she felt so well, so confident of the world that it was intolerable to think of georgina harbouring resentment; she resolved she would go and have things out with her and make it clear just how impossible it was to impose a director-general upon her husband. she became aware of the man in grey as she walked down putney hill. she recognized him at once. he was at the corner of redfern road and still unaware of her existence. he was leaning against the wall with the habituated pose of one who is frequently obliged to lean against walls for long periods of time, and he was conversing in an elucidatory manner with the elderly crossing-sweeper who still braves the motor-cars at that point. he became aware of her emergence with a start, he ceased to lean and became observant. he was one of those men whose face suggests the word "muzzle," with an erect combative nose and a forward slant of the body from the rather inturned feet. he wore an observant bowler hat a little too small for him, and there is something about the tail of his jacket--as though he had been docked. she passed at a stride to the acceptance of mr. brumley's hitherto incredible suspicion. her pulses quickened. it came into her head to see how far this man would go in following her. she went on demurely down the hill leaving him quite unaware that she had seen him. she was amazed, and after her first belief incredulous again. could isaac be going mad? at the corner she satisfied herself of the grey man's proximity and hailed a taxi-cab. the man in grey came nosing across to listen to her directions and hear where she was going. "please drive up the hill until i tell you," she said, "slowly"--and had the satisfaction, if one may call it a satisfaction, of seeing the grey man dive towards the taxi-cab rank. then she gave herself up to hasty scheming. she turned her taxi-cab abruptly when she was certain of being followed, went back into london, turned again and made for westridge's great stores in oxford street. the grey man ticked up two pences in pursuit. all along the brompton road he pursued her with his nose like the jib of a ship. she was excited and interested, and not nearly so shocked as she ought to have been. it didn't somehow jar as it ought to have jarred with her idea of sir isaac. watched by a detective! this then was the completion of the conditional freedom she had won by smashing that window. she might have known.... she was astonished and indignant but not nearly so entirely indignant as a noble heroine should have been. she was certainly not nearly so queenly as mrs. sawbridge would have shown herself under such circumstances. it may have been due to some plebeian strain in her father's blood that over and above her proper indignation she was extremely interested. she wanted to know what manner of man it was whose nose was just appearing above the window edge of the taxi-cab behind. in her inexperienced inattention she had never yet thought it was possible that men could be hired to follow women. she sat a little forward, thinking. how far would he follow her and was it possible to shake him off? or are such followers so expert that once upon a scent, they are like the indian hunting dog, inevitable. she must see. she paid off her taxi at westridge's and, with the skill of her sex, observed him by the window reflection, counting the many doors of the establishment. would he try to watch them all? there were also some round the corner. no, he was going to follow her in. she had a sudden desire, an unreasonable desire, perhaps an instinctive desire to see that man among baby-linen. it was in her power for a time to wreathe him with incongruous objects. this was the sort of fancy a woman must control.... he stalked her with an unreal sang-froid. he ambushed behind a display of infants' socks. driven to buy by a saleswoman he appeared to be demanding improbable varieties of infant's socks. are these watchers and trackers sometimes driven to buying things in shops? if so, strange items must figure in accounts of expenses. if he bought those socks, would they appear in sir isaac's bill? she felt a sudden craving for the sight of sir isaac's private detective account. and as for the articles themselves, what became of them? she knew her husband well enough to feel sure that if he paid for anything he would insist upon having it. but where--where did he keep them?... but now the man's back was turned; he was no doubt improvising paternity and an extreme fastidiousness in baby's footwear----now for it!--through departments of deepening indelicacy to the lift! but he had considered that possibility of embarrassment; he got round by some other way, he was just in time to hear the lift gate clash upon a calmly preoccupied lady, who still seemed as unaware of his existence as the sky. he was running upstairs, when she descended again, without getting out; he stopped at the sight of her shooting past him, their eyes met and there was something appealing in his. he was very moist and his bowler was flagging. he had evidently started out in the morning with misconceptions about the weather. and it was clear he felt he had blundered in coming into westridge's. before she could get a taxi he was on the pavement behind her, hot but pursuing. she sought in her mind for corner shops, with doors on this street and that. she exercised him upon peter robinson's and debenham and freebody's and then started for the monument. but on her way to the monument she thought of the moving staircase at harrod's. if she went up and down on this, she wanted to know what he would do, would he run up and down the fixed flight? he did. several times. and then she bethought herself of the piccadilly tube; she got in at brompton road and got out at down street and then got in again and went to south kensington and he darted in and out of adjacent carriages and got into lifts by curious retrograde movements, being apparently under the erroneous impression that his back was less characteristic than his face. by this time he was evidently no longer unaware of her intelligent interest in his movements. it was clear too that he had received a false impression that she wanted to shake him off and that all the sleuth in him was aroused. he was dishevelled and breathing hard and getting a little close and coarse in his pursuit, but he was sticking to it with a puckered intensified resolution. he came up into the south kensington air open-mouthed and sniffing curiously, but invincible. she discovered suddenly that she did not like him at all and that she wanted to go home. she took a taxi, and then away in the wilds of the fulham road she had her crowning idea. she stopped the cab at a dingy little furniture shop, paid the driver exorbitantly and instructed him to go right back to south kensington station, buy her an evening paper and return for her. the pursuer drew up thirty yards away, fell into her trap, paid off his cab and feigned to be interested by a small window full of penny toys, cheap chocolate and cocoanut ice. she bought herself a brass door weight, paid for it hastily and posted herself just within the furniture-shop door. then you see her cab returned suddenly and she got in at once and left him stranded. he made a desperate effort to get a motor omnibus. she saw him rushing across the traffic gesticulating. then he collided with a boy with a basket on a bicycle--not so far as she could see injuriously, they seemed to leap at once into a crowd and an argument, and then he was hidden from her by a bend in the road. § for a little while her mind was full of fragments of speculation about this man. was he a married man? was he very much away from home? what did he earn? were there ever disputes about his expenses?... she must ask isaac. for she was determined to go home and challenge her husband. she felt buoyed up by indignation and the consciousness of innocence.... and then she felt an odd little doubt whether her innocence was quite so manifest as she supposed? that doubt grew to uncomfortable proportions. for two years she had been meeting mr. brumley as confidently as though they had been invisible beings, and now she had to rack her brains for just what might be mistaken, what might be misconstrued. there was nothing, she told herself, nothing, it was all as open as the day, and still her mind groped about for some forgotten circumstance, something gone almost out of memory that would bear misinterpretation.... how should she begin? "isaac," she would say, "i am being followed about london." suppose he denied his complicity! how could he deny his complicity? the cab ran in through the gates of her home and stopped at the door. snagsby came hurrying down the steps with a face of consternation. "sir isaac, my lady, has come home in a very sad state indeed." beyond snagsby in the hall she came upon a lost-looking round-eyed florence. "daddy's ill again," said florence. "you run to the nursery," said lady harman. "i thought i might help," said florence. "i don't want to play with the others." "no, run away to the nursery." "i want to see the ossygen let out," said florence petulantly to her mother's unsympathetic back. "i _never_ see the ossygen let out. mum--my!..." lady harman found her husband on the couch in his bedroom. he was propped up in a sitting position with every available cushion and pillow. his coat and waistcoat and collar had been taken off, and his shirt and vest torn open. the nearest doctor, almsworth, was in attendance, but oxygen had not arrived, and sir isaac with an expression of bitter malignity upon his face was fighting desperately for breath. if anything his malignity deepened at the sight of his wife. "damned climate," he gasped. "wouldn't have come back--except for _your_ foolery." it seemed to help him to say that. he took a deep inhalation, pressed his lips tightly together, and nodded at her to confirm his words. "if he's fanciful," said almsworth. "if in any way your presence irritates him----" "let her stay," said sir isaac. "it--pleases her...." almsworth's colleague entered with the long-desired oxygen cylinder. § and now every other interest in life was dominated, and every other issue postponed by the immense urgencies of sir isaac's illness. it had entered upon a new phase. it was manifest that he could no longer live in england, that he must go to some warm and kindly climate. there and with due precautions and observances almsworth assured lady harman he might survive for many years--"an invalid, of course, but a capable one." for some time the business of the international stores had been preparing itself for this withdrawal. sir isaac had been entrusting his managers with increased responsibility and making things ready for the flotation of a company that would take the whole network of enterprises off his hands. charterson was associated with him in this, and everything was sufficiently definite to be managed from any continental resort to which his doctors chose to send him. they chose to send him to santa margherita on the ligurian coast near rapallo and porto fino. it was old bergener of marienbad who chose this place. sir isaac had wanted to go to marienbad, his first resort abroad; he had a lively and indeed an exaggerated memory of his kur there; his growing disposition to distrust had turned him against his london specialist, and he had caused lady harman to send gigantic telegrams of inquiry to old bergener before he would be content. but bergener would not have him at marienbad; it wasn't the place, it was the wrong time of year, there was the very thing for them at the regency hotel at santa margherita, an entire dépendance in a beautiful garden right on the sea, admirably furnished and adapted in every way to sir isaac's peculiar needs. there, declared doctor bergener, with a proper attendant, due precaution, occasional oxygen and no excitement he would live indefinitely, that is to say eight or ten years. and attracted by the eight or ten years, which was three more than the london specialist offered, sir isaac finally gave in and consented to be taken to santa margherita. he was to go as soon as possible, and he went in a special train and with an immense elaboration of attendance and comforts. they took with them a young doctor their specialist at marienbad had recommended, a bright young bavarian with a perfectly square blond head, an incurable frock coat, the manners of the less kindly type of hotel-porter and luggage which apparently consisted entirely of apparatus, an arsenal of strange-shaped shining black cases. he joined them in london and went right through with them. from genoa at his request they obtained the services of a trained nurse, an amiable fluent-shaped woman who knew only italian and german. for reasons that he declined to give, but which apparently had something to do with the suffrage agitation, he would have nothing to do with an english trained nurse. they had also a stenographer and typist for sir isaac's correspondence, and lady harman had a secretary, a young lady with glasses named summersly satchell who obviously reserved opinions of a harshly intellectual kind and had previously been in the service of the late lady mary justin. she established unfriendly relations with the young doctor at an early date by attempting, he said, to learn german from him. then there was a maid for lady harman, an assistant maid, and a valet-attendant for sir isaac. the rest of the service in the dépendance was supplied by the hotel management. it took some weeks to assemble this expedition and transport it to its place of exile. arrangements had to be made for closing the putney house and establishing the children with mrs. harman at black strand. there was an exceptional amount of packing up to do, for this time lady harman felt she was not coming back--it might be for years. they were going out to warmth and sunlight for the rest of sir isaac's life. he was entering upon the last phase in the slow disorganization of his secretions and the progressive hardening of his arterial tissues that had become his essential history. his appearance had altered much in the last few months; he had become visibly smaller, his face in particular had become sharp and little-featured. it was more and more necessary for him to sit up in order to breathe with comfort, he slept sitting up; and his senses were affected, he complained of strange tastes in his food, quarrelled with the cook and had fits of sickness. sometimes, latterly, he had complained of strange sounds, like air whistling in water-pipes, he said, that had no existence outside his ears. moreover, he was steadily more irritable and more suspicious and less able to control himself when angry. a long-hidden vein of vile and abusive language, hidden, perhaps, since the days of mr. gambard's college at ealing, came to the surface.... for some days after his seizure lady harman was glad to find in the stress of his necessities an excuse for disregarding altogether the crisis in the hostels and the perplexing problem of her relations to mr. brumley. she wrote two brief notes to the latter gentleman breaking appointments and pleading pressure of business. then, at first during intervals of sleeplessness at night, and presently during the day, the danger and ugliness of her outlook began to trouble her. she was still, she perceived, being watched, but whether that was because her husband had failed to change whatever orders he had given, or because he was still keeping himself minutely informed of her movements, she could not tell. she was now constantly with him, and except for small spiteful outbreaks and occasional intervals of still and silent malignity, he tolerated and utilized her attentions. it was clear his jealousy of her rankled, a jealousy that made him even resentful at her health and ready to complain of any brightness of eye or vigour of movement. they had drifted far apart from the possibility of any real discussion of the hostels since that talk in the twilit study. to re-open that now or to complain of the shadowing pursuer who dogged her steps abroad would have been to precipitate mr. brumley's dismissal. even at the cost of letting things drift at the hostels for a time she wished to avoid that question. she would not see him, but she would not shut the door upon him. so far as the detective was concerned she could avoid discussion by pretending to be unaware of his existence, and as for the hostels--the hostels each day were left until the morrow. she had learnt many things since the days of her first rebellion, and she knew now that this matter of the man friend and nothing else in the world is the central issue in the emancipation of women. the difficulty of him is latent in every other restriction of which women complain. the complete emancipation of women will come with complete emancipation of humanity from jealousy--and no sooner. all other emancipations are shams until a woman may go about as freely with this man as with that, and nothing remains for emancipation when she can. in the innocence of her first revolt this question of friendship had seemed to lady harman the simplest, most reasonable of minor concessions, but that was simply because mr. brumley hadn't in those days been talking of love to her, nor she been peeping through that once locked door. now she perceived how entirely sir isaac was by his standards justified. and after all that was recognized she remained indisposed to give up mr. brumley. yet her sense of evil things happening in the hostels was a deepening distress. it troubled her so much that she took the disagreeable step of asking mrs. pembrose to meet her at the bloomsbury hostel and talk out the expulsions. she found that lady alertly defensive, entrenched behind expert knowledge and pretension generally. her little blue eyes seemed harder than ever, the metallic resonance in her voice more marked, the lisp stronger. "of course, lady harman, if you were to have some practical experience of control----" and "three times i have given these girls every opportunity--_every_ opportunity." "it seems so hard to drive these girls out," repeated lady harman. "they're such human creatures." "you have to think of the ones who remain. you must--think of the institution as a whole." "i wonder," said lady harman, peering down into profundities for a moment. below the great truth glimmered and vanished that institutions were made for man and not man for institutions. "you see," she went on, rather to herself than to mrs. pembrose, "we shall be away now for a long time." mrs. pembrose betrayed no excesses of grief. "it's no good for me to interfere and then leave everything...." "that way spells utter disorganization," said mrs. pembrose. "but i wish something could be done to lessen the harshness--to save the pride--of such a girl as alice burnet. practically you tell her she isn't fit to associate with--the other girls." "she's had her choice and warning after warning." "i daresay she's--stiff. oh!--she's difficult. but--being expelled is bitter." "i've not _expelled_ her--technically." "she thinks she's expelled...." "you'd rather perhaps, lady harman, that _i_ was expelled." the dark lady lifted her eyes to the little bridling figure in front of her for a moment and dropped them again. she had had an unspeakable thought, that mrs. pembrose wasn't a gentlewoman, and that this sort of thing was a business for the gentle and for nobody else in the world. "i'm only anxious not to hurt anyone if i can help it," said lady harman. she went on with her attempt to find some way of compromise with mrs. pembrose that should save the spirit of the new malcontents. she was much too concerned on account of the things that lay ahead of them to care for her own pride with mrs. pembrose. but that good lady had all the meagre inflexibilities of her class and at last lady harman ceased. she came out into the great hall of the handsome staircase, ushered by mrs. pembrose as a guest is ushered by a host. she looked at the spacious proportion of the architecture and thought of the hopes and imaginations she had allowed to centre upon this place. it was to have been a glowing home of happy people, and over it all brooded the chill stillness of rules and regulations and methodical suppressions and tactful discouragement. it was an institution, it had the empty orderliness of an institution, mrs. pembrose had just called it an institution, and so susan burnet had prophesied it would become five years or more ago. it was a dream subjugated to reality. so it seemed to lady harman must all dreams be subjugated to reality, and the tossing spring greenery of the square, the sunshine, the tumult of sparrows and the confused sound of distant traffic, framed as it was in the hard dark outline of the entrance door, was as near as the promise of joy could ever come to her. "caught and spoilt," that seemed to be the very essential of her life; just as it was of these hostels, all the hopes, the imaginings, the sweet large anticipations, the generosities, and stirring warm desires.... perhaps lady harman had been a little overworking with her preparations for exile. because as these unhappy thoughts passed through her mind she realized that she was likely to weep. it was extremely undesirable that mrs. pembrose should see her weeping. but mrs. pembrose did see her weeping, saw her dark eyes swimming with uncontrollable tears, watched her walk past her and out, without a word or a gesture of farewell. a kind of perplexity came upon the soul of mrs. pembrose. she watched the tall figure descend to her car and enter it and dispose itself gracefully and depart.... "hysterical," whispered mrs. pembrose at last and was greatly comforted. "childish," said mrs. pembrose sipping further consolation for an unwonted spiritual discomfort. "besides," said mrs. pembrose, "what else can one do?" § sir isaac was greatly fatigued by his long journey to santa margherita in spite of every expensive precaution to relieve him; but as soon as the effect of that wore off, his recovery under the system bergener had prescribed was for a time remarkable. in a little while he was out of bed again and in an armchair. then the young doctor began to talk of drives. they had no car with them, so he went into genoa and spent an energetic day securing the sweetest-running automobile he could find and having it refitted for sir isaac's peculiar needs. in this they made a number of excursions through the hot beauty of the italian afternoons, eastward to genoa, westward to sestri and northward towards montallegro. then they went up to the summit of the monte de porto fino and sir isaac descended and walked about and looked at the view and praised bergener. after that he was encouraged to visit the gracious old monastery that overhangs the road to porto fino. at first lady harman did her duty of control and association with an apathetic resignation. this had to go on--for eight or ten years. then her imagination began to stir again. there came a friendly letter from mr. brumley and she answered with a description of the colour of the sea and the charm and wonder of its tideless shore. the three elder children wrote queer little letters and she answered them. she went into rapallo and got herself a carriageful of tauchnitz books.... that visit to the monastery on the porto fino road was like a pleasant little glimpse into the brighter realities of the middle ages. the place, which is used as a home of rest for convalescent carthusians, chanced to be quite empty and deserted; the bavarian rang a jangling bell again and again and at last gained the attention of an old gardener working in the vineyard above, an unkempt, unshaven, ungainly creature dressed in scarce decent rags of brown, who was yet courteous-minded and, albeit crack-voiced, with his yellow-fanged mouth full of gracious polysyllables. he hobbled off to get a key and returned through the still heat of the cobbled yard outside the monastery gates, and took them into cool airy rooms and showed them clean and simple cells in shady corridors, and a delightful orangery, and led them to a beautiful terrace that looked out upon the glowing quivering sea. and he became very anxious to tell them something about "francesco"; they could not understand him until the doctor caught "battaglia" and "pavia" and had an inspiration. francis the first, he explained in clumsy but understandable english, slept here, when he was a prisoner of the emperor and all was lost but honour. they looked at the slender pillars and graceful archings about them. "chust as it was now," the young doctor said, his imagination touched for a moment by mere unscientific things.... they returned to their dépendance in a state of mutual contentment, sir isaac scarcely tired, and lady harman ran upstairs to change her dusty dress for a fresher muslin, while he went upon the doctor's arm to the balcony where tea was to be served to them. she came down to find her world revolutionized. on the table in the balcony the letters had been lying convenient to his chair and he--it may be without troubling to read the address, had seized the uppermost and torn it open. he was holding that letter now a little crumpled in his hand. she had walked close up to the table before she realized the change. the little eyes that met hers were afire with hatred, his lips were white and pressed together tightly, his nostrils were dilated in his struggle for breath. "i knew it," he gasped. she clung to her dignity though she felt suddenly weak within. "that letter," she said, "was addressed to me." there was a gleam of derision in his eyes. "look at it!" he said, and flung it towards her. "my private letter!" "look at it!" he repeated. "what right have you to open my letter?" "friendship!" he said. "harmless friendship! look what your--friend says!" "whatever there was in my letter----" "oh!" cried sir isaac. "don't come _that_ over me! don't you try it! oooh! phew--" he struggled for breath for a time. "he's so harmless. he's so helpful. he----read it, you----" he hesitated and then hurled a strange word at her. she glanced at the letter on the table but made no movement to touch it. then she saw that her husband's face was reddening and that his arm waved helplessly. his eyes, deprived abruptly of all the fury of conflict, implored assistance. she darted to the french window that opened into the dining-room from the balcony. "doctor greve!" she cried. "doctor greve!" behind her the patient was making distressful sounds. "doctor greve," she screamed, and from above she heard the bavarian shouting and then the noise of his coming down the stairs. he shouted some direction in german as he ran past her. by an inspiration she guessed he wanted the nurse. miss summersley satchell appeared in the doorway and became helpful. then everyone in the house seemed to be converging upon the balcony. it was an hour before sir isaac was in bed and sufficiently allayed for her to go to her own room. then she thought of mr. brumley's letter, and recovered it from the table on the balcony where it had been left in the tumult of her husband's seizure. it was twilight and the lights were on. she stood under one of them and read with two moths circling about her.... mr. brumley had had a mood of impassioned declaration. he had alluded to his "last moments of happiness at kew." he said he would rather kiss the hem of her garment than be the "lord of any other woman's life." it was all so understandable--looked at in the proper light. it was all so impossible to explain. and why had she let it happen? why had she let it happen? § the young doctor was a little puzzled and rather offended by sir isaac's relapse. he seemed to consider it incorrect and was on the whole disposed to blame lady harman. he might have had such a seizure, the young doctor said, later, but not now. he would be thrown back for some weeks, then he would begin to mend again and then whatever he said, whatever he did, lady harman must do nothing to contradict him. for a whole day sir isaac lay inert, in a cold sweat. he consented once to attempt eating, but sickness overcame him. he seemed so ill that all the young doctor's reassurances could not convince lady harman that he would recover. then suddenly towards evening his arrested vitality was flowing again, the young doctor ceased to be anxious for his own assertions, the patient could sit up against a pile of pillows and breathe and attend to affairs. there was only one affair he really seemed anxious to attend to. his first thought when he realized his returning strength was of his wife. but the young doctor would not let him talk that night. next morning he seemed still stronger. he was restless and at last demanded lady harman again. this time the young doctor transmitted the message. she came to him forthwith and found him, white-faced and unfamiliar-looking, his hands gripping the quilt and his eyes burning with hatred. "you thought i'd forgotten," was his greeting. "don't argue," signalled the doctor from the end of sir isaac's bed. "i've been thinking it out," said sir isaac. "when you were thinking i was too ill to think.... i know better now." he sucked in his lips and then went on. "you've got to send for old crappen," he said. "i'm going to alter things. i had a plan. but that would have been letting you off too easy. see? so--you send for old crappen." "what do you mean to do?" "never you mind, my lady, never you mind. you send for old crappen." she waited for a moment. "is that all you want me to do?" "i'm going to make it all right about those hostels. don't you fear. you and your hostels! you shan't _touch_ those hostels ever again. ever. mrs. pembrose go! why! you ain't worthy to touch the heel of her shoe! mrs. pembrose!" he gathered together all his forces and suddenly expelled with rousing force the word he had already applied to her on the day of the intercepted letter. he found it seemed great satisfaction in the sound and taste of it. he repeated it thrice. "zut," cried the doctor, "sssh!" then sir isaac intimated his sense that calm was imperative. "you send for crappen," he said with a quiet earnestness. she had become now so used to terms of infamy during the last year or so, so accustomed to forgive them as part of his suffering, that she seemed not to hear the insult. "do you want him at once?" she asked. "shall i telegraph?" "want him at once!" he dropped his voice to a whisper. "yes, you fool--yes. telegraph. (phew.) telegraph.... i mustn't get angry, you know. you--telegraph." he became suddenly still. but his eyes were active with hate. she glanced at the doctor, then moved to the door. "i will send a telegram," she said, and left him still malignant. she closed the door softly and walked down the long cool passage towards her own room.... § she had to be patient. she had to be patient. this sort of thing had to go on from crisis to crisis. it might go on for years. she could see no remedy and no escape. what else was there to do but be patient? it was all amazing unjust, but to be a married woman she was beginning to understand is to be outside justice. it is autocracy. she had once imagined otherwise, and most of her life had been the slow unlearning of that initial error. she had imagined that the hostels were hers simply because he had put it in that way. they had never been anything but his, and now it was manifest he would do what he liked with his own. the law takes no cognizance of the unwritten terms of a domestic reconciliation. she sat down at the writing-table the hotel management had improvised for her. she rested her chin on her hand and tried to think out her position. but what was there to think out, seeing that nature and law and custom have conspired together to put women altogether under the power of jealous and acquisitive men? she drew the telegram form towards her. she was going to write a telegram that she knew would bring crappen headlong--to disinherit her absolutely. and--it suddenly struck her--her husband had trusted her to write it. she was going to do what he had trusted her to do.... but it was absurd. she sat making patterns of little dots with her pencil point upon the telegram form, and there was a faint smile of amusement upon her lips. it was absurd--and everything was absurd. what more was to be said or thought about it? this was the lot of woman. she had made her struggle, rebelled her little bit of rebellion. most other women no doubt had done as much. it made no difference in the long run. but it was hard to give up the hostels. she had been foolish of course, but she had not let them make her feel _real_. and she wasn't real. she was a wife--just _this_.... she sighed and bestirred herself and began to write. then abruptly she stopped writing. for three years her excuse for standing--everything, had been these hostels. if now the hostels were to be wrenched out of her hands, if at her husband's death she was to be stripped of every possession and left a helpless dependant on her own children, if for all her good behaviour she was to be insulted by his frantic suspicions so long as he lived and then disgraced by his posthumous mistrust; was there any reason why she should go on standing anything any more? away there in england was mr. brumley, _her_ man, ready with service and devotion.... it was a profoundly comforting thing to think of him there as hers. he was hers. he'd given so much and on the whole so well. if at last she were to go to him.... yet when she came to imagine the reality of the step that was in her mind, it took upon itself a chill and forbidding strangeness. it was like stepping out of a familiar house into empty space. what could it be like? to take some odd trunks with her, meet him somewhere, travel, travel through the evening, travel past nightfall? the bleak strangeness of that going out never to return! her imagination could give her no figure of mr. brumley as intimate, as habitual. she could as easily imagine his skeleton. he remained in all this queer speculation something friendly, something incidental, more than a trifle disembodied, entirely devoted of course in that hovering way--but hovering.... and she wanted to be free. it wasn't mr. brumley she wanted; he was but a means--if indeed he was a means--to an end. the person she wanted, the person she had always wanted--was _herself_. could mr. brumley give her that? would mr. brumley give her that? was it conceivable he would carry sacrifice to such a pitch as that?... and what nonsense was this dream! here was her husband needing her. and the children, whose inherent ungainliness, whose ungracious spirits demanded a perpetual palliation of culture and instilled deportment. what honest over-nurse was there for him or helper and guide and friend for them, if she withdrew? there was something undignified in a flight for mere happiness. there was something vindictive in flight from mere insult. to go, because she was disinherited, because her hostels were shattered,--no! and in short--she couldn't do it.... if sir isaac wanted to disinherit her he must disinherit her. if he wanted to go on seizing and reading her letters, then he could. there was nothing in the whole scheme of things to stop him if he did not want to stop himself, nothing at all. she was caught. this was the lot of women. she was a _wife_. what else in honour was there but to be a wife up to the hilt?... she finished writing her telegram. § suddenly came a running in the passage outside, a rap at the door and the nurse entered, scared, voluble in italian, but with gestures that translated her. lady harman rose, realized the gravity and urgency of the moment and hurried with her along the passage. "est-il mauvais?" the poor lady attempted, "est-il----" oh! what words are there for "taken worse"? the woman attempted english and failed. she resorted to her native italian and exclaimed about the "povero signore." she conveyed a sense of pitiful extremities. could it be he was in pain again? what was it? what was it? ten minutes ago he had been so grimly angry. at the door of the sick room the nurse laid a warning hand on the arm of lady harman and made an apprehensive gesture. they entered almost noiselessly. the bavarian doctor turned his face from the bed at their entrance. he was bending over sir isaac. he held up one hand as if to arrest them; his other was engaged with his patient. "no," he said. his attention went back to the sick man, and he remained very still in that position, leaving lady harman to note for the first time how broad and flat he was both between his shoulders and between his ears. then his face came round slowly, he relinquished something heavy, stood up, held up a hand. "zu spät," he whispered, as though he too was surprised. he sought in his mind for english and then found his phrase: "he has gone!" "gone?" "in one instant." "dead?" "so. in one instant." on the bed lay sir isaac. his hand was thrust out as though he grasped at some invisible thing. his open eyes stared hard at his wife, and as she met his eyes he snored noisily in his nose and throat. she looked from the doctor to the nurse. it seemed to her that both these people must be mad. never had she seen anything less like death. "but he's not dead!" she protested, still standing in the middle of the room. "it iss chust the air in his throat," the doctor said. "he went--_so!_ in one instant as i was helping him." he waited to see some symptom of feminine weakness. there was a quality in his bearing--as though this event did him credit. "but--isaac!" it was astounding. the noise in his throat ceased. but he still stared at her. and then the nurse made a kind of assault upon lady harman, caught her--even if she didn't fall. it was no doubt the proper formula to collapse. or to fling oneself upon the deceased. lady harman resisted this assistance, disentangled herself and remained amazed; the nurse a little disconcerted but still ready behind her. "but," said lady harman slowly, not advancing and pointing incredulously at the unwinking stare that met her own, "is he dead? is he really dead? like that?" the doctor's gesture to the nurse betrayed his sense of the fine quick scene this want of confidence had ruined. under no circumstances in life did english people really seem to know how to behave or what was expected of them. he answered with something bordering upon irony. "madam," he said, with a slight bow, "he is _really_ det." "but--like _that_!" cried lady harman. "like that," repeated the doctor. she went three steps nearer and stopped, open-eyed, wonder-struck, her lips compressed. § for a time astonishment overwhelmed her mind. she did not think of sir isaac, she did not think of herself, her whole being was filled by this marvel of death and cessation. like _that_! death! never before had she seen it. she had expected an extreme dignity, an almost ceremonial sinking back, a slow ebbing, but this was like a shot from a bow. it stunned her. and for some time she remained stunned, while the doctor and her secretary and the hotel people did all that they deemed seemly on this great occasion. she let them send her into another room; she watched with detached indifference a post-mortem consultation in whispers with a doctor from rapallo. then came a great closing of shutters. the nurse and her maid hovered about her, ready to assist her when the sorrowing began. but she had no sorrow. the long moments lengthened out, and he was still dead and she was still only amazement. it seemed part of the extraordinary, the perennial surprisingness of sir isaac that he should end in this way. dead! she didn't feel for some hours that he had in any way ended. he had died with such emphasis that she felt now that he was capable of anything. what mightn't he do next? when she heard movements in the chamber of death it seemed to her that of all the people there, most probably it was he who made them. she would not have been amazed if he had suddenly appeared in the doorway of her room, anger-white and his hand quiveringly extended, spluttering some complaint. he might have cried: "here i am dead! and it's _you_, damn you--it's _you_!" it was after distinct efforts, after repeated visits to the room in which he lay, that she began to realize that death was death, that death goes on, that there was no more any sir isaac, but only a still body he had left behind, that was being moulded now into a stiff image of peace. then for a time she roused herself to some control of their proceedings. the doctor came to lady harman to ask her about the meals for the day, the hotel manager was in entanglements of tactful consideration, and then the nurse came for instructions upon some trivial matter. they had done what usage prescribes and now, in the absence of other direction, they appealed to her wishes. she remarked that everyone was going on tiptoe and speaking in undertones.... she realized duties. what does one have to do when one's husband is dead? people would have to be told. she would begin by sending off telegrams to various people, to his mother, to her own, to his lawyer. she remembered she had already written a telegram--that very morning to crappen. should she still let the lawyer come out? he was her lawyer now. perhaps he had better come, but instead of that telegram, which still lay upon the desk, she would wire the news of the death to him.... does one send to the papers? how does one send to the papers? she took miss summersly satchell who was hovering outside in the sunshine on the balcony, into her room, and sat pale and businesslike and very careful about details, while miss summersly satchell offered practical advice and took notes and wrote telegrams and letters.... there came a hush over everything as the day crept towards noon, and the widowed woman sat in her own room with an inactive mind, watching thin bars of sunlight burn their slow way across the floor. he was dead. it was going on now more steadfastly than ever. he was keeping dead. he was dead at last for good and her married life was over, that life that had always seemed the only possible life, and this stunning incident, this thing that was like the blinding of eyes or the bursting of eardrums, was to be the beginning of strange new experiences. she was afraid at first at their possible strangeness. and then, you know, in spite of a weak protesting compunction she began to feel glad.... she would not admit to herself that she was glad, that she was anything but a woman stunned, she maintained her still despondent attitude as long as she could, but gladness broke upon her soul as the day breaks, and a sense of release swam up to the horizons of her mind and rose upon her, flooding every ripple of her being, as the sun rises over water in a clear sky. presently she could sit there no longer, she had to stand up. she walked to the closed venetians to look out upon the world and checked herself upon the very verge of flinging them open. he was dead and it was all over for ever. of course!--it was all over! her marriage was finished and done. miss satchell came to summon her to lunch. throughout that meal lady harman maintained a sombre bearing, and listened with attention to the young doctor's comments on the manner of sir isaac's going. and then,--it was impossible to go back to her room. "my head aches," she said, "i must go down and sit by the sea," and her maid, a little shocked, brought her not only her sunshade, but needless wraps--as though a new-made widow must necessarily be very sensitive to the air. she would not let her maid come with her, she went down to the beach alone. she sat on some rocks near the very edge of the transparent water and fought her gladness for a time and presently yielded to it. he was dead. one thought filled her mind, for a while so filled her mind, that no other thought it seemed could follow it, it had an effect of being final; it so filled her mind that it filled the whole world; the broad sapphire distances of the sea, the lapping waves amidst the rocks at her feet, the blazing sun, the dark headland of porto fino and a small sailing boat that hung beyond came all within it like things enclosed within a golden globe. she forgot all the days of nursing and discomfort and pity behind her, all the duties and ceremonies before her, forgot all the details and circumstances of life in this one luminous realization. she was free at last. she was a free woman. never more would he make a sound or lift a finger against her life, never more would he contradict her or flout her; never more would he come peeping through that papered panel between his room and hers, never more could hateful and humiliating demands be made upon her as his right; no more strange distresses of the body nor raw discomfort of the nerves could trouble her--for ever. and no more detectives, no more suspicions, no more accusations. that last blow he had meant to aim was frozen before it could strike her. and she would have the hostels in her hands, secure and undisputed, she could deal as she liked with mrs. pembrose, take such advisers as she pleased.... she was free. she found herself planning the regeneration of those difficult and disputed hostels, plans that were all coloured by the sun and sky of italy. the manacles had gone; her hands were free. she would make this her supreme occupation. she had learnt her lesson now she felt, she knew something of the mingling of control and affectionate regard that was needed to weld the warring uneasy units of her new community. and she could do it, now as she was and unencumbered, she knew this power was in her. when everything seemed lost to her, suddenly it was all back in her hands.... she discovered the golden serenity of her mind with a sudden astonishment and horror. she was amazed and shocked that she should be glad. she struggled against it and sought to subdue her spirit to a becoming grief. one should be sorrowful at death in any case, one should be grieved. she tried to think of sir isaac with affection, to recall touching generosities, to remember kind things and tender and sweet things and she could not do so. nothing would come back but the white intensities of his face, nothing but his hatred, his suspicion and his pitiless mean mastery. from which she was freed. she could not feel sorry. she did her utmost to feel sorry; presently when she went back into the dépendance, she had to check her feet to a regretful pace; she dreaded the eyes of the hotel visitors she passed in the garden lest they should detect the liberation of her soul. but the hotel visitors being english were for the most part too preoccupied with manifestations of a sympathy that should be at once heart-felt and quite unobtrusive and altogether in the best possible taste, to have any attention free for the soul of lady harman. the sense of her freedom came and went like the sunlight of a day in spring, though she attempted her utmost to remain overcast. after dinner that night she was invaded by a vision of the great open years before her, at first hopeful but growing at last to fear and a wild restlessness, so that in defiance of possible hotel opinion, she wandered out into the moonlight and remained for a long time standing by the boat landing, dreaming, recovering, drinking in the white serenities of sea and sky. there was no hurry now. she might stay there as long as she chose. she need account for herself to no one; she was free. she might go where she pleased, do what she pleased, there was no urgency any more.... there was mr. brumley. mr. brumley made a very little figure at first in the great prospect before her.... then he grew larger in her thoughts. she recalled his devotions, his services, his self-control. it was good to have one understanding friend in this great limitless world.... she would have to keep that friendship.... but the glorious thing was freedom, to live untrammelled.... through the stillness a little breeze came stirring, and she awoke out of her dream and turned and faced the shuttered dépendance. a solitary dim light was showing on the verandah. all the rest of the building was a shapeless mass of grey. the long pale front of the hotel seen through a grove of orange trees was lit now at every other window with people going to bed. beyond, a black hillside clambered up to the edge of the sky. far away out of the darknesses a man with a clear strong voice was singing to a tinkling accompaniment. in the black orange trees swam and drifted a score of fireflies, and there was a distant clamour of nightingales when presently the unseen voice had done. § when she was in her room again she began to think of sir isaac and more particularly of that last fixed stare of his.... she was impelled to go and see him, to see for herself that he was peaceful and no longer a figure of astonishment. she went slowly along the corridor and very softly into his room--it remained, she felt, his room. they had put candles about him, and the outline of his face, showing dimly through the linen that veiled it, was like the face of one who sleeps very peacefully. very gently she uncovered it. he was not simply still, he was immensely still. he was more still and white than the moonlight outside, remoter than moon or stars.... she stood surveying him. he looked small and pinched and as though he had been very tired. life was over for him, altogether over. never had she seen anything that seemed so finished. once, when she was a girl she had thought that death might be but the opening of a door upon a more generous feast of living than this cramped world could give, but now she knew, she saw, that death can be death. life was over. she felt she had never before realized the meaning of death. that beautiful night outside, and all the beautiful nights and days that were still to come and all the sweet and wonderful things of god's world could be nothing to him now for ever. there was no dream in him that could ever live again, there was no desire, no hope in him. and had he ever had his desire or his hope, or felt the intensities of life? there was this beauty she had been discovering in the last few years, this mystery of love,--all that had been hidden from him. she began to realize something sorrowful and pitiful in his quality, in his hardness, his narrowness, his bickering suspicions, his malignant refusals of all things generous and beautiful. he made her feel, as sometimes the children made her feel, the infinite pity of perversity and resistance to the bounties and kindliness of life. the shadow of sorrow for him came to her at last. yet how obstinate he looked, the little frozen white thing that had been sir isaac harman! and satisfied, wilfully satisfied; his lips were compressed and his mouth a little drawn in at the corners as if he would not betray any other feeling than content with the bargain he had made with life. she did not touch him; not for the world would she ever touch that cold waxen thing that had so lately clasped her life, but she stood for a long time by the side of his quiet, immersed in the wonder of death.... he had been such a hard little man, such a pursuing little man, so unreasonable and difficult a master, and now--he was such a poor shrunken little man for all his obstinacy! she had never realized before that he was pitiful.... had she perhaps feared him too much, disliked him too much to deal fairly with him? could she have helped him? was there anything she could have done that she had not done? might she not at least have saved him his suspicion? behind his rages, perhaps he had been wretched. could anyone else have helped him? if perhaps someone had loved him more than she had ever pretended to do---- how strange that she should be so intimately in this room--and still so alien. so alien that she could feel nothing but detached wonder at his infinite loss.... _alien_,--that was what she had always been, a captured alien in this man's household,--a girl he had taken. had he ever suspected how alien? the true mourner, poor woman! was even now, in charge of cook's couriers and interpreters, coming by express from london, to see with her own eyes this last still phase of the son she had borne into the world and watched and sought to serve. she was his nearest; she indeed was the only near thing there had ever been in his life. once at least he must have loved her? and even she had not been very near. no one had ever been very near his calculating suspicious heart. had he ever said or thought any really sweet or tender thing--even about her? he had been generous to her in money matters, of course,--but out of a vast abundance.... how good it was to have a friend! how good it was to have even one single friend!... at the thought of his mother lady harman's mind began to drift slowly from this stiff culmination of life before her. presently she replaced the white cloth upon his face and turned slowly away. her imagination had taken up the question of how that poor old lady was to be met, how she was to be consoled, what was to be said to her.... she began to plan arrangements. the room ought to be filled with flowers; mrs. harman would expect flowers, large heavy white flowers in great abundance. that would have to be seen to soon. one might get them in rapallo. and afterwards,--they would have to take him to england, and have a fine great funeral, with every black circumstance his wealth and his position demanded. mrs. harman would need that, and so it must be done. cabinet ministers must follow him, members of parliament, all blenkerdom feeling self-consciously and, as far as possible, deeply, the chartersons by way of friends, unfamiliar blood relations, a vast retinue of employees.... how could one take him? would he have to be embalmed? embalming!--what a strange complement of death. she averted herself a little more from the quiet figure on the bed, and could not turn to it again. they might come here and do all sorts of things to it, mysterious, evil-seeming things with knives and drugs.... she must not think of that. she must learn exactly what mrs. harman thought and desired. her own apathy with regard to her husband had given way completely now to a desire to anticipate and meet mrs. harman's every conceivable wish. chapter the twelfth love and a serious lady § the news of sir isaac's death came quite unexpectedly to mr. brumley. he was at the climax club, and rather bored; he had had some tea and dry toast in the magazine room, and had been through the weeklies, and it was a particularly uninteresting week. then he came down into the hall, looked idly at the latest bulletins upon the board, and read that "sir isaac harman died suddenly this morning at sta. margherita, in ligure, whither he had gone for rest and change." he went on mechanically reading down the bulletin, leaving something of himself behind him that did not read on. then he returned to that remarkable item and re-read it, and picked up that lost element of his being again. he had awaited this event for so long, thought of it so often in such a great variety of relationships, dreamt of it, hoped for it, prayed for it, and tried not to think of it, that now it came to him in reality it seemed to have no substance or significance whatever. he had exhausted the fact before it happened. since first he had thought of it there had passed four long years, and in that time he had seen it from every aspect, exhausted every possibility. it had become a theoretical possibility, the basis of continually less confident, continually more unsubstantial day dreams. constantly he had tried not to think of it, tried to assure himself of sir isaac's invalid immortality. and here it was! the line above it concerned an overdue ship, the line below resumed a speech by mr. lloyd george. "he would challenge the honourable member to repeat his accusations----" mr. brumley stood quite still before the mauve-coloured print letters for some time, then went slowly across the hall into the breakfast-room, sat down in a chair by the fireplace, and fell into a kind of featureless thinking. sir isaac was dead, his wife was free, and the long waiting that had become a habit was at an end. he had anticipated a wild elation, and for a while he was only sensible of change, a profound change.... he began to feel glad that he had waited, that she had insisted upon patience, that there had been no disaster, no scandal between them. now everything was clear for them. he had served his apprenticeship. they would be able to marry, and have no quarrel with the world. he sat with his mind forming images of the prospect before him, images that were at first feeble and vague, and then, though still in a silly way, more concrete and definite. at first they were quite petty anticipations, of how he would have to tell people of his approaching marriage, of how he would break it to george edmund that a new mother impended. he mused for some time upon the details of that. should he take her down to george edmund's school, and let the boy fall in love with her--he would certainly fall in love with her--before anything definite was said, or should he first go down alone and break the news? each method had its own attractive possibilities of drama. then mr. brumley began to think of the letter he must write lady harman--a difficult letter. one does not rejoice at death. already mr. brumley was beginning to feel a generous pity for the man he had done his utmost not to detest for so long. poor sir isaac had lived like a blind thing in the sunlight, gathering and gathering, when the pride and pleasure of life is to administer and spend.... mr. brumley fell wondering just how she could be feeling now about her dead husband. she might be in a phase of quite real sorrow. probably the last illness had tired and strained her. so that his letter would have to be very fine and tender and soothing, free from all harshness, free from any gladness--yet it would be hard not to let a little of his vast relief peep out. always hitherto, except for one or two such passionate lapses as that which had precipitated the situation at santa margherita, his epistolary manner had been formal, his matter intellectual and philanthropic, for he had always known that no letter was absolutely safe from sir isaac's insatiable research. should he still be formal, still write to "dear lady harman," or suddenly break into a new warmth? half an hour later he was sitting in the writing-room with some few flakes of torn paper on the carpet between his feet and the partially filled wastepaper basket, still meditating upon this difficult issue of the address. the letter he achieved at last began, "my dear lady," and went on to, "i do not know how to begin this letter--perhaps you will find it almost as difficult to receive...." in the small hours he woke to one of his habitual revulsions. was that, he asked himself, the sort of letter a lover should write to the beloved on her release, on the sudden long prayed-for opening of a way to her, on the end of her shameful servitude and his humiliations? he began to recall the cold and stilted sentences of that difficult composition. the gentility of it! all his life he had been a prey to gentility, had cast himself free from it, only to relapse again in such fashion as this. would he never be human and passionate and sincere? of course he was glad, and she ought to be glad, that sir isaac, their enemy and their prison, was dead; it was for them to rejoice together. he turned out of bed at last, when he could lie still under these self-accusations no longer, and wrapped himself in his warm dressing-gown and began to write. he wrote in pencil. his fountain-pen was as usual on his night table, but pencil seemed the better medium, and he wrote a warm and glowing love-letter that was brought to an end at last by an almost passionate fit of sneezing. he could find no envelopes in his bedroom davenport, and so he left that honest scrawl under a paper-weight, and went back to bed greatly comforted. he re-read it in the morning with emotion, and some slight misgivings that grew after he had despatched it. he went to lunch at his club contemplating a third letter that should be sane and fine and sweet, and that should rectify the confusing effect of those two previous efforts. he wrote this letter later in the afternoon. the days seemed very long before the answer to his first letter came to him, and in that interval two more--aspects went to her. her reply was very brief, and written in the large, firm, still girlishly clear hand that distinguished her. "_i was so glad of your letter. my life is so strange here, a kind of hushed life. the nights are extraordinarily beautiful, the moon very large and the little leaves on the trees still and black. we are coming back to england and the funeral will be from our putney house._" that was all, but it gave mr. brumley an impression of her that was exceedingly vivid and close. he thought of her, shadowy and dusky in the moonlight until his soul swam with love for her; he had to get up and walk about; he whispered her name very softly to himself several times; he groaned gently, and at last he went to his little desk and wrote to her his sixth letter--quite a beautiful letter. he told her that he loved her, that he had always loved her since their first moment of meeting, and he tried to express just the wave of tenderness that inundated him at the thought of her away there in italy. once, he said, he had dreamt that he would be the first to take her to italy. perhaps some day they would yet be in italy together. § it was only by insensible degrees that doubt crept into mr. brumley's assurances. he did not observe at once that none of the brief letters she wrote him responded to his second, the impassioned outbreak in pencil. and it seemed only in keeping with the modest reserves of womanhood that she should be restrained--she always had been restrained. she asked him not to see her at once when she returned to england; she wanted, she said, "to see how things are," and that fell in very well with a certain delicacy in himself. the unburied body of sir isaac--it was now provisionally embalmed--was, through some inexplicable subtlety in his mind, a far greater barrier than the living man had ever been, and he wanted it out of the way. and everything settled. then, indeed, they might meet. meanwhile he had a curious little private conflict of his own. he was trying not to think, day and night he was trying not to think, that lady harman was now a very rich woman. yet some portions of his brain, and he had never suspected himself of such lawless regions, persisted in the most vulgar and outrageous suggestions, suggestions that made his soul blush; schemes, for example, of splendid foreign travel, of hotel staffs bowing, of a yacht in the mediterranean, of motor cars, of a palatial flat in london, of a box at the opera, of artists patronized, of--most horrible!--a baronetcy.... the more authentic parts of mr. brumley cowered from and sought to escape these squalid dreams of magnificences. it shocked and terrified him to find such things could come out in him. he was like some pest-stricken patient, amazedly contemplating his first symptom. his better part denied, repudiated. of course he would never touch, never even propose--or hint.... it was an aspect he had never once contemplated before sir isaac died. he could on his honour, and after searching his heart, say that. yet in pall mall one afternoon, suddenly, he caught himself with a thought in his head so gross, so smug, that he uttered a faint cry and quickened his steps.... benevolent stepfather! these distresses begot a hope. perhaps, after all, probably, there would be some settlement.... she might not be rich, not so very rich.... she might be tied up.... he perceived in that lay his hope of salvation. otherwise--oh, pitiful soul!--things were possible in him; he saw only too clearly what dreadful things were possible. if only she were disinherited, if only he might take her, stripped of all these possessions that even in such glancing anticipations begot----this horrid indigestion of the imagination! but then,----the hostels?... there he stumbled against an invincible riddle! there was something dreadful about the way in which these considerations blotted out the essential fact of separations abolished, barriers lowered, the way to an honourable love made plain and open.... the day of the funeral came at last, and mr. brumley tried not to think of it, paternally, at margate. he fled from sir isaac's ultimate withdrawal. blenker's obituary notice in the _old country gazette_ was a masterpiece of tactful eulogy, ostentatiously loyal, yet extremely not unmindful of the widowed proprietor, and of all the possible changes of ownership looming ahead. mr. brumley, reading it in the londonward train, was greatly reminded of the hostels. that was a riddle he didn't begin to solve. of course, it was imperative the hostels should continue--imperative. now they might run them together, openly, side by side. but then, with such temptations to hitherto inconceivable vulgarities. and again, insidiously, those visions returned of two figures, manifestly opulent, grouped about a big motor car or standing together under a large subservient archway.... there was a long letter from her at his flat, a long and amazing letter. it was so folded that his eye first caught the writing on the third page: "_never marry again. it is so clear that our work needs all my time and all my means._" his eyebrows rose, his expression became consternation; his hands trembled a little as he turned the letter over to read it through. it was a deliberate letter. it began-- "_dear mr. brumley, i could never have imagined how much there is to do after we are dead, and before we can be buried._" "yes," said mr. brumley; "but what does this _mean_?" "_there are so many surprises_----" "it isn't clear." "_in ourselves and the things about us._" "of course, he would have made some complicated settlement. i might have known." "_it is the strangest thing in the world to be a widow, much stranger than anyone could ever have supposed, to have no one to control one, no one to think of as coming before one, no one to answer to, to be free to plan one's life for oneself_----" * * * * * he stood with the letter in his hand after he had read it through, perplexed. "i can't stand this," he said. "i want to know." he went to his desk and wrote:-- "_my dear, i want you to marry me._" what more was to be said? he hesitated with this brief challenge in his hand, was minded to telegraph it and thought of james's novel, _in the cage_. telegraph operators are only human after all. he determined upon a special messenger and rang up his quarter valet--he shared service in his flat--to despatch it. the messenger boy got back from putney that evening about half-past eight. he brought a reply in pencil. "_my dear friend_," she wrote. "_you have been so good to me, so helpful. but i do not think that is possible. forgive me. i want so badly to think and here i cannot think. i have never been able to think here. i am going down to black strand, and in a day or so i will write and we will talk. be patient with me._" she signed her name "_ellen_"; always before she had been "e.h." "yes," cried mr. brumley, "but i want to know!" he fretted for an hour and went to the telephone. something was wrong with the telephone, it buzzed and went faint, and it would seem that at her end she was embarrassed. "i want to come to you now," he said. "impossible," was the clearest word in her reply. should he go in a state of virile resolution, force her hesitation as a man should? she might be involved there with mrs. harman, with all sorts of relatives and strange people.... in the end he did not go. § he sat at his lunch alone next day at one of the little tables men choose when they shun company. but to the right of him was the table of the politicians, adolphus blenker and pope of the east purblow experiment, and sir piper nicolls, and munk, the editor of the _daily rectification_, sage men all and deep in those mysterious manipulations and wire-pullings by which the liberal party organization was even then preparing for itself unusual distrust and dislike, and horatio blenker was tenoring away after his manner about a case of right and conscience, "blenking like winking" was how a silent member had put it once to brumley in a gust of hostile criticism. "practically if she marries again, she is a pauper," struck on brumley's ears. "of course," said mr. brumley, and stopped eating. "i don't know if you remember the particulars of the astor case," began munk.... never had mr. brumley come so frankly to eavesdropping. but he heard no more of lady harman. munk had to quote the rights and wrongs of various american wills, and then mr. pope seized his opportunity. "at east purblow," he went on, "in quite a number of instances we had to envisage this problem of the widow----" mr. brumley pushed back his plate and strolled towards the desk. it was exactly what he might have expected, what indeed had been at the back of his mind all along, and on the whole he was glad. naturally she hesitated; naturally she wanted time to think, and as naturally it was impossible for her to tell him what it was she was thinking about. they would marry. they must marry. love has claims supreme over all other claims and he felt no doubt that for her his comparative poverty of two thousand a year would mean infinitely more happiness than she had ever known or could know with sir isaac's wealth. she was reluctant, of course, to become dependent upon him until he made it clear to her what infinite pleasure it would be for him to supply her needs. should he write to her forthwith? he outlined a letter in his mind, a very fine and generous letter, good phrases came, and then he reflected that it would be difficult to explain to her just how he had learnt of her peculiar situation. it would be far more seemly to wait either for a public announcement or for some intimation from her. and then he began to realize that this meant the end of all their work at the hostels. in his first satisfaction at escaping that possible great motor-car and all the superfluities of sir isaac's accumulation, he had forgotten that side of the business.... when one came to think it over, the hostels did complicate the problem. it was ingenious of sir isaac.... it was infernally ingenious of sir isaac.... he could not remain in the club for fear that somebody might presently come talking to him and interrupt his train of thought. he went out into the streets. these hostels upset everything. what he had supposed to be a way of escape was really the mouth of a net. whichever way they turned sir isaac crippled them.... § mr. brumley grew so angry that presently even the strangers in the street annoyed him. he turned his face homeward. he hated dilemmas; he wanted always to deny them, to thrust them aside, to take impossible third courses. "for three years," shouted mr. brumley, free at last in his study to give way to his rage, "for three years i've been making her care for these things. and then--and then--they turn against me!" a violent, incredibly undignified wrath against the dead man seized him. he threw books about the room. he cried out vile insults and mingled words of an unfortunate commonness with others of extreme rarity. he wanted to go off to kensal green and hammer at the grave there and tell the departed knight exactly what he thought of him. then presently he became calmer, he lit a pipe, picked up the books from the floor, and meditated revenges upon sir isaac's memory. i deplore my task of recording these ungracious moments in mr. brumley's love history. i deplore the ease with which men pass from loving and serving women to an almost canine fight for them. it is the ugliest essential of romance. there is indeed much in the human heart that i deplore. but mr. brumley was exasperated by disappointment. he was sore, he was raw. driven by an intolerable desire to explore every possibility of the situation, full indeed of an unholy vindictiveness, he went off next morning with strange questions to maxwell hartington. he put the case as a general case. "lady harman?" said maxwell hartington. "no, not particularly lady harman. a general principle. what are people--what are women tied up in such a way to do?" precedents were quoted and possibilities weighed. mr. brumley was flushed, vague but persistent. "suppose," he said, "that they love each other passionately--and their work, whatever it may be, almost as passionately. is there no way----?" "he'll have a _dum casta_ clause right enough," said maxwell hartington. "_dum----? dum casta!_ but, oh! anyhow that's out of the question--absolutely," said mr. brumley. "of course," said maxwell hartington, leaning back in his chair and rubbing the ball of his thumb into one eye. "of course--nobody ever enforces these _dum casta_ clauses. there isn't anyone to enforce them. ever."--he paused and then went on, speaking apparently to the array of black tin boxes in the dingy fixtures before him. "who's going to watch you? that's what i always ask in these cases. unless the lady goes and does things right under the noses of these trustees they aren't going to bother. even sir isaac i suppose hasn't provided funds for a private detective. eh? you said something?" "nothing," said mr. brumley. "well, why should they start a perfectly rotten action like that," continued maxwell hartington, now addressing himself very earnestly to his client, "when they've only got to keep quiet and do their job and be comfortable. in these matters, brumley, as in most matters affecting the relations of men and women, people can do absolutely what they like nowadays, absolutely, unless there's someone about ready to make a row. then they can't do anything. it hardly matters if they don't do anything. a row's a row and damned disgraceful. if there isn't a row, nothing's disgraceful. of course all these laws and regulations and institutions and arrangements are just ways of putting people at the mercy of blackmailers and jealous and violent persons. one's only got to be a lawyer for a bit to realize that. still that's not _our_ business. that's psychology. if there aren't any jealous and violent persons about, well, then no ordinary decent person is going to worry what you do. no decent person ever does. so far as i can gather the only barbarian in this case is the testator--now in kensal green. with additional precautions i suppose in the way of an artistic but thoroughly massive monument presently to be added----" "he'd--turn in his grave." "let him. no trustees are obliged to take action on _that_. i don't suppose they'd know if he did. i've never known a trustee bother yet about post-mortem movements of any sort. if they did, we'd all be having prayers for the dead. fancy having to consider the subsequent reflections of the testator!" "well anyhow," said mr. brumley, after a little pause, "such a breach, such a proceeding is out of the question--absolutely out of the question. it's unthinkable." "then why did you come here to ask me about it?" demanded maxwell hartington, beginning to rub the other eye in an audible and unpleasant manner. § when at last mr. brumley was face to face with lady harman again, a vast mephitic disorderly creation of anticipations, intentions, resolves, suspicions, provisional hypotheses, urgencies, vindications, and wild and whirling stuff generally vanished out of his mind. there beside the raised seat in the midst of the little rock garden where they had talked together five years before, she stood waiting for him, this tall simple woman he had always adored since their first encounter, a little strange and shy now in her dead black uniform of widowhood, but with her honest eyes greeting him, her friendly hands held out to him. he would have kissed them but for the restraining presence of snagsby who had brought him to her; as it was it seemed to him that the phantom of a kiss passed like a breath between them. he held her hands for a moment and relinquished them. "it is so good to see you," he said, and they sat down side by side. "i am very glad to see you again." then for a little while they sat in silence. mr. brumley had imagined and rehearsed this meeting in many different moods. now, he found none of his premeditated phrases served him, and it was the lady who undertook the difficult opening. "i could not see you before," she began. "i did not want to see anyone." she sought to explain. "i was strange. even to myself. suddenly----" she came to the point. "to find oneself free.... mr. brumley,--_it was wonderful!_" he did not interrupt her and presently she went on again. "you see," she said, "i have become a human being----owning myself. i had never thought what this change would be to me.... it has been----. it has been--like being born, when one hadn't realized before that one wasn't born.... now--now i can act. i can do this and that. i used to feel as though i was on strings--with somebody able to pull.... there is no one now able to pull at me, no one able to thwart me...." her dark eyes looked among the trees and mr. brumley watched her profile. "it has been like falling out of a prison from which one never hoped to escape. i feel like a moth that has just come out of its case,--you know how they come out, wet and weak but--released. for a time i feel i can do nothing but sit in the sun." "it's queer," she repeated, "how one tries to feel differently from what one really feels, how one tries to feel as one supposes people expect one to feel. at first i hardly dared look at myself.... i thought i ought to be sorrowful and helpless.... i am not in the least sorrowful or helpless.... "but," said mr. brumley, "are you so free?" "yes." "altogether?" "as free now--as a man." "but----people are saying in london----. something about a will----." her lips closed. her brows and eyes became troubled. she seemed to gather herself together for an effort and spoke at length, without looking at him. "mr. brumley," she said, "before i knew anything of the will----. on the very evening when isaac died----. i knew----i would never marry again. never." mr. brumley did not stir. he remained regarding her with a mournful expression. "i was sure of it then," she said, "i knew nothing about the will. i want you to understand that--clearly." she said no more. the still pause lengthened. she forced herself to meet his eyes. "i thought," he said after a silent scrutiny, and left her to imagine what he had thought.... "but," he urged to her protracted silence, "you _care_?" she turned her face away. she looked at the hand lying idle upon her crape-covered knee. "you are my dearest friend," she said very softly. "you are almost my only friend. but----. i can never go into marriage any more...." "my dear," he said, "the marriage you have known----." "no," she said. "no sort of marriage." mr. brumley heaved a profound sigh. "before i had been a widow twenty-four hours, i began to realize that i was an escaped woman. it wasn't the particular marriage.... it was any marriage.... all we women are tied. most of us are willing to be tied perhaps, but only as people are willing to be tied to life-belts in a wreck--from fear from drowning. and now, i am just one of the free women, like the women who can earn large incomes, or the women who happen to own property. i've paid my penalties and my service is over.... i knew, of course, that you would ask me this. it isn't that i don't care for you, that i don't love your company and your help--and the love and the kindness...." "only," he said, "although it is the one thing i desire, although it is the one return you can make me----. but whatever i have done--i have done willingly...." "my dear!" cried mr. brumley, breaking out abruptly at a fresh point, "i want you to marry me. i want you to be mine, to be my dear close companion, the care of my life, the beauty in my life.... i can't frame sentences, my dear. you know, you know.... since first i saw you, talked to you in this very garden...." "i don't forget a thing," she answered. "it has been my life as well as yours. only----" the grip of her hand tightened on the back of their seat. she seemed to be examining her thumb intently. her voice sank to a whisper. "i won't marry you," she said. § mr. brumley leant back, then he bent forward in a desperate attitude with his hands and arms thrust between his knees, then suddenly he recovered, stood up and then knelt with one knee upon the seat. "what are you going to do with me then?" he asked. "i want you to go on being my friend." "i can't." "you can't?" "no,--i've _hoped_." and then with something almost querulous in his voice, he repeated, "my dear, i want you to marry me and i want now nothing else in the world." she was silent for a moment. "mr. brumley," she said, looking up at him, "have you no thought for our hostels?" mr. brumley as i have said hated dilemmas. he started to his feet, a man stung. he stood in front of her and quivered extended hands at her. "what do such things matter," he cried, "when a man is in love?" she shrank a little from him. "but," she asked, "haven't they always mattered?" "yes," he expostulated; "but these hostels, these hostels.... we've started them--isn't that good enough? we've set them going...." "do you know," she asked, "what would happen to the hostels if i were to marry?" "they would go on," he said. "they would go to a committee. named. it would include mrs. pembrose.... don't you see what would happen? he understood the case so well...." mr. brumley seemed suddenly shrunken. "he understood too well," he said. he looked down at her soft eyes, at her drooping gracious form, and it seemed to him that indeed she was made for love and that it was unendurable that she should be content to think of friendship and freedom as the ultimate purposes of her life.... § presently these two were walking in the pine-woods beyond the garden and mr. brumley was discoursing lamentably of love, this great glory that was denied them. the shade of perplexity deepened in her dark eyes as she listened. ever and again she seemed about to speak and then checked herself and let him talk on. he spoke of the closeness of love and the deep excitement of love and how it filled the soul with pride and the world with wonder, and of the universal right of men and women to love. he told of his dreams and his patience, and of the stormy hopes that would not be suppressed when he heard that sir isaac was dead. and as he pictured to himself the lost delights at which he hinted, as he called back those covert expectations, he forgot that she had declared herself resolved upon freedom at any cost, and his rage against sir isaac, who had possessed and wasted all that he would have cherished so tenderly, grew to nearly uncontrollable proportions. "here was your life," he said, "your beautiful life opening and full--full of such dear seeds of delight and wonder, calling for love, ready for love, and there came this _clutch_, this clutch that embodied all the narrow meanness of existence, and gripped and crumpled you and spoilt you.... for i tell you my dear you don't know; you don't begin to know...." he disregarded her shy eyes, giving way to his gathered wrath. "and he conquers! this little monster of meanness, he conquers to the end--his dead hand, his dead desires, out of the grave they hold you! always, always, it is clutch that conquers; the master of life! i was a fool to dream, a fool to hope. i forgot. i thought only of you and i--that perhaps you and i----" he did not heed her little sound of protest. he went on to a bitter denunciation of the rule of jealousy in the world, forgetting that the sufferer under that rule in this case was his own consuming jealousy. that was life. life was jealousy. it was all made up of fierce graspings, fierce suspicions, fierce resentments; men preyed upon one another even as the beasts they came from; reason made its crushed way through their conflict, crippled and wounded by their blows at one another. the best men, the wisest, the best of mankind, the stars of human wisdom, were but half ineffectual angels carried on the shoulders and guided by the steps of beasts. one might dream of a better world of men, of civilizations and wisdom latent in our passion-strained minds, of calms and courage and great heroical conquests that might come, but they lay tens of thousands of years away and we had to live, we had to die, no more than a herd of beasts tormented by gleams of knowledge we could never possess, of happiness for which we had no soul. he grew more and more eloquent as these thoughts sprang and grew in his mind. "of course i am absurd," he cried. "all men are absurd. man is the absurd animal. we have parted from primordial motives--lust and hate and hunger and fear, and from all the tragic greatness of uncontrollable fate and we, we've got nothing to replace them. we are comic--comic! ours is the stage of comedy in life's history, half lit and blinded,--and we fumble. as absurd as a kitten with its poor little head in a bag. there's your soul of man! mewing. we're all at it, the poets, the teachers. how can anyone hope to escape? why should i escape? what am i that i should expect to be anything but a thwarted lover, a man mocked by his own attempts at service? why should i expect to discover beauty and think that it won't be snatched away from me? all my life is comic--the story of this--this last absurdity could it make anything but a comic history? and yet within me my heart is weeping tears. the further one has gone, the deeper one wallows in the comic marsh. i am one of the newer kind of men, one of those men who cannot sit and hug their credit and their honour and their possessions and be content. i have seen the light of better things than that, and because of my vision, because of my vision and for no other reason i am the most ridiculous of men. always i have tried to go out from myself to the world and give. those early books of mine, those meretricious books in which i pretended all was so well with the world,--i did them because i wanted to give happiness and contentment and to be happy in the giving. and all the watchers and the grippers, the strong silent men and the calculating possessors of things, the masters of the world, they grinned at me. how i lied to please! but i tell you for all their grinning, in my very prostitution there was a better spirit than theirs in their successes. if i had to live over again----" he left that hypothesis uncompleted. "and now," he said, with a curious contrast between his voice and the exaltation of his sentiments, "now that i am to be your tormented, your emasculated lover to the very end of things, emasculated by laws i hate and customs i hate and vile foresights that i despise----" he paused, his thread lost for a moment. "because," he said, "i'm going to do it. i'm going to do what i can. i'm going to be as you wish me to be, to help you, to serve you.... if you can't come to meet me, i'll meet you. i can't help but love you, i can't do without you. never in my life have i subscribed willingly to the idea of renunciation. i've hated renunciation. but if there is no other course but renunciation, renunciation let it be. i'm bitter about this, bitter to the bottom of my soul, but at least i'll have you know i love you. anyhow...." his voice broke. there were tears in his eyes. and on the very crest of these magnificent capitulations his soul rebelled. he turned about so swiftly that for a sentence or so she did not realize the nature of his change. her mind remained glowing with her distressed acceptance of his magnificent nobility. "i can't," he said. he flung off his surrenders as a savage might fling off a garment. "when i think of his children," he said. "when i think of the world filled by his children, the children you have borne him--and i--forbidden almost to touch your hand!" and flying into a passion mr. brumley shouted "no!" "not even to touch your hand!" "i won't do it," he assured her. "i won't do it. if i cannot be your lover--i will go away. i will never see you again. i will do anything--anything, rather than suffer this degradation. i will go abroad. i will go to strange places. i will aviate. i will kill myself--or anything, but i won't endure this. i won't. you see, you ask too much, you demand more than flesh and blood can stand. i've done my best to bring myself to it and i can't. i won't have that--that----" he waved his trembling fingers in the air. he was absolutely unable to find an epithet pointed enough and bitter enough to stab into the memory of the departed knight. he thought of him as marble, enthroned at kensal green, with a false dignity, a false serenity, and intolerable triumph. he wanted something, some monosyllable to expound and strip all that, some lung-filling sky-splitting monosyllable that one could shout. his failure increased his exasperation. "i won't have him grinning, at me," he said at last. "and so, it's one thing or the other. there's no other choice. but i know your choice. i see your choice. it's good-bye--and why--why shouldn't i go now?" he waved his arms about. he was pitifully ridiculous. his face puckered as an ill-treated little boy's might do. this time it wasn't just the pathetic twinge that had broken his voice before; he found himself to his own amazement on the verge of loud, undignified, childish weeping. he was weeping passionately and noisily; he was over the edge of it, and it was too late to snatch himself back. the shame which could not constrain him, overcame him. a preposterous upward gesture of the hands expressed his despair. and abruptly this unhappy man of letters turned from her and fled, the most grief-routed of creatures, whooping and sobbing along a narrow pathway through the trees. § he left behind him an exceedingly distressed and astonished lady. she had stood with her eyes opening wider and wider at this culminating exhibition. "but mr. brumley!" she had cried at last. "mr. brumley!" he did not seem to hear her. and now he was running and stumbling along very fast through the trees, so that in a few minutes he would be out of sight. dismay came with the thought that he might presently go out of sight altogether. for a moment she seemed to hesitate. then with a swift decision and a firm large grasp of the hand, she gathered up her black skirts and set off after him along the narrow path. she ran. she ran lightly, with a soft rhythmic fluttering of white and black. the long crêpe bands she wore in sir isaac's honour streamed out behind her. "but mr. brumley," she panted unheard. "mister brumley!" he went from her fast, faster than she could follow, amidst the sun-dappled pine stems, and as he went he made noises between bellowing and soliloquy, heedless of any pursuit. all she could hear was a heart-wringing but inexpressive "wa, wa, wooh, wa, woo," that burst from him ever and again. through a more open space among the trees she fancied she was gaining upon him, and then as the pines came together again and were mingled with young spruces, she perceived that he drew away from her more and more. and he went round a curve and was hidden, and then visible again much further off, and then hidden----. she attempted one last cry to him, but her breath failed her, and she dropped her pace to a panting walk. surely he would not go thus into the high road! it was unendurable to think of him rushing out into the high road--blind with sorrow--it might be into the very bonnet of a passing automobile. she passed beyond the pines and scanned the path ahead as far as the stile. then she saw him, lying where he had flung himself, face downward among the bluebells. "oh!" she whispered to herself, and put one hand to her heart and drew nearer. she was flooded now with that passion of responsibility, with that wild irrational charity which pours out of the secret depths of a woman's stirred being. she came up to him so lightly as to be noiseless. he did not move, and for a moment she remained looking at him. then she said once more, and very gently-- "mr. brumley." he started, listened for a second, turned over, sat up and stared at her. his face was flushed and his hair extremely ruffled. and a slight moisture recalled his weeping. "mr. brumley," she repeated, and suddenly there were tears of honest vexation in her voice and eyes. "you _know_ i cannot do without you." he rose to his knees, and never, it seemed to him, had she looked so beautiful. she was a little out of breath, her dusky hair was disordered, and there was an unwonted expression in her eyes, a strange mingling of indignation and tenderness. for a moment they stared unaffectedly at each other, each making discoveries. "oh!" he sighed at last; "whatever you please, my dear. whatever you please. i'm going to do as you wish, if you wish it, and be your friend and forget all this"--he waved an arm--"loving." there were signs of a recrudescence of grief, and, inarticulate as ever, she sank to her knees close beside him. "let us sit quietly among these hyacinths," said mr. brumley. "and then afterwards we will go back to the house and talk ... talk about our hostels." he sat back and she remained kneeling. "of course," he said, "i'm yours--to do just as you will with. and we'll work----. i've been a bit of a stupid brute. we'll work. for all those people. it will be--oh! a big work, quite a big work. big enough for us to thank god for. only----." the sight of her panting lips had filled him with a wild desire, that set every nerve aquivering, and yet for all that had a kind of moderation, a reasonableness. it was a sisterly thing he had in mind. he felt that if this one desire could be satisfied, then honour would be satisfied, that he would cease grudging sir isaac--anything.... but for some moments he could not force himself to speak of this desire, so great was his fear of a refusal. "there's one thing," he said, and all his being seemed aquiver. he looked hard at the trampled bluebells about their feet. 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whatever, each one beginning as abruptly as in life; although in none of his previous work has the author been so minute in his social observation and narration. a descriptive title precedes each episode, as in the moving-picture; and it was in fact while watching a moving-picture that mr. lucas had the idea of adapting its swift selective methods to fiction. published by the macmillan company - fifth avenue new york vertebrata*** e-text prepared by "teary eyes" anderson and dedicated to destanie; with hopes her dream of becoming a veterinarian comes true special thanks to deborah furness of the university college london for her help, and research, in learning about this book, and helping me understand it better. spellchecked with www.thesolutioncafe.com note: project gutenberg also has an html version of this file which includes the original illustrations. see -h.htm or -h.zip: (http://www.gutenberg.net/dirs/ / / / / / -h/ -h.htm) or (http://www.gutenberg.net/dirs/ / / / / / -h.zip) transcriber's note: i try to edit my e-texts so they can easily be used with voice speech programs, i believe blind people and children should also be able to enjoy the many books now available electronically. i use the -- for an em-dash, with a space either before or after it depending on its usage. this helps to keep certain programs from squishing the words together, such as down-stairs. also to help voice speech programs i've enclosed upper case text between - and _ (-upper case text_), and used underscores to show chapter and section headers. i also added a second contents that shows the other sections of this e-text. this e-text was made with a "top can" text scanner, with a bit of correcting here and there. this book is volume one of two. it was later reworked by a. m. davies in under the title "text-book of zoology", then revised and rewritten by j. t. cunningham about and w. h. leigh-sharpe around . although these editions gave wells the main credit, most of wells' writing and all his drawings were removed; only his rough outline seems to have been used. it was re-published by university tutorial press. the first edition, as well as the second and revised edition (with dissections redrawn by miss a. c. robbins) are used in this e-text. the first edition had some small minor errors, as well as dissection abbreviations that are shown on the dissection sheets, but no mention of them was listed in the text. certain figures on the dissections sheets are missing (such as figures , , , with no mention to a , as if mr. wells drew a figure but found it was not needed and removed it from the book). rather then leaving it as is, i put {} marks around my notes saying things like {no figure }. for the "second and revised edition" wells was able to change some of these errors and missing parts, but many of the same printing tablets were used and with almost each addition other things were removed, (in one instance one entire section from a chapter), and many of the helpful suggestions were shortened or removed so other things could be explained more. in an ideal version of the book both could have been used, but with reprinting the entire book from the first to the second editions almost as many things were lost as were gained, so i've tried to indicate where both text go separate paths with the following; [second edition only text] and -first edition only text,- and also {lines from second edition only.} and {lines from first edition only.} were more then just a sentence is added or removed. other things to notice is how some words are spelt or punctuated differently throughout the book, such as; blood vessels blood-vessels bloodvessels i've tried to keep these as close to the original book as possible. university correspondence college tutorial series. -text-book of biology._ by h. g. wells, bachelor of science, london., fellow of the zoological society. lecturer in biology at university tutorial college. with an introduction by g. b. howes, fellow of the linnean society, fellow of the zoological society. assistant professor of zoology, royal college of science, london. part .-- vertebrata. contents introduction preface the rabbit-- . external form and general considerations . the alimentary canal of the rabbit . the circulation . the amoeba, cells and tissue . the skeleton . muscle and nerve . the nervous system . renal and reproductive organs . classificatory points . questions and exercises the frog-- . general anatomy . the skull of the frog (and the vertebrate skull generally) . questions on the frog the dog-fish-- . general anatomy . questions on the dog-fish amphioxus-- . anatomy . the development of amphioxus . questions on amphioxus development-- the development of the frog the development of the fowl the development of the rabbit the theory of evolution questions on embryology miscellaneous questions note on making comparisons syllabus of practical work {contents part } key for dissection sheets, and abbreviations -introduction_ in the year i was invited to give tuition by correspondence, in biology. although disposed at the time to ridicule the idea of imparting instruction in natural science by letter, i gladly accepted the opportunity thus afforded me of ascertaining for myself what could and could not be accomplished in that direction. anyone familiar with the scope of biological enquiry, and the methods of biological instruction, will not need to be reminded that it is only by the most rigorous employment of precise directions for observation, that any good results are to be looked for at the hand of the elementary student. true to this principle, i determined to issue to my correspondence pupils rigid instructions, and to demand in return faithful annotated drawings of facts observed in their usage. in the case of two among the few students who passed through my hands, the result far exceeded my most sanguine anticipations. the notes sent in by one of them-- a man working at a distance, alone and unaided-- far excelled those wrung from many a student placed under the most favourable surroundings; and their promise for the future has been fulfilled to the utmost, the individual in question being now a recognised investigator. it thus became clear that, not-with-standing the complex conditions of work in the biological field, tuition by correspondence would suffice to awaken the latent abilities of a naturally qualified enquirer. the average members of a university correspondence class will be found neither better nor worse than those of any other, and they may therefore pass unnoticed; if however, the correspondence system of tuition may furnish the means of arousing a latent aptitude, when the possibilities of other methods of approach are excluded-- and in so doing, of elevating the individual to that position for which he was by nature qualified, ensuring him the introduction to the one sphere of labour for which he was born-- it will have created its own defence, and have merited the confidence of all right-thinking people. the plucking of one such brand from the burning is ample compensation for the energy expended on any number of average dullards, who but require to be left alone to find their natural level. mr. wells' little book is avowedly written for examination purposes, and in conformity with the requirements of the now familiar "type system" of teaching. recent attempts have been made to depreciate this. while affording a discipline in detailed observation and manipulation second to that of no other branch of learning, it provides for that "deduction" and "verification" by which all science has been built up; and this appears to me ample justification for its retention, as the most rational system which can be to-day adopted. evidence that its alleged shortcomings are due rather to defective handling than to any inherent weakness of its own, would not be difficult to produce. although rigid in its discipline, it admits of commentatorial treatment which, while heightening the interest of the student, is calculated to stimulate alike his ambition and his imagination. that the sister sciences of botany and zoology fall under one discipline, is expressed in the english usage of the term "biology." experience has shown that the best work in either department has been produced by those who have acquired on all-round knowledge of at least the elementary stages of both; and, that the advanced morphologist and physiologist are alike the better for a familiarity with the principles-- not to say with the progressive advancement-- of each other's domain, is to-day undeniable. these and other allied considerations, render it advisable that the elementary facts of morphology and physiology should be presented to the beginner side by side-- a principle too frequently neglected in books which, like this one, are specially written for the biological neophyte. although the student is the wiser for the actual observation of the fact of nature, he becomes the better only when able to apply them, as for example, by the judicious construction of elementary generalizations, such as are introduced into the pages of this work. so long as these generalizations, regarded as first attempts to deduce "laws" in the form of "generalized statement of facts based observation," are properly introduced into an elementary text-book, intended for the isolated worker cut off from the lecture room, their intercalation is both healthy and desirable. mr. wells has kept these precepts constantly in mind in the preparation of his work, and in the formulation of his plans for its future extension, thereby enhancing the value of the book itself, and at the same time, discouraging the system of pure cram, which is alien to the discipline of biological science. g. b. howes royal college of science, south kensington; november , . -preface_ no method of studying-- more especially when the objects of study are tangible things-- can rival that prosecuted under the direction and in the constant presence of a teacher who has also a living and vivid knowledge of the matter which he handles with the student. in the ideal world there is a plentiful supply of such teachers, and easy access to their teaching, but in this real world only a favoured few enjoy these advantages. through causes that cannot be discussed here, a vast number of solitary workers are scattered through the country, to whom sustained help in this form is impossible, or possible only in days stolen from a needed vacation; and to such students especially does this book appeal, as well as to those more fortunate learners who are within reach of orderly instruction, but anxious to save their teachers' patience and their own time by some preliminary work. one of the most manifest disadvantages of book-work, under the conditions of the solitary worker, is the rigidity of its expressions; if the exact meaning is doubtful, he can not ask a question. this has been kept in view throughout; the writer has, above all, sought to be explicit-- has, saving over-sights, used no uncommon or technical term without a definition or a clear indication of its meaning. in this study of biology, the perception and memory of form is a very important factor indeed. every student should draw sketches of his dissections, and accustom himself to copying book diagrams, in order to train his eye to perception of details he might otherwise disregard. the drawing required is within the reach of all; but for those who are very inexperienced, tracing figures is a useful preliminary exercise. by the time the student has read the "circulation of the rabbit" (sections to ), he will be ready to begin dissection. it is possible to hunt to death even such a sound educational maxim as the "thing before the name," and we are persuaded, by a considerable experience, that dissection before some such preparatory reading is altogether a mistake. at the end of the book is a syllabus (with suggestions) for practical work, originally drawn up by the writer for his own private use with the evening classes of the university tutorial college-- classes of students working mainly in their spare time for the london examination, and at an enormous disadvantage, as regards the number of hours available, in comparison with the leisurely students of a university laboratory. this syllabus may, perhaps by itself, serve a useful purpose in some cases, but in this essential part of the study the presence of some experienced overlooker to advise, warn, and correct, is at first almost indispensable. a few words may, perhaps be said with respect to the design of this volume. it is manifestly modelled upon the syllabus of the intermediate examination in science of london university. that syllabus, as at present constituted, appears to me to afford considerable scope for fairly efficient biological study. the four types dealt with in this book are extremely convenient for developing the methods of comparative anatomy and morphological embryology. without any extensive reference to related organisms, these four forms, and especially the three vertebrata, may be made to explain and illustrate one another in a way that cannot fail to be educational in the truest sense. after dealing with the rabbit, therefore, as an organic mechanism, our sections upon the frog and dog-fish, and upon development, are simply statements of differences, and a commentary, as it were, upon the anatomy of the mammalian type. in the concluding chapter, a few suggestions of the most elementary ideas of it is hoped to make this first part of our biological course complete in itself, and of some real and permanent value to the student. and the writer is convinced that not only is a constant insistence upon resemblances and differences, and their import, intellectually the most valuable, but also the most interesting, and therefore the easiest, way of studying animal anatomy. that chaotic and breathless cramming of terms misunderstood, tabulated statements, formulated "tips," and lists of names, in which so many students, in spite of advice, waste their youth is, i sincerely hope, as impossible with this book as it is useless for the purposes of a london candidate. on the other hand, our chief endeavour has been to render the matter of the book clear, connected, progressive, and easily assimilable. in the second part plants, unicellular organisms, and invertebrata will be dealt with, in a wider and less detailed view of the entire biological province. {lines from first edition only.} -in this volume, we study four organisms, and chiefly in their relation to each other; in the next, we shall study a number of organisms largely in relation to their environment. in this part our key note is the evidence of inheritance; in our second part it will be of adaptation to circumstances.- this book will speedily, under the scrutiny of the critical reader, reveal abundant weakness. for these the author claims the full credit. for whatever merit it may posses, he must however, acknowledge his profound indebtedness to his former teacher, professor howes. not only has the writer enjoyed in the past the privilege of professor howes' instruction and example, but he has, during the preparation of this work, received the readiest help, advise, and encouragement from him-- assistance as generous as it was unmerited, and as unaffected as it was valuable. {lines from second edition only.} [the publication of a second and revised edition of this part affords the author an opportunity of expressing his sense of the general kindliness of his reviewers, and the help they have him in improving this maiden effort. to no one is there vouchsafed such a facility in the discovery of errors in a book as to its author, so soon as it has passed beyond his power of correction. hence the general tone of encouragement (and in some cases the decided approval) of the members of this termination to a period of considerable remorse and apprehension.] i have been able through their counsel, and the experience i have had while using this book in teaching, to correct several printer's errors and to alter various ambiguous or misleading expressions, as well as to bring the book up to date again in one or two particulars. my thanks are particularly due to my friend miss robbins, who has very kindly redrawn the occasionally rather blottesque figures of the first edition. not only have these plates gained immensely in grace and accuracy, but the lettering is now distinct-- an improvement that any student who has had to hunt my reference letters in the first edition will at once appreciate. h. g. wells november, . {first edition.} december, . {second edition.} -the rabbit._ . _external form and general considerations._ section . it is unnecessary to enter upon a description of the appearance of this familiar type, but it is not perhaps superfluous, as we proceed to consider its anatomy, to call attention to one or two points in its external, or externally apparent structure. most of our readers know that it belongs to that one of two primary animal divisions which is called the vertebrata, and that the distinctive feature which place it in this division is the possession of a spinal column or backbone, really a series of small ring-like bones, the vertebrae (figure v.b.) strung together, as it were, on the main nerve axis, the spinal cord (figure s.c.). this spinal column can be felt along the neck and back to the tail. this tail is small, tilted up, and conspicuously white beneath, and it serves as a "recognition mark" to guide the young when, during feeding, an alarm is given and a bolt is made for the burrows. in those more primitive (older and simpler-fashioned) vertebrata, the fishes, the tail is much large and far more important, as compared with the rest of the body, than it is in most of the air-inhabiting vertebrates. in the former it is invariably a great muscular mass to propel the body forward; in the latter it may disappear, as in the frog, be simply a feather-bearing stump, as in the pigeon, a fly flicker, as in the cow or horse, a fur cape in squirrel, or be otherwise reduced and modified to meet special requirements. section . at the fore end, or as english zoologists prefer to say, anterior end, of the vertebral column of the rabbit, is of course the skull, containing the anterior portion of the nerve axis, the brain (figure br.). between the head and what is called "the body," in the more restricted sense of the word, is the neck. the neck gives freedom of movement to the head, enables the animal to look this way and that, to turn its ears about to determine the direction of a sound, and to perform endless motions in connexion with biting and so forth easily. we may note that in types which swim through the water, the neck dose not appear-- in the fish and frog, for instance-- and the head simply widens out as one passes back to the body. the high resistance offered by water necessitates this tendency to a cigar or ship outline, just as it has determined the cigar shape of the ordinary fish torpedo. section . in the body of the rabbit, as examined from the outside, we can make out by feeling two distinct regions, just as we might in the body of a man; anteriorily a bony cage, having the ribs at the sides, a rod-like bone in the front, the sternum (figure -st.-, [stm.]), and the backbone behind, and called the chest or thorax; and posteriorily a part called the abdomen, which has no bony protection over its belly, or ventral surface. these parts together with the neck constitute the trunk. as a consequence of these things, in the backbone of the rabbit there are four regions: the neck, or cervical part, consisting of seven vertebrae, the thoracic part of twelve joined to ribs, the abdominal (also called the lumbar) region of seven without ribs, and the tail or caudal of about fifteen. between the lumbar and caudal come four vertebrae, the sacral, which tend to run together into a bony mass as the animal grows old, and which form a firm attachment for the base of the hind limb. section . the thorax and abdomen are separated by a partition, the diaphragm (figure dia.). this structure is distinctive of that class of the vertebrata called mammals, and which includes man, most of the larger and commoner land animals, and whales and manatee. we shall find later that it is essentially connected with the perfection of the air breathing to which this group has attained. another characteristic shared by all mammals, and by no other creature, is the presence of hair. in birds we have an equally characteristic cover in the feathers, the frog is naked, and the fishes we find either naked skins or scales. section . the short strong fore limbs are adapted to the burrowing habit, and have five digits; the hind limbs are very much longer and muscular, enable the animal to progress rapidly by short leaps, and they have four toes. if the student thinks it worth while to attempt to remember the number of digits-- it is the fault of examiners if any value dose attach to such intrinsically valueless facts-- he should associate the number ( in front, behind) with the rabbit, and observe that with the frog the reverse is the case. section . we may note here the meaning of certain terms we shall be constantly employing. the head end of the rabbit is anterior, the tail end posterior, the backbone side of the body-- the upper side in life-- is dorsal, the breast and belly side, the lower side of the animal, is ventral. if we imagine the rabbit sawn asunder, as it were, by a plane passing through the head and tail, that would be the median plane, and parts on either side of it are lateral, and left or right according as they lie to the animal's left or right. in a limb, or in the internal organs, the part nearest the central organ, or axis, is proximal, the more remote or terminal parts are distal. for instance, the mouth is anteriorly placed, the tongue on its ventral wall; the tongue is median, the eyes are lateral, and the fingers are distal to the elbow. the student must accustom himself to these words, and avoid, in his descriptions, the use of such terms as "above," "below," "outside," which vary with the position in which we conceive the animal placed. section . so much for the general form; we may note a few facts of general knowledge, in connection with the rabbit's life-activity. in a day of the rabbit's life a considerable amount of work is done-- the animal runs hither and thither, for instance; in other words, a certain mass of matter is moved through space, and for that we know force must be exerted. whence comes the force? section . we find the rabbit occupies a considerable amount of its time in taking in vegetable matter, consisting chiefly of more or less complex combustible and unstable organic compounds. it is a pure vegetarian, and a remarkably moderate drinker. some but only a small proportion, of the vegetable matter it eats, leaves its body comparatively unchanged, in little pellets, the faeces, in the process of defaecation. for the rest we have to account. section . we find, also, that the rabbit breathes air into its lungs, which is returned to the atmosphere with a lessened amount of oxygen, and the addition of a perceptible amount of carbon dioxide. the rabbit also throws off, or excretes, a fluid, the urine, which consists of water with a certain partially oxydised substance containing nitrogen, and called urea, and other less important salts. the organs within the body, by which the urine is separated, are called the kidneys. section . repeating these facts in other words, the rabbit takes into its body complex and unstable organic compounds containing nitrogen, carbon, hydrogen, a certain amount of oxygen, a small quantity of sulphur, and still smaller amounts of other elements. it also breathes in oxygen. section . it returns a certain rejected part of its food comparatively unchanged. besides this, it returns carbon dioxide and water, which are completely oxydised, and very simple and stable bodies, and urea-- a less completely oxydised compound, but a very simple one compared with the food constituents. section . now the chemist tells us that when a stable body is formed, or when an unstable compound decomposes into simpler stable ones, force is evolved. the oxydation of carbon, for instance, in the fireplace, is the formation of the stable compound called carbon dioxide, and light and heat are evolved. the explosion of dynamite, again is the decomposition of an unstable compound. hence, we begin to perceive that force-- the vital force-- which keeps the rabbit moving, is supplied by the decomposition and partial oxydation of compounds continued in its food, to carbon dioxide, water, urea, and smaller quantities of other substances. section . this is the roughest statement of the case possible, but it will give the general idea underlying our next chapters. we shall consider how the food enters the body and is taken up into the system, how it is conveyed to the muscles in the limbs, to the nerve centres, and to wherever work is done, to be there decomposed and partially oxydised, and finally how the products of its activity-- the katastases, of which the three principal are carbon dioxide, water, and urea-- are removed from the body. section . there are one or two comparatively modern terms that we may note here. this decomposition of unstable chemical compounds, releasing energy, is called kataboly. a reverse process, which has a less conspicuous part in our first view of the animal's life action, by which unstable compounds are built up and energy stored, is called anaboly. the katastases are the products of kataboly. section . in an ordinary animal, locomotion and other activity predominate over nutritive processes, which fact we may express, in the terms just given, by saying that kataboly prevails over anaboly. an animal, as we have just explained, is an apparatus for the decomposition and partial oxydation of certain compounds, and these are obtained either directly or indirectly-- through other animals, in the case of meat-eaters-- from the vegetable kingdom. as the student will learn early in his botanical reading, the typical plant has, in its green colouring matter, chlorophyll, a trap to catch the radiating energy of the sun, and to accomplish, by the absorption of that energy, the synthesis (building up) of those organic compounds which the animal destroys. the typical plant is, on whole, passive and synthetic, or anabolic; the typical animal, active and katabolic; and the excess of kataboly over anaboly in the animal is compensated for by the anabolic work stored up, as it were, by the plant, which is, directly or indirectly, the animal's food. . _the alimentary canal of the rabbit_ section . figure represents the general anatomy of the rabbit, but is especially intended to show the alimentary (= food) canal, shortened to a certain extent, and with the proportions altered, in order to avoid any confusing complications. it is evidently simply a coiled tube-- coiled for the sake of packing-- with occasional dilatations, and with one side-shunt, the caecum (cae.), into which the food enters, and is returned to the main line, after probably absorbent action, imperfectly understood at present. a spiral fold in this cul-de-sac {bottom-of-sack}, which is marked externally by constrictions, has a directive influence on the circulation of its contents. the student should sketch figure once or twice, and make himself familiar with the order and names of the parts before proceeding. we have, in succession, the mouth (m.), separated from the nasal passage (na.) above the palate; the pharynx (ph.), where the right and left nasal passages open by the posterior nares into the mouth; the oesophagus (oes.); the bag-like stomach, its left (section ) end being called the cardiac (cd.st.), and its right the pyloric end (py.); the u-shaped duodenum (ddnm.) and the very long and greatly coiled ileum (il.). the duodenum and ileum together form the small intestine; and the ileum is dilated at its distal end into a thick-walled sacculus rotundus (s.r.), beyond which point comes the large intestine. the colon (co.) and rectum (r.) continue the main line of the alimentary canal; but, at the beginning of the large intestine, there is also inserted a great side-shunt, the caecum (cae.), ending blindly in a fleshy vermiform appendix (v.ap.). the figure will indicate how the parts are related better than any verbal description can. between the coiling alimentary tube and the body walls is a space, into which the student cuts when he begins dissecting; this is the peritoneal cavity (pt.). a thin, transparent membrane, the mesentery, holds the intestines in place, and binds them to the dorsal wall of this peritoneal space. section . the food stuffs of an animal, the unstable compounds destined ultimately to be worked into its life, and to leave it again in the form of katastases (section ), fall into two main divisions. the first of these includes the non-nitrogenous food stuffs, containing either carbon together with hydrogen and oxygen in the proportion of h o (the carbo-hydrates), or carbon and hydrogen without oxygen (the hydrocarbons). the second division consists of the nitrogenous materials, containing also carbon, hydrogen, a certain amount of oxygen, sulphur, and possibly other elements. among the carbohydrates, the commonest are starch and cellulose, which are insoluble bodies, and sugar, which is soluble. the hydrocarbons, fats, oils, and so on, form a comparatively small proportion of the rabbit's diet; the proverb of "oil and water" will remind the student that these are insoluble. the nitrogenous bodies have their type in the albumen of an egg; and muscle substance and the less modified living "protoplasm" of plants, a considerable proportion of the substance of seeds, bulbs, and so on, are albuminous bodies, or proteids. these also are insoluble bodies, or when soluble, will not diffuse easily through animal membranes. section . now the essential problem which the digestive canal of the rabbit solves is to get these insoluble, or quasi-insoluble, bodies into its blood and system. they have to pass somehow into the circulation through the walls of the alimentary canal. in order that a compound should diffuse through a membrane, it must be both soluble and diffusible, and therefore an essential preliminary to the absorption of nutritive matter is its conversion into a diffusible soluble form. this is effected by certain fluids, formed either by the walls of the alimentary canal or by certain organs called glands, which open by ducts into it; all these fluids contain small quantities of organic compounds of the class called ferments, and these are the active agents in the change. the soluble form of the carbohydrates is sugar; proteids can be changed into the, of course, chemically equivalent but soluble and diffusible the peptones; and fats and oils undergo a more complicated, but finally similar change. section . we shall discuss the structure and action of -a gland- [glands] a little more fully in a subsequent chapter. here we will simply say that they are organs forming each its characteristic fluid or secretion, and sending it by a conduit, the duct, to the point where its presence is required. the saliva in our mouths, tears, and perspiration, are examples of the secretions of glands. section . in the month of the rabbit the food is acted upon by the teeth and saliva. the saliva contains ptyalin, a ferment converting starch into sugar, and it also serves to moisten the food as it is ground up by the cheek teeth. it does not act on fat to any appreciable extent. the teeth of the rabbit are shown in figure xviii., sheet . the incisor teeth in front, two pairs above and one pair below (i.), are simply employed in grasping the food; the cheek teeth-- the premolars (pm.) and molars (m.) behind-- triturate the food by a complicated motion over each. their crowns are flat for this purpose, with harder ridges running across them. section . this grinding up of the food in the mouth invariably occurs in herbivorous animals, where there is a considerable amount of starch and comparatively little hydrocarbon in the food. by finely dividing the food, it ensures its intimate contact with the digestive ferment, ptyalin. in such meat-eaters as the cat and dog, where little starchy matter and much fat is taken, the saliva is, of course, of less importance, and this mastication does not occur. the cheek teeth of a dog ({section }), and more so of a cat, are sharp, and used for gnawing off fragments of food, which are swallowed at once. between the incisors and premolars of a dog come the characteristic biting teeth, or canines, absent in the rabbit. section . the student will probably ask why the cheek teeth, which are all similar in appearance, are divided into premolars and molars. the rabbit has a set of milk molars-- a milk dentition-- which are followed by the permanent teeth, just as in man. those cheek teeth of the second set, which have predecessors in the first series, are called premolars; the ones posterior to these are the molars. section . after mastication, the food is worked by the tongue and cheeks into a saliva-soaked "bolus" and swallowed. the passage down the oesophagus is called deglutition. in the stomach it comes under the influence of the gastric juice, formed in little glandular pits in the stomach wall-- the gastric (figure viii. sheet ) and pyloric glands. this fluid is distinctly acid, its acidity being due to about one-tenth per cent {of a hundred} of hydrochloric acid, and it therefore stops any further action of the ptyalin, which can act only on neutral or slightly alkaline fluids. the gastric juice does not act on carbo-hydrates or hydrocarbons to any very noticeable degree. its essential property is the conversion of proteids into peptones, and the ferment by which this is effected is called pepsin. milk contains a peculiar soluble proteid, called casein, which is precipitated by a special ferment, the rennet-ferment, and the insoluble proteid, the curd, thus obtained is then acted on by the pepsin. in the manufacture of cheese, the rennetferment obtained, from the stomach of a calf is used to curdle the milk. section . after the food has undergone digestion in the stomach it passes into the duodenum, the u-shaped loop of intestine immediately succeeding the stomach. the duodenum is separated from the stomach by a ring-like muscular valve, the pylorus; this valve belongs to the class of muscles called sphincters, which, under ordinary circumstances, are closed, but which relax to open the circular central aperture. the valve at the anus, which retains the faeces, is another instance of a sphincter. section . the food at this stage is called chyme; it is an acid and soup-like fluid-- acid through the influence of the gastric juice. the temperature of the animal's body is sufficiently high to keep most of the fat in the food melted and floating in oily drops; much of the starch, has been changed to sugar, and the solid proteids to soluble peptones, but many fragments of material still float unchanged. section . it meets now with the bile, a greenish fluid secreted by that large and conspicuous gland the liver. the bile is not simply a digestive secretion, like the saliva or the gastric juice; it contains matters destined to mix in, and after a certain amount of change to be passed out of the body with, the faeces; among these substances, of which some portion is doubtless excretory, are compounds containing sulphur-- the bile salts. there is also a colouring matter, bili verdin, which may possibly also be excretory. if the student will compare sections and , he will notice that in those paragraphs no account is taken of the sulphur among the katastases, the account does not balance, and he will at once see that here probably is the missing item on the outgoing side. the bile, through the presence of these salts, is strongly alkaline, and so stops the action of the gastric juice, and prepares for that of the pancreas, which can act only in an alkaline medium. the fermentive action of the bile is trifling; it dissolves fats, to a certain extent, and is antiseptic, that is, it prevents putrefaction to which the chyme might be liable; it also seems to act as a natural purgative. section . the bile, as we shall see later, is by no means the sole product of the liver. section . the pancreatic juice, the secretion of the pancreas is remarkable as acting on all the food stuffs that have not already become soluble. it emulsifies fats, that is, it breaks, the drops up into extremely small globules, forming a milky fluid, and it furthermore has a fermentive action upon them; it splits them up into fatty acids, and the soluble body glycerine. the fatty acids combine with alkaline substances (section ) to form bodies which belong to the chemical group of soaps, and which are soluble also. the pancreatic juice also attacks any proteids that have escaped the gastric juice, and converts them into peptones, and any residual starch into sugar. hence by this stage, in the duodenum, all the food constituents noticed in section are changed into soluble forms. there are probably, three distinct ferments in the pancreatic juice acting respectively on starch, fat, and proteid, but they have not been isolated, and the term pancreatin is sometimes used to suggest the three together. section . a succus entericus, a saliva-like fluid secreted by numerous small glands in the intestine wall (brunner's glands, lieberkuhnian follicles), probably aids, to an unknown but comparatively small extent, in the digestive processes. section . the walls of the whole of the small intestine are engaged in the absorption of the soluble results of digestion. in the duodenum, especially, small processes, the villi project into the cavity, and being, like the small hairs of velvet pile, and as thickly set, give its inner coat a velvety appearance. in a villus we find (figure ix., sheet ) a series of small blood-vessels and with it another vessel called a lacteal. the lacteals run together into larger and larger branches until they form a main trunk, the thoracic duct, which opens into the blood circulation at a point near the heart; but of this we shall speak further later. they contain, after a meal, a fluid called chyle. section . emulsified fats pass into the chyle. water and diffusible salts certainly pass into the vein. the course taken by the peptones is uncertain, but professor foster favours the chyle in the case of the rabbit-- the student should read his text-book of physiology, part , chapter , section , if interested in the further discussion of this question. section . the processes that occur in the remaining portions of the alimentary canal are imperfectly understood. the caecum is so large in the rabbit that it must almost certainly be of considerable importance. in carnivorous animals it may be so much reduced as to be practically absent. an important factor in the diet of the herbivorous animals, and one absent from the food of the carnivora, is that carbohydrate, the building material of all green-meat- [food], cellulose, and there is some ground for thinking that the caecum is probably a region of special fermentive action upon it. the pancreatic juice, it may be noted, exercises a slight digestive activity upon this substance. section . water is most largely absorbed in the large intestine, and in it the rejected (mainly insoluble) portion of the food gradually acquires its dark colour and other faecal characteristics. . _the circulation_ section . the next thing to consider is the distribution of the food material absorbed through the walls of the alimentary canal to the living and active parts of the body. this is one of the functions of the series of structures-- heart and blood-vessels, called the circulation, circulatory system, or vascular system. it is not the only function. the blood also carries the oxygen from the lungs to the various parts where work is done and kataboly occurs, and it carries away the katastases to the points where they are excreted-- the carbon dioxide and some water to the lungs, water and urea to the kidneys, sulphur compounds of some kind to the liver. section . the blood (figure , sheet ) is not homogeneous; under the low power of the microscope it may be seen to consist of-- ( .) a clear fluid, the plasma, in which float-- ( .) a few transparent colourless bodies of indefinite and changing shape, and having a central brighter portion, the nucleus with a still brighter dot therein the nucleolus-- the white corpuscles (w.c.), and ( .) flat round discs, without a nucleus, the red corpuscles (r.c.), greatly more numerous than the white. section . the chyle of the lacteals passes, as we have said, by the thoracic duct directly into the circulation. it enters the left vena cava superior (l.v.c.s.) near where this joins the jugular vein (ex.j.) (see figure , sheet , th.d.) and goes on at once with the rest of the blood to the heart. the small veins of the villi, however, which also help suck up the soluble nutritive material, are not directly continuous with the other body veins, the systemic veins; they belong to a special system, and, running together into larger and larger branches, form the lieno gastric (l.g.v.) and mesenteric (m.v.) veins, which unite to form the portal vein (p.v.) which enters the liver (l.v.) and there breaks up again into smaller and smaller branches. the very finest ramifications of this spreading network are called the (liver) capillaries, and these again unite to form at last the hepatic vein (h.v.) which enters the vena cava inferior (v.c.i.), a median vessel, running directly to the heart. this capillary network in the liver is probably connected with changes requisite before the recently absorbed materials can enter the general blood current. section . the student has probably already heard the terms vein and artery employed. in the rabbit a vein is a vessel bringing blood towards the heart, while an artery is a vessel conducting it away. veins are thin-walled, and therefore flabby, a conspicuous purple when full of blood, and when empty through bleeding and collapsed sometimes difficult to make out in dissection. they are formed by the union of lesser factors. the portal breaks up into lesser branches within the liver. arteries have thick muscular and elastic walls, thick enough to prevent the blood showing through, and are therefore pale pink or white and keep their round shape. section . the heart of the rabbit is divided by partitions into four chambers: two upper thin-walled ones, the auricles (au.), and two lower ones, both, and especially the left, with very muscular walls, the ventricles (vn.). the right ventricle (r.vn.) and auricle (r.au.) communicate, and the left ventricle (l.vn.) and auricle (l.au.). section . the blood coming from all parts of the body, partly robbed of its oxygen and containing much carbon dioxide and other katastases, enters the right auricle of the heart through three great veins, the median vena cava inferior from the posterior parts of the body, and the paired venae cavae superiores from the anterior. with the beating of the heart, described below, it is forced into the right ventricle and from there through the pulmonary artery (p.a.) seen in the figure passing under the loop of the aorta (ao.) to the lungs. section . the lungs (lg. figure , sheet ) are moulded to the shape of the thoracic cavity and heart; they communicate with the pharynx by the trachea (tr. in figure , sheet ) or windpipe, and are made up of a tissue of continually branching and diminishing air-tubes, which end at last in small air-sacs, the alveoli. the final branches of the pulmonary arteries, the lung capillaries, lie in the walls of these air-sacs, and are separated from the air by an extremely thin membrane through which the oxygen diffuses into, and the carbon dioxide escapes from, the blood. section . the mechanism of respiration will be understood by reference to figure , sheet . it will be noted, in dissecting that the lungs have shrunk away from the walls of the thorax; this collapse occurs directly an aperture is made in the thorax wall, and is in part due to their extreme elasticity. in life the cavity of the thorax forms an air-tight box, between which and the lungs is a slight space, the pleural cavity (pl.c.) lined by a moist membrane, which is also reflected, over the lungs. the thorax wall is muscular and bony, and resists the atmospheric pressure on its outer side, so that the lungs before this is cut through are kept distended to the size of the thoracic cavity by the pressure of the air within them. in inspiration (or breathing-in) the ribs are raised by the external intercostal (anglice, between-ribs, e.i.c.m.) and other allied muscles, and the diaphragm (dia.) contracts and becomes flatter; the air is consequently sucked, in as the lungs follow the movement of the thorax wall. in expiration the intercostals and diaphragm relax and allow the elastic recoil of the lungs to come into play. the thoracic wall is simultaneously depressed by the muscles of the abdominal area, the diaphragm thrust forwards, as the result of the displacement and compression of the alimentary viscera thus brought about. (r.r.r. in the figure mark ribs.) section . the oxygen and carbon dioxide are not carried in exactly the same way by the blood. the student will know from his chemical reading that neither of these gases is very soluble, but carbon dioxide is sufficiently so in an alkaline fluid to be conveyed by the liquid plasma. the oxygen however, needs a special portative mechanism in the colouring matter of the red corpuscles, the haemoglobin, with which it combines weakly to form oxy-haemoglobin of a bright red colour, and decomposing easily in the capillaries (the finest vessels between the arteries and veins), to release the oxygen again. the same compound occurs in all true vertebrata, and in the blood-fluid of the worm; in the crayfish a similar substance, haemocyanin, which when oxygenated is blue, and when deoxydized colourless, discharges the same function. section . the blood returns from the lungs to the left auricle (l.au.) by the pulmonary veins, hidden in the figure by the heart, passes thence to the thick-walled left ventricle (l.vn.), and on into the aorta (ao.). section . the beating of the heart is, of course, a succession of contractions and expansions of its muscular wall. the contraction, or systole, commences at the base of the venae cavae and passes to the auricles, driving the blood before it into the ventricles, which then contract sharply and drive it on into the aorta or pulmonary artery; a pause and then a dilatation, the diastole follows. the flow of the blood is determined in one direction by the various valves of the heart. no valves occur in the opening of the superior cavae but an imperfect one, the eustachian valve, protects the inferior cava; the direction of the heart's contraction prevents any excessive back-flow into the veins, and the onward, tendency is encouraged by the suck of the diastole of the ventricles. between the left ventricle and auricle is a valve made up of two flaps of skin, the mitral valve, the edges of the flaps being connected with the walls of the ventricle through the intermediation of small muscular threads, the chordae tendinae, which stretch across its cavity to little muscular pillars, the papillary muscles; these attachments prevent the mitral valve from flapping back into the auricle, and as the blood flows into and accumulates in the ventricle it gets behind the flaps of the valve and presses its edges together. when the systole of the ventricle occurs, the increased, tension of the blood only closes the aperture the tighter, and the current passes on into the aorta, where we find three watch-pocket valves, with the pocket turned away from the heart, which are also closed and tightened by any attempt at regurgitation (back-flow). a similar process occurs on the right side of the heart, but here, instead of a mitral valve of two flaps between auricle and ventricle, we have a tricuspid valve with three. the thickness of the muscular walls, in view of the lesser distance through which it has to force the blood, -are- [is] less for the right ventricle than the left. section . the following are the chief branches of the aorta. the student should be able to follow them with certainty in dissection; they are all displayed in the figure; but it must not be imagined for a moment that familiarity with this diagram will obviate the necessity for the practical work; (in.) is the innominate artery; it forks into (s.cl.a.) the right subclavian, and (r.c.c.) the right common carotid. each carotid splits at the angle of the jaw into an internal and an external branch. the left common carotid, (l.c.c.) arises from the base of the innominate,* (l.s.cl.a.) the left subclavian, directly from the aorta. the aorta now curves round to the dorsal middle line, and runs down as seen in figure , sheet (d.ao.) and figure , sheet (d.ao.). small branches are given off to the ribs, and then comes the median coeliac (coe.a.) to the stomach and spleen, the median superior mesenteric (s.mes.a.) to the main portion of the intestine, and the inferior mesenteric (p.m.a.) to the rectum. note that no veins to the inferior vena cava correspond to these arteries-- the blood they supply going back by the portal vein (p.v.). the paired renal arteries (r.a.) supply the kidneys, and the common iliacs (c.il.a.) the hind legs, splitting into the internal iliacs (i.il.a.) and the femoral (f.). {lines from second edition only.} [the student should note that the only arteries in the middle line are those supplying the alimentary canal.] {lines from first edition only.} * -the figure is inaccurate, and represents the left common carotid as arising from the aortic arch.- section . the distribution of the veins of the rabbit has only a superficial parallelism with arteries. the chief factors of vena cava inferior are the hepatic vein (h.v.), which receives the liver blood, the renal veins (r.v.), from the kidneys, the ilaeo-lumbar, from the abdominal wall, and the external (e.il.v.) and internal ilias (i.il.v.); with the exception of the renal veins none of these run side by side with arteries. the superior cavae (r. and l.v.c.s.) are formed by the union of internal (i.j.) and external jugular (e.j.) veins with a subclavian (s.cl.v.) from the fore limb. the term pre-caval vein is sometimes used for superior cava. the attention, of the student is called to the small azygos vein (az.) running into the right vena cava superior, and forming the only asymmetrical (not-balancing) feature of the veins in front of the heart; it brings blood back from the ribs of the thorax wall, and is of interest mainly because it answers to an enormous main vessel, the right post-cardinal sinus, in fishes. there are spermatic arteries and veins (s.v. and a.) to the genital organs. all these vessels should be patiently dissected out by the student, and drawn. section . between the final branches of the arteries and the first fine factors of the veins, and joining them, come the systemic capillaries. these smallest and ultimate ramifications of the circulation penetrate every living part of the animal, so that if we could isolate the vascular system we should have the complete form of the rabbit in a closely-meshed network. it is in the capillaries that the exchange of gases occurs and that nutritive material passes out to the tissues and katastases in from them; they are the essential factor in the circulatory system of the mammal-- veins, arteries, and heart simply exist to remove and replace their contents. the details of the branching of the pulmonary artery and the pulmonary veins need not detain us now. section . summarising the course of the circulation, starting from the right ventricle, we have-- pulmonary artery, pulmonary capillaries, pulmonary vein, left auricle, left ventricle, aorta, arteries, and systemic capillaries. after this, from all parts except the spleen and alimentary canal, the blood returns to systemic veins, superior or inferior cavae, right auricle, and right ventricle. the blood from the stomach spleen, and intestines however, passes via {through} the portal vein to the liver capillaries and then through the hepatic vein to inferior cava, and so on. material leaves the blood to be excreted in lungs, kidneys, by the skin (as perspiration), and elsewhere. new material enters most conspicuously; (a) by the portal veins portal veins and (b) by the thoracic duct and left superior cava. section . the following table summarises what we have learnt up to the present of the physiology of the rabbit, considered as a mechanism using up food and oxygen and disengaging energy:-- -air_ {nitrogen... returned unchanged.} {oxygen... through pulmonary vein to--} {see .} -food_ {carbo-hydrates (starch, sugar, cellulose.)} sugar. {protein.} {peptones.} {fat (little in rabbit.)} {glycerine, and fatty acids in soups.} {rejected matter got rid of in defaecation.} a. {chyle in lacteals going via {through} thoracic duct and left superior cava to--} {see .} b. {veins of villi--} {portal vein--} {liver--} {hepatic vein and inferior cava to--} {see .} . {right side of heart; then to lungs, and then to--} {see .} . {left side of heart; whence to systemic arteries and capillaries.} . {the tissues and -kataboly_.} . {urea (?liver) kidney and sweat glands} {co } {lungs} {h o} {lungs, kidney, sweat glands} {other substances} {mainly by [kidney,] liver and alimentary canal} . _the amoeba. cells, and tissue_ section . we have thus seen how the nutritive material is taken into the animal's system and distributed over its body, and incidentally, we have noted how the resultant products of the creature's activity are removed. the essence of the whole process, as we have already stated, is the decomposition and partial oxydation of certain complex chemical compounds to water, carbon dioxide, a low nitrogenous body, which finally takes the form of urea, and other substances. we may now go on to a more detailed study, the microscopic study, or histology, of the tissues in which metaboly and kataboly occur, but before we do this it will be convenient to glance for a moment at another of our animal types-- the amoeba, the lowest as the rabbit is the highest, in our series. section . this is shown in figure iii., sheet , as it would appear under the low power of the microscope. we have a mass of a clear, transparent, greyish substance called protoplasm, granular in places, and with a clearer border; within this is a denser portion called the nucleus, or endoplast (n.), which, under the microscope, by transmitted light, appear brighter, and within that a still denser spot, the nucleolus (ns.) or endoplastule. the protoplasm is more or less extensively excavated by fluid spaces, vacuoles; one clearer circular space or vacuole, which is invariably present, appears at intervals, enlarges gradually, and then vanishes abruptly, to reappear after a brief interval; this is called the contractile vacuole (c.v.). the amoeba is constantly changing its shape, whence its older name of the proteus animalcule, thrusting out masses of its substance in one direction, and withdrawing from another, and hence slowly creeping about. these thrust-out parts, in its outline, are called pseudopodia (ps.). by means of them it gradually creeps round and encloses its food. little particles of nutritive matter are usually to be detected in the homogeneous protoplasm of its body; commonly these are surrounded by a drop of water taken in with them, and the drop of water is then called a food vacuole. the process of taking in food is called ingestion. the amoeba, in all probability, performs essentially the same chemical process as we have summarised in sections , , ; it ingests food, digests it in the food vacuoles and builds it up into its body protoplasm, to undergo kataboly and furnish the force of its motion-- the contractile vacuole, is probably respiratory and perhaps excretory, accumulating and then, by its "systole" (compare section ), forcing out of its body, the water, carbon dioxide, urea, and other katastases, which are formed concomitantly with its activity. the amoeba reproduces itself in the simplest way; the nucleus occasionally divides into two portions and a widening fissure in the protoplasm of the animal's body separates one from the other. it is impossible to say that one is the parent cell, and the other the offspring; the amoeba we merely perceive, was one and is now two. it is curious to note, therefore, that the amoeba is, in a sense, immortal-- that the living nucleus of one of these minute creatures that we examine to-day under a microscope may have conceivably drawn, out an unbroken thread of life since the remotest epochs of the world's history. although no sexual intercourse can be observed, there is reason to believe that a process of supposed "cannabalism," in which a larger amoeba may occasionally engulph a smaller one, is really a conjugative reproductive process, and followed by increased vitality and division. section . now if the student will compare section , he will see that in the white blood corpuscles we have a very remarkable resemblance to the amoeba; the contractile vacuole is absent, but we have the protoplasmic body, the nucleus and nucleolus, and those creeping fluctuations of shape through the thrusting out and withdrawal of pseudopodia, which constitute "amoeboid" motion. they also multiply, in the same way, by division. section . it is not only in the white corpuscle of the blood that we find this resemblance; in all the firmer parts of the body we find, on microscopic examination, similar little blebs of protoplasm, and at an early stage of development the young rabbit is simply one mass of these protoplasmic bodies. their division and multiplication is an essential condition, of growth. through an unfortunate accident, these protoplasmic blebs, which constitute the living basis of the animal body, have come to be styled "cells," though the term "corpuscles" is far more appropriate. section . the word is "cell" suggests something enclosed by firm and definite walls, and it was first employed in vegetable histology. unlike the typical cells of animals, the cells of most plants are not naked protoplasm, but protoplasm enclosed in a wall of substance (cell wall) called cellulose. the presence of this cellulose cell wall, and the consequent necessity of feeding entirely upon liquids and gases that soak through it instead of being able to ingest a portion of solid food is indeed, the primary distinction between the vegetable and the animal kingdoms, as ordinarily considered. section . throughout life, millions of these cells retain their primary characters, and constitute the white corpuscles of blood, "phagocytes," and connective tissue corpuscles; others again, engage in the formation of material round themselves, and lie, in such cases, as gristle and bone, embedded in the substance they have formed; others again, undergo great changes in form and internal structure, and become permanently modified into, for instance, nerve fibres and muscle substance. the various substances arising in this way through the activity of cells are called tissues, the building materials of that complex thing, the animal body. since such a creature as the rabbit is formed through the co-operation of a vast multitude of cells, it is called multicellular; the amoeba, on the other hand, is unicellular. the rabbit may be thus regarded as a vast community of amoeboid creatures and their products. section . figure iv., sheet represents, diagrammatically, embryonic tissue, of which, to begin with, the whole animal consists. the cells are all living, capable of dividing and similar, but as development proceeds, they differentiate, some take on one kind of duty (function), and some another, like boys taking to different trades on leaving school, and wide differences in structure and interdependence become apparent. section . it is convenient to divide tissues into three classes, though the divisions are by no means clearly marked, nor have they any scientific value. the first of these comprises tissues composed wholly, or with the exception of an almost imperceptible cementing substance, of cells; the second division includes the skeletal tissues, the tissue of mesentery, and the connective and basement tissue of most of the organs, tissues which, generally speaking, consist of a matrix or embedding substance, formed by the cells and outside of them, as well as the cells themselves; and, thirdly, muscular and nervous tissue. we shall study the former two in this chapter, and defer the third division until later. section . the outer layer of the skin (the epidermis), the inmost lining of the alimentary canal, the lining of the body cavity, and the inner linings of blood-vessels, glands, and various ducts constitute our first division. the general name for such tissues is epithelium. when the cells are more or less flattened, they form squamous epithelium (figure vi.) such as we find lining the inside of a man's cheek (from which the cells sq.ep. were taken) or covering the mesentery of various types-- sq.end. are from the mesentery (section ) of a frog. a short cylindroidal form of cell makes up columnar epithelium, seen typically in the cells covering the villi of the duodenum (figure v.). this epithelium of the villi has the outer border curiously striated, and this is usually spoken of as leading towards "ciliated" epithelium, to be described immediately. the epithelium of the epididermis is stratified-- that is to say, has many thicknesses of cells; the deeper layers are alive and dividing (stratum mucosum), while the more superficial are increasingly flattened and drier as the surface is approached (stratum corneum) and are continually being rubbed off and replaced from below. section . in the branching air-tubes of the lung, the central canal of the spinal cord, and in the ureters of the rabbit, and in most other types, in various organs, we find ciliated epithelium (figure vii.). this is columnar or cubical in form, and with the free edge curiously modified and beset with a number of hair-like processes, the cilia, by which, during the life of the cell, a waving motion is sustained in one direction. this motion assists in maintaining a current in the contents of ducts which are lined with this tissue. the motion is independent of the general life of the animal, so long as the constituent cell still lives, and so it is easy for the student to witness it himself with a microscope having a / -inch or / -inch objective. very fine cilia may be seen by gently scraping the roof of a frog's mouth (the cells figured are from this source), or the gill of a recently killed mussel, and mounting at once in water, or, better, in a very weak solution of common salt. section . the lining of glands is secretory epithelium; the cells are usually cubical or polygonal ( , g.ep.), and they display in the most characteristic form what is called metabolism. anaboly (see section ) we have defined, as a chemical change in an upward direction-- less stable and more complex compounds are built up in the processes of vegetable and animal activity towards protoplasm; kataboly is a chemical running down; metaboly is a more general term, covering all vital chemical changes. the products of the action of a glandular epithelium are metabolic products, material derived from the blood is worked, up within the cell, not necessarily with conspicuous gain or loss of energy, and discharged into the gland space. the most striking case of this action is in the "goblet cells" that are found among the villi; these are simply glands of one cell, unicellular glands, and in figure v. we see three stages in their action: at g.c. material (secretion) is seen forming in the cell, at g.c. it approaches the outer border, and at g.c. it has been discharged, leaving a hollowed cell. usually however, the escape of secreted matter is not so conspicuous, and the gland-cells are collected as the lining of pits, simple, as in the gastric, pyloric, and lieberkuhnian glands (figure viii., sections , ), or branching like a tree or a bunch of grapes (figure r.g.), as in brunner's glands (section ) the pancreas, and the salivary glands. the salivary glands, we may mention, are a pair internal to the posterior ventral angle of the jaw, the sub-maxillary; a pair anterior to these, the sub-lingual; a pair posterior to the jaw beneath the ear, the parotid, and a pair beneath the eye, the infra orbital. section . the liver is the most complicated gland in the body (figure x.). the bile duct (b.d.) branches again and again, and ends at last in the final pits, the lobuli (lb.), which are lined with secretory epithelium, and tightly packed, and squeeze each other into polygonal forms. the blood supply from which the bile would appear to be mainly extracted, is brought by the portal vein, but this blood is altogether unfit for the nutrition of the liver tissue; for this latter purpose a branch of the coeliac artery, the hepatic serves. hence in the tissue of the liver we have, branching and interweaving among the lobuli, the small branches of the bile duct (b.d.), which carries away the bile formed, the portal vein (p.v.), the hepatic artery (h.a.), and the hepatic vein (h.v.). (compare section .) figure x.b shows a lobule; the portal vein and the artery ramify round the lobules-- are inter-lobular, that is (inter, between); the hepatic vein begins in the middle of the lobules (intra-lobular), and receives their blood. (compare x.a.) besides its function in the manufacture of the excretory, digestive, and auxiliary bile, the liver performs other duties. it appears to act as an inspector of the assimilation material brought in by the portal vein. the villi, for instance, will absorb arsenic, but this is arrested and thrown down in the liver. a third function is the formation of what would seem to be a store of carbo-hydrate, glycogen, mainly it would appear, from the sugar in the portal vein, though also, very probably, from nitrogenous material, though this may occur only under exceptional conditions. finally, the nitrogenous katastates, formed in the working of muscle and nerve, and returned by them to the blood for excretion, are not at that stage in the form of urea. whatever form they assume, they undergo a further metabolism into urea before leaving the body, and the presence of considerable quantities of this latter substance in the liver suggests this as a fourth function of this organ-- the elaboration of urea. section . similar from a physiological point of view, to the secretory glands which form the digestive fluids are those which furnish lubricating fluids, the lachrymal gland, and harderian glands in the orbit internally to the eye, and posterior and anterior to it respectively, the sebaceous glands (oil glands) connected with the hair, and the anal and perineal glands. the secretions of excretory glands are removed from the body; chief among them are the sweat glands and kidneys. the sweat glands are microscopic tubular glands, terminating internally in a small coil (figure viii. s.g.) and are scattered thickly over the body, the water of their secretion being constantly removed by evaporation, and the small percentage of salt and urea remaining to accumulate as dirt, and the chief reasonable excuse for washing. the kidney structure is shown diagrammatically in figure , sheet . a great number of branching and straight looped, tubuli (little tubes) converge on an open space, the pelvis. towards the outer layers (cortex) of the kidney, these tubuli terminate in little dilatations into which tangled knots of blood-vessels project: the dilatations are called bowman's capsules (b.c.), and each coil of bloodvessel a glomerulus (gl.). in the capsules, water is drained from the blood; in the tubuli, urea and other salts in the urine are secreted from a branching network of vessels. section . in all the epithelial tissues that we have considered we have one feature in common: they are cells, each equivalent to the amoeba, that have taken on special duties-- in a word, they are specialists. the amoeba is jack of all trades and a free lance; the protective epidermal cell, the current-making ciliated cell, the bile or urea-making secretory cell, is master of one trade, and a soldier in a vast and wonderfully organized host. we will now consider our second kind of cell in this organization, the cell of which the especial aim is the building round it of a tissue. section . the simplest variety in this group is hyaline (i.e. glassy) cartilage (gristle). in this the formative cells (the cartilage corpuscles) are enjellied in a clear structureless matrix (figure xii.), consisting entirely of organic compounds accumulated by their activity. immediately round the cell lies a capsule of newer material. some of the cells have recently divided ( ); others have done so less recently, and there has been time for the interpolation of matrix, as at . in this way the tissue grows and is repaired. a thin layer of connective tissue (see below), the perichondrium, clothes the cartilaginous structure. section . connective tissue (figure xiii) is a general name for a group of tissues of very variable character. it is usually described as consisting typically in the mammals of three chief elements felted together; of comparatively unmodified corpuscles (c.c.), more or less amoeboid, and of fibres which are elongated, altered, and distorted cells. the fibres are of two kinds: yellow, branching, and highly elastic (y.e.f.), in consequence of which they fall into sinuous lines in a preparation, and white and inelastic ones (w.i.f.), lying in parallel bundles. where the latter element is entirely dominant, the connective tissue is tendon, found especially at the point of attachment of muscles to the parts they work. some elastic ligaments are almost purely yellow fibrous tissue. a loose interweaving of the three elements is areolar tissue, the chief fabric of mesentery, membrane, and the dermis (beneath the epidermis). with muscle it is the material of the walls of the alimentary canal and bloodvessels, and generally it enters into, binds together, and holds in place other tissue. the connective tissue of fishes displays the differentiation of fibres in a far less distinct manner. section . through connective tissues wander the phagocytes, cells that are difficult to distinguish, if really distinct, from the white blood corpuscles. these cells possess a remarkable freedom; they show an initiative of their own, and seem endowed with a subordinate individuality. they occur in great numbers in a tissue called, botryoidal tissue (figure xiv.), which occurs especially in masses and patches along the course of the alimentary canal, in its walls. the tonsils, swellings on either side of the throat, are such masses, and aggregates occur as visible patches, the peyer's patches, on the ileum. it also constitutes the mass of the vermiform appendix and the wall of the sacculus rotundus; and in the young animal the "thymus gland," ventral to the heart, and less entirely, the "thyroid gland," ventral to the larynx, are similar structures, which are reduced or disappear as development proceeds. it is evident that in these two latter cases the term "gland" is somewhat of a misnomer. the matrix of botryoidal tissue is a network of stretched and hollowed connective tissue cells-- it is not a secretion, as cartilage matrix appears to be. during digestion, the phagocytes prowl into the intestine, and ingest and devour bacteria, that might otherwise give rise to disease. in inflammation, we may note here, they converge from all directions upon the point wounded or irritated. they appear to be the active agents in all processes of absorption (see osteoclasts under bone), and for instance, migrate into and devour the tissue of the tadpole's tail, during its metamorphosis to the adult frog. section . within the connective tissue cells fat drops may be formed, as in figure xv. adipose tissue is simply connective tissue loaded with fat-distended cells. the tissue is, of course, a store form of hydro-carbon (section ) provided against the possible misadventure of starvation. with the exception of some hybernating animals, such store forms would seem to be of accidental importance only among animals, whereas among plants they are of invariable and necessary occurrence. section . we now come to bone, a tissue confined to the vertebrata, and typically shown only in the higher types. as we descend in the scale from birds and mammals to lizards, amphibia (frogs and toads) and fish, we find cartilage continually more important, and the bony constituent of the skeleton correspondingly less so. in such a type as the dog-fish, the skeleton is entirely cartilaginous, bone only occurs in connection with the animal's scales; it must have been in connection with scales that bone first appeared in the vertebrate sub-kingdom. in the frog we have a cartilaginous skeleton overlaid by numerous bony scutes (shield-like plates) which, when the student comes to study that type, he will perceive are equivalent to the bony parts of such scales as occur in the dog-fish, sunk inward, and plating over the cartilage; and in the frog the cartilage also is itself, in a few places, replaced by bony tissue. in the adult rabbit these two kinds of bone, the bone overlying what was originally cartilage (membrane bone), and the bone replacing the cartilage (cartilage bone) have, between them, practically superseded the cartilage altogether. the structure of the most characteristic kind of bone will be understood by reference to figure xvi. it is a simplified diagram of the transverse section of such a bone as the thigh bone. m.c. is the central marrow cavity, h.v., h.v. are cross sections of small bloodvessels, the haversian vessels running more or less longitudinally through, the bone in canals, the haversian canals. arranged round these vessels are circles of the formative elements, the bone corpuscles or osteoblasts (b.c.) each embedded in bony matrix in a little bed, the lacuna, and communicating one with another by fine processes through canaliculi in the matrix, which processes are only to be seen clearly in decalcified bone (see section ). the osteoblasts are arranged in concentric series, and the matrix is therefore in concentric layers, or lamellae (c.l.). without and within the zone of haversian systems are (o.l. and i.l.), the outer and inner lamellae. the bone is surrounded by connective tissue, the periosteum. in addition to this compact bone, there is a lighter and looser variety in which spicules and bars of bony tissue are loosely interwoven. many flat bones, the bones of the skull, for instance, consist of this spongy bone, plated (as an electro spoon is plated) with compact bone. section . among the bony bars and spicules of spongy bone occurs the red marrow-- which must not be confused with the yellow marrow, the fatty substance in the central cavity of long bones. in this red marrow are numerous large colourless cells, which appear to form within their substance and then liberate red blood corpuscles. this occurs especially in the spongy bone within the ribs. section . the matrix of bone differs from that of cartilage or of most other tissues in consisting chiefly of inorganic salts. the chief of these is calcium phosphate, with which much smaller quantities of calcium carbonate, and magnesium phosphate and carbonate occur. these inorganic salts can be removed by immersion of the bone in weak hydrochloric acid, and a flexible network of connecting tissue, haversian vessels, bone corpuscles, and their processes remains. this is decalcified bone alluded to above. section . in the very young rabbit, the limb bones, vertebral column, and many of the skull bones are simply plates and bars of cartilage; the future membrane bones, however are planned out in connective tissue. the development of the latter is simple, the connective tissue corpuscles functioning by a simple change of product as osteoblast. the development of the cartilage bones, however, is more complicated. figure xvii., represents, in a diagrammatic way, the stages in the conversion of a cartilaginous bar to bone. to begin with, the previously sporadically-arranged (scattered anyhow) corpuscles (u.c.c.) are gathered into groups in single file, or in other words, into "columnar" groups (as at c.c.). the matrix becomes clouded with inorganic salts of lime, and it is then said to be calcified. this calcified cartilage then undergoes absorption-- it must not be imagined for a moment that bone is calcified cartilage. simultaneous with the formation of the cavities (s.) due to this absorption, connective tissue (p.c.i.) from the surrounding perichondrium (p.c.) grows into the ossifying* bar. it is from this connective tissue that the osteoblasts (o.b.) arise, and bone is built up. throughout life a bone is continually being absorbed and reformed by the activity of the osteoblasts. an osteoblast engaged in the absorption instead of the formation of bone is called an osteoclast. * the formation of bone is called ossification. to ossify is to become bony. section . the great thing to notice about this is that cartilage does not become bone, but is eaten into and ousted by it; the osteoblasts and osteoclasts replace entirely the cartilage corpuscles, and are not derived from them. section . we may mention here the structure of the spleen (figure , sheet ). it consists of a connective tissue and muscular coating, with an internal soft matrix much resembling botryoidal tissue, traversed by fibrous trabeculne (= beams, planks) containing blood-vessels, and the whole organ is gorged with blood, particularly after meals. the consideration of its function the student may conveniently defer for the present. section . here also, we may notice the lymphatics, a series of small vessels which return the overflow of the blood serum from the capillaries, in the nutrition of the tissues in all parts of the body, to the thoracic duct (see section ), and the general circulation. at intervals their course is interrupted by gland-like dilatations, the lymphatic glands, in which masses of rapidly dividing and growing (proliferating) cells occur, of which, doubtless, many are detached and become, first "lymph corpuscles," and, when they reach the veins, white blood corpuscles. . _the skeleton_ section . we are now in a position to study the rabbit's skeleton. we strongly recommend the student to do this with the actual bones at hand-- they may be cleared very easily in a well-boiled rabbit. this recommendation may appear superfluous to some readers, but, as a matter of fact, the marked proclivity of the average schoolmaster for mere book-work has put such a stamp on study, that, in nine cases out of ten, a student, unless he is expressly instructed to the contrary, will go to the tortuous, and possibly inexact, descriptions of a book for a knowledge of things that lie at his very finger-tips. we have not written, this chapter to give a complete knowledge of the skeleton, but simply as an aid in the actual examination of the bones. section . we may take the skeleton under five headings. there is the central axis, the chain of little bones, the vertebrae, threaded on the spinal cord (see figure and section ); the thorax, the box enclosed by ribs and sternum; the fore-limb and bones connected with it (pectoral girdle and limb), and the hind-limb and bones connected with it (pelvic girdle). finally there is the skull, but following the london university syllabus, we shall substitute the skull of the dog for of that of the rabbit, as more typically mammalian (section ). section . in section (which the student should refer to) we have a division of the vertebrae into four varieties. of these most representative is the thoracic. a thoracic vertebra (figure , sheet , t.v.) consists of a central bony mass, the body or centrum (b.), from which there arises dorsally an arch, the neural arch (n.a.), completed by a keystone, the neural spine (n.s.); and coming off laterally from the arch is the transverse process (tr.p.). looking at the vertebra sideways, we see that the arch is notched, for the exit of nerves. jointed to the thoracic vertebrae on either side are the ribs (r.). each rib has a process, the tuberculum, going up to articulate with the transverse process, and one, the capitulum articulating between the bodies of two contiguous vertebrae. the facets for the articulation of the capitulum are indicated in the side view by shading. at either end of the body of a vertebra of a young rabbit are bony caps, the epiphyses (ep.), separated from the body by a plane of unossified cartilage (indicated, by the dots). these epiphyses to the vertebral bodies occur only among mammals, and are even absent in some cases within the class. in the adult rabbit they have ossified continuously with the rest of the body. section . a cervical vertebra (c.v.) seems, upon cursory inspection, to have no rib. the transverse processes differ from those of thoracic series in having a perforation, the vertebrarterial canal, through which the vertebral artery runs up the neck. a study of the development of these bones shows that the part marked f.r. ossifies separately from the rest of the transverse process; and the form of the equivalent structures in certain peculiar lower mammals and in reptiles leaves no doubt that f.r. is really an abbreviated rib; fused up with the transverse process and body. the two anterior cervical vertebrae are peculiar. the first (at.) is called the atlas-- the figure shows the anterior view-- and has great articular faces for the condyles (section ) of the skull, and a deficient centrum. the next is the axis, and it is distinguished by an odontoid peg (od.p.), which fits into the space where the body of the atlas is deficient. in development the centrum of the axis ossifies from one centre, and the odontoid, peg from another, which at that time occupies the position of centrum of the atlas. so that it would seem that the atlas is a vertebra minus a centrum, and the axis is a vertebra plus a centrum, added at the expense of the atlas. section . the lumbar vertebrae (l.v.) are larger, and have cleft transverse processes, each giving rise to an ascending limb, the metapophyses, and a descending one. the latter (generally spoken of as the transverse processes) point steeply downward, and are considerably longer than those of thoracic series. the sacral vertebrae (s.v.) have great flattened transverse propcesses for articulation with the ilia. the caudal vertebrae (c.v.) are gradually reduced to the mere elongated centra, as we proceed, towards the tip of the tail. section . all the vertebrae join with their adjacent fellows through the intermediation of certain intervertebral pads, and also articulate by small processes at either end at the upper side of the arch, the zygapophyses. the normals to the polished facets of these point, in the case of the anterior zygapophyses, up and in (mnemonic: ant-up-in), and in the case of the posterior, down and out. the student should make this, and the other features of vertebrae, out upon actual specimens. section . the thorax is bounded dorsally by the vertebral column, and ventrally by the sternum. the sternum consists of segments, the sternebrae (st.); anteriorly there is a bony manubrium (mb.), posteriorly a thin cartilaginous plate, the xiphisternum (xi.). seven pairs of ribs articulate by cartilaginous ends (sternal ribs) with the sternum directly, as indicated in the figure; five (false) ribs are joined, to each other and to the seventh, and not to the sternum directly. the last four ribs have no tuberculum (section ). section . the fore-limb (pectoral limb) consists of an upper arm bone, the humerus (hum.) the distal end of which is deeply excavated by the olecranon fossa (o.f.) as indicated by the dotted lines; of two bones, the ulna (u.) and radius (r.) which are firmly bound by ligament in the position of the figure (i.e., with the palm of the hand downward, "prone"); of a number of small bones (carpalia), the carpus (c.); of a series of metacarpals (mc.); and of three digits (= fingers) each, except the first, or pollex, of three small bones-- the phalanges, only the proximal of which appear in the figure. the ulna has a hook-like head, the olecranon (o.) which distinguishes it easily from the distally thickened radius. the limb is attached to the body through the intermediation of the shoulder-blade (scapula, sc.) a flattened bone with a median external ridge with a hook-like termination, the acromion (acr.). there is also a process overhanging the glenoid cavity (g.) wherein the humerus articulates, which process is called coracoid (co.); it is ossified from two separate centres, and represents a very considerable bone in the bird, reptile, and frog. along the dorsal edge of the scapula of the rabbit is unossified cartilage, which is called the supra-scapula (s.sc.). in man there runs from the acromion to the manubrium of the sternum a bone, the collar-bone or clavicle. this is represented by a very imperfectly ossified rudiment in the rabbit. the scapula and clavicle, the bones of the body connected with the fore-limb, are frequently styled the pectoral girdle, or shoulder-girdle; this name of girdle will appear less of a misnomer when lower vertebrate types are studied. section . the hind limb and its body bones-- pelvic limb and girdle-- are shown in figure . the limb skeleton corresponds closely with that of the fore-limb. the femur (fe.) answers to the humerus, and is to be distinguished from it by the greater distinctness of its proximal head (hd.) and by the absence of an olecranon fossa from its distal end. the tibia (ti = the radius) is fused for the distal half of its length with the fibula (fb. = ulna). a tarsus (tarsalia) equals the carpus.* two of the proximal tarsalia may be noted: one working like a pulley under the tibia, is the astragalus (as.); one forming the bony support of the heel, is the calcaneum (ca.). there is a series of metatarsals, and then come four digits of three phalanges each. * such a resemblance as exists between one vertebra and another in the rabbit, or between the humerus and the femur, is called serial homology; the two things correspond with each other to the extent of imperfect reduplication. "homology" simply is commonly used to indicate the resemblance between any two structures in different animals, in origin and position as regards other parts. thus the heart of the rabbit and of the frog are homologous structures, corresponding in position, and resembling each other much as two memory sketches of one picture might do. section . the pelvic girdle differs from the pectoral in most land vertebrata in being articulated with the vertebral column. this difference does not exist in fishes. it consist in the rabbit of four bones; the ilium (i.), the ischium (is.), the pubis (pb.), and the small cotyloid bone-- the first two and the latter one meeting in the acetabular fossa (ac.) in which the head of the femur works. the pubes and ischia are fused along the mid-ventral line. many morphologists regard, the ilium as equivalent to, that is, strictly corresponding in its relation, to the scapula, the pubis to the cartilaginous substratum of the clavicle, and the ischium to the coracoid. section . these bones will be studied at the greatest advantage when dissected out from a boiled rabbit. prepared and wired skeletons, disarticulated skeletons, plates of figures, and written descriptions are in succession more tedious and less satisfactory ways to a real comprehension, of this matter. this chapter directs the student's attention to the most important points in the study of the skeleton, but it is in no way intended to mitigate the necessity of practical work. it is a guide simply. section . the mammalian skull will be better understood after the study of that of some lower vertebrate. we shall describe its main features now, but their meaning will be much clearer after the lower type is read. our figures are of canis. in section (figure vi., sheet ), we perceive a brain case (cranium) opening behind by a large aperture, the foramen magnum (f.m.). in front of this is an extensive passage, the nasal passage (e.n. to p.n.) which is divided from the mouth by a bony floor, the palate, and which opens into the pharynx behind at the posterior nares (p.n.) and to the exterior by the anterior or external nares (e.n.). it is divided into right and left passages by a middle partition, the nasal septum. outside the skull, on its wings, is a flask-like bone, the bulla tympani (b. in figures and ), protecting the middle ear, and from above this there passes an arch, the cheek bone (ju. in figures , , and ), to the upper jaw, forming in front the bony lower protection of the cavity containing the eye, the orbit. the cheek arch, nasal passage, and jaws, form collectively the "facial apparatus," as distinguished from the cranium, and the whole skull is sometimes referred to as, the "cranio-facial apparatus." two eminences for articulation with the atlas vertebra, the condyles (c.), lie one on each side of the lower boundary of the foramen magnum. section . the floor of the cranium consists of a series of cartilage bones, the basi-occipital (b.o.), basi-sphenoid (b.sp.), pre-sphenoid (p.sp.), and in front, the ethmoid (eth.), which sends down a median plate, not shown, in the figure, to form the nasal septum between right and left nasal passages. like extended wings on either side of the basi-occipital are the ex-occipital (e.o.) (the bone is marked in figure , but the letters are a little obscured by shading). similarly the ali-sphenoids (a.s.), are wings to the basi-, and the orbito-sphenoids (o.s.), to the pre-sphenoid bone (p.sp.). between the ex-occipital and ali-sphenoid there is wedged in a bone, the periotic (p.o.) containing the internal ear (section ). above the foramen magnum the median supra-occipital bone completes what is called the occipital arch. a pair of parietals (pa.) come above the ali-sphenoids, and a pair of frontals (f.) above the orbito-sphenoids. at the side the brain case is still incomplete, and here the aquamosal (sq.) enters into its wall. in the external view (figure ) the bulla hides the periotic bone from without. the student should examine all four figures for these bones before proceeding. section . the outer edge of the upper jaw and the cheek arch are made up of three paired bones. first comes the premaxilla (p.m.) (not p.m. or p.m. ), containing in the dog, the three incisors of either side. then comes the maxilla, bearing the rest of the teeth.* the jugal or malar (ju.) reaches over from the maxilla to meet a zygomatic process (= connecting outgrowth) (z.p.) of the squamosal bone. * in the dog a sabre-like canine (c.), four premolars (p.m. and p.m. ) and two molars (m. and m. ). section . in the under view of the skull (figure ) it will be seen that the maxilla sends in a plate to form the front part of the hard palate. behind, the hard palate is completed by the pair of palatine bones (pal.), which conceal much of the pre- and orbito-sphenoid in the ventral view, and which run back as ridges to terminate in two small angular bones, the pterygoids (pt.) which we shall find represent much more important structures in the lower vertebrata. section . the pre-maxillae and maxillae bound the sides of the nasal passage, and it is completed above by a pair of splints, the nasals. along the floor of the nasal passage, on the middle line, lies a splint of bone formed by the coalescence of two halves. it embraces in a v-like groove the mesethmoid (nasal septum) above, and lies on the palate. {lines from first edition only.} -its position is indicated by a heavy black line in , and it is called, the vomer bone (vo.).- {lines from second edition only.} [in the frog it is represented by two laterally situated bones. this is the vomer bone (vo.).] the nasal passages are partially blocked by foliated bony outgrowths, from the inner aspect of their walls, which in life are covered with mucous membrane, and increase the surface sensitive to smell. the ethmoid ends in the ethmo-turbinal (e.t.); the nasal, the naso-turbinal (n.t.); and the maxilla, the maxillo-turbinal (m.t.). in the anterior corner of the orbit there is a bone, the lachrymal (lc. figure ), which is hidden by the maxilla in the side view of the skull. section . the lower jaw (mandible) is one continuous bone in the mammal. three incisors bite against the three of the upper jaw. then comes a canine, four premolars, and three molars, the first of which is blade-like (sectorial tooth), and bites against the similar sectorial tooth (last premolar) of the upper jaw. the third molar is small. the arrangement of tooth is indicated in the following dental formula:-- i. . / . , c. . / . , p.m. . / . , m. . / . section . attached just behind the bulla above, and passing round on either side of the throat to meet at the base of the tongue, is the hyoid apparatus (figure ). the stylohyal (s.h.), epihyal (e.h.), and ceratohyal (c.h.) form the anterior cornu of the hyoid. the body of the hyoid (b.h.) forms a basis for the tongue. the posterior coruna (t.h.) of the hyoid are also called the thyrohyals. section . the following table presents these bones in something like their relative positions. a closer approximation to the state of the case will be reached if the student will imagine the maxilla raised up so as to overlie and hide the palatine and presphenoid, the squamosal similarly overlying the periotic bone, and the jugal reaching between them. membrane bones are distinguished by capital letters. -cranium_ -nasal_ (paired), ethmoid bone (median), -vomer_ -frontal_ (paired), -lachrymal_ (paired), orbito-sphenoid (paired), pre-sphenoid (median), eye -parietal_ (paired), ali-sphenoid (paired), basi-sphenoid (median)*, periotic bone (paired) -bulla_ (paired) supra-occipital (median), ex-occipital (paired), basi-occipital (median) -upper jaw_ -pre-maxilla_ (paired) palatine (paired) pterygoid (paired) -lower jaw_ -maxilla_ (paired) -jugal_ (paired) -squamosal_ (paired) *in this table the small bones of the ear are simply indicated by an asterisk. section . hidden by the bulla, and just external to the periotic bone, are the auditory ossicles, the incus, malleus, os orbiculare, and stapes. these will be more explicitly treated when we discuss the ear. section . when we come to the study of the nerves, we shall revert to the skull, and treat of its perforations. the student should not fail, before proceeding, to copy and recopy our figures, and to make himself quite familiar with them, and he should also obtain and handle an actual skull. for all practical purposes the skull of a sheep or cat will be almost as useful as that of the dog. . _muscle and nerve_ section . we have, in the skeleton, a complicated apparatus of parts hinged and movable upon one another; the agent moving these parts is the same agent that we find in the heart walls propelling the blood through the circulation, in the alimentary canal squeezing the food along its course, and universally in the body where motion occurs, except in the case of the creeping phagocytes, and the ciliary waving of ciliated epithelium. this agent is muscle. we have, in muscular tissue, a very wide departure from the structure of the primordial cell; to use a common biological expression, a very great amount of modification (= differentiation). sheet represents the simpler kind of muscular tissue, unstriated muscle, in which the cell character is still fairly obvious. the cells are fusiform (spindle-shaped), have a distinct nucleus and faint longitudinal striations (striations along their length), but no transverse striations. section . in striated muscle extensive modifications mask the cell character. under a / inch objective, transverse striations of the fibres are also distinctly visible, and under a much higher power we discern in a fibre (sheet ) transverse columns of rod-like sarcous elements (s.e.), the columns separated by lines of dots, the membranes of krause (k.m.), and nuclei (n.), flattened and separated into portions, and lying, in some cases, close to the sarcolemma (sc.) the connective tissue enclosing the fibre, in others scattered throughout the substance of the fibre. the figure shows the fibre ruptured, in order to display the sarcolemma; e.p. is the end plate of a nerve (n.v.), and fb. are the fibrillae into which a fibre may be teased. section . in the heart we have an intermediate kind of muscle cardiac muscle (figure ), in which the muscle fibres branch; there is apparently no sarcolemma, and the undivided nuclei lie in the centre of the cell. section . unstriated muscle is sometimes called involuntary, and striated, voluntary muscle; but there is really not the connexion with the will that these terms suggest. we have just mentioned that the heart-muscle is striated, but who can alter the beating of the heart by force of will? and the striated muscles of the limbs perform, endless involuntary acts. it would seem that unstriated muscle contracts slowly, and we find it especially among the viscera; in the intestine for instance, where it controls that "peristaltic" movement which pushes the food forward. voluntary muscle, on the other hand, has a sharp contraction. the muscle of the slow-moving snails, slugs, and mussels is unstriated; all the muscle of the active insects and crustacea (crabs, lobsters, and crayfish) is striated. still if the student bears the exception of the heart in mind, and considers muscles as "voluntary" that his will can reach, the terms voluntary and involuntary will serve to give him an idea of the distribution of these two types of muscle in his own body, and in that of the rabbit. section . muscular contraction, and generally all activity in the body is accompanied by kataboly. the medium by which these katabolic changes are set going and controlled is the nervous system. the nervous system holds the whole body together in one harmonious whole; it is the governing organization of the multicellular community (section ), and the supreme head of the government resides in the brain, and is called the mind. but just as in a political state only the most important and most exceptional duties are performed by the imperial body, and minor matters and questions of routine are referred to boards and local authorities, so the mind takes cognisance only of a few of the higher concerns of the animal, and a large amount of the work of the nervous system goes on insensibly, in a perfectly automatic way-- even much that occurs in the brain. section . the primary elements in the tissue of the nervous system are three; nerve fibres, which are simply conducting threads, telegraph wires; ganglion cells, which are the officials of the system; and neuroglia, a fine variety of connective tissue which holds these other elements together, and may also possibly exercise a function in affecting impressions. a message along a nerve to a ganglion cell is an afferent impression, from a cell to a muscle or other external end is an efferent impression. the passage of an impression may be defined as a flash of kataboly along the nerve, and so every feeling, thought, and determination involves the formation of a certain quantity of katastases, and the necessity for air and nutrition. section . unlike telegraph wires, to which they are often compared, nervous fibres usually convey impressions only in one direction, either centrally (afferent or sensory nerve fibres), or outwardly (efferent or motor nerve fibres). but the so-called motor nerve fibres include not only those that set muscles in motion, but those that excite secretion, check impulsive movements, and govern nutrition. section . figure , sheet , shows the typical structure of nervous tissues. the nerve fibres there figured are bound together by endoneurium into small ropes, the nerves, encased in perineurium. there is always a grey axis cylinder (a.c.), which may (in medullated nerves), or may not (in non-medullated or grey nerves) have a medullary sheath (s.s.) interrupted at intervals by the nodes of ranvier (n.r.). nuclei (n.) at intervals under the sheath indicate the cells from which nerve fibres are derived by a process of elongation. the nerves of invertebrata, where they possess nerves, are mostly grey, and so are those of the sympathetic system of vertebrata, to be presently described, g.c., g.c. are ganglion cells; they may have many hair-like processes, usually running into continuity with the axis cylinders of nerve fibres, in which case they are called multi-polar cells, or they may be uni- or bi-polar. section . the simplest example of the action of the nervous system is reflex action. for instance, when the foot of a frog, or the hand of a soundly sleeping person, is tickled very gently, the limb is moved away from the irritation, without any mental action, and entirely without will being exercised. and when we go from light into darkness, the pupil of the eye enlarges, without any direct consciousness of the change of its shape on our part. similarly, the presence or food in the pharynx initiates a series of movements-- swallowing, the digestive movements, and so on-- which in health are entirely beyond our mental scope. section . a vast amount of our activities are reflex, and in such action an efferent stimulus follows an afferent promptly and quite mechanically. it is only where efferent stimuli do not immediately become entirely transmuted into outwardly moving impulses that mental action comes in and an animal feels. there appears to be a direct relation between sensation and motion. for instance, the shrieks and other instinctive violent motions produced by pain, "shunt off" a certain amount of nervous impression that would otherwise register itself as additional painful sensation. similarly most women and children understand the comfort of a "good cry," and its benefit in shifting off a disagreeable mental state. section . the mind receives and stores impressions, and these accumulated experiences are the basis of memory, comparison, imagination, thought, and apparently spontaneous will. voluntary actions differ from reflex by the interposition of this previously stored factor. for instance, when a frog sees a small object in front of him, that may or may not be an edible insect, the direct visual impression does not directly determine his subsequent action. it revives a number of previous experiences, an image already stored of similar insects and associated with painful or pleasurable gustatory experiences. with these arise an emotional effect of desire or repulsion which, passes into action of capture or the reverse. section . voluntary actions may, by constant repetition, become quasi-reflex in character. the intellectual phase is abbreviated away. habits are once voluntary and deliberated actions becoming mechanical in this way, and slipping out of the sphere of mind. for instance, many of the detailed movements of writing and walking are performed without any attention to the details. an excessive concentration of the attention upon one thing leads to absent-mindedness, and to its consequent absurdities of inappropriate, because imperfectly acquired, reflexes. section . this fluctuating scope of mind should be remembered, more especially when we are considering the probable mental states of the lower animals. an habitual or reflex action may have all the outward appearance of deliberate adjustment. we cannot tell in any particular case how far the mental comes in, or whether it comes in at all. seeing that in our own case consciousness does not enter into our commonest and most necessary actions, into breathing and digestion, for instance, and scarcely at all in the details of such acts as walking and talking we might infer that nature was economical in its use, and that in the case of such an animal as the rabbit, which follows a very limited routine, and in which scarcely any versatility in emergencies is evident, it must be relatively inconsiderable. perhaps after all, pain is not scattered so needlessly and lavishly throughout the world as the enemies of the vivisectionist would have us believe. . _the nervous system_ section . a little more attention must now be given to the detailed anatomy of the peripheral and central nerve ends. a nerve, as we have pointed out, terminates centrally in some ganglion cell, either in a ganglion or in the spinal cord or brain; peripherally there is a much greater variety of ending. we may have tactile (touch) ends of various kinds, and the similar olfactory and gustatory end organs; or the nerve may conduct efferent impressions, and terminate in a gland which it excites to secretion, in a muscle end-plate, or in fact, anywhere, where kataboly can be set going and energy disengaged. we may now briefly advert to the receptive nerve ends. section . many sensory nerves, doubtless, terminate in fine ends among the tissues. there are also special touch corpuscles, ovoid bodies, around which a nerve twines, or within which it terminates. section . the eye (figure ) has a tough, dense, outer coat, the sclerotic (sc.), within which is a highly vascular and internally pigmented layer, the choroid, upon which the percipient nervous layer, the retina (r.) rests. the chief chamber of the eye is filled with a transparent jelly, the vitreous humour (v.h.). in front of the eye, the white sclerotic passes into the transparent cornea (c.). the epidermis is continued over the outer face of this as a thin, transparent epithelium. the choroid coat is continued in front by a ring-shaped muscle, the iris (ir.) the coloured portion of the eyes. this iris enlarges or contracts its central aperture (the black pupil) by reflex action, as the amount of light diminishes or increases. immediately behind this curtain is the crystalline lens (l.), the curvature of the anterior face or which is controlled by the ciliary muscle (c.m.). in front of the lens is the aqueous humour (a.h.). the description of the action of this apparatus involves the explanation of several of the elementary principles of optics, and will be found by the student in any text-book of that subject. here it would have no very instructive bearing, either on general physiological considerations or upon anatomical fact. section . the structure of the retina demands fuller notice. figure shows an enlarged, diagram of a small portion of this, the percipient part of the eye. the optic nerve (o.n. in figure ) enters the eye at a spot called the blind spot (b.s.), and the nerve fibres spread thence over the inner retinal surface. from this layer of nerve fibres (o.n. in figure ) threads run outward, through certain clear and granular layers, to an outermost stratum of little rods (r.) and fusiform bodies called cones (c.), lying side by side. the whole of the retina consists of quite transparent matter, and it is this outermost layer of rods and cones (r. and c.) that receives and records the visual impression. this turning of the recipient ends away from the light is hardly what one would at first expect-- it seems such a roundabout arrangement-- but it obtains in all vertebrata, and it is a striking point of comparison with the ordinary invertebrate eye. section . we may pause to call the student's attention to a little point in the physiology of nerves, very happily illustrated here. the function of a nerve fibre is the conduction of impressions pure and simple; the light radiates through the fibrous layer of the retina without producing the slightest impression, and at the blind spot, where the rods and cones are absent, and the nerve fibres are gathered together, no visual impressions are recorded. if there is any doubt as to the existence of a blind spot in the retinal picture, the proof is easy. let the reader shut his left eye, and regard these two asterisks, fixing his gaze intently upon the left-hand one of them. * * at a distance of three or four inches from the paper, both spots will be focussed on his retina, the left one in the centre of vision, and the right one at some spot internal to this, and he will see them both distinctly. now, if he withdraws his head slowly, the right spot will of course appear to approach the left, and at a distance of ten or twelve inches it will, in its approach, pass over the blind spot and vanish, to reappear as he continues to move his head away from the paper. the function of nerve fibres is simply conduction, and the nature of the impressions they convey is entirely determined by the nature of their distal and proximal terminations. section . certain small muscles in the orbit (eye-socket) move the eye, and by their action contribute to our perception of the relative position of objects. there is a leash of four muscles rising from a spot behind the exit of the optic nerve from the cranium to the upper, under, anterior, and posterior sides of the eyeball. these are the superior, inferior, anterior, and posterior recti. running from the front of the orbit obliquely to the underside of the eyeball is the inferior oblique muscle. corresponding to it above is a superior oblique. a lachrymal gland lies in the postero-inferior angle of the orbit, and a handerian gland in the corresponding position in front. in addition to the upper and lower eyelids of the human subject, the rabbit has a third, the nictitating lid, in the anterior corner of the eye. section . the ear (sheet vii.) consists of an essential organ of hearing, and of certain superadded parts. the essential part is called the internal ear, and is represented in all the true vertebrata (i.e., excluding the lancelet and its allies). in the lower forms it is a hollow membranous structure, embedded in a mass of cartilage, the otic capsule; in the mammal the latter is entirely ossified, to form the periotic bone. the internal ear consists of a central sac, from which three semicircular canals spring. the planes of the three canals are mutually at right angles; two are vertical, the anterior and posterior (p.v.c.) vertical canals, and one is horizontal, the horizontal canal (h.c.). there are dilatations, called ampullae, at the anterior base of the anterior, and at the posterior base of the posterior and horizontal canals. indirectly connected with the main sac is a spirally-twisted portion, resembling a snail shell in form, the cochlea. this last part is distinctive of the mammalia, but the rest of the internal ear is represented in all vertebrata, with one or two exceptions. the whole of the labyrinth is membranous, and contains a fluid, the endolymph; between the membranous wall of the labyrinth and the enclosing bone is a space containing the perilymph. strange as it may appear at first, the entire lining of the internal ear is, at an early stage, continuous with the general epidermis of the animal. it grows in just as a gland might grow in, and is finally cut off from the exterior; but a considerable relic of this former communication remains as a thin, vertical blind tube (not shown in the figure), the ductus endolymphaticus. section . the eighth nerve runs from the brain case (cr.), into the periotic bone, and is distributed to the several portions of this labyrinth. in an ordinary fish this internal ear is the sole auditory organ we should find; the sound-waves would travel through the water to the elastic cranium and so reach and affect the nerves. but in all air-frequenting animals this original plan of an ear has to be added to, to fit it to the much fainter sound vibrations of the compressible and far less elastic air. a "receiving apparatus" is needed, and is supplied by the ear-drum, middle ear, or tympanic cavity (t.). in the mammal there is also a collecting ear trumpet (the ear commonly so-called), the external ear, and external auditory meatus (e.a.m.). a tightly stretched membrane, the tympanic membrane, separates this from the drum. a chain of small bones, the malleus (m.), the incus (i.), the os orbiculare (o.or.), a very small bone, and a stirrup-shaped stapes, swing across the tympanum, from the tympanic membrane to the internal ear. at two points the bony investment of this last is incomplete-- at the fenestra rotunda (f.r.), and at the fenestra ovalis, (f.o.), into which latter the end of the stapes fits, and so communicates the sound vibrations of the tympanic membrane to the endolymph. a passage, the eustachian tube, communicates between the tympanic cavity and the pharynx (ph.), and serves to equalize the pressure on either side of the drum-head. a comparative study of the ears of the vertebrata brings to light the fact that, as we descend in the animal scale, the four ear ossicles are replaced by large bones and cartilages connected with the jaw, and the drum and eustachian tube by a gill slit. we have, in fact, in the ear, as the student will perceive in the sequel, an essentially aquatic auditory organ, added to and patched up to fit the new needs of a life out of water. section . the impressions of smell are conducted through the first nerve to the brain, and are first received by special hair-bearing cells in the olfactory mucous membrane of the upper part of the nasal passage. the sense of taste has a special nerve in the ninth, the fibres of which terminate in special cells and cell aggregates in the little papillae (velvet pile-like processes) that cover the tongue. section . at an early stage in development, the brain of a mammal consists of a linear arrangement of three hollow vesicles (figure , sheet viii., , , and ), which are the fore-, mid-, and hind-brain respectively. the cavities in these in these vesicles are continuous with a hollow running through the spinal cord. on the dorsal side of the fore-brain is a structure to be dealt with more fully later, the pineal gland (p.g.), while on its under surface is the pituitary body (pt.). section . the lower figure of ( ) shows, in a diagrammatic manner, the derivation of the adult brain from this primitive state. from the fore-brain vesicle, a hollow outgrowth on either side gives rises to the (paired) cerebral hemisphere (c.h.), which is prolonged forward as the olfactory lobe (o.l.). from the fore-brain the retina of the eye and the optic nerve also originate as an, at first, hollow outgrowth (op.). the roof of the mid-brain is also thickened, and bulges up to form two pairs of thickenings, the corpora quadrigemina, (c.q.). the hind-brain sends up in front a median outgrowth, which develops lateral wings, the cerebellum (cbm.), behind which the remainder of the hind-brain is called the medulla oblongata, and passes without any very definite demarcation into the spinal cord. section . figure is a corresponding figure of the actual state of affairs in the adult. the brain is seen in median vertical section. (ch.) is the right cerebral hemisphere, an inflated vesicle, which, in the mammal-- but not in our lower types-- reaches back over the rest of the fore-brain, and also over the mid-brain, and hides these and the pineal gland in the dorsal view of the brain (figure ). the hollow of the hemisphere on either side communicates with the third ventricle, the original cavity of the fore-brain ( in figure ), by an aperture (the foramen of monro), indicated by a black arrow (f.m.). besides their original communication through the intermediation of the fore-brain, the hemispheres are also united above its roof by a broad bridge of fibre, the corpus callosum (c.c.), which is distinctive of the mammalian animals. the original fore-brain vesicle has its lateral walls thickened to form the optic thalami (o.th.), between which a middle commissure, (m.c.), absent in lower types, stretches like a great beam across the third ventricle. the original fore-brain is often called the thalamencephalon, the hemisphere, the prosencephalon, the olfactory lobes, the rhinencephalon. section . the parts of mid-brain (mesencephalon) will be easily recognised. its cavity is in the adult mammal called the iter; its floor is differentiated into bundles of fibres, the crura cerebri (c.cb.), figured also in figure . section . the cerebellum (metencephalon) consists of a central mass, the vermis (v.cbm.), and it also has lateral lobes (l.l.), prolonged into flocculi (f.cbm.), which lastare -em-bedded in pits, [in] the periotic bone, and on that account render the extraction of the brain from the cranium far more difficult than it would otherwise be. the roof of the hind-brain, before and behind the cerebellum, consists of extremely thin plates of nervous matter. its floor is greatly thickened to form the mass of the medulla, and in front a great transverse track of fibres is specialized, the pons varolii (p.v.). its cavity is called, the fourth ventricle. section . figure gives a dorsal view of the rabbit's brain; a horizontal slice has been taken at the level of the corpus callosum. the lateral ventricle (i.e., the hollows of the hemisphere) is not yet opened. a lower cut (figure ) exposes this (v.l.). the level of these slices is approximately indicated in figure by the lines a and b. this latter figure will repay careful examination. the arrow, ar., plunges into the third ventricle, behind the great middle commissure (m.c.), and the barb is supposed to lie under the roof of the mid-brain, the corpora quadrigemina (c.q.). the position of ar. is also indicated in figure . before reading on, the beginner should stop a while here; he should carefully copy or trace our figures and, putting the book aside, name the parts, and he should then recopy, on an enlarged scale, and finally draw from memory, correct, and again draw. by doing this before the brain is dissected a considerable saving of time is possible. section . proceeding from the brain are twelve pairs of cranial nerves. from the fore-brain spring two pairs, which differ from the rest of the cranial nerves in being, first of all, hollow outgrowths of the brain-- the others are from the beginning solid. the first nerve is the olfactory lobe, which sends numerous filaments through the ethmoid bone to the olfactory organ. the second is the optic nerve, the visual sensory nerve. section . the mid-brain gives rise to only one nerve, the third, which supplies all the small muscles of the eye (see section ), except the superior oblique and external rectus. section . the remainder of the nerves spring from the hind-brain. the fourth pair supply the superior obliques, and the sixth the external recti; so that iii., iv., and vi. are alike purely motor nerves, small and distributed, to the orbit. the fifth nerve, the trigeminal, is a much larger and more important one; it is a mixed nerve, having three main branches, of which the first two are chiefly sensory, the third almost entirely motor; it lies deeply in the orbit. v (see sheet ) runs up over the recti behind the eyeball, it is the ophthalmic branch; v , the maxillary branch, runs deeply under the eyeball and emerges in front of the malar, and v , the mandibular branch, runs down on the inner side of the jaw-bone to the jaw muscles and tongue. section . if the student will now recur to the figures of the dog's skull (sheet ), he will see certain apertures indicated in the cranial wall. of these, o.f. is the optic foramen for the exit of nerve ii., perforating the orbito-sphenoid. behind this there comes an irregular aperture, (f.l.a.), the foramen lacerum anterius, giving exit to iii., iv., vi., and v . v emerges from the foramen rotundum, and v from the foramen ovale, two apertures uniting behind a bony screen.* just in front of the bulla is a foramen lacerum medium (f.l.m.), through which no nerve passes. * in the rabbit's skull f.l. anterius, the foramen rotundum, and foramen ovale are not distinct, and there are two condylar foramina instead of one, through each of which, a moiety of xii. passes. section . the eighth nerve (auditory) is purely sensory, the nerve of the special sense of hearing; it runs into the periotic bone, and breaks up on the labyrinth. the seventh nerve (facial) is almost entirely motor; it passes through the periotic anterior to viii., and emerges by the stylo-mastoid foramen (s.m.f.) behind the bulla, to run outside the great jaw muscle across the cheek immediately under the skin (figure ). section . the ninth (glossopharyngeal) nerve is chiefly sensory; it is the special nerve of taste, and is distributed to the tongue. the tenth nerve (vagus) arises by a number of roots, and passes out of the skull, together with ix and xi, by the foramen lacerum -posterium- [posterius] (f.l.p.). it is a conspicuous white nerve, and runs down the neck by the side of the common carotid artery. it sends a superior laryngeal branch (xa) to the larynx. the left vagus passes ventral to the aortic arch, and sends a branch (l.x.b.) under this along the trachea to the larynx-- the recurrent laryngeal nerve. the corresponding nerve on the right (r.x.b.) loops under the subclavian artery. the main vagus, after this branching, passes behind the heart to the oesophagus and along it to the stomach. xi., the spinal accessory, supplies certain of the neck nerves. xii., the hypoglossal, runs out of the skull by the condylar foramen (c.f.), is motor, crosses the roots of xi., x., and ix., passes ventral to the carotid, and breaks up among the muscles of the tongue and neck. section . of the functions of the several parts of the brain there is still very considerable doubt. with disease or willful destruction of the cerebral tissue the personal initiative is affected-- the animal becomes more distinctly a mechanism; the cerebellum is probably concerned in the coordination of muscular movements; and the medulla is a centre for the higher and more complicated respiratory reflexes, yawning, coughing, and so on. the great majority of reflex actions centre, however, in the spinal cord, and do not affect the brain. section . a cross section of the spinal cord is shown in figure , sheet . it is a cylinder, almost bisected by a dorsal (d.f.) and a ventral (v.f.) fissure. through its centre runs a central canal (c.c.), continuous with the brain ventricles, and lined by ciliated epithelium. the spinal cord consists of an outer portion, mainly of nervous fibres, the white matter, and of inner, ganglionated, and more highly vascular grey matter. (in the cerebrum the grey matter is external, and the white internal.) the cord, like the brain, is surrounded by a vascular fibrous investment, and protected from concussion by a serous fluid. the nerves which emerge from the vertebral column between the vertebrae, arise, unlike the cranial nerves, by two roots. the dorsal of these, the sensory root (d.n.), has a swelling upon it, the dorsal ganglion, and-- by experiments upon living animals-- has been shown to contain only afferent fibres; the ventral, the motor root, is without a ganglion, and entirely or mainly motor. the two unite outside the cord, and thereafter the spinal nerves are both sensory and motor. section . besides the great mass of brain and spinal cord (cerebro-spinal axis), there is, on either side of the dorsal wall of the body cavity, a sympathetic nervous chain. the nerve fibres of this system, like the nerve fibres of invertebrates, are non-medullated. it may be seen as a greyish thread running close by the common carotid in the neck (sym., figure ); it then runs over the heads of the ribs in the thorax and close beside the dorsal aorta in the abdominal region. in the anterior region of the neck it dilates to form a superior cervical ganglion, and opposite the first rib it forms an inferior cervical ganglion. thence, backwards, there is a ganglion on each sympathetic chain opposite each spinal nerve, and the two exchange fibres through a thread, the ramus communicans. to the sympathetic chain is delegated much of the routine work of reflex control of the bloodvessels and other viscera, which would otherwise fall upon the spinal cord. section . there are eight cervical (spinal) nerves, one in front of the atlas, and one behind each of the cervical vertebrae. the last four and the first thoracic (spinal) contribute to a leash of nerves running out to the fore limb, the brachial plexus (plexus, literally network, but here meaning a plaited cord). the fourth cervical also sends down a phrenic nerve (p.n., figure ), along by the external jugular vein and the superior caval vein to the diaphragm. the last three lumbar and the sacral nerves form a sacral plexus, supplying the hind limb. section . from the sympathetic in the hinder region of the thorax a nerve, the great splanchnic nerve, arises, and runs, back to a ganglionated nervous network, just behind the coeliac artery, into which the vagus also enters; this is the coeliac ganglion, and together with a similar superior mesenteric ganglion around the corresponding artery, makes up a subsidiary visceral nervous network, the solar plexus. a similar and smaller nervous tangle, bearing an inferior mesenteric ganglion, lies near the inferior mesenteric artery. section . finally, we may note the pineal gland and the pituitary body, as remarkable appendages above and below the thalamencephalon. their function, if they have a function, is altogether unknown. probably, they are inherited from ancestors to whom they were of value. such structures are called reduced or vestigial structures, and among other instances are the clavicles of the rabbit, the hair on human limbs, the little pulpy nodule in the corner of the human eye, representing the rabbit's third eyelid, and the caudal vertebrae at the end of the human spinal column. in certain lowly reptiles, in the lampreys, and especially in a peculiar new zealand lizard, the pineal gland has the most convincing resemblance to an eye, both in its general build and in the microscopic structure of its elements; and it seems now more than probable that this little vascular pimple in our brains is a relic of a third and median eye possessed by ancestral vertebrata. the pituitary body is probably equivalent to a ciliated pit we shall describe in the lacelet (amphioxus). . _renal and reproductive organs_ section . we have now really completed our survey of the individual animal's mechanism. but no animal that was merely complete in itself would be long sanctioned by nature. for an animal species to survive, there must evidently, also, be proper provision for the production of young, and the preservation of the species as well as of the individual. hence in an animal's physiology and psychology we meet with a vast amount of unselfish provision, and its structure and happiness are more essentially dependent on the good of its kind than on its narrow personal advantage. the mammalia probably owe their present dominant position in the animal kingdom to the exceptional sacrifices made by them for their young. instead of laying eggs and abandoning them before or soon after hatching, the females retain the eggs within their bodies until the development of the young is complete, and thereafter associate with them for the purposes of nourishment, protection, and education. in the matter of the tail, for instance, already noted, the individual rabbit incurs the disadvantage of conspicuousness for the rear, in order to further the safety of the young. section . the female organs of reproduction are shown in sheet . the essential organ is the ovary (ov.), in which the ova (eggs) are formed. figure gives an enlarged and still more diagrammatic rendering of the ovary. there is a supporting ground mass, or stroma, into which numerous bloodvessels and nerves enter and break up. the ova appear first as small cells in the external substance of the ovary (as at ), and move inward ( and ), surrounded by a number of sister cells, which afford them nourishment. at ( ) an ovum with its surrounding group of cells is more distinct and near the centre of the ovary; a fluid is appearing within the ovisac as the development proceeds. ( ) is a much more mature ovisac or graafian follicle. section . the ovum (ov.), is now large, and its nucleus and nucleolus (the germinal vesicle and spot) are very distinct. the wall of the follicle consists, in the mammal, of several layers of cells, the membrana granulosa (or "granulosa" simply); the ovum lies on its outer side embedded in a mass of cells, discus proligerus, separated from actual contact with the ovum by a zona pellucida. the ripening follicle moves to the surface of the ovary and bursts, the ovum falls into the body cavity. in figure , a ripe graafian follicle (g.f.), projects upon the ovary. section . the liberated ovum is caught up by the funnel-shaped opening of the fallopian tube, which passes without any very conspicuous demarcation into the cornu uteri (c.ut.) of its side; the two uterine cornua meeting together in the middle line form the vagina (v.), which runs out into a vestibule (vb.) opening between tumid lips to the exterior. the urinary bladder (ur.b.) also opens into the vestibule, and receives the two ureters from the kidney. section . in the male we find, in the position of the female uterus, a uterus masculinus (u.m.). the essential sexual organ is the testis (t.), a compact mass of coiling tubuli, which opens by a number of ducts, the vasa efferentia, into a looser and softer epididymis (ep.), which sends the sexual product onward through a vas deferens (v.d.), to open at the base of the uterus masculinus. the urinary bladder and ureters correspond with those of the female, and the common urogenital duct (= vestibule), the urethra, is prolonged into an erectile penis (p.) surrounded by a fold of skin, the prepuce. a prostate gland (pr.), contributes to the male sexual fluid. the character of the essential male element, the spermatozoon, the general nature of the reproductive process, will be conveniently deferred until the chapters upon development are reached. . _classificatory points_ section . the following facts of classificatory importance may now be considered, but their full force will be better appreciated after the study of other vertebrate types. they are such as come prominently forward in the comparison of the rabbit with other organisms. section . in the first place, the rabbit is a metazoon, one of the metazoa, i.e., a multicellular organism, as compared with the amoeba, which belongs to the protozoa or one-cell animals (section ). in the next place, it is externally bilaterally symmetrical, its parts balance, and where, in its internal anatomy, it departs from this symmetry (as in the case of the aorta, the stomach and intestines, and the kidneys), the departure has an appearance of being the results of partial reductions and distortions of an originally quite symmetrical plan. and the facts of development strengthen this idea; in the very earliest stages we have paired aortic arches, of which, the left only remains, a straight alimentary canal, and less asymmetrical kidneys. in the vast majority of animals the same bilateral symmetry is to be seen, but in the star-fish and sea-urchins, and in the jelly-fish, corals, sea anemones, and hydra, the general form of the animal is, instead, arranged round a centre, like a star and its rays, and the symmetry is called radial. section . we also see in various organs of the rabbit, and especially in the case of the limbs and vertebral column, what is called metameric segmentation, that is, a repetition of parts, one behind the other, along the axis of the body. thus the bodies and arches of the vertebrae repeat each other, and so do the spinal nerves. the renal organ of the rabbit, some time before birth, displays a metameric arrangement of its parts; but this disappears, as development proceeds, into the compact kidney of the adult. but the metameric segmentation in the rabbit's organism is not nearly so marked as that of an earthworm, for instance, which is visibly a chain of rings. if the student wants a perfect figure of metameric segmentation he should think of a train of precisely similar carriages, or a string of beads. one bead, one carriage, one vertebra, would be a metamere. section . in contrast to metameric segmentation is the antimeric repetition of radial symmetry (section ), in which each ray of the star is called an antimere. it is possible to have bilateral symmetry without a metameric arrangement of parts, as in the mussel and the cuttle-fish; but metameric segmentation without complete or reduced bilateral symmetry does not occur. section . we are now in a position to appreciate the fact that the old and more popularly know division of animals into vertebrata and invertebrata scarcely represents the facts of the case, that the primary division should be into protozoa and metazoa, and that the vertebrata are one of several groups of metazoa with a fundamental bilateral symmetry and imperfect metameric segmentation. the rabbit is one of the vertebrata, and, in common with all the other animals collected under this head, it has-- (a) a skeletal axis (the vertebral column) between its central nervous system and its body cavity. in the adult rabbit this consists of a chain of vertebrae, but in the embryo (i.e., the young rabbit before birth) it is represented by a continuous chord, the notochord, and it remains as such in some of the lowest vertebrata throughout life. in other words, in these lower vertebrata, the vertebral axis is not metameric. (b) a dorsal and -tubular_ nervous axis. (section , the central canal) (c) it has, though in the embryo only, certain slits between the throat and the exterior, like the gill slits of a fish. such slits are-- with one or two remarkable exceptions outside the sub-kingdom-- distinctly vertebrate features, and remain, of course, in fishes throughout life. the presence of true cartilage and bone mark a vertebrate, but vertebrata occur in which -these tissues- [bone] -are- [is] absent. section . the rabbit shares the following features with all the vertebrata, except the true fishes, which do not possess any of them-- (a) lungs (but many fish have a swimming bladder which answers to the lungs in its anatomical relations.) (b) limbs which consist of a proximal joint of one bone an intermediate part of two, and a distal portion which has five digits, or is evidently a reduced form of the five-digit limb.* (c) the absence of a median fin supported by fin rays.** * the frog shows indications of a sixth digit. ** the frog's tadpole has a median fin, but no fin rays. section . the rabbit shares the following features with all the vertebrata above the fishes and amphibia (= frogs, toads, newts, and etc.)-- (a) absence of gills (not gill slits, note) at any stage in development. (b) an amnion, and (c) an allantois in development. the meaning of (b) and (c) we shall explain to the student in the chapters on embryology. we simply mention them here to render our table complete. section . the rabbit shares with all mammals, and differs from all other vertebrata (i.e., birds, reptiles, amphibia, and fishes), in having-- (a) hair. (b) a diaphragm. (c) only one aortic arch, and that on the left side of the body. (d) its young born alive. (but two very reptile-like mammals of australia, the duck-billed platypus and the echidna, lay eggs, and certain fish and reptiles bear living young.) (e) epiphyses to its vertebral -centre- [centra].* (f) the cerebral hemispheres covering the mid-brain. (g) corpora quadrigemina instead of bigemina. [(h) a corpus callosum.] [(i) a spirally coiled cochlea to the internal ear.] [(in respect to h and i also, the echidna and platypus are scarcely mammalinan.)] * but certain mammals have no such epiphyses. section . the rabbit, together with the hares and conies, rats and mice, voles, squirrels, beavers, cavies, guineapigs is included in that order of the class of mammals which is called the rodentia, and is distinguished by the character of the incisor teeth from other orders of the class. . _questions and exercises_ . describe the venous circulation of the rabbit (with diagrams). compare a vein and artery. compare the distribution of the great venous trunks with that of the arterial system. . construct a general diagram of the circulation of the rabbit, to show especially the relation of the portal system, the lymphatics and lacteals, and the renal circulation to the main blood current. . draw the alimentary canal of the rabbit from memory. . what is a villus? describe its epithelium, and the vessels within it. write as explicit an account as you can of the absorbent action of a villus. . tabulate the alimentary secretions, and their action on the food. . what is botryoidal tissue? where does it occur? what is known of its functions? . copy diagram i. (enlarged), and insert upon it the visceral nerves as far as you can. . what are the most characteristic points in the mammalian vertebral column? . describe cartilage and bone, and compare them with one another. . give an account of the amoeba, and compare it with a typical tissue cell in a metazoon (e.g., the rabbit). . give a general account of connective tissue. what is tendon? . trace, briefly, the increased modification of tissues in the vertebrata. . describe, with diagrams, the structure of blood. state the function of each factor you describe. . compare the pectoral with the pelvic limb and girdle. what other structures of the adult rabbit display a similar repetition of similar parts? . draw from memory typical vertebrae from each region of the vertebral column. . what are bilateral symmetry and metameric segmentation? . give a schedule of distinctive mammalian features. . describe the rabbit's brain (with diagrams). . give a list of the cranial nerves of the rabbit, and note their origin in the brain. . give a list of the nerve apertures of the dog's skull. . what are the chief anatomical differences between a typical cranial, a spinal, and a sympathetic nerve? . describe and figure the distribution of nerves v., vii., ix., and x. . describe the muscles, glands, and nerves of the orbit of the rabbit. . describe, with figures, the eye of the rabbit. . give a diagram of the rabbit's internal ear. . draw and describe the ear ossicles. what is their function? . draw and state the precise position of the hyoid bone, the clavicle, the calcaneum, and the olecranon process. . describe, as accurately as possible, the position of palatine bones, pterygoids, the ethmoid bone, the pre- and basi-sphenoids, in the dog's skull. . what is membrane bone? what is cartilage bone? discuss their mutual relationship. . what is an excretion? what are the chief excretory products of an animal? how are they removed? . describe the minute anatomy of the liver. give a general account of its functions. . describe the minute anatomy of the kidney, and the functions of the several parts. . what is ciliated epithelium? where does it occur in the rabbit? . describe the mechanism of respiration. what is the relation of respiration to the general life of the animal? . what are the functions of the skin? describe its structure. . what is a secretion? tabulate and classify secretary organs. what is a goblet cell? . draw, from memory, the dorsal and ventral aspects of, and a median section through, a dog's skull. . name any structures that appear to you to be vestiges or rudiments, i.e., structures without adequate physiological reason, in the rabbit's anatomy. . how are such structures interpreted? . describe the structure of striated muscular fibre. describe its functions, and the various means by which they may be called into activity. . describe the characters and structure of the blood of the rabbit. what is the lymphatic system? describe its relation to the blood system in a mammal. . describe the structure of (a) blood, (b) hyaline cartilage, (c) bone, in the rabbit; (d) point out the most important resemblances and differences between these tissues; (e) state what you know of the development of the same tissues. . draw diagrams, with the parts named, of the male and female generative organs of the rabbit. . in the rabbit provided dissect on one side and demonstrate by means of flag-labels the main trunk of the vagus nerve, the phrenic nerve, and the recurrent laryngeal nerve. . dissect the rabbit provided so as to expose the abdominal viscera. mark with flag-labels the duct of the pancreas, the ureters, and the oviducts or the sperm ducts (as the case may be). [many of the above questions were actually set at london university examinations in biology.] {in both editions.} -the frog_ . _general anatomy_ section . we will now study the adult anatomy of the frog, and throughout we shall make constant comparisons with that of the rabbit. in the rabbit we have a distinctly land-loving, burrowing animal; it eats purely vegetable food, and drinks but little. in the frog we have a mainly insectivorous type, living much in the water. this involves the moister skin, the shorter alimentary canal, and the abbreviated neck (rabbit, section ) of the frog; the tail is absent-- in a fish it would do the work the frog accomplishes with his hind legs-- and the apertures which are posterior in the rabbit, run together into one dorsal opening, the cloaca. there is, of course (rabbit, section ), no hair the skin is smooth, and an external ear is also absent. the remarkable looseness of the frog's skin is due to great lymph spaces between it and the body wall. section . if we now compare the general anatomy of the frog (vide sheet ) with that of the rabbit, we notice that the diaphragm is absent (rabbit, section ), and the body cavity, or coelom, is, with the exception of the small bag of the pericardium round the heart, one continuous space. the forked tongue is attached in front of the lower jaw, and can be flicked out and back with great rapidity in the capture of the small insects upon which the frog lives. the posterior nares open into the front of the mouth-- there is no long nasal chamber, and no palate, and there is no long trachea between the epiglottis and the lungs. the oesophagus is less distinct, and passes gradually, so far as external appearances go, into the bag-like stomach, which is much less inflated and transverse than that of the rabbit. the duodenum is not a u-shaped loop, but makes one together with the stomach; the pancreas lies between it and the stomach, and is more compact than the rabbit's. there is no separate pancreatic duct, but the bile duct runs through the pancreas, and receives a series of ducts from that gland as it does so. the ileum is shorter, there is no sacculus rotundus, and the large intestine has no caecum, none of the characteristic sacculations of the rabbit's colon, and does not loop back to the stomach before the rectum section commences. the anus opens not upon the exterior, but into a cloacal chamber. the urinary and genital ducts open separately into this cloaca, and dorsally and posteriorly to the anus. the so-called urinary bladder is ventral to the intestine, in a position answering to that of the rabbit, but it has no connection with the ureters, and it is two-horned. section . the spleen is a small, round body, not so intimately bound to the stomach as in the rabbit, but in essentially the same position. section . much that we knew of the physiology of the frog is arrived at mainly by inferences from our mammalian knowledge. its histology is essentially similar. ciliated epithelium is commoner and occurs more abundantly than in the rabbit, in the roof of the mouth for instance, and its red blood corpuscles are much larger, oval, and nucleated. section . the lungs of the frog are bag-like; shelves and spongy partitions project into their cavities, but this structure is much simpler than that of the rabbit's lung, in which the branching bronchi, the imperfect cartilaginous rings supporting them, alveoli, arteries and veins, form together a quasi-solid mass. section . the mechanism of respiration is fundamentally different from that of the mammal. the method is as follows:-- the frog opens its anterior nares, and depresses the floor of the mouth, which therefore fills with air. the anterior nares are then closed, and the floor mouth rises and forces the air into the lungs-- the frog, therefore, swallows its air rather than inhales it. the respiratory instrument of the rabbit is a suction pump, while that of the frog is a "buccal force pump." section . the heart is not quadrilocular (i.e., of four chambers), but trilocular (of three), and two structures, not seen in lepus, the truncus arteriosus and the sinus venosus, into the latter of which the venous blood runs before entering the right auricle, are to be noted. the single ventricle is blocked with bars of tissue that render its interior, not an open cavity, but a spongy mass. figure , sheet , shows the heart opened; l.au. and r.au. are the left and right auricles respectively; the truncus arteriosus is seen to be imperfectly divided by a great longitudino-spiral valve (l.s.v.); p.c. is the pulmo-cutaneous artery -going to the lungs- [supplying skin and lungs]; d.ao., the dorsal aorta [furnishing the supply of the body and limbs]; and c.a. the carotid artery going to the head; all of which vessels (compare figure ) are paired. section . it might be inferred from this that pure and impure blood mix in the ventricle, and that a blood of uniform quality flows to lungs, head, and extremities; but this is not so. the spongy nature of the ventricle sufficiently retards this mixing. it will be noted that the opening of pulmonary arteries lies nearest to the heart, next come the aortic and carotid arches, which have a common opening at a. furthermore, at c.g.l. [the carotid artery, repeatedly divides to form a close meshwork of arterioles, the carotid gland, forming a sponge-like plug in this vessel.] is a spongy mass of matter, the carotid gland inserted upon the carotid. hence the pulmonary arteries yawn nearest for the blood, and, being short, wide vessels, present the least resistance to the first rush of blood-- mainly venous blood for the right auricle. as they fill up, the back resistance in them becomes equal, and then greater, than the resistance at a, and the rush of blood, now of a mixed quality passes through that aperture. it selects the dorsal aorta, because the carotid arch, plugged by the carotid gland, offers the greater resistance. presently, however, the back resistance of the filled dorsal aorta rises above this, and the last flow of blood, from the ventricular systole-- almost purely oxygenated blood for the left auricle-- goes on towards the head. section . at the carotid gland the carotid artery splits into -an- [a] -external carotid- [lingual] (e.c.), and a deeper internal carotid. the dorsal aorta passes round on each side of the oesophagus, as indicated by the dotted lines in figure , sheet , and meets its fellow dorsal to the liver. each arch gives off subclavian arteries to the limbs, and the left, immediately before meeting the right, gives off the coeliaco-mesenteric artery [to the alimentary canal]. this origin of the coeliaco-mesenteric artery a little to the left, is the only asymmetry (want of balance) in the arterial system of the frog, as contrasted with the very extensive asymmetry of the great vessels near the heart of the rabbit. [posteriorly the dorsal aorta forks into two common iliac arteries (right and left) supplying the hind limbs.] section . figure gives a side view of the frog, to display the circulation. {lines from second edition only.} [the venous return to the heart, as in the rabbit, is by paired venae cavae anteriores and by a single vena cava inferior. the factors of the anterior cava on either side are an external jugular (ex.j.) an innominate vein (in.v.) and subclavian (scl.v.). the last receives not only the brachial vein (b.v.) from the fore limb, but also a large vein bringing blood for the skin, the cutaneous (p.v.). the innominate vein has also two chief factors, the internal jugular (l.i.j.v.) and the subscapular (s.s.v.). the blood returns from each hind limb by a sciatic (l.sc.) or femoral (f.m.) vein, and either passes to a renal portal vein (l.r.p.), which breaks into capillaries in the kidney, or by a paired pelvic vein (l.p.v. in figures and ) which meets its fellow in the middle line to form the anterior abdominal vein (a.ab.v.) going forward and uniting with the (median) portal vein (p.v.) to enter the liver.] -the vessels are named in the references to the figure, which should be carefully copied and mastered. here we need only- [comparing with the rabbit, we would especially] call attention to the fact that the vena cava inferior extends posteriorly only to the kidney, and that there is a renal portal system. the blood from the hind limbs either flows by the anterior abdominal vein to the portal vein and liver, or it passes by the renal portal vein to the kidney. there the vein breaks up, and we find in the frog's kidney, just as we find in the frog's and rabbit's liver, a triple system of (a) nutritive arterial, (b) afferent* venous and (c) efferent** venous vessels. * a, ad = to; ** e, ex = out of. {this section missing from second edition.} -section . it is not very improbable that the kidney of the frog shares, or performs, some of the functions of the rabbit's liver, or parallel duties, in addition to the simply excretory function. since specialization of cells must be mainly the relatively excessive exaggeration of some one of the general properties of the undifferentiated cell, it is not a difficult thing to imagine a gradual transition, as we move from one organism to another, of the functions of glands and other cellular organs. it is probable that the mammalian kidney is, physiologically, a much less important (though still quite essential) organ than the structures which correspond to it in position and development in the lower vertebrate types.- section . the lymphatic system is extensively developed in the frog, but, in the place of a complete system of distinctly organized vessels, there are great lymph sinuses (compare section ). in figure , sheet , the position of two lymph hearts (l.h., l.h.) which pump lymph into the adjacent veins, is shown. section . the skull of the frog will repay a full treatment, and will be dealt with by itself later. the vertebral column (sheet ) consists of nine vertebrae, the centra of which have faces, not flat, but hollow in front (pro-coelous), and evidently without epiphyses (compare the rabbit). the anterior is sometimes called the atlas, but it is evidently not the homologue of the atlas of the rabbit, since the first spinal nerve has a corresponding distribution to the twelfth cranial of the mammal, and since, therefore, it is probable that the mammalian skull = the frog's skull + one (or more) vertebrae incorporated with it. posteriorly the vertebral column terminates in the urostyle, a calcified unsegmented rod. the vertebrae have transverse processes, but no ribs. section . the fore-limb (figure , sheet ) consists of an upper segment of one bone, the humerus, as in the rabbit; a middle section, the radius and ulna, fused here into one bone, and not, as in the mammalian type, separable; of a carpus, and of five digits, of which the fourth is the longest. the shoulder girdle is more important and complete than that of the higher type. there is a scapula (sc.) with an unossified cartilaginous supra-scapula (s.sc.); the anterior border of the scapula answers to the acromion. on the ventral side a cartilaginous rod, embraced by the clavicle (cl.) (a membrane bone in this type), runs to the sternum, and answers to the clavicle of the rabbit. in the place of the rabbit's coracoid process, is a coracoid bone (co.), which reaches from the glenoid cavity to the sternum; it is hidden on the right side of figure , which is a dorsal view of the shoulder girdle. there is a pre-omosternum (o.st.) and a post-omosternum, sometimes termed a xiphisternum (x.). section . figure shows the pelvic girdle and limb of the frog. there is a femur (f.); tibia and fibula (t. and f.) are completely fused; the proximal bones of the tarsus, the astragalus (as.), and calcaneum (cal.) are elongated, there are five long digits, and in the calcar (c.) an indication of a sixth. with considerable modifications of form, the three leading constituents of the rabbit's pelvic girdle occur in relatively identical positions. the greatly elongated ilium (il.) articulates with the single (compare rabbit) sacral vertebra (s.v. in figure ). the ischium (is.) is relatively smaller than in the rabbit, and the pubis (pu.) is a ventral wedge of unossified cartilage. the shape of the pelvic girdle of the frog is a wide departure from that found among related forms. in connection with the leaping habit, the ilia are greatly elongated, and the pubes and ischia much reduced. generally throughout the air-frequenting vertebrata, we find the same arrangement of these three bones, usually in the form of an inverted. y-- the ilium above, the ischium and pubis below, and the acetabulum at the junction of the three. section . the uro-genital organs of the frog, and especially those of the male, correspond with embryonic stages of the rabbit. in this sex the testes (t., sheet ) lie in the body cavity, and are white bodies usually dappled with black pigment. vasa efferentia (v.e.) run to the internal border of the anterior part of the kidney, which answers, therefore, to the rabbit's epididymis. the hinder part of the kidney is the predominant renal organ. there is a common uro-genital duct, into which a seminal vesicle, which is especially large in early spring, opens. this is the permanent condition of the frog. in the rabbit, for urogenital duct, we have ureter and vas deferens; the testes and that anterior part of the primitive kidney, the epididymis, shift back into the scrotal sacs, and the ureters shift round the rectum and establish a direct connection with the bladder, carrying the genital ducts looped over them. the oviducts of the female do not fuse distally to form a median vagina as they do in the rabbit. in front of the genital organ in both sexes is a corpus adiposum (c.ad.), which acts as a fat store, and is peculiar to the frogs and toads. the distal end of the oviduct of the female is in the breeding season (early march) enormously distended with ova, and the ovaries become then the mere vestiges of their former selves. the distal end of the oviduct is, therefore, not unfrequently styled the uterus. there is no penis in the male, fertilisation of the ova occurring as they are squeezed out of the female by the embracing fore limbs of the male. the male has a pad, black in winter, shown in figure , which is closely pressed against the ventral surface of the female in copulation, and which serves as a ready means of distinguishing the sex. section . the spinal cord has a general similarity to that of the rabbit; the ratio of its size to that of the brain is larger, and the nerves number ten pairs altogether. the first of these (sp. , in figure , sheet - - ) {first edition error.} [ ] corresponds in distribution with the rabbit's hypoglossal nerve, a point we shall refer to again when we speak of the skull. the second and third constitute the brachial plexus. the last three form the sciatic plexus going to the hind limb. section . the same essential parts are to be found in the brain of both frog and rabbit, but in the former the adult is not so widely modified from the primitive condition as in the latter. the fore-brain consists of a thalamencephalon (th.c. and ), which is exposed in the dorsal view of the brain, and which has no middle commissure. the cerebral hemispheres (c.h.) are not convoluted, do not extend back to cover parts behind them, as they do in the rabbit, and are not connected above the roof of the thalamencephalon by a corpus callosum. moreover, the parts usually regarded, as the olfactory lobes (rh.) fuse in the middle line. the mid-brain gives rise to the third nerve, and has the optic lobes on its dorsal side, but these are hollow, and they are not subdivided by a transverse groove into corpora quadrigemina, as in the rabbit. in the hind-brain the cerebellum is a mere band of tissue without lateral lobes or flocculi, and the medulla gives origin only to nerves four to ten; there is no eleventh nerve, and the hypoglossal is the first spinal-- from which it has been assumed that the rabbit's medulla equals that of the frog, plus a portion of the spinal cord incorporated with it. the hypoglossal is very distinctly seen on opening the skin beneath the hyoid plate. section . the first, second, third, and fourth cranial nerves of the frog correspond with those of the rabbit in origin and distribution. so do five, six and eight. the seventh nerve forks over the ear-drum-- the larger branch emerging behind it and running superficially, as shown in figure . there is also a deeper palatine branch of vii. (p.) running under v and v below the orbit, and to be seen together with v and v after removal of the eyeball. the ninth nerve similarly forks over the first branchial slit of the tadpole, and evidence of the fork remains in the frog. it is seen curving round anterior to the hypoglossal nerve, and lying rather deeper in dissection. the vagus (tenth) nerve is distributed to heart, lungs, and viscera-- in the tadpole it also sends for forking branches over the second, third, and fourth branchial slits. it lies deeper than ix., and internal to the veins, and runs close beside the cutaneous artery. most of these nerves are easily dissected and no student should rest satisfied until he has actually seen them. section . the sympathetic chain is closely connected with the aorta. it is, of course, paired, and is easily found in dissection by lifting the dorsal aorta and looking at its mesentery. in the presence of ganglia corresponding to the spinal nerves, and of rami communicantes, it resembles that of the rabbit. section . the whole of this chapter is simply a concise comparison, of frog and rabbit. in addition to reading it, the student should very carefully follow the annotations to the figures, and should copy and recopy these side by side with the corresponding diagrams of the other types. . _the skull of the frog (and the vertebrate skull generally)_ section . we have already given a description of the mammalian skull, and we have stated where the origin of the several bones was in membrane, and where in cartilage; but a more complete comprehension of the mammalian skull becomes possible with the handling of a lower type. we propose now, first to give some short account of the development and structure of the skull of the frog, and then to show briefly how its development and adult arrangement demonstrate the mammalian skull to be a fundamentally similar structure, complicated and disguised by further development and re-adjustment. section . figure ,i. sheet , shows a dorsal view of a young tadpole cranium; the brain has been removed, and it is seen that it was supported simply upon two cartilaginous rods, the trabeculae cranii (tr.c.). behind these trabeculae comes the notochord (n.c.), and around its anterior extremity is a paired tract of cartilage, the parachordals (p.c.). these structures, underlying the skull, are all that appear[s] at first of the brain box. in front, and separate from the cranium, are the nasal organs (n.c.); the eyes lie laterally to the trabeculae, and laterally to the parachordals are two tracts of cartilage enclosing the internal ear, the otic capsules. section . figure , ii., is a more advanced, phase of the same structures. the trabeculae have met in front and sent forward a median (c.t.) and lateral parts (a.o.) to support the nasal organs. they have also flattened, out very considerably, and have sent up walls on either side of the brain to meet above it and form an incomplete roof (t.) over it. the parachordals have similarly grown up round, the hind-brain and formed a complete ring, the roof of which is indicated, by b. further, the otic capsules are fusing with the brain-case. with certain differences of form these elements-- the trabeculae, the parachordals, and the otic capsules, are also the first formed structures of the mammalian cranium. section . in figures ,i. and ii., there appears beneath the eye a bar of cartilage (p.p.), the palato-pterygoid cartilage, which is also to be seen from the side in figures ,i. and iii. it will be learnt from these latter that this bar is joined in front to the cranium behind the nasal organ, and behind to the otic capsule. the cartilaginous bar from the palato-pterygoid to the otic capsule is called the quadrate, and at the point of junction, at the postero-ventral angle of the palato-pterygoid, articulates with the cartilaginous bar which is destined to form the substratum of the lower jaw-- meckel's cartilage (m.c. in figure ,i.). section . figure shows a dorsal view of these structures in a young frog. the parts corresponding to these in ,ii. will be easily made out, but now ossification has set in at various points of this cartilaginous cranium. in front of the otic capsule is the paired pro-otic bone (p.o.); behind it at the sides of the parachordal ring is the paired ex-occipital (e.o.); in front of the cranium box, and behind the nasal capsules, is a ring of bone, the (median, but originally paired) sphenethmoid (s.e.). -a paired ossification appears in the palato-pterygoid cartilage the pterygoid bone (pt.), while- a splint of bone, the quadrato-jugal, appears at the angle of articulation with the lower jaw. these are all the cartilage bones that appear in the cranium and upper jaw of the frog. section . but another series of bones, developed first chiefly in dermal connective tissue, and coming to plate over the cranium of cartilage, are not shown in figure . they are, however, in figure . these membrane bones are: along the dorsal middle line, the parieto-frontals (p.f.), originally two pairs of bones which fuse in development, and the nasals (na.). round the edge of the jaw, and bearing the teeth, are pre-maxillae (p.m.), and maxillae (mx.), and overlying the quadrate cartilage and lateral to the otic capsules are the t-shaped squamosal bones (sq.). in the ventral view of the skull (figure ) we see a pair of vomers (vo.) bearing teeth, a pair of palatines (pal.), [and a pair of pterygoids (pt.)] (which [palatines and pterygoids, we may note,] unlike those of the rabbit, are -stated to be- membrane bones), and a great median dagger-shaped para-sphenoid (p.sp.). these two figures, and , which shows the same bones in side view, should be carefully mastered before the student proceeds with this chapter. the cartilage bones are distinguished from membrane bones by cross-shading. section . turning now to figure ,i., we have a side view of a tadpole's skull. on the ventral side of the head is a series of vertical cartilaginous bars, the visceral arches supporting the walls of the tadpole's gill slits. the first of these is called the hyoid arch (c.h.), and the four following this, the first (br. ), second, third, and fourth (br. ), branchial arches. altogether there are four gill slits and between the hyoid arch and the jaw arch, as it is called (= meckel's cartilage + the palato-pterygoid), is "an imperforate slit," which becomes the ear-drum.* the frog no longer breathes by gills, but by lungs, and the gills are lost, the gill slits closed, and the branchial arches consequently much reduced. figures , ii., and , iii., show stages in this reduction. the hyoid arch becomes attached, to the otic capsule, and its median ventral plate, including also the vestiges of the first, second, and fourth branchial arches, is called the hyoid apparatus. in figure , the apparatus is seen from the side; c.h. is called the (right) anterior cornu** of the hyoid. the function of the hyoid apparatus in the frog is to furnish, a basis of attachment to the tongue muscles; it remains cartilaginous, with the exception of the relic of one branchial arch, which ossifies as the thyro-hyal (figure th.h.). it will be noted that, as development proceeds, the angle of the jaw swings backward, and the hyoid apparatus, shifts relatively forward. these changes of position are indicated in figure , iii., by little arrow-heads. * we may note here that, comparing the ear of the frog with that of the rabbit, there is no external ear. there is, moreover, no bulla supporting the middle ear, and the tympanic membrane stretches between the squamosal in front and the anterior cornu of the hyoid behind. a rod-like columella auris replaces the chain of ear ossicles, and may, or may not, answer to the stapes alone, or even possibly to the entire series. in the internal ear there is no cochlea, and the otic mass is largely cartilaginous instead of entirely bony. ** plural cornua. section . before proceeding to the comparison of the mammalian skull with this, we would strongly recommend the student thoroughly to master this portion of the work, and in no way can he do this more thoroughly and quickly than by taking a parboiled frog, picking off the skin, muscle, and connective tissue from its skull, and making out the various bones with the help of our diagrams. section . figure represents, in the most diagrammatic way, the main changes in form of the essential constituents of the cranio-facial apparatus, as we pass from the amphibian to the mammalian skull. f. is the frog from the side and behind; b.c. is the brain-case, o.c. the otic capsule, e. the eye, n.c. the nasal capsule, p.p. the palato-pterygoid cartilage, mx. the maxillary membrane bones, sq. the squamosal, and mb. the mandible. the student should compare with figure , and convince himself that he appreciates the diagrammatic rendering of these parts. now all the distinctive differences in form, from this of the dog's skull (d.), are reducible to two primary causes-- ( ) the brain is enormously larger, and the brain-case is vastly inflated, so that-- (a) the otic capsule becomes embedded in the brain-case wall; (b) the palato-pterygoid rod lies completely underneath the brain-case instead of laterally to it; (c) the squamosal tilts down and in, instead of down and out, and the lower jaw articulates with its outer surface instead of below its inner, and, moreover, with the enormous distention of the brain-case it comes about that the squamosal is incorporated with its wall. ( ) the maxilla anteriorly and the palatine posteriorly send down palatine plates that grow in to form the bony palate, cutting off a nasal passage (n.p.) from the mouth cavity (m.p.), and carrying the posterior nares from the front part of the mouth, as they are in the frog, to the pharynx. hence the vomers of the dog lie, not in the ceiling of the mouth, but in the floor of this nasal passage. section . the quadrate cartilage of the frog is superseded by the squamosal as the suspensorium of the lower jaw. it is greatly reduced, therefore; but it is not entirely absent. in the young mammal, a quadrate cartilage can be traced, connected with the palato-pterygoid cartilage, and articulating with meckel's cartilage. its position is, of course, beneath the squamosal, and just outside the otic capsule. as development proceeds, the increase in size of the quadrate, does not keep pace with that of the skull structures. it loses its connection with the palato-pterygoid, and apparently ossifies as a small ossicle-- the incus of the middle ear. a small nodule of cartilage, cut off from the proximal end of meckel's cartilage, becomes the malleus. the stapes would appear to be derived from the hyoid arch. hence these small bones seem to be the relics of the discarded jaw suspensorium of the frog utilized in a new function. considerable doubt, however, attaches to this interpretation-- doubt that, if anything, is gaining ground. section . the tympanic bulla of the dog is not indicated in diagram , and it would appear to be a new structure (neomorph), not represented in the frog. section . besides these great differences in form, there are important differences in the amount and distribution of centres of ossification of the skull of frog and mammal. there is no parasphenoid in the mammal*; and, instead, a complete series of ossifications, the median-, basi-, and pre-sphenoids, and the lateral ali- and orbito-sphenoids occur. the points can be rendered much more luminously in a diagram than in the text, and we would counsel the student to compare this very carefully with that of the rabbit. * faint vestigeal indications occur in the developing skulls of some insectivora. section . -cranium_ -nasal_ (paired), -vomer_ (paired) -fronto-parietal_, sphenethmoid bone (median), eye, pro-otic bone, otic cartilage, ex-occipital (paired) -para-sphenoid bone_ -upper jaw_ -pre-maxilla_ (paired), -palatine_ (paired), pterygoid (paired), -squamosal_, quadrate cartilage {to .} -maxilla_ . quadrato-jugal -lower jaw_ mento-meckelian, -dentary_, -articulare- [-angulo splenial_] section . -points especially- [additional points] to be noticed are: ( ) the otic capsule (= periotic bone) of the dog ossifies from a number of centres, one of which is equivalent to the frog's prootic. ( ) the several constituents of the lower jaw are not to be distinguished in the adult mammal. ( ) the frog has no lachrymal bone. section . we are now in a position to notice, without any danger of misconception, what is called the segmental theory of the skull. older anatomists, working from adult structure only, conceived the idea that the brain-case of the mammal represented three inflated vertebrae. the most anterior had the pre-sphenoid for its body, the orbito-sphenoids for its neural processes, and the arch was completed above by the frontals (frontal segment). similarly, the basi-sphenoids, ali-sphenoids, and parietals formed a second arch (parietal segment), and the ex-, basi-, and supra-occipitals a third (occipital segment). if this were correct, in the frog, which is a more primitive rendering of the vertebrate plan, we should find the vertebral characters more distinct. but, as a matter of fact, as the student will perceive, frontal segment, parietal segment, and occipital segment, can no longer be traced; and the mode of origin from trabeculae and para-chordals show very clearly the falsity of this view. the vertebrate cranium is entirely different in nature from vertebrae. the origin of the parietals and frontals as paired bones in membrane reinforces this conclusion. section . but as certainly as we have no such metameric segmentation, as this older view implies, in the brain-case of the frog, so quite as certainly is metameric segmentation evident in its branchial arches. we have the four gill slits of the tadpole and their bars repeating one another; the hyoid bar in front of these is evidently of a similar nature; and that the ear drum is derived from an imperforate gill slit is enforced by the presence of an open slit (the spiracle) in the rays and dog-fish in an entirely equivalent position. does the mouth answer to a further pair of gill slits, and is the jaw arch (palato-pterygoid + meckel's cartilage) equivalent to the arches that come behind it? this question has been asked, and answered in the affirmative, by many morphologists, but not by any means by all. the cranial nerves have a curious similarity of arrangement with regard to the gill slits and the mouth; the fifth nerve forks over the mouth, the seventh forks over the ear drum, the ninth, in the tadpole and fish, forks over the first branchial slit, and the tenth is, as it were, a leash of nerves, each forking over one of the remaining gill slits. but this matter will be more intelligible when the student has worked over a fish type, and need not detain us any further now. section . see also section again, in which is the suggestion that the occipital part of the skull is possibly a fusion of vertebrae, a new view with much in its favour, and obviously an entirely different one from the old "segmental" view of the entire skull, discussed in section . _questions on the frog_ [all these questions were actually set at london university examinations.] {in both editions.} . give an account, with illustrative sketches, of the digestive organs of the common frog, specifying particularly the different forms of epithelium met with in the several regions thereof. . describe the heart of a frog, and compare it with that of a fish and of a mammal, mentioning in each case the great vessels which open into each cavity. . compare with one another the breathing organs and the mechanism of respiration in a frog and in a rabbit. give figures showing the condition of the heart and great arteries in these animals, and indicate in each case the nature of the blood in the several cavities of the heart. . draw diagrams, with the parts named, illustrating the arrangement of the chief arteries of (a) the frog, (b) the rabbit. (c) compare briefly the arrangements thus described. (d) in what important respects does the vascular mechanism of the frog differ from that of the fish, in correlation with the presence of lungs? . in the frog provided, free the heart, both aortic arches, dorsal aorta as far as its terminal bifurcation, and both chains of sympathetic ganglia from surrounding structures; and remove them, in their natural connection, from the animal into a watch-glass. . describe the male and female reproductive organs of the common frog, and give some account of their development. . describe, with figures, the bones of the limbs and limb-girdles of a frog. . remove the brain from the frog provided, and place it in spirit. make a lettered drawing of its ventral and dorsal surfaces. . point out the corresponding regions in the brain of a frog and a mammal, and state what are the relations of the three primary brain-vesicles to these regions. . (a) give an account, with diagrams, of the brain of the frog; (b) point out the most important differences between it and the brain of the rabbit. (c) describe the superficial origin and the distribution of the third, (d) of the fifth, (e) of the seventh., (f) of the ninth, and (g) of the tenth cranial nerves of the frog. . describe, with figures, the brain of a frog, and compare it with that of a rabbit. what do you know concerning the functions of the several parts of the brain in the frog? . describe briefly the fundamental properties of the spinal cord in the frog. by what means would you determine whether a given nerve is motor or sensory? . prepare the skull of the frog provided. remove from it and place in glycerine on a glass slip the fronto-parietal and parasphenoid bones. label them. mark on the skull with long needles and flag-labels the sphenethmoid and the pro-otic bones. . compare the skull of the rabbit and the frog; especially in regard to the attachment of the jaw apparatus to the cranium, and other points which distinctly characterize the higher as contrasted with the lower vertebrata. . describe the skeleton of the upper and lower jaw (a) in the frog, (b) in the rabbit. point out exactly what parts correspond with one another in the two animals compared. (c) what bone in the rabbit is generally regarded as corresponding to the quadrate cartilage of the frog? -the dog-fish_ . _general anatomy_ section . in the dog-fish we have a far more antique type of structure than in any of the forms we have hitherto considered. forms closely related to it occur among the earliest remains of vertebrata that are to be found in the geological record. since the immeasurably remote silurian period, sharks and dog-fish have probably remained without any essential changes of condition, and consequently without any essential changes of structure, down to the present day. then, as now, they dominated the seas. they probably branched off from the other vertebrata before bone had become abundant in the inner skeleton, which is consequently in their case cartilaginous, with occasional "calcification" and no distinct bones at all. unlike the majority of fish, they possess no swimming bladder-- the precursor of the lungs; but in many other respects, notably in the uro-genital organs, they have, in common with the higher vertebrata, preserved features which may have been disguised or lost in the perfecting of such modern and specialized fish as, for instance, the cod, salmon, or herring. section . comparing the general build, of a dog-fish with that of a rabbit, we notice the absence of a distinct neck, and the general conical form; the presence of a large tail, as considerable, at first, in diameter as the hind portion of the body, and of the first importance in progression, in which function the four paddle-shaped limbs, the lateral fins, simply co-operate with the median fin along the back for the purpose of steering; and, as a consequence of the size of the tail, we note also the ventral position of the apertures of the body. the anus, and urinary and genital ducts unite in one common chamber, the cloaca. behind the head, and in front of the fore fin (pectoral fin), are five gill slits (g.s.) leading from the pharynx to the exterior. just behind the eye is a smaller and more dorsal opening of the same kind, the spiracle (sp.). on the under side of the head, in front of the mouth, is the nasal aperture (olf.), the opening of the nasal sac, which, unlike the corresponding organ of the air-frequenting vertebrata, has no internal narial opening. there is, however, a groove running from olf. to the corner of the mouth, and this, closing, in the vertebrate types that live in air and are exposed to incessant evaporation of their lubricating secretions, constitutes the primitive nasal passage. the limbs are undifferentiated into upper, lower, and digital portions, and are simply jointed, flattened expansions. section . the skin of the dog-fish is closely set with pointed tooth-like scales, the placoid scales, and these are continued over the lips into the mouth as teeth. each scale consists of a base of true bone, with a little tubercle of a harder substance, dentine, capped by a still denser covering, the enamel. the enamel is derived from the outer layer of the embryonic dog-fish, the epiblast, which also gives rise to the epidermis; while the dentine and bony base arise in the underlying mesoblast, the dermis. a mammalian tooth has essentially the same structure: an outer coat of enamel, derived from epiblast, overlies a mass of dentine, resting on bone, but the dentine is excavated internally, to form a pulpcavity containing blood-vessels and nerves. most land animals, however, have teeth only in their mouths, and have lost altogether the external teeth which constitute the armour of the dog-fish. besides the teeth there perhaps remain relics of the placoid scales in the anatomy of the higher vertebrata, in the membrane bones. how placoid scales may have given rise to these structures will be understood by considering such a bone as the vomer of the frog. this bone lies on the roof of the frog's mouth, and bears a number of denticles, and altogether there is a very strong resemblance in it to a number of placoid scales the bony bases of which have become confluent. in the salamander, behind the teeth-bearing vomers comes a similar toothed parasphenoid bone. the same bone occurs in a corresponding position in the frog, but without teeth. in some tailed amphibians the vomers and splenials are known to arise by the fusion of small denticles. these facts seem to point to stages in the fusion of placoid bases, and their withdrawal from the surface to become incorporated with the cranial apparatus as membrane bones, a process entirely completed in the mammalian type. section . the alimentary canal of the dog-fish, is a simple tube thrown into a z shape. the mouth is rough with denticles, and has a fleshy immovable tongue on its floor. in the position of the eustachian tube there is a passage, the spiracle (sp.), running out to the exterior just external to the cartilage containing the ear. the pharynx communicates with the exterior through five gill slits (g.s.), and has, of course, no glottis or other lung opening. there is a wide oesophagus passing into a u-shaped stomach (st.), having, like the rabbit's, the spleen (sp.) on its outer curvature. there is no coiling small intestine, but the short portion, receiving the bile duct (b.d.) and duct of the pancreas (pan.), is called the duodenum (d'dum.). the liver has large left (l.lv.) and right lobes, and a median lobe (m.lv.), in which the gall bladder (g.bl.) is embedded. the next segment of the intestine is fusiform, containing a spiral valve (figure ), the shelf of which points steeply forward; it is sometimes called the colon (co.). it is absorptive in function and probably represents morphologically, as it does physiologically, the greater portion of the small intestine. a rectal gland (r.g.) opens from the dorsal side into the final portion of the canal (rectum). section . the circulation presents, in many respects, an approximation to the state of affairs in the developing embryos of the higher types. the heart (figure , sheet - - {error in first edition} [ ]) is roughly, z shape, and transmits only venous blood. it lies in a cavity, the pericardial cavity (p.c.c.), cut off by a partition from the general coelome. at one point this partition is imperfect, and the two spaces communicate through a pericardio-peritoneal canal (p.p.c.), which is also indicated by an arrow (p.p.) in the position and direction in which the student, when dissecting, should thrust his "seeker," in figure sheet . a sinus venosus (s.v. in figure , sheet ) receives the venous trunks, and carries the blood through a valve into the baggy and transversely extended -auricle- [atrium] (au.), whence it passes into the muscular ventricle (vn.), and thence into the truncus arteriosus. this truncus consists of two parts: the first, the conus or pylangium (c.a.), muscular, contractile, and containing a series of valves; the second, the bulbus or synangium (b.a.), without valves and pulsatile. in the rabbit both sinus and truncus are absent, or merged in the adjacent parts of the heart. section . from the bulbus there branch, on either side, four arterial trunks, the first of which forks, so that altogether there are five afferent branchials (a.br.) taking blood to be aerated in the gills, here highly vascular filamentary outgrowths of the internal walls of the gill slits. {lines from second edition only.} [there are altogether nine vascular outgrowths (demi-branchs), one on each wall of each gill slit except the last, on the hind wall of which there is none. (in the spiracle is a miniature demibranch, the pseudo-branch. this suggests that the spiracle is really a somewhat modified gill slit.)] four efferent branchials (e.br.) carry the aerated blood on to the dorsal aorta (d.ao.). a carotid artery runs forward to the head, and a hypo-branchial artery supplies the ventral side of the pharyngeal region. there are sub-clavian, coeliac, mesenteric, and pelvic arteries, and the dorsal aorta is continued through the length of the tail as the caudal artery (cd.a.). section . a caudal vein (cd.v.), bringing blood back from the tail, splits behind the kidneys (k.), and forms the paired renal portal veins (r.p.v.), breaking up into a capillary system in the renal organ. a portal vein brings blood from the intestines to the liver. section . instead of being tubular vessels, the chief veins of the dog-fish are, in many cases, irregular baggy sinuses. three main venous trunks flow into the sinus venosus. in the median line from behind comes the hepatic sinus (h.s.); and laterally, from a dorsal direction, the cuvierian sinuses (c.s.) enter it. these, as the student will presently perceive, are the equivalents of the rabbit's superior cavae. they receive, near their confluence with the sinus venosus, the inferior jugular vein (i.j.v.). at their dorsal origin, they are formed by the meeting of the anterior (a.c.s.) and posterior (p.c.s.) cardinal sinuses. the anterior cardinal sinus -is, roughly, the equivalent of the internal jugular vein-, lies along dorsal to the gill slits (g.s.), and receives an orbital sinus from the eye. the posterior cardinal sinus receives a sub-clavian vein (s.c.v.) and a lateral vein (l.v.), and fuses posteriorly with its fellow in the middle line. this median fusion is a departure from the normal fish type. it must not be confused with the inferior cava, which is not found in the dog-fish, the [right] posterior cardinals representing the rabbit's azygos vein. a simplified diagram of the circulation of a fish is given in figure , sheet , and this should be carefully compared with the corresponding small figure given of the vascular system of our other types. {lines from second edition only.} [the blood of the dog-fish resembles that of the frog.] section . the internal skeleton, as we have said, is entirely cartilaginous, and only those parts which are pre-formed in cartilage in the skeletons of the higher types are represented here. the spinal column consists of two types of vertebrae, the trunk, bearing short, distinct, horizontally-projecting ribs (r.), and the caudal. the diagrams of figure [(sheet )] are to illustrate the structure of the centrum of a dog-fish vertebra; c is a side view, d a horizontal median section, a and b are transverse sections at the points indicated by -b and a- [a and b] respectively in figure c. -(by an unfortunate slip of the pen in the figure, a was substituted for b; section a corresponds to line b, and vice versa.)- the vertebrae are hollowed out both anteriorly and posteriorly (amphi-coelous), and a jelly-like notochord runs through the entire length of the vertebral column, being constricted at the centres of the centra, and dilated between them. the neural arch above the centrum, and containing the spinal cord, is made up of neural plates (n.p.), and interneural plates (i.n.p.), completed above by a median neural spine (n.s.). in the caudal region, instead of ribs projecting outwardly, there are haemal processes, inclined downwards and meeting below, forming an arch, the haemal arch, containing the caudal artery and vein-- the vein ventral to the artery-- and resembling the neural arch, which contains the spinal cord above, in shape and size. section . the pectoral limb and girdle (figure , sheet ) have only a very vague resemblance to the corresponding structures in the rabbit. the girdle (g.) is a transverse bar lying ventral to the pericardial wall, and sending up a portion (sc.), dorsal to the attachment of the limb, which answers to the scapula and supra-scapula of the forms above the fish. three main cartilages, named respectively the pro- (p.p.), meso- (m.p.), and meta-pterygium, form the base of the limb. with these, smaller cartilaginous plates, rods, and nodules articulate, and form a flattened skeletal support for the fin. section . the pelvic girdle and limb (figure , sheet ) are similar in structure, but the pro-pterygium and meso-pterygium are absent, and the cartilage answering to the meta-pterygium goes by the name of the basi-pterygium. in the male, but not in the female, the pelvic fins are united behind the cloaca, and there are two stiff grooved copulatory organs, the claspers (cl. in figure ), which have a cartilaginous support (cl.c.). these claspers form the readiest means of determining the sex of a specimen before dissection. section . the skull consists of a cartilaginous cranium, and of jaw and visceral arches. the cranium persists throughout life, in what closely resembles a transitory embryonic condition of the higher types. there is a nasal capsule (na.c.), a brain case proper, and lateral otic (auditory) capsules (ot.c.) containing the internal ear. (this should be compared with the frog's embryonic skull.) the upper jaw has a great bar of cartilage, the palato-pterygoid, as its sole support; the arch of premaxilla, maxilla, jugal, and squamosal-- all membrane bones-- is, of course, not represented. in the frog this bar of cartilage is joined directly to the otic capsule by a quadrate portion, but this is only doubtfully represented in the dog-fish by a nodule of cartilage in the pre-spiracular ligament (p.s.). the lower jaw is supported, by meckel's cartilage (m.c.). the hyoid arch consists of two main masses of cartilage, the hyomandibular (h.m.), and the ceratohyal (c.h.); the former of these is tilted slightly forward, so that the gill slit between it and the jaw arch is obliterated below, and the cartilage comes to serve as the intermediary in the suspension of the jaw from the otic mass. there are five branchia[l] arches, made up pharyngo-, epi- and cerato-branchials, and the ventral elements fuse in the middle line to form a common plate of cartilage. outside these arches are certain small cartilages, the extra branchials (ex.b.) which, together with certain small labials by the nostrils and at the sides of the gape, probably represent structures of considerably greater importance in that still more primitive fish, the lamprey. the deep groove figured lateral to the otic capsule is the connecting line of the orbital and anterior cardinal sinuses; the outline of the anterior cardinal sinus in this figure and in figure is roughly indicated by a dotted line. section . figure a is a rough diagram of the internal ear-- the only auditory structure of our type (compare rabbit, sheet ). to dissect out the auditory labyrinth without injury is a difficult performance, but its structure may be made out very satisfactorily by paring away successive slices of the otic mass. such a section is shown by figure b; through the translucent hyaline cartilage the utriculus and horizontal canal can be darkly seen. the ductus endolymphaticus (vide rabbit) is indicated by a dotted line in our figure. it is situated internal to the right-angle between the two vertical canals, and reaches to the surface of the otic capsule. section . the brain shows the three primary vesicles much more distinctly than do our higher types. the fore-brain has large laterally separated olfactory lobes (rh.), there are relatively small "hemispheres" (pr.c.), the stalk of the pineal gland tilts forward, and the gland itself is much nearer the surface, being embedded in the cartilage of the brain case, and the pituitary body is relatively very large, and has lateral vascular lobes on either side. following the usual interpretation of the parts, we find optic lobes (op.l.) as the roof of the mid-brain, and behind a very large, median, hollow, tongue-shaped cerebellum (c.b.). the medulla is large, and certain lateral restiform tracts (r.t.) therein, which also occur in the higher types, are here exceptionally conspicuous. section . the dog-fish has ten pairs of cranial nerves, corresponding to the anterior ten of the rabbit very closely, when we allow for the modification the latter has suffered through the conversion of some part of the spiracular cleft to an eardrum, and the obliteration of the post-hyoid branchial slits. the first and second nerves are really brain lobes, and nerves of the special senses of smell and sight respectively. the third (oculomotor), the fourth (patheticus), and the sixth (abducens) are distributed to exactly the same muscles of the eyeball as they are in the rabbit. the fifth nerve, has, in the dog-fish, as in the rabbit, three chief branches. v. and v. fork over the mouth just as they do in the mammal; v. passes out of the cranium by a separate and more dorsal opening, and runs along a groove along the dorsal internal wall of the orbit, immediately beneath a similar branch of vii., which is not distinct in the rabbit. the grooves are shown in the figure of the cranium, sheet ; the joint nerve thus compounded of v. and vii. is called the ophthalmic (oph.). it is distributed to the skin above the nose and orbit. when the student commences to dissect the head of a dog-fish he notices over the dorsal surface of the snout an exudation of a yellowish jelly-like substance, and on removing the tough skin over this region and over the centre of the skull he finds, lying beneath it, a quantity of coiling simple tubuli full of such yellowish matter. these tubuli open on the surface by small pores, and the nerves terminate in hair-like extremities in their lining. these sense tubes are peculiar to aquatic forms; allied structures are found over the head and along a lateral line (see below) in the tadpole, but when the frog emerges from the water they are lost. they, doubtless, indicate some unknown sense entirely beyond our experience, and either only possible or only necessary when the animal is submerged. in addition to the ophthalmic moiety mentioned above, the seventh nerve has a vidian branch (vid.) running over the roof of the mouth, and besides this its main branches fork over the spiracle, just as v. forks over the mouth, and as ix. and x. fork over gill clefts. this nerve in the rabbit is evidently considerably modified from this more primitive condition. the eighth is the auditory nerve, as in the rabbit. the ninth nerve forks over the first branchial cleft. the tenth nerve is easily exposed by cutting down through the body wall muscles over the gill clefts, into the anterior cardinal sinus (a.c.s.). it gives off (a) branches forking over the posterior four gill slits, (b) a great lateral nerve running inward, and back through the body-wall muscle, and connected with a line of sense organs similar to those in the head, the lateral line, and (c) a visceral nerve curving round to the oesophagus and stomach. in dissection it becomes very evident that the tenth nerve is really a leash of nerves, each one equivalent to the ninth. we may here call the attention of the reader to the fact of the singular resemblance of v., vii., ix., and the factors of x. that each has a ventral fork, we have already noticed. each also (?ix.) has a dorsal constituent connected with the sense organs of the skin. the vidian branch of vii., however, is not evidently represented in the others. section . the coelom of the dog-fish is peculiar-- among the types we treat of-- in the possession of two direct communications with the exterior, in addition to the customary indirect way through the oviduct. these are the abdominal pores (a.p.) on either side of the cloaca in either sex. they can always be readily demonstrated by probing out from the body cavity, in the direction indicated by the arrow (a.p.) in figure , sheet . they probably serve to equalize the internal and external pressure of the fish as it changes its depth in the water, just as the eustachian tubes equalize the pressure on either side of the mammal's tympanic membrane. section . the musculature of the dog-fish body is cut into v-shaped segments, the point of the v being directed forward. the segments alternate with the vertebrae, and are called myomeres. such a segmentation is evident, though less marked, in the body wall muscles of the frog, and in the abdominal musculature of the rabbit and other mammals it is still to be traced. section . the uro-genital organs of the female dog-fish (figure , sheet ) consist of an unpaired ovary (ov.), paired oviducts (o.d.), enlarged at one point to form an oviducal gland (o.d.g.), kidneys (k.), with ureters (ur.) uniting to form a urinary sinus (u.s.) opening into the cloaca by a median urinary papilla separate from the oviducal openings. the eggs contain much yolk, and, like those of the fowl, are very large; like the fowl, too, one of the ovaries is suppressed, and it is the right ovary that alone remains. the two oviducts meet in front of the liver ventral to the oesophagus, and have there a common opening by which the ova are received after being shed into the body cavity. the eggs receive an oblong horny case in the oviduct; in the figure such a case is figured as distending the duct at e. the testes of the male (t. in figure ) are partially confluent in the middle line. they communicate through vasa efferentia (v.e.) with the modified anterior part of the kidney, the epididymis (ep.), from which the vas deferens (v.) runs to the median uro-genital sinus (u.g.s.), into which the ureters (ur.) also open. the silvery peritoneum (lining of the body cavity) covers over the reddish kidneys, and hides them in dissection. section . figure , sheet , is a generalized diagram of the uro-genital organs in the vertebrata; m.l. is the middle line of the body, g. is the genital organ, pr. is the pronephros, or fore kidney, a structure which is never developed in the dog-fish, but which has functional importance in the tadpole and cod, and appears as a transitory rudiment in the chick. a duct, which is often spoken of as the pronephric duct (p.d.), and which we have figured under that name, is always developed. anteriorly it opens into the body cavity. it is also called the mullerian duct, and in the great majority of vertebrata it becomes the oviduct, uniting with its fellow, in the case of the dog-fish, ventral to the oesophagus. in the male it usually disappears; the uterus masculinus of the rabbit is still very generally regarded as a vestige of it. kolliker has shown, however, that this interpretation is improbable. ms. is the mesonephros, some or all of which becomes the epididymis in the male of types possessing that organ, and is connected with g. by the vasa efferentia. mt., the metanephros, is, in -actual fact- [the frog], indistinguishably continuous with ms., and is the functional kidney, its duct (metanephric duct) being either undifferentiated from the mesonephric (as is the case with the frog) or largely split off from it, as in the dog-fish, to form the ureter. section . the correspondence of the male organs of the dog-fish with those of the rabbit, will be more evident if the student imagine-- (a) the testes, vasa efferentia, and epididymis of each side to shift posteriorly until they reach a position on either side of the cloaca; and (b) the uro-genital apertures, instead of meeting dorsally and posteriorly to the anus, to shift round that opening and meet anteriorly and ventrically to it. section . this completes our survey of this type. except where we have specified differences, the general plan of its anatomy follows the lines of the other vertebrate types described. _questions on the dog-fish_ . describe the alimentary canal of the dog-fish, and compare it with that of the rabbit in detail. . compare the coelom of the dog-fish and rabbit. . draw diagrams to illustrate the course of the circulation in the dog-fish. . (a) describe fully the heart of a dog-fish. (b) compare it with that of a rabbit. . give an account of the respiratory apparatus of the dog-fish. . draw diagrams of a dog-fish vertebra, and compare the centrum with that of a rabbit. . compare the vertebral column of the dog-fish and rabbit. . draw diagrams of the limbs and limb-girdles of the dog-fish. compare the pectoral with the pelvic fin. . draw diagrams of (a) the male and (b) the female urogenital organs of the dog-fish. (c) compare them carefully with those of the rabbit. . compare the circulation in the kidney of dog-fish and rabbit. . give an account of the cranio-facial apparatus of the dog-fish. state clearly what representation of this occurs in the frog and in the rabbit. . give drawing (a) from above, (b) from the side, of the dog-fish brain. . state the origin and the distribution of the fifth, seventh, ninth, and tenth cranial nerves in the dog-fish. . compare, one by one, the cranial nerves of the dog-fish with those of any higher vertebrate, as regards their origin and their distribution. . describe the auditory organ of the dog-fish. what parts are added to this in the higher type? . draw the cloaca (a) of a male, (b) a female dog-fish. . (practical.) demonstrate in a dog-fish the pathetic nerve, the opening between pericardium and coelom. the abdominal pores, and the ureter. -amphioxus_ . _anatomy_ section . we find in amphioxus the essential vertebrate features reduced to their simplest expression and, in addition, somewhat distorted. there are wide differences from that vertebrate plan with which the reader may now be considered familiar. there are no limbs. there is an unbroken fin along the median dorsal line and coming round along the ventral middle line for about half the animal's length. but two lowly vertebrates, the hag-fish and lamprey, have no limbs and a continuous fin. there is, as we shall see more clearly, a structure, the respiratory atrium, not apparently represented in the true vertebrate types, at least in their adult stages. there is no distinct heart, only a debateable brain, quite without the typical division into three primary vesicles, no skull, no structures whatever of cartilage or bone, no genital ducts, no kidneys at all resembling those of the vertebrata, no pancreas, no spleen; apparently no sympathetic chain, no paired sense organs, eyes, ears, or nasal sacs, in all of which points we have striking differences from all true vertebrata; and such a characteristic vertebrate peculiarity as the pineal gland we can only say is represented very doubtfully by the eye spot. section . the vertebral column is devoid of vertebrae; it is throughout life a rod of gelatinous tissue, the notochord (figure , n.c.), surrounded by a cellular sheath. such a rod is precursor to the vertebral column in the true vertebrates, but, except in such lowly forms as the lamprey, is usually replaced, partially (e.g., dog-fish) or wholly (as in the rabbit) by at first cartilaginous vertebrae whose bodies are derived from its sheath. further, while in all true vertebrata the notochord of the developing young reaches anteriorly at most to the mid-brain, and is there at its termination enclosed by the middle portion of the skull, in amphioxus it reaches far in front of the anterior extremity of the nervous system, to the end of the animal's body.* on this account the following classification is sometimes made of those animals which have a notochord:-- -chordata_ (= vertebrata, as used by lankester). . having the notochord reaching in front of the brain. cephalochorda = amphioxus. . having the notochord reaching anteriorly to the mid-brain, a brain of three primary vesicles and a skull. craniata = all "true vertebrata": fishes, amphibia, reptiles, birds, and mammals (vertebrata of balfour). . having the notochord confined to the tail. urochorda = the ascidians, or sea-squirts, certain forms of life only recently recognised as relatives of the vertebrata. * the anterior end of the notochord in the developing rabbit or dog lies where the middle of the basisphenoid bone is destined to be. section . figure , sheet , shows the general anatomy of amphioxus. we recognise four important points of resemblance to the earlier phases of the higher and the permanent structure of the lower members of the vertebrata, and it is these that justify the inclusion of amphioxus in this volume. in the first place there is the-- -notochord_. in the next, just above it (at s.c.) we find-- -a dorsal tubular nervous axis_, the spinal cord. thirdly, the pharynx (ph.) is perforated by-- -respiratory slits_, though these, instead of being straight slashes, are modified from a u-shape [slant very much forward and are much more numerous than in any true vertebrate.]. -and-, fourthly, there is, as we shall see, a-- -vertebrate type of circulation_. [and finally the body-wall muscles are divided into--] [-myomers_.] section . the alimentary canal of amphioxus commences with an "oral cavity," not represented in our vertebrata, surrounded by a number of cirri, or tentacles, supported by a horny substance which seems to be chitin, a common skeletal material among invertebrates. a velum (v.) forms a curtain, perforated by the mouth and by two smaller hyoidean apertures, between the oral cavity and the pharynx (ph.). "pharyux" is here used in a wider sense than in the true vertebrata; it reaches back close to the liver, and is therefore equivalent to pharynx + oesophagus + a portion or all of the stomach. the [so-called] hyoidean apertures are not equivalent to the similarly-named parts of the vertebrata. behind the pharynx the intestine (int.) runs straight out to the anus (an.), which opens not in the middle line, as one might expect, but in the left side! the liver lies usually on the creature's right, and instead of being a compact gland, is simply bag-like. section . the circulation is peculiarly reduced (figure ). the cardiac aorta (c.ao.) lies along the ventral side of the pharynx, and sends branches up along the complete bars between the gill slits. there is no -distinct- heart, but the whole of the cardiac aorta is contractile, and at the bases of the aortic arches that run up the bars there are contractile dilatations that assist in the propulsion of the blood. dorsal to the pharynx, as in fishes, there is a pair of dorsal aorta (d.ao.) that unite above the liver (compare the frog, for instance), and thence run backward as a median dorsal aorta (d.ao.'). a portal vein (p.v.) bring blood back from the intestine (and apparently from the whole posterior portion of the animal) to the liver. thence hepatic veins (hep.) take it to the cardiac aorta. {lines from first edition only.} -when we remember that in the embryonic vertebrate the heart is at first a straight tube, this circulation appears even more strikingly vertebrate in its character than before.- section . the coelom, or body cavity, of amphioxus lies, of course, as in the vertebrata, between the intestinal wall and the body walls, and, just as in the vertebrata, it is largely reduced where gill slits occur. but matters are rather complicated by the presence of an atrial cavity round the pharynx, which is not certainly represented in the vertebrata, and which the student is at first apt to call the body cavity, although it is entirely distinct and different from that space. the mutual relation of the two will become apparent after a study of figures , , (sheet ). figure gives diagrammatically a section of a very young stage of amphioxus; p is the pharynx portion of the alimentary canal, coe. is the coelom surrounding it at this stage here as elsewhere; mt.c. are certain lymph spaces, the metapleural canals, between which a small invagination (i.e., a pushing-in), at., of the outer epidermis occurs; n.c. is the notochord, and s.c. the spinal cord. the gill slits, by which p. communicates with the exterior, are not shown. next figure shows the invagination (at.) pushing its way in, and cut off from the exterior by a meeting of the body wall below. note that at. is a portion of the animal's exterior thus embraced by its body, and that its lining is therefore of the same material as the external integument. in figure , at. is developing upward, so that the true body hangs into it. now imagine the gill slits perforated, as shown by the double-headed arrow in figure . figure , on sheet , is a less diagrammatic representation of a cross-section of the pharyngeal region (vide figure , sheet ). the student should compare figure , sheet , and figure , sheet . the atrium and metapleural canals are easily recognised in both. in figure the coelom is much cut up by the gill slits, and we have remaining of it (a) the dorsal coelomic canals (d.c.c.) and (b) the branchial canals (br.c.) in the bars between the slits. the atrial cavity remains open to the exterior at one point, the atrial pore (at.p.). section . the method of examining cross-sections is an extremely convenient one in the study of such a type as amphioxus. the student should very carefully go over and copy the six sections on sheet , comparing figure as he goes. he should do this before reading what follows. one little matter must be borne in mind. these figures are merely intended to convey the great structural ideas, and they are considerably simplified; they must not be regarded as a substitute for the examination of microscopic sections. [he will notice a number of rounded masses from the body wall. the] -for instance, the body-wall- muscles of amphioxus are arranged in bundles bent sharply in an arrow shape, the point forward. -a number of these bundles are cut in any one section, and so the even shading of our diagrams, if they professed to be anything more than diagrams, should be broken up into masses.- these -bundles, we may mention-, are called myomeres, and they are indicated in figure by lines pointing acutely forward. [several are consequently cut in any transverse section (sheet ), and these are the rounded masses he sees.] similar myomeres, similarly situated, are found in fish, behind the head, and, less obviously, they occur with diminishing importance as the scale of the vertebrata is ascended. section . if we compare the nervous system of amphioxus with that of any vertebrate, we find at once a number of striking differences. in the first place, the skeletal covering of it, the cranium and the neural arches of vertebrae, are represented only by a greatly simplified connective tissue. in the next, a simple and slight anterior dilatation alone represents the brain. a patch of black pigment anterior to this (e.s.) may or may not be what its name implies an eye-spot. there is a ciliated funnel, c.f. (figure , sheet ), opening on the left side, which has been assumed to be olfactory in its functions, and in the mouth chamber a ciliated pit (c.p.), which may, or may not, be an organ of taste. the ventral fissure of the spinal cord is absent. the dorsal nerves are without ganglia, and do not come off in pairs, but alternately, one to the left, then one to the right, one to the left, one to the right, and so on. the ventral nerves are very short, more numerous than the dorsal, and never unite with these latter to form mixed nerves. the student will observe that here, just as in the case of the ciliated funnel and anus, the amphioxus is not strictly symmetrical, but twisted, as it were, and so departs from the general rule of at least external bilateral symmetry obtaining among the vertebrates. it habitually lies on one side in the mud of the sea bottom, and it is probable that this external asymmetry is due to this habit, so that too much classificatory importance must not be attached to it. the soles and other related fish, for instance, are twisted and asymmetrical, through a similar specific habit, to such an extent that both eyes lie on one side of the animal. section . no kidney on the vertebrate pattern is found, but the following structures have, among others, been suggested as renal organs:-- (a) certain canals, the brown tubes of lankester (b.t.l., figure , sheet ), a pair of pigmented tubes opening into the atrium at the hind end of the pharynx, lying forward along by the dorsal coelomic canals, and having an internal opening also. (b) certain tubuli described by weiss as situated in a series along the upper corners of the atrial cavity, and communicating, after the fashion, of the "nephridia" of the earthworm, with the coelom and with the exterior (or, rather, with that portion of the animal's exterior enclosed in by the atrial wall; compare section ). (c) the general epithelial lining of the atrium. the reproductive organs (figure , sheet , g.) are masses of cells situated in an isolated part of the coelom in the atrial folds, and, having no ducts, their contents must escape into the atrium by rupture of the body-wall. thence they escape either by gill-slits, pharynx and mouth, or, more generally, through the atrial pore. the animals, like all the vertebrata, are dioecious, i.e., male or female. section . the endostyle (end.), in figures and , is a ciliated path or groove on the under side of the pharynx, which is generally supposed to represent the thyroid gland of vertebrates. the vertebrate thyroid, early in development, is certainly an open and long narrow groove in the ventral side of the pharynx. the hyper-pharyngeal groove (h.p.) has been in the past compared to the pituitary body, but there is little doubt now that this structure is represented by the ciliated pit. section . the student is advised to revise this chapter before proceeding, and to schedule carefully the anatomical features under the headings of ( .) distinctly vertebrate characters, ( .) characters contrasting with the normal vertebrate structure, ( .) facts of doubtful import, with the suggestions given in the text written against them. . _the development of amphioxus_ section . the development of amphioxus, studied completely, is at once one of the most alluring and difficult tasks in the way of the zoologist; but certain of its earlier and most obvious fasts may very conveniently be taken into consideration now. section . the phenomena of the extrusion of polar bodies and fertilization are treated of later, and will, therefore, not be considered now. we will start our description with an egg-cell, which has escaped, of course, since there are no genital ducts, by rupture of the parent, has been fertilized by the male element, and is about to develop into a young amphioxus. it is simply a single cell, with some power of amoeboid motion, a single nucleus and nucleolus; and in amphioxus its protoplasm is clear and transparent. frequently ova are loaded with granules of food store (yolk), which enable the young animal to go far with its development before it is hatched and has to begin fending for itself. such an ovum as that of our present type, however being devoid of such yolk (alecithal = without yolk), necessitates a very early start in life, and, for reasons too complicated to state fully here, the development in such a case is considered particularly instructive and primitive by zoologists. section . the first thing to be seen in the developing cell is a deepening circular groove (figure , sheet ), which divides the ovum into two parts. another groove then cuts at right angles to this subdividing the two into four (figure ). another groove, at right angles to both the former, follows, making the four eight (figure ). and so subdivision goes on. the whole process is called segmentation or cleavage. section . at the end of segmentation we get a hollow sphere of small cells, the cells separating from one another centrally and enclosing a cavity as the process proceeds. this is the blastosphere, shown diagrammatically in figure , and of which an internal view, rather truer to the facts of the case as regards shape, is given as figure . the central cavity is the segmentation cavity (s.c.). section . invagination follows (figure ). in this process a portion of the blastosphere wall is the tucked into the rest, as indicated by the arrow, so that a two-layered sack is formed. the space ar. is the archenteron, the primordial intestine, and its mouth is called, the blastopore (bp.). the outer layer of this double-walled sac is called the epiblast. for the present we will give the inner lining no special term. the young amphioxus has, at this stage, which is called the gastrula stage, a curious parallelism with such a lowly form as the hydra of our ditches. this latter creature, like the gastrula, consists essentially of two layers of cells, an outer protective and sensory layer, and an inner digestive one; it has a primordial intestine, or archenteron, and its mouth is sometimes regarded as being a blastopore. all animals that have little yolk, and start early in life for themselves, pass through a gastrula stage, substantially the same as this of amphioxus. section . the anus is perforated later near the region occupied at this stage by the blastopore. hence the anterior end of the future amphioxus, the head end, is pointing towards the figure , and the letters ep. are marked on the side which will be dorsal. section . figure i. is a dorsal view of the gastrula at a somewhat later stage, and here indications of distinctly vertebrate relationships already appear. figure ii. is a cross-section, its position, being shown by cross-lines in i. and . note first that the epiblast along the mid-dorsal line is sinking in to form what is called the neural plate (n.p.), and simultaneously on either side of it rise the neural folds (n.f.). now, at figure , a slightly later stage is represented, and at i. the inturned part is separated from the general external epiblast as the spinal cord. the remainder of the epiblast constitutes the epidermis. section . reverting to figure ii., along the dorsal side of the archenteron a thickening of its wall appears, and is gradually pinched off from it to form a cellular rod, lying along under the nervous axis and above the intestine. this is the notochord (compare figures and ). section . finally, we note two series of buds of cells, one on either side of the archenteron in figure ii. in these buds have become hollow vesicles, growing out from it, the coelomic pouches. they are further developed in ; and in ii., which is a diagrammatic figure, they are indicated by dotted lines. they finally appear to (? entirely) obliterate the segmentation cavity-- they certainly do so throughout the body; and their cavities are in time cut off from the mesenteron, by the gradual constriction of their openings. in this way the coelom (body cavity) arises as a series of hollow "archenteric" outgrowths, and ms. becomes the alimentary canal. mt.c., the metapleural canals, probably arise subsequently to, and independently of, the general coelomic space, by a splitting in the body-wall substance. section . hence, in considering the structure of amphioxus, we have three series of cells from which its tissues are developed:-- . the epiblast. . walls of the coelomic pouches, which form (a) an inner lining to the epiblast, (b) an outer coating to the hypoblast, and (c) the mesentery (m.), by which the intestine is supported. this is the mesoblast. . the lining of the mesenteron, or hypoblast. from the epiblast the epidermis (not the dermis), the nervous system (including the nerves), and the sensory part of all sense organs are derived. from the mesoblast the muscles, the dermis genital and excretory organs, circulatory fluid and apparatus, any skeletal structures; and all connective tissue are derived. the mass of the body is thus evidently made of mesoblast. the hypoblast is the lining of the intestine and of the glands which open into it; and the material of the notochord is also regarded, as hypoblast. section . figure ii. shows all the essential points of the structure of amphioxus. epiblast is indicated by a line of dashes, mesoblast by dots, and hypoblast, dark or black. the true mouth is formed late by a tucking-in of epiblast, the stomodaeum (s.d.), which meets and fuses with the hypoblast, and is then perforated. the position of this mouth is at the velum. the formation of the atrium has been described. the metapleural folds run forward in front of the velum, as the epipleurs (ep. in sections and ), and form an oral hood (b.c.), around which the tentacles appear, and which is evidently not equivalent to the vertebrate mouth cavity, but in front of and outside it. the anus is formed by a tucking in, the proctodaeum, similar to the stomodaeum. section . the formation of the respiratory slits is complicated, and difficult to describe, but, since investigators have still to render its meaning apparent, it need not detain the elementary student.* * see balfour's embryology, volume , and quarterly journal of microscopical science march, . _questions on amphioxus_ . draw diagrams, with the parts named, of the alimentary canal of (a) amphioxus, (b) any craniate; (c) indicate very shortly the principal structural differences between the two. . describe, with a diagram, the circulation of amphioxus. compare it with that of the craniata. . draw from memory transverse sections, of amphioxus (a) in the oral region, (b) through the pharynx, (c) just anterior, and (d) just posterior to atrial pore. . describe fully the coelom of amphioxus, and compare it with that of the frog in regard to (a) development, (b) its relation to other organs in the adult. . compare the atrial cavity and coelom of amphioxus. to what series of cavities in the frog are the metapleural canals to be compared? . describe the notochord of amphioxus, and point out its differences from the vertebrate notochord. . describe, with diagrams, the nervous system of amphioxus, and compare its nervous axis, in detail, with that of a vertebrate. . compare the genital organs of amphioxus with those of a higher vertebrate. . what structures have been regarded, as renal organs in amphioxus? . what is a gastrula? with what lower type has the gastrula been compared? discuss the comparison. -development_ _the development of the frog_ section . we have now to consider how the body of the frog is built up out of the egg cell, but previously to doing so we must revert to the reproductive organs of our type. section . in the testes of the male is found an intricate network of tubuli, the lining of which is, of course, an epithelium. the cells of this epithelium have their internal borders differentiated into spermatozoa, which, at a subsequent stage, are liberated. a spermatozoon (figure , sheet , sp.) is a rod-shaped cell containing a nucleus; in fact, consisting chiefly of nucleus, with a tail, the flagellum, which is vibratile, and forces the spermatozoon, forward by its lashing. the spermatozoa float in a fluid which is the joint product of the testes, anterior part of the kidney, and perhaps the prostate glands. section . in the ovary, the ova are formed, and grow to a considerable size. they are nucleated cells, the nucleus going by the special name of the germinal vesicle and the nucleolus the germinal spot. the ova prey upon the adjacent cells as they develop. the protoplasm of the ovum, except at that part of the surface where the germinal vesicle lies, is packed with a great amount of food material, the yolk granules. this yolk is non-living inert matter. an ovum such as this, in which the protoplasm is concentrated towards one pole, is called telolecithal. section . after the ovum has finished its growth, and elaborated the yolk within itself, a peculiar change occurs in the small area free from yolk-- the animal pole, in which the germinal vesicle lies. this germinal vesicle divides, and one moiety is budded off from the ovum. the ovum has, in fact, undergone cell division into a very large cell containing most of its substance, and a small protoplasmic pimple surrounding half of its nucleus. the disproportion is so great between the two cells, that the phenomenon does not at first suggest the idea of cell division, and it is usually described as the extrusion of the first polar body. there follows a second and similar small cell, behind the first, the second polar body. since the nucleus of the ovum has divided twice, it is evident that the nucleus remaining now in the ovum is a quarter of the original nucleus. very little protoplasm is given off with the polar bodies; they play no further part in development, but simply drop off and disappear. not only in the frog's ovum, but in all vertebrata, two polar bodies are given off in this way before the sexual process occurs. their exact meaning has been widely discussed. it is fairly evident that some material is removed from the nucleus, which would be detrimental to further developments, and the point debated is what is the precise nature of this excreted material. this burning question we can scarcely deal with here. section . but here we may point out that in all cells the function of the nucleus appears to be to determine growth and division. it is the centre of directive energy in the cell. section . fertilization is effected by a spermatozoon meeting with the ovum. it fuses with it, its nucleus becoming the male pro-nucleus. this and the female pro-nucleus, left after the extrusion of the polar cells, move towards each other, and unite to form the first segmentation nucleus. section . the ovum next begins to divide. a furrow cutting deeper and deeper divides it into two; another follows at right angles to this, making the two four, and another equatorial furrow cuts off the animal pole from the yolk or vegetative pole. (see sheet , figures , , and .) and so segmentation (= cleavage) proceeds, and, at last, a hollow sphere, the blastosphere (figure ) is formed, with a segmentation cavity (s.c.). but, because of the presence of the yolk at the vegetative pole of ovum, and of the mechanical resistance it offers to the force of segmentation, the protoplasm there is not nearly so finely divided-- the cells, that is to say, are much larger than at the animal pole. the blastosphere of the frog is like what the blastosphere of amphioxus would be, if the future hypoblast cells were enormously larger through their protoplasm being diluted with yolk. section . the next phase of development has an equally curious resemblance to and difference from what occurs in the case of the ova of animals which do not contain yolk. in such types (e.g., amphioxus) a part of the blastosphere wall is tucked into the rest, and a gastrula formed by this process of invagination. in the frog (figure ) there is a tucking-in, but the part that should lie within the gastrula, the yolk-containing cells, are far larger than the epiblast (ep.) which should, form the outer layer of cells. hence the epiblast can only by continual growth accommodate what it must embrace, and the process of tucking-in is accompanied by one of growth of the epiblast, as shown by the unbarbed arrow, over the yolk. this stage is called the gastrula stage; ar. is the cavity of the gastrula, the archenteron; b.p. is its opening or blastopore. such a gastrula, formed mainly by overgrowth of the epiblast, is called an epibolic gastrula, as distinguished from the invaginate gastrula of amphioxus. the difference is evidently entirely due to the presence of yolk, and the consequent modification of invagination in the former case. section . comparing the two gastrulas, it is not difficult to see that if we imagine the ventral wall of the archenteron of amphioxus to have its cells enormously enlarged through the mixing of yolk with their protoplasm, we should have a gastrula essentially like that of the frog. section . figure shows a slightly later ovum than figure , seen from the dorsal side. b.p. is the blastopore. in front of that appears a groove, the neural groove, bordered on either side by a ridge, the neural fold (n.f.). this is seen in section in figure ; s.c. is the neural groove; n.f., as before, the neural fold. the neural folds ultimately bend over and meet above, so that s.c. becomes a canal, and is finally separated from the epiblast to form the spinal cord. below the neural groove a thickening of the dorsal wall of the archenteron appears, and is pinched off to form a longitudinal rod, the precursor of the vertebral column, the notochord, shown in figure (n.c.), as imperfectly pinched off. section . simultaneously, on either side of the notochord appear a series of solid masses of cells, derived mainly by cell division from the cells of the wall of the archenteron, and filling up and obliterating the segmentation cavity. these masses increase in number by the addition of fresh ones behind, during development, and are visible in the dorsal view as brick-like masses, the mesoblastic somites or proto-vertebrae (figure , i., ii., iii.). in figure , these masses are indicated by dotting. in such a primitive type as amphioxus these mesoblastic -somites- [masses] contain a cavity, destined to be the future body cavity, from the first. in the frog, the cavity is not at first apparent; the mesoblast at first seems quite solid, but subsequently what is called the splitting of the mesoblast occurs, and the body cavity (b.c. in figure ) appears. the outer mesoblast, lying immediately under the epiblast, constitutes the substance of the somatopleur, and from it will be formed the dermis, the muscles of the body wall, almost all the cartilage and bone of the skeleton, the substance of the limbs, the kidneys, genital organs, heart and bloodvessels, and, in short, everything between the dermis and the coelom, except the nervous system and nerves, and the notochord. the inner mesoblast, the mass of the splanchnopleur, will form the muscle and connective tissue of the wall of the alimentary canal, and the binding substance of the liver and other glands that open into the canal. section . figure is one which we reproduce, with the necessary changes in each plate of embryological figures given in this book, so that the student will find it a convenient, one for the purpose of comparison. the lines of dashes, in all cases, signify -epiblast- [hypoblast] , the unbroken black line is -hypoblast-, [epiblast] dotting shows mesoblast, and the shaded rod (n.c.) is the notochord. c.s. is the spinal cord; br. , br. , br. are the three primary vesicles which constitute the brain, and which form fore, mid, and hind brain respectively. i. is the intestine and y. the yolk cells that at this early stage constitute its ventral wall. section . figure gives a similar diagram of a later stage, but here the blastopore is closed. an epiblastic tucking-in at st., the stomodaeum pre-figures the mouth; pr., the proctodaeum, is a similar posterior invagination which will become the anus. y., the yolk, is evidently much absorbed. figure is a young tadpole, seen from the side. the still unabsorbed yolk in the ventral wall of the mesentery gives the creature a big belly. its mouth is suctorial at this stage, and behind it is a sucker (s.) by which the larvae attach themselves to floating reeds and wood, as shown in the three black figures below. section . we may now consider the development of the different organs slightly more in detail, though much of this has already been approached. the nervous system, before the closure of the neural groove, has three anterior dilatations, the fore-, mid-, and hind-brains, the first of which gives rise by hollow outgrowths to two pairs of lateral structures, the hemispheres and the optic vesicles. the latter give rise to the retina and optic nerve as described in {development} section . section . the hypoblastic notochord is early embraced by a mesoblastic sheath derived from the protovertebrae. this becomes truly cartilaginous, and at regular intervals is alternately thicker and thinner, compressing the notochord at the thicker parts. hence the notochord has a beaded form within this, at first, continuous cartilaginous sheath. this sheath is soon cut into a series of vertebral bodies by jointings appearing through the points where the cartilage is thickest and the notochord most constricted. hence what remains of the notochord lies within the vertebral bodies in the frog; while in a cartilaginous fish, such as the dog-fish, or in the embryonic rabbit, the lines of separation appear where the notochord is thickest, and it comes to lie between hollow-faced vertebrae. cartilaginous neural arches and spines, formed outside the notochordal sheath, enclose the spinal cord in an arcade. the final phase is ossification. as the tadpole approaches the frog stage the vertebral column in the tail is rapidly absorbed, and its vestiges appear in the adult as the urostyle. section . the development of the skull is entirely dissimilar to that of the vertebral column. it is shown on figures and , sheet ; and in the section devoted to the frog's skull a very complete account of the process is given. the process of ossification is described under the histology of the rabbit. section . the origin of the circulatory and respiratory organs is of especial interest in the frog. in the tadpole we have essentially the necessities and organization of the fish; in the adult frog we have a clear exposition of the structure of pigeon and rabbit. the tadpole has, at first, a straight tubular heart, burrowed out in somatic mesoblast, and produced forward into a truncus arteriosus. from this arise four afferent branchial arteries, running up along the sides of the four branchial arches, and supplying gills. they unite above on either side in paired hyper-branchial arteries, which meet behind dorsal to the liver, to form a median dorsal aorta. internal and external carotid arteries supply the head. these four afferent branchial arches are equivalent to the first four of the five vessels of the dog-fish. at first, the paired gills are three in number, external, and tree-like, covered by epiblast (figures and , e.g.), and not to be compared to fish gills in structure, or in fact -with- [to] any other gills within the limits of the vertebrata. subsequently (hypoblastic) internal gills (int.g., figure ), strictly homologous with the gills of a fish, appear. then a flap of skin outside the hyoid arch grows back to cover over the gills; this is the operculum (op. in figures and , sheet ), and it finally encloses them in a gill chamber, open only by a pore on the left, which resembles in structure and physiological meaning, but differs evidently very widely in development, from the amphioxus atrium. at this time, the lungs are developing as paired hollow outgrowths on the ventral side of the throat (figure , l.). as the limbs develop, and the tail dwindles, the gill chamber is obliterated. the capillary interruptions of the gills on the branchial arches (aortic arches) are also obliterated. the carotid gland occupies the position of the first of these in the adult. the front branchial arch here, as in all higher vertebrata, becomes the carotid arch; the lingual represents the base of a pre-branchial vessel; the second branchial becomes the aortic arch. the fourth loses its connection with the dorsal aorta, and sends a branch to the developing lung, which becomes the pulmonary artery. the third disappears. a somewhat different account to this is still found in some text-books of the fate of this third branchial arch. balfour would appear to have been of opinion that it gave rise to the cutaneous artery, and that the third and fourth vessels coalesced to form the pulmocutaneous, the fourth arch moving forward so as to arise from the base of the third; and most elementary works follow him. this opinion was strengthened by the fact that in the higher types (reptiles, birds, and mammals) no fourth branchial arch was observed, and the apparent third, becomes the pulmonary. but it has since been shown that a transitory third arch appears and disappears in these types. section . the origin of the renal organ and duct has very considerable controversial interest.* in figure , sheet , a diagrammatic cross-section, of an embryo is shown. i. is the intestine, coe. the coelom, s.c. the spinal cord; n.c. the notochord, surrounded by n.s., the notochordal sheath, ao. is the dorsal aorta. in the masses of somatic mesoblast on either side, a longitudinal canal appears, which, in the torpedo, a fish related to the dog-fish, and in the rabbit, and possibly in all other cases, is epiblastic in origin. this is the segmental duct, which persists, apparently, as the wolffian duct (w.d.). ventral to this appears a parallel canal, the mullerian duct (m.d.), which is often described as being split off from the segmental duct, but which is, very probably, an independent structure in the frog. a number of tubuli, at first metamerically arranged, now appear, each opening, on the one hand, into the coelom by a ciliated mouth, the nephrostome (n.s.), and on the other into the segmental duct. these tubuli are the segmental tubes or nephridia. there grows out from the aorta, towards each, a bunch, of bloodvessels, the glomerulus (compare section , rabbit). these tubuli ultimately become, in part, the renal tubuli, so that the primitive kidney stretches, at first, along the length of the body cavity from the region, of the gill-slits backward. the anterior part of the kidney, called the pronephros, disappears in the later larval stages. internal to the kidney on either side there has appeared a longitudinal ridge, the genital ridge (g.r.), which gives rise to testes or ovary, as the case may be. * in the discussion whether the vertebrata have arisen from some ancestral type, like the earthworm, metamerically segmented, and of fairly high organization, or from a much lower form, possibly even from a coelenterate. such a discussion is entirely outside the scope of the book, though its mention is necessary to explain the importance given to these organs. section . the student should now compare the figures on sheet . in the male, tubular connections are established between the testes and the middle part of the primitive kidney (mesonephros). these connections are the vasa efferentia (v.e.), and the mesonephros is now equivalent to the epididymis of the rabbit. the wolffian duct is the urogenital duct of the adult, and the mullerian duct is entirely absorbed, or remains, more or less, in exceptional cases. in the female, the mullerian duct increases greatly in length-- so that at sexual maturity its white coils appear thicker and longer than the intestine-- and becomes the oviduct; the wolffian duct is the ureter, and the mesonephros is not perverted in function from its primary renal duty. section . tabulating these facts-- in the adult male: pronephros disappears. the mullerian duct (? = pronephric duct) disappears. mesonephros = epididymis; its duct, the urogenital. metanephros and duct, not clearly marked off from mesonephros. (compare dog-fish, section .) in the adult female: pronephros disappears. the mullerian duct, the oviduct. mesonephros and metanephros, the kidney, and their unseparated ducts, the ureters. section . hermaphrodism (i.e., cases of common sex) is occasionally found among frogs; the testis produces ova in places, and the mullerian duct is retained and functional. the ciliated nephrostomata remain open to a late stage of development in the frog, and in many amphibia throughout life. their connection with the renal tubuli is, however, lost. section . the alimentary canal is, at first, a straight tube. its disproportionate increase in length throws it into a spiral in the tadpole (int. figure ), and accounts for its coiling in the frog. the liver and other digestive glands are first formed, like the lungs, as hollow outgrowths, and their lining is therefore hypoblastic. the greatest relative length of intestine is found in the tadpole, which, being a purely vegetable feeder, must needs effect the maximum amount of preparatory change in its food. _the development of the fowl_ section . the frog has an ovum with a moderate allowance of yolk, but the quantity is only sufficient to start the little animal a part of its way towards the adult state. the fowl, on the contrary, has an enormous ovum, gorged excessively, with yolk, and as a consequence the chick is almost perfected when it is hatched. the so-called yolk, the yellow of an egg, is the ovum proper; around that is a coating of white albumen, in a shell membrane and a shell. at either end of the yolk (figure , y.) twisted strands of albuminous matter, the chalazae (ch.) keep the yolk in place. the animal pole is a small grey protoplasmic area, the germinal area (g.a.), on the yolk. section . we pointed out that the presence of the yolk in the frog's egg led to a difference in the size of the cells at the animal and vegetable poles. the late f.m. balfour, borrowing a mathematical technicality, suggested that the rate of segmentation in any part of an ovum varies inversely with the amount of yolk. in the fowl's egg, except just at the germinal area, the active protoplasm is at a minimum, the inert yolk at a maximum; the ratio of yolk to protoplasm is practically infinity, and the yolk therefore does not segment at all. the yolk has diluted the active protoplasm so much as to render its influence inappreciable. the germinal area segments, and lies upon the yolk which has defeated the efforts of its small mingling of protoplasm to divide. such a type of segmentation in which only part of the ovum segments is called meroblastic. if we compare this with the typical blastosphere of the lower type, we see that it is, as it were, flattened out on the yolk. this stage is shown in section in the lower figure of figure . b.d., the blastoderm, is from this point of view, a part of the ripped and flattened blastosphere, spread out on the yolk; s.c. is the segmentation cavity, and y. the yolk. section . there is no open invagination of an archenteron in the fowl, as in the frog--, the gastrula, like the blastosphere, stage is also masked. but, in the hinder region of the germinal area, a thick mass of cells, grows inward and forward, and, appearing in the dorsal view of the egg as a white streak, is called the primitive streak (p.s.). by a comparison of the figures of frog and fowl the student will easily perceive the complete correspondence of the position of this with the blastopore of the frog. the relation of the two will be easily understood if we compare the fowl's archenteron to a glove-finger under pressure-- its cavity is obliterated-- and the frog's to the glove-finger blown out. the tension of the protoplasm, straining over the enormous yolk, answers to the pressure. the gastrula in the fowl is solid. the primitive streak is, in fact, the scar of a closed blastopore. as we should expect from this view of its homology, at the primitive streak, the three embryonic layers are continuous and indistinguishable (figure ). elsewhere in the blastoderm they are distinctly separate. just as the yolk cells of the frog form the ventral wall of the intestine, so nuclei appear along the upper side of the yolk of the fowl, where some protoplasm still exists, and give rise to the ventral hypoblastic cells. by conceiving a gradually increasing amount of yolk in the hypoblastic cells in the ventral side of the archenteron, the substantial identity of the gastrula stage in the three types, which at first appear so strikingly different, will be perceived. carry figures and of the frog one step further by increasing the size of the shaded yolk and leaving it unsegmented, and instead of ar. in show a solid mass of cells, and the condition of things in the fowl would at once be rendered. section . figure a of the fowl will conveniently serve for comparison with figure of the frog. the inturning of the medullary groove is entirely similar in the two cases. the mesoblast appears as solid mesoblastic somites. in the section above figure this layer is shown as having split into somatopleur (so.) and splanchnopleur (spch.). figure answers to figure of the frog, and figure is a later stage, in which the medullary groove is beginning to close at its middle part. the clear club-shaped area around the embryo (a.p.) is the area pellucida; the larger area without this is the area opaca (a.o.), in which the first bloodvessels arise by a running together and a specialization of cells. the entire germinal area grows steadily at its edges to creep over and enclose the yolk. section . so far, the essential differences between the development of fowl and frog, the meroblastic segmentation, absence of a typical gastrula, and the primitive streak, seem comprehensible on the theory that such differences are due to the presence of an enormous amount of yolk. another difference that appears later is that, while the tadpole has an efficient pronephros, the fowl, which has no larval (free imperfect) stages in its life history, has the merest indication of such a structure. section . another striking contrast, due to, or connected with, this plethora of yolk, is the differentiation of a yolk sac (= umbilical vesicle) and the development of two new structures, the amnion and allantois, in the fowl. if the student will compare figure of the frog, he will see that the developing tadpole encloses in its abdomen all the yolk provided for it. this is a physical impossibility in the fowl. in the fowl (figure , sheet ) the enormous yolk (y.) lies outside of the embryo, and, as the cells of the germinal area grow slowly over it, umbilical bloodvessels are developed to absorb and carry the material to the embryo. in the case of an embryo sinking in upon, as it absorbs, this mass of nutritive material, a necessity for some respiratory structure is evident. from the hinder end of the fowl's intestine, in a position corresponding to the so-called, urinary bladder of the frog, a solid outgrowth, the allantois, which speedily becomes hollow, appears. early stages are shown in figures and , sheet (al.); while the same thing is shown more diagrammatically on sheet , figure (all.). this becomes at last a great hollow sac, which is applied closely to the porous shell, and the extent of which will be appreciated by looking at figure , sheet , where the allantois is shaded. allantoic bloodvessels ramify thickly over its walls, and aeration occurs through the permeable shell. section . the nature of the amnion will be understood by following figures b, , and on sheet . the three embryonic layers are indicated by broken lines, dots, and black lines, just as they are in the frog diagrams. not only is the embryo slowly pinched off from the yolk sac (y.s.), but, as the yolk is absorbed beneath it, and it grows in size, it sinks into the space thus made, the extra-embryonic somatopleur and epiblast rise up round it as two folds, which are seen closing in , and closed in , over the dorsal side of the young chick. in this way a cavity, a., lined by epiblast, and called the amniotic cavity, is formed. dorsal to this, in , comes a space lined by somatic mesoblast, and continuous with p.p., the pleuro-peritoneal cavity, or body cavity of the embryo. outside this, again, is a layer, of somatopleur internally and epiblast externally, the false amnion (f.a.), which is continuous with the serous membrane (s.m.) enclosing the rest of the egg. the student should, carefully copy these diagrams, with coloured pencils or inks for the different layers, and should compare them with the more realistic renderings of figures , , and , sheet . section . the heart in the fowl appears first as a pair of vessels, which unite to form a straight trunk in the median line, as the flattened-out embryo closes in from the yolk. the way in which this straight trunk is thrown, first of all, into the s shape of the fish heart, and then gradually assumes the adult form, is indicated roughly by figure . in one respect the development of the heart does not follow the lines one would expect. since, between the fish and the higher form comes the condition of such an animal as the frog, in which the auricles are divided, while there is only one ventricle, we might expect a stage in which the developing chick's heart would have one ventricle, and a septum between the auricles. but, as a matter of fact, the ventricles in fowl and rabbit are separated first, and the separation of the auricles follows, and is barely complete at birth. section . two vitelline veins from the yolk sac (v.v.) flow into the heart from behind, as shown in figure . a later more complete and more diagrammatic figure of the circulation is seen in figure . at first there are two anterior cardinal (a.c.), and two posterior cardinal veins (p.c.) uniting to form cuvierian sinuses (c.s.) that open into the heart just as in the dog-fish. but later the inferior cava is developed and extends backward, the posterior cardinals atrophy, the cuvierian sinuses become the superior cavae, and the anterior cardinals the internal jugular veins. the vitelline veins (v.v.) flow, at first, uninterruptedly through the liver to the inferior cava, but, as development proceeds, a capillary system is established in the liver, and the through communication, the ductus venosus, is reduced-- at last-- completely. bearing in mind that the yolk is outside the body in the fowl and inside it in the frog, the vitelline veins of the former have a considerable resemblance in position, and in their relation to the portal vein, to a portion of the single anterior abdominal vein. blood is taken out to the allantois, however, by the arteries of the latter type. section . five aortic arches are generally stated to appear altogether in the fowl, but not simultaneously. the first two, the mandibular and the hyoid vascular arches, early disappear, and are not comparable to any in the frog. the third is the first branchial arch, and, like the corresponding arch in the frog, forms the carotid artery; the second branchial is the aortic arch; and what has hitherto been regarded as the third (the fifth arch, i.e.) the pulmonary artery. a transitory arch, it is now known, however, appears between the second branchial and the last, and it is therefore the fourth branchial arch which is the pulmonary, just as it is in the frog. section . blood, it may be mentioned, first appears in the area vasculosa, the outer portion of the area opaca. embryonic cells send out processes, and so become multipolar; the processes of adjacent cells coalesce. the nucleus divides, and empty spaces appear in the substance of each of the cells. in this way, the cavities of the smaller vessels and capillaries are formed, and the products of the internal divisions of the cells become the corpuscles within the vessels. the red blood corpuscles of the rabbit, it may be added, are nucleated for a considerable portion of embryonic life. larger vessels and the heart are burrowed, as it were, out of masses of mesoblast cells. the course of the blood in the embryo is by the veins to the right auricle, thence through the imperfection of the auricular septum already alluded to, into the left auricle. then the left ventricle, aortic arches (for the future pulmonary artery is in communication by a part presently blocked, the ductus arterious, with the systemic aorta), arteries, capillaries, veins. the liver capillary system and the pulmonary system only become inserted upon the circulation at a comparatively late stage. section . with the exception of the reduction of the pronephros, what has been said of the development of the frog's nervous system, renal and reproductive organs, and skeleton, applies sufficiently to the fowl for our present purposes. the entire separation of wolffian and mullerian ducts from the very beginning of development is here beyond all question (vide section ). but the notochord in the fowl is not so distinctly connected with the hypoblast, and so distinct from the mesoblast, as it is in the lower type, and no gills, internal or external, are ever developed. the gill slits occur with a modification due to the slitting and flattening out of the embryo, already insisted upon; for, whereas in the tadpole they may be described as perforations, in the fowl they appear as four notches between ingrowing processes that are endeavouring to meet in the middle line. _the development of the rabbit_ section . the early development of the rabbit is apt to puzzle students a little at first. we have an ovum practically free from yolk (alecithal), and, therefore, we find it dividing completely and almost equally. we naturally assume, from what we have learnt, that the next stages will be the formation of a hollow blastosphere, invagination, a gastrula forming mesoblast by hollow outgrowths from the archenteron, and so on. there is no yolk here to substitute epiboly (section ) for invagination, nor to obliterate the archenteron and the blastopore through its pressure. yet none of these things we have anticipated occur! we find solid mesoblastic somites, we find primitive streak, allantois and amnion, features we have just been explaining as the consequence of an excess of yolk in the egg. we even find a yolk sac with no yolk in it. section . a solid mass of cells is formed at the beginning, called a morula, figure . in this we are able to distinguish rather smaller outer layer cells (o.l.c.), and rather larger inner layer cells (i.l.c.), but these cells, in their later development, do not answer at all to the two primitive layers of the gastrula, and the name of van beneden's blastopore (v.b.b.), for a point where the outer layer of cells is incomplete over the inner, only commemorates the authorship of a misnomer. the uniformity, or agreement, in the development of our other vertebrate types is apparently departed from here. {illustration: development section .} section . as the egg develops, however, we are astonished to find an increasing resemblance to that of the fowl. a split occurs at one point between outer layer and inner layer cells, and the space resulting (y in figure ) is filled by an increasing amount of fluid, and rapidly enlarges, so that presently we have the state of affairs shown in , in which the inner layer cells are gathered together at one point on the surface of the ovum, and constitute the germinal area. if, with hubrecht, we regard the outer layer cells as an egg membrane, there is a curious parallelism between this egg and the fowl's the fluid y representing the yolk; and the inner layer cells the cells of the fowl's germinal area. at any rate, the subsequent development goes far to justify such a view. the inner cells split into epi-, meso-, and hypo-blast, like the blastoderm in the fowl; there is a primitive streak and no blastopore; an amnion arises; the yolk sac, small and full of serous fluid, is cut off just as the enormous yolk of the fowl is cut off; and an allantois arises in the same way. there is no need to give special diagrams-- figures , b, , and of the fowl will do in all respects, except proportion, for the development of the rabbit. the differences are such as we may account for, not on the supposition that the rabbit's ovum never had any yolk, but that an abundant yolk has been withdrawn from it. the nutrition of the embryo by yolk has been superseded by some better method. the supposition that the rabbit is descended from ancestors which, like the birds and reptiles, laid eggs with huge quantities of yolk, meets every circumstance of the case. section . but the allantois and yolk sac of the rabbit, though they correspond in development, differ entirely in function from the similar organs of the fowl. the yolk sac is of the very smallest nutritive value; instead of being the sole source of food, its contents scarcely avail the young rabbit at all as nourishment. its presence in development is difficult to account for except on the supposition, that it was once of far greater importance. at an early stage, the outgrowing allantois, pushing in front of it the serous membrane, is closely applied to the lining of the mother's uterus. the maternal uterus and the embryonic allantois send out finger-like processes into each other which interlock, and the tissue between the abundant bloodvessels in them thins down to such an extent that nutritive material, peptones and carbohydrates, and oxygen also, diffuse freely through it from mother to foetus,* and carbon dioxide, water, and urea from the foetus to the mother. the structure thus formed by the union of the wall of the maternal uterus, allantois, and the intermediate structures is called the placenta. through its intermediation, the young rabbit becomes, as it were, rooted and parasitic on the mother, and utilizes her organs for its own alimentation, respiration, and excretion. it gives off co , h o, and urea, by the placenta, and it receives o and elaborated food material through the same organ. this is the better method that has superseded the yolk. * the embryo. section . in its later development, the general facts already enunciated with regard to the organs of frog and fowl hold, and where frog and fowl are stated to differ, the rabbit follows the fowl. in the circulation the left fourth vascular arch (second branchial) gives rise to the aortic arch; in the right the corresponding arch disappears, except so much of it as remains as the innominate artery. the azygos vein (chapter ) -is a vestige of- [is derived from] the right posterior cardinal sinus. both pulmonary arteries in the rabbit are derived from the left sixth vascular arch (= fourth branchial). compare section . the allantois altogether disappears in the adult fowl; in the adult mammal a portion of its hollow stalk remains as the urinary bladder, and the point where it left the body is marked by the umbilicus or navel. the umbilical arteries become the small hypogastric arteries on either side of the urinary bladder. there is no trace of a pronephros at all in the rabbit. section . we may note here the development of the eye. this is shown in figure , sheet . a hollow cup-shaped vesicle from the brain grows out towards an at first hollow cellular ingrowth from the epidermis. the cavity within the wall of the cup derived from the brain is obliterated, [and the stalk withers,] the cup becomes the retina, and -its stalk- [thence fibres grow back to the brain to form] the optic nerve. the cellular ingrowth is the lens. the remainder of the eye-structures are of mesoblastic origin, except the superficial epithelium of the cornea. the retinal cup is not complete at first along the ventral line, so that the rim of the cup, viewed as in figure , r., is horseshoe shaped. -hence the optic nerve differs from other nerves in being primitively hollow.- in all other sense organs, as, for instance, the olfactory sacs and the ears, the percipient epithelium is derived, from the epiblast directly, and not indirectly through the nervous system. these remarks apply to all vertebrate types. section . the supposition, that the general characters of the rabbit's ovum were stamped upon it as an heritage from a period when the ancestors of the mammals were egg-laying reptiles, is strengthened by the fact that the two lowest and most reptile-like of all the mammalia, the duck-billed platypus and the echidna, have been shown to depart from the distinctive mammalian character, and to lay eggs. and, in further confirmation of this supposition, we find, in tracing the mammals and reptiles back through the geological record, that in the permian and triassic rocks there occur central forms which combine, in a most remarkable way, reptilian and mammalian characteristics. section . in conclusion, we would earnestly recommend the student to see more of embryological fact than what is given him here. it is seeing and thinking, much more than reading, which will enable him to clothe the bare terms and phrases of embryology with coherent knowledge. in howes' atlas of biology there is a much fuller series of figures of the frog's development than can be given here, and they are drawn by an abler hand than mine can pretend to be. there is also an atlas d'embryologie, by mathias duval, that makes the study of the fowl's development entertaining and altogether delightful. such complete series as these are, from the nature of the case, impossible with the rabbit. many students who take up the subject of biology do so only as an accessory to more extended work in other departments of science. to such, practical work in embryology is either altogether impossible, or only possibly to a very limited extent. the time it will consume is much greater, and the intellectual result is likely to be far less than the study of such plates as we have named. _the theory of evolution_ section . we have now considered our types, both from the standpoint of adult anatomy and from embryological data; and we have seen through the vertebrate series a common structure underlying wide diversity in external appearance and detailed anatomy. we have seen a certain intermediateness of structure in the frog, as compared with the rabbit and dog-fish, notably in the skull and skeleton, in the circulation, in the ear, and in the reduced myomeres; and we have seen that the rabbit passes in these respects, and in others, through dog-fish- and frog-like stages in its development, and this alone would be quite sufficient to suggest that the similarities of structure are due to other causes than a primordial adaptation to certain conditions of life. section . it has been suggested by very excellent people that these resemblances are due to some unexplained necessity of adherence to type, as though, the power that they assume created these animals originally, as they are now, coupled creative ability with a plentiful lack of ideas, and so perforce repeated itself with impotent variations. on the other hand, we have the supposition that these are "family likenesses," and the marks of a common ancestry. this is the opinion now accepted by all zoologists of repute. section . it must not be for a moment imagined that it is implied that rabbits are descended from frogs, or frogs from dog-fish, but that these three forms are remote cousins, derived from some ancient and far simpler progenitor. but since both rabbit and frog pass through phases like the adult condition of the dog-fish, it seems probable that the dog-fish has remained more like the primordial form than these two, and similarly, the frog than the rabbit. section . hence we may infer that the mammals were the last of the three groups, of which we have taken types, to appear upon the earth, and that the fishes preceded, the amphibia. workers in an entirely independent province, that of palaeontology, completely endorse this supposition. the first vertebrata to appear in the fossil history of the world are fishes; fish spines and placoid scales (compare dog-fish) appear in the ordovician rocks. in the coal measures come the amphibia; and in the permo-triassic strata, reptile-like mammals. in the devonian rocks, which come between the silurian and the coal measures, we find very plentiful remains of certain fish called the dipnoi, of which group three genera still survive; they display, in numberless features of their anatomy, transitional characters between true fish and amphibia. similarly, in the permian come mammal-like reptiles, that point also downward to the amphibia. we find, therefore, the story told by the ovum written also in the rocks. section . now, when this fact of a common ancestry is considered, it becomes necessary to explain how this gradual change of animal forms may have been brought about. section . two subcontrary propositions hold of the young of any animal. it resembles in many points its parent. it differs in many points from its parent. the general scheme of structure and the greater lines of feature are parental, inherited; there are also novel and unique details that mark the individual. the first fact is the law of inheritance; the second, of variation. section . now the parent or parents, since they live and breed, must be more or less, but sufficiently, adapted to their conditions of living-- more or less fitted to the needs of life. the variation in the young animal will be one of three kinds: it will fit the animal still better to the conditions under which its kind live, or it will be a change for the worse, or it is possible to imagine that the variation-- as in the colour variations of domesticated cats-- will affect its prospects in life very little. in the first case, the probability is that the new animal will get on in life, and breed, and multiply above the average; in the second, it is probable that, in the competition for food and other amenities of life, the disadvantage, whatever it is, under which the animal suffers will shorten its career, and abbreviate the tale of its offspring; while, in the third case, an average career may be expected. hence, disregarding accidents, which may be eliminated from the problem by taking many cases, there is a continual tendency among the members of a species of animals in favour of the proportionate increase of the individuals most completely adapted to the conditions under which the species lives. that is, while the conditions remain unchanged, the animals, considered as one group, are continually more highly perfected to live under those conditions. and under changed conditions the specific form will also change. section . the idea of this process of change may be perhaps rendered more vivid by giving an imaginary concrete instance of its working. in the jungles of india, which preserve a state of things which has existed for immemorial years, we find the tiger, his stripes simulating jungle reeds, his noiseless approach learnt from nature in countless millions of lessons of success and failure, his perfectly powerful claws and execution methods; and, living in the same jungle, and with him as one of the conditions of life, are small deer, alert, swift, light of build, inconspicuous of colour, sharp of hearing, keen-eyed, keen-scented-- because any downward variation from these attributes means swift and certain death. to capture the deer is a condition, of the tiger's life, to escape the tiger a condition of the deer's; and they play a great contest under these conditions, with life as the stake. the most alert deer almost always escape; the least so, perish. section . but conditions may alter. for instance, while most of these deer still live in the jungle with tigers, over a considerable area of their habitat, some change may be at work that thins the jungle, destroys the tigers in it, and brings in, let us say, wolves, as an enemy to the deer, instead of tigers. now, against the wolves, which do not creep, but hunt noisily, and which do not spring suddenly upon prey, but follow by scent, and run it down in packs, keen eyes, sharp ears, acute perceptions, will be far less important than endurance in running. the deer, under the new conditions, will need coarser and more powerful limbs, and a larger chest; it will be an advantage to be rough and big, instead, of frail and inconspicuous, and the ears and eyes need not be so large. the old refinements will mean weakness and death; any variation along the line of size and coarseness will be advantageous. slight and delicate deer will be continually being killed, rougher and stronger deer continually escaping. and so gradually, under the new circumstances, if they are not sufficient to exterminate the species, the finer characteristics will be eliminated, and a new variety of our old jungle deer will arise, and, if the separation and contrast of the conditions is sufficiently great and permanent, we may, at last, in the course of ages, get a new kind of deer specifically different in its limbs, body, sense organs, colour, and instincts, from the deer that live in the jungle. and these latter will, on their side, be still continually more perfected to the jungle life they are leading. section . take a wider range of time and vaster changes of condition than this, and it becomes possible to imagine how the social cattle-- with their united front against an enemy, fierce onslaught, and their general adaptation to prairie life-- have differentiated from the ancestors of the slight and timid deer; how the patient camel, with his storage hump, water storage, and feet padded against hot sand, has been moulded by the necessity of desert life from the same ancestral form. and so we may work back, and link these forms, and other purely vegetarian feeders, with remoter cousins, the ancestral hogs. working in this way, we presently get a glimpse of a possible yet remoter connection of all these hoofed and mainly vegetarian animals, with certain "central types" that carry us across to the omnivorous, and, in some cases, almost entirely vegetarian bears, and to the great and prosperous family of clawed, meat-eaters. and thus we elucidate, at last, a thread of blood relationship between the, at present, strongly contrasted and antagonistic deer and tiger, and passing thence into still wider generalizations, it would be possible to connect the rabbit playing in the sunshine, with the frog in the ditch, the dog-fish in the sea-waters and the lancelet in the sand. for the transition from dog-fish to rabbit differs from the transition from one species of deer to another only in magnitude: it is an affair of vast epochs instead merely of thousands of years. section . it would, however, be beyond the design of this book to carry our demonstration of the credibility of a common ancestry of animals still further back. but we may point out here that it is not a theory, based merely upon one set of facts, but one singularly rich in confirmation. we can construct, on purely anatomical grounds, a theoretical pedigree. now the independent study of embryology suggests exactly the same pedigree, and the entirely independent testimony of palaeontology is precisely in harmony with the already confirmed theory arrived at in this way. section . it is in the demonstration of this wonderful unity in life, only the more confirmed the more exhaustive our analysis becomes, that the educational value and human interest of biology chiefly lies. in the place of disconnected species of animals, arbitrarily created, and a belief in the settled inexplicable, the student finds an enlightening realization of uniform and active causes beneath an apparent diversity. and the world is not made and dead like a cardboard model or a child's toy, but a living equilibrium; and every day and every hour, every living thing is being weighed in the balance and found sufficient or wanting. our little book is the merest beginning in zoology; we have stated one or two groups of facts and made one or two suggestions. the great things of the science of darwin, huxley, wallace, and balfour remain mainly untold. in the book of nature there are written, for instance, the triumphs of survival, the tragedy of death and extinction, the tragi-comedy of degradation and inheritance, the gruesome lesson of parasitism, and the political satire of colonial organisms. zoology is, indeed, a philosophy and a literature to those who can read its symbols. in the contemplation of beauty of form and of mechanical beauty, and in the intellectual delight of tracing and elucidating relationships and criticising appearances, there is also for many a great reward in zoological study. with an increasing knowledge of the facts of the form of life, there gradually appears to the student the realization of an entire unity shaped out by their countless, and often beautiful, diversity. and at last, in the place of the manifoldness of a fair or a marine store, the student of science perceives the infinite variety of one consistent and comprehensive being-- a realization to which no other study leads him at present so surely. to the student who feels inclined to amplify this brief outline of vertebrate anatomy, we may mention the following books: wiedersheim's and parker's vertebrates, huxley's anatomy of the vertebrata, flower's osteology of the mammalia, wallace's distribution, nicholson and lyddeker's palaeontology (volume ), the summaries in rolleston's forms of animal life (where a bibliography will be found), and balfour's embryology. but reading without practical work is a dull and unprofitable method of study. _questions on embryology_ [all these questions were actually set at london university examinations.] {in both editions.} . describe the changes in the egg-cell which precede fertilization; describe the process of fertilization and the formation of the primary cell-layers, as exhibited, in three of the animal types known to you. what is the notochord, and how is it developed in the frog? . describe the early stages in the development of the egg of the fowl as far as the closure of the neural groove. how do you account for the primitive streak? . describe the cleavage and the surface appearances of the egg of the frog and of the rabbit, up to the time when the first gill-slits appear in the embryo. give illustrative diagrams of what you describe. . describe the structure and cleavage of the ovum (a) of the frog, (b) of the fowl, and (c) of the rabbit. (d) explain as far as possible the differences in the cleavage of these three eggs. (e) point out how the embryo is nourished in each case, and (f) describe the constitution of the placenta in the rabbit. . (a) what are the protovertebrae? (b) how does the notochord originate in the frog? (c) how are the vertebrae laid down in the tadpole? (d) describe the vertebral column of the adult frog. (e) in what important respects do the centra of the vertebrae of the frog, the dog-fish, and the rabbit differ from one another? . give an account of the more important features in the development of the frog. . what temporary organs are developed in the embryo frog which are absent from the embryo bird and mammal, and what in the two latter which are absent from the former? . draw diagrams, with the parts named, of the heart and great arteries of the frog, giving descriptions only in so far as is necessary to explain your diagrams; trace the development of these structures in the tadpole; point out particularly in which of the embryonic visceral (branchial) arches the great arteries of the adult run. . trace the history of the post-oral gill-slits and their accompanying cartilaginous bars and vascular arches in the frog, fowl, and rabbit. . give a short account, with illustrative figures, of the mode of formation of the primary germinal layers in amphioxus and in the frog. what explanation can you give of the differences between the two cases? . give a short account, with diagrammatic figures, of the principal changes which occur in the circulatory and respiratory organs during the metamorphosis of the tadpole into the frog. . how do protozoa differ from higher animals (metazoa) as regards (a) structure, (b) reproduction? compare the process of fission in an amoeba with the segmentation of the ovum in amphioxus, pointing out the resemblances and differences between the two cases. -miscellaneous questions_ [most of these questions were actually set at the biological examinations of london university.] {in both editions.} . describe (a) the digestive, (b) the circulatory, (c) the excretory, and (d) the reproductive organs of the amphioxus. . describe the stomach and intestines of the dog-fish and rabbit, and point out in what way their differences are connected with diet. . describe the mechanism of respiration in the adult frog, and contrast it with that of the tadpole. . give an account of the structure of the epidermis and its outgrowths in the frog and the rabbit. . describe the organs of circulation (heart and main arteries and veins) and respiration in the frog in its mature and immature states. . give a brief account of the physiology of respiration. describe fully the means by which respiration is effected in the following animals:-- frog, amphioxus, rabbit, and dog-fish. . describe the minute structure of the blood of the rabbit, frog, and amphioxus. . describe and illustrate by means of sketches the chief points of difference between the skeleton of the rabbit as a typical mammal, and that of the common frog as a typical amphibian. . (a) explain what is meant by the term "central nervous system." (b) describe the tissue elements which enter into its composition. (c) explain, as far as you can, the function of each structure described. (d) how is the central nervous system developed in the frog, and (e) in the rabbit? (f) what conclusions may be drawn from the facts stated as to the origin of the central nervous system in evolution? . give an account of the structure (including histology) and of the functions of the spinal cord and spinal nerves of the frog. . give a description of the minute structure and chemical characters of the following tissues as seen in the frog:-- cartilage, bone, muscle. from which of the primary cell-layers of the embryo are they respectively developed? . what substance is excreted by the renal organ of a frog, and what relation does this substance bear to the general life of the organism? describe the parts by which similar excretion is believed to be effected in amoeba, hydra, earthworm, mussel, and lobster. . describe, with illustrative sketches, the structure of the connective tissue, cartilage, and muscular tissue of a frog. also describe the structure of the muscular tissue of the lobster and snail. . give in account of the more important features in the development of the frog. . describe and compare the structure of the renal organs in a frog and a rabbit. . give an account of the structure of the genito-urinary organs of the frog. compare these organs of the frog with those of the dog-fish and of the rabbit. distinguish in each case the conditions of the two sexes, and describe briefly the microscopic structure and development of the ova and of the spermatozoa. . describe, with diagrams, the arrangement of the urinary and generative organs in the male of (a) the rabbit, (b) the dog-fish, and (c) the frog; (d) point out the most important differences between them. . (a) describe the structure of the ovarian egg of the rabbit, (b) and of the pigeon, (c) and of the frog; (d) from what part of the embryo do they originate? (e) what is the structure and origin of the ovarian follicle in the rabbit, and (f) of the ovarian stroma? (g) what is the "granulosa" and what the "zona pellucida"? . describe the pre-segmentation changes, mode of impregnation, and early stages of development in the ovum of the frog, as far as the closure of the neural canal. . illustrate, with diagrams, from the structure of typical organisms, the principle of repetition of similar parts. -note on making comparisons_ students preparing for examinations are frequently troubled by "comparison" questions. tabulation is often recommended, but we are inclined to favour a rather more flexible plan of marking off differences and resemblances. in tabulation a considerable loss of time is occasioned by writing down the features of both the things compared, and this is a serious consideration for the examinee. we advise him therefore, first, if he possibly can, to draw side by side and in corresponding positions the two things under consideration, and then, going over them in a methodical way, to state simply the difference between each homologous part. we append as examples three test answers actually submitted (with figures) in "correspondence" work:-- . compare the brain of the frog with that of the rabbit. in the frog's fore-brain-- the olfactory lobes are fused in the middle line. there is no corpus callosum, nor is there a middle commissure to the third ventricle. the cerebral hemispheres are not convoluted, and, looked at from the dorsal aspect, do not hide the thalamencephalon and mid-brain. the pineal gland lies in the cranial wall and not deeply between the hemispheres, and its stalk is longer and tilts forward. in the mid-brain-- the optic lobes are two, instead of being corpora quadrigemina, and hollow. in the hind-brain-- the cerebellum is a very small transverse band, and has no lateral parts. the medulla is relatively larger. there are no spinal accessory nor hypoglossal nerves to the brain. . compare the vertebrae of dog-fish, rabbit, and frog. the centra of the dog-fish are -opistho- [amphi]-coelous (i.e., hollow at either end). the centra of the rabbit are flat-faced. the centra of the frog are procoelous (hollow in front). the notochord persists between the centra in the dog-fish and rabbit, within the centra in frog. the centra of the rabbit have epiphyses, absent in the dogfish and frog. the transverse processes of the rabbit typically bear ribs. short ribs occur in the dog-fish, but their homology with those of the rabbit is doubtful. the frog has no ribs. the interneural plates are peculiar to the dog-fish in this comparison. . compare the skull of the dog with that of the frog. the brain case-- of the frog is a cylindrical box, from which the otic capsules project conspicuously on either side. it contains only two ossifications in its cartilaginous substance (the sphen-ethmoid and the ex-occipital), being protected by the membrane bones, the parieto-frontals above and the parasphenoid below. in the mammal it is enormously inflated, and the otic capsules are imbedded in its wall. there are supra- and basi- as well as ex-occipital bones; the para-sphenoid is (? entirely) gone, and its place is taken by the basi- and pre-sphenoids, and the lateral walls contain fresh paired ossifications, the ali- and orbito-sphenoids-- all cartilage bones. the sphenethmoid is perhaps represented in part by the ethmoid. as a result of the inflation of the brain-case, the squamosal, which slopes downward and outward in the frog, and overlies the cartilaginous suspensorium (quadrate cartilage), has become a constituent of the brain-case wall, and slopes downwardly and in. jaw suspension-- the point of attachment of the jaw has shifted outward, and the original suspensorial cartilage (the quadrate) has taken on a new and minor function as the incus of the middle ear-- the squamosal superseding it as the suspensory part. lower jaw-- distinct bones in the frog; one mass in the dog. otic capsule-- position as specified. one centre of ossification in the frog forming pro-otic; several fuse together and form periotic of the dog. there is no bulla and no external ear in the frog. palate-- in the frog the posterior nares open into the front of the mouth. in the dog the maxillae and palatines send plates down and in (the palatine plates) to cut off a nasal passage from the rest of the buccal chamber, and carry the posterior nares back to the pharynx, thus cutting the vomers off from the mouth roof. the pterygoids in the dog are much reduced, and do not reach back to the suspensorium. the frog has no lachrymal bone. -syllabus of practical work_ we would impress upon the student at the outset the importance of some preliminary reading before dissection is undertaken. no one would dream of attempting to explore a deserted city without some previous study of maps and guide-books, but we find again and again students undertaking to explore the complicated anatomy of a vertebrated animal without the slightest, or only the slightest, preparatory reading. this is entirely a mistake. a student should be familiar with the nomenclature of the structures he contemplates examining, he should have some idea of their mutual relations and functions, or his attention will inevitably be diverted by the difficulty of new names and physiological questionings to the neglect of his dissection, and that careful observation of form and mutual position which is the essential object of dissection. on the other hand, it is equally necessary-- perhaps more so-- to warn students against the bookish fallacy, and to assure them of the absolute impossibility of realizing biological facts from reading alone. practical work can alone confirm and complete the knowledge to which the text-book is the guide. in scientific teaching it may sometimes be convenient for the thought to precede the thing, but until the thing has been dealt with the knowledge gained is an unsatisfactory and unstable possession. for such dissection as the subject-matter of this book requires, the following appliances will be needed:-- (a) two or three scalpels of various sizes. (b) scissors, which must taper gradually, have straight blades, and be pointed at the ends, and which must bite right up to the tips (or they are useless). two pairs, small and large, are advisable. (c) forceps, which must hold firmly, and meet truly at the points. (d) two needles set in wooden handles. (e) an ordinary watchmaker's eye-glass is very helpful, but not indispensable. (f) a dissecting dish-- an ordinary pie dish will do-- into which melted paraffin wax has been poured, to the depth of, say, three-quarters of an inch, and allowed to solidify. (this wax may be blackened by mixture with lampblack. if the wax floats up at any time, it can, of course, be remelted. or it may be loaded with lead.) (g) a rough table or board (for the rabbit and dog-fish). (h) blanket pins, and ordinary pins. (i) a pickle or other wide-mouthed jar, and some common, methylated spirit. (j) a microscope, with low power of inch or / inch, and high power / inch or / inch. glass slips and cover glasses, and a bottle of very weak ( per cent.) solution of salt. animals for dissection may be obtained from the recognised dealers, who usually advertise in such scientific periodicals as nature, natural science, and knowledge. sinel (naturalist, jersey) is the most satisfactory dealer in dog-fish in our experience; bolton (malvern) will supply amphioxus through the post; frogs and rabbits may be obtained anywhere. the tame variety of rabbit is quite satisfactory for the purpose of dissection. the following notes may possibly be of some use to the student; they follow the lines of work arranged by the author for the evening classes of the university tutorial college, classes considerably restricted as regards time, when compared with ordinary laboratory workers. most of the sections below occupied about three hours, but for a student working alone they are more likely to take four or five, and even then it is not probable that they will be so satisfactory as if performed under skilled supervision. there are many points extremely difficult to convey verbally which are elucidated at once by actual demonstration upon a specimen. each of these dissections should be repeated, and it is well if a different condition of the type is selected for the repetition-- an old one if the first specimen was immature, a female if the first was a male. -the rabbit_ may be killed by chloroform, or potassium cyanide, or drowned. it may also be readily suffocated with house-hold gas. it should be killed immediately before use, as otherwise the gastric juice attacks the wall of the stomach, and the dissection is, in consequence, rendered extremely disagreeable. a very young rabbit is unsatisfactory as regards the genitalia, but otherwise there is no objection to a little one, and it has this advantage-- that it may be immersed more conveniently under water, in a large pie dish, for purposes of fine dissection. the external features of the animal should be examined: eyelids, whiskers and teeth, toes, anus, perineal space on either side of the same, urogenital opening, and position of the ribs, vertebral column, and limb girdles beneath the skin should be made out. then the animal should be pinned out through the legs, the ventral surface uppermost, the skin opened up along the middle line from pelvic girdle to symphyses of jaw; separated from the body wall below by means of the handle of a scalpel, and turned back; and then the abdominal wall should be cut into and two flaps pinned back to expose its contents. note the xiphisternum. the caecum and colon will be recognised (section ); the stomach, the right and left central, and left lateral lobes of the liver will probably be apparent; and the urinary bladder (especially if distended) in the middle line behind. without any further dissection, but simply by turning the parts over, all the structures of the abdomen in figure , sheet , will be identified. seek especially for and note particularly, the gall bladder, bile duct, and portal vein, pancreatic duct, sacculus rotundus, vermiform appendix, ureters (by pulling urinary bladder forward), genital ducts (looping over ureters), spleen, kidneys, and adrenals. the vena cava inferior is seen dorsally. the genital duct guides the student to the genital gland; if the subject is a male, the testes may be exposed by dissection, or by pulling the vas deferens gently the scrotal sac will be turned inside out, and the testes brought into view. the ovary lies exposed without dissection posterior to the kidney. examine all this carefully, and make small sketches of points of interest-- the duodenal loop and the pyloric end of the stomach, for instance; the meeting of colon, caecum, and sacculus rotundus again; or the urinary bladder and adjacent parts. note the dorsal aorta and vena cava and their connexions behind. (compare figure of circulation.) cut through pelvic girdle, and remove one hind leg, to see bladder and genital ducts better (compare sheet ). wash away any blood that may flow. turn all the intestines over to the animal's right, and see the dorsal aorta and vena cava inferior of the abdomen, the inferior mesenteric artery, and the spermatic (or ovarian) artery (compare, of course, with figure in book). in front, immediately dorsal to the spleen, is a variable quantity of lymphoidal tissue, which must be very carefully cleared to see the superior mesenteric and coeliac arteries. separate spigelian lobe from stomach, and look for vagus nerve descending by oesophagus, solar plexus around the superior mesenteric artery, and thrown up very distinctly by the purple vena cava inferior beneath, and the splanchnic nerve. to see the abdominal sympathetic behind, gently remove the peritoneum that lies on either side of the aorta; blood-vessels will be seen running in between the vertebral bodies, and the sympathetic chain, with its ganglia, made out very distinctly, as it runs across them longitudinally. now cut oesophagus just in front of stomach, and cut the rectum, cut through the mesentery supporting the intestine, and remove and unravel alimentary canal; cut open, wash out, and examine caecum and stomach. bleeding to a considerable extent is inevitable, chiefly from the portal vein. the liver had better remain if the same rabbit is to serve for the second dissection. second dissection.-- skin front of thorax and neck. note subclavian veins running out to fore limbs-- avoid cutting these. cut through ribs and remove front of thorax, to expose its contents; cut up middle line of neck, and clear off small muscle bands, to expose bloodvessels; pick away carefully whatever is left of thymus gland; make out structure of heart and blood-vessels, as described, in chapter ; note larynx and trachea. now proceed to the examination of the nerves of this region. see phrenic nerve, by vena cava inferior, and between heart and lungs, and sympathetic, running over the heads of the ribs. by the common carotids will be found the large white vagus nerve, the greyish sympathetic, and a small branch of x., the depressor. make out branches of x. named in text. the big white cervical spinal nerves will be evident dorsally. clear forward into the angle between the jaw and the bulla tympani, to see xii. and xi.; ix. will be found, lying deeper, dorsal to the carotid artery and body of the hyoid. compare with figure given of this. skin the cheek, and see vii. running over it. cut through malar and remove it; cut through lower jaw-bone and turn it back, to see the third branch of the fifth nerve on its inner side; examine the muscles of eyeball, and remove it, to expose the first and second branches of v.-- the latter is especially deep within orbit. remove, open, wash out, and examine the heart. shave off the dorsal wall of cranium, to expose hemispheres of brain, and then put the head in strong spirit for a week or so. with a second rabbit, this dissection may advantageously be varied by removing the lower jaw, cutting -up- [through] soft palate, and observing openings of the eustachian tubes. [the tonsils (on the ventral side of the soft palate) must not confused with these.] the heart should also be cut out, washed out and examined (compare sections , .) third dissection.-- (before this is performed the mammalian skull should have been studied and examined.) take the head of a rabbit, the brain of which has been hardened by spirit, and carefully remove cranium; be particularly careful in picking away the periotic bone, on account of the flocculi of cerebellum. it is difficult to avoid injury to the pituitary body embedded in the basisphenoid bone. examine with the help of sheet . make the sections there indicated. -the frog_ may be killed by drowning in dilute methylated spirit, or by chloroform. take a recently-killed frog, and examine a drop of its blood, spread out on a glass slip, under the microscope; compare it with your own. before using the high power, put a cover glass over the object, of course. scrape the roof of the mouth of the frog gently, to obtain ciliated epithelium; and mount in very weak salt solution-- the cilia will still be active. squamous epithelium may be seen by the student similarly scraping the interior of his own cheek. take a piece of muscle from one of the frog's limbs, tease out with needles upon a glass slip, and examine. to see the striations clearly, the high power will be needed. compare a piece of muscle from the wall of the alimentary canal. similarly examine nerve and connective tissue. first dissection.-- pin out the frog in a dissecting dish, ventral surface uppermost, and cover with water. open up the skin along the mid-ventral line. note the large sub-cutaneous lymph spaces, the pelvic and pectoral girdles, and the anterior abdominal vein. cut into the body cavity on one side of this latter, cut across in front of where the vein dips down to liver, and peel the body wall away from it. the xiphisternum will probably be cut in this operation. in early spring the females are greatly distended with ova, and the greater portion of the ovary may, with advantage, be removed. the oviduct is dead white then, and larger and much more in evidence than the (pinkish) intestine even. turn over the viscera, and compare with sheet ; one lung is often found greatly inflated, and then projects back into the body cavity; the stomach is, in some cases, pushed forward and hidden behind the shoulder girdle. observe the allantoic bladder, the spleen, gall bladder, portal vein, and pancreas. by squeezing the gall bladder gently, the bile duct will be injected with bile, and will be apparent if the stomach is turned over. the oesophagus, just in front of the stomach, should be cut through, and the rectum, and the mesentery and alimentary canal supported by it, removed. this will expose the urogenital organs. (vide figures given.) these vary greatly, especially in the females, at different seasons. the condition figured would be seen in late autumn, or winter. in spring females are often found copulating with males, and then the ovary itself is inconspicuous, while the lower part of the oviduct is enormously distended with ova, so as to be mistaken sometimes for the ovary by those who fail to note that the ova are enclosed by a thin semi-transparent skin (wall of oviduct). the vena cava inferior is seen between the kidneys and the renal portal vein beside the ureter. cutting through the mesentery supporting the kidney laterally, the dorsal aorta is exposed, and on either side of it the sympathetic chain and rami communicantes, often tinged with black pigment. this black pigment is a frequent but variable feature of the frog's anatomy, and usually dapples or blackens the testes, and also sometimes darkens the otherwise pale pink arteries. behind the kidneys the sciatic plexus also becomes visible. careful drawings should be made. cut off the head of the frog, shave off top of brain case, and put the head in strong spirit. second dissection.-- a fresh frog is required. pin out under water as before, and open up body cavity. now carefully remove the muscle from the ventral portion of the shoulder girdle, to expose the clavicles and coracoids. cut away xiphisternum, and then cut through clavicles and coracoids on either side, and remove ventral part of shoulder girdle, to expose the heart. open out the cut portions of body wall and pin. the veins going towards the heart should now, with a little examination, be evident. make out the external jugular, the innominate, and its two branches, and the pulmo-cutaneous and vena cava superior. clear by carefully picking away any shreds of semi-transparent tissue. make out, by feeling, the position of the hyoid body, and of its anterior cornua. note the hypoglossal nerve (first spinal) running ventral to this, and the ninth cranial nerve, running parallel to it but dorsal to the hyoid-- hidden therefore by the hyoid, and reappearing in front. the vagus may also be made out less distinctly, running "postero-ventrally" towards the heart. by clearing the muscle by the rumus of the jaw, vii. may be seen, and the third branch of v., running across the jaw at about the middle of its length. pick off the thin transparent pericardium from the heart very carefully, and proceed to cut away all the veins made out. the truncus arteriosus may then be followed up as it branches. note all the branches shown in the figures in this book. the precise position of the vessels will vary to a certain extent with the attitude in which the frog is pinned. the cutaneous artery will prevent the student following up the aortic arch until it is cut; then the arch may be followed round until it meets its fellow to form the dorsal aorta. note the sympathetic again. make careful drawings of all this. cut off lower jaw, and note posterior nares and eustachian openings. if time allows, remove the heart, and examine by cutting open and washing. (compare, section ) remove eyeball, to see the first and second branches of the fifth nerve, and the vidian (i.e. palatial) branch of the seventh. third dissection.-- read the account of the frog's skull carefully. take the head of a recently killed frog and drop into boiling water for a minute. then pick off, very carefully, muscle, connective tissue, nerves, and etc., to clear the cranio-facial apparatus; examine the bones, compare with figures given in this book, and draw. take the head, which has been in spirit a fortnight or so, pick away cranium, and compare brain with figures given. examine ventricles, by taking sections, after drawings have been made. -the dog-fish- first dissection.-- examine external characters, nasal grooves-- no internal nares-- fins, spiracle, scales passing over lips, and cloaca. cut off tail below the cloacal opening. the males are distinguished by the large claspers along the inner edge of the pelvic fin. open up body cavity. usually this is in a terrible mess in the fish supplied by dealers, through the post-mortem digestion of the stomach. wash out all this under a stream of water from a tap or water-bottle. frequently the testes are washed out of the male in this operation and ova from the loose ovaries in the female. now compare with figure given in this book, allowing for the collapse of the stomach, if it has occurred. cut through the oesophagus and rectum, and remove alimentary canal from body; cut open and wash out the intestine, and examine spiral valve. now make a careful examination of the cloaca and its apertures, and dissect away the peritoneum hiding the kidney. in the female find the opening of the oviducts in front of the liver. remove liver, and cut off body now behind pectoral fin. before throwing tail and hinder part of body away, note the myotomes of body wall, the notochord and vertebral body, neural canal, and, in the tail, the haemal canal. [(see {section the dog-fish})] {lines from first edition only.} -the relation of the vertebral bodies to the notochord may be very well seen by taking successive slices, about one-tenth of an inch thick, through the vertebral body. the cartilage is hard and semi-transparent, the notochord jelly-like, least at the centres of the centra, and at a maximum intervertebrally.- [the notochord is a soft jelly.] cut away the ventral part of the pectoral girdle, to open pericardium. with a seeker, make out the pericardio peritoneal opening. cut into the sinus venous, and run seekers into the cuvierian and hepatic sinuses. [cut open the cuvierian and posterior cardinal sinuses, and run seekers into their affluents.] dissect along the truncus arteriosus to afferent branchials. [cut away the heart and oesophagus; run a seeker up the dorsal aorta and cut along it from the ventral side to subclavian and efferent branchial arteries.] skin the top of the head. note, while doing this, the yellow, jelly-like sense-tubuli beneath the skin. shave off top of brain-case, and leave the head in spirit for a week or so. second dissection.-- place the head with the ventral side downward, skin all the dorsal surface as yet unskinned. refer to book for precise position of the anterior cardinal sinus, and then cut down through body wall into this just over gill slits. the tenth nerve will become visible, with its "slit" branches athwart the floor of the sinus. clear to make this more evident, and make out its lateral line and visceral branches, and the ninth nerve. {lines from second edition only.} [the pharyngo-branchials may be felt beneath the sinus. run a seeker from the dorsal aorta to the efferent branchials.] proceed now to orbit, and, without any dissection beyond the removal of skin, make out recti and oblique muscles of eyeball, and the optic, third and fourth nerves. cut through these structures carefully and remove, exposing nerves seven, and five, as described and figured in the text. examine the otic capsule by taking successive slices through it to show the labyrinth of the ear. -remove the dorsal wall of the skull to obtain a dorsal view of brain. if this is sufficiently hard, examine it; if not, return it to spirit for a more convenient occasion.- [examine brain.] -amphioxus_ two specimens of this type should be obtained. it should be examined entire by the naked eye and with the low power of the microscope. immersion, in glycerine will render it more transparent; or it may be cleared with oil of cloves, put up temporarily in that, or permanently in canada balsam. one specimen should then be pinned out in the dissecting dish, ventral side uppermost, and the atrium opened to expose liver and pharynx. a part of the pharynx may be examined with the low power to see the form of the gill slits. the second specimen should be soaked in turpentine for some time, and then dropped into melted paraffin wax. transverse sections may then be cut with a razor, the paraffin wax removed from these by solution in turpentine, the turpentine in its turn dissolved out by alcohol, and the sections, after immersion in oil of cloves, may be transferred to canada balsam for examination and preservation. this work should not be attempted until some practical histological work has been done in botany, and it may be altogether avoided by the purchase of stained and mounted sections. -development_ laboratory work in this portion of the science is not usually undertaken by elementary students of biology, but the reader will probably find it helpful, in the realization of the facts given in this book, to look out for frog spawn, in february and march, and to catch and examine tadpoles of various sizes. a small dissecting dish may be made by pouring melted paraffin wax into one of those shallow china pots chemists use for cold-cream, and tadpoles may be pinned out with entemologists' pins and dissected with needles. but this is a work of supererogation. partially incubated hen's eggs may be obtained at a small cost almost anywhere, and the later stages profitably examined and dissected under warm water. for a clear understanding of the allantois and amnion, this last is almost indispensable. a few microscopic slides of sections of embryonic chicks should also be compared with our rough diagrams. -{key for dissection sheets, and abbreviations.}_ sheet figure . main facts of the rabbit's anatomy (diagrammatic). an., anus. a.ao., arch of the aorta. au., auricle. a.r., ad-renal body. br., brain. b.d., bile duct. brch., bronchus. cd.st., cardiac end of stomach. co., colon. cae., caecum. ddnm., duodenum. d.ao., dorsal aorta. dia., diaphragm. ep., epiglottis. g.d., genital duct (either sex). il., ileum. in.art., innominate artery. k., kidney. lg., lung. lv., liver. l., larynx. l.s.c., [l.c.c.] left common carotid artery. m., mouth. na., nasal passage. oes., oesophagus. p.v., pyloric valve. p.d., pancreatic duct. pt., peritoneal cavity. r., rectum. st., stomach. [stm., sternum.] s.r., sacculus rotundus. s.c., spinal cord. tr., trachea. ur., ureter. ur.b., urinary bladder. v.b., a vertebral body. v.ap., vermiform appendix. v.v., [v.p.] velum palatium. v., ventricle of heart. v.c.i., vena cava inferior. figure . the liver (diagrammatic). g.b., the gall bladder. r.l., r.c., l.l.., l.c., right lateral and central, and left lateral and central, lobes respectively. sp., the spigelian lobe (fits into angle of stomach and oesophagus). {illustration: diagram sheet .} sheet figure . the rabbit's circulation (see footnote to section ). (throughout l. indicates left, r. right. vessels without r. or l. prefixed are median.) -[* the figure is inaccurate at one point; l.c.c. should spring from the base of inn. see sheet .]- {first edition only text} ao.a., aortic arch. au., auricle. az.v., (p.c. in figure ), azygos vein. c.c., common carotid. c.il.a., common iliac artery. coe.a., coeliac artery. d.ao., dorsal aorta. e.il.v., external iliac vein. e.ju., external jugular vein. f., femoral artery. h.v., hepatic vein. inn., innominate artery. in.j., internal jugular vein. i.il.a., internal iliac artery. i.il.v., internal iliac vein. k., kidney. lv., liver. l.g.v., lienogastric vein (portal). m.v., mesenteric (portal system). p.m.a., posterior mesenteric artery. p.v., main portal vein. p.a. pulmonary artery. r., rectum. r.a., renal artery. r.v., renal vein. s.v., and a., spermatic (or ovarian) vein and artery (to genital organ). s.mes.a., superior mesenteric artery. s.-cl.a., subclavian artery. s.-cl.v., subclavian vein. v.c.s., vena cava superior. v.c.i., vena cava inferior. v. or vn., ventricle. figure . figure of circulation (simplified) illustrating certain points in development to be referred to later. figure . respiration. see text, section . figure . blood. see text, section . {illustration: diagram sheet .} sheet histological figures, . {no numbers i., or ii.} figure iii. an amoeba.-- n., nucleus. ns., necleolus. c.v., contractile vacuole. figure iv. embryonic tissue from the blastoderm of a chick. figure v. columnar epithelium.-- g.c. , g.c. , g.c. , successive phases in the development of a goblet cell. figure vi. g.end., is geminating endothelium; the cells divide and apparently drop off to become white corpuscles in the lymph current. sq.end., squamous endothelium from the mesentery. sq.ep., squamous epithelium (from the mucous membrane within the cheek). st., are opening (stomata) communicating between the lymphatics in the mesentery and the peritoneal (coelomic) space. figure vii. ciliated epithelium from the roof of the frog's mouth. figure viii. forms of glands.-- g.ep., is a gastric gland from the stomach; trs., below, is cross section. this is one of the simplest types of gland. s.g., a sweat gland, is also a simple tube, but convoluted below. r.g., is a racemose gland, such as the pancreas, brunner's or the salivary glands. the kidney, we shall see later, is simply an aggregate of branching tubuli (sheet ). figure ix. a duodenal villus.-- lac., the lacteal. v., the vein. figure x.a. diagram of liver structure.-- b.d., the inter-lobular bile duct. h.a., the hepatic artery, bringing blood to oxygenate and nourish the liver tissue, and similarly distributed. h.v., the hepatic vein taking blood from the liver to the heart, its twigs commencing in the lobuli (intra-lobular). lb. lb., lobuli. p.v., the portal vein bringing blood, from which substances are to be elaborated, into the liver, and breaking up between the lobuli (inter-lobular). figure x.b. a diagram of the appearance of an injected liver lobule as seen in section under the microscope. {illustration: diagram sheet .} sheet histological diagrams, . figure xi. a blood capillary. white corpuscles are migrating through the walls into the tissues (compare section ). figure xii. hyaline cartilage (section ). figure xiii. c.c., connective tissue corpuscle. w.i.f., white inelastic fibres. y.e.f., yellow elastic fibres. figure xiv. botryoidal tissue (section ). figure xv. development of a fat drop.-- f.d., fat drop, in a connective tissue corpuscle; c.c., in the formation of adipose tissue (section ). figure xvi. diagrammic cross section of a long bone.-- b.c., bone corpuscle in a lacuna. h.v., haversian vessel (in the haversian canal) surrounded by concentric lamellae of bone, c.l., and together with these and zones of bone corpuscles, called a haversian system. i.l., inner lamellae. m.c., medullary canal full of yellow marrow. o.l., outer lamellae. p.o., periosteum. figure xvii. to illustrate bone development (section ). figure xviii. dentition of rabbit, incisors / , canine / , premolar / , molar / . {illustration: diagram sheet .} sheet . diagram of the rabbit's bones. to be compared with the real things. d and d' show the fore and hind limbs, to illustrate their homology. d is in the embryonic position. the radius and tibia are, at an early stage in development, on the anterior edge of their respective limbs; the ulna and fibula, posterior; the former are spoken of as preaxial in position, the latter as postaxial. but in the adult the humerus is twisted so that the proximal end of the radius lies at the outer side of the elbow, whence it crosses the ulna, so that its distal end is inside, while the femur is also twisted round, so that the entire tibia is internal. figures and . -limbs.-- a.c., acetabulum. acr., acromion. as., astragulus. c., carpus. ca., calcaneum. co., coracoid. [coty., cotyloid bone.] fb., fibula. fe., femur. g., glenoid cavity (for head of humerus). hd., head of femur. hum., humerus. i., ilium. is., ischium. m.c., meta-carpals. na., navicular. o., olecranon process of ulna. o.f., olfactory fossa. pb., pubis. r., radius. u., ulna. figure . -sternum.-- mb., manubrium. r ., r ., and etc., sternal ribs. st., sternebrae. xi., xiphisternum. figure . vertebrae.-- at., atlas. ax., axis. c., [b.] centrum. c.v., caudal vertebra. c.v., [cer.v.] cervical vertebra. ep., epiphysis. f.r., fused rib (in cervical vertebrae). l.v., lumbar vertebra. m., metapophysis (of lumbar vertebra). n.a., neural arch. n.s., neural spine. r., rib. s.v., sacral vertebra. [t.v., thoracic.] tr.p., transverse process. v.a.c., vertebrarterial canal. z., zygapophysis. {illustration: diagram sheet .} sheet . the skull of canis.*-- . dorsal. . ventral. . right lateral aspect. . section a little to the left of the nasal septum. . lower jaw (smaller) . hyoid apparatus. {lines from first edition only.} -*a fox in this case. the skull is quite like that of a dog, but it has the advantage of more distinct sutures between the bones.- a.n., anterior nares. a.s., ali-sphenoid. b.h., body of the hyoid. b.o., basi-occipital. b.sp., basi-sphenoid. c., condyle of the skull. {c. , c. , canines.} c.f., condylar foramen (for xii.). c.h., cerato-hyal. e.f., eustachian foramen. e.h., epihal. -e.n., or a.n., the anterior nares.- e.o., exoccipital. eth., ethmoid. e.t., ethmo-turbinal. f., frontal. f.l.a., foramen lacerum anterius. f.l.m., foramen lacerum medium. f.l.p., foramen lacerum posterius (for ix., x., xi.). f.m., or f.m., foramen magnum. f.o., foramen ovale. f.r., foramen rotundum. {i., incisors.} ju., jugal. m., molars. m.t., maxillo-turbinal. mx., maxilla. na., nasal. n.t., nasal turbinal. o.f., optic foramen. o.s., orbito-sphenoid. p., or pal., palatine. pa., parietal. p.m., pre-maxilla. p.m. , p.m. , premolars. p.n., posterior nares. p.sp., pre-sphenoid. pt., pterygoid. s.h., stylo-hyal. s.m.f., stylo-mastoid foramen (for vii.). s.o., supra-occipital. sq., squamosal. s.t., sectorial tooth. t.h. thyro-hyal. vo., -black line indicating position of- vomer. z.p., zygomatic process of squamosal. {illustration: diagram sheet .} sheet figure . striated muscle fibre (of the rabbit), ruptured to show sarcolemma. e.p., its end plate. k.m., membrane of krause. n., nucleus. nv., nerve. sc., sarcolemma. s.e., sarcous elements. figure . cardiac muscle. figure . unstriated muscle fibres. figure . diagram of the skin. b.v., blood vessel. d., areolar tissue of the dermis (mesoblastic). s.c., stratum corneum, and s.m., stratum mucosum of the epidermis. s.g., sweat gland. t.c., tactile corpuscle. figure . to illustrate kidney structure.-- a.b.v., and e.b.v., afferent and efferent blood-vessels, of which the latter go to break up upon the tubli. b.c., one of bowman's capsules of the cortex; ur.t., the uriniferous tubule running from it into the medulla, where it loops and branches; around it branches a blood-vessel, of which the latter go to break up upon the tubuli. c., cortex. g., glomerulus, a knot of blood-vessels in the capsule. m., medulla. p., pelvis. ur., ureter. the water of the urine is probably filtered off in the capsule, the urea and other salts secreted by the tubuli. {no figure .} figure . the auditory structures of the rabbit (diagram). see text, section . figure . the eye (diagram). see text, section . figure . the retina (diagram). see text, section . {illustration: diagram sheet .} sheet the brain of the rabbit.-- . in median section. . from above, with the top of the right hemisphere sliced off horizontally at the level of the corpus callosum. . a deeper section through the thalamencephalon, corresponding to b in ( ). . under-view of the brain. . diagram referred to in the text and for comparison with sheet , b., and sheet , . {figures - .} ar., arrow in the iter. a.c., the anterior commissure, a thickening of the anterior wall of the third ventricle. c.c., corpus callosum. c. cb., crura cerebri. c.h., cerebral hemispheres. c.q., corpora quadrigemina. f.cbm. (right), flocculus of the cerebellum. l.h., left cerebral hemisphere (=ch.). l.l., lateral lobe of cerebellum. m.c., middle commissure. m.o., medulla oblongata. op., optic nerve. o.l., olfactory lobe. o.th., (right), optic thalamus. p.c., posterior commissure (thickening of postero-dorsal wall of the third ventricle). p.g., pineal gland. pt., pituitary body. p.v., pons varolii. s.c., thin roof of the fourth ventricle. v.cbm., vermis of cerebrum. v.l., lateral ventricle. {figure .} nerves.-- i., olfactory. ii., optic. iii., oculo-motor. iv., patheticus. v., trigeminal. vi., abducens. vii., facial (portio dura). viii., auditory (portio mollis). ix., gustatory (glossopharyngeal. x., pneumogastric or vagus. xi., spinal accessory. xii., hygoglossal. figure . the spinal cord in section.-- c.c., the central canal. d.f., the dorsal fissure. d.n., the dorsal nerve root; g., its ganglion. v.f., the ventral fissure. v.n., the ventral nerve root. note that in figure the central canal is continuous with the fourth ventricle. figure . histological elements.-- g.c., multipolar ganglion cell. n., nucleus of a medullated nerve. a.c., its axis fibre. s.s., (sheath of schwann), medullary sheath interrupted at intervals by n.r., the nodes of ranvier. n.m.f., a non-medullated fibre. {illustration: diagram sheet .} sheet . -the nerves of the rabbit_. figure i. rough sketch of dissection of the neck from the left ventral aspect.-- the bands of muscle between hyoid, mandible, and sternum, and the thymus gland carefully cleared. lr., is the larynx, and b., the balla. s.m.g., the right sub-maxillary gland (the left has been removed). the nerves are numbered. l.r.l.n., [r.r.l.n.] is the left recurrent laryngeal looping under that solid connection between the pulmonary artery (p.a.) and ao., the aortic arch, which was an open tube in the embryo, the ductus arteriosus. hy., is the hyoid with its posterior cornua. ph.n., is the phrenic nerve. r.r.l.n., [l.r.l.n.] is the right recurrent looping under the sub-clavian. s.c.g., is the super or cervical ganglion of the sympathetic (sym.); s.l.n., is the left superior laryngeal, and g. the left depressor branch of x. z., is the ramus descendens noni of the twelfth nerve. in early development the heart lay just beneath the pharynx in the position of the larynx (compare dog-fish and frog); as the neck elongated, the heart shifted back with its vessels, and so the long loop of the recurrent laryngeal comes to be drawn out in this singular way. figure ii. diagram of orbit to show v. orbit-nasal, v. the maxillary, and v. the mandibular branch of v. in order to show these in dissection, the malar must be cut away, and the eye and glands of the orbit removed. s.r., e.r. [p.r.], i.r., and a.r., cut ends of the superior, external (or posterior), inferior, and anterior (or internal) recti muscles. s.o., and i.o., the superior and inferior obliques. figure iii. general diagram of the rabbit's cranial nerves. figure iv. rough sketch of dissection of the nerves and blood-vessels dorsal to stomach.-- the stomach turned over to the animal's right, the spigelian liver lobe cleared from the oesophagus, the mesentery supporting spleen and hiding solar plexus picked off, and the mesentery hiding sympathetic cleared. coe.art., coeliac artery, and s.m.a., superior mesenteric artery. coe.g. coeliac, and s.m.g., superior mesenteric ganglion. the two together form the solar plexus. l.abd.sym., left abdominal sympathetic (in the actual dissection, the right would also be visible). l.a.r., left adrenal. l.sp.n., left splanchnic nerve. r.art., renal artery. r.v., renal vein. st., the stomach, and sp., the spleen. x., the vagus on oes., the oesophagus. {illustration: diagram sheet .} sheet . -reproductive organs of the rabbit_. figure . the male. figure . the female organs. (the symbols below the figures indicate the sex.) pb., is the pubic symphysis [which has been] cut through. r., the rectum, with r.g., the rectal gland, and a., the anus. t., the tail. r.ur., the right ureter. l.ur., the left ureter. ur.b., the urinary bladder. in the male ep., the epididymis. p., the penis. pp., the prepuce. scr., the scrotal sac, containing these; r.v.d., the right vas deferens. t., is the testis. u.m., the uterus masculinus. in the female c.ut, the left cornu uteri. f.t., the left fallopian tube. ov., is the ovary, with a graafian follicle, g.f. v., the vagina. v.b., the vestibule. figure . diagram of ovary with stages in the development of a graafian follicle , , , , , see text, section . the arrow indicates the changes in position of the developing follicles. {illustration: diagram sheet .} sheet . figure . general dissection of frog (male). figure . the heart and great vessels laid open. figure . the circulatory system from the side. figure . blood. {n., nucleus.} r.c., red corpuscle (oval and nucleated). w.c., white corpuscle small figure of frog in left-hand corner is to show position of heel, h. reference letters. all.b., allantoic bladder (= urinary bladder). c.ad., corpus adiposum. cl.c., cut end of the right clavicle. d., duodenum. g.b., gall bladder. il., ileum. k., kidney. l.au., left auricle. l.g., lung. l.int., large intestine. l.s.v., longitudino-spiral valve. l.v., liv., liver. pan., pancreas. r.au., right auricle. sp., spleen. st., stomach. t., testis. t.a., truncus arteriosus. ur., urogenital duct. v., ventricle of heart. arteries (white). ao., aorta. c.a., carotid arch. c.g. [c.gl.], carotid gland. coe., coeliac. cu., -and pa.",- cutaneous. d.ao., dorsal aorta. e.c., lingual artery. [i.c., internal carotid.] l.a.a., left aortic arch. pa., and p., pulmonary. p.c. [p.cu.], pulmo-cutaneous. r.a.a., right aortic arch. [s.cl., sub-clavian.] t.a., truncus arteriosus. veins of the caval system -(black)-. b.v., brachial (from fore limb). e.j., external jugular. h.v., hepatic vein. i.j., internal jugular. [in.v., innominate vein.] l.v.c.s., left vena cava superior. p.v., cutaneous vein. [s.cl.v., sub-clavian vein] s.s.r., sub-scapular vein. v.c.i., vena cava inferior. veins of the portal and renal portal systems -(shaded)-. a.ad., and a.ab.v., anterior abdominal vein. b.v., and p.v., united are called the sub-clavian vein. l.fm., left femoral. l.p., left pelvic. l.r.p., (and r.p.) left renal portal. l.sc., left sciatic. p.v., portal vein. -(the anterior abdominal is coloured black in figure .)- the cutaneous artery in the above figures is turned back. in dissection it will be found to lie over and hide the dorsal-ward sweep of the aortic arch. {illustration: diagram sheet .} sheet . figure . upper view of the frog's brain. figure . under view of the same. figure . the same-- median section. figure . the distribution of the frog's nerves. compare sheet , figure iii. the shaded part in is the -otic capsule- [tympanum]. the hyoid apparatus is roughly represented in black to show its relation to ix. (dorsal to it) and sp. (ventral). compare {nerves} ix and xii in sheet . the nerves are numbered. cb., the cerebellum. c.h., cerebral hemispheres. f.t., filum terminale. g.tr., ganglion on the fifth nerve. l.t., lamina terminalis. mb., mid-brain. md., medulla oblongata. o.l., optic lobes. pin., pineal gland. pit., pituitary body. r.h., olfactory lobes (rhinencephalon). th.c., thalamencephalon. sp. , first spinal nerve. sp. , , brachial plexus to fore limb. figure . the spinal column (and pelvic girdle) of the frog. figure b. vertebrae. figure . the pectoral girdle and limb, dorsal view. figure . the pelvic girdle and right limb from the side. (l.h. shows the position of the right lymph hearts-- they are paired.) as., astragalus. b., body. c., calcar (?= a sixth digit). cal., calcaneum. cl., clavicle overlying a procoracoid cartilage. co., coracoid. f., fibula. [fe., femur.] h., humerus. il., ilium. is., ischium. o.st., omosternum. pu., pubis. r., radius. sc., scapula. s.sc., supra-scapula. s.v., sacral vertebra. t., tibia. t.p., transverse process. ul., ulna. ur., urostyle. x., xiphisternum. z., zygapophysis. , , and etc., first, second, and etc., digits. d. and d'. are simplified diagrams of the limbs for comparison with the similar ones of the rabbit. in each girdle we have a dorsal ossification (scapula, ilium) and two ventral parts (pubis and procoracoid cartilage, ischium and coracoid), and at the meeting-place of the three in each case the proximal bone of the limb (humerus, femur) articulates. {illustration: diagram sheet .} sheet . -urogenital organs of the frog_. figure . the male. figure . the female. the oviduct removed on the animal's left, and the ovary on its right. organs common to both sexes.-- al.b., allantoic bladder. c.ad., corpus adiposum. cl., cloaca. int., intestine. k., kidney. lg., (dotted outline of) lung. oes., oesophagus. r.p.v., renal portal vein. st., stomach. in the male.-- t., testis. v.e., vasa efferentia. u.g.d., urogenital duct. p., prostate gland. in the female.-- adr., adrenal. f.t., fallopian tube (anterior part of oviduct). * its opening. o.d., oviduct (letters on [the opening] -uterine portion-). ov., ovary. ur., ureter. (this would be the condition about midwinter.) in march o.d. will be either enormously distended with eggs, or large, flabby, and empty, and ov. will be small and brownish, without any large eggs; the ovary gradually recovers its size through the summer. figure . spermatozoa attached to the parent cell (g.e.) from the lining epithelium of the testis, and one free. fl., the flagellum. {illustration: diagram sheet .} sheet -skull structure and development of the frog_. figure . i., ii., early and late stages of the tadpole's chindrocranium. diagrammatic. figure . dorsal view of a young frog's cranium-- the membrane bones removed. diagrammatic. figures and . dorsal and ventral views, respectively, of the frog's skull-- the lower jaw removed. figure . side view of the frog's skull. figure . median section of the brain case. figure . the hyoid apparatus. figure . i., ii., iii., progressive stages of the tadpole's skull from the side. after w. k. parker. figure . f., side and hind views of the frog's skull. d., the same of the dog. roughly diagrammatic. n.b.-- in all cartilage is dotted, cartilage bone cross-barred, and membrane bone, white. in figure , pt., should be cross-barred; and in , th.h. plain. a.c., anterior cornu of hyoid [(= ch.)] -not lettered, in {figure} -. a.o., antorbital cartilage. ar., angulo-splenial -(on frog section , for articulare read -angulo-splenial_)-. -b., parachordal part of brain box-. b.c., brain case. b.h., body of hyoid. b.r., branchial arches. ch = a.c. c.t., cornua trabeculi. d., dentary. e., eye. e.n., external nares. e.o., exoccipital bone. f., fenestra (membranous part of cranial wall). -f.p., fronto-parietal.- h.m., hyomandibular cleft = eustachian tube and ear drum. mb., mandible. [m.c., meckel's cartilage.] m.mk., mento-meckelian bone. m.p., mouth passage. mx., maxilla. n.c., notochord. n.o., nasal organ. n.p., nasal passage. ot., or o.c., otic (auditory) capsule. pal., palatine bone. pal., hard palate of mammal. p.c., parachordal. p.f., [parieto-frontal] -see f.p.- p.m., premaxilla. p.n., internal nares. p.o., prootic bone. p.p., palato-pterygoid cartilage. psph., parasphenoid bone. pt., pterygoid bone. q., quadrate cartilage. q.j., quadrato-jugal. s.e., sphenethmoid bone. sq., squamosal. t., trabecular part of brain box. t.c., trabecula. th.h., thyrohyal. {illustration: diagram sheet .} sheet figure . dissection of -male- [female] dog-fish to show alimentary canal, the pericardium also being opened and the cloaca slit up. [above is also seen the dorsal view of the head.] figure . the pelvic girdle and fin skeleton [of a male]. {no figure , in first edition.} figure . the spiral valve in the colon. {figure , in second edition.} a.p., abdominal pore. aur., -auricle- [atrium] of heart. b.d., bile duct. b.pt., basi-pterygium. -cl., clasper.- cl.c., -its- [the] supporting cartilage [of the clasper]. co., colon. d'dnm., duodenum. e., the eye. g.bl., gall bladder. g.s., gill slits. l.lv., left lobe of liver. m.lv., middle lobe of liver. olf., olfactory opening. [pan., pancreas.] pcd., pericardial wall. pel.g., the pelvic girdle. p.p., arrow through pericardio-peritoneal canal. r.g., rectal gland. [r.liv., right lobe.] sp., spiracle. spl., spleen. st., the stomach. s.v., sinus venosus. u.g.p., uro-genital pore. v., ventricle. {illustration: diagram sheet .} sheet . figure . circulation of the dog-fish. figure . simplified and more typical fish circulation, in which the posterior cardinals have not coalesced in the median line. the cuvierian veins = the vena cava superior of the higher type; the posterior cardinal is represented by the azygos vein in the rabbit. compare sheet , figure , and sheet , figure . figure . side view of the pericardium. a.br., afferent branchial artery. a.c.s., anterior cardinal sinus (= internal jugular vein). au., atrium (auricle) (= the two auricles of higher forms). b.a., bulbus arteriosus. c.a., conus arterious. cd. a., caudal artery. cd.v., caudal vein. c.s., cuvierian sinus. d.a., dorsal aorta. e., eye. e.br., efferent branchial arteries. g.s., in position of gill slits. h.br.a., hypobranchial artery. h.s., hepatic sinus. [i.j.s., inferior jugular sinus (= external jugular vein).] k., kidney. l.v., lateral vein. [oe.s., ventral wall of oesophagus.] p.c.c., pericardial cavity. p.c.s., posterior cardinal sinus. p.p.c., pericardio-peritoneal canal. p.v., portal vein. r.p.v., reno-portal vein. s.c.v., subclavian vein. vn., ventricle. -v.s.v., inferior (= external) jugular vein-. figure . skeleton of pectoral limb, and girdle.-- g., the girdle (also in figure ). m.p., meso-pterygium. mt.p., meta-pterygium. p.p., pro-pterygium. sc., its dorsal portion. {illustration: diagram sheet .} sheet -the uro-genital organs of the dog-fish_. figure . the female, the oviduct of the left side cut away, -and an egg case in the oviduct.- figure . the male. the rectum is removed in both cases, and the silvery peritoneum dissected off from the kidneys. figure . a generalized diagram of the uro-genital organs.-- all references in text. ms., the mesonephros, is the epididymis in the male, and is reduced in the female; ms.d., its duct, is the vas deferens in the male, and persists only as the urinary receptacle in the female. mt. and mt.d., the metanephros and metanephric duct, become the functional kidney and ureter in both sexes. g. is the gonad (reproductive gland), and m.l. the animal's middle line (median plane). -ps.-, [pr.,] the pronephros, is never developed in the dog-fish; p.d., its supposed duct, is the oviduct of the female, and is suppressed in the male. {illustration: diagram sheet .} sheet . figure . the dog-fish brain, dorsal view. figure . median section of the same. to the right a more diagrammatic figure. the nerves are numbered:-- [br , br , br , br branches of x forking over the second to the fifth gillslit.] cb., cerebellum. h.s.c., horizontal semi-circular canal of ear, exposed by the slicing down of the otic mass. [lat., lateral-line branch of x.] m.o., medulla oblongata. oph., ophthalmic nerve (v. +vii. ). op.l., optic lobe. pit., pituitary body. pr.c., prosencephalon (cerebral hemisphere). rh., olfactory lobe (rhinencephalon). r.t., -its- restiform tracts [of medulla]. -st-. [s.p.g.], stalk of the pineal gland. th., thalamencephalon. th.c., thalamencephalon. -ut., the utriculus, seen through the semi-transparent cartilage-. vid., the vidian branch of vii. [visc., visceral branch of x.] figure . diagram of the ear of a fish. the structure of this is easily made out by clearing otic capsule and cutting slices of the cartilage in the dog-fish (e.g., figure , h.s.c.). amp., their ampullae. a.v.c., p.v.c., h.c., anterior, posterior, horizontal canal respectively. [amp., the ampullae.] d.e., the ductus endo-lymphaticus. -sac., the sacculus; c., a small outgrowth of the latter, corresponding to the rabbit's cochlea-. -ut., the utriculus-. figure . the cranium and branchial bars of a dog-fish. the groove in the otic capsule connects the orbital and anterior cardinal sinuses. a.c.s., position of the anterior cardinal sinus (dotted outline). c., the vertebral centra. c.b., the cerato-branchial. c.h., the cerato-hyal. e.b., epi-branchial. ex.b., extra-branchial. h.m., the hyo-mandibular. i.n.p., inter-neural plate. m.c., meckel's (lower jaw) bar. na.c., the nasal capsule. n.p., neural plate. n.s., neural spine. ot.c., the otic capsule. ph.b., the pharyngo-branchial. p.pt., the palato-pterygoid bar (upper jaw bar). p.s., pre-spiracular ligament, containing a cartilaginous nodule. r., rib. sp., the position of the spiracle. figure . diagrams of a vertebral centrum.-- for reference letters, see text (section ). {no figure , in first edition.} [figure . diagram for comparison with figure iii., sheet .] {illustration: diagram sheet .} sheet . figure . amphioxus, seen from the right side. a----b shows the natural size. the animal is supposed to be clarified, and mounted in some highly refracting medium, so that it is practically transparent; i., ii., iii., and etc., refer to the section figured on sheet . figure . amphioxus, general dissection. (slightly altered from a figure by professor e. r. lankester.) the ventral atrial wall is removed. the pharynx cut away from the dorsal body-wall, and with the true ventral body-wall turned over to the (animal's) right. the arrow a., a., passes through anus to intestine; b., b., is thrust through the atrial pore to the atrial cavity. note coe., the body cavity. references to the two figures. an., anus. at., atrial cavity. at.w., atrial wall. at.p., atrial pore. a.d., anterior dilatata of nervous system. b.w., body-wall. b.t.l., brown tubes of lankester. c.f., ciliated funnel. coe., coelome. c.ao., cardiac aorta. d.ao., dorsal aorta (paired). d.ao'., dorsal aorta median. g., gonads (male or female genital gland). hep., hepatic vein. in., intestine. i.w., intestine wall. lv., liver. m.f., median fin. n.c., notochord. p.v., portal vein. ph., pharynx. -p.s.-, [e.s.] pigment spot ("eye spot"). s.c., spinal cord. {illustration: diagram sheet .} sheet -sections of amphioxus_. the roman numerals indicate the corresponding region in figure , sheet . the lettering is identical; but note, in addition; br.c., branchial canal. c.f., ciliated funnel. d.c.c., dorsal coelomic canal. end., endostyle. ep., epipleur. e.s., eye spot. h.p., hypopharyngeal grove. h.vn., for hepatic vein. o.c., oral cavity (or hood). {illustration: diagram sheet .} sheet . -phases in the development of amphioxus_. figures , , , . phases in segmentation. figure . the blastosphere. figure . the gastrula in section, anterior end to the right. figure . i. dorsal view post gastrula stage. figure . ii. diagrammatic section of the same in the position indicated by the transverse line in , i. figure . diagrammatic section of a later stage. coe.p., the coelomic pouches. n.c., the notochord. n.p., the neural plate. figure .i. still later section. figure . ii. diagrammatic view of late embryo. figures , , illustrate the formation of the atrium as a median ventral invagination, at. {illustration: diagram sheet .} sheet . -the development of the frog_. these diagrams must be studied with the text. they should be compared with the corresponding ones of amphioxus as indicated below. figures , , . stages in segmentation (compare , , of {sheet } amphioxus). figure . blastosphere stage (compare , amphioxus). this, on a smaller scale. the cells on the ventral side are so much larger because distended with yolk. figure . gastrula stage in section (compare , amphioxus). the frog on a smaller scale than amphioxus. figure . dorsal view of gastrula (compare , amphioxus). figure . part of a transverse section of developing tadpole, corresponding to figure of amphioxus. figures and . diagrammatic longitudinal sections of tadpoles (compare . ii. of amphioxus). y. represents a mass of yolk cells. figure . side view of young tadpole, showing external gills (e.g.) and suckers (s.). note the ventral bulging due to the yolk. figure . ventral view of a later tadpole. op., the operculum. int., coiling intestine. figure . head of still later tadpole in horizontal section to show atrial chamber formed by operculum. int.g., internal gills. l., developing lungs. figure . diagrammatic cross-section of the mid-dorsal part of an embryonic vertebrate. ao., aorta. b.c., bowman's capsule. coe., coelom. d.g., ganglion on dorsal root of spinal nerve. gl., -its branch- [arteriole] to form glomerulus. g.r., genital ridge. i., intestine. m.d., mullerian duct. ns. [nst.], nephrostome. n.c., notochord; -n.s.-, [n.sh.] its sheath. s.c., neural canal. w.d., wolffian duct. {illustration: diagram sheet .} sheet . -the development of the fowl_. figure . diagram of the early ovum. the section below is a small portion of the blastodermic area. b.d., blastoderm. y., the undivided yolk. s.c., the segmentation between the blastoderm and yolk. compare s.c. in {sheet} , {figure} . figure . area pellucida about the sixteenth hour. the figure below is the central part of the section indicated by the transverse line, and showing the primitive streak (p.s.). figure . area pellucida about the twenty-first hour. two sections through a and b below. figure . about the twenty-fifth hour; surface view; longitudinal section to right and transverse above. figure b. diagrammatic rendering of same stage (compare figure of frog and .ii. amphioxus). this will be most clearly understood if the reader look at sheet , {figure} , and imagine y. enormously increased, and the embryo sinking into it. epiblast, ep., -line of dashes- [black line]. mesoblast, dotted. hypoblast, -black- [line of dashes]. pp., the pleuro-peritoneal cavity. figure and illustrate formation of amnion (a.) and allantois (all.). is about the fourth day. {illustration: diagram sheet .} sheet . -the development of the fowl_. figure . chick about the -fifth- [third] day. at this stage the chick lies on its left side in the yolk. [for lettering of blood vessels, see ( ) below.] i., the intestine. u.v., the yolk sac. v.v., the vitelline veins. al., the allantois. figure . chick about sixth day. figure . development of heart. figure . development of the eye. figure . chick about the sixteenth day. a.m. is the amnion surrounding the embryo. note particularly how the allantois (al.) has spread over surface of shell and how the yolk sac is shrivelled. figure . figures to illustrate the relative function and importance of allantois and yolk sac in bird and mammal. in the fowl, however, the blood-vessels of the allantois also probably absorb the albumen of the egg, and may excrete urea into the egg-space. figure . simplified figure of the embryonic circulation, for comparison with the similar figures annexed to dog-fish and rabbit. {lines from second edition only.} [a.c., anterior cardinal. ao., aorta. br , sixth aortis arch (fourth branchial). c.s. cuvierian sinus. h., the heart. i.c., inferior cava. p.c., posterior cardinal vein. tr.a., truncus arteriosus. v.v., vitelline vein.] figure . chick on the nineteenth day. {illustration: diagram sheet .} the invisible man a grotesque romance by h. g. wells contents i the strange man's arrival ii mr. teddy henfrey's first impressions iii the thousand and one bottles iv mr. cuss interviews the stranger v the burglary at the vicarage vi the furniture that went mad vii the unveiling of the stranger viii in transit ix mr. thomas marvel x mr. marvel's visit to iping xi in the "coach and horses" xii the invisible man loses his temper xiii mr. marvel discusses his resignation xiv at port stowe xv the man who was running xvi in the "jolly cricketers" xvii dr. kemp's visitor xviii the invisible man sleeps xix certain first principles xx at the house in great portland street xxi in oxford street xxii in the emporium xxiii in drury lane xxiv the plan that failed xxv the hunting of the invisible man xxvi the wicksteed murder xxvii the siege of kemp's house xxviii the hunter hunted the epilogue chapter i the strange man's arrival the stranger came early in february, one wintry day, through a biting wind and a driving snow, the last snowfall of the year, over the down, walking from bramblehurst railway station, and carrying a little black portmanteau in his thickly gloved hand. he was wrapped up from head to foot, and the brim of his soft felt hat hid every inch of his face but the shiny tip of his nose; the snow had piled itself against his shoulders and chest, and added a white crest to the burden he carried. he staggered into the "coach and horses" more dead than alive, and flung his portmanteau down. "a fire," he cried, "in the name of human charity! a room and a fire!" he stamped and shook the snow from off himself in the bar, and followed mrs. hall into her guest parlour to strike his bargain. and with that much introduction, that and a couple of sovereigns flung upon the table, he took up his quarters in the inn. mrs. hall lit the fire and left him there while she went to prepare him a meal with her own hands. a guest to stop at iping in the wintertime was an unheard-of piece of luck, let alone a guest who was no "haggler," and she was resolved to show herself worthy of her good fortune. as soon as the bacon was well under way, and millie, her lymphatic maid, had been brisked up a bit by a few deftly chosen expressions of contempt, she carried the cloth, plates, and glasses into the parlour and began to lay them with the utmost _eclat_. although the fire was burning up briskly, she was surprised to see that her visitor still wore his hat and coat, standing with his back to her and staring out of the window at the falling snow in the yard. his gloved hands were clasped behind him, and he seemed to be lost in thought. she noticed that the melting snow that still sprinkled his shoulders dripped upon her carpet. "can i take your hat and coat, sir?" she said, "and give them a good dry in the kitchen?" "no," he said without turning. she was not sure she had heard him, and was about to repeat her question. he turned his head and looked at her over his shoulder. "i prefer to keep them on," he said with emphasis, and she noticed that he wore big blue spectacles with sidelights, and had a bush side-whisker over his coat-collar that completely hid his cheeks and face. "very well, sir," she said. "_as_ you like. in a bit the room will be warmer." he made no answer, and had turned his face away from her again, and mrs. hall, feeling that her conversational advances were ill-timed, laid the rest of the table things in a quick staccato and whisked out of the room. when she returned he was still standing there, like a man of stone, his back hunched, his collar turned up, his dripping hat-brim turned down, hiding his face and ears completely. she put down the eggs and bacon with considerable emphasis, and called rather than said to him, "your lunch is served, sir." "thank you," he said at the same time, and did not stir until she was closing the door. then he swung round and approached the table with a certain eager quickness. as she went behind the bar to the kitchen she heard a sound repeated at regular intervals. chirk, chirk, chirk, it went, the sound of a spoon being rapidly whisked round a basin. "that girl!" she said. "there! i clean forgot it. it's her being so long!" and while she herself finished mixing the mustard, she gave millie a few verbal stabs for her excessive slowness. she had cooked the ham and eggs, laid the table, and done everything, while millie (help indeed!) had only succeeded in delaying the mustard. and him a new guest and wanting to stay! then she filled the mustard pot, and, putting it with a certain stateliness upon a gold and black tea-tray, carried it into the parlour. she rapped and entered promptly. as she did so her visitor moved quickly, so that she got but a glimpse of a white object disappearing behind the table. it would seem he was picking something from the floor. she rapped down the mustard pot on the table, and then she noticed the overcoat and hat had been taken off and put over a chair in front of the fire, and a pair of wet boots threatened rust to her steel fender. she went to these things resolutely. "i suppose i may have them to dry now," she said in a voice that brooked no denial. "leave the hat," said her visitor, in a muffled voice, and turning she saw he had raised his head and was sitting and looking at her. for a moment she stood gaping at him, too surprised to speak. he held a white cloth--it was a serviette he had brought with him--over the lower part of his face, so that his mouth and jaws were completely hidden, and that was the reason of his muffled voice. but it was not that which startled mrs. hall. it was the fact that all his forehead above his blue glasses was covered by a white bandage, and that another covered his ears, leaving not a scrap of his face exposed excepting only his pink, peaked nose. it was bright, pink, and shiny just as it had been at first. he wore a dark-brown velvet jacket with a high, black, linen-lined collar turned up about his neck. the thick black hair, escaping as it could below and between the cross bandages, projected in curious tails and horns, giving him the strangest appearance conceivable. this muffled and bandaged head was so unlike what she had anticipated, that for a moment she was rigid. he did not remove the serviette, but remained holding it, as she saw now, with a brown gloved hand, and regarding her with his inscrutable blue glasses. "leave the hat," he said, speaking very distinctly through the white cloth. her nerves began to recover from the shock they had received. she placed the hat on the chair again by the fire. "i didn't know, sir," she began, "that--" and she stopped embarrassed. "thank you," he said drily, glancing from her to the door and then at her again. "i'll have them nicely dried, sir, at once," she said, and carried his clothes out of the room. she glanced at his white-swathed head and blue goggles again as she was going out of the door; but his napkin was still in front of his face. she shivered a little as she closed the door behind her, and her face was eloquent of her surprise and perplexity. "i _never_," she whispered. "there!" she went quite softly to the kitchen, and was too preoccupied to ask millie what she was messing about with _now_, when she got there. the visitor sat and listened to her retreating feet. he glanced inquiringly at the window before he removed his serviette, and resumed his meal. he took a mouthful, glanced suspiciously at the window, took another mouthful, then rose and, taking the serviette in his hand, walked across the room and pulled the blind down to the top of the white muslin that obscured the lower panes. this left the room in a twilight. this done, he returned with an easier air to the table and his meal. "the poor soul's had an accident or an op'ration or somethin'," said mrs. hall. "what a turn them bandages did give me, to be sure!" she put on some more coal, unfolded the clothes-horse, and extended the traveller's coat upon this. "and they goggles! why, he looked more like a divin' helmet than a human man!" she hung his muffler on a corner of the horse. "and holding that handkerchief over his mouth all the time. talkin' through it! ... perhaps his mouth was hurt too--maybe." she turned round, as one who suddenly remembers. "bless my soul alive!" she said, going off at a tangent; "ain't you done them taters _yet_, millie?" when mrs. hall went to clear away the stranger's lunch, her idea that his mouth must also have been cut or disfigured in the accident she supposed him to have suffered, was confirmed, for he was smoking a pipe, and all the time that she was in the room he never loosened the silk muffler he had wrapped round the lower part of his face to put the mouthpiece to his lips. yet it was not forgetfulness, for she saw he glanced at it as it smouldered out. he sat in the corner with his back to the window-blind and spoke now, having eaten and drunk and being comfortably warmed through, with less aggressive brevity than before. the reflection of the fire lent a kind of red animation to his big spectacles they had lacked hitherto. "i have some luggage," he said, "at bramblehurst station," and he asked her how he could have it sent. he bowed his bandaged head quite politely in acknowledgment of her explanation. "to-morrow?" he said. "there is no speedier delivery?" and seemed quite disappointed when she answered, "no." was she quite sure? no man with a trap who would go over? mrs. hall, nothing loath, answered his questions and developed a conversation. "it's a steep road by the down, sir," she said in answer to the question about a trap; and then, snatching at an opening, said, "it was there a carriage was upsettled, a year ago and more. a gentleman killed, besides his coachman. accidents, sir, happen in a moment, don't they?" but the visitor was not to be drawn so easily. "they do," he said through his muffler, eyeing her quietly through his impenetrable glasses. "but they take long enough to get well, don't they? ... there was my sister's son, tom, jest cut his arm with a scythe, tumbled on it in the 'ayfield, and, bless me! he was three months tied up sir. you'd hardly believe it. it's regular given me a dread of a scythe, sir." "i can quite understand that," said the visitor. "he was afraid, one time, that he'd have to have an op'ration--he was that bad, sir." the visitor laughed abruptly, a bark of a laugh that he seemed to bite and kill in his mouth. "_was_ he?" he said. "he was, sir. and no laughing matter to them as had the doing for him, as i had--my sister being took up with her little ones so much. there was bandages to do, sir, and bandages to undo. so that if i may make so bold as to say it, sir--" "will you get me some matches?" said the visitor, quite abruptly. "my pipe is out." mrs. hall was pulled up suddenly. it was certainly rude of him, after telling him all she had done. she gasped at him for a moment, and remembered the two sovereigns. she went for the matches. "thanks," he said concisely, as she put them down, and turned his shoulder upon her and stared out of the window again. it was altogether too discouraging. evidently he was sensitive on the topic of operations and bandages. she did not "make so bold as to say," however, after all. but his snubbing way had irritated her, and millie had a hot time of it that afternoon. the visitor remained in the parlour until four o'clock, without giving the ghost of an excuse for an intrusion. for the most part he was quite still during that time; it would seem he sat in the growing darkness smoking in the firelight--perhaps dozing. once or twice a curious listener might have heard him at the coals, and for the space of five minutes he was audible pacing the room. he seemed to be talking to himself. then the armchair creaked as he sat down again. chapter ii mr. teddy henfrey's first impressions at four o'clock, when it was fairly dark and mrs. hall was screwing up her courage to go in and ask her visitor if he would take some tea, teddy henfrey, the clock-jobber, came into the bar. "my sakes! mrs. hall," said he, "but this is terrible weather for thin boots!" the snow outside was falling faster. mrs. hall agreed, and then noticed he had his bag with him. "now you're here, mr. teddy," said she, "i'd be glad if you'd give th' old clock in the parlour a bit of a look. 'tis going, and it strikes well and hearty; but the hour-hand won't do nuthin' but point at six." and leading the way, she went across to the parlour door and rapped and entered. her visitor, she saw as she opened the door, was seated in the armchair before the fire, dozing it would seem, with his bandaged head drooping on one side. the only light in the room was the red glow from the fire--which lit his eyes like adverse railway signals, but left his downcast face in darkness--and the scanty vestiges of the day that came in through the open door. everything was ruddy, shadowy, and indistinct to her, the more so since she had just been lighting the bar lamp, and her eyes were dazzled. but for a second it seemed to her that the man she looked at had an enormous mouth wide open--a vast and incredible mouth that swallowed the whole of the lower portion of his face. it was the sensation of a moment: the white-bound head, the monstrous goggle eyes, and this huge yawn below it. then he stirred, started up in his chair, put up his hand. she opened the door wide, so that the room was lighter, and she saw him more clearly, with the muffler held up to his face just as she had seen him hold the serviette before. the shadows, she fancied, had tricked her. "would you mind, sir, this man a-coming to look at the clock, sir?" she said, recovering from the momentary shock. "look at the clock?" he said, staring round in a drowsy manner, and speaking over his hand, and then, getting more fully awake, "certainly." mrs. hall went away to get a lamp, and he rose and stretched himself. then came the light, and mr. teddy henfrey, entering, was confronted by this bandaged person. he was, he says, "taken aback." "good afternoon," said the stranger, regarding him--as mr. henfrey says, with a vivid sense of the dark spectacles--"like a lobster." "i hope," said mr. henfrey, "that it's no intrusion." "none whatever," said the stranger. "though, i understand," he said turning to mrs. hall, "that this room is really to be mine for my own private use." "i thought, sir," said mrs. hall, "you'd prefer the clock--" "certainly," said the stranger, "certainly--but, as a rule, i like to be alone and undisturbed. "but i'm really glad to have the clock seen to," he said, seeing a certain hesitation in mr. henfrey's manner. "very glad." mr. henfrey had intended to apologise and withdraw, but this anticipation reassured him. the stranger turned round with his back to the fireplace and put his hands behind his back. "and presently," he said, "when the clock-mending is over, i think i should like to have some tea. but not till the clock-mending is over." mrs. hall was about to leave the room--she made no conversational advances this time, because she did not want to be snubbed in front of mr. henfrey--when her visitor asked her if she had made any arrangements about his boxes at bramblehurst. she told him she had mentioned the matter to the postman, and that the carrier could bring them over on the morrow. "you are certain that is the earliest?" he said. she was certain, with a marked coldness. "i should explain," he added, "what i was really too cold and fatigued to do before, that i am an experimental investigator." "indeed, sir," said mrs. hall, much impressed. "and my baggage contains apparatus and appliances." "very useful things indeed they are, sir," said mrs. hall. "and i'm very naturally anxious to get on with my inquiries." "of course, sir." "my reason for coming to iping," he proceeded, with a certain deliberation of manner, "was ... a desire for solitude. i do not wish to be disturbed in my work. in addition to my work, an accident--" "i thought as much," said mrs. hall to herself. "--necessitates a certain retirement. my eyes--are sometimes so weak and painful that i have to shut myself up in the dark for hours together. lock myself up. sometimes--now and then. not at present, certainly. at such times the slightest disturbance, the entry of a stranger into the room, is a source of excruciating annoyance to me--it is well these things should be understood." "certainly, sir," said mrs. hall. "and if i might make so bold as to ask--" "that i think, is all," said the stranger, with that quietly irresistible air of finality he could assume at will. mrs. hall reserved her question and sympathy for a better occasion. after mrs. hall had left the room, he remained standing in front of the fire, glaring, so mr. henfrey puts it, at the clock-mending. mr. henfrey not only took off the hands of the clock, and the face, but extracted the works; and he tried to work in as slow and quiet and unassuming a manner as possible. he worked with the lamp close to him, and the green shade threw a brilliant light upon his hands, and upon the frame and wheels, and left the rest of the room shadowy. when he looked up, coloured patches swam in his eyes. being constitutionally of a curious nature, he had removed the works--a quite unnecessary proceeding--with the idea of delaying his departure and perhaps falling into conversation with the stranger. but the stranger stood there, perfectly silent and still. so still, it got on henfrey's nerves. he felt alone in the room and looked up, and there, grey and dim, was the bandaged head and huge blue lenses staring fixedly, with a mist of green spots drifting in front of them. it was so uncanny to henfrey that for a minute they remained staring blankly at one another. then henfrey looked down again. very uncomfortable position! one would like to say something. should he remark that the weather was very cold for the time of year? he looked up as if to take aim with that introductory shot. "the weather--" he began. "why don't you finish and go?" said the rigid figure, evidently in a state of painfully suppressed rage. "all you've got to do is to fix the hour-hand on its axle. you're simply humbugging--" "certainly, sir--one minute more. i overlooked--" and mr. henfrey finished and went. but he went feeling excessively annoyed. "damn it!" said mr. henfrey to himself, trudging down the village through the thawing snow; "a man must do a clock at times, surely." and again, "can't a man look at you?--ugly!" and yet again, "seemingly not. if the police was wanting you you couldn't be more wropped and bandaged." at gleeson's corner he saw hall, who had recently married the stranger's hostess at the "coach and horses," and who now drove the iping conveyance, when occasional people required it, to sidderbridge junction, coming towards him on his return from that place. hall had evidently been "stopping a bit" at sidderbridge, to judge by his driving. "'ow do, teddy?" he said, passing. "you got a rum un up home!" said teddy. hall very sociably pulled up. "what's that?" he asked. "rum-looking customer stopping at the 'coach and horses,'" said teddy. "my sakes!" and he proceeded to give hall a vivid description of his grotesque guest. "looks a bit like a disguise, don't it? i'd like to see a man's face if i had him stopping in _my_ place," said henfrey. "but women are that trustful--where strangers are concerned. he's took your rooms and he ain't even given a name, hall." "you don't say so!" said hall, who was a man of sluggish apprehension. "yes," said teddy. "by the week. whatever he is, you can't get rid of him under the week. and he's got a lot of luggage coming to-morrow, so he says. let's hope it won't be stones in boxes, hall." he told hall how his aunt at hastings had been swindled by a stranger with empty portmanteaux. altogether he left hall vaguely suspicious. "get up, old girl," said hall. "i s'pose i must see 'bout this." teddy trudged on his way with his mind considerably relieved. instead of "seeing 'bout it," however, hall on his return was severely rated by his wife on the length of time he had spent in sidderbridge, and his mild inquiries were answered snappishly and in a manner not to the point. but the seed of suspicion teddy had sown germinated in the mind of mr. hall in spite of these discouragements. "you wim' don't know everything," said mr. hall, resolved to ascertain more about the personality of his guest at the earliest possible opportunity. and after the stranger had gone to bed, which he did about half-past nine, mr. hall went very aggressively into the parlour and looked very hard at his wife's furniture, just to show that the stranger wasn't master there, and scrutinised closely and a little contemptuously a sheet of mathematical computations the stranger had left. when retiring for the night he instructed mrs. hall to look very closely at the stranger's luggage when it came next day. "you mind your own business, hall," said mrs. hall, "and i'll mind mine." she was all the more inclined to snap at hall because the stranger was undoubtedly an unusually strange sort of stranger, and she was by no means assured about him in her own mind. in the middle of the night she woke up dreaming of huge white heads like turnips, that came trailing after her, at the end of interminable necks, and with vast black eyes. but being a sensible woman, she subdued her terrors and turned over and went to sleep again. chapter iii the thousand and one bottles so it was that on the twenty-ninth day of february, at the beginning of the thaw, this singular person fell out of infinity into iping village. next day his luggage arrived through the slush--and very remarkable luggage it was. there were a couple of trunks indeed, such as a rational man might need, but in addition there were a box of books--big, fat books, of which some were just in an incomprehensible handwriting--and a dozen or more crates, boxes, and cases, containing objects packed in straw, as it seemed to hall, tugging with a casual curiosity at the straw--glass bottles. the stranger, muffled in hat, coat, gloves, and wrapper, came out impatiently to meet fearenside's cart, while hall was having a word or so of gossip preparatory to helping bring them in. out he came, not noticing fearenside's dog, who was sniffing in a _dilettante_ spirit at hall's legs. "come along with those boxes," he said. "i've been waiting long enough." and he came down the steps towards the tail of the cart as if to lay hands on the smaller crate. no sooner had fearenside's dog caught sight of him, however, than it began to bristle and growl savagely, and when he rushed down the steps it gave an undecided hop, and then sprang straight at his hand. "whup!" cried hall, jumping back, for he was no hero with dogs, and fearenside howled, "lie down!" and snatched his whip. they saw the dog's teeth had slipped the hand, heard a kick, saw the dog execute a flanking jump and get home on the stranger's leg, and heard the rip of his trousering. then the finer end of fearenside's whip reached his property, and the dog, yelping with dismay, retreated under the wheels of the waggon. it was all the business of a swift half-minute. no one spoke, everyone shouted. the stranger glanced swiftly at his torn glove and at his leg, made as if he would stoop to the latter, then turned and rushed swiftly up the steps into the inn. they heard him go headlong across the passage and up the uncarpeted stairs to his bedroom. "you brute, you!" said fearenside, climbing off the waggon with his whip in his hand, while the dog watched him through the wheel. "come here," said fearenside--"you'd better." hall had stood gaping. "he wuz bit," said hall. "i'd better go and see to en," and he trotted after the stranger. he met mrs. hall in the passage. "carrier's darg," he said "bit en." he went straight upstairs, and the stranger's door being ajar, he pushed it open and was entering without any ceremony, being of a naturally sympathetic turn of mind. the blind was down and the room dim. he caught a glimpse of a most singular thing, what seemed a handless arm waving towards him, and a face of three huge indeterminate spots on white, very like the face of a pale pansy. then he was struck violently in the chest, hurled back, and the door slammed in his face and locked. it was so rapid that it gave him no time to observe. a waving of indecipherable shapes, a blow, and a concussion. there he stood on the dark little landing, wondering what it might be that he had seen. a couple of minutes after, he rejoined the little group that had formed outside the "coach and horses." there was fearenside telling about it all over again for the second time; there was mrs. hall saying his dog didn't have no business to bite her guests; there was huxter, the general dealer from over the road, interrogative; and sandy wadgers from the forge, judicial; besides women and children, all of them saying fatuities: "wouldn't let en bite _me_, i knows"; "'tasn't right _have_ such dargs"; "whad _'e_ bite 'n for, then?" and so forth. mr. hall, staring at them from the steps and listening, found it incredible that he had seen anything so very remarkable happen upstairs. besides, his vocabulary was altogether too limited to express his impressions. "he don't want no help, he says," he said in answer to his wife's inquiry. "we'd better be a-takin' of his luggage in." "he ought to have it cauterised at once," said mr. huxter; "especially if it's at all inflamed." "i'd shoot en, that's what i'd do," said a lady in the group. suddenly the dog began growling again. "come along," cried an angry voice in the doorway, and there stood the muffled stranger with his collar turned up, and his hat-brim bent down. "the sooner you get those things in the better i'll be pleased." it is stated by an anonymous bystander that his trousers and gloves had been changed. "was you hurt, sir?" said fearenside. "i'm rare sorry the darg--" "not a bit," said the stranger. "never broke the skin. hurry up with those things." he then swore to himself, so mr. hall asserts. directly the first crate was, in accordance with his directions, carried into the parlour, the stranger flung himself upon it with extraordinary eagerness, and began to unpack it, scattering the straw with an utter disregard of mrs. hall's carpet. and from it he began to produce bottles--little fat bottles containing powders, small and slender bottles containing coloured and white fluids, fluted blue bottles labeled poison, bottles with round bodies and slender necks, large green-glass bottles, large white-glass bottles, bottles with glass stoppers and frosted labels, bottles with fine corks, bottles with bungs, bottles with wooden caps, wine bottles, salad-oil bottles--putting them in rows on the chiffonnier, on the mantel, on the table under the window, round the floor, on the bookshelf--everywhere. the chemist's shop in bramblehurst could not boast half so many. quite a sight it was. crate after crate yielded bottles, until all six were empty and the table high with straw; the only things that came out of these crates besides the bottles were a number of test-tubes and a carefully packed balance. and directly the crates were unpacked, the stranger went to the window and set to work, not troubling in the least about the litter of straw, the fire which had gone out, the box of books outside, nor for the trunks and other luggage that had gone upstairs. when mrs. hall took his dinner in to him, he was already so absorbed in his work, pouring little drops out of the bottles into test-tubes, that he did not hear her until she had swept away the bulk of the straw and put the tray on the table, with some little emphasis perhaps, seeing the state that the floor was in. then he half turned his head and immediately turned it away again. but she saw he had removed his glasses; they were beside him on the table, and it seemed to her that his eye sockets were extraordinarily hollow. he put on his spectacles again, and then turned and faced her. she was about to complain of the straw on the floor when he anticipated her. "i wish you wouldn't come in without knocking," he said in the tone of abnormal exasperation that seemed so characteristic of him. "i knocked, but seemingly--" "perhaps you did. but in my investigations--my really very urgent and necessary investigations--the slightest disturbance, the jar of a door--i must ask you--" "certainly, sir. you can turn the lock if you're like that, you know. any time." "a very good idea," said the stranger. "this stror, sir, if i might make so bold as to remark--" "don't. if the straw makes trouble put it down in the bill." and he mumbled at her--words suspiciously like curses. he was so odd, standing there, so aggressive and explosive, bottle in one hand and test-tube in the other, that mrs. hall was quite alarmed. but she was a resolute woman. "in which case, i should like to know, sir, what you consider--" "a shilling--put down a shilling. surely a shilling's enough?" "so be it," said mrs. hall, taking up the table-cloth and beginning to spread it over the table. "if you're satisfied, of course--" he turned and sat down, with his coat-collar toward her. all the afternoon he worked with the door locked and, as mrs. hall testifies, for the most part in silence. but once there was a concussion and a sound of bottles ringing together as though the table had been hit, and the smash of a bottle flung violently down, and then a rapid pacing athwart the room. fearing "something was the matter," she went to the door and listened, not caring to knock. "i can't go on," he was raving. "i _can't_ go on. three hundred thousand, four hundred thousand! the huge multitude! cheated! all my life it may take me! ... patience! patience indeed! ... fool! fool!" there was a noise of hobnails on the bricks in the bar, and mrs. hall had very reluctantly to leave the rest of his soliloquy. when she returned the room was silent again, save for the faint crepitation of his chair and the occasional clink of a bottle. it was all over; the stranger had resumed work. when she took in his tea she saw broken glass in the corner of the room under the concave mirror, and a golden stain that had been carelessly wiped. she called attention to it. "put it down in the bill," snapped her visitor. "for god's sake don't worry me. if there's damage done, put it down in the bill," and he went on ticking a list in the exercise book before him. "i'll tell you something," said fearenside, mysteriously. it was late in the afternoon, and they were in the little beer-shop of iping hanger. "well?" said teddy henfrey. "this chap you're speaking of, what my dog bit. well--he's black. leastways, his legs are. i seed through the tear of his trousers and the tear of his glove. you'd have expected a sort of pinky to show, wouldn't you? well--there wasn't none. just blackness. i tell you, he's as black as my hat." "my sakes!" said henfrey. "it's a rummy case altogether. why, his nose is as pink as paint!" "that's true," said fearenside. "i knows that. and i tell 'ee what i'm thinking. that marn's a piebald, teddy. black here and white there--in patches. and he's ashamed of it. he's a kind of half-breed, and the colour's come off patchy instead of mixing. i've heard of such things before. and it's the common way with horses, as any one can see." chapter iv mr. cuss interviews the stranger i have told the circumstances of the stranger's arrival in iping with a certain fulness of detail, in order that the curious impression he created may be understood by the reader. but excepting two odd incidents, the circumstances of his stay until the extraordinary day of the club festival may be passed over very cursorily. there were a number of skirmishes with mrs. hall on matters of domestic discipline, but in every case until late april, when the first signs of penury began, he over-rode her by the easy expedient of an extra payment. hall did not like him, and whenever he dared he talked of the advisability of getting rid of him; but he showed his dislike chiefly by concealing it ostentatiously, and avoiding his visitor as much as possible. "wait till the summer," said mrs. hall sagely, "when the artisks are beginning to come. then we'll see. he may be a bit overbearing, but bills settled punctual is bills settled punctual, whatever you'd like to say." the stranger did not go to church, and indeed made no difference between sunday and the irreligious days, even in costume. he worked, as mrs. hall thought, very fitfully. some days he would come down early and be continuously busy. on others he would rise late, pace his room, fretting audibly for hours together, smoke, sleep in the armchair by the fire. communication with the world beyond the village he had none. his temper continued very uncertain; for the most part his manner was that of a man suffering under almost unendurable provocation, and once or twice things were snapped, torn, crushed, or broken in spasmodic gusts of violence. he seemed under a chronic irritation of the greatest intensity. his habit of talking to himself in a low voice grew steadily upon him, but though mrs. hall listened conscientiously she could make neither head nor tail of what she heard. he rarely went abroad by daylight, but at twilight he would go out muffled up invisibly, whether the weather were cold or not, and he chose the loneliest paths and those most overshadowed by trees and banks. his goggling spectacles and ghastly bandaged face under the penthouse of his hat, came with a disagreeable suddenness out of the darkness upon one or two home-going labourers, and teddy henfrey, tumbling out of the "scarlet coat" one night, at half-past nine, was scared shamefully by the stranger's skull-like head (he was walking hat in hand) lit by the sudden light of the opened inn door. such children as saw him at nightfall dreamt of bogies, and it seemed doubtful whether he disliked boys more than they disliked him, or the reverse; but there was certainly a vivid enough dislike on either side. it was inevitable that a person of so remarkable an appearance and bearing should form a frequent topic in such a village as iping. opinion was greatly divided about his occupation. mrs. hall was sensitive on the point. when questioned, she explained very carefully that he was an "experimental investigator," going gingerly over the syllables as one who dreads pitfalls. when asked what an experimental investigator was, she would say with a touch of superiority that most educated people knew such things as that, and would thus explain that he "discovered things." her visitor had had an accident, she said, which temporarily discoloured his face and hands, and being of a sensitive disposition, he was averse to any public notice of the fact. out of her hearing there was a view largely entertained that he was a criminal trying to escape from justice by wrapping himself up so as to conceal himself altogether from the eye of the police. this idea sprang from the brain of mr. teddy henfrey. no crime of any magnitude dating from the middle or end of february was known to have occurred. elaborated in the imagination of mr. gould, the probationary assistant in the national school, this theory took the form that the stranger was an anarchist in disguise, preparing explosives, and he resolved to undertake such detective operations as his time permitted. these consisted for the most part in looking very hard at the stranger whenever they met, or in asking people who had never seen the stranger, leading questions about him. but he detected nothing. another school of opinion followed mr. fearenside, and either accepted the piebald view or some modification of it; as, for instance, silas durgan, who was heard to assert that "if he chooses to show enself at fairs he'd make his fortune in no time," and being a bit of a theologian, compared the stranger to the man with the one talent. yet another view explained the entire matter by regarding the stranger as a harmless lunatic. that had the advantage of accounting for everything straight away. between these main groups there were waverers and compromisers. sussex folk have few superstitions, and it was only after the events of early april that the thought of the supernatural was first whispered in the village. even then it was only credited among the women folk. but whatever they thought of him, people in iping, on the whole, agreed in disliking him. his irritability, though it might have been comprehensible to an urban brain-worker, was an amazing thing to these quiet sussex villagers. the frantic gesticulations they surprised now and then, the headlong pace after nightfall that swept him upon them round quiet corners, the inhuman bludgeoning of all tentative advances of curiosity, the taste for twilight that led to the closing of doors, the pulling down of blinds, the extinction of candles and lamps--who could agree with such goings on? they drew aside as he passed down the village, and when he had gone by, young humourists would up with coat-collars and down with hat-brims, and go pacing nervously after him in imitation of his occult bearing. there was a song popular at that time called "the bogey man". miss statchell sang it at the schoolroom concert (in aid of the church lamps), and thereafter whenever one or two of the villagers were gathered together and the stranger appeared, a bar or so of this tune, more or less sharp or flat, was whistled in the midst of them. also belated little children would call "bogey man!" after him, and make off tremulously elated. cuss, the general practitioner, was devoured by curiosity. the bandages excited his professional interest, the report of the thousand and one bottles aroused his jealous regard. all through april and may he coveted an opportunity of talking to the stranger, and at last, towards whitsuntide, he could stand it no longer, but hit upon the subscription-list for a village nurse as an excuse. he was surprised to find that mr. hall did not know his guest's name. "he give a name," said mrs. hall--an assertion which was quite unfounded--"but i didn't rightly hear it." she thought it seemed so silly not to know the man's name. cuss rapped at the parlour door and entered. there was a fairly audible imprecation from within. "pardon my intrusion," said cuss, and then the door closed and cut mrs. hall off from the rest of the conversation. she could hear the murmur of voices for the next ten minutes, then a cry of surprise, a stirring of feet, a chair flung aside, a bark of laughter, quick steps to the door, and cuss appeared, his face white, his eyes staring over his shoulder. he left the door open behind him, and without looking at her strode across the hall and went down the steps, and she heard his feet hurrying along the road. he carried his hat in his hand. she stood behind the door, looking at the open door of the parlour. then she heard the stranger laughing quietly, and then his footsteps came across the room. she could not see his face where she stood. the parlour door slammed, and the place was silent again. cuss went straight up the village to bunting the vicar. "am i mad?" cuss began abruptly, as he entered the shabby little study. "do i look like an insane person?" "what's happened?" said the vicar, putting the ammonite on the loose sheets of his forth-coming sermon. "that chap at the inn--" "well?" "give me something to drink," said cuss, and he sat down. when his nerves had been steadied by a glass of cheap sherry--the only drink the good vicar had available--he told him of the interview he had just had. "went in," he gasped, "and began to demand a subscription for that nurse fund. he'd stuck his hands in his pockets as i came in, and he sat down lumpily in his chair. sniffed. i told him i'd heard he took an interest in scientific things. he said yes. sniffed again. kept on sniffing all the time; evidently recently caught an infernal cold. no wonder, wrapped up like that! i developed the nurse idea, and all the while kept my eyes open. bottles--chemicals--everywhere. balance, test-tubes in stands, and a smell of--evening primrose. would he subscribe? said he'd consider it. asked him, point-blank, was he researching. said he was. a long research? got quite cross. 'a damnable long research,' said he, blowing the cork out, so to speak. 'oh,' said i. and out came the grievance. the man was just on the boil, and my question boiled him over. he had been given a prescription, most valuable prescription--what for he wouldn't say. was it medical? 'damn you! what are you fishing after?' i apologised. dignified sniff and cough. he resumed. he'd read it. five ingredients. put it down; turned his head. draught of air from window lifted the paper. swish, rustle. he was working in a room with an open fireplace, he said. saw a flicker, and there was the prescription burning and lifting chimneyward. rushed towards it just as it whisked up the chimney. so! just at that point, to illustrate his story, out came his arm." "well?" "no hand--just an empty sleeve. lord! i thought, _that's_ a deformity! got a cork arm, i suppose, and has taken it off. then, i thought, there's something odd in that. what the devil keeps that sleeve up and open, if there's nothing in it? there was nothing in it, i tell you. nothing down it, right down to the joint. i could see right down it to the elbow, and there was a glimmer of light shining through a tear of the cloth. 'good god!' i said. then he stopped. stared at me with those black goggles of his, and then at his sleeve." "well?" "that's all. he never said a word; just glared, and put his sleeve back in his pocket quickly. 'i was saying,' said he, 'that there was the prescription burning, wasn't i?' interrogative cough. 'how the devil,' said i, 'can you move an empty sleeve like that?' 'empty sleeve?' 'yes,' said i, 'an empty sleeve.' "'it's an empty sleeve, is it? you saw it was an empty sleeve?' he stood up right away. i stood up too. he came towards me in three very slow steps, and stood quite close. sniffed venomously. i didn't flinch, though i'm hanged if that bandaged knob of his, and those blinkers, aren't enough to unnerve any one, coming quietly up to you. "'you said it was an empty sleeve?' he said. 'certainly,' i said. at staring and saying nothing a barefaced man, unspectacled, starts scratch. then very quietly he pulled his sleeve out of his pocket again, and raised his arm towards me as though he would show it to me again. he did it very, very slowly. i looked at it. seemed an age. 'well?' said i, clearing my throat, 'there's nothing in it.' "had to say something. i was beginning to feel frightened. i could see right down it. he extended it straight towards me, slowly, slowly--just like that--until the cuff was six inches from my face. queer thing to see an empty sleeve come at you like that! and then--" "well?" "something--exactly like a finger and thumb it felt--nipped my nose." bunting began to laugh. "there wasn't anything there!" said cuss, his voice running up into a shriek at the "there." "it's all very well for you to laugh, but i tell you i was so startled, i hit his cuff hard, and turned around, and cut out of the room--i left him--" cuss stopped. there was no mistaking the sincerity of his panic. he turned round in a helpless way and took a second glass of the excellent vicar's very inferior sherry. "when i hit his cuff," said cuss, "i tell you, it felt exactly like hitting an arm. and there wasn't an arm! there wasn't the ghost of an arm!" mr. bunting thought it over. he looked suspiciously at cuss. "it's a most remarkable story," he said. he looked very wise and grave indeed. "it's really," said mr. bunting with judicial emphasis, "a most remarkable story." chapter v the burglary at the vicarage the facts of the burglary at the vicarage came to us chiefly through the medium of the vicar and his wife. it occurred in the small hours of whit monday, the day devoted in iping to the club festivities. mrs. bunting, it seems, woke up suddenly in the stillness that comes before the dawn, with the strong impression that the door of their bedroom had opened and closed. she did not arouse her husband at first, but sat up in bed listening. she then distinctly heard the pad, pad, pad of bare feet coming out of the adjoining dressing-room and walking along the passage towards the staircase. as soon as she felt assured of this, she aroused the rev. mr. bunting as quietly as possible. he did not strike a light, but putting on his spectacles, her dressing-gown and his bath slippers, he went out on the landing to listen. he heard quite distinctly a fumbling going on at his study desk down-stairs, and then a violent sneeze. at that he returned to his bedroom, armed himself with the most obvious weapon, the poker, and descended the staircase as noiselessly as possible. mrs. bunting came out on the landing. the hour was about four, and the ultimate darkness of the night was past. there was a faint shimmer of light in the hall, but the study doorway yawned impenetrably black. everything was still except the faint creaking of the stairs under mr. bunting's tread, and the slight movements in the study. then something snapped, the drawer was opened, and there was a rustle of papers. then came an imprecation, and a match was struck and the study was flooded with yellow light. mr. bunting was now in the hall, and through the crack of the door he could see the desk and the open drawer and a candle burning on the desk. but the robber he could not see. he stood there in the hall undecided what to do, and mrs. bunting, her face white and intent, crept slowly downstairs after him. one thing kept mr. bunting's courage; the persuasion that this burglar was a resident in the village. they heard the chink of money, and realised that the robber had found the housekeeping reserve of gold--two pounds ten in half sovereigns altogether. at that sound mr. bunting was nerved to abrupt action. gripping the poker firmly, he rushed into the room, closely followed by mrs. bunting. "surrender!" cried mr. bunting, fiercely, and then stooped amazed. apparently the room was perfectly empty. yet their conviction that they had, that very moment, heard somebody moving in the room had amounted to a certainty. for half a minute, perhaps, they stood gaping, then mrs. bunting went across the room and looked behind the screen, while mr. bunting, by a kindred impulse, peered under the desk. then mrs. bunting turned back the window-curtains, and mr. bunting looked up the chimney and probed it with the poker. then mrs. bunting scrutinised the waste-paper basket and mr. bunting opened the lid of the coal-scuttle. then they came to a stop and stood with eyes interrogating each other. "i could have sworn--" said mr. bunting. "the candle!" said mr. bunting. "who lit the candle?" "the drawer!" said mrs. bunting. "and the money's gone!" she went hastily to the doorway. "of all the strange occurrences--" there was a violent sneeze in the passage. they rushed out, and as they did so the kitchen door slammed. "bring the candle," said mr. bunting, and led the way. they both heard a sound of bolts being hastily shot back. as he opened the kitchen door he saw through the scullery that the back door was just opening, and the faint light of early dawn displayed the dark masses of the garden beyond. he is certain that nothing went out of the door. it opened, stood open for a moment, and then closed with a slam. as it did so, the candle mrs. bunting was carrying from the study flickered and flared. it was a minute or more before they entered the kitchen. the place was empty. they refastened the back door, examined the kitchen, pantry, and scullery thoroughly, and at last went down into the cellar. there was not a soul to be found in the house, search as they would. daylight found the vicar and his wife, a quaintly-costumed little couple, still marvelling about on their own ground floor by the unnecessary light of a guttering candle. chapter vi the furniture that went mad now it happened that in the early hours of whit monday, before millie was hunted out for the day, mr. hall and mrs. hall both rose and went noiselessly down into the cellar. their business there was of a private nature, and had something to do with the specific gravity of their beer. they had hardly entered the cellar when mrs. hall found she had forgotten to bring down a bottle of sarsaparilla from their joint-room. as she was the expert and principal operator in this affair, hall very properly went upstairs for it. on the landing he was surprised to see that the stranger's door was ajar. he went on into his own room and found the bottle as he had been directed. but returning with the bottle, he noticed that the bolts of the front door had been shot back, that the door was in fact simply on the latch. and with a flash of inspiration he connected this with the stranger's room upstairs and the suggestions of mr. teddy henfrey. he distinctly remembered holding the candle while mrs. hall shot these bolts overnight. at the sight he stopped, gaping, then with the bottle still in his hand went upstairs again. he rapped at the stranger's door. there was no answer. he rapped again; then pushed the door wide open and entered. it was as he expected. the bed, the room also, was empty. and what was stranger, even to his heavy intelligence, on the bedroom chair and along the rail of the bed were scattered the garments, the only garments so far as he knew, and the bandages of their guest. his big slouch hat even was cocked jauntily over the bed-post. as hall stood there he heard his wife's voice coming out of the depth of the cellar, with that rapid telescoping of the syllables and interrogative cocking up of the final words to a high note, by which the west sussex villager is wont to indicate a brisk impatience. "george! you gart whad a wand?" at that he turned and hurried down to her. "janny," he said, over the rail of the cellar steps, "'tas the truth what henfrey sez. 'e's not in uz room, 'e en't. and the front door's onbolted." at first mrs. hall did not understand, and as soon as she did she resolved to see the empty room for herself. hall, still holding the bottle, went first. "if 'e en't there," he said, "'is close are. and what's 'e doin' 'ithout 'is close, then? 'tas a most curious business." as they came up the cellar steps they both, it was afterwards ascertained, fancied they heard the front door open and shut, but seeing it closed and nothing there, neither said a word to the other about it at the time. mrs. hall passed her husband in the passage and ran on first upstairs. someone sneezed on the staircase. hall, following six steps behind, thought that he heard her sneeze. she, going on first, was under the impression that hall was sneezing. she flung open the door and stood regarding the room. "of all the curious!" she said. she heard a sniff close behind her head as it seemed, and turning, was surprised to see hall a dozen feet off on the topmost stair. but in another moment he was beside her. she bent forward and put her hand on the pillow and then under the clothes. "cold," she said. "he's been up this hour or more." as she did so, a most extraordinary thing happened. the bed-clothes gathered themselves together, leapt up suddenly into a sort of peak, and then jumped headlong over the bottom rail. it was exactly as if a hand had clutched them in the centre and flung them aside. immediately after, the stranger's hat hopped off the bed-post, described a whirling flight in the air through the better part of a circle, and then dashed straight at mrs. hall's face. then as swiftly came the sponge from the washstand; and then the chair, flinging the stranger's coat and trousers carelessly aside, and laughing drily in a voice singularly like the stranger's, turned itself up with its four legs at mrs. hall, seemed to take aim at her for a moment, and charged at her. she screamed and turned, and then the chair legs came gently but firmly against her back and impelled her and hall out of the room. the door slammed violently and was locked. the chair and bed seemed to be executing a dance of triumph for a moment, and then abruptly everything was still. mrs. hall was left almost in a fainting condition in mr. hall's arms on the landing. it was with the greatest difficulty that mr. hall and millie, who had been roused by her scream of alarm, succeeded in getting her downstairs, and applying the restoratives customary in such cases. "'tas sperits," said mrs. hall. "i know 'tas sperits. i've read in papers of en. tables and chairs leaping and dancing..." "take a drop more, janny," said hall. "'twill steady ye." "lock him out," said mrs. hall. "don't let him come in again. i half guessed--i might ha' known. with them goggling eyes and bandaged head, and never going to church of a sunday. and all they bottles--more'n it's right for any one to have. he's put the sperits into the furniture.... my good old furniture! 'twas in that very chair my poor dear mother used to sit when i was a little girl. to think it should rise up against me now!" "just a drop more, janny," said hall. "your nerves is all upset." they sent millie across the street through the golden five o'clock sunshine to rouse up mr. sandy wadgers, the blacksmith. mr. hall's compliments and the furniture upstairs was behaving most extraordinary. would mr. wadgers come round? he was a knowing man, was mr. wadgers, and very resourceful. he took quite a grave view of the case. "arm darmed if thet ent witchcraft," was the view of mr. sandy wadgers. "you warnt horseshoes for such gentry as he." he came round greatly concerned. they wanted him to lead the way upstairs to the room, but he didn't seem to be in any hurry. he preferred to talk in the passage. over the way huxter's apprentice came out and began taking down the shutters of the tobacco window. he was called over to join the discussion. mr. huxter naturally followed over in the course of a few minutes. the anglo-saxon genius for parliamentary government asserted itself; there was a great deal of talk and no decisive action. "let's have the facts first," insisted mr. sandy wadgers. "let's be sure we'd be acting perfectly right in bustin' that there door open. a door onbust is always open to bustin', but ye can't onbust a door once you've busted en." and suddenly and most wonderfully the door of the room upstairs opened of its own accord, and as they looked up in amazement, they saw descending the stairs the muffled figure of the stranger staring more blackly and blankly than ever with those unreasonably large blue glass eyes of his. he came down stiffly and slowly, staring all the time; he walked across the passage staring, then stopped. "look there!" he said, and their eyes followed the direction of his gloved finger and saw a bottle of sarsaparilla hard by the cellar door. then he entered the parlour, and suddenly, swiftly, viciously, slammed the door in their faces. not a word was spoken until the last echoes of the slam had died away. they stared at one another. "well, if that don't lick everything!" said mr. wadgers, and left the alternative unsaid. "i'd go in and ask'n 'bout it," said wadgers, to mr. hall. "i'd d'mand an explanation." it took some time to bring the landlady's husband up to that pitch. at last he rapped, opened the door, and got as far as, "excuse me--" "go to the devil!" said the stranger in a tremendous voice, and "shut that door after you." so that brief interview terminated. chapter vii the unveiling of the stranger the stranger went into the little parlour of the "coach and horses" about half-past five in the morning, and there he remained until near midday, the blinds down, the door shut, and none, after hall's repulse, venturing near him. all that time he must have fasted. thrice he rang his bell, the third time furiously and continuously, but no one answered him. "him and his 'go to the devil' indeed!" said mrs. hall. presently came an imperfect rumour of the burglary at the vicarage, and two and two were put together. hall, assisted by wadgers, went off to find mr. shuckleforth, the magistrate, and take his advice. no one ventured upstairs. how the stranger occupied himself is unknown. now and then he would stride violently up and down, and twice came an outburst of curses, a tearing of paper, and a violent smashing of bottles. the little group of scared but curious people increased. mrs. huxter came over; some gay young fellows resplendent in black ready-made jackets and _pique_ paper ties--for it was whit monday--joined the group with confused interrogations. young archie harker distinguished himself by going up the yard and trying to peep under the window-blinds. he could see nothing, but gave reason for supposing that he did, and others of the iping youth presently joined him. it was the finest of all possible whit mondays, and down the village street stood a row of nearly a dozen booths, a shooting gallery, and on the grass by the forge were three yellow and chocolate waggons and some picturesque strangers of both sexes putting up a cocoanut shy. the gentlemen wore blue jerseys, the ladies white aprons and quite fashionable hats with heavy plumes. wodger, of the "purple fawn," and mr. jaggers, the cobbler, who also sold old second-hand ordinary bicycles, were stretching a string of union-jacks and royal ensigns (which had originally celebrated the first victorian jubilee) across the road. and inside, in the artificial darkness of the parlour, into which only one thin jet of sunlight penetrated, the stranger, hungry we must suppose, and fearful, hidden in his uncomfortable hot wrappings, pored through his dark glasses upon his paper or chinked his dirty little bottles, and occasionally swore savagely at the boys, audible if invisible, outside the windows. in the corner by the fireplace lay the fragments of half a dozen smashed bottles, and a pungent twang of chlorine tainted the air. so much we know from what was heard at the time and from what was subsequently seen in the room. about noon he suddenly opened his parlour door and stood glaring fixedly at the three or four people in the bar. "mrs. hall," he said. somebody went sheepishly and called for mrs. hall. mrs. hall appeared after an interval, a little short of breath, but all the fiercer for that. hall was still out. she had deliberated over this scene, and she came holding a little tray with an unsettled bill upon it. "is it your bill you're wanting, sir?" she said. "why wasn't my breakfast laid? why haven't you prepared my meals and answered my bell? do you think i live without eating?" "why isn't my bill paid?" said mrs. hall. "that's what i want to know." "i told you three days ago i was awaiting a remittance--" "i told you two days ago i wasn't going to await no remittances. you can't grumble if your breakfast waits a bit, if my bill's been waiting these five days, can you?" the stranger swore briefly but vividly. "nar, nar!" from the bar. "and i'd thank you kindly, sir, if you'd keep your swearing to yourself, sir," said mrs. hall. the stranger stood looking more like an angry diving-helmet than ever. it was universally felt in the bar that mrs. hall had the better of him. his next words showed as much. "look here, my good woman--" he began. "don't 'good woman' _me_," said mrs. hall. "i've told you my remittance hasn't come." "remittance indeed!" said mrs. hall. "still, i daresay in my pocket--" "you told me three days ago that you hadn't anything but a sovereign's worth of silver upon you." "well, i've found some more--" "'ul-lo!" from the bar. "i wonder where you found it," said mrs. hall. that seemed to annoy the stranger very much. he stamped his foot. "what do you mean?" he said. "that i wonder where you found it," said mrs. hall. "and before i take any bills or get any breakfasts, or do any such things whatsoever, you got to tell me one or two things i don't understand, and what nobody don't understand, and what everybody is very anxious to understand. i want to know what you been doing t'my chair upstairs, and i want to know how 'tis your room was empty, and how you got in again. them as stops in this house comes in by the doors--that's the rule of the house, and that you _didn't_ do, and what i want to know is how you _did_ come in. and i want to know--" suddenly the stranger raised his gloved hands clenched, stamped his foot, and said, "stop!" with such extraordinary violence that he silenced her instantly. "you don't understand," he said, "who i am or what i am. i'll show you. by heaven! i'll show you." then he put his open palm over his face and withdrew it. the centre of his face became a black cavity. "here," he said. he stepped forward and handed mrs. hall something which she, staring at his metamorphosed face, accepted automatically. then, when she saw what it was, she screamed loudly, dropped it, and staggered back. the nose--it was the stranger's nose! pink and shining--rolled on the floor. then he removed his spectacles, and everyone in the bar gasped. he took off his hat, and with a violent gesture tore at his whiskers and bandages. for a moment they resisted him. a flash of horrible anticipation passed through the bar. "oh, my gard!" said some one. then off they came. it was worse than anything. mrs. hall, standing open-mouthed and horror-struck, shrieked at what she saw, and made for the door of the house. everyone began to move. they were prepared for scars, disfigurements, tangible horrors, but nothing! the bandages and false hair flew across the passage into the bar, making a hobbledehoy jump to avoid them. everyone tumbled on everyone else down the steps. for the man who stood there shouting some incoherent explanation, was a solid gesticulating figure up to the coat-collar of him, and then--nothingness, no visible thing at all! people down the village heard shouts and shrieks, and looking up the street saw the "coach and horses" violently firing out its humanity. they saw mrs. hall fall down and mr. teddy henfrey jump to avoid tumbling over her, and then they heard the frightful screams of millie, who, emerging suddenly from the kitchen at the noise of the tumult, had come upon the headless stranger from behind. these increased suddenly. forthwith everyone all down the street, the sweetstuff seller, cocoanut shy proprietor and his assistant, the swing man, little boys and girls, rustic dandies, smart wenches, smocked elders and aproned gipsies--began running towards the inn, and in a miraculously short space of time a crowd of perhaps forty people, and rapidly increasing, swayed and hooted and inquired and exclaimed and suggested, in front of mrs. hall's establishment. everyone seemed eager to talk at once, and the result was babel. a small group supported mrs. hall, who was picked up in a state of collapse. there was a conference, and the incredible evidence of a vociferous eye-witness. "o bogey!" "what's he been doin', then?" "ain't hurt the girl, 'as 'e?" "run at en with a knife, i believe." "no 'ed, i tell ye. i don't mean no manner of speaking. i mean _marn 'ithout a 'ed_!" "narnsense! 'tis some conjuring trick." "fetched off 'is wrapping, 'e did--" in its struggles to see in through the open door, the crowd formed itself into a straggling wedge, with the more adventurous apex nearest the inn. "he stood for a moment, i heerd the gal scream, and he turned. i saw her skirts whisk, and he went after her. didn't take ten seconds. back he comes with a knife in uz hand and a loaf; stood just as if he was staring. not a moment ago. went in that there door. i tell 'e, 'e ain't gart no 'ed at all. you just missed en--" there was a disturbance behind, and the speaker stopped to step aside for a little procession that was marching very resolutely towards the house; first mr. hall, very red and determined, then mr. bobby jaffers, the village constable, and then the wary mr. wadgers. they had come now armed with a warrant. people shouted conflicting information of the recent circumstances. "'ed or no 'ed," said jaffers, "i got to 'rest en, and 'rest en i _will_." mr. hall marched up the steps, marched straight to the door of the parlour and flung it open. "constable," he said, "do your duty." jaffers marched in. hall next, wadgers last. they saw in the dim light the headless figure facing them, with a gnawed crust of bread in one gloved hand and a chunk of cheese in the other. "that's him!" said hall. "what the devil's this?" came in a tone of angry expostulation from above the collar of the figure. "you're a damned rum customer, mister," said mr. jaffers. "but 'ed or no 'ed, the warrant says 'body,' and duty's duty--" "keep off!" said the figure, starting back. abruptly he whipped down the bread and cheese, and mr. hall just grasped the knife on the table in time to save it. off came the stranger's left glove and was slapped in jaffers' face. in another moment jaffers, cutting short some statement concerning a warrant, had gripped him by the handless wrist and caught his invisible throat. he got a sounding kick on the shin that made him shout, but he kept his grip. hall sent the knife sliding along the table to wadgers, who acted as goal-keeper for the offensive, so to speak, and then stepped forward as jaffers and the stranger swayed and staggered towards him, clutching and hitting in. a chair stood in the way, and went aside with a crash as they came down together. "get the feet," said jaffers between his teeth. mr. hall, endeavouring to act on instructions, received a sounding kick in the ribs that disposed of him for a moment, and mr. wadgers, seeing the decapitated stranger had rolled over and got the upper side of jaffers, retreated towards the door, knife in hand, and so collided with mr. huxter and the sidderbridge carter coming to the rescue of law and order. at the same moment down came three or four bottles from the chiffonnier and shot a web of pungency into the air of the room. "i'll surrender," cried the stranger, though he had jaffers down, and in another moment he stood up panting, a strange figure, headless and handless--for he had pulled off his right glove now as well as his left. "it's no good," he said, as if sobbing for breath. it was the strangest thing in the world to hear that voice coming as if out of empty space, but the sussex peasants are perhaps the most matter-of-fact people under the sun. jaffers got up also and produced a pair of handcuffs. then he stared. "i say!" said jaffers, brought up short by a dim realization of the incongruity of the whole business, "darn it! can't use 'em as i can see." the stranger ran his arm down his waistcoat, and as if by a miracle the buttons to which his empty sleeve pointed became undone. then he said something about his shin, and stooped down. he seemed to be fumbling with his shoes and socks. "why!" said huxter, suddenly, "that's not a man at all. it's just empty clothes. look! you can see down his collar and the linings of his clothes. i could put my arm--" he extended his hand; it seemed to meet something in mid-air, and he drew it back with a sharp exclamation. "i wish you'd keep your fingers out of my eye," said the aerial voice, in a tone of savage expostulation. "the fact is, i'm all here--head, hands, legs, and all the rest of it, but it happens i'm invisible. it's a confounded nuisance, but i am. that's no reason why i should be poked to pieces by every stupid bumpkin in iping, is it?" the suit of clothes, now all unbuttoned and hanging loosely upon its unseen supports, stood up, arms akimbo. several other of the men folks had now entered the room, so that it was closely crowded. "invisible, eh?" said huxter, ignoring the stranger's abuse. "who ever heard the likes of that?" "it's strange, perhaps, but it's not a crime. why am i assaulted by a policeman in this fashion?" "ah! that's a different matter," said jaffers. "no doubt you are a bit difficult to see in this light, but i got a warrant and it's all correct. what i'm after ain't no invisibility,--it's burglary. there's a house been broke into and money took." "well?" "and circumstances certainly point--" "stuff and nonsense!" said the invisible man. "i hope so, sir; but i've got my instructions." "well," said the stranger, "i'll come. i'll _come_. but no handcuffs." "it's the regular thing," said jaffers. "no handcuffs," stipulated the stranger. "pardon me," said jaffers. abruptly the figure sat down, and before any one could realise was was being done, the slippers, socks, and trousers had been kicked off under the table. then he sprang up again and flung off his coat. "here, stop that," said jaffers, suddenly realising what was happening. he gripped at the waistcoat; it struggled, and the shirt slipped out of it and left it limp and empty in his hand. "hold him!" said jaffers, loudly. "once he gets the things off--" "hold him!" cried everyone, and there was a rush at the fluttering white shirt which was now all that was visible of the stranger. the shirt-sleeve planted a shrewd blow in hall's face that stopped his open-armed advance, and sent him backward into old toothsome the sexton, and in another moment the garment was lifted up and became convulsed and vacantly flapping about the arms, even as a shirt that is being thrust over a man's head. jaffers clutched at it, and only helped to pull it off; he was struck in the mouth out of the air, and incontinently threw his truncheon and smote teddy henfrey savagely upon the crown of his head. "look out!" said everybody, fencing at random and hitting at nothing. "hold him! shut the door! don't let him loose! i got something! here he is!" a perfect babel of noises they made. everybody, it seemed, was being hit all at once, and sandy wadgers, knowing as ever and his wits sharpened by a frightful blow in the nose, reopened the door and led the rout. the others, following incontinently, were jammed for a moment in the corner by the doorway. the hitting continued. phipps, the unitarian, had a front tooth broken, and henfrey was injured in the cartilage of his ear. jaffers was struck under the jaw, and, turning, caught at something that intervened between him and huxter in the melee, and prevented their coming together. he felt a muscular chest, and in another moment the whole mass of struggling, excited men shot out into the crowded hall. "i got him!" shouted jaffers, choking and reeling through them all, and wrestling with purple face and swelling veins against his unseen enemy. men staggered right and left as the extraordinary conflict swayed swiftly towards the house door, and went spinning down the half-dozen steps of the inn. jaffers cried in a strangled voice--holding tight, nevertheless, and making play with his knee--spun around, and fell heavily undermost with his head on the gravel. only then did his fingers relax. there were excited cries of "hold him!" "invisible!" and so forth, and a young fellow, a stranger in the place whose name did not come to light, rushed in at once, caught something, missed his hold, and fell over the constable's prostrate body. half-way across the road a woman screamed as something pushed by her; a dog, kicked apparently, yelped and ran howling into huxter's yard, and with that the transit of the invisible man was accomplished. for a space people stood amazed and gesticulating, and then came panic, and scattered them abroad through the village as a gust scatters dead leaves. but jaffers lay quite still, face upward and knees bent, at the foot of the steps of the inn. chapter viii in transit the eighth chapter is exceedingly brief, and relates that gibbons, the amateur naturalist of the district, while lying out on the spacious open downs without a soul within a couple of miles of him, as he thought, and almost dozing, heard close to him the sound as of a man coughing, sneezing, and then swearing savagely to himself; and looking, beheld nothing. yet the voice was indisputable. it continued to swear with that breadth and variety that distinguishes the swearing of a cultivated man. it grew to a climax, diminished again, and died away in the distance, going as it seemed to him in the direction of adderdean. it lifted to a spasmodic sneeze and ended. gibbons had heard nothing of the morning's occurrences, but the phenomenon was so striking and disturbing that his philosophical tranquillity vanished; he got up hastily, and hurried down the steepness of the hill towards the village, as fast as he could go. chapter ix mr. thomas marvel you must picture mr. thomas marvel as a person of copious, flexible visage, a nose of cylindrical protrusion, a liquorish, ample, fluctuating mouth, and a beard of bristling eccentricity. his figure inclined to embonpoint; his short limbs accentuated this inclination. he wore a furry silk hat, and the frequent substitution of twine and shoe-laces for buttons, apparent at critical points of his costume, marked a man essentially bachelor. mr. thomas marvel was sitting with his feet in a ditch by the roadside over the down towards adderdean, about a mile and a half out of iping. his feet, save for socks of irregular open-work, were bare, his big toes were broad, and pricked like the ears of a watchful dog. in a leisurely manner--he did everything in a leisurely manner--he was contemplating trying on a pair of boots. they were the soundest boots he had come across for a long time, but too large for him; whereas the ones he had were, in dry weather, a very comfortable fit, but too thin-soled for damp. mr. thomas marvel hated roomy shoes, but then he hated damp. he had never properly thought out which he hated most, and it was a pleasant day, and there was nothing better to do. so he put the four shoes in a graceful group on the turf and looked at them. and seeing them there among the grass and springing agrimony, it suddenly occurred to him that both pairs were exceedingly ugly to see. he was not at all startled by a voice behind him. "they're boots, anyhow," said the voice. "they are--charity boots," said mr. thomas marvel, with his head on one side regarding them distastefully; "and which is the ugliest pair in the whole blessed universe, i'm darned if i know!" "h'm," said the voice. "i've worn worse--in fact, i've worn none. but none so owdacious ugly--if you'll allow the expression. i've been cadging boots--in particular--for days. because i was sick of _them_. they're sound enough, of course. but a gentleman on tramp sees such a thundering lot of his boots. and if you'll believe me, i've raised nothing in the whole blessed country, try as i would, but _them_. look at 'em! and a good country for boots, too, in a general way. but it's just my promiscuous luck. i've got my boots in this country ten years or more. and then they treat you like this." "it's a beast of a country," said the voice. "and pigs for people." "ain't it?" said mr. thomas marvel. "lord! but them boots! it beats it." he turned his head over his shoulder to the right, to look at the boots of his interlocutor with a view to comparisons, and lo! where the boots of his interlocutor should have been were neither legs nor boots. he was irradiated by the dawn of a great amazement. "where _are_ yer?" said mr. thomas marvel over his shoulder and coming on all fours. he saw a stretch of empty downs with the wind swaying the remote green-pointed furze bushes. "am i drunk?" said mr. marvel. "have i had visions? was i talking to myself? what the--" "don't be alarmed," said a voice. "none of your ventriloquising _me_," said mr. thomas marvel, rising sharply to his feet. "where _are_ yer? alarmed, indeed!" "don't be alarmed," repeated the voice. "_you'll_ be alarmed in a minute, you silly fool," said mr. thomas marvel. "where _are_ yer? lemme get my mark on yer... "are yer _buried_?" said mr. thomas marvel, after an interval. there was no answer. mr. thomas marvel stood bootless and amazed, his jacket nearly thrown off. "peewit," said a peewit, very remote. "peewit, indeed!" said mr. thomas marvel. "this ain't no time for foolery." the down was desolate, east and west, north and south; the road with its shallow ditches and white bordering stakes, ran smooth and empty north and south, and, save for that peewit, the blue sky was empty too. "so help me," said mr. thomas marvel, shuffling his coat on to his shoulders again. "it's the drink! i might ha' known." "it's not the drink," said the voice. "you keep your nerves steady." "ow!" said mr. marvel, and his face grew white amidst its patches. "it's the drink!" his lips repeated noiselessly. he remained staring about him, rotating slowly backwards. "i could have _swore_ i heard a voice," he whispered. "of course you did." "it's there again," said mr. marvel, closing his eyes and clasping his hand on his brow with a tragic gesture. he was suddenly taken by the collar and shaken violently, and left more dazed than ever. "don't be a fool," said the voice. "i'm--off--my--blooming--chump," said mr. marvel. "it's no good. it's fretting about them blarsted boots. i'm off my blessed blooming chump. or it's spirits." "neither one thing nor the other," said the voice. "listen!" "chump," said mr. marvel. "one minute," said the voice, penetratingly, tremulous with self-control. "well?" said mr. thomas marvel, with a strange feeling of having been dug in the chest by a finger. "you think i'm just imagination? just imagination?" "what else _can_ you be?" said mr. thomas marvel, rubbing the back of his neck. "very well," said the voice, in a tone of relief. "then i'm going to throw flints at you till you think differently." "but where _are_ yer?" the voice made no answer. whizz came a flint, apparently out of the air, and missed mr. marvel's shoulder by a hair's-breadth. mr. marvel, turning, saw a flint jerk up into the air, trace a complicated path, hang for a moment, and then fling at his feet with almost invisible rapidity. he was too amazed to dodge. whizz it came, and ricochetted from a bare toe into the ditch. mr. thomas marvel jumped a foot and howled aloud. then he started to run, tripped over an unseen obstacle, and came head over heels into a sitting position. "_now_," said the voice, as a third stone curved upward and hung in the air above the tramp. "am i imagination?" mr. marvel by way of reply struggled to his feet, and was immediately rolled over again. he lay quiet for a moment. "if you struggle any more," said the voice, "i shall throw the flint at your head." "it's a fair do," said mr. thomas marvel, sitting up, taking his wounded toe in hand and fixing his eye on the third missile. "i don't understand it. stones flinging themselves. stones talking. put yourself down. rot away. i'm done." the third flint fell. "it's very simple," said the voice. "i'm an invisible man." "tell us something i don't know," said mr. marvel, gasping with pain. "where you've hid--how you do it--i _don't_ know. i'm beat." "that's all," said the voice. "i'm invisible. that's what i want you to understand." "anyone could see that. there is no need for you to be so confounded impatient, mister. _now_ then. give us a notion. how are you hid?" "i'm invisible. that's the great point. and what i want you to understand is this--" "but whereabouts?" interrupted mr. marvel. "here! six yards in front of you." "oh, _come_! i ain't blind. you'll be telling me next you're just thin air. i'm not one of your ignorant tramps--" "yes, i am--thin air. you're looking through me." "what! ain't there any stuff to you. _vox et_--what is it?--jabber. is it that?" "i am just a human being--solid, needing food and drink, needing covering too--but i'm invisible. you see? invisible. simple idea. invisible." "what, real like?" "yes, real." "let's have a hand of you," said marvel, "if you _are_ real. it won't be so darn out-of-the-way like, then--_lord_!" he said, "how you made me jump!--gripping me like that!" he felt the hand that had closed round his wrist with his disengaged fingers, and his fingers went timorously up the arm, patted a muscular chest, and explored a bearded face. marvel's face was astonishment. "i'm dashed!" he said. "if this don't beat cock-fighting! most remarkable!--and there i can see a rabbit clean through you, 'arf a mile away! not a bit of you visible--except--" he scrutinised the apparently empty space keenly. "you 'aven't been eatin' bread and cheese?" he asked, holding the invisible arm. "you're quite right, and it's not quite assimilated into the system." "ah!" said mr. marvel. "sort of ghostly, though." "of course, all this isn't half so wonderful as you think." "it's quite wonderful enough for _my_ modest wants," said mr. thomas marvel. "howjer manage it! how the dooce is it done?" "it's too long a story. and besides--" "i tell you, the whole business fairly beats me," said mr. marvel. "what i want to say at present is this: i need help. i have come to that--i came upon you suddenly. i was wandering, mad with rage, naked, impotent. i could have murdered. and i saw you--" "_lord_!" said mr. marvel. "i came up behind you--hesitated--went on--" mr. marvel's expression was eloquent. "--then stopped. 'here,' i said, 'is an outcast like myself. this is the man for me.' so i turned back and came to you--you. and--" "_lord_!" said mr. marvel. "but i'm all in a tizzy. may i ask--how is it? and what you may be requiring in the way of help?--invisible!" "i want you to help me get clothes--and shelter--and then, with other things. i've left them long enough. if you won't--well! but you _will--must_." "look here," said mr. marvel. "i'm too flabbergasted. don't knock me about any more. and leave me go. i must get steady a bit. and you've pretty near broken my toe. it's all so unreasonable. empty downs, empty sky. nothing visible for miles except the bosom of nature. and then comes a voice. a voice out of heaven! and stones! and a fist--lord!" "pull yourself together," said the voice, "for you have to do the job i've chosen for you." mr. marvel blew out his cheeks, and his eyes were round. "i've chosen you," said the voice. "you are the only man except some of those fools down there, who knows there is such a thing as an invisible man. you have to be my helper. help me--and i will do great things for you. an invisible man is a man of power." he stopped for a moment to sneeze violently. "but if you betray me," he said, "if you fail to do as i direct you--" he paused and tapped mr. marvel's shoulder smartly. mr. marvel gave a yelp of terror at the touch. "i don't want to betray you," said mr. marvel, edging away from the direction of the fingers. "don't you go a-thinking that, whatever you do. all i want to do is to help you--just tell me what i got to do. (lord!) whatever you want done, that i'm most willing to do." chapter x mr. marvel's visit to iping after the first gusty panic had spent itself iping became argumentative. scepticism suddenly reared its head--rather nervous scepticism, not at all assured of its back, but scepticism nevertheless. it is so much easier not to believe in an invisible man; and those who had actually seen him dissolve into air, or felt the strength of his arm, could be counted on the fingers of two hands. and of these witnesses mr. wadgers was presently missing, having retired impregnably behind the bolts and bars of his own house, and jaffers was lying stunned in the parlour of the "coach and horses." great and strange ideas transcending experience often have less effect upon men and women than smaller, more tangible considerations. iping was gay with bunting, and everybody was in gala dress. whit monday had been looked forward to for a month or more. by the afternoon even those who believed in the unseen were beginning to resume their little amusements in a tentative fashion, on the supposition that he had quite gone away, and with the sceptics he was already a jest. but people, sceptics and believers alike, were remarkably sociable all that day. haysman's meadow was gay with a tent, in which mrs. bunting and other ladies were preparing tea, while, without, the sunday-school children ran races and played games under the noisy guidance of the curate and the misses cuss and sackbut. no doubt there was a slight uneasiness in the air, but people for the most part had the sense to conceal whatever imaginative qualms they experienced. on the village green an inclined strong [rope?], down which, clinging the while to a pulley-swung handle, one could be hurled violently against a sack at the other end, came in for considerable favour among the adolescents, as also did the swings and the cocoanut shies. there was also promenading, and the steam organ attached to a small roundabout filled the air with a pungent flavour of oil and with equally pungent music. members of the club, who had attended church in the morning, were splendid in badges of pink and green, and some of the gayer-minded had also adorned their bowler hats with brilliant-coloured favours of ribbon. old fletcher, whose conceptions of holiday-making were severe, was visible through the jasmine about his window or through the open door (whichever way you chose to look), poised delicately on a plank supported on two chairs, and whitewashing the ceiling of his front room. about four o'clock a stranger entered the village from the direction of the downs. he was a short, stout person in an extraordinarily shabby top hat, and he appeared to be very much out of breath. his cheeks were alternately limp and tightly puffed. his mottled face was apprehensive, and he moved with a sort of reluctant alacrity. he turned the corner of the church, and directed his way to the "coach and horses." among others old fletcher remembers seeing him, and indeed the old gentleman was so struck by his peculiar agitation that he inadvertently allowed a quantity of whitewash to run down the brush into the sleeve of his coat while regarding him. this stranger, to the perceptions of the proprietor of the cocoanut shy, appeared to be talking to himself, and mr. huxter remarked the same thing. he stopped at the foot of the "coach and horses" steps, and, according to mr. huxter, appeared to undergo a severe internal struggle before he could induce himself to enter the house. finally he marched up the steps, and was seen by mr. huxter to turn to the left and open the door of the parlour. mr. huxter heard voices from within the room and from the bar apprising the man of his error. "that room's private!" said hall, and the stranger shut the door clumsily and went into the bar. in the course of a few minutes he reappeared, wiping his lips with the back of his hand with an air of quiet satisfaction that somehow impressed mr. huxter as assumed. he stood looking about him for some moments, and then mr. huxter saw him walk in an oddly furtive manner towards the gates of the yard, upon which the parlour window opened. the stranger, after some hesitation, leant against one of the gate-posts, produced a short clay pipe, and prepared to fill it. his fingers trembled while doing so. he lit it clumsily, and folding his arms began to smoke in a languid attitude, an attitude which his occasional glances up the yard altogether belied. all this mr. huxter saw over the canisters of the tobacco window, and the singularity of the man's behaviour prompted him to maintain his observation. presently the stranger stood up abruptly and put his pipe in his pocket. then he vanished into the yard. forthwith mr. huxter, conceiving he was witness of some petty larceny, leapt round his counter and ran out into the road to intercept the thief. as he did so, mr. marvel reappeared, his hat askew, a big bundle in a blue table-cloth in one hand, and three books tied together--as it proved afterwards with the vicar's braces--in the other. directly he saw huxter he gave a sort of gasp, and turning sharply to the left, began to run. "stop, thief!" cried huxter, and set off after him. mr. huxter's sensations were vivid but brief. he saw the man just before him and spurting briskly for the church corner and the hill road. he saw the village flags and festivities beyond, and a face or so turned towards him. he bawled, "stop!" again. he had hardly gone ten strides before his shin was caught in some mysterious fashion, and he was no longer running, but flying with inconceivable rapidity through the air. he saw the ground suddenly close to his face. the world seemed to splash into a million whirling specks of light, and subsequent proceedings interested him no more. chapter xi in the "coach and horses" now in order clearly to understand what had happened in the inn, it is necessary to go back to the moment when mr. marvel first came into view of mr. huxter's window. at that precise moment mr. cuss and mr. bunting were in the parlour. they were seriously investigating the strange occurrences of the morning, and were, with mr. hall's permission, making a thorough examination of the invisible man's belongings. jaffers had partially recovered from his fall and had gone home in the charge of his sympathetic friends. the stranger's scattered garments had been removed by mrs. hall and the room tidied up. and on the table under the window where the stranger had been wont to work, cuss had hit almost at once on three big books in manuscript labelled "diary." "diary!" said cuss, putting the three books on the table. "now, at any rate, we shall learn something." the vicar stood with his hands on the table. "diary," repeated cuss, sitting down, putting two volumes to support the third, and opening it. "h'm--no name on the fly-leaf. bother!--cypher. and figures." the vicar came round to look over his shoulder. cuss turned the pages over with a face suddenly disappointed. "i'm--dear me! it's all cypher, bunting." "there are no diagrams?" asked mr. bunting. "no illustrations throwing light--" "see for yourself," said mr. cuss. "some of it's mathematical and some of it's russian or some such language (to judge by the letters), and some of it's greek. now the greek i thought _you_--" "of course," said mr. bunting, taking out and wiping his spectacles and feeling suddenly very uncomfortable--for he had no greek left in his mind worth talking about; "yes--the greek, of course, may furnish a clue." "i'll find you a place." "i'd rather glance through the volumes first," said mr. bunting, still wiping. "a general impression first, cuss, and _then_, you know, we can go looking for clues." he coughed, put on his glasses, arranged them fastidiously, coughed again, and wished something would happen to avert the seemingly inevitable exposure. then he took the volume cuss handed him in a leisurely manner. and then something did happen. the door opened suddenly. both gentlemen started violently, looked round, and were relieved to see a sporadically rosy face beneath a furry silk hat. "tap?" asked the face, and stood staring. "no," said both gentlemen at once. "over the other side, my man," said mr. bunting. and "please shut that door," said mr. cuss, irritably. "all right," said the intruder, as it seemed in a low voice curiously different from the huskiness of its first inquiry. "right you are," said the intruder in the former voice. "stand clear!" and he vanished and closed the door. "a sailor, i should judge," said mr. bunting. "amusing fellows, they are. stand clear! indeed. a nautical term, referring to his getting back out of the room, i suppose." "i daresay so," said cuss. "my nerves are all loose to-day. it quite made me jump--the door opening like that." mr. bunting smiled as if he had not jumped. "and now," he said with a sigh, "these books." someone sniffed as he did so. "one thing is indisputable," said bunting, drawing up a chair next to that of cuss. "there certainly have been very strange things happen in iping during the last few days--very strange. i cannot of course believe in this absurd invisibility story--" "it's incredible," said cuss--"incredible. but the fact remains that i saw--i certainly saw right down his sleeve--" "but did you--are you sure? suppose a mirror, for instance-- hallucinations are so easily produced. i don't know if you have ever seen a really good conjuror--" "i won't argue again," said cuss. "we've thrashed that out, bunting. and just now there's these books--ah! here's some of what i take to be greek! greek letters certainly." he pointed to the middle of the page. mr. bunting flushed slightly and brought his face nearer, apparently finding some difficulty with his glasses. suddenly he became aware of a strange feeling at the nape of his neck. he tried to raise his head, and encountered an immovable resistance. the feeling was a curious pressure, the grip of a heavy, firm hand, and it bore his chin irresistibly to the table. "don't move, little men," whispered a voice, "or i'll brain you both!" he looked into the face of cuss, close to his own, and each saw a horrified reflection of his own sickly astonishment. "i'm sorry to handle you so roughly," said the voice, "but it's unavoidable." "since when did you learn to pry into an investigator's private memoranda," said the voice; and two chins struck the table simultaneously, and two sets of teeth rattled. "since when did you learn to invade the private rooms of a man in misfortune?" and the concussion was repeated. "where have they put my clothes?" "listen," said the voice. "the windows are fastened and i've taken the key out of the door. i am a fairly strong man, and i have the poker handy--besides being invisible. there's not the slightest doubt that i could kill you both and get away quite easily if i wanted to--do you understand? very well. if i let you go will you promise not to try any nonsense and do what i tell you?" the vicar and the doctor looked at one another, and the doctor pulled a face. "yes," said mr. bunting, and the doctor repeated it. then the pressure on the necks relaxed, and the doctor and the vicar sat up, both very red in the face and wriggling their heads. "please keep sitting where you are," said the invisible man. "here's the poker, you see." "when i came into this room," continued the invisible man, after presenting the poker to the tip of the nose of each of his visitors, "i did not expect to find it occupied, and i expected to find, in addition to my books of memoranda, an outfit of clothing. where is it? no--don't rise. i can see it's gone. now, just at present, though the days are quite warm enough for an invisible man to run about stark, the evenings are quite chilly. i want clothing--and other accommodation; and i must also have those three books." chapter xii the invisible man loses his temper it is unavoidable that at this point the narrative should break off again, for a certain very painful reason that will presently be apparent. while these things were going on in the parlour, and while mr. huxter was watching mr. marvel smoking his pipe against the gate, not a dozen yards away were mr. hall and teddy henfrey discussing in a state of cloudy puzzlement the one iping topic. suddenly there came a violent thud against the door of the parlour, a sharp cry, and then--silence. "hul-lo!" said teddy henfrey. "hul-lo!" from the tap. mr. hall took things in slowly but surely. "that ain't right," he said, and came round from behind the bar towards the parlour door. he and teddy approached the door together, with intent faces. their eyes considered. "summat wrong," said hall, and henfrey nodded agreement. whiffs of an unpleasant chemical odour met them, and there was a muffled sound of conversation, very rapid and subdued. "you all right thur?" asked hall, rapping. the muttered conversation ceased abruptly, for a moment silence, then the conversation was resumed, in hissing whispers, then a sharp cry of "no! no, you don't!" there came a sudden motion and the oversetting of a chair, a brief struggle. silence again. "what the dooce?" exclaimed henfrey, _sotto voce_. "you--all--right thur?" asked mr. hall, sharply, again. the vicar's voice answered with a curious jerking intonation: "quite ri-right. please don't--interrupt." "odd!" said mr. henfrey. "odd!" said mr. hall. "says, 'don't interrupt,'" said henfrey. "i heerd'n," said hall. "and a sniff," said henfrey. they remained listening. the conversation was rapid and subdued. "i _can't_," said mr. bunting, his voice rising; "i tell you, sir, i _will_ not." "what was that?" asked henfrey. "says he wi' nart," said hall. "warn't speaking to us, wuz he?" "disgraceful!" said mr. bunting, within. "'disgraceful,'" said mr. henfrey. "i heard it--distinct." "who's that speaking now?" asked henfrey. "mr. cuss, i s'pose," said hall. "can you hear--anything?" silence. the sounds within indistinct and perplexing. "sounds like throwing the table-cloth about," said hall. mrs. hall appeared behind the bar. hall made gestures of silence and invitation. this aroused mrs. hall's wifely opposition. "what yer listenin' there for, hall?" she asked. "ain't you nothin' better to do--busy day like this?" hall tried to convey everything by grimaces and dumb show, but mrs. hall was obdurate. she raised her voice. so hall and henfrey, rather crestfallen, tiptoed back to the bar, gesticulating to explain to her. at first she refused to see anything in what they had heard at all. then she insisted on hall keeping silence, while henfrey told her his story. she was inclined to think the whole business nonsense--perhaps they were just moving the furniture about. "i heerd'n say 'disgraceful'; _that_ i did," said hall. "_i_ heerd that, mrs. hall," said henfrey. "like as not--" began mrs. hall. "hsh!" said mr. teddy henfrey. "didn't i hear the window?" "what window?" asked mrs. hall. "parlour window," said henfrey. everyone stood listening intently. mrs. hall's eyes, directed straight before her, saw without seeing the brilliant oblong of the inn door, the road white and vivid, and huxter's shop-front blistering in the june sun. abruptly huxter's door opened and huxter appeared, eyes staring with excitement, arms gesticulating. "yap!" cried huxter. "stop thief!" and he ran obliquely across the oblong towards the yard gates, and vanished. simultaneously came a tumult from the parlour, and a sound of windows being closed. hall, henfrey, and the human contents of the tap rushed out at once pell-mell into the street. they saw someone whisk round the corner towards the road, and mr. huxter executing a complicated leap in the air that ended on his face and shoulder. down the street people were standing astonished or running towards them. mr. huxter was stunned. henfrey stopped to discover this, but hall and the two labourers from the tap rushed at once to the corner, shouting incoherent things, and saw mr. marvel vanishing by the corner of the church wall. they appear to have jumped to the impossible conclusion that this was the invisible man suddenly become visible, and set off at once along the lane in pursuit. but hall had hardly run a dozen yards before he gave a loud shout of astonishment and went flying headlong sideways, clutching one of the labourers and bringing him to the ground. he had been charged just as one charges a man at football. the second labourer came round in a circle, stared, and conceiving that hall had tumbled over of his own accord, turned to resume the pursuit, only to be tripped by the ankle just as huxter had been. then, as the first labourer struggled to his feet, he was kicked sideways by a blow that might have felled an ox. as he went down, the rush from the direction of the village green came round the corner. the first to appear was the proprietor of the cocoanut shy, a burly man in a blue jersey. he was astonished to see the lane empty save for three men sprawling absurdly on the ground. and then something happened to his rear-most foot, and he went headlong and rolled sideways just in time to graze the feet of his brother and partner, following headlong. the two were then kicked, knelt on, fallen over, and cursed by quite a number of over-hasty people. now when hall and henfrey and the labourers ran out of the house, mrs. hall, who had been disciplined by years of experience, remained in the bar next the till. and suddenly the parlour door was opened, and mr. cuss appeared, and without glancing at her rushed at once down the steps toward the corner. "hold him!" he cried. "don't let him drop that parcel." he knew nothing of the existence of marvel. for the invisible man had handed over the books and bundle in the yard. the face of mr. cuss was angry and resolute, but his costume was defective, a sort of limp white kilt that could only have passed muster in greece. "hold him!" he bawled. "he's got my trousers! and every stitch of the vicar's clothes!" "'tend to him in a minute!" he cried to henfrey as he passed the prostrate huxter, and, coming round the corner to join the tumult, was promptly knocked off his feet into an indecorous sprawl. somebody in full flight trod heavily on his finger. he yelled, struggled to regain his feet, was knocked against and thrown on all fours again, and became aware that he was involved not in a capture, but a rout. everyone was running back to the village. he rose again and was hit severely behind the ear. he staggered and set off back to the "coach and horses" forthwith, leaping over the deserted huxter, who was now sitting up, on his way. behind him as he was halfway up the inn steps he heard a sudden yell of rage, rising sharply out of the confusion of cries, and a sounding smack in someone's face. he recognised the voice as that of the invisible man, and the note was that of a man suddenly infuriated by a painful blow. in another moment mr. cuss was back in the parlour. "he's coming back, bunting!" he said, rushing in. "save yourself!" mr. bunting was standing in the window engaged in an attempt to clothe himself in the hearth-rug and a _west surrey gazette_. "who's coming?" he said, so startled that his costume narrowly escaped disintegration. "invisible man," said cuss, and rushed on to the window. "we'd better clear out from here! he's fighting mad! mad!" in another moment he was out in the yard. "good heavens!" said mr. bunting, hesitating between two horrible alternatives. he heard a frightful struggle in the passage of the inn, and his decision was made. he clambered out of the window, adjusted his costume hastily, and fled up the village as fast as his fat little legs would carry him. from the moment when the invisible man screamed with rage and mr. bunting made his memorable flight up the village, it became impossible to give a consecutive account of affairs in iping. possibly the invisible man's original intention was simply to cover marvel's retreat with the clothes and books. but his temper, at no time very good, seems to have gone completely at some chance blow, and forthwith he set to smiting and overthrowing, for the mere satisfaction of hurting. you must figure the street full of running figures, of doors slamming and fights for hiding-places. you must figure the tumult suddenly striking on the unstable equilibrium of old fletcher's planks and two chairs--with cataclysmic results. you must figure an appalled couple caught dismally in a swing. and then the whole tumultuous rush has passed and the iping street with its gauds and flags is deserted save for the still raging unseen, and littered with cocoanuts, overthrown canvas screens, and the scattered stock in trade of a sweetstuff stall. everywhere there is a sound of closing shutters and shoving bolts, and the only visible humanity is an occasional flitting eye under a raised eyebrow in the corner of a window pane. the invisible man amused himself for a little while by breaking all the windows in the "coach and horses," and then he thrust a street lamp through the parlour window of mrs. gribble. he it must have been who cut the telegraph wire to adderdean just beyond higgins' cottage on the adderdean road. and after that, as his peculiar qualities allowed, he passed out of human perceptions altogether, and he was neither heard, seen, nor felt in iping any more. he vanished absolutely. but it was the best part of two hours before any human being ventured out again into the desolation of iping street. chapter xiii mr. marvel discusses his resignation when the dusk was gathering and iping was just beginning to peep timorously forth again upon the shattered wreckage of its bank holiday, a short, thick-set man in a shabby silk hat was marching painfully through the twilight behind the beechwoods on the road to bramblehurst. he carried three books bound together by some sort of ornamental elastic ligature, and a bundle wrapped in a blue table-cloth. his rubicund face expressed consternation and fatigue; he appeared to be in a spasmodic sort of hurry. he was accompanied by a voice other than his own, and ever and again he winced under the touch of unseen hands. "if you give me the slip again," said the voice, "if you attempt to give me the slip again--" "lord!" said mr. marvel. "that shoulder's a mass of bruises as it is." "on my honour," said the voice, "i will kill you." "i didn't try to give you the slip," said marvel, in a voice that was not far remote from tears. "i swear i didn't. i didn't know the blessed turning, that was all! how the devil was i to know the blessed turning? as it is, i've been knocked about--" "you'll get knocked about a great deal more if you don't mind," said the voice, and mr. marvel abruptly became silent. he blew out his cheeks, and his eyes were eloquent of despair. "it's bad enough to let these floundering yokels explode my little secret, without _your_ cutting off with my books. it's lucky for some of them they cut and ran when they did! here am i ... no one knew i was invisible! and now what am i to do?" "what am _i_ to do?" asked marvel, _sotto voce_. "it's all about. it will be in the papers! everybody will be looking for me; everyone on their guard--" the voice broke off into vivid curses and ceased. the despair of mr. marvel's face deepened, and his pace slackened. "go on!" said the voice. mr. marvel's face assumed a greyish tint between the ruddier patches. "don't drop those books, stupid," said the voice, sharply--overtaking him. "the fact is," said the voice, "i shall have to make use of you.... you're a poor tool, but i must." "i'm a _miserable_ tool," said marvel. "you are," said the voice. "i'm the worst possible tool you could have," said marvel. "i'm not strong," he said after a discouraging silence. "i'm not over strong," he repeated. "no?" "and my heart's weak. that little business--i pulled it through, of course--but bless you! i could have dropped." "well?" "i haven't the nerve and strength for the sort of thing you want." "_i'll_ stimulate you." "i wish you wouldn't. i wouldn't like to mess up your plans, you know. but i might--out of sheer funk and misery." "you'd better not," said the voice, with quiet emphasis. "i wish i was dead," said marvel. "it ain't justice," he said; "you must admit.... it seems to me i've a perfect right--" "_get_ on!" said the voice. mr. marvel mended his pace, and for a time they went in silence again. "it's devilish hard," said mr. marvel. this was quite ineffectual. he tried another tack. "what do i make by it?" he began again in a tone of unendurable wrong. "oh! _shut up_!" said the voice, with sudden amazing vigour. "i'll see to you all right. you do what you're told. you'll do it all right. you're a fool and all that, but you'll do--" "i tell you, sir, i'm not the man for it. respectfully--but it _is_ so--" "if you don't shut up i shall twist your wrist again," said the invisible man. "i want to think." presently two oblongs of yellow light appeared through the trees, and the square tower of a church loomed through the gloaming. "i shall keep my hand on your shoulder," said the voice, "all through the village. go straight through and try no foolery. it will be the worse for you if you do." "i know that," sighed mr. marvel, "i know all that." the unhappy-looking figure in the obsolete silk hat passed up the street of the little village with his burdens, and vanished into the gathering darkness beyond the lights of the windows. chapter xiv at port stowe ten o'clock the next morning found mr. marvel, unshaven, dirty, and travel-stained, sitting with the books beside him and his hands deep in his pockets, looking very weary, nervous, and uncomfortable, and inflating his cheeks at infrequent intervals, on the bench outside a little inn on the outskirts of port stowe. beside him were the books, but now they were tied with string. the bundle had been abandoned in the pine-woods beyond bramblehurst, in accordance with a change in the plans of the invisible man. mr. marvel sat on the bench, and although no one took the slightest notice of him, his agitation remained at fever heat. his hands would go ever and again to his various pockets with a curious nervous fumbling. when he had been sitting for the best part of an hour, however, an elderly mariner, carrying a newspaper, came out of the inn and sat down beside him. "pleasant day," said the mariner. mr. marvel glanced about him with something very like terror. "very," he said. "just seasonable weather for the time of year," said the mariner, taking no denial. "quite," said mr. marvel. the mariner produced a toothpick, and (saving his regard) was engrossed thereby for some minutes. his eyes meanwhile were at liberty to examine mr. marvel's dusty figure, and the books beside him. as he had approached mr. marvel he had heard a sound like the dropping of coins into a pocket. he was struck by the contrast of mr. marvel's appearance with this suggestion of opulence. thence his mind wandered back again to a topic that had taken a curiously firm hold of his imagination. "books?" he said suddenly, noisily finishing with the toothpick. mr. marvel started and looked at them. "oh, yes," he said. "yes, they're books." "there's some extra-ordinary things in books," said the mariner. "i believe you," said mr. marvel. "and some extra-ordinary things out of 'em," said the mariner. "true likewise," said mr. marvel. he eyed his interlocutor, and then glanced about him. "there's some extra-ordinary things in newspapers, for example," said the mariner. "there are." "in _this_ newspaper," said the mariner. "ah!" said mr. marvel. "there's a story," said the mariner, fixing mr. marvel with an eye that was firm and deliberate; "there's a story about an invisible man, for instance." mr. marvel pulled his mouth askew and scratched his cheek and felt his ears glowing. "what will they be writing next?" he asked faintly. "ostria, or america?" "neither," said the mariner. "_here_." "lord!" said mr. marvel, starting. "when i say _here_," said the mariner, to mr. marvel's intense relief, "i don't of course mean here in this place, i mean hereabouts." "an invisible man!" said mr. marvel. "and what's _he_ been up to?" "everything," said the mariner, controlling marvel with his eye, and then amplifying, "every--blessed--thing." "i ain't seen a paper these four days," said marvel. "iping's the place he started at," said the mariner. "in-_deed_!" said mr. marvel. "he started there. and where he came from, nobody don't seem to know. here it is: 'pe-culiar story from iping.' and it says in this paper that the evidence is extra-ordinary strong--extra-ordinary." "lord!" said mr. marvel. "but then, it's an extra-ordinary story. there is a clergyman and a medical gent witnesses--saw 'im all right and proper--or leastways didn't see 'im. he was staying, it says, at the 'coach an' horses,' and no one don't seem to have been aware of his misfortune, it says, aware of his misfortune, until in an altercation in the inn, it says, his bandages on his head was torn off. it was then ob-served that his head was invisible. attempts were at once made to secure him, but casting off his garments, it says, he succeeded in escaping, but not until after a desperate struggle, in which he had inflicted serious injuries, it says, on our worthy and able constable, mr. j. a. jaffers. pretty straight story, eh? names and everything." "lord!" said mr. marvel, looking nervously about him, trying to count the money in his pockets by his unaided sense of touch, and full of a strange and novel idea. "it sounds most astonishing." "don't it? extra-ordinary, _i_ call it. never heard tell of invisible men before, i haven't, but nowadays one hears such a lot of extra-ordinary things--that--" "that all he did?" asked marvel, trying to seem at his ease. "it's enough, ain't it?" said the mariner. "didn't go back by any chance?" asked marvel. "just escaped and that's all, eh?" "all!" said the mariner. "why!--ain't it enough?" "quite enough," said marvel. "i should think it was enough," said the mariner. "i should think it was enough." "he didn't have any pals--it don't say he had any pals, does it?" asked mr. marvel, anxious. "ain't one of a sort enough for you?" asked the mariner. "no, thank heaven, as one might say, he didn't." he nodded his head slowly. "it makes me regular uncomfortable, the bare thought of that chap running about the country! he is at present at large, and from certain evidence it is supposed that he has--taken--_took_, i suppose they mean--the road to port stowe. you see we're right _in_ it! none of your american wonders, this time. and just think of the things he might do! where'd you be, if he took a drop over and above, and had a fancy to go for you? suppose he wants to rob--who can prevent him? he can trespass, he can burgle, he could walk through a cordon of policemen as easy as me or you could give the slip to a blind man! easier! for these here blind chaps hear uncommon sharp, i'm told. and wherever there was liquor he fancied--" "he's got a tremenjous advantage, certainly," said mr. marvel. "and--well..." "you're right," said the mariner. "he _has_." all this time mr. marvel had been glancing about him intently, listening for faint footfalls, trying to detect imperceptible movements. he seemed on the point of some great resolution. he coughed behind his hand. he looked about him again, listened, bent towards the mariner, and lowered his voice: "the fact of it is--i happen--to know just a thing or two about this invisible man. from private sources." "oh!" said the mariner, interested. "_you_?" "yes," said mr. marvel. "me." "indeed!" said the mariner. "and may i ask--" "you'll be astonished," said mr. marvel behind his hand. "it's tremenjous." "indeed!" said the mariner. "the fact is," began mr. marvel eagerly in a confidential undertone. suddenly his expression changed marvellously. "ow!" he said. he rose stiffly in his seat. his face was eloquent of physical suffering. "wow!" he said. "what's up?" said the mariner, concerned. "toothache," said mr. marvel, and put his hand to his ear. he caught hold of his books. "i must be getting on, i think," he said. he edged in a curious way along the seat away from his interlocutor. "but you was just a-going to tell me about this here invisible man!" protested the mariner. mr. marvel seemed to consult with himself. "hoax," said a voice. "it's a hoax," said mr. marvel. "but it's in the paper," said the mariner. "hoax all the same," said marvel. "i know the chap that started the lie. there ain't no invisible man whatsoever--blimey." "but how 'bout this paper? d'you mean to say--?" "not a word of it," said marvel, stoutly. the mariner stared, paper in hand. mr. marvel jerkily faced about. "wait a bit," said the mariner, rising and speaking slowly, "d'you mean to say--?" "i do," said mr. marvel. "then why did you let me go on and tell you all this blarsted stuff, then? what d'yer mean by letting a man make a fool of himself like that for? eh?" mr. marvel blew out his cheeks. the mariner was suddenly very red indeed; he clenched his hands. "i been talking here this ten minutes," he said; "and you, you little pot-bellied, leathery-faced son of an old boot, couldn't have the elementary manners--" "don't you come bandying words with _me_," said mr. marvel. "bandying words! i'm a jolly good mind--" "come up," said a voice, and mr. marvel was suddenly whirled about and started marching off in a curious spasmodic manner. "you'd better move on," said the mariner. "who's moving on?" said mr. marvel. he was receding obliquely with a curious hurrying gait, with occasional violent jerks forward. some way along the road he began a muttered monologue, protests and recriminations. "silly devil!" said the mariner, legs wide apart, elbows akimbo, watching the receding figure. "i'll show you, you silly ass--hoaxing _me_! it's here--on the paper!" mr. marvel retorted incoherently and, receding, was hidden by a bend in the road, but the mariner still stood magnificent in the midst of the way, until the approach of a butcher's cart dislodged him. then he turned himself towards port stowe. "full of extra-ordinary asses," he said softly to himself. "just to take me down a bit--that was his silly game--it's on the paper!" and there was another extraordinary thing he was presently to hear, that had happened quite close to him. and that was a vision of a "fist full of money" (no less) travelling without visible agency, along by the wall at the corner of st. michael's lane. a brother mariner had seen this wonderful sight that very morning. he had snatched at the money forthwith and had been knocked headlong, and when he had got to his feet the butterfly money had vanished. our mariner was in the mood to believe anything, he declared, but that was a bit _too_ stiff. afterwards, however, he began to think things over. the story of the flying money was true. and all about that neighbourhood, even from the august london and country banking company, from the tills of shops and inns--doors standing that sunny weather entirely open--money had been quietly and dexterously making off that day in handfuls and rouleaux, floating quietly along by walls and shady places, dodging quickly from the approaching eyes of men. and it had, though no man had traced it, invariably ended its mysterious flight in the pocket of that agitated gentleman in the obsolete silk hat, sitting outside the little inn on the outskirts of port stowe. it was ten days after--and indeed only when the burdock story was already old--that the mariner collated these facts and began to understand how near he had been to the wonderful invisible man. chapter xv the man who was running in the early evening time dr. kemp was sitting in his study in the belvedere on the hill overlooking burdock. it was a pleasant little room, with three windows--north, west, and south--and bookshelves covered with books and scientific publications, and a broad writing-table, and, under the north window, a microscope, glass slips, minute instruments, some cultures, and scattered bottles of reagents. dr. kemp's solar lamp was lit, albeit the sky was still bright with the sunset light, and his blinds were up because there was no offence of peering outsiders to require them pulled down. dr. kemp was a tall and slender young man, with flaxen hair and a moustache almost white, and the work he was upon would earn him, he hoped, the fellowship of the royal society, so highly did he think of it. and his eye, presently wandering from his work, caught the sunset blazing at the back of the hill that is over against his own. for a minute perhaps he sat, pen in mouth, admiring the rich golden colour above the crest, and then his attention was attracted by the little figure of a man, inky black, running over the hill-brow towards him. he was a shortish little man, and he wore a high hat, and he was running so fast that his legs verily twinkled. "another of those fools," said dr. kemp. "like that ass who ran into me this morning round a corner, with the ''visible man a-coming, sir!' i can't imagine what possesses people. one might think we were in the thirteenth century." he got up, went to the window, and stared at the dusky hillside, and the dark little figure tearing down it. "he seems in a confounded hurry," said dr. kemp, "but he doesn't seem to be getting on. if his pockets were full of lead, he couldn't run heavier." "spurted, sir," said dr. kemp. in another moment the higher of the villas that had clambered up the hill from burdock had occulted the running figure. he was visible again for a moment, and again, and then again, three times between the three detached houses that came next, and then the terrace hid him. "asses!" said dr. kemp, swinging round on his heel and walking back to his writing-table. but those who saw the fugitive nearer, and perceived the abject terror on his perspiring face, being themselves in the open roadway, did not share in the doctor's contempt. by the man pounded, and as he ran he chinked like a well-filled purse that is tossed to and fro. he looked neither to the right nor the left, but his dilated eyes stared straight downhill to where the lamps were being lit, and the people were crowded in the street. and his ill-shaped mouth fell apart, and a glairy foam lay on his lips, and his breath came hoarse and noisy. all he passed stopped and began staring up the road and down, and interrogating one another with an inkling of discomfort for the reason of his haste. and then presently, far up the hill, a dog playing in the road yelped and ran under a gate, and as they still wondered something--a wind--a pad, pad, pad,--a sound like a panting breathing, rushed by. people screamed. people sprang off the pavement: it passed in shouts, it passed by instinct down the hill. they were shouting in the street before marvel was halfway there. they were bolting into houses and slamming the doors behind them, with the news. he heard it and made one last desperate spurt. fear came striding by, rushed ahead of him, and in a moment had seized the town. "the invisible man is coming! the invisible man!" chapter xvi in the "jolly cricketers" the "jolly cricketers" is just at the bottom of the hill, where the tram-lines begin. the barman leant his fat red arms on the counter and talked of horses with an anaemic cabman, while a black-bearded man in grey snapped up biscuit and cheese, drank burton, and conversed in american with a policeman off duty. "what's the shouting about!" said the anaemic cabman, going off at a tangent, trying to see up the hill over the dirty yellow blind in the low window of the inn. somebody ran by outside. "fire, perhaps," said the barman. footsteps approached, running heavily, the door was pushed open violently, and marvel, weeping and dishevelled, his hat gone, the neck of his coat torn open, rushed in, made a convulsive turn, and attempted to shut the door. it was held half open by a strap. "coming!" he bawled, his voice shrieking with terror. "he's coming. the 'visible man! after me! for gawd's sake! 'elp! 'elp! 'elp!" "shut the doors," said the policeman. "who's coming? what's the row?" he went to the door, released the strap, and it slammed. the american closed the other door. "lemme go inside," said marvel, staggering and weeping, but still clutching the books. "lemme go inside. lock me in--somewhere. i tell you he's after me. i give him the slip. he said he'd kill me and he will." "_you're_ safe," said the man with the black beard. "the door's shut. what's it all about?" "lemme go inside," said marvel, and shrieked aloud as a blow suddenly made the fastened door shiver and was followed by a hurried rapping and a shouting outside. "hullo," cried the policeman, "who's there?" mr. marvel began to make frantic dives at panels that looked like doors. "he'll kill me--he's got a knife or something. for gawd's sake--!" "here you are," said the barman. "come in here." and he held up the flap of the bar. mr. marvel rushed behind the bar as the summons outside was repeated. "don't open the door," he screamed. "_please_ don't open the door. _where_ shall i hide?" "this, this invisible man, then?" asked the man with the black beard, with one hand behind him. "i guess it's about time we saw him." the window of the inn was suddenly smashed in, and there was a screaming and running to and fro in the street. the policeman had been standing on the settee staring out, craning to see who was at the door. he got down with raised eyebrows. "it's that," he said. the barman stood in front of the bar-parlour door which was now locked on mr. marvel, stared at the smashed window, and came round to the two other men. everything was suddenly quiet. "i wish i had my truncheon," said the policeman, going irresolutely to the door. "once we open, in he comes. there's no stopping him." "don't you be in too much hurry about that door," said the anaemic cabman, anxiously. "draw the bolts," said the man with the black beard, "and if he comes--" he showed a revolver in his hand. "that won't do," said the policeman; "that's murder." "i know what country i'm in," said the man with the beard. "i'm going to let off at his legs. draw the bolts." "not with that blinking thing going off behind me," said the barman, craning over the blind. "very well," said the man with the black beard, and stooping down, revolver ready, drew them himself. barman, cabman, and policeman faced about. "come in," said the bearded man in an undertone, standing back and facing the unbolted doors with his pistol behind him. no one came in, the door remained closed. five minutes afterwards when a second cabman pushed his head in cautiously, they were still waiting, and an anxious face peered out of the bar-parlour and supplied information. "are all the doors of the house shut?" asked marvel. "he's going round--prowling round. he's as artful as the devil." "good lord!" said the burly barman. "there's the back! just watch them doors! i say--!" he looked about him helplessly. the bar-parlour door slammed and they heard the key turn. "there's the yard door and the private door. the yard door--" he rushed out of the bar. in a minute he reappeared with a carving-knife in his hand. "the yard door was open!" he said, and his fat underlip dropped. "he may be in the house now!" said the first cabman. "he's not in the kitchen," said the barman. "there's two women there, and i've stabbed every inch of it with this little beef slicer. and they don't think he's come in. they haven't noticed--" "have you fastened it?" asked the first cabman. "i'm out of frocks," said the barman. the man with the beard replaced his revolver. and even as he did so the flap of the bar was shut down and the bolt clicked, and then with a tremendous thud the catch of the door snapped and the bar-parlour door burst open. they heard marvel squeal like a caught leveret, and forthwith they were clambering over the bar to his rescue. the bearded man's revolver cracked and the looking-glass at the back of the parlour starred and came smashing and tinkling down. as the barman entered the room he saw marvel, curiously crumpled up and struggling against the door that led to the yard and kitchen. the door flew open while the barman hesitated, and marvel was dragged into the kitchen. there was a scream and a clatter of pans. marvel, head down, and lugging back obstinately, was forced to the kitchen door, and the bolts were drawn. then the policeman, who had been trying to pass the barman, rushed in, followed by one of the cabmen, gripped the wrist of the invisible hand that collared marvel, was hit in the face and went reeling back. the door opened, and marvel made a frantic effort to obtain a lodgment behind it. then the cabman collared something. "i got him," said the cabman. the barman's red hands came clawing at the unseen. "here he is!" said the barman. mr. marvel, released, suddenly dropped to the ground and made an attempt to crawl behind the legs of the fighting men. the struggle blundered round the edge of the door. the voice of the invisible man was heard for the first time, yelling out sharply, as the policeman trod on his foot. then he cried out passionately and his fists flew round like flails. the cabman suddenly whooped and doubled up, kicked under the diaphragm. the door into the bar-parlour from the kitchen slammed and covered mr. marvel's retreat. the men in the kitchen found themselves clutching at and struggling with empty air. "where's he gone?" cried the man with the beard. "out?" "this way," said the policeman, stepping into the yard and stopping. a piece of tile whizzed by his head and smashed among the crockery on the kitchen table. "i'll show him," shouted the man with the black beard, and suddenly a steel barrel shone over the policeman's shoulder, and five bullets had followed one another into the twilight whence the missile had come. as he fired, the man with the beard moved his hand in a horizontal curve, so that his shots radiated out into the narrow yard like spokes from a wheel. a silence followed. "five cartridges," said the man with the black beard. "that's the best of all. four aces and a joker. get a lantern, someone, and come and feel about for his body." chapter xvii dr. kemp's visitor dr. kemp had continued writing in his study until the shots aroused him. crack, crack, crack, they came one after the other. "hullo!" said dr. kemp, putting his pen into his mouth again and listening. "who's letting off revolvers in burdock? what are the asses at now?" he went to the south window, threw it up, and leaning out stared down on the network of windows, beaded gas-lamps and shops, with its black interstices of roof and yard that made up the town at night. "looks like a crowd down the hill," he said, "by 'the cricketers,'" and remained watching. thence his eyes wandered over the town to far away where the ships' lights shone, and the pier glowed--a little illuminated, facetted pavilion like a gem of yellow light. the moon in its first quarter hung over the westward hill, and the stars were clear and almost tropically bright. after five minutes, during which his mind had travelled into a remote speculation of social conditions of the future, and lost itself at last over the time dimension, dr. kemp roused himself with a sigh, pulled down the window again, and returned to his writing desk. it must have been about an hour after this that the front-door bell rang. he had been writing slackly, and with intervals of abstraction, since the shots. he sat listening. he heard the servant answer the door, and waited for her feet on the staircase, but she did not come. "wonder what that was," said dr. kemp. he tried to resume his work, failed, got up, went downstairs from his study to the landing, rang, and called over the balustrade to the housemaid as she appeared in the hall below. "was that a letter?" he asked. "only a runaway ring, sir," she answered. "i'm restless to-night," he said to himself. he went back to his study, and this time attacked his work resolutely. in a little while he was hard at work again, and the only sounds in the room were the ticking of the clock and the subdued shrillness of his quill, hurrying in the very centre of the circle of light his lampshade threw on his table. it was two o'clock before dr. kemp had finished his work for the night. he rose, yawned, and went downstairs to bed. he had already removed his coat and vest, when he noticed that he was thirsty. he took a candle and went down to the dining-room in search of a syphon and whiskey. dr. kemp's scientific pursuits have made him a very observant man, and as he recrossed the hall, he noticed a dark spot on the linoleum near the mat at the foot of the stairs. he went on upstairs, and then it suddenly occurred to him to ask himself what the spot on the linoleum might be. apparently some subconscious element was at work. at any rate, he turned with his burden, went back to the hall, put down the syphon and whiskey, and bending down, touched the spot. without any great surprise he found it had the stickiness and colour of drying blood. he took up his burden again, and returned upstairs, looking about him and trying to account for the blood-spot. on the landing he saw something and stopped astonished. the door-handle of his own room was blood-stained. he looked at his own hand. it was quite clean, and then he remembered that the door of his room had been open when he came down from his study, and that consequently he had not touched the handle at all. he went straight into his room, his face quite calm--perhaps a trifle more resolute than usual. his glance, wandering inquisitively, fell on the bed. on the counterpane was a mess of blood, and the sheet had been torn. he had not noticed this before because he had walked straight to the dressing-table. on the further side the bedclothes were depressed as if someone had been recently sitting there. then he had an odd impression that he had heard a low voice say, "good heavens!--kemp!" but dr. kemp was no believer in voices. he stood staring at the tumbled sheets. was that really a voice? he looked about again, but noticed nothing further than the disordered and blood-stained bed. then he distinctly heard a movement across the room, near the wash-hand stand. all men, however highly educated, retain some superstitious inklings. the feeling that is called "eerie" came upon him. he closed the door of the room, came forward to the dressing-table, and put down his burdens. suddenly, with a start, he perceived a coiled and blood-stained bandage of linen rag hanging in mid-air, between him and the wash-hand stand. he stared at this in amazement. it was an empty bandage, a bandage properly tied but quite empty. he would have advanced to grasp it, but a touch arrested him, and a voice speaking quite close to him. "kemp!" said the voice. "eh?" said kemp, with his mouth open. "keep your nerve," said the voice. "i'm an invisible man." kemp made no answer for a space, simply stared at the bandage. "invisible man," he said. "i am an invisible man," repeated the voice. the story he had been active to ridicule only that morning rushed through kemp's brain. he does not appear to have been either very much frightened or very greatly surprised at the moment. realisation came later. "i thought it was all a lie," he said. the thought uppermost in his mind was the reiterated arguments of the morning. "have you a bandage on?" he asked. "yes," said the invisible man. "oh!" said kemp, and then roused himself. "i say!" he said. "but this is nonsense. it's some trick." he stepped forward suddenly, and his hand, extended towards the bandage, met invisible fingers. he recoiled at the touch and his colour changed. "keep steady, kemp, for god's sake! i want help badly. stop!" the hand gripped his arm. he struck at it. "kemp!" cried the voice. "kemp! keep steady!" and the grip tightened. a frantic desire to free himself took possession of kemp. the hand of the bandaged arm gripped his shoulder, and he was suddenly tripped and flung backwards upon the bed. he opened his mouth to shout, and the corner of the sheet was thrust between his teeth. the invisible man had him down grimly, but his arms were free and he struck and tried to kick savagely. "listen to reason, will you?" said the invisible man, sticking to him in spite of a pounding in the ribs. "by heaven! you'll madden me in a minute! "lie still, you fool!" bawled the invisible man in kemp's ear. kemp struggled for another moment and then lay still. "if you shout, i'll smash your face," said the invisible man, relieving his mouth. "i'm an invisible man. it's no foolishness, and no magic. i really am an invisible man. and i want your help. i don't want to hurt you, but if you behave like a frantic rustic, i must. don't you remember me, kemp? griffin, of university college?" "let me get up," said kemp. "i'll stop where i am. and let me sit quiet for a minute." he sat up and felt his neck. "i am griffin, of university college, and i have made myself invisible. i am just an ordinary man--a man you have known--made invisible." "griffin?" said kemp. "griffin," answered the voice. a younger student than you were, almost an albino, six feet high, and broad, with a pink and white face and red eyes, who won the medal for chemistry." "i am confused," said kemp. "my brain is rioting. what has this to do with griffin?" "i _am_ griffin." kemp thought. "it's horrible," he said. "but what devilry must happen to make a man invisible?" "it's no devilry. it's a process, sane and intelligible enough--" "it's horrible!" said kemp. "how on earth--?" "it's horrible enough. but i'm wounded and in pain, and tired ... great god! kemp, you are a man. take it steady. give me some food and drink, and let me sit down here." kemp stared at the bandage as it moved across the room, then saw a basket chair dragged across the floor and come to rest near the bed. it creaked, and the seat was depressed the quarter of an inch or so. he rubbed his eyes and felt his neck again. "this beats ghosts," he said, and laughed stupidly. "that's better. thank heaven, you're getting sensible!" "or silly," said kemp, and knuckled his eyes. "give me some whiskey. i'm near dead." "it didn't feel so. where are you? if i get up shall i run into you? _there_! all right. whiskey? here. where shall i give it to you?" the chair creaked and kemp felt the glass drawn away from him. he let go by an effort; his instinct was all against it. it came to rest poised twenty inches above the front edge of the seat of the chair. he stared at it in infinite perplexity. "this is--this must be--hypnotism. you have suggested you are invisible." "nonsense," said the voice. "it's frantic." "listen to me." "i demonstrated conclusively this morning," began kemp, "that invisibility--" "never mind what you've demonstrated!--i'm starving," said the voice, "and the night is chilly to a man without clothes." "food?" said kemp. the tumbler of whiskey tilted itself. "yes," said the invisible man rapping it down. "have you a dressing-gown?" kemp made some exclamation in an undertone. he walked to a wardrobe and produced a robe of dingy scarlet. "this do?" he asked. it was taken from him. it hung limp for a moment in mid-air, fluttered weirdly, stood full and decorous buttoning itself, and sat down in his chair. "drawers, socks, slippers would be a comfort," said the unseen, curtly. "and food." "anything. but this is the insanest thing i ever was in, in my life!" he turned out his drawers for the articles, and then went downstairs to ransack his larder. he came back with some cold cutlets and bread, pulled up a light table, and placed them before his guest. "never mind knives," said his visitor, and a cutlet hung in mid-air, with a sound of gnawing. "invisible!" said kemp, and sat down on a bedroom chair. "i always like to get something about me before i eat," said the invisible man, with a full mouth, eating greedily. "queer fancy!" "i suppose that wrist is all right," said kemp. "trust me," said the invisible man. "of all the strange and wonderful--" "exactly. but it's odd i should blunder into _your_ house to get my bandaging. my first stroke of luck! anyhow i meant to sleep in this house to-night. you must stand that! it's a filthy nuisance, my blood showing, isn't it? quite a clot over there. gets visible as it coagulates, i see. it's only the living tissue i've changed, and only for as long as i'm alive.... i've been in the house three hours." "but how's it done?" began kemp, in a tone of exasperation. "confound it! the whole business--it's unreasonable from beginning to end." "quite reasonable," said the invisible man. "perfectly reasonable." he reached over and secured the whiskey bottle. kemp stared at the devouring dressing gown. a ray of candle-light penetrating a torn patch in the right shoulder, made a triangle of light under the left ribs. "what were the shots?" he asked. "how did the shooting begin?" "there was a real fool of a man--a sort of confederate of mine--curse him!--who tried to steal my money. _has_ done so." "is _he_ invisible too?" "no." "well?" "can't i have some more to eat before i tell you all that? i'm hungry--in pain. and you want me to tell stories!" kemp got up. "_you_ didn't do any shooting?" he asked. "not me," said his visitor. "some fool i'd never seen fired at random. a lot of them got scared. they all got scared at me. curse them!--i say--i want more to eat than this, kemp." "i'll see what there is to eat downstairs," said kemp. "not much, i'm afraid." after he had done eating, and he made a heavy meal, the invisible man demanded a cigar. he bit the end savagely before kemp could find a knife, and cursed when the outer leaf loosened. it was strange to see him smoking; his mouth, and throat, pharynx and nares, became visible as a sort of whirling smoke cast. "this blessed gift of smoking!" he said, and puffed vigorously. "i'm lucky to have fallen upon you, kemp. you must help me. fancy tumbling on you just now! i'm in a devilish scrape--i've been mad, i think. the things i have been through! but we will do things yet. let me tell you--" he helped himself to more whiskey and soda. kemp got up, looked about him, and fetched a glass from his spare room. "it's wild--but i suppose i may drink." "you haven't changed much, kemp, these dozen years. you fair men don't. cool and methodical--after the first collapse. i must tell you. we will work together!" "but how was it all done?" said kemp, "and how did you get like this?" "for god's sake, let me smoke in peace for a little while! and then i will begin to tell you." but the story was not told that night. the invisible man's wrist was growing painful; he was feverish, exhausted, and his mind came round to brood upon his chase down the hill and the struggle about the inn. he spoke in fragments of marvel, he smoked faster, his voice grew angry. kemp tried to gather what he could. "he was afraid of me, i could see that he was afraid of me," said the invisible man many times over. "he meant to give me the slip--he was always casting about! what a fool i was! "the cur! "i should have killed him!" "where did you get the money?" asked kemp, abruptly. the invisible man was silent for a space. "i can't tell you to-night," he said. he groaned suddenly and leant forward, supporting his invisible head on invisible hands. "kemp," he said, "i've had no sleep for near three days, except a couple of dozes of an hour or so. i must sleep soon." "well, have my room--have this room." "but how can i sleep? if i sleep--he will get away. ugh! what does it matter?" "what's the shot wound?" asked kemp, abruptly. "nothing--scratch and blood. oh, god! how i want sleep!" "why not?" the invisible man appeared to be regarding kemp. "because i've a particular objection to being caught by my fellow-men," he said slowly. kemp started. "fool that i am!" said the invisible man, striking the table smartly. "i've put the idea into your head." chapter xviii the invisible man sleeps exhausted and wounded as the invisible man was, he refused to accept kemp's word that his freedom should be respected. he examined the two windows of the bedroom, drew up the blinds and opened the sashes, to confirm kemp's statement that a retreat by them would be possible. outside the night was very quiet and still, and the new moon was setting over the down. then he examined the keys of the bedroom and the two dressing-room doors, to satisfy himself that these also could be made an assurance of freedom. finally he expressed himself satisfied. he stood on the hearth rug and kemp heard the sound of a yawn. "i'm sorry," said the invisible man, "if i cannot tell you all that i have done to-night. but i am worn out. it's grotesque, no doubt. it's horrible! but believe me, kemp, in spite of your arguments of this morning, it is quite a possible thing. i have made a discovery. i meant to keep it to myself. i can't. i must have a partner. and you.... we can do such things ... but to-morrow. now, kemp, i feel as though i must sleep or perish." kemp stood in the middle of the room staring at the headless garment. "i suppose i must leave you," he said. "it's--incredible. three things happening like this, overturning all my preconceptions--would make me insane. but it's real! is there anything more that i can get you?" "only bid me good-night," said griffin. "good-night," said kemp, and shook an invisible hand. he walked sideways to the door. suddenly the dressing-gown walked quickly towards him. "understand me!" said the dressing-gown. "no attempts to hamper me, or capture me! or--" kemp's face changed a little. "i thought i gave you my word," he said. kemp closed the door softly behind him, and the key was turned upon him forthwith. then, as he stood with an expression of passive amazement on his face, the rapid feet came to the door of the dressing-room and that too was locked. kemp slapped his brow with his hand. "am i dreaming? has the world gone mad--or have i?" he laughed, and put his hand to the locked door. "barred out of my own bedroom, by a flagrant absurdity!" he said. he walked to the head of the staircase, turned, and stared at the locked doors. "it's fact," he said. he put his fingers to his slightly bruised neck. "undeniable fact! "but--" he shook his head hopelessly, turned, and went downstairs. he lit the dining-room lamp, got out a cigar, and began pacing the room, ejaculating. now and then he would argue with himself. "invisible!" he said. "is there such a thing as an invisible animal? ... in the sea, yes. thousands--millions. all the larvae, all the little nauplii and tornarias, all the microscopic things, the jelly-fish. in the sea there are more things invisible than visible! i never thought of that before. and in the ponds too! all those little pond-life things--specks of colourless translucent jelly! but in air? no! "it can't be. "but after all--why not? "if a man was made of glass he would still be visible." his meditation became profound. the bulk of three cigars had passed into the invisible or diffused as a white ash over the carpet before he spoke again. then it was merely an exclamation. he turned aside, walked out of the room, and went into his little consulting-room and lit the gas there. it was a little room, because dr. kemp did not live by practice, and in it were the day's newspapers. the morning's paper lay carelessly opened and thrown aside. he caught it up, turned it over, and read the account of a "strange story from iping" that the mariner at port stowe had spelt over so painfully to mr. marvel. kemp read it swiftly. "wrapped up!" said kemp. "disguised! hiding it! 'no one seems to have been aware of his misfortune.' what the devil _is_ his game?" he dropped the paper, and his eye went seeking. "ah!" he said, and caught up the _st. james' gazette_, lying folded up as it arrived. "now we shall get at the truth," said dr. kemp. he rent the paper open; a couple of columns confronted him. "an entire village in sussex goes mad" was the heading. "good heavens!" said kemp, reading eagerly an incredulous account of the events in iping, of the previous afternoon, that have already been described. over the leaf the report in the morning paper had been reprinted. he re-read it. "ran through the streets striking right and left. jaffers insensible. mr. huxter in great pain--still unable to describe what he saw. painful humiliation--vicar. woman ill with terror! windows smashed. this extraordinary story probably a fabrication. too good not to print--_cum grano_!" he dropped the paper and stared blankly in front of him. "probably a fabrication!" he caught up the paper again, and re-read the whole business. "but when does the tramp come in? why the deuce was he chasing a tramp?" he sat down abruptly on the surgical bench. "he's not only invisible," he said, "but he's mad! homicidal!" when dawn came to mingle its pallor with the lamp-light and cigar smoke of the dining-room, kemp was still pacing up and down, trying to grasp the incredible. he was altogether too excited to sleep. his servants, descending sleepily, discovered him, and were inclined to think that over-study had worked this ill on him. he gave them extraordinary but quite explicit instructions to lay breakfast for two in the belvedere study--and then to confine themselves to the basement and ground-floor. then he continued to pace the dining-room until the morning's paper came. that had much to say and little to tell, beyond the confirmation of the evening before, and a very badly written account of another remarkable tale from port burdock. this gave kemp the essence of the happenings at the "jolly cricketers," and the name of marvel. "he has made me keep with him twenty-four hours," marvel testified. certain minor facts were added to the iping story, notably the cutting of the village telegraph-wire. but there was nothing to throw light on the connexion between the invisible man and the tramp; for mr. marvel had supplied no information about the three books, or the money with which he was lined. the incredulous tone had vanished and a shoal of reporters and inquirers were already at work elaborating the matter. kemp read every scrap of the report and sent his housemaid out to get every one of the morning papers she could. these also he devoured. "he is invisible!" he said. "and it reads like rage growing to mania! the things he may do! the things he may do! and he's upstairs free as the air. what on earth ought i to do?" "for instance, would it be a breach of faith if--? no." he went to a little untidy desk in the corner, and began a note. he tore this up half written, and wrote another. he read it over and considered it. then he took an envelope and addressed it to "colonel adye, port burdock." the invisible man awoke even as kemp was doing this. he awoke in an evil temper, and kemp, alert for every sound, heard his pattering feet rush suddenly across the bedroom overhead. then a chair was flung over and the wash-hand stand tumbler smashed. kemp hurried upstairs and rapped eagerly. chapter xix certain first principles "what's the matter?" asked kemp, when the invisible man admitted him. "nothing," was the answer. "but, confound it! the smash?" "fit of temper," said the invisible man. "forgot this arm; and it's sore." "you're rather liable to that sort of thing." "i am." kemp walked across the room and picked up the fragments of broken glass. "all the facts are out about you," said kemp, standing up with the glass in his hand; "all that happened in iping, and down the hill. the world has become aware of its invisible citizen. but no one knows you are here." the invisible man swore. "the secret's out. i gather it was a secret. i don't know what your plans are, but of course i'm anxious to help you." the invisible man sat down on the bed. "there's breakfast upstairs," said kemp, speaking as easily as possible, and he was delighted to find his strange guest rose willingly. kemp led the way up the narrow staircase to the belvedere. "before we can do anything else," said kemp, "i must understand a little more about this invisibility of yours." he had sat down, after one nervous glance out of the window, with the air of a man who has talking to do. his doubts of the sanity of the entire business flashed and vanished again as he looked across to where griffin sat at the breakfast-table--a headless, handless dressing-gown, wiping unseen lips on a miraculously held serviette. "it's simple enough--and credible enough," said griffin, putting the serviette aside and leaning the invisible head on an invisible hand. "no doubt, to you, but--" kemp laughed. "well, yes; to me it seemed wonderful at first, no doubt. but now, great god! ... but we will do great things yet! i came on the stuff first at chesilstowe." "chesilstowe?" "i went there after i left london. you know i dropped medicine and took up physics? no; well, i did. _light_ fascinated me." "ah!" "optical density! the whole subject is a network of riddles--a network with solutions glimmering elusively through. and being but two-and-twenty and full of enthusiasm, i said, 'i will devote my life to this. this is worth while.' you know what fools we are at two-and-twenty?" "fools then or fools now," said kemp. "as though knowing could be any satisfaction to a man! "but i went to work--like a slave. and i had hardly worked and thought about the matter six months before light came through one of the meshes suddenly--blindingly! i found a general principle of pigments and refraction--a formula, a geometrical expression involving four dimensions. fools, common men, even common mathematicians, do not know anything of what some general expression may mean to the student of molecular physics. in the books--the books that tramp has hidden--there are marvels, miracles! but this was not a method, it was an idea, that might lead to a method by which it would be possible, without changing any other property of matter--except, in some instances colours--to lower the refractive index of a substance, solid or liquid, to that of air--so far as all practical purposes are concerned." "phew!" said kemp. "that's odd! but still i don't see quite ... i can understand that thereby you could spoil a valuable stone, but personal invisibility is a far cry." "precisely," said griffin. "but consider, visibility depends on the action of the visible bodies on light. either a body absorbs light, or it reflects or refracts it, or does all these things. if it neither reflects nor refracts nor absorbs light, it cannot of itself be visible. you see an opaque red box, for instance, because the colour absorbs some of the light and reflects the rest, all the red part of the light, to you. if it did not absorb any particular part of the light, but reflected it all, then it would be a shining white box. silver! a diamond box would neither absorb much of the light nor reflect much from the general surface, but just here and there where the surfaces were favourable the light would be reflected and refracted, so that you would get a brilliant appearance of flashing reflections and translucencies--a sort of skeleton of light. a glass box would not be so brilliant, nor so clearly visible, as a diamond box, because there would be less refraction and reflection. see that? from certain points of view you would see quite clearly through it. some kinds of glass would be more visible than others, a box of flint glass would be brighter than a box of ordinary window glass. a box of very thin common glass would be hard to see in a bad light, because it would absorb hardly any light and refract and reflect very little. and if you put a sheet of common white glass in water, still more if you put it in some denser liquid than water, it would vanish almost altogether, because light passing from water to glass is only slightly refracted or reflected or indeed affected in any way. it is almost as invisible as a jet of coal gas or hydrogen is in air. and for precisely the same reason!" "yes," said kemp, "that is pretty plain sailing." "and here is another fact you will know to be true. if a sheet of glass is smashed, kemp, and beaten into a powder, it becomes much more visible while it is in the air; it becomes at last an opaque white powder. this is because the powdering multiplies the surfaces of the glass at which refraction and reflection occur. in the sheet of glass there are only two surfaces; in the powder the light is reflected or refracted by each grain it passes through, and very little gets right through the powder. but if the white powdered glass is put into water, it forthwith vanishes. the powdered glass and water have much the same refractive index; that is, the light undergoes very little refraction or reflection in passing from one to the other. "you make the glass invisible by putting it into a liquid of nearly the same refractive index; a transparent thing becomes invisible if it is put in any medium of almost the same refractive index. and if you will consider only a second, you will see also that the powder of glass might be made to vanish in air, if its refractive index could be made the same as that of air; for then there would be no refraction or reflection as the light passed from glass to air." "yes, yes," said kemp. "but a man's not powdered glass!" "no," said griffin. "he's more transparent!" "nonsense!" "that from a doctor! how one forgets! have you already forgotten your physics, in ten years? just think of all the things that are transparent and seem not to be so. paper, for instance, is made up of transparent fibres, and it is white and opaque only for the same reason that a powder of glass is white and opaque. oil white paper, fill up the interstices between the particles with oil so that there is no longer refraction or reflection except at the surfaces, and it becomes as transparent as glass. and not only paper, but cotton fibre, linen fibre, wool fibre, woody fibre, and _bone_, kemp, _flesh_, kemp, _hair_, kemp, _nails_ and _nerves_, kemp, in fact the whole fabric of a man except the red of his blood and the black pigment of hair, are all made up of transparent, colourless tissue. so little suffices to make us visible one to the other. for the most part the fibres of a living creature are no more opaque than water." "great heavens!" cried kemp. "of course, of course! i was thinking only last night of the sea larvae and all jelly-fish!" "_now_ you have me! and all that i knew and had in mind a year after i left london--six years ago. but i kept it to myself. i had to do my work under frightful disadvantages. oliver, my professor, was a scientific bounder, a journalist by instinct, a thief of ideas--he was always prying! and you know the knavish system of the scientific world. i simply would not publish, and let him share my credit. i went on working; i got nearer and nearer making my formula into an experiment, a reality. i told no living soul, because i meant to flash my work upon the world with crushing effect and become famous at a blow. i took up the question of pigments to fill up certain gaps. and suddenly, not by design but by accident, i made a discovery in physiology." "yes?" "you know the red colouring matter of blood; it can be made white--colourless--and remain with all the functions it has now!" kemp gave a cry of incredulous amazement. the invisible man rose and began pacing the little study. "you may well exclaim. i remember that night. it was late at night--in the daytime one was bothered with the gaping, silly students--and i worked then sometimes till dawn. it came suddenly, splendid and complete in my mind. i was alone; the laboratory was still, with the tall lights burning brightly and silently. in all my great moments i have been alone. 'one could make an animal--a tissue--transparent! one could make it invisible! all except the pigments--i could be invisible!' i said, suddenly realising what it meant to be an albino with such knowledge. it was overwhelming. i left the filtering i was doing, and went and stared out of the great window at the stars. 'i could be invisible!' i repeated. "to do such a thing would be to transcend magic. and i beheld, unclouded by doubt, a magnificent vision of all that invisibility might mean to a man--the mystery, the power, the freedom. drawbacks i saw none. you have only to think! and i, a shabby, poverty-struck, hemmed-in demonstrator, teaching fools in a provincial college, might suddenly become--this. i ask you, kemp if _you_ ... anyone, i tell you, would have flung himself upon that research. and i worked three years, and every mountain of difficulty i toiled over showed another from its summit. the infinite details! and the exasperation! a professor, a provincial professor, always prying. 'when are you going to publish this work of yours?' was his everlasting question. and the students, the cramped means! three years i had of it-- "and after three years of secrecy and exasperation, i found that to complete it was impossible--impossible." "how?" asked kemp. "money," said the invisible man, and went again to stare out of the window. he turned around abruptly. "i robbed the old man--robbed my father. "the money was not his, and he shot himself." chapter xx at the house in great portland street for a moment kemp sat in silence, staring at the back of the headless figure at the window. then he started, struck by a thought, rose, took the invisible man's arm, and turned him away from the outlook. "you are tired," he said, "and while i sit, you walk about. have my chair." he placed himself between griffin and the nearest window. for a space griffin sat silent, and then he resumed abruptly: "i had left the chesilstowe cottage already," he said, "when that happened. it was last december. i had taken a room in london, a large unfurnished room in a big ill-managed lodging-house in a slum near great portland street. the room was soon full of the appliances i had bought with his money; the work was going on steadily, successfully, drawing near an end. i was like a man emerging from a thicket, and suddenly coming on some unmeaning tragedy. i went to bury him. my mind was still on this research, and i did not lift a finger to save his character. i remember the funeral, the cheap hearse, the scant ceremony, the windy frost-bitten hillside, and the old college friend of his who read the service over him--a shabby, black, bent old man with a snivelling cold. "i remember walking back to the empty house, through the place that had once been a village and was now patched and tinkered by the jerry builders into the ugly likeness of a town. every way the roads ran out at last into the desecrated fields and ended in rubble heaps and rank wet weeds. i remember myself as a gaunt black figure, going along the slippery, shiny pavement, and the strange sense of detachment i felt from the squalid respectability, the sordid commercialism of the place. "i did not feel a bit sorry for my father. he seemed to me to be the victim of his own foolish sentimentality. the current cant required my attendance at his funeral, but it was really not my affair. "but going along the high street, my old life came back to me for a space, for i met the girl i had known ten years since. our eyes met. "something moved me to turn back and talk to her. she was a very ordinary person. "it was all like a dream, that visit to the old places. i did not feel then that i was lonely, that i had come out from the world into a desolate place. i appreciated my loss of sympathy, but i put it down to the general inanity of things. re-entering my room seemed like the recovery of reality. there were the things i knew and loved. there stood the apparatus, the experiments arranged and waiting. and now there was scarcely a difficulty left, beyond the planning of details. "i will tell you, kemp, sooner or later, all the complicated processes. we need not go into that now. for the most part, saving certain gaps i chose to remember, they are written in cypher in those books that tramp has hidden. we must hunt him down. we must get those books again. but the essential phase was to place the transparent object whose refractive index was to be lowered between two radiating centres of a sort of ethereal vibration, of which i will tell you more fully later. no, not those roentgen vibrations--i don't know that these others of mine have been described. yet they are obvious enough. i needed two little dynamos, and these i worked with a cheap gas engine. my first experiment was with a bit of white wool fabric. it was the strangest thing in the world to see it in the flicker of the flashes soft and white, and then to watch it fade like a wreath of smoke and vanish. "i could scarcely believe i had done it. i put my hand into the emptiness, and there was the thing as solid as ever. i felt it awkwardly, and threw it on the floor. i had a little trouble finding it again. "and then came a curious experience. i heard a miaow behind me, and turning, saw a lean white cat, very dirty, on the cistern cover outside the window. a thought came into my head. 'everything ready for you,' i said, and went to the window, opened it, and called softly. she came in, purring--the poor beast was starving--and i gave her some milk. all my food was in a cupboard in the corner of the room. after that she went smelling round the room, evidently with the idea of making herself at home. the invisible rag upset her a bit; you should have seen her spit at it! but i made her comfortable on the pillow of my truckle-bed. and i gave her butter to get her to wash." "and you processed her?" "i processed her. but giving drugs to a cat is no joke, kemp! and the process failed." "failed!" "in two particulars. these were the claws and the pigment stuff, what is it?--at the back of the eye in a cat. you know?" "_tapetum_." "yes, the _tapetum_. it didn't go. after i'd given the stuff to bleach the blood and done certain other things to her, i gave the beast opium, and put her and the pillow she was sleeping on, on the apparatus. and after all the rest had faded and vanished, there remained two little ghosts of her eyes." "odd!" "i can't explain it. she was bandaged and clamped, of course--so i had her safe; but she woke while she was still misty, and miaowed dismally, and someone came knocking. it was an old woman from downstairs, who suspected me of vivisecting--a drink-sodden old creature, with only a white cat to care for in all the world. i whipped out some chloroform, applied it, and answered the door. 'did i hear a cat?' she asked. 'my cat?' 'not here,' said i, very politely. she was a little doubtful and tried to peer past me into the room; strange enough to her no doubt--bare walls, uncurtained windows, truckle-bed, with the gas engine vibrating, and the seethe of the radiant points, and that faint ghastly stinging of chloroform in the air. she had to be satisfied at last and went away again." "how long did it take?" asked kemp. "three or four hours--the cat. the bones and sinews and the fat were the last to go, and the tips of the coloured hairs. and, as i say, the back part of the eye, tough, iridescent stuff it is, wouldn't go at all. "it was night outside long before the business was over, and nothing was to be seen but the dim eyes and the claws. i stopped the gas engine, felt for and stroked the beast, which was still insensible, and then, being tired, left it sleeping on the invisible pillow and went to bed. i found it hard to sleep. i lay awake thinking weak aimless stuff, going over the experiment over and over again, or dreaming feverishly of things growing misty and vanishing about me, until everything, the ground i stood on, vanished, and so i came to that sickly falling nightmare one gets. about two, the cat began miaowing about the room. i tried to hush it by talking to it, and then i decided to turn it out. i remember the shock i had when striking a light--there were just the round eyes shining green--and nothing round them. i would have given it milk, but i hadn't any. it wouldn't be quiet, it just sat down and miaowed at the door. i tried to catch it, with an idea of putting it out of the window, but it wouldn't be caught, it vanished. then it began miaowing in different parts of the room. at last i opened the window and made a bustle. i suppose it went out at last. i never saw any more of it. "then--heaven knows why--i fell thinking of my father's funeral again, and the dismal windy hillside, until the day had come. i found sleeping was hopeless, and, locking my door after me, wandered out into the morning streets." "you don't mean to say there's an invisible cat at large!" said kemp. "if it hasn't been killed," said the invisible man. "why not?" "why not?" said kemp. "i didn't mean to interrupt." "it's very probably been killed," said the invisible man. "it was alive four days after, i know, and down a grating in great titchfield street; because i saw a crowd round the place, trying to see whence the miaowing came." he was silent for the best part of a minute. then he resumed abruptly: "i remember that morning before the change very vividly. i must have gone up great portland street. i remember the barracks in albany street, and the horse soldiers coming out, and at last i found the summit of primrose hill. it was a sunny day in january--one of those sunny, frosty days that came before the snow this year. my weary brain tried to formulate the position, to plot out a plan of action. "i was surprised to find, now that my prize was within my grasp, how inconclusive its attainment seemed. as a matter of fact i was worked out; the intense stress of nearly four years' continuous work left me incapable of any strength of feeling. i was apathetic, and i tried in vain to recover the enthusiasm of my first inquiries, the passion of discovery that had enabled me to compass even the downfall of my father's grey hairs. nothing seemed to matter. i saw pretty clearly this was a transient mood, due to overwork and want of sleep, and that either by drugs or rest it would be possible to recover my energies. "all i could think clearly was that the thing had to be carried through; the fixed idea still ruled me. and soon, for the money i had was almost exhausted. i looked about me at the hillside, with children playing and girls watching them, and tried to think of all the fantastic advantages an invisible man would have in the world. after a time i crawled home, took some food and a strong dose of strychnine, and went to sleep in my clothes on my unmade bed. strychnine is a grand tonic, kemp, to take the flabbiness out of a man." "it's the devil," said kemp. "it's the palaeolithic in a bottle." "i awoke vastly invigorated and rather irritable. you know?" "i know the stuff." "and there was someone rapping at the door. it was my landlord with threats and inquiries, an old polish jew in a long grey coat and greasy slippers. i had been tormenting a cat in the night, he was sure--the old woman's tongue had been busy. he insisted on knowing all about it. the laws in this country against vivisection were very severe--he might be liable. i denied the cat. then the vibration of the little gas engine could be felt all over the house, he said. that was true, certainly. he edged round me into the room, peering about over his german-silver spectacles, and a sudden dread came into my mind that he might carry away something of my secret. i tried to keep between him and the concentrating apparatus i had arranged, and that only made him more curious. what was i doing? why was i always alone and secretive? was it legal? was it dangerous? i paid nothing but the usual rent. his had always been a most respectable house--in a disreputable neighbourhood. suddenly my temper gave way. i told him to get out. he began to protest, to jabber of his right of entry. in a moment i had him by the collar; something ripped, and he went spinning out into his own passage. i slammed and locked the door and sat down quivering. "he made a fuss outside, which i disregarded, and after a time he went away. "but this brought matters to a crisis. i did not know what he would do, nor even what he had the power to do. to move to fresh apartments would have meant delay; altogether i had barely twenty pounds left in the world, for the most part in a bank--and i could not afford that. vanish! it was irresistible. then there would be an inquiry, the sacking of my room. "at the thought of the possibility of my work being exposed or interrupted at its very climax, i became very angry and active. i hurried out with my three books of notes, my cheque-book--the tramp has them now--and directed them from the nearest post office to a house of call for letters and parcels in great portland street. i tried to go out noiselessly. coming in, i found my landlord going quietly upstairs; he had heard the door close, i suppose. you would have laughed to see him jump aside on the landing as i came tearing after him. he glared at me as i went by him, and i made the house quiver with the slamming of my door. i heard him come shuffling up to my floor, hesitate, and go down. i set to work upon my preparations forthwith. "it was all done that evening and night. while i was still sitting under the sickly, drowsy influence of the drugs that decolourise blood, there came a repeated knocking at the door. it ceased, footsteps went away and returned, and the knocking was resumed. there was an attempt to push something under the door--a blue paper. then in a fit of irritation i rose and went and flung the door wide open. 'now then?' said i. "it was my landlord, with a notice of ejectment or something. he held it out to me, saw something odd about my hands, i expect, and lifted his eyes to my face. "for a moment he gaped. then he gave a sort of inarticulate cry, dropped candle and writ together, and went blundering down the dark passage to the stairs. i shut the door, locked it, and went to the looking-glass. then i understood his terror.... my face was white--like white stone. "but it was all horrible. i had not expected the suffering. a night of racking anguish, sickness and fainting. i set my teeth, though my skin was presently afire, all my body afire; but i lay there like grim death. i understood now how it was the cat had howled until i chloroformed it. lucky it was i lived alone and untended in my room. there were times when i sobbed and groaned and talked. but i stuck to it.... i became insensible and woke languid in the darkness. "the pain had passed. i thought i was killing myself and i did not care. i shall never forget that dawn, and the strange horror of seeing that my hands had become as clouded glass, and watching them grow clearer and thinner as the day went by, until at last i could see the sickly disorder of my room through them, though i closed my transparent eyelids. my limbs became glassy, the bones and arteries faded, vanished, and the little white nerves went last. i gritted my teeth and stayed there to the end. at last only the dead tips of the fingernails remained, pallid and white, and the brown stain of some acid upon my fingers. "i struggled up. at first i was as incapable as a swathed infant--stepping with limbs i could not see. i was weak and very hungry. i went and stared at nothing in my shaving-glass, at nothing save where an attenuated pigment still remained behind the retina of my eyes, fainter than mist. i had to hang on to the table and press my forehead against the glass. "it was only by a frantic effort of will that i dragged myself back to the apparatus and completed the process. "i slept during the forenoon, pulling the sheet over my eyes to shut out the light, and about midday i was awakened again by a knocking. my strength had returned. i sat up and listened and heard a whispering. i sprang to my feet and as noiselessly as possible began to detach the connections of my apparatus, and to distribute it about the room, so as to destroy the suggestions of its arrangement. presently the knocking was renewed and voices called, first my landlord's, and then two others. to gain time i answered them. the invisible rag and pillow came to hand and i opened the window and pitched them out on to the cistern cover. as the window opened, a heavy crash came at the door. someone had charged it with the idea of smashing the lock. but the stout bolts i had screwed up some days before stopped him. that startled me, made me angry. i began to tremble and do things hurriedly. "i tossed together some loose paper, straw, packing paper and so forth, in the middle of the room, and turned on the gas. heavy blows began to rain upon the door. i could not find the matches. i beat my hands on the wall with rage. i turned down the gas again, stepped out of the window on the cistern cover, very softly lowered the sash, and sat down, secure and invisible, but quivering with anger, to watch events. they split a panel, i saw, and in another moment they had broken away the staples of the bolts and stood in the open doorway. it was the landlord and his two step-sons, sturdy young men of three or four and twenty. behind them fluttered the old hag of a woman from downstairs. "you may imagine their astonishment to find the room empty. one of the younger men rushed to the window at once, flung it up and stared out. his staring eyes and thick-lipped bearded face came a foot from my face. i was half minded to hit his silly countenance, but i arrested my doubled fist. he stared right through me. so did the others as they joined him. the old man went and peered under the bed, and then they all made a rush for the cupboard. they had to argue about it at length in yiddish and cockney english. they concluded i had not answered them, that their imagination had deceived them. a feeling of extraordinary elation took the place of my anger as i sat outside the window and watched these four people--for the old lady came in, glancing suspiciously about her like a cat, trying to understand the riddle of my behaviour. "the old man, so far as i could understand his _patois_, agreed with the old lady that i was a vivisectionist. the sons protested in garbled english that i was an electrician, and appealed to the dynamos and radiators. they were all nervous about my arrival, although i found subsequently that they had bolted the front door. the old lady peered into the cupboard and under the bed, and one of the young men pushed up the register and stared up the chimney. one of my fellow lodgers, a coster-monger who shared the opposite room with a butcher, appeared on the landing, and he was called in and told incoherent things. "it occurred to me that the radiators, if they fell into the hands of some acute well-educated person, would give me away too much, and watching my opportunity, i came into the room and tilted one of the little dynamos off its fellow on which it was standing, and smashed both apparatus. then, while they were trying to explain the smash, i dodged out of the room and went softly downstairs. "i went into one of the sitting-rooms and waited until they came down, still speculating and argumentative, all a little disappointed at finding no 'horrors,' and all a little puzzled how they stood legally towards me. then i slipped up again with a box of matches, fired my heap of paper and rubbish, put the chairs and bedding thereby, led the gas to the affair, by means of an india-rubber tube, and waving a farewell to the room left it for the last time." "you fired the house!" exclaimed kemp. "fired the house. it was the only way to cover my trail--and no doubt it was insured. i slipped the bolts of the front door quietly and went out into the street. i was invisible, and i was only just beginning to realise the extraordinary advantage my invisibility gave me. my head was already teeming with plans of all the wild and wonderful things i had now impunity to do." chapter xxi in oxford street "in going downstairs the first time i found an unexpected difficulty because i could not see my feet; indeed i stumbled twice, and there was an unaccustomed clumsiness in gripping the bolt. by not looking down, however, i managed to walk on the level passably well. "my mood, i say, was one of exaltation. i felt as a seeing man might do, with padded feet and noiseless clothes, in a city of the blind. i experienced a wild impulse to jest, to startle people, to clap men on the back, fling people's hats astray, and generally revel in my extraordinary advantage. "but hardly had i emerged upon great portland street, however (my lodging was close to the big draper's shop there), when i heard a clashing concussion and was hit violently behind, and turning saw a man carrying a basket of soda-water syphons, and looking in amazement at his burden. although the blow had really hurt me, i found something so irresistible in his astonishment that i laughed aloud. 'the devil's in the basket,' i said, and suddenly twisted it out of his hand. he let go incontinently, and i swung the whole weight into the air. "but a fool of a cabman, standing outside a public house, made a sudden rush for this, and his extending fingers took me with excruciating violence under the ear. i let the whole down with a smash on the cabman, and then, with shouts and the clatter of feet about me, people coming out of shops, vehicles pulling up, i realised what i had done for myself, and cursing my folly, backed against a shop window and prepared to dodge out of the confusion. in a moment i should be wedged into a crowd and inevitably discovered. i pushed by a butcher boy, who luckily did not turn to see the nothingness that shoved him aside, and dodged behind the cab-man's four-wheeler. i do not know how they settled the business. i hurried straight across the road, which was happily clear, and hardly heeding which way i went, in the fright of detection the incident had given me, plunged into the afternoon throng of oxford street. "i tried to get into the stream of people, but they were too thick for me, and in a moment my heels were being trodden upon. i took to the gutter, the roughness of which i found painful to my feet, and forthwith the shaft of a crawling hansom dug me forcibly under the shoulder blade, reminding me that i was already bruised severely. i staggered out of the way of the cab, avoided a perambulator by a convulsive movement, and found myself behind the hansom. a happy thought saved me, and as this drove slowly along i followed in its immediate wake, trembling and astonished at the turn of my adventure. and not only trembling, but shivering. it was a bright day in january and i was stark naked and the thin slime of mud that covered the road was freezing. foolish as it seems to me now, i had not reckoned that, transparent or not, i was still amenable to the weather and all its consequences. "then suddenly a bright idea came into my head. i ran round and got into the cab. and so, shivering, scared, and sniffing with the first intimations of a cold, and with the bruises in the small of my back growing upon my attention, i drove slowly along oxford street and past tottenham court road. my mood was as different from that in which i had sallied forth ten minutes ago as it is possible to imagine. this invisibility indeed! the one thought that possessed me was--how was i to get out of the scrape i was in. "we crawled past mudie's, and there a tall woman with five or six yellow-labelled books hailed my cab, and i sprang out just in time to escape her, shaving a railway van narrowly in my flight. i made off up the roadway to bloomsbury square, intending to strike north past the museum and so get into the quiet district. i was now cruelly chilled, and the strangeness of my situation so unnerved me that i whimpered as i ran. at the northward corner of the square a little white dog ran out of the pharmaceutical society's offices, and incontinently made for me, nose down. "i had never realised it before, but the nose is to the mind of a dog what the eye is to the mind of a seeing man. dogs perceive the scent of a man moving as men perceive his vision. this brute began barking and leaping, showing, as it seemed to me, only too plainly that he was aware of me. i crossed great russell street, glancing over my shoulder as i did so, and went some way along montague street before i realised what i was running towards. "then i became aware of a blare of music, and looking along the street saw a number of people advancing out of russell square, red shirts, and the banner of the salvation army to the fore. such a crowd, chanting in the roadway and scoffing on the pavement, i could not hope to penetrate, and dreading to go back and farther from home again, and deciding on the spur of the moment, i ran up the white steps of a house facing the museum railings, and stood there until the crowd should have passed. happily the dog stopped at the noise of the band too, hesitated, and turned tail, running back to bloomsbury square again. "on came the band, bawling with unconscious irony some hymn about 'when shall we see his face?' and it seemed an interminable time to me before the tide of the crowd washed along the pavement by me. thud, thud, thud, came the drum with a vibrating resonance, and for the moment i did not notice two urchins stopping at the railings by me. 'see 'em,' said one. 'see what?' said the other. 'why--them footmarks--bare. like what you makes in mud.' "i looked down and saw the youngsters had stopped and were gaping at the muddy footmarks i had left behind me up the newly whitened steps. the passing people elbowed and jostled them, but their confounded intelligence was arrested. 'thud, thud, thud, when, thud, shall we see, thud, his face, thud, thud.' 'there's a barefoot man gone up them steps, or i don't know nothing,' said one. 'and he ain't never come down again. and his foot was a-bleeding.' "the thick of the crowd had already passed. 'looky there, ted,' quoth the younger of the detectives, with the sharpness of surprise in his voice, and pointed straight to my feet. i looked down and saw at once the dim suggestion of their outline sketched in splashes of mud. for a moment i was paralysed. "'why, that's rum,' said the elder. 'dashed rum! it's just like the ghost of a foot, ain't it?' he hesitated and advanced with outstretched hand. a man pulled up short to see what he was catching, and then a girl. in another moment he would have touched me. then i saw what to do. i made a step, the boy started back with an exclamation, and with a rapid movement i swung myself over into the portico of the next house. but the smaller boy was sharp-eyed enough to follow the movement, and before i was well down the steps and upon the pavement, he had recovered from his momentary astonishment and was shouting out that the feet had gone over the wall. "they rushed round and saw my new footmarks flash into being on the lower step and upon the pavement. 'what's up?' asked someone. 'feet! look! feet running!' "everybody in the road, except my three pursuers, was pouring along after the salvation army, and this blow not only impeded me but them. there was an eddy of surprise and interrogation. at the cost of bowling over one young fellow i got through, and in another moment i was rushing headlong round the circuit of russell square, with six or seven astonished people following my footmarks. there was no time for explanation, or else the whole host would have been after me. "twice i doubled round corners, thrice i crossed the road and came back upon my tracks, and then, as my feet grew hot and dry, the damp impressions began to fade. at last i had a breathing space and rubbed my feet clean with my hands, and so got away altogether. the last i saw of the chase was a little group of a dozen people perhaps, studying with infinite perplexity a slowly drying footprint that had resulted from a puddle in tavistock square, a footprint as isolated and incomprehensible to them as crusoe's solitary discovery. "this running warmed me to a certain extent, and i went on with a better courage through the maze of less frequented roads that runs hereabouts. my back had now become very stiff and sore, my tonsils were painful from the cabman's fingers, and the skin of my neck had been scratched by his nails; my feet hurt exceedingly and i was lame from a little cut on one foot. i saw in time a blind man approaching me, and fled limping, for i feared his subtle intuitions. once or twice accidental collisions occurred and i left people amazed, with unaccountable curses ringing in their ears. then came something silent and quiet against my face, and across the square fell a thin veil of slowly falling flakes of snow. i had caught a cold, and do as i would i could not avoid an occasional sneeze. and every dog that came in sight, with its pointing nose and curious sniffing, was a terror to me. "then came men and boys running, first one and then others, and shouting as they ran. it was a fire. they ran in the direction of my lodging, and looking back down a street i saw a mass of black smoke streaming up above the roofs and telephone wires. it was my lodging burning; my clothes, my apparatus, all my resources indeed, except my cheque-book and the three volumes of memoranda that awaited me in great portland street, were there. burning! i had burnt my boats--if ever a man did! the place was blazing." the invisible man paused and thought. kemp glanced nervously out of the window. "yes?" he said. "go on." chapter xxii in the emporium "so last january, with the beginning of a snowstorm in the air about me--and if it settled on me it would betray me!--weary, cold, painful, inexpressibly wretched, and still but half convinced of my invisible quality, i began this new life to which i am committed. i had no refuge, no appliances, no human being in the world in whom i could confide. to have told my secret would have given me away--made a mere show and rarity of me. nevertheless, i was half-minded to accost some passer-by and throw myself upon his mercy. but i knew too clearly the terror and brutal cruelty my advances would evoke. i made no plans in the street. my sole object was to get shelter from the snow, to get myself covered and warm; then i might hope to plan. but even to me, an invisible man, the rows of london houses stood latched, barred, and bolted impregnably. "only one thing could i see clearly before me--the cold exposure and misery of the snowstorm and the night. "and then i had a brilliant idea. i turned down one of the roads leading from gower street to tottenham court road, and found myself outside omniums, the big establishment where everything is to be bought--you know the place: meat, grocery, linen, furniture, clothing, oil paintings even--a huge meandering collection of shops rather than a shop. i had thought i should find the doors open, but they were closed, and as i stood in the wide entrance a carriage stopped outside, and a man in uniform--you know the kind of personage with 'omnium' on his cap--flung open the door. i contrived to enter, and walking down the shop--it was a department where they were selling ribbons and gloves and stockings and that kind of thing--came to a more spacious region devoted to picnic baskets and wicker furniture. "i did not feel safe there, however; people were going to and fro, and i prowled restlessly about until i came upon a huge section in an upper floor containing multitudes of bedsteads, and over these i clambered, and found a resting-place at last among a huge pile of folded flock mattresses. the place was already lit up and agreeably warm, and i decided to remain where i was, keeping a cautious eye on the two or three sets of shopmen and customers who were meandering through the place, until closing time came. then i should be able, i thought, to rob the place for food and clothing, and disguised, prowl through it and examine its resources, perhaps sleep on some of the bedding. that seemed an acceptable plan. my idea was to procure clothing to make myself a muffled but acceptable figure, to get money, and then to recover my books and parcels where they awaited me, take a lodging somewhere and elaborate plans for the complete realisation of the advantages my invisibility gave me (as i still imagined) over my fellow-men. "closing time arrived quickly enough. it could not have been more than an hour after i took up my position on the mattresses before i noticed the blinds of the windows being drawn, and customers being marched doorward. and then a number of brisk young men began with remarkable alacrity to tidy up the goods that remained disturbed. i left my lair as the crowds diminished, and prowled cautiously out into the less desolate parts of the shop. i was really surprised to observe how rapidly the young men and women whipped away the goods displayed for sale during the day. all the boxes of goods, the hanging fabrics, the festoons of lace, the boxes of sweets in the grocery section, the displays of this and that, were being whipped down, folded up, slapped into tidy receptacles, and everything that could not be taken down and put away had sheets of some coarse stuff like sacking flung over them. finally all the chairs were turned up on to the counters, leaving the floor clear. directly each of these young people had done, he or she made promptly for the door with such an expression of animation as i have rarely observed in a shop assistant before. then came a lot of youngsters scattering sawdust and carrying pails and brooms. i had to dodge to get out of the way, and as it was, my ankle got stung with the sawdust. for some time, wandering through the swathed and darkened departments, i could hear the brooms at work. and at last a good hour or more after the shop had been closed, came a noise of locking doors. silence came upon the place, and i found myself wandering through the vast and intricate shops, galleries, show-rooms of the place, alone. it was very still; in one place i remember passing near one of the tottenham court road entrances and listening to the tapping of boot-heels of the passers-by. "my first visit was to the place where i had seen stockings and gloves for sale. it was dark, and i had the devil of a hunt after matches, which i found at last in the drawer of the little cash desk. then i had to get a candle. i had to tear down wrappings and ransack a number of boxes and drawers, but at last i managed to turn out what i sought; the box label called them lambswool pants, and lambswool vests. then socks, a thick comforter, and then i went to the clothing place and got trousers, a lounge jacket, an overcoat and a slouch hat--a clerical sort of hat with the brim turned down. i began to feel a human being again, and my next thought was food. "upstairs was a refreshment department, and there i got cold meat. there was coffee still in the urn, and i lit the gas and warmed it up again, and altogether i did not do badly. afterwards, prowling through the place in search of blankets--i had to put up at last with a heap of down quilts--i came upon a grocery section with a lot of chocolate and candied fruits, more than was good for me indeed--and some white burgundy. and near that was a toy department, and i had a brilliant idea. i found some artificial noses--dummy noses, you know, and i thought of dark spectacles. but omniums had no optical department. my nose had been a difficulty indeed--i had thought of paint. but the discovery set my mind running on wigs and masks and the like. finally i went to sleep in a heap of down quilts, very warm and comfortable. "my last thoughts before sleeping were the most agreeable i had had since the change. i was in a state of physical serenity, and that was reflected in my mind. i thought that i should be able to slip out unobserved in the morning with my clothes upon me, muffling my face with a white wrapper i had taken, purchase, with the money i had taken, spectacles and so forth, and so complete my disguise. i lapsed into disorderly dreams of all the fantastic things that had happened during the last few days. i saw the ugly little jew of a landlord vociferating in his rooms; i saw his two sons marvelling, and the wrinkled old woman's gnarled face as she asked for her cat. i experienced again the strange sensation of seeing the cloth disappear, and so i came round to the windy hillside and the sniffing old clergyman mumbling 'earth to earth, ashes to ashes, dust to dust,' at my father's open grave. "'you also,' said a voice, and suddenly i was being forced towards the grave. i struggled, shouted, appealed to the mourners, but they continued stonily following the service; the old clergyman, too, never faltered droning and sniffing through the ritual. i realised i was invisible and inaudible, that overwhelming forces had their grip on me. i struggled in vain, i was forced over the brink, the coffin rang hollow as i fell upon it, and the gravel came flying after me in spadefuls. nobody heeded me, nobody was aware of me. i made convulsive struggles and awoke. "the pale london dawn had come, the place was full of a chilly grey light that filtered round the edges of the window blinds. i sat up, and for a time i could not think where this ample apartment, with its counters, its piles of rolled stuff, its heap of quilts and cushions, its iron pillars, might be. then, as recollection came back to me, i heard voices in conversation. "then far down the place, in the brighter light of some department which had already raised its blinds, i saw two men approaching. i scrambled to my feet, looking about me for some way of escape, and even as i did so the sound of my movement made them aware of me. i suppose they saw merely a figure moving quietly and quickly away. 'who's that?' cried one, and 'stop there!' shouted the other. i dashed around a corner and came full tilt--a faceless figure, mind you!--on a lanky lad of fifteen. he yelled and i bowled him over, rushed past him, turned another corner, and by a happy inspiration threw myself behind a counter. in another moment feet went running past and i heard voices shouting, 'all hands to the doors!' asking what was 'up,' and giving one another advice how to catch me. "lying on the ground, i felt scared out of my wits. but--odd as it may seem--it did not occur to me at the moment to take off my clothes as i should have done. i had made up my mind, i suppose, to get away in them, and that ruled me. and then down the vista of the counters came a bawling of 'here he is!' "i sprang to my feet, whipped a chair off the counter, and sent it whirling at the fool who had shouted, turned, came into another round a corner, sent him spinning, and rushed up the stairs. he kept his footing, gave a view hallo, and came up the staircase hot after me. up the staircase were piled a multitude of those bright-coloured pot things--what are they?" "art pots," suggested kemp. "that's it! art pots. well, i turned at the top step and swung round, plucked one out of a pile and smashed it on his silly head as he came at me. the whole pile of pots went headlong, and i heard shouting and footsteps running from all parts. i made a mad rush for the refreshment place, and there was a man in white like a man cook, who took up the chase. i made one last desperate turn and found myself among lamps and ironmongery. i went behind the counter of this, and waited for my cook, and as he bolted in at the head of the chase, i doubled him up with a lamp. down he went, and i crouched down behind the counter and began whipping off my clothes as fast as i could. coat, jacket, trousers, shoes were all right, but a lambswool vest fits a man like a skin. i heard more men coming, my cook was lying quiet on the other side of the counter, stunned or scared speechless, and i had to make another dash for it, like a rabbit hunted out of a wood-pile. "'this way, policeman!' i heard someone shouting. i found myself in my bedstead storeroom again, and at the end of a wilderness of wardrobes. i rushed among them, went flat, got rid of my vest after infinite wriggling, and stood a free man again, panting and scared, as the policeman and three of the shopmen came round the corner. they made a rush for the vest and pants, and collared the trousers. 'he's dropping his plunder,' said one of the young men. 'he _must_ be somewhere here.' "but they did not find me all the same. "i stood watching them hunt for me for a time, and cursing my ill-luck in losing the clothes. then i went into the refreshment-room, drank a little milk i found there, and sat down by the fire to consider my position. "in a little while two assistants came in and began to talk over the business very excitedly and like the fools they were. i heard a magnified account of my depredations, and other speculations as to my whereabouts. then i fell to scheming again. the insurmountable difficulty of the place, especially now it was alarmed, was to get any plunder out of it. i went down into the warehouse to see if there was any chance of packing and addressing a parcel, but i could not understand the system of checking. about eleven o'clock, the snow having thawed as it fell, and the day being finer and a little warmer than the previous one, i decided that the emporium was hopeless, and went out again, exasperated at my want of success, with only the vaguest plans of action in my mind." chapter xxiii in drury lane "but you begin now to realise," said the invisible man, "the full disadvantage of my condition. i had no shelter--no covering--to get clothing was to forego all my advantage, to make myself a strange and terrible thing. i was fasting; for to eat, to fill myself with unassimilated matter, would be to become grotesquely visible again." "i never thought of that," said kemp. "nor had i. and the snow had warned me of other dangers. i could not go abroad in snow--it would settle on me and expose me. rain, too, would make me a watery outline, a glistening surface of a man--a bubble. and fog--i should be like a fainter bubble in a fog, a surface, a greasy glimmer of humanity. moreover, as i went abroad--in the london air--i gathered dirt about my ankles, floating smuts and dust upon my skin. i did not know how long it would be before i should become visible from that cause also. but i saw clearly it could not be for long. "not in london at any rate. "i went into the slums towards great portland street, and found myself at the end of the street in which i had lodged. i did not go that way, because of the crowd halfway down it opposite to the still smoking ruins of the house i had fired. my most immediate problem was to get clothing. what to do with my face puzzled me. then i saw in one of those little miscellaneous shops--news, sweets, toys, stationery, belated christmas tomfoolery, and so forth--an array of masks and noses. i realised that problem was solved. in a flash i saw my course. i turned about, no longer aimless, and went--circuitously in order to avoid the busy ways, towards the back streets north of the strand; for i remembered, though not very distinctly where, that some theatrical costumiers had shops in that district. "the day was cold, with a nipping wind down the northward running streets. i walked fast to avoid being overtaken. every crossing was a danger, every passenger a thing to watch alertly. one man as i was about to pass him at the top of bedford street, turned upon me abruptly and came into me, sending me into the road and almost under the wheel of a passing hansom. the verdict of the cab-rank was that he had had some sort of stroke. i was so unnerved by this encounter that i went into covent garden market and sat down for some time in a quiet corner by a stall of violets, panting and trembling. i found i had caught a fresh cold, and had to turn out after a time lest my sneezes should attract attention. "at last i reached the object of my quest, a dirty, fly-blown little shop in a by-way near drury lane, with a window full of tinsel robes, sham jewels, wigs, slippers, dominoes and theatrical photographs. the shop was old-fashioned and low and dark, and the house rose above it for four storeys, dark and dismal. i peered through the window and, seeing no one within, entered. the opening of the door set a clanking bell ringing. i left it open, and walked round a bare costume stand, into a corner behind a cheval glass. for a minute or so no one came. then i heard heavy feet striding across a room, and a man appeared down the shop. "my plans were now perfectly definite. i proposed to make my way into the house, secrete myself upstairs, watch my opportunity, and when everything was quiet, rummage out a wig, mask, spectacles, and costume, and go into the world, perhaps a grotesque but still a credible figure. and incidentally of course i could rob the house of any available money. "the man who had just entered the shop was a short, slight, hunched, beetle-browed man, with long arms and very short bandy legs. apparently i had interrupted a meal. he stared about the shop with an expression of expectation. this gave way to surprise, and then to anger, as he saw the shop empty. 'damn the boys!' he said. he went to stare up and down the street. he came in again in a minute, kicked the door to with his foot spitefully, and went muttering back to the house door. "i came forward to follow him, and at the noise of my movement he stopped dead. i did so too, startled by his quickness of ear. he slammed the house door in my face. "i stood hesitating. suddenly i heard his quick footsteps returning, and the door reopened. he stood looking about the shop like one who was still not satisfied. then, murmuring to himself, he examined the back of the counter and peered behind some fixtures. then he stood doubtful. he had left the house door open and i slipped into the inner room. "it was a queer little room, poorly furnished and with a number of big masks in the corner. on the table was his belated breakfast, and it was a confoundedly exasperating thing for me, kemp, to have to sniff his coffee and stand watching while he came in and resumed his meal. and his table manners were irritating. three doors opened into the little room, one going upstairs and one down, but they were all shut. i could not get out of the room while he was there; i could scarcely move because of his alertness, and there was a draught down my back. twice i strangled a sneeze just in time. "the spectacular quality of my sensations was curious and novel, but for all that i was heartily tired and angry long before he had done his eating. but at last he made an end and putting his beggarly crockery on the black tin tray upon which he had had his teapot, and gathering all the crumbs up on the mustard stained cloth, he took the whole lot of things after him. his burden prevented his shutting the door behind him--as he would have done; i never saw such a man for shutting doors--and i followed him into a very dirty underground kitchen and scullery. i had the pleasure of seeing him begin to wash up, and then, finding no good in keeping down there, and the brick floor being cold on my feet, i returned upstairs and sat in his chair by the fire. it was burning low, and scarcely thinking, i put on a little coal. the noise of this brought him up at once, and he stood aglare. he peered about the room and was within an ace of touching me. even after that examination, he scarcely seemed satisfied. he stopped in the doorway and took a final inspection before he went down. "i waited in the little parlour for an age, and at last he came up and opened the upstairs door. i just managed to get by him. "on the staircase he stopped suddenly, so that i very nearly blundered into him. he stood looking back right into my face and listening. 'i could have sworn,' he said. his long hairy hand pulled at his lower lip. his eye went up and down the staircase. then he grunted and went on up again. "his hand was on the handle of a door, and then he stopped again with the same puzzled anger on his face. he was becoming aware of the faint sounds of my movements about him. the man must have had diabolically acute hearing. he suddenly flashed into rage. 'if there's anyone in this house--' he cried with an oath, and left the threat unfinished. he put his hand in his pocket, failed to find what he wanted, and rushing past me went blundering noisily and pugnaciously downstairs. but i did not follow him. i sat on the head of the staircase until his return. "presently he came up again, still muttering. he opened the door of the room, and before i could enter, slammed it in my face. "i resolved to explore the house, and spent some time in doing so as noiselessly as possible. the house was very old and tumble-down, damp so that the paper in the attics was peeling from the walls, and rat infested. some of the door handles were stiff and i was afraid to turn them. several rooms i did inspect were unfurnished, and others were littered with theatrical lumber, bought second-hand, i judged, from its appearance. in one room next to his i found a lot of old clothes. i began routing among these, and in my eagerness forgot again the evident sharpness of his ears. i heard a stealthy footstep and, looking up just in time, saw him peering in at the tumbled heap and holding an old-fashioned revolver in his hand. i stood perfectly still while he stared about open-mouthed and suspicious. 'it must have been her,' he said slowly. 'damn her!' "he shut the door quietly, and immediately i heard the key turn in the lock. then his footsteps retreated. i realised abruptly that i was locked in. for a minute i did not know what to do. i walked from door to window and back, and stood perplexed. a gust of anger came upon me. but i decided to inspect the clothes before i did anything further, and my first attempt brought down a pile from an upper shelf. this brought him back, more sinister than ever. that time he actually touched me, jumped back with amazement and stood astonished in the middle of the room. "presently he calmed a little. 'rats,' he said in an undertone, fingers on lips. he was evidently a little scared. i edged quietly out of the room, but a plank creaked. then the infernal little brute started going all over the house, revolver in hand and locking door after door and pocketing the keys. when i realised what he was up to i had a fit of rage--i could hardly control myself sufficiently to watch my opportunity. by this time i knew he was alone in the house, and so i made no more ado, but knocked him on the head." "knocked him on the head?" exclaimed kemp. "yes--stunned him--as he was going downstairs. hit him from behind with a stool that stood on the landing. he went downstairs like a bag of old boots." "but--i say! the common conventions of humanity--" "are all very well for common people. but the point was, kemp, that i had to get out of that house in a disguise without his seeing me. i couldn't think of any other way of doing it. and then i gagged him with a louis quatorze vest and tied him up in a sheet." "tied him up in a sheet!" "made a sort of bag of it. it was rather a good idea to keep the idiot scared and quiet, and a devilish hard thing to get out of--head away from the string. my dear kemp, it's no good your sitting glaring as though i was a murderer. it had to be done. he had his revolver. if once he saw me he would be able to describe me--" "but still," said kemp, "in england--to-day. and the man was in his own house, and you were--well, robbing." "robbing! confound it! you'll call me a thief next! surely, kemp, you're not fool enough to dance on the old strings. can't you see my position?" "and his too," said kemp. the invisible man stood up sharply. "what do you mean to say?" kemp's face grew a trifle hard. he was about to speak and checked himself. "i suppose, after all," he said with a sudden change of manner, "the thing had to be done. you were in a fix. but still--" "of course i was in a fix--an infernal fix. and he made me wild too--hunting me about the house, fooling about with his revolver, locking and unlocking doors. he was simply exasperating. you don't blame me, do you? you don't blame me?" "i never blame anyone," said kemp. "it's quite out of fashion. what did you do next?" "i was hungry. downstairs i found a loaf and some rank cheese--more than sufficient to satisfy my hunger. i took some brandy and water, and then went up past my impromptu bag--he was lying quite still--to the room containing the old clothes. this looked out upon the street, two lace curtains brown with dirt guarding the window. i went and peered out through their interstices. outside the day was bright--by contrast with the brown shadows of the dismal house in which i found myself, dazzlingly bright. a brisk traffic was going by, fruit carts, a hansom, a four-wheeler with a pile of boxes, a fishmonger's cart. i turned with spots of colour swimming before my eyes to the shadowy fixtures behind me. my excitement was giving place to a clear apprehension of my position again. the room was full of a faint scent of benzoline, used, i suppose, in cleaning the garments. "i began a systematic search of the place. i should judge the hunchback had been alone in the house for some time. he was a curious person. everything that could possibly be of service to me i collected in the clothes storeroom, and then i made a deliberate selection. i found a handbag i thought a suitable possession, and some powder, rouge, and sticking-plaster. "i had thought of painting and powdering my face and all that there was to show of me, in order to render myself visible, but the disadvantage of this lay in the fact that i should require turpentine and other appliances and a considerable amount of time before i could vanish again. finally i chose a mask of the better type, slightly grotesque but not more so than many human beings, dark glasses, greyish whiskers, and a wig. i could find no underclothing, but that i could buy subsequently, and for the time i swathed myself in calico dominoes and some white cashmere scarfs. i could find no socks, but the hunchback's boots were rather a loose fit and sufficed. in a desk in the shop were three sovereigns and about thirty shillings' worth of silver, and in a locked cupboard i burst in the inner room were eight pounds in gold. i could go forth into the world again, equipped. "then came a curious hesitation. was my appearance really credible? i tried myself with a little bedroom looking-glass, inspecting myself from every point of view to discover any forgotten chink, but it all seemed sound. i was grotesque to the theatrical pitch, a stage miser, but i was certainly not a physical impossibility. gathering confidence, i took my looking-glass down into the shop, pulled down the shop blinds, and surveyed myself from every point of view with the help of the cheval glass in the corner. "i spent some minutes screwing up my courage and then unlocked the shop door and marched out into the street, leaving the little man to get out of his sheet again when he liked. in five minutes a dozen turnings intervened between me and the costumier's shop. no one appeared to notice me very pointedly. my last difficulty seemed overcome." he stopped again. "and you troubled no more about the hunchback?" said kemp. "no," said the invisible man. "nor have i heard what became of him. i suppose he untied himself or kicked himself out. the knots were pretty tight." he became silent and went to the window and stared out. "what happened when you went out into the strand?" "oh!--disillusionment again. i thought my troubles were over. practically i thought i had impunity to do whatever i chose, everything--save to give away my secret. so i thought. whatever i did, whatever the consequences might be, was nothing to me. i had merely to fling aside my garments and vanish. no person could hold me. i could take my money where i found it. i decided to treat myself to a sumptuous feast, and then put up at a good hotel, and accumulate a new outfit of property. i felt amazingly confident; it's not particularly pleasant recalling that i was an ass. i went into a place and was already ordering lunch, when it occurred to me that i could not eat unless i exposed my invisible face. i finished ordering the lunch, told the man i should be back in ten minutes, and went out exasperated. i don't know if you have ever been disappointed in your appetite." "not quite so badly," said kemp, "but i can imagine it." "i could have smashed the silly devils. at last, faint with the desire for tasteful food, i went into another place and demanded a private room. 'i am disfigured,' i said. 'badly.' they looked at me curiously, but of course it was not their affair--and so at last i got my lunch. it was not particularly well served, but it sufficed; and when i had had it, i sat over a cigar, trying to plan my line of action. and outside a snowstorm was beginning. "the more i thought it over, kemp, the more i realised what a helpless absurdity an invisible man was--in a cold and dirty climate and a crowded civilised city. before i made this mad experiment i had dreamt of a thousand advantages. that afternoon it seemed all disappointment. i went over the heads of the things a man reckons desirable. no doubt invisibility made it possible to get them, but it made it impossible to enjoy them when they are got. ambition--what is the good of pride of place when you cannot appear there? what is the good of the love of woman when her name must needs be delilah? i have no taste for politics, for the blackguardisms of fame, for philanthropy, for sport. what was i to do? and for this i had become a wrapped-up mystery, a swathed and bandaged caricature of a man!" he paused, and his attitude suggested a roving glance at the window. "but how did you get to iping?" said kemp, anxious to keep his guest busy talking. "i went there to work. i had one hope. it was a half idea! i have it still. it is a full blown idea now. a way of getting back! of restoring what i have done. when i choose. when i have done all i mean to do invisibly. and that is what i chiefly want to talk to you about now." "you went straight to iping?" "yes. i had simply to get my three volumes of memoranda and my cheque-book, my luggage and underclothing, order a quantity of chemicals to work out this idea of mine--i will show you the calculations as soon as i get my books--and then i started. jove! i remember the snowstorm now, and the accursed bother it was to keep the snow from damping my pasteboard nose." "at the end," said kemp, "the day before yesterday, when they found you out, you rather--to judge by the papers--" "i did. rather. did i kill that fool of a constable?" "no," said kemp. "he's expected to recover." "that's his luck, then. i clean lost my temper, the fools! why couldn't they leave me alone? and that grocer lout?" "there are no deaths expected," said kemp. "i don't know about that tramp of mine," said the invisible man, with an unpleasant laugh. "by heaven, kemp, you don't know what rage _is_! ... to have worked for years, to have planned and plotted, and then to get some fumbling purblind idiot messing across your course! ... every conceivable sort of silly creature that has ever been created has been sent to cross me. "if i have much more of it, i shall go wild--i shall start mowing 'em. "as it is, they've made things a thousand times more difficult." "no doubt it's exasperating," said kemp, drily. chapter xxiv the plan that failed "but now," said kemp, with a side glance out of the window, "what are we to do?" he moved nearer his guest as he spoke in such a manner as to prevent the possibility of a sudden glimpse of the three men who were advancing up the hill road--with an intolerable slowness, as it seemed to kemp. "what were you planning to do when you were heading for port burdock? _had_ you any plan?" "i was going to clear out of the country. but i have altered that plan rather since seeing you. i thought it would be wise, now the weather is hot and invisibility possible, to make for the south. especially as my secret was known, and everyone would be on the lookout for a masked and muffled man. you have a line of steamers from here to france. my idea was to get aboard one and run the risks of the passage. thence i could go by train into spain, or else get to algiers. it would not be difficult. there a man might always be invisible--and yet live. and do things. i was using that tramp as a money box and luggage carrier, until i decided how to get my books and things sent over to meet me." "that's clear." "and then the filthy brute must needs try and rob me! he _has_ hidden my books, kemp. hidden my books! if i can lay my hands on him!" "best plan to get the books out of him first." "but where is he? do you know?" "he's in the town police station, locked up, by his own request, in the strongest cell in the place." "cur!" said the invisible man. "but that hangs up your plans a little." "we must get those books; those books are vital." "certainly," said kemp, a little nervously, wondering if he heard footsteps outside. "certainly we must get those books. but that won't be difficult, if he doesn't know they're for you." "no," said the invisible man, and thought. kemp tried to think of something to keep the talk going, but the invisible man resumed of his own accord. "blundering into your house, kemp," he said, "changes all my plans. for you are a man that can understand. in spite of all that has happened, in spite of this publicity, of the loss of my books, of what i have suffered, there still remain great possibilities, huge possibilities--" "you have told no one i am here?" he asked abruptly. kemp hesitated. "that was implied," he said. "no one?" insisted griffin. "not a soul." "ah! now--" the invisible man stood up, and sticking his arms akimbo began to pace the study. "i made a mistake, kemp, a huge mistake, in carrying this thing through alone. i have wasted strength, time, opportunities. alone--it is wonderful how little a man can do alone! to rob a little, to hurt a little, and there is the end. "what i want, kemp, is a goal-keeper, a helper, and a hiding-place, an arrangement whereby i can sleep and eat and rest in peace, and unsuspected. i must have a confederate. with a confederate, with food and rest--a thousand things are possible. "hitherto i have gone on vague lines. we have to consider all that invisibility means, all that it does not mean. it means little advantage for eavesdropping and so forth--one makes sounds. it's of little help--a little help perhaps--in housebreaking and so forth. once you've caught me you could easily imprison me. but on the other hand i am hard to catch. this invisibility, in fact, is only good in two cases: it's useful in getting away, it's useful in approaching. it's particularly useful, therefore, in killing. i can walk round a man, whatever weapon he has, choose my point, strike as i like. dodge as i like. escape as i like." kemp's hand went to his moustache. was that a movement downstairs? "and it is killing we must do, kemp." "it is killing we must do," repeated kemp. "i'm listening to your plan, griffin, but i'm not agreeing, mind. _why_ killing?" "not wanton killing, but a judicious slaying. the point is, they know there is an invisible man--as well as we know there is an invisible man. and that invisible man, kemp, must now establish a reign of terror. yes; no doubt it's startling. but i mean it. a reign of terror. he must take some town like your burdock and terrify and dominate it. he must issue his orders. he can do that in a thousand ways--scraps of paper thrust under doors would suffice. and all who disobey his orders he must kill, and kill all who would defend them." "humph!" said kemp, no longer listening to griffin but to the sound of his front door opening and closing. "it seems to me, griffin," he said, to cover his wandering attention, "that your confederate would be in a difficult position." "no one would know he was a confederate," said the invisible man, eagerly. and then suddenly, "hush! what's that downstairs?" "nothing," said kemp, and suddenly began to speak loud and fast. "i don't agree to this, griffin," he said. "understand me, i don't agree to this. why dream of playing a game against the race? how can you hope to gain happiness? don't be a lone wolf. publish your results; take the world--take the nation at least--into your confidence. think what you might do with a million helpers--" the invisible man interrupted--arm extended. "there are footsteps coming upstairs," he said in a low voice. "nonsense," said kemp. "let me see," said the invisible man, and advanced, arm extended, to the door. and then things happened very swiftly. kemp hesitated for a second and then moved to intercept him. the invisible man started and stood still. "traitor!" cried the voice, and suddenly the dressing-gown opened, and sitting down the unseen began to disrobe. kemp made three swift steps to the door, and forthwith the invisible man--his legs had vanished--sprang to his feet with a shout. kemp flung the door open. as it opened, there came a sound of hurrying feet downstairs and voices. with a quick movement kemp thrust the invisible man back, sprang aside, and slammed the door. the key was outside and ready. in another moment griffin would have been alone in the belvedere study, a prisoner. save for one little thing. the key had been slipped in hastily that morning. as kemp slammed the door it fell noisily upon the carpet. kemp's face became white. he tried to grip the door handle with both hands. for a moment he stood lugging. then the door gave six inches. but he got it closed again. the second time it was jerked a foot wide, and the dressing-gown came wedging itself into the opening. his throat was gripped by invisible fingers, and he left his hold on the handle to defend himself. he was forced back, tripped and pitched heavily into the corner of the landing. the empty dressing-gown was flung on the top of him. halfway up the staircase was colonel adye, the recipient of kemp's letter, the chief of the burdock police. he was staring aghast at the sudden appearance of kemp, followed by the extraordinary sight of clothing tossing empty in the air. he saw kemp felled, and struggling to his feet. he saw him rush forward, and go down again, felled like an ox. then suddenly he was struck violently. by nothing! a vast weight, it seemed, leapt upon him, and he was hurled headlong down the staircase, with a grip on his throat and a knee in his groin. an invisible foot trod on his back, a ghostly patter passed downstairs, he heard the two police officers in the hall shout and run, and the front door of the house slammed violently. he rolled over and sat up staring. he saw, staggering down the staircase, kemp, dusty and disheveled, one side of his face white from a blow, his lip bleeding, and a pink dressing-gown and some underclothing held in his arms. "my god!" cried kemp, "the game's up! he's gone!" chapter xxv the hunting of the invisible man for a space kemp was too inarticulate to make adye understand the swift things that had just happened. they stood on the landing, kemp speaking swiftly, the grotesque swathings of griffin still on his arm. but presently adye began to grasp something of the situation. "he is mad," said kemp; "inhuman. he is pure selfishness. he thinks of nothing but his own advantage, his own safety. i have listened to such a story this morning of brutal self-seeking.... he has wounded men. he will kill them unless we can prevent him. he will create a panic. nothing can stop him. he is going out now--furious!" "he must be caught," said adye. "that is certain." "but how?" cried kemp, and suddenly became full of ideas. "you must begin at once. you must set every available man to work; you must prevent his leaving this district. once he gets away, he may go through the countryside as he wills, killing and maiming. he dreams of a reign of terror! a reign of terror, i tell you. you must set a watch on trains and roads and shipping. the garrison must help. you must wire for help. the only thing that may keep him here is the thought of recovering some books of notes he counts of value. i will tell you of that! there is a man in your police station--marvel." "i know," said adye, "i know. those books--yes. but the tramp...." "says he hasn't them. but he thinks the tramp has. and you must prevent him from eating or sleeping; day and night the country must be astir for him. food must be locked up and secured, all food, so that he will have to break his way to it. the houses everywhere must be barred against him. heaven send us cold nights and rain! the whole country-side must begin hunting and keep hunting. i tell you, adye, he is a danger, a disaster; unless he is pinned and secured, it is frightful to think of the things that may happen." "what else can we do?" said adye. "i must go down at once and begin organising. but why not come? yes--you come too! come, and we must hold a sort of council of war--get hopps to help--and the railway managers. by jove! it's urgent. come along--tell me as we go. what else is there we can do? put that stuff down." in another moment adye was leading the way downstairs. they found the front door open and the policemen standing outside staring at empty air. "he's got away, sir," said one. "we must go to the central station at once," said adye. "one of you go on down and get a cab to come up and meet us--quickly. and now, kemp, what else?" "dogs," said kemp. "get dogs. they don't see him, but they wind him. get dogs." "good," said adye. "it's not generally known, but the prison officials over at halstead know a man with bloodhounds. dogs. what else?" "bear in mind," said kemp, "his food shows. after eating, his food shows until it is assimilated. so that he has to hide after eating. you must keep on beating. every thicket, every quiet corner. and put all weapons--all implements that might be weapons, away. he can't carry such things for long. and what he can snatch up and strike men with must be hidden away." "good again," said adye. "we shall have him yet!" "and on the roads," said kemp, and hesitated. "yes?" said adye. "powdered glass," said kemp. "it's cruel, i know. but think of what he may do!" adye drew the air in sharply between his teeth. "it's unsportsmanlike. i don't know. but i'll have powdered glass got ready. if he goes too far...." "the man's become inhuman, i tell you," said kemp. "i am as sure he will establish a reign of terror--so soon as he has got over the emotions of this escape--as i am sure i am talking to you. our only chance is to be ahead. he has cut himself off from his kind. his blood be upon his own head." chapter xxvi the wicksteed murder the invisible man seems to have rushed out of kemp's house in a state of blind fury. a little child playing near kemp's gateway was violently caught up and thrown aside, so that its ankle was broken, and thereafter for some hours the invisible man passed out of human perceptions. no one knows where he went nor what he did. but one can imagine him hurrying through the hot june forenoon, up the hill and on to the open downland behind port burdock, raging and despairing at his intolerable fate, and sheltering at last, heated and weary, amid the thickets of hintondean, to piece together again his shattered schemes against his species. that seems the most probable refuge for him, for there it was he re-asserted himself in a grimly tragical manner about two in the afternoon. one wonders what his state of mind may have been during that time, and what plans he devised. no doubt he was almost ecstatically exasperated by kemp's treachery, and though we may be able to understand the motives that led to that deceit, we may still imagine and even sympathise a little with the fury the attempted surprise must have occasioned. perhaps something of the stunned astonishment of his oxford street experiences may have returned to him, for he had evidently counted on kemp's co-operation in his brutal dream of a terrorised world. at any rate he vanished from human ken about midday, and no living witness can tell what he did until about half-past two. it was a fortunate thing, perhaps, for humanity, but for him it was a fatal inaction. during that time a growing multitude of men scattered over the countryside were busy. in the morning he had still been simply a legend, a terror; in the afternoon, by virtue chiefly of kemp's drily worded proclamation, he was presented as a tangible antagonist, to be wounded, captured, or overcome, and the countryside began organising itself with inconceivable rapidity. by two o'clock even he might still have removed himself out of the district by getting aboard a train, but after two that became impossible. every passenger train along the lines on a great parallelogram between southampton, manchester, brighton and horsham, travelled with locked doors, and the goods traffic was almost entirely suspended. and in a great circle of twenty miles round port burdock, men armed with guns and bludgeons were presently setting out in groups of three and four, with dogs, to beat the roads and fields. mounted policemen rode along the country lanes, stopping at every cottage and warning the people to lock up their houses, and keep indoors unless they were armed, and all the elementary schools had broken up by three o'clock, and the children, scared and keeping together in groups, were hurrying home. kemp's proclamation--signed indeed by adye--was posted over almost the whole district by four or five o'clock in the afternoon. it gave briefly but clearly all the conditions of the struggle, the necessity of keeping the invisible man from food and sleep, the necessity for incessant watchfulness and for a prompt attention to any evidence of his movements. and so swift and decided was the action of the authorities, so prompt and universal was the belief in this strange being, that before nightfall an area of several hundred square miles was in a stringent state of siege. and before nightfall, too, a thrill of horror went through the whole watching nervous countryside. going from whispering mouth to mouth, swift and certain over the length and breadth of the country, passed the story of the murder of mr. wicksteed. if our supposition that the invisible man's refuge was the hintondean thickets, then we must suppose that in the early afternoon he sallied out again bent upon some project that involved the use of a weapon. we cannot know what the project was, but the evidence that he had the iron rod in hand before he met wicksteed is to me at least overwhelming. of course we can know nothing of the details of that encounter. it occurred on the edge of a gravel pit, not two hundred yards from lord burdock's lodge gate. everything points to a desperate struggle--the trampled ground, the numerous wounds mr. wicksteed received, his splintered walking-stick; but why the attack was made, save in a murderous frenzy, it is impossible to imagine. indeed the theory of madness is almost unavoidable. mr. wicksteed was a man of forty-five or forty-six, steward to lord burdock, of inoffensive habits and appearance, the very last person in the world to provoke such a terrible antagonist. against him it would seem the invisible man used an iron rod dragged from a broken piece of fence. he stopped this quiet man, going quietly home to his midday meal, attacked him, beat down his feeble defences, broke his arm, felled him, and smashed his head to a jelly. of course, he must have dragged this rod out of the fencing before he met his victim--he must have been carrying it ready in his hand. only two details beyond what has already been stated seem to bear on the matter. one is the circumstance that the gravel pit was not in mr. wicksteed's direct path home, but nearly a couple of hundred yards out of his way. the other is the assertion of a little girl to the effect that, going to her afternoon school, she saw the murdered man "trotting" in a peculiar manner across a field towards the gravel pit. her pantomime of his action suggests a man pursuing something on the ground before him and striking at it ever and again with his walking-stick. she was the last person to see him alive. he passed out of her sight to his death, the struggle being hidden from her only by a clump of beech trees and a slight depression in the ground. now this, to the present writer's mind at least, lifts the murder out of the realm of the absolutely wanton. we may imagine that griffin had taken the rod as a weapon indeed, but without any deliberate intention of using it in murder. wicksteed may then have come by and noticed this rod inexplicably moving through the air. without any thought of the invisible man--for port burdock is ten miles away--he may have pursued it. it is quite conceivable that he may not even have heard of the invisible man. one can then imagine the invisible man making off--quietly in order to avoid discovering his presence in the neighbourhood, and wicksteed, excited and curious, pursuing this unaccountably locomotive object--finally striking at it. no doubt the invisible man could easily have distanced his middle-aged pursuer under ordinary circumstances, but the position in which wicksteed's body was found suggests that he had the ill luck to drive his quarry into a corner between a drift of stinging nettles and the gravel pit. to those who appreciate the extraordinary irascibility of the invisible man, the rest of the encounter will be easy to imagine. but this is pure hypothesis. the only undeniable facts--for stories of children are often unreliable--are the discovery of wicksteed's body, done to death, and of the blood-stained iron rod flung among the nettles. the abandonment of the rod by griffin, suggests that in the emotional excitement of the affair, the purpose for which he took it--if he had a purpose--was abandoned. he was certainly an intensely egotistical and unfeeling man, but the sight of his victim, his first victim, bloody and pitiful at his feet, may have released some long pent fountain of remorse which for a time may have flooded whatever scheme of action he had contrived. after the murder of mr. wicksteed, he would seem to have struck across the country towards the downland. there is a story of a voice heard about sunset by a couple of men in a field near fern bottom. it was wailing and laughing, sobbing and groaning, and ever and again it shouted. it must have been queer hearing. it drove up across the middle of a clover field and died away towards the hills. that afternoon the invisible man must have learnt something of the rapid use kemp had made of his confidences. he must have found houses locked and secured; he may have loitered about railway stations and prowled about inns, and no doubt he read the proclamations and realised something of the nature of the campaign against him. and as the evening advanced, the fields became dotted here and there with groups of three or four men, and noisy with the yelping of dogs. these men-hunters had particular instructions in the case of an encounter as to the way they should support one another. but he avoided them all. we may understand something of his exasperation, and it could have been none the less because he himself had supplied the information that was being used so remorselessly against him. for that day at least he lost heart; for nearly twenty-four hours, save when he turned on wicksteed, he was a hunted man. in the night, he must have eaten and slept; for in the morning he was himself again, active, powerful, angry, and malignant, prepared for his last great struggle against the world. chapter xxvii the siege of kemp's house kemp read a strange missive, written in pencil on a greasy sheet of paper. "you have been amazingly energetic and clever," this letter ran, "though what you stand to gain by it i cannot imagine. you are against me. for a whole day you have chased me; you have tried to rob me of a night's rest. but i have had food in spite of you, i have slept in spite of you, and the game is only beginning. the game is only beginning. there is nothing for it, but to start the terror. this announces the first day of the terror. port burdock is no longer under the queen, tell your colonel of police, and the rest of them; it is under me--the terror! this is day one of year one of the new epoch--the epoch of the invisible man. i am invisible man the first. to begin with the rule will be easy. the first day there will be one execution for the sake of example--a man named kemp. death starts for him to-day. he may lock himself away, hide himself away, get guards about him, put on armour if he likes--death, the unseen death, is coming. let him take precautions; it will impress my people. death starts from the pillar box by midday. the letter will fall in as the postman comes along, then off! the game begins. death starts. help him not, my people, lest death fall upon you also. to-day kemp is to die." kemp read this letter twice, "it's no hoax," he said. "that's his voice! and he means it." he turned the folded sheet over and saw on the addressed side of it the postmark hintondean, and the prosaic detail " d. to pay." he got up slowly, leaving his lunch unfinished--the letter had come by the one o'clock post--and went into his study. he rang for his housekeeper, and told her to go round the house at once, examine all the fastenings of the windows, and close all the shutters. he closed the shutters of his study himself. from a locked drawer in his bedroom he took a little revolver, examined it carefully, and put it into the pocket of his lounge jacket. he wrote a number of brief notes, one to colonel adye, gave them to his servant to take, with explicit instructions as to her way of leaving the house. "there is no danger," he said, and added a mental reservation, "to you." he remained meditative for a space after doing this, and then returned to his cooling lunch. he ate with gaps of thought. finally he struck the table sharply. "we will have him!" he said; "and i am the bait. he will come too far." he went up to the belvedere, carefully shutting every door after him. "it's a game," he said, "an odd game--but the chances are all for me, mr. griffin, in spite of your invisibility. griffin _contra mundum_ ... with a vengeance." he stood at the window staring at the hot hillside. "he must get food every day--and i don't envy him. did he really sleep last night? out in the open somewhere--secure from collisions. i wish we could get some good cold wet weather instead of the heat. "he may be watching me now." he went close to the window. something rapped smartly against the brickwork over the frame, and made him start violently back. "i'm getting nervous," said kemp. but it was five minutes before he went to the window again. "it must have been a sparrow," he said. presently he heard the front-door bell ringing, and hurried downstairs. he unbolted and unlocked the door, examined the chain, put it up, and opened cautiously without showing himself. a familiar voice hailed him. it was adye. "your servant's been assaulted, kemp," he said round the door. "what!" exclaimed kemp. "had that note of yours taken away from her. he's close about here. let me in." kemp released the chain, and adye entered through as narrow an opening as possible. he stood in the hall, looking with infinite relief at kemp refastening the door. "note was snatched out of her hand. scared her horribly. she's down at the station. hysterics. he's close here. what was it about?" kemp swore. "what a fool i was," said kemp. "i might have known. it's not an hour's walk from hintondean. already?" "what's up?" said adye. "look here!" said kemp, and led the way into his study. he handed adye the invisible man's letter. adye read it and whistled softly. "and you--?" said adye. "proposed a trap--like a fool," said kemp, "and sent my proposal out by a maid servant. to him." adye followed kemp's profanity. "he'll clear out," said adye. "not he," said kemp. a resounding smash of glass came from upstairs. adye had a silvery glimpse of a little revolver half out of kemp's pocket. "it's a window, upstairs!" said kemp, and led the way up. there came a second smash while they were still on the staircase. when they reached the study they found two of the three windows smashed, half the room littered with splintered glass, and one big flint lying on the writing table. the two men stopped in the doorway, contemplating the wreckage. kemp swore again, and as he did so the third window went with a snap like a pistol, hung starred for a moment, and collapsed in jagged, shivering triangles into the room. "what's this for?" said adye. "it's a beginning," said kemp. "there's no way of climbing up here?" "not for a cat," said kemp. "no shutters?" "not here. all the downstairs rooms--hullo!" smash, and then whack of boards hit hard came from downstairs. "confound him!" said kemp. "that must be--yes--it's one of the bedrooms. he's going to do all the house. but he's a fool. the shutters are up, and the glass will fall outside. he'll cut his feet." another window proclaimed its destruction. the two men stood on the landing perplexed. "i have it!" said adye. "let me have a stick or something, and i'll go down to the station and get the bloodhounds put on. that ought to settle him! they're hard by--not ten minutes--" another window went the way of its fellows. "you haven't a revolver?" asked adye. kemp's hand went to his pocket. then he hesitated. "i haven't one--at least to spare." "i'll bring it back," said adye, "you'll be safe here." kemp, ashamed of his momentary lapse from truthfulness, handed him the weapon. "now for the door," said adye. as they stood hesitating in the hall, they heard one of the first-floor bedroom windows crack and clash. kemp went to the door and began to slip the bolts as silently as possible. his face was a little paler than usual. "you must step straight out," said kemp. in another moment adye was on the doorstep and the bolts were dropping back into the staples. he hesitated for a moment, feeling more comfortable with his back against the door. then he marched, upright and square, down the steps. he crossed the lawn and approached the gate. a little breeze seemed to ripple over the grass. something moved near him. "stop a bit," said a voice, and adye stopped dead and his hand tightened on the revolver. "well?" said adye, white and grim, and every nerve tense. "oblige me by going back to the house," said the voice, as tense and grim as adye's. "sorry," said adye a little hoarsely, and moistened his lips with his tongue. the voice was on his left front, he thought. suppose he were to take his luck with a shot? "what are you going for?" said the voice, and there was a quick movement of the two, and a flash of sunlight from the open lip of adye's pocket. adye desisted and thought. "where i go," he said slowly, "is my own business." the words were still on his lips, when an arm came round his neck, his back felt a knee, and he was sprawling backward. he drew clumsily and fired absurdly, and in another moment he was struck in the mouth and the revolver wrested from his grip. he made a vain clutch at a slippery limb, tried to struggle up and fell back. "damn!" said adye. the voice laughed. "i'd kill you now if it wasn't the waste of a bullet," it said. he saw the revolver in mid-air, six feet off, covering him. "well?" said adye, sitting up. "get up," said the voice. adye stood up. "attention," said the voice, and then fiercely, "don't try any games. remember i can see your face if you can't see mine. you've got to go back to the house." "he won't let me in," said adye. "that's a pity," said the invisible man. "i've got no quarrel with you." adye moistened his lips again. he glanced away from the barrel of the revolver and saw the sea far off very blue and dark under the midday sun, the smooth green down, the white cliff of the head, and the multitudinous town, and suddenly he knew that life was very sweet. his eyes came back to this little metal thing hanging between heaven and earth, six yards away. "what am i to do?" he said sullenly. "what am _i_ to do?" asked the invisible man. "you will get help. the only thing is for you to go back." "i will try. if he lets me in will you promise not to rush the door?" "i've got no quarrel with you," said the voice. kemp had hurried upstairs after letting adye out, and now crouching among the broken glass and peering cautiously over the edge of the study window sill, he saw adye stand parleying with the unseen. "why doesn't he fire?" whispered kemp to himself. then the revolver moved a little and the glint of the sunlight flashed in kemp's eyes. he shaded his eyes and tried to see the source of the blinding beam. "surely!" he said, "adye has given up the revolver." "promise not to rush the door," adye was saying. "don't push a winning game too far. give a man a chance." "you go back to the house. i tell you flatly i will not promise anything." adye's decision seemed suddenly made. he turned towards the house, walking slowly with his hands behind him. kemp watched him--puzzled. the revolver vanished, flashed again into sight, vanished again, and became evident on a closer scrutiny as a little dark object following adye. then things happened very quickly. adye leapt backwards, swung around, clutched at this little object, missed it, threw up his hands and fell forward on his face, leaving a little puff of blue in the air. kemp did not hear the sound of the shot. adye writhed, raised himself on one arm, fell forward, and lay still. for a space kemp remained staring at the quiet carelessness of adye's attitude. the afternoon was very hot and still, nothing seemed stirring in all the world save a couple of yellow butterflies chasing each other through the shrubbery between the house and the road gate. adye lay on the lawn near the gate. the blinds of all the villas down the hill-road were drawn, but in one little green summer-house was a white figure, apparently an old man asleep. kemp scrutinised the surroundings of the house for a glimpse of the revolver, but it had vanished. his eyes came back to adye. the game was opening well. then came a ringing and knocking at the front door, that grew at last tumultuous, but pursuant to kemp's instructions the servants had locked themselves into their rooms. this was followed by a silence. kemp sat listening and then began peering cautiously out of the three windows, one after another. he went to the staircase head and stood listening uneasily. he armed himself with his bedroom poker, and went to examine the interior fastenings of the ground-floor windows again. everything was safe and quiet. he returned to the belvedere. adye lay motionless over the edge of the gravel just as he had fallen. coming along the road by the villas were the housemaid and two policemen. everything was deadly still. the three people seemed very slow in approaching. he wondered what his antagonist was doing. he started. there was a smash from below. he hesitated and went downstairs again. suddenly the house resounded with heavy blows and the splintering of wood. he heard a smash and the destructive clang of the iron fastenings of the shutters. he turned the key and opened the kitchen door. as he did so, the shutters, split and splintering, came flying inward. he stood aghast. the window frame, save for one crossbar, was still intact, but only little teeth of glass remained in the frame. the shutters had been driven in with an axe, and now the axe was descending in sweeping blows upon the window frame and the iron bars defending it. then suddenly it leapt aside and vanished. he saw the revolver lying on the path outside, and then the little weapon sprang into the air. he dodged back. the revolver cracked just too late, and a splinter from the edge of the closing door flashed over his head. he slammed and locked the door, and as he stood outside he heard griffin shouting and laughing. then the blows of the axe with its splitting and smashing consequences, were resumed. kemp stood in the passage trying to think. in a moment the invisible man would be in the kitchen. this door would not keep him a moment, and then-- a ringing came at the front door again. it would be the policemen. he ran into the hall, put up the chain, and drew the bolts. he made the girl speak before he dropped the chain, and the three people blundered into the house in a heap, and kemp slammed the door again. "the invisible man!" said kemp. "he has a revolver, with two shots--left. he's killed adye. shot him anyhow. didn't you see him on the lawn? he's lying there." "who?" said one of the policemen. "adye," said kemp. "we came in the back way," said the girl. "what's that smashing?" asked one of the policemen. "he's in the kitchen--or will be. he has found an axe--" suddenly the house was full of the invisible man's resounding blows on the kitchen door. the girl stared towards the kitchen, shuddered, and retreated into the dining-room. kemp tried to explain in broken sentences. they heard the kitchen door give. "this way," said kemp, starting into activity, and bundled the policemen into the dining-room doorway. "poker," said kemp, and rushed to the fender. he handed the poker he had carried to the policeman and the dining-room one to the other. he suddenly flung himself backward. "whup!" said one policeman, ducked, and caught the axe on his poker. the pistol snapped its penultimate shot and ripped a valuable sidney cooper. the second policeman brought his poker down on the little weapon, as one might knock down a wasp, and sent it rattling to the floor. at the first clash the girl screamed, stood screaming for a moment by the fireplace, and then ran to open the shutters--possibly with an idea of escaping by the shattered window. the axe receded into the passage, and fell to a position about two feet from the ground. they could hear the invisible man breathing. "stand away, you two," he said. "i want that man kemp." "we want you," said the first policeman, making a quick step forward and wiping with his poker at the voice. the invisible man must have started back, and he blundered into the umbrella stand. then, as the policeman staggered with the swing of the blow he had aimed, the invisible man countered with the axe, the helmet crumpled like paper, and the blow sent the man spinning to the floor at the head of the kitchen stairs. but the second policeman, aiming behind the axe with his poker, hit something soft that snapped. there was a sharp exclamation of pain and then the axe fell to the ground. the policeman wiped again at vacancy and hit nothing; he put his foot on the axe, and struck again. then he stood, poker clubbed, listening intent for the slightest movement. he heard the dining-room window open, and a quick rush of feet within. his companion rolled over and sat up, with the blood running down between his eye and ear. "where is he?" asked the man on the floor. "don't know. i've hit him. he's standing somewhere in the hall. unless he's slipped past you. doctor kemp--sir." pause. "doctor kemp," cried the policeman again. the second policeman began struggling to his feet. he stood up. suddenly the faint pad of bare feet on the kitchen stairs could be heard. "yap!" cried the first policeman, and incontinently flung his poker. it smashed a little gas bracket. he made as if he would pursue the invisible man downstairs. then he thought better of it and stepped into the dining-room. "doctor kemp--" he began, and stopped short. "doctor kemp's a hero," he said, as his companion looked over his shoulder. the dining-room window was wide open, and neither housemaid nor kemp was to be seen. the second policeman's opinion of kemp was terse and vivid. chapter xxviii the hunter hunted mr. heelas, mr. kemp's nearest neighbour among the villa holders, was asleep in his summer house when the siege of kemp's house began. mr. heelas was one of the sturdy minority who refused to believe "in all this nonsense" about an invisible man. his wife, however, as he was subsequently to be reminded, did. he insisted upon walking about his garden just as if nothing was the matter, and he went to sleep in the afternoon in accordance with the custom of years. he slept through the smashing of the windows, and then woke up suddenly with a curious persuasion of something wrong. he looked across at kemp's house, rubbed his eyes and looked again. then he put his feet to the ground, and sat listening. he said he was damned, but still the strange thing was visible. the house looked as though it had been deserted for weeks--after a violent riot. every window was broken, and every window, save those of the belvedere study, was blinded by the internal shutters. "i could have sworn it was all right"--he looked at his watch--"twenty minutes ago." he became aware of a measured concussion and the clash of glass, far away in the distance. and then, as he sat open-mouthed, came a still more wonderful thing. the shutters of the drawing-room window were flung open violently, and the housemaid in her outdoor hat and garments, appeared struggling in a frantic manner to throw up the sash. suddenly a man appeared beside her, helping her--dr. kemp! in another moment the window was open, and the housemaid was struggling out; she pitched forward and vanished among the shrubs. mr. heelas stood up, exclaiming vaguely and vehemently at all these wonderful things. he saw kemp stand on the sill, spring from the window, and reappear almost instantaneously running along a path in the shrubbery and stooping as he ran, like a man who evades observation. he vanished behind a laburnum, and appeared again clambering over a fence that abutted on the open down. in a second he had tumbled over and was running at a tremendous pace down the slope towards mr. heelas. "lord!" cried mr. heelas, struck with an idea; "it's that invisible man brute! it's right, after all!" with mr. heelas to think things like that was to act, and his cook watching him from the top window was amazed to see him come pelting towards the house at a good nine miles an hour. there was a slamming of doors, a ringing of bells, and the voice of mr. heelas bellowing like a bull. "shut the doors, shut the windows, shut everything!--the invisible man is coming!" instantly the house was full of screams and directions, and scurrying feet. he ran himself to shut the french windows that opened on the veranda; as he did so kemp's head and shoulders and knee appeared over the edge of the garden fence. in another moment kemp had ploughed through the asparagus, and was running across the tennis lawn to the house. "you can't come in," said mr. heelas, shutting the bolts. "i'm very sorry if he's after you, but you can't come in!" kemp appeared with a face of terror close to the glass, rapping and then shaking frantically at the french window. then, seeing his efforts were useless, he ran along the veranda, vaulted the end, and went to hammer at the side door. then he ran round by the side gate to the front of the house, and so into the hill-road. and mr. heelas staring from his window--a face of horror--had scarcely witnessed kemp vanish, ere the asparagus was being trampled this way and that by feet unseen. at that mr. heelas fled precipitately upstairs, and the rest of the chase is beyond his purview. but as he passed the staircase window, he heard the side gate slam. emerging into the hill-road, kemp naturally took the downward direction, and so it was he came to run in his own person the very race he had watched with such a critical eye from the belvedere study only four days ago. he ran it well, for a man out of training, and though his face was white and wet, his wits were cool to the last. he ran with wide strides, and wherever a patch of rough ground intervened, wherever there came a patch of raw flints, or a bit of broken glass shone dazzling, he crossed it and left the bare invisible feet that followed to take what line they would. for the first time in his life kemp discovered that the hill-road was indescribably vast and desolate, and that the beginnings of the town far below at the hill foot were strangely remote. never had there been a slower or more painful method of progression than running. all the gaunt villas, sleeping in the afternoon sun, looked locked and barred; no doubt they were locked and barred--by his own orders. but at any rate they might have kept a lookout for an eventuality like this! the town was rising up now, the sea had dropped out of sight behind it, and people down below were stirring. a tram was just arriving at the hill foot. beyond that was the police station. was that footsteps he heard behind him? spurt. the people below were staring at him, one or two were running, and his breath was beginning to saw in his throat. the tram was quite near now, and the "jolly cricketers" was noisily barring its doors. beyond the tram were posts and heaps of gravel--the drainage works. he had a transitory idea of jumping into the tram and slamming the doors, and then he resolved to go for the police station. in another moment he had passed the door of the "jolly cricketers," and was in the blistering fag end of the street, with human beings about him. the tram driver and his helper--arrested by the sight of his furious haste--stood staring with the tram horses unhitched. further on the astonished features of navvies appeared above the mounds of gravel. his pace broke a little, and then he heard the swift pad of his pursuer, and leapt forward again. "the invisible man!" he cried to the navvies, with a vague indicative gesture, and by an inspiration leapt the excavation and placed a burly group between him and the chase. then abandoning the idea of the police station he turned into a little side street, rushed by a greengrocer's cart, hesitated for the tenth of a second at the door of a sweetstuff shop, and then made for the mouth of an alley that ran back into the main hill street again. two or three little children were playing here, and shrieked and scattered at his apparition, and forthwith doors and windows opened and excited mothers revealed their hearts. out he shot into hill street again, three hundred yards from the tram-line end, and immediately he became aware of a tumultuous vociferation and running people. he glanced up the street towards the hill. hardly a dozen yards off ran a huge navvy, cursing in fragments and slashing viciously with a spade, and hard behind him came the tram conductor with his fists clenched. up the street others followed these two, striking and shouting. down towards the town, men and women were running, and he noticed clearly one man coming out of a shop-door with a stick in his hand. "spread out! spread out!" cried some one. kemp suddenly grasped the altered condition of the chase. he stopped, and looked round, panting. "he's close here!" he cried. "form a line across--" he was hit hard under the ear, and went reeling, trying to face round towards his unseen antagonist. he just managed to keep his feet, and he struck a vain counter in the air. then he was hit again under the jaw, and sprawled headlong on the ground. in another moment a knee compressed his diaphragm, and a couple of eager hands gripped his throat, but the grip of one was weaker than the other; he grasped the wrists, heard a cry of pain from his assailant, and then the spade of the navvy came whirling through the air above him, and struck something with a dull thud. he felt a drop of moisture on his face. the grip at his throat suddenly relaxed, and with a convulsive effort, kemp loosed himself, grasped a limp shoulder, and rolled uppermost. he gripped the unseen elbows near the ground. "i've got him!" screamed kemp. "help! help--hold! he's down! hold his feet!" in another second there was a simultaneous rush upon the struggle, and a stranger coming into the road suddenly might have thought an exceptionally savage game of rugby football was in progress. and there was no shouting after kemp's cry--only a sound of blows and feet and heavy breathing. then came a mighty effort, and the invisible man threw off a couple of his antagonists and rose to his knees. kemp clung to him in front like a hound to a stag, and a dozen hands gripped, clutched, and tore at the unseen. the tram conductor suddenly got the neck and shoulders and lugged him back. down went the heap of struggling men again and rolled over. there was, i am afraid, some savage kicking. then suddenly a wild scream of "mercy! mercy!" that died down swiftly to a sound like choking. "get back, you fools!" cried the muffled voice of kemp, and there was a vigorous shoving back of stalwart forms. "he's hurt, i tell you. stand back!" there was a brief struggle to clear a space, and then the circle of eager faces saw the doctor kneeling, as it seemed, fifteen inches in the air, and holding invisible arms to the ground. behind him a constable gripped invisible ankles. "don't you leave go of en," cried the big navvy, holding a blood-stained spade; "he's shamming." "he's not shamming," said the doctor, cautiously raising his knee; "and i'll hold him." his face was bruised and already going red; he spoke thickly because of a bleeding lip. he released one hand and seemed to be feeling at the face. "the mouth's all wet," he said. and then, "good god!" he stood up abruptly and then knelt down on the ground by the side of the thing unseen. there was a pushing and shuffling, a sound of heavy feet as fresh people turned up to increase the pressure of the crowd. people now were coming out of the houses. the doors of the "jolly cricketers" stood suddenly wide open. very little was said. kemp felt about, his hand seeming to pass through empty air. "he's not breathing," he said, and then, "i can't feel his heart. his side--ugh!" suddenly an old woman, peering under the arm of the big navvy, screamed sharply. "looky there!" she said, and thrust out a wrinkled finger. and looking where she pointed, everyone saw, faint and transparent as though it was made of glass, so that veins and arteries and bones and nerves could be distinguished, the outline of a hand, a hand limp and prone. it grew clouded and opaque even as they stared. "hullo!" cried the constable. "here's his feet a-showing!" and so, slowly, beginning at his hands and feet and creeping along his limbs to the vital centres of his body, that strange change continued. it was like the slow spreading of a poison. first came the little white nerves, a hazy grey sketch of a limb, then the glassy bones and intricate arteries, then the flesh and skin, first a faint fogginess, and then growing rapidly dense and opaque. presently they could see his crushed chest and his shoulders, and the dim outline of his drawn and battered features. when at last the crowd made way for kemp to stand erect, there lay, naked and pitiful on the ground, the bruised and broken body of a young man about thirty. his hair and brow were white--not grey with age, but white with the whiteness of albinism--and his eyes were like garnets. his hands were clenched, his eyes wide open, and his expression was one of anger and dismay. "cover his face!" said a man. "for gawd's sake, cover that face!" and three little children, pushing forward through the crowd, were suddenly twisted round and sent packing off again. someone brought a sheet from the "jolly cricketers," and having covered him, they carried him into that house. and there it was, on a shabby bed in a tawdry, ill-lighted bedroom, surrounded by a crowd of ignorant and excited people, broken and wounded, betrayed and unpitied, that griffin, the first of all men to make himself invisible, griffin, the most gifted physicist the world has ever seen, ended in infinite disaster his strange and terrible career. the epilogue so ends the story of the strange and evil experiments of the invisible man. and if you would learn more of him you must go to a little inn near port stowe and talk to the landlord. the sign of the inn is an empty board save for a hat and boots, and the name is the title of this story. the landlord is a short and corpulent little man with a nose of cylindrical proportions, wiry hair, and a sporadic rosiness of visage. drink generously, and he will tell you generously of all the things that happened to him after that time, and of how the lawyers tried to do him out of the treasure found upon him. "when they found they couldn't prove whose money was which, i'm blessed," he says, "if they didn't try to make me out a blooming treasure trove! do i _look_ like a treasure trove? and then a gentleman gave me a guinea a night to tell the story at the empire music 'all--just to tell 'em in my own words--barring one." and if you want to cut off the flow of his reminiscences abruptly, you can always do so by asking if there weren't three manuscript books in the story. he admits there were and proceeds to explain, with asseverations that everybody thinks _he_ has 'em! but bless you! he hasn't. "the invisible man it was took 'em off to hide 'em when i cut and ran for port stowe. it's that mr. kemp put people on with the idea of _my_ having 'em." and then he subsides into a pensive state, watches you furtively, bustles nervously with glasses, and presently leaves the bar. he is a bachelor man--his tastes were ever bachelor, and there are no women folk in the house. outwardly he buttons--it is expected of him--but in his more vital privacies, in the matter of braces for example, he still turns to string. he conducts his house without enterprise, but with eminent decorum. his movements are slow, and he is a great thinker. but he has a reputation for wisdom and for a respectable parsimony in the village, and his knowledge of the roads of the south of england would beat cobbett. and on sunday mornings, every sunday morning, all the year round, while he is closed to the outer world, and every night after ten, he goes into his bar parlour, bearing a glass of gin faintly tinged with water, and having placed this down, he locks the door and examines the blinds, and even looks under the table. and then, being satisfied of his solitude, he unlocks the cupboard and a box in the cupboard and a drawer in that box, and produces three volumes bound in brown leather, and places them solemnly in the middle of the table. the covers are weather-worn and tinged with an algal green--for once they sojourned in a ditch and some of the pages have been washed blank by dirty water. the landlord sits down in an armchair, fills a long clay pipe slowly--gloating over the books the while. then he pulls one towards him and opens it, and begins to study it--turning over the leaves backwards and forwards. his brows are knit and his lips move painfully. "hex, little two up in the air, cross and a fiddle-de-dee. lord! what a one he was for intellect!" presently he relaxes and leans back, and blinks through his smoke across the room at things invisible to other eyes. "full of secrets," he says. "wonderful secrets!" "once i get the haul of them--_lord_!" "i wouldn't do what _he_ did; i'd just--well!" he pulls at his pipe. so he lapses into a dream, the undying wonderful dream of his life. and though kemp has fished unceasingly, no human being save the landlord knows those books are there, with the subtle secret of invisibility and a dozen other strange secrets written therein. and none other will know of them until he dies. first and last things a confession of faith and rule of life by h.g. wells contents. introduction. book . metaphysics. chapter . . the necessity for metaphysics. chapter . . the resumption of metaphysical enquiry. chapter . . the world of fact. chapter . . scepticism of the instrument. chapter . . the classificatory assumption. chapter . . empty terms. chapter . . negative terms. chapter . . logic static and life kinetic. chapter . . planes and dialects of thought. chapter . . practical conclusions from these considerations. chapter . . beliefs. chapter . . summary. book . of beliefs. chapter . . my primary act of faith. chapter . . on using the name of god. chapter . . free will and predestination. chapter . . a picture of the world of men. chapter . . the problem of motives the real problem of life. chapter . . a review of motives. chapter . . the synthetic motive. chapter . . the being of mankind. chapter . . individuality an interlude. chapter . . the mystic element. chapter . . the synthesis. chapter . . of personal immortality. chapter . . a criticism of christianity. chapter . . of other religions. chapter . . book . of general conduct. chapter . . conduct follows from belief. chapter . . what is good? chapter . . socialism. chapter . . a criticism of certain forms of socialism. chapter . . hate and love. chapter . . the preliminary social duty. chapter . . wrong ways of living. chapter . . social parasitism and contemporary injustices. chapter . . the case of the wife and mother. chapter . . associations. chapter . . of an organized brotherhood. chapter . . concerning new starts and new religions. chapter . . the idea of the church. chapter . . of secession. chapter . . a dilemma. chapter . . a comment. chapter . . war. chapter . . war and competition. chapter . . modern war. chapter . . of abstinences and disciplines. chapter . . on forgetting, and the need of prayer, reading, discussion and worship. chapter . . democracy and aristocracy. chapter . . on debts of honour. chapter . . the idea of justice. chapter . . of love and justice. chapter . . the weakness of immaturity. chapter . . possibility of a new etiquette. chapter . . sex. chapter . . the institution of marriage. chapter . . conduct in relation to the thing that is. chapter . . conduct towards transgressors. book . some personal things. chapter . . personal love and life. chapter . . the nature of love. chapter . . the will to love. chapter . . love and death. chapter . . the consolation of failure. chapter . . the last confession. introduction. recently i set myself to put down what i believe. i did this with no idea of making a book, but at the suggestion of a friend and to interest a number of friends with whom i was associated. we were all, we found, extremely uncertain in our outlook upon life, about our religious feelings and in our ideas of right and wrong. and yet we reckoned ourselves people of the educated class and some of us talk and lecture and write with considerable confidence. we thought it would be of very great interest to ourselves and each other if we made some sort of frank mutual confession. we arranged to hold a series of meetings in which first one and then another explained the faith, so far as he understood it, that was in him. we astonished ourselves and our hearers by the irregular and fragmentary nature of the creeds we produced, clotted at one point, inconsecutive at another, inconsistent and unconvincing to a quite unexpected degree. it would not be difficult to caricature one of those meetings; the lecturer floundering about with an air of exquisite illumination, the audience attentive with an expression of thwarted edification upon its various brows. for my own part i grew so interested in planning my lecture and in joining up point and point, that my notes soon outran the possibilities of the hour or so of meeting for which i was preparing them. the meeting got only a few fragments of what i had to say, and made what it could of them. and after that was over i let myself loose from limits of time and length altogether and have expanded these memoranda into a book. it is as it stands now the frank confession of what one man of the early twentieth century has found in life and himself, a confession just as frank as the limitations of his character permit; it is his metaphysics, his religion, his moral standards, his uncertainties and the expedients with which he has met them. on every one of these departments and aspects i write--how shall i put it?--as an amateur. in every section of my subject there are men not only of far greater intellectual power and energy than i, but who have devoted their whole lives to the sustained analysis of this or that among the questions i discuss, and there is a literature so enormous in the aggregate that only a specialist scholar could hope to know it. i have not been unmindful of these professors and this literature; i have taken such opportunities as i have found, to test my propositions by them. but i feel that such apology as one makes for amateurishness in this field has a lesser quality of self-condemnation than if one were dealing with narrower, more defined and fact-laden matters. there is more excuse for one here than for the amateur maker of chemical theories, or the man who evolves a system of surgery in his leisure. these things, chemistry, surgery and so forth, we may take on the reputation of an expert, but our own fundamental beliefs, our rules of conduct, we must all make for ourselves. we may listen and read, but the views of others we cannot take on credit; we must rethink them and “make them our own.” and we cannot do without fundamental beliefs, explicit or implicit. the bulk of men are obliged to be amateur philosophers,--all men indeed who are not specialized students of philosophical subjects,--even if their philosophical enterprise goes no further than prompt recognition of and submission to authority. and it is not only the claim of the specialist that i would repudiate. people are too apt to suppose that in order to discuss morals a man must have exceptional moral gifts. i would dispute that naive supposition. i am an ingenuous enquirer with, i think, some capacity for religious feeling, but neither a prophet nor a saint. on the whole i should be inclined to classify myself as a bad man rather than a good; not indeed as any sort of picturesque scoundrel or non-moral expert, but as a person frequently irritable, ungenerous and forgetful, and intermittently and in small but definite ways bad. one thing i claim, i have got my beliefs and theories out of my life and not fitted them to its circumstances. as often as not i have learnt good by the method of difference; by the taste of the alternative. i tell this faith i hold as i hold it and i sketch out the principles by which i am generally trying to direct my life at the present time, because it interests me to do so and i think it may interest a certain number of similarly constituted people. i am not teaching. how far i succeed or fail in that private and personal attempt to behave well, has nothing to do with the matter of this book. that is another story, a reserved and private affair. i offer simply intellectual experiences and ideas. it will be necessary to take up the most abstract of these questions of belief first, the metaphysical questions. it may be that to many readers the opening sections may seem the driest and least attractive. but i would ask them to begin at the beginning and read straight on, because much that follows this metaphysical book cannot be appreciated at its proper value without a grasp of these preliminaries. book the first. -- metaphysics. . . the necessity for metaphysics. as a preliminary to that experiment in mutual confession from which this book arose, i found it necessary to consider and state certain truths about the nature of knowledge, about the meaning of truth and the value of words, that is to say i found i had to begin by being metaphysical. in writing out these notes now i think it is well that i should state just how important i think this metaphysical prelude is. there is a popular prejudice against metaphysics as something at once difficult and fruitless, as an idle system of enquiries remote from any human interest. i suppose this odd misconception arose from the vulgar pretensions of the learned, from their appeal to ancient names and their quotations in unfamiliar tongues, and from the easy fall into technicality of men struggling to be explicit where a high degree of explicitness is impossible. but it needs erudition and accumulated and alien literature to make metaphysics obscure, and some of the most fruitful and able metaphysical discussion in the world was conducted by a number of unhampered men in small greek cities, who knew no language but their own and had scarcely a technical term. the true metaphysician is after all only a person who says, “now let us take a thought for a moment before we fall into a discussion of the broad questions of life, lest we rush hastily into impossible and needless conflict. what is the exact value of these thoughts we are thinking and these words we are using?” he wants to take thought about thought. those other ardent spirits on the contrary, want to plunge into action or controversy or belief without taking thought; they feel that there is not time to examine thought. “while you think,” they say, “the house is burning.” they are the kin of those who rush and struggle and make panics in theatre fires. now it seems to me that most of the troubles of humanity are really misunderstandings. men’s compositions and characters are, i think, more similar than their views, and if they had not needlessly different modes of expression upon many broad issues, they would be practically at one upon a hundred matters where now they widely differ. most of the great controversies of the world, most of the wide religious differences that keep men apart, arise from this: from differences in their way of thinking. men imagine they stand on the same ground and mean the same thing by the same words, whereas they stand on slightly different grounds, use different terms for the same thing and express the same thing in different words. logomachies, conflicts about words,--into such death-traps of effort those ardent spirits run and perish. this is now almost a commonplace; it has been said before by numberless people. it has been said before by numberless people, but it seems to me it has been realised by very few--and until it is realised to the fullest extent, we shall continue to live at intellectual cross purposes and waste the forces of our species needlessly and abundantly. this persuasion is a very important thing in my mind. i think that the time has come when the human mind must take up metaphysical discussion again--when it must resume those subtle but necessary and unavoidable problems that it dropped unsolved at the close of the period of greek freedom, when it must get to a common and general understanding upon what its ideas of truth, good, and beauty amount to, and upon the relation of the name to the thing, and of the relation of one mind to another mind in the matter of resemblance and the matter of difference--upon all those issues the young science student is as apt to dismiss as rot, and the young classical student as gas, and the austere student of the science of economics as theorising, unsuitable for his methods of research. in our achievement of understandings in the place of these evasions about fundamental things lies the road, i believe, along which the human mind can escape, if ever it is to escape, from the confusion of purposes that distracts it at the present time. . . the resumption of metaphysical enquiry. it seems to me that the greek mind up to the disaster of the macedonian conquest was elaborately and discursively discussing these questions of the forms and methods of thought and that the discussion was abruptly closed and not naturally concluded, summed up hastily as it were, in the career and lecturings of aristotle. since then the world never effectually reopened these questions until the modern period. it went on from plato and aristotle just as the art of the seventeenth and eighteenth century went on from raphael and michael angelo. effectual criticism was absolutely silent until the renaissance, and then for a time was but a matter of scattered utterances having only the slightest collective effect. in the past half century there has begun a more systematic critical movement in the general mind, a movement analogous to the pre-raphaelite movement in art--a pre-aristotelian movement, a scepticism about things supposed to be settled for all time, a resumed inquiry into the fundamental laws of thought, a harking back to positions of the older philosophers and particularly to heraclitus, so far as the surviving fragments of his teaching enable one to understand him, and a new forward movement from that recovered ground. . . the world of fact. necessarily when one begins an inquiry into the fundamental nature of oneself and one’s mind and its processes, one is forced into autobiography. i begin by asking how the conscious mind with which i am prone to identify myself, began. it presents itself to me as a history of a perception of the world of facts opening out from an accidental centre at which i happened to begin. i do not attempt to define this word fact. fact expresses for me something in its nature primary and unanalyzable. i start from that. i take as a typical statement of fact that i sit here at my desk writing with a fountain pen on a pad of ruled scribbling paper, that the sunlight falls upon me and throws the shadow of my window mullion across the page, that peter, my cat, sleeps on the window-seat close at hand and that this agate paper-weight with the silver top that once was henley’s holds my loose memoranda together. outside is a patch of lawn and then a fringe of winter-bitten iris leaves and then the sea, greatly wrinkled and astir under the south-west wind. there is a boat going out which i think may be jim pain’s, but of that i cannot be sure... these are statements of a certain quality, a quality that extends through a huge universe in which i find myself placed. i try to recall how this world of fact arose in my mind. it began with a succession of limited immediate scenes and of certain minutely perceived persons; i recall an underground kitchen with a drawered table, a window looking up at a grating, a back yard in which, growing out by a dustbin, was a grape-vine; a red-papered room with a bookcase over my father’s shop, the dusty aisles and fixtures, the regiments of wine-glasses and tumblers, the rows of hanging mugs and jugs, the towering edifices of jam-pots, the tea and dinner and toilet sets in that emporium, its brighter side of cricket goods, of pads and balls and stumps. out of the window one peeped at the more exterior world, the high street in front, the tailor’s garden, the butcher’s yard, the churchyard and bromley church tower behind; and one was taken upon expeditions to fields and open places. this limited world was peopled with certain familiar presences, mother and father, two brothers, the evasive but interesting cat, and by intermittent people of a livelier but more transient interest, customers and callers. such was my opening world of fact, and each day it enlarged and widened and had more things added to it. i had soon won my way to speech and was hearing of facts beyond my visible world of fact. presently i was at a dame’s school and learning to read. from the centre of that little world as primary, as the initiatory material, my perception of the world of fact widened and widened, by new sights and sounds, by reading and hearing descriptions and histories, by guesses and inferences; my curiosity and interest, my appetite for fact, grew by what it fed upon, i carried on my expansion of the world of fact until it took me through the mineral and fossil galleries of the natural history museum, through the geological drawers of the college of science, through a year of dissection and some weeks at the astronomical telescope. so i built up my conceptions of a real world out of facts observed and out of inferences of a nature akin to fact, of a world immense and enduring, receding interminably into space and time. in that i found myself placed, a creature relatively infinitesimal, needing and struggling. it was clear to me, by a hundred considerations, that i in my body upon this planet earth, was the outcome of countless generations of conflict and begetting, the creature of natural selection, the heir of good and bad engendered in that struggle. so my world of fact shaped itself. i find it altogether impossible to question or doubt that world of fact. particular facts one may question as facts. for instance, i think i see an unseasonable yellow wallflower from my windows, but you may dispute that and show that it is only a broken end of iris leaf accidentally lit to yellow. that is merely a substitution of fact for fact. one may doubt whether one is perceiving or remembering or telling facts clearly, but the persuasion that there are facts, independent of one’s interpretations and obdurate to one’s will, remains invincible. . . scepticism of the instrument. at first i took the world of fact as being exactly as i perceived it. i believed my eyes. seeing was believing, i thought. still more did i believe my reasoning. it was only slowly that i began to suspect that the world of fact could be anything different from the clear picture it made upon my mind. i realised the inadequacy of the senses first. into that i will not enter here. any proper text book of physiology or psychology will supply a number of instances of the habitual deceptions of sight and touch and hearing. i came upon these things in my reading, in the laboratory, with microscope or telescope, lived with them as constant difficulties. i will only instance one trifling case of visual deception in order to lead to my next question. one draws two lines strictly parallel; so (two horizontal and parallel lines.) oblique to them one draws a series of lines; so (a series of parallel and closely-spaced lines drawn through each horizontal line, one series (top) sloping to the right, the other (bottom) to the left) and instantly the parallelism seems to be disturbed. if the second figure is presented to any one without sufficient science to understand this delusion, the impression is created that these lines converge to the right and diverge to the left. the vision is deceived in its mental factor and judges wrongly of the thing seen. in this case we are able to measure the distance of the lines, to find how the main lines looked before the cross ones were drawn, to bring the deception up against fact of a different sort and so correct the mistake. if the ignorant observer were unable to do that, he might remain permanently under the impression that the main lines were out of parallelism. and all the infirmities of eye and ear, touch and taste, are discovered and checked by the fact that the erroneous impressions presently strike against fact and discover an incompatibility with it. if they did not we should never have discovered them. if on the other hand they are so incompatible with fact as to endanger the lives of the beings labouring under such infirmities, they would tend to be eliminated from among our defects. the presumption to which biological science brings one is that the senses and mind will work as well as the survival of the species may require, but that they will not work so very much better. there is no ground in matter-of-fact experience for assuming that there is any more inevitable certitude about purely intellectual operations than there is about sensory perceptions. the mind of a man may be primarily only a food-seeking, danger-avoiding, mate-finding instrument, just as the mind of a dog is, just as the nose of a dog is, or the snout of a pig. you see the strong preparatory reason there is in this view of life for entertaining the suppositions that:-- the senses seem surer than they are. the thinking mind seems clearer than it is and is more positive than it ought to be. the world of fact is not what it appears to be. . . the classificatory assumption. after i had studied science and particularly biological science for some years, i became a teacher in a school for boys. i found it necessary to supplement my untutored conception of teaching method by a more systematic knowledge of its principles and methods, and i took the courses for the diplomas of licentiate and fellow of the london college of preceptors which happened to be convenient for me. these courses included some of the more elementary aspects of psychology and logic and set me thinking and reading further. from the first, logic as it was presented to me impressed me as a system of ideas and methods remote and secluded from the world of fact in which i lived and with which i had to deal. as it came to me in the ordinary textbooks, it presented itself as the science of inference using the syllogism as its principal instrument. now i was first struck by the fact that while my teachers in logic seemed to be assuring me i always thought in this form:-- “m is p, s is m, s is p,” the method of my reasoning was almost always in this form:-- “s is more or less p, s is very similar to s , s is very probably but not certainly more or less p. let us go on that assumption and see how it works.” that is to say, i was constantly reasoning by analogy and applying verification. so far from using the syllogistic form confidently, i habitually distrusted it as anything more than a test of consistency in statement. but i found the textbooks of logic disposed to ignore my customary method of reasoning altogether or to recognise it only where s and s could be lumped together under a common name. then they put it something after this form as induction:-- “s , s , s , and s are p s + s + s + s +... are all s all s is p.” i looked into the laws of thought and into the postulates upon which the syllogistic logic is based, and it slowly became clear to me that from my point of view, the point of view of one who seeks truth and reality, logic assumed a belief in the objective reality of classification of which my studies in biology and mineralogy had largely disabused me. logic, it seemed to me, had taken a common innate error of the mind and had emphasised it in order to develop a system of reasoning that should be exact in its processes. i turned my attention to the examination of that. for in common with the general run of men i had supposed that logic professed to supply a trustworthy science and method for the investigation and expression of reality. a mind nourished on anatomical study is of course permeated with the suggestion of the vagueness and instability of biological species. a biological species is quite obviously a great number of unique individuals which is separable from other biological species only by the fact that an enormous number of other linking individuals are inaccessible in time--are in other words dead and gone--and each new individual in that species does, in the distinction of its own individuality, break away in however infinitesimal degree from the previous average properties of the species. there is no property of any species, even the properties that constitute the specific definition, that is not a matter of more or less. if, for example, as species be distinguished by a single large red spot on the back, you will find if you go over a great number of specimens that red spot shrinking here to nothing, expanding there to a more general redness, weakening to pink, deepening to russet and brown, shading into crimson, and so on and so on. and this is true not only of biological species. it is true of the mineral specimens constituting a mineral species, and i remember as a constant refrain in the lectures of professor judd upon rock classification, the words, “they pass into one another by insensible gradations.” it is true, i hold, of all things. you will think perhaps of atoms of the elements as instances of identically similar things, but these are things not of experience but of theory, and there is not a phenomenon in chemistry that is not equally well explained on the supposition that it is merely the immense quantities of atoms necessarily taken in any experiment that masks by the operation of the law of averages the fact that each atom also has its unique quality, its special individual difference. this ideal of uniqueness in all individuals is not only true of the classifications of material science; it is true and still more evidently true of the species of common thought; it is true of common terms. take the word “chair.” when one says chair, one thinks vaguely of an average chair. but collect individual instances; think of armchairs and reading-chairs and dining-room chairs, and kitchen chairs, chairs that pass into benches, chairs that cross the boundary and become settees, dentist’s chairs, thrones, opera stalls, seats of all sorts, those miraculous fungoid growths that cumber the floor of the arts and crafts exhibition, and you will perceive what a lax bundle in fact is this simple straightforward term. in co-operation with an intelligent joiner i would undertake to defeat any definition of chair or chairishness that you gave me. chairs just as much as individual organisms, just as much as mineral and rock specimens, are unique things--if you know them well enough you will find an individual difference even in a set of machine-made chairs--and it is only because we do not possess minds of unlimited capacity, because our brain has only a limited number of pigeon-holes for our correspondence with an unlimited universe of objective uniques, that we have to delude ourselves into the belief that there is a chairishness in this species common to and distinctive of all chairs. classification and number, which in truth ignore the fine differences of objective realities, have in the past of human thought been imposed upon things... greek thought impresses me as being over much obsessed by an objective treatment of certain necessary preliminary conditions of human thought--number and definition and class and abstract form! but these things,--number, definition, class and abstract form,--i hold, are merely unavoidable conditions of mental activity--regrettable conditions rather than essential facts. the forceps of our minds are clumsy forceps and crush the truth a little in taking hold of it... let me give you a rough figure of what i am trying to convey in this first attack upon the philosophical validity of general terms. you have seen the result of those various methods of black and white reproduction that involve the use of a rectangular net. you know the sort of process picture i mean--it used to be employed very frequently in reproducing photographs. at a little distance you really seem to have a faithful reproduction of the original picture, but when you peer closely you find not the unique form and masses of the original, but a multitude of little rectangles, uniform in shape and size. the more earnestly you go into the thing, the closelier you look, the more the picture is lost in reticulations. i submit, the world of reasoned inquiry has a very similar relation to the world of fact. for the rough purposes of every day the network picture will do, but the finer your purpose the less it will serve, and for an ideally fine purpose, for absolute and general knowledge that will be as true for a man at a distance with a telescope as for a man with a microscope, it will not serve at all. it is true you can make your net of logical interpretation finer and finer, you can fine your classification more and more--up to a certain limit. but essentially you are working in limits, and as you come closer, as you look at finer and subtler things, as you leave the practical purpose for which the method exists, the element of error increases. every species is vague, every term goes cloudy at its edges; and so in my way of thinking, relentless logic is only another name for a stupidity--for a sort of intellectual pigheadedness. if you push a philosophical or metaphysical inquiry through a series of valid syllogisms--never committing any generally recognised fallacy--you nevertheless leave behind you at each step a certain rubbing and marginal loss of objective truth, and you get deflections that are difficult to trace at each phase in the process. every species waggles about in its definition, every tool is a little loose in its handle, every scale has its individual error. so long as you are reasoning for practical purposes about finite things of experience you can every now and then check your process and correct your adjustments. but not when you make what are called philosophical and theological inquiries, when you turn your implement towards the final absolute truth of things. this real vagueness of class terms is equally true whether we consider those terms used extensively or intensively, that is to say whether in relation to all the members of the species or in relation to an imaginary typical specimen. the logician begins by declaring that s is either p or not p. in the world of fact it is the rarest thing to encounter this absolute alternative; s is pink, but s is pinker, s is scarcely pink at all, and one is in doubt whether s is not properly to be called scarlet. the finest type specimen you can find simply has the characteristic quality a little more rather than a little less. the neat little circles the logician uses to convey his idea of p or not p to the student are just pictures of boundaries in his mind, exaggerations of a natural mental tendency. they are required for the purposes of his science, but they are departures from the nature of fact. . . empty terms. classes in logic are not only represented by circles with a hard firm outline, whereas in fact they have no such definite limits, but also there is a constant disposition to think of all names as if they represented positive classes. with words just as with numbers and abstract forms there have been definite phases of human development. there was with regard to number, the phase when man could barely count at all, or counted in perfect good faith and sanity upon his fingers. then there was the phase when he struggled with the development of number, when he began to elaborate all sorts of ideas about numbers, until at last he developed complex superstitions about perfect numbers and imperfect numbers, about threes and sevens and the like. the same was the case with abstract forms; and even to-day we are scarcely more than heads out of the vast subtle muddle of thinking about spheres and ideally perfect forms and so on, that was the price of this little necessary step to clear thinking. how large a part numerical and geometrical magic, numerical and geometrical philosophy have played in the history of the mind! and the whole apparatus of language and mental communication is beset with like dangers. the language of the savage is i suppose purely positive; the thing has a name, the name has a thing. this indeed is the tradition of language, and even to-day, we, when we hear a name are predisposed--and sometimes it is a very vicious disposition--to imagine forthwith something answering to the name. we are disposed, as an incurable mental vice, to accumulate intension in terms. if i say to you wodget or crump, you find yourself passing over the fact that these are nothings, these are, so to speak mere blankety blanks, and trying to think what sort of thing a wodget or a crump may be. you find yourself led insensibly by subtle associations of sound and ideas to giving these blank terms attributes. now this is true not only of quite empty terms but of terms that carry a meaning. it is a mental necessity that we should make classes and use general terms, and as soon as we do that we fall into immediate danger of unjustifiably increasing the intension of these terms. you will find a large proportion of human prejudice and misunderstanding arises from this universal proclivity. . . negative terms. there is a particular sort of empty terms that has been and is conspicuously dangerous to the thinker, the class of negative terms. the negative term is in plain fact just nothing; “not-a” is the absence of any trace of the quality that constitutes a, it is the rest of everything for ever. but there seems to be a real bias in the mind towards regarding “not-a” as a thing mysteriously in the nature of a, as though “not-a” and a were species of the same genus. when one speaks of not-pink one is apt to think of green things and yellow things and to ignore anger or abstract nouns or the sound of thunder. and logicians, following the normal bias of the mind, do actually present a and not-a in this sort of diagram:-- (the letter a inside a circular boundary, together with the words not a, all inside a bigger circular boundary.) ignoring altogether the difficult case of the space in which these words are printed. obviously the diagram that comes nearer experienced fact is:-- (the word not, followed by the letter a inside a circular boundary, followed by the letter a) with no outer boundary. but the logician finds it necessary for his processes to present that outer not-a as bounded (vide e.g. kayne’s “formal logic” re euler’s diagrams and immediate inferences.), and to speak of the total area of a and not-a as the universe of discourse; and the metaphysician and the commonsense thinker alike fall far too readily into the belief that this convention of method is an adequate representation of fact. let me try and express how in my mind this matter of negative terms has shaped itself. i think of something which i may perhaps best describe as being off the stage or out of court, or as the void without implications, or as nothingness, or as outer darkness. this is a sort of hypothetical beyond to the visible world of human thought, and thither i think all negative terms reach at last, and merge and become nothing. whatever positive class you make, whatever boundary you draw, straight away from that boundary begins the corresponding negative class and passes into the illimitable horizon of nothingness. you talk of pink things, you ignore, as the arbitrary postulates of logic direct, the more elusive shades of pink, and draw your line. beyond is the not-pink, known and knowable, and still in the not-pink region one comes to the outer darkness. not blue, not happy, not iron, all the not classes meet in that outer darkness. that same outer darkness and nothingness is infinite space and infinite time and any being of infinite qualities; and all that region i rule out of court in my philosophy altogether. i will neither affirm nor deny if i can help it about any not things. i will not deal with not things at all, except by accident and inadvertence. if i use the word “infinite” i use it as one often uses “countless,” “the countless hosts of the enemy”--or “immeasurable”--“immeasurable cliffs”--that is to say as the limit of measurement, as a convenient equivalent to as many times this cloth yard as you can, and as many again, and so on and so on until you and your numerical system are beaten to a standstill. now a great number of apparently positive terms are, or have become, practically negative terms and are under the same ban with me. a considerable number of terms that have played a great part in the world of thought, seem to me to be invalidated by this same defect, to have no content or an undefined content or an unjustifiable content. for example, that word omniscient, as implying infinite knowledge, impresses me as being a word with a delusive air of being solid and full, when it is really hollow with no content whatever. i am persuaded that knowing is the relation of a conscious being to something not itself, that the thing known is defined as a system of parts and aspects and relationships, that knowledge is comprehension, and so that only finite things can know or be known. when you talk of a being of infinite extension and infinite duration, omniscient and omnipotent and perfect, you seem to me to be talking in negatives of nothing whatever. . . logic static and life kinetic. there is another infirmity of the mind to which my attention has been called by an able paper read this spring to the cambridge moral science club by my friend miss amber reeves. in this she has developed a suggestion of mr. f.c.s. schiller’s. the current syllogistic logic rests on the assumption that either a is b or it is not b. the practical reality, she contends, is that nothing is permanent; a is always becoming more or less b or ceasing to be more or less b. but it would seem the human mind cannot manage with that. it has to hold a thing still for a moment before it can think it. it arrests the present moment for its struggle as joshua stopped the sun. it cannot contemplate things continuously, and so it has to resort to a series of static snapshots. it has to kill motion in order to study it, as a naturalist kills and pins out a butterfly in order to study life. you see the mind is really pigeon-holed and discontinuous in two respects, in respect to time and in respect to classification; whereas one has a strong persuasion that the world of fact is unbounded or continuous. . . planes and dialects of thought. finally; the logician, intent upon perfecting the certitudes of his methods rather than upon expressing the confusing subtleties of truth, has done little to help thinking men in the perpetual difficulty that arises from the fact that the universe can be seen in many different fashions and expressed by many different systems of terms, each expression within its limits true and yet incommensurable with expression upon a differing system. there is a sort of stratification in human ideas. i have it very much in mind that various terms in our reasoning lie, as it were, at different levels and in different planes, and that we accomplish a large amount of error and confusion by reasoning terms together that do not lie or nearly lie in the same plane. let me endeavour to make myself a little less obscure by a flagrant instance from physical things. suppose some one began to talk seriously of a man seeing an atom through a microscope, or better perhaps of cutting one in half with a knife. there are a number of non-analytical people who would be quite prepared to believe that an atom could be visible to the eye or cut in this manner. but any one at all conversant with physical conceptions would almost as soon think of killing the square root of with a rook rifle as of cutting an atom in half with a knife. one’s conception of an atom is reached through a process of hypothesis and analysis, and in the world of atoms there are no knives and no men to cut. if you have thought with a strong consistent mental movement, then when you have thought of your atom under the knife blade, your knife blade has itself become a cloud of swinging grouped atoms, and your microscope lens a little universe of oscillatory and vibratory molecules. if you think of the universe, thinking at the level of atoms, there is neither knife to cut, scale to weigh, nor eye to see. the universe at that plane to which the mind of the molecular physicist descends has none of the shapes or forms of our common life whatever. this hand with which i write is, in the universe of molecular physics, a cloud of warring atoms and molecules, combining and recombining, colliding, rotating, flying hither and thither in the universal atmosphere of ether. you see, i hope, what i mean when i say that the universe of molecular physics is at a different level from the universe of common experience;--what we call stable and solid is in that world a freely moving system of interlacing centres of force, what we call colour and sound is there no more than this length of vibration of that. we have reached to a conception of that universe of molecular physics by a great enterprise of organised analysis, and our universe of daily experiences stands in relation to that elemental world as if it were a synthesis of those elemental things. i would suggest to you that this is only a very extreme instance of the general state of affairs, that there may be finer and subtler differences of level between one term and another, and that terms may very well be thought of as lying obliquely and as being twisted through different levels. it will perhaps give a clearer idea of what i am seeking to convey if i suggest a concrete image for the whole world of a man’s thought and knowledge. imagine a large clear jelly, in which at all angles and in all states of simplicity or contortion his ideas are imbedded. they are all valid and possible ideas as they lie, none incompatible with any. if you imagine the direction of up or down in this clear jelly being as it were the direction in which one moves by analysis or synthesis, if you go down for example from matter to atoms and centres of force and up to men and states and countries--if you will imagine the ideas lying in that manner--you will get the beginnings of my intention. but our instrument, our process of thinking, like a drawing before the discovery of perspective, appears to have difficulties with the third dimension, appears capable only of dealing with or reasoning about ideas by projecting them upon the same plane. it will be obvious that a great multitude of things may very well exist together in a solid jelly, which would be overlapping and incompatible and mutually destructive when projected together upon one plane. through the bias in our instrument to do this, through reasoning between terms not in the same plane, an enormous amount of confusion, perplexity, and mental deadlocking occurs. the old theological deadlock between predestination and free will serves admirably as an example of the sort of deadlock i mean. take life at the level of common sensation and common experience and there is no more indisputable fact than man’s freedom of will, unless it is his complete moral responsibility. but make only the least penetrating of scientific analyses and you perceive a world of inevitable consequences, a rigid succession of cause and effect. insist upon a flat agreement between the two, and there you are! the instrument fails. so far as this particular opposition is concerned, i shall point out later the reasonableness and convenience of regarding the common-sense belief in free will as truer for one’s personal life than determinism. . . practical conclusions from these considerations. now what is the practical outcome of all these criticisms of the human mind? does it follow that thought is futile and discussion vain? by no means. rather these considerations lead us toward mutual understanding. they clear up the deadlocks that come from the hard and fast use of terms, they establish mutual charity as an intellectual necessity. the common way of speech and thought which the old system of logic has simply systematized, is too glib and too presumptuous of certainty. we must needs use language, but we must use it always with the thought in our minds of its unreal exactness, its actual habitual deflection from fact. all propositions are approximations to an elusive truth, and we employ them as the mathematician studies the circle by supposing it to be a polygon of a very great number of sides. we must make use of terms and sometimes of provisional terms. but we must guard against such terms and the mental danger of excessive intension they carry with them. the child takes a stick and says it is a sword and does not forget, he takes a shadow under the bed and says it is a bear and he half forgets. the man takes a set of emotions and says it is a god, and he gets excited and propagandist and does forget; he is involved in disputes and confusions with the old gods of wood and stone, and presently he is making his god a great white throne and fitting him up with a mystical family. essentially we have to train our minds to think anew, if we are to think beyond the purposes for which the mind seems to have been evolved. we have to disabuse ourselves from the superstition of the binding nature of definitions and the exactness of logic. we have to cure ourselves of the natural tricks of common thought and argument. you know the way of it, how effective and foolish it is; the quotation of the exact statement of which every jot and tittle must be maintained, the challenge to be consistent, the deadlock between your terms and mine. more and more as i grow older and more settled in my views am i bored by common argument, bored not because i am ceasing to be interested in the things argued about, but because i see more and more clearly the futility of the methods pursued. how then are we to think and argue and what truth may we attain? is not the method of the scientific investigator a valid one, and is there not truth to the world of fact in scientific laws? decidedly there is. and the continual revision and testing against fact that these laws get is constantly approximating them more and more nearly to a trustworthy statement of fact. nevertheless they are never true in that dogmatic degree in which they seem true to the unphilosophical student of science. accepting as i do the validity of nearly all the general propositions of modern science, i have constantly to bear in mind that about them too clings the error of excessive claims to precision. the man trained solely in science falls easily into a superstitious attitude; he is overdone with classification. he believes in the possibility of exact knowledge everywhere. what is not exact he declares is not knowledge. he believes in specialists and experts in all fields. i dispute this universal range of possible scientific precision. there is, i allege, a not too clearly recognised order in the sciences which forms the gist of my case against this scientific pretension. there is a gradation in the importance of the individual instance as one passes from mechanics and physics and chemistry through the biological sciences to economics and sociology, a gradation whose correlations and implications have not yet received adequate recognition, and which does profoundly affect the method of study and research in each science. let me repeat in slightly altered terms some of the points raised in the preceding sections. i have doubted and denied that there are identically similar objective experiences; i consider all objective beings as individual and unique. it is now understood that conceivably only in the subjective world, and in theory and the imagination, do we deal with identically similar units, and with absolutely commensurable quantities. in the real world it is reasonable to suppose we deal at most with practically similar units and practically commensurable quantities. but there is a strong bias, a sort of labour-saving bias, in the normal human mind, to ignore this, and not only to speak but to think of a thousand bricks or a thousand sheep or a thousand chinamen as though they were all absolutely true to sample. if it is brought before a thinker for a moment that in any special case this is not so, he slips back to the old attitude as soon as his attention is withdrawn. this type of error has, for instance, caught many of the race of chemists, and atoms and ions and so forth of the same species are tacitly assumed to be similar to one another. be it noted that, so far as the practical results of chemistry and physics go, it scarcely matters which assumption we adopt, the number of units is so great, the individual difference so drowned and lost. for purposes of enquiry and discussion the incorrect one is infinitely more convenient. but this ceases to be true directly we emerge from the region of chemistry and physics. in the biological sciences of the eighteenth century, common-sense struggled hard to ignore individuality in shells and plants and animals. there was an attempt to eliminate the more conspicuous departures as abnormalities, as sports, nature’s weak moments; and it was only with the establishment of darwin’s great generalizations that the hard and fast classificatory system broke down and individuality came to its own. yet there had always been a clearly felt difference between the conclusions of the biological sciences and those dealing with lifeless substance, in the relative vagueness, the insubordinate looseness and inaccuracy of the former. the naturalist accumulated facts and multiplied names, but he did not go triumphantly from generalization to generalization after the fashion of the chemist or physicist. it is easy to see, therefore, how it came about that the inorganic sciences were regarded as the true scientific bed-rock. it was scarcely suspected that the biological sciences might perhaps after all be truer than the experimental, in spite of the difference in practical value in favour of the latter. it was, and is by the great majority of people to this day, supposed to be the latter that are invincibly true; and the former are regarded as a more complex set of problems merely, with obliquities and refractions that presently will be explained away. comte and herbert spencer certainly seem to me to have taken that much for granted. herbert spencer no doubt talked of the unknown and unknowable, but not in this sense as an element of inexactness running through all things. he thought, it seems to me, of the unknown as the indefinable beyond of an immediate world that might be quite clearly and definitely known. there is a growing body of people which is beginning to hold the converse view--that counting, classification, measurement, the whole fabric of mathematics, is subjective and untrue to the world of fact, and that the uniqueness of individuals is the objective truth. as the number of units taken diminishes, the amount of variety and inexactness of generalization increases, because individuality tells for more and more. could you take men by the thousand billion, you could generalize about them as you do about atoms; could you take atoms singly, it may be that you would find them as individual as your aunts and cousins. that concisely is the minority belief, and my belief. now what is called the scientific method in the physical sciences rests upon the ignoring of individualities; and like many mathematical conventions, its great practical convenience is no proof whatever of its final truth. let me admit the enormous value, the wonder of its results in mechanics, in all the physical sciences, in chemistry, even in physiology,--but what is its value beyond that? is the scientific method of value in biology? the great advances made by darwin and his school in biology were not made, it must be remembered, by the scientific method, as it is generally conceived, at all. his was historical research. he conducted research into pre-documentary history. he collected information along the lines indicated by certain interrogations; and the bulk of his work was the digesting and critical analysis of that. for documents and monuments he had fossils and anatomical structures and germinating eggs too innocent to lie. but, on the other hand, he had to correspond with breeders and travellers of various sorts; classes entirely analogous, from the point of view of evidence, to the writers of history and memoirs. i question profoundly whether the word “science,” in current usage anyhow, ever means such patient disentanglement as darwin pursued. it means the attainment of something positive and emphatic in the way of a conclusion, based on amply repeated experiments capable of infinite repetition, “proved,” as they say, “up to the hilt.” it would be of course possible to dispute whether the word “science” should convey this quality of certitude, but to most people it certainly does at the present time. so far as the movements of comets and electric trams go, there is no doubt practically cock-sure science; and comte and herbert spencer seem to me to have believed that cock-sure could be extended to every conceivable finite thing. the fact that herbert spencer called a certain doctrine individualism reflects nothing on the non-individualizing quality of his primary assumptions and of his mental texture. he believed that individuality (heterogeneity) was and is an evolutionary product from an original homogeneity, begotten by folding and multiplying and dividing and twisting it, and still fundamentally it. it seems to me that the general usage is entirely for the limitation of the word “science” to knowledge and the search after knowledge of a high degree of precision. and not simply the general usage; “science is measurement,” science is “organized commonsense,” proud in fact of its essential error, scornful of any metaphysical analysis of its terms. now my contention is that we can arrange the fields of human thought and interest about the world of fact in a sort of scale. at one end the number of units is infinite and the methods exact, at the other we have the human subjects in which there is no exactitude. the science of society stands at the extreme end of the scale from the molecular sciences. in these latter there is an infinitude of units; in sociology, as comte perceived, there is only one unit. it is true that herbert spencer, in order to get classification somehow, did, as professor durkheim has pointed out, separate human society into societies, and made believe they competed one with another and died and reproduced just like animals, and that economists following list have for the purposes of fiscal controversy discovered economic types; but this is a transparent device, and one is surprised to find thoughtful and reputable writers off their guard against such bad analogy. but indeed it is impossible to isolate complete communities of men, or to trace any but rude general resemblances between group and group. these alleged units have as much individuality as pieces of cloud; they come, they go, they fuse and separate. and we are forced to conclude that not only is the method of observation, experiment, and verification left far away down the scale, but that the method of classification under types, which has served so useful a purpose in the middle group of subjects, the subjects involving numerous but a finite number of units, has also to be abandoned in social science. we cannot put humanity into a museum or dry it for examination; our one single still living specimen is all history, all anthropology, and the fluctuating world of men. there is no satisfactory means of dividing it, and nothing else in the real world with which to compare it. we have only the remotest ideas of its “life-cycle” and a few relics of its origin and dreams of its destiny. this denial of scientific precision is true of all questions of general human relations and attitude. and in regard to all these matters affecting our personal motives, our self-control and our devotions, it is much truer. from this it is an easy step to the statement that so far as the clear-cut confident sort of knowledge goes, the sort of knowledge one gets from a time-table or a text-book of chemistry, or seeks from a witness in a police court, i am, in relation to religious and moral questions an agnostic. i do not think any general propositions partaking largely of the nature of fact can be known about these things. there is nothing possessing the general validity of fact to be stated or known. . . beliefs. yet it is of urgent practical necessity that we should have such propositions and beliefs. all those we conjure out of our mental apparatus and the world of fact dissolve and disappear again under scrutiny. it is clear we must resort to some other method for these necessities. now i make my beliefs as i want them. i do not attempt to distil them out of fact as physicists distil their laws. i make them thus and not thus exactly as an artist makes a picture so and not so. i believe that is how we all make our beliefs, but that many people do not see this clearly and confuse their beliefs with perceived and proven fact. i draw my beliefs exactly as an artist draws lines to make a picture, to express my impression of the world and my purpose. the artist cannot defend his expression as a scientific man defends his, and demonstrate that they are true upon any assumptions whatsoever. any loud fool may stand in front of a picture and call it inaccurate, untrustworthy, unbeautiful. that last, the most vital issue of all, is the one least assured. loud fools always do do that sort of thing. take quite ignorant people before almost any beautiful work of art and they will laugh at it as absurd. if one sits on a popular evening in that long room at south kensington which contains raphael’s cartoons, one remarks that perhaps a third of those who stray through and look at all those fine efforts, titter. if one searches in the magazines of a little while ago, one finds in the angry and resentful reception of the pre-raphaelites another instance of the absolutely indefensible nature of many of the most beautiful propositions. and as a still more striking and remarkable case, take the onslaught made by ruskin upon the works of whistler. you will remember that a libel action ensued and that these pictures were gravely reasoned about by barristers and surveyed by jurymen to assess their merits... in the end it is the indefensible truth that lasts; it lasts because it works and serves. people come to it and remain and attract other understanding and enquiring people. now when i say i make my beliefs and that i cannot prove them to you and convince you of them, that does not mean that i make them wantonly and regardless of fact, that i throw them off as a child scribbles on a slate. mr. ruskin, if i remember rightly, accused whistler of throwing a pot of paint in the face of the public,--that was the essence of his libel. the artistic method in this field of beliefs, as in the field of visual renderings, is one of great freedom and initiative and great poverty of test, but of no wantonness; the conditions of rightness are none the less imperative because they are mysterious and indefinable. i adopt certain beliefs because i feel the need for them, because i feel an often quite unanalyzable rightness in them; because the alternative of a chaotic life distresses me. my belief in them rests upon the fact that they work for me and satisfy my desire for harmony and beauty. they are arbitrary assumptions, if you will, that i see fit to impose upon my universe. but though they are arbitrary, they are not necessarily individual. just so far as we all have a common likeness, just so far can we be brought under the same imperatives to think and believe. and though they are arbitrary, each day they stand wear and tear, and each new person they satisfy, is another day and another voice towards showing they do correspond to something that is so far fact and real. this is pragmatism as i conceive it; the abandonment of infinite assumptions, the extension of the experimental spirit to all human interests. . . summary. in concluding this first book let me give a summary of the principal points of what has gone before. i figure the mind of man as an imperfect being obtaining knowledge by imperfect eyesight, imperfect hearing and so forth; who must needs walk manfully and patiently, exercising will and making choices and determining things between the mysteries of external and internal fact. essentially man’s mind moves within limits depending upon his individual character and experience. these limits constitute what herbart called his “circle of thought,” and they differ for everyone. that briefly is what i consider to be the case with my own mind, and i believe it is the case with everyone’s. most minds, it seems to me, are similar, but none are absolutely alike in character or in contents. we are all biassed to ignore our mental imperfections and to talk and act as though our minds were exact instruments,--something wherewith to scale the heavens with assurance,--and also we are biassed to believe that, except for perversity, all our minds work exactly alike. man, thinking man, suffers from intellectual over-confidence and a vain belief in the universal validity of reasoning. we all need training, training in the balanced attitude. of everything we need to say: this is true but it is not quite true. of everything we need to say: this is true in relation to things in or near its plane, but not true of other things. of everything we have to remember: this may be truer for us than for other people. in disputation particularly we have to remember this (and most with our antagonist): that the spirit of an utterance may be better than the phrase. we have to discourage the cheap tricks of controversy, the retort, the search for inconsistency. we have to realize that these things are as foolish and ill-bred and anti-social as shouting in conversation or making puns; and we have to work out habits of thought purged from the sin of assurance. we have to do this for our own good quite as much as for the sake of intercourse. all the great and important beliefs by which life is guided and determined are less of the nature of fact than of artistic expression. book the second -- of beliefs . . my primary act of faith. and now having stated my conception of the true relationship between our thoughts and words to facts, having distinguished between the more accurate and frequently verified propositions of science and the more arbitrary and infrequently verified propositions of belief, and made clear the spontaneous and artistic quality that inheres in all our moral and religious generalizations, i may hope to go on to my confession of faith with less misunderstanding. now my most comprehensive belief about the external and the internal and myself is that they make one universe in which i and every part are ultimately important. that is quite an arbitrary act of my mind. it is quite possible to maintain that everything is a chaotic assembly, that any part might be destroyed without affecting any other part. i do not choose to argue against that. if you choose to say that, i am no more disposed to argue with you than if you choose to wear a mitre in fleet street or drink a bottle of ink, or declare the figure of ally sloper more dignified and beautiful than the head of jove. there is no q.e.d. that you cannot do so. you can. you will not like to go on with it, i think, and it will not answer, but that is a different matter. i dismiss the idea that life is chaotic because it leaves my life ineffectual, and i cannot contemplate an ineffectual life patiently. i am by my nature impelled to refuse that. i assert that it is not so. i assert therefore that i am important in a scheme, that we are all important in that scheme, that the wheel-smashed frog in the road and the fly drowning in the milk are important and correlated with me. what the scheme as a whole is i do not know; with my limited mind i cannot know. there i become a mystic. i use the word scheme because it is the best word available, but i strain it in using it. i do not wish to imply a schemer, but only order and co-ordination as distinguished from haphazard. “all this is important, all this is profoundly significant.” i say it of the universe as a child that has not learnt to read might say it of a parchment agreement. i cannot read the universe, but i can believe that this is so. and this unfounded and arbitrary declaration of the ultimate rightness and significance of things i call the act of faith. it is my fundamental religious confession. it is a voluntary and deliberate determination to believe, a choice made. . . on using the name of god. you may say if you will that this scheme i talk about, this something that gives importance and correlation and significance, is what is meant by god. you may embark upon a logical wrangle here with me if you have failed to master what i have hitherto said about the meaning of words. if a scheme, you will say, then there must be a schemer. but, i repeat, i am using scheme and importance and significance here only in a spirit of analogy because i can find no better words, and i will not allow myself to be entangled by an insistence upon their implications. yet let me confess that i am greatly attracted by such fine phrases as the will of god, the hand of god, the great commander. these do most wonderfully express aspects of this belief i choose to hold. i think if there had been no gods before, i would call this god. but i feel that there is a great danger in doing this sort of thing unguardedly. many people would be glad for rather trivial and unworthy reasons that i should confess a faith in god, and few would take offence. but the run of people even nowadays mean something more and something different when they say “god.” they intend a personality exterior to them and limited, and they will instantly conclude i mean the same thing. to permit that misconception is, i feel, the first step on the slippery slope of meretricious complaisance, is to become in some small measure a successor of those who cried, “great is diana of the ephesians.” occasionally we may best serve the god of truth by denying him. yet at times i admit the sense of personality in the universe is very strong. if i am confessing, i do not see why i should not confess up to the hilt. at times in the silence of the night and in rare lonely moments, i come upon a sort of communion of myself and something great that is not myself. it is perhaps poverty of mind and language obliges me to say that then this universal scheme takes on the effect of a sympathetic person--and my communion a quality of fearless worship. these moments happen, and they are the supreme fact in my religious life to me, they are the crown of my religious experiences. none the less, i do not usually speak of god even in regard to these moments, and where i do use that word it must be understood that i use it as a personification of something entirely different in nature from the personality of a human being. . . free will and predestination. and now let me return to a point raised in the first book in chapter . . is the whole of this scheme of things settled and done? the whole trend of science is to that belief. on the scientific plane one is a fatalist, the universe a system of inevitable consequences. but as i show in that section referred to, it is quite possible to accept as true in their several planes both predestination and free will. (i use free will in the sense of self-determinisn and not as it is defined by professor william james, and predestination as equivalent to the conception of a universe rigid in time and space.) if you ask me, i think i should say i incline to believe in predestination and do quite completely believe in free will. the important belief is free will. but does the whole universe of fact, the external world about me, the mysterious internal world from which my motives rise, form one rigid and fated system as determinists teach? do i believe that, had one a mind ideally clear and powerful, the whole universe would seem orderly and absolutely predestined? i incline to that belief. i do not harshly believe it, but i admit its large plausibility--that is all. i see no value whatever in jumping to a decision. one or two pragmatists, so far as i can understand them, do not hold this view of predestination at all; but as a provisional assumption it underlies most scientific work. i glance at this question rather to express a detachment than a view. for me as a person this theory of predestination has no practical value. at the utmost it is an interesting theory like the theory that there is a fourth dimension. there may be a fourth dimension of space, but one gets along quite well by assuming there are just three. it may be knowable the next time i come to cross roads which i shall take. possibly that knowledge actually exists somewhere. there are those who will tell you that they can get intimations in the matter from packs of cards or the palms of my hands, or see by peering into crystals. of such beliefs i am entirely free. the fact is i believe that neither i know nor anybody else who is practically concerned knows which i shall take. i hesitate, i choose just as though the thing was unknowable. for me and my conduct there is that much wide practical margin of freedom. i am free and freely and responsibly making the future--so far as i am concerned. you others are equally free. on that theory i find my life will work, and on a theory of mechanical predestination nothing works. i take the former theory therefore for my everyday purposes, and as a matter of fact so does everybody else. i regard myself as a free responsible person among free responsible persons. . . a picture of the world of men. now i have already given a first picture of the world of fact as it shaped itself upon my mind. let me now give a second picture of this world in which i find myself, a picture in a rather different key and at a different level, in which i turn to a new set of aspects and bring into the foreground the other minds which are with me in the midst of this great spectacle. what am i? here is a question to which in all ages men have sought to give a clear unambiguous answer, and to which a clear unambiguous answer is manifestly unfitted. am i my body? yes or no? it seems to me that i can externalize and think of as “not myself” nearly everything that pertains to my body, hands and feet, and even the most secret and central of those living and hidden parts, the pulsing arteries, the throbbing nerves, the ganglionic centres, that no eye, save for the surgeon’s knife has ever seen or ever will see until they coagulate in decay. so far i am not my body; and then as clearly, since i suffer through it, see the whole world through it and am always to be called upon where it is, i am it. am i a mind mysteriously linked to this thing of matter and endeavour? so i can present myself. i seem to be a consciousness, vague and insecure, placed between two worlds. one of these worlds seems clearly “not me,” the other is more closely identified with me and yet is still imperfectly me. the first i call the exterior world, and it presents itself to me as existing in time and space. in a certain way i seem able to interfere with it and control it. the second is the interior world, having no forms in space and only a vague evasive reference to time, from which motives arise and storms of emotion, which acts and reacts constantly and in untraceable way with my conscious mind. and that consciousness itself hangs and drifts about the region where the inner world and the outer world meet, much as a patch of limelight drifts about the stage, illuminating, affecting, following no manifest law except that usually it centres upon the hero, my ego. it seems to me that to put the thing much more precisely than this is to depart from the reality of the matter. but so departing a little, let me borrow a phrase from herbart and identify myself more particularly with my mental self. it seems to me that i may speak of myself as a circle of thought and experience hung between these two imperfectly understood worlds of the internal and the external and passing imperceptibly into the former. the external world impresses me as being, as a practical fact, common to me and many other creatures similar to myself; the internal, i find similar but not identical with theirs. it is mine. it seems to me at times no more than something cut off from that external world and put into a sort of pit or cave, much as all the inner mystery of my body, those living, writhing, warm and thrilling organs are isolated, hidden from all eyes and interference so long as i remain alive. and i myself, the essential me, am the light and watcher in the mouth of the cave. so i think of myself, and so i think of all other human beings, as circles of thought and experience, each a little different from the others. each human being i see as essentially a circle of thought between an internal and an external world. i figure these circles of thought as more or less imperfectly focussed pictures, all a little askew and vague as to margins and distances. in the internal world arise motives, and they pass outward through the circle of thought and are modified and directed by it into external acts. and through speech, example, and a hundred various acts, one such circle, one human mind, lights and enlarges and plays upon another. that is the image under which the interrelation of minds presents itself to me. . . the problem of motives the real problem of life. now each self among us, for all its fluctuations and vagueness of boundary, is, as i have already pointed out, invincibly persuaded of free will. that is to say, it has a persuasion of responsible control over the impulses that teem from the internal world and tend to express themselves in act. the problem of that control and its solution is the reality of life. “what am i to do?” is the perpetual question of our existence. our metaphysics, our beliefs are all sought as subsidiary to that and have no significance without it. i confess i find myself a confusion of motives beside which my confusion of perceptions pales into insignificance. there are many various motives and motives very variously estimated--some are called gross, some sublime, some--such as pride--wicked. i do not readily accept these classifications. many people seem to make a selection among their motives without much enquiry, taking those classifications as just; they seek to lead what they call pure lives or useful lives and to set aside whole sets of motives which do not accord with this determination. some exclude the seeking of pleasure as a permissible motive, some the love of beauty; some insist upon one’s “being oneself” and prohibit or limit responses to exterior opinions. most of such selections strike me as wanton and hasty. i decline to dismiss any of my motives at all in that wholesale way. just as i believe i am important in the scheme of things, so i believe are all my motives. turning one’s back on any set of them seems to me to savour of the headlong actions of stupidity. to suppress a passion or a curiosity for the sake of suppressing a passion is to my mind just the burial of a talent that has been entrusted to one’s care. one has, i feel, to take all these things as weapons and instruments, material in the service of the scheme; one has to take them in the end gravely and do right among them unbiassed in favour of any set. to take some poor appetite and fling it out is to my mind a cheap and unsatisfactory way of simplifying one’s moral problems. one has to accept these things in oneself, i feel--even if one knows them to be dangerous things, even if one is sure they have an evil side. let me, however, in order to express my attitude better, make a rough grouping of the motives i find in myself and the people about me. . . a review of motives. i cannot divide them into clearly defined classes, but i may perhaps begin with those that bring one into the widest sympathy with living things and go on to those one shares only with highly intelligent and complex human beings. there come first the desires one shares with those more limited souls the beasts, just as much as one does with one’s fellow man. these are the bodily appetites and the crude emotions of fear and resentment. these first clamour for attention and must be assuaged or controlled before the other sets come into play. now in this matter of physical appetites i do not know whether to describe myself as a sensualist or an ascetic. if an ascetic is one who suppresses to a minimum all deference to these impulses, then certainly i am not an ascetic; if a sensualist is one who gives himself to heedless gratification, then certainly i am not a sensualist. but i find myself balanced in an intermediate position by something that i will speak of as the sense of beauty. this sense of beauty is something in me which demands not simply gratification but the best and keenest of a sense or continuance of sense impressions, and which refuses coarse quantitative assuagements. it ranges all over the senses, and just as i refuse to wholly cut off any of my motives, so do i refuse to limit its use to the plane of the eye or the ear. it seems to me entirely just to speak of beauty in matters of scent and taste, to talk not only of beautiful skies and beautiful sounds but of beautiful beer and beautiful cheese! the balance as between asceticism and sensuality comes in, it seems to me, if we remember that to drink well one must not have drunken for some time, that to see well one’s eye must be clear, that to make love well one must be fit and gracious and sweet and disciplined from top to toe, that the finest sense of all--the joyous sense of bodily well-being--comes only with exercises and restraints and fine living. there i think lies the way of my disposition. i do not want to live in the sensual sty, but i also do not want to scratch in the tub of diogenes. but i diverge a little in these comments from my present business of classifying motives. next i perceive hypertrophied in myself and many sympathetic human beings a passion that many animals certainly possess, the beautiful and fearless cousin of fear, curiosity, that seeks keenly for knowing and feeling. apart from appetites and bodily desires and blind impulses, i want most urgently to know and feel, for the sake of knowing and feeling. i want to go round corners and see what is there, to cross mountain ranges, to open boxes and parcels. young animals at least have that disposition too. for me it is something that mingles with all my desires. much more to me than the desire to live is the desire to taste life. i am not happy until i have done and felt things. i want to get as near as i can to the thrill of a dog going into a fight or the delight of a bird in the air. and not simply in the heroic field of war and the air do i want to understand. i want to know something of the jolly wholesome satisfaction that a hungry pig must find in its wash. i want to get the quintessence of that. i do not think that in this i confess to any unusual temperament. i think that the more closely mentally animated people scrutinize their motives the less is the importance they will attach to mere physical and brute urgencies and the more to curiosity. next after curiosity come those desires and motives that one shares perhaps with some social beasts, but far more so as a conscious thing with men alone. these desires and motives all centre on a clearly apprehended “self” in relation to “others”; they are the essentially egotistical group. they are self-assertion in all its forms. i have dealt with motives toward gratification and motives towards experience; this set of motives is for the sake of oneself. since they are the most acutely conscious motives in unthinking men, there is a tendency on the part of unthinking philosophers to speak of them as though vanity, self-seeking, self-interest were the only motives. but one has but to reflect on what has gone before to realize that this is not so. one finds these “self” motives vary with the mental power and training of the individual; here they are fragmentary and discursive, there drawn tight together into a coherent scheme. where they are weak they mingle with the animal motives and curiosity like travellers in a busy market-place, but where the sense of self is strong they become rulers and regulators, self-seeking becomes deliberate and sustained in the case of the human being, vanity passes into pride. here again that something in the mind so difficult to define, so easy for all who understand to understand, that something which insists upon a best and keenest, the desire for beauty, comes into the play of motives. pride demands a beautiful self and would discipline all other passions to its service. it also demands recognition for that beautiful self. now pride, i know, is denounced by many as the essential quality of sin. we are taught that “self-abnegation” is the substance of virtue and self-forgetfulness the inseparable quality of right conduct. but indeed i cannot so dismiss egotism and that pride which was the first form in which the desire to rule oneself as a whole came to me. through pride one shapes oneself towards a best, though at first it may be an ill-conceived best. pride is not always arrogance and aggression. there is that pride that does not ape but learn humility. and with the human imagination all these elementary instincts, of the flesh, of curiosity, of self-assertion, become only the basal substance of a huge elaborate edifice of secondary motive and intention. we live in a great flood of example and suggestion, our curiosity and our social quality impel us to a thousand imitations, to dramatic attitudes and subtly obscure ends. our pride turns this way and that as we respond to new notes in the world about us. we are arenas for a conflict between suggestions flung in from all sources, from the most diverse and essentially incompatible sources. we live long hours and days in a kind of dream, negligent of self-interest, our elementary passions in abeyance, among these derivative things. . . the synthetic motive. such it seems to me are the chief masses of the complex of motives in us, the group of sense, the group of pride, curiosity and the imitative and suggested motives, making up the system of impulses which is our will. such has been the common outfit of motives in every age, and in every age its melee has been found insufficient in itself. it is a heterogeneous system, it does not form in any sense a completed or balanced system, its constituents are variable and compete amongst themselves. they are not so much arranged about one another as superposed and higgledy-piggledy. the senses and curiosity war with pride and one another, the motives suggested to us fall into conflict with this element or that of our intimate and habitual selves. we find all our instincts are snares to excess. excesses of indulgence lead to excesses of abstinence, and even the sense of beauty may be clouded and betray. so to us all, even for the most balanced of us, come disappointments, regrets, gaps; and for most of us who are ill-balanced, miseries and despairs. nearly all of us want something to hold us together--something to dominate this swarming confusion and save us from the black misery of wounded and exploded pride, of thwarted desire, of futile conclusions. we want more oneness, some steadying thing that will afford an escape from fluctuations. different people, of differing temperament and tradition, have sought oneness, this steadying and universalizing thing, in various manners. some have attained it in this manner, and some in that. scarcely a religious system has existed that has not worked effectively and proved true for someone. to me it seems that the need is synthetic, that some synthetic idea and belief is needed to harmonize one’s life, to give a law by which motive may be tried against motive and an effectual peace of mind achieved. i want an active peace and not a quiescence, and i do not want to suppress and expel any motive at all. but to many people the effort takes the form of attempts to cut off some part of oneself as it were, to repudiate altogether some straining or distressing or disappointing factor in the scheme of motives, and find a tranquillizing refuge in the residuum. so we have men and women abandoning their share in economic development, crushing the impulses and evading the complications that arise out of sex and flying to devotions and simple duties in nunneries and monasteries; we have people cutting their lives down to a vegetarian dietary and scientific research, resorting to excesses of self-discipline, giving themselves up wholly to some “art” and making everything else subordinate to that, or, going in another direction, abandoning pride and love in favour of an acquired appetite for drugs or drink. now it seems to me that this desire to get the confused complex of life simplified is essentially what has been called the religious motive, and that the manner in which a man achieves that simplification, if he does achieve it, and imposes an order upon his life, is his religion. i find in the scheme of conversion and salvation as it is presented by many christian sects, a very exact statement of the mental processes i am trying to express. in these systems this discontent with the complexity of life upon which religion is based, is called the conviction of sin, and it is the first phase in the process of conversion--of finding salvation. it leads through distress and confusion to illumination, to the act of faith and peace. and after peace comes the beginning of right conduct. if you believe and you are saved, you will want to behave well, you will do your utmost to behave well and to understand what is behaving well, and you will feel neither shame nor disappointment when after all you fail. you will say then: “so it is failure i had to achieve.” and you will not feel bitterly because you seem unsuccessful beside others or because you are misunderstood or unjustly treated, you will not bear malice nor cherish anger nor seek revenge, you will never turn towards suicide as a relief from intolerable things; indeed there will be no intolerable things. you will have peace within you. but if you do not truly believe and are not saved, you will know it because you will still suffer the conflict of motives; and in regrets, confusions, remorses and discontents, you will suffer the penalties of the unbeliever and the lost. you will know certainly your own salvation. . . the being of mankind. i will boldly adopt the technicalities of the sects. i will speak as a person with experience and declare that i have been through the distresses of despair and the conviction of sin and that i have found salvation. i believe. i believe in the scheme, in the project of all things, in the significance of myself and all life, and that my defects and uglinesses and failures, just as much as my powers and successes, are things that are necessary and important and contributory in that scheme, that scheme which passes my understanding--and that no thwarting of my conception, not even the cruelty of nature, now defeats or can defeat my faith, however much it perplexes my mind. and though i say that scheme passes my understanding, nevertheless i hope you will see no inconsistency when i say that necessarily it has an aspect towards me that i find imperative. it has an aspect that i can perceive, however dimly and fluctuatingly. i take it that to perceive this aspect to the utmost of my mental power and to shape my acts according to that perception is my function in the scheme; that if i hold steadfastly to that conception, i am saved. i find in that idea of perceiving the scheme as a whole towards me and in this attempt to perceive, that something to which all my other emotions and passions may contribute by gathering and contributing experience, and through which the synthesis of my life becomes possible. let me try to convey to you what it is i perceive, what aspect this scheme seems to bear on the whole towards me. the essential fact in man’s history to my sense is the slow unfolding of a sense of community with his kind, of the possibilities of co-operations leading to scarce dreamt-of collective powers, of a synthesis of the species, of the development of a common general idea, a common general purpose out of a present confusion. in that awakening of the species, one’s own personal being lives and moves--a part of it and contributing to it. one’s individual existence is not so entirely cut off as it seems at first; one’s entirely separate individuality is another, a profounder, among the subtle inherent delusions of the human mind. between you and me as we set our minds together, and between us and the rest of mankind, there is something, something real, something that rises through us and is neither you nor me, that comprehends us, that is thinking here and using me and you to play against each other in that thinking just as my finger and thumb play against each other as i hold this pen with which i write. let me point out that this is no sentimental or mystical statement. it is hard fact as any hard fact we know. we, you and i, are not only parts in a thought process, but parts of one flow of blood and life. let me put that in a way that may be new to some readers. let me remind you of what is sometimes told as a jest, the fact that the number of one’s ancestors increases as we look back in time. disregarding the chances of intermarriage, each one of us had two parents, four grandparents, eight great-grandparents, and so on backward, until very soon, in less than fifty generations, we should find that, but for the qualification introduced, we should have all the earth’s inhabitants of that time as our progenitors. for a hundred generations it must hold absolutely true, that everyone of that time who has issue living now is ancestral to all of us. that brings the thing quite within the historical period. there is not a western european palaeolithic or neolithic relic that is not a family relic for every soul alive. the blood in our veins has handled it. and there is something more. we are all going to mingle our blood again. we cannot keep ourselves apart; the worst enemies will some day come to the peace of verona. all the montagues and capulets are doomed to intermarry. a time will come in less than fifty generations when all the population of the world will have my blood, and i and my worst enemy will not be able to say which child is his or mine. but you may retort--perhaps you may die childless. then all the sooner the whole species will get the little legacy of my personal achievement, whatever it may be. you see that from this point of view--which is for me the vividly true and dominating point of view--our individualities, our nations and states and races are but bubbles and clusters of foam upon the great stream of the blood of the species, incidental experiments in the growing knowledge and consciousness of the race. i think this real solidarity of humanity is a fact that is only slowly being apprehended, that it is an idea that we who have come to realize it have to assist in thinking into the collective mind. i believe the species is still as a whole unawakened, still sunken in the delusion of the permanent separateness of the individual and of races and nations, that so it turns upon itself and frets against itself and fails to see the stupendous possibilities of deliberate self-development that lie open to it now. i see myself in life as part of a great physical being that strains and i believe grows towards beauty, and of a great mental being that strains and i believe grows towards knowledge and power. in this persuasion that i am a gatherer of experience, a mere tentacle that arranges thought beside thought for this being of the species, this being that grows beautiful and powerful, in this persuasion i find the ruling idea of which i stand in need, the ruling idea that reconciles and adjudicates among my warring motives. in it i find both concentration of myself and escape from myself; in a word, i find salvation. . . individuality an interlude. i would like in a parenthetical section to expand and render rather more concrete this idea of the species as one divaricating flow of blood, by an appeal to its arithmetical aspect. i do not know if it has ever occurred to the reader to compute the number of his living ancestors at some definite date, at, let us say, the year one of the christian era. everyone has two parents and four grandparents, most people have eight great-grandparents, and if we ignore the possibility of intermarriage we shall go on to a fresh power of two with every generation, thus:-- column : number of generations. column : number of ancestors. : : : : : , : , : , , : , , , i do not know whether the average age of the parent at the birth of a child under modern conditions can be determined from existing figures. there is, i should think, a strong presumption that it has been a rising age. there may have been a time in the past when most women were mothers in their early teens and bore most or all of their children before thirty, and when men had done the greater part of their procreation before thirty-five; this is still the case in many tropical climates, and i do not think i favour my case unduly by assuming that the average parent must be about, or even less than, five and twenty. this gives four generations to a century. at that rate and disregarding intermarriage of relations the ancestors living a thousand years ago needed to account for a living person would be double the estimated population of the world. but it is obvious that if a person sprang from a marriage of first cousins, the eight ancestors of the third generation are cut down to six; if of cousins at the next stage, to fourteen in the fourth. and every time that a common pair of ancestors appears in any generation, the number of ancestors in that generation must be reduced by two from our original figures, or if it is only one common ancestor, by one, and as we go back that reduction will have to be doubled, quadrupled and so on. i daresay that by the time anyone gets to the names of his elizabethan ancestors he will find quite a large number repeated over and over again in the list and that he is cut down to perhaps two or three thousand separate persons. but this does not effectually invalidate my assumption that if we go back only to the closing years of the roman republic, we go back to an age in which nearly every person living within the confines of what was then the roman empire who left living offspring must have been ancestral to every person living within that area to-day. no doubt they were so in very variable measure. there must be for everyone some few individuals in that period who have so to speak intermarried with themselves again and again and again down the genealogical series, and others who are represented by just one touch of their blood. the blood of the jews, for example, has turned in upon itself again and again; but for all we know one italian proselyte in the first year of the christian era may have made by this time every jew alive a descendant of some unrecorded bastard of julius caesar. the exclusive breeding of the jews is in fact the most effectual guarantee that whatever does get into the charmed circle through either proselytism, the violence of enemies, or feminine unchastity, must ultimately pervade it universally. it may be argued that as a matter of fact humanity has until recently been segregated in pools; that in the great civilization of china, for example, humanity has pursued its own interlacing system of inheritances without admixture from other streams of blood. but such considerations only defer the conclusion; they do not stave it off indefinitely. it needs only that one philoprogenitive chinaman should have wandered into those regions that are now russia, about the time of pericles, to link east and west in that matter; one tartar chieftain in the steppes may have given a daughter to a roman soldier and sent his grandsons east and west to interlace the branches of every family tree in the world. if any race stands apart it is such an isolated group as that of the now extinct tasmanian primitives or the australian black. but even here, in the remote dawn of navigation, may have come some shipwrecked malays, or some half-breed woman kidnapped by wandering phoenicians have carried this link of blood back to the western world. the more one lets one’s imagination play upon the incalculable drift and soak of population, the more one realizes the true value of that spreading relation with the past. but now let us turn in the other direction, the direction of the future, because there it is that this series of considerations becomes most edifying. it is the commonest trick to think of a man’s descendants as though they were his own. we are told that one of the dearest human motives is the desire to found a family, but think how much of a family one founds at the best. one’s son is after all only half one’s blood, one grandson only a quarter, and so one goes on until it may be that in ten brief generations one’s heir and namesake has but / th of one’s inherited self. those other thousand odd unpredictable people thrust in and mingle with one’s pride. the trend of all things nowadays--the ever-increasing ease of communication, the great and increasing drift of population, the establishment of a common standard of civilization--is to render such admixture far more probable and facile in the future than in the past. it is a pleasant fancy to imagine some ambitious hoarder of wealth, some egotistical founder of name and family, returning to find his descendants--his descendants--after the lapse of a few brief generations. his heir and namesake may have not a thousandth part of his heredity, while under some other name, lost to all the tradition and glory of him, enfeebled and degenerate through much intermarriage, may be a multitude of people who have as much as a fiftieth or even more of his quality. they may even be in servitude and dependence to the really alien person who is head of the family. our founder will go through the spreading record of offspring and find it mixed with that of people he most hated and despised. the antagonists he wronged and overcame will have crept into his line and recaptured all they lost; have played the cuckoo in his blood and acquisitions, and turned out his diluted strain to perish. and while i am being thus biological let me point out another queer aspect in which our egotism is overridden by physical facts. men and women are apt to think of their children as being their very own, blood of their blood and bone of their bone. but indeed one of the most striking facts in this matter is the frequent want of resemblance between parents and children. it is one of the commonest things in the world for a child to resemble an aunt or an uncle, or to revive a trait of some grandparent that has seemed entirely lost in the intervening generation. the mendelians have given much attention to facts of this nature; and though their general method of exposition seems to me quite unjustifiably exact and precise, it cannot be denied that it is often vividly illuminating. it is so in this connexion. they distinguish between “dominant” and “recessive” qualities, and they establish cases in which parents with all the dominant characteristics produce offspring of recessive type. recessive qualities are constantly being masked by dominant ones and emerging again in the next generation. it is not the individual that reproduces himself, it is the species that reproduces through the individual and often in spite of his characteristics. the race flows through us, the race is the drama and we are the incidents. this is not any sort of poetical statement; it is a statement of fact. in so far as we are individuals, in so far as we seek to follow merely individual ends, we are accidental, disconnected, without significance, the sport of chance. in so far as we realize ourselves as experiments of the species for the species, just in so far do we escape from the accidental and the chaotic. we are episodes in an experience greater than ourselves. now none of this, if you read me aright, makes for the suppression of one’s individual difference, but it does make for its correlation. we have to get everything we can out of ourselves for this very reason that we do not stand alone; we signify as parts of a universal and immortal development. our separate selves are our charges, the talents of which much has to be made. it is because we are episodical in the great synthesis of life that we have to make the utmost of our individual lives and traits and possibilities. . . the mystic element. what stupendous constructive mental and physical possibilities are there to which i feel i am contributing, you may ask, when i feel that i contribute to this greater being; and at once i confess i become vague and mystical. i do not wish to pass glibly over this point. i call your attention to the fact that here i am mystical and arbitrary. i am what i am, an individual in this present phase. i can see nothing of these possibilities except that they will be in the nature of those indefinable and overpowering gleams of promise in our world that we call beauty. elsewhere (in my “food of the gods”) i have tried to render my sense of our human possibility by monstrous images; i have written of those who will “stand on this earth as on a footstool and reach out their hands among the stars.” but that is mere rhetoric at best, a straining image of unimaginable things. things move to power and beauty; i say that much and i have said all that i can say. but what is beauty, you ask, and what will power do? and here i reach my utmost point in the direction of what you are free to call the rhapsodical and the incomprehensible. i will not even attempt to define beauty. i will not because i cannot. to me it is a final, quite indefinable thing. either you understand it or you do not. every true artist and many who are not artists know--they know there is something that shows suddenly--it may be in music, it may be in painting, it may be in the sunlight on a glacier or a shadow cast by a furnace or the scent of a flower, it may be in the person or act of some fellow creature, but it is right, it is commanding, it is, to use theological language, the revelation of god. to the mystery of power and beauty, out of the earth that mothered us, we move. i do not attempt to define beauty nor even to distinguish it from power. i do not think indeed that one can effectually distinguish these aspects of life. i do not know how far beauty may not be simply fulness and clearness of sensation, a momentary unveiling of things hitherto seen but dully and darkly. as i have already said, there may be beauty in the feeling of beer in the throat, in the taste of cheese in the mouth; there may be beauty in the scent of the earth, in the warmth of a body, in the sensation of waking from sleep. i use the word beauty therefore in its widest possible sense, ranging far beyond the special beauties that art discovers and develops. perhaps as we pass from death to life all things become beautiful. the utmost i can do in conveying what i mean by beauty is to tell of things that i have perceived to be beautiful as beautifully as i can tell of them. it may be, as i suggest elsewhere, that beauty is a thing synthetic and not simple; it is a common effect produced by a great medley of causes, a larger aspect of harmony. but the question of what beauty is does not very greatly concern me since i have known it when i met it and since almost every day in life i seem to apprehend it more and to find it more sufficient and satisfying. objectively it may be altogether complex and various and synthetic, subjectively it is altogether simple. all analysis, all definition, must in the end rest upon and arrive at unanalyzable and indefinable things. beauty is light--i fall back upon that image--it is all things that light can be, beacon, elucidation, pleasure, comfort and consolation, promise, warning, the vision of reality. . . the synthesis. it seems to me that the whole living creation may be regarded as walking in its sleep, as walking in the sleep of instinct and individualized illusion, and that now out of it all rises man, beginning to perceive his larger self, his universal brotherhood and a collective synthetic purpose to increase power and realize beauty... i write this down. it is the form of my belief, and that unanalyzable something called beauty is the light that falls upon that form. it is only by such images, it is only by the use of what are practically parables, that i can in any way express these things in my mind. these two things, i say, are the two aspects of my belief; one is the form and the other the light. the former places me as it were in a scheme, the latter illuminates and inspires me. i am a member in that great being, and my function is, i take it, to develop my capacity for beauty and convey the perception of it to my fellows, to gather and store experience and increase the racial consciousness. i hazard no whys nor wherefores. that is how i see things; that is how the universe, in response to my demand for a synthesizing aspect, presents itself to me. . . of personal immortality. these are my beliefs. they begin with arbitrary assumptions; they end in a mystery. so do all beliefs that are not grossly utilitarian and material, promising houris and deathless appetite or endless hunting or a cosmic mortgage. the peace of god passeth understanding, the kingdom of heaven within us and without can be presented only by parables. but the unapproachable distance and vagueness of these things makes them none the less necessary, just as a cloud upon a mountain or sunlight remotely seen upon the sea are as real as, and to many people far more necessary than, pork chops. the driven swine may root and take no heed, but man the dreamer drives. and because these things are vague and impalpable and wilfully attained, it is none the less important that they should be rendered with all the truth of one’s being. to be atmospherically vague is one thing; to be haphazard, wanton and untruthful, quite another. but here i may give a specific answer to a question that many find profoundly important, though indeed it is already implicitly answered in what has gone before. i do not believe i have any personal immortality. i am part of an immortality perhaps; but that is different. i am not the continuing thing. i personally am experimental, incidental. i feel i have to do something, a number of things no one else could do, and then i am finished and finished altogether. then my substance returns to the common lot. i am a temporary enclosure for a temporary purpose; that served, and my skull and teeth, my idiosyncracy and desire, will disperse, i believe, like the timbers of a booth after a fair. let me shift my ground a little and ask you to consider what is involved in the opposite belief. my idea of the unknown scheme is of something so wide and deep that i cannot conceive it encumbered by my egotism perpetually. i shall serve my purpose and pass under the wheel and end. that distresses me not at all. immortality would distress and perplex me. if i may put this in a mixture of theological and social language, i cannot respect, i cannot believe in a god who is always going about with me. but this is after all what i feel is true and what i choose to believe. it is not a matter of fact. so far as that goes there is no evidence that i am immortal and none that i am not. i may be altogether wrong in my beliefs; i may be misled by the appearances of things. i believe in the great and growing being of the species from which i rise, to which i return, and which, it may be, will ultimately even transcend the limitation of the species and grow into the conscious being, the eternally conscious being of all things. believing that, i cannot also believe that my peculiar little thread will not undergo synthesis and vanish as a separate thing. and what after all is my distinctive something, a few capacities, a few incapacities, an uncertain memory, a hesitating presence? it matters no doubt in its place and time, as all things matter in their place and time, but where in it all is the eternally indispensable? the great things of my life, love, faith, the intimation of beauty, the things most savouring of immortality, are the things most general, the things most shared and least distinctively me. . . a criticism of christianity. and here perhaps, before i go on to the question of conduct, is the place to define a relationship to that system of faith and religious observance out of which i and most of my readers have come. how do these beliefs on which i base my rule of conduct stand to christianity? they do not stand in any attitude of antagonism. a religious system so many-faced and so enduring as christianity must necessarily be saturated with truth even if it be not wholly true. to assume, as the atheist and deist seem to do, that christianity is a sort of disease that came upon civilization, an unprofitable and wasting disease, is to deny that conception of a progressive scheme and rightness which we have taken as our basis of belief. as i have already confessed, the scheme of salvation, the idea of a process of sorrow and atonement, presents itself to me as adequately true. so far i do not think my new faith breaks with my old. but it follows as a natural consequence of my metaphysical preliminaries that i should find the christian theology aristotelian, over defined and excessively personified. the painted figure of that bearded ancient upon the sistine chapel, or william blake’s wild-haired, wild-eyed trinity, convey no nearer sense of god to me than some mother-of-pearl-eyed painted and carven monster from the worship of the south sea islanders. and the miltonic fable of the offended creator and the sacrificial son! it cannot span the circle of my ideas; it is a little thing, and none the less little because it is intimate, flesh of my flesh and spirit of my spirit, like the drawings of my youngest boy. i put it aside as i would put aside the gay figure of a costumed officiating priest. the passage of time has made his canonicals too strange, too unlike my world of common thought and costume. these things helped, but now they hinder and disturb. i cannot bring myself back to them... but the psychological experience and the theology of christianity are only a ground-work for its essential feature, which is the conception of a relationship of the individual believer to a mystical being at once human and divine, the risen christ. this being presents itself to the modern consciousness as a familiar and beautiful figure, associated with a series of sayings and incidents that coalesce with a very distinct and rounded-off and complete effect of personality. after we have cleared off all the definitions of theology, he remains, mystically suffering for humanity, mystically asserting that love in pain and sacrifice in service are the necessary substance of salvation. whether he actually existed as a finite individual person in the opening of the christian era seems to me a question entirely beside the mark. the evidence at this distance is of imperceptible force for or against. the christ we know is quite evidently something different from any finite person, a figure, a conception, a synthesis of emotions, experiences and inspirations, sustained by and sustaining millions of human souls. now it seems to be the common teaching of almost all christians, that salvation, that is to say the consolidation and amplification of one’s motives through the conception of a general scheme or purpose, is to be attained through the personality of christ. christ is made cardinal to the act of faith. the act of faith, they assert, is not simply, as i hold it to be, belief, but belief in him. we are dealing here, be it remembered, with beliefs deliberately undertaken and not with questions of fact. the only matters of fact material here are facts of experience. if in your experience salvation is attainable through christ, then certainly christianity is true for you. and if a christian asserts that my belief is a false light and that presently i shall “come to christ,” i cannot disprove his assertion. i can but disbelieve it. i hesitate even to make the obvious retort. i hope i shall offend no susceptibilities when i assert that this great and very definite personality in the hearts and imaginations of mankind does not and never has attracted me. it is a fact i record about myself without aggression or regret. i do not find myself able to associate him in any way with the emotion of salvation. i admit the splendid imaginative appeal in the idea of a divine-human friend and mediator. if it were possible to have access by prayer, by meditation, by urgent outcries of the soul, to such a being whose feet were in the darknesses, who stooped down from the light, who was at once great and little, limitless in power and virtue and one’s very brother; if it were possible by sheer will in believing to make and make one’s way to such a helper, who would refuse such help? but i do not find such a being in christ. i do not find, i cannot imagine, such a being. i wish i could. to me the christian christ seems not so much a humanized god as an incomprehensibly sinless being neither god nor man. his sinlessness wears his incarnation like a fancy dress, all his white self unchanged. he had no petty weaknesses. now the essential trouble of my life is its petty weaknesses. if i am to have that love, that sense of understanding fellowship, which is, i conceive, the peculiar magic and merit of this idea of a personal saviour, then i need someone quite other than this image of virtue, this terrible and incomprehensible galilean with his crown of thorns, his blood-stained hands and feet. i cannot love him any more than i can love a man upon the rack. even in the face of torments i do not think i should feel a need for him. i had rather then a hundred times have botticelli’s armed angel in his tobit at florence. (i hope i do not seem to want to shock in writing these things, but indeed my only aim is to lay my feelings bare.) i know what love for an idealized person can be. it happens that in my younger days i found a character in the history of literature who had a singular and extraordinary charm for me, of whom the thought was tender and comforting, who indeed helped me through shames and humiliations as though he held my hand. this person was oliver goldsmith. his blunders and troubles, his vices and vanities, seized and still hold my imagination. the slights of boswell, the contempt of gibbon and all his company save johnson, the exquisite fineness of spirit in his “vicar of wakefield,” and that green suit of his and the doctor’s cane and the love despised, these things together made him a congenial saint and hero for me, so that i thought of him as others pray. when i think of that youthful feeling for goldsmith, i know what i need in a personal saviour, as a troglodyte who has seen a candle can imagine the sun. but the christian christ in none of his three characteristic phases, neither as the magic babe (from whom i am cut off by the wanton and indecent purity of the immaculate conception), nor as the white-robed, spotless miracle worker, nor as the fierce unreal torment of the cross, comes close to my soul. i do not understand the agony in the garden; to me it is like a scene from a play in an unknown tongue. the la t cry of despair is the one human touch, discordant with all the rest of the story. one cry of despair does not suffice. the christian’s christ is too fine for me, not incarnate enough, not flesh enough, not earth enough. he was never foolish and hot-eared and inarticulate, never vain, he never forgot things, nor tangled his miracles. i could love him i think more easily if the dead had not risen and if he had lain in peace in his sepulchre instead of coming back more enhaloed and whiter than ever, as a postscript to his own tragedy. when i think of the resurrection i am always reminded of the “happy endings” that editors and actor managers are accustomed to impose upon essentially tragic novels and plays... you see how i stand in this matter, puzzled and confused by the christian presentation of christ. i know there are many will answer--as i suppose my friend the rev. r.j. campbell would answer--that what confuses me is the overlaying of the personality of jesus by stories and superstitions and conflicting symbols; he will in effect ask me to disentangle the christ i need from the accumulated material, choosing and rejecting. perhaps one may do that. he does, i know, so present him as a man inspired, and strenuously, inadequately and erringly presenting a dream of human brotherhood and the immediate kingdom of heaven on earth and so blundering to his failure and death. but that will be a recovered and restored person he would give me, and not the christ the christians worship and declare they love, in whom they find their salvation. when i write “declare they love” i throw doubt intentionally upon the universal love of christians for their saviour. i have watched men and nations in this matter. i am struck by the fact that so many christians fall back upon more humanized figures, upon the tender figure of mary, upon patron saints and such more erring creatures, for the effect of mediation and sympathy they need. you see it comes to this: that i think christianity has been true and is for countless people practically true, but that it is not true now for me, and that for most people it is true only with modifications. every believing christian is, i am sure, my spiritual brother, but if systematically i called myself a christian i feel that to most men i should imply too much and so tell a lie. . . of other religions. in the same manner, in varying degree, i hold all religions to be in a measure true. least comprehensible to me are the indian formulae, because they seem to stand not on common experience but on those intellectual assumptions my metaphysical analysis destroys. transmigration of souls without a continuing memory is to my mind utter foolishness, the imagining of a race of children. the aggression, discipline and submission of mahommedanism makes, i think, an intellectually limited but fine and honourable religion--for men. its spirit if not its formulae is abundantly present in our modern world. mr. rudyard kipling, for example, manifestly preaches a mahommedan god, a modernised god with a taste for engineering. i have no doubt that in devotion to a virile, almost national deity and to the service of his empire of stern law and order, efficiently upheld, men have found and will find salvation. all these religions are true for me as canterbury cathedral is a true thing and as a swiss chalet is a true thing. there they are, and they have served a purpose, they have worked. men and women have lived in and by them. men and women still do. only they are not true for me to live in them. i have, i believe, to live in a new edifice of my own discovery. they do not work for me. these schemes are true, and also these schemes are false! in the sense that new things, new phrasings, have to replace them. . . such are the essential beliefs by which i express myself. but now comes the practical outcome of these things, and that is to discuss and show how upon this metaphysical basis and these beliefs, and in obedience to the ruling motive that arises with them, i frame principles of conduct. book the third -- of general conduct . . conduct follows from belief. i hold that the broad direction of conduct follows necessarily from belief. the believer does not require rewards and punishments to direct him to the right. motive and idea are not so separable. to believe truly is to want to do right. to get salvation is to be unified by a comprehending idea of a purpose and by a ruling motive. the believer wants to do right, he naturally and necessarily seeks to do right. if he fails to do right, if he finds he has done wrong instead of right, he is not greatly distressed or terrified, he naturally and cheerfully does his best to correct his error. he can be damned only by the fading and loss of his belief. and naturally he recurs to and refreshes his belief. i write in phrases that the evangelical christianity of my childhood made familiar to me, because they are the most expressive phrases i have ever met for the psychological facts with which i am dealing. but faith, though it banishes fear and despair and brings with it a real prevailing desire to know and do the good, does not in itself determine what is the good or supply any simple guide to the choice between alternatives. if it did, there would be nothing more to be said, this book upon conduct would be unnecessary. . . what is good? it seems to me one of the heedless errors of those who deal in philosophy, to suppose all things that have simple names or unified effects are in their nature simple and may be discovered and isolated as a sort of essence by analysis. it is natural to suppose--and i think it is also quite wrong to suppose--that such things as good and beauty can be abstracted from good and beautiful things and considered alone. but pure good and pure beauty are to me empty terms. it seems to me that these are in their nature synthetic things, that they arise out of the coming together of contributory things and conditions, and vanish at their dispersal; they are synthetic just as more obviously harmony is synthetic. it is consequently not possible to give a definition of good, just as it is not possible to give a definition of that other something which is so closely akin to it, beauty. nor is it to be maintained that what is good for one is good for another. but what is good of one’s general relations and what is right in action must be determined by the nature of one’s beliefs about the purpose in things. i have set down my broad impression of that purpose in respect to me, as the awakening and development of the consciousness and will of our species, and i have confessed my belief that in subordinating myself and all my motives to that idea lies my salvation. it follows from that, that the good life is the life that most richly gathers and winnows and prepares experience and renders it available for the race, that contributes most effectively to the collective growth. this is in general terms my idea of good. so soon as one passes from general terms to the question of individual good, one encounters individuality; for everyone in the differing quality and measure of their personality and powers and possibilities, good and right must be different. we are all engaged, each contributing from his or her own standpoint, in the collective synthesis; whatever one can best do, one must do that; in whatever manner one can best help the synthesis, one must exert oneself; the setting apart of oneself, secrecy, the service of secret and personal ends, is the waste of life and the essential quality of sin. that is the general expression for right living as i conceive it. . . socialism. in the study of what is good, it is very convenient to make a rough division of our subject into general and particular. there are first the interests and problems that affect us all collectively, in which we have a common concern and from which no one may legitimately seek exemption; of these interests and problems we may fairly say every man should do so and so, or so and so, or the law should be so and so, or so and so; and secondly there are those other problems in which individual difference and the interplay of one or two individualities is predominant. this is of course no hard and fast classification, but it gives a method of approach. we can begin with the generalized person in ourselves and end with individuality. in the world of ideas about me, i have found going on a great social and political movement that correlates itself with my conception of a great synthesis of human purpose as the aspect towards us of the universal scheme. this movement is socialism. socialism is to me no clear-cut system of theories and dogmas; it is one of those solid and extensive and synthetic ideas that are better indicated by a number of different formulae than by one, just as one only realizes a statue by walking round it and seeing it from a number of points of view. i do not think it is to be completely expressed by any one system of formulae or by any one man. its common quality from nearly every point of view is the subordination of the will of the self-seeking individual to the idea of a racial well-being embodied in an organized state, organized for every end that can be obtained collectively. upon that i seize; that is the value of socialism for me. socialism for me is a common step we are all taking in the great synthesis of human purpose. it is the organization, in regard to a great mass of common and fundamental interests that have hitherto been dispersedly served, of a collective purpose. i see humanity scattered over the world, dispersed, conflicting, unawakened... i see human life as avoidable waste and curable confusion. i see peasants living in wretched huts knee-deep in manure, mere parasites on their own pigs and cows; i see shy hunters wandering in primaeval forests; i see the grimy millions who slave for industrial production; i see some who are extravagant and yet contemptible creatures of luxury, and some leading lives of shame and indignity; tens of thousands of wealthy people wasting lives in vulgar and unsatisfying trivialities, hundreds of thousands meanly chaffering themselves, rich or poor, in the wasteful byways of trade; i see gamblers, fools, brutes, toilers, martyrs. their disorder of effort, the spectacle of futility, fills me with a passionate desire to end waste, to create order, to develop understanding... all these people reflect and are part of the waste and discontent of my life, and this co-ordination of the species to a common general end, and the quest for my personal salvation, are the social and the individual aspect of essentially the same desire... and yet dispersed as all these people are, they are far more closely drawn together to common ends and common effort than the filthy savages who ate food rotten and uncooked in the age of unpolished stone. they live in the mere opening phase of a synthesis of effort the end of which surpasses our imagination. such intercourse and community as they have is only a dawn. we look towards the day, the day of the organized civilized world state. the first clear intimation of that conscious synthesis of human thought to which i look, the first edge of the dayspring, has arisen--as socialism, as i conceive of socialism. socialism is to me no more and no less than the awakening of a collective consciousness in humanity, a collective will and a collective mind out of which finer individualities may arise forever in a perpetual series of fresh endeavours and fresh achievements for the race. . . a criticism of certain forms of socialism. it is necessary to point out that a socialism arising in this way out of the conception of a synthesis of the will and thought of the species will necessarily differ from conceptions of socialism arrived at in other and different ways. it is based on a self-discontent and self-abnegation and not on self-satisfaction, and it will be a scheme of persistent thought and construction, essentially, and it will support this or that method of law-making, or this or that method of economic exploitation, or this or that matter of social grouping, only incidentally and in relation to that. such a conception of socialism is very remote in spirit, however it may agree in method, from that philanthropic administrative socialism one finds among the british ruling and administrative class. that seems to me to be based on a pity which is largely unjustifiable and a pride that is altogether unintelligent. the pity is for the obvious wants and distresses of poverty, the pride appears in the arrogant and aggressive conception of raising one’s fellows. i have no strong feeling for the horrors and discomforts of poverty as such, sensibilities can be hardened to endure the life led by the “romans” in dartmoor jail a hundred years ago (see “the story of dartmoor prison” by basil thomson (heinemann-- ).), or softened to detect the crumpled rose-leaf; what disgusts me is the stupidity and warring purposes of which poverty is the outcome. when it comes to the idea of raising human beings, i must confess the only person i feel concerned about raising is h.g. wells, and that even in his case my energies might be better employed. after all, presently he must die and the world will have done with him. his output for the species is more important than his individual elevation. moreover, all this talk of raising implies a classification i doubt. i find it hard to fix any standards that will determine who is above me and who below. most people are different from me i perceive, but which among them is better, which worse? i have a certain power of communicating with other minds, but what experiences i communicate seem often far thinner and poorer stuff than those which others less expressive than i half fail to communicate and half display to me. my “inferiors,” judged by the common social standards, seem indeed intellectually more limited than i and with a narrower outlook; they are often dirtier and more driven, more under the stress of hunger and animal appetites; but on the other hand have they not more vigorous sensations than i, and through sheer coarsening and hardening of fibre, the power to do more toilsome things and sustain intenser sensations than i could endure? when i sit upon the bench, a respectable magistrate, and commit some battered reprobate for trial for this lurid offence or that, or send him or her to prison for drunkenness or such-like indecorum, the doubt drifts into my mind which of us after all is indeed getting nearest to the keen edge of life. are i and my respectable colleagues much more than successful evasions of that? perhaps these people in the dock know more of the essential strains and stresses of nature, are more intimate with pain. at any rate i do not think i am justified in saying certainly that they do not know... no, i do not want to raise people using my own position as a standard, i do not want to be one of a gang of consciously superior people, i do not want arrogantly to change the quality of other lives. i do not want to interfere with other lives, except incidentally--incidentally, in this way that i do want to get to an understanding with them, i do want to share and feel with them in our commerce with the collective mind. i suppose i do not stretch language very much when i say i want to get rid of stresses and obstacles between our minds and personalities and to establish a relation that is understanding and sympathy. i want to make more generally possible a relationship of communication and interchange, that for want of a less battered and ambiguous word i must needs call love. and if i disavow the socialism of condescension, so also do i disavow the socialism of revolt. there is a form of socialism based upon the economic generalizations of marx, an economic fatalistic socialism that i hold to be rather wrong in its vision of facts, rather more distinctly wrong in its theory, and altogether wrong and hopeless in its spirit. it preaches, as inevitable, a concentration of property in the hands of a limited number of property owners and the expropriation of the great proletarian mass of mankind, a concentration which is after all no more than a tendency conditional on changing and changeable conventions about property, and it finds its hope of a better future in the outcome of a class conflict between the expropriated many and the expropriating few. both sides are to be equally swayed by self-interest, but the toilers are to be gregarious and mutually loyal in their self-interest--heaven knows why, except that otherwise the marxist dream will not work. the experience of contemporary events seems to show at least an equal power of combination for material ends among owners and employers as among workers. now this class-war idea is one diametrically opposed to that religious-spirited socialism which supplies the form of my general activities. this class-war idea would exacerbate the antagonism of the interests of the many individuals against the few individuals, and i would oppose the conceiving of the whole to the self-seeking of the individual. the spirit and constructive intention of the many to-day are no better than those of the few, poor and rich alike are over-individualized, self-seeking and non-creative; to organize the confused jostling competitions, over-reachings, envies and hatreds of to-day into two great class-hatreds and antagonisms will advance the reign of love at most only a very little, only so far as it will simplify and make plain certain issues. it may very possibly not advance the reign of love at all, but rather shatter the order we have. socialism, as i conceive it, and as i have presented it in my book, “new worlds for old,” seeks to change economic arrangements only by the way, as an aspect and outcome of a great change, a change in the spirit and method of human intercourse. i know that here i go beyond the limits many socialists in the past, and some who are still contemporary, have set themselves. much socialism to-day seems to think of itself as fighting a battle against poverty and its concomitants alone. now poverty is only a symptom of a profounder evil and is never to be cured by itself. it is one aspect of divided and dispersed purposes. if socialism is only a conflict with poverty, socialism is nothing. but i hold that socialism is and must be a battle against human stupidity and egotism and disorder, a battle fought all through the forests and jungles of the soul of man. as we get intellectual and moral light and the realization of brotherhood, so social and economic organization will develop. but the socialist may attack poverty for ever, disregarding the intellectual and moral factors that necessitate it, and he will remain until the end a purely economic doctrinaire crying in the wilderness in vain. and if i antagonize myself in this way to the philanthropic socialism of kindly prosperous people on the one hand and to the fierce class-hatred socialism on the other, still more am i opposed to that furtive socialism of the specialist which one meets most typically in the fabian society. it arises very naturally out of what i may perhaps call specialist fatigue and impatience. it is very easy for writers like myself to deal in the broad generalities of socialism and urge their adoption as general principles; it is altogether another affair with a man who sets himself to work out the riddle of the complications of actuality in order to modify them in the direction of socialism. he finds himself in a jungle of difficulties that strain his intellectual power to the utmost. he emerges at last with conclusions, and they are rarely the obvious conclusions, as to what needs to be done. even the people of his own side he finds do not see as he sees; they are, he perceives, crude and ignorant. now i hold that his duty is to explain his discoveries and intentions until they see as he sees. but the specialist temperament is often not a generalizing and expository temperament. specialists are apt to measure minds by their speciality and underrate the average intelligence. the specialist is appalled by the real task before him, and he sets himself by tricks and misrepresentations, by benevolent scoundrelism in fact, to effect changes he desires. too often he fails even in that. where he might have found fellowship he arouses suspicion. and even if a thing is done in this way, its essential merit is lost. for it is better, i hold, for a man to die of his disease than to be cured unwittingly. that is to cheat him of life and to cheat life of the contribution his consciousness might have given it. the socialism of my beliefs rests on a profounder faith and broader proposition. it looks over and beyond the warring purposes of to-day as a general may look over and beyond a crowd of sullen, excited and confused recruits, to the day when they will be disciplined, exercised, trained, willing and convergent on a common end. it holds persistently to the idea of men increasingly working in agreement, doing things that are sane to do, on a basis of mutual helpfulness, temperance and toleration. it sees the great masses of humanity rising out of base and immediate anxieties, out of dwarfing pressures and cramped surroundings, to understanding and participation and fine effort. it sees the resources of the earth husbanded and harvested, economized and used with scientific skill for the maximum of result. it sees towns and cities finely built, a race of beings finely bred and taught and trained, open ways and peace and freedom from end to end of the earth. it sees beauty increasing in humanity, about humanity and through humanity. through this great body of mankind goes evermore an increasing understanding, an intensifying brotherhood. as christians have dreamt of the new jerusalem so does socialism, growing ever more temperate, patient, forgiving and resolute, set its face to the world city of mankind. . . hate and love. before i go on to point out the broad principles of action that flow from this wide conception of socialism, i may perhaps give a section to elucidating that opposition of hate and love i made when i dealt with the class war. i have already used the word love several times; it is an ambiguous word and it may be well to spend a few words in making clear the sense in which it is used here. i use it in a very broad sense to convey all that complex of motives, impulses, sentiments, that incline us to find our happiness and satisfactions in the happiness and sympathy of others. essentially it is a synthetic force in human affairs, the merger tendency, a linking force, an expression in personal will and feeling of the common element and interest. it insists upon resemblances and shares and sympathies. and hate, i take it, is the emotional aspect of antagonism, it is the expression in personal will and feeling of the individual’s separation from others. it is the competing and destructive tendency. so long as we are individuals and members of a species, we must needs both hate and love. but because i believe, as i have already confessed, that the oneness of the species is a greater fact than individuality, and that we individuals are temporary separations from a collective purpose, and since hate eliminates itself by eliminating its objects, whilst love multiplies itself by multiplying its objects, so love must be a thing more comprehensive and enduring than hate. moreover, hate must be in its nature a good thing. we individuals exist as such, i believe, for the purpose in things, and our separations and antagonisms serve that purpose. we play against each other like hammer and anvil. but the synthesis of a collective will in humanity, which is i believe our human and terrestrial share in that purpose, is an idea that carries with it a conception of a secular alteration in the scope and method of both love and hate. both widen and change with man’s widening and developing apprehension of the purpose he serves. the savage man loves in gusts a fellow creature or so about him, and fears and hates all other people. every expansion of his scope and ideas widens either circle. the common man of our civilized world loves not only many of his friends and associates systematically and enduringly, but dimly he loves also his city and his country, his creed and his race; he loves it may be less intensely but over a far wider field and much more steadily. but he hates also more widely if less passionately and vehemently than a savage, and since love makes rather harmony and peace and hate rather conflict and events, one may easily be led to suppose that hate is the ruling motive in human affairs. men band themselves together in leagues and loyalties, in cults and organizations and nationalities, and it is often hard to say whether the bond is one of love for the association or hatred of those to whom the association is antagonized. the two things pass insensibly into one another. london people have recently seen an edifying instance of the transition, in the brown dog statue riots. a number of people drawn together by their common pity for animal suffering, by love indeed of the most disinterested sort, had so forgotten their initial spirit as to erect a monument with an inscription at once recklessly untruthful, spiteful in spirit and particularly vexatious to one great medical school of london. they have provoked riots and placarded london with taunts and irritating misrepresentation of the spirit of medical research, and they have infected a whole fresh generation of london students with a bitter partizan contempt for the humanitarian effort that has so lamentably misconducted itself. both sides vow they will never give in, and the anti-vivisectionists are busy manufacturing small china copies of the brown dog figure, inscription and all, for purposes of domestic irritation. here hate, the evil ugly brother of effort, has manifestly slain love the initiator and taken the affair in hand. that is a little model of human conflicts. so soon as we become militant and play against one another, comes this danger of strain and this possible reversal of motive. the fight begins. into a pit of heat and hate fall right and wrong together. now it seems to me that a religious faith such as i have set forth in the second book, and a clear sense of our community of blood with all mankind, must necessarily affect both our loving and our hatred. it will certainly not abolish hate, but it will subordinate it altogether to love. we are individuals, so the purpose presents itself to me, in order that we may hate the things that have to go, ugliness, baseness, insufficiency, unreality, that we may love and experiment and strive for the things that collectively we seek--power and beauty. before our conversion we did this darkly and with our hate spreading to persons and parties from the things for which they stood. but the believer will hate lovingly and without fear. we are of one blood and substance with our antagonists, even with those that we desire keenly may die and leave no issue in flesh or persuasion. they all touch us and are part of one necessary experience. they are all necessary to the synthesis, even if they are necessary only as the potato-peel in the dust-bin is necessary to my dinner. so it is i disavow and deplore the whole spirit of class-war socialism with its doctrine of hate, its envious assault upon the leisure and freedom of the wealthy. without leisure and freedom and the experience of life they gave, the ideas of socialism could never have been born. the true mission of socialism is against darkness, vanity and cowardice, that darkness which hides from the property owner the intense beauty, the potentialities of interest, the splendid possibilities of life, that vanity and cowardice that make him clutch his precious holdings and fear and hate the shadow of change. it has to teach the collective organization of society; and to that the class-consciousness and intense class-prejudices of the worker need to bow quite as much as those of the property owner. but when i say that socialism’s mission is to teach, i do not mean that its mission is a merely verbal and mental one; it must use all instruments and teach by example as well as precept. socialism by becoming charitable and merciful will not cease to be militant. socialism must, lovingly but resolutely, use law, use force, to dispossess the owners of socially disadvantageous wealth, as one coerces a lunatic brother or takes a wrongfully acquired toy from a spoilt and obstinate child. it must intervene between all who would keep their children from instruction in the business of citizenship and the lessons of fraternity. it must build and guard what it builds with laws and with that sword which is behind all laws. non-resistance is for the non-constructive man, for the hermit in the cave and the naked saint in the dust; the builder and maker with the first stroke of his foundation spade uses force and opens war against the anti-builder. . . the preliminary social duty. the belief i have that contributing to the development of the collective being of man is the individual’s general meaning and duty, and the formulae of the socialism which embodies this belief so far as our common activities go, give a general framework and direction how a man or woman should live. (i do throughout all this book mean man or woman equally when i write of “man,” unless it is manifestly inapplicable.) and first in this present time he must see to it that he does live, that is to say he must get food, clothing, covering, and adequate leisure for the finer aspects of living. socialism plans an organized civilization in which these things will be a collective solicitude, and the gaining of a subsistence an easy preliminary to the fine drama of existence, but in the world as we have it we are forced to engage much of our energy in scrambling for these preliminary necessities. our problems of conduct lie in the world as it is and not in the world as we want it to be. first then a man must get a living, a fair civilized living for himself. it is a fundamental duty. it must be a fair living, not pinched nor mean nor strained. a man can do nothing higher, he can be no service to any cause, until he himself is fed and clothed and equipped and free. he must earn this living or equip himself to earn it in some way not socially disadvantageous, he must contrive as far as possible that the work he does shall be constructive and contributory to the general well-being. and these primary necessities of food, clothing and freedom being secured, one comes to the general disposition of one’s surplus energy. with regard to that i think that a very simple proposition follows from the broad beliefs i have chosen to adopt. the general duty of a man, his existence being secured, is to educate, and chiefly to educate and develop himself. it is his duty to live, to make all he can out of himself and life, to get full of experience, to make himself fine and perceiving and expressive, to render his experience and perceptions honestly and helpfully to others. and in particular he has to educate himself and others with himself in socialism. he has to make and keep this idea of synthetic human effort and of conscious constructive effort clear first to himself and then clear in the general mind. for it is an idea that comes and goes. we are all of us continually lapsing from it towards individual isolation again. he needs, we all need, constant refreshment in this belief if it is to remain a predominant living fact in our lives. and that duty of education, of building up the collective idea and organization of humanity, falls into various divisions depending in their importance upon individual quality. for all there is one personal work that none may evade, and that is thinking hard, criticising strenuously and understanding as clearly as one can religion, socialism and the general principle of one’s acts. the intellectual factor is of primary importance in my religion. i can see no more reason why salvation should come to the intellectually incapable than to the morally incapable. for simple souls thinking in simple processes, salvation perhaps comes easily, but there is none for the intellectual coward, for the mental sloven and sluggard, for the stupid and obdurate mind. the believer will think hard and continue to grow and learn, to read and seek discussion as his needs determine. correlated with one’s own intellectual activity, part of it and growing out of it for almost everyone, is intellectual work with and upon others. by teaching we learn. not to communicate one’s thoughts to others, to keep one’s thoughts to oneself as people say, is either cowardice or pride. it is a form of sin. it is a duty to talk, teach, explain, write, lecture, read and listen. every truly religious man, every good socialist, is a propagandist. those who cannot write or discuss can talk, those who cannot argue can induce people to listen to others and read. we have a belief and an idea that we want to spread, each to the utmost of his means and measure, throughout all the world. we have a thought that we want to make humanity’s thought. and it is a duty too that one should, within the compass of one’s ability, make teaching, writing and lecturing possible where it has not existed before. this can be done in a hundred ways, by founding and enlarging schools and universities and chairs, for example; by making print and reading and all the material of thought cheap and abundant, by organizing discussion and societies for inquiry. and talk and thought and study are but the more generalized aspects of duty. the believer may find his own special aptitude lies rather among concrete things, in experimenting and promoting experiments in collective action. things teach as well as words, and some of us are most expressive by concrete methods. the believer will work himself and help others to his utmost in all those developments of material civilization, in organized sanitation for example, all those developments that force collective acts upon communities and collective realizations into the minds of men. and the whole field of scientific research is a field of duty calling to everyone who can enter it, to add to the permanent store of knowledge and new resources for the race. the mind of that civilized state we seek to make by giving ourselves into its making, is evidently the central work before us. but while the writer, the publisher and printer, the bookseller and librarian and teacher and preacher, the investigator and experimenter, the reader and everyone who thinks, will be contributing themselves to this great organized mind and intention in the world, many sorts of specialized men will be more immediately concerned with parallel and more concrete aspects of the human synthesis. the medical worker and the medical investigator, for example, will be building up the body of a new generation, the body of the civilized state, and he will be doing all he can, not simply as an individual, but as a citizen, to organize his services of cure and prevention, of hygiene and selection. a great and growing multitude of men will be working out the apparatus of the civilized state; the organizers of transit and housing, the engineers in their incessantly increasing variety, the miners and geologists estimating the world’s resources in metals and minerals, the mechanical inventors perpetually economizing force. the scientific agriculturist again will be studying the food supply of the world as a whole, and how it may be increased and distributed and economized. and to the student of law comes the task of rephrasing his intricate and often quite beautiful science in relation to modern conceptions. all these and a hundred other aspects are integral to the wide project of constructive socialism as it shapes itself in my faith. . . wrong ways of living. when we lay down the proposition that it is one’s duty to get one’s living in some way not socially disadvantageous, and as far as possible by work that is contributory to the general well-being and development, when we state that one’s surplus energies, after one’s living is gained, must be devoted to experience, self-development and constructive work, it is clear we condemn by implication many modes of life that are followed to-day. for example, it is manifest we condemn living in idleness or on non-productive sport, on the income derived from private property, and all sorts of ways of earning a living that cannot be shown to conduce to the constructive process. we condemn trading that is merely speculative, and in fact all trading and manufacture that is not a positive social service; we condemn living by gambling or by playing games for either stakes or pay. much more do we condemn dishonest or fraudulent trading and every act of advertisement that is not punctiliously truthful. we must condemn too the taking of any income from the community that is neither earned nor conceded in the collective interest. but to this last point, and to certain issues arising out of it, i will return in the section next following this one. and it follows evidently from our general propositions that every form of prostitution is a double sin, against one’s individuality and against the species which we serve by the development of that individuality’s preferences and idiosyncracies. and by prostitution i mean not simply the act of a woman who sells for money, and against her thoughts and preferences, her smiles and endearments and the secret beauty and pleasure of her body, but the act of anyone who, to gain a living, suppresses himself, does things in a manner alien to himself and subserves aims and purposes with which he disagrees. the journalist who writes against his personal convictions, the solicitor who knowingly assists the schemes of rogues, the barrister who pits himself against what he perceives is justice and the right, the artist who does unbeautiful things or less beautiful things than he might, simply to please base employers, the craftsman who makes instruments for foolish uses or bad uses, the dealer who sells and pushes an article because it fits the customer’s folly; all these are prostitutes of mind and soul if not of body, with no right to lift an eyebrow at the painted disasters of the streets. . . social parasitism and contemporary injustices. these broad principles about one’s way of living are very simple; our minds move freely among them. but the real interest is with the individual case, and the individual case is almost always complicated by the fact that the existing social and economic system is based upon conditions that the growing collective intelligence condemns as unjust and undesirable, and that the constructive spirit in men now seeks to supersede. we have to live in a provisional state while we dream of and work for a better one. the ideal life for the ordinary man in a civilized, that is to say a socialist, state would be in public employment or in private enterprise aiming at public recognition. but in our present world only a small minority can have that direct and honourable relation of public service in the work they do; most of the important business of the community is done upon the older and more tortuous private ownership system, and the great mass of men in socially useful employment find themselves working only indirectly for the community and directly for the profit of a private owner, or they themselves are private owners. every man who has any money put by in the bank, or any money invested, is a private owner, and in so far as he draws interest or profit from this investment he is a social parasite. it is in practice almost impossible to divest oneself of that parasitic quality however straightforward the general principle may be. it is practically impossible for two equally valid sets of reasons. the first is that under existing conditions, saving and investment constitute the only way to rest and security in old age, to leisure, study and intellectual independence, to the safe upbringing of a family and the happiness of one’s weaker dependents. these are things that should not be left for the individual to provide; in the civilized state, the state itself will insure every citizen against these anxieties that now make the study of the city article almost a duty. to abandon saving and investment to-day, and to do so is of course to abandon all insurance, is to become a driven and uncertain worker, to risk one’s personal freedom and culture and the upbringing and efficiency of one’s children. it is to lower the standard of one’s personal civilization, to think with less deliberation and less detachment, to fall away from that work of accumulating fine habits and beautiful and pleasant ways of living contributory to the coming state. and in the second place there is not only no return for such a sacrifice in anything won for socialism, but for fine-thinking and living people to give up property is merely to let it pass into the hands of more egoistic possessors. since at present things must be privately owned, it is better that they should be owned by people consciously working for social development and willing to use them to that end. we have to live in the present system and under the conditions of the present system, while we work with all our power to change that system for a better one. the case of cadburys the cocoa and chocolate makers, and the practical slavery under the portuguese of the east african negroes who grow the raw material for messrs. cadbury, is an illuminating one in this connection. the cadburys, like the rowntrees, are well known as an energetic and public-spirited family, their social and industrial experiments at bournville and their general social and political activities are broad and constructive in the best sense. but they find themselves in the peculiar dilemma that they must either abandon an important and profitable portion of their great manufacture or continue to buy produce grown under cruel and even horrible conditions. their retirement from the branch of the cocoa and chocolate trade concerned would, under these circumstances, mean no diminution of the manufacture or of the horrors of this particular slavery; it would merely mean that less humanitarian manufacturers would step in to take up the abandoned trade. the self-righteous individualist would have no doubts about the question; he would keep his hands clean anyhow, retrench his social work, abandon the types of cocoa involved, and pass by on the other side. but indeed i do not believe we came into the mire of life simply to hold our hands up out of it. messrs. cadbury follow a better line; they keep their business going, and exert themselves in every way to let light into the secrets of portuguese east africa and to organize a better control of these labour cruelties. that i think is altogether the right course in this difficulty. we cannot keep our hands clean in this world as it is. there is no excuse indeed for a life of fraud or any other positive fruitless wrong-doing or for a purely parasitic non-productive life, yet all but the fortunate few who are properly paid and recognized state servants must in financial and business matters do their best amidst and through institutions tainted with injustice and flawed with unrealities. all socialists everywhere are like expeditionary soldiers far ahead of the main advance. the organized state that should own and administer their possessions for the general good has not arrived to take them over; and in the meanwhile they must act like its anticipatory agents according to their lights and make things ready for its coming. the believer then who is not in the public service, whose life lies among the operations of private enterprise, must work always on the supposition that the property he administers, the business in which he works, the profession he follows, is destined to be taken over and organized collectively for the commonweal and must be made ready for the taking over; that the private outlook he secures by investment, the provision he makes for his friends and children, are temporary, wasteful, though at present unavoidable devices to be presently merged in and superseded by the broad and scientific previsions of the co-operative commonwealth. . . the case of the wife and mother. these principles give a rule also for the problem that faces the great majority of thinking wives and mothers to-day. the most urgent and necessary social work falls upon them; they bear, and largely educate and order the homes of, the next generation, and they have no direct recognition from the community for either of these supreme functions. they are supposed to perform them not for god or the world, but to please and satisfy a particular man. our laws, our social conventions, our economic methods, so hem a woman about that, however fitted for and desirous of maternity she may be, she can only effectually do that duty in a dependent relation to her husband. nearly always he is the paymaster, and if his payments are grudging or irregular, she has little remedy short of a breach and the rupture of the home. her duty is conceived of as first to him and only secondarily to her children and the state. many wives become under these circumstances mere prostitutes to their husbands, often evading the bearing of children with their consent and even at their request, and “loving for a living.” that is a natural outcome of the proprietary theory of the family out of which our civilization emerges. but our modern ideas trend more and more to regard a woman’s primary duty to be her duty to the children and to the world to which she gives them. she is to be a citizen side by side with her husband; no longer is he to intervene between her and the community. as a matter of contemporary fact he can do so and does so habitually, and most women have to square their ideas of life to that possibility. before any woman who is clear-headed enough to perceive that this great business of motherhood is one of supreme public importance, there are a number of alternatives at the present time. she may, like grant allan’s heroine in “the woman who did,” declare an exaggerated and impossible independence, refuse the fetters of marriage and bear children to a lover. this, in the present state of public opinion in almost every existing social atmosphere, would be a purely anarchistic course. it would mean a fatherless home, and since the woman will have to play the double part of income-earner and mother, an impoverished and struggling home. it would mean also an unsocial because ostracized home. in most cases, and even assuming it to be right in idea, it would still be on all fours with that immediate abandonment of private property we have already discussed, a sort of suicide that helps the world nothing. or she may “strike,” refuse marriage and pursue a solitary and childless career, engaging her surplus energies in constructive work. but that also is suicide; it is to miss the keenest experiences, the finest realities life has to offer. or she may meet a man whom she can trust to keep a treaty with her and supplement the common interpretations and legal insufficiencies of the marriage bond, who will respect her always as a free and independent person, will abstain absolutely from authoritative methods, and will either share and trust his income and property with her in a frank communism, or give her a sufficient and private income for her personal use. it is only fair under existing economic conditions that at marriage a husband should insure his life in his wife’s interest, and i do not think it would be impossible to bring our legal marriage contract into accordance with modern ideas in that matter. certainly it should be legally imperative that at the birth of each child a new policy upon its father’s life, as the income-getter, should begin. the latter provision at least should be a normal condition of marriage and one that the wife should have power to enforce when payments fall away. with such safeguards and under such conditions marriage ceases to be a haphazard dependence for a woman, and she may live, teaching and rearing and free, almost as though the co-operative commonwealth had come. but in many cases, since great numbers of women marry so young and so ignorantly that their thinking about realities begins only after marriage, a woman will find herself already married to a man before she realizes the significance of these things. she may be already the mother of children. her husband’s ideas may not be her ideas. he may dominate, he may prohibit, he may intervene, he may default. he may, if he sees fit, burthen the family income with the charges of his illegitimate offspring. we live in the world as it is and not in the world as it should be. that sentence becomes the refrain of this discussion. the normal modern married woman has to make the best of a bad position, to do her best under the old conditions, to live as though she was under the new conditions, to make good citizens, to give her spare energies as far as she can to bringing about a better state of affairs. like the private property owner and the official in a privately owned business, her best method of conduct is to consider herself an unrecognized public official, irregularly commanded and improperly paid. there is no good in flagrant rebellion. she has to study her particular circumstances and make what good she can out of them, keeping her face towards the coming time. i cannot better the image i have already used for the thinking and believing modern-minded people of to-day as an advance guard cut off from proper supplies, ill furnished so that makeshift prevails, and rather demoralized. we have to be wise as well as loyal; discretion itself is loyalty to the coming state. . . associations. in the previous section i have dealt with the single individual’s duty in relation to the general community and to law and generally received institutions. but there is a new set of questions now to be considered. let us take up the modifications that arise when it is not one isolated individual but a group of individuals who find themselves in disagreement with contemporary rule or usage and disposed to find a rightness in things not established or not conceded. they too live in the world as it is and not in the world as it ought to be, but their association opens up quite new possibilities of anticipating coming developments of living, and of protecting and guaranteeing one another from what for a single unprotected individual would be the inevitable consequences of a particular line of conduct, conduct which happened to be unorthodox or only, in the face of existing conditions, unwise. for example, a friend of mine who had read a copy of the preceding section wrote as follows:-- “i can see no reason why even to-day a number of persons avowedly united in the same ‘belief’ and recognizing each other as the self-constituted social vanguard should not form a recognized spiritual community centering round some kind of ‘religious’ edifice and ritual, and agree to register and consecrate the union of any couples of the members according to a contract which the whole community should have voted acceptable. the community would be the guardian of money deposited or paid in gradually as insurance for the children. and the fact of the whole business being regular, open and connected with a common intellectual and moral ritual and a common name, such for example as your name of ‘the samurai,’ would secure the respect of outsiders, so that eventually these new marriage arrangements would modify the old ones. people would ask, ‘were you married before the registrar?’ and the answer would be, ‘no, we are samurai and were united before the elders.’ in catholic countries those who use only the civil marriage are considered outcasts by the religiously minded, which shows that recognition by the state is not as potent as recognition by the community to which one belongs. the religious marriage is considered the only one binding by catholics, and the civil ceremony is respected merely because the state has brute force behind it.” there is in this passage one particularly valuable idea, the idea of an association of people to guarantee the welfare of their children in common. i will follow that a little, though it takes me away from my main line of thought. it seems to me that such an association might be found in many cases a practicable way of easing the conflict that so many men and women experience, between their individual public service and their duty to their own families. many people of exceptional gifts, whose gifts are not necessarily remunerative, are forced by these personal considerations to direct them more or less askew, to divert them from their best application to some inferior but money-making use; and many more are given the disagreeable alternative of evading parentage or losing the freedom of mind needed for socially beneficial work. this is particularly the case with many scientific investigators, many sociological and philosophical workers, many artists, teachers and the like. even when such people are fairly prosperous personally they do not care to incur the obligation to keep prosperous at any cost to their work that a family in our competitive system involves. it gives great ease of mind to any sort of artistic or intellectual worker to feel free to become poor. i do not see why a group of such people should not attempt a merger of their family anxieties and family adventures, insure all its members, and while each retains a sufficient personal independence for freedom of word and movement, pool their family solicitudes and resources, organize a collective school and a common maintenance fund for all the children born of members of the association. i do not see why they should not in fact develop a permanent trust to maintain, educate and send out all their children into the world, a trust to which their childless friends and associates could contribute by gift and bequest, and to which the irregular good fortune that is not uncommon in the careers of these exceptional types could be devoted. i do not mean any sort of charity but an enlarged family basis. such an idea passes very readily into the form of a eugenic association. it would be quite possible and very interesting for prosperous people interested in eugenics to create a trust for the offspring of a selected band of beneficiaries, and with increasing resources to admit new members and so build up within the present social system a special strain of chosen people. so far people with eugenic ideas and people with conceptions of associated and consolidated families have been too various and too dispersed for such associations to be practicable, but as such views of life become more common, the chance of a number of sufficiently homogeneous and congenial people working out the method of such a grouping increases steadily. moreover, i can imagine no reason to prevent any women who are in agreement with the moral standards of the “woman who did” (standards i will not discuss at this present point but defer for a later section) combining for mutual protection and social support and the welfare of such children as they may bear. then certainly, to the extent that this succeeds, the objections that arise from the evil effects upon the children of social isolation disappear. this isolation would be at worst a group isolation, and there can be no doubt that my friend is right in pointing out that there is much more social toleration for an act committed under the sanction of a group than for an isolated act that may be merely impulsive misbehaviour masquerading as high principle. it seems to me remarkable that, to the best of my knowledge, so obvious a form of combination has never yet been put in practice. it is remarkable but not inexplicable. the first people to develop novel ideas, more particularly of this type, are usually people in isolated circumstances and temperamentally incapable of disciplined cooperation. . . of an organized brotherhood. the idea of organizing the progressive elements in the social chaos into a regular developing force is one that has had a great attraction for me. i have written upon it elsewhere, and i make no apology for returning to it here and examining it in the light of various afterthoughts and with fresh suggestions. i first broached this idea in a book called “anticipations,” wherein i described a possible development of thought and concerted action which i called the new republicanism, and afterwards i redrew the thing rather more elaborately in my “modern utopia.” i had been struck by the apparently chaotic and wasteful character of most contemporary reform movements, and it seemed reasonable to suppose that those who aimed at organizing society and replacing chaos and waste by wise arrangements, might very well begin by producing a more effective organization for their own efforts. these complexities of good intention made me impatient, and i sought industriously in my mind for a short cut through them. in doing so i think i overlooked altogether too much how heterogeneous all progressive thought and progressive people must be. in my “modern utopia” i turned this idea of an organized brotherhood about very thoroughly and looked at it from this point and that; i let it loose as it were, and gave it its fullest development, and so produced a sort of secular order of governing men and women. in a spirit entirely journalistic i called this the order of the samurai, for at the time i wrote there was much interest in bushido because of the capacity for hardship and self-sacrifice this chivalrous culture appears to have developed in the japanese. these samurai of mine were a sort of voluntary nobility who supplied the administrative and organizing forces that held my utopian world together. they were the “new republicans” of my “anticipations” and “mankind in the making,” much developed and supposed triumphant and ruling the world. i sought of course to set out these ideas as attractively as possible in my books, and they have as a matter of fact proved very attractive to a certain number of people. quite a number have wanted to go on with them. several little organizations of utopians and samurai and the like have sprung up and informed me of themselves, and some survive; and young men do still at times drop into my world “personally or by letter” declaring themselves new republicans. all this has been very helpful and at times a little embarrassing to me. it has given me an opportunity of seeing the ideals i flung into the distance beyond sirius and among the mountain snows coming home partially incarnate in girls and young men. it has made me look into individualized human aspirations, human impatience, human vanity and a certain human need of fellowship, at close quarters. it has illuminated subtle and fine traits; it has displayed nobilities, and it has brought out aspects of human absurdity to which only the pencil of mr. george morrow could do adequate justice. the thing i have had to explain most generally is that my new republicans and samurai are but figures of suggestion, figures to think over and use in planning disciplines, but by no means copies to follow. i have had to go over again, as though it had never been raised before in any previous writings, the difference between the spirit and the letter. these responses have on the whole confirmed my main idea that there is a real need, a need that many people, and especially adolescent people, feel very strongly, for some sort of constructive brotherhood of a closer type than mere political association, to co-ordinate and partly guide their loose chaotic efforts to get hold of life--but they have also convinced me that no wide and comprehensive organization can supply that want. my new republicans were presented as in many respects harsh and overbearing people, “a sort of outspoken secret society” for the organization of the world. they were not so much an ideal order as the samurai of the later book, being rather deduced as a possible outcome of certain forces and tendencies in contemporary life (a.d. ) than, as literary people say, “created.” they were to be drawn from among engineers, doctors, scientific business organizers and the like, and i found that it is to energetic young men of the more responsible classes that this particular ideal appeals. their organization was quite informal, a common purpose held them together. most of the people who have written to me to call themselves new republicans are i find also imperialists and tariff reformers, and i suppose that among the prominent political figures of to-day the nearest approach to my new republicans is lord milner and the socialist-unionists of his group. it is a type harshly constructive, inclined to an unscrupulous pose and slipping readily into a kiplingesque brutality. the samurai on the other hand were more picturesque figures, with a much more elaborated organization. i may perhaps recapitulate the points about that order here. in the “modern utopia” the visitor from earth remarks:-- “these samurai form the real body of the state. all this time that i have spent going to and fro in this planet, it has been growing upon me that this order of men and women, wearing such a uniform as you wear, and with faces strengthened by discipline and touched with devotion, is the utopian reality; that but for them the whole fabric of these fair appearances would crumble and tarnish, shrink and shrivel, until at last, back i should be amidst the grime and disorders of the life of earth. tell me about these samurai, who remind me of plato’s guardians, who look like knight templars, who bear a name that recalls the swordsmen of japan. what are they? are they an hereditary cast, a specially educated order, an elected class? for, certainly, this world turns upon them as a door upon its hinges.” his informant explains:-- “practically the whole of the responsible rule of the world is in their hands; all our head teachers and disciplinary heads of colleges, our judges, barristers, employers of labour beyond a certain limit, practising medical men, legislators, must be samurai, and all the executive committees and so forth, that play so large a part in our affairs, are drawn by lot exclusively from them. the order is not hereditary--we know just enough of biology and the uncertainties of inheritance to know how silly that would be--and it does not require an early consecration or novitiate or ceremonies and initiations of that sort. the samurai are, in fact, volunteers. any intelligent adult in a reasonably healthy and efficient state may, at any age after five and twenty, become one of the samurai and take a hand in the universal control.” “provided he follows the rule.” “precisely--provided he follows the rule.” “i have heard the phrase, ‘voluntary nobility.’” “that was the idea of our founders. they made a noble and privileged order--open to the whole world. no one could complain of an unjust exclusion, for the only thing that could exclude them from the order was unwillingness or inability to follow the rule. “the rule aims to exclude the dull and base altogether, to discipline the impulses and emotions, to develop a moral habit and sustain a man in periods of stress, fatigue and temptation, to produce the maximum co-operation of all men of good-intent, and in fact to keep all the samurai in a state of moral and bodily health and efficiency. it does as much of this as well as it can, but of course, like all general propositions, it does not do it in any case with absolute precision. at first in the militant days, it was a trifle hard and uncompromising; it had rather too strong an appeal to the moral prig and the harshly righteous man, but it has undergone, and still undergoes, revision and expansion, and every year it becomes a little better adapted to the need of a general rule of life that all men may try to follow. we have now a whole literature with many very fine things in it, written about the rule. “the rule consists of three parts; there is the list of things that qualify, the list of things that must not be done, and the list of things that must be done. qualification exacts a little exertion as evidence of good faith and it is designed to weed out the duller dull and many of the base.” he goes on to tell of certain intellectual qualifications and disciplines. “next to the intellectual qualification comes the physical, the man must be in sound health, free from certain foul, avoidable and demoralizing diseases, and in good training. we reject men who are fat, or thin, or flabby, or whose nerves are shaky--we refer them back to training. and finally the man or woman must be fully adult.” “twenty-one? but you said twenty-five!” “the age has varied. at first it was twenty-five or over; then the minimum became twenty-five for men and twenty-one for women. now there is a feeling that it ought to be raised. we don’t want to take advantage of mere boy and girl emotions--men of my way of thinking, at any rate, don’t--we want to get our samurai with experiences, with settled mature conviction. our hygiene and regimen are rapidly pushing back old age and death, and keeping men hale and hearty to eighty and more. there’s no need to hurry the young. let them have a chance of wine, love and song; let them feel the bite of full-blooded desire, and know what devils they have to reckon with... “we forbid a good deal. many small pleasures do no great harm, but we think it well to forbid them none the less, so that we can weed out the self-indulgent. we think that a constant resistance to little seductions is good for a man’s quality. at any rate, it shows that a man is prepared to pay something for his honour and privileges. we prescribe a regimen of food, forbid tobacco, wine, or any alcoholic drink, all narcotic drugs... “originally the samurai were forbidden usury, that is to say, the lending of money at fixed rates of interest. they are still under that interdiction, but since our commercial code practically prevents usury altogether, and our law will not recognize contracts for interest upon private accommodation loans to unprosperous borrowers,” (he is speaking of utopia), “it is now scarcely necessary. the idea of a man growing richer by mere inaction and at the expense of an impoverished debtor is profoundly distasteful to utopian ideas, and our state insists pretty effectually now upon the participation of the lender in the borrower’s risks. this, however, is only one part of a series of limitations of the same character. it is felt that to buy simply in order to sell again brings out many unsocial human qualities; it makes a man seek to enhance profits and falsify values, and so the samurai are forbidden to buy or sell on their own account or for any employer save the state, unless by some process of manufacture they change the nature of the commodity (a mere change in bulk or packing does not suffice), and they are forbidden salesmanship and all its arts. nor may the samurai do personal services, except in the matter of medicine or surgery; they may not be barbers, for example, nor inn waiters nor boot cleaners, men do such services for themselves. nor may a man under the rule be any man’s servant, pledged to do whatever he is told. he may neither be a servant nor keep one; he must shave and dress and serve himself, carry his own food from the helper’s place, redd his sleeping room and leave it clean...” finally came the things they had to do. their rule contained:-- “many precise directions regarding his health, and rules that would aim at once at health and that constant exercise or will that makes life good. save in specified exceptional circumstances, the samurai must bathe in cold water and the men shave every day; they have the precisest directions in such matters; the body must be in health, the skin and nerves and muscles in perfect tone, or the samurai must go to the doctors of the order and give implicit obedience to the regimen prescribed. they must sleep alone at least four nights in five; and they must eat with and talk to anyone in their fellowship who cares for their conversation for an hour at least, at the nearest club-house of the samurai, once on three chosen days in every week. moreover they must read aloud from the book of the samurai for at least five minutes every day. every month they must buy and read faithfully through at least one book that has been published during the past five years, and the only intervention with private choice in that matter is the prescription of a certain minimum of length for the monthly book or books. but the full rule in these minor compulsory matters is voluminous and detailed, and it abounds with alternatives. its aim is rather to keep before the samurai by a number of simple duties, as it were, the need of and some of the chief methods towards health of body and mind rather than to provide a comprehensive rule, and to ensure the maintenance of a community of feeling and interests among the samurai through habit, intercourse and a living contemporary literature. these minor obligations do not earmark more than an hour in the day. yet they serve to break down isolations of sympathy, all sorts of physical and intellectual sluggishness and the development of unsocial preoccupations of many sorts... “so far as the samurai have a purpose in common in maintaining the state and the order and discipline of the world, so far, by their discipline and denial, by their public work and effort, they worship god together. but the ultimate fount of motives lies in the individual life, it lies in silent and deliberate reflections, and at this the most striking of all the rules of the samurai aims. for seven consecutive days of the year, at least, each man or woman under the rule must go right out of all the life of men into some wild and solitary place, must speak to no man or woman and have no sort of intercourse with mankind. they must go bookless and weaponless, without pen or paper or money. provision must be taken for the period of the journey, a rug or sleeping sack--for they must sleep under the open sky--but no means of making a fire. they may study maps before to guide them, showing any difficulties and dangers in the journey, but they may not carry such helps. they must not go by beaten ways or wherever there are inhabited houses, but into the bare, quiet places of the globe--the regions set apart for them. “this discipline was invented to secure a certain stoutness of heart and body in the samurai. otherwise the order might have lain open to too many timorous, merely abstemious men and women. many things had been suggested, sword-play and tests that verged on torture, climbing in giddy places and the like, before this was chosen. partly, it is to ensure good training and sturdiness of body and mind, but partly also, it is to draw the minds of the samurai for a space from the insistent details of life, from the intricate arguments and the fretting effort to work, from personal quarrels and personal affections and the things of the heated room. out they must go, clean out of the world...” these passages will at least serve to present the samurai idea and the idea of common rule of conduct it embodied. in the “modern utopia” i discuss also a lesser rule and the modification of the rule for women and the relation to the order of what i call the poietic types, those types whose business in life seems to be rather to experience and express than to act and effectually do. for those things i must refer the reader to the book itself. together with a sentence i have put in italics above, they serve to show that even when i was devising these samurai i was not unmindful of the defects that are essential to such a scheme. this dream of the samurai proved attractive to a much more various group of readers than the new republican suggestion, and there have been actual attempts to realise the way of life proposed. in most of these cases there was manifest a disposition greatly to over-accentuate organization, to make too much of the disciplinary side of the rule and to forget the entire subordination of such things to active thought and constructive effort. they are valuable and indeed only justifiable as a means to an end. these attempts of a number of people of very miscellaneous origins and social traditions to come together and work like one machine made the essential wastefulness of any terrestrial realization of my samurai very clear. the only reason for such an order is the economy and development of force, and under existing conditions disciplines would consume more force than they would engender. the order, so far from being a power, would be an isolation. manifestly the elements of organization and uniformity were overdone in my utopia; in this matter i was nearer the truth in the case of my new republicans. these, in contrast with the samurai, had no formal general organization, they worked for a common end, because their minds and the suggestion of their circumstances pointed them to a common end. nothing was enforced upon them in the way of observance or discipline. they were not shepherded and trained together, they came together. it was assumed that if they wanted strongly they would see to it that they lived in the manner most conducive to their end just as in all this book i am taking it for granted that to believe truly is to want to do right. it was not even required of them that they should sedulously propagate their constructive idea. apart from the illumination of my ideas by these experiments and proposals, my samurai idea has also had a quite unmerited amount of subtle and able criticism from people who found it at once interesting and antipathetic. my friends vernon lee and g.k. chesterton, for example, have criticized it, and i think very justly, on the ground that the invincible tortuousness of human pride and class-feeling would inevitably vitiate its working. all its disciplines would tend to give its members a sense of distinctness, would tend to syndicate power and rob it of any intimacy and sympathy with those outside the order... it seems to me now that anyone who shares the faith i have been developing in this book will see the value of these comments and recognize with me that this dream is a dream; the samurai are just one more picture of the perfect knight, an ideal of clean, resolute and balanced living. they may be valuable as an ideal of attitude but not as an ideal of organization. they are never to be put, as people say, upon a business footing and made available as a refuge from the individual problem. to modernize the parable, the believer must not only not bury his talent but he must not bank it with an organization. each believer must decide for himself how far he wants to be kinetic or efficient, how far he needs a stringent rule of conduct, how far he is poietic and may loiter and adventure among the coarse and dangerous things of life. there is no reason why one should not, and there is every reason why one should, discuss one’s personal needs and habits and disciplines and elaborate one’s way of life with those about one, and form perhaps with those of like training and congenial temperament small groups for mutual support. that sort of association i have already discussed in the previous section. with adolescent people in particular such association is in many cases an almost instinctive necessity. there is no reason moreover why everyone who is lonely should not seek out congenial minds and contrive a grouping with them. all mutual lovers for example are orders of a limited membership, many married couples and endless cliques and sets are that. such small and natural associations are indeed force-giving orders because they are brought together by a common innate disposition out of a possibility of mutual assistance and inspiration; they observe a rule that springs up and not a rule imposed. the more of such groups and orders we have the better. i do not see why having formed themselves they should not define and organize themselves. i believe there is a phase somewhere between fifteen and thirty, in the life of nearly everybody, when such a group is sought, is needed and would be helpful in self-development and self-discovery. in leagues and societies for specific ends, too, we must all participate. but the order of the samurai as a great progressive force controlling a multitude of lives right down to their intimate details and through all the phases of personal development is a thing unrealizable. to seek to realize it is impatience. true brotherhood is universal brotherhood. the way to that is long and toilsome, but it is a way that permits of no such energetic short cuts as this militant order of my dream would achieve. . . concerning new starts and new religions. when one is discussing this possible formation of cults and brotherhoods, it may be well to consider a few of the conditions that rule such human re-groupings. we live in the world as it is and not in the world as we want it to be, that is the practical rule by which we steer, and in directing our lives we must constantly consider the forces and practicabilities of the social medium in which we move. in contemporary life the existing ties are so various and so imperative that the detachment necessary as a preliminary condition to such new groupings is rarely found. this is not a period in which large numbers of people break away easily and completely from old connexions. things change less catastrophically than once they did. more particularly is there less driving out into the wilderness. there is less heresy hunting; persecution is frequently reluctant and can be evaded by slight concessions. the world as a whole is less harsh and emphatic than it was. customs and customary attitudes change nowadays not so much by open, defiant and revolutionary breaches as by the attrition of partial negligences and new glosses. innovating people do conform to current usage, albeit they conform unwillingly and imperfectly. there is a constant breaking down and building up of usage, and as a consequence a lessened need of wholesale substitutions. human methods have become viviparous; the new nowadays lives for a time in the form of the old. the friend i quote in chapter . writes of a possible sect with a “religious edifice” and ritual of its own, a new religious edifice and a new ritual. in practice i doubt whether “real” people, people who matter, people who are getting things done and who have already developed complex associations, can afford the extensive re-adjustment implied in such a new grouping. it would mean too much loss of time, too much loss of energy and attention, too much sacrifice of existing co-operations. new cults, new religions, new organizations of all sorts, insisting upon their novelty and difference, are most prolific and most successful wherever there is an abundant supply of dissociated people, where movement is in excess of deliberation, and creeds and formulae unyielding and unadaptable because they are unthinking. in england, for example, in the last century, where social conditions have been comparatively stable, discussion good and abundant and internal migration small, there have been far fewer such developments than in the united states of america. in england toleration has become an institution, and where tory and socialist, bishop and infidel, can all meet at the same dinner-table and spend an agreeable week-end together, there is no need for defensive segregations. in such an atmosphere opinion and usage change and change continually, not dramatically as the results of separations and pitched battles but continuously and fluently as the outcome of innumerable personal reactions. america, on the other hand, because of its material preoccupations, because of the dispersal of its thinking classes over great areas, because of the cruder understanding of its more heterogeneous population (which constantly renders hard and explicit statement necessary), means its creeds much more literally and is at once more experimental and less compromising and tolerant. it is there if anywhere that new brotherhoods and new creeds will continue to appear. but even in america i think the trend of things is away from separations and segregations and new starts, and towards more comprehensive and graduated methods of development. new religions, i think, appear and are possible and necessary in phases of social disorganization, in phases when considerable numbers of people are detached from old systems of direction and unsettled and distressed. so, at any rate, it was christianity appeared, in a strained and disturbed community, in the clash of roman and oriental thought, and for a long time it was confined to the drifting population of seaports and great cities and to wealthy virgins and widows, reaching the most settled and most adjusted class, the pagani, last of all and in its most adaptable forms. it was the greatest new beginning in the world’s history, and the wealth of political and literary and social and artistic traditions it abandoned had subsequently to be revived and assimilated to it fragment by fragment from the past it had submerged. now, i do not see that the world to-day presents any fair parallelism to that sere age of stresses in whose recasting christianity played the part of a flux. ours is on the whole an organizing and synthetic rather than a disintegrating phase throughout the world. old institutions are neither hard nor obstinate to-day, and the immense and various constructive forces at work are saturated now with the conception of evolution, of secular progressive development, as opposed to the revolutionary idea. only a very vast and terrible war explosion can, i think, change this state of affairs. this conveys in general terms, at least, my interpretation of the present time, and it is in accordance with this view that the world is moving forward as a whole and with much dispersed and discrepant rightness, that i do not want to go apart from the world as a whole into any smaller community, with all the implication of an exclusive possession of right which such a going apart involves. put to the test by my own samurai for example by a particularly urgent and enthusiastic discipline, i found i did not in the least want to be one of that organization, that it only expressed one side of a much more complex self than its disciplines permitted. and still less do i want to hamper the play of my thoughts and motives by going apart into the particularism of a new religion. such refuges are well enough when the times threaten to overwhelm one. the point about the present age, so far as i am able to judge the world, is that it does not threaten to overwhelm; that at the worst, by my standards, it maintains its way of thinking instead of assimilating mine. . . the idea of the church. now all this leads very directly to a discussion of the relations of a person of my way of thinking to the church and religious institutions generally. i have already discussed my relation to commonly accepted beliefs, but the question of institutions is, it seems to me, a different one altogether. not to realize that, to confuse a church with its creed, is to prepare the ground for a mass of disastrous and life-wasting errors. now my rules of conduct are based on the supposition that moral decisions are to be determined by the belief that the individual life guided by its perception of beauty is incidental, experimental, and contributory to the undying life of the blood and race. i have decided for myself that the general business of life is the development of a collective consciousness and will and purpose out of a chaos of individual consciousnesses and wills and purposes, and that the way to that is through the development of the socialist state, through the socialization of existing state organizations and their merger of pacific association in a world state. but so far i have not taken up the collateral aspect of the synthesis of human consciousness, the development of collective feeling and willing and expression in the form, among others, of religious institutions. religious institutions are things to be legitimately distinguished from the creeds and cosmogonies with which one finds them associated. customs are far more enduring things than ideas,--witness the mistletoe at christmas, or the old lady turning her money in her pocket at the sight of the new moon. and the exact origin of a religious institution is of much less significance to us than its present effect. the theory of a religion may propose the attainment of nirvana or the propitiation of an irascible deity or a dozen other things as its end and aim; the practical fact is that it draws together great multitudes of diverse individualized people in a common solemnity and self-subordination however vague, and is so far, like the state, and in a manner far more intimate and emotional and fundamental than the state, a synthetic power. and in particular, the idea of the catholic church is charged with synthetic suggestion; it is in many ways an idea broader and finer than the constructive idea of any existing state. and just as the beliefs i have adopted lead me to regard myself as in and of the existing state, such as it is, and working for its rectification and development, so i think there is a reasonable case for considering oneself in and of the catholic church and bound to work for its rectification and development; and this in spite of the fact that one may not feel justified in calling oneself a christian in any sense of the term. it may be maintained very plausibly that the catholic church is something greater than christianity, however much the christians may have contributed to its making. from the historical point of view it is a religious and social method that developed with the later development of the world empire of rome and as the expression of its moral and spiritual side. its head was, and so far as its main body is concerned still is, the pontifex maximus of the roman world empire, an official who was performing sacrifices centuries before christ was born. it is easy to assert that the empire was converted to christianity and submitted to its terrestrial leader, the bishop of rome; it is quite equally plausible to say that the religious organization of the empire adopted christianity and so made rome, which had hitherto had no priority over jerusalem or antioch in the christian church, the headquarters of the adopted cult. and if the christian movement could take over and assimilate the prestige, the world predominance and sacrificial conception of the pontifex maximus and go on with that as part at any rate of the basis of a universal church, it is manifest that now in the fulness of time this great organization, after its accumulation of christian tradition, may conceivably go on still further to alter and broaden its teaching and observances and formulae. in a sense no doubt all we moderns are bound to consider ourselves children of the catholic church, albeit critical and innovating children with a tendency to hark back to our greek grandparents; we cannot detach ourselves absolutely from the church without at the same time detaching ourselves from the main process of spiritual synthesis that has made us what we are. and there is a strong case for supposing that not only is this reasonable for us who live in the tradition of western europe, but that we are legitimately entitled to call upon extra european peoples to join with us in that attitude of filiation to the catholic church since, outside it, there is no organization whatever aiming at a religious catholicity and professing or attempting to formulate a collective religious consciousness in the world. so far as they come to a conception of a human synthesis they come to it by coming into our tradition. i write here of the catholic church as an idea. to come from that idea to the world of present realities is to come to a tangle of difficulties. is the catholic church merely the roman communion or does it include the greek and protestant churches? some of these bodies are declaredly dissentient, some claim to be integral portions of the catholic church which have protested against and abandoned certain errors of the central organization. i admit it becomes a very confusing riddle in such a country as england to determine which is the catholic church; whether it is the body which possesses and administers canterbury cathedral and westminster abbey, or the bodies claiming to represent purer and finer or more authentic and authoritative forms of catholic teaching which have erected that new byzantine-looking cathedral in westminster, or whitfield’s tabernacle in the tottenham court road, or a hundred or so other organized and independent bodies. it is still more perplexing to settle upon the catholic church in america among an immense confusion of sectarian fragments. many people, i know, take refuge from the struggle with this tangle of controversies by refusing to recognize any institutions whatever as representing the church. they assume a mystical church made up of all true believers, of all men and women of good intent, whatever their formulae or connexion. wherever there is worship, there, they say, is a fragment of the church. all and none of these bodies are the true church. this is no doubt profoundly true. it gives something like a working assumption for the needs of the present time. people can get along upon that. but it does not exhaust the question. we seek a real and understanding synthesis. we want a real collectivism, not a poetical idea; a means whereby men and women of all sorts, all kinds of humanity, may pray together, sing together, stand side by side, feel the same wave of emotion, develop a collective being. doubtless right-spirited men are praying now at a thousand discrepant altars. but for the most part those who pray imagine those others who do not pray beside them are in error, they do not know their common brotherhood and salvation. their brotherhood is masked by unanalyzable differences; theirs is a dispersed collectivism; their churches are only a little more extensive than their individualities and intenser in their collective separations. the true church towards which my own thoughts tend will be the conscious illuminated expression of catholic brotherhood. it must, i think, develop out of the existing medley of church fragments and out of all that is worthy in our poetry and literature, just as the worldwide socialist state at which i aim must develop out of such state and casual economic organizations and constructive movements as exist to-day. there is no “beginning again” in these things. in neither case will going apart out of existing organizations secure our ends. out of what is, we have to develop what has to be. to work for the reformation of the catholic church is an integral part of the duty of a believer. it is curious how misleading a word can be. we speak of a certain phase in the history of christianity as the reformation, and that word effectually conceals from most people the simple indisputable fact that there has been no reformation. there was an attempt at a reformation in the catholic church, and through a variety of causes it failed. it detached great masses from the catholic church and left that organization impoverished intellectually and spiritually, but it achieved no reconstruction at all. it achieved no reconstruction because the movement as a whole lacked an adequate grasp of one fundamentally necessary idea, the idea of catholicity. it fell into particularism and failed. it set up a vast process of fragmentation among christian associations. it drove huge fissures through the once common platform. in innumerable cases they were fissures of organization and prejudice rather than real differences in belief and mental habit. sometimes it was manifestly conflicting material interests that made the split. people are now divided by forgotten points of difference, by sides taken by their predecessors in the disputes of the sixteenth century, by mere sectarian names and the walls of separate meeting places. in the present time, as a result of the dissenting method, there are multitudes of believing men scattered quite solitarily through the world. the reformation, the reconstruction of the catholic church lies still before us. it is a necessary work. it is a work strictly parallel to the reformation and expansion of the organized state. together, these processes constitute the general duty before mankind. . . of secession. the whole trend of my thought in matters of conduct is against whatever accentuates one’s individual separation from the collective consciousness. it follows naturally from my fundamental creed that avoidable silences and secrecy are sins, just as abstinences are in themselves sins rather than virtues. and so i think that to leave any organization or human association except for a wider and larger association, to detach oneself in order to go alone, or to go apart narrowly with just a few, is fragmentation and sin. even if one disagrees with the professions or formulae or usages of an association, one should be sure that the disagreement is sufficiently profound to justify one’s secession, and in any case of doubt, one should remain. i count schism a graver sin than heresy. no profession of faith, no formula, no usage can be perfect. it is only required that it should be possible. more particularly does this apply to churches and religious organizations. there never was a creed nor a religious declaration but admitted of a wide variety of interpretations and implied both more and less than it expressed. the pedantically conscientious man, in his search for an unblemished religious brotherhood, has tended always to a solitude of universal dissent. in the religious as in the economic sphere one must not look for perfect conditions. setting up for oneself in a new sect is like founding utopias in paraguay, an evasion of the essential question; our real business is to take what we have, live in and by it, use it and do our best to better such faults as are manifest to us, in the direction of a wider and nobler organization. if you do not agree with the church in which you find yourself, your best course is to become a reformer in that church, to declare it a detached forgetful part of the greater church that ought to be, just as your state is a detached unawakened part of the world state. you take it at what it is and try and broaden it towards reunion. it is only when secession is absolutely unavoidable that it is right to secede. this is particularly true of state churches such as is the church of england. these are bodies constituted by the national law and amenable to the collective will. i do not think a man should consider himself excluded from them because they have articles of religion to which he cannot subscribe and creeds he will not say. a national state church has no right to be thus limited and exclusive. rather then let any man, just to the very limit that is possible for his intellectual or moral temperament, remain in his church to redress the balance and do his utmost to change and broaden it. but perhaps the church will not endure a broad-minded man in its body, speaking and reforming, and will expel him? be expelled--well and good! that is altogether different. let them expel you, struggling valiantly and resolved to return so soon as they release you, to hammer at the door. but withdrawing--sulking--going off in a serene huff to live by yourself spiritually and materially in your own way--that is voluntary damnation, the denial of the brotherhood of man. be a rebel or a revolutionary to your heart’s content, but a mere seceder never. for otherwise it is manifest that we shall have to pay for each step of moral and intellectual progress with a fresh start, with a conflict between the new organization and the old from which it sprang, a perpetually-recurring parricide. there will be a series of religious institutions in developing order, each containing the remnant too dull or too hypocritical to secede at the time of stress that began the new body. something of the sort has indeed happened to both the catholic and the english protestant churches. we have the intellectual and moral guidance of the people falling more and more into the hands of an informal church of morally impassioned leaders, writers, speakers, and the like, while the beautiful cathedrals in which their predecessors sheltered fall more and more into the hands of an uninspiring, retrogressive but conforming clergy. now this was all very well for the individualist liberal of the early victorian period, but individualist liberalism was a mere destructive phase in the process of renewing the old catholic order, a clearing up of the site. we socialists want a church through which we can feel and think collectively, as much as we want a state that we can serve and be served by. whether as members or external critics we have to do our best to get rid of obsolete doctrinal and ceremonial barriers, so that the churches may merge again in a universal church, and that church comprehend again the whole growing and amplifying spiritual life of the race. i do not know if i make my meaning perfectly clear here. by conformity i do not mean silent conformity. it is a man’s primary duty to convey his individual difference to the minds of his fellow men. it is because i want that difference to tell to the utmost that i suggest he should not leave the assembly. but in particular instances he may find it more striking and significant to stand out and speak as a man detached from the general persuasion, just as obstructed and embarrassed ministers of state can best serve their country at times by resigning office and appealing to the public judgment by this striking and significant act. . . a dilemma. we are led by this discussion of secession straight between the horns of a moral dilemma. we have come to two conclusions; to secede is a grave sin, but to lie is also a grave sin. but often the practical alternative is between futile secession or implicit or actual falsehood. it has been the instinct of the aggressive controversialist in all ages to seize upon collective organizations and fence them about with oaths and declarations of such a nature as to bar out anyone not of his own way of thinking. in a democracy, for example, to take an extreme caricature of our case, a triumphant majority in power, before allowing anyone to vote, might impose an oath whereby the leader of the minority and all his aims were specifically renounced. and if no country goes so far as that, nearly all countries and all churches make some such restrictions upon opinion. the united states, that land of abandoned and receding freedoms, imposes upon everyone who crosses the atlantic to its shores a childish ineffectual declaration against anarchy and polygamy. none of these tests exclude the unhesitating liar, but they do bar out many proud and honest minded people. they “fix” and kill things that should be living and fluid; they are offences against the mind of the race. how is a man then to behave towards these test oaths and affirmations, towards repeating creeds, signing assent to articles of religion and the like? do not these unavoidable barriers to public service, or religious work, stand on a special footing? personally i think they do. i think that in most cases personal isolation and disuse is the greater evil. i think if there is no other way to constructive service except through test oaths and declarations, one must take then. this is a particular case that stands apart from all other cases. the man who preaches a sermon and pretends therein to any belief he does not truly hold is an abominable scoundrel, but i do not think he need trouble his soul very greatly about the barrier he stepped over to get into the pulpit, if he felt the call to preach, so long as the preaching be honest. a republican who takes the oath of allegiance to the king and wears his uniform is in a similar case. these things stand apart; they are so formal as to be scarcely more reprehensible than the falsehood of calling a correspondent “dear,” or asking a tiresome lady to whom one is being kind and civil, for the pleasure of dancing with her. we ought to do what we can to abolish these absurd barriers and petty falsehoods, but we ought not to commit a social suicide against them. that is how i think and feel in this matter, but if a man sees the matter more gravely, if his conscience tells him relentlessly and uncompromisingly, “this is a lie,” then it is a lie and he must not be guilty of it. but then i think it ill becomes him to be silently excluded. his work is to clamour against the existence of the barrier that wastes him. i do not see that lying is a fundamental sin. in the first place some lying, that is to say some unavoidable inaccuracy of statement, is necessary to nearly everything we do, and the truest statement becomes false if we forget or alter the angle at which it is made, the direction in which it points. in the next the really fundamental and most generalized sin is self-isolation. lying is a sin only because self-isolation is a sin, because it is an effectual way of cutting oneself off from human co-operation. that is why there is no sin in telling a fairy tale to a child. but telling the truth when it will be misunderstood is no whit better than lying; silences are often blacker than any lies. i class secrets with lies and cannot comprehend the moral standards that exonerate secrecy in human affairs. to all these things one must bring a personal conscience and be prepared to examine particular cases. the excuses i have made, for example, for a very broad churchman to stay in the church might very well be twisted into an excuse for taking an oath in something one did not to the slightest extent believe, in order to enter and betray some organization to which one was violently hostile. i admit that there may be every gradation between these two things. the individual must examine his special case and weigh the element of treachery against the possibility of co-operation. i do not see how there can be a general rule. i have already shown why in my own case i hesitate to profess a belief in god, because, i think, the misleading element in that profession would outweigh the advantage of sympathy and confidence gained. . . a comment. the preceding section has been criticized by a friend who writes:-- “in religious matters apparent assent produces false unanimity. there is no convention about these things; if there were they would not exist. on the contrary, the only way to get perfunctory tests and so forth abrogated, is for a sufficient number of people to refuse to take them. it is in this case as in every other; secession is the beginning of a new integration. the living elements leave the dead or dying form and gradually create in virtue of their own combinations a new form more suited to present things. there is a formative, a creative power in sincerity and also in segregation itself. and the new form, the new species produced by variation and segregation will measure itself and its qualities with the old one. the old one will either go to the wall, accept the new one and be renewed by it, or the new one will itself be pushed out of existence if the old one has more vitality and is better adapted to the circumstances. this process of variation, competition and selection, also of intermarriage between equally vital and equally adapted varieties, is after all the process by which not only races exist but all human thoughts.” so my friend, who i think is altogether too strongly swayed by biological analogies. but i am thinking not of the assertion of opinions primarily but of co-operation with an organization with which, save for the matter of the test, one may agree. secession may not involve the development of a new and better moral organization; it may simply mean the suicide of one’s public aspect. there may be no room or no need of a rival organization. to secede from state employment, for example, is not to create the beginnings of a new state, however many--short of a revolution--may secede with you. it is to become a disconnected private person, and throw up one’s social side. . . war. i do not think a discussion of man’s social relations can be considered at all complete or satisfactory until we have gone into the question of military service. to-day, in an increasing number of countries, military service is an essential part of citizenship and the prospect of war lies like a great shadow across the whole bright complex prospect of human affairs. what should be the attitude of a right-living man towards his state at war and to warlike preparations? in no other connexion are the confusions and uncertainty of the contemporary mind more manifest. it is an odd contradiction that in great britain and western europe generally, just those parties that stand most distinctly for personal devotion to the state in economic matters, the socialist and socialistic parties, are most opposed to the idea of military service, and just those parties that defend individual self-seeking and social disloyalty in the sphere of property are most urgent for conscription. no doubt some of this uncertainty is due to the mixing in of private interests with public professions, but much more is it, i think, the result of mere muddle-headedness and an insufficient grasp of the implications of the propositions under discussion. the ordinary political socialist desires, as i desire, and as i suppose every sane man desires as an ultimate ideal, universal peace, the merger of national partitions in loyalty to the world state. but he does not recognize that the way to reach that goal is not necessarily by minimizing and specializing war and war responsibility at the present time. there he falls short of his own constructive conceptions and lapses into the secessionist methods of the earlier radicals. we have here another case strictly parallel to several we have already considered. war is a collective concern; to turn one’s back upon it, to refuse to consider it as a possibility, is to leave it entirely to those who are least prepared to deal with it in a broad spirit. in many ways war is the most socialistic of all forces. in many ways military organization is the most peaceful of activities. when the contemporary man steps from the street of clamorous insincere advertisement, push, adulteration, under-selling and intermittent employment, into the barrack-yard, he steps on to a higher social plane, into an atmosphere of service and co-operation and of infinitely more honourable emulations. here at least men are not flung out of employment to degenerate because there is no immediate work for them to do. they are fed and drilled and trained for better services. here a man is at least supposed to win promotion by self-forgetfulness and not by self-seeking. and beside the feeble and irregular endowment of research by commercialism, its little short-sighted snatches at profit by innovation and scientific economy, see how remarkable is the steady and rapid development of method and appliances in naval and military affairs! nothing is more striking than to compare the progress of civil conveniences which has been left almost entirely to the trader, to the progress in military apparatus during the last few decades. the house appliances of to-day for example, are little better than they were fifty years ago. a house of to-day is still almost as ill-ventilated, badly heated by wasteful fires, clumsily arranged and furnished as the house of . houses a couple of hundred years old are still satisfactory places of residence, so little have our standards risen. but the rifle or battleship of fifty years ago was beyond all comparison inferior to those we possess; in power, in speed, in convenience alike. no one has a use now for such superannuated things. . . war and competition. what is the meaning of war in life? war is manifestly not a thing in itself, it is something correlated with the whole fabric of human life. that violence and killing which between animals of the same species is private and individual becomes socialized in war. it is a co-operation for killing that carries with it also a co-operation for saving and a great development of mutual help and development within the war-making group. war, it seems to me, is really the elimination of violent competition as between man and man, an excretion of violence from the developing social group. through war and military organization, and through war and military organization only, has it become possible to conceive of peace. this violence was a necessary phase in human and indeed in all animal development. among low types of men and animals it seems an inevitable condition of the vigour of the species and the beauty of life. the more vital and various individual must lead and prevail, leave progeny and make the major contribution to the synthesis of the race; the weaker individual must take a subservient place and leave no offspring. that means in practice that the former must directly or indirectly kill the latter until some mitigated but equally effectual substitute for that killing is invented. that duel disappears from life, the fight of the beasts for food and the fight of the bulls for the cows, only by virtue of its replacement by new forms of competition. with the development of primitive war we have such a replacement. the competition becomes a competition to serve and rule in the group, the stronger take the leadership and the larger share of life, and the weaker co-operate in subordination, they waive and compromise the conflict and use their conjoint strength against a common rival. competition is a necessary condition of progressive life. i do not know if so far i have made that belief sufficiently clear in these confessions. perhaps in my anxiety to convey my idea of a human synthesis i have not sufficiently insisted upon the part played by competition in that synthesis. but the implications of the view that i have set forth are fairly plain. every individual, i have stated, is an experiment for the synthesis of the species, and upon that idea my system of conduct so far as it is a system is built. manifestly the individual’s function is either self-development, service and reproduction, or failure and an end. with moral and intellectual development the desire to serve and participate in a collective purpose arises to control the blind and passionate impulse to survival and reproduction that the struggle for life has given us, but it does not abolish the fact of selection, of competition. i contemplate no end of competition. but for competition that is passionate, egoistic and limitless, cruel, clumsy and wasteful, i desire to see competition that is controlled and fair-minded and devoted, men and women doing their utmost with themselves and making their utmost contribution to the specific accumulation, but in the end content to abide by a verdict. the whole development of civilization, it seems to me, consists in the development of adequate tests of survival and of an intellectual and moral atmosphere about those tests so that they shall be neither cruel nor wasteful. if the test is not to be ‘are you strong enough to kill everyone you do not like?’ that will only be because it will ask still more comprehensively and with regard to a multitude of qualities other than brute killing power, ‘are you adding worthily to the synthesis by existence and survival?’ i am very clear in my mind on this perpetual need of competition. i admit that upon that turns the practicability of all the great series of organizing schemes that are called socialism. the socialist scheme must show a system in which predominance and reproduction are correlated with the quality and amount of an individual’s social contribution, and so far i acknowledge it is only in the most general terms that this can be claimed as done. we socialists have to work out all these questions far more thoroughly than we have done hitherto. we owe that to our movement and the world. it is no adequate answer to our antagonists to say, indeed it is a mere tu quoque to say, that the existing system does not present such a correlation, that it puts a premium on secretiveness and self-seeking and a discount on many most necessary forms of social service. that is a mere temporary argument for a delay in judgment. the whole history of humanity seems to me to present a spectacle of this organizing specialization of competition, this replacement of the indiscriminate and collectively blind struggle for life by an organized and collectively intelligent development of life. we see a secular replacement of brute conflict by the law, a secular replacement of indiscriminate brute lust by marriage and sexual taboos, and now with the development of socialistic ideas and methods, the steady replacement of blind industrial competition by public economic organization. and moreover there is going on a great educational process bringing a greater and greater proportion of the minds of the community into relations of understanding and interchange. just as this process of organization proceeds, the violent and chaotic conflict of individuals and presently of groups of individuals disappears, personal violence, private war, cut-throat competition, local war, each in turn is replaced by a more efficient and more economical method of survival, a method of survival giving constantly and selecting always more accurately a finer type of survivor. i might compare the social synthesis to crystals growing out of a fluid matrix. it is where the growing order of the crystals has as yet not spread that the old resource to destruction and violent personal or associated acts remains. but this metaphor of crystals is a very inadequate one, because crystals have no will in themselves; nor do crystals, having failed to grow in some particular form, presently modify that form more or less and try again. i see the organizing of forces, not simply law and police which are indeed paid mercenaries from the region of violence, but legislation and literature, teaching and tradition, organized religion, getting themselves and the social structure together, year after year and age after age, halting, failing, breaking up in order to try again. and it seems to me that the amount of lawlessness and crime, the amount of waste and futility, the amount of war and war possibility and war danger in the world are just the measure of the present inadequacy of the world’s system of collective organization to the purpose before them. it follows from this very directly that only one thing can end war on the earth and that is a subtle mental development, an idea, the development of the idea of the world commonweal in the collective mind. the only real method of abolishing war is to perceive it, to realize it, to express it, to think it out and think about it, to make all the world understand its significance, and to clear and preserve its significant functions. in human affairs to understand an evil is to abolish it; it is the only way to abolish any evil that arises out of the untutored nature of man. which brings me back here again to my already repeated persuasion, that in expressing things, rendering things to each other, discussing our differences, clearing up the metaphysical conceptions upon which differences are discussed, and in a phrase evolving the collective mind, lies not only the cures of war and poverty but the general form of all a man’s duty and the essential work of mankind. . . modern war. in our contemporary world, in our particular phase, military and naval organization loom up, colossal and unprecedent facts. they have the effect of an overhanging disaster that grows every year more tremendous, every year in more sinister contrast with the increasing securities and tolerations of the everyday life. it is impossible to imagine now what a great war in europe would be like; the change in material and method has been so profound since the last cycle of wars ended with the downfall of the third napoleon. but there can be little or no doubt that it would involve a destruction of property and industrial and social disorganization of the most monstrous dimensions. no man, i think, can mark the limits of the destruction of a great european conflict were it to occur at the present time; and the near advent of practicable flying machines opens a whole new world of frightful possibilities. for my own part i can imagine that a collision between such powers as great britain, germany or america, might very well involve nearly every other power in the world, might shatter the whole fabric of credit upon which our present system of economics rests and put back the orderly progress of social construction for a vast interval of time. one figures great towns red with destruction while giant airships darken the sky, one pictures the crash of mighty ironclads, the bursting of tremendous shells fired from beyond the range of sight into unprotected cities. one thinks of congested ways swarming with desperate fighters, of torrents of fugitives and of battles gone out of the control of their generals into unappeasable slaughter. there is a vision of interrupted communications, of wrecked food trains and sunken food ships, of vast masses of people thrown out of employment and darkly tumultuous in the streets, of famine and famine-driven rioters. what modern population will stand a famine? for the first time in the history of warfare the rear of the victor, the rear of the fighting line becomes insecure, assailable by flying machines and subject to unprecedented and unimaginable panics. no man can tell what savagery of desperation these new conditions may not release in the soul of man. a conspiracy of adverse chances, i say, might contrive so great a cataclysm. there is no effectual guarantee that it could not occur. but in spite of that, i believe that on the whole there is far more good than evil in the enormous military growths that have occurred in the last half century. i cannot estimate how far the alternative to war is lethargy. it is through military urgencies alone that many men can be brought to consent to the collective endowment of research, to public education and to a thousand interferences with their private self-seeking. just as the pestilence of cholera was necessary before men could be brought to consent to public sanitation, so perhaps the dread of foreign violence is an unavoidable spur in an age of chaotic industrial production in order that men may be brought to subserve the growth of a state whose purpose might otherwise be too high for them to understand. men must be forced to care for fleets and armies until they have learnt to value cities and self development and a beautiful social life. the real danger of modern war lies not in the disciplined power of the fighting machine but in the undisciplined forces in the collective mind that may set that machine in motion. it is not that our guns and ships are marvellously good, but that our press and political organizations are haphazard growths entirely inferior to them. if this present phase of civilization should end in a debacle, if presently humanity finds itself beginning again at a lower level of organization, it will not be because we have developed these enormous powers of destruction but because we have failed to develop adequate powers of control for them and collective determination. this panoply of war waits as the test of our progress towards the realization of that collective mind which i hold must ultimately direct the evolution of our specific being. it is here to measure our incoherence and error, and in the measure of those defects to refer us back to our studies. just as we understand does war become needless. but i do not think that war and military organization will so much disappear as change its nature as the years advance. i think that the phase of universal military service we seem to be approaching is one through which the mass of mankind may have to pass, learning something that can be learnt in no other way, that the uniforms and flags, the conceptions of order and discipline, the tradition of service and devotion, of physical fitness, unstinted exertion and universal responsibility, will remain a permanent acquisition, though the last ammunition has been used ages since in the pyrotechnic display that welcomed the coming of the ultimate peace. . . of abstinences and disciplines. from these large issues of conduct, let me come now to more intimate things, to one’s self control, the regulation of one’s personal life. and first about abstinences and disciplines. i have already confessed (chapter . ) that my nature is one that dislikes abstinences and is wearied by and wary of excess. i do not feel that it is right to suppress altogether any part of one’s being. in itself abstinence seems to me a refusal to experience, and that, upon the lines of thought i follow, is to say that abstinence for its own sake is evil. but for an end all abstinences are permissible, and if the kinetic type of believer finds both his individual and his associated efficiency enhanced by a systematic discipline, if he is convinced that he must specialize because of the discursiveness of his motives, because there is something he wants to do or be so good that the rest of them may very well be suppressed for its sake, then he must suppress. but the virtue is in what he gets done and not in what he does not do. reasonable fear is a sound reason for abstinence, as when a man has a passion like a lightly sleeping maniac that the slightest indulgence will arouse. then he must needs adopt heroic abstinence, and even more so must he take to preventive restraint if he sees any motive becoming unruly and urgent and troublesome. fear is a sound reason for abstinence and so is love. many who have sensitive imaginations nowadays very properly abstain from meat because of butchery. and it is often needful, out of love and brotherhood, to abstain from things harmless to oneself because they are inconveniently alluring to others linked to us. the moderate drinker who sits at table sipping his wine in the sight of one he knows to be a potential dipsomaniac is at best an unloving fool. but mere abstinence and the doing of barren toilsome unrewarding things for the sake of the toil, is a perversion of one’s impulses. there is neither honour nor virtue nor good in that. i do not believe in negative virtues. i think the ideas of them arise out of the system of metaphysical errors i have roughly analyzed in my first book, out of the inherent tendency of the mind to make the relative absolute and to convert quantitative into qualitative differences. our minds fall very readily under the spell of such unmitigated words as purity and chastity. only death beyond decay, absolute non-existence, can be pure and chaste. life is impurity, fact is impure. everything has traces of alien matter; our very health is dependent on parasitic bacteria; the purest blood in the world has a tainted ancestor, and not a saint but has evil thoughts. it was blindness to that which set men stoning the woman taken in adultery. they forgot what they were made of. this stupidity, this unreasonable idealism of the common mind, fills life to-day with cruelties and exclusions, with partial suicides and secret shames. but we are born impure, we die impure; it is a fable that spotless white lilies sprang from any saint’s decay, and the chastity of a monk or nun is but introverted impurity. we have to take life valiantly on these conditions and make such honour and beauty and sympathy out of our confusions, gather such constructive experience, as we may. there is a mass of real superstition upon these points, a belief in a magic purity, in magic personalities who can say:-- my strength is as the strength of ten because my heart is pure, and wonderful clairvoyant innocents like the young man in mr. kipling’s “finest story in the world.” there is a lurking disposition to believe, even among those who lead the normal type of life, that the abstinent and chastely celibate are exceptionally healthy, energetic, immune. the wildest claims are made. but indeed it is true for all who can see the facts of life simply and plainly, that man is an omnivorous, versatile, various creature and can draw his strength from a hundred varieties of nourishment. he has physiological idiosyncrasies too that are indifferent to biological classifications and moral generalities. it is not true that his absorbent vessels begin their task as children begin the guessing game, by asking, “is it animal, vegetable or mineral?” he responds to stimulation and recuperates after the exhaustion of his response, and his being is singularly careless whether the stimulation comes as a drug or stimulant, or as anger or music or noble appeals. most people speak of drugs in the spirit of that admirable firm of soap-boilers which assures its customers that the soap they make “contains no chemicals.” drugs are supposed to be a mystic diabolical class of substance, remote from and contrasting in their nature with all other things. so they banish a tonic from the house and stuff their children with manufactured cereals and chocolate creams. the drunken helot of this system of absurdities is the christian scientist who denies healing only to those who have studied pathology, and declares that anything whatever put into a bottle and labelled with directions for its use by a doctor is thereby damnable and damned. but indeed all drugs and all the things of life have their uses and dangers, and there is no wholesale truth to excuse us a particular wisdom and watchfulness in these matters. unless we except smoking as an unclean and needless artificiality, all these matters of eating and drinking and habit are matters of more or less. it seems to me foolish to make anything that is stimulating and pleasurable into a habit, for that is slowly and surely to lose a stimulus and pleasure and create a need that it may become painful to check or control. the moral rule of my standards is irregularity. if i were a father confessor i should begin my catalogue of sins by asking: “are you a man of regular life?” and i would charge my penitent to go away forthwith and commit some practicable saving irregularity; to fast or get drunk or climb a mountain or sup on pork and beans or give up smoking or spend a month with publicans and sinners. right conduct for the common unspecialized man lies delicately adjusted between defect and excess as a watch is adjusted and adjustable between fast and slow. we none of us altogether and always keep the balance or are altogether safe from losing it. we swing, balancing and adjusting, along our path. life is that, and abstinence is for the most part a mere evasion of life. . . on forgetting, and the need of prayer, reading, discussion and worship. one aspect of life i had very much in mind when i planned those samurai disciplines of mine. it was forgetting. we forget. even after we have found salvation, we have to keep hold of salvation; believing, we must continue to believe. we cannot always be at a high level of noble emotion. we have clambered on the ship of faith and found our place and work aboard, and even while we are busied upon it, behold we are back and drowning in the sea of chaotic things. every religious body, every religious teacher, has appreciated this difficulty and the need there is of reminders and renewals. faith needs restatement and revival as the body needs food. and since the believer is to seek much experience and be a judge of less or more in many things, it is particularly necessary that he should keep hold upon a living faith. how may he best do this? i think we may state it as a general duty that he must do whatever he can to keep his faith constantly alive. but beyond that, what a man must do depends almost entirely upon his own intellectual character. many people of a regular type of mind can refresh themselves by some recurrent duty, by repeating a daily prayer, by daily reading or re-reading some devotional book. with others constant repetition leads to a mental and spiritual deadening, until beautiful phrases become unmeaning, eloquent statements inane and ridiculous,--matter for parody. all who can, i think, should pray and should read and re-read what they have found spiritually helpful, and if they know of others of kindred dispositions and can organize these exercises, they should do so. collective worship again is a necessity for many believers. for many, the public religious services of this or that form of christianity supply an atmosphere rich in the essential quality of religion and abounding in phrases about the religious life, mellow from the use of centuries and almost immediately applicable. it seems to me that if one can do so, one should participate in such public worship and habituate oneself to read back into it that collective purpose and conscience it once embodied. very much is to be said for the ceremony of holy communion or the mass, for those whom accident or scruples do not debar. i do not think your modern liberal thinkers quite appreciate the finer aspects of this, the one universal service of the christian church. some of them are set forth very finely by a man who has been something of a martyr for conscience’ sake, and is for me a hero as well as a friend, in a world not rich in heroes, the rev. stewart headlam, in his book, “the meaning of the mass.” with others again, faith can be most animated by writing, by confession, by discussion, by talk with friends or antagonists. one or other or all of these things the believer must do, for the mind is a living and moving process, and the thing that lies inert in it is presently covered up by new interests and lost. if you make a sort of king log of your faith, presently something else will be sitting upon it, pride or self-interest, or some rebel craving, king de facto of your soul, directing it back to anarchy. for many types that, however, is exactly what happens with public worship. they do get a king log in ceremony. and if you deliberately overcome and suppress your perception of and repugnance to the perfunctoriness of religion in nine-tenths of the worshippers about you, you may be destroying at the same time your own intellectual and moral sensitiveness. but i am not suggesting that you should force yourself to take part in public worship against your perceptions, but only that if it helps you to worship you should not hesitate to do so. we deal here with a real need that is not to be fettered by any general prescription. i have one cambridge friend who finds nothing so uplifting in the world as the atmosphere of the afternoon service in the choir of king’s college chapel, and another, a very great and distinguished and theologically sceptical woman, who accustomed herself for some time to hear from a distant corner the evening service in st. paul’s cathedral and who would go great distances to do that. many people find an exaltation and broadening of the mind in mountain scenery and the starry heavens and the wide arc of the sea; and as i have already said, it was part of the disciplines of these samurai of mine that yearly they should go apart for at least a week of solitary wandering and meditation in lonely and desolate places. music again is a frequent means of release from the narrow life as it closes about us. one man i know makes an anthology into which he copies to re-read any passage that stirs and revives in him the sense of broad issues. others again seem able to refresh their nobility of outlook in the atmosphere of an intense personal love. some of us seem to forget almost as if it were an essential part of ourselves. such a man as myself, irritable, easily fatigued and bored, versatile, sensuous, curious, and a little greedy for experience, is perpetually losing touch with his faith, so that indeed i sometimes turn over these pages that i have written and come upon my declarations and confessions with a sense of alien surprise. it may be, i say, that for some of us forgetting is the normal process, that one has to believe and forget and blunder and learn something and regret and suffer and so come again to belief much as we have to eat and grow hungry and eat again. what these others can get in their temples we, after our own manner, must distil through sleepless and lonely nights, from unavoidable humiliations, from the smarting of bruised shins. . . democracy and aristocracy. and now having dealt with the general form of a man’s duty and with his duty to himself, let me come to his attitude to his individual fellow-men. the broad principles determining that attitude are involved in things already written in this book. the belief in a collective being gathering experience and developing will, to which every life is subordinated, renders the cruder conception of aristocracy, the idea of a select life going on amidst a majority of trivial and contemptible persons who “do not exist,” untenable. it abolishes contempt. indeed to believe at all in a comprehensive purpose in things is to abandon that attitude and all the habits and acts that imply it. but a belief in universal significance does not altogether preclude a belief in an aristocratic method of progress, in the idea of the subordination of a number of individuals to others who can utilize their lives and help and contributory achievements in the general purpose. to a certain extent, indeed, this last conception is almost inevitable. we must needs so think of ourselves in relation to plants and animals, and i see no reason why we should not think so of our relations to other men. there are clearly great differences in the capacity and range of experience of man and man and in their power of using and rendering their experiences for the racial synthesis. vigorous persons do look naturally for help and service to persons of less initiative, and we are all more or less capable of admiration and hero-worship and pleased to help and give ourselves to those we feel to be finer or better or completer or more forceful and leaderly than ourselves. this is natural and inevitable aristocracy. for that reason it is not to be organized. we organize things that are not inevitable, but this is clearly a complex matter of accident and personalities for which there can be no general rule. all organized aristocracy is manifestly begotten by that fallacy of classification my metaphysical book set itself to expose. its effect is, and has been in all cases, to mask natural aristocracy, to draw the lines by wholesale and wrong, to bolster up weak and ineffectual persons in false positions and to fetter or hamper strong and vigorous people. the false aristocrat is a figure of pride and claims, a consumer followed by dupes. he is proudly secretive, pretending to aims beyond the common understanding. the true aristocrat is known rather than knows; he makes and serves. he exacts no deference. he is urgent to makes others share what he knows and wants and achieves. he does not think of others as his but as the end’s. there is a base democracy just as there is a base aristocracy, the swaggering, aggressive disposition of the vulgar soul that admits neither of superiors nor leaders. its true name is insubordination. it resents rules and refinements, delicacies, differences and organization. it dreams that its leaders are its delegates. it takes refuge from all superiority, all special knowledge, in a phantom ideal, the people, the sublime and wonderful people. “you can fool some of the people all the time, and all the people some of the time, but you can’t fool all the people all the time,” expresses i think quite the quintessence of this mystical faith, this faith in which men take refuge from the demand for order, discipline and conscious light. in england it has never been of any great account, but in america the vulgar individualist’s self-protective exaltation of an idealized common man has worked and is working infinite mischief. in politics the crude democratic faith leads directly to the submission of every question, however subtle and special its issues may be, to a popular vote. the community is regarded as a consultative committee of profoundly wise, alert and well-informed common men. since the common man is, as gustave le bon has pointed out, a gregarious animal, collectively rather like a sheep, emotional, hasty and shallow, the practical outcome of political democracy in all large communities under modern conditions is to put power into the hands of rich newspaper proprietors, advertising producers and the energetic wealthy generally who are best able to flood the collective mind freely with the suggestions on which it acts. but democracy has acquired a better meaning than its first crude intentions--there never was a theory started yet in the human mind that did not beget a finer offspring than itself--and the secondary meaning brings it at last into entire accordance with the subtler conception of aristocracy. the test of this quintessential democracy is neither a passionate insistence upon voting and the majority rule, nor an arrogant bearing towards those who are one’s betters in this aspect or that, but fellowship. the true democrat and the true aristocrat meet and are one in feeling themselves parts of one synthesis under one purpose and one scheme. both realize that self-concealment is the last evil, both make frankness and veracity the basis of their intercourse. the general rightness of living for you and others and for others and you is to understand them to the best of your ability and to make them all, to the utmost limits of your capacity of expression and their understanding and sympathy, participators in your act and thought. . . on debts of honour. my ethical disposition is all against punctilio and i set no greater value on unblemished honour than i do on purity. i never yet met a man who talked proudly of his honour who did not end by cheating or trying to cheat me, nor a code of honour that did not impress me as a conspiracy against the common welfare and purpose in life. there is honour among thieves, and i think it might well end there as an obligation in conduct. the soldier who risks a life he owes to his army in a duel upon some silly matter of personal pride is no better to me than the clerk who gambles with the money in his master’s till. when i was a boy i once paid a debt of honour, and it is one of the things i am most ashamed of. i had played cards into debt and i still remember burningly how i went flushed and shrill-voiced to my mother and got the money she could so ill afford to give me. i would not pay such a debt of honour now. if i were to wake up one morning owing big sums that i had staked overnight i would set to work at once by every means in my power to evade and repudiate that obligation. such money as i have i owe under our present system to wife and sons and my work and the world, and i see no valid reason why i should hand it over to smith because he and i have played the fool and rascal and gambled. better by far to accept that fact and be for my own part published fool and rascal. i have never been able to understand the sentimental spectacle of sons toiling dreadfully and wasting themselves upon mere money-making to save the secret of a father’s peculations and the “honour of the family,” or men conspiring to weave a wide and mischievous net of lies to save the “honour” of a woman. in the conventional drama the preservation of the honour of a woman seems an adequate excuse for nearly any offence short of murder; the preservation that is to say of the appearance of something that is already gone. here it is that i do definitely part company with the false aristocrat who is by nature and intent a humbug and fabricator of sham attitudes, and ally myself with democracy. fact, valiantly faced, is of more value than any reputation. the false aristocrat is robed to the chin and unwashed beneath, the true goes stark as apollo. the false is ridiculous with undignified insistence upon his dignity; the true says like god, “i am that i am.” . . the idea of justice. one word has so far played a very little part in this book, and that is the word justice. those who have read the opening book on metaphysics will perhaps see that this is a necessary corollary of the system of thought developed therein. in my philosophy, with its insistence upon uniqueness and marginal differences and the provisional nature of numbers and classes, there is little scope for that blind-folded lady with the balances, seeking always exact equivalents. nowhere in my system of thought is there work for the idea of rights and the conception of conscientious litigious-spirited people exactly observing nicely defined relationships. you will note, for example, that i base my socialism on the idea of a collective development and not on the “right” of every man to his own labour, or his “right” to work, or his “right” to subsistence. all these ideas of “rights” and of a social “contract” however implicit are merely conventional ways of looking at things, conventions that have arisen in the mercantile phase of human development. laws and rights, like common terms in speech, are provisional things, conveniences for taking hold of a number of cases that would otherwise be unmanageable. the appeal to justice is a necessarily inadequate attempt to de-individualize a case, to eliminate the self’s biassed attitude. i have declared that it is my wilful belief that everything that exists is significant and necessary. the idea of justice seems to me a defective, quantitative application of the spirit of that belief to men and women. in every case you try and discover and act upon a plausible equity that must necessarily be based on arbitrary assumptions. there is no equity in the universe, in the various spectacle outside our minds, and the most terrible nightmare the human imagination has ever engendered is a just god, measuring, with himself as the standard, against finite men. ultimately there is no adequacy, we are all weighed in the balance and found wanting. so, as the recognition of this has grown, justice has been tempered with mercy, which indeed is no more than an attempt to equalize things by making the factors of the very defect that is condemned, its condonation. the modern mind fluctuates uncertainly somewhere between these extremes, now harsh and now ineffectual. to me there seems no validity in these quasi-absolute standards. a man seeks and obeys standards of equity simply to economize his moral effort, not because there is anything true or sublime about justice, but because he knows he is too egoistic and weak-minded and obsessed to do any perfect thing at all, because he cannot trust himself with his own transitory emotions unless he trains himself beforehand to observe a predetermined rule. there is scarcely an eventuality in life that without the help of these generalizations would not exceed the average man’s intellectual power and moral energy, just as there is scarcely an idea or an emotion that can be conveyed without the use of faulty and defective common names. justice and mercy are indeed not ultimately different in their nature from such other conventions as the rules of a game, the rules of etiquette, forms of address, cab tariffs and standards of all sorts. they are mere organizations of relationship either to economize thought or else to facilitate mutual understanding and codify common action. modesty and self-submission, love and service are, in the right system of my beliefs, far more fundamental rightnesses and duties. we are not mercantile and litigious units such as making justice our social basis would imply, we are not select responsible persons mixed with and tending weak irresponsible wrong persons such as the notion of mercy suggests, we are parts of one being and body, each unique yet sharing a common nature and a variety of imperfections and working together (albeit more or less darkly and ignorantly) for a common end. we are strong and weak together and in one brotherhood. the weak have no essential rights against the strong, nor the strong against the weak. the world does not exist for our weaknesses but our strength. and the real justification of democracy lies in the fact that none of us are altogether strong nor altogether weak; for everyone there is an aspect wherein he is seen to be weak; for everyone there is a strength though it may be only a little peculiar strength or an undeveloped potentiality. the unconverted man uses his strength egotistically, emphasizes himself harshly against the man who is weak where he is strong, and hates and conceals his own weakness. the believer, in the measure of his belief, respects and seeks to understand the different strength of others and to use his own distinctive power with and not against his fellow men, in the common service of that synthesis to which each one of them is ultimately as necessary as he. . . of love and justice. now here the friend who has read the first draft of this book falls into something like a dispute with me. she does not, i think, like this dismissal of justice from a primary place in my scheme of conduct. “justice,” she asserts, “is an instinctive craving very nearly akin to the physical craving for equilibrium. its social importance corresponds. it seeks to keep the individual’s claims in such a position as to conflict as little as possible with those of others. justice is the root instinct of all social feeling, of all feeling which does not take account of whether we like or dislike individuals, it is the feeling of an orderly position of our ego towards others, merely considered as others, and of all the egos merely as egos towards each other. love cannot be felt towards others as others. love is the expression of individual suitability and preference, its positive existence in some cases implies its absolute negation in others. hence love can never be the essential and root of social feeling, and hence the necessity for the instinct of abstract justice which takes no account of preferences or aversions. and here i may say that all application of the word love to unknown, distant creatures, to mere others, is a perversion and a wasting of the word love, which, taking its origin in sexual and parental preference, always implies a preference of one object to the other. to love everybody is simply not to love at all. and it is just because of the passionate preference instinctively felt for some individuals, that mankind requires the self-regarding and self-respecting passion of justice.” now this is not altogether contradictory of what i hold. i disagree that because love necessarily expresses itself in preference, selecting this rather than that, that it follows necessarily that its absolute negation is implied in the non-selected cases. a man may go into the world as a child goes into a garden and gathers its hands full of the flowers that please it best and then desists, but only because its hands are full and not because it is at an end of the flowers that it can find delight in. so the man finds at last his memory and apprehensions glutted. it is not that he could not love those others. and i dispute that to love everybody is not to love at all. to love two people is surely to love more than to love just one person, and so by way of three and four to a very large number. but if it is put that love must be a preference because of the mental limitations that forbid us to apprehend and understand more than a few of the multitudinous lovables of life, then i agree. for all the individuals and things and cases for which we have inadequate time and energy, we need a wholesale method--justice. that is exactly what i have said in the previous section. . . the weakness of immaturity. one is apt to write and talk of strong and weak as though some were always strong, some always weak. but that is quite a misleading version of life. apart from the fact that everyone is fluctuatingly strong and fluctuatingly weak, and weak and strong according to the quality we judge them by, we have to remember that we are all developing and learning and changing, gaining strength and at last losing it, from the cradle to the grave. we are all, to borrow the old scholastic term, pupil-teachers of life; the term is none the less appropriate because the pupil-teacher taught badly and learnt under difficulties. it may seem to be a crowning feat of platitude to write that “we have to remember” this, but it is overlooked in a whole mass of legal, social and economic literature. those extraordinary imaginary cases as between a man a and a man b who start level, on a desert island or elsewhere, and work or do not work, or save or do not save, become the basis of immense schemes of just arrangement which soar up confidently and serenely regardless of the fact that never did anything like that equal start occur; that from the beginning there were family groups and old heads and young heads, help, guidance and sacrifice, and those who had learnt and those who had still to learn, jumbled together in confused transactions. deals, tradings and so forth are entirely secondary aspects of these primaries, and the attempt to get an idea of abstract relationship by beginning upon a secondary issue is the fatal pervading fallacy in all these regions of thought. at the present moment the average age of the world is i suppose about or , the normal death somewhen about or , that is to say nearly half the world is “under age,” green, inexperienced, demanding help, easily misled and put in the wrong and betrayed. yet the younger moiety, if we do indeed assume life’s object is a collective synthesis, is more important than the older, and every older person bound to be something of a guardian to the younger. it follows directly from the fundamental beliefs i have assumed that we are missing the most important aspects of life if we are not directly or indirectly serving the young, helping them individually or collectively. just in the measure that one’s living falls away from that, do we fall away from life into a mere futility of existence, and approach the state, the extraordinary and wonderful middle state of (for example) those extinct and entirely damned old gentlemen one sees and hears eating and sleeping in every comfortable london club. that constructive synthetic purpose which i have made the ruling idea in my scheme of conduct may be indeed completely restated in another form, a form i adopted for a book i wrote some years ago called “mankind in the making.” in this i pointed out that “life is a tissue of births”; “and if the whole of life is an evolving succession of births, then not only must a man in his individual capacity (physically as parent, doctor, food dealer, food carrier, home builder, protector; or mentally as teacher, news dealer, author, preacher) contribute to births and growths and the fine future of mankind, but the collective aspects of man, his social and political organizations must also be, in the essence, organizations that more or less profitably and more or less intentionally set themselves towards this end. they are finally concerned with the birth, and with the sound development towards still better births, of human lives, just as every implement in the toolshed of a seedsman’s nursery, even the hoe and the roller, is concerned finally with the seeding and with the sound development towards still better seeding of plants. the private and personal motive of the seedsman in procuring and using these tools may be avarice, ambition, a religious belief in the saving efficacy of nursery keeping or a simple passion for bettering flowers, that does not affect the definite final purpose of his outfit of tools. “and just as we might judge completely and criticize and improve that outfit from an attentive study of the welfare of plants, and with an entire disregard of his remoter motives, so we may judge all collective human enterprises from the standpoint of an attentive study of human births and development. any collective human enterprise, institution, movement, party or state, is to be judged as a whole and completely, as it conduces more or less to wholesome and hopeful births, and according to the qualitative and quantitative advance due to its influence made by each generation of citizens born under its influence towards a higher and ampler standard of life.” and individual conduct, quite as much as collective affairs, comes under the same test. we are guides and school builders, helpers and influences every hour of our lives, and by that standard we can and must judge all our ways of living. . . possibility of a new etiquette. these two ideas, firstly the pupil-teacher parental idea and secondly the democratic idea (that is to say the idea of an equal ultimate significance), the second correcting any tendency in the first to pedagogic arrogance and tactful concealments, do i think give, when taken together, the general attitude a right-living man will take to his individual fellow creature. they play against each other, providing elements of contradiction and determining a balanced course. it seems to me to follow necessarily from my fundamental beliefs that the believer will tend to be and want to be and seek to be friendly to, and interested in, all sorts of people, and truthful and helpful and hating concealment. to be that with any approach to perfection demands an intricate and difficult effort, introspection to the hilt of one’s power, a saving natural gift; one has to avoid pedantry, aggression, brutality, amiable tiresomeness--there are pitfalls on every side. the more one thinks about other people the more interesting and pleasing they are; i am all for kindly gossip and knowing things about them, and all against the silly and limiting hardness of soul that will not look into one’s fellows nor go out to them. the use and justification of most literature, of fiction, verse, history, biography, is that it lets us into understandings and the suggestion of human possibilities. the general purpose of intercourse is to get as close as one can to the realities of the people one meets, and to give oneself to them just so far as possible. from that i think there arises naturally a newer etiquette that would set aside many of the rigidities of procedure that keep people apart to-day. there is a fading prejudice against asking personal questions, against talking about oneself or one’s immediate personal interests, against discussing religion and politics and any such keenly felt matter. no doubt it is necessary at times to protect oneself against clumsy and stupid familiarities, against noisy and inattentive egotists, against intriguers and liars, but only in the last resort do such breaches of patience seem justifiable to me; for the most part our traditions of speech and intercourse altogether overdo separations, the preservation of distances and protective devices in general. . . sex. so far i have ignored the immense importance of sex in our lives and for the most part kept the discussion so generalized as to apply impartially to women and men. but now i have reached a point when this great boundary line between two halves of the world and the intense and intimate personal problems that play across it must be faced. for not only must we bend our general activities and our intellectual life to the conception of a human synthesis, but out of our bodies and emotional possibilities we have to make the new world bodily and emotionally. to the test of that we have to bring all sorts of questions that agitate us to-day, the social and political equality and personal freedom of women, the differing code of honour for the sexes, the controls and limitations to set upon love and desire. if, for example, it is for the good of the species that a whole half of its individuals should be specialized and subordinated to the physical sexual life, as in certain phases of human development women have tended to be, then certainly we must do nothing to prevent that. we have set aside the conception of justice as in any sense a countervailing idea to that of the synthetic process. and it is well to remember that for the whole of sexual conduct there is quite conceivably no general simple rule. it is quite possible that, as metchnikoff maintains in his extraordinarily illuminating “nature of man,” we are dealing with an irresolvable tangle of disharmonies. we have passions that do not insist upon their physiological end, desires that may be prematurely vivid in childhood, a fantastic curiosity, old needs of the ape but thinly overlaid by the acquisitions of the man, emotions that jar with physical impulses, inexplicable pains and diseases. and not only have we to remember that we are dealing with disharmonies that may at the very best be only patched together, but we are dealing with matters in which the element of idiosyncrasy is essential, insisting upon an incalculable flexibility in any rule we make, unless we are to take types and indeed whole classes of personality and write them down as absolutely bad and fit only for suppression and restraint. and on the mental side we are further perplexed by the extraordinary suggestibility of human beings. in sexual matters there seems to me--and i think i share a general ignorance here--to be no directing instinct at all, but only an instinct to do something generally sexual; there are almost equally powerful desires to do right and not to act under compulsion. the specific forms of conduct imposed upon these instincts and desires depend upon a vast confusion of suggestions, institutions, conventions, ways of putting things. we are dealing therefore with problems ineradicably complex, varying endlessly in their instances, and changing as we deal with them. i am inclined to think that the only really profitable discussion of sexual matters is in terms of individuality, through the novel, the lyric, the play, autobiography or biography of the frankest sort. but such generalizations as i can make i will. to me it seems manifest that sexual matters may be discussed generally in at least three permissible and valid ways, of which the consideration of the world as a system of births and education is only the dominant chief. there is next the question of the physical health and beauty of the community and how far sexual rules and customs affect that, and thirdly the question of the mental and moral atmosphere in which sexual conventions and laws must necessarily be an important factor. it is alleged that probably in the case of men, and certainly in the case of women, some sexual intercourse is a necessary phase in existence; that without it there is an incompleteness, a failure in the life cycle, a real wilting and failure of energy and vitality and the development of morbid states. and for most of us half the friendships and intimacies from which we derive the daily interest and sustaining force in our lives, draw mysterious elements from sexual attraction, and depend and hesitate upon our conception of the liberties and limits we must give to that force. . . the institution of marriage. the individual attitudes of men to women and of women to men are necessarily determined to a large extent by certain general ideas of relationship, by institutions and conventions. one of the most important and debatable of these is whether we are to consider and treat women as citizens and fellows, or as beings differing mentally from men and grouped in positions of at least material dependence to individual men. our decision in that direction will affect all our conduct from the larger matters down to the smallest points of deportment; it will affect even our manner of address and determine whether when we speak to a woman we shall be as frank and unaffected as with a man or touched with a faint suggestion of the reserves of a cat which does not wish to be suspected of wanting to steal the milk. now so far as that goes it follows almost necessarily from my views upon aristocracy and democracy that i declare for the conventional equality of women, that is to say for the determination to make neither sex nor any sexual characteristic a standard of superiority or inferiority, for the view that a woman is a person as important and necessary, as much to be consulted, and entitled to as much freedom of action as a man. i admit that this decision is a choice into which temperament enters, that i cannot produce compelling reasons why anyone else should adopt my view. i can produce considerations in support of my view, that is all. but they are so implicit in all that has gone before that i will not trouble to detail them here. the conception of equality and fellowship between men and women is an idea at least as old as plato and one that has recurred wherever civilization has reached a phase in which men and women were sufficiently released from militant and economic urgency to talk and read and think. but it has never yet been, at least in the historical period and in any but isolated social groups, a working structural idea. the working structural idea is the patriarchal family in which the woman is inferior and submits herself and is subordinated to the man, the head of the family. we live in a constantly changing development and modification of that tradition. it is well to bring that factor of constant change into mind at the outset of this discussion and to keep it there. to forget it, and it is commonly forgotten, is to falsify every issue. marriage and the family are perennially fluctuating institutions, and probably scarcely anything in modern life is changing so much; they are in their legal constitution or their moral and emotional quality profoundly different things from what they were a hundred years ago. a woman who marries nowadays marries, if one may put it quantitatively, far less than she did even half a century ago; the married woman’s property act, for example, has revolutionized the economic relationship; her husband has lost his right to assault her and he cannot even compel her to cohabit with him if she refuses to do so. legal separations and divorces have come to modify the quality and logical consequences of the bond. the rights of parent over the child have been even more completely qualified. the state has come in as protector and educator of the children, taking over personal powers and responsibilities that have been essential to the family institution ever since the dawn of history. it inserts itself more and more between child and parent. it invades what were once the most sacred intimacies, and the salvation army is now promoting legislation to invade those overcrowded homes in which children (it is estimated to the number of thirty or forty thousand) are living as i write, daily witnesses of their mother’s prostitution or in constant danger of incestuous attack from drunken fathers and brothers. and finally as another indication of profound differences, births were almost universally accidental a hundred years ago; they are now in an increasing number of families controlled and deliberate acts of will. in every one of their relations do marriage and the family change and continue to change. but the inherent defectiveness of the human mind which my metaphysical book sets itself to analyze, does lead it constantly to speak of marriage and the family as things as fixed and unalterable as, let us say, the characteristics of oxygen. one is asked, do you believe in marriage and the family? as if it was a case of either having or not having some definite thing. socialists are accused of being “against the family,” as if it were not the case that socialists, individualists, high anglicans and roman catholics are all against marriage and the family as these institutions exist at the present time. but once we have realized the absurdity of this absolute treatment, then it should become clear that with it goes most of the fabric of right and wrong, and nearly all those arbitrary standards by which we classify people into moral and immoral. those last words are used when as a matter of fact we mean either conforming or failing to conform to changing laws and developing institutional customs we may or may not consider right or wrong. their use imparts a flavour of essential wrong-doing and obliquity into acts and relations that may be in many cases no more than social indiscipline, which may be even conceivably a courageous act of defiance to an obsolescent limitation. such, until a little while ago, was a man’s cohabitation with his deceased wife’s sister. this, which was scandalous yesterday, is now a legally honourable relationship, albeit i believe still regarded by the high anglican as incestuous wickedness. now i will not deal here with the institutional changes that are involved in that general scheme of progress called socialism. i have discussed the relation of socialism to marriage and the family quite fully in my “new worlds for old” (“new worlds for old” (a. constable and co., ).) and to that i must refer the reader. therein he will see how the economic freedom and independent citizenship of women, and indeed also the welfare of the whole next generation, hang on the idea of endowing motherhood, and he will find too how much of the nature of the marriage contract is outside the scope of socialist proposals altogether. apart from the broad proposals of socialism, as a matter of personal conviction quite outside the scope of socialism altogether, i am persuaded of the need of much greater facilities of divorce than exist at present, divorce on the score of mutual consent, of faithlessness, of simple cruelty, of insanity, habitual vice or the prolonged imprisonment of either party. and this being so i find it impossible to condemn on any ground, except that it is “breaking ranks” and making a confusion, those who by anticipating such wide facilities as i propose have sinned by existing standards. how far and in what manner such breaking of ranks is to be condoned i will presently discuss. but it is clear it is an offence of a different nature from actions one believes to be in themselves and apart from the law reprehensible things. but my scepticisms about the current legal institutions and customary code are not exhausted by these modifications i have suggested. i believe firmly in some sort of marriage, that is to say an open declaration of the existence of sexual relations between a man and a woman, because i am averse to all unnecessary secrecies and because the existence of these peculiarly intimate relationships affects everybody about the persons concerned. it is ridiculous to say as some do that sexual relations between two people affect no one but themselves unless a child is born. they do, because they tend to break down barriers and set up a peculiar emotional partnership. it is a partnership that kept secret may work as anti-socially as a secret business partnership or a secret preferential railway tariff. and i believe too in the general social desirability of the family group, the normal group of father, mother and children, and in the extreme efficacy in the normal human being of the blood link and pride link between parent and child in securing loving care and upbringing for the child. but this clear adhesion to marriage and to the family grouping about mother and father does not close the door to a large series of exceptional cases which our existing institutions and customs ignore or crush. for example, monogamy in general seems to me to be clearly indicated (as doctors say) by the fact that there are not several women in the world for every man, but quite as clearly does it seem necessary to recognize that the fact that there are (or were in ) , , females to , , males in our british community seems to condemn our present rigorous insistence upon monogamy, unless feminine celibacy has its own delights. but, as i have said, it is now largely believed that the sexual life of a woman is more important to her than his sexual life to a man and less easily ignored. it is true also on the former side that for the great majority of people one knows personally, any sort of household but a monogamous one conjures up painful and unpleasant visions. the ordinary civilized woman and the ordinary civilized man are alike obsessed with the idea of meeting and possessing one peculiar intimate person, one special exclusive lover who is their very own, and a third person of either sex cannot be associated with that couple without an intolerable sense of privacy and confidence and possession destroyed. it is difficult to imagine a second wife in a home who would not be and feel herself to be a rather excluded and inferior person. but that does not abolish the possibility that there are exceptional people somewhere capable of, to coin a phrase, triangular mutuality, and i do not see why we should either forbid or treat with bitterness or hostility a grouping we may consider so inadvisable or so unworkable as never to be adopted, if three people of their own free will desire it. the peculiar defects of the human mind when they approach these questions of sex are reinforced by passions peculiar to the topic, and it is perhaps advisable to point out that to discuss these possibilities is not the same thing as to urge the married reader to take unto himself or herself a second partner or a series of additional partners. we are trained from the nursery to become secretive, muddle-headed and vehemently conclusive upon sexual matters, until at last the editors of magazines blush at the very phrase and long to put a petticoat over the page that bears it. yet our rebellious natures insist on being interested by it. it seems to me that to judge these large questions from the personal point of view, to insist upon the whole world without exception living exactly in the manner that suits oneself or accords with one’s emotional imagination and the forms of delicacy in which one has been trained, is not the proper way to deal with them. i want as a sane social organizer to get just as many contented and law-abiding citizens as possible; i do not want to force people who would otherwise be useful citizens into rebellion, concealments and the dark and furtive ways of vice, because they may not love and marry as their temperaments command, and so i want to make the meshes of the law as wide as possible. but the common man will not understand this yet, and seeks to make the meshes just as small as his own private case demands. then marriage, to resume my main discussion, does not necessarily mean cohabitation. all women who desire children do not want to be entrusted with their upbringing. some women are sexual and philoprogenitive without being sedulously maternal, and some are maternal without much or any sexual passion. there are men and women in the world now, great allies, fond and passionate lovers who do not live nor want to live constantly together. it is at least conceivable that there are women who, while desiring offspring, do not want to abandon great careers for the work of maternity, women again who would be happiest managing and rearing children in manless households that they might even share with other women friends, and men to correspond with these who do not wish to live in a household with wife and children. i submit, these temperaments exist and have a right to exist in their own way. but one must recognize that the possibility of these departures from the normal type of household opens up other possibilities. the polygamy that is degrading or absurd under one roof assumes a different appearance when one considers it from the point of view of people whose habits of life do not centre upon an isolated home. all the relations i have glanced at above do as a matter of fact exist to-day, but shamefully and shabbily, tainted with what seems to me an unmerited and unnecessary ignominy. the punishment for bigamy seems to me insane in its severity, contrasted as it is with our leniency to the common seducer. better ruin a score of women, says the law, than marry two. i do not see why in these matters there should not be much ampler freedom than there is, and this being so i can hardly be expected to condemn with any moral fervour or exclude from my society those who have seen fit to behave by what i believe may be the standards of a.d. instead of by the standards of . these are offences, so far as they are offences, on an altogether different footing from murder, or exacting usury, or the sweating of children, or cruelty, or transmitting diseases, or unveracity, or commercial or intellectual or physical prostitution, or any such essentially grave anti-social deeds. we must distinguish between sins on the one hand and mere errors of judgment and differences of taste from ourselves. to draw up harsh laws, to practise exclusions against everyone who does not see fit to duplicate one’s own blameless home life, is to waste a number of courageous and exceptional persons in every generation, to drive many of them into a forced alliance with real crime and embittered rebellion against custom and the law. . . conduct in relation to the thing that is. but the reader must keep clear in his mind the distinction between conduct that is right or permissible in itself and conduct that becomes either inadvisable or mischievous and wrong because of the circumstances about it. there is no harm under ordinary conditions in asking a boy with a pleasant voice to sing a song in the night, but the case is altered altogether if you have reason to suppose that a red indian is lying in wait a hundred yards off, holding a loaded rifle and ready to fire at the voice. it is a valid objection to many actions that i do not think objectionable in themselves, that to do them will discharge a loaded prejudice into the heart of my friend--or even into my own. i belong to the world and my work, and i must not lightly throw my time, my power, my influence away. for a splendid thing any risk or any defiance may be justifiable, but is it a sufficiently splendid thing? so far as he possibly can a man must conform to common prejudices, prevalent customs and all laws, whatever his estimate of them may be. but he must at the same time to his utmost to change what he thinks to be wrong. and i think that conformity must be honest conformity. there is no more anti-social act than secret breaches, and only some very urgent and exceptional occasion justifies even the unveracity of silence about the thing done. if your personal convictions bring you to a breach, let it be an open breach, let there be no misrepresentation of attitudes, no meanness, no deception of honourable friends. of course an open breach need not be an ostentatious breach; to do what is right to yourself without fraud or concealment is one thing, to make a challenge and aggression quite another. your friends may understand and sympathize and condone, but it does not lie upon you to force them to identify themselves with your act and situation. but better too much openness than too little. squalid intrigue was the shadow of the old intolerably narrow order; it is a shadow we want to illuminate out of existence. secrets will be contraband in the new time. and if it chances to you to feel called upon to make a breach with the institution or custom or prejudice that is, remember that doing so is your own affair. you are going to take risks and specialize as an experiment. you must not expect other people about you to share the consequences of your dash forward. you must not drag in confidants and secondaries. you must fight your little battle in front on your own responsibility, unsupported--and take the consequences without repining. . . conduct towards transgressors. so far as breaches of the prohibitions and laws of marriage go, to me it seems they are to be tolerated by us in others just in the measure that, within the limits set by discretion, they are frank and truthful and animated by spontaneous passion and pervaded by the quality of beauty. i hate the vulgar sexual intriguer, man or woman, and the smart and shallow atmosphere of unloving lust and vanity about the type as i hate few kinds of human life; i would as lief have a polecat in my home as this sort of person; and every sort of prostitute except the victim of utter necessity i despise, even though marriage be the fee. but honest lovers should be i think a charge and pleasure for us. we must judge each pair as we can. one thing renders a sexual relationship incurably offensive to others and altogether wrong, and that is cruelty. but who can define cruelty? how far is the leaving of a third person to count as cruelty? there again i hesitate to judge. to love and not be loved is a fate for which it seems no one can be blamed; to lose love and to change one’s loving belongs to a subtle interplay beyond analysis or control, but to be deceived or mocked or deliberately robbed of love, that at any rate is an abominable wrong. in all these matters i perceive a general rule is in itself a possible instrument of cruelty. i set down what i can in the way of general principles, but it all leaves off far short of the point of application. every case among those we know i think we moderns must judge for ourselves. where there is doubt, there i hold must be charity. and with regard to strangers, manifestly our duty is to avoid inquisitorial and uncharitable acts. this is as true of financial and economic misconduct as of sexual misconduct, of ways of living that are socially harmful and of political faith. we are dealing with people in a maladjusted world to whom absolute right living is practically impossible, because there are no absolutely right institutions and no simple choice of good or evil, and we have to balance merits and defects in every case. some people are manifestly and essentially base and self-seeking and regardless of the happiness and welfare of their fellows, some in business affairs and politics as others in love. some wrong-doers again are evidently so through heedlessness, through weakness, timidity or haste. we have to judge and deal with each sort upon no clear issue, but upon impressions they have given us of their spirit and purpose. we owe it to them and ourselves not to judge too rashly or too harshly, but for all that we are obliged to judge and take sides, to avoid the malignant and exclude them from further opportunity, to help and champion the cheated and the betrayed, to forgive and aid the repentant blunderer and by mercy to save the lesser sinner from desperate alliance with the greater. that is the broad rule, and it is as much as we have to go upon until the individual case comes before us. book the fourth -- some personal things. . . personal love and life. it has been most convenient to discuss all that might be generalized about conduct first, to put in the common background, the vistas and atmosphere of the scene. but a man’s relations are of two orders, and these questions of rule and principle are over and about and round more vivid and immediate interests. a man is not simply a relationship between his individual self and the race, society, the world and god’s purpose. close about him are persons, friends and enemies and lovers and beloved people. he desires them, lusts after them, craves their affection, needs their presence, abhors them, hates and desires to limit and suppress them. this is for most of us the flesh and blood of life. we go through the noble scene of the world neither alone, nor alone with god, nor serving an undistinguishable multitude, but in a company of individualized people. here is a system of motives and passions, imperious and powerful, which follows no broad general rule and in which each man must needs be a light unto himself upon innumerable issues. i am satisfied that these personal urgencies are neither to be suppressed nor crudely nor ruthlessly subordinated to the general issues. religious and moral teachers are apt to make this part of life either too detached or too insignificant. they teach it either as if it did not matter or as if it ought not to matter. indeed our individual friends and enemies stand between us and hide or interpret for us all the larger things. few of us can even worship alone. we must feel others, and those not strangers, kneeling beside us. i have already spoken under the heading of beliefs of the part that the idea of a mediator has played and can play in the religious life. i have pointed out how the imagination of men has sought and found in certain personalities, historical or fictitious, a bridge between the blood-warm private life and the intolerable spaciousness of right and wrong. the world is full of such figures and their images, christ and mary and the saints and all the lesser, dearer gods of heathendom. these things and the human passion for living leaders and heroes and leagues and brotherhoods all confess the mediatory role, the mediatory possibilities of personal love between the individual and the great synthesis of which he is a part and agent. the great synthesis may become incarnate in personal love, and personal love lead us directly to universal service. i write “may” and temper that sentence to the quality of a possibility alone. this is only true for those who believe, for those who have faith, whose lives have been unified, who have found salvation. for those whose lives are chaotic, personal loves must also be chaotic; this or that passion, malice, a jesting humour, some physical lust, gratified vanity, egotistical pride, will rule and limit the relationship and colour its ultimate futility. but the believer uses personal love and sustains himself by personal love. it is his provender, the meat and drink of his campaign. . . the nature of love. it is well perhaps to look a little into the factors that make up love. love does not seem to me to be a simple elemental thing. it is, as i have already said, one of the vicious tendencies of the human mind to think that whatever can be given a simple name can be abstracted as a single something in a state of quintessential purity. i have pointed out that this is not true of harmony or beauty, and that these are synthetic things. you bring together this which is not beautiful and that which is not beautiful, and behold! beauty! so also love is, i think, a synthetic thing. one observes this and that, one is interested and stirred; suddenly the metal fuses, the dry bones live! one loves. almost every interest in one’s being may be a factor in the love synthesis. but apart from the overflowing of the parental instinct that makes all that is fine and delicate and young dear to us and to be cherished, there are two main factors that bring us into love with our fellows. there is first the emotional elements in our nature that arise out of the tribal necessity, out of a fellowship in battle and hunting, drinking and feasting, out of the needs and excitements and delights of those occupations; and there is next the intenser narrower desirings and gratitudes, satisfactions and expectations that come from sexual intercourse. now both these factors originate in physical needs and consummate in material acts, and it is well to remember that this great growth of love in life roots there, and, it may be, dies when its roots are altogether cut away. at its lowest, love is the mere sharing of, or rather the desire to share, pleasure and excitement, the excitements of conflict or lust or what not. i think that the desire to partake, the desire to merge one’s individual identity with another’s, remains a necessary element in all personal loves. it is a way out of ourselves, a breaking down of our individual separation, just as hate is an intensification of that. personal love is the narrow and intense form of that breaking down, just as what i call salvation is its widest, most extensive form. we cast aside our reserves, our secrecies, our defences; we open ourselves; touches that would be intolerable from common people become a mystery of delight, acts of self-abasement and self-sacrifice are charged with symbolical pleasure. we cannot tell which of us is me, which you. our imprisoned egoism looks out through this window, forgets its walls, and is for those brief moments released and universal. for most of us the strain of primordial sexual emotion in our loves is very strong. many men can love only women, many women only men, and some can scarcely love at all without bodily desire. but the love of fellowship is a strong one also, and for many, love is most possible and easy when the thought of physical lovemaking has been banished. then the lovers will pursue interests together, will work together or journey together. so we have the warm fellowships of men for men and women for women. but even then it may happen that men friends together will talk of women, and women friends of men. nevertheless we have also the strong and altogether sexless glow of those who have fought well together, or drunk or jested together or hunted a common quarry. now it seems to me that the believer must also be a lover, that he will love as much as he can and as many people as he can, and in many moods and ways. as i have said already, many of those who have taught religion and morality in the past have been neglectful or unduly jealous of the intenser personal loves. they have been, to put it by a figure, urgent upon the road to the ocean. to that they would lead us, though we come to it shivering, fearful and unprepared, and they grudge it that we should strip and plunge into the wayside stream. but all streams, all rivers come from this ocean in the beginning, lead to it in the end. it is the essential fact of love as i conceive it, that it breaks down the boundaries of self. that love is most perfect which does most completely merge its lovers. but no love is altogether perfect, and for most men and women love is no more than a partial and temporary lowering of the barriers that keep them apart. with many, the attraction of love seems always to fall short of what i hold to be its end, it draws people together in the most momentary of self-forgetfulnesses, and for the rest seems rather to enhance their egotisms and their difference. they are secret from one another even in their embraces. there is a sort of love that is egotistical lust almost regardless of its partner, a sort of love that is mere fleshless pride and vanity at a white heat. there is the love-making that springs from sheer boredom, like a man reading a story-book to fill an hour. these inferior loves seek to accomplish an agreeable act, or they seek the pursuit or glory of a living possession, they aim at gratification or excitement or conquest. true love seeks to be mutual and easy-minded, free of doubts, but these egotistical mockeries of love have always resentment in them and hatred in them and a watchful distrust. jealousy is the measure of self-love in love. true love is a synthetic thing, an outcome of life, it is not a universal thing. it is the individualized correlative of salvation; like that it is a synthetic consequence of conflicts and confusions. many people do not desire or need salvation, they cannot understand it, much less achieve it; for them chaotic life suffices. so too, many never, save for some rare moment of illumination, desire or feel love. its happy abandonment, its careless self-giving, these things are mere foolishness to them. but much has been said and sung of faith and love alike, and in their confused greed these things also they desire and parody. so they act worship and make a fine fuss of their devotions. and also they must have a few half-furtive, half-flaunting fallen love-triumphs prowling the secret backstreets of their lives, they know not why. (in setting this down be it remembered i am doing my best to tell what is in me because i am trying to put my whole view of life before the reader without any vital omissions. these are difficult matters to explain because they have no clear outlines; one lets in a hard light suddenly upon things that have lurked in warm intimate shadows, dim inner things engendering motives. i am not only telling quasi-secret things but exploring them for myself. they are none the less real and important because they are elusive.) true love i think is not simply felt but known. just as salvation as i conceive it demands a fine intelligence and mental activity, so love calls to brain and body alike and all one’s powers. there is always elaborate thinking and dreaming in love. love will stir imaginations that have never stirred before. love may be, and is for the most part, one-sided. it is the going out from oneself that is love, and not the accident of its return. it is the expedition whether it fail or succeed. but an expedition starves that comes to no port. love always seeks mutuality and grows by the sense of responses, or we should love beautiful inanimate things more passionately than we do. failing a full return, it makes the most of an inadequate return. failing a sustained return it welcomes a temporary coincidence. failing a return it finds support in accepted sacrifices. but it seeks a full return, and the fulness of life has come only to those who, loving, have met the lover. i am trying to be as explicit as possible in thus writing about love. but the substance in which one works here is emotion that evades definition, poetic flashes and figures of speech are truer than prosaic statements. body and the most sublimated ecstasy pass into one another, exchange themselves and elude every net of words we cast. i have put out two ideas of unification and self-devotion, extremes upon a scale one from another; one of these ideas is that devotion to the purpose in things i have called salvation; the other that devotion to some other most fitting and satisfying individual which is passionate love, the former extensive as the universe, the latter the intensest thing in life. these, it seems to me, are the boundary and the living capital of the empire of life we rule. all empires need a comprehending boundary, but many have not one capital but many chief cities, and all have cities and towns and villages beyond the capital. it is an impoverished capital that has no dependent towns, and it is a poor love that will not overflow in affection and eager kindly curiosity and sympathy and the search for fresh mutuality. to love is to go living radiantly through the world. to love and be loved is to be fearless of experience and rich in the power to give. . . the will to love. love is a thing to a large extent in its beginnings voluntary and controllable, and at last quite involuntary. it is so hedged about by obligations and consequences, real and artificial, that for the most part i think people are overmuch afraid of it. and also the tradition of sentiment that suggests its forms and guides it in the world about us, is far too strongly exclusive. it is not so much when love is glowing as when it is becoming habitual that it is jealous for itself and others. lovers a little exhausting their mutual interest find a fillip in an alliance against the world. they bury their talent of understanding and sympathy to return it duly in a clean napkin. they narrow their interest in life lest the other lover should misunderstand their amplitude as disloyalty. our institutions and social customs seem all to assume a definiteness of preference, a singleness and a limitation of love, which is not psychologically justifiable. people do not, i think, fall naturally into agreement with these assumptions; they train themselves to agreement. they take refuge from experiences that seem to carry with them the risk at least of perplexing situations, in a theory of barred possibilities and locked doors. how far this shy and cultivated irresponsive lovelessness towards the world at large may not carry with it the possibility of compensating intensities, i do not know. quite equally probable is a starvation of one’s emotional nature. the same reasons that make me decide against mere wanton abstinences make me hostile to the common convention of emotional indifference to most of the charming and interesting people one encounters. in pleasing and being pleased, in the mutual interest, the mutual opening out of people to one another, is the key of the door to all sweet and mellow living. . . love and death. for he who has faith, death, so far as it is his own death, ceases to possess any quality of terror. the experiment will be over, the rinsed beaker returned to its shelf, the crystals gone dissolving down the waste-pipe; the duster sweeps the bench. but the deaths of those we love are harder to understand or bear. it happens that of those very intimate with me i have lost only one, and that came slowly and elaborately, a long gradual separation wrought by the accumulation of years and mental decay, but many close friends and many whom i have counted upon for sympathy and fellowship have passed out of my world. i miss such a one as bob stevenson, that luminous, extravagant talker, that eager fantastic mind. i miss him whenever i write. it is less pleasure now to write a story since he will never read it, much less give me a word of praise for it. and i miss york powell’s friendly laughter and henley’s exuberant welcome. they made a warmth that has gone, those men. i can understand why i, with my fumbling lucidities and explanations, have to finish up presently and go, expressing as i do the mood of a type and of a time; but not those radiant presences. and the gap these men have left, these men with whom after all i only sat now and again, or wrote to in a cheerful mood or got a letter from at odd times, gives me some measure of the thing that happens, that may happen, when the mind that is always near one’s thoughts, the person who moves to one’s movement and lights nearly all the common flow of events about one with the reminder of fellowship and meaning--ceases. faith which feeds on personal love must at last prevail over it. if faith has any virtue it must have it here when we find ourselves bereft and isolated, facing a world from which the light has fled leaving it bleak and strange. we live for experience and the race; these individual interludes are just helps to that; the warm inn in which we lovers met and refreshed was but a halt on a journey. when we have loved to the intensest point we have done our best with each other. to keep to that image of the inn, we must not sit overlong at our wine beside the fire. we must go on to new experiences and new adventures. death comes to part us and turn us out and set us on the road again. but the dead stay where we leave them. i suppose that is the real good in death, that they do stay; that it makes them immortal for us. living they were mortal. but now they can never spoil themselves or be spoilt by change again. they have finished--for us indeed just as much as themselves. there they sit for ever, rounded off and bright and done. beside these clear and certain memories i have of my dead, my impressions of the living are vague provisional things. and since they are gone out of the world and become immortal memories in me, i feel no need to think of them as in some disembodied and incomprehensible elsewhere, changed and yet not done. i want actual immortality for those i love as little as i desire it for myself. indeed i dislike the idea that those i have loved are immortal in any real sense; it conjures up dim uncomfortable drifting phantoms, that have no kindred with the flesh and blood i knew. i would as soon think of them trailing after the tides up and down the channel outside my window. bob stevenson for me is a presence utterly concrete, slouching, eager, quick-eyed, intimate and profound, carelessly dressed (at sandgate he commonly wore a little felt hat that belonged to his son) and himself, himself, indissoluble matter and spirit, down to the heels of his boots. i cannot conceive of his as any but a concrete immortality. if he lives, he lives as i knew him and clothed as i knew him and with his unalterable voice, in a heaven of daedal flowers or a hell of ineffectual flame; he lives, dreaming and talking and explaining, explaining it all very earnestly and preposterously, so i picture him, into the ear of the amused, incredulous, principal person in the place. i have a real hatred for those dreary fools and knaves who would have me suppose that henley, that crippled titan, may conceivably be tapping at the underside of a mahogany table or scratching stifled incoherence into a locked slate! henley tapping!--for the professional purposes of sludge! if he found himself among the circumstances of a spiritualist seance he would, i know, instantly smash the table with that big fist of his. and as the splinters flew, surely york powell, out of the dead past from which he shines on me, would laugh that hearty laugh of his back into the world again. henley is nowhere now except that, red-faced and jolly like an october sunset, he leans over a gate at worthing after a long day of picnicking at chanctonbury ring, or sits at his woking table praising and quoting “the admiral bashville,” or blue-shirted and wearing that hat that nicholson has painted, is thrust and lugged, laughing and talking aside in his bath-chair, along the worthing esplanade... and bob stevenson walks for ever about a garden in chiswick, talking in the dusk. . . the consolation of failure. that parable of the talents i have made such free use of in this book has one significant defect. it gives but two cases, and three are possible. there was first the man who buried his talent, and of his condemnation we are assured. but those others all took their talents and used them courageously and came back with gain. was that gain inevitable? does courage always ensure us victory? because if that is so we can all be heroes and valour is the better part of discretion. alas! the faith in such magic dies. what of the possible case of the man who took his two or three talents and invested them as best he could and was deceived or heedless and lost them, interest and principal together? there is something harder to face than death, and that is the realization of failure and misdirected effort and wrong-doing. faith is no open sesame to right-doing, much less is it the secret of success. the service of god on earth is no processional triumph. what if one does wrong so extremely as to condemn one’s life, to make oneself part of the refuse and not of the building? or what if one is misjudged, or it may be too pitilessly judged, and one’s co-operation despised and the help one brought becomes a source of weakness? or suppose that the fine scheme one made lies shattered or wrecked by one’s own act, or through some hidden blemish one’s offering is rejected and flung back and one is thrust out? so in the end it may be you or i will find we have been anvil and not hammer in the purpose of god. then indeed will come the time for faith, for the last word of faith, to say still steadfastly, disgraced or dying, defeated or discredited, that all is well:-- “this and not that was my appointed work, and this i had to be.” . . the last confession. so these broken confessions and statements of mood and attitude come to an end. but at this end, since i have, i perceive, run a little into a pietistic strain, i must repeat again how provisional and personal i know all these things to be. i began by disavowing ultimates. my beliefs, my dogmas, my rules, they are made for my campaigning needs, like the knapsack and water-bottle of a cockney soldier invading some stupendous mountain gorge. about him are fastnesses and splendours, torrents and cataracts, glaciers and untrodden snows. he comes tramping on heel-worn boots and ragged socks. beauties and blue mysteries shine upon him and appeal to him, the enigma of beauty smiling the faint strange smile of leonardo’s mona lisa. he sees a light on the grass like music; and the blossom on the trees against the sky brings him near weeping. such things come to him, give themselves to him. i do not know why he should not in response fling his shabby gear aside and behave like a god; i only know that he does not do so. his grunt of appreciation is absurd, his speech goes like a crippled thing--and withal, and partly by virtue of the knapsack and water-bottle, he is conqueror of the valley. the valley is his for the taking. there is a duality in life that i cannot express except by such images as this, a duality so that we are at once absurd and full of sublimity, and most absurd when we are most anxious to render the real splendours that pervade us. this duplicity in life seems to me at times ineradicable, at times like the confusing of something essentially simple, like the duplication when one looks through a doubly refracting medium. you think in this latter mood that you have only to turn the crystal of iceland spar about in order to have the whole thing plain. but you never get it plain. i have been doing my halting utmost to get down sincerely and simply my vision of life and duty. i have permitted myself no defensive restraints; i have shamelessly written my starkest, and it is plain to me that a smile that is not mine plays over my most urgent passages. there is a rebellious rippling of the grotesque under our utmost tragedy and gravity. one’s martialled phrases grimace as one turns, and wink at the reader. none the less they signify. do you note how in this that i have written, such a word as believer will begin to wear a capital letter and give itself solemn ridiculous airs? it does not matter. it carries its message for all that necessary superficial absurdity. thought has made me shameless. it does not matter at last at all if one is a little harsh or indelicate or ridiculous if that also is in the mystery of things. behind everything i perceive the smile that makes all effort and discipline temporary, all the stress and pain of life endurable. in the last resort i do not care whether i am seated on a throne or drunk or dying in a gutter. i follow my leading. in the ultimate i know, though i cannot prove my knowledge in any way whatever, that everything is right and all things mine. the end. floor games by (h)erbert (g)eorge wells contents i. the toys to have ii. the game of the wonderful islands iii. of the building of cities iv. funiculars, marble towers, castles and war games, but very little of war games section i the toys to have the jolliest indoor games for boys and girls demand a floor, and the home that has no floor upon which games may be played falls so far short of happiness. it must be a floor covered with linoleum or cork carpet, so that toy soldiers and such-like will stand up upon it, and of a color and surface that will take and show chalk marks; the common green-colored cork carpet without a pattern is the best of all. it must be no highway to other rooms, and well lit and airy. occasionally, alas! it must be scrubbed--and then a truce to floor games. upon such a floor may be made an infinitude of imaginative games, not only keeping boys and girls happy for days together, but building up a framework of spacious and inspiring ideas in them for after life. the men of tomorrow will gain new strength from nursery floors. i am going to tell of some of these games and what is most needed to play them; i have tried them all and a score of others like them with my sons, and all of the games here illustrated have been set out by us. i am going to tell of them here because i think what we have done will interest other fathers and mothers, and perhaps be of use to them (and to uncles and such-like tributary sub-species of humanity) in buying presents for their own and other people's children. now, the toys we play with time after time, and in a thousand permutations and combinations, belong to four main groups. we have ( ) soldiers, and with these i class sailors, railway porters, civilians, and the lower animals generally, such as i will presently describe in greater detail; ( ) bricks; ( ) boards and planks; and ( ) a lot of clockwork railway rolling-stock and rails. also there are certain minor objects--tin ships, easter eggs, and the like--of which i shall make incidental mention, that like the kiwi and the duck-billed platypus refuse to be classified. these we arrange and rearrange in various ways upon our floor, making a world of them. in doing so we have found out all sorts of pleasant facts, and also many undesirable possibilities; and very probably our experience will help a reader here and there to the former and save him from the latter. for instance, our planks and boards, and what one can do with them, have been a great discovery. lots of boys and girls seem to be quite without planks and boards at all, and there is no regular trade in them. the toyshops, we found, did not keep anything of the kind we wanted, and our boards, which we had to get made by a carpenter, are the basis of half the games we play. the planks and boards we have are of various sizes. we began with three of two yards by one; they were made with cross pieces like small doors; but these we found unnecessarily large, and we would not get them now after our present experience. the best thickness, we think, is an inch for the larger sizes and three-quarters and a half inch for the smaller; and the best sizes are a yard square, thirty inches square, two feet, and eighteen inches square--one or two of each, and a greater number of smaller ones, x , x , and x - / . with the larger ones we make islands and archipelagos on our floor while the floor is a sea, or we make a large island or a couple on the venice pattern, or we pile the smaller on the larger to make hills when the floor is a level plain, or they roof in railway stations or serve as bridges, in such manner as i will presently illustrate. and these boards of ours pass into our next most important possession, which is our box of bricks. (but i was nearly forgetting to tell this, that all the thicker and larger of these boards have holes bored through them. at about every four inches is a hole, a little larger than an ordinary gimlet hole. these holes have their uses, as i will tell later, but now let me get on to the box of bricks.) this, again, wasn't a toy-shop acquisition. it came to us by gift from two generous friends, unhappily growing up and very tall at that; and they had it from parents who were one of several families who shared in the benefit of a good uncle. i know nothing certainly of this man except that he was a radford of plymouth. i have never learned nor cared to learn of his commoner occupations, but certainly he was one of those shining and distinguished uncles that tower up at times above the common levels of humanity. at times, when we consider our derived and undeserved share of his inheritance and count the joys it gives us, we have projected half in jest and half in earnest the putting together of a little exemplary book upon the subject of such exceptional men: celebrated uncles, it should be called; and it should stir up all who read it to some striving at least towards the glories of the avuncular crown. what this great benefactor did was to engage a deserving unemployed carpenter through an entire winter making big boxes of wooden bricks for the almost innumerable nephews and nieces with which an appreciative circle of brothers and sisters had blessed him. there are whole bricks - / inches x - / x - / ; and there are quarters--called by those previous owners (who have now ascended to, we hope but scarcely believe, a happier life near the ceiling) "piggys." you note how these sizes fit into the sizes of the boards, and of each size--we have never counted them, but we must have hundreds. we can pave a dozen square yards of floor with them. how utterly we despise the silly little bricks of the toyshops! they are too small to make a decent home for even the poorest lead soldiers, even if there were hundreds of them, and there are never enough, never nearly enough; even if you take one at a time and lay it down and say, "this is a house," even then there are not enough. we see rich people, rich people out of motor cars, rich people beyond the dreams of avarice, going into toyshops and buying these skimpy, sickly, ridiculous pseudo-boxes of bricklets, because they do not know what to ask for, and the toyshops are just the merciless mercenary enemies of youth and happiness--so far, that is, as bricks are concerned. their unfortunate under-parented offspring mess about with these gifts, and don't make very much of them, and put them away; and you see their consequences in after life in the weakly-conceived villas and silly suburbs that people have built all round big cities. such poor under-nourished nurseries must needs fall back upon the encyclopedia britannica, and even that is becoming flexible on india paper! but our box of bricks almost satisfies. with our box of bricks we can scheme and build, all three of us, for the best part of the hour, and still have more bricks in the box. so much now for the bricks. i will tell later how we use cartridge paper and cardboard and other things to help in our and of the decorative make of plasticine. of course, it goes without saying that we despise those foolish, expensive, made-up wooden and pasteboard castles that are sold in shops--playing with them is like playing with somebody else's dead game in a state of rigor mortis. let me now say a little about toy soldiers and the world to which they belong. toy soldiers used to be flat, small creatures in my own boyhood, in comparison with the magnificent beings one can buy to-day. there has been an enormous improvement in our national physique in this respect. now they stand nearly two inches high and look you broadly in the face, and they have the movable arms and alert intelligence of scientifically exercised men. you get five of them mounted or nine afoot in a box for a small price. we three like those of british manufacture best; other makes are of incompatible sizes, and we have a rule that saves much trouble, that all red coats belong to g. p. w., and all other colored coats to f. r. w., all gifts, bequests, and accidents notwithstanding. also we have sailors; but, since there are no red-coated sailors, blue counts as red. then we have "beefeaters," (footnote; the warders in the tower of london are called "beefeaters"; the origin of the term is obscure.) indians, zulus, for whom there are special rules. we find we can buy lead dogs, cats, lions, tigers, horses, camels, cattle, and elephants of a reasonably corresponding size, and we have also several boxes of railway porters, and some soldiers we bought in hesse-darmstadt that we pass off on an unsuspecting home world as policemen. but we want civilians very badly. we found a box of german from an exaggerated curse of militarism, and even the grocer wears epaulettes. this might please lord roberts and mr. leo maxse, but it certainly does not please us. i wish, indeed, that we could buy boxes of tradesmen: a blue butcher, a white baker with a loaf of standard bread, a merchant or so; boxes of servants, boxes of street traffic, smart sets, and so forth. we could do with a judge and lawyers, or a box of vestrymen. it is true that we can buy salvation army lasses and football players, but we are cold to both of these. we have, of course, boy scouts. with such boxes of civilians we could have much more fun than with the running, marching, swashbuckling soldiery that pervades us. they drive us to reviews; and it is only emperors, kings, and very silly small boys who can take an undying interest in uniforms and reviews. and lastly, of our railways, let me merely remark here that we have always insisted upon one uniform gauge and everything we buy fits into and develops our existing railway system. nothing is more indicative of the wambling sort of parent and a coterie of witless, worthless uncles than a heap of railway toys of different gauges and natures in the children's playroom. and so, having told you of the material we have, let me now tell you of one or two games (out of the innumerable many) that we have played. of course, in this i have to be a little artificial. actual games of the kind i am illustrating here have been played by us, many and many a time, with joy and happy invention and no thought of publication. they have gone now, those games, into that vaguely luminous and iridescent into which happiness have tried out again points in world of memories all love-engendering must go. but we our best to set them and recall the good them here. section ii the game of the wonderful islands in this game the floor is the sea. half--rather the larger half because of some instinctive right of primogeniture--is assigned to the elder of my two sons (he is, as it were, its olympian), and the other half goes to his brother. we distribute our boards about the sea in an archipelagic manner. we then dress our islands, objecting strongly to too close a scrutiny of our proceedings until we have done. here, in the illustration, is such an archipelago ready for its explorers, or rather on the verge of exploration. there are altogether four islands, two to the reader's right and two to the left, and the nearer ones are the more northerly; it is as many as we could get into the camera. the northern island to the right is most advanced in civilization, and is chiefly temple. that temple has a flat roof, diversified by domes made of half easter eggs and cardboard cones. these are surmounted by decorative work of a flamboyant character in plasticine, designed by g. p. w. an oriental population crowds the courtyard and pours out upon the roadway. note the grotesque plasticine monsters who guard the portals, also by g. p. w., who had a free hand with the architecture of this remarkable specimen of eastern religiosity. they are nothing, you may be sure, to the gigantic idols inside, out of the reach of the sacrilegious camera. to the right is a tropical thatched hut. the thatched roof is really that nice ribbed paper that comes round bottles--a priceless boon to these games. all that comes into the house is saved for us. the owner of the hut lounges outside the door. he is a dismounted cavalry-corps man, and he owns one cow. his fence, i may note, belonged to a little wooden farm we bought in switzerland. its human inhabitants are scattered; its beasts follow a precarious living as wild guinea-pigs on the islands to the south. your attention is particularly directed to the trees about and behind the temple, which thicken to a forest on the further island to the right. these trees we make of twigs taken from trees and bushes in the garden, and stuck into holes in our boards. formerly we lived in a house with a little wood close by, and our forests were wonderful. now we are restricted to our garden, and we could get nothing for this set out but jasmine and pear. both have wilted a little, and are not nearly such spirited trees as you can make out of fir trees, for instance. it is for these woods chiefly that we have our planks perforated with little holes. no tin trees can ever be so plausible and various and jolly as these. with a good garden to draw upon one can make terrific sombre woods, and then lie down and look through them at lonely horsemen or wandering beasts. that further island on the right is a less settled country than the island of the temple. camels, you note, run wild there; there is a sort of dwarf elephant, similar to the now extinct kind of which one finds skeletons in malta, pigs, a red parrot, and other such creatures, of lead and wood. the pear-trees are fine. it is those which have attracted white settlers (i suppose they are), whose thatched huts are to be seen both upon the beach and in-land. by the huts on the beach lie a number of pear-tree logs; but a raid of negroid savages from the to the left is in the only settler is the man in a adjacent island progress, and clearly visible rifleman's uniform running inland for help. beyond, peeping out among the trees, are the supports he seeks. these same negroid savages are as bold as they are ferocious. they cross arms of the sea upon their rude canoes, made simply of a strip of cardboard. their own island, the one to the south-left, is a rocky wilderness containing caves. their chief food is the wild-goat, but in pursuit of these creatures you will also sometimes find the brown bear, who sits--he is small but perceptible to the careful student--in the mouth of his cave. here, too, you will distinguish small guinea pig-like creatures of wood, in happier days the inhabitants of that swiss farm. sunken rocks off this island are indicated by a white foam which takes the form of letters, and you will also note a whirlpool between the two islands to the right. finally comes the island nearest to the reader on the left. this also is wild and rocky, inhabited not by negroid blacks, but by indians, whose tents, made by f. r. w. out of ordinary brown paper and adorned with chalk totems of a rude and characteristic kind, pour forth their fierce and well-armed inhabitants at the intimation of an invader. the rocks on this island, let me remark, have great mineral wealth. among them are to be found not only sheets and veins of silver paper, but great nuggets of metal, obtained by the melting down of hopelessly broken soldiers in an iron spoon. note, too, the peculiar and romantic shell beach of this country. it is an island of exceptional interest to the geologist and scientific explorer. the indians, you observe, have domesticated one leaden and one wooden cow. this is how the game would be set out. then we build ships and explore these islands, but in these pictures the ships are represented as already arriving. the ships are built out of our wooden bricks on flat keels made of two wooden pieces of x - / ; inches, which are very convenient to push about over the floor. captain g. p. w. is steaming into the bay between the eastern and western islands. he carries heavy guns, his ship bristles with an extremely aggressive soldiery, who appear to be blazing away for the mere love of the thing. (i suspect him of imperialist intentions.) captain f. r. w. is apparently at anchor between his northern and southern islands. his ship is of a slightly more pacific type. i note on his deck a lady and a gentleman (of german origin) with a bag, two of our all too rare civilians. no doubt the bag contains samples and a small conversation dictionary in the negroid dialects. (i think f. r. w. may turn out to be a liberal.) perhaps he will sail on and rescue the raided huts, perhaps he will land and build a jetty, and begin mining among the rocks to fill his hold with silver. perhaps the natives will kill and eat the gentleman with the bag. all that is for captain f. r. w. to decide. you see how the game goes on. we land and alter things, and build and rearrange, and hoist paper flags on pins, and subjugate populations, and confer all the blessings of civilization upon these lands. we keep them going for days. and at last, as we begin to tire of them, comes the scrubbing brush, and we must burn our trees and dismantle our islands, and put our soldiers in the little nests of drawers, and stand the island boards up against the wall, and put everything away. then perhaps, after a few days, we begin upon some other such game, just as we feel disposed. but it is never quite the same game, never. another time it may be wildernesses for example, and the boards are hills, and never a drop of water is to be found except for the lakes and rivers we may mark out in chalk. but after one example others are easy, and next i will tell you of our way of making towns. section iii of the building of cities we always build twin cities, like london and westminster, or buda-pesth, because two of us always want, both of them, to be mayors and municipal councils, and it makes for local freedom and happiness to arrange it so; but when steam railways or street railways are involved we have our rails in common, and we have an excellent law that rails must be laid down and switches kept open in such a manner that anyone feeling so disposed may send a through train from their own station back to their own station again without needless negotiation or the personal invasion of anybody else's administrative area. it is an undesirable thing to have other people bulging over one's houses, standing in one's open spaces, and, in extreme cases, knocking down and even treading on one's citizens. it leads at times to explanations that are afterwards regretted. we always have twin cities, or at the utmost stage of coalescence a city with two wards, red end and blue end; we mark the boundaries very carefully, and our citizens have so much local patriotism (mr. chesterton will learn with pleasure) that they stray but rarely over that thin little streak of white that bounds their municipal allegiance. sometimes we have an election for mayor; it is like a census but very abusive, and red always wins. only citizens with two legs and at least one arm and capable of standing up may vote, and voters may poll on horseback; boy scouts and women and children do not vote, though there is a vigorous agitation to remove these disabilities. zulus and foreign-looking persons, such as east indian cavalry and american indians, are also disfranchised. so are riderless horses and camels; but the elephant has never attempted to vote on any occasion, and does not seem to desire the privilege. it influences public opinion quite sufficiently as it is by nodding its head. we have set out and i have photographed one of our cities to illustrate more clearly the amusement of the game. red end is to the reader's right, and includes most of the hill on which the town stands, a shady zoological garden, the town hall, a railway tunnel through the hill, a museum (away in the extreme right-hand corner), a church, a rifle range, and a shop. blue end has the railway station, four or five shops, several homes, a hotel, and a farm-house, close to the railway station. the boundary drawn by me as overlord (who also made the hills and tunnels and appointed the trees to grow) runs irregularly between the two shops nearest the cathedral, over the shoulder in front of the town hall, and between the farm and the rifle range. the nature of the hills i have already explained, and this time we have had no lakes or ornamental water. these are very easily made out of a piece of glass--the glass lid of a box for example--laid upon silver paper. such water becomes very readily populated by those celluloid seals and swans and ducks that are now so common. paper fish appear below the surface and may be peered at by the curious. but on this occasion we have nothing of the kind, nor have we made use of a green-colored tablecloth we sometimes use to drape our hills. of course, a large part of the fun of this game lies in the witty incorporation of all sorts of extraneous objects. but the incorporation must be witty, or you may soon convert the whole thing into an incoherent muddle of half-good ideas. i have taken two photographs, one to the right and one to the left of this agreeable place. i may perhaps adopt a kind of guide-book style in reviewing its principal features: i begin at the railway station. i have made a rather nearer and larger photograph of the railway station, which presents a diversified and entertaining scene to the incoming visitor. porters (out of a box of porters) career here and there with the trucks and light baggage. quite a number of our all-too-rare civilians parade the platform: two gentlemen, a lady, and a small but evil-looking child are particularly noticeable; and there is a wooden sailor with jointed legs, in a state of intoxication as reprehensible as it is nowadays happily rare. two virtuous dogs regard his abandon with quiet scorn. the seat on which he sprawls is a broken piece of some toy whose nature i have long forgotten, the station clock is a similar fragment, and so is the metallic pillar which bears the name of the station. so many toys, we find, only become serviceable with a little smashing. there is an allegory in this--as hawthorne used to write in his diary. ("what is he doing, the great god pan, down in the reeds by the river?") the fences at the ends of the platforms are pieces of wood belonging to the game of matador--that splendid and very educational construction game, hailing, i believe, from hungary. there is also, i regret to say, a blatant advertisement of jab's "hair color," showing the hair. (in the photograph the hair does not come out very plainly.) this is by g. p. w., who seems marked out by destiny to be the advertisement-writer of the next generation. he spends much of his scanty leisure inventing and drawing advertisements of imaginary commodities. oblivious to many happy, beautiful, and noble things in life, he goes about studying and imitating the literature of the billboards. he and his brother write newspapers almost entirely devoted to these annoying appeals. you will note, too, the placard at the mouth of the railway tunnel urging the existence of jinks' soap upon the passing traveller. the oblong object on the placard represents, no doubt, a cake of this offensive and aggressive commodity. the zoological garden flaunts a placard, "zoo, two cents pay," and the grocer's picture of a cabbage with "get them" is not to be ignored. f. r. w. is more like the london county council in this respect, and prefers bare walls. "returning from the station," as the guide-books say, and "giving one more glance" at the passengers who are waiting for the privilege of going round the circle in open cars and returning in a prostrated condition to the station again, and "observing" what admirable platforms are made by our x - / pieces, we pass out to the left into the village street. a motor omnibus (a one-horse hospital cart in less progressive days) stands waiting for passengers; and, on our way to the cherry tree inn, we remark two nurses, one in charge of a child with a plasticine head. the landlord of the inn is a small grotesque figure of plaster; his sign is fastened on by a pin. no doubt the refreshment supplied here has an enviable reputation, to judge by the alacrity with which a number of riflemen move to-wards the door. the inn, by the by, like the station and some private houses, is roofed with stiff paper. these stiff-paper roofs are one of our great inventions. we get thick, stiff paper at twopence a sheet and cut it to the sizes we need. after the game is over, we put these roofs inside one another and stick them into the bookshelves. the roof one folds and puts away will live to roof another day. proceeding on our way past the cherry tree, and resisting cosy invitation of its portals, we come to the shopping quarter of the town. the stock in windows is made by hand out of plasticine. we note the meat and hams of "mr. woddy," the cabbages and carrots of "tod & brothers," the general activities of the "jokil co." shopmen. it is de rigueur with our shop assistants that they should wear white helmets. in the street, boy scouts go to and fro, a wagon clatters by; most of the adult population is about its business, and a red-coated band plays along the roadway. contrast this animated scene with the mysteries of sea and forest, rock and whirlpool, in our previous game. further on is the big church or cathedral. it is built in an extremely debased gothic style; it reminds us most of a church we once surveyed during a brief visit to rotterdam on our way up the rhine. a solitary boy scout, mindful of the views of lord haldane, enters its high portal. passing the cathedral, we continue to the museum. this museum is no empty boast; it contains mineral specimens, shells--such great shells as were found on the beaches of our previous game--the titanic skulls of extinct rabbits and cats, and other such wonders. the slender curious may lie down on the floor and peep in at the windows. "we now," says the guide-book, "retrace our steps to the shops, and then, turning to the left, ascend under the trees up the terraced hill on which stands the town hall. this magnificent building is surmounted by a colossal statue of a chamois, the work of a wengen artist; it is in two stories, with a battlemented roof, and a crypt (entrance to right of steps) used for the incarceration of offenders. it is occupied by the town guard, who wear 'beefeater' costumes of ancient origin." note the red parrot perched on the battlements; it lives tame in the zoological gardens, and is of the same species as one we formerly observed in our archipelago. note, too, the brisk cat-and-dog encounter below. steps descend in wide flights down the hillside into blue end. the two couchant lions on either side of the steps are in plasticine, and were executed by that versatile artist, who is also mayor of red end, g. p. w. he is present. our photographer has hit upon a happy moment in the history of this town, and a conversation of the two mayors is going on upon the terrace before the palace. f. r. w., mayor of blue end, stands on the steps in the costume of an admiral; g. p. w. is on horseback (his habits are equestrian) on the terrace. the town guard parades in their honor, and up the hill a number of musicians (a little hidden by trees) ride on gray horses towards them. passing in front of the town hall, and turning to the right, we approach the zoological gardens. here we pass two of our civilians: a gentleman in black, a lady, and a large boy scout, presumably their son. we enter the gardens, which are protected by a bearded janitor, and remark at once a band of three performing dogs, who are, as the guide-book would say, "discoursing sweet music." in neither ward of the city does there seem to be the slightest restraint upon the use of musical instruments. it is no place for neurotic people. the gardens contain the inevitable elephants, camels (which we breed, and which are therefore in considerable numbers), a sitting bear, brought from last game's caves, goats from the same region, tamed and now running loose in the gardens, dwarf elephants, wooden nondescripts, and other rare creatures. the keepers wear a uniform not unlike that of railway guards and porters. we wander through the gardens, return, descend the hill by the school of musketry, where soldiers are to be seen shooting at the butts, pass through the paddock of the old farm, and so return to the railway station, extremely gratified by all we have seen, and almost equally divided in our minds between the merits and attractiveness of either ward. a clockwork train comes clattering into the station, we take our places, somebody hoots or whistles for the engine (which can't), the signal is knocked over in the excitement of the moment, the train starts, and we "wave a long, regretful farewell to the salubrious cheerfulness of chamois city." you see now how we set out and the spirit in which we set out our towns. it demands but the slightest exercise of the imagination to devise a hundred additions and variations of the scheme. you can make picture-galleries--great fun for small boys who can draw; you can make factories; you can plan out flower-gardens--which appeals very strongly to intelligent little girls; your town hall may become a fortified castle; or you may put the whole town on boards and make a venice of it, with ships and boats upon its canals, and bridges across them. we used to have some very serviceable ships of cardboard, with flat bottoms; and then we used to have a harbor, and the ships used to sail away to distant rooms, and even into the garden, and return with the most remarkable cargoes, loads of nasturtium-stem logs, for example. we had sacks then, made of glove-fingers, and several toy cranes. i suppose we could find most of these again if we hunted for them. once, with this game fresh in our we went to see the docks, which struck us as just our old harbor game magnified. "i say, daddy," said one of us in a quiet corner, wistfully, as one who speaks knowingly against the probabilities of the case, and yet with a faint, thin hope, "couldn't we play just for a little with these sacks ... until some-body comes?" of course the setting-out of the city is half the game. then you devise incidents. as i wanted to photograph the particular set-out for the purpose of illustrating this account, i took a larger share in the arrangement than i usually do. it was necessary to get everything into the picture, to ensure a light background that would throw up some of the trees, prevent too much overlapping, and things like that. when the photographing was over, matters became more normal. i left the schoolroom, and when i returned i found that the group of riflemen which had been converging on the publichouse had been sharply recalled to duty, and were trotting in a disciplined, cheerless way towards the railway station. the elephant had escaped from the zoo into the blue ward, and was being marched along by a military patrol. the originally scattered boy scouts were being paraded. g. p. w. had demolished the shop of the jokil company, and was building a red end station near the bend. the stock of the jokil company had passed into the hands of the adjacent storekeepers. then the town hall ceremonies came to an end and the guard marched off. then g. p. w. demolished the rifle-range, and ran a small branch of the urban railway uphill to the town hall door, and on into the zoological gardens. this was only the beginning of a period of enterprise in transit, a small railway boom. a number of halts of simple construction sprang up. there was much making of railway tickets, of a size that enabled passengers to stick their heads through the middle and wear them as a mexican does his blanket. then a battery of artillery turned up in the high street and there was talk of fortifications. suppose wild indians were to turn up across the plains to the left and attack the town! fate still has toy drawers untouched... so things will go on till putting-away night on friday. then we shall pick up the roofs and shove them away among the books, return the clockwork engines very carefully to their boxes, for engines are fragile things, stow the soldiers and civilians and animals in their nests of drawers, burn the trees again--this time they are sweet-bay; and all the joys and sorrows and rivalries and successes of blue end and red end will pass, and follow carthage and nineveh, the empire of aztec and roman, the arts of etruria and the palaces of crete, and the plannings and contrivings of innumerable myriads of children, into the limbo of games exhausted ... it may be, leaving some profit, in thoughts widened, in strengthened apprehensions; it may be, leaving nothing but a memory that dies. section iv funiculars, marble towers, castles and war games, but very little of war games i have now given two general types of floor game; but these are only just two samples of delightful and imagination-stirring variations that can be contrived out of the toys i have described. i will now glance rather more shortly at some other very good uses of the floor, the boards, the bricks, the soldiers, and the railway system--that pentagram for exorcising the evil spirit of dulness from the lives of little boys and girls. and first, there is a kind of lark we call funiculars. there are times when islands cease somehow to dazzle, and towns and cities are too orderly and uneventful and cramped for us, and we want something--something to whizz. then we say: "let us make a funicular. let us make a funicular more than we have ever done. let us make one to reach up to the table." we dispute whether it isn't a mountain railway we are after. the bare name is refreshing; it takes us back to that unforgettable time when we all went to wengen, winding in and out and up and up the mountain side--from slush, to such snow and sunlight as we had never seen before. and we make a mountain railway. so far, we have never got it up to the table, but some day we will, then we will have a station there on the flat, and another station on the floor, with shunts and sidings to each. the peculiar joy of the mountain railway is that, if it is properly made, a loaded car--not a toy engine; it is too rough a game for delicate, respectable engines--will career from top to bottom of the system, and go this way and that as your cunningly-arranged switches determine; and afterwards--and this is a wonderful and distinctive discovery--you can send it back by 'lectric. what is a 'lectric? you may well ask. 'lectrics were invented almost by accident, by one of us, to whom also the name is due. it came out of an accident to a toy engine; a toy engine that seemed done for and that was yet full of life. you know, perhaps, what a toy engine is like. it has the general appearance of a railway engine; funnels, buffers, cab, and so forth. all these are very elegant things, no doubt; but they do not make for lightness, they do not facilitate hill-climbing. now, sometimes an engine gets its clockwork out of order, and then it is over and done for; but sometimes it is merely the outer semblance that is injured--the funnel bent, the body twisted. you remove the things and, behold! you have bare clockwork on wheels, an apparatus of almost malignant energy, soul without body, a kind of metallic rage. this it was that our junior member instantly knew for a 'lectric, and loved from the moment of its stripping. (i have, by the by, known a very serviceable little road 'lectric made out of a clockwork mouse.) well, when we have got chairs and boxes and bricks, and graded our line skilfully and well, easing the descent, and being very careful of the joining at the bends for fear that the descending trucks and cars will jump the rails, we send down first an empty truck, then trucks loaded with bricks and lead soldiers, and then the 'lectric; and then afterwards the sturdy 'lectric shoves up the trucks again to the top, with a kind of savagery of purpose and a whizz that is extremely gratifying to us. we make switches in these lines; we make them have level-crossings, at which collisions are always being just averted; the lines go over and under each other, and in and out of tunnels. the marble tower, again, is a great building, on which we devise devious slanting ways down which marbles run. i do not know why it is amusing to make a marble run down a long intricate path, and dollop down steps, and come almost but not quite to a stop, and rush out of dark places and across little bridges of card: it is, and we often do it. castles are done with bricks and cardboard turrets and a portcullis of card, and drawbridge and moats; they are a mere special sort of city-building, done because we have a box of men in armor. we could reconstruct all sorts of historical periods if the toy soldier makers would provide us with people. but at present, as i have already complained, they make scarcely anything but contemporary fighting men. and of the war game i must either write volumes or nothing. for the present let it be nothing. some day, perhaps, i will write a great book about the war game and tell of battles and campaigns and strategy and tactics. but this time i set out merely to tell of the ordinary joys of playing with the floor, and to gird improvingly and usefully at toymakers. so much, i think, i have done. if one parent or one uncle buys the wiselier for me, i shall not altogether have lived in vain. none this etext was created by judith boss, omaha, nebraska. the equipment: an ibm-compatible / , a hewlett-packard scanjet iic flatbed scanner, and calera recognition systems' m/ series professional ocr software and risc accelerator board donated by calera recognition systems. the door in the wall and other stories by h. g. wells contents the door in the wall the star a dream of armageddon the cone a moonlight fable the diamond maker the lord of the dynamos the country of the blind the door in the wall and other stories the door in the wall i one confidential evening, not three months ago, lionel wallace told me this story of the door in the wall. and at the time i thought that so far as he was concerned it was a true story. he told it me with such a direct simplicity of conviction that i could not do otherwise than believe in him. but in the morning, in my own flat, i woke to a different atmosphere, and as i lay in bed and recalled the things he had told me, stripped of the glamour of his earnest slow voice, denuded of the focussed shaded table light, the shadowy atmosphere that wrapped about him and the pleasant bright things, the dessert and glasses and napery of the dinner we had shared, making them for the time a bright little world quite cut off from every-day realities, i saw it all as frankly incredible. "he was mystifying!" i said, and then: "how well he did it!. . . . . it isn't quite the thing i should have expected him, of all people, to do well." afterwards, as i sat up in bed and sipped my morning tea, i found myself trying to account for the flavour of reality that perplexed me in his impossible reminiscences, by supposing they did in some way suggest, present, convey--i hardly know which word to use--experiences it was otherwise impossible to tell. well, i don't resort to that explanation now. i have got over my intervening doubts. i believe now, as i believed at the moment of telling, that wallace did to the very best of his ability strip the truth of his secret for me. but whether he himself saw, or only thought he saw, whether he himself was the possessor of an inestimable privilege, or the victim of a fantastic dream, i cannot pretend to guess. even the facts of his death, which ended my doubts forever, throw no light on that. that much the reader must judge for himself. i forget now what chance comment or criticism of mine moved so reticent a man to confide in me. he was, i think, defending himself against an imputation of slackness and unreliability i had made in relation to a great public movement in which he had disappointed me. but he plunged suddenly. "i have" he said, "a preoccupation--" "i know," he went on, after a pause that he devoted to the study of his cigar ash, "i have been negligent. the fact is--it isn't a case of ghosts or apparitions--but--it's an odd thing to tell of, redmond--i am haunted. i am haunted by something--that rather takes the light out of things, that fills me with longings . . . . ." he paused, checked by that english shyness that so often overcomes us when we would speak of moving or grave or beautiful things. "you were at saint athelstan's all through," he said, and for a moment that seemed to me quite irrelevant. "well"--and he paused. then very haltingly at first, but afterwards more easily, he began to tell of the thing that was hidden in his life, the haunting memory of a beauty and a happiness that filled his heart with insatiable longings that made all the interests and spectacle of worldly life seem dull and tedious and vain to him. now that i have the clue to it, the thing seems written visibly in his face. i have a photograph in which that look of detachment has been caught and intensified. it reminds me of what a woman once said of him--a woman who had loved him greatly. "suddenly," she said, "the interest goes out of him. he forgets you. he doesn't care a rap for you--under his very nose . . . . ." yet the interest was not always out of him, and when he was holding his attention to a thing wallace could contrive to be an extremely successful man. his career, indeed, is set with successes. he left me behind him long ago; he soared up over my head, and cut a figure in the world that i couldn't cut--anyhow. he was still a year short of forty, and they say now that he would have been in office and very probably in the new cabinet if he had lived. at school he always beat me without effort--as it were by nature. we were at school together at saint athelstan's college in west kensington for almost all our school time. he came into the school as my co-equal, but he left far above me, in a blaze of scholarships and brilliant performance. yet i think i made a fair average running. and it was at school i heard first of the door in the wall--that i was to hear of a second time only a month before his death. to him at least the door in the wall was a real door leading through a real wall to immortal realities. of that i am now quite assured. and it came into his life early, when he was a little fellow between five and six. i remember how, as he sat making his confession to me with a slow gravity, he reasoned and reckoned the date of it. "there was," he said, "a crimson virginia creeper in it--all one bright uniform crimson in a clear amber sunshine against a white wall. that came into the impression somehow, though i don't clearly remember how, and there were horse-chestnut leaves upon the clean pavement outside the green door. they were blotched yellow and green, you know, not brown nor dirty, so that they must have been new fallen. i take it that means october. i look out for horse-chestnut leaves every year, and i ought to know. "if i'm right in that, i was about five years and four months old." he was, he said, rather a precocious little boy--he learned to talk at an abnormally early age, and he was so sane and "old-fashioned," as people say, that he was permitted an amount of initiative that most children scarcely attain by seven or eight. his mother died when he was born, and he was under the less vigilant and authoritative care of a nursery governess. his father was a stern, preoccupied lawyer, who gave him little attention, and expected great things of him. for all his brightness he found life a little grey and dull i think. and one day he wandered. he could not recall the particular neglect that enabled him to get away, nor the course he took among the west kensington roads. all that had faded among the incurable blurs of memory. but the white wall and the green door stood out quite distinctly. as his memory of that remote childish experience ran, he did at the very first sight of that door experience a peculiar emotion, an attraction, a desire to get to the door and open it and walk in. and at the same time he had the clearest conviction that either it was unwise or it was wrong of him--he could not tell which--to yield to this attraction. he insisted upon it as a curious thing that he knew from the very beginning--unless memory has played him the queerest trick--that the door was unfastened, and that he could go in as he chose. i seem to see the figure of that little boy, drawn and repelled. and it was very clear in his mind, too, though why it should be so was never explained, that his father would be very angry if he went through that door. wallace described all these moments of hesitation to me with the utmost particularity. he went right past the door, and then, with his hands in his pockets, and making an infantile attempt to whistle, strolled right along beyond the end of the wall. there he recalls a number of mean, dirty shops, and particularly that of a plumber and decorator, with a dusty disorder of earthenware pipes, sheet lead ball taps, pattern books of wall paper, and tins of enamel. he stood pretending to examine these things, and coveting, passionately desiring the green door. then, he said, he had a gust of emotion. he made a run for it, lest hesitation should grip him again, he went plump with outstretched hand through the green door and let it slam behind him. and so, in a trice, he came into the garden that has haunted all his life. it was very difficult for wallace to give me his full sense of that garden into which he came. there was something in the very air of it that exhilarated, that gave one a sense of lightness and good happening and well being; there was something in the sight of it that made all its colour clean and perfect and subtly luminous. in the instant of coming into it one was exquisitely glad--as only in rare moments and when one is young and joyful one can be glad in this world. and everything was beautiful there . . . . . wallace mused before he went on telling me. "you see," he said, with the doubtful inflection of a man who pauses at incredible things, "there were two great panthers there . . . yes, spotted panthers. and i was not afraid. there was a long wide path with marble-edged flower borders on either side, and these two huge velvety beasts were playing there with a ball. one looked up and came towards me, a little curious as it seemed. it came right up to me, rubbed its soft round ear very gently against the small hand i held out and purred. it was, i tell you, an enchanted garden. i know. and the size? oh! it stretched far and wide, this way and that. i believe there were hills far away. heaven knows where west kensington had suddenly got to. and somehow it was just like coming home. "you know, in the very moment the door swung to behind me, i forgot the road with its fallen chestnut leaves, its cabs and tradesmen's carts, i forgot the sort of gravitational pull back to the discipline and obedience of home, i forgot all hesitations and fear, forgot discretion, forgot all the intimate realities of this life. i became in a moment a very glad and wonder-happy little boy--in another world. it was a world with a different quality, a warmer, more penetrating and mellower light, with a faint clear gladness in its air, and wisps of sun-touched cloud in the blueness of its sky. and before me ran this long wide path, invitingly, with weedless beds on either side, rich with untended flowers, and these two great panthers. i put my little hands fearlessly on their soft fur, and caressed their round ears and the sensitive corners under their ears, and played with them, and it was as though they welcomed me home. there was a keen sense of home-coming in my mind, and when presently a tall, fair girl appeared in the pathway and came to meet me, smiling, and said 'well?' to me, and lifted me, and kissed me, and put me down, and led me by the hand, there was no amazement, but only an impression of delightful rightness, of being reminded of happy things that had in some strange way been overlooked. there were broad steps, i remember, that came into view between spikes of delphinium, and up these we went to a great avenue between very old and shady dark trees. all down this avenue, you know, between the red chapped stems, were marble seats of honour and statuary, and very tame and friendly white doves . . . . . "and along this avenue my girl-friend led me, looking down--i recall the pleasant lines, the finely-modelled chin of her sweet kind face--asking me questions in a soft, agreeable voice, and telling me things, pleasant things i know, though what they were i was never able to recall . . . and presently a little capuchin monkey, very clean, with a fur of ruddy brown and kindly hazel eyes, came down a tree to us and ran beside me, looking up at me and grinning, and presently leapt to my shoulder. so we went on our way in great happiness . . . ." he paused. "go on," i said. "i remember little things. we passed an old man musing among laurels, i remember, and a place gay with paroquets, and came through a broad shaded colonnade to a spacious cool palace, full of pleasant fountains, full of beautiful things, full of the quality and promise of heart's desire. and there were many things and many people, some that still seem to stand out clearly and some that are a little vague, but all these people were beautiful and kind. in some way--i don't know how--it was conveyed to me that they all were kind to me, glad to have me there, and filling me with gladness by their gestures, by the touch of their hands, by the welcome and love in their eyes. yes--" he mused for awhile. "playmates i found there. that was very much to me, because i was a lonely little boy. they played delightful games in a grass-covered court where there was a sun-dial set about with flowers. and as one played one loved . . . . "but--it's odd--there's a gap in my memory. i don't remember the games we played. i never remembered. afterwards, as a child, i spent long hours trying, even with tears, to recall the form of that happiness. i wanted to play it all over again--in my nursery--by myself. no! all i remember is the happiness and two dear playfellows who were most with me . . . . then presently came a sombre dark woman, with a grave, pale face and dreamy eyes, a sombre woman wearing a soft long robe of pale purple, who carried a book and beckoned and took me aside with her into a gallery above a hall--though my playmates were loth to have me go, and ceased their game and stood watching as i was carried away. 'come back to us!' they cried. 'come back to us soon!' i looked up at her face, but she heeded them not at all. her face was very gentle and grave. she took me to a seat in the gallery, and i stood beside her, ready to look at her book as she opened it upon her knee. the pages fell open. she pointed, and i looked, marvelling, for in the living pages of that book i saw myself; it was a story about myself, and in it were all the things that had happened to me since ever i was born . . . . "it was wonderful to me, because the pages of that book were not pictures, you understand, but realities." wallace paused gravely--looked at me doubtfully. "go on," i said. "i understand." "they were realities--yes, they must have been; people moved and things came and went in them; my dear mother, whom i had near forgotten; then my father, stern and upright, the servants, the nursery, all the familiar things of home. then the front door and the busy streets, with traffic to and fro: i looked and marvelled, and looked half doubtfully again into the woman's face and turned the pages over, skipping this and that, to see more of this book, and more, and so at last i came to myself hovering and hesitating outside the green door in the long white wall, and felt again the conflict and the fear. "'and next?' i cried, and would have turned on, but the cool hand of the grave woman delayed me. "'next?' i insisted, and struggled gently with her hand, pulling up her fingers with all my childish strength, and as she yielded and the page came over she bent down upon me like a shadow and kissed my brow. "but the page did not show the enchanted garden, nor the panthers, nor the girl who had led me by the hand, nor the playfellows who had been so loth to let me go. it showed a long grey street in west kensington, on that chill hour of afternoon before the lamps are lit, and i was there, a wretched little figure, weeping aloud, for all that i could do to restrain myself, and i was weeping because i could not return to my dear play-fellows who had called after me, 'come back to us! come back to us soon!' i was there. this was no page in a book, but harsh reality; that enchanted place and the restraining hand of the grave mother at whose knee i stood had gone--whither have they gone?" he halted again, and remained for a time, staring into the fire. "oh! the wretchedness of that return!" he murmured. "well?" i said after a minute or so. "poor little wretch i was--brought back to this grey world again! as i realised the fulness of what had happened to me, i gave way to quite ungovernable grief. and the shame and humiliation of that public weeping and my disgraceful homecoming remain with me still. i see again the benevolent-looking old gentleman in gold spectacles who stopped and spoke to me--prodding me first with his umbrella. 'poor little chap,' said he; 'and are you lost then?'--and me a london boy of five and more! and he must needs bring in a kindly young policeman and make a crowd of me, and so march me home. sobbing, conspicuous and frightened, i came from the enchanted garden to the steps of my father's house. "that is as well as i can remember my vision of that garden--the garden that haunts me still. of course, i can convey nothing of that indescribable quality of translucent unreality, that difference from the common things of experience that hung about it all; but that--that is what happened. if it was a dream, i am sure it was a day-time and altogether extraordinary dream . . . . . . h'm!--naturally there followed a terrible questioning, by my aunt, my father, the nurse, the governess--everyone . . . . . . "i tried to tell them, and my father gave me my first thrashing for telling lies. when afterwards i tried to tell my aunt, she punished me again for my wicked persistence. then, as i said, everyone was forbidden to listen to me, to hear a word about it. even my fairy tale books were taken away from me for a time--because i was 'too imaginative.' eh? yes, they did that! my father belonged to the old school . . . . . and my story was driven back upon myself. i whispered it to my pillow--my pillow that was often damp and salt to my whispering lips with childish tears. and i added always to my official and less fervent prayers this one heartfelt request: 'please god i may dream of the garden. oh! take me back to my garden! take me back to my garden!' "i dreamt often of the garden. i may have added to it, i may have changed it; i do not know . . . . . all this you understand is an attempt to reconstruct from fragmentary memories a very early experience. between that and the other consecutive memories of my boyhood there is a gulf. a time came when it seemed impossible i should ever speak of that wonder glimpse again." i asked an obvious question. "no," he said. "i don't remember that i ever attempted to find my way back to the garden in those early years. this seems odd to me now, but i think that very probably a closer watch was kept on my movements after this misadventure to prevent my going astray. no, it wasn't until you knew me that i tried for the garden again. and i believe there was a period--incredible as it seems now--when i forgot the garden altogether--when i was about eight or nine it may have been. do you remember me as a kid at saint athelstan's?" "rather!" "i didn't show any signs did i in those days of having a secret dream?" ii he looked up with a sudden smile. "did you ever play north-west passage with me? . . . . . no, of course you didn't come my way!" "it was the sort of game," he went on, "that every imaginative child plays all day. the idea was the discovery of a north-west passage to school. the way to school was plain enough; the game consisted in finding some way that wasn't plain, starting off ten minutes early in some almost hopeless direction, and working one's way round through unaccustomed streets to my goal. and one day i got entangled among some rather low-class streets on the other side of campden hill, and i began to think that for once the game would be against me and that i should get to school late. i tried rather desperately a street that seemed a _cul de sac_, and found a passage at the end. i hurried through that with renewed hope. 'i shall do it yet,' i said, and passed a row of frowsy little shops that were inexplicably familiar to me, and behold! there was my long white wall and the green door that led to the enchanted garden! "the thing whacked upon me suddenly. then, after all, that garden, that wonderful garden, wasn't a dream!" . . . . he paused. "i suppose my second experience with the green door marks the world of difference there is between the busy life of a schoolboy and the infinite leisure of a child. anyhow, this second time i didn't for a moment think of going in straight away. you see . . . for one thing my mind was full of the idea of getting to school in time--set on not breaking my record for punctuality. i must surely have felt _some_ little desire at least to try the door--yes, i must have felt that . . . . . but i seem to remember the attraction of the door mainly as another obstacle to my overmastering determination to get to school. i was immediately interested by this discovery i had made, of course--i went on with my mind full of it--but i went on. it didn't check me. i ran past tugging out my watch, found i had ten minutes still to spare, and then i was going downhill into familiar surroundings. i got to school, breathless, it is true, and wet with perspiration, but in time. i can remember hanging up my coat and hat . . . went right by it and left it behind me. odd, eh?" he looked at me thoughtfully. "of course, i didn't know then that it wouldn't always be there. school boys have limited imaginations. i suppose i thought it was an awfully jolly thing to have it there, to know my way back to it, but there was the school tugging at me. i expect i was a good deal distraught and inattentive that morning, recalling what i could of the beautiful strange people i should presently see again. oddly enough i had no doubt in my mind that they would be glad to see me . . . yes, i must have thought of the garden that morning just as a jolly sort of place to which one might resort in the interludes of a strenuous scholastic career. "i didn't go that day at all. the next day was a half holiday, and that may have weighed with me. perhaps, too, my state of inattention brought down impositions upon me and docked the margin of time necessary for the detour. i don't know. what i do know is that in the meantime the enchanted garden was so much upon my mind that i could not keep it to myself. "i told--what was his name?--a ferrety-looking youngster we used to call squiff." "young hopkins," said i. "hopkins it was. i did not like telling him, i had a feeling that in some way it was against the rules to tell him, but i did. he was walking part of the way home with me; he was talkative, and if we had not talked about the enchanted garden we should have talked of something else, and it was intolerable to me to think about any other subject. so i blabbed. "well, he told my secret. the next day in the play interval i found myself surrounded by half a dozen bigger boys, half teasing and wholly curious to hear more of the enchanted garden. there was that big fawcett--you remember him?--and carnaby and morley reynolds. you weren't there by any chance? no, i think i should have remembered if you were . . . . . "a boy is a creature of odd feelings. i was, i really believe, in spite of my secret self-disgust, a little flattered to have the attention of these big fellows. i remember particularly a moment of pleasure caused by the praise of crawshaw--you remember crawshaw major, the son of crawshaw the composer?--who said it was the best lie he had ever heard. but at the same time there was a really painful undertow of shame at telling what i felt was indeed a sacred secret. that beast fawcett made a joke about the girl in green--." wallace's voice sank with the keen memory of that shame. "i pretended not to hear," he said. "well, then carnaby suddenly called me a young liar and disputed with me when i said the thing was true. i said i knew where to find the green door, could lead them all there in ten minutes. carnaby became outrageously virtuous, and said i'd have to--and bear out my words or suffer. did you ever have carnaby twist your arm? then perhaps you'll understand how it went with me. i swore my story was true. there was nobody in the school then to save a chap from carnaby though crawshaw put in a word or so. carnaby had got his game. i grew excited and red-eared, and a little frightened, i behaved altogether like a silly little chap, and the outcome of it all was that instead of starting alone for my enchanted garden, i led the way presently--cheeks flushed, ears hot, eyes smarting, and my soul one burning misery and shame--for a party of six mocking, curious and threatening school-fellows. "we never found the white wall and the green door . . ." "you mean?--" "i mean i couldn't find it. i would have found it if i could. "and afterwards when i could go alone i couldn't find it. i never found it. i seem now to have been always looking for it through my school-boy days, but i've never come upon it again." "did the fellows--make it disagreeable?" "beastly . . . . . carnaby held a council over me for wanton lying. i remember how i sneaked home and upstairs to hide the marks of my blubbering. but when i cried myself to sleep at last it wasn't for carnaby, but for the garden, for the beautiful afternoon i had hoped for, for the sweet friendly women and the waiting playfellows and the game i had hoped to learn again, that beautiful forgotten game . . . . . "i believed firmly that if i had not told-- . . . . . i had bad times after that--crying at night and wool-gathering by day. for two terms i slackened and had bad reports. do you remember? of course you would! it was _you_--your beating me in mathematics that brought me back to the grind again." iii for a time my friend stared silently into the red heart of the fire. then he said: "i never saw it again until i was seventeen. "it leapt upon me for the third time--as i was driving to paddington on my way to oxford and a scholarship. i had just one momentary glimpse. i was leaning over the apron of my hansom smoking a cigarette, and no doubt thinking myself no end of a man of the world, and suddenly there was the door, the wall, the dear sense of unforgettable and still attainable things. "we clattered by--i too taken by surprise to stop my cab until we were well past and round a corner. then i had a queer moment, a double and divergent movement of my will: i tapped the little door in the roof of the cab, and brought my arm down to pull out my watch. 'yes, sir!' said the cabman, smartly. 'er--well--it's nothing,' i cried. '_my_ mistake! we haven't much time! go on!' and he went on . . . "i got my scholarship. and the night after i was told of that i sat over my fire in my little upper room, my study, in my father's house, with his praise--his rare praise--and his sound counsels ringing in my ears, and i smoked my favourite pipe--the formidable bulldog of adolescence--and thought of that door in the long white wall. 'if i had stopped,' i thought, 'i should have missed my scholarship, i should have missed oxford--muddled all the fine career before me! i begin to see things better!' i fell musing deeply, but i did not doubt then this career of mine was a thing that merited sacrifice. "those dear friends and that clear atmosphere seemed very sweet to me, very fine, but remote. my grip was fixing now upon the world. i saw another door opening--the door of my career." he stared again into the fire. its red lights picked out a stubborn strength in his face for just one flickering moment, and then it vanished again. "well", he said and sighed, "i have served that career. i have done--much work, much hard work. but i have dreamt of the enchanted garden a thousand dreams, and seen its door, or at least glimpsed its door, four times since then. yes--four times. for a while this world was so bright and interesting, seemed so full of meaning and opportunity that the half-effaced charm of the garden was by comparison gentle and remote. who wants to pat panthers on the way to dinner with pretty women and distinguished men? i came down to london from oxford, a man of bold promise that i have done something to redeem. something--and yet there have been disappointments . . . . . "twice i have been in love--i will not dwell on that--but once, as i went to someone who, i know, doubted whether i dared to come, i took a short cut at a venture through an unfrequented road near earl's court, and so happened on a white wall and a familiar green door. 'odd!' said i to myself, 'but i thought this place was on campden hill. it's the place i never could find somehow--like counting stonehenge--the place of that queer day dream of mine.' and i went by it intent upon my purpose. it had no appeal to me that afternoon. "i had just a moment's impulse to try the door, three steps aside were needed at the most--though i was sure enough in my heart that it would open to me--and then i thought that doing so might delay me on the way to that appointment in which i thought my honour was involved. afterwards i was sorry for my punctuality--i might at least have peeped in i thought, and waved a hand to those panthers, but i knew enough by this time not to seek again belatedly that which is not found by seeking. yes, that time made me very sorry . . . . . "years of hard work after that and never a sight of the door. it's only recently it has come back to me. with it there has come a sense as though some thin tarnish had spread itself over my world. i began to think of it as a sorrowful and bitter thing that i should never see that door again. perhaps i was suffering a little from overwork--perhaps it was what i've heard spoken of as the feeling of forty. i don't know. but certainly the keen brightness that makes effort easy has gone out of things recently, and that just at a time with all these new political developments--when i ought to be working. odd, isn't it? but i do begin to find life toilsome, its rewards, as i come near them, cheap. i began a little while ago to want the garden quite badly. yes--and i've seen it three times." "the garden?" "no--the door! and i haven't gone in!" he leaned over the table to me, with an enormous sorrow in his voice as he spoke. "thrice i have had my chance--_thrice!_ if ever that door offers itself to me again, i swore, i will go in out of this dust and heat, out of this dry glitter of vanity, out of these toilsome futilities. i will go and never return. this time i will stay . . . . . i swore it and when the time came--_i didn't go_. "three times in one year have i passed that door and failed to enter. three times in the last year. "the first time was on the night of the snatch division on the tenants' redemption bill, on which the government was saved by a majority of three. you remember? no one on our side--perhaps very few on the opposite side--expected the end that night. then the debate collapsed like eggshells. i and hotchkiss were dining with his cousin at brentford, we were both unpaired, and we were called up by telephone, and set off at once in his cousin's motor. we got in barely in time, and on the way we passed my wall and door--livid in the moonlight, blotched with hot yellow as the glare of our lamps lit it, but unmistakable. 'my god!' cried i. 'what?' said hotchkiss. 'nothing!' i answered, and the moment passed. "'i've made a great sacrifice,' i told the whip as i got in. 'they all have,' he said, and hurried by. "i do not see how i could have done otherwise then. and the next occasion was as i rushed to my father's bedside to bid that stern old man farewell. then, too, the claims of life were imperative. but the third time was different; it happened a week ago. it fills me with hot remorse to recall it. i was with gurker and ralphs--it's no secret now you know that i've had my talk with gurker. we had been dining at frobisher's, and the talk had become intimate between us. the question of my place in the reconstructed ministry lay always just over the boundary of the discussion. yes--yes. that's all settled. it needn't be talked about yet, but there's no reason to keep a secret from you . . . . . yes--thanks! thanks! but let me tell you my story. "then, on that night things were very much in the air. my position was a very delicate one. i was keenly anxious to get some definite word from gurker, but was hampered by ralphs' presence. i was using the best power of my brain to keep that light and careless talk not too obviously directed to the point that concerns me. i had to. ralphs' behaviour since has more than justified my caution . . . . . ralphs, i knew, would leave us beyond the kensington high street, and then i could surprise gurker by a sudden frankness. one has sometimes to resort to these little devices. . . . . and then it was that in the margin of my field of vision i became aware once more of the white wall, the green door before us down the road. "we passed it talking. i passed it. i can still see the shadow of gurker's marked profile, his opera hat tilted forward over his prominent nose, the many folds of his neck wrap going before my shadow and ralphs' as we sauntered past. "i passed within twenty inches of the door. 'if i say good-night to them, and go in,' i asked myself, 'what will happen?' and i was all a-tingle for that word with gurker. "i could not answer that question in the tangle of my other problems. 'they will think me mad,' i thought. 'and suppose i vanish now!--amazing disappearance of a prominent politician!' that weighed with me. a thousand inconceivably petty worldlinesses weighed with me in that crisis." then he turned on me with a sorrowful smile, and, speaking slowly; "here i am!" he said. "here i am!" he repeated, "and my chance has gone from me. three times in one year the door has been offered me--the door that goes into peace, into delight, into a beauty beyond dreaming, a kindness no man on earth can know. and i have rejected it, redmond, and it has gone--" "how do you know?" "i know. i know. i am left now to work it out, to stick to the tasks that held me so strongly when my moments came. you say, i have success--this vulgar, tawdry, irksome, envied thing. i have it." he had a walnut in his big hand. "if that was my success," he said, and crushed it, and held it out for me to see. "let me tell you something, redmond. this loss is destroying me. for two months, for ten weeks nearly now, i have done no work at all, except the most necessary and urgent duties. my soul is full of inappeasable regrets. at nights--when it is less likely i shall be recognised--i go out. i wander. yes. i wonder what people would think of that if they knew. a cabinet minister, the responsible head of that most vital of all departments, wandering alone--grieving--sometimes near audibly lamenting--for a door, for a garden!" iv i can see now his rather pallid face, and the unfamiliar sombre fire that had come into his eyes. i see him very vividly to-night. i sit recalling his words, his tones, and last evening's _westminster gazette_ still lies on my sofa, containing the notice of his death. at lunch to-day the club was busy with him and the strange riddle of his fate. they found his body very early yesterday morning in a deep excavation near east kensington station. it is one of two shafts that have been made in connection with an extension of the railway southward. it is protected from the intrusion of the public by a hoarding upon the high road, in which a small doorway has been cut for the convenience of some of the workmen who live in that direction. the doorway was left unfastened through a misunderstanding between two gangers, and through it he made his way . . . . . my mind is darkened with questions and riddles. it would seem he walked all the way from the house that night--he has frequently walked home during the past session--and so it is i figure his dark form coming along the late and empty streets, wrapped up, intent. and then did the pale electric lights near the station cheat the rough planking into a semblance of white? did that fatal unfastened door awaken some memory? was there, after all, ever any green door in the wall at all? i do not know. i have told his story as he told it to me. there are times when i believe that wallace was no more than the victim of the coincidence between a rare but not unprecedented type of hallucination and a careless trap, but that indeed is not my profoundest belief. you may think me superstitious if you will, and foolish; but, indeed, i am more than half convinced that he had in truth, an abnormal gift, and a sense, something--i know not what--that in the guise of wall and door offered him an outlet, a secret and peculiar passage of escape into another and altogether more beautiful world. at any rate, you will say, it betrayed him in the end. but did it betray him? there you touch the inmost mystery of these dreamers, these men of vision and the imagination. we see our world fair and common, the hoarding and the pit. by our daylight standard he walked out of security into darkness, danger and death. but did he see like that? the star it was on the first day of the new year that the announcement was made, almost simultaneously from three observatories, that the motion of the planet neptune, the outermost of all the planets that wheel about the sun, had become very erratic. ogilvy had already called attention to a suspected retardation in its velocity in december. such a piece of news was scarcely calculated to interest a world the greater portion of whose inhabitants were unaware of the existence of the planet neptune, nor outside the astronomical profession did the subsequent discovery of a faint remote speck of light in the region of the perturbed planet cause any very great excitement. scientific people, however, found the intelligence remarkable enough, even before it became known that the new body was rapidly growing larger and brighter, that its motion was quite different from the orderly progress of the planets, and that the deflection of neptune and its satellite was becoming now of an unprecedented kind. few people without a training in science can realise the huge isolation of the solar system. the sun with its specks of planets, its dust of planetoids, and its impalpable comets, swims in a vacant immensity that almost defeats the imagination. beyond the orbit of neptune there is space, vacant so far as human observation has penetrated, without warmth or light or sound, blank emptiness, for twenty million times a million miles. that is the smallest estimate of the distance to be traversed before the very nearest of the stars is attained. and, saving a few comets more unsubstantial than the thinnest flame, no matter had ever to human knowledge crossed this gulf of space, until early in the twentieth century this strange wanderer appeared. a vast mass of matter it was, bulky, heavy, rushing without warning out of the black mystery of the sky into the radiance of the sun. by the second day it was clearly visible to any decent instrument, as a speck with a barely sensible diameter, in the constellation leo near regulus. in a little while an opera glass could attain it. on the third day of the new year the newspaper readers of two hemispheres were made aware for the first time of the real importance of this unusual apparition in the heavens. "a planetary collision," one london paper headed the news, and proclaimed duchaine's opinion that this strange new planet would probably collide with neptune. the leader writers enlarged upon the topic; so that in most of the capitals of the world, on january rd, there was an expectation, however vague of some imminent phenomenon in the sky; and as the night followed the sunset round the globe, thousands of men turned their eyes skyward to see--the old familiar stars just as they had always been. until it was dawn in london and pollux setting and the stars overhead grown pale. the winter's dawn it was, a sickly filtering accumulation of daylight, and the light of gas and candles shone yellow in the windows to show where people were astir. but the yawning policeman saw the thing, the busy crowds in the markets stopped agape, workmen going to their work betimes, milkmen, the drivers of news-carts, dissipation going home jaded and pale, homeless wanderers, sentinels on their beats, and in the country, labourers trudging afield, poachers slinking home, all over the dusky quickening country it could be seen--and out at sea by seamen watching for the day--a great white star, come suddenly into the westward sky! brighter it was than any star in our skies; brighter than the evening star at its brightest. it still glowed out white and large, no mere twinkling spot of light, but a small round clear shining disc, an hour after the day had come. and where science has not reached, men stared and feared, telling one another of the wars and pestilences that are foreshadowed by these fiery signs in the heavens. sturdy boers, dusky hottentots, gold coast negroes, frenchmen, spaniards, portuguese, stood in the warmth of the sunrise watching the setting of this strange new star. and in a hundred observatories there had been suppressed excitement, rising almost to shouting pitch, as the two remote bodies had rushed together; and a hurrying to and fro, to gather photographic apparatus and spectroscope, and this appliance and that, to record this novel astonishing sight, the destruction of a world. for it was a world, a sister planet of our earth, far greater than our earth indeed, that had so suddenly flashed into flaming death. neptune it was, had been struck, fairly and squarely, by the strange planet from outer space and the heat of the concussion had incontinently turned two solid globes into one vast mass of incandescence. round the world that day, two hours before the dawn, went the pallid great white star, fading only as it sank westward and the sun mounted above it. everywhere men marvelled at it, but of all those who saw it none could have marvelled more than those sailors, habitual watchers of the stars, who far away at sea had heard nothing of its advent and saw it now rise like a pigmy moon and climb zenithward and hang overhead and sink westward with the passing of the night. and when next it rose over europe everywhere were crowds of watchers on hilly slopes, on house-roofs, in open spaces, staring eastward for the rising of the great new star. it rose with a white glow in front of it, like the glare of a white fire, and those who had seen it come into existence the night before cried out at the sight of it. "it is larger," they cried. "it is brighter!" and, indeed the moon a quarter full and sinking in the west was in its apparent size beyond comparison, but scarcely in all its breadth had it as much brightness now as the little circle of the strange new star. "it is brighter!" cried the people clustering in the streets. but in the dim observatories the watchers held their breath and peered at one another. "_it is nearer_," they said. "_nearer!_" and voice after voice repeated, "it is nearer," and the clicking telegraph took that up, and it trembled along telephone wires, and in a thousand cities grimy compositors fingered the type. "it is nearer." men writing in offices, struck with a strange realisation, flung down their pens, men talking in a thousand places suddenly came upon a grotesque possibility in those words, "it is nearer." it hurried along wakening streets, it was shouted down the frost-stilled ways of quiet villages; men who had read these things from the throbbing tape stood in yellow-lit doorways shouting the news to the passersby. "it is nearer." pretty women, flushed and glittering, heard the news told jestingly between the dances, and feigned an intelligent interest they did not feel. "nearer! indeed. how curious! how very, very clever people must be to find out things like that!" lonely tramps faring through the wintry night murmured those words to comfort themselves--looking skyward. "it has need to be nearer, for the night's as cold as charity. don't seem much warmth from it if it _is_ nearer, all the same." "what is a new star to me?" cried the weeping woman kneeling beside her dead. the schoolboy, rising early for his examination work, puzzled it out for himself--with the great white star shining broad and bright through the frost-flowers of his window. "centrifugal, centripetal," he said, with his chin on his fist. "stop a planet in its flight, rob it of its centrifugal force, what then? centripetal has it, and down it falls into the sun! and this--! "do _we_ come in the way? i wonder--" the light of that day went the way of its brethren, and with the later watches of the frosty darkness rose the strange star again. and it was now so bright that the waxing moon seemed but a pale yellow ghost of itself, hanging huge in the sunset. in a south african city a great man had married, and the streets were alight to welcome his return with his bride. "even the skies have illuminated," said the flatterer. under capricorn, two negro lovers, daring the wild beasts and evil spirits, for love of one another, crouched together in a cane brake where the fire-flies hovered. "that is our star," they whispered, and felt strangely comforted by the sweet brilliance of its light. the master mathematician sat in his private room and pushed the papers from him. his calculations were already finished. in a small white phial there still remained a little of the drug that had kept him awake and active for four long nights. each day, serene, explicit, patient as ever, he had given his lecture to his students, and then had come back at once to this momentous calculation. his face was grave, a little drawn and hectic from his drugged activity. for some time he seemed lost in thought. then he went to the window, and the blind went up with a click. half way up the sky, over the clustering roofs, chimneys and steeples of the city, hung the star. he looked at it as one might look into the eyes of a brave enemy. "you may kill me," he said after a silence. "but i can hold you--and all the universe for that matter--in the grip of this little brain. i would not change. even now." he looked at the little phial. "there will be no need of sleep again," he said. the next day at noon--punctual to the minute, he entered his lecture theatre, put his hat on the end of the table as his habit was, and carefully selected a large piece of chalk. it was a joke among his students that he could not lecture without that piece of chalk to fumble in his fingers, and once he had been stricken to impotence by their hiding his supply. he came and looked under his grey eyebrows at the rising tiers of young fresh faces, and spoke with his accustomed studied commonness of phrasing. "circumstances have arisen--circumstances beyond my control," he said and paused, "which will debar me from completing the course i had designed. it would seem, gentlemen, if i may put the thing clearly and briefly, that--man has lived in vain." the students glanced at one another. had they heard aright? mad? raised eyebrows and grinning lips there were, but one or two faces remained intent upon his calm grey-fringed face. "it will be interesting," he was saying, "to devote this morning to an exposition, so far as i can make it clear to you, of the calculations that have led me to this conclusion. let us assume--" he turned towards the blackboard, meditating a diagram in the way that was usual to him. "what was that about 'lived in vain?'" whispered one student to another. "listen," said the other, nodding towards the lecturer. and presently they began to understand. that night the star rose later, for its proper eastward motion had carried it some way across leo towards virgo, and its brightness was so great that the sky became a luminous blue as it rose, and every star was hidden in its turn, save only jupiter near the zenith, capella, aldebaran, sirius and the pointers of the bear. it was very white and beautiful. in many parts of the world that night a pallid halo encircled it about. it was perceptibly larger; in the clear refractive sky of the tropics it seemed as if it were nearly a quarter the size of the moon. the frost was still on the ground in england, but the world was as brightly lit as if it were midsummer moonlight. one could see to read quite ordinary print by that cold clear light, and in the cities the lamps burnt yellow and wan. and everywhere the world was awake that night, and throughout christendom a sombre murmur hung in the keen air over the country side like the belling of bees in the heather, and this murmurous tumult grew to a clangour in the cities. it was the tolling of the bells in a million belfry towers and steeples, summoning the people to sleep no more, to sin no more, but to gather in their churches and pray. and overhead, growing larger and brighter as the earth rolled on its way and the night passed, rose the dazzling star. and the streets and houses were alight in all the cities, the shipyards glared, and whatever roads led to high country were lit and crowded all night long. and in all the seas about the civilised lands, ships with throbbing engines, and ships with bellying sails, crowded with men and living creatures, were standing out to ocean and the north. for already the warning of the master mathematician had been telegraphed all over the world, and translated into a hundred tongues. the new planet and neptune, locked in a fiery embrace, were whirling headlong, ever faster and faster towards the sun. already every second this blazing mass flew a hundred miles, and every second its terrific velocity increased. as it flew now, indeed, it must pass a hundred million of miles wide of the earth and scarcely affect it. but near its destined path, as yet only slightly perturbed, spun the mighty planet jupiter and his moons sweeping splendid round the sun. every moment now the attraction between the fiery star and the greatest of the planets grew stronger. and the result of that attraction? inevitably jupiter would be deflected from its orbit into an elliptical path, and the burning star, swung by his attraction wide of its sunward rush, would "describe a curved path" and perhaps collide with, and certainly pass very close to, our earth. "earthquakes, volcanic outbreaks, cyclones, sea waves, floods, and a steady rise in temperature to i know not what limit"--so prophesied the master mathematician. and overhead, to carry out his words, lonely and cold and livid, blazed the star of the coming doom. to many who stared at it that night until their eyes ached, it seemed that it was visibly approaching. and that night, too, the weather changed, and the frost that had gripped all central europe and france and england softened towards a thaw. but you must not imagine because i have spoken of people praying through the night and people going aboard ships and people fleeing toward mountainous country that the whole world was already in a terror because of the star. as a matter of fact, use and wont still ruled the world, and save for the talk of idle moments and the splendour of the night, nine human beings out of ten were still busy at their common occupations. in all the cities the shops, save one here and there, opened and closed at their proper hours, the doctor and the undertaker plied their trades, the workers gathered in the factories, soldiers drilled, scholars studied, lovers sought one another, thieves lurked and fled, politicians planned their schemes. the presses of the newspapers roared through the night, and many a priest of this church and that would not open his holy building to further what he considered a foolish panic. the newspapers insisted on the lesson of the year --for then, too, people had anticipated the end. the star was no star--mere gas--a comet; and were it a star it could not possibly strike the earth. there was no precedent for such a thing. common sense was sturdy everywhere, scornful, jesting, a little inclined to persecute the obdurate fearful. that night, at seven-fifteen by greenwich time, the star would be at its nearest to jupiter. then the world would see the turn things would take. the master mathematician's grim warnings were treated by many as so much mere elaborate self-advertisement. common sense at last, a little heated by argument, signified its unalterable convictions by going to bed. so, too, barbarism and savagery, already tired of the novelty, went about their nightly business, and save for a howling dog here and there, the beast world left the star unheeded. and yet, when at last the watchers in the european states saw the star rise, an hour later it is true, but no larger than it had been the night before, there were still plenty awake to laugh at the master mathematician--to take the danger as if it had passed. but hereafter the laughter ceased. the star grew--it grew with a terrible steadiness hour after hour, a little larger each hour, a little nearer the midnight zenith, and brighter and brighter, until it had turned night into a second day. had it come straight to the earth instead of in a curved path, had it lost no velocity to jupiter, it must have leapt the intervening gulf in a day, but as it was it took five days altogether to come by our planet. the next night it had become a third the size of the moon before it set to english eyes, and the thaw was assured. it rose over america near the size of the moon, but blinding white to look at, and _hot_; and a breath of hot wind blew now with its rising and gathering strength, and in virginia, and brazil, and down the st. lawrence valley, it shone intermittently through a driving reek of thunder-clouds, flickering violet lightning, and hail unprecedented. in manitoba was a thaw and devastating floods. and upon all the mountains of the earth the snow and ice began to melt that night, and all the rivers coming out of high country flowed thick and turbid, and soon--in their upper reaches--with swirling trees and the bodies of beasts and men. they rose steadily, steadily in the ghostly brilliance, and came trickling over their banks at last, behind the flying population of their valleys. and along the coast of argentina and up the south atlantic the tides were higher than had ever been in the memory of man, and the storms drove the waters in many cases scores of miles inland, drowning whole cities. and so great grew the heat during the night that the rising of the sun was like the coming of a shadow. the earthquakes began and grew until all down america from the arctic circle to cape horn, hillsides were sliding, fissures were opening, and houses and walls crumbling to destruction. the whole side of cotopaxi slipped out in one vast convulsion, and a tumult of lava poured out so high and broad and swift and liquid that in one day it reached the sea. so the star, with the wan moon in its wake, marched across the pacific, trailed the thunderstorms like the hem of a robe, and the growing tidal wave that toiled behind it, frothing and eager, poured over island and island and swept them clear of men. until that wave came at last--in a blinding light and with the breath of a furnace, swift and terrible it came--a wall of water, fifty feet high, roaring hungrily, upon the long coasts of asia, and swept inland across the plains of china. for a space the star, hotter now and larger and brighter than the sun in its strength, showed with pitiless brilliance the wide and populous country; towns and villages with their pagodas and trees, roads, wide cultivated fields, millions of sleepless people staring in helpless terror at the incandescent sky; and then, low and growing, came the murmur of the flood. and thus it was with millions of men that night--a flight nowhither, with limbs heavy with heat and breath fierce and scant, and the flood like a wall swift and white behind. and then death. china was lit glowing white, but over japan and java and all the islands of eastern asia the great star was a ball of dull red fire because of the steam and smoke and ashes the volcanoes were spouting forth to salute its coming. above was the lava, hot gases and ash, and below the seething floods, and the whole earth swayed and rumbled with the earthquake shocks. soon the immemorial snows of thibet and the himalaya were melting and pouring down by ten million deepening converging channels upon the plains of burmah and hindostan. the tangled summits of the indian jungles were aflame in a thousand places, and below the hurrying waters around the stems were dark objects that still struggled feebly and reflected the blood-red tongues of fire. and in a rudderless confusion a multitude of men and women fled down the broad river-ways to that one last hope of men--the open sea. larger grew the star, and larger, hotter, and brighter with a terrible swiftness now. the tropical ocean had lost its phosphorescence, and the whirling steam rose in ghostly wreaths from the black waves that plunged incessantly, speckled with storm-tossed ships. and then came a wonder. it seemed to those who in europe watched for the rising of the star that the world must have ceased its rotation. in a thousand open spaces of down and upland the people who had fled thither from the floods and the falling houses and sliding slopes of hill watched for that rising in vain. hour followed hour through a terrible suspense, and the star rose not. once again men set their eyes upon the old constellations they had counted lost to them forever. in england it was hot and clear overhead, though the ground quivered perpetually, but in the tropics, sirius and capella and aldebaran showed through a veil of steam. and when at last the great star rose near ten hours late, the sun rose close upon it, and in the centre of its white heart was a disc of black. over asia it was the star had begun to fall behind the movement of the sky, and then suddenly, as it hung over india, its light had been veiled. all the plain of india from the mouth of the indus to the mouths of the ganges was a shallow waste of shining water that night, out of which rose temples and palaces, mounds and hills, black with people. every minaret was a clustering mass of people, who fell one by one into the turbid waters, as heat and terror overcame them. the whole land seemed a-wailing and suddenly there swept a shadow across that furnace of despair, and a breath of cold wind, and a gathering of clouds, out of the cooling air. men looking up, near blinded, at the star, saw that a black disc was creeping across the light. it was the moon, coming between the star and the earth. and even as men cried to god at this respite, out of the east with a strange inexplicable swiftness sprang the sun. and then star, sun and moon rushed together across the heavens. so it was that presently, to the european watchers, star and sun rose close upon each other, drove headlong for a space and then slower, and at last came to rest, star and sun merged into one glare of flame at the zenith of the sky. the moon no longer eclipsed the star but was lost to sight in the brilliance of the sky. and though those who were still alive regarded it for the most part with that dull stupidity that hunger, fatigue, heat and despair engender, there were still men who could perceive the meaning of these signs. star and earth had been at their nearest, had swung about one another, and the star had passed. already it was receding, swifter and swifter, in the last stage of its headlong journey downward into the sun. and then the clouds gathered, blotting out the vision of the sky, the thunder and lightning wove a garment round the world; all over the earth was such a downpour of rain as men had never before seen, and where the volcanoes flared red against the cloud canopy there descended torrents of mud. everywhere the waters were pouring off the land, leaving mud-silted ruins, and the earth littered like a storm-worn beach with all that had floated, and the dead bodies of the men and brutes, its children. for days the water streamed off the land, sweeping away soil and trees and houses in the way, and piling huge dykes and scooping out titanic gullies over the country side. those were the days of darkness that followed the star and the heat. all through them, and for many weeks and months, the earthquakes continued. but the star had passed, and men, hunger-driven and gathering courage only slowly, might creep back to their ruined cities, buried granaries, and sodden fields. such few ships as had escaped the storms of that time came stunned and shattered and sounding their way cautiously through the new marks and shoals of once familiar ports. and as the storms subsided men perceived that everywhere the days were hotter than of yore, and the sun larger, and the moon, shrunk to a third of its former size, took now fourscore days between its new and new. but of the new brotherhood that grew presently among men, of the saving of laws and books and machines, of the strange change that had come over iceland and greenland and the shores of baffin's bay, so that the sailors coming there presently found them green and gracious, and could scarce believe their eyes, this story does not tell. nor of the movement of mankind now that the earth was hotter, northward and southward towards the poles of the earth. it concerns itself only with the coming and the passing of the star. the martian astronomers--for there are astronomers on mars, although they are very different beings from men--were naturally profoundly interested by these things. they saw them from their own standpoint of course. "considering the mass and temperature of the missile that was flung through our solar system into the sun," one wrote, "it is astonishing what a little damage the earth, which it missed so narrowly, has sustained. all the familiar continental markings and the masses of the seas remain intact, and indeed the only difference seems to be a shrinkage of the white discoloration (supposed to be frozen water) round either pole." which only shows how small the vastest of human catastrophes may seem, at a distance of a few million miles. a dream of armageddon the man with the white face entered the carriage at rugby. he moved slowly in spite of the urgency of his porter, and even while he was still on the platform i noted how ill he seemed. he dropped into the corner over against me with a sigh, made an incomplete attempt to arrange his travelling shawl, and became motionless, with his eyes staring vacantly. presently he was moved by a sense of my observation, looked up at me, and put out a spiritless hand for his newspaper. then he glanced again in my direction. i feigned to read. i feared i had unwittingly embarrassed him, and in a moment i was surprised to find him speaking. "i beg your pardon?" said i. "that book," he repeated, pointing a lean finger, "is about dreams." "obviously," i answered, for it was fortnum roscoe's dream states, and the title was on the cover. he hung silent for a space as if he sought words. "yes," he said at last, "but they tell you nothing." i did not catch his meaning for a second. "they don't know," he added. i looked a little more attentively at his face. "there are dreams," he said, "and dreams." that sort of proposition i never dispute. "i suppose--" he hesitated. "do you ever dream? i mean vividly." "i dream very little," i answered. "i doubt if i have three vivid dreams in a year." "ah!" he said, and seemed for a moment to collect his thoughts. "your dreams don't mix with your memories?" he asked abruptly. "you don't find yourself in doubt; did this happen or did it not?" "hardly ever. except just for a momentary hesitation now and then. i suppose few people do." "does he say--?" he indicated the book. "says it happens at times and gives the usual explanation about intensity of impression and the like to account for its not happening as a rule. i suppose you know something of these theories--" "very little--except that they are wrong." his emaciated hand played with the strap of the window for a time. i prepared to resume reading, and that seemed to precipitate his next remark. he leant forward almost as though he would touch me. "isn't there something called consecutive dreaming--that goes on night after night?" "i believe there is. there are cases given in most books on mental trouble." "mental trouble! yes. i daresay there are. it's the right place for them. but what i mean--" he looked at his bony knuckles. "is that sort of thing always dreaming? is it dreaming? or is it something else? mightn't it be something else?" i should have snubbed his persistent conversation but for the drawn anxiety of his face. i remember now the look of his faded eyes and the lids red stained--perhaps you know that look. "i'm not just arguing about a matter of opinion," he said. "the thing's killing me." "dreams?" "if you call them dreams. night after night. vivid!--so vivid . . . . this--" (he indicated the landscape that went streaming by the window) "seems unreal in comparison! i can scarcely remember who i am, what business i am on . . . ." he paused. "even now--" "the dream is always the same--do you mean?" i asked. "it's over." "you mean?" "i died." "died?" "smashed and killed, and now, so much of me as that dream was, is dead. dead forever. i dreamt i was another man, you know, living in a different part of the world and in a different time. i dreamt that night after night. night after night i woke into that other life. fresh scenes and fresh happenings--until i came upon the last--" "when you died?" "when i died." "and since then--" "no," he said. "thank god! that was the end of the dream . . ." it was clear i was in for this dream. and after all, i had an hour before me, the light was fading fast, and fortnum roscoe has a dreary way with him. "living in a different time," i said: "do you mean in some different age?" "yes." "past?" "no, to come--to come." "the year three thousand, for example?" "i don't know what year it was. i did when i was asleep, when i was dreaming, that is, but not now--not now that i am awake. there's a lot of things i have forgotten since i woke out of these dreams, though i knew them at the time when i was--i suppose it was dreaming. they called the year differently from our way of calling the year . . . what did they call it?" he put his hand to his forehead. "no," said he, "i forget." he sat smiling weakly. for a moment i feared he did not mean to tell me his dream. as a rule i hate people who tell their dreams, but this struck me differently. i proffered assistance even. "it began--" i suggested. "it was vivid from the first. i seemed to wake up in it suddenly. and it's curious that in these dreams i am speaking of i never remembered this life i am living now. it seemed as if the dream life was enough while it lasted. perhaps--but i will tell you how i find myself when i do my best to recall it all. i don't remember anything clearly until i found myself sitting in a sort of loggia looking out over the sea. i had been dozing, and suddenly i woke up--fresh and vivid--not a bit dreamlike--because the girl had stopped fanning me." "the girl?" "yes, the girl. you must not interrupt or you will put me out." he stopped abruptly. "you won't think i'm mad?" he said. "no," i answered. "you've been dreaming. tell me your dream." "i woke up, i say, because the girl had stopped fanning me. i was not surprised to find myself there or anything of that sort, you understand. i did not feel i had fallen into it suddenly. i simply took it up at that point. whatever memory i had of this life, this nineteenth-century life, faded as i woke, vanished like a dream. i knew all about myself, knew that my name was no longer cooper but hedon, and all about my position in the world. i've forgotten a lot since i woke--there's a want of connection--but it was all quite clear and matter of fact then." he hesitated again, gripping the window strap, putting his face forward and looking up to me appealingly. "this seems bosh to you?" "no, no!" i cried. "go on. tell me what this loggia was like!" "it was not really a loggia--i don't know what to call it. it faced south. it was small. it was all in shadow except the semicircle above the balcony that showed the sky and sea and the corner where the girl stood. i was on a couch--it was a metal couch with light striped cushions--and the girl was leaning over the balcony with her back to me. the light of the sunrise fell on her ear and cheek. her pretty white neck and the little curls that nestled there, and her white shoulder were in the sun, and all the grace of her body was in the cool blue shadow. she was dressed--how can i describe it? it was easy and flowing. and altogether there she stood, so that it came to me how beautiful and desirable she was, as though i had never seen her before. and when at last i sighed and raised myself upon my arm she turned her face to me--" he stopped. "i have lived three-and-fifty years in this world. i have had mother, sisters, friends, wife and daughters--all their faces, the play of their faces, i know. but the face of this girl--it is much more real to me. i can bring it back into memory so that i see it again--i could draw it or paint it. and after all--" he stopped--but i said nothing. "the face of a dream--the face of a dream. she was beautiful. not that beauty which is terrible, cold, and worshipful, like the beauty of a saint; nor that beauty that stirs fierce passions; but a sort of radiation, sweet lips that softened into smiles, and grave gray eyes. and she moved gracefully, she seemed to have part with all pleasant and gracious things--" he stopped, and his face was downcast and hidden. then he looked up at me and went on, making no further attempt to disguise his absolute belief in the reality of his story. "you see, i had thrown up my plans and ambitions, thrown up all i had ever worked for or desired for her sake. i had been a master man away there in the north, with influence and property and a great reputation, but none of it had seemed worth having beside her. i had come to the place, this city of sunny pleasures with her, and left all those things to wreck and ruin just to save a remnant at least of my life. while i had been in love with her before i knew that she had any care for me, before i had imagined that she would dare--that we should dare, all my life had seemed vain and hollow, dust and ashes. it was dust and ashes. night after night and through the long days i had longed and desired--my soul had beaten against the thing forbidden! "but it is impossible for one man to tell another just these things. it's emotion, it's a tint, a light that comes and goes. only while it's there, everything changes, everything. the thing is i came away and left them in their crisis to do what they could." "left whom?" i asked, puzzled. "the people up in the north there. you see--in this dream, anyhow--i had been a big man, the sort of man men come to trust in, to group themselves about. millions of men who had never seen me were ready to do things and risk things because of their confidence in me. i had been playing that game for years, that big laborious game, that vague, monstrous political game amidst intrigues and betrayals, speech and agitation. it was a vast weltering world, and at last i had a sort of leadership against the gang--you know it was called the gang--a sort of compromise of scoundrelly projects and base ambitions and vast public emotional stupidities and catch-words--the gang that kept the world noisy and blind year by year, and all the while that it was drifting, drifting towards infinite disaster. but i can't expect you to understand the shades and complications of the year--the year something or other ahead. i had it all--down to the smallest details--in my dream. i suppose i had been dreaming of it before i awoke, and the fading outline of some queer new development i had imagined still hung about me as i rubbed my eyes. it was some grubby affair that made me thank god for the sunlight. i sat up on the couch and remained looking at the woman and rejoicing--rejoicing that i had come away out of all that tumult and folly and violence before it was too late. after all, i thought, this is life--love and beauty, desire and delight, are they not worth all those dismal struggles for vague, gigantic ends? and i blamed myself for having ever sought to be a leader when i might have given my days to love. but then, thought i, if i had not spent my early days sternly and austerely, i might have wasted myself upon vain and worthless women, and at the thought all my being went out in love and tenderness to my dear mistress, my dear lady, who had come at last and compelled me--compelled me by her invincible charm for me--to lay that life aside. "'you are worth it,' i said, speaking without intending her to hear; 'you are worth it, my dearest one; worth pride and praise and all things. love! to have you is worth them all together." and at the murmur of my voice she turned about. "'come and see,' she cried--i can hear her now--'come and see the sunrise upon monte solaro.' "i remember how i sprang to my feet and joined her at the balcony. she put a white hand upon my shoulder and pointed towards great masses of limestone, flushing, as it were, into life. i looked. but first i noted the sunlight on her face caressing the lines of her cheeks and neck. how can i describe to you the scene we had before us? we were at capri--" "i have been there," i said. "i have clambered up monte solaro and drunk vero capri--muddy stuff like cider--at the summit." "ah!" said the man with the white face; "then perhaps you can tell me--you will know if this is indeed capri. for in this life i have never been there. let me describe it. we were in a little room, one of a vast multitude of little rooms, very cool and sunny, hollowed out of the limestone of a sort of cape, very high above the sea. the whole island, you know, was one enormous hotel, complex beyond explaining, and on the other side there were miles of floating hotels, and huge floating stages to which the flying machines came. they called it a pleasure city. of course, there was none of that in your time--rather, i should say, is none of that now. of course. now!--yes. "well, this room of ours was at the extremity of the cape, so that one could see east and west. eastward was a great cliff--a thousand feet high perhaps--coldly gray except for one bright edge of gold, and beyond it the isle of the sirens, and a falling coast that faded and passed into the hot sunrise. and when one turned to the west, distinct and near was a little bay, a little beach still in shadow. and out of that shadow rose solaro straight and tall, flushed and golden crested, like a beauty throned, and the white moon was floating behind her in the sky. and before us from east to west stretched the many-tinted sea all dotted with little sailing boats. "to the eastward, of course, these little boats were gray and very minute and clear, but to the westward they were little boats of gold--shining gold--almost like little flames. and just below us was a rock with an arch worn through it. the blue sea-water broke to green and foam all round the rock, and a galley came gliding out of the arch." "i know that rock." i said. "i was nearly drowned there. it is called the faraglioni." "i faraglioni? yes, she called it that," answered the man with the white face. "there was some story--but that--" he put his hand to his forehead again. "no," he said, "i forget that story." "well, that is the first thing i remember, the first dream i had, that little shaded room and the beautiful air and sky and that dear lady of mine, with her shining arms and her graceful robe, and how we sat and talked in half whispers to one another. we talked in whispers not because there was any one to hear, but because there was still such a freshness of mind between us that our thoughts were a little frightened, i think, to find themselves at last in words. and so they went softly. "presently we were hungry and we went from our apartment, going by a strange passage with a moving floor, until we came to the great breakfast room--there was a fountain and music. a pleasant and joyful place it was, with its sunlight and splashing, and the murmur of plucked strings. and we sat and ate and smiled at one another, and i would not heed a man who was watching me from a table near by. "and afterwards we went on to the dancing-hall. but i cannot describe that hall. the place was enormous--larger than any building you have ever seen--and in one place there was the old gate of capri, caught into the wall of a gallery high overhead. light girders, stems and threads of gold, burst from the pillars like fountains, streamed like an aurora across the roof and interlaced, like--like conjuring tricks. all about the great circle for the dancers there were beautiful figures, strange dragons, and intricate and wonderful grotesques bearing lights. the place was inundated with artificial light that shamed the newborn day. and as we went through the throng the people turned about and looked at us, for all through the world my name and face were known, and how i had suddenly thrown up pride and struggle to come to this place. and they looked also at the lady beside me, though half the story of how at last she had come to me was unknown or mistold. and few of the men who were there, i know, but judged me a happy man, in spite of all the shame and dishonour that had come upon my name. "the air was full of music, full of harmonious scents, full of the rhythm of beautiful motions. thousands of beautiful people swarmed about the hall, crowded the galleries, sat in a myriad recesses; they were dressed in splendid colours and crowned with flowers; thousands danced about the great circle beneath the white images of the ancient gods, and glorious processions of youths and maidens came and went. we two danced, not the dreary monotonies of your days--of this time, i mean--but dances that were beautiful, intoxicating. and even now i can see my lady dancing--dancing joyously. she danced, you know, with a serious face; she danced with a serious dignity, and yet she was smiling at me and caressing me--smiling and caressing with her eyes. "the music was different," he murmured. "it went--i cannot describe it; but it was infinitely richer and more varied than any music that has ever come to me awake. "and then--it was when we had done dancing--a man came to speak to me. he was a lean, resolute man, very soberly clad for that place, and already i had marked his face watching me in the breakfasting hall, and afterwards as we went along the passage i had avoided his eye. but now, as we sat in a little alcove, smiling at the pleasure of all the people who went to and fro across the shining floor, he came and touched me, and spoke to me so that i was forced to listen. and he asked that he might speak to me for a little time apart. "'no,' i said. 'i have no secrets from this lady. what do you want to tell me?' "he said it was a trivial matter, or at least a dry matter, for a lady to hear. "'perhaps for me to hear,' said i. "he glanced at her, as though almost he would appeal to her. then he asked me suddenly if i had heard of a great and avenging declaration that evesham had made? now, evesham had always before been the man next to myself in the leadership of that great party in the north. he was a forcible, hard, and tactless man, and only i had been able to control and soften him. it was on his account even more than my own, i think, that the others had been so dismayed at my retreat. so this question about what he had done reawakened my old interest in the life i had put aside just for a moment. "'i have taken no heed of any news for many days,' i said. 'what has evesham been saying?' "and with that the man began, nothing loth, and i must confess even i was struck by evesham's reckless folly in the wild and threatening words he had used. and this messenger they had sent to me not only told me of evesham's speech, but went on to ask counsel and to point out what need they had of me. while he talked, my lady sat a little forward and watched his face and mine. "my old habits of scheming and organising reasserted themselves. i could even see myself suddenly returning to the north, and all the dramatic effect of it. all that this man said witnessed to the disorder of the party indeed, but not to its damage. i should go back stronger than i had come. and then i thought of my lady. you see--how can i tell you? there were certain peculiarities of our relationship--as things are i need not tell you about that--which would render her presence with me impossible. i should have had to leave her; indeed, i should have had to renounce her clearly and openly, if i was to do all that i could do in the north. and the man knew that, even as he talked to her and me, knew it as well as she did, that my steps to duty were--first, separation, then abandonment. at the touch of that thought my dream of a return was shattered. i turned on the man suddenly, as he was imagining his eloquence was gaining ground with me. "'what have i to do with these things now?' i said. 'i have done with them. do you think i am coquetting with your people in coming here?' "'no,' he said. 'but--' "'why cannot you leave me alone. i have done with these things. i have ceased to be anything but a private man.' "'yes,' he answered. 'but have you thought?--this talk of war, these reckless challenges, these wild aggressions--' "i stood up. "'no,' i cried. 'i won't hear you. i took count of all those things, i weighed them--and i have come away.' "he seemed to consider the possibility of persistence. he looked from me to where the lady sat regarding us. "'war,' he said, as if he were speaking to himself, and then turned slowly from me and walked away. "i stood, caught in the whirl of thoughts his appeal had set going. "i heard my lady's voice. "'dear,' she said; 'but if they had need of you--' "she did not finish her sentence, she let it rest there. i turned to her sweet face, and the balance of my mood swayed and reeled. "'they want me only to do the thing they dare not do themselves,' i said. 'if they distrust evesham they must settle with him themselves.' "she looked at me doubtfully. "'but war--' she said. "i saw a doubt on her face that i had seen before, a doubt of herself and me, the first shadow of the discovery that, seen strongly and completely, must drive us apart for ever. "now, i was an older mind than hers, and i could sway her to this belief or that. "'my dear one,' i said, 'you must not trouble over these things. there will be no war. certainly there will be no war. the age of wars is past. trust me to know the justice of this case. they have no right upon me, dearest, and no one has a right upon me. i have been free to choose my life, and i have chosen this.' "'but war--,' she said. "i sat down beside her. i put an arm behind her and took her hand in mine. i set myself to drive that doubt away--i set myself to fill her mind with pleasant things again. i lied to her, and in lying to her i lied also to myself. and she was only too ready to believe me, only too ready to forget. "very soon the shadow had gone again, and we were hastening to our bathing-place in the grotta del bovo marino, where it was our custom to bathe every day. we swam and splashed one another, and in that buoyant water i seemed to become something lighter and stronger than a man. and at last we came out dripping and rejoicing and raced among the rocks. and then i put on a dry bathing-dress, and we sat to bask in the sun, and presently i nodded, resting my head against her knee, and she put her hand upon my hair and stroked it softly and i dozed. and behold! as it were with the snapping of the string of a violin, i was awakening, and i was in my own bed in liverpool, in the life of to-day. "only for a time i could not believe that all these vivid moments had been no more than the substance of a dream. "in truth, i could not believe it a dream for all the sobering reality of things about me. i bathed and dressed as it were by habit, and as i shaved i argued why i of all men should leave the woman i loved to go back to fantastic politics in the hard and strenuous north. even if evesham did force the world back to war, what was that to me? i was a man with the heart of a man, and why should i feel the responsibility of a deity for the way the world might go? "you know that is not quite the way i think about affairs, about my real affairs. i am a solicitor, you know, with a point of view. "the vision was so real, you must understand, so utterly unlike a dream that i kept perpetually recalling little irrelevant details; even the ornament of the book-cover that lay on my wife's sewing-machine in the breakfast-room recalled with the utmost vividness the gilt line that ran about the seat in the alcove where i had talked with the messenger from my deserted party. have you ever heard of a dream that had a quality like that?" "like--?" "so that afterwards you remembered little details you had forgotten." i thought. i had never noticed the point before, but he was right. "never," i said. "that is what you never seem to do with dreams." "no," he answered. "but that is just what i did. i am a solicitor, you must understand, in liverpool, and i could not help wondering what the clients and business people i found myself talking to in my office would think if i told them suddenly i was in love with a girl who would be born a couple of hundred years or so hence, and worried about the politics of my great-great-great-grandchildren. i was chiefly busy that day negotiating a ninety-nine-year building lease. it was a private builder in a hurry, and we wanted to tie him in every possible way. i had an interview with him, and he showed a certain want of temper that sent me to bed still irritated. that night i had no dream. nor did i dream the next night, at least, to remember. "something of that intense reality of conviction vanished. i began to feel sure it was a dream. and then it came again. "when the dream came again, nearly four days later, it was very different. i think it certain that four days had also elapsed in the dream. many things had happened in the north, and the shadow of them was back again between us, and this time it was not so easily dispelled. i began i know with moody musings. why, in spite of all, should i go back, go back for all the rest of my days to toil and stress, insults and perpetual dissatisfaction, simply to save hundreds of millions of common people, whom i did not love, whom too often i could do no other than despise, from the stress and anguish of war and infinite misrule? and after all i might fail. they all sought their own narrow ends, and why should not i--why should not i also live as a man? and out of such thoughts her voice summoned me, and i lifted my eyes. "i found myself awake and walking. we had come out above the pleasure city, we were near the summit of monte solaro and looking towards the bay. it was the late afternoon and very clear. far away to the left ischia hung in a golden haze between sea and sky, and naples was coldly white against the hills, and before us was vesuvius with a tall and slender streamer feathering at last towards the south, and the ruins of torre dell' annunziata and castellammare glittering and near." i interrupted suddenly: "you have been to capri, of course?" "only in this dream," he said, "only in this dream. all across the bay beyond sorrento were the floating palaces of the pleasure city moored and chained. and northward were the broad floating stages that received the aeroplanes. aeroplanes fell out of the sky every afternoon, each bringing its thousands of pleasure-seekers from the uttermost parts of the earth to capri and its delights. all these things, i say, stretched below. "but we noticed them only incidentally because of an unusual sight that evening had to show. five war aeroplanes that had long slumbered useless in the distant arsenals of the rhinemouth were manoeuvring now in the eastward sky. evesham had astonished the world by producing them and others, and sending them to circle here and there. it was the threat material in the great game of bluff he was playing, and it had taken even me by surprise. he was one of those incredibly stupid energetic people who seem sent by heaven to create disasters. his energy to the first glance seemed so wonderfully like capacity! but he had no imagination, no invention, only a stupid, vast, driving force of will, and a mad faith in his stupid idiot 'luck' to pull him through. i remember how we stood upon the headland watching the squadron circling far away, and how i weighed the full meaning of the sight, seeing clearly the way things must go. and then even it was not too late. i might have gone back, i think, and saved the world. the people of the north would follow me, i knew, granted only that in one thing i respected their moral standards. the east and south would trust me as they would trust no other northern man. and i knew i had only to put it to her and she would have let me go . . . . not because she did not love me! "only i did not want to go; my will was all the other way about. i had so newly thrown off the incubus of responsibility: i was still so fresh a renegade from duty that the daylight clearness of what i ought to do had no power at all to touch my will. my will was to live, to gather pleasures and make my dear lady happy. but though this sense of vast neglected duties had no power to draw me, it could make me silent and preoccupied, it robbed the days i had spent of half their brightness and roused me into dark meditations in the silence of the night. and as i stood and watched evesham's aeroplanes sweep to and fro--those birds of infinite ill omen--she stood beside me watching me, perceiving the trouble indeed, but not perceiving it clearly--her eyes questioning my face, her expression shaded with perplexity. her face was gray because the sunset was fading out of the sky. it was no fault of hers that she held me. she had asked me to go from her, and again in the night time and with tears she had asked me to go. "at last it was the sense of her that roused me from my mood. i turned upon her suddenly and challenged her to race down the mountain slopes. 'no,' she said, as if i had jarred with her gravity, but i was resolved to end that gravity, and make her run--no one can be very gray and sad who is out of breath--and when she stumbled i ran with my hand beneath her arm. we ran down past a couple of men, who turned back staring in astonishment at my behaviour--they must have recognised my face. and half way down the slope came a tumult in the air, clang-clank, clang-clank, and we stopped, and presently over the hill-crest those war things came flying one behind the other." the man seemed hesitating on the verge of a description. "what were they like?" i asked. "they had never fought," he said. "they were just like our ironclads are nowadays; they had never fought. no one knew what they might do, with excited men inside them; few even cared to speculate. they were great driving things shaped like spear-heads without a shaft, with a propeller in the place of the shaft." "steel?" "not steel." "aluminum?" "no, no, nothing of that sort. an alloy that was very common--as common as brass, for example. it was called--let me see--" he squeezed his forehead with the fingers of one hand. "i am forgetting everything," he said. "and they carried guns?" "little guns, firing high explosive shells. they fired the guns backwards, out of the base of the leaf, so to speak, and rammed with the beak. that was the theory, you know, but they had never been fought. no one could tell exactly what was going to happen. and meanwhile i suppose it was very fine to go whirling through the air like a flight of young swallows, swift and easy. i guess the captains tried not to think too clearly what the real thing would be like. and these flying war machines, you know, were only one sort of the endless war contrivances that had been invented and had fallen into abeyance during the long peace. there were all sorts of these things that people were routing out and furbishing up; infernal things, silly things; things that had never been tried; big engines, terrible explosives, great guns. you know the silly way of these ingenious sort of men who make these things; they turn 'em out as beavers build dams, and with no more sense of the rivers they're going to divert and the lands they're going to flood! "as we went down the winding stepway to our hotel again, in the twilight, i foresaw it all: i saw how clearly and inevitably things were driving for war in evesham's silly, violent hands, and i had some inkling of what war was bound to be under these new conditions. and even then, though i knew it was drawing near the limit of my opportunity, i could find no will to go back." he sighed. "that was my last chance. "we didn't go into the city until the sky was full of stars, so we walked out upon the high terrace, to and fro, and--she counselled me to go back. "'my dearest,' she said, and her sweet face looked up to me, 'this is death. this life you lead is death. go back to them, go back to your duty--' "she began to weep, saying, between her sobs, and clinging to my arm as she said it, 'go back--go back.' "then suddenly she fell mute, and, glancing down at her face, i read in an instant the thing she had thought to do. it was one of those moments when one sees. "'no!' i said. "'no?' she asked, in surprise and i think a little fearful at the answer to her thought. "'nothing,' i said, 'shall send me back. nothing! i have chosen. love, i have chosen, and the world must go. whatever happens i will live this life--i will live for you! it--nothing shall turn me aside; nothing, my dear one. even if you died--even if you died--' "'yes?' she murmured, softly. "'then--i also would die.' "and before she could speak again i began to talk, talking eloquently--as i could do in that life--talking to exalt love, to make the life we were living seem heroic and glorious; and the thing i was deserting something hard and enormously ignoble that it was a fine thing to set aside. i bent all my mind to throw that glamour upon it, seeking not only to convert her but myself to that. we talked, and she clung to me, torn too between all that she deemed noble and all that she knew was sweet. and at last i did make it heroic, made all the thickening disaster of the world only a sort of glorious setting to our unparalleled love, and we two poor foolish souls strutted there at last, clad in that splendid delusion, drunken rather with that glorious delusion, under the still stars. "and so my moment passed. "it was my last chance. even as we went to and fro there, the leaders of the south and east were gathering their resolve, and the hot answer that shattered evesham's bluffing for ever, took shape and waited. and, all over asia, and the ocean, and the south, the air and the wires were throbbing with their warnings to prepare--prepare. "no one living, you know, knew what war was; no one could imagine, with all these new inventions, what horror war might bring. i believe most people still believed it would be a matter of bright uniforms and shouting charges and triumphs and flags and bands--in a time when half the world drew its food supply from regions ten thousand miles away--" the man with the white face paused. i glanced at him, and his face was intent on the floor of the carriage. a little railway station, a string of loaded trucks, a signal-box, and the back of a cottage, shot by the carriage window, and a bridge passed with a clap of noise, echoing the tumult of the train. "after that," he said, "i dreamt often. for three weeks of nights that dream was my life. and the worst of it was there were nights when i could not dream, when i lay tossing on a bed in this accursed life; and there--somewhere lost to me--things were happening--momentous, terrible things . . . i lived at nights--my days, my waking days, this life i am living now, became a faded, far-away dream, a drab setting, the cover of the book." he thought. "i could tell you all, tell you every little thing in the dream, but as to what i did in the daytime--no. i could not tell--i do not remember. my memory--my memory has gone. the business of life slips from me--" he leant forward, and pressed his hands upon his eyes. for a long time he said nothing. "and then?" said i. "the war burst like a hurricane." he stared before him at unspeakable things. "and then?" i urged again. "one touch of unreality," he said, in the low tone of a man who speaks to himself, "and they would have been nightmares. but they were not nightmares--they were not nightmares. no!" he was silent for so long that it dawned upon me that there was a danger of losing the rest of the story. but he went on talking again in the same tone of questioning self-communion. "what was there to do but flight? i had not thought the war would touch capri--i had seemed to see capri as being out of it all, as the contrast to it all; but two nights after the whole place was shouting and bawling, every woman almost and every other man wore a badge--evesham's badge--and there was no music but a jangling war-song over and over again, and everywhere men enlisting, and in the dancing halls they were drilling. the whole island was awhirl with rumours; it was said, again and again, that fighting had begun. i had not expected this. i had seen so little of the life of pleasure that i had failed to reckon with this violence of the amateurs. and as for me, i was out of it. i was like the man who might have prevented the firing of a magazine. the time had gone. i was no one; the vainest stripling with a badge counted for more than i. the crowd jostled us and bawled in our ears; that accursed song deafened us; a woman shrieked at my lady because no badge was on her, and we two went back to our own place again, ruffled and insulted--my lady white and silent, and i aquiver with rage. so furious was i, i could have quarrelled with her if i could have found one shade of accusation in her eyes. "all my magnificence had gone from me. i walked up and down our rock cell, and outside was the darkling sea and a light to the southward that flared and passed and came again. "'we must get out of this place,' i said over and over. 'i have made my choice, and i will have no hand in these troubles. i will have nothing of this war. we have taken our lives out of all these things. this is no refuge for us. let us go.' "and the next day we were already in flight from the war that covered the world. "and all the rest was flight--all the rest was flight." he mused darkly. "how much was there of it?" he made no answer. "how many days?" his face was white and drawn and his hands were clenched. he took no heed of my curiosity. i tried to draw him back to his story with questions. "where did you go?" i said. "when?" "when you left capri." "south-west," he said, and glanced at me for a second. "we went in a boat." "but i should have thought an aeroplane?" "they had been seized." i questioned him no more. presently i thought he was beginning again. he broke out in an argumentative monotone: "but why should it be? if, indeed, this battle, this slaughter and stress is life, why have we this craving for pleasure and beauty? if there is no refuge, if there is no place of peace, and if all our dreams of quiet places are a folly and a snare, why have we such dreams? surely it was no ignoble cravings, no base intentions, had brought us to this; it was love had isolated us. love had come to me with her eyes and robed in her beauty, more glorious than all else in life, in the very shape and colour of life, and summoned me away. i had silenced all the voices, i had answered all the questions--i had come to her. and suddenly there was nothing but war and death!" i had an inspiration. "after all," i said, "it could have been only a dream." "a dream!" he cried, flaming upon me, "a dream--when, even now--" for the first time he became animated. a faint flush crept into his cheek. he raised his open hand and clenched it, and dropped it to his knee. he spoke, looking away from me, and for all the rest of the time he looked away. "we are but phantoms!" he said, "and the phantoms of phantoms, desires like cloud-shadows and wills of straw that eddy in the wind; the days pass, use and wont carry us through as a train carries the shadow of its lights--so be it! but one thing is real and certain, one thing is no dream-stuff, but eternal and enduring. it is the centre of my life, and all other things about it are subordinate or altogether vain. i loved her, that woman of a dream. and she and i are dead together! "a dream! how can it be a dream, when it drenched a living life with unappeasable sorrow, when it makes all that i have lived for and cared for, worthless and unmeaning? "until that very moment when she was killed i believed we had still a chance of getting away," he said. "all through the night and morning that we sailed across the sea from capri to salerno, we talked of escape. we were full of hope, and it clung about us to the end, hope for the life together we should lead, out of it all, out of the battle and struggle, the wild and empty passions, the empty arbitrary 'thou shalt' and 'thou shalt not' of the world. we were uplifted, as though our quest was a holy thing, as though love for another was a mission . . . . "even when from our boat we saw the fair face of that great rock capri--already scarred and gashed by the gun emplacements and hiding-places that were to make it a fastness--we reckoned nothing of the imminent slaughter, though the fury of preparation hung about in the puffs and clouds of dust at a hundred points amidst the gray; but, indeed, i made a text of that and talked. there, you know, was the rock, still beautiful for all its scars, with its countless windows and arches and ways, tier upon tier, for a thousand feet, a vast carving of gray, broken by vine-clad terraces, and lemon and orange groves, and masses of agave and prickly pear, and puffs of almond blossom. and out under the archway that is built over the piccola marina other boats were coming; and as we came round the cape and within sight of the mainland, another little string of boats came into view, driving before the wind towards the south-west. in a little while a multitude had come out, the remoter just little specks of ultramarine in the shadow of the eastward cliff. "'it is love and reason,' i said, 'fleeing from all this madness of war.' "and though we presently saw a squadron of aeroplanes flying across the southern sky we did not heed it. there it was--a line of little dots in the sky--and then more, dotting the south-eastern horizon, and then still more, until all that quarter of the sky was stippled with blue specks. now they were all thin little strokes of blue, and now one and now a multitude would heel and catch the sun and become short flashes of light. they came, rising and falling and growing larger, like some huge flight of gulls or rooks or such-like birds, moving with a marvellous uniformity, and ever as they drew nearer they spread over a greater width of sky. the southward wind flung itself in an arrow-headed cloud athwart the sun. and then suddenly they swept round to the eastward and streamed eastward, growing smaller and smaller and clearer and clearer again until they vanished from the sky. and after that we noted to the northward and very high evesham's fighting machines hanging high over naples like an evening swarm of gnats. "it seemed to have no more to do with us than a flight of birds. "even the mutter of guns far away in the south-east seemed to us to signify nothing . . . "each day, each dream after that, we were still exalted, still seeking that refuge where we might live and love. fatigue had come upon us, pain and many distresses. for though we were dusty and stained by our toilsome tramping, and half starved and with the horror of the dead men we had seen and the flight of the peasants--for very soon a gust of fighting swept up the peninsula--with these things haunting our minds it still resulted only in a deepening resolution to escape. oh, but she was brave and patient! she who had never faced hardship and exposure had courage for herself and me. we went to and fro seeking an outlet, over a country all commandeered and ransacked by the gathering hosts of war. always we went on foot. at first there were other fugitives, but we did not mingle with them. some escaped northward, some were caught in the torrent of peasantry that swept along the main roads; many gave themselves into the hands of the soldiery and were sent northward. many of the men were impressed. but we kept away from these things; we had brought no money to bribe a passage north, and i feared for my lady at the hands of these conscript crowds. we had landed at salerno, and we had been turned back from cava, and we had tried to cross towards taranto by a pass over mount alburno, but we had been driven back for want of food, and so we had come down among the marshes by paestum, where those great temples stand alone. i had some vague idea that by paestum it might be possible to find a boat or something, and take once more to sea. and there it was the battle overtook us. "a sort of soul-blindness had me. plainly i could see that we were being hemmed in; that the great net of that giant warfare had us in its toils. many times we had seen the levies that had come down from the north going to and fro, and had come upon them in the distance amidst the mountains making ways for the ammunition and preparing the mounting of the guns. once we fancied they had fired at us, taking us for spies--at any rate a shot had gone shuddering over us. several times we had hidden in woods from hovering aeroplanes. "but all these things do not matter now, these nights of flight and pain . . . we were in an open place near those great temples at paestum, at last, on a blank stony place dotted with spiky bushes, empty and desolate and so flat that a grove of eucalyptus far away showed to the feet of its stems. how i can see it! my lady was sitting down under a bush resting a little, for she was very weak and weary, and i was standing up watching to see if i could tell the distance of the firing that came and went. they were still, you know, fighting far from each other, with those terrible new weapons that had never before been used: guns that would carry beyond sight, and aeroplanes that would do--what they would do no man could foretell. "i knew that we were between the two armies, and that they drew together. i knew we were in danger, and that we could not stop there and rest! "though all these things were in my mind, they were in the background. they seemed to be affairs beyond our concern. chiefly, i was thinking of my lady. an aching distress filled me. for the first time she had owned herself beaten and had fallen a-weeping. behind me i could hear her sobbing, but i would not turn round to her because i knew she had need of weeping, and had held herself so far and so long for me. it was well, i thought, that she would weep and rest and then we would toil on again, for i had no inkling of the thing that hung so near. even now i can see her as she sat there, her lovely hair upon her shoulder, can mark again the deepening hollow of her cheek. "'if we had parted,' she said, 'if i had let you go.' "'no,' said i.' even now, i do not repent. i will not repent; i made my choice, and i will hold on to the end.' "and then-- "overhead in the sky flashed something and burst, and all about us i heard the bullets making a noise like a handful of peas suddenly thrown. they chipped the stones about us, and whirled fragments from the bricks and passed . . . ." he put his hand to his mouth, and then moistened his lips. "at the flash i had turned about . . . "you know--she stood up-- "she stood up, you know, and moved a step towards me--as though she wanted to reach me-- "and she had been shot through the heart." he stopped and stared at me. i felt all that foolish incapacity an englishman feels on such occasions. i met his eyes for a moment, and then stared out of the window. for a long space we kept silence. when at last i looked at him he was sitting back in his corner, his arms folded, and his teeth gnawing at his knuckles. he bit his nail suddenly, and stared at it. "i carried her," he said, "towards the temples, in my arms--as though it mattered. i don't know why. they seemed a sort of sanctuary, you know, they had lasted so long, i suppose. "she must have died almost instantly. only--i talked to her all the way." silence again. "i have seen those temples," i said abruptly, and indeed he had brought those still, sunlit arcades of worn sandstone very vividly before me. "it was the brown one, the big brown one. i sat down on a fallen pillar and held her in my arms . . . silent after the first babble was over. and after a little while the lizards came out and ran about again, as though nothing unusual was going on, as though nothing had changed . . . it was tremendously still there, the sun high and the shadows still; even the shadows of the weeds upon the entablature were still--in spite of the thudding and banging that went all about the sky. "i seem to remember that the aeroplanes came up out of the south, and that the battle went away to the west. one aeroplane was struck, and overset and fell. i remember that--though it didn't interest me in the least. it didn't seem to signify. it was like a wounded gull, you know--flapping for a time in the water. i could see it down the aisle of the temple--a black thing in the bright blue water. "three or four times shells burst about the beach, and then that ceased. each time that happened all the lizards scuttled in and hid for a space. that was all the mischief done, except that once a stray bullet gashed the stone hard by--made just a fresh bright surface. "as the shadows grew longer, the stillness seemed greater. "the curious thing," he remarked, with the manner of a man who makes a trivial conversation, "is that i didn't _think_--at all. i sat with her in my arms amidst the stones--in a sort of lethargy--stagnant. "and i don't remember waking up. i don't remember dressing that day. i know i found myself in my office, with my letters all slit open in front of me, and how i was struck by the absurdity of being there, seeing that in reality i was sitting, stunned, in that paestum temple with a dead woman in my arms. i read my letters like a machine. i have forgotten what they were about." he stopped, and there was a long silence. suddenly i perceived that we were running down the incline from chalk farm to euston. i started at this passing of time. i turned on him with a brutal question, with the tone of "now or never." "and did you dream again?" "yes." he seemed to force himself to finish. his voice was very low. "once more, and as it were only for a few instants. i seemed to have suddenly awakened out of a great apathy, to have risen into a sitting position, and the body lay there on the stones beside me. a gaunt body. not her, you know. so soon--it was not her . . . . "i may have heard voices. i do not know. only i knew clearly that men were coming into the solitude and that that was a last outrage. "i stood up and walked through the temple, and then there came into sight--first one man with a yellow face, dressed in a uniform of dirty white, trimmed with blue, and then several, climbing to the crest of the old wall of the vanished city, and crouching there. they were little bright figures in the sunlight, and there they hung, weapon in hand, peering cautiously before them. "and further away i saw others and then more at another point in the wall. it was a long lax line of men in open order. "presently the man i had first seen stood up and shouted a command, and his men came tumbling down the wall and into the high weeds towards the temple. he scrambled down with them and led them. he came facing towards me, and when he saw me he stopped. "at first i had watched these men with a mere curiosity, but when i had seen they meant to come to the temple i was moved to forbid them. i shouted to the officer. "'you must not come here,' i cried, '_i_ am here. i am here with my dead.' "he stared, and then shouted a question back to me in some unknown tongue. "i repeated what i had said. "he shouted again, and i folded my arms and stood still. presently he spoke to his men and came forward. he carried a drawn sword. "i signed to him to keep away, but he continued to advance. i told him again very patiently and clearly: 'you must not come here. these are old temples and i am here with my dead.' "presently he was so close i could see his face clearly. it was a narrow face, with dull gray eyes, and a black moustache. he had a scar on his upper lip, and he was dirty and unshaven. he kept shouting unintelligible things, questions, perhaps, at me. "i know now that he was afraid of me, but at the time that did not occur to me. as i tried to explain to him, he interrupted me in imperious tones, bidding me, i suppose, stand aside. "he made to go past me, and i caught hold of him. "i saw his face change at my grip. "'you fool,' i cried. 'don't you know? she is dead!' "he started back. he looked at me with cruel eyes. i saw a sort of exultant resolve leap into them--delight. then, suddenly, with a scowl, he swept his sword back--_so_--and thrust." he stopped abruptly. i became aware of a change in the rhythm of the train. the brakes lifted their voices and the carriage jarred and jerked. this present world insisted upon itself, became clamourous. i saw through the steamy window huge electric fights glaring down from tall masts upon a fog, saw rows of stationary empty carriages passing by, and then a signal-box hoisting its constellation of green and red into the murky london twilight, marched after them. i looked again at his drawn features. "he ran me through the heart. it was with a sort of astonishment--no fear, no pain--but just amazement, that i felt it pierce me, felt the sword drive home into my body. it didn't hurt, you know. it didn't hurt at all." the yellow platform lights came into the field of view, passing first rapidly, then slowly, and at last stopping with a jerk. dim shapes of men passed to and fro without. "euston!" cried a voice. "do you mean--?" "there was no pain, no sting or smart. amazement and then darkness sweeping over everything. the hot, brutal face before me, the face of the man who had killed me, seemed to recede. it swept out of existence--" "euston!" clamoured the voices outside; "euston!" the carriage door opened admitting a flood of sound, and a porter stood regarding us. the sounds of doors slamming, and the hoof-clatter of cab-horses, and behind these things the featureless remote roar of the london cobble-stones, came to my ears. a truckload of lighted lamps blazed along the platform. "a darkness, a flood of darkness that opened and spread and blotted out all things." "any luggage, sir?" said the porter. "and that was the end?" i asked. he seemed to hesitate. then, almost inaudibly, he answered, "_no_." "you mean?" "i couldn't get to her. she was there on the other side of the temple-- and then--" "yes," i insisted. "yes?" "nightmares," he cried; "nightmares indeed! my god! great birds that fought and tore." the cone the night was hot and overcast, the sky red, rimmed with the lingering sunset of mid-summer. they sat at the open window, trying to fancy the air was fresher there. the trees and shrubs of the garden stood stiff and dark; beyond in the roadway a gas-lamp burnt, bright orange against the hazy blue of the evening. farther were the three lights of the railway signal against the lowering sky. the man and woman spoke to one another in low tones. "he does not suspect?" said the man, a little nervously. "not he," she said peevishly, as though that too irritated her. "he thinks of nothing but the works and the prices of fuel. he has no imagination, no poetry." "none of these men of iron have," he said sententiously. "they have no hearts." "_he_ has not," she said. she turned her discontented face towards the window. the distant sound of a roaring and rushing drew nearer and grew in volume; the house quivered; one heard the metallic rattle of the tender. as the train passed, there was a glare of light above the cutting and a driving tumult of smoke; one, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight black oblongs--eight trucks--passed across the dim grey of the embankment, and were suddenly extinguished one by one in the throat of the tunnel, which, with the last, seemed to swallow down train, smoke, and sound in one abrupt gulp. "this country was all fresh and beautiful once," he said; "and now--it is gehenna. down that way--nothing but pot-banks and chimneys belching fire and dust into the face of heaven . . . . . but what does it matter? an end comes, an end to all this cruelty . . . . . _to-morrow_." he spoke the last word in a whisper. "_to-morrow_," she said, speaking in a whisper too, and still staring out of the window. "dear!" he said, putting his hand on hers. she turned with a start, and their eyes searched one another's. hers softened to his gaze. "my dear one!" she said, and then: "it seems so strange--that you should have come into my life like this--to open--" she paused. "to open?" he said. "all this wonderful world--" she hesitated, and spoke still more softly--"this world of _love_ to me." then suddenly the door clicked and closed. they turned their heads, and he started violently back. in the shadow of the room stood a great shadowy figure--silent. they saw the face dimly in the half-light, with unexpressive dark patches under the penthouse brows. every muscle in raut's body suddenly became tense. when could the door have opened? what had he heard? had he heard all? what had he seen? a tumult of questions. the new-comer's voice came at last, after a pause that seemed interminable. "well?" he said. "i was afraid i had missed you, horrocks," said the man at the window, gripping the window-ledge with his hand. his voice was unsteady. the clumsy figure of horrocks came forward out of the shadow. he made no answer to raut's remark. for a moment he stood above them. the woman's heart was cold within her. "i told mr. raut it was just possible you might come back," she said, in a voice that never quivered. horrocks, still silent, sat down abruptly in the chair by her little work-table. his big hands were clenched; one saw now the fire of his eyes under the shadow of his brows. he was trying to get his breath. his eyes went from the woman he had trusted to the friend he had trusted, and then back to the woman. by this time and for the moment all three half understood one another. yet none dared say a word to ease the pent-up things that choked them. it was the husband's voice that broke the silence at last. "you wanted to see me?" he said to raut. raut started as he spoke. "i came to see you," he said, resolved to lie to the last. "yes," said horrocks. "you promised," said raut, "to show me some fine effects of moonlight and smoke." "i promised to show you some fine effects of moonlight and smoke," repeated horrocks in a colourless voice. "and i thought i might catch you to-night before you went down to the works," proceeded raut, "and come with you." there was another pause. did the man mean to take the thing coolly? did he after all know? how long had he been in the room? yet even at the moment when they heard the door, their attitudes. . . . horrocks glanced at the profile of the woman, shadowy pallid in the half-light. then he glanced at raut, and seemed to recover himself suddenly. "of course," he said, "i promised to show you the works under their proper dramatic conditions. it's odd how i could have forgotten." "if i am troubling you--" began raut. horrocks started again. a new light had suddenly come into the sultry gloom of his eyes. "not in the least," he said. "have you been telling mr. raut of all these contrasts of flame and shadow you think so splendid?" said the woman, turning now to her husband for the first time, her confidence creeping back again, her voice just one half-note too high. "that dreadful theory of yours that machinery is beautiful, and everything else in the world ugly. i thought he would not spare you, mr. raut. it's his great theory, his one discovery in art." "i am slow to make discoveries," said horrocks grimly, damping her suddenly. "but what i discover . . . . ." he stopped. "well?" she said. "nothing;" and suddenly he rose to his feet. "i promised to show you the works," he said to raut, and put his big, clumsy hand on his friend's shoulder. "and you are ready to go?" "quite," said raut, and stood up also. there was another pause. each of them peered through the indistinctness of the dusk at the other two. horrocks' hand still rested on raut's shoulder. raut half fancied still that the incident was trivial after all. but mrs. horrocks knew her husband better, knew that grim quiet in his voice, and the confusion in her mind took a vague shape of physical evil. "very well", said horrocks, and, dropping his hand, turned towards the door. "my hat?" raut looked round in the half-light. "that's my work-basket," said mrs. horrocks, with a gust of hysterical laughter. their hands came together on the back of the chair. "here it is!" he said. she had an impulse to warn him in an undertone, but she could not frame a word. "don't go!" and "beware of him!" struggled in her mind, and the swift moment passed. "got it?" said horrocks, standing with the door half open. raut stepped towards him. "better say good-bye to mrs. horrocks," said the ironmaster, even more grimly quiet in his tone than before. raut started and turned. "good-evening, mrs. horrocks," he said, and their hands touched. horrocks held the door open with a ceremonial politeness unusual in him towards men. raut went out, and then, after a wordless look at her, her husband followed. she stood motionless while raut's light footfall and her husband's heavy tread, like bass and treble, passed down the passage together. the front door slammed heavily. she went to the window, moving slowly, and stood watching--leaning forward. the two men appeared for a moment at the gateway in the road, passed under the street lamp, and were hidden by the black masses of the shrubbery. the lamp-light fell for a moment on their faces, showing only unmeaning pale patches, telling nothing of what she still feared, and doubted, and craved vainly to know. then she sank down into a crouching attitude in the big arm-chair, her eyes wide open and staring out at the red lights from the furnaces that flickered in the sky. an hour after she was still there, her attitude scarcely changed. the oppressive stillness of the evening weighed heavily upon raut. they went side by side down the road in silence, and in silence turned into the cinder-made by-way that presently opened out the prospect of the valley. a blue haze, half dust, half mist, touched the long valley with mystery. beyond were hanley and etruria, grey and dark masses, outlined thinly by the rare golden dots of the street lamps, and here and there a gaslit window, or the yellow glare of some late-working factory or crowded public-house. out of the masses, clear and slender against the evening sky, rose a multitude of tall chimneys, many of them reeking, a few smokeless during a season of "play." here and there a pallid patch and ghostly stunted beehive shapes showed the position of a pot-bank, or a wheel, black and sharp against the hot lower sky, marked some colliery where they raise the iridescent coal of the place. nearer at hand was the broad stretch of railway, and half invisible trains shunted--a steady puffing and rumbling, with every run a ringing concussion and a rhythmic series of impacts, and a passage of intermittent puffs of white steam across the further view. and to the left, between the railway and the dark mass of the low hill beyond, dominating the whole view, colossal, inky-black, and crowned with smoke and fitful flames, stood the great cylinders of the jeddah company blast furnaces, the central edifices of the big ironworks of which horrocks was the manager. they stood heavy and threatening, full of an incessant turmoil of flames and seething molten iron, and about the feet of them rattled the rolling-mills, and the steam hammer beat heavily and splashed the white iron sparks hither and thither. even as they looked, a truckful of fuel was shot into one of the giants, and the red flames gleamed out, and a confusion of smoke and black dust came boiling upwards towards the sky. "certainly you get some fine effects of colour with your furnaces," said raut, breaking a silence that had become apprehensive. horrocks grunted. he stood with his hands in his pockets, frowning down at the dim steaming railway and the busy ironworks beyond, frowning as if he were thinking out some knotty problem. raut glanced at him and away again. "at present your moonlight effect is hardly ripe," he continued, looking upward. "the moon is still smothered by the vestiges of daylight." horrocks stared at him with the expression of a man who has suddenly awakened. "vestiges of daylight? . . . . of course, of course." he too looked up at the moon, pale still in the midsummer sky. "come along," he said suddenly, and, gripping raut's arm in his hand, made a move towards the path that dropped from them to the railway. raut hung back. their eyes met and saw a thousand things in a moment that their eyes came near to say. horrocks' hand tightened and then relaxed. he let go, and before raut was aware of it, they were arm in arm, and walking, one unwillingly enough, down the path. "you see the fine effect of the railway signals towards burslem," said horrocks, suddenly breaking into loquacity, striding fast, and tightening the grip of his elbow the while. "little green lights and red and white lights, all against the haze. you have an eye for effect, raut. it's a fine effect. and look at those furnaces of mine, how they rise upon us as we come down the hill. that to the right is my pet--seventy feet of him. i packed him myself, and he's boiled away cheerfully with iron in his guts for five long years. i've a particular fancy for _him_. that line of red there--a lovely bit of warm orange you'd call it, raut--that's the puddlers' furnaces, and there, in the hot light, three black figures--did you see the white splash of the steam-hammer then?--that's the rolling mills. come along! clang, clatter, how it goes rattling across the floor! sheet tin, raut,--amazing stuff. glass mirrors are not in it when that stuff comes from the mill. and, squelch!--there goes the hammer again. come along!" he had to stop talking to catch at his breath. his arm twisted into raut's with benumbing tightness. he had come striding down the black path towards the railway as though he was possessed. raut had not spoken a word, had simply hung back against horrocks' pull with all his strength. "i say," he said now, laughing nervously, but with an undernote of snarl in his voice, "why on earth are you nipping my arm off, horrocks, and dragging me along like this?" at length horrocks released him. his manner changed again. "nipping your arm off?" he said. "sorry. but it's you taught me the trick of walking in that friendly way." "you haven't learnt the refinements of it yet then," said raut, laughing artificially again. "by jove! i'm black and blue." horrocks offered no apology. they stood now near the bottom of the hill, close to the fence that bordered the railway. the ironworks had grown larger and spread out with their approach. they looked up to the blast furnaces now instead of down; the further view of etruria and hanley had dropped out of sight with their descent. before them, by the stile rose a notice-board, bearing still dimly visible, the words, "beware of the trains," half hidden by splashes of coaly mud. "fine effects," said horrocks, waving his arm. "here comes a train. the puffs of smoke, the orange glare, the round eye of light in front of it, the melodious rattle. fine effects! but these furnaces of mine used to be finer, before we shoved cones in their throats, and saved the gas." "how?" said raut. "cones?" "cones, my man, cones. i'll show you one nearer. the flames used to flare out of the open throats, great--what is it?--pillars of cloud by day, red and black smoke, and pillars of fire by night. now we run it off in pipes, and burn it to heat the blast, and the top is shut by a cone. you'll be interested in that cone." "but every now and then," said raut, "you get a burst of fire and smoke up there." "the cone's not fixed, it's hung by a chain from a lever, and balanced by an equipoise. you shall see it nearer. else, of course, there'd be no way of getting fuel into the thing. every now and then the cone dips, and out comes the flare." "i see," said raut. he looked over his shoulder. "the moon gets brighter," he said. "come along," said horrocks abruptly, gripping his shoulder again, and moving him suddenly towards the railway crossing. and then came one of those swift incidents, vivid, but so rapid that they leave one doubtful and reeling. halfway across, horrocks' hand suddenly clenched upon him like a vice, and swung him backward and through a half-turn, so that he looked up the line. and there a chain of lamp-lit carriage-windows telescoped swiftly as it came towards them, and the red and yellow lights of an engine grew larger and larger, rushing down upon them. as he grasped what this meant, he turned his face to horrocks, and pushed with all his strength against the arm that held him back between the rails. the struggle did not last a moment. just as certain as it was that horrocks held him there, so certain was it that he had been violently lugged out of danger. "out of the way," said horrocks, with a gasp, as the train came rattling by, and they stood panting by the gate into the ironworks. "i did not see it coming," said raut, still, even in spite of his own apprehensions, trying to keep up an appearance of ordinary intercourse. horrocks answered with a grunt. "the cone," he said, and then, as one who recovers himself, "i thought you did not hear." "i didn't," said raut. "i wouldn't have had you run over then for the world," said horrocks. "for a moment i lost my nerve," said raut. horrocks stood for half a minute, then turned abruptly towards the ironworks again. "see how fine these great mounds of mine, these clinker-heaps, look in the night! that truck yonder, up above there! up it goes, and out-tilts the slag. see the palpitating red stuff go sliding down the slope. as we get nearer, the heap rises up and cuts the blast furnaces. see the quiver up above the big one. not that way! this way, between the heaps. that goes to the puddling furnaces, but i want to show you the canal first." he came and took raut by the elbow, and so they went along side by side. raut answered horrocks vaguely. what, he asked himself, had really happened on the line? was he deluding himself with his own fancies, or had horrocks actually held him back in the way of the train? had he just been within an ace of being murdered? suppose this slouching, scowling monster _did_ know anything? for a minute or two then raut was really afraid for his life, but the mood passed as he reasoned with himself. after all, horrocks might have heard nothing. at any rate, he had pulled him out of the way in time. his odd manner might be due to the mere vague jealousy he had shown once before. he was talking now of the ash-heaps and the canal. "eigh?" said horrocks. "what?" said raut. "rather! the haze in the moonlight. fine!" "our canal," said horrocks, stopping suddenly. "our canal by moonlight and firelight is an immense effect. you've never seen it? fancy that! you've spent too many of your evenings philandering up in newcastle there. i tell you, for real florid effects--but you shall see. boiling water . . ." as they came out of the labyrinth of clinker-heaps and mounds of coal and ore, the noises of the rolling-mill sprang upon them suddenly, loud, near, and distinct. three shadowy workmen went by and touched their caps to horrocks. their faces were vague in the darkness. raut felt a futile impulse to address them, and before he could frame his words, they passed into the shadows. horrocks pointed to the canal close before them now: a weird-looking place it seemed, in the blood-red reflections of the furnaces. the hot water that cooled the tuyeres came into it, some fifty yards up--a tumultuous, almost boiling affluent, and the steam rose up from the water in silent white wisps and streaks, wrapping damply about them, an incessant succession of ghosts coming up from the black and red eddies, a white uprising that made the head swim. the shining black tower of the larger blast-furnace rose overhead out of the mist, and its tumultuous riot filled their ears. raut kept away from the edge of the water, and watched horrocks. "here it is red," said horrocks, "blood-red vapour as red and hot as sin; but yonder there, where the moonlight falls on it, and it drives across the clinker-heaps, it is as white as death." raut turned his head for a moment, and then came back hastily to his watch on horrocks. "come along to the rolling-mills," said horrocks. the threatening hold was not so evident that time, and raut felt a little reassured. but all the same, what on earth did horrocks mean about "white as death" and "red as sin?" coincidence, perhaps? they went and stood behind the puddlers for a little while, and then through the rolling-mills, where amidst an incessant din the deliberate steam-hammer beat the juice out of the succulent iron, and black, half-naked titans rushed the plastic bars, like hot sealing-wax, between the wheels. "come on," said horrocks in raut's ear, and they went and peeped through the little glass hole behind the tuyeres, and saw the tumbled fire writhing in the pit of the blast-furnace. it left one eye blinded for a while. then, with green and blue patches dancing across the dark, they went to the lift by which the trucks of ore and fuel and lime were raised to the top of the big cylinder. and out upon the narrow rail that overhung the furnace, raut's doubts came upon him again. was it wise to be here? if horrocks did know--everything! do what he would, he could not resist a violent trembling. right under foot was a sheer depth of seventy feet. it was a dangerous place. they pushed by a truck of fuel to get to the railing that crowned the place. the reek of the furnace, a sulphurous vapor streaked with pungent bitterness, seemed to make the distant hillside of hanley quiver. the moon was riding out now from among a drift of clouds, halfway up the sky above the undulating wooded outlines of newcastle. the steaming canal ran away from below them under an indistinct bridge, and vanished into the dim haze of the flat fields towards burslem. "that's the cone i've been telling you of," shouted horrocks; "and, below that, sixty feet of fire and molten metal, with the air of the blast frothing through it like gas in soda-water." raut gripped the hand-rail tightly, and stared down at the cone. the heat was intense. the boiling of the iron and the tumult of the blast made a thunderous accompaniment to horrocks' voice. but the thing had to be gone through now. perhaps, after all . . . "in the middle," bawled horrocks, "temperature near a thousand degrees. if _you_ were dropped into it . . . . flash into flame like a pinch of gunpowder in a candle. put your hand out and feel the heat of his breath. why, even up here i've seen the rain-water boiling off the trucks. and that cone there. it's a damned sight too hot for roasting cakes. the top side of it's three hundred degrees." "three hundred degrees!" said raut. "three hundred centigrade, mind!" said horrocks. "it will boil the blood out of you in no time." "eigh?" said raut, and turned. "boil the blood out of you in . . . no, you don't!" "let me go!" screamed raut. "let go my arm!" with one hand he clutched at the hand-rail, then with both. for a moment the two men stood swaying. then suddenly, with a violent jerk, horrocks had twisted him from his hold. he clutched at horrocks and missed, his foot went back into empty air; in mid-air he twisted himself, and then cheek and shoulder and knee struck the hot cone together. he clutched the chain by which the cone hung, and the thing sank an infinitesimal amount as he struck it. a circle of glowing red appeared about him, and a tongue of flame, released from the chaos within, flickered up towards him. an intense pain assailed him at the knees, and he could smell the singeing of his hands. he raised himself to his feet, and tried to climb up the chain, and then something struck his head. black and shining with the moonlight, the throat of the furnace rose about him. horrocks, he saw, stood above him by one of the trucks of fuel on the rail. the gesticulating figure was bright and white in the moonlight, and shouting, "fizzle, you fool! fizzle, you hunter of women! you hot-blooded hound! boil! boil! boil!" suddenly he caught up a handful of coal out of the truck, and flung it deliberately, lump after lump, at raut. "horrocks!" cried raut. "horrocks!" he clung crying to the chain, pulling himself up from the burning of the cone. each missile horrocks flung hit him. his clothes charred and glowed, and as he struggled the cone dropped, and a rush of hot suffocating gas whooped out and burned round him in a swift breath of flame. his human likeness departed from him. when the momentary red had passed, horrocks saw a charred, blackened figure, its head streaked with blood, still clutching and fumbling with the chain, and writhing in agony--a cindery animal, an inhuman, monstrous creature that began a sobbing intermittent shriek. abruptly, at the sight, the ironmaster's anger passed. a deadly sickness came upon him. the heavy odour of burning flesh came drifting up to his nostrils. his sanity returned to him. "god have mercy upon me!" he cried. "o god! what have i done?" he knew the thing below him, save that it still moved and felt, was already a dead man--that the blood of the poor wretch must be boiling in his veins. an intense realisation of that agony came to his mind, and overcame every other feeling. for a moment he stood irresolute, and then, turning to the truck, he hastily tilted its contents upon the struggling thing that had once been a man. the mass fell with a thud, and went radiating over the cone. with the thud the shriek ended, and a boiling confusion of smoke, dust, and flame came rushing up towards him. as it passed, he saw the cone clear again. then he staggered back, and stood trembling, clinging to the rail with both hands. his lips moved, but no words came to them. down below was the sound of voices and running steps. the clangour of rolling in the shed ceased abruptly. a moonlight fable there was once a little man whose mother made him a beautiful suit of clothes. it was green and gold and woven so that i cannot describe how delicate and fine it was, and there was a tie of orange fluffiness that tied up under his chin. and the buttons in their newness shone like stars. he was proud and pleased by his suit beyond measure, and stood before the long looking-glass when first he put it on, so astonished and delighted with it that he could hardly turn himself away. he wanted to wear it everywhere and show it to all sorts of people. he thought over all the places he had ever visited and all the scenes he had ever heard described, and tried to imagine what the feel of it would be if he were to go now to those scenes and places wearing his shining suit, and he wanted to go out forthwith into the long grass and the hot sunshine of the meadow wearing it. just to wear it! but his mother told him, "no." she told him he must take great care of his suit, for never would he have another nearly so fine; he must save it and save it and only wear it on rare and great occasions. it was his wedding suit, she said. and she took his buttons and twisted them up with tissue paper for fear their bright newness should be tarnished, and she tacked little guards over the cuffs and elbows and wherever the suit was most likely to come to harm. he hated and resisted these things, but what could he do? and at last her warnings and persuasions had effect and he consented to take off his beautiful suit and fold it into its proper creases and put it away. it was almost as though he gave it up again. but he was always thinking of wearing it and of the supreme occasion when some day it might be worn without the guards, without the tissue paper on the buttons, utterly and delightfully, never caring, beautiful beyond measure. one night when he was dreaming of it, after his habit, he dreamed he took the tissue paper from one of the buttons and found its brightness a little faded, and that distressed him mightily in his dream. he polished the poor faded button and polished it, and if anything it grew duller. he woke up and lay awake thinking of the brightness a little dulled and wondering how he would feel if perhaps when the great occasion (whatever it might be) should arrive, one button should chance to be ever so little short of its first glittering freshness, and for days and days that thought remained with him, distressingly. and when next his mother let him wear his suit, he was tempted and nearly gave way to the temptation just to fumble off one little bit of tissue paper and see if indeed the buttons were keeping as bright as ever. he went trimly along on his way to church full of this wild desire. for you must know his mother did, with repeated and careful warnings, let him wear his suit at times, on sundays, for example, to and fro from church, when there was no threatening of rain, no dust nor anything to injure it, with its buttons covered and its protections tacked upon it and a sunshade in his hand to shadow it if there seemed too strong a sunlight for its colours. and always, after such occasions, he brushed it over and folded it exquisitely as she had taught him, and put it away again. now all these restrictions his mother set to the wearing of his suit he obeyed, always he obeyed them, until one strange night he woke up and saw the moonlight shining outside his window. it seemed to him the moonlight was not common moonlight, nor the night a common night, and for a while he lay quite drowsily with this odd persuasion in his mind. thought joined on to thought like things that whisper warmly in the shadows. then he sat up in his little bed suddenly, very alert, with his heart beating very fast and a quiver in his body from top to toe. he had made up his mind. he knew now that he was going to wear his suit as it should be worn. he had no doubt in the matter. he was afraid, terribly afraid, but glad, glad. he got out of his bed and stood a moment by the window looking at the moonshine-flooded garden and trembling at the thing he meant to do. the air was full of a minute clamor of crickets and murmurings, of the infinitesimal shouting of little living things. he went very gently across the creaking boards, for fear that he might wake the sleeping house, to the big dark clothes-press wherein his beautiful suit lay folded, and he took it out garment by garment and softly and very eagerly tore off its tissue-paper covering and its tacked protections, until there it was, perfect and delightful as he had seen it when first his mother had given it to him--a long time it seemed ago. not a button had tarnished, not a thread had faded on this dear suit of his; he was glad enough for weeping as in a noiseless hurry he put it on. and then back he went, soft and quick, to the window and looked out upon the garden and stood there for a minute, shining in the moonlight, with his buttons twinkling like stars, before he got out on the sill and, making as little of a rustling as he could, clambered down to the garden path below. he stood before his mother's house, and it was white and nearly as plain as by day, with every window-blind but his own shut like an eye that sleeps. the trees cast still shadows like intricate black lace upon the wall. the garden in the moonlight was very different from the garden by day; moonshine was tangled in the hedges and stretched in phantom cobwebs from spray to spray. every flower was gleaming white or crimson black, and the air was aquiver with the thridding of small crickets and nightingales singing unseen in the depths of the trees. there was no darkness in the world, but only warm, mysterious shadows; and all the leaves and spikes were edged and lined with iridescent jewels of dew. the night was warmer than any night had ever been, the heavens by some miracle at once vaster and nearer, and spite of the great ivory-tinted moon that ruled the world, the sky was full of stars. the little man did not shout nor sing for all his infinite gladness. he stood for a time like one awe-stricken, and then, with a queer small cry and holding out his arms, he ran out as if he would embrace at once the whole warm round immensity of the world. he did not follow the neat set paths that cut the garden squarely, but thrust across the beds and through the wet, tall, scented herbs, through the night stock and the nicotine and the clusters of phantom white mallow flowers and through the thickets of southern-wood and lavender, and knee-deep across a wide space of mignonette. he came to the great hedge and he thrust his way through it, and though the thorns of the brambles scored him deeply and tore threads from his wonderful suit, and though burs and goosegrass and havers caught and clung to him, he did not care. he did not care, for he knew it was all part of the wearing for which he had longed. "i am glad i put on my suit," he said; "i am glad i wore my suit." beyond the hedge he came to the duck-pond, or at least to what was the duck-pond by day. but by night it was a great bowl of silver moonshine all noisy with singing frogs, of wonderful silver moonshine twisted and clotted with strange patternings, and the little man ran down into its waters between the thin black rushes, knee-deep and waist-deep and to his shoulders, smiting the water to black and shining wavelets with either hand, swaying and shivering wavelets, amid which the stars were netted in the tangled reflections of the brooding trees upon the bank. he waded until he swam, and so he crossed the pond and came out upon the other side, trailing, as it seemed to him, not duckweed, but very silver in long, clinging, dripping masses. and up he went through the transfigured tangles of the willow-herb and the uncut seeding grass of the farther bank. and so he came glad and breathless into the highroad. "i am glad," he said, "beyond measure, that i had clothes that fitted this occasion." the highroad ran straight as an arrow flies, straight into the deep blue pit of sky beneath the moon, a white and shining road between the singing nightingales, and along it he went, running now and leaping, and now walking and rejoicing, in the clothes his mother had made for him with tireless, loving hands. the road was deep in dust, but that for him was only soft whiteness, and as he went a great dim moth came fluttering round his wet and shimmering and hastening figure. at first he did not heed the moth, and then he waved his hands at it and made a sort of dance with it as it circled round his head. "soft moth!" he cried, "dear moth! and wonderful night, wonderful night of the world! do you think my clothes are beautiful, dear moth? as beautiful as your scales and all this silver vesture of the earth and sky?" and the moth circled closer and closer until at last its velvet wings just brushed his lips . . . . . and next morning they found him dead with his neck broken in the bottom of the stone pit, with his beautiful clothes a little bloody and foul and stained with the duckweed from the pond. but his face was a face of such happiness that, had you seen it, you would have understood indeed how that he had died happy, never knowing the cool and streaming silver for the duckweed in the pond. the diamond maker some business had detained me in chancery lane nine in the evening, and thereafter, having some inkling of a headache, i was disinclined either for entertainment or further work. so much of the sky as the high cliffs of that narrow canon of traffic left visible spoke of a serene night, and i determined to make my way down to the embankment, and rest my eyes and cool my head by watching the variegated lights upon the river. beyond comparison the night is the best time for this place; a merciful darkness hides the dirt of the waters, and the lights of this transitional age, red glaring orange, gas-yellow, and electric white, are set in shadowy outlines of every possible shade between grey and deep purple. through the arches of waterloo bridge a hundred points of light mark the sweep of the embankment, and above its parapet rise the towers of westminster, warm grey against the starlight. the black river goes by with only a rare ripple breaking its silence, and disturbing the reflections of the lights that swim upon its surface. "a warm night," said a voice at my side. i turned my head, and saw the profile of a man who was leaning over the parapet beside me. it was a refined face, not unhandsome, though pinched and pale enough, and the coat collar turned up and pinned round the throat marked his status in life as sharply as a uniform. i felt i was committed to the price of a bed and breakfast if i answered him. i looked at him curiously. would he have anything to tell me worth the money, or was he the common incapable--incapable even of telling his own story? there was a quality of intelligence in his forehead and eyes, and a certain tremulousness in his nether lip that decided me. "very warm," said i; "but not too warm for us here." "no," he said, still looking across the water, "it is pleasant enough here . . . . just now." "it is good," he continued after a pause, "to find anything so restful as this in london. after one has been fretting about business all day, about getting on, meeting obligations, and parrying dangers, i do not know what one would do if it were not for such pacific corners." he spoke with long pauses between the sentences. "you must know a little of the irksome labour of the world, or you would not be here. but i doubt if you can be so brain-weary and footsore as i am . . . . bah! sometimes i doubt if the game is worth the candle. i feel inclined to throw the whole thing over--name, wealth and position--and take to some modest trade. but i know if i abandoned my ambition--hardly as she uses me--i should have nothing but remorse left for the rest of my days." he became silent. i looked at him in astonishment. if ever i saw a man hopelessly hard-up it was the man in front of me. he was ragged and he was dirty, unshaven and unkempt; he looked as though he had been left in a dust-bin for a week. and he was talking to _me_ of the irksome worries of a large business. i almost laughed outright. either he was mad or playing a sorry jest on his own poverty. "if high aims and high positions," said i, "have their drawbacks of hard work and anxiety, they have their compensations. influence, the power of doing good, of assisting those weaker and poorer than ourselves; and there is even a certain gratification in display . . . . . " my banter under the circumstances was in very vile taste. i spoke on the spur of the contrast of his appearance and speech. i was sorry even while i was speaking. he turned a haggard but very composed face upon me. said he: "i forgot myself. of course you would not understand." he measured me for a moment. "no doubt it is very absurd. you will not believe me even when i tell you, so that it is fairly safe to tell you. and it will be a comfort to tell someone. i really have a big business in hand, a very big business. but there are troubles just now. the fact is . . . . i make diamonds." "i suppose," said i, "you are out of work just at present?" "i am sick of being disbelieved," he said impatiently, and suddenly unbuttoning his wretched coat he pulled out a little canvas bag that was hanging by a cord round his neck. from this he produced a brown pebble. "i wonder if you know enough to know what that is?" he handed it to me. now, a year or so ago, i had occupied my leisure in taking a london science degree, so that i have a smattering of physics and mineralogy. the thing was not unlike an uncut diamond of the darker sort, though far too large, being almost as big as the top of my thumb. i took it, and saw it had the form of a regular octahedron, with the curved faces peculiar to the most precious of minerals. i took out my penknife and tried to scratch it--vainly. leaning forward towards the gas-lamp, i tried the thing on my watch-glass, and scored a white line across that with the greatest ease. i looked at my interlocutor with rising curiosity. "it certainly is rather like a diamond. but, if so, it is a behemoth of diamonds. where did you get it?" "i tell you i made it," he said. "give it back to me." he replaced it hastily and buttoned his jacket. "i will sell it you for one hundred pounds," he suddenly whispered eagerly. with that my suspicions returned. the thing might, after all, be merely a lump of that almost equally hard substance, corundum, with an accidental resemblance in shape to the diamond. or if it was a diamond, how came he by it, and why should he offer it at a hundred pounds? we looked into one another's eyes. he seemed eager, but honestly eager. at that moment i believed it was a diamond he was trying to sell. yet i am a poor man, a hundred pounds would leave a visible gap in my fortunes and no sane man would buy a diamond by gaslight from a ragged tramp on his personal warranty only. still, a diamond that size conjured up a vision of many thousands of pounds. then, thought i, such a stone could scarcely exist without being mentioned in every book on gems, and again i called to mind the stories of contraband and light-fingered kaffirs at the cape. i put the question of purchase on one side. "how did you get it?" said i. "i made it." i had heard something of moissan, but i knew his artificial diamonds were very small. i shook my head. "you seem to know something of this kind of thing. i will tell you a little about myself. perhaps then you may think better of the purchase." he turned round with his back to the river, and put his hands in his pockets. he sighed. "i know you will not believe me." "diamonds," he began--and as he spoke his voice lost its faint flavour of the tramp and assumed something of the easy tone of an educated man--are to be made by throwing carbon out of combination in a suitable flux and under a suitable pressure; the carbon crystallises out, not as black-lead or charcoal-powder, but as small diamonds. so much has been known to chemists for years, but no one yet had hit upon exactly the right flux in which to melt up the carbon, or exactly the right pressure for the best results. consequently the diamonds made by chemists are small and dark, and worthless as jewels. now i, you know, have given up my life to this problem--given my life to it. "i began to work at the conditions of diamond making when i was seventeen, and now i am thirty-two. it seemed to me that it might take all the thought and energies of a man for ten years, or twenty years, but, even if it did, the game was still worth the candle. suppose one to have at last just hit the right trick before the secret got out and diamonds became as common as coal, one might realize millions. millions!" he paused and looked for my sympathy. his eyes shone hungrily. "to think," said he, "that i am on the verge of it all, and here! "i had," he proceeded, "about a thousand pounds when i was twenty-one, and this, i thought, eked out by a little teaching, would keep my researches going. a year or two was spent in study, at berlin chiefly, and then i continued on my own account. the trouble was the secrecy. you see, if once i had let out what i was doing, other men might have been spurred on by my belief in the practicability of the idea; and i do not pretend to be such a genius as to have been sure of coming in first, in the case of a race for the discovery. and you see it was important that if i really meant to make a pile, people should not know it was an artificial process and capable of turning out diamonds by the ton. so i had to work all alone. at first i had a little laboratory, but as my resources began to run out i had to conduct my experiments in a wretched unfurnished room in kentish town, where i slept at last on a straw mattress on the floor among all my apparatus. the money simply flowed away. i grudged myself everything except scientific appliances. i tried to keep things going by a little teaching, but i am not a very good teacher, and i have no university degree, nor very much education except in chemistry, and i found i had to give a lot of time and labour for precious little money. but i got nearer and nearer the thing. three years ago i settled the problem of the composition of the flux, and got near the pressure by putting this flux of mine and a certain carbon composition into a closed-up gun-barrel, filling up with water, sealing tightly, and heating." he paused. "rather risky," said i. "yes. it burst, and smashed all my windows and a lot of my apparatus; but i got a kind of diamond powder nevertheless. following out the problem of getting a big pressure upon the molten mixture from which the things were to crystallise, i hit upon some researches of daubree's at the paris _laboratorie des poudres et salpetres_. he exploded dynamite in a tightly screwed steel cylinder, too strong to burst, and i found he could crush rocks into a muck not unlike the south african bed in which diamonds are found. it was a tremendous strain on my resources, but i got a steel cylinder made for my purpose after his pattern. i put in all my stuff and my explosives, built up a fire in my furnace, put the whole concern in, and--went out for a walk." i could not help laughing at his matter-of-fact manner. "did you not think it would blow up the house? were there other people in the place?" "it was in the interest of science," he said, ultimately. "there was a costermonger family on the floor below, a begging-letter writer in the room behind mine, and two flower-women were upstairs. perhaps it was a bit thoughtless. but possibly some of them were out. "when i came back the thing was just where i left it, among the white-hot coals. the explosive hadn't burst the case. and then i had a problem to face. you know time is an important element in crystallisation. if you hurry the process the crystals are small--it is only by prolonged standing that they grow to any size. i resolved to let this apparatus cool for two years, letting the temperature go down slowly during the time. and i was now quite out of money; and with a big fire and the rent of my room, as well as my hunger to satisfy, i had scarcely a penny in the world. "i can hardly tell you all the shifts i was put to while i was making the diamonds. i have sold newspapers, held horses, opened cab-doors. for many weeks i addressed envelopes. i had a place as assistant to a man who owned a barrow, and used to call down one side of the road while he called down the other. "once for a week i had absolutely nothing to do, and i begged. what a week that was! one day the fire was going out and i had eaten nothing all day, and a little chap taking his girl out, gave me sixpence--to show off. thank heaven for vanity! how the fish-shops smelt! but i went and spent it all on coals, and had the furnace bright red again, and then--well, hunger makes a fool of a man. "at last, three weeks ago, i let the fire out. i took my cylinder and unscrewed it while it was still so hot that it punished my hands, and i scraped out the crumbling lava-like mass with a chisel, and hammered it into a powder upon an iron plate. and i found three big diamonds and five small ones. as i sat on the floor hammering, my door opened, and my neighbour, the begging-letter writer came in. he was drunk--as he usually is. "'nerchist,' said he. 'you're drunk,' said i. ''structive scoundrel,' said he. 'go to your father,' said i, meaning the father of lies. 'never you mind,' said he, and gave me a cunning wink, and hiccuped, and leaning up against the door, with his other eye against the door-post, began to babble of how he had been prying in my room, and how he had gone to the police that morning, and how they had taken down everything he had to say--''siffiwas a ge'm,' said he. then i suddenly realised i was in a hole. either i should have to tell these police my little secret, and get the whole thing blown upon, or be lagged as an anarchist. so i went up to my neighbour and took him by the collar, and rolled him about a bit, and then i gathered up my diamonds and cleared out. the evening newspapers called my den the kentish town bomb factory. and now i cannot part with the things for love or money. "if i go in to respectable jewellers they ask me to wait, and go and whisper to a clerk to fetch a policeman, and then i say i cannot wait. and i found out a receiver of stolen goods, and he simply stuck to the one i gave him and told me to prosecute if i wanted it back. i am going about now with several hundred thousand pounds-worth of diamonds round my neck, and without either food or shelter. you are the first person i have taken into my confidence. but i like your face and i am hard-driven." he looked into my eyes. "it would be madness," said i, "for me to buy a diamond under the circumstances. besides, i do not carry hundreds of pounds about in my pocket. yet i more than half believe your story. i will, if you like, do this: come to my office to-morrow . . . ." "you think i am a thief!" said he keenly. "you will tell the police. i am not coming into a trap." "somehow i am assured you are no thief. here is my card. take that, anyhow. you need not come to any appointment. come when you will." he took the card, and an earnest of my good-will. "think better of it and come," said i. he shook his head doubtfully. "i will pay back your half-crown with interest some day--such interest as will amaze you," said he. "anyhow, you will keep the secret? . . . . don't follow me." he crossed the road and went into the darkness towards the little steps under the archway leading into essex street, and i let him go. and that was the last i ever saw of him. afterwards i had two letters from him asking me to send bank-notes--not cheques--to certain addresses. i weighed the matter over and took what i conceived to be the wisest course. once he called upon me when i was out. my urchin described him as a very thin, dirty, and ragged man, with a dreadful cough. he left no message. that was the finish of him so far as my story goes. i wonder sometimes what has become of him. was he an ingenious monomaniac, or a fraudulent dealer in pebbles, or has he really made diamonds as he asserted? the latter is just sufficiently credible to make me think at times that i have missed the most brilliant opportunity of my life. he may of course be dead, and his diamonds carelessly thrown aside--one, i repeat, was almost as big as my thumb. or he may be still wandering about trying to sell the things. it is just possible he may yet emerge upon society, and, passing athwart my heavens in the serene altitude sacred to the wealthy and the well-advertised, reproach me silently for my want of enterprise. i sometimes think i might at least have risked five pounds. the lord of the dynamos the chief attendant of the three dynamos that buzzed and rattled at camberwell, and kept the electric railway going, came out of yorkshire, and his name was james holroyd. he was a practical electrician, but fond of whisky, a heavy red-haired brute with irregular teeth. he doubted the existence of the deity, but accepted carnot's cycle, and he had read shakespeare and found him weak in chemistry. his helper came out of the mysterious east, and his name was azuma-zi. but holroyd called him pooh-bah. holroyd liked a nigger because he would stand kicking--a habit with holroyd--and did not pry into the machinery and try to learn the ways of it. certain odd possibilities of the negro mind brought into abrupt contact with the crown of our civilisation holroyd never fully realised, though just at the end he got some inkling of them. to define azuma-zi was beyond ethnology. he was, perhaps, more negroid than anything else, though his hair was curly rather than frizzy, and his nose had a bridge. moreover, his skin was brown rather than black, and the whites of his eyes were yellow. his broad cheekbones and narrow chin gave his face something of the viperine v. his head, too, was broad behind, and low and narrow at the forehead, as if his brain had been twisted round in the reverse way to a european's. he was short of stature and still shorter of english. in conversation he made numerous odd noises of no known marketable value, and his infrequent words were carved and wrought into heraldic grotesqueness. holroyd tried to elucidate his religious beliefs, and--especially after whisky--lectured to him against superstition and missionaries. azuma-zi, however, shirked the discussion of his gods, even though he was kicked for it. azuma-zi had come, clad in white but insufficient raiment, out of the stokehole of the _lord clive_, from the straits settlements, and beyond, into london. he had heard even in his youth of the greatness and riches of london, where all the women are white and fair, and even the beggars in the streets are white, and he arrived, with newly earned gold coins in his pocket, to worship at the shrine of civilisation. the day of his landing was a dismal one; the sky was dun, and a wind-worried drizzle filtered down to the greasy streets, but he plunged boldly into the delights of shadwell, and was presently cast up, shattered in health, civilised in costume, penniless and, except in matters of the direst necessity, practically a dumb animal, to toil for james holroyd and to be bullied by him in the dynamo shed at camberwell. and to james holroyd bullying was a labour of love. there were three dynamos with their engines at camberwell. the two that had been there since the beginning were small machines; the larger one was new. the smaller machines made a reasonable noise; their straps hummed over the drums, every now and then the brushes buzzed and fizzled, and the air churned steadily, whoo! whoo! whoo! between their poles. one was loose in its foundations and kept the shed vibrating. but the big dynamo drowned these little noises altogether with the sustained drone of its iron core, which somehow set part of the ironwork humming. the place made the visitor's head reel with the throb, throb, throb of the engines, the rotation of the big wheels, the spinning ball-valves, the occasional spittings of the steam, and over all the deep, unceasing, surging note of the big dynamo. this last noise was from an engineering point of view a defect, but azuma-zi accounted it unto the monster for mightiness and pride. if it were possible we would have the noises of that shed always about the reader as he reads, we would tell all our story to such an accompaniment. it was a steady stream of din, from which the ear picked out first one thread and then another; there was the intermittent snorting, panting, and seething of the steam engines, the suck and thud of their pistons, the dull beat on the air as the spokes of the great driving-wheels came round, a note the leather straps made as they ran tighter and looser, and a fretful tumult from the dynamos; and over all, sometimes inaudible, as the ear tired of it, and then creeping back upon the senses again, was this trombone note of the big machine. the floor never felt steady and quiet beneath one's feet, but quivered and jarred. it was a confusing, unsteady place, and enough to send anyone's thoughts jerking into odd zigzags. and for three months, while the big strike of the engineers was in progress, holroyd, who was a blackleg, and azuma-zi, who was a mere black, were never out of the stir and eddy of it, but slept and fed in the little wooden shanty between the shed and the gates. holroyd delivered a theological lecture on the text of his big machine soon after azuma-zi came. he had to shout to be heard in the din. "look at that," said holroyd; "where's your 'eathen idol to match 'im?" and azuma-zi looked. for a moment holroyd was inaudible, and then azuma-zi heard: "kill a hundred men. twelve per cent. on the ordinary shares," said holroyd, "and that's something like a gord!" holroyd was proud of his big dynamo, and expatiated upon its size and power to azuma-zi until heaven knows what odd currents of thought that and the incessant whirling and shindy set up within the curly black cranium. he would explain in the most graphic manner the dozen or so ways in which a man might be killed by it, and once he gave azuma-zi a shock as a sample of its quality. after that, in the breathing-times of his labour--it was heavy labour, being not only his own, but most of holroyd's--azuma-zi would sit and watch the big machine. now and then the brushes would sparkle and spit blue flashes, at which holroyd would swear, but all the rest was as smooth and rhythmic as breathing. the band ran shouting over the shaft, and ever behind one as one watched was the complacent thud of the piston. so it lived all day in this big airy shed, with him and holroyd to wait upon it; not prisoned up and slaving to drive a ship as the other engines he knew--mere captive devils of the british solomon--had been, but a machine enthroned. those two smaller dynamos, azuma-zi by force of contrast despised; the large one he privately christened the lord of the dynamos. they were fretful and irregular, but the big dynamo was steady. how great it was! how serene and easy in its working! greater and calmer even than the buddhas he had seen at rangoon, and yet not motionless, but living! the great black coils spun, spun, spun, the rings ran round under the brushes, and the deep note of its coil steadied the whole. it affected azuma-zi queerly. azuma-zi was not fond of labour. he would sit about and watch the lord of the dynamos while holroyd went away to persuade the yard porter to get whisky, although his proper place was not in the dynamo shed but behind the engines, and, moreover, if holroyd caught him skulking he got hit for it with a rod of stout copper wire. he would go and stand close to the colossus and look up at the great leather band running overhead. there was a black patch on the band that came round, and it pleased him somehow among all the clatter to watch this return again and again. odd thoughts spun with the whirl of it. scientific people tell us that savages give souls to rocks and trees--and a machine is a thousand times more alive than a rock or a tree. and azuma-zi was practically a savage still; the veneer of civilisation lay no deeper than his slop suit, his bruises, and the coal grime on his face and hands. his father before him had worshipped a meteoric stone, kindred blood it may be had splashed the broad wheels of juggernaut. he took every opportunity holroyd gave him of touching and handling the great dynamo that was fascinating him. he polished and cleaned it until the metal parts were blinding in the sun. he felt a mysterious sense of service in doing this. he would go up to it and touch its spinning coils gently. the gods he had worshipped were all far away. the people in london hid their gods. at last his dim feelings grew more distinct, and took shape in thoughts and at last in acts. when he came into the roaring shed one morning he salaamed to the lord of the dynamos, and then when holroyd was away, he went and whispered to the thundering machine that he was its servant, and prayed it to have pity on him and save him from holroyd. as he did so a rare gleam of light came in through the open archway of the throbbing machine-shed, and the lord of the dynamos, as he whirled and roared, was radiant with pale gold. then azuma-zi knew that his service was acceptable to his lord. after that he did not feel so lonely as he had done, and he had indeed been very much alone in london. and even when his work time was over, which was rare, he loitered about the shed. then, the next time holroyd maltreated him, azuma-zi went presently to the lord of the dynamos and whispered, "thou seest, o my lord!" and the angry whir of the machinery seemed to answer him. thereafter it appeared to him that whenever holroyd came into the shed a different note came into the sounds of the dynamo. "my lord bides his time," said azuma-zi to himself. "the iniquity of the fool is not yet ripe." and he waited and watched for the day of reckoning. one day there was evidence of short circuiting, and holroyd, making an unwary examination--it was in the afternoon--got a rather severe shock. azuma-zi from behind the engine saw him jump off and curse at the peccant coil. "he is warned," said azuma-zi to himself. "surely my lord is very patient." holroyd had at first initiated his "nigger" into such elementary conceptions of the dynamo's working as would enable him to take temporary charge of the shed in his absence. but when he noticed the manner in which azuma-zi hung about the monster he became suspicious. he dimly perceived his assistant was "up to something," and connecting him with the anointing of the coils with oil that had rotted the varnish in one place, he issued an edict, shouted above the confusion of the machinery, "don't 'ee go nigh that big dynamo any more, pooh-bah, or a'll take thy skin off!" besides, if it pleased azuma-zi to be near the big machine, it was plain sense and decency to keep him away from it. azuma-zi obeyed at the time, but later he was caught bowing before the lord of the dynamos. at which holroyd twisted his arm and kicked him as he turned to go away. as azuma-zi presently stood behind the engine and glared at the back of the hated holroyd, the noises of the machinery took a new rhythm, and sounded like four words in his native tongue. it is hard to say exactly what madness is. i fancy azuma-zi was mad. the incessant din and whirl of the dynamo shed may have churned up his little store of knowledge and his big store of superstitious fancy, at last, into something akin to frenzy. at any rate, when the idea of making holroyd a sacrifice to the dynamo fetich was thus suggested to him, it filled him with a strange tumult of exultant emotion. that night the two men and their black shadows were alone in the shed together. the shed was lit with one big arc light that winked and flickered purple. the shadows lay black behind the dynamos, the ball governors of the engines whirled from light to darkness, and their pistons beat loud and steady. the world outside seen through the open end of the shed seemed incredibly dim and remote. it seemed absolutely silent, too, since the riot of the machinery drowned every external sound. far away was the black fence of the yard with grey shadowy houses behind, and above was the deep blue sky and the pale little stars. azuma-zi suddenly walked across the centre of the shed above which the leather bands were running, and went into the shadow by the big dynamo. holroyd heard a click, and the spin of the armature changed. "what are you dewin' with that switch?" he bawled in surprise. "han't i told you--" then he saw the set expression of azuma-zi's eyes as the asiatic came out of the shadow towards him. in another moment the two men were grappling fiercely in front of the great dynamo. "you coffee-headed fool!" gasped holroyd, with a brown hand at his throat. "keep off those contact rings." in another moment he was tripped and reeling back upon the lord of the dynamos. he instinctively loosened his grip upon his antagonist to save himself from the machine. the messenger, sent in furious haste from the station to find out what had happened in the dynamo shed, met azuma-zi at the porter's lodge by the gate. azuma-zi tried to explain something, but the messenger could make nothing of the black's incoherent english, and hurried on to the shed. the machines were all noisily at work, and nothing seemed to be disarranged. there was, however, a queer smell of singed hair. then he saw an odd-looking crumpled mass clinging to the front of the big dynamo, and, approaching, recognised the distorted remains of holroyd. the man stared and hesitated a moment. then he saw the face, and shut his eyes convulsively. he turned on his heel before he opened them, so that he should not see holroyd again, and went out of the shed to get advice and help. when azuma-zi saw holroyd die in the grip of the great dynamo he had been a little scared about the consequences of his act. yet he felt strangely elated, and knew that the favour of the lord dynamo was upon him. his plan was already settled when he met the man coming from the station, and the scientific manager who speedily arrived on the scene jumped at the obvious conclusion of suicide. this expert scarcely noticed azuma-zi, except to ask a few questions. did he see holroyd kill himself? azuma-zi explained that he had been out of sight at the engine furnace until he heard a difference in the noise from the dynamo. it was not a difficult examination, being untinctured by suspicion. the distorted remains of holroyd, which the electrician removed from the machine, were hastily covered by the porter with a coffee-stained tablecloth. somebody, by a happy inspiration, fetched a medical man. the expert was chiefly anxious to get the machine at work again, for seven or eight trains had stopped midway in the stuffy tunnels of the electric railway. azuma-zi, answering or misunderstanding the questions of the people who had by authority or impudence come into the shed, was presently sent back to the stoke-hole by the scientific manager. of course a crowd collected outside the gates of the yard--a crowd, for no known reason, always hovers for a day or two near the scene of a sudden death in london; two or three reporters percolated somehow into the engine-shed, and one even got to azuma-zi; but the scientific expert cleared them out again, being himself an amateur journalist. presently the body was carried away, and public interest departed with it. azuma-zi remained very quietly at his furnace, seeing over and over again in the coals a figure that wriggled violently and became still. an hour after the murder, to anyone coming into the shed it would have looked exactly as if nothing had ever happened there. peeping presently from his engine-room the black saw the lord dynamo spin and whirl beside his little brothers, and the driving wheels were beating round, and the steam in the pistons went thud, thud, exactly as it had been earlier in the evening. after all, from the mechanical point of view, it had been a most insignificant incident--the mere temporary deflection of a current. but now the slender form and slender shadow of the scientific manager replaced the sturdy outline of holroyd travelling up and down the lane of light upon the vibrating floor under the straps between the engines and the dynamos. "have i not served my lord?" said azuma-zi inaudibly, from his shadow, and the note of the great dynamo rang out full and clear. as he looked at the big whirling mechanism the strange fascination of it that had been a little in abeyance since holroyd's death, resumed its sway. never had azuma-zi seen a man killed so swiftly and pitilessly. the big humming machine had slain its victim without wavering for a second from its steady beating. it was indeed a mighty god. the unconscious scientific manager stood with his back to him, scribbling on a piece of paper. his shadow lay at the foot of the monster. "was the lord dynamo still hungry? his servant was ready." azuma-zi made a stealthy step forward; then stopped. the scientific manager suddenly stopped writing, and walked down the shed to the endmost of the dynamos, and began to examine the brushes. azuma-zi hesitated, and then slipped across noiselessly into shadow by the switch. there he waited. presently the manager's footsteps could be heard returning. he stopped in his old position, unconscious of the stoker crouching ten feet away from him. then the big dynamo suddenly fizzled, and in another moment azuma-zi had sprung out of the darkness upon him. first, the scientific manager was gripped round the body and swung towards the big dynamo, then, kicking with his knee and forcing his antagonist's head down with his hands, he loosened the grip on his waist and swung round away from the machine. then the black grasped him again, putting a curly head against his chest, and they swayed and panted as it seemed for an age or so. then the scientific manager was impelled to catch a black ear in his teeth and bite furiously. the black yelled hideously. they rolled over on the floor, and the black, who had apparently slipped from the vice of the teeth or parted with some ear--the scientific manager wondered which at the time--tried to throttle him. the scientific manager was making some ineffectual attempts to claw something with his hands and to kick, when the welcome sound of quick footsteps sounded on the floor. the next moment azuma-zi had left him and darted towards the big dynamo. there was a splutter amid the roar. the officer of the company who had entered, stood staring as azuma-zi caught the naked terminals in his hands, gave one horrible convulsion, and then hung motionless from the machine, his face violently distorted. "i'm jolly glad you came in when you did," said the scientific manager, still sitting on the floor. he looked at the still quivering figure. "it's not a nice death to die, apparently--but it is quick." the official was still staring at the body. he was a man of slow apprehension. there was a pause. the scientific manager got up on his feet rather awkwardly. he ran his fingers along his collar thoughtfully, and moved his head to and fro several times. "poor holroyd! i see now." then almost mechanically he went towards the switch in the shadow and turned the current into the railway circuit again. as he did so the singed body loosened its grip upon the machine and fell forward on its face. the core of the dynamo roared out loud and clear, and the armature beat the air. so ended prematurely the worship of the dynamo deity, perhaps the most short-lived of all religions. yet withal it could at least boast a martyrdom and a human sacrifice. the country of the blind three hundred miles and more from chimborazo, one hundred from the snows of cotopaxi, in the wildest wastes of ecuador's andes, there lies that mysterious mountain valley, cut off from all the world of men, the country of the blind. long years ago that valley lay so far open to the world that men might come at last through frightful gorges and over an icy pass into its equable meadows, and thither indeed men came, a family or so of peruvian half-breeds fleeing from the lust and tyranny of an evil spanish ruler. then came the stupendous outbreak of mindobamba, when it was night in quito for seventeen days, and the water was boiling at yaguachi and all the fish floating dying even as far as guayaquil; everywhere along the pacific slopes there were land-slips and swift thawings and sudden floods, and one whole side of the old arauca crest slipped and came down in thunder, and cut off the country of the blind for ever from the exploring feet of men. but one of these early settlers had chanced to be on the hither side of the gorges when the world had so terribly shaken itself, and he perforce had to forget his wife and his child and all the friends and possessions he had left up there, and start life over again in the lower world. he started it again but ill, blindness overtook him, and he died of punishment in the mines; but the story he told begot a legend that lingers along the length of the cordilleras of the andes to this day. he told of his reason for venturing back from that fastness, into which he had first been carried lashed to a llama, beside a vast bale of gear, when he was a child. the valley, he said, had in it all that the heart of man could desire--sweet water, pasture, an even climate, slopes of rich brown soil with tangles of a shrub that bore an excellent fruit, and on one side great hanging forests of pine that held the avalanches high. far overhead, on three sides, vast cliffs of grey-green rock were capped by cliffs of ice; but the glacier stream came not to them, but flowed away by the farther slopes, and only now and then huge ice masses fell on the valley side. in this valley it neither rained nor snowed, but the abundant springs gave a rich green pasture, that irrigation would spread over all the valley space. the settlers did well indeed there. their beasts did well and multiplied, and but one thing marred their happiness. yet it was enough to mar it greatly. a strange disease had come upon them and had made all the children born to them there--and, indeed, several older children also--blind. it was to seek some charm or antidote against this plague of blindness that he had with fatigue and danger and difficulty returned down the gorge. in those days, in such cases, men did not think of germs and infections, but of sins, and it seemed to him that the reason of this affliction must he in the negligence of these priestless immigrants to set up a shrine so soon as they entered the valley. he wanted a shrine--a handsome, cheap, effectual shrine--to be erected in the valley; he wanted relics and such-like potent things of faith, blessed objects and mysterious medals and prayers. in his wallet he had a bar of native silver for which he would not account; he insisted there was none in the valley with something of the insistence of an inexpert liar. they had all clubbed their money and ornaments together, having little need for such treasure up there, he said, to buy them holy help against their ill. i figure this dim-eyed young mountaineer, sunburnt, gaunt, and anxious, hat brim clutched feverishly, a man all unused to the ways of the lower world, telling this story to some keen-eyed, attentive priest before the great convulsion; i can picture him presently seeking to return with pious and infallible remedies against that trouble, and the infinite dismay with which he must have faced the tumbled vastness where the gorge had once come out. but the rest of his story of mischances is lost to me, save that i know of his evil death after several years. poor stray from that remoteness! the stream that had once made the gorge now bursts from the mouth of a rocky cave, and the legend his poor, ill-told story set going developed into the legend of a race of blind men somewhere "over there" one may still hear to-day. and amidst the little population of that now isolated and forgotten valley the disease ran its course. the old became groping, the young saw but dimly, and the children that were born to them never saw at all. but life was very easy in that snow-rimmed basin, lost to all the world, with neither thorns nor briers, with no evil insects nor any beasts save the gentle breed of llamas they had lugged and thrust and followed up the beds of the shrunken rivers in the gorges up which they had come. the seeing had become purblind so gradually that they scarcely noticed their loss. they guided the sightless youngsters hither and thither until they knew the whole valley marvellously, and when at last sight died out among them the race lived on. they had even time to adapt themselves to the blind control of fire, which they made carefully in stoves of stone. they were a simple strain of people at the first, unlettered, only slightly touched with the spanish civilisation, but with something of a tradition of the arts of old peru and of its lost philosophy. generation followed generation. they forgot many things; they devised many things. their tradition of the greater world they came from became mythical in colour and uncertain. in all things save sight they were strong and able, and presently chance sent one who had an original mind and who could talk and persuade among them, and then afterwards another. these two passed, leaving their effects, and the little community grew in numbers and in understanding, and met and settled social and economic problems that arose. generation followed generation. generation followed generation. there came a time when a child was born who was fifteen generations from that ancestor who went out of the valley with a bar of silver to seek god's aid, and who never returned. thereabout it chanced that a man came into this community from the outer world. and this is the story of that man. he was a mountaineer from the country near quito, a man who had been down to the sea and had seen the world, a reader of books in an original way, an acute and enterprising man, and he was taken on by a party of englishmen who had come out to ecuador to climb mountains, to replace one of their three swiss guides who had fallen ill. he climbed here and he climbed there, and then came the attempt on parascotopetl, the matterhorn of the andes, in which he was lost to the outer world. the story of that accident has been written a dozen times. pointer's narrative is the best. he tells how the little party worked their difficult and almost vertical way up to the very foot of the last and greatest precipice, and how they built a night shelter amidst the snow upon a little shelf of rock, and, with a touch of real dramatic power, how presently they found nunez had gone from them. they shouted, and there was no reply; shouted and whistled, and for the rest of that night they slept no more. as the morning broke they saw the traces of his fall. it seems impossible he could have uttered a sound. he had slipped eastward towards the unknown side of the mountain; far below he had struck a steep slope of snow, and ploughed his way down it in the midst of a snow avalanche. his track went straight to the edge of a frightful precipice, and beyond that everything was hidden. far, far below, and hazy with distance, they could see trees rising out of a narrow, shut-in valley--the lost country of the blind. but they did not know it was the lost country of the blind, nor distinguish it in any way from any other narrow streak of upland valley. unnerved by this disaster, they abandoned their attempt in the afternoon, and pointer was called away to the war before he could make another attack. to this day parascotopetl lifts an unconquered crest, and pointer's shelter crumbles unvisited amidst the snows. and the man who fell survived. at the end of the slope he fell a thousand feet, and came down in the midst of a cloud of snow upon a snow-slope even steeper than the one above. down this he was whirled, stunned and insensible, but without a bone broken in his body; and then at last came to gentler slopes, and at last rolled out and lay still, buried amidst a softening heap of the white masses that had accompanied and saved him. he came to himself with a dim fancy that he was ill in bed; then realized his position with a mountaineer's intelligence and worked himself loose and, after a rest or so, out until he saw the stars. he rested flat upon his chest for a space, wondering where he was and what had happened to him. he explored his limbs, and discovered that several of his buttons were gone and his coat turned over his head. his knife had gone from his pocket and his hat was lost, though he had tied it under his chin. he recalled that he had been looking for loose stones to raise his piece of the shelter wall. his ice-axe had disappeared. he decided he must have fallen, and looked up to see, exaggerated by the ghastly light of the rising moon, the tremendous flight he had taken. for a while he lay, gazing blankly at the vast, pale cliff towering above, rising moment by moment out of a subsiding tide of darkness. its phantasmal, mysterious beauty held him for a space, and then he was seized with a paroxysm of sobbing laughter . . . . after a great interval of time he became aware that he was near the lower edge of the snow. below, down what was now a moon-lit and practicable slope, he saw the dark and broken appearance of rock-strewn turf he struggled to his feet, aching in every joint and limb, got down painfully from the heaped loose snow about him, went downward until he was on the turf, and there dropped rather than lay beside a boulder, drank deep from the flask in his inner pocket, and instantly fell asleep . . . . he was awakened by the singing of birds in the trees far below. he sat up and perceived he was on a little alp at the foot of a vast precipice that sloped only a little in the gully down which he and his snow had come. over against him another wall of rock reared itself against the sky. the gorge between these precipices ran east and west and was full of the morning sunlight, which lit to the westward the mass of fallen mountain that closed the descending gorge. below him it seemed there was a precipice equally steep, but behind the snow in the gully he found a sort of chimney-cleft dripping with snow-water, down which a desperate man might venture. he found it easier than it seemed, and came at last to another desolate alp, and then after a rock climb of no particular difficulty, to a steep slope of trees. he took his bearings and turned his face up the gorge, for he saw it opened out above upon green meadows, among which he now glimpsed quite distinctly a cluster of stone huts of unfamiliar fashion. at times his progress was like clambering along the face of a wall, and after a time the rising sun ceased to strike along the gorge, the voices of the singing birds died away, and the air grew cold and dark about him. but the distant valley with its houses was all the brighter for that. he came presently to talus, and among the rocks he noted--for he was an observant man--an unfamiliar fern that seemed to clutch out of the crevices with intense green hands. he picked a frond or so and gnawed its stalk, and found it helpful. about midday he came at last out of the throat of the gorge into the plain and the sunlight. he was stiff and weary; he sat down in the shadow of a rock, filled up his flask with water from a spring and drank it down, and remained for a time, resting before he went on to the houses. they were very strange to his eyes, and indeed the whole aspect of that valley became, as he regarded it, queerer and more unfamiliar. the greater part of its surface was lush green meadow, starred with many beautiful flowers, irrigated with extraordinary care, and bearing evidence of systematic cropping piece by piece. high up and ringing the valley about was a wall, and what appeared to be a circumferential water channel, from which the little trickles of water that fed the meadow plants came, and on the higher slopes above this flocks of llamas cropped the scanty herbage. sheds, apparently shelters or feeding-places for the llamas, stood against the boundary wall here and there. the irrigation streams ran together into a main channel down the centre of the valley, and this was enclosed on either side by a wall breast high. this gave a singularly urban quality to this secluded place, a quality that was greatly enhanced by the fact that a number of paths paved with black and white stones, and each with a curious little kerb at the side, ran hither and thither in an orderly manner. the houses of the central village were quite unlike the casual and higgledy-piggledy agglomeration of the mountain villages he knew; they stood in a continuous row on either side of a central street of astonishing cleanness, here and there their parti-coloured facade was pierced by a door, and not a solitary window broke their even frontage. they were parti-coloured with extraordinary irregularity, smeared with a sort of plaster that was sometimes grey, sometimes drab, sometimes slate-coloured or dark brown; and it was the sight of this wild plastering first brought the word "blind" into the thoughts of the explorer. "the good man who did that," he thought, "must have been as blind as a bat." he descended a steep place, and so came to the wall and channel that ran about the valley, near where the latter spouted out its surplus contents into the deeps of the gorge in a thin and wavering thread of cascade. he could now see a number of men and women resting on piled heaps of grass, as if taking a siesta, in the remoter part of the meadow, and nearer the village a number of recumbent children, and then nearer at hand three men carrying pails on yokes along a little path that ran from the encircling wall towards the houses. these latter were clad in garments of llama cloth and boots and belts of leather, and they wore caps of cloth with back and ear flaps. they followed one another in single file, walking slowly and yawning as they walked, like men who have been up all night. there was something so reassuringly prosperous and respectable in their bearing that after a moment's hesitation nunez stood forward as conspicuously as possible upon his rock, and gave vent to a mighty shout that echoed round the valley. the three men stopped, and moved their heads as though they were looking about them. they turned their faces this way and that, and nunez gesticulated with freedom. but they did not appear to see him for all his gestures, and after a time, directing themselves towards the mountains far away to the right, they shouted as if in answer. nunez bawled again, and then once more, and as he gestured ineffectually the word "blind" came up to the top of his thoughts. "the fools must be blind," he said. when at last, after much shouting and wrath, nunez crossed the stream by a little bridge, came through a gate in the wall, and approached them, he was sure that they were blind. he was sure that this was the country of the blind of which the legends told. conviction had sprung upon him, and a sense of great and rather enviable adventure. the three stood side by side, not looking at him, but with their ears directed towards him, judging him by his unfamiliar steps. they stood close together like men a little afraid, and he could see their eyelids closed and sunken, as though the very balls beneath had shrunk away. there was an expression near awe on their faces. "a man," one said, in hardly recognisable spanish. "a man it is--a man or a spirit--coming down from the rocks." but nunez advanced with the confident steps of a youth who enters upon life. all the old stories of the lost valley and the country of the blind had come back to his mind, and through his thoughts ran this old proverb, as if it were a refrain:-- "in the country of the blind the one-eyed man is king." "in the country of the blind the one-eyed man is king." and very civilly he gave them greeting. he talked to them and used his eyes. "where does he come from, brother pedro?" asked one. "down out of the rocks." "over the mountains i come," said nunez, "out of the country beyond there--where men can see. from near bogota--where there are a hundred thousands of people, and where the city passes out of sight." "sight?" muttered pedro. "sight?" "he comes," said the second blind man, "out of the rocks." the cloth of their coats, nunez saw was curious fashioned, each with a different sort of stitching. they startled him by a simultaneous movement towards him, each with a hand outstretched. he stepped back from the advance of these spread fingers. "come hither," said the third blind man, following his motion and clutching him neatly. and they held nunez and felt him over, saying no word further until they had done so. "carefully," he cried, with a finger in his eye, and found they thought that organ, with its fluttering lids, a queer thing in him. they went over it again. "a strange creature, correa," said the one called pedro. "feel the coarseness of his hair. like a llama's hair." "rough he is as the rocks that begot him," said correa, investigating nunez's unshaven chin with a soft and slightly moist hand. "perhaps he will grow finer." nunez struggled a little under their examination, but they gripped him firm. "carefully," he said again. "he speaks," said the third man. "certainly he is a man." "ugh!" said pedro, at the roughness of his coat. "and you have come into the world?" asked pedro. "_out_ of the world. over mountains and glaciers; right over above there, half-way to the sun. out of the great, big world that goes down, twelve days' journey to the sea." they scarcely seemed to heed him. "our fathers have told us men may be made by the forces of nature," said correa. "it is the warmth of things, and moisture, and rottenness--rottenness." "let us lead him to the elders," said pedro. "shout first," said correa, "lest the children be afraid. this is a marvellous occasion." so they shouted, and pedro went first and took nunez by the hand to lead him to the houses. he drew his hand away. "i can see," he said. "see?" said correa. "yes; see," said nunez, turning towards him, and stumbled against pedro's pail. "his senses are still imperfect," said the third blind man. "he stumbles, and talks unmeaning words. lead him by the hand." "as you will," said nunez, and was led along laughing. it seemed they knew nothing of sight. well, all in good time he would teach them. he heard people shouting, and saw a number of figures gathering together in the middle roadway of the village. he found it tax his nerve and patience more than he had anticipated, that first encounter with the population of the country of the blind. the place seemed larger as he drew near to it, and the smeared plasterings queerer, and a crowd of children and men and women (the women and girls he was pleased to note had, some of them, quite sweet faces, for all that their eyes were shut and sunken) came about him, holding on to him, touching him with soft, sensitive hands, smelling at him, and listening at every word he spoke. some of the maidens and children, however, kept aloof as if afraid, and indeed his voice seemed coarse and rude beside their softer notes. they mobbed him. his three guides kept close to him with an effect of proprietorship, and said again and again, "a wild man out of the rocks." "bogota," he said. "bogota. over the mountain crests." "a wild man--using wild words," said pedro. "did you hear that-- "_bogota?_ his mind has hardly formed yet. he has only the beginnings of speech." a little boy nipped his hand. "bogota!" he said mockingly. "aye! a city to your village. i come from the great world--where men have eyes and see." "his name's bogota," they said. "he stumbled," said correa--"stumbled twice as we came hither." "bring him in to the elders." and they thrust him suddenly through a doorway into a room as black as pitch, save at the end there faintly glowed a fire. the crowd closed in behind him and shut out all but the faintest glimmer of day, and before he could arrest himself he had fallen headlong over the feet of a seated man. his arm, outflung, struck the face of someone else as he went down; he felt the soft impact of features and heard a cry of anger, and for a moment he struggled against a number of hands that clutched him. it was a one-sided fight. an inkling of the situation came to him and he lay quiet. "i fell down," he said; "i couldn't see in this pitchy darkness." there was a pause as if the unseen persons about him tried to understand his words. then the voice of correa said: "he is but newly formed. he stumbles as he walks and mingles words that mean nothing with his speech." others also said things about him that he heard or understood imperfectly. "may i sit up?" he asked, in a pause. "i will not struggle against you again." they consulted and let him rise. the voice of an older man began to question him, and nunez found himself trying to explain the great world out of which he had fallen, and the sky and mountains and such-like marvels, to these elders who sat in darkness in the country of the blind. and they would believe and understand nothing whatever that he told them, a thing quite outside his expectation. they would not even understand many of his words. for fourteen generations these people had been blind and cut off from all the seeing world; the names for all the things of sight had faded and changed; the story of the outer world was faded and changed to a child's story; and they had ceased to concern themselves with anything beyond the rocky slopes above their circling wall. blind men of genius had arisen among them and questioned the shreds of belief and tradition they had brought with them from their seeing days, and had dismissed all these things as idle fancies and replaced them with new and saner explanations. much of their imagination had shrivelled with their eyes, and they had made for themselves new imaginations with their ever more sensitive ears and finger-tips. slowly nunez realised this: that his expectation of wonder and reverence at his origin and his gifts was not to be borne out; and after his poor attempt to explain sight to them had been set aside as the confused version of a new-made being describing the marvels of his incoherent sensations, he subsided, a little dashed, into listening to their instruction. and the eldest of the blind men explained to him life and philosophy and religion, how that the world (meaning their valley) had been first an empty hollow in the rocks, and then had come first inanimate things without the gift of touch, and llamas and a few other creatures that had little sense, and then men, and at last angels, whom one could hear singing and making fluttering sounds, but whom no one could touch at all, which puzzled nunez greatly until he thought of the birds. he went on to tell nunez how this time had been divided into the warm and the cold, which are the blind equivalents of day and night, and how it was good to sleep in the warm and work during the cold, so that now, but for his advent, the whole town of the blind would have been asleep. he said nunez must have been specially created to learn and serve the wisdom they had acquired, and that for all his mental incoherency and stumbling behaviour he must have courage and do his best to learn, and at that all the people in the door-way murmured encouragingly. he said the night--for the blind call their day night--was now far gone, and it behooved everyone to go back to sleep. he asked nunez if he knew how to sleep, and nunez said he did, but that before sleep he wanted food. they brought him food, llama's milk in a bowl and rough salted bread, and led him into a lonely place to eat out of their hearing, and afterwards to slumber until the chill of the mountain evening roused them to begin their day again. but nunez slumbered not at all. instead, he sat up in the place where they had left him, resting his limbs and turning the unanticipated circumstances of his arrival over and over in his mind. every now and then he laughed, sometimes with amusement and sometimes with indignation. "unformed mind!" he said. "got no senses yet! they little know they've been insulting their heaven-sent king and master . . . . . "i see i must bring them to reason. "let me think. "let me think." he was still thinking when the sun set. nunez had an eye for all beautiful things, and it seemed to him that the glow upon the snow-fields and glaciers that rose about the valley on every side was the most beautiful thing he had ever seen. his eyes went from that inaccessible glory to the village and irrigated fields, fast sinking into the twilight, and suddenly a wave of emotion took him, and he thanked god from the bottom of his heart that the power of sight had been given him. he heard a voice calling to him from out of the village. "yaho there, bogota! come hither!" at that he stood up, smiling. he would show these people once and for all what sight would do for a man. they would seek him, but not find him. "you move not, bogota," said the voice. he laughed noiselessly and made two stealthy steps aside from the path. "trample not on the grass, bogota; that is not allowed." nunez had scarcely heard the sound he made himself. he stopped, amazed. the owner of the voice came running up the piebald path towards him. he stepped back into the pathway. "here i am," he said. "why did you not come when i called you?" said the blind man. "must you be led like a child? cannot you hear the path as you walk?" nunez laughed. "i can see it," he said. "there is no such word as _see_," said the blind man, after a pause. "cease this folly and follow the sound of my feet." nunez followed, a little annoyed. "my time will come," he said. "you'll learn," the blind man answered. "there is much to learn in the world." "has no one told you, 'in the country of the blind the one-eyed man is king?'" "what is blind?" asked the blind man, carelessly, over his shoulder. four days passed and the fifth found the king of the blind still incognito, as a clumsy and useless stranger among his subjects. it was, he found, much more difficult to proclaim himself than he had supposed, and in the meantime, while he meditated his _coup d'etat_, he did what he was told and learnt the manners and customs of the country of the blind. he found working and going about at night a particularly irksome thing, and he decided that that should be the first thing he would change. they led a simple, laborious life, these people, with all the elements of virtue and happiness as these things can be understood by men. they toiled, but not oppressively; they had food and clothing sufficient for their needs; they had days and seasons of rest; they made much of music and singing, and there was love among them and little children. it was marvellous with what confidence and precision they went about their ordered world. everything, you see, had been made to fit their needs; each of the radiating paths of the valley area had a constant angle to the others, and was distinguished by a special notch upon its kerbing; all obstacles and irregularities of path or meadow had long since been cleared away; all their methods and procedure arose naturally from their special needs. their senses had become marvellously acute; they could hear and judge the slightest gesture of a man a dozen paces away--could hear the very beating of his heart. intonation had long replaced expression with them, and touches gesture, and their work with hoe and spade and fork was as free and confident as garden work can be. their sense of smell was extraordinarily fine; they could distinguish individual differences as readily as a dog can, and they went about the tending of llamas, who lived among the rocks above and came to the wall for food and shelter, with ease and confidence. it was only when at last nunez sought to assert himself that he found how easy and confident their movements could be. he rebelled only after he had tried persuasion. he tried at first on several occasions to tell them of sight. "look you here, you people," he said. "there are things you do not understand in me." once or twice one or two of them attended to him; they sat with faces downcast and ears turned intelligently towards him, and he did his best to tell them what it was to see. among his hearers was a girl, with eyelids less red and sunken than the others, so that one could almost fancy she was hiding eyes, whom especially he hoped to persuade. he spoke of the beauties of sight, of watching the mountains, of the sky and the sunrise, and they heard him with amused incredulity that presently became condemnatory. they told him there were indeed no mountains at all, but that the end of the rocks where the llamas grazed was indeed the end of the world; thence sprang a cavernous roof of the universe, from which the dew and the avalanches fell; and when he maintained stoutly the world had neither end nor roof such as they supposed, they said his thoughts were wicked. so far as he could describe sky and clouds and stars to them it seemed to them a hideous void, a terrible blankness in the place of the smooth roof to things in which they believed--it was an article of faith with them that the cavern roof was exquisitely smooth to the touch. he saw that in some manner he shocked them, and gave up that aspect of the matter altogether, and tried to show them the practical value of sight. one morning he saw pedro in the path called seventeen and coming towards the central houses, but still too far off for hearing or scent, and he told them as much. "in a little while," he prophesied, "pedro will be here." an old man remarked that pedro had no business on path seventeen, and then, as if in confirmation, that individual as he drew near turned and went transversely into path ten, and so back with nimble paces towards the outer wall. they mocked nunez when pedro did not arrive, and afterwards, when he asked pedro questions to clear his character, pedro denied and outfaced him, and was afterwards hostile to him. then he induced them to let him go a long way up the sloping meadows towards the wall with one complaisant individual, and to him he promised to describe all that happened among the houses. he noted certain goings and comings, but the things that really seemed to signify to these people happened inside of or behind the windowless houses--the only things they took note of to test him by--and of those he could see or tell nothing; and it was after the failure of this attempt, and the ridicule they could not repress, that he resorted to force. he thought of seizing a spade and suddenly smiting one or two of them to earth, and so in fair combat showing the advantage of eyes. he went so far with that resolution as to seize his spade, and then he discovered a new thing about himself, and that was that it was impossible for him to hit a blind man in cold blood. he hesitated, and found them all aware that he had snatched up the spade. they stood all alert, with their heads on one side, and bent ears towards him for what he would do next. "put that spade down," said one, and he felt a sort of helpless horror. he came near obedience. then he had thrust one backwards against a house wall, and fled past him and out of the village. he went athwart one of their meadows, leaving a track of trampled grass behind his feet, and presently sat down by the side of one of their ways. he felt something of the buoyancy that comes to all men in the beginning of a fight, but more perplexity. he began to realise that you cannot even fight happily with creatures who stand upon a different mental basis to yourself. far away he saw a number of men carrying spades and sticks come out of the street of houses and advance in a spreading line along the several paths towards him. they advanced slowly, speaking frequently to one another, and ever and again the whole cordon would halt and sniff the air and listen. the first time they did this nunez laughed. but afterwards he did not laugh. one struck his trail in the meadow grass and came stooping and feeling his way along it. for five minutes he watched the slow extension of the cordon, and then his vague disposition to do something forthwith became frantic. he stood up, went a pace or so towards the circumferential wall, turned, and went back a little way. there they all stood in a crescent, still and listening. he also stood still, gripping his spade very tightly in both hands. should he charge them? the pulse in his ears ran into the rhythm of "in the country of the blind the one-eyed man is king." should he charge them? he looked back at the high and unclimbable wall behind--unclimbable because of its smooth plastering, but withal pierced with many little doors and at the approaching line of seekers. behind these others were now coming out of the street of houses. should he charge them? "bogota!" called one. "bogota! where are you?" he gripped his spade still tighter and advanced down the meadows towards the place of habitations, and directly he moved they converged upon him. "i'll hit them if they touch me," he swore; "by heaven, i will. i'll hit." he called aloud, "look here, i'm going to do what i like in this valley! do you hear? i'm going to do what i like and go where i like." they were moving in upon him quickly, groping, yet moving rapidly. it was like playing blind man's buff with everyone blindfolded except one. "get hold of him!" cried one. he found himself in the arc of a loose curve of pursuers. he felt suddenly he must be active and resolute. "you don't understand," he cried, in a voice that was meant to be great and resolute, and which broke. "you are blind and i can see. leave me alone!" "bogota! put down that spade and come off the grass!" the last order, grotesque in its urban familiarity, produced a gust of anger. "i'll hurt you," he said, sobbing with emotion. "by heaven, i'll hurt you! leave me alone!" he began to run--not knowing clearly where to run. he ran from the nearest blind man, because it was a horror to hit him. he stopped, and then made a dash to escape from their closing ranks. he made for where a gap was wide, and the men on either side, with a quick perception of the approach of his paces, rushed in on one another. he sprang forward, and then saw he must be caught, and _swish!_ the spade had struck. he felt the soft thud of hand and arm, and the man was down with a yell of pain, and he was through. through! and then he was close to the street of houses again, and blind men, whirling spades and stakes, were running with a reasoned swiftness hither and thither. he heard steps behind him just in time, and found a tall man rushing forward and swiping at the sound of him. he lost his nerve, hurled his spade a yard wide of this antagonist, and whirled about and fled, fairly yelling as he dodged another. he was panic-stricken. he ran furiously to and fro, dodging when there was no need to dodge, and, in his anxiety to see on every side of him at once, stumbling. for a moment he was down and they heard his fall. far away in the circumferential wall a little doorway looked like heaven, and he set off in a wild rush for it. he did not even look round at his pursuers until it was gained, and he had stumbled across the bridge, clambered a little way among the rocks, to the surprise and dismay of a young llama, who went leaping out of sight, and lay down sobbing for breath. and so his _coup d'etat_ came to an end. he stayed outside the wall of the valley of the blind for two nights and days without food or shelter, and meditated upon the unexpected. during these meditations he repeated very frequently and always with a profounder note of derision the exploded proverb: "in the country of the blind the one-eyed man is king." he thought chiefly of ways of fighting and conquering these people, and it grew clear that for him no practicable way was possible. he had no weapons, and now it would be hard to get one. the canker of civilisation had got to him even in bogota, and he could not find it in himself to go down and assassinate a blind man. of course, if he did that, he might then dictate terms on the threat of assassinating them all. but--sooner or later he must sleep! . . . . he tried also to find food among the pine trees, to be comfortable under pine boughs while the frost fell at night, and--with less confidence--to catch a llama by artifice in order to try to kill it--perhaps by hammering it with a stone--and so finally, perhaps, to eat some of it. but the llamas had a doubt of him and regarded him with distrustful brown eyes and spat when he drew near. fear came on him the second day and fits of shivering. finally he crawled down to the wall of the country of the blind and tried to make his terms. he crawled along by the stream, shouting, until two blind men came out to the gate and talked to him. "i was mad," he said. "but i was only newly made." they said that was better. he told them he was wiser now, and repented of all he had done. then he wept without intention, for he was very weak and ill now, and they took that as a favourable sign. they asked him if he still thought he could "_see_." "no," he said. "that was folly. the word means nothing. less than nothing!" they asked him what was overhead. "about ten times ten the height of a man there is a roof above the world--of rock--and very, very smooth. so smooth--so beautifully smooth . ." he burst again into hysterical tears. "before you ask me any more, give me some food or i shall die!" he expected dire punishments, but these blind people were capable of toleration. they regarded his rebellion as but one more proof of his general idiocy and inferiority, and after they had whipped him they appointed him to do the simplest and heaviest work they had for anyone to do, and he, seeing no other way of living, did submissively what he was told. he was ill for some days and they nursed him kindly. that refined his submission. but they insisted on his lying in the dark, and that was a great misery. and blind philosophers came and talked to him of the wicked levity of his mind, and reproved him so impressively for his doubts about the lid of rock that covered their cosmic _casserole_ that he almost doubted whether indeed he was not the victim of hallucination in not seeing it overhead. so nunez became a citizen of the country of the blind, and these people ceased to be a generalised people and became individualities to him, and familiar to him, while the world beyond the mountains became more and more remote and unreal. there was yacob, his master, a kindly man when not annoyed; there was pedro, yacob's nephew; and there was medina-sarote, who was the youngest daughter of yacob. she was little esteemed in the world of the blind, because she had a clear-cut face and lacked that satisfying, glossy smoothness that is the blind man's ideal of feminine beauty, but nunez thought her beautiful at first, and presently the most beautiful thing in the whole creation. her closed eyelids were not sunken and red after the common way of the valley, but lay as though they might open again at any moment; and she had long eyelashes, which were considered a grave disfigurement. and her voice was weak and did not satisfy the acute hearing of the valley swains. so that she had no lover. there came a time when nunez thought that, could he win her, he would be resigned to live in the valley for all the rest of his days. he watched her; he sought opportunities of doing her little services and presently he found that she observed him. once at a rest-day gathering they sat side by side in the dim starlight, and the music was sweet. his hand came upon hers and he dared to clasp it. then very tenderly she returned his pressure. and one day, as they were at their meal in the darkness, he felt her hand very softly seeking him, and as it chanced the fire leapt then, and he saw the tenderness of her face. he sought to speak to her. he went to her one day when she was sitting in the summer moonlight spinning. the light made her a thing of silver and mystery. he sat down at her feet and told her he loved her, and told her how beautiful she seemed to him. he had a lover's voice, he spoke with a tender reverence that came near to awe, and she had never before been touched by adoration. she made him no definite answer, but it was clear his words pleased her. after that he talked to her whenever he could take an opportunity. the valley became the world for him, and the world beyond the mountains where men lived by day seemed no more than a fairy tale he would some day pour into her ears. very tentatively and timidly he spoke to her of sight. sight seemed to her the most poetical of fancies, and she listened to his description of the stars and the mountains and her own sweet white-lit beauty as though it was a guilty indulgence. she did not believe, she could only half understand, but she was mysteriously delighted, and it seemed to him that she completely understood. his love lost its awe and took courage. presently he was for demanding her of yacob and the elders in marriage, but she became fearful and delayed. and it was one of her elder sisters who first told yacob that medina-sarote and nunez were in love. there was from the first very great opposition to the marriage of nunez and medina-sarote; not so much because they valued her as because they held him as a being apart, an idiot, incompetent thing below the permissible level of a man. her sisters opposed it bitterly as bringing discredit on them all; and old yacob, though he had formed a sort of liking for his clumsy, obedient serf, shook his head and said the thing could not be. the young men were all angry at the idea of corrupting the race, and one went so far as to revile and strike nunez. he struck back. then for the first time he found an advantage in seeing, even by twilight, and after that fight was over no one was disposed to raise a hand against him. but they still found his marriage impossible. old yacob had a tenderness for his last little daughter, and was grieved to have her weep upon his shoulder. "you see, my dear, he's an idiot. he has delusions; he can't do anything right." "i know," wept medina-sarote. "but he's better than he was. he's getting better. and he's strong, dear father, and kind--stronger and kinder than any other man in the world. and he loves me--and, father, i love him." old yacob was greatly distressed to find her inconsolable, and, besides--what made it more distressing--he liked nunez for many things. so he went and sat in the windowless council-chamber with the other elders and watched the trend of the talk, and said, at the proper time, "he's better than he was. very likely, some day, we shall find him as sane as ourselves." then afterwards one of the elders, who thought deeply, had an idea. he was a great doctor among these people, their medicine-man, and he had a very philosophical and inventive mind, and the idea of curing nunez of his peculiarities appealed to him. one day when yacob was present he returned to the topic of nunez. "i have examined nunez," he said, "and the case is clearer to me. i think very probably he might be cured." "this is what i have always hoped," said old yacob. "his brain is affected," said the blind doctor. the elders murmured assent. "now, _what_ affects it?" "ah!" said old yacob. "_this_," said the doctor, answering his own question. "those queer things that are called the eyes, and which exist to make an agreeable depression in the face, are diseased, in the case of nunez, in such a way as to affect his brain. they are greatly distended, he has eyelashes, and his eyelids move, and consequently his brain is in a state of constant irritation and distraction." "yes?" said old yacob. "yes?" "and i think i may say with reasonable certainty that, in order to cure him complete, all that we need to do is a simple and easy surgical operation--namely, to remove these irritant bodies." "and then he will be sane?" "then he will be perfectly sane, and a quite admirable citizen." "thank heaven for science!" said old yacob, and went forth at once to tell nunez of his happy hopes. but nunez's manner of receiving the good news struck him as being cold and disappointing. "one might think," he said, "from the tone you take that you did not care for my daughter." it was medina-sarote who persuaded nunez to face the blind surgeons. "_you_ do not want me," he said, "to lose my gift of sight?" she shook her head. "my world is sight." her head drooped lower. "there are the beautiful things, the beautiful little things--the flowers, the lichens amidst the rocks, the light and softness on a piece of fur, the far sky with its drifting dawn of clouds, the sunsets and the stars. and there is _you_. for you alone it is good to have sight, to see your sweet, serene face, your kindly lips, your dear, beautiful hands folded together. . . . . it is these eyes of mine you won, these eyes that hold me to you, that these idiots seek. instead, i must touch you, hear you, and never see you again. i must come under that roof of rock and stone and darkness, that horrible roof under which your imaginations stoop . . . _no_; _you_ would not have me do that?" a disagreeable doubt had arisen in him. he stopped and left the thing a question. "i wish," she said, "sometimes--" she paused. "yes?" he said, a little apprehensively. "i wish sometimes--you would not talk like that." "like what?" "i know it's pretty--it's your imagination. i love it, but _now_--" he felt cold. "_now?_" he said, faintly. she sat quite still. "you mean--you think--i should be better, better perhaps--" he was realising things very swiftly. he felt anger perhaps, anger at the dull course of fate, but also sympathy for her lack of understanding--a sympathy near akin to pity. "_dear_," he said, and he could see by her whiteness how tensely her spirit pressed against the things she could not say. he put his arms about her, he kissed her ear, and they sat for a time in silence. "if i were to consent to this?" he said at last, in a voice that was very gentle. she flung her arms about him, weeping wildly. "oh, if you would," she sobbed, "if only you would!" for a week before the operation that was to raise him from his servitude and inferiority to the level of a blind citizen nunez knew nothing of sleep, and all through the warm, sunlit hours, while the others slumbered happily, he sat brooding or wandered aimlessly, trying to bring his mind to bear on his dilemma. he had given his answer, he had given his consent, and still he was not sure. and at last work-time was over, the sun rose in splendour over the golden crests, and his last day of vision began for him. he had a few minutes with medina-sarote before she went apart to sleep. "to-morrow," he said, "i shall see no more." "dear heart!" she answered, and pressed his hands with all her strength. "they will hurt you but little," she said; "and you are going through this pain, you are going through it, dear lover, for _me_ . . . . dear, if a woman's heart and life can do it, i will repay you. my dearest one, my dearest with the tender voice, i will repay." he was drenched in pity for himself and her. he held her in his arms, and pressed his lips to hers and looked on her sweet face for the last time. "good-bye!" he whispered to that dear sight, "good-bye!" and then in silence he turned away from her. she could hear his slow retreating footsteps, and something in the rhythm of them threw her into a passion of weeping. he walked away. he had fully meant to go to a lonely place where the meadows were beautiful with white narcissus, and there remain until the hour of his sacrifice should come, but as he walked he lifted up his eyes and saw the morning, the morning like an angel in golden armour, marching down the steeps . . . . it seemed to him that before this splendour he and this blind world in the valley, and his love and all, were no more than a pit of sin. he did not turn aside as he had meant to do, but went on and passed through the wall of the circumference and out upon the rocks, and his eyes were always upon the sunlit ice and snow. he saw their infinite beauty, and his imagination soared over them to the things beyond he was now to resign for ever! he thought of that great free world that he was parted from, the world that was his own, and he had a vision of those further slopes, distance beyond distance, with bogota, a place of multitudinous stirring beauty, a glory by day, a luminous mystery by night, a place of palaces and fountains and statues and white houses, lying beautifully in the middle distance. he thought how for a day or so one might come down through passes drawing ever nearer and nearer to its busy streets and ways. he thought of the river journey, day by day, from great bogota to the still vaster world beyond, through towns and villages, forest and desert places, the rushing river day by day, until its banks receded, and the big steamers came splashing by and one had reached the sea--the limitless sea, with its thousand islands, its thousands of islands, and its ships seen dimly far away in their incessant journeyings round and about that greater world. and there, unpent by mountains, one saw the sky--the sky, not such a disc as one saw it here, but an arch of immeasurable blue, a deep of deeps in which the circling stars were floating . . . . his eyes began to scrutinise the great curtain of the mountains with a keener inquiry. for example; if one went so, up that gully and to that chimney there, then one might come out high among those stunted pines that ran round in a sort of shelf and rose still higher and higher as it passed above the gorge. and then? that talus might be managed. thence perhaps a climb might be found to take him up to the precipice that came below the snow; and if that chimney failed, then another farther to the east might serve his purpose better. and then? then one would be out upon the amber-lit snow there, and half-way up to the crest of those beautiful desolations. and suppose one had good fortune! he glanced back at the village, then turned right round and regarded it with folded arms. he thought of medina-sarote, and she had become small and remote. he turned again towards the mountain wall down which the day had come to him. then very circumspectly he began his climb. when sunset came he was not longer climbing, but he was far and high. his clothes were torn, his limbs were bloodstained, he was bruised in many places, but he lay as if he were at his ease, and there was a smile on his face. from where he rested the valley seemed as if it were in a pit and nearly a mile below. already it was dim with haze and shadow, though the mountain summits around him were things of light and fire. the mountain summits around him were things of light and fire, and the little things in the rocks near at hand were drenched with light and beauty, a vein of green mineral piercing the grey, a flash of small crystal here and there, a minute, minutely-beautiful orange lichen close beside his face. there were deep, mysterious shadows in the gorge, blue deepening into purple, and purple into a luminous darkness, and overhead was the illimitable vastness of the sky. but he heeded these things no longer, but lay quite still there, smiling as if he were content now merely to have escaped from the valley of the blind, in which he had thought to be king. and the glow of the sunset passed, and the night came, and still he lay there, under the cold, clear stars. this etext was created by judith boss, of omaha, nebraska, from the garden city publishing company, edition, and first posted in august, . minor corrections made by andrew sly in october, . the island of doctor moreau by h. g. wells contents introduction i. in the dingey of the "lady vain" ii. the man who was going nowhere iii. the strange face iv. at the schooner's rail v. the man who had nowhere to go vi. the evil-looking boatmen vii. the locked door viii. the crying of the puma ix. the thing in the forest x. the crying of the man xi. the hunting of the man xii. the sayers of the law xiii. the parley xiv. doctor moreau explains xv. concerning the beast folk xvi. how the beast folk taste blood xvii. a catastrophe xviii. the finding of moreau xix. montgomery's bank holiday xx. alone with the beast folk xxi. the reversion of the beast folk xxii. the man alone introduction. on february the first , the lady vain was lost by collision with a derelict when about the latitude degree s. and longitude degrees w. on january the fifth, --that is eleven months and four days after--my uncle, edward prendick, a private gentleman, who certainly went aboard the lady vain at callao, and who had been considered drowned, was picked up in latitude degrees ' s. and longitude degrees w. in a small open boat of which the name was illegible, but which is supposed to have belonged to the missing schooner ipecacuanha. he gave such a strange account of himself that he was supposed demented. subsequently he alleged that his mind was a blank from the moment of his escape from the lady vain. his case was discussed among psychologists at the time as a curious instance of the lapse of memory consequent upon physical and mental stress. the following narrative was found among his papers by the undersigned, his nephew and heir, but unaccompanied by any definite request for publication. the only island known to exist in the region in which my uncle was picked up is noble's isle, a small volcanic islet and uninhabited. it was visited in by h. m. s. scorpion. a party of sailors then landed, but found nothing living thereon except certain curious white moths, some hogs and rabbits, and some rather peculiar rats. so that this narrative is without confirmation in its most essential particular. with that understood, there seems no harm in putting this strange story before the public in accordance, as i believe, with my uncle's intentions. there is at least this much in its behalf: my uncle passed out of human knowledge about latitude degrees s. and longitude degrees e., and reappeared in the same part of the ocean after a space of eleven months. in some way he must have lived during the interval. and it seems that a schooner called the ipecacuanha with a drunken captain, john davies, did start from africa with a puma and certain other animals aboard in january, , that the vessel was well known at several ports in the south pacific, and that it finally disappeared from those seas (with a considerable amount of copra aboard), sailing to its unknown fate from bayna in december, , a date that tallies entirely with my uncle's story. charles edward prendick. (the story written by edward prendick.) i. in the dingey of the "lady vain." i do not propose to add anything to what has already been written concerning the loss of the "lady vain." as everyone knows, she collided with a derelict when ten days out from callao. the longboat, with seven of the crew, was picked up eighteen days after by h. m. gunboat "myrtle," and the story of their terrible privations has become quite as well known as the far more horrible "medusa" case. but i have to add to the published story of the "lady vain" another, possibly as horrible and far stranger. it has hitherto been supposed that the four men who were in the dingey perished, but this is incorrect. i have the best of evidence for this assertion: i was one of the four men. but in the first place i must state that there never were four men in the dingey,--the number was three. constans, who was "seen by the captain to jump into the gig,"{ } luckily for us and unluckily for himself did not reach us. he came down out of the tangle of ropes under the stays of the smashed bowsprit, some small rope caught his heel as he let go, and he hung for a moment head downward, and then fell and struck a block or spar floating in the water. we pulled towards him, but he never came up. { } daily news, march , . i say luckily for us he did not reach us, and i might almost say luckily for himself; for we had only a small beaker of water and some soddened ship's biscuits with us, so sudden had been the alarm, so unprepared the ship for any disaster. we thought the people on the launch would be better provisioned (though it seems they were not), and we tried to hail them. they could not have heard us, and the next morning when the drizzle cleared,--which was not until past midday,--we could see nothing of them. we could not stand up to look about us, because of the pitching of the boat. the two other men who had escaped so far with me were a man named helmar, a passenger like myself, and a seaman whose name i don't know,--a short sturdy man, with a stammer. we drifted famishing, and, after our water had come to an end, tormented by an intolerable thirst, for eight days altogether. after the second day the sea subsided slowly to a glassy calm. it is quite impossible for the ordinary reader to imagine those eight days. he has not, luckily for himself, anything in his memory to imagine with. after the first day we said little to one another, and lay in our places in the boat and stared at the horizon, or watched, with eyes that grew larger and more haggard every day, the misery and weakness gaining upon our companions. the sun became pitiless. the water ended on the fourth day, and we were already thinking strange things and saying them with our eyes; but it was, i think, the sixth before helmar gave voice to the thing we had all been thinking. i remember our voices were dry and thin, so that we bent towards one another and spared our words. i stood out against it with all my might, was rather for scuttling the boat and perishing together among the sharks that followed us; but when helmar said that if his proposal was accepted we should have drink, the sailor came round to him. i would not draw lots however, and in the night the sailor whispered to helmar again and again, and i sat in the bows with my clasp-knife in my hand, though i doubt if i had the stuff in me to fight; and in the morning i agreed to helmar's proposal, and we handed halfpence to find the odd man. the lot fell upon the sailor; but he was the strongest of us and would not abide by it, and attacked helmar with his hands. they grappled together and almost stood up. i crawled along the boat to them, intending to help helmar by grasping the sailor's leg; but the sailor stumbled with the swaying of the boat, and the two fell upon the gunwale and rolled overboard together. they sank like stones. i remember laughing at that, and wondering why i laughed. the laugh caught me suddenly like a thing from without. i lay across one of the thwarts for i know not how long, thinking that if i had the strength i would drink sea-water and madden myself to die quickly. and even as i lay there i saw, with no more interest than if it had been a picture, a sail come up towards me over the sky-line. my mind must have been wandering, and yet i remember all that happened, quite distinctly. i remember how my head swayed with the seas, and the horizon with the sail above it danced up and down; but i also remember as distinctly that i had a persuasion that i was dead, and that i thought what a jest it was that they should come too late by such a little to catch me in my body. for an endless period, as it seemed to me, i lay with my head on the thwart watching the schooner (she was a little ship, schooner-rigged fore and aft) come up out of the sea. she kept tacking to and fro in a widening compass, for she was sailing dead into the wind. it never entered my head to attempt to attract attention, and i do not remember anything distinctly after the sight of her side until i found myself in a little cabin aft. there's a dim half-memory of being lifted up to the gangway, and of a big round countenance covered with freckles and surrounded with red hair staring at me over the bulwarks. i also had a disconnected impression of a dark face, with extraordinary eyes, close to mine; but that i thought was a nightmare, until i met it again. i fancy i recollect some stuff being poured in between my teeth; and that is all. ii. the man who was going nowhere. the cabin in which i found myself was small and rather untidy. a youngish man with flaxen hair, a bristly straw-coloured moustache, and a dropping nether lip, was sitting and holding my wrist. for a minute we stared at each other without speaking. he had watery grey eyes, oddly void of expression. then just overhead came a sound like an iron bedstead being knocked about, and the low angry growling of some large animal. at the same time the man spoke. he repeated his question,--"how do you feel now?" i think i said i felt all right. i could not recollect how i had got there. he must have seen the question in my face, for my voice was inaccessible to me. "you were picked up in a boat, starving. the name on the boat was the 'lady vain,' and there were spots of blood on the gunwale." at the same time my eye caught my hand, so thin that it looked like a dirty skin-purse full of loose bones, and all the business of the boat came back to me. "have some of this," said he, and gave me a dose of some scarlet stuff, iced. it tasted like blood, and made me feel stronger. "you were in luck," said he, "to get picked up by a ship with a medical man aboard." he spoke with a slobbering articulation, with the ghost of a lisp. "what ship is this?" i said slowly, hoarse from my long silence. "it's a little trader from arica and callao. i never asked where she came from in the beginning,--out of the land of born fools, i guess. i'm a passenger myself, from arica. the silly ass who owns her,--he's captain too, named davies,--he's lost his certificate, or something. you know the kind of man,--calls the thing the 'ipecacuanha,' of all silly, infernal names; though when there's much of a sea without any wind, she certainly acts according." (then the noise overhead began again, a snarling growl and the voice of a human being together. then another voice, telling some "heaven-forsaken idiot" to desist.) "you were nearly dead," said my interlocutor. "it was a very near thing, indeed. but i've put some stuff into you now. notice your arm's sore? injections. you've been insensible for nearly thirty hours." i thought slowly. (i was distracted now by the yelping of a number of dogs.) "am i eligible for solid food?" i asked. "thanks to me," he said. "even now the mutton is boiling." "yes," i said with assurance; "i could eat some mutton." "but," said he with a momentary hesitation, "you know i'm dying to hear of how you came to be alone in that boat. damn that howling!" i thought i detected a certain suspicion in his eyes. he suddenly left the cabin, and i heard him in violent controversy with some one, who seemed to me to talk gibberish in response to him. the matter sounded as though it ended in blows, but in that i thought my ears were mistaken. then he shouted at the dogs, and returned to the cabin. "well?" said he in the doorway. "you were just beginning to tell me." i told him my name, edward prendick, and how i had taken to natural history as a relief from the dulness of my comfortable independence. he seemed interested in this. "i've done some science myself. i did my biology at university college,--getting out the ovary of the earthworm and the radula of the snail, and all that. lord! it's ten years ago. but go on! go on! tell me about the boat." he was evidently satisfied with the frankness of my story, which i told in concise sentences enough, for i felt horribly weak; and when it was finished he reverted at once to the topic of natural history and his own biological studies. he began to question me closely about tottenham court road and gower street. "is caplatzi still flourishing? what a shop that was!" he had evidently been a very ordinary medical student, and drifted incontinently to the topic of the music halls. he told me some anecdotes. "left it all," he said, "ten years ago. how jolly it all used to be! but i made a young ass of myself,--played myself out before i was twenty-one. i daresay it's all different now. but i must look up that ass of a cook, and see what he's done to your mutton." the growling overhead was renewed, so suddenly and with so much savage anger that it startled me. "what's that?" i called after him, but the door had closed. he came back again with the boiled mutton, and i was so excited by the appetising smell of it that i forgot the noise of the beast that had troubled me. after a day of alternate sleep and feeding i was so far recovered as to be able to get from my bunk to the scuttle, and see the green seas trying to keep pace with us. i judged the schooner was running before the wind. montgomery--that was the name of the flaxen-haired man--came in again as i stood there, and i asked him for some clothes. he lent me some duck things of his own, for those i had worn in the boat had been thrown overboard. they were rather loose for me, for he was large and long in his limbs. he told me casually that the captain was three-parts drunk in his own cabin. as i assumed the clothes, i began asking him some questions about the destination of the ship. he said the ship was bound to hawaii, but that it had to land him first. "where?" said i. "it's an island, where i live. so far as i know, it hasn't got a name." he stared at me with his nether lip dropping, and looked so wilfully stupid of a sudden that it came into my head that he desired to avoid my questions. i had the discretion to ask no more. iii. the strange face. we left the cabin and found a man at the companion obstructing our way. he was standing on the ladder with his back to us, peering over the combing of the hatchway. he was, i could see, a misshapen man, short, broad, and clumsy, with a crooked back, a hairy neck, and a head sunk between his shoulders. he was dressed in dark-blue serge, and had peculiarly thick, coarse, black hair. i heard the unseen dogs growl furiously, and forthwith he ducked back,--coming into contact with the hand i put out to fend him off from myself. he turned with animal swiftness. in some indefinable way the black face thus flashed upon me shocked me profoundly. it was a singularly deformed one. the facial part projected, forming something dimly suggestive of a muzzle, and the huge half-open mouth showed as big white teeth as i had ever seen in a human mouth. his eyes were blood-shot at the edges, with scarcely a rim of white round the hazel pupils. there was a curious glow of excitement in his face. "confound you!" said montgomery. "why the devil don't you get out of the way?" the black-faced man started aside without a word. i went on up the companion, staring at him instinctively as i did so. montgomery stayed at the foot for a moment. "you have no business here, you know," he said in a deliberate tone. "your place is forward." the black-faced man cowered. "they--won't have me forward." he spoke slowly, with a queer, hoarse quality in his voice. "won't have you forward!" said montgomery, in a menacing voice. "but i tell you to go!" he was on the brink of saying something further, then looked up at me suddenly and followed me up the ladder. i had paused half way through the hatchway, looking back, still astonished beyond measure at the grotesque ugliness of this black-faced creature. i had never beheld such a repulsive and extraordinary face before, and yet--if the contradiction is credible--i experienced at the same time an odd feeling that in some way i _had_ already encountered exactly the features and gestures that now amazed me. afterwards it occurred to me that probably i had seen him as i was lifted aboard; and yet that scarcely satisfied my suspicion of a previous acquaintance. yet how one could have set eyes on so singular a face and yet have forgotten the precise occasion, passed my imagination. montgomery's movement to follow me released my attention, and i turned and looked about me at the flush deck of the little schooner. i was already half prepared by the sounds i had heard for what i saw. certainly i never beheld a deck so dirty. it was littered with scraps of carrot, shreds of green stuff, and indescribable filth. fastened by chains to the mainmast were a number of grisly staghounds, who now began leaping and barking at me, and by the mizzen a huge puma was cramped in a little iron cage far too small even to give it turning room. farther under the starboard bulwark were some big hutches containing a number of rabbits, and a solitary llama was squeezed in a mere box of a cage forward. the dogs were muzzled by leather straps. the only human being on deck was a gaunt and silent sailor at the wheel. the patched and dirty spankers were tense before the wind, and up aloft the little ship seemed carrying every sail she had. the sky was clear, the sun midway down the western sky; long waves, capped by the breeze with froth, were running with us. we went past the steersman to the taffrail, and saw the water come foaming under the stern and the bubbles go dancing and vanishing in her wake. i turned and surveyed the unsavoury length of the ship. "is this an ocean menagerie?" said i. "looks like it," said montgomery. "what are these beasts for? merchandise, curios? does the captain think he is going to sell them somewhere in the south seas?" "it looks like it, doesn't it?" said montgomery, and turned towards the wake again. suddenly we heard a yelp and a volley of furious blasphemy from the companion hatchway, and the deformed man with the black face came up hurriedly. he was immediately followed by a heavy red-haired man in a white cap. at the sight of the former the staghounds, who had all tired of barking at me by this time, became furiously excited, howling and leaping against their chains. the black hesitated before them, and this gave the red-haired man time to come up with him and deliver a tremendous blow between the shoulder-blades. the poor devil went down like a felled ox, and rolled in the dirt among the furiously excited dogs. it was lucky for him that they were muzzled. the red-haired man gave a yawp of exultation and stood staggering, and as it seemed to me in serious danger of either going backwards down the companion hatchway or forwards upon his victim. so soon as the second man had appeared, montgomery had started forward. "steady on there!" he cried, in a tone of remonstrance. a couple of sailors appeared on the forecastle. the black-faced man, howling in a singular voice rolled about under the feet of the dogs. no one attempted to help him. the brutes did their best to worry him, butting their muzzles at him. there was a quick dance of their lithe grey-figured bodies over the clumsy, prostrate figure. the sailors forward shouted, as though it was admirable sport. montgomery gave an angry exclamation, and went striding down the deck, and i followed him. the black-faced man scrambled up and staggered forward, going and leaning over the bulwark by the main shrouds, where he remained, panting and glaring over his shoulder at the dogs. the red-haired man laughed a satisfied laugh. "look here, captain," said montgomery, with his lisp a little accentuated, gripping the elbows of the red-haired man, "this won't do!" i stood behind montgomery. the captain came half round, and regarded him with the dull and solemn eyes of a drunken man. "wha' won't do?" he said, and added, after looking sleepily into montgomery's face for a minute, "blasted sawbones!" with a sudden movement he shook his arms free, and after two ineffectual attempts stuck his freckled fists into his side pockets. "that man's a passenger," said montgomery. "i'd advise you to keep your hands off him." "go to hell!" said the captain, loudly. he suddenly turned and staggered towards the side. "do what i like on my own ship," he said. i think montgomery might have left him then, seeing the brute was drunk; but he only turned a shade paler, and followed the captain to the bulwarks. "look you here, captain," he said; "that man of mine is not to be ill-treated. he has been hazed ever since he came aboard." for a minute, alcoholic fumes kept the captain speechless. "blasted sawbones!" was all he considered necessary. i could see that montgomery had one of those slow, pertinacious tempers that will warm day after day to a white heat, and never again cool to forgiveness; and i saw too that this quarrel had been some time growing. "the man's drunk," said i, perhaps officiously; "you'll do no good." montgomery gave an ugly twist to his dropping lip. "he's always drunk. do you think that excuses his assaulting his passengers?" "my ship," began the captain, waving his hand unsteadily towards the cages, "was a clean ship. look at it now!" it was certainly anything but clean. "crew," continued the captain, "clean, respectable crew." "you agreed to take the beasts." "i wish i'd never set eyes on your infernal island. what the devil--want beasts for on an island like that? then, that man of yours--understood he was a man. he's a lunatic; and he hadn't no business aft. do you think the whole damned ship belongs to you?" "your sailors began to haze the poor devil as soon as he came aboard." "that's just what he is--he's a devil! an ugly devil! my men can't stand him. _i_ can't stand him. none of us can't stand him. nor _you_ either!" montgomery turned away. "_you_ leave that man alone, anyhow," he said, nodding his head as he spoke. but the captain meant to quarrel now. he raised his voice. "if he comes this end of the ship again i'll cut his insides out, i tell you. cut out his blasted insides! who are you, to tell me what i'm to do? i tell you i'm captain of this ship,--captain and owner. i'm the law here, i tell you,--the law and the prophets. i bargained to take a man and his attendant to and from arica, and bring back some animals. i never bargained to carry a mad devil and a silly sawbones, a--" well, never mind what he called montgomery. i saw the latter take a step forward, and interposed. "he's drunk," said i. the captain began some abuse even fouler than the last. "shut up!" i said, turning on him sharply, for i had seen danger in montgomery's white face. with that i brought the downpour on myself. however, i was glad to avert what was uncommonly near a scuffle, even at the price of the captain's drunken ill-will. i do not think i have ever heard quite so much vile language come in a continuous stream from any man's lips before, though i have frequented eccentric company enough. i found some of it hard to endure, though i am a mild-tempered man; but, certainly, when i told the captain to "shut up" i had forgotten that i was merely a bit of human flotsam, cut off from my resources and with my fare unpaid; a mere casual dependant on the bounty, or speculative enterprise, of the ship. he reminded me of it with considerable vigour; but at any rate i prevented a fight. iv. at the schooner's rail. that night land was sighted after sundown, and the schooner hove to. montgomery intimated that was his destination. it was too far to see any details; it seemed to me then simply a low-lying patch of dim blue in the uncertain blue-grey sea. an almost vertical streak of smoke went up from it into the sky. the captain was not on deck when it was sighted. after he had vented his wrath on me he had staggered below, and i understand he went to sleep on the floor of his own cabin. the mate practically assumed the command. he was the gaunt, taciturn individual we had seen at the wheel. apparently he was in an evil temper with montgomery. he took not the slightest notice of either of us. we dined with him in a sulky silence, after a few ineffectual efforts on my part to talk. it struck me too that the men regarded my companion and his animals in a singularly unfriendly manner. i found montgomery very reticent about his purpose with these creatures, and about his destination; and though i was sensible of a growing curiosity as to both, i did not press him. we remained talking on the quarter deck until the sky was thick with stars. except for an occasional sound in the yellow-lit forecastle and a movement of the animals now and then, the night was very still. the puma lay crouched together, watching us with shining eyes, a black heap in the corner of its cage. montgomery produced some cigars. he talked to me of london in a tone of half-painful reminiscence, asking all kinds of questions about changes that had taken place. he spoke like a man who had loved his life there, and had been suddenly and irrevocably cut off from it. i gossiped as well as i could of this and that. all the time the strangeness of him was shaping itself in my mind; and as i talked i peered at his odd, pallid face in the dim light of the binnacle lantern behind me. then i looked out at the darkling sea, where in the dimness his little island was hidden. this man, it seemed to me, had come out of immensity merely to save my life. to-morrow he would drop over the side, and vanish again out of my existence. even had it been under commonplace circumstances, it would have made me a trifle thoughtful; but in the first place was the singularity of an educated man living on this unknown little island, and coupled with that the extraordinary nature of his luggage. i found myself repeating the captain's question. what did he want with the beasts? why, too, had he pretended they were not his when i had remarked about them at first? then, again, in his personal attendant there was a bizarre quality which had impressed me profoundly. these circumstances threw a haze of mystery round the man. they laid hold of my imagination, and hampered my tongue. towards midnight our talk of london died away, and we stood side by side leaning over the bulwarks and staring dreamily over the silent, starlit sea, each pursuing his own thoughts. it was the atmosphere for sentiment, and i began upon my gratitude. "if i may say it," said i, after a time, "you have saved my life." "chance," he answered. "just chance." "i prefer to make my thanks to the accessible agent." "thank no one. you had the need, and i had the knowledge; and i injected and fed you much as i might have collected a specimen. i was bored and wanted something to do. if i'd been jaded that day, or hadn't liked your face, well--it's a curious question where you would have been now!" this damped my mood a little. "at any rate," i began. "it's a chance, i tell you," he interrupted, "as everything is in a man's life. only the asses won't see it! why am i here now, an outcast from civilisation, instead of being a happy man enjoying all the pleasures of london? simply because eleven years ago--i lost my head for ten minutes on a foggy night." he stopped. "yes?" said i. "that's all." we relapsed into silence. presently he laughed. "there's something in this starlight that loosens one's tongue. i'm an ass, and yet somehow i would like to tell you." "whatever you tell me, you may rely upon my keeping to myself--if that's it." he was on the point of beginning, and then shook his head, doubtfully. "don't," said i. "it is all the same to me. after all, it is better to keep your secret. there's nothing gained but a little relief if i respect your confidence. if i don't--well?" he grunted undecidedly. i felt i had him at a disadvantage, had caught him in the mood of indiscretion; and to tell the truth i was not curious to learn what might have driven a young medical student out of london. i have an imagination. i shrugged my shoulders and turned away. over the taffrail leant a silent black figure, watching the stars. it was montgomery's strange attendant. it looked over its shoulder quickly with my movement, then looked away again. it may seem a little thing to you, perhaps, but it came like a sudden blow to me. the only light near us was a lantern at the wheel. the creature's face was turned for one brief instant out of the dimness of the stern towards this illumination, and i saw that the eyes that glanced at me shone with a pale-green light. i did not know then that a reddish luminosity, at least, is not uncommon in human eyes. the thing came to me as stark inhumanity. that black figure with its eyes of fire struck down through all my adult thoughts and feelings, and for a moment the forgotten horrors of childhood came back to my mind. then the effect passed as it had come. an uncouth black figure of a man, a figure of no particular import, hung over the taffrail against the starlight, and i found montgomery was speaking to me. "i'm thinking of turning in, then," said he, "if you've had enough of this." i answered him incongruously. we went below, and he wished me good-night at the door of my cabin. that night i had some very unpleasant dreams. the waning moon rose late. its light struck a ghostly white beam across my cabin, and made an ominous shape on the planking by my bunk. then the staghounds woke, and began howling and baying; so that i dreamt fitfully, and scarcely slept until the approach of dawn. v. the man who had nowhere to go. in the early morning (it was the second morning after my recovery, and i believe the fourth after i was picked up), i awoke through an avenue of tumultuous dreams,--dreams of guns and howling mobs,--and became sensible of a hoarse shouting above me. i rubbed my eyes and lay listening to the noise, doubtful for a little while of my whereabouts. then came a sudden pattering of bare feet, the sound of heavy objects being thrown about, a violent creaking and the rattling of chains. i heard the swish of the water as the ship was suddenly brought round, and a foamy yellow-green wave flew across the little round window and left it streaming. i jumped into my clothes and went on deck. as i came up the ladder i saw against the flushed sky--for the sun was just rising--the broad back and red hair of the captain, and over his shoulder the puma spinning from a tackle rigged on to the mizzen spanker-boom. the poor brute seemed horribly scared, and crouched in the bottom of its little cage. "overboard with 'em!" bawled the captain. "overboard with 'em! we'll have a clean ship soon of the whole bilin' of 'em." he stood in my way, so that i had perforce to tap his shoulder to come on deck. he came round with a start, and staggered back a few paces to stare at me. it needed no expert eye to tell that the man was still drunk. "hullo!" said he, stupidly; and then with a light coming into his eyes, "why, it's mister--mister?" "prendick," said i. "prendick be damned!" said he. "shut-up,--that's your name. mister shut-up." it was no good answering the brute; but i certainly did not expect his next move. he held out his hand to the gangway by which montgomery stood talking to a massive grey-haired man in dirty-blue flannels, who had apparently just come aboard. "that way, mister blasted shut-up! that way!" roared the captain. montgomery and his companion turned as he spoke. "what do you mean?" i said. "that way, mister blasted shut-up,--that's what i mean! overboard, mister shut-up,--and sharp! we're cleaning the ship out,--cleaning the whole blessed ship out; and overboard you go!" i stared at him dumfounded. then it occurred to me that it was exactly the thing i wanted. the lost prospect of a journey as sole passenger with this quarrelsome sot was not one to mourn over. i turned towards montgomery. "can't have you," said montgomery's companion, concisely. "you can't have me!" said i, aghast. he had the squarest and most resolute face i ever set eyes upon. "look here," i began, turning to the captain. "overboard!" said the captain. "this ship aint for beasts and cannibals and worse than beasts, any more. overboard you go, mister shut-up. if they can't have you, you goes overboard. but, anyhow, you go--with your friends. i've done with this blessed island for evermore, amen! i've had enough of it." "but, montgomery," i appealed. he distorted his lower lip, and nodded his head hopelessly at the grey-haired man beside him, to indicate his powerlessness to help me. "i'll see to _you_, presently," said the captain. then began a curious three-cornered altercation. alternately i appealed to one and another of the three men,--first to the grey-haired man to let me land, and then to the drunken captain to keep me aboard. i even bawled entreaties to the sailors. montgomery said never a word, only shook his head. "you're going overboard, i tell you," was the captain's refrain. "law be damned! i'm king here." at last i must confess my voice suddenly broke in the middle of a vigorous threat. i felt a gust of hysterical petulance, and went aft and stared dismally at nothing. meanwhile the sailors progressed rapidly with the task of unshipping the packages and caged animals. a large launch, with two standing lugs, lay under the lee of the schooner; and into this the strange assortment of goods were swung. i did not then see the hands from the island that were receiving the packages, for the hull of the launch was hidden from me by the side of the schooner. neither montgomery nor his companion took the slightest notice of me, but busied themselves in assisting and directing the four or five sailors who were unloading the goods. the captain went forward interfering rather than assisting. i was alternately despairful and desperate. once or twice as i stood waiting there for things to accomplish themselves, i could not resist an impulse to laugh at my miserable quandary. i felt all the wretcheder for the lack of a breakfast. hunger and a lack of blood-corpuscles take all the manhood from a man. i perceived pretty clearly that i had not the stamina either to resist what the captain chose to do to expel me, or to force myself upon montgomery and his companion. so i waited passively upon fate; and the work of transferring montgomery's possessions to the launch went on as if i did not exist. presently that work was finished, and then came a struggle. i was hauled, resisting weakly enough, to the gangway. even then i noticed the oddness of the brown faces of the men who were with montgomery in the launch; but the launch was now fully laden, and was shoved off hastily. a broadening gap of green water appeared under me, and i pushed back with all my strength to avoid falling headlong. the hands in the launch shouted derisively, and i heard montgomery curse at them; and then the captain, the mate, and one of the seamen helping him, ran me aft towards the stern. the dingey of the "lady vain" had been towing behind; it was half full of water, had no oars, and was quite unvictualled. i refused to go aboard her, and flung myself full length on the deck. in the end, they swung me into her by a rope (for they had no stern ladder), and then they cut me adrift. i drifted slowly from the schooner. in a kind of stupor i watched all hands take to the rigging, and slowly but surely she came round to the wind; the sails fluttered, and then bellied out as the wind came into them. i stared at her weather-beaten side heeling steeply towards me; and then she passed out of my range of view. i did not turn my head to follow her. at first i could scarcely believe what had happened. i crouched in the bottom of the dingey, stunned, and staring blankly at the vacant, oily sea. then i realised that i was in that little hell of mine again, now half swamped; and looking back over the gunwale, i saw the schooner standing away from me, with the red-haired captain mocking at me over the taffrail, and turning towards the island saw the launch growing smaller as she approached the beach. abruptly the cruelty of this desertion became clear to me. i had no means of reaching the land unless i should chance to drift there. i was still weak, you must remember, from my exposure in the boat; i was empty and very faint, or i should have had more heart. but as it was i suddenly began to sob and weep, as i had never done since i was a little child. the tears ran down my face. in a passion of despair i struck with my fists at the water in the bottom of the boat, and kicked savagely at the gunwale. i prayed aloud for god to let me die. vi. the evil-looking boatmen. but the islanders, seeing that i was really adrift, took pity on me. i drifted very slowly to the eastward, approaching the island slantingly; and presently i saw, with hysterical relief, the launch come round and return towards me. she was heavily laden, and i could make out as she drew nearer montgomery's white-haired, broad-shouldered companion sitting cramped up with the dogs and several packing-cases in the stern sheets. this individual stared fixedly at me without moving or speaking. the black-faced cripple was glaring at me as fixedly in the bows near the puma. there were three other men besides,--three strange brutish-looking fellows, at whom the staghounds were snarling savagely. montgomery, who was steering, brought the boat by me, and rising, caught and fastened my painter to the tiller to tow me, for there was no room aboard. i had recovered from my hysterical phase by this time and answered his hail, as he approached, bravely enough. i told him the dingey was nearly swamped, and he reached me a piggin. i was jerked back as the rope tightened between the boats. for some time i was busy baling. it was not until i had got the water under (for the water in the dingey had been shipped; the boat was perfectly sound) that i had leisure to look at the people in the launch again. the white-haired man i found was still regarding me steadfastly, but with an expression, as i now fancied, of some perplexity. when my eyes met his, he looked down at the staghound that sat between his knees. he was a powerfully-built man, as i have said, with a fine forehead and rather heavy features; but his eyes had that odd drooping of the skin above the lids which often comes with advancing years, and the fall of his heavy mouth at the corners gave him an expression of pugnacious resolution. he talked to montgomery in a tone too low for me to hear. from him my eyes travelled to his three men; and a strange crew they were. i saw only their faces, yet there was something in their faces--i knew not what--that gave me a queer spasm of disgust. i looked steadily at them, and the impression did not pass, though i failed to see what had occasioned it. they seemed to me then to be brown men; but their limbs were oddly swathed in some thin, dirty, white stuff down even to the fingers and feet: i have never seen men so wrapped up before, and women so only in the east. they wore turbans too, and thereunder peered out their elfin faces at me,--faces with protruding lower-jaws and bright eyes. they had lank black hair, almost like horsehair, and seemed as they sat to exceed in stature any race of men i have seen. the white-haired man, who i knew was a good six feet in height, sat a head below any one of the three. i found afterwards that really none were taller than myself; but their bodies were abnormally long, and the thigh-part of the leg short and curiously twisted. at any rate, they were an amazingly ugly gang, and over the heads of them under the forward lug peered the black face of the man whose eyes were luminous in the dark. as i stared at them, they met my gaze; and then first one and then another turned away from my direct stare, and looked at me in an odd, furtive manner. it occurred to me that i was perhaps annoying them, and i turned my attention to the island we were approaching. it was low, and covered with thick vegetation,--chiefly a kind of palm, that was new to me. from one point a thin white thread of vapour rose slantingly to an immense height, and then frayed out like a down feather. we were now within the embrace of a broad bay flanked on either hand by a low promontory. the beach was of dull-grey sand, and sloped steeply up to a ridge, perhaps sixty or seventy feet above the sea-level, and irregularly set with trees and undergrowth. half way up was a square enclosure of some greyish stone, which i found subsequently was built partly of coral and partly of pumiceous lava. two thatched roofs peeped from within this enclosure. a man stood awaiting us at the water's edge. i fancied while we were still far off that i saw some other and very grotesque-looking creatures scuttle into the bushes upon the slope; but i saw nothing of these as we drew nearer. this man was of a moderate size, and with a black negroid face. he had a large, almost lipless, mouth, extraordinary lank arms, long thin feet, and bow-legs, and stood with his heavy face thrust forward staring at us. he was dressed like montgomery and his white-haired companion, in jacket and trousers of blue serge. as we came still nearer, this individual began to run to and fro on the beach, making the most grotesque movements. at a word of command from montgomery, the four men in the launch sprang up, and with singularly awkward gestures struck the lugs. montgomery steered us round and into a narrow little dock excavated in the beach. then the man on the beach hastened towards us. this dock, as i call it, was really a mere ditch just long enough at this phase of the tide to take the longboat. i heard the bows ground in the sand, staved the dingey off the rudder of the big boat with my piggin, and freeing the painter, landed. the three muffled men, with the clumsiest movements, scrambled out upon the sand, and forthwith set to landing the cargo, assisted by the man on the beach. i was struck especially by the curious movements of the legs of the three swathed and bandaged boatmen,--not stiff they were, but distorted in some odd way, almost as if they were jointed in the wrong place. the dogs were still snarling, and strained at their chains after these men, as the white-haired man landed with them. the three big fellows spoke to one another in odd guttural tones, and the man who had waited for us on the beach began chattering to them excitedly--a foreign language, as i fancied--as they laid hands on some bales piled near the stern. somewhere i had heard such a voice before, and i could not think where. the white-haired man stood, holding in a tumult of six dogs, and bawling orders over their din. montgomery, having unshipped the rudder, landed likewise, and all set to work at unloading. i was too faint, what with my long fast and the sun beating down on my bare head, to offer any assistance. presently the white-haired man seemed to recollect my presence, and came up to me. "you look," said he, "as though you had scarcely breakfasted." his little eyes were a brilliant black under his heavy brows. "i must apologise for that. now you are our guest, we must make you comfortable,--though you are uninvited, you know." he looked keenly into my face. "montgomery says you are an educated man, mr. prendick; says you know something of science. may i ask what that signifies?" i told him i had spent some years at the royal college of science, and had done some researches in biology under huxley. he raised his eyebrows slightly at that. "that alters the case a little, mr. prendick," he said, with a trifle more respect in his manner. "as it happens, we are biologists here. this is a biological station--of a sort." his eye rested on the men in white who were busily hauling the puma, on rollers, towards the walled yard. "i and montgomery, at least," he added. then, "when you will be able to get away, i can't say. we're off the track to anywhere. we see a ship once in a twelve-month or so." he left me abruptly, and went up the beach past this group, and i think entered the enclosure. the other two men were with montgomery, erecting a pile of smaller packages on a low-wheeled truck. the llama was still on the launch with the rabbit hutches; the staghounds were still lashed to the thwarts. the pile of things completed, all three men laid hold of the truck and began shoving the ton-weight or so upon it after the puma. presently montgomery left them, and coming back to me held out his hand. "i'm glad," said he, "for my own part. that captain was a silly ass. he'd have made things lively for you." "it was you," said i, "that saved me again." "that depends. you'll find this island an infernally rum place, i promise you. i'd watch my goings carefully, if i were you. _he_--" he hesitated, and seemed to alter his mind about what was on his lips. "i wish you'd help me with these rabbits," he said. his procedure with the rabbits was singular. i waded in with him, and helped him lug one of the hutches ashore. no sooner was that done than he opened the door of it, and tilting the thing on one end turned its living contents out on the ground. they fell in a struggling heap one on the top of the other. he clapped his hands, and forthwith they went off with that hopping run of theirs, fifteen or twenty of them i should think, up the beach. "increase and multiply, my friends," said montgomery. "replenish the island. hitherto we've had a certain lack of meat here." as i watched them disappearing, the white-haired man returned with a brandy-flask and some biscuits. "something to go on with, prendick," said he, in a far more familiar tone than before. i made no ado, but set to work on the biscuits at once, while the white-haired man helped montgomery to release about a score more of the rabbits. three big hutches, however, went up to the house with the puma. the brandy i did not touch, for i have been an abstainer from my birth. vii. the locked door. the reader will perhaps understand that at first everything was so strange about me, and my position was the outcome of such unexpected adventures, that i had no discernment of the relative strangeness of this or that thing. i followed the llama up the beach, and was overtaken by montgomery, who asked me not to enter the stone enclosure. i noticed then that the puma in its cage and the pile of packages had been placed outside the entrance to this quadrangle. i turned and saw that the launch had now been unloaded, run out again, and was being beached, and the white-haired man was walking towards us. he addressed montgomery. "and now comes the problem of this uninvited guest. what are we to do with him?" "he knows something of science," said montgomery. "i'm itching to get to work again--with this new stuff," said the white-haired man, nodding towards the enclosure. his eyes grew brighter. "i daresay you are," said montgomery, in anything but a cordial tone. "we can't send him over there, and we can't spare the time to build him a new shanty; and we certainly can't take him into our confidence just yet." "i'm in your hands," said i. i had no idea of what he meant by "over there." "i've been thinking of the same things," montgomery answered. "there's my room with the outer door--" "that's it," said the elder man, promptly, looking at montgomery; and all three of us went towards the enclosure. "i'm sorry to make a mystery, mr. prendick; but you'll remember you're uninvited. our little establishment here contains a secret or so, is a kind of blue-beard's chamber, in fact. nothing very dreadful, really, to a sane man; but just now, as we don't know you--" "decidedly," said i, "i should be a fool to take offence at any want of confidence." he twisted his heavy mouth into a faint smile--he was one of those saturnine people who smile with the corners of the mouth down,--and bowed his acknowledgment of my complaisance. the main entrance to the enclosure was passed; it was a heavy wooden gate, framed in iron and locked, with the cargo of the launch piled outside it, and at the corner we came to a small doorway i had not previously observed. the white-haired man produced a bundle of keys from the pocket of his greasy blue jacket, opened this door, and entered. his keys, and the elaborate locking-up of the place even while it was still under his eye, struck me as peculiar. i followed him, and found myself in a small apartment, plainly but not uncomfortably furnished and with its inner door, which was slightly ajar, opening into a paved courtyard. this inner door montgomery at once closed. a hammock was slung across the darker corner of the room, and a small unglazed window defended by an iron bar looked out towards the sea. this the white-haired man told me was to be my apartment; and the inner door, which "for fear of accidents," he said, he would lock on the other side, was my limit inward. he called my attention to a convenient deck-chair before the window, and to an array of old books, chiefly, i found, surgical works and editions of the latin and greek classics (languages i cannot read with any comfort), on a shelf near the hammock. he left the room by the outer door, as if to avoid opening the inner one again. "we usually have our meals in here," said montgomery, and then, as if in doubt, went out after the other. "moreau!" i heard him call, and for the moment i do not think i noticed. then as i handled the books on the shelf it came up in consciousness: where had i heard the name of moreau before? i sat down before the window, took out the biscuits that still remained to me, and ate them with an excellent appetite. moreau! through the window i saw one of those unaccountable men in white, lugging a packing-case along the beach. presently the window-frame hid him. then i heard a key inserted and turned in the lock behind me. after a little while i heard through the locked door the noise of the staghounds, that had now been brought up from the beach. they were not barking, but sniffing and growling in a curious fashion. i could hear the rapid patter of their feet, and montgomery's voice soothing them. i was very much impressed by the elaborate secrecy of these two men regarding the contents of the place, and for some time i was thinking of that and of the unaccountable familiarity of the name of moreau; but so odd is the human memory that i could not then recall that well-known name in its proper connection. from that my thoughts went to the indefinable queerness of the deformed man on the beach. i never saw such a gait, such odd motions as he pulled at the box. i recalled that none of these men had spoken to me, though most of them i had found looking at me at one time or another in a peculiarly furtive manner, quite unlike the frank stare of your unsophisticated savage. indeed, they had all seemed remarkably taciturn, and when they did speak, endowed with very uncanny voices. what was wrong with them? then i recalled the eyes of montgomery's ungainly attendant. just as i was thinking of him he came in. he was now dressed in white, and carried a little tray with some coffee and boiled vegetables thereon. i could hardly repress a shuddering recoil as he came, bending amiably, and placed the tray before me on the table. then astonishment paralysed me. under his stringy black locks i saw his ear; it jumped upon me suddenly close to my face. the man had pointed ears, covered with a fine brown fur! "your breakfast, sair," he said. i stared at his face without attempting to answer him. he turned and went towards the door, regarding me oddly over his shoulder. i followed him out with my eyes; and as i did so, by some odd trick of unconscious cerebration, there came surging into my head the phrase, "the moreau hollows"--was it? "the moreau--" ah! it sent my memory back ten years. "the moreau horrors!" the phrase drifted loose in my mind for a moment, and then i saw it in red lettering on a little buff-coloured pamphlet, to read which made one shiver and creep. then i remembered distinctly all about it. that long-forgotten pamphlet came back with startling vividness to my mind. i had been a mere lad then, and moreau was, i suppose, about fifty,--a prominent and masterful physiologist, well-known in scientific circles for his extraordinary imagination and his brutal directness in discussion. was this the same moreau? he had published some very astonishing facts in connection with the transfusion of blood, and in addition was known to be doing valuable work on morbid growths. then suddenly his career was closed. he had to leave england. a journalist obtained access to his laboratory in the capacity of laboratory-assistant, with the deliberate intention of making sensational exposures; and by the help of a shocking accident (if it was an accident), his gruesome pamphlet became notorious. on the day of its publication a wretched dog, flayed and otherwise mutilated, escaped from moreau's house. it was in the silly season, and a prominent editor, a cousin of the temporary laboratory-assistant, appealed to the conscience of the nation. it was not the first time that conscience has turned against the methods of research. the doctor was simply howled out of the country. it may be that he deserved to be; but i still think that the tepid support of his fellow-investigators and his desertion by the great body of scientific workers was a shameful thing. yet some of his experiments, by the journalist's account, were wantonly cruel. he might perhaps have purchased his social peace by abandoning his investigations; but he apparently preferred the latter, as most men would who have once fallen under the overmastering spell of research. he was unmarried, and had indeed nothing but his own interest to consider. i felt convinced that this must be the same man. everything pointed to it. it dawned upon me to what end the puma and the other animals--which had now been brought with other luggage into the enclosure behind the house--were destined; and a curious faint odour, the halitus of something familiar, an odour that had been in the background of my consciousness hitherto, suddenly came forward into the forefront of my thoughts. it was the antiseptic odour of the dissecting-room. i heard the puma growling through the wall, and one of the dogs yelped as though it had been struck. yet surely, and especially to another scientific man, there was nothing so horrible in vivisection as to account for this secrecy; and by some odd leap in my thoughts the pointed ears and luminous eyes of montgomery's attendant came back again before me with the sharpest definition. i stared before me out at the green sea, frothing under a freshening breeze, and let these and other strange memories of the last few days chase one another through my mind. what could it all mean? a locked enclosure on a lonely island, a notorious vivisector, and these crippled and distorted men? viii. the crying of the puma. montgomery interrupted my tangle of mystification and suspicion about one o'clock, and his grotesque attendant followed him with a tray bearing bread, some herbs and other eatables, a flask of whiskey, a jug of water, and three glasses and knives. i glanced askance at this strange creature, and found him watching me with his queer, restless eyes. montgomery said he would lunch with me, but that moreau was too preoccupied with some work to come. "moreau!" said i. "i know that name." "the devil you do!" said he. "what an ass i was to mention it to you! i might have thought. anyhow, it will give you an inkling of our--mysteries. whiskey?" "no, thanks; i'm an abstainer." "i wish i'd been. but it's no use locking the door after the steed is stolen. it was that infernal stuff which led to my coming here,--that, and a foggy night. i thought myself in luck at the time, when moreau offered to get me off. it's queer--" "montgomery," said i, suddenly, as the outer door closed, "why has your man pointed ears?" "damn!" he said, over his first mouthful of food. he stared at me for a moment, and then repeated, "pointed ears?" "little points to them," said i, as calmly as possible, with a catch in my breath; "and a fine black fur at the edges?" he helped himself to whiskey and water with great deliberation. "i was under the impression--that his hair covered his ears." "i saw them as he stooped by me to put that coffee you sent to me on the table. and his eyes shine in the dark." by this time montgomery had recovered from the surprise of my question. "i always thought," he said deliberately, with a certain accentuation of his flavouring of lisp, "that there _was_ something the matter with his ears, from the way he covered them. what were they like?" i was persuaded from his manner that this ignorance was a pretence. still, i could hardly tell the man that i thought him a liar. "pointed," i said; "rather small and furry,--distinctly furry. but the whole man is one of the strangest beings i ever set eyes on." a sharp, hoarse cry of animal pain came from the enclosure behind us. its depth and volume testified to the puma. i saw montgomery wince. "yes?" he said. "where did you pick up the creature?" "san francisco. he's an ugly brute, i admit. half-witted, you know. can't remember where he came from. but i'm used to him, you know. we both are. how does he strike you?" "he's unnatural," i said. "there's something about him--don't think me fanciful, but it gives me a nasty little sensation, a tightening of my muscles, when he comes near me. it's a touch--of the diabolical, in fact." montgomery had stopped eating while i told him this. "rum!" he said. "i can't see it." he resumed his meal. "i had no idea of it," he said, and masticated. "the crew of the schooner must have felt it the same. made a dead set at the poor devil. you saw the captain?" suddenly the puma howled again, this time more painfully. montgomery swore under his breath. i had half a mind to attack him about the men on the beach. then the poor brute within gave vent to a series of short, sharp cries. "your men on the beach," said i; "what race are they?" "excellent fellows, aren't they?" said he, absentmindedly, knitting his brows as the animal yelled out sharply. i said no more. there was another outcry worse than the former. he looked at me with his dull grey eyes, and then took some more whiskey. he tried to draw me into a discussion about alcohol, professing to have saved my life with it. he seemed anxious to lay stress on the fact that i owed my life to him. i answered him distractedly. presently our meal came to an end; the misshapen monster with the pointed ears cleared the remains away, and montgomery left me alone in the room again. all the time he had been in a state of ill-concealed irritation at the noise of the vivisected puma. he had spoken of his odd want of nerve, and left me to the obvious application. i found myself that the cries were singularly irritating, and they grew in depth and intensity as the afternoon wore on. they were painful at first, but their constant resurgence at last altogether upset my balance. i flung aside a crib of horace i had been reading, and began to clench my fists, to bite my lips, and to pace the room. presently i got to stopping my ears with my fingers. the emotional appeal of those yells grew upon me steadily, grew at last to such an exquisite expression of suffering that i could stand it in that confined room no longer. i stepped out of the door into the slumberous heat of the late afternoon, and walking past the main entrance--locked again, i noticed--turned the corner of the wall. the crying sounded even louder out of doors. it was as if all the pain in the world had found a voice. yet had i known such pain was in the next room, and had it been dumb, i believe--i have thought since--i could have stood it well enough. it is when suffering finds a voice and sets our nerves quivering that this pity comes troubling us. but in spite of the brilliant sunlight and the green fans of the trees waving in the soothing sea-breeze, the world was a confusion, blurred with drifting black and red phantasms, until i was out of earshot of the house in the chequered wall. ix. the thing in the forest. i strode through the undergrowth that clothed the ridge behind the house, scarcely heeding whither i went; passed on through the shadow of a thick cluster of straight-stemmed trees beyond it, and so presently found myself some way on the other side of the ridge, and descending towards a streamlet that ran through a narrow valley. i paused and listened. the distance i had come, or the intervening masses of thicket, deadened any sound that might be coming from the enclosure. the air was still. then with a rustle a rabbit emerged, and went scampering up the slope before me. i hesitated, and sat down in the edge of the shade. the place was a pleasant one. the rivulet was hidden by the luxuriant vegetation of the banks save at one point, where i caught a triangular patch of its glittering water. on the farther side i saw through a bluish haze a tangle of trees and creepers, and above these again the luminous blue of the sky. here and there a splash of white or crimson marked the blooming of some trailing epiphyte. i let my eyes wander over this scene for a while, and then began to turn over in my mind again the strange peculiarities of montgomery's man. but it was too hot to think elaborately, and presently i fell into a tranquil state midway between dozing and waking. from this i was aroused, after i know not how long, by a rustling amidst the greenery on the other side of the stream. for a moment i could see nothing but the waving summits of the ferns and reeds. then suddenly upon the bank of the stream appeared something--at first i could not distinguish what it was. it bowed its round head to the water, and began to drink. then i saw it was a man, going on all-fours like a beast. he was clothed in bluish cloth, and was of a copper-coloured hue, with black hair. it seemed that grotesque ugliness was an invariable character of these islanders. i could hear the suck of the water at his lips as he drank. i leant forward to see him better, and a piece of lava, detached by my hand, went pattering down the slope. he looked up guiltily, and his eyes met mine. forthwith he scrambled to his feet, and stood wiping his clumsy hand across his mouth and regarding me. his legs were scarcely half the length of his body. so, staring one another out of countenance, we remained for perhaps the space of a minute. then, stopping to look back once or twice, he slunk off among the bushes to the right of me, and i heard the swish of the fronds grow faint in the distance and die away. long after he had disappeared, i remained sitting up staring in the direction of his retreat. my drowsy tranquillity had gone. i was startled by a noise behind me, and turning suddenly saw the flapping white tail of a rabbit vanishing up the slope. i jumped to my feet. the apparition of this grotesque, half-bestial creature had suddenly populated the stillness of the afternoon for me. i looked around me rather nervously, and regretted that i was unarmed. then i thought that the man i had just seen had been clothed in bluish cloth, had not been naked as a savage would have been; and i tried to persuade myself from that fact that he was after all probably a peaceful character, that the dull ferocity of his countenance belied him. yet i was greatly disturbed at the apparition. i walked to the left along the slope, turning my head about and peering this way and that among the straight stems of the trees. why should a man go on all-fours and drink with his lips? presently i heard an animal wailing again, and taking it to be the puma, i turned about and walked in a direction diametrically opposite to the sound. this led me down to the stream, across which i stepped and pushed my way up through the undergrowth beyond. i was startled by a great patch of vivid scarlet on the ground, and going up to it found it to be a peculiar fungus, branched and corrugated like a foliaceous lichen, but deliquescing into slime at the touch; and then in the shadow of some luxuriant ferns i came upon an unpleasant thing,--the dead body of a rabbit covered with shining flies, but still warm and with the head torn off. i stopped aghast at the sight of the scattered blood. here at least was one visitor to the island disposed of! there were no traces of other violence about it. it looked as though it had been suddenly snatched up and killed; and as i stared at the little furry body came the difficulty of how the thing had been done. the vague dread that had been in my mind since i had seen the inhuman face of the man at the stream grew distincter as i stood there. i began to realise the hardihood of my expedition among these unknown people. the thicket about me became altered to my imagination. every shadow became something more than a shadow,--became an ambush; every rustle became a threat. invisible things seemed watching me. i resolved to go back to the enclosure on the beach. i suddenly turned away and thrust myself violently, possibly even frantically, through the bushes, anxious to get a clear space about me again. i stopped just in time to prevent myself emerging upon an open space. it was a kind of glade in the forest, made by a fall; seedlings were already starting up to struggle for the vacant space; and beyond, the dense growth of stems and twining vines and splashes of fungus and flowers closed in again. before me, squatting together upon the fungoid ruins of a huge fallen tree and still unaware of my approach, were three grotesque human figures. one was evidently a female; the other two were men. they were naked, save for swathings of scarlet cloth about the middle; and their skins were of a dull pinkish-drab colour, such as i had seen in no savages before. they had fat, heavy, chinless faces, retreating foreheads, and a scant bristly hair upon their heads. i never saw such bestial-looking creatures. they were talking, or at least one of the men was talking to the other two, and all three had been too closely interested to heed the rustling of my approach. they swayed their heads and shoulders from side to side. the speaker's words came thick and sloppy, and though i could hear them distinctly i could not distinguish what he said. he seemed to me to be reciting some complicated gibberish. presently his articulation became shriller, and spreading his hands he rose to his feet. at that the others began to gibber in unison, also rising to their feet, spreading their hands and swaying their bodies in rhythm with their chant. i noticed then the abnormal shortness of their legs, and their lank, clumsy feet. all three began slowly to circle round, raising and stamping their feet and waving their arms; a kind of tune crept into their rhythmic recitation, and a refrain,--"aloola," or "balloola," it sounded like. their eyes began to sparkle, and their ugly faces to brighten, with an expression of strange pleasure. saliva dripped from their lipless mouths. suddenly, as i watched their grotesque and unaccountable gestures, i perceived clearly for the first time what it was that had offended me, what had given me the two inconsistent and conflicting impressions of utter strangeness and yet of the strangest familiarity. the three creatures engaged in this mysterious rite were human in shape, and yet human beings with the strangest air about them of some familiar animal. each of these creatures, despite its human form, its rag of clothing, and the rough humanity of its bodily form, had woven into it--into its movements, into the expression of its countenance, into its whole presence--some now irresistible suggestion of a hog, a swinish taint, the unmistakable mark of the beast. i stood overcome by this amazing realisation and then the most horrible questionings came rushing into my mind. they began leaping in the air, first one and then the other, whooping and grunting. then one slipped, and for a moment was on all-fours,--to recover, indeed, forthwith. but that transitory gleam of the true animalism of these monsters was enough. i turned as noiselessly as possible, and becoming every now and then rigid with the fear of being discovered, as a branch cracked or a leaf rustled, i pushed back into the bushes. it was long before i grew bolder, and dared to move freely. my only idea for the moment was to get away from these foul beings, and i scarcely noticed that i had emerged upon a faint pathway amidst the trees. then suddenly traversing a little glade, i saw with an unpleasant start two clumsy legs among the trees, walking with noiseless footsteps parallel with my course, and perhaps thirty yards away from me. the head and upper part of the body were hidden by a tangle of creeper. i stopped abruptly, hoping the creature did not see me. the feet stopped as i did. so nervous was i that i controlled an impulse to headlong flight with the utmost difficulty. then looking hard, i distinguished through the interlacing network the head and body of the brute i had seen drinking. he moved his head. there was an emerald flash in his eyes as he glanced at me from the shadow of the trees, a half-luminous colour that vanished as he turned his head again. he was motionless for a moment, and then with a noiseless tread began running through the green confusion. in another moment he had vanished behind some bushes. i could not see him, but i felt that he had stopped and was watching me again. what on earth was he,--man or beast? what did he want with me? i had no weapon, not even a stick. flight would be madness. at any rate the thing, whatever it was, lacked the courage to attack me. setting my teeth hard, i walked straight towards him. i was anxious not to show the fear that seemed chilling my backbone. i pushed through a tangle of tall white-flowered bushes, and saw him twenty paces beyond, looking over his shoulder at me and hesitating. i advanced a step or two, looking steadfastly into his eyes. "who are you?" said i. he tried to meet my gaze. "no!" he said suddenly, and turning went bounding away from me through the undergrowth. then he turned and stared at me again. his eyes shone brightly out of the dusk under the trees. my heart was in my mouth; but i felt my only chance was bluff, and walked steadily towards him. he turned again, and vanished into the dusk. once more i thought i caught the glint of his eyes, and that was all. for the first time i realised how the lateness of the hour might affect me. the sun had set some minutes since, the swift dusk of the tropics was already fading out of the eastern sky, and a pioneer moth fluttered silently by my head. unless i would spend the night among the unknown dangers of the mysterious forest, i must hasten back to the enclosure. the thought of a return to that pain-haunted refuge was extremely disagreeable, but still more so was the idea of being overtaken in the open by darkness and all that darkness might conceal. i gave one more look into the blue shadows that had swallowed up this odd creature, and then retraced my way down the slope towards the stream, going as i judged in the direction from which i had come. i walked eagerly, my mind confused with many things, and presently found myself in a level place among scattered trees. the colourless clearness that comes after the sunset flush was darkling; the blue sky above grew momentarily deeper, and the little stars one by one pierced the attenuated light; the interspaces of the trees, the gaps in the further vegetation, that had been hazy blue in the daylight, grew black and mysterious. i pushed on. the colour vanished from the world. the tree-tops rose against the luminous blue sky in inky silhouette, and all below that outline melted into one formless blackness. presently the trees grew thinner, and the shrubby undergrowth more abundant. then there was a desolate space covered with a white sand, and then another expanse of tangled bushes. i did not remember crossing the sand-opening before. i began to be tormented by a faint rustling upon my right hand. i thought at first it was fancy, for whenever i stopped there was silence, save for the evening breeze in the tree-tops. then when i turned to hurry on again there was an echo to my footsteps. i turned away from the thickets, keeping to the more open ground, and endeavouring by sudden turns now and then to surprise something in the act of creeping upon me. i saw nothing, and nevertheless my sense of another presence grew steadily. i increased my pace, and after some time came to a slight ridge, crossed it, and turned sharply, regarding it steadfastly from the further side. it came out black and clear-cut against the darkling sky; and presently a shapeless lump heaved up momentarily against the sky-line and vanished again. i felt assured now that my tawny-faced antagonist was stalking me once more; and coupled with that was another unpleasant realisation, that i had lost my way. for a time i hurried on hopelessly perplexed, and pursued by that stealthy approach. whatever it was, the thing either lacked the courage to attack me, or it was waiting to take me at some disadvantage. i kept studiously to the open. at times i would turn and listen; and presently i had half persuaded myself that my pursuer had abandoned the chase, or was a mere creation of my disordered imagination. then i heard the sound of the sea. i quickened my footsteps almost into a run, and immediately there was a stumble in my rear. i turned suddenly, and stared at the uncertain trees behind me. one black shadow seemed to leap into another. i listened, rigid, and heard nothing but the creep of the blood in my ears. i thought that my nerves were unstrung, and that my imagination was tricking me, and turned resolutely towards the sound of the sea again. in a minute or so the trees grew thinner, and i emerged upon a bare, low headland running out into the sombre water. the night was calm and clear, and the reflection of the growing multitude of the stars shivered in the tranquil heaving of the sea. some way out, the wash upon an irregular band of reef shone with a pallid light of its own. westward i saw the zodiacal light mingling with the yellow brilliance of the evening star. the coast fell away from me to the east, and westward it was hidden by the shoulder of the cape. then i recalled the fact that moreau's beach lay to the west. a twig snapped behind me, and there was a rustle. i turned, and stood facing the dark trees. i could see nothing--or else i could see too much. every dark form in the dimness had its ominous quality, its peculiar suggestion of alert watchfulness. so i stood for perhaps a minute, and then, with an eye to the trees still, turned westward to cross the headland; and as i moved, one among the lurking shadows moved to follow me. my heart beat quickly. presently the broad sweep of a bay to the westward became visible, and i halted again. the noiseless shadow halted a dozen yards from me. a little point of light shone on the further bend of the curve, and the grey sweep of the sandy beach lay faint under the starlight. perhaps two miles away was that little point of light. to get to the beach i should have to go through the trees where the shadows lurked, and down a bushy slope. i could see the thing rather more distinctly now. it was no animal, for it stood erect. at that i opened my mouth to speak, and found a hoarse phlegm choked my voice. i tried again, and shouted, "who is there?" there was no answer. i advanced a step. the thing did not move, only gathered itself together. my foot struck a stone. that gave me an idea. without taking my eyes off the black form before me, i stooped and picked up this lump of rock; but at my motion the thing turned abruptly as a dog might have done, and slunk obliquely into the further darkness. then i recalled a schoolboy expedient against big dogs, and twisted the rock into my handkerchief, and gave this a turn round my wrist. i heard a movement further off among the shadows, as if the thing was in retreat. then suddenly my tense excitement gave way; i broke into a profuse perspiration and fell a-trembling, with my adversary routed and this weapon in my hand. it was some time before i could summon resolution to go down through the trees and bushes upon the flank of the headland to the beach. at last i did it at a run; and as i emerged from the thicket upon the sand, i heard some other body come crashing after me. at that i completely lost my head with fear, and began running along the sand. forthwith there came the swift patter of soft feet in pursuit. i gave a wild cry, and redoubled my pace. some dim, black things about three or four times the size of rabbits went running or hopping up from the beach towards the bushes as i passed. so long as i live, i shall remember the terror of that chase. i ran near the water's edge, and heard every now and then the splash of the feet that gained upon me. far away, hopelessly far, was the yellow light. all the night about us was black and still. splash, splash, came the pursuing feet, nearer and nearer. i felt my breath going, for i was quite out of training; it whooped as i drew it, and i felt a pain like a knife at my side. i perceived the thing would come up with me long before i reached the enclosure, and, desperate and sobbing for my breath, i wheeled round upon it and struck at it as it came up to me,--struck with all my strength. the stone came out of the sling of the handkerchief as i did so. as i turned, the thing, which had been running on all-fours, rose to its feet, and the missile fell fair on its left temple. the skull rang loud, and the animal-man blundered into me, thrust me back with its hands, and went staggering past me to fall headlong upon the sand with its face in the water; and there it lay still. i could not bring myself to approach that black heap. i left it there, with the water rippling round it, under the still stars, and giving it a wide berth pursued my way towards the yellow glow of the house; and presently, with a positive effect of relief, came the pitiful moaning of the puma, the sound that had originally driven me out to explore this mysterious island. at that, though i was faint and horribly fatigued, i gathered together all my strength, and began running again towards the light. i thought i heard a voice calling me. x. the crying of the man. as i drew near the house i saw that the light shone from the open door of my room; and then i heard coming from out of the darkness at the side of that orange oblong of light, the voice of montgomery shouting, "prendick!" i continued running. presently i heard him again. i replied by a feeble "hullo!" and in another moment had staggered up to him. "where have you been?" said he, holding me at arm's length, so that the light from the door fell on my face. "we have both been so busy that we forgot you until about half an hour ago." he led me into the room and sat me down in the deck chair. for awhile i was blinded by the light. "we did not think you would start to explore this island of ours without telling us," he said; and then, "i was afraid--but--what--hullo!" my last remaining strength slipped from me, and my head fell forward on my chest. i think he found a certain satisfaction in giving me brandy. "for god's sake," said i, "fasten that door." "you've been meeting some of our curiosities, eh?" said he. he locked the door and turned to me again. he asked me no questions, but gave me some more brandy and water and pressed me to eat. i was in a state of collapse. he said something vague about his forgetting to warn me, and asked me briefly when i left the house and what i had seen. i answered him as briefly, in fragmentary sentences. "tell me what it all means," said i, in a state bordering on hysterics. "it's nothing so very dreadful," said he. "but i think you have had about enough for one day." the puma suddenly gave a sharp yell of pain. at that he swore under his breath. "i'm damned," said he, "if this place is not as bad as gower street, with its cats." "montgomery," said i, "what was that thing that came after me? was it a beast or was it a man?" "if you don't sleep to-night," he said, "you'll be off your head to-morrow." i stood up in front of him. "what was that thing that came after me?" i asked. he looked me squarely in the eyes, and twisted his mouth askew. his eyes, which had seemed animated a minute before, went dull. "from your account," said he, "i'm thinking it was a bogle." i felt a gust of intense irritation, which passed as quickly as it came. i flung myself into the chair again, and pressed my hands on my forehead. the puma began once more. montgomery came round behind me and put his hand on my shoulder. "look here, prendick," he said, "i had no business to let you drift out into this silly island of ours. but it's not so bad as you feel, man. your nerves are worked to rags. let me give you something that will make you sleep. _that_--will keep on for hours yet. you must simply get to sleep, or i won't answer for it." i did not reply. i bowed forward, and covered my face with my hands. presently he returned with a small measure containing a dark liquid. this he gave me. i took it unresistingly, and he helped me into the hammock. when i awoke, it was broad day. for a little while i lay flat, staring at the roof above me. the rafters, i observed, were made out of the timbers of a ship. then i turned my head, and saw a meal prepared for me on the table. i perceived that i was hungry, and prepared to clamber out of the hammock, which, very politely anticipating my intention, twisted round and deposited me upon all-fours on the floor. i got up and sat down before the food. i had a heavy feeling in my head, and only the vaguest memory at first of the things that had happened over night. the morning breeze blew very pleasantly through the unglazed window, and that and the food contributed to the sense of animal comfort which i experienced. presently the door behind me--the door inward towards the yard of the enclosure--opened. i turned and saw montgomery's face. "all right," said he. "i'm frightfully busy." and he shut the door. afterwards i discovered that he forgot to re-lock it. then i recalled the expression of his face the previous night, and with that the memory of all i had experienced reconstructed itself before me. even as that fear came back to me came a cry from within; but this time it was not the cry of a puma. i put down the mouthful that hesitated upon my lips, and listened. silence, save for the whisper of the morning breeze. i began to think my ears had deceived me. after a long pause i resumed my meal, but with my ears still vigilant. presently i heard something else, very faint and low. i sat as if frozen in my attitude. though it was faint and low, it moved me more profoundly than all that i had hitherto heard of the abominations behind the wall. there was no mistake this time in the quality of the dim, broken sounds; no doubt at all of their source. for it was groaning, broken by sobs and gasps of anguish. it was no brute this time; it was a human being in torment! as i realised this i rose, and in three steps had crossed the room, seized the handle of the door into the yard, and flung it open before me. "prendick, man! stop!" cried montgomery, intervening. a startled deerhound yelped and snarled. there was blood, i saw, in the sink,--brown, and some scarlet--and i smelt the peculiar smell of carbolic acid. then through an open doorway beyond, in the dim light of the shadow, i saw something bound painfully upon a framework, scarred, red, and bandaged; and then blotting this out appeared the face of old moreau, white and terrible. in a moment he had gripped me by the shoulder with a hand that was smeared red, had twisted me off my feet, and flung me headlong back into my own room. he lifted me as though i was a little child. i fell at full length upon the floor, and the door slammed and shut out the passionate intensity of his face. then i heard the key turn in the lock, and montgomery's voice in expostulation. "ruin the work of a lifetime," i heard moreau say. "he does not understand," said montgomery. and other things that were inaudible. "i can't spare the time yet," said moreau. the rest i did not hear. i picked myself up and stood trembling, my mind a chaos of the most horrible misgivings. could it be possible, i thought, that such a thing as the vivisection of men was carried on here? the question shot like lightning across a tumultuous sky; and suddenly the clouded horror of my mind condensed into a vivid realisation of my own danger. xi. the hunting of the man. it came before my mind with an unreasonable hope of escape that the outer door of my room was still open to me. i was convinced now, absolutely assured, that moreau had been vivisecting a human being. all the time since i had heard his name, i had been trying to link in my mind in some way the grotesque animalism of the islanders with his abominations; and now i thought i saw it all. the memory of his work on the transfusion of blood recurred to me. these creatures i had seen were the victims of some hideous experiment. these sickening scoundrels had merely intended to keep me back, to fool me with their display of confidence, and presently to fall upon me with a fate more horrible than death,--with torture; and after torture the most hideous degradation it is possible to conceive,--to send me off a lost soul, a beast, to the rest of their comus rout. i looked round for some weapon. nothing. then with an inspiration i turned over the deck chair, put my foot on the side of it, and tore away the side rail. it happened that a nail came away with the wood, and projecting, gave a touch of danger to an otherwise petty weapon. i heard a step outside, and incontinently flung open the door and found montgomery within a yard of it. he meant to lock the outer door! i raised this nailed stick of mine and cut at his face; but he sprang back. i hesitated a moment, then turned and fled, round the corner of the house. "prendick, man!" i heard his astonished cry, "don't be a silly ass, man!" another minute, thought i, and he would have had me locked in, and as ready as a hospital rabbit for my fate. he emerged behind the corner, for i heard him shout, "prendick!" then he began to run after me, shouting things as he ran. this time running blindly, i went northeastward in a direction at right angles to my previous expedition. once, as i went running headlong up the beach, i glanced over my shoulder and saw his attendant with him. i ran furiously up the slope, over it, then turning eastward along a rocky valley fringed on either side with jungle i ran for perhaps a mile altogether, my chest straining, my heart beating in my ears; and then hearing nothing of montgomery or his man, and feeling upon the verge of exhaustion, i doubled sharply back towards the beach as i judged, and lay down in the shelter of a canebrake. there i remained for a long time, too fearful to move, and indeed too fearful even to plan a course of action. the wild scene about me lay sleeping silently under the sun, and the only sound near me was the thin hum of some small gnats that had discovered me. presently i became aware of a drowsy breathing sound, the soughing of the sea upon the beach. after about an hour i heard montgomery shouting my name, far away to the north. that set me thinking of my plan of action. as i interpreted it then, this island was inhabited only by these two vivisectors and their animalised victims. some of these no doubt they could press into their service against me if need arose. i knew both moreau and montgomery carried revolvers; and, save for a feeble bar of deal spiked with a small nail, the merest mockery of a mace, i was unarmed. so i lay still there, until i began to think of food and drink; and at that thought the real hopelessness of my position came home to me. i knew no way of getting anything to eat. i was too ignorant of botany to discover any resort of root or fruit that might lie about me; i had no means of trapping the few rabbits upon the island. it grew blanker the more i turned the prospect over. at last in the desperation of my position, my mind turned to the animal men i had encountered. i tried to find some hope in what i remembered of them. in turn i recalled each one i had seen, and tried to draw some augury of assistance from my memory. then suddenly i heard a staghound bay, and at that realised a new danger. i took little time to think, or they would have caught me then, but snatching up my nailed stick, rushed headlong from my hiding-place towards the sound of the sea. i remember a growth of thorny plants, with spines that stabbed like pen-knives. i emerged bleeding and with torn clothes upon the lip of a long creek opening northward. i went straight into the water without a minute's hesitation, wading up the creek, and presently finding myself kneedeep in a little stream. i scrambled out at last on the westward bank, and with my heart beating loudly in my ears, crept into a tangle of ferns to await the issue. i heard the dog (there was only one) draw nearer, and yelp when it came to the thorns. then i heard no more, and presently began to think i had escaped. the minutes passed; the silence lengthened out, and at last after an hour of security my courage began to return to me. by this time i was no longer very much terrified or very miserable. i had, as it were, passed the limit of terror and despair. i felt now that my life was practically lost, and that persuasion made me capable of daring anything. i had even a certain wish to encounter moreau face to face; and as i had waded into the water, i remembered that if i were too hard pressed at least one path of escape from torment still lay open to me,--they could not very well prevent my drowning myself. i had half a mind to drown myself then; but an odd wish to see the whole adventure out, a queer, impersonal, spectacular interest in myself, restrained me. i stretched my limbs, sore and painful from the pricks of the spiny plants, and stared around me at the trees; and, so suddenly that it seemed to jump out of the green tracery about it, my eyes lit upon a black face watching me. i saw that it was the simian creature who had met the launch upon the beach. he was clinging to the oblique stem of a palm-tree. i gripped my stick, and stood up facing him. he began chattering. "you, you, you," was all i could distinguish at first. suddenly he dropped from the tree, and in another moment was holding the fronds apart and staring curiously at me. i did not feel the same repugnance towards this creature which i had experienced in my encounters with the other beast men. "you," he said, "in the boat." he was a man, then,--at least as much of a man as montgomery's attendant,--for he could talk. "yes," i said, "i came in the boat. from the ship." "oh!" he said, and his bright, restless eyes travelled over me, to my hands, to the stick i carried, to my feet, to the tattered places in my coat, and the cuts and scratches i had received from the thorns. he seemed puzzled at something. his eyes came back to my hands. he held his own hand out and counted his digits slowly, "one, two, three, four, five--eigh?" i did not grasp his meaning then; afterwards i was to find that a great proportion of these beast people had malformed hands, lacking sometimes even three digits. but guessing this was in some way a greeting, i did the same thing by way of reply. he grinned with immense satisfaction. then his swift roving glance went round again; he made a swift movement--and vanished. the fern fronds he had stood between came swishing together. i pushed out of the brake after him, and was astonished to find him swinging cheerfully by one lank arm from a rope of creepers that looped down from the foliage overhead. his back was to me. "hullo!" said i. he came down with a twisting jump, and stood facing me. "i say," said i, "where can i get something to eat?" "eat!" he said. "eat man's food, now." and his eye went back to the swing of ropes. "at the huts." "but where are the huts?" "oh!" "i'm new, you know." at that he swung round, and set off at a quick walk. all his motions were curiously rapid. "come along," said he. i went with him to see the adventure out. i guessed the huts were some rough shelter where he and some more of these beast people lived. i might perhaps find them friendly, find some handle in their minds to take hold of. i did not know how far they had forgotten their human heritage. my ape-like companion trotted along by my side, with his hands hanging down and his jaw thrust forward. i wondered what memory he might have in him. "how long have you been on this island?" said i. "how long?" he asked; and after having the question repeated, he held up three fingers. the creature was little better than an idiot. i tried to make out what he meant by that, and it seems i bored him. after another question or two he suddenly left my side and went leaping at some fruit that hung from a tree. he pulled down a handful of prickly husks and went on eating the contents. i noted this with satisfaction, for here at least was a hint for feeding. i tried him with some other questions, but his chattering, prompt responses were as often as not quite at cross purposes with my question. some few were appropriate, others quite parrot-like. i was so intent upon these peculiarities that i scarcely noticed the path we followed. presently we came to trees, all charred and brown, and so to a bare place covered with a yellow-white incrustation, across which a drifting smoke, pungent in whiffs to nose and eyes, went drifting. on our right, over a shoulder of bare rock, i saw the level blue of the sea. the path coiled down abruptly into a narrow ravine between two tumbled and knotty masses of blackish scoriae. into this we plunged. it was extremely dark, this passage, after the blinding sunlight reflected from the sulphurous ground. its walls grew steep, and approached each other. blotches of green and crimson drifted across my eyes. my conductor stopped suddenly. "home!" said he, and i stood in a floor of a chasm that was at first absolutely dark to me. i heard some strange noises, and thrust the knuckles of my left hand into my eyes. i became aware of a disagreeable odor, like that of a monkey's cage ill-cleaned. beyond, the rock opened again upon a gradual slope of sunlit greenery, and on either hand the light smote down through narrow ways into the central gloom. xii. the sayers of the law. then something cold touched my hand. i started violently, and saw close to me a dim pinkish thing, looking more like a flayed child than anything else in the world. the creature had exactly the mild but repulsive features of a sloth, the same low forehead and slow gestures. as the first shock of the change of light passed, i saw about me more distinctly. the little sloth-like creature was standing and staring at me. my conductor had vanished. the place was a narrow passage between high walls of lava, a crack in the knotted rock, and on either side interwoven heaps of sea-mat, palm-fans, and reeds leaning against the rock formed rough and impenetrably dark dens. the winding way up the ravine between these was scarcely three yards wide, and was disfigured by lumps of decaying fruit-pulp and other refuse, which accounted for the disagreeable stench of the place. the little pink sloth-creature was still blinking at me when my ape-man reappeared at the aperture of the nearest of these dens, and beckoned me in. as he did so a slouching monster wriggled out of one of the places, further up this strange street, and stood up in featureless silhouette against the bright green beyond, staring at me. i hesitated, having half a mind to bolt the way i had come; and then, determined to go through with the adventure, i gripped my nailed stick about the middle and crawled into the little evil-smelling lean-to after my conductor. it was a semi-circular space, shaped like the half of a bee-hive; and against the rocky wall that formed the inner side of it was a pile of variegated fruits, cocoa-nuts among others. some rough vessels of lava and wood stood about the floor, and one on a rough stool. there was no fire. in the darkest corner of the hut sat a shapeless mass of darkness that grunted "hey!" as i came in, and my ape-man stood in the dim light of the doorway and held out a split cocoa-nut to me as i crawled into the other corner and squatted down. i took it, and began gnawing it, as serenely as possible, in spite of a certain trepidation and the nearly intolerable closeness of the den. the little pink sloth-creature stood in the aperture of the hut, and something else with a drab face and bright eyes came staring over its shoulder. "hey!" came out of the lump of mystery opposite. "it is a man." "it is a man," gabbled my conductor, "a man, a man, a five-man, like me." "shut up!" said the voice from the dark, and grunted. i gnawed my cocoa-nut amid an impressive stillness. i peered hard into the blackness, but could distinguish nothing. "it is a man," the voice repeated. "he comes to live with us?" it was a thick voice, with something in it--a kind of whistling overtone--that struck me as peculiar; but the english accent was strangely good. the ape-man looked at me as though he expected something. i perceived the pause was interrogative. "he comes to live with you," i said. "it is a man. he must learn the law." i began to distinguish now a deeper blackness in the black, a vague outline of a hunched-up figure. then i noticed the opening of the place was darkened by two more black heads. my hand tightened on my stick. the thing in the dark repeated in a louder tone, "say the words." i had missed its last remark. "not to go on all-fours; that is the law," it repeated in a kind of sing-song. i was puzzled. "say the words," said the ape-man, repeating, and the figures in the doorway echoed this, with a threat in the tone of their voices. i realised that i had to repeat this idiotic formula; and then began the insanest ceremony. the voice in the dark began intoning a mad litany, line by line, and i and the rest to repeat it. as they did so, they swayed from side to side in the oddest way, and beat their hands upon their knees; and i followed their example. i could have imagined i was already dead and in another world. that dark hut, these grotesque dim figures, just flecked here and there by a glimmer of light, and all of them swaying in unison and chanting, "not to go on all-fours; that is the law. are we not men? "not to suck up drink; that is the law. are we not men? "not to eat fish or flesh; that is the law. are we not men? "not to claw the bark of trees; that is the law. are we not men? "not to chase other men; that is the law. are we not men?" and so from the prohibition of these acts of folly, on to the prohibition of what i thought then were the maddest, most impossible, and most indecent things one could well imagine. a kind of rhythmic fervour fell on all of us; we gabbled and swayed faster and faster, repeating this amazing law. superficially the contagion of these brutes was upon me, but deep down within me the laughter and disgust struggled together. we ran through a long list of prohibitions, and then the chant swung round to a new formula. "_his_ is the house of pain. "_his_ is the hand that makes. "_his_ is the hand that wounds. "_his_ is the hand that heals." and so on for another long series, mostly quite incomprehensible gibberish to me about _him_, whoever he might be. i could have fancied it was a dream, but never before have i heard chanting in a dream. "_his_ is the lightning flash," we sang. "_his_ is the deep, salt sea." a horrible fancy came into my head that moreau, after animalising these men, had infected their dwarfed brains with a kind of deification of himself. however, i was too keenly aware of white teeth and strong claws about me to stop my chanting on that account. "_his_ are the stars in the sky." at last that song ended. i saw the ape-man's face shining with perspiration; and my eyes being now accustomed to the darkness, i saw more distinctly the figure in the corner from which the voice came. it was the size of a man, but it seemed covered with a dull grey hair almost like a skye-terrier. what was it? what were they all? imagine yourself surrounded by all the most horrible cripples and maniacs it is possible to conceive, and you may understand a little of my feelings with these grotesque caricatures of humanity about me. "he is a five-man, a five-man, a five-man--like me," said the ape-man. i held out my hands. the grey creature in the corner leant forward. "not to run on all-fours; that is the law. are we not men?" he said. he put out a strangely distorted talon and gripped my fingers. the thing was almost like the hoof of a deer produced into claws. i could have yelled with surprise and pain. his face came forward and peered at my nails, came forward into the light of the opening of the hut and i saw with a quivering disgust that it was like the face of neither man nor beast, but a mere shock of grey hair, with three shadowy over-archings to mark the eyes and mouth. "he has little nails," said this grisly creature in his hairy beard. "it is well." he threw my hand down, and instinctively i gripped my stick. "eat roots and herbs; it is his will," said the ape-man. "i am the sayer of the law," said the grey figure. "here come all that be new to learn the law. i sit in the darkness and say the law." "it is even so," said one of the beasts in the doorway. "evil are the punishments of those who break the law. none escape." "none escape," said the beast folk, glancing furtively at one another. "none, none," said the ape-man,--"none escape. see! i did a little thing, a wrong thing, once. i jabbered, jabbered, stopped talking. none could understand. i am burnt, branded in the hand. he is great. he is good!" "none escape," said the grey creature in the corner. "none escape," said the beast people, looking askance at one another. "for every one the want that is bad," said the grey sayer of the law. "what you will want we do not know; we shall know. some want to follow things that move, to watch and slink and wait and spring; to kill and bite, bite deep and rich, sucking the blood. it is bad. 'not to chase other men; that is the law. are we not men? not to eat flesh or fish; that is the law. are we not men?'" "none escape," said a dappled brute standing in the doorway. "for every one the want is bad," said the grey sayer of the law. "some want to go tearing with teeth and hands into the roots of things, snuffing into the earth. it is bad." "none escape," said the men in the door. "some go clawing trees; some go scratching at the graves of the dead; some go fighting with foreheads or feet or claws; some bite suddenly, none giving occasion; some love uncleanness." "none escape," said the ape-man, scratching his calf. "none escape," said the little pink sloth-creature. "punishment is sharp and sure. therefore learn the law. say the words." and incontinently he began again the strange litany of the law, and again i and all these creatures began singing and swaying. my head reeled with this jabbering and the close stench of the place; but i kept on, trusting to find presently some chance of a new development. "not to go on all-fours; that is the law. are we not men?" we were making such a noise that i noticed nothing of a tumult outside, until some one, who i think was one of the two swine men i had seen, thrust his head over the little pink sloth-creature and shouted something excitedly, something that i did not catch. incontinently those at the opening of the hut vanished; my ape-man rushed out; the thing that had sat in the dark followed him (i only observed that it was big and clumsy, and covered with silvery hair), and i was left alone. then before i reached the aperture i heard the yelp of a staghound. in another moment i was standing outside the hovel, my chair-rail in my hand, every muscle of me quivering. before me were the clumsy backs of perhaps a score of these beast people, their misshapen heads half hidden by their shoulder-blades. they were gesticulating excitedly. other half-animal faces glared interrogation out of the hovels. looking in the direction in which they faced, i saw coming through the haze under the trees beyond the end of the passage of dens the dark figure and awful white face of moreau. he was holding the leaping staghound back, and close behind him came montgomery revolver in hand. for a moment i stood horror-struck. i turned and saw the passage behind me blocked by another heavy brute, with a huge grey face and twinkling little eyes, advancing towards me. i looked round and saw to the right of me and a half-dozen yards in front of me a narrow gap in the wall of rock through which a ray of light slanted into the shadows. "stop!" cried moreau as i strode towards this, and then, "hold him!" at that, first one face turned towards me and then others. their bestial minds were happily slow. i dashed my shoulder into a clumsy monster who was turning to see what moreau meant, and flung him forward into another. i felt his hands fly round, clutching at me and missing me. the little pink sloth-creature dashed at me, and i gashed down its ugly face with the nail in my stick and in another minute was scrambling up a steep side pathway, a kind of sloping chimney, out of the ravine. i heard a howl behind me, and cries of "catch him!" "hold him!" and the grey-faced creature appeared behind me and jammed his huge bulk into the cleft. "go on! go on!" they howled. i clambered up the narrow cleft in the rock and came out upon the sulphur on the westward side of the village of the beast men. that gap was altogether fortunate for me, for the narrow chimney, slanting obliquely upward, must have impeded the nearer pursuers. i ran over the white space and down a steep slope, through a scattered growth of trees, and came to a low-lying stretch of tall reeds, through which i pushed into a dark, thick undergrowth that was black and succulent under foot. as i plunged into the reeds, my foremost pursuers emerged from the gap. i broke my way through this undergrowth for some minutes. the air behind me and about me was soon full of threatening cries. i heard the tumult of my pursuers in the gap up the slope, then the crashing of the reeds, and every now and then the crackling crash of a branch. some of the creatures roared like excited beasts of prey. the staghound yelped to the left. i heard moreau and montgomery shouting in the same direction. i turned sharply to the right. it seemed to me even then that i heard montgomery shouting for me to run for my life. presently the ground gave rich and oozy under my feet; but i was desperate and went headlong into it, struggled through kneedeep, and so came to a winding path among tall canes. the noise of my pursuers passed away to my left. in one place three strange, pink, hopping animals, about the size of cats, bolted before my footsteps. this pathway ran up hill, across another open space covered with white incrustation, and plunged into a canebrake again. then suddenly it turned parallel with the edge of a steep-walled gap, which came without warning, like the ha-ha of an english park,--turned with an unexpected abruptness. i was still running with all my might, and i never saw this drop until i was flying headlong through the air. i fell on my forearms and head, among thorns, and rose with a torn ear and bleeding face. i had fallen into a precipitous ravine, rocky and thorny, full of a hazy mist which drifted about me in wisps, and with a narrow streamlet from which this mist came meandering down the centre. i was astonished at this thin fog in the full blaze of daylight; but i had no time to stand wondering then. i turned to my right, down-stream, hoping to come to the sea in that direction, and so have my way open to drown myself. it was only later i found that i had dropped my nailed stick in my fall. presently the ravine grew narrower for a space, and carelessly i stepped into the stream. i jumped out again pretty quickly, for the water was almost boiling. i noticed too there was a thin sulphurous scum drifting upon its coiling water. almost immediately came a turn in the ravine, and the indistinct blue horizon. the nearer sea was flashing the sun from a myriad facets. i saw my death before me; but i was hot and panting, with the warm blood oozing out on my face and running pleasantly through my veins. i felt more than a touch of exultation too, at having distanced my pursuers. it was not in me then to go out and drown myself yet. i stared back the way i had come. i listened. save for the hum of the gnats and the chirp of some small insects that hopped among the thorns, the air was absolutely still. then came the yelp of a dog, very faint, and a chattering and gibbering, the snap of a whip, and voices. they grew louder, then fainter again. the noise receded up the stream and faded away. for a while the chase was over; but i knew now how much hope of help for me lay in the beast people. xiii. a parley. i turned again and went on down towards the sea. i found the hot stream broadened out to a shallow, weedy sand, in which an abundance of crabs and long-bodied, many-legged creatures started from my footfall. i walked to the very edge of the salt water, and then i felt i was safe. i turned and stared, arms akimbo, at the thick green behind me, into which the steamy ravine cut like a smoking gash. but, as i say, i was too full of excitement and (a true saying, though those who have never known danger may doubt it) too desperate to die. then it came into my head that there was one chance before me yet. while moreau and montgomery and their bestial rabble chased me through the island, might i not go round the beach until i came to their enclosure,--make a flank march upon them, in fact, and then with a rock lugged out of their loosely-built wall, perhaps, smash in the lock of the smaller door and see what i could find (knife, pistol, or what not) to fight them with when they returned? it was at any rate something to try. so i turned to the westward and walked along by the water's edge. the setting sun flashed his blinding heat into my eyes. the slight pacific tide was running in with a gentle ripple. presently the shore fell away southward, and the sun came round upon my right hand. then suddenly, far in front of me, i saw first one and then several figures emerging from the bushes,--moreau, with his grey staghound, then montgomery, and two others. at that i stopped. they saw me, and began gesticulating and advancing. i stood watching them approach. the two beast men came running forward to cut me off from the undergrowth, inland. montgomery came, running also, but straight towards me. moreau followed slower with the dog. at last i roused myself from my inaction, and turning seaward walked straight into the water. the water was very shallow at first. i was thirty yards out before the waves reached to my waist. dimly i could see the intertidal creatures darting away from my feet. "what are you doing, man?" cried montgomery. i turned, standing waist deep, and stared at them. montgomery stood panting at the margin of the water. his face was bright-red with exertion, his long flaxen hair blown about his head, and his dropping nether lip showed his irregular teeth. moreau was just coming up, his face pale and firm, and the dog at his hand barked at me. both men had heavy whips. farther up the beach stared the beast men. "what am i doing? i am going to drown myself," said i. montgomery and moreau looked at each other. "why?" asked moreau. "because that is better than being tortured by you." "i told you so," said montgomery, and moreau said something in a low tone. "what makes you think i shall torture you?" asked moreau. "what i saw," i said. "and those--yonder." "hush!" said moreau, and held up his hand. "i will not," said i. "they were men: what are they now? i at least will not be like them." i looked past my interlocutors. up the beach were m'ling, montgomery's attendant, and one of the white-swathed brutes from the boat. farther up, in the shadow of the trees, i saw my little ape-man, and behind him some other dim figures. "who are these creatures?" said i, pointing to them and raising my voice more and more that it might reach them. "they were men, men like yourselves, whom you have infected with some bestial taint,--men whom you have enslaved, and whom you still fear. "you who listen," i cried, pointing now to moreau and shouting past him to the beast men,--"you who listen! do you not see these men still fear you, go in dread of you? why, then, do you fear them? you are many--" "for god's sake," cried montgomery, "stop that, prendick!" "prendick!" cried moreau. they both shouted together, as if to drown my voice; and behind them lowered the staring faces of the beast men, wondering, their deformed hands hanging down, their shoulders hunched up. they seemed, as i fancied, to be trying to understand me, to remember, i thought, something of their human past. i went on shouting, i scarcely remember what,--that moreau and montgomery could be killed, that they were not to be feared: that was the burden of what i put into the heads of the beast people. i saw the green-eyed man in the dark rags, who had met me on the evening of my arrival, come out from among the trees, and others followed him, to hear me better. at last for want of breath i paused. "listen to me for a moment," said the steady voice of moreau; "and then say what you will." "well?" said i. he coughed, thought, then shouted: "latin, prendick! bad latin, schoolboy latin; but try and understand. hi non sunt homines; sunt animalia qui nos habemus--vivisected. a humanising process. i will explain. come ashore." i laughed. "a pretty story," said i. "they talk, build houses. they were men. it's likely i'll come ashore." "the water just beyond where you stand is deep--and full of sharks." "that's my way," said i. "short and sharp. presently." "wait a minute." he took something out of his pocket that flashed back the sun, and dropped the object at his feet. "that's a loaded revolver," said he. "montgomery here will do the same. now we are going up the beach until you are satisfied the distance is safe. then come and take the revolvers." "not i! you have a third between you." "i want you to think over things, prendick. in the first place, i never asked you to come upon this island. if we vivisected men, we should import men, not beasts. in the next, we had you drugged last night, had we wanted to work you any mischief; and in the next, now your first panic is over and you can think a little, is montgomery here quite up to the character you give him? we have chased you for your good. because this island is full of inimical phenomena. besides, why should we want to shoot you when you have just offered to drown yourself?" "why did you set--your people onto me when i was in the hut?" "we felt sure of catching you, and bringing you out of danger. afterwards we drew away from the scent, for your good." i mused. it seemed just possible. then i remembered something again. "but i saw," said i, "in the enclosure--" "that was the puma." "look here, prendick," said montgomery, "you're a silly ass! come out of the water and take these revolvers, and talk. we can't do anything more than we could do now." i will confess that then, and indeed always, i distrusted and dreaded moreau; but montgomery was a man i felt i understood. "go up the beach," said i, after thinking, and added, "holding your hands up." "can't do that," said montgomery, with an explanatory nod over his shoulder. "undignified." "go up to the trees, then," said i, "as you please." "it's a damned silly ceremony," said montgomery. both turned and faced the six or seven grotesque creatures, who stood there in the sunlight, solid, casting shadows, moving, and yet so incredibly unreal. montgomery cracked his whip at them, and forthwith they all turned and fled helter-skelter into the trees; and when montgomery and moreau were at a distance i judged sufficient, i waded ashore, and picked up and examined the revolvers. to satisfy myself against the subtlest trickery, i discharged one at a round lump of lava, and had the satisfaction of seeing the stone pulverised and the beach splashed with lead. still i hesitated for a moment. "i'll take the risk," said i, at last; and with a revolver in each hand i walked up the beach towards them. "that's better," said moreau, without affectation. "as it is, you have wasted the best part of my day with your confounded imagination." and with a touch of contempt which humiliated me, he and montgomery turned and went on in silence before me. the knot of beast men, still wondering, stood back among the trees. i passed them as serenely as possible. one started to follow me, but retreated again when montgomery cracked his whip. the rest stood silent--watching. they may once have been animals; but i never before saw an animal trying to think. xiv. doctor moreau explains. "and now, prendick, i will explain," said doctor moreau, so soon as we had eaten and drunk. "i must confess that you are the most dictatorial guest i ever entertained. i warn you that this is the last i shall do to oblige you. the next thing you threaten to commit suicide about, i shan't do,--even at some personal inconvenience." he sat in my deck chair, a cigar half consumed in his white, dexterous-looking fingers. the light of the swinging lamp fell on his white hair; he stared through the little window out at the starlight. i sat as far away from him as possible, the table between us and the revolvers to hand. montgomery was not present. i did not care to be with the two of them in such a little room. "you admit that the vivisected human being, as you called it, is, after all, only the puma?" said moreau. he had made me visit that horror in the inner room, to assure myself of its inhumanity. "it is the puma," i said, "still alive, but so cut and mutilated as i pray i may never see living flesh again. of all vile--" "never mind that," said moreau; "at least, spare me those youthful horrors. montgomery used to be just the same. you admit that it is the puma. now be quiet, while i reel off my physiological lecture to you." and forthwith, beginning in the tone of a man supremely bored, but presently warming a little, he explained his work to me. he was very simple and convincing. now and then there was a touch of sarcasm in his voice. presently i found myself hot with shame at our mutual positions. the creatures i had seen were not men, had never been men. they were animals, humanised animals,--triumphs of vivisection. "you forget all that a skilled vivisector can do with living things," said moreau. "for my own part, i'm puzzled why the things i have done here have not been done before. small efforts, of course, have been made,--amputation, tongue-cutting, excisions. of course you know a squint may be induced or cured by surgery? then in the case of excisions you have all kinds of secondary changes, pigmentary disturbances, modifications of the passions, alterations in the secretion of fatty tissue. i have no doubt you have heard of these things?" "of course," said i. "but these foul creatures of yours--" "all in good time," said he, waving his hand at me; "i am only beginning. those are trivial cases of alteration. surgery can do better things than that. there is building up as well as breaking down and changing. you have heard, perhaps, of a common surgical operation resorted to in cases where the nose has been destroyed: a flap of skin is cut from the forehead, turned down on the nose, and heals in the new position. this is a kind of grafting in a new position of part of an animal upon itself. grafting of freshly obtained material from another animal is also possible,--the case of teeth, for example. the grafting of skin and bone is done to facilitate healing: the surgeon places in the middle of the wound pieces of skin snipped from another animal, or fragments of bone from a victim freshly killed. hunter's cock-spur--possibly you have heard of that--flourished on the bull's neck; and the rhinoceros rats of the algerian zouaves are also to be thought of,--monsters manufactured by transferring a slip from the tail of an ordinary rat to its snout, and allowing it to heal in that position." "monsters manufactured!" said i. "then you mean to tell me--" "yes. these creatures you have seen are animals carven and wrought into new shapes. to that, to the study of the plasticity of living forms, my life has been devoted. i have studied for years, gaining in knowledge as i go. i see you look horrified, and yet i am telling you nothing new. it all lay in the surface of practical anatomy years ago, but no one had the temerity to touch it. it is not simply the outward form of an animal which i can change. the physiology, the chemical rhythm of the creature, may also be made to undergo an enduring modification,--of which vaccination and other methods of inoculation with living or dead matter are examples that will, no doubt, be familiar to you. a similar operation is the transfusion of blood,--with which subject, indeed, i began. these are all familiar cases. less so, and probably far more extensive, were the operations of those mediaeval practitioners who made dwarfs and beggar-cripples, show-monsters,--some vestiges of whose art still remain in the preliminary manipulation of the young mountebank or contortionist. victor hugo gives an account of them in 'l'homme qui rit.'--but perhaps my meaning grows plain now. you begin to see that it is a possible thing to transplant tissue from one part of an animal to another, or from one animal to another; to alter its chemical reactions and methods of growth; to modify the articulations of its limbs; and, indeed, to change it in its most intimate structure. "and yet this extraordinary branch of knowledge has never been sought as an end, and systematically, by modern investigators until i took it up! some such things have been hit upon in the last resort of surgery; most of the kindred evidence that will recur to your mind has been demonstrated as it were by accident,--by tyrants, by criminals, by the breeders of horses and dogs, by all kinds of untrained clumsy-handed men working for their own immediate ends. i was the first man to take up this question armed with antiseptic surgery, and with a really scientific knowledge of the laws of growth. yet one would imagine it must have been practised in secret before. such creatures as the siamese twins--and in the vaults of the inquisition. no doubt their chief aim was artistic torture, but some at least of the inquisitors must have had a touch of scientific curiosity." "but," said i, "these things--these animals talk!" he said that was so, and proceeded to point out that the possibility of vivisection does not stop at a mere physical metamorphosis. a pig may be educated. the mental structure is even less determinate than the bodily. in our growing science of hypnotism we find the promise of a possibility of superseding old inherent instincts by new suggestions, grafting upon or replacing the inherited fixed ideas. very much indeed of what we call moral education, he said, is such an artificial modification and perversion of instinct; pugnacity is trained into courageous self-sacrifice, and suppressed sexuality into religious emotion. and the great difference between man and monkey is in the larynx, he continued,--in the incapacity to frame delicately different sound-symbols by which thought could be sustained. in this i failed to agree with him, but with a certain incivility he declined to notice my objection. he repeated that the thing was so, and continued his account of his work. i asked him why he had taken the human form as a model. there seemed to me then, and there still seems to me now, a strange wickedness for that choice. he confessed that he had chosen that form by chance. "i might just as well have worked to form sheep into llamas and llamas into sheep. i suppose there is something in the human form that appeals to the artistic turn of mind more powerfully than any animal shape can. but i've not confined myself to man-making. once or twice--" he was silent, for a minute perhaps. "these years! how they have slipped by! and here i have wasted a day saving your life, and am now wasting an hour explaining myself!" "but," said i, "i still do not understand. where is your justification for inflicting all this pain? the only thing that could excuse vivisection to me would be some application--" "precisely," said he. "but, you see, i am differently constituted. we are on different platforms. you are a materialist." "i am _not_ a materialist," i began hotly. "in my view--in my view. for it is just this question of pain that parts us. so long as visible or audible pain turns you sick; so long as your own pains drive you; so long as pain underlies your propositions about sin,--so long, i tell you, you are an animal, thinking a little less obscurely what an animal feels. this pain--" i gave an impatient shrug at such sophistry. "oh, but it is such a little thing! a mind truly opened to what science has to teach must see that it is a little thing. it may be that save in this little planet, this speck of cosmic dust, invisible long before the nearest star could be attained--it may be, i say, that nowhere else does this thing called pain occur. but the laws we feel our way towards--why, even on this earth, even among living things, what pain is there?" as he spoke he drew a little penknife from his pocket, opened the smaller blade, and moved his chair so that i could see his thigh. then, choosing the place deliberately, he drove the blade into his leg and withdrew it. "no doubt," he said, "you have seen that before. it does not hurt a pin-prick. but what does it show? the capacity for pain is not needed in the muscle, and it is not placed there,--is but little needed in the skin, and only here and there over the thigh is a spot capable of feeling pain. pain is simply our intrinsic medical adviser to warn us and stimulate us. not all living flesh is painful; nor is all nerve, not even all sensory nerve. there's no taint of pain, real pain, in the sensations of the optic nerve. if you wound the optic nerve, you merely see flashes of light,--just as disease of the auditory nerve merely means a humming in our ears. plants do not feel pain, nor the lower animals; it's possible that such animals as the starfish and crayfish do not feel pain at all. then with men, the more intelligent they become, the more intelligently they will see after their own welfare, and the less they will need the goad to keep them out of danger. i never yet heard of a useless thing that was not ground out of existence by evolution sooner or later. did you? and pain gets needless. "then i am a religious man, prendick, as every sane man must be. it may be, i fancy, that i have seen more of the ways of this world's maker than you,--for i have sought his laws, in _my_ way, all my life, while you, i understand, have been collecting butterflies. and i tell you, pleasure and pain have nothing to do with heaven or hell. pleasure and pain--bah! what is your theologian's ecstasy but mahomet's houri in the dark? this store which men and women set on pleasure and pain, prendick, is the mark of the beast upon them,--the mark of the beast from which they came! pain, pain and pleasure, they are for us only so long as we wriggle in the dust. "you see, i went on with this research just the way it led me. that is the only way i ever heard of true research going. i asked a question, devised some method of obtaining an answer, and got a fresh question. was this possible or that possible? you cannot imagine what this means to an investigator, what an intellectual passion grows upon him! you cannot imagine the strange, colourless delight of these intellectual desires! the thing before you is no longer an animal, a fellow-creature, but a problem! sympathetic pain,--all i know of it i remember as a thing i used to suffer from years ago. i wanted--it was the one thing i wanted--to find out the extreme limit of plasticity in a living shape." "but," said i, "the thing is an abomination--" "to this day i have never troubled about the ethics of the matter," he continued. "the study of nature makes a man at last as remorseless as nature. i have gone on, not heeding anything but the question i was pursuing; and the material has--dripped into the huts yonder. it is nearly eleven years since we came here, i and montgomery and six kanakas. i remember the green stillness of the island and the empty ocean about us, as though it was yesterday. the place seemed waiting for me. "the stores were landed and the house was built. the kanakas founded some huts near the ravine. i went to work here upon what i had brought with me. there were some disagreeable things happened at first. i began with a sheep, and killed it after a day and a half by a slip of the scalpel. i took another sheep, and made a thing of pain and fear and left it bound up to heal. it looked quite human to me when i had finished it; but when i went to it i was discontented with it. it remembered me, and was terrified beyond imagination; and it had no more than the wits of a sheep. the more i looked at it the clumsier it seemed, until at last i put the monster out of its misery. these animals without courage, these fear-haunted, pain-driven things, without a spark of pugnacious energy to face torment,--they are no good for man-making. "then i took a gorilla i had; and upon that, working with infinite care and mastering difficulty after difficulty, i made my first man. all the week, night and day, i moulded him. with him it was chiefly the brain that needed moulding; much had to be added, much changed. i thought him a fair specimen of the negroid type when i had finished him, and he lay bandaged, bound, and motionless before me. it was only when his life was assured that i left him and came into this room again, and found montgomery much as you are. he had heard some of the cries as the thing grew human,--cries like those that disturbed _you_ so. i didn't take him completely into my confidence at first. and the kanakas too, had realised something of it. they were scared out of their wits by the sight of me. i got montgomery over to me--in a way; but i and he had the hardest job to prevent the kanakas deserting. finally they did; and so we lost the yacht. i spent many days educating the brute,--altogether i had him for three or four months. i taught him the rudiments of english; gave him ideas of counting; even made the thing read the alphabet. but at that he was slow, though i've met with idiots slower. he began with a clean sheet, mentally; had no memories left in his mind of what he had been. when his scars were quite healed, and he was no longer anything but painful and stiff, and able to converse a little, i took him yonder and introduced him to the kanakas as an interesting stowaway. "they were horribly afraid of him at first, somehow,--which offended me rather, for i was conceited about him; but his ways seemed so mild, and he was so abject, that after a time they received him and took his education in hand. he was quick to learn, very imitative and adaptive, and built himself a hovel rather better, it seemed to me, than their own shanties. there was one among the boys a bit of a missionary, and he taught the thing to read, or at least to pick out letters, and gave him some rudimentary ideas of morality; but it seems the beast's habits were not all that is desirable. "i rested from work for some days after this, and was in a mind to write an account of the whole affair to wake up english physiology. then i came upon the creature squatting up in a tree and gibbering at two of the kanakas who had been teasing him. i threatened him, told him the inhumanity of such a proceeding, aroused his sense of shame, and came home resolved to do better before i took my work back to england. i have been doing better. but somehow the things drift back again: the stubborn beast-flesh grows day by day back again. but i mean to do better things still. i mean to conquer that. this puma-- "but that's the story. all the kanaka boys are dead now; one fell overboard of the launch, and one died of a wounded heel that he poisoned in some way with plant-juice. three went away in the yacht, and i suppose and hope were drowned. the other one--was killed. well, i have replaced them. montgomery went on much as you are disposed to do at first, and then-- "what became of the other one?" said i, sharply,--"the other kanaka who was killed?" "the fact is, after i had made a number of human creatures i made a thing--" he hesitated. "yes?" said i. "it was killed." "i don't understand," said i; "do you mean to say--" "it killed the kanaka--yes. it killed several other things that it caught. we chased it for a couple of days. it only got loose by accident--i never meant it to get away. it wasn't finished. it was purely an experiment. it was a limbless thing, with a horrible face, that writhed along the ground in a serpentine fashion. it was immensely strong, and in infuriating pain. it lurked in the woods for some days, until we hunted it; and then it wriggled into the northern part of the island, and we divided the party to close in upon it. montgomery insisted upon coming with me. the man had a rifle; and when his body was found, one of the barrels was curved into the shape of an s and very nearly bitten through. montgomery shot the thing. after that i stuck to the ideal of humanity--except for little things." he became silent. i sat in silence watching his face. "so for twenty years altogether--counting nine years in england--i have been going on; and there is still something in everything i do that defeats me, makes me dissatisfied, challenges me to further effort. sometimes i rise above my level, sometimes i fall below it; but always i fall short of the things i dream. the human shape i can get now, almost with ease, so that it is lithe and graceful, or thick and strong; but often there is trouble with the hands and the claws,--painful things, that i dare not shape too freely. but it is in the subtle grafting and reshaping one must needs do to the brain that my trouble lies. the intelligence is often oddly low, with unaccountable blank ends, unexpected gaps. and least satisfactory of all is something that i cannot touch, somewhere--i cannot determine where--in the seat of the emotions. cravings, instincts, desires that harm humanity, a strange hidden reservoir to burst forth suddenly and inundate the whole being of the creature with anger, hate, or fear. these creatures of mine seemed strange and uncanny to you so soon as you began to observe them; but to me, just after i make them, they seem to be indisputably human beings. it's afterwards, as i observe them, that the persuasion fades. first one animal trait, then another, creeps to the surface and stares out at me. but i will conquer yet! each time i dip a living creature into the bath of burning pain, i say, 'this time i will burn out all the animal; this time i will make a rational creature of my own!' after all, what is ten years? men have been a hundred thousand in the making." he thought darkly. "but i am drawing near the fastness. this puma of mine--" after a silence, "and they revert. as soon as my hand is taken from them the beast begins to creep back, begins to assert itself again." another long silence. "then you take the things you make into those dens?" said i. "they go. i turn them out when i begin to feel the beast in them, and presently they wander there. they all dread this house and me. there is a kind of travesty of humanity over there. montgomery knows about it, for he interferes in their affairs. he has trained one or two of them to our service. he's ashamed of it, but i believe he half likes some of those beasts. it's his business, not mine. they only sicken me with a sense of failure. i take no interest in them. i fancy they follow in the lines the kanaka missionary marked out, and have a kind of mockery of a rational life, poor beasts! there's something they call the law. sing hymns about 'all thine.' they build themselves their dens, gather fruit, and pull herbs--marry even. but i can see through it all, see into their very souls, and see there nothing but the souls of beasts, beasts that perish, anger and the lusts to live and gratify themselves.--yet they're odd; complex, like everything else alive. there is a kind of upward striving in them, part vanity, part waste sexual emotion, part waste curiosity. it only mocks me. i have some hope of this puma. i have worked hard at her head and brain-- "and now," said he, standing up after a long gap of silence, during which we had each pursued our own thoughts, "what do you think? are you in fear of me still?" i looked at him, and saw but a white-faced, white-haired man, with calm eyes. save for his serenity, the touch almost of beauty that resulted from his set tranquillity and his magnificent build, he might have passed muster among a hundred other comfortable old gentlemen. then i shivered. by way of answer to his second question, i handed him a revolver with either hand. "keep them," he said, and snatched at a yawn. he stood up, stared at me for a moment, and smiled. "you have had two eventful days," said he. "i should advise some sleep. i'm glad it's all clear. good-night." he thought me over for a moment, then went out by the inner door. i immediately turned the key in the outer one. i sat down again; sat for a time in a kind of stagnant mood, so weary, emotionally, mentally, and physically, that i could not think beyond the point at which he had left me. the black window stared at me like an eye. at last with an effort i put out the light and got into the hammock. very soon i was asleep. xv. concerning the beast folk. i woke early. moreau's explanation stood before my mind, clear and definite, from the moment of my awakening. i got out of the hammock and went to the door to assure myself that the key was turned. then i tried the window-bar, and found it firmly fixed. that these man-like creatures were in truth only bestial monsters, mere grotesque travesties of men, filled me with a vague uncertainty of their possibilities which was far worse than any definite fear. a tapping came at the door, and i heard the glutinous accents of m'ling speaking. i pocketed one of the revolvers (keeping one hand upon it), and opened to him. "good-morning, sair," he said, bringing in, in addition to the customary herb-breakfast, an ill-cooked rabbit. montgomery followed him. his roving eye caught the position of my arm and he smiled askew. the puma was resting to heal that day; but moreau, who was singularly solitary in his habits, did not join us. i talked with montgomery to clear my ideas of the way in which the beast folk lived. in particular, i was urgent to know how these inhuman monsters were kept from falling upon moreau and montgomery and from rending one another. he explained to me that the comparative safety of moreau and himself was due to the limited mental scope of these monsters. in spite of their increased intelligence and the tendency of their animal instincts to reawaken, they had certain fixed ideas implanted by moreau in their minds, which absolutely bounded their imaginations. they were really hypnotised; had been told that certain things were impossible, and that certain things were not to be done, and these prohibitions were woven into the texture of their minds beyond any possibility of disobedience or dispute. certain matters, however, in which old instinct was at war with moreau's convenience, were in a less stable condition. a series of propositions called the law (i had already heard them recited) battled in their minds with the deep-seated, ever-rebellious cravings of their animal natures. this law they were ever repeating, i found, and ever breaking. both montgomery and moreau displayed particular solicitude to keep them ignorant of the taste of blood; they feared the inevitable suggestions of that flavour. montgomery told me that the law, especially among the feline beast people, became oddly weakened about nightfall; that then the animal was at its strongest; that a spirit of adventure sprang up in them at the dusk, when they would dare things they never seemed to dream about by day. to that i owed my stalking by the leopard-man, on the night of my arrival. but during these earlier days of my stay they broke the law only furtively and after dark; in the daylight there was a general atmosphere of respect for its multifarious prohibitions. and here perhaps i may give a few general facts about the island and the beast people. the island, which was of irregular outline and lay low upon the wide sea, had a total area, i suppose, of seven or eight square miles.{ } it was volcanic in origin, and was now fringed on three sides by coral reefs; some fumaroles to the northward, and a hot spring, were the only vestiges of the forces that had long since originated it. now and then a faint quiver of earthquake would be sensible, and sometimes the ascent of the spire of smoke would be rendered tumultuous by gusts of steam; but that was all. the population of the island, montgomery informed me, now numbered rather more than sixty of these strange creations of moreau's art, not counting the smaller monstrosities which lived in the undergrowth and were without human form. altogether he had made nearly a hundred and twenty; but many had died, and others--like the writhing footless thing of which he had told me--had come by violent ends. in answer to my question, montgomery said that they actually bore offspring, but that these generally died. when they lived, moreau took them and stamped the human form upon them. there was no evidence of the inheritance of their acquired human characteristics. the females were less numerous than the males, and liable to much furtive persecution in spite of the monogamy the law enjoined. { } this description corresponds in every respect to noble's isle. -- c. e. p. it would be impossible for me to describe these beast people in detail; my eye has had no training in details, and unhappily i cannot sketch. most striking, perhaps, in their general appearance was the disproportion between the legs of these creatures and the length of their bodies; and yet--so relative is our idea of grace--my eye became habituated to their forms, and at last i even fell in with their persuasion that my own long thighs were ungainly. another point was the forward carriage of the head and the clumsy and inhuman curvature of the spine. even the ape-man lacked that inward sinuous curve of the back which makes the human figure so graceful. most had their shoulders hunched clumsily, and their short forearms hung weakly at their sides. few of them were conspicuously hairy, at least until the end of my time upon the island. the next most obvious deformity was in their faces, almost all of which were prognathous, malformed about the ears, with large and protuberant noses, very furry or very bristly hair, and often strangely-coloured or strangely-placed eyes. none could laugh, though the ape-man had a chattering titter. beyond these general characters their heads had little in common; each preserved the quality of its particular species: the human mark distorted but did not hide the leopard, the ox, or the sow, or other animal or animals, from which the creature had been moulded. the voices, too, varied exceedingly. the hands were always malformed; and though some surprised me by their unexpected human appearance, almost all were deficient in the number of the digits, clumsy about the finger-nails, and lacking any tactile sensibility. the two most formidable animal men were my leopard-man and a creature made of hyena and swine. larger than these were the three bull-creatures who pulled in the boat. then came the silvery-hairy-man, who was also the sayer of the law, m'ling, and a satyr-like creature of ape and goat. there were three swine-men and a swine-woman, a mare-rhinoceros-creature, and several other females whose sources i did not ascertain. there were several wolf-creatures, a bear-bull, and a saint-bernard-man. i have already described the ape-man, and there was a particularly hateful (and evil-smelling) old woman made of vixen and bear, whom i hated from the beginning. she was said to be a passionate votary of the law. smaller creatures were certain dappled youths and my little sloth-creature. but enough of this catalogue. at first i had a shivering horror of the brutes, felt all too keenly that they were still brutes; but insensibly i became a little habituated to the idea of them, and moreover i was affected by montgomery's attitude towards them. he had been with them so long that he had come to regard them as almost normal human beings. his london days seemed a glorious, impossible past to him. only once in a year or so did he go to arica to deal with moreau's agent, a trader in animals there. he hardly met the finest type of mankind in that seafaring village of spanish mongrels. the men aboard-ship, he told me, seemed at first just as strange to him as the beast men seemed to me,--unnaturally long in the leg, flat in the face, prominent in the forehead, suspicious, dangerous, and cold-hearted. in fact, he did not like men: his heart had warmed to me, he thought, because he had saved my life. i fancied even then that he had a sneaking kindness for some of these metamorphosed brutes, a vicious sympathy with some of their ways, but that he attempted to veil it from me at first. m'ling, the black-faced man, montgomery's attendant, the first of the beast folk i had encountered, did not live with the others across the island, but in a small kennel at the back of the enclosure. the creature was scarcely so intelligent as the ape-man, but far more docile, and the most human-looking of all the beast folk; and montgomery had trained it to prepare food, and indeed to discharge all the trivial domestic offices that were required. it was a complex trophy of moreau's horrible skill,--a bear, tainted with dog and ox, and one of the most elaborately made of all his creatures. it treated montgomery with a strange tenderness and devotion. sometimes he would notice it, pat it, call it half-mocking, half-jocular names, and so make it caper with extraordinary delight; sometimes he would ill-treat it, especially after he had been at the whiskey, kicking it, beating it, pelting it with stones or lighted fusees. but whether he treated it well or ill, it loved nothing so much as to be near him. i say i became habituated to the beast people, that a thousand things which had seemed unnatural and repulsive speedily became natural and ordinary to me. i suppose everything in existence takes its colour from the average hue of our surroundings. montgomery and moreau were too peculiar and individual to keep my general impressions of humanity well defined. i would see one of the clumsy bovine-creatures who worked the launch treading heavily through the undergrowth, and find myself asking, trying hard to recall, how he differed from some really human yokel trudging home from his mechanical labours; or i would meet the fox-bear woman's vulpine, shifty face, strangely human in its speculative cunning, and even imagine i had met it before in some city byway. yet every now and then the beast would flash out upon me beyond doubt or denial. an ugly-looking man, a hunch-backed human savage to all appearance, squatting in the aperture of one of the dens, would stretch his arms and yawn, showing with startling suddenness scissor-edged incisors and sabre-like canines, keen and brilliant as knives. or in some narrow pathway, glancing with a transitory daring into the eyes of some lithe, white-swathed female figure, i would suddenly see (with a spasmodic revulsion) that she had slit-like pupils, or glancing down note the curving nail with which she held her shapeless wrap about her. it is a curious thing, by the bye, for which i am quite unable to account, that these weird creatures--the females, i mean--had in the earlier days of my stay an instinctive sense of their own repulsive clumsiness, and displayed in consequence a more than human regard for the decency and decorum of extensive costume. xvi. how the beast folk taste blood. my inexperience as a writer betrays me, and i wander from the thread of my story. after i had breakfasted with montgomery, he took me across the island to see the fumarole and the source of the hot spring into whose scalding waters i had blundered on the previous day. both of us carried whips and loaded revolvers. while going through a leafy jungle on our road thither, we heard a rabbit squealing. we stopped and listened, but we heard no more; and presently we went on our way, and the incident dropped out of our minds. montgomery called my attention to certain little pink animals with long hind-legs, that went leaping through the undergrowth. he told me they were creatures made of the offspring of the beast people, that moreau had invented. he had fancied they might serve for meat, but a rabbit-like habit of devouring their young had defeated this intention. i had already encountered some of these creatures,--once during my moonlight flight from the leopard-man, and once during my pursuit by moreau on the previous day. by chance, one hopping to avoid us leapt into the hole caused by the uprooting of a wind-blown tree; before it could extricate itself we managed to catch it. it spat like a cat, scratched and kicked vigorously with its hind-legs, and made an attempt to bite; but its teeth were too feeble to inflict more than a painless pinch. it seemed to me rather a pretty little creature; and as montgomery stated that it never destroyed the turf by burrowing, and was very cleanly in its habits, i should imagine it might prove a convenient substitute for the common rabbit in gentlemen's parks. we also saw on our way the trunk of a tree barked in long strips and splintered deeply. montgomery called my attention to this. "not to claw bark of trees, _that_ is the law," he said. "much some of them care for it!" it was after this, i think, that we met the satyr and the ape-man. the satyr was a gleam of classical memory on the part of moreau,--his face ovine in expression, like the coarser hebrew type; his voice a harsh bleat, his nether extremities satanic. he was gnawing the husk of a pod-like fruit as he passed us. both of them saluted montgomery. "hail," said they, "to the other with the whip!" "there's a third with a whip now," said montgomery. "so you'd better mind!" "was he not made?" said the ape-man. "he said--he said he was made." the satyr-man looked curiously at me. "the third with the whip, he that walks weeping into the sea, has a thin white face." "he has a thin long whip," said montgomery. "yesterday he bled and wept," said the satyr. "you never bleed nor weep. the master does not bleed or weep." "ollendorffian beggar!" said montgomery, "you'll bleed and weep if you don't look out!" "he has five fingers, he is a five-man like me," said the ape-man. "come along, prendick," said montgomery, taking my arm; and i went on with him. the satyr and the ape-man stood watching us and making other remarks to each other. "he says nothing," said the satyr. "men have voices." "yesterday he asked me of things to eat," said the ape-man. "he did not know." then they spoke inaudible things, and i heard the satyr laughing. it was on our way back that we came upon the dead rabbit. the red body of the wretched little beast was rent to pieces, many of the ribs stripped white, and the backbone indisputably gnawed. at that montgomery stopped. "good god!" said he, stooping down, and picking up some of the crushed vertebrae to examine them more closely. "good god!" he repeated, "what can this mean?" "some carnivore of yours has remembered its old habits," i said after a pause. "this backbone has been bitten through." he stood staring, with his face white and his lip pulled askew. "i don't like this," he said slowly. "i saw something of the same kind," said i, "the first day i came here." "the devil you did! what was it?" "a rabbit with its head twisted off." "the day you came here?" "the day i came here. in the undergrowth at the back of the enclosure, when i went out in the evening. the head was completely wrung off." he gave a long, low whistle. "and what is more, i have an idea which of your brutes did the thing. it's only a suspicion, you know. before i came on the rabbit i saw one of your monsters drinking in the stream." "sucking his drink?" "yes." "'not to suck your drink; that is the law.' much the brutes care for the law, eh? when moreau's not about!" "it was the brute who chased me." "of course," said montgomery; "it's just the way with carnivores. after a kill, they drink. it's the taste of blood, you know.--what was the brute like?" he continued. "would you know him again?" he glanced about us, standing astride over the mess of dead rabbit, his eyes roving among the shadows and screens of greenery, the lurking-places and ambuscades of the forest that bounded us in. "the taste of blood," he said again. he took out his revolver, examined the cartridges in it and replaced it. then he began to pull at his dropping lip. "i think i should know the brute again," i said. "i stunned him. he ought to have a handsome bruise on the forehead of him." "but then we have to _prove_ that he killed the rabbit," said montgomery. "i wish i'd never brought the things here." i should have gone on, but he stayed there thinking over the mangled rabbit in a puzzle-headed way. as it was, i went to such a distance that the rabbit's remains were hidden. "come on!" i said. presently he woke up and came towards me. "you see," he said, almost in a whisper, "they are all supposed to have a fixed idea against eating anything that runs on land. if some brute has by any accident tasted blood--" we went on some way in silence. "i wonder what can have happened," he said to himself. then, after a pause again: "i did a foolish thing the other day. that servant of mine--i showed him how to skin and cook a rabbit. it's odd--i saw him licking his hands--it never occurred to me." then: "we must put a stop to this. i must tell moreau." he could think of nothing else on our homeward journey. moreau took the matter even more seriously than montgomery, and i need scarcely say that i was affected by their evident consternation. "we must make an example," said moreau. "i've no doubt in my own mind that the leopard-man was the sinner. but how can we prove it? i wish, montgomery, you had kept your taste for meat in hand, and gone without these exciting novelties. we may find ourselves in a mess yet, through it." "i was a silly ass," said montgomery. "but the thing's done now; and you said i might have them, you know." "we must see to the thing at once," said moreau. "i suppose if anything should turn up, m'ling can take care of himself?" "i'm not so sure of m'ling," said montgomery. "i think i ought to know him." in the afternoon, moreau, montgomery, myself, and m'ling went across the island to the huts in the ravine. we three were armed; m'ling carried the little hatchet he used in chopping firewood, and some coils of wire. moreau had a huge cowherd's horn slung over his shoulder. "you will see a gathering of the beast people," said montgomery. "it is a pretty sight!" moreau said not a word on the way, but the expression of his heavy, white-fringed face was grimly set. we crossed the ravine down which smoked the stream of hot water, and followed the winding pathway through the canebrakes until we reached a wide area covered over with a thick, powdery yellow substance which i believe was sulphur. above the shoulder of a weedy bank the sea glittered. we came to a kind of shallow natural amphitheatre, and here the four of us halted. then moreau sounded the horn, and broke the sleeping stillness of the tropical afternoon. he must have had strong lungs. the hooting note rose and rose amidst its echoes, to at last an ear-penetrating intensity. "ah!" said moreau, letting the curved instrument fall to his side again. immediately there was a crashing through the yellow canes, and a sound of voices from the dense green jungle that marked the morass through which i had run on the previous day. then at three or four points on the edge of the sulphurous area appeared the grotesque forms of the beast people hurrying towards us. i could not help a creeping horror, as i perceived first one and then another trot out from the trees or reeds and come shambling along over the hot dust. but moreau and montgomery stood calmly enough; and, perforce, i stuck beside them. first to arrive was the satyr, strangely unreal for all that he cast a shadow and tossed the dust with his hoofs. after him from the brake came a monstrous lout, a thing of horse and rhinoceros, chewing a straw as it came; then appeared the swine-woman and two wolf-women; then the fox-bear witch, with her red eyes in her peaked red face, and then others,--all hurrying eagerly. as they came forward they began to cringe towards moreau and chant, quite regardless of one another, fragments of the latter half of the litany of the law,--"his is the hand that wounds; his is the hand that heals," and so forth. as soon as they had approached within a distance of perhaps thirty yards they halted, and bowing on knees and elbows began flinging the white dust upon their heads. imagine the scene if you can! we three blue-clad men, with our misshapen black-faced attendant, standing in a wide expanse of sunlit yellow dust under the blazing blue sky, and surrounded by this circle of crouching and gesticulating monstrosities,--some almost human save in their subtle expression and gestures, some like cripples, some so strangely distorted as to resemble nothing but the denizens of our wildest dreams; and, beyond, the reedy lines of a canebrake in one direction, a dense tangle of palm-trees on the other, separating us from the ravine with the huts, and to the north the hazy horizon of the pacific ocean. "sixty-two, sixty-three," counted moreau. "there are four more." "i do not see the leopard-man," said i. presently moreau sounded the great horn again, and at the sound of it all the beast people writhed and grovelled in the dust. then, slinking out of the canebrake, stooping near the ground and trying to join the dust-throwing circle behind moreau's back, came the leopard-man. the last of the beast people to arrive was the little ape-man. the earlier animals, hot and weary with their grovelling, shot vicious glances at him. "cease!" said moreau, in his firm, loud voice; and the beast people sat back upon their hams and rested from their worshipping. "where is the sayer of the law?" said moreau, and the hairy-grey monster bowed his face in the dust. "say the words!" said moreau. forthwith all in the kneeling assembly, swaying from side to side and dashing up the sulphur with their hands,--first the right hand and a puff of dust, and then the left,--began once more to chant their strange litany. when they reached, "not to eat flesh or fish, that is the law," moreau held up his lank white hand. "stop!" he cried, and there fell absolute silence upon them all. i think they all knew and dreaded what was coming. i looked round at their strange faces. when i saw their wincing attitudes and the furtive dread in their bright eyes, i wondered that i had ever believed them to be men. "that law has been broken!" said moreau. "none escape," from the faceless creature with the silvery hair. "none escape," repeated the kneeling circle of beast people. "who is he?" cried moreau, and looked round at their faces, cracking his whip. i fancied the hyena-swine looked dejected, so too did the leopard-man. moreau stopped, facing this creature, who cringed towards him with the memory and dread of infinite torment. "who is he?" repeated moreau, in a voice of thunder. "evil is he who breaks the law," chanted the sayer of the law. moreau looked into the eyes of the leopard-man, and seemed to be dragging the very soul out of the creature. "who breaks the law--" said moreau, taking his eyes off his victim, and turning towards us (it seemed to me there was a touch of exultation in his voice). "goes back to the house of pain," they all clamoured,--"goes back to the house of pain, o master!" "back to the house of pain,--back to the house of pain," gabbled the ape-man, as though the idea was sweet to him. "do you hear?" said moreau, turning back to the criminal, "my friend--hullo!" for the leopard-man, released from moreau's eye, had risen straight from his knees, and now, with eyes aflame and his huge feline tusks flashing out from under his curling lips, leapt towards his tormentor. i am convinced that only the madness of unendurable fear could have prompted this attack. the whole circle of threescore monsters seemed to rise about us. i drew my revolver. the two figures collided. i saw moreau reeling back from the leopard-man's blow. there was a furious yelling and howling all about us. every one was moving rapidly. for a moment i thought it was a general revolt. the furious face of the leopard-man flashed by mine, with m'ling close in pursuit. i saw the yellow eyes of the hyena-swine blazing with excitement, his attitude as if he were half resolved to attack me. the satyr, too, glared at me over the hyena-swine's hunched shoulders. i heard the crack of moreau's pistol, and saw the pink flash dart across the tumult. the whole crowd seemed to swing round in the direction of the glint of fire, and i too was swung round by the magnetism of the movement. in another second i was running, one of a tumultuous shouting crowd, in pursuit of the escaping leopard-man. that is all i can tell definitely. i saw the leopard-man strike moreau, and then everything spun about me until i was running headlong. m'ling was ahead, close in pursuit of the fugitive. behind, their tongues already lolling out, ran the wolf-women in great leaping strides. the swine folk followed, squealing with excitement, and the two bull-men in their swathings of white. then came moreau in a cluster of the beast people, his wide-brimmed straw hat blown off, his revolver in hand, and his lank white hair streaming out. the hyena-swine ran beside me, keeping pace with me and glancing furtively at me out of his feline eyes, and the others came pattering and shouting behind us. the leopard-man went bursting his way through the long canes, which sprang back as he passed, and rattled in m'ling's face. we others in the rear found a trampled path for us when we reached the brake. the chase lay through the brake for perhaps a quarter of a mile, and then plunged into a dense thicket, which retarded our movements exceedingly, though we went through it in a crowd together,--fronds flicking into our faces, ropy creepers catching us under the chin or gripping our ankles, thorny plants hooking into and tearing cloth and flesh together. "he has gone on all-fours through this," panted moreau, now just ahead of me. "none escape," said the wolf-bear, laughing into my face with the exultation of hunting. we burst out again among rocks, and saw the quarry ahead running lightly on all-fours and snarling at us over his shoulder. at that the wolf folk howled with delight. the thing was still clothed, and at a distance its face still seemed human; but the carriage of its four limbs was feline, and the furtive droop of its shoulder was distinctly that of a hunted animal. it leapt over some thorny yellow-flowering bushes, and was hidden. m'ling was halfway across the space. most of us now had lost the first speed of the chase, and had fallen into a longer and steadier stride. i saw as we traversed the open that the pursuit was now spreading from a column into a line. the hyena-swine still ran close to me, watching me as it ran, every now and then puckering its muzzle with a snarling laugh. at the edge of the rocks the leopard-man, realising that he was making for the projecting cape upon which he had stalked me on the night of my arrival, had doubled in the undergrowth; but montgomery had seen the manoeuvre, and turned him again. so, panting, tumbling against rocks, torn by brambles, impeded by ferns and reeds, i helped to pursue the leopard-man who had broken the law, and the hyena-swine ran, laughing savagely, by my side. i staggered on, my head reeling and my heart beating against my ribs, tired almost to death, and yet not daring to lose sight of the chase lest i should be left alone with this horrible companion. i staggered on in spite of infinite fatigue and the dense heat of the tropical afternoon. at last the fury of the hunt slackened. we had pinned the wretched brute into a corner of the island. moreau, whip in hand, marshalled us all into an irregular line, and we advanced now slowly, shouting to one another as we advanced and tightening the cordon about our victim. he lurked noiseless and invisible in the bushes through which i had run from him during that midnight pursuit. "steady!" cried moreau, "steady!" as the ends of the line crept round the tangle of undergrowth and hemmed the brute in. "ware a rush!" came the voice of montgomery from beyond the thicket. i was on the slope above the bushes; montgomery and moreau beat along the beach beneath. slowly we pushed in among the fretted network of branches and leaves. the quarry was silent. "back to the house of pain, the house of pain, the house of pain!" yelped the voice of the ape-man, some twenty yards to the right. when i heard that, i forgave the poor wretch all the fear he had inspired in me. i heard the twigs snap and the boughs swish aside before the heavy tread of the horse-rhinoceros upon my right. then suddenly through a polygon of green, in the half darkness under the luxuriant growth, i saw the creature we were hunting. i halted. he was crouched together into the smallest possible compass, his luminous green eyes turned over his shoulder regarding me. it may seem a strange contradiction in me,--i cannot explain the fact,--but now, seeing the creature there in a perfectly animal attitude, with the light gleaming in its eyes and its imperfectly human face distorted with terror, i realised again the fact of its humanity. in another moment other of its pursuers would see it, and it would be overpowered and captured, to experience once more the horrible tortures of the enclosure. abruptly i slipped out my revolver, aimed between its terror-struck eyes, and fired. as i did so, the hyena-swine saw the thing, and flung itself upon it with an eager cry, thrusting thirsty teeth into its neck. all about me the green masses of the thicket were swaying and cracking as the beast people came rushing together. one face and then another appeared. "don't kill it, prendick!" cried moreau. "don't kill it!" and i saw him stooping as he pushed through under the fronds of the big ferns. in another moment he had beaten off the hyena-swine with the handle of his whip, and he and montgomery were keeping away the excited carnivorous beast people, and particularly m'ling, from the still quivering body. the hairy-grey thing came sniffing at the corpse under my arm. the other animals, in their animal ardour, jostled me to get a nearer view. "confound you, prendick!" said moreau. "i wanted him." "i'm sorry," said i, though i was not. "it was the impulse of the moment." i felt sick with exertion and excitement. turning, i pushed my way out of the crowding beast people and went on alone up the slope towards the higher part of the headland. under the shouted directions of moreau i heard the three white-swathed bull-men begin dragging the victim down towards the water. it was easy now for me to be alone. the beast people manifested a quite human curiosity about the dead body, and followed it in a thick knot, sniffing and growling at it as the bull-men dragged it down the beach. i went to the headland and watched the bull-men, black against the evening sky as they carried the weighted dead body out to sea; and like a wave across my mind came the realisation of the unspeakable aimlessness of things upon the island. upon the beach among the rocks beneath me were the ape-man, the hyena-swine, and several other of the beast people, standing about montgomery and moreau. they were all still intensely excited, and all overflowing with noisy expressions of their loyalty to the law; yet i felt an absolute assurance in my own mind that the hyena-swine was implicated in the rabbit-killing. a strange persuasion came upon me, that, save for the grossness of the line, the grotesqueness of the forms, i had here before me the whole balance of human life in miniature, the whole interplay of instinct, reason, and fate in its simplest form. the leopard-man had happened to go under: that was all the difference. poor brute! poor brutes! i began to see the viler aspect of moreau's cruelty. i had not thought before of the pain and trouble that came to these poor victims after they had passed from moreau's hands. i had shivered only at the days of actual torment in the enclosure. but now that seemed to me the lesser part. before, they had been beasts, their instincts fitly adapted to their surroundings, and happy as living things may be. now they stumbled in the shackles of humanity, lived in a fear that never died, fretted by a law they could not understand; their mock-human existence, begun in an agony, was one long internal struggle, one long dread of moreau--and for what? it was the wantonness of it that stirred me. had moreau had any intelligible object, i could have sympathised at least a little with him. i am not so squeamish about pain as that. i could have forgiven him a little even, had his motive been only hate. but he was so irresponsible, so utterly careless! his curiosity, his mad, aimless investigations, drove him on; and the things were thrown out to live a year or so, to struggle and blunder and suffer, and at last to die painfully. they were wretched in themselves; the old animal hate moved them to trouble one another; the law held them back from a brief hot struggle and a decisive end to their natural animosities. in those days my fear of the beast people went the way of my personal fear for moreau. i fell indeed into a morbid state, deep and enduring, and alien to fear, which has left permanent scars upon my mind. i must confess that i lost faith in the sanity of the world when i saw it suffering the painful disorder of this island. a blind fate, a vast pitiless mechanism, seemed to cut and shape the fabric of existence and i, moreau (by his passion for research), montgomery (by his passion for drink), the beast people with their instincts and mental restrictions, were torn and crushed, ruthlessly, inevitably, amid the infinite complexity of its incessant wheels. but this condition did not come all at once: i think indeed that i anticipate a little in speaking of it now. xvii. a catastrophe. scarcely six weeks passed before i had lost every feeling but dislike and abhorrence for this infamous experiment of moreau's. my one idea was to get away from these horrible caricatures of my maker's image, back to the sweet and wholesome intercourse of men. my fellow-creatures, from whom i was thus separated, began to assume idyllic virtue and beauty in my memory. my first friendship with montgomery did not increase. his long separation from humanity, his secret vice of drunkenness, his evident sympathy with the beast people, tainted him to me. several times i let him go alone among them. i avoided intercourse with them in every possible way. i spent an increasing proportion of my time upon the beach, looking for some liberating sail that never appeared,--until one day there fell upon us an appalling disaster, which put an altogether different aspect upon my strange surroundings. it was about seven or eight weeks after my landing,--rather more, i think, though i had not troubled to keep account of the time,--when this catastrophe occurred. it happened in the early morning--i should think about six. i had risen and breakfasted early, having been aroused by the noise of three beast men carrying wood into the enclosure. after breakfast i went to the open gateway of the enclosure, and stood there smoking a cigarette and enjoying the freshness of the early morning. moreau presently came round the corner of the enclosure and greeted me. he passed by me, and i heard him behind me unlock and enter his laboratory. so indurated was i at that time to the abomination of the place, that i heard without a touch of emotion the puma victim begin another day of torture. it met its persecutor with a shriek, almost exactly like that of an angry virago. then suddenly something happened,--i do not know what, to this day. i heard a short, sharp cry behind me, a fall, and turning saw an awful face rushing upon me,--not human, not animal, but hellish, brown, seamed with red branching scars, red drops starting out upon it, and the lidless eyes ablaze. i threw up my arm to defend myself from the blow that flung me headlong with a broken forearm; and the great monster, swathed in lint and with red-stained bandages fluttering about it, leapt over me and passed. i rolled over and over down the beach, tried to sit up, and collapsed upon my broken arm. then moreau appeared, his massive white face all the more terrible for the blood that trickled from his forehead. he carried a revolver in one hand. he scarcely glanced at me, but rushed off at once in pursuit of the puma. i tried the other arm and sat up. the muffled figure in front ran in great striding leaps along the beach, and moreau followed her. she turned her head and saw him, then doubling abruptly made for the bushes. she gained upon him at every stride. i saw her plunge into them, and moreau, running slantingly to intercept her, fired and missed as she disappeared. then he too vanished in the green confusion. i stared after them, and then the pain in my arm flamed up, and with a groan i staggered to my feet. montgomery appeared in the doorway, dressed, and with his revolver in his hand. "great god, prendick!" he said, not noticing that i was hurt, "that brute's loose! tore the fetter out of the wall! have you seen them?" then sharply, seeing i gripped my arm, "what's the matter?" "i was standing in the doorway," said i. he came forward and took my arm. "blood on the sleeve," said he, and rolled back the flannel. he pocketed his weapon, felt my arm about painfully, and led me inside. "your arm is broken," he said, and then, "tell me exactly how it happened--what happened?" i told him what i had seen; told him in broken sentences, with gasps of pain between them, and very dexterously and swiftly he bound my arm meanwhile. he slung it from my shoulder, stood back and looked at me. "you'll do," he said. "and now?" he thought. then he went out and locked the gates of the enclosure. he was absent some time. i was chiefly concerned about my arm. the incident seemed merely one more of many horrible things. i sat down in the deck chair, and i must admit swore heartily at the island. the first dull feeling of injury in my arm had already given way to a burning pain when montgomery reappeared. his face was rather pale, and he showed more of his lower gums than ever. "i can neither see nor hear anything of him," he said. "i've been thinking he may want my help." he stared at me with his expressionless eyes. "that was a strong brute," he said. "it simply wrenched its fetter out of the wall." he went to the window, then to the door, and there turned to me. "i shall go after him," he said. "there's another revolver i can leave with you. to tell you the truth, i feel anxious somehow." he obtained the weapon, and put it ready to my hand on the table; then went out, leaving a restless contagion in the air. i did not sit long after he left, but took the revolver in hand and went to the doorway. the morning was as still as death. not a whisper of wind was stirring; the sea was like polished glass, the sky empty, the beach desolate. in my half-excited, half-feverish state, this stillness of things oppressed me. i tried to whistle, and the tune died away. i swore again,--the second time that morning. then i went to the corner of the enclosure and stared inland at the green bush that had swallowed up moreau and montgomery. when would they return, and how? then far away up the beach a little grey beast man appeared, ran down to the water's edge and began splashing about. i strolled back to the doorway, then to the corner again, and so began pacing to and fro like a sentinel upon duty. once i was arrested by the distant voice of montgomery bawling, "coo-ee--moreau!" my arm became less painful, but very hot. i got feverish and thirsty. my shadow grew shorter. i watched the distant figure until it went away again. would moreau and montgomery never return? three sea-birds began fighting for some stranded treasure. then from far away behind the enclosure i heard a pistol-shot. a long silence, and then came another. then a yelling cry nearer, and another dismal gap of silence. my unfortunate imagination set to work to torment me. then suddenly a shot close by. i went to the corner, startled, and saw montgomery,--his face scarlet, his hair disordered, and the knee of his trousers torn. his face expressed profound consternation. behind him slouched the beast man, m'ling, and round m'ling's jaws were some queer dark stains. "has he come?" said montgomery. "moreau?" said i. "no." "my god!" the man was panting, almost sobbing. "go back in," he said, taking my arm. "they're mad. they're all rushing about mad. what can have happened? i don't know. i'll tell you, when my breath comes. where's some brandy?" montgomery limped before me into the room and sat down in the deck chair. m'ling flung himself down just outside the doorway and began panting like a dog. i got montgomery some brandy-and-water. he sat staring in front of him at nothing, recovering his breath. after some minutes he began to tell me what had happened. he had followed their track for some way. it was plain enough at first on account of the crushed and broken bushes, white rags torn from the puma's bandages, and occasional smears of blood on the leaves of the shrubs and undergrowth. he lost the track, however, on the stony ground beyond the stream where i had seen the beast man drinking, and went wandering aimlessly westward shouting moreau's name. then m'ling had come to him carrying a light hatchet. m'ling had seen nothing of the puma affair; had been felling wood, and heard him calling. they went on shouting together. two beast men came crouching and peering at them through the undergrowth, with gestures and a furtive carriage that alarmed montgomery by their strangeness. he hailed them, and they fled guiltily. he stopped shouting after that, and after wandering some time farther in an undecided way, determined to visit the huts. he found the ravine deserted. growing more alarmed every minute, he began to retrace his steps. then it was he encountered the two swine-men i had seen dancing on the night of my arrival; blood-stained they were about the mouth, and intensely excited. they came crashing through the ferns, and stopped with fierce faces when they saw him. he cracked his whip in some trepidation, and forthwith they rushed at him. never before had a beast man dared to do that. one he shot through the head; m'ling flung himself upon the other, and the two rolled grappling. m'ling got his brute under and with his teeth in its throat, and montgomery shot that too as it struggled in m'ling's grip. he had some difficulty in inducing m'ling to come on with him. thence they had hurried back to me. on the way, m'ling had suddenly rushed into a thicket and driven out an under-sized ocelot-man, also blood-stained, and lame through a wound in the foot. this brute had run a little way and then turned savagely at bay, and montgomery--with a certain wantonness, i thought--had shot him. "what does it all mean?" said i. he shook his head, and turned once more to the brandy. xviii. the finding of moreau. when i saw montgomery swallow a third dose of brandy, i took it upon myself to interfere. he was already more than half fuddled. i told him that some serious thing must have happened to moreau by this time, or he would have returned before this, and that it behoved us to ascertain what that catastrophe was. montgomery raised some feeble objections, and at last agreed. we had some food, and then all three of us started. it is possibly due to the tension of my mind, at the time, but even now that start into the hot stillness of the tropical afternoon is a singularly vivid impression. m'ling went first, his shoulder hunched, his strange black head moving with quick starts as he peered first on this side of the way and then on that. he was unarmed; his axe he had dropped when he encountered the swine-man. teeth were _his_ weapons, when it came to fighting. montgomery followed with stumbling footsteps, his hands in his pockets, his face downcast; he was in a state of muddled sullenness with me on account of the brandy. my left arm was in a sling (it was lucky it was my left), and i carried my revolver in my right. soon we traced a narrow path through the wild luxuriance of the island, going northwestward; and presently m'ling stopped, and became rigid with watchfulness. montgomery almost staggered into him, and then stopped too. then, listening intently, we heard coming through the trees the sound of voices and footsteps approaching us. "he is dead," said a deep, vibrating voice. "he is not dead; he is not dead," jabbered another. "we saw, we saw," said several voices. "hullo!" suddenly shouted montgomery, "hullo, there!" "confound you!" said i, and gripped my pistol. there was a silence, then a crashing among the interlacing vegetation, first here, then there, and then half-a-dozen faces appeared,--strange faces, lit by a strange light. m'ling made a growling noise in his throat. i recognised the ape-man: i had indeed already identified his voice, and two of the white-swathed brown-featured creatures i had seen in montgomery's boat. with these were the two dappled brutes and that grey, horribly crooked creature who said the law, with grey hair streaming down its cheeks, heavy grey eyebrows, and grey locks pouring off from a central parting upon its sloping forehead,--a heavy, faceless thing, with strange red eyes, looking at us curiously from amidst the green. for a space no one spoke. then montgomery hiccoughed, "who--said he was dead?" the monkey-man looked guiltily at the hairy-grey thing. "he is dead," said this monster. "they saw." there was nothing threatening about this detachment, at any rate. they seemed awestricken and puzzled. "where is he?" said montgomery. "beyond," and the grey creature pointed. "is there a law now?" asked the monkey-man. "is it still to be this and that? is he dead indeed?" "is there a law?" repeated the man in white. "is there a law, thou other with the whip?" "he is dead," said the hairy-grey thing. and they all stood watching us. "prendick," said montgomery, turning his dull eyes to me. "he's dead, evidently." i had been standing behind him during this colloquy. i began to see how things lay with them. i suddenly stepped in front of montgomery and lifted up my voice:--"children of the law," i said, "he is _not_ dead!" m'ling turned his sharp eyes on me. "he has changed his shape; he has changed his body," i went on. "for a time you will not see him. he is--there," i pointed upward, "where he can watch you. you cannot see him, but he can see you. fear the law!" i looked at them squarely. they flinched. "he is great, he is good," said the ape-man, peering fearfully upward among the dense trees. "and the other thing?" i demanded. "the thing that bled, and ran screaming and sobbing,--that is dead too," said the grey thing, still regarding me. "that's well," grunted montgomery. "the other with the whip--" began the grey thing. "well?" said i. "said he was dead." but montgomery was still sober enough to understand my motive in denying moreau's death. "he is not dead," he said slowly, "not dead at all. no more dead than i am." "some," said i, "have broken the law: they will die. some have died. show us now where his old body lies,--the body he cast away because he had no more need of it." "it is this way, man who walked in the sea," said the grey thing. and with these six creatures guiding us, we went through the tumult of ferns and creepers and tree-stems towards the northwest. then came a yelling, a crashing among the branches, and a little pink homunculus rushed by us shrieking. immediately after appeared a monster in headlong pursuit, blood-bedabbled, who was amongst us almost before he could stop his career. the grey thing leapt aside. m'ling, with a snarl, flew at it, and was struck aside. montgomery fired and missed, bowed his head, threw up his arm, and turned to run. i fired, and the thing still came on; fired again, point-blank, into its ugly face. i saw its features vanish in a flash: its face was driven in. yet it passed me, gripped montgomery, and holding him, fell headlong beside him and pulled him sprawling upon itself in its death-agony. i found myself alone with m'ling, the dead brute, and the prostrate man. montgomery raised himself slowly and stared in a muddled way at the shattered beast man beside him. it more than half sobered him. he scrambled to his feet. then i saw the grey thing returning cautiously through the trees. "see," said i, pointing to the dead brute, "is the law not alive? this came of breaking the law." he peered at the body. "he sends the fire that kills," said he, in his deep voice, repeating part of the ritual. the others gathered round and stared for a space. at last we drew near the westward extremity of the island. we came upon the gnawed and mutilated body of the puma, its shoulder-bone smashed by a bullet, and perhaps twenty yards farther found at last what we sought. moreau lay face downward in a trampled space in a canebrake. one hand was almost severed at the wrist and his silvery hair was dabbled in blood. his head had been battered in by the fetters of the puma. the broken canes beneath him were smeared with blood. his revolver we could not find. montgomery turned him over. resting at intervals, and with the help of the seven beast people (for he was a heavy man), we carried moreau back to the enclosure. the night was darkling. twice we heard unseen creatures howling and shrieking past our little band, and once the little pink sloth-creature appeared and stared at us, and vanished again. but we were not attacked again. at the gates of the enclosure our company of beast people left us, m'ling going with the rest. we locked ourselves in, and then took moreau's mangled body into the yard and laid it upon a pile of brushwood. then we went into the laboratory and put an end to all we found living there. xix. montgomery's "bank holiday." when this was accomplished, and we had washed and eaten, montgomery and i went into my little room and seriously discussed our position for the first time. it was then near midnight. he was almost sober, but greatly disturbed in his mind. he had been strangely under the influence of moreau's personality: i do not think it had ever occurred to him that moreau could die. this disaster was the sudden collapse of the habits that had become part of his nature in the ten or more monotonous years he had spent on the island. he talked vaguely, answered my questions crookedly, wandered into general questions. "this silly ass of a world," he said; "what a muddle it all is! i haven't had any life. i wonder when it's going to begin. sixteen years being bullied by nurses and schoolmasters at their own sweet will; five in london grinding hard at medicine, bad food, shabby lodgings, shabby clothes, shabby vice, a blunder,--i didn't know any better,--and hustled off to this beastly island. ten years here! what's it all for, prendick? are we bubbles blown by a baby?" it was hard to deal with such ravings. "the thing we have to think of now," said i, "is how to get away from this island." "what's the good of getting away? i'm an outcast. where am _i_ to join on? it's all very well for _you_, prendick. poor old moreau! we can't leave him here to have his bones picked. as it is--and besides, what will become of the decent part of the beast folk?" "well," said i, "that will do to-morrow. i've been thinking we might make the brushwood into a pyre and burn his body--and those other things. then what will happen with the beast folk?" "_i_ don't know. i suppose those that were made of beasts of prey will make silly asses of themselves sooner or later. we can't massacre the lot--can we? i suppose that's what _your_ humanity would suggest? but they'll change. they are sure to change." he talked thus inconclusively until at last i felt my temper going. "damnation!" he exclaimed at some petulance of mine; "can't you see i'm in a worse hole than you are?" and he got up, and went for the brandy. "drink!" he said returning, "you logic-chopping, chalky-faced saint of an atheist, drink!" "not i," said i, and sat grimly watching his face under the yellow paraffine flare, as he drank himself into a garrulous misery. i have a memory of infinite tedium. he wandered into a maudlin defence of the beast people and of m'ling. m'ling, he said, was the only thing that had ever really cared for him. and suddenly an idea came to him. "i'm damned!" said he, staggering to his feet and clutching the brandy bottle. by some flash of intuition i knew what it was he intended. "you don't give drink to that beast!" i said, rising and facing him. "beast!" said he. "you're the beast. he takes his liquor like a christian. come out of the way, prendick!" "for god's sake," said i. "get--out of the way!" he roared, and suddenly whipped out his revolver. "very well," said i, and stood aside, half-minded to fall upon him as he put his hand upon the latch, but deterred by the thought of my useless arm. "you've made a beast of yourself,--to the beasts you may go." he flung the doorway open, and stood half facing me between the yellow lamp-light and the pallid glare of the moon; his eye-sockets were blotches of black under his stubbly eyebrows. "you're a solemn prig, prendick, a silly ass! you're always fearing and fancying. we're on the edge of things. i'm bound to cut my throat to-morrow. i'm going to have a damned bank holiday to-night." he turned and went out into the moonlight. "m'ling!" he cried; "m'ling, old friend!" three dim creatures in the silvery light came along the edge of the wan beach,--one a white-wrapped creature, the other two blotches of blackness following it. they halted, staring. then i saw m'ling's hunched shoulders as he came round the corner of the house. "drink!" cried montgomery, "drink, you brutes! drink and be men! damme, i'm the cleverest. moreau forgot this; this is the last touch. drink, i tell you!" and waving the bottle in his hand he started off at a kind of quick trot to the westward, m'ling ranging himself between him and the three dim creatures who followed. i went to the doorway. they were already indistinct in the mist of the moonlight before montgomery halted. i saw him administer a dose of the raw brandy to m'ling, and saw the five figures melt into one vague patch. "sing!" i heard montgomery shout,--"sing all together, 'confound old prendick!' that's right; now again, 'confound old prendick!'" the black group broke up into five separate figures, and wound slowly away from me along the band of shining beach. each went howling at his own sweet will, yelping insults at me, or giving whatever other vent this new inspiration of brandy demanded. presently i heard montgomery's voice shouting, "right turn!" and they passed with their shouts and howls into the blackness of the landward trees. slowly, very slowly, they receded into silence. the peaceful splendour of the night healed again. the moon was now past the meridian and travelling down the west. it was at its full, and very bright riding through the empty blue sky. the shadow of the wall lay, a yard wide and of inky blackness, at my feet. the eastward sea was a featureless grey, dark and mysterious; and between the sea and the shadow the grey sands (of volcanic glass and crystals) flashed and shone like a beach of diamonds. behind me the paraffine lamp flared hot and ruddy. then i shut the door, locked it, and went into the enclosure where moreau lay beside his latest victims,--the staghounds and the llama and some other wretched brutes,--with his massive face calm even after his terrible death, and with the hard eyes open, staring at the dead white moon above. i sat down upon the edge of the sink, and with my eyes upon that ghastly pile of silvery light and ominous shadows began to turn over my plans. in the morning i would gather some provisions in the dingey, and after setting fire to the pyre before me, push out into the desolation of the high sea once more. i felt that for montgomery there was no help; that he was, in truth, half akin to these beast folk, unfitted for human kindred. i do not know how long i sat there scheming. it must have been an hour or so. then my planning was interrupted by the return of montgomery to my neighbourhood. i heard a yelling from many throats, a tumult of exultant cries passing down towards the beach, whooping and howling, and excited shrieks that seemed to come to a stop near the water's edge. the riot rose and fell; i heard heavy blows and the splintering smash of wood, but it did not trouble me then. a discordant chanting began. my thoughts went back to my means of escape. i got up, brought the lamp, and went into a shed to look at some kegs i had seen there. then i became interested in the contents of some biscuit-tins, and opened one. i saw something out of the tail of my eye,--a red figure,--and turned sharply. behind me lay the yard, vividly black-and-white in the moonlight, and the pile of wood and faggots on which moreau and his mutilated victims lay, one over another. they seemed to be gripping one another in one last revengeful grapple. his wounds gaped, black as night, and the blood that had dripped lay in black patches upon the sand. then i saw, without understanding, the cause of my phantom,--a ruddy glow that came and danced and went upon the wall opposite. i misinterpreted this, fancied it was a reflection of my flickering lamp, and turned again to the stores in the shed. i went on rummaging among them, as well as a one-armed man could, finding this convenient thing and that, and putting them aside for to-morrow's launch. my movements were slow, and the time passed quickly. insensibly the daylight crept upon me. the chanting died down, giving place to a clamour; then it began again, and suddenly broke into a tumult. i heard cries of, "more! more!" a sound like quarrelling, and a sudden wild shriek. the quality of the sounds changed so greatly that it arrested my attention. i went out into the yard and listened. then cutting like a knife across the confusion came the crack of a revolver. i rushed at once through my room to the little doorway. as i did so i heard some of the packing-cases behind me go sliding down and smash together with a clatter of glass on the floor of the shed. but i did not heed these. i flung the door open and looked out. up the beach by the boathouse a bonfire was burning, raining up sparks into the indistinctness of the dawn. around this struggled a mass of black figures. i heard montgomery call my name. i began to run at once towards this fire, revolver in hand. i saw the pink tongue of montgomery's pistol lick out once, close to the ground. he was down. i shouted with all my strength and fired into the air. i heard some one cry, "the master!" the knotted black struggle broke into scattering units, the fire leapt and sank down. the crowd of beast people fled in sudden panic before me, up the beach. in my excitement i fired at their retreating backs as they disappeared among the bushes. then i turned to the black heaps upon the ground. montgomery lay on his back, with the hairy-grey beast-man sprawling across his body. the brute was dead, but still gripping montgomery's throat with its curving claws. near by lay m'ling on his face and quite still, his neck bitten open and the upper part of the smashed brandy-bottle in his hand. two other figures lay near the fire,--the one motionless, the other groaning fitfully, every now and then raising its head slowly, then dropping it again. i caught hold of the grey man and pulled him off montgomery's body; his claws drew down the torn coat reluctantly as i dragged him away. montgomery was dark in the face and scarcely breathing. i splashed sea-water on his face and pillowed his head on my rolled-up coat. m'ling was dead. the wounded creature by the fire--it was a wolf-brute with a bearded grey face--lay, i found, with the fore part of its body upon the still glowing timber. the wretched thing was injured so dreadfully that in mercy i blew its brains out at once. the other brute was one of the bull-men swathed in white. he too was dead. the rest of the beast people had vanished from the beach. i went to montgomery again and knelt beside him, cursing my ignorance of medicine. the fire beside me had sunk down, and only charred beams of timber glowing at the central ends and mixed with a grey ash of brushwood remained. i wondered casually where montgomery had got his wood. then i saw that the dawn was upon us. the sky had grown brighter, the setting moon was becoming pale and opaque in the luminous blue of the day. the sky to the eastward was rimmed with red. suddenly i heard a thud and a hissing behind me, and, looking round, sprang to my feet with a cry of horror. against the warm dawn great tumultuous masses of black smoke were boiling up out of the enclosure, and through their stormy darkness shot flickering threads of blood-red flame. then the thatched roof caught. i saw the curving charge of the flames across the sloping straw. a spurt of fire jetted from the window of my room. i knew at once what had happened. i remembered the crash i had heard. when i had rushed out to montgomery's assistance, i had overturned the lamp. the hopelessness of saving any of the contents of the enclosure stared me in the face. my mind came back to my plan of flight, and turning swiftly i looked to see where the two boats lay upon the beach. they were gone! two axes lay upon the sands beside me; chips and splinters were scattered broadcast, and the ashes of the bonfire were blackening and smoking under the dawn. montgomery had burnt the boats to revenge himself upon me and prevent our return to mankind! a sudden convulsion of rage shook me. i was almost moved to batter his foolish head in, as he lay there helpless at my feet. then suddenly his hand moved, so feebly, so pitifully, that my wrath vanished. he groaned, and opened his eyes for a minute. i knelt down beside him and raised his head. he opened his eyes again, staring silently at the dawn, and then they met mine. the lids fell. "sorry," he said presently, with an effort. he seemed trying to think. "the last," he murmured, "the last of this silly universe. what a mess--" i listened. his head fell helplessly to one side. i thought some drink might revive him; but there was neither drink nor vessel in which to bring drink at hand. he seemed suddenly heavier. my heart went cold. i bent down to his face, put my hand through the rent in his blouse. he was dead; and even as he died a line of white heat, the limb of the sun, rose eastward beyond the projection of the bay, splashing its radiance across the sky and turning the dark sea into a weltering tumult of dazzling light. it fell like a glory upon his death-shrunken face. i let his head fall gently upon the rough pillow i had made for him, and stood up. before me was the glittering desolation of the sea, the awful solitude upon which i had already suffered so much; behind me the island, hushed under the dawn, its beast people silent and unseen. the enclosure, with all its provisions and ammunition, burnt noisily, with sudden gusts of flame, a fitful crackling, and now and then a crash. the heavy smoke drove up the beach away from me, rolling low over the distant tree-tops towards the huts in the ravine. beside me were the charred vestiges of the boats and these five dead bodies. then out of the bushes came three beast people, with hunched shoulders, protruding heads, misshapen hands awkwardly held, and inquisitive, unfriendly eyes and advanced towards me with hesitating gestures. xx. alone with the beast folk. i faced these people, facing my fate in them, single-handed now,--literally single-handed, for i had a broken arm. in my pocket was a revolver with two empty chambers. among the chips scattered about the beach lay the two axes that had been used to chop up the boats. the tide was creeping in behind me. there was nothing for it but courage. i looked squarely into the faces of the advancing monsters. they avoided my eyes, and their quivering nostrils investigated the bodies that lay beyond me on the beach. i took half-a-dozen steps, picked up the blood-stained whip that lay beneath the body of the wolf-man, and cracked it. they stopped and stared at me. "salute!" said i. "bow down!" they hesitated. one bent his knees. i repeated my command, with my heart in my mouth, and advanced upon them. one knelt, then the other two. i turned and walked towards the dead bodies, keeping my face towards the three kneeling beast men, very much as an actor passing up the stage faces the audience. "they broke the law," said i, putting my foot on the sayer of the law. "they have been slain,--even the sayer of the law; even the other with the whip. great is the law! come and see." "none escape," said one of them, advancing and peering. "none escape," said i. "therefore hear and do as i command." they stood up, looking questioningly at one another. "stand there," said i. i picked up the hatchets and swung them by their heads from the sling of my arm; turned montgomery over; picked up his revolver still loaded in two chambers, and bending down to rummage, found half-a-dozen cartridges in his pocket. "take him," said i, standing up again and pointing with the whip; "take him, and carry him out and cast him into the sea." they came forward, evidently still afraid of montgomery, but still more afraid of my cracking red whip-lash; and after some fumbling and hesitation, some whip-cracking and shouting, they lifted him gingerly, carried him down to the beach, and went splashing into the dazzling welter of the sea. "on!" said i, "on! carry him far." they went in up to their armpits and stood regarding me. "let go," said i; and the body of montgomery vanished with a splash. something seemed to tighten across my chest. "good!" said i, with a break in my voice; and they came back, hurrying and fearful, to the margin of the water, leaving long wakes of black in the silver. at the water's edge they stopped, turning and glaring into the sea as though they presently expected montgomery to arise therefrom and exact vengeance. "now these," said i, pointing to the other bodies. they took care not to approach the place where they had thrown montgomery into the water, but instead, carried the four dead beast people slantingly along the beach for perhaps a hundred yards before they waded out and cast them away. as i watched them disposing of the mangled remains of m'ling, i heard a light footfall behind me, and turning quickly saw the big hyena-swine perhaps a dozen yards away. his head was bent down, his bright eyes were fixed upon me, his stumpy hands clenched and held close by his side. he stopped in this crouching attitude when i turned, his eyes a little averted. for a moment we stood eye to eye. i dropped the whip and snatched at the pistol in my pocket; for i meant to kill this brute, the most formidable of any left now upon the island, at the first excuse. it may seem treacherous, but so i was resolved. i was far more afraid of him than of any other two of the beast folk. his continued life was i knew a threat against mine. i was perhaps a dozen seconds collecting myself. then cried i, "salute! bow down!" his teeth flashed upon me in a snarl. "who are _you_ that i should--" perhaps a little too spasmodically i drew my revolver, aimed quickly and fired. i heard him yelp, saw him run sideways and turn, knew i had missed, and clicked back the cock with my thumb for the next shot. but he was already running headlong, jumping from side to side, and i dared not risk another miss. every now and then he looked back at me over his shoulder. he went slanting along the beach, and vanished beneath the driving masses of dense smoke that were still pouring out from the burning enclosure. for some time i stood staring after him. i turned to my three obedient beast folk again and signalled them to drop the body they still carried. then i went back to the place by the fire where the bodies had fallen and kicked the sand until all the brown blood-stains were absorbed and hidden. i dismissed my three serfs with a wave of the hand, and went up the beach into the thickets. i carried my pistol in my hand, my whip thrust with the hatchets in the sling of my arm. i was anxious to be alone, to think out the position in which i was now placed. a dreadful thing that i was only beginning to realise was, that over all this island there was now no safe place where i could be alone and secure to rest or sleep. i had recovered strength amazingly since my landing, but i was still inclined to be nervous and to break down under any great stress. i felt that i ought to cross the island and establish myself with the beast people, and make myself secure in their confidence. but my heart failed me. i went back to the beach, and turning eastward past the burning enclosure, made for a point where a shallow spit of coral sand ran out towards the reef. here i could sit down and think, my back to the sea and my face against any surprise. and there i sat, chin on knees, the sun beating down upon my head and unspeakable dread in my mind, plotting how i could live on against the hour of my rescue (if ever rescue came). i tried to review the whole situation as calmly as i could, but it was difficult to clear the thing of emotion. i began turning over in my mind the reason of montgomery's despair. "they will change," he said; "they are sure to change." and moreau, what was it that moreau had said? "the stubborn beast-flesh grows day by day back again." then i came round to the hyena-swine. i felt sure that if i did not kill that brute, he would kill me. the sayer of the law was dead: worse luck. they knew now that we of the whips could be killed even as they themselves were killed. were they peering at me already out of the green masses of ferns and palms over yonder, watching until i came within their spring? were they plotting against me? what was the hyena-swine telling them? my imagination was running away with me into a morass of unsubstantial fears. my thoughts were disturbed by a crying of sea-birds hurrying towards some black object that had been stranded by the waves on the beach near the enclosure. i knew what that object was, but i had not the heart to go back and drive them off. i began walking along the beach in the opposite direction, designing to come round the eastward corner of the island and so approach the ravine of the huts, without traversing the possible ambuscades of the thickets. perhaps half a mile along the beach i became aware of one of my three beast folk advancing out of the landward bushes towards me. i was now so nervous with my own imaginings that i immediately drew my revolver. even the propitiatory gestures of the creature failed to disarm me. he hesitated as he approached. "go away!" cried i. there was something very suggestive of a dog in the cringing attitude of the creature. it retreated a little way, very like a dog being sent home, and stopped, looking at me imploringly with canine brown eyes. "go away," said i. "do not come near me." "may i not come near you?" it said. "no; go away," i insisted, and snapped my whip. then putting my whip in my teeth, i stooped for a stone, and with that threat drove the creature away. so in solitude i came round by the ravine of the beast people, and hiding among the weeds and reeds that separated this crevice from the sea i watched such of them as appeared, trying to judge from their gestures and appearance how the death of moreau and montgomery and the destruction of the house of pain had affected them. i know now the folly of my cowardice. had i kept my courage up to the level of the dawn, had i not allowed it to ebb away in solitary thought, i might have grasped the vacant sceptre of moreau and ruled over the beast people. as it was i lost the opportunity, and sank to the position of a mere leader among my fellows. towards noon certain of them came and squatted basking in the hot sand. the imperious voices of hunger and thirst prevailed over my dread. i came out of the bushes, and, revolver in hand, walked down towards these seated figures. one, a wolf-woman, turned her head and stared at me, and then the others. none attempted to rise or salute me. i felt too faint and weary to insist, and i let the moment pass. "i want food," said i, almost apologetically, and drawing near. "there is food in the huts," said an ox-boar-man, drowsily, and looking away from me. i passed them, and went down into the shadow and odours of the almost deserted ravine. in an empty hut i feasted on some specked and half-decayed fruit; and then after i had propped some branches and sticks about the opening, and placed myself with my face towards it and my hand upon my revolver, the exhaustion of the last thirty hours claimed its own, and i fell into a light slumber, hoping that the flimsy barricade i had erected would cause sufficient noise in its removal to save me from surprise. xxi. the reversion of the beast folk. in this way i became one among the beast people in the island of doctor moreau. when i awoke, it was dark about me. my arm ached in its bandages. i sat up, wondering at first where i might be. i heard coarse voices talking outside. then i saw that my barricade had gone, and that the opening of the hut stood clear. my revolver was still in my hand. i heard something breathing, saw something crouched together close beside me. i held my breath, trying to see what it was. it began to move slowly, interminably. then something soft and warm and moist passed across my hand. all my muscles contracted. i snatched my hand away. a cry of alarm began and was stifled in my throat. then i just realised what had happened sufficiently to stay my fingers on the revolver. "who is that?" i said in a hoarse whisper, the revolver still pointed. "i--master." "who are you?" "they say there is no master now. but i know, i know. i carried the bodies into the sea, o walker in the sea! the bodies of those you slew. i am your slave, master." "are you the one i met on the beach?" i asked. "the same, master." the thing was evidently faithful enough, for it might have fallen upon me as i slept. "it is well," i said, extending my hand for another licking kiss. i began to realise what its presence meant, and the tide of my courage flowed. "where are the others?" i asked. "they are mad; they are fools," said the dog-man. "even now they talk together beyond there. they say, 'the master is dead. the other with the whip is dead. that other who walked in the sea is as we are. we have no master, no whips, no house of pain, any more. there is an end. we love the law, and will keep it; but there is no pain, no master, no whips for ever again.' so they say. but i know, master, i know." i felt in the darkness, and patted the dog-man's head. "it is well," i said again. "presently you will slay them all," said the dog-man. "presently," i answered, "i will slay them all,--after certain days and certain things have come to pass. every one of them save those you spare, every one of them shall be slain." "what the master wishes to kill, the master kills," said the dog-man with a certain satisfaction in his voice. "and that their sins may grow," i said, "let them live in their folly until their time is ripe. let them not know that i am the master." "the master's will is sweet," said the dog-man, with the ready tact of his canine blood. "but one has sinned," said i. "him i will kill, whenever i may meet him. when i say to you, 'that is he,' see that you fall upon him. and now i will go to the men and women who are assembled together." for a moment the opening of the hut was blackened by the exit of the dog-man. then i followed and stood up, almost in the exact spot where i had been when i had heard moreau and his staghound pursuing me. but now it was night, and all the miasmatic ravine about me was black; and beyond, instead of a green, sunlit slope, i saw a red fire, before which hunched, grotesque figures moved to and fro. farther were the thick trees, a bank of darkness, fringed above with the black lace of the upper branches. the moon was just riding up on the edge of the ravine, and like a bar across its face drove the spire of vapour that was for ever streaming from the fumaroles of the island. "walk by me," said i, nerving myself; and side by side we walked down the narrow way, taking little heed of the dim things that peered at us out of the huts. none about the fire attempted to salute me. most of them disregarded me, ostentatiously. i looked round for the hyena-swine, but he was not there. altogether, perhaps twenty of the beast folk squatted, staring into the fire or talking to one another. "he is dead, he is dead! the master is dead!" said the voice of the ape-man to the right of me. "the house of pain--there is no house of pain!" "he is not dead," said i, in a loud voice. "even now he watches us!" this startled them. twenty pairs of eyes regarded me. "the house of pain is gone," said i. "it will come again. the master you cannot see; yet even now he listens among you." "true, true!" said the dog-man. they were staggered at my assurance. an animal may be ferocious and cunning enough, but it takes a real man to tell a lie. "the man with the bandaged arm speaks a strange thing," said one of the beast folk. "i tell you it is so," i said. "the master and the house of pain will come again. woe be to him who breaks the law!" they looked curiously at one another. with an affectation of indifference i began to chop idly at the ground in front of me with my hatchet. they looked, i noticed, at the deep cuts i made in the turf. then the satyr raised a doubt. i answered him. then one of the dappled things objected, and an animated discussion sprang up round the fire. every moment i began to feel more convinced of my present security. i talked now without the catching in my breath, due to the intensity of my excitement, that had troubled me at first. in the course of about an hour i had really convinced several of the beast folk of the truth of my assertions, and talked most of the others into a dubious state. i kept a sharp eye for my enemy the hyena-swine, but he never appeared. every now and then a suspicious movement would startle me, but my confidence grew rapidly. then as the moon crept down from the zenith, one by one the listeners began to yawn (showing the oddest teeth in the light of the sinking fire), and first one and then another retired towards the dens in the ravine; and i, dreading the silence and darkness, went with them, knowing i was safer with several of them than with one alone. in this manner began the longer part of my sojourn upon this island of doctor moreau. but from that night until the end came, there was but one thing happened to tell save a series of innumerable small unpleasant details and the fretting of an incessant uneasiness. so that i prefer to make no chronicle for that gap of time, to tell only one cardinal incident of the ten months i spent as an intimate of these half-humanised brutes. there is much that sticks in my memory that i could write,--things that i would cheerfully give my right hand to forget; but they do not help the telling of the story. in the retrospect it is strange to remember how soon i fell in with these monsters' ways, and gained my confidence again. i had my quarrels with them of course, and could show some of their teeth-marks still; but they soon gained a wholesome respect for my trick of throwing stones and for the bite of my hatchet. and my saint-bernard-man's loyalty was of infinite service to me. i found their simple scale of honour was based mainly on the capacity for inflicting trenchant wounds. indeed, i may say--without vanity, i hope--that i held something like pre-eminence among them. one or two, whom in a rare access of high spirits i had scarred rather badly, bore me a grudge; but it vented itself chiefly behind my back, and at a safe distance from my missiles, in grimaces. the hyena-swine avoided me, and i was always on the alert for him. my inseparable dog-man hated and dreaded him intensely. i really believe that was at the root of the brute's attachment to me. it was soon evident to me that the former monster had tasted blood, and gone the way of the leopard-man. he formed a lair somewhere in the forest, and became solitary. once i tried to induce the beast folk to hunt him, but i lacked the authority to make them co-operate for one end. again and again i tried to approach his den and come upon him unaware; but always he was too acute for me, and saw or winded me and got away. he too made every forest pathway dangerous to me and my ally with his lurking ambuscades. the dog-man scarcely dared to leave my side. in the first month or so the beast folk, compared with their latter condition, were human enough, and for one or two besides my canine friend i even conceived a friendly tolerance. the little pink sloth-creature displayed an odd affection for me, and took to following me about. the monkey-man bored me, however; he assumed, on the strength of his five digits, that he was my equal, and was for ever jabbering at me,--jabbering the most arrant nonsense. one thing about him entertained me a little: he had a fantastic trick of coining new words. he had an idea, i believe, that to gabble about names that meant nothing was the proper use of speech. he called it "big thinks" to distinguish it from "little thinks," the sane every-day interests of life. if ever i made a remark he did not understand, he would praise it very much, ask me to say it again, learn it by heart, and go off repeating it, with a word wrong here or there, to all the milder of the beast people. he thought nothing of what was plain and comprehensible. i invented some very curious "big thinks" for his especial use. i think now that he was the silliest creature i ever met; he had developed in the most wonderful way the distinctive silliness of man without losing one jot of the natural folly of a monkey. this, i say, was in the earlier weeks of my solitude among these brutes. during that time they respected the usage established by the law, and behaved with general decorum. once i found another rabbit torn to pieces,--by the hyena-swine, i am assured,--but that was all. it was about may when i first distinctly perceived a growing difference in their speech and carriage, a growing coarseness of articulation, a growing disinclination to talk. my monkey-man's jabber multiplied in volume but grew less and less comprehensible, more and more simian. some of the others seemed altogether slipping their hold upon speech, though they still understood what i said to them at that time. (can you imagine language, once clear-cut and exact, softening and guttering, losing shape and import, becoming mere lumps of sound again?) and they walked erect with an increasing difficulty. though they evidently felt ashamed of themselves, every now and then i would come upon one or another running on toes and finger-tips, and quite unable to recover the vertical attitude. they held things more clumsily; drinking by suction, feeding by gnawing, grew commoner every day. i realised more keenly than ever what moreau had told me about the "stubborn beast-flesh." they were reverting, and reverting very rapidly. some of them--the pioneers in this, i noticed with some surprise, were all females--began to disregard the injunction of decency, deliberately for the most part. others even attempted public outrages upon the institution of monogamy. the tradition of the law was clearly losing its force. i cannot pursue this disagreeable subject. my dog-man imperceptibly slipped back to the dog again; day by day he became dumb, quadrupedal, hairy. i scarcely noticed the transition from the companion on my right hand to the lurching dog at my side. as the carelessness and disorganisation increased from day to day, the lane of dwelling places, at no time very sweet, became so loathsome that i left it, and going across the island made myself a hovel of boughs amid the black ruins of moreau's enclosure. some memory of pain, i found, still made that place the safest from the beast folk. it would be impossible to detail every step of the lapsing of these monsters,--to tell how, day by day, the human semblance left them; how they gave up bandagings and wrappings, abandoned at last every stitch of clothing; how the hair began to spread over the exposed limbs; how their foreheads fell away and their faces projected; how the quasi-human intimacy i had permitted myself with some of them in the first month of my loneliness became a shuddering horror to recall. the change was slow and inevitable. for them and for me it came without any definite shock. i still went among them in safety, because no jolt in the downward glide had released the increasing charge of explosive animalism that ousted the human day by day. but i began to fear that soon now that shock must come. my saint-bernard-brute followed me to the enclosure every night, and his vigilance enabled me to sleep at times in something like peace. the little pink sloth-thing became shy and left me, to crawl back to its natural life once more among the tree-branches. we were in just the state of equilibrium that would remain in one of those "happy family" cages which animal-tamers exhibit, if the tamer were to leave it for ever. of course these creatures did not decline into such beasts as the reader has seen in zoological gardens,--into ordinary bears, wolves, tigers, oxen, swine, and apes. there was still something strange about each; in each moreau had blended this animal with that. one perhaps was ursine chiefly, another feline chiefly, another bovine chiefly; but each was tainted with other creatures,--a kind of generalised animalism appearing through the specific dispositions. and the dwindling shreds of the humanity still startled me every now and then,--a momentary recrudescence of speech perhaps, an unexpected dexterity of the fore-feet, a pitiful attempt to walk erect. i too must have undergone strange changes. my clothes hung about me as yellow rags, through whose rents showed the tanned skin. my hair grew long, and became matted together. i am told that even now my eyes have a strange brightness, a swift alertness of movement. at first i spent the daylight hours on the southward beach watching for a ship, hoping and praying for a ship. i counted on the "ipecacuanha" returning as the year wore on; but she never came. five times i saw sails, and thrice smoke; but nothing ever touched the island. i always had a bonfire ready, but no doubt the volcanic reputation of the island was taken to account for that. it was only about september or october that i began to think of making a raft. by that time my arm had healed, and both my hands were at my service again. at first, i found my helplessness appalling. i had never done any carpentry or such-like work in my life, and i spent day after day in experimental chopping and binding among the trees. i had no ropes, and could hit on nothing wherewith to make ropes; none of the abundant creepers seemed limber or strong enough, and with all my litter of scientific education i could not devise any way of making them so. i spent more than a fortnight grubbing among the black ruins of the enclosure and on the beach where the boats had been burnt, looking for nails and other stray pieces of metal that might prove of service. now and then some beast-creature would watch me, and go leaping off when i called to it. there came a season of thunder-storms and heavy rain, which greatly retarded my work; but at last the raft was completed. i was delighted with it. but with a certain lack of practical sense which has always been my bane, i had made it a mile or more from the sea; and before i had dragged it down to the beach the thing had fallen to pieces. perhaps it is as well that i was saved from launching it; but at the time my misery at my failure was so acute that for some days i simply moped on the beach, and stared at the water and thought of death. i did not, however, mean to die, and an incident occurred that warned me unmistakably of the folly of letting the days pass so,--for each fresh day was fraught with increasing danger from the beast people. i was lying in the shade of the enclosure wall, staring out to sea, when i was startled by something cold touching the skin of my heel, and starting round found the little pink sloth-creature blinking into my face. he had long since lost speech and active movement, and the lank hair of the little brute grew thicker every day and his stumpy claws more askew. he made a moaning noise when he saw he had attracted my attention, went a little way towards the bushes and looked back at me. at first i did not understand, but presently it occurred to me that he wished me to follow him; and this i did at last,--slowly, for the day was hot. when we reached the trees he clambered into them, for he could travel better among their swinging creepers than on the ground. and suddenly in a trampled space i came upon a ghastly group. my saint-bernard-creature lay on the ground, dead; and near his body crouched the hyena-swine, gripping the quivering flesh with its misshapen claws, gnawing at it, and snarling with delight. as i approached, the monster lifted its glaring eyes to mine, its lips went trembling back from its red-stained teeth, and it growled menacingly. it was not afraid and not ashamed; the last vestige of the human taint had vanished. i advanced a step farther, stopped, and pulled out my revolver. at last i had him face to face. the brute made no sign of retreat; but its ears went back, its hair bristled, and its body crouched together. i aimed between the eyes and fired. as i did so, the thing rose straight at me in a leap, and i was knocked over like a ninepin. it clutched at me with its crippled hand, and struck me in the face. its spring carried it over me. i fell under the hind part of its body; but luckily i had hit as i meant, and it had died even as it leapt. i crawled out from under its unclean weight and stood up trembling, staring at its quivering body. that danger at least was over; but this, i knew was only the first of the series of relapses that must come. i burnt both of the bodies on a pyre of brushwood; but after that i saw that unless i left the island my death was only a question of time. the beast people by that time had, with one or two exceptions, left the ravine and made themselves lairs according to their taste among the thickets of the island. few prowled by day, most of them slept, and the island might have seemed deserted to a new-comer; but at night the air was hideous with their calls and howling. i had half a mind to make a massacre of them; to build traps, or fight them with my knife. had i possessed sufficient cartridges, i should not have hesitated to begin the killing. there could now be scarcely a score left of the dangerous carnivores; the braver of these were already dead. after the death of this poor dog of mine, my last friend, i too adopted to some extent the practice of slumbering in the daytime in order to be on my guard at night. i rebuilt my den in the walls of the enclosure, with such a narrow opening that anything attempting to enter must necessarily make a considerable noise. the creatures had lost the art of fire too, and recovered their fear of it. i turned once more, almost passionately now, to hammering together stakes and branches to form a raft for my escape. i found a thousand difficulties. i am an extremely unhandy man (my schooling was over before the days of slojd); but most of the requirements of a raft i met at last in some clumsy, circuitous way or other, and this time i took care of the strength. the only insurmountable obstacle was that i had no vessel to contain the water i should need if i floated forth upon these untravelled seas. i would have even tried pottery, but the island contained no clay. i used to go moping about the island trying with all my might to solve this one last difficulty. sometimes i would give way to wild outbursts of rage, and hack and splinter some unlucky tree in my intolerable vexation. but i could think of nothing. and then came a day, a wonderful day, which i spent in ecstasy. i saw a sail to the southwest, a small sail like that of a little schooner; and forthwith i lit a great pile of brushwood, and stood by it in the heat of it, and the heat of the midday sun, watching. all day i watched that sail, eating or drinking nothing, so that my head reeled; and the beasts came and glared at me, and seemed to wonder, and went away. it was still distant when night came and swallowed it up; and all night i toiled to keep my blaze bright and high, and the eyes of the beasts shone out of the darkness, marvelling. in the dawn the sail was nearer, and i saw it was the dirty lug-sail of a small boat. but it sailed strangely. my eyes were weary with watching, and i peered and could not believe them. two men were in the boat, sitting low down,--one by the bows, the other at the rudder. the head was not kept to the wind; it yawed and fell away. as the day grew brighter, i began waving the last rag of my jacket to them; but they did not notice me, and sat still, facing each other. i went to the lowest point of the low headland, and gesticulated and shouted. there was no response, and the boat kept on her aimless course, making slowly, very slowly, for the bay. suddenly a great white bird flew up out of the boat, and neither of the men stirred nor noticed it; it circled round, and then came sweeping overhead with its strong wings outspread. then i stopped shouting, and sat down on the headland and rested my chin on my hands and stared. slowly, slowly, the boat drove past towards the west. i would have swum out to it, but something--a cold, vague fear--kept me back. in the afternoon the tide stranded the boat, and left it a hundred yards or so to the westward of the ruins of the enclosure. the men in it were dead, had been dead so long that they fell to pieces when i tilted the boat on its side and dragged them out. one had a shock of red hair, like the captain of the "ipecacuanha," and a dirty white cap lay in the bottom of the boat. as i stood beside the boat, three of the beasts came slinking out of the bushes and sniffing towards me. one of my spasms of disgust came upon me. i thrust the little boat down the beach and clambered on board her. two of the brutes were wolf-beasts, and came forward with quivering nostrils and glittering eyes; the third was the horrible nondescript of bear and bull. when i saw them approaching those wretched remains, heard them snarling at one another and caught the gleam of their teeth, a frantic horror succeeded my repulsion. i turned my back upon them, struck the lug and began paddling out to sea. i could not bring myself to look behind me. i lay, however, between the reef and the island that night, and the next morning went round to the stream and filled the empty keg aboard with water. then, with such patience as i could command, i collected a quantity of fruit, and waylaid and killed two rabbits with my last three cartridges. while i was doing this i left the boat moored to an inward projection of the reef, for fear of the beast people. xxii. the man alone. in the evening i started, and drove out to sea before a gentle wind from the southwest, slowly, steadily; and the island grew smaller and smaller, and the lank spire of smoke dwindled to a finer and finer line against the hot sunset. the ocean rose up around me, hiding that low, dark patch from my eyes. the daylight, the trailing glory of the sun, went streaming out of the sky, was drawn aside like some luminous curtain, and at last i looked into the blue gulf of immensity which the sunshine hides, and saw the floating hosts of the stars. the sea was silent, the sky was silent. i was alone with the night and silence. so i drifted for three days, eating and drinking sparingly, and meditating upon all that had happened to me,--not desiring very greatly then to see men again. one unclean rag was about me, my hair a black tangle: no doubt my discoverers thought me a madman. it is strange, but i felt no desire to return to mankind. i was only glad to be quit of the foulness of the beast people. and on the third day i was picked up by a brig from apia to san francisco. neither the captain nor the mate would believe my story, judging that solitude and danger had made me mad; and fearing their opinion might be that of others, i refrained from telling my adventure further, and professed to recall nothing that had happened to me between the loss of the "lady vain" and the time when i was picked up again,--the space of a year. i had to act with the utmost circumspection to save myself from the suspicion of insanity. my memory of the law, of the two dead sailors, of the ambuscades of the darkness, of the body in the canebrake, haunted me; and, unnatural as it seems, with my return to mankind came, instead of that confidence and sympathy i had expected, a strange enhancement of the uncertainty and dread i had experienced during my stay upon the island. no one would believe me; i was almost as queer to men as i had been to the beast people. i may have caught something of the natural wildness of my companions. they say that terror is a disease, and anyhow i can witness that for several years now a restless fear has dwelt in my mind,--such a restless fear as a half-tamed lion cub may feel. my trouble took the strangest form. i could not persuade myself that the men and women i met were not also another beast people, animals half wrought into the outward image of human souls, and that they would presently begin to revert,--to show first this bestial mark and then that. but i have confided my case to a strangely able man,--a man who had known moreau, and seemed half to credit my story; a mental specialist,--and he has helped me mightily, though i do not expect that the terror of that island will ever altogether leave me. at most times it lies far in the back of my mind, a mere distant cloud, a memory, and a faint distrust; but there are times when the little cloud spreads until it obscures the whole sky. then i look about me at my fellow-men; and i go in fear. i see faces, keen and bright; others dull or dangerous; others, unsteady, insincere,--none that have the calm authority of a reasonable soul. i feel as though the animal was surging up through them; that presently the degradation of the islanders will be played over again on a larger scale. i know this is an illusion; that these seeming men and women about me are indeed men and women,--men and women for ever, perfectly reasonable creatures, full of human desires and tender solicitude, emancipated from instinct and the slaves of no fantastic law,--beings altogether different from the beast folk. yet i shrink from them, from their curious glances, their inquiries and assistance, and long to be away from them and alone. for that reason i live near the broad free downland, and can escape thither when this shadow is over my soul; and very sweet is the empty downland then, under the wind-swept sky. when i lived in london the horror was well-nigh insupportable. i could not get away from men: their voices came through windows; locked doors were flimsy safeguards. i would go out into the streets to fight with my delusion, and prowling women would mew after me; furtive, craving men glance jealously at me; weary, pale workers go coughing by me with tired eyes and eager paces, like wounded deer dripping blood; old people, bent and dull, pass murmuring to themselves; and, all unheeding, a ragged tail of gibing children. then i would turn aside into some chapel,--and even there, such was my disturbance, it seemed that the preacher gibbered "big thinks," even as the ape-man had done; or into some library, and there the intent faces over the books seemed but patient creatures waiting for prey. particularly nauseous were the blank, expressionless faces of people in trains and omnibuses; they seemed no more my fellow-creatures than dead bodies would be, so that i did not dare to travel unless i was assured of being alone. and even it seemed that i too was not a reasonable creature, but only an animal tormented with some strange disorder in its brain which sent it to wander alone, like a sheep stricken with gid. this is a mood, however, that comes to me now, i thank god, more rarely. i have withdrawn myself from the confusion of cities and multitudes, and spend my days surrounded by wise books,--bright windows in this life of ours, lit by the shining souls of men. i see few strangers, and have but a small household. my days i devote to reading and to experiments in chemistry, and i spend many of the clear nights in the study of astronomy. there is--though i do not know how there is or why there is--a sense of infinite peace and protection in the glittering hosts of heaven. there it must be, i think, in the vast and eternal laws of matter, and not in the daily cares and sins and troubles of men, that whatever is more than animal within us must find its solace and its hope. i hope, or i could not live. and so, in hope and solitude, my story ends. edward prendick. note. the substance of the chapter entitled "doctor moreau explains," which contains the essential idea of the story, appeared as a middle article in the "saturday review" in january, . this is the only portion of this story that has been previously published, and it has been entirely recast to adapt it to the narrative form. distributed proofreaders the country of the blind and other stories h. g. wells [illustration: he stopped, and then made a dash to escape from their closing ranks.] introduction the enterprise of messrs. t. nelson & sons and the friendly accommodation of messrs. macmillan render possible this collection in one cover of all the short stories by me that i care for any one to read again. except for the two series of linked incidents that make up the bulk of the book called _tales of space and time_, no short story of mine of the slightest merit is excluded from this volume. many of very questionable merit find a place; it is an inclusive and not an exclusive gathering. and the task of selection and revision brings home to me with something of the effect of discovery that i was once an industrious writer of short stories, and that i am no longer anything of the kind. i have not written one now for quite a long time, and in the past five or six years i have made scarcely one a year. the bulk of the fifty or sixty tales from which this present three-and-thirty have been chosen dates from the last century. this edition is more definitive than i supposed when first i arranged for it. in the presence of so conclusive an ebb and cessation an almost obituary manner seems justifiable. i find it a little difficult to disentangle the causes that have restricted the flow of these inventions. it has happened, i remark, to others as well as to myself, and in spite of the kindliest encouragement to continue from editors and readers. there was a time when life bubbled with short stories; they were always coming to the surface of my mind, and it is no deliberate change of will that has thus restricted my production. it is rather, i think, a diversion of attention to more sustained and more exacting forms. it was my friend mr. c.l. hind who set that spring going. he urged me to write short stories for the _pall mall budget_, and persuaded me by his simple and buoyant conviction that i could do what he desired. there existed at the time only the little sketch, "the jilting of jane," included in this volume--at least, that is the only tolerable fragment of fiction i find surviving from my pre-lewis-hind period. but i set myself, so encouraged, to the experiment of inventing moving and interesting things that could be given vividly in the little space of eight or ten such pages as this, and for a time i found it a very entertaining pursuit indeed. mr. hind's indicating finger had shown me an amusing possibility of the mind. i found that, taking almost anything as a starting-point and letting my thoughts play about it, there would presently come out of the darkness, in a manner quite inexplicable, some absurd or vivid little incident more or less relevant to that initial nucleus. little men in canoes upon sunlit oceans would come floating out of nothingness, incubating the eggs of prehistoric monsters unawares; violent conflicts would break out amidst the flower-beds of suburban gardens; i would discover i was peering into remote and mysterious worlds ruled by an order logical indeed but other than our common sanity. the 'nineties was a good and stimulating period for a short-story writer. mr. kipling had made his astonishing advent with a series of little blue-grey books, whose covers opened like window-shutters to reveal the dusty sun-glare and blazing colours of the east; mr. barrie had demonstrated what could be done in a little space through the panes of his _window in thrums_. the _national observer_ was at the climax of its career of heroic insistence upon lyrical brevity and a vivid finish, and mr. frank harris was not only printing good short stories by other people, but writing still better ones himself in the dignified pages of the _fortnightly review. longman's magazine_, too, represented a _clientèle_ of appreciative short-story readers that is now scattered. then came the generous opportunities of the _yellow book_, and the _national observer_ died only to give birth to the _new review_. no short story of the slightest distinction went for long unrecognised. the sixpenny popular magazines had still to deaden down the conception of what a short story might be to the imaginative limitation of the common reader--and a maximum length of six thousand words. short stories broke out everywhere. kipling was writing short stories; barrie, stevenson, frank-harris; max beerbohm wrote at least one perfect one, "the happy hypocrite"; henry james pursued his wonderful and inimitable bent; and among other names that occur to me, like a mixed handful of jewels drawn from a bag, are george street, morley roberts, george gissing, ella d'arcy, murray gilchrist, e. nesbit, stephen crane, joseph conrad, edwin pugh, jerome k. jerome, kenneth graham, arthur morrison, marriott watson, george moore, grant allen, george egerton, henry harland, pett ridge, w. w. jacobs (who alone seems inexhaustible). i dare say i could recall as many more names with a little effort. i may be succumbing to the infirmities of middle age, but i do not think the present decade can produce any parallel to this list, or what is more remarkable, that the later achievements in this field of any of the survivors from that time, with the sole exception of joseph conrad, can compare with the work they did before . it seems to me this outburst of short stories came not only as a phase in literary development, but also as a phase in the development of the individual writers concerned. it is now quite unusual to see any adequate criticism of short stories in english. i do not know how far the decline in short-story writing may not be due to that. every sort of artist demands human responses, and few men can contrive to write merely for a publisher's cheque and silence, however reassuring that cheque may be. a mad millionaire who commissioned masterpieces to burn would find it impossible to buy them. scarcely any artist will hesitate in the choice between money and attention; and it was primarily for that last and better sort of pay that the short stories of the 'nineties were written. people talked about them tremendously, compared them, and ranked them. that was the thing that mattered. it was not, of course, all good talk, and we suffered then, as now, from the _à priori_ critic. just as nowadays he goes about declaring that the work of such-and-such a dramatist is all very amusing and delightful, but "it isn't a play," so we' had a great deal of talk about _the_ short story, and found ourselves measured by all kinds of arbitrary standards. there was a tendency to treat the short story as though it was as definable a form as the sonnet, instead of being just exactly what any one of courage and imagination can get told in twenty minutes' reading or so. it was either mr. edward garnett or mr. george moore in a violently anti-kipling mood who invented the distinction between the short story and the anecdote. the short story was maupassant; the anecdote was damnable. it was a quite infernal comment in its way, because it permitted no defence. fools caught it up and used it freely. nothing is so destructive in a field of artistic effort as a stock term of abuse. anyone could say of any short story, "a mere anecdote," just as anyone can say "incoherent!" of any novel or of any sonata that isn't studiously monotonous. the recession of enthusiasm for this compact, amusing form is closely associated in my mind with that discouraging imputation. one felt hopelessly open to a paralysing and unanswerable charge, and one's ease and happiness in the garden of one's fancies was more and more marred by the dread of it. it crept into one's mind, a distress as vague and inexpugnable as a sea fog on a spring morning, and presently one shivered and wanted to go indoors...it is the absurd fate of the imaginative writer that he should be thus sensitive to atmospheric conditions. but after one has died as a maker one may still live as a critic, and i will confess i am all for laxness and variety in this as in every field of art. insistence upon rigid forms and austere unities seems to me the instinctive reaction of the sterile against the fecund. it is the tired man with a headache who values a work of art for what it does not contain. i suppose it is the lot of every critic nowadays to suffer from indigestion and a fatigued appreciation, and to develop a self-protective tendency towards rules that will reject, as it were, automatically the more abundant and irregular forms. but this world is not for the weary, and in the long-run it is the new and variant that matter. i refuse altogether to recognise any hard and fast type for the short story, any more than i admit any limitation upon the liberties of the small picture. the short story is a fiction that may be read in something under an hour, and so that it is moving and delightful, it does not matter whether it is as "trivial" as a japanese print of insects seen closely between grass stems, or as spacious as the prospect of the plain of italy from monte mottarone. it does not matter whether it is human or inhuman, or whether it leaves you thinking deeply or radiantly but superficially pleased. some things are more easily done as short stories than others and more abundantly done, but one of the many pleasures of short-story writing is to achieve the impossible. at any rate, that is the present writer's conception of the art of the short story, as the jolly art of making something very bright and moving; it may be horrible or pathetic or funny or beautiful or profoundly illuminating, having only this essential, that it should take from fifteen to fifty minutes to read aloud. all the rest is just whatever invention and imagination and the mood can give--a vision of buttered slides on a busy day or of unprecedented worlds. in that spirit of miscellaneous expectation these stories should be received. each is intended to be a thing by itself; and if it is not too ungrateful to kindly and enterprising publishers, i would confess i would much prefer to see each printed expensively alone, and left in a little brown-paper cover to lie about a room against the needs of a quite casual curiosity. and i would rather this volume were found in the bedrooms of convalescents and in dentists' parlours and railway trains than in gentlemen's studies. i would rather have it dipped in and dipped in again than read severely through. essentially it is a miscellany of inventions, many of which were very pleasant to write; and its end is more than attained if some of them are refreshing and agreeable to read. i have now re-read them all, and i am glad to think i wrote them. i like them, but i cannot tell how much the associations of old happinesses gives them a flavour for me. i make no claims for them and no apology; they will be read as long as people read them. things written either live or die; unless it be for a place of judgment upon academic impostors, there is no apologetic intermediate state. i may add that i have tried to set a date to most of these stories, but that they are not arranged in strictly chronological order. h. g. wells. contents. i. the jilting of jane ii. the cone iii. the stolen bacillus iv. the flowering of the strange orchid v. the avu observatory vi. aepyornis island vii. the remarkable case of davidson's eyes. viii. the lord of the dynamos. ix. the moth x. the treasure in the forest xi. the story of the late mr. elvesham xii. under the knife xiii. the sea raiders xiv. the obliterated man xv. the plattner story xvi. the red room xvii. the purple pileus xviii. a slip under the microscope xix. the crystal egg xx. the star xxi. the man who could work miracles xxii. a vision of judgment xxiii. jimmy goggles the god xxiv. miss winchelsea's heart xxv. a dream of armageddon xxvi. the valley of spiders xxvii. the new accelerator xxviii. the truth about pyecraft xxix. the magic shop xxx. the empire of the ants xxxi. the door in the wall xxxii. the country of the blind xxxiii. the beautiful suit i. the jilting of jane. as i sit writing in my study, i can hear our jane bumping her way downstairs with a brush and dust-pan. she used in the old days to sing hymn tunes, or the british national song for the time being, to these instruments, but latterly she has been silent and even careful over her work. time was when i prayed with fervour for such silence, and my wife with sighs for such care, but now they have come we are not so glad as we might have anticipated we should be. indeed, i would rejoice secretly, though it may be unmanly weakness to admit it, even to hear jane sing "daisy," or, by the fracture of any plate but one of euphemia's best green ones, to learn that the period of brooding has come to an end. yet how we longed to hear the last of jane's young man before we heard the last of him! jane was always very free with her conversation to my wife, and discoursed admirably in the kitchen on a variety of topics--so well, indeed, that i sometimes left my study door open--our house is a small one--to partake of it. but after william came, it was always william, nothing but william; william this and william that; and when we thought william was worked out and exhausted altogether, then william all over again. the engagement lasted altogether three years; yet how she got introduced to william, and so became thus saturated with him, was always a secret. for my part, i believe it was at the street corner where the rev. barnabas baux used to hold an open-air service after evensong on sundays. young cupids were wont to flit like moths round the paraffin flare of that centre of high church hymn-singing. i fancy she stood singing hymns there, out of memory and her imagination, instead of coming home to get supper, and william came up beside her and said, "hello!" "hello yourself!" she said; and etiquette being satisfied, they proceeded to talk together. as euphemia has a reprehensible way of letting her servants talk to her, she soon heard of him. "he is _such_ a respectable young man, ma'am," said jane, "you don't know." ignoring the slur cast on her acquaintance, my wife inquired further about this william. "he is second porter at maynard's, the draper's," said jane, "and gets eighteen shillings--nearly a pound--a week, m'm; and when the head porter leaves he will be head porter. his relatives are quite superior people, m'm. not labouring people at all. his father was a greengrosher, m'm, and had a churnor, and he was bankrup' twice. and one of his sisters is in a home for the dying. it will be a very good match for me, m'm," said jane, "me being an orphan girl." "then you are engaged to him?" asked my wife. "not engaged, ma'am; but he is saving money to buy a ring--hammyfist." "well, jane, when you are properly engaged to him you may ask him round here on sunday afternoons, and have tea with him in the kitchen;" for my euphemia has a motherly conception of her duty towards her maid-servants. and presently the amethystine ring was being worn about the house, even with ostentation, and jane developed a new way of bringing in the joint so that this gage was evident. the elder miss maitland was aggrieved by it, and told my wife that servants ought not to wear rings. but my wife looked it up in _enquire within_ and _mrs. motherly's book of household management_, and found no prohibition. so jane remained with this happiness added to her love. the treasure of jane's heart appeared to me to be what respectable people call a very deserving young man. "william, ma'am," said jane one day suddenly, with ill-concealed complacency, as she counted out the beer bottles, "william, ma'am, is a teetotaller. yes, m'm; and he don't smoke. smoking, ma'am," said jane, as one who reads the heart, "_do_ make such a dust about. beside the waste of money. _and_ the smell. however, i suppose they got to do it--some of them..." william was at first a rather shabby young man of the ready-made black coat school of costume. he had watery gray eyes, and a complexion appropriate to the brother of one in a home for the dying. euphemia did not fancy him very much, even at the beginning. his eminent respectability was vouched for by an alpaca umbrella, from which he never allowed himself to be parted. "he goes to chapel," said jane. "his papa, ma'am----" "his _what_, jane?" "his papa, ma'am, was church: but mr. maynard is a plymouth brother, and william thinks it policy, ma'am, to go there too. mr. maynard comes and talks to him quite friendly when they ain't busy, about using up all the ends of string, and about his soul. he takes a lot of notice, do mr. maynard, of william, and the way he saves his soul, ma'am." presently we heard that the head porter at maynard's had left, and that william was head porter at twenty-three shillings a week. "he is really kind of over the man who drives the van," said jane, "and him married, with three children." and she promised in the pride of her heart to make interest for us with william to favour us so that we might get our parcels of drapery from maynard's with exceptional promptitude. after this promotion a rapidly-increasing prosperity came upon jane's young man. one day we learned that mr. maynard had given william a book. "'smiles' 'elp yourself,' it's called," said jane; "but it ain't comic. it tells you how to get on in the world, and some what william read to me was _lovely_, ma'am." euphemia told me of this, laughing, and then she became suddenly grave. "do you know, dear," she said, "jane said one thing i did not like. she had been quiet for a minute, and then she suddenly remarked, 'william is a lot above me, ma'am, ain't he?'" "i don't see anything in that," i said, though later my eyes were to be opened. one sunday afternoon about that time i was sitting at my writing-desk-- possibly i was reading a good book--when a something went by the window. i heard a startled exclamation behind me, and saw euphemia with her hands clasped together and her eyes dilated. "george," she said in an awe-stricken whisper, "did you see?" then we both spoke to one another at the same moment, slowly and solemnly: "_a silk hat! yellow gloves! a new umbrella!_" "it may be my fancy, dear," said euphemia; "but his tie was very like yours. i believe jane keeps him in ties. she told me a little while ago, in a way that implied volumes about the rest of your costume, 'the master _do_ wear pretty ties, ma'am.' and he echoes all your novelties." the young couple passed our window again on their way to their customary walk. they were arm in arm. jane looked exquisitely proud, happy, and uncomfortable, with new white cotton gloves, and william, in the silk hat, singularly genteel! that was the culmination of jane's happiness. when she returned, "mr. maynard has been talking to william, ma'am," she said, "and he is to serve customers, just like the young shop gentlemen, during the next sale. and if he gets on, he is to be made an assistant, ma'am, at the first opportunity. he has got to be as gentlemanly as he can, ma'am; and if he ain't, ma'am, he says it won't be for want of trying. mr. maynard has took a great fancy to him." "he _is_ getting on, jane," said my wife. "yes, ma'am," said jane thoughtfully; "he _is_ getting on." and she sighed. that next sunday as i drank my tea i interrogated my wife. "how is this sunday different from all other sundays, little woman? what has happened? have you altered the curtains, or re-arranged the furniture, or where is the indefinable difference of it? are you wearing your hair in a new way without warning me? i perceive a change clearly, and i cannot for the life of me say what it is." then my wife answered in her most tragic voice, "george," she said, "that william has not come near the place to-day! and jane is crying her heart out upstairs." there followed a period of silence. jane, as i have said, stopped singing about the house, and began to care for our brittle possessions, which struck my wife as being a very sad sign indeed. the next sunday, and the next, jane asked to go out, "to walk with william," and my wife, who never attempts to extort confidences, gave her permission, and asked no questions. on each occasion jane came back looking flushed and very determined. at last one day she became communicative. "william is being led away," she remarked abruptly, with a catching of the breath, apropos of tablecloths. "yes, m'm. she is a milliner, and she can play on the piano." "i thought," said my wife, "that you went out with him on sunday." "not out with him, m'm--after him. i walked along by the side of them, and told her he was engaged to me." "dear me, jane, did you? what did they do?" "took no more notice of me than if i was dirt. so i told her she should suffer for it." "it could not have been a very agreeable walk, jane." "not for no parties, ma'am." "i wish," said jane, "i could play the piano, ma'am. but anyhow, i don't mean to let _her_ get him away from me. she's older than him, and her hair ain't gold to the roots, ma'am." it was on the august bank holiday that the crisis came. we do not clearly know the details of the fray, but only such fragments as poor jane let fall. she came home dusty, excited, and with her heart hot within her. the milliner's mother, the milliner, and william had made a party to the art museum at south kensington, i think. anyhow, jane had calmly but firmly accosted them somewhere in the streets, and asserted her right to what, in spite of the consensus of literature, she held to be her inalienable property. she did, i think, go so far as to lay hands on him. they dealt with her in a crushingly superior way. they "called a cab." there was a "scene," william being pulled away into the four-wheeler by his future wife and mother-in-law from the reluctant hands of our discarded jane. there were threats of giving her "in charge." "my poor jane!" said my wife, mincing veal as though she was mincing william. "it's a shame of them. i would think no more of him. he is not worthy of you." "no, m'm," said jane. "he _is_ weak. "but it's that woman has done it," said jane. she was never known to bring herself to pronounce "that woman's" name or to admit her girlishness. "i can't think what minds some women must have--to try and get a girl's young man away from her. but there, it only hurts to talk about it," said jane. thereafter our house rested from william. but there was something in the manner of jane's scrubbing the front doorstep or sweeping out the rooms, a certain viciousness, that persuaded me that the story had not yet ended. "please, m'm, may i go and see a wedding tomorrow?" said jane one day. my wife knew by instinct whose wedding. "do you think it is wise, jane?" she said. "i would like to see the last of him," said jane. "my dear," said my wife, fluttering into my room about twenty minutes after jane had started, "jane has been to the boot-hole and taken all the left-off boots and shoes, and gone off to the wedding with them in a bag. surely she cannot mean--" "jane," i said, "is developing character. let us hope for the best." jane came back with a pale, hard face. all the boots seemed to be still in her bag, at which my wife heaved a premature sigh of relief. we heard her go upstairs and replace the boots with considerable emphasis. "quite a crowd at the wedding, ma'am," she said presently, in a purely conversational style, sitting in our little kitchen, and scrubbing the potatoes; "and such a lovely day for them." she proceeded to numerous other details, clearly avoiding some cardinal incident. "it was all extremely respectable and nice, ma'am; but _her_ father didn't wear a black coat, and looked quite out of place, ma'am. mr. piddingquirk--" "_who_?" "mr. piddingquirk--william that was, ma'am--had white gloves, and a coat like a clergyman, and a lovely chrysanthemum. he looked so nice, ma'am. and there was red carpet down, just like for gentlefolks. and they say he gave the clerk four shillings, ma'am. it was a real kerridge they had--not a fly. when they came out of church there was rice-throwing, and her two little sisters dropping dead flowers. and someone threw a slipper, and then i threw a boot--" "threw a _boot_, jane!" "yes, ma'am. aimed at her. but it hit _him_. yes, ma'am, hard. gev him a black eye, i should think. i only threw that one. i hadn't the heart to try again. all the little boys cheered when it hit him." after an interval--"i am sorry the boot hit _him_." another pause. the potatoes were being scrubbed violently. "he always _was_ a bit above me, you know, ma'am. and he was led away." the potatoes were more than finished. jane rose sharply with a sigh, and rapped the basin down on the table. "i don't care," she said. "i don't care a rap. he will find out his mistake yet. it serves me right. i was stuck up about him. i ought not to have looked so high. and i am glad things are as things are." my wife was in the kitchen, seeing to the higher cookery. after the confession of the boot-throwing, she must have watched poor jane fuming with a certain dismay in those brown eyes of hers. but i imagine they softened again very quickly, and then jane's must have met them. "oh, ma'am," said jane, with an astonishing change of note, "think of all that _might_ have been! oh, ma'am, i _could_ have been so happy! i ought to have known, but i didn't know...you're very kind to let me talk to you, ma'am...for it's hard on me, ma'am...it's har-r-r-r-d--" and i gather that euphemia so far forgot herself as to let jane sob out some of the fullness of her heart on a sympathetic shoulder. my euphemia, thank heaven, has never properly grasped the importance of "keeping up her position." and since that fit of weeping, much of the accent of bitterness has gone out of jane's scrubbing and brush work. indeed, something passed the other day with the butcher-boy--but that scarcely belongs to this story. however, jane is young still, and time and change are at work with her. we all have our sorrows, but i do not believe very much in the existence of sorrows that never heal. ii. the cone. the night was hot and overcast, the sky red-rimmed with the lingering sunset of midsummer. they sat at the open window, trying to fancy the air was fresher there. the trees and shrubs of the garden stood stiff and dark; beyond in the roadway a gas-lamp burnt, bright orange against the hazy blue of the evening. farther were the three lights of the railway signal against the lowering sky. the man and woman spoke to one another in low tones. "he does not suspect?" said the man, a little nervously. "not he," she said peevishly, as though that too irritated her. "he thinks of nothing but the works and the prices of fuel. he has no imagination, no poetry." "none of these men of iron have," he said sententiously. "they have no hearts." "_he_ has not," she said. she turned her discontented face towards the window. the distant sound of a roaring and rushing drew nearer and grew in volume; the house quivered; one heard the metallic rattle of the tender. as the train passed, there was a glare of light above the cutting and a driving tumult of smoke; one, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight black oblongs--eight trucks--passed across the dim grey of the embankment, and were suddenly extinguished one by one in the throat of the tunnel, which, with the last, seemed to swallow down train, smoke, and sound in one abrupt gulp. "this country was all fresh and beautiful once," he said; "and now--it is gehenna. down that way--nothing but pot-banks and chimneys belching fire and dust into the face of heaven...but what does it matter? an end comes, an end to all this cruelty..._to-morrow."_ he spoke the last word in a whisper. "_to-morrow,"_ she said, speaking in a whisper too, and still staring out of the window. "dear!" he said, putting his hand on hers. she turned with a start, and their eyes searched one another's. hers softened to his gaze. "my dear one!" she said, and then: "it seems so strange--that you should have come into my life like this--to open--" she paused. "to open?" he said. "all this wonderful world"--she hesitated, and spoke still more softly-- "this world of _love_ to me." then suddenly the door clicked and closed. they turned their heads, and he started violently back. in the shadow of the room stood a great shadowy figure-silent. they saw the face dimly in the half-light, with unexpressive dark patches under the pent-house brows. every muscle in raut's body suddenly became tense. when could the door have opened? what had he heard? had he heard all? what had he seen? a tumult of questions. the new-comer's voice came at last, after a pause that seemed interminable. "well?" he said. "i was afraid i had missed you, horrocks," said the man at the window, gripping the window-ledge with his hand. his voice was unsteady. the clumsy figure of horrocks came forward out of the shadow. he made no answer to raut's remark. for a moment he stood above them. the woman's heart was cold within her. "i told mr. raut it was just possible you might come back," she said in a voice that never quivered. horrocks, still silent, sat down abruptly in the chair by her little work-table. his big hands were clenched; one saw now the fire of his eyes under the shadow of his brows. he was trying to get his breath. his eyes went from the woman he had trusted to the friend he had trusted, and then back to the woman. by this time and for the moment all three half understood one another. yet none dared say a word to ease the pent-up things that choked them. it was the husband's voice that broke the silence at last. "you wanted to see me?" he said to raut. raut started as he spoke. "i came to see you," he said, resolved to lie to the last. "yes," said horrocks. "you promised," said raut, "to show me some fine effects of moonlight and smoke." "i promised to show you some fine effects of moonlight and smoke," repeated horrocks in a colourless voice. "and i thought i might catch you to-night before you went down to the works," proceeded raut, "and come with you." there was another pause. did the man mean to take the thing coolly? did he, after all, know? how long had he been in the room? yet even at the moment when they heard the door, their attitudes ... horrocks glanced at the profile of the woman, shadowy pallid in the half-light. then he glanced at raut, and seemed to recover himself suddenly. "of course," he said, "i promised to show you the works under their proper dramatic conditions. it's odd how i could have forgotten." "if i am troubling you--" began raut. horrocks started again. a new light had suddenly come into the sultry gloom of his eyes. "not in the least." he said. "have you been telling mr. raut of all these contrasts of flame and shadow you think so splendid?" said the woman, turning now to her husband for the first time, her confidence creeping back again, her voice just one half-note too high--"that dreadful theory of yours that machinery is beautiful, and everything else in the world ugly. i thought he would not spare you, mr. raut. it's his great theory, his one discovery in art." "i am slow to make discoveries," said horrocks grimly, damping her suddenly. "but what i discover ..." he stopped. "well?" she said. "nothing;" and suddenly he rose to his feet. "i promised to show you the works," he said to raut, and put his big, clumsy hand on his friend's shoulder. "and you are ready to go?" "quite," said raut, and stood up also. there was another pause. each of them peered through the indistinctness of the dusk at the other two. horrocks' hand still rested on raut's shoulder. raut half fancied still that the incident was trivial after all. but mrs. horrocks knew her husband better, knew that grim quiet in his voice, and the confusion in her mind took a vague shape of physical evil. "very well," said horrocks, and, dropping his hand, turned towards the door. "my hat?" raut looked round in the half-light. "that's my work-basket," said mrs. horrocks with a gust of hysterical laughter. their hands came together on the back of the chair. "here it is!" he said. she had an impulse to warn him in an undertone, but she could not frame a word. "don't go!" and "beware of him!" struggled in her mind, and the swift moment passed. "got it?" said horrocks, standing with the door half open. raut stepped towards him. "better say goodbye to mrs. horrocks," said the ironmaster, even more grimly quiet in his tone than before. raut started and turned. "good-evening, mrs. horrocks," he said, and their hands touched. horrocks held the door open with a ceremonial politeness unusual in him towards men. raut went out, and then, after a wordless look at her, her husband followed. she stood motionless while raut's light footfall and her husband's heavy tread, like bass and treble, passed down the passage together. the front door slammed heavily. she went to the window, moving slowly, and stood watching, leaning forward. the two men appeared for a moment at the gateway in the road, passed under the street lamp, and were hidden by the black masses of the shrubbery. the lamplight fell for a moment on their faces, showing only unmeaning pale patches, telling nothing of what she still feared, and doubted, and craved vainly to know. then she sank down into a crouching attitude in the big arm-chair, her eyes-wide open and staring out at the red lights from the furnaces that flickered in the sky. an hour after she was still there, her attitude scarcely changed. the oppressive stillness of the evening weighed heavily upon raut. they went side by side down the road in silence, and in silence turned into the cinder-made byway that presently opened out the prospect of the valley. a blue haze, half dust, half mist, touched the long valley with mystery. beyond were hanley and etruria, grey and dark masses, outlined thinly by the rare golden dots of the street lamps, and here and there a gas-lit window, or the yellow glare of some late-working factory or crowded public-house. out of the masses, clear and slender against the evening sky, rose a multitude of tall chimneys, many of them reeking, a few smokeless during a season of "play." here and there a pallid patch and ghostly stunted beehive shapes showed the position of a pot-bank or a wheel, black and sharp against the hot lower sky, marked some colliery where they raise the iridescent coal of the place. nearer at hand was the broad stretch of railway, and half-invisible trains shunted--a steady puffing and rumbling, with every run a ringing concussion and a rhymthic series of impacts, and a passage of intermittent puffs of white steam across the further view. and to the left, between the railway and the dark mass of the low hill beyond, dominating the whole view, colossal, inky-black, and crowned with smoke and fitful flames, stood the great cylinders of the jeddah company blast furnaces, the central edifices of the big ironworks of which horrocks was the manager. they stood heavy and threatening, full of an incessant turmoil of flames and seething molten iron, and about the feet of them rattled the rolling-mills, and the steam-hammer beat heavily and splashed the white iron sparks hither and thither. even as they looked, a truckful of fuel was shot into one of the giants, and the red flames gleamed out, and a confusion of smoke and black dust came boiling upwards towards the sky. "certainly you get some colour with your furnaces," said raut, breaking a silence that had become apprehensive. horrocks grunted. he stood with his hands in his pockets, frowning down at the dim steaming railway and the busy ironworks beyond, frowning as if he were thinking out some knotty problem. raut glanced at him and away again. "at present your moonlight effect is hardly ripe," he continued, looking upward; "the moon is still smothered by the vestiges of daylight." horrocks stared at him with the expression of a man who has suddenly awakened. "vestiges of daylight? ... of course, of course." he too looked up at the moon, pale still in the midsummer sky. "come along," he said suddenly, and gripping raut's arm in his hand, made a move towards the path that dropped from them to the railway. raut hung back. their eyes met and saw a thousand things in a moment that their lips came near to say. horrocks's hand tightened and then relaxed. he let go, and before raut was aware of it, they were arm in arm, and walking, one unwillingly enough, down the path. "you see the fine effect of the railway signals towards burslem," said horrocks, suddenly breaking into loquacity, striding fast and tightening the grip of his elbow the while--"little green lights and red and white lights, all against the haze. you have an eye for effect, raut. it's fine. and look at those furnaces of mine, how they rise upon us as we come down the hill. that to the right is my pet--seventy feet of him. i packed him myself, and he's boiled away cheerfully with iron in his guts for five long years. i've a particular fancy for _him_. that line of red there--a lovely bit of warm orange you'd call it, raut--that's the puddlers' furnaces, and there, in the hot light, three black figures--did you see the white splash of the steam-hammer then?--that's the rolling mills. come along! clang, clatter, how it goes rattling across the floor! sheet tin, raut,--amazing stuff. glass mirrors are not in it when that stuff comes from the mill. and, squelch! there goes the hammer again. come along!" he had to stop talking to catch at his breath. his arm twisted into raut's with benumbing tightness. he had come striding down the black path towards the railway as though he was possessed. raut had not spoken a word, had simply hung back against horrocks's pull with all his strength. "i say," he said now, laughing nervously, but with an undertone of snarl in his voice, "why on earth are you nipping my arm off, horrocks, and dragging me along like this?" at length horrocks released him. his manner changed again. "nipping your arm off?" he said. "sorry. but it's you taught me the trick of walking in that friendly way." "you haven't learnt the refinements of it yet then," said raut, laughing artificially again. "by jove! i'm black and blue." horrocks offered no apology. they stood now near the bottom of the hill, close to the fence that bordered the railway. the ironworks had grown larger and spread out with their approach. they looked up to the blast furnaces now instead of down; the further view of etruria and hanley had dropped out of sight with their descent. before them, by the stile, rose a notice-board, bearing, still dimly visible, the words, "beware of the trains," half hidden by splashes of coaly mud. "fine effects," said horrocks, waving his arm. "here comes a train. the puffs of smoke, the orange glare, the round eye of light in front of it, the melodious rattle. fine effects! but these furnaces of mine used to be finer, before we shoved cones in their throats, and saved the gas." "how?" said raut. "cones?" "cones, my man, cones. i'll show you one nearer. the flames used to flare out of the open throats, great--what is it?--pillars of cloud by day, red and black smoke, and pillars of fire by night. now we run it off--in pipes, and burn it to heat the blast, and the top is shut by a cone. you'll be interested in that cone." "but every now and then," said raut, "you get a burst of fire and smoke up there." "the cone's not fixed, it's hung by a chain from a lever, and balanced by an equipoise. you shall see it nearer. else, of course, there'd be no way of getting fuel into the thing. every now and then the cone dips, and out comes the flare." "i see," said raut. he looked over his shoulder. "the moon gets brighter," he said. "come along," said horrocks abruptly, gripping his shoulder again, and moving him suddenly towards the railway crossing. and then came one of those swift incidents, vivid, but so rapid that they leave one doubtful and reeling. half-way across, horrocks's hand suddenly clenched upon him like a vice, and swung him backward and through a half-turn, so that he looked up the line. and there a chain of lamp-lit carriage windows telescoped swiftly as it came towards them, and the red and yellow lights of an engine grew larger and larger, rushing down upon them. as he grasped what this meant, he turned his face to horrocks, and pushed with all his strength against the arm that held him back between the rails. the struggle did not last a moment. just as certain as it was that horrocks held him there, so certain was it that he had been violently lugged out of danger. "out of the way," said horrocks with a gasp, as the train came rattling by, and they stood panting by the gate into the ironworks. "i did not see it coming," said raut, still, even in spite of his own apprehensions, trying to keep up an appearance of ordinary intercourse. horrocks answered with a grunt. "the cone," he said, and then, as one who recovers himself, "i thought you did not hear." "i didn't," said raut. "i wouldn't have had you run over then for the world," said horrocks. "for a moment i lost my nerve," said raut. horrocks stood for half a minute, then turned abruptly towards the ironworks again. "see how fine these great mounds of mine, these clinker-heaps, look in the night! that truck yonder, up above there! up it goes, and out-tilts the slag. see the palpitating red stuff go sliding down the slope. as we get nearer, the heap rises up and cuts the blast furnaces. see the quiver up above the big one. not that way! this way, between the heaps. that goes to the puddling furnaces, but i want to show you the canal first." he came and took raut by the elbow, and so they went along side by side. raut answered horrocks vaguely. what, he asked himself, had really happened on the line? was he deluding himself with his own fancies, or had horrocks actually held him back in the way of the train? had he just been within an ace of being murdered? suppose this slouching, scowling monster _did_ know anything? for a minute or two then raut was really afraid for his life, but the mood passed as he reasoned with himself. after all, horrocks might have heard nothing. at any rate, he had pulled him out of the way in time. his odd manner might be due to the mere vague jealousy he had shown once before. he was talking now of the ash-heaps and the canal. "eigh?" said horrocks. "what?" said raut. "rather! the haze in the moonlight. fine!" "our canal," said horrocks, stopping suddenly. "our canal by moonlight and firelight is immense. you've never seen it? fancy that! you've spent too many of your evenings philandering up in newcastle there. i tell you, for real florid quality----but you shall see. boiling water ..." as they came out of the labyrinth of clinker-heaps and mounds of coal and ore, the noises of the rolling-mill sprang upon them suddenly, loud, near, and distinct. three shadowy workmen went by and touched their caps to horrocks. their faces were vague in the darkness. raut felt a futile impulse to address them, and before he could frame his words they passed into the shadows. horrocks pointed to the canal close before them now: a weird-looking place it seemed, in the blood-red reflections of the furnaces. the hot water that cooled the tuyères came into it, some fifty yards up--a tumultuous, almost boiling affluent, and the steam rose up from the water in silent white wisps and streaks, wrapping damply about them, an incessant succession of ghosts coming up from the black and red eddies, a white uprising that made the head swim. the shining black tower of the larger blast-furnace rose overhead out of the mist, and its tumultuous riot filled their ears. raut kept away from the edge of the water, and watched horrocks. "here it is red," said horrocks, "blood-red vapour as red and hot as sin; but yonder there, where the moonlight falls on it, and it drives across the clinker-heaps, it is as white as death." raut turned his head for a moment, and then came back hastily to his watch on horrocks. "come along to the rolling-mills," said horrocks. the threatening hold was not so evident that time, and raut felt a little reassured. but all the same, what on earth did horrocks mean about "white as death" and "red as sin"? coincidence, perhaps? they went and stood behind the puddlers for a little while, and then through the rolling-mills, where amidst an incessant din the deliberate steam-hammer beat the juice out of the succulent iron, and black, half-naked titans rushed the plastic bars, like hot sealing-wax, between the wheels, "come on," said horrocks in raut's ear; and they went and peeped through the little glass hole behind the tuyères, and saw the tumbled fire writhing in the pit of the blast-furnace. it left one eye blinded for a while. then, with green and blue patches dancing across the dark, they went to the lift by which the trucks of ore and fuel and lime were raised to the top of the big cylinder. and out upon the narrow rail that overhung the furnace raut's doubts came upon him again. was it wise to be here? if horrocks did know--everything! do what he would, he could not resist a violent trembling. right under foot was a sheer depth of seventy feet. it was a dangerous place. they pushed by a truck of fuel to get to the railing that crowned the thing. the reek of the furnace, a sulphurous vapour streaked with pungent bitterness, seemed to make the distant hillside of hanley quiver. the moon was riding out now from among a drift of clouds, half-way up the sky above the undulating wooded outlines of newcastle. the steaming canal ran away from below them under an indistinct bridge, and vanished into the dim haze of the flat fields towards burslem. "that's the cone i've been telling you of," shouted horrocks; "and, below that, sixty feet of fire and molten metal, with the air of the blast frothing through it like gas in soda-water." raut gripped the hand-rail tightly, and stared down at the cone. the heat was intense. the boiling of the iron and the tumult of the blast made a thunderous accompaniment to horrocks's voice. but the thing had to be gone through now. perhaps, after all... "in the middle," bawled horrocks, "temperature near a thousand degrees. if _you_ were dropped into it ... flash into flame like a pinch of gunpowder in a candle. put your hand out and feel the heat of his breath. why, even up here i've seen the rain-water boiling off the trucks. and that cone there. it's a damned sight too hot for roasting cakes. the top side of it's three hundred degrees." "three hundred degrees!" said raut. "three hundred centigrade, mind!" said horrocks. "it will boil the blood out of you in no time." "eigh?" said raut, and turned. "boil the blood out of you in ... no, you don't!" "let me go!" screamed raut. "let go my arm!" with one hand he clutched at the hand-rail, then with both. for a moment the two men stood swaying. then suddenly, with a violent jerk, horrocks had twisted him from his hold. he clutched at horrocks and missed, his foot went back into empty air; in mid-air he twisted himself, and then cheek and shoulder and knee struck the hot cone together. he clutched the chain by which the cone hung, and the thing sank an infinitesimal amount as he struck it. a circle of glowing red appeared about him, and a tongue of flame, released from the chaos within, flickered up towards him. an intense pain assailed him at the knees, and he could smell the singeing of his hands. he raised himself to his feet, and tried to climb up the chain, and then something struck his head. black and shining with the moonlight, the throat of the furnace rose about him. horrocks, he saw, stood above him by one of the trucks of fuel on the rail. the gesticulating figure was bright and white in the moonlight, and shouting, "fizzle, you fool! fizzle, you hunter of women! you hot-blooded hound! boil! boil! boil!" suddenly he caught up a handful of coal out of the truck, and flung it deliberately, lump after lump, at raut. "horrocks!" cried raut. "horrocks!" he clung, crying, to the chain, pulling himself up from the burning of the cone. each missile horrocks flung hit him. his clothes charred and glowed, and as he struggled the cone dropped, and a rush of hot, suffocating gas whooped out and burned round him in a swift breath of flame. his human likeness departed from him. when the momentary red had passed, horrocks saw a charred, blackened figure, its head streaked with blood, still clutching and fumbling with the chain, and writhing in agony--a cindery animal, an inhuman, monstrous creature that began a sobbing, intermittent shriek. abruptly at the sight the ironmaster's anger passed. a deadly sickness came upon him. the heavy odour of burning flesh came drifting up to his nostrils. his sanity returned to him. "god have mercy upon me!" he cried. "o god! what have i done?" he knew the thing below him, save that it still moved and felt, was already a dead man--that the blood of the poor wretch must be boiling in his veins. an intense realisation of that agony came to his mind, and overcame every other feeling. for a moment he stood irresolute, and then, turning to the truck, he hastily tilted its contents upon the struggling thing that had once been a man. the mass fell with a thud, and went radiating over the cone. with the thud the shriek ended, and a boiling confusion of smoke, dust, and flame came rushing up towards him. as it passed, he saw the cone clear again. then he staggered back, and stood trembling, clinging to the rail with both hands. his lips moved, but no words came to them. down below was the sound of voices and running steps. the clangour of rolling in the shed ceased abruptly. iii. the stolen bacillus. "this again," said the bacteriologist, slipping a glass slide under the microscope, "is well,--a preparation of the bacillus of cholera--the cholera germ." the pale-faced man peered down the microscope. he was evidently not accustomed to that kind of thing, and held a limp white hand over his disengaged eye. "i see very little," he said. "touch this screw," said the bacteriologist; "perhaps the microscope is out of focus for you. eyes vary so much. just the fraction of a turn this way or that." "ah! now i see," said the visitor. "not so very much to see after all. little streaks and shreds of pink. and yet those little particles, those mere atomies, might multiply and devastate a city! wonderful!" he stood up, and releasing the glass slip from the microscope, held it in his hand towards the window. "scarcely visible," he said, scrutinising the preparation. he hesitated. "are these--alive? are they dangerous now?" "those have been stained and killed," said the bacteriologist. "i wish, for my own part, we could kill and stain every one of them in the universe." "i suppose," the pale man said, with a slight smile, 'that you scarcely care to have such things about you in the living--in the active state?" "on the contrary, we are obliged to," said the bacteriologist. "here, for instance--" he walked across the room and took up one of several sealed tubes. "here is the living thing. this is a cultivation of the actual living disease bacteria." he hesitated. "bottled cholera, so to speak." a slight gleam of satisfaction appeared momentarily in the face of the pale man. "it's a deadly thing to have in your possession," he said, devouring the little tube with his eyes. the bacteriologist watched the morbid pleasure in his visitor's expression. this man, who had visited him that afternoon with a note of introduction from an old friend, interested him from the very contrast of their dispositions. the lank black hair and deep grey eyes, the haggard expression and nervous manner, the fitful yet keen interest of his visitor were a novel change from the phlegmatic deliberations of the ordinary scientific worker with whom the bacteriologist chiefly associated. it was perhaps natural, with a hearer evidently so impressionable to the lethal nature of; his topic, to take the most effective aspect of the matter. he held the tube in his hand thoughtfully. "yes, here is the pestilence imprisoned. only break such a little tube as this into a supply of drinking-water, say to these minute particles of life that one must needs stain and examine with the highest powers of the microscope even to see, and that one can neither smell nor taste--say to them, 'go forth, increase and multiply, and replenish the cisterns,' and death--mysterious, untraceable death, death swift and terrible, death full of pain and indignity--would be released upon this city, and go hither and thither seeking his victims. here he would take the husband from the wife, here the child from its mother, here the statesman from his duty, and here the toiler from his trouble. he would follow the water-mains, creeping along streets, picking out and punishing a house here and a house there where they did not boil their drinking-water, creeping into the wells of the mineral water makers, getting washed into salad, and lying dormant in ices. he would wait ready to be drunk in the horse-troughs, and by unwary children in the public fountains. he would soak into the soil, to reappear in springs and wells at a thousand unexpected places. once start him at the water supply, and before we could ring him in, and catch him again, he would have decimated the metropolis." he stopped abruptly. he had been told rhetoric was his weakness. "but he is quite safe here, you know--quite safe." the pale-faced man nodded. his eyes shone. he cleared his throat. "these anarchist--rascals," said he, "are fools, blind fools--to use bombs when this kind of thing is attainable. i think----" a gentle rap, a mere light touch of the finger-nails, was heard at the door. the bacteriologist opened it. "just a minute, dear," whispered his wife. when he re-entered the laboratory his visitor was looking at his watch. "i had no idea i had wasted an hour of your time," he said. "twelve minutes to four. i ought to have left here by half-past three. but your things were really too interesting. no, positively i cannot stop a moment longer. i have an engagement at four." he passed out of the room reiterating his thanks, and the bacteriologist accompanied him to the door, and then returned thoughtfully along the passage to his laboratory. he was musing on the ethnology of his visitor. certainly the man was not a teutonic type nor a common latin one. "a morbid product, anyhow, i am afraid," said the bacteriologist to himself. "how he gloated over those cultivations of disease germs!" a disturbing thought struck him. he turned to the bench by the vapour bath, and then very quickly to his writing-table. then he felt hastily in his pockets and then rushed to the door. "i may have put it down on the hall table," he said. "minnie!" he shouted hoarsely in the hall. "yes, dear," came a remote voice. "had i anything in my hand when i spoke to you, dear, just now?" pause. "nothing, dear, because i remember----" "blue ruin!" cried the bacteriologist, and incontinently ran to the front door and down the steps of his house to the street. minnie, hearing the door slam violently, ran in alarm to the window. down the street a slender man was getting into a cab. the bacteriologist, hatless, and in his carpet slippers, was running and gesticulating wildly towards this group. one slipper came off, but he did not wait for it. "he has gone _mad_!" said minnie; "it's that horrid science of his"; and, opening the window, would have called after him. the slender man, suddenly glancing round, seemed struck with the same idea of mental disorder. he pointed hastily to the bacteriologist, said something to the cabman, the apron of the cab slammed, the whip swished, the horse's feet clattered, and in a moment cab and bacteriologist hotly in pursuit, had receded up the vista of the roadway and disappeared round the corner. minnie remained straining out of the window for a minute. then she drew her head back into the room again. she was dumbfounded. "of course he is eccentric," she meditated. "but running about london--in the height of the season, too--in his socks!" a happy thought struck her. she hastily put her bonnet on, seized his shoes, went into the hall, took down his hat and light overcoat from the pegs, emerged upon the doorstep, and hailed a cab that opportunely crawled by. "drive me up the road and round havelock crescent, and see if we can find a gentleman running about in a velveteen coat and no hat." "velveteen coat, ma'am, and no 'at. very good, ma'am." and the cabman whipped up at once in the most matter-of-fact way, as if he drove to this address every day in his life. some few minutes later the little group of cabmen and loafers that collects round the cabman's shelter at haverstock hill were startled by the passing of a cab with a ginger-coloured screw of a horse, driven furiously. they were silent as it went by, and then as it receded--"that's 'arry 'icks. wot's _he_ got?" said the stout gentleman known as old tootles. "he's a-using his whip, he is, _to_ rights," said the ostler boy. "hullo!" said poor old tommy byles; "here's another bloomin' loonatic. blowed if there ain't." "it's old george," said old tootles, "and he's drivin' a loonatic, _as_ you say. ain't he a-clawin' out of the keb? wonder if he's after 'arry 'icks?" the group round the cabman's shelter became animated. chorus: "go it, george!" "it's a race." "you'll ketch 'em!" "whip up!" "she's a goer, she is!" said the ostler boy. "strike me giddy!" cried old tootles. "here! _i'm_ a-goin' to begin in a minute. here's another comin'. if all the cabs in hampstead ain't gone mad this morning!" "it's a fieldmale this time," said the ostler boy. "she's a-followin' _him_," said old tootles. "usually the other way about." "what's she got in her 'and?" "looks like a 'igh 'at." "what a bloomin' lark it is! three to one on old george," said the ostler boy. "nexst!" minnie went by in a perfect roar of applause. she did not like it, but she felt that she was doing her duty, and whirled on down haverstock hill and camden town high street with her eyes ever intent on the animated back view of old george, who was driving her vagrant husband so incomprehensibly away from her. the man in the foremost cab sat crouched in the corner, his arms tightly folded, and the little tube that contained such vast possibilities of destruction gripped in his hand. his mood was a singular mixture of fear and exultation. chiefly he was afraid of being caught before he could accomplish his purpose, but behind this was a vaguer but larger fear of the awfulness of his crime. but his exultation far exceeded his fear. no anarchist before him had ever approached this conception of his. ravachol, vaillant, all those distinguished persons whose fame he had envied dwindled into insignificance beside him. he had only to make sure of the water supply, and break the little tube into a reservoir. how brilliantly he had planned it, forged the letter of introduction and got into the laboratory, and how brilliantly he had seized his opportunity! the world should hear of him at last. all those people who had sneered at him, neglected him, preferred other people to him, found his company undesirable, should consider him at last. death, death, death! they had always treated him as a man of no importance. all the world had been in a conspiracy to keep him under. he would teach them yet what it is to isolate a man. what was this familiar street? great saint andrew's street, of course! how fared the chase? he craned out of the cab. the bacteriologist was scarcely fifty yards behind. that was bad. he would be caught and stopped yet. he felt in his pocket for money, and found half a sovereign. this he thrust up through the trap in the top of the cab into the man's face. "more," he shouted, "if only we get away." the money was snatched out of his hand. "right you are," said the cabman, and the trap slammed, and the lash lay along the glistening side of the horse. the cab swayed, and the anarchist, half-standing under the trap, put the hand containing the little glass tube upon the apron to preserve his balance. he felt the brittle thing crack, and the broken half of it rang upon the floor of the cab. he fell back into the seat with a curse, and stared dismally at the two or three drops of moisture on the apron. he shuddered. "well, i suppose i shall be the first. _phew!_ anyhow, i shall be a martyr. that's something. but it is a filthy death, nevertheless. i wonder if it hurts as much as they say." presently a thought occurred to him--he groped between his feet. a little drop was still in the broken end of the tube, and he drank that to make sure. it was better to make sure. at any rate, he would not fail. then it dawned upon him that there was no further need to escape the bacteriologist. in wellington street he told the cabman to stop, and got out. he slipped on the step, and his head felt queer. it was rapid stuff, this cholera poison. he waved his cabman out of existence, so to speak, and stood on the pavement with his arms folded upon his breast awaiting the arrival of the bacteriologist. there was something tragic in his pose. the sense of imminent death gave him a certain dignity. he greeted his pursuer with a defiant laugh. "vive l'anarchie! you are too late, my friend, i have drunk it. the cholera is abroad!" the bacteriologist from his cab beamed curiously at him through his spectacles. "you have drunk it! an anarchist! i see now." he was about to say something more, and then checked himself. a smile hung in the corner of his mouth. he opened the apron of his cab as if to descend, at which the anarchist waved him a dramatic farewell and strode off towards waterloo bridge, carefully jostling his infected body against as many people as possible. the bacteriologist was so preoccupied with the vision of him that he scarcely manifested the slightest surprise at the appearance of minnie upon the pavement with his hat and shoes and overcoat. "very good of you to bring my things," he said, and remained lost in contemplation of the receding figure of the anarchist. "you had better get in," he said, still staring. minnie felt absolutely convinced now that he was mad, and directed the cabman home on her own responsibility. "put on my shoes? certainly, dear," said he, as the cab began to turn, and hid the strutting black figure, now small in the distance, from his eyes. then suddenly something grotesque struck him, and he laughed. then he remarked, "it is really very serious, though. "you see, that man came to my house to see me, and he is an anarchist. no--don't faint, or i cannot possibly tell you the rest. and i wanted to astonish him, not knowing he was an anarchist, and took up a cultivation of that new species of bacterium i was telling you of that infest, and i think cause, the blue patches upon various monkeys; and, like a fool, i said it was asiatic cholera. and he ran away with it to poison the water of london, and he certainly might have made things look blue for this civilised city. and now he has swallowed it. of course, i cannot say what will happen, but you know it turned that kitten blue, and the three puppies--in patches, and the sparrow--bright blue. but the bother is, i shall have all the trouble and expense of preparing some more. "put on my coat on this hot day! why? because we might meet mrs. jabber. my dear, mrs. jabber is not a draught. but why should i wear a coat on a hot day because of mrs.-----. oh! _very_ well." iv. the flowering of the strange orchid. the buying of orchids always has in it a certain speculative flavour. you have before you the brown shrivelled lump of tissue, and for the rest you must trust your judgment, or the auctioneer, or your good luck, as your taste may incline. the plant may be moribund or dead, or it may be just a respectable purchase, fair value for your money, or perhaps--for the thing has happened again and again--there slowly unfolds before the delighted eyes of the happy purchaser, day after day, some new variety, some novel richness, a strange twist of the labellum, or some subtler colouration or unexpected mimicry. pride, beauty, and profit blossom together on one delicate green spike, and, it may be, even immortality. for the new miracle of nature may stand in need of a new specific name, and what so convenient as that of its discoverer? "john-smithia"! there have been worse names. it was perhaps the hope of some such happy discovery that made winter wedderburn such a frequent attendant at these sales--that hope, and also, maybe, the fact that he had nothing else of the slightest interest to do in the world. he was a shy, lonely, rather ineffectual man, provided with just enough income to keep off the spur of necessity, and not enough nervous energy to make him seek any exacting employments. he might have collected stamps or coins, or translated horace, or bound books, or invented new species of diatoms. but, as it happened, he grew orchids, and had one ambitious little hothouse. "i have a fancy," he said over his coffee, "that something is going to happen to me to-day." he spoke--as he moved and thought--slowly. "oh, don't say _that_!" said his housekeeper--who was also his remote cousin. for "something happening" was a euphemism that meant only one thing to her. "you misunderstand me. i mean nothing unpleasant...though what i do mean i scarcely know. "to-day," he continued, after a pause, "peters' are going to sell a batch of plants from the andamans and the indies. i shall go up and see what they have. it may be i shall buy something good unawares. that may be it." he passed his cup for his second cupful of coffee. "are these the things collected by that poor young fellow you told me of the other day?" asked his cousin, as she filled his cup. "yes," he said, and became meditative over a piece of toast. "nothing ever does happen to me," he remarked presently, beginning to think aloud. "i wonder why? things enough happen to other people. there is harvey. only the other week; on monday he picked up sixpence, on wednesday his chicks all had the staggers, on friday his cousin came home from australia, and on saturday he broke his ankle. what a whirl of excitement!--compared to me." "i think i would rather be without so much excitement," said his housekeeper. "it can't be good for you." "i suppose it's troublesome. still ... you see, nothing ever happens to me. when i was a little boy i never had accidents. i never fell in love as i grew up. never married... i wonder how it feels to have something happen to you, something really remarkable. "that orchid-collector was only thirty-six--twenty years younger than myself--when he died. and he had been married twice and divorced once; he had had malarial fever four times, and once he broke his thigh. he killed a malay once, and once he was wounded by a poisoned dart. and in the end he was killed by jungle-leeches. it must have all been very troublesome, but then it must have been very interesting, you know--except, perhaps, the leeches." "i am sure it was not good for him," said the lady with conviction. "perhaps not." and then wedderburn looked at his watch. "twenty-three minutes past eight. i am going up by the quarter to twelve train, so that there is plenty of time. i think i shall wear my alpaca jacket--it is quite warm enough--and my grey felt hat and brown shoes. i suppose--" he glanced out of the window at the serene sky and sunlit garden, and then nervously at his cousin's face. "i think you had better take an umbrella if you are going to london," she said in a voice that admitted of no denial. "there's all between here and the station coming back." when he returned he was in a state of mild excitement. he had made a purchase. it was rare that he could make up his mind quickly enough to buy, but this time he had done so. "there are vandas," he said, "and a dendrobe and some palaeonophis." he surveyed his purchases lovingly as he consumed his soup. they were laid out on the spotless tablecloth before him, and he was telling his cousin all about them as he slowly meandered through his dinner. it was his custom to live all his visits to london over again in the evening for her and his own entertainment. "i knew something would happen to-day. and i have bought all these. some of them--some of them--i feel sure, do you know, that some of them will be remarkable. i don't know how it is, but i feel just as sure as if some one had told me that some of these will turn out remarkable. "that one "--he pointed to a shrivelled rhizome--"was not identified. it may be a palaeonophis--or it may not. it may be a new species, or even a new genus. and it was the last that poor batten ever collected." "i don't like the look of it," said his housekeeper. "it's such an ugly shape." "to me it scarcely seems to have a shape." "i don't like those things that stick out," said his housekeeper. "it shall be put away in a pot to-morrow." "it looks," said the housekeeper, "like a spider shamming dead." wedderburn smiled and surveyed the root with his head on one side. "it is certainly not a pretty lump of stuff. but you can never judge of these things from their dry appearance. it may turn out to be a very beautiful orchid indeed. how busy i shall be to-morrow! i must see to-night just exactly what to do with these things, and to-morrow i shall set to work." "they found poor batten lying dead, or dying, in a mangrove swamp--i forget which," he began again presently, "with one of these very orchids crushed up under his body. he had been unwell for some days with some kind of native fever, and i suppose he fainted. these mangrove swamps are very unwholesome. every drop of blood, they say, was taken out of him by the jungle-leeches. it may be that very plant that cost him his life to obtain." "i think none the better of it for that." "men must work though women may weep," said wedderburn with profound gravity. "fancy dying away from every comfort in a nasty swamp! fancy being ill of fever with nothing to take but chlorodyne and quinine--if men were left to themselves they would live on chlorodyne and quinine--and no one round you but horrible natives! they say the andaman islanders are most disgusting wretches--and, anyhow, they can scarcely make good nurses, not having the necessary training. and just for people in england to have orchids!" "i don't suppose it was comfortable, but some men seem to enjoy that kind of thing," said wedderburn. "anyhow, the natives of his party were sufficiently civilised to take care of all his collection until his colleague, who was an ornithologist, came back again from the interior; though they could not tell the species of the orchid, and had let it wither. and it makes these things more interesting." "it makes them disgusting. i should be afraid of some of the malaria clinging to them. and just think, there has been a dead body lying across that ugly thing! i never thought of that before. there! i declare i cannot eat another mouthful of dinner." "i will take them off the table if you like, and put them in the window-seat. i can see them just as well there." the next few days he was indeed singularly busy in his steamy little hothouse, fussing about with charcoal, lumps of teak, moss, and all the other mysteries of the orchid cultivator. he considered he was having a wonderfully eventful time. in the evening he would talk about these new orchids to his friends, and over and over again he reverted to his expectation of something strange. several of the vandas and the dendrobium died under his care, but presently the strange orchid began to show signs of life. he was delighted, and took his housekeeper right away from jam-making to see it at once, directly he made the discovery. "that is a bud," he said, "and presently there will be a lot of leaves there, and those little things coming out here are aerial rootlets." "they look to me like little white fingers poking out of the brown," said his housekeeper. "i don't like them." "why not?" "i don't know. they look like fingers trying to get at you. i can't help my likes and dislikes." "i don't know for certain, but i don't _think_ there are any orchids i know that have aerial rootlets quite like that. it may be my fancy, of course. you see they are a little flattened at the ends." "i don't like 'em," said his housekeeper, suddenly shivering and turning away. "i know it's very silly of me--and i'm very sorry, particularly as you like the thing so much. but i can't help thinking of that corpse." "but it may not be that particular plant. that was merely a guess of mine." his housekeeper shrugged her shoulders. "anyhow i don't like it," she said. wedderburn felt a little hurt at her dislike to the plant. but that did not prevent his talking to her about orchids generally, and this orchid in particular, whenever he felt inclined. "there are such queer things about orchids," he said one day; "such possibilities of surprises. you know, darwin studied their fertilisation, and showed that the whole structure of an ordinary orchid flower was contrived in order that moths might carry the pollen from plant to plant. well, it seems that there are lots of orchids known the flower of which cannot possibly be used for fertilisation in that way. some of the cypripediums, for instance; there are no insects known that can possibly fertilise them, and some of them have never been found with seed." "but how do they form new plants?" "by runners and tubers, and that kind of outgrowth. that is easily explained. the puzzle is, what are the flowers for? "very likely," he added, "_my_ orchid may be something extraordinary in that way. if so i shall study it. i have often thought of making researches as darwin did. but hitherto i have not found the time, or something else has happened to prevent it. the leaves are beginning to unfold now. i do wish you would come and see them!" but she said that the orchid-house was so hot it gave her the headache. she had seen the plant once again, and the aerial rootlets, which were now some of them more than a foot long, had unfortunately reminded her of tentacles reaching out after something; and they got into her dreams, growing after her with incredible rapidity. so that she had settled to her entire satisfaction that she would not see that plant again, and wedderburn had to admire its leaves alone. they were of the ordinary broad form, and a deep glossy green, with splashes and dots of deep red towards the base he knew of no other leaves quite like them. the plant was placed on a low bench near the thermometer, and close by was a simple arrangement by which a tap dripped on the hot-water pipes and kept the air steamy. and he spent his afternoons now with some regularity meditating on the approaching flowering of this strange plant. and at last the great thing happened. directly he entered the little glass house he knew that the spike had burst out, although his great _paloeonophis lowii_ hid the corner where his new darling stood. there was a new odour in the air, a rich, intensely sweet scent, that overpowered every other in that crowded, steaming little greenhouse. directly he noticed this he hurried down to the strange orchid. and, behold! the trailing green spikes bore now three great splashes of blossom, from which this overpowering sweetness proceeded. he stopped before them in an ecstasy of admiration. the flowers were white, with streaks of golden orange upon the petals; the heavy labellum was coiled into an intricate projection, and a wonderful bluish purple mingled there with the gold. he could see at once that the genus was altogether a new one. and the insufferable scent! how hot the place was! the blossoms swam before his eyes. he would see if the temperature was right. he made a step towards the thermometer. suddenly everything appeared unsteady. the bricks on the floor were dancing up and down. then the white blossoms, the green leaves behind them, the whole greenhouse, seemed to sweep sideways, and then in a curve upward. * * * * * at half-past four his cousin made the tea, according to their invariable custom. but wedderburn did not come in for his tea. "he is worshipping that horrid orchid," she told herself, and waited ten minutes. "his watch must have stopped. i will go and call him." she went straight to the hothouse, and, opening the door, called his name. there was no reply. she noticed that the air was very close, and loaded with an intense perfume. then she saw something lying on the bricks between the hot-water pipes. for a minute, perhaps, she stood motionless. he was lying, face upward, at the foot of the strange orchid. the tentacle-like aerial rootlets no longer swayed freely in the air, but were crowded together, a tangle of grey ropes, and stretched tight, with their ends closely applied to his chin and neck and hands. she did not understand. then she saw from under one of the exultant tentacles upon his cheek there trickled a little thread of blood. with an inarticulate cry she ran towards him, and tried to pull him away from the leech-like suckers. she snapped two of these tentacles, and their sap dripped red. then the overpowering scent of the blossom began to make her head reel. how they clung to him! she tore at the tough ropes, and he and the white inflorescence swam about her. she felt she was fainting, knew she must not. she left him and hastily opened the nearest door, and, after she had panted for a moment in the fresh air, she had a brilliant inspiration. she caught up a flower-pot and smashed in the windows at the end of the greenhouse. then she re-entered. she tugged now with renewed strength at wedderburn's motionless body, and brought the strange orchid crashing to the floor. it still clung with the grimmest tenacity to its victim. in a frenzy, she lugged it and him into the open air. then she thought of tearing through the sucker rootlets one by one, and in another minute she had released him and was dragging him away from the horror. he was white and bleeding from a dozen circular patches. the odd-job man was coming up the garden, amazed at the smashing of glass, and saw her emerge, hauling the inanimate body with red-stained hands. for a moment he thought impossible things. "bring some water!" she cried, and her voice dispelled his fancies. when, with unnatural alacrity, he returned with the water, he found her weeping with excitement, and with wedderburn's head upon her knee, wiping the blood from his face. "what's the matter?" said wedderburn, opening his eyes feebly, and closing them again at once. "go and tell annie to come out here to me, and then go for dr. haddon at once," she said to the odd-job man so soon as he brought the water; and added, seeing he hesitated, "i will tell you all about it when you come back." presently wedderburn opened his eyes again, and, seeing that he was troubled by the puzzle of his position, she explained to him, "you fainted in the hothouse." "and the orchid?" "i will see to that," she said. wedderburn had lost a good deal of blood, but beyond that he had suffered no very great injury. they gave him brandy mixed with some pink extract of meat, and carried him upstairs to bed. his housekeeper told her incredible story in fragments to dr. haddon. "come to the orchid-house and see," she said. the cold outer air was blowing in through the open door, and the sickly perfume was almost dispelled. most of the torn aerial rootlets lay already withered amidst a number of dark stains upon the bricks. the stem of the inflorescence was broken by the fall of the plant, and the flowers were growing limp and brown at the edges of the petals. the doctor stooped towards it, then saw that one of the aerial rootlets still stirred feebly, and hesitated. the next morning the strange orchid still lay there, black now and putrescent. the door banged intermittently in the morning breeze, and all the array of wedderburn's orchids was shrivelled and prostrate. but wedderburn himself was bright and garrulous upstairs in the glory of his strange adventure. v. in the avu observatory. the observatory at avu, in borneo, stands on the spur of the mountain. to the north rises the old crater, black at night against the unfathomable blue of the sky. from the little circular building, with its mushroom dome, the slopes plunge steeply downward into the black mysteries of the tropical forest beneath. the little house in which the observer and his assistant live is about fifty yards from the observatory, and beyond this are the huts of their native attendants. thaddy, the chief observer, was down with a slight fever. his assistant, woodhouse, paused for a moment in silent contemplation of the tropical night before commencing his solitary vigil. the night was very still. now and then voices and laughter came from the native huts, or the cry of some strange animal was heard from the midst of the mystery of the forest. nocturnal insects appeared in ghostly fashion out of the darkness, and fluttered round his light. he thought, perhaps, of all the possibilities of discovery that still lay in the black tangle beneath him; for to the naturalist the virgin forests of borneo are still a wonderland full of strange questions and half-suspected discoveries. woodhouse carried a small lantern in his hand, and its yellow glow contrasted vividly with the infinite series of tints between lavender-blue and black in which the landscape was painted. his hands and face were smeared with ointment against the attacks of the mosquitoes. even in these days of celestial photography, work done in a purely temporary erection, and with only the most primitive appliances in addition to the telescope, still involves a very large amount of cramped and motionless watching. he sighed as he thought of the physical fatigues before him, stretched himself, and entered the observatory. the reader is probably familiar with the structure of an ordinary astronomical observatory. the building is usually cylindrical in shape, with a very light hemispherical roof capable of being turned round from the interior. the telescope is supported upon a stone pillar in the centre, and a clockwork arrangement compensates for the earth's rotation, and allows a star once found to be continuously observed. besides this, there is a compact tracery of wheels and screws about its point of support, by which the astronomer adjusts it. there is, of course, a slit in the movable roof which follows the eye of the telescope in its survey of the heavens. the observer sits or lies on a sloping wooden arrangement, which he can wheel to any part of the observatory as the position of the telescope may require. within it is advisable to have things as dark as possible, in order to enhance the brilliance of the stars observed. the lantern flared as woodhouse entered his circular den, and the general darkness fled into black shadows behind the big machine, from which it presently seemed to creep back over the whole place again as the light waned. the slit was a profound transparent blue, in which six stars shone with tropical brilliance, and their light lay, a pallid gleam, along the black tube of the instrument. woodhouse shifted the roof, and then proceeding to the telescope, turned first one wheel and then another, the great cylinder slowly swinging into a new position. then he glanced through the finder, the little companion telescope, moved the roof a little more, made some further adjustments, and set the clockwork in motion. he took off his jacket, for the night was very hot, and pushed into position the uncomfortable seat to which he was condemned for the next four hours. then with a sigh he resigned himself to his watch upon the mysteries of space. there was no sound now in the observatory, and the lantern waned steadily. outside there was the occasional cry of some animal in alarm or pain, or calling to its mate, and the intermittent sounds of the malay and dyak servants. presently one of the men began a queer chanting song, in which the others joined at intervals. after this it would seem that they turned in for the night, for no further sound came from their direction, and the whispering stillness became more and more profound. the clockwork ticked steadily. the shrill hum of a mosquito explored the place and grew shriller in indignation at woodhouse's ointment. then the lantern went out and all the observatory was black. woodhouse shifted his position presently, when the slow movement of the telescope had carried it beyond the limits of his comfort. he was watching a little group of stars in the milky way, in one of which his chief had seen or fancied a remarkable colour variability. it was not a part of the regular work for which the establishment existed, and for that reason perhaps woodhouse was deeply interested. he must have forgotten things terrestrial. all his attention was concentrated upon the great blue circle of the telescope field--a circle powdered, so it seemed, with an innumerable multitude of stars, and all luminous against the blackness of its setting. as he watched he seemed to himself to become incorporeal, as if he too were floating in the ether of space. infinitely remote was the faint red spot he was observing. suddenly the stars were blotted out. a flash of blackness passed, and they were visible again. "queer," said woodhouse. "must have been a bird." the thing happened again, and immediately after the great tube shivered as though it had been struck. then the dome of the observatory resounded with a series of thundering blows. the stars seemed to sweep aside as the telescope--which had been unclamped--swung round and away from the slit in the roof. "great scott!" cried woodhouse. "what's this?" some huge vague black shape, with a flapping something like a wing, seemed to be struggling in the aperture of the roof. in another moment the slit was clear again, and the luminous haze of the milky way shone warm and bright. the interior of the roof was perfectly black, and only a scraping sound marked the whereabouts of the unknown creature. woodhouse had scrambled from the seat to his feet. he was trembling violently and in a perspiration with the suddenness of the occurrence. was the thing, whatever it was, inside or out? it was big, whatever else it might be. something shot across the skylight, and the telescope swayed. he started violently and put his arm up. it was in the observatory, then, with him. it was clinging to the roof apparently. what the devil was it? could it see him? he stood for perhaps a minute in a state of stupefaction. the beast, whatever it was, clawed at the interior of the dome, and then something flapped almost into his face, and he saw the momentary gleam of starlight on a skin like oiled leather. his water-bottle was knocked off his little table with a smash. the sense of some strange bird-creature hovering a few yards from his face in the darkness was indescribably unpleasant to woodhouse. as his thought returned he concluded that it must be some night-bird or large bat. at any risk he would see what it was, and pulling a match from his pocket, he tried to strike it on the telescope seat. there was a smoking streak of phosphorescent light, the match flared for a moment, and he saw a vast wing sweeping towards him, a gleam of grey-brown fur, and then he was struck in the face and the match knocked out of his hand. the blow was aimed at his temple, and a claw tore sideways down to his cheek. he reeled and fell, and he heard the extinguished lantern smash. another blow followed as he fell. he was partly stunned, he felt his own warm blood stream out upon his face. instinctively he felt his eyes had been struck at, and, turning over on his face to save them, tried to crawl under the protection of the telescope. he was struck again upon the back, and he heard his jacket rip, and then the thing hit the roof of the observatory. he edged as far as he could between the wooden seat and the eyepiece of the instrument, and turned his body round so that it was chiefly his feet that were exposed. with these he could at least kick. he was still in a mystified state. the strange beast banged about in the darkness, and presently clung to the telescope, making it sway and the gear rattle. once it flapped near him, and he kicked out madly and felt a soft body with his feet. he was horribly scared now. it must be a big thing to swing the telescope like that. he saw for a moment the outline of a head black against the starlight, with sharply-pointed upstanding ears and a crest between them. it seemed to him to be as big as a mastiff's. then he began to bawl out as loudly as he could for help. at that the thing came down upon him again. as it did so his hand touched something beside him on the floor. he kicked out, and the next moment his ankle was gripped and held by a row of keen teeth. he yelled again, and tried to free his leg by kicking with the other. then he realised he had the broken water-bottle at his hand, and, snatching it, he struggled into a sitting posture, and feeling in the darkness towards his foot, gripped a velvety ear, like the ear of a big cat. he had seized the water-bottle by its neck and brought it down with a shivering crash upon the head of the strange beast. he repeated the blow, and then stabbed and jabbed with the jagged end of it, in the darkness, where he judged the face might be. the small teeth relaxed their hold, and at once woodhouse pulled his leg free and kicked hard. he felt the sickening feel of fur and bone giving under his boot. there was a tearing bite at his arm, and he struck over it at the face, as he judged, and hit damp fur. there was a pause; then he heard the sound of claws; and the dragging of a heavy body away from him over the observatory floor. then there was silence, broken only by his own sobbing breathing, and a sound like licking. everything was black except the parallelogram of the blue skylight with the luminous dust of stars, against which the end of the telescope now appeared in silhouette. he waited, as it seemed, an interminable time. was the thing coming on again? he felt in his trouser-pocket for some matches, and found one remaining. he tried to strike this, but the floor was wet, and it spat and went out. he cursed. he could not see where the door was situated. in his struggle he had quite lost his bearings. the strange beast, disturbed by the splutter of the match, began to move again. "time!" called woodhouse, with a sudden gleam of mirth, but the thing was not coming at him again. he must have hurt it, he thought, with the broken bottle. he felt a dull pain in his ankle. probably he was bleeding there. he wondered if it would support him if he tried to stand up. the night outside was very still. there was no sound of any one moving. the sleepy fools had not heard those wings battering upon the dome, nor his shouts. it was no good wasting strength in shouting. the monster flapped its wings and startled him into a defensive attitude. he hit his elbow against the seat, and it fell over with a crash. he cursed this, and then he cursed the darkness. suddenly the oblong patch of starlight seemed to sway to and fro. was he going to faint? it would never do to faint. he clenched his fists and set his teeth to hold himself together. where had the door got to? it occurred to him he could get his bearings by the stars visible through the skylight. the patch of stars he saw was in sagittarius and south-eastward; the door was north--or was it north by west? he tried to think. if he could get the door open he might retreat. it might be the thing was wounded. the suspense was beastly. "look here!" he said, "if you don't come on, i shall come at you." then the thing began clambering up the side of the observatory, and he saw its black outline gradually blot out the skylight. was it in retreat? he forgot about the door, and watched as the dome shifted and creaked. somehow he did not feel very frightened or excited now. he felt a curious sinking sensation inside him. the sharply-defined patch of light, with the black form moving across it, seemed to be growing smaller and smaller. that was curious. he began to feel very thirsty, and yet he did not feel inclined to get anything to drink. he seemed to be sliding down a long funnel. he felt a burning sensation in his throat, and then he perceived it was broad daylight, and that one of the dyak servants was looking at him with a curious expression. then there was the top of thaddy's face upside down. funny fellow, thaddy, to go about like that! then he grasped the situation better, and perceived that his head was on thaddy's knee, and thaddy was giving him brandy. and then he saw the eyepiece of the telescope with a lot of red smears on it. he began to remember. "you've made this observatory in a pretty mess," said thaddy. the dyak boy was beating up an egg in brandy. woodhouse took this and sat up. he felt a sharp twinge of pain. his ankle was tied up, so were his arm and the side of his face. the smashed glass, red-stained, lay about the floor, the telescope seat was overturned, and by the opposite wall was a dark pool. the door was open, and he saw the grey summit of the mountain against a brilliant background of blue sky. "pah!" said woodhouse. "who's been killing calves here? take me out of it." then he remembered the thing, and the fight he had had with it. "what _was_ it?" he said to thaddy--"the thing i fought with?". "_you_ know that best," said thaddy. "but, anyhow, don't worry yourself now about it. have some more to drink." thaddy, however, was curious enough, and it was a hard struggle between duty and inclination to keep woodhouse quiet until he was decently put away in bed, and had slept upon the copious dose of meat extract thaddy considered advisable. they then talked it over together. "it was," said woodhouse, "more like a big bat than anything else in the world. it had sharp, short ears, and soft fur, and its wings were leathery. its teeth were little but devilish sharp, and its jaw could not have been very strong or else it would have bitten through my ankle." "it has pretty nearly," said thaddy. "it seemed to me to hit out with its claws pretty freely. that is about as much as i know about the beast. our conversation was intimate, so to speak, and yet not confidential." "the dyak chaps talk about a big colugo, a klang-utang--whatever that may be. it does not often attack man, but i suppose you made it nervous. they say there is a big colugo and a little colugo, and a something else that sounds like gobble. they all fly about at night. for my own part, i know there are flying foxes and flying lemurs about here, but they are none of them very big beasts." "there are more things in heaven and earth," said woodhouse--and thaddy groaned at the quotation--"and more particularly in the forests of borneo, than are dreamt of in our philosophies. on the whole, if the borneo fauna is going to disgorge any more of its novelties upon me, i should prefer that it did so when i was not occupied in the observatory at night and alone." vi. aepyornis island. the man with the scarred face leant over the table and looked at my bundle. "orchids?" he asked. "a few," i said. "cypripediums," he said. "chiefly," said i. "anything new? i thought not. _i_ did these islands twenty-five-- twenty-seven years ago. if you find anything new here--well, it's brand new. i didn't leave much." "i'm not a collector," said i. "i was young then," he went on. "lord! how i used to fly round." he seemed to take my measure. "i was in the east indies two years, and in brazil seven. then i went to madagascar." "i know a few explorers by name," i said, anticipating a yarn. "whom did you collect for?" "dawson's. i wonder if you've heard the name of butcher ever?" "butcher--butcher?" the name seemed vaguely present in my memory; then i recalled _butcher_ v. _dawson_. "why!" said i, "you are the man who sued them for four years' salary--got cast away on a desert island..." "your servant," said the man with the scar, bowing. "funny case, wasn't it? here was me, making a little fortune on that island, doing nothing for it neither, and them quite unable to give me notice. it often used to amuse me thinking over it while i was there. i did calculations of it--big--all over the blessed atoll in ornamental figuring." "how did it happen?" said i. "i don't rightly remember the case." "well... you've heard of the aepyornis?" "rather. andrews was telling me of a new species he was working on only a month or so ago. just before i sailed. they've got a thigh bone, it seems, nearly a yard long. monster the thing must have been!" "i believe you," said the man with the scar. "it _was_ a monster. sindbad's roc was just a legend of 'em. but when did they find these bones?" "three or four years ago--' , i fancy. why?" "why? because _i_ found them--lord!--it's nearly twenty years ago. if dawson's hadn't been silly about that salary they might have made a perfect ring in 'em... _i_ couldn't help the infernal boat going adrift." he paused. "i suppose it's the same place. a kind of swamp about ninety miles north of antananarivo. do you happen to know? you have to go to it along the coast by boats. you don't happen to remember, perhaps?" "i don't. i fancy andrews said something about a swamp." "it must be the same. it's on the east coast. and somehow there's something in the water that keeps things from decaying. like creosote it smells. it reminded me of trinidad. did they get any more eggs? some of the eggs i found were a foot-and-a-half long. the swamp goes circling round, you know, and cuts off this bit. it's mostly salt, too. well... what a time i had of it! i found the things quite by accident. we went for eggs, me and two native chaps, in one of those rum canoes all tied together, and found the bones at the same time. we had a tent and provisions for four days, and we pitched on one of the firmer places. to think of it brings that odd tarry smell back even now. it's funny work. you go probing into the mud with iron rods, you know. usually the egg gets smashed. i wonder how long it is since these aepyornises really lived. the missionaries say the natives have legends about when they were alive, but i never heard any such stories myself.[*] but certainly those eggs we got were as fresh as if they had been new laid. fresh! carrying them down to the boat one of my nigger chaps dropped one on a rock and it smashed. how i lammed into the beggar! but sweet it was, as if it was new laid, not even smelly, and its mother dead these four hundred years, perhaps. said a centipede had bit him. however, i'm getting off the straight with the story. it had taken us all day to dig into the slush and get these eggs out unbroken, and we were all covered with beastly black mud, and naturally i was cross. so far as i knew they were the only eggs that have ever been got out not even cracked. i went afterwards to see the ones they have at the natural history museum in london; all of them were cracked and just stuck together like a mosaic, and bits missing. mine were perfect, and i meant to blow them when i got back. naturally i was annoyed at the silly duffer dropping three hours' work just on account of a centipede. i hit him about rather." [footnote *: no european is known to have seen a live aepyornis, with the doubtful exception of macandrew, who visited madagascar in .--h.g.w.] the man with the scar took out a clay pipe. i placed my pouch before him. he filled up absent-mindedly. "how about the others? did you get those home? i don't remember--" "that's the queer part of the story. i had three others. perfectly fresh eggs. well, we put 'em in the boat, and then i went up to the tent to make some coffee, leaving my two heathens down by the beach--the one fooling about with his sting and the other helping him. it never occurred to me that the beggars would take advantage of the peculiar position i was in to pick a quarrel. but i suppose the centipede poison and the kicking i had given him had upset the one--he was always a cantankerous sort--and he persuaded the other. "i remember i was sitting and smoking and boiling up the water over a spirit-lamp business i used to take on these expeditions. incidentally i was admiring the swamp under the sunset. all black and blood-red it was, in streaks--a beautiful sight. and up beyond the land rose grey and hazy to the hills, and the sky behind them red, like a furnace mouth. and fifty yards behind the back of me was these blessed heathen--quite regardless of the tranquil air of things--plotting to cut off with the boat and leave me all alone with three days' provisions and a canvas tent, and nothing to drink whatsoever beyond a little keg of water. i heard a kind of yelp behind me, and there they were in this canoe affair--it wasn't properly a boat--and, perhaps, twenty yards from land. i realised what was up in a moment. my gun was in the tent, and, besides, i had no bullets--only duck shot. they knew that. but i had a little revolver in my pocket, and i pulled that out as i ran down to the beach. "'come back!' says i, flourishing it. "they jabbered something at me, and the man that broke the egg jeered. i aimed at the other--because he was unwounded and had the paddle, and i missed. they laughed. however, i wasn't beat. i knew i had to keep cool, and i tried him again and made him jump with the whang of it. he didn't laugh that time. the third time i got his head, and over he went, and the paddle with him. it was a precious lucky shot for a revolver. i reckon it was fifty yards. he went right under. i don't know if he was shot, or simply stunned and drowned. then i began to shout to the other chap to come back, but he huddled up in the canoe and refused to answer. so i fired out my revolver at him and never got near him. "i felt a precious fool, i can tell you. there i was on this rotten, black beach, flat swamp all behind me, and the flat sea, cold after the sun set, and just this black canoe drifting steadily out to sea. i tell you i damned dawson's and jamrach's and museums and all the rest of it just to rights. i bawled to this nigger to come back, until my voice went up into a scream. "there was nothing for it but to swim after him and take my luck with the sharks. so i opened my clasp-knife and put it in my mouth, and took off my clothes and waded in. as soon as i was in the water i lost sight of the canoe, but i aimed, as i judged, to head it off. i hoped the man in it was too bad to navigate it, and that it would keep on drifting in the same direction. presently it came up over the horizon again to the south-westward about. the afterglow of sunset was well over now and the dim of night creeping up. the stars were coming through the blue. i swum like a champion, though my legs and arms were soon aching. "however, i came up to him by the time the stars were fairly out. as it got darker i began to see all manner of glowing things in the water-- phosphorescence, you know. at times it made me giddy. i hardly knew which was stars and which was phosphorescence, and whether i was swimming on my head or my heels. the canoe was as black as sin, and the ripple under the bows like liquid fire. i was naturally chary of clambering up into it. i was anxious to see what he was up to first. he seemed to be lying cuddled up in a lump in the bows, and the stern was all out of water. the thing kept turning round slowly as it drifted---kind of waltzing, don't you know. i went to the stern and pulled it down, expecting him to wake up. then i began to clamber in with my knife in my hand, and ready for a rush. but he never stirred. so there i sat in the stern of the little canoe, drifting away over the calm phosphorescent sea, and with all the host of the stars above me, waiting for something to happen. "after a long time i called him by name, but he never answered. i was too tired to take any risks by going along to him. so we sat there. i fancy i dozed once or twice. when the dawn came i saw he was as dead as a doornail and all puffed up and purple. my three eggs and the bones were lying in the middle of the canoe, and the keg of water and some coffee and biscuits wrapped in a cape _argus_ by his feet, and a tin of methylated spirit underneath him. there was no paddle, nor, in fact, anything except the spirit-tin that i could use as one, so i settled to drift until i was picked up. i held an inquest on him, brought in a verdict against some snake, scorpion, or centipede unknown, and sent him overboard. "after that i had a drink of water and a few biscuits, and took a look round. i suppose a man low down as i was don't see very far; leastways, madagascar was clean out of sight, and any trace of land at all. i saw a sail going south-westward--looked like a schooner but her hull never came up. presently the sun got high in the sky and began to beat down upon me. lord! it pretty near made my brains boil. i tried dipping my head in the sea, but after a while my eye fell on the cape _argus_, and i lay down flat in the canoe and spread this over me. wonderful things these newspapers! i never read one through thoroughly before, but it's odd what you get up to when you're alone, as i was. i suppose i read that blessed old cape _argus_ twenty times. the pitch in the canoe simply reeked with the heat and rose up into big blisters. "i drifted ten days," said the man with the scar. "it's a little thing in the telling, isn't it? every day was like the last. except in the morning and the evening i never kept a look-out even--the blaze was so infernal. i didn't see a sail after the first three days, and those i saw took no notice of me. about the sixth night a ship went by scarcely half a mile away from me, with all its lights ablaze and its ports open, looking like a big firefly. there was music aboard. i stood up and shouted and screamed at it. the second day i broached one of the aepyornis eggs, scraped the shell away at the end bit by bit, and tried it, and i was glad to find it was good enough to eat. a bit flavoury--not bad, i mean--but with something of the taste of a duck's egg. there was a kind of circular patch, about six inches across, on one side of the yoke, and with streaks of blood and a white mark like a ladder in it that i thought queer, but i did not understand what this meant at the time, and i wasn't inclined to be particular. the egg lasted me three days, with biscuits and a drink of water. i chewed coffee berries too--invigorating stuff. the second egg i opened about the eighth day, and it scared me." the man with the scar paused. "yes," he said, "developing." "i daresay you find it hard to believe. _i_ did, with the thing before me. there the egg had been, sunk in that cold black mud, perhaps three hundred years. but there was no mistaking it. there was the--what is it?--embryo, with its big head and curved back, and its heart beating under its throat, and the yolk shrivelled up and great membranes spreading inside of the shell and all over the yolk. here was i hatching out the eggs of the biggest of all extinct birds, in a little canoe in the midst of the indian ocean. if old dawson had known that! it was worth four years' salary. what do _you_ think? "however, i had to eat that precious thing up, every bit of it, before i sighted the reef, and some of the mouthfuls were beastly unpleasant. i left the third one alone. i held it up to the light, but the shell was too thick for me to get any notion of what might be happening inside; and though i fancied i heard blood pulsing, it might have been the rustle in my own ears, like what you listen to in a seashell. "then came the atoll. came out of the sunrise, as it were, suddenly, close up to me. i drifted straight towards it until i was about half a mile from shore, not more, and then the current took a turn, and i had to paddle as hard as i could with my hands and bits of the aepyornis shell to make the place. however, i got there. it was just a common atoll about four miles round, with a few trees growing and a spring in one place, and the lagoon full of parrot-fish. i took the egg ashore and put it in a good place, well above the tide lines and in the sun, to give it all the chance i could, and pulled the canoe up safe, and loafed about prospecting. it's rum how dull an atoll is. as soon as i had found a spring all the interest seemed to vanish. when i was a kid i thought nothing could be finer or more adventurous than the robinson crusoe business, but that place was as monotonous as a book of sermons. i went round finding eatable things and generally thinking; but i tell you i was bored to death before the first day was out. it shows my luck--the very day i landed the weather changed. a thunderstorm went by to the north and flicked its wing over the island, and in the night there came a drencher and a howling wind slap over us. it wouldn't have taken much, you know, to upset that canoe. "i was sleeping under the canoe, and the egg was luckily among the sand higher up the beach, and the first thing i remember was a sound like a hundred pebbles hitting the boat at once, and a rush of water over my body. i'd been dreaming of antananarivo, and i sat up and holloaed to intoshi to ask her what the devil was up, and clawed out at the chair where the matches used to be. then i remembered where i was. there were phosphorescent waves rolling up as if they meant to eat me, and all the rest of the night as black as pitch. the air was simply yelling. the clouds seemed down on your head almost, and the rain fell as if heaven was sinking and they were baling out the waters above the firmament. one great roller came writhing at me, like a fiery serpent, and i bolted. then i thought of the canoe, and ran down to it as the water went hissing back again; but the thing had gone. i wondered about the egg then, and felt my way to it. it was all right and well out of reach of the maddest waves, so i sat down beside it and cuddled it for company. lord! what a night that was! "the storm was over before the morning. there wasn't a rag of cloud left in the sky when the dawn came, and all along the beach there were bits of plank scattered--which was the disarticulated skeleton, so to speak, of my canoe. however, that gave me something to do, for, taking advantage of two of the trees being together, i rigged up a kind of storm-shelter with these vestiges. and that day the egg hatched. "hatched, sir, when my head was pillowed on it and i was asleep. i heard a whack and felt a jar and sat up, and there was the end of the egg pecked out and a rum little brown head looking out at me. 'lord!' i said, 'you're welcome'; and with a little difficulty he came out. "he was a nice friendly little chap at first, about the size of a small hen--very much like most other young birds, only bigger. his plumage was a dirty brown to begin with, with a sort of grey scab that fell off it very soon, and scarcely feathers--a kind of downy hair. i can hardly express how pleased i was to see him. i tell you, robinson crusoe don't make near enough of his loneliness. but here was interesting company. he looked at me and winked his eye from the front backwards, like a hen, and gave a chirp and began to peck about at once, as though being hatched three hundred years too late was just nothing. 'glad to see you, man friday!' says i, for i had naturally settled he was to be called man friday if ever he was hatched, as soon as ever i found the egg in the canoe had developed. i was a bit anxious about his feed, so i gave him a lump of raw parrot-fish at once. he took it, and opened his beak for more. i was glad of that for, under the circumstances, if he'd been at all fanciful, i should have had to eat him after all. "you'd be surprised what an interesting bird that aepyornis chick was. he followed me about from the very beginning. he used to stand by me and watch while i fished in the lagoon, and go shares in anything i caught. and he was sensible, too. there were nasty green warty things, like pickled gherkins, used to lie about on the beach, and he tried one of these and it upset him. he never even looked at any of them again. "and he grew. you could almost see him grow. and as i was never much of a society man, his quiet, friendly ways suited me to a t. for nearly two years we were as happy as we could be on that island. i had no business worries, for i knew my salary was mounting up at dawsons'. we would see a sail now and then, but nothing ever came near us. i amused myself, too, by decorating the island with designs worked in sea-urchins and fancy shells of various kinds. i put aepyornis island all round the place very nearly, in big letters, like what you see done with coloured stones at railway stations in the old country, and mathematical calculations and drawings of various sorts. and i used to lie watching the blessed bird stalking round and growing, growing; and think how i could make a living out of him by showing him about if i ever got taken off. after his first moult he began to get handsome, with a crest and a blue wattle, and a lot of green feathers at the behind of him. and then i used to puzzle whether dawsons' had any right to claim him or not. stormy weather and in the rainy season we lay snug under the shelter i had made out of the old canoe, and i used to tell him lies about my friends at home. and after a storm we would go round the island together to see if there was any drift. it was a kind of idyll, you might say. if only i had had some tobacco it would have been simply just like heaven. "it was about the end of the second year our little paradise went wrong. friday was then about fourteen feet high to the bill of him, with a big, broad head like the end of a pickaxe, and two huge brown eyes with yellow rims, set together like a man's--not out of sight of each other like a hen's. his plumage was fine--none of the half-mourning style of your ostrich--more like a cassowary as far as colour and texture go. and then it was he began to cock his comb at me and give himself airs, and show signs of a nasty temper ... "at last came a time when my fishing had been rather unlucky, and he began to hang about me in a queer, meditative way. i thought he might have been eating sea-cucumbers or something, but it was really just discontent on his part. i was hungry too, and when at last i landed a fish i wanted it for myself. tempers were short that morning on both sides. he pecked at it and grabbed it, and i gave him a whack on the head to make him leave go. and at that he went for me. lord! ... "he gave me this in the face." the man indicated his scar. "then he kicked me. it was like a carthorse. i got up, and seeing he hadn't finished, i started off full tilt with my arms doubled up over my face. but he ran on those gawky legs of his faster than a racehorse, and kept landing out at me with sledgehammer kicks, and bringing his pickaxe down on the back of my head. i made for the lagoon, and went in up to my neck. he stopped at the water, for he hated getting his feet wet, and began to make a shindy, something like a peacock's, only hoarser. he started strutting up and down the beach. i'll admit i felt small to see this blessed fossil lording it there. and my head and face were all bleeding, and--well, my body just one jelly of bruises. "i decided to swim across the lagoon and leave him alone for a bit, until the affair blew over. i shinned up the tallest palm-tree, and sat there thinking of it all. i don't suppose i ever felt so hurt by anything before or since. it was the brutal ingratitude of the creature. i'd been more than a brother to him. i'd hatched him, educated him. a great gawky, out-of-date bird! and me a human being--heir of the ages and all that. "i thought after a time he'd begin to see things in that light himself, and feel a little sorry for his behaviour. i thought if i was to catch some nice little bits of fish, perhaps, and go to him presently in a casual kind of way, and offer them to him, he might do the sensible thing. it took me some time to learn how unforgiving and cantankerous an extinct bird can be. malice! "i won't tell you all the little devices i tried to get that bird round again, i simply can't. it makes my cheek burn with shame even now to think of the snubs and buffets i had from this infernal curiosity. i tried violence. i chucked lumps of coral at him from a safe distance, but he only swallowed them. i shied my open knife at him and almost lost it, though it was too big for him to swallow. i tried starving him out and struck fishing, but he took to picking along the beach at low water after worms, and rubbed along on that. half my time i spent up to my neck in the lagoon, and the rest up the palm-trees. one of them was scarcely high enough, and when he caught me up it he had a regular bank holiday with the calves of my legs. it got unbearable. i don't know if you have ever tried sleeping up a palm-tree. it gave me the most horrible nightmares. think of the shame of it, too! here was this extinct animal mooning about my island like a sulky duke, and me not allowed to rest the sole of my foot on the place. i used to cry with weariness and vexation. i told him straight that i didn't mean to be chased about a desert island by any damned anachronisms. i told him to go and peck a navigator of his own age. but he only snapped his beak at me. great ugly bird, all legs and neck! "i shouldn't like to say how long that went on altogether. i'd have killed him sooner if i'd known how. however, i hit on a way of settling him at last. it is a south american dodge. i joined all my fishing-lines together with stems of seaweed and things, and made a stoutish string, perhaps twelve yards in length or more, and i fastened two lumps of coral rock to the ends of this. it took me some time to do, because every now and then i had to go into the lagoon or up a tree as the fancy took me. this i whirled rapidly round my head, and then let it go at him. the first time i missed, but the next time the string caught his legs beautifully, and wrapped round them again and again. over he went. i threw it standing waist-deep in the lagoon, and as soon as he went down i was out of the water and sawing at his neck with my knife ... "i don't like to think of that even now. i felt like a murderer while i did it, though my anger was hot against him. when i stood over him and saw him bleeding on the white sand, and his beautiful great legs and neck writhing in his last agony ... pah! "with that tragedy loneliness came upon me like a curse. good lord! you can't imagine how i missed that bird. i sat by his corpse and sorrowed over him, and shivered as i looked round the desolate, silent reef. i thought of what a jolly little bird he had been when he was hatched, and of a thousand pleasant tricks he had played before he went wrong. i thought if i'd only wounded him i might have nursed him round into a better understanding. if i'd had any means of digging into the coral rock i'd have buried him. i felt exactly as if he was human. as it was, i couldn't think of eating him, so i put him in the lagoon, and the little fishes picked him clean. i didn't even save the feathers. then one day a chap cruising about in a yacht had a fancy to see if my atoll still existed. "he didn't come a moment too soon, for i was about sick enough of the desolation of it, and only hesitating whether i should walk out into the sea and finish up the business that way, or fall back on the green things... "i sold the bones to a man named winslow--a dealer near the british museum, and he says he sold them to old havers. it seems havers didn't understand they were extra large, and it was only after his death they attracted attention. they called 'em aepyornis--what was it?" "_aepyornis vastus_," said i. "it's funny, the very thing was mentioned to me by a friend of mine. when they found an aepyornis, with a thigh a yard long, they thought they had reached the top of the scale, and called him _aepyornis maximus_. then some one turned up another thigh-bone four feet six or more, and that they called _aepyornis titan_. then your _vastus_ was found after old havers died, in his collection, and then a _vastissimus_ turned up." "winslow was telling me as much," said the man with the scar. "if they get any more aepyornises, he reckons some scientific swell will go and burst a blood-vessel. but it was a queer thing to happen to a man; wasn't it-- altogether?" vii. the remarkable case of davidson's eyes. i. the transitory mental aberration of sidney davidson, remarkable enough in itself, is still more remarkable if wade's explanation is to be credited. it sets one dreaming of the oddest possibilities of intercommunication in the future, of spending an intercalary five minutes on the other side of the world, or being watched in our most secret operations by unsuspected eyes. it happened that i was the immediate witness of davidson's seizure, and so it falls naturally to me to put the story upon paper. when i say that i was the immediate witness of his seizure, i mean that i was the first on the scene. the thing happened at the harlow technical college, just beyond the highgate archway. he was alone in the larger laboratory when the thing happened. i was in a smaller room, where the balances are, writing up some notes. the thunderstorm had completely upset my work, of course. it was just after one of the louder peals that i thought i heard some glass smash in the other room. i stopped writing, and turned round to listen. for a moment i heard nothing; the hail was playing the devil's tattoo on the corrugated zinc of the roof. then came another sound, a smash--no doubt of it this time. something heavy had been knocked off the bench. i jumped up at once and went and opened the door leading into the big laboratory. i was surprised to hear a queer sort of laugh, and saw davidson standing unsteadily in the middle of the room, with a dazzled look on his face. my first impression was that he was drunk. he did not notice me. he was clawing out at something invisible a yard in front of his face. he put out his hand, slowly, rather hesitatingly, and then clutched nothing. "what's come to it?" he said. he held up his hands to his face, fingers spread out. "great scott!" he said. the thing happened three or four years ago, when every one swore by that personage. then he began raising his feet clumsily, as though he had expected to find them glued to the floor. "davidson!" cried i. "what's the matter with you?" he turned round in my direction and looked about for me. he looked over me and at me and on either side of me, without the slightest sign of seeing me. "waves," he said; "and a remarkably neat schooner. i'd swear that was bellow's voice. _hullo_!" he shouted suddenly at the top of his voice. i thought he was up to some foolery. then i saw littered about his feet the shattered remains of the best of our electrometers. "what's up, man?" said i. "you've smashed the electrometer!" "bellows again!" said he. "friends left, if my hands are gone. something about electrometers. which way _are_ you, bellows?" he suddenly came staggering towards me. "the damned stuff cuts like butter," he said. he walked straight into the bench and recoiled. "none so buttery that!" he said, and stood swaying. i felt scared. "davidson," said i, "what on earth's come over you?" he looked round him in every direction. "i could swear that was bellows. why don't you show yourself like a man, bellows?" it occurred to me that he must be suddenly struck blind. i walked round the table and laid my hand upon his arm. i never saw a man more startled in my life. he jumped away from me, and came round into an attitude of self-defence, his face fairly distorted with terror. "good god!" he cried. "what was that?" "it's i--bellows. confound it, davidson!" he jumped when i answered him and stared--how can i express it?--right through me. he began talking, not to me, but to himself. "here in broad daylight on a clear beach. not a place to hide in." he looked about him wildly. "here! i'm _off_." he suddenly turned and ran headlong into the big electro-magnet--so violently that, as we found afterwards, he bruised his shoulder and jawbone cruelly. at that he stepped back a pace, and cried out with almost a whimper, "what, in heaven's name, has come over me?" he stood, blanched with terror and trembling violently, with his right arm clutching his left, where that had collided with the magnet. by that time i was excited and fairly scared. "davidson," said i, "don't be afraid." he was startled at my voice, but not so excessively as before. i repeated my words in as clear and as firm a tone as i could assume. "bellows," he said, "is that you?" "can't you see it's me?" he laughed. "i can't even see it's myself. where the devil are we?" "here," said i, "in the laboratory." "the laboratory!" he answered in a puzzled tone, and put his hand to his forehead. "i _was_ in the laboratory--till that flash came, but i'm hanged if i'm there now. what ship is that?" "there's no ship," said i. "do be sensible, old chap." "no ship!" he repeated, and seemed to forget my denial forthwith. "i suppose," said he slowly, "we're both dead. but the rummy part is i feel just as though i still had a body. don't get used to it all at once, i suppose. the old shop was struck by lightning, i suppose. jolly quick thing, bellows--eigh?" "don't talk nonsense. you're very much alive. you are in the laboratory, blundering about. you've just smashed a new electrometer. i don't envy you when boyce arrives." he stared away from me towards the diagrams of cryohydrates. "i must be deaf," said he. "they've fired a gun, for there goes the puff of smoke, and i never heard a sound." i put my hand on his arm again, and this time he was less alarmed. "we seem to have a sort of invisible bodies," said he. "by jove! there's a boat coming round the headland. it's very much like the old life after all--in a different climate." i shook his arm. "davidson," i cried, "wake up!" ii. it was just then that boyce came in. so soon as he spoke davidson exclaimed: "old boyce! dead too! what a lark!" i hastened to explain that davidson was in a kind of somnambulistic trance. boyce was interested at once. we both did all we could to rouse the fellow out of his extraordinary state. he answered our questions, and asked us some of his own, but his attention seemed distracted by his hallucination about a beach and a ship. he kept interpolating observations concerning some boat and the davits, and sails filling with the wind. it made one feel queer, in the dusky laboratory, to hear him saying such things. he was blind and helpless. we had to walk him down the passage, one at each elbow, to boyce's private room, and while boyce talked to him there, and humoured him about this ship idea, i went along the corridor and asked old wade to come and look at him. the voice of our dean sobered him a little, but not very much. he asked where his hands were, and why he had to walk about up to his waist in the ground. wade thought over him a long time--you know how he knits his brows--and then made him feel the couch, guiding his hands to it. "that's a couch," said wade. "the couch in the private room of professor boyce. horse-hair stuffing." davidson felt about, and puzzled over it, and answered presently that he could feel it all right, but he couldn't see it. "what _do_ you see?" asked wade. davidson said he could see nothing but a lot of sand and broken-up shells. wade gave him some other things to feel, telling him what they were, and watching him keenly. "the ship is almost hull down," said davidson presently, _apropos_ of nothing. "never mind the ship," said wade. "listen to me, davidson. do you know what hallucination means?" "rather," said davidson. "well, everything you see is hallucinatory." "bishop berkeley," said davidson. "don't mistake me," said wade. "you are alive and in this room of boyce's. but something has happened to your eyes. you cannot see; you can feel and hear, but not see. do you follow me?" "it seems to me that i see too much." davidson rubbed his knuckles into his eyes. "well?" he said. "that's all. don't let it perplex you. bellows here and i will take you home in a cab." "wait a bit." davidson thought. "help me to sit down," said he presently; "and now--i'm sorry to trouble you--but will you tell me all that over again?" wade repeated it very patiently. davidson shut his eyes, and pressed his hands upon his forehead. "yes," said he. "it's quite right. now my eyes are shut i know you're right. that's you, bellows, sitting by me on the couch. i'm in england again. and we're in the dark." then he opened his eyes. "and there," said he, "is the sun just rising, and the yards of the ship, and a tumbled sea, and a couple of birds flying. i never saw anything so real. and i'm sitting up to my neck in a bank of sand." he bent forward and covered his face with his hands. then he opened his eyes again. "dark sea and sunrise! and yet i'm sitting on a sofa in old boyce's room!... god help me!" iii. that was the beginning. for three weeks this strange affection of davidson's eyes continued unabated. it was far worse than being blind. he was absolutely helpless, and had to be fed like a newly-hatched bird, and led about and undressed. if he attempted to move, he fell over things or struck himself against walls or doors. after a day or so he got used to hearing our voices without seeing us, and willingly admitted he was at home, and that wade was right in what he told him. my sister, to whom he was engaged, insisted on coming to see him, and would sit for hours every day while he talked about this beach of his. holding her hand seemed to comfort him immensely. he explained that when we left the college and drove home--he lived in hampstead village--it appeared to him as if we drove right through a sandhill--it was perfectly black until he emerged again--and through rocks and trees and solid obstacles, and when he was taken to his own room it made him giddy and almost frantic with the fear of falling, because going upstairs seemed to lift him thirty or forty feet above the rocks of his imaginary island. he kept saying he should smash all the eggs. the end was that he had to be taken down into his father's consulting room and laid upon a couch that stood there. he described the island as being a bleak kind of place on the whole, with very little vegetation, except some peaty stuff, and a lot of bare rock. there were multitudes of penguins, and they made the rocks white and disagreeable to see. the sea was often rough, and once there was a thunderstorm, and he lay and shouted at the silent flashes. once or twice seals pulled up on the beach, but only on the first two or three days. he said it was very funny the way in which the penguins used to waddle right through him, and how he seemed to lie among them without disturbing them. i remember one odd thing, and that was when he wanted very badly to smoke. we put a pipe in his hands--he almost poked his eye out with it--and lit it. but he couldn't taste anything. i've since found it's the same with me--i don't know if it's the usual case--that i cannot enjoy tobacco at all unless i can see the smoke. but the queerest part of his vision came when wade sent him out in a bath-chair to get fresh air. the davidsons hired a chair, and got that deaf and obstinate dependant of theirs, widgery, to attend to it. widgery's ideas of healthy expeditions were peculiar. my sister, who had been to the dogs' home, met them in camden town, towards king's cross, widgery trotting along complacently, and davidson, evidently most distressed, trying in his feeble, blind way to attract widgery's attention. he positively wept when my sister spoke to him. "oh, get me out of this horrible darkness!" he said, feeling for her hand. "i must get out of it, or i shall die." he was quite incapable of explaining what was the matter, but my sister decided he must go home, and presently, as they went uphill towards hampstead, the horror seemed to drop from him. he said it was good to see the stars again, though it was then about noon and a blazing day. "it seemed," he told me afterwards, "as if i was being carried irresistibly towards the water. i was not very much alarmed at first. of course it was night there--a lovely night." "of course?" i asked, for that struck me as odd. "of course," said he. "it's always night there when it is day here... well, we went right into the water, which was calm and shining under the moonlight--just a broad swell that seemed to grow broader and flatter as i came down into it. the surface glistened just like a skin--it might have been empty space underneath for all i could tell to the contrary. very slowly, for i rode slanting into it, the water crept up to my eyes. then i went under and the skin seemed to break and heal again about my eyes. the moon gave a jump up in the sky and grew green and dim, and fish, faintly glowing, came darting round me--and things that seemed made of luminous glass; and i passed through a tangle of seaweeds that shone with an oily lustre. and so i drove down into the sea, and the stars went out one by one, and the moon grew greener and darker, and the seaweed became a luminous purple-red. it was all very faint and mysterious, and everything seemed to quiver. and all the while i could hear the wheels of the bath-chair creaking, and the footsteps of people going by, and a man in the distance selling the special _pall mall_. "i kept sinking down deeper and deeper into the water. it became inky black about me, not a ray from above came down into that darkness, and the phosphorescent things grew brighter and brighter. the snaky branches of the deeper weeds flickered like the flames of spirit-lamps; but, after a time, there were no more weeds. the fishes came staring and gaping towards me, and into me and through me. i never imagined such fishes before. they had lines of fire along the sides of them as though they had been outlined with a luminous pencil. and there was a ghastly thing swimming backwards with a lot of twining arms. and then i saw, coming very slowly towards me through the gloom, a hazy mass of light that resolved itself as it drew nearer into multitudes of fishes, struggling and darting round something that drifted. i drove on straight towards it, and presently i saw in the midst of the tumult, and by the light of the fish, a bit of splintered spar looming over me, and a dark hull tilting over, and some glowing phosphorescent forms that were shaken and writhed as the fish bit at them. then it was i began to try to attract widgery's attention. a horror came upon me. ugh! i should have driven right into those half-eaten--things. if your sister had not come! they had great holes in them, bellows, and ... never mind. but it was ghastly!" iv. for three weeks davidson remained in this singular state, seeing what at the time we imagined was an altogether phantasmal world, and stone blind to the world around him. then, one tuesday, when i called i met old davidson in the passage. "he can see his thumb!" the old gentleman said, in a perfect transport. he was struggling into his overcoat. "he can see his thumb, bellows!" he said, with the tears in his eyes. "the lad will be all right yet." i rushed in to davidson. he was holding up a little book before his face, and looking at it and laughing in a weak kind of way. "it's amazing," said he. "there's a kind of patch come there." he pointed with his finger. "i'm on the rocks as usual, and the penguins are staggering and flapping about as usual, and there's been a whale showing every now and then, but it's got too dark now to make him out. but put something _there_, and i see it--i do see it. it's very dim and broken in places, but i see it all the same, like a faint spectre of itself. i found it out this morning while they were dressing me. it's like a hole in this infernal phantom world. just put your hand by mine. no--not there. ah! yes! i see it. the base of your thumb and a bit of cuff! it looks like the ghost of a bit of your hand sticking out of the darkling sky. just by it there's a group of stars like a cross coming out." from that time davidson began to mend. his account of the change, like his account of the vision, was oddly convincing. over patches of his field of vision, the phantom world grew fainter, grew transparent, as it were, and through these translucent gaps he began to see dimly the real world about him. the patches grew in size and number, ran together and spread until only here and there were blind spots left upon his eyes. he was able to get up and steer himself about, feed himself once more, read, smoke, and behave like an ordinary citizen again. at first it was very confusing to him to have these two pictures overlapping each other like the changing views of a lantern, but in a little while he began to distinguish the real from the illusory. at first he was unfeignedly glad, and seemed only too anxious to complete his cure by taking exercise and tonics. but as that odd island of his began to fade away from him, he became queerly interested in it. he wanted particularly to go down into the deep sea again, and would spend half his time wandering about the low-lying parts of london, trying to find the water-logged wreck he had seen drifting. the glare of real daylight very soon impressed him so vividly as to blot out everything of his shadowy world, but of a night-time, in a darkened room, he could still see the white-splashed rocks of the island, and the clumsy penguins staggering to and fro. but even these grew fainter and fainter, and, at last, soon after he married my sister, he saw them for the last time. v. and now to tell of the queerest thing of all. about two years after his cure i dined with the davidsons, and after dinner a man named atkins called in. he is a lieutenant in the royal navy, and a pleasant, talkative man. he was on friendly terms with my brother-in-law, and was soon on friendly terms with me. it came out that he was engaged to davidson's cousin, and incidentally he took out a kind of pocket photograph case to show us a new rendering of his _fiancée_. "and, by-the-by," said he, "here's the old _fulmar_." davidson looked at it casually. then suddenly his face lit up. "good heavens!" said he. "i could almost swear----" "what?" said atkins. "that i had seen that ship before." "don't see how you can have. she hasn't been out of the south seas for six years, and before then----" "but," began davidson, and then, "yes--that's the ship i dreamt of; i'm sure that's the ship i dreamt of. she was standing off an island that swarmed with penguins, and she fired a gun." "good lord!" said atkins, who had now heard the particulars of the seizure. "how the deuce could you dream that?" and then, bit by bit, it came out that on the very day davidson was seized, h.m.s. _fulmar_ had actually been off a little rock to the south of antipodes island. a boat had landed overnight to get penguins' eggs, had been delayed, and a thunderstorm drifting up, the boat's crew had waited until the morning before rejoining the ship. atkins had been one of them, and he corroborated, word for word, the descriptions davidson had given of the island and the boat. there is not the slightest doubt in any of our minds that davidson has really seen the place. in some unaccountable way, while he moved hither and thither in london, his sight moved hither and thither in a manner that corresponded, about this distant island. _how_ is absolutely a mystery. that completes the remarkable story of davidson's eyes. it's perhaps the best authenticated case in existence of real vision at a distance. explanation there is none forthcoming, except what professor wade has thrown out. but his explanation invokes the fourth dimension, and a dissertation on theoretical kinds of space. to talk of there being "a kink in space" seems mere nonsense to me; it may be because i am no mathematician. when i said that nothing would alter the fact that the place is eight thousand miles away, he answered that two points might be a yard away on a sheet of paper, and yet be brought together by bending the paper round. the reader may grasp his argument, but i certainly do not. his idea seems to be that davidson, stooping between the poles of the big electro-magnet, had some extraordinary twist given to his retinal elements through the sudden change in the field of force due to the lightning. he thinks, as a consequence of this, that it may be possible to live visually in one part of the world, while one lives bodily in another. he has even made some experiments in support of his views; but, so far, he has simply succeeded in blinding a few dogs. i believe that is the net result of his work, though i have not seen him for some weeks. latterly i have been so busy with my work in connection with the saint pancras installation that i have had little opportunity of calling to see him. but the whole of his theory seems fantastic to me. the facts concerning davidson stand on an altogether different footing, and i can testify personally to the accuracy of every detail i have given. viii. the lord of the dynamos. the chief attendant of the three dynamos that buzzed and rattled at camberwell, and kept the electric railway going, came out of yorkshire, and his name was james holroyd. he was a practical electrician, but fond of whisky, a heavy, red-haired brute with irregular teeth. he doubted the existence of the deity, but accepted carnot's cycle, and he had read shakespeare and found him weak in chemistry. his helper came out of the mysterious east, and his name was azuma-zi. but holroyd called him pooh-bah. holroyd liked a nigger help because he would stand kicking--a habit with holroyd--and did not pry into the machinery and try to learn the ways of it. certain odd possibilities of the negro mind brought into abrupt contact with the crown of our civilisation holroyd never fully realised, though just at the end he got some inkling of them. to define azuma-zi was beyond ethnology. he was, perhaps, more negroid than anything else, though his hair was curly rather than frizzy, and his nose had a bridge. moreover, his skin was brown rather than black, and the whites of his eyes were yellow. his broad cheekbones and narrow chin gave his face something of the viperine v. his head, too, was broad behind, and low and narrow at the forehead, as if his brain had been twisted round in the reverse way to a european's. he was short of stature and still shorter of english. in conversation he made numerous odd noises of no known marketable value, and his infrequent words were carved and wrought into heraldic grotesqueness. holroyd tried to elucidate his religious beliefs, and--especially after whisky--lectured to him against superstition and missionaries. azuma-zi, however, shirked the discussion of his gods, even though he was kicked for it. azuma-zi had come, clad in white but insufficient raiment, out of the stoke-hole of the _lord clive_, from the straits settlements and beyond, into london. he had heard even in his youth of the greatness and riches of london, where all the women are white and fair, and even the beggars in the streets are white, and he had arrived, with newly-earned gold coins in his pocket, to worship at the shrine of civilisation. the day of his landing was a dismal one; the sky was dun, and a wind-worried drizzle filtered down to the greasy streets, but he plunged boldly into the delights of shadwell, and was presently cast up, shattered in health, civilised in costume, penniless, and, except in matters of the direst necessity, practically a dumb animal, to toil for james holroyd, and to be bullied by him in the dynamo shed at camberwell. and to james holroyd bullying was a labour of love. there were three dynamos with their engines at camberwell. the two that have been there since the beginning are small machines; the larger one was new. the smaller machines made a reasonable noise; their straps hummed over the drums, every now and then the brushes buzzed and fizzled, and the air churned steadily, whoo! whoo! whoo! between their poles. one was loose in its foundations and kept the shed vibrating. but the big dynamo drowned these little noises altogether with the sustained drone of its iron core, which somehow set part of the ironwork humming. the place made the visitor's head reel with the throb, throb, throb of the engines, the rotation of the big wheels, the spinning ball-valves, the occasional spittings of the steam, and over all the deep, unceasing, surging note of the big dynamo. this last noise was from an engineering point of view a defect, but azuma-zi accounted it unto the monster for mightiness and pride. if it were possible we would have the noises of that shed always about the reader as he reads, we would tell all our story to such an accompaniment. it was a steady stream of din, from which the ear picked out first one thread and then another; there was the intermittent snorting, panting, and seething of the steam engines, the suck and thud of their pistons, the dull beat on the air as the spokes of the great driving wheels came round, a note the leather straps made as they ran tighter and looser, and a fretful tumult from the dynamos; and, over all, sometimes inaudible, as the ear tired of it, and then creeping back upon the senses again, was this trombone note of the big machine. the floor never felt steady and quiet beneath one's feet, but quivered and jarred. it was a confusing, unsteady place, and enough to send anyone's thoughts jerking into odd zigzags. and for three months, while the big strike of the engineers was in progress, holroyd, who was a blackleg, and azuma-zi, who was a mere black, were never out of the stir and eddy of it, but slept and fed in the little wooden shanty between the shed and the gates. holroyd delivered a theological lecture on the text of his big machine soon after azuma-zi came. he had to shout to be heard in the din. "look at that," said holroyd; "where's your 'eathen idol to match 'im?" and azuma-zi looked. for a moment holroyd was inaudible, and then azuma-zi heard: "kill a hundred men. twelve per cent, on the ordinary shares," said holroyd, "and that's something like a gord." holroyd was proud of his big dynamo, and expatiated upon its size and power to azuma-zi until heaven knows what odd currents of thought that and the incessant whirling and shindy set up within the curly black cranium. he would explain in the most graphic manner the dozen or so ways in which a man might be killed by it, and once he gave azuma-zi a shock as a sample of its quality. after that, in the breathing-times of his labour--it was heavy labour, being not only his own, but most of holroyd's--azuma-zi would sit and watch the big machine. now and then the brushes would sparkle and spit blue flashes, at which holroyd would swear, but all the rest was as smooth and rhythmic as breathing. the band ran shouting over the shaft, and ever behind one as one watched was the complacent thud of the piston. so it lived all day in this big airy shed, with him and holroyd to wait upon it; not prisoned up and slaving to drive a ship as the other engines he knew--mere captive devils of the british solomon--had been, but a machine enthroned. those two smaller dynamos azuma-zi by force of contrast despised; the large one he privately christened the lord of the dynamos. they were fretful and irregular, but the big dynamo was steady. how great it was! how serene and easy in its working! greater and calmer even than the buddhas he had seen at rangoon, and yet not motionless, but living! the great black coils spun, spun, spun, the rings ran round under the brushes, and the deep note of its coil steadied the whole. it affected azuma-zi queerly. azuma-zi was not fond of labour. he would sit about and watch the lord of the dynamos while holroyd went away to persuade the yard porter to get whisky, although his proper place was not in the dynamo shed but behind the engines, and, moreover, if holroyd caught him skulking he got hit for it with a rod of stout copper wire. he would go and stand close to the colossus, and look up at the great leather band running overhead. there was a black patch on the band that came round, and it pleased him somehow among all the clatter to watch this return again and again. odd thoughts spun with the whirl of it. scientific people tell us that savages give souls to rocks and trees,--and a machine is a thousand times more alive than a rock or a tree. and azuma-zi was practically a savage still; the veneer of civilisation lay no deeper than his slop suit, his bruises, and the coal grime on his face and hands. his father before him had worshipped a meteoric stone, kindred blood, it may be, had splashed the broad wheels of juggernaut. he took every opportunity holroyd gave him of touching and handling the great dynamo that was fascinating him. he polished and cleaned it until the metal parts were blinding in the sun. he felt a mysterious sense of service in doing this. he would go up to it and touch its spinning coils gently. the gods he had worshipped were all far away. the people in london hid their gods. at last his dim feelings grew more distinct, and took shape in thoughts, and at last in acts. when he came into the roaring shed one morning he salaamed to the lord of the dynamos, and then, when holroyd was away, he went and whispered to the thundering machine that he was its servant, and prayed it to have pity on him and save him from holroyd. as he did so a rare gleam of light came in through the open archway of the throbbing machine-shed, and the lord of the dynamos, as he whirled and roared, was radiant with pale gold. then azuma-zi knew that his service was acceptable to his lord. after that he did not feel so lonely as he had done, and he had indeed been very much alone in london. and even when his work-time was over, which was rare, he loitered about the shed. then, the next time holroyd maltreated him, azuma-zi went presently to the lord of the dynamos and whispered, "thou seest, o my lord!" and the angry whirr of the machinery seemed to answer him. thereafter it appeared to him that whenever holroyd came into the shed a different note came into the sounds of the dynamo. "my lord bides his time," said azuma-zi to himself. "the iniquity of the fool is not yet ripe." and he waited and watched for the day of reckoning. one day there was evidence of short circuiting, and holroyd, making an unwary examination--it was in the afternoon--got a rather severe shock. azuma-zi from behind the engine saw him jump off and curse at the peccant coil. "he is warned," said azuma-zi to himself. "surely my lord is very patient." holroyd had at first initiated his "nigger" into such elementary conceptions of the dynamo's working as would enable him to take temporary charge of the shed in his absence. but when he noticed the manner in which azuma-zi hung about the monster he became suspicious. he dimly perceived his assistant was "up to something," and connecting him with the anointing of the coils with oil that had rotted the varnish in one place, he issued an edict, shouted above the confusion of the machinery, "don't 'ee go nigh that big dynamo any more, pooh-bah, or a'll take thy skin off!" besides, if it pleased azuma-zi to be near the big machine, it was plain sense and decency to keep him away from it. azuma-zi obeyed at the time, but later he was caught bowing before the lord of the dynamos. at which holroyd twisted his arm and kicked him as he turned to go away. as azuma-zi presently stood behind the engine and glared at the back of the hated holroyd, the noises of the machinery took a new rhythm, and sounded like four words in his native tongue. it is hard to say exactly what madness is. i fancy azuma-zi was mad. the incessant din and whirl of the dynamo shed may have churned up his little store of knowledge and big store of superstitious fancy, at last, into something akin to frenzy. at any rate, when the idea of making holroyd a sacrifice to the dynamo fetich was thus suggested to him, it filled him with a strange tumult of exultant emotion. that night the two men and their black shadows were alone in the shed together. the shed was lit with one big arc light that winked and flickered purple. the shadows lay black behind the dynamos, the ball governors of the engines whirled from light to darkness, and their pistons beat loud and steady. the world outside seen through the open end of the shed seemed incredibly dim and remote. it seemed absolutely silent, too, since the riot of the machinery drowned every external sound. far away was the black fence of the yard with grey shadowy houses behind, and above was the deep blue sky and the pale little stars. azuma-zi suddenly walked across the centre of the shed above which the leather bands were running, and went into the shadow by the big dynamo. holroyd heard a click, and the spin of the armature changed. "what are you dewin' with that switch?" he bawled in surprise. "han't i told you----" then he saw the set expression of azuma-zi's eyes as the asiatic came out of the shadow towards him. in another moment the two men were grappling fiercely in front of the great dynamo. "you coffee-headed fool!" gasped holroyd, with a brown hand at his throat. "keep off those contact rings." in another moment he was tripped and reeling back upon the lord of the dynamos. he instinctively loosened his grip upon his antagonist to save himself from the machine. the messenger, sent in furious haste from the station to find out what had happened in the dynamo shed, met azuma-zi at the porter's lodge by the gate. azuma-zi tried to explain something, but the messenger could make nothing of the black's incoherent english, and hurried on to the shed. the machines were all noisily at work, and nothing seemed to be disarranged. there was, however, a queer smell of singed hair. then he saw an odd-looking crumpled mass clinging to the front of the big dynamo, and, approaching, recognised the distorted remains of holroyd. the man stared and hesitated a moment. then he saw the face, and shut his eyes convulsively. he turned on his heel before he opened them, so that he should not see holroyd again, and went out of the shed to get advice and help. when azuma-zi saw holroyd die in the grip of the great dynamo he had been a little scared about the consequences of his act. yet he felt strangely elated, and knew that the favour of the lord dynamo was upon him. his plan was already settled when he met the man coming from the station, and the scientific manager who speedily arrived on the scene jumped at the obvious conclusion of suicide. this expert scarcely noticed azuma-zi, except to ask a few questions. did he see holroyd kill himself? azuma-zi explained he had been out of sight at the engine furnace until he heard a difference in the noise from the dynamo. it was not a difficult examination, being untinctured by suspicion. the distorted remains of holroyd, which the electrician removed from the machine, were hastily covered by the porter with a coffee-stained table-cloth. somebody, by a happy inspiration, fetched a medical man. the expert was chiefly anxious to get the machine at work again, for seven or eight trains had stopped midway in the stuffy tunnels of the electric railway. azuma-zi, answering or misunderstanding the questions of the people who had by authority or impudence come into the shed, was presently sent back to the stoke-hole by the scientific manager. of course a crowd collected outside the gates of the yard--a crowd, for no known reason, always hovers for a day or two near the scene of a sudden death in london--two or three reporters percolated somehow into the engine-shed, and one even got to azuma-zi; but the scientific expert cleared them out again, being himself an amateur journalist. presently the body was carried away, and public interest departed with it. azuma-zi remained very quietly at his furnace, seeing over and over again in the coals a figure that wriggled violently and became still. an hour after the murder, to any one coming into the shed it would have looked exactly as if nothing remarkable had ever happened there. peeping presently from his engine-room the black saw the lord dynamo spin and whirl beside his little brothers, and the driving wheels were beating round, and the steam in the pistons went thud, thud, exactly as it had been earlier in the evening. after all, from the mechanical point of view, it had been a most insignificant incident--the mere temporary deflection of a current. but now the slender form and slender shadow of the scientific manager replaced the sturdy outline of holroyd travelling up and down the lane of light upon the vibrating floor under the straps between the engines and the dynamos. "have i not served my lord?" said azuma-zi inaudibly, from his shadow, and the note of the great dynamo rang out full and clear. as he looked at the big whirling mechanism the strange fascination of it that had been a little in abeyance since holroyd's death resumed its sway. never had azuma-zi seen a man killed so swiftly and pitilessly. the big humming machine had slain its victim without wavering for a second from its steady beating. it was indeed a mighty god. the unconscious scientific manager stood with his back to him, scribbling on a piece of paper. his shadow lay at the foot of the monster. was the lord dynamo still hungry? his servant was ready. azuma-zi made a stealthy step forward; then stopped. the scientific manager suddenly ceased his writing, walked down the shed to the endmost of the dynamos, and began to examine the brushes. azuma-zi hesitated, and then slipped across noiselessly into the shadow by the switch. there he waited. presently the manager's footsteps could be heard returning. he stopped in his old position, unconscious of the stoker crouching ten feet away from him. then the big dynamo suddenly fizzled, and in another moment azuma-zi had sprung out of the darkness upon him. first, the scientific manager was gripped round the body and swung towards the big dynamo, then, kicking with his knee and forcing his antagonist's head down with his hands, he loosened the grip on his waist and swung round away from the machine. then the black grasped him again, putting a curly head against his chest, and they swayed and panted as it seemed for an age or so. then the scientific manager was impelled to catch a black ear in his teeth and bite furiously. the black yelled hideously. they rolled over on the floor, and the black, who had apparently slipped from the vice of the teeth or parted with some ear--the scientific manager wondered which at the time--tried to throttle him. the scientific manager was making some ineffectual efforts to claw something with his hands and to kick, when the welcome sound of quick footsteps sounded on the floor. the next moment azuma-zi had left him and darted towards the big dynamo. there was a splutter amid the roar. the officer of the company who had entered stood staring as azuma-zi caught the naked terminals in his hands, gave one horrible convulsion, and then hung motionless from the machine, his face violently distorted. "i'm jolly glad you came in when you did," said the scientific manager, still sitting on the floor. he looked at the still quivering figure. "it is not a nice death to die, apparently--but it is quick." the official was still staring at the body. he was a man of slow apprehension. there was a pause. the scientific manager got up on his feet rather awkwardly. he ran his fingers along his collar thoughtfully, and moved his head to and fro several times. "poor holroyd! i see now." then almost mechanically he went towards the switch in the shadow and turned the current into the railway circuit again. as he did so the singed body loosened its grip upon the machine and fell forward on its face. the core of the dynamo roared out loud and clear, and the armature beat the air. so ended prematurely the worship of the dynamo deity, perhaps the most short-lived of all religions. yet withal it could at least boast a martyrdom and a human sacrifice. ix. the moth. probably you have heard of hapley--not w. t. hapley, the son, but the celebrated hapley, the hapley of _periplaneta hapliia_, hapley the entomologist. if so you know at least of the great feud between hapley and professor pawkins, though certain of its consequences may be new to you. for those who have not, a word or two of explanation is necessary, which the idle reader may go over with a glancing eye, if his indolence so incline him. it is amazing how very widely diffused is the ignorance of such really important matters as this hapley-pawkins feud. those epoch-making controversies, again, that have convulsed the geological society are, i verily believe, almost entirely unknown outside the fellowship of that body. i have heard men of fair general education even refer to the great scenes at these meetings as vestry-meeting squabbles. yet the great hate of the english and scotch geologists has lasted now half a century, and has "left deep and abundant marks upon the body of the science." and this hapley-pawkins business, though perhaps a more personal affair, stirred passions as profound, if not profounder. your common man has no conception of the zeal that animates a scientific investigator, the fury of contradiction you can arouse in him. it is the _odium theologicum_ in a new form. there are men, for instance, who would gladly burn professor ray lankester at smithfield for his treatment of the mollusca in the encyclopaedia. that fantastic extension of the cephalopods to cover the pteropods ... but i wander from hapley and pawkins. it began years and years ago, with a revision of the microlepidoptera (whatever these may be) by pawkins, in which he extinguished a new species created by hapley. hapley, who was always quarrelsome, replied by a stinging impeachment of the entire classification of pawkins.[a] pawkins in his "rejoinder"[b] suggested that hapley's microscope was as defective as his power of observation, and called him an "irresponsible meddler"-- hapley was not a professor at that time. hapley in his retort,[c] spoke of "blundering collectors," and described, as if inadvertently, pawkins' revision as a "miracle of ineptitude." it was war to the knife. however, it would scarcely interest the reader to detail how these two great men quarrelled, and how the split between them widened until from the microlepidoptera they were at war upon every open question in entomology. there were memorable occasions. at times the royal entomological society meetings resembled nothing so much as the chamber of deputies. on the whole, i fancy pawkins was nearer the truth than hapley. but hapley was skilful with his rhetoric, had a turn for ridicule rare in a scientific man, was endowed with vast energy, and had a fine sense of injury in the matter of the extinguished species; while pawkins was a man of dull presence, prosy of speech, in shape not unlike a water-barrel, over conscientious with testimonials, and suspected of jobbing museum appointments. so the young men gathered round hapley and applauded him. it was a long struggle, vicious from the beginning and growing at last to pitiless antagonism. the successive turns of fortune, now an advantage to one side and now to another--now hapley tormented by some success of pawkins, and now pawkins outshone by hapley, belong rather to the history of entomology than to this story. [footnote a: "remarks on a recent revision of microlepidoptera." _quart. journ. entomological soc._, .] [footnote b: "rejoinder to certain remarks," etc. _ibid._ .] [footnote c: "further remarks," etc. _ibid._] but in pawkins, whose health had been bad for some time, published some work upon the "mesoblast" of the death's head moth. what the mesoblast of the death's head moth may be does not matter a rap in this story. but the work was far below his usual standard, and gave hapley an opening he had coveted for years. he must have worked night and day to make the most of his advantage. in an elaborate critique he rent pawkins to tatters--one can fancy the man's disordered black hair, and his queer dark eyes flashing as he went for his antagonist--and pawkins made a reply, halting, ineffectual, with painful gaps of silence, and yet malignant. there was no mistaking his will to wound hapley, nor his incapacity to do it. but few of those who heard him--i was absent from that meeting--realised how ill the man was. hapley got his opponent down, and meant to finish him. he followed with a simply brutal attack upon pawkins, in the form of a paper upon the development of moths in general, a paper showing evidence of a most extraordinary amount of mental labour, and yet couched in a violently controversial tone. violent as it was, an editorial note witnesses that it was modified. it must have covered pawkins with shame and confusion of face. it left no loophole; it was murderous in argument, and utterly contemptuous in tone; an awful thing for the declining years of a man's career. the world of entomologists waited breathlessly for the rejoinder from pawkins. he would try one, for pawkins had always been game. but when it came it surprised them. for the rejoinder of pawkins was to catch influenza, proceed to pneumonia, and die. it was perhaps as effectual a reply as he could make under the circumstances, and largely turned the current of feeling against hapley. the very people who had most gleefully cheered on those gladiators became serious at the consequence. there could be no reasonable doubt the fret of the defeat had contributed to the death of pawkins. there was a limit even to scientific controversy, said serious people. another crushing attack was already in the press and appeared on the day before the funeral. i don't think hapley exerted himself to stop it. people remembered how hapley had hounded down his rival, and forgot that rival's defects. scathing satire reads ill over fresh mould. the thing provoked comment in the daily papers. this it was that made me think that you had probably heard of hapley and this controversy. but, as i have already remarked, scientific workers live very much in a world of their own; half the people, i dare say, who go along piccadilly to the academy every year, could not tell you where the learned societies abide. many even think that research is a kind of happy-family cage in which all kinds of men lie down together in peace. in his private thoughts hapley could not forgive pawkins for dying. in the first place, it was a mean dodge to escape the absolute pulverisation hapley had in hand for him, and in the second, it left hapley's mind with a queer gap in it. for twenty years he had worked hard, sometimes far into the night, and seven days a week, with microscope, scalpel, collecting-net, and pen, and almost entirely with reference to pawkins. the european reputation he had won had come as an incident in that great antipathy. he had gradually worked up to a climax in this last controversy. it had killed pawkins, but it had also thrown hapley out of gear, so to speak, and his doctor advised him to give up work for a time, and rest. so hapley went down into a quiet village in kent, and thought day and night of pawkins, and good things it was now impossible to say about him. at last hapley began to realise in what direction the pre-occupation tended. he determined to make a fight for it, and started by trying to read novels. but he could not get his mind off pawkins, white in the face and making his last speech--every sentence a beautiful opening for hapley. he turned to fiction--and found it had no grip on him. he read the "island nights' entertainments" until his "sense of causation" was shocked beyond endurance by the bottle imp. then he went to kipling, and found he "proved nothing," besides being irreverent and vulgar. these scientific people have their limitations. then unhappily, he tried besant's "inner house," and the opening chapter set his mind upon learned societies and pawkins at once. so hapley turned to chess, and found it a little more soothing. he soon mastered the moves and the chief gambits and commoner closing positions, and began to beat the vicar. but then the cylindrical contours of the opposite king began to resemble pawkins standing up and gasping ineffectually against check-mate, and hapley decided to give up chess. perhaps the study of some new branch of science would after all be better diversion. the best rest is change of occupation. hapley determined to plunge at diatoms, and had one of his smaller microscopes and halibut's monograph sent down from london. he thought that perhaps if he could get up a vigorous quarrel with halibut, he might be able to begin life afresh and forget pawkins. and very soon he was hard at work in his habitual strenuous fashion, at these microscopic denizens of the way-side pool. it was on the third day of the diatoms that hapley became aware of a novel addition to the local fauna. he was working late at the microscope, and the only light in the room was the brilliant little lamp with the special form of green shade. like all experienced microscopists, he kept both eyes open. it is the only way to avoid excessive fatigue. one eye was over the instrument, and bright and distinct before that was the circular field of the microscope, across which a brown diatom was slowly moving. with the other eye hapley saw, as it were, without seeing. he was only dimly conscious of the brass side of the instrument, the illuminated part of the table-cloth, a sheet of notepaper, the foot of the lamp, and the darkened room beyond. suddenly his attention drifted from one eye to the other. the table-cloth was of the material called tapestry by shopmen, and rather brightly coloured. the pattern was in gold, with a small amount of crimson and pale blue upon a greyish ground. at one point the pattern seemed displaced, and there was a vibrating movement of the colours at this point. hapley suddenly moved his head back and looked with both eyes. his mouth fell open with astonishment. it was a large moth or butterfly; its wings spread in butterfly fashion! it was strange it should be in the room at all, for the windows were closed. strange that it should not have attracted his attention when fluttering to its present position. strange that it should match the table-cloth. stranger far that to him, hapley, the great entomologist, it was altogether unknown. there was no delusion. it was crawling slowly towards the foot of the lamp. "new genus, by heavens! and in england!" said hapley, staring. then he suddenly thought of pawkins. nothing would have maddened pawkins more...and pawkins was dead! something about the head and body of the insect became singularly suggestive of pawkins, just as the chess king had been. "confound pawkins!" said hapley. "but i must catch this." and looking round him for some means of capturing the moth, he rose slowly out of his chair. suddenly the insect rose, struck the edge of the lampshade--hapley heard the "ping"--and vanished into the shadow. in a moment hapley had whipped off the shade, so that the whole room was illuminated. the thing had disappeared, but soon his practised eye detected it upon the wall-paper near the door. he went towards it poising the lamp-shade for capture. before he was within striking distance, however, it had risen and was fluttering round the room. after the fashion of its kind, it flew with sudden starts and turns, seeming to vanish here and reappear there. once hapley struck, and missed; then again. the third time he hit his microscope. the instrument swayed, struck and overturned the lamp, and fell noisily upon the floor. the lamp turned over on the table and, very luckily, went out. hapley was left in the dark. with a start he felt the strange moth blunder into his face. it was maddening. he had no lights. if he opened the door of the room the thing would get away. in the darkness he saw pawkins quite distinctly laughing at him. pawkins had ever an oily laugh. he swore furiously and stamped his foot on the floor. there was a timid rapping at the door. then it opened, perhaps a foot, and very slowly. the alarmed face of the landlady appeared behind a pink candle flame; she wore a night-cap over her grey hair and had some purple garment over her shoulders. "what _was_ that fearful smash?" she said. "has anything----" the strange moth appeared fluttering about the chink of the door. "shut that door!" said hapley, and suddenly rushed at her. the door slammed hastily. hapley was left alone in the dark. then in the pause he heard his landlady scuttle upstairs, lock her door, and drag something heavy across the room and put against it. it became evident to hapley that his conduct and appearance had been strange and alarming. confound the moth! and pawkins! however, it was a pity to lose the moth now. he felt his way into the hall and found the matches, after sending his hat down upon the floor with a noise like a drum. with the lighted candle he returned to the sitting-room. no moth was to be seen. yet once for a moment it seemed that the thing was fluttering round his head. hapley very suddenly decided to give up the moth and go to bed. but he was excited. all night long his sleep was broken by dreams of the moth, pawkins, and his landlady. twice in the night he turned out and soused his head in cold water. one thing was very clear to him. his landlady could not possibly understand about the strange moth, especially as he had failed to catch it. no one but an entomologist would understand quite how he felt. she was probably frightened at his behaviour, and yet he failed to see how he could explain it. he decided to say nothing further about the events of last night. after breakfast he saw her in her garden, and decided to go out and talk to reassure her. he talked to her about beans and potatoes, bees, caterpillars, and the price of fruit. she replied in her usual manner, but she looked at him a little suspiciously, and kept walking as he walked, so that there was always a bed of flowers, or a row of beans, or something of the sort, between them. after a while he began to feel singularly irritated at this, and to conceal his vexation went indoors and presently went out for a walk. the moth, or butterfly, trailing an odd flavour of pawkins with it, kept coming into that walk, though he did his best to keep his mind off it. once he saw it quite distinctly, with its wings flattened out, upon the old stone wall that runs along the west edge of the park, but going up to it he found it was only two lumps of grey and yellow lichen. "this," said hapley, "is the reverse of mimicry. instead of a butterfly looking like a stone, here is a stone looking like a butterfly!" once something hovered and fluttered round his head, but by an effort of will he drove that impression out of his mind again. in the afternoon hapley called upon the vicar, and argued with him upon theological questions. they sat in the little arbour covered with briar, and smoked as they wrangled. "look at that moth!" said hapley, suddenly, pointing to the edge of the wooden table. "where?" said the vicar. "you don't see a moth on the edge of the table there?" said hapley. "certainly not," said the vicar. hapley was thunderstruck. he gasped. the vicar was staring at him. clearly the man saw nothing. "the eye of faith is no better than the eye of science," said hapley awkwardly. "i don't see your point," said the vicar, thinking it was part of the argument. that night hapley found the moth crawling over his counterpane. he sat on the edge of the bed in his shirt sleeves and reasoned with himself. was it pure hallucination? he knew he was slipping, and he battled for his sanity with the same silent energy he had formerly displayed against pawkins. so persistent is mental habit, that he felt as if it were still a struggle with pawkins. he was well versed in psychology. he knew that such visual illusions do come as a result of mental strain. but the point was, he did not only _see_ the moth, he had heard it when it touched the edge of the lampshade, and afterwards when it hit against the wall, and he had felt it strike his face in the dark. he looked at it. it was not at all dreamlike, but perfectly clear and solid-looking in the candle-light. he saw the hairy body, and the short feathery antennae, the jointed legs, even a place where the down was rubbed from the wing. he suddenly felt angry with himself for being afraid of a little insect. his landlady had got the servant to sleep with her that night, because she was afraid to be alone. in addition she had locked the door, and put the chest of drawers against it. they listened and talked in whispers after they had gone to bed, but nothing occurred to alarm them. about eleven they had ventured to put the candle out, and had both dozed off to sleep. they woke up with a start, and sat up in bed, listening in the darkness. then they heard slippered feet going to and fro in hapley's room. a chair was overturned, and there was a violent dab at the wall. then a china mantel ornament smashed upon the fender. suddenly the door of the room opened, and they heard him upon the landing. they clung to one another, listening. he seemed to be dancing upon the staircase. now he would go down three or four steps quickly, then up again, then hurry down into the hall. they heard the umbrella stand go over, and the fanlight break. then the bolt shot and the chain rattled. he was opening the door. they hurried to the window. it was a dim grey night; an almost unbroken sheet of watery cloud was sweeping across the moon, and the hedge and trees in front of the house were black against the pale roadway. they saw hapley, looking like a ghost in his shirt and white trousers, running to and fro in the road, and beating the air. now he would stop, now he would dart very rapidly at something invisible, now he would move upon it with stealthy strides. at last he went out of sight up the road towards the down. then, while they argued who should go down and lock the door, he returned. he was walking very fast, and he came straight into the house, closed the door carefully, and went quietly up to his bedroom. then everything was silent. "mrs. colville," said hapley, calling down the staircase next morning, "i hope i did not alarm you last night." "you may well ask that!" said mrs. colville. "the fact is, i am a sleep-walker, and the last two nights i have been without my sleeping mixture. there is nothing to be alarmed about, really. i am sorry i made such an ass of myself. i will go over the down to shoreham, and get some stuff to make me sleep soundly. i ought to have done that yesterday." but half-way over the down, by the chalk pits, the moth came upon hapley again. he went on, trying to keep his mind upon chess problems, but it was no good. the thing fluttered into his face, and he struck at it with his hat in self-defence. then rage, the old rage--the rage he had so often felt against pawkins--came upon him again. he went on, leaping and striking at the eddying insect. suddenly he trod on nothing, and fell headlong. there was a gap in his sensations, and hapley found himself sitting on the heap of flints in front of the opening of the chalk-pits, with a leg twisted back under him. the strange moth was still fluttering round his head. he struck at it with his hand, and turning his head saw two men approaching him. one was the village doctor. it occurred to hapley that this was lucky. then it came into his mind with extraordinary vividness, that no one would ever be able to see the strange moth except himself, and that it behoved him to keep silent about it. late that night, however, after his broken leg was set, he was feverish and forgot his self-restraint. he was lying flat on his bed, and he began to run his eyes round the room to see if the moth was still about. he tried not to do this, but it was no good. he soon caught sight of the thing resting close to his hand, by the night-light, on the green table-cloth. the wings quivered. with a sudden wave of anger he smote at it with his fist, and the nurse woke up with a shriek. he had missed it. "that moth!" he said; and then, "it was fancy. nothing!" all the time he could see quite clearly the insect going round the cornice and darting across the room, and he could also see that the nurse saw nothing of it and looked at him strangely. he must keep himself in hand. he knew he was a lost man if he did not keep himself in hand. but as the night waned the fever grew upon him, and the very dread he had of seeing the moth made him see it. about five, just as the dawn was grey, he tried to get out of bed and catch it, though his leg was afire with pain. the nurse had to struggle with him. on account of this, they tied him down to the bed. at this the moth grew bolder, and once he felt it settle in his hair. then, because he struck out violently with his arms, they tied these also. at this the moth came and crawled over his face, and hapley wept, swore, screamed, prayed for them to take it off him, unavailingly. the doctor was a blockhead, a just-qualified general practitioner, and quite ignorant of mental science. he simply said there was no moth. had he possessed the wit, he might still, perhaps, have saved hapley from his fate by entering into his delusion, and covering his face with gauze, as he prayed might be done. but, as i say, the doctor was a blockhead, and until the leg was healed hapley was kept tied to his bed, and with the imaginary moth crawling over him. it never left him while he was awake and it grew to a monster in his dreams. while he was awake he longed for sleep, and from sleep he awoke screaming. so now hapley is spending the remainder of his days in a padded room, worried by a moth that no one else can see. the asylum doctor calls it hallucination; but hapley, when he is in his easier mood, and can talk, says it is the ghost of pawkins, and consequently a unique specimen and well worth the trouble of catching. x. the treasure in the forest. the canoe was now approaching the land. the bay opened out, and a gap in the white surf of the reef marked where the little river ran out to the sea; the thicker and deeper green of the virgin forest showed its course down the distant hill slope. the forest here came close to the beach. far beyond, dim and almost cloudlike in texture, rose the mountains, like suddenly frozen waves. the sea was still save for an almost imperceptible swell. the sky blazed. the man with the carved paddle stopped. "it should be somewhere here," he said. he shipped the paddle and held his arms out straight before him. the other man had been in the fore part of the canoe, closely scrutinising the land. he had a sheet of yellow paper on his knee. "come and look at this, evans," he said. both men spoke in low tones, and their lips were hard and dry. the man called evans came swaying along the canoe until he could look over his companion's shoulder. the paper had the appearance of a rough map. by much folding it was creased and worn to the pitch of separation, and the second man held the discoloured fragments together where they had parted. on it one could dimly make out, in almost obliterated pencil, the outline of the bay. "here," said evans, "is the reef, and here is the gap." he ran his thumb-nail over the chart. "this curved and twisting line is the river--i could do with a drink now!--and this star is the place." "you see this dotted line," said the man with the map; "it is a straight line, and runs from the opening of the reef to a clump of palm-trees. the star comes just where it cuts the river. we must mark the place as we go into the lagoon." "it's queer," said evans, after a pause, "what these little marks down here are for. it looks like the plan of a house or something; but what all these little dashes, pointing this way and that, may mean i can't get a notion. and what's the writing?" "chinese," said the man with the map. "of course! _he_ was a chinee," said evans. "they all were," said the man with the map. they both sat for some minutes staring at the land, while the canoe drifted slowly. then evans looked towards the paddle. "your turn with the paddle now, hooker," said he. and his companion quietly folded up his map, put it in his pocket, passed evans carefully, and began to paddle. his movements were languid, like those of a man whose strength was nearly exhausted. evans sat with his eyes half closed, watching the frothy breakwater of the coral creep nearer and nearer. the sky was like a furnace, for the sun was near the zenith. though they were so near the treasure he did not feel the exaltation he had anticipated. the intense excitement of the struggle for the plan, and the long night voyage from the mainland in the unprovisioned canoe had, to use his own expression, "taken it out of him." he tried to arouse himself by directing his mind to the ingots the chinamen had spoken of, but it would not rest there; it came back headlong to the thought of sweet water rippling in the river, and to the almost unendurable dryness of his lips and throat. the rhythmic wash of the sea upon the reef was becoming audible now, and it had a pleasant sound in his ears; the water washed along the side of the canoe, and the paddle dripped between each stroke. presently he began to doze. he was still dimly conscious of the island, but a queer dream texture interwove with his sensations. once again it was the night when he and hooker had hit upon the chinamen's secret; he saw the moonlit trees, the little fire burning, and the black figures of the three chinamen--silvered on one side by moonlight, and on the other glowing from the firelight--and heard them talking together in pigeon-english--for they came from different provinces. hooker had caught the drift of their talk first, and had motioned to him to listen. fragments of the conversation were inaudible, and fragments incomprehensible. a spanish galleon from the philippines hopelessly aground, and its treasure buried against the day of return, lay in the background of the story; a shipwrecked crew thinned by disease, a quarrel or so, and the needs of discipline, and at last taking to their boats never to be heard of again. then chang-hi, only a year since, wandering ashore, had happened upon the ingots hidden for two hundred years, had deserted his junk, and reburied them with infinite toil, single-handed but very safe. he laid great stress on the safety--it was a secret of his. now he wanted help to return and exhume them. presently the little map fluttered and the voices sank. a fine story for two, stranded british wastrels to hear! evans' dream shifted to the moment when he had chang-hi's pigtail in his hand. the life of a chinaman is scarcely sacred like a european's. the cunning little face of chang-hi, first keen and furious like a startled snake, and then fearful, treacherous, and pitiful, became overwhelmingly prominent in the dream. at the end chang-hi had grinned, a most incomprehensible and startling grin. abruptly things became very unpleasant, as they will do at times in dreams. chang-hi gibbered and threatened him. he saw in his dream heaps and heaps of gold, and chang-hi intervening and struggling to hold him back from it. he took chang-hi by the pig-tail--how big the yellow brute was, and how he struggled and grinned! he kept growing bigger, too. then the bright heaps of gold turned to a roaring furnace, and a vast devil, surprisingly like chang-hi, but with a huge black tail, began to feed him with coals. they burnt his mouth horribly. another devil was shouting his name: "evans, evans, you sleepy fool!"--or was it hooker? he woke up. they were in the mouth of the lagoon. "there are the three palm-trees. it must be in a line with that clump of bushes," said his companion. "mark that. if we, go to those bushes and then strike into the bush in a straight line from here, we shall come to it when we come to the stream." they could see now where the mouth of the stream opened out. at the sight of it evans revived. "hurry up, man," he said, "or by heaven i shall have to drink sea water!" he gnawed his hand and stared at the gleam of silver among the rocks and green tangle. presently he turned almost fiercely upon hooker. "give _me_ the paddle," he said. so they reached the river mouth. a little way up hooker took some water in the hollow of his hand, tasted it, and spat it out. a little further he tried again. "this will do," he said, and they began drinking eagerly. "curse this!" said evans suddenly. "it's too slow." and, leaning dangerously over the fore part of the canoe, he began to suck up the water with his lips. presently they made an end of drinking, and, running the canoe into a little creek, were about to land among the thick growth that overhung the water. "we shall have to scramble through this to the beach to find our bushes and get the line to the place," said evans. "we had better paddle round," said hooker. so they pushed out again into the river and paddled back down it to the sea, and along the shore to the place where the clump of bushes grew. here they landed, pulled the light canoe far up the beach, and then went up towards the edge of the jungle until they could see the opening of the reef and the bushes in a straight line. evans had taken a native implement out of the canoe. it was l-shaped, and the transverse piece was armed with polished stone. hooker carried the paddle. "it is straight now in this direction," said he; "we must push through this till we strike the stream. then we must prospect." they pushed through a close tangle of reeds, broad fronds, and young trees, and at first it was toilsome going, but very speedily the trees became larger and the ground beneath them opened out. the blaze of the sunlight was replaced by insensible degrees by cool shadow. the trees became at last vast pillars that rose up to a canopy of greenery far overhead. dim white flowers hung from their stems, and ropy creepers swung from tree to tree. the shadow deepened. on the ground, blotched fungi and a red-brown incrustation became frequent. evans shivered. "it seems almost cold here after the blaze outside." "i hope we are keeping to the straight," said hooker. presently they saw, far ahead, a gap in the sombre darkness where white shafts of hot sunlight smote into the forest. there also was brilliant green undergrowth and coloured flowers. then they heard the rush of water. "here is the river. we should be close to it now," said hooker. the vegetation was thick by the river bank. great plants, as yet unnamed, grew among the roots of the big trees, and spread rosettes of huge green fans towards the strip of sky. many flowers and a creeper with shiny foliage clung to the exposed stems. on the water of the broad, quiet pool which the treasure-seekers now overlooked there floated big oval leaves and a waxen, pinkish-white flower not unlike a water-lily. further, as the river bent away from them, the water suddenly frothed and became noisy in a rapid. "well?" said evans. "we have swerved a little from the straight," said hooker. "that was to be expected." he turned and looked into the dim cool shadows of the silent forest behind them. "if we beat a little way up and down the stream we should come to something." "you said--" began evans. "_he_ said there was a heap of stones," said hooker. the two men looked at each other for a moment. "let us try a little down-stream first," said evans. they advanced slowly, looking curiously about them. suddenly evans stopped. "what the devil's that?" he said. hooker followed his finger. "something blue," he said. it had come into view as they topped a gentle swell of the ground. then he began to distinguish what it was. he advanced suddenly with hasty steps, until the body that belonged to the limp hand and arm had become visible. his grip tightened on the implement he carried. the thing was the figure of a chinaman lying on his face. the _abandon_ of the pose was unmistakable. the two men drew closer together, and stood staring silently at this ominous dead body. it lay in a clear space among the trees. near by was a spade after the chinese pattern, and further off lay a scattered heap of stones, close to a freshly dug hole. "somebody has been here before," said hooker, clearing his throat. then suddenly evans began to swear and rave, and stamp upon the ground. hooker turned white but said nothing. he advanced towards the prostrate body. he saw the neck was puffed and purple, and the hands and ankles swollen. "pah!" he said, and suddenly turned away and went towards the excavation. he gave a cry of surprise. he shouted to evans, who was following him slowly. "you fool! it's all right. it's here still." then he turned again and looked at the dead chinaman, and then again at the hole. evans hurried to the hole. already half exposed by the ill-fated wretch beside them lay a number of dull yellow bars. he bent down in the hole, and, clearing off the soil with his bare hands, hastily pulled one of the heavy masses out. as he did so a little thorn pricked his hand. he pulled the delicate spike out with his fingers and lifted the ingot. "only gold or lead could weigh like this," he said exultantly. hooker was still looking at the dead chinaman. he was puzzled. "he stole a march on his friends," he said at last. "he came here alone, and some poisonous snake has killed him... i wonder how he found the place." evans stood with the ingot in his hands. what did a dead chinaman signify? "we shall have to take this stuff to the mainland piecemeal, and bury it there for a while. how shall we get it to the canoe?" he took his jacket off and spread it on the ground, and flung two or three ingots into it. presently he found that another little thorn had punctured his skin. "this is as much as we can carry," said he. then suddenly, with a queer rush of irritation, "what are you staring at?" hooker turned to him. "i can't stand him ..." he nodded towards the corpse. "it's so like----" "rubbish!" said evans. "all chinamen are alike." hooker looked into his face. "i'm going to bury _that_, anyhow, before i lend a hand with this stuff." "don't be a fool, hooker," said evans, "let that mass of corruption bide." hooker hesitated, and then his eye went carefully over the brown soil about them. "it scares me somehow," he said. "the thing is," said evans, "what to do with these ingots. shall we re-bury them over here, or take them across the strait in the canoe?" hooker thought. his puzzled gaze wandered among the tall tree-trunks, and up into the remote sunlit greenery overhead. he shivered again as his eye rested upon the blue figure of the chinaman. he stared searchingly among the grey depths between the trees. "what's come to you, hooker?" said evans. "have you lost your wits?" "let's get the gold out of this place, anyhow," said hooker. he took the ends of the collar of the coat in his hands, and evans took the opposite corners, and they lifted the mass. "which way?" said evans. "to the canoe?" "it's queer," said evans, when they had advanced only a few steps, "but my arms ache still with that paddling." "curse it!" he said. "but they ache! i must rest." they let the coat down, evans' face was white, and little drops of sweat stood out upon his forehead. "it's stuffy, somehow, in this forest." then with an abrupt transition to unreasonable anger: "what is the good of waiting here all the day? lend a hand, i say! you have done nothing but moon since we saw the dead chinaman." hooker was looking steadfastly at his companion's face. he helped raise the coat bearing the ingots, and they went forward perhaps a hundred yards in silence. evans began to breathe heavily. "can't you speak?" he said. "what's the matter with you?" said hooker. evans stumbled, and then with a sudden curse flung the coat from him. he stood for a moment staring at hooker, and then with a groan clutched at his own throat. "don't come near me," he said, and went and leant against a tree. then in a steadier voice, "i'll be better in a minute." presently his grip upon the trunk loosened, and he slipped slowly down the stem of the tree until he was a crumpled heap at its foot. his hands were clenched convulsively. his face became distorted with pain. hooker approached him. "don't touch me! don't touch me!" said evans in a stifled voice. "put the gold back on the coat." "can't i do anything for you?" said hooker. "put the gold back on the coat." as hooker handled the ingots he felt a little prick on the ball of his thumb. he looked at his hand and saw a slender thorn, perhaps two inches in length. evans gave an inarticulate cry and rolled over. hooker's jaw dropped. he stared at the thorn for a moment with dilated eyes. then he looked at evans, who was now crumpled together on the ground, his back bending and straightening spasmodically. then he looked through the pillars of the trees and net-work of creeper stems, to where in the dim grey shadow the blue-clad body of the chinaman was still indistinctly visible. he thought of the little dashes in the corner of the plan, and in a moment he understood. "god help me!" he said. for the thorns were similar to those the dyaks poison and use in their blowing-tubes. he understood now what chang-hi's assurance of the safety of his treasure meant. he understood that grin now. "evans!" he cried. but evans was silent and motionless, save for a horrible spasmodic twitching of his limbs. a profound silence brooded over the forest. then hooker began to suck furiously at the little pink spot on the ball of his thumb--sucking for dear life. presently he felt a strange aching pain in his arms and shoulders, and his fingers seemed difficult to bend. then he knew that sucking was no good. abruptly he stopped, and sitting down by the pile of ingots, and resting his chin upon his hands and his elbows upon his knees, stared at the distorted but still quivering body of his companion. chang-hi's grin came into his mind again. the dull pain spread towards his throat and grew slowly in intensity. far above him a faint breeze stirred the greenery, and the white petals of some unknown flower came floating down through the gloom. xi. the story of the late mr. elvesham. i set this story down, not expecting it will be believed, but, if possible, to prepare a way of escape for the next victim. he, perhaps, may profit by my misfortune. my own case, i know, is hopeless, and i am now in some measure prepared to meet my fate. my name is edward george eden. i was born at trentham, in staffordshire, my father being employed in the gardens there. i lost my mother when i was three years old, and my father when i was five, my uncle, george eden, then adopting me as his own son. he was a single man, self-educated, and well-known in birmingham as an enterprising journalist; he educated me generously, fired my ambition to succeed in the world, and at his death, which happened four years ago, left me his entire fortune, a matter of about five hundred pounds after all outgoing charges were paid. i was then eighteen. he advised me in his will to expend the money in completing my education. i had already chosen the profession of medicine, and through his posthumous generosity and my good fortune in a scholarship competition, i became a medical student at university college, london. at the time of the beginning of my story i lodged at a university street in a little upper room, very shabbily furnished and draughty, overlooking the back of shoolbred's premises. i used this little room both to live in and sleep in, because i was anxious to eke out my means to the very last shillings-worth. i was taking a pair of shoes to be mended at a shop in the tottenham court road when i first encountered the little old man with the yellow face, with whom my life has now become so inextricably entangled. he was standing on the kerb, and staring at the number on the door in a doubtful way, as i opened it. his eyes--they were dull grey eyes, and reddish under the rims--fell to my face, and his countenance immediately assumed an expression of corrugated amiability. "you come," he said, "apt to the moment. i had forgotten the number of your house. how do you do, mr. eden?" i was a little astonished at his familiar address, for i had never set eyes on the man before. i was a little annoyed, too, at his catching me with my boots under my arm. he noticed my lack of cordiality. "wonder who the deuce i am, eh? a friend, let me assure you. i have seen you before, though you haven't seen me. is there anywhere where i can talk to you?" i hesitated. the shabbiness of my room upstairs was not a matter for every stranger. "perhaps," said i, "we might walk down the street. i'm unfortunately prevented--" my gesture explained the sentence before i had spoken it. "the very thing," he said, and faced this way, and then that. "the street? which way shall we go?" i slipped my boots down in the passage. "look here!" he said abruptly; "this business of mine is a rigmarole. come and lunch with me, mr. eden. i'm an old man, a very old man, and not good at explanations, and what with my piping voice and the clatter of the traffic----" he laid a persuasive skinny hand that trembled a little upon my arm. i was not so old that an old man might not treat me to a lunch. yet at the same time i was not altogether pleased by this abrupt invitation. "i had rather----" i began. "but i had rather," he said, catching me up, "and a certain civility is surely due to my grey hairs." and so i consented, and went with him. he took me to blavitiski's; i had to walk slowly to accommodate myself to his paces; and over such a lunch as i had never tasted before, he fended off my leading question, and i took a better note of his appearance. his clean-shaven face was lean and wrinkled, his shrivelled, lips fell over a set of false teeth, and his white hair was thin and rather long; he seemed small to me,--though indeed, most people seemed small to me,--and his shoulders were rounded and bent. and watching him, i could not help but observe that he too was taking note of me, running his eyes, with a curious touch of greed in them, over me, from my broad shoulders to my suntanned hands, and up to my freckled face again. "and now," said he, as we lit our cigarettes, "i must tell you of the business in hand. "i must tell you, then, that i am an old man, a very old man." he paused momentarily. "and it happens that i have money that i must presently be leaving, and never a child have i to leave it to." i thought of the confidence trick, and resolved i would be on the alert for the vestiges of my five hundred pounds. he proceeded to enlarge on his loneliness, and the trouble he had to find a proper disposition of his money. "i have weighed this plan and that plan, charities, institutions, and scholarships, and libraries, and i have come to this conclusion at last,"--he fixed his eyes on my face,--"that i will find some young fellow, ambitious, pure-minded, and poor, healthy in body and healthy in mind, and, in short, make him my heir, give him all that i have." he repeated, "give him all that i have. so that he will suddenly be lifted out of all the trouble and struggle in which his sympathies have been educated, to freedom and influence." i tried to seem disinterested. with a transparent hypocrisy i said, "and you want my help, my professional services maybe, to find that person." he smiled, and looked at me over his cigarette, and i laughed at his quiet exposure of my modest pretence. "what a career such a man might have!" he said. "it fills me with envy to think how i have accumulated that another man may spend---- "but there are conditions, of course, burdens to be imposed. he must, for instance, take my name. you cannot expect everything without some return. and i must go into all the circumstances of his life before i can accept him. he _must_ be sound. i must know his heredity, how his parents and grandparents died, have the strictest inquiries made into his private morals." this modified my secret congratulations a little. "and do i understand," said i, "that i----" "yes," he said, almost fiercely. "you. _you_." i answered never a word. my imagination was dancing wildly, my innate scepticism was useless to modify its transports. there was not a particle of gratitude in my mind--i did not know what to say nor how to say it. "but why me in particular?" i said at last. he had chanced to hear of me from professor haslar; he said, as a typically sound and sane young man, and he wished, as far as possible, to leave his money where health and integrity were assured. that was my first meeting with the little old man. he was mysterious about himself; he would not give his name yet, he said, and after i had answered some questions of his, he left me at the blavitiski portal. i noticed that he drew a handful of gold coins from his pocket when it came to paying for the lunch. his insistence upon bodily health was curious. in accordance with an arrangement we had made i applied that day for a life policy in the loyal insurance company for a large sum, and i was exhaustively overhauled by the medical advisers of that company in the subsequent week. even that did not satisfy him, and he insisted i must be re-examined by the great doctor henderson. it was friday in whitsun week before he came to a decision. he called me down, quite late in the evening,--nearly nine it was,--from cramming chemical equations for my preliminary scientific examination. he was standing in the passage under the feeble gas-lamp, and his face was a grotesque interplay of shadows. he seemed more bowed than when i had first seen him, and his cheeks had sunk in a little. his voice shook with emotion. "everything is satisfactory, mr. eden," he said. "everything is quite, quite satisfactory. and this night of all nights, you must dine with me and celebrate your--accession." he was interrupted by a cough. "you won't have long to wait, either," he said, wiping his handkerchief across his lips, and gripping my hand with his long bony claw that was disengaged. "certainly not very long to wait." we went into the street and called a cab. i remember every incident of that drive vividly, the swift, easy motion, the vivid contrast of gas and oil and electric light, the crowds of people in the streets, the place in regent street to which we went, and the sumptuous dinner we were served with there. i was disconcerted at first by the well-dressed waiter's glances at my rough clothes, bothered by the stones of the olives, but as the champagne warmed my blood, my confidence revived. at first the old man talked of himself. he had already told me his name in the cab; he was egbert elvesham, the great philosopher, whose name i had known since i was a lad at school. it seemed incredible to me that this man, whose intelligence had so early dominated mine, this great abstraction, should suddenly realise itself as this decrepit, familiar figure. i daresay every young fellow who has suddenly fallen among celebrities has felt something of my disappointment. he told me now of the future that the feeble streams of his life would presently leave dry for me, houses, copyrights, investments; i had never suspected that philosophers were so rich. he watched me drink and eat with a touch of envy. "what a capacity for living you have!" he said; and then with a sigh, a sigh of relief i could have thought it, "it will not be long." "ay," said i, my head swimming now with champagne; "i have a future perhaps--of a passing agreeable sort, thanks to you. i shall now have the honour of your name. but you have a past. such a past as is worth all my future." he shook his head and smiled, as i thought, with half sad appreciation of my flattering admiration. "that future," he said, "would you in truth change it?" the waiter came with liqueurs. "you will not perhaps mind taking my name, taking my position, but would you indeed--willingly--take my years?" "with your achievements," said i gallantly. he smiled again. "kummel--both," he said to the waiter, and turned his attention to a little paper packet he had taken from his pocket. "this hour," said he, "this after-dinner hour is the hour of small things. here is a scrap of my unpublished wisdom." he opened the packet with his shaking yellow fingers, and showed a little pinkish powder on the paper. "this," said he--"well, you must guess what it is. but kummel--put but a dash of this powder in it--is himmel." his large greyish eyes watched mine with an inscrutable expression. it was a bit of a shock to me to find this great teacher gave his mind to the flavour of liqueurs. however, i feigned an interest in his weakness, for i was drunk enough for such small sycophancy. he parted the powder between the little glasses, and, rising suddenly, with a strange unexpected dignity, held out his hand towards me. i imitated his action, and the glasses rang. "to a quick succession," said he, and raised his glass towards his lips. "not that," i said hastily. "not that." he paused with the liqueur at the level of his chin, and his eyes blazing into mine. "to a long life," said i. he hesitated. "to a long life," said he, with a sudden bark of laughter, and with eyes fixed on one another we tilted the little glasses. his eyes looked straight into mine, and as i drained the stuff off, i felt a curiously intense sensation. the first touch of it set my brain in a furious tumult; i seemed to feel an actual physical stirring in my skull, and a seething humming filled my ears. i did not notice the flavour in my mouth, the aroma that filled my throat; i saw only the grey intensity of his gaze that burnt into mine. the draught, the mental confusion, the noise and stirring in my head, seemed to last an interminable time. curious vague impressions of half-forgotten things danced and vanished on the edge of my consciousness. at last he broke the spell. with a sudden explosive sigh he put down his glass. "well?" he said. "it's glorious," said i, though i had not tasted the stuff. my head was spinning. i sat down. my brain was chaos. then my perception grew clear and minute as though i saw things in a concave mirror. his manner seemed to have changed into something nervous and hasty. he pulled out his watch and grimaced at it. "eleven-seven! and to-night i must-- seven-twenty-five. waterloo! i must go at once." he called for the bill, and struggled with his coat. officious waiters came to our assistance. in another moment i was wishing him good-bye, over the apron of a cab, and still with an absurd feeling of minute distinctness, as though--how can i express it?--i not only saw but _felt_ through an inverted opera-glass. "that stuff," he said. he put his hand to his forehead. "i ought not to have given it to you. it will make your head split to-morrow. wait a minute. here." he handed me out a little flat thing like a seidlitz-powder. "take that in water as you are going to bed. the other thing was a drug. not till you're ready to go to bed, mind. it will clear your head. that's all. one more shake--futurus!" i gripped his shrivelled claw. "good-bye," he said, and by the droop of his eyelids i judged he too was a little under the influence of that brain-twisting cordial. he recollected something else with a start, felt in his breast-pocket, and produced another packet, this time a cylinder the size and shape of a shaving-stick. "here," said he. "i'd almost forgotten. don't open this until i come to-morrow--but take it now." it was so heavy that i wellnigh dropped it. "all ri'!" said i, and he grinned at me through the cab window as the cabman flicked his horse into wakefulness. it was a white packet he had given me, with red seals at either end and along its edge. "if this isn't money," said i, "it's platinum or lead." i stuck it with elaborate care into my pocket, and with a whirling brain walked home through the regent street loiterers and the dark back streets beyond portland road. i remember the sensations of that walk very vividly, strange as they were. i was still so far myself that i could notice my strange mental state, and wonder whether this stuff i had had was opium--a drug beyond my experience. it is hard now to describe the peculiarity of my mental strangeness--mental doubling vaguely expresses it. as i was walking up regent street i found in my mind a queer persuasion that it was waterloo station, and had an odd impulse to get into the polytechnic as a man might get into a train. i put a knuckle in my eye, and it was regent street. how can i express it? you see a skilful actor looking quietly at you, he pulls a grimace, and lo!--another person. is it too extravagant if i tell you that it seemed to me as if regent street had, for the moment, done that? then, being persuaded it was regent street again, i was oddly muddled about some fantastic reminiscences that cropped up. "thirty years ago," thought i, "it was here that i quarrelled with my brother." then i burst out laughing, to the astonishment and encouragement of a group of night prowlers. thirty years ago i did not exist, and never in my life had i boasted a brother. the stuff was surely liquid folly, for the poignant regret for that lost brother still clung to me. along portland road the madness took another turn. i began to recall vanished shops, and to compare the street with what it used to be. confused, troubled thinking is comprehensible enough after the drink i had taken, but what puzzled me were these curiously vivid phantasm memories that had crept into my mind, and not only the memories that had crept in, but also the memories that had slipped out. i stopped opposite stevens', the natural history dealer's, and cudgelled my brains to think what he had to do with me. a 'bus went by, and sounded exactly like the rumbling of a train. i seemed to be dipping into some dark, remote pit for the recollection. "of course," said i, at last, "he has promised me three frogs to-morrow. odd i should have forgotten." do they still show children dissolving views? in those i remember one view would begin like a faint ghost, and grow and oust another. in just that way it seemed to me that a ghostly set of new sensations was struggling with those of my ordinary self. i went on through euston road to tottenham court road, puzzled, and a little frightened, and scarcely noticed the unusual way i was taking, for commonly i used to cut through the intervening network of back streets. i turned into university street, to discover that i had forgotten my number. only by a strong effort did i recall a, and even then it seemed to me that it was a thing some forgotten person had told me. i tried to steady my mind by recalling the incidents of the dinner, and for the life of me i could conjure up no picture of my host's face; i saw him only as a shadowy outline, as one might see oneself reflected in a window through which one was looking. in his place, however, i had a curious exterior vision of myself, sitting at a table, flushed, bright-eyed, and talkative. "i must take this other powder," said i. "this is getting impossible." i tried the wrong side of the hall for my candle and the matches, and had a doubt of which landing my room might be on. "i'm drunk," i said, "that's certain," and blundered needlessly on the staircase to sustain the proposition. at the first glance my room seemed unfamiliar. "what rot!" i said, and stared about me. i seemed to bring myself back by the effort, and the odd phantasmal quality passed into the concrete familiar. there was the old glass still, with my notes on the albumens stuck in the corner of the frame, my old everyday suit of clothes pitched about the floor. and yet it was not so real after all. i felt an idiotic persuasion trying to creep into my mind, as it were, that i was in a railway carriage in a train just stopping, that i was peering out of the window at some unknown station. i gripped the bed-rail firmly to reassure myself. "it's clairvoyance, perhaps," i said. "i must write to the psychical research society." i put the rouleau on my dressing-table, sat on my bed, and began to take off my boots. it was as if the picture of my present sensations was painted over some other picture that was trying to show through. "curse it!" said i; "my wits are going, or am i in two places at once?" half-undressed, i tossed the powder into a glass and drank it off. it effervesced, and became a fluorescent amber colour. before i was in bed my mind was already tranquillised. i felt the pillow at my cheek, and thereupon i must have fallen asleep. * * * * * i awoke abruptly out of a dream of strange beasts, and found myself lying on my back. probably every one knows that dismal, emotional dream from which one escapes, awake indeed, but strangely cowed. there was a curious taste in my mouth, a tired feeling in my limbs, a sense of cutaneous discomfort. i lay with my head motionless on my pillow, expecting that my feeling of strangeness and terror would pass away, and that i should then doze off again to sleep. but instead of that, my uncanny sensations increased. at first i could perceive nothing wrong about me. there was a faint light in the room, so faint that it was the very next thing to darkness, and the furniture stood out in it as vague blots of absolute darkness. i stared with my eyes just over the bedclothes. it came into my mind that some one had entered the room to rob me of my rouleau of money, but after lying for some moments, breathing regularly to simulate sleep, i realised this was mere fancy. nevertheless, the uneasy assurance of something wrong kept fast hold of me. with an effort i raised my head from the pillow, and peered about me at the dark. what it was i could not conceive. i looked at the dim shapes around me, the greater and lesser darknesses that indicated curtains, table, fireplace, bookshelves, and so forth. then i began to perceive something unfamiliar in the forms of the darkness. had the bed turned round? yonder should be the bookshelves, and something shrouded and pallid rose there, something that would not answer to the bookshelves, however i looked at it. it was far too big to be my shirt thrown on a chair. overcoming a childish terror, i threw back the bedclothes and thrust my leg out of bed. instead of coming out of my truckle-bed upon the floor, i found my foot scarcely reached the edge of the mattress. i made another step, as it were, and sat up on the edge of the bed. by the side of my bed should be the candle, and the matches upon the broken chair. i put out my hand and touched--nothing. i waved my hand in the darkness, and it came against some heavy hanging, soft and thick in texture, which gave a rustling noise at my touch. i grasped this and pulled it; it appeared to be a curtain suspended over the head of my bed. i was now thoroughly awake, and beginning to realise that i was in a strange room. i was puzzled. i tried to recall the overnight circumstances, and i found them now, curiously enough, vivid in my memory: the supper, my reception of the little packages, my wonder whether i was intoxicated, my slow undressing, the coolness to my flushed face of my pillow. i felt a sudden distrust. was that last night, or the night before? at any rate, this room was strange to me, and i could not imagine how i had got into it. the dim, pallid outline was growing paler, and i perceived it was a window, with the dark shape of an oval toilet-glass against the weak intimation of the dawn that filtered through the blind. i stood up, and was surprised by a curious feeling of weakness and unsteadiness. with trembling hands outstretched, i walked slowly towards the window, getting, nevertheless, a bruise on the knee from a chair by the way. i fumbled round the glass, which was large, with handsome brass sconces, to find the blind cord. i could not find any. by chance i took hold of the tassel, and with the click of a spring the blind ran up. i found myself looking out upon a scene that was altogether strange to me. the night was overcast, and through the flocculent grey of the heaped clouds there filtered a faint half-light of dawn. just at the edge of the sky the cloud-canopy had a blood-red rim. below, everything was dark and indistinct, dim hills in the distance, a vague mass of buildings running up into pinnacles, trees like spilt ink, and below the window a tracery of black bushes and pale grey paths. it was so unfamiliar that for the moment i thought myself still dreaming. i felt the toilet-table; it appeared to be made of some polished wood, and was rather elaborately furnished--there were little cut-glass bottles and a brush upon it. there was also a queer little object, horse-shoe shape it felt, with smooth, hard projections, lying in a saucer. i could find no matches nor candlestick. i turned my eyes to the room again. now the blind was up, faint spectres of its furnishing came out of the darkness. there was a huge curtained bed, and the fireplace at its foot had a large white mantel with something of the shimmer of marble. i leant against the toilet-table, shut my eyes and opened them again, and tried to think. the whole thing was far too real for dreaming. i was inclined to imagine there was still some hiatus in my memory, as a consequence of my draught of that strange liqueur; that i had come into my inheritance perhaps, and suddenly lost my recollection of everything since my good fortune had been announced. perhaps if i waited a little, things would be clearer to me again. yet my dinner with old elvesham was now singularly vivid and recent. the champagne, the observant waiters, the powder, and the liqueurs--i could have staked my soul it all happened a few hours ago. and then occurred a thing so trivial and yet so terrible to me that i shiver now to think of that moment. i spoke aloud. i said, "how the devil did i get here?" ... _and the voice was not my own_. it was not my own, it was thin, the articulation was slurred, the resonance of my facial bones was different. then, to reassure myself i ran one hand over the other, and felt loose folds of skin, the bony laxity of age. "surely," i said, in that horrible voice that had somehow established itself in my throat, "surely this thing is a dream!" almost as quickly as if i did it involuntarily, i thrust my fingers into my mouth. my teeth had gone. my finger-tips ran on the flaccid surface of an even row of shrivelled gums. i was sick with dismay and disgust. i felt then a passionate desire to see myself, to realise at once in its full horror the ghastly change that had come upon me. i tottered to the mantel, and felt along it for matches. as i did so, a barking cough sprang up in my throat, and i clutched the thick flannel nightdress i found about me. there were no matches there, and i suddenly realised that my extremities were cold. sniffing and coughing, whimpering a little, perhaps, i fumbled back to bed. "it is surely a dream," i whispered to myself as i clambered back, "surely a dream." it was a senile repetition. i pulled the bedclothes over my shoulders, over my ears, i thrust my withered hand under the pillow, and determined to compose myself to sleep. of course it was a dream. in the morning the dream would be over, and i should wake up strong and vigorous again to my youth and studies. i shut my eyes, breathed regularly, and, finding myself wakeful, began to count slowly through the powers of three. but the thing i desired would not come. i could not get to sleep. and the persuasion of the inexorable reality of the change that had happened to me grew steadily. presently i found myself with my eyes wide open, the powers of three forgotten, and my skinny fingers upon my shrivelled gums, i was, indeed, suddenly and abruptly, an old man. i had in some unaccountable manner fallen through my life and come to old age, in some way i had been cheated of all the best of my life, of love, of struggle, of strength, and hope. i grovelled into the pillow and tried to persuade myself that such hallucination was possible. imperceptibly, steadily, the dawn grew clearer. at last, despairing of further sleep, i sat up in bed and looked about me. a chill twilight rendered the whole chamber visible. it was spacious and well-furnished, better furnished than any room i had ever slept in before. a candle and matches became dimly visible upon a little pedestal in a recess. i threw back the bedclothes, and, shivering with the rawness of the early morning, albeit it was summer-time, i got out and lit the candle. then, trembling horribly, so that the extinguisher rattled on its spike, i tottered to the glass and saw--_elvesham's face_! it was none the less horrible because i had already dimly feared as much. he had already seemed physically weak and pitiful to me, but seen now, dressed only in a coarse flannel nightdress, that fell apart and showed the stringy neck, seen now as my own body, i cannot describe its desolate decrepitude. the hollow cheeks, the straggling tail of dirty grey hair, the rheumy bleared eyes, the quivering, shrivelled lips, the lower displaying a gleam of the pink interior lining, and those horrible dark gums showing. you who are mind and body together, at your natural years, cannot imagine what this fiendish imprisonment meant to me. to be young and full of the desire and energy of youth, and to be caught, and presently to be crushed in this tottering ruin of a body... but i wander from the course of my story. for some time i must have been stunned at this change that had come upon me. it was daylight when i did so far gather myself together as to think. in some inexplicable way i had been changed, though how, short of magic, the thing had been done, i could not say. and as i thought, the diabolical ingenuity of elvesham came home to me. it seemed plain to me that as i found myself in his, so he must be in possession of _my_ body, of my strength, that is, and my future. but how to prove it? then, as i thought, the thing became so incredible, even to me, that my mind reeled, and i had to pinch myself, to feel my toothless gums, to see myself in the glass, and touch the things about me, before i could steady myself to face the facts again. was all life hallucination? was i indeed elvesham, and he me? had i been dreaming of eden overnight? was there any eden? but if i was elvesham, i should remember where i was on the previous morning, the name of the town in which i lived, what happened before the dream began. i struggled with my thoughts. i recalled the queer doubleness of my memories overnight. but now my mind was clear. not the ghost of any memories but those proper to eden could i raise. "this way lies insanity!" i cried in my piping voice. i staggered to my feet, dragged my feeble, heavy limbs to the washhand-stand, and plunged my grey head into a basin of cold water. then, towelling myself, i tried again. it was no good. i felt beyond all question that i was indeed eden, not elvesham. but eden in elvesham's body! had i been a man of any other age, i might have given myself up to my fate as one enchanted. but in these sceptical days miracles do not pass current. here was some trick of psychology. what a drug and a steady stare could do, a drug and a steady stare, or some similar treatment, could surely undo. men have lost their memories before. but to exchange memories as one does umbrellas! i laughed. alas! not a healthy laugh, but a wheezing, senile titter. i could have fancied old elvesham laughing at my plight, and a gust of petulant anger, unusual to me, swept across my feelings. i began dressing eagerly in the clothes i found lying about on the floor, and only realised when i was dressed that it was an evening suit i had assumed. i opened the wardrobe and found some more ordinary clothes, a pair of plaid trousers, and an old-fashioned dressing-gown. i put a venerable smoking-cap on my venerable head, and, coughing a little from my exertions, tottered out upon the landing. it was then, perhaps, a quarter to six, and the blinds were closely drawn and the house quite silent. the landing was a spacious one, a broad, richly-carpeted staircase went down into the darkness of the hall below, and before me a door ajar showed me a writing-desk, a revolving bookcase, the back of a study chair, and a fine array of bound books, shelf upon shelf. "my study," i mumbled, and walked across the landing. then at the sound of my voice a thought struck me, and i went back to the bedroom and put in the set of false teeth. they slipped in with the ease of old, habit. "that's better," said i, gnashing them, and so returned to the study. the drawers of the writing-desk were locked. its revolving top was also locked. i could see no indications of the keys, and there were none in the pockets of my trousers. i shuffled back at once to the bedroom, and went through the dress suit, and afterwards the pockets of all the garments i could find. i was very eager, and one might have imagined that burglars had been at work, to see my room when i had done. not only were there no keys to be found, but not a coin, nor a scrap of paper--save only the receipted bill of the overnight dinner. a curious weariness asserted itself. i sat down and stared at the garments flung here and there, their pockets turned inside out. my first frenzy had already flickered out. every moment i was beginning to realise the immense intelligence of the plans of my enemy, to see more and more clearly the hopelessness of my position. with an effort i rose and hurried hobbling into the study again. on the staircase was a housemaid pulling up the blinds. she stared, i think, at the expression of my face. i shut the door of the study behind me, and, seizing a poker, began an attack upon the desk. that is how they found me. the cover of the desk was split, the lock smashed, the letters torn out of the pigeon-holes, and tossed about the room. in my senile rage i had flung about the pens and other such light stationery, and overturned the ink. moreover, a large vase upon the mantel had got broken--i do not know how. i could find no cheque-book, no money, no indications of the slightest use for the recovery of my body. i was battering madly at the drawers, when the butler, backed by two women-servants, intruded upon me. * * * * * that simply is the story of my change. no one will believe my frantic assertions. i am treated as one demented, and even at this moment i am under restraint. but i am sane, absolutely sane, and to prove it i have sat down to write this story minutely as the things happened to me. i appeal to the reader, whether there is any trace of insanity in the style or method, of the story he has been reading. i am a young man locked away in an old man's body. but the clear fact is incredible to everyone. naturally i appear demented to those who will not believe this, naturally i do not know the names of my secretaries, of the doctors who come to see me, of my servants and neighbours, of this town (wherever it is) where i find myself. naturally i lose myself in my own house, and suffer inconveniences of every sort. naturally i ask the oddest questions. naturally i weep and cry out, and have paroxysms of despair. i have no money and no cheque-book. the bank will not recognise my signature, for i suppose that, allowing for the feeble muscles i now have, my handwriting is still eden's. these people about me will not let me go to the bank personally. it seems, indeed, that there is no bank in this town, and that i have an account in some part of london. it seems that elvesham kept the name of his solicitor secret from all his household. i can ascertain nothing. elvesham was, of course, a profound student of mental science, and all my declarations of the facts of the case merely confirm the theory that my insanity is the outcome of overmuch brooding upon psychology. dreams of the personal identity indeed! two days ago i was a healthy youngster, with all life before me; now i am a furious old man, unkempt, and desperate, and miserable, prowling about a great, luxurious, strange house, watched, feared, and avoided as a lunatic by everyone about me. and in london is elvesham beginning life again in a vigorous body, and with all the accumulated knowledge and wisdom of threescore and ten. he has stolen my life. what has happened i do not clearly know. in the study are volumes of manuscript notes referring chiefly to the psychology of memory, and parts of what may be either calculations or ciphers in symbols absolutely strange to me. in some passages there are indications that he was also occupied with the philosophy of mathematics. i take it he has transferred the whole of his memories, the accumulation that makes up his personality, from this old withered brain of his to mine, and, similarly, that he has transferred mine to his discarded tenement. practically, that is, he has changed bodies. but how such a change may be possible is without the range of my philosophy. i have been a materialist for all my thinking life, but here, suddenly, is a clear case of man's detachability from matter. one desperate experiment i am about to try. i sit writing here before putting the matter to issue. this morning, with the help of a table-knife that i had secreted at breakfast, i succeeded in breaking open a fairly obvious secret drawer in this wrecked writing-desk. i discovered nothing save a little green glass phial containing a white powder. round the neck of the phial was a label, and thereon was written this one word, "_release_." this may be--is most probably--poison. i can understand elvesham placing poison in my way, and i should be sure that it was his intention so to get rid of the only living witness against him, were it not for this careful concealment. the man has practically solved the problem of immortality. save for the spite of chance, he will live in my body until it has aged, and then, again, throwing that aside, he will assume some other victim's youth and strength. when one remembers his heartlessness, it is terrible to think of the ever-growing experience that... how long has he been leaping from body to body?... but i tire of writing. the powder appears to be soluble in water. the taste is not unpleasant. * * * * * there the narrative found upon mr. elvesham's desk ends. his dead body lay between the desk and the chair. the latter had been pushed back, probably by his last convulsions. the story was written in pencil and in a crazy hand, quite unlike his usual minute characters. there remain only two curious facts to record. indisputably there was some connection between eden and elvesham, since the whole of elvesham's property was bequeathed to the young man. but he never inherited. when elvesham committed suicide, eden was, strangely enough, already dead. twenty-four hours before, he had been knocked down by a cab and killed instantly, at the crowded crossing at the intersection of gower street and euston road. so that the only human being who could have thrown light upon this fantastic narrative is beyond the reach of questions. without further comment i leave this extraordinary matter to the reader's individual judgment. xii. under the knife. "what if i die under it?" the thought recurred again and again, as i walked home from haddon's. it was a purely personal question. i was spared the deep anxieties of a married man, and i knew there were few of my intimate friends but would find my death troublesome chiefly on account of their duty of regret. i was surprised indeed, and perhaps a little humiliated, as i turned the matter over, to think how few could possibly exceed the conventional requirement. things came before me stripped of glamour, in a clear dry light, during that walk from haddon's house over primrose hill. there were the friends of my youth: i perceived now that our affection was a tradition, which we foregathered rather laboriously to maintain. there were the rivals and helpers of my later career: i suppose i had been cold-blooded or undemonstrative--one perhaps implies the other. it may be that even the capacity for friendship is a question of physique. there had been a time in my own life when i had grieved bitterly enough at the loss of a friend; but as i walked home that afternoon the emotional side of my imagination was dormant. i could not pity myself, nor feel sorry for my friends, nor conceive of them as grieving for me. i was interested in this deadness of my emotional nature--no doubt a concomitant of my stagnating physiology; and my thoughts wandered off along the line it suggested. once before, in my hot youth, i had suffered a sudden loss of blood, and had been within an ace of death. i remembered now that my affections as well as my passions had drained out of me, leaving scarce anything but a tranquil resignation, a dreg of self-pity. it had been weeks before the old ambitions and tendernesses and all the complex moral interplay of a man had reasserted themselves. it occurred to me that the real meaning of this numbness might be a gradual slipping away from the pleasure-pain guidance of the animal man. it has been proven, i take it, as thoroughly as anything can be proven in this world, that the higher emotions, the moral feelings, even the subtle unselfishness of love, are evolved from the elemental desires and fears of the simple animal: they are the harness in which man's mental freedom goes. and it may be that as death overshadows us, as our possibility of acting diminishes, this complex growth of balanced impulse, propensity and aversion, whose interplay inspires our acts, goes with it. leaving what? i was suddenly brought back to reality by an imminent collision with the butcher-boy's tray. i found that i was crossing the bridge over the regent's park canal, which runs parallel with that in the zoological gardens. the boy in blue had been looking over his shoulder at a black barge advancing slowly, towed by a gaunt white horse. in the gardens a nurse was leading three happy little children over the bridge. the trees were bright green; the spring hopefulness was still unstained by the dusts of summer; the sky in the water was bright and clear, but broken by long waves, by quivering bands of black, as the barge drove through. the breeze was stirring; but it did not stir me as the spring breeze used to do. was this dulness of feeling in itself an anticipation? it was curious that i could reason and follow out a network of suggestion as clearly as ever: so, at least, it seemed to me. it was calmness rather than dulness that was coming upon me. was there any ground for the relief in the presentiment of death? did a man near to death begin instinctively to withdraw himself from the meshes of matter and sense, even before the cold hand was laid upon his? i felt strangely isolated--isolated without regret--from the life and existence about me. the children playing in the sun and gathering strength and experience for the business of life, the park-keeper gossiping with a nursemaid, the nursing mother, the young couple intent upon each other as they passed me, the trees by the wayside spreading new pleading leaves to the sunlight, the stir in their branches--i had been part of it all, but i had nearly done with it now. some way down the broad walk i perceived that i was tired, and that my feet were heavy. it was hot that afternoon, and i turned aside and sat down on one of the green chairs that line the way. in a minute i had dozed into a dream, and the tide of my thoughts washed up a vision of the resurrection. i was still sitting in the chair, but i thought myself actually dead, withered, tattered, dried, one eye (i saw) pecked out by birds. "awake!" cried a voice; and incontinently the dust of the path and the mould under the grass became insurgent. i had never before thought of regent's park as a cemetery, but now, through the trees, stretching as far as eye could see, i beheld a flat plain of writhing graves and heeling tombstones. there seemed to be some trouble: the rising dead appeared to stifle as they struggled upward, they bled in their struggles, the red flesh was torn away from the white bones. "awake!" cried a voice; but i determined i would not rise to such horrors. "awake!" they would not let me alone. "wake up!" said an angry voice. a cockney angel! the man who sells the tickets was shaking me, demanding my penny. i paid my penny, pocketed my ticket, yawned, stretched my legs, and, feeling now rather less torpid, got up and walked on towards langham place. i speedily lost myself again in a shifting maze of thoughts about death. going across marylebone road into that crescent at the end of langham place, i had the narrowest escape from the shaft of a cab, and went on my way with a palpitating heart and a bruised shoulder. it struck me that it would have been curious if my meditations on my death on the morrow had led to my death that day. but i will not weary you with more of my experiences that day and the next. i knew more and more certainly that i should die under the operation; at times i think i was inclined to pose to myself. the doctors were coming at eleven, and i did not get up. it seemed scarce worth while to trouble about washing and dressing, and though i read my newspapers and the letters that came by the first post, i did not find them very interesting. there was a friendly note from addison, my old school-friend, calling my attention to two discrepancies and a printer's error in my new book, with one from langridge venting some vexation over minton. the rest were business communications. i breakfasted in bed. the glow of pain at my side seemed more massive. i knew it was pain, and yet, if you can understand, i did not find it very painful. i had been awake and hot and thirsty in the night, but in the morning bed felt comfortable. in the night-time i had lain thinking of things that were past; in the morning i dozed over the question of immortality. haddon came, punctual to the minute, with a neat black bag; and mowbray soon followed. their arrival stirred me up a little. i began to take a more personal interest in the proceedings. haddon moved the little octagonal table close to the bedside, and, with his broad back to me, began taking things out of his bag. i heard the light click of steel upon steel. my imagination, i found, was not altogether stagnant. "will you hurt me much?" i said in an off-hand tone. "not a bit," haddon answered over his shoulder. "we shall chloroform you. your heart's as sound as a bell." and as he spoke, i had a whiff of the pungent sweetness of the anaesthetic. they stretched me out, with a convenient exposure of my side, and, almost before i realised what was happening, the chloroform was being administered. it stings the nostrils, and there is a suffocating sensation at first. i knew i should die--that this was the end of consciousness for me. and suddenly i felt that i was not prepared for death: i had a vague sense of a duty overlooked--i knew not what. what was it i had not done? i could think of nothing more to do, nothing desirable left in life; and yet i had the strangest disinclination to death. and the physical sensation was painfully oppressive. of course the doctors did not know they were going to kill me. possibly i struggled. then i fell motionless, and a great silence, a monstrous silence, and an impenetrable blackness came upon me. there must have been an interval of absolute unconsciousness, seconds or minutes. then with a chilly, unemotional clearness, i perceived that i was not yet dead. i was still in my body; but all the multitudinous sensations that come sweeping from it to make up the background of consciousness had gone, leaving me free of it all. no, not free of it all; for as yet something still held me to the poor stark flesh upon the bed--held me, yet not so closely that i did not feel myself external to it, independent of it, straining away from it. i do not think i saw, i do not think i heard; but i perceived all that was going on, and it was as if i both heard and saw. haddon was bending over me, mowbray behind me; the scalpel--it was a large scalpel--was cutting my flesh at the side under the flying ribs. it was interesting to see myself cut like cheese, without a pang, without even a qualm. the interest was much of a quality with that one might feel in a game of chess between strangers. haddon's face was firm and his hand steady; but i was surprised to perceive (_how_ i know not) that he was feeling the gravest doubt as to his own wisdom in the conduct of the operation. mowbray's thoughts, too, i could see. he was thinking that haddon's manner showed too much of the specialist. new suggestions came up like bubbles through a stream of frothing meditation, and burst one after another in the little bright spot of his consciousness. he could not help noticing and admiring haddon's swift dexterity, in spite of his envious quality and his disposition to detract. i saw my liver exposed. i was puzzled at my own condition. i did not feel that i was dead, but i was different in some way from my living self. the grey depression, that had weighed on me for a year or more and coloured all my thoughts, was gone. i perceived and thought without any emotional tint at all. i wondered if everyone perceived things in this way under chloroform, and forgot it again when he came out of it. it would be inconvenient to look into some heads, and not forget. although i did not think that i was dead, i still perceived quite clearly that i was soon to die. this brought me back to the consideration of haddon's proceedings. i looked into his mind, and saw that he was afraid of cutting a branch of the portal vein. my attention was distracted from details by the curious changes going on in his mind. his consciousness was like the quivering little spot of light which is thrown by the mirror of a galvanometer. his thoughts ran under it like a stream, some through the focus bright and distinct, some shadowy in the half-light of the edge. just now the little glow was steady; but the least movement on mowbray's part, the slightest sound from outside, even a faint difference in the slow movement of the living flesh he was cutting, set the light-spot shivering and spinning. a new sense-impression came rushing up through the flow of thoughts; and lo! the light-spot jerked away towards it, swifter than a frightened fish. it was wonderful to think that upon that unstable, fitful thing depended all the complex motions of the man; that for the next five minutes, therefore, my life hung upon its movements. and he was growing more and more nervous in his work. it was as if a little picture of a cut vein grew brighter, and struggled to oust from his brain another picture of a cut falling short of the mark. he was afraid: his dread of cutting too little was battling with his dread of cutting too far. then, suddenly, like an escape of water from under a lock-gate, a great uprush of horrible realisation set all his thoughts swirling, and simultaneously i perceived that the vein was cut. he started back with a hoarse exclamation, and i saw the brown-purple blood gather in a swift bead, and run trickling. he was horrified. he pitched the red-stained scalpel on to the octagonal table; and instantly both doctors flung themselves upon me, making hasty and ill-conceived efforts to remedy the disaster. "ice!" said mowbray, gasping. but i knew that i was killed, though my body still clung to me. i will not describe their belated endeavours to save me, though i perceived every detail. my perceptions were sharper and swifter than they had ever been in life; my thoughts rushed through my mind with incredible swiftness, but with perfect definition. i can only compare their crowded clarity to the effects of a reasonable dose of opium. in a moment it would all be over, and i should be free. i knew i was immortal, but what would happen i did not know. should i drift off presently, like a puff of smoke from a gun, in some kind of half-material body, an attenuated version of my material self? should i find myself suddenly among the innumerable hosts of the dead, and know the world about me for the phantasmagoria it had always seemed? should i drift to some spiritualistic _séance_, and there make foolish, incomprehensible attempts to affect a purblind medium? it was a state of unemotional curiosity, of colourless expectation. and then i realised a growing stress upon me, a feeling as though some huge human magnet was drawing me upward out of my body. the stress grew and grew. i seemed an atom for which monstrous forces were fighting. for one brief, terrible moment sensation came back to me. that feeling of falling headlong which comes in nightmares, that feeling a thousand times intensified, that and a black horror swept across my thoughts in a torrent. then the two doctors, the naked body with its cut side, the little room, swept away from under me and vanished, as a speck of foam vanishes down an eddy. i was in mid-air. far below was the west end of london, receding rapidly,--for i seemed to be flying swiftly upward,--and as it receded, passing westward like a panorama. i could see, through the faint haze of smoke, the innumerable roofs chimney-set, the narrow roadways, stippled with people and conveyances, the little specks of squares, and the church steeples like thorns sticking out of the fabric. but it spun away as the earth rotated on its axis, and in a few seconds (as it seemed) i was over the scattered clumps of town about ealing, the little thames a thread of blue to the south, and the chiltern hills and the north downs coming up like the rim of a basin, far away and faint with haze. up i rushed. and at first i had not the faintest conception what this headlong rush upward could mean. every moment the circle of scenery beneath me grew wider and wider, and the details of town and field, of hill and valley, got more and more hazy and pale and indistinct, a luminous grey was mingled more and more with the blue of the hills and the green of the open meadows; and a little patch of cloud, low and far to the west, shone ever more dazzlingly white. above, as the veil of atmosphere between myself and outer space grew thinner, the sky, which had been a fair springtime blue at first, grew deeper and richer in colour, passing steadily through the intervening shades, until presently it was as dark as the blue sky of midnight, and presently as black as the blackness of a frosty starlight, and at last as black as no blackness i had ever beheld. and first one star, and then many, and at last an innumerable host broke out upon the sky: more stars than anyone has ever seen from the face of the earth. for the blueness of the sky in the light of the sun and stars sifted and spread abroad blindingly: there is diffused light even in the darkest skies of winter, and we do not see the stars by day only because of the dazzling irradiation of the sun. but now i saw things--i know not how; assuredly with no mortal eyes--and that defect of bedazzlement blinded me no longer. the sun was incredibly strange and wonderful. the body of it was a disc of blinding white light: not yellowish, as it seems to those who live upon the earth, but livid white, all streaked with scarlet streaks and rimmed about with a fringe of writhing tongues of red fire. and shooting half-way across the heavens from either side of it and brighter than the milky way, were two pinions of silver white, making it look more like those winged globes i have seen in egyptian sculpture than anything else i can remember upon earth. these i knew for the solar corona, though i had never seen anything of it but a picture during the days of my earthly life. when my attention came back to the earth again, i saw that it had fallen very far away from me. field and town were long since indistinguishable, and all the varied hues of the country were merging into a uniform bright grey, broken only by the brilliant white of the clouds that lay scattered in flocculent masses over ireland and the west of england. for now i could see the outlines of the north of france and ireland, and all this island of britain, save where scotland passed over the horizon to the north, or where the coast was blurred or obliterated by cloud. the sea was a dull grey, and darker than the land; and the whole panorama was rotating slowly towards the east. all this had happened so swiftly that until i was some thousand miles or so from the earth i had no thought for myself. but now i perceived i had neither hands nor feet, neither parts nor organs, and that i felt neither alarm nor pain. all about me i perceived that the vacancy (for i had already left the air behind) was cold beyond the imagination of man; but it troubled me not. the sun's rays shot through the void, powerless to light or heat until they should strike on matter in their course. i saw things with a serene self-forgetfulness, even as if i were god. and down below there, rushing away from me,--countless miles in a second,--where a little dark spot on the grey marked the position of london, two doctors were struggling to restore life to the poor hacked and outworn shell i had abandoned. i felt then such release, such serenity as i can compare to no mortal delight i have ever known. it was only after i had perceived all these things that the meaning of that headlong rush of the earth grew into comprehension. yet it was so simple, so obvious, that i was amazed at my never anticipating the thing that was happening to me. i had suddenly been cut adrift from matter: all that was material of me was there upon earth, whirling away through space, held to the earth by gravitation, partaking of the earth-inertia, moving in its wreath of epicycles round the sun, and with the sun and the planets on their vast march through space. but the immaterial has no inertia, feels nothing of the pull of matter for matter: where it parts from its garment of flesh, there it remains (so far as space concerns it any longer) immovable in space. _i_ was not leaving the earth: the earth was leaving _me_, and not only the earth but the whole solar system was streaming past. and about me in space, invisible to me, scattered in the wake of the earth upon its journey, there must be an innumerable multitude of souls, stripped like myself of the material, stripped like myself of the passions of the individual and the generous emotions of the gregarious brute, naked intelligences, things of new-born wonder and thought, marvelling at the strange release that had suddenly come on them! as i receded faster and faster from the strange white sun in the black heavens, and from the broad and shining earth upon which my being had begun, i seemed to grow in some incredible manner vast: vast as regards this world i had left, vast as regards the moments and periods of a human life. very soon i saw the full circle of the earth, slightly gibbous, like the moon when she nears her full, but very large; and the silvery shape of america was now in the noonday blaze wherein (as it seemed) little england had been basking but a few minutes ago. at first the earth was large, and shone in the heavens, filling a great part of them; but every moment she grew smaller and more distant. as she shrank, the broad moon in its third quarter crept into view over the rim of her disc. i looked for the constellations. only that part of aries directly behind the sun and the lion, which the earth covered, were hidden. i recognised the tortuous, tattered band of the milky way with vega very bright between sun and earth; and sirius and orion shone splendid against the unfathomable blackness in the opposite quarter of the heavens. the pole star was overhead, and the great bear hung over the circle of the earth. and away beneath and beyond the shining corona of the sun were strange groupings of stars i had never seen in my life--notably a dagger-shaped group that i knew for the southern cross. all these were no larger than when they had shone on earth, but the little stars that one scarce sees shone now against the setting of black vacancy as brightly as the first-magnitudes had done, while the larger worlds were points of indescribable glory and colour. aldebaran was a spot of blood-red fire, and sirius condensed to one point the light of innumerable sapphires. and they shone steadily: they did not scintillate, they were calmly glorious. my impressions had an adamantine hardness and brightness: there was no blurring softness, no atmosphere, nothing but infinite darkness set with the myriads of these acute and brilliant points and specks of light. presently, when i looked again, the little earth seemed no bigger than the sun, and it dwindled and turned as i looked, until in a second's space (as it seemed to me), it was halved; and so it went on swiftly dwindling. far away in the opposite direction, a little pinkish pin's head of light, shining steadily, was the planet mars. i swam motionless in vacancy, and, without a trace of terror or astonishment, watched the speck of cosmic dust we call the world fall away from me. presently it dawned upon me that my sense of duration had changed; that my mind was moving not faster but infinitely slower, that between each separate impression there was a period of many days. the moon spun once round the earth as i noted this; and i perceived clearly the motion of mars in his orbit. moreover, it appeared as if the time between thought and thought grew steadily greater, until at last a thousand years was but a moment in my perception. at first the constellations had shone motionless against the black background of infinite space; but presently it seemed as though the group of stars about hercules and the scorpion was contracting, while orion and aldebaran and their neighbours were scattering apart. flashing suddenly out of the darkness there came a flying multitude of particles of rock, glittering like dust-specks in a sunbeam, and encompassed in a faintly luminous cloud. they swirled all about me, and vanished again in a twinkling far behind. and then i saw that a bright spot of light, that shone a little to one side of my path, was growing very rapidly larger, and perceived that it was the planet saturn rushing towards me. larger and larger it grew, swallowing up the heavens behind it, and hiding every moment a fresh multitude, of stars. i perceived its flattened, whirling body, its disc-like belt, and seven of its little satellites. it grew and grew, till it towered enormous; and then i plunged amid a streaming multitude of clashing stones and dancing dust-particles and gas-eddies, and saw for a moment the mighty triple belt like three concentric arches of moonlight above me, its shadow black on the boiling tumult below. these things happened in one-tenth of the time it takes to tell them. the planet went by like a flash of lightning; for a few seconds it blotted out the sun, and there and then became a mere black, dwindling, winged patch against the light. the earth, the mother mote of my being, i could no longer see. so with a stately swiftness, in the profoundest silence, the solar system fell from me as it had been a garment, until the sun was a mere star amid the multitude of stars, with its eddy of planet-specks lost in the confused glittering of the remoter light. i was no longer a denizen of the solar system: i had come to the outer universe, i seemed to grasp and comprehend the whole world of matter. ever more swiftly the stars closed in about the spot where antares and vega had vanished in a phosphorescent haze, until that part of the sky had the semblance of a whirling mass of nebulae, and ever before me yawned vaster gaps of vacant blackness, and the stars shone fewer and fewer. it seemed as if i moved towards a point between orion's belt and sword; and the void about that region opened vaster and vaster every second, an incredible gulf of nothingness into which i was falling. faster and ever faster the universe rushed by, a hurry of whirling motes at last, speeding silently into the void. stars glowing brighter and brighter, with their circling planets catching the light in a ghostly fashion as i neared them, shone out and vanished again into inexistence; faint comets, clusters of meteorites, winking specks of matter, eddying light-points, whizzed past, some perhaps a hundred millions of miles or so from me at most, few nearer, travelling with unimaginable rapidity, shooting constellations, momentary darts of fire, through that black, enormous night. more than anything else it was like a dusty draught, sunbeam-lit. broader and wider and deeper grew the starless space, the vacant beyond, into which i was being drawn. at last a quarter of the heavens was black and blank, and the whole headlong rush of stellar universe closed in behind me like a veil of light that is gathered together. it drove away from me like a monstrous jack-o'-lantern driven by the wind. i had come out into the wilderness of space. ever the vacant blackness grew broader, until the hosts of the stars seemed only like a swarm of fiery specks hurrying away from me, inconceivably remote, and the darkness, the nothingness and emptiness, was about me on every side. soon the little universe of matter, the cage of points in which i had begun to be, was dwindling, now to a whirling disc of luminous glittering, and now to one minute disc of hazy light. in a little while it would shrink to a point, and at last would vanish altogether. suddenly feeling came back to me--feeling in the shape of overwhelming terror; such a dread of those dark vastitudes as no words can describe, a passionate resurgence of sympathy and social desire. were there other souls, invisible to me as i to them, about me in the blackness? or was i indeed, even as i felt, alone? had i passed out of being into something that was neither being nor not-being? the covering of the body, the covering of matter, had been torn from me, and the hallucinations of companionship and security. everything was black and silent. i had ceased to be. i was nothing. there was nothing, save only that infinitesimal dot of light that dwindled in the gulf. i strained myself to hear and see, and for a while there was naught but infinite silence, intolerable darkness, horror, and despair. then i saw that about the spot of light into which the whole world of matter had shrunk there was a faint glow. and in a band on either side of that the darkness was not absolute. i watched it for ages, as it seemed to me, and through the long waiting the haze grew imperceptibly more distinct. and then about the band appeared an irregular cloud of the faintest, palest brown. i felt a passionate impatience; but the things grew brighter so slowly that they scarce seemed to change. what was unfolding itself? what was this strange reddish dawn in the interminable night of space? the cloud's shape was grotesque. it seemed to be looped along its lower side into four projecting masses, and, above, it ended in a straight line. what phantom was it? i felt assured i had seen that figure before; but i could not think what, nor where, nor when it was. then the realisation rushed upon me. _it was a clenched hand._ i was alone in space, alone with this huge, shadowy hand, upon which the whole universe of matter lay like an unconsidered speck of dust. it seemed as though i watched it through vast periods of time. on the forefinger glittered a ring; and the universe from which i had come was but a spot of light upon the ring's curvature. and the thing that the hand gripped had the likeness of a black rod. through a long eternity i watched this hand, with the ring and the rod, marvelling and fearing and waiting helplessly on what might follow. it seemed as though nothing could follow: that i should watch for ever, seeing only the hand and the thing it held, and understanding nothing of its import. was the whole universe but a refracting speck upon some greater being? were our worlds but the atoms of another universe, and those again of another, and so on through an endless progression? and what was i? was i indeed immaterial? a vague persuasion of a body gathering about me came into my suspense. the abysmal darkness about the hand filled with impalpable suggestions, with uncertain, fluctuating shapes. then, suddenly, came a sound, like the sound of a tolling bell: faint, as if infinitely far; muffled, as though heard through thick swathings of darkness: a deep, vibrating resonance, with vast gulfs of silence between each stroke. and the hand appeared to tighten on the rod. and i saw far above the hand, towards the apex of the darkness, a circle of dim phosphorescence, a ghostly sphere whence these sounds came throbbing; and at the last stroke the hand vanished, for the hour had come, and i heard a noise of many waters. but the black rod remained as a great band across the sky. and then a voice, which seemed to run to the uttermost parts of space, spoke, saying, "there will be no more pain." at that an almost intolerable gladness and radiance rushed in upon me, and i saw the circle shining white and bright, and the rod black and shining, and many things else distinct and clear. and the circle was the face of the clock, and the rod the rail of my bed. haddon was standing at the foot, against the rail, with a small pair of scissors on his fingers; and the hands of my clock on the mantel over his shoulder were clasped together over the hour of twelve. mowbray was washing something in a basin at the octagonal table, and at my side i felt a subdued feeling that could scarce be spoken of as pain. the operation had not killed me. and i perceived, suddenly, that the dull melancholy of half a year was lifted from my mind. xiii. the sea raiders. i. until the extraordinary affair at sidmouth, the peculiar species _haploteuthis ferox_ was known to science only generically, on the strength of a half-digested tentacle obtained near the azores, and a decaying body pecked by birds and nibbled by fish, found early in by mr. jennings, near land's end. in no department of zoological science, indeed, are we quite so much in the dark as with regard to the deep-sea cephalopods. a mere accident, for instance, it was that led to the prince of monaco's discovery of nearly a dozen new forms in the summer of , a discovery in which the before-mentioned tentacle was included. it chanced that a cachalot was killed off terceira by some sperm whalers, and in its last struggles charged almost to the prince's yacht, missed it, rolled under, and died within twenty yards of his rudder. and in its agony it threw up a number of large objects, which the prince, dimly perceiving they were strange and important, was, by a happy expedient, able to secure before they sank. he set his screws in motion, and kept them circling in the vortices thus created until a boat could be lowered. and these specimens were whole cephalopods and fragments of cephalopods, some of gigantic proportions, and almost all of them unknown to science! it would seem, indeed, that these large and agile creatures, living in the middle depths of the sea, must, to a large extent, for ever remain unknown to us, since under water they are too nimble for nets, and it is only by such rare, unlooked-for accidents that specimens can be obtained. in the case of _haploteuthis ferox_, for instance, we are still altogether ignorant of its habitat, as ignorant as we are of the breeding-ground of the herring or the sea-ways of the salmon. and zoologists are altogether at a loss to account for its sudden appearance on our coast. possibly it was the stress of a hunger migration that drove it hither out of the deep. but it will be, perhaps, better to avoid necessarily inconclusive discussion, and to proceed at once with our narrative. the first human being to set eyes upon a living _haploteuthis_--the first human being to survive, that is, for there can be little doubt now that the wave of bathing fatalities and boating accidents that travelled along the coast of cornwall and devon in early may was due to this cause--was a retired tea-dealer of the name of fison, who was stopping at a sidmouth boarding-house. it was in the afternoon, and he was walking along the cliff path between sidmouth and ladram bay. the cliffs in this direction are very high, but down the red face of them in one place a kind of ladder staircase has been made. he was near this when his attention was attracted by what at first he thought to be a cluster of birds struggling over a fragment of food that caught the sunlight, and glistened pinkish-white. the tide was right out, and this object was not only far below him, but remote across a broad waste of rock reefs covered with dark seaweed and interspersed with silvery shining tidal pools. and he was, moreover, dazzled by the brightness of the further water. in a minute, regarding this again, he perceived that his judgment was in fault, for over this struggle circled a number of birds, jackdaws and gulls for the most part, the latter gleaming blindingly when the sunlight smote their wings, and they seemed minute in comparison with it. and his curiosity was, perhaps, aroused all the more strongly because of his first insufficient explanations. as he had nothing better to do than amuse himself, he decided to make this object, whatever it was, the goal of his afternoon walk, instead of ladram bay, conceiving it might perhaps be a great fish of some sort, stranded by some chance, and flapping about in its distress. and so he hurried down the long steep ladder, stopping at intervals of thirty feet or so to take breath and scan the mysterious movement. at the foot of the cliff he was, of course, nearer his object than he had been; but, on the other hand, it now came up against the incandescent sky, beneath the sun, so as to seem dark and indistinct. whatever was pinkish of it was now hidden by a skerry of weedy boulders. but he perceived that it was made up of seven rounded bodies distinct or connected, and that the birds kept up a constant croaking and screaming, but seemed afraid to approach it too closely. mr. fison, torn by curiosity, began picking his way across the wave-worn rocks, and finding the wet seaweed that covered them thickly rendered them extremely slippery, he stopped, removed his shoes and socks, and rolled his trousers above his knees. his object was, of course, merely to avoid stumbling into the rocky pools about him, and perhaps he was rather glad, as all men are, of an excuse to resume, even for a moment, the sensations of his boyhood. at any rate, it is to this, no doubt, that he owes his life. he approached his mark with all the assurance which the absolute security of this country against all forms of animal life gives its inhabitants. the round bodies moved to and fro, but it was only when he surmounted the skerry of boulders i have mentioned that he realised the horrible nature of the discovery. it came upon him with some suddenness. the rounded bodies fell apart as he came into sight over the ridge, and displayed the pinkish object to be the partially devoured body of a human being, but whether of a man or woman he was unable to say. and the rounded bodies were new and ghastly-looking creatures, in shape somewhat resembling an octopus, with huge and very long and flexible tentacles, coiled copiously on the ground. the skin had a glistening texture, unpleasant to see, like shiny leather. the downward bend of the tentacle-surrounded mouth, the curious excrescence at the bend, the tentacles, and the large intelligent eyes, gave the creatures a grotesque suggestion of a face. they were the size of a fair-sized swine about the body, and the tentacles seemed to him to be many feet in length. there were, he thinks, seven or eight at least of the creatures. twenty yards beyond them, amid the surf of the now returning tide, two others were emerging from the sea. their bodies lay flatly on the rocks, and their eyes regarded him with evil interest; but it does not appear that mr. fison was afraid, or that he realised that he was in any danger. possibly his confidence is to be ascribed to the limpness of their attitudes. but he was horrified, of course, and intensely excited and indignant, at such revolting creatures preying upon human flesh. he thought they had chanced upon a drowned body. he shouted to them, with the idea of driving them off, and finding they did not budge, cast about him, picked up a big rounded lump of rock, and flung it at one. and then, slowly uncoiling their tentacles, they all began moving towards him--creeping at first deliberately, and making a soft purring sound to each other. in a moment mr. fison realised that he was in danger. he shouted again, threw both his boots, and started off, with a leap, forthwith. twenty yards off he stopped and faced about, judging them slow, and behold! the tentacles of their leader were already pouring over the rocky ridge on which he had just been standing! at that he shouted again, but this time not threatening, but a cry of dismay, and began jumping, striding, slipping, wading across the uneven expanse between him and the beach. the tall red cliffs seemed suddenly at a vast distance, and he saw, as though they were creatures in another world, two minute workmen engaged in the repair of the ladder-way, and little suspecting the race for life that was beginning below them. at one time he could hear the creatures splashing in the pools not a dozen feet behind him, and once he slipped and almost fell. they chased him to the very foot of the cliffs, and desisted only when he had been joined by the workmen at the foot of the ladder-way up the cliff. all three of the men pelted them with stones for a time, and then hurried to the cliff top and along the path towards sidmouth, to secure assistance and a boat, and to rescue the desecrated body from the clutches of these abominable creatures. ii. and, as if he had not already been in sufficient peril that day, mr. fison went with the boat to point out the exact spot of his adventure. as the tide was down, it required a considerable detour to reach the spot, and when at last they came off the ladder-way, the mangled body had disappeared. the water was now running in, submerging first one slab of slimy rock and then another, and the four men in the boat--the workmen, that is, the boatman, and mr. fison--now turned their attention from the bearings off shore to the water beneath the keel. at first they could see little below them, save a dark jungle of laminaria, with an occasional darting fish. their minds were set on adventure, and they expressed their disappointment freely. but presently they saw one of the monsters swimming through the water seaward, with a curious rolling motion that suggested to mr. fison the spinning roll of a captive balloon. almost immediately after, the waving streamers of laminaria were extraordinarily perturbed, parted for a moment, and three of these beasts became darkly visible, struggling for what was probably some fragment of the drowned man. in a moment the copious olive-green ribbons had poured again over this writhing group. at that all four men, greatly excited, began beating the water with oars and shouting, and immediately they saw a tumultuous movement among the weeds. they desisted to see more clearly, and as soon as the water was smooth, they saw, as it seemed to them, the whole sea bottom among the weeds set with eyes. "ugly swine!" cried one of the men. "why, there's dozens!" and forthwith the things began to rise through the water about them. mr. fison has since described to the writer this startling eruption out of the waving laminaria meadows. to him it seemed to occupy a considerable time, but it is probable that really it was an affair of a few seconds only. for a time nothing but eyes, and then he speaks of tentacles streaming out and parting the weed fronds this way and that. then these things, growing larger, until at last the bottom was hidden by their intercoiling forms, and the tips of tentacles rose darkly here and there into the air above the swell of the waters. one came up boldly to the side of the boat, and clinging to this with three of its sucker-set tentacles, threw four others over the gunwale, as if with an intention either of oversetting the boat or of clambering into it. mr. fison at once caught up the boat-hook, and, jabbing furiously at the soft tentacles, forced it to desist. he was struck in the back and almost pitched overboard by the boatman, who was using his oar to resist a similar attack on the other side of the boat. but the tentacles on either side at once relaxed their hold, slid out of sight, and splashed into the water. "we'd better get out of this," said mr. fison, who was trembling violently. he went to the tiller, while the boatman and one of the workmen seated themselves and began rowing. the other workman stood up in the fore part of the boat, with the boat-hook, ready to strike any more tentacles that might appear. nothing else seems to have been said. mr. fison had expressed the common feeling beyond amendment. in a hushed, scared mood, with faces white and drawn, they set about escaping from the position into which they had so recklessly blundered. but the oars had scarcely dropped into the water before dark, tapering, serpentine ropes had bound them, and were about the rudder; and creeping up the sides of the boat with a looping motion came the suckers again. the men gripped their oars and pulled, but it was like trying to move a boat in a floating raft of weeds. "help here!" cried the boatman, and mr. fison and the second workman rushed to help lug at the oar. then the man with the boat-hook--his name was ewan, or ewen--sprang up with a curse and began striking downward over the side, as far as he could reach, at the bank of tentacles that now clustered along the boat's bottom. and, at the same time, the two rowers stood up to get a better purchase for the recovery of their oars. the boatman handed his to mr. fison, who lugged desperately, and, meanwhile, the boatman opened a big clasp-knife, and leaning over the side of the boat, began hacking at the spiring arms upon the oar shaft. mr. fison, staggering with the quivering rocking of the boat, his teeth set, his breath coming short, and the veins starting on his hands as he pulled at his oar, suddenly cast his eyes seaward. and there, not fifty yards off, across the long rollers of the incoming tide, was a large boat standing in towards them, with three women and a little child in it. a boatman was rowing, and a little man in a pink-ribboned straw hat and whites stood in the stern hailing them. for a moment, of course, mr. fison thought of help, and then he thought of the child. he abandoned his oar forthwith, threw up his arms in a frantic gesture, and screamed to the party in the boat to keep away "for god's sake!" it says much for the modesty and courage of mr. fison that he does not seem to be aware that there was any quality of heroism in his action at this juncture. the oar he had abandoned was at once drawn under, and presently reappeared floating about twenty yards away. at the same moment mr. fison felt the boat under him lurch violently, and a hoarse scream, a prolonged cry of terror from hill, the boatman, caused him to forget the party of excursionists altogether. he turned, and saw hill crouching by the forward row-lock, his face convulsed with terror, and his right arm over the side and drawn tightly down. he gave now a succession of short, sharp cries, "oh! oh! oh!--oh!" mr. fison believes that he must have been hacking at the tentacles below the water-line, and have been grasped by them, but, of course, it is quite impossible to say now certainly what had happened. the boat was heeling over, so that the gunwale was within ten inches of the water, and both ewan and the other labourer were striking down into the water, with oar and boat-hook, on either side of hill's arm. mr. fison instinctively placed himself to counterpoise them. then hill, who was a burly, powerful man, made a strenuous effort, and rose almost to a standing position. he lifted his arm, indeed, clean out of the water. hanging to it was a complicated tangle of brown ropes, and the eyes of one of the brutes that had hold of him, glaring straight and resolute, showed momentarily above the surface. the boat heeled more and more, and the green-brown water came pouring in a cascade over the side. then hill slipped and fell with his ribs across the side, and his arm and the mass of tentacles about it splashed back into the water. he rolled over; his boot kicked mr. fison's knee as that gentleman rushed forward to seize him, and in another moment fresh tentacles had whipped about his waist and neck, and after a brief, convulsive struggle, in which the boat was nearly capsized, hill was lugged overboard. the boat righted with a violent jerk that all but sent mr. fison over the other side, and hid the struggle in the water from his eyes. he stood staggering to recover his balance for a moment, and as he did so he became aware that the struggle and the inflowing tide had carried them close upon the weedy rocks again. not four yards off a table of rock still rose in rhythmic movements above the in-wash of the tide. in a moment mr. fison seized the oar from ewan, gave one vigorous stroke, then dropping it, ran to the bows and leapt. he felt his feet slide over the rock, and, by a frantic effort, leapt again towards a further mass. he stumbled over this, came to his knees, and rose again. "look out!" cried someone, and a large drab body struck him. he was knocked flat into a tidal pool by one of the workmen, and as he went down he heard smothered, choking cries, that he believed at the time came from hill. then he found himself marvelling at the shrillness and variety of hill's voice. someone jumped over him, and a curving rush of foamy water poured over him, and passed. he scrambled to his feet dripping, and without looking seaward, ran as fast as his terror would let him shoreward. before him, over the flat space of scattered rocks, stumbled the two work-men--one a dozen yards in front of the other. he looked over his shoulder at last, and seeing that he was not pursued, faced about. he was astonished. from the moment of the rising of the cephalopods out of the water he had been acting too swiftly to fully comprehend his actions. now it seemed to him as if he had suddenly jumped out of an evil dream. for there were the sky, cloudless and blazing with the afternoon sun, the sea weltering under its pitiless brightness, the soft creamy foam of the breaking water, and the low, long, dark ridges of rock. the righted boat floated, rising and falling gently on the swell about a dozen yards from shore. hill and the monsters, all the stress and tumult of that fierce fight for life, had vanished as though they had never been. mr. fison's heart was beating violently; he was throbbing to the finger-tips, and his breath came deep. there was something missing. for some seconds he could not think clearly enough what this might be. sun, sky, sea, rocks--what was it? then he remembered the boat-load of excursionists. it had vanished. he wondered whether he had imagined it. he turned, and saw the two workmen standing side by side under the projecting masses of the tall pink cliffs. he hesitated whether he should make one last attempt to save the man hill. his physical excitement seemed to desert him suddenly, and leave him aimless and helpless. he turned shoreward, stumbling and wading towards his two companions. he looked back again, and there were now two boats floating, and the one farthest out at sea pitched clumsily, bottom upward. iii. so it was _haploteuthis ferox_ made its appearance upon the devonshire coast. so far, this has been its most serious aggression. mr. fison's account, taken together with the wave of boating and bathing casualties to which i have already alluded, and the absence of fish from the cornish coasts that year, points clearly to a shoal of these voracious deep-sea monsters prowling slowly along the sub-tidal coast-line. hunger migration has, i know, been suggested as the force that drove them hither; but, for my own part, i prefer to believe the alternative theory of hemsley. hemsley holds that a pack or shoal of these creatures may have become enamoured of human flesh by the accident of a foundered ship sinking among them, and have wandered in search of it out of their accustomed zone; first waylaying and following ships, and so coming to our shores in the wake of the atlantic traffic. but to discuss hemsley's cogent and admirably-stated arguments would be out of place here. it would seem that the appetites of the shoal were satisfied by the catch of eleven people--for, so far as can be ascertained, there were ten people in the second boat, and certainly these creatures gave no further signs of their presence off sidmouth that day. the coast between seaton and budleigh salterton was patrolled all that evening and night by four preventive service boats, the men in which were armed with harpoons and cutlasses, and as the evening advanced, a number of more or less similarly equipped expeditions, organised by private individuals, joined them. mr. fison took no part in any of these expeditions. about midnight excited hails were heard from a boat about a couple of miles out at sea to the south-east of sidmouth, and a lantern was seen waving in a strange manner to and fro and up and down. the nearer boats at once hurried towards the alarm. the venturesome occupants of the boat--a seaman, a curate, and two schoolboys--had actually seen the monsters passing under their boat. the creatures, it seems, like most deep-sea organisms, were phosphorescent, and they had been floating, five fathoms deep or so, like creatures of moonshine through the blackness of the water, their tentacles retracted and as if asleep, rolling over and over, and moving slowly in a wedge-like formation towards the south-east. these people told their story in gesticulated fragments, as first one boat drew alongside and then another. at last there was a little fleet of eight or nine boats collected together, and from them a tumult, like the chatter of a market-place, rose into the stillness of the night. there was little or no disposition to pursue the shoal, the people had neither weapons nor experience for such a dubious chase, and presently--even with a certain relief, it may be--the boats turned shoreward. and now to tell what is perhaps the most astonishing fact in this whole astonishing raid. we have not the slightest knowledge of the subsequent movements of the shoal, although the whole south-west coast was now alert for it. but it may, perhaps, be significant that a cachalot was stranded off sark on june . two weeks and three days after this sidmouth affair, a living _haploteuthis_ came ashore on calais sands. it was alive, because several witnesses saw its tentacles moving in a convulsive way. but it is probable that it was dying. a gentleman named pouchet obtained a rifle and shot it. that was the last appearance of a living _haploteuthis_. no others were seen on the french coast. on the th of june a dead carcass, almost complete, was washed ashore near torquay, and a few days later a boat from the marine biological station, engaged in dredging off plymouth, picked up a rotting specimen, slashed deeply with a cutlass wound. how the former had come by its death it is impossible to say. and on the last day of june, mr. egbert caine, an artist, bathing near newlyn, threw up his arms, shrieked, and was drawn under. a friend bathing with him made no attempt to save him, but swam at once for the shore. this is the last fact to tell of this extraordinary raid from the deeper sea. whether it is really the last of these horrible creatures it is, as yet, premature to say. but it is believed, and certainly it is to be hoped, that they have returned now, and returned for good, to the sunless depths of the middle seas, out of which they have so strangely and so mysteriously arisen. xiv. the obliterated man. i was--you shall hear immediately why i am not now--egbert craddock cummins. the name remains. i am still (heaven help me!) dramatic critic to the _fiery cross_. what i shall be in a little while i do not know. i write in great trouble and confusion of mind. i will do what i can to make myself clear in the face of terrible difficulties. you must bear with me a little. when a man is rapidly losing his own identity, he naturally finds a difficulty in expressing himself. i will make it perfectly plain in a minute, when once i get my grip upon the story. let me see--where _am_ i? i wish i knew. ah, i have it! dead self! egbert craddock cummins! in the past i should have disliked writing anything quite so full of "i" as this story must be. it is full of "i's" before and behind, like the beast in revelation--the one with a head like a calf, i am afraid. but my tastes have changed since i became a dramatic critic and studied the masters--g.a.s., g.b.s., g.r.s., and the others. everything has changed since then. at least the story is about myself--so that there is some excuse for me. and it is really not egotism, because, as i say, since those days my identity has undergone an entire alteration. that past!... i was--in those days--rather a nice fellow, rather shy-- taste for grey in my clothes, weedy little moustache, face "interesting," slight stutter which i had caught in my early life from a schoolfellow. engaged to a very nice girl, named delia. fairly new, she was-- cigarettes--liked me because i was human and original. considered i was like lamb--on the strength of the stutter, i believe. father, an eminent authority on postage stamps. she read a great deal in the british museum. (a perfect pairing ground for literary people, that british museum--you should read george egerton and justin huntly m'carthy and gissing and the rest of them.) we loved in our intellectual way, and shared the brightest hopes. (all gone now.) and her father liked me because i seemed honestly eager to hear about stamps. she had no mother. indeed, i had the happiest prospects a young man could have. i never went to theatres in those days. my aunt charlotte before she died had told me not to. then barnaby, the editor of the _fiery cross_, made me--in spite of my spasmodic efforts to escape--dramatic critic. he is a fine, healthy man, barnaby, with an enormous head of frizzy black hair and a convincing manner, and he caught me on the staircase going to see wembly. he had been dining, and was more than usually buoyant. "hullo, cummins!" he said. "the very man i want!" he caught me by the shoulder or the collar or something, ran me up the little passage, and flung me over the waste-paper basket into the arm-chair in his office. "pray be seated," he said, as he did so. then he ran across the room and came back with some pink and yellow tickets and pushed them into my hand. "opera comique," he said, "thursday; friday, the surrey; saturday, the frivolity. that's all, i think." "but--" i began. "glad you're free," he said, snatching some proofs off the desk and beginning to read. "i don't quite understand," i said. "_eigh_?" he said, at the top of his voice, as though he thought i had gone and was startled at my remark. "do you want me to criticise these plays?" "do something with 'em... did you think it was a treat?" "but i can't." "did you call me a fool?" "well, i've never been to a theatre in my life." "virgin soil." "but i don't know anything about it, you know." "that's just it. new view. no habits. no _clichés_ in stock. ours is a live paper, not a bag of tricks. none of your clockwork professional journalism in this office. and i can rely on your integrity----" "but i've conscientious scruples----" he caught me up suddenly and put me outside his door. "go and talk to wembly about that," he said. "he'll explain." as i stood perplexed, he opened the door again, said, "i forgot this," thrust a fourth ticket into my hand (it was for that night--in twenty minutes' time) and slammed the door upon me. his expression was quite calm, but i caught his eye. i hate arguments. i decided that i would take his hint and become (to my own destruction) a dramatic critic. i walked slowly down the passage to wembly. that barnaby has a remarkable persuasive way. he has made few suggestions during our very pleasant intercourse of four years that he has not ultimately won me round to adopting. it may be, of course, that i am of a yielding disposition; certainly i am too apt to take my colour from my circumstances. it is, indeed, to my unfortunate susceptibility to vivid impressions that all my misfortunes are due. i have already alluded to the slight stammer i had acquired from a schoolfellow in my youth. however, this is a digression... i went home in a cab to dress. i will not trouble the reader with my thoughts about the first-night audience, strange assembly as it is,--those i reserve for my memoirs,--nor the humiliating story of how i got lost during the _entr'acte_ in a lot of red plush passages, and saw the third act from the gallery. the only point upon which i wish to lay stress was the remarkable effect of the acting upon me. you must remember i had lived a quiet and retired life, and had never been to the theatre before, and that i am extremely sensitive to vivid impressions. at the risk of repetition i must insist upon these points. the first effect was a profound amazement, not untinctured by alarm. the phenomenal unnaturalness of acting is a thing discounted in the minds of most people by early visits to the theatre. they get used to the fantastic gestures, the flamboyant emotions, the weird mouthings, melodious snortings, agonising yelps, lip-gnawings, glaring horrors, and other emotional symbolism of the stage. it becomes at last a mere deaf-and-dumb language to them, which they read intelligently _pari passu_ with the hearing of the dialogue. but all this was new to me. the thing was called a modern comedy, the people were supposed to be english and were dressed like fashionable americans of the current epoch, and i fell into the natural error of supposing that the actors were trying to represent human beings. i looked round on my first-night audience with a kind of wonder, discovered--as all new dramatic critics do--that it rested with me to reform the drama, and, after a supper choked with emotion, went off to the office to write a column, piebald with "new paragraphs" (as all my stuff is--it fills out so) and purple with indignation. barnaby was delighted. but i could not sleep that night. i dreamt of actors--actors glaring, actors smiting their chests, actors flinging out a handful of extended fingers, actors smiling bitterly, laughing despairingly, falling hopelessly, dying idiotically. i got up at eleven with a slight headache, read my notice in the _fiery cross_, breakfasted, and went back to my room to shave, (it's my habit to do so.) then an odd thing happened. i could not find my razor. suddenly it occurred to me that i had not unpacked it the day before. "ah!" said i, in front of the looking-glass. then "hullo!" quite involuntarily, when i had thought of my portmanteau, i had flung up the left arm (fingers fully extended) and clutched at my diaphragm with my right hand. i am an acutely self-conscious man at all times. the gesture struck me as absolutely novel for me. i repeated it, for my own satisfaction. "odd!" then (rather puzzled) i turned to my portmanteau. after shaving, my mind reverted to the acting i had seen, and i entertained myself before the cheval glass with some imitations of jafferay's more exaggerated gestures. "really, one might think it a disease," i said--"stage-walkitis!" (there's many a truth spoken in jest.) then, if i remember rightly, i went off to see wembly, and afterwards lunched at the british museum with delia. we actually spoke about our prospects, in the light of my new appointment. but that appointment was the beginning of my downfall. from that day i necessarily became a persistent theatre-goer, and almost insensibly i began to change. the next thing i noticed after the gesture about the razor was to catch myself bowing ineffably when i met delia, and stooping in an old-fashioned, courtly way over her hand. directly i caught myself, i straightened myself up and became very uncomfortable. i remember she looked at me curiously. then, in the office, i found myself doing "nervous business," fingers on teeth, when barnaby asked me a question i could not very well answer. then, in some trifling difference with delia, i clasped my hand to my brow. and i pranced through my social transactions at times singularly like an actor! i tried not to--no one could be more keenly alive to the arrant absurdity of the histrionic bearing. and i did! it began to dawn on me what it all meant. the acting, i saw, was too much for my delicately-strung nervous system. i have always, i know, been too amenable to the suggestions of my circumstances. night after night of concentrated attention to the conventional attitudes and intonation of the english stage was gradually affecting my speech and carriage. i was giving way to the infection of sympathetic imitation. night after night my plastic nervous system took the print of some new amazing gesture, some new emotional exaggeration--and retained it. a kind of theatrical veneer threatened to plate over and obliterate my private individuality altogether. i saw myself in a kind of vision. sitting by myself one night, my new self seemed to me to glide, posing and gesticulating, across the room. he clutched his throat, he opened his fingers, he opened his legs in walking like a high-class marionette. he went from attitude to attitude. he might have been clockwork. directly after this i made an ineffectual attempt to resign my theatrical work. but barnaby persisted in talking about the polywhiddle divorce all the time i was with him, and i could get no opportunity of saying what i wished. and then delia's manner began to change towards me. the ease of our intercourse vanished. i felt she was learning to dislike me. i grinned, and capered, and scowled, and posed at her in a thousand ways, and knew--with what a voiceless agony!--that i did it all the time. i tried to resign again, and barnaby talked about "x" and "z" and "y" in the _new review,_ and gave me a strong cigar to smoke, and so routed me. and then i walked up the assyrian gallery in the manner of irving to meet delia, and so precipitated the crisis. "ah!--_dear_!" i said, with more sprightliness and emotion in my voice than had ever been in all my life before i became (to my own undoing) a dramatic critic. she held out her hand rather coldly, scrutinising my face as she did so. i prepared, with a new-won grace, to walk by her side. "egbert," she said, standing still, and thought. then she looked at me. i said nothing. i felt what was coming. i tried to be the old egbert craddock cummins of shambling gait and stammering sincerity, whom she loved, but i felt even as i did so that i was a new thing, a thing of surging emotions and mysterious fixity--like no human being that ever lived, except upon the stage. "egbert," she said, "you are not yourself." "ah!" involuntarily i clutched my diaphragm and averted my head (as is the way with them). "there!" she said. "_what do you mean_?" i said, whispering in vocal italics--you know how they do it--turning on her, perplexity on face, right hand down, left on brow. i knew quite well what she meant. i knew quite well the dramatic unreality of my behaviour. but i struggled against it in vain. "what do you mean?" i said, and, in a kind of hoarse whisper, "i don't understand!" she really looked as though she disliked me. "what do you keep on posing for?" she said. "i don't like it. you didn't use to." "didn't use to!" i said slowly, repeating this twice. i glared up and down the gallery with short, sharp glances. "we are alone," i said swiftly. "_listen!_" i poked my forefinger towards her, and glared at her. "i am under a curse." i saw her hand tighten upon her sunshade. "you are under some bad influence or other," said delia. "you should give it up. i never knew anyone change as you have done." "delia!" i said, lapsing into the pathetic. "pity me, augh! delia! _pit_--y me!" she eyed me critically. "_why_ you keep playing the fool like this i don't know," she said. "anyhow, i really cannot go about with a man who behaves as you do. you made us both ridiculous on wednesday. frankly, i dislike you, as you are now. i met you here to tell you so--as it's about the only place where we can be sure of being alone together----" "delia!" said i, with intensity, knuckles of clenched hands white. "you don't mean----" "i do," said delia. "a woman's lot is sad enough at the best of times. but with you----" i clapped my hand on my brow. "so, good-bye," said delia, without emotion. "oh, delia!" i said. "not _this_?" "good-bye, mr. cummins," she said. by a violent effort i controlled myself and touched her hand. i tried to say some word of explanation to her. she looked into my working face and winced. "i _must_ do it," she said hopelessly. then she turned from me and began walking rapidly down the gallery. heavens! how the human agony cried within me! i loved delia. but nothing found expression--i was already too deeply crusted with my acquired self. "good-baye!" i said at last, watching her retreating figure. how i hated myself for doing it! after she had vanished, i repeated in a dreamy way, "good-baye!" looking hopelessly round me. then, with a kind of heart-broken cry, i shook my clenched fists in the air, staggered to the pedestal of a winged figure, buried my face in my arms, and made my shoulders heave. something within me said "ass!" as i did so. (i had the greatest difficulty in persuading the museum policeman, who was attracted by my cry of agony, that i was not intoxicated, but merely suffering from a transient indisposition.) but even this great sorrow has not availed to save me from my fate. i see it; everyone sees it: i grow more "theatrical" every day. and no one could be more painfully aware of the pungent silliness of theatrical ways. the quiet, nervous, but pleasing e.c. cummins vanishes. i cannot save him. i am driven like a dead leaf before the winds of march. my tailor even enters into the spirit of my disorder. he has a peculiar sense of what is fitting. i tried to get a dull grey suit from him this spring, and he foisted a brilliant blue upon me, and i see he has put braid down the sides of my new dress trousers. my hairdresser insists upon giving me a "wave." i am beginning to associate with actors. i detest them, but it is only in their company that i can feel i am not glaringly conspicuous. their talk infects me. i notice a growing tendency to dramatic brevity, to dashes and pauses in my style, to a punctuation of bows and attitudes. barnaby has remarked it too. i offended wembly by calling him "dear boy" yesterday. i dread the end, but i cannot escape from it. the fact is, i am being obliterated. living a grey, retired life all my youth, i came to the theatre a delicate sketch of a man, a thing of tints and faint lines. their gorgeous colouring has effaced me altogether. people forget how much mode of expression, method of movement, are a matter of contagion. i have heard of stage-struck people before, and thought it a figure of speech. i spoke of it jestingly, as a disease. it is no jest. it is a disease. and i have got it badly! deep down within me i protest against the wrong done to my personality--unavailingly. for three hours or more a week i have to go and concentrate my attention on some fresh play, and the suggestions of the drama strengthen their awful hold upon me. my manners grow so flamboyant, my passions so professional, that i doubt, as i said at the outset, whether it is really myself that behaves in such a manner. i feel merely the core to this dramatic casing, that grows thicker and presses upon me--me and mine. i feel like king john's abbot in his cope of lead. i doubt, indeed, whether i should not abandon the struggle altogether-- leave this sad world of ordinary life for which i am so ill fitted, abandon the name of cummins for some professional pseudonym, complete my self-effacement, and--a thing of tricks and tatters, of posing and pretence--go upon the stage. it seems my only resort--"to hold the mirror up to nature." for in the ordinary life, i will confess, no one now seems to regard me as both sane and sober. only upon the stage, i feel convinced, will people take me seriously. that will be the end of it. i _know_ that will be the end of it. and yet ... i will frankly confess ... all that marks off your actor from your common man ... i _detest_. i am still largely of my aunt charlotte's opinion, that play-acting is unworthy of a pure-minded man's attention, much more participation. even now i would resign my dramatic criticism and try a rest. only i can't get hold of barnaby. letters of resignation he never notices. he says it is against the etiquette of journalism to write to your editor. and when i go to see him, he gives me another big cigar and some strong whisky and soda, and then something always turns up to prevent my explanation. xv. the plattner story. whether the story of gottfried plattner is to be credited or not is a pretty question in the value of evidence. on the one hand, we have seven witnesses--to be perfectly exact, we have six and a half pairs of eyes, and one undeniable fact; and on the other we have--what is it?--prejudice, common-sense, the inertia of opinion. never were there seven more honest-seeming witnesses; never was there a more undeniable fact than the inversion of gottfried plattner's anatomical structure, and--never was there a more preposterous story than the one they have to tell! the most preposterous part of the story is the worthy gottfried's contribution (for i count him as one of the seven). heaven forbid that i should be led into giving countenance to superstition by a passion for impartiality, and so come to share the fate of eusapia's patrons! frankly, i believe there is something crooked about this business of gottfried plattner; but what that crooked factor is, i will admit as frankly, i do not know. i have been surprised at the credit accorded to the story in the most unexpected and authoritative quarters. the fairest way to the reader, however, will be for me to tell it without further comment. gottfried plattner is, in spite of his name, a freeborn englishman. his father was an alsatian who came to england in the 'sixties, married a respectable english girl of unexceptionable antecedents, and died, after a wholesome and uneventful life (devoted, i understand, chiefly to the laying of parquet flooring), in . gottfried's age is seven-and-twenty. he is, by virtue of his heritage of three languages, modern languages master in a small private school in the south of england. to the casual observer he is singularly like any other modern languages master in any other small private school. his costume is neither very costly nor very fashionable, but, on the other hand, it is not markedly cheap or shabby; his complexion, like his height and his bearing, is inconspicuous. you would notice, perhaps, that, like the majority of people, his face was not absolutely symmetrical, his right eye a little larger than the left, and his jaw a trifle heavier on the right side. if you, as an ordinary careless person, were to bare his chest and feel his heart beating, you would probably find it quite like the heart of anyone else. but here you and the trained observer would part company. if you found his heart quite ordinary, the trained observer would find it quite otherwise. and once the thing was pointed out to you, you too would perceive the peculiarity easily enough. it is that gottfried's heart beats on the right side of his body. now, that is not the only singularity of gottfried's structure, although it is the only one that would appeal to the untrained mind. careful sounding of gottfried's internal arrangements by a well-known surgeon seems to point to the fact that all the other unsymmetrical parts of his body are similarly misplaced. the right lobe of his liver is on the left side, the left on his right; while his lungs, too, are similarly contraposed. what is still more singular, unless gottfried is a consummate actor, we must believe that his right hand has recently become his left. since the occurrences we are about to consider (as impartially as possible), he has found the utmost difficulty in writing, except from right to left across the paper with his left hand. he cannot throw with his right hand, he is perplexed at meal-times between knife and fork, and his ideas of the rule of the road--he is a cyclist--are still a dangerous confusion. and there is not a scrap of evidence to show that before these occurrences gottfried was at all left-handed. there is yet another wonderful fact in this preposterous business. gottfried produces three photographs of himself. you have him at the age of five or six, thrusting fat legs at you from under a plaid frock, and scowling. in that photograph his left eye is a little larger than his right, and his jaw is a trifle heavier on the left side. this is the reverse of his present living condition. the photograph of gottfried at fourteen seems to contradict these facts, but that is because it is one of those cheap "gem" photographs that were then in vogue, taken direct upon metal, and therefore reversing things just as a looking-glass would. the third photograph represents him at one-and-twenty, and confirms the record of the others. there seems here evidence of the strongest confirmatory character that gottfried has exchanged his left side for his right. yet how a human being can be so changed, short of a fantastic and pointless miracle, it is exceedingly hard to suggest. in one way, of course, these facts might be explicable on the supposition that plattner has undertaken an elaborate mystification, on the strength of his heart's displacement. photographs may be faked, and left-handedness imitated. but the character of the man does not lend itself to any such theory. he is quiet, practical, unobtrusive, and thoroughly sane, from the nordau standpoint. he likes beer, and smokes moderately, takes walking exercise daily, and has a healthily high estimate of the value of his teaching. he has a good but untrained tenor voice, and takes a pleasure in singing airs of a popular and cheerful character. he is fond, but not morbidly fond, of reading,--chiefly fiction pervaded with a vaguely pious optimism,--sleeps well, and rarely dreams. he is, in fact, the very last person to evolve a fantastic fable. indeed, so far from forcing this story upon the world, he has been singularly reticent on the matter. he meets enquirers with a certain engaging--bashfulness is almost the word, that disarms the most suspicious. he seems genuinely ashamed that anything so unusual has occurred to him. it is to be regretted that plattner's aversion to the idea of post-mortem dissection may postpone, perhaps for ever, the positive proof that his entire body has had its left and right sides transposed. upon that fact mainly the credibility of his story hangs. there is no way of taking a man and moving him about in space as ordinary people understand space, that will result in our changing his sides. whatever you do, his right is still his right, his left his left. you can do that with a perfectly thin and flat thing, of course. if you were to cut a figure out of paper, any figure with a right and left side, you could change its sides simply by lifting it up and turning it over. but with a solid it is different. mathematical theorists tell us that the only way in which the right and left sides of a solid body can be changed is by taking that body clean out of space as we know it,--taking it out of ordinary existence, that is, and turning it somewhere outside space. this is a little abstruse, no doubt, but anyone with any knowledge of mathematical theory will assure the reader of its truth. to put the thing in technical language, the curious inversion of plattner's right and left sides is proof that he has moved out of our space into what is called the fourth dimension, and that he has returned again to our world. unless we choose to consider ourselves the victims of an elaborate and motiveless fabrication, we are almost bound to believe that this has occurred. so much for the tangible facts. we come now to the account of the phenomena that attended his temporary disappearance from the world. it appears that in the sussexville proprietary school, plattner not only discharged the duties of modern languages master, but also taught chemistry, commercial geography, bookkeeping, shorthand, drawing, and any other additional subject to which the changing fancies of the boys' parents might direct attention. he knew little or nothing of these various subjects, but in secondary as distinguished from board or elementary schools, knowledge in the teacher is, very properly, by no means so necessary as high moral character and gentlemanly tone. in chemistry he was particularly deficient, knowing, he says, nothing beyond the three gases (whatever the three gases may be). as, however, his pupils began by knowing nothing, and derived all their information from him, this caused him (or anyone) but little inconvenience for several terms. then a little boy named whibble joined the school, who had been educated (it seems) by some mischievous relative into an inquiring habit of mind. this little boy followed plattner's lessons with marked and sustained interest, and in order to exhibit his zeal on the subject, brought, at various times, substances for plattner to analyse. plattner, flattered by this evidence of his power of awakening interest, and trusting to the boy's ignorance, analysed these, and even, made general statements as to their composition. indeed, he was so far stimulated by his pupil as to obtain a work upon analytical chemistry, and study it during his supervision of the evening's preparation. he was surprised to find chemistry quite an interesting subject. so far the story is absolutely commonplace. but now the greenish powder comes upon the scene. the source of that greenish powder seems, unfortunately, lost. master whibble tells a tortuous story of finding it done up in a packet in a disused limekiln near the downs. it would have been an excellent thing for plattner, and possibly for master whibble's family, if a match could have been applied to that powder there and then. the young gentleman certainly did not bring it to school in a packet, but in a common eight-ounce graduated medicine bottle, plugged with masticated newspaper. he gave it to plattner at the end of the afternoon school. four boys had been detained after school prayers in order to complete some neglected tasks, and plattner was supervising these in the small class-room in which the chemical teaching was conducted. the appliances for the practical teaching of chemistry in the sussexville proprietary school, as in most small schools in this country, are characterised by a severe simplicity. they are kept in a small cupboard standing in a recess, and having about the same capacity as a common travelling trunk. plattner, being bored with his passive superintendence, seems to have welcomed the intervention of whibble with his green powder as an agreeable diversion, and, unlocking this cupboard, proceeded at once with his analytical experiments. whibble sat, luckily for himself, at a safe distance, regarding him. the four malefactors, feigning a profound absorption in their work, watched him furtively with the keenest interest. for even within the limits of the three gases, plattner's practical chemistry was, i understand, temerarious. they are practically unanimous in their account of plattner's proceedings. he poured a little of the green powder into a test-tube, and tried the substance with water, hydrochloric acid, nitric acid, and sulphuric acid in succession. getting no result, he emptied out a little heap--nearly half the bottleful, in fact--upon a slate and tried a match. he held the medicine bottle in his left hand. the stuff began to smoke and melt, and then exploded with deafening violence and a blinding flash. the five boys, seeing the flash and being prepared for catastrophes, ducked below their desks, and were none of them seriously hurt. the window was blown out into the playground, and the blackboard on its easel was upset. the slate was smashed to atoms. some plaster fell from the ceiling. no other damage was done to the school edifice or appliances, and the boys at first, seeing nothing of plattner, fancied he was knocked down and lying out of their sight below the desks. they jumped out of their places to go to his assistance, and were amazed to find the space empty. being still confused by the sudden violence of the report, they hurried to the open door, under the impression that he must have been hurt, and have rushed out of the room. but carson, the foremost, nearly collided in the doorway with the principal, mr. lidgett. mr. lidgett is a corpulent, excitable man with one eye. the boys describe him as stumbling into the room mouthing some of those tempered expletives irritable schoolmasters accustom themselves to use--lest worse befall. "wretched mumchancer!" he said. "where's mr. plattner?" the boys are agreed on the very words. ("wobbler," "snivelling puppy," and "mumchancer" are, it seems, among the ordinary small change of mr. lidgett's scholastic commerce.) where's mr. plattner? that was a question that was to be repeated many times in the next few days. it really seemed as though that frantic hyperbole, "blown to atoms," had for once realised itself. there was not a visible particle of plattner to be seen; not a drop of blood nor a stitch of clothing to be found. apparently he had been blown clean out of existence and left not a wrack behind. not so much as would cover a sixpenny piece, to quote a proverbial expression! the evidence of his absolute disappearance as a consequence of that explosion is indubitable. it is not necessary to enlarge here upon the commotion excited in the sussexville proprietary school, and in sussexville and elsewhere, by this event. it is quite possible, indeed, that some of the readers of these pages may recall the hearing of some remote and dying version of that excitement during the last summer holidays. lidgett, it would seem, did everything in his power to suppress and minimise the story. he instituted a penalty of twenty-five lines for any mention of plattner's name among the boys, and stated in the schoolroom that he was clearly aware of his assistant's whereabouts. he was afraid, he explains, that the possibility of an explosion happening, in spite of the elaborate precautions taken to minimise the practical teaching of chemistry, might injure the reputation of the school; and so might any mysterious quality in plattner's departure. indeed, he did everything in his power to make the occurrence seem as ordinary as possible. in particular, he cross-examined the five eye-witnesses of the occurrence so searchingly that they began to doubt the plain evidence of their senses. but, in spite of these efforts, the tale, in a magnified and distorted state, made a nine days' wonder in the district, and several parents withdrew their sons on colourable pretexts. not the least remarkable point in the matter is the fact that a large number of people in the neighbourhood dreamed singularly vivid dreams of plattner during the period of excitement before his return, and that these dreams had a curious uniformity. in almost all of them plattner was seen, sometimes singly, sometimes in company, wandering about through a coruscating iridescence. in all cases his face was pale and distressed, and in some he gesticulated towards the dreamer. one or two of the boys, evidently under the influence of nightmare, fancied that plattner approached them with remarkable swiftness, and seemed to look closely into their very eyes. others fled with plattner from the pursuit of vague and extraordinary creatures of a globular shape. but all these fancies were forgotten in inquiries and speculations when on the wednesday next but one after the monday of the explosion, plattner returned. the circumstances of his return were as singular as those of his departure. so far as mr. lidgett's somewhat choleric outline can be filled in from plattner's hesitating statements, it would appear that on wednesday evening, towards the hour of sunset, the former gentleman, having dismissed evening preparation, was engaged in his garden, picking and eating strawberries, a fruit of which he is inordinately fond. it is a large old-fashioned garden, secured from observation, fortunately, by a high and ivy-covered red-brick wall. just as he was stooping over a particularly prolific plant, there was a flash in the air and a heavy thud, and before he could look round, some heavy body struck him violently from behind. he was pitched forward, crushing the strawberries he held in his hand, and that so roughly, that his silk hat--mr. lidgett adheres to the older ideas of scholastic costume--was driven violently down upon his forehead, and almost over one eye. this heavy missile, which slid over him sideways and collapsed into a sitting posture among the strawberry plants, proved to be our long-lost mr. gottfried plattner, in an extremely dishevelled condition. he was collarless and hatless, his linen was dirty, and there was blood upon his hands. mr. lidgett was so indignant and surprised that he remained on all-fours, and with his hat jammed down on his eye, while he expostulated vehemently with plattner for his disrespectful and unaccountable conduct. this scarcely idyllic scene completes what i may call the exterior version of the plattner story--its exoteric aspect. it is quite unnecessary to enter here into all the details of his dismissal by mr. lidgett. such details, with the full names and dates and references, will be found in the larger report of these occurrences that was laid before the society for the investigation of abnormal phenomena. the singular transposition of plattner's right and left sides was scarcely observed for the first day or so, and then first in connection with his disposition to write from right to left across the blackboard. he concealed rather than ostended this curious confirmatory circumstance, as he considered it would unfavourably affect his prospects in a new situation. the displacement of his heart was discovered some months after, when he was having a tooth extracted under anaesthetics. he then, very unwillingly, allowed a cursory surgical examination to be made of himself, with a view to a brief account in the _journal of anatomy_. that exhausts the statement of the material facts; and we may now go on to consider plattner's account of the matter. but first let us clearly differentiate between the preceding portion of this story and what is to follow. all i have told thus far is established by such evidence as even a criminal lawyer would approve. every one of the witnesses is still alive; the reader, if he have the leisure, may hunt the lads out to-morrow, or even brave the terrors of the redoubtable lidgett, and cross-examine and trap and test to his heart's content; gottfried plattner himself, and his twisted heart and his three photographs, are producible. it may be taken as proved that he did disappear for nine days as the consequence of an explosion; that he returned almost as violently, under circumstances in their nature annoying to mr. lidgett, whatever the details of those circumstances may be; and that he returned inverted, just as a reflection returns from a mirror. from the last fact, as i have already stated, it follows almost inevitably that plattner, during those nine days, must have been in some state of existence altogether out of space. the evidence to these statements is, indeed, far stronger than that upon which most murderers are hanged. but for his own particular account of where he had been, with its confused explanations and wellnigh self-contradictory details, we have only mr. gottfried plattner's word. i do not wish to discredit that, but i must point out--what so many writers upon obscure psychic phenomena fail to do--that we are passing here from the practically undeniable to that kind of matter which any reasonable man is entitled to believe or reject as he thinks proper. the previous statements render it plausible; its discordance with common experience tilts it towards the incredible. i would prefer not to sway the beam of the reader's judgment either way, but simply to tell the story as plattner told it me. he gave me his narrative, i may state, at my house at chislehurst, and so soon as he had left me that evening, i went into my study and wrote down everything as i remembered it. subsequently he was good enough to read over a type-written copy, so that its substantial correctness is undeniable. he states that at the moment of the explosion he distinctly thought he was killed. he felt lifted off his feet and driven forcibly backward. it is a curious fact for psychologists that he thought clearly during his backward flight, and wondered whether he should hit the chemistry cupboard or the blackboard easel. his heels struck ground, and he staggered and fell heavily into a sitting position on something soft and firm. for a moment the concussion stunned him. he became aware at once of a vivid scent of singed hair, and he seemed to hear the voice of lidgett asking for him. you will understand that for a time his mind was greatly confused. at first he was under the impression that he was still standing in the class-room. he perceived quite distinctly the surprise of the boys and the entry of mr. lidgett. he is quite positive upon that score. he did not hear their remarks; but that he ascribed to the deafening effect of the experiment. things about him seemed curiously dark and faint, but his mind explained that on the obvious but mistaken idea that the explosion had engendered a huge volume of dark smoke. through the dimness the figures of lidgett and the boys moved, as faint and silent as ghosts. plattner's face still tingled with the stinging heat of the flash. he, was, he says, "all muddled." his first definite thoughts seem to have been of his personal safety. he thought he was perhaps blinded and deafened. he felt his limbs and face in a gingerly manner. then his perceptions grew clearer, and he was astonished to miss the old familiar desks and other schoolroom furniture about him. only dim, uncertain, grey shapes stood in the place of these. then came a thing that made him shout aloud, and awoke his stunned faculties to instant activity. _two of the boys, gesticulating, walked one after the other clean through him_! neither manifested the slightest consciousness of his presence. it is difficult to imagine the sensation he felt. they came against him, he says, with no more force than a wisp of mist. plattner's first thought after that was that he was dead. having been brought up with thoroughly sound views in these matters, however, he was a little surprised to find his body still about him. his second conclusion was that he was not dead, but that the others were: that the explosion had destroyed the sussexville proprietary school and every soul in it except himself. but that, too, was scarcely satisfactory. he was thrown back upon astonished observation. everything about him was profoundly dark: at first it seemed to have an altogether ebony blackness. overhead was a black firmament. the only touch of light in the scene was a faint greenish glow at the edge of the sky in one direction, which threw into prominence a horizon of undulating black hills. this, i say, was his impression at first. as his eye grew accustomed to the darkness, he began to distinguish a faint quality of differentiating greenish colour in the circumambient night. against this background the furniture and occupants of the class-room, it seems, stood out like phosphorescent spectres, faint and impalpable. he extended his hand, and thrust it without an effort through the wall of the room by the fireplace. he describes himself as making a strenuous effort to attract attention. he shouted to lidgett, and tried to seize the boys as they went to and fro. he only desisted from these attempts when mrs. lidgett, whom he (as an assistant master) naturally disliked, entered the room. he says the sensation of being in the world, and yet not a part of it, was an extraordinarily disagreeable one. he compared his feelings, not inaptly, to those of a cat watching a mouse through a window. whenever he made a motion to communicate with the dim, familiar world about him, he found an invisible, incomprehensible barrier preventing intercourse. he then turned his attention to his solid environment. he found the medicine bottle still unbroken in his hand, with the remainder of the green powder therein. he put this in his pocket, and began to feel about him. apparently he was sitting on a boulder of rock covered with a velvety moss. the dark country about him he was unable to see, the faint, misty picture of the schoolroom blotting it out, but he had a feeling (due perhaps to a cold wind) that he was near the crest of a hill, and that a steep valley fell away beneath his feet. the green glow along the edge of the sky seemed to be growing in extent and intensity. he stood up, rubbing his eyes. it would seem that he made a few steps, going steeply downhill, and then stumbled, nearly fell, and sat down again upon a jagged mass of rock to watch the dawn. he became aware that the world about him was absolutely silent. it was as still as it was dark, and though there was a cold wind blowing up the hill-face, the rustle of grass, the soughing of the boughs that should have accompanied it, were absent. he could hear, therefore, if he could not see, that the hillside upon which he stood was rocky and desolate. the green grew brighter every moment, and as it did so a faint, transparent blood-red mingled with, but did not mitigate, the blackness of the sky overhead and the rocky desolations about him. having regard to what follows, i am inclined to think that that redness may have been an optical effect due to contrast. something black fluttered momentarily against the livid yellow-green of the lower sky, and then the thin and penetrating voice of a bell rose out of the black gulf below him. an oppressive expectation grew with the growing light. it is probable that an hour or more elapsed while he sat there, the strange green light growing brighter every moment, and spreading slowly, in flamboyant fingers, upward towards the zenith. as it grew, the spectral vision of _our_ world became relatively or absolutely fainter. probably both, for the time must have been about that of our earthly sunset. so far as his vision of our world went, plattner, by his few steps downhill, had passed through the floor of the class-room, and was now, it seemed, sitting in mid-air in the larger schoolroom downstairs. he saw the boarders distinctly, but much more faintly than he had seen lidgett. they were preparing their evening tasks, and he noticed with interest that several were cheating with their euclid riders by means of a crib, a compilation whose existence he had hitherto never suspected. as the time passed, they faded steadily, as steadily as the light of the green dawn increased. looking down into the valley, he saw that the light had crept far down its rocky sides, and that the profound blackness of the abyss was now broken by a minute green glow, like the light of a glow-worm. and almost immediately the limb of a huge heavenly body of blazing green rose over the basaltic undulations of the distant hills, and the monstrous hill-masses about him came out gaunt and desolate, in green light and deep, ruddy black shadows. he became aware of a vast number of ball-shaped objects drifting as thistledown drifts over the high ground. there were none of these nearer to him than the opposite side of the gorge. the bell below twanged quicker and quicker, with something like impatient insistence, and several lights moved hither and thither. the boys at work at their desks were now almost imperceptibly faint. this extinction of our world, when the green sun of this other universe rose, is a curious point upon which plattner insists. during the other-world night it is difficult to move about, on account of the vividness with which the things of this world are visible. it becomes a riddle to explain why, if this is the case, we in this world catch no glimpse of the other-world. it is due, perhaps, to the comparatively vivid illumination of this world of ours. plattner describes the midday of the other-world, at its brightest, as not being nearly so bright as this world at full moon, while its night is profoundly black. consequently, the amount of light, even in an ordinary dark room, is sufficient to render the things of the other-world invisible, on the same principle that faint phosphorescence is only visible in the profoundest darkness. i have tried, since he told me his story, to see something of the other-world by sitting for a long space in a photographer's dark room at night. i have certainly seen indistinctly the form of greenish slopes and rocks, but only, i must admit, very indistinctly indeed. the reader may possibly be more successful. plattner tells me that since his return he has dreamt and seen and recognised places in the other-world, but this is probably due to his memory of these scenes. it seems quite possible that people with unusually keen eyesight may occasionally catch a glimpse of this strange other-world about us. however, this is a digression. as the green sun rose, a long street of black buildings became perceptible, though only darkly and indistinctly, in the gorge, and after some hesitation, plattner began to clamber down the precipitous descent towards them. the descent was long and exceedingly tedious, being so not only by the extraordinary steepness, but also by reason of the looseness of the boulders with which the whole face of the hill was strewn. the noise of his descent--now and then his heels struck fire from the rocks--seemed now the only sound in the universe, for the beating of the bell had ceased. as he drew nearer, he perceived that the various edifices had a singular resemblance to tombs and mausoleums and monuments, saving only that they were all uniformly black instead of being white, as most sepulchres are. and then he saw, crowding out of the largest building, very much as people disperse from church, a number of pallid, rounded, pale-green figures. these dispersed in several directions about the broad street of the place, some going through side alleys and reappearing upon the steepness of the hill, others entering some of the small black buildings which lined the way. at the sight of these things drifting up towards him, plattner stopped, staring. they were not walking, they were indeed limbless, and they had the appearance of human heads, beneath which a tadpole-like body swung. he was too astonished at their strangeness, too full, indeed, of strangeness, to be seriously alarmed by them. they drove towards him, in front of the chill wind that was blowing uphill, much as soap-bubbles drive before a draught. and as he looked at the nearest of those approaching, he saw it was indeed a human head, albeit with singularly large eyes, and wearing such an expression of distress and anguish as he had never seen before upon mortal countenance. he was surprised to find that it did not turn to regard him, but seemed to be watching and following some unseen moving thing. for a moment he was puzzled, and then it occurred to him that this creature was watching with its enormous eyes something that was happening in the world he had just left. nearer it came, and nearer, and he was too astonished to cry out. it made a very faint fretting sound as it came close to him. then it struck his face with a gentle pat--its touch was very cold--and drove past him, and upward towards the crest of the hill. an extraordinary conviction flashed across plattner's mind that this head had a strong likeness to lidgett. then he turned his attention to the other heads that were now swarming thickly up the hill-side. none made the slightest sign of recognition. one or two, indeed, came close to his head and almost followed the example of the first, but he dodged convulsively out of the way. upon most of them he saw the same expression of unavailing regret he had seen upon the first, and heard the same faint sounds of wretchedness from them. one or two wept, and one rolling swiftly uphill wore an expression of diabolical rage. but others were cold, and several had a look of gratified interest in their eyes. one, at least, was almost in an ecstasy of happiness. plattner does not remember that he recognised any more likenesses in those he saw at this time. for several hours, perhaps, plattner watched these strange things dispersing themselves over the hills, and not till long after they had ceased to issue from the clustering black buildings in the gorge, did he resume his downward climb. the darkness about him increased so much that he had a difficulty in stepping true. overhead the sky was now a bright, pale green. he felt neither hunger nor thirst. later, when he did, he found a chilly stream running down the centre of the gorge, and the rare moss upon the boulders, when he tried it at last in desperation, was good to eat. he groped about among the tombs that ran down the gorge, seeking vaguely for some clue to these inexplicable things. after a long time he came to the entrance of the big mausoleum-like building from which the heads had issued. in this he found a group of green lights burning upon a kind of basaltic altar, and a bell-rope from a belfry overhead hanging down into the centre of the place. round the wall ran a lettering of fire in a character unknown to him. while he was still wondering at the purport of these things, he heard the receding tramp of heavy feet echoing far down the street. he ran out into the darkness again, but he could see nothing. he had a mind to pull the bell-rope, and finally decided to follow the footsteps. but, although he ran far, he never overtook them; and his shouting was of no avail. the gorge seemed to extend an interminable distance. it was as dark as earthly starlight throughout its length, while the ghastly green day lay along the upper edge of its precipices. there were none of the heads, now, below. they were all, it seemed, busily occupied along the upper slopes. looking up, he saw them drifting hither and thither, some hovering stationary, some flying swiftly through the air. it reminded him, he said, of "big snowflakes"; only these were black and pale green. in pursuing the firm, undeviating footsteps that he never overtook, in groping into new regions of this endless devil's dyke, in clambering up and down the pitiless heights, in wandering about the summits, and in watching the drifting faces, plattner states that he spent the better part of seven or eight days. he did not keep count, he says. though once or twice he found eyes watching him, he had word with no living soul. he slept among the rocks on the hillside. in the gorge things earthly were invisible, because, from the earthly standpoint, it was far underground. on the altitudes, so soon as the earthly day began, the world became visible to him. he found himself sometimes stumbling over the dark green rocks, or arresting himself on a precipitous brink, while all about him the green branches of the sussexville lanes were swaying; or, again, he seemed to be walking through the sussexville streets, or watching unseen the private business of some household. and then it was he discovered, that to almost every human being in our world there pertained some of these drifting heads; that everyone in the world is watched intermittently by these helpless disembodiments. what are they--these watchers of the living? plattner never learned. but two, that presently found and followed him, were like his childhood's memory of his father and mother. now and then other faces turned their eyes upon him: eyes like those of dead people who had swayed him, or injured him, or helped him in his youth and manhood. whenever they looked at him, plattner was overcome with a strange sense of responsibility. to his mother he ventured to speak; but she made no answer. she looked sadly, steadfastly, and tenderly--a little reproachfully, too, it seemed--into his eyes. he simply tells this story: he does not endeavour to explain. we are left to surmise who these watchers of the living may be, or, if they are indeed the dead, why they should so closely and passionately watch a world they have left for ever. it may be--indeed to my mind it seems just--that, when our life has closed, when evil or good is no longer a choice for us, we may still have to witness the working out of the train of consequences we have laid. if human souls continue after death, then surely human interests continue after death. but that is merely my own guess at the meaning of the things seen. plattner offers no interpretation, for none was given him. it is well the reader should understand this clearly. day after day, with his head reeling, he wandered about this strange lit world outside the world, weary and, towards the end, weak and hungry. by day--by our earthly day, that is--the ghostly vision of the old familiar scenery of sussexville, all about him, irked and worried him. he could not see where to put his feet, and ever and again with a chilly touch one of these watching souls would come against his face. and after dark the multitude of these watchers about him, and their intent distress, confused his mind beyond describing. a great longing to return to the earthly life that was so near and yet so remote consumed him. the unearthliness of things about him produced a positively painful mental distress. he was worried beyond describing by his own particular followers. he would shout at them to desist from staring at him, scold at them, hurry away from them. they were always mute and intent. run as he might over the uneven ground, they followed his destinies. on the ninth day, towards evening, plattner heard the invisible footsteps approaching, far away down the gorge. he was then wandering over the broad crest of the same hill upon which he had fallen in his entry into this strange other-world of his. he turned to hurry down into the gorge, feeling his way hastily, and was arrested by the sight of the thing that was happening in a room in a back street near the school. both of the people in the room he knew by sight. the windows were open, the blinds up, and the setting sun shone clearly into it, so that it came out quite brightly at first, a vivid oblong of room, lying like a magic-lantern picture upon the black landscape and the livid green dawn. in addition to the sunlight, a candle had just been lit in the room. on the bed lay a lank man, his ghastly white face terrible upon the tumbled pillow. his clenched hands were raised above his head. a little table beside the bed carried a few medicine bottles, some toast and water, and an empty glass. every now and then the lank man's lips fell apart, to indicate a word he could not articulate. but the woman did not notice that he wanted anything, because she was busy turning out papers from an old-fashioned bureau in the opposite corner of the room. at first the picture was very vivid indeed, but as the green dawn behind it grew brighter and brighter, so it became fainter and more and more transparent. as the echoing footsteps paced nearer and nearer, those footsteps that sound so loud in that other-world and come so silently in this, plattner perceived about him a great multitude of dim faces gathering together out of the darkness and watching the two people in the room. never before had he seen so many of the watchers of the living. a multitude had eyes only for the sufferer in the room, another multitude, in infinite anguish, watched the woman as she hunted with greedy eyes for something she could not find. they crowded about plattner, they came across his sight and buffeted his face, the noise of their unavailing regrets was all about him. he saw clearly only now and then. at other times the picture quivered dimly, through the veil of green reflections upon their movements. in the room it must have been very still, and plattner says the candle flame streamed up into a perfectly vertical line of smoke, but in his ears each footfall and its echoes beat like a clap of thunder. and the faces! two, more particularly near the woman's: one a woman's also, white and clear-featured, a face which might have once been cold and hard, but which was now softened by the touch of a wisdom strange to earth. the other might have been the woman's father. both were evidently absorbed in the contemplation of some act of hateful meanness, so it seemed, which they could no longer guard against and prevent. behind were others, teachers, it may be, who had taught ill, friends whose influence had failed. and over the man, too--a multitude, but none that seemed to be parents or teachers! faces that might once have been coarse, now purged to strength by sorrow! and in the forefront one face, a girlish one, neither angry nor remorseful, but merely patient and weary, and, as it seemed to plattner, waiting for relief. his powers of description fail him at the memory of this multitude of ghastly countenances. they gathered on the stroke of the bell. he saw them all in the space of a second. it would seem that he was so worked on by his excitement that, quite involuntarily, his restless fingers took the bottle of green powder out of his pocket and held it before him. but he does not remember that. abruptly the footsteps ceased. he waited for the next, and there was silence, and then suddenly, cutting through the unexpected stillness like a keen, thin blade, came the first stroke of the bell. at that the multitudinous faces swayed to and fro, and a louder crying began all about him. the woman did not hear; she was burning something now in the candle flame. at the second stroke everything grew dim, and a breath of wind, icy cold, blew through the host of watchers. they swirled about him like an eddy of dead leaves in the spring, and at the third stroke something was extended through them to the bed. you have heard of a beam of light. this was like a beam of darkness, and looking again at it, plattner saw that it was a shadowy arm and hand. the green sun was now topping the black desolations of the horizon, and the vision of the room was very faint. plattner could see that the white of the bed struggled, and was convulsed; and that the woman looked round over her shoulder at it, startled. the cloud of watchers lifted high like a puff of green dust before the wind, and swept swiftly downward towards the temple in the gorge. then suddenly plattner understood the meaning of the shadowy black arm that stretched across his shoulder and clutched its prey. he did not dare turn his head to see the shadow behind the arm. with a violent effort, and covering his eyes, he set himself to run, made, perhaps, twenty strides, then slipped on a boulder, and fell. he fell forward on his hands; and the bottle smashed and exploded as he touched the ground. in another moment he found himself, stunned and bleeding, sitting face to face with lidgett in the old walled garden behind the school. * * * * * there the story of plattner's experiences ends. i have resisted, i believe successfully, the natural disposition of a writer of fiction to dress up incidents of this sort. i have told the thing as far as possible in the order in which plattner told it to me. i have carefully avoided any attempt at style, effect, or construction. it would have been easy, for instance, to have worked the scene of the death-bed into a kind of plot in which plattner might have been involved. but, quite apart from the objectionableness of falsifying a most extraordinary true story, any such trite devices would spoil, to my mind, the peculiar effect of this dark world, with its livid green illumination and its drifting watchers of the living, which, unseen and unapproachable to us, is yet lying all about us. it remains to add that a death did actually occur in vincent terrace, just beyond the school garden, and, so far as can be proved, at the moment of plattner's return. deceased was a rate-collector and insurance agent. his widow, who was much younger than himself, married last month a mr. whymper, a veterinary surgeon of allbeeding. as the portion of this story given here has in various forms circulated orally in sussexville, she has consented to my use of her name, on condition that i make it distinctly known that she emphatically contradicts every detail of plattner's account of her husband's last moments. she burnt no will, she says, although plattner never accused her of doing so; her husband made but one will, and that just after their marriage. certainly, from a man who had never seen it, plattner's account of the furniture of the room was curiously accurate. one other thing, even at the risk of an irksome repetition, i must insist upon, lest i seem to favour the credulous, superstitious view. plattner's absence from the world for nine days is, i think, proved. but that does not prove his story. it is quite conceivable that even outside space hallucinations may be possible. that, at least, the reader must bear distinctly in mind. xvi. the red room. "i can assure you," said i, "that it will take a very tangible ghost to frighten me." and i stood up before the fire with my glass in my hand. "it is your own choosing," said the man with the withered arm, and glanced at me askance. "eight-and-twenty years," said i, "i have lived, and never a ghost have i seen as yet." the old woman sat staring hard into the fire, her pale eyes wide open. "ay," she broke in; "and eight-and-twenty years you have lived and never seen the likes of this house, i reckon. there's a many things to see, when one's still but eight-and-twenty." she swayed her head slowly from side to side. "a many things to see and sorrow for." i half suspected the old people were trying to enhance the spiritual terrors of their house by their droning insistence. i put down my empty glass on the table and looked about the room, and caught a glimpse of myself, abbreviated and broadened to an impossible sturdiness, in the queer old mirror at the end of the room. "well," i said, "if i see anything to-night, i shall be so much the wiser. for i come to the business with an open mind." "it's your own choosing," said the man with the withered arm once more. i heard the sound of a stick and a shambling step on the flags in the passage outside, and the door creaked on its hinges as a second old man entered, more bent, more wrinkled, more aged even than the first. he supported himself by a single crutch, his eyes were covered by a shade, and his lower lip, half averted, hung pale and pink from his decaying yellow teeth. he made straight for an arm-chair on the opposite side of the table, sat down clumsily, and began to cough. the man with the withered arm gave this new-comer a short glance of positive dislike; the old woman took no notice of his arrival, but remained with her eyes fixed steadily on the fire. "i said--it's your own choosing," said the man with the withered arm, when the coughing had ceased for a while. "it's my own choosing," i answered. the man with the shade became aware of my presence for the first time, and threw his head back for a moment and sideways, to see me. i caught a momentary glimpse of his eyes, small and bright and inflamed. then he began to cough and splutter again. "why don't you drink?" said the man with the withered arm, pushing the beer towards him. the man with the shade poured out a glassful with a shaky hand that splashed half as much again on the deal table. a monstrous shadow of him crouched upon the wall and mocked his action as he poured and drank. i must confess i had scarce expected these grotesque custodians. there is to my mind something inhuman in senility, something crouching and atavistic; the human qualities seem to drop from old people insensibly day by day. the three of them made me feel uncomfortable, with their gaunt silences, their bent carriage, their evident unfriendliness to me and to one another. "if," said i, "you will show me to this haunted room of yours, i will make myself comfortable there." the old man with the cough jerked his head back so suddenly that it startled me, and shot another glance of his red eyes at me from under the shade; but no one answered me. i waited a minute, glancing from one to the other. "if," i said a little louder, "if you will show me to this haunted room of yours, i will relieve you from the task of entertaining me." "there's a candle on the slab outside the door," said the man with the withered arm, looking at my feet as he addressed me. "but if you go to the red room to-night----" ("this night of all nights!" said the old woman.) "you go alone." "very well," i answered. "and which way do i go?" "you go along the passage for a bit," said he, "until you come to a door, and through that is a spiral staircase, and half-way up that is a landing and another door covered with baize. go through that and down the long corridor to the end, and the red room is on your left up the steps." "have i got that right?" i said, and repeated his directions. he corrected me in one particular. "and are you really going?" said the man with the shade, looking at me again for the third time, with that queer, unnatural tilting of the face. ("this night of all nights!" said the old woman.) "it is what i came for," i said, and moved towards the door. as i did so, the old man with the shade rose and staggered round the table, so as to be closer to the others and to the fire. at the door i turned and looked at them, and saw they were all close together, dark against the firelight, staring at me over their shoulders, with an intent expression on their ancient faces. "good-night," i said, setting the door open. "it's your own choosing," said the man with the withered arm. i left the door wide open until the candle was well alight, and then i shut them in and walked down the chilly, echoing passage. i must confess that the oddness of these three old pensioners in whose charge her ladyship had left the castle, and the deep-toned, old-fashioned furniture of the housekeeper's room in which they foregathered, affected me in spite of my efforts to keep myself at a matter-of-fact phase. they seemed to belong to another age, an older age, an age when things spiritual were different from this of ours, less certain; an age when omens and witches were credible, and ghosts beyond denying. their very existence was spectral; the cut of their clothing, fashions born in dead brains. the ornaments and conveniences of the room about them were ghostly--the thoughts of vanished men, which still haunted rather than participated in the world of to-day. but with an effort i sent such thoughts to the right-about. the long, draughty subterranean passage was chilly and dusty, and my candle flared and made the shadows cower and quiver. the echoes rang up and down the spiral staircase, and a shadow came sweeping up after me, and one fled before me into the darkness overhead. i came to the landing and stopped there for a moment, listening to a rustling that i fancied i heard; then, satisfied of the absolute silence, i pushed open the baize-covered door and stood in the corridor. the effect was scarcely what i expected, for the moonlight, coming in by the great window on the grand staircase, picked out everything in vivid black shadow or silvery illumination. everything was in its place: the house might have been deserted on the yesterday instead of eighteen months ago. there were candles in the sockets of the sconces, and whatever dust had gathered on the carpets or upon the polished flooring was distributed so evenly as to be invisible in the moonlight. i was about to advance, and stopped abruptly. a bronze group stood upon the landing, hidden from me by the corner of the wall, but its shadow fell with marvellous distinctness upon the white panelling, and gave me the impression of someone crouching to waylay me. i stood rigid for half a minute perhaps. then, with my hand in the pocket that held my revolver, i advanced, only to discover a ganymede and eagle glistening in the moonlight. that incident for a time restored my nerve, and a porcelain chinaman on a buhl table, whose head rocked silently as i passed him, scarcely startled me. the door to the red room and the steps up to it were in a shadowy corner. i moved my candle from side to side, in order to see clearly the nature of the recess in which i stood before opening the door. here it was, thought i, that my predecessor was found, and the memory of that story gave me a sudden twinge of apprehension. i glanced over my shoulder at the ganymede in the moonlight, and opened the door of the red room rather hastily, with my face half turned to the pallid silence of the landing. i entered, closed the door behind me at once, turned the key i found in the lock within, and stood with the candle held aloft, surveying the scene of my vigil, the great red room of lorraine castle, in which the young duke had died. or, rather, in which he had begun his dying, for he had opened the door and fallen headlong down the steps i had just ascended. that had been the end of his vigil, of his gallant attempt to conquer the ghostly tradition of the place, and never, i thought, had apoplexy better served the ends of superstition. and there were other and older stories that clung to the room, back to the half-credible beginning of it all, the tale of a timid wife and the tragic end that came to her husband's jest of frightening her. and looking around that large sombre room, with its shadowy window bays, its recesses and alcoves, one could well understand the legends that had sprouted in its black corners, its germinating darkness. my candle was a little tongue of light in its vastness, that failed to pierce the opposite end of the room, and left an ocean of mystery and suggestion beyond its island of light. i resolved to make a systematic examination of the place at once, and dispel the fanciful suggestions of its obscurity before they obtained a hold upon me. after satisfying myself of the fastening of the door, i began to walk about the room, peering round each article of furniture, tucking up the valances of the bed, and opening its curtains wide. i pulled up the blinds and examined the fastenings of the several windows before closing the shutters, leant forward and looked up the blackness of the wide chimney, and tapped the dark oak panelling for any secret opening. there were two big mirrors in the room, each with a pair of sconces bearing candles, and on the mantelshelf, too, were more candles in china candlesticks. all these i lit one after the other. the fire was laid, an unexpected consideration from the old housekeeper,--and i lit it, to keep down any disposition to shiver, and when it was burning well, i stood round with my back to it and regarded the room again. i had pulled up a chintz-covered arm-chair and a table, to form a kind of barricade before me, and on this lay my revolver ready to hand. my precise examination had done me good, but i still found the remoter darkness of the place, and its perfect stillness, too stimulating for the imagination. the echoing of the stir and crackling of the fire was no sort of comfort to me. the shadow in the alcove at the end in particular, had that undefinable quality of a presence, that odd suggestion of a lurking, living thing, that comes so easily in silence and solitude. at last, to reassure myself, i walked with a candle into it, and satisfied myself that there was nothing tangible there. i stood that candle upon the floor of the alcove, and left it in that position. by this time i was in a state of considerable nervous tension, although to my reason there was no adequate cause for the condition. my mind, however, was perfectly clear. i postulated quite unreservedly that nothing supernatural could happen, and to pass the time i began to string some rhymes together, ingoldsby fashion, of the original legend of the place. a few i spoke aloud, but the echoes were not pleasant. for the same reason i also abandoned, after a time, a conversation with myself upon the impossibility of ghosts and haunting. my mind reverted to the three old and distorted people downstairs, and i tried to keep it upon that topic. the sombre reds and blacks of the room troubled, me; even with seven candles the place was merely dim. the one in the alcove flared in a draught, and the fire-flickering kept the shadows and penumbra perpetually shifting and stirring. casting about for a remedy, i recalled the candles i had seen in the passage, and, with a slight effort, walked out into the moonlight, carrying a candle and leaving the door open, and presently returned with as many as ten. these i put in various knick-knacks of china with which the room was sparsely adorned, lit and placed where the shadows had lain deepest, some on the floor, some in the window recesses, until at last my seventeen candles were so arranged that not an inch of the room but had the direct light of at least one of them. it occurred to me that when the ghost came, i could warn him not to trip over them. the room was now quite brightly illuminated. there was something very cheery and reassuring in these little streaming flames, and snuffing them gave me an occupation, and afforded a helpful sense of the passage of time. even with that, however, the brooding expectation of the vigil weighed heavily upon me. it was after midnight that the candle in the alcove suddenly went out, and the black shadow sprang back to its place there. i did not see the candle go out; i simply turned and saw that the darkness was there, as one might start and see the unexpected presence of a stranger. "by jove!" said i aloud; "that draught's a strong one!" and, taking the matches from the table, i walked across the room in a leisurely manner, to relight the corner again. my first match would not strike, and as i succeeded with the second, something seemed to blink on the wall before me. i turned my head involuntarily, and saw that the two candles on the little table by the fireplace were extinguished. i rose at once to my feet. "odd!" i said. "did i do that myself in a flash of absent-mindedness?" i walked back, relit one, and as i did so, i saw the candle in the right sconce of one of the mirrors wink and go right out, and almost immediately its companion followed it. there was no mistake about it. the flame vanished, as if the wicks had been suddenly nipped between a finger and a thumb, leaving the wick neither glowing nor smoking, but black. while i stood gaping, the candle at the foot of the bed went out, and the shadows seemed to take another step towards me. "this won't do!" said i, and first one and then another candle on the mantelshelf followed. "what's up?" i cried, with a queer high note getting into my voice somehow. at that the candle on the wardrobe went out, and the one i had relit in the alcove followed. "steady on!" i said. "these candles are wanted," speaking with a half-hysterical facetiousness, and scratching away at a match the while for the mantel candlesticks. my hands trembled so much that twice i missed the rough paper of the matchbox. as the mantel emerged from darkness again, two candles in the remoter end of the window were eclipsed. but with the same match i also relit the larger mirror candles, and those on the floor near the doorway, so that for the moment i seemed to gain on the extinctions. but then in a volley there vanished four lights at once in different corners of the room, and i struck another match in quivering haste, and stood hesitating whither to take it. as i stood undecided, an invisible hand seemed to sweep out the two candles on the table. with a cry of terror, i dashed at the alcove, then into the corner, and then into the window, relighting three, as two more vanished by the fireplace; then, perceiving a better way, i dropped the matches on the iron-bound deed-box in the corner, and caught up the bedroom candlestick. with this i avoided the delay of striking matches; but for all that the steady process of extinction went on, and the shadows i feared and fought against returned, and crept in upon me, first a step gained on this side of me and then on that. it was like a ragged storm-cloud sweeping out the stars. now and then one returned for a minute, and was lost again. i was now almost frantic with the horror of the coming darkness, and my self-possession deserted me. i leaped panting and dishevelled from candle to candle, in a vain struggle against that remorseless advance. i bruised myself on the thigh against the table, i sent a chair headlong, i stumbled and fell and whisked the cloth from the table in my fall. my candle rolled away from me, and i snatched another as i rose. abruptly this was blown out, as i swung it off the table by the wind of my sudden movement, and immediately the two remaining candles followed. but there was light still in the room, a red light that staved off the shadows from me. the fire! of course i could still thrust my candle between the bars and relight it! i turned to where the flames were still dancing between the glowing coals, and splashing red reflections upon the furniture, made two steps towards the grate, and incontinently the flames dwindled and vanished, the glow vanished, the reflections rushed together and vanished, and as i thrust the candle between the bars darkness closed upon me like the shutting of an eye, wrapped about me in a stifling embrace, sealed my vision, and crushed the last vestiges of reason from my brain. the candle fell from my hand. i flung out my arms in a vain effort to thrust that ponderous blackness away from me, and, lifting up my voice, screamed with all my might--once, twice, thrice. then i think i must have staggered to my feet. i know i thought suddenly of the moonlit corridor, and, with my head bowed and my arms over my face, made a run for the door. but i had forgotten the exact position of the door, and struck myself heavily against the corner of the bed. i staggered back, turned, and was either struck or struck myself against some other bulky furniture. i have a vague memory of battering myself thus, to and fro in the darkness, of a cramped struggle, and of my own wild crying as i darted to and fro, of a heavy blow at last upon my forehead, a horrible sensation of falling that lasted an age, of my last frantic effort to keep my footing, and then i remember no more. i opened my eyes in daylight. my head was roughly bandaged, and the man with the withered arm was watching my face. i looked about me, trying to remember what had happened, and for a space i could not recollect. i rolled my eyes into the corner, and saw the old woman, no longer abstracted, pouring out some drops of medicine from a little blue phial into a glass. "where am i?" i asked; "i seem to remember you, and yet i cannot remember who you are." they told me then, and i heard of the haunted red room as one who hears a tale. "we found you at dawn," said he, "and there was blood on your forehead and lips." it was very slowly i recovered my memory of my experience. "you believe now," said the old man, "that the room is haunted?" he spoke no longer as one who greets an intruder, but as one who grieves for a broken friend. "yes," said i; "the room is haunted." "and you have seen it. and we, who have lived here all our lives, have never set eyes upon it. because we have never dared... tell us, is it truly the old earl who----" "no," said i; "it is not." "i told you so," said the old lady, with the glass in her hand. "it is his poor young countess who was frightened----" "it is not," i said. "there is neither ghost of earl nor ghost of countess in that room, there is no ghost there at all; but worse, far worse----" "well?" they said. "the worst of all the things that haunt poor mortal man," said i; "and that is, in all its nakedness--fear that will not have light nor sound, that will not bear with reason, that deafens and darkens and overwhelms. it followed me through the corridor, it fought against me in the room----" i stopped abruptly. there was an interval of silence. my hand went up to my bandages. then the man with the shade sighed and spoke. "that is it," said he. "i knew that was it. a power of darkness. to put such a curse upon a woman! it lurks there always. you can feel it even in the daytime, even of a bright summer's day, in the hangings, in the curtains, keeping behind you however you face about. in the dusk it creeps along the corridor and follows you, so that you dare not turn. there is fear in that room of hers--black fear, and there will be--so long as this house of sin endures." xvii. the purple pileus mr. coombes was sick of life. he walked away from his unhappy home, and, sick not only of his own existence but of everybody else's, turned aside down gaswork lane to avoid the town, and, crossing the wooden bridge that goes over the canal to starling's cottages, was presently alone in the damp pine woods and out of sight and sound of human habitation. he would stand it no longer. he repeated aloud with blasphemies unusual to him that he would stand it no longer. he was a pale-faced little man, with dark eyes and a fine and very black moustache. he had a very stiff, upright collar slightly frayed, that gave him an illusory double chin, and his overcoat (albeit shabby) was trimmed with astrachan. his gloves were a bright brown with black stripes over the knuckles, and split at the finger ends. his appearance, his wife had said once in the dear, dead days beyond recall--before he married her, that is--was military. but now she called him--it seems a dreadful thing to tell of between husband and wife, but she called him "a little grub." it wasn't the only thing she had called him, either. the row had arisen about that beastly jennie again. jennie was his wife's friend, and, by no invitation of mr. coombes, she came in every blessed sunday to dinner, and made a shindy all the afternoon. she was a big, noisy girl, with a taste for loud colours and a strident laugh; and this sunday she had outdone all her previous intrusions by bringing in a fellow with her, a chap as showy as herself. and mr. coombes, in a starchy, clean collar and his sunday frock-coat, had sat dumb and wrathful at his own table, while his wife and her guests talked foolishly and undesirably, and laughed aloud. well, he stood that, and after dinner (which, "as usual," was late), what must miss jennie do but go to the piano and play banjo tunes, for all the world as if it were a week-day! flesh and blood could not endure such goings on. they would hear next door, they would hear in the road, it was a public announcement of their disrepute. he had to speak. he had felt himself go pale, and a kind of rigour had affected his respiration as he delivered himself. he had been sitting on one of the chairs by the window--the new guest had taken possession of the arm-chair. he turned his head. "sun day!" he said over the collar, in the voice of one who warns. "sun day!" what people call a "nasty" tone, it was. jennie had kept on playing, but his wife, who was looking through some music that was piled on the top of the piano, had stared at him. "what's wrong now?" she said; "can't people enjoy themselves?" "i don't mind rational 'njoyment, at all," said little coombes, "but i ain't a-going to have week-day tunes playing on a sunday in this house." "what's wrong with my playing now?" said jennie, stopping and twirling round on the music-stool with a monstrous rustle of flounces. coombes saw it was going to be a row, and opened too vigorously, as is common with your timid, nervous men all the world over. "steady on with that music-stool!" said he; "it ain't made for 'eavy-weights." "never you mind about weights," said jennie, incensed. "what was you saying behind my back about my playing?" "surely you don't 'old with not having a bit of music on a sunday, mr. coombes?" said the new guest, leaning back in the arm-chair, blowing a cloud of cigarette smoke and smiling in a kind of pitying way. and simultaneously his wife said something to jennie about "never mind 'im. you go on, jinny." "i do," said mr. coombes, addressing the new guest. "may i arst why?" said the new guest, evidently enjoying both his cigarette and the prospect of an argument. he was, by-the-by, a lank young man, very stylishly dressed in bright drab, with a white cravat and a pearl and silver pin. it had been better taste to come in a black coat, mr. coombes thought. "because," began mr. coombes, "it don't suit me. i'm a business man. i 'ave to study my connection. rational 'njoyment--" "his connection!" said mrs. coombes scornfully. "that's what he's always a-saying. we got to do this, and we got to do that--" "if you don't mean to study my connection," said mr. coombes, "what did you marry me for?" "i wonder," said jennie, and turned back to the piano. "i never saw such a man as you," said mrs. coombes. "you've altered all round since we were married. before--" then jennie began at the turn, turn, turn again. "look here!" said mr. coombes, driven at last to revolt, standing up and raising his voice. "i tell you i won't have that." the frock-coat heaved with his indignation. "no vi'lence, now," said the long young man in drab, sitting up. "who the juice are you?" said mr. coombes fiercely. whereupon they all began talking at once. the new guest said he was jennie's "intended," and meant to protect her, and mr. coombes said he was welcome to do so anywhere but in his (mr. coombes') house; and mrs. coombes said he ought to be ashamed of insulting his guests, and (as i have already mentioned) that he was getting a regular little grub; and the end was, that mr. coombes ordered his visitors out of the house, and they wouldn't go, and so he said he would go himself. with his face burning and tears of excitement in his eyes, he went into the passage, and as he struggled with his overcoat--his frock-coat sleeves got concertinaed up his arm--and gave a brush at his silk hat, jennie began again at the piano, and strummed him insultingly out of the house. turn, turn, turn. he slammed the shop door so that the house quivered. that, briefly, was the immediate making of his mood. you will perhaps begin to understand his disgust with existence. as he walked along the muddy path under the firs,--it was late october, and the ditches and heaps of fir needles were gorgeous with clumps of fungi,--he recapitulated the melancholy history of his marriage. it was brief and commonplace enough. he now perceived with sufficient clearness that his wife had married him out of a natural curiosity and in order to escape from her worrying, laborious, and uncertain life in the workroom; and, like the majority of her class, she was far too stupid to realise that it was her duty to co-operate with him in his business. she was greedy of enjoyment, loquacious, and socially-minded, and evidently disappointed to find the restraints of poverty still hanging about her. his worries exasperated her, and the slightest attempt to control her proceedings resulted in a charge of "grumbling." why couldn't he be nice-- as he used to be? and coombes was such a harmless little man, too, nourished mentally on _self-help_, and with a meagre ambition of self-denial and competition, that was to end in a "sufficiency." then jennie came in as a female mephistopheles, a gabbling chronicle of "fellers," and was always wanting his wife to go to theatres, and "all that." and in addition were aunts of his wife, and cousins (male and female) to eat up capital, insult him personally, upset business arrangements, annoy good customers, and generally blight his life. it was not the first occasion by many that mr. coombes had fled his home in wrath and indignation, and something like fear, vowing furiously and even aloud that he wouldn't stand it, and so frothing away his energy along the line of least resistance. but never before had he been quite so sick of life as on this particular sunday afternoon. the sunday dinner may have had its share in his despair--and the greyness of the sky. perhaps, too, he was beginning to realise his unendurable frustration as a business man as the consequence of his marriage. presently bankruptcy, and after that---- perhaps she might have reason to repent when it was too late. and destiny, as i have already intimated, had planted the path through the wood with evil-smelling fungi, thickly and variously planted it, not only on the right side, but on the left. a small shopman is in such a melancholy position, if his wife turns out a disloyal partner. his capital is all tied up in his business, and to leave her means to join the unemployed in some strange part of the earth. the luxuries of divorce are beyond him altogether. so that the good old tradition of marriage for better or worse holds inexorably for him, and things work up to tragic culminations. bricklayers kick their wives to death, and dukes betray theirs; but it is among the small clerks and shopkeepers nowadays that it comes most often to a cutting of throats. under the circumstances it is not so very remarkable--and you must take it as charitably as you can--that the mind of mr. coombes ran for a while on some such glorious close to his disappointed hopes, and that he thought of razors, pistols, bread-knives, and touching letters to the coroner denouncing his enemies by name, and praying piously for forgiveness. after a time his fierceness gave way to melancholia. he had been married in this very overcoat, in his first and only frock-coat that was buttoned up beneath it. he began to recall their courting along this very walk, his years of penurious saving to get capital, and the bright hopefulness of his marrying days. for it all to work out like this! was there no sympathetic ruler anywhere in the world? he reverted to death as a topic. he thought of the canal he had just crossed, and doubted whether he shouldn't stand with his head out, even in the middle, and it was while drowning was in his mind that the purple pileus caught his eye. he looked at it mechanically for a moment, and stopped and stooped towards it to pick it up, under the impression that it was some such small leather object as a purse. then he saw that it was the purple top of a fungus, a peculiarly poisonous-looking purple: slimy, shiny, and emitting a sour odour. he hesitated with his hand an inch or so from it, and the thought of poison crossed his mind. with that he picked the thing, and stood up again with it in his hand. the odour was certainly strong--acrid, but by no means disgusting. he broke off a piece, and the fresh surface was a creamy white, that changed like magic in the space of ten seconds to a yellowish-green colour. it was even an inviting-looking change. he broke off two other pieces to see it repeated. they were wonderful things these fungi, thought mr. coombes, and all of them the deadliest poisons, as his father had often told him. deadly poisons! there is no time like the present for a rash resolve. why not here and now? thought mr. coombes. he tasted a little piece, a very little piece indeed--a mere crumb. it was so pungent that he almost spat it out again, then merely hot and full-flavoured: a kind of german mustard with a touch of horse-radish and--well, mushroom. he swallowed it in the excitement of the moment. did he like it or did he not? his mind was curiously careless. he would try another bit. it really wasn't bad--it was good. he forgot his troubles in the interest of the immediate moment. playing with death it was. he took another bite, and then deliberately finished a mouthful. a curious, tingling sensation began in his finger-tips and toes. his pulse began to move faster. the blood in his ears sounded like a mill-race. "try bi' more," said mr. coombes. he turned and looked about him, and found his feet unsteady. he saw, and struggled towards, a little patch of purple a dozen yards away. "jol' goo' stuff," said mr. coombes. "e--lomore ye'." he pitched forward and fell on his face, his hands outstretched towards the cluster of pilei. but he did not eat any more of them. he forgot forthwith. he rolled over and sat up with a look of astonishment on his face. his carefully brushed silk hat had rolled away towards the ditch. he pressed his hand to his brow. something had happened, but he could not rightly determine what it was. anyhow, he was no longer dull--he felt bright, cheerful. and his throat was afire. he laughed in the sudden gaiety of his heart. had he been dull? he did not know; but at any rate he would be dull no longer. he got up and stood unsteadily, regarding the universe with an agreeable smile. he began to remember. he could not remember very well, because of a steam roundabout that was beginning in his head. and he knew he had been disagreeable at home, just because they wanted to be happy. they were quite right; life should be as gay as possible. he would go home and make it up, and reassure them. and why not take some of this delightful toadstool with him, for them to eat? a hatful, no less. some of those red ones with white spots as well, and a few yellow. he had been a dull dog, an enemy to merriment; he would make up for it. it would be gay to turn his coat-sleeves inside out, and stick some yellow gorse into his waistcoat pockets. then home--singing---for a jolly evening. after the departure of mr. coombes, jennie discontinued playing, and turned round on the music-stool again. "what a fuss about nothing!" said jennie. "you see, mr. clarence, what i've got to put up with," said mrs. coombes. "he is a bit hasty," said mr. clarence judicially. "he ain't got the slightest sense of our position," said mrs. coombes; "that's what i complain of. he cares for nothing but his old shop; and if i have a bit of company, or buy anything to keep myself decent, or get any little thing i want out of the housekeeping money, there's disagreeables. 'economy' he says; 'struggle for life,' and all that. he lies awake of nights about it, worrying how he can screw me out of a shilling. he wanted us to eat dorset butter once. if once i was to give in to him--there!" "of course," said jennie. "if a man values a woman," said mr. clarence, lounging back in the arm-chair, "he must be prepared to make sacrifices for her. for my own part," said mr. clarence, with his eye on jennie, "i shouldn't think of marrying till i was in a position to do the thing in style. it's downright selfishness. a man ought to go through the rough-and-tumble by himself, and not drag her--" "i don't agree altogether with that," said jennie. "i don't see why a man shouldn't have a woman's help, provided he doesn't treat her meanly, you know. it's meanness--" "you wouldn't believe," said mrs. coombes. "but i was a fool to 'ave 'im. i might 'ave known. if it 'adn't been for my father, we shouldn't 'ave 'ad not a carriage to our wedding." "lord! he didn't stick out at that?" said mr. clarence, quite shocked. "said he wanted the money for his stock, or some such rubbish. why, he wouldn't have a woman in to help me once a week if it wasn't for my standing out plucky. and the fusses he makes about money--comes to me, well, pretty near crying, with sheets of paper and figgers. 'if only we can tide over this year,' he says, 'the business is bound to go.' 'if only we can tide over this year,' i says; 'then it'll be, if only we can tide over next year. i know you,' i says. 'and you don't catch me screwing myself lean and ugly. why didn't you marry a slavey?' i says, 'if you wanted one--instead of a respectable girl,' i says." so mrs. coombes. but we will not follow this unedifying conversation further. suffice it that mr. coombes was very satisfactorily disposed of, and they had a snug little time round the fire. then mrs. coombes went to get the tea, and jennie sat coquettishly on the arm of mr. clarence's chair until the tea-things clattered outside. "what was that i heard?" asked mrs. coombes playfully, as she entered, and there was badinage about kissing. they were just sitting down to the little circular table when the first intimation of mr. coombes' return was heard. this was a fumbling at the latch of the front door. "'ere's my lord," said mrs. coombes. "went out like a lion and comes back like a lamb, i'll lay." something fell over in the shop: a chair, it sounded like. then there was a sound as of some complicated step exercise in the passage. then the door opened and coombes appeared. but it was coombes transfigured. the immaculate collar had been torn carelessly from his throat. his carefully-brushed silk hat, half-full of a crush of fungi, was under one arm; his coat was inside out, and his waistcoat adorned with bunches of yellow-blossomed furze. these little eccentricities of sunday costume, however, were quite overshadowed by the change in his face; it was livid white, his eyes were unnaturally large and bright, and his pale blue lips were drawn back in a cheerless grin. "merry!" he said. he had stopped dancing to open the door. "rational 'njoyment. dance." he made three fantastic steps into the room, and stood bowing. "jim!" shrieked mrs. coombes, and mr. clarence sat petrified, with a dropping lower jaw. "tea," said mr. coombes. "jol' thing, tea. tose-stools, too. brosher." "he's drunk," said jennie in a weak voice. never before had she seen this intense pallor in a drunken man, or such shining, dilated eyes. mr. coombes held out a handful of scarlet agaric to mr. clarence. "jo' stuff," said he; "ta' some." at that moment he was genial. then at the sight of their startled faces he changed, with the swift transition of insanity, into overbearing fury. and it seemed as if he had suddenly recalled the quarrel of his departure. in such a huge voice as mrs. coombes had never heard before, he shouted, "my house. i'm master 'ere. eat what i give yer!" he bawled this, as it seemed, without an effort, without a violent gesture, standing there as motionless as one who whispers, holding out a handful of fungus. clarence approved himself a coward. he could not meet the mad fury in coombes' eyes; he rose to his feet, pushing back his chair, and turned, stooping. at that coombes rushed at him. jennie saw her opportunity, and, with the ghost of a shriek, made for the door. mrs. coombes followed her. clarence tried to dodge. over went the tea-table with a smash as coombes clutched him by the collar and tried to thrust the fungus into his mouth. clarence was content to leave his collar behind him, and shot out into the passage with red patches of fly agaric still adherent to his face. "shut 'im in!" cried mrs. coombes, and would have closed the door, but her supports deserted her; jennie saw the shop door open, and vanished thereby, locking it behind her, while clarence went on hastily into the kitchen. mr. coombes came heavily against the door, and mrs. coombes, finding the key was inside, fled upstairs and locked herself in the spare bedroom. so the new convert to _joie de vivre_ emerged upon the passage, his decorations a little scattered, but that respectable hatful of fungi still under his arm. he hesitated at the three ways, and decided on the kitchen. whereupon clarence, who was fumbling with the key, gave up the attempt to imprison his host, and fled into the scullery, only to be captured before he could open the door into the yard. mr. clarence is singularly reticent of the details of what occurred. it seems that mr. coombes' transitory irritation had vanished again, and he was once more a genial playfellow. and as there were knives and meat choppers about, clarence very generously resolved to humour him and so avoid anything tragic. it is beyond dispute that mr. coombes played with mr. clarence to his heart's content; they could not have been more playful and familiar if they had known each other for years. he insisted gaily on clarence trying the fungi, and, after a friendly tussle, was smitten with remorse at the mess he was making of his guest's face. it also appears that clarence was dragged under the sink and his face scrubbed with the blacking brush--he being still resolved to humour the lunatic at any cost--and that finally, in a somewhat dishevelled, chipped, and discoloured condition, he was assisted to his coat and shown out by the back door, the shopway being barred by jennie. mr. coombes' wandering thoughts then turned to jennie. jennie had been unable to unfasten the shop door, but she shot the bolts against mr. coombes' latch-key, and remained in possession of the shop for the rest of the evening. it would appear that mr. coombes then returned to the kitchen, still in pursuit of gaiety, and, albeit a strict good templar, drank (or spilt down the front of the first and only frock-coat) no less than five bottles of the stout mrs. coombes insisted upon having for her health's sake. he made cheerful noises by breaking off the necks of the bottles with several of his wife's wedding-present dinner-plates, and during the earlier part of this great drunk he sang divers merry ballads. he cut his finger rather badly with one of the bottles--the only bloodshed in this story--and what with that, and the systematic convulsion of his inexperienced physiology by the liquorish brand of mrs. coombes' stout, it may be the evil of the fungus poison was somehow allayed. but we prefer to draw a veil over the concluding incidents of this sunday afternoon. they ended in the coal cellar, in a deep and healing sleep. an interval of five years elapsed. again it was a sunday afternoon in october, and again mr. coombes walked through the pine wood beyond the canal. he was still the same dark-eyed, black-moustached little man that he was at the outset of the story, but his double chin was now scarcely so illusory as it had been. his overcoat was new, with a velvet lapel, and a stylish collar with turn-down corners, free of any coarse starchiness, had replaced the original all-round article. his hat was glossy, his gloves newish--though one finger had split and been carefully mended. and a casual observer would have noticed about him a certain rectitude of bearing, a certain erectness of head that marks the man who thinks well of himself. he was a master now, with three assistants. beside him walked a larger sunburnt parody of himself, his brother tom, just back from australia. they were recapitulating their early struggles, and mr. coombes had just been making a financial statement. "it's a very nice little business, jim," said brother tom. "in these days of competition you're jolly lucky to have worked it up so. and you're jolly lucky, too, to have a wife who's willing to help like yours does." "between ourselves," said mr. coombes, "it wasn't always so. it wasn't always like this. to begin with, the missus was a bit giddy. girls are funny creatures." "dear me!" "yes. you'd hardly think it, but she was downright extravagant, and always having slaps at me. i was a bit too easy and loving, and all that, and she thought the whole blessed show was run for her. turned the 'ouse into a regular caravansery, always having her relations and girls from business in, and their chaps. comic songs a' sunday, it was getting to, and driving trade away. and she was making eyes at the chaps, too! i tell you, tom, the place wasn't my own." "shouldn't 'a' thought it." "it was so. well--i reasoned with her. i said, 'i ain't a duke, to keep a wife like a pet animal. i married you for 'elp and company.' i said, 'you got to 'elp and pull the business through.' she wouldn't 'ear of it. 'very well,' i says?? 'i'm a mild man till i'm roused,' i says, 'and it's getting to that.' but she wouldn't 'ear of no warnings." "well?" "it's the way with women. she didn't think i 'ad it in me to be roused. women of her sort (between ourselves, tom) don't respect a man until they're a bit afraid of him. so i just broke out to show her. in comes a girl named jennie, that used to work with her, and her chap. we 'ad a bit of a row, and i came out 'ere--it was just such another day as this--and i thought it all out. then i went back and pitched into them." "you did?" "i did. i was mad, i can tell you. i wasn't going to 'it 'er if i could 'elp it, so i went back and licked into this chap, just to show 'er what i could do. 'e was a big chap, too. well, i chucked him, and smashed things about, and gave 'er a scaring, and she ran up and locked 'erself into the spare room." "well?" "that's all. i says to 'er the next morning, 'now you know,' i says, 'what i'm like when i'm roused.' and i didn't have to say anything more." "and you've been happy ever after, eh?" "so to speak. there's nothing like putting your foot down with them. if it 'adn't been for that afternoon i should 'a' been tramping the roads now, and she'd 'a' been grumbling at me, and all her family grumbling for bringing her to poverty--i know their little ways. but we're all right now. and it's a very decent little business, as you say." they proceeded on their way meditatively. "women are funny creatures," said brother tom. "they want a firm hand," says coombes. "what a lot of these funguses there are about here!" remarked brother tom presently. "i can't see what use they are in the world." mr. coombes looked. "i dessay they're sent for some wise purpose," said mr. coombes. and that was as much thanks as the purple pileus ever got for maddening this absurd little man to the pitch of decisive action, and so altering the whole course of his life. xviii. a slip under the microscope. outside the laboratory windows was a watery-grey fog, and within a close warmth and the yellow light of the green-shaded gas lamps that stood two to each table down its narrow length. on each table stood a couple of glass jars containing the mangled vestiges of the crayfish, mussels, frogs, and guinea-pigs upon which the students had been working, and down the side of the room, facing the windows, were shelves bearing bleached dissections in spirits, surmounted by a row of beautifully executed anatomical drawings in white-wood frames and overhanging a row of cubical lockers. all the doors of the laboratory were panelled with blackboard, and on these were the half-erased diagrams of the previous day's work. the laboratory was empty, save for the demonstrator, who sat near the preparation-room door, and silent, save for a low, continuous murmur and the clicking of the rocker microtome at which he was working. but scattered about the room were traces of numerous students: hand-bags, polished boxes of instruments, in one place a large drawing covered by newspaper, and in another a prettily bound copy of _news from nowhere_, a book oddly at variance with its surroundings. these things had been put down hastily as the students had arrived and hurried at once to secure their seats in the adjacent lecture theatre. deadened by the closed door, the measured accents of the professor sounded as a featureless muttering. presently, faint through the closed windows came the sound of the oratory clock striking the hour of eleven. the clicking of the microtome ceased, and the demonstrator looked at his watch, rose, thrust his hands into his pockets, and walked slowly down the laboratory towards the lecture theatre door. he stood listening for a moment, and then his eye fell on the little volume by william morris. he picked it up, glanced at the title, smiled, opened it, looked at the name on the fly-leaf, ran the leaves through with his hand, and put it down. almost immediately the even murmur of the lecturer ceased, there was a sudden burst of pencils rattling on the desks in the lecture theatre, a stirring, a scraping of feet, and a number of voices speaking together. then a firm footfall approached the door, which began to open, and stood ajar, as some indistinctly heard question arrested the new-comer. the demonstrator turned, walked slowly back past the microtome, and left the laboratory by the preparation-room door. as he did so, first one, and then several students carrying notebooks entered the laboratory from the lecture theatre, and distributed themselves among the little tables, or stood in a group about the doorway. they were an exceptionally heterogeneous assembly, for while oxford and cambridge still recoil from the blushing prospect of mixed classes, the college of science anticipated america in the matter years ago--mixed socially, too, for the prestige of the college is high, and its scholarships, free of any age limit, dredge deeper even than do those of the scotch universities. the class numbered one-and-twenty, but some remained in the theatre questioning the professor, copying the black-board diagrams before they were washed off, or examining the special specimens he had produced to illustrate the day's teaching. of the nine who had come into the laboratory three were girls, one of whom, a little fair woman, wearing spectacles and dressed in greyish-green, was peering out of the window at the fog, while the other two, both wholesome-looking, plain-faced schoolgirls, unrolled and put on the brown holland aprons they wore while dissecting. of the men, two went down the laboratory to their places, one a pallid, dark-bearded man, who had once been a tailor; the other a pleasant-featured, ruddy young man of twenty, dressed in a well-fitting brown suit; young wedderburn, the son of wedderburn, the eye specialist. the others formed a little knot near the theatre door. one of these, a dwarfed, spectacled figure, with a hunchback, sat on a bent wood stool; two others, one a short, dark youngster, and the other a flaxen-haired, reddish-complexioned young man, stood leaning side by side against the slate sink, while the fourth stood facing them, and maintained the larger share of the conversation. this last person was named hill. he was a sturdily built young fellow, of the same age as wedderburn; he had a white face, dark grey eyes, hair of an indeterminate colour, and prominent, irregular features. he talked rather louder than was needful, and thrust his hands deeply into his pockets. his collar was frayed and blue with the starch of a careless laundress, his clothes were evidently ready-made, and there was a patch on the side of his boot near the toe. and as he talked or listened to the others, he glanced now and again towards the lecture theatre door. they were discussing the depressing peroration of the lecture they had just heard, the last lecture it was in the introductory course in zoology. "from ovum to ovum is the goal of the higher vertebrata," the lecturer had said in his melancholy tones, and so had neatly rounded off the sketch of comparative anatomy he had been developing. the spectacled hunchback had repeated it, with noisy appreciation, had tossed it towards the fair-haired student with an evident provocation, and had started one of these vague, rambling discussions on generalities, so unaccountably dear to the student mind all the world over. "that is our goal, perhaps--i admit it, as far as science goes," said the fair-haired student, rising to the challenge. "but there are things above science." "science," said hill confidently, "is systematic knowledge. ideas that don't come into the system--must anyhow--be loose ideas." he was not quite sure whether that was a clever saying or a fatuity until his hearers took it seriously. "the thing i cannot understand," said the hunchback, at large, "is whether hill is a materialist or not." "there is one thing above matter," said hill promptly, feeling he had a better thing this time; aware, too, of someone in the doorway behind him, and raising his voice a trifle for her benefit, "and that is, the delusion that there is something above matter." "so we have your gospel at last," said the fair student. "it's all a delusion, is it? all our aspirations to lead something more than dogs' lives, all our work for anything beyond ourselves. but see how inconsistent you are. your socialism, for instance. why do you trouble about the interests of the race? why do you concern yourself about the beggar in the gutter? why are you bothering yourself to lend that book "-- he indicated william morris by a movement of the head--"to everyone in the lab.?" "girl," said the hunchback indistinctly, and glanced guiltily over his shoulder. the girl in brown, with the brown eyes, had come into the laboratory, and stood on the other side of the table behind him, with her rolled-up apron in one hand, looking over her shoulder, listening to the discussion. she did not notice the hunchback, because she was glancing from hill to his interlocutor. hill's consciousness of her presence betrayed itself to her only in his studious ignorance of the fact; but she understood that, and it pleased her. "i see no reason," said he, "why a man should live like a brute because he knows of nothing beyond matter, and does not expect to exist a hundred years hence." "why shouldn't he?" said the fair-haired student. "why _should_ he?" said hill. "what inducement has he?" "that's the way with all you religious people. it's all a business of inducements. cannot a man seek after righteousness for righteousness' sake?" there was a pause. the fair man answered, with a kind of vocal padding, "but--you see--inducement--when i said inducement," to gain time. and then the hunchback came to his rescue and inserted a question. he was a terrible person in the debating society with his questions, and they invariably took one form--a demand for a definition, "what's your definition of righteousness?" said the hunchback at this stage. hill experienced a sudden loss of complacency at this question, but even as it was asked, relief came in the person of brooks, the laboratory attendant, who entered by the preparation-room door, carrying a number of freshly killed guinea-pigs by their hind legs. "this is the last batch of material this session," said the youngster who had not previously spoken. brooks advanced up the laboratory, smacking down a couple of guinea-pigs at each table. the rest of the class, scenting the prey from afar, came crowding in by the lecture theatre door, and the discussion perished abruptly as the students who were not already in their places hurried to them to secure the choice of a specimen. there was a noise of keys rattling on split rings as lockers were opened and dissecting instruments taken out. hill was already standing by his table, and his box of scalpels was sticking out of his pocket. the girl in brown came a step towards him, and, leaning over his table, said softly, "did you see that i returned your book, mr. hill?" during the whole scene she and the book had been vividly present in his consciousness; but he made a clumsy pretence of looking at the book and seeing it for the first time. "oh, yes," he said, taking it up. "i see. did you like it?" "i want to ask you some questions about it--some time." "certainly," said hill. "i shall be glad." he stopped awkwardly. "you liked it?" he said. "it's a wonderful book. only some things i don't understand." then suddenly the laboratory was hushed by a curious, braying noise. it was the demonstrator. he was at the blackboard ready to begin the day's instruction, and it was his custom to demand silence by a sound midway between the "er" of common intercourse and the blast of a trumpet. the girl in brown slipped back to her place: it was immediately in front of hill's, and hill, forgetting her forthwith, took a notebook out of the drawer of his table, turned over its leaves hastily, drew a stumpy pencil from his pocket, and prepared to make a copious note of the coming demonstration. for demonstrations and lectures are the sacred text of the college students. books, saving only the professor's own, you may--it is even expedient to--ignore. hill was the son of a landport cobbler, and had been hooked by a chance blue paper the authorities had thrown out to the landport technical college. he kept himself in london on his allowance of a guinea a week, and found that, with proper care, this also covered his clothing allowance, an occasional waterproof collar, that is; and ink and needles and cotton, and such-like necessaries for a man about town. this was his first year and his first session, but the brown old man in landport had already got himself detested in many public-houses by boasting of his son, "the professor." hill was a vigorous youngster, with a serene contempt for the clergy of all denominations, and a fine ambition to reconstruct the world. he regarded his scholarship as a brilliant opportunity. he had begun to read at seven, and had read steadily whatever came in his way, good or bad, since then. his worldly experience had been limited to the island of portsea, and acquired chiefly in the wholesale boot factory in which he had worked by day, after passing the seventh standard of the board school. he had a considerable gift of speech, as the college debating society, which met amidst the crushing machines and mine models in the metallurgical theatre downstairs, already recognised--recognised by a violent battering of desks whenever he rose. and he was just at that fine emotional age when life opens at the end of a narrow pass like a broad valley at one's feet, full of the promise of wonderful discoveries and tremendous achievements. and his own limitations, save that he knew that he knew neither latin nor french, were all unknown to him. at first his interest had been divided pretty equally between his biological work at the college and social and theological theorising, an employment which he took in deadly earnest. of a night, when the big museum library was not open, he would sit on the bed of his room in chelsea with his coat and a muffler on, and write out the lecture notes and revise his dissection memoranda, until thorpe called him out by a whistle--the landlady objected to open the door to attic visitors--and then the two would go prowling about the shadowy, shiny, gas-lit streets, talking, very much in the fashion of the sample just given, of the god idea, and righteousness, and carlyle, and the reorganisation of society. and in the midst of it all, hill, arguing not only for thorpe, but for the casual passer-by, would lose the thread of his argument glancing at some pretty painted face that looked meaningly at him as he passed. science and righteousness! but once or twice lately there had been signs that a third interest was creeping into his life, and he had found his attention wandering from the fate of the mesoblastic somites or the probable meaning of the blastopore, to the thought of the girl with the brown eyes who sat at the table before him. she was a paying student; she descended inconceivable social altitudes to speak to him. at the thought of the education she must have had, and the accomplishments she must possess, the soul of hill became abject within him. she had spoken to him first over a difficulty about the alisphenoid of a rabbit's skull, and he had found that, in biology at least, he had no reason for self-abasement. and from that, after the manner of young people starting from any starting-point, they got to generalities, and while hill attacked her upon the question of socialism--some instinct told him to spare her a direct assault upon her religion--she was gathering resolution to undertake what she told herself was his aesthetic education. she was a year or two older than he, though the thought never occurred to him. the loan of _news from nowhere_ was the beginning of a series of cross loans. upon some absurd first principle of his, hill had never "wasted time" upon poetry, and it seemed an appalling deficiency to her. one day in the lunch hour, when she chanced upon him alone in the little museum where the skeletons were arranged, shamefully eating the bun that constituted his midday meal, she retreated, and returned to lend him, with a slightly furtive air, a volume of browning. he stood sideways towards her and took the book rather clumsily, because he was holding the bun in the other hand. and in the retrospect his voice lacked the cheerful clearness he could have wished. that occurred after the examination in comparative anatomy, on the day before the college turned out its students, and was carefully locked up by the officials, for the christmas holidays. the excitement of cramming for the first trial of strength had for a little while dominated hill, to the exclusion of his other interests. in the forecasts of the result in which everyone indulged he was surprised to find that no one regarded him as a possible competitor for the harvey commemoration medal, of which this and the two subsequent examinations disposed. it was about this time that wedderburn, who so far had lived inconspicuously on the uttermost margin of hill's perceptions, began to take on the appearance of an obstacle. by a mutual agreement, the nocturnal prowlings with thorpe ceased for the three weeks before the examination, and his landlady pointed out that she really could not supply so much lamp oil at the price. he walked to and fro from the college with little slips of mnemonics in his hand, lists of crayfish appendages, rabbits' skull-bones, and vertebrate nerves, for example, and became a positive nuisance to foot passengers in the opposite direction. but, by a natural reaction, poetry and the girl with the brown eyes ruled the christmas holiday. the pending results of the examination became such a secondary consideration that hill marvelled at his father's excitement. even had he wished it, there was no comparative anatomy to read in landport, and he was too poor to buy books, but the stock of poets in the library was extensive, and hill's attack was magnificently sustained. he saturated himself with the fluent numbers of longfellow and tennyson, and fortified himself with shakespeare; found a kindred soul in pope, and a master in shelley, and heard and fled the siren voices of eliza cook and mrs. hemans. but he read no more browning, because he hoped for the loan of other volumes from miss haysman when he returned to london. he walked from his lodgings to the college with that volume of browning in his shiny black bag, and his mind teeming with the finest general propositions about poetry. indeed, he framed first this little speech and then that with which to grace the return. the morning was an exceptionally pleasant one for london; there was a clear, hard frost and undeniable blue in the sky, a thin haze softened every outline, and warm shafts of sunlight struck between the house blocks and turned the sunny side of the street to amber and gold. in the hall of the college he pulled off his glove and signed his name with fingers so stiff with cold that the characteristic dash under the signature he cultivated became a quivering line. he imagined miss haysman about him everywhere. he turned at the staircase, and there, below, he saw a crowd struggling at the foot of the notice-board. this, possibly, was the biology list. he forgot browning and miss haysman for the moment, and joined the scrimmage. and at last, with his cheek flattened against the sleeve of the man on the step above him, he read the list-- class i h. j. somers wedderburn william hill and thereafter followed a second class that is outside our present sympathies. it was characteristic that he did not trouble to look for thorpe on the physics list, but backed out of the struggle at once, and in a curious emotional state between pride over common second-class humanity and acute disappointment at wedderburn's success, went on his way upstairs. at the top, as he was hanging up his coat in the passage, the zoological demonstrator, a young man from oxford, who secretly regarded him as a blatant "mugger" of the very worst type, offered his heartiest congratulations. at the laboratory door hill stopped for a second to get his breath, and then entered. he looked straight up the laboratory and saw all five girl students grouped in their places, and wedderburn, the once retiring wedderburn, leaning rather gracefully against the window, playing with the blind tassel and talking, apparently, to the five of them. now, hill could talk bravely enough and even overbearingly to one girl, and he could have made a speech to a roomful of girls, but this business of standing at ease and appreciating, fencing, and returning quick remarks round a group was, he knew, altogether beyond him. coming up the staircase his feelings for wedderburn had been generous, a certain admiration perhaps, a willingness to shake his hand conspicuously and heartily as one who had fought but the first round. but before christmas wedderburn had never gone up to that end of the room to talk. in a flash hill's mist of vague excitement condensed abruptly to a vivid dislike of wedderburn. possibly his expression changed. as he came up to his place, wedderburn nodded carelessly to him, and the others glanced round. miss haysman looked at him and away again, the faintest touch of her eyes. "i can't agree with you, mr. wedderburn," she said. "i must congratulate you on your first-class, mr. hill," said the spectacled girl in green, turning round and beaming at him. "it's nothing," said hill, staring at wedderburn and miss haysman talking together, and eager to hear what they talked about. "we poor folks in the second class don't think so," said the girl in spectacles. what was it wedderburn was saying? something about william morris! hill did not answer the girl in spectacles, and the smile died out of his face. he could not hear, and failed to see how he could "cut in." confound wedderburn! he sat down, opened his bag, hesitated whether to return the volume of browning forthwith, in the sight of all, and instead drew out his new notebooks for the short course in elementary botany that was now beginning, and which would terminate in february. as he did so, a fat, heavy man, with a white face and pale grey eyes--bindon, the professor of botany, who came up from kew for january and february--came in by the lecture theatre door, and passed, rubbing his hands together and smiling, in silent affability down the laboratory. * * * * * in the subsequent six weeks hill experienced some very rapid and curiously complex emotional developments. for the most part he had wedderburn in focus--a fact that miss haysman never suspected. she told hill (for in the comparative privacy of the museum she talked a good deal to him of socialism and browning and general propositions) that she had met wedderburn at the house of some people she knew, and "he's inherited his cleverness; for his father, you know, is the great eye-specialist." "_my_ father is a cobbler," said hill, quite irrelevantly, and perceived the want of dignity even as he said it. but the gleam of jealousy did not offend her. she conceived herself the fundamental source of it. he suffered bitterly from a sense of wedderburn's unfairness, and a realisation of his own handicap. here was this wedderburn had picked up a prominent man for a father, and instead of his losing so many marks on the score of that advantage, it was counted to him for righteousness! and while hill had to introduce himself and talk to miss haysman clumsily over mangled guinea-pigs in the laboratory, this wedderburn, in some backstairs way, had access to her social altitudes, and could converse in a polished argot that hill understood perhaps, but felt incapable of speaking. not, of course, that he wanted to. then it seemed to hill that for wedderburn to come there day after day with cuffs unfrayed, neatly tailored, precisely barbered, quietly perfect, was in itself an ill-bred, sneering sort of proceeding. moreover, it was a stealthy thing for wedderburn to behave insignificantly for a space, to mock modesty, to lead hill to fancy that he himself was beyond dispute the man of the year, and then suddenly to dart in front of him, and incontinently to swell up in this fashion. in addition to these things, wedderburn displayed an increasing disposition to join in any conversational grouping that included miss haysman, and would venture, and indeed seek occasion, to pass opinions derogatory to socialism and atheism. he goaded hill to incivilities by neat, shallow, and exceedingly effective personalities about the socialist leaders, until hill hated bernard shaw's graceful egotisms, william morris's limited editions and luxurious wall-papers, and walter crane's charmingly absurd ideal working men, about as much as he hated wedderburn. the dissertations in the laboratory, that had been his glory in the previous term, became a danger, degenerated into inglorious tussels with wedderburn, and hill kept to them only out of an obscure perception that his honour was involved. in the debating society hill knew quite clearly that, to a thunderous accompaniment of banged desks, he could have pulverised wedderburn. only wedderburn never attended the debating society to be pulverised, because--nauseous affectation!--he "dined late." you must not imagine that these things presented themselves in quite such a crude form to hill's perception. hill was a born generaliser. wedderburn to him was not so much an individual obstacle as a type, the salient angle of a class. the economic theories that, after infinite ferment, had shaped themselves in hill's mind, became abruptly concrete at the contact. the world became full of easy-mannered, graceful, gracefully-dressed, conversationally dexterous, finally shallow wedderburns, bishops wedderburn, wedderburn m.p.'s, professors wedderburn, wedderburn landlords, all with finger-bowl shibboleths and epigrammatic cities of refuge from a sturdy debater. and everyone ill-clothed or ill-dressed, from the cobbler to the cab-runner, was a man and a brother, a fellow-sufferer, to hill's imagination. so that he became, as it were, a champion of the fallen and oppressed, albeit to outward seeming only a self-assertive, ill-mannered young man, and an unsuccessful champion at that. again and again a skirmish over the afternoon tea that the girl students had inaugurated left hill with flushed cheeks and a tattered temper, and the debating society noticed a new quality of sarcastic bitterness in his speeches. you will understand now how it was necessary, if only in the interests of humanity, that hill should demolish wedderburn in the forthcoming examination and outshine him in the eyes of miss haysman; and you will perceive, too, how miss haysman fell into some common feminine misconceptions. the hill-wedderburn quarrel, for in his unostentatious way wedderburn reciprocated hill's ill-veiled rivalry, became a tribute to her indefinable charm; she was the queen of beauty in a tournament of scalpels and stumpy pencils. to her confidential friend's secret annoyance, it even troubled her conscience, for she was a good girl, and painfully aware, from ruskin and contemporary fiction, how entirely men's activities are determined by women's attitudes. and if hill never by any chance mentioned the topic of love to her, she only credited him with the finer modesty for that omission. so the time came on for the second examination, and hill's increasing pallor confirmed the general rumour that he was working hard. in the aerated bread shop near south kensington station you would see him, breaking his bun and sipping his milk, with his eyes intent upon a paper of closely written notes. in his bedroom there were propositions about buds and stems round his looking-glass, a diagram to catch his eye, if soap should chance to spare it, above his washing basin. he missed several meetings of the debating society, but he found the chance encounters with miss haysman in the spacious ways of the adjacent art museum, or in the little museum at the top of the college, or in the college corridors, more frequent and very restful. in particular, they used to meet in a little gallery full of wrought-iron chests and gates, near the art library, and there hill used to talk, under the gentle stimulus of her flattering attention, of browning and his personal ambitions. a characteristic she found remarkable in him was his freedom from avarice. he contemplated quite calmly the prospect of living all his life on an income below a hundred pounds a year. but he was determined to be famous, to make, recognisably in his own proper person, the world a better place to live in. he took bradlaugh and john burns for his leaders and models, poor, even impecunious, great men. but miss haysman thought that such lives were deficient on the aesthetic side, by which, though she did not know it, she meant good wall-paper and upholstery, pretty books, tasteful clothes, concerts, and meals nicely cooked and respectfully served. at last came the day of the second examination, and the professor of botany, a fussy, conscientious man, rearranged all the tables in a long narrow laboratory to prevent copying, and put his demonstrator on a chair on a table (where he felt, he said, like a hindoo god), to see all the cheating, and stuck a notice outside the door, "door closed," for no earthly reason that any human being could discover. and all the morning from ten till one the quill of wedderburn shrieked defiance at hill's, and the quills of the others chased their leaders in a tireless pack, and so also it was in the afternoon. wedderburn was a little quieter than usual, and hill's face was hot all day, and his overcoat bulged with textbooks and notebooks against the last moment's revision. and the next day, in the morning and in the afternoon, was the practical examination, when sections had to be cut and slides identified. in the morning hill was depressed because he knew he had cut a thick section, and in the afternoon came the mysterious slip. it was just the kind of thing that the botanical professor was always doing. like the income tax, it offered a premium to the cheat. it was a preparation under the microscope, a little glass slip, held in its place on the stage of the instrument by light steel clips, and the inscription set forth that the slip was not to be moved. each student was to go in turn to it, sketch it, write in his book of answers what he considered it to be, and return to his place. now, to move such a slip is a thing one can do by a chance movement of the finger, and in a fraction of a second. the professor's reason for decreeing that the slip should not be moved depended on the fact that the object he wanted identified was characteristic of a certain tree stem. in the position in which it was placed it was a difficult thing to recognise, but once the slip was moved so as to bring other parts of the preparation into view, its nature was obvious enough. hill came to this, flushed from a contest with staining re-agents, sat down on the little stool before the microscope, turned the mirror to get the best light, and then, out of sheer habit, shifted the slips. at once he remembered the prohibition, and, with an almost continuous motion of his hands, moved it back, and sat paralysed with astonishment at his action. then, slowly, he turned his head. the professor was out of the room; the demonstrator sat aloft on his impromptu rostrum, reading the _q. jour. mi. sci_.; the rest of the examinees were busy, and with their backs to him. should he own up to the accident now? he knew quite clearly what the thing was. it was a lenticel, a characteristic preparation from the elder-tree. his eyes roved over his intent fellow-students, and wedderburn suddenly glanced over his shoulder at him with a queer expression in his eyes. the mental excitement that had kept hill at an abnormal pitch of vigour these two days gave way to a curious nervous tension. his book of answers was beside him. he did not write down what the thing was, but with one eye at the microscope he began making a hasty sketch of it. his mind was full of this grotesque puzzle in ethics that had suddenly been sprung upon him. should he identify it? or should he leave this question unanswered? in that case wedderburn would probably come out first in the second result. how could he tell now whether he might not have identified the thing without shifting it? it was possible that wedderburn had failed to recognise it, of course. suppose wedderburn too had shifted the slide? he looked up at the clock. there were fifteen minutes in which to make up his mind. he gathered up his book of answers and the coloured pencils he used in illustrating his replies and walked back to his seat. he read through his manuscript, and then sat thinking and gnawing his knuckle. it would look queer now if he owned up. he _must_ beat wedderburn. he forgot the examples of those starry gentlemen, john burns and bradlaugh. besides, he reflected, the glimpse of the rest of the slip he had had was, after all, quite accidental, forced upon him by chance, a kind of providential revelation rather than an unfair advantage. it was not nearly so dishonest to avail himself of that as it was of broome, who believed in the efficacy of prayer, to pray daily for a first-class. "five minutes more," said the demonstrator, folding up his paper and becoming observant. hill watched the clock hands until two minutes remained; then he opened the book of answers, and, with hot ears and an affectation of ease, gave his drawing of the lenticel its name. when the second pass list appeared, the previous positions of wedderburn and hill were reversed, and the spectacled girl in green, who knew the demonstrator in private life (where he was practically human), said that in the result of the two examinations taken together hill had the advantage of a mark-- to out of a possible . everyone admired hill in a way, though the suspicion of "mugging" clung to him. but hill was to find congratulations and miss haysman's enhanced opinion of him, and even the decided decline in the crest of wedderburn, tainted by an unhappy memory. he felt a remarkable access of energy at first, and the note of a democracy marching to triumph returned to his debating-society speeches; he worked at his comparative anatomy with tremendous zeal and effect, and he went on with his aesthetic education. but through it all, a vivid little picture was continually coming before his mind's eye--of a sneakish person manipulating a slide. no human being had witnessed the act, and he was cocksure that no higher power existed to see, it; but for all that it worried him. memories are not dead things but alive; they dwindle in disuse, but they harden and develop in all sorts of queer ways if they are being continually fretted. curiously enough, though at the time he perceived clearly that the shifting was accidental, as the days wore on, his memory became confused about it, until at last he was not sure--although he assured himself that he _was_ sure--whether the movement had been absolutely involuntary. then it is possible that hill's dietary was conducive to morbid conscientiousness; a breakfast frequently eaten in a hurry, a midday bun, and, at such hours after five as chanced to be convenient, such meat as his means determined, usually in a chop-house in a back street off the brompton road. occasionally he treated himself to threepenny or ninepenny classics, and they usually represented a suppression of potatoes or chops. it is indisputable that outbreaks of self-abasement and emotional revival have a distinct relation to periods of scarcity. but apart from this influence on the feelings, there was in hill a distinct aversion to falsity that the blasphemous landport cobbler had inculcated by strap and tongue from his earliest years. of one fact about professed atheists i am convinced; they may be--they usually are--fools, void of subtlety, revilers of holy institutions, brutal speakers, and mischievous knaves, but they lie with difficulty. if it were not so, if they had the faintest grasp of the idea of compromise, they would simply be liberal churchmen. and, moreover, this memory poisoned his regard for miss haysman. for she now so evidently preferred him to wedderburn that he felt sure he cared for her, and began reciprocating her attentions by timid marks of personal regard; at one time he even bought a bunch of violets, carried it about in his pocket, and produced it, with a stumbling explanation, withered and dead, in the gallery of old iron. it poisoned, too, the denunciation of capitalist dishonesty that had been one of his life's pleasures. and, lastly, it poisoned his triumph in wedderburn. previously he had been wedderburn's superior in his own eyes, and had raged simply at a want of recognition. now he began to fret at the darker suspicion of positive inferiority. he fancied he found justifications for his position in browning, but they vanished on analysis. at last--moved, curiously enough, by exactly the same motive forces that had resulted in his dishonesty--he went to professor bindon, and made a clean breast of the whole affair. as hill was a paid student, professor bindon did not ask him to sit down, and he stood before the professor's desk as he made his confession. "it's a curious story," said professor bindon, slowly realising how the thing reflected on himself, and then letting his anger rise,--"a most remarkable story. i can't understand your doing it, and i can't understand this avowal. you're a type of student--cambridge men would never dream--i suppose i ought to have thought--why _did_ you cheat?" "i didn't cheat," said hill. "but you have just been telling me you did." "i thought i explained--" "either you cheated or you did not cheat." "i said my motion was involuntary." "i am not a metaphysician, i am a servant of science--of fact. you were told not to move the slip. you did move the slip. if that is not cheating--" "if i was a cheat," said hill, with the note of hysterics in his voice, "should i come here and tell you?" "your repentance, of course, does you credit," said professor bindon, "but it does not alter the original facts." "no, sir," said hill, giving in in utter self-abasement. "even now you cause an enormous amount of trouble. the examination list will have to be revised." "i suppose so, sir." "suppose so? of course it must be revised. and i don't see how i can conscientiously pass you." "not pass me?" said hill. "fail me?" "it's the rule in all examinations. or where should we be? what else did you expect? you don't want to shirk the consequences of your own acts?" "i thought, perhaps----" said hill. and then, "fail me? i thought, as i told you, you would simply deduct the marks given for that slip." "impossible!" said bindon. "besides, it would still leave you above wedderburn. deduct only the marks! preposterous! the departmental regulations distinctly say----" "but it's my own admission, sir." "the regulations say nothing whatever of the manner in which the matter comes to light. they simply provide----" "it will ruin me. if i fail this examination, they won't renew my scholarship." "you should have thought of that before." "but, sir, consider all my circumstances----" "i cannot consider anything. professors in this college are machines. the regulations will not even let us recommend our students for appointments. i am a machine, and you have worked me. i have to do----" "it's very hard, sir." "possibly it is." "if i am to be failed this examination, i might as well go home at once." "that is as you think proper." bindon's voice softened a little; he perceived he had been unjust, and, provided he did not contradict himself, he was disposed to amelioration. "as a private person," he said, "i think this confession of yours goes far to mitigate your offence. but you have set the machinery in motion, and now it must take its course. i--i am really sorry you gave way." a wave of emotion prevented hill from answering. suddenly, very vividly, he saw the heavily-lined face of the old landport cobbler, his father. "good god! what a fool i have been!" he said hotly and abruptly. "i hope," said bindon, "that it will be a lesson to you." but, curiously enough, they were not thinking of quite the same indiscretion. there was a pause. "i would like a day to think, sir, and then i will let you know--about going home, i mean," said hill, moving towards the door. * * * * * the next day hill's place was vacant. the spectacled girl in green was, as usual, first with the news. wedderburn and miss haysman were talking of a performance of _the meistersingers_ when she came up to them. "have you heard?" she said. "heard what?" "there was cheating in the examination." "cheating!" said wedderburn, with his face suddenly hot. "how?" "that slide--" "moved? never!" "it was. that slide that we weren't to move--" "nonsense!" said wedderburn. "why! how could they find out? who do they say--?" "it was mr. hill." _hill_!" "mr. hill!" "not--surely not the immaculate hill?" said wedderburn, recovering. "i don't believe it," said miss haysman. "how do you know?" "i _didn't_," said the girl in spectacles. "but i know it now for a fact. mr. hill went and confessed to professor bindon himself." "by jove!" said wedderburn. "hill of all people. but i am always inclined to distrust these philanthropists-on-principle--" "are you quite sure?" said miss haysman, with a catch in her breath. "quite. it's dreadful, isn't it? but, you know, what can you expect? his father is a cobbler." then miss haysman astonished the girl in spectacles. "i don't care. i will not believe it," she said, flushing darkly under her warm-tinted skin. "i will not believe it until he has told me so himself-- face to face. i would scarcely believe it then," and abruptly she turned her back on the girl in spectacles, and walked to her own place. "it's true, all the same," said the girl in spectacles, peering and smiling at wedderburn. but wedderburn did not answer her. she was indeed one of those people who seemed destined to make unanswered remarks. xix. the crystal egg. there was, until a year ago, a little and very grimy-looking shop near seven dials, over which, in weather-worn yellow lettering, the name of "c. cave, naturalist and dealer in antiquities," was inscribed. the contents of its window were curiously variegated. they comprised some elephant tusks and an imperfect set of chessmen, beads and weapons, a box of eyes, two skulls of tigers and one human, several moth-eaten stuffed monkeys (one holding a lamp), an old-fashioned cabinet, a fly-blown ostrich egg or so, some fishing-tackle, and an extraordinarily dirty, empty glass fish-tank. there was also, at the moment the story begins, a mass of crystal, worked into the shape of an egg and brilliantly polished. and at that two people who stood outside the window were looking, one of them a tall, thin clergyman, the other a black-bearded young man of dusky complexion and unobtrusive costume. the dusky young man spoke with eager gesticulation, and seemed anxious for his companion to purchase the article. while they were there, mr. cave came into his shop, his beard still wagging with the bread and butter of his tea. when he saw these men and the object of their regard, his countenance fell. he glanced guiltily over his shoulder, and softly shut the door. he was a little old man, with pale face and peculiar watery blue eyes; his hair was a dirty grey, and he wore a shabby blue frock-coat, an ancient silk hat, and carpet slippers very much down at heel. he remained watching the two men as they talked. the clergyman went deep into his trouser pocket, examined a handful of money, and showed his teeth in an agreeable smile. mr. cave seemed still more depressed when they came into the shop. the clergyman, without any ceremony, asked the price of the crystal egg. mr. cave glanced nervously towards the door leading into the parlour, and said five pounds. the clergyman protested that the price was high, to his companion as well as to mr. cave--it was, indeed, very much more than mr. cave had intended to ask when he had stocked the article--and an attempt at bargaining ensued. mr. cave stepped to the shop door, and held it open. "five pounds is my price," he said, as though he wished to save himself the trouble of unprofitable discussion. as he did so, the upper portion of a woman's face appeared above the blind in the glass upper panel of the door leading into the parlour, and stared curiously at the two customers. "five pounds is my price," said mr. cave, with a quiver in his voice. the swarthy young man had so far remained a spectator, watching cave keenly. now he spoke. "give him five pounds," he said. the clergyman glanced at him to see if he were in earnest, and when he looked at mr. cave again, he saw that the latter's face was white. "it's a lot of money," said the clergyman, and, diving into his pocket, began counting his resources. he had little more than thirty shillings, and he appealed to his companion, with whom he seemed to be on terms of considerable intimacy. this gave mr. cave an opportunity of collecting his thoughts, and he began to explain in an agitated manner that the crystal was not, as a matter of fact, entirely free for sale. his two customers were naturally surprised at this, and inquired why he had not thought of that before he began to bargain. mr. cave became confused, but he stuck to his story, that the crystal was not in the market that afternoon, that a probable purchaser of it had already appeared. the two, treating this as an attempt to raise the price still further, made as if they would leave the shop. but at this point the parlour door opened, and the owner of the dark fringe and the little eyes appeared. she was a coarse-featured, corpulent woman, younger and very much larger than mr. cave; she walked heavily, and her face was flushed. "that crystal _is_ for sale," she said. "and five pounds is a good enough price for it. i can't think what you're about, cave, not to take the gentleman's offer!" mr. cave, greatly perturbed by the irruption, looked angrily at her over the rims of his spectacles, and, without excessive assurance, asserted his right to manage his business in his own way. an altercation began. the two customers watched the scene with interest and some amusement, occasionally assisting mrs. cave with suggestions. mr. cave, hard driven, persisted in a confused and impossible story of an inquiry for the crystal that morning, and his agitation became painful. but he stuck to his point with extraordinary persistence. it was the young oriental who ended this curious controversy. he proposed that they should call again in the course of two days--so as to give the alleged inquirer a fair chance. "and then we must insist," said the clergyman. "five pounds." mrs. cave took it on herself to apologise for her husband, explaining that he was sometimes "a little odd," and as the two customers left, the couple prepared for a free discussion of the incident in all its bearings. mrs. cave talked to her husband with singular directness. the poor little man, quivering with emotion, muddled himself between his stories, maintaining on the one hand that he had another customer in view, and on the other asserting that the crystal was honestly worth ten guineas. "why did you ask five pounds?" said his wife. "_do_ let me manage my business my own way!" said mr. cave. mr. cave had living with him a step-daughter and a step-son, and at supper that night the transaction was re-discussed. none of them had a high opinion of mr. cave's business methods, and this action seemed a culminating folly. "it's my opinion he's refused that crystal before," said the step-son, a loose-limbed lout of eighteen. "but _five pounds_!" said the step-daughter, an argumentative young woman of six-and-twenty. mr. cave's answers were wretched; he could only mumble weak assertions that he knew his own business best. they drove him from his half-eaten supper into the shop, to close it for the night, his ears aflame and tears of vexation behind his spectacles. why had he left the crystal in the window so long? the folly of it! that was the trouble closest in his mind. for a time he could see no way of evading sale. after supper his step-daughter and step-son smartened themselves up and went out and his wife retired upstairs to reflect upon the business aspects of the crystal, over a little sugar and lemon and so forth in hot water. mr. cave went into the shop, and stayed there until late, ostensibly to make ornamental rockeries for gold-fish cases, but really for a private purpose that will be better explained later. the next day mrs. cave found that the crystal had been removed from the window, and was lying behind some second-hand books on angling. she replaced it in a conspicuous position. but she did not argue further about it, as a nervous headache disinclined her from debate. mr. cave was always disinclined. the day passed disagreeably. mr. cave was, if anything, more absent-minded than usual, and uncommonly irritable withal. in the afternoon, when his wife was taking her customary sleep, he removed the crystal from the window again. the next day mr. cave had to deliver a consignment of dog-fish at one of the hospital schools, where they were needed for dissection. in his absence mrs. cave's mind reverted to the topic of the crystal, and the methods of expenditure suitable to a windfall of five pounds. she had already devised some very agreeable expedients, among others a dress of green silk for herself and a trip to richmond, when a jangling of the front door bell summoned her into the shop. the customer was an examination coach who came to complain of the non-delivery of certain frogs asked for the previous day. mrs. cave did not approve of this particular branch of mr. cave's business, and the gentleman, who had called in a somewhat aggressive mood, retired after a brief exchange of words--entirely civil, so far as he was concerned. mrs. cave's eye then naturally turned to the window; for the sight of the crystal was an assurance of the five pounds and of her dreams. what was her surprise to find it gone! she went to the place behind the locker on the counter, where she had discovered it the day before. it was not there; and she immediately began an eager search about the shop. when mr. cave returned from his business with the dogfish, about a quarter to two in the afternoon, he found the shop in some confusion, and his wife, extremely exasperated and on her knees behind the counter, routing among his taxidermic material. her face came up hot and angry over the counter, as the jangling bell announced his return, and she forthwith accused him of "hiding it." "hid _what_?" asked mr. cave. "the crystal!" at that mr. cave, apparently much surprised, rushed to the window. "isn't it here?" he said. "great heavens! what has become of it?" just then mr. cave's step-son re-entered the shop from, the inner room--he had come home a minute or so before mr. cave--and he was blaspheming freely. he was apprenticed to a second-hand furniture dealer down the road, but he had his meals at home, and he was naturally annoyed to find no dinner ready. but when he heard of the loss of the crystal, he forgot his meal, and his anger was diverted from his mother to his step-father. their first idea, of course, was that he had hidden it. but mr. cave stoutly denied all knowledge of its fate, freely offering his bedabbled affidavit in the matter--and at last was worked up to the point of accusing, first, his wife and then his stepson of having taken it with a view to a private sale. so began an exceedingly acrimonious and emotional discussion, which ended for mrs. cave in a peculiar nervous condition midway between hysterics and amuck, and caused the step-son to be half-an-hour late at the furniture establishment in the afternoon. mr. cave took refuge from his wife's emotions in the shop. in the evening the matter was resumed, with less passion and in a judicial spirit, under the presidency of the step-daughter. the supper passed unhappily and culminated in a painful scene. mr. cave gave way at last to extreme exasperation, and went out banging the front door violently. the rest of the family, having discussed him with the freedom his absence warranted, hunted the house from garret to cellar, hoping to light upon the crystal. the next day the two customers called again. they were received by mrs. cave almost in tears. it transpired that no one _could_ imagine all that she had stood from cave at various times in her married pilgrimage. ... she also gave a garbled account of the disappearance. the clergyman and the oriental laughed silently at one another, and said it was very extraordinary. as mrs. cave seemed disposed to give them the complete history of her life they made to leave the shop. thereupon mrs. cave, still clinging to hope, asked for the clergyman's address, so that, if she could get anything out of cave, she might communicate it. the address was duly given, but apparently was afterwards mislaid. mrs. cave can remember nothing about it. in the evening of that day the caves seem to have exhausted their emotions, and mr. cave, who had been out in the afternoon, supped in a gloomy isolation that contrasted pleasantly with the impassioned controversy of the previous days. for some time matters were very badly strained in the cave household, but neither crystal nor customer reappeared. now, without mincing the matter, we must admit that mr. cave was a liar. he knew perfectly well where the crystal was. it was in the rooms of mr. jacoby wace, assistant demonstrator at st. catherine's hospital, westbourne street. it stood on the sideboard partially covered by a black velvet cloth, and beside a decanter of american whisky. it is from mr. wace, indeed, that the particulars upon which this narrative is based were derived. cave had taken off the thing to the hospital hidden in the dog-fish sack, and there had pressed the young investigator to keep it for him. mr. wace was a little dubious at first. his relationship to cave was peculiar. he had a taste for singular characters, and he had more than once invited the old man to smoke and drink in his rooms, and to unfold his rather amusing views of life in general and of his wife in particular. mr. wace had encountered mrs. cave, too, on occasions when mr. cave was not at home to attend to him. he knew the constant interference to which cave was subjected, and having weighed the story judicially, he decided to give the crystal a refuge. mr. cave promised to explain the reasons for his remarkable affection for the crystal more fully on a later occasion, but he spoke distinctly of seeing visions therein. he called on mr. wace the same evening. he told a complicated story. the crystal he said had come into his possession with other oddments at the forced sale of another curiosity dealer's effects, and not knowing what its value might be, he had ticketed it at ten shillings. it had hung upon his hands at that price for some months, and he was thinking of "reducing the figure," when he made a singular discovery. at that time his health was very bad--and it must be borne in mind that, throughout all this experience, his physical condition was one of ebb--and he was in considerable distress by reason of the negligence, the positive ill-treatment even, he received from his wife and step-children. his wife was vain, extravagant, unfeeling, and had a growing taste for private drinking; his step-daughter was mean and over-reaching; and his step-son had conceived a violent dislike for him, and lost no chance of showing it. the requirements of his business pressed heavily upon him, and mr. wace does not think that he was altogether free from occasional intemperance. he had begun life in a comfortable position, he was a man of fair education, and he suffered, for weeks at a stretch, from melancholia and insomnia. afraid to disturb his family, he would slip quietly from his wife's side, when his thoughts became intolerable, and wander about the house. and about three o'clock one morning, late in august, chance directed him into the shop. the dirty little place was impenetrably black except in one spot, where he perceived an unusual glow of light. approaching this, he discovered it to be the crystal egg, which was standing on the corner of the counter towards the window. a thin ray smote through a crack in the shutters, impinged upon the object, and seemed as it were to fill its entire interior. it occurred to mr. cave that this was not in accordance with the laws of optics as he had known them in his younger days. he could understand the rays being refracted by the crystal and coming to a focus in its interior, but this diffusion jarred with his physical conceptions. he approached the crystal nearly, peering into it and round it, with a transient revival of the scientific curiosity that in his youth had determined his choice of a calling. he was surprised to find the light not steady, but writhing within the substance of the egg, as though that object was a hollow sphere of some luminous vapour. in moving about to get different points of view, he suddenly found that he had come between it and the ray, and that the crystal none the less remained luminous. greatly astonished, he lifted it out of the light ray and carried it to the darkest part of the shop. it remained bright for some four or five minutes, when it slowly faded and went out. he placed it in the thin streak of daylight, and its luminousness was almost immediately restored. so far, at least, mr. wace was able to verify the remarkable story of mr. cave. he has himself repeatedly held this crystal in a ray of light (which had to be of a less diameter than one millimetre). and in a perfect darkness, such as could be produced by velvet wrapping, the crystal did undoubtedly appear very faintly phosphorescent. it would seem, however, that the luminousness was of some exceptional sort, and not equally visible to all eyes; for mr. harbinger--whose name will be familiar to the scientific reader in connection with the pasteur institute--was quite unable to see any light whatever. and mr. wace's own capacity for its appreciation was out of comparison inferior to that of mr. cave's. even with mr. cave the power varied very considerably: his vision was most vivid during states of extreme weakness and fatigue. now, from the outset, this light in the crystal exercised a curious fascination upon mr. cave. and it says more for his loneliness of soul than a volume of pathetic writing could do, that he told no human being of his curious observations. he seems to have been living in such an atmosphere of petty spite that to admit the existence of a pleasure would have been to risk the loss of it. he found that as the dawn advanced, and the amount of diffused light increased, the crystal became to all appearance non-luminous. and for some time he was unable to see anything in it, except at night-time, in dark corners of the shop. but the use of an old velvet cloth, which he used as a background for a collection of minerals, occurred to him, and by doubling this, and putting it over his head and hands, he was able to get a sight of the luminous movement within the crystal even in the day-time. he was very cautious lest he should be thus discovered by his wife, and he practised this occupation only in the afternoons, while she was asleep upstairs, and then circumspectly in a hollow under the counter. and one day, turning the crystal about in his hands, he saw something. it came and went like a flash, but it gave him the impression that the object had for a moment opened to him the view of a wide and spacious and strange country; and turning it about, he did, just as the light faded, see the same vision again. now it would be tedious and unnecessary to state all the phases of mr. cave's discovery from this point. suffice that the effect was this: the crystal, being peered into at an angle of about degrees from the direction of the illuminating ray, gave a clear and consistent picture of a wide and peculiar country-side. it was not dream-like at all: it produced a definite impression of reality, and the better the light the more real and solid it seemed. it was a moving picture: that is to say, certain objects moved in it, but slowly in an orderly manner like real things, and, according as the direction of the lighting and vision changed, the picture changed also. it must, indeed, have been like looking through an oval glass at a view, and turning the glass about to get at different aspects. mr. cave's statements, mr. wace assures me, were extremely circumstantial, and entirely free from any of that emotional quality that taints hallucinatory impressions. but it must be remembered that all the efforts of mr. wace to see any similar clarity in the faint opalescence of the crystal were wholly unsuccessful, try as he would. the difference in intensity of the impressions received by the two men was very great, and it is quite conceivable that what was a view to mr. cave was a mere blurred nebulosity to mr. wace. the view, as mr. cave described it, was invariably of an extensive plain, and he seemed always to be looking at it from a considerable height, as if from a tower or a mast. to the east and to the west the plain was bounded at a remote distance by vast reddish cliffs, which reminded him of those he had seen in some picture; but what the picture was mr. wace was unable to ascertain. these cliffs passed north and south--he could tell the points of the compass by the stars that were visible of a night--receding in an almost illimitable perspective and fading into the mists of the distance before they met. he was nearer the eastern set of cliffs; on the occasion of his first vision the sun was rising over them, and black against the sunlight and pale against their shadow appeared a multitude of soaring forms that mr. cave regarded as birds. a vast range of buildings spread below him; he seemed to be looking down upon them; and as they approached the blurred and refracted edge of the picture they became indistinct. there were also trees curious in shape, and in colouring a deep mossy green and an exquisite grey, beside a wide and shining canal. and something great and brilliantly coloured flew across the picture. but the first time mr. cave saw these pictures he saw only in flashes, his hands shook, his head moved, the vision came and went, and grew foggy and indistinct. and at first he had the greatest difficulty in finding the picture again once the direction of it was lost. his next clear vision, which came about a week after the first, the interval having yielded nothing but tantalising glimpses and some useful experience, showed him the view down the length of the valley. the view was different, but he had a curious persuasion, which his subsequent observations abundantly confirmed, that he was regarding the strange world from exactly the same spot, although he was looking in a different direction. the long façade of the great building, whose roof he had looked down upon before, was now receding in perspective. he recognised the roof. in the front of the façade was a terrace of massive proportions and extraordinary length, and down the middle of the terrace, at certain intervals, stood huge but very graceful masts, bearing small shiny objects which reflected the setting sun. the import of these small objects did not occur to mr. cave until some time after, as he was describing the scene to mr. wace. the terrace overhung a thicket of the most luxuriant and graceful vegetation, and beyond this was a wide grassy lawn on which certain broad creatures, in form like beetles but enormously larger, reposed. beyond this again was a richly decorated causeway of pinkish stone; and beyond that, and lined with dense red weeds, and passing up the valley exactly parallel with the distant cliffs, was a broad and mirror-like expanse of water. the air seemed full of squadrons of great birds, manoeuvring in stately curves; and across the river was a multitude of splendid buildings, richly coloured and glittering with metallic tracery and facets, among a forest of moss-like and lichenous trees. and suddenly something flapped repeatedly across the vision, like the fluttering of a jewelled fan or the beating of a wing, and a face, or rather the upper part of a face with very large eyes, came as it were close to his own and as if on the other side of the crystal. mr. cave was so startled and so impressed by the absolute reality of these eyes that he drew his head back from the crystal to look behind it. he had become so absorbed in watching that he was quite surprised to find himself in the cool darkness of his little shop, with its familiar odour of methyl, mustiness, and decay. and as he blinked about him, the glowing crystal faded and went out. such were the first general impressions of mr. cave. the story is curiously direct and circumstantial. from the outset, when the valley first flashed momentarily on his senses, his imagination was strangely affected, and as he began to appreciate the details of the scene he saw, his wonder rose to the point of a passion. he went about his business listless and distraught, thinking only of the time when he should be able to return to his watching. and then a few weeks after his first sight of the valley came the two customers, the stress and excitement of their offer, and the narrow escape of the crystal from sale, as i have already told. now, while the thing was mr. cave's secret, it remained a mere wonder, a thing to creep to covertly and peep at, as a child might peep upon a forbidden garden. but mr. wace has, for a young scientific investigator, a particularly lucid and consecutive habit of mind. directly the crystal and its story came to him, and he had satisfied himself, by seeing the phosphorescence with his own eyes, that there really was a certain evidence for mr. cave's statements, he proceeded to develop the matter systematically. mr. cave was only too eager to come and feast his eyes on this wonderland he saw, and he came every night from half-past eight until half-past ten, and sometimes, in mr. wace's absence, during the day. on sunday afternoons, also, he came. from the outset mr. wace made copious notes, and it was due to his scientific method that the relation between the direction from which the initiating ray entered the crystal and the orientation of the picture were proved. and, by covering the crystal in a box perforated only with a small aperture to admit the exciting ray, and by substituting black holland for his buff blinds, he greatly improved the conditions of the observations; so that in a little while they were able to survey the valley in any direction they desired. so having cleared the way, we may give a brief account of this visionary world within the crystal. the things were in all cases seen by mr. cave, and the method of working was invariably for him to watch the crystal and report what he saw, while mr. wace (who as a science student had learnt the trick of writing in the dark) wrote a brief note of his report. when the crystal faded, it was put into its box in the proper position and the electric light turned on. mr. wace asked questions, and suggested observations to clear up difficult points. nothing, indeed, could have been less visionary and more matter-of-fact. the attention of mr. cave had been speedily directed to the bird-like creatures he had seen so abundantly present in each of his earlier visions. his first impression was soon corrected, and he considered for a time that they might represent a diurnal species of bat. then he thought, grotesquely enough, that they might be cherubs. their heads were round and curiously human, and it was the eyes of one of them that had so startled him on his second observation. they had broad, silvery wings, not feathered, but glistening almost as brilliantly as new-killed fish and with the same subtle play of colour, and these wings were not built on the plan of bird-wing or bat, mr. wace learned, but supported by curved ribs radiating from the body. (a sort of butterfly wing with curved ribs seems best to express their appearance.) the body was small, but fitted with two bunches of prehensile organs, like long tentacles, immediately under the mouth. incredible as it appeared to mr. wace, the persuasion at last became irresistible that it was these creatures which owned the great quasi-human buildings and the magnificent garden that made the broad valley so splendid. and mr. cave perceived that the buildings, with other peculiarities, had no doors, but that the great circular windows, which opened freely, gave the creatures egress and entrance. they would alight upon their tentacles, fold their wings to a smallness almost rod-like, and hop into the interior. but among them was a multitude of smaller-winged creatures, like great dragon-flies and moths and flying beetles, and across the greensward brilliantly-coloured gigantic ground-beetles crawled lazily to and fro. moreover, on the causeways and terraces, large-headed creatures similar to the greater winged flies, but wingless, were visible, hopping busily upon their hand-like tangle of tentacles. allusion has already been made to the glittering objects upon masts that stood upon the terrace of the nearer building. it dawned upon mr. cave, after regarding one of these masts very fixedly on one particularly vivid day that the glittering object there was a crystal exactly like that into which he peered. and a still more careful scrutiny convinced him that each one in a vista of nearly twenty carried a similar object. occasionally one of the large flying creatures would flutter up to one, and folding its wings and coiling a number of its tentacles about the mast, would regard the crystal fixedly for a space,--sometimes for as long as fifteen minutes. and a series of observations, made at the suggestion of mr. wace, convinced both watchers that, so far as this visionary world was concerned, the crystal into which they peered actually stood at the summit of the end-most mast on the terrace, and that on one occasion at least one of these inhabitants of this other world had looked into mr. cave's face while he was making these observations. so much for the essential facts of this very singular story. unless we dismiss it all as the ingenious fabrication of mr. wace, we have to believe one of two things: either that mr. cave's crystal was in two worlds at once, and that while it was carried about in one, it remained stationary in the other, which seems altogether absurd; or else that it had some peculiar relation of sympathy with another and exactly similar crystal in this other world, so that what was seen in the interior of the one in this world was, under suitable conditions, visible to an observer in the corresponding crystal in the other world; and _vice versa_. at present, indeed, we do not know of any way in which two crystals could so come _en rapport_, but nowadays we know enough to understand that the thing is not altogether impossible. this view of the crystals as _en rapport_ was the supposition that occurred to mr. wace, and to me at least it seems extremely plausible... and where was this other world? on this, also, the alert intelligence of mr. wace speedily threw light. after sunset, the sky darkened rapidly-- there was a very brief twilight interval indeed--and the stars shone out. they were recognisably the same as those we see, arranged in the same constellations. mr. cave recognised the bear, the pleiades, aldebaran, and sirius; so that the other world must be somewhere in the solar system, and, at the utmost, only a few hundreds of millions of miles from our own. following up this clue, mr. wace learned that the midnight sky was a darker blue even than our midwinter sky, and that the sun seemed a little smaller. _and there were two small moons!_ "like our moon but smaller, and quite differently marked," one of which moved so rapidly that its motion was clearly visible as one regarded it. these moons were never high in the sky, but vanished as they rose: that is, every time they revolved they were eclipsed because they were so near their primary planet. and all this answers quite completely, although mr. cave did not know it, to what must be the condition of things on mars. indeed, it seems an exceedingly plausible conclusion that peering into this crystal mr. cave did actually see the planet mars and its inhabitants. and if that be the case, then the evening star that shone so brilliantly in the sky of that distant vision was neither more nor less than our own familiar earth. for a time the martians--if they were martians--do not seem to have known of mr. cave's inspection. once or twice one would come to peer, and go away very shortly to some other mast, as though the vision was unsatisfactory. during this time mr. cave was able to watch the proceedings of these winged people without being disturbed by their attentions, and although his report is necessarily vague and fragmentary, it is nevertheless very suggestive. imagine the impression of humanity a martian observer would get who, after a difficult process of preparation and with considerable fatigue to the eyes, was able to peer at london from the steeple of st. martin's church for stretches, at longest, of four minutes at a time. mr. cave was unable to ascertain if the winged martians were the same as the martians who hopped about the causeways and terraces, and if the latter could put on wings at will. he several times saw certain clumsy bipeds, dimly suggestive of apes, white and partially translucent, feeding among certain of the lichenous trees, and once some of these fled before one of the hopping, round-headed martians. the latter caught one in its tentacles, and then the picture faded suddenly and left mr. cave most tantalisingly in the dark. on another occasion a vast thing, that mr. cave thought at first was some gigantic insect, appeared advancing along the causeway beside the canal with extraordinary rapidity. as this drew nearer mr. cave perceived that it was a mechanism of shining metals and of extraordinary complexity. and then, when he looked again, it had passed out of sight. after a time mr. wace aspired to attract the attention of the martians, and the next time that the strange eyes of one of them appeared close to the crystal mr. cave cried out and sprang away, and they immediately turned on the light and began to gesticulate in a manner suggestive of signalling. but when at last mr. cave examined the crystal again the martian had departed. thus far these observations had progressed in early november, and then mr. cave, feeling that the suspicions of his family about the crystal were allayed, began to take it to and fro with him in order that, as occasion arose in the daytime or night, he might comfort himself with what was fast becoming the most real thing in his existence. in december mr. wace's work in connection with a forthcoming examination became heavy, the sittings were reluctantly suspended for a week, and for ten or eleven days--he is not quite sure which--he saw nothing of cave. he then grew anxious to resume these investigations, and, the stress of his seasonal labours being abated, he went down to seven dials. at the corner he noticed a shutter before a bird fancier's window, and then another at a cobbler's. mr. cave's shop was closed. he rapped and the door was opened by the step-son in black. he at once called mrs. cave, who was, mr. wace could not but observe, in cheap but ample widow's weeds of the most imposing pattern. without any very great surprise mr. wace learnt that cave was dead and already buried. she was in tears, and her voice was a little thick. she had just returned from highgate. her mind seemed occupied with her own prospects and the honourable details of the obsequies, but mr. wace was at last able to learn the particulars of cave's death. he had been found dead in his shop in the early morning, the day after his last visit to mr. wace, and the crystal had been clasped in his stone-cold hands. his face was smiling, said mrs. cave, and the velvet cloth from the minerals lay on the floor at his feet. he must have been dead five or six hours when he was found. this came as a great shock to wace, and he began to reproach himself bitterly for having neglected the plain symptoms of the old man's ill-health. but his chief thought was of the crystal. he approached that topic in a gingerly manner, because he knew mrs. cave's peculiarities. he was dumfounded to learn that it was sold. mrs. cave's first impulse, directly cave's body had been taken upstairs, had been to write to the mad clergyman who had offered five pounds for the crystal, informing him of its recovery; but after a violent hunt, in which her daughter joined her, they were convinced of the loss of his address. as they were without the means required to mourn and bury cave in the elaborate style the dignity of an old seven dials inhabitant demands, they had appealed to a friendly fellow-tradesman in great portland street. he had very kindly taken over a portion of the stock at a valuation. the valuation was his own, and the crystal egg was included in one of the lots. mr. wace, after a few suitable condolences, a little off-handedly proffered perhaps, hurried at once to great portland street. but there he learned that the crystal egg had already been sold to a tall, dark man in grey. and there the material facts in this curious, and to me at least very suggestive, story come abruptly to an end. the great portland street dealer did not know who the tall dark man in grey was, nor had he observed him with sufficient attention to describe him minutely. he did not even know which way this person had gone after leaving the shop. for a time mr. wace remained in the shop, trying the dealer's patience with hopeless questions, venting his own exasperation. and at last, realising abruptly that the whole thing had passed out of his hands, had vanished like a vision of the night, he returned to his own rooms, a little astonished to find the notes he had made still tangible and visible upon, his untidy table. his annoyance and disappointment were naturally very great. he made a second call (equally ineffectual) upon the great portland street dealer, and he resorted to advertisements in such periodicals as were lively to come into the hands of a _bric-a-brac_ collector. he also wrote letters to _the daily chronicle_ and _nature_, but both those periodicals, suspecting a hoax, asked him to reconsider his action before they printed, and he was advised that such a strange story, unfortunately so bare of supporting evidence, might imperil his reputation as an investigator. moreover, the calls of his proper work were urgent. so that after a month or so, save for an occasional reminder to certain dealers, he had reluctantly to abandon the quest for the crystal egg, and from that day to this it remains undiscovered. occasionally, however, he tells me, and i can quite believe him, he has bursts of zeal, in which he abandons his more urgent occupation and resumes the search. whether or not it will remain lost for ever, with the material and origin of it, are things equally speculative at the present time. if the present purchaser is a collector, one would have expected the enquiries of mr. wace to have reached him through the dealers. he has been able to discover mr. cave's clergyman and "oriental"--no other than the rev. james parker and the young prince of bosso-kuni in java. i am obliged to them for certain particulars. the object of the prince was simply curiosity--and extravagance. he was so eager to buy because cave was so oddly reluctant to sell. it is just as possible that the buyer in the second instance was simply a casual purchaser and not a collector at all, and the crystal egg, for all i know, may at the present moment be within a mile of me, decorating a drawing-room or serving as a paper-weight--its remarkable functions all unknown. indeed, it is partly with the idea of such a possibility that i have thrown this narrative into a form that will give it a chance of being read by the ordinary consumer of fiction. my own ideas in the matter are practically identical with those of mr. wace. i believe the crystal on the mast in mars and the crystal egg of mr. cave's to be in some physical, but at present quite inexplicable, way _en rapport_, and we both believe further that the terrestrial crystal must have been--possibly at some remote date--sent hither from that planet, in order to give the martians a near view of our affairs. possibly the fellows to the crystals on the other masts are also on our globe. no theory of hallucination suffices for the facts. xx. the star. it was on the first day of the new year that the announcement was made, almost simultaneously from three observatories, that the motion of the planet neptune, the outermost of all the planets that wheel about the sun, had become very erratic. ogilvy had already called attention to a suspected retardation in its velocity in december. such a piece of news was scarcely calculated to interest a world the greater portion of whose inhabitants were unaware of the existence of the planet neptune, nor outside the astronomical profession did the subsequent discovery of a faint remote speck of light in the region of the perturbed planet cause any very great excitement. scientific people, however, found the intelligence remarkable enough, even before it became known that the new body was rapidly growing larger and brighter, that its motion was quite different from the orderly progress of the planets, and that the deflection of neptune and its satellite was becoming now of an unprecedented kind. few people without a training in science can realise the huge isolation of the solar system. the sun with its specks of planets, its dust of planetoids, and its impalpable comets, swims in a vacant immensity that almost defeats the imagination. beyond the orbit of neptune there is space, vacant so far as human observation has penetrated, without warmth or light or sound, blank emptiness, for twenty million times a million miles. that is the smallest estimate of the distance to be traversed before the very nearest of the stars is attained. and, saving a few comets more unsubstantial than the thinnest flame, no matter had ever to human knowledge crossed this gulf of space until early in the twentieth century this strange wanderer appeared. a vast mass of matter it was, bulky, heavy, rushing without warning out of the black mystery of the sky into the radiance of the sun. by the second day it was clearly visible to any decent instrument, as a speck with a barely sensible diameter, in the constellation leo near regulus. in a little while an opera glass could attain it. on the third day of the new year the newspaper readers of two hemispheres were made aware for the first time of the real importance of this unusual apparition in the heavens. "a planetary collision," one london paper headed the news, and proclaimed duchaine's opinion that this strange new planet would probably collide with neptune. the leader-writers enlarged upon the topic. so that in most of the capitals of the world, on january rd, there was an expectation, however vague, of some imminent phenomenon in the sky; and as the night followed the sunset round the globe, thousands of men turned their eyes skyward to see--the old familiar stars just as they had always been. until it was dawn in london and pollux setting and the stars overhead grown pale. the winter's dawn it was, a sickly filtering accumulation of daylight, and the light of gas and candles shone yellow in the windows to show where people were astir. but the yawning policeman saw the thing, the busy crowds in the markets stopped agape, workmen going to their work betimes, milkmen, the drivers of news-carts, dissipation going home jaded and pale, homeless wanderers, sentinels on their beats, and, in the country, labourers trudging afield, poachers slinking home, all over the dusky quickening country it could be seen--and out at sea by seamen watching for the day--a great white star, come suddenly into the westward sky! brighter it was than any star in our skies; brighter than the evening star at its brightest. it still glowed out white and large, no mere twinkling spot of light, but a small, round, clear shining disc, an hour after the day had come. and where science has not reached, men stared and feared, telling one another of the wars and pestilences that are foreshadowed by these fiery signs in the heavens. sturdy boers, dusky hottentots, gold coast negroes, frenchmen, spaniards, portuguese, stood in the warmth of the sunrise watching the setting of this strange new star. and in a hundred observatories there had been suppressed excitement, rising almost to shouting pitch, as the two remote bodies had rushed together, and a hurrying to and fro, to gather photographic apparatus and spectroscope, and this appliance and that, to record this novel, astonishing sight, the destruction of a world. for it was a world, a sister planet of our earth, far greater than our earth indeed, that had so suddenly flashed into flaming death. neptune it was had been struck, fairly and squarely, by the strange planet from outer space, and the heat of the concussion had incontinently turned two solid globes into one vast mass of incandescence. round the world that day, two hours before the dawn, went the pallid great white star, fading only as it sank westward and the sun mounted above it. everywhere men marvelled at it, but of all those who saw it none could have marvelled more than those sailors, habitual watchers of the stars, who far away at sea had heard nothing of its advent and saw it now rise like a pigmy moon and climb zenithward and hang overhead and sink westward with the passing of the night. and when next it rose over europe everywhere were crowds of watchers on hilly slopes, on house-roofs, in open spaces, staring eastward for the rising of the great new star. it rose with a white glow in front of it, like the glare of a white fire, and those who had seen it come into existence the night before cried out at the sight of it. "it is larger," they cried. "it is brighter!" and indeed the moon, a quarter full and sinking in the west, was in its apparent size beyond comparison, but scarcely in all its breadth had it as much brightness now as the little circle of the strange new star. "it is brighter!" cried the people clustering in the streets. but in the dim observatories the watchers held their breath and peered at one another. "_it is nearer_!" they said. "_nearer_!" and voice after voice repeated, "it is nearer," and the clicking telegraph took that up, and it trembled along telephone wires, and in a thousand cities grimy compositors fingered the type. "it is nearer." men writing in offices, struck with a strange realisation, flung down their pens, men talking in a thousand places suddenly came upon a grotesque possibility in those words, "it is nearer." it hurried along awakening streets, it was shouted down the frost-stilled ways of quiet villages, men who had read these things from the throbbing tape stood in yellow-lit doorways shouting the news to the passers-by. "it is nearer," pretty women, flushed and glittering, heard the news told jestingly between the dances, and feigned an intelligent interest they did not feel. "nearer! indeed. how curious! how very, very clever people must be to find out things like that!" lonely tramps faring through the wintry night murmured those words to comfort themselves--looking skyward. "it has need to be nearer, for the night's as cold as charity. don't seem much warmth from it if it _is_ nearer, all the same." "what is a new star to me?" cried the weeping woman, kneeling beside her dead. the schoolboy, rising early for his examination work, puzzled it out for himself--with the great white star shining broad and bright through the frost-flowers of his window. "centrifugal, centripetal," he said, with his chin on his fist. "stop a planet in its flight, rob it of its centrifugal force, what then? centripetal has it, and down it falls into the sun! and this--! "do _we_ come in the way? i wonder--" the light of that day went the way of its brethren, and with the later watches of the frosty darkness rose the strange star again. and it was now so bright that the waxing moon seemed but a pale yellow ghost of itself, hanging huge in the sunset. in a south african city a great man had married, and the streets were alight to welcome his return with his bride. "even the skies have illuminated," said the flatterer. under capricorn, two negro lovers, daring the wild beasts and evil spirits for love of one another, crouched together in a cane brake where the fire-flies hovered. "that is our star," they whispered, and felt strangely comforted by the sweet brilliance of its light. the master mathematician sat in his private room and pushed the papers from him. his calculations were already finished. in a small white phial there still remained a little of the drug that had kept him awake and active for four long nights. each day, serene, explicit, patient as ever, he had given his lecture to his students, and then had come back at once to this momentous calculation. his face was grave, a little drawn and hectic from his drugged activity. for some time he seemed lost in thought. then he went to the window, and the blind went up with a click. half-way up the sky, over the clustering roofs, chimneys, and steeples of the city, hung the star. he looked at it as one might look into the eyes of a brave enemy. "you may kill me," he said after a silence. "but i can hold you--and all the universe for that matter--in the grip of this small brain. i would not change. even now." he looked at the little phial. "there will be no need of sleep again," he said. the next day at noon, punctual to the minute, he entered his lecture theatre, put his hat on the end of the table as his habit was, and carefully selected a large piece of chalk. it was a joke among his students that he could not lecture without that piece of chalk to fumble in his fingers, and once he had been stricken to impotence by their hiding his supply. he came and looked under his grey eyebrows at the rising tiers of young fresh faces, and spoke with his accustomed studied commonness of phrasing. "circumstances have arisen--circumstances beyond my control," he said, and paused, "which will debar me from completing the course i had designed. it would seem, gentlemen, if i may put the thing clearly and briefly, that--man has lived in vain." the students glanced at one another. had they heard aright? mad? raised eyebrows and grinning lips there were, but one or two faces remained intent upon his calm grey-fringed face. "it will be interesting," he was saying, "to devote this morning to an exposition, so far as i can make it clear to you, of the calculations that have led me to this conclusion. let us assume----" he turned towards the blackboard, meditating a diagram in the way that was usual to him. "what was that about 'lived in vain'?" whispered one student to another. "listen," said the other, nodding towards the lecturer. and presently they began to understand. * * * * * that night the star rose later, for its proper eastward motion had carried it some way across leo towards virgo, and its brightness was so great that the sky became a luminous blue as it rose, and every star was hidden in its turn, save only jupiter near the zenith, capella, aldebaran, sirius, and the pointers of the bear. it was very white and beautiful. in many parts of the world that night a pallid halo encircled it about. it was perceptibly larger; in the clear refractive sky of the tropics it seemed as if it were nearly a quarter the size of the moon. the frost was still on the ground in england, but the world was as brightly lit as if it were midsummer moonlight. one could see to read quite ordinary print by that cold, clear light, and in the cities the lamps burnt yellow and wan. and everywhere the world was awake that night, and throughout christendom a sombre murmur hung in the keen air over the country-side like the belling of bees in the heather, and this murmurous tumult grew to a clangour in the cities. it was the tolling of the bells in a million belfry towers and steeples, summoning the people to sleep no more, to sin no more, but to gather in their churches and pray. and overhead, growing larger and brighter, as the earth rolled on its way and the night passed, rose the dazzling star. and the streets and houses were alight in all the cities, the shipyards glared, and whatever roads led to high country were lit and crowded all night long. and in all the seas about the civilized lands, ships with throbbing engines, and ships with bellying sails, crowded with men and living creatures, were standing out to ocean and the north. for already the warning of the master mathematician had been telegraphed all over the world and translated into a hundred tongues. the new planet and neptune, locked in a fiery embrace, were whirling headlong, ever faster and faster towards the sun. already every second this blazing mass flew a hundred miles, and every second its terrific velocity increased. as it flew now, indeed, it must pass a hundred million of miles, wide of the earth and scarcely affect it. but near its destined path, as yet only slightly perturbed, spun the mighty planet jupiter and his moons sweeping splendid round the sun. every moment now the attraction between the fiery star and the greatest of the planets grew stronger. and the result of that attraction? inevitably jupiter would be deflected from its orbit into an elliptical path, and the burning star, swung by his attraction wide of its sunward rush, would "describe a curved path," and perhaps collide with, and certainly pass very close to, our earth. "earthquakes, volcanic outbreaks, cyclones, sea waves, floods, and a steady rise in temperature to i know not what limit"--so prophesied the master mathematician. and overhead, to carry out his words, lonely and cold and livid blazed the star of the coming doom. to many who stared at it that night until their eyes ached it seemed that it was visibly approaching. and that night, too, the weather changed, and the frost that had gripped all central europe and france and england softened towards a thaw. but you must not imagine, because i have spoken of people praying through the night and people going aboard ships and people fleeing towards mountainous country, that the whole world was already in a terror because of the star. as a matter of fact, use and wont still ruled the world, and save for the talk of idle moments and the splendour of the night, nine human beings out of ten were still busy at their common occupations. in all the cities the shops, save one here and there, opened and closed at their proper hours, the doctor and the undertaker plied their trades, the workers gathered in the factories, soldiers drilled, scholars studied, lovers sought one another, thieves lurked and fled, politicians planned their schemes. the presses of the newspapers roared through the nights, and many a priest of this church and that would not open his holy building to further what he considered a foolish panic. the newspapers insisted on the lesson of the year --for then, too, people had anticipated the end. the star was no star--mere gas--a comet; and were it a star it could not possibly strike the earth. there was no precedent for such a thing. common-sense was sturdy everywhere, scornful, jesting, a little inclined to persecute the obdurate fearful. that night, at seven-fifteen by greenwich time, the star would be at its nearest to jupiter. then the world would see the turn things would take. the master mathematician's grim warnings were treated by many as so much mere elaborate self-advertisement. common-sense at last, a little heated by argument, signified its unalterable convictions by going to bed. so, too, barbarism and savagery, already tired of the novelty, went about their nightly business, and, save for a howling dog here and there, the beast world left the star unheeded. and yet, when at last the watchers in the european states saw the star rise, an hour later, it is true, but no larger than it had been the night before, there were still plenty awake to laugh at the master mathematician--to take the danger as if it had passed. but hereafter the laughter ceased. the star grew--it grew with a terrible steadiness hour after hour, a little larger each hour, a little nearer the midnight zenith, and brighter and brighter, until it had turned night into a second day. had it come straight to the earth instead of in a curved path, had it lost no velocity to jupiter, it must have leapt the intervening gulf in a day; but as it was, it took five days altogether to come by our planet. the next night it had become a third the size of the moon before it set to english eyes, and the thaw was assured. it rose over america near the size of the moon, but blinding white to look at, and _hot_; and a breath of hot wind blew now with its rising and gathering strength, and in virginia, and brazil, and down the st. lawrence valley, it shone intermittently through a driving reek of thunder-clouds, flickering violet lightning, and hail unprecedented. in manitoba was a thaw and devastating floods. and upon all the mountains of the earth the snow and ice began to melt that night, and all the rivers coming out of high country flowed thick and turbid, and soon--in their upper reaches-- with swirling trees and the bodies of beasts and men. they rose steadily, steadily in the ghostly brilliance, and came trickling over their banks at last, behind the flying population of their valleys. and along the coast of argentina and up the south atlantic the tides were higher than had ever been in the memory of man, and the storms drove the waters in many cases scores of miles inland, drowning whole cities. and so great grew the heat during the night that the rising of the sun was like the coming of a shadow. the earthquakes began and grew until all down america from the arctic circle to cape horn, hillsides were sliding, fissures were opening, and houses and walls crumbling to destruction. the whole side of cotopaxi slipped out in one vast convulsion, and a tumult of lava poured out so high and broad and swift and liquid that in one day it reached the sea. so the star, with the wan moon in its wake, marched across the pacific, trailed the thunder-storms like the hem of a robe, and the growing tidal wave that toiled behind it, frothing and eager, poured over island and island and swept them clear of men: until that wave came at last--in a blinding light and with the breath of a furnace, swift and terrible it came--a wall of water, fifty feet high, roaring hungrily, upon the long coasts of asia, and swept inland across the plains of china. for a space the star, hotter now and larger and brighter than the sun in its strength, showed with pitiless brilliance the wide and populous country; towns and villages with their pagodas and trees, roads, wide cultivated fields, millions of sleepless people staring in helpless terror at the incandescent sky; and then, low and growing, came the murmur of the flood. and thus it was with millions of men that night--a flight nowhither, with limbs heavy with heat and breath fierce and scant, and the flood like a wall swift and white behind. and then death. china was lit glowing white, but over japan and java and all the islands of eastern asia the great star was a ball of dull red fire because of the steam and smoke and ashes the volcanoes were spouting forth to salute its coming. above was the lava, hot gases and ash, and below the seething floods, and the whole earth swayed and rumbled with the earthquake shocks. soon the immemorial snows of thibet and the himalaya were melting and pouring down by ten million deepening converging channels upon the plains of burmah and hindostan. the tangled summits of the indian jungles were aflame in a thousand places, and below the hurrying waters around the stems were dark objects that still struggled feebly and reflected the blood-red tongues of fire. and in a rudderless confusion a multitude of men and women fled down the broad river-ways to that one last hope of men--the open sea. larger grew the star, and larger, hotter, and brighter with a terrible swiftness now. the tropical ocean had lost its phosphorescence, and the whirling steam rose in ghostly wreaths from the black waves that plunged incessantly, speckled with storm-tossed ships. and then came a wonder. it seemed to those who in europe watched for the rising of the star that the world must have ceased its rotation. in a thousand open spaces of down and upland the people who had fled thither from the floods and the falling houses and sliding slopes of hill watched for that rising in vain. hour followed hour through a terrible suspense, and the star rose not. once again men set their eyes upon the old constellations they had counted lost to them for ever. in england it was hot and clear overhead, though the ground quivered perpetually, but in the tropics, sirius and capella and aldebaran showed through a veil of steam. and when at last the great star rose near ten hours late, the sun rose close upon it, and in the centre of its white heart was a disc of black. over asia it was the star had begun to fall behind the movement of the sky, and then suddenly, as it hung over india, its light had been veiled. all the plain of india from the mouth of the indus to the mouths of the ganges was a shallow waste of shining water that night, out of which rose temples and palaces, mounds and hills, black with people. every minaret was a clustering mass of people, who fell one by one into the turbid waters, as heat and terror overcame them. the whole land seemed a-wailing, and suddenly there swept a shadow across that furnace of despair, and a breath of cold wind, and a gathering of clouds, out of the cooling air. men looking up, near blinded, at the star, saw that a black disc was creeping across the light. it was the moon, coming between the star and the earth. and even as men cried to god at this respite, out of the east with a strange inexplicable swiftness sprang the sun. and then star, sun, and moon rushed together across the heavens. so it was that presently to the european watchers star and sun rose close upon each other, drove headlong for a space and then slower, and at last came to rest, star and sun merged into one glare of flame at the zenith of the sky. the moon no longer eclipsed the star but was lost to sight in the brilliance of the sky. and though those who were still alive regarded it for the most part with that dull stupidity that hunger, fatigue, heat and despair engender, there were still men who could perceive the meaning of these signs. star and earth had been at their nearest, had swung about one another, and the star had passed. already it was receding, swifter and swifter, in the last stage of its headlong journey downward into the sun. and then the clouds gathered, blotting out the vision of the sky, the thunder and lightning wove a garment round the world; all over the earth was such a downpour of rain as men had never before seen, and where the volcanoes flared red against the cloud canopy there descended torrents of mud. everywhere the waters were pouring off the land, leaving mud-silted ruins, and the earth littered like a storm-worn beach with all that had floated, and the dead bodies of the men and brutes, its children. for days the water streamed off the land, sweeping away soil and trees and houses in the way, and piling huge dykes and scooping out titanic gullies over the country-side. those were the days of darkness that followed the star and the heat. all through them, and for many weeks and months, the earthquakes continued. but the star had passed, and men, hunger-driven and gathering courage only slowly, might creep back to their ruined cities, buried granaries, and sodden fields. such few ships as had escaped the storms of that time came stunned and shattered and sounding their way cautiously through the new marks and shoals of once familiar ports. and as the storms subsided men perceived that everywhere the days were hotter than of yore, and the sun larger, and the moon, shrunk to a third of its former size, took now fourscore days between its new and new. but of the new brotherhood that grew presently among men, of the saving of laws and books and machines, of the strange change that had come over iceland and greenland and the shores of baffin's bay, so that the sailors coming there presently found them green and gracious, and could scarce believe their eyes, this story does not tell. nor of the movement of mankind, now that the earth was hotter, northward and southward towards the poles of the earth. it concerns itself only with the coming and the passing of the star. the martian astronomers--for there are astronomers on mars, although they are very different beings from men--were naturally profoundly interested by these things. they saw them from their own standpoint of course. "considering the mass and temperature of the missile that was flung through our solar system into the sun," one wrote, "it is astonishing what a little damage the earth, which it missed so narrowly, has sustained. all the familiar continental markings and the masses of the seas remain intact, and indeed the only difference seems to be a shrinkage of the white discolouration (supposed to be frozen water) round either pole." which only shows how small the vastest of human catastrophes may seem at a distance of a few million miles. xxi. the man who could work miracles. a pantoum in prose. it is doubtful whether the gift was innate. for my own part, i think it came to him suddenly. indeed, until he was thirty he was a sceptic, and did not believe in miraculous powers. and here, since it is the most convenient place, i must mention that he was a little man, and had eyes of a hot brown, very erect red hair, a moustache with ends that he twisted up, and freckles. his name was george mcwhirter fotheringay--not the sort of name by any means to lead to any expectation of miracles--and he was clerk at gomshott's. he was greatly addicted to assertive argument. it was while he was asserting the impossibility of miracles that he had his first intimation of his extraordinary powers. this particular argument was being held in the bar of the long dragon, and toddy beamish was conducting the opposition by a monotonous but effective "so _you_ say," that drove mr. fotheringay to the very limit of his patience. there were present, besides these two, a very dusty cyclist, landlord cox, and miss maybridge, the perfectly respectable and rather portly barmaid of the dragon. miss maybridge was standing with her back to mr. fotheringay, washing glasses; the others were watching him, more or less amused by the present ineffectiveness of the assertive method. goaded by the torres vedras tactics of mr. beamish, mr. fotheringay determined to make an unusual rhetorical effort. "looky here, mr. beamish," said mr. fotheringay. "let us clearly understand what a miracle is. it's something contrariwise to the course of nature, done by power of will, something what couldn't happen without being specially willed." "so _you_ say," said mr. beamish, repulsing him. mr. fotheringay appealed to the cyclist, who had hitherto been a silent auditor, and received his assent--given with a hesitating cough and a glance at mr. beamish. the landlord would express no opinion, and mr. fotheringay, returning to mr. beamish, received the unexpected concession of a qualified assent to his definition of a miracle. "for instance," said mr. fotheringay, greatly encouraged. "here would be a miracle. that lamp, in the natural course of nature, couldn't burn like that upsy-down, could it, beamish?" "_you_ say it couldn't," said beamish. "and you?" said fotheringay. "you don't mean to say--eh?" "no," said beamish reluctantly. "no, it couldn't." "very well," said mr. fotheringay. "then here comes someone, as it might be me, along here, and stands as it might be here, and says to that lamp, as i might do, collecting all my will--turn upsy-down without breaking, and go on burning steady, and--hullo!" it was enough to make anyone say "hullo!" the impossible, the incredible, was visible to them all. the lamp hung inverted in the air, burning quietly with its flame pointing down. it was as solid, as indisputable as ever a lamp was, the prosaic common lamp of the long dragon bar. mr. fotheringay stood with an extended forefinger and the knitted brows of one anticipating a catastrophic smash. the cyclist, who was sitting next the lamp, ducked and jumped across the bar. everybody jumped, more or less. miss maybridge turned and screamed. for nearly three seconds the lamp remained still. a faint cry of mental distress came from mr. fotheringay. "i can't keep it up," he said, "any longer." he staggered back, and the inverted lamp suddenly flared, fell against the corner of the bar, bounced aside, smashed upon the floor, and went out. it was lucky it had a metal receiver, or the whole place would have been in a blaze. mr. cox was the first to speak, and his remark, shorn of needless excrescences, was to the effect that fotheringay was a fool. fotheringay was beyond disputing even so fundamental a proposition as that! he was astonished beyond measure at the thing that had occurred. the subsequent conversation threw absolutely no light on the matter so far as fotheringay was concerned; the general opinion not only followed mr. cox very closely but very vehemently. everyone accused fotheringay of a silly trick, and presented him to himself as a foolish destroyer of comfort and security. his mind was in a tornado of perplexity, he was himself inclined to agree with them, and he made a remarkably ineffectual opposition to the proposal of his departure. he went home flushed and heated, coat-collar crumpled, eyes smarting, and ears red. he watched each of the ten street lamps nervously as he passed it. it was only when he found himself alone in his little bedroom in church row that he was able to grapple seriously with his memories of the occurrence, and ask, "what on earth happened?" he had removed his coat and boots, and was sitting on the bed with his hands in his pockets repeating the text of his defence for the seventeenth time, "i didn't want the confounded thing to upset," when it occurred to him that at the precise moment he had said the commanding words he had inadvertently willed the thing he said, and that when he had seen the lamp in the air he had felt that it depended on him to maintain it there without being clear how this was to be done. he had not a particularly complex mind, or he might have stuck for a time at that "inadvertently willed," embracing, as it does, the abstrusest problems of voluntary action; but as it was, the idea came to him with a quite acceptable haziness. and from that, following, as i must admit, no clear logical path, he came to the test of experiment. he pointed resolutely to his candle and collected his mind, though he felt he did a foolish thing. "be raised up," he said. but in a second that feeling vanished. the candle was raised, hung in the air one giddy moment, and as mr. fotheringay gasped, fell with a smash on his toilet-table, leaving him in darkness save for the expiring glow of its wick. for a time mr. fotheringay sat in the darkness, perfectly still. "it did happen, after all," he said. "and 'ow _i'm_ to explain it i _don't_ know." he sighed heavily, and began feeling in his pockets for a match. he could find none, and he rose and groped about the toilet-table. "i wish i had a match," he said. he resorted to his coat, and there was none there, and then it dawned upon him that miracles were possible even with matches. he extended a hand and scowled at it in the dark. "let there be a match in that hand," he said. he felt some light object fall across his palm and his fingers closed upon a match. after several ineffectual attempts to light this, he discovered it was a safety match. he threw it down, and then it occurred to him that he might have willed it lit. he did, and perceived it burning in the midst of his toilet-table mat. he caught it up hastily, and it went out. his perception of possibilities enlarged, and he felt for and replaced the candle in its candlestick. "here! _you_ be lit," said mr. fotheringay, and forthwith the candle was flaring, and he saw a little black hole in the toilet-cover, with a wisp of smoke rising from it. for a time he stared from this to the little flame and back, and then looked up and met his own gaze in the looking-glass. by this help he communed with himself in silence for a time. "how about miracles now?" said mr. fotheringay at last, addressing his reflection. the subsequent meditations of mr. fotheringay were of a severe but confused description. so far, he could see it was a case of pure willing with him. the nature of his experiences so far disinclined him for any further experiments, at least until he had reconsidered them. but he lifted a sheet of paper, and turned a glass of water pink and then green, and he created a snail, which he miraculously annihilated, and got himself a miraculous new tooth-brush. somewhere in the small hours he had reached the fact that his will-power must be of a particularly rare and pungent quality, a fact of which he had indeed had inklings before, but no certain assurance. the scare and perplexity of his first discovery was now qualified by pride in this evidence of singularity and by vague intimations of advantage. he became aware that the church clock was striking one, and as it did not occur to him that his daily duties at gomshott's might be miraculously dispensed with, he resumed undressing, in order to get to bed without further delay. as he struggled to get his shirt over his head, he was struck with a brilliant idea. "let me be in bed," he said, and found himself so. "undressed," he stipulated; and, finding the sheets cold, added hastily, "and in my nightshirt--ho, in a nice soft woollen nightshirt. ah!" he said with immense enjoyment. "and now let me be comfortably asleep..." he awoke at his usual hour and was pensive all through breakfast-time, wondering whether his over-night experience might not be a particularly vivid dream. at length his mind turned again to cautious experiments. for instance, he had three eggs for breakfast; two his landlady had supplied, good, but shoppy, and one was a delicious fresh goose-egg, laid, cooked, and served by his extraordinary will. he hurried off to gomshott's in a state of profound but carefully concealed excitement, and only remembered the shell of the third egg when his landlady spoke of it that night. all day he could do no work because of this astonishing new self-knowledge, but this caused him no inconvenience, because he made up for it miraculously in his last ten minutes. as the day wore on his state of mind passed from wonder to elation, albeit the circumstances of his dismissal from the long dragon were still disagreeable to recall, and a garbled account of the matter that had reached his colleagues led to some badinage. it was evident he must be careful how he lifted frangible articles, but in other ways his gift promised more and more as he turned it over in his mind. he intended among other things to increase his personal property by unostentatious acts of creation. he called into existence a pair of very splendid diamond studs, and hastily annihilated them again as young gomshott came across the counting-house to his desk. he was afraid young gomshott might wonder how he had come by them. he saw quite clearly the gift required caution and watchfulness in its exercise, but so far as he could judge the difficulties attending its mastery would be no greater than those he had already faced in the study of cycling. it was that analogy, perhaps, quite as much as the feeling that he would be unwelcome in the long dragon, that drove him out after supper into the lane beyond the gasworks, to rehearse a few miracles in private. there was possibly a certain want of originality in his attempts, for, apart from his will-power, mr. fotheringay was not a very exceptional man. the miracle of moses' rod came to his mind, but the night was dark and unfavourable to the proper control of large miraculous snakes. then he recollected the story of "tannhäuser" that he had read on the back of the philharmonic programme. that seemed to him singularly attractive and harmless. he stuck his walking-stick--a very nice poona-penang lawyer-- into the turf that edged the footpath, and commanded the dry wood to blossom. the air was immediately full of the scent of roses, and by means of a match he saw for himself that this beautiful miracle was indeed accomplished. his satisfaction was ended by advancing footsteps. afraid of a premature discovery of his powers, he addressed the blossoming stick hastily: "go back." what he meant was "change back;" but of course he was confused. the stick receded at a considerable velocity, and incontinently came a cry of anger and a bad word from the approaching person. "who are you throwing brambles at, you fool?" cried a voice. "that got me on the shin." "i'm sorry, old chap," said mr. fotheringay, and then, realising the awkward nature of the explanation, caught nervously at his moustache. he saw winch, one of the three immering constables, advancing. "what d'yer mean by it?" asked the constable. "hullo! it's you, is it? the gent that broke the lamp at the long dragon!" "i don't mean anything by it," said mr. fotheringay. "nothing at all." "what d'yer do it for then?" "oh, bother!" said mr. fotheringay. "bother indeed! d'yer know that stick hurt? what d'yer do it for, eh?" for the moment mr. fotheringay could not think what he had done it for. his silence seemed to irritate mr. winch. "you've been assaulting the police, young man, this time. that's what _you_ done." "look here, mr. winch," said mr. fotheringay, annoyed and confused, "i'm sorry, very. the fact is----" "well?" he could think of no way but the truth. "i was working a miracle." he tried to speak in an off-hand way, but try as he would he couldn't. "working a--! 'ere, don't you talk rot. working a miracle, indeed! miracle! well, that's downright funny! why, you's the chap that don't believe in miracles... fact is, this is another of your silly conjuring tricks--that's what this is. now, i tell you--" but mr. fotheringay never heard what mr. winch was going to tell him. he realised he had given himself away, flung his valuable secret to all the winds of heaven. a violent gust of irritation swept him to action. he turned on the constable swiftly and fiercely. "here," he said, "i've had enough of this, i have! i'll show you a silly conjuring trick, i will! go to hades! go, now!" he was alone! mr. fotheringay performed no more miracles that night, nor did he trouble to see what had become of his flowering stick. he returned to the town, scared and very quiet, and went to his bedroom. "lord!" he said, "it's a powerful gift--an extremely powerful gift. i didn't hardly mean as much as that. not really... i wonder what hades is like!" he sat on the bed taking off his boots. struck by a happy thought he transferred the constable to san francisco, and without any more interference with normal causation went soberly to bed. in the night he dreamt of the anger of winch. the next day mr. fotheringay heard two interesting items of news. someone had planted a most beautiful climbing rose against the elder mr. gomshott's private house in the lullaborough road, and the river as far as rawling's mill was to be dragged for constable winch. mr. fotheringay was abstracted and thoughtful all that day, and performed no miracles except certain provisions for winch, and the miracle of completing his day's work with punctual perfection in spite of all the bee-swarm of thoughts that hummed through his mind. and the extraordinary abstraction and meekness of his manner was remarked by several people, and made a matter for jesting. for the most part he was thinking of winch. on sunday evening he went to chapel, and oddly enough, mr. maydig, who took a certain interest in occult matters, preached about "things that are not lawful." mr. fotheringay was not a regular chapelgoer, but the system of assertive scepticism, to which i have already alluded, was now very much shaken. the tenor of the sermon threw an entirely new light on these novel gifts, and he suddenly decided to consult mr. maydig immediately after the service. so soon as that was determined, he found himself wondering why he had not done so before. mr. maydig, a lean, excitable man with quite remarkably long wrists and neck, was gratified at a request for a private conversation from a young man whose carelessness in religious matters was a subject for general remark in the town. after a few necessary delays, he conducted him to the study of the manse, which was contiguous to the chapel, seated him comfortably, and, standing in front of a cheerful fire--his legs threw a rhodian arch of shadow on the opposite wall--requested mr. fotheringay to state his business. at first mr. fotheringay was a little abashed, and found some difficulty in opening the matter. "you will scarcely believe me, mr. maydig, i am afraid"--and so forth for some time. he tried a question at last, and asked mr. maydig his opinion of miracles. mr. maydig was still saying "well" in an extremely judicial tone, when mr. fotheringay interrupted again: "you don't believe, i suppose, that some common sort of person--like myself, for instance--as it might be sitting here now, might have some sort of twist inside him that made him able to do things by his will." "it's possible," said mr. maydig. "something of the sort, perhaps, is possible." "if i might make free with something here, i think i might show you by a sort of experiment," said mr. fotheringay. "now, take that tobacco-jar on the table, for instance. what i want to know is whether what i am going to do with it is a miracle or not. just half a minute, mr. maydig, please." he knitted his brows, pointed to the tobacco-jar and said: "be a bowl of vi'lets." the tobacco-jar did as it was ordered. mr. maydig started violently at the change, and stood looking from the thaumaturgist to the bowl of flowers. he said nothing. presently he ventured to lean over the table and smell the violets; they were fresh-picked and very fine ones. then he stared at mr. fotheringay again. "how did you do that?" he asked. mr. fotheringay pulled his moustache. "just told it--and there you are. is that a miracle, or is it black art, or what is it? and what do you think's the matter with me? that's what i want to ask." "it's a most extraordinary occurrence." "and this day last week i knew no more that i could do things like that than you did. it came quite sudden. it's something odd about my will, i suppose, and that's as far as i can see." "is that--the only thing. could you do other things besides that?" "lord, yes!" said mr. fotheringay. "just anything." he thought, and suddenly recalled a conjuring entertainment he had seen. "here!" he pointed, "change into a bowl of fish--no, not that--change into a glass bowl full of water with goldfish swimming in it. that's better! you see that, mr. maydig?" "it's astonishing. it's incredible. you are either a most extraordinary... but no----" "i could change it into anything," said mr. fotheringay. "just anything. here! be a pigeon, will you?" in another moment a blue pigeon was fluttering round the room and making mr. maydig duck every time it came near him. "stop there, will you?" said mr. fotheringay; and the pigeon hung motionless in the air. "i could change it back to a bowl of flowers," he said, and after replacing the pigeon on the table worked that miracle. "i expect you will want your pipe in a bit," he said, and restored the tobacco-jar. mr. maydig had followed all these later changes in a sort of ejaculatory silence. he stared at mr. fotheringay and in a very gingerly manner picked up the tobacco-jar, examined it, replaced it on the table. "_well_!" was the only expression of his feelings. "now, after that it's easier to explain what i came about," said mr. fotheringay; and proceeded to a lengthy and involved narrative of his strange experiences, beginning with the affair of the lamp in the long dragon and complicated by persistent allusions to winch. as he went on, the transient pride mr. maydig's consternation had caused passed away; he became the very ordinary mr. fotheringay of everyday intercourse again. mr. maydig listened intently, the tobacco-jar in his hand, and his bearing changed also with the course of the narrative. presently, while mr. fotheringay was dealing with the miracle of the third egg, the minister interrupted with a fluttering, extended hand. "it is possible," he said. "it is credible. it is amazing, of course, but it reconciles a number of amazing difficulties. the power to work miracles is a gift--a peculiar quality like genius or second sight; hitherto it has come very rarely and to exceptional people. but in this case...i have always wondered at the miracles of mahomet, and at yogi's miracles, and the miracles of madame blavatsky. but, of course--yes, it is simply a gift! it carries out so beautifully the arguments of that great thinker"-- mr. maydig's voice sank--"his grace the duke of argyll. here we plumb some profounder law--deeper than the ordinary laws of nature. yes--yes. go on. go on!" mr. fotheringay proceeded to tell of his misadventure with winch, and mr. maydig, no longer overawed or scared, began to jerk his limbs about and interject astonishment. "it's this what troubled me most," proceeded mr. fotheringay; "it's this i'm most mijitly in want of advice for; of course he's at san francisco--wherever san francisco may be--but of course it's awkward for both of us, as you'll see, mr. maydig. i don't see how he can understand what has happened, and i daresay he's scared and exasperated something tremendous, and trying to get at me. i daresay he keeps on starting off to come here. i send him back, by a miracle, every few hours, when i think of it. and, of course, that's a thing he won't be able to understand, and it's bound to annoy him; and, of course, if he takes a ticket every time it will cost him a lot of money. i done the best i could for him, but, of course, it's difficult for him to put himself in my place. i thought afterwards that his clothes might have got scorched, you know--if hades is all it's supposed to be--before i shifted him. in that case i suppose they'd have locked him up in san francisco. of course i willed him a new suit of clothes on him directly i thought of it. but, you see, i'm already in a deuce of a tangle----" mr. maydig looked serious. "i see you are in a tangle. yes, it's a difficult position. how you are to end it..." he became diffuse and inconclusive. "however, we'll leave winch for a little and discuss the larger question. i don't think this is a case of the black art or anything of the sort. i don't think there is any taint of criminality about it at all, mr. fotheringay--none whatever, unless you are suppressing material facts. no, it's miracles--pure miracles--miracles, if i may say so, of the very highest class." he began to pace the hearthrug and gesticulate, while mr. fotheringay sat with his arm on the table and his head on his arm, looking worried. "i don't see how i'm to manage about winch," he said. "a gift of working miracles--apparently a very powerful gift," said mr. maydig, "will find a way about winch--never fear. my dear sir, you are a most important man--a man of the most astonishing possibilities. as evidence, for example! and in other ways, the things you may do..." "yes, _i've_ thought of a thing or two," said mr. fotheringay. "but-- some of the things came a bit twisty. you saw that fish at first? wrong sort of bowl and wrong sort of fish. and i thought i'd ask someone." "a proper course," said mr. maydig, "a very proper course--altogether the proper course." he stopped and looked at mr. fotheringay. "it's practically an unlimited gift. let us test your powers, for instance. if they really _are_ ... if they really are all they seem to be." and so, incredible as it may seem, in the study of the little house behind the congregational chapel, on the evening of sunday, nov. , , mr. fotheringay, egged on and inspired by mr. maydig, began to work miracles. the reader's attention is specially and definitely called to the date. he will object, probably has already objected, that certain points in this story are improbable, that if any things of the sort already described had indeed occurred, they would have been in all the papers at that time. the details immediately following he will find particularly hard to accept, because among other things they involve the conclusion that he or she, the reader in question, must have been killed in a violent and unprecedented manner more than a year ago. now a miracle is nothing if not improbable, and as a matter of fact the reader _was_ killed in a violent and unprecedented manner in . in the subsequent course of this story that will become perfectly clear and credible, as every right-minded and reasonable reader will admit. but this is not the place for the end of the story, being but little beyond the hither side of the middle. and at first the miracles worked by mr. fotheringay were timid little miracles--little things with the cups and parlour fitments, as feeble as the miracles of theosophists, and, feeble as they were, they were received with awe by his collaborator. he would have preferred to settle the winch business out of hand, but mr. maydig would not let him. but after they had worked a dozen of these domestic trivialities, their sense of power grew, their imagination began to show signs of stimulation, and their ambition enlarged. their first larger enterprise was due to hunger and the negligence of mrs. minchin, mr. maydig's housekeeper. the meal to which the minister conducted mr. fotheringay was certainly ill-laid and uninviting as refreshment for two industrious miracle-workers; but they were seated, and mr. maydig was descanting in sorrow rather than in anger upon his housekeeper's shortcomings, before it occurred to mr. fotheringay that an opportunity lay before him. "don't you think, mr. maydig," he said, "if it isn't a liberty, _i_----" "my dear mr. fotheringay! of course! no--i didn't think." mr. fotheringay waved his hand. "what shall we have?" he said, in a large, inclusive spirit, and, at mr. maydig's order, revised the supper very thoroughly. "as for me," he said, eyeing mr. maydig's selection, "i am always particularly fond of a tankard of stout and a nice welsh rarebit, and i'll order that. i ain't much given to burgundy," and forthwith stout and welsh rarebit promptly appeared at his command. they sat long at their supper, talking like equals, as mr. fotheringay presently perceived, with a glow of surprise and gratification, of all the miracles they would presently do. "and, by-the-by, mr. maydig," said mr. fotheringay, "i might perhaps be able to help you--in a domestic way." "don't quite follow," said mr. maydig, pouring out a glass of miraculous old burgundy. mr. fotheringay helped himself to a second welsh rarebit out of vacancy, and took a mouthful. "i was thinking," he said, "i might be able (_chum, chum_) to work (_chum, chum_) a miracle with mrs. minchin (_chum, chum_)--make her a better woman." mr. maydig put down the glass and looked doubtful. "she's----she strongly objects to interference, you know, mr. fotheringay. and--as a matter of fact--it's well past eleven and she's probably in bed and asleep. do you think, on the whole----" mr. fotheringay considered these objections. "i don't see that it shouldn't be done in her sleep." for a time mr. maydig opposed the idea, and then he yielded. mr. fotheringay issued his orders, and a little less at their ease, perhaps, the two gentlemen proceeded with their repast. mr. maydig was enlarging on the changes he might expect in his housekeeper next day, with an optimism, that seemed even to mr. fotheringay's supper senses a little forced and hectic, when a series of confused noises from upstairs began. their eyes exchanged interrogations, and mr. maydig left the room hastily. mr. fotheringay heard him calling up to his housekeeper and then his footsteps going softly up to her. in a minute or so the minister returned, his step light, his face radiant. "wonderful!" he said, "and touching! most touching!" he began pacing the hearthrug. "a repentance--a most touching repentance-- through the crack of the door. poor woman! a most wonderful change! she had got up. she must have got up at once. she had got up out of her sleep to smash a private bottle of brandy in her box. and to confess it too!... but this gives us--it opens--a most amazing vista of possibilities. if we can work this miraculous change in _her_..." "the thing's unlimited seemingly," said mr. fotheringay. "and about mr. winch----" "altogether unlimited." and from the hearthrug mr. maydig, waving the winch difficulty aside, unfolded a series of wonderful proposals-- proposals he invented as he went along. now what those proposals were does not concern the essentials of this story. suffice it that they were designed in a spirit of infinite benevolence, the sort of benevolence that used to be called post-prandial. suffice it, too, that the problem of winch remained unsolved. nor is it necessary to describe how far that series got to its fulfilment. there were astonishing changes. the small hours found mr. maydig and mr. fotheringay careering across the chilly market square under the still moon, in a sort of ecstasy of thaumaturgy, mr. maydig all flap and gesture, mr. fotheringay short and bristling, and no longer abashed at his greatness. they had reformed every drunkard in the parliamentary division, changed all the beer and alcohol to water (mr. maydig had overruled mr. fotheringay on this point); they had, further, greatly improved the railway communication of the place, drained flinder's swamp, improved the soil of one tree hill, and cured the vicar's wart. and they were going to see what could be done with the injured pier at south bridge. "the place," gasped mr. maydig, "won't be the same place to-morrow. how surprised and thankful everyone will be!" and just at that moment the church clock struck three. "i say," said mr. fotheringay, "that's three o'clock! i must be getting back. i've got to be at business by eight. and besides, mrs. wimms----" "we're only beginning," said mr. maydig, full of the sweetness of unlimited power. "we're only beginning. think of all the good we're doing. when people wake----" "but----," said mr. fotheringay. mr. maydig gripped his arm suddenly. his eyes were bright and wild. "my dear chap," he said, "there's no hurry. look"--he pointed to the moon at the zenith--"joshua!" "joshua?" said mr. fotheringay. "joshua," said mr. maydig. "why not? stop it." mr. fotheringay looked at the moon. "that's a bit tall," he said, after a pause. "why not?" said mr. maydig. "of course it doesn't stop. you stop the rotation of the earth, you know. time stops. it isn't as if we were doing harm." "h'm!" said mr. fotheringay. "well," he sighed, "i'll try. here!" he buttoned up his jacket and addressed himself to the habitable globe, with as good an assumption of confidence as lay in his power. "jest stop rotating, will you?" said mr. fotheringay. incontinently he was flying head over heels through the air at the rate of dozens of miles a minute. in spite of the innumerable circles he was describing per second, he thought; for thought is wonderful--sometimes as sluggish as flowing pitch, sometimes as instantaneous as light. he thought in a second, and willed. "let me come down safe and sound. whatever else happens, let me down safe and sound." he willed it only just in time, for his clothes, heated by his rapid flight through the air, were already beginning to singe. he came down with a forcible, but by no means injurious, bump in what appeared to be a mound of fresh-turned earth. a large mass of metal and masonry, extraordinarily like the clock-tower in the middle of the market square, hit the earth near him, ricochetted over him, and flew into stonework, bricks, and cement, like a bursting bomb. a hurtling cow hit one of the larger blocks and smashed like an egg. there was a crash that made all the most violent crashes of his past life seem like the sound of falling dust, and this was followed by a descending series of lesser crashes. a vast wind roared throughout earth and heaven, so that he could scarcely lift his head to look. for a while he was too breathless and astonished even to see where he was or what had happened. and his first movement was to feel his head and reassure himself that his streaming hair was still his own. "lord!" gasped mr. fotheringay, scarce able to speak for the gale, "i've had a squeak! what's gone wrong? storms and thunder. and only a minute ago a fine night. it's maydig set me on to this sort of thing. _what_ a wind! if i go on fooling in this way i'm bound to have a thundering accident!... "where's maydig? "what a confounded mess everything's in!" he looked about him so far as his flapping jacket would permit. the appearance of things was really extremely strange. "the sky's all right anyhow," said mr. fotheringay. "and that's about all that is all right. and even there it looks like a terrific gale coming up. but there's the moon overhead. just as it was just now. bright as midday. but as for the rest----where's the village? where's--where's anything? and what on earth set this wind a-blowing? i didn't order no wind." mr. fotheringay struggled to get to his feet in vain, and after one failure, remained on all fours, holding on. he surveyed the moonlit world to leeward, with the tails of his jacket streaming over his head. "there's something seriously wrong," said mr. fotheringay. "and what it is-- goodness knows." far and wide nothing was visible in the white glare through the haze of dust that drove before a screaming gale but tumbled masses of earth and heaps of inchoate ruins, no trees, no houses, no familiar shapes, only a wilderness of disorder, vanishing at last into the darkness beneath the whirling columns and streamers, the lightnings and thunderings of a swiftly rising storm. near him in the livid glare was something that might once have been an elm-tree, a smashed mass of splinters, shivered from boughs to base, and further a twisted mass of iron girders--only too evidently the viaduct--rose out of the piled confusion. you see, when mr. fotheringay had arrested the rotation of the solid globe, he had made no stipulation concerning the trifling movables upon its surface. and the earth spins so fast that the surface at its equator is travelling at rather more than a thousand miles an hour, and in these latitudes at more than half that pace. so that the village, and mr. maydig, and mr. fotheringay, and everybody and everything had been jerked violently forward at about nine miles per second--that is to say, much more violently than if they had been fired out of a cannon. and every human being, every living creature, every house, and every tree--all the world as we know it--had been so jerked and smashed and utterly destroyed. that was all. these things mr. fotheringay did not, of course, fully appreciate. but he perceived that his miracle had miscarried, and with that a great disgust of miracles came upon him. he was in darkness now, for the clouds had swept together and blotted out his momentary glimpse of the moon, and the air was full of fitful struggling tortured wraiths of hail. a great roaring of wind and waters filled earth and sky, and peering under his hand through the dust and sleet to windward, he saw by the play of the lightnings a vast wall of water pouring towards him. "maydig!" screamed mr. fotheringay's feeble voice amid the elemental uproar. "here!--maydig! "stop!" cried mr. fotheringay to the advancing water. "oh, for goodness' sake, stop! "just a moment," said mr. fotheringay to the lightnings and thunder. "stop jest a moment while i collect my thoughts... and now what shall i do?" he said. "what _shall_ i do? lord! i wish maydig was about." "i know," said mr. fotheringay. "and for goodness' sake let's have it right _this_ time." he remained on all fours, leaning against the wind, very intent to have everything right. "ah!" he said. "let nothing what i'm going to order happen until i say 'off!'...lord! i wish i'd thought of that before!" he lifted his little voice against the whirlwind, shouting louder and louder in the vain desire to hear himself speak. "now then!--here goes! mind about that what i said just now. in the first place, when all i've got to say is done, let me lose my miraculous power, let my will become just like anybody else's will, and all these dangerous miracles be stopped. i don't like them. i'd rather i didn't work 'em. ever so much. that's the first thing. and the second is--let me be back just before the miracles begin; let everything be just as it was before that blessed lamp turned up. it's a big job, but it's the last. have you got it? no more miracles, everything as it was--me back in the long dragon just before i drank my half-pint. that's it! yes." he dug his fingers into the mould, closed his eyes, and said "off!" everything became perfectly still. he perceived that he was standing erect. "so _you_ say," said a voice. he opened his eyes. he was in the bar of the long dragon, arguing about miracles with toddy beamish. he had a vague sense of some great thing forgotten that instantaneously passed. you see that, except for the loss of his miraculous powers, everything was back as it had been, his mind and memory therefore were now just as they had been at the time when this story began. so that he knew absolutely nothing of all that is told here-- knows nothing of all that is told here to this day. and among other things, of course, he still did not believe in miracles. "i tell you that miracles, properly speaking, can't possibly happen," he said, "whatever you like to hold. and i'm prepared to prove it up to the hilt." "that's what _you_ think," said toddy beamish, and "prove it if you can." "looky here, mr. beamish," said mr. fotheringay. "let us clearly understand what a miracle is. it's something contrariwise to the course of nature done by power of will..." xxii. a vision of judgment. i. bru-a-a-a. i listened, not understanding. wa-ra-ra-ra. "good lord!" said i, still only half awake. "what an infernal shindy!" ra-ra-ra-ra-ra-ra-ra-ra-ra ta-ra-rra-ra. "it's enough," said i, "to wake----" and stopped short. where was i? ta-rra-rara--louder and louder. "it's either some new invention----" toora-toora-toora! deafening! "no," said i, speaking loud in order to hear myself. "that's the last trump." tooo-rraa! ii. the last note jerked me out of my grave like a hooked minnow. i saw my monument (rather a mean little affair, and i wished i knew who'd done it), and the old elm tree and the sea view vanished like a puff of steam, and then all about me--a multitude no man could number, nations, tongues, kingdoms, peoples--children of all the ages, in an amphitheatral space as vast as the sky. and over against us, seated on a throne of dazzling white cloud, the lord god and all the host of his angels. i recognised azrael by his darkness and michael by his sword, and the great angel who had blown the trumpet stood with the trumpet still half raised. iii. "prompt," said the little man beside me. "very prompt. do you see the angel with the book?" he was ducking and craning his head about to see over and under and between the souls that crowded round us. "everybody's here," he said. "everybody. and now we shall know-- "there's darwin," he said, going off at a tangent. "_he'll_ catch it! and there--you see?--that tall, important-looking man trying to catch the eye of the lord god, that's the duke. but there's a lot of people one doesn't know. "oh! there's priggles, the publisher. i have always wondered about printers' overs. priggles was a clever man ... but we shall know now--even about him. "i shall hear all that. i shall get most of the fun before ... _my_ letter's s." he drew the air in between his teeth. "historical characters, too. see? that's henry the eighth. there'll be a good bit of evidence. oh, damn! he's tudor." he lowered his voice. "notice this chap, just in front of us, all covered with hair. paleolithic, you know. and there again--" but i did not heed him, because i was looking at the lord god. iv. "is this _all_?" asked the lord god. the angel at the book--it was one of countless volumes, like the british museum reading-room catalogue, glanced at us and seemed to count us in the instant. "that's all," he said, and added: "it was, o god, a very little planet." the eyes of god surveyed us. "let us begin," said the lord god. v. the angel opened the book and read a name. it was a name full of a's, and the echoes of it came back out of the uttermost parts of space. i did not catch it clearly, because the little man beside me said, in a sharp jerk, "_what's_ that?" it sounded like "ahab" to me; but it could not have been the ahab of scripture. instantly a small black figure was lifted up to a puffy cloud at the very feet of god. it was a stiff little figure, dressed in rich outlandish robes and crowned, and it folded its arms and scowled. "well?" said god, looking down at him. we were privileged to hear the reply, and indeed the acoustic properties of the place were marvellous. "i plead guilty," said the little figure. "tell them what you have done," said the lord god. "i was a king," said the little figure, "a great king, and i was lustful and proud and cruel. i made wars, i devastated countries, i built palaces, and the mortar was the blood of men. hear, o god, the witnesses against me, calling to you for vengeance. hundreds and thousands of witnesses." he waved his hands towards us. "and worse! i took a prophet--one of your prophets----" "one of my prophets," said the lord god. "and because he would not bow to me, i tortured him for four days and nights, and in the end he died. i did more, o god, i blasphemed. i robbed you of your honours----" "robbed me of my honours," said the lord god. "i caused myself to be worshipped in your stead. no evil was there but i practised it; no cruelty wherewith i did not stain my soul. and at last you smote me, o god!" god raised his eyebrows slightly. "and i was slain in battle. and so i stand before you, meet for your nethermost hell! out of your greatness daring no lies, daring no pleas, but telling the truth of my iniquities before all mankind." he ceased. his face i saw distinctly, and it seemed to me white and terrible and proud and strangely noble. i thought of milton's satan. "most of that is from the obelisk," said the recording angel, finger on page. "it is," said the tyrannous man, with a faint touch of surprise. then suddenly god bent forward and took this man in his hand, and held him up on his palm as if to see him better. he was just a little dark stroke in the middle of god's palm. "_did_ he do all this?" said the lord god. the recording angel flattened his book with his hand. "in a way," said the recording angel, carelessly. now when i looked again at the little man his face had changed in a very curious manner. he was looking at the recording angel with a strange apprehension in his eyes, and one hand fluttered to his mouth. just the movement of a muscle or so, and all that dignity of defiance was gone. "read," said the lord god. and the angel read, explaining very carefully and fully all the wickedness of the wicked man. it was quite an intellectual treat.--a little "daring" in places, i thought, but of course heaven has its privileges... vi. everybody was laughing. even the prophet of the lord whom the wicked man had tortured had a smile on his face. the wicked man was really such a preposterous little fellow. "and then," read the recording angel, with a smile that set us all agog, "one day, when he was a little irascible from over-eating, he--" "oh, not _that_," cried the wicked man, "nobody knew of _that_. "it didn't happen," screamed the wicked man. "i was bad--i was really bad. frequently bad, but there was nothing so silly--so absolutely silly--" the angel went on reading. "o god!" cried the wicked man. "don't let them know that! i'll repent! i'll apologise..." the wicked man on god's hand began to dance and weep. suddenly shame overcame him. he made a wild rush to jump off the ball of god's little finger, but god stopped him by a dexterous turn of the wrist. then he made a rush for the gap between hand and thumb, but the thumb closed. and all the while the angel went on reading--reading. the wicked man rushed to and fro across god's palm, and then suddenly turned about and fled up the sleeve of god. i expected god would turn him out, but the mercy of god is infinite. the recording angel paused. "eh?" said the recording angel. "next," said god, and before the recording angel could call the name a hairy creature in filthy rags stood upon god's palm. vii. "has god got hell up his sleeve then?" said the little man beside me. "_is_ there a hell?" i asked. "if you notice," he said--he peered between the feet of the great angels-- "there's no particular indication of a celestial city." "'ssh!" said a little woman near us, scowling. "hear this blessed saint!" viii. "he was lord of the earth, but i was the prophet of the god of heaven," cried the saint, "and all the people marvelled at the sign. for i, o god, knew of the glories of thy paradise. no pain, no hardship, gashing with knives, splinters thrust under my nails, strips of flesh flayed off, all for the glory and honour of god." god smiled. "and at last i went, i in my rags and sores, smelling of my holy discomforts----" gabriel laughed abruptly. "and lay outside his gates, as a sign, as a wonder----" "as a perfect nuisance," said the recording angel, and began to read, heedless of the fact that the saint was still speaking of the gloriously unpleasant things he had done that paradise might be his. and behold, in that book the record of the saint also was a revelation, a marvel. it seemed not ten seconds before the saint also was rushing to and fro over the great palm of god. not ten seconds! and at last he also shrieked beneath that pitiless and cynical exposition, and fled also, even as the wicked man had fled, into the shadow of the sleeve. and it was permitted us to see into the shadow of the sleeve. and the two sat side by side, stark of all delusions, in the shadow of the robe of god's charity, like brothers. and thither also i fled in my turn. ix. "and now," said god, as he shook us out of his sleeve upon the planet he had given us to live upon, the planet that whirled about green sirius for a sun, "now that you understand me and each other a little better,...try again." then he and his great angels turned themselves about and suddenly had vanished... the throne had vanished. all about me was a beautiful land, more beautiful than any i had ever seen before--waste, austere, and wonderful; and all about me were the enlightened souls of men in new clean bodies... xxiii. jimmy goggles the god. "it isn't every one who's been a god," said the sunburnt man. "but it's happened to me--among other things." i intimated my sense of his condescension. "it don't leave much for ambition, does it?" said the sunburnt man. "i was one of those men who were saved from the _ocean pioneer_. gummy! how time flies! it's twenty years ago. i doubt if you'll remember anything of the _ocean pioneer_?" the name was familiar, and i tried to recall when and where i had read it. the _ocean pioneer_? "something about gold dust," i said vaguely, "but the precise--" "that's it," he said. "in a beastly little channel she hadn't no business in--dodging pirates. it was before they'd put the kybosh on that business. and there'd been volcanoes or something and all the rocks was wrong. there's places about by soona where you fair have to follow the rocks about to see where they're going next. down she went in twenty fathoms before you could have dealt for whist, with fifty thousand pounds worth of gold aboard, it was said, in one form or another." "survivors?" "three." "i remember the case now," i said. "there was something about salvage----" but at the word salvage the sunburnt man exploded into language so extraordinarily horrible that i stopped aghast. he came down to more ordinary swearing, and pulled himself up abruptly. "excuse me," he said, "but--salvage!" he leant over towards me. "i was in that job," he said. "tried to make myself a rich man, and got made a god instead. i've got my feelings---- "it ain't all jam being a god," said the sunburnt man, and for some time conversed by means of such pithy but unprogressive axioms. at last he took up his tale again. "there was me," said the sunburnt man, "and a seaman named jacobs, and always, the mate of the _ocean pioneer_. and him it was that set the whole thing going. i remember him now, when we was in the jolly-boat, suggesting it all to our minds just by one sentence. he was a wonderful hand at suggesting things. 'there was forty thousand pounds,' he said, 'on that ship, and it's for me to say just where she went down.' it didn't need much brains to tumble to that. and he was the leader from the first to the last. he got hold of the sanderses and their brig; they were brothers, and the brig was the _pride of banya_, and he it was bought the diving dress--a second-hand one with a compressed air apparatus instead of pumping. he'd have done the diving too, if it hadn't made him sick going down. and the salvage people were mucking about with a chart he'd cooked up, as solemn as could be, at starr race, a hundred and twenty miles away. "i can tell you we was a happy lot aboard that brig, jokes and drink and bright hopes all the time. it all seemed so neat and clean and straightforward, and what rough chaps call a 'cert.' and we used to speculate how the other blessed lot, the proper salvagers, who'd started two days before us, were getting on, until our sides fairly ached. we all messed together in the sanderses' cabin--it was a curious crew, all officers and no men--and there stood the diving-dress waiting its turn. young sanders was a humorous sort of chap, and there certainly was something funny in the confounded thing's great fat head and its stare, and he made us see it too. 'jimmy goggles,' he used to call it, and talk to it like a christian. asked if he was married, and how mrs. goggles was, and all the little goggleses. fit to make you split. and every blessed day all of us used to drink the health of jimmy goggles in rum, and unscrew his eye and pour a glass of rum in him, until, instead of that nasty mackintosheriness, he smelt as nice in his inside as a cask of rum. it was jolly times we had in those days, i can tell you--little suspecting, poor chaps! what was a-coming. "we weren't going to throw away our chances by any blessed hurry, you know, and we spent a whole day sounding our way towards where the _ocean pioneer_ had gone down, right between two chunks of ropy grey rock--lava rocks that rose nearly out of the water. we had to lay off about half a mile to get a safe anchorage, and there was a thundering row who should stop on board. and there she lay just as she had gone down, so that you could see the top of the masts that was still standing perfectly distinctly. the row ended in all coming in the boat. i went down in the diving-dress on friday morning directly it was light. "what a surprise it was! i can see it all now quite distinctly. it was a queer-looking place, and the light was just coming. people over here think every blessed place in the tropics is a flat shore and palm-trees and surf, bless 'em! this place, for instance, wasn't a bit that way. not common rocks they were, undermined by waves; but great curved banks like ironwork cinder heaps, with green slime below, and thorny shrubs and things just waving upon them here and there, and the water glassy calm and clear, and showing you a kind of dirty gray-black shine, with huge flaring red-brown weeds spreading motionless, and crawling and darting things going through it. and far away beyond the ditches and pools and the heaps was a forest on the mountain flank, growing again after the fires and cinder showers of the last eruption. and the other way forest, too, and a kind of broken--what is it?--amby-theatre of black and rusty cinders rising out of it all, and the sea in a kind of bay in the middle. "the dawn, i say, was just coming, and there wasn't much colour about things, and not a human being but ourselves anywhere in sight up or down the channel. except the _pride of banya_, lying out beyond a lump of rocks towards the line of the sea. "not a human being in sight," he repeated, and paused. "_i_ don't know where they came from, not a bit. and we were feeling so safe that we were all alone that poor young sanders was a-singing. i was in jimmy goggles, all except the helmet. 'easy,' says always, 'there's her mast.' and after i'd had just one squint over the gunwale, i caught up the bogey, and almost tipped out as old sanders brought the boat round. when the windows were screwed and everything was all right, i shut the valve from the air-belt in order to help my sinking, and jumped overboard, feet foremost--for we hadn't a ladder. i left the boat pitching, and all of them staring down into water after me, as my head sank down into the weeds and blackness that lay about the mast. i suppose nobody, not the most cautious chap in the world, would have bothered about a look-out at such a desolate place. it stunk of solitude. "of course you must understand that i was a greenhorn at diving. none of us were divers. we'd had to muck about with the thing to get the way of it, and this was the first time i'd been deep. it feels damnable. your ears hurt beastly. i don't know if you've ever hurt yourself yawning or sneezing, but it takes you like that, only ten times worse. and a pain over the eyebrows here--splitting--and a feeling like influenza in the head. and it isn't all heaven in your lungs and things. and going down feels like the beginning of a lift, only it keeps on. and you can't turn your head to see what's above you, and you can't get a fair squint at what's happening to your feet without bending down something painful. and being deep it was dark, let alone the blackness of the ashes and mud that formed the bottom. it was like going down out of the dawn back into the night, so to speak. "the mast came up like a ghost out of the black, and then a lot of fishes, and then a lot of flapping red seaweed, and then whack i came with a kind of dull bang on the deck of the _ocean pioneer_, and the fishes that had been feeding on the dead rose about me like a swarm of flies from road stuff in summer-time. i turned on the compressed air again--for the suit was a bit thick and mackintoshery after all, in spite of the rum--and stood recovering myself. it struck coolish down there, and that helped take off the stuffiness a bit." "when i began to feel easier, i started looking about me. it was an extraordinary sight. even the light was extraordinary, a kind of reddy-coloured twilight, on account of the streamers of seaweed that floated up on either side of the ship. and far overhead just a moony, deep green blue. the deck of the ship, except for a slight list to starboard, was level, and lay all dark and long between the weeds, clear except where the masts had snapped when she rolled, and vanishing into black night towards the forecastle. there wasn't any dead on the decks, most were in the weeds alongside, i suppose; but afterwards i found two skeletons lying in the passengers' cabins, where death had come to them. it was curious to stand on that deck and recognise it all, bit by bit; a place against the rail where i'd been fond of smoking by starlight, and the corner where an old chap from sydney used to flirt with a widow we had aboard. a comfortable couple they'd been, only a month ago, and now you couldn't have got a meal for a baby crab off either of them. "i've always had a bit of a philosophical turn, and i daresay i spent the best part of five minutes in such thoughts before i went below to find where the blessed dust was stored. it was slow work hunting, feeling it was for the most part, pitchy dark, with confusing blue gleams down the companion. and there were things moving about, a dab at my glass once, and once a pinch at my leg. crabs, i expect. i kicked a lot of loose stuff that puzzled me, and stooped and picked up something all knobs and spikes. what do you think? backbone! but i never had any particular feeling for bones. we had talked the affair over pretty thoroughly, and always knew just where the stuff was stowed. i found it that trip. i lifted a box one end an inch or more." he broke off in his story. "i've lifted it," he said, "as near as that! forty thousand pounds' worth of pure gold! gold! i shouted inside my helmet as a kind of cheer, and hurt my ears. i was getting confounded stuffy and tired by this time--i must have been down twenty-five minutes or more--and i thought this was good enough. i went up the companion again, and as my eyes came up flush with the deck, a thundering great crab gave a kind of hysterical jump and went scuttling off sideways. quite a start it gave me. i stood up clear on deck and shut the valve behind the helmet to let the air accumulate to carry me up again--i noticed a kind of whacking from above, as though they were hitting the water with an oar, but i didn't look up. i fancied they were signalling me to come up. "and then something shot down by me--something heavy, and stood a-quiver in the planks. i looked, and there was a long knife i'd seen young sanders handling. thinks i, he's dropped it, and i was still calling him this kind of fool and that---for it might have hurt me serious--when i began to lift and drive up towards the daylight. just about the level of the top spars of the _ocean pioneer_, whack! i came against something sinking down, and a boot knocked in front of my helmet. then something else, struggling frightful. it was a big weight atop of me, whatever it was, and moving and twisting about. i'd have thought it a big octopus, or some such thing, if it hadn't been for the boot. but octopuses don't wear boots. it was all in a moment, of course. "i felt myself sinking down again, and i threw my arms about to keep steady, and the whole lot rolled free of me and shot down as i went up--" he paused. "i saw young sanders's face, over a naked black shoulder, and a spear driven clean through his neck, and out of his mouth and neck what looked like spirts of pink smoke in the water. and down they went clutching one another, and turning over, and both too far gone to leave go. and in another second my helmet came a whack, fit to split, against the niggers' canoe. it was niggers! two canoes full. "it was lively times i tell you? overboard came always with three spears in him. there was the legs of three or four black chaps kicking about me in the water. i couldn't see much, but i saw the game was up at a glance, gave my valve a tremendous twist, and went bubbling down again after poor always, in as awful a state of scare and astonishment as you can well imagine. i passed young sanders and the nigger going up again and struggling still a bit, and in another moment i was standing in the dim again on the deck of the _ocean pioneer_. "gummy, thinks i, here's a fix! niggers? at first i couldn't see anything for it but stifle below or stabs above. i didn't properly understand how much air there was to last me out, but i didn't feel like standing very much more of it down below. i was hot and frightfully heady, quite apart from the blue funk i was in. we'd never reckoned with these beastly natives, filthy papuan beasts. it wasn't any good coming up where i was, but i had to do something. on the spur of the moment, i clambered over the side of the brig and landed among the weeds, and set off through the darkness as fast as i could. i just stopped once and knelt, and twisted back my head in the helmet and had a look up. it was a most extraordinary bright green-blue above, and the two canoes and the boat floating there very small and distant like a kind of twisted h. and it made me feel sick to squint up at it, and think what the pitching and swaying of the three meant. "it was just about the most horrible ten minutes i ever had, blundering about in that darkness--pressure something awful, like being buried in sand, pain across the chest, sick with funk, and breathing nothing as it seemed but the smell of rum and mackintosh. gummy! after a bit, i found myself going up a steepish sort of slope. i had another squint to see if anything was visible of the canoes and boats, and then kept on. i stopped with my head a foot from the surface, and tried to see where i was going, but, of course, nothing was to be seen but the reflection of the bottom. then out i dashed, like knocking my head through a mirror. directly i got my eyes out of the water, i saw i'd come up a kind of beach near the forest. i had a look round, but the natives and the brig were both hidden by a big hummucky heap of twisted lava. the born fool in me suggested a run for the woods. i didn't take the helmet off, but i eased open one of the windows, and, after a bit of a pant, went on out of the water. you'd hardly imagine how clean and light the air tasted. "of course, with four inches of lead in your boot soles, and your head in a copper knob the size of a football, and been thirty-five minutes under water, you don't break any records running. i ran like a ploughboy going to work. and half-way to the trees i saw a dozen niggers or more, coming out in a gaping, astonished sort of way to meet me. "i just stopped dead, and cursed myself for all the fools out of london. i had about as much chance of cutting back to the water as a turned turtle. i just screwed up my window again to leave my hands free, and waited for them. there wasn't anything else for me to do. "but they didn't come on very much. i began to suspect why. 'jimmy goggles,' i says, 'it's your beauty does it.' i was inclined to be a little lightheaded, i think, with all these dangers about and the change in the pressure of the blessed air. 'who're ye staring at?' i said, as if the savages could hear me. 'what d'ye take me for? i'm hanged if i don't give you something to stare at,' i said, and with that i screwed up the escape valve and turned on the compressed air from the belt, until i was swelled out like a blown frog. regular imposing it must have been. i'm blessed if they'd come on a step; and presently one and then another went down on their hands and knees. they didn't know what to make of me, and they was doing the extra polite, which was very wise and reasonable of them. i had half a mind to edge back seaward and cut and run, but it seemed too hopeless. a step back and they'd have been after me. and out of sheer desperation i began to march towards them up the beach, with slow, heavy steps, and waving my blown-out arms about, in a dignified manner. and inside of me i was singing as small as a tomtit. "but there's nothing like a striking appearance to help a man over a difficulty,--i've found that before and since. people like ourselves, who're up to diving dresses by the time we're seven, can scarcely imagine the effect of one on a simple-minded savage. one or two of these niggers cut and run, the others started in a great hurry trying to knock their brains out on the ground. and on i went as slow and solemn and silly-looking and artful as a jobbing plumber. it was evident they took me for something immense. "then up jumped one and began pointing, making extraordinary gestures to me as he did so, and all the others began sharing their attention between me and something out at; sea. 'what's the matter now?' i said. i turned slowly on account of my dignity, and there i saw, coming round a point, the poor old _pride of banya_ towed by a couple of canoes. the sight fairly made me sick. but they evidently expected some recognition, so i waved my arms in a striking sort of non-committal manner. and then i turned and stalked on towards the trees again. at that time i was praying like mad, i remember, over and over again: 'lord help me through with it! lord help me through with it!' it's only fools who know nothing of danger can afford to laugh at praying." "but these niggers weren't going to let me walk through and away like that. they started a kind of bowing dance about me, and sort of pressed me to take a pathway that lay through the trees. it was clear to me they didn't take me for a british citizen, whatever else they thought of me, and for my own part i was never less anxious to own up to the old country. "you'd hardly believe it, perhaps, unless you're familiar with savages, but these poor, misguided, ignorant creatures took me straight to their kind of joss place to present me to the blessed old black stone there. by this time i was beginning to sort of realise the depth of their ignorance, and directly i set eyes on this deity i took my cue. i started a baritone howl, 'wow-wow,' very long on one note, and began waving my arms about a lot, and then very slowly and ceremoniously turned their image over on its side and sat down on it. i wanted to sit down badly, for diving dresses ain't much wear in the tropics. or, to put it different like, they're a sight too much. it took away their breath, i could see, my sitting on their joss, but in less time than a minute they made up their minds and were hard at work worshipping me. and i can tell you i felt a bit relieved to see things turning out so well, in spite of the weight on my shoulders and feet. "but what made me anxious was what the chaps in the canoes might think when they came back. if they'd seen me in the boat before i went down, and without the helmet on--for they might have been spying and hiding since over night--they would very likely take a different view from the others. i was in a deuce of a stew about that for hours, as it seemed, until the shindy of the arrival began. "but they took it down--the whole blessed village took it down. at the cost of sitting up stiff and stern, as much like those sitting egyptian images one sees as i could manage, for pretty nearly twelve hours, i should guess at least, on end, i got over it. you'd hardly think what it meant in that heat and stink. i don't think any of them dreamt of the man inside. i was just a wonderful leathery great joss that had come up with luck out of the water. but the fatigue! the heat! the beastly closeness! the mackintosheriness and the rum! and the fuss! they lit a stinking fire on a kind of lava slab there was before me, and brought in a lot of gory muck--the worst parts of what they were feasting on outside, the beasts-- and burnt it all in my honour. i was getting a bit hungry, but i understand now how gods manage to do without eating, what with the smell of burnt-offerings about them. and they brought in a lot of the stuff they'd got off the brig and, among other stuff, what i was a bit relieved to see, the kind of pneumatic pump that was used for the compressed air affair, and then a lot of chaps and girls came in and danced about me something disgraceful. it's extraordinary the different ways different people have of showing respect. if i'd had a hatchet handy i'd have gone for the lot of them--they made me feel that wild. all this time i sat as stiff as company, not knowing anything better to do. and at last, when nightfall came, and the wattle joss-house place got a bit too shadowy for their taste--all these here savages are afraid of the dark, you know--and i started a sort of 'moo' noise, they built big bonfires outside and left me alone in peace in the darkness of my hut, free to unscrew my windows a bit and think things over, and feel just as bad as i liked. and lord! i was sick. "i was weak and hungry, and my mind kept on behaving like a beetle on a pin, tremendous activity and nothing done at the end of it. come round just where it was before. there was sorrowing for the other chaps, beastly drunkards certainly, but not deserving such a fate, and young sanders with the spear through his neck wouldn't go out of my mind. there was the treasure down there in the _ocean pioneer_, and how one might get it and hide it somewhere safer, and get away and come back for it. and there was the puzzle where to get anything to eat. i tell you i was fair rambling. i was afraid to ask by signs for food, for fear of behaving too human, and so there i sat and hungered until very near the dawn. then the village got a bit quiet, and i couldn't stand it any longer, and i went out and got some stuff like artichokes in a bowl and some sour milk. what was left of these i put away among the other offerings, just to give them a hint of my tastes. and in the morning they came to worship, and found me sitting up stiff and respectable on their previous god, just as they'd left me overnight. i'd got my back against the central pillar of the hut, and, practically, i was asleep. and that's how i became a god among the heathen--false god, no doubt, and blasphemous, but one can't always pick and choose. "now, i don't want to crack myself up as a god beyond my merits, but i must confess that while i was god to these people they was extraordinary successful. i don't say there's anything in it, mind you. they won a battle with another tribe--i got a lot of offerings i didn't want through it--they had wonderful fishing, and their crop of pourra was exceptional fine. and they counted the capture of the brig among the benefits i brought 'em. i must say i don't think that was a poor record for a perfectly new hand. and, though perhaps you'd scarcely credit it, i was the tribal god of those beastly savages for pretty nearly four months... "what else could i do, man? but i didn't wear that diving-dress all the time. i made 'em rig me up a sort of holy of holies, and a deuce of a time i had too, making them understand what it was i wanted them to do. that indeed was the great difficulty--making them understand my wishes. i couldn't let myself down by talking their lingo badly, even if i'd been able to speak at all, and i couldn't go flapping a lot of gestures at them. so i drew pictures in sand and sat down beside them and hooted like one o'clock. sometimes they did the things i wanted all right, and sometimes they did them all wrong. they was always very willing, certainly. all the while i was puzzling how i was to get the confounded business settled. every night before the dawn i used to march out in full rig and go off to a place where i could see the channel in which the _ocean pioneer_ lay sunk, and once even, one moonlight night, i tried to walk out to her, but the weeds and rocks and dark clean beat me. i didn't get back till full day, and then i found all those silly niggers out on the beach praying their sea-god to return to them. i was that vexed and tired, messing and tumbling about, and coming up and going down again, i could have punched their silly heads all round when they started rejoicing. hanged if i like so much ceremony. "and then came the missionary. that missionary! _what_ a guy! gummy! it was in the afternoon, and i was sitting in state in my outer temple place, sitting on that old black stone of theirs, when he came. i heard a row outside and jabbering, and then his voice speaking to an interpreter. 'they worship stocks and stones,' he said, and i knew what was up, in a flash. i had one of my windows out for comfort, and i sang out straight away on the spur of the moment. 'stocks and stones!' i says. 'you come inside,' i says, 'and i'll punch your blooming exeter hall of a head.' "there was a kind of silence and more jabbering, and in he came, bible in hand, after the manner of them--a little sandy chap in specks and a pith helmet. i flatter myself that me sitting there in the shadows, with my copper head and my big goggles, struck him a bit of a heap at first. 'well,' i says, 'how's the trade in scissors?' for i don't hold with missionaries. "i had a lark with that missionary. he was a raw hand, and quite outclassed by a man like me. he gasped out who was i, and i told him to read the inscription at my feet if he wanted to know. there wasn't no inscription; why should there be? but down he goes to read, and his interpreter, being of course as superstitious as any of them, more so by reason of his seeing missionary close to, took it for an act of worship and plumped down like a shot. all my people gave a howl of triumph, and there wasn't any more business to be done in my village after that journey, not by the likes of him. "but, of course, i was a fool to choke him off like that. if i'd had any sense i should have told him straight away of the treasure and taken him into co. i've no doubt he'd have come into co. a child, with a few hours to think it over, could have seen the connection between my diving dress and the loss of the _ocean pioneer_. a week after he left i went out one morning and saw the _motherhood_, the salver's ship from starr race, towing up the channel and sounding. the whole blessed game was up, and all my trouble thrown away. gummy! how wild i felt! and guying it in that stinking silly dress! four months!" the sunburnt man's story degenerated again. "think of it," he said, when he emerged to linguistic purity once more. "forty thousand pounds' worth of gold." "did the little missionary come back?" i asked. "oh yes! bless him! and he pledged his reputation there was a man inside the god, and started out to see as much with tremendous ceremony. but wasn't--he got sold again. i always did hate scenes and explanations, and long before he came i was out of it all--going home to banya along the coast, hiding in bushes by day, and thieving food from the villages by night. only weapon, a spear. no clothes, no money. nothing. my face, my fortune, as the saying is. and just a squeak of eight thousand pounds of gold--fifth share. but the natives cut up rusty, thank goodness, because they thought it was him had driven their luck away." xxiv. miss winchelsea's heart. miss winchelsea was going to rome. the matter had filled her mind for a month or more, and had overflowed so abundantly into her conversation that quite a number of people who were not going to rome, and who were not likely to go to rome, had made it a personal grievance against her. some indeed had attempted quite unavailingly to convince her that rome was not nearly such a desirable place as it was reported to be, and others had gone so far as to suggest behind her back that she was dreadfully "stuck up" about "that rome of hers." and little lily hardhurst had told her friend mr. binns that so far as she was concerned miss winchelsea might "go to her old rome and stop there; _she_ (miss lily hardhurst) wouldn't grieve." and the way in which miss winchelsea put herself upon terms of personal tenderness with horace and benvenuto cellini and raphael and shelley and keats--if she had been shelley's widow she could not have professed a keener interest in his grave--was a matter of universal astonishment. her dress was a triumph of tactful discretion, sensible, but not too "touristy"'--miss winchelsea had a great dread of being "touristy"--and her baedeker was carried in a cover of grey to hide its glaring red. she made a prim and pleasant little figure on the charing cross platform, in spite of her swelling pride, when at last the great day dawned, and she could start for rome. the day was bright, the channel passage would be pleasant, and all the omens promised well. there was the gayest sense of adventure in this unprecedented departure. she was going with two friends who had been fellow-students with her at the training college, nice honest girls both, though not so good at history and literature as miss winchelsea. they both looked up to her immensely, though physically they had to look down, and she anticipated some pleasant times to be spent in "stirring them up" to her own pitch of aesthetic and historical enthusiasm. they had secured seats already, and welcomed her effusively at the carriage door. in the instant criticism of the encounter she noted that fanny had a slightly "touristy" leather strap, and that helen had succumbed to a serge jacket with side pockets, into which her hands were thrust. but they were much too happy with themselves and the expedition for their friend to attempt any hint at the moment about these things. as soon as the first ecstasies were over-- fanny's enthusiasm was a little noisy and crude, and consisted mainly in emphatic repetitions of "just _fancy_! we're going to rome, my dear!--rome!"--they gave their attention to their fellow-travellers. helen was anxious to secure a compartment to themselves, and, in order to discourage intruders, got out and planted herself firmly on the step. miss winchelsea peeped out over her shoulder, and made sly little remarks about the accumulating people on the platform, at which fanny laughed gleefully. they were travelling with one of mr. thomas gunn's parties--fourteen days in rome for fourteen pounds. they did not belong to the personally conducted party, of course--miss winchelsea had seen to that--but they travelled with it because of the convenience of that arrangement. the people were the oddest mixture, and wonderfully amusing. there was a vociferous red-faced polyglot personal conductor in a pepper-and-salt suit, very long in the arms and legs and very active. he shouted proclamations. when he wanted to speak to people he stretched out an arm and held them until his purpose was accomplished. one hand was full of papers, tickets, counterfoils of tourists. the people of the personally conducted party were, it seemed, of two sorts; people the conductor wanted and could not find, and people he did not want and who followed him in a steadily growing tail up and down the platform. these people seemed, indeed, to think that their one chance of reaching rome lay in keeping close to him. three little old ladies were particularly energetic in his pursuit, and at last maddened him to the pitch of clapping them into a carriage and daring them to emerge again. for the rest of the time, one, two, or three of their heads protruded from the window wailing inquiries about "a little wicker-work box" whenever he drew near. there was a very stout man with a very stout wife in shiny black; there was a little old man like an aged hostler. "what _can_ such people want in rome?" asked miss winchelsea. "what can it mean to them?" there was a very tall curate in a very small straw hat, and a very short curate encumbered by a long camera stand. the contrast amused fanny very much. once they heard some one calling for "snooks." "i always thought that name was invented by novelists," said miss winchelsea. "fancy! snooks. i wonder which _is_ mr. snooks." finally they picked out a very stout and resolute little man in a large check suit. "if he isn't snooks, he ought to be," said miss winchelsea. presently the conductor discovered helen's attempt at a corner in carriages. "room for five," he bawled with a parallel translation on his fingers. a party of four together--mother, father, and two daughters-- blundered in, all greatly excited. "it's all right, ma--you let me," said one of the daughters, hitting her mother's bonnet with a handbag she struggled to put in the rack. miss winchelsea detested people who banged about and called their mother "ma." a young man travelling alone followed. he was not at all "touristy" in his costume, miss winchelsea observed; his gladstone bag was of good pleasant leather with labels reminiscent of luxembourg and ostend, and his boots, though brown, were not vulgar. he carried an overcoat on his arm. before these people had properly settled in their places, came an inspection of tickets and a slamming of doors, and behold! they were gliding out of charing cross station on their way to rome. "fancy!" cried fanny, "we are going to rome, my dear! rome! i don't seem to believe it, even now." miss winchelsea suppressed fanny's emotions with a little smile, and the lady who was called "ma" explained to people in general why they had "cut it so close" at the station. the two daughters called her "ma" several times, toned her down in a tactless, effective way, and drove her at last to the muttered inventory of a basket of travelling requisites. presently she looked up. "lor!" she said, "i didn't bring _them_!" both the daughters said "oh, ma!" but what "them" was did not appear. presently fanny produced hare's _walks in rome_, a sort of mitigated guide-book very popular among roman visitors; and the father of the two daughters began to examine his books of tickets minutely, apparently in a search after english words. when he had looked at the tickets for a long time right way up, he turned them upside down. then he produced a fountain pen and dated them with considerable care. the young man having completed an unostentatious survey of his fellow-travellers produced a book and fell to reading. when helen and fanny were looking out of the window at chislehurst--the place interested fanny because the poor dear empress of the french used to live there--miss winchelsea took the opportunity to observe the book the young man held. it was not a guide-book but a little thin volume of poetry--_bound_. she glanced at his face--it seemed a refined, pleasant face to her hasty glance. he wore a little gilt _pince-nez_. "do you think she lives there now?" said fanny, and miss winchelsea's inspection came to an end. for the rest of the journey miss winchelsea talked little, and what she said was as agreeable and as stamped with refinement as she could make it. her voice was always low and clear and pleasant, and she took care that on this occasion it was particularly low and clear and pleasant. as they came under the white cliffs the young man put his book of poetry away, and when at last the train stopped beside the boat, he displayed a graceful alacrity with the impedimenta of miss winchelsea and her friends. miss winchelsea "hated nonsense," but she was pleased to see the young man perceived at once that they were ladies, and helped them without any violent geniality; and how nicely he showed that his civilities were to be no excuse for further intrusions. none of her little party had been out of england before, and they were all excited and a little nervous at the channel passage. they stood in a little group in a good place near the middle of the boat--the young man had taken miss winchelsea's carry-all there and had told her it was a good place--and they watched the white shores of albion recede and quoted shakespeare and made quiet fun of their fellow-travellers in the english way. they were particularly amused at the precautions the bigger-sized people had taken against the little waves--cut lemons and flasks prevailed, one lady lay full length in a deck chair with a handkerchief over her face, and a very broad resolute man in a bright brown "touristy" suit walked all the way from england to france along the deck, with his legs as widely apart as providence permitted. these were all excellent precautions, and nobody was ill. the personally-conducted party pursued the conductor about the deck with inquiries, in a manner that suggested to helen's mind the rather vulgar image of hens with a piece of bacon rind, until at last he went into hiding below. and the young man with the thin volume of poetry stood at the stern watching england receding, looking rather lonely and sad to miss winchelsea's eye. and then came calais and tumultuous novelties, and the young man had not forgotten miss winchelsea's hold-all and the other little things. all three girls, though they had passed government examinations in french to any extent, were stricken with a dumb shame of their accents, and the young man was very useful. and he did not intrude. he put them in a comfortable carriage and raised his hat and went away. miss winchelsea thanked him in her best manner--a pleasing, cultivated manner--and fanny said he was "nice" almost before he was out of earshot. "i wonder what he can be," said helen. "he's going to italy, because i noticed green tickets in his book." miss winchelsea almost told them of the poetry, and decided not to do so. and presently the carriage windows seized hold upon them and the young man was forgotten. it made them feel that they were doing an educated sort of thing to travel through a country whose commonest advertisements were in idiomatic french, and miss winchelsea made unpatriotic comparisons because there were weedy little sign-board advertisements by the rail side instead of the broad hoardings that deface the landscape in our land. but the north of france is really uninteresting country, and after a time fanny reverted to hare's _walks_, and helen initiated lunch. miss winchelsea awoke out of a happy reverie; she had been trying to realise, she said, that she was actually going to rome, but she perceived at helen's suggestion that she was hungry, and they lunched out of their baskets very cheerfully. in the afternoon they were tired and silent until helen made tea. miss winchelsea might have dozed, only she knew fanny slept with her mouth open; and as their fellow-passengers were two rather nice, critical-looking ladies of uncertain age--who knew french well enough to talk it--she employed herself in keeping fanny awake. the rhythm of the train became insistent, and the streaming landscape outside became at last quite painful to the eye. they were already dreadfully tired of travelling before their night's stoppage came. the stoppage for the night was brightened by the appearance of the young man, and his manners were all that could be desired and his french quite serviceable. his coupons availed for the same hotel as theirs, and by chance, as it seemed, he sat next miss winchelsea at the _table d'hôte._ in spite of her enthusiasm for rome, she had thought out some such possibility very thoroughly, and when he ventured to make a remark upon the tediousness of travelling--he let the soup and fish go by before he did this--she did not simply assent to his proposition, but responded with another. they were soon comparing their journeys, and helen and fanny were cruelly overlooked in the conversation.. it was to be the same journey, they found; one day for the galleries at florence--"from what i hear," said the young man, "it is barely enough,"--and the rest at rome. he talked of rome very pleasantly; he was evidently quite well read, and he quoted horace about soracte. miss winchelsea had "done" that book of horace for her matriculation, and was delighted to cap his quotation. it gave a sort of tone to things, this incident--a touch of refinement to mere chatting. fanny expressed a few emotions, and helen interpolated a few sensible remarks, but the bulk of the talk on the girls' side naturally fell to miss winchelsea. before they reached rome this young man was tacitly of their party. they did not know his name nor what he was, but it seemed he taught, and miss winchelsea had a shrewd idea he was an extension lecturer. at any rate he was something of that sort, something gentlemanly and refined without being opulent and impossible. she tried once or twice to ascertain whether he came from oxford or cambridge, but he missed her timid opportunities. she tried to get him to make remarks about those places to see if he would say "come up" to them instead of "go down,"--she knew that was how you told a 'varsity man. he used the word "'varsity"--not university--in quite the proper way. they saw as much of mr. ruskin's florence as the brief time permitted; he met them in the pitti gallery and went round with them, chatting brightly, and evidently very grateful for their recognition. he knew a great deal about art, and all four enjoyed the morning immensely. it was fine to go round recognising old favourites and finding new beauties, especially while so many people fumbled helplessly with baedeker. nor was he a bit of a prig, miss winchelsea said, and indeed she detested prigs. he had a distinct undertone of humour, and was funny, for example, without being vulgar, at the expense of the quaint work of beato angelico. he had a grave seriousness beneath it all, and was quick to seize the moral lessons of the pictures. fanny went softly among these masterpieces; she admitted "she knew so little about them," and she confessed that to her they were "all beautiful." fanny's "beautiful" inclined to be a little monotonous, miss winchelsea thought. she had been quite glad when the last sunny alp had vanished, because of the staccato of fanny's admiration. helen said little, but miss winchelsea had found her a trifle wanting on the aesthetic side in the old days and was not surprised; sometimes she laughed at the young man's hesitating, delicate jests and sometimes she didn't, and sometimes she seemed quite lost to the art about them in the contemplation of the dresses of the other visitors. at rome the young man was with them intermittently. a rather "touristy" friend of his took him away at times. he complained comically to miss winchelsea. "i have only two short weeks in rome," he said, "and my friend leonard wants to spend a whole day at tivoli looking at a waterfall." "what is your friend leonard?" asked miss winchelsea abruptly. "he's the most enthusiastic pedestrian i ever met," the young man replied--amusingly, but a little unsatisfactorily, miss winchelsea thought. they had some glorious times, and fanny could not think what they would have done without him. miss winchelsea's interest and fanny's enormous capacity for admiration were insatiable. they never flagged--through pictures and sculpture galleries, immense crowded churches, ruins and museums, judas trees and prickly pears, wine carts and palaces, they admired their way unflinchingly. they never saw a stone pine or a eucalyptus but they named and admired it; they never glimpsed soracte but they exclaimed. their common ways were made wonderful by imaginative play. "here caesar may have walked," they would say. "raphael may have seen soracte from this very point." they happened on the tomb of bibulus. "old bibulus," said the young man. "the oldest monument of republican rome!" said miss winchelsea. "i'm dreadfully stupid," said fanny, "but who _was_ bibulus?" there was a curious little pause. "wasn't he the person who built the wall?" said helen. the young man glanced quickly at her and laughed. "that was balbus," he said. helen reddened, but neither he nor miss winchelsea threw any light upon fanny's ignorance about bibulus. helen was more taciturn than the other three, but then she was always taciturn, and usually she took care of the tram tickets and things like that, or kept her eye on them if the young man took them, and told him where they were when he wanted them. glorious times they had, these young people, in that pale brown cleanly city of memories that was once the world. their only sorrow was the shortness of the time. they said indeed that the electric trams and the ' buildings, and that criminal advertisement that glares upon the forum, outraged their aesthetic feelings unspeakably; but that was only part of the fun. and indeed rome is such a wonderful place that it made miss winchelsea forget some of her most carefully prepared enthusiasms at times, and helen, taken unawares, would suddenly admit the beauty of unexpected things. yet fanny and helen would have liked a shop window or so in the english quarter if miss winchelsea's uncompromising hostility to all other english visitors had not rendered that district impossible. the intellectual and aesthetic fellowship of miss winchelsea and the scholarly young man passed insensibly towards a deeper feeling. the exuberant fanny did her best to keep pace with their recondite admiration by playing her "beautiful" with vigour, and saying "oh! _let's_ go," with enormous appetite whenever a new place of interest was mentioned. but helen developed a certain want of sympathy towards the end that disappointed miss winchelsea a little. she refused to see "anything" in the face of beatrice cenci--shelley's beatrice cenci!--in the barberini gallery; and one day, when they were deploring the electric trams, she said rather snappishly that "people must get about somehow, and it's better than torturing horses up these horrid little hills." she spoke of the seven hills of rome as "horrid little hills "! and the day they went on the palatine--though miss winchelsea did not know of this--she remarked suddenly to fanny, "don't hurry like that, my dear; _they_ don't want us to overtake them. and we don't say the right things for them when we _do_ get near." "i wasn't trying to overtake them," said fanny, slackening her excessive pace; "i wasn't indeed." and for a minute she was short of breath. but miss winchelsea had come upon happiness. it was only when she came to look back across an intervening tragedy that she quite realised how happy she had been pacing among the cypress-shadowed ruins, and exchanging the very highest class of information the human mind can possess, the most refined impressions it is possible to convey. insensibly emotion crept into their intercourse, sunning itself openly and pleasantly at last when helen's modernity was not too near. insensibly their interest drifted from the wonderful associations about them to their more intimate and personal feelings. in a tentative way information was supplied; she spoke allusively of her school, of her examination successes, of her gladness that the days of "cram" were over. he made it quite clear that he also was a teacher. they spoke of the greatness of their calling, of the necessity of sympathy to face its irksome details, of a certain loneliness they sometimes felt. that was in the colosseum, and it was as far as they got that day, because helen returned with fanny--she had taken her into the upper galleries. yet the private dreams of miss winchelsea, already vivid and concrete enough, became now realistic in the highest degree. she figured that pleasant young man lecturing in the most edifying way to his students, herself modestly prominent as his intellectual mate and helper; she figured a refined little home, with two bureaus, with white shelves of high-class books, and autotypes of the pictures of rossetti and burne jones, with morris's wall-papers and flowers in pots of beaten copper. indeed she figured many things. on the pincio the two had a few precious moments together, while helen marched fanny off to see the _muro torto_, and he spoke at once plainly. he said he hoped their friendship was only beginning, that he already found her company very precious to him, that indeed it was more than that. he became nervous, thrusting at his glasses with trembling fingers as though he fancied his emotions made them unstable. "i should of course," he said, "tell you things about myself. i know it is rather unusual my speaking to you like this. only our meeting has been so accidental--or providential--and i am snatching at things. i came to rome expecting a lonely tour ... and i have been so very happy, so very happy. quite recently i have found myself in a position--i have dared to think----, and----" he glanced over his shoulder and stopped. he said "demn!" quite distinctly--and she did not condemn him for that manly lapse into profanity. she looked and saw his friend leonard advancing. he drew nearer; he raised his hat to miss winchelsea, and his smile was almost a grin. "i've been looking for you everywhere, snooks," he said. "you promised to be on the piazza steps half-an-hour ago." snooks! the name struck miss winchelsea like a blow in the face. she did not hear his reply. she thought afterwards that leonard must have considered her the vaguest-minded person. to this day she is not sure whether she was introduced to leonard or not, nor what she said to him. a sort of mental paralysis was upon her. of all offensive surnames--snooks! helen and fanny were returning, there were civilities, and the young men were receding. by a great effort she controlled herself to face the inquiring eyes of her friends. all that afternoon she lived the life of a heroine under the indescribable outrage of that name, chatting, observing, with "snooks" gnawing at her heart. from the moment that it first rang upon her ears, the dream of her happiness was prostrate in the dust. all the refinement she had figured was ruined and defaced by that cognomen's unavoidable vulgarity. what was that refined little home to her now, spite of autotypes, morris papers, and bureaus? athwart it in letters of fire ran an incredible inscription: "mrs. snooks." that may seem a little thing to the reader, but consider the delicate refinement of miss winchelsea's mind. be as refined as you can and then think of writing yourself down:--"snooks." she conceived herself being addressed as mrs. snooks by all the people she liked least, conceived the patronymic touched with a vague quality of insult. she figured a card of grey and silver bearing 'winchelsea' triumphantly effaced by an arrow, cupid's arrow, in favour of "snooks." degrading confession of feminine weakness! she imagined the terrible rejoicings of certain girl friends, of certain grocer cousins from whom her growing refinement had long since estranged her. how they would make it sprawl across the envelope that would bring their sarcastic congratulations. would even his pleasant company compensate her for that? "it is impossible," she muttered; "impossible! _snooks!_" she was sorry for him, but not so sorry as she was for herself. for him she had a touch of indignation. to be so nice, so refined, while all the time he was "snooks," to hide under a pretentious gentility of demeanour the badge sinister of his surname seemed a sort of treachery. to put it in the language of sentimental science she felt he had "led her on." there were, of course, moments of terrible vacillation, a period even when something almost like passion bid her throw refinement to the winds. and there was something in her, an unexpurgated vestige of vulgarity that made a strenuous attempt at proving that snooks was not so very bad a name after all. any hovering hesitation flew before fanny's manner, when fanny came with an air of catastrophe to tell that she also knew the horror. fanny's voice fell to a whisper when she said _snooks_. miss winchelsea would not give him any answer when at last, in the borghese, she could have a minute with him; but she promised him a note. she handed him that note in the little book of poetry he had lent her, the little book that had first drawn them together. her refusal was ambiguous, allusive. she could no more tell him why she rejected him than she could have told a cripple of his hump. he too must feel something of the unspeakable quality of his name. indeed he had avoided a dozen chances of telling it, she now perceived. so she spoke of "obstacles she could not reveal"--"reasons why the thing he spoke of was impossible." she addressed the note with a shiver, "e.k. snooks." things were worse than she had dreaded; he asked her to explain. how _could_ she explain? those last two days in rome were dreadful. she was haunted by his air of astonished perplexity. she knew she had given him intimate hopes, she had not the courage to examine her mind thoroughly for the extent of her encouragement. she knew he must think her the most changeable of beings. now that she was in full retreat, she would not even perceive his hints of a possible correspondence. but in that matter he did a thing that seemed to her at once delicate and romantic. he made a go-between of fanny. fanny could not keep the secret, and came and told her that night under a transparent pretext of needed advice. "mr. snooks," said fanny, "wants to write to me. fancy! i had no idea. but should i let him?" they talked it over long and earnestly, and miss winchelsea was careful to keep the veil over her heart. she was already repenting his disregarded hints. why should she not hear of him sometimes--painful though his name must be to her? miss winchelsea decided it might be permitted, and fanny kissed her good-night with unusual emotion. after she had gone miss winchelsea sat for a long time at the window of her little room. it was moonlight, and down the street a man sang "santa lucia" with almost heart-dissolving tenderness... she sat very still. she breathed a word very softly to herself. the word was "_snooks_." then she got up with a profound sigh, and went to bed. the next morning he said to her meaningly, "i shall hear of you through your friend." mr. snooks saw them off from rome with that pathetic interrogative perplexity still on his face, and if it had not been for helen he would have retained miss winchelsea's hold-all in his hand as a sort of encyclopaedic keepsake. on their way back to england miss winchelsea on six separate occasions made fanny promise to write to her the longest of long letters. fanny, it seemed, would be quite near mr. snooks. her new school--she was always going to new schools--would be only five miles from steely bank, and it was in the steely bank polytechnic, and one or two first-class schools, that mr. snooks did his teaching. he might even see her at times. they could not talk much of him--she and fanny always spoke of "him," never of mr. snooks--because helen was apt to say unsympathetic things about him. her nature had coarsened very much, miss winchelsea perceived, since the old training college days; she had become hard and cynical. she thought he had a weak face, mistaking refinement for weakness as people of her stamp are apt to do, and when she heard his name was snooks, she said she had expected something of the sort. miss winchelsea was careful to spare her own feelings after that, but fanny was less circumspect. the girls parted in london, and miss winchelsea returned, with a new interest in life, to the girls' high school in which she had been an increasingly valuable assistant for the last three years. her new interest in life was fanny as a correspondent, and to give her a lead she wrote her a lengthy descriptive letter within a fortnight of her return. fanny answered, very disappointingly. fanny indeed had no literary gift, but it was new to miss winchelsea to find herself deploring the want of gifts in a friend. that letter was even criticised aloud in the safe solitude of miss winchelsea's study, and her criticism, spoken with great bitterness, was "twaddle!" it was full of just the things miss winchelsea's letter had been full of, particulars of the school. and of mr. snooks, only this much: "i have had a letter from mr. snooks, and he has been over to see me on two saturday afternoons running. he talked about rome and you; we both talked about you. your ears must have burnt, my dear..." miss winchelsea repressed a desire to demand more explicit information, and wrote the sweetest, long letter again. "tell me all about yourself, dear. that journey has quite refreshed our ancient friendship, and i do so want to keep in touch with you." about mr. snooks she simply wrote on the fifth page that she was glad fanny had seen him, and that if he _should_ ask after her, she was to be remembered to him _very kindly_ (underlined). and fanny replied most obtusely in the key of that "ancient friendship," reminding miss winchelsea of a dozen foolish things of those old schoolgirl days at the training college, and saying not a word about mr. snooks! for nearly a week miss winchelsea was so angry at the failure of fanny as a go-between that she could not write to her. and then she wrote less effusively, and in her letter she asked point-blank, "have you seen mr. snooks?" fanny's letter was unexpectedly satisfactory. "i _have_ seen mr. snooks," she wrote, and having once named him she kept on about him; it was all snooks--snooks this and snooks that. he was to give a public lecture, said fanny, among other things. yet miss winchelsea, after the first glow of gratification, still found this letter a little unsatisfactory. fanny did not report mr. snooks as saying anything about miss winchelsea, nor as looking a little white and worn, as he ought to have been doing. and behold! before she had replied, came a second letter from fanny on the same theme, quite a gushing letter, and covering six sheets with her loose feminine hand. and about this second letter was a rather odd little thing that miss winchelsea only noticed as she re-read it the third time. fanny's natural femininity had prevailed even against the round and clear traditions of the training college; she was one of those she-creatures born to make all her _m'_s and _n'_s and _u'_s and _r'_s and _e'_s alike, and to leave her _o'_s and _a'_s open and her _i'_s undotted. so that it was only after an elaborate comparison of word with word that miss winchelsea felt assured mr. snooks was not really "mr. snooks" at all! in fanny's first letter of gush he was mr. "snooks," in her second the spelling was changed to mr. "senoks." miss winchelsea's hand positively trembled as she turned the sheet over--it meant so much to her. for it had already begun to seem to her that even the name of mrs. snooks might be avoided at too great a price, and suddenly--this possibility! she turned over the six sheets, all dappled with that critical name, and everywhere the first letter had the form of an _e_! for a time she walked the room with a hand pressed upon her heart. she spent a whole day pondering this change, weighing a letter of inquiry that should be at once discreet and effectual; weighing, too, what action she should take after the answer came. she was resolved that if this altered spelling was anything more than a quaint fancy of fanny's, she would write forthwith to mr. snooks. she had now reached a stage when the minor refinements of behaviour disappear. her excuse remained uninvented, but she had the subject of her letter clear in her mind, even to the hint that "circumstances in my life have changed very greatly since we talked together." but she never gave that hint. there came a third letter from that fitful correspondent fanny. the first line proclaimed her "the happiest girl alive." miss winchelsea crushed the letter in her hand--the rest unread--and sat with her face suddenly very still. she had received it just before morning school, and had opened it when the junior mathematicians were well under way. presently she resumed reading with an appearance of great calm. but after the first sheet she went on reading the third without discovering the error:--"told him frankly i did not like his name," the third sheet began. "he told me he did not like it himself--you know that sort of sudden, frank way he has"--miss winchelsea did know. "so i said, 'couldn't you change it?' he didn't see it at first. well, you know, dear, he had told me what it really meant; it means sevenoaks, only it has got down to snooks--both snooks and noaks, dreadfully vulgar surnames though they be, are really worn forms of sevenoaks. so i said--even i have my bright ideas at times--'if it got down from sevenoaks to snooks, why not get it back from snooks to sevenoaks?' and the long and the short of it is, dear, he couldn't refuse me, and he changed his spelling there and then to senoks for the bills of the new lecture. and afterwards, when we are married, we shall put in the apostrophe and make it se'noks. wasn't it kind of him to mind that fancy of mine, when many men would have taken offence? but it is just like him all over; he is as kind as he is clever. because he knew as well as i did that i would have had him in spite of it, had he been ten times snooks. but he did it all the same." the class was startled by the sound of paper being viciously torn, and looked up to see miss winchelsea white in the face and with some very small pieces of paper clenched in one hand. for a few seconds they stared at her stare, and then her expression changed back to a more familiar one. "has any one finished number three?" she asked in an even tone. she remained calm after that. but impositions ruled high that day. and she spent two laborious evenings writing letters of various sorts to fanny, before she found a decent congratulatory vein. her reason struggled hopelessly against the persuasion that fanny had behaved in an exceedingly treacherous manner. one may be extremely refined and still capable of a very sore heart. certainly miss winchelsea's heart was very sore. she had moods of sexual hostility, in which she generalised uncharitably about mankind. "he forgot himself with me," she said. "but fanny is pink and pretty and soft and a fool--a very excellent match for a man." and by way of a wedding present she sent fanny a gracefully bound volume of poetry by george meredith, and fanny wrote back a grossly happy letter to say that it was "_all_ beautiful." miss winchelsea hoped that some day mr. senoks might take up that slim book and think for a moment of the donor. fanny wrote several times before and about her marriage, pursuing that fond legend of their "ancient friendship," and giving her happiness in the fullest detail. and miss winchelsea wrote to helen for the first time after the roman journey, saying nothing about the marriage, but expressing very cordial feelings. they had been in rome at easter, and fanny was married in the august vacation. she wrote a garrulous letter to miss winchelsea, describing her home-coming and the astonishing arrangements of their "teeny, weeny" little house. mr. se'noks was now beginning to assume a refinement in miss winchelsea's memory out of all proportion to the facts of the case, and she tried in vain to imagine his cultured greatness in a "teeny weeny" little house. "am busy enamelling a cosy corner," said fanny, sprawling to the end of her third sheet, "so excuse more." miss winchelsea answered in her best style, gently poking fun at fanny's arrangements, and hoping intensely that mr. se'noks might see the letter. only this hope enabled her to write at all, answering not only that letter but one in november and one at christmas. the two latter communications contained urgent invitations for her to come to steely bank on a visit during the christmas holidays. she tried to think that _he_ had told her to ask that, but it was too much like fanny's opulent good-nature. she could not but believe that he must be sick of his blunder by this time; and she had more than a hope that he would presently write her a letter beginning "dear friend." something subtly tragic in the separation was a great support to her, a sad misunderstanding. to have been jilted would have been intolerable. but he never wrote that letter beginning "dear friend." for two years miss winchelsea could not go to see her friends, in spite of the reiterated invitations of mrs. sevenoaks--it became full sevenoaks in the second year. then one day near the easter rest she felt lonely and without a soul to understand her in the world, and her mind ran once more on what is called platonic friendship. fanny was clearly happy and busy in her new sphere of domesticity, but no doubt _he_ had his lonely hours. did he ever think of those days in rome, gone now beyond recalling? no one had understood her as he had done; no one in all the world. it would be a sort of melancholy pleasure to talk to him again, and what harm could it do? why should she deny herself? that night she wrote a sonnet, all but the last two lines of the octave--which would not come; and the next day she composed a graceful little note to tell fanny she was coming down. and so she saw him again. even at the first encounter it was evident he had changed; he seemed stouter and less nervous, and it speedily appeared that his conversation had already lost much of its old delicacy. there even seemed a justification for helen's description of weakness in his face--in certain lights it _was_ weak. he seemed busy and preoccupied about his affairs, and almost under the impression that miss winchelsea had come for the sake of fanny. he discussed his dinner with fanny in an intelligent way. they only had one good long talk together, and that came to nothing. he did not refer to rome, and spent some time abusing a man who had stolen an idea he had had for a text-book. it did not seem a very wonderful idea to miss winchelsea. she discovered he had forgotten the names of more than half the painters whose work they had rejoiced over in florence. it was a sadly disappointing week, and miss winchelsea was glad when it came to an end. under various excuses she avoided visiting them again. after a time the visitor's room was occupied by their two little boys, and fanny's invitations ceased. the intimacy of her letters had long since faded away. xxv. a dream of armageddon. the man with the white face entered the carriage at rugby. he moved slowly in spite of the urgency of his porter, and even while he was still on the platform i noted how ill he seemed. he dropped into the corner over against me with a sigh, made an incomplete attempt to arrange his travelling shawl, and became motionless, with his eyes staring vacantly. presently he was moved by a sense of my observation, looked up at me, and put out a spiritless hand for his newspaper. then he glanced again in my direction. i feigned to read. i feared i had unwittingly embarrassed him, and in a moment i was surprised to find him speaking. "i beg your pardon?" said i. "that book," he repeated, pointing a lean finger, "is about dreams." "obviously," i answered, for it was fortnum-roscoe's _dream states_, and the title was on the cover. he hung silent for a space as if he sought words. "yes," he said, at last, "but they tell you nothing." i did not catch his meaning for a second. "they don't know," he added. i looked a little more attentively at his face. "there are dreams," he said, "and dreams." that sort of proposition i never dispute. "i suppose----" he hesitated. "do you ever dream? i mean vividly." "i dream very little," i answered. "i doubt if i have three vivid dreams in a year." "ah!" he said, and seemed for a moment to collect his thoughts. "your dreams don't mix with your memories?" he asked abruptly. "you don't find yourself in doubt: did this happen or did it not?" "hardly ever. except just for a momentary hesitation now and then. i suppose few people do." "does _he_ say----" he indicated the book. "says it happens at times and gives the usual explanation about intensity of impression and the like to account for its not happening as a rule. i suppose you know something of these theories----" "very little--except that they are wrong." his emaciated hand played with the strap of the window for a time. i prepared to resume reading, and that seemed to precipitate his next remark. he leant forward almost as though he would touch me. "isn't there something called consecutive dreaming--that goes on night after night?" "i believe there is. there are cases given in most books on mental trouble." "mental trouble! yes. i daresay there are. it's the right place for them. but what i mean----" he looked at his bony knuckles. "is that sort of thing always dreaming? _is_ it dreaming? or is it something else? mightn't it be something else?" i should have snubbed his persistent conversation but for the drawn anxiety of his face. i remember now the look of his faded eyes and the lids red stained--perhaps you know that look. "i'm not just arguing about a matter of opinion," he said. "the thing's killing me." "dreams?" "if you call them dreams. night after night. vivid!--so vivid ... this--" (he indicated the landscape that went streaming by the window) "seems unreal in comparison! i can scarcely remember who i am, what business i am on ..." he paused. "even now--" "the dream is always the same--do you mean?" i asked. "it's over." "you mean?" "i died." "died?" "smashed and killed, and now so much of me as that dream was is dead. dead for ever. i dreamt i was another man, you know, living in a different part of the world and in a different time. i dreamt that night after night. night after night i woke into that other life. fresh scenes and fresh happenings--until i came upon the last--" "when you died?" "when i died." "and since then--" "no," he said. "thank god! that was the end of the dream..." it was clear i was in for this dream. and, after all, i had an hour before me, the light was fading fast, and fortnum-roscoe has a dreary way with him. "living in a different time," i said: "do you mean in some different age?" "yes." "past?" "no, to come--to come." "the year three thousand, for example?" "i don't know what year it was. i did when i was asleep, when i was dreaming, that is, but not now--not now that i am awake. there's a lot of things i have forgotten since i woke out of these dreams, though i knew them at the time when i was--i suppose it was dreaming. they called the year differently from our way of calling the year... what _did_ they call it?" he put his hand to his forehead. "no," said he, "i forget." he sat smiling weakly. for a moment i feared he did not mean to tell me his dream. as a rule, i hate people who tell their dreams, but this struck me differently. i proffered assistance even. "it began----" i suggested. "it was vivid from the first. i seemed to wake up in it suddenly. and it's curious that in these dreams i am speaking of i never remembered this life i am living now. it seemed as if the dream life was enough while it lasted. perhaps----but i will tell you how i find myself when i do my best to recall it all. i don't remember anything clearly until i found myself sitting in a sort of loggia looking out over the sea. i had been dozing, and suddenly i woke up--fresh and vivid--not a bit dreamlike-- because the girl had stopped fanning me." "the girl?" "yes, the girl. you must not interrupt or you will put me out." he stopped abruptly. "you won't think i'm mad?" he said. "no," i answered; "you've been dreaming. tell me your dream." "i woke up, i say, because the girl had stopped fanning me. i was not surprised to find myself there or anything of that sort, you understand. i did not feel i had fallen into it suddenly. i simply took it up at that point. whatever memory i had of _this_ life, this nineteenth-century life, faded as i woke, vanished like a dream. i knew all about myself, knew that my name was no longer cooper but hedon, and all about my position in the world. i've forgotten a lot since i woke--there's a want of connection--but it was all quite clear and matter-of-fact then." he hesitated again, gripping the window strap, putting his face forward, and looking up to me appealingly. "this seems bosh to you?" "no, no!" i cried. "go on. tell me what this loggia was like." "it was not really a loggia--i don't know what to call it. it faced south. it was small. it was all in shadow except the semicircle above the balcony that showed the sky and sea and the corner where the girl stood. i was on a couch--it was a metal couch with light striped cushions--and the girl was leaning over the balcony with her back to me. the light of the sunrise fell on her ear and cheek. her pretty white neck and the little curls that nestled there, and her white shoulder were in the sun, and all the grace of her body was in the cool blue shadow. she was dressed--how can i describe it? it was easy and flowing. and altogether there she stood, so that it came to me how beautiful and desirable she was, as though i had never seen her before. and when at last i sighed and raised myself upon my arm she turned her face to me--" he stopped. "i have lived three-and-fifty years in this world. i have had mother, sisters, friends, wife and daughters--all their faces, the play of their faces, i know. but the face of this girl--it is much more real to me. i can bring it back into memory so that i see it again--i could draw it or paint it. and after all--" he stopped--but i said nothing. "the face of a dream--the face of a dream. she was beautiful. not that beauty which is terrible, cold, and worshipful, like the beauty of a saint; nor that beauty that stirs fierce passions; but a sort of radiation, sweet lips that softened into smiles, and grave gray eyes. and she moved gracefully, she seemed to have part with all pleasant and gracious things--" he stopped, and his face was downcast and hidden. then he looked up at me and went on, making no further attempt to disguise his absolute belief in the reality of his story. "you see, i had thrown up my plans and ambitions, thrown up all i had ever worked for or desired, for her sake. i had been a master man away there in the north, with influence and property and a great reputation, but none of it had seemed worth having beside her. i had come to the place, this city of sunny pleasures, with her, and left all those things to wreck and ruin just to save a remnant at least of my life. while i had been in love with her before i knew that she had any care for me, before i had imagined that she would dare--that we should dare--all my life had seemed vain and hollow, dust and ashes. it _was_ dust and ashes. night after night, and through the long days i had longed and desired--my soul had beaten against the thing forbidden! "but it is impossible for one man to tell another just these things. it's emotion, it's a tint, a light that comes and goes. only while it's there, everything changes, everything. the thing is i came away and left them in their crisis to do what they could." "left whom?" i asked, puzzled. "the people up in the north there. you see--in this dream, anyhow--i had been a big man, the sort of man men come to trust in, to group themselves about. millions of men who had never seen me were ready to do things and risk things because of their confidence in me. i had been playing that game for years, that big laborious game, that vague, monstrous political game amidst intrigues and betrayals, speech and agitation. it was a vast weltering world, and at last i had a sort of leadership against the gang-- you know it was called the gang--a sort of compromise of scoundrelly projects and base ambitions and vast public emotional stupidities and catch-words--the gang that kept the world noisy and blind year by year, and all the while that it was drifting, drifting towards infinite disaster. but i can't expect you to understand the shades and complications of the year--the year something or other ahead. i had it all--down to the smallest details--in my dream. i suppose i had been dreaming of it before i awoke, and the fading outline of some queer new development i had imagined still hung about me as i rubbed my eyes. it was some grubby affair that made me thank god for the sunlight. i sat up on the couch and remained looking at the woman, and rejoicing--rejoicing that i had come away out of all that tumult and folly and violence before it was too late. after all, i thought, this is life--love and beauty, desire and delight, are they not worth all those dismal struggles for vague, gigantic ends? and i blamed myself for having ever sought to be a leader when i might have given my days to love. but then, thought i, if i had not spent my early days sternly and austerely, i might have wasted myself upon vain and worthless women, and at the thought all my being went out in love and tenderness to my dear mistress, my dear lady, who had come at last and compelled me--compelled me by her invincible charm for me--to lay that life aside. "'you are worth it,' i said, speaking without intending her to hear; 'you are worth it, my dearest one; worth pride and praise and all things. love! to have _you_ is worth them all together.' and at the murmur of my voice she turned about. "'come and see,' she cried--i can hear her now--come and see the sunrise upon monte solaro.' "i remember how i sprang to my feet and joined her at the balcony. she put a white hand upon my shoulder and pointed towards great masses of limestone flushing, as it were, into life. i looked. but first i noted the sunlight on her face caressing the lines of her cheeks and neck. how can i describe to you the scene we had before us? we were at capri----" "i have been there," i said. "i have clambered up monte solaro and drunk _vero capri_--muddy stuff like cider--at the summit." "ah!" said the man with the white face; "then perhaps you can tell me--you will know if this was indeed capri. for in this life i have never been there. let me describe it. we were in a little room, one of a vast multitude of little rooms, very cool and sunny, hollowed out of the limestone of a sort of cape, very high above the sea. the whole island, you know, was one enormous hotel, complex beyond explaining, and on the other side there were miles of floating hotels, and huge floating stages to which the flying machines came. they called it a pleasure city. of course, there was none of that in your time--rather, i should say, _is_ none of that _now_. of course. now!--yes. "well, this room of ours was at the extremity of the cape, so that one could see east and west. eastward was a great cliff--a thousand feet high perhaps, coldly grey except for one bright edge of gold, and beyond it the isle of the sirens, and a falling coast that faded and passed into the hot sunrise. and when one turned to the west, distinct and near was a little bay, a little beach still in shadow. and out of that shadow rose solaro, straight and tall, flushed and golden-crested, like a beauty throned, and the white moon was floating behind her in the sky. and before us from east to west stretched the many-tinted sea all dotted with little sailing-boats. "to the eastward, of course, these little boats were gray and very minute and clear, but to the westward they were little boats of gold--shining gold--almost like little flames. and just below us was a rock with an arch worn through it. the blue sea-water broke to green and foam all round the rock, and a galley came gliding out of the arch." "i know that rock," i said. "i was nearly drowned there. it is called the faraglioni." "_faraglioni_? yes, _she_ called it that," answered the man with the white face. "there was some story--but that----" he put his hand to his forehead again. "no," he said, "i forget that story. "well, that is the first thing i remember, the first dream i had, that little shaded room and the beautiful air and sky and that dear lady of mine, with her shining arms and her graceful robe, and how we sat and talked in half whispers to one another. we talked in whispers, not because there was any one to hear, but because there was still such a freshness of mind between us that our thoughts were a little frightened, i think, to find themselves at last in words. and so they went softly. "presently we were hungry, and we went from our apartment, going by a strange passage with a moving floor, until we came to the great breakfast-room--there was a fountain and music. a pleasant and joyful place it was, with its sunlight and splashing, and the murmur of plucked strings. and we sat and ate and smiled at one another, and i would not heed a man who was watching me from a table near by. "and afterwards we went on to the dancing-hall. but i cannot describe that hall. the place was enormous, larger than any building you have ever seen--and in one place there was the old gate of capri, caught into the wall of a gallery high overhead. light girders, stems and threads of gold, burst from the pillars like fountains, streamed like an aurora across the roof and interlaced, like--like conjuring tricks. all about the great circle for the dancers there were beautiful figures, strange dragons, and intricate and wonderful grotesques bearing lights. the place was inundated with artificial light that shamed the newborn day. and as we went through the throng the people turned about and looked at us, for all through the world my name and face were known, and how i had suddenly thrown up pride, and struggle to come to this place. and they looked also at the lady beside me, though half the story of how at last she had come to me was unknown or mistold. and few of the men who were there, i know, but judged me a happy man, in spite of all the shame and dishonour that had come upon my name. "the air was full of music, full of harmonious scents, full of the rhythm of beautiful motions. thousands of beautiful people swarmed about the hall, crowded the galleries, sat in a myriad recesses; they were dressed in splendid colours and crowned with flowers; thousands danced about the great circle beneath the white images of the ancient gods, and glorious processions of youths and maidens came and went. we two danced, not the dreary monotonies of your days--of this time, i mean--but dances that were beautiful, intoxicating. and even now i can see my lady dancing--dancing joyously. she danced, you know, with a serious face; she danced with a serious dignity, and yet she was smiling at me and caressing me--smiling and caressing with her eyes. "the music was different," he murmured. "it went--i cannot describe it; but it was infinitely richer and more varied than any music that has ever come to me awake. "and then--it was when we had done dancing--a man came to speak to me. he was a lean, resolute man, very soberly clad for that place, and already i had marked his face watching me in the breakfasting hall, and afterwards as we went along the passage i had avoided his eye. but now, as we sat in a little alcove smiling at the pleasure of all the people who went to and fro across the shining floor, he came and touched me, and spoke to me so that i was forced to listen. and he asked that he might speak to me for a little time apart. "'no,' i said. 'i have no secrets from this lady. what do you want to tell me?' "he said it was a trivial matter, or at least a dry matter, for a lady to hear. "'perhaps for me to hear,' said i. "he glanced at her, as though almost he would appeal to her. then he asked me suddenly if i. had heard of a great and avenging declaration that gresham had made. now, gresham had always before been the man next to myself in the leadership of that great party in the north. he was a forcible, hard, and tactless man, and only i had been able to control and soften him. it was on his account even more than my own, i think, that the others had been so dismayed at my retreat. so this question about what he had done re-awakened my old interest in the life i had put aside just for a moment. "'i have taken no heed of any news for many days,' i said. 'what has gresham been saying?' "and with that the man began, nothing loth, and i must confess ever; i was struck by gresham's reckless folly in the wild and threatening words he had used. and this messenger they had sent to me not only told me of gresham's speech, but went on to ask counsel and to point out what need they had of me. while he talked, my lady sat a little forward and watched his face and mine. "my old habits of scheming and organising reasserted themselves. i could even see myself suddenly returning to the north, and all the dramatic effect of it. all that this man said witnessed to the disorder of the party indeed, but not to its damage. i should go back stronger than i had come. and then i thought of my lady. you see--how can i tell you? there were certain peculiarities of our relationship--as things are i need not tell about that--which would render her presence with me impossible. i should have had to leave her; indeed, i should have had to renounce her clearly and openly, if i was to do all that i could do in the north. and the man knew _that_, even as he talked to her and me, knew it as well as she did, that my steps to duty were--first, separation, then abandonment. at the touch of that thought my dream of a return was shattered. i turned on the man suddenly, as he was imagining his eloquence was gaining ground with me. "'what have i to do with these things now?' i said. 'i have done with them. do you think i am coquetting with your people in coming here?' "'no,' he said; 'but----' "'why cannot you leave me alone? i have done with these things. i have ceased to be anything but a private man.' "'yes,' he answered. 'but have you thought?--this talk of war, these reckless challenges, these wild aggressions----' "i stood up. "'no,' i cried. 'i won't hear you. i took count of all those things, i weighed them--and i have come away." "he seemed to consider the possibility of persistence. he looked from me to where the lady sat regarding us. "'war,' he said, as if he were speaking to himself, and then turned slowly from me and walked away. "i stood, caught in the whirl of thoughts his appeal had set going. "i heard my lady's voice. "'dear,' she said; 'but if they have need of you--' "she did not finish her sentence, she let it rest there. i turned to her sweet face, and the balance of my mood swayed and reeled. "'they want me only to do the thing they dare not do themselves,' i said. 'if they distrust gresham they must settle with him themselves.' "she looked at me doubtfully. "'but war--' she said. "i saw a doubt on her face that i had seen before, a doubt of herself and me, the first shadow of the discovery that, seen strongly and completely, must drive us apart for ever. "now, i was an older mind than hers, and i could sway her to this belief or that. "'my dear one,' i said, 'you must not trouble over these things. there will be no war. certainly there will be no war. the age of wars is past. trust me to know the justice of this case. they have no right upon me, dearest, and no one has a right upon me. i have been free to choose my life, and i have chosen this.' "'but _war_--' she said. "i sat down beside her. i put an arm behind her and took her hand in mine. i set myself to drive that doubt away--i set myself to fill her mind with pleasant things again. i lied to her, and in lying to her i lied also to myself. and she was only too ready to believe me, only too ready to forget. "very soon the shadow had gone again, and we were hastening to our bathing-place in the grotta del bovo marino, where it was our custom to bathe every day. we swam and splashed one another, and in that buoyant water i seemed to become something lighter and stronger than a man. and at last we came out dripping and rejoicing and raced among the rocks. and then i put on a dry bathing-dress, and we sat to bask in the sun, and presently i nodded, resting my head against her knee, and she put her hand upon my hair and stroked it softly and i dozed. and behold! as it were with the snapping of the string of a violin, i was awakening, and i was in my own bed in liverpool, in the life of to-day. "only for a time i could not believe that all these vivid moments had been no more than the substance of a dream. "in truth, i could not believe it a dream, for all the sobering reality of things about me. i bathed and dressed as it were by habit, and as i shaved i argued why i of all men should leave the woman i loved to go back to fantastic politics in the hard and strenuous north. even if gresham did force the world back to war, what was that to me? i was a man, with the heart of a man, and why should i feel the responsibility of a deity for the way the world might go? "you know that is not quite the way i think about affairs, about my real affairs. i am a solicitor, you know, with a point of view. "the vision was so real, you must understand, so utterly unlike a dream, that i kept perpetually recalling little irrelevant details; even the ornament of a bookcover that lay on my wife's sewing-machine in the breakfast-room recalled with the utmost vividness the gilt line that ran about the seat in the alcove where i had talked with the messenger from my deserted party. have you ever heard of a dream that had a quality like that?" "like--?" "so that afterwards you remembered little details you had forgotten." i thought. i had never noticed the point before, but he was right. "never," i said. "that is what you never seem to do with dreams." "no," he answered. "but that is just what i did. i am a solicitor, you must understand, in liverpool, and i could not help wondering what the clients and business people i found myself talking to in my office would think if i told them suddenly i was in love with a girl who would be born a couple of hundred years or so hence, and worried about the politics of my great-great-great-grandchildren. i was chiefly busy that day negotiating a ninety-nine-year building lease. it was a private builder in a hurry, and we wanted to tie him in every possible way. i had an interview with him, and he showed a certain want of temper that sent me to bed still irritated. that night i had no dream. nor did i dream the next night, at least, to remember. "something of that intense reality of conviction vanished. i began to feel sure it _was_ a dream. and then it came again. "when the dream came again, nearly four days later, it was very different. i think it certain that four days had also elapsed _in_ the dream. many things had happened in the north, and the shadow of them was back again between us, and this time it was not so easily dispelled. i began, i know, with moody musings. why, in spite of all, should i go back, go back for all the rest of my days, to toil and stress, insults, and perpetual dissatisfaction, simply to save hundreds of millions of common people, whom i did not love, whom too often i could not do other than despise, from the stress and anguish of war and infinite misrule? and, after all, i might fail. _they_ all sought their own narrow ends, and why should not i--why should not i also live as a man? and out of such thoughts her voice summoned me, and i lifted my eyes. "i found myself awake and walking. we had come out above the pleasure city, we were near the summit of monte solaro and looking towards the bay. it was the late afternoon and very clear. far away to the left ischia hung in a golden haze between sea and sky, and naples was coldly white against the hills, and before us was vesuvius with a tall and slender streamer feathering at last towards the south, and the ruins of torre dell' annunziata and castellammare glittering and near." i interrupted suddenly: "you have been to capri, of course?" "only in this dream," he said, "only in this dream. all across the bay beyond sorrento were the floating palaces of the pleasure city moored and chained. and northward were the broad floating stages that received the aeroplanes. aeroplanes fell out of the sky every afternoon, each bringing its thousands of pleasure-seekers from the uttermost parts of the earth to capri and its delights. all these things, i say, stretched below. "but we noticed them only incidentally because of an unusual sight that evening had to show. five war aeroplanes that had long slumbered useless in the distant arsenals of the rhine-mouth were manoeuvring now in the eastward sky. gresham had astonished the world by producing them and others, and sending them to circle here and there. it was the threat material in the great game of bluff he was playing, and it had taken even me by surprise. he was one of those incredibly stupid energetic people who seem sent by heaven to create disasters. his energy to the first glance seemed so wonderfully like capacity! but he had no imagination, no invention, only a stupid, vast, driving force of will, and a mad faith in his stupid idiot 'luck' to pull him through. i remember how we stood out upon the headland watching the squadron circling far away, and how i weighed the full meaning of the sight, seeing clearly the way things must _go_. and then even it was not too late. i might have gone back, i think, and saved the world. the people of the north would follow me, i knew, granted only that in one thing i respected their moral standards. the east and south would trust me as they would trust no other northern man. and i knew i had only to put it to her and she would have let me go... not because she did not love me! "only i did not want to go; my will was all the other way about. i had so newly thrown off the incubus of responsibility: i was still so fresh a renegade from duty that the daylight clearness of what i _ought_ to do had no power at all to touch my will. my will was to live, to gather pleasures, and make my dear lady happy. but though this sense of vast neglected duties had no power to draw me, it could make me silent and preoccupied, it robbed the days i had spent of half their brightness and roused me into dark meditations in the silence of the night. and as i stood and watched gresham's aeroplanes sweep to and fro--those birds of infinite ill omen--she stood beside me, watching me, perceiving the trouble indeed, but not perceiving it clearly--her eyes questioning my face, her expression shaded with perplexity. her face was grey because the sunset was fading out of the sky. it was no fault of hers that she held me. she had asked me to go from her, and again in the night-time and with tears she had asked me to go. "at last it was the sense of her that roused me from my mood. i turned upon her suddenly and challenged her to race down the mountain slopes. 'no,' she said, as if i jarred with her gravity, but i was resolved to end that gravity and made her run--no one can be very grey and sad who is out of breath---and when she stumbled i ran with my hand beneath her arm. we ran down past a couple of men, who turned back staring in astonishment at my behaviour--they must have recognised my face. and half-way down the slope came a tumult in the air--clang-clank, clang-clank--and we stopped, and presently over the hill-crest those war things came flying one behind the other." the man seemed hesitating on the verge of a description. "what were, they like?" i asked. "they had never fought," he said. "they were just like our ironclads are nowadays; they had never fought. no one knew what they might do, with excited men inside them; few even cared to speculate. they were great driving things shaped like spear-heads without a shaft, with a propeller in the place of the shaft." "steel?" "not steel." "aluminium?" "no, no, nothing of that sort. an alloy that was very common--as common as brass, for example. it was called--let me see--" he squeezed his forehead with the fingers of one hand. "i am forgetting everything," he said. "and they carried guns?" "little guns, firing high explosive shells. they fired the guns backwards, out of the base of the leaf, so to speak, and rammed with the beak. that was the theory, you know, but they had never been fought. no one could tell exactly what was going to happen. and meanwhile i suppose it was very fine to go whirling through the air like a flight of young swallows, swift and easy. i guess the captains tried not to think too clearly what the real thing would be like. and these flying war machines, you know, were only one sort of the endless war contrivances that had been invented and had fallen into abeyance during the long peace. there were all sorts of these things that people were routing out and furbishing up; infernal things, silly things; things that had never been tried; big engines, terrible explosives, great guns. you know the silly way of these ingenious sort of men who make these things; they turn 'em out as beavers build dams, and with no more sense of the rivers they're going to divert and the lands they're going to flood! "as we went down the winding stepway to our hotel again in the twilight i foresaw it all: i saw how clearly and inevitably things were driving for war in gresham's silly, violent hands, and i had some inkling of what war was bound to be under these new conditions. and even then, though i knew it was drawing near the limit of my opportunity, i could find no will to go back." he sighed. "that was my last chance. "we did not go into the city until the sky was full of stars, so we walked out upon the high terrace, to and fro, and--she counselled me to go back. "'my dearest,' she said, and her sweet face looked up to me, 'this is death. this life you lead is death. go back to them, go back to your duty--' "she began to weep, saying between her sobs, and clinging to my arm as she said it, 'go back--go back.' "then suddenly she fell mute, and glancing down at her face, i read in an instant the thing she had thought to do. it was one of those moments when one _sees_. "'no!' i said. "'no?' she asked, in surprise, and i think a little fearful at the answer to her thought. "'nothing,' i said, 'shall send me back. nothing! i have chosen. love, i have chosen, and the world must go. whatever happens, i will live this life--i will live for _you_! it--nothing shall turn me aside; nothing, my dear one. even if you died--even if you died--' "'yes?' she murmured, softly. "'then--i also would die.' "and before she could speak again i began to talk, talking eloquently--as i _could_ do in that life--talking to exalt love, to make the life we were living seem heroic and glorious; and the thing i was deserting something hard and enormously ignoble that it was a fine thing to set aside. i bent all my mind to throw that glamour upon it, seeking not only to convert her but myself to that. we talked, and she clung to me, torn too between all that she deemed noble and all that she knew was sweet. and at last i did make it heroic, made all the thickening disaster of the world only a sort of glorious setting to our unparalleled love, and we two poor foolish souls strutted there at last, clad in that splendid delusion, drunken rather with that glorious delusion, under the still stars. "and so my moment passed. "it was my last chance. even as we went to and fro there, the leaders of the south and east were gathering their resolve, and the hot answer that shattered gresham's bluffing for ever took shape and waited. and all over asia, and the ocean, and the south, the air and the wires were throbbing with their warnings to prepare--prepare. "no one living, you know, knew what war was; no one could imagine, with all these new inventions, what horror war might bring. i believe most people still believed it would be a matter of bright uniforms and shouting charges and triumphs and flags and bands--in a time when half the world drew its food-supply from regions ten thousand miles away----" the man with the white face paused. i glanced at him, and his face was intent on the floor of the carriage. a little railway station, a string of loaded trucks, a signal-box, and the back of a cottage shot by the carriage window, and a bridge passed with a clap of noise, echoing the tumult of the train. "after that," he said, "i dreamt often. for three weeks of nights that dream was my life. and the worst of it was there were nights when i could not dream, when i lay tossing on a bed in _this_ accursed life; and _there_--somewhere lost to me--things were happening--momentous, terrible things... i lived at nights--my days, my waking days, this life i am living now, became a faded, far-away dream, a drab setting, the cover of the book." he thought. "i could tell you all, tell you every little thing in the dream, but as to what i did in the daytime--no. i could not tell--i do not remember. my memory--my memory has gone. the business of life slips from me--" he leant forward, and pressed his hands upon his eyes. for a long time he said nothing. "and then?" said i. "the war burst like a hurricane." he stared before him at unspeakable things. "and then?" i urged again. "one touch of unreality," he said, in the low tone of a man who speaks to himself, "and they would have been nightmares. but they were not nightmares--they were not nightmares. _no_!" he was silent for so long that it dawned upon me that there was a danger of losing the rest of the story. but he went on talking again in the same tone of questioning self-communion. "what was there to do but flight? i had not thought the war would touch capri--i had seemed to see capri as being out of it all, as the contrast to it all; but two nights after the whole place was shouting and bawling, every woman almost and every other man wore a badge--gresham's badge--and there was no music but a jangling war-song over and over again, and everywhere men enlisting, and in the dancing halls they were drilling. the whole island was a-whirl with rumours; it was said again and again, that fighting had begun. i had not expected this. i had seen so little of the life of pleasure that i had failed to reckon with this violence of the amateurs. and as for me, i was out of it. i was like a man who might have prevented the firing of a magazine. the time had gone. i was no one; the vainest stripling with a badge counted for more than i. the crowd jostled us and bawled in our ears; that accursed song deafened us; a woman shrieked at my lady because no badge was on her, and we two went back to our own place again, ruffled and insulted--my lady white and silent, and i a-quiver with rage. so furious was i, i could have quarrelled with her if i could have found one shade of accusation in her eyes. "all my magnificence had gone from me. i walked up and down our rock cell, and outside was the darkling sea and a light to the southward that flared and passed and came again. "'we must get out of this place,' i said over and over. 'i have made my choice, and i will have no hand in these troubles. i will have nothing of this war. we have taken our lives out of all these things. this is no refuge for us. let us go.' "and the next day we were already in flight from the war that covered the world. "and all the rest was flight--all the rest was flight." he mused darkly. "how much was there of it?" he made no answer. "how many days?" his face was white and drawn and his hands were clenched. he took no heed of my curiosity. i tried to draw him back to his story with questions. "where did you go?" i said. "when?" "when you left capri." "south-west," he said, and glanced at me for a second. "we went in a boat." "but i should have thought an aeroplane?" "they had been seized." i questioned him no more. presently i thought he was beginning again. he broke out in an argumentative monotone: "but why should it be? if, indeed, this battle, this slaughter and stress, _is_ life, why have we this craving for pleasure and beauty? if there _is_ no refuge, if there is no place of peace, and if all our dreams of quiet places are a folly and a snare, why have we such dreams? surely it was no ignoble cravings, no base intentions, had brought us to this; it was love had isolated us. love had come to me with her eyes and robed in her beauty, more glorious than all else in life, in the very shape and colour of life, and summoned me away. i had silenced all the voices, i had answered all the questions--i had come to her. and suddenly there was nothing but war and death!" i had an inspiration. "after all," i said, "it could have been only a dream." "a dream!" he cried, flaming upon me, "a dream--when, even now--" for the first time he became animated. a faint flush crept into his cheek. he raised his open hand and clenched it, and dropped it to his knee. he spoke, looking away from me, and for all the rest of the time he looked away. "we are but phantoms," he said, "and the phantoms of phantoms, desires like cloud shadows and wills of straw that eddy in the wind; the days pass, use and wont carry us through as a train carries the shadow of its lights--so be it? but one thing is real and certain, one thing is no dream stuff, but eternal and enduring. it is the centre of my life, and all other things about it are subordinate or altogether vain. i loved her, that woman of a dream. and she and i are dead together! "a dream! how can it be a dream, when it drenched a living life with unappeasable sorrow, when it makes all that i have lived for and cared for worthless and unmeaning? "until that very moment when she was killed i believed we had still a chance of getting away," he said. "all through the night and morning that we sailed across the sea from capri to salerno we talked of escape. we were full of hope, and it clung about us to the end, hope for the life together we should lead, out of it all, out of the battle and struggle, the wild and empty passions, the empty, arbitrary 'thou shalt' and 'thou shalt not' of the world. we were uplifted, as though our quest was a holy thing, as though love for one another was a mission... "even when from our boat we saw the fair face of that great rock capri-- already scarred and gashed by the gun emplacements and hiding-places that were to make it a fastness--we reckoned nothing of the imminent slaughter, though the fury of preparation hung about in puffs and clouds of dust at a hundred points amidst the grey; but, indeed, i made a text of that and talked. there, you know, was the rock, still beautiful for all its scars, with its countless windows and arches and ways, tier upon tier, for a thousand feet, a vast carving of grey, broken by vine-clad terraces, and lemon and orange groves, and masses of agave and prickly pear, and puffs of almond blossom. and out under the archway that is built over the piccola marina other boats were coming; and as we came round the cape and within sight of the mainland, another little string of boats came into view, driving before the wind towards the south-west. in a little while a multitude had come out, the remoter just little specks of ultramarine in the shadow of the eastward cliff. "'it is love and reason,' i said, 'fleeing from all this madness of war.' "and though we presently saw a squadron of aeroplanes flying across the southern sky we did not heed it. there it was--a line of little dots in the sky--and then more, dotting the south-eastern horizon, and then still more, until all that quarter of the sky was stippled with blue specks. now they were all thin little strokes of blue, and now one and now a multitude would heel and catch the sun and become short flashes of light. they came, rising and falling and growing larger, like some huge flight of gulls or rooks or such-like birds, moving with a marvellous uniformity, and ever as they drew nearer they spread over a greater width of sky. the southward wing flung itself in an arrow-headed cloud athwart the sun. and then suddenly they swept round to the eastward and streamed eastward, growing smaller and smaller and clearer and clearer again until they vanished from the sky. and after that we noted to the northward, and very high, gresham's fighting machines hanging high over naples like an evening swarm of gnats. "it seemed to have no more to do with us than a flight of birds. "even the mutter of guns far away in the south-east seemed to us to signify nothing... "each day, each dream after that, we were still exalted, still seeking that refuge where we might live and love. fatigue had come upon us, pain and many distresses. for though we were dusty and stained by our toilsome tramping, and half starved, and with the horror of the dead men we had seen and the flight of the peasants--for very soon a gust of fighting swept up the peninsula--with these things haunting our minds it still resulted only in a deepening resolution to escape. oh, but she was brave and patient! she who had never faced hardship and exposure had courage for herself--and me. we went to and fro seeking an outlet, over a country all commandeered and ransacked by the gathering hosts of war. always we went on foot. at first there were other fugitives, but we did not mingle with them. some escaped northward, some were caught in the torrent of peasantry that swept along the main roads; many gave themselves into the hands of the soldiery and were sent northward. many of the men were impressed. but we kept away from these things; we had brought no money to bribe a passage north, and i feared for my lady at the hands of these conscript crowds. we had landed at salerno, and we had been turned back from cava, and we had tried to cross towards taranto by a pass over mount alburno, but we had been driven back for want of food, and so we had come down among the marshes by paestum, where those great temples stand alone. i had some vague idea that by paestum it might be possible to find a boat or something, and take once more to sea. and there it was the battle overtook us. "a sort of soul-blindness had me. plainly i could see that we were being hemmed in; that the great net of that giant warfare had us in its toils. many times we had seen the levies that had come down from the north going to and fro, and had come upon them in the distance amidst the mountains making ways for the ammunition and preparing the mounting of the guns. once we fancied they had fired at us, taking us for spies--at any rate a shot had gone shuddering over us. several times we had hidden in woods from hovering aeroplanes. "but all these things do not matter now, these nights of flight and pain... we were in an open place near those great temples at paestum, at last, on a blank stony place dotted with spiky bushes, empty and desolate and so flat that a grove of eucalyptus far away showed to the feet of its stems. how i can see it! my lady was sitting down under a bush resting a little, for she was very weak and weary, and i was standing up watching to see if i could tell the distance of the firing that came and went. they were still, you know, fighting far from each other, with these terrible new weapons that had never before been used: guns that would carry beyond sight, and aeroplanes that would do----what _they_ would do no man could foretell. "i knew that we were between the two armies, and that they drew together. i knew we were in danger, and that we could not stop there and rest! "though all those things were in my mind, they were in the background. they seemed to be affairs beyond our concern. chiefly, i was thinking of my lady. an aching distress filled me. for the first time she had owned herself beaten and had fallen a-weeping. behind me i could hear her sobbing, but i would not turn round to her because i knew she had need of weeping, and had held herself so far and so long for me. it was well, i thought, that she would weep and rest, and then we would toil on again, for i had no inkling of the thing that hung so near. even now i can see her as she sat there, her lovely hair upon her shoulder, can mark again the deepening hollow of her cheek. "'if we had parted,' she said, 'if i had let you go--' "'no,' said i. 'even now i do not repent. i will not repent; i made my choice, and i will hold on to the end.' "and then-- "overhead in the sky flashed something and burst, and all about us i heard the bullets making a noise like a handful of peas suddenly thrown. they chipped the stones about us, and whirled fragments from the bricks and passed..." he put his hand to his mouth, and then moistened his lips. "at the flash i had turned about... "you know--she stood up-- "she stood up, you know, and moved a step towards me-- "as though she wanted to reach me-- "and she had been shot through the heart." he stopped and stared at me. i felt all that foolish incapacity an englishman feels on such occasions. i met his eyes for a moment, and then stared out of the window. for a long space we kept silence. when at last i looked at him he was sitting back in his corner, his arms folded and his teeth gnawing at his knuckles. he bit his nail suddenly, and stared at it. "i carried her," he said, "towards the temples, in my arms--as though it mattered. i don't know why. they seemed a sort of sanctuary, you know, they had lasted so long, i suppose. "she must have died almost instantly. only--i talked to her--all the way." silence again. "i have seen those temples," i said abruptly, and indeed he had brought those still, sunlit arcades of worn sandstone very vividly before me. "it was the brown one, the big brown one. i sat down on a fallen pillar and held her in my arms... silent after the first babble was over. and after a little while the lizards came out and ran about again, as though nothing unusual was going on, as though nothing had changed... it was tremendously still there, the sun high and the shadows still; even the shadows of the weeds upon the entablature were still--in spite of the thudding and banging that went all about the sky. "i seem to remember that the aeroplanes came up out of the south, and that the battle went away to the west. one aeroplane was struck, and overset and fell. i remember that--though it didn't interest me in the least. it didn't seem to signify. it was like a wounded gull, you know--flapping for a time in the water. i could see it down the aisle of the temple--a black thing in the bright blue water. "three or four times shells burst about the beach, and then that ceased. each time that happened all the lizards scuttled in and hid for a space. that was all the mischief done, except that once a stray bullet gashed the stone hard by--made just a fresh bright surface. "as the shadows grew longer, the stillness seemed greater. "the curious thing," he remarked, with the manner of a man who makes a trivial conversation, "is that i didn't _think_--i didn't think at all. i sat with her in my arms amidst the stones--in a sort of lethargy-- stagnant. "and i don't remember waking up. i don't remember dressing that day. i know i found myself in my office, with my letters all slit open in front of me, and how i was struck by the absurdity of being there, seeing that in reality i was sitting, stunned, in that paestum temple with a dead woman in my arms. i read my letters like a machine. i have forgotten what they were about." he stopped, and there was a long silence. suddenly i perceived that we were running down the incline from chalk farm to euston. i started at this passing of time. i turned on him with a brutal question with the tone of "now or never." "and did you dream again?" "yes." he seemed to force himself to finish. his voice was very low. "once more, and as it were only for a few instants. i seemed to have suddenly awakened out of a great apathy, to have risen into a sitting position, and the body lay there on the stones beside me. a gaunt body. not her, you know. so soon--it was not her... "i may have heard voices. i do not know. only i knew clearly that men were coming into the solitude and that that was a last outrage. "i stood up and walked through the temple, and then there came into sight--first one man with a yellow face, dressed in a uniform of dirty white, trimmed with blue, and then several, climbing to the crest of the old wall of the vanished city, and crouching there. they were little bright figures in the sunlight, and there they hung, weapon in hand, peering cautiously before them. "and further away i saw others, and then more at another point in the wall. it was a long lax line of men in open order. "presently the man i had first seen stood up and shouted a command, and his men came tumbling down the wall and into the high weeds towards the temple. he scrambled down with them and led them. he came facing towards me, and when he saw me he stopped. "at first i had watched these men with a mere curiosity, but when i had seen they meant to come to the temple i was moved to forbid them. i shouted to the officer. "'you must not come here,' i cried, '_i_ am here. i am here with my dead.' "he stared, and then shouted a question back to me in some unknown tongue. "i repeated what i had said. "he shouted again, and i folded my arms and stood still. presently he spoke to his men and came forward. he carried a drawn sword. "i signed to him to keep away, but he continued to advance. i told him again very patiently and clearly: 'you must not come here. these are old temples, and i am here with my dead.' "presently he was so close i could see his face clearly. it was a narrow face, with dull grey eyes, and a black moustache. he had a scar on his upper lip, and he was dirty and unshaven. he kept shouting unintelligible things, questions perhaps, at me. "i know now that he was afraid of me, but at the time that did not occur to me. as i tried to explain to him he interrupted me in imperious tones, bidding me, i suppose, stand aside. "he made to go past me, and i caught hold of him. "i saw his face change at my grip. "'you fool,' i cried. 'don't you know? she is dead!' "he started back. he looked at me with cruel eyes. "i saw a sort of exultant resolve leap into them--delight. then suddenly, with a scowl, he swept his sword back--_so_--and thrust." he stopped abruptly. i became aware of a change in the rhythm of the train. the brakes lifted their voices and the carriage jarred and jerked. this present world insisted upon itself, became clamorous. i saw through the steamy window huge electric lights glaring down from tall masts upon a fog, saw rows of stationary empty carriages passing by, and then a signal-box, hoisting its constellation of green and red into the murky london twilight, marched after them. i looked again at his drawn features. "he ran me through the heart. it was with a sort of astonishment--no fear, no pain--but just amazement, that i felt it pierce me, felt the sword drive home into my body. it didn't hurt, you know. it didn't hurt at all." the yellow platform lights came into the field of view, passing first rapidly, then slowly, and at last stopping with a jerk. dim shapes of men passed to and fro without. "euston!" cried a voice. "do you mean--?" "there was no pain, no sting or smart. amazement and then darkness sweeping over everything. the hot, brutal face before me, the face of the man who had killed me, seemed to recede. it swept out of existence--" "euston!" clamoured the voices outside; "euston!" the carriage door opened, admitting a flood of sound, and a porter stood regarding us. the sounds of doors slamming, and the hoof-clatter of cab-horses, and behind these things the featureless remote roar of the london cobble-stones, came to my ears. a truck-load of lighted lamps blazed along the platform. "a darkness, a flood of darkness that opened and spread and blotted out all things." "any luggage, sir?" said the porter. "and that was the end?" i asked. he seemed to hesitate. then, almost inaudibly, he answered, "_no_." "you mean?" "i couldn't get to her. she was there on the other side of the temple-- and then--" "yes," i insisted. "yes?" "nightmares," he cried; "nightmares indeed! my god! great birds that fought and tore." xxvi. the valley of spiders. towards mid-day the three pursuers came abruptly round a bend in the torrent bed upon the sight of a very broad and spacious valley. the difficult and winding trench of pebbles along which they had tracked the fugitives for so long expanded to a broad slope, and with a common impulse the three men left the trail, and rode to a little eminence set with olive-dun trees, and there halted, the two others, as became them, a little behind the man with the silver-studded bridle. for a space they scanned the great expanse below them with eager eyes. it spread remoter and remoter, with only a few clusters of sere thorn bushes here and there, and the dim suggestions of some now waterless ravine to break its desolation of yellow grass. its purple distances melted at last into the bluish slopes of the further hills--hills it might be of a greener kind--and above them, invisibly supported, and seeming indeed to hang in the blue, were the snow-clad summits of mountains--that grew larger and bolder to the northwestward as the sides of the valley drew together. and westward the valley opened until a distant darkness under the sky told where the forests began. but the three men looked neither east nor west, but only steadfastly across the valley. the gaunt man with the scarred lip was the first to speak. "nowhere," he said, with a sigh of disappointment in his voice. "but, after all, they had a full day's start." "they don't know we are after them," said the little man on the white horse. "_she_ would know," said the leader bitterly, as if speaking to himself. "even then they can't go fast. they've got no beast but the mule, and all to-day the girl's foot has been bleeding----" the man with the silver bridle flashed a quick intensity of rage on him. "do you think i haven't seen that?" he snarled. "it helps, anyhow," whispered the little man to himself. the gaunt man with the scarred lip stared impassively. "they can't be over the valley," he said. "if we ride hard----" he glanced at the white horse and paused. "curse all white horses!" said the man with the silver bridle, and turned to scan the beast his curse included. the little man looked down between the melancholy ears of his steed. "i did my best," he said. the two others stared again across the valley for a space. the gaunt man passed the back of his hand across the scarred lip. "come up!" said the man who owned the silver bridle, suddenly. the little man started and jerked his rein, and the horse hoofs of the three made a multitudinous faint pattering upon the withered grass as they turned back towards the trail... they rode cautiously down the long slope before them, and so came through a waste of prickly twisted bushes and strange dry shapes of thorny branches that grew amongst the rocks, into the levels below. and there the trail grew faint, for the soil was scanty, and the only herbage was this scorched dead straw that lay upon the ground. still, by hard scanning, by leaning beside the horses' necks and pausing ever and again, even these white men could contrive to follow after their prey. there were trodden places, bent and broken blades of the coarse grass, and ever and again the sufficient intimation of a footmark. and once the leader saw a brown smear of blood where the half-caste girl may have trod. and at that under his breath he cursed her for a fool. the gaunt man checked his leader's tracking, and the little man on the white horse rode behind, a man lost in a dream. they rode one after another, the man with the silver bridle led the way, and they spoke never a word. after a time it came to the little man on the white horse that the world was very still. he started out of his dream. besides the little noises of their horses and equipment, the whole great valley kept the brooding quiet of a painted scene. before him went his master and his fellow, each intently leaning forward to the left, each impassively moving with the paces of his horse; their shadows went before them--still, noiseless, tapering attendants; and nearer a crouched cool shape was his own. he looked about him. what was it had gone? then he remembered the reverberation from the banks of the gorge and the perpetual accompaniment of shifting, jostling pebbles. and, moreover----? there was no breeze. that was it! what a vast, still place it was, a monotonous afternoon slumber! and the sky open and blank except for a sombre veil of haze that had gathered in the upper valley. he straightened his back, fretted with his bridle, puckered his lips to whistle, and simply sighed. he turned in his saddle for a time, and stared at the throat of the mountain gorge out of which they had come. blank! blank slopes on either side, with never a sign of a decent beast or tree-- much less a man. what a land it was! what a wilderness! he dropped again into his former pose. it filled him with a momentary pleasure to see a wry stick of purple black flash out into the form of a snake, and vanish amidst the brown. after all, the infernal valley _was_ alive. and then, to rejoice him still more, came a little breath across his face, a whisper that came and went, the faintest inclination of a stiff black-antlered bush upon a little crest, the first intimations of a possible breeze. idly he wetted his finger, and held it up. he pulled up sharply to avoid a collision with the gaunt man, who had stopped at fault upon the trail. just at that guilty moment he caught his master's eye looking towards him. for a time he forced an interest in the tracking. then, as they rode on again, he studied his master's shadow and hat and shoulder, appearing and disappearing behind the gaunt man's nearer contours. they had ridden four days out of the very limits of the world into this desolate place, short of water, with nothing but a strip of dried meat under their saddles, over rocks and mountains, where surely none but these fugitives had ever been before--for _that_! and all this was for a girl, a mere wilful child! and the man had whole cityfuls of people to do his basest bidding--girls, women! why in the name of passionate folly _this_ one in particular? asked the little man, and scowled at the world, and licked his parched lips with a blackened tongue. it was the way of the master, and that was all he knew. just because she sought to evade him... his eye caught a whole row of high-plumed canes bending in unison, and then the tails of silk that hung before his neck flapped and fell. the breeze was growing stronger. somehow it took the stiff stillness out of things--and that was well. "hullo!" said the gaunt man. all three stopped abruptly. "what?" asked the master. "what?" "over there," said the gaunt man, pointing up the valley. "what?" "something coming towards us." and as he spoke a yellow animal crested a rise and came bearing down upon them. it was a big wild dog, coming before the wind, tongue out, at a steady pace, and running with such an intensity of purpose that he did not seem to see the horsemen he approached. he ran with his nose up, following, it was plain, neither scent nor quarry. as he drew nearer the little man felt for his sword. "he's mad," said the gaunt rider. "shout!" said the little man, and shouted. the dog came on. then when the little man's blade was already out, it swerved aside and went panting by them and passed. the eyes of the little man followed its flight. "there was no foam," he said. for a space the man with the silver-studded bridle stared up the valley. "oh, come on!" he cried at last. "what does it matter?" and jerked his horse into movement again. the little man left the insoluble mystery of a dog that fled from nothing but the wind, and lapsed into profound musings on human character. "come on!" he whispered to himself. "why should it be given to one man to say 'come on!' with that stupendous violence of effect? always, all his life, the man with the silver bridle has been saying that. if _i_ said it--!" thought the little man. but people marvelled when the master was disobeyed even in the wildest things. this half-caste girl seemed to him, seemed to every one, mad--blasphemous almost. the little man, by way of comparison, reflected on the gaunt rider with the scarred lip, as stalwart as his master, as brave and, indeed, perhaps braver, and yet for him there was obedience, nothing but to give obedience duly and stoutly... certain sensations of the hands and knees called the little man back to more immediate things. he became aware of something. he rode up beside his gaunt fellow. "do you notice the horses?" he said in an undertone. the gaunt face looked interrogation. "they don't like this wind," said the little man, and dropped behind as the man with the silver bridle turned upon him. "it's all right," said the gaunt-faced man. they rode on again for a space in silence. the foremost two rode downcast upon the trail, the hindmost man watched the haze that crept down the vastness of the valley, nearer and nearer, and noted how the wind grew in strength moment by moment. far away on the left he saw a line of dark bulks--wild hog, perhaps, galloping down the valley, but of that he said nothing, nor did he remark again upon the uneasiness of the horses. and then he saw first one and then a second great white ball, a great shining white ball like a gigantic head of thistledown, that drove before the wind athwart the path. these balls soared high in the air, and dropped and rose again and caught for a moment, and hurried on and passed, but at the sight of them the restlessness of the horses increased. then presently he saw that more of these drifting globes--and then soon very many more--were hurrying towards him down the valley. they became aware of a squealing. athwart the path a huge boar rushed, turning his head but for one instant to glance at them, and then hurling on down the valley again. and at that all three stopped and sat in their saddles, staring into the thickening haze that was coming upon them. "if it were not for this thistle-down--" began the leader. but now a big globe came drifting past within a score of yards of them. it was really not an even sphere at all, but a vast, soft, ragged, filmy thing, a sheet gathered by the corners, an aerial jelly-fish, as it were, but rolling over and over as it advanced, and trailing long cobwebby threads and streamers that floated in its wake. "it isn't thistle-down," said the little man. "i don't like the stuff," said the gaunt man. and they looked at one another. "curse it!" cried the leader. "the air's full of lit up there. if it keeps on at this pace long, it will stop us altogether." an instinctive feeling, such as lines out a herd of deer at the approach of some ambiguous thing, prompted them to turn their horses to the wind, ride forward for a few paces, and stare at that advancing multitude of floating masses. they came on before the wind with a sort of smooth swiftness, rising and falling noiselessly, sinking to earth, rebounding high, soaring--all with a perfect unanimity, with a still, deliberate assurance. right and left of the horsemen the pioneers of this strange army passed. at one that rolled along the ground, breaking shapelessly and trailing out reluctantly into long grappling ribbons and bands, all three horses began to shy and dance. the master was seized with a sudden, unreasonable impatience. he cursed the drifting globes roundly. "get on!" he cried; "get on! what do these things matter? how _can_ they matter? back to the trail!" he fell swearing at his horse and sawed the bit across its mouth. he shouted aloud with rage. "i will follow that trail, i tell you," he cried. "where is the trail?" he gripped the bridle of his prancing horse and searched amidst the grass. a long and clinging thread fell across his face, a grey streamer dropped about his bridle arm, some big, active thing with many legs ran down the back of his head. he looked up to discover one of those grey masses anchored as it were above him by these things and flapping out ends as a sail flaps when a boat comes about--but noiselessly. he had an impression of many eyes, of a dense crew of squat bodies, of long, many-jointed limbs hauling at their mooring ropes to bring the thing down upon him. for a space he stared up, reining in his prancing horse with the instinct born of years of horsemanship. then the flat of a sword smote his back, and a blade flashed overhead and cut the drifting balloon of spider-web free, and the whole mass lifted softly and drove clear and away. "spiders!" cried the voice of the gaunt man. "the things are full of big spiders! look, my lord!" the man with the silver bridle still followed the mass that drove away. "look, my lord!" the master found himself staring down at a red smashed thing on the ground that, in spite of partial obliteration, could still wriggle unavailing legs. then, when the gaunt man pointed to another mass that bore down upon them, he drew his sword hastily. up the valley now it was like a fog bank torn to rags. he tried to grasp the situation. "ride for it!" the little man was shouting. "ride for it down the valley." what happened then was like the confusion of a battle. the man with the silver bridle saw the little man go past him, slashing furiously at imaginary cobwebs, saw him cannon into the horse of the gaunt man and hurl it and its rider to earth. his own horse went a dozen paces before he could rein it in. then he looked up to avoid imaginary dangers, and then back again to see a horse rolling on the ground, the gaunt man standing and slashing over it at a rent and fluttering mass of grey that streamed and wrapped about them both. and thick and fast as thistle-down on waste land on a windy day in july the cobweb masses were coming on. the little man had dismounted, but he dared not release his horse. he was endeavouring to lug the struggling brute back with the strength of one arm, while with the other he slashed aimlessly. the tentacles of a second grey mass had entangled themselves with the struggle, and this second grey mass came to its moorings, and slowly sank. the master set his teeth, gripped his bridle, lowered his head, and spurred his horse forward. the horse on the ground rolled over, there was blood and moving shapes upon the flanks, and the gaunt man suddenly leaving it, ran forward towards his master, perhaps ten paces. his legs were swathed and encumbered with grey; he made ineffectual movements with his sword. grey streamers waved from him; there was a thin veil of grey across his face. with his left hand he beat at something on his body, and suddenly he stumbled and fell. he struggled to rise, and fell again, and suddenly, horribly, began to howl, "oh--ohoo, ohooh!" the master could see the great spiders upon him, and others upon the ground. as he strove to force his horse nearer to this gesticulating, screaming grey object that struggled up and down, there came a clatter of hoofs, and the little man, in act of mounting, swordless, balanced on his belly athwart the white horse, and clutching its mane, whirled past. and again a clinging thread of grey gossamer swept across the master's face. all about him, and over him, it seemed this drifting, noiseless cobweb circled and drew nearer him... to the day of his death he never knew just how the event of that moment happened. did he, indeed, turn his horse, or did it really of its own accord stampede after its fellow? suffice it that in another second he was galloping full tilt down the valley with his sword whirling furiously overhead. and all about him on the quickening breeze, the spiders' air-ships, their air bundles and air sheets, seemed to him to hurry in a conscious pursuit. clatter, clatter, thud, thud,--the man with the silver bridle rode, heedless of his direction, with his fearful face looking up now right, now left, and his sword arm ready to slash. and a few hundred yards ahead of him, with a tail of torn cobweb trailing behind him, rode the little man on the white horse, still but imperfectly in the saddle. the reeds bent before them, the wind blew fresh and strong, over his shoulder the master could see the webs hurrying to overtake... he was so intent to escape the spiders' webs that only as his horse gathered together for a leap did he realise the ravine ahead. and then he realised it only to misunderstand and interfere. he was leaning forward on his horse's neck and sat up and back all too late. but if in his excitement he had failed to leap, at any rate he had not forgotten how to fall. he was horseman again in mid-air. he came off clear with a mere bruise upon his shoulder, and his horse rolled, kicking spasmodic legs, and lay still. but the master's sword drove its point into the hard soil, and snapped clean across, as though chance refused him any longer as her knight, and the splintered end missed his face by an inch or so. he was on his feet in a moment, breathlessly scanning the on-rushing spider-webs. for a moment he was minded to run, and then thought of the ravine, and turned back. he ran aside once to dodge one drifting terror, and then he was swiftly clambering down the precipitous sides, and out of the touch of the gale. there, under the lee of the dry torrent's steeper banks, he might crouch and watch these strange, grey masses pass and pass in safety till the wind fell, and it became possible to escape. and there for a long time he crouched, watching the strange, grey, ragged masses trail their streamers across his narrowed sky. once a stray spider fell into the ravine close beside him--a full foot it measured from leg to leg and its body was half a man's hand--and after he had watched its monstrous alacrity of search and escape for a little while and tempted it to bite his broken sword, he lifted up his iron-heeled boot and smashed it into a pulp. he swore as he did so, and for a time sought up and down for another. then presently, when he was surer these spider swarms could not drop into the ravine, he found a place where he could sit down, and sat and fell into deep thought and began, after his manner, to gnaw his knuckles and bite his nails. and from this he was moved by the coming of the man with the white horse. he heard him long before he saw him, as a clattering of hoofs, stumbling footsteps, and a reassuring voice. then the little man appeared, a rueful figure, still with a tail of white cobweb trailing behind him. they approached each other without speaking, without a salutation. the little man was fatigued and shamed to the pitch of hopeless bitterness, and came to a stop at last, face to face with his seated master. the latter winced a little under his dependent's eye. "well?" he said at last, with no pretence of authority. "you left him?" "my horse bolted." "i know. so did mine." he laughed at his master mirthlessly. "i say my horse bolted," said the man who once had a silver-studded bridle. "cowards both," said the little man. the other gnawed his knuckle through some meditative moments, with his eye on his inferior. "don't call me a coward," he said at length. "you are a coward, like myself." "a coward possibly. there is a limit beyond which every man must fear. that i have learnt at last. but not like yourself. that is where the difference comes in." "i never could have dreamt you would have left him. he saved your life two minutes before... why are you our lord?" the master gnawed his knuckles again, and his countenance was dark. "no man calls me a coward," he said. "no ... a broken sword is better than none ... one spavined white horse cannot be expected to carry two men a four days' journey. i hate white horses, but this time it cannot be helped. you begin to understand me? i perceive that you are minded, on the strength of what you have seen and fancy, to taint my reputation. it is men of your sort who unmake kings. besides which--i never liked you." "my lord!" said the little man. "no," said the master. "_no!_" he stood up sharply as the little man moved. for a minute perhaps they faced one another. overhead the spiders' balls went driving. there was a quick movement among the pebbles; a running of feet, a cry of despair, a gasp and a blow... towards nightfall the wind fell. the sun set in a calm serenity, and the man who had once possessed the silver bridle came at last very cautiously and by an easy slope out of the ravine again; but now he led the white horse that once belonged to the little man. he would have gone back to his horse to get his silver-mounted bridle again, but he feared night and a quickening breeze might still find him in the valley, and besides, he disliked greatly to think he might discover his horse all swathed in cobwebs and perhaps unpleasantly eaten. and as he thought of those cobwebs, and of all the dangers he had been through, and the manner in which he had been preserved that day, his hand sought a little reliquary that hung about his neck, and he clasped it for a moment with heartfelt gratitude. as he did so his eyes went across the valley. "i was hot with passion," he said, "and now she has met her reward. they also, no doubt--" and behold! far away out of the wooded slopes across the valley, but in the clearness of the sunset, distinct and unmistakable, he saw a little spire of smoke. at that his expression of serene resignation changed to an amazed anger. smoke? he turned the head of the white horse about, and hesitated. and as he did so a little rustle of air went through the grass about him. far away upon some reeds swayed a tattered sheet of grey. he looked at the cobwebs; he looked at the smoke. "perhaps, after all, it is not them," he said at last. but he knew better. after he had stared at the smoke for some time, he mounted the white horse. as he rode, he picked his way amidst stranded masses of web. for some reason there were many dead spiders on the ground, and those that lived feasted guiltily on their fellows. at the sound of his horse's hoofs they fled. their time had passed. from the ground, without either a wind to carry them or a winding-sheet ready, these things, for all their poison, could do him little evil. he flicked with his belt at those he fancied came too near. once, where a number ran together over a bare place, he was minded to dismount and trample them with his boots, but this impulse he overcame. ever and again he turned in his saddle, and looked back at the smoke. "spiders," he muttered over and over again. "spiders. well, well... the next time i must spin a web." xxvii. the new accelerator. certainly, if ever a man found a guinea when he was looking for a pin, it is my good friend professor gibberne. i have heard before of investigators overshooting the mark, but never quite to the extent that he has done. he has really, this time at any rate, without any touch of exaggeration in the phrase, found something to revolutionise human life. and that when he was simply seeking an all-round nervous stimulant to bring languid people up to the stresses of these pushful days. i have tasted the stuff now several times, and i cannot do better than describe the effect the thing had on me. that there are astonishing experiences in store for all in search of new sensations will become apparent enough. professor gibberne, as many people know, is my neighbour in folkestone. unless my memory plays me a trick, his portrait at various ages has already appeared in _the strand magazine_--think late in but i am unable to look it up because i have lent that volume to someone who has never sent it back. the reader may, perhaps, recall the high forehead and the singularly long black eyebrows that give such a mephistophelean touch to his face. he occupies one of those pleasant little detached houses in the mixed style that make the western end of the upper sandgate road so interesting. his is the one with the flemish gables and the moorish portico, and it is in the little room with the mullioned bay window that he works when he is down here, and in which of an evening we have so often smoked and talked together. he is a mighty jester, but, besides, he likes to talk to me about his work; he is one of those men who find a help and stimulus in talking, and so i have been able to follow the conception of the new accelerator right up from a very early stage. of course, the greater portion of his experimental work is not done in folkestone, but in gower street, in the fine new laboratory next to the hospital that he has been the first to use. as every one knows, or at least as all intelligent people know, the special department in which gibberne has gained so great and deserved a reputation among physiologists is the action of drugs upon the nervous system. upon soporifics, sedatives, and anaesthetics he is, i am told, unequalled. he is also a chemist of considerable eminence, and i suppose in the subtle and complex jungle of riddles that centres about the ganglion cell and the axis fibre there are little cleared places of his making, little glades of illumination, that, until he sees fit to publish his results, are still inaccessible to every other living man. and in the last few years he has been particularly assiduous upon this question of nervous stimulants, and already, before the discovery of the new accelerator, very successful with them. medical science has to thank him for at least three distinct and absolutely safe invigorators of unrivalled value to practising men. in cases of exhaustion the preparation known as gibberne's b syrup has, i suppose, saved more lives already than any lifeboat round the coast. "but none of these little things begin to satisfy me yet," he told me nearly a year ago. "either they increase the central energy without affecting the nerves, or they simply increase the available energy by lowering the nervous conductivity; and all of them are unequal and local in their operation. one wakes up the heart and viscera and leaves the brain stupefied, one gets at the brain champagne fashion, and does nothing good for the solar plexus, and what i want--and what, if it's an earthly possibility, i mean to have--is a stimulant that stimulates all round, that wakes you up for a time from the crown of your head to the tip of your great toe, and makes you go two--or even three--to everybody else's one. eh? that's the thing i'm after." "it would tire a man," i said. "not a doubt of it. and you'd eat double or treble--and all that. but just think what the thing would mean. imagine yourself with a little phial like this"--he held up a little bottle of green glass and marked his points with it--"and in this precious phial is the power to think twice as fast, move twice as quickly, do twice as much work in a given time as you could otherwise do." "but is such a thing possible?" "i believe so. if it isn't, i've wasted my time for a year. these various preparations of the hypophosphites, for example, seem to show that something of the sort... even if it was only one and a half times as fast it would do." "it _would_ do," i said. "if you were a statesman in a corner, for example, time rushing up against you, something urgent to be done, eh?" "he could dose his private secretary," i said. "and gain--double time. and think if _you_, for example, wanted to finish a book." "usually," i said, "i wish i'd never begun 'em." "or a doctor, driven to death, wants to sit down and think out a case. or a barrister--or a man cramming for an examination." "worth a guinea a drop," said i, "and more--to men like that." "and in a duel, again," said gibberne, "where it all depends on your quickness in pulling the trigger." "or in fencing," i echoed. "you see," said gibberne, "if i get it as an all-round thing, it will really do you no harm at all--except perhaps to an infinitesimal degree it brings you nearer old age. you will just have lived twice to other people's once--" "i suppose," i meditated, "in a duel--it would be fair?" "that's a question for the seconds," said gibberne. i harked back further. "and you really think such a thing _is_ possible?" i said. "as possible," said gibberne, and glanced at something that went throbbing by the window, "as a motor-bus. as a matter of fact--" he paused and smiled at me deeply, and tapped slowly on the edge of his desk with the green phial. "i think i know the stuff... already i've got something coming." the nervous smile upon his face betrayed the gravity of his revelation. he rarely talked of his actual experimental work unless things were very near the end. "and it may be, it may be--i shouldn't be surprised--it may even do the thing at a greater rate than twice." "it will be rather a big thing," i hazarded. "it will be, i think, rather a big thing." but i don't think he quite knew what a big thing it was to be, for all that. i remember we had several talks about the stuff after that. "the new accelerator" he called it, and his tone about it grew more confident on each occasion. sometimes he talked nervously of unexpected physiological results its use might have, and then he would get a little unhappy; at others he was frankly mercenary, and we debated long and anxiously how the preparation might be turned to commercial account. "it's a good thing," said gibberne, "a tremendous thing. i know i'm giving the world something, and i think it only reasonable we should expect the world to pay. the dignity of science is all very well, but i think somehow i must have the monopoly of the stuff for, say, ten years. i don't see why _all_ the fun in life should go to the dealers in ham." my own interest in the coming drug certainly did not wane in the time. i have always had a queer little twist towards metaphysics in my mind. i have always been given to paradoxes about space and time, and it seemed to me that gibberne was really preparing no less than the absolute acceleration of life. suppose a man repeatedly dosed with such a preparation: he would live an active and record life indeed, but he would be an adult at eleven, middle-aged at twenty-five, and by thirty well on the road to senile decay. it seemed to me that so far gibberne was only going to do for any one who took his drug exactly what nature has done for the jews and orientals, who are men in their teens and aged by fifty, and quicker in thought and act than we are all the time. the marvel of drugs has always been great to my mind; you can madden a man, calm a man, make him incredibly strong and alert or a helpless log, quicken this passion and allay that, all by means of drugs, and here was a new miracle to be added to this strange armoury of phials the doctors use! but gibberne was far too eager upon his technical points to enter very keenly into my aspect of the question. it was the th or th of august when he told me the distillation that would decide his failure or success for a time was going forward as we talked, and it was on the th that he told me the thing was done and the new accelerator a tangible reality in the world. i met him as i was going up the sandgate hill towards folkestone--i think i was going to get my hair cut, and he came hurrying down to meet me--i suppose he was coming to my house to tell me at once of his success. i remember that his eyes were unusually bright and his face flushed, and i noted even then the swift alacrity of his step. "it's done," he cried, and gripped my hand, speaking very fast; "it's more than done. come up to my house and see." "really?" "really!" he shouted. "incredibly! come up and see." "and it does--twice?" "it does more, much more. it scares me. come up and see the stuff. taste it! try it! it's the most amazing stuff on earth." he gripped my arm and; walking at such a pace that he forced me into a trot, went shouting with me up the hill. a whole _char-à-banc_-ful of people turned and stared at us in unison after the manner of people in _chars-à-banc_. it was one of those hot, clear days that folkestone sees so much of, every colour incredibly bright and every outline hard. there was a breeze, of course, but not so much breeze as sufficed under these conditions to keep me cool and dry. i panted for mercy. "i'm not walking fast, am i?" cried gibberne, and slackened his pace to a quick march. "you've been taking some of this stuff," i puffed. "no," he said. "at the utmost a drop of water that stood in a beaker from which i had washed out the last traces of the stuff. i took some last night, you know. but that is ancient history now." "and it goes twice?" i said, nearing his doorway in a grateful perspiration. "it goes a thousand times, many thousand times!" cried gibberne, with a dramatic gesture, flinging open his early english carved oak gate. "phew!" said i, and followed him to the door. "i don't know how many times it goes," he said, with his latch-key in his hand. "and you----" "it throws all sorts of light on nervous physiology, it kicks the theory of vision into a perfectly new shape! ... heaven knows how many thousand times. we'll try all that after----the thing is to try the stuff now." "try the stuff?" i said, as we went along the passage. "rather," said gibberne, turning on me in his study. "there it is in that little green phial there! unless you happen to be afraid?" i am a careful man by nature, and only theoretically adventurous. i _was_ afraid. but on the other hand, there is pride. "well," i haggled. "you say you've tried it?" "i've tried it," he said, "and i don't look hurt by it, do i? i don't even look livery, and i _feel_----" i sat down. "give me the potion," i said. "if the worst comes to the worst it will save having my hair cut, and that, i think, is one of the most hateful duties of a civilised man. how do you take the mixture?" "with water," said gibberne, whacking down a carafe. he stood up in front of his desk and regarded me in his easy-chair; his manner was suddenly affected by a touch of the harley street specialist. "it's rum stuff, you know," he said. i made a gesture with my hand. "i must warn you, in the first place, as soon as you've got it down to shut your eyes, and open them very cautiously in a minute or so's time. one still sees. the sense of vision is a question of length of vibration, and not of multitude of impacts; but there's a kind of shock to the retina, a nasty giddy confusion just at the time if the eyes are open. keep 'em shut." "shut," i said. "good!" "and the next thing is, keep still. don't begin to whack about. you may fetch something a nasty rap if you do. remember you will be going several thousand times faster than you ever did before, heart, lungs, muscles, brain--everything--and you will hit hard without knowing it. you won't know it, you know. you'll feel just as you do now. only everything in the world will seem to be going ever so many thousand times slower than it ever went before. that's what makes it so deuced queer." "lor," i said. "and you mean----" "you'll see," said he, and took up a little measure. he glanced at the material on his desk. "glasses," he said, "water. all here. mustn't take too much for the first attempt." the little phial glucked out its precious contents. "don't forget what i told you," he said, turning the contents of the measure into a glass in the manner of an italian waiter measuring whisky. "sit with the eyes tightly shut and in absolute stillness for two minutes," he said. "then you will hear me speak." he added an inch or so of water to the little dose in each glass. "by-the-by," he said, "don't put your glass down. keep it in your hand and rest your hand on your knee. yes--so. and now----" he raised his glass. "the new accelerator," i said. "the new accelerator," he answered, and we touched glasses and drank, and instantly i closed my eyes. you know that blank non-existence into which one drops when one has taken "gas." for an indefinite interval it was like that. then i heard gibberne telling me to wake up, and i stirred and opened my eyes. there he stood as he had been standing, glass still in hand. it was empty, that was all the difference. "well?" said i. "nothing out of the way?" "nothing. a slight feeling of exhilaration, perhaps. nothing more." "sounds?" "things are still," i said. "by jove! yes! they _are_ still. except the sort of faint pat, patter, like rain falling on different things. what is it?" "analysed sounds," i think he said, but i am not sure. he glanced at the window. "have you ever seen a curtain before a window fixed in that way before?" i followed his eyes, and there was the end of the curtain, frozen, as it were, corner high, in the act of flapping briskly in the breeze. "no," said i; "that's odd." "and here," he said, and opened the hand that held the glass. naturally i winced, expecting the glass to smash. but so far from smashing, it did not even seem to stir; it hung in mid-air--motionless. "roughly speaking," said gibberne, "an object in these latitudes falls feet in the first second. this glass is falling feet in a second now. only, you see, it hasn't been falling yet for the hundredth part of a second. that gives you some idea of the pace of my accelerator." and he waved his hand round and round, over and under the slowly sinking glass. finally he took it by the bottom, pulled it down and placed it very carefully on the table. "eh?" he said to me, and laughed. "that seems all right," i said, and began very gingerly to raise myself from my chair. i felt perfectly well, very light and comfortable, and quite confident in my mind. i was going fast all over. my heart, for example, was beating a thousand times a second, but that caused me no discomfort at all. i looked out of the window. an immovable cyclist, head down and with a frozen puff of dust behind his driving-wheel, scorched to overtake a galloping _char-à-banc_ that did not stir. i gaped in amazement at this incredible spectacle. "gibberne," i cried, "how long will this confounded stuff last?" "heaven knows!" he answered. "last time i took it i went to bed and slept it off. i tell you, i was frightened. it must have lasted some minutes, i think--it seemed like hours. but after a bit it slows down rather suddenly, i believe." i was proud to observe that i did not feel frightened--i suppose because there were two of us. "why shouldn't we go out?" i asked. "why not?" "they'll see us." "not they. goodness, no! why, we shall be going a thousand times faster than the quickest conjuring trick that was ever done. come along! which way shall we go? window, or door?" and out by the window we went. assuredly of all the strange experiences that i have ever had, or imagined, or read of other people having or imagining, that little raid i made with gibberne on the folkestone leas, under the influence of the new accelerator, was the strangest and maddest of all. we went out by his gate into the road, and there we made a minute examination of the statuesque passing traffic. the tops of the wheels and some of the legs of the horses of this _char-à-banc,_ the end of the whip-lash and the lower jaw of the conductor--who was just beginning to yawn--were perceptibly in motion, but all the rest of the lumbering conveyance seemed still. and quite noiseless except for a faint rattling that came from one man's throat. and as parts of this frozen edifice there were a driver, you know, and a conductor, and eleven people! the effect as we walked about the thing began by being madly queer and ended by being--disagreeable. there they were, people like ourselves and yet not like ourselves, frozen in careless attitudes, caught in mid-gesture. a girl and a man smiled at one another, a leering smile that threatened to last for evermore; a woman in a floppy capelline rested her arm on the rail and stared at gibberne's house with the unwinking stare of eternity; a man stroked his moustache like a figure of wax, and another stretched a tiresome stiff hand with extended fingers towards his loosened hat. we stared at them, we laughed at them, we made faces at them, and then a sort of disgust of them came upon us, and we turned away and walked round in front of the cyclist towards the leas. "goodness!" cried gibberne, suddenly; "look there!" he pointed, and there at the tip of his finger and sliding down the air with wings flapping slowly and at the speed of an exceptionally languid snail--was a bee. and so we came out upon the leas. there the thing seemed madder than ever. the band was playing in the upper stand, though all the sound it made for us was a low-pitched, wheezy rattle, a sort of prolonged last sigh that passed at times into a sound like the slow, muffled ticking of some monstrous clock. frozen people stood erect, strange, silent, self-conscious-looking dummies hung unstably in mid-stride, promenading upon the grass. i passed close to a little poodle dog suspended in the act of leaping, and watched the slow movement of his legs as he sank to earth. "lord, look _here_!" cried gibberne, and we halted for a moment before a magnificent person in white faint--striped flannels, white shoes, and a panama hat, who turned back to wink at two gaily dressed ladies he had passed. a wink, studied with such leisurely deliberation as we could afford, is an unattractive thing. it loses any quality of alert gaiety, and one remarks that the winking eye does not completely close, that under its drooping lid appears the lower edge of an eyeball and a little line of white. "heaven give me memory," said i, "and i will never wink again." "or smile," said gibberne, with his eye on the lady's answering teeth. "it's infernally hot, somehow," said i, "let's go slower." "oh, come along!" said gibberne. we picked our way among the bath-chairs in the path. many of the people sitting in the chairs seemed almost natural in their passive poses, but the contorted scarlet of the bandsmen was not a restful thing to see. a purple-faced little gentleman was frozen in the midst of a violent struggle to refold his newspaper against the wind; there were many evidences that all these people in their sluggish way were exposed to a considerable breeze, a breeze that had no existence so far as our sensations went. we came out and walked a little way from the crowd, and turned and regarded it. to see all that multitude changed to a picture, smitten rigid, as it were, into the semblance of realistic wax, was impossibly wonderful. it was absurd, of course; but it filled me with an irrational, an exultant sense of superior advantage. consider the wonder of it! all that i had said, and thought, and done since the stuff had begun to work in my veins had happened, so far as those people, so far as the world in general went, in the twinkling of an eye. "the new accelerator----" i began, but gibberne interrupted me. "there's that infernal old woman!" he said. "what old woman?" "lives next door to me," said gibberne. "has a lapdog that yaps. gods! the temptation is strong!" there is something very boyish and impulsive about gibberne at times. before i could expostulate with him he had dashed forward, snatched the unfortunate animal out of visible existence, and was running violently with it towards the cliff of the leas. it was most extraordinary. the little brute, you know, didn't bark or wriggle or make the slightest sign of vitality. it kept quite stiffly in an attitude of somnolent repose, and gibberne held it by the neck. it was like running about with a dog of wood. "gibberne," i cried, "put it down!" then i said something else. "if you run like that, gibberne," i cried, "you'll set your clothes on fire. your linen trousers are going brown as it is!" he clapped his hand on his thigh and stood hesitating on the verge. "gibberne," i cried, coming up, "put it down. this heat is too much! it's our running so! two or three miles a second! friction of the air!" "what?" he said, glancing at the dog. "friction of the air," i shouted. "friction of the air. going too fast. like meteorites and things. too hot. and, gibberne! gibberne! i'm all over pricking and a sort of perspiration. you can see people stirring slightly. i believe the stuff's working off! put that dog down." "eh?" he said. "it's working off," i repeated. "we're too hot and the stuff's working off! i'm wet through." he stared at me, then at the band, the wheezy rattle of whose performance was certainly going faster. then with a tremendous sweep of the arm he hurled the dog away from him and it went spinning upward, still inanimate, and hung at last over the grouped parasols of a knot of chattering people. gibberne was gripping my elbow. "by jove!" he cried, "i believe it is! a sort of hot pricking and--yes. that man's moving his pocket-handkerchief! perceptibly. we must get out of this sharp." but we could not get out of it sharply enough. luckily, perhaps! for we might have run, and if we had run we should, i believe, have burst into flames. almost certainly we should have burst into flames! you know we had neither of us thought of that... but before we could even begin to run the action of the drug had ceased. it was the business of a minute fraction of a second. the effect of the new accelerator passed like the drawing of a curtain, vanished in the movement of a hand. i heard gibberne's voice in infinite alarm. "sit down," he said, and flop, down upon the turf at the edge of the leas i sat--scorching as i sat. there is a patch of burnt grass there still where i sat down. the whole stagnation seemed to wake up as i did so, the disarticulated vibration of the band rushed together into a blast of music, the promenaders put their feet down and walked their ways, the papers and flags began flapping, smiles passed into words, the winker finished his wink and went on his way complacently, and all the seated people moved and spoke. the whole world had come alive again, was going as fast as we were, or rather we were going no faster than the rest of the world. it was like slowing down as one comes into a railway station. everything seemed to spin round for a second or two, i had the most transient feeling of nausea, and that was all. and the little dog, which had seemed to hang for a moment when the force of gibberne's arm was expended, fell with a swift acceleration clean through a lady's parasol! that was the saving of us. unless it was for one corpulent old gentleman in a bath-chair, who certainly did start at the sight of us, and afterwards regarded us at intervals with a darkly suspicious eye, and, finally, i believe, said something to his nurse about us, i doubt if a solitary person remarked our sudden appearance among them. plop! we must have appeared abruptly. we ceased to smoulder almost at once, though the turf beneath me was uncomfortably hot. the attention of every one-- including even the amusements' association band, which on this occasion, for the only time in its history, got out of tune--was arrested by the amazing fact, and the still more amazing yapping and uproar caused by the fact, that a respectable, over-fed lapdog sleeping quietly to the east of the bandstand should suddenly fall through the parasol of a lady on the west--in a slightly singed condition due to the extreme velocity of its movements through the air. in these absurd days, too, when we are all trying to be as psychic, and silly, and superstitious as possible! people got up and trod on other people, chairs were overturned, the leas policeman ran. how the matter settled itself i do not know--we were much too anxious to disentangle ourselves from the affair and get out of range of the eye of the old gentleman in the bath-chair to make minute inquiries. as soon as we were sufficiently cool and sufficiently recovered from our giddiness and nausea and confusion of mind to do so we stood up, and skirting the crowd, directed our steps back along the road below the metropole towards gibberne's house. but amidst the din i heard very distinctly the gentleman who had been sitting beside the lady of the ruptured sunshade using quite unjustifiable threats and language to one of those chair-attendants who have "inspector" written on their caps: "if you didn't throw the dog," he said, "who _did_?" the sudden return of movement and familiar noises, and our natural anxiety about ourselves (our clothes were still dreadfully hot, and the fronts of the thighs of gibberne's white trousers were scorched a drabbish brown), prevented the minute observations i should have liked to make on all these things. indeed, i really made no observations of any scientific value on that return. the bee, of course, had gone. i looked for that cyclist, but he was already out of sight as we came into the upper sandgate road or hidden from us by traffic; the _char-à-banc_, however, with its people now all alive and stirring, was clattering along at a spanking pace almost abreast of the nearer church. we noted, however, that the window-sill on which we had stepped in getting out of the house was slightly singed, and that the impressions of our feet on the gravel of the path were unusually deep. so it was i had my first experience of the new accelerator. practically we had been running about and saying and doing all sorts of things in the space of a second or so of time. we had lived half an hour while the band had played, perhaps, two bars. but the effect it had upon us was that the whole world had stopped for our convenient inspection. considering all things, and particularly considering our rashness in venturing out of the house, the experience might certainly have been much more disagreeable than it was. it showed, no doubt, that gibberne has still much to learn before his preparation is a manageable convenience, but its practicability it certainly demonstrated beyond all cavil. since that adventure he has been steadily bringing its use under control, and i have several times, and without the slightest bad result, taken measured doses under his direction; though i must confess i have not yet ventured abroad again while under its influence. i may mention, for example, that this story has been written at one sitting and without interruption, except for the nibbling of some chocolate, by its means. i began at . , and my watch is now very nearly at the minute past the half-hour. the convenience of securing a long, uninterrupted spell of work in the midst of a day full of engagements cannot be exaggerated. gibberne is now working at the quantitative handling of his preparation, with especial reference to its distinctive effects upon different types of constitution. he then hopes to find a retarder, with which to dilute its present rather excessive potency. the retarder will, of course, have the reverse effect to the accelerator; used alone it should enable the patient to spread a few seconds over many hours of ordinary time, and so to maintain an apathetic inaction, a glacier-like absence of alacrity, amidst the most animated or irritating surroundings. the two things together must necessarily work an entire revolution in civilised existence. it is the beginning of our escape from that time garment of which carlyle speaks. while this accelerator will enable us to concentrate ourselves with tremendous impact upon any moment or occasion that demands our utmost sense and vigour, the retarder will enable us to pass in passive tranquillity through infinite hardship and tedium. perhaps i am a little optimistic about the retarder, which has indeed still to be discovered, but about the accelerator there is no possible sort of doubt whatever. its appearance upon the market in a convenient, controllable, and assimilable form is a matter of the next few months. it will be obtainable of all chemists and druggists, in small green bottles, at a high but, considering its extraordinary qualities, by no means excessive price. gibberne's nervous accelerator it will be called, and he hopes to be able to supply it in three strengths: one in , one in , and one in , distinguished by yellow, pink, and white labels respectively. no doubt its use renders a great number of very extraordinary things possible; for, of course, the most remarkable and, possibly, even criminal proceedings may be effected with impunity by thus dodging, as it were, into the interstices of time. like all potent preparations, it will be liable to abuse. we have, however, discussed this aspect of the question very thoroughly, and we have decided that this is purely a matter of medical jurisprudence and altogether outside our province. we shall manufacture and sell the accelerator, and as for the consequences--we shall see. xxviii. the truth about pyecraft. he sits not a dozen yards away. if i glance over my shoulder i can see him. and if i catch his eye--and usually i catch his eye--it meets me with an expression---- it is mainly an imploring look--and yet with suspicion in it. confound his suspicion! if i wanted to tell on him i should have told long ago. i don't tell and i don't tell, and he ought to feel at his ease. as if anything so gross and fat as he could feel at ease! who would believe me if i did tell? poor old pyecraft! great, uneasy jelly of substance! the fattest clubman in london. he sits at one of the little club tables in the huge bay by the fire, stuffing. what is he stuffing? i glance judiciously, and catch him biting at a round of hot buttered teacake, with his eyes on me. confound him! --with his eyes on me! that settles it, pyecraft! since you _will_ be abject, since you _will_ behave as though i was not a man of honour, here, right under your embedded eyes, i write the thing down--the plain truth about pyecraft. the man i helped, the man i shielded, and who has requited me by making my club unendurable, absolutely unendurable, with his liquid appeal, with the perpetual "don't tell" of his looks. and, besides, why does he keep on eternally eating? well, here goes for the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth! pyecraft----. i made the acquaintance of pyecraft in this very smoking-room. i was a young, nervous new member, and he saw it. i was sitting all alone, wishing i knew more of the members, and suddenly he came, a great rolling front of chins and abdomina, towards me, and grunted and sat down in a chair close by me and wheezed for a space, and scraped for a space with a match and lit a cigar, and then addressed me. i forget what he said--something about the matches not lighting properly, and afterwards as he talked he kept stopping the waiters one by one as they went by, and telling them about the matches in that thin, fluty voice he has. but, anyhow, it was in some such way we began our talking. he talked about various things and came round to games. and thence to my figure and complexion. "_you_ ought to be a good cricketer," he said. i suppose i am slender, slender to what some people would call lean, and i suppose i am rather dark, still----i am not ashamed of having a hindu great-grandmother, but, for all that, i don't want casual strangers to see through me at a glance to _her_. so that i was set against pyecraft from the beginning. but he only talked about me in order to get to himself. "i expect," he said, "you take no more exercise than i do, and probably you eat no less." (like all excessively obese people he fancied he ate nothing.) "yet"--and he smiled an oblique smile--"we differ." and then he began to talk about his fatness and his fatness; all he did for his fatness and all he was going to do for his fatness; what people had advised him to do for his fatness and what he had heard of people doing for fatness similar to his. "_a priori_," he said, "one would think a question of nutrition could be answered by dietary and a question of assimilation by drugs." it was stifling. it was dumpling talk. it made me feel swelled to hear him. one stands that sort of thing once in a way at a club, but a time came when i fancied i was standing too much. he took to me altogether too conspicuously. i could never go into the smoking-room but he would come wallowing towards me, and sometimes he came and gormandised round and about me while i had my lunch. he seemed at times almost to be clinging to me. he was a bore, but not so fearful a bore as to be limited to me and from the first there was something in his manner--almost as though he knew, almost as though he penetrated to the fact that i _might_--that there was a remote, exceptional chance in me that no one else presented. "i'd give anything to get it down," he would say--"anything," and peer at me over his vast cheeks and pant. poor old pyecraft! he has just gonged; no doubt to order another buttered teacake! he came to the actual thing one day. "our pharmacopoeia," he said, "our western pharmacopoeia, is anything but the last word of medical science. in the east, i've been told----" he stopped and stared at me. it was like being at an aquarium. i was quite suddenly angry with him. "look here," i said, "who told you about my great-grandmother's recipes?" "well," he fenced. "every time we've met for a week," i said--"and we've met pretty often-- you've given me a broad hint or so about that little secret of mine." "well," he said, "now the cat's out of the bag, i'll admit, yes, it is so. i had it----" "from pattison?" "indirectly," he said, which i believe was lying, "yes." "pattison," i said, "took that stuff at his own risk." he pursed his mouth and bowed. "my great-grandmother's recipes," i said, "are queer things to handle. my father was near making me promise----" "he didn't?" "no. but he warned me. he himself used one--once." "ah! ... but do you think----? suppose--suppose there did happen to be one----" "the things are curious documents," i said. "even the smell of 'em ... no!" but after going so far pyecraft was resolved i should go farther. i was always a little afraid if i tried his patience too much he would fall on me suddenly and smother me. i own i was weak. but i was also annoyed with pyecraft. i had got to that state of feeling for him that disposed me to say, "well, _take_ the risk!" the little affair of pattison to which i have alluded was a different matter altogether. what it was doesn't concern us now, but i knew, anyhow, that the particular recipe i used then was safe. the rest i didn't know so much about, and, on the whole, i was inclined to doubt their safety pretty completely. yet even if pyecraft got poisoned---- i must confess the poisoning of pyecraft struck me as an immense undertaking. that evening i took that queer, odd-scented sandal-wood box out of my safe, and turned the rustling skins over. the gentleman who wrote the recipes for my great-grandmother evidently had a weakness for skins of a miscellaneous origin, and his handwriting was cramped to the last degree. some of the things are quite unreadable to me--though my family, with its indian civil service associations, has kept up a knowledge of hindustani from generation to generation--and none are absolutely plain sailing. but i found the one that i knew was there soon enough, and sat on the floor by my safe for some time looking at it. "look here," said i to pyecraft next day, and snatched the slip away from his eager grasp. "so far as i can make it out, this is a recipe for loss of weight. ("ah!" said pyecraft.) i'm not absolutely sure, but i think it's that. and if you take my advice you'll leave it alone. because, you know--i blacken my blood in your interest, pyecraft--my ancestors on that side were, so far as i can gather, a jolly queer lot. see?" "let me try it," said pyecraft. i leant back in my chair. my imagination made one mighty effort and fell flat within me. "what in heaven's name, pyecraft," i asked, "do you think you'll look like when you get thin?" he was impervious to reason, i made him promise never to say a word to me about his disgusting fatness again whatever happened--never, and then i handed him that little piece of skin. "it's nasty stuff," i said. "no matter," he said, and took it. he goggled at it. "but--but--" he said he had just discovered that it wasn't english. "to the best of my ability," i said, "i will do you a translation." i did my best. after that we didn't speak for a fortnight. whenever he approached me i frowned and motioned him away, and he respected our compact, but at the end of the fortnight he was as fat as ever. and then he got a word in. "i must speak," he said, "it isn't fair. there's something wrong. it's done me no good. you're not doing your great-grandmother justice." "where's the recipe?" he produced it gingerly from his pocket-book. i ran my eye over the items. "was the egg addled?" i asked. "no. ought it to have been?" "that," i said, "goes without saying in all my poor dear great-grandmother's recipes. when condition or quality is not specified you must get the worst. she was drastic or nothing... and there's one or two possible alternatives to some of these other things. you got _fresh_ rattlesnake venom?" "i got a rattlesnake from jamrach's. it cost--it cost----" "that's your affair anyhow. this last item----" "i know a man who----" "yes. h'm. well, i'll write the alternatives down. so far as i know the language, the spelling of this recipe is particularly atrocious. by-the-by, dog here probably means pariah dog." for a month after that i saw pyecraft constantly at the club and as fat and anxious as ever. he kept our treaty, but at times he broke the spirit of it by shaking his head despondently. then one day in the cloakroom he said, "your great-grandmother----" "not a word against her," i said; and he held his peace. i could have fancied he had desisted, and i saw him one day talking to three new members about his fatness as though he was in search of other recipes. and then, quite unexpectedly, his telegram came. "mr. formalyn!" bawled a page-boy under my nose, and i took the telegram and opened it at once. "_for heaven's sake come_.--_pyecraft_." "h'm," said i, and to tell the truth i was so pleased at the rehabilitation of my great-grandmother's reputation this evidently promised that i made a most excellent lunch. i got pyecraft's address from the hall porter. pyecraft inhabited the upper half of a house in bloomsbury, and i went there so soon as i had done my coffee and trappistine. i did not wait to finish my cigar. "mr. pyecraft?" said i, at the front door. they believed he was ill; he hadn't been out for two days. "he expects me," said i, and they sent me up. i rang the bell at the lattice-door upon the landing. "he shouldn't have tried it, anyhow," i said to myself. "a man who eats like a pig ought to look like a pig." an obviously worthy woman, with an anxious face and a carelessly placed cap, came and surveyed me through the lattice. i gave my name and she let me in in a dubious fashion. "well?" said i, as we stood together inside pyecraft's piece of the landing. "'e said you was to come in if you came," she said, and regarded me, making no motion to show me anywhere. and then, confidentially, "'e's locked in, sir." "locked in?" "locked 'imself in yesterday morning and 'asn't let any one in since, sir. and ever and again _swearing_. oh, my!" i stared at the door she indicated by her glances. "in there?" i said. "yes, sir." "what's up?" she shook her head sadly. "'e keeps on calling for vittles, sir. '_eavy_ vittles 'e wants. i get 'im what i can. pork 'e's had, sooit puddin', sossiges, noo bread. everythink like that. left outside, if you please, and me go away. 'e's eatin', sir, somethink _awful_." there came a piping bawl from inside the door: "that formalyn?" "that you, pyecraft?" i shouted, and went and banged the door. "tell her to go away." i did. then i could hear a curious pattering upon the door, almost like some one feeling for the handle in the dark, and pyecraft's familiar grunts. "it's all right," i said, "she's gone." but for a long time the door didn't open. i heard the key turn. then pyecraft's voice said, "come in." i turned the handle and opened the door. naturally i expected to see pyecraft. well, you know, he wasn't there! i never had such a shock in my life. there was his sitting-room in a state of untidy disorder, plates and dishes among the books and writing things, and several chairs overturned, but pyecraft---- "it's all right, old man; shut the door," he said, and then i discovered him. there he was, right up close to the cornice in the corner by the door, as though some one had glued him to the ceiling. his face was anxious and angry. he panted and gesticulated. "shut the door," he said. "if that woman gets hold of it----" i shut the door, and went and stood away from him and stared. "if anything gives way and you tumble down," i said, "you'll break your neck, pyecraft." "i wish i could," he wheezed. "a man of your age and weight getting up to kiddish gymnastics----" "don't," he said, and looked agonised. "i'll tell you," he said, and gesticulated. "how the deuce," said i, "are you holding on up there?" and then abruptly i realised that he was not holding on at all, that he was floating up there--just as a gas-filled bladder might have floated in the same position. he began a struggle to thrust himself away from the ceiling and to clamber down the wall to me. "it's that prescription," he panted, as he did so. "your great-gran----" he took hold of a framed engraving rather carelessly as he spoke and it gave way, and he flew back to the ceiling again, while the picture smashed on to the sofa. bump he went against the ceiling, and i knew then why he was all over white on the more salient curves and angles of his person. he tried again more carefully, coming down by way of the mantel. it was really a most extraordinary spectacle, that great, fat, apoplectic-looking man upside down and trying to get from the ceiling to the floor. "that prescription," he said. "too successful." "how?" "loss of weight--almost complete." and then, of course, i understood. "by jove, pyecraft," said i, "what you wanted was a cure for fatness! but you always called it weight. you would call it weight." somehow i was extremely delighted. i quite liked pyecraft for the time. "let me help you!" i said, and took his hand and pulled him down. he kicked about, trying to get foothold somewhere. it was very like holding a flag on a windy day. "that table," he said, pointing, "is solid mahogany and very heavy. if you can put me under that----" i did, and there he wallowed about like a captive balloon, while i stood on his hearthrug and talked to him. i lit a cigar. "tell me," i said, "what happened?" "i took it," he said. "how did it taste?" "oh, _beastly_!" i should fancy they all did. whether one regards the ingredients or the probable compound or the possible results, almost all my great-grandmother's remedies appear to me at least to be extraordinarily uninviting. for my own part---- "i took a little sip first." "yes?" "and as i felt lighter and better after an hour, i decided to take the draught." "my dear pyecraft!" "i held my nose," he explained. "and then i kept on getting lighter and lighter--and helpless, you know." he gave way suddenly to a burst of passion. "what the goodness am i to _do?_" he said. "there's one thing pretty evident," i said, "that you mustn't do. if you go out of doors you'll go up and up." i waved an arm upward. "they'd have to send santos-dumont after you to bring you down again." "i suppose it will wear off?" i shook my head. "i don't think you can count on that," i said. and then there was another burst of passion, and he kicked out at adjacent chairs and banged the floor. he behaved just as i should have expected a great, fat, self-indulgent man to behave under trying circumstances--that is to say, very badly. he spoke of me and of my great-grandmother with an utter want of discretion. "i never asked you to take the stuff," i said. and generously disregarding the insults he was putting upon me, i sat down in his armchair and began to talk to him in a sober, friendly fashion. i pointed out to him that this was a trouble he had brought upon himself, and that it had almost an air of poetical justice. he had eaten too much. this he disputed, and for a time we argued the point. he became noisy and violent, so i desisted from this aspect of his lesson. "and then," said i, "you committed the sin of euphuism. you called it, not fat, which is just and inglorious, but weight. you----" he interrupted to say that he recognised all that. what was he to _do?_ i suggested he should adapt himself to his new conditions. so we came to the really sensible part of the business. i suggested that it would not be difficult for him to learn to walk about on the ceiling with his hands---- "i can't sleep," he said. but that was no great difficulty. it was quite possible, i pointed out, to make a shake-up under a wire mattress, fasten the under things on with tapes, and have a blanket, sheet, and coverlet to button at the side. he would have to confide in his housekeeper, i said; and after some squabbling he agreed to that. (afterwards it was quite delightful to see the beautifully matter-of-fact way with which the good lady took all these amazing inversions.) he could have a library ladder in his room, and all his meals could be laid on the top of his bookcase. we also hit on an ingenious device by which he could get to the floor whenever he wanted, which was simply to put the _british encyclopaedia_ (tenth edition) on the top of his open shelves. he just pulled out a couple of volumes and held on, and down he came. and we agreed there must be iron staples along the skirting, so that he could cling to those whenever he wanted to get about the room on the lower level. as we got on with the thing i found myself almost keenly interested. it was i who called in the housekeeper and broke matters to her, and it was i chiefly who fixed up the inverted bed. in fact, i spent two whole days at his flat. i am a handy, interfering sort of man with a screw-driver, and i made all sorts of ingenious adaptations for him--ran a wire to bring his bells within reach, turned all his electric lights up instead of down, and so on. the whole affair was extremely curious and interesting to me, and it was delightful to think of pyecraft like some great, fat blow-fly, crawling about on his ceiling and clambering round the lintel of his doors from one room to another, and never, never, never coming to the club any more... then, you know, my fatal ingenuity got the better of me. i was sitting by his fire drinking his whisky, and he was up in his favourite corner by the cornice, tacking a turkey carpet to the ceiling, when the idea struck me. "by jove, pyecraft!" i said, "all this is totally unnecessary." and before i could calculate the complete consequences of my notion i blurted it out. "lead underclothing," said i, and the mischief was done. pyecraft received the thing almost in tears. "to be right ways up again----" he said. i gave him the whole secret before i saw where it would take me. "buy sheet lead," i said, "stamp it into discs. sew 'em all over your underclothes until you have enough. have lead-soled boots, carry a bag of solid lead, and the thing is done! instead of being a prisoner here you may go abroad again, pyecraft; you may travel----" a still happier idea came to me. "you need never fear a shipwreck. all you need do is just slip off some or all of your clothes, take the necessary amount of luggage in your hand, and float up in the air----" in his emotion he dropped the tack-hammer within an ace of my head. "by jove!" he said, "i shall be able to come back to the club again." "the thing pulled me up short. by jove!" i said, faintly. "yes. of course--you will." he did. he does. there he sits behind me now, stuffing--as i live!--a third go of buttered teacake. and no one in the whole world knows--except his housekeeper and me---that he weighs practically nothing; that he is a mere boring mass of assimilatory matter, mere clouds in clothing, _niente, nefas_, the most inconsiderable of men. there he sits watching until i have done this writing. then, if he can, he will waylay me. he will come billowing up to me... he will tell me over again all about it, how it feels, how it doesn't feel, how he sometimes hopes it is passing off a little. and always somewhere in that fat, abundant discourse he will say, "the secret's keeping, eh? if any one knew of it--i should be so ashamed... makes a fellow look such a fool, you know. crawling about on a ceiling and all that..." and now to elude pyecraft, occupying, as he does, an admirable strategic position between me and the door. xxix. the magic shop. i had seen the magic shop from afar several times; i had passed it once or twice, a shop window of alluring little objects, magic balls, magic hens, wonderful cones, ventriloquist dolls, the material of the basket trick, packs of cards that _looked_ all right, and all that sort of thing, but never had i thought of going in until one day, almost without warning, gip hauled me by my finger right up to the window, and so conducted himself that there was nothing for it but to take him in. i had not thought the place was there, to tell the truth--a modest-sized frontage in regent street, between the picture shop and the place where the chicks run about just out of patent incubators,--but there it was sure enough. i had fancied it was down nearer the circus, or round the corner in oxford street, or even in holborn; always over the way and a little inaccessible it had been, with something of the mirage in its position; but here it was now quite indisputably, and the fat end of gip's pointing finger made a noise upon the glass. "if i was rich," said gip, dabbing a finger at the disappearing egg, "i'd buy myself that. and that"--which was the crying baby, very human--"and that," which was a mystery, and called, so a neat card asserted, "buy one and astonish your friends." "anything," said gip, "will disappear under one of those cones. i have read about it in a book. "and there, dadda, is the vanishing halfpenny--only they've put it this way up so's we can't see how it's done." gip, dear boy, inherits his mother's breeding, and he did not propose to enter the shop or worry in any way; only, you know, quite unconsciously, he lugged my finger doorward, and he made his interest clear. "that," he said, and pointed to the magic bottle. "if you had that?" i said; at which promising inquiry he looked up with a sudden radiance. "i could show it to jessie," he said, thoughtful as ever of others. "it's less than a hundred days to your birthday, gibbles," i said, and laid my hand on the door-handle. gip made no answer, but his grip tightened on my finger, and so we came into the shop. it was no common shop this; it was a magic shop, and all the prancing precedence gip would have taken in the matter of mere toys was wanting. he left the burthen of the conversation to me. it was a little, narrow shop, not very well lit, and the door-bell pinged again with a plaintive note as we closed it behind us. for a moment or so we were alone and could glance about us. there was a tiger in _papier-mâché_ on the glass case that covered, the low counter--a grave, kind-eyed tiger that waggled his head in a methodical manner; there were several crystal spheres, a china hand holding magic cards, a stock of magic fish-bowls in various sizes, and an immodest magic hat that shamelessly displayed its springs. on the floor were magic mirrors; one to draw you out long and thin, one to swell your head and vanish your legs, and one to make you short and fat like a draught; and while, we were laughing at these the shopman, as i suppose, came in. at any rate, there he was behind the counter--a curious, sallow, dark man, with one ear larger than the other and a chin like the toe-cap of a boot. "what can we have the pleasure?" he said, spreading his long magic fingers on the glass case; and so with a start we were aware of him. "i want," i said, "to buy my little boy a few simple tricks." "legerdemain?" he asked. "mechanical? domestic?" "anything amusing?" said i. "um!" said the shopman, and scratched his head for a moment as if thinking. then, quite distinctly, he drew from his head a glass ball. "something in this way?" he said, and held it out. the action was unexpected. i had seen the trick done at entertainments endless times before--it's part of the common stock of conjurers--but i had not expected it here. "that's good," i said, with a laugh. "isn't it?" said the shopman. gip stretched out his disengaged hand to take this object and found merely a blank palm. "it's in your pocket," said the shopman, and there it was! "how much will that be?" i asked. "we make no charge for glass balls," said the shopman politely. "we get them"--he picked one out of his elbow as he spoke--"free." he produced another from the back of his neck, and laid it beside its predecessor on the counter. gip regarded his glass ball sagely, then directed a look of inquiry at the two on the counter, and finally brought his round-eyed scrutiny to the shopman, who smiled. "you may have those two," said the shopman, "and, if you _don't_ mind one from my mouth. _so!_" gip counselled me mutely for a moment, and then in a profound silence put away the four balls, resumed my reassuring finger, and nerved himself for the next event. "we get all our smaller tricks in that way," the shopman remarked. i laughed in the manner of one who subscribes to a jest. "instead of going to the wholesale shop," i said. "of course, it's cheaper." "in a way," the shopman said. "though we pay in the end. but not so heavily--as people suppose... our larger tricks, and our daily provisions and all the other things we want, we get out of that hat... and you know, sir, if you'll excuse my saying it, there _isn't_ a wholesale shop, not for genuine magic goods, sir. i don't know if you noticed our inscription--the genuine magic shop." he drew a business card from his cheek and handed it to me. "genuine," he said, with his finger on the word, and added, "there is absolutely no deception, sir." he seemed to be carrying out the joke pretty thoroughly, i thought. he turned to gip with a smile of remarkable affability. "you, you know, are the right sort of boy." i was surprised at his knowing that, because, in the interests of discipline, we keep it rather a secret even at home; but gip received it in unflinching silence, keeping a steadfast eye on him. "it's only the right sort of boy gets through that doorway." and, as if by way of illustration, there came a rattling at the door, and a squeaking little voice could be faintly heard. "nyar! i _warn_ 'a go in there, dadda, i warn 'a go in there. ny-a-a-ah!" and then the accents of a downtrodden parent, urging consolations and propitiations. "it's locked, edward," he said. "but it isn't," said i. "it is, sir," said the shopman, "always--for that sort of child," and as he spoke we had a glimpse of the other youngster, a little, white face, pallid from sweet-eating and over-sapid food, and distorted by evil passions, a ruthless little egotist, pawing at the enchanted pane. "it's no good, sir," said the shopman, as i moved, with my natural helpfulness, doorward, and presently the spoilt child was carried off howling. "how do you manage that?" i said, breathing a little more freely. "magic!" said the shopman, with a careless wave of the hand, and behold! sparks of coloured fire flew out of his fingers and vanished into the shadows of the shop. "you were saying," he said, addressing himself to gip, "before you came in, that you would like one of our 'buy one and astonish your friends' boxes?" gip, after a gallant effort, said "yes." "it's in your pocket." and leaning over the counter--he really had an extraordinary long body-- this amazing person produced the article in the customary conjurer's manner. "paper," he said, and took a sheet out of the empty hat with the springs; "string," and behold his mouth was a string box, from which he drew an unending thread, which when he had tied his parcel he bit off-- and, it seemed to me, swallowed the ball of string. and then he lit a candle at the nose of one of the ventriloquist's dummies, stuck one of his fingers (which had become sealing-wax red) into the flame, and so sealed the parcel. "then there was the disappearing egg," he remarked, and produced one from within my coat-breast and packed it, and also the crying baby, very human. i handed each parcel to gip as it was ready, and he clasped them to his chest. he said very little, but his eyes were eloquent; the clutch of his arms was eloquent. he was the playground of unspeakable emotions. these, you know, were _real_ magics. then, with a start, i discovered something moving about in my hat-- something soft and jumpy. i whipped it off, and a ruffled pigeon--no doubt a confederate--dropped out and ran on the counter, and went, i fancy, into a cardboard box behind the _papier-mâché_ tiger. "tut, tut!" said the shopman, dexterously relieving, me of my headdress; "careless bird, and--as i live--nesting!" he shook my hat, and shook out into his extended hand, two or three eggs, a large marble, a watch, about half a dozen of the inevitable glass balls, and then crumpled, crinkled paper, more and more and more, talking all the time of the way in which people neglect to brush their hats _inside_ as well as out--politely, of course, but with a certain personal application. "all sorts of things accumulate, sir... not _you_, of course, in particular... nearly every customer... astonishing what they carry about with them..." the crumpled paper rose and billowed on the counter more and more and more, until he was nearly hidden from us, until he was altogether hidden, and still his voice went on and on. "we none of us know what the fair semblance of a human being may conceal, sir. are we all then no better than brushed exteriors, whited sepulchres-----" his voice stopped--exactly like when you hit a neighbour's gramophone with a well-aimed brick, the same instant silence--and the rustle of the paper stopped, and everything was still... "have you done with my hat?" i said, after an interval. there was no answer. i stared at gip, and gip stared at me, and there were our distortions in the magic mirrors, looking very rum, and grave, and quiet... "i think we'll go now," i said. "will you tell me how much all this comes to?... "i say," i said, on a rather louder note, "i want the bill; and my hat, please." it might have been a sniff from behind the paper pile... "let's look behind the counter, gip," i said. "he's making fun of us." i led gip round the head-wagging tiger, and what do you think there was behind the counter? no one at all! only my hat on the floor, and a common conjurer's lop-eared white rabbit lost in meditation, and looking as stupid and crumpled as only a conjurer's rabbit can do. i resumed my hat, and the rabbit lolloped a lollop or so out of my way. "dadda!" said gip, in a guilty whisper. "what is it, gip?" said i. "i _do_ like this shop, dadda." "so should i," i said to myself, "if the counter wouldn't suddenly extend itself to shut one off from the door." but i didn't call gip's attention to that. "pussy!" he said, with a hand out to the rabbit as it came lolloping past us; "pussy, do gip a magic!" and his eyes followed it as it squeezed through a door i had certainly not remarked a moment before. then this door opened wider, and the man with one ear larger than the other appeared again. he was smiling still, but his eye met mine with something between amusement and defiance. "you'd like to see our showroom, sir," he said, with an innocent suavity. gip tugged my finger forward. i glanced at the counter and met the shopman's eye again. i was beginning to think the magic just a little too genuine. "we haven't _very_ much time," i said. but somehow we were inside the showroom before i could finish that. "all goods of the same quality," said the shopman, rubbing his flexible hands together, "and that is the best. nothing in the place that isn't genuine magic, and warranted thoroughly rum. excuse me, sir!" i felt him pull at something that clung to my coat-sleeve, and then i saw he held a little, wriggling red demon by the tail--the little creature bit and fought and tried to get at his hand--and in a moment he tossed it carelessly behind a counter. no doubt the thing was only an image of twisted indiarubber, but for the moment--! and his gesture was exactly that of a man who handles some petty biting bit of vermin. i glanced at gip, but gip was looking at a magic rocking-horse. i was glad he hadn't seen the thing. "i say," i said, in an undertone, and indicating gip and the red demon with my eyes, "you haven't many things like _that_ about, have you?" "none of ours! probably brought it with you," said the shopman--also in an undertone, and with a more dazzling smile than ever. "astonishing what people _will_, carry about with them unawares!" and then to gip, "do you see anything you fancy here?" there were many things that gip fancied there. he turned to this astonishing tradesman with mingled confidence and respect. "is that a magic sword?" he said. "a magic toy sword. it neither bends, breaks, nor cuts the fingers. it renders the bearer invincible in battle against any one under eighteen. half a crown to seven and sixpence, according to size. these panoplies on cards are for juvenile knights-errant and very useful--shield of safety, sandals of swiftness, helmet of invisibility." "oh, dadda!" gasped gip. i tried to find out what they cost, but the shopman did not heed me. he had got gip now; he had got him away from my finger; he had embarked upon the exposition of all his confounded stock, and nothing was going to stop him. presently i saw with a qualm of distrust and something very like jealousy that gip had hold of this person's finger as usually he has hold of mine. no doubt the fellow was interesting, i thought, and had an interestingly faked lot of stuff, really _good_ faked stuff, still---- i wandered after them, saying very little, but keeping an eye on this prestidigital fellow. after all, gip was enjoying it. and no doubt when the time came to go we should be able to go quite easily. it was a long, rambling place, that showroom, a gallery broken up by stands and stalls and pillars, with archways leading off to other departments, in which the queerest-looking assistants loafed and stared at one, and with perplexing mirrors and curtains. so perplexing, indeed, were these that i was presently unable to make out the door by which we had come. the shopman showed gip magic trains that ran without steam or clockwork, just as you set the signals, and then some very, very valuable boxes of soldiers that all came alive directly you took off the lid and said----i myself haven't a very quick ear, and it was a tongue-twisting sound, but gip--he has his mother's ear--got it in no time. "bravo!" said the shopman, putting the men back into the box unceremoniously and handing it to gip. "now," said the shopman, and in a moment gip had made them all alive again. "you'll take that box?" asked the shopman. "we'll take that box," said i, "unless you charge its full value. in which case it would need a trust magnate----" "dear heart! _no!_" and the shopman swept the little men back again, shut the lid, waved the box in the air, and there it was, in brown paper, tied up and--_with gip's full name and address on the paper!_ the shopman laughed at my amazement. "this is the genuine magic," he said. "the real thing." "it's a little too genuine for my taste," i said again. after that he fell to showing gip tricks, odd tricks, and still odder the way they were done. he explained them, he turned them inside out, and there was the dear little chap nodding his busy bit of a head in the sagest manner. i did not attend as well as i might. "hey, presto!" said the magic shopman, and then would come the clear, small "hey, presto!" of the boy. but i was distracted by other things. it was being borne in upon me just how tremendously rum this place was; it was, so to speak, inundated by a sense of rumness. there was something a little rum about the fixtures even, about the ceiling, about the floor, about the casually distributed chairs. i had a queer feeling that whenever i wasn't looking at them straight they went askew, and moved about, and played a noiseless puss-in-the-corner behind my back. and the cornice had a serpentine design with masks--masks altogether too expressive for proper plaster. then abruptly my attention was caught by one of the odd-looking assistants. he was some way off and evidently unaware of my presence--i saw a sort of three-quarter length of him over a pile of toys and through an arch--and, you know, he was leaning against a pillar in an idle sort of way doing the most horrid things with his features! the particular horrid thing he did was with his nose. he did it just as though he was idle and wanted to amuse himself. first of all it was a short, blobby nose, and then suddenly he shot it out like a telescope, and then out it flew and became thinner and thinner until it was like a long, red flexible whip. like a thing in a nightmare it was! he flourished it about and flung it forth as a fly-fisher flings his line. my instant thought was that gip mustn't see him. i turned about, and there was gip quite preoccupied with the shopman, and thinking no evil. they were whispering together and looking at me. gip was standing on a little stool, and the shopman was holding a sort of big drum in his hand. "hide and seek, dadda!" cried gip. "you're he!" and before i could do anything to prevent it, the shopman had clapped the big drum over him. i saw what was up directly. "take that off," i cried, "this instant! you'll frighten the boy. take it off!" the shopman with the unequal ears did so without a word, and held the big cylinder towards me to show its emptiness. and the little stool was vacant! in that instant my boy had utterly disappeared!... you know, perhaps, that sinister something that comes like a hand out of the unseen and grips your heart about. you know it takes your common self away and leaves you tense and deliberate, neither slow nor hasty, neither angry nor afraid. so it was with me. i came up to this grinning shopman and kicked his stool aside. "stop this folly!" i said. "where is my boy?" "you see," he said, still displaying the drum's interior, "there is no deception----" i put out my hand to grip him, and he eluded me by a dexterous movement. i snatched again, and he turned from me and pushed open a door to escape. "stop!" i said, and he laughed, receding. i leapt after him--into utter darkness. _thud!_ "lor' bless my 'eart! i didn't see you coming, sir!" i was in regent street, and i had collided with a decent-looking working man; and a yard away, perhaps, and looking a little perplexed with himself, was gip. there was some sort of apology, and then gip had turned and come to me with a bright little smile, as though for a moment he had missed me. and he was carrying four parcels in his arm! he secured immediate possession of my finger. for the second i was rather at a loss. i stared round to see the door of the magic shop, and, behold, it was not there! there was no door, no shop, nothing, only the common pilaster between the shop where they sell pictures and the window with the chicks! ... i did the only thing possible in that mental tumult; i walked straight to the kerbstone and held up my umbrella for a cab. "'ansoms," said gip, in a note of culminating exultation. i helped him in, recalled my address with an effort, and got in also. something unusual proclaimed itself in my tail-coat pocket, and i felt and discovered a glass ball. with a petulant expression i flung it into the street. gip said nothing. for a space neither of us spoke. "dadda!" said gip, at last, "that _was_ a proper shop!" i came round with that to the problem of just how the whole thing had seemed to him. he looked completely undamaged--so far, good; he was neither scared nor unhinged, he was simply tremendously satisfied with the afternoon's entertainment, and there in his arms were the four parcels. confound it! what could be in them? "um!" i said. "little boys can't go to shops like that every day." he received this with his usual stoicism, and for a moment i was sorry i was his father and not his mother, and so couldn't suddenly there, _coram publico,_ in our hansom, kiss him. after all, i thought, the thing wasn't so very bad. but it was only when we opened the parcels that i really began to be reassured. three of them contained boxes of soldiers, quite ordinary lead soldiers, but of so good a quality as to make gip altogether forget that originally these parcels had been magic tricks of the only genuine sort, and the fourth contained a kitten, a little living white kitten, in excellent health and appetite and temper. i saw this unpacking with a sort of provisional relief. i hung about in the nursery for quite an unconscionable time... that happened six months ago. and now i am beginning to believe it is all right. the kitten had only the magic natural to all kittens, and the soldiers seemed as steady a company as any colonel could desire. and gip----? the intelligent parent will understand that i have to go cautiously with gip. but i went so far as this one day. i said, "how would you like your soldiers to come alive, gip, and march about by themselves?" "mine do," said gip. "i just have to say a word i know before i open the lid." "then they march about alone?" "oh, _quite_, dadda. i shouldn't like them if they didn't do that." i displayed no unbecoming surprise, and since then i have taken occasion to drop in upon him once or twice, unannounced, when the soldiers were about, but so far i have never discovered them performing in anything like a magical manner... it's so difficult to tell. there's also a question of finance. i have an incurable habit of paying bills. i have been up and down regent street several times looking for that shop. i am inclined to think, indeed, that in that matter honour is satisfied, and that, since gip's name and address are known to them, i may very well leave it to these people, whoever they may be, to send in their bill in their own time. xxx. the empire of the ants. when captain gerilleau received instructions to take his new gunboat, the _benjamin constant,_ to badama on the batemo arm of the guaramadema and there assist the inhabitants against a plague of ants, he suspected the authorities of mockery. his promotion had been romantic and irregular, the affections of a prominent brazilian lady and the captain's liquid eyes had played a part in the process, and the _diario_ and _o futuro_ had been lamentably disrespectful in their comments. he felt he was to give further occasion for disrespect. he was a creole, his conceptions of etiquette and discipline were pure-blooded portuguese, and it was only to holroyd, the lancashire engineer who had come over with the boat, and as an exercise in the use of english--his "th" sounds were very uncertain--that he opened his heart. "it is in effect," he said, "to make me absurd! what can a man do against ants? dey come, dey go." "they say," said holroyd, "that these don't go. that chap you said was a sambo----" "zambo;--it is a sort of mixture of blood." "sambo. he said the people are going!" the captain smoked fretfully for a time. "dese tings 'ave to happen," he said at last. "what is it? plagues of ants and suchlike as god wills. dere was a plague in trinidad--the little ants that carry leaves. orl der orange-trees, all der mangoes! what does it matter? sometimes ant armies come into your houses--fighting ants; a different sort. you go and they clean the house. then you come back again;--the house is clean, like new! no cockroaches, no fleas, no jiggers in the floor." "that sambo chap," said holroyd, "says these are a different sort of ant." the captain shrugged his shoulders, fumed, and gave his attention to a cigarette. afterwards he reopened the subject. "my dear 'olroyd, what am i to do about dese infernal ants?" the captain reflected. "it is ridiculous," he said. but in the afternoon he put on his full uniform and went ashore, and jars and boxes came back to the ship and subsequently he did. and holroyd sat on deck in the evening coolness and smoked profoundly and marvelled at brazil. they were six days up the amazon, some hundreds of miles from the ocean, and east and west of him there was a horizon like the sea, and to the south nothing but a sand-bank island with some tufts of scrub. the water was always running like a sluice, thick with dirt, animated with crocodiles and hovering birds, and fed by some inexhaustible source of tree trunks; and the waste of it, the headlong waste of it, filled his soul. the town of alemquer, with its meagre church, its thatched sheds for houses, its discoloured ruins of ampler days, seemed a little thing lost in this wilderness of nature, a sixpence dropped on sahara. he was a young man, this was his first sight of the tropics, he came straight from england, where nature is hedged, ditched, and drained, into the perfection of submission, and he had suddenly discovered the insignificance of man. for six days they had been steaming up from the sea by unfrequented channels; and man had been as rare as a rare butterfly. one saw one day a canoe, another day a distant station, the next no men at all. he began to perceive that man is indeed a rare animal, having but a precarious hold upon this land. he perceived it more clearly as the days passed, and he made his devious way to the batemo, in the company of this remarkable commander, who ruled over one big gun, and was forbidden to waste his ammunition. holroyd was learning spanish industriously, but he was still in the present tense and substantive stage of speech, and the only other person who had any words of english was a negro stoker, who had them all wrong. the second in command was a portuguese, da cunha, who spoke french, but it was a different sort of french from the french holroyd had learnt in southport, and their intercourse was confined to politenesses and simple propositions about the weather. and the weather, like everything else in this amazing new world, the weather had no human aspect, and was hot by night and hot by day, and the air steam, even the wind was hot steam, smelling of vegetation in decay: and the alligators and the strange birds, the flies of many sorts and sizes, the beetles, the ants, the snakes and monkeys seemed to wonder what man was doing in an atmosphere that had no gladness in its sunshine and no coolness in its night. to wear clothing was intolerable, but to cast it aside was to scorch by day, and expose an ampler area to the mosquitoes by night; to go on deck by day was to be blinded by glare and to stay below was to suffocate. and in the daytime came certain flies, extremely clever and noxious about one's wrist and ankle. captain gerilleau, who was holroyd's sole distraction from these physical distresses, developed into a formidable bore, telling the simple story of his heart's affections day by day, a string of anonymous women, as if he was telling beads. sometimes he suggested sport, and they shot at alligators, and at rare intervals they came to human aggregations in the waste of trees, and stayed for a day or so, and drank and sat about, and, one night, danced with creole girls, who found holroyd's poor elements of spanish, without either past tense or future, amply sufficient for their purposes. but these were mere luminous chinks in the long grey passage of the streaming river, up which the throbbing engines beat. a certain liberal heathen deity, in the shape of a demi-john, held seductive court aft, and, it is probable, forward. but gerilleau learnt things about the ants, more things and more, at this stopping-place and that, and became interested in his mission. "dey are a new sort of ant," he said. "we have got to be--what do you call it?--entomologie? big. five centimetres! some bigger! it is ridiculous. we are like the monkeys---sent to pick insects... but dey are eating up the country." he burst out indignantly. "suppose--suddenly, there are complications with europe. here am i--soon we shall be above the rio negro--and my gun, useless!" he nursed his knee and mused. "dose people who were dere at de dancing place, dey 'ave come down. dey 'ave lost all they got. de ants come to deir house one afternoon. everyone run out. you know when de ants come one must--everyone runs out and they go over the house. if you stayed they'd eat you. see? well, presently dey go back; dey say, 'the ants 'ave gone.' ... de ants _'aven't_ gone. dey try to go in--de son, 'e goes in. de ants fight." "swarm over him?" "bite 'im. presently he comes out again--screaming and running. he runs past them to the river. see? he gets into de water and drowns de ants-- yes." gerilleau paused, brought his liquid eyes close to holroyd's face, tapped holroyd's knee with his knuckle. "that night he dies, just as if he was stung by a snake." "poisoned--by the ants?" "who knows?" gerilleau shrugged his shoulders. "perhaps they bit him badly... when i joined dis service i joined to fight men. dese things, dese ants, dey come and go. it is no business for men." after that he talked frequently of the ants to holroyd, and whenever they chanced to drift against any speck of humanity in that waste of water and sunshine and distant trees, holroyd's improving knowledge of the language enabled him to recognise the ascendant word _saüba_, more and more completely dominating the whole. he perceived the ants were becoming interesting, and the nearer he drew to them the more interesting they became. gerilleau abandoned his old themes almost suddenly, and the portuguese lieutenant became a conversational figure; he knew something about the leaf-cutting ant, and expanded his knowledge. gerilleau sometimes rendered what he had to tell to holroyd. he told of the little workers that swarm and fight, and the big workers that command and rule, and how these latter always crawled to the neck and how their bites drew blood. he told how they cut leaves and made fungus beds, and how their nests in caracas are sometimes a hundred yards across. two days the three men spent disputing whether ants have eyes. the discussion grew dangerously heated on the second afternoon, and holroyd saved the situation by going ashore in a boat to catch ants and see. he captured various specimens and returned, and some had eyes and some hadn't. also, they argued, do ants bite or sting? "dese ants," said gerilleau, after collecting information at a rancho, "have big eyes. they don't run about blind--not as most ants do. no! dey get in corners and watch what you do." "and they sting?" asked holroyd. "yes. dey sting. dere is poison in the sting." he meditated. "i do not see what men can do against ants. dey come and go." "but these don't go." "they will," said gerilleau. past tamandu there is a long low coast of eighty miles without any population, and then one comes to the confluence of the main river and the batemo arm like a great lake, and then the forest came nearer, came at last intimately near. the character of the channel changes, snags abound, and the _benjamin constant_ moored by a cable that night, under the very shadow of dark trees. for the first time for many days came a spell of coolness, and holroyd and gerilleau sat late, smoking cigars and enjoying this delicious sensation. gerilleau's mind was full of ants and what they could do. he decided to sleep at last, and lay down on a mattress on deck, a man hopelessly perplexed, his last words, when he already seemed asleep, were to ask, with a flourish of despair, "what can one do with ants?... de whole thing is absurd." holroyd was left to scratch his bitten wrists, and meditate alone. he sat on the bulwark and listened to the little changes in gerilleau's breathing until he was fast asleep, and then the ripple and lap of the stream took his mind, and brought back that sense of immensity that had been growing upon him since first he had left para and come up the river. the monitor showed but one small light, and there was first a little talking forward and then stillness. his eyes went from the dim black outlines of the middle works of the gunboat towards the bank, to the black overwhelming mysteries of forest, lit now and then by a fire-fly, and never still from the murmur of alien and mysterious activities... it was the inhuman immensity of this land that astonished and oppressed him. he knew the skies were empty of men, the stars were specks in an incredible vastness of space; he knew the ocean was enormous and untamable, but in england he had come to think of the land as man's. in england it is indeed man's, the wild things live by sufferance, grow on lease, everywhere the roads, the fences, and absolute security runs. in an atlas, too, the land is man's, and all coloured to show his claim to it-- in vivid contrast to the universal independent blueness of the sea. he had taken it for granted that a day would come when everywhere about the earth, plough and culture, light tramways and good roads, an ordered security, would prevail. but now, he doubted. this forest was interminable, it had an air of being invincible, and man seemed at best an infrequent precarious intruder. one travelled for miles, amidst the still, silent struggle of giant trees, of strangulating creepers, of assertive flowers, everywhere the alligator, the turtle, and endless varieties of birds and insects seemed at home, dwelt irreplaceably--but man, man at most held a footing upon resentful clearings, fought weeds, fought beasts and insects for the barest foothold, fell a prey to snake and beast, insect and fever, and was presently carried away. in many places down the river he had been manifestly driven back, this deserted creek or that preserved the name of a _casa_, and here and there ruinous white walls and a shattered tower enforced the lesson. the puma, the jaguar, were more the masters here... who were the real masters? in a few miles of this forest there must be more ants than there are men in the whole world! this seemed to holroyd a perfectly new idea. in a few thousand years men had emerged from barbarism to a stage of civilisation that made them feel lords of the future and masters of the earth! but what was to prevent the ants evolving also? such ants as one knew lived in little communities of a few thousand individuals, made no concerted efforts against the greater world. but they had a language, they had an intelligence! why should things stop at that any more than men had stopped at the barbaric stage? suppose presently the ants began to store knowledge, just as men had done by means of books and records, use weapons, form great empires, sustain a planned and organised war? things came back to him that gerilleau had gathered about these ants they were approaching. they used a poison like the poison of snakes. they obeyed greater leaders even as the leaf-cutting ants do. they were carnivorous, and where they came they stayed... the forest was very still. the water lapped incessantly against the side. about the lantern overhead there eddied a noiseless whirl of phantom moths. gerilleau stirred in the darkness and sighed. "what can one _do?_" he murmured, and turned over and was still again. holroyd was roused from meditations that were becoming sinister by the hum of a mosquito. ii. the next morning holroyd learnt they were within forty kilometres of badama, and his interest in the banks intensified. he came up whenever an opportunity offered to examine his surroundings. he could see no signs of human occupation whatever, save for a weedy ruin of a house and the green-stained facade of the long-deserted monastery at mojû, with a forest tree growing out of a vacant window space, and great creepers netted across its vacant portals. several flights of strange yellow butterflies with semi-transparent wings crossed the river that morning, and many alighted on the monitor and were killed by the men. it was towards afternoon that they came upon the derelict _cuberta_. she did not at first appear to be derelict; both her sails were set and hanging slack in the afternoon calm, and there was the figure of a man sitting on the fore planking beside the shipped sweeps. another man appeared to be sleeping face downwards on the sort of longitudinal bridge these big canoes have in the waist. but it was presently apparent, from the sway of her rudder and the way she drifted into the course of the gunboat, that something was out of order with her. gerilleau surveyed her through a field-glass, and became interested in the queer darkness of the face of the sitting man, a red-faced man he seemed, without a nose-- crouching he was rather than sitting, and the longer the captain looked the less he liked to look at him, and the less able he was to take his glasses away. but he did so at last, and went a little way to call up holroyd. then he went back to hail the cuberta. he hailed her again, and so she drove past him. _santa rosa_ stood out clearly as her name. as she came by and into the wake of the monitor, she pitched a little, and suddenly the figure of the crouching man collapsed as though all its joints had given way. his hat fell off, his head was not nice to look at, and his body flopped lax and rolled out of sight behind the bulwarks. "caramba!" cried gerilleau, and resorted to holroyd forthwith. holroyd was half-way up the companion. "did you see dat?" said the captain. "dead!" said holroyd. "yes. you'd better send a boat aboard. there's something wrong." "did you--by any chance--see his face?" "what was it like?" "it was--ugh!--i have no words." and the captain suddenly turned his back on holroyd and became an active and strident commander. the gunboat came about, steamed parallel to the erratic course of the canoe, and dropped the boat with lieutenant da cunha and three sailors to board her. then the curiosity of the captain made him draw up almost alongside as the lieutenant got aboard, so that the whole of the _santa rosa_, deck and hold, was visible to holroyd. he saw now clearly that the sole crew of the vessel was these two dead men, and though he could not see their faces, he saw by their outstretched hands, which were all of ragged flesh, that they had been subjected to some strange exceptional process of decay. for a moment his attention concentrated on those two enigmatical bundles of dirty clothes and laxly flung limbs, and then his eyes went forward to discover the open hold piled high with trunks and cases, and aft, to where the little cabin gaped inexplicably empty. then he became aware that the planks of the middle decking were dotted with moving black specks. his attention was riveted by these specks. they were all walking in directions radiating from the fallen man in a manner--the image came unsought to his mind--like the crowd dispersing from a bull-fight. he became aware of gerilleau beside him. "capo," he said, "have you your glasses? can you focus as closely as those planks there?" gerilleau made an effort, grunted, and handed him the glasses. there followed a moment of scrutiny. "it's ants," said the englishman, and handed the focused field-glass back to gerilleau. his impression of them was of a crowd of large black ants, very like ordinary ants except for their size, and for the fact that some of the larger of them bore a sort of clothing of grey. but at the time his inspection was too brief for particulars. the head of lieutenant da cunha appeared over the side of the cuberta, and a brief colloquy ensued. "you must go aboard," said gerilleau. the lieutenant objected that the boat was full of ants. "you have your boots," said gerilleau. the lieutenant changed the subject. "how did these men die?" he asked. captain gerilleau embarked upon speculations that holroyd could not follow, and the two men disputed with a certain increasing vehemence. holroyd took up the field-glass and resumed his scrutiny, first of the ants and then of the dead man amidships. he has described these ants to me very particularly. he says they were as large as any ants he has ever seen, black and moving with a steady deliberation very different from the mechanical fussiness of the common ant. about one in twenty was much larger than its fellows, and with an exceptionally large head. these reminded him at once of the master workers who are said to rule over the leaf-cutter ants; like them they seemed to be directing and co-ordinating the general movements. they tilted their bodies back in a manner altogether singular as if they made some use of the fore feet. and he had a curious fancy that he was too far off to verify, that most of these ants of both kinds were wearing accoutrements, had things strapped about their bodies by bright white bands like white metal threads... he put down the glasses abruptly, realising that the question of discipline between the captain and his subordinate had become acute. "it is your duty," said the captain, "to go aboard. it is my instructions." the lieutenant seemed on the verge of refusing. the head of one of the mulatto sailors appeared beside him. "i believe these men were killed by the ants," said holroyd abruptly in english. the captain burst into a rage. he made no answer to holroyd. "i have commanded you to go aboard," he screamed to his subordinate in portuguese. "if you do not go aboard forthwith it is mutiny--rank mutiny. mutiny and cowardice! where is the courage that should animate us? i will have you in irons, i will have you shot like a dog." he began a torrent of abuse and curses, he danced to and fro. he shook his fists, he behaved as if beside himself with rage, and the lieutenant, white and still, stood looking at him. the crew appeared forward, with amazed faces. suddenly, in a pause of this outbreak, the lieutenant came to some heroic decision, saluted, drew himself together and clambered upon the deck of the cuberta. "ah!" said gerilleau, and his mouth shut like a trap. holroyd saw the ants retreating before da cunha's boots. the portuguese walked slowly to the fallen man, stooped down, hesitated, clutched his coat and turned him over. a black swarm of ants rushed out of the clothes, and da cunha stepped back very quickly and trod two or three times on the deck. holroyd put up the glasses. he saw the scattered ants about the invader's feet, and doing what he had never seen ants doing before. they had nothing of the blind movements of the common ant; they were looking at him--as a rallying crowd of men might look at some gigantic monster that had dispersed it. "how did he die?" the captain shouted. holroyd understood the portuguese to say the body was too much eaten to tell. "what is there forward?" asked gerilleau. the lieutenant walked a few paces, and began his answer in portuguese. he stopped abruptly and beat off something from his leg. he made some peculiar steps as if he was trying to stamp on something invisible, and went quickly towards the side. then he controlled himself, turned about, walked deliberately forward to the hold, clambered up to the fore decking, from which the sweeps are worked, stooped for a time over the second man, groaned audibly, and made his way back and aft to the cabin, moving very rigidly. he turned and began a conversation with his captain, cold and respectful in tone on either side, contrasting vividly with the wrath and insult of a few moments before. holroyd gathered only fragments of its purport. he reverted to the field-glass, and was surprised to find the ants had vanished from all the exposed surfaces of the deck. he turned towards the shadows beneath the decking, and it seemed to him they were full of watching eyes. the cuberta, it was agreed; was derelict, but too full of ants to put men aboard to sit and sleep: it must be towed. the lieutenant went forward to take in and adjust the cable, and the men in the boat stood up to be ready to help him. holroyd's glasses searched the canoe. he became more and more impressed by the fact that a great if minute and furtive activity was going on. he perceived that a number of gigantic ants--they seemed nearly a couple of inches in length--carrying oddly-shaped burthens for which he could imagine no use--were moving in rushes from one point of obscurity to another. they did not move in columns across the exposed places, but in open, spaced-out lines, oddly suggestive of the rushes of modern infantry advancing under fire. a number were taking cover under the dead man's clothes, and a perfect swarm was gathering along the side over which da cunha must presently go. he did not see them actually rush for the lieutenant as he returned, but he has no doubt they did make a concerted rush. suddenly the lieutenant was shouting and cursing and beating at his legs. "i'm stung!" he shouted, with a face of hate and accusation towards gerilleau. then he vanished over the side, dropped into his boat, and plunged at once into the water. holroyd heard the splash. the three men in the boat pulled him out and brought him aboard, and that night he died. iii. holroyd and the captain came out of the cabin in which the swollen and contorted body of the lieutenant lay and stood together at the stern of the monitor, staring at the sinister vessel they trailed behind them. it was a close, dark night that had only phantom flickerings of sheet lightning to illuminate it. the cuberta, a vague black triangle, rocked about in the steamer's wake, her sails bobbing and flapping, and the black smoke from the funnels, spark-lit ever and again, streamed over her swaying masts. gerilleau's mind was inclined to run on the unkind things the lieutenant had said in the heat of his last fever. "he says i murdered 'im," he protested. "it is simply absurd. someone _'ad_ to go aboard. are we to run away from these confounded ants whenever they show up?" holroyd said nothing. he was thinking of a disciplined rush of little black shapes across bare sunlit planking. "it was his place to go," harped gerilleau. "he died in the execution of his duty. what has he to complain of? murdered!... but the poor fellow was--what is it?--demented. he was not in his right mind. the poison swelled him... u'm." they came to a long silence. "we will sink that canoe--burn it." "and then?" the inquiry irritated gerilleau. his shoulders went up, his hands flew out at right angles from his body. "what is one to _do?_" he said, his voice going up to an angry squeak. "anyhow," he broke out vindictively, "every ant in dat cuberta!--i will burn dem alive!" holroyd was not moved to conversation. a distant ululation of howling monkeys filled the sultry night with foreboding sounds, and as the gunboat drew near the black mysterious banks this was reinforced by a depressing clamour of frogs. "what is one to _do?_" the captain repeated after a vast interval, and suddenly becoming active and savage and blasphemous, decided to burn the _santa rosa_ without further delay. everyone aboard was pleased by that idea, everyone helped with zest; they pulled in the cable, cut it, and dropped the boat and fired her with tow and kerosene, and soon the cuberta was crackling and flaring merrily amidst the immensities of the tropical night. holroyd watched the mounting yellow flare against the blackness, and the livid flashes of sheet lightning that came and went above the forest summits, throwing them into momentary silhouette, and his stoker stood behind him watching also. the stoker was stirred to the depths of his linguistics. "_saüba_ go pop, pop," he said, "wahaw" and laughed richly. but holroyd was thinking that these little creatures on the decked canoe had also eyes and brains. the whole thing impressed him as incredibly foolish and wrong, but--what was one to _do_? this question came back enormously reinforced on the morrow, when at last the gunboat reached badama. this place, with its leaf-thatch-covered houses and sheds, its creeper-invaded sugar-mill, its little jetty of timber and canes, was very still in the morning heat, and showed never a sign of living men. whatever ants there were at that distance were too small to see. "all the people have gone," said gerilleau, "but we will do one thing anyhow. we will 'oot and vissel." so holroyd hooted and whistled. then the captain fell into a doubting fit of the worst kind. "dere is one thing we can do," he said presently, "what's that?" said holroyd. "'oot and vissel again." so they did. the captain walked his deck and gesticulated to himself. he seemed to have many things on his mind. fragments of speeches came from his lips. he appeared to be addressing some imaginary public tribunal either in spanish or portuguese. holroyd's improving ear detected something about ammunition. he came out of these preoccupations suddenly into english. "my dear 'olroyd!" he cried, and broke off with "but what _can_ one do?" they took the boat and the field-glasses, and went close in to examine the place. they made out a number of big ants, whose still postures had a certain effect of watching them, dotted about the edge of the rude embarkation jetty. gerilleau tried ineffectual pistol shots at these. holroyd thinks he distinguished curious earthworks running between the nearer houses, that may have been the work of the insect conquerors of those human habitations. the explorers pulled past the jetty, and became aware of a human skeleton wearing a loin cloth, and very bright and clean and shining, lying beyond. they came to a pause regarding this... "i 'ave all dose lives to consider," said gerilleau suddenly. holroyd turned and stared at the captain, realising slowly that he referred to the unappetising mixture of races that constituted his crew. "to send a landing party--it is impossible--impossible. they will be poisoned, they will swell, they will swell up and abuse me and die. it is totally impossible... if we land, i must land alone, alone, in thick boots and with my life in my hand. perhaps i should live. or again--i might not land. i do not know. i do not know." holroyd thought he did, but he said nothing. "de whole thing," said gerilleau suddenly, "'as been got up to make me ridiculous. de whole thing!" they paddled about and regarded the clean white skeleton from various points of view, and then they returned to the gunboat. then gerilleau's indecisions became terrible. steam was got up, and in the afternoon the monitor went on up the river with an air of going to ask somebody something, and by sunset came back again and anchored. a thunderstorm gathered and broke furiously, and then the night became beautifully cool and quiet and everyone slept on deck. except gerilleau, who tossed about and muttered. in the dawn he awakened holroyd. "lord!" said holroyd, "what now?" "i have decided," said the captain. "what--to land?" said holroyd, sitting up brightly. "no!" said the captain, and was for a time very reserved. "i have decided," he repeated, and holroyd manifested symptoms of impatience. "well,--yes," said the captain, "_i shall fire de big gun!_" and he did! heaven knows what the ants thought of it, but he did. he fired it twice with great sternness and ceremony. all the crew had wadding in their ears, and there was an effect of going into action about the whole affair, and first they hit and wrecked the old sugar-mill, and then they smashed the abandoned store behind the jetty. and then gerilleau experienced the inevitable reaction. "it is no good," he said to holroyd; "no good at all. no sort of bally good. we must go back--for instructions. dere will be de devil of a row about dis ammunition--oh! de _devil_ of a row! you don't know, 'olroyd..." he stood regarding the world in infinite perplexity for a space. "but what else was there to _do?_" he cried. in the afternoon the monitor started down stream again, and in the evening a landing party took the body of the lieutenant and buried it on the bank upon which the new ants have so far not appeared... iv. i heard this story in a fragmentary state from holroyd not three weeks ago. these new ants have got into his brain, and he has come back to england with the idea, as he says, of "exciting people" about them "before it is too late." he says they threaten british guiana, which cannot be much over a trifle of a thousand miles from their present sphere of activity, and that the colonial office ought to get to work upon them at once. he declaims with great passion: "these are intelligent ants. just think what that means!" there can be no doubt they are a serious pest, and that the brazilian government is well advised in offering a prize of five hundred pounds for some effectual method of extirpation. it is certain too that since they first appeared in the hills beyond badama, about three years ago, they have achieved extraordinary conquests. the whole of the south bank of the batemo river, for nearly sixty miles, they have in their effectual occupation; they have driven men out completely, occupied plantations and settlements, and boarded and captured at least one ship. it is even said they have in some inexplicable way bridged the very considerable capuarana arm and pushed many miles towards the amazon itself. there can be little doubt that they are far more reasonable and with a far better social organisation than any previously known ant species; instead of being in dispersed societies they are organised into what is in effect a single nation; but their peculiar and immediate formidableness lies not so much in this as in the intelligent use they make of poison against their larger enemies. it would seem this poison of theirs is closely akin to snake poison, and it is highly probable they actually manufacture it, and that the larger individuals among them carry the needle-like crystals of it in their attacks upon men. of course it is extremely difficult to get any detailed information about these new competitors for the sovereignty of the globe. no eye-witnesses of their activity, except for such glimpses as holroyd's, have survived the encounter. the most extraordinary legends of their prowess and capacity are in circulation in the region of the upper amazon, and grow daily as the steady advance of the invader stimulates men's imaginations through their fears. these strange little creatures are credited not only with the use of implements and a knowledge of fire and metals and with organised feats of engineering that stagger our northern minds--unused as we are to such feats as that of the saübas of rio de janeiro, who in drove a tunnel under the parahyba where it is as wide as the thames at london bridge--but with an organised and detailed method of record and communication analogous to our books. so far their action has been a steady progressive settlement, involving the flight or slaughter of every human being in the new areas they invade. they are increasing rapidly in numbers, and holroyd at least is firmly convinced that they will finally dispossess man over the whole of tropical south america. and why should they stop at tropical south america? well, there they are, anyhow. by or thereabouts, if they go on as they are going, they ought to strike the capuarana extension railway, and force themselves upon the attention of the european capitalist. by they will be half-way down the amazon. i fix or ' at the latest for the discovery of europe. xxxi. the door in the wall. i. one confidential evening, not three months ago, lionel wallace told me this story of the door in the wall. and at the time i thought that so far as he was concerned it was a true story. he told it me with such a direct simplicity of conviction that i could not do otherwise than believe in him. but in the morning, in my own flat, i woke to a different atmosphere, and as i lay in bed and recalled the things he had told me, stripped of the glamour of his earnest slow voice, denuded of the focussed, shaded table light, the shadowy atmosphere that wrapped about him and me, and the pleasant bright things, the dessert and glasses and napery of the dinner we had shared, making them for the time a bright little world quite cut off from everyday realities, i saw it all as frankly incredible. "he was mystifying!" i said, and then: "how well he did it!... it isn't quite the thing i should have expected him, of all people, to do well." afterwards as i sat up in bed and sipped my morning tea, i found myself trying to account for the flavour of reality that perplexed me in his impossible reminiscences, by supposing they did in some way suggest, present, convey--i hardly know which word to use--experiences it was otherwise impossible to tell. well, i don't resort to that explanation now. i have got over my intervening doubts. i believe now, as i believed at the moment of telling, that wallace did to the very best of his ability strip the truth of his secret for me. but whether he himself saw, or only thought he saw, whether he himself was the possessor of an inestimable privilege or the victim of a fantastic dream, i cannot pretend to guess. even the facts of his death, which ended my doubts for ever, throw no light on that. that much the reader must judge for himself. i forget now what chance comment or criticism of mine moved so reticent a man to confide in me. he was, i think, defending himself against an imputation of slackness and unreliability i had made in relation to a great public movement, in which he had disappointed me. but he plunged suddenly. "i have," he said, "a preoccupation---- "i know," he went on, after a pause, "i have been negligent. the fact is-- it isn't a case of ghosts or apparitions--but--it's an odd thing to tell of, redmond--i am haunted. i am haunted by something--that rather takes the light out of things, that fills me with longings..." he paused, checked by that english shyness that so often overcomes us when we would speak of moving or grave or beautiful things. "you were at saint aethelstan's all through," he said, and for a moment that seemed to me quite irrelevant. "well"--and he paused. then very haltingly at first, but afterwards more easily, he began to tell of the thing that was hidden in his life, the haunting memory of a beauty and a happiness that filled his heart with insatiable longings, that made all the interests and spectacle of worldly life seem dull and tedious and vain to him. now that i have the clue to it, the thing seems written visibly in his face. i have a photograph in which that look of detachment has been caught and intensified. it reminds me of what a woman once said of him--a woman who had loved him greatly. "suddenly," she said, "the interest goes out of him. he forgets you. he doesn't care a rap for you--under his very nose..." yet the interest was not always out of him, and when he was holding his attention to a thing wallace could contrive to be an extremely successful man. his career, indeed, is set with successes. he left me behind him long ago: he soared up over my head, and cut a figure in the world that i couldn't cut--anyhow. he was still a year short of forty, and they say now that he would have been in office and very probably in the new cabinet if he had lived. at school he always beat me without effort--as it were by nature. we were at school together at saint aethelstan's college in west kensington for almost all our school-time. he came into the school as my coequal, but he left far above me, in a blaze of scholarships and brilliant performance. yet i think i made a fair average running. and it was at school i heard first of the "door in the wall"--that i was to hear of a second time only a month before his death. to him at least the door in the wall was a real door, leading through a real wall to immortal realities. of that i am now quite assured. and it came into his life quite early, when he was a little fellow between five and six. i remember how, as he sat making his confession to me with a slow gravity, he reasoned and reckoned the date of it. "there was," he said, "a crimson virginia creeper in it--all one bright uniform crimson, in a clear amber sunshine against a white wall. that came into the impression somehow, though i don't clearly remember how, and there were horse-chestnut leaves upon the clean pavement outside the green door. they were blotched yellow and green, you know, not brown nor dirty, so that they must have been new fallen. i take it that means october. i look out for horse-chestnut leaves every year and i ought to know. "if i'm right in that, i was about five years and four months old." he was, he said, rather a precocious little boy--he learnt to talk at an abnormally early age, and he was so sane and "old-fashioned," as people say, that he was permitted an amount of initiative that most children scarcely attain by seven or eight. his mother died when he was two, and he was under the less vigilant and authoritative care of a nursery governess. his father was a stern, preoccupied lawyer, who gave him little attention, and expected great things of him. for all his brightness he found life a little grey and dull, i think. and one day he wandered. he could not recall the particular neglect that enabled him to get away, nor the course he took among the west kensington roads. all that had faded among the incurable blurs of memory. but the white wall and the green door stood out quite distinctly. as his memory of that childish experience ran, he did at the very first sight of that door experience a peculiar emotion, an attraction, a desire to get to the door and open it and walk in. and at the same time he had the clearest conviction that either it was unwise or it was wrong of him-- he could not tell which--to yield to this attraction. he insisted upon it as a curious thing that he knew from the very beginning--unless memory has played him the queerest trick--that the door was unfastened, and that he could go in as he chose. i seem to see the figure of that little boy, drawn and repelled. and it was very clear in his mind, too, though why it should be so was never explained, that his father would be very angry if he went in through that door. wallace described all these moments of hesitation to me with the utmost particularity. he went right past the door, and then, with his hands in his pockets and making an infantile attempt to whistle, strolled right along beyond the end of the wall. there he recalls a number of mean dirty shops, and particularly that of a plumber and decorator with a dusty disorder of earthenware pipes, sheet lead, ball taps, pattern books of wall paper, and tins of enamel. he stood pretending to examine these things, and _coveting_, passionately desiring, the green door. then, he said, he had a gust of emotion. he made a run for it, lest hesitation should grip him again; he went plump with outstretched hand through the green door and let it slam behind him. and so, in a trice, he came into the garden that has haunted all his life. it was very difficult for wallace to give me his full sense of that garden into which he came. there was something in the very air of it that exhilarated, that gave one a sense of lightness and good happening and well-being; there was something in the sight of it that made all its colour clean and perfect and subtly luminous. in the instant of coming into it one was exquisitely glad--as only in rare moments, and when one is young and joyful one can be glad in this world. and everything was beautiful there... wallace mused before he went on telling me. "you see," he said, with the doubtful inflection of a man who pauses at incredible things, "there were two great panthers there... yes, spotted panthers. and i was not afraid. there was a long wide path with marble-edged flower borders on either side, and these two huge velvety beasts were playing there with a ball. one looked up and came towards me, a little curious as it seemed. it came right up to me, rubbed its soft round ear very gently against the small hand i held out, and purred. it was, i tell you, an enchanted garden. i know. and the size? oh! it stretched far and wide, this way and that. i believe there were hills far away. heaven knows where west kensington had suddenly got to. and somehow it was just like coming home. "you know, in the very moment the door swung to behind me, i forgot the road with its fallen chestnut leaves, its cabs and tradesmen's carts, i forgot the sort of gravitational pull back to the discipline and obedience of home, i forgot all hesitations and fear, forgot discretion, forgot all the intimate realities of this life. i became in a moment a very glad and wonder-happy little boy--in another world. it was a world with a different quality, a warmer, more penetrating and mellower light, with a faint clear gladness in its air, and wisps of sun-touched cloud in the blueness of its sky. and before me ran this long wide path, invitingly, with weedless beds on either side, rich with untended flowers, and these two great panthers. i put my little hands fearlessly on their soft fur, and caressed their round ears and the sensitive corners under their ears, and played with them, and it was as though they welcomed me home. there was a keen sense of home-coming in my mind, and when presently a tall, fair girl appeared in the pathway and came to meet me, smiling, and said 'well?' to me, and lifted me, and kissed me, and put me down, and led me by the hand, there was no amazement, but only an impression of delightful rightness, of being reminded of happy things that had in some strange way been overlooked. there were broad red steps, i remember, that came into view between spikes of delphinium, and up these we went to a great avenue between very old and shady dark trees. all down this avenue, you know, between the red chapped stems, were marble seats of honour and statuary, and very tame and friendly white doves... "along this cool avenue my girl-friend led me, looking down--i recall the pleasant lines, the finely-modelled chin of her sweet kind face--asking me questions in a soft, agreeable voice, and telling me things, pleasant things i know, though what they were i was never able to recall... presently a little capuchin monkey, very clean, with a fur of ruddy brown and kindly hazel eyes, came down a tree to us and ran beside me, looking up at me and grinning, and presently leapt to my shoulder. so we two went on our way in great happiness." he paused. "go on," i said. "i remember little things. we passed an old man musing among laurels, i remember, and a place gay with paroquets, and came through a broad shaded colonnade to a spacious cool palace, full of pleasant fountains, full of beautiful things, full of the quality and promise of heart's desire. and there were many things and many people, some that still seem to stand out clearly and some that are a little vague; but all these people were beautiful and kind. in some way--i don't know how--it was conveyed to me that they all were kind to me, glad to have me there, and filling me with gladness by their gestures, by the touch of their hands, by the welcome and love in their eyes. yes----" he mused for a while. "playmates i found there. that was very much to me, because i was a lonely little boy. they played delightful games in a grass-covered court where there was a sun-dial set about with flowers. and as one played one loved... "but--it's odd--there's a gap in my memory. i don't remember the games we played. i never remembered. afterwards, as a child, i spent long hours trying, even with tears, to recall the form of that happiness. i wanted to play it all over again--in my nursery--by myself. no! all i remember is the happiness and two dear playfellows who were most with me... then presently came a sombre dark woman, with a grave, pale face and dreamy eyes, a sombre woman, wearing a soft long robe of pale purple, who carried a book, and beckoned and took me aside with her into a gallery above a hall--though my playmates were loth to have me go, and ceased their game and stood watching as i was carried away. come back to us!' they cried. 'come back to us soon!' i looked up at her face, but she heeded them not at all. her face was very gentle and grave. she took me to a seat in the gallery, and i stood beside her, ready to look at her book as she opened it upon her knee. the pages fell open. she pointed, and i looked, marvelling, for in the living pages of that book i saw myself; it was a story about myself, and in it were all the things that had happened to me since ever i was born... "it was wonderful to me, because the pages of that book were not pictures, you understand, but realities." wallace paused gravely--looked at me doubtfully. "go on," i said. "i understand." "they were realities---yes, they must have been; people moved and things came and went in them; my dear mother, whom i had near forgotten; then my father, stern and upright, the servants, the nursery, all the familiar things of home. then the front door and the busy streets, with traffic to and fro. i looked and marvelled, and looked half doubtfully again into the woman's face and turned the pages over, skipping this and that, to see more of this book and more, and so at last i came to myself hovering and hesitating outside the green door in the long white wall, and felt again the conflict and the fear. "'and next?' i cried, and would have turned on, but the cool hand of the grave woman delayed me. "'next?' i insisted, and struggled gently with her hand, pulling up her fingers with all my childish strength, and as she yielded and the page came over she bent down upon me like a shadow and kissed my brow. "but the page did not show the enchanted garden, nor the panthers, nor the girl who had led me by the hand, nor the playfellows who had been so loth to let me go. it showed a long grey street in west kensington, in that chill hour of afternoon before the lamps are lit, and i was there, a wretched little figure, weeping aloud, for all that i could do to restrain myself, and i was weeping because i could not return to my dear playfellows who had called after me, 'come back to us! come back to us soon!' i was there. this was no page in a book, but harsh reality; that enchanted place and the restraining hand of the grave mother at whose knee i stood had gone--whither had they gone?" he halted again, and remained for a time staring into the fire. "oh! the woefulness of that return!" he murmured. "well?" i said, after a minute or so. "poor little wretch i was!--brought back to this grey world again! as i realised the fulness of what had happened to me, i gave way to quite ungovernable grief. and the shame and humiliation of that public weeping and my disgraceful home-coming remain with me still. i see again the benevolent-looking old gentleman in gold spectacles who stopped and spoke to me--prodding me first with his umbrella. 'poor little chap,' said he; 'and are you lost then?'--and me a london boy of five and more! and he must needs bring in a kindly young policeman and make a crowd of me, and so march me home. sobbing, conspicuous, and frightened, i came back from the enchanted garden to the steps of my father's house. "that is as well as i can remember my vision of that garden--the garden that haunts me still. of course, i can convey nothing of that indescribable quality of translucent unreality, that _difference_ from the common things of experience that hung about it all; but that-- that is what happened. if it was a dream, i am sure it was a day-time and altogether extraordinary dream... h'm!--naturally there followed a terrible questioning, by my aunt, my father, the nurse, the governess-- everyone... "i tried to tell them, and my father gave me my first thrashing for telling lies. when afterwards i tried to tell my aunt, she punished me again for my wicked persistence. then, as i said, everyone was forbidden to listen to me, to hear a word about it. even my fairytale books were taken away from me for a time--because i was too 'imaginative.' eh? yes, they did that! my father belonged to the old school... and my story was driven back upon myself. i whispered it to my pillow--my pillow that was often damp and salt to my whispering lips with childish tears. and i added always to my official and less fervent prayers this one heartfelt request: 'please god i may dream of the garden. oh! take me back to my garden!' take me back to my garden! i dreamt often of the garden. i may have added to it, i may have changed it; i do not know... all this, you understand, is an attempt to reconstruct from fragmentary memories a very early experience. between that and the other consecutive memories of my boyhood there is a gulf. a time came when it seemed impossible i should ever speak of that wonder glimpse again." i asked an obvious question. "no," he said. "i don't remember that i ever attempted to find my way back to the garden in those early years. this seems odd to me now, but i think that very probably a closer watch was kept on my movements after this misadventure to prevent my going astray. no, it wasn't till you knew me that i tried for the garden again. and i believe there was a period-- incredible as it seems now--when i forgot the garden altogether--when i was about eight or nine it may have been. do you remember me as a kid at saint aethelstan's?" "rather!" "i didn't show any signs, did i, in those days of having a secret dream?" ii. he looked up with a sudden smile. "did you ever play north-west passage with me?... no, of course you didn't come my way!" "it was the sort of game," he went on, "that every imaginative child plays all day. the idea was the discovery of a north-west passage to school. the way to school was plain enough; the game consisted in finding some way that wasn't plain, starting off ten minutes early in some almost hopeless direction, and working my way round through unaccustomed streets to my goal. and one day i got entangled among some rather low-class streets on the other side of campden hill, and i began to think that for once the game would be against me and that i should get to school late. i tried rather desperately a street that seemed a _cul-de-sac_, and found a passage at the end. i hurried through that with renewed hope. 'i shall do it yet,' i said, and passed a row of frowsy little shops that were inexplicably familiar to me, and behold! there was my long white wall and the green door that led to the enchanted garden! "the thing whacked upon me suddenly. then, after all, that garden, that wonderful garden, wasn't a dream!" he paused. "i suppose my second experience with the green door marks the world of difference there is between the busy life of a schoolboy and the infinite leisure of a child. anyhow, this second time i didn't for a moment think of going in straight away. you see----. for one thing, my mind was full of the idea of getting to school in time--set on not breaking my record for punctuality. i must surely have felt _some_ little desire at least to try the door--yes. i must have felt that... but i seem to remember the attraction of the door mainly as another obstacle to my overmastering determination to get to school. i was immensely interested by this discovery i had made, of course--i went on with my mind full of it--but i went on. it didn't check me. i ran past, tugging out my watch, found i had ten minutes still to spare, and then i was going downhill into familiar surroundings. i got to school, breathless, it is true, and wet with perspiration, but in time. i can remember hanging up my coat and hat... went right by it and left it behind me. odd, eh?" he looked at me thoughtfully, "of course i didn't know then that it wouldn't always be there. schoolboys have limited imaginations. i suppose i thought it was an awfully jolly thing to have it there, to know my way back to it, but there was the school tugging at me. i expect i was a good deal distraught and inattentive that morning, recalling what i could of the beautiful strange people i should presently see again. oddly enough i had no doubt in my mind that they would be glad to see me... yes, i must have thought of the garden that morning just as a jolly sort of place to which one might resort in the interludes of a strenuous scholastic career. "i didn't go that day at all. the next day was a half holiday, and that may have weighed with me. perhaps, too, my state of inattention brought down impositions upon me, and docked the margin of time necessary for the _detour_. i don't know. what i do know is that in the meantime the enchanted garden was so much upon my mind that i could not keep it to myself. "i told. what was his name?--a ferrety-looking youngster we used to call squiff." "young hopkins," said i. "hopkins it was. i did not like telling him. i had a feeling that in some way it was against the rules to tell him, but i did. he was walking part of the way home with me; he was talkative, and if we had not talked about the enchanted garden we should have talked of something else, and it was intolerable to me to think about any other subject. so i blabbed. "well, he told my secret. the next day in the play interval i found myself surrounded by half a dozen bigger boys, half teasing, and wholly curious to hear more of the enchanted garden. there was that big fawcett--you remember him?--and carnaby and morley reynolds. you weren't there by any chance? no, i think i should have remembered if you were... "a boy is a creature of odd feelings. i was, i really believe, in spite of my secret self-disgust, a little flattered to have the attention of these big fellows. i remember particularly a moment of pleasure caused by the praise of crawshaw--you remember crawshaw major, the son of crawshaw the composer?--who said it was the best lie he had ever heard. but at the same time there was a really painful undertow of shame at telling what i felt was indeed a sacred secret. that beast fawcett made a joke about the girl in green----" wallace's voice sank with the keen memory of that shame. "i pretended not to hear," he said. "well, then carnaby suddenly called me a young liar, and disputed with me when i said the thing was true. i said i knew where to find the green door, could lead them all there in ten minutes. carnaby became outrageously virtuous, and said i'd have to--and bear out my words or suffer. did you ever have carnaby twist your arm? then perhaps you'll understand how it went with me. i swore my story was true. there was nobody in the school then to save a chap from carnaby, though crawshaw put in a word or so. carnaby had got his game. i grew excited and red-eared, and a little frightened. i behaved altogether like a silly little chap, and the outcome of it all was that instead of starting alone for my enchanted garden, i led the way presently--cheeks flushed, ears hot, eyes smarting, and my soul one burning misery and shame--for a party of six mocking, curious, and threatening schoolfellows. "we never found the white wall and the green door..." "you mean----?" "i mean i couldn't find it. i would have found it if i could. "and afterwards when i could go alone i couldn't find it. i never found it. i seem now to have been always looking for it through my school-boy days, but i never came upon it--never." "did the fellows--make it disagreeable?" "beastly... carnaby held a council over me for wanton lying. i remember how i sneaked home and upstairs to hide the marks of my blubbering. but when i cried myself to sleep at last it wasn't for carnaby, but for the garden, for the beautiful afternoon i had hoped for, for the sweet friendly women and the waiting playfellows, and the game i had hoped to learn again, that beautiful forgotten game... "i believed firmly that if i had not told--... i had bad times after that--crying at night and wool-gathering by day. for two terms i slackened and had bad reports. do you remember? of course you would! it was _you_--your beating me in mathematics that brought me back to the grind again." iii. for a time my friend stared silently into the red heart of the fire. then he said: "i never saw it again until i was seventeen. "it leapt upon me for the third time--as i was driving to paddington on my way to oxford and a scholarship. i had just one momentary glimpse. i was leaning over the apron of my hansom smoking a cigarette, and no doubt thinking myself no end of a man of the world, and suddenly there was the door, the wall, the dear sense of unforgettable and still attainable things. "we clattered by--i too taken by surprise to stop my cab until we were well past and round a corner. then i had a queer moment, a double and divergent movement of my will: i tapped the little door in the roof of the cab, and brought my arm down to pull out my watch. 'yes, sir!' said the cabman, smartly. 'er--well--it's nothing,' i cried. '_my_ mistake! we haven't much time! go on!' and he went on... "i got my scholarship. and the night after i was told of that i sat over my fire in my little upper room, my study, in my father's house, with his praise--his rare praise--and his sound counsels ringing in my ears, and i smoked my favourite pipe--the formidable bulldog of adolescence--and thought of that door in the long white wall. 'if i had stopped,' i thought, 'i should have missed my scholarship, i should have missed oxford--muddled all the fine career before me! i begin to see things better!' i fell musing deeply, but i did not doubt then this career of mine was a thing that merited sacrifice. "those dear friends and that clear atmosphere seemed very sweet to me, very fine but remote. my grip was fixing now upon the world. i saw another door opening--the door of my career." he stared again into the fire. its red light picked out a stubborn strength in his face for just one flickering moment, and then it vanished again. "well," he said and sighed, "i have served that career. i have done--much work, much hard work. but i have dreamt of the enchanted garden a thousand dreams, and seen its door, or at least glimpsed its door, four times since then. yes--four times. for a while this world was so bright and interesting, seemed so full of meaning and opportunity, that the half-effaced charm of the garden was by comparison gentle and remote. who wants to pat panthers on the way to dinner with pretty women and distinguished men? i came down to london from oxford, a man of bold promise that i have done something to redeem. something--and yet there have been disappointments... "twice i have been in love--i will not dwell on that--but once, as i went to someone who, i knew, doubted whether i dared to come, i took a short cut at a venture through an unfrequented road near earl's court, and so happened on a white wall and a familiar green door. 'odd!' said i to myself, 'but i thought this place was on campden hill. it's the place i never could find somehow--like counting stonehenge--the place of that queer daydream of mine.' and i went by it intent upon my purpose. it had no appeal to me that afternoon. "i had just a moment's impulse to try the door, three steps aside were needed at the most--though i was sure enough in my heart that it would open to me--and then i thought that doing so might delay me on the way to that appointment in which i thought my honour was involved. afterwards i was sorry for my punctuality--might at least have peeped in, i thought, and waved a hand to those panthers, but i knew enough by this time not to seek again belatedly that which is not found by seeking. yes, that time made me very sorry... "years of hard work after that, and never a sight of the door. it's only recently it has come back to me. with it there has come a sense as though some thin tarnish had spread itself over my world. i began to think of it as a sorrowful and bitter thing that i should never see that door again. perhaps i was suffering a little from overwork--perhaps it was what i've heard spoken of as the feeling of forty. i don't know. but certainly the keen brightness that makes effort easy has gone out of things recently, and that just at a time--with all these new political developments--when i ought to be working. odd, isn't it? but i do begin to find life toilsome, its rewards, as i come near them, cheap. i began a little while ago to want the garden quite badly. yes--and i've seen it three times." "the garden?" "no---the door! and i haven't gone in!" he leant over the table to me, with an enormous sorrow in his voice as he spoke. "thrice i have had my chance--_thrice_! if ever that door offers itself to me again, i swore, i will go in, out of this dust and heat, out of this dry glitter of vanity, out of these toilsome futilities. i will go and never return. this time i will stay... i swore it, and when the time came--_i didn't go_. "three times in one year have i passed that door and failed to enter. three times in the last year. "the first time was on the night of the snatch division on the tenants' redemption bill, on which the government was saved by a majority of three. you remember? no one on our side--perhaps very few on the opposite side-- expected the end that night. then the debate collapsed like eggshells. i and hotchkiss were dining with his cousin at brentford; we were both unpaired, and we were called up by telephone, and set off at once in his cousin's motor. we got in barely in time, and on the way we passed my wall and door--livid in the moonlight, blotched with hot yellow as the glare of our lamps lit it, but unmistakable. 'my god!' cried i. 'what?' said hotchkiss. 'nothing!' i answered, and the moment passed. "'i've made a great sacrifice,' i told the whip as i got in. 'they all have,' he said, and hurried by. "i do not see how i could have done otherwise then. and the next occasion was as i rushed to my father's bedside to bid that stern old man farewell. then, too, the claims of life were imperative. but the third time was different; it happened a week ago. it fills me with hot remorse to recall it. i was with gurker and ralphs--it's no secret now, you know, that i've had my talk with gurker. we had been dining at frobisher's, and the talk had become intimate between us. the question of my place in the reconstructed ministry lay always just over the boundary of the discussion. yes--yes. that's all settled. it needn't be talked about yet, but there's no reason to keep a secret from you... yes--thanks! thanks! but let me tell you my story. "then, on that night things were very much in the air. my position was a very delicate one. i was keenly anxious to get some definite word from gurker, but was hampered by ralphs' presence. i was using the best power of my brain to keep that light and careless talk not too obviously directed to the point that concerned me. i had to. ralphs' behaviour since has more than justified my caution... ralphs, i knew, would leave us beyond the kensington high street, and then i could surprise gurker by a sudden frankness. one has sometimes to resort to these little devices... and then it was that in the margin of my field of vision i became aware once more of the white wall, the green door before us down the road. "we passed it talking. i passed it. i can still see the shadow of gurker's marked profile, his opera hat tilted forward over his prominent nose, the many folds of his neck wrap going before my shadow and ralphs' as we sauntered past. "i passed within twenty inches of the door. 'if i say good-night to them, and go in,' i asked myself, 'what will happen?' and i was all a-tingle for that word with gurker. "i could not answer that question in the tangle of my other problems. 'they will think me mad,' i thought. 'and suppose i vanish now!---amazing disappearance of a prominent politician!' that weighed with me. a thousand inconceivably petty worldlinesses weighed with me in that crisis." then he turned on me with a sorrowful smile, and, speaking slowly, "here i am!" he said. "here i am!" he repeated, "and my chance has gone from me. three times in one year the door has been offered me--the door that goes into peace, into delight, into a beauty beyond dreaming, a kindness no man on earth can know. and i have rejected it, redmond, and it has gone----" "how do you know?" "i know. i know. i am left now to work it out, to stick to the tasks that held me so strongly when my moments came. you say i have success--this vulgar, tawdry, irksome, envied thing. i have it." he had a walnut in his big hand. "if that was my success," he said, and crushed it, and held it out for me to see. "let me tell you something, redmond. this loss is destroying me. for two months, for ten weeks nearly now, i have done no work at all, except the most necessary and urgent duties. my soul is full of inappeasable regrets. at nights--when it is less likely i shall be recognised--i go out. i wander. yes. i wonder what people would think of that if they knew. a cabinet minister, the responsible head of that most vital of all departments, wandering alone--grieving--sometimes near audibly lamenting-- for a door, for a garden!" iv. i can see now his rather pallid face, and the unfamiliar sombre fire that had come into his eyes. i see him very vividly to-night. i sit recalling his words, his tones, and last evening's _westminster gazette_ still lies on my sofa, containing the notice of his death. at lunch to-day the club was busy with his death. we talked of nothing else. they found his body very early yesterday morning in a deep excavation near east kensington station. it is one of two shafts that have been made in connection with an extension of the railway southward. it is protected from the intrusion of the public by a hoarding upon the high road, in which a small doorway has been cut for the convenience of some of the workmen who live in that direction. the doorway was left unfastened through a misunderstanding between two gangers, and through it he made his way... my mind is darkened with questions and riddles. it would seem he walked all the way from the house that night--he has frequently walked home during the past session--and so it is i figure his dark form coming along the late and empty streets, wrapped up, intent. and then did the pale electric lights near the station cheat the rough planking into a semblance of white? did that fatal unfastened door awaken some memory? was there, after all, ever any green door in the wall at all? i do not know. i have told his story as he told it to me. there are times when i believe that wallace was no more than the victim of the coincidence between a rare but not unprecedented type of hallucination and a careless trap, but that indeed is not my profoundest belief. you may think me superstitious, if you will, and foolish; but, indeed, i am more than half convinced that he had, in truth, an abnormal gift, and a sense, something--i know not what---that in the guise of wall and door offered him an outlet, a secret and peculiar passage of escape into another and altogether more beautiful world. at any rate, you will say, it betrayed him in the end. but did it betray him? there you touch the inmost mystery of these dreamers, these men of vision and the imagination. we see our world fair and common, the hoarding and the pit. by our daylight standard he walked out of security into darkness, danger, and death. but did he see like that? xxxii. the country of the blind. three hundred miles and more from chimborazo, one hundred from the snows of cotopaxi, in the wildest wastes of ecuador's andes, there lies that mysterious mountain valley, cut off from the world of men, the country of the blind. long years ago that valley lay so far open to the world that men might come at last through frightful gorges and over an icy pass into its equable meadows; and thither indeed men came, a family or so of peruvian half-breeds fleeing from the lust and tyranny of an evil spanish ruler. then came the stupendous outbreak of mindobamba, when it was night in quito for seventeen days, and the water was boiling at yaguachi and all the fish floating dying even as far as guayaquil; everywhere along the pacific slopes there were land-slips and swift thawings and sudden floods, and one whole side of the old arauca crest slipped and came down in thunder, and cut off the country of the blind for ever from the exploring feet of men. but one of these early settlers had chanced to be on the hither side of the gorges when the world had so terribly shaken itself, and he perforce had to forget his wife and his child and all the friends and possessions he had left up there, and start life over again in the lower world. he started it again but ill, blindness overtook him, and he died of punishment in the mines; but the story he told begot a legend that lingers along the length of the cordilleras of the andes to this day. he told of his reason for venturing back from that fastness, into which he had first been carried lashed to a llama, beside a vast bale of gear, when he was a child. the valley, he said, had in it all that the heart of man could desire--sweet water, pasture, and even climate, slopes of rich brown soil with tangles of a shrub that bore an excellent fruit, and on one side great hanging forests of pine that held the avalanches high. far overhead, on three sides, vast cliffs of grey-green rock were capped by cliffs of ice; but the glacier stream came not to them but flowed away by the farther slopes, and only now and then huge ice masses fell on the valley side. in this valley it neither rained nor snowed, but the abundant springs gave a rich green pasture, that irrigation would spread over all the valley space. the settlers did well indeed there. their beasts did well and multiplied, and but one thing marred their happiness. yet it was enough to mar it greatly. a strange disease had come upon them, and had made all the children born to them there--and indeed, several older children also--blind. it was to seek some charm or antidote against this plague of blindness that he had with fatigue and danger and difficulty returned down the gorge. in those days, in such cases, men did not think of germs and infections but of sins; and it seemed to him that the reason of this affliction must lie in the negligence of these priestless immigrants to set up a shrine so soon as they entered the valley. he wanted a shrine--a handsome, cheap, effectual shrine--to be erected in the valley; he wanted relics and such-like potent things of faith, blessed objects and mysterious medals and prayers. in his wallet he had a bar of native silver for which he would not account; he insisted there was none in the valley with something of the insistence of an inexpert liar. they had all clubbed their money and ornaments together, having little need for such treasure up there, he said, to buy them holy help against their ill. i figure this dim-eyed young mountaineer, sunburnt, gaunt, and anxious, hat-brim clutched feverishly, a man all unused to the ways of the lower world, telling this story to some keen-eyed, attentive priest before the great convulsion; i can picture him presently seeking to return with pious and infallible remedies against that trouble, and the infinite dismay with which he must have faced the tumbled vastness where the gorge had once come out. but the rest of his story of mischances is lost to me, save that i know of his evil death after several years. poor stray from that remoteness! the stream that had once made the gorge now bursts from the mouth of a rocky cave, and the legend his poor, ill-told story set going developed into the legend of a race of blind men somewhere "over there" one may still hear to-day. and amidst the little population of that now isolated and forgotten valley the disease ran its course. the old became groping and purblind, the young saw but dimly, and the children that were born to them saw never at all. but life was very easy in that snow-rimmed basin, lost to all the world, with neither thorns nor briars, with no evil insects nor any beasts save the gentle breed of llamas they had lugged and thrust and followed up the beds of the shrunken rivers in the gorges up which they had come. the seeing had become purblind so gradually that they scarcely noted their loss. they guided the sightless youngsters hither and thither until they knew the whole valley marvellously, and when at last sight died out among them the race lived on. they had even time to adapt themselves to the blind control of fire, which they made carefully in stoves of stone. they were a simple strain of people at the first, unlettered, only slightly touched with the spanish civilisation, but with something of a tradition of the arts of old peru and of its lost philosophy. generation followed generation. they forgot many things; they devised many things. their tradition of the greater world they came from became mythical in colour and uncertain. in all things save sight they were strong and able, and presently the chance of birth and heredity sent one who had an original mind and who could talk and persuade among them, and then afterwards another. these two passed, leaving their effects, and the little community grew in numbers and in understanding, and met and settled social and economic problems that arose. generation followed generation. generation followed generation. there came a time when a child was born who was fifteen generations from that ancestor who went out of the valley with a bar of silver to seek god's aid, and who never returned. thereabouts it chanced that a man came into this community from the outer world. and this is the story of that man. he was a mountaineer from the country near quito, a man who had been down to the sea and had seen the world, a reader of books in an original way, an acute and enterprising man, and he was taken on by a party of englishmen who had come out to ecuador to climb mountains, to replace one of their three swiss guides who had fallen ill. he climbed here and he climbed there, and then came the attempt on parascotopetl, the matterhorn of the andes, in which he was lost to the outer world. the story of the accident has been written a dozen times. pointer's narrative is the best. he tells how the little party worked their difficult and almost vertical way up to the very foot of the last and greatest precipice, and how they built a night shelter amidst the snow upon a little shelf of rock, and, with a touch of real dramatic power, how presently they found nunez had gone from them. they shouted, and there was no reply; shouted and whistled, and for the rest of that night they slept no more. as the morning broke they saw the traces of his fall. it seems impossible he could have uttered a sound. he had slipped eastward towards the unknown side of the mountain; far below he had struck a steep slope of snow, and ploughed his way down it in the midst of a snow avalanche. his track went straight to the edge of a frightful precipice, and beyond that everything was hidden. far, far below, and hazy with distance, they could see trees rising out of a narrow, shut-in valley--the lost country of the blind. but they did not know it was the lost country of the blind, nor distinguish it in any way from any other narrow streak of upland valley. unnerved by this disaster, they abandoned their attempt in the afternoon, and pointer was called away to the war before he could make another attack. to this day parascotopetl lifts an unconquered crest, and pointer's shelter crumbles unvisited amidst the snows. and the man who fell survived. at the end of the slope he fell a thousand feet, and came down in the midst of a cloud of snow upon a snow slope even steeper than the one above. down this he was whirled, stunned and insensible, but without a bone broken in his body; and then at last came to gentler slopes, and at last rolled out and lay still, buried amidst a softening heap of the white masses that had accompanied and saved him. he came to himself with a dim fancy that he was ill in bed; then realised his position with a mountaineer's intelligence, and worked himself loose and, after a rest or so, out until he saw the stars. he rested flat upon his chest for a space, wondering where he was and what had happened to him. he explored his limbs, and discovered that several of his buttons were gone and his coat turned over his head. his knife had gone from his pocket and his hat was lost, though he had tied it under his chin. he recalled that he had been looking for loose stones to raise his piece of the shelter wall. his ice-axe had disappeared. he decided he must have fallen, and looked up to see, exaggerated by the ghastly light of the rising moon, the tremendous flight he had taken. for a while he lay, gazing blankly at that vast pale cliff towering above, rising moment by moment out of a subsiding tide of darkness. its phantasmal, mysterious beauty held him for a space, and then he was seized with a paroxysm of sobbing laughter... after a great interval of time he became aware that he was near the lower edge of the snow. below, down what was now a moonlit and practicable slope, he saw the dark and broken appearance of rock-strewn turf. he struggled to his feet, aching in every joint and limb, got down painfully from the heaped loose snow about him, went downward until he was on the turf, and there dropped rather than lay beside a boulder, drank deep from the flask in his inner pocket, and instantly fell asleep... he was awakened by the singing of birds in the trees far below. he sat up and perceived he was on a little alp at the foot of a vast precipice, that was grooved by the gully down which he and his snow had come. over against him another wall of rock reared itself against the sky. the gorge between these precipices ran east and west and was full of the morning sunlight, which lit to the westward the mass of fallen mountain that closed the descending gorge. below him it seemed there was a precipice equally steep, but behind the snow in the gully he found a sort of chimney-cleft dripping with snow-water down which a desperate man might venture. he found it easier than it seemed, and came at last to another desolate alp, and then after a rock climb of no particular difficulty to a steep slope of trees. he took his bearings and turned his face up the gorge, for he saw it opened out above upon green meadows, among which he now glimpsed quite distinctly a cluster of stone huts of unfamiliar fashion. at times his progress was like clambering along the face of a wall, and after a time the rising sun ceased to strike along the gorge, the voices of the singing birds died away, and the air grew cold and dark about him. but the distant valley with its houses was all the brighter for that. he came presently to talus, and among the rocks he noted--for he was an observant man--an unfamiliar fern that seemed to clutch out of the crevices with intense green hands. he picked a frond or so and gnawed its stalk and found it helpful. about midday he came at last out of the throat of the gorge into the plain and the sunlight. he was stiff and weary; he sat down in the shadow of a rock, filled up his flask with water from a spring and drank it down, and remained for a time resting before he went on to the houses. they were very strange to his eyes, and indeed the whole aspect of that valley became, as he regarded it, queerer and more unfamiliar. the greater part of its surface was lush green meadow, starred with many beautiful flowers, irrigated with extraordinary care, and bearing evidence of systematic cropping piece by piece. high up and ringing the valley about was a wall, and what appeared to be a circumferential water-channel, from which the little trickles of water that fed the meadow plants came, and on the higher slopes above this flocks of llamas cropped the scanty herbage. sheds, apparently shelters or feeding-places for the llamas, stood against the boundary wall here and there. the irrigation streams ran together into a main channel down the centre of the valley, and this was enclosed on either side by a wall breast high. this gave a singularly urban quality to this secluded place, a quality that was greatly enhanced by the fact that a number of paths paved with black and white stones, and each with a curious little kerb at the side, ran hither and thither in an orderly manner. the houses of the central village were quite unlike the casual and higgledy-piggledy agglomeration of the mountain villages he knew; they stood in a continuous row on either side of a central street of astonishing cleanness; here and there their particoloured facade was pierced by a door, and not a solitary window broke their even frontage. they were particoloured with extraordinary irregularity, smeared with a sort of plaster that was sometimes grey, sometimes drab, sometimes slate-coloured or dark brown; and it was the sight of this wild plastering first brought the word "blind" into the thoughts of the explorer. "the good man who did that," he thought, "must have been as blind as a bat." he descended a steep place, and so came to the wall and channel that ran about the valley, near where the latter spouted out its surplus contents into the deeps of the gorge in a thin and wavering thread of cascade. he could now see a number of men and women resting on piled heaps of grass, as if taking a siesta, in the remoter part of the meadow, and nearer the village a number of recumbent children, and then nearer at hand three men carrying pails on yokes along a little path that ran from the encircling wall towards the houses. these latter were clad in garments of llama cloth and boots and belts of leather, and they wore caps of cloth with back and ear flaps. they followed one another in single file, walking slowly and yawning as they walked, like men who have been up all night. there was something so reassuringly prosperous and respectable in their bearing that after a moment's hesitation nunez stood forward as conspicuously as possible upon his rock, and gave vent to a mighty shout that echoed round the valley. the three men stopped, and moved their heads as though they were looking about them. they turned their faces this way and that, and nunez gesticulated with freedom. but they did not appear to see him for all his gestures, and after a time, directing themselves towards the mountains far away to the right, they shouted as if in answer. nunez bawled again, and then once more, and as he gestured ineffectually the word "blind" came up to the top of his thoughts. "the fools must be blind," he said. when at last, after much shouting and wrath, nunez crossed the stream by a little bridge, came through a gate in the wall, and approached them, he was sure that they were blind. he was sure that this was the country of the blind of which the legends told. conviction had sprung upon him, and a sense of great and rather enviable adventure. the three stood side by side, not looking at him, but with their ears directed towards him, judging him by his unfamiliar steps. they stood close together like men a little afraid, and he could see their eyelids closed and sunken, as though the very balls beneath had shrunk away. there was an expression near awe on their faces. "a man," one said, in hardly recognisable spanish--"a man it is--a man or a spirit--coming down from the rocks." but nunez advanced with the confident steps of a youth who enters upon life. all the old stories of the lost valley and the country of the blind had come back to his mind, and through his thoughts ran this old proverb, as if it were a refrain-- "in the country of the blind the one-eyed man is king." "in the country of the blind the one-eyed man is king." and very civilly he gave them greeting. he talked to them and used his eyes. "where does he come from, brother pedro?" asked one. "down out of the rocks." "over the mountains i come," said nunez, "out of the country beyond there--where men can see. from near bogota, where there are a hundred thousands of people, and where the city passes out of sight." "sight?" muttered pedro. "sight?" "he comes," said the second blind man, "out of the rocks." the cloth of their coats nunez saw was curiously fashioned, each with a different sort of stitching. they startled him by a simultaneous movement towards him, each with a hand outstretched. he stepped back from the advance of these spread fingers. "come hither," said the third blind man, following his motion and clutching him neatly. and they held nunez and felt him over, saying no word further until they had done so. "carefully," he cried, with a finger in his eye, and found they thought that organ, with its fluttering lids, a queer thing in him. they went over it again. "a strange creature, correa," said the one called pedro. "feel the coarseness of his hair. like a llama's hair." "rough he is as the rocks that begot him," said correa, investigating nunez's unshaven chin with a soft and slightly moist hand. "perhaps he will grow finer." nunez struggled a little under their examination, but they gripped him firm. "carefully," he said again. "he speaks," said the third man. "certainly he is a man." "ugh!" said pedro, at the roughness of his coat. "and you have come into the world?" asked pedro. "_out_ of the world. over mountains and glaciers; right over above there, half-way to the sun. out of the great big world that goes down, twelve days' journey to the sea." they scarcely seemed to heed him. "our fathers have told us men may be made by the forces of nature," said correa. "it is the warmth of things and moisture, and rottenness--rottenness." "let us lead him to the elders," said pedro. "shout first," said correa, "lest the children be afraid... this is a marvellous occasion." so they shouted, and pedro went first and took nunez by the hand to lead him to the houses. he drew his hand away. "i can see," he said. "see?" said correa. "yes, see," said nunez, turning towards him, and stumbled against pedro's pail. "his senses are still imperfect," said the third blind man. "he stumbles, and talks unmeaning words. lead him by the hand." "as you will," said nunez, and was led along, laughing. it seemed they knew nothing of sight. well, all in good time he would teach them. he heard people shouting, and saw a number of figures gathering together in the middle roadway of the village. he found it tax his nerve and patience more than he had anticipated, that first encounter with the population of the country of the blind. the place seemed larger as he drew near to it, and the smeared plasterings queerer, and a crowd of children and men and women (the women and girls, he was pleased to note, had some of them quite sweet faces, for all that their eyes were shut and sunken) came about him, holding on to him, touching him with soft, sensitive hands, smelling at him, and listening at every word he spoke. some of the maidens and children, however, kept aloof as if afraid, and indeed his voice seemed coarse and rude beside their softer notes. they mobbed him. his three guides kept close to him with an effect of proprietorship, and said again and again, "a wild man out of the rock." "bogota," he said. "bogota. over the mountain crests." "a wild man--using wild words," said pedro. "did you hear that-- _bogota_? his mind is hardly formed yet. he has only the beginnings of speech." a little boy nipped his hand. "bogota!" he said mockingly. "ay! a city to your village. i come from the great world--where men have eyes and see." "his name's bogota," they said. "he stumbled," said correa, "stumbled twice as we came hither." "bring him to the elders." and they thrust him suddenly through a doorway into a room as black as pitch, save at the end there faintly glowed a fire. the crowd closed in behind him and shut out all but the faintest glimmer of day, and before he could arrest himself he had fallen headlong over the feet of a seated man. his arm, outflung, struck the face of someone else as he went down; he felt the soft impact of features and heard a cry of anger, and for a moment he struggled against a number of hands that clutched him. it was a one-sided fight. an inkling of the situation came to him, and he lay quiet. "i fell down," he said; "i couldn't see in this pitchy darkness." there was a pause as if the unseen persons about him tried to understand his words. then the voice of correa said: "he is but newly formed. he stumbles as he walks and mingles words that mean nothing with his speech." others also said things about him that he heard or understood imperfectly. "may i sit up?" he asked, in a pause. "i will not struggle against you again." they consulted and let him rise. the voice of an older man began to question him, and nunez found himself trying to explain the great world out of which he had fallen, and the sky and mountains and sight and such-like marvels, to these elders who sat in darkness in the country of the blind. and they would believe and understand nothing whatever he told them, a thing quite outside his expectation. they would not even understand many of his words. for fourteen generations these people had been blind and cut off from all the seeing world; the names for all the things of sight had faded and changed; the story of the outer world was faded and changed to a child's story; and they had ceased to concern themselves with anything beyond the rocky slopes above their circling wall. blind men of genius had arisen among them and questioned the shreds of belief and tradition they had brought with them from their seeing days, and had dismissed all these things as idle fancies, and replaced them with new and saner explanations. much of their imagination had shrivelled with their eyes, and they had made for themselves new imaginations with their ever more sensitive ears and finger-tips. slowly nunez realised this; that his expectation of wonder and reverence at his origin and his gifts was not to be borne out; and after his poor attempt to explain sight to them had been set aside as the confused version of a new-made being describing the marvels of his incoherent sensations, he subsided, a little dashed, into listening to their instruction. and the eldest of the blind men explained to him life and philosophy and religion, how that the world (meaning their valley) had been first an empty hollow in the rocks, and then had come, first, inanimate things without the gift of touch, and llamas and a few other creatures that had little sense, and then men, and at last angels, whom one could hear singing and making fluttering sounds, but whom no one could touch at all, which puzzled nunez greatly until he thought of the birds. he went on to tell nunez how this time had been divided into the warm and the cold, which are the blind equivalents of day and night, and how it was good to sleep in the warm and work during the cold, so that now, but for his advent, the whole town of the blind would have been asleep. he said nunez must have been specially created to learn and serve the wisdom, they had acquired, and that for all his mental incoherency and stumbling behaviour he must have courage, and do his best to learn, and at that all the people in the doorway murmured encouragingly. he said the night--for the blind call their day night--was now far gone, and it behoved every one to go back to sleep. he asked nunez if he knew how to sleep, and nunez said he did, but that before sleep he wanted food. they brought him food--llama's milk in a bowl, and rough salted bread--and led him into a lonely place, to eat out of their hearing, and afterwards to slumber until the chill of the mountain evening roused them to begin their day again. but nunez slumbered not at all. instead, he sat up in the place where they had left him, resting his limbs and turning the unanticipated circumstances of his arrival over and over in his mind. every now and then he laughed, sometimes with amusement, and sometimes with indignation. "unformed mind!" he said. "got no senses yet! they little know they've been insulting their heaven-sent king and master. i see i must bring them to reason. let me think--let me think." he was still thinking when the sun set. nunez had an eye for all beautiful things, and it seemed to him that the glow upon the snowfields and glaciers that rose about the valley on every side was the most beautiful thing he had ever seen. his eyes went from that inaccessible glory to the village and irrigated fields, fast sinking into the twilight, and suddenly a wave of emotion took him, and he thanked god from the bottom of his heart that the power of sight had been given him. he heard a voice calling to him from out of the village. "ya ho there, bogota! come hither!" at that he stood up smiling. he would show these people once and for all what sight would do for a man. they would seek him, but not find him. "you move not, bogota," said the voice. he laughed noiselessly, and made two stealthy steps aside from the path. "trample not on the grass, bogota; that is not allowed." nunez had scarcely heard the sound he made himself. he stopped amazed. the owner of the voice came running up the piebald path towards him. he stepped back into the pathway. "here i am," he said. "why did you not come when i called you?" said the blind man. "must you be led like a child? cannot you hear the path as you walk?" nunez laughed. "i can see it," he said. "there is no such word as _see_," said the blind man, after a pause. "cease this folly, and follow the sound of my feet." nunez followed, a little annoyed. "my time will come," he said. "you'll learn," the blind man answered. "there is much to learn in the world." "has no one told you, 'in the country of the blind the one-eyed man is king'?" "what is blind?" asked the blind man carelessly over his shoulder. four days passed, and the fifth found the king of the blind still incognito, as a clumsy and useless stranger among his subjects. it was, he found, much more difficult to proclaim himself than he had supposed, and in the meantime, while he meditated his _coup d'état,_ he did what he was told and learnt the manners and customs of the country of the blind. he found working and going about at night a particularly irksome thing, and he decided that that should be the first thing he would change. they led a simple, laborious life, these people, with all the elements of virtue and happiness, as these things can be understood by men. they toiled, but not oppressively; they had food and clothing sufficient for their needs; they had days and seasons of rest; they made much of music and singing, and there was love among them, and little children. it was marvellous with what confidence and precision they went about their ordered world. everything, you see, had been made to fit their needs; each of the radiating paths of the valley area had a constant angle to the others, and was distinguished by a special notch upon its kerbing; all obstacles and irregularities of path or meadow had long since been cleared away; all their methods and procedure arose naturally from their special needs. their senses had become marvellously acute; they could hear and judge the slightest gesture of a man a dozen paces away--could hear the very beating of his heart. intonation had long replaced expression with them, and touches gesture, and their work with hoe and spade and fork was as free and confident as garden work can be. their sense of smell was extraordinarily fine; they could distinguish individual differences as readily as a dog can, and they went about the tending of the llamas, who lived among the rocks above and came to the wall for food and shelter, with ease and confidence. it was only when at last nunez sought to assert himself that he found how easy and confident their movements could be. he rebelled only after he had tried persuasion. he tried at first on several occasions to tell them of sight. "look you here, you people," he said. "there are things you do not understand in me." once or twice one or two of them attended to him; they sat with faces downcast and ears turned intelligently towards him, and he did his best to tell them what it was to see. among his hearers was a girl, with eyelids less red and sunken than the others, so that one could almost fancy she was hiding eyes, whom especially he hoped to persuade. he spoke of the beauties of sight, of watching the mountains, of the sky and the sunrise, and they heard him with amused incredulity that presently became condemnatory. they told him there were indeed no mountains at all, but that the end of the rocks where the llamas grazed was indeed the end of the world; thence sprang a cavernous roof of the universe, from which the dew and the avalanches fell; and when he maintained stoutly the world had neither end nor roof such as they supposed, they said his thoughts were wicked. so far as he could describe sky and clouds and stars to them it seemed to them a hideous void, a terrible blankness in the place of the smooth roof to things in which they believed--it was an article of faith with them that the cavern roof was exquisitely smooth to the touch. he saw that in some manner he shocked them, and gave up that aspect of the matter altogether, and tried to show them the practical value of sight. one morning he saw pedro in the path called seventeen and coming towards the central houses, but still too far off for hearing or scent, and he told them as much. "in a little while," he prophesied, "pedro will be here." an old man remarked that pedro had no business on path seventeen, and then, as if in confirmation, that individual as he drew near turned and went transversely into path ten, and so back with nimble paces towards the outer wall. they mocked nunez when pedro did not arrive, and afterwards, when he asked pedro questions to clear his character, pedro denied and outfaced him, and was afterwards hostile to him. then he induced them to let him go a long way up the sloping meadows towards the wall with one complacent individual, and to him he promised to describe all that happened among the houses. he noted certain goings and comings, but the things that really seemed to signify to these people happened inside of or behind the windowless houses--the only things they took note of to test him by--and of these he could see or tell nothing; and it was after the failure of this attempt, and the ridicule they could not repress, that he resorted to force. he thought of seizing a spade and suddenly smiting one or two of them to earth, and so in fair combat showing the advantage of eyes. he went so far with that resolution as to seize his spade, and then he discovered a new thing about himself, and that was that it was impossible for him to hit a blind man in cold blood. he hesitated, and found them all aware that he had snatched up the spade. they stood alert, with their heads on one side, and bent ears towards him for what he would do next. "put that spade down," said one, and he felt a sort of helpless horror. he came near obedience. then he thrust one backwards against a house wall, and fled past him and out of the village. he went athwart one of their meadows, leaving a track of trampled grass behind his feet, and presently sat down by the side of one of their ways. he felt something of the buoyancy that comes to all men in the beginning of a fight, but more perplexity. he began to realise that you cannot even fight happily with creatures who stand upon a different mental basis to yourself. far away he saw a number of men carrying spades and sticks come out of the street of houses, and advance in a spreading line along the several paths towards him. they advanced slowly, speaking frequently to one another, and ever and again the whole cordon would halt and sniff the air and listen. the first time they did this nunez laughed. but afterwards he did not laugh. one struck his trail in the meadow grass, and came stooping and feeling his way along it. for five minutes he watched the slow extension of the cordon, and then his vague disposition to do something forthwith became frantic. he stood up, went a pace or so towards the circumferential wall, turned, and went back a little way. there they all stood in a crescent, still and listening. he also stood still, gripping his spade very tightly in both hands. should he charge them? the pulse in his ears ran into the rhythm of "in the country of the blind the one-eyed man is king!" should he charge them? he looked back at the high and unclimbable wall behind--unclimbable because of its smooth plastering, but withal pierced with many little doors, and at the approaching line of seekers. behind these others were now coming out of the street of houses. should he charge them? "bogota!" called one. "bogota! where are you?" he gripped his spade still tighter, and advanced down the meadows towards the place of habitations, and directly he moved they converged upon him. "i'll hit them if they touch me," he swore; "by heaven, i will. i'll hit." he called aloud, "look here, i'm going to do what i like in this valley. do you hear? i'm going to do what i like and go where i like!" they were moving in upon him quickly, groping, yet moving rapidly. it was like playing blind man's buff, with everyone blindfolded except one. "get hold of him!" cried one. he found himself in the arc of a loose curve of pursuers. he felt suddenly he must be active and resolute. "you don't understand," he cried in a voice that was meant to be great and resolute, and which broke. "you are blind, and i can see. leave me alone!" "bogota! put down that spade, and come off the grass!" the last order, grotesque in its urban familiarity, produced a gust of anger. "i'll hurt you," he said, sobbing with emotion. "by heaven, i'll hurt you. leave me alone!" he began to run, not knowing clearly where to run. he ran from the nearest blind man, because it was a horror to hit him. he stopped, and then made a dash to escape from their closing ranks. he made for where a gap was wide, and the men on either side, with a quick perception of the approach of his paces, rushed in on one another. he sprang forward, and then saw he must be caught, and _swish_! the spade had struck. he felt the soft thud of hand and arm, and the man was down with a yell of pain, and he was through. through! and then he was close to the street of houses again, and blind men, whirling spades and stakes, were running with a sort of reasoned swiftness hither and thither. he heard steps behind him just in time, and found a tall man rushing forward and swiping at the sound of him. he lost his nerve, hurled his spade a yard wide at his antagonist, and whirled about and fled, fairly yelling as he dodged another. he was panic-stricken. he ran furiously to and fro, dodging when there was no need to dodge, and in his anxiety to see on every side of him at once, stumbling. for a moment he was down and they heard his fall. far away in the circumferential wall a little doorway looked like heaven, and he set off in a wild rush for it. he did not even look round at his pursuers until it was gained, and he had stumbled across the bridge, clambered a little way among the rocks, to the surprise and dismay of a young llama, who went leaping out of sight, and lay down sobbing for breath. and so his _coup d'état_ came to an end. he stayed outside the wall of the valley of the blind for two nights and days without food or shelter, and meditated upon the unexpected. during these meditations he repeated very frequently and always with a profounder note of derision the exploded proverb: "in the country of the blind the one-eyed man is king." he thought chiefly of ways of fighting and conquering these people, and it grew clear that for him no practicable way was possible. he had no weapons, and now it would be hard to get one. the canker of civilisation had got to him even in bogota, and he could not find it in himself to go down and assassinate a blind man. of course, if he did that, he might then dictate terms on the threat of assassinating them all. but--sooner or later he must sleep!... he tried also to find food among the pine trees, to be comfortable under pine boughs while the frost fell at night, and--with less confidence--to catch a llama by artifice in order to try to kill it--perhaps by hammering it with a stone--and so finally, perhaps, to eat some of it. but the llamas had a doubt of him and regarded him with distrustful brown eyes, and spat when he drew near. fear came on him the second day and fits of shivering. finally he crawled down to the wall of the country of the blind and tried to make terms. he crawled along by the stream, shouting, until two blind men came out to the gate and talked to him. "i was mad," he said. "but i was only newly made." they said that was better. he told them he was wiser now, and repented of all he had done. then he wept without intention, for he was very weak and ill now, and they took that as a favourable sign. they asked him if he still thought he could "_see_" "no," he said. "that was folly. the word means nothing--less than nothing!" they asked him what was overhead. "about ten times ten the height of a man there is a roof above the world-- of rock--and very, very smooth." ... he burst again into hysterical tears. "before you ask me any more, give me some food or i shall die." he expected dire punishments, but these blind people were capable of toleration. they regarded his rebellion as but one more proof of his general idiocy and inferiority; and after they had whipped him they appointed him to do the simplest and heaviest work they had for anyone to do, and he, seeing no other way of living, did submissively what he was told. he was ill for some days, and they nursed him kindly. that refined his submission. but they insisted on his lying in the dark, and that was a great misery. and blind philosophers came and talked to him of the wicked levity of his mind, and reproved him so impressively for his doubts about the lid of rock that covered their cosmic casserole that he almost doubted whether indeed he was not the victim of hallucination in not seeing it overhead. so nunez became a citizen of the country of the blind, and these people ceased to be a generalised people and became individualities and familiar to him, while the world beyond the mountains became more and more remote and unreal. there was yacob, his master, a kindly man when not annoyed; there was pedro, yacob's nephew; and there was medina-saroté, who was the youngest daughter of yacob. she was little esteemed in the world of the blind, because she had a clear-cut face, and lacked that satisfying, glossy smoothness that is the blind man's ideal of feminine beauty; but nunez thought her beautiful at first, and presently the most beautiful thing in the whole creation. her closed eyelids were not sunken and red after the common way of the valley, but lay as though they might open again at any moment; and she had long eyelashes, which were considered a grave disfigurement. and her voice was strong, and did not satisfy the acute hearing of the valley swains. so that she had no lover. there came a time when nunez thought that, could he win her, he would be resigned to live in the valley for all the rest of his days. he watched her; he sought opportunities of doing her little services, and presently he found that she observed him. once at a rest-day gathering they sat side by side in the dim starlight, and the music was sweet. his hand came upon hers and he dared to clasp it. then very tenderly she returned his pressure. and one day, as they were at their meal in the darkness, he felt her hand very softly seeking him, and as it chanced the fire leapt then and he saw the tenderness of her face. he sought to speak to her. he went to her one day when she was sitting in the summer moonlight spinning. the light made her a thing of silver and mystery. he sat down at her feet and told her he loved her, and told her how beautiful she seemed to him. he had a lover's voice, he spoke with a tender reverence that came near to awe, and she had never before been touched by adoration. she made him no definite answer, but it was clear his words pleased her. after that he talked to her whenever he could take an opportunity. the valley became the world for him, and the world beyond the mountains where men lived in sunlight seemed no more than a fairy tale he would some day pour into her ears. very tentatively and timidly he spoke to her of sight. sight seemed to her the most poetical of fancies, and she listened to his description of the stars and the mountains and her own sweet white-lit beauty as though it was a guilty indulgence. she did not believe, she could only half understand, but she was mysteriously delighted, and it seemed to him that she completely understood. his love lost its awe and took courage. presently he was for demanding her of yacob and the elders in marriage, but she became fearful and delayed. and it was one of her elder sisters who first told yacob that medina-saroté and nunez were in love. there was from the first very great opposition to the marriage of nunez and medina-saroté; not so much because they valued her as because they held him as a being apart, an idiot, incompetent thing below the permissible level of a man. her sisters opposed it bitterly as bringing discredit on them all; and old yacob, though he had formed a sort of liking for his clumsy, obedient serf, shook his head and said the thing could not be. the young men were all angry at the idea of corrupting the race, and one went so far as to revile and strike nunez. he struck back. then for the first time he found an advantage in seeing, even by twilight, and after that fight was over no one was disposed to raise a hand against him. but they still found his marriage impossible. old yacob had a tenderness for his last little daughter, and was grieved to have her weep upon his shoulder. "you see, my dear, he's an idiot. he has delusions; he can't do anything right." "i know," wept medina-saroté. "but he's better than he was. he's getting better. and he's strong, dear father, and kind--stronger and kinder than any i other man in the world. and he loves me--and, father, i love him." old yacob was greatly distressed to find her inconsolable, and, besides-- what made it more distressing--he liked nunez for many things. so he went and sat in the windowless council-chamber with the other elders and watched the trend of the talk, and said, at the proper time, "he's better than he was. very likely, some day, we shall find him as sane as ourselves." then afterwards one of the elders, who thought deeply, had an idea. he was the great doctor among these people, their medicine-man, and he had a very philosophical and inventive mind, and the idea of curing nunez of his peculiarities appealed to him. one day when yacob was present he returned to the topic of nunez. "i have examined bogota," he said, "and the case is clearer to me. i think very probably he might be cured." "that is what i have always hoped," said old yacob. "his brain is affected," said the blind doctor. the elders murmured assent. "now, _what_ affects it?" "ah!" said old yacob. "_this_," said the doctor, answering his own question. "those queer things that are called the eyes, and which exist to make an agreeable soft depression in the face, are diseased, in the case of bogota, in such a way as to affect his brain. they are greatly distended, he has eyelashes, and his eyelids move, and consequently his brain is in a state of constant irritation and distraction." "yes?" said old yacob. "yes?" "and i think i may say with reasonable certainty that, in order to cure him completely, all that we need do is a simple and easy surgical operation--namely, to remove these irritant bodies." "and then he will be sane?" "then he will be perfectly sane, and a quite admirable citizen." "thank heaven for science!" said old yacob, and went forth at once to tell nunez of his happy hopes. but nunez's manner of receiving the good news struck him as being cold and disappointing. "one might think," he said, "from the tone you take, that you did not care for my daughter." it was medina-saroté who persuaded nunez to face the blind surgeons. "_you_ do not want me," he said, "to lose my gift of sight?" she shook her head. "my world is sight." her head drooped lower. "there are the beautiful things, the beautiful little things--the flowers, the lichens among the rocks, the lightness and softness on a piece of fur, the far sky with its drifting down of clouds, the sunsets and the stars. and there is _you_. for you alone it is good to have sight, to see your sweet, serene face, your kindly lips, your dear, beautiful hands folded together... it is these eyes of mine you won, these eyes that hold me to you, that these idiots seek. instead, i must touch you, hear you, and never see you again. i must come under that roof of rock and stone and darkness, that horrible roof under which your imagination stoops... no; you would not have me do that?" a disagreeable doubt had arisen in him. he stopped, and left the thing a question. "i wish," she said, "sometimes----" she paused. "yes," said he, a little apprehensively. "i wish sometimes--you would not talk like that." "like what?" "i know it's pretty--it's your imagination. i love it, but _now_----" he felt cold. "_now_?" he said faintly. she sat quite still. "you mean--you think--i should be better, better perhaps-----" he was realising things very swiftly. he felt anger, indeed, anger at the dull course of fate, but also sympathy for her lack of understanding--a sympathy near akin to pity. "_dear_," he said, and he could see by her whiteness how intensely her spirit pressed against the things she could not say. he put his arms about her, he kissed her ear, and they sat for a time in silence. "if i were to consent to this?" he said at last, in a voice that was very gentle. she flung her arms about him, weeping wildly. "oh, if you would," she sobbed, "if only you would!" * * * * * for a week before the operation that was to raise him from his servitude and inferiority to the level of a blind citizen, nunez knew nothing of sleep, and all through the warm sunlit hours, while the others slumbered happily, he sat brooding or wandered aimlessly, trying to bring his mind to bear on his dilemma. he had given his answer, he had given his consent, and still he was not sure. and at last work-time was over, the sun rose in splendour over the golden crests, and his last day of vision began for him. he had a few minutes with medina-saroté before she went apart to sleep. "to-morrow," he said, "i shall see no more." "dear heart!" she answered, and pressed his hands with all her strength. "they will hurt you but little," she said; "and you are going through this pain--you are going through it, dear lover, for _me_... dear, if a woman's heart and life can do it, i will repay you. my dearest one, my dearest with the tender voice, i will repay." he was drenched in pity for himself and her. he held her in his arms, and pressed his lips to hers, and looked on her sweet face for the last time. "good-bye!" he whispered at that dear sight, "good-bye!" and then in silence he turned away from her. she could hear his slow retreating footsteps, and something in the rhythm of them threw her into a passion of weeping. he had fully meant to go to a lonely place where the meadows were beautiful with white narcissus, and there remain until the hour of his sacrifice should come, but as he went he lifted up his eyes and saw the morning, the morning like an angel in golden armour, marching down the steeps... it seemed to him that before this splendour he, and this blind world in the valley, and his love, and all, were no more than a pit of sin. he did not turn aside as he had meant to do, but went on, and passed through the wall of the circumference and out upon the rocks, and his eyes were always upon the sunlit ice and snow. he saw their infinite beauty, and his imagination soared over them to the things beyond he was now to resign for ever. he thought of that great free world he was parted from, the world that was his own, and he had a vision of those further slopes, distance beyond distance, with bogota, a place of multitudinous stirring beauty, a glory by day, a luminous mystery by night, a place of palaces and fountains and statues and white houses, lying beautifully in the middle distance. he thought how for a day or so one might come down through passes, drawing ever nearer and nearer to its busy streets and ways. he thought of the river journey, day by day, from great bogota to the still vaster world beyond, through towns and villages, forest and desert places, the rushing river day by day, until its banks receded and the big steamers came splashing by, and one had reached the sea--the limitless sea, with its thousand islands, its thousands of islands, and its ships seen dimly far away in their incessant journeyings round and about that greater world. and there, unpent by mountains, one saw the sky--the sky, not such a disc as one saw it here, but an arch of immeasurable blue, a deep of deeps in which the circling stars were floating... his eyes scrutinised the great curtain of the mountains with a keener inquiry. for example, if one went so, up that gully and to that chimney there, then one might come out high among those stunted pines that ran round in a sort of shelf and rose still higher and higher as it passed above the gorge. and then? that talus might be managed. thence perhaps a climb might be found to take him up to the precipice that came below the snow; and if that chimney failed, then another farther to the east might serve his purpose better. and then? then one would be out upon the amber-lit snow there, and half-way up to the crest of those beautiful desolations. he glanced back at the village, then turned right round and regarded it steadfastly. he thought of medina-saroté, and she had become small and remote. he turned again towards the mountain wall, down which the day had come to him. then very circumspectly he began to climb. when sunset came he was no longer climbing, but he was far and high. he had been higher, but he was still very high. his clothes were torn, his limbs were blood-stained, he was bruised in many places, but he lay as if he were at his ease, and there was a smile on his face. from where he rested the valley seemed as if it were in a pit and nearly a mile below. already it was dim with haze and shadow, though the mountain summits around him were things of light and fire. the mountain summits around him were things of light and fire, and the little details of the rocks near at hand were drenched with subtle beauty--a vein of green mineral piercing the grey, the flash of crystal faces here and there, a minute, minutely-beautiful orange lichen close beside his face. there were deep mysterious shadows in the gorge, blue deepening into purple, and purple into a luminous darkness, and overhead was the illimitable vastness of the sky. but he heeded these things no longer, but lay quite inactive there, smiling as if he were satisfied merely to have escaped from the valley of the blind in which he had thought to be king. the glow of the sunset passed, and the night came, and still he lay peacefully contented under the cold clear stars. xxxiii. the beautiful suit. there was once a little man whose mother made him a beautiful suit of clothes. it was green and gold, and woven so that i cannot describe how delicate and fine it was, and there was a tie of orange fluffiness that tied up under his chin. and the buttons in their newness shone like stars. he was proud and pleased by his suit beyond measure, and stood before the long looking-glass when first he put it on, so astonished and delighted with it that he could hardly turn himself away. he wanted to wear it everywhere, and show it to all sorts of people. he thought over all the places he had ever visited, and all the scenes he had ever heard described, and tried to imagine what the feel of it would be if he were to go now to those scenes and places wearing his shining suit, and he wanted to go out forthwith into the long grass and the hot sunshine of the meadow wearing it. just to wear it! but his mother told him "no." she told him he must take great care of his suit, for never would he have another nearly so fine; he must save it and save it, and only wear it on rare and great occasions. it was his wedding-suit, she said. and she took the buttons and twisted them up with tissue paper for fear their bright newness should be tarnished, and she tacked little guards over the cuffs and elbows, and wherever the suit was most likely to come to harm. he hated and resisted these things, but what could he do? and at last her warnings and persuasions had effect, and he consented to take off his beautiful suit and fold it into its proper creases, and put it away. it was almost as though he gave it up again. but he was always thinking of wearing it, and of the supreme occasions when some day it might be worn without the guards, without the tissue paper on the buttons, utterly and delightfully, never caring, beautiful beyond measure. one night, when he was dreaming of it after his habit, he dreamt he took the tissue paper from one of the buttons, and found its brightness a little faded, and that distressed him mightily in his dream. he polished the poor faded button and polished it, and, if anything, it grew duller. he woke up and lay awake, thinking of the brightness a little dulled, and wondering how he would feel if perhaps when the great occasion (whatever it might be) should arrive, one button should chance to be ever so little short of its first glittering freshness, and for days and days that thought remained with him distressingly. and when next his mother let him wear his suit, he was tempted and nearly gave way to the temptation just to fumble off one little bit of tissue paper and see if indeed the buttons were keeping as bright as ever. he went trimly along on his way to church, full of this wild desire. for you must know his mother did, with repeated and careful warnings, let him wear his suit at times, on sundays, for example, to and fro from church, when there was no threatening of rain, no dust blowing, nor anything to injure it, with its buttons covered and its protections tacked upon it, and a sun-shade in his hand to shadow it if there seemed too strong a sunlight for its colours. and always, after such occasions, he brushed it over and folded it exquisitely as she had taught him, and put it away again. now all these restrictions his mother set to the wearing of his suit he obeyed, always he obeyed them, until one strange night he woke up and saw the moonlight shining outside his window. it seemed to him the moonlight was not common moonlight, nor the night a common night, and for awhile he lay quite drowsily, with this odd persuasion in his mind. thought joined on to thought like things that whisper warmly in the shadows. then he sat up in his little bed suddenly very alert, with his heart beating very fast, and a quiver in his body from top to toe. he had made up his mind. he knew that now he was going to wear his suit as it should be worn. he had no doubt in the matter. he was afraid, terribly afraid, but glad, glad. he got out of his bed and stood for a moment by the window looking at the moonshine-flooded garden, and trembling at the thing he meant to do. the air was full of a minute clamour of crickets and murmurings, of the infinitesimal shoutings of little living things. he went very gently across the creaking boards, for fear that he might wake the sleeping house, to the big dark clothes-press wherein his beautiful suit lay folded, and he took it out garment by garment, and softly and very eagerly tore off its tissue-paper covering and its tacked protections until there it was, perfect and delightful as he had seen it when first his mother had given it to him--a long time it seemed ago. not a button had tarnished, not a thread had faded on this dear suit of his; he was glad enough for weeping as in a noiseless hurry he put it on. and then back he went, soft and quick, to the window that looked out upon the garden, and stood there for a minute, shining in the moonlight, with his buttons twinkling like stars, before he got out on the sill, and, making as little of a rustling as he could, clambered down to the garden path below. he stood before his mother's house, and it was white and nearly as plain as by day, with every window-blind but his own shut like an eye that sleeps. the trees cast still shadows like intricate black lace upon the wall. the garden in the moonlight was very different from the garden by day; moonshine was tangled in the hedges and stretched in phantom cobwebs from spray to spray. every flower was gleaming white or crimson black, and the air was a-quiver with the thridding of small crickets and nightingales singing unseen in the depths of the trees. there was no darkness in the world, but only warm, mysterious shadows, and all the leaves and spikes were edged and lined with iridescent jewels of dew. the night was warmer than any night had ever been, the heavens by some miracle at once vaster and nearer, and, spite of the great ivory-tinted moon that ruled the world, the sky was full of stars. the little man did not shout nor sing for all his infinite gladness. he stood for a time like one awestricken, and then, with a queer small cry and holding out his arms, he ran out as if he would embrace at once the whole round immensity of the world. he did not follow the neat set paths that cut the garden squarely, but thrust across the beds and through the wet, tall, scented herbs, through the night-stock and the nicotine and the clusters of phantom white mallow flowers and through the thickets of southernwood and lavender, and knee-deep across a wide space of mignonette. he came to the great hedge, and he thrust his way through it; and though the thorns of the brambles scored him deeply and tore threads from his wonderful suit, and though burrs and goose-grass and havers caught and clung to him, he did not care. he did not care, for he knew it was all part of the wearing for which he had longed. "i am glad i put on my suit," he said; "i am glad i wore my suit." beyond the hedge he came to the duck-pond, or at least to what was the duck-pond by day. but by night it was a great bowl of silver moonshine all noisy with singing frogs, of wonderful silver moonshine twisted and clotted with strange patternings, and the little man ran down into its waters between the thin black rushes, knee-deep and waist-deep and to his shoulders, smiting the water to black and shining wavelets with either hand, swaying and shivering wavelets, amidst which the stars were netted in the tangled reflections of the brooding trees upon the bank. he waded until he swam, and so he crossed the pond and came out upon the other side, trailing, as it seemed to him, not duckweed, but very silver in long, clinging, dripping masses. and up he went through the transfigured tangles of the willow-herb and the uncut seeding grasses of the farther bank. he came glad and breathless into the high-road. "i am glad," he said, "beyond measure, that i had clothes that fitted this occasion." the high-road ran straight as an arrow flies, straight into the deep-blue pit of sky beneath the moon, a white and shining road between the singing nightingales, and along it he went, running now and leaping, and now walking and rejoicing, in the clothes his mother had made for him with tireless, loving hands. the road was deep in dust, but that for him was only soft whiteness; and as he went a great dim moth came fluttering round his wet and shimmering and hastening figure. at first he did not heed the moth, and then he waved his hands at it, and made a sort of dance with it as it circled round his head. "soft moth!" he cried, "dear moth! and wonderful night, wonderful night of the world! do you think my clothes are beautiful, dear moth? as beautiful as your scales and all this silver vesture of the earth and sky?" and the moth circled closer and closer until at last its velvet wings just brushed his lips... * * * * * and next morning they found him dead, with his neck broken, in the bottom of the stone pit, with his beautiful clothes a little bloody, and foul and stained with the duckweed from the pond. but his face was a face of such happiness that, had you seen it, you would have understood indeed how that he had died happy, never knowing that cool and streaming silver for the duckweed in the pond. distributed proofreaders love and mr. lewisham by h. g. wells [illustration: "why on earth did you put my roses here?" he asked.] [illustration] contents i. introduces mr. lewisham ii. "as the wind blows" iii. the wonderful discovery iv. raised eyebrows v. hesitations vi. the scandalous ramble vii. the reckoning viii. the career prevails ix. alice heydinger x. in the gallery of old iron xi. manifestations xii. lewisham is unaccountable xiii. lewisham insists xiv. mr. lagune's point of view xv. love in the streets xvi. miss heydinger's private thoughts xvii. in the raphael gallery xviii. the friends of progress meet xix. lewisham's solution xx. the career is suspended xxi. home! xxii. epithalamy xxiii. mr. chaffery at home xxiv. the campaign opens xxv. the first battle xxvi. the glamour fades xxvii. concerning a quarrel xxviii. the coming of the roses xxix. thorns and rose petals xxx. a withdrawal xxxi. in battersea park xxxii. the crowning victory chapter i. introduces mr. lewisham. the opening chapter does not concern itself with love--indeed that antagonist does not certainly appear until the third--and mr. lewisham is seen at his studies. it was ten years ago, and in those days he was assistant master in the whortley proprietary school, whortley, sussex, and his wages were forty pounds a year, out of which he had to afford fifteen shillings a week during term time to lodge with mrs. munday, at the little shop in the west street. he was called "mr." to distinguish him from the bigger boys, whose duty it was to learn, and it was a matter of stringent regulation that he should be addressed as "sir." he wore ready-made clothes, his black jacket of rigid line was dusted about the front and sleeves with scholastic chalk, and his face was downy and his moustache incipient. he was a passable-looking youngster of eighteen, fair-haired, indifferently barbered, and with a quite unnecessary pair of glasses on his fairly prominent nose--he wore these to make himself look older, that discipline might be maintained. at the particular moment when this story begins he was in his bedroom. an attic it was, with lead-framed dormer windows, a slanting ceiling and a bulging wall, covered, as a number of torn places witnessed, with innumerable strata of florid old-fashioned paper. to judge by the room mr. lewisham thought little of love but much on greatness. over the head of the bed, for example, where good folks hang texts, these truths asserted themselves, written in a clear, bold, youthfully florid hand:--"knowledge is power," and "what man has done man can do,"--man in the second instance referring to mr. lewisham. never for a moment were these things to be forgotten. mr. lewisham could see them afresh every morning as his head came through his shirt. and over the yellow-painted box upon which--for lack of shelves--mr. lewisham's library was arranged, was a "_schema_." (why he should not have headed it "scheme," the editor of the _church times_, who calls his miscellaneous notes "_varia_," is better able to say than i.) in this scheme, was indicated as the year in which mr. lewisham proposed to take his b.a. degree at the london university with "hons. in all subjects," and as the date of his "gold medal." subsequently there were to be "pamphlets in the liberal interest," and such like things duly dated. "who would control others must first control himself," remarked the wall over the wash-hand stand, and behind the door against the sunday trousers was a portrait of carlyle. these were no mere threats against the universe; operations had begun. jostling shakespeare, emerson's essays, and the penny life of confucius, there were battered and defaced school books, a number of the excellent manuals of the universal correspondence association, exercise books, ink (red and black) in penny bottles, and an india-rubber stamp with mr. lewisham's name. a trophy of bluish green south kensington certificates for geometrical drawing, astronomy, physiology, physiography, and inorganic chemistry adorned his further wall. and against the carlyle portrait was a manuscript list of french irregular verbs. attached by a drawing-pin to the roof over the wash-hand stand, which--the room being an attic--sloped almost dangerously, dangled a time-table. mr. lewisham was to rise at five, and that this was no vain boasting, a cheap american alarum clock by the books on the box witnessed. the lumps of mellow chocolate on the papered ledge by the bed-head indorsed that evidence. "french until eight," said the time-table curtly. breakfast was to be eaten in twenty minutes; then twenty-five minutes of "literature" to be precise, learning extracts (preferably pompous) from the plays of william shakespeare--and then to school and duty. the time-table further prescribed latin composition for the recess and the dinner hour ("literature," however, during the meal), and varied its injunctions for the rest of the twenty-four hours according to the day of the week. not a moment for satan and that "mischief still" of his. only three-score and ten has the confidence, as well as the time, to be idle. but just think of the admirable quality of such a scheme! up and busy at five, with all the world about one horizontal, warm, dreamy-brained or stupidly hullish, if roused, roused only to grunt and sigh and roll over again into oblivion. by eight three hours' clear start, three hours' knowledge ahead of everyone. it takes, i have been told by an eminent scholar, about a thousand hours of sincere work to learn a language completely--after three or four languages much less--which gives you, even at the outset, one each a year before breakfast. the gift of tongues--picked up like mushrooms! then that "literature"--an astonishing conception! in the afternoon mathematics and the sciences. could anything be simpler or more magnificent? in six years mr. lewisham will have his five or six languages, a sound, all-round education, a habit of tremendous industry, and be still but four-and-twenty. he will already have honour in his university and ampler means. one realises that those pamphlets in the liberal interests will be no obscure platitudes. where mr. lewisham will be at thirty stirs the imagination. there will be modifications of the schema, of course, as experience widens. but the spirit of it--the spirit of it is a devouring flame! he was sitting facing the diamond-framed window, writing, writing fast, on a second yellow box that was turned on end and empty, and the lid was open, and his knees were conveniently stuck into the cavity. the bed was strewn with books and copygraphed sheets of instructions from his remote correspondence tutors. pursuant to the dangling time-table he was, you would have noticed, translating latin into english. imperceptibly the speed of his writing diminished. "_urit me glycerae nitor_" lay ahead and troubled him. "urit me," he murmured, and his eyes travelled from his book out of window to the vicar's roof opposite and its ivied chimneys. his brows were knit at first and then relaxed. "_urit me_!" he had put his pen into his mouth and glanced about for his dictionary. _urare_? suddenly his expression changed. movement dictionary-ward ceased. he was listening to a light tapping sound--it was a footfall--outside. he stood up abruptly, and, stretching his neck, peered through his unnecessary glasses and the diamond panes down into the street. looking acutely downward he could see a hat daintily trimmed with pinkish white blossom, the shoulder of a jacket, and just the tips of nose and chin. certainly the stranger who sat under the gallery last sunday next the frobishers. then, too, he had seen her only obliquely.... he watched her until she passed beyond the window frame. he strained to see impossibly round the corner.... then he started, frowned, took his pen from his mouth. "this wandering attention!" he said. "the slightest thing! where was i? tcha!" he made a noise with his teeth to express his irritation, sat down, and replaced his knees in the upturned box. "urit me," he said, biting the end of his pen and looking for his dictionary. it was a wednesday half-holiday late in march, a spring day glorious in amber light, dazzling white clouds and the intensest blue, casting a powder of wonderful green hither and thither among the trees and rousing all the birds to tumultuous rejoicings, a rousing day, a clamatory insistent day, a veritable herald of summer. the stir of that anticipation was in the air, the warm earth was parting above the swelling seeds, and all the pine-woods were full of the minute crepitation of opening bud scales. and not only was the stir of mother nature's awakening in the earth and the air and the trees, but also in mr. lewisham's youthful blood, bidding him rouse himself to live--live in a sense quite other than that the schema indicated. he saw the dictionary peeping from under a paper, looked up "urit me," appreciated the shining "nitor" of glycera's shoulders, and so fell idle again to rouse himself abruptly. "i _can't_ fix my attention," said mr. lewisham. he took off the needless glasses, wiped them, and blinked his eyes. this confounded horace and his stimulating epithets! a walk? "i won't be beat," he said--incorrectly--replaced his glasses, brought his elbows down on either side of his box with resonant violence, and clutched the hair over his ears with both hands.... in five minutes' time he found himself watching the swallows curving through the blue over the vicarage garden. "did ever man have such a bother with himself as me?" he asked vaguely but vehemently. "it's self-indulgence does it--sitting down's the beginning of laziness." so he stood up to his work, and came into permanent view of the village street. "if she has gone round the corner by the post office, she will come in sight over the palings above the allotments," suggested the unexplored and undisciplined region of mr. lewisham's mind.... she did not come into sight. apparently she had not gone round by the post office after all. it made one wonder where she had gone. did she go up through the town to the avenue on these occasions?... then abruptly a cloud drove across the sunlight, the glowing street went cold and mr. lewisham's imagination submitted to control. so "_mater saeva cupidinum_," "the untamable mother of desires,"--horace (book ii. of the odes) was the author appointed by the university for mr. lewisham's matriculation--was, after all, translated to its prophetic end. precisely as the church clock struck five mr. lewisham, with a punctuality that was indeed almost too prompt for a really earnest student, shut his horace, took up his shakespeare, and descended the narrow, curved, uncarpeted staircase that led from his garret to the living room in which he had his tea with his landlady, mrs. munday. that good lady was alone, and after a few civilities mr. lewisham opened his shakespeare and read from a mark onward--that mark, by-the-bye, was in the middle of a scene--while he consumed mechanically a number of slices of bread and whort jam. mrs. munday watched him over her spectacles and thought how bad so much reading must be for the eyes, until the tinkling of her shop-bell called her away to a customer. at twenty-five minutes to six he put the book back in the window-sill, dashed a few crumbs from his jacket, assumed a mortar-board cap that was lying on the tea-caddy, and went forth to his evening "preparation duty." the west street was empty and shining golden with the sunset. its beauty seized upon him, and he forgot to repeat the passage from henry viii. that should have occupied him down the street. instead he was presently thinking of that insubordinate glance from his window and of little chins and nose-tips. his eyes became remote in their expression.... the school door was opened by an obsequious little boy with "lines" to be examined. mr. lewisham felt a curious change of atmosphere on his entry. the door slammed behind him. the hall with its insistent scholastic suggestions, its yellow marbled paper, its long rows of hat-pegs, its disreputable array of umbrellas, a broken mortar-board and a tattered and scattered _principia_, seemed dim and dull in contrast with the luminous stir of the early march evening outside. an unusual sense of the greyness of a teacher's life, of the greyness indeed of the life of all studious souls came, and went in his mind. he took the "lines," written painfully over three pages of exercise book, and obliterated them with a huge g.e.l., scrawled monstrously across each page. he heard the familiar mingled noises of the playground drifting in to him through the open schoolroom door. chapter ii. "as the wind blows." a flaw in that pentagram of a time-table, that pentagram by which the demons of distraction were to be excluded from mr. lewisham's career to greatness, was the absence of a clause forbidding study out of doors. it was the day after the trivial window peeping of the last chapter that this gap in the time-table became apparent, a day if possible more gracious and alluring than its predecessor, and at half-past twelve, instead of returning from the school directly to his lodging, mr. lewisham escaped through the omission and made his way--horace in pocket--to the park gates and so to the avenue of ancient trees that encircles the broad whortley domain. he dismissed a suspicion of his motive with perfect success. in the avenue--for the path is but little frequented--one might expect to read undisturbed. the open air, the erect attitude, are surely better than sitting in a stuffy, enervating bedroom. the open air is distinctly healthy, hardy, simple.... the day was breezy, and there was a perpetual rustling, a going and coming in the budding trees. the network of the beeches was full of golden sunlight, and all the lower branches were shot with horizontal dashes of new-born green. "_tu, nisi ventis debes ludibrium, cave_." was the appropriate matter of mr. lewisham's thoughts, and he was mechanically trying to keep the book open in three places at once, at the text, the notes, and the literal translation, while he turned up the vocabulary for _ludibrium_, when his attention, wandering dangerously near the top of the page, fell over the edge and escaped with incredible swiftness down the avenue.... a girl, wearing a straw hat adorned with white blossom, was advancing towards him. her occupation, too, was literary. indeed, she was so busy writing that evidently she did not perceive him. unreasonable emotions descended upon mr. lewisham--emotions that are unaccountable on the mere hypothesis of a casual meeting. something was whispered; it sounded suspiciously like "it's her!" he advanced with his fingers in his book, ready to retreat to its pages if she looked up, and watched her over it. _ludibrium_ passed out of his universe. she was clearly unaware of his nearness, he thought, intent upon her writing, whatever that might be. he wondered what it might be. her face, foreshortened by her downward regard, seemed infantile. her fluttering skirt was short, and showed her shoes and ankles. he noted her graceful, easy steps. a figure of health and lightness it was, sunlit, and advancing towards him, something, as he afterwards recalled with a certain astonishment, quite outside the schema. nearer she came and nearer, her eyes still downcast. he was full of vague, stupid promptings towards an uncalled-for intercourse. it was curious she did not see him. he began to expect almost painfully the moment when she would look up, though what there was to expect--! he thought of what she would see when she discovered him, and wondered where the tassel of his cap might be hanging--it sometimes occluded one eye. it was of course quite impossible to put up a hand and investigate. he was near trembling with excitement. his paces, acts which are usually automatic, became uncertain and difficult. one might have thought he had never passed a human being before. still nearer, ten yards now, nine, eight. would she go past without looking up?... then their eyes met. she had hazel eyes, but mr. lewisham, being quite an amateur about eyes, could find no words for them. she looked demurely into his face. she seemed to find nothing there. she glanced away from him among the trees, and passed, and nothing remained in front of him but an empty avenue, a sunlit, green-shot void. the incident was over. from far away the soughing of the breeze swept towards him, and in a moment all the twigs about him were quivering and rustling and the boughs creaking with a gust of wind. it seemed to urge him away from her. the faded dead leaves that had once been green and young sprang up, raced one another, leapt, danced and pirouetted, and then something large struck him on the neck, stayed for a startling moment, and drove past him up the avenue. something vividly white! a sheet of paper--the sheet upon which she had been writing! for what seemed a long time he did not grasp the situation. he glanced over his shoulder and understood suddenly. his awkwardness vanished. horace in hand, he gave chase, and in ten paces had secured the fugitive document. he turned towards her, flushed with triumph, the quarry in his hand. he had as he picked it up seen what was written, but the situation dominated him for the instant. he made a stride towards her, and only then understood what he had seen. lines of a measured length and capitals! could it really be--? he stopped. he looked again, eyebrows rising. he held it before him, staring now quite frankly. it had been written with a stylographic pen. thus it ran:-- "_come! sharp's the word._" and then again, "_come! sharp's the word._" and then, "_come! sharp's the word._" "_come! sharp's the word._" and so on all down the page, in a boyish hand uncommonly like frobisher ii.'s. surely! "i say!" said mr. lewisham, struggling with, the new aspect and forgetting all his manners in his surprise.... he remembered giving the imposition quite well:--frobisher ii. had repeated the exhortation just a little too loudly--had brought the thing upon himself. to find her doing this jarred oddly upon certain vague preconceptions he had formed of her. somehow it seemed as if she had betrayed him. that of course was only for the instant. she had come up with him now. "may i have my sheet of paper, please?" she said with a catching of her breath. she was a couple of inches less in height than he. do you observe her half-open lips? said mother nature in a noiseless aside to mr. lewisham--a thing he afterwards recalled. in her eyes was a touch of apprehension. "i say," he said, with protest still uppermost, "you oughtn't to do this." "do what?" "this. impositions. for my boys." she raised her eyebrows, then knitted them momentarily, and looked at him. "are _you_ mr. lewisham?" she asked with an affectation of entire ignorance and discovery. she knew him perfectly well, which was one reason why she was writing the imposition, but pretending not to know gave her something to say. mr. lewisham nodded. "of all people! then"--frankly--"you have just found me out." "i am afraid i have," said lewisham. "i am afraid i _have_ found you out." they looked at one another for the next move. she decided to plead in extenuation. "teddy frobisher is my cousin. i know it's very wrong, but he seemed to have such a lot to do and to be in _such_ trouble. and i had nothing to do. in fact, it was _i_ who offered...." she stopped and looked at him. she seemed to consider her remark complete. that meeting of the eyes had an oddly disconcerting quality. he tried to keep to the business of the imposition. "you ought not to have done that," he said, encountering her steadfastly. she looked down and then into his face again. "no," she said. "i suppose i ought not to. i'm very sorry." her looking down and up again produced another unreasonable effect. it seemed to lewisham that they were discussing something quite other than the topic of their conversation; a persuasion patently absurd and only to be accounted for by the general disorder of his faculties. he made a serious attempt to keep his footing of reproof. "i should have detected the writing, you know." "of course you would. it was very wrong of me to persuade him. but i did--i assure you. he seemed in such trouble. and i thought--" she made another break, and there was a faint deepening of colour in her cheeks. suddenly, stupidly, his own adolescent cheeks began to glow. it became necessary to banish that sense of a duplicate topic forthwith. "i can assure you," he said, now very earnestly, "i never give a punishment, never, unless it is merited. i make that a rule. i--er--_always_ make that a rule. i am very careful indeed." "i am really sorry," she interrupted with frank contrition. "it _was_ silly of me." lewisham felt unaccountably sorry she should have to apologise, and he spoke at once with the idea of checking the reddening of his face. "i don't think _that_," he said with a sort of belated alacrity. "really, it was kind of you, you know--very kind of you indeed. and i know that--i can quite understand that--er--your kindness...." "ran away with me. and now poor little teddy will get into worse trouble for letting me...." "oh no," said mr. lewisham, perceiving an opportunity and trying not to smile his appreciation of what he was saying. "i had no business to read this as i picked it up--absolutely no business. consequently...." "you won't take any notice of it? really!" "certainly not," said mr. lewisham. her face lit with a smile, and mr. lewisham's relaxed in sympathy. "it is nothing--it's the proper thing for me to do, you know." "but so many people won't do it. schoolmasters are not usually so--chivalrous." he was chivalrous! the phrase acted like a spur. he obeyed a foolish impulse. "if you like--" he said. "what?" "he needn't do this. the impot., i mean. i'll let him off." "really?" "i can." "it's awfully kind of you." "i don't mind," he said. "it's nothing much. if you really think ..." he was full of self-applause for this scandalous sacrifice of justice. "it's awfully kind of you," she said. "it's nothing, really," he explained, "nothing." "most people wouldn't--" "i know." pause. "it's all right," he said. "really." he would have given worlds for something more to say, something witty and original, but nothing came. the pause lengthened. she glanced over her shoulder down the vacant avenue. this interview--this momentous series of things unsaid was coming to an end! she looked at him hesitatingly and smiled again. she held out her hand. no doubt that was the proper thing to do. he took it, searching a void, tumultuous mind in vain. "it's awfully kind of you," she said again as she did so. "it don't matter a bit," said mr. lewisham, and sought vainly for some other saying, some doorway remark into new topics. her hand was cool and soft and firm, the most delightful thing to grasp, and this observation ousted all other things. he held it for a moment, but nothing would come. they discovered themselves hand in hand. they both laughed and felt "silly." they shook hands in the manner of quite intimate friends, and snatched their hands away awkwardly. she turned, glanced timidly at him over her shoulder, and hesitated. "good-bye," she said, and was suddenly walking from him. he bowed to her receding back, made a seventeenth-century sweep with his college cap, and then some hitherto unexplored regions of his mind flashed into revolt. hardly had she gone six paces when he was at her side again. "i say," he said with a fearful sense of his temerity, and raising his mortar-board awkwardly as though he was passing a funeral. "but that sheet of paper ..." "yes," she said surprised--quite naturally. "may i have it?" "why?" he felt a breathless pleasure, like that of sliding down a slope of snow. "i would like to have it." she smiled and raised her eyebrows, but his excitement was now too great for smiling. "look here!" she said, and displayed the sheet crumpled into a ball. she laughed--with a touch of effort. "i don't mind that," said mr. lewisham, laughing too. he captured the paper by an insistent gesture and smoothed it out with fingers that trembled. "you don't mind?" he said. "mind what?" "if i keep it?" "why should i?" pause. their eyes met again. there was an odd constraint about both of them, a palpitating interval of silence. "i really _must_ be going," she said suddenly, breaking the spell by an effort. she turned about and left him with the crumpled piece of paper in the fist that held the book, the other hand lifting the mortar board in a dignified salute again. he watched her receding figure. his heart was beating with remarkable rapidity. how light, how living she seemed! little round flakes of sunlight raced down her as she went. she walked fast, then slowly, looking sideways once or twice, but not back, until she reached the park gates. then she looked towards him, a remote friendly little figure, made a gesture of farewell, and disappeared. his face was flushed and his eyes bright. curiously enough, he was out of breath. he stared for a long time at the vacant end of the avenue. then he turned his eyes to his trophy gripped against the closed and forgotten horace in his hand. chapter iii. the wonderful discovery. on sunday it was lewisham's duty to accompany the boarders twice to church. the boys sat in the gallery above the choirs facing the organ loft and at right angles to the general congregation. it was a prominent position, and made him feel painfully conspicuous, except in moods of exceptional vanity, when he used to imagine that all these people were thinking how his forehead and his certificates accorded. he thought a lot in those days of his certificates and forehead, but little of his honest, healthy face beneath it. (to tell the truth there was nothing very wonderful about his forehead.) he rarely looked down the church, as he fancied to do so would be to meet the collective eye of the congregation regarding him. so that in the morning he was not able to see that the frobishers' pew was empty until the litany. but in the evening, on the way to church, the frobishers and their guest crossed the market-square as his string of boys marched along the west side. and the guest was arrayed in a gay new dress, as if it was already easter, and her face set in its dark hair came with a strange effect of mingled freshness and familiarity. she looked at him calmly! he felt very awkward, and was for cutting his new acquaintance. then hesitated, and raised his hat with a jerk as if to mrs. frobisher. neither lady acknowledged his salute, which may possibly have been a little unexpected. then young siddons dropped his hymn-book; stooped to pick it up, and lewisham almost fell over him.... he entered church in a mood of black despair. but consolation of a sort came soon enough. as _she_ took her seat she distinctly glanced up at the gallery, and afterwards as he knelt to pray he peeped between his fingers and saw her looking up again. she was certainly not laughing at him. in those days much of lewisham's mind was still an unknown land to him. he believed among other things that he was always the same consistent intelligent human being, whereas under certain stimuli he became no longer reasonable and disciplined but a purely imaginative and emotional person. music, for instance, carried him away, and particularly the effect of many voices in unison whirled him off from almost any state of mind to a fine massive emotionality. and the evening service at whortley church--at the evening service surplices were worn--the chanting and singing, the vague brilliance of the numerous candle flames, the multitudinous unanimity of the congregation down there, kneeling, rising, thunderously responding, invariably inebriated him. inspired him, if you will, and turned the prose of his life into poetry. and chance, coming to the aid of dame nature, dropped just the apt suggestion into his now highly responsive ear. the second hymn was a simple and popular one, dealing with the theme of faith, hope, and charity, and having each verse ending with the word "love." conceive it, long drawn out and disarticulate,-- "faith will van ... ish in ... to sight, hope be emp ... tied in deli ... ight, love in heaven will shine more bri ... ight, there ... fore give us love." at the third repetition of the refrain, lewisham looked down across the chancel and met her eyes for a brief instant.... he stopped singing abruptly. then the consciousness of the serried ranks of faces below there came with almost overwhelming force upon him, and he dared not look at her again. he felt the blood rushing to his face. love! the greatest of these. the greatest of all things. better than fame. better than knowledge. so came the great discovery like a flood across his mind, pouring over it with the cadence of the hymn and sending a tide of pink in sympathy across his forehead. the rest of the service was phantasmagorial background to that great reality--a phantasmagorial background a little inclined to stare. he, mr. lewisham, was in love. "a ... men." he was so preoccupied that he found the whole congregation subsiding into their seats, and himself still standing, rapt. he sat down spasmodically, with an impact that seemed to him to re-echo through the church. as they came out of the porch into the thickening night, he seemed to see her everywhere. he fancied she had gone on in front, and he hurried up the boys in the hope of overtaking her. they pushed through the throng of dim people going homeward. should he raise his hat to her again?... but it was susie hopbrow in a light-coloured dress--a raven in dove's plumage. he felt a curious mixture of relief and disappointment. he would see her no more that night. he hurried from the school to his lodging. he wanted very urgently to be alone. he went upstairs to his little room and sat before the upturned box on which his butler's analogy was spread open. he did not go to the formality of lighting the candle. he leant back and gazed blissfully at the solitary planet that hung over the vicarage garden. he took out of his pocket a crumpled sheet of paper, smoothed and carefully refolded, covered with a writing not unlike that of frobisher ii., and after some maidenly hesitation pressed this treasure to his lips. the schema and the time-table hung in the darkness like the mere ghosts of themselves. mrs. munday called him thrice to his supper. he went out immediately after it was eaten and wandered under the stars until he came over the hill behind the town again, and clambered up the back to the stile in sight of the frobishers' house. he selected the only lit window as hers. behind the blind, mrs. frobisher, thirty-eight, was busy with her curl-papers--she used papers because they were better for the hair--and discussing certain neighbours in a fragmentary way with mr. frobisher, who was in bed. presently she moved the candle to examine a faint discolouration of her complexion that rendered her uneasy. outside, mr. lewisham (eighteen) stood watching the orange oblong for the best part of half an hour, until it vanished and left the house black and blank. then he sighed deeply and returned home in a very glorious mood indeed. he awoke the next morning feeling extremely serious, but not clearly remembering the overnight occurrences. his eye fell on his clock. the time was six and he had not heard the alarum; as a matter of fact the alarum had not been wound up. he jumped out of bed at once and alighted upon his best trousers amorphously dropped on the floor instead of methodically cast over a chair. as he soaped his head he tried, according to his rules of revision, to remember the overnight reading. he could not for the life of him. the truth came to him as he was getting into his shirt. his head, struggling in its recesses, became motionless, the handless cuffs ceased to dangle for a minute.... then his head came through slowly with a surprised expression upon his face. he remembered. he remembered the thing as a bald discovery, and without a touch of emotion. with all the achromatic clearness, the unromantic colourlessness of the early morning.... yes. he had it now quite distinctly. there had been no overnight reading. he was in love. the proposition jarred with some vague thing in his mind. he stood staring for a space, and then began looking about absent-mindedly for his collar-stud. he paused in front of his schema, regarding it. chapter iv. raised eyebrows. "work must be done anyhow," said mr. lewisham. but never had the extraordinary advantages of open-air study presented themselves so vividly. before breakfast he took half an hour of open-air reading along the allotments lane near the frobishers' house, after breakfast and before school he went through the avenue with a book, and returned from school to his lodgings circuitously through the avenue, and so back to the avenue for thirty minutes or so before afternoon school. when mr. lewisham was not looking over the top of his book during these periods of open-air study, then commonly he was glancing over his shoulder. and at last who should he see but--! he saw her out of the corner of his eye, and he turned away at once, pretending not to have seen her. his whole being was suddenly irradiated with emotion. the hands holding his book gripped it very tightly. he did not glance back again, but walked slowly and steadfastly, reading an ode that he could not have translated to save his life, and listening acutely for her approach. and after an interminable time, as it seemed, came a faint footfall and the swish of skirts behind him. he felt as though his head was directed forward by a clutch of iron. "mr. lewisham," she said close to him, and he turned with a quality of movement that was almost convulsive. he raised his cap clumsily. he took her extended hand by an afterthought, and held it until she withdrew it. "i am so glad to have met you," she said. "so am i," said lewisham simply. they stood facing one another for an expressive moment, and then by a movement she indicated her intention to walk along the avenue with him. "i wanted so much," she said, looking down at her feet, "to thank you for letting teddy off, you know. that is why i wanted to see you." lewisham took his first step beside her. "and it's odd, isn't it," she said, looking up into his face, "that i should meet you here in just the same place. i believe ... yes. the very same place we met before." mr. lewisham was tongue-tied. "do you often come here?" she said. "well," he considered--and his voice was most unreasonably hoarse when he spoke--"no. no.... that is--at least not often. now and then. in fact, i like it rather for reading and that sort of thing. it's so quiet." "i suppose you read a great deal?" "when one teaches one has to." "but you ..." "i'm rather fond of reading, certainly. are you?" "i _love_ it." mr. lewisham was glad she loved reading. he would have been disappointed had she answered differently. but she spoke with real fervour. she _loved_ reading! it was pleasant. she would understand him a little perhaps. "of course," she went on, "i'm not clever like some people are. and i have to read books as i get hold of them." "so do i," said mr. lewisham, "for the matter of that.... have you read ... carlyle?" the conversation was now fairly under way. they were walking side by side beneath the swaying boughs. mr. lewisham's sensations were ecstatic, marred only by a dread of some casual boy coming upon them. she had not read _much_ carlyle. she had always wanted to, even from quite a little girl--she had heard so much about him. she knew he was a really great writer, a _very_ great writer indeed. all she _had_ read of him she liked. she could say that. as much as she liked anything. and she had seen his house in chelsea. lewisham, whose knowledge of london had been obtained by excursion trips on six or seven isolated days, was much impressed by this. it seemed to put her at once on a footing of intimacy with this imposing personality. it had never occurred to him at all vividly that these great writers had real abiding places. she gave him a few descriptive touches that made the house suddenly real and distinctive to him. she lived quite near, she said, at least within walking distance, in clapham. he instantly forgot the vague design of lending her his "_sartor resartus_" in his curiosity to learn more about her home. "clapham--that's almost in london, isn't it?" he said. "quite," she said, but she volunteered no further information about her domestic circumstances, "i like london," she generalised, "and especially in winter." and she proceeded to praise london, its public libraries, its shops, the multitudes of people, the facilities for "doing what you like," the concerts one could go to, the theatres. (it seemed she moved in fairly good society.) "there's always something to see even if you only go out for a walk," she said, "and down here there's nothing to read but idle novels. and those not new." mr. lewisham had regretfully to admit the lack of such culture and mental activity in whortley. it made him feel terribly her inferior. he had only his bookishness and his certificates to set against it all--and she had seen carlyle's house! "down here," she said, "there's nothing to talk about but scandal." it was too true. at the corner by the stile, beyond which the willows were splendid against the blue with silvery aments and golden pollen, they turned by mutual impulse and retraced their steps. "i've simply had no one to talk to down here," she said. "not what _i_ call talking." "i hope," said lewisham, making a resolute plunge, "perhaps while you are staying at whortley ..." he paused perceptibly, and she, following his eyes, saw a voluminous black figure approaching. "we may," said mr. lewisham, resuming his remark, "chance to meet again, perhaps." he had been about to challenge her to a deliberate meeting. a certain delightful tangle of paths that followed the bank of the river had been in his mind. but the apparition of mr. george bonover, headmaster of the whortley proprietary school, chilled him amazingly. dame nature no doubt had arranged the meeting of our young couple, but about bonover she seems to have been culpably careless. she now receded inimitably, and mr. lewisham, with the most unpleasant feelings, found himself face to face with a typical representative of a social organisation which objects very strongly _inter alia_ to promiscuous conversation on the part of the young unmarried junior master. "--chance to meet again, perhaps," said mr. lewisham, with a sudden lack of spirit. "i hope so too," she said. pause. mr. bonover's features, and particularly a bushy pair of black eyebrows, were now very near, those eyebrows already raised, apparently to express a refined astonishment. "is this mr. bonover approaching?" she asked. "yes." prolonged pause. would he stop and accost them? at any rate this frightful silence must end. mr. lewisham sought in his mind for some remark wherewith to cover his employer's approach. he was surprised to find his mind a desert. he made a colossal effort. if they could only talk, if they could only seem at their ease! but this blank incapacity was eloquent of guilt. ah! "it's a lovely day, though," said mr. lewisham. "isn't it?" she agreed with him. "isn't it?" she said. and then mr. bonover passed, forehead tight reefed so to speak, and lips impressively compressed. mr. lewisham raised his mortar-board, and to his astonishment mr. bonover responded with a markedly formal salute--mock clerical hat sweeping circuitously--and the regard of a searching, disapproving eye, and so passed. lewisham was overcome with astonishment at this improvement on the nod of their ordinary commerce. and so this terrible incident terminated for the time. he felt a momentary gust of indignation. after all, why should bonover or anyone interfere with his talking to a girl if he chose? and for all he knew they might have been properly introduced. by young frobisher, say. nevertheless, lewisham's spring-tide mood relapsed into winter. he was, he felt, singularly stupid for the rest of their conversation, and the delightful feeling of enterprise that had hitherto inspired and astonished him when talking to her had shrivelled beyond contempt. he was glad--positively glad--when things came to an end. at the park gates she held out her hand. "i'm afraid i have interrupted your reading," she said. "not a bit," said mr. lewisham, warming slightly. "i don't know when i've enjoyed a conversation...." "it was--a breach of etiquette, i am afraid, my speaking to you, but i did so want to thank you...." "don't mention it," said mr. lewisham, secretly impressed by the etiquette. "good-bye." he stood hesitating by the lodge, and then turned back up the avenue in order not to be seen to follow her too closely up the west street. and then, still walking away from her, he remembered that he had not lent her a book as he had planned, nor made any arrangement ever to meet her again. she might leave whortley anywhen for the amenities of clapham. he stopped and stood irresolute. should he run after her? then he recalled bonover's enigmatical expression of face. he decided that to pursue her would be altogether too conspicuous. yet ... so he stood in inglorious hesitation, while the seconds passed. he reached his lodging at last to find mrs. munday halfway through dinner. "you get them books of yours," said mrs. munday, who took a motherly interest in him, "and you read and you read, and you take no account of time. and now you'll have to eat your dinner half cold, and no time for it to settle proper before you goes off to school. it's ruination to a stummik--such ways." "oh, never mind my stomach, mrs. munday," said lewisham, roused from a tangled and apparently gloomy meditation; "that's _my_ affair." quite crossly he spoke for him. "i'd rather have a good sensible actin' stummik than a full head," said mrs. monday, "any day." "i'm different, you see," snapped mr. lewisham, and relapsed into silence and gloom. ("hoity toity!" said mrs. monday under her breath.) chapter v. hesitations. mr. bonover, having fully matured a hint suitable for the occasion, dropped it in the afternoon, while lewisham was superintending cricket practice. he made a few remarks about the prospects of the first eleven by way of introduction, and lewisham agreed with him that frobisher i. looked like shaping very well this season. a pause followed and the headmaster hummed. "by-the-bye," he said, as if making conversation and still watching the play; "i, ah,--understood that you, ah--were a _stranger_ to whortley." "yes," said lewisham, "that's so." "you have made friends in the neighbourhood?" lewisham was troubled with a cough, and his ears--those confounded ears--brightened, "yes," he said, recovering, "oh yes. yes, i have." "local people, i presume." "well, no. not exactly." the brightness spread from lewisham's ears over his face. "i saw you," said bonover, "talking to a young lady in the avenue. her face was somehow quite familiar to me. who _was_ she?" should he say she was a friend of the frobishers? in that case bonover, in his insidious amiable way, might talk to the frobisher parents and make things disagreeable for her. "she was," said lewisham, flushing deeply with the stress on his honesty and dropping his voice to a mumble, "a ... a ... an old friend of my mother's. in fact, i met her once at salisbury." "where?" "salisbury." "and her name?" "smith," said lewisham, a little hastily, and repenting the lie even as it left his lips. "well _hit_, harris!" shouted bonover, and began to clap his hands. "well _hit_, sir." "harris shapes very well," said mr. lewisham. "very," said mr. bonover. "and--what was it? ah! i was just remarking the odd resemblances there are in the world. there is a miss henderson--or henson--stopping with the frobishers--in the very same town, in fact, the very picture of your miss ..." "smith," said lewisham, meeting his eye and recovering the full crimson note of his first blush. "it's odd," said bonover, regarding him pensively. "very odd," mumbled lewisham, cursing his own stupidity and looking away. "_very_--very odd," said bonover. "in fact," said bonover, turning towards the school-house, "i hardly expected it of you, mr. lewisham." "expected what, sir?" but mr. bonover feigned to be already out of earshot. "damn!" said mr. lewisham. "oh!--_damn_!"--a most objectionable expression and rare with him in those days. he had half a mind to follow the head-master and ask him if he doubted his word. it was only too evident what the answer would be. he stood for a minute undecided, then turned on his heel and marched homeward with savage steps. his muscles quivered as he walked, and his face twitched. the tumult of his mind settled at last into angry indignation. "confound him!" said mr. lewisham, arguing the matter out with the bedroom furniture. "why the _devil_ can't he mind his own business?" "mind your own business, sir!" shouted mr. lewisham at the wash-hand stand. "confound you, sir, mind your own business!" the wash-hand stand did. "you overrate your power, sir," said mr. lewisham, a little mollified. "understand me! i am my own master out of school." nevertheless, for four days and some hours after mr. bonover's hint, mr. lewisham so far observed its implications as to abandon open-air study and struggle with diminishing success to observe the spirit as well as the letter of his time-table prescriptions. for the most part he fretted at accumulating tasks, did them with slipshod energy or looked out of window. the career constituent insisted that to meet and talk to this girl again meant reproof, worry, interference with his work for his matriculation, the destruction of all "discipline," and he saw the entire justice of the insistence. it was nonsense this being in love; there wasn't such a thing as love outside of trashy novelettes. and forthwith his mind went off at a tangent to her eyes under the shadow of her hat brim, and had to be lugged back by main force. on thursday when he was returning from school he saw her far away down the street, and hurried in to avoid her, looking ostentatiously in the opposite direction. but that was a turning-point. shame overtook him. on friday his belief in love was warm and living again, and his heart full of remorse for laggard days. on saturday morning his preoccupation with her was so vivid that it distracted him even while he was teaching that most teachable subject, algebra, and by the end of the school hours the issue was decided and the career in headlong rout. that afternoon he would go, whatever happened, and see her and speak to her again. the thought of bonover arose only to be dismissed. and besides-- bonover took a siesta early in the afternoon. yes, he would go out and find her and speak to her. nothing should stop him. once that decision was taken his imagination became riotous with things he might say, attitudes he might strike, and a multitude of vague fine dreams about her. he would say this, he would say that, his mind would do nothing but circle round this wonderful pose of lover. what a cur he had been to hide from her so long! what could he have been thinking about? how _could_ he explain it to her, when the meeting really came? suppose he was very frank-- he considered the limits of frankness. would she believe he had not seen her on thursday?--if he assured her that it was so? and, most horrible, in the midst of all this came bonover with a request that he would take "duty" in the cricket field instead of dunkerley that afternoon. dunkerley was the senior assistant master, lewisham's sole colleague. the last vestige of disapprobation had vanished from bonover's manner; asking a favour was his autocratic way of proffering the olive branch. but it came to lewisham as a cruel imposition. for a fateful moment he trembled on the brink of acquiescence. in a flash came a vision of the long duty of the afternoon--she possibly packing for clapham all the while. he turned white. mr. bonover watched his face. "_no_," said lewisham bluntly, saying all he was sure of, and forthwith racking his unpractised mind for an excuse. "i'm sorry i can't oblige you, but ... my arrangements ... i've made arrangements, in fact, for the afternoon." mr. bonover's eyebrows went up at this obvious lie, and the glow of his suavity faded, "you see," he said, "mrs. bonover expects a friend this afternoon, and we rather want mr. dunkerley to make four at croquet...." "i'm sorry," said mr. lewisham, still resolute, and making a mental note that bonover would be playing croquet. "you don't play croquet by any chance?" asked bonover. "no," said lewisham, "i haven't an idea." "if mr. dunkerley had asked you?..." persisted bonover, knowing lewisham's respect for etiquette. "oh! it wasn't on that account," said lewisham, and bonover with eyebrows still raised and a general air of outraged astonishment left him standing there, white and stiff, and wondering at his extraordinary temerity. chapter vi. the scandalous ramble. as soon as school was dismissed lewisham made a gaol-delivery of his outstanding impositions, and hurried back to his lodgings, to spend the time until his dinner was ready--well?... it seems hardly fair, perhaps, to lewisham to tell this; it is doubtful, indeed, whether a male novelist's duty to his sex should not restrain him, but, as the wall in the shadow by the diamond-framed window insisted, "_magna est veritas et prevalebit_." mr. lewisham brushed his hair with elaboration, and ruffled it picturesquely, tried the effect of all his ties and selected a white one, dusted his boots with an old pocket-handkerchief, changed his trousers because the week-day pair was minutely frayed at the heels, and inked the elbows of his coat where the stitches were a little white. and, to be still more intimate, he studied his callow appearance in the glass from various points of view, and decided that his nose might have been a little smaller with advantage.... directly after dinner he went out, and by the shortest path to the allotment lane, telling himself he did not care if he met bonover forthwith in the street. he did not know precisely what he intended to do, but he was quite clear that he meant to see the girl he had met in the avenue. he knew he should see her. a sense of obstacles merely braced him and was pleasurable. he went up the stone steps out of the lane to the stile that overlooked the frobishers, the stile from which he had watched the frobisher bedroom. there he seated himself with his arms, folded, in full view of the house. that was at ten minutes to two. at twenty minutes to three he was still sitting there, but his hands were deep in his jacket pockets, and he was scowling and kicking his foot against the step with an impatient monotony. his needless glasses had been thrust into his waistcoat pocket--where they remained throughout the afternoon--and his cap was tilted a little back from his forehead and exposed a wisp of hair. one or two people had gone down the lane, and he had pretended not to see them, and a couple of hedge-sparrows chasing each other along the side of the sunlit, wind-rippled field had been his chief entertainment. it is unaccountable, no doubt, but he felt angry with her as the time crept on. his expression lowered. he heard someone going by in the lane behind him. he would not look round--it annoyed him to think of people seeing him in this position. his once eminent discretion, though overthrown, still made muffled protests at the afternoon's enterprise. the feet down the lane stopped close at hand. "stare away," said lewisham between his teeth. and then began mysterious noises, a violent rustle of hedge twigs, a something like a very light foot-tapping. curiosity boarded lewisham and carried him after the briefest struggle. he looked round, and there she was, her back to him, reaching after the spiky blossoming blackthorn that crested the opposite hedge. remarkable accident! she had not seen him! in a moment lewisham's legs were flying over the stile. he went down the steps in the bank with such impetus that it carried him up into the prickly bushes beside her. "allow me," he said, too excited to see she was not astonished. "mr. lewisham!" she said in feigned surprise, and stood away to give him room at the blackthorn. "which spike will you have?" he cried, overjoyed. "the whitest? the highest? any!" "that piece," she chose haphazard, "with the black spike sticking out from it." a mass of snowy blossom it was against the april sky, and lewisham, straggling for it--it was by no means the most accessible--saw with fantastic satisfaction a lengthy scratch flash white on his hand, and turn to red. "higher up the lane," he said, descending triumphant and breathless, "there is blackthorn.... this cannot compare for a moment...." she laughed and looked at him as he stood there flushed, his eyes triumphant, with an unpremeditated approval. in church, in the gallery, with his face foreshortened, he had been effective in a way, but this was different. "show me," she said, though she knew this was the only place for blackthorn for a mile in either direction. "i _knew_ i should see you," he said, by way of answer, "i felt sure i should see you to-day." "it was our last chance almost," she answered with as frank a quality of avowal. "i'm going home to london on monday." "i knew," he cried in triumph. "to clapham?" he asked. "yes. i have got a situation. you did not know that i was a shorthand clerk and typewriter, did you? i am. i have just left the school, the grogram school. and now there is an old gentleman who wants an amanuensis." "so you know shorthand?" said he. "that accounts for the stylographic pen. those lines were written.... i have them still." she smiled and raised her eyebrows. "here," said mr. lewisham, tapping his breast-pocket. "this lane," he said--their talk was curiously inconsecutive--"some way along this lane, over the hill and down, there is a gate, and that goes--i mean, it opens into the path that runs along the river bank. have you been?" "no," she said. "it's the best walk about whortley. it brings you out upon immering common. you _must_--before you go." "_now_?" she said with her eyes dancing. "why not?" "i told mrs. frobisher i should be back by four," she said. "it's a walk not to be lost." "very well," said she. "the trees are all budding," said mr. lewisham, "the rushes are shooting, and all along the edge of the river there are millions of little white flowers floating on the water, _i_ don't know the names of them, but they're fine.... may i carry that branch of blossom?" as he took it their hands touched momentarily ... and there came another of those significant gaps. "look at those clouds," said lewisham abruptly, remembering the remark he had been about to make and waving the white froth of blackthorn, "and look at the blue between them." "it's perfectly splendid. of all the fine weather the best has been kept for now. my last day. my very last day." and off these two young people went together in a highly electrical state--to the infinite astonishment of mrs. frobisher, who was looking out of the attic window--stepping out manfully and finding the whole world lit and splendid for their entertainment. the things they discovered and told each other that afternoon down by the river!--that spring was wonderful, young leaves beautiful, bud scales astonishing things, and clouds dazzling and stately!--with an air of supreme originality! and their naïve astonishment to find one another in agreement upon these novel delights! it seemed to them quite outside the play of accident that they should have met each other. they went by the path that runs among the trees along the river bank, and she must needs repent and wish to take the lower one, the towing path, before they had gone three hundred yards. so lewisham had to find a place fit for her descent, where a friendly tree proffered its protruding roots as a convenient balustrade, and down she clambered with her hand in his. then a water-vole washing his whiskers gave occasion for a sudden touching of hands and the intimate confidence of whispers and silence together. after which lewisham essayed to gather her a marsh mallow at the peril, as it was judged, of his life, and gained it together with a bootful of water. and at the gate by the black and shiny lock, where the path breaks away from the river, she overcame him by an unexpected feat, climbing gleefully to the top rail with the support of his hand, and leaping down, a figure of light and grace, to the ground. they struck boldly across the meadows, which were gay with lady's smock, and he walked, by special request, between her and three matronly cows--feeling as perseus might have done when he fended off the sea-monster. and so by the mill, and up a steep path to immering common. across the meadows lewisham had broached the subject of her occupation. "and are you really going away from here to be an amanuensis?" he said, and started her upon the theme of herself, a theme she treated with a specialist's enthusiasm. they dealt with it by the comparative methods and neither noticed the light was out of the sky until the soft feet of the advancing shower had stolen right upon them. "look!" said he. "yonder! a shed," and they ran together. she ran laughing, and yet swiftly and lightly. he pulled her through the hedge by both hands, and released her skirt from an amorous bramble, and so they came into a little black shed in which a rusty harrow of gigantic proportions sheltered. he noted how she still kept her breath after that run. she sat down on the harrow and hesitated. "i _must_ take off my hat," she said, "that rain will spot it," and so he had a chance of admiring the sincerity of her curls--not that he had ever doubted them. she stooped over her hat, pocket-handkerchief in hand, daintily wiping off the silvery drops. he stood up at the opening of the shed and looked at the country outside through the veil of the soft vehemence of the april shower. "there's room for two on this harrow," she said. he made inarticulate sounds of refusal, and then came and sat down beside her, close beside her, so that he was almost touching her. he felt a fantastic desire to take her in his arms and kiss her, and overcame the madness by an effort. "i don't even know your name," he said, taking refuge from his whirling thoughts in conversation. "henderson," she said. "_miss_ henderson?" she smiled in his face--hesitated. "yes--_miss_ henderson." her eyes, her atmosphere were wonderful. he had never felt quite the same sensation before, a strange excitement, almost like a faint echo of tears. he was for demanding her christian name. for calling her "dear" and seeing what she would say. he plunged headlong into a rambling description of bonover and how he had told a lie about her and called her miss smith, and so escaped this unaccountable emotional crisis.... the whispering of the rain about them sank and died, and the sunlight struck vividly across the distant woods beyond immering. just then they had fallen on a silence again that was full of daring thoughts for mr. lewisham. he moved his arm suddenly and placed it so that it was behind her on the frame of the harrow. "let us go on now," she said abruptly. "the rain has stopped." "that little path goes straight to immering," said mr. lewisham. "but, four o'clock?" he drew out his watch, and his eyebrows went up. it was already nearly a quarter past four. "is it past four?" she asked, and abruptly they were face to face with parting. that lewisham had to take "duty" at half-past five seemed a thing utterly trivial. "surely," he said, only slowly realising what this parting meant. "but must you? i--i want to talk to you." "haven't you been talking to me?" "it isn't that. besides--no." she stood looking at him. "i promised to be home by four," she said. "mrs. frobisher has tea...." "we may never have a chance to see one another again." "well?" lewisham suddenly turned very white. "don't leave me," he said, breaking a tense silence and with a sudden stress in his voice. "don't leave me. stop with me yet--for a little while.... you ... you can lose your way." "you seem to think," she said, forcing a laugh, "that i live without eating and drinking." "i have wanted to talk to you so much. the first time i saw you.... at first i dared not.... i did not know you would let me talk.... and now, just as i am--happy, you are going." he stopped abruptly. her eyes were downcast. "no," she said, tracing a curve with the point of her shoe. "no. i am not going." lewisham restrained an impulse to shout. "you will come to immering?" he cried, and as they went along the narrow path through the wet grass, he began to tell her with simple frankness how he cared for her company, "i would not change this," he said, casting about for an offer to reject, "for--anything in the world.... i shall not be back for duty. i don't care. i don't care what happens so long as we have this afternoon." "nor i," she said. "thank you for coming," he said in an outburst of gratitude.--"oh, thank you for coming," and held out his hand. she took it and pressed it, and so they went on hand in hand until the village street was reached. their high resolve to play truant at all costs had begotten a wonderful sense of fellowship. "i can't call you miss henderson," he said. "you know i can't. you know ... i must have your christian name." "ethel," she told him. "ethel," he said and looked at her, gathering courage as he did so. "ethel," he repeated. "it is a pretty name. but no name is quite pretty enough for you, ethel ... _dear_."... the little shop in immering lay back behind a garden full of wallflowers, and was kept by a very fat and very cheerful little woman, who insisted on regarding them as brother and sister, and calling them both "dearie." these points conceded she gave them an admirable tea of astonishing cheapness. lewisham did not like the second condition very much, because it seemed to touch a little on his latest enterprise. but the tea and the bread and butter and the whort jam were like no food on earth. there were wallflowers, heavy scented, in a jug upon the table, and ethel admired them, and when they set out again the little old lady insisted on her taking a bunch with her. it was after they left immering that this ramble, properly speaking, became scandalous. the sun was already a golden ball above the blue hills in the west--it turned our two young people into little figures of flame--and yet, instead of going homeward, they took the wentworth road that plunges into the forshaw woods. behind them the moon, almost full, hung in the blue sky above the tree-tops, ghostly and indistinct, and slowly gathered to itself such light as the setting sun left for it in the sky. going out of immering they began to talk of the future. and for the very young lover there is no future but the immediate future. "you must write to me," he said, and she told him she wrote such _silly_ letters. "but i shall have reams to write to you," he told her. "how are you to write to me?" she asked, and they discussed a new obstacle between them. it would never do to write home--never. she was sure of that with an absolute assurance. "my mother--" she said and stopped. that prohibition cut him, for at that time he had the makings of a voluminous letter-writer. yet it was only what one might expect. the whole world was unpropitious--obdurate indeed.... a splendid isolation _à deux_. perhaps she might find some place where letters might be sent to her? yet that seemed to her deceitful. so these two young people wandered on, full of their discovery of love, and yet so full too of the shyness of adolescence that the word "love" never passed their lips that day. yet as they talked on, and the kindly dusk gathered about them, their speech and their hearts came very close together. but their speech would seem so threadbare, written down in cold blood, that i must not put it here. to them it was not threadbare. when at last they came down the long road into whortley, the silent trees were black as ink and the moonlight made her face pallid and wonderful, and her eyes shone like stars. she still carried the blackthorn from which most of the blossoms had fallen. the fragrant wallflowers were fragrant still. and far away, softened by the distance, the whortley band, performing publicly outside the vicarage for the first time that year, was playing with unctuous slowness a sentimental air. i don't know if the reader remembers it that, favourite melody of the early eighties:-- "sweet dreamland faces, passing to and fro, (pum, pum) bring back to mem'ry days of long ago-o-o-oh," was the essence of it, very slow and tender and with an accompaniment of pum, pum. pathetically cheerful that pum, pum, hopelessly cheerful indeed against the dirge of the air, a dirge accentuated by sporadic vocalisation. but to young people things come differently. "i _love_ music," she said. "so do i," said he. they came on down the steepness of west street. they walked athwart the metallic and leathery tumult of sound into the light cast by the little circle of yellow lamps. several people saw them and wondered what the boys and girls were coming to nowadays, and one eye-witness even subsequently described their carriage as "brazen." mr. lewisham was wearing his mortarboard cap of office--there was no mistaking him. they passed the proprietary school and saw a yellow picture framed and glazed, of mr. bonover taking duty for his aberrant assistant master. and outside the frobisher house at last they parted perforce. "good-bye," he said for the third time. "good-bye, ethel." she hesitated. then suddenly she darted towards him. he felt her hands upon his shoulders, her lips soft and warm upon his cheek, and before he could take hold of her she had eluded him, and had flitted into the shadow of the house. "good-bye," came her sweet, clear voice out of the shadow, and while he yet hesitated an answer, the door opened. he saw her, black in the doorway, heard some indistinct words, and then the door closed and he was alone in the moonlight, his cheek still glowing from her lips.... so ended mr. lewisham's first day with love. chapter vii. the reckoning. and after the day of love came the days of reckoning. mr. lewisham was astonished--overwhelmed almost--by that reckoning, as it slowly and steadily unfolded itself. the wonderful emotions of saturday carried him through sunday, and he made it up with the neglected schema by assuring it that she was his inspiration, and that he would work for her a thousand times better than he could possibly work for himself. that was certainly not true, and indeed he found himself wondering whither the interest had vanished out of his theological examination of butler's analogy. the frobishers were not at church for either service. he speculated rather anxiously why? monday dawned coldly and clearly--a herbert spencer of a day--and he went to school sedulously assuring himself there was nothing to apprehend. day boys were whispering in the morning apparently about him, and frobisher ii. was in great request. lewisham overheard a fragment "my mother _was_ in a wax," said frobisher ii. at twelve came an interview with bonover, and voices presently rising in angry altercation and audible to senior-assistant dunkerley through the closed study door. then lewisham walked across the schoolroom, staring straight before him, his cheeks very bright. thereby dunkerley's mind was prepared for the news that came the next morning over the exercise books. "when?" said dunkerley. "end of next term," said lewisham. "about this girl that's been staying at the frobishers?" "yes." "she's a pretty bit of goods. but it will mess up your matric next june," said dunkerley. "that's what i'm sorry for." "it's scarcely to be expected he'll give you leave to attend the exam...." "he won't," said lewisham shortly, and opened his first exercise book. he found it difficult to talk. "he's a greaser," said dunkerley. "but there!--what can you expect from durham?" for bonover had only a durham degree, and dunkerley, having none, inclined to be particular. therewith dunkerley lapsed into a sympathetic and busy rustling over his own pile of exercises. it was not until the heap had been reduced to a book or so that he spoke again--an elaborate point. "male and female created he them," said dunkerley, ticking his way down the page. "which (tick, tick) was damned hard (tick, tick) on assistant masters." he closed the book with a snap and flung it on the floor behind him. "you're lucky," he said. "i _did_ think i should be first to get out of this scandalising hole. you're lucky. it's always acting down here. running on parents and guardians round every corner. that's what i object to in life in the country: it's so confoundedly artificial. _i_ shall take jolly good care _i_ get out of it just as soon as ever i can. you bet!" "and work those patents?" "rather, my boy. yes. work those patents. the patent square top bottle! lord! once let me get to london...." "i think _i_ shall have a shot at london," said lewisham. and then the experienced dunkerley, being one of the kindest young men alive, forgot certain private ambitions of his own--he cherished dreams of amazing patents--and bethought him of agents. he proceeded to give a list of these necessary helpers of the assistant master at the gangway--orellana, gabbitas, the lancaster gate agency, and the rest of them. he knew them all--intimately. he had been a "nix" eight years. "of course that kensington thing may come off," said dunkerley, "but it's best not to wait. i tell you frankly--the chances are against you." the "kensington thing" was an application for admission to the normal school of science at south kensington, which lewisham had made in a sanguine moment. there being an inadequate supply of qualified science teachers in england, the science and art department is wont to offer free instruction at its great central school and a guinea a week to select young pedagogues who will bind themselves to teach science after their training is over. dunkerley had been in the habit of applying for several years, always in vain, and lewisham had seen no harm in following his example. but then dunkerley had no green-grey certificates. so lewisham spent all that "duty" left him of the next day composing a letter to copy out and send the several scholastic agencies. in this he gave a brief but appreciative sketch of his life, and enlarged upon his discipline and educational methods. at the end was a long and decorative schedule of his certificates and distinctions, beginning with a good-conduct prize at the age of eight. a considerable amount of time was required to recopy this document, but his modesty upheld him. after a careful consideration of the time-table, he set aside the midday hour for "correspondence." he found that his work in mathematics and classics was already some time in arrears, and a "test" he had sent to his correspondence tutor during those troublous days after the meeting with bonover in the avenue, came back blottesquely indorsed: "below pass standard." this last experience was so unprecedented and annoyed him so much that for a space he contemplated retorting with a sarcastic letter to the tutor. and then came the easter recess, and he had to go home and tell his mother, with a careful suppression of details, that he was leaving whortley, "where you have been getting on so well!" cried his mother. but that dear old lady had one consolation. she observed he had given up his glasses--he had forgotten to bring them with him--and her secret fear of grave optical troubles--that were being "kept" from her---was alleviated. sometimes he had moods of intense regret for the folly of that walk. one such came after the holidays, when the necessity of revising the dates of the schema brought before his mind, for the first time quite clearly, the practical issue of this first struggle with all those mysterious and powerful influences the spring-time sets a-stirring. his dream of success and fame had been very real and dear to him, and the realisation of the inevitable postponement of his long anticipated matriculation, the doorway to all the other great things, took him abruptly like an actual physical sensation in his chest. he sprang up, pen in hand, in the midst of his corrections, and began pacing up and down the room. "what a fool i have been!" he cried. "what a fool i have been!" he flung the pen on the floor and made a rush at an ill-drawn attempt upon a girl's face that adorned the end of his room, the visible witness of his slavery. he tore this down and sent the fragments of it scattering.... "fool!" it was a relief--a definite abandonment. he stared for a moment at the destruction he had made, and then went back to the revision of the time-table, with a mutter about "silly spooning." that was one mood. the rarer one. he watched the posts with far more eagerness for the address to which he might write to her than for any reply to those reiterated letters of application, the writing of which now ousted horace and the higher mathematics (lewisham's term for conics) from his attention. indeed he spent more time meditating the letter to her than even the schedule of his virtues had required. yet the letters of application were wonderful compositions; each had a new pen to itself and was for the first page at least in a handwriting far above even his usual high standard. and day after day passed and that particular letter he hoped for still did not come. his moods were complicated by the fact that, in spite of his studied reticence on the subject, the reason of his departure did in an amazingly short time get "all over whortley." it was understood that he had been discovered to be "fast," and ethel's behaviour was animadverted upon with complacent indignation--if the phrase may be allowed--by the ladies of the place. pretty looks were too often a snare. one boy--his ear was warmed therefor--once called aloud "ethel," as lewisham went by. the curate, a curate of the pale-faced, large-knuckled, nervous sort, now passed him without acknowledgment of his existence. mrs. bonover took occasion to tell him that he was a "mere boy," and once mrs. frobisher sniffed quite threateningly at him when she passed him in the street. she did it so suddenly she made him jump. this general disapproval inclined him at times to depression, but in certain moods he found it exhilarating, and several times he professed himself to dunkerley not a little of a blade. in others, he told himself he bore it for _her_ sake. anyhow he had to bear it. he began to find out, too, how little the world feels the need of a young man of nineteen--he called himself nineteen, though he had several months of eighteen still to run--even though he adds prizes for good conduct, general improvement, and arithmetic, and advanced certificates signed by a distinguished engineer and headed with the royal arms, guaranteeing his knowledge of geometrical drawing, nautical astronomy, animal physiology, physiography, inorganic chemistry, and building construction, to his youth and strength and energy. at first he had imagined headmasters clutching at the chance of him, and presently he found himself clutching eagerly at them. he began to put a certain urgency into his applications for vacant posts, an urgency that helped him not at all. the applications grew longer and longer until they ran to four sheets of note-paper--a pennyworth in fact. "i can assure you," he would write, "that you will find me a loyal and devoted assistant." much in that strain. dunkerley pointed out that bonover's testimonial ignored the question of moral character and discipline in a marked manner, and bonover refused to alter it. he was willing to do what he could to help lewisham, in spite of the way he had been treated, but unfortunately his conscience.... once or twice lewisham misquoted the testimonial--to no purpose. and may was halfway through, and south kensington was silent. the future was grey. and in the depths of his doubt and disappointment came her letter. it was typewritten on thin paper. "dear," she wrote simply, and it seemed to him the most sweet and wonderful of all possible modes of address, though as a matter of fact it was because she had forgotten his christian name and afterwards forgotten the blank she had left for it. "dear, i could not write before because i have no room at home now where i can write a letter, and mrs. frobisher told my mother falsehoods about you. my mother has surprised me dreadfully--i did not think it of her. she told me nothing. but of that i must tell you in another letter. i am too angry to write about it now. even now you cannot write back, for _you must not send letters here_. it would _never_ do. but i think of you, dear,"--the "dear" had been erased and rewritten--"and i must write and tell you so, and of that nice walk we had, if i never write again. i am very busy now. my work is rather difficult and i am afraid i am a little stupid. it is hard to be interested in anything just because that is how you have to live, is it not? i daresay you sometimes feel the same of school. but i suppose everybody is doing things they don't like. i don't know when i shall come to whortley again, if ever, but very likely you will be coming to london. mrs. frobisher said the most horrid things. it would be nice if you could come to london, because then perhaps you might see me. there is a big boys' school at chelsea, and when i go by it every morning i wish you were there. then you would come out in your cap and gown as i went by. suppose some day i was to see you there suddenly!!" so it ran, with singularly little information in it, and ended quite abruptly, "good-bye, dear. good-bye, dear," scribbled in pencil. and then, "think of me sometimes." reading it, and especially that opening "dear," made lewisham feel the strangest sensation in his throat and chest, almost as though he was going to cry. so he laughed instead and read it again, and went to and fro in his little room with his eyes bright and that precious writing held in his hand. that "dear" was just as if she had spoken--a voice suddenly heard. he thought of her farewell, clear and sweet, out of the shadow of the moonlit house. but why that "if i never write again," and that abrupt ending? of course he would think of her. it was her only letter. in a little time its creases were worn through. early in june came a loneliness that suddenly changed into almost intolerable longing to see her. he had vague dreams of going to london, to clapham to find her. but you do not find people in clapham as you do in whortley. he spent an afternoon writing and re-writing a lengthy letter, against the day when her address should come. if it was to come. he prowled about the village disconsolately, and at last set off about seven and retraced by moonlight almost every step of that one memorable walk of theirs. in the blackness of the shed he worked himself up to the pitch of talking as if she were present. and he said some fine brave things. he found the little old lady of the wallflowers with a candle in her window, and drank a bottle of ginger beer with a sacramental air. the little old lady asked him, a trifle archly, after his sister, and he promised to bring her again some day. "i'll certainly bring her," he said. talking to the little old lady somehow blunted his sense of desolation. and then home through the white indistinctness in a state of melancholy that became at last so fine as to be almost pleasurable. the day after that mood a new "text" attracted and perplexed mrs. munday, an inscription at once mysterious and familiar, and this inscription was: mizpah. it was in old english lettering and evidently very carefully executed. where had she seen it before? it quite dominated all the rest of the room at first, it flaunted like a flag of triumph over "discipline" and the time-table and the schema. once indeed it was taken down, but the day after it reappeared. later a list of scholastic vacancies partially obscured it, and some pencil memoranda were written on the margin. and when at last the time came for him to pack up and leave whortley, he took it down and used it with several other suitable papers--the schema and the time-table were its next-door neighbours--to line the bottom of the yellow box in which he packed his books: chiefly books for that matriculation that had now to be postponed. chapter viii. the career prevails. there is an interval of two years and a half and the story resumes with a much maturer mr. lewisham, indeed no longer a youth, but a man, a legal man, at any rate, of one-and-twenty years. its scene is no longer little whortley embedded among its trees, ruddy banks, parks and common land, but the grey spaciousness of west london. and it does not resume with ethel at all. for that promised second letter never reached him, and though he spent many an afternoon during his first few months in london wandering about clapham, that arid waste of people, the meeting that he longed for never came. until at last, after the manner of youth, so gloriously recuperative in body, heart, and soul, he began to forget. the quest of a "crib" had ended in the unexpected fruition of dunkerley's blue paper. the green-blue certificates had, it seemed, a value beyond mural decoration, and when lewisham was already despairing of any employment for the rest of his life, came a marvellous blue document from the education department promising inconceivable things. he was to go to london and be paid a guinea a week for listening to lectures--lectures beyond his most ambitious dreams! among the names that swam before his eyes was huxley--huxley and then lockyer! what a chance to get! is it any wonder that for three memorable years the career prevailed with him? you figure him on his way to the normal school of science at the opening of his third year of study there. (they call the place the royal college of science in these latter days.) he carried in his right hand a shiny black bag, well stuffed with text-books, notes, and apparatus for the forthcoming session; and in his left was a book that the bag had no place for, a book with gilt edges, and its binding very carefully protected by a brown paper cover. the lapse of time had asserted itself upon his upper lip in an inaggressive but indisputable moustache, in an added inch or so of stature, and in his less conscious carriage. for he no longer felt that universal attention he believed in at eighteen; it was beginning to dawn on him indeed that quite a number of people were entirely indifferent to the fact of his existence. but if less conscious, his carriage was decidedly more confident--as of one with whom the world goes well. his costume was--with one exception--a tempered black,--mourning put to hard uses and "cutting up rusty." the mourning was for his mother, who had died more than a year before the date when this story resumes, and had left him property that capitalized at nearly a hundred pounds, a sum which lewisham hoarded jealously in the savings bank, paying only for such essentials as university fees, and the books and instruments his brilliant career as a student demanded. for he was having a brilliant career, after all, in spite of the whortley check, licking up paper certificates indeed like a devouring flame. (surveying him, madam, your eye would inevitably have fallen to his collar--curiously shiny, a surface like wet gum. although it has practically nothing to do with this story, i must, i know, dispose of that before i go on, or you will be inattentive. london has its mysteries, but this strange gloss on his linen! "cheap laundresses always make your things blue," protests the lady. "it ought to have been blue-stained, generously frayed, and loose about the button, fretting his neck. but this gloss ..." you would have looked nearer, and finally you would have touched--a charnel-house surface, dank and cool! you see, madam, the collar was a patent waterproof one. one of those you wash over night with a tooth-brush, and hang on the back of your chair to dry, and there you have it next morning rejuvenesced. it was the only collar he had in the world, it saved threepence a week at least, and that, to a south kensington "science teacher in training," living on the guinea a week allowed by a parental but parsimonious government, is a sum to consider. it had come to lewisham as a great discovery. he had seen it first in a shop window full of indiarubber goods, and it lay at the bottom of a glass bowl in which goldfish drifted discontentedly to and fro. and he told himself that he rather liked that gloss.) but the wearing of a bright red tie would have been unexpected--a bright red tie after the fashion of a south-western railway guard's! the rest of him by no means dandiacal, even the vanity of glasses long since abandoned. you would have reflected.... where had you seen a crowd--red ties abundant and in some way significant? the truth has to be told. mr. lewisham had become a socialist! that red tie was indeed but one outward and visible sign of much inward and spiritual development. lewisham, in spite of the demands of a studious career, had read his butler's analogy through by this time, and some other books; he had argued, had had doubts, and called upon god for "faith" in the silence of the night--"faith" to be delivered immediately if mr. lewisham's patronage was valued, and which nevertheless was not so delivered.... and his conception of his destiny in this world was no longer an avenue of examinations to a remote bar and political eminence "in the liberal interest (d.v.)." he had begun to realise certain aspects of our social order that whortley did not demonstrate, begun to feel something of the dull stress deepening to absolute wretchedness and pain, which is the colour of so much human life in modern london. one vivid contrast hung in his mind symbolical. on the one hand were the coalies of the westbourne park yards, on strike and gaunt and hungry, children begging in the black slush, and starving loungers outside a soup kitchen; and on the other, westbourne grove, two streets further, a blazing array of crowded shops, a stirring traffic of cabs and carriages, and such a spate of spending that a tired student in leaky boots and graceless clothes hurrying home was continually impeded in the whirl of skirts and parcels and sweetly pretty womanliness. no doubt the tired student's own inglorious sensations pointed the moral. but that was only one of a perpetually recurring series of vivid approximations. lewisham had a strong persuasion, an instinct it may be, that human beings should not be happy while others near them were wretched, and this gay glitter of prosperity had touched him with a sense of crime. he still believed people were responsible for their own lives; in those days he had still to gauge the possibilities of moral stupidity in himself and his fellow-men. he happened upon "progress and poverty" just then, and some casual numbers of the "commonweal," and it was only too easy to accept the theory of cunning plotting capitalists and landowners, and faultless, righteous, martyr workers. he became a socialist forthwith. the necessity to do something at once to manifest the new faith that was in him was naturally urgent. so he went out and (historical moment) bought that red tie! "blood colour, please," said lewisham meekly to the young lady at the counter. "_what_ colour?" said the young lady at the counter, sharply. "a bright scarlet, please," said lewisham, blushing. and he spent the best part of the evening and much of his temper in finding out how to tie this into a neat bow. it was a plunge into novel handicraft--for previously he had been accustomed to made-up ties. so it was that lewisham proclaimed the social revolution. the first time that symbol went abroad a string of stalwart policemen were walking in single file along the brompton road. in the opposite direction marched lewisham. he began to hum. he passed the policemen with a significant eye and humming the _marseillaise_.... but that was months ago, and by this time the red tie was a thing of use and wont. he turned out of the exhibition road through a gateway of wrought iron, and entered the hall of the normal school. the hall was crowded with students carrying books, bags, and boxes of instruments, students standing and chattering, students reading the framed and glazed notices of the debating society, students buying note-books, pencils, rubber, or drawing pins from the privileged stationer. there was a strong representation of new hands, the paying students, youths and young men in black coats and silk hats or tweed suits, the scholar contingent, youngsters of lewisham's class, raw, shabby, discordant, grotesquely ill-dressed and awe-stricken; one lewisham noticed with a sailor's peaked cap gold-decorated, and one with mittens and very genteel grey kid gloves; and grummett the perennial official of the books was busy among them. "der zozalist!" said a wit. lewisham pretended not to hear and blushed vividly. he often wished he did not blush quite so much, seeing he was a man of one-and-twenty. he looked studiously away from the debating society notice-board, whereon "g.e. lewisham on socialism" was announced for the next friday, and struggled through the hall to where the book awaited his signature. presently he was hailed by name, and then again. he could not get to the book for a minute or so, because of the hand-shaking and clumsy friendly jests of his fellow-"men." he was pointed out to a raw hand, by the raw hand's experienced fellow-townsman, as "that beast lewisham--awful swat. he was second last year on the year's work. frightful mugger. but all these swats have a touch of the beastly prig. exams--debating society--more exams. don't seem to have ever heard of being alive. never goes near a music hall from one year's end to the other." lewisham heard a shrill whistle, made a run for the lift and caught it just on the point of departure. the lift was unlit and full of black shadows; only the sapper who conducted it was distinct. as lewisham peered doubtfully at the dim faces near him, a girl's voice addressed him by name. "is that you, miss heydinger?" he answered. "i didn't see, i hope you have had a pleasant vacation." chapter ix. alice heydinger. when he arrived at the top of the building he stood aside for the only remaining passenger to step out before him. it was the miss heydinger who had addressed him, the owner of that gilt-edged book in the cover of brown paper. no one else had come all the way up from the ground floor. the rest of the load in the lift had emerged at the "astronomical" and "chemical" floors, but these two had both chosen "zoology" for their third year of study, and zoology lived in the attics. she stepped into the light, with a rare touch of colour springing to her cheeks in spite of herself. lewisham perceived an alteration in her dress. perhaps she was looking for and noticed the transitory surprise in his face. the previous session--their friendship was now nearly a year old--it had never once dawned upon him that she could possibly be pretty. the chief thing he had been able to recall with any definiteness during the vacation was, that her hair was not always tidy, and that even when it chanced to be so, she was nervous about it; she distrusted it. he remembered her gesture while she talked, a patting exploration that verged on the exasperating. from that he went on to remember that its colour was, on the whole, fair, a light brown. but he had forgotten her mouth, he had failed to name the colour of her eyes. she wore glasses, it is true. and her dress was indefinite in his memory--an amorphous dinginess. and yet he had seen a good deal of her. they were not in the same course, but he had made her acquaintance on the committee of the school debating society. lewisham was just then discovering socialism. that had afforded a basis of conversation--an incentive to intercourse. she seemed to find something rarely interesting in his peculiar view of things, and, as chance would have it, he met her accidentally quite a number of times, in the corridors of the schools, in the big education library, and in the art museum. after a time those meetings appear to have been no longer accidental. lewisham for the first time in his life began to fancy he had conversational powers. she resolved to stir up his ambitions--an easy task. she thought he had exceptional gifts and that she might serve to direct them; she certainly developed his vanity. she had matriculated at the london university and they took the intermediate examination in science together in july--she a little unwisely--which served, as almost anything will serve in such cases, as a further link between them. she failed, which in no way diminished lewisham's regard for her. on the examination days they discoursed about friendship in general, and things like that, down the burlington arcade during the lunch time--burlington arcade undisguisedly amused by her learned dinginess and his red tie--and among other things that were said she reproached him for not reading poetry. when they parted in piccadilly, after the examination, they agreed to write, about poetry and themselves, during the holidays, and then she lent him, with a touch of hesitation, rossetti's poems. he began to forget what had at first been very evident to him, that she was two or three years older than he. lewisham spent the vacation with an unsympathetic but kindly uncle who was a plumber and builder. his uncle had a family of six, the eldest eleven, and lewisham made himself agreeable and instructive. moreover he worked hard for the culminating third year of his studies (in which he had decided to do great things), and he learnt to ride the ordinary bicycle. he also thought about miss heydinger, and she, it would seem, thought about him. he argued on social questions with his uncle, who was a prominent local conservative. his uncle's controversial methods were coarse in the extreme. socialists, he said, were thieves. the object of socialism was to take away what a man earned and give it to "a lot of lazy scoundrels." also rich people were necessary. "if there weren't well-off people, how d'ye think i'd get a livin'? hey? and where'd _you_ be then?" socialism, his uncle assured him, was "got up" by agitators. "they get money out of young gabies like you, and they spend it in champagne." and thereafter he met mr. lewisham's arguments with the word "champagne" uttered in an irritating voice, followed by a luscious pantomime of drinking. naturally lewisham felt a little lonely, and perhaps he laid stress upon it in his letters to miss heydinger. it came to light that she felt rather lonely too. they discussed the question of true as distinguished from ordinary friendship, and from that they passed to goethe and elective affinities. he told her how he looked for her letters, and they became more frequent. her letters were indisputably well written. had he been a journalist with a knowledge of "_per thou_." he would have known each for a day's work. after the practical plumber had been asking what he expected to make by this here science of his, re-reading her letters was balsamic. he liked rossetti--the exquisite sense of separation in "the blessed damozel" touched him. but, on the whole, he was a little surprised at miss heydinger's taste in poetry. rossetti was so sensuous ... so florid. he had scarcely expected that sort of thing. altogether he had returned to the schools decidedly more interested in her than when they had parted. and the curious vague memories of her appearance as something a little frayed and careless, vanished at sight of her emerging from the darkness of the lift. her hair was in order, as the light glanced through it it looked even pretty, and she wore a well-made, dark-green and black dress, loose-gathered as was the fashion in those days, that somehow gave a needed touch of warmth to her face. her hat too was a change from the careless lumpishness of last year, a hat that, to a feminine mind, would have indicated design. it suited her--these things are past a male novelist's explaining. "i have this book of yours, miss heydinger," he said. "i am glad you have written that paper on socialism," she replied, taking the brown-covered volume. they walked along the little passage towards the biological laboratory side by side, and she stopped at the hat pegs to remove her hat. for that was the shameless way of the place, a girl student had to take her hat off publicly, and publicly assume the holland apron that was to protect her in the laboratory. not even a looking-glass! "i shall come and hear your paper," she said. "i hope you will like it," said lewisham at the door of the laboratory. "and in the vacation i have been collecting evidence about ghosts--you remember our arguments. though i did not tell you in my letters." "i'm sorry you're still obdurate," said lewisham. "i thought that was over." "and have you read 'looking backward'?" "i want to." "i have it here with my other books, if you'd care for me to lend it to you. wait till i reach my table. my hands are so full." they entered the laboratory together, lewisham holding the door open courtly-wise, miss heydinger taking a reassuring pat at her hair. near the door was a group of four girls, which group miss heydinger joined, holding the brown-covered book as inconspicuously as possible. three of them had been through the previous two years with her, and they greeted her by her christian name. they had previously exchanged glances at her appearance in lewisham's company. a morose elderly young demonstrator brightened momentarily at the sight of lewisham. "well, we've got one of the decent ones anyhow," said the morose elderly young demonstrator, who was apparently taking an inventory, and then brightening at a fresh entry. "ah! and here's smithers." chapter x. in the gallery of old iron. as one goes into the south kensington art museum from the brompton road, the gallery of old iron is overhead to the right. but the way thither is exceedingly devious and not to be revealed to everybody, since the young people who pursue science and art thereabouts set a peculiar value on its seclusion. the gallery is long and narrow and dark, and set with iron gates, iron-bound chests, locks, bolts and bars, fantastic great keys, lamps, and the like, and over the balustrade one may lean and talk of one's finer feelings and regard michael angelo's horned moses, or trajan's column (in plaster) rising gigantic out of the hall below and far above the level of the gallery. and here, on a wednesday afternoon, were lewisham and miss heydinger, the wednesday afternoon immediately following that paper upon socialism, that you saw announced on the notice-board in the hall. the paper had been an immense success, closely reasoned, delivered with a disciplined emotion, the redoubtable smithers practically converted, the reply after the debate methodical and complete, and it may be there were symptoms of that febrile affection known to the vulgar as "swelled 'ed." lewisham regarded moses and spoke of his future. miss heydinger for the most part watched his face. "and then?" said miss heydinger. "one must bring these views prominently before people. i believe still in pamphlets. i have thought ..." lewisham paused, it is to be hoped through modesty. "yes?" said miss heydinger. "well--luther, you know. there is room, i think, in socialism, for a luther." "yes," said miss heydinger, imagining it. "yes--that would be a grand way." so it seemed to many people in those days. but eminent reformers have been now for more than seven years going about the walls of the social jericho, blowing their own trumpets and shouting--with such small result beyond incidental displays of ill-temper within, that it is hard to recover the fine hopefulness of those departed days. "yes," said miss heydinger. "that would be a grand way." lewisham appreciated the quality of personal emotion in her voice. he turned his face towards her, and saw unstinted admiration in her eyes. "it would be a great thing to do," he said, and added, quite modestly, "if only one could do it." "_you_ could do it." "you think i could?" lewisham blushed vividly--with pleasure. "i do. certainly you could set out to do it. even to fail hopelessly would be great. sometimes ..." she hesitated. he looked expectation. "i think sometimes it is greater even to fail than to succeed." "i don't see that," said the proposed luther, and his eyes went back to the moses. she was about to speak, and changed her mind. contemplative pause. "and then, when a great number of people have heard of your views?" she said presently. "then i suppose we must form a party and ... bring things about." another pause--full, no doubt, of elevated thoughts. "i say," said lewisham quite suddenly. "you do put--well--courage into a chap. i shouldn't have done that socialism paper if it hadn't been for you." he turned round and stood leaning with his back to the moses, and smiling at her. "you do help a fellow," he said. that was one of the vivid moments of miss heydinger's life. she changed colour a little. "do i?" she said, standing straight and awkward and looking into his face, "i'm ... glad." "i haven't thanked you for your letters," said lewisham, "and i've been thinking ..." "yes?" "we're first-rate friends, aren't we? the best of friends." she held out her hand and drew a breath. "yes," she said as they gripped. he hesitated whether to hold her hand. he looked into her eyes, and at that moment she would have given three-quarters of the years she had still to live, to have had eyes and features that could have expressed her. instead, she felt her face hard, the little muscles of her mouth twitching insubordinate, and fancied that her self-consciousness made her eyes dishonest. "what i mean," said lewisham, "is--that this will go on. we're always going to be friends, side by side." "always. just as i am able to help you--i will help you. however i can help you, i will." "we two," said lewisham, gripping her hand. her face lit. her eyes were for a moment touched with the beauty of simple emotion. "we two," she said, and her lips trembled and her throat seemed to swell. she snatched her hand back suddenly and turned her face away. abruptly she walked towards the end of the gallery, and he saw her fumbling for her handkerchief in the folds of the green and black dress. she was going to cry! it set lewisham marvelling--this totally inappropriate emotion. he followed her and stood by her. why cry? he hoped no one would come into the little gallery until her handkerchief was put away. nevertheless he felt vaguely flattered. she controlled herself, dashed her tears away, and smiled bravely at him with reddened eyes. "i'm sorry," she said, gulping. "i am so glad," she explained. "but we will fight together. we two. i _can_ help you. i know i can help you. and there is such work to be done in the world!" "you are very good to help me," said lewisham, quoting a phrase from what he had intended to say before he found out that he had a hold upon her emotions. "no! "has it ever occurred to you," she said abruptly, "how little a woman can do alone in the world?" "or a man," he answered after a momentary meditation. so it was lewisham enrolled his first ally in the cause of the red tie--of the red tie and of the greatness that was presently to come. his first ally; for hitherto--save for the indiscretion of his mural inscriptions--he had made a secret of his private ambitions. in that now half-forgotten love affair at whortley even, he had, in spite of the considerable degree of intimacy attained, said absolutely nothing about his career. chapter xi. manifestations. miss heydinger declined to disbelieve in the spirits of the dead, and this led to controversy in the laboratory over tea. for the girl students, being in a majority that year, had organised tea between four o'clock and the advent of the extinguishing policeman at five. and the men students were occasionally invited to tea. but not more than two of them at a time really participated, because there were only two spare cups after that confounded simmons broke the third. smithers, the square-headed student with the hard grey eyes, argued against the spirits of the dead with positive animosity, while bletherley, who displayed an orange tie and lank hair in unshorn abundance, was vaguely open-minded, "what is love?" asked bletherley, "surely that at any rate is immortal!" his remark was considered irrelevant and ignored. lewisham, as became the most promising student of the year, weighed the evidence--comprehensively under headings. he dismissed the mediumistic _séances_ as trickery. "rot and imposture," said smithers loudly, and with an oblique glance to see if his challenge reached its mark. its mark was a grizzled little old man with a very small face and very big grey eyes, who had been standing listlessly at one of the laboratory windows until the discussion caught him. he wore a brown velvet jacket and was reputed to be enormously rich. his name was lagune. he was not a regular attendant, but one of those casual outsiders who are admitted to laboratories that are not completely full. he was known to be an ardent spiritualist--it was even said that he had challenged huxley to a public discussion on materialism, and he came to the biological lectures and worked intermittently, in order, he explained, to fight disbelief with its own weapons. he rose greedily to smithers' controversial bait. "i say _no_!" he said, calling down the narrow laboratory and following his voice. he spoke with the ghost of a lisp. "pardon my interrupting, sir. the question interests me profoundly. i hope i don't intrude. excuse me, sir. make it personal. am i a--fool, or an impostor?" "well," parried smithers, with all a south kensington student's want of polish, "that's a bit personal." "assume, sir, that i am an honest observer." "well?" "i have _seen_ spirits, _heard_ spirits, _felt_ the touch of spirits," he opened his pale eyes very widely. "fool, then," said smithers in an undertone which did not reach the ears of the spiritualist. "you may have been deceived," paraphrased lewisham. "i can assure you ... others can see, hear, feel. i have tested, sir. tested! i have some scientific training and i have employed tests. scientific and exhaustive tests! every possible way. i ask you, sir--have you given the spirits a chance?" "it is only paying guineas to humbugs," said smithers. "there you are! prejudice! here is a man denies the facts and consequently _won't_ see them, won't go near them." "but you wouldn't have every man in the three kingdoms, who disbelieved in spirits, attend _séances_ before he should be allowed to deny?" "most assuredly yes. most assuredly yes! he knows nothing about it till then." the argument became heated. the little old gentleman was soon under way. he knew a person of the most extraordinary gifts, a medium ... "paid?" asked smithers. "would you muzzle the ox that treadeth out the corn?" said lagune promptly. smithers' derision was manifest. "would you distrust a balance because you bought it? come and see." lagune was now very excited and inclined to gesticulate and raise his voice. he invited the whole class incontinently to a series of special _séances_. "not all at once--the spirits--new influences." but in sections. "i warn you we may get nothing. but the chances are ... i would rejoice infinitely ..." so it came about that lewisham consented to witness a spirit-raising. miss heydinger it was arranged should be there, and the sceptic smithers, lagune, his typewriter and the medium would complete the party. afterwards there was to be another party for the others. lewisham was glad he had the moral support of smithers. "it's an evening wasted," said smithers, who had gallantly resolved to make the running for lewisham in the contest for the forbes medal. "but i'll prove my case. you see if i don't." they were given an address in chelsea. the house, when lewisham found it at last, proved a large one, with such an air of mellowed dignity that he was abashed. he hung his hat up for himself beside a green-trimmed hat of straw in the wide, rich-toned hall. through an open door he had a glimpse of a palatial study, book shelves bearing white busts, a huge writing-table lit by a green-shaded electric lamp and covered thickly with papers. the housemaid looked, he thought, with infinite disdain at the rusty mourning and flamboyant tie, and flounced about and led him upstairs. she rapped, and there was a discussion within. "they're at it already, i believe," she said to lewisham confidentially. "mr. lagune's always at it." there were sounds of chairs being moved, smithers' extensive voice making a suggestion and laughing nervously. lagune appeared opening the door. his grizzled face seemed smaller and his big grey eyes larger than usual. "we were just going to begin without you," he whispered. "come along." the room was furnished even more finely than the drawing-room of the whortley grammar school, hitherto the finest room (except certain of the state apartments at windsor) known to lewisham. the furniture struck him in a general way as akin to that in the south kensington museum. his first impression was an appreciation of the vast social superiority of the chairs; it seemed impertinent to think of sitting on anything quite so quietly stately. he perceived smithers standing with an air of bashful hostility against a bookcase. then he was aware that lagune was asking them all to sit down. already seated at the table was the medium, chaffery, a benevolent-looking, faintly shabby gentleman with bushy iron-grey side-whiskers, a wide, thin-lipped mouth tucked in at the corners, and a chin like the toe of a boot. he regarded lewisham critically and disconcertingly over gilt glasses. miss heydinger was quite at her ease and began talking at once. lewisham's replies were less confident than they had been in the gallery of old iron; indeed there was almost a reversal of their positions. she led and he was abashed. he felt obscurely that she had taken an advantage of him. he became aware of another girlish figure in a dark dress on his right. everyone moved towards the round table in the centre of the room, on which lay a tambourine and a little green box. lagune developed unsuspected lengths of knobby wrist and finger directing his guests to their seats. lewisham was to sit next to him, between him and the medium; beyond the medium sat smithers with miss heydinger on the other side of him, linked to lagune by the typewriter. so sceptics compassed the medium about. the company was already seated before lewisham looked across lagune and met the eyes of the girl next that gentleman. it was ethel! the close green dress, the absence of a hat, and a certain loss of colour made her seem less familiar, but did not prevent the instant recognition. and there was recognition in her eyes. immediately she looked away. at first his only emotion was surprise. he would have spoken, but a little thing robbed him of speech. for a moment he was unable to remember her surname. moreover, the strangeness of his surroundings made him undecided. he did not know what was the proper way to address her--and he still kept to the superstition of etiquette. besides--to speak to her would involve a general explanation to all these people ... "just leave a pin-point of gas, mr. smithers, please," said lagune, and suddenly the one surviving jet of the gas chandelier was turned down and they were in darkness. the moment for recognition had passed. the joining of hands was punctiliously verified, the circle was linked little finger to little finger. lewisham's abstraction received a rebuke from smithers. the medium, speaking in an affable voice, premised that he could promise nothing, he had no "_directing_" power over manifestations. thereafter ensued a silence.... for a space lewisham was inattentive to all that happened. he sat in the breathing darkness, staring at the dim elusive shape that had presented that remembered face. his mind was astonishment mingled with annoyance. he had settled that this girl was lost to him for ever. the spell of the old days of longing, of the afternoons that he had spent after his arrival in london, wandering through clapham with a fading hope of meeting her, had not returned to him. but he was ashamed of his stupid silence, and irritated by the awkwardness of the situation. at one moment he was on the very verge of breaking the compact and saying "miss henderson" across the table.... how was it he had forgotten that "henderson"? he was still young enough to be surprised at forgetfulness. smithers coughed, one might imagine with a warning intention. lewisham, recalling his detective responsibility with an effort, peered about him, but the room was very dark. the silence was broken ever and again by deep sighs and a restless stirring from the medium. out of this mental confusion lewisham's personal vanity was first to emerge. what did she think of him? was she peering at him through the darkness even as he peered at her? should he pretend to see her for the first time when the lights were restored? as the minutes lengthened it seemed as though the silence grew deeper and deeper. there was no fire in the room, and it looked, for lack of that glow, chilly. a curious scepticism arose in his mind as to whether he had actually seen ethel or only mistaken someone else for her. he wanted the _séance_ over in order that he might look at her again. the old days at whortley came out of his memory with astonishing detail and yet astonishingly free from emotion.... he became aware of a peculiar sensation down his back, that he tried to account for as a draught.... suddenly a beam of cold air came like a touch against his face, and made him shudder convulsively. then he hoped that she had not marked his shudder. he thought of laughing a low laugh to show he was not afraid. someone else shuddered too, and he perceived an extraordinarily vivid odour of violets. lagune's finger communicated a nervous quivering. what was happening? the musical box somewhere on the table began playing a rather trivial, rather plaintive air that was strange to him. it seemed to deepen the silence about him, an accent on the expectant stillness, a thread of tinkling melody spanning an abyss. lewisham took himself in hand at this stage. what _was_ happening? he must attend. was he really watching as he should do? he had been wool-gathering. there were no such things as spirits, mediums were humbugs, and he was here to prove that sole remaining gospel. but he must keep up with things--he was missing points. what was that scent of violets? and who had set the musical box going? the medium, of course; but how? he tried to recall whether he had heard a rustling or detected any movement before the music began. he could not recollect. come! he must be more on the alert than this! he became acutely desirous of a successful exposure. he figured the dramatic moment he had prepared with smithers--ethel a spectator. he peered suspiciously into the darkness. somebody shuddered again, someone opposite him this time. he felt lagune's finger quiver still more palpably, and then suddenly the raps began, abruptly, all about him. _rap_!--making him start violently. a swift percussive sound, tap, rap, dap, under the table, under the chair, in the air, round the cornices. the medium groaned again and shuddered, and his nervous agitation passed sympathetically round the circle. the music seemed to fade to the vanishing point and grew louder again. how was it done? he heard lagune's voice next him speaking with a peculiar quality of breathless reverence, "the alphabet?" he asked, "shall we--shall we use the alphabet?" a forcible rap under the table. "no!" interpreted the voice of the medium. the raps were continued everywhere. of course it was trickery, lewisham endeavoured to think what the mechanism was. he tried to determine whether he really had the medium's little finger touching his. he peered at the dark shape next him. there was a violent rapping far away behind them with an almost metallic resonance. then the raps ceased, and over the healing silence the little jet of melody from the musical box played alone. and after a moment that ceased also.... the stillness was profound, mr. lewisham was now highly strung. doubts assailed him suddenly, and an overwhelming apprehension, a sense of vast occurrences gathering above him. the darkness was a physical oppression.... he started. something had stirred on the table. there was the sharp ping of metal being struck. a number of little crepitating sounds like paper being smoothed. the sound of wind without the movement of air. a sense of a presence hovering over the table. the excitement of lagune communicated itself in convulsive tremblings; the medium's hand quivered. in the darkness on the table something faintly luminous, a greenish-white patch, stirred and hopped slowly among the dim shapes. the object, whatever it was, hopped higher, rose slowly in the air, expanded. lewisham's attention followed this slavishly. it was ghostly--unaccountable--marvellous. for the moment he forgot even ethel. higher and higher this pallid luminosity rose overhead, and then he saw that it was a ghostly hand and arm, rising, rising. slowly, deliberately it crossed the table, seemed to touch lagune, who shivered. it moved slowly round and touched lewisham. he gritted his teeth. there was no mistaking the touch, firm and yet soft, of finger-tips. almost simultaneously, miss heydinger cried out that something was smoothing her hair, and suddenly the musical box set off again with a reel. the faint oval of the tambourine rose, jangled, and lewisham heard it pat smithers in the face. it seemed to pass overhead. immediately a table somewhere beyond the medium began moving audibly on its castors. it seemed impossible that the medium, sitting so still beside him, could be doing all these things--grotesquely unmeaning though they might be. after all.... the ghostly hand was hovering almost directly in front of mr. lewisham's eyes. it hung with a slight quivering. ever and again its fingers flapped down and rose stiffly again. noise! a loud noise it seemed. something moving? what was it he had to do? lewisham suddenly missed the medium's little finger. he tried to recover it. he could not find it. he caught, held and lost an arm. there was an exclamation. a faint report. a curse close to him bitten in half by the quick effort to suppress it. tzit! the little pinpoint of light flew up with a hiss. lewisham, standing, saw a circle of blinking faces turned to the group of two this sizzling light revealed. smithers was the chief figure of the group; he stood triumphant, one hand on the gas tap, the other gripping the medium's wrist, and in the medium's hand--the incriminatory tambourine. "how's this, lewisham?" cried smithers, with the shadows on his face jumping as the gas flared. "_caught_!" said lewisham loudly, rising in his place and avoiding ethel's eyes. "what's this?" cried the medium. "cheating," panted smithers. "not so," cried the medium. "when you turned up the light ... put my hand up ... caught tambourine ... to save head." "mr. smithers," cried lagune. "mr. smithers, this is very wrong. this--shock--" the tambourine fell noisily to the floor. the medium's face changed, he groaned strangely and staggered back. lagune cried out for a glass of water. everyone looked at the man, expecting him to fall, save lewisham. the thought of ethel had flashed back into his mind. he turned to see how she took this exposure in which he was such a prominent actor. he saw her leaning over the table as if to pick up something that lay across it. she was not looking at him, she was looking at the medium. her face was set and white. then, as if she felt his glance, her eyes met his. she started back, stood erect, facing him with a strange hardness in her eyes. in the moment lewisham did not grasp the situation. he wanted to show that he was acting upon equal terms with smithers in the exposure. for the moment her action simply directed his attention to the object towards which she had been leaning, a thing of shrivelled membrane, a pneumatic glove, lying on the table. this was evidently part of the mediumistic apparatus. he pounced and seized it. "look!" he said, holding it towards smithers. "here is more! what is this?" he perceived that the girl started. he saw chaffery, the medium, look instantly over smithers' shoulders, saw his swift glance of reproach at the girl. abruptly the situation appeared to lewisham; he perceived her complicity. and he stood, still in the attitude of triumph, with the evidence against her in his hand! but his triumph had vanished. "ah!" cried smithers, leaning across the table to secure it. "_good_ old lewisham!... now we _have_ it. this is better than the tambourine." his eyes shone with triumph. "do you see, mr. lagune?" said smithers. "the medium held this in his teeth and blew it out. there's no denying this. this wasn't falling on your head, mr. medium, was it? _this_--this was the luminous hand!" chapter xii. lewisham is unaccountable. that night, as she went with him to chelsea station, miss heydinger discovered an extraordinary moodiness in lewisham. she had been vividly impressed by the scene in which they had just participated, she had for a time believed in the manifestations; the swift exposure had violently revolutionised her ideas. the details of the crisis were a little confused in her mind. she ranked lewisham with smithers in the scientific triumph of the evening. on the whole she felt elated. she had no objection to being confuted by lewisham. but she was angry with the medium, "it is dreadful," she said. "living a lie! how can the world grow better, when sane, educated people use their sanity and enlightenment to darken others? it is dreadful! "he was a horrible man--such an oily, dishonest voice. and the girl--i was sorry for her. she must have been oh!--bitterly ashamed, or why should she have burst out crying? that _did_ distress me. fancy crying like that! it was--yes--_abandon_. but what can one do?" she paused. lewisham was walking along, looking straight before him, lost in some grim argument with himself. "it makes me think of sludge the medium," she said. he made no answer. she glanced at him suddenly. "have you read sludge the medium?" "eigh?" he said, coming back out of infinity. "what? i beg your pardon. sludge, the medium? i thought his name was--it _was_--chaffery." he looked at her, clearly very anxious upon this question of fact. "but i mean browning's 'sludge.' you know the poem." "no--i'm afraid i don't," said lewisham. "i must lend it to you," she said. "it's splendid. it goes to the very bottom of this business." "does it?" "it never occurred to me before. but i see the point clearly now. if people, poor people, are offered money if phenomena happen, it's too much. they are _bound_ to cheat. it's bribery--immorality!" she talked in panting little sentences, because lewisham was walking in heedless big strides. "i wonder how much--such people--could earn honestly." lewisham slowly became aware of the question at his ear. he hurried back from infinity. "how much they could earn honestly? i haven't the slightest idea." he paused. "the whole of this business puzzles me," he said. "i want to think." "it's frightfully complex, isn't it?" she said--a little staggered. but the rest of the way to the station was silence. they parted with a hand-clasp they took a pride in--a little perfunctory so far as lewisham was concerned on this occasion. she scrutinised his face as the train moved out of the station, and tried to account for his mood. he was staring before him at unknown things as if he had already forgotten her. he wanted to think! but two heads, she thought, were better than one in a matter of opinion. it troubled her to be so ignorant of his mental states. "how we are wrapped and swathed about--soul from soul!" she thought, staring out of the window at the dim things flying by outside. suddenly a fit of depression came upon her. she felt alone--absolutely alone--in a void world. presently she returned to external things. she became aware of two people in the next compartment eyeing her critically. her hand went patting at her hair. chapter xiii. lewisham insists. ethel henderson sat at her machine before the window of mr. lagume's study, and stared blankly at the greys and blues of the november twilight. her face was white, her eyelids were red from recent weeping, and her hands lay motionless in her lap. the door had just slammed behind lagune. "heigh-ho!" she said. "i wish i was dead. oh! i wish i was out of it all." she became passive again. "i wonder what i have _done_," she said, "that i should be punished like this." she certainly looked anything but a fate-haunted soul, being indeed visibly and immediately a very pretty girl. her head was shapely and covered with curly dark hair, and the eyebrows above her hazel eyes were clear and dark. her lips were finely shaped, her mouth was not too small to be expressive, her chin small, and her neck white and full and pretty. there is no need to lay stress upon her nose--it sufficed. she was of a mediocre height, sturdy rather than slender, and her dress was of a pleasant, golden-brown material with the easy sleeves and graceful line of those aesthetic days. and she sat at her typewriter and wished she was dead and wondered what she had _done_. the room was lined with bookshelves, and conspicuous therein were a long row of foolish pretentious volumes, the "works" of lagune--the witless, meandering imitation of philosophy that occupied his life. along the cornices were busts of plato, socrates, and newton. behind ethel was the great man's desk with its green-shaded electric light, and littered with proofs and copies of _hesperus_, "a paper for doubters," which, with her assistance, he edited, published, compiled, wrote, and (without her help) paid for and read. a pen, flung down forcibly, quivered erect with its one surviving nib in the blotting pad. mr. lagune had flung it down. the collapse of the previous night had distressed him dreadfully, and ever and again before his retreat he had been breaking into passionate monologue. the ruin of a life-work, it was, no less. surely she had known that chaffery was a cheat. had she not known? silence. "after so many kindnesses--" she interrupted him with a wailing, "oh, i know--i know." but lagune was remorseless and insisted she had betrayed him, worse--made him ridiculous! look at the "work" he had undertaken at south kensington--how could he go on with that now? how could he find the heart? when his own typewriter sacrificed him to her stepfather's trickery? "trickery!" the gesticulating hands became active, the grey eyes dilated with indignation, the piping voice eloquent. "if he hadn't cheated you, someone else would," was ethel's inadequate muttered retort, unheard by the seeker after phenomena. it was perhaps not so bad as dismissal, but it certainly lasted longer. and at home was chaffery, grimly malignant at her failure to secure that pneumatic glove. he had no right to blame her, he really had not; but a disturbed temper is apt to falsify the scales of justice. the tambourine, he insisted, he could have explained by saying he put up his hand to catch it and protect his head directly smithers moved. but the pneumatic glove there was no explaining. he had made a chance for her to secure it when he had pretended to faint. it was rubbish to say anyone could have been looking on the table then--rubbish. beside that significant wreck of a pen stood a little carriage clock in a case, and this suddenly lifted a slender voice and announced _five_. she turned round on her stool and sat staring at the clock. she smiled with the corners of her mouth down. "home," she said, "and begin again. it's like battledore and shuttlecock.... "i _was_ silly.... "i suppose i've brought it on myself. i ought to have picked it up, i suppose. i had time.... "cheats ... just cheats. "i never thought i should see him again.... "he was ashamed, of course.... he had his own friends." for a space she sat still, staring blankly before her. she sighed, rubbed a knuckle in a reddened eye, rose. she went into the hall, where her hat, transfixed by a couple of hat-pins, hung above her jacket, assumed these garments, and let herself out into the cold grey street. she had hardly gone twenty yards from lagune's door before she became aware of a man overtaking her and walking beside her. that kind of thing is a common enough experience to girls who go to and from work in london, and she had had perforce to learn many things since her adventurous whortley days. she looked stiffly in front of her. the man deliberately got in her way so that she had to stop. she lifted eyes of indignant protest. it was lewisham--and his face was white. he hesitated awkwardly, and then in silence held out his hand. she took it mechanically. he found his voice. "miss henderson," he said. "what do you want?" she asked faintly. "i don't know," he said.... "i want to talk to you." "yes?" her heart was beating fast. he found the thing unexpectedly difficult. "may i--? are you expecting--? have you far to go? i would like to talk to you. there is a lot ..." "i walk to clapham," she said. "if you care ... to come part of the way ..." she moved awkwardly. lewisham took his place at her side. they walked side by side for a moment, their manner constrained, having so much to say that they could not find a word to begin upon. "have you forgotten whortley?" he asked abruptly. "no." he glanced at her; her face was downcast. "why did you never write?" he asked bitterly. "i wrote." "again, i mean." "i did--in july." "i never had it." "it came back." "but mrs. munday ..." "i had forgotten her name. i sent it to the grammar school." lewisham suppressed an exclamation. "i am very sorry," she said. they went on again in silence. "last night," said lewisham at length. "i have no business to ask. but--" she took a long breath. "mr. lewisham," she said. "that man you saw--the medium--was my stepfather." "well?" "isn't that enough?" lewisham paused. "no," he said. there was another constrained silence. "no," he said less dubiously. "i don't care a rap what your stepfather is. were _you_ cheating?" her face turned white. her mouth opened and closed. "mr. lewisham," she said deliberately, "you may not believe it, it may sound impossible, but on my honour ... i did not know--i did not know for certain, that is--that my stepfather ..." "ah!" said lewisham, leaping at conviction. "then i was right...." for a moment she stared at him, and then, "i _did_ know," she said, suddenly beginning to cry. "how can i tell you? it is a lie. i _did_ know. i _did_ know all the time." he stared at her in white astonishment. he fell behind her one step, and then in a stride came level again. then, a silence, a silence that seemed it would never end. she had stopped crying, she was one huge suspense, not daring even to look at his face. and at last he spoke. "no," he said slowly. "i don't mind even that. i don't care--even if it was that." abruptly they turned into the king's road, with its roar of wheeled traffic and hurrying foot-passengers, and forthwith a crowd of boys with a broken-spirited guy involved and separated them. in a busy highway of a night one must needs talk disconnectedly in shouted snatches or else hold one's peace. he glanced at her face and saw that it was set again. presently she turned southward out of the tumult into a street of darkness and warm blinds, and they could go on talking again. "i understand what you mean," said lewisham. "i know i do. you knew, but you did not want to know. it was like that." but her mind had been active. "at the end of this road," she said, gulping a sob, "you must go back. it was kind of you to come, mr. lewisham. but you were ashamed--you are sure to be ashamed. my employer is a spiritualist, and my stepfather is a professional medium, and my mother is a spiritualist. you were quite right not to speak to me last night. quite. it was kind of you to come, but you must go back. life is hard enough as it is ... you must go back at the end of the road. go back at the end of the road ..." lewisham made no reply for a hundred yards. "i'm coming on to clapham," he said. they came to the end of the road in silence. then at the kerb corner she turned and faced him. "go back," she whispered. "no," he said obstinately, and they stood face to face at the cardinal point of their lives. "listen to me," said lewisham. "it is hard to say what i feel. i don't know myself.... but i'm not going to lose you like this. i'm not going to let you slip a second time. i was awake about it all last night. i don't care where you are, what your people are, nor very much whether you've kept quite clear of this medium humbug. i don't. you will in future. anyhow. i've had a day and night to think it over. i had to come and try to find you. it's you. i've never forgotten you. never. i'm not going to be sent back like this." "it can be no good for either of us," she said as resolute as he. "i shan't leave you." "but what is the good?..." "i'm coming," said lewisham, dogmatically. and he came. he asked her a question point blank and she would not answer him, and for some way they walked in grim silence. presently she spoke with a twitching mouth. "i wish you would leave me," she said. "you are quite different from what i am. you felt that last night. you helped find us out...." "when first i came to london i used to wander about clapham looking for you," said lewisham, "week after week." they had crossed the bridge and were in a narrow little street of shabby shops near clapham junction before they talked again. she kept her face averted and expressionless. "i'm sorry," said lewisham, with a sort of stiff civility, "if i seem to be forcing myself upon you. i don't want to pry into your affairs--if you don't wish me to. the sight of you has somehow brought back a lot of things.... i can't explain it. perhaps--i had to come to find you--i kept on thinking of your face, of how you used to smile, how you jumped from the gate by the lock, and how we had tea ... a lot of things." he stopped again. "a lot of things." "if i may come," he said, and went unanswered. they crossed the wide streets by the junction and went on towards the common. "i live down this road," she said, stopping abruptly at a corner. "i would rather ..." "but i have said nothing." she looked at him with her face white, unable to speak for a space. "it can do no good," she said. "i am mixed up with this...." she stopped. he spoke deliberately. "i shall come," he said, "to-morrow night." "no," she said. "but i shall come." "no," she whispered. "i shall come." she could hide the gladness of her heart from herself no longer. she was frightened that he had come, but she was glad, and she knew he knew that she was glad. she made no further protest. she held out her hand dumbly. and on the morrow she found him awaiting her even as he had said. chapter xiv. mr. lagune's point of view. for three days the laboratory at south kensington saw nothing of lagune, and then he came back more invincibly voluble than ever. everyone had expected him to return apostate, but he brought back an invigorated faith, a propaganda unashamed. from some source he had derived strength and conviction afresh. even the rhetorical smithers availed nothing. there was a joined battle over the insufficient tea-cups, and the elderly young assistant demonstrator hovered on the verge of the discussion, rejoicing, it is supposed, over the entanglements of smithers. for at the outset smithers displayed an overweening confidence and civility, and at the end his ears were red and his finer manners lost to him. lewisham, it was remarked by miss heydinger, made but a poor figure in this discussion. once or twice he seemed about to address lagune, and thought better of it with the words upon his lips. lagune's treatment of the exposure was light and vigorous. "the man chaffery," he said, "has made a clean breast of it. his point of view--" "facts are facts," said smithers. "a fact is a synthesis of impressions," said lagune; "but that you will learn when you are older. the thing is that we were at cross purposes. i told chaffery you were beginners. he treated you as beginners--arranged a demonstration." "it _was_ a demonstration," said smithers. "precisely. if it had not been for your interruptions ..." "ah!" "he forged elementary effects ..." "you can't but admit that." "i don't attempt to deny it. but, as he explained, the thing is necessary--justifiable. psychic phenomena are subtle, a certain training of the observation is necessary. a medium is a more subtle instrument than a balance or a borax bead, and see how long it is before you can get assured results with a borax bead! in the elementary class, in the introductory phase, conditions are too crude...." "for honesty." "wait a moment. _is_ it dishonest--rigging a demonstration?" "of course it is." "your professors do it." "i deny that in toto," said smithers, and repeated with satisfaction, "in toto." "that's all right," said lagune, "because i have the facts. your chemical lecturers--you may go downstairs now and ask, if you disbelieve me--always cheat over the indestructibility of matter experiment--always. and then another--a physiography thing. you know the experiment i mean? to demonstrate the existence of the earth's rotation. they use--they use--" "foucault's pendulum," said lewisham. "they use a rubber ball with a pin-hole hidden in the hand, and blow the pendulum round the way it ought to go." "but that's different," said smithers. "wait a moment," said lagune, and produced a piece of folded printed paper from his pocket. "here is a review from _nature_ of the work of no less a person than professor greenhill. and see--a convenient pin is introduced in the apparatus for the demonstration of virtual velocities! read it--if you doubt me. i suppose you doubt me." smithers abruptly abandoned his position of denial "in toto." "this isn't my point, mr. lagune; this isn't my point," he said. "these things that are done in the lecture theatre are not to prove facts, but to give ideas." "so was my demonstration," said lagune. "we didn't understand it in that light." "nor does the ordinary person who goes to science lectures understand it in that light. he is comforted by the thought that he is seeing things with his own eyes." "well, i don't care," said smithers; "two wrongs don't make a right. to rig demonstrations is wrong." "there i agree with you. i have spoken plainly with this man chaffery. he's not a full-blown professor, you know, a highly salaried ornament of the rock of truth like your demonstration-rigging professors here, and so i can speak plainly to him without offence. he takes quite the view they would take. but i am more rigorous. i insist that there shall be no more of this...." "next time--" said smithers with irony. "there will be no next time. i have done with elementary exhibitions. you must take the word of the trained observer--just as you do in the matter of chemical analysis." "do you mean you are going on with that chap when he's been caught cheating under your very nose?" "certainly. why not?" smithers set out to explain why not, and happened on confusion. "i still believe the man has powers," said lagune. "of deception," said smithers. "those i must eliminate," said lagune. "you might as well refuse to study electricity because it escaped through your body. all new science is elusive. no investigator in his senses would refuse to investigate a compound because it did unexpected things. either this dissolves in acid or i have nothing more to do with it--eh? that's fine research!" then it was the last vestiges of smithers' manners vanished. "i don't care _what_ you say," said smithers. "it's all rot--it's all just rot. argue if you like--but have you convinced anybody? put it to the vote." "that's democracy with a vengeance," said lagune. "a general election of the truth half-yearly, eh?" "that's simply wriggling out of it," said smithers. "that hasn't anything to do with it at all." lagune, flushed but cheerful, was on his way downstairs when lewisham overtook him. he was pale and out of breath, but as the staircase invariably rendered lagune breathless he did not remark the younger man's disturbance. "interesting talk," panted lewisham. "very interesting talk, sir." "i'm glad you found it so--very," said lagune. there was a pause, and then lewisham plunged desperately. "there is a young lady--she is your typewriter...." he stopped from sheer loss of breath. "yes?" said lagune. "is she a medium or anything of that sort?" "well," lagune reflected, "she is not a medium, certainly. but--why do you ask?" "oh!... i wondered." "you noticed her eyes perhaps. she is the stepdaughter of that man chaffery--a queer character, but indisputably mediumistic. it's odd the thing should have struck you. curiously enough i myself have fancied she might be something of a psychic--judging from her face." "a what?" "a psychic--undeveloped, of course. i have thought once or twice. only a little while ago i was speaking to that man chaffery about her." "were you?" "yes. he of course would like to see any latent powers developed. but it's a little difficult to begin, you know." "you mean--she won't?" "not at present. she is a good girl, but in this matter she is--timid. there is often a sort of disinclination--a queer sort of feeling--one might almost call it modesty." "i see," said lewisham. "one can override it usually. i don't despair." "no," said lewisham shortly. they were at the foot of the staircase now. he hesitated. "you've given me a lot to think about," he said with an attempt at an off-hand manner. "the way you talked upstairs;" and turned towards the book he had to sign. "i'm glad you don't take up quite such an intolerant attitude as mr. smithers," said lagune; "very glad. i must lend you a book or two. if your _cramming_ here leaves you any time, that is." "thanks," said lewisham shortly, and walked away from him. the studiously characteristic signature quivered and sprawled in an unfamiliar manner. "i'm _damned_ if he overrides it," said lewisham, under his breath. chapter xv. love in the streets. lewisham was not quite clear what course he meant to take in the high enterprise of foiling lagune, and indeed he was anything but clear about the entire situation. his logical processes, his emotions and his imagination seemed playing some sort of snatching game with his will. enormous things hung imminent, but it worked out to this, that he walked home with ethel night after night for--to be exact--seven-and-sixty nights. every week night through november and december, save once, when he had to go into the far east to buy himself an overcoat, he was waiting to walk with her home. a curious, inconclusive affair, that walk, to which he came nightly full of vague longings, and which ended invariably under an odd shadow of disappointment. it began outside lagune's most punctually at five, and ended--mysteriously--at the corner of a side road in clapham, a road of little yellow houses with sunk basements and tawdry decorations of stone. up that road she vanished night after night, into a grey mist and the shadow beyond a feeble yellow gas-lamp, and he would watch her vanish, and then sigh and turn back towards his lodgings. they talked of this and that, their little superficial ideas about themselves, and of their circumstances and tastes, and always there was something, something that was with them unspoken, unacknowledged, which made all these things unreal and insincere. yet out of their talk he began to form vague ideas of the home from which she came. there was, of course, no servant, and the mother was something meandering, furtive, tearful in the face of troubles. sometimes of an afternoon or evening she grew garrulous. "mother does talk so--sometimes." she rarely went out of doors. chaffery always rose late, and would sometimes go away for days together. he was mean; he allowed only a weekly twenty-five shillings for housekeeping, and sometimes things grew unsatisfactory at the week-end. there seemed to be little sympathy between mother and daughter; the widow had been flighty in a dingy fashion, and her marriage with her chief lodger chaffery had led to unforgettable sayings. it was to facilitate this marriage that ethel had been sent to whortley, so that was counted a mitigated evil. but these were far-off things, remote and unreal down the long, ill-lit vista of the suburban street which swallowed up ethel nightly. the walk, her warmth and light and motion close to him, her clear little voice, and the touch of her hand; that was reality. the shadow of chaffery and his deceptions lay indeed across all these things, sometimes faint, sometimes dark and present. then lewisham became insistent, his sentimental memories ceased, and he asked questions that verged on gulfs of doubt. had she ever "helped"? she had not, she declared. then she added that twice at home she had "sat down" to complete the circle. she would never help again. that she promised--if it needed promising. there had already been dreadful trouble at home about the exposure at lagune's. her mother had sided with her stepfather and joined in blaming her. but was she to blame? "of _course_ you were not to blame," said lewisham. lagune, he learnt, had been unhappy and restless for the three days after the _séance_--indulging in wearisome monologue--with ethel as sole auditor (at twenty-one shillings a week). then he had decided to give chaffery a sound lecture on his disastrous dishonesty. but it was chaffery gave the lecture. smithers, had he only known it, had been overthrown by a better brain than lagune's, albeit it spoke through lagune's treble. ethel did not like talking of chaffery and these other things. "if you knew how sweet it was to forget it all," she would say; "to be just us two together for a little while." and, "what good _does_ it do to keep on?" when lewisham was pressing. lewisham wanted very much to keep on at times, but the good of it was a little hard to demonstrate. so his knowledge of the situation remained imperfect and the weeks drifted by. wonderfully varied were those seven-and-sixty nights, as he came to remember in after life. there were nights of damp and drizzle, and then thick fogs, beautiful, isolating, grey-white veils, turning every yard of pavement into a private room. grand indeed were these fogs, things to rejoice at mightily, since then it was no longer a thing for public scorn when two young people hurried along arm in arm, and one could do a thousand impudent, significant things with varying pressure and the fondling of a little hand (a hand in a greatly mended glove of cheap kid). then indeed one seemed to be nearer that elusive something that threaded it all together. and the dangers of the street corners, the horses looming up suddenly out of the dark, the carters with lanterns at their horses' heads, the street lamps, blurred, smoky orange at one's nearest, and vanishing at twenty yards into dim haze, seemed to accentuate the infinite need of protection on the part of a delicate young lady who had already traversed three winters of fogs, thornily alone. moreover, one could come right down the quiet street where she lived, halfway to the steps of her house, with a delightful sense of enterprise. the fogs passed all too soon into a hard frost, into nights of starlight and presently moonlight, when the lamps looked hard, flashing like rows of yellow gems, and their reflections and the glare of the shop windows were sharp and frosty, and even the stars hard and bright, snapping noiselessly (if one may say so) instead of twinkling. a jacket trimmed with imitation astrachan replaced ethel's lighter coat, and a round cap of astrachan her hat, and her eyes shone hard and bright, and her forehead was broad and white beneath it. it was exhilarating, but one got home too soon, and so the way from chelsea to clapham was lengthened, first into a loop of side streets, and then when the first pulverulent snows told that christmas was at hand, into a new loop down king's road, and once even through the brompton road and sloane street, where the shops were full of decorations and entertaining things. and, under circumstances of infinite gravity, mr. lewisham secretly spent three-and-twenty shillings out of the vestiges of that hundred pounds, and bought ethel a little gold ring set with pearls. with that there must needs be a ceremonial, and on the verge of the snowy, foggy common she took off her glove and the ring was placed on her finger. whereupon he was moved to kiss her--on the frost-pink knuckle next to an inky nail. "it's silly of us," she said. "what can we do?--ever?" "you wait," he said, and his tone was full of vague promises. afterwards he thought over those promises, and another evening went into the matter more fully, telling her of all the brilliant things that he held it was possible for a south kensington student to do and be--of headmasterships, northern science schools, inspectorships, demonstratorships, yea, even professorships. and then, and then--to all of which she lent a willing and incredulous ear, finding in that dreaming a quality of fear as well as delight. the putting on of the pearl-set ring was mere ceremonial, of course; she could not wear it either at lagune's or at home, so instead she threaded it on a little white satin ribbon and wore it round her neck--"next her heart." he thought of it there warm "next her heart." when he had bought the ring he had meant to save it for christmas before he gave it to her. but the desire to see her pleasure had been too strong for him. christmas eve, i know not by what deceit on her part, these young people spent together all day. lagune was down with a touch of bronchitis and had given his typewriter a holiday. perhaps she forgot to mention it at home. the royal college was in vacation and lewisham was free. he declined the plumber's invitation; "work" kept him in london, he said, though it meant a pound or more of added expenditure. these absurd young people walked sixteen miles that christmas eve, and parted warm and glowing. there had been a hard frost and a little snow, the sky was a colourless grey, icicles hung from the arms of the street lamps, and the pavements were patterned out with frond-like forms that were trodden into slides as the day grew older. the thames they knew was a wonderful sight, but that they kept until last. they went first along the brompton road.... and it is well that you should have the picture of them right: lewisham in the ready-made overcoat, blue cloth and velvet collar, dirty tan gloves, red tie, and bowler hat; and ethel in a two-year-old jacket and hat of curly astrachan; both pink-cheeked from the keen air, shyly arm in arm occasionally, and very alert to miss no possible spectacle. the shops were varied and interesting along the brompton road, but nothing to compare with piccadilly. there were windows in piccadilly so full of costly little things, it took fifteen minutes to get them done, card shops, drapers' shops full of foolish, entertaining attractions. lewisham, in spite of his old animosities, forgot to be severe on the shopping class, ethel was so vastly entertained by all these pretty follies. then up regent street by the place where the sham diamonds are, and the place where the girls display their long hair, and the place where the little chickens run about in the window, and so into oxford street, holborn, ludgate hill, st. paul's churchyard, to leadenhall, and the markets where turkeys, geese, ducklings, and chickens--turkeys predominant, however--hang in rows of a thousand at a time. "i _must_ buy you something," said lewisham, resuming a topic. "no, no," said ethel, with her eye down a vista of innumerable birds. "but i _must_," said lewisham. "you had better choose it, or i shall get something wrong." his mind ran on brooches and clasps. "you mustn't waste your money, and besides, i have that ring." but lewisham insisted. "then--if you must--i am starving. buy me something to eat." an immense and memorable joke. lewisham plunged recklessly--orientally--into an awe-inspiring place with mitred napkins. they lunched on cutlets--stripped the cutlets to the bone--and little crisp brown potatoes, and they drank between them a whole half bottle of--some white wine or other, lewisham selected in an off-hand way from the list. neither of them had ever taken wine at a meal before. one-and-ninepence it cost him, sir, and the name of it was capri! it was really very passable capri--a manufactured product, no doubt, but warming and aromatic. ethel was aghast at his magnificence and drank a glass and a half. then, very warm and comfortable, they went down by the tower, and the tower bridge with its crest of snow, huge pendant icicles, and the ice blocks choked in its side arches, was seasonable seeing. and as they had had enough of shops and crowds they set off resolutely along the desolate embankment homeward. but indeed the thames was a wonderful sight that year! ice-fringed along either shore, and with drift-ice in the middle reflecting a luminous scarlet from the broad red setting sun, and moving steadily, incessantly seaward. a swarm of mewing gulls went to and fro, and with them mingled pigeons and crows. the buildings on the surrey side were dim and grey and very mysterious, the moored, ice-blocked barges silent and deserted, and here and there a lit window shone warm. the sun sank right out of sight into a bank of blue, and the surrey side dissolved in mist save for a few insoluble, spots of yellow light, that presently became many. and after our lovers had come under charing cross bridge the houses of parliament rose before them at the end of a great crescent of golden lamps, blue and faint, halfway between the earth and sky. and the clock on the tower was like a november sun. it was a day without a flaw, or at most but the slightest speck. and that only came at the very end. "good-bye, dear," she said. "i have been very happy to-day." his face came very close to hers. "good-bye," he said, pressing her hand and looking into her eyes. she glanced round, she drew nearer to him. "_dearest_ one," she whispered very softly, and then, "good-bye." suddenly he became unaccountably petulant, he dropped her hand. "it's always like this. we are happy. _i_ am happy. and then--then you are taken away...." there was a silence of mute interrogations. "dear," she whispered, "we must wait." a moment's pause. "_wait_!" he said, and broke off. he hesitated. "good-bye," he said as though he was snapping a thread that held them together. chapter xvi. miss heydinger's private thoughts. the way from chelsea to clapham and the way from south kensington to battersea, especially if the former is looped about a little to make it longer, come very near to each other. one night close upon christmas two friends of lewisham's passed him and ethel. but lewisham did not see them, because he was looking at ethel's face. "did you see?" said the other girl, a little maliciously. "mr. lewisham--wasn't it?" said miss heydinger in a perfectly indifferent tone. * * * * * miss heydinger sat in the room her younger sisters called her "sanctum." her sanctum was only too evidently an intellectualised bedroom, and a cheap wallpaper of silvery roses peeped coquettishly from among her draped furniture. her particular glories were the writing-desk in the middle and the microscope on the unsteady octagonal table under the window. there were bookshelves of workmanship patently feminine in their facile decoration and structural instability, and on them an array of glittering poets, shelley, rossetti, keats, browning, and odd volumes of ruskin, south place sermons, socialistic publications in torn paper covers, and above, science text-books and note-books in an oppressive abundance. the autotypes that hung about the room were eloquent of aesthetic ambitions and of a certain impermeability to implicit meanings. there were the mirror of venus by burne jones, rossetti's annunciation, lippi's annunciation, and the love of life and love and death of watts. and among other photographs was one of last year's debating society committee, lewisham smiling a little weakly near the centre, and miss heydinger out of focus in the right wing. and miss heydinger sat with her back to all these things, in her black horse-hair arm-chair, staring into the fire, her eyes hot, and her chin on her hand. "i might have guessed--before," she said. "ever since that _séance_. it has been different ..." she smiled bitterly. "some shop girl ..." she mused. "they are all alike, i suppose. they come back--a little damaged, as the woman says in 'lady windermere's fan.' perhaps he will. i wonder ..." "why should he be so deceitful? why should he act to me ...? "pretty, pretty, pretty--that is our business. what man hesitates in the choice? he goes his own way, thinks his own thoughts, does his own work ... "his dissection is getting behind--one can see he takes scarcely any notes...." for a long time she was silent. her face became more intent. she began to bite her thumb, at first slowly, then faster. she broke out at last into words again. "the things he might do, the great things he might do. he is able, he is dogged, he is strong. and then comes a pretty face! oh god! _why_ was i made with heart and brain?" she sprang to her feet, with her hands clenched and her face contorted. but she shed no tears. her attitude fell limp in a moment. one hand dropped by her side, the other rested on a fossil on the mantel-shelf, and she stared down into the red fire. "to think of all we might have done! it maddens me! "to work, and think, and learn. to hope and wait. to despise the petty arts of womanliness, to trust to the sanity of man.... "to awake like the foolish virgins," she said, "and find the hour of life is past!" her face, her pose, softened into self-pity. "futility ... "it's no good...." her voice broke. "i shall never be happy...." she saw the grandiose vision of the future she had cherished suddenly rolled aside and vanishing, more and more splendid as it grew more and more remote--like a dream at the waking moment. the vision of her inevitable loneliness came to replace it, clear and acute. she saw herself alone and small in a huge desolation--infinitely pitiful, lewisham callously receding with "some shop girl." the tears came, came faster, until they were streaming down her face. she turned as if looking for something. she flung herself upon her knees before the little arm-chair, and began an incoherent sobbing prayer for the pity and comfort of god. * * * * * the next day one of the other girls in the biological course remarked to her friend that "heydinger-dingery" had relapsed. her friend glanced down the laboratory. "it's a bad relapse," she said. "really ... i couldn't ... wear my hair like that." she continued to regard miss heydinger with a critical eye. she was free to do this because miss heydinger was standing, lost in thought, staring at the december fog outside the laboratory windows. "she looks white," said the girl who had originally spoken. "i wonder if she works hard." "it makes precious little difference if she does," said her friend. "i asked her yesterday what were the bones in the parietal segment, and she didn't know one. not one." the next day miss heydinger's place was vacant. she was ill--from overstudy--and her illness lasted to within three weeks of the terminal examination. then she came back with a pallid face and a strenuous unavailing industry. chapter xvii. in the raphael gallery. it was nearly three o'clock, and in the biological laboratory the lamps were all alight. the class was busy with razors cutting sections of the root of a fern to examine it microscopically. a certain silent frog-like boy, a private student who plays no further part in this story, was working intently, looking more like a frog than usual--his expression modest with a touch of effort. behind miss heydinger, jaded and untidy in her early manner again, was a vacant seat, an abandoned microscope and scattered pencils and note-books. on the door of the class-room was a list of those who had passed the christmas examination. at the head of it was the name of the aforesaid frog-like boy; next to him came smithers and one of the girls bracketed together. lewisham ingloriously headed the second class, and miss heydinger's name did not appear--there was, the list asserted, "one failure." so the student pays for the finer emotions. and in the spacious solitude of the museum gallery devoted to the raphael cartoons sat lewisham, plunged in gloomy meditation. a negligent hand pulled thoughtfully at the indisputable moustache, with particular attention to such portions as were long enough to gnaw. he was trying to see the situation clearly. as he was just smarting acutely under his defeat, this speaks little for the clearness of his mind. the shadow of that defeat lay across everything, blotted out the light of his pride, shaded his honour, threw everything into a new perspective. the rich prettiness of his love-making had fled to some remote quarter of his being. against the frog-like youngster he felt a savage animosity. and smithers had betrayed him. he was angry, bitterly angry, with "swats" and "muggers" who spent their whole time grinding for these foolish chancy examinations. nor had the practical examination been altogether fair, and one of the questions in the written portion was quite outside the lectures. biver, professor biver, was an indiscriminating ass, he felt assured, and so too was weeks, the demonstrator. but these obstacles could not blind his intelligence to the manifest cause of his overthrow, the waste of more than half his available evening, the best time for study in the twenty-four hours, day after day. and that was going on steadily, a perpetual leakage of time. to-night he would go to meet her again, and begin to accumulate to himself ignominy in the second part of the course, the botanical section, also. and so, reluctantly rejecting one cloudy excuse after another, he clearly focussed the antagonism between his relations to ethel and his immediate ambitions. things had come so easily to him for the last two years that he had taken his steady upward progress in life as assured. it had never occurred to him, when he went to intercept ethel after that _séance_, that he went into any peril of that sort. now he had had a sharp reminder. he began to shape a picture of the frog-like boy at home--he was a private student of the upper middle class--sitting in a convenient study with a writing-table, book-shelves, and a shaded lamp--lewisham worked at his chest of drawers, with his greatcoat on, and his feet in the lowest drawer wrapped in all his available linen--and in the midst of incredible conveniences the frog-like boy was working, working, working. meanwhile lewisham toiled through the foggy streets, chelsea-ward, or, after he had left her, tramped homeward--full of foolish imaginings. he began to think with bloodless lucidity of his entire relationship to ethel. his softer emotions were in abeyance, but he told himself no lies. he cared for her, he loved to be with her and to talk to her and please her, but that was not all his desire. he thought of the bitter words of an orator at hammersmith, who had complained that in our present civilisation even the elemental need of marriage was denied. virtue had become a vice. "we marry in fear and trembling, sex for a home is the woman's traffic, and the man comes to his heart's desire when his heart's desire is dead." the thing which had seemed a mere flourish, came back now with a terrible air of truth. lewisham saw that it was a case of divergent ways. on the one hand that shining staircase to fame and power, that had been his dream from the very dawn of his adolescence, and on the other hand--ethel. and if he chose ethel, even then, would he have his choice? what would come of it? a few walks more or less! she was hopelessly poor, he was hopelessly poor, and this cheat of a medium was her stepfather! after all she was not well-educated, she did not understand his work and his aims.... he suddenly perceived with absolute conviction that after the _séance_ he should have gone home and forgotten her. why had he felt that irresistible impulse to seek her out? why had his imagination spun such a strange web of possibilities about her? he was involved now, foolishly involved.... all his future was a sacrifice to this transitory ghost of love-making in the streets. he pulled spitefully at his moustache. his picture began to shape itself into ethel, and her mysterious mother, and the vague dexterous chaffery holding him back, entangled in an impalpable net from that bright and glorious ascent to performance and distinction. leaky boots and the splash of cabs for all his life as his portion! already the forbes medal, the immediate step, was as good as lost.... what on earth had he been thinking about? he fell foul of his upbringing. men of the upper or middle classes were put up to these things by their parents; they were properly warned against involving themselves in this love nonsense before they were independent. it was much better.... everything was going. not only his work--his scientific career, but the debating society, the political movement, all his work for humanity.... why not be resolute--even now?... why not put the thing clearly and plainly to her? or write? if he wrote now he could get the advantage of the evening at the library. he must ask her to forgo these walks home--at least until the next examination. _she_ would understand. he had a qualm of doubt whether she would understand.... he grew angry at this possibility. but it was no good mincing matters. if once he began to consider her--why should he consider her in that way? simply because she was unreasonable! lewisham had a transitory gust of anger. yet that abandonment of the walks insisted on looking mean to him. and she would think it mean. which was very much worse, somehow. _why_ mean? why should she think it mean? he grew angry again. the portly museum policeman who had been watching him furtively, wondering why a student should sit in front of the "sacrifice of lystra" and gnaw lips and nails and moustache, and scowl and glare at that masterpiece, saw him rise suddenly to his feet with an air of resolution, spin on his heel, and set off with a quick step out of the gallery. he looked neither to the right nor the left. he passed out of sight down the staircase. "gone to get some more moustache to eat, i suppose," said the policeman reflectively.... "one 'ud think something had bit him." after some pensive moments the policeman strolled along down the gallery and came to a stop opposite the cartoon. "figgers is a bit big for the houses," said the policeman, anxious to do impartial justice. "but that's art. i lay '_e_ couldn't do anything ... not arf so good." chapter xviii. the friends of progress meet. the night next but one after this meditation saw a new order in the world. a young lady dressed in an astrachan-edged jacket and with a face of diminished cheerfulness marched from chelsea to clapham alone, and lewisham sat in the flickering electric light of the education library staring blankly over a business-like pile of books at unseen things. the arrangement had not been effected without friction, the explanation had proved difficult. evidently she did not appreciate the full seriousness of lewisham's mediocre position in the list. "but you have _passed_ all right," she said. neither could she grasp the importance of evening study. "of course i don't know," she said judicially; "but i thought you were learning all day." she calculated the time consumed by their walk as half an hour, "just one half hour;" she forgot that he had to get to chelsea and then to return to his lodgings. her customary tenderness was veiled by an only too apparent resentment. first at him, and then when he protested, at fate. "i suppose it _has_ to be," she said. "of course, it doesn't matter, i suppose, if we _don't_ see each other quite so often," with a quiver of pale lips. he had returned from the parting with an uneasy mind, and that evening had gone in the composition of a letter that was to make things clearer. but his scientific studies rendered his prose style "hard," and things he could whisper he could not write. his justification indeed did him no sort of justice. but her reception of it made her seem a very unreasonable person. he had some violent fluctuations. at times he was bitterly angry with her for her failure to see things as he did. he would wander about the museum conducting imaginary discussions with her and making even scathing remarks. at other times he had to summon all his powers of acrid discipline and all his memories of her resentful retorts, to keep himself from a headlong rush to chelsea and unmanly capitulation. and this new disposition of things endured for two weeks. it did not take miss heydinger all that time to discover that the disaster of the examination had wrought a change in lewisham. she perceived those nightly walks were over. it was speedily evident to her that he was working with a kind of dogged fury; he came early, he went late. the wholesome freshness of his cheek paled. he was to be seen on each of the late nights amidst a pile of diagrams and text-books in one of the less draughty corners of the educational library, accumulating piles of memoranda. and nightly in the students' "club" he wrote a letter addressed to a stationer's shop in clapham, but that she did not see. for the most part these letters were brief, for lewisham, south kensington fashion, prided himself upon not being "literary," and some of the more despatch-like wounded a heart perhaps too hungry for tender words. he did not meet miss heydinger's renewed advances with invariable kindness. yet something of the old relations were presently restored. he would talk well to her for a time, and then snap like a dry twig. but the loaning of books was resumed, the subtle process of his aesthetic education that miss heydinger had devised. "here is a book i promised you," she said one day, and he tried to remember the promise. the book was a collection of browning's poems, and it contained "sludge"; it also happened that it contained "the statue and the bust"--that stimulating lecture on half-hearted constraints. "sludge" did not interest lewisham, it was not at all his idea of a medium, but he read and re-read "the statue and the bust." it had the profoundest effect upon him. he went to sleep--he used to read his literature in bed because it was warmer there, and over literature nowadays it did not matter as it did with science if one dozed a little--with these lines stimulating his emotion:-- "so weeks grew months, years; gleam by gleam the glory dropped from their youth and love, and both perceived they had dreamed a dream." by way of fruit it may be to such seed, he dreamed a dream that night. it concerned ethel, and at last they were a-marrying. he drew her to his arms. he bent to kiss her. and suddenly he saw her lips were shrivelled and her eyes were dull, saw the wrinkles seaming her face! she was old! she was intolerably old! he woke in a kind of horror and lay awake and very dismal until dawn, thinking of their separation and of her solitary walk through the muddy streets, thinking of his position, the leeway he had lost and the chances there were against him in the battle of the world. he perceived the colourless truth; the career was improbable, and that ethel should be added to it was almost hopeless. clearly the question was between these two. or should he vacillate and lose both? and then his wretchedness gave place to that anger that comes of perpetually thwarted desires.... it was on the day after this dream that he insulted parkson so grossly. he insulted parkson after a meeting of the "friends of progress" at parkson's rooms. no type of english student quite realises the noble ideal of plain living and high thinking nowadays. our admirable examination system admits of extremely little thinking at any level, high or low. but the kensington student's living is at any rate insufficient, and he makes occasional signs of recognition towards the cosmic process. one such sign was the periodic gathering of these "friends of progress," an association begotten of lewisham's paper on socialism. it was understood that strenuous things were to be done to make the world better, but so far no decisive action had been taken. they met in parkson's sitting-room, because parkson was the only one of the friends opulent enough to have a sitting-room, he being a whitworth scholar and in receipt of one hundred pounds a year. the friends were of various ages, mostly very young. several smoked and others held pipes which they had discontinued smoking--but there was nothing to drink, except coffee, because that was the extent of their means. dunkerley, an assistant master in a suburban school, and lewisham's former colleague at whortley, attended these assemblies through the introduction of lewisham. all the friends wore red ties except bletherley, who wore an orange one to show that he was aware of art, and dunkerley, who wore a black one with blue specks, because assistant masters in small private schools have to keep up appearances. and their simple procedure was that each talked as much as the others would suffer. usually the self-proposed "luther of socialism"--ridiculous lewisham!--had a thesis or so to maintain, but this night he was depressed and inattentive. he sat with his legs over the arm of his chair by way of indicating the state of his mind. he had a packet of algerian cigarettes (twenty for fivepence), and appeared chiefly concerned to smoke them all before the evening was out. bletherley was going to discourse of "woman under socialism," and he brought a big american edition of shelley's works and a volume of tennyson with the "princess," both bristling with paper tongues against his marked quotations. he was all for the abolition of "monopolies," and the _créche_ was to replace the family. he was unctuous when he was not pretty-pretty, and his views were evidently unpopular. parkson was a man from lancashire, and a devout quaker; his third and completing factor was ruskin, with whose work and phraseology he was saturated. he listened to bletherley with a marked disapproval, and opened a vigorous defence of that ancient tradition of loyalty that bletherley had called the monopolist institution of marriage. "the pure and simple old theory--love and faithfulness," said parkson, "suffices for me. if we are to smear our political movements with this sort of stuff ..." "does it work?" interjected lewisham, speaking for the first time. "what work?" "the pure and simple old theory. i know the theory. i believe in the theory. bletherley's shelley-witted. but it's theory. you meet the inevitable girl. the theory says you may meet her anywhen. you meet too young. you fall in love. you marry--in spite of obstacles. love laughs at locksmiths. you have children. that's the theory. all very well for a man whose father can leave him five hundred a year. but how does it work for a shopman?... an assistant master like dunkerley? or ... me?" "in these cases one must exercise restraint," said parkson. "have faith. a man that is worth having is worth waiting for." "worth growing old for?" said lewisham. "chap ought to fight," said dunkerley. "don't see your difficulty, lewisham. struggle for existence keen, no doubt, tremendous in fact--still. in it--may as well struggle. two--join forces--pool the luck. if i saw, a girl i fancied so that i wanted to, i'd marry her to-morrow. and my market value is seventy _non res_." lewisham looked round at him eagerly, suddenly interested. "_would_ you?" he said. dunkerley's face was slightly flushed. "like a shot. why not?" "but how are you to live?" "that comes after. if ..." "i can't agree with you, mr. dunkerley," said parkson. "i don't know if you have read sesame and lilies, but there you have, set forth far more fairly than any words of mine could do, an ideal of a woman's place ..." "all rot--sesame and lilies," interrupted dunkerley. "read bits. couldn't stand it. never _can_ stand ruskin. too many prepositions. tremendous english, no doubt, but not my style. sort of thing a wholesale grocer's daughter might read to get refined. _we_ can't afford to get refined." "but would you really marry a girl ...?" began lewisham, with an unprecedented admiration for dunkerley in his eyes. "why not?" "on--?" lewisham hesitated. "forty pounds a year _res_. whack! yes." a silent youngster began to speak, cleared an accumulated huskiness from his throat and said, "consider the girl." "why _marry_?" asked bletherley, unregarded. "you must admit you are asking a great thing when you want a girl ..." began parkson. "not so. when a girl's chosen a man, and he chooses her, her place is with him. what is the good of hankering? mutual. fight together." "good!" said lewisham, suddenly emotional. "you talk like a man, dunkerley. i'm hanged if you don't." "the place of woman," insisted parkson, "is the home. and if there is no home--! i hold that, if need be, a man should toil seven years--as jacob did for rachel--ruling his passions, to make the home fitting and sweet for her ..." "get the hutch for the pet animal," said dunkerley. "no. i mean to marry a _woman_. female sex always _has_ been in the struggle for existence--no great damage so far--always will be. tremendous idea--that struggle for existence. only sensible theory you've got hold of, lewisham. woman who isn't fighting square side by side with a man--woman who's just kept and fed and petted is ..." he hesitated. a lad with a spotted face and a bulldog pipe between his teeth supplied a biblical word. "that's shag," said dunkerley, "i was going to say 'a harem of one'." the youngster was puzzled for a moment. "i smoke perique," he said. "it will make you just as sick," said dunkerley. "refinement's so beastly vulgar," was the belated answer of the smoker of perique. that was the interesting part of the evening to lewisham. parkson suddenly rose, got down "sesame and lilies," and insisted upon reading a lengthy mellifluous extract that went like a garden roller over the debate, and afterwards bletherley became the centre of a wrangle that left him grossly insulted and in a minority of one. the institution of marriage, so far as the south kensington student is concerned, is in no immediate danger. parkson turned out with the rest of them at half-past ten, for a walk. the night was warm for february and the waxing moon bright. parkson fixed himself upon lewisham and dunkerley, to lewisham's intense annoyance--for he had a few intimate things he could have said to the man of ideas that night. dunkerley lived north, so that the three went up exhibition road to high street, kensington. there they parted from dunkerley, and lewisham and parkson turned southward again for lewisham's new lodging in chelsea. parkson was one of those exponents of virtue for whom the discussion of sexual matters has an irresistible attraction. the meeting had left him eloquent. he had argued with dunkerley to the verge of indelicacy, and now he poured out a vast and increasingly confidential flow of talk upon lewisham. lewisham was distraught. he walked as fast as he could. his sole object was to get rid of parkson. parkson's sole object was to tell him interesting secrets, about himself and a certain person with a mind of extraordinary purity of whom lewisham had heard before. ages passed. lewisham suddenly found himself being shown a photograph under a lamp. it represented an unsymmetrical face singularly void of expression, the upper part of an "art" dress, and a fringe of curls. he perceived he was being given to understand that this was a paragon of purity, and that she was the particular property of parkson. parkson was regarding him proudly, and apparently awaiting his verdict. lewisham struggled with the truth. "it's an interesting face," he said. "it is a face essentially beautiful," said parkson quietly but firmly. "do you notice the eyes, lewisham?" "oh yes," said lewisham. "yes. i see the eyes." "they are ... innocent. they are the eyes of a little child." "yes. they look that sort of eye. very nice, old man. i congratulate you. where does she live?" "you never saw a face like that in london," said parkson. "_never_," said lewisham decisively. "i would not show that to every one," said parkson. "you can scarcely judge all that pure-hearted, wonderful girl is to me." he returned the photograph solemnly to its envelope, regarding lewisham with an air of one who has performed the ceremony of blood-brotherhood. then taking lewisham's arm affectionately--a thing lewisham detested--he went on to a copious outpouring on love--with illustrative anecdotes of the paragon. it was just sufficiently cognate to the matter of lewisham's thoughts to demand attention. every now and then he had to answer, and he felt an idiotic desire--albeit he clearly perceived its idiocy--to reciprocate confidences. the necessity of fleeing parkson became urgent--lewisham's temper under these multitudinous stresses was going. "every man needs a lode star," said parkson--and lewisham swore under his breath. parkson's lodgings were now near at hand to the left, and it occurred to him this boredom would be soonest ended if he took parkson home, parkson consented mechanically, still discoursing. "i have often seen you talking to miss heydinger," he said. "if you will pardon my saying it ..." "we are excellent friends," admitted lewisham. "but here we are at your diggings." parkson stared at his "diggings." "there's heaps i want to talk about. i'll come part of the way at any rate to battersea. your miss heydinger, i was saying ..." from that point onwards he made casual appeals to a supposed confidence between lewisham and miss heydinger, each of which increased lewisham's exasperation. "it will not be long before you also, lewisham, will begin to know the infinite purification of a pure love...." then suddenly, with a vague idea of suppressing parkson's unendurable chatter, as one motive at least, lewisham rushed into the confidential. "i know," he said. "you talk to me as though ... i've marked out my destiny these three years." his confidential impulse died as he relieved it. "you don't mean to say miss heydinger--?" asked parkson. "oh, _damn_ miss heydinger!" said lewisham, and suddenly, abruptly, uncivilly, he turned away from parkson at the end of the street and began walking away southward, leaving parkson in mid-sentence at the crossing. parkson stared in astonishment at his receding back and ran after him to ask for the grounds of this sudden offence. lewisham walked on for a space with parkson trotting by his side. then suddenly he turned. his face was quite white and he spoke in a tired voice. "parkson," he said, "you are a fool!... you have the face of a sheep, the manners of a buffalo, and the conversation of a bore, pewrity indeed!... the girl whose photograph you showed me has eyes that don't match. she looks as loathsome as one would naturally expect.... i'm not joking now.... go away!" after that lewisham went on his southward way alone. he did not go straight to his room in chelsea, but spent some hours in a street in battersea, pacing to and fro in front of a possible house. his passion changed from savageness to a tender longing. if only he could see her to-night! he knew his own mind now. to-morrow he was resolved _he_ would fling work to the dogs and meet her. the things dunkerley had said had filled his mind with wonderful novel thoughts. if only he could see her now! his wish was granted. at the corner of the street two figures passed him; one of these, a tall man in glasses and a quasi-clerical hat, with coat collar turned up under his grey side-whiskers, he recognised as chaffery; the other he knew only too well. the pair passed him without seeing him, but for an instant the lamplight fell upon her face and showed it white and tired. lewisham stopped dead at the corner, staring in blank astonishment after these two figures as they receded into the haze under the lights. he was dumfounded. a clock struck slowly. it was midnight. presently down the road came the slamming of their door. long after the echo died away he stood there. "she has been at a _séance_; she has broken her promise. she has been at a _séance_; she has broken her promise," sang in perpetual reiteration through his brain. and then came the interpretation. "she has done it because i have left her. i might have told it from her letters. she has done it because she thinks i am not in earnest, that my love-making was just boyishness ... "i knew she would never understand." chapter xix. lewisham's solution. the next morning lewisham learnt from lagune that his intuition was correct, that ethel had at last succumbed to pressure and consented to attempt thought-reading. "we made a good beginning," said lagune, rubbing his hands. "i am sure we shall do well with her. certainly she has powers. i have always felt it in her face. she has powers." "was much ... pressure necessary?" asked lewisham by an effort. "we had--considerable difficulty. considerable. but of course--as i pointed out to her--it was scarcely possible for her to continue as my typewriter unless she was disposed to take an interest in my investigations--" "you did that?" "had to. fortunately chaffery--it was his idea. i must admit--" lagune stopped astonished. lewisham, after making an odd sort of movement with his hands, had turned round and was walking away down the laboratory. lagune stared; confronted by a psychic phenomenon beyond his circle of ideas. "odd!" he said at last, and began to unpack his bag. ever and again he stopped and stared at lewisham, who was now sitting in his own place and drumming on the table with both hands. presently miss heydinger came out of the specimen room and addressed a remark to the young man. he appeared to answer with considerable brevity. he then stood up, hesitated for a moment between the three doors of the laboratory and walked out by that opening on the back staircase. lagune did not see him again until the afternoon. that night ethel had lewisham's company again on her way home, and their voices were earnest. she did not go straight home, but instead they went up under the gas lamps to the vague spaces of clapham common to talk there at length. and the talk that night was a momentous one. "why have you broken your promise?" he said. her excuses were vague and weak. "i thought you did not care so much as you did," she said. "and when you stopped these walks--nothing seemed to matter. besides--it is not like _séances_ with spirits ..." at first lewisham was passionate and forcible. his anger at lagune and chaffery blinded him to her turpitude. he talked her defences down. "it is cheating," he said. "well--even if what _you_ do is not cheating, it is delusion--unconscious cheating. even if there is something in it, it is wrong. true or not, it is wrong. why don't they thought-read each other? why should they want you? your mind is your own. it is sacred. to probe it!--i won't have it! i won't have it! at least you are mine to that extent. i can't think of you like that--bandaged. and that little fool pressing his hand on the back of your neck and asking questions. i won't have it! i would rather kill you than that." "they don't do that!" "i don't care! that is what it will come to. the bandage is the beginning. people must not get their living in that way anyhow. i've thought it out. let them thought-read their daughters and hypnotise their aunts, and leave their typewriters alone." "but what am i to do?" "that's not it. there are things one must not suffer anyhow, whatever happens! or else--one might be made to do anything. honour! just because we are poor--let him dismiss you! _let_ him dismiss you. you can get another place--" "not at a guinea a week." "then take less." "but i have to pay sixteen shillings every week." "that doesn't matter." she caught at a sob, "but to leave london--i can't do it, i can't." "but how?--leave london?" lewisham's face changed. "oh! life is _hard_," she said. "i can't. they--they wouldn't let me stop in london." "what do you mean?" she explained if lagune dismissed her she was to go into the country to an aunt, a sister of chaffery's who needed a companion. chaffery insisted upon that. "companion they call it. i shall be just a servant--she has no servant. my mother cries when i talk to her. she tells me she doesn't want me to go away from her. but she's afraid of him. 'why don't you do what he wants?' she says." she sat staring in front of her at the gathering night. she spoke again in an even tone. "i hate telling you these things. it is you ... if you didn't mind ... but you make it all different. i could do it--if it wasn't for you. i was ... i _was_ helping ... i had gone meaning to help if anything went wrong at mr. lagune's. yes--that night. no ... don't! it was too hard before to tell you. but i really did not feel it ... until i saw you there. then all at once i felt shabby and mean." "well?" said lewisham. "that's all. i may have done thought-reading, but i have never really cheated since--_never_.... if you knew how hard it is ..." "i wish you had told me that before." "i couldn't. before you came it was different. he used to make fun of the people--used to imitate lagune and make me laugh. it seemed a sort of joke." she stopped abruptly. "why did you ever come on with me? i told you not to--you _know_ i did." she was near wailing. for a minute she was silent. "i can't go to his sister's," she cried. "i may be a coward--but i can't." pause. and then lewisham saw his solution straight and clear. suddenly his secret desire had become his manifest duty. "look here," he said, not looking at her and pulling his moustache. "i won't have you doing any more of that damned cheating. you shan't soil yourself any more. and i won't have you leaving london." "but what am i to do?" her voice went up. "well--there is one thing you can do. if you dare." "what is it?" he made no answer for some seconds. then he turned round and sat looking at her. their eyes met.... the grey of his mind began to colour. her face was white and she was looking at him, in fear and perplexity. a new tenderness for her sprang up in him--a new feeling. hitherto he had loved and desired her sweetness and animation--but now she was white and weary-eyed. he felt as though he had forgotten her and suddenly remembered. a great longing came into his mind. "but what is the other thing i can do?" it was strangely hard to say. there came a peculiar sensation in his throat and facial muscles, a nervous stress between laughing and crying. all the world vanished before that great desire. and he was afraid she would not dare, that she would not take him seriously. "what is it?" she said again. "don't you see that we can marry?" he said, with the flood of his resolution suddenly strong and steady. "don't you see that is the only thing for us? the dead lane we are in! you must come out of your cheating, and i must come out of my ... cramming. and we--we must marry." he paused and then became eloquent. "the world is against us, against--us. to you it offers money to cheat--to be ignoble. for it _is_ ignoble! it offers you no honest way, only a miserable drudgery. and it keeps you from me. and me too it bribes with the promise of success--if i will desert you ... you don't know all ... we may have to wait for years--we may have to wait for ever, if we wait until life is safe. we may be separated.... we may lose one another altogether.... let us fight against it. why should we separate? unless true love is like the other things--an empty cant. this is the only way. we two--who belong to one another." she looked at him, her face perplexed with this new idea, her heart beating very fast. "we are so young," she said. "and how are we to live? you get a guinea." "i can get more--i can earn more, i have thought it out. i have been thinking of it these two days. i have been thinking what we could do. i have money." "you have money?" "nearly a hundred pounds." "but we are so young--and my mother ..." "we won't ask her. we will ask no one. this is _our_ affair. ethel! this is _our_ affair. it is not a question of ways and means--even before this--i have thought ... dear one!--_don't_ you love me?" she did not grasp his emotional quality. she looked at him with puzzled eyes--still practical--making the suggestion arithmetical. "i could typewrite if i had a machine. i have heard--" "it's not a question of ways and means. now. ethel--i have longed--" he stopped. she looked at his face, at his eyes now eager and eloquent with the things that never shaped themselves into words. "_dare_ you come with me?" he whispered. suddenly the world opened out in reality to her as sometimes it had opened out to her in wistful dreams. and she quailed before it. she dropped her eyes from his. she became a fellow-conspirator. "but, how--?" "i will think how. trust me! surely we know each other now--think! we two--" "but i have never thought--" "i could get apartments for us both. it would be so easy. and think of it--think--of what life would be!" "how can i?" "you will come?" she looked at him, startled. "you know," she said, "you must know i would like--i would love--" "you will come?" "but, dear--! dear, if you _make_ me--" "yes!" cried lewisham triumphantly. "you will come." he glanced round and his voice dropped. "oh! my dearest! my dearest!..." his voice sank to an inaudible whisper. but his face was eloquent. two garrulous, home-going clerks passed opportunely to remind him that his emotions were in a public place. chapter xx. the career is suspended. on the wednesday afternoon following this--it was hard upon the botanical examination--mr. lewisham was observed by smithers in the big education library reading in a volume of the british encyclopaedia. beside him were the current whitaker's almanac, an open note-book, a book from the contemporary science series, and the science and art department's directory. smithers, who had a profound sense of lewisham's superiority in the art of obtaining facts of value in examinations, wondered for some minutes what valuable tip for a student in botany might be hidden in whitaker, and on reaching his lodgings spent some time over the landlady's copy. but really lewisham was not studying botany, but the art of marriage according to the best authorities. (the book from the contemporary science series was professor letourneau's "evolution of marriage." it was interesting certainly, but of little immediate use.) from whitaker lewisham learnt that it would be possible at a cost of £ , s. d. or £ , s. d. (one of the items was ambiguous) to get married within the week--that charge being exclusive of vails--at the district registry office. he did little addition sums in the note-book. the church fees he found were variable, but for more personal reasons he rejected a marriage at church. marriage by certificate at a registrar's involved an inconvenient delay. it would have to be £ , s. d. vails--ten shillings, say. afterwards, without needless ostentation, he produced a cheque-book and a deposit-book, and proceeded to further arithmetic. he found that he was master of £ , s. d. not a hundred as he had said, but a fine big sum--men have started great businesses on less. it had been a hundred originally. allowing five pounds for the marriage and moving, this would leave about £ . plenty. no provision was made for flowers, carriages, or the honeymoon. but there would be a typewriter to buy. ethel was to do her share.... "it will be a devilish close thing," said lewisham with a quite unreasonable exultation. for, strangely enough, the affair was beginning to take on a flavour of adventure not at all unpleasant. he leant back in his chair with the note-book closed in his hand.... but there was much to see to that afternoon. first of all he had to discover the district superintendent registrar, and then to find a lodging whither he should take ethel--their lodging, where they were to live together. at the thought of that new life together that was drawing so near, she came into his head, vivid and near and warm.... he recovered himself from a day dream. he became aware of a library attendant down the room leaning forward over his desk, gnawing the tip of a paper knife after the fashion of south kensington library attendants, and staring at him curiously. it occurred to lewisham that thought reading was one of the most possible things in the world. he blushed, rose clumsily and took the volume of the encyclopaedia back to its shelf. he found the selection of lodgings a difficult business. after his first essay he began to fancy himself a suspicious-looking character, and that perhaps hampered him. he had chosen the district southward of the brompton road. it had one disadvantage--he might blunder into a house with a fellow-student.... not that it mattered vitally. but the fact is, it is rather unusual for married couples to live permanently in furnished lodgings in london. people who are too poor to take a house or a flat commonly find it best to take part of a house or unfurnished apartments. there are a hundred couples living in unfurnished rooms (with "the use of the kitchen") to one in furnished in london. the absence of furniture predicates a dangerous want of capital to the discreet landlady. the first landlady lewisham interviewed didn't like ladies, they required such a lot of attendance; the second was of the same mind; the third told mr. lewisham he was "youngish to be married;" the fourth said she only "did" for single "gents." the fifth was a young person with an arch manner, who liked to know all about people she took in, and subjected lewisham to a searching cross-examination. when she had spitted him in a downright lie or so, she expressed an opinion that her rooms "would scarcely do," and bowed him amiably out. he cooled his ears and cheeks by walking up and down the street for a space, and then tried again. this landlady was a terrible and pitiful person, so grey and dusty she was, and her face deep lined with dust and trouble and labour. she wore a dirty cap that was all askew. she took lewisham up into a threadbare room on the first floor, "there's the use of a piano," she said, and indicated an instrument with a front of torn green silk. lewisham opened the keyboard and evoked a vibration of broken strings. he took one further survey of the dismal place, "eighteen shillings," he said. "thank you ... i'll let you know." the woman smiled with the corners of her mouth down, and without a word moved wearily towards the door. lewisham felt a transient wonder at her hopeless position, but he did not pursue the inquiry. the next landlady sufficed. she was a clean-looking german woman, rather smartly dressed; she had a fringe of flaxen curls and a voluble flow of words, for the most part recognisably english. with this she sketched out remarks. fifteen shillings was her demand for a minute bedroom and a small sitting-room, separated by folding doors on the ground floor, and her personal services. coals were to be "sixpence a kettle," she said--a pretty substitute for scuttle. she had not understood lewisham to say he was married. but she had no hesitation. "aayteen shillin'," she said imperturbably. "paid furs day ich wik ... see?" mr. lewisham surveyed the rooms again. they looked clean, and the bonus tea vases, the rancid, gilt-framed oleographs, two toilet tidies used as ornaments, and the fact that the chest of drawers had been crowded out of the bedroom into the sitting-room, simply appealed to his sense of humour. "i'll take 'em from saturday next," he said. she was sure he would like them, and proposed to give him his book forthwith. she mentioned casually that the previous lodger had been a captain and had stayed three years. (one never hears by any chance of lodgers stopping for a shorter period.) something happened (german) and now he kept his carriage--apparently an outcome of his stay. she returned with a small penny account-book, a bottle of ink and an execrable pen, wrote lewisham's name on the cover of this, and a receipt for eighteen shillings on the first page. she was evidently a person of considerable business aptitude. lewisham paid, and the transaction terminated. "szhure to be gomfortable," followed him comfortingly to the street. then he went on to chelsea and interviewed a fatherly gentleman at the vestry offices. the fatherly gentleman was chubby-faced and spectacled, and his manner was sympathetic but business-like. he "called back" each item of the interview, "and what can i do for you? you wish to be married! by licence?" "by licence." "by licence!" and so forth. he opened a book and made neat entries of the particulars. "the lady's age?" "twenty-one." "a very suitable age ... for a lady." he advised lewisham to get a ring, and said he would need two witnesses. "_well_--" hesitated lewisham. "there is always someone about," said the superintendent registrar. "and they are quite used to it." thursday and friday lewisham passed in exceedingly high spirits. no consciousness of the practical destruction of the career seems to have troubled him at this time. doubt had vanished from his universe for a space. he wanted to dance along the corridors. he felt curiously irresponsible and threw up an unpleasant sort of humour that pleased nobody. he wished miss heydinger many happy returns of the day, _apropos_ of nothing, and he threw a bun across the refreshment room at smithers and hit one of the art school officials. both were extremely silly things to do. in the first instance he was penitent immediately after the outrage, but in the second he added insult to injury by going across the room and asking in an offensively suspicious manner if anyone had seen his bun. he crawled under a table and found it at last, rather dusty but quite eatable, under the chair of a lady art student. he sat down by smithers to eat it, while he argued with the art official. the art official said the manners of the science students were getting unbearable, and threatened to bring the matter before the refreshment-room committee. lewisham said it was a pity to make such a fuss about a trivial thing, and proposed that the art official should throw his lunch--steak and kidney pudding--across the room at him, lewisham, and so get immediate satisfaction. he then apologised to the official and pointed out in extenuation that it was a very long and difficult shot he had attempted. the official then drank a crumb, or breathed some beer, or something of that sort, and the discussion terminated. in the afternoon, however, lewisham, to his undying honour, felt acutely ashamed of himself. miss heydinger would not speak to him. on saturday morning he absented himself from the schools, pleading by post a slight indisposition, and took all his earthly goods to the booking office at vauxhall station. chaffery's sister lived at tongham, near farnham, and ethel, dismissed a week since by lagune, had started that morning, under her mother's maudlin supervision, to begin her new slavery. she was to alight either at farnham or woking, as opportunity arose, and to return to vauxhall to meet him. so that lewisham's vigil on the main platform was of indefinite duration. at first he felt the exhilaration of a great adventure. then, as he paced the long platform, came a philosophical mood, a sense of entire detachment from the world. he saw a bundle of uprooted plants beside the portmanteau of a fellow-passenger and it suggested a grotesque simile. his roots, his earthly possessions, were all downstairs in the booking-office. what a flimsy thing he was! a box of books and a trunk of clothes, some certificates and scraps of paper, an entry here and an entry there, a body not over strong--and the vast multitude of people about him--against him--the huge world in which he found himself! did it matter anything to one human soul save her if he ceased to exist forthwith? and miles away perhaps she also was feeling little and lonely.... would she have trouble with her luggage? suppose her aunt were to come to farnham junction to meet her? suppose someone stole her purse? suppose she came too late! the marriage was to take place at two.... suppose she never came at all! after three trains in succession had disappointed him his vague feelings of dread gave place to a profound depression.... but she came at last, and it was twenty-three minutes to two. he hurried her luggage downstairs, booked it with his own, and in another minute they were in a hansom--their first experience of that species of conveyance--on the way to the vestry office. they had said scarcely anything to one another, save hasty directions from lewisham, but their eyes were full of excitement, and under the apron of the cab their hands were gripped together. the little old gentleman was business-like but kindly. they made their vows to him, to a little black-bearded clerk and a lady who took off an apron in the nether part of the building to attend. the little old gentleman made no long speeches. "you are young people," he said slowly, "and life together is a difficult thing.... be kind to each other." he smiled a little sadly, and held out a friendly hand. ethel's eyes glistened and she found she could not speak. chapter xxi. home! then a furtive payment of witnesses, and lewisham was beside her. his face was radiant. a steady current of workers going home to their half-holiday rest poured along the street. on the steps before them lay a few grains of rice from some more public nuptials. a critical little girl eyed our couple curiously and made some remark to her ragamuffin friend. "not them," said the ragamuffin friend, "they've only been askin' questions." the ragamuffin friend was no judge of faces. they walked back through the thronged streets to vauxhall station, saying little to one another, and there lewisham, assuming as indifferent a manner as he could command, recovered their possessions from the booking-office by means of two separate tickets and put them aboard a four-wheeler. his luggage went outside, but the little brown portmanteau containing ethel's trousseau was small enough to go on the seat in front of them. you must figure a rather broken-down four-wheeler bearing the yellow-painted box and the experienced trunk and mr. lewisham and all his fortunes, a despondent fitful horse, and a threadbare venerable driver, blasphemous _sotto voce_ and flagellant, in an ancient coat with capes. when our two young people found themselves in the cab again a certain stiffness of manner between them vanished and there was more squeezing of hands. "ethel _lewisham_," said lewisham several times, and ethel reciprocated with "husbinder" and "hubby dear," and took off her glove to look again in an ostentatious manner at a ring. and she kissed the ring. they were resolved that their newly-married state should not appear, and with considerable ceremony it was arranged that he should treat her with off-hand brusqueness when they arrived at their lodging. the teutonic landlady appeared in the passage with an amiable smile and the hope that they had had a pleasant journey, and became voluble with promises of comfort. lewisham having assisted the slatternly general servant to carry in his boxes, paid the cabman a florin in a resolute manner and followed the ladies into the sitting-room. ethel answered madam gadow's inquiries with admirable self-possession, followed her through the folding-doors and displayed an intelligent interest in a new spring mattress. presently the folding-doors were closed again. lewisham hovered about the front room pulling his moustache and pretending to admire the oleographs, surprised to find himself trembling.... the slatternly general servant reappeared with the chops and tinned salmon he had asked madam gadow to prepare for them. he went and stared out of the window, heard the door close behind the girl, and turned at a sound as ethel appeared shyly through the folding-doors. she was suddenly domestic. hitherto he had seen her without a hat and jacket only on one indistinct dramatic occasion. now she wore a little blouse of soft, dark red material, with a white froth about the wrists and that pretty neck of hers. and her hair was a new wonderland of curls and soft strands. how delicate she looked and sweet as she stood hesitating there. these gracious moments in life! he took two steps and held out his arms. she glanced at the closed door of the room and came flitting towards him.... chapter xxii. epithalamy. for three indelible days lewisham's existence was a fabric of fine emotions, life was too wonderful and beautiful for any doubts or forethought. to be with ethel was perpetual delight--she astonished this sisterless youngster with a thousand feminine niceties and refinements. she shamed him for his strength and clumsiness. and the light in her eyes and the warmth in her heart that lit them! even to be away from her was a wonder and in its way delightful. he was no common student, he was a man with a secret life. to part from her on monday near south kensington station and go up exhibition road among all the fellows who lived in sordid, lonely lodgings and were boys to his day-old experience! to neglect one's work and sit back and dream of meeting again! to slip off to the shady churchyard behind the oratory when, or even a little before, the midday bell woke the great staircase to activity, and to meet a smiling face and hear a soft, voice saying sweet foolish things! and after four another meeting and the walk home--their own home. no little form now went from him and flitted past a gas lamp down a foggy vista, taking his desire with her. never more was that to be. lewisham's long hours in the laboratory were spent largely in a dreamy meditation, in--to tell the truth--the invention of foolish terms of endearment: "dear wife," "dear little wife thing," "sweetest dearest little wife," "dillywings." a pretty employment! and these are quite a fair specimen of his originality during those wonderful days. a moment of heart-searching in that particular matter led to the discovery of hitherto undreamt-of kindred with swift. for lewisham, like swift and most other people, had hit upon, the little language. indeed it was a very foolish time. such section cutting as he did that third day of his married life--and he did very little--was a thing to marvel at. bindon, the botany professor, under the fresh shock of his performance, protested to a colleague in the grill room that never had a student been so foolishly overrated. and ethel too had a fine emotional time. she was mistress of a home--_their_ home together. she shopped and was called "ma'am" by respectful, good-looking shopmen; she designed meals and copied out papers of notes with a rich sense of helpfulness. and ever and again she would stop writing and sit dreaming. and for four bright week-days she went to and fro to accompany and meet lewisham and listen greedily to the latest fruits of his imagination. the landlady was very polite and conversed entertainingly about the very extraordinary and dissolute servants that had fallen to her lot. and ethel disguised her newly wedded state by a series of ingenious prevarications. she wrote a letter that saturday evening to her mother--lewisham had helped her to write it--making a sort of proclamation of her heroic departure and promising a speedy visit. they posted the letter so that it might not be delivered until monday. she was quite sure with lewisham that only the possible dishonour of mediumship could have brought their marriage about--she sank the mutual attraction beyond even her own vision. there was more than a touch of magnificence, you perceive, about this affair. it was lewisham had persuaded her to delay that reassuring visit until monday night. "one whole day of honeymoon," he insisted, was to be theirs. in his prenuptial meditations he had not clearly focussed the fact that even after marriage some sort of relations with mr. and mrs. chaffery would still go on. even now he was exceedingly disinclined to face that obvious necessity. he foresaw, in spite of a resolute attempt to ignore it, that there would be explanatory scenes of some little difficulty. but the prevailing magnificence carried him over this trouble. "let us at least have this little time for ourselves," he said, and that seemed to settle their position. save for its brevity and these intimations of future trouble it was a very fine time indeed. their midday dinner together, for example--it was a little cold when at last they came to it on saturday--was immense fun. there was no marked subsidence of appetite; they ate extremely well in spite of the meeting of their souls, and in spite of certain shiftings of chairs and hand claspings and similar delays. he really made the acquaintance of her hands then for the first time, plump white hands with short white fingers, and the engagement ring had come out of its tender hiding-place and acted as keeper to the wedding ring. their eyes were perpetually flitting about the room and coming back to mutual smiles. all their movements were faintly tremulous. she professed to be vastly interested and amused by the room and its furniture and her position, and he was delighted by her delight. she was particularly entertained by the chest of drawers in the living room, and by lewisham's witticisms at the toilet tidies and the oleographs. and after the chops and the most of the tinned salmon and the very new loaf were gone they fell to with fine effect upon a tapioca pudding. their talk was fragmentary. "did you hear her call me _madame? mádáme_--so!" "and presently i must go out and do some shopping. there are all the things for sunday and monday morning to get. i must make a list. it will never do to let her know how little i know about things.... i wish i knew more." at the time lewisham regarded her confession of domestic ignorance as a fine basis for facetiousness. he developed a fresh line of thought, and condoled with her on the inglorious circumstances of their wedding. "no bridesmaids," he said; "no little children scattering flowers, no carriages, no policemen to guard the wedding presents, nothing proper--nothing right. not even a white favour. only you and i." "only you and i. _oh_!" "this is nonsense," said lewisham, after an interval. "and think what we lose in the way of speeches," he resumed. "cannot you imagine the best man rising:--'ladies and gentlemen--the health of the bride.' that is what the best man has to do, isn't it?" by way of answer she extended her hand. "and do you know," he said, after that had received due recognition, "we have never been introduced!" "neither have we!" said ethel. "neither have we! we have never been introduced!" for some inscrutable reason it delighted them both enormously to think that they had never been introduced.... in the later afternoon lewisham, having unpacked his books to a certain extent, and so forth, was visible to all men, visibly in the highest spirits, carrying home ethel's shopping. there were parcels and cones in blue and parcels in rough grey paper and a bag of confectionery, and out of one of the side pockets of that east-end overcoat the tail of a haddock protruded from its paper. under such magnificent sanctions and amid such ignoble circumstances did this honeymoon begin. on sunday evening they went for a long rambling walk through the quiet streets, coming out at last into hyde park. the early spring night was mild and clear and the kindly moonlight was about them. they went to the bridge and looked down the serpentine, with the little lights of paddington yellow and remote. they stood there, dim little figures and very close together. they whispered and became silent. presently it seemed that something passed and lewisham began talking in his magnificent vein. he likened the serpentine to life, and found meaning in the dark banks of kensington gardens and the remote bright lights. "the long struggle," he said, "and the lights at the end,"--though he really did not know what he meant by the lights at the end. neither did ethel, though the emotion was indisputable. "we are fighting the world," he said, finding great satisfaction in the thought. "all the world is against us--and we are fighting it all." "we will not be beaten," said ethel. "how could we be beaten--together?" said lewisham. "for you i would fight a dozen worlds." it seemed a very sweet and noble thing to them under the sympathetic moonlight, almost indeed too easy for their courage, to be merely fighting the world. * * * * * "you 'aven't bin married ver' long," said madam gadow with an insinuating smile, when she readmitted ethel on monday morning after lewisham had been swallowed up by the schools. "no, i haven't _very_ long," admitted ethel. "you are ver' 'appy," said madam gadow, and sighed. "_i_ was ver' 'appy," said madam gadow. chapter xxiii. mr. chaffery at home. the golden mists of delight lifted a little on monday, when mr. and mrs. g.e. lewisham went to call on his mother-in-law and mr. chaffery. mrs. lewisham went in evident apprehension, but clouds of glory still hung about lewisham's head, and his manner was heroic. he wore a cotton shirt and linen collar, and a very nice black satin tie that mrs. lewisham had bought on her own responsibility during the day. she naturally wanted him to look all right. mrs. chaffery appeared in the half light of the passage as the top of a grimy cap over ethel's shoulder and two black sleeves about her neck. she emerged as a small, middle-aged woman, with a thin little nose between silver-rimmed spectacles, a weak mouth and perplexed eyes, a queer little dust-lined woman with the oddest resemblance to ethel in her face. she was trembling visibly with nervous agitation. she hesitated, peering, and then kissed mr. lewisham effusively. "and this is mr. lewisham!" she said as she did so. she was the third thing feminine to kiss lewisham since the promiscuous days of his babyhood. "i was so afraid--there!" she laughed hysterically. "you'll excuse my saying that it's comforting to see you--honest like and young. not but what ethel ... _he_ has been something dreadful," said mrs. chaffery. "you didn't ought to have written about that mesmerising. and of all letters that which jane wrote--there! but he's waiting and listening--" "are we to go downstairs, mums?" asked ethel. "he's waiting for you there," said mrs. chaffery. she held a dismal little oil lamp, and they descended a tenebrous spiral structure into an underground breakfast-room lit by gas that shone through a partially frosted globe with cut-glass stars. that descent had a distinctly depressing effect upon lewisham. he went first. he took a deep breath at the door. what on earth was chaffery going to say? not that he cared, of course. chaffery was standing with his back to the fire, trimming his finger-nails with a pocket-knife. his gilt glasses were tilted forward so as to make an inflamed knob at the top of his long nose, and he regarded mr. and mrs. lewisham over them with--lewisham doubted his eyes for a moment--but it was positively a smile, an essentially waggish smile. "you've come back," he said quite cheerfully over lewisham to ethel. there was a hint of falsetto in his voice. "she has called to see her mother," said lewisham. "you, i believe, are mr. chaffery?" "i would like to know who the deuce _you_ are?" said chaffery, suddenly tilting his head back so as to look through his glasses instead of over them, and laughing genially. "for thoroughgoing cheek, i'm inclined to think you take the cake. are you the mr. lewisham to whom this misguided girl refers in her letter?" "i am." "maggie," said mr. chaffery to mrs. chaffery, "there is a class of being upon whom delicacy is lost--to whom delicacy is practically unknown. has your daughter got her marriage lines?" "mr. chaffery!" said lewisham, and mrs. chaffery exclaimed, "james! how _can_ you?" chaffery shut his penknife with a click and slipped it into his vest-pocket. then he looked up again, speaking in the same equal voice. "i presume we are civilised persons prepared to manage our affairs in a civilised way. my stepdaughter vanishes for two nights and returns with an alleged husband. i at least am not disposed to be careless about her legal position." "you ought to know her better--" began lewisham. "why argue about it," said chaffery gaily, pointing a lean finger at ethel's gesture, "when she has 'em in her pocket? she may just as well show me now. i thought so. don't be alarmed at my handling them. fresh copies can always be got at the nominal price of two-and-seven. thank you ... lewisham, george edgar. one-and-twenty. and ... you--one-and-twenty! i never did know your age, my dear, exactly, and now your mother won't say. student! thank you. i am greatly obliged. indeed i am greatly relieved. and now, what have you got to say for yourselves in this remarkable affair?" "you had a letter," said lewisham. "i had a letter of excuses--the personalities i overlook ... yes, sir--they were excuses. you young people wanted to marry--and you seized an occasion. you did not even refer to the fact that you wanted to marry in your letter. pure modesty! but now you have come here married. it disorganises this household, it inflicts endless bother on people, but never you mind that! i'm not blaming _you_. nature's to blame! neither of you know what you are in for yet. you will. you're married, and that is the great essential thing.... (ethel, my dear, just put your husband's hat and stick behind the door.) and you, sir, are so good as to disapprove of the way in which i earn my living?" "well," said lewisham. "yes--i'm bound to say i do." "you are really _not_ bound to say it. the modesty of inexperience would excuse you." "yes, but it isn't right--it isn't straight." "dogma," said chaffery. "dogma!" "what do you mean by dogma?" asked lewisham. "i mean, dogma. but we must argue this out in comfort. it is our supper hour, and i'm not the man to fight against accomplished facts. we have intermarried. there it is. you must stop to supper--and you and i must thresh these things out. we've involved ourselves with each other and we've got to make the best of it. your wife and mine will spread the board, and we will go on talking. why not sit in that chair instead of leaning on the back? this is a home--_domus_--not a debating society--humble in spite of my manifest frauds.... that's better. and in the first place i hope--i do so hope"--chaffery was suddenly very impressive--"that you're not a dissenter." "eh!" said lewisham, and then, "no! i am _not_ a dissenter." "that's better," said mr. chaffery. "i'm glad of that. i was just a little afraid--something in your manner. i can't stand dissenters. i've a peculiar dislike to dissenters. to my mind it's the great drawback of this clapham. you see ... i have invariably found them deceitful--invariably." he grimaced and dropped his glasses with a click against his waistcoat buttons. "i'm very glad of that," he said, replacing them. "the dissenter, the nonconformist conscience, the puritan, you know, the vegetarian and total abstainer, and all that sort of thing, i cannot away with them. i have cleared my mind of cant and formulae. i've a nature essentially hellenic. have you ever read matthew arnold?" "beyond my scientific reading--" "ah! you _should_ read matthew arnold--a mind of singular clarity. in him you would find a certain quality that is sometimes a little wanting in your scientific men. they are apt to be a little too phenomenal, you know, a little too objective. now i seek after noumena. noumena, mr. lewisham! if you follow me--?" he paused, and his eyes behind the glasses were mildly interrogative. ethel re-entered without her hat and jacket, and with a noisy square black tray, a white cloth, some plates and knives and glasses, and began to lay the table. "_i_ follow you," said lewisham, reddening. he had not the courage to admit ignorance of this remarkable word. "you state your case." "i seek after _noumena_," repeated chaffery with great satisfaction, and gesticulated with his hand, waving away everything but that. "i cannot do with surfaces and appearances. i am one of those nympholepts, you know, nympholepts ... must pursue the truth of things! the elusive fundamental ... i make a rule, i never tell myself lies--never. there are few who can say that. to my mind--truth begins at home. and for the most part--stops there. safest and seemliest! _you_ know. with most men--with your typical dissenter _par excellence_--it's always gadding abroad, calling on the neighbours. you see my point of view?" he glanced at lewisham, who was conscious of an unwonted opacity of mind. he became wary, as wary as he could manage to be on the spur of the moment. "it's a little surprising, you know," he said very carefully, "if i may say so--and considering what happened--to hear _you_ ..." "speaking of truth? not when you understand my position. not when you see where i stand. that is what i am getting at. that is what i am naturally anxious to make clear to you now that we have intermarried, now that you are my stepson-in-law. you're young, you know, you're young, and you're hard and fast. only years can give a mind _tone_--mitigate the varnish of education. i gather from this letter--and your face--that you are one of the party that participated in that little affair at lagune's." he stuck out a finger at a point he had just seen. "by-the-bye!--that accounts for ethel," he said. ethel rapped down the mustard on the table. "it does," she said, but not very loudly. "but you had met before?" said chaffery. "at whortley," said lewisham. "i see," said chaffery. "i was in--i was one of those who arranged the exposure," said lewisham. "and now you have raised the matter, i am bound to say--" "i knew," interrupted chaffery. "but what a shock that was for lagune!" he looked down at his toes for a moment with the corners of his mouth tucked in. "the hand dodge wasn't bad, you know," he said, with a queer sidelong smile. lewisham was very busy for a moment trying to get this remark in focus. "i don't see it in the same light as you do," he explained at last. "can't get away from your moral bias, eh?--well, well. we'll go into all that. but apart from its moral merits--simply as an artistic trick--it was not bad." "i don't know much about tricks--" "so few who undertake exposures do. you admit you never heard or thought of that before--the bladder, i mean. yet it's as obvious as tintacks that a medium who's hampered at his hands will do all he can with his teeth, and what _could_ be so self-evident as a bladder under one's lappel? what could be? yet i know psychic literature pretty well, and it's never been suggested even! never. it's a perpetual surprise to me how many things are _not_ thought of by investigators. for one thing, they never count the odds against them, and that puts them wrong at the start. look at it! i am by nature tricky. i spend all my leisure standing or sitting about and thinking up or practising new little tricks, because it amuses me immensely to do so. the whole thing amuses me. well--what is the result of these meditations? take one thing:--i know eight-and-forty ways of making raps--of which at least ten are original. ten original ways of making raps." his manner was very impressive. "and some of them simply tremendous raps. there!" a confirmatory rap exploded--as it seemed between lewisham and chaffery. "_eh?_" said chaffery. the mantelpiece opened a dropping fire, and the table went off under lewisham's nose like a cracker. "you see?" said chaffery, putting his hands under the tail of his coat. the whole room seemed snapping its fingers at lewisham for a space. "very well, and now take the other side. take the severest test i ever tried. two respectable professors of physics--not newtons, you understand, but good, worthy, self-important professors of physics--a lady anxious to prove there's a life beyond the grave, a journalist who wants stuff to write--a person, that is, who gets his living by these researches just as i do--undertook to test me. test _me_!... of course they had their other work to do, professing physics, professing religion, organising research, and so forth. at the outside they don't think an hour a day about it, and most of them had never cheated anybody in their existence, and couldn't, for example, travel without a ticket for a three-mile journey and not get caught, to save their lives.... well--you see the odds?" he paused. lewisham appeared involved in some interior struggle. "you know," explained chaffery, "it was quite an accident you got me--quite. the thing slipped out of my mouth. or your friend with, the flat voice wouldn't have had a chance. not a chance." lewisham spoke like a man who is lifting a weight. "all _this_, you know, is off the question. i'm not disputing your ability. but the thing is ... it isn't right." "we're coming to that," said chaffery. "it's evident we look at things in a different light." "that's it. that's just what we've got to discuss. exactly!" "cheating is cheating. you can't get away from that. that's simple enough." "wait till i've done with it," said chaffery with a certain zest. "of course it's imperative you should understand my position. it isn't as though i hadn't one. ever since i read your letter i've been thinking over that. really!--a justification! in a way you might almost say i had a mission. a sort of prophet. you really don't see the beginning of it yet." "oh, but hang it!" protested lewisham. "ah! you're young, you're crude. my dear young man, you're only at the beginning of things. you really must concede a certain possibility of wider views to a man more than twice your age. but here's supper. for a little while at any rate we'll call a truce." ethel had come in again bearing an additional chair, and mrs. chaffery appeared behind her, crowning the preparations with a jug of small beer. the cloth, lewisham observed, as he turned towards it, had several undarned holes and discoloured places, and in the centre stood a tarnished cruet which contained mustard, pepper, vinegar, and three ambiguous dried-up bottles. the bread was on an ample board with a pious rim, and an honest wedge of cheese loomed disproportionate on a little plate. mr. and mrs. lewisham were seated facing one another, and mrs. chaffery sat in the broken chair because she understood its ways. "this cheese is as nutritious and unattractive and indigestible as science," remarked chaffery, cutting and passing wedges. "but crush it--so--under your fork, add a little of this good dorset butter, a dab of mustard, pepper--the pepper is very necessary--and some malt vinegar, and crush together. you get a compound called crab and by no means disagreeable. so the wise deal with the facts of life, neither bolting nor rejecting, but adapting." "as though pepper and mustard were not facts," said lewisham, scoring his solitary point that evening. chaffery admitted the collapse of his image in very complimentary terms, and lewisham could not avoid a glance across the table at ethel. he remembered that chaffery was a slippery scoundrel whose blame was better than his praise, immediately afterwards. for a time the crab engaged chaffery, and the conversation languished. mrs. chaffery asked ethel formal questions about their lodgings, and ethel's answers were buoyant, "you must come and have tea one day," said ethel, not waiting for lewisham's endorsement, "and see it all." chaffery astonished lewisham by suddenly displaying a complete acquaintance with his status as a south kensington teacher in training. "i suppose you have some money beyond that guinea," said chaffery offhandedly. "enough to go on with," said lewisham, reddening. "and you look to them at south kensington, to do something for you--a hundred a year or so, when your scholarship is up?" "yes," said lewisham a little reluctantly. "yes. a hundred a year or so. that's the sort of idea. and there's lots of places beyond south kensington, of course, even if they don't put me up there." "i see," said chaffery; "but it will be a pretty close shave for all that--one hundred a year. well, well--there's many a deserving man has to do with less," and after a meditative pause he asked lewisham to pass the beer. "hev you a mother living, mr. lewisham?" said mrs. chaffery suddenly, and pursued him through the tale of his connexions. when he came to the plumber, mrs. chaffery remarked with an unexpected air of consequence that most families have their poor relations. then the air of consequence vanished again into the past from which it had arisen. supper finished, chaffery poured the residuum of the beer into his glass, produced a broseley clay of the longest sort, and invited lewisham to smoke. "honest smoking," said chaffery, tapping the bowl of his clay, and added: "in this country--cigars--sound cigars--and honesty rarely meet." lewisham fumbled in his pocket for his algerian cigarettes, and chaffery having regarded them unfavourably through his glasses, took up the thread of his promised apologia. the ladies retired to wash up the supper things. "you see," said chaffery, opening abruptly so soon as the clay was drawing, "about this cheating--i do not find life such a simple matter as you do." "_i_ don't find life simple," said lewisham, "but i do think there's a right and a wrong in things. and i don't think you have said anything so far to show that spiritualistic cheating is right." "let us thresh the matter out," said chaffery, crossing his legs; "let us thresh the matter out. now"--he drew at his pipe--"i don't think you fully appreciate the importance of illusion in life, the essential nature of lies and deception of the body politic. you are inclined to discredit one particular form of imposture, because it is not generally admitted--carries a certain discredit, and--witness the heel edges of my trouser legs, witness yonder viands--small rewards." "it's not that," said lewisham. "now i am prepared to maintain," said chaffery, proceeding with his proposition, "that honesty is essentially an anarchistic and disintegrating force in society, that communities are held together and the progress of civilisation made possible only by vigorous and sometimes even, violent lying; that the social contract is nothing more or less than a vast conspiracy of human beings to lie to and humbug themselves and one another for the general good. lies are the mortar that bind the savage individual man into the social masonry. there is the general thesis upon which i base my justification. my mediumship, i can assure you, is a particular instance of the general assertion. were i not of a profoundly indolent, restless, adventurous nature, and horribly averse to writing, i would make a great book of this and live honoured by every profound duffer in the world." "but how are _you_ going to prove it?" "prove it! it simply needs pointing out. even now there are men--bernard shaw, ibsen, and such like--who have seen bits of it in a new-gospel-grubbing sort of fashion. what is man? lust and greed tempered by fear and an irrational vanity." "i don't agree with that," said mr. lewisham. "you will as you grow older," said chaffery. "there's truths you have to grow into. but about this matter of lies--let us look at the fabric of society, let us compare the savage. you will discover the only essential difference between savage and civilised is this: the former hasn't learnt to shirk the truth of things, and the latter has. take the most obvious difference--the clothing of the civilised man, his invention of decency. what _is_ clothing? the concealment of essential facts. what is decorum? suppression! i don't argue against decency and decorum, mind you, but there they are--essentials to civilisation and essentially '_suppressio veri_.' and in the pockets of his clothes our citizen carries money. the pure savage has no money. to him a lump of metal is a lump of metal--possibly ornamental--no more. that's right. to any lucid-minded man it's the same or different only through the gross folly of his fellows. but to the common civilised man the universal exchangeability of this gold is a sacred and fundamental fact. think of it! why should it be? there isn't a why! i live in perpetual amazement at the gullibility of my fellow-creatures. of a morning sometimes, i can assure you, i lie in bed fancying that people may have found out this swindle in the night, expect to hear a tumult downstairs and see your mother-in-law come rushing into the room with a rejected shilling from the milkman. 'what's this?' says he. 'this muck for milk?' but it never happens. never. if it did, if people suddenly cleared their minds of this cant of money, what would happen? the true nature of man would appear. i should whip out of bed, seize some weapon, and after the milkman forthwith. it's becoming to keep the peace, but it's necessary to have milk. the neighbours would come pouring out--also after milk. milkman, suddenly enlightened, would start clattering up the street. after him! clutch--tear! got him! over goes the cart! fight if you like, but don't upset the can!... don't you see it all?--perfectly reasonable every bit of it. i should return, bruised and bloody, with the milk-can under my arm. yes, _i_ should have the milk-can--i should keep my eye on that.... but why go on? you of all men should know that life is a struggle for existence, a fight for food. money is just the lie that mitigates our fury." "no," said lewisham; "no! i'm not prepared to admit that." "what _is_ money?" mr. lewisham dodged. "you state your case first," he said. "i really don't see what all this has to do with cheating at a _séance_." "i weave my defence from this loom, though. take some aggressively respectable sort of man--a bishop, for example." "well," said lewisham, "i don't much hold with bishops." "it doesn't matter. take a professor of science, walking the earth. remark his clothing, making a decent citizen out of him, concealing the fact that physically he is a flabby, pot-bellied degenerate. that is the first lie of his being. no fringes round _his_ trousers, my boy. notice his hair, groomed and clipped, the tacit lie that its average length is half an inch, whereas in nature he would wave a few score yard-long hairs of ginger grey to the winds of heaven. notice the smug suppressions of his face. in his mouth are lies in the shape of false teeth. then on the earth somewhere poor devils are toiling to get him meat and corn and wine. he is clothed in the lives of bent and thwarted weavers, his way is lit by phossy jaw, he eats from lead-glazed crockery--all his ways are paved with the lives of men.... think of the chubby, comfortable creature! and, as swift has it--to think that such a thing should deal in pride!... he pretends that his blessed little researches are in some way a fair return to these remote beings for their toil, their suffering; pretends that he and his parasitic career are payment for their thwarted desires. imagine him bullying his gardener over some transplanted geraniums, the thick mist of lies they stand in, so that the man does not immediately with the edge of a spade smite down his impertinence to the dust from which it rose.... and his case is the case of all comfortable lives. what a lie and sham all civility is, all good breeding, all culture and refinement, while one poor ragged wretch drags hungry on the earth!" "but this is socialism!" said lewisham. "_i_--" "no ism," said chaffery, raising his rich voice. "only the ghastly truth of things--the truth that the warp and the woof of the world of men is lying. socialism is no remedy, no _ism_ is a remedy; things are so." "i don't agree--" began lewisham. "not with the hopelessness, because you are young, but with the description you do." "well--within limits." "you agree that most respectable positions in the world are tainted with the fraud of our social conditions. if they were not tainted with fraud they would not be respectable. even your own position--who gave you the right to marry and prosecute interesting scientific studies while other young men rot in mines?" "i admit--" "you can't help admitting. and here is my position. since all ways of life are tainted with fraud, since to live and speak the truth is beyond human strength and courage--as one finds it--is it not better for a man that he engage in some straightforward comparatively harmless cheating, than if he risk his mental integrity in some ambiguous position and fall at last into self-deception and self-righteousness? that is the essential danger. that is the thing i always guard against. heed that! it is the master sin. self-righteousness." mr. lewisham pulled at his moustache. "you begin to take me. and after all, these worthy people do not suffer so greatly. if i did not take their money some other impostor would. their huge conceit of intelligence would breed perhaps some viler swindle than my facetious rappings. that's the line our doubting bishops take, and why shouldn't i? for example, these people might give it to public charities, minister to the fattened secretary, the prodigal younger son. after all, at worst, i am a sort of latter-day robin hood; i take from the rich according to their incomes. i don't give to the poor certainly, i don't get enough. but--there are other good works. many a poor weakling have i comforted with lies, great thumping, silly lies, about the grave! compare me with one of those rascals who disseminate phossy jaw and lead poisons, compare me with a millionaire who runs a music hall with an eye to feminine talent, or an underwriter, or the common stockbroker. or any sort of lawyer.... "there are bishops," said chaffery, "who believe in darwin and doubt moses. now, i hold myself better than they--analogous perhaps, but better--for i do at least invent something of the tricks i play--i do do that." "that's all very well," began lewisham. "i might forgive them their dishonesty," said chaffery, "but the stupidity of it, the mental self-abnegation--lord! if a solicitor doesn't swindle in the proper shabby-magnificent way, they chuck him for unprofessional conduct." he paused. he became meditative, and smiled faintly. "now, some of _my_ dodges," he said with a sudden change of voice, turning towards lewisham, his eyes smiling over his glasses and an emphatic hand patting the table-cloth; "some of _my_ dodges are _damned_ ingenious, you know--_damned_ ingenious--and well worth double the money they bring me--double." he turned towards the fire again, pulling at his smouldering pipe, and eyeing lewisham over the corner of his glasses. "one or two of my little things would make maskelyne sit up," he said presently. "they would set that mechanical orchestra playing out of pure astonishment. i really must explain some of them to you--now we have intermarried." it took mr. lewisham a minute or so to re-form the regiment of his mind, disordered by its headlong pursuit of chaffery's flying arguments. "but on your principles you might do almost anything!" he said. "precisely!" said chaffery. "but--" "it is rather a curious method," protested chaffery; "to test one's principles of action by judging the resultant actions on some other principle, isn't it?" lewisham took a moment to think. "i suppose that is so," he said, in the manner of a man convinced against his will. he perceived his logic insufficient. he suddenly thrust the delicacies of argument aside. certain sentences he had brought ready for use in his mind came up and he delivered them abruptly. "anyhow," he said, "i don't agree with this cheating. in spite of what you say, i hold to what i said in my letter. ethel's connexion with all these things is at an end. i shan't go out of my way to expose you, of course, but if it comes in my way i shall speak my mind of all these spiritualistic phenomena. it's just as well that we should know clearly where we are." "that is clearly understood, my dear stepson-in-law," said chaffery. "our present object is discussion." "but ethel--" "ethel is yours," said chaffery. "ethel is yours," he repeated after an interval and added pensively--"to keep." "but talking of illusion," he resumed, dismissing the sordid with a sign of relief, "i sometimes think with bishop berkeley, that all experience is probably something quite different from reality. that consciousness is _essentially_ hallucination. i, here, and you, and our talk--it is all illusion. bring your science to bear--what am i? a cloudy multitude of atoms, an infinite interplay of little cells. is this hand that i hold out me? this head? is the surface of my skin any more than a rude average boundary? you say it is my mind that is me? but consider the war of motives. suppose i have an impulse that i resist--it is _i_ resist it--the impulse is outside me, eh? but suppose that impulse carries me and i do the thing--that impulse is part of me, is it not? ah! my brain reels at these mysteries! lord! what flimsy fluctuating things we are--first this, then that, a thought, an impulse, a deed and a forgetting, and all the time madly cocksure we are ourselves. and as for you--you who have hardly learned to think for more than five or six short years, there you sit, assured, coherent, there you sit in all your inherited original sin--hallucinatory windlestraw!--judging and condemning. _you_ know right from wrong! my boy, so did adam and eve ... _so soon as they'd had dealings with the father of lies_!" * * * * * at the end of the evening whisky and hot water were produced, and chaffery, now in a mood of great urbanity, said he had rarely enjoyed anyone's conversation so much as lewisham's, and insisted upon everyone having whisky. mrs. chaffery and ethel added sugar and lemon. lewisham felt an instantaneous mild surprise at the sight of ethel drinking grog. at the door mrs. chaffery kissed lewisham an effusive good-bye, and told ethel she really believed it was all for the best. on the way home lewisham was thoughtful and preoccupied. the problem of chaffery assumed enormous proportions. at times indeed even that good man's own philosophical sketch of himself as a practical exponent of mental sincerity touched with humour and the artistic spirit, seemed plausible. lagune was an undeniable ass, and conceivably psychic research was an incentive to trickery. then he remembered the matter in his relation to ethel.... "your stepfather is a little hard to follow," he said at last, sitting on the bed and taking off one boot. "he's dodgy--he's so confoundedly dodgy. one doesn't know where to take hold of him. he's got such a break he's clean bowled me again and again." he thought for a space, and then removed his boot and sat with it on his knee. "of course!... all that he said was wrong--quite wrong. right is right and cheating is cheating, whatever you say about it." "that's what i feel about him," said ethel at the looking-glass. "that's exactly how it seems to me." chapter xxiv. the campaign opens. on saturday lewisham was first through the folding doors. in a moment he reappeared with a document extended. mrs. lewisham stood arrested with her dress skirt in her hand, astonished at the astonishment on his face. "_i_ say!" said lewisham; "just look here!" she looked at the book that he held open before her, and perceived that its vertical ruling betokened a sordid import, that its list of items in an illegible mixture of english and german was lengthy. " kettle of coals d." occurred regularly down that portentous array and buttoned it all together. it was madam gadow's first bill. ethel took it out of his hand and examined it closer. it looked no smaller closer. the overcharges were scandalous. it was curious how the humour of calling a scuttle "kettle" had evaporated. that document, i take it, was the end of mr. lewisham's informal honeymoon. its advent was the snap of that bright prince rupert's drop; and in a moment--dust. for a glorious week he had lived in the persuasion that life was made of love and mystery, and now he was reminded with singular clearness that it was begotten of a struggle for existence and the will to live. "confounded imposition!" fumed mr. lewisham, and the breakfast table was novel and ominous, mutterings towards anger on the one hand and a certain consternation on the other. "i must give her a talking to this afternoon," said lewisham at his watch, and after he had bundled his books into the shiny black bag, he gave the first of his kisses that was not a distinct and self-subsisting ceremony. it was usage and done in a hurry, and the door slammed as he went his way to the schools. ethel was not coming that morning, because by special request and because she wanted to help him she was going to copy out some of his botanical notes which had fallen into arrears. on his way to the schools lewisham felt something suspiciously near a sinking of the heart. his preoccupation was essentially arithmetical. the thing that engaged his mind to the exclusion of all other matters is best expressed in the recognised business form. dr. £ s. d. cr. £ s. d mr. l.{ - / by bus fares to south cash in hand { kensington (late) mrs. l.{ by six lunches at the students' club - / at bank by two packets of cig- to scholarship arettes (to smoke after dinner) by marriage and elope- ment by necessary subse- quent additions to bride's trousseau by housekeeping exs. - / by "a few little things" bought by housekeeper - / by madam gadow for coal, lodging and attendance (as per account rendered) by missing by balance ------------- ------------- £ - / £ - / ------------- ------------- from this it will be manifest to the most unbusiness like that, disregarding the extraordinary expenditure on the marriage, and the by no means final "few little things" ethel had bought, outgoings exceeded income by two pounds and more, and a brief excursion into arithmetic will demonstrate that in five-and-twenty weeks the balance of the account would be nothing. but that guinea a week was not to go on for five-and-twenty weeks, but simply for fifteen, and then the net outgoings will be well over three guineas, reducing the "law" accorded our young couple to two-and-twenty weeks. these details are tiresome and disagreeable, no doubt, to the refined reader, but just imagine how much more disagreeable they were to mr. lewisham, trudging meditative to the schools. you will understand his slipping out of the laboratory, and betaking himself to the educational reading-room, and how it was that the observant smithers, grinding his lecture notes against the now imminent second examination for the "forbes," was presently perplexed to the centre of his being by the spectacle of lewisham intent upon a pile of current periodicals, the _educational times_, the _journal of education_, the _schoolmaster, science and art, the university correspondent, nature, the athenaeum, the academy_, and _the author_. smithers remarked the appearance of a note-book, the jotting down of memoranda. he edged into the bay nearest lewisham's table and approached him suddenly from the flank. "what are _you_ after?" said smithers in a noisy whisper and with a detective eye on the papers. he perceived lewisham was scrutinising the advertisement column, and his perplexity increased. "oh--nothing," said lewisham blandly, with his hand falling casually over his memoranda; "what's your particular little game?" "nothing much," said smithers, "just mooching round. you weren't at the meeting last friday?" he turned a chair, knelt on it, and began whispering over the back about debating society politics. lewisham was inattentive and brief. what had he to do with these puerilities? at last smithers went away foiled, and met parkson by the entrance. parkson, by-the-bye, had not spoken to lewisham since their painful misunderstanding. he made a wide detour to his seat at the end table, and so, and by a singular rectitude of bearing and a dignified expression, showed himself aware of lewisham's offensive presence. lewisham's investigations were two-fold. he wanted to discover some way of adding materially to that weekly guinea by his own exertions, and he wanted to learn the conditions of the market for typewriting. for himself he had a vague idea, an idea subsequently abandoned, that it was possible to get teaching work in evening classes during the month of march. but, except by reason of sudden death, no evening class in london changes its staff after september until july comes round again. private tuition, moreover, offered many attractions to him, but no definite proposals. his ideas of his own possibilities were youthful or he would not have spent time in noting the conditions of application for a vacant professorship in physics at the melbourne university. he also made a note of the vacant editorship of a monthly magazine devoted to social questions. he would not have minded doing that sort of thing at all, though the proprietor might. there was also a vacant curatorship in the museum of eton college. the typewriting business was less varied and more definite. those were the days before the violent competition of the half-educated had brought things down to an impossible tenpence the thousand words, and the prevailing price was as high as one-and-six. calculating that ethel could do a thousand words in an hour and that she could work five or six hours in the day, it was evident that her contributions to the household expenses would be by no means despicable; thirty shillings a week perhaps. lewisham was naturally elated at this discovery. he could find no advertisements of authors or others seeking typewriting, but he saw that a great number of typewriters advertised themselves in the literary papers. it was evident ethel also must advertise. "'scientific phraseology a speciality' might be put," meditated lewisham. he returned to his lodgings in a hopeful mood with quite a bundle of memoranda of possible employments. he spent five shillings in stamps on the way. after lunch, lewisham--a little short of breath-asked to see madam gadow. she came up in the most affable frame of mind; nothing could be further from the normal indignation of the british landlady. she was very voluble, gesticulatory and lucid, but unhappily bi-lingual, and at all the crucial points german. mr. lewisham's natural politeness restrained him from too close a pursuit across the boundary of the two imperial tongues. quite half an hour's amicable discussion led at last to a reduction of sixpence, and all parties professed themselves satisfied with this result. madam gadow was quite cool even at the end. mr. lewisham was flushed in the face, red-eared, and his hair slightly disordered, but that sixpence was at any rate an admission of the justice of his claim. "she was evidently trying it on," he said almost apologetically to ethel. "it was absolutely necessary to present a firm front to her. i doubt if we shall have any trouble again.... "of course what she says about kitchen coals is perfectly just." then the young couple went for a walk in kensington gardens, and--the spring afternoon was so warm and pleasant--sat on two attractive green chairs near the band-stand, for which lewisham had subsequently to pay twopence. they had what ethel called a "serious talk." she was really wonderfully sensible, and discussed the situation exhaustively. she was particularly insistent upon the importance of economy in her domestic disbursements and deplored her general ignorance very earnestly. it was decided that lewisham should get a good elementary text-book of domestic economy for her private study. at home mrs. chaffery guided her house by the oracular items of "inquire within upon everything," but lewisham considered that work unscientific. ethel was also of opinion that much might be learnt from the sixpenny ladies' papers--the penny ones had hardly begun in those days. she had bought such publications during seasons of affluence, but chiefly, as she now deplored, with an eye to the trimming of hats and such like vanities. the sooner the typewriter came the better. it occurred to lewisham with unpleasant suddenness that he had not allowed for the purchase of a typewriter in his estimate of their resources. it brought their "law" down to twelve or thirteen weeks. they spent the evening in writing and copying a number of letters, addressing envelopes and enclosing stamps. there were optimistic moments. "melbourne's a fine city," said lewisham, "and we should have a glorious voyage out." he read the application for the melbourne professorship out loud to her, just to see how it read, and she was greatly impressed by the list of his accomplishments and successes. "i did not, know you knew _half_ those things," she said, and became depressed at her relative illiteracy. it was natural, after such encouragement, to write to the scholastic agents in a tone of assured consequence. the advertisement for typewriting in the _athenaeum_ troubled his conscience a little. after he had copied out his draft with its "scientific phraseology a speciality," fine and large, he saw the notes she had written out for him. her handwriting was still round and boyish, even as it had appeared in the whortley avenue, but her punctuation was confined to the erratic comma and the dash, and there was a disposition to spell the imperfectly legible along the line of least resistance. however, he dismissed that matter with a resolve to read over and correct anything in that way that she might have sent her to do. it would not be a bad idea, he thought parenthetically, if he himself read up some sound authority on the punctuation of sentences. they sat at this business quite late, heedless of the examination in botany that came on the morrow. it was very bright and cosy in their little room with their fire burning, the gas lit and the curtains drawn, and the number of applications they had written made them hopeful. she was flushed and enthusiastic, now flitting about the room, now coming close to him and leaning over him to see what he had done. at lewisham's request she got him the envelopes from the chest of drawers. "you _are_ a help to a chap," said lewisham, leaning back from the table, "i feel i could do anything for a girl like you--anything." "_really!_" she cried, "really! am i really a help?" lewisham's face and gesture, were all assent. she gave a little cry of delight, stood for a moment, and then by way of practical demonstration of her unflinching helpfulness, hurried round the table towards him with arms extended, "you dear!" she cried. lewisham, partially embraced, pushed his chair back with his disengaged arm, so that she might sit on his knee.... who could doubt that she was a help? chapter xxv. the first battle. lewisham's inquiries for evening teaching and private tuition were essentially provisional measures. his proposals for a more permanent establishment displayed a certain defect in his sense of proportion. that melbourne professorship, for example, was beyond his merits, and there were aspects of things that would have affected the welcome of himself and his wife at eton college. at the outset he was inclined to regard the south kensington scholar as the intellectual salt of the earth, to overrate the abundance of "decent things" yielding from one hundred and fifty to three hundred a year, and to disregard the competition of such inferior enterprises as the universities of oxford, cambridge, and the literate north. but the scholastic agents to whom he went on the following saturday did much in a quiet way to disabuse his mind. mr. blendershin's chief assistant in the grimy little office in oxford street cleared up the matter so vigorously that lewisham was angered. "headmaster of an endowed school, perhaps!" said mr. blendershin's chief assistant "lord!--why not a bishopric? i say,"--as mr. blendershin entered smoking an assertive cigar--"one-and-twenty, _no_ degree, _no_ games, two years' experience as junior--wants a headmastership of an endowed school!" he spoke so loudly that it was inevitable the selection of clients in the waiting-room should hear, and he pointed with his pen. "look here!" said lewisham hotly; "if i knew the ways of the market i shouldn't come to you." mr. blendershin stared at lewisham for a moment. "what's he done in the way of certificates?" asked mr. blendershin of the assistant. the assistant read a list of 'ologies and 'ographies. "fifty resident," said mr. blendershin concisely--"that's _your_ figure. sixty, if you're lucky." "_what_?" said mr. lewisham. "not enough for you?" "not nearly." "you can get a cambridge graduate for eighty resident--and grateful," said mr. blendershin. "but i don't want a resident post," said lewisham. "precious few non-resident shops," said mr. blendershin. "precious few. they want you for dormitory supervision--and they're afraid of your taking pups outside." "not married by any chance?" said the assistant suddenly, after an attentive study of lewisham's face. "well--er." lewisham met mr. blendershin's eye. "yes," he said. the assistant was briefly unprintable. "lord! you'll have to keep that dark," said mr. blendershin. "but you have got a tough bit of hoeing before you. if i was you i'd go on and get my degree now you're so near it. you'll stand a better chance." pause. "the fact is," said lewisham slowly and looking at his boot toes, "i must be doing _something_ while i am getting my degree." the assistant, whistled softly. "might get you a visiting job, perhaps," said mr. blendershin speculatively. "just read me those items again, binks." he listened attentively. "objects to religious teaching!--eh?" he stopped the reading by a gesture, "that's nonsense. you can't have everything, you know. scratch that out. you won't get a place in any middle-class school in england if you object to religious teaching. it's the mothers--bless 'em! say nothing about it. don't believe--who does? there's hundreds like you, you know--hundreds. parsons--all sorts. say nothing about it--" "but if i'm asked?" "church of england. every man in this country who has not dissented belongs to the church of england. it'll be hard enough to get you anything without that." "but--" said mr. lewisham. "it's lying." "legal fiction," said mr. blendershin. "everyone understands. if you don't do that, my dear chap, we can't do anything for you. it's journalism, or london docks. well, considering your experience,--say docks." lewisham's face flushed irregularly. he did not answer. he scowled and tugged at the still by no means ample moustache. "compromise, you know," said mr. blendershin, watching him kindly. "compromise." for the first time in his life lewisham faced the necessity of telling a lie in cold blood. he glissaded from, the austere altitudes of his self-respect, and his next words were already disingenuous. "i won't promise to tell lies if i'm asked," he said aloud. "i can't do that." "scratch it out," said blendershin to the clerk. "you needn't mention it. then you don't say you can teach drawing." "i can't," said lewisham. "you just give out the copies," said blendershin, "and take care they don't see you draw, you know." "but that's not teaching drawing--" "it's what's understood by it in _this_ country," said blendershin. "don't you go corrupting your mind with pedagogueries. they're the ruin of assistants. put down drawing. then there's shorthand--" "here, i say!" said lewisham. "there's shorthand, french, book-keeping, commercial geography, land measuring--" "but i can't teach any of those things!" "look here," said blendershin, and paused. "has your wife or you a private income?" "no," said lewisham. "well?" a pause of further moral descent, and a whack against an obstacle. "but they will find me out," said lewisham. blendershin smiled. "it's not so much ability as willingness to teach, you know. and _they_ won't find you out. the sort of schoolmaster we deal with can't find anything out. he can't teach any of these things himself--and consequently he doesn't believe they _can_ be taught. talk to him of pedagogics and he talks of practical experience. but he puts 'em on his prospectus, you know, and he wants 'em on his time-table. some of these subjects--there's commercial geography, for instance. what _is_ commercial geography?" "barilla," said the assistant, biting the end of his pen, and added pensively, "_and_ blethers." "fad," said blendershin, "just fad. newspapers talk rot about commercial education, duke of devonshire catches on and talks ditto--pretends he thought it himself--much _he_ cares--parents get hold of it--schoolmasters obliged to put something down, consequently assistants must. and that's the end of the matter!" "_all_ right," said lewisham, catching his breath in a faint sob of shame, "stick 'em down. but mind--a non-resident place." "well," said blendershin, "your science may pull you through. but i tell you it's hard. some grant-earning grammar school may want that. and that's about all, i think. make a note of the address...." the assistant made a noise, something between a whistle and the word "fee." blendershin glanced at lewisham and nodded doubtfully. "fee for booking," said the assistant; "half a crown, postage--in advance--half a crown." but lewisham remembered certain advice dunkerley had given him in the old whortley days. he hesitated. "no," he said. "i don't pay that. if you get me anything there's the commission--if you don't--" "we lose," supplied the assistant. "and you ought to," said lewisham. "it's a fair game." "living in london?" asked blendershin. "yes," said the clerk. "that's all right," said mr. blendershin. "we won't say anything about the postage in that case. of course it's the off season, and you mustn't expect anything at present very much. sometimes there's a shift or so at easter.... there's nothing more.... afternoon. anyone else, binks?" messrs. maskelyne, smith, and thrums did a higher class of work than blendershin, whose specialities were lower class private establishments and the cheaper sort of endowed schools. indeed, so superior were maskelyne, smith, and thrums that they enraged lewisham by refusing at first to put him on their books. he was interviewed briefly by a young man dressed and speaking with offensive precision, whose eye adhered rigidly to the waterproof collar throughout the interview. "hardly our line," he said, and pushed lewisham a form to fill up. "mostly upper class and good preparatory schools here, you know." as lewisham filled up the form with his multitudinous "'ologies" and "'ographies," a youth of ducal appearance entered and greeted the precise young man in a friendly way. lewisham, bending down to write, perceived that this professional rival wore a very long frock coat, patent leather boots, and the most beautiful grey trousers. his conceptions of competition enlarged. the precise young man by a motion of his eyes directed the newcomer's attention to lewisham's waterproof collar, and was answered by raised eyebrows and a faint tightening of the mouth. "that bounder at castleford has answered me," said the new-comer in a fine rich voice. "is he any bally good?" when the bounder at castleford had been discussed lewisham presented his paper, and the precise young man with his eye still fixed on the waterproof collar took the document in the manner of one who reaches across a gulf. "i doubt if we shall be able to do anything for you," he said reassuringly. "but an english mastership may chance to be vacant. science doesn't count for much in _our_ sort of schools, you know. classics and good games--that's our sort of thing." "i see," said lewisham. "good games, good form, you know, and all that sort of thing." "i see," said lewisham. "you don't happen to be a public-school boy?" asked the precise young man. "no," said lewisham. "where were you educated?" lewisham's face grew hot. "does that matter?" he asked, with his eye on the exquisite grey trousering. "in our sort of school--decidedly. it's a question of tone, you know." "i see," said lewisham, beginning to realise new limitations. his immediate impulse was to escape the eye of the nicely dressed assistant master. "you'll write, i suppose, if you have anything," he said, and the precise young man responded with alacrity to his door-ward motion. "often get that kind of thing?" asked the nicely dressed young man when lewisham had departed. "rather. not quite so bad as that, you know. that waterproof collar--did you notice it? ugh! and--'i see.' and the scowl and the clumsiness of it. of course _he_ hasn't any decent clothes--he'd go to a new shop with one tin box! but that sort of thing--and board school teachers--they're getting everywhere! only the other day--rowton was here." "not rowton of pinner?" "yes, rowton of pinner. and he asked right out for a board schoolmaster. he said, 'i want someone who can teach arithmetic.'" he laughed. the nicely dressed young man meditated over the handle of his cane. "a bounder of that kind can't have a particularly nice time," he said, "anyhow. if he does get into a decent school, he must get tremendously cut by all the decent men." "too thick-skinned to mind that sort of thing, i fancy," said the scholastic agent. "he's a new type. this south kensington place and the polytechnics an turning him out by the hundred...." lewisham forgot his resentment at having to profess a religion he did not believe, in this new discovery of the scholastic importance of clothing. he went along with an eye to all the shop windows that afforded a view of his person. indisputably his trousers _were_ ungainly, flapping abominably over his boots and bagging terribly at the knees, and his boots were not only worn and ugly but extremely ill blacked. his wrists projected offensively from his coat sleeves, he perceived a huge asymmetry in the collar of his jacket, his red tie was askew and ill tied, and that waterproof collar! it was shiny, slightly discoloured, suddenly clammy to the neck. what if he did happen to be well equipped for science teaching? that was nothing. he speculated on the cost of a complete outfit. it would be difficult to get such grey trousers as those he had seen for less than sixteen shillings, and he reckoned a frock coat at forty shillings at least--possibly even more. he knew good clothes were very expensive. he hesitated at poole's door and turned away. the thing was out of the question. he crossed leicester square and went down bedford street, disliking every well-dressed person he met. messrs. danks and wimborne inhabited a bank-like establishment near chancery lane, and without any conversation presented him with forms to fill up. religion? asked the form. lewisham paused and wrote "church of england." thence he went to the college of pedagogues in holborn. the college of pedagogues presented itself as a long-bearded, corpulent, comfortable person with a thin gold watch chain and fat hands. he wore gilt glasses and had a kindly confidential manner that did much to heal lewisham's wounded feelings. the 'ologies and 'ographies were taken down with polite surprise at their number. "you ought to take one of our diplomas," said the stout man. "you would find no difficulty. no competition. and there are prizes--several prizes--in money." lewisham was not aware that the waterproof collar had found a sympathetic observer. "we give courses of lectures, and have an examination in the theory and practice of education. it is the only examination in the theory and practice of education for men engaged in middle and upper class teaching in this country. except the teacher's diploma. and so few come--not two hundred a year. mostly governesses. the men prefer to teach by rule of thumb, you know. english characteristic--rule of thumb. it doesn't do to say anything of course--but there's bound to be--something happen--something a little disagreeable--somewhen if things go on as they do. american schools keep on getting better--german too. what used to do won't do now. i tell this to you, you know, but it doesn't do to tell everyone. it doesn't do. it doesn't do to do anything. so much has to be considered. however ... but you'd do well to get a diploma and make yourself efficient. though that's looking ahead." he spoke of looking ahead with an apologetic laugh as though it was an amiable weakness of his. he turned from such abstruse matters and furnished lewisham with the particulars of the college diplomas, and proceeded to other possibilities. "there's private tuition," he said. "would you mind a backward boy? then we are occasionally asked for visiting masters. mostly by girls' schools. but that's for older men--married men, you know." "i am married," said lewisham. "_eh_?" said the college of pedagogues, startled. "i _am_ married," said lewisham. "dear me," said the college of pedagogues gravely, and regarding mr. lewisham over gold-rimmed glasses. "dear me! and i am more than twice your age, and i am not married at all. one-and-twenty! have you--have you been married long?" "a few weeks," said lewisham. "that's very remarkable," said the college of pedagogues. "very interesting.... _really!_ your wife must be a very courageous young person.... excuse me! you know--you will really have a hard fight for a position. however--it certainly makes you eligible for girls' schools; it does do that. to a certain extent, that is." the evidently enhanced respect of the college of pedagogues pleased lewisham extremely. but his encounter with the medical, scholastic, and clerical agency that holds by waterloo bridge was depressing again, and after that he set out to walk home. long before he reached home he was tired, and his simple pride in being married and in active grapple with an unsympathetic world had passed. his surrender on the religious question had left a rankling bitterness behind it; the problem of the clothes was acutely painful. he was still far from a firm grasp of the fact that his market price was under rather than over one hundred pounds a year, but that persuasion was gaining ground in his mind. the day was a greyish one, with a dull cold wind, and a nail in one of his boots took upon itself to be objectionable. certain wild shots and disastrous lapses in his recent botanical examination, that he had managed to keep out of his mind hitherto, forced their way on his attention. for the first time since his marriage he harboured premonitions of failure. when he got in he wanted to sit down at once in the little creaky chair by the fire, but ethel came flitting from the newly bought typewriter with arms extended and prevented him. "oh!--it _has_ been dull," she said. he missed the compliment. "_i_ haven't had such a giddy time that you should grumble," he said, in a tone that was novel to her. he disengaged himself from her arms and sat down. he noticed the expression of her face. "i'm rather tired," he said by way of apology. "and there's a confounded nail i must hammer down in my boot. it's tiring work hunting up these agents, but of course it's better to go and see them. how have you been getting on?" "all right," she said, regarding him. and then, "you _are_ tired. we'll have some tea. and--let me take off your boot for you, dear. yes--i will." she rang the bell, bustled out of the room, called for tea at the staircase, came back, pulled out madam gadow's ungainly hassock and began unlacing his boot. lewisham's mood changed. "you _are_ a trump, ethel," he said; "i'm hanged if you're not." as the laces flicked he bent forward and kissed her ear. the unlacing was suspended and there were reciprocal endearments.... presently he was sitting in his slippers, with a cup of tea in his hand, and ethel, kneeling on the hearthrug with the firelight on her face, was telling him of an answer that had come that afternoon to her advertisement in the _athenaeum_. "that's good," said lewisham. "it's a novelist," she said with the light of pride in her eyes, and handed him the letter. "lucas holderness, the author of 'the furnace of sin' and other stories." "that's first rate," said lewisham with just a touch of envy, and bent forward to read by the firelight. the letter was from an address in judd street, euston road, written on good paper and in a fair round hand such as one might imagine a novelist using. "dear madam," said the letter, "i propose to send you, by registered letter, the ms. of a three-volume novel. it is about , words--but you must count the exact number." "how i shall count i don't know," said ethel. "i'll show you a way," said lewisham. "there's no difficulty in that. you count the words on three or four pages, strike an average, and multiply." "but, of course, before doing so i must have a satisfactory guarantee that my confidence in putting my work in your hands will not be misplaced and that your execution is of the necessary high quality." "oh!" said lewisham; "that's a bother." "accordingly i must ask you for references." "that's a downright nuisance," said lewisham. "i suppose that ass, lagune ... but what's this? 'or, failing references, for a deposit ...' that's reasonable, i suppose." it was such a moderate deposit too--merely a guinea. even had the doubt been stronger, the aspect of helpful hopeful little ethel eager for work might well have thrust it aside. "sending him a cheque will show him we have a banking account behind us," said lewisham,--his banking was still sufficiently recent for pride. "we will send him a cheque. that'll settle _him_ all right." that evening after the guinea cheque had been despatched, things were further brightened by the arrival of a letter of atrociously jellygraphed advices from messrs. danks and wimborne. they all referred to resident vacancies for which lewisham was manifestly unsuitable, nevertheless their arrival brought an encouraging assurance of things going on, of shifting and unstable places in the defences of the beleaguered world. afterwards, with occasional endearments for ethel, he set himself to a revision of his last year's note-books, for now the botany was finished, the advanced zoological course--the last lap, as it were, for the forbes medal--was beginning. she got her best hat from the next room to make certain changes in the arrangement of its trimmings. she sat in the little chair, while lewisham, with documents spread before him, sat at the table. presently she looked up from an experimental arrangement of her cornflowers, and discovered lewisham, no longer reading, but staring blankly at the middle of the table-cloth, with an extraordinary misery in his eyes. she forgot the cornflowers and stared at him. "penny," she said after an interval. lewisham started and looked up. "_eh_?" "why were you looking so miserable?" she asked. "_was_ i looking miserable?" "yes. and _cross_!" "i was thinking just then that i would like to boil a bishop or so in oil." "my dear!" "they know perfectly well the case against what they teach, they know it's neither madness nor wickedness nor any great harm, to others not to believe, they know perfectly well that a man may be as honest as the day, and right--right and decent in every way--and not believe in what they teach. and they know that it only wants the edge off a man's honour, for him to profess anything in the way of belief. just anything. and they won't say so. i suppose they want the edge off every man's honour. if a man is well off they will truckle to him no end, though he laughs at all their teaching. they'll take gold plate from company promoters and rent from insanitary houses. but if a man is poor and doesn't profess to believe in what some of them scarcely believe themselves, they wouldn't lift a finger to help him against the ignorance of their followers. your stepfather was right enough there. they know what's going on. they know that it means lying and humbug for any number of people, and they don't care. why should they? _they've_ got it down all right. they're spoilt, and why shouldn't we be?" lewisham having selected the bishops as scapegoats for his turpitude, was inclined to ascribe even the nail in his boot to their agency. mrs. lewisham looked puzzled. she realised his drift. "you're not," she said, and dropped her voice, "an _infidel_?" lewisham nodded gloomily. "aren't you?" he said. "oh no," said mrs. lewisham. "but you don't go to church, you don't--" "no, i don't," said mrs. lewisham; and then with more assurance, "but i'm not an infidel." "christian?" "i suppose so." "but a christian--what do you believe?" "oh! to tell the truth, and do right, and not hurt or injure people and all that." "that's not a christian. a christian is one who believes." "it's what _i_ mean by a christian," said mrs. lewisham. "oh! at that rate anyone's a christian," said lewisham. "we all think it's right to do right and wrong to do wrong." "but we don't all do it," said mrs. lewisham, taking up the cornflowers again. "no," said lewisham, a little taken aback by the feminine method of discussion. "we don't all do it--certainly." he stared at her for a moment--her head was a little on one side and her eyes on the cornflower--and his mind was full of a strange discovery. he seemed on the verge of speaking, and turned to his note-book again. very soon the centre of the table-cloth resumed its sway. * * * * * the following day mr. lucas holderness received his cheque for a guinea. unhappily it was crossed. he meditated for some time, and then took pen and ink and improved lewisham's careless "one" to "five" and touched up his unticked figure one to correspond. you perceive him, a lank, cadaverous, good-looking man with long black hair and a semi-clerical costume of quite painful rustiness. he made the emendations with grave carefulness. he took the cheque round to his grocer. his grocer looked at it suspiciously. "you pay it in," said mr. lucas holderness, "if you've any doubts about it. pay it in. _i_ don't know the man or what he is. he may be a swindler for all i can tell. _i_ can't answer for him. pay it in and see. leave the change till then. i can wait. i'll call round in a few days' time." "all right, wasn't it?" said mr. lucas holderness in a casual tone two days later. "quite, sir," said his grocer with enhanced respect, and handed him his four pounds thirteen and sixpence change. mr. lucas holderness, who had been eyeing the grocer's stock with a curious intensity, immediately became animated and bought a tin of salmon. he went out of the shop with the rest of the money in his hand, for the pockets of his clothes were old and untrustworthy. at the baker's he bought a new roll. he bit a huge piece of the roll directly he was out of the shop, and went on his way gnawing. it was so large a piece that his gnawing mouth was contorted into the ugliest shapes. he swallowed by an effort, stretching his neck each time. his eyes expressed an animal satisfaction. he turned the corner of judd street biting again at the roll, and the reader of this story, like the lewishams, hears of him no more. chapter xxvi. the glamour fades. after all, the rosy love-making and marrying and epithalamy are no more than the dawn of things, and to follow comes all the spacious interval of white laborious light. try as we may to stay those delightful moments, they fade and pass remorselessly; there is no returning, no recovering, only--for the foolish--the vilest peep-shows and imitations in dens and darkened rooms. we go on--we grow. at least we age. our young couple, emerging presently from an atmosphere of dusk and morning stars, found the sky gathering greyly overhead and saw one another for the first time clearly in the light of every-day. it might perhaps witness better to lewisham's refinement if one could tell only of a moderated and dignified cooling, of pathetic little concealments of disappointment and a decent maintenance of the sentimental atmosphere. and so at last daylight. but our young couple were too crude for that. the first intimations of their lack of identity have already been described, but it would be tedious and pitiful to tell of all the little intensifications, shade by shade, of the conflict of their individualities. they fell out, dear lady! they came to conflict of words. the stress of perpetual worry was upon them, of dwindling funds and the anxious search for work that would not come. and on ethel lay long, vacant, lonely hours in dull surroundings. differences arose from the most indifferent things; one night lewisham lay awake in unfathomable amazement because she had convinced him she did not care a rap for the welfare of humanity, and deemed his socialism a fancy and an indiscretion. and one sunday afternoon they started for a walk under the pleasantest auspices, and returned flushed and angry, satire and retort flying free--on the score of the social conventions in ethel's novelettes. for some inexplicable reason lewisham saw fit to hate her novelettes very bitterly. these encounters indeed were mere skirmishes for the most part, and the silences and embarrassments that followed ended sooner or later in a "making up," tacit or definite, though once or twice this making up only re-opened the healing wound. and always each skirmish left its scar, effaced from yet another line of their lives the lingering tints of romantic colour. there came no work, no added income for either of them, saving two trifles, for five long months. once lewisham won twelve shillings in the prize competition of a penny weekly, and three times came infinitesimal portions of typewriting from a poet who had apparently seen the _athenaeum_ advertisement. his name was edwin peak baynes and his handwriting was sprawling and unformed. he sent her several short lyrics on scraps of paper with instructions that he desired "three copies of each written beautifully in different styles" and "_not_ fastened with metal fasteners but with silk thread of an appropriate colour." both of our young people were greatly exercised by these instructions. one fragment was called "bird song," one "cloud shadows," and one "eryngium," but lewisham thought they might be spoken of collectively as bosh. by way of payment, this poet sent, in contravention of the postal regulations, half a sovereign stuck into a card, asking her to keep the balance against future occasions. in a little while, greatly altered copies of these lyrics were returned by the poet in person, with this enigmatical instruction written across the cover of each: "this style i like, only if possible more so." lewisham was out, but ethel opened the door, so this indorsement was unnecessary, "he's really only a boy," said ethel, describing the interview to lewisham, who was curious. they both felt that the youthfulness of edwin peak baynes detracted something from the reality of this employment. from his marriage until the final examination in june, lewisham's life had an odd amphibious quality. at home were ethel and the perpetual aching pursuit of employment, the pelting irritations of madam gadow's persistent overcharges, and so forth, and amid such things he felt extraordinarily grown up; but intercalated with these experiences were those intervals at kensington, scraps of his adolescence, as it were, lying amidst the new matter of his manhood, intervals during which he was simply an insubordinate and disappointing student with an increasing disposition to gossip. at south kensington he dwelt with theories and ideals as a student should; at the little rooms in chelsea--they grew very stuffy as the summer came on, and the accumulation of the penny novelettes ethel favoured made a litter--there was his particular private concrete situation, and ideals gave place to the real. it was a strangely narrow world, he perceived dimly, in which his manhood opened. the only visitors were the chafferys. chaffery would come to share their supper, and won upon lewisham in spite of his roguery by his incessantly entertaining monologue and by his expressed respect for and envy of lewisham's scientific attainments. moreover, as time went on lewisham found himself more and more in sympathy with chaffery's bitterness against those who order the world. it was good to hear him on bishops and that sort of people. he said what lewisham wanted to say beautifully. mrs. chaffery was perpetually flitting--out of the house as lewisham came home, a dim, black, nervous, untidy little figure. she came because ethel, in spite of her expressed belief that love was "all in all," found married life a little dull and lonely while lewisham was away. and she went hastily when he came, because of a certain irritability that the struggle against the world was developing. he told no one at kensington about his marriage, at first because it was such a delicious secret, and then for quite other reasons. so there was no overlapping. the two worlds began and ended sharply at the wrought-iron gates. but the day came when lewisham passed those gates for the last time and his adolescence ended altogether. in the final examination of the biological course, the examination that signalised the end of his income of a weekly guinea, he knew well enough that he had done badly. the evening of the last day's practical work found him belated, hot-headed, beaten, with ruffled hair and red ears. he sat to the last moment doggedly struggling to keep cool and to mount the ciliated funnel of an earthworm's nephridium. but ciliated funnels come not to those who have shirked the laboratory practice. he rose, surrendered his paper to the morose elderly young assistant demonstrator who had welcomed him so flatteringly eight months before, and walked down the laboratory to the door where the rest of his fellow-students clustered. smithers was talking loudly about the "twistiness" of the identification, and the youngster with the big ears was listening attentively. "here's lewisham! how did _you_ get on, lewisham?" asked smithers, not concealing his assurance. "horribly," said lewisham shortly, and pushed past. "did you spot d?" clamoured smithers. lewisham pretended not to hear. miss heydinger stood with her hat in her hand and looked at lewisham's hot eyes. he was for walking past her, but something in her face penetrated even his disturbance. he stopped. "did you get out the nephridium?" he said as graciously as he could. she shook her head. "are you going downstairs?" she asked. "rather," said lewisham, with a vague intimation in his manner of the offence smithers gave him. he opened the glass door from the passage to the staircase. they went down one tier of that square spiral in silence. "are you coming up again next year?" asked miss heydinger. "no," said lewisham. "no, i shall not come here again. ever." pause. "what will you do?" she asked. "i don't know. i have to get a living somehow. it's been bothering me all the session." "i thought--" she stopped. "will you go down to your uncle's again?" she said. "no. i shall stop in london. it's no good going out of things into the country. and besides--i've quarrelled rather with my uncle." "what do you think of doing?--teaching?" "i suppose it will be teaching, i'm not sure. anything that turns up." "i see," she said. they went on down in silence for a time. "i suppose you will come up again?" he asked. "i may try the botanical again--if they can find room. and, i was thinking--sometimes one hears of things. what is your address? so that if i heard of anything." lewisham stopped on the staircase and thought. "of course," he said. he made no effort to give her the address, and she demanded it again at the foot of the stairs. "that confounded nephridium--!" he said. "it has put everything out of my head." they exchanged addresses on leaflets torn from miss heydinger's little note-book. she waited at the book in the hall while he signed his name. at the iron gates of the schools she said: "i am going through kensington gardens." he was now feeling irritated about the addresses, and he would not see the implicit invitation. "i am going towards chelsea." she hesitated a moment, looking at him--puzzled. "good-bye, then," she said. "good-bye," he answered, lifting his hat. he crossed the exhibition road slowly with his packed glazed bag, now seamed with cracks, in his hand. he went thoughtfully down to the corner of the cromwell road and turned along that to the right so that he could see the red pile of the science schools rising fair, and tall across the gardens of the natural history museum. he looked back towards it regretfully. he was quite sure that he had failed in this last examination. he knew that any career as a scientific man was now closed to him for ever. and he remembered now how he had come along this very road to that great building for the first time in his life, and all the hopes and resolves that had swelled within him as he had drawn near. that dream of incessant unswerving work! where might he have reached if only he had had singleness of purpose to realise that purpose?... and in these gardens it was that he and smithers and parkson had sat on a seat hard by the fossil tree, and discoursed of socialism together before the great paper was read.... "yes," he said, speaking aloud to himself; "yes--_that's_ all over too. everything's over." presently the corner of the natural history museum came between him and his receding alma mater. he sighed and turned his face towards the stuffy little rooms at chelsea, and the still unconquered world. chapter xxvii. concerning a quarrel. it was late in september that this particular quarrel occurred. almost all the roseate tints seemed gone by this time, for the lewishams had been married six months. their financial affairs had changed from the catastrophic to the sordid; lewisham had found work. an army crammer named captain vigours wanted someone energetic for his mathematical duffers and to teach geometrical drawing and what he was pleased to call "sandhurst science." he paid no less than two shillings an hour for his uncertain demands on lewisham's time. moreover, there was a class in lower mathematics beginning at walham green where lewisham was to show his quality. fifty shillings a week or more seemed credible--more might be hoped for. it was now merely a case of tiding over the interval until vigours paid. and meanwhile the freshness of ethel's blouses departed, and lewisham refrained from the repair of his boot which had cracked across the toe. the beginning of the quarrel was trivial enough. but by the end they got to generalities. lewisham had begun the day in a bad temper and under the cloud of an overnight passage of arms--and a little incident that had nothing to do with their ostensible difference lent it a warmth of emotion quite beyond its merits. as he emerged through the folding doors he saw a letter lying among the sketchily laid breakfast things, and ethel's attitude suggested the recoil of a quick movement; the letter suddenly dropped. her eyes met his and she flushed. he sat down and took the letter--a trifle awkwardly perhaps. it was from miss heydinger. he hesitated with it halfway to his pocket, then decided to open it. it displayed an ample amount of reading, and he read. on the whole he thought it rather a dull sort of letter, but he did not allow this to appear. when it was read he put it carefully in his pocket. that formally had nothing to do with the quarrel. the breakfast was already over when the quarrel began. lewisham's morning was vacant, and be proposed to occupy it in the revision of certain notes bearing upon "sandhurst science." unhappily the search for his note-book brought him into collision with the accumulation of ethel's novelettes. "these things are everywhere," he said after a gust of vehement handling, "i _wish_ you'd tidy them up sometimes." "they were tidy enough till you began to throw them about," ethel pointed out. "confounded muck! it's only fit to be burnt," lewisham remarked to the universe, and pitched one viciously into the corner. "well, you tried to write one, anyhow," said ethel, recalling a certain "mammoth" packet of note-paper that had come on an evil end before lewisham found his industrial level. this reminiscence always irritated him exceedingly. "eh?" he said sharply. "you tried to write one," repeated ethel--a little unwillingly. "you don't mean me to forget that." "it's you reminded me." he stared hostility for a space. "well, the things make a beastly litter anyhow; there isn't a tidy corner anywhere in the room. there never is." "that's just the sort of thing you always say." "well--_is_ there?" "yes, there is." "_where_?" ethel professed not to hear. but a devil had possession of lewisham for a time. "it isn't as though you had anything else to do," he remarked, wounding dishonourably. ethel turned. "if i _put_ those things away," she said with tremendous emphasis on the "_put_," "you'd only say i'd hidden them. what _is_ the good of trying to please you?" the spirit of perversity suggested to lewisham, "none apparently." ethel's cheeks glowed and her eyes were bright with unshed tears. abruptly she abandoned the defensive and blurted out the thing that had been latent so long between them. her voice took a note of passion. "nothing i can do ever does please you, since that miss heydinger began to write to you." there was a pause, a gap. something like astonishment took them both. hitherto it had been a convention that she knew nothing of the existence of miss heydinger. he saw a light. "how did you know?" he began, and perceived that line was impossible. he took the way of the natural man; he ejaculated an "ugh!" of vast disgust, he raised his voice. "you _are_ unreasonable!" he cried in angry remonstrance. "fancy saying that! as though you ever tried to please me! just as though it wasn't all the other way about!" he stopped--struck by a momentary perception of injustice. he plunged at the point he had shirked, "how did you know it _was_ miss heydinger--?" ethel's voice took upon itself the quality of tears. "i wasn't _meant_ to know, was i?" she said. "but how?" "i suppose you think it doesn't concern me? i suppose you think i'm made of stone?" "you mean--you think--?" "yes--i _do_." for a brief interval lewisham stared at the issue she had laid bare. he sought some crashing proposition, some line of convincing reasoning, with which to overwhelm and hide this new aspect of things. it would not come. he found himself fenced in on every side. a surging, irrational rage seized upon him. "jealousy!" he cried. "jealousy! just as though--can't i have letters about things you don't understand--that you _won't_ understand? if i asked you to read them you wouldn't--it's just because--" "you never give me a _chance_ to understand." "don't i?" "no!" "why!--at first i was always trying. socialism, religion--all those things. but you don't care--you won't care. you won't have that i've thought over these things at all, that i care for these things! it wasn't any _good_ to argue. you just care for me in a way--and all the rest of me--doesn't matter! and because i've got a friend ..." "friend!" "yes--_friend!_" "why!--you hide her letters!" "because i tell you you wouldn't understand what they are about. but, pah! i won't argue. i _won't!_ you're jealous, and there's the end of the matter!" "well, who _wouldn't_ be jealous?" he stared at her as if he found the question hard to see. the theme was difficult--invincibly difficult. he surveyed the room for a diversion. the note-book he had disinterred from her novelettes lay upon the table and reminded him of his grievance of rained hours. his rage exploded. he struck out abruptly towards fundamental things. he gesticulated forcibly. "this can't go on!" he cried, "this can't go on! how can i work? how can i do anything?" he made three steps and stood in a clear space. "i won't _stand_, it--i won't go on at this! quarrels--bickerings--discomfort. look there! i meant to work this morning. i meant to look up notes! instead of which you start a quarrel--" the gross injustice raised ethel's voice to an outcry. "_i_ didn't start the quarrel--" the only response to this was to shout, and lewisham shouted. "you start a quarrel!" he repeated. "you make a shindy! you spring a dispute--jealousy!--on me! how can i do anything? how can one stop in a house like this? i shall go out. look here!--i shall go out. i shall go to kensington and work there!" he perceived himself wordless, and ethel was about to speak. he glared about him, seeking a prompt climax. instant action was necessary. he perceived huxley's _vertebrata_ upon the side-table. he clutched it, swayed it through a momentous arc, hurled it violently into the empty fireplace. for a second he seemed to be seeking some other missile. he perceived his hat on the chest of drawers, seized it, and strode tragically from the room. he hesitated with the door half closed, then opened it wide and slammed it vehemently. thereby the world was warned of the justice of his rage, and so he passed with credit into the street. he went striding heedless of his direction through the streets dotted with intent people hurrying to work, and presently habit turned his feet towards the brompton road. the eastward trend of the morning traffic caught him. for a time, save for a rebellious ingredient of wonder at the back of his mind, he kept his anger white and pure. why had he married her? was the text to which he clung. why in the name of destiny had he married her? but anyhow he had said the decisive thing. he would not stand it! it must end. things were intolerable and they must end. he meditated devastating things that he might presently say to her in pursuance of this resolution. he contemplated acts of cruelty. in such ways he would demonstrate clearly that he would not stand it. he was very careful to avoid inquiring what it was he would not stand. how in the name of destiny had he come to marry her? the quality of his surroundings mingled in some way with the quality of his thoughts. the huge distended buildings of corrugated iron in which the art museum (of all places!) culminates, the truncated oratory all askew to the street, seemed to have a similar quarrel with fate. how in the name of destiny? after such high prolusions! he found that his thoughts had carried him past the lodge of the museum. he turned back irritably and went through the turnstile. he entered the museum and passed beneath the gallery of old iron on his way to the education library. the vacant array of tables, the bays of attendant books had a quality of refuge.... so much for lewisham in the morning. long before midday all the vigour of his wrath was gone, all his passionate conviction of ethel's unworthiness. over a pile of neglected geological works he presented a face of gloom. his memory presented a picture of himself as noisy, overbearing, and unfair. what on earth had it all been about? by two o'clock he was on his way to vigours', and his mood was acute remorse. of the transition there can be no telling in words, for thoughts are more subtle than words and emotions infinitely vaguer. but one thing at least is definite, that a memory returned. it drifted in to him, through the glass roof of the library far above. he did not perceive it as a memory at first, but as an irritating obstacle to attention. he struck the open pages of the book before him with his flat hand. "damn that infernal hurdy-gurdy!" he whispered. presently he made a fretful movement and put his hands over his ears. then he thrust his books from him, got up, and wandered about the library. the organ came to an abrupt end in the middle of a bar, and vanished in the circumambient silence of space. lewisham standing in a bay closed a book with a snap and returned to his seat. presently he found himself humming a languid tune, and thinking again of the quarrel that he had imagined banished from his mind. what in the name of destiny had it all been about? he had a curious sense that something had got loose, was sliding about in his mind. and as if by way of answer emerged a vision of whortley--a singularly vivid vision. it was moonlight and a hillside, the little town lay lit and warm below, and the scene was set to music, a lugubriously sentimental air. for some reason this music had the quality of a barrel organ--though he knew that properly it came from a band--and it associated with itself a mystical formula of words, drawing words:-- "sweet dreamland fa--ces, passing to and fro, bring back to mem'ry days of long ago--oh!" this air not only reproduced the picture with graphic vividness, but it trailed after it an enormous cloud of irrational emotion, emotion that had but a moment before seemed gone for ever from his being. he recalled it all! he had come down that hillside and ethel had been with him.... had he really felt like that about her? "pah!" he said suddenly, and reverted to his books. but the tune and the memory had won their footing, they were with him through his meagre lunch of milk and scones--he had resolved at the outset he would not go back to her for the midday meal--and on his way to vigours' they insisted on attention. it may be that lunching on scone and milk does in itself make for milder ways of thinking. a sense of extraordinary contradiction, of infinite perplexity, came to him. "but then," he asked, "how the devil did we get to _this_?" which is indeed one of the fundamental questions of matrimony. the morning tumults had given place to an almost scientific calm. very soon he was grappling manfully with the question. there was no disputing it, they had quarrelled. not once but several times lately they had quarrelled. it was real quarrelling;--they had stood up against one another, striking, watching to strike, seeking to wound. he tried to recall just how things had gone--what he had said and what she had replied. he could not do it. he had forgotten phrases and connexions. it stood in his memory not as a sequence of events but as a collection of disconnected static sayings; each saying blunt, permanent, inconsecutive like a graven inscription. and of the scene there came only one picture--ethel with a burning face and her eyes shining with tears. the traffic of a cross street engaged him for a space. he emerged on the further side full of the vivid contrast of their changed relations. he made a last effort to indict her, to show that for the transition she was entirely to blame. she had quarrelled with him, she had quarrelled deliberately because she was jealous. she was jealous of miss heydinger because she was stupid. but now these accusations faded like smoke as he put them forth. but the picture of two little figures back there in the moonlit past did not fade. it was in the narrows of kensington high street that he abandoned her arraignment. it was beyond the town hall that he made the new step. was it, after all, just possible that in some degree he himself rather was the chief person to blame? it was instantly as if he had been aware of that all the time. once he had made that step, he moved swiftly. not a hundred paces before the struggle was over, and he had plunged headlong into the blue abyss of remorse. and all these things that had been so dramatic and forcible, all the vivid brutal things he had said, stood no longer graven inscriptions but in letters of accusing flame. he tried to imagine he had not said them, that his memory played him a trick; tried to suppose he had said something similar perhaps, but much less forcible. he attempted with almost equal futility to minimise his own wounds. his endeavour served only to measure the magnitude of his fall. he had recovered everything now, he saw it all. he recalled ethel, sunlit in the avenue, ethel, white in the moonlight before they parted outside the frobisher house, ethel as she would come out of lagune's house greeting him for their nightly walk, ethel new wedded, as she came to him through the folding doors radiant in the splendour his emotions threw about her. and at last, ethel angry, dishevelled and tear-stained in that ill-lit, untidy little room. all to the cadence of a hurdy-gurdy tune! from that to this! how had it been possible to get from such an opalescent dawning to such a dismal day? what was it had gone? he and she were the same two persons who walked so brightly in his awakened memory; he and she who had lived so bitterly through the last few weeks of misery! his mood sank for a space to the quality of groaning. he implicated her now at most as his partner in their failure--"what a mess we have made of things!" was his new motif. "what a mess!" he knew love now for what it was, knew it for something more ancient and more imperative than reason. he knew now that he loved her, and his recent rage, his hostility, his condemnation of her seemed to him the reign of some exterior influence in his mind. he thought incredulously of the long decline in tenderness that had followed the first days of their delight in each other, the diminution of endearment, the first yielding to irritability, the evenings he had spent doggedly working, resisting all his sense of her presence. "one cannot always be love-making," he had said, and so they were slipping apart. then in countless little things he had not been patient, he had not been fair. he had wounded her by harshness, by unsympathetic criticism, above all by his absurd secrecy about miss heydinger's letters. why on earth had he kept those letters from her? as though there was something to hide! what was there to hide? what possible antagonism could there be? yet it was by such little things that their love was now like some once valued possession that had been in brutal hands, it was scratched and chipped and tarnished, it was on its way to being altogether destroyed. her manner had changed towards him, a gulf was opening that he might never be able to close again. "no, it _shall_ not be!" he said, "it shall not be!" but how to get back to the old footing? how to efface the things he had said, the things that had been done? could they get back? for a moment he faced a new possibility. suppose they could not get back! suppose the mischief was done! suppose that when he slammed the door behind him it locked, and was locked against him for ever! "but we _must_!" said lewisham, "we must!" he perceived clearly that this was no business of reasoned apologies. he must begin again, he must get back to emotion, he must thrust back the overwhelming pressure of everyday stresses and necessities that was crushing all the warmth and colour from their lives. but how? how? he must make love to her again. but how to begin--how to mark the change? there had been making-up before, sullen concessions and treaties. but this was different. he tried to imagine something he might say, some appeal that he might make. everything he thought of was cold and hard, or pitiful and undignified, or theatrical and foolish. suppose the door _was_ closed! if already it was too late! in every direction he was confronted by the bristling memories of harsh things. he had a glimpse of how he must have changed in her eyes, and things became intolerable for him. for now he was assured he loved her still with all his heart. and suddenly came a florist's window, and in the centre of it a glorious heap of roses. they caught his eye before they caught his mind. he saw white roses, virginal white, roses of cream and pink and crimson, the tints of flesh and pearl, rich, a mass of scented colour, visible odours, and in the midst of them a note of sullen red. it was as it were the very colour of his emotion. he stopped abruptly. he turned back to the window and stared frankly. it was gorgeous, he saw, but why so particularly did it appeal to him? then he perceived as though it was altogether self-evident what he had to do. this was what he wanted. this was the note he had to strike. among other things because it would repudiate the accursed worship of pinching self-restraint that was one of the incessant stresses between them. they would come to her with a pure unexpectedness, they would flame upon her. then, after the roses, he would return. suddenly the grey trouble passed from his mind; he saw the world full of colour again. he saw the scene he desired bright and clear, saw ethel no longer bitter and weeping, but glad as once she had always seemed glad. his heart-beats quickened. it was giving had been needed, and he would give. some weak voice of indiscreet discretion squeaked and vanished. he had, he knew, a sovereign in his pocket. he went in. he found himself in front of a formidable young lady in black, and unprepared with any formula. he had never bought flowers before. he looked about him for an inspiration. he pointed at the roses. "i want those roses," he said.... he emerged again with only a few small silver coins remaining out of the sovereign he had changed. the roses were to go to ethel, properly packed; they were to be delivered according to his express direction at six o'clock. "six o'clock," lewisham had reiterated very earnestly. "we quite understand," the young lady in black had said, and had pretended to be unable to conceal a smile. "we're _quite_ accustomed to sending out flowers." chapter xxviii. the coming of the roses. and the roses miscarried! when lewisham returned from vigours' it was already nearly seven. he entered the house with a beating heart. he had expected to find ethel excited, the roses displayed. but her face was white and jaded. he was so surprised by this that the greeting upon his lips died away. he was balked! he went into, the sitting-room and there were no roses to be seen. ethel came past him and stood with her back to him looking out of the window. the suspense was suddenly painful.... he was obliged to ask, though he was certain of the answer, "has nothing come?" ethel looked at him. "what did you think had come?" "oh! nothing." she looked out of the window again. "no," she said slowly, "nothing has come." he tried to think of something to say that might bridge the distance between them, but he could think of nothing. he must wait until the roses came. he took out his books and a gaunt hour passed to supper time. supper was a chilly ceremonial set with necessary over-polite remarks. disappointment and exasperation darkened lewisham's soul. he began to feel angry with everything--even with her--he perceived she still judged him angry, and that made him angry with her. he was resuming his books and she was helping madam gadow's servant to clear away, when they heard a rapping at the street door. "they have come at last," he said to himself brightening, and hesitated whether he should bolt or witness her reception of them. the servant was a nuisance. then he heard chaffery's voices and whispered a soft "damn!" to himself. the only thing to do now if the roses came was to slip out into the passage, intercept them, and carry them into the bedroom by the door between that and the passage. it would be undesirable for chaffery to witness that phase of sentiment. he might flash some dart of ridicule that would stick in their memory for ever. lewisham tried to show that he did not want a visitor. but chaffery was in high spirits, and could have warmed a dozen cold welcomes. he sat down without any express invitation in the chair that he preferred. before mr. and mrs. chaffery the lewishams veiled whatever trouble might be between them beneath an insincere cordiality, and chaffery was soon talking freely, unsuspicious of their crisis. he produced two cigars. "i had a wild moment," he said. "'for once,' said i, 'the honest shall smoke the admirable--or the admirable shall smoke the honest,' whichever you like best. try one? no? those austere principles of yours! there will be more pleasure then. but really, i would as soon you smoked it as i. for to-night i radiate benevolence." he cut the cigar with care, he lit it with ceremony, waiting until nothing but honest wood was burning on the match, and for fully a minute he was silent, evolving huge puffs of smoke. and then he spoke again, punctuating his words by varied and beautiful spirals. "so far," he said, "i have only trifled with knavery." as lewisham said nothing he resumed after a pause. "there are three sorts of men in the world, my boy, three and no more--and of women only one. there are happy men and there are knaves and fools. hybrids i don't count. and to my mind knaves and fools are very much alike." he paused again. "i suppose they are," said lewisham flatly, and frowned at the fireplace. chaffery eyed him. "i am talking wisdom. to-night i am talking a particular brand of wisdom. i am broaching some of my oldest and finest, because--as you will find one day--this is a special occasion. and you are distrait!" lewisham looked up. "birthday?" he said. "you will see. but i was making golden observations about knaves and fools. i was early convinced of the absolute necessity of righteousness if a man is to be happy. i know it as surely as there is a sun in the heavens. does that surprise you?" "well, it hardly squares--" "no. i know. i will explain all that. but let me tell you the happy life. let me give you that, as if i lay on my deathbed and this was a parting gift. in the first place, mental integrity. prove all things, hold fast to that which is right. let the world have no illusions for you, no surprises. nature is full of cruel catastrophes, man is a physically degenerate ape, every appetite, every instinct, needs the curb; salvation is not in the nature of things, but whatever salvation there may be is in the nature of man; face all these painful things. i hope you follow that?" "go on," said lewisham, with the debating-society taste for a thesis prevailing for a minute over that matter of the roses. "in youth, exercise and learning; in adolescence, ambition; and in early manhood, love--no footlight passion." chaffery was very solemn and insistent, with a lean extended finger, upon this point. "then marriage, young and decent, and then children and stout honest work for them, work too for the state in which they live; a life of self-devotion, indeed, and for sunset a decent pride--that is the happy life. rest assured that is the happy life; the life natural selection has been shaping for man since life began. so a man may go happy from the cradle to the grave--at least--passably happy. and to do this needs just three things--a sound body, a sound intelligence, and a sound will ... a sound will." chaffery paused on the repetition. "no other happiness endures. and when all men are wise, all men will seek that life. fame! wealth! art!--the red indians worship lunatics, and we are still by way of respecting the milder sorts. but i say that all men who do not lead that happy life are knaves and fools. the physical cripple, you know, poor devil, i count a sort of bodily fool." "yes," weighed lewisham, "i suppose he is." "now a fool fails of happiness because of his insufficient mind, he miscalculates, he stumbles and hobbles, some cant or claptrap whirls him away; he gets passion out of a book and a wife out of the stews, or he quarrels on a petty score; threats frighten him, vanity beguiles him, he fails by blindness. but the knave who is not a fool fails against the light. many knaves are fools also--_most_ are--but some are not. i know--i am a knave but no fool. the essence of your knave is that he lacks the will, the motive capacity to seek his own greater good. the knave abhors persistence. strait is the way and narrow the gate; the knave cannot keep to it and the fool cannot find it." lewisham lost something of what chaffery was saying by reason of a rap outside. he rose, but ethel was before him. he concealed his anxiety as well as he could; and was relieved when he heard the front door close again and her footsteps pass into the bedroom by the passage door. he reverted to chaffery. "has it ever occurred to you," asked chaffery, apparently apropos of nothing, "that intellectual conviction is no motive at all? any more than a railway map will run a train a mile." "eh?" said lewisham. "map--run a train a mile--of course, yes. no, it won't." "that is precisely my case," said chaffery. "that is the case of your pure knave everywhere. we are not fools--because we know. but yonder runs the highway, windy, hard, and austere, a sort of dry happiness that will endure; and here is the pleasant by-way--lush, my boy, lush, as the poets have it, and with its certain man-trap among the flowers ..." ethel returned through the folding doors. she glanced at lewisham, remained standing for awhile, sat down in the basket chair as if to resume some domestic needlework that lay upon the table, then rose and went back into the bedroom. chaffery proceeded to expatiate on the transitory nature of passion and all glorious and acute experiences. whole passages of that discourse lewisham did not hear, so intent was he upon those roses. why had ethel gone back into the bedroom? was it possible--? presently she returned, but she sat down so that he could not see her face. "if there is one thing to set against the wholesome life it is adventure," chaffery was saying. "but let every adventurer pray for an early death, for with adventure come wounds, and with wounds come sickness, and--except in romances--sickness affects the nervous system. your nerve goes. where are you then, my boy?" "ssh! what's that?" said lewisham. it was a rap at the house door. heedless of the flow of golden wisdom, he went out at once and admitted a gentleman friend of madam gadow, who passed along the passage and vanished down the staircase. when he returned chaffery was standing to go. "i could have talked with you longer," he said, "but you have something on your mind, i see. i will not worry you by guessing what. some day you will remember ..." he said no more, but laid his hand on lewisham's shoulder. one might almost fancy he was offended at something. at any other time lewisham might have been propitiatory, but now he offered no apology. chaffery turned to ethel and looked at her curiously for a moment. "good-bye," he said, holding out his hand to her. on the doorstep chaffery regarded lewisham with the same curious look, and seemed to weigh some remark. "good-bye," he said at last with something in his manner that kept lewisham at the door for a moment looking after his stepfather's receding figure. but immediately the roses were uppermost again. when he re-entered the living room he found ethel sitting idly at her typewriter, playing with the keys. she got up at his return and sat down in the armchair with a novelette that hid her face. he stared at her, full of questions. after all, then, they had not come. he was intensely disappointed now, he was intensely angry with the ineffable young shop-woman in black. he looked at his watch and then again, he took a book and pretended to read and found himself composing a scathing speech of remonstrance to be delivered on the morrow at the flower-shop. he put his book down, went to his black bag, opened and closed it aimlessly. he glanced covertly at ethel, and found her looking covertly at him. he could not quite understand her expression. he fidgeted into the bedroom and stopped as dead as a pointer. he felt an extraordinary persuasion of the scent of roses. so strong did it seem that he glanced outside the room door, expecting to find a box there, mysteriously arrived. but there was no scent of roses in the passage. then he saw close by his foot an enigmatical pale object, and stooping, picked up the creamy petal of a rose. he stood with it in his hand, perplexed beyond measure. he perceived a slight disorder of the valence of the dressing-table and linked it with this petal by a swift intuition. he made two steps, lifted the valence, and behold! there lay his roses crushed together! he gasped like a man who plunges suddenly into cold water. he remained stooping with the valence raised. ethel appeared in the half doorway and her, expression was unfamiliar. he stared at her white face. "why on earth did you put my roses here?" he asked. she stared back at him. her face reflected his astonishment. "why did you put my roses here?" he asked again. "your roses!" she cried, "what! did _you_ send those roses?" chapter xxix. thorns and rose petals. he remained stooping and staring up at her, realising the implication of her words only very slowly. then it grew clear to him. as she saw understanding dawning in his face, she uttered a cry of consternation. she came forward and sat down upon the little bedroom chair. she turned to him and began a sentence. "i," she said, and stopped, with an impatient gesture of her hands. "_oh_!" he straightened himself and stood regarding her. the basket of roses lay overturned between them. "you thought these came from someone else?" he said, trying to grasp this inversion of the universe. she turned her eyes, "i did not know," she panted. "a trap.... was it likely--they came from you?" "you thought they came from someone else," he said. "yes," she said, "i did." "who?" "mr. baynes." "that boy!" "yes--that boy." "well!" lewisham looked about him--a man in the presence of the inconceivable. "you mean to say you have been carrying on with that youngster behind my back?" he asked. she opened her lips to speak and had no words to say. his pallor increased until every tinge of colour had left his face. he laughed and then set his teeth. husband and wife looked at one another. "i never dreamt," he said in even tones. he sat down on the bed, thrusting his feet among the scattered roses with a sort of grim satisfaction. "i never dreamt," he repeated, and the flimsy basket kicked by his swinging foot hopped indignantly through the folding doors into the living room and left a trail of blood-red petals. they sat for perhaps two minutes, and when he spoke again his voice was hoarse. he reverted to a former formula. "look here," he said, and cleared his throat. "i don't know whether you think i'm going to stand this, but i'm not." he looked at her. she sat staring in front of her, making no attempt to cope with disaster. "when i say i'm not going to stand it," explained lewisham, "i don't mean having a row or anything of that sort. one can quarrel and be disappointed over--other things--and still go on. but this is a different thing altogether. "of all dreams and illusions!... think what i have lost in this accursed marriage. and _now_ ... you don't understand--you won't understand." "nor you," said ethel, weeping but neither looking at him nor moving her hands from her lap where they lay helplessly. "_you_ don't understand." "i'm beginning to." he sat in silence gathering force. "in one year," he said, "all my hopes, all my ambitions have gone. i know i have been cross and irritable--i know that. i've been pulled two ways. but ... i bought you these roses." she looked at the roses, and then at his white face, made an imperceptible movement towards him, and became impassive again. "i do think one thing. i have found out you are shallow, you don't think, you can't feel things that i think and feel. i have been getting over that. but i did think you were loyal--" "i _am_ loyal," she cried. "and you think--bah!--you poke my roses under the table!" another portentous silence. ethel stirred and he turned his eyes to watch what she was about to do. she produced her handkerchief and began to wipe her dry eyes rapidly, first one and then the other. then she began sobbing. "i'm ... as loyal as you ... anyhow," she said. for a moment lewisham was aghast. then he perceived he must ignore that argument. "i would have stood it--i would have stood anything if you had been loyal--if i could have been sure of you. i am a fool, i know, but i would have stood the interruption of my work, the loss of any hope of a career, if i had been sure you were loyal. i ... i cared for you a great deal." he stopped. he had suddenly perceived the pathetic. he took refuge in anger. "and you have deceived me! how long, how much, i don't care. you have deceived me. and i tell you"--he began to gesticulate--"i'm not so much your slave and fool as to stand that! no woman shall make me _that_ sort of fool, whatever else--so far as i am concerned, this ends things. this ends things. we are married--but i don't care if we were married five hundred times. i won't stop with a woman who takes flowers from another man--" "i _didn't_," said ethel. lewisham gave way to a transport of anger. he caught up a handful of roses and extended them, trembling. "what's _this_?" he asked. his finger bled from a thorn, as once it had bled from a blackthorn spray. "i _didn't_ take them," said ethel. "i couldn't help it if they were sent." "ugh!" said lewisham. "but what is the good of argument and denial? you took them in, you had them. you may have been cunning, but you have given yourself away. and our life and all this"--he waved an inclusive hand at madam gadow's furniture--"is at an end." he looked at her and repeated with bitter satisfaction, "at an end." she glanced at his face, and his expression was remorseless. "i will not go on living with you," he said, lest there should be any mistake. "our life is at an end." her eyes went from his face to the scattered roses. she remained staring at these. she was no longer weeping, and her face, save about the eyes, was white. he presented it in another form. "i shall go away." "we never ought to have married," he reflected. "but ... i never expected _this_!" "i didn't know," she cried out, lifting up her voice. "i _didn't_ know. how could _i_ help! _oh_!" she stopped and stared at him with hands clenched, her eyes haggard with despair. lewisham remained impenetrably malignant. "i don't _want_ to know," he said, answering her dumb appeal. "that settles everything. _that_!" he indicated the scattered flowers. "what does it matter to me what has happened or hasn't happened? anyhow--oh! i don't mind. i'm glad. see? it settles things. "the sooner we part the better. i shan't stop with you another night. i shall take my box and my portmanteau into that room and pack. i shall stop in there to-night, sleep in a chair or _think_. and to-morrow i shall settle up with madam gadow and go. you can go back ... to your cheating." he stopped for some seconds. she was deadly still. "you wanted to, and now you may. you wanted to, before i got work. you remember? you know your place is still open at lagune's. i don't care. i tell you i don't care _that_. not that! you may go your own way--and i shall go mine. see? and all this rot--this sham of living together when neither cares for the other--i don't care for you _now_, you know, so you needn't think it--will be over and done with. as for marriage--i don't care _that_ for marriage--it can't make a sham and a blunder anything but a sham. "it's a sham, and shams have to end, and that's the end of the matter." he stood up resolutely. he kicked the scattered roses out of his way and dived beneath the bed for his portmanteau. ethel neither spoke nor moved, but remained watching his movements. for a time the portmanteau refused to emerge, and he marred his stern resolution by a half audible "come here--damn you!" he swung it into the living room and returned for his box. he proposed to pack in that room. when he had taken all his personal possessions out of the bedroom, he closed the folding-doors with an air of finality. he knew from the sounds that followed that she flung herself upon the bed, and that filled him with grim satisfaction. he stood listening for a space, then set about packing methodically. the first rage of discovery had abated; he knew quite clearly that he was inflicting grievous punishment, and that gratified him. there was also indeed a curious pleasure in the determination of a long and painful period of vague misunderstanding by this unexpected crisis. he was acutely conscious of the silence on the other side of the folding-doors, he kept up a succession of deliberate little noises, beat books together and brushed clothes, to intimate the resolute prosecution of his preparations. that was about nine o'clock. at eleven he was still busy.... darkness came suddenly upon him. it was madam gadow's economical habit to turn off all her gas at that hour unless she chanced to be entertaining friends. he felt in his pocket for matches and he had none. he whispered curses. against such emergencies he had bought a brass lamp and in the bedroom there were candles. ethel had a candle alight, he could see the bright yellow line that appeared between the folding doors. he felt his way presently towards the mantel, receiving a blow in the ribs from a chair on the way, and went carefully amidst madam gadow's once amusing ornaments. there were no matches on the mantel. going to the chest of drawers he almost fell over his open portmanteau. he had a silent ecstasy of rage. then he kicked against the basket in which the roses had come. he could find no matches on the chest of drawers. ethel must have the matches in the bedroom, but that was absolutely impossible. he might even have to ask her for them, for at times she pocketed matches.... there was nothing for it but to stop packing. not a sound came from the other room. he decided he would sit down in the armchair and go to sleep. he crept very carefully to the chair and sat down. another interval of listening and he closed his eyes and composed himself for slumber. he began to think over his plans for the morrow. he imagined the scene with madam gadow, and then his departure to find bachelor lodgings once more. he debated in what direction he should go to get, suitable lodgings. possible difficulties with his luggage, possible annoyances of the search loomed gigantic. he felt greatly irritated at these minor difficulties. he wondered if ethel also was packing. what particularly would she do? he listened, but he could hear nothing. she was very still. she was really very still! what could she be doing? he forgot the bothers of the morrow in this new interest. presently he rose very softly and listened. then he sat down again impatiently. he tried to dismiss his curiosity about the silence by recapitulating the story of his wrongs. he had some difficulty in fixing his mind upon this theme, but presently his memories were flowing freely. only it was not wrongs now that he could recall. he was pestered by an absurd idea that he had again behaved unjustly to ethel, that he had been headlong and malignant. he made strenuous efforts to recover his first heat of jealousy--in vain. her remark that she had been as loyal as he, became an obstinate headline in his mind. something arose within him that insisted upon ethel's possible fate if he should leave her. what particularly would she do? he knew how much her character leant upon his, good heavens! what might she not do? by an effort he succeeded in fixing his mind on baynes. that helped him back to the harsher footing. however hard things might be for her she deserved them. she deserved them! yet presently he slipped again, slipped back to the remorse and regrets of the morning time. he clutched at baynes as a drowning man clutches at a rope, and recovered himself. for a time he meditated on baynes. he had never seen the poet, so his imagination had scope. it appeared to him as an exasperating obstacle to a tragic avenging of his honour that baynes was a mere boy--possibly even younger than himself. the question, "what will become of ethel?" rose to the surface again. he struggled against its possibilities. no! that was not it! that was her affair. he felt inexorably kept to the path he had chosen, for all the waning of his rage. he had put his hand to the plough. "if you condone this," he told himself, "you might condone anything. there are things one _must_ not stand." he tried to keep to that point of view--assuming for the most part out of his imagination what it was he was not standing. a dim sense came to him of how much he was assuming. at any rate she must have flirted!... he resisted this reviving perception of justice as though it was some unspeakably disgraceful craving. he tried to imagine her with baynes. he determined he would go to sleep. but his was a waking weariness. he tried counting. he tried to distract his thoughts from her by going over the atomic weights of the elements.... he shivered, and realised that he was cold and sitting cramped on an uncomfortable horsehair chair. he had dozed. he glanced for the yellow line between the folding doors. it was still there, but it seemed to quiver. he judged the candle must be flaring. he wondered why everything was so still. now why should he suddenly feel afraid? he sat for a long time trying to hear some movement, his head craning forward in the darkness. a grotesque idea came into his head that all that had happened a very long time ago. he dismissed that. he contested an unreasonable persuasion that some irrevocable thing had passed. but why was everything so still? he was invaded by a prevision of unendurable calamity. presently he rose and crept very slowly, and with infinite precautions against noise, towards the folding doors. he stood listening with his ear near the yellow chink. he could hear nothing, not even the measured breathing of a sleeper. he perceived that the doors were not shut, but slightly ajar. he pushed against the inner one very gently and opened it silently. still there was no sound of ethel. he opened the door still wider and peered into the room. the candle had burnt down and was flaring in its socket. ethel was lying half undressed upon the bed, and in her hand and close to her face was a rose. he stood watching her, fearing to move. he listened hard and his face was very white. even now he could not hear her breathing. after all, it was probably all right. she was just asleep. he would slip back before she woke. if she found him-- he looked at her again. there was something in her face-- he came nearer, no longer heeding the sounds he made. he bent over her. even now she did not seem to breathe. he saw that her eyelashes were still wet, the pillow by her cheek was wet. her white, tear-stained face hurt him.... she was intolerably pitiful to him. he forgot everything but that and how he had wounded her that day. and then she stirred and murmured indistinctly a foolish name she had given him. he forgot that they were going to part for ever. he felt nothing but a great joy that she could stir and speak. his jealousy flashed out of being. he dropped upon his knees. "dear," he whispered, "is it all right? i ... i could not hear you breathing. i could not hear you breathing." she started and was awake. "i was in the other room," said lewisham in a voice full of emotion. "everything was so quiet, i was afraid--i did not know what had happened. dear--ethel dear. is it all right?" she sat up quickly and scrutinised his face. "oh! let me tell you," she wailed. "do let me tell you. it's nothing. it's nothing. you wouldn't hear me. you wouldn't hear me. it wasn't fair--before you had heard me...." his arms tightened about her. "dear," he said, "i knew it was nothing. i knew. i knew." she spoke in sobbing sentences. "it was so simple. mr. baynes ... something in his manner ... i knew he might be silly ... only i did so want to help you." she paused. just for one instant she saw one untenable indiscretion as it were in a lightning flash. a chance meeting it was, a "silly" thing or so said, a panic, retreat. she would have told it--had she known how. but she could not do it. she hesitated. she abolished it--untold. she went on: "and then, i thought he had sent the roses and i was frightened ... i was frightened." "dear one," said lewisham. "dear one! i have been cruel to you. i have been unjust. i understand. i do understand. forgive me. dearest--forgive me." "i did so want to do something for you. it was all i could do--that little money. and then you were angry. i thought you didn't love me any more because i did not understand your work.... and that miss heydinger--oh! it was hard." "dear one," said lewisham, "i do not care your little finger for miss heydinger." "i know how i hamper you. but if you will help me. oh! i would work, i would study. i would do all i could to understand." "dear," whispered lewisham. "_dear_" "and to have _her_--" "dear," he vowed, "i have been a brute. i will end all that. i will end all that." he took her suddenly into his arms and kissed her. "oh, i _know_ i'm stupid," she said. "you're not. it's i have been stupid. i have been unkind, unreasonable. all to-day--... i've been thinking about it. dear! i don't care for anything--it's _you_. if i have you nothing else matters ... only i get hurried and cross. it's the work and being poor. dear one, we _must_ hold to each other. all to-day--it's been dreadful...." he stopped. they sat clinging to one another. "i do love you," she said presently with her arms about him. "oh! i do--_do_--love you." he drew her closer to him. he kissed her neck. she pressed him to her. their lips met. the expiring candle streamed up into a tall flame, flickered, and was suddenly extinguished. the air was heavy with the scent of roses. chapter xxx. a withdrawal. on tuesday lewisham returned from vigours' at five--at half-past six he would go on to his science class at walham green--and discovered mrs. chaffery and ethel in tears. he was fagged and rather anxious for some tea, but the news they had for him drove tea out of his head altogether. "he's gone," said ethel. "who's gone? what! not chaffery?" mrs. chaffery, with a keen eye to lewisham's behaviour, nodded tearfully over an experienced handkerchief. lewisham grasped the essentials of the situation forthwith, and trembled on the brink of an expletive. ethel handed him a letter. for a moment lewisham held this in his hand asking; questions. mrs. chaffery had come upon it in the case of her eight-day clock when the time to wind it came round. chaffery, it seemed, had not been home since saturday night. the letter was an open one addressed to lewisham, a long rambling would-be clever letter, oddly inferior in style to chaffery's conversation. it had been written some hours before chaffery's last visit his talk then had been perhaps a sort of codicil. "the inordinate stupidity of that man lagune is driving me out of the country," lewisham saw. "it has been at last a definite stumbling block--even a legal stumbling block. i fear. i am off. i skedaddle. i break ties. i shall miss our long refreshing chats--you had found me out and i could open my mind. i am sorry to part from ethel also, but thank heaven she has you to look to! and indeed they both have you to look to, though the 'both' may be a new light to you." lewisham growled, went from page to page --conscious of their both looking to him now--even intensely--and discovered chaffery in a practical vein. "there is but little light, and portable property in that house in clapham that has escaped my lamentable improvidence, but there are one or two things--the iron-bound chest, the bureau with a broken hinge, and the large air pump--distinctly pawnable if only you can contrive to get them to a pawnshop. you have more will power than i--i never could get the confounded things downstairs. that iron-bound box was originally mine, before i married your mother-in-law, so that i am not altogether regardless of your welfare and the necessity of giving some equivalent. don't judge me too harshly." lewisham turned over sharply without finishing that page. "my life at clapham," continued the letter, "has irked me for some time, and to tell you the truth, the spectacle of your vigorous young happiness--you are having a very good time, you know, fighting the world--reminded me of the passing years. to be frank in self-criticism, there is more than a touch of the new woman about me, and i feel i have still to live my own life. what a beautiful phrase that is--to live one's own life!--redolent of honest scorn for moral plagiarism. no _imitatio christi_ in that ... i long to see more of men and cities.... i begin late, i know, to live my own life, bald as i am and grey-whiskered; but better late than never. why should the educated girl have the monopoly of the game? and after all, the whiskers will dye.... "there are things--i touch upon them lightly--that will presently astonish lagune." lewisham became more attentive. "i marvel at that man, grubbing hungry for marvels amidst the almost incredibly marvellous. what can be the nature of a man who gapes after poltergeists with the miracle of his own silly existence (inconsequent, reasonless, unfathomably weird) nearer to him than breathing and closer than hands and feet. what is _he_ for, that he should wonder at poltergeists? i am astonished these by no means flimsy psychic phenomena do not turn upon their investigators, and that a research society of eminent illusions and hallucinations does not pursue lagune with sceptical! inquiries. take his house--expose the alleged man of chelsea! _a priori_ they might argue that a thing so vain, so unmeaning, so strongly beset by cackle, could only be the diseased imagining of some hysterical phantom. do _you_ believe that such a thing as lagune exists? i must own to the gravest doubts. but happily his banker is of a more credulous type than i.... of all that lagune will tell you soon enough." lewisham read no more. "i suppose he thought himself clever when he wrote that rot," said lewisham bitterly, throwing the sheets forcibly athwart the table. "the simple fact is, he's stolen, or forged, or something--and bolted." there was a pause. "what will become of mother?" said ethel. lewisham looked at mother and thought for a moment. then he glanced at ethel. "we're all in the same boat," said lewisham. "i don't want to give any trouble to a single human being," said mrs. chaffery. "i think you might get a man his tea, ethel," said lewisham, sitting down suddenly; "anyhow." he drummed on the table with his fingers. "i have to get to walham green by a quarter to seven." "we're all in the same boat," he repeated after an interval, and continued drumming. he was chiefly occupied by the curious fact that they were all in the same boat. what an extraordinary faculty he had for acquiring responsibility! he looked up suddenly and caught mrs. chaffery's tearful eye directed to ethel and full of distressful interrogation, and his perplexity was suddenly changed to pity. "it's all right, mother," he said. "i'm not going to be unreasonable. i'll stand by you." "ah!" said mrs. chaffery. "as if i didn't know!" and ethel came and kissed him. he seemed in imminent danger of universal embraces. "i wish you'd let me have my tea," he said. and while he had his tea he asked mrs. chaffery questions and tried to get the new situation into focus. but even at ten o'clock, when he was returning hot and jaded from walham green, he was still trying to get the situation into focus. there were vague ends and blank walls of interrogation in the matter, that perplexed him. he knew that his supper would be only the prelude to an interminable "talking over," and indeed he did not get to bed until nearly two. by that time a course of action was already agreed upon. mrs. chaffery was tied to the house in clapham by a long lease, and thither they must go. the ground floor and first floor were let unfurnished, and the rent of these practically paid the rent of the house. the chafferys occupied basement and second floor. there was a bedroom on the second floor, formerly let to the first floor tenants, that he and ethel could occupy, and in this an old toilet table could be put for such studies as were to be prosecuted at home. ethel could have her typewriter in the subterranean breakfast-room. mrs. chaffery and ethel must do the catering and the bulk of the housework, and as soon as possible, since letting lodgings would not square with lewisham's professional pride, they must get rid of the lease that bound them and take some smaller and more suburban residence. if they did that without leaving any address it might save their feelings from any return of the prodigal chaffery. mrs. chaffery's frequent and pathetic acknowledgments of lewisham's goodness only partly relieved his disposition to a philosophical bitterness. and the practical issues were complicated by excursions upon the subject of chaffery, what he might have done, and where he might have gone, and whether by any chance he might not return. when at last mrs. chaffery, after a violent and tearful kissing and blessing of them both--they were "good dear children," she said--had departed, mr. and mrs. lewisham returned into their sitting-room. mrs. lewisham's little face was enthusiastic. "you're a trump," she said, extending the willing arms that were his reward. "i know," she said, "i know, and all to-night i have been loving you. dear! dear! dear...." the next day lewisham was too full of engagements to communicate with lagune, but the following morning he called and found the psychic investigator busy with the proofs of _hesperus_. he welcomed the young man cordially nevertheless, conceiving him charged with the questions that had been promised long ago--it was evident he knew nothing of lewisham's marriage. lewisham stated his case with some bluntness. "he was last here on saturday," said lagune. "you have always been inclined to suspicion about him. have you any grounds?" "you'd better read this," said lewisham, repressing a grim smile, and he handed lagune chaffery's letter. he glanced at the little man ever and again to see if he had come to the personal portion, and for the rest of the time occupied himself with an envious inventory of the writing appointments about him. no doubt the boy with the big ears had had the same sort of thing ... when lagune came to the question of his real identity he blew out his cheeks in the most astonishing way, but made no other sign. "dear, dear!" he said at last. "my bankers!" he looked at lewisham with the exaggerated mildness of his spectacled eye. "what do you think it means?" he asked. "has he gone mad? we have been conducting some experiments involving--considerable mental strain. he and i and a lady. hypnotic--" "i should look at my cheque-book if i were you." lagune produced some keys and got out his cheque book. he turned over the counterfoils. "there's nothing wrong here," he said, and handed the book to lewisham. "um," said lewisham. "i suppose this--i say, is _this_ right?" he handed back the book to lagune, open at the blank counterfoil of a cheque that had been removed. lagune stared and passed his hand over his forehead in a confused way. "i can't see this," he said. lewisham had never heard of post hypnotic suggestion and he stood incredulous. "you can't see that?" he said. "what nonsense!" "i can't see it," repeated lagune. for some seconds lewisham could not get away from stupid repetitions of his inquiry. then he hit upon a collateral proof. "but look here! can you see _this_ counterfoil?" "plainly," said lagune. "can you read the number?" "five thousand two hundred and seventy-nine." "well, and this?" "five thousand two hundred and eighty-one." "well--where's five thousand two hundred and eighty?" lagune began to look uncomfortable. "surely," he said, "he has not--will you read it out--the cheque, the counterfoil i mean, that i am unable to see?" "it's blank," said lewisham with an irresistible grin. "surely," said lagune, and the discomfort of his expression deepened. "do you mind if i call in a servant to confirm--?" lewisham did not mind, and the same girl who had admitted him to the _séance_ appeared. when she had given her evidence she went again. as she left the room by the door behind lagune her eyes met lewisham's, and she lifted her eyebrows, depressed her mouth, and glanced at lagune with a meaning expression. "i'm afraid," said lagune, "that i have been shabbily treated. mr. chaffery is a man of indisputable powers--indisputable powers; but i am afraid--i am very much afraid he has abused the conditions of the experiment. all this--and his insults--touch me rather nearly." he paused. lewisham rose. "do you mind if you come again?" asked lagune with gentle politeness. lewisham was surprised to find himself sorry. "he was a man of extraordinary gifts," said lagune. "i had come to rely upon him.... my cash balance has been rather heavy lately. how he came to know of that i am unable to say. without supposing, that is, that he had very remarkable gifts." when lewisham saw lagune again he learnt the particulars of chaffery's misdeed and the additional fact that the "lady" had also disappeared. "that's a good job," he remarked selfishly. "there's no chance of _his_ coming back." he spent a moment trying to imagine the "lady"; he realised more vividly than he had ever done before the narrow range of his experience, the bounds of his imagination. these people also--with grey hair and truncated honour--had their emotions i even it may be glowing! he came back to facts. chaffery had induced lagune when hypnotised to sign a blank cheque as an "autograph." "the strange thing is," explained lagune, "it's doubtful if he's legally accountable. the law is so peculiar about hypnotism and i certainly signed the cheque, you know." the little man, in spite of his losses, was now almost cheerful again on account of a curious side issue. "you may say it is coincidence," he said, "you may call it a fluke, but i prefer to look for some other interpretation! consider this. the amount of my balance is a secret between me and my bankers. he never had it from _me_, for i did not know it--i hadn't looked at my passbook for months. but he drew it all in one cheque, within seventeen and sixpence of the total. and the total was over five hundred pounds!" he seemed quite bright again as he culminated. "within seventeen and sixpence," he said. "now how do you account for that, eh? give me a materialistic explanation that will explain away all that. you can't. neither can i." "i think i can," said lewisham. "well--what is it?" lewisham nodded towards a little drawer of the bureau. "don't you think--perhaps"--a little ripple of laughter passed across his mind--"he had a skeleton key?" lagune's face lingered amusingly in lewisham's mind as he returned to clapham. but after a time that amusement passed away. he declined upon the extraordinary fact that chaffery was his father-in-law, mrs. chaffery his mother-in-law, that these two and ethel constituted his family, his clan, and that grimy graceless house up the clapham hillside was to be his home. home! his connexion with these things as a point of worldly departure was as inexorable now as though he had been born to it. and a year ago, except for a fading reminiscence of ethel, none of these people had existed for him. the ways of destiny! the happenings of the last few months, foreshortened in perspective, seemed to have almost a pantomimic rapidity. the thing took him suddenly as being laughable; and he laughed. his laugh marked an epoch. never before had lewisham laughed at any fix in which he had found himself! the enormous seriousness of adolescence was coming to an end; the days of his growing were numbered. it was a laugh of infinite admissions. chapter xxxi. in battersea park. now although lewisham had promised to bring things to a conclusion with miss heydinger, he did nothing in the matter for five weeks, he merely left that crucial letter of hers unanswered. in that time their removal from madam gadow's into the gaunt house at clapham was accomplished--not without polyglot controversy--and the young couple settled themselves into the little room on the second floor even as they had arranged. and there it was that suddenly the world was changed--was astonishingly transfigured--by a whisper. it was a whisper between sobs and tears, with ethel's arms about him and ethel's hair streaming down so that it hid her face from him. and he too had whispered, dismayed perhaps a little, and yet feeling a strange pride, a strange novel emotion, feeling altogether different from the things he had fancied he might feel when this thing that he had dreaded should come. suddenly he perceived finality, the advent of the solution, the reconciliation of the conflict that had been waged so long. hesitations were at an end;--he took his line. next day he wrote a note, and two mornings later he started for his mathematical duffers an hour before it was absolutely necessary, and instead of going directly to vigours', went over the bridge to battersea park. there waiting for him by a seat where once they had met before, he found miss heydinger pacing. they walked up and down side by side, speaking for a little while about indifferent topics, and then they came upon a pause ... "you have something to tell me?" said miss heydinger abruptly. lewisham changed colour a little. "oh yes," he said; "the fact is--" he affected ease. "did i ever tell you i was married?" "_married_?" "yes." "married!" "yes," a little testily. for a moment neither spoke. lewisham stood without dignity staring at the dahlias of the london county council, and miss heydinger stood regarding him. "and that is what you have to tell me?" mr. lewisham tamed and met her eyes. "yes!" he said. "that is what i have to tell you." pause. "do you mind if i sit down?" asked miss heydinger in an indifferent tone. "there is a seat yonder," said lewisham, "under the tree." they walked to the seat in silence. "now," said miss heydinger, quietly. "tell me whom you have married." lewisham answered sketchily. she asked him another question and another. he felt stupid and answered with a halting truthfulness. "i might have known," she said, "i might have known. only i would not know. tell me some more. tell me about her." lewisham did. the whole thing was abominably disagreeable to him, but it had to be done, he had promised ethel it should be done. presently miss heydinger knew the main outline of his story, knew all his story except, the emotion that made it credible. "and you were married--before the second examination?" she repeated. "yes," said lewisham. "but why did you not tell me of this before?" asked miss heydinger. "i don't, know," said lewisham. "i wanted to--that day, in kensington gardens. but i didn't. i suppose i ought to have done so." "i think you ought to have done so." "yes, i suppose i ought ... but i didn't. somehow--it has been hard. i didn't know what you would say. the thing seemed so rash, you know, and all that." he paused blankly. "i suppose you had to do it," said miss heydinger presently, with her eyes on his profile. lewisham began the second and more difficult part of his explanation. "there's been a difficulty," he said, "all the way along--i mean--about you, that is. it's a little difficult--the fact is, my life, you know--she looks at things differently from what we do." "we?" "yes--it's odd, of course. but she has seen your letters--" "you didn't show her--?" "no. but, i mean, she knows you write to me, and she knows you write about socialism and literature and--things we have in common--things she hasn't." "you mean to say she doesn't understand these things?" "she's not thought about them. i suppose there's a sort of difference in education--" "and she objects--?" "no," said lewisham, lying promptly. "she doesn't _object_ ..." "well?" said miss heydinger, and her face was white. "she feels that--she feels--she does not say, of course, but i know she feels that it is something she ought to share. i know--how she cares for me. and it shames her--it reminds her--don't you see how it hurts her?" "yes. i see. so that even that little--" miss heydinger's breath seemed to catch and she was abruptly silent. she spoke at last with an effort. "that it hurts _me_," she said, and grimaced and stopped again. "no," said lewisham, "that is not it." he hesitated. "i _knew_ this would hurt you." "you love her. you can sacrifice--" "no. it is not that. but there is a difference. hurting _her_--she would not understand. but you--somehow it seems a natural thing for me to come to you. i seem to look to you--for her i am always making allowances--" "you love her." "i wonder if it _is_ that makes the difference. things are so complex. love means anything--or nothing. i know you better than i do her, you know me better than she will ever do. i could tell you things i could not tell her. i could put all myself before you--almost--and know you would understand--only--" "you love her." "yes," said lewisham lamely and pulling at his moustache. "i suppose ... that must be it." for a space neither spoke. then miss heydinger said "_oh_!" with extraordinary emphasis. "to think of this end to it all! that all your promise ... what is it she gives that i could not have given? "even now! why should i give up that much of you that is mine? if she could take it--but she cannot take it. if i let you go--you will do nothing. all this ambition, all these interests will dwindle and die, and she will not mind. she will not understand. she will think that she still has you. why should she covet what she cannot possess? why should she be given the thing that is mine--to throw aside?" she did not look at lewisham, but before her, her face a white misery. "in a way--i had come to think of you as something, belonging to me ... i shall--still." "there is one thing," said lewisham after a pause, "it is a thing that has come to me once or twice lately. don't you think that perhaps you over-estimate the things i might have done? i know we've talked of great things to do. but i've been struggling for half a year and more to get the sort of living almost anyone seems able to get. it has taken me all my time. one can't help thinking after that, perhaps the world is a stiffer sort of affair ..." "no," she said decisively. "you could have done great things. "even now," she said, "you may do great things--if only i might see you sometimes, write to you sometimes--you are so capable and--weak. you must have somebody--that is your weakness. you fail in your belief. you must have support and belief--unstinted support and belief. why could i not be that to you? it is all i want to be. at least--all i want to be now. why need she know? it robs her of nothing. i want nothing--she has. but i know of my own strength too i can do nothing. i know that with you ... it is only knowing hurts her. why should she know?" mr. lewisham looked at her doubtfully. that phantom greatness of his, it was that lit her eyes. in that instant, at least he had no doubts of the possibility of his career. but he knew that in some way the secret of his greatness and this admiration went together. conceivably they were one and indivisible. why indeed need ethel know? his imagination ran over the things that might be done, the things that might happen, and touched swiftly upon complication, confusion, discovery. "the thing is, i must simplify my life. i shall do nothing unless i simplify my life. only people who are well off can be--complex. it is one thing or the other--" he hesitated and suddenly had a vision of ethel weeping as once he had seen her weep with the light on the tears in her eyes. "no," he said almost brutally. "no. it's like this--i can't do anything underhand. i mean--i'm not so amazingly honest--now. but i've not that sort of mind. she would find me out. it would do no good and she would find me out. my life's too complex. i can't manage it and go straight. i--you've overrated me. and besides--things have happened. something--" he hesitated and then snatched at his resolve, "i've got to simplify--and that's the plain fact of the case. i'm sorry, but it is so." miss heydinger made no answer. her silence astonished him. for nearly twenty seconds perhaps they sat without speaking. with a quick motion she stood up, and at once he stood up before her. her face was flushed, her eyes downcast. "good-bye," she said suddenly in a low tone and held out her hand. "but," said lewisham and stopped. miss heydinger's colour left her. "good-bye," she said, looking him suddenly in the eyes and smiling awry. "there is no more to say, is there? good-bye." he took her hand. "i hope i didn't--" "good-bye," she said impatiently, and suddenly disengaged her hand and turned away from him. he made a step after her. "miss heydinger," he said, but she did not stop. "miss heydinger." he realised that she did not want to answer him again.... he remained motionless, watching her retreating figure. an extraordinary sense of loss came into his mind, a vague impulse to pursue her and pour out vague passionate protestations.... not once did she look back. she was already remote when he began hurrying after her. once he was in motion he quickened his pace and gained upon her. he was within thirty yards of her as she drew near the gates. his pace slackened. suddenly he was afraid she might look back. she passed out of the gates, out of his sight. he stopped, looking where she had disappeared. he sighed and took the pathway to his left that led back to the bridge and vigours'. halfway across this bridge came another crisis of indecision. he stopped, hesitating. an impertinent thought obtruded. he looked at his watch and saw that he must hurry if he would catch the train for earl's court and vigours'. he said vigours' might go to the devil. but in the end he caught his train. chapter xxxii. the crowning victory. that night about seven ethel came into their room with a waste-paper basket she had bought for him, and found him sitting at the little toilet table at which he was to "write." the outlook was, for a london outlook, spacious, down a long slope of roofs towards the junction, a huge sky of blue passing upward to the darkling zenith and downward into a hazy bristling mystery of roofs and chimneys, from which emerged signal lights and steam puffs, gliding chains of lit window carriages and the vague vistas of streets. she showed him the basket and put it beside him, and then her eye caught the yellow document in his hand. "what is that you have there?" he held it out to her. "i found it--lining my yellow box. i had it at whortley." she took it and perceived a chronological scheme. it was headed "schema," there were memoranda in the margin, and all the dates had been altered by a hasty hand. "hasn't it got yellow?" she said. that seemed to him the wrong thing for her to say. he stared at the document with a sudden accession of sympathy. there was an interval. he became aware of her hand upon his shoulder, that she was bending over him. "dear," she whispered, with a strange change in the quality of her voice. he knew she was seeking to say something that was difficult to say. "yes?" he said presently. "you are not grieving?" "what about?" "_this_." "no!" "you are not--you are not even sorry?" she said. "no--not even sorry." "i can't understand that. it's so much--" "i'm glad," he proclaimed. "_glad."_ "but--the trouble--the expense--everything--and your work?" "yes," he said, "that's just it." she looked at him doubtfully. he glanced up at her, and she questioned his eyes. he put his arm about her, and presently and almost absent-mindedly she obeyed his pressure and bent down and kissed him. "it settles things," he said, holding her. "it joins us. don't you see? before ... but now it's different. it's something we have between us. it's something that ... it's the link we needed. it will hold us together, cement us together. it will be our life. this will be my work now. the other ..." he faced a truth. "it was just ... vanity!" there was still a shade of doubt in her face, a wistfulness. presently she spoke. "dear," she said. "yes?" she knitted her brows. "no!" she said. "i can't say it." in the interval she came into a sitting position on his knees. he kissed her hand, but her face remained grave, and she looked out upon the twilight. "i know i'm stupid," she said. "the things i say ... aren't the things i feel." he waited for her to say more. "it's no good," she said. he felt the onus of expression lay on him. he too found it a little difficult to put into words. "i think i understand," he said, and wrestled with the impalpable. the pause seemed long and yet not altogether vacant. she lapsed abruptly into the prosaic. she started from him. "if i don't go down, mother will get supper ..." at the door she stopped and turned a twilight face to him. for a moment they scrutinised one another. to her he was no more than a dim outline. impulsively he held out his arms.... then at the sound of a movement downstairs she freed herself and hurried out. he heard her call "mother! you're not to lay supper. you're to rest." he listened to her footsteps until the kitchen had swallowed them up. then he turned his eyes to the schema again and for a moment it seemed but a little thing. he picked it up in both hands and looked at it as if it was the writing of another man, and indeed it was the writing of another man. "pamphlets in the liberal interest," he read, and smiled. presently a train of thought carried him off. his attitude relaxed a little, the schema became for a time a mere symbol, a point of departure, and he stared out of the window at the darkling night. for a long time he sat pursuing thoughts that were half emotions, emotions that took upon themselves the shape and substance of ideas. the deepening current stirred at last among the roots of speech. "yes, it was vanity," he said. "a boy's vanity. for me--anyhow. i'm too two-sided.... two-sided?... commonplace! "dreams like mine--abilities like mine. yes--any man! and yet ...--the things i meant to do!" his thoughts went to his socialism, to his red-hot ambition of world mending. he marvelled at the vistas he had discovered since those days. "not for us--not for us. "we must perish in the wilderness.--some day. somewhen. but not for us.... "come to think, it is all the child. the future is the child. the future. what are we--any of us--but servants or traitors to that?... * * * * * "natural selection--it follows ... this way is happiness ... must be. there can be no other." he sighed. "to last a lifetime, that is. "and yet--it is almost as if life had played me a trick--promised so much--given so little!... "no! one must not look at it in that way! that will not do! that will _not_ do. "career! in itself it is a career--the most important career in the world. father! why should i want more? "and ... ethel! no wonder she seemed shallow ... she has been shallow. no wonder she was restless. unfulfilled ... what had she to do? she was drudge, she was toy ... "yes. this is life. this alone is life! for this we were made and born. all these other things--all other things--they are only a sort of play.... "play!" his eyes came back to the schema. his hands shifted to the opposite corner and he hesitated. the vision of that arranged career, that ordered sequence of work and successes, distinctions and yet further distinctions, rose brightly from the symbol. then he compressed his lips and tore the yellow sheet in half, tearing very deliberately. he doubled the halves and tore again, doubled again very carefully and neatly until the schema was torn into numberless little pieces. with it he seemed to be tearing his past self. "play," he whispered after a long silence. "it is the end of adolescence," he said; "the end of empty dreams...." he became very still, his hands resting on the table, his eyes staring out of the blue oblong of the window. the dwindling light gathered itself together and became a star. he found he was still holding the torn fragments. he stretched out his hand and dropped them into that new waste-paper basket ethel had bought for him. two pieces fell outside the basket. he stooped, picked them up, and put them carefully with their fellows. none a modern utopia by h. g. wells a note to the reader this book is in all probability the last of a series of writings, of which--disregarding certain earlier disconnected essays--my anticipations was the beginning. originally i intended anticipations to be my sole digression from my art or trade (or what you will) of an imaginative writer. i wrote that book in order to clear up the muddle in my own mind about innumerable social and political questions, questions i could not keep out of my work, which it distressed me to touch upon in a stupid haphazard way, and which no one, so far as i knew, had handled in a manner to satisfy my needs. but anticipations did not achieve its end. i have a slow constructive hesitating sort of mind, and when i emerged from that undertaking i found i had still most of my questions to state and solve. in mankind in the making, therefore, i tried to review the social organisation in a different way, to consider it as an educational process instead of dealing with it as a thing with a future history, and if i made this second book even less satisfactory from a literary standpoint than the former (and this is my opinion), i blundered, i think, more edifyingly--at least from the point of view of my own instruction. i ventured upon several themes with a greater frankness than i had used in anticipations, and came out of that second effort guilty of much rash writing, but with a considerable development of formed opinion. in many matters i had shaped out at last a certain personal certitude, upon which i feel i shall go for the rest of my days. in this present book i have tried to settle accounts with a number of issues left over or opened up by its two predecessors, to correct them in some particulars, and to give the general picture of a utopia that has grown up in my mind during the course of these speculations as a state of affairs at once possible and more desirable than the world in which i live. but this book has brought me back to imaginative writing again. in its two predecessors the treatment of social organisation had been purely objective; here my intention has been a little wider and deeper, in that i have tried to present not simply an ideal, but an ideal in reaction with two personalities. moreover, since this may be the last book of the kind i shall ever publish, i have written into it as well as i can the heretical metaphysical scepticism upon which all my thinking rests, and i have inserted certain sections reflecting upon the established methods of sociological and economic science.... the last four words will not attract the butterfly reader, i know. i have done my best to make the whole of this book as lucid and entertaining as its matter permits, because i want it read by as many people as possible, but i do not promise anything but rage and confusion to him who proposes to glance through my pages just to see if i agree with him, or to begin in the middle, or to read without a constantly alert attention. if you are not already a little interested and open-minded with regard to social and political questions, and a little exercised in self-examination, you will find neither interest nor pleasure here. if your mind is "made up" upon such issues your time will be wasted on these pages. and even if you are a willing reader you may require a little patience for the peculiar method i have this time adopted. that method assumes an air of haphazard, but it is not so careless as it seems. i believe it to be--even now that i am through with the book--the best way to a sort of lucid vagueness which has always been my intention in this matter. i tried over several beginnings of a utopian book before i adopted this. i rejected from the outset the form of the argumentative essay, the form which appeals most readily to what is called the "serious" reader, the reader who is often no more than the solemnly impatient parasite of great questions. he likes everything in hard, heavy lines, black and white, yes and no, because he does not understand how much there is that cannot be presented at all in that way; wherever there is any effect of obliquity, of incommensurables, wherever there is any levity or humour or difficulty of multiplex presentation, he refuses attention. mentally he seems to be built up upon an invincible assumption that the spirit of creation cannot count beyond two, he deals only in alternatives. such readers i have resolved not to attempt to please here. even if i presented all my tri-clinic crystals as systems of cubes----! indeed i felt it would not be worth doing. but having rejected the "serious" essay as a form, i was still greatly exercised, i spent some vacillating months, over the scheme of this book. i tried first a recognised method of viewing questions from divergent points that has always attracted me and which i have never succeeded in using, the discussion novel, after the fashion of peacock's (and mr. mallock's) development of the ancient dialogue; but this encumbered me with unnecessary characters and the inevitable complication of intrigue among them, and i abandoned it. after that i tried to cast the thing into a shape resembling a little the double personality of boswell's johnson, a sort of interplay between monologue and commentator; but that too, although it got nearer to the quality i sought, finally failed. then i hesitated over what one might call "hard narrative." it will be evident to the experienced reader that by omitting certain speculative and metaphysical elements and by elaborating incident, this book might have been reduced to a straightforward story. but i did not want to omit as much on this occasion. i do not see why i should always pander to the vulgar appetite for stark stories. and in short, i made it this. i explain all this in order to make it clear to the reader that, however queer this book appears at the first examination, it is the outcome of trial and deliberation, it is intended to be as it is. i am aiming throughout at a sort of shot-silk texture between philosophical discussion on the one hand and imaginative narrative on the other. h. g. wells. contents the owner of the voice chapter the first--topographical chapter the second--concerning freedoms chapter the third--utopian economics chapter the fourth--the voice of nature chapter the fifth--failure in a modern utopia chapter the sixth--women in a modern utopia chapter the seventh--a few utopian impressions chapter the eighth--my utopian self chapter the ninth--the samurai chapter the tenth--race in utopia chapter the eleventh--the bubble bursts appendix--scepticism of the instrument a modern utopia the owner of the voice there are works, and this is one of them, that are best begun with a portrait of the author. and here, indeed, because of a very natural misunderstanding this is the only course to take. throughout these papers sounds a note, a distinctive and personal note, a note that tends at times towards stridency; and all that is not, as these words are, in italics, is in one voice. now, this voice, and this is the peculiarity of the matter, is not to be taken as the voice of the ostensible author who fathers these pages. you have to clear your mind of any preconceptions in that respect. the owner of the voice you must figure to yourself as a whitish plump man, a little under the middle size and age, with such blue eyes as many irishmen have, and agile in his movements and with a slight tonsorial baldness--a penny might cover it--of the crown. his front is convex. he droops at times like most of us, but for the greater part he bears himself as valiantly as a sparrow. occasionally his hand flies out with a fluttering gesture of illustration. and his voice (which is our medium henceforth) is an unattractive tenor that becomes at times aggressive. him you must imagine as sitting at a table reading a manuscript about utopias, a manuscript he holds in two hands that are just a little fat at the wrist. the curtain rises upon him so. but afterwards, if the devices of this declining art of literature prevail, you will go with him through curious and interesting experiences. yet, ever and again, you will find him back at that little table, the manuscript in his hand, and the expansion of his ratiocinations about utopia conscientiously resumed. the entertainment before you is neither the set drama of the work of fiction you are accustomed to read, nor the set lecturing of the essay you are accustomed to evade, but a hybrid of these two. if you figure this owner of the voice as sitting, a little nervously, a little modestly, on a stage, with table, glass of water and all complete, and myself as the intrusive chairman insisting with a bland ruthlessness upon his "few words" of introduction before he recedes into the wings, and if furthermore you figure a sheet behind our friend on which moving pictures intermittently appear, and if finally you suppose his subject to be the story of the adventure of his soul among utopian inquiries, you will be prepared for some at least of the difficulties of this unworthy but unusual work. but over against this writer here presented, there is also another earthly person in the book, who gathers himself together into a distinct personality only after a preliminary complication with the reader. this person is spoken of as the botanist, and he is a leaner, rather taller, graver and much less garrulous man. his face is weakly handsome and done in tones of grey, he is fairish and grey-eyed, and you would suspect him of dyspepsia. it is a justifiable suspicion. men of this type, the chairman remarks with a sudden intrusion of exposition, are romantic with a shadow of meanness, they seek at once to conceal and shape their sensuous cravings beneath egregious sentimentalities, they get into mighty tangles and troubles with women, and he has had his troubles. you will hear of them, for that is the quality of his type. he gets no personal expression in this book, the voice is always that other's, but you gather much of the matter and something of the manner of his interpolations from the asides and the tenour of the voice. so much by way of portraiture is necessary to present the explorers of the modern utopia, which will unfold itself as a background to these two enquiring figures. the image of a cinematograph entertainment is the one to grasp. there will be an effect of these two people going to and fro in front of the circle of a rather defective lantern, which sometimes jams and sometimes gets out of focus, but which does occasionally succeed in displaying on a screen a momentary moving picture of utopian conditions. occasionally the picture goes out altogether, the voice argues and argues, and the footlights return, and then you find yourself listening again to the rather too plump little man at his table laboriously enunciating propositions, upon whom the curtain rises now. chapter the first topographical section the utopia of a modern dreamer must needs differ in one fundamental aspect from the nowheres and utopias men planned before darwin quickened the thought of the world. those were all perfect and static states, a balance of happiness won for ever against the forces of unrest and disorder that inhere in things. one beheld a healthy and simple generation enjoying the fruits of the earth in an atmosphere of virtue and happiness, to be followed by other virtuous, happy, and entirely similar generations, until the gods grew weary. change and development were dammed back by invincible dams for ever. but the modern utopia must be not static but kinetic, must shape not as a permanent state but as a hopeful stage, leading to a long ascent of stages. nowadays we do not resist and overcome the great stream of things, but rather float upon it. we build now not citadels, but ships of state. for one ordered arrangement of citizens rejoicing in an equality of happiness safe and assured to them and their children for ever, we have to plan "a flexible common compromise, in which a perpetually novel succession of individualities may converge most effectually upon a comprehensive onward development." that is the first, most generalised difference between a utopia based upon modern conceptions and all the utopias that were written in the former time. our business here is to be utopian, to make vivid and credible, if we can, first this facet and then that, of an imaginary whole and happy world. our deliberate intention is to be not, indeed, impossible, but most distinctly impracticable, by every scale that reaches only between to-day and to-morrow. we are to turn our backs for a space upon the insistent examination of the thing that is, and face towards the freer air, the ampler spaces of the thing that perhaps might be, to the projection of a state or city "worth while," to designing upon the sheet of our imaginations the picture of a life conceivably possible, and yet better worth living than our own. that is our present enterprise. we are going to lay down certain necessary starting propositions, and then we shall proceed to explore the sort of world these propositions give us.... it is no doubt an optimistic enterprise. but it is good for awhile to be free from the carping note that must needs be audible when we discuss our present imperfections, to release ourselves from practical difficulties and the tangle of ways and means. it is good to stop by the track for a space, put aside the knapsack, wipe the brows, and talk a little of the upper slopes of the mountain we think we are climbing, would but the trees let us see it. there is to be no inquiry here of policy and method. this is to be a holiday from politics and movements and methods. but for all that, we must needs define certain limitations. were we free to have our untrammelled desire, i suppose we should follow morris to his nowhere, we should change the nature of man and the nature of things together; we should make the whole race wise, tolerant, noble, perfect--wave our hands to a splendid anarchy, every man doing as it pleases him, and none pleased to do evil, in a world as good in its essential nature, as ripe and sunny, as the world before the fall. but that golden age, that perfect world, comes out into the possibilities of space and time. in space and time the pervading will to live sustains for evermore a perpetuity of aggressions. our proposal here is upon a more practical plane at least than that. we are to restrict ourselves first to the limitations of human possibility as we know them in the men and women of this world to-day, and then to all the inhumanity, all the insubordination of nature. we are to shape our state in a world of uncertain seasons, sudden catastrophes, antagonistic diseases, and inimical beasts and vermin, out of men and women with like passions, like uncertainties of mood and desire to our own. and, moreover, we are going to accept this world of conflict, to adopt no attitude of renunciation towards it, to face it in no ascetic spirit, but in the mood of the western peoples, whose purpose is to survive and overcome. so much we adopt in common with those who deal not in utopias, but in the world of here and now. certain liberties, however, following the best utopian precedents, we may take with existing fact. we assume that the tone of public thought may be entirely different from what it is in the present world. we permit ourselves a free hand with the mental conflict of life, within the possibilities of the human mind as we know it. we permit ourselves also a free hand with all the apparatus of existence that man has, so to speak, made for himself, with houses, roads, clothing, canals, machinery, with laws, boundaries, conventions, and traditions, with schools, with literature and religious organisation, with creeds and customs, with everything, in fact, that it lies within man's power to alter. that, indeed, is the cardinal assumption of all utopian speculations old and new; the republic and laws of plato, and more's utopia, howells' implicit altruria, and bellamy's future boston, comte's great western republic, hertzka's freeland, cabet's icaria, and campanella's city of the sun, are built, just as we shall build, upon that, upon the hypothesis of the complete emancipation of a community of men from tradition, from habits, from legal bonds, and that subtler servitude possessions entail. and much of the essential value of all such speculations lies in this assumption of emancipation, lies in that regard towards human freedom, in the undying interest of the human power of self-escape, the power to resist the causation of the past, and to evade, initiate, endeavour, and overcome. section there are very definite artistic limitations also. there must always be a certain effect of hardness and thinness about utopian speculations. their common fault is to be comprehensively jejune. that which is the blood and warmth and reality of life is largely absent; there are no individualities, but only generalised people. in almost every utopia--except, perhaps, morris's "news from nowhere"--one sees handsome but characterless buildings, symmetrical and perfect cultivations, and a multitude of people, healthy, happy, beautifully dressed, but without any personal distinction whatever. too often the prospect resembles the key to one of those large pictures of coronations, royal weddings, parliaments, conferences, and gatherings so popular in victorian times, in which, instead of a face, each figure bears a neat oval with its index number legibly inscribed. this burthens us with an incurable effect of unreality, and i do not see how it is altogether to be escaped. it is a disadvantage that has to be accepted. whatever institution has existed or exists, however irrational, however preposterous, has, by virtue of its contact with individualities, an effect of realness and rightness no untried thing may share. it has ripened, it has been christened with blood, it has been stained and mellowed by handling, it has been rounded and dented to the softened contours that we associate with life; it has been salted, maybe, in a brine of tears. but the thing that is merely proposed, the thing that is merely suggested, however rational, however necessary, seems strange and inhuman in its clear, hard, uncompromising lines, its unqualified angles and surfaces. there is no help for it, there it is! the master suffers with the last and least of his successors. for all the humanity he wins to, through his dramatic device of dialogue, i doubt if anyone has ever been warmed to desire himself a citizen in the republic of plato; i doubt if anyone could stand a month of the relentless publicity of virtue planned by more.... no one wants to live in any community of intercourse really, save for the sake of the individualities he would meet there. the fertilising conflict of individualities is the ultimate meaning of the personal life, and all our utopias no more than schemes for bettering that interplay. at least, that is how life shapes itself more and more to modern perceptions. until you bring in individualities, nothing comes into being, and a universe ceases when you shiver the mirror of the least of individual minds. section no less than a planet will serve the purpose of a modern utopia. time was when a mountain valley or an island seemed to promise sufficient isolation for a polity to maintain itself intact from outward force; the republic of plato stood armed ready for defensive war, and the new atlantis and the utopia of more in theory, like china and japan through many centuries of effectual practice, held themselves isolated from intruders. such late instances as butler's satirical "erewhon," and mr. stead's queendom of inverted sexual conditions in central africa, found the tibetan method of slaughtering the inquiring visitor a simple, sufficient rule. but the whole trend of modern thought is against the permanence of any such enclosures. we are acutely aware nowadays that, however subtly contrived a state may be, outside your boundary lines the epidemic, the breeding barbarian or the economic power, will gather its strength to overcome you. the swift march of invention is all for the invader. now, perhaps you might still guard a rocky coast or a narrow pass; but what of that near to-morrow when the flying machine soars overhead, free to descend at this point or that? a state powerful enough to keep isolated under modern conditions would be powerful enough to rule the world, would be, indeed, if not actively ruling, yet passively acquiescent in all other human organisations, and so responsible for them altogether. world-state, therefore, it must be. that leaves no room for a modern utopia in central africa, or in south america, or round about the pole, those last refuges of ideality. the floating isle of la cite morellyste no longer avails. we need a planet. lord erskine, the author of a utopia ("armata") that might have been inspired by mr. hewins, was the first of all utopists to perceive this--he joined his twin planets pole to pole by a sort of umbilical cord. but the modern imagination, obsessed by physics, must travel further than that. out beyond sirius, far in the deeps of space, beyond the flight of a cannon-ball flying for a billion years, beyond the range of unaided vision, blazes the star that is _our_ utopia's sun. to those who know where to look, with a good opera-glass aiding good eyes, it and three fellows that seem in a cluster with it--though they are incredible billions of miles nearer--make just the faintest speck of light. about it go planets, even as our planets, but weaving a different fate, and in its place among them is utopia, with its sister mate, the moon. it is a planet like our planet, the same continents, the same islands, the same oceans and seas, another fuji-yama is beautiful there dominating another yokohama--and another matterhorn overlooks the icy disorder of another theodule. it is so like our planet that a terrestrial botanist might find his every species there, even to the meanest pondweed or the remotest alpine blossom.... only when he had gathered that last and turned about to find his inn again, perhaps he would not find his inn! suppose now that two of us were actually to turn about in just that fashion. two, i think, for to face a strange planet, even though it be a wholly civilised one, without some other familiar backing, dashes the courage overmuch. suppose that we were indeed so translated even as we stood. you figure us upon some high pass in the alps, and though i--being one easily made giddy by stooping--am no botanist myself, if my companion were to have a specimen tin under his arm--so long as it is not painted that abominable popular swiss apple green--i would make it no occasion for quarrel! we have tramped and botanised and come to a rest, and, sitting among rocks, we have eaten our lunch and finished our bottle of yvorne, and fallen into a talk of utopias, and said such things as i have been saying. i could figure it myself upon that little neck of the lucendro pass, upon the shoulder of the piz lucendro, for there once i lunched and talked very pleasantly, and we are looking down upon the val bedretto, and villa and fontana and airolo try to hide from us under the mountain side--three-quarters of a mile they are vertically below. (lantern.) with that absurd nearness of effect one gets in the alps, we see the little train a dozen miles away, running down the biaschina to italy, and the lukmanier pass beyond piora left of us, and the san giacomo right, mere footpaths under our feet.... and behold! in the twinkling of an eye we are in that other world! we should scarcely note the change. not a cloud would have gone from the sky. it might be the remote town below would take a different air, and my companion the botanist, with his educated observation, might almost see as much, and the train, perhaps, would be gone out of the picture, and the embanked straightness of the ticino in the ambri-piotta meadows--that might be altered, but that would be all the visible change. yet i have an idea that in some obscure manner we should come to feel at once a difference in things. the botanist's glance would, under a subtle attraction, float back to airolo. "it's queer," he would say quite idly, "but i never noticed that building there to the right before." "which building?" "that to the right--with a queer sort of thing----" "i see now. yes. yes, it's certainly an odd-looking affair.... and big, you know! handsome! i wonder----" that would interrupt our utopian speculations. we should both discover that the little towns below had changed--but how, we should not have marked them well enough to know. it would be indefinable, a change in the quality of their grouping, a change in the quality of their remote, small shapes. i should flick a few crumbs from my knee, perhaps. "it's odd," i should say, for the tenth or eleventh time, with a motion to rise, and we should get up and stretch ourselves, and, still a little puzzled, turn our faces towards the path that clambers down over the tumbled rocks and runs round by the still clear lake and down towards the hospice of st. gotthard--if perchance we could still find that path. long before we got to that, before even we got to the great high road, we should have hints from the stone cabin in the nape of the pass--it would be gone or wonderfully changed--from the very goats upon the rocks, from the little hut by the rough bridge of stone, that a mighty difference had come to the world of men. and presently, amazed and amazing, we should happen on a man--no swiss--dressed in unfamiliar clothing and speaking an unfamiliar speech.... section before nightfall we should be drenched in wonders, but still we should have wonder left for the thing my companion, with his scientific training, would no doubt be the first to see. he would glance up, with that proprietary eye of the man who knows his constellations down to the little greek letters. i imagine his exclamation. he would at first doubt his eyes. i should inquire the cause of his consternation, and it would be hard to explain. he would ask me with a certain singularity of manner for "orion," and i should not find him; for the great bear, and it would have vanished. "where?" i should ask, and "where?" seeking among that scattered starriness, and slowly i should acquire the wonder that possessed him. then, for the first time, perhaps, we should realise from this unfamiliar heaven that not the world had changed, but ourselves--that we had come into the uttermost deeps of space. section we need suppose no linguistic impediments to intercourse. the whole world will surely have a common language, that is quite elementarily utopian, and since we are free of the trammels of convincing story-telling, we may suppose that language to be sufficiently our own to understand. indeed, should we be in utopia at all, if we could not talk to everyone? that accursed bar of language, that hostile inscription in the foreigner's eyes, "deaf and dumb to you, sir, and so--your enemy," is the very first of the defects and complications one has fled the earth to escape. but what sort of language would we have the world speak, if we were told the miracle of babel was presently to be reversed? if i may take a daring image, a mediaeval liberty, i would suppose that in this lonely place the spirit of creation spoke to us on this matter. "you are wise men," that spirit might say--and i, being a suspicious, touchy, over-earnest man for all my predisposition to plumpness, would instantly scent the irony (while my companion, i fancy, might even plume himself), "and to beget your wisdom is chiefly why the world was made. you are so good as to propose an acceleration of that tedious multitudinous evolution upon which i am engaged. i gather, a universal tongue would serve you there. while i sit here among these mountains--i have been filing away at them for this last aeon or so, just to attract your hotels, you know--will you be so kind----? a few hints----?" then the spirit of creation might transiently smile, a smile that would be like the passing of a cloud. all the mountain wilderness about us would be radiantly lit. (you know those swift moments, when warmth and brightness drift by, in lonely and desolate places.) yet, after all, why should two men be smiled into apathy by the infinite? here we are, with our knobby little heads, our eyes and hands and feet and stout hearts, and if not us or ours, still the endless multitudes about us and in our loins are to come at last to the world state and a greater fellowship and the universal tongue. let us to the extent of our ability, if not answer that question, at any rate try to think ourselves within sight of the best thing possible. that, after all, is our purpose, to imagine our best and strive for it, and it is a worse folly and a worse sin than presumption, to abandon striving because the best of all our bests looks mean amidst the suns. now you as a botanist would, i suppose, incline to something as they say, "scientific." you wince under that most offensive epithet--and i am able to give you my intelligent sympathy--though "pseudo-scientific" and "quasi-scientific" are worse by far for the skin. you would begin to talk of scientific languages, of esperanto, la langue bleue, new latin, volapuk, and lord lytton, of the philosophical language of archbishop whateley, lady welby's work upon significs and the like. you would tell me of the remarkable precisions, the encyclopaedic quality of chemical terminology, and at the word terminology i should insinuate a comment on that eminent american biologist, professor mark baldwin, who has carried the language biological to such heights of expressive clearness as to be triumphantly and invincibly unreadable. (which foreshadows the line of my defence.) you make your ideal clear, a scientific language you demand, without ambiguity, as precise as mathematical formulae, and with every term in relations of exact logical consistency with every other. it will be a language with all the inflexions of verbs and nouns regular and all its constructions inevitable, each word clearly distinguishable from every other word in sound as well as spelling. that, at any rate, is the sort of thing one hears demanded, and if only because the demand rests upon implications that reach far beyond the region of language, it is worth considering here. it implies, indeed, almost everything that we are endeavouring to repudiate in this particular work. it implies that the whole intellectual basis of mankind is established, that the rules of logic, the systems of counting and measurement, the general categories and schemes of resemblance and difference, are established for the human mind for ever--blank comte-ism, in fact, of the blankest description. but, indeed, the science of logic and the whole framework of philosophical thought men have kept since the days of plato and aristotle, has no more essential permanence as a final expression of the human mind, than the scottish longer catechism. amidst the welter of modern thought, a philosophy long lost to men rises again into being, like some blind and almost formless embryo, that must presently develop sight, and form, and power, a philosophy in which this assumption is denied. [footnote: the serious reader may refer at leisure to sidgwick's use of words in reasoning (particularly), and to bosanquet's essentials of logic, bradley's principles of logic, and sigwart's logik; the lighter minded may read and mark the temper of professor case in the british encyclopaedia, article logic (vol. xxx.). i have appended to his book a rude sketch of a philosophy upon new lines, originally read by me to the oxford phil. soc. in .] all through this utopian excursion, i must warn you, you shall feel the thrust and disturbance of that insurgent movement. in the reiterated use of "unique," you will, as it were, get the gleam of its integument; in the insistence upon individuality, and the individual difference as the significance of life, you will feel the texture of its shaping body. nothing endures, nothing is precise and certain (except the mind of a pedant), perfection is the mere repudiation of that ineluctable marginal inexactitude which is the mysterious inmost quality of being. being, indeed!--there is no being, but a universal becoming of individualities, and plato turned his back on truth when he turned towards his museum of specific ideals. heraclitus, that lost and misinterpreted giant, may perhaps be coming to his own.... there is no abiding thing in what we know. we change from weaker to stronger lights, and each more powerful light pierces our hitherto opaque foundations and reveals fresh and different opacities below. we can never foretell which of our seemingly assured fundamentals the next change will not affect. what folly, then, to dream of mapping out our minds in however general terms, of providing for the endless mysteries of the future a terminology and an idiom! we follow the vein, we mine and accumulate our treasure, but who can tell which way the vein may trend? language is the nourishment of the thought of man, that serves only as it undergoes metabolism, and becomes thought and lives, and in its very living passes away. you scientific people, with your fancy of a terrible exactitude in language, of indestructible foundations built, as that wordsworthian doggerel on the title-page of nature says, "for aye," are marvellously without imagination! the language of utopia will no doubt be one and indivisible; all mankind will, in the measure of their individual differences in quality, be brought into the same phase, into a common resonance of thought, but the language they will speak will still be a living tongue, an animated system of imperfections, which every individual man will infinitesimally modify. through the universal freedom of exchange and movement, the developing change in its general spirit will be a world-wide change; that is the quality of its universality. i fancy it will be a coalesced language, a synthesis of many. such a language as english is a coalesced language; it is a coalescence of anglo-saxon and norman french and scholar's latin, welded into one speech more ample and more powerful and beautiful than either. the utopian tongue might well present a more spacious coalescence, and hold in the frame of such an uninflected or slightly inflected idiom as english already presents, a profuse vocabulary into which have been cast a dozen once separate tongues, superposed and then welded together through bilingual and trilingual compromises. [footnote: vide an excellent article, la langue francaise en l'an , par leon bollack, in la revue, juillet, .] in the past ingenious men have speculated on the inquiry, "which language will survive?" the question was badly put. i think now that this wedding and survival of several in a common offspring is a far more probable thing. section this talk of languages, however, is a digression. we were on our way along the faint path that runs round the rim of the lake of lucendro, and we were just upon the point of coming upon our first utopian man. he was, i said, no swiss. yet he would have been a swiss on mother earth, and here he would have the same face, with some difference, maybe, in the expression; the same physique, though a little better developed, perhaps--the same complexion. he would have different habits, different traditions, different knowledge, different ideas, different clothing, and different appliances, but, except for all that, he would be the same man. we very distinctly provided at the outset that the modern utopia must have people inherently the same as those in the world. there is more, perhaps, in that than appears at the first suggestion. that proposition gives one characteristic difference between a modern utopia and almost all its predecessors. it is to be a world utopia, we have agreed, no less; and so we must needs face the fact that we are to have differences of race. even the lower class of plato's republic was not specifically of different race. but this is a utopia as wide as christian charity, and white and black, brown, red and yellow, all tints of skin, all types of body and character, will be there. how we are to adjust their differences is a master question, and the matter is not even to be opened in this chapter. it will need a whole chapter even to glance at its issues. but here we underline that stipulation; every race of this planet earth is to be found in the strictest parallelism there, in numbers the same--only, as i say, with an entirely different set of traditions, ideals, ideas, and purposes, and so moving under those different skies to an altogether different destiny. there follows a curious development of this to anyone clearly impressed by the uniqueness and the unique significance of individualities. races are no hard and fast things, no crowd of identically similar persons, but massed sub-races, and tribes and families, each after its kind unique, and these again are clusterings of still smaller uniques and so down to each several person. so that our first convention works out to this, that not only is every earthly mountain, river, plant, and beast in that parallel planet beyond sirius also, but every man, woman, and child alive has a utopian parallel. from now onward, of course, the fates of these two planets will diverge, men will die here whom wisdom will save there, and perhaps conversely here we shall save men; children will be born to them and not to us, to us and not to them, but this, this moment of reading, is the starting moment, and for the first and last occasion the populations of our planets are abreast. we must in these days make some such supposition. the alternative is a utopia of dolls in the likeness of angels--imaginary laws to fit incredible people, an unattractive undertaking. for example, we must assume there is a man such as i might have been, better informed, better disciplined, better employed, thinner and more active--and i wonder what he is doing!--and you, sir or madam, are in duplicate also, and all the men and women that you know and i. i doubt if we shall meet our doubles, or if it would be pleasant for us to do so; but as we come down from these lonely mountains to the roads and houses and living places of the utopian world-state, we shall certainly find, here and there, faces that will remind us singularly of those who have lived under our eyes. there are some you never wish to meet again, you say, and some, i gather, you do. "and one----!" it is strange, but this figure of the botanist will not keep in place. it sprang up between us, dear reader, as a passing illustrative invention. i do not know what put him into my head, and for the moment, it fell in with my humour for a space to foist the man's personality upon you as yours and call you scientific--that most abusive word. but here he is, indisputably, with me in utopia, and lapsing from our high speculative theme into halting but intimate confidences. he declares he has not come to utopia to meet again with his sorrows. what sorrows? i protest, even warmly, that neither he nor his sorrows were in my intention. he is a man, i should think, of thirty-nine, a man whose life has been neither tragedy nor a joyous adventure, a man with one of those faces that have gained interest rather than force or nobility from their commerce with life. he is something refined, with some knowledge, perhaps, of the minor pains and all the civil self-controls; he has read more than he has suffered, and suffered rather than done. he regards me with his blue-grey eye, from which all interest in this utopia has faded. "it is a trouble," he says, "that has come into my life only for a month or so--at least acutely again. i thought it was all over. there was someone----" it is an amazing story to hear upon a mountain crest in utopia, this hampstead affair, this story of a frognal heart. "frognal," he says, is the place where they met, and it summons to my memory the word on a board at the corner of a flint-dressed new road, an estate development road, with a vista of villas up a hill. he had known her before he got his professorship, and neither her "people" nor his--he speaks that detestable middle-class dialect in which aunts and things with money and the right of intervention are called "people"!--approved of the affair. "she was, i think, rather easily swayed," he says. "but that's not fair to her, perhaps. she thought too much of others. if they seemed distressed, or if they seemed to think a course right----" ... have i come to utopia to hear this sort of thing? section it is necessary to turn the botanist's thoughts into a worthier channel. it is necessary to override these modest regrets, this intrusive, petty love story. does he realise this is indeed utopia? turn your mind, i insist, to this utopia of mine, and leave these earthly troubles to their proper planet. do you realise just where the propositions necessary to a modern utopia are taking us? everyone on earth will have to be here;--themselves, but with a difference. somewhere here in this world is, for example, mr. chamberlain, and the king is here (no doubt incognito), and all the royal academy, and sandow, and mr. arnold white. but these famous names do not appeal to him. my mind goes from this prominent and typical personage to that, and for a time i forget my companion. i am distracted by the curious side issues this general proposition trails after it. there will be so-and-so, and so-and-so. the name and figure of mr. roosevelt jerks into focus, and obliterates an attempt to acclimatise the emperor of the germans. what, for instance, will utopia do with mr. roosevelt? there drifts across my inner vision the image of a strenuous struggle with utopian constables, the voice that has thrilled terrestrial millions in eloquent protest. the writ of arrest, drifting loose in the conflict, comes to my feet; i impale the scrap of paper, and read--but can it be?--"attempted disorganisation? ... incitements to disarrange? ... the balance of population?" the trend of my logic for once has led us into a facetious alley. one might indeed keep in this key, and write an agreeable little utopia, that like the holy families of the mediaeval artists (or michael angelo's last judgement) should compliment one's friends in various degrees. or one might embark upon a speculative treatment of the entire almanach de gotha, something on the lines of epistemon's vision of the damned great, when "xerxes was a crier of mustard. romulus was a salter and a patcher of patterns...." that incomparable catalogue! that incomparable catalogue! inspired by the muse of parody, we might go on to the pages of "who's who," and even, with an eye to the obdurate republic, to "who's who in america," and make the most delightful and extensive arrangements. now where shall we put this most excellent man? and this? ... but, indeed, it is doubtful if we shall meet any of these doubles during our utopian journey, or know them when we meet them. i doubt if anyone will be making the best of both these worlds. the great men in this still unexplored utopia may be but village hampdens in our own, and earthly goatherds and obscure illiterates sit here in the seats of the mighty. that again opens agreeable vistas left of us and right. but my botanist obtrudes his personality again. his thoughts have travelled by a different route. "i know," he says, "that she will be happier here, and that they will value her better than she has been valued upon earth." his interruption serves to turn me back from my momentary contemplation of those popular effigies inflated by old newspapers and windy report, the earthly great. he sets me thinking of more personal and intimate applications, of the human beings one knows with a certain approximation to real knowledge, of the actual common substance of life. he turns me to the thought of rivalries and tendernesses, of differences and disappointments. i am suddenly brought painfully against the things that might have been. what if instead of that utopia of vacant ovals we meet relinquished loves here, and opportunities lost and faces as they might have looked to us? i turn to my botanist almost reprovingly. "you know, she won't be quite the same lady here that you knew in frognal," i say, and wrest myself from a subject that is no longer agreeable by rising to my feet. "and besides," i say, standing above him, "the chances against our meeting her are a million to one.... and we loiter! this is not the business we have come upon, but a mere incidental kink in our larger plan. the fact remains, these people we have come to see are people with like infirmities to our own--and only the conditions are changed. let us pursue the tenour of our inquiry." with that i lead the way round the edge of the lake of lucendro towards our utopian world. (you figure him doing it.) down the mountain we shall go and down the passes, and as the valleys open the world will open, utopia, where men and women are happy and laws are wise, and where all that is tangled and confused in human affairs has been unravelled and made right. chapter the second concerning freedoms section now what sort of question would first occur to two men descending upon the planet of a modern utopia? probably grave solicitude about their personal freedom. towards the stranger, as i have already remarked, the utopias of the past displayed their least amiable aspect. would this new sort of utopian state, spread to the dimensions of a world, be any less forbidding? we should take comfort in the thought that universal toleration is certainly a modern idea, and it is upon modern ideas that this world state rests. but even suppose we are tolerated and admitted to this unavoidable citizenship, there will still remain a wide range of possibility.... i think we should try to work the problem out from an inquiry into first principles, and that we should follow the trend of our time and kind by taking up the question as one of "man versus the state," and discussing the compromise of liberty. the idea of individual liberty is one that has grown in importance and grows with every development of modern thought. to the classical utopists freedom was relatively trivial. clearly they considered virtue and happiness as entirely separable from liberty, and as being altogether more important things. but the modern view, with its deepening insistence upon individuality and upon the significance of its uniqueness, steadily intensifies the value of freedom, until at last we begin to see liberty as the very substance of life, that indeed it is life, and that only the dead things, the choiceless things, live in absolute obedience to law. to have free play for one's individuality is, in the modern view, the subjective triumph of existence, as survival in creative work and offspring is its objective triumph. but for all men, since man is a social creature, the play of will must fall short of absolute freedom. perfect human liberty is possible only to a despot who is absolutely and universally obeyed. then to will would be to command and achieve, and within the limits of natural law we could at any moment do exactly as it pleased us to do. all other liberty is a compromise between our own freedom of will and the wills of those with whom we come in contact. in an organised state each one of us has a more or less elaborate code of what he may do to others and to himself, and what others may do to him. he limits others by his rights, and is limited by the rights of others, and by considerations affecting the welfare of the community as a whole. individual liberty in a community is not, as mathematicians would say, always of the same sign. to ignore this is the essential fallacy of the cult called individualism. but in truth, a general prohibition in a state may increase the sum of liberty, and a general permission may diminish it. it does not follow, as these people would have us believe, that a man is more free where there is least law and more restricted where there is most law. a socialism or a communism is not necessarily a slavery, and there is no freedom under anarchy. consider how much liberty we gain by the loss of the common liberty to kill. thereby one may go to and fro in all the ordered parts of the earth, unencumbered by arms or armour, free of the fear of playful poison, whimsical barbers, or hotel trap-doors. indeed, it means freedom from a thousand fears and precautions. suppose there existed even the limited freedom to kill in vendetta, and think what would happen in our suburbs. consider the inconvenience of two households in a modern suburb estranged and provided with modern weapons of precision, the inconvenience not only to each other, but to the neutral pedestrian, the practical loss of freedoms all about them. the butcher, if he came at all, would have to come round in an armoured cart.... it follows, therefore, in a modern utopia, which finds the final hope of the world in the evolving interplay of unique individualities, that the state will have effectually chipped away just all those spendthrift liberties that waste liberty, and not one liberty more, and so have attained the maximum general freedom. there are two distinct and contrasting methods of limiting liberty; the first is prohibition, "thou shalt not," and the second command, "thou shalt." there is, however, a sort of prohibition that takes the form of a conditional command, and this one needs to bear in mind. it says if you do so-and-so, you must also do so-and-so; if, for example, you go to sea with men you employ, you must go in a seaworthy vessel. but the pure command is unconditional; it says, whatever you have done or are doing or want to do, you are to do this, as when the social system, working through the base necessities of base parents and bad laws, sends a child of thirteen into a factory. prohibition takes one definite thing from the indefinite liberty of a man, but it still leaves him an unbounded choice of actions. he remains free, and you have merely taken a bucketful from the sea of his freedom. but compulsion destroys freedom altogether. in this utopia of ours there may be many prohibitions, but no indirect compulsions--if one may so contrive it--and few or no commands. as far as i see it now, in this present discussion, i think, indeed, there should be no positive compulsions at all in utopia, at any rate for the adult utopian--unless they fall upon him as penalties incurred. section what prohibitions should we be under, we two uitlanders in this utopian world? we should certainly not be free to kill, assault, or threaten anyone we met, and in that we earth-trained men would not be likely to offend. and until we knew more exactly the utopian idea of property we should be very chary of touching anything that might conceivably be appropriated. if it was not the property of individuals it might be the property of the state. but beyond that we might have our doubts. are we right in wearing the strange costumes we do, in choosing the path that pleases us athwart this rock and turf, in coming striding with unfumigated rucksacks and snow-wet hobnails into what is conceivably an extremely neat and orderly world? we have passed our first utopian now, with an answered vague gesture, and have noted, with secret satisfaction, there is no access of dismay; we have rounded a bend, and down the valley in the distance we get a glimpse of what appears to be a singularly well-kept road.... i submit that to the modern minded man it can be no sort of utopia worth desiring that does not give the utmost freedom of going to and fro. free movement is to many people one of the greatest of life's privileges--to go wherever the spirit moves them, to wander and see--and though they have every comfort, every security, every virtuous discipline, they will still be unhappy if that is denied them. short of damage to things cherished and made, the utopians will surely have this right, so we may expect no unclimbable walls and fences, nor the discovery of any laws we may transgress in coming down these mountain places. and yet, just as civil liberty itself is a compromise defended by prohibitions, so this particular sort of liberty must also have its qualifications. carried to the absolute pitch the right of free movement ceases to be distinguishable from the right of free intrusion. we have already, in a comment on more's utopia, hinted at an agreement with aristotle's argument against communism, that it flings people into an intolerable continuity of contact. schopenhauer carried out aristotle in the vein of his own bitterness and with the truest of images when he likened human society to hedgehogs clustering for warmth, and unhappy when either too closely packed or too widely separated. empedocles found no significance in life whatever except as an unsteady play of love and hate, of attraction and repulsion, of assimilation and the assertion of difference. so long as we ignore difference, so long as we ignore individuality, and that i hold has been the common sin of all utopias hitherto, we can make absolute statements, prescribe communisms or individualisms, and all sorts of hard theoretic arrangements. but in the world of reality, which--to modernise heraclitus and empedocles--is nothing more nor less than the world of individuality, there are no absolute rights and wrongs, there are no qualitative questions at all, but only quantitative adjustments. equally strong in the normal civilised man is the desire for freedom of movement and the desire for a certain privacy, for a corner definitely his, and we have to consider where the line of reconciliation comes. the desire for absolute personal privacy is perhaps never a very strong or persistent craving. in the great majority of human beings, the gregarious instinct is sufficiently powerful to render any but the most temporary isolations not simply disagreeable, but painful. the savage has all the privacy he needs within the compass of his skull; like dogs and timid women, he prefers ill-treatment to desertion, and it is only a scarce and complex modern type that finds comfort and refreshment in quite lonely places and quite solitary occupations. yet such there are, men who can neither sleep well nor think well, nor attain to a full perception of beautiful objects, who do not savour the best of existence until they are securely alone, and for the sake of these even it would be reasonable to draw some limits to the general right of free movement. but their particular need is only a special and exceptional aspect of an almost universal claim to privacy among modern people, not so much for the sake of isolation as for congenial companionship. we want to go apart from the great crowd, not so much to be alone as to be with those who appeal to us particularly and to whom we particularly appeal; we want to form households and societies with them, to give our individualities play in intercourse with them, and in the appointments and furnishings of that intercourse. we want gardens and enclosures and exclusive freedoms for our like and our choice, just as spacious as we can get them--and it is only the multitudinous uncongenial, anxious also for similar developments in some opposite direction, that checks this expansive movement of personal selection and necessitates a compromise on privacy. glancing back from our utopian mountain side down which this discourse marches, to the confusions of old earth, we may remark that the need and desire for privacies there is exceptionally great at the present time, that it was less in the past, that in the future it may be less again, and that under the utopian conditions to which we shall come when presently we strike yonder road, it may be reduced to quite manageable dimensions. but this is to be effected not by the suppression of individualities to some common pattern, [footnote: more's utopia. "whoso will may go in, for there is nothing within the houses that is private or anie man's owne."] but by the broadening of public charity and the general amelioration of mind and manners. it is not by assimilation, that is to say, but by understanding that the modern utopia achieves itself. the ideal community of man's past was one with a common belief, with common customs and common ceremonies, common manners and common formulae; men of the same society dressed in the same fashion, each according to his defined and understood grade, behaved in the same fashion, loved, worshipped, and died in the same fashion. they did or felt little that did not find a sympathetic publicity. the natural disposition of all peoples, white, black, or brown, a natural disposition that education seeks to destroy, is to insist upon uniformity, to make publicity extremely unsympathetic to even the most harmless departures from the code. to be dressed "odd," to behave "oddly," to eat in a different manner or of different food, to commit, indeed, any breach of the established convention is to give offence and to incur hostility among unsophisticated men. but the disposition of the more original and enterprising minds at all times has been to make such innovations. this is particularly in evidence in this present age. the almost cataclysmal development of new machinery, the discovery of new materials, and the appearance of new social possibilities through the organised pursuit of material science, has given enormous and unprecedented facilities to the spirit of innovation. the old local order has been broken up or is now being broken up all over the earth, and everywhere societies deliquesce, everywhere men are afloat amidst the wreckage of their flooded conventions, and still tremendously unaware of the thing that has happened. the old local orthodoxies of behaviour, of precedence, the old accepted amusements and employments, the old ritual of conduct in the important small things of the daily life and the old ritual of thought in the things that make discussion, are smashed up and scattered and mixed discordantly together, one use with another, and no world-wide culture of toleration, no courteous admission of differences, no wider understanding has yet replaced them. and so publicity in the modern earth has become confusedly unsympathetic for everyone. classes are intolerable to classes and sets to sets, contact provokes aggressions, comparisons, persecutions and discomforts, and the subtler people are excessively tormented by a sense of observation, unsympathetic always and often hostile. to live without some sort of segregation from the general mass is impossible in exact proportion to one's individual distinction. of course things will be very different in utopia. utopia will be saturated with consideration. to us, clad as we are in mountain-soiled tweeds and with no money but british bank-notes negotiable only at a practically infinite distance, this must needs be a reassuring induction. and utopian manners will not only be tolerant, but almost universally tolerable. endless things will be understood perfectly and universally that on earth are understood only by a scattered few; baseness of bearing, grossness of manner, will be the distinctive mark of no section of the community whatever. the coarser reasons for privacy, therefore, will not exist here. and that savage sort of shyness, too, that makes so many half-educated people on earth recluse and defensive, that too the utopians will have escaped by their more liberal breeding. in the cultivated state we are assuming it will be ever so much easier for people to eat in public, rest and amuse themselves in public, and even work in public. our present need for privacy in many things marks, indeed, a phase of transition from an ease in public in the past due to homogeneity, to an ease in public in the future due to intelligence and good breeding, and in utopia that transition will be complete. we must bear that in mind throughout the consideration of this question. yet, after this allowance has been made, there still remains a considerable claim for privacy in utopia. the room, or apartments, or home, or mansion, whatever it may be a man or woman maintains, must be private, and under his or her complete dominion; it seems harsh and intrusive to forbid a central garden plot or peristyle, such as one sees in pompeii, within the house walls, and it is almost as difficult to deny a little private territory beyond the house. yet if we concede that, it is clear that without some further provision we concede the possibility that the poorer townsman (if there are to be rich and poor in the world) will be forced to walk through endless miles of high fenced villa gardens before he may expand in his little scrap of reserved open country. such is already the poor londoner's miserable fate.... our utopia will have, of course, faultless roads and beautifully arranged inter-urban communications, swift trains or motor services or what not, to diffuse its population, and without some anticipatory provisions, the prospect of the residential areas becoming a vast area of defensively walled villa edens is all too possible. this is a quantitative question, be it remembered, and not to be dismissed by any statement of principle. our utopians will meet it, i presume, by detailed regulations, very probably varying locally with local conditions. privacy beyond the house might be made a privilege to be paid for in proportion to the area occupied, and the tax on these licences of privacy might increase as the square of the area affected. a maximum fraction of private enclosure for each urban and suburban square mile could be fixed. a distinction could be drawn between an absolutely private garden and a garden private and closed only for a day or a couple of days a week, and at other times open to the well-behaved public. who, in a really civilised community, would grudge that measure of invasion? walls could be taxed by height and length, and the enclosure of really natural beauties, of rapids, cascades, gorges, viewpoints, and so forth made impossible. so a reasonable compromise between the vital and conflicting claims of the freedom of movement and the freedom of seclusion might be attained.... and as we argue thus we draw nearer and nearer to the road that goes up and over the gotthard crest and down the val tremola towards italy. what sort of road would that be? section freedom of movement in a utopia planned under modern conditions must involve something more than unrestricted pedestrian wanderings, and the very proposition of a world-state speaking one common tongue carries with it the idea of a world population travelled and travelling to an extent quite beyond anything our native earth has seen. it is now our terrestrial experience that whenever economic and political developments set a class free to travel, that class at once begins to travel; in england, for example, above the five or six hundred pounds a year level, it is hard to find anyone who is not habitually migratory, who has not been frequently, as people say, "abroad." in the modern utopia travel must be in the common texture of life. to go into fresh climates and fresh scenery, to meet a different complexion of humanity and a different type of home and food and apparatus, to mark unfamiliar trees and plants and flowers and beasts, to climb mountains, to see the snowy night of the north and the blaze of the tropical midday, to follow great rivers, to taste loneliness in desert places, to traverse the gloom of tropical forests and to cross the high seas, will be an essential part of the reward and adventure of life, even for the commonest people.... this is a bright and pleasant particular in which a modern utopia must differ again, and differ diametrically, from its predecessors. we may conclude from what has been done in places upon our earth that the whole utopian world will be open and accessible and as safe for the wayfarer as france or england is to-day. the peace of the world will be established for ever, and everywhere, except in remote and desolate places, there will be convenient inns, at least as convenient and trustworthy as those of switzerland to-day; the touring clubs and hotel associations that have tariffed that country and france so effectually will have had their fine utopian equivalents, and the whole world will be habituated to the coming and going of strangers. the greater part of the world will be as secure and cheaply and easily accessible to everyone as is zermatt or lucerne to a western european of the middle-class at the present time. on this account alone no places will be so congested as these two are now on earth. with freedom to go everywhere, with easy access everywhere, with no dread of difficulties about language, coinage, custom, or law, why should everyone continue to go to just a few special places? such congestions are merely the measure of the general inaccessibility and insecurity and costliness of contemporary life, an awkward transitory phase in the first beginnings of the travel age of mankind. no doubt the utopian will travel in many ways. it is unlikely there will be any smoke-disgorging steam railway trains in utopia, they are already doomed on earth, already threatened with that obsolescence that will endear them to the ruskins of to-morrow, but a thin spider's web of inconspicuous special routes will cover the land of the world, pierce the mountain masses and tunnel under the seas. these may be double railways or monorails or what not--we are no engineers to judge between such devices--but by means of them the utopian will travel about the earth from one chief point to another at a speed of two or three hundred miles or more an hour. that will abolish the greater distances.... one figures these main communications as something after the manner of corridor trains, smooth-running and roomy, open from end to end, with cars in which one may sit and read, cars in which one may take refreshment, cars into which the news of the day comes printing itself from the wires beside the track; cars in which one may have privacy and sleep if one is so disposed, bath-room cars, library cars; a train as comfortable as a good club. there will be no distinctions of class in such a train, because in a civilised world there would be no offence between one kind of man and another, and for the good of the whole world such travelling will be as cheap as it can be, and well within the reach of any but the almost criminally poor. such great tramways as this will be used when the utopians wish to travel fast and far; thereby you will glide all over the land surface of the planet; and feeding them and distributing from them, innumerable minor systems, clean little electric tramways i picture them, will spread out over the land in finer reticulations, growing close and dense in the urban regions and thinning as the population thins. and running beside these lighter railways, and spreading beyond their range, will be the smooth minor high roads such as this one we now approach, upon which independent vehicles, motor cars, cycles, and what not, will go. i doubt if we shall see any horses upon this fine, smooth, clean road; i doubt if there will be many horses on the high roads of utopia, and, indeed, if they will use draught horses at all upon that planet. why should they? where the world gives turf or sand, or along special tracts, the horse will perhaps be ridden for exercise and pleasure, but that will be all the use for him; and as for the other beasts of burthen, on the remoter mountain tracks the mule will no doubt still be a picturesque survival, in the desert men will still find a use for the camel, and the elephant may linger to play a part in the pageant of the east. but the burthen of the minor traffic, if not the whole of it, will certainly be mechanical. this is what we shall see even while the road is still remote, swift and shapely motor-cars going past, cyclists, and in these agreeable mountain regions there will also be pedestrians upon their way. cycle tracks will abound in utopia, sometimes following beside the great high roads, but oftener taking their own more agreeable line amidst woods and crops and pastures; and there will be a rich variety of footpaths and minor ways. there will be many footpaths in utopia. there will be pleasant ways over the scented needles of the mountain pinewoods, primrose-strewn tracks amidst the budding thickets of the lower country, paths running beside rushing streams, paths across the wide spaces of the corn land, and, above all, paths through the flowery garden spaces amidst which the houses in the towns will stand. and everywhere about the world, on road and path, by sea and land, the happy holiday utopians will go. the population of utopia will be a migratory population beyond any earthly precedent, not simply a travelling population, but migratory. the old utopias were all localised, as localised as a parish councillor; but it is manifest that nowadays even quite ordinary people live over areas that would have made a kingdom in those former days, would have filled the athenian of the laws with incredulous astonishment. except for the habits of the very rich during the roman empire, there was never the slightest precedent for this modern detachment from place. it is nothing to us that we go eighty or ninety miles from home to place of business, or take an hour's spin of fifty miles to our week-end golf; every summer it has become a fixed custom to travel wide and far. only the clumsiness of communications limit us now, and every facilitation of locomotion widens not only our potential, but our habitual range. not only this, but we change our habitations with a growing frequency and facility; to sir thomas more we should seem a breed of nomads. that old fixity was of necessity and not of choice, it was a mere phase in the development of civilisation, a trick of rooting man learnt for a time from his new-found friends, the corn and the vine and the hearth; the untamed spirit of the young has turned for ever to wandering and the sea. the soul of man has never yet in any land been willingly adscript to the glebe. even mr. belloc, who preaches the happiness of a peasant proprietary, is so much wiser than his thoughts that he sails about the seas in a little yacht or goes afoot from belgium to rome. we are winning our freedom again once more, a freedom renewed and enlarged, and there is now neither necessity nor advantage in a permanent life servitude to this place or that. men may settle down in our modern utopia for love and the family at last, but first and most abundantly they will see the world. and with this loosening of the fetters of locality from the feet of men, necessarily there will be all sorts of fresh distributions of the factors of life. on our own poor haphazard earth, wherever men work, wherever there are things to be grown, minerals to be won, power to be used, there, regardless of all the joys and decencies of life, the households needs must cluster. but in utopia there will be wide stretches of cheerless or unhealthy or toilsome or dangerous land with never a household; there will be regions of mining and smelting, black with the smoke of furnaces and gashed and desolated by mines, with a sort of weird inhospitable grandeur of industrial desolation, and the men will come thither and work for a spell and return to civilisation again, washing and changing their attire in the swift gliding train. and by way of compensation there will be beautiful regions of the earth specially set apart and favoured for children; in them the presence of children will remit taxation, while in other less wholesome places the presence of children will be taxed; the lower passes and fore hills of these very alps, for example, will be populous with homes, serving the vast arable levels of upper italy. so we shall see, as we come down by our little lake in the lap of lucendro, and even before we reach the road, the first scattered chalets and households in which these migrant people live, the upper summer homes. with the coming of summer, as the snows on the high alps recede, a tide of households and schools, teachers and doctors, and all such attendant services will flow up the mountain masses, and ebb again when the september snows return. it is essential to the modern ideal of life that the period of education and growth should be prolonged to as late a period as possible and puberty correspondingly retarded, and by wise regulation the statesmen of utopia will constantly adjust and readjust regulations and taxation to diminish the proportion of children reared in hot and stimulating conditions. these high mountains will, in the bright sweet summer, be populous with youth. even up towards this high place where the snow is scarce gone until july, these households will extend, and below, the whole long valley of urseren will be a scattered summer town. one figures one of the more urban highways, one of those along which the light railways of the second order run, such as that in the valley of urseren, into which we should presently come. i figure it as one would see it at night, a band a hundred yards perhaps in width, the footpath on either side shaded with high trees and lit softly with orange glowlights; while down the centre the tramway of the road will go, with sometimes a nocturnal tram-car gliding, lit and gay but almost noiselessly, past. lantern-lit cyclists will flit along the track like fireflies, and ever and again some humming motor-car will hurry by, to or from the rhoneland or the rhineland or switzerland or italy. away on either side the lights of the little country homes up the mountain slopes will glow. i figure it at night, because so it is we should see it first. we should come out from our mountain valley into the minor road that runs down the lonely rock wilderness of the san gotthard pass, we should descend that nine miles of winding route, and so arrive towards twilight among the clustering homes and upland unenclosed gardens of realp and hospenthal and andermatt. between realp and andermatt, and down the schoellenen gorge, the greater road would run. by the time we reached it, we should be in the way of understanding our adventure a little better. we should know already, when we saw those two familiar clusters of chalets and hotels replaced by a great dispersed multitude of houses--we should see their window lights, but little else--that we were the victims of some strange transition in space or time, and we should come down by dimly-seen buildings into the part that would answer to hospenthal, wondering and perhaps a little afraid. we should come out into this great main roadway--this roadway like an urban avenue--and look up it and down, hesitating whether to go along the valley furka-ward, or down by andermatt through the gorge that leads to goschenen.... people would pass us in the twilight, and then more people; we should see they walked well and wore a graceful, unfamiliar dress, but more we should not distinguish. "good-night!" they would say to us in clear, fine voices. their dim faces would turn with a passing scrutiny towards us. we should answer out of our perplexity: "good-night!"--for by the conventions established in the beginning of this book, we are given the freedom of their tongue. section were this a story, i should tell at length how much we were helped by the good fortune of picking up a utopian coin of gold, how at last we adventured into the utopian inn and found it all marvellously easy. you see us the shyest and most watchful of guests; but of the food they put before us and the furnishings of the house, and all our entertainment, it will be better to speak later. we are in a migratory world, we know, one greatly accustomed to foreigners; our mountain clothes are not strange enough to attract acute attention, though ill-made and shabby, no doubt, by utopian standards; we are dealt with as we might best wish to be dealt with, that is to say as rather untidy, inconspicuous men. we look about us and watch for hints and examples, and, indeed, get through with the thing. and after our queer, yet not unpleasant, dinner, in which we remark no meat figures, we go out of the house for a breath of air and for quiet counsel one with another, and there it is we discover those strange constellations overhead. it comes to us then, clear and full, that our imagination has realised itself; we dismiss quite finally a rip-van-winkle fancy we have entertained, all the unfamiliarities of our descent from the mountain pass gather together into one fullness of conviction, and we know, we know, we are in utopia. we wander under the trees by the main road, watching the dim passers-by as though they were the phantoms of a dream. we say little to one another. we turn aside into a little pathway and come to a bridge over the turbulent reuss, hurrying down towards the devil's bridge in the gorge below. far away over the furka ridge a pallid glow preludes the rising of the moon. two lovers pass us whispering, and we follow them with our eyes. this utopia has certainly preserved the fundamental freedom, to love. and then a sweet-voiced bell from somewhere high up towards oberalp chimes two-and-twenty times. i break the silence. "that might mean ten o'clock," i say. my companion leans upon the bridge and looks down into the dim river below. i become aware of the keen edge of the moon like a needle of incandescent silver creeping over the crest, and suddenly the river is alive with flashes. he speaks, and astonishes me with the hidden course his thoughts have taken. "we two were boy and girl lovers like that," he says, and jerks a head at the receding utopians. "i loved her first, and i do not think i have ever thought of loving anyone but her." it is a curiously human thing, and, upon my honour, not one i had designed, that when at last i stand in the twilight in the midst of a utopian township, when my whole being should be taken up with speculative wonder, this man should be standing by my side, and lugging my attention persistently towards himself, towards his limited futile self. this thing perpetually happens to me, this intrusion of something small and irrelevant and alive, upon my great impressions. the time i first saw the matterhorn, that queen among the alpine summits, i was distracted beyond appreciation by the tale of a man who could not eat sardines--always sardines did this with him and that; and my first wanderings along the brown streets of pompeii, an experience i had anticipated with a strange intensity, was shot with the most stupidly intelligent discourse on vehicular tariffs in the chief capitals of europe that it is possible to imagine. and now this man, on my first night in utopia, talks and talks and talks of his poor little love affair. it shapes itself as the most trite and feeble of tragedies, one of those stories of effortless submission to chance and custom in which mr. hardy or george gissing might have found a theme. i do but half listen at first--watching the black figures in the moonlit roadway pacing to and fro. yet--i cannot trace how he conveys the subtle conviction to my mind--the woman he loves is beautiful. they were boy and girl together, and afterwards they met again as fellow students in a world of comfortable discretions. he seems to have taken the decorums of life with a confiding good faith, to have been shy and innocent in a suppressed sort of way, and of a mental type not made for worldly successes; but he must have dreamt about her and loved her well enough. how she felt for him i could never gather; it seemed to be all of that fleshless friendliness into which we train our girls. then abruptly happened stresses. the man who became her husband appeared, with a very evident passion. he was a year or so older than either of them, and he had the habit and quality of achieving his ends; he was already successful, and with the promise of wealth, and i, at least, perceived, from my botanist's phrasing, that his desire was for her beauty. as my botanist talked i seemed to see the whole little drama, rather clearer than his words gave it me, the actors all absurdly in hampstead middle-class raiment, meetings of a sunday after church (the men in silk hats, frock coats, and tightly-rolled umbrellas), rare excursions into evening dress, the decorously vulgar fiction read in their homes, its ambling sentimentalities of thought, the amiably worldly mothers, the respectable fathers, the aunts, the "people"--his "people" and her "people"--the piano music and the song, and in this setting our friend, "quite clever" at botany and "going in" for it "as a profession," and the girl, gratuitously beautiful; so i figured the arranged and orderly environment into which this claw of an elemental force had thrust itself to grip. the stranger who had come in got what he wanted; the girl considered that she thought she had never loved the botanist, had had only friendship for him--though little she knew of the meaning of those fine words--they parted a little incoherently and in tears, and it had not occurred to the young man to imagine she was not going off to conventional life in some other of the endless frognals he imagined as the cellular tissue of the world. but she wasn't. he had kept her photograph and her memory sweet, and if ever he had strayed from the severest constancy, it seemed only in the end to strengthen with the stuff of experience, to enhance by comparative disappointment his imagination of what she might have meant to him.... then eight years afterwards they met again. by the time he gets to this part of his story we have, at my initiative, left the bridge and are walking towards the utopian guest house. the utopian guest house! his voice rises and falls, and sometimes he holds my arm. my attention comes and goes. "good-night," two sweet-voiced utopians cry to us in their universal tongue, and i answer them "good-night." "you see," he persists, "i saw her only a week ago. it was in lucerne, while i was waiting for you to come on from england. i talked to her three or four times altogether. and her face--the change in her! i can't get it out of my head--night or day. the miserable waste of her...." before us, through the tall pine stems, shine the lights of our utopian inn. he talks vaguely of ill-usage. "the husband is vain, boastful, dishonest to the very confines of the law, and a drunkard. there are scenes and insults----" "she told you?" "not much, but someone else did. he brings other women almost into her presence to spite her." "and it's going on?" i interrupt. "yes. _now_." "need it go on?" "what do you mean?" "lady in trouble," i say. "knight at hand. why not stop this dismal grizzling and carry her off?" (you figure the heroic sweep of the arm that belongs to the voice.) i positively forget for the moment that we are in utopia at all. "you mean?" "take her away from him! what's all this emotion of yours worth if it isn't equal to that!" positively he seems aghast at me. "do you mean elope with her?" "it seems a most suitable case." for a space he is silent, and we go on through the trees. a utopian tram-car passes and i see his face, poor bitted wretch! looking pinched and scared in its trailing glow of light. "that's all very well in a novel," he says. "but how could i go back to my laboratory, mixed classes with young ladies, you know, after a thing like that? how could we live and where could we live? we might have a house in london, but who would call upon us? ... besides, you don't know her. she is not the sort of woman.... don't think i'm timid or conventional. don't think i don't feel.... feel! _you_ don't know what it is to feel in a case of this sort...." he halts and then flies out viciously: "ugh! there are times when i could strangle him with my hands." which is nonsense. he flings out his lean botanising hands in an impotent gesture. "my dear man!" i say, and say no more. for a moment i forget we are in utopia altogether. section let us come back to utopia. we were speaking of travel. besides roadways and railways and tramways, for those who go to and fro in the earth the modern utopians will have very many other ways of travelling. there will be rivers, for example, with a vast variety of boats; canals with diverse sorts of haulage; there will be lakes and lagoons; and when one comes at last to the borders of the land, the pleasure craft will be there, coming and going, and the swift great passenger vessels, very big and steady, doing thirty knots an hour or more, will trace long wakes as they go dwindling out athwart the restless vastness of the sea. they will be just beginning to fly in utopia. we owe much to m. santos dumont; the world is immeasurably more disposed to believe this wonder is coming, and coming nearly, than it was five years ago. but unless we are to suppose utopian scientific knowledge far in advance of ours--and though that supposition was not proscribed in our initial undertaking, it would be inconvenient for us and not quite in the vein of the rest of our premises--they, too, will only be in the same experimental stage as ourselves. in utopia, however, they will conduct research by the army corps while we conduct it--we don't conduct it! we let it happen. fools make researches and wise men exploit them--that is our earthly way of dealing with the question, and we thank heaven for an assumed abundance of financially impotent and sufficiently ingenious fools. in utopia, a great multitude of selected men, chosen volunteers, will be collaborating upon this new step in man's struggle with the elements. bacon's visionary house of saloman [footnote: in the new atlantis.] will be a thing realised, and it will be humming with this business. every university in the world will be urgently working for priority in this aspect of the problem or that. reports of experiments, as full and as prompt as the telegraphic reports of cricket in our more sportive atmosphere, will go about the world. all this will be passing, as it were, behind the act drop of our first experience, behind this first picture of the urbanised urseren valley. the literature of the subject will be growing and developing with the easy swiftness of an eagle's swoop as we come down the hillside; unseen in that twilight, unthought of by us until this moment, a thousand men at a thousand glowing desks, a busy specialist press, will be perpetually sifting, criticising, condensing, and clearing the ground for further speculation. those who are concerned with the problems of public locomotion will be following these aeronautic investigations with a keen and enterprising interest, and so will the physiologist and the sociologist. that utopian research will, i say, go like an eagle's swoop in comparison with the blind-man's fumbling of our terrestrial way. even before our own brief utopian journey is out, we may get a glimpse of the swift ripening of all this activity that will be in progress at our coming. to-morrow, perhaps, or in a day or so, some silent, distant thing will come gliding into view over the mountains, will turn and soar and pass again beyond our astonished sight.... section but my friend and his great trouble turn my mind from these questions of locomotion and the freedoms that cluster about them. in spite of myself i find myself framing his case. he is a lover, the most conventional of anglican lovers, with a heart that has had its training, i should think, in the clean but limited schoolroom of mrs. henry wood.... in utopia i think they will fly with stronger pinions, it will not be in the superficialities of life merely that movement will be wide and free, they will mount higher and swoop more steeply than he in his cage can believe. what will their range be, their prohibitions? what jars to our preconceptions will he and i receive here? my mind flows with the free, thin flow that it has at the end of an eventful day, and as we walk along in silence towards our inn i rove from issue to issue, i find myself ranging amidst the fundamental things of the individual life and all the perplexity of desires and passions. i turn my questionings to the most difficult of all sets of compromises, those mitigations of spontaneous freedom that constitute the marriage laws, the mystery of balancing justice against the good of the future, amidst these violent and elusive passions. where falls the balance of freedoms here? i pass for a time from utopianising altogether, to ask the question that, after all, schopenhauer failed completely to answer, why sometimes in the case of hurtful, pointless, and destructive things we want so vehemently.... i come back from this unavailing glance into the deeps to the general question of freedoms in this new relation. i find myself far adrift from the case of the frognal botanist, and asking how far a modern utopia will deal with personal morals. as plato demonstrated long ago, the principles of the relation of state control to personal morals may be best discussed in the case of intoxication, the most isolated and least complicated of all this group of problems. but plato's treatment of this issue as a question of who may or may not have the use of wine, though suitable enough in considering a small state in which everybody was the effectual inspector of everybody, is entirely beside the mark under modern conditions, in which we are to have an extraordinarily higher standard of individual privacy and an amplitude and quantity of migration inconceivable to the academic imagination. we may accept his principle and put this particular freedom (of the use of wine) among the distinctive privileges of maturity, and still find all that a modern would think of as the drink question untouched. that question in utopia will differ perhaps in the proportion of its factors, but in no other respect, from what it is upon earth. the same desirable ends will be sought, the maintenance of public order and decency, the reduction of inducements to form this bad and wasteful habit to their lowest possible minimum, and the complete protection of the immature. but the modern utopians, having systematised their sociology, will have given some attention to the psychology of minor officials, a matter altogether too much neglected by the social reformer on earth. they will not put into the hands of a common policeman powers direct and indirect that would be dangerous to the public in the hands of a judge. and they will have avoided the immeasurable error of making their control of the drink traffic a source of public revenue. privacies they will not invade, but they will certainly restrict the public consumption of intoxicants to specified licensed places and the sale of them to unmistakable adults, and they will make the temptation of the young a grave offence. in so migratory a population as the modern utopian, the licensing of inns and bars would be under the same control as the railways and high roads. inns exist for the stranger and not for the locality, and we shall meet with nothing there to correspond with our terrestrial absurdity of local option. the utopians will certainly control this trade, and as certainly punish personal excesses. public drunkenness (as distinguished from the mere elation that follows a generous but controlled use of wine) will be an offence against public decency, and will be dealt with in some very drastic manner. it will, of course, be an aggravation of, and not an excuse for, crime. but i doubt whether the state will go beyond that. whether an adult shall use wine or beer or spirits, or not, seems to me entirely a matter for his doctor and his own private conscience. i doubt if we explorers shall meet any drunken men, and i doubt not we shall meet many who have never availed themselves of their adult freedom in this respect. the conditions of physical happiness will be better understood in utopia, it will be worth while to be well there, and the intelligent citizen will watch himself closely. half and more of the drunkenness of earth is an attempt to lighten dull days and hopelessly sordid and disagreeable lives, and in utopia they do not suffer these things. assuredly utopia will be temperate, not only drinking, but eating with the soundest discretion. yet i do not think wine and good ale will be altogether wanting there, nor good, mellow whisky, nor, upon occasion, the engaging various liqueur. i do not think so. my botanist, who abstains altogether, is of another opinion. we differ here and leave the question to the earnest reader. i have the utmost respect for all teetotalers, prohibitionists, and haters and persecutors of innkeepers, their energy of reform awakens responsive notes in me, and to their species i look for a large part of the urgent repair of our earth; yet for all that---- there is burgundy, for example, a bottle of soft and kindly burgundy, taken to make a sunshine on one's lunch when four strenuous hours of toil have left one on the further side of appetite. or ale, a foaming tankard of ale, ten miles of sturdy tramping in the sleet and slush as a prelude, and then good bread and good butter and a ripe hollow stilton and celery and ale--ale with a certain quantitative freedom. or, again, where is the sin in a glass of tawny port three or four times, or it may be five, a year, when the walnuts come round in their season? if you drink no port, then what are walnuts for? such things i hold for the reward of vast intervals of abstinence; they justify your wide, immaculate margin, which is else a mere unmeaning blankness on the page of palate god has given you! i write of these things as a fleshly man, confessedly and knowingly fleshly, and more than usually aware of my liability to err; i know myself for a gross creature more given to sedentary world-mending than to brisk activities, and not one-tenth as active as the dullest newspaper boy in london. yet still i have my uses, uses that vanish in monotony, and still i must ask why should we bury the talent of these bright sensations altogether? under no circumstances can i think of my utopians maintaining their fine order of life on ginger ale and lemonade and the ale that is kops'. those terrible temperance drinks, solutions of qualified sugar mixed with vast volumes of gas, as, for example, soda, seltzer, lemonade, and fire-extincteurs hand grenades--minerals, they call such stuff in england--fill a man with wind and self-righteousness. indeed they do! coffee destroys brain and kidney, a fact now universally recognised and advertised throughout america; and tea, except for a kind of green tea best used with discretion in punch, tans the entrails and turns honest stomachs into leather bags. rather would i be metchnikoffed [footnote: see the nature of man, by professor elie metchnikoff.] at once and have a clean, good stomach of german silver. no! if we are to have no ale in utopia, give me the one clean temperance drink that is worthy to set beside wine, and that is simple water. best it is when not quite pure and with a trace of organic matter, for then it tastes and sparkles.... my botanist would still argue. thank heaven this is my book, and that the ultimate decision rests with me. it is open to him to write his own utopia and arrange that everybody shall do nothing except by the consent of the savants of the republic, either in his eating, drinking, dressing or lodging, even as cabet proposed. it is open to him to try a news from nowhere utopia with the wine left out. i have my short way with him here quite effectually. i turn in the entrance of our inn to the civil but by no means obsequious landlord, and with a careful ambiguity of manner for the thing may be considered an outrage, and i try to make it possible the idea is a jest--put my test demand.... "you see, my dear teetotaler?--he sets before me tray and glass and..." here follows the necessary experiment and a deep sigh.... "yes, a bottle of quite _excellent_ light beer! so there are also cakes and ale in utopia! let us in this saner and more beautiful world drink perdition to all earthly excesses. let us drink more particularly to the coming of the day when men beyond there will learn to distinguish between qualitative and quantitative questions, to temper good intentions with good intelligence, and righteousness with wisdom. one of the darkest evils of our world is surely the unteachable wildness of the good." section so presently to bed and to sleep, but not at once to sleep. at first my brain, like a dog in unfamiliar quarters, must turn itself round for a time or so before it lies down. this strange mystery of a world of which i have seen so little as yet--a mountain slope, a twilit road, a traffic of ambiguous vehicles and dim shapes, the window lights of many homes--fills me with curiosities. figures and incidents come and go, the people we have passed, our landlord, quietly attentive and yet, i feel, with the keenest curiosity peeping from his eyes, the unfamiliar forms of the house parts and furnishings, the unfamiliar courses of the meal. outside this little bedroom is a world, a whole unimagined world. a thousand million things lie outside in the darkness beyond this lit inn of ours, unthought-of possibilities, overlooked considerations, surprises, riddles, incommensurables, a whole monstrous intricate universe of consequences that i have to do my best to unravel. i attempt impossible recapitulations and mingle the weird quality of dream stuff with my thoughts. athwart all this tumult of my memory goes this queer figure of my unanticipated companion, so obsessed by himself and his own egotistical love that this sudden change to another world seems only a change of scene for his gnawing, uninvigorating passion. it occurs to me that she also must have an equivalent in utopia, and then that idea and all ideas grow thin and vague, and are dissolved at last in the rising tide of sleep.... chapter the third utopian economics section these modern utopians with the universally diffused good manners, the universal education, the fine freedoms we shall ascribe to them, their world unity, world language, world-wide travellings, world-wide freedom of sale and purchase, will remain mere dreamstuff, incredible even by twilight, until we have shown that at that level the community will still sustain itself. at any rate, the common liberty of the utopians will not embrace the common liberty to be unserviceable, the most perfect economy of organisation still leaves the fact untouched that all order and security in a state rests on the certainty of getting work done. how will the work of this planet be done? what will be the economics of a modern utopia? now in the first place, a state so vast and complex as this world utopia, and with so migratory a people, will need some handy symbol to check the distribution of services and commodities. almost certainly they will need to have money. they will have money, and it is not inconceivable that, for all his sorrowful thoughts, our botanist, with his trained observation, his habit of looking at little things upon the ground, would be the one to see and pick up the coin that has fallen from some wayfarer's pocket. (this, in our first hour or so before we reach the inn in the urseren thal.) you figure us upon the high gotthard road, heads together over the little disk that contrives to tell us so much of this strange world. it is, i imagine, of gold, and it will be a convenient accident if it is sufficient to make us solvent for a day or so, until we are a little more informed of the economic system into which we have come. it is, moreover, of a fair round size, and the inscription declares it one lion, equal to "twaindy" bronze crosses. unless the ratio of metals is very different here, this latter must be a token coin, and therefore legal tender for but a small amount. (that would be pain and pleasure to mr. wordsworth donisthorpe if he were to chance to join us, for once he planned a utopian coinage, [footnote: a system of measures, by wordsworth donisthorpe.] and the words lion and cross are his. but a token coinage and "legal tender" he cannot abide. they make him argue.) and being in utopia, that unfamiliar "twaindy" suggests at once we have come upon that most utopian of all things, a duodecimal system of counting. my author's privilege of details serves me here. this lion is distinctly a beautiful coin, admirably made, with its value in fine, clear letters circling the obverse side, and a head thereon--of newton, as i live! one detects american influence here. each year, as we shall find, each denomination of coins celebrates a centenary. the reverse shows the universal goddess of the utopian coinage--peace, as a beautiful woman, reading with a child out of a great book, and behind them are stars, and an hour-glass, halfway run. very human these utopians, after all, and not by any means above the obvious in their symbolism! so for the first time we learn definitely of the world state, and we get our first clear hint, too, that there is an end to kings. but our coin raises other issues also. it would seem that this utopia has no simple community of goods, that there is, at any rate, a restriction upon what one may take, a need for evidences of equivalent value, a limitation to human credit. it dates--so much of this present utopia of ours dates. those former utopists were bitterly against gold. you will recall the undignified use sir thomas more would have us put it to, and how there was no money at all in the republic of plato, and in that later community for which he wrote his laws an iron coinage of austere appearance and doubtful efficacy.... it may be these great gentlemen were a little hasty with a complicated difficulty, and not a little unjust to a highly respectable element. gold is abused and made into vessels of dishonour, and abolished from ideal society as though it were the cause instead of the instrument of human baseness; but, indeed, there is nothing bad in gold. making gold into vessels of dishonour and banishing it from the state is punishing the hatchet for the murderer's crime. money, did you but use it right, is a good thing in life, a necessary thing in civilised human life, as complicated, indeed, for its purposes, but as natural a growth as the bones in a man's wrist, and i do not see how one can imagine anything at all worthy of being called a civilisation without it. it is the water of the body social, it distributes and receives, and renders growth and assimilation and movement and recovery possible. it is the reconciliation of human interdependence with liberty. what other device will give a man so great a freedom with so strong an inducement to effort? the economic history of the world, where it is not the history of the theory of property, is very largely the record of the abuse, not so much of money as of credit devices to supplement money, to amplify the scope of this most precious invention; and no device of labour credits [footnote: edward bellamy's looking backward, ch. ix.] or free demand of commodities from a central store [footnote: more's utopia and cabet's icaria.] or the like has ever been suggested that does not give ten thousand times more scope for that inherent moral dross in man that must be reckoned with in any sane utopia we may design and plan.... heaven knows where progress may not end, but at any rate this developing state, into which we two men have fallen, this twentieth century utopia, has still not passed beyond money and the use of coins. section now if this utopian world is to be in some degree parallel to contemporary thought, it must have been concerned, it may be still concerned, with many unsettled problems of currency, and with the problems that centre about a standard of value. gold is perhaps of all material substances the best adapted to the monetary purpose, but even at that best it falls far short of an imaginable ideal. it undergoes spasmodic and irregular cheapening through new discoveries of gold, and at any time it may undergo very extensive and sudden and disastrous depreciation through the discovery of some way of transmuting less valuable elements. the liability to such depreciations introduces an undesirable speculative element into the relations of debtor and creditor. when, on the one hand, there is for a time a check in the increase of the available stores of gold, or an increase in the energy applied to social purposes, or a checking of the public security that would impede the free exchange of credit and necessitate a more frequent production of gold in evidence, then there comes an undue appreciation of money as against the general commodities of life, and an automatic impoverishment of the citizens in general as against the creditor class. the common people are mortgaged into the bondage of debt. and on the other hand an unexpected spate of gold production, the discovery of a single nugget as big as st. paul's, let us say--a quite possible thing--would result in a sort of jail delivery of debtors and a financial earthquake. it has been suggested by an ingenious thinker that it is possible to use as a standard of monetary value no substance whatever, but instead, force, and that value might be measured in units of energy. an excellent development this, in theory, at any rate, of the general idea of the modern state as kinetic and not static; it throws the old idea of the social order and the new into the sharpest antithesis. the old order is presented as a system of institutions and classes ruled by men of substance; the new, of enterprises and interests led by men of power. now i glance at this matter in the most incidental manner, as a man may skim through a specialist's exposition in a popular magazine. you must figure me, therefore, finding from a casual periodical paper in our inn, with a certain surprise at not having anticipated as much, the utopian self of that same ingenious person quite conspicuously a leader of thought, and engaged in organising the discussion of the currency changes utopia has under consideration. the article, as it presents itself to me, contains a complete and lucid, though occasionally rather technical, explanation of his newest proposals. they have been published, it seems, for general criticism, and one gathers that in the modern utopia the administration presents the most elaborately detailed schemes of any proposed alteration in law or custom, some time before any measure is taken to carry it into effect, and the possibilities of every detail are acutely criticised, flaws anticipated, side issues raised, and the whole minutely tested and fined down by a planetful of critics, before the actual process of legislation begins. the explanation of these proposals involves an anticipatory glance at the local administration of a modern utopia. to anyone who has watched the development of technical science during the last decade or so, there will be no shock in the idea that a general consolidation of a great number of common public services over areas of considerable size is now not only practicable, but very desirable. in a little while heating and lighting and the supply of power for domestic and industrial purposes and for urban and inter-urban communications will all be managed electrically from common generating stations. and the trend of political and social speculation points decidedly to the conclusion that so soon as it passes out of the experimental stage, the supply of electrical energy, just like drainage and the supply of water, will fall to the local authority. moreover, the local authority will be the universal landowner. upon that point so extreme an individualist as herbert spencer was in agreement with the socialist. in utopia we conclude that, whatever other types of property may exist, all natural sources of force, and indeed all strictly natural products, coal, water power, and the like, are inalienably vested in the local authorities (which, in order to secure the maximum of convenience and administrative efficiency, will probably control areas as large sometimes as half england), they will generate electricity by water power, by combustion, by wind or tide or whatever other natural force is available, and this electricity will be devoted, some of it to the authority's lighting and other public works, some of it, as a subsidy, to the world-state authority which controls the high roads, the great railways, the inns and other apparatus of world communication, and the rest will pass on to private individuals or to distributing companies at a uniform fixed rate for private lighting and heating, for machinery and industrial applications of all sorts. such an arrangement of affairs will necessarily involve a vast amount of book-keeping between the various authorities, the world-state government and the customers, and this book-keeping will naturally be done most conveniently in units of physical energy. it is not incredible that the assessment of the various local administrations for the central world government would be already calculated upon the estimated total of energy, periodically available in each locality, and booked and spoken of in these physical units. accounts between central and local governments could be kept in these terms. moreover, one may imagine utopian local authorities making contracts in which payment would be no longer in coinage upon the gold basis, but in notes good for so many thousands or millions of units of energy at one or other of the generating stations. now the problems of economic theory will have undergone an enormous clarification if, instead of measuring in fluctuating money values, the same scale of energy units can be extended to their discussion, if, in fact, the idea of trading could be entirely eliminated. in my utopia, at any rate, this has been done, the production and distribution of common commodities have been expressed as a problem in the conversion of energy, and the scheme that utopia was now discussing was the application of this idea of energy as the standard of value to the entire utopian coinage. every one of those giant local authorities was to be free to issue energy notes against the security of its surplus of saleable available energy, and to make all its contracts for payment in those notes up to a certain maximum defined by the amount of energy produced and disposed of in that locality in the previous year. this power of issue was to be renewed just as rapidly as the notes came in for redemption. in a world without boundaries, with a population largely migratory and emancipated from locality, the price of the energy notes of these various local bodies would constantly tend to be uniform, because employment would constantly shift into the areas where energy was cheap. accordingly, the price of so many millions of units of energy at any particular moment in coins of the gold currency would be approximately the same throughout the world. it was proposed to select some particular day when the economic atmosphere was distinctly equable, and to declare a fixed ratio between the gold coinage and the energy notes; each gold lion and each lion of credit representing exactly the number of energy units it could buy on that day. the old gold coinage was at once to cease to be legal tender beyond certain defined limits, except to the central government, which would not reissue it as it came in. it was, in fact, to become a temporary token coinage, a token coinage of full value for the day of conversion at any rate, if not afterwards, under the new standard of energy, and to be replaceable by an ordinary token coinage as time went on. the old computation by lions and the values of the small change of daily life were therefore to suffer no disturbance whatever. the economists of utopia, as i apprehended them, had a different method and a very different system of theories from those i have read on earth, and this makes my exposition considerably more difficult. this article upon which i base my account floated before me in an unfamiliar, perplexing, and dream-like phraseology. yet i brought away an impression that here was a rightness that earthly economists have failed to grasp. few earthly economists have been able to disentangle themselves from patriotisms and politics, and their obsession has always been international trade. here in utopia the world state cuts that away from beneath their feet; there are no imports but meteorites, and no exports at all. trading is the earthly economists' initial notion, and they start from perplexing and insoluble riddles about exchange value, insoluble because all trading finally involves individual preferences which are incalculable and unique. nowhere do they seem to be handling really defined standards, every economic dissertation and discussion reminds one more strongly than the last of the game of croquet alice played in wonderland, when the mallets were flamingoes and the balls were hedgehogs and crawled away, and the hoops were soldiers and kept getting up and walking about. but economics in utopia must be, it seems to me, not a theory of trading based on bad psychology, but physics applied to problems in the theory of sociology. the general problem of utopian economics is to state the conditions of the most efficient application of the steadily increasing quantities of material energy the progress of science makes available for human service, to the general needs of mankind. human labour and existing material are dealt with in relation to that. trading and relative wealth are merely episodical in such a scheme. the trend of the article i read, as i understood it, was that a monetary system based upon a relatively small amount of gold, upon which the business of the whole world had hitherto been done, fluctuated unreasonably and supplied no real criterion of well-being, that the nominal values of things and enterprises had no clear and simple relation to the real physical prosperity of the community, that the nominal wealth of a community in millions of pounds or dollars or lions, measured nothing but the quantity of hope in the air, and an increase of confidence meant an inflation of credit and a pessimistic phase a collapse of this hallucination of possessions. the new standards, this advocate reasoned, were to alter all that, and it seemed to me they would. i have tried to indicate the drift of these remarkable proposals, but about them clustered an elaborate mass of keen and temperate discussion. into the details of that discussion i will not enter now, nor am i sure i am qualified to render the multitudinous aspect of this complicated question at all precisely. i read the whole thing in the course of an hour or two of rest after lunch--it was either the second or third day of my stay in utopia--and we were sitting in a little inn at the end of the lake of uri. we had loitered there, and i had fallen reading because of a shower of rain.... but certainly as i read it the proposition struck me as a singularly simple and attractive one, and its exposition opened out to me for the first time clearly, in a comprehensive outline, the general conception of the economic nature of the utopian state. section the difference between the social and economic sciences as they exist in our world [footnote: but see gidding's principles of sociology, a modern and richly suggestive american work, imperfectly appreciated by the british student. see also walter bagehot's economic studies.] and in this utopia deserves perhaps a word or so more. i write with the utmost diffidence, because upon earth economic science has been raised to a very high level of tortuous abstraction by the industry of its professors, and i can claim neither a patient student's intimacy with their productions nor--what is more serious--anything but the most generalised knowledge of what their utopian equivalents have achieved. the vital nature of economic issues to a utopia necessitates, however, some attempt at interpretation between the two. in utopia there is no distinct and separate science of economics. many problems that we should regard as economic come within the scope of utopian psychology. my utopians make two divisions of the science of psychology, first, the general psychology of individuals, a sort of mental physiology separated by no definite line from physiology proper, and secondly, the psychology of relationship between individuals. this second is an exhaustive study of the reaction of people upon each other and of all possible relationships. it is a science of human aggregations, of all possible family groupings, of neighbours and neighbourhood, of companies, associations, unions, secret and public societies, religious groupings, of common ends and intercourse, and of the methods of intercourse and collective decision that hold human groups together, and finally of government and the state. the elucidation of economic relationships, depending as it does on the nature of the hypothesis of human aggregation actually in operation at any time, is considered to be subordinate and subsequent to this general science of sociology. political economy and economics, in our world now, consist of a hopeless muddle of social assumptions and preposterous psychology, and a few geographical and physical generalisations. its ingredients will be classified out and widely separated in utopian thought. on the one hand there will be the study of physical economies, ending in the descriptive treatment of society as an organisation for the conversion of all the available energy in nature to the material ends of mankind--a physical sociology which will be already at such a stage of practical development as to be giving the world this token coinage representing energy--and on the other there will be the study of economic problems as problems in the division of labour, having regard to a social organisation whose main ends are reproduction and education in an atmosphere of personal freedom. each of these inquiries, working unencumbered by the other, will be continually contributing fresh valid conclusions for the use of the practical administrator. in no region of intellectual activity will our hypothesis of freedom from tradition be of more value in devising a utopia than here. from its beginning the earthly study of economics has been infertile and unhelpful, because of the mass of unanalysed and scarcely suspected assumptions upon which it rested. the facts were ignored that trade is a bye-product and not an essential factor in social life, that property is a plastic and fluctuating convention, that value is capable of impersonal treatment only in the case of the most generalised requirements. wealth was measured by the standards of exchange. society was regarded as a practically unlimited number of avaricious adult units incapable of any other subordinate groupings than business partnerships, and the sources of competition were assumed to be inexhaustible. upon such quicksands rose an edifice that aped the securities of material science, developed a technical jargon and professed the discovery of "laws." our liberation from these false presumptions through the rhetoric of carlyle and ruskin and the activities of the socialists, is more apparent than real. the old edifice oppresses us still, repaired and altered by indifferent builders, underpinned in places, and with a slight change of name. "political economy" has been painted out, and instead we read "economics--under entirely new management." modern economics differs mainly from old political economy in having produced no adam smith. the old "political economy" made certain generalisations, and they were mostly wrong; new economics evades generalisations, and seems to lack the intellectual power to make them. the science hangs like a gathering fog in a valley, a fog which begins nowhere and goes nowhere, an incidental, unmeaning inconvenience to passers-by. its most typical exponents display a disposition to disavow generalisations altogether, to claim consideration as "experts," and to make immediate political application of that conceded claim. now newton, darwin, dalton, davy, joule, and adam smith did not affect this "expert" hankey-pankey, becoming enough in a hairdresser or a fashionable physician, but indecent in a philosopher or a man of science. in this state of impotent expertness, however, or in some equally unsound state, economics must struggle on--a science that is no science, a floundering lore wallowing in a mud of statistics--until either the study of the material organisation of production on the one hand as a development of physics and geography, or the study of social aggregation on the other, renders enduring foundations possible. section the older utopias were all relatively small states; plato's republic, for example, was to be smaller than the average english borough, and no distinction was made between the family, the local government, and the state. plato and campanella--for all that the latter was a christian priest--carried communism to its final point and prescribed even a community of husbands and wives, an idea that was brought at last to the test of effectual experiment in the oneida community of new york state ( - ). this latter body did not long survive its founder, at least as a veritable communism, by reason of the insurgent individualism of its vigorous sons. more, too, denied privacy and ruled an absolute community of goods, at any rate, and so, coming to the victorian utopias, did cabet. but cabet's communism was one of the "free store" type, and the goods were yours only after you had requisitioned them. that seems the case in the "nowhere" of morris also. compared with the older writers bellamy and morris have a vivid sense of individual separation, and their departure from the old homogeneity is sufficiently marked to justify a doubt whether there will be any more thoroughly communistic utopias for ever. a utopia such as this present one, written in the opening of the twentieth century, and after the most exhaustive discussion--nearly a century long--between communistic and socialistic ideas on the one hand, and individualism on the other, emerges upon a sort of effectual conclusion to those controversies. the two parties have so chipped and amended each other's initial propositions that, indeed, except for the labels still flutteringly adhesive to the implicated men, it is hard to choose between them. each side established a good many propositions, and we profit by them all. we of the succeeding generation can see quite clearly that for the most part the heat and zeal of these discussions arose in the confusion of a quantitative for a qualitative question. to the onlooker, both individualism and socialism are, in the absolute, absurdities; the one would make men the slaves of the violent or rich, the other the slaves of the state official, and the way of sanity runs, perhaps even sinuously, down the intervening valley. happily the dead past buries its dead, and it is not our function now to adjudicate the preponderance of victory. in the very days when our political and economic order is becoming steadily more socialistic, our ideals of intercourse turn more and more to a fuller recognition of the claims of individuality. the state is to be progressive, it is no longer to be static, and this alters the general condition of the utopian problem profoundly; we have to provide not only for food and clothing, for order and health, but for initiative. the factor that leads the world state on from one phase of development to the next is the interplay of individualities; to speak teleologically, the world exists for the sake of and through initiative, and individuality is the method of initiative. each man and woman, to the extent that his or her individuality is marked, breaks the law of precedent, transgresses the general formula, and makes a new experiment for the direction of the life force. it is impossible, therefore, for the state, which represents all and is preoccupied by the average, to make effectual experiments and intelligent innovations, and so supply the essential substance of life. as against the individual the state represents the species, in the case of the utopian world state it absolutely represents the species. the individual emerges from the species, makes his experiment, and either fails, dies, and comes to an end, or succeeds and impresses himself in offspring, in consequences and results, intellectual, material and moral, upon the world. biologically the species is the accumulation of the experiments of all its successful individuals since the beginning, and the world state of the modern utopist will, in its economic aspect, be a compendium of established economic experience, about which individual enterprise will be continually experimenting, either to fail and pass, or to succeed and at last become incorporated with the undying organism of the world state. this organism is the universal rule, the common restriction, the rising level platform on which individualities stand. the world state in this ideal presents itself as the sole landowner of the earth, with the great local governments i have adumbrated, the local municipalities, holding, as it were, feudally under it as landlords. the state or these subordinates holds all the sources of energy, and either directly or through its tenants, farmers and agents, develops these sources, and renders the energy available for the work of life. it or its tenants will produce food, and so human energy, and the exploitation of coal and electric power, and the powers of wind and wave and water will be within its right. it will pour out this energy by assignment and lease and acquiescence and what not upon its individual citizens. it will maintain order, maintain roads, maintain a cheap and efficient administration of justice, maintain cheap and rapid locomotion and be the common carrier of the planet, convey and distribute labour, control, let, or administer all natural productions, pay for and secure healthy births and a healthy and vigorous new generation, maintain the public health, coin money and sustain standards of measurement, subsidise research, and reward such commercially unprofitable undertakings as benefit the community as a whole; subsidise when needful chairs of criticism and authors and publications, and collect and distribute information. the energy developed and the employment afforded by the state will descend like water that the sun has sucked out of the sea to fall upon a mountain range, and back to the sea again it will come at last, debouching in ground rent and royalty and license fees, in the fees of travellers and profits upon carrying and coinage and the like, in death duty, transfer tax, legacy and forfeiture, returning to the sea. between the clouds and the sea it will run, as a river system runs, down through a great region of individual enterprise and interplay, whose freedom it will sustain. in that intermediate region between the kindred heights and deeps those beginnings and promises will arise that are the essential significance, the essential substance, of life. from our human point of view the mountains and sea are for the habitable lands that lie between. so likewise the state is for individualities. the state is for individuals, the law is for freedoms, the world is for experiment, experience, and change: these are the fundamental beliefs upon which a modern utopia must go. section within this scheme, which makes the state the source of all energy, and the final legatee, what will be the nature of the property a man may own? under modern conditions--indeed, under any conditions--a man without some negotiable property is a man without freedom, and the extent of his property is very largely the measure of his freedom. without any property, without even shelter or food, a man has no choice but to set about getting these things; he is in servitude to his needs until he has secured property to satisfy them. but with a certain small property a man is free to do many things, to take a fortnight's holiday when he chooses, for example, and to try this new departure from his work or that; with so much more, he may take a year of freedom and go to the ends of the earth; with so much more, he may obtain elaborate apparatus and try curious novelties, build himself houses and make gardens, establish businesses and make experiments at large. very speedily, under terrestrial conditions, the property of a man may reach such proportions that his freedom oppresses the freedom of others. here, again, is a quantitative question, an adjustment of conflicting freedoms, a quantitative question that too many people insist on making a qualitative one. the object sought in the code of property laws that one would find in operation in utopia would be the same object that pervades the whole utopian organisation, namely, a universal maximum of individual freedom. whatever far-reaching movements the state or great rich men or private corporations may make, the starvation by any complication of employment, the unwilling deportation, the destruction of alternatives to servile submissions, must not ensue. beyond such qualifications, the object of modern utopian statesmanship will be to secure to a man the freedom given by all his legitimate property, that is to say, by all the values his toil or skill or foresight and courage have brought into being. whatever he has justly made he has a right to keep, that is obvious enough; but he will also have a right to sell and exchange, and so this question of what may be property takes really the form of what may a man buy in utopia? a modern utopian most assuredly must have a practically unqualified property in all those things that become, as it were, by possession, extensions and expressions of his personality; his clothing, his jewels, the tools of his employment, his books, the objects of art he may have bought or made, his personal weapons (if utopia have need of such things), insignia, and so forth. all such things that he has bought with his money or acquired--provided he is not a professional or habitual dealer in such property--will be inalienably his, his to give or lend or keep, free even from taxation. so intimate is this sort of property that i have no doubt utopia will give a man posthumous rights over it--will permit him to assign it to a successor with at the utmost the payment of a small redemption. a horse, perhaps, in certain districts, or a bicycle, or any such mechanical conveyance personally used, the utopians might find it well to rank with these possessions. no doubt, too, a house and privacy owned and occupied by a man, and even a man's own household furniture, might be held to stand as high or almost as high in the property scale, might be taxed as lightly and transferred under only a slightly heavier redemption, provided he had not let these things on hire, or otherwise alienated them from his intimate self. a thorough-going, democratic socialist will no doubt be inclined at first to object that if the utopians make these things a specially free sort of property in this way, men would spend much more upon them than they would otherwise do, but indeed that will be an excellent thing. we are too much affected by the needy atmosphere of our own mismanaged world. in utopia no one will have to hunger because some love to make and have made and own and cherish beautiful things. to give this much of property to individuals will tend to make clothing, ornamentation, implements, books, and all the arts finer and more beautiful, because by buying such things a man will secure something inalienable--save in the case of bankruptcy--for himself and for those who belong to him. moreover, a man may in his lifetime set aside sums to ensure special advantages of education and care for the immature children of himself and others, and in this manner also exercise a posthumous right. [footnote: but a statute of mortmain will set a distinct time limit to the continuance of such benefactions. a periodic revision of endowments is a necessary feature in any modern utopia.] for all other property, the utopians will have a scantier respect; even money unspent by a man, and debts to him that bear no interest, will at his death stand upon a lower level than these things. what he did not choose to gather and assimilate to himself, or assign for the special education of his children, the state will share in the lion's proportion with heir and legatee. this applies, for example, to the property that a man creates and acquires in business enterprises, which are presumably undertaken for gain, and as a means of living rather than for themselves. all new machinery, all new methods, all uncertain and variable and non-universal undertakings, are no business for the state; they commence always as experiments of unascertained value, and next after the invention of money, there is no invention has so facilitated freedom and progress as the invention of the limited liability company to do this work of trial and adventure. the abuses, the necessary reforms of company law on earth, are no concern of ours here and now, suffice it that in a modern utopia such laws must be supposed to be as perfect as mortal laws can possibly be made. caveat vendor will be a sound qualification of caveat emptor in the beautifully codified utopian law. whether the utopian company will be allowed to prefer this class of share to that or to issue debentures, whether indeed usury, that is to say lending money at fixed rates of interest, will be permitted at all in utopia, one may venture to doubt. but whatever the nature of the shares a man may hold, they will all be sold at his death, and whatever he has not clearly assigned for special educational purposes will--with possibly some fractional concession to near survivors--lapse to the state. the "safe investment," that permanent, undying claim upon the community, is just one of those things utopia will discourage; which indeed the developing security of civilisation quite automatically discourages through the fall in the rate of interest. as we shall see at a later stage, the state will insure the children of every citizen, and those legitimately dependent upon him, against the inconvenience of his death; it will carry out all reasonable additional dispositions he may have made for them in the same event; and it will insure him against old age and infirmity; and the object of utopian economics will be to give a man every inducement to spend his surplus money in intensifying the quality of his surroundings, either by economic adventures and experiments, which may yield either losses or large profits, or in increasing the beauty, the pleasure, the abundance and promise of life. besides strictly personal possessions and shares in business adventures, utopia will no doubt permit associations of its citizens to have a property in various sorts of contracts and concessions, in leases of agricultural and other land, for example; in houses they may have built, factories and machinery they may have made, and the like. and if a citizen prefer to adventure into business single-handed, he will have all the freedoms of enterprise enjoyed by a company; in business affairs he will be a company of one, and his single share will be dealt with at his death like any other shares.... so much for the second kind of property. and these two kinds of property will probably exhaust the sorts of property a utopian may possess. the trend of modern thought is entirely against private property in land or natural objects or products, and in utopia these things will be the inalienable property of the world state. subject to the rights of free locomotion, land will be leased out to companies or individuals, but--in view of the unknown necessities of the future--never for a longer period than, let us say, fifty years. the property of a parent in his children, and of a husband in his wife, seems to be undergoing a steadily increasing qualification in the world of to-day, but the discussion of the utopian state of affairs in regard to such property may be better reserved until marriage becomes our topic. suffice it here to remark, that the increasing control of a child's welfare and upbringing by the community, and the growing disposition to limit and tax inheritance are complementary aspects of the general tendency to regard the welfare and free intraplay of future generations no longer as the concern of parents and altruistic individuals, but as the predominant issue of statesmanship, and the duty and moral meaning of the world community as a whole. section from the conception of mechanical force as coming in from nature to the service of man, a conception the utopian proposal of a coinage based on energy units would emphasise, arise profound contrasts between the modern and the classical utopias. except for a meagre use of water power for milling, and the wind for sailing--so meagre in the latter case that the classical world never contrived to do without the galley slave--and a certain restricted help from oxen in ploughing, and from horses in locomotion, all the energy that sustained the old-fashioned state was derived from the muscular exertion of toiling men. they ran their world by hand. continual bodily labour was a condition of social existence. it is only with the coming of coal burning, of abundant iron and steel, and of scientific knowledge that this condition has been changed. to-day, i suppose, if it were possible to indicate, in units of energy, the grand total of work upon which the social fabric of the united states or england rests, it would be found that a vastly preponderating moiety is derived from non-human sources, from coal and liquid fuel, and explosives and wind and water. there is every indication of a steady increase in this proportion of mechanical energy, in this emancipation of men from the necessity of physical labour. there appears no limit to the invasion of life by the machine. now it is only in the last three hundred years that any human being seems to have anticipated this. it stimulates the imagination to remark how entirely it was overlooked as a modifying cause in human development. [footnote: it is interesting to note how little even bacon seems to see of this, in his new atlantis.] plato clearly had no ideas about machines at all as a force affecting social organisation. there was nothing in his world to suggest them to him. i suppose there arose no invention, no new mechanical appliance or method of the slightest social importance through all his length of years. he never thought of a state that did not rely for its force upon human muscle, just as he never thought of a state that was not primarily organised for warfare hand to hand. political and moral inventions he saw enough of and to spare, and in that direction he still stimulates the imagination. but in regard to all material possibilities he deadens rather than stimulates. [footnote: the lost utopia of hippodamus provided rewards for inventors, but unless aristotle misunderstood him, and it is certainly the fate of all utopias to be more or less misread, the inventions contemplated were political devices.] an infinitude of nonsense about the greek mind would never have been written if the distinctive intellectual and artistic quality of plato's time, its extraordinarily clear definition of certain material conditions as absolutely permanent, coupled with its politico-social instability, had been borne in mind. the food of the greek imagination was the very antithesis of our own nourishment. we are educated by our circumstances to think no revolution in appliances and economic organisation incredible, our minds play freely about possibilities that would have struck the men of the academy as outrageous extravagance, and it is in regard to politico-social expedients that our imaginations fail. sparta, for all the evidence of history, is scarcely more credible to us than a motor-car throbbing in the agora would have been to socrates. by sheer inadvertence, therefore, plato commenced the tradition of utopias without machinery, a tradition we find morris still loyally following, except for certain mechanical barges and such-like toys, in his news from nowhere. there are some foreshadowings of mechanical possibilities in the new atlantis, but it is only in the nineteenth century that utopias appeared in which the fact is clearly recognised that the social fabric rests no longer upon human labour. it was, i believe, cabet [footnote: cabet, voyage en icarie, .] who first in a utopian work insisted upon the escape of man from irksome labours through the use of machinery. he is the great primitive of modern utopias, and bellamy is his american equivalent. hitherto, either slave labour (phaleas), [footnote: aristotle's politics, bk. ii., ch. viii.] or at least class distinctions involving unavoidable labour in the lower class, have been assumed--as plato does, and as bacon in the new atlantis probably intended to do (more gave his utopians bondsmen sans phrase for their most disagreeable toil); or there is--as in morris and the outright return-to-nature utopians--a bold make-believe that all toil may be made a joy, and with that a levelling down of all society to an equal participation in labour. but indeed this is against all the observed behaviour of mankind. it needed the olympian unworldliness of an irresponsible rich man of the shareholding type, a ruskin or a morris playing at life, to imagine as much. road-making under mr. ruskin's auspices was a joy at oxford no doubt, and a distinction, and it still remains a distinction; it proved the least contagious of practices. and hawthorne did not find bodily toil anything more than the curse the bible says it is, at brook farm. [footnote: the blythedale experiment, and see also his notebook.] if toil is a blessing, never was blessing so effectually disguised, and the very people who tell us that, hesitate to suggest more than a beautiful ease in the endless day of heaven. a certain amount of bodily or mental exercise, a considerable amount of doing things under the direction of one's free imagination is quite another matter. artistic production, for example, when it is at its best, when a man is freely obeying himself, and not troubling to please others, is really not toil at all. it is quite a different thing digging potatoes, as boys say, "for a lark," and digging them because otherwise you will starve, digging them day after day as a dull, unavoidable imperative. the essence of toil is that imperative, and the fact that the attention _must_ cramp itself to the work in hand--that it excludes freedom, and not that it involves fatigue. so long as anything but a quasi-savage life depended upon toil, so long was it hopeless to expect mankind to do anything but struggle to confer just as much of this blessing as possible upon one another. but now that the new conditions physical science is bringing about, not only dispense with man as a source of energy but supply the hope that all routine work may be made automatic, it is becoming conceivable that presently there may be no need for anyone to toil habitually at all; that a labouring class--that is to say, a class of workers without personal initiative--will become unnecessary to the world of men. the plain message physical science has for the world at large is this, that were our political and social and moral devices only as well contrived to their ends as a linotype machine, an antiseptic operating plant, or an electric tram-car, there need now at the present moment be no appreciable toil in the world, and only the smallest fraction of the pain, the fear, and the anxiety that now makes human life so doubtful in its value. there is more than enough for everyone alive. science stands, a too competent servant, behind her wrangling underbred masters, holding out resources, devices, and remedies they are too stupid to use. [footnote: see that most suggestive little book, twentieth century inventions, by mr. george sutherland.] and on its material side a modern utopia must needs present these gifts as taken, and show a world that is really abolishing the need of labour, abolishing the last base reason for anyone's servitude or inferiority. section the effectual abolition of a labouring and servile class will make itself felt in every detail of the inn that will shelter us, of the bedrooms we shall occupy. you conceive my awakening to all these things on the morning after our arrival. i shall lie for a minute or so with my nose peeping over the coverlet, agreeably and gently coming awake, and with some vague nightmare of sitting at a common table with an unavoidable dustman in green and gold called boffin, [footnote: vide william morris's news from nowhere.] fading out of my mind. then i should start up. you figure my apprehensive, startled inspection of my chamber. "where am i?" that classic phrase, recurs. then i perceive quite clearly that i am in bed in utopia. utopia! the word is enough to bring anyone out of bed, to the nearest window, but thence i see no more than the great mountain mass behind the inn, a very terrestrial looking mountain mass. i return to the contrivances about me, and make my examination as i dress, pausing garment in hand to hover over first this thing of interest and then that. the room is, of course, very clear and clean and simple; not by any means cheaply equipped, but designed to economise the labour of redding and repair just as much as is possible. it is beautifully proportioned, and rather lower than most rooms i know on earth. there is no fireplace, and i am perplexed by that until i find a thermometer beside six switches on the wall. above this switch-board is a brief instruction: one switch warms the floor, which is not carpeted, but covered by a substance like soft oilcloth; one warms the mattress (which is of metal with resistance coils threaded to and fro in it); and the others warm the wall in various degrees, each directing current through a separate system of resistances. the casement does not open, but above, flush with the ceiling, a noiseless rapid fan pumps air out of the room. the air enters by a tobin shaft. there is a recess dressing-room, equipped with a bath and all that is necessary to one's toilette, and the water, one remarks, is warmed, if one desires it warm, by passing it through an electrically heated spiral of tubing. a cake of soap drops out of a store machine on the turn of a handle, and when you have done with it, you drop that and your soiled towels and so forth, which also are given you by machines, into a little box, through the bottom of which they drop at once, and sail down a smooth shaft. a little notice tells you the price of your room, and you gather the price is doubled if you do not leave the toilette as you found it. beside the bed, and to be lit at night by a handy switch over the pillow, is a little clock, its face flush with the wall. the room has no corners to gather dirt, wall meets floor with a gentle curve, and the apartment could be swept out effectually by a few strokes of a mechanical sweeper. the door frames and window frames are of metal, rounded and impervious to draught. you are politely requested to turn a handle at the foot of your bed before leaving the room, and forthwith the frame turns up into a vertical position, and the bedclothes hang airing. you stand at the doorway and realise that there remains not a minute's work for anyone to do. memories of the foetid disorder of many an earthly bedroom after a night's use float across your mind. and you must not imagine this dustless, spotless, sweet apartment as anything but beautiful. its appearance is a little unfamiliar of course, but all the muddle of dust-collecting hangings and witless ornament that cover the earthly bedroom, the valances, the curtains to check the draught from the ill-fitting wood windows, the worthless irrelevant pictures, usually a little askew, the dusty carpets, and all the paraphernalia about the dirty, black-leaded fireplace are gone. but the faintly tinted walls are framed with just one clear coloured line, as finely placed as the member of a greek capital; the door handles and the lines of the panels of the door, the two chairs, the framework of the bed, the writing table, have all that final simplicity, that exquisite finish of contour that is begotten of sustained artistic effort. the graciously shaped windows each frame a picture--since they are draughtless the window seats are no mere mockeries as are the window seats of earth--and on the sill, the sole thing to need attention in the room, is one little bowl of blue alpine flowers. the same exquisite simplicity meets one downstairs. our landlord sits down at table with us for a moment, and seeing we do not understand the electrically heated coffee-pot before us, shows us what to do. coffee and milk we have, in the continental fashion, and some excellent rolls and butter. he is a swarthy little man, our landlord, and overnight we saw him preoccupied with other guests. but we have risen either late or early by utopian standards, we know not which, and this morning he has us to himself. his bearing is kindly and inoffensive, but he cannot conceal the curiosity that possesses him. his eye meets ours with a mute inquiry, and then as we fall to, we catch him scrutinising our cuffs, our garments, our boots, our faces, our table manners. he asks nothing at first, but says a word or so about our night's comfort and the day's weather, phrases that have an air of being customary. then comes a silence that is interrogative. "excellent coffee," i say to fill the gap. "and excellent rolls," says my botanist. our landlord indicates his sense of our approval. a momentary diversion is caused by the entry of an elfin-tressed little girl, who stares at us half impudently, half shyly, with bright black eyes, hesitates at the botanist's clumsy smile and nod, and then goes and stands by her father and surveys us steadfastly. "you have come far?" ventures our landlord, patting his daughter's shoulder. i glance at the botanist. "yes," i say, "we have." i expand. "we have come so far that this country of yours seems very strange indeed to us." "the mountains?" "not only the mountains." "you came up out of the ticino valley?" "no--not that way." "by the oberalp?" "no." "the furka?" "no." "not up from the lake?" "no." he looks puzzled. "we came," i say, "from another world." he seems trying to understand. then a thought strikes him, and he sends away his little girl with a needless message to her mother. "ah!" he says. "another world--eh? meaning----?" "another world--far in the deeps of space." then at the expression of his face one realises that a modern utopia will probably keep its more intelligent citizens for better work than inn-tending. he is evidently inaccessible to the idea we think of putting before him. he stares at us a moment, and then remarks, "there's the book to sign." we find ourselves confronted with a book, a little after the fashion of the familiar hotel visitors' book of earth. he places this before us, and beside it puts pen and ink and a slab, upon which ink has been freshly smeared. "thumbmarks," says my scientific friend hastily in english. "you show me how to do it," i say as quickly. he signs first, and i look over his shoulder. he is displaying more readiness than i should have expected. the book is ruled in broad transverse lines, and has a space for a name, for a number, and a thumbmark. he puts his thumb upon the slab and makes the thumbmark first with the utmost deliberation. meanwhile he studies the other two entries. the "numbers" of the previous guests above are complex muddles of letters and figures. he writes his name, then with a calm assurance writes down his number, a.m.a. . .ab+. i am wrung with momentary admiration. i follow his example, and fabricate an equally imposing signature. we think ourselves very clever. the landlord proffers finger bowls for our thumbs, and his eye goes, just a little curiously, to our entries. i decide it is advisable to pay and go before any conversation about our formulae arises. as we emerge into the corridor, and the morning sunlight of the utopian world, i see the landlord bending over the book. "come on," i say. "the most tiresome thing in the world is explanations, and i perceive that if we do not get along, they will fall upon us now." i glance back to discover the landlord and a gracefully robed woman standing outside the pretty simplicity of the utopian inn, watching us doubtfully as we recede. "come on," i insist. section we should go towards the schoellenen gorge, and as we went, our fresh morning senses would gather together a thousand factors for our impression of this more civilised world. a modern utopia will have done with yapping about nationality, and so the ugly fortifications, the barracks and military defilements of the earthly vale of urseren will be wanting. instead there will be a great multitude of gracious little houses clustering in college-like groups, no doubt about their common kitchens and halls, down and about the valley slopes. and there will be many more trees, and a great variety of trees--all the world will have been ransacked for winter conifers. despite the height of the valley there will be a double avenue along the road. this high road with its tramway would turn with us to descend the gorge, and we should hesitate upon the adventure of boarding the train. but now we should have the memory of our landlord's curious eye upon us, and we should decide at last to defer the risk of explanations such an enterprise might precipitate. we should go by the great road for a time, and note something of the difference between utopian and terrestrial engineering. the tramway, the train road, the culverts, and bridges, the urnerloch tunnel, into which the road plunges, will all be beautiful things. there is nothing in machinery, there is nothing in embankments and railways and iron bridges and engineering devices to oblige them to be ugly. ugliness is the measure of imperfection; a thing of human making is for the most part ugly in proportion to the poverty of its constructive thought, to the failure of its producer fully to grasp the purpose of its being. everything to which men continue to give thought and attention, which they make and remake in the same direction, and with a continuing desire to do as well as they can, grows beautiful inevitably. things made by mankind under modern conditions are ugly, primarily because our social organisation is ugly, because we live in an atmosphere of snatch and uncertainty, and do everything in an underbred strenuous manner. this is the misfortune of machinery, and not its fault. art, like some beautiful plant, lives on its atmosphere, and when the atmosphere is good, it will grow everywhere, and when it is bad nowhere. if we smashed and buried every machine, every furnace, every factory in the world, and without any further change set ourselves to home industries, hand labour, spade husbandry, sheep-folding and pig minding, we should still do things in the same haste, and achieve nothing but dirtiness, inconvenience, bad air, and another gaunt and gawky reflection of our intellectual and moral disorder. we should mend nothing. but in utopia a man who designs a tram road will be a cultivated man, an artist craftsman; he will strive, as a good writer, or a painter strives, to achieve the simplicity of perfection. he will make his girders and rails and parts as gracious as that first engineer, nature, has made the stems of her plants and the joints and gestures of her animals. to esteem him a sort of anti-artist, to count every man who makes things with his unaided thumbs an artist, and every man who uses machinery as a brute, is merely a passing phase of human stupidity. this tram road beside us will be a triumph of design. the idea will be so unfamiliar to us that for a time it will not occur to us that it is a system of beautiful objects at all. we shall admire its ingenious adaptation to the need of a district that is buried half the year in snow, the hard bed below, curved and guttered to do its own clearing, the great arched sleeper masses, raising the rails a good two yards above the ground, the easy, simple standards and insulators. then it will creep in upon our minds, "but, by jove! this is designed!" indeed the whole thing will be designed. later on, perhaps, we may find students in an art school working in competition to design an electric tram, students who know something of modern metallurgy, and something of electrical engineering, and we shall find people as keenly critical of a signal box or an iron bridge as they are on earth of----! heavens! what _are_ they critical about on earth? the quality and condition of a dress tie! we should make some unpatriotic comparisons with our own planet, no doubt. chapter the fourth the voice of nature section presently we recognise the fellow of the earthly devil's bridge, still intact as a footway, spanning the gorge, and old memories turn us off the road down the steep ruin of an ancient mule track towards it. it is our first reminder that utopia too must have a history. we cross it and find the reuss, for all that it has already lit and warmed and ventilated and cleaned several thousands of houses in the dale above, and for all that it drives those easy trams in the gallery overhead, is yet capable of as fine a cascade as ever it flung on earth. so we come to a rocky path, wild as one could wish, and descend, discoursing how good and fair an ordered world may be, but with a certain unformulated qualification in our minds about those thumb marks we have left behind. "do you recall the zermatt valley?" says my friend, "and how on earth it reeks and stinks with smoke?" "people make that an argument for obstructing change, instead of helping it forward!" and here perforce an episode intrudes. we are invaded by a talkative person. he overtakes us and begins talking forthwith in a fluty, but not unamiable, tenor. he is a great talker, this man, and a fairly respectable gesticulator, and to him it is we make our first ineffectual tentatives at explaining who indeed we are; but his flow of talk washes that all away again. he has a face of that rubicund, knobby type i have heard an indignant mineralogist speak of as botryoidal, and about it waves a quantity of disorderly blond hair. he is dressed in leather doublet and knee breeches, and he wears over these a streaming woollen cloak of faded crimson that give him a fine dramatic outline as he comes down towards us over the rocks. his feet, which are large and handsome, but bright pink with the keen morning air, are bare, except for sandals of leather. (it was the only time that we saw anyone in utopia with bare feet.) he salutes us with a scroll-like waving of his stick, and falls in with our slower paces. "climbers, i presume?" he says, "and you scorn these trams of theirs? i like you. so do i! why a man should consent to be dealt with as a bale of goods holding an indistinctive ticket--when god gave him legs and a face--passes my understanding." as he speaks, his staff indicates the great mechanical road that runs across the gorge and high overhead through a gallery in the rock, follows it along until it turns the corner, picks it up as a viaduct far below, traces it until it plunges into an arcade through a jutting crag, and there dismisses it with a spiral whirl. "_no_!" he says. he seems sent by providence, for just now we had been discussing how we should broach our remarkable situation to these utopians before our money is spent. our eyes meet, and i gather from the botanist that i am to open our case. i do my best. "you came from the other side of space!" says the man in the crimson cloak, interrupting me. "precisely! i like that--it's exactly my note! so do i! and you find this world strange! exactly my case! we are brothers! we shall be in sympathy. i am amazed, i have been amazed as long as i can remember, and i shall die, most certainly, in a state of incredulous amazement, at this remarkable world. eh? ... you found yourselves suddenly upon a mountain top! fortunate men!" he chuckled. "for my part i found myself in the still stranger position of infant to two parents of the most intractable dispositions!" "the fact remains," i protest. "a position, i can assure you, demanding tact of an altogether superhuman quality!" we desist for a space from the attempt to explain our remarkable selves, and for the rest of the time this picturesque and exceptional utopian takes the talk entirely under his control.... section an agreeable person, though a little distracting, he was, and he talked, we recall, of many things. he impressed us, we found afterwards, as a poseur beyond question, a conscious ishmaelite in the world of wit, and in some subtly inexplicable way as a most consummate ass. he talked first of the excellent and commodious trams that came from over the passes, and ran down the long valley towards middle switzerland, and of all the growth of pleasant homes and chalets amidst the heights that made the opening gorge so different from its earthly parallel, with a fine disrespect. "but they are beautiful," i protested. "they are graciously proportioned, they are placed in well-chosen positions; they give no offence to the eye." "what do we know of the beauty they replace? they are a mere rash. why should we men play the part of bacteria upon the face of our mother?" "all life is that!" "no! not natural life, not the plants and the gentle creatures that live their wild shy lives in forest and jungle. that is a part of her. that is the natural bloom of her complexion. but these houses and tramways and things, all made from ore and stuff torn from her veins----! you can't better my image of the rash. it's a morbid breaking out! i'd give it all for one--what is it?--free and natural chamois." "you live at times in a house?" i asked. he ignored my question. for him, untroubled nature was the best, he said, and, with a glance at his feet, the most beautiful. he professed himself a nazarite, and shook back his teutonic poet's shock of hair. so he came to himself, and for the rest of our walk he kept to himself as the thread of his discourse, and went over himself from top to toe, and strung thereon all topics under the sun by way of illustrating his splendours. but especially his foil was the relative folly, the unnaturalness and want of logic in his fellow men. he held strong views about the extreme simplicity of everything, only that men, in their muddle-headedness, had confounded it all. "hence, for example, these trams! they are always running up and down as though they were looking for the lost simplicity of nature. 'we dropped it here!'" he earned a living, we gathered, "some considerable way above the minimum wage," which threw a chance light on the labour problem--by perforating records for automatic musical machines--no doubt of the pianotist and pianola kind--and he spent all the leisure he could gain in going to and fro in the earth lecturing on "the need of a return to nature," and on "simple foods and simple ways." he did it for the love of it. it was very clear to us he had an inordinate impulse to lecture, and esteemed us fair game. he had been lecturing on these topics in italy, and he was now going back through the mountains to lecture in saxony, lecturing on the way, to perforate a lot more records, lecturing the while, and so start out lecturing again. he was undisguisedly glad to have us to lecture to by the way. he called our attention to his costume at an early stage. it was the embodiment of his ideal of nature-clothing, and it had been made especially for him at very great cost. "simply because naturalness has fled the earth, and has to be sought now, and washed out from your crushed complexities like gold." "i should have thought," said i, "that any clothing whatever was something of a slight upon the natural man." "not at all," said he, "not at all! you forget his natural vanity!" he was particularly severe on our artificial hoofs, as he called our boots, and our hats or hair destructors. "man is the real king of beasts and should wear a mane. the lion only wears it by consent and in captivity." he tossed his head. subsequently while we lunched and he waited for the specific natural dishes he ordered--they taxed the culinary resources of the inn to the utmost--he broached a comprehensive generalisation. "the animal kingdom and the vegetable kingdom are easily distinguished, and for the life of me i see no reason for confusing them. it is, i hold, a sin against nature. i keep them distinct in my mind and i keep them distinct in my person. no animal substance inside, no vegetable without;--what could be simpler or more logical? nothing upon me but leather and allwool garments, within, cereals, fruit, nuts, herbs, and the like. classification--order--man's function. he is here to observe and accentuate nature's simplicity. these people"--he swept an arm that tried not too personally to include us--"are filled and covered with confusion." he ate great quantities of grapes and finished with a cigarette. he demanded and drank a great horn of unfermented grape juice, and it seemed to suit him well. we three sat about the board--it was in an agreeable little arbour on a hill hard by the place where wassen stands on earth, and it looked down the valley to the uri rothstock, and ever and again we sought to turn his undeniable gift of exposition to the elucidation of our own difficulties. but we seemed to get little, his style was so elusive. afterwards, indeed, we found much information and many persuasions had soaked into us, but at the time it seemed to us he told us nothing. he indicated things by dots and dashes, instead of by good hard assertive lines. he would not pause to see how little we knew. sometimes his wit rose so high that he would lose sight of it himself, and then he would pause, purse his lips as if he whistled, and then till the bird came back to the lure, fill his void mouth with grapes. he talked of the relations of the sexes, and love--a passion he held in great contempt as being in its essence complex and disingenuous--and afterwards we found we had learnt much of what the marriage laws of utopia allow and forbid. "a simple natural freedom," he said, waving a grape in an illustrative manner, and so we gathered the modern utopia did not at any rate go to that. he spoke, too, of the regulation of unions, of people who were not allowed to have children, of complicated rules and interventions. "man," he said, "had ceased to be a natural product!" we tried to check him with questions at this most illuminating point, but he drove on like a torrent, and carried his topic out of sight. the world, he held, was overmanaged, and that was the root of all evil. he talked of the overmanagement of the world, and among other things of the laws that would not let a poor simple idiot, a "natural," go at large. and so we had our first glimpse of what utopia did with the feeble and insane. "we make all these distinctions between man and man, we exalt this and favour that, and degrade and seclude that; we make birth artificial, life artificial, death artificial." "you say _we_," said i, with the first glimmering of a new idea, "but _you_ don't participate?" "not i! i'm not one of your samurai, your voluntary noblemen who have taken the world in hand. i might be, of course, but i'm not." "samurai!" i repeated, "voluntary noblemen!" and for the moment could not frame a question. he whirled on to an attack on science, that stirred the botanist to controversy. he denounced with great bitterness all specialists whatever, and particularly doctors and engineers. "voluntary noblemen!" he said, "voluntary gods i fancy they think themselves," and i was left behind for a space in the perplexed examination of this parenthesis, while he and the botanist--who is sedulous to keep his digestion up to date with all the newest devices--argued about the good of medicine men. "the natural human constitution," said the blond-haired man, "is perfectly simple, with one simple condition--you must leave it to nature. but if you mix up things so distinctly and essentially separated as the animal and vegetable kingdoms for example, and ram _that_ in for it to digest, what can you expect? "ill health! there isn't such a thing--in the course of nature. but you shelter from nature in houses, you protect yourselves by clothes that are useful instead of being ornamental, you wash--with such abstersive chemicals as soap for example--and above all you consult doctors." he approved himself with a chuckle. "have you ever found anyone seriously ill without doctors and medicine about? never! you say a lot of people would die without shelter and medical attendance! no doubt--but a natural death. a natural death is better than an artificial life, surely? that's--to be frank with you--the very citadel of my position." that led him, and rather promptly, before the botanist could rally to reply, to a great tirade against the laws that forbade "sleeping out." he denounced them with great vigour, and alleged that for his own part he broke that law whenever he could, found some corner of moss, shaded from an excess of dew, and there sat up to sleep. he slept, he said, always in a sitting position, with his head on his wrists, and his wrists on his knees--the simple natural position for sleep in man.... he said it would be far better if all the world slept out, and all the houses were pulled down. you will understand, perhaps, the subdued irritation i felt, as i sat and listened to the botanist entangling himself in the logical net of this wild nonsense. it impressed me as being irrelevant. when one comes to a utopia one expects a cicerone, one expects a person as precise and insistent and instructive as an american advertisement--the advertisement of one of those land agents, for example, who print their own engaging photographs to instil confidence and begin, "you want to buy real estate." one expects to find all utopians absolutely convinced of the perfection of their utopia, and incapable of receiving a hint against its order. and here was this purveyor of absurdities! and yet now that i come to think it over, is not this too one of the necessary differences between a modern utopia and those finite compact settlements of the older school of dreamers? it is not to be a unanimous world any more, it is to have all and more of the mental contrariety we find in the world of the real; it is no longer to be perfectly explicable, it is just our own vast mysterious welter, with some of the blackest shadows gone, with a clearer illumination, and a more conscious and intelligent will. irrelevance is not irrelevant to such a scheme, and our blond-haired friend is exactly just where he ought to be here. still---- section i ceased to listen to the argumentation of my botanist with this apostle of nature. the botanist, in his scientific way, was, i believe, defending the learned professions. (he thinks and argues like drawing on squared paper.) it struck me as transiently remarkable that a man who could not be induced to forget himself and his personal troubles on coming into a whole new world, who could waste our first evening in utopia upon a paltry egotistical love story, should presently become quite heated and impersonal in the discussion of scientific professionalism. he was--absorbed. i can't attempt to explain these vivid spots and blind spots in the imaginations of sane men; there they are! "you say," said the botanist, with a prevalent index finger, and the resolute deliberation of a big siege gun being lugged into action over rough ground by a number of inexperienced men, "you prefer a natural death to an artificial life. but what is your _definition_ (stress) of artificial? ..." and after lunch too! i ceased to listen, flicked the end of my cigarette ash over the green trellis of the arbour, stretched my legs with a fine restfulness, leant back, and gave my mind to the fields and houses that lay adown the valley. what i saw interwove with fragmentary things our garrulous friend had said, and with the trend of my own speculations.... the high road, with its tramways and its avenues on either side, ran in a bold curve, and with one great loop of descent, down the opposite side of the valley, and below crossed again on a beautiful viaduct, and dipped into an arcade in the side of the bristenstock. our inn stood out boldly, high above the level this took. the houses clustered in their collegiate groups over by the high road, and near the subordinate way that ran almost vertically below us and past us and up towards the valley of the meien reuss. there were one or two utopians cutting and packing the flowery mountain grass in the carefully levelled and irrigated meadows by means of swift, light machines that ran on things like feet and seemed to devour the herbage, and there were many children and a woman or so, going to and fro among the houses near at hand. i guessed a central building towards the high road must be the school from which these children were coming. i noted the health and cleanliness of these young heirs of utopia as they passed below. the pervading quality of the whole scene was a sane order, the deliberate solution of problems, a progressive intention steadily achieving itself, and the aspect that particularly occupied me was the incongruity of this with our blond-haired friend. on the one hand here was a state of affairs that implied a power of will, an organising and controlling force, the co-operation of a great number of vigorous people to establish and sustain its progress, and on the other this creature of pose and vanity, with his restless wit, his perpetual giggle at his own cleverness, his manifest incapacity for comprehensive co-operation. now, had i come upon a hopeless incompatibility? was this the reductio ad absurdum of my vision, and must it even as i sat there fade, dissolve, and vanish before my eyes? there was no denying our blond friend. if this utopia is indeed to parallel our earth, man for man--and i see no other reasonable choice to that--there must be this sort of person and kindred sorts of persons in great abundance. the desire and gift to see life whole is not the lot of the great majority of men, the service of truth is the privilege of the elect, and these clever fools who choke the avenues of the world of thought, who stick at no inconsistency, who oppose, obstruct, confuse, will find only the freer scope amidst utopian freedoms. (they argued on, these two, as i worried my brains with riddles. it was like a fight between a cock sparrow and a tortoise; they both went on in their own way, regardless of each other's proceedings. the encounter had an air of being extremely lively, and the moments of contact were few. "but you mistake my point," the blond man was saying, disordering his hair--which had become unruffled in the preoccupation of dispute--with a hasty movement of his hand, "you don't appreciate the position i take up.") "ugh!" said i privately, and lighted another cigarette and went away into my own thoughts with that. the position he takes up! that's the way of your intellectual fool, the universe over. he takes up a position, and he's going to be the most brilliant, delightful, engaging and invincible of gay delicious creatures defending that position you can possibly imagine. and even when the case is not so bad as that, there still remains the quality. we "take up our positions," silly little contentious creatures that we are, we will not see the right in one another, we will not patiently state and restate, and honestly accommodate and plan, and so we remain at sixes and sevens. we've all a touch of gladstone in us, and try to the last moment to deny we have made a turn. and so our poor broken-springed world jolts athwart its trackless destiny. try to win into line with some fellow weakling, and see the little host of suspicions, aggressions, misrepresentations, your approach will stir--like summer flies on a high road--the way he will try to score a point and claim you as a convert to what he has always said, his fear lest the point should be scored to you. it is not only such gross and palpable cases as our blond and tenoring friend. i could find the thing negligible were it only that. but when one sees the same thread woven into men who are leaders, men who sway vast multitudes, who are indeed great and powerful men; when one sees how unfair they can be, how unteachable, the great blind areas in their eyes also, their want of generosity, then one's doubts gather like mists across this utopian valley, its vistas pale, its people become unsubstantial phantoms, all its order and its happiness dim and recede.... if we are to have any utopia at all, we must have a clear common purpose, and a great and steadfast movement of will to override all these incurably egotistical dissentients. something is needed wide and deep enough to float the worst of egotisms away. the world is not to be made right by acclamation and in a day, and then for ever more trusted to run alone. it is manifest this utopia could not come about by chance and anarchy, but by co-ordinated effort and a community of design, and to tell of just land laws and wise government, a wisely balanced economic system, and wise social arrangements without telling how it was brought about, and how it is sustained against the vanity and self-indulgence, the moody fluctuations and uncertain imaginations, the heat and aptitude for partisanship that lurk, even when they do not flourish, in the texture of every man alive, is to build a palace without either door or staircase. i had not this in mind when i began. somewhere in the modern utopia there must be adequate men, men the very antithesis of our friend, capable of self-devotion, of intentional courage, of honest thought, and steady endeavour. there must be a literature to embody their common idea, of which this modern utopia is merely the material form; there must be some organisation, however slight, to keep them in touch one with the other. who will these men be? will they be a caste? a race? an organisation in the nature of a church? ... and there came into my mind the words of our acquaintance, that he was not one of these "voluntary noblemen." at first that phrase struck me as being merely queer, and then i began to realise certain possibilities that were wrapped up in it. the animus of our chance friend, at any rate, went to suggest that here was his antithesis. evidently what he is not, will be the class to contain what is needed here. evidently. section i was recalled from my meditations by the hand of the blond-haired man upon my arm. i looked up to discover the botanist had gone into the inn. the blond-haired man was for a moment almost stripped of pose. "i say," he said. "weren't you listening to me?" "no," i said bluntly. his surprise was manifest. but by an effort he recalled what he had meant to say. "your friend," he said, "has been telling me, in spite of my sustained interruptions, a most incredible story." i wondered how the botanist managed to get it in. "about that woman?" i said. "about a man and a woman who hate each other and can't get away from each other." "i know," i said. "it sounds absurd." "it is." "why can't they get away? what is there to keep them together? it's ridiculous. i----" "quite." "he _would_ tell it to me." "it's his way." "he interrupted me. and there's no point in it. is he----" he hesitated, "mad?" "there's a whole world of people mad with him," i answered after a pause. the perplexed expression of the blond-haired man intensified. it is vain to deny that he enlarged the scope of his inquiry, visibly if not verbally. "dear me!" he said, and took up something he had nearly forgotten. "and you found yourselves suddenly on a mountain side? ... i thought you were joking." i turned round upon him with a sudden access of earnestness. at least i meant my manner to be earnest, but to him it may have seemed wild. "you," i said, "are an original sort of man. do not be alarmed. perhaps you will understand.... we were not joking." "but, my dear fellow!" "i mean it! we come from an inferior world! like this, but out of order." "no world could be more out of order----" "you play at that and have your fun. but there's no limit to the extent to which a world of men may get out of gear. in our world----" he nodded, but his eye had ceased to be friendly. "men die of starvation; people die by the hundred thousand needlessly and painfully; men and women are lashed together to make hell for each other; children are born--abominably, and reared in cruelty and folly; there is a thing called war, a horror of blood and vileness. the whole thing seems to me at times a cruel and wasteful wilderness of muddle. you in this decent world have no means of understanding----" "no?" he said, and would have begun, but i went on too quickly. "no! when i see you dandering through this excellent and hopeful world, objecting, obstructing, and breaking the law, displaying your wit on science and order, on the men who toil so ingloriously to swell and use the knowledge that is salvation, this salvation for which _our_ poor world cries to heaven----" "you don't mean to say," he said, "that you really come from some other world where things are different and worse?" "i do." "and you want to talk to me about it instead of listening to me?" "yes." "oh, nonsense!" he said abruptly. "you can't do it--really. i can assure you this present world touches the nadir of imbecility. you and your friend, with his love for the lady who's so mysteriously tied--you're romancing! people could not possibly do such things. it's--if you'll excuse me--ridiculous. _he_ began--he would begin. a most tiresome story--simply bore me down. we'd been talking very agreeably before that, or rather i had, about the absurdity of marriage laws, the interference with a free and natural life, and so on, and suddenly he burst like a dam. no!" he paused. "it's really impossible. you behave perfectly well for a time, and then you begin to interrupt.... and such a childish story, too!" he spun round upon his chair, got up, glanced at me over his shoulder, and walked out of the arbour. he stepped aside hastily to avoid too close an approach to the returning botanist. "impossible," i heard him say. he was evidently deeply aggrieved by us. i saw him presently a little way off in the garden, talking to the landlord of our inn, and looking towards us as he talked--they both looked towards us--and after that, without the ceremony of a farewell, he disappeared, and we saw him no more. we waited for him a little while, and then i expounded the situation to the botanist.... "we are going to have a very considerable amount of trouble explaining ourselves," i said in conclusion. "we are here by an act of the imagination, and that is just one of those metaphysical operations that are so difficult to make credible. we are, by the standard of bearing and clothing i remark about us, unattractive in dress and deportment. we have nothing to produce to explain our presence here, no bit of a flying machine or a space travelling sphere or any of the apparatus customary on these occasions. we have no means beyond a dwindling amount of small change out of a gold coin, upon which i suppose in ethics and the law some native utopian had a better claim. we may already have got ourselves into trouble with the authorities with that confounded number of yours!" "you did one too!" "all the more bother, perhaps, when the thing is brought home to us. there's no need for recriminations. the thing of moment is that we find ourselves in the position--not to put too fine a point upon it--of tramps in this admirable world. the question of all others of importance to us at present is what do they do with their tramps? because sooner or later, and the balance of probability seems to incline to sooner, whatever they do with their tramps that they will do with us." "unless we can get some work." "exactly--unless we can get some work." "get work!" the botanist leant forward on his arms and looked out of the arbour with an expression of despondent discovery. "i say," he remarked; "this is a strange world--quite strange and new. i'm only beginning to realise just what it means for us. the mountains there are the same, the old bristenstock and all the rest of it; but these houses, you know, and that roadway, and the costumes, and that machine that is licking up the grass there--only...." he sought expression. "who knows what will come in sight round the bend of the valley there? who knows what may happen to us anywhere? we don't know who rules over us even ... we don't know that!" "no," i echoed, "we don't know _that_." chapter the fifth failure in a modern utopia section the old utopias--save for the breeding schemes of plato and campanella--ignored that reproductive competition among individualities which is the substance of life, and dealt essentially with its incidentals. the endless variety of men, their endless gradation of quality, over which the hand of selection plays, and to which we owe the unmanageable complication of real life, is tacitly set aside. the real world is a vast disorder of accidents and incalculable forces in which men survive or fail. a modern utopia, unlike its predecessors, dare not pretend to change the last condition; it may order and humanise the conflict, but men must still survive or fail. most utopias present themselves as going concerns, as happiness in being; they make it an essential condition that a happy land can have no history, and all the citizens one is permitted to see are well looking and upright and mentally and morally in tune. but we are under the dominion of a logic that obliges us to take over the actual population of the world with only such moral and mental and physical improvements as lie within their inherent possibilities, and it is our business to ask what utopia will do with its congenital invalids, its idiots and madmen, its drunkards and men of vicious mind, its cruel and furtive souls, its stupid people, too stupid to be of use to the community, its lumpish, unteachable and unimaginative people? and what will it do with the man who is "poor" all round, the rather spiritless, rather incompetent low-grade man who on earth sits in the den of the sweater, tramps the streets under the banner of the unemployed, or trembles--in another man's cast-off clothing, and with an infinity of hat-touching--on the verge of rural employment? these people will have to be in the descendant phase, the species must be engaged in eliminating them; there is no escape from that, and conversely the people of exceptional quality must be ascendant. the better sort of people, so far as they can be distinguished, must have the fullest freedom of public service, and the fullest opportunity of parentage. and it must be open to every man to approve himself worthy of ascendency. the way of nature in this process is to kill the weaker and the sillier, to crush them, to starve them, to overwhelm them, using the stronger and more cunning as her weapon. but man is the unnatural animal, the rebel child of nature, and more and more does he turn himself against the harsh and fitful hand that reared him. he sees with a growing resentment the multitude of suffering ineffectual lives over which his species tramples in its ascent. in the modern utopia he will have set himself to change the ancient law. no longer will it be that failures must suffer and perish lest their breed increase, but the breed of failure must not increase, lest they suffer and perish, and the race with them. now we need not argue here to prove that the resources of the world and the energy of mankind, were they organised sanely, are amply sufficient to supply every material need of every living human being. and if it can be so contrived that every human being shall live in a state of reasonable physical and mental comfort, without the reproduction of inferior types, there is no reason whatever why that should not be secured. but there must be a competition in life of some sort to determine who are to be pushed to the edge, and who are to prevail and multiply. whatever we do, man will remain a competitive creature, and though moral and intellectual training may vary and enlarge his conception of success and fortify him with refinements and consolations, no utopia will ever save him completely from the emotional drama of struggle, from exultations and humiliations, from pride and prostration and shame. he lives in success and failure just as inevitably as he lives in space and time. but we may do much to make the margin of failure endurable. on earth, for all the extravagance of charity, the struggle for the mass of men at the bottom resolves itself into a struggle, and often a very foul and ugly struggle, for food, shelter, and clothing. deaths outright from exposure and starvation are now perhaps uncommon, but for the multitude there are only miserable houses, uncomfortable clothes, and bad and insufficient food; fractional starvation and exposure, that is to say. a utopia planned upon modern lines will certainly have put an end to that. it will insist upon every citizen being being properly housed, well nourished, and in good health, reasonably clean and clothed healthily, and upon that insistence its labour laws will be founded. in a phrasing that will be familiar to everyone interested in social reform, it will maintain a standard of life. any house, unless it be a public monument, that does not come up to its rising standard of healthiness and convenience, the utopian state will incontinently pull down, and pile the material and charge the owner for the labour; any house unduly crowded or dirty, it must in some effectual manner, directly or indirectly, confiscate and clear and clean. and any citizen indecently dressed, or ragged and dirty, or publicly unhealthy, or sleeping abroad homeless, or in any way neglected or derelict, must come under its care. it will find him work if he can and will work, it will take him to it, it will register him and lend him the money wherewith to lead a comely life until work can be found or made for him, and it will give him credit and shelter him and strengthen him if he is ill. in default of private enterprises it will provide inns for him and food, and it will--by itself acting as the reserve employer--maintain a minimum wage which will cover the cost of a decent life. the state will stand at the back of the economic struggle as the reserve employer of labour. this most excellent idea does, as a matter of fact, underlie the british institution of the workhouse, but it is jumbled up with the relief of old age and infirmity, it is administered parochially and on the supposition that all population is static and localised whereas every year it becomes more migratory; it is administered without any regard to the rising standards of comfort and self-respect in a progressive civilisation, and it is administered grudgingly. the thing that is done is done as unwilling charity by administrators who are often, in the rural districts at least, competing for low-priced labour, and who regard want of employment as a crime. but if it were possible for any citizen in need of money to resort to a place of public employment as a right, and there work for a week or month without degradation upon certain minimum terms, it seems fairly certain that no one would work, except as the victim of some quite exceptional and temporary accident, for less. the work publicly provided would have to be toilsome, but not cruel or incapacitating. a choice of occupations would need to be afforded, occupations adapted to different types of training and capacity, with some residual employment of a purely laborious and mechanical sort for those who were incapable of doing the things that required intelligence. necessarily this employment by the state would be a relief of economic pressure, but it would not be considered a charity done to the individual, but a public service. it need not pay, any more than the police need pay, but it could probably be done at a small margin of loss. there is a number of durable things bound finally to be useful that could be made and stored whenever the tide of more highly paid employment ebbed and labour sank to its minimum, bricks, iron from inferior ores, shaped and preserved timber, pins, nails, plain fabrics of cotton and linen, paper, sheet glass, artificial fuel, and so on; new roads could be made and public buildings reconstructed, inconveniences of all sorts removed, until under the stimulus of accumulating material, accumulating investments or other circumstances, the tide of private enterprise flowed again. the state would provide these things for its citizen as though it was his right to require them; he would receive as a shareholder in the common enterprise and not with any insult of charity. but on the other hand it will require that the citizen who renders the minimum of service for these concessions shall not become a parent until he is established in work at a rate above the minimum, and free of any debt he may have incurred. the state will never press for its debt, nor put a limit to its accumulation so long as a man or woman remains childless; it will not even grudge them temporary spells of good fortune when they may lift their earnings above the minimum wage. it will pension the age of everyone who cares to take a pension, and it will maintain special guest homes for the very old to which they may come as paying guests, spending their pensions there. by such obvious devices it will achieve the maximum elimination of its feeble and spiritless folk in every generation with the minimum of suffering and public disorder. section but the mildly incompetent, the spiritless and dull, the poorer sort who are ill, do not exhaust our utopian problem. there remain idiots and lunatics, there remain perverse and incompetent persons, there are people of weak character who become drunkards, drug takers, and the like. then there are persons tainted with certain foul and transmissible diseases. all these people spoil the world for others. they may become parents, and with most of them there is manifestly nothing to be done but to seclude them from the great body of the population. you must resort to a kind of social surgery. you cannot have social freedom in your public ways, your children cannot speak to whom they will, your girls and gentle women cannot go abroad while some sorts of people go free. and there are violent people, and those who will not respect the property of others, thieves and cheats, they, too, so soon as their nature is confirmed, must pass out of the free life of our ordered world. so soon as there can be no doubt of the disease or baseness of the individual, so soon as the insanity or other disease is assured, or the crime repeated a third time, or the drunkenness or misdemeanour past its seventh occasion (let us say), so soon must he or she pass out of the common ways of men. the dreadfulness of all such proposals as this lies in the possibility of their execution falling into the hands of hard, dull, and cruel administrators. but in the case of a utopia one assumes the best possible government, a government as merciful and deliberate as it is powerful and decisive. you must not too hastily imagine these things being done--as they would be done on earth at present--by a number of zealous half-educated people in a state of panic at a quite imaginary "rapid multiplication of the unfit." no doubt for first offenders, and for all offenders under five-and-twenty, the modern utopia will attempt cautionary and remedial treatment. there will be disciplinary schools and colleges for the young, fair and happy places, but with less confidence and more restraint than the schools and colleges of the ordinary world. in remote and solitary regions these enclosures will lie, they will be fenced in and forbidden to the common run of men, and there, remote from all temptation, the defective citizen will be schooled. there will be no masking of the lesson; "which do you value most, the wide world of humanity, or this evil trend in you?" from that discipline at last the prisoners will return. but the others; what would a saner world do with them? our world is still vindictive, but the all-reaching state of utopia will have the strength that begets mercy. quietly the outcast will go from among his fellow men. there will be no drumming of him out of the ranks, no tearing off of epaulettes, no smiting in the face. the thing must be just public enough to obviate secret tyrannies, and that is all. there would be no killing, no lethal chambers. no doubt utopia will kill all deformed and monstrous and evilly diseased births, but for the rest, the state will hold itself accountable for their being. there is no justice in nature perhaps, but the idea of justice must be sacred in any good society. lives that statesmanship has permitted, errors it has not foreseen and educated against, must not be punished by death. if the state does not keep faith, no one will keep faith. crime and bad lives are the measure of a state's failure, all crime in the end is the crime of the community. even for murder utopia will not, i think, kill. i doubt even if there will be jails. no men are quite wise enough, good enough and cheap enough to staff jails as a jail ought to be staffed. perhaps islands will be chosen, islands lying apart from the highways of the sea, and to these the state will send its exiles, most of them thanking heaven, no doubt, to be quit of a world of prigs. the state will, of course, secure itself against any children from these people, that is the primary object in their seclusion, and perhaps it may even be necessary to make these island prisons a system of island monasteries and island nunneries. upon that i am not competent to speak, but if i may believe the literature of the subject--unhappily a not very well criticised literature--it is not necessary to enforce this separation. [footnote: see for example dr. w. a. chapple's the fertility of the unfit.] about such islands patrol boats will go, there will be no freedoms of boat building, and it may be necessary to have armed guards at the creeks and quays. beyond that the state will give these segregated failures just as full a liberty as they can have. if it interferes any further it will be simply to police the islands against the organisation of serious cruelty, to maintain the freedom of any of the detained who wish it to transfer themselves to other islands, and so to keep a check upon tyranny. the insane, of course, will demand care and control, but there is no reason why the islands of the hopeless drunkard, for example, should not each have a virtual autonomy, have at the most a resident and a guard. i believe that a community of drunkards might be capable of organising even its own bad habit to the pitch of tolerable existence. i do not see why such an island should not build and order for itself and manufacture and trade. "your ways are not our ways," the world state will say; "but here is freedom and a company of kindred souls. elect your jolly rulers, brew if you will, and distil; here are vine cuttings and barley fields; do as it pleases you to do. we will take care of the knives, but for the rest--deal yourselves with god!" and you see the big convict steamship standing in to the island of incurable cheats. the crew are respectfully at their quarters, ready to lend a hand overboard, but wide awake, and the captain is hospitably on the bridge to bid his guests good-bye and keep an eye on the movables. the new citizens for this particular alsatia, each no doubt with his personal belongings securely packed and at hand, crowd the deck and study the nearing coast. bright, keen faces would be there, and we, were we by any chance to find ourselves beside the captain, might recognise the double of this great earthly magnate or that, petticoat lane and park lane cheek by jowl. the landing part of the jetty is clear of people, only a government man or so stands there to receive the boat and prevent a rush, but beyond the gates a number of engagingly smart-looking individuals loiter speculatively. one figures a remarkable building labelled custom house, an interesting fiscal revival this population has made, and beyond, crowding up the hill, the painted walls of a number of comfortable inns clamour loudly. one or two inhabitants in reduced circumstances would act as hotel touts, there are several hotel omnibuses and a bureau de change, certainly a bureau de change. and a small house with a large board, aimed point-blank seaward, declares itself a gratis information office, and next to it rises the graceful dome of a small casino. beyond, great hoardings proclaim the advantages of many island specialities, a hustling commerce, and the opening of a public lottery. there is a large cheap-looking barrack, the school of commercial science for gentlemen of inadequate training.... altogether a very go-ahead looking little port it would be, and though this disembarkation would have none of the flow of hilarious good fellowship that would throw a halo of genial noise about the islands of drink, it is doubtful if the new arrivals would feel anything very tragic in the moment. here at last was scope for adventure after their hearts. this sounds more fantastic than it is. but what else is there to do, unless you kill? you must seclude, but why should you torment? all modern prisons are places of torture by restraint, and the habitual criminal plays the part of a damaged mouse at the mercy of the cat of our law. he has his little painful run, and back he comes again to a state more horrible even than destitution. there are no alsatias left in the world. for my own part i can think of no crime, unless it is reckless begetting or the wilful transmission of contagious disease, for which the bleak terrors, the solitudes and ignominies of the modern prison do not seem outrageously cruel. if you want to go so far as that, then kill. why, once you are rid of them, should you pester criminals to respect an uncongenial standard of conduct? into such islands of exile as this a modern utopia will have to purge itself. there is no alternative that i can contrive. section will a utopian be free to be idle? work has to be done, every day humanity is sustained by its collective effort, and without a constant recurrence of effort in the single man as in the race as a whole, there is neither health nor happiness. the permanent idleness of a human being is not only burthensome to the world, but his own secure misery. but unprofitable occupation is also intended by idleness, and it may be considered whether that freedom also will be open to the utopian. conceivably it will, like privacy, locomotion, and almost all the freedoms of life, and on the same terms--if he possess the money to pay for it. that last condition may produce a shock in minds accustomed to the proposition that money is the root of all evil, and to the idea that utopia necessarily implies something rather oaken and hand-made and primitive in all these relations. of course, money is not the root of any evil in the world; the root of all evil in the world, and the root of all good too, is the will to live, and money becomes harmful only when by bad laws and bad economic organisation it is more easily attained by bad men than good. it is as reasonable to say food is the root of all disease, because so many people suffer from excessive and unwise eating. the sane economic ideal is to make the possession of money the clear indication of public serviceableness, and the more nearly that ideal is attained, the smaller is the justification of poverty and the less the hardship of being poor. in barbaric and disorderly countries it is almost honourable to be indigent and unquestionably virtuous to give to a beggar, and even in the more or less civilised societies of earth, so many children come into life hopelessly handicapped, that austerity to the poor is regarded as the meanest of mean virtues. but in utopia everyone will have had an education and a certain minimum of nutrition and training; everyone will be insured against ill-health and accidents; there will be the most efficient organisation for balancing the pressure of employment and the presence of disengaged labour, and so to be moneyless will be clear evidence of unworthiness. in utopia, no one will dream of giving to a casual beggar, and no one will dream of begging. there will need to be, in the place of the british casual wards, simple but comfortable inns with a low tariff--controlled to a certain extent no doubt, and even in some cases maintained, by the state. this tariff will have such a definite relation to the minimum permissible wage, that a man who has incurred no liabilities through marriage or the like relationship, will be able to live in comfort and decency upon that minimum wage, pay his small insurance premium against disease, death, disablement, or ripening years, and have a margin for clothing and other personal expenses. but he will get neither shelter nor food, except at the price of his freedom, unless he can produce money. but suppose a man without money in a district where employment is not to be found for him; suppose the amount of employment to have diminished in the district with such suddenness as to have stranded him there. or suppose he has quarrelled with the only possible employer, or that he does not like his particular work. then no doubt the utopian state, which wants everyone to be just as happy as the future welfare of the race permits, will come to his assistance. one imagines him resorting to a neat and business-like post-office, and stating his case to a civil and intelligent official. in any sane state the economic conditions of every quarter of the earth will be watched as constantly as its meteorological phases, and a daily map of the country within a radius of three or four hundred miles showing all the places where labour is needed will hang upon the post-office wall. to this his attention will be directed. the man out of work will decide to try his luck in this place or that, and the public servant, the official, will make a note of his name, verify his identity--the freedom of utopia will not be incompatible with the universal registration of thumb-marks--and issue passes for travel and coupons for any necessary inn accommodation on his way to the chosen destination. there he will seek a new employer. such a free change of locality once or twice a year from a region of restricted employment to a region of labour shortage will be among the general privileges of the utopian citizen. but suppose that in no district in the world is there work within the capacity of this particular man? before we suppose that, we must take into consideration the general assumption one is permitted to make in all utopian speculations. all utopians will be reasonably well educated upon utopian lines; there will be no illiterates unless they are unteachable imbeciles, no rule-of-thumb toilers as inadaptable as trained beasts. the utopian worker will be as versatile as any well-educated man is on earth to-day, and no trade union will impose a limit to his activities. the world will be his union. if the work he does best and likes best is not to be found, there is still the work he likes second best. lacking his proper employment, he will turn to some kindred trade. but even with that adaptability, it may be that sometimes he will not find work. such a disproportion between the work to be done and the people to do it may arise as to present a surplus of labour everywhere. this disproportion may be due to two causes: to an increase of population without a corresponding increase of enterprises, or to a diminution of employment throughout the world due to the completion of great enterprises, to economies achieved, or to the operation of new and more efficient labour-saving appliances. through either cause, a world state may find itself doing well except for an excess of citizens of mediocre and lower quality. but the first cause may be anticipated by wise marriage laws.... the full discussion of these laws will come later, but here one may insist that utopia will control the increase of its population. without the determination and ability to limit that increase as well as to stimulate it whenever it is necessary, no utopia is possible. that was clearly demonstrated by malthus for all time. the second cause is not so easily anticipated, but then, though its immediate result in glutting the labour market is similar, its final consequences are entirely different from those of the first. the whole trend of a scientific mechanical civilisation is continually to replace labour by machinery and to increase it in its effectiveness by organisation, and so quite independently of any increase in population labour must either fall in value until it can compete against and check the cheapening process, or if that is prevented, as it will be in utopia, by a minimum wage, come out of employment. there is no apparent limit to this process. but a surplus of efficient labour at the minimum wage is exactly the condition that should stimulate new enterprises, and that in a state saturated with science and prolific in invention will stimulate new enterprises. an increasing surplus of available labour without an absolute increase of population, an increasing surplus of labour due to increasing economy and not to proliferation, and which, therefore, does not press on and disarrange the food supply, is surely the ideal condition for a progressive civilisation. i am inclined to think that, since labour will be regarded as a delocalised and fluid force, it will be the world state and not the big municipalities ruling the force areas that will be the reserve employer of labour. very probably it will be convenient for the state to hand over the surplus labour for municipal purposes, but that is another question. all over the world the labour exchanges will be reporting the fluctuating pressure of economic demand and transferring workers from this region of excess to that of scarcity; and whenever the excess is universal, the world state--failing an adequate development of private enterprise--will either reduce the working day and so absorb the excess, or set on foot some permanent special works of its own, paying the minimum wage and allowing them to progress just as slowly or just as rapidly as the ebb and flow of labour dictated. but with sane marriage and birth laws there is no reason to suppose such calls upon the resources and initiative of the world more than temporary and exceptional occasions. section the existence of our blond bare-footed friend was evidence enough that in a modern utopia a man will be free to be just as idle or uselessly busy as it pleases him, after he has earned the minimum wage. he must do that, of course, to pay for his keep, to pay his assurance tax against ill-health or old age, and any charge or debt paternity may have brought upon him. the world state of the modern utopist is no state of moral compulsions. if, for example, under the restricted utopian scheme of inheritance, a man inherited sufficient money to release him from the need to toil, he would be free to go where he pleased and do what he liked. a certain proportion of men at ease is good for the world; work as a moral obligation is the morality of slaves, and so long as no one is overworked there is no need to worry because some few are underworked. utopia does not exist as a solace for envy. from leisure, in a good moral and intellectual atmosphere, come experiments, come philosophy and the new departures. in any modern utopia there must be many leisurely people. we are all too obsessed in the real world by the strenuous ideal, by the idea that the vehement incessant fool is the only righteous man. nothing done in a hurry, nothing done under strain, is really well done. a state where all are working hard, where none go to and fro, easily and freely, loses touch with the purpose of freedom. but inherited independence will be the rarest and least permanent of utopian facts, for the most part that wider freedom will have to be earned, and the inducements to men and women to raise their personal value far above the minimum wage will be very great indeed. thereby will come privacies, more space in which to live, liberty to go everywhere and do no end of things, the power and freedom to initiate interesting enterprises and assist and co-operate with interesting people, and indeed all the best things of life. the modern utopia will give a universal security indeed, and exercise the minimum of compulsions to toil, but it will offer some acutely desirable prizes. the aim of all these devices, the minimum wage, the standard of life, provision for all the feeble and unemployed and so forth, is not to rob life of incentives but to change their nature, to make life not less energetic, but less panic-stricken and violent and base, to shift the incidence of the struggle for existence from our lower to our higher emotions, so to anticipate and neutralise the motives of the cowardly and bestial, that the ambitious and energetic imagination which is man's finest quality may become the incentive and determining factor in survival. section after we have paid for our lunch in the little inn that corresponds to wassen, the botanist and i would no doubt spend the rest of the forenoon in the discussion of various aspects and possibilities of utopian labour laws. we should examine our remaining change, copper coins of an appearance ornamental rather than reassuring, and we should decide that after what we had gathered from the man with the blond hair, it would, on the whole, be advisable to come to the point with the labour question forthwith. at last we should draw the deep breath of resolution and arise and ask for the public office. we should know by this time that the labour bureau sheltered with the post-office and other public services in one building. the public office of utopia would of course contain a few surprises for two men from terrestrial england. you imagine us entering, the botanist lagging a little behind me, and my first attempts to be offhand and commonplace in a demand for work. the office is in charge of a quick-eyed little woman of six and thirty perhaps, and she regards us with a certain keenness of scrutiny. "where are your papers?" she asks. i think for a moment of the documents in my pocket, my passport chequered with visas and addressed in my commendation and in the name of her late majesty by we, robert arthur talbot gascoigne cecil, marquess of salisbury, earl of salisbury, viscount cranborne, baron cecil, and so forth, to all whom it may concern, my carte d'identite (useful on minor occasions) of the touring club de france, my green ticket to the reading room of the british museum, and my lettre d'indication from the london and county bank. a foolish humour prompts me to unfold all these, hand them to her and take the consequences, but i resist. "lost," i say, briefly. "both lost?" she asks, looking at my friend. "both," i answer. "how?" i astonish myself by the readiness of my answer. "i fell down a snow slope and they came out of my pocket." "and exactly the same thing happened to both of you?" "no. he'd given me his to put with my own." she raised her eyebrows. "his pocket is defective," i add, a little hastily. her manners are too utopian for her to follow that up. she seems to reflect on procedure. "what are your numbers?" she asks, abruptly. a vision of that confounded visitors' book at the inn above comes into my mind. "let me _see_," i say, and pat my forehead and reflect, refraining from the official eye before me. "let me _see_." "what is yours?" she asks the botanist. "a. b.," he says, slowly, "little a, nine four seven, i _think_----" "don't you know?" "not exactly," says the botanist, very agreeably. "no." "do you mean to say neither of you know your own numbers?" says the little post-mistress, with a rising note. "yes," i say, with an engaging smile and trying to keep up a good social tone. "it's queer, isn't it? we've both forgotten." "you're joking," she suggests. "well," i temporise. "i suppose you've got your thumbs?" "the fact is----" i say and hesitate. "we've got our thumbs, of course." "then i shall have to send a thumb-print down to the office and get your number from that. but are you sure you haven't your papers or numbers? it's very queer." we admit rather sheepishly that it's queer, and question one another silently. she turns thoughtfully for the thumb-marking slab, and as she does so, a man enters the office. at the sight of him she asks with a note of relief, "what am i to do, sir, here?" he looks from her to us gravely, and his eye lights to curiosity at our dress. "what is the matter, madam?" he asks, in a courteous voice. she explains. so far the impression we have had of our utopia is one of a quite unearthly sanity, of good management and comprehensive design in every material thing, and it has seemed to us a little incongruous that all the utopians we have talked to, our host of last night, the post-mistress and our garrulous tramp, have been of the most commonplace type. but suddenly there looks out from this man's pose and regard a different quality, a quality altogether nearer that of the beautiful tramway and of the gracious order of the mountain houses. he is a well-built man of perhaps five and thirty, with the easy movement that comes with perfect physical condition, his face is clean shaven and shows the firm mouth of a disciplined man, and his grey eyes are clear and steady. his legs are clad in some woven stuff deep-red in colour, and over this he wears a white shirt fitting pretty closely, and with a woven purple hem. his general effect reminds me somehow of the knights templars. on his head is a cap of thin leather and still thinner steel, and with the vestiges of ear-guards--rather like an attenuated version of the caps that were worn by cromwell's ironsides. he looks at us and we interpolate a word or so as she explains and feel a good deal of embarrassment at the foolish position we have made for ourselves. i determine to cut my way out of this entanglement before it complicates itself further. "the fact is----" i say. "yes?" he says, with a faint smile. "we've perhaps been disingenuous. our position is so entirely exceptional, so difficult to explain----" "what have you been doing?" "no," i say, with decision; "it can't be explained like that." he looks down at his feet. "go on," he says. i try to give the thing a quiet, matter-of-fact air. "you see," i say, in the tone one adopts for really lucid explanations, "we come from another world. consequently, whatever thumb-mark registration or numbering you have in this planet doesn't apply to us, and we don't know our numbers because we haven't got any. we are really, you know, explorers, strangers----" "but what world do you mean?" "it's a different planet--a long way away. practically at an infinite distance." he looks up in my face with the patient expression of a man who listens to nonsense. "i know it sounds impossible," i say, "but here is the simple fact--we _appear_ in your world. we appeared suddenly upon the neck of lucendro--the passo lucendro--yesterday afternoon, and i defy you to discover the faintest trace of us before that time. down we marched into the san gotthard road and here we are! that's our fact. and as for papers----! where in your world have you seen papers like this?" i produce my pocket-book, extract my passport, and present it to him. his expression has changed. he takes the document and examines it, turns it over, looks at me, and smiles that faint smile of his again. "have some more," i say, and proffer the card of the t.c.f. i follow up that blow with my green british museum ticket, as tattered as a flag in a knight's chapel. "you'll get found out," he says, with my documents in his hand. "you've got your thumbs. you'll be measured. they'll refer to the central registers, and there you'll be!" "that's just it," i say, "we sha'n't be." he reflects. "it's a queer sort of joke for you two men to play," he decides, handing me back my documents. "it's no joke at all," i say, replacing them in my pocket-book. the post-mistress intervenes. "what would you advise me to do?" "no money?" he asks. "no." he makes some suggestions. "frankly," he says, "i think you have escaped from some island. how you got so far as here i can't imagine, or what you think you'll do.... but anyhow, there's the stuff for your thumbs." he points to the thumb-marking apparatus and turns to attend to his own business. presently we emerge from the office in a state between discomfiture and amusement, each with a tramway ticket for lucerne in his hand and with sufficient money to pay our expenses until the morrow. we are to go to lucerne because there there is a demand for comparatively unskilled labour in carving wood, which seems to us a sort of work within our range and a sort that will not compel our separation. section the old utopias are sessile organisations; the new must square itself to the needs of a migratory population, to an endless coming and going, to a people as fluid and tidal as the sea. it does not enter into the scheme of earthly statesmanship, but indeed all local establishments, all definitions of place, are even now melting under our eyes. presently all the world will be awash with anonymous stranger men. now the simple laws of custom, the homely methods of identification that served in the little communities of the past when everyone knew everyone, fail in the face of this liquefaction. if the modern utopia is indeed to be a world of responsible citizens, it must have devised some scheme by which every person in the world can be promptly and certainly recognised, and by which anyone missing can be traced and found. this is by no means an impossible demand. the total population of the world is, on the most generous estimate, not more than , , , , and the effectual indexing of this number of people, the record of their movement hither and thither, the entry of various material facts, such as marriage, parentage, criminal convictions and the like, the entry of the new-born and the elimination of the dead, colossal task though it would be, is still not so great as to be immeasurably beyond comparison with the work of the post-offices in the world of to-day, or the cataloguing of such libraries as that of the british museum, or such collections as that of the insects in cromwell road. such an index could be housed quite comfortably on one side of northumberland avenue, for example. it is only a reasonable tribute to the distinctive lucidity of the french mind to suppose the central index housed in a vast series of buildings at or near paris. the index would be classified primarily by some unchanging physical characteristic, such as we are told the thumb-mark and finger-mark afford, and to these would be added any other physical traits that were of material value. the classification of thumb-marks and of inalterable physical characteristics goes on steadily, and there is every reason for assuming it possible that each human being could be given a distinct formula, a number or "scientific name," under which he or she could be docketed. [footnote: it is quite possible that the actual thumb-mark may play only a small part in the work of identification, but it is an obvious convenience to our thread of story to assume that it is the one sufficient feature.] about the buildings in which this great main index would be gathered, would be a system of other indices with cross references to the main one, arranged under names, under professional qualifications, under diseases, crimes and the like. these index cards might conceivably be transparent and so contrived as to give a photographic copy promptly whenever it was needed, and they could have an attachment into which would slip a ticket bearing the name of the locality in which the individual was last reported. a little army of attendants would be at work upon this index day and night. from sub-stations constantly engaged in checking back thumb-marks and numbers, an incessant stream of information would come, of births, of deaths, of arrivals at inns, of applications to post-offices for letters, of tickets taken for long journeys, of criminal convictions, marriages, applications for public doles and the like. a filter of offices would sort the stream, and all day and all night for ever a swarm of clerks would go to and fro correcting this central register, and photographing copies of its entries for transmission to the subordinate local stations, in response to their inquiries. so the inventory of the state would watch its every man and the wide world write its history as the fabric of its destiny flowed on. at last, when the citizen died, would come the last entry of all, his age and the cause of his death and the date and place of his cremation, and his card would be taken out and passed on to the universal pedigree, to a place of greater quiet, to the ever-growing galleries of the records of the dead. such a record is inevitable if a modern utopia is to be achieved. yet at this, too, our blond-haired friend would no doubt rebel. one of the many things to which some will make claim as a right, is that of going unrecognised and secret whither one will. but that, so far as one's fellow wayfarers were concerned, would still be possible. only the state would share the secret of one's little concealment. to the eighteenth-century liberal, to the old-fashioned nineteenth-century liberal, that is to say to all professed liberals, brought up to be against the government on principle, this organised clairvoyance will be the most hateful of dreams. perhaps, too, the individualist would see it in that light. but these are only the mental habits acquired in an evil time. the old liberalism assumed bad government, the more powerful the government the worse it was, just as it assumed the natural righteousness of the free individual. darkness and secrecy were, indeed, the natural refuges of liberty when every government had in it the near possibility of tyranny, and the englishman or american looked at the papers of a russian or a german as one might look at the chains of a slave. you imagine that father of the old liberalism, rousseau, slinking off from his offspring at the door of the foundling hospital, and you can understand what a crime against natural virtue this quiet eye of the state would have seemed to him. but suppose we do not assume that government is necessarily bad, and the individual necessarily good--and the hypothesis upon which we are working practically abolishes either alternative--then we alter the case altogether. the government of a modern utopia will be no perfection of intentions ignorantly ruling the world.... [footnote: in the typical modern state of our own world, with its population of many millions, and its extreme facility of movement, undistinguished men who adopt an alias can make themselves untraceable with the utmost ease. the temptation of the opportunities thus offered has developed a new type of criminality, the deeming or crossman type, base men who subsist and feed their heavy imaginations in the wooing, betrayal, ill-treatment, and sometimes even the murder of undistinguished women. this is a large, a growing, and, what is gravest, a prolific class, fostered by the practical anonymity of the common man. it is only the murderers who attract much public attention, but the supply of low-class prostitutes is also largely due to these free adventures of the base. it is one of the bye products of state liberalism, and at present it is very probably drawing ahead in the race against the development of police organisation.] such is the eye of the state that is now slowly beginning to apprehend our existence as two queer and inexplicable parties disturbing the fine order of its field of vision, the eye that will presently be focussing itself upon us with a growing astonishment and interrogation. "who in the name of galton and bertillon," one fancies utopia exclaiming, "are _you_?" i perceive i shall cut a queer figure in that focus. i shall affect a certain spurious ease of carriage no doubt. "the fact is, i shall begin...." section and now see how an initial hypothesis may pursue and overtake its maker. our thumb-marks have been taken, they have travelled by pneumatic tube to the central office of the municipality hard by lucerne, and have gone on thence to the headquarters of the index at paris. there, after a rough preliminary classification, i imagine them photographed on glass, and flung by means of a lantern in colossal images upon a screen, all finely squared, and the careful experts marking and measuring their several convolutions. and then off goes a brisk clerk to the long galleries of the index building. i have told them they will find no sign of us, but you see him going from gallery to gallery, from bay to bay, from drawer to drawer, and from card to card. "here he is!" he mutters to himself, and he whips out a card and reads. "but that is impossible!" he says.... you figure us returning after a day or so of such utopian experiences as i must presently describe, to the central office in lucerne, even as we have been told to do. i make my way to the desk of the man who has dealt with us before. "well?" i say, cheerfully, "have you heard?" his expression dashes me a little. "we've heard," he says, and adds, "it's very peculiar." "i told you you wouldn't find out about us," i say, triumphantly. "but we have," he says; "but that makes your freak none the less remarkable." "you've heard! you know who we are! well--tell us! we had an idea, but we're beginning to doubt." "you," says the official, addressing the botanist, "are----!" and he breathes his name. then he turns to me and gives me mine. for a moment i am dumbfounded. then i think of the entries we made at the inn in the urserenthal, and then in a flash i have the truth. i rap the desk smartly with my finger-tips and shake my index-finger in my friend's face. "by jove!" i say in english. "they've got our doubles!" the botanist snaps his fingers. "of course! i didn't think of that." "do you mind," i say to this official, "telling us some more about ourselves?" "i can't think why you keep it up," he remarks, and then almost wearily tells me the facts about my utopian self. they are a little difficult to understand. he says i am one of the samurai, which sounds japanese, "but you will be degraded," he says, with a gesture almost of despair. he describes my position in this world in phrases that convey very little. "the queer thing," he remarks, "is that you were in norway only three days ago." "i am there still. at least----. i'm sorry to be so much trouble to you, but do you mind following up that last clue and inquiring if the person to whom the thumb-mark really belongs isn't in norway still?" the idea needs explanation. he says something incomprehensible about a pilgrimage. "sooner or later," i say, "you will have to believe there are two of us with the same thumb-mark. i won't trouble you with any apparent nonsense about other planets and so forth again. here i am. if i was in norway a few days ago, you ought to be able to trace my journey hither. and my friend?" "he was in india." the official is beginning to look perplexed. "it seems to me," i say, "that the difficulties in this case are only just beginning. how did i get from norway hither? does my friend look like hopping from india to the saint gotthard at one hop? the situation is a little more difficult than that----" "but here!" says the official, and waves what are no doubt photographic copies of the index cards. "but we are not those individuals!" "you _are_ those individuals." "you will see," i say. he dabs his finger argumentatively upon the thumb-marks. "i see now," he says. "there is a mistake," i maintain, "an unprecedented mistake. there's the difficulty. if you inquire you will find it begin to unravel. what reason is there for us to remain casual workmen here, when you allege we are men of position in the world, if there isn't something wrong? we shall stick to this wood-carving work you have found us here, and meanwhile i think you ought to inquire again. that's how the thing shapes to me." "your case will certainly have to be considered further," he says, with the faintest of threatening notes in his tone. "but at the same time"--hand out to those copies from the index again--"there you are, you know!" section when my botanist and i have talked over and exhausted every possibility of our immediate position, we should turn, i think, to more general questions. i should tell him the thing that was becoming more and more apparent in my own mind. here, i should say, is a world, obviously on the face of it well organised. compared with our world, it is like a well-oiled engine beside a scrap-heap. it has even got this confounded visual organ swivelling about in the most alert and lively fashion. but that's by the way.... you have only to look at all these houses below. (we should be sitting on a seat on the gutsch and looking down on the lucerne of utopia, a lucerne that would, i insist, quite arbitrarily, still keep the wasserthurm and the kapellbrucke.) you have only to mark the beauty, the simple cleanliness and balance of this world, you have only to see the free carriage, the unaffected graciousness of even the common people, to understand how fine and complete the arrangements of this world must be. how are they made so? we of the twentieth century are not going to accept the sweetish, faintly nasty slops of rousseauism that so gratified our great-great-grandparents in the eighteenth. we know that order and justice do not come by nature--"if only the policeman would go away." these things mean intention, will, carried to a scale that our poor vacillating, hot and cold earth has never known. what i am really seeing more and more clearly is the will beneath this visible utopia. convenient houses, admirable engineering that is no offence amidst natural beauties, beautiful bodies, and a universally gracious carriage, these are only the outward and visible signs of an inward and spiritual grace. such an order means discipline. it means triumph over the petty egotisms and vanities that keep men on our earth apart; it means devotion and a nobler hope; it cannot exist without a gigantic process of inquiry, trial, forethought and patience in an atmosphere of mutual trust and concession. such a world as this utopia is not made by the chance occasional co-operations of self-indulgent men, by autocratic rulers or by the bawling wisdom of the democratic leader. and an unrestricted competition for gain, an enlightened selfishness, that too fails us.... i have compared the system of indexing humanity we have come upon to an eye, an eye so sensitive and alert that two strangers cannot appear anywhere upon the planet without discovery. now an eye does not see without a brain, an eye does not turn round and look without a will and purpose. a utopia that deals only with appliances and arrangements is a dream of superficialities; the essential problem here, the body within these garments, is a moral and an intellectual problem. behind all this material order, these perfected communications, perfected public services and economic organisations, there must be men and women willing these things. there must be a considerable number and a succession of these men and women of will. no single person, no transitory group of people, could order and sustain this vast complexity. they must have a collective if not a common width of aim, and that involves a spoken or written literature, a living literature to sustain the harmony of their general activity. in some way they must have put the more immediate objects of desire into a secondary place, and that means renunciation. they must be effectual in action and persistent in will, and that means discipline. but in the modern world in which progress advances without limits, it will be evident that whatever common creed or formula they have must be of the simplest sort; that whatever organisation they have must be as mobile and flexible as a thing alive. all this follows inevitably from the general propositions of our utopian dream. when we made those, we bound ourselves helplessly to come to this.... the botanist would nod an abstracted assent. i should cease to talk. i should direct my mind to the confused mass of memories three days in utopia will have given us. besides the personalities with whom we have come into actual contact, our various hosts, our foreman and work-fellows, the blond man, the public officials and so on, there will be a great multitude of other impressions. there will be many bright snapshots of little children, for example, of girls and women and men, seen in shops and offices and streets, on quays, at windows and by the wayside, people riding hither and thither and walking to and fro. a very human crowd it has seemed to me. but among them were there any who might be thought of as having a wider interest than the others, who seemed in any way detached from the rest by a purpose that passed beyond the seen? then suddenly i recall that clean-shaven man who talked with us for a little while in the public office at wassen, the man who reminded me of my boyish conception of a knight templar, and with him come momentary impressions of other lithe and serious-looking people dressed after the same manner, words and phrases we have read in such scraps of utopian reading as have come our way, and expressions that fell from the loose mouth of the man with the blond hair.... chapter the sixth women in a modern utopia section but though i have come to a point where the problem of a utopia has resolved itself very simply into the problem of government and direction, i find i have not brought the botanist with me. frankly he cannot think so steadily onward as i can. i feel to think, he thinks to feel. it is i and my kind that have the wider range, because we can be impersonal as well as personal. we can escape ourselves. in general terms, at least, i understand him, but he does not understand me in any way at all. he thinks me an incomprehensible brute because his obsession is merely one of my incidental interests, and wherever my reasoning ceases to be explicit and full, the slightest ellipsis, the most transitory digression, he evades me and is back at himself again. he may have a personal liking for me, though i doubt it, but also he hates me pretty distinctly, because of this bias he cannot understand. my philosophical insistence that things shall be reasonable and hang together, that what can be explained shall be explained, and that what can be done by calculation and certain methods shall not be left to chance, he loathes. he just wants adventurously to feel. he wants to feel the sunset, and he thinks that on the whole he would feel it better if he had not been taught the sun was about ninety-two million miles away. he wants to feel free and strong, and he would rather feel so than be so. he does not want to accomplish great things, but to have dazzling things occur to him. he does not know that there are feelings also up in the clear air of the philosophic mountains, in the long ascents of effort and design. he does not know that thought itself is only a finer sort of feeling than his--good hock to the mixed gin, porter and treacle of his emotions, a perception of similitudes and oppositions that carries even thrills. and naturally he broods on the source of all his most copious feelings and emotions, women, and particularly upon the woman who has most made him feel. he forces me also to that. our position is unfortunate for me. our return to the utopian equivalent of lucerne revives in him all the melancholy distresses that so preoccupied him when first we were transferred to this better planet. one day, while we are still waiting there for the public office to decide about us, he broaches the matter. it is early evening, and we are walking beside the lake after our simple dinner. "about here," he says, "the quays would run and all those big hotels would be along here, looking out on the lake. it's so strange to have seen them so recently, and now not to see them at all.... where have they gone?" "vanished by hypothesis." "what?" "oh! they're there still. it's we that have come hither." "of course. i forgot. but still---- you know, there was an avenue of little trees along this quay with seats, and she was sitting looking out upon the lake.... i hadn't seen her for ten years." he looks about him still a little perplexed. "now we are here," he says, "it seems as though that meeting and the talk we had must have been a dream." he falls musing. presently he says: "i knew her at once. i saw her in profile. but, you know, i didn't speak to her directly. i walked past her seat and on for a little way, trying to control myself.... then i turned back and sat down beside her, very quietly. she looked up at me. everything came back--everything. for a moment or so i felt i was going to cry...." that seems to give him a sort of satisfaction even in the reminiscence. "we talked for a time just like casual acquaintances--about the view and the weather, and things like that." he muses again. "in utopia everything would have been different," i say. "i suppose it would." he goes on before i can say anything more. "then, you know, there was a pause. i had a sort of intuition that the moment was coming. so i think had she. you may scoff, of course, at these intuitions----" i don't, as a matter of fact. instead, i swear secretly. always this sort of man keeps up the pretence of highly distinguished and remarkable mental processes, whereas--have not i, in my own composition, the whole diapason of emotional fool? is not the suppression of these notes my perpetual effort, my undying despair? and then, am i to be accused of poverty? but to his story. "she said, quite abruptly, 'i am not happy,' and i told her, 'i knew that the instant i saw you.' then, you know, she began to talk to me very quietly, very frankly, about everything. it was only afterwards i began to feel just what it meant, her talking to me like that." i cannot listen to this! "don't you understand," i cry, "that we are in utopia. she may be bound unhappily upon earth and you may be bound, but not here. here i think it will be different. here the laws that control all these things will be humane and just. so that all you said and did, over there, does not signify here--does not signify here!" he looks up for a moment at my face, and then carelessly at my wonderful new world. "yes," he says, without interest, with something of the tone of an abstracted elder speaking to a child, "i dare say it will be all very fine here." and he lapses, thwarted from his confidences, into musing. there is something almost dignified in this withdrawal into himself. for a moment i entertain an illusion that really i am unworthy to hear the impalpable inconclusiveness of what he said to her and of what she said to him. i am snubbed. i am also amazed to find myself snubbed. i become breathless with indignation. we walk along side by side, but now profoundly estranged. i regard the facade of the utopian public offices of lucerne--i had meant to call his attention to some of the architectural features of these--with a changed eye, with all the spirit gone out of my vision. i wish i had never brought this introspective carcass, this mental ingrate, with me. i incline to fatalistic submission. i suppose i had no power to leave him behind.... i wonder and i wonder. the old utopists never had to encumber themselves with this sort of man. section how would things be "different" in the modern utopia? after all it is time we faced the riddle of the problems of marriage and motherhood.... the modern utopia is not only to be a sound and happy world state, but it is to be one progressing from good to better. but as malthus [footnote: essay on the principles of population.] demonstrated for all time, a state whose population continues to increase in obedience to unchecked instinct, can progress only from bad to worse. from the view of human comfort and happiness, the increase of population that occurs at each advance in human security is the greatest evil of life. the way of nature is for every species to increase nearly to its possible maximum of numbers, and then to improve through the pressure of that maximum against its limiting conditions by the crushing and killing of all the feebler individuals. the way of nature has also been the way of humanity so far, and except when a temporary alleviation is obtained through an expansion of the general stock of sustenance by invention or discovery, the amount of starvation and of the physical misery of privation in the world, must vary almost exactly with the excess of the actual birth-rate over that required to sustain population at a number compatible with a universal contentment. neither has nature evolved, nor has man so far put into operation, any device by which paying this price of progress, this misery of a multitude of starved and unsuccessful lives can be evaded. a mere indiscriminating restriction of the birth-rate--an end practically attained in the homely, old-fashioned civilisation of china by female infanticide, involves not only the cessation of distresses but stagnation, and the minor good of a sort of comfort and social stability is won at too great a sacrifice. progress depends essentially on competitive selection, and that we may not escape. but it is a conceivable and possible thing that this margin of futile struggling, pain and discomfort and death might be reduced to nearly nothing without checking physical and mental evolution, with indeed an acceleration of physical and mental evolution, by preventing the birth of those who would in the unrestricted interplay of natural forces be born to suffer and fail. the method of nature "red in tooth and claw" is to degrade, thwart, torture, and kill the weakest and least adapted members of every species in existence in each generation, and so keep the specific average rising; the ideal of a scientific civilisation is to prevent those weaklings being born. there is no other way of evading nature's punishment of sorrow. the struggle for life among the beasts and uncivilised men means misery and death for the inferior individuals, misery and death in order that they may not increase and multiply; in the civilised state it is now clearly possible to make the conditions of life tolerable for every living creature, provided the inferiors can be prevented from increasing and multiplying. but this latter condition must be respected. instead of competing to escape death and wretchedness, we may compete to give birth and we may heap every sort of consolation prize upon the losers in that competition. the modern state tends to qualify inheritance, to insist upon education and nurture for children, to come in more and more in the interests of the future between father and child. it is taking over the responsibility of the general welfare of the children more and more, and as it does so, its right to decide which children it will shelter becomes more and more reasonable. how far will such conditions be prescribed? how far can they be prescribed in a modern utopia? let us set aside at once all nonsense of the sort one hears in certain quarters about the human stud farm. [footnote: see mankind in the making, ch. ii.] state breeding of the population was a reasonable proposal for plato to make, in view of the biological knowledge of his time and the purely tentative nature of his metaphysics; but from anyone in the days after darwin, it is preposterous. yet we have it given to us as the most brilliant of modern discoveries by a certain school of sociological writers, who seem totally unable to grasp the modification of meaning "species" and "individual" have undergone in the last fifty years. they do not seem capable of the suspicion that the boundaries of species have vanished, and that individuality now carries with it the quality of the unique! to them individuals are still defective copies of a platonic ideal of the species, and the purpose of breeding no more than an approximation to that perfection. individuality is indeed a negligible difference to them, an impertinence, and the whole flow of modern biological ideas has washed over them in vain. but to the modern thinker individuality is the significant fact of life, and the idea of the state, which is necessarily concerned with the average and general, selecting individualities in order to pair them and improve the race, an absurdity. it is like fixing a crane on the plain in order to raise the hill tops. in the initiative of the individual above the average, lies the reality of the future, which the state, presenting the average, may subserve but cannot control. and the natural centre of the emotional life, the cardinal will, the supreme and significant expression of individuality, should lie in the selection of a partner for procreation. but compulsory pairing is one thing, and the maintenance of general limiting conditions is another, and one well within the scope of state activity. the state is justified in saying, before you may add children to the community for the community to educate and in part to support, you must be above a certain minimum of personal efficiency, and this you must show by holding a position of solvency and independence in the world; you must be above a certain age, and a certain minimum of physical development, and free of any transmissible disease. you must not be a criminal unless you have expiated your offence. failing these simple qualifications, if you and some person conspire and add to the population of the state, we will, for the sake of humanity, take over the innocent victim of your passions, but we shall insist that you are under a debt to the state of a peculiarly urgent sort, and one you will certainly pay, even if it is necessary to use restraint to get the payment out of you: it is a debt that has in the last resort your liberty as a security, and, moreover, if this thing happens a second time, or if it is disease or imbecility you have multiplied, we will take an absolutely effectual guarantee that neither you nor your partner offend again in this matter. "harsh!" you say, and "poor humanity!" you have the gentler alternative to study in your terrestrial slums and asylums. it may be urged that to permit conspicuously inferior people to have one or two children in this way would be to fail to attain the desired end, but, indeed, this is not so. a suitably qualified permission, as every statesman knows, may produce the social effects without producing the irksome pressure of an absolute prohibition. amidst bright and comfortable circumstances, and with an easy and practicable alternative, people will exercise foresight and self-restraint to escape even the possibilities of hardship and discomfort; and free life in utopia is to be well worth this trouble even for inferior people. the growing comfort, self-respect, and intelligence of the english is shown, for example, in the fall in the proportion of illegitimate births from . per , in - to . per , in - , and this without any positive preventive laws whatever. this most desirable result is pretty certainly not the consequence of any great exaltation of our moral tone, but simply of a rising standard of comfort and a livelier sense of consequences and responsibilities. if so marked a change is possible in response to such progress as england has achieved in the past fifty years, if discreet restraint can be so effectual as this, it seems reasonable to suppose that in the ampler knowledge and the cleaner, franker atmosphere of our utopian planet the birth of a child to diseased or inferior parents, and contrary to the sanctions of the state, will be the rarest of disasters. and the death of a child, too, that most tragic event, utopia will rarely know. children are not born to die in childhood. but in our world, at present, through the defects of our medical science and nursing methods, through defects in our organisation, through poverty and carelessness, and through the birth of children that never ought to have been born, one out of every five children born dies within five years. it may be the reader has witnessed this most distressful of all human tragedies. it is sheer waste of suffering. there is no reason why ninety-nine out of every hundred children born should not live to a ripe age. accordingly, in any modern utopia, it must be insisted they will. section all former utopias have, by modern standards, erred on the side of over regulation in these matters. the amount of state interference with the marriage and birth of the citizens of a modern utopia will be much less than in any terrestrial state. here, just as in relation to property and enterprise, the law will regulate only in order to secure the utmost freedom and initiative. up to the beginning of this chapter, our utopian speculations, like many acts of parliament, have ignored the difference of sex. "he" indeed is to be read as "he and she" in all that goes before. but we may now come to the sexual aspects of the modern ideal of a constitution of society in which, for all purposes of the individual, women are to be as free as men. this will certainly be realised in the modern utopia, if it can be realised at all--not only for woman's sake, but for man's. but women may be free in theory and not in practice, and as long as they suffer from their economic inferiority, from the inability to produce as much value as a man for the same amount of work--and there can be no doubt of this inferiority--so long will their legal and technical equality be a mockery. it is a fact that almost every point in which a woman differs from a man is an economic disadvantage to her, her incapacity for great stresses of exertion, her frequent liability to slight illnesses, her weaker initiative, her inferior invention and resourcefulness, her relative incapacity for organisation and combination, and the possibilities of emotional complications whenever she is in economic dependence on men. so long as women are compared economically with men and boys they will be inferior in precisely the measure in which they differ from men. all that constitutes this difference they are supposed not to trade upon except in one way, and that is by winning or luring a man to marry, selling themselves in an almost irrevocable bargain, and then following and sharing his fortunes for "better or worse." but--do not let the proposition in its first crudity alarm you--suppose the modern utopia equalises things between the sexes in the only possible way, by insisting that motherhood is a service to the state and a legitimate claim to a living; and that, since the state is to exercise the right of forbidding or sanctioning motherhood, a woman who is, or is becoming, a mother, is as much entitled to wages above the minimum wage, to support, to freedom, and to respect and dignity as a policeman, a solicitor-general, a king, a bishop in the state church, a government professor, or anyone else the state sustains. suppose the state secures to every woman who is, under legitimate sanctions, becoming or likely to become a mother, that is to say who is duly married, a certain wage from her husband to secure her against the need of toil and anxiety, suppose it pays her a certain gratuity upon the birth of a child, and continues to pay at regular intervals sums sufficient to keep her and her child in independent freedom, so long as the child keeps up to the minimum standard of health and physical and mental development. suppose it pays more upon the child when it rises markedly above certain minimum qualifications, physical or mental, and, in fact, does its best to make thoroughly efficient motherhood a profession worth following. and suppose in correlation with this it forbids the industrial employment of married women and of mothers who have children needing care, unless they are in a position to employ qualified efficient substitutes to take care of their offspring. what differences from terrestrial conditions will ensue? this extent of intervention will at least abolish two or three salient hardships and evils of the civilised life. it will abolish the hardship of the majority of widows, who on earth are poor and encumbered exactly in proportion as they have discharged the chief distinctive duty of a woman, and miserable, just in proportion as their standard of life and of education is high. it will abolish the hardship of those who do not now marry on account of poverty, or who do not dare to have children. the fear that often turns a woman from a beautiful to a mercenary marriage will vanish from life. in utopia a career of wholesome motherhood would be, under such conditions as i have suggested, the normal and remunerative calling for a woman, and a capable woman who has borne, bred, and begun the education of eight or nine well-built, intelligent, and successful sons and daughters would be an extremely prosperous woman, quite irrespective of the economic fortunes of the man she has married. she would need to be an exceptional woman, and she would need to have chosen a man at least a little above the average as her partner in life. but his death, or misbehaviour, or misfortunes would not ruin her. now such an arrangement is merely the completed induction from the starting propositions that make some measure of education free and compulsory for every child in the state. if you prevent people making profit out of their children--and every civilised state--even that compendium of old-fashioned individualism, the united states of america--is now disposed to admit the necessity of that prohibition--and if you provide for the aged instead of leaving them to their children's sense of duty, the practical inducements to parentage, except among very wealthy people, are greatly reduced. the sentimental factor in the case rarely leads to more than a solitary child or at most two to a marriage, and with a high and rising standard of comfort and circumspection it is unlikely that the birth-rate will ever rise very greatly again. the utopians will hold that if you keep the children from profitable employment for the sake of the future, then, if you want any but the exceptionally rich, secure, pious, unselfish, or reckless to bear children freely, you must be prepared to throw the cost of their maintenance upon the general community. in short, utopia will hold that sound childbearing and rearing is a service done, not to a particular man, but to the whole community, and all its legal arrangements for motherhood will be based on that conception. section and after these preliminaries we must proceed to ask, first, what will be the utopian marriage law, and then what sort of customs and opinions are likely to be superadded to that law? the trend of our reasoning has brought us to the conclusion that the utopian state will feel justified in intervening between men and women on two accounts, first on account of paternity, and secondly on account of the clash of freedoms that may otherwise arise. the utopian state will effectually interfere with and prescribe conditions for all sorts of contract, and for this sort of contract in particular it will be in agreement with almost every earthly state, in defining in the completest fashion what things a man or woman may be bound to do, and what they cannot be bound to do. from the point of view of a statesman, marriage is the union of a man and woman in a manner so intimate as to involve the probability of offspring, and it is of primary importance to the state, first in order to secure good births, and secondly good home conditions, that these unions should not be free, nor promiscuous, nor practically universal throughout the adult population. prolific marriage must be a profitable privilege. it must occur only under certain obvious conditions, the contracting parties must be in health and condition, free from specific transmissible taints, above a certain minimum age, and sufficiently intelligent and energetic to have acquired a minimum education. the man at least must be in receipt of a net income above the minimum wage, after any outstanding charges against him have been paid. all this much it is surely reasonable to insist upon before the state becomes responsible for the prospective children. the age at which men and women may contract to marry is difficult to determine. but if we are, as far as possible, to put women on an equality with men, if we are to insist upon a universally educated population, and if we are seeking to reduce the infantile death-rate to zero, it must be much higher than it is in any terrestrial state. the woman should be at least one-and-twenty; the man twenty-six or twenty-seven. one imagines the parties to a projected marriage first obtaining licenses which will testify that these conditions are satisfied. from the point of view of the theoretical utopian state, these licenses are the feature of primary importance. then, no doubt, that universal register at paris would come into play. as a matter of justice, there must be no deception between the two people, and the state will ensure that in certain broad essentials this is so. they would have to communicate their joint intention to a public office after their personal licenses were granted, and each would be supplied with a copy of the index card of the projected mate, on which would be recorded his or her age, previous marriages, legally important diseases, offspring, domiciles, public appointments, criminal convictions, registered assignments of property, and so forth. possibly it might be advisable to have a little ceremony for each party, for each in the absence of the other, in which this record could be read over in the presence of witnesses, together with some prescribed form of address of counsel in the matter. there would then be a reasonable interval for consideration and withdrawal on the part of either spouse. in the event of the two people persisting in their resolution, they would after this minimum interval signify as much to the local official and the necessary entry would be made in the registers. these formalities would be quite independent of any religious ceremonial the contracting parties might choose, for with religious belief and procedure the modern state has no concern. so much for the preliminary conditions of matrimony. for those men and women who chose to ignore these conditions and to achieve any sort of union they liked the state would have no concern, unless offspring were born illegitimately. in that case, as we have already suggested, it would be only reasonable to make the parents chargeable with every duty, with maintenance, education, and so forth, that in the normal course of things would fall to the state. it would be necessary to impose a life assurance payment upon these parents, and to exact effectual guarantees against every possible evasion of the responsibility they had incurred. but the further control of private morality, beyond the protection of the immature from corruption and evil example, will be no concern of the state's. when a child comes in, the future of the species comes in; and the state comes in as the guardian of interests wider than the individual's; but the adult's private life is the entirely private life into which the state may not intrude. now what will be the nature of the utopian contract of matrimony? from the first of the two points of view named above, that of parentage, it is obvious that one unavoidable condition will be the chastity of the wife. her infidelity being demonstrated, must at once terminate the marriage and release both her husband and the state from any liability for the support of her illegitimate offspring. that, at any rate, is beyond controversy; a marriage contract that does not involve that, is a triumph of metaphysics over common sense. it will be obvious that under utopian conditions it is the state that will suffer injury by a wife's misconduct, and that a husband who condones anything of the sort will participate in her offence. a woman, therefore, who is divorced on this account will be divorced as a public offender, and not in the key of a personal quarrel; not as one who has inflicted a private and personal wrong. this, too, lies within the primary implications of marriage. beyond that, what conditions should a marriage contract in utopia involve? a reciprocal restraint on the part of the husband is clearly of no importance whatever, so far as the first end of matrimony goes, the protection of the community from inferior births. it is no wrong to the state. but it does carry with it a variable amount of emotional offence to the wife; it may wound her pride and cause her violent perturbations of jealousy; it may lead to her neglect, her solitude and unhappiness, and it may even work to her physical injury. there should be an implication that it is not to occur. she has bound herself to the man for the good of the state, and clearly it is reasonable that she should look to the state for relief if it does occur. the extent of the offence given her is the exact measure of her injury; if she does not mind nobody minds, and if her self-respect does not suffer nothing whatever is lost to the world; and so it should rest with her to establish his misconduct, and, if she thinks fit, to terminate the marriage. a failure on either side to perform the elementary duties of companionship, desertion, for example, should obviously give the other mate the right to relief, and clearly the development of any disqualifying habit, drunkenness, or drug-taking, or the like, or any serious crime or acts of violence, should give grounds for a final release. moreover, the modern utopian state intervenes between the sexes only because of the coming generation, and for it to sustain restrictions upon conduct in a continually fruitless marriage is obviously to lapse into purely moral intervention. it seems reasonable, therefore, to set a term to a marriage that remains childless, to let it expire at the end of three or four or five unfruitful years, but with no restriction upon the right of the husband and wife to marry each other again. these are the fairly easy primaries of this question. we now come to the more difficult issues of the matter. the first of these is the question of the economic relationships of husband and wife, having regard to the fact that even in utopia women, at least until they become mothers, are likely to be on the average poorer than men. the second is the question of the duration of a marriage. but the two interlock, and are, perhaps, best treated together in one common section. and they both ramify in the most complicated manner into the consideration of the general morale of the community. section this question of marriage is the most complicated and difficult in the whole range of utopian problems. but it is happily not the most urgent necessity that it should be absolutely solved. the urgent and necessary problem is the ruler. with rulers rightly contrived and a provisional defective marriage law a utopia may be conceived as existing and studying to perfect itself, but without rulers a utopia is impossible though the theory of its matrimony be complete. and the difficulty in this question is not simply the difficulty of a complicated chess problem, for example, in which the whole tangle of considerations does at least lie in one plane, but a series of problems upon different levels and containing incommensurable factors. it is very easy to repeat our initial propositions, to recall that we are on another planet, and that all the customs and traditions of the earth are set aside, but the faintest realisation of that demands a feat of psychological insight. we have all grown up into an invincible mould of suggestion about sexual things; we regard this with approval, that with horror, and this again with contempt, very largely because the thing has always been put to us in this light or that. the more emancipated we think ourselves the more subtle are our bonds. the disentanglement of what is inherent in these feelings from what is acquired is an extraordinary complex undertaking. probably all men and women have a more or less powerful disposition to jealousy, but what exactly they will be jealous about and what exactly they will suffer seems part of the superposed factor. probably all men and women are capable of ideal emotions and wishes beyond merely physical desires, but the shape these take are almost entirely a reaction to external images. and you really cannot strip the external off; you cannot get your stark natural man, jealous, but not jealous about anything in particular, imaginative without any imaginings, proud at large. emotional dispositions can no more exist without form than a man without air. only a very observant man who had lived all over the planet earth, in all sorts of social strata, and with every race and tongue, and who was endowed with great imaginative insight, could hope to understand the possibilities and the limitations of human plasticity in this matter, and say what any men and any women could be induced to do willingly, and just exactly what no man and no woman could stand, provided one had the training of them. though very young men will tell you readily enough. the proceedings of other races and other ages do not seem to carry conviction; what our ancestors did, or what the greeks or egyptians did, though it is the direct physical cause of the modern young man or the modern young lady, is apt to impress these remarkable consequences merely as an arrangement of quaint, comical or repulsive proceedings. but there emerges to the modern inquirer certain ideals and desiderata that at least go some way towards completing and expanding the crude primaries of a utopian marriage law set out in section . the sound birth being assured, does there exist any valid reason for the persistence of the utopian marriage union? there are two lines of reasoning that go to establish a longer duration for marriage. the first of these rests upon the general necessity for a home and for individual attention in the case of children. children are the results of a choice between individuals; they grow well, as a rule, only in relation to sympathetic and kindred individualities, and no wholesale character-ignoring method of dealing with them has ever had a shadow of the success of the individualised home. neither plato nor socrates, who repudiated the home, seems ever to have had to do with anything younger than a young man. procreation is only the beginning of parentage, and even where the mother is not the direct nurse and teacher of her child, even where she delegates these duties, her supervision is, in the common case, essential to its welfare. moreover, though the utopian state will pay the mother, and the mother only, for the being and welfare of her legitimate children, there will be a clear advantage in fostering the natural disposition of the father to associate his child's welfare with his individual egotism, and to dispense some of his energies and earnings in supplementing the common provision of the state. it is an absurd disregard of a natural economy to leave the innate philoprogenitiveness of either sex uncultivated. unless the parents continue in close relationship, if each is passing through a series of marriages, the dangers of a conflict of rights, and of the frittering away of emotions, become very grave. the family will lose homogeneity, and its individuals will have for the mother varied and perhaps incompatible emotional associations. the balance of social advantage is certainly on the side of much more permanent unions, on the side of an arrangement that, subject to ample provisions for a formal divorce without disgrace in cases of incompatibility, would bind, or at least enforce ideals that would tend to bind, a man and woman together for the whole term of her maternal activity, until, that is, the last born of her children was no longer in need of her help. the second system of considerations arises out of the artificiality of woman's position. it is a less conclusive series than the first, and it opens a number of interesting side vistas. a great deal of nonsense is talked about the natural equality or inferiority of women to men. but it is only the same quality that can be measured by degrees and ranged in ascending and descending series, and the things that are essentially feminine are different qualitatively from and incommensurable with the distinctly masculine things. the relationship is in the region of ideals and conventions, and a state is perfectly free to determine that men and women shall come to intercourse on a footing of conventional equality or with either the man or woman treated as the predominating individual. aristotle's criticism of plato in this matter, his insistence upon the natural inferiority of slaves and women, is just the sort of confusion between inherent and imposed qualities that was his most characteristic weakness. the spirit of the european people, of almost all the peoples now in the ascendant, is towards a convention of equality; the spirit of the mahometan world is towards the intensification of a convention that the man alone is a citizen and that the woman is very largely his property. there can be no doubt that the latter of these two convenient fictions is the more primitive way of regarding this relationship. it is quite unfruitful to argue between these ideals as if there were a demonstrable conclusion, the adoption of either is an arbitrary act, and we shall simply follow our age and time if we display a certain bias for the former. if one looks closely into the various practical expansions of these ideas, we find their inherent falsity works itself out in a very natural way so soon as reality is touched. those who insist upon equality work in effect for assimilation, for a similar treatment of the sexes. plato's women of the governing class, for example, were to strip for gymnastics like men, to bear arms and go to war, and follow most of the masculine occupations of their class. they were to have the same education and to be assimilated to men at every doubtful point. the aristotelian attitude, on the other hand, insists upon specialisation. the men are to rule and fight and toil; the women are to support motherhood in a state of natural inferiority. the trend of evolutionary forces through long centuries of human development has been on the whole in this second direction, has been towards differentiation. [footnote: see havelock ellis's man and woman.] an adult white woman differs far more from a white man than a negress or pigmy woman from her equivalent male. the education, the mental disposition, of a white or asiatic woman, reeks of sex; her modesty, her decorum is not to ignore sex but to refine and put a point to it; her costume is clamorous with the distinctive elements of her form. the white woman in the materially prosperous nations is more of a sexual specialist than her sister of the poor and austere peoples, of the prosperous classes more so than the peasant woman. the contemporary woman of fashion who sets the tone of occidental intercourse is a stimulant rather than a companion for a man. too commonly she is an unwholesome stimulant turning a man from wisdom to appearance, from beauty to beautiful pleasures, from form to colour, from persistent aims to belief and stirring triumphs. arrayed in what she calls distinctly "dress," scented, adorned, displayed, she achieves by artifice a sexual differentiation profounder than that of any other vertebrated animal. she outshines the peacock's excess above his mate, one must probe among the domestic secrets of the insects and crustacea to find her living parallel. and it is a question by no means easy and yet of the utmost importance, to determine how far the wide and widening differences between the human sexes is inherent and inevitable, and how far it is an accident of social development that may be converted and reduced under a different social regimen. are we going to recognise and accentuate this difference and to arrange our utopian organisation to play upon it, are we to have two primary classes of human being, harmonising indeed and reacting, but following essentially different lives, or are we going to minimise this difference in every possible way? the former alternative leads either to a romantic organisation of society in which men will live and fight and die for wonderful, beautiful, exaggerated creatures, or it leads to the hareem. it would probably lead through one phase to the other. women would be enigmas and mysteries and maternal dignitaries that one would approach in a state of emotional excitement and seclude piously when serious work was in hand. a girl would blossom from the totally negligible to the mystically desirable at adolescence, and boys would be removed from their mother's educational influence at as early an age as possible. whenever men and women met together, the men would be in a state of inflamed competition towards one another, and the women likewise, and the intercourse of ideas would be in suspense. under the latter alternative the sexual relation would be subordinated to friendship and companionship; boys and girls would be co-educated--very largely under maternal direction, and women, disarmed of their distinctive barbaric adornments, the feathers, beads, lace, and trimmings that enhance their clamorous claim to a directly personal attention would mingle, according to their quality, in the counsels and intellectual development of men. such women would be fit to educate boys even up to adolescence. it is obvious that a marriage law embodying a decision between these two sets of ideas would be very different according to the alternative adopted. in the former case a man would be expected to earn and maintain in an adequate manner the dear delight that had favoured him. he would tell her beautiful lies about her wonderful moral effect upon him, and keep her sedulously from all responsibility and knowledge. and, since there is an undeniably greater imaginative appeal to men in the first bloom of a woman's youth, she would have a distinct claim upon his energies for the rest of her life. in the latter case a man would no more pay for and support his wife than she would do so for him. they would be two friends, differing in kind no doubt but differing reciprocally, who had linked themselves in a matrimonial relationship. our utopian marriage so far as we have discussed it, is indeterminate between these alternatives. we have laid it down as a general principle that the private morals of an adult citizen are no concern for the state. but that involves a decision to disregard certain types of bargain. a sanely contrived state will refuse to sustain bargains wherein there is no plausibly fair exchange, and if private morality is really to be outside the scope of the state then the affections and endearments most certainly must not be regarded as negotiable commodities. the state, therefore, will absolutely ignore the distribution of these favours unless children, or at least the possibility of children, is involved. it follows that it will refuse to recognise any debts or transfers of property that are based on such considerations. it will be only consistent, therefore, to refuse recognition in the marriage contract to any financial obligation between husband and wife, or any settlements qualifying that contract, except when they are in the nature of accessory provision for the prospective children. [footnote: unqualified gifts for love by solvent people will, of course, be quite possible and permissible, unsalaried services and the like, provided the standard of life is maintained and the joint income of the couple between whom the services hold does not sink below twice the minimum wage.] so far the utopian state will throw its weight upon the side of those who advocate the independence of women and their conventional equality with men. but to any further definition of the marriage relation the world state of utopia will not commit itself. the wide range of relationships that are left possible, within and without the marriage code, are entirely a matter for the individual choice and imagination. whether a man treat his wife in private as a goddess to be propitiated, as a "mystery" to be adored, as an agreeable auxiliary, as a particularly intimate friend, or as the wholesome mother of his children, is entirely a matter for their private intercourse: whether he keep her in oriental idleness or active co-operation, or leave her to live her independent life, rests with the couple alone, and all the possible friendship and intimacies outside marriage also lie quite beyond the organisation of the modern state. religious teaching and literature may affect these; customs may arise; certain types of relationship may involve social isolation; the justice of the statesman is blind to such things. it may be urged that according to atkinson's illuminating analysis [footnote: see lang and atkinson's social origins and primal law.] the control of love-making was the very origin of the human community. in utopia, nevertheless, love-making is no concern of the state's beyond the province that the protection of children covers. [footnote: it cannot be made too clear that though the control of morality is outside the law the state must maintain a general decorum, a systematic suppression of powerful and moving examples, and of incitations and temptations of the young and inexperienced, and to that extent it will, of course, in a sense, exercise a control over morals. but this will be only part of a wider law to safeguard the tender mind. for example, lying advertisements, and the like, when they lean towards adolescent interests, will encounter a specially disagreeable disposition in the law, over and above the treatment of their general dishonesty.] change of function is one of the ruling facts in life, the sac that was in our remotest ancestors a swimming bladder is now a lung, and the state which was once, perhaps, no more than the jealous and tyrannous will of the strongest male in the herd, the instrument of justice and equality. the state intervenes now only where there is want of harmony between individuals--individuals who exist or who may presently come into existence. section it must be reiterated that our reasoning still leaves utopian marriage an institution with wide possibilities of variation. we have tried to give effect to the ideal of a virtual equality, an equality of spirit between men and women, and in doing so we have overridden the accepted opinion of the great majority of mankind. probably the first writer to do as much was plato. his argument in support of this innovation upon natural human feeling was thin enough--a mere analogy to illustrate the spirit of his propositions; it was his creative instinct that determined him. in the atmosphere of such speculations as this, plato looms very large indeed, and in view of what we owe to him, it seems reasonable that we should hesitate before dismissing as a thing prohibited and evil, a type of marriage that he made almost the central feature in the organisation of the ruling class, at least, of his ideal state. he was persuaded that the narrow monogamic family is apt to become illiberal and anti-social, to withdraw the imagination and energies of the citizen from the services of the community as a whole, and the roman catholic church has so far endorsed and substantiated his opinion as to forbid family relations to its priests and significant servants. he conceived of a poetic devotion to the public idea, a devotion of which the mind of aristotle, as his criticisms of plato show, was incapable, as a substitute for the warm and tender but illiberal emotions of the home. but while the church made the alternative to family ties celibacy [footnote: the warm imagination of campanella, that quaint calabrian monastic, fired by plato, reversed this aspect of the church.] and participation in an organisation, plato was far more in accordance with modern ideas in perceiving the disadvantage that would result from precluding the nobler types of character from offspring. he sought a way to achieve progeny, therefore, without the narrow concentration of the sympathies about the home, and he found it in a multiple marriage in which every member of the governing class was considered to be married to all the others. but the detailed operation of this system he put tentatively and very obscurely. his suggestions have the experimental inconsistency of an enquiring man. he left many things altogether open, and it is unfair to him to adopt aristotle's forensic method and deal with his discussion as though it was a fully-worked-out project. it is clear that plato intended every member of his governing class to be so "changed at birth" as to leave paternity untraceable; mothers were not to know their children, nor children their parents, but there is nothing to forbid the supposition that he intended these people to select and adhere to congenial mates within the great family. aristotle's assertion that the platonic republic left no scope for the virtue of continence shows that he had jumped to just the same conclusions a contemporary london errand boy, hovering a little shamefacedly over jowett in a public library, might be expected to reach. aristotle obscures plato's intention, it may be accidentally, by speaking of his marriage institution as a community of wives. when reading plato he could not or would not escape reading in his own conception of the natural ascendency of men, his idea of property in women and children. but as plato intended women to be conventionally equal to men, this phrase belies him altogether; community of husbands and wives would be truer to his proposal. aristotle condemns plato as roundly as any commercial room would condemn him to-day, and in much the same spirit; he asserts rather than proves that such a grouping is against the nature of man. he wanted to have women property just as he wanted to have slaves property, he did not care to ask why, and it distressed his conception of convenience extremely to imagine any other arrangement. it is no doubt true that the natural instinct of either sex is exclusive of participators in intimacy during a period of intimacy, but it was probably aristotle who gave plato an offensive interpretation in this matter. no one would freely submit to such a condition of affairs as multiple marriage carried out, in the spirit of the aristotelian interpretation, to an obscene completeness, but that is all the more reason why the modern utopia should not refuse a grouped marriage to three or more freely consenting persons. there is no sense in prohibiting institutions which no sane people could ever want to abuse. it is claimed--though the full facts are difficult to ascertain--that a group marriage of over two hundred persons was successfully organised by john humphrey noyes at oneida creek. [footnote: see john h. noyes's history of american socialisms and his writings generally. the bare facts of this and the other american experiments are given, together with more recent matter, by morris hillquirt, in the history of socialism in the united states.] it is fairly certain in the latter case that there was no "promiscuity," and that the members mated for variable periods, and often for life, within the group. the documents are reasonably clear upon that point. this oneida community was, in fact, a league of two hundred persons to regard their children as "common." choice and preference were not abolished in the community, though in some cases they were set aside--just as they are by many parents under our present conditions. there seems to have been a premature attempt at "stirpiculture," at what mr. francis galton now calls "eugenics," in the mating of the members, and there was also a limitation of offspring. beyond these points the inner secrets of the community do not appear to be very profound; its atmosphere was almost commonplace, it was made up of very ordinary people. there is no doubt that it had a career of exceptional success throughout the whole lifetime of its founder, and it broke down with the advent of a new generation, with the onset of theological differences, and the loss of its guiding intelligence. the anglo-saxon spirit, it has been said by one of the ablest children of the experiment, is too individualistic for communism. it is possible to regard the temporary success of this complex family as a strange accident, as the wonderful exploit of what was certainly a very exceptional man. its final disintegration into frankly monogamic couples--it is still a prosperous business association--may be taken as an experimental verification of aristotle's common-sense psychology, and was probably merely the public acknowledgment of conditions already practically established. out of respect for plato we cannot ignore this possibility of multiple marriage altogether in our utopian theorising, but even if we leave this possibility open we are still bound to regard it as a thing so likely to be rare as not to come at all under our direct observation during our utopian journeyings. but in one sense, of course, in the sense that the state guarantees care and support for all properly born children, our entire utopia is to be regarded as a comprehensive marriage group. [footnote: the thelema of rabelais, with its principle of "fay ce que vouldras" within the limits of the order, is probably intended to suggest a platonic complex marriage after the fashion of our interpretation.] it must be remembered that a modern utopia must differ from the utopias of any preceding age in being world-wide; it is not, therefore, to be the development of any special race or type of culture, as plato's developed an athenian-spartan blend, or more, tudor england. the modern utopia is to be, before all things, synthetic. politically and socially, as linguistically, we must suppose it a synthesis; politically it will be a synthesis of once widely different forms of government; socially and morally, a synthesis of a great variety of domestic traditions and ethical habits. into the modern utopia there must have entered the mental tendencies and origins that give our own world the polygamy of the zulus and of utah, the polyandry of tibet, the latitudes of experiment permitted in the united states, and the divorceless wedlock of comte. the tendency of all synthetic processes in matters of law and custom is to reduce and simplify the compulsory canon, to admit alternatives and freedoms; what were laws before become traditions of feeling and style, and in no matter will this be more apparent than in questions affecting the relations of the sexes. chapter the seventh a few utopian impressions section but now we are in a better position to describe the houses and ways of the utopian townships about the lake of lucerne, and to glance a little more nearly at the people who pass. you figure us as curiously settled down in utopia, as working for a low wage at wood-carving, until the authorities at the central registry in paris can solve the perplexing problem we have set them. we stay in an inn looking out upon the lake, and go to and fro for our five hours' work a day, with a curious effect of having been born utopians. the rest of our time is our own. our inn is one of those inns and lodging houses which have a minimum tariff, inns which are partly regulated, and, in the default of private enterprise, maintained and controlled by the world state throughout the entire world. it is one of several such establishments in lucerne. it possesses many hundreds of practically self-cleaning little bedrooms, equipped very much after the fashion of the rooms we occupied in the similar but much smaller inn at hospenthal, differing only a little in the decoration. there is the same dressing-room recess with its bath, the same graceful proportion in the succinct simplicity of its furniture. this particular inn is a quadrangle after the fashion of an oxford college; it is perhaps forty feet high, and with about five stories of bedrooms above its lower apartments; the windows of the rooms look either outward or inward to the quadrangle, and the doors give upon artificially-lit passages with staircases passing up and down. these passages are carpeted with a sort of cork carpet, but are otherwise bare. the lower story is occupied by the equivalent of a london club, kitchens and other offices, dining-room, writing-room, smoking and assembly rooms, a barber's shop, and a library. a colonnade with seats runs about the quadrangle, and in the middle is a grass-plot. in the centre of this a bronze figure, a sleeping child, reposes above a little basin and fountain, in which water lilies are growing. the place has been designed by an architect happily free from the hampering traditions of greek temple building, and of roman and italian palaces; it is simple, unaffected, gracious. the material is some artificial stone with the dull surface and something of the tint of yellow ivory; the colour is a little irregular, and a partial confession of girders and pillars breaks this front of tender colour with lines and mouldings of greenish gray, that blend with the tones of the leaden gutters and rain pipes from the light red roof. at one point only does any explicit effort towards artistic effect appear, and that is in the great arched gateway opposite my window. two or three abundant yellow roses climb over the face of the building, and when i look out of my window in the early morning--for the usual utopian working day commences within an hour of sunrise--i see pilatus above this outlook, rosy in the morning sky. this quadrangle type of building is the prevalent element in utopian lucerne, and one may go from end to end of the town along corridors and covered colonnades without emerging by a gateway into the open roads at all. small shops are found in these colonnades, but the larger stores are usually housed in buildings specially adapted to their needs. the majority of the residential edifices are far finer and more substantial than our own modest shelter, though we gather from such chance glimpses as we get of their arrangements that the labour-saving ideal runs through every grade of this servantless world; and what we should consider a complete house in earthly england is hardly known here. the autonomy of the household has been reduced far below terrestrial conditions by hotels and clubs, and all sorts of co-operative expedients. people who do not live in hotels seem usually to live in clubs. the fairly prosperous utopian belongs, in most cases, to one or two residential clubs of congenial men and women. these clubs usually possess in addition to furnished bedrooms more or less elaborate suites of apartments, and if a man prefers it one of these latter can be taken and furnished according to his personal taste. a pleasant boudoir, a private library and study, a private garden plot, are among the commonest of such luxuries. devices to secure roof gardens, loggias, verandahs, and such-like open-air privacies to the more sumptuous of these apartments, give interest and variety to utopian architecture. there are sometimes little cooking corners in these flats--as one would call them on earth--but the ordinary utopian would no more think of a special private kitchen for his dinners than he would think of a private flour mill or dairy farm. business, private work, and professional practice go on sometimes in the house apartments, but often in special offices in the great warren of the business quarter. a common garden, an infant school, play rooms, and a playing garden for children, are universal features of the club quadrangles. two or three main roads with their tramways, their cyclists' paths, and swift traffic paths, will converge on the urban centre, where the public offices will stand in a group close to the two or three theatres and the larger shops, and hither, too, in the case of lucerne, the head of the swift railway to paris and england and scotland, and to the rhineland and germany will run. and as one walks out from the town centre one will come to that mingling of homesteads and open country which will be the common condition of all the more habitable parts of the globe. here and there, no doubt, will stand quite solitary homesteads, homesteads that will nevertheless be lit and warmed by cables from the central force station, that will share the common water supply, will have their perfected telephonic connection with the rest of the world, with doctor, shop, and so forth, and may even have a pneumatic tube for books and small parcels to the nearest post-office. but the solitary homestead, as a permanent residence, will be something of a luxury--the resort of rather wealthy garden lovers; and most people with a bias for retirement will probably get as much residential solitude as they care for in the hire of a holiday chalet in a forest, by remote lagoons or high up the mountain side. the solitary house may indeed prove to be very rare indeed in utopia. the same forces, the same facilitation of communications that will diffuse the towns will tend to little concentrations of the agricultural population over the country side. the field workers will probably take their food with them to their work during the day, and for the convenience of an interesting dinner and of civilised intercourse after the working day is over, they will most probably live in a college quadrangle with a common room and club. i doubt if there will be any agricultural labourers drawing wages in utopia. i am inclined to imagine farming done by tenant associations, by little democratic unlimited liability companies working under elected managers, and paying not a fixed rent but a share of the produce to the state. such companies could reconstruct annually to weed out indolent members. [footnote: schemes for the co-operative association of producers will be found in dr. hertzka's freeland.] a minimum standard of efficiency in farming would be insured by fixing a minimum beneath which the rent must not fall, and perhaps by inspection. the general laws respecting the standard of life would, of course, apply to such associations. this type of co-operation presents itself to me as socially the best arrangement for productive agriculture and horticulture, but such enterprises as stock breeding, seed farming and the stocking and loan of agricultural implements are probably, and agricultural research and experiment certainly, best handled directly by large companies or the municipality or the state. but i should do little to investigate this question; these are presented as quite incidental impressions. you must suppose that for the most part our walks and observations keep us within the more urban quarters of lucerne. from a number of beautifully printed placards at the street corners, adorned with caricatures of considerable pungency, we discover an odd little election is in progress. this is the selection, upon strictly democratic lines, with a suffrage that includes every permanent resident in the lucerne ward over the age of fifteen, of the ugliest local building. the old little urban and local governing bodies, we find, have long since been superseded by great provincial municipalities for all the more serious administrative purposes, but they still survive to discharge a number of curious minor functions, and not the least among these is this sort of aesthetic ostracism. every year every minor local governing body pulls down a building selected by local plebiscite, and the greater government pays a slight compensation to the owner, and resumes possession of the land it occupies. the idea would strike us at first as simply whimsical, but in practice it appears to work as a cheap and practical device for the aesthetic education of builders, engineers, business men, opulent persons, and the general body of the public. but when we come to consider its application to our own world we should perceive it was the most utopian thing we had so far encountered. section the factory that employs us is something very different from the ordinary earthly model. our business is to finish making little wooden toys--bears, cattle men, and the like--for children. the things are made in the rough by machinery, and then finished by hand, because the work of unskilful but interested men--and it really is an extremely amusing employment--is found to give a personality and interest to these objects no machine can ever attain. we carvers--who are the riffraff of utopia--work in a long shed together, nominally by time; we must keep at the job for the length of the spell, but we are expected to finish a certain number of toys for each spell of work. the rules of the game as between employer and employed in this particular industry hang on the wall behind us; they are drawn up by a conference of the common council of wages workers with the employers, a common council which has resulted in utopia from a synthesis of the old trades unions, and which has become a constitutional power; but any man who has skill or humour is presently making his own bargain with our employer more or less above that datum line. our employer is a quiet blue-eyed man with a humorous smile. he dresses wholly in an indigo blue, that later we come to consider a sort of voluntary uniform for utopian artists. as he walks about the workshop, stopping to laugh at this production or praise that, one is reminded inevitably of an art school. every now and then he carves a little himself or makes a sketch or departs to the machinery to order some change in the rough shapes it is turning out. our work is by no means confined to animals. after a time i am told to specialise in a comical little roman-nosed pony; but several of the better paid carvers work up caricature images of eminent utopians. over these our employer is most disposed to meditate, and from them he darts off most frequently to improve the type. it is high summer, and our shed lies open at either end. on one hand is a steep mountain side down which there comes, now bridging a chasm, now a mere straight groove across a meadow, now hidden among green branches, the water-slide that brings our trees from the purple forest overhead. above us, but nearly hidden, hums the machine shed, but we see a corner of the tank into which, with a mighty splash, the pine trees are delivered. every now and then, bringing with him a gust of resinous smell, a white-clad machinist will come in with a basketful of crude, unwrought little images, and will turn them out upon the table from which we carvers select them. (whenever i think of utopia that faint and fluctuating smell of resin returns to me, and whenever i smell resin, comes the memory of the open end of the shed looking out upon the lake, the blue-green lake, the boats mirrored in the water, and far and high beyond floats the atmospheric fairyland of the mountains of glarus, twenty miles away.) the cessation of the second and last spell of work comes about midday, and then we walk home, through this beautiful intricacy of a town to our cheap hotel beside the lake. we should go our way with a curious contentment, for all that we were earning scarcely more than the minimum wage. we should have, of course, our uneasiness about the final decisions of that universal eye which has turned upon us, we should have those ridiculous sham numbers on our consciences; but that general restlessness, that brooding stress that pursues the weekly worker on earth, that aching anxiety that drives him so often to stupid betting, stupid drinking, and violent and mean offences will have vanished out of mortal experience. section i should find myself contrasting my position with my preconceptions about a utopian visit. i had always imagined myself as standing outside the general machinery of the state--in the distinguished visitors' gallery, as it were--and getting the new world in a series of comprehensive perspective views. but this utopia, for all the sweeping floats of generalisation i do my best to maintain, is swallowing me up. i find myself going between my work and the room in which i sleep and the place in which i dine, very much as i went to and fro in that real world into which i fell five-and-forty years ago. i find about me mountains and horizons that limit my view, institutions that vanish also without an explanation, beyond the limit of sight, and a great complexity of things i do not understand and about which, to tell the truth, i do not formulate acute curiosities. people, very unrepresentative people, people just as casual as people in the real world, come into personal relations with us, and little threads of private and immediate interest spin themselves rapidly into a thickening grey veil across the general view. i lose the comprehensive interrogation of my first arrival; i find myself interested in the grain of the wood i work, in birds among the tree branches, in little irrelevant things, and it is only now and then that i get fairly back to the mood that takes all utopia for its picture. we spend our first surplus of utopian money in the reorganisation of our wardrobes upon more utopian lines; we develop acquaintance with several of our fellow workers, and of those who share our table at the inn. we pass insensibly into acquaintanceships and the beginnings of friendships. the world utopia, i say, seems for a time to be swallowing me up. at the thought of detail it looms too big for me. the question of government, of its sustaining ideas, of race, and the wider future, hang like the arch of the sky over these daily incidents, very great indeed, but very remote. these people about me are everyday people, people not so very far from the minimum wage, accustomed much as the everyday people of earth are accustomed to take their world as they find it. such enquiries as i attempt are pretty obviously a bore to them, pass outside their range as completely as utopian speculation on earth outranges a stevedore or a member of parliament or a working plumber. even the little things of daily life interest them in a different way. so i get on with my facts and reasoning rather slowly. i find myself looking among the pleasant multitudes of the streets for types that promise congenial conversation. my sense of loneliness is increased during this interlude by the better social success of the botanist. i find him presently falling into conversation with two women who are accustomed to sit at a table near our own. they wear the loose, coloured robes of soft material that are the usual wear of common adult utopian women; they are both dark and sallow, and they affect amber and crimson in their garments. their faces strike me as a little unintelligent, and there is a faint touch of middle-aged coquetry in their bearing that i do not like. yet on earth we should consider them women of exceptional refinement. but the botanist evidently sees in this direction scope for the feelings that have wilted a little under my inattention, and he begins that petty intercourse of a word, of a slight civility, of vague enquiries and comparisons that leads at last to associations and confidences. such superficial confidences, that is to say, as he finds satisfactory. this throws me back upon my private observations. the general effect of a utopian population is vigour. everyone one meets seems to be not only in good health but in training; one rarely meets fat people, bald people, or bent or grey. people who would be obese or bent and obviously aged on earth are here in good repair, and as a consequence the whole effect of a crowd is livelier and more invigorating than on earth. the dress is varied and graceful; that of the women reminds one most of the italian fifteenth century; they have an abundance of soft and beautifully-coloured stuffs, and the clothes, even of the poorest, fit admirably. their hair is very simply but very carefully and beautifully dressed, and except in very sunny weather they do not wear hats or bonnets. there is little difference in deportment between one class and another; they all are graceful and bear themselves with quiet dignity, and among a group of them a european woman of fashion in her lace and feathers, her hat and metal ornaments, her mixed accumulations of "trimmings," would look like a barbarian tricked out with the miscellaneous plunder of a museum. boys and girls wear much the same sort of costume--brown leather shoes, then a sort of combination of hose and close-fitting trousers that reaches from toe to waist, and over this a beltless jacket fitting very well, or a belted tunic. many slender women wear the same sort of costume. we should see them in it very often in such a place as lucerne, as they returned from expeditions in the mountains. the older men would wear long robes very frequently, but the greater proportion of the men would go in variations of much the same costume as the children. there would certainly be hooded cloaks and umbrellas for rainy weather, high boots for mud and snow, and cloaks and coats and furry robes for the winter. there would be no doubt a freer use of colour than terrestrial europe sees in these days, but the costume of the women at least would be soberer and more practical, and (in harmony with our discussion in the previous chapter) less differentiated from the men's. but these, of course, are generalisations. these are the mere translation of the social facts we have hypotheticated into the language of costume. there will be a great variety of costume and no compulsions. the doubles of people who are naturally foppish on earth will be foppish in utopia, and people who have no natural taste on earth will have inartistic equivalents. everyone will not be quiet in tone, or harmonious, or beautiful. occasionally, as i go through the streets to my work, i shall turn round to glance again at some robe shot with gold embroidery, some slashing of the sleeves, some eccentricity of cut, or some discord or untidiness. but these will be but transient flashes in a general flow of harmonious graciousness; dress will have scarcely any of that effect of disorderly conflict, of self-assertion qualified by the fear of ridicule, that it has in the crudely competitive civilisations of earth. i shall have the seeker's attitude of mind during those few days at lucerne. i shall become a student of faces. i shall be, as it were, looking for someone. i shall see heavy faces, dull faces, faces with an uncongenial animation, alien faces, and among these some with an immediate quality of appeal. i should see desirable men approaching me, and i should think; "now, if i were to speak to _you_?" many of these latter i should note wore the same clothing as the man who spoke to us at wassen; i should begin to think of it as a sort of uniform.... then i should see grave-faced girls, girls of that budding age when their bearing becomes delusively wise, and the old deception of my youth will recur to me; "could you and i but talk together?" i should think. women will pass me lightly, women with open and inviting faces, but they will not attract me, and there will come beautiful women, women with that touch of claustral preoccupation which forbids the thought of any near approach. they are private and secret, and i may not enter, i know, into their thoughts.... i go as often as i can to the seat by the end of old kapelbrucke, and watch the people passing over. i shall find a quality of dissatisfaction throughout all these days. i shall come to see this period more and more distinctly as a pause, as a waiting interlude, and the idea of an encounter with my double, which came at first as if it were a witticism, as something verbal and surprising, begins to take substance. the idea grows in my mind that after all this is the "someone" i am seeking, this utopian self of mine. i had at first an idea of a grotesque encounter, as of something happening in a looking glass, but presently it dawns on me that my utopian self must be a very different person from me. his training will be different, his mental content different. but between us there will be a strange link of essential identity, a sympathy, an understanding. i find the thing rising suddenly to a preponderance in my mind. i find the interest of details dwindling to the vanishing point. that i have come to utopia is the lesser thing now; the greater is that i have come to meet myself. i spend hours trying to imagine the encounter, inventing little dialogues. i go alone to the bureau to find if any news has come to hand from the great index in paris, but i am told to wait another twenty-four hours. i cease absolutely to be interested in anything else, except so far as it leads towards intercourse with this being who is to be at once so strangely alien and so totally mine. section wrapped up in these preoccupations as i am, it will certainly be the botanist who will notice the comparative absence of animals about us. he will put it in the form of a temperate objection to the utopian planet. he is a professed lover of dogs and there are none. we have seen no horses and only one or two mules on the day of our arrival, and there seems not a cat in the world. i bring my mind round to his suggestion. "this follows," i say. it is only reluctantly that i allow myself to be drawn from my secret musings into a discussion of utopian pets. i try to explain that a phase in the world's development is inevitable when a systematic world-wide attempt will be made to destroy for ever a great number of contagious and infectious diseases, and that this will involve, for a time at any rate, a stringent suppression of the free movement of familiar animals. utopian houses, streets and drains will be planned and built to make rats, mice, and such-like house parasites impossible; the race of cats and dogs--providing, as it does, living fastnesses to which such diseases as plague, influenza, catarrhs and the like, can retreat to sally forth again--must pass for a time out of freedom, and the filth made by horses and the other brutes of the highway vanish from the face of the earth. these things make an old story to me, and perhaps explicitness suffers through my brevity. my botanist fails altogether to grasp what the disappearance of diseases means. his mind has no imaginative organ of that compass. as i talk his mind rests on one fixed image. this presents what the botanist would probably call a "dear old doggie"--which the botanist would make believe did not possess any sensible odour--and it has faithful brown eyes and understands everything you say. the botanist would make believe it understood him mystically, and i figure his long white hand--which seems to me, in my more jaundiced moments, to exist entirely for picking things and holding a lens--patting its head, while the brute looked things unspeakable.... the botanist shakes his head after my explanation and says quietly, "i do not like your utopia, if there are to be no dogs." perhaps that makes me a little malicious. indeed i do not hate dogs, but i care ten thousand times more for a man than for all the brutes on the earth, and i can see, what the botanist i think cannot, that a life spent in the delightful atmosphere of many pet animals may have too dear a price.... i find myself back again at the comparison of the botanist and myself. there is a profound difference in our imaginations, and i wonder whether it is the consequence of innate character or of training and whether he is really the human type or i. i am not altogether without imagination, but what imagination i have has the most insistent disposition to square itself with every fact in the universe. it hypothesises very boldly, but on the other hand it will not gravely make believe. now the botanist's imagination is always busy with the most impossible make-believe. that is the way with all children i know. but it seems to me one ought to pass out of it. it isn't as though the world was an untidy nursery; it is a place of splendours indescribable for all who will lift its veils. it may be he is essentially different from me, but i am much more inclined to think he is simply more childish. always it is make-believe. he believes that horses are beautiful creatures for example, dogs are beautiful creatures, that some women are inexpressibly lovely, and he makes believe that this is always so. never a word of criticism of horse or dog or woman! never a word of criticism of his impeccable friends! then there is his botany. he makes believe that all the vegetable kingdom is mystically perfect and exemplary, that all flowers smell deliciously and are exquisitely beautiful, that drosera does not hurt flies very much, and that onions do not smell. most of the universe does not interest this nature lover at all. but i know, and i am querulously incapable of understanding why everyone else does not know, that a horse is beautiful in one way and quite ugly in another, that everything has this shot-silk quality, and is all the finer for that. when people talk of a horse as an ugly animal i think of its beautiful moments, but when i hear a flow of indiscriminate praise of its beauty i think of such an aspect as one gets for example from a dog-cart, the fiddle-shaped back, and that distressing blade of the neck, the narrow clumsy place between the ears, and the ugly glimpse of cheek. there is, indeed, no beauty whatever save that transitory thing that comes and comes again; all beauty is really the beauty of expression, is really kinetic and momentary. that is true even of those triumphs of static endeavour achieved by greece. the greek temple, for example, is a barn with a face that at a certain angle of vision and in a certain light has a great calm beauty. but where are we drifting? all such things, i hold, are cases of more and less, and of the right moment and the right aspect, even the things i most esteem. there is no perfection, there is no enduring treasure. this pet dog's beautiful affection, i say, or this other sensuous or imaginative delight, is no doubt good, but it can be put aside if it is incompatible with some other and wider good. you cannot focus all good things together. all right action and all wise action is surely sound judgment and courageous abandonment in the matter of such incompatibilities. if i cannot imagine thoughts and feelings in a dog's brain that cannot possibly be there, at least i can imagine things in the future of men that might be there had we the will to demand them.... "i don't like this utopia," the botanist repeats. "you don't understand about dogs. to me they're human beings--and more! there used to be such a jolly old dog at my aunt's at frognal when i was a boy----" but i do not heed his anecdote. something--something of the nature of conscience--has suddenly jerked back the memory of that beer i drank at hospenthal, and puts an accusing finger on the memory. i never have had a pet animal, i confess, though i have been fairly popular with kittens. but with regard to a certain petting of myself----? perhaps i was premature about that beer. i have had no pet animals, but i perceive if the modern utopia is going to demand the sacrifice of the love of animals, which is, in its way, a very fine thing indeed, so much the more readily may it demand the sacrifice of many other indulgences, some of which are not even fine in the lowest degree. it is curious this haunting insistence upon sacrifice and discipline! it is slowly becoming my dominant thought that the sort of people whose will this utopia embodies must be people a little heedless of small pleasures. you cannot focus all good things at the same time. that is my chief discovery in these meditations at lucerne. much of the rest of this utopia i had in a sort of way anticipated, but not this. i wonder if i shall see my utopian self for long and be able to talk to him freely.... we lie in the petal-strewn grass under some judas trees beside the lake shore, as i meander among these thoughts, and each of us, disregardful of his companion, follows his own associations. "very remarkable," i say, discovering that the botanist has come to an end with his story of that frognal dog. "you'd wonder how he knew," he says. "you would." i nibble a green blade. "do you realise quite," i ask, "that within a week we shall face our utopian selves and measure something of what we might have been?" the botanist's face clouds. he rolls over, sits up abruptly and puts his lean hands about his knees. "i don't like to think about it," he says. "what is the good of reckoning ... might have beens?" section it is pleasant to think of one's puzzling the organised wisdom of so superior a planet as this utopia, this moral monster state my frankenstein of reasoning has made, and to that pitch we have come. when we are next in the presence of our lucerne official, he has the bearing of a man who faces a mystification beyond his powers, an incredible disarrangement of the order of nature. here, for the first time in the records of utopian science, are two cases--not simply one but two, and these in each other's company!--of duplicated thumb-marks. this, coupled with a cock-and-bull story of an instantaneous transfer from some planet unknown to utopian astronomy. that he and all his world exists only upon a hypothesis that would explain everyone of these difficulties absolutely, is scarcely likely to occur to his obviously unphilosophic mind. the official eye is more eloquent than the official lips and asks almost urgently, "what in this immeasurable universe have you managed to do to your thumbs? and why?" but he is only a very inferior sort of official indeed, a mere clerk of the post, and he has all the guarded reserve of your thoroughly unoriginal man. "you are not the two persons i ascertained you were," he says, with the note of one resigned to communion with unreason; "because you"--he indicates me--"are evidently at your residence in london." i smile. "that gentleman"--he points a pen at the botanist in a manner that is intended to dismiss my smile once for all--"will be in london next week. he will be returning next friday from a special mission to investigate the fungoid parasites that have been attacking the cinchona trees in ceylon." the botanist blesses his heart. "consequently"--the official sighs at the burthen of such nonsense, "you will have to go and consult with--the people you ought to be." i betray a faint amusement. "you will have to end by believing in our planet," i say. he waggles a negation with his head. he would intimate his position is too responsible a one for jesting, and both of us in our several ways enjoy the pleasure we poor humans have in meeting with intellectual inferiority. "the standing committee of identification," he says, with an eye on a memorandum, "has remitted your case to the research professor of anthropology in the university of london, and they want you to go there, if you will, and talk to him." "what else can we do?" says the botanist. "there's no positive compulsion," he remarks, "but your work here will probably cease. here----" he pushed the neat slips of paper towards us--"are your tickets for london, and a small but sufficient supply of money,"--he indicates two piles of coins and paper on either hand of him--"for a day or so there." he proceeds in the same dry manner to inform us we are invited to call at our earliest convenience upon our doubles, and upon the professor, who is to investigate our case. "and then?" he pulls down the corners of his mouth in a wry deprecatory smile, eyes us obliquely under a crumpled brow, shrugs his shoulders, and shows us the palms of his hands. on earth, where there is nationality, this would have been a frenchman--the inferior sort of frenchman--the sort whose only happiness is in the routine security of government employment. section london will be the first utopian city centre we shall see. we shall find ourselves there with not a little amazement. it will be our first experience of the swift long distance travel of utopia, and i have an idea--i know not why--that we should make the journey by night. perhaps i think so because the ideal of long-distance travel is surely a restful translation less suitable for the active hours. we shall dine and gossip and drink coffee at the pretty little tables under the lantern-lit trees, we shall visit the theatre, and decide to sup in the train, and so come at last to the station. there we shall find pleasant rooms with seats and books--luggage all neatly elsewhere--and doors that we shall imagine give upon a platform. our cloaks and hats and such-like outdoor impedimenta will be taken in the hall and neatly labelled for london, we shall exchange our shoes for slippers there, and we shall sit down like men in a club. an officious little bell will presently call our attention to a label "london" on the doorway, and an excellent phonograph will enforce that notice with infinite civility. the doors will open, and we shall walk through into an equally comfortable gallery. "where is the train for london?" we shall ask a uniformed fellow utopian. "this is the train for london," he will say. there will be a shutting of doors, and the botanist and i, trying not to feel too childish, will walk exploring through the capacious train. the resemblance to a club will strike us both. "a _good_ club," the botanist will correct me. when one travels beyond a certain speed, there is nothing but fatigue in looking out of a window, and this corridor train, twice the width of its poor terrestrial brother, will have no need of that distraction. the simple device of abandoning any but a few windows, and those set high, gives the wall space of the long corridors to books; the middle part of the train is indeed a comfortable library with abundant armchairs and couches, each with its green-shaded light, and soft carpets upon the soundproof floor. further on will be a news-room, with a noiseless but busy tape at one corner, printing off messages from the wires by the wayside, and further still, rooms for gossip and smoking, a billiard room, and the dining car. behind we shall come to bedrooms, bathrooms, the hairdresser, and so forth. "when shall we start?" i ask presently, as we return, rather like bashful yokels, to the library, and the old gentleman reading the arabian nights in the armchair in the corner glances up at me with a sudden curiosity. the botanist touches my arm and nods towards a pretty little lead-paned window, through which we see a village sleeping under cloudy moonlight go flashing by. then a skylit lake, and then a string of swaying lights, gone with the leap of a camera shutter. two hundred miles an hour! we resort to a dignified chinese steward and secure our berths. it is perhaps terrestrial of us that we do not think of reading the utopian literature that lines the middle part of the train. i find a bed of the simple utopian pattern, and lie for a time thinking--quite tranquilly--of this marvellous adventure. i wonder why it is that to lie securely in bed, with the light out, seems ever the same place, wherever in space one may chance to be? and asleep, there is no space for us at all. i become drowsy and incoherent and metaphysical.... the faint and fluctuating drone of the wheels below the car, re-echoed by the flying track, is more perceptible now, but it is not unpleasantly loud, merely a faint tinting of the quiet.... no sea crossing breaks our journey; there is nothing to prevent a channel tunnel in that other planet; and i wake in london. the train has been in london some time when i awake, for these marvellous utopians have discovered that it is not necessary to bundle out passengers from a train in the small hours, simply because they have arrived. a utopian train is just a peculiar kind of hotel corridor that flies about the earth while one sleeps. section how will a great city of utopia strike us? to answer that question well one must needs be artist and engineer, and i am neither. moreover, one must employ words and phrases that do not exist, for this world still does not dream of the things that may be done with thought and steel, when the engineer is sufficiently educated to be an artist, and the artistic intelligence has been quickened to the accomplishment of an engineer. how can one write of these things for a generation which rather admires that inconvenient and gawky muddle of ironwork and flemish architecture, the london tower bridge. when before this, temerarious anticipators have written of the mighty buildings that might someday be, the illustrator has blended with the poor ineffectual splutter of the author's words, his powerful suggestion that it amounted simply to something bulbous, florid and fluent in the vein of the onion, and l'art nouveau. but here, it may be, the illustrator will not intervene. art has scarcely begun in the world. there have been a few forerunners and that is all. leonardo, michael angelo; how they would have exulted in the liberties of steel! there are no more pathetic documents in the archives of art than leonardo's memoranda. in these, one sees him again and again reaching out as it were, with empty desirous hands, towards the unborn possibilities of the engineer. and durer, too, was a modern, with the same turn towards creative invention. in our times these men would have wanted to make viaducts, to bridge wild and inaccessible places, to cut and straddle great railways athwart the mountain masses of the world. you can see, time after time, in durer's work, as you can see in the imaginary architectural landscape of the pompeian walls, the dream of structures, lighter and bolder than stone or brick can yield.... these utopian town buildings will be the realisation of such dreams. here will be one of the great meeting places of mankind. here--i speak of utopian london--will be the traditional centre of one of the great races in the commonalty of the world state--and here will be its social and intellectual exchange. there will be a mighty university here, with thousands of professors and tens of thousands of advanced students, and here great journals of thought and speculation, mature and splendid books of philosophy and science, and a glorious fabric of literature will be woven and shaped, and with a teeming leisureliness, put forth. here will be stupendous libraries, and a mighty organisation of museums. about these centres will cluster a great swarm of people, and close at hand will be another centre, for i who am an englishman must needs stipulate that westminster shall still be a seat of world empire, one of several seats, if you will--where the ruling council of the world assembles. then the arts will cluster round this city, as gold gathers about wisdom, and here englishmen will weave into wonderful prose and beautiful rhythms and subtly atmospheric forms, the intricate, austere and courageous imagination of our race. one will come into this place as one comes into a noble mansion. they will have flung great arches and domes of glass above the wider spaces of the town, the slender beauty of the perfect metal-work far overhead will be softened to a fairy-like unsubstantiality by the mild london air. it will be the london air we know, clear of filth and all impurity, the same air that gives our october days their unspeakable clarity and makes every london twilight mysteriously beautiful. we shall go along avenues of architecture that will be emancipated from the last memories of the squat temple boxes of the greek, the buxom curvatures of rome; the goth in us will have taken to steel and countless new materials as kindly as once he took to stone. the gay and swiftly moving platforms of the public ways will go past on either hand, carrying sporadic groups of people, and very speedily we shall find ourselves in a sort of central space, rich with palms and flowering bushes and statuary. we shall look along an avenue of trees, down a wide gorge between the cliffs of crowded hotels, the hotels that are still glowing with internal lights, to where the shining morning river streams dawnlit out to sea. great multitudes of people will pass softly to and fro in this central space, beautiful girls and youths going to the university classes that are held in the stately palaces about us, grave and capable men and women going to their businesses, children meandering along to their schools, holiday makers, lovers, setting out upon a hundred quests; and here we shall ask for the two we more particularly seek. a graceful little telephone kiosk will put us within reach of them, and with a queer sense of unreality i shall find myself talking to my utopian twin. he has heard of me, he wants to see me and he gives me clear directions how to come to him. i wonder if my own voice sounds like that. "yes," i say, "then i will come as soon as we have been to our hotel." we indulge in no eloquence upon this remarkable occasion. yet i feel an unusual emotional stir. i tremble greatly, and the telephonic mouthpiece rattles as i replace it. and thence the botanist and i walk on to the apartments that have been set aside for us, and into which the poor little rolls of the property that has accumulated about us in utopia, our earthly raiment, and a change of linen and the like, have already been delivered. as we go i find i have little to say to my companion, until presently i am struck by a transitory wonder that he should have so little to say to me. "i can still hardly realise," i say, "that i am going to see myself--as i might have been." "no," he says, and relapses at once into his own preoccupation. for a moment my wonder as to what he should be thinking about brings me near to a double self-forgetfulness. i realise we are at the entrance of our hotel before i can formulate any further remark. "this is the place," i say. chapter the eighth my utopian self section it falls to few of us to interview our better selves. my utopian self is, of course, my better self--according to my best endeavours--and i must confess myself fully alive to the difficulties of the situation. when i came to this utopia i had no thought of any such intimate self-examination. the whole fabric of that other universe sways for a moment as i come into his room, into his clear and ordered work-room. i am trembling. a figure rather taller than myself stands against the light. he comes towards me, and i, as i advance to meet him, stumble against a chair. then, still without a word, we are clasping hands. i stand now so that the light falls upon him, and i can see his face better. he is a little taller than i, younger looking and sounder looking; he has missed an illness or so, and there is no scar over his eye. his training has been subtly finer than mine; he has made himself a better face than mine.... these things i might have counted upon. i can fancy he winces with a twinge of sympathetic understanding at my manifest inferiority. indeed, i come, trailing clouds of earthly confusion and weakness; i bear upon me all the defects of my world. he wears, i see, that white tunic with the purple band that i have already begun to consider the proper utopian clothing for grave men, and his face is clean shaven. we forget to speak at first in the intensity of our mutual inspection. when at last i do gain my voice it is to say something quite different from the fine, significant openings of my premeditated dialogues. "you have a pleasant room," i remark, and look about a little disconcerted because there is no fireplace for me to put my back against, or hearthrug to stand upon. he pushes me a chair, into which i plump, and we hang over an immensity of conversational possibilities. "i say," i plunge, "what do you think of me? you don't think i'm an impostor?" "not now that i have seen you. no." "am i so like you?" "like me and your story--exactly." "you haven't any doubt left?" i ask. "not in the least, since i saw you enter. you come from the world beyond sirius, twin to this. eh?" "and you don't want to know how i got here?" "i've ceased even to wonder how i got here," he says, with a laugh that echoes mine. he leans back in his chair, and i in mine, and the absurd parody of our attitude strikes us both. "well?" we say, simultaneously, and laugh together. i will confess this meeting is more difficult even than i anticipated. section our conversation at that first encounter would do very little to develop the modern utopia in my mind. inevitably, it would be personal and emotional. he would tell me how he stood in his world, and i how i stood in mine. i should have to tell him things, i should have to explain things----. no, the conversation would contribute nothing to a modern utopia. and so i leave it out. section but i should go back to my botanist in a state of emotional relaxation. at first i should not heed the fact that he, too, had been in some manner stirred. "i have seen him," i should say, needlessly, and seem to be on the verge of telling the untellable. then i should fade off into: "it's the strangest thing." he would interrupt me with his own preoccupation. "you know," he would say, "i've seen someone." i should pause and look at him. "she is in this world," he says. "who is in this world?" "mary!" i have not heard her name before, but i understand, of course, at once. "i saw her," he explains. "saw her?" "i'm certain it was her. certain. she was far away across those gardens near here--and before i had recovered from my amazement she had gone! but it was mary." he takes my arm. "you know i did not understand this," he says. "i did not really understand that when you said utopia, you meant i was to meet her--in happiness." "i didn't." "it works out at that." "you haven't met her yet." "i shall. it makes everything different. to tell you the truth i've rather hated this utopia of yours at times. you mustn't mind my saying it, but there's something of the gradgrind----" probably i should swear at that. "what?" he says. "nothing." "but you spoke?" "i was purring. i'm a gradgrind--it's quite right--anything you can say about herbert spencer, vivisectors, materialistic science or atheists, applies without correction to me. begbie away! but now you think better of a modern utopia? was the lady looking well?" "it was her real self. yes. not the broken woman i met--in the real world." "and as though she was pining for you." he looks puzzled. "look there!" i say. he looks. we are standing high above the ground in the loggia into which our apartments open, and i point across the soft haze of the public gardens to a tall white mass of university buildings that rises with a free and fearless gesture, to lift saluting pinnacles against the clear evening sky. "don't you think that rather more beautiful than--say--our national gallery?" he looks at it critically. "there's a lot of metal in it," he objects. "what?" i purred. "but, anyhow, whatever you can't see in that, you can, i suppose, see that it is different from anything in your world--it lacks the kindly humanity of a red-brick queen anne villa residence, with its gables and bulges, and bow windows, and its stained glass fanlight, and so forth. it lacks the self-complacent unreasonableness of board of works classicism. there's something in its proportions--as though someone with brains had taken a lot of care to get it quite right, someone who not only knew what metal can do, but what a university ought to be, somebody who had found the gothic spirit enchanted, petrified, in a cathedral, and had set it free." "but what has this," he asks, "to do with her?" "very much," i say. "this is not the same world. if she is here, she will be younger in spirit and wiser. she will be in many ways more refined----" "no one----" he begins, with a note of indignation. "no, no! she couldn't be. i was wrong there. but she will be different. grant that at any rate. when you go forward to speak to her, she may not remember--very many things _you_ may remember. things that happened at frognal--dear romantic walks through the sunday summer evenings, practically you two alone, you in your adolescent silk hat and your nice gentlemanly gloves.... perhaps that did not happen here! and she may have other memories--of things--that down there haven't happened. you noted her costume. she wasn't by any chance one of the samurai?" he answers, with a note of satisfaction, "no! she wore a womanly dress of greyish green." "probably under the lesser rule." "i don't know what you mean by the lesser rule. she wasn't one of the samurai." "and, after all, you know--i keep on reminding you, and you keep on losing touch with the fact, that this world contains your double." he pales, and his countenance is disturbed. thank heaven, i've touched him at last! "this world contains your double. but, conceivably, everything may be different here. the whole romantic story may have run a different course. it was as it was in our world, by the accidents of custom and proximity. adolescence is a defenceless plastic period. you are a man to form great affections,--noble, great affections. you might have met anyone almost at that season and formed the same attachment." for a time he is perplexed and troubled by this suggestion. "no," he says, a little doubtfully. "no. it was herself." ... then, emphatically, "no!" section for a time we say no more, and i fall musing about my strange encounter with my utopian double. i think of the confessions i have just made to him, the strange admissions both to him and myself. i have stirred up the stagnations of my own emotional life, the pride that has slumbered, the hopes and disappointments that have not troubled me for years. there are things that happened to me in my adolescence that no discipline of reason will ever bring to a just proportion for me, the first humiliations i was made to suffer, the waste of all the fine irrecoverable loyalties and passions of my youth. the dull base caste of my little personal tragi-comedy--i have ostensibly forgiven, i have for the most part forgotten--and yet when i recall them i hate each actor still. whenever it comes into my mind--i do my best to prevent it--there it is, and these detestable people blot out the stars for me. i have told all that story to my double, and he has listened with understanding eyes. but for a little while those squalid memories will not sink back into the deeps. we lean, side by side, over our balcony, lost in such egotistical absorptions, quite heedless of the great palace of noble dreams to which our first enterprise has brought us. section i can understand the botanist this afternoon; for once we are in the same key. my own mental temper has gone for the day, and i know what it means to be untempered. here is a world and a glorious world, and it is for me to take hold of it, to have to do with it, here and now, and behold! i can only think that i am burnt and scarred, and there rankles that wretched piece of business, the mean unimaginative triumph of my antagonist---- i wonder how many men have any real freedom of mind, are, in truth, unhampered by such associations, to whom all that is great and noble in life does not, at times at least, if not always, seem secondary to obscure rivalries and considerations, to the petty hates that are like germs in the blood, to the lust for self-assertion, to dwarfish pride, to affections they gave in pledge even before they were men. the botanist beside me dreams, i know, of vindications for that woman. all this world before us, and its order and liberty, are no more than a painted scene before which he is to meet her at last, freed from "that scoundrel." he expects "that scoundrel" really to be present and, as it were, writhing under their feet.... i wonder if that man _was_ a scoundrel. he has gone wrong on earth, no doubt, has failed and degenerated, but what was it sent him wrong? was his failure inherent, or did some net of cross purposes tangle about his feet? suppose he is not a failure in utopia!... i wonder that this has never entered the botanist's head. he, with his vaguer mind, can overlook--spite of my ruthless reminders--all that would mar his vague anticipations. that, too, if i suggested it, he would overcome and disregard. he has the most amazing power of resistance to uncongenial ideas; amazing that is, to me. he hates the idea of meeting his double, and consequently so soon as i cease to speak of that, with scarcely an effort of his will, it fades again from his mind. down below in the gardens two children pursue one another, and one, near caught, screams aloud and rouses me from my reverie. i follow their little butterfly antics until they vanish beyond a thicket of flowering rhododendra, and then my eyes go back to the great facade of the university buildings. but i am in no mood to criticise architecture. why should a modern utopia insist upon slipping out of the hands of its creator and becoming the background of a personal drama--of such a silly little drama? the botanist will not see utopia in any other way. he tests it entirely by its reaction upon the individual persons and things he knows; he dislikes it because he suspects it of wanting to lethal chamber his aunt's "dear old doggie," and now he is reconciled to it because a certain "mary" looks much younger and better here than she did on earth. and here am i, near fallen into the same way of dealing! we agreed to purge this state and all the people in it of traditions, associations, bias, laws, and artificial entanglements, and begin anew; but we have no power to liberate ourselves. our past, even its accidents, its accidents above all, and ourselves, are one. chapter the ninth the samurai section neither my utopian double nor i love emotion sufficiently to cultivate it, and my feelings are in a state of seemly subordination when we meet again. he is now in possession of some clear, general ideas about my own world, and i can broach almost at once the thoughts that have been growing and accumulating since my arrival in this planet of my dreams. we find our interest in a humanised state-craft, makes us, in spite of our vast difference in training and habits, curiously akin. i put it to him that i came to utopia with but very vague ideas of the method of government, biassed, perhaps, a little in favour of certain electoral devices, but for the rest indeterminate, and that i have come to perceive more and more clearly that the large intricacy of utopian organisation demands more powerful and efficient method of control than electoral methods can give. i have come to distinguish among the varied costumes and the innumerable types of personality utopia presents, certain men and women of a distinctive costume and bearing, and i know now that these people constitute an order, the samurai, the "voluntary nobility," which is essential in the scheme of the utopian state. i know that this order is open to every physically and mentally healthy adult in the utopian state who will observe its prescribed austere rule of living, that much of the responsible work of the state is reserved for it, and i am inclined now at the first onset of realisation to regard it as far more significant than it really is in the utopian scheme, as being, indeed, in itself and completely the utopian scheme. my predominant curiosity concerns the organisation of this order. as it has developed in my mind, it has reminded me more and more closely of that strange class of guardians which constitutes the essential substance of plato's republic, and it is with an implicit reference to plato's profound intuitions that i and my double discuss this question. to clarify our comparison he tells me something of the history of utopia, and incidentally it becomes necessary to make a correction in the assumptions upon which i have based my enterprise. we are assuming a world identical in every respect with the real planet earth, except for the profoundest differences in the mental content of life. this implies a different literature, a different philosophy, and a different history, and so soon as i come to talk to him i find that though it remains unavoidable that we should assume the correspondence of the two populations, man for man--unless we would face unthinkable complications--we must assume also that a great succession of persons of extraordinary character and mental gifts, who on earth died in childhood or at birth, or who never learnt to read, or who lived and died amidst savage or brutalising surroundings that gave their gifts no scope, did in utopia encounter happier chances, and take up the development and application of social theory--from the time of the first utopists in a steady onward progress down to the present hour. [footnote: one might assume as an alternative to this that amidst the four-fifths of the greek literature now lost to the world, there perished, neglected, some book of elementary significance, some earlier novum organum, that in utopia survived to achieve the profoundest consequences.] the differences of condition, therefore, had widened with each successive year. jesus christ had been born into a liberal and progressive roman empire that spread from the arctic ocean to the bight of benin, and was to know no decline and fall, and mahomet, instead of embodying the dense prejudices of arab ignorance, opened his eyes upon an intellectual horizon already nearly as wide as the world. and through this empire the flow of thought, the flow of intention, poured always more abundantly. there were wars, but they were conclusive wars that established new and more permanent relations, that swept aside obstructions, and abolished centres of decay; there were prejudices tempered to an ordered criticism, and hatreds that merged at last in tolerant reactions. it was several hundred years ago that the great organisation of the samurai came into its present form. and it was this organisation's widely sustained activities that had shaped and established the world state in utopia. this organisation of the samurai was a quite deliberate invention. it arose in the course of social and political troubles and complications, analogous to those of our own time on earth, and was, indeed, the last of a number of political and religious experiments dating back to the first dawn of philosophical state-craft in greece. that hasty despair of specialisation for government that gave our poor world individualism, democratic liberalism, and anarchism, and that curious disregard of the fund of enthusiasm and self-sacrifice in men, which is the fundamental weakness of worldly economics, do not appear in the history of utopian thought. all that history is pervaded with the recognition of the fact that self-seeking is no more the whole of human life than the satisfaction of hunger; that it is an essential of a man's existence no doubt, and that under stress of evil circumstances it may as entirely obsess him as would the food hunt during famine, but that life may pass beyond to an illimitable world of emotions and effort. every sane person consists of possibilities beyond the unavoidable needs, is capable of disinterested feeling, even if it amounts only to enthusiasm for a sport or an industrial employment well done, for an art, or for a locality or class. in our world now, as in the utopian past, this impersonal energy of a man goes out into religious emotion and work, into patriotic effort, into artistic enthusiasms, into games and amateur employments, and an enormous proportion of the whole world's fund of effort wastes itself in religious and political misunderstandings and conflicts, and in unsatisfying amusements and unproductive occupations. in a modern utopia there will, indeed, be no perfection; in utopia there must also be friction, conflicts and waste, but the waste will be enormously less than in our world. and the co-ordination of activities this relatively smaller waste will measure, will be the achieved end for which the order of the samurai was first devised. inevitably such an order must have first arisen among a clash of social forces and political systems as a revolutionary organisation. it must have set before itself the attainment of some such utopian ideal as this modern utopia does, in the key of mortal imperfection, realise. at first it may have directed itself to research and discussion, to the elaboration of its ideal, to the discussion of a plan of campaign, but at some stage it must have assumed a more militant organisation, and have prevailed against and assimilated the pre-existing political organisations, and to all intents and purposes have become this present synthesised world state. traces of that militancy would, therefore, pervade it still, and a campaigning quality--no longer against specific disorders, but against universal human weaknesses, and the inanimate forces that trouble man--still remain as its essential quality. "something of this kind," i should tell my double, "had arisen in our thought"--i jerk my head back to indicate an infinitely distant planet--"just before i came upon these explorations. the idea had reached me, for example, of something to be called a new republic, which was to be in fact an organisation for revolution something after the fashion of your samurai, as i understand them--only most of the organisation and the rule of life still remained to be invented. all sorts of people were thinking of something in that way about the time of my coming. the idea, as it reached me, was pretty crude in several respects. it ignored the high possibility of a synthesis of languages in the future; it came from a literary man, who wrote only english, and, as i read him--he was a little vague in his proposals--it was to be a purely english-speaking movement. and his ideas were coloured too much by the peculiar opportunism of his time; he seemed to have more than half an eye for a prince or a millionaire of genius; he seemed looking here and there for support and the structural elements of a party. still, the idea of a comprehensive movement of disillusioned and illuminated men behind the shams and patriotisms, the spites and personalities of the ostensible world was there." i added some particulars. "our movement had something of that spirit in the beginning," said my utopian double. "but while your men seem to be thinking disconnectedly, and upon a very narrow and fragmentary basis of accumulated conclusions, ours had a fairly comprehensive science of human association, and a very careful analysis of the failures of preceding beginnings to draw upon. after all, your world must be as full as ours was of the wreckage and decay of previous attempts; churches, aristocracies, orders, cults...." "only at present we seem to have lost heart altogether, and now there are no new religions, no new orders, no new cults--no beginnings any more." "but that's only a resting phase, perhaps. you were saying----" "oh!--let that distressful planet alone for a time! tell me how you manage in utopia." section the social theorists of utopia, my double explained, did not base their schemes upon the classification of men into labour and capital, the landed interest, the liquor trade, and the like. they esteemed these as accidental categories, indefinitely amenable to statesmanship, and they looked for some practical and real classification upon which to base organisation. [footnote: in that they seem to have profited by a more searching criticism of early social and political speculations than our earth has yet undertaken. the social speculations of the greeks, for example, had just the same primary defect as the economic speculations of the eighteenth century--they began with the assumption that the general conditions of the prevalent state of affairs were permanent.] but, on the other hand, the assumption that men are unclassifiable, because practically homogeneous, which underlies modern democratic methods and all the fallacies of our equal justice, is even more alien to the utopian mind. throughout utopia there is, of course, no other than provisional classifications, since every being is regarded as finally unique, but for political and social purposes things have long rested upon a classification of temperaments, which attends mainly to differences in the range and quality and character of the individual imagination. this utopian classification was a rough one, but it served its purpose to determine the broad lines of political organisation; it was so far unscientific that many individuals fall between or within two or even three of its classes. but that was met by giving the correlated organisation a compensatory looseness of play. four main classes of mind were distinguished, called, respectively, the poietic, the kinetic, the dull, and the base. the former two are supposed to constitute the living tissue of the state; the latter are the fulcra and resistances, the bone and cover of its body. they are not hereditary classes, nor is there any attempt to develop any class by special breeding, simply because the intricate interplay of heredity is untraceable and incalculable. they are classes to which people drift of their own accord. education is uniform until differentiation becomes unmistakable, and each man (and woman) must establish his position with regard to the lines of this abstract classification by his own quality, choice, and development.... the poietic or creative class of mental individuality embraces a wide range of types, but they agree in possessing imaginations that range beyond the known and accepted, and that involve the desire to bring the discoveries made in such excursions, into knowledge and recognition. the scope and direction of the imaginative excursion may vary very greatly. it may be the invention of something new or the discovery of something hitherto unperceived. when the invention or discovery is primarily beauty then we have the artistic type of poietic mind; when it is not so, we have the true scientific man. the range of discovery may be narrowed as it is in the art of whistler or the science of a cytologist, or it may embrace a wide extent of relevance, until at last both artist or scientific inquirer merge in the universal reference of the true philosopher. to the accumulated activities of the poietic type, reacted upon by circumstances, are due almost all the forms assumed by human thought and feeling. all religious ideas, all ideas of what is good or beautiful, entered life through the poietic inspirations of man. except for processes of decay, the forms of the human future must come also through men of this same type, and it is a primary essential to our modern idea of an abundant secular progress that these activities should be unhampered and stimulated. the kinetic class consists of types, various, of course, and merging insensibly along the boundary into the less representative constituents of the poietic group, but distinguished by a more restricted range of imagination. their imaginations do not range beyond the known, experienced, and accepted, though within these limits they may imagine as vividly or more vividly than members of the former group. they are often very clever and capable people, but they do not do, and they do not desire to do, new things. the more vigorous individuals of this class are the most teachable people in the world, and they are generally more moral and more trustworthy than the poietic types. they live,--while the poietics are always something of experimentalists with life. the characteristics of either of these two classes may be associated with a good or bad physique, with excessive or defective energy, with exceptional keenness of the senses in some determinate direction or such-like "bent," and the kinetic type, just as the poietic type, may display an imagination of restricted or of the most universal range. but a fairly energetic kinetic is probably the nearest thing to that ideal our earthly anthropologists have in mind when they speak of the "normal" human being. the very definition of the poietic class involves a certain abnormality. the utopians distinguished two extremes of this kinetic class according to the quality of their imaginative preferences, the dan and beersheba, as it were, of this division. at one end is the mainly intellectual, unoriginal type, which, with energy of personality, makes an admirable judge or administrator and without it an uninventive, laborious, common mathematician, or common scholar, or common scientific man; while at the other end is the mainly emotional, unoriginal man, the type to which--at a low level of personal energy--my botanist inclines. the second type includes, amidst its energetic forms, great actors, and popular politicians and preachers. between these extremes is a long and wide region of varieties, into which one would put most of the people who form the reputable workmen, the men of substance, the trustworthy men and women, the pillars of society on earth. below these two classes in the utopian scheme of things, and merging insensibly into them, come the dull. the dull are persons of altogether inadequate imagination, the people who never seem to learn thoroughly, or hear distinctly, or think clearly. (i believe if everyone is to be carefully educated they would be considerably in the minority in the world, but it is quite possible that will not be the reader's opinion. it is clearly a matter of an arbitrary line.) they are the stupid people, the incompetent people, the formal, imitative people, the people who, in any properly organised state, should, as a class, gravitate towards and below the minimum wage that qualifies for marriage. the laws of heredity are far too mysterious for such offspring as they do produce to be excluded from a fair chance in the world, but for themselves, they count neither for work nor direction in the state. finally, with a bold disregard of the logician's classificatory rules, these utopian statesmen who devised the world state, hewed out in theory a class of the base. the base may, indeed, be either poietic, kinetic, or dull, though most commonly they are the last, and their definition concerns not so much the quality of their imagination as a certain bias in it, that to a statesman makes it a matter for special attention. the base have a narrower and more persistent egoistic reference than the common run of humanity; they may boast, but they have no frankness; they have relatively great powers of concealment, and they are capable of, and sometimes have an aptitude and inclination towards, cruelty. in the queer phrasing of earthly psychology with its clumsy avoidance of analysis, they have no "moral sense." they count as an antagonism to the state organisation. obviously, this is the rudest of classifications, and no utopian has ever supposed it to be a classification for individual application, a classification so precise that one can say, this man is "poietic," and that man is "base." in actual experience these qualities mingle and vary in every possible way. it is not a classification for truth, but a classification to an end. taking humanity as a multitude of unique individuals in mass, one may, for practical purposes, deal with it far more conveniently by disregarding its uniquenesses and its mixed cases altogether, and supposing it to be an assembly of poietic, kinetic, dull, and base people. in many respects it behaves as if it were that. the state, dealing as it does only with non-individualised affairs, is not only justified in disregarding, but is bound to disregard, a man's special distinction, and to provide for him on the strength of his prevalent aspect as being on the whole poietic, kinetic, or what not. in a world of hasty judgments and carping criticism, it cannot be repeated too often that the fundamental ideas of a modern utopia imply everywhere and in everything, margins and elasticities, a certain universal compensatory looseness of play. section now these utopian statesmen who founded the world state put the problem of social organisation in the following fashion:--to contrive a revolutionary movement that shall absorb all existing governments and fuse them with itself, and that must be rapidly progressive and adaptable, and yet coherent, persistent, powerful, and efficient. the problem of combining progress with political stability had never been accomplished in utopia before that time, any more than it has been accomplished on earth. just as on earth, utopian history was a succession of powers rising and falling in an alternation of efficient conservative with unstable liberal states. just as on earth, so in utopia, the kinetic type of men had displayed a more or less unintentional antagonism to the poietic. the general life-history of a state had been the same on either planet. first, through poietic activities, the idea of a community has developed, and the state has shaped itself; poietic men have arisen first in this department of national life, and then that, and have given place to kinetic men of a high type--for it seems to be in their nature that poietic men should be mutually repulsive, and not succeed and develop one another consecutively--and a period of expansion and vigour has set in. the general poietic activity has declined with the development of an efficient and settled social and political organisation; the statesman has given way to the politician who has incorporated the wisdom of the statesman with his own energy, the original genius in arts, letters, science, and every department of activity to the cultivated and scholarly man. the kinetic man of wide range, who has assimilated his poietic predecessor, succeeds with far more readiness than his poietic contemporary in almost every human activity. the latter is by his very nature undisciplined and experimental, and is positively hampered by precedents and good order. with this substitution of the efficient for the creative type, the state ceases to grow, first in this department of activity, and then in that, and so long as its conditions remain the same it remains orderly and efficient. but it has lost its power of initiative and change; its power of adaptation is gone, and with that secular change of conditions which is the law of life, stresses must arise within and without, and bring at last either through revolution or through defeat the release of fresh poietic power. the process, of course, is not in its entirety simple; it may be masked by the fact that one department of activity may be in its poietic stage, while another is in a phase of realisation. in the united states of america, for example, during the nineteenth century, there was great poietic activity in industrial organisation, and none whatever in political philosophy; but a careful analysis of the history of any period will show the rhythm almost invariably present, and the initial problem before the utopian philosopher, therefore, was whether this was an inevitable alternation, whether human progress was necessarily a series of developments, collapses, and fresh beginnings, after an interval of disorder, unrest, and often great unhappiness, or whether it was possible to maintain a secure, happy, and progressive state beside an unbroken flow of poietic activity. clearly they decided upon the second alternative. if, indeed, i am listening to my utopian self, then they not only decided the problem could be solved, but they solved it. he tells me how they solved it. a modern utopia differs from all the older utopias in its recognition of the need of poietic activities--one sees this new consideration creeping into thought for the first time in the phrasing of comte's insistence that "spiritual" must precede political reconstruction, and in his admission of the necessity of recurrent books and poems about utopias--and at first this recognition appears to admit only an added complication to a problem already unmanageably complex. comte's separation of the activities of a state into the spiritual and material does, to a certain extent, anticipate this opposition of poietic and kinetic, but the intimate texture of his mind was dull and hard, the conception slipped from him again, and his suppression of literary activities, and his imposition of a rule of life upon the poietic types, who are least able to sustain it, mark how deeply he went under. to a large extent he followed the older utopists in assuming that the philosophical and constructive problem could be done once for all, and he worked the results out simply under an organised kinetic government. but what seems to be merely an addition to the difficulty may in the end turn out to be a simplification, just as the introduction of a fresh term to an intricate irreducible mathematical expression will at times bring it to unity. now philosophers after my utopian pattern, who find the ultimate significance in life in individuality, novelty and the undefined, would not only regard the poietic element as the most important in human society, but would perceive quite clearly the impossibility of its organisation. this, indeed, is simply the application to the moral and intellectual fabric of the principles already applied in discussing the state control of reproduction (in chapter the sixth, section ). but just as in the case of births it was possible for the state to frame limiting conditions within which individuality plays more freely than in the void, so the founders of this modern utopia believed it possible to define conditions under which every individual born with poietic gifts should be enabled and encouraged to give them a full development, in art, philosophy, invention, or discovery. certain general conditions presented themselves as obviously reasonable:--to give every citizen as good an education as he or she could acquire, for example; to so frame it that the directed educational process would never at any period occupy the whole available time of the learner, but would provide throughout a marginal free leisure with opportunities for developing idiosyncrasies, and to ensure by the expedient of a minimum wage for a specified amount of work, that leisure and opportunity did not cease throughout life. but, in addition to thus making poietic activities universally possible, the founders of this modern utopia sought to supply incentives, which was an altogether more difficult research, a problem in its nature irresolvably complex, and admitting of no systematic solution. but my double told me of a great variety of devices by which poietic men and women were given honour and enlarged freedoms, so soon as they produced an earnest of their quality, and he explained to me how great an ambition they might entertain. there were great systems of laboratories attached to every municipal force station at which research could be conducted under the most favourable conditions, and every mine, and, indeed, almost every great industrial establishment, was saddled under its lease with similar obligations. so much for poietic ability and research in physical science. the world state tried the claims of every living contributor to any materially valuable invention, and paid or charged a royalty on its use that went partly to him personally, and partly to the research institution that had produced him. in the matter of literature and the philosophical and sociological sciences, every higher educational establishment carried its studentships, its fellowships, its occasional lectureships, and to produce a poem, a novel, a speculative work of force or merit, was to become the object of a generous competition between rival universities. in utopia, any author has the option either of publishing his works through the public bookseller as a private speculation, or, if he is of sufficient merit, of accepting a university endowment and conceding his copyright to the university press. all sorts of grants in the hands of committees of the most varied constitution, supplemented these academic resources, and ensured that no possible contributor to the wide flow of the utopian mind slipped into neglect. apart from those who engaged mainly in teaching and administration, my double told me that the world-wide house of saloman [footnote: the new atlantis.] thus created sustained over a million men. for all the rarity of large fortunes, therefore, no original man with the desire and capacity for material or mental experiments went long without resources and the stimulus of attention, criticism, and rivalry. "and finally," said my double, "our rules ensure a considerable understanding of the importance of poietic activities in the majority of the samurai, in whose hands as a class all the real power of the world resides." "ah!" said i, "and now we come to the thing that interests me most. for it is quite clear, in my mind, that these samurai form the real body of the state. all this time that i have spent going to and fro in this planet, it has been growing upon me that this order of men and women, wearing such a uniform as you wear, and with faces strengthened by discipline and touched with devotion, is the utopian reality; but that for them, the whole fabric of these fair appearances would crumble and tarnish, shrink and shrivel, until at last, back i should be amidst the grime and disorders of the life of earth. tell me about these samurai, who remind me of plato's guardians, who look like knights templars, who bear a name that recalls the swordsmen of japan ... and whose uniform you yourself are wearing. what are they? are they an hereditary caste, a specially educated order, an elected class? for, certainly, this world turns upon them as a door upon its hinges." section "i follow the common rule, as many men do," said my double, answering my allusion to his uniform almost apologetically. "but my own work is, in its nature, poietic; there is much dissatisfaction with our isolation of criminals upon islands, and i am analysing the psychology of prison officials and criminals in general with a view to some better scheme. i am supposed to be ingenious with expedients in this direction. typically, the samurai are engaged in administrative work. practically the whole of the responsible rule of the world is in their hands; all our head teachers and disciplinary heads of colleges, our judges, barristers, employers of labour beyond a certain limit, practising medical men, legislators, must be samurai, and all the executive committees, and so forth, that play so large a part in our affairs are drawn by lot exclusively from them. the order is not hereditary--we know just enough of biology and the uncertainties of inheritance to know how silly that would be--and it does not require an early consecration or novitiate or ceremonies and initiations of that sort. the samurai are, in fact, volunteers. any intelligent adult in a reasonably healthy and efficient state may, at any age after five-and-twenty, become one of the samurai, and take a hand in the universal control." "provided he follows the rule." "precisely--provided he follows the rule." "i have heard the phrase, 'voluntary nobility.'" "that was the idea of our founders. they made a noble and privileged order--open to the whole world. no one could complain of an unjust exclusion, for the only thing that could exclude from the order was unwillingness or inability to follow the rule." "but the rule might easily have been made exclusive of special lineages and races." "that wasn't their intention. the rule was planned to exclude the dull, to be unattractive to the base, and to direct and co-ordinate all sound citizens of good intent." "and it has succeeded?" "as well as anything finite can. life is still imperfect, still a thick felt of dissatisfactions and perplexing problems, but most certainly the quality of all its problems has been raised, and there has been no war, no grinding poverty, not half the disease, and an enormous increase of the order, beauty, and resources of life since the samurai, who began as a private aggressive cult, won their way to the rule of the world." "i would like to have that history," i said. "i expect there was fighting?" he nodded. "but first--tell me about the rule." "the rule aims to exclude the dull and base altogether, to discipline the impulses and emotions, to develop a moral habit and sustain a man in periods of stress, fatigue, and temptation, to produce the maximum co-operation of all men of good intent, and, in fact, to keep all the samurai in a state of moral and bodily health and efficiency. it does as much of this as well as it can, but, of course, like all general propositions, it does not do it in any case with absolute precision. on the whole, it is so good that most men who, like myself, are doing poietic work, and who would be just as well off without obedience, find a satisfaction in adhesion. at first, in the militant days, it was a trifle hard and uncompromising; it had rather too strong an appeal to the moral prig and harshly righteous man, but it has undergone, and still undergoes, revision and expansion, and every year it becomes a little better adapted to the need of a general rule of life that all men may try to follow. we have now a whole literature, with many very fine things in it, written about the rule." he glanced at a little book on his desk, took it up as if to show it me, then put it down again. "the rule consists of three parts; there is the list of things that qualify, the list of things that must not be done, and the list of things that must be done. qualification exacts a little exertion, as evidence of good faith, and it is designed to weed out the duller dull and many of the base. our schooling period ends now about fourteen, and a small number of boys and girls--about three per cent.--are set aside then as unteachable, as, in fact, nearly idiotic; the rest go on to a college or upper school." "all your population?" "with that exception." "free?" "of course. and they pass out of college at eighteen. there are several different college courses, but one or other must be followed and a satisfactory examination passed at the end--perhaps ten per cent. fail--and the rule requires that the candidate for the samurai must have passed." "but a very good man is sometimes an idle schoolboy." "we admit that. and so anyone who has failed to pass the college leaving examination may at any time in later life sit for it again--and again and again. certain carefully specified things excuse it altogether." "that makes it fair. but aren't there people who cannot pass examinations?" "people of nervous instability----" "but they may be people of great though irregular poietic gifts." "exactly. that is quite possible. but we don't want that sort of people among our samurai. passing an examination is a proof of a certain steadiness of purpose, a certain self-control and submission----" "of a certain 'ordinariness.'" "exactly what is wanted." "of course, those others can follow other careers." "yes. that's what we want them to do. and, besides these two educational qualifications, there are two others of a similar kind of more debateable value. one is practically not in operation now. our founders put it that a candidate for the samurai must possess what they called a technique, and, as it operated in the beginning, he had to hold the qualification for a doctor, for a lawyer, for a military officer, or an engineer, or teacher, or have painted acceptable pictures, or written a book, or something of the sort. he had, in fact, as people say, to 'be something,' or to have 'done something.' it was a regulation of vague intention even in the beginning, and it became catholic to the pitch of absurdity. to play a violin skilfully has been accepted as sufficient for this qualification. there may have been a reason in the past for this provision; in those days there were many daughters of prosperous parents--and even some sons--who did nothing whatever but idle uninterestingly in the world, and the organisation might have suffered by their invasion, but that reason has gone now, and the requirement remains a merely ceremonial requirement. but, on the other hand, another has developed. our founders made a collection of several volumes, which they called, collectively, the book of the samurai, a compilation of articles and extracts, poems and prose pieces, which were supposed to embody the idea of the order. it was to play the part for the samurai that the bible did for the ancient hebrews. to tell you the truth, the stuff was of very unequal merit; there was a lot of very second-rate rhetoric, and some nearly namby-pamby verse. there was also included some very obscure verse and prose that had the trick of seeming wise. but for all such defects, much of the book, from the very beginning, was splendid and inspiring matter. from that time to this, the book of the samurai has been under revision, much has been added, much rejected, and some deliberately rewritten. now, there is hardly anything in it that is not beautiful and perfect in form. the whole range of noble emotions finds expression there, and all the guiding ideas of our modern state. we have recently admitted some terse criticism of its contents by a man named henley." "old henley!" "a man who died a little time ago." "i knew that man on earth. and he was in utopia, too! he was a great red-faced man, with fiery hair, a noisy, intolerant maker of enemies, with a tender heart--and he was one of the samurai?" "he defied the rules." "he was a great man with wine. he wrote like wine; in our world he wrote wine; red wine with the light shining through." "he was on the committee that revised our canon. for the revising and bracing of our canon is work for poietic as well as kinetic men. you knew him in your world?" "i wish i had. but i have seen him. on earth he wrote a thing ... it would run-- "out of the night that covers me, black as the pit from pole to pole, i thank whatever gods may be, for my unconquerable soul...." "we have that here. all good earthly things are in utopia also. we put that in the canon almost as soon as he died," said my double. section "we have now a double canon, a very fine first canon, and a second canon of work by living men and work of inferior quality, and a satisfactory knowledge of both of these is the fourth intellectual qualification for the samurai." "it must keep a sort of uniformity in your tone of thought." "the canon pervades our whole world. as a matter of fact, very much of it is read and learnt in the schools.... next to the intellectual qualification comes the physical, the man must be in sound health, free from certain foul, avoidable, and demoralising diseases, and in good training. we reject men who are fat, or thin and flabby, or whose nerves are shaky--we refer them back to training. and finally the man or woman must be fully adult." "twenty-one? but you said twenty-five!" "the age has varied. at first it was twenty-five or over; then the minimum became twenty-five for men and twenty-one for women. now there is a feeling that it ought to be raised. we don't want to take advantage of mere boy and girl emotions--men of my way of thinking, at any rate, don't--we want to get our samurai with experiences, with a settled mature conviction. our hygiene and regimen are rapidly pushing back old age and death, and keeping men hale and hearty to eighty and more. there's no need to hurry the young. let them have a chance of wine, love, and song; let them feel the bite of full-bodied desire, and know what devils they have to reckon with." "but there is a certain fine sort of youth that knows the desirability of the better things at nineteen." "they may keep the rule at any time--without its privileges. but a man who breaks the rule after his adult adhesion at five-and-twenty is no more in the samurai for ever. before that age he is free to break it and repent." "and now, what is forbidden?" "we forbid a good deal. many small pleasures do no great harm, but we think it well to forbid them, none the less, so that we can weed out the self-indulgent. we think that a constant resistance to little seductions is good for a man's quality. at any rate, it shows that a man is prepared to pay something for his honour and privileges. we prescribe a regimen of food, forbid tobacco, wine, or any alcoholic drink, all narcotic drugs----" "meat?" "in all the round world of utopia there is no meat. there used to be. but now we cannot stand the thought of slaughter-houses. and, in a population that is all educated, and at about the same level of physical refinement, it is practically impossible to find anyone who will hew a dead ox or pig. we never settled the hygienic question of meat-eating at all. this other aspect decided us. i can still remember, as a boy, the rejoicings over the closing of the last slaughter-house." "you eat fish." "it isn't a matter of logic. in our barbaric past horrible flayed carcases of brutes dripping blood, were hung for sale in the public streets." he shrugged his shoulders. "they do that still in london--in _my_ world," i said. he looked again at my laxer, coarser face, and did not say whatever thought had passed across his mind. "originally the samurai were forbidden usury, that is to say the lending of money at fixed rates of interest. they are still under that interdiction, but since our commercial code practically prevents usury altogether, and our law will not recognise contracts for interest upon private accommodation loans to unprosperous borrowers, it is now scarcely necessary. the idea of a man growing richer by mere inaction and at the expense of an impoverishing debtor, is profoundly distasteful to utopian ideas, and our state insists pretty effectually now upon the participation of the lender in the borrower's risks. this, however, is only one part of a series of limitations of the same character. it is felt that to buy simply in order to sell again brings out many unsocial human qualities; it makes a man seek to enhance profits and falsify values, and so the samurai are forbidden to buy to sell on their own account or for any employer save the state, unless some process of manufacture changes the nature of the commodity (a mere change in bulk or packing does not suffice), and they are forbidden salesmanship and all its arts. consequently they cannot be hotel-keepers, or hotel proprietors, or hotel shareholders, and a doctor--all practising doctors must be samurai--cannot sell drugs except as a public servant of the municipality or the state." "that, of course, runs counter to all our current terrestrial ideas," i said. "we are obsessed by the power of money. these rules will work out as a vow of moderate poverty, and if your samurai are an order of poor men----" "they need not be. samurai who have invented, organised, and developed new industries, have become rich men, and many men who have grown rich by brilliant and original trading have subsequently become samurai." "but these are exceptional cases. the bulk of your money-making business must be confined to men who are not samurai. you must have a class of rich, powerful outsiders----" "_have_ we?" "i don't see the evidences of them." "as a matter of fact, we have such people! there are rich traders, men who have made discoveries in the economy of distribution, or who have called attention by intelligent, truthful advertisement to the possibilities of neglected commodities, for example." "but aren't they a power?" "why should they be?" "wealth _is_ power." i had to explain that phrase. he protested. "wealth," he said, "is no sort of power at all unless you make it one. if it is so in your world it is so by inadvertency. wealth is a state-made thing, a convention, the most artificial of powers. you can, by subtle statesmanship, contrive what it shall buy and what it shall not. in your world it would seem you have made leisure, movement, any sort of freedom, life itself, _purchaseable_. the more fools you! a poor working man with you is a man in discomfort and fear. no wonder your rich have power. but here a reasonable leisure, a decent life, is to be had by every man on easier terms than by selling himself to the rich. and rich as men are here, there is no private fortune in the whole world that is more than a little thing beside the wealth of the state. the samurai control the state and the wealth of the state, and by their vows they may not avail themselves of any of the coarser pleasures wealth can still buy. where, then, is the power of your wealthy man?" "but, then--where is the incentive----?" "oh! a man gets things for himself with wealth--no end of things. but little or no power over his fellows--unless they are exceptionally weak or self-indulgent persons." i reflected. "what else may not the samurai do?" "acting, singing, or reciting are forbidden them, though they may lecture authoritatively or debate. but professional mimicry is not only held to be undignified in a man or woman, but to weaken and corrupt the soul; the mind becomes foolishly dependent on applause, over-skilful in producing tawdry and momentary illusions of excellence; it is our experience that actors and actresses as a class are loud, ignoble, and insincere. if they have not such flamboyant qualities then they are tepid and ineffectual players. nor may the samurai do personal services, except in the matter of medicine or surgery; they may not be barbers, for example, nor inn waiters, nor boot cleaners. but, nowadays, we have scarcely any barbers or boot cleaners; men do these things for themselves. nor may a man under the rule be any man's servant, pledged to do whatever he is told. he may neither be a servant nor keep one; he must shave and dress and serve himself, carry his own food from the helper's place to the table, redd his sleeping room, and leave it clean...." "that is all easy enough in a world as ordered as yours. i suppose no samurai may bet?" "absolutely not. he may insure his life and his old age for the better equipment of his children, or for certain other specified ends, but that is all his dealings with chance. and he is also forbidden to play games in public or to watch them being played. certain dangerous and hardy sports and exercises are prescribed for him, but not competitive sports between man and man or side and side. that lesson was learnt long ago before the coming of the samurai. gentlemen of honour, according to the old standards, rode horses, raced chariots, fought, and played competitive games of skill, and the dull, cowardly and base came in thousands to admire, and howl, and bet. the gentlemen of honour degenerated fast enough into a sort of athletic prostitute, with all the defects, all the vanity, trickery, and self-assertion of the common actor, and with even less intelligence. our founders made no peace with this organisation of public sports. they did not spend their lives to secure for all men and women on the earth freedom, health, and leisure, in order that they might waste lives in such folly." "we have those abuses," i said, "but some of our earthly games have a fine side. there is a game called cricket. it is a fine, generous game." "our boys play that, and men too. but it is thought rather puerile to give very much time to it; men should have graver interests. it was undignified and unpleasant for the samurai to play conspicuously ill, and impossible for them to play so constantly as to keep hand and eye in training against the man who was fool enough and cheap enough to become an expert. cricket, tennis, fives, billiards----. you will find clubs and a class of men to play all these things in utopia, but not the samurai. and they must play their games as games, not as displays; the price of a privacy for playing cricket, so that they could charge for admission, would be overwhelmingly high.... negroes are often very clever at cricket. for a time, most of the samurai had their sword-play, but few do those exercises now, and until about fifty years ago they went out for military training, a fortnight in every year, marching long distances, sleeping in the open, carrying provisions, and sham fighting over unfamiliar ground dotted with disappearing targets. there was a curious inability in our world to realise that war was really over for good and all." "and now," i said, "haven't we got very nearly to the end of your prohibitions? you have forbidden alcohol, drugs, smoking, betting, and usury, games, trade, servants. but isn't there a vow of chastity?" "that is the rule for your earthly orders?" "yes--except, if i remember rightly, for plato's guardians." "there is a rule of chastity here--but not of celibacy. we know quite clearly that civilisation is an artificial arrangement, and that all the physical and emotional instincts of man are too strong, and his natural instinct of restraint too weak, for him to live easily in the civilised state. civilisation has developed far more rapidly than man has modified. under the unnatural perfection of security, liberty and abundance our civilisation has attained, the normal untrained human being is disposed to excess in almost every direction; he tends to eat too much and too elaborately, to drink too much, to become lazy faster than his work can be reduced, to waste his interest upon displays, and to make love too much and too elaborately. he gets out of training, and concentrates upon egoistic or erotic broodings. the past history of our race is very largely a history of social collapses due to demoralisation by indulgences following security and abundance. in the time of our founders the signs of a world-wide epoch of prosperity and relaxation were plentiful. both sexes drifted towards sexual excesses, the men towards sentimental extravagances, imbecile devotions, and the complication and refinement of physical indulgences; the women towards those expansions and differentiations of feeling that find expression in music and costly and distinguished dress. both sexes became unstable and promiscuous. the whole world seemed disposed to do exactly the same thing with its sexual interest as it had done with its appetite for food and drink--make the most of it." he paused. "satiety came to help you," i said. "destruction may come before satiety. our founders organised motives from all sorts of sources, but i think the chief force to give men self-control is pride. pride may not be the noblest thing in the soul, but it is the best king there, for all that. they looked to it to keep a man clean and sound and sane. in this matter, as in all matters of natural desire, they held no appetite must be glutted, no appetite must have artificial whets, and also and equally that no appetite should be starved. a man must come from the table satisfied, but not replete. and, in the matter of love, a straight and clean desire for a clean and straight fellow-creature was our founders' ideal. they enjoined marriage between equals as the samurai's duty to the race, and they framed directions of the precisest sort to prevent that uxorious inseparableness, that connubiality which will reduce a couple of people to something jointly less than either. that canon is too long to tell you now. a man under the rule who loves a woman who does not follow it, must either leave the samurai to marry her, or induce her to accept what is called the woman's rule, which, while it excepts her from the severer qualifications and disciplines, brings her regimen of life into a working harmony with his." "suppose she breaks the rule afterwards?" "he must leave either her or the order." "there is matter for a novel or so in that." "there has been matter for hundreds." "is the woman's rule a sumptuary law as well as a regimen? i mean--may she dress as she pleases?" "not a bit of it," said my double. "every woman who could command money used it, we found, to make underbred aggressions on other women. as men emerged to civilisation, women seemed going back to savagery--to paint and feathers. but the samurai, both men and women, and the women under the lesser rule also, all have a particular dress. no difference is made between women under either the great or the lesser rule. you have seen the men's dress--always like this i wear. the women may wear the same, either with the hair cut short or plaited behind them, or they may have a high-waisted dress of very fine, soft woollen material, with their hair coiled up behind." "i have seen it," i said. indeed, nearly all the women had seemed to be wearing variants of that simple formula. "it seems to me a very beautiful dress. the other--i'm not used to. but i like it on girls and slender women." i had a thought, and added, "don't they sometimes, well--take a good deal of care, dressing their hair?" my double laughed in my eyes. "they do," he said. "and the rule?" "the rule is never fussy," said my double, still smiling. "we don't want women to cease to be beautiful, and consciously beautiful, if you like," he added. "the more real beauty of form and face we have, the finer our world. but costly sexualised trappings----" "i should have thought," i said, "a class of women who traded on their sex would have arisen, women, i mean, who found an interest and an advantage in emphasising their individual womanly beauty. there is no law to prevent it. surely they would tend to counteract the severity of costume the rule dictates." "there are such women. but for all that the rule sets the key of everyday dress. if a woman is possessed by the passion for gorgeous raiment she usually satisfies it in her own private circle, or with rare occasional onslaughts upon the public eye. her everyday mood and the disposition of most people is against being conspicuous abroad. and i should say there are little liberties under the lesser rule; a discreet use of fine needlework and embroidery, a wider choice of materials." "you have no changing fashions?" "none. for all that, are not our dresses as beautiful as yours?" "our women's dresses are not beautiful at all," i said, forced for a time towards the mysterious philosophy of dress. "beauty? that isn't their concern." "then what are they after?" "my dear man! what is all my world after?" section i should come to our third talk with a great curiosity to hear of the last portion of the rule, of the things that the samurai are obliged to do. there would be many precise directions regarding his health, and rules that would aim at once at health and that constant exercise of will that makes life good. save in specified exceptional circumstances, the samurai must bathe in cold water, and the men must shave every day; they have the precisest directions in such matters; the body must be in health, the skin and muscles and nerves in perfect tone, or the samurai must go to the doctors of the order, and give implicit obedience to the regimen prescribed. they must sleep alone at least four nights in five; and they must eat with and talk to anyone in their fellowship who cares for their conversation for an hour, at least, at the nearest club-house of the samurai once on three chosen days in every week. moreover, they must read aloud from the book of the samurai for at least ten minutes every day. every month they must buy and read faithfully through at least one book that has been published during the past five years, and the only intervention with private choice in that matter is the prescription of a certain minimum of length for the monthly book or books. but the full rule in these minor compulsory matters is voluminous and detailed, and it abounds with alternatives. its aim is rather to keep before the samurai by a number of sample duties, as it were, the need of, and some of the chief methods towards health of body and mind, rather than to provide a comprehensive rule, and to ensure the maintenance of a community of feeling and interests among the samurai through habit, intercourse, and a living contemporary literature. these minor obligations do not earmark more than an hour in the day. yet they serve to break down isolations of sympathy, all sorts of physical and intellectual sluggishness and the development of unsocial preoccupations of many sorts. women samurai who are married, my double told me, must bear children--if they are to remain married as well as in the order--before the second period for terminating a childless marriage is exhausted. i failed to ask for the precise figures from my double at the time, but i think it is beyond doubt that it is from samurai mothers of the greater or lesser rule that a very large proportion of the future population of utopia will be derived. there is one liberty accorded to women samurai which is refused to men, and that is to marry outside the rule, and women married to men not under the rule are also free to become samurai. here, too, it will be manifest there is scope for novels and the drama of life. in practice, it seems that it is only men of great poietic distinction outside the rule, or great commercial leaders, who have wives under it. the tendency of such unions is either to bring the husband under the rule, or take the wife out of it. there can be no doubt that these marriage limitations tend to make the samurai something of an hereditary class. their children, as a rule, become samurai. but it is not an exclusive caste; subject to the most reasonable qualifications, anyone who sees fit can enter it at any time, and so, unlike all other privileged castes the world has seen, it increases relatively to the total population, and may indeed at last assimilate almost the whole population of the earth. section so much my double told me readily. but now he came to the heart of all his explanations, to the will and motives at the centre that made men and women ready to undergo discipline, to renounce the richness and elaboration of the sensuous life, to master emotions and control impulses, to keep in the key of effort while they had abundance about them to rouse and satisfy all desires, and his exposition was more difficult. he tried to make his religion clear to me. the leading principle of the utopian religion is the repudiation of the doctrine of original sin; the utopians hold that man, on the whole, is good. that is their cardinal belief. man has pride and conscience, they hold, that you may refine by training as you refine his eye and ear; he has remorse and sorrow in his being, coming on the heels of all inconsequent enjoyments. how can one think of him as bad? he is religious; religion is as natural to him as lust and anger, less intense, indeed, but coming with a wide-sweeping inevitableness as peace comes after all tumults and noises. and in utopia they understand this, or, at least, the samurai do, clearly. they accept religion as they accept thirst, as something inseparably in the mysterious rhythms of life. and just as thirst and pride and all desires may be perverted in an age of abundant opportunities, and men may be degraded and wasted by intemperance in drinking, by display, or by ambition, so too the nobler complex of desires that constitutes religion may be turned to evil by the dull, the base, and the careless. slovenly indulgence in religious inclinations, a failure to think hard and discriminate as fairly as possible in religious matters, is just as alien to the men under the rule as it would be to drink deeply because they were thirsty, eat until glutted, evade a bath because the day was chilly, or make love to any bright-eyed girl who chanced to look pretty in the dusk. utopia, which is to have every type of character that one finds on earth, will have its temples and its priests, just as it will have its actresses and wine, but the samurai will be forbidden the religion of dramatically lit altars, organ music, and incense, as distinctly as they are forbidden the love of painted women, or the consolations of brandy. and to all the things that are less than religion and that seek to comprehend it, to cosmogonies and philosophies, to creeds and formulae, to catechisms and easy explanations, the attitude of the samurai, the note of the book of samurai, will be distrust. these things, the samurai will say, are part of the indulgences that should come before a man submits himself to the rule; they are like the early gratifications of young men, experiences to establish renunciation. the samurai will have emerged above these things. the theology of the utopian rulers will be saturated with that same philosophy of uniqueness, that repudiation of anything beyond similarities and practical parallelisms, that saturates all their institutions. they will have analysed exhaustively those fallacies and assumptions that arise between the one and the many, that have troubled philosophy since philosophy began. just as they will have escaped that delusive unification of every species under its specific definition that has dominated earthly reasoning, so they will have escaped the delusive simplification of god that vitiates all terrestrial theology. they will hold god to be complex and of an endless variety of aspects, to be expressed by no universal formula nor approved in any uniform manner. just as the language of utopia will be a synthesis, even so will its god be. the aspect of god is different in the measure of every man's individuality, and the intimate thing of religion must, therefore, exist in human solitude, between man and god alone. religion in its quintessence is a relation between god and man; it is perversion to make it a relation between man and man, and a man may no more reach god through a priest than love his wife through a priest. but just as a man in love may refine the interpretation of his feelings and borrow expression from the poems and music of poietic men, so an individual man may at his discretion read books of devotion and hear music that is in harmony with his inchoate feelings. many of the samurai, therefore, will set themselves private regimens that will help their secret religious life, will pray habitually, and read books of devotion, but with these things the rule of the order will have nothing to do. clearly the god of the samurai is a transcendental and mystical god. so far as the samurai have a purpose in common in maintaining the state, and the order and progress of the world, so far, by their discipline and denial, by their public work and effort, they worship god together. but the fount of motives lies in the individual life, it lies in silent and deliberate reflections, and at this, the most striking of all the rules of the samurai aims. for seven consecutive days in the year, at least, each man or woman under the rule must go right out of all the life of man into some wild and solitary place, must speak to no man or woman, and have no sort of intercourse with mankind. they must go bookless and weaponless, without pen or paper, or money. provisions must be taken for the period of the journey, a rug or sleeping sack--for they must sleep under the open sky--but no means of making a fire. they may study maps beforehand to guide them, showing any difficulties and dangers in the journey, but they may not carry such helps. they must not go by beaten ways or wherever there are inhabited houses, but into the bare, quiet places of the globe--the regions set apart for them. this discipline, my double said, was invented to secure a certain stoutness of heart and body in the members of the order, which otherwise might have lain open to too many timorous, merely abstemious, men and women. many things had been suggested, swordplay and tests that verged on torture, climbing in giddy places and the like, before this was chosen. partly, it is to ensure good training and sturdiness of body and mind, but partly, also, it is to draw their minds for a space from the insistent details of life, from the intricate arguments and the fretting effort to work, from personal quarrels and personal affections, and the things of the heated room. out they must go, clean out of the world. certain great areas are set apart for these yearly pilgrimages beyond the securities of the state. there are thousands of square miles of sandy desert in africa and asia set apart; much of the arctic and antarctic circles; vast areas of mountain land and frozen marsh; secluded reserves of forest, and innumerable unfrequented lines upon the sea. some are dangerous and laborious routes; some merely desolate; and there are even some sea journeys that one may take in the halcyon days as one drifts through a dream. upon the seas one must go in a little undecked sailing boat, that may be rowed in a calm; all the other journeys one must do afoot, none aiding. there are, about all these desert regions and along most coasts, little offices at which the samurai says good-bye to the world of men, and at which they arrive after their minimum time of silence is overpast. for the intervening days they must be alone with nature, necessity, and their own thoughts. "it is good?" i said. "it is good," my double answered. "we civilised men go back to the stark mother that so many of us would have forgotten were it not for this rule. and one thinks.... only two weeks ago i did my journey for the year. i went with my gear by sea to tromso, and then inland to a starting-place, and took my ice-axe and rucksack, and said good-bye to the world. i crossed over four glaciers; i climbed three high mountain passes, and slept on moss in desolate valleys. i saw no human being for seven days. then i came down through pine woods to the head of a road that runs to the baltic shore. altogether it was thirteen days before i reported myself again, and had speech with fellow creatures." "and the women do this?" "the women who are truly samurai--yes. equally with the men. unless the coming of children intervenes." i asked him how it had seemed to him, and what he thought about during the journey. "there is always a sense of effort for me," he said, "when i leave the world at the outset of the journey. i turn back again and again, and look at the little office as i go up my mountain side. the first day and night i'm a little disposed to shirk the job--every year it's the same--a little disposed, for example, to sling my pack from my back, and sit down, and go through its contents, and make sure i've got all my equipment." "there's no chance of anyone overtaking you?" "two men mustn't start from the same office on the same route within six hours of each other. if they come within sight of each other, they must shun an encounter, and make no sign--unless life is in danger. all that is arranged beforehand." "it would be, of course. go on telling me of your journey." "i dread the night. i dread discomfort and bad weather. i only begin to brace up after the second day." "don't you worry about losing your way?" "no. there are cairns and skyline signs. if it wasn't for that, of course we should be worrying with maps the whole time. but i'm only sure of being a man after the second night, and sure of my power to go through." "and then?" "then one begins to get into it. the first two days one is apt to have the events of one's journey, little incidents of travel, and thoughts of one's work and affairs, rising and fading and coming again; but then the perspectives begin. i don't sleep much at nights on these journeys; i lie awake and stare at the stars. about dawn, perhaps, and in the morning sunshine, i sleep! the nights this last time were very short, never more than twilight, and i saw the glow of the sun always, just over the edge of the world. but i had chosen the days of the new moon, so that i could have a glimpse of the stars.... years ago, i went from the nile across the libyan desert east, and then the stars--the stars in the later days of that journey--brought me near weeping.... you begin to feel alone on the third day, when you find yourself out on some shining snowfield, and nothing of mankind visible in the whole world save one landmark, one remote thin red triangle of iron, perhaps, in the saddle of the ridge against the sky. all this busy world that has done so much and so marvellously, and is still so little--you see it little as it is--and far off. all day long you go and the night comes, and it might be another planet. then, in the quiet, waking hours, one thinks of one's self and the great external things, of space and eternity, and what one means by god." he mused. "you think of death?" "not of my own. but when i go among snows and desolations--and usually i take my pilgrimage in mountains or the north--i think very much of the night of this world--the time when our sun will be red and dull, and air and water will lie frozen together in a common snowfield where now the forests of the tropics are steaming.... i think very much of that, and whether it is indeed god's purpose that our kind should end, and the cities we have built, the books we have written, all that we have given substance and a form, should lie dead beneath the snows." "you don't believe that?" "no. but if it is not so----. i went threading my way among gorges and precipices, with my poor brain dreaming of what the alternative should be, with my imagination straining and failing. yet, in those high airs and in such solitude, a kind of exaltation comes to men.... i remember that one night i sat up and told the rascal stars very earnestly how they should not escape us in the end." he glanced at me for a moment as though he doubted i should understand. "one becomes a personification up there," he said. "one becomes the ambassador of mankind to the outer world. "there is time to think over a lot of things. one puts one's self and one's ambition in a new pair of scales.... "then there are hours when one is just exploring the wilderness like a child. sometimes perhaps one gets a glimpse from some precipice edge of the plains far away, and houses and roadways, and remembers there is still a busy world of men. and at last one turns one's feet down some slope, some gorge that leads back. you come down, perhaps, into a pine forest, and hear that queer clatter reindeer make--and then, it may be, see a herdsman very far away, watching you. you wear your pilgrim's badge, and he makes no sign of seeing you.... "you know, after these solitudes, i feel just the same queer disinclination to go back to the world of men that i feel when i have to leave it. i think of dusty roads and hot valleys, and being looked at by many people. i think of the trouble of working with colleagues and opponents. this last journey i outstayed my time, camping in the pine woods for six days. then my thoughts came round to my proper work again. i got keen to go on with it, and so i came back into the world. you come back physically clean--as though you had had your arteries and veins washed out. and your brain has been cleaned, too.... i shall stick to the mountains now until i am old, and then i shall sail a boat in polynesia. that is what so many old men do. only last year one of the great leaders of the samurai--a white-haired man, who followed the rule in spite of his one hundred and eleven years--was found dead in his boat far away from any land, far to the south, lying like a child asleep...." "that's better than a tumbled bed," said i, "and some boy of a doctor jabbing you with injections, and distressful people hovering about you." "yes," said my double; "in utopia we who are samurai die better than that.... is that how your great men die?" it came to me suddenly as very strange that, even as we sat and talked, across deserted seas, on burning sands, through the still aisles of forests, and in all the high and lonely places of the world, beyond the margin where the ways and houses go, solitary men and women sailed alone or marched alone, or clambered--quiet, resolute exiles; they stood alone amidst wildernesses of ice, on the precipitous banks of roaring torrents, in monstrous caverns, or steering a tossing boat in the little circle of the horizon amidst the tumbled, incessant sea, all in their several ways communing with the emptiness, the enigmatic spaces and silences, the winds and torrents and soulless forces that lie about the lit and ordered life of men. i saw more clearly now something i had seen dimly already, in the bearing and the faces of this utopian chivalry, a faint persistent tinge of detachment from the immediate heats and hurries, the little graces and delights, the tensions and stimulations of the daily world. it pleased me strangely to think of this steadfast yearly pilgrimage of solitude, and how near men might come then to the high distances of god. section after that i remember we fell talking of the discipline of the rule, of the courts that try breaches of it, and interpret doubtful cases--for, though a man may resign with due notice and be free after a certain time to rejoin again, one deliberate breach may exclude a man for ever--of the system of law that has grown up about such trials, and of the triennial council that revises and alters the rule. from that we passed to the discussion of the general constitution of this world state. practically all political power vests in the samurai. not only are they the only administrators, lawyers, practising doctors, and public officials of almost all kinds, but they are the only voters. yet, by a curious exception, the supreme legislative assembly must have one-tenth, and may have one-half of its members outside the order, because, it is alleged, there is a sort of wisdom that comes of sin and laxness, which is necessary to the perfect ruling of life. my double quoted me a verse from the canon on this matter that my unfortunate verbal memory did not retain, but it was in the nature of a prayer to save the world from "unfermented men." it would seem that aristotle's idea of a rotation of rulers, an idea that crops up again in harrington's oceana, that first utopia of "the sovereign people" (a utopia that, through danton's readings in english, played a disastrous part in the french revolution), gets a little respect in utopia. the tendency is to give a practically permanent tenure to good men. every ruler and official, it is true, is put on his trial every three years before a jury drawn by lot, according to the range of his activities, either from the samurai of his municipal area or from the general catalogue of the samurai, but the business of this jury is merely to decide whether to continue him in office or order a new election. in the majority of cases the verdict is continuation. even if it is not so the official may still appear as a candidate before the second and separate jury which fills the vacant post.... my double mentioned a few scattered details of the electoral methods, but as at that time i believed we were to have a number of further conversations, i did not exhaust my curiosities upon this subject. indeed, i was more than a little preoccupied and inattentive. the religion of the samurai was after my heart, and it had taken hold of me very strongly.... but presently i fell questioning him upon the complications that arise in the modern utopia through the differences between the races of men, and found my attention returning. but the matter of that discussion i shall put apart into a separate chapter. in the end we came back to the particulars of this great rule of life that any man desiring of joining the samurai must follow. i remember how, after our third bout of talking, i walked back through the streets of utopian london to rejoin the botanist at our hotel. my double lived in an apartment in a great building--i should judge about where, in our london, the tate gallery squats, and, as the day was fine, and i had no reason for hurry, i went not by the covered mechanical way, but on foot along the broad, tree-set terraces that follow the river on either side. it was afternoon, and the mellow thames valley sunlight, warm and gentle, lit a clean and gracious world. there were many people abroad, going to and fro, unhurrying, but not aimless, and i watched them so attentively that were you to ask me for the most elementary details of the buildings and terraces that lay back on either bank, or of the pinnacles and towers and parapets that laced the sky, i could not tell you them. but of the people i could tell a great deal. no utopians wear black, and for all the frequency of the samurai uniform along the london ways the general effect is of a gaily-coloured population. you never see anyone noticeably ragged or dirty; the police, who answer questions and keep order (and are quite distinct from the organisation for the pursuit of criminals) see to that; and shabby people are very infrequent. people who want to save money for other purposes, or who do not want much bother with their clothing, seem to wear costumes of rough woven cloth, dyed an unobtrusive brown or green, over fine woollen underclothing, and so achieve a decent comfort in its simplest form. others outside the rule of the samurai range the spectrum for colour, and have every variety of texture; the colours attained by the utopian dyers seem to me to be fuller and purer than the common range of stuffs on earth; and the subtle folding of the woollen materials witness that utopian bradford is no whit behind her earthly sister. white is extraordinarily frequent; white woollen tunics and robes into which are woven bands of brilliant colour, abound. often these ape the cut and purple edge that distinguishes the samurai. in utopian london the air is as clear and less dusty than it is among high mountains; the roads are made of unbroken surfaces, and not of friable earth; all heating is done by electricity, and no coal ever enters the town; there are no horses or dogs, and so there is not a suspicion of smoke and scarcely a particle of any sort of dirt to render white impossible. the radiated influence of the uniform of the samurai has been to keep costume simple, and this, perhaps, emphasises the general effect of vigorous health, of shapely bodies. everyone is well grown and well nourished; everyone seems in good condition; everyone walks well, and has that clearness of eye that comes with cleanness of blood. in london i am apt to consider myself of a passable size and carriage; here i feel small and mean-looking. the faint suspicions of spinal curvatures, skew feet, unequal legs, and ill-grown bones, that haunt one in a london crowd, the plain intimations--in yellow faces, puffy faces, spotted and irregular complexions, in nervous movements and coughs and colds--of bad habits and an incompetent or disregarded medical profession, do not appear here. i notice few old people, but there seems to be a greater proportion of men and women at or near the prime of life. i hang upon that. i have seen one or two fat people here--they are all the more noticeable because they are rare. but wrinkled age? have i yet in utopia set eyes on a bald head? the utopians have brought a sounder physiological science than ours to bear upon regimen. people know better what to do and what to avoid, how to foresee and forestall coming trouble, and how to evade and suppress the subtle poisons that blunt the edge of sensation. they have put off the years of decay. they keep their teeth, they keep their digestions, they ward off gout and rheumatism, neuralgia and influenza and all those cognate decays that bend and wrinkle men and women in the middle years of existence. they have extended the level years far into the seventies, and age, when it comes, comes swiftly and easily. the feverish hurry of our earth, the decay that begins before growth has ceased, is replaced by a ripe prolonged maturity. this modern utopia is an adult world. the flushed romance, the predominant eroticisms, the adventurous uncertainty of a world in which youth prevails, gives place here to a grave deliberation, to a fuller and more powerful emotion, to a broader handling of life. yet youth is here. amidst the men whose faces have been made fine by thought and steadfast living, among the serene-eyed women, comes youth, gaily-coloured, buoyantly healthy, with challenging eyes, with fresh and eager face.... for everyone in utopia who is sane enough to benefit, study and training last until twenty; then comes the travel year, and many are still students until twenty-four or twenty-five. most are still, in a sense, students throughout life, but it is thought that, unless responsible action is begun in some form in the early twenties, will undergoes a partial atrophy. but the full swing of adult life is hardly attained until thirty is reached. men marry before the middle thirties, and the women rather earlier, few are mothers before five-and-twenty. the majority of those who become samurai do so between twenty-seven and thirty-five. and, between seventeen and thirty, the utopians have their dealings with love, and the play and excitement of love is a chief interest in life. much freedom of act is allowed them so that their wills may grow freely. for the most part they end mated, and love gives place to some special and more enduring interest, though, indeed, there is love between older men and fresh girls, and between youths and maturer women. it is in these most graceful and beautiful years of life that such freedoms of dress as the atmosphere of utopia permits are to be seen, and the crude bright will and imagination of youth peeps out in ornament and colour. figures come into my sight and possess me for a moment and pass, and give place to others; there comes a dusky little jewess, red-lipped and amber-clad, with a deep crimson flower--i know not whether real or sham--in the dull black of her hair. she passes me with an unconscious disdain; and then i am looking at a brightly-smiling, blue-eyed girl, tall, ruddy, and freckled warmly, clad like a stage rosalind, and talking gaily to a fair young man, a novice under the rule. a red-haired mother under the lesser rule goes by, green-gowned, with dark green straps crossing between her breasts, and her two shock-headed children, bare-legged and lightly shod, tug at her hands on either side. then a grave man in a long, fur-trimmed robe, a merchant, maybe, debates some serious matter with a white-tunicked clerk. and the clerk's face----? i turn to mark the straight, blue-black hair. the man must be chinese.... then come two short-bearded men in careless indigo blue raiment, both of them convulsed with laughter--men outside the rule, who practise, perhaps, some art--and then one of the samurai, in cheerful altercation with a blue-robed girl of eight. "but you _could_ have come back yesterday, dadda," she persists. he is deeply sunburnt, and suddenly there passes before my mind the picture of a snowy mountain waste at night-fall and a solitary small figure under the stars.... when i come back to the present thing again, my eye is caught at once by a young negro, carrying books in his hand, a prosperous-looking, self-respecting young negro, in a trimly-cut coat of purple-blue and silver. i am reminded of what my double said to me of race. chapter the tenth race in utopia section above the sphere of the elemental cravings and necessities, the soul of man is in a perpetual vacillation between two conflicting impulses: the desire to assert his individual differences, the desire for distinction, and his terror of isolation. he wants to stand out, but not too far out, and, on the contrary, he wants to merge himself with a group, with some larger body, but not altogether. through all the things of life runs this tortuous compromise, men follow the fashions but resent ready-made uniforms on every plane of their being. the disposition to form aggregations and to imagine aggregations is part of the incurable nature of man; it is one of the great natural forces the statesman must utilise, and against which he must construct effectual defences. the study of the aggregations and of the ideals of aggregations about which men's sympathies will twine, and upon which they will base a large proportion of their conduct and personal policy, is the legitimate definition of sociology. now the sort of aggregation to which men and women will refer themselves is determined partly by the strength and idiosyncrasy of the individual imagination, and partly by the reek of ideas that chances to be in the air at the time. men and women may vary greatly both in their innate and their acquired disposition towards this sort of larger body or that, to which their social reference can be made. the "natural" social reference of a man is probably to some rather vaguely conceived tribe, as the "natural" social reference of a dog is to a pack. but just as the social reference of a dog may be educated until the reference to a pack is completely replaced by a reference to an owner, so on his higher plane of educability the social reference of the civilised man undergoes the most remarkable transformations. but the power and scope of his imagination and the need he has of response sets limits to this process. a highly intellectualised mature mind may refer for its data very consistently to ideas of a higher being so remote and indefinable as god, so comprehensive as humanity, so far-reaching as the purpose in things. i write "may," but i doubt if this exaltation of reference is ever permanently sustained. comte, in his positive polity, exposes his soul with great freedom, and the curious may trace how, while he professes and quite honestly intends to refer himself always to his "greater being" humanity, he narrows constantly to his projected "western republic" of civilised men, and quite frequently to the minute indefinite body of positivist subscribers. and the history of the christian church, with its development of orders and cults, sects and dissents, the history of fashionable society with its cliques and sets and every political history with its cabals and inner cabinets, witness to the struggle that goes on in the minds of men to adjust themselves to a body larger indeed than themselves, but which still does not strain and escape their imaginative grasp. the statesman, both for himself and others, must recognise this inadequacy of grasp, and the necessity for real and imaginary aggregations to sustain men in their practical service of the order of the world. he must be a sociologist; he must study the whole science of aggregations in relation to that world state to which his reason and his maturest thought direct him. he must lend himself to the development of aggregatory ideas that favour the civilising process, and he must do his best to promote the disintegration of aggregations and the effacement of aggregatory ideas, that keep men narrow and unreasonably prejudiced one against another. he will, of course, know that few men are even rudely consistent in such matters, that the same man in different moods and on different occasions, is capable of referring himself in perfect good faith, not only to different, but to contradictory larger beings, and that the more important thing about an aggregatory idea from the state maker's point of view is not so much what it explicitly involves as what it implicitly repudiates. the natural man does not feel he is aggregating at all, unless he aggregates _against something. he refers himself to the tribe; he is loyal to the tribe, and quite inseparably he fears or dislikes those others outside the tribe. the tribe is always at least defensively hostile and usually actively hostile to humanity beyond the aggregation. the anti-idea, it would seem, is inseparable from the aggregatory idea; it is a necessity of the human mind. when we think of the class a as desirable, we think of not-a as undesirable. the two things are as inevitably connected as the tendons of our hands, so that when we flatten down our little fingers on our palms, the fourth digit, whether we want it or not, comes down halfway. all real working gods, one may remark, all gods that are worshipped emotionally, are tribal gods, and every attempt to universalise the idea of god trails dualism and the devil after it as a moral necessity. when we inquire, as well as the unformed condition of terrestrial sociology permits, into the aggregatory ideas that seem to satisfy men, we find a remarkable complex, a disorderly complex, in the minds of nearly all our civilised contemporaries. for example, all sorts of aggregatory ideas come and go across the chameleon surfaces of my botanist's mind. he has a strong feeling for systematic botanists as against plant physiologists, whom he regards as lewd and evil scoundrels in this relation, but he has a strong feeling for all botanists, and, indeed, all biologists, as against physicists, and those who profess the exact sciences, all of whom he regards as dull, mechanical, ugly-minded scoundrels in this relation; but he has a strong feeling for all who profess what is called science as against psychologists, sociologists, philosophers, and literary men, whom he regards as wild, foolish, immoral scoundrels in this relation; but he has a strong feeling for all educated men as against the working man, whom he regards as a cheating, lying, loafing, drunken, thievish, dirty scoundrel in this relation; but so soon as the working man is comprehended together with those others, as englishmen--which includes, in this case, i may remark, the scottish and welsh--he holds them superior to all other sorts of european, whom he regards, &c.... now one perceives in all these aggregatory ideas and rearrangements of the sympathies one of the chief vices of human thought, due to its obsession by classificatory suggestions. [footnote: see chapter the first, section , and the appendix.] the necessity for marking our classes has brought with it a bias for false and excessive contrast, and we never invent a term but we are at once cramming it with implications beyond its legitimate content. there is no feat of irrelevance that people will not perform quite easily in this way; there is no class, however accidental, to which they will not at once ascribe deeply distinctive qualities. the seventh sons of seventh sons have remarkable powers of insight; people with a certain sort of ear commit crimes of violence; people with red hair have souls of fire; all democratic socialists are trustworthy persons; all people born in ireland have vivid imaginations and all englishmen are clods; all hindoos are cowardly liars; all curly-haired people are good-natured; all hunch-backs are energetic and wicked, and all frenchmen eat frogs. such stupid generalisations have been believed with the utmost readiness, and acted upon by great numbers of sane, respectable people. and when the class is one's own class, when it expresses one of the aggregations to which one refers one's own activities, then the disposition to divide all qualities between this class and its converse, and to cram one's own class with every desirable distinction, becomes overwhelming. it is part of the training of the philosopher to regard all such generalisations with suspicion; it is part of the training of the utopist and statesman, and all good statesmen are utopists, to mingle something very like animosity with that suspicion. for crude classifications and false generalisations are the curse of all organised human life. section disregarding classes, cliques, sets, castes, and the like minor aggregations, concerned for the most part with details and minor aspects of life, one finds among the civilised peoples of the world certain broad types of aggregatory idea. there are, firstly, the national ideas, ideas which, in their perfection, require a uniformity of physical and mental type, a common idiom, a common religion, a distinctive style of costume, decoration, and thought, and a compact organisation acting with complete external unity. like the gothic cathedral, the national idea is never found complete with all its parts; but one has in russia, with her insistence on political and religious orthodoxy, something approaching it pretty closely, and again in the inland and typical provinces of china, where even a strange pattern of hat arouses hostility. we had it in vigorous struggle to exist in england under the earlier georges in the minds of those who supported the established church. the idea of the fundamental nature of nationality is so ingrained in thought, with all the usual exaggeration of implication, that no one laughs at talk about swedish painting or american literature. and i will confess and point out that my own detachment from these delusions is so imperfect and discontinuous that in another passage i have committed myself to a short assertion of the exceptionally noble quality of the english imagination. [footnote: chapter the seventh, section .] i am constantly gratified by flattering untruths about english superiority which i should reject indignantly were the application bluntly personal, and i am ever ready to believe the scenery of england, the poetry of england, even the decoration and music of england, in some mystic and impregnable way, the best. this habit of intensifying all class definitions, and particularly those in which one has a personal interest, is in the very constitution of man's mind. it is part of the defect of that instrument. we may watch against it and prevent it doing any great injustices, or leading us into follies, but to eradicate it is an altogether different matter. there it is, to be reckoned with, like the coccyx, the pineal eye, and the vermiform appendix. and a too consistent attack on it may lead simply to its inversion, to a vindictively pro-foreigner attitude that is equally unwise. the second sort of aggregatory ideas, running very often across the boundaries of national ideas and in conflict with them, are religious ideas. in western europe true national ideas only emerged to their present hectic vigour after the shock of the reformation had liberated men from the great tradition of a latin-speaking christendom, a tradition the roman catholic church has sustained as its modification of the old latin-speaking imperialism in the rule of the pontifex maximus. there was, and there remains to this day, a profound disregard of local dialect and race in the roman catholic tradition, which has made that church a persistently disintegrating influence in national life. equally spacious and equally regardless of tongues and peoples is the great arabic-speaking religion of mahomet. both christendom and islam are indeed on their secular sides imperfect realisations of a utopian world state. but the secular side was the weaker side of these cults; they produced no sufficiently great statesmen to realise their spiritual forces, and it is not in rome under pontifical rule, nor in munster under the anabaptists, but rather in thomas a kempis and saint augustin's city of god that we must seek for the utopias of christianity. in the last hundred years a novel development of material forces, and especially of means of communication, has done very much to break up the isolations in which nationality perfected its prejudices and so to render possible the extension and consolidation of such a world-wide culture as mediaeval christendom and islam foreshadowed. the first onset of these expansive developments has been marked in the world of mind by an expansion of political ideals--comte's "western republic" ( ) was the first utopia that involved the synthesis of numerous states--by the development of "imperialisms" in the place of national policies, and by the search for a basis for wider political unions in racial traditions and linguistic affinities. anglo-saxonism, pan-germanism, and the like are such synthetic ideas. until the eighties, the general tendency of progressive thought was at one with the older christian tradition which ignored "race," and the aim of the expansive liberalism movement, so far as it had a clear aim, was to europeanise the world, to extend the franchise to negroes, put polynesians into trousers, and train the teeming myriads of india to appreciate the exquisite lilt of the lady of the lake. there is always some absurdity mixed with human greatness, and we must not let the fact that the middle victorians counted scott, the suffrage and pantaloons among the supreme blessings of life, conceal from us the very real nobility of their dream of england's mission to the world.... we of this generation have seen a flood of reaction against such universalism. the great intellectual developments that centre upon the work of darwin have exacerbated the realisation that life is a conflict between superior and inferior types, it has underlined the idea that specific survival rates are of primary significance in the world's development, and a swarm of inferior intelligences has applied to human problems elaborated and exaggerated versions of these generalisations. these social and political followers of darwin have fallen into an obvious confusion between race and nationality, and into the natural trap of patriotic conceit. the dissent of the indian and colonial governing class to the first crude applications of liberal propositions in india has found a voice of unparalleled penetration in mr. kipling, whose want of intellectual deliberation is only equalled by his poietic power. the search for a basis for a new political synthesis in adaptable sympathies based on linguistic affinities, was greatly influenced by max muller's unaccountable assumption that language indicated kindred, and led straight to wildly speculative ethnology, to the discovery that there was a keltic race, a teutonic race, an indo-european race, and so forth. a book that has had enormous influence in this matter, because of its use in teaching, is j. r. green's short history of the english people, with its grotesque insistence upon anglo-saxonism. and just now, the world is in a sort of delirium about race and the racial struggle. the briton forgetting his defoe, [footnote: the true-born englishman.] the jew forgetting the very word proselyte, the german forgetting his anthropometric variations, and the italian forgetting everything, are obsessed by the singular purity of their blood, and the danger of contamination the mere continuance of other races involves. true to the law that all human aggregation involves the development of a spirit of opposition to whatever is external to the aggregation, extraordinary intensifications of racial definition are going on; the vileness, the inhumanity, the incompatibility of alien races is being steadily exaggerated. the natural tendency of every human being towards a stupid conceit in himself and his kind, a stupid depreciation of all unlikeness, is traded upon by this bastard science. with the weakening of national references, and with the pause before reconstruction in religious belief, these new arbitrary and unsubstantial race prejudices become daily more formidable. they are shaping policies and modifying laws, and they will certainly be responsible for a large proportion of the wars, hardships, and cruelties the immediate future holds in store for our earth. no generalisations about race are too extravagant for the inflamed credulity of the present time. no attempt is ever made to distinguish differences in inherent quality--the true racial differences--from artificial differences due to culture. no lesson seems ever to be drawn from history of the fluctuating incidence of the civilising process first upon this race and then upon that. the politically ascendant peoples of the present phase are understood to be the superior races, including such types as the sussex farm labourer, the bowery tough, the london hooligan, and the paris apache; the races not at present prospering politically, such as the egyptians, the greeks, the spanish, the moors, the chinese, the hindoos, the peruvians, and all uncivilised people are represented as the inferior races, unfit to associate with the former on terms of equality, unfit to intermarry with them on any terms, unfit for any decisive voice in human affairs. in the popular imagination of western europe, the chinese are becoming bright gamboge in colour, and unspeakably abominable in every respect; the people who are black--the people who have fuzzy hair and flattish noses, and no calves to speak of--are no longer held to be within the pale of humanity. these superstitions work out along the obvious lines of the popular logic. the depopulation of the congo free state by the belgians, the horrible massacres of chinese by european soldiery during the pekin expedition, are condoned as a painful but necessary part of the civilising process of the world. the world-wide repudiation of slavery in the nineteenth century was done against a vast sullen force of ignorant pride, which, reinvigorated by the new delusions, swings back again to power. "science" is supposed to lend its sanction to race mania, but it is only "science" as it is understood by very illiterate people that does anything of the sort--"scientists'" science, in fact. what science has to tell about "the races of man" will be found compactly set forth by doctor j. deinker, in the book published under that title. [footnote: see also an excellent paper in the american journal of sociology for march, , the psychology of race prejudice, by w. i. thomas.] from that book one may learn the beginnings of race charity. save for a few isolated pools of savage humanity, there is probably no pure race in the whole world. the great continental populations are all complex mixtures of numerous and fluctuating types. even the jews present every kind of skull that is supposed to be racially distinctive, a vast range of complexion--from blackness in goa, to extreme fairness in holland--and a vast mental and physical diversity. were the jews to discontinue all intermarriage with "other races" henceforth for ever, it would depend upon quite unknown laws of fecundity, prepotency, and variability, what their final type would be, or, indeed, whether any particular type would ever prevail over diversity. and, without going beyond the natives of the british isles, one can discover an enormous range of types, tall and short, straight-haired and curly, fair and dark, supremely intelligent and unteachably stupid, straightforward, disingenuous, and what not. the natural tendency is to forget all this range directly "race" comes under discussion, to take either an average or some quite arbitrary ideal as the type, and think only of that. the more difficult thing to do, but the thing that must be done if we are to get just results in this discussion, is to do one's best to bear the range in mind. let us admit that the average chinaman is probably different in complexion, and, indeed, in all his physical and psychical proportions, from the average englishman. does that render their association upon terms of equality in a world state impossible? what the average chinaman or englishman may be, is of no importance whatever to our plan of a world state. it is not averages that exist, but individuals. the average chinaman will never meet the average englishman anywhere; only individual chinamen will meet individual englishmen. now among chinamen will be found a range of variety as extensive as among englishmen, and there is no single trait presented by all chinamen and no englishman, or vice versa. even the oblique eye is not universal in china, and there are probably many chinamen who might have been "changed at birth," taken away and educated into quite passable englishmen. even after we have separated out and allowed for the differences in carriage, physique, moral prepossessions, and so forth, due to their entirely divergent cultures, there remains, no doubt, a very great difference between the average chinaman and the average englishman; but would that amount to a wider difference than is to be found between extreme types of englishmen? for my own part i do not think that it would. but it is evident that any precise answer can be made only when anthropology has adopted much more exact and exhaustive methods of inquiry, and a far more precise analysis than its present resources permit. be it remembered how doubtful and tainted is the bulk of our evidence in these matters. these are extraordinarily subtle inquiries, from which few men succeed in disentangling the threads of their personal associations--the curiously interwoven strands of self-love and self-interest that affect their inquiries. one might almost say that instinct fights against such investigations, as it does undoubtedly against many necessary medical researches. but while a long special training, a high tradition and the possibility of reward and distinction, enable the medical student to face many tasks that are at once undignified and physically repulsive, the people from whom we get our anthropological information are rarely men of more than average intelligence, and of no mental training at all. and the problems are far more elusive. it surely needs at least the gifts and training of a first-class novelist, combined with a sedulous patience that probably cannot be hoped for in combination with these, to gauge the all-round differences between man and man. even where there are no barriers of language and colour, understanding may be nearly impossible. how few educated people seem to understand the servant class in england, or the working men! except for mr. bart kennedy's a man adrift, i know of scarcely any book that shows a really sympathetic and living understanding of the navvy, the longshore sailor man, the rough chap of our own race. caricatures, luridly tragic or gaily comic, in which the misconceptions of the author blend with the preconceptions of the reader and achieve success, are, of course, common enough. and then consider the sort of people who pronounce judgments on the moral and intellectual capacity of the negro, the malay, or the chinaman. you have missionaries, native schoolmasters, employers of coolies, traders, simple downright men, who scarcely suspect the existence of any sources of error in their verdicts, who are incapable of understanding the difference between what is innate and what is acquired, much less of distinguishing them in their interplay. now and then one seems to have a glimpse of something really living--in mary kingsley's buoyant work, for instance--and even that may be no more than my illusion. for my own part i am disposed to discount all adverse judgments and all statements of insurmountable differences between race and race. i talk upon racial qualities to all men who have had opportunities of close observation, and i find that their insistence upon these differences is usually in inverse proportion to their intelligence. it may be the chance of my encounters, but that is my clear impression. common sailors will generalise in the profoundest way about irishmen, and scotchmen, and yankees, and nova scotians, and "dutchies," until one might think one talked of different species of animal, but the educated explorer flings clear of all these delusions. to him men present themselves individualised, and if they classify it is by some skin-deep accident of tint, some trick of the tongue, or habit of gesture, or such-like superficiality. and after all there exists to-day available one kind at least of unbiassed anthropological evidence. there are photographs. let the reader turn over the pages of some such copiously illustrated work as the living races of mankind, [footnote: the living races of mankind, by h. n. hutchinson, j. w. gregory, and r. lydekker. (hutchinson.)] and look into the eyes of one alien face after another. are they not very like the people one knows? for the most part, one finds it hard to believe that, with a common language and common social traditions, one would not get on very well with these people. here or there is a brutish or evil face, but you can find as brutish and evil in the strand on any afternoon. there are differences no doubt, but fundamental incompatibilities--no! and very many of them send out a ray of special resemblance and remind one more strongly of this friend or that, than they do of their own kind. one notes with surprise that one's good friend and neighbour x and an anonymous naked gold coast negro belong to one type, as distinguished from one's dear friend y and a beaming individual from somaliland, who as certainly belong to another. in one matter the careless and prejudiced nature of accepted racial generalisations is particularly marked. a great and increasing number of people are persuaded that "half-breeds" are peculiarly evil creatures--as hunchbacks and bastards were supposed to be in the middle ages. the full legend of the wickedness of the half-breed is best to be learnt from a drunken mean white from virginia or the cape. the half-breed, one hears, combines all the vices of either parent, he is wretchedly poor in health and spirit, but vindictive, powerful, and dangerous to an extreme degree, his morals--the mean white has high and exacting standards--are indescribable even in whispers in a saloon, and so on, and so on. there is really not an atom of evidence an unprejudiced mind would accept to sustain any belief of the sort. there is nothing to show that the children of racial admixture are, as a class, inherently either better or worse in any respect than either parent. there is an equally baseless theory that they are better, a theory displayed to a fine degree of foolishness in the article on shakespeare in the encyclopaedia britannica. both theories belong to the vast edifice of sham science that smothers the realities of modern knowledge. it may be that most "half-breeds" are failures in life, but that proves nothing. they are, in an enormous number of cases, illegitimate and outcast from the normal education of either race; they are brought up in homes that are the battle-grounds of conflicting cultures; they labour under a heavy premium of disadvantage. there is, of course, a passing suggestion of darwin's to account for atavism that might go to support the theory of the vileness of half-breeds, if it had ever been proved. but, then, it never has been proved. there is no proof in the matter at all. section suppose, now, there is such a thing as an all-round inferior race. is that any reason why we should propose to preserve it for ever in a condition of tutelage? whether there is a race so inferior i do not know, but certainly there is no race so superior as to be trusted with human charges. the true answer to aristotle's plea for slavery, that there are "natural slaves," lies in the fact that there are no "natural" masters. power is no more to be committed to men without discipline and restriction than alcohol. the true objection to slavery is not that it is unjust to the inferior but that it corrupts the superior. there is only one sane and logical thing to be done with a really inferior race, and that is to exterminate it. now there are various ways of exterminating a race, and most of them are cruel. you may end it with fire and sword after the old hebrew fashion; you may enslave it and work it to death, as the spaniards did the caribs; you may set it boundaries and then poison it slowly with deleterious commodities, as the americans do with most of their indians; you may incite it to wear clothing to which it is not accustomed and to live under new and strange conditions that will expose it to infectious diseases to which you yourselves are immune, as the missionaries do the polynesians; you may resort to honest simple murder, as we english did with the tasmanians; or you can maintain such conditions as conduce to "race suicide," as the british administration does in fiji. suppose, then, for a moment, that there is an all-round inferior race; a modern utopia is under the hard logic of life, and it would have to exterminate such a race as quickly as it could. on the whole, the fijian device seems the least cruel. but utopia would do that without any clumsiness of race distinction, in exactly the same manner, and by the same machinery, as it exterminates all its own defective and inferior strains; that is to say, as we have already discussed in chapter the fifth, section , by its marriage laws, and by the laws of the minimum wage. that extinction need never be discriminatory. if any of the race did, after all, prove to be fit to survive, they would survive--they would be picked out with a sure and automatic justice from the over-ready condemnation of all their kind. is there, however, an all-round inferior race in the world? even the australian black-fellow is, perhaps, not quite so entirely eligible for extinction as a good, wholesome, horse-racing, sheep-farming australian white may think. these queer little races, the black-fellows, the pigmies, the bushmen, may have their little gifts, a greater keenness, a greater fineness of this sense or that, a quaintness of the imagination or what not, that may serve as their little unique addition to the totality of our utopian civilisation. we are supposing that every individual alive on earth is alive in utopia, and so all the surviving "black-fellows" are there. every one of them in utopia has had what none have had on earth, a fair education and fair treatment, justice, and opportunity. suppose that the common idea is right about the general inferiority of these people, then it would follow that in utopia most of them are childless, and working at or about the minimum wage, and some will have passed out of all possibility of offspring under the hand of the offended law; but still--cannot we imagine some few of these little people--whom you must suppose neither naked nor clothed in the european style, but robed in the utopian fashion--may have found some delicate art to practise, some peculiar sort of carving, for example, that justifies god in creating them? utopia has sound sanitary laws, sound social laws, sound economic laws; what harm are these people going to do? some may be even prosperous and admired, may have married women of their own or some other race, and so may be transmitting that distinctive thin thread of excellence, to take its due place in the great synthesis of the future. and, indeed, coming along that terrace in utopia, i see a little figure, a little bright-eyed, bearded man, inky black, frizzy haired, and clad in a white tunic and black hose, and with a mantle of lemon yellow wrapped about his shoulders. he walks, as most utopians walk, as though he had reason to be proud of something, as though he had no reason to be afraid of anything in the world. he carries a portfolio in his hand. it is that, i suppose, as much as his hair, that recalls the quartier latin to my mind. section i had already discussed the question of race with the botanist at lucerne. "but you would not like," he cried in horror, "your daughter to marry a chinaman or a negro?" "of course," said i, "when you say chinaman, you think of a creature with a pigtail, long nails, and insanitary habits, and when you say negro you think of a filthy-headed, black creature in an old hat. you do this because your imagination is too feeble to disentangle the inherent qualities of a thing from its habitual associations." "insult isn't argument," said the botanist. "neither is unsound implication. you make a question of race into a question of unequal cultures. you would not like your daughter to marry the sort of negro who steals hens, but then you would also not like your daughter to marry a pure english hunchback with a squint, or a drunken cab tout of norman blood. as a matter of fact, very few well-bred english girls do commit that sort of indiscretion. but you don't think it necessary to generalise against men of your own race because there are drunken cab touts, and why should you generalise against negroes? because the proportion of undesirables is higher among negroes, that does not justify a sweeping condemnation. you may have to condemn most, but why _all_? there may be--neither of us knows enough to deny--negroes who are handsome, capable, courageous." "ugh!" said the botanist. "how detestable you must find othello!" it is my utopia, and for a moment i could almost find it in my heart to spite the botanist by creating a modern desdemona and her lover sooty black to the lips, there before our eyes. but i am not so sure of my case as that, and for the moment there shall come nothing more than a swart-faced, dusky burmese woman in the dress of the greater rule, with her tall englishman (as he might be on earth) at her side. that, however, is a digression from my conversation with the botanist. "and the chinaman?" said the botanist. "i think we shall have all the buff and yellow peoples intermingling pretty freely." "chinamen and white women, for example." "yes," i said, "you've got to swallow that, anyhow; you _shall_ swallow that." he finds the idea too revolting for comment. i try and make the thing seem easier for him. "do try," i said, "to grasp a modern utopian's conditions. the chinaman will speak the same language as his wife--whatever her race may be--he will wear costume of the common civilised fashion, he will have much the same education as his european rival, read the same literature, bow to the same traditions. and you must remember a wife in utopia is singularly not subject to her husband...." the botanist proclaims his invincible conclusion: "everyone would cut her!" "this is utopia," i said, and then sought once more to tranquillise his mind. "no doubt among the vulgar, coarse-minded people outside the rule there may be something of the sort. every earthly moral blockhead, a little educated, perhaps, is to be found in utopia. you will, no doubt, find the 'cut' and the 'boycott,' and all those nice little devices by which dull people get a keen edge on life, in their place here, and their place here is somewhere----" i turned a thumb earthward. "there!" the botanist did not answer for a little while. then he said, with some temper and great emphasis: "well, i'm jolly glad anyhow that i'm not to be a permanent resident in this utopia, if our daughters are to be married to hottentots by regulation. i'm jolly glad." he turned his back on me. now did i say anything of the sort? ... i had to bring him, i suppose; there's no getting away from him in this life. but, as i have already observed, the happy ancients went to their utopias without this sort of company. section what gives the botanist so great an advantage in all his anti-utopian utterances is his unconsciousness of his own limitations. he thinks in little pieces that lie about loose, and nothing has any necessary link with anything else in his mind. so that i cannot retort upon him by asking him, if he objects to this synthesis of all nations, tongues and peoples in a world state, what alternative ideal he proposes. people of this sort do not even feel the need of alternatives. beyond the scope of a few personal projects, meeting her again, and things like that, they do not feel that there is a future. they are unencumbered by any baggage of convictions whatever, in relation to that. that, at least, is the only way in which i can explain our friend's high intellectual mobility. attempts to correlate statesmanship, which they regard with interest as a dramatic interplay of personalities, with any secular movement of humanity, they class with the differential calculus and darwinism, as things far too difficult to be anything but finally and subtly wrong. so the argument must pass into a direct address to the reader. if you are not prepared to regard a world-wide synthesis of all cultures and polities and races into one world state as the desirable end upon which all civilising efforts converge, what do you regard as the desirable end? synthesis, one may remark in passing, does not necessarily mean fusion, nor does it mean uniformity. the alternatives fall roughly under three headings. the first is to assume there is a best race, to define as well as one can that best race, and to regard all other races as material for extermination. this has a fine, modern, biological air ("survival of the fittest"). if you are one of those queer german professors who write insanity about welt-politik, you assume the best race is the "teutonic"; cecil rhodes affected that triumph of creative imagination, the "anglo-saxon race"; my friend, moses cohen, thinks there is much to be said for the jew. on its premises, this is a perfectly sound and reasonable policy, and it opens out a brilliant prospect for the scientific inventor for what one might call welt-apparat in the future, for national harrowing and reaping machines, and race-destroying fumigations. the great plain of china ("yellow peril") lends itself particularly to some striking wholesale undertaking; it might, for example, be flooded for a few days, and then disinfected with volcanic chlorine. whether, when all the inferior races have been stamped out, the superior race would not proceed at once, or after a brief millennial period of social harmony, to divide itself into sub-classes, and begin the business over again at a higher level, is an interesting residual question into which we need not now penetrate. that complete development of a scientific welt-politik is not, however, very widely advocated at present, no doubt from a want of confidence in the public imagination. we have, however, a very audible and influential school, the modern imperialist school, which distinguishes its own race--there is a german, a british, and an anglo-saxon section in the school, and a wider teaching which embraces the whole "white race" in one remarkable tolerance--as the superior race, as one, indeed, superior enough to own slaves, collectively, if not individually; and the exponents of this doctrine look with a resolute, truculent, but slightly indistinct eye to a future in which all the rest of the world will be in subjection to these elect. the ideals of this type are set forth pretty clearly in mr. kidd's control of the tropics. the whole world is to be administered by the "white" powers--mr. kidd did not anticipate japan--who will see to it that their subjects do not "prevent the utilisation of the immense natural resources which they have in charge." those other races are to be regarded as children, recalcitrant children at times, and without any of the tender emotions of paternity. it is a little doubtful whether the races lacking "in the elementary qualities of social efficiency" are expected to acquire them under the chastening hands of those races which, through "strength and energy of character, humanity, probity, and integrity, and a single-minded devotion to conceptions of duty," are developing "the resources of the richest regions of the earth" over their heads, or whether this is the ultimate ideal. next comes the rather incoherent alternative that one associates in england with official liberalism. liberalism in england is not quite the same thing as liberalism in the rest of the world; it is woven of two strands. there is whiggism, the powerful tradition of seventeenth-century protestant and republican england, with its great debt to republican rome, its strong constructive and disciplinary bias, its broad and originally very living and intelligent outlook; and interwoven with this there is the sentimental and logical liberalism that sprang from the stresses of the eighteenth century, that finds its early scarce differentiated expression in harrington's oceana, and after fresh draughts of the tradition of brutus and cato and some elegant trifling with noble savages, budded in la cite morellyste, flowered in the emotional democratic naturalism of rousseau, and bore abundant fruit in the french revolution. these are two very distinct strands. directly they were freed in america from the grip of conflict with british toryism, they came apart as the republican and democratic parties respectively. their continued union in great britain is a political accident. because of this mixture, the whole career of english-speaking liberalism, though it has gone to one unbroken strain of eloquence, has never produced a clear statement of policy in relation to other peoples politically less fortunate. it has developed no definite ideas at all about the future of mankind. the whig disposition, which once had some play in india, was certainly to attempt to anglicise the "native," to assimilate his culture, and then to assimilate his political status with that of his temporary ruler. but interwoven with this anglicising tendency, which was also, by the bye, a christianising tendency, was a strong disposition, derived from the rousseau strand, to leave other peoples alone, to facilitate even the separation and autonomy of detached portions of our own peoples, to disintegrate finally into perfect, because lawless, individuals. the official exposition of british "liberalism" to-day still wriggles unstably because of these conflicting constituents, but on the whole the whig strand now seems the weaker. the contemporary liberal politician offers cogent criticism upon the brutality and conceit of modern imperialisms, but that seems to be the limit of his service. taking what they do not say and do not propose as an indication of liberal intentions, it would seem that the ideal of the british liberals and of the american democrats is to favour the existence of just as many petty, loosely allied, or quite independent nationalities as possible, just as many languages as possible, to deprecate armies and all controls, and to trust to the innate goodness of disorder and the powers of an ardent sentimentality to keep the world clean and sweet. the liberals will not face the plain consequence that such a state of affairs is hopelessly unstable, that it involves the maximum risk of war with the minimum of permanent benefit and public order. they will not reflect that the stars in their courses rule inexorably against it. it is a vague, impossible ideal, with a rude sort of unworldly moral beauty, like the gospel of the doukhobors. besides that charm it has this most seductive quality to an official british liberal, that it does not exact intellectual activity nor indeed activity of any sort whatever. it is, by virtue of that alone, a far less mischievous doctrine than the crude and violent imperialism of the popular press. neither of these two schools of policy, neither the international laisser faire of the liberals, nor "hustle to the top" imperialism, promise any reality of permanent progress for the world of men. they are the resort, the moral reference, of those who will not think frankly and exhaustively over the whole field of this question. do that, insist upon solutions of more than accidental applicability, and you emerge with one or other of two contrasted solutions, as the consciousness of kind or the consciousness of individuality prevails in your mind. in the former case you will adopt aggressive imperialism, but you will carry it out to its "thorough" degree of extermination. you will seek to develop the culture and power of your kind of men and women to the utmost in order to shoulder all other kinds from the earth. if on the other hand you appreciate the unique, you will aim at such a synthesis as this utopia displays, a synthesis far more credible and possible than any other welt-politik. in spite of all the pageant of modern war, synthesis is in the trend of the world. to aid and develop it, could be made the open and secure policy of any great modern empire now. modern war, modern international hostility is, i believe, possible only through the stupid illiteracy of the mass of men and the conceit and intellectual indolence of rulers and those who feed the public mind. were the will of the mass of men lit and conscious, i am firmly convinced it would now burn steadily for synthesis and peace. it would be so easy to bring about a world peace within a few decades, was there but the will for it among men! the great empires that exist need but a little speech and frankness one with another. within, the riddles of social order are already half solved in books and thought, there are the common people and the subject peoples to be educated and drilled, to be led to a common speech and a common literature, to be assimilated and made citizens; without, there is the possibility of treaties. why, for example, should britain and france, or either and the united states, or sweden and norway, or holland, or denmark, or italy, fight any more for ever? and if there is no reason, how foolish and dangerous it is still to sustain linguistic differences and custom houses, and all sorts of foolish and irritating distinctions between their various citizens! why should not all these peoples agree to teach some common language, french, for example, in their common schools, or to teach each other's languages reciprocally? why should they not aim at a common literature, and bring their various common laws, their marriage laws, and so on, into uniformity? why should they not work for a uniform minimum of labour conditions through all their communities? why, then, should they not--except in the interests of a few rascal plutocrats--trade freely and exchange their citizenship freely throughout their common boundaries? no doubt there are difficulties to be found, but they are quite finite difficulties. what is there to prevent a parallel movement of all the civilised powers in the world towards a common ideal and assimilation? stupidity--nothing but stupidity, a stupid brute jealousy, aimless and unjustifiable. the coarser conceptions of aggregation are at hand, the hostile, jealous patriotisms, the blare of trumpets and the pride of fools; they serve the daily need though they lead towards disaster. the real and the immediate has us in its grip, the accidental personal thing. the little effort of thought, the brief sustained effort of will, is too much for the contemporary mind. such treaties, such sympathetic international movements, are but dream stuff yet on earth, though utopia has realised them long since and already passed them by. chapter the eleventh the bubble bursts section as i walk back along the river terrace to the hotel where the botanist awaits me, and observe the utopians i encounter, i have no thought that my tenure of utopia becomes every moment more precarious. there float in my mind vague anticipations of more talks with my double and still more, of a steady elaboration of detail, of interesting journeys of exploration. i forget that a utopia is a thing of the imagination that becomes more fragile with every added circumstance, that, like a soap-bubble, it is most brilliantly and variously coloured at the very instant of its dissolution. this utopia is nearly done. all the broad lines of its social organisation are completed now, the discussion of all its general difficulties and problems. utopian individuals pass me by, fine buildings tower on either hand; it does not occur to me that i may look too closely. to find the people assuming the concrete and individual, is not, as i fondly imagine, the last triumph of realisation, but the swimming moment of opacity before the film gives way. to come to individual emotional cases, is to return to the earth. i find the botanist sitting at a table in the hotel courtyard. "well?" i say, standing before him. "i've been in the gardens on the river terrace," he answers, "hoping i might see her again." "nothing better to do?" "nothing in the world." "you'll have your double back from india to-morrow. then you'll have conversation." "i don't want it," he replies, compactly. i shrug my shoulders, and he adds, "at least with him." i let myself down into a seat beside him. for a time i sit restfully enjoying his companionable silence, and thinking fragmentarily of those samurai and their rules. i entertain something of the satisfaction of a man who has finished building a bridge; i feel that i have joined together things that i had never joined before. my utopia seems real to me, very real, i can believe in it, until the metal chair-back gives to my shoulder blades, and utopian sparrows twitter and hop before my feet. i have a pleasant moment of unhesitating self-satisfaction; i feel a shameless exultation to be there. for a moment i forget the consideration the botanist demands; the mere pleasure of completeness, of holding and controlling all the threads possesses me. "you _will_ persist in believing," i say, with an aggressive expository note, "that if you meet this lady she will be a person with the memories and sentiments of her double on earth. you think she will understand and pity, and perhaps love you. nothing of the sort is the case." i repeat with confident rudeness, "nothing of the sort is the case. things are different altogether here; you can hardly tell even now how different are----" i discover he is not listening to me. "what is the matter?" i ask abruptly. he makes no answer, but his expression startles me. "what is the matter?" and then i follow his eyes. a woman and a man are coming through the great archway--and instantly i guess what has happened. she it is arrests my attention first--long ago i knew she was a sweetly beautiful woman. she is fair, with frank blue eyes, that look with a sort of tender receptivity into her companion's face. for a moment or so they remain, greyish figures in the cool shadow, against the sunlit greenery of the gardens beyond. "it is mary," the botanist whispers with white lips, but he stares at the form of the man. his face whitens, it becomes so transfigured with emotion that for a moment it does not look weak. then i see that his thin hand is clenched. i realise how little i understand his emotions. a sudden fear of what he will do takes hold of me. he sits white and tense as the two come into the clearer light of the courtyard. the man, i see, is one of the samurai, a dark, strong-faced man, a man i have never seen before, and she is wearing the robe that shows her a follower of the lesser rule. some glimmering of the botanist's feelings strikes through to my slow sympathies. of course--a strange man! i put out a restraining hand towards his arm. "i told you," i say, "that very probably, most probably, she would have met some other. i tried to prepare you." "nonsense," he whispers, without looking at me. "it isn't that. it's--that scoundrel----" he has an impulse to rise. "that scoundrel," he repeats. "he isn't a scoundrel," i say. "how do you know? keep still! why are you standing up?" he and i stand up quickly, i as soon as he. but now the full meaning of the group has reached me. i grip his arm. "be sensible," i say, speaking very quickly, and with my back to the approaching couple. "he's not a scoundrel here. this world is different from that. it's caught his pride somehow and made a man of him. whatever troubled them there----" he turns a face of white wrath on me, of accusation, and for the moment of unexpected force. "this is _your_ doing," he says. "you have done this to mock me. he--of all men!" for a moment speech fails him, then; "you--you have done this to mock me." i try to explain very quickly. my tone is almost propitiatory. "i never thought of it until now. but he's---- how did i know he was the sort of man a disciplined world has a use for?" he makes no answer, but he looks at me with eyes that are positively baleful, and in the instant i read his mute but mulish resolve that utopia must end. "don't let that old quarrel poison all this," i say almost entreatingly. "it happened all differently here--everything is different here. your double will be back to-morrow. wait for him. perhaps then you will understand----" he shakes his head, and then bursts out with, "what do i want with a double? double! what do i care if things have been different here? this----" he thrusts me weakly back with his long, white hand. "my god!" he says almost forcibly, "what nonsense all this is! all these dreams! all utopias! there she is----! oh, but i have dreamt of her! and now----" a sob catches him. i am really frightened by this time. i still try to keep between him and these utopians, and to hide his gestures from them. "it's different here," i persist. "it's different here. the emotion you feel has no place in it. it's a scar from the earth--the sore scar of your past----" "and what are we all but scars? what is life but a scarring? it's _you_--you who don't understand! of course we are covered with scars, we live to be scarred, we are scars! we are the scars of the past! these _dreams_, these childish dreams----!" he does not need to finish his sentence, he waves an unteachable destructive arm. my utopia rocks about me. for a moment the vision of that great courtyard hangs real. there the utopians live real about me, going to and fro, and the great archway blazes with sunlight from the green gardens by the riverside. the man who is one of the samurai, and his lady, whom the botanist loved on earth, pass out of sight behind the marble flower-set triton that spouts coolness in the middle of the place. for a moment i see two working men in green tunics sitting on a marble seat in the shadow of the colonnade, and a sweet little silver-haired old lady, clad all in violet, and carrying a book, comes towards us, and lifts a curious eye at the botanist's gestures. and then---- "scars of the past! scars of the past! these fanciful, useless dreams!" section there is no jerk, no sound, no hint of material shock. we are in london, and clothed in the fashion of the town. the sullen roar of london fills our ears.... i see that i am standing beside an iron seat of poor design in that grey and gawky waste of asphalte--trafalgar square, and the botanist, with perplexity in his face, stares from me to a poor, shrivelled, dirt-lined old woman--my god! what a neglected thing she is!--who proffers a box of matches.... he buys almost mechanically, and turns back to me. "i was saying," he says, "the past rules us absolutely. these dreams----" his sentence does not complete itself. he looks nervous and irritated. "you have a trick at times," he says instead, "of making your suggestions so vivid----" he takes a plunge. "if you don't mind," he says in a sort of quavering ultimatum, "we won't discuss that aspect of the question--the lady, i mean--further." he pauses, and there still hangs a faint perplexity between us. "but----" i begin. for a moment we stand there, and my dream of utopia runs off me like water from an oiled slab. of course--we lunched at our club. we came back from switzerland by no dream train but by the ordinary bale express. we have been talking of that lucerne woman he harps upon, and i have made some novel comment on his story. i have touched certain possibilities. "you can't conceivably understand," he says. "the fact remains," he goes on, taking up the thread of his argument again with an air of having defined our field, "we are the scars of the past. that's a thing one can discuss--without personalities." "no," i say rather stupidly, "no." "you are always talking as though you could kick the past to pieces; as though one could get right out from oneself and begin afresh. it is your weakness--if you don't mind my being frank--it makes you seem harsh and dogmatic. life has gone easily for you; you have never been badly tried. you have been lucky--you do not understand the other way about. you are--hard." i answer nothing. he pants for breath. i perceive that in our discussion of his case i must have gone too far, and that he has rebelled. clearly i must have said something wounding about that ineffectual love story of his. "you don't allow for my position," he says, and it occurs to me to say, "i'm obliged to look at the thing from my own point of view...." one or other of us makes a move. what a lot of filthy, torn paper is scattered about the world! we walk slowly side by side towards the dirt-littered basin of the fountain, and stand regarding two grimy tramps who sit and argue on a further seat. one holds a horrible old boot in his hand, and gesticulates with it, while his other hand caresses his rag-wrapped foot. "wot does cham'lain _si_?" his words drift to us. "w'y, 'e says, wot's the good of 'nvesting your kepital where these 'ere americans may dump it flat any time they like...." (were there not two men in green sitting on a marble seat?) section we walk on, our talk suspended, past a ruthlessly clumsy hoarding, towards where men and women and children are struggling about a string of omnibuses. a newsvendor at the corner spreads a newspaper placard upon the wood pavement, pins the corners down with stones, and we glimpse something about:-- massacre in odessa. discovery of human remains at chertsey. shocking lynching outrage in new york state. german intrigues get a set-back. the birthday honours.--full list. dear old familiar world! an angry parent in conversation with a sympathetic friend jostles against us. "i'll knock his blooming young 'ed orf if 'e cheeks me again. it's these 'ere brasted board schools----" an omnibus passes, bearing on a board beneath an incorrectly drawn union jack an exhortation to the true patriot to "buy bumper's british-boiled jam." ... i am stunned beyond the possibility of discussion for a space. in this very place it must have been that the high terrace ran with the gardens below it, along which i came from my double to our hotel. i am going back, but now through reality, along the path i passed so happily in my dream. and the people i saw then are the people i am looking at now--with a difference. the botanist walks beside me, white and nervously jerky in his movements, his ultimatum delivered. we start to cross the road. an open carriage drives by, and we see a jaded, red-haired woman, smeared with paint, dressed in furs, and petulantly discontented. her face is familiar to me, her face, with a difference. why do i think of her as dressed in green? of course!--she it was i saw leading her children by the hand! comes a crash to our left, and a running of people to see a cab-horse down on the slippery, slanting pavement outside st. martin's church. we go on up the street. a heavy-eyed young jewess, a draggled prostitute--no crimson flower for her hair, poor girl!--regards us with a momentary speculation, and we get a whiff of foul language from two newsboys on the kerb. "we can't go on talking," the botanist begins, and ducks aside just in time to save his eye from the ferule of a stupidly held umbrella. he is going to treat our little tiff about that lady as closed. he has the air of picking up our conversation again at some earlier point. he steps into the gutter, walks round outside a negro hawker, just escapes the wheel of a hansom, and comes to my side again. "we can't go on talking of your utopia," he says, "in a noise and crowd like this." we are separated by a portly man going in the opposite direction, and join again. "we can't go on talking of utopia," he repeats, "in london.... up in the mountains--and holiday-time--it was all right. we let ourselves go!" "i've been living in utopia," i answer, tacitly adopting his tacit proposal to drop the lady out of the question. "at times," he says, with a queer laugh, "you've almost made me live there too." he reflects. "it doesn't do, you know. _no_! and i don't know whether, after all, i want----" we are separated again by half-a-dozen lifted flagstones, a burning brazier, and two engineers concerned with some underground business or other--in the busiest hour of the day's traffic. "why shouldn't it do?" i ask. "it spoils the world of everyday to let your mind run on impossible perfections." "i wish," i shout against the traffic, "i could _smash_ the world of everyday." my note becomes quarrelsome. "you may accept _this_ as the world of reality, _you_ may consent to be one scar in an ill-dressed compound wound, but so--not i! this is a dream too--this world. _your_ dream, and you bring me back to it--out of utopia----" the crossing of bow street gives me pause again. the face of a girl who is passing westward, a student girl, rather carelessly dressed, her books in a carrying-strap, comes across my field of vision. the westward sun of london glows upon her face. she has eyes that dream, surely no sensuous nor personal dream. after all, after all, dispersed, hidden, disorganised, undiscovered, unsuspected even by themselves, the samurai of utopia are in this world, the motives that are developed and organised there stir dumbly here and stifle in ten thousand futile hearts.... i overtake the botanist, who got ahead at the crossing by the advantage of a dust-cart. "you think this is real because you can't wake out of it," i say. "it's all a dream, and there are people--i'm just one of the first of a multitude--between sleeping and waking--who will presently be rubbing it out of their eyes." a pinched and dirty little girl, with sores upon her face, stretches out a bunch of wilting violets, in a pitifully thin little fist, and interrupts my speech. "bunch o' vi'lets--on'y a penny." "no!" i say curtly, hardening my heart. a ragged and filthy nursing mother, with her last addition to our imperial people on her arm, comes out of a drinkshop, and stands a little unsteadily, and wipes mouth and nose comprehensively with the back of a red chapped hand.... section "isn't _that_ reality?" says the botanist, almost triumphantly, and leaves me aghast at his triumph. "_that_!" i say belatedly. "it's a thing in a nightmare!" he shakes his head and smiles--exasperatingly. i perceive quite abruptly that the botanist and i have reached the limits of our intercourse. "the world dreams things like that," i say, "because it suffers from an indigestion of such people as you." his low-toned self-complacency, like the faded banner of an obstinate fort, still flies unconquered. and you know, he's not even a happy man with it all! for ten seconds or more i am furiously seeking in my mind for a word, for a term of abuse, for one compendious verbal missile that shall smash this man for ever. it has to express total inadequacy of imagination and will, spiritual anaemia, dull respectability, gross sentimentality, a cultivated pettiness of heart.... that word will not come. but no other word will do. indeed the word does not exist. there is nothing with sufficient vituperative concentration for this moral and intellectual stupidity of educated people.... "er----" he begins. no! i can't endure him. with a passionate rapidity of movement, i leave his side, dart between a carriage and a van, duck under the head of a cab-horse, and board a 'bus going westward somewhere--but anyhow, going in exactly the reverse direction to the botanist. i clamber up the steps and thread my swaying way to the seat immediately behind the driver. "there!" i say, as i whack myself down on the seat and pant. when i look round the botanist is out of sight. section but i am back in the world for all that, and my utopia is done. it is good discipline for the utopist to visit this world occasionally. but from the front seat on the top of an omnibus on a sunny september afternoon, the strand, and charing cross corner, and whitehall, and the great multitude of people, the great uproar of vehicles, streaming in all directions, is apt to look a world altogether too formidable. it has a glare, it has a tumult and vigour that shouts one down. it shouts one down, if shouting is to carry it. what good was it to trot along the pavement through this noise and tumult of life, pleading utopia to that botanist? what good would it be to recommend utopia in this driver's preoccupied ear? there are moments in the life of every philosopher and dreamer when he feels himself the flimsiest of absurdities, when the thing in being has its way with him, its triumphant way, when it asks in a roar, unanswerably, with a fine solid use of the current vernacular, "what good is all this--rot about utopias?" one inspects the thing in being with something of the diffident speculation of primitive man, peering from behind a tree at an angry elephant. (there is an omen in that image. on how many occasions must that ancestor of ours have had just the utopist's feeling of ambitious unreality, have decided that on the whole it was wiser to go very quietly home again, and leave the big beast alone? but, in the end, men rode upon the elephant's head, and guided him this way or that.... the thing in being that roars so tremendously about charing cross corner seems a bigger antagonist than an elephant, but then we have better weapons than chipped flint blades....) after all, in a very little time everything that impresses me so mightily this september afternoon will have changed or passed away for ever, everything. these omnibuses, these great, stalwart, crowded, many-coloured things that jostle one another, and make so handsome a clatter-clamour, will all have gone; they and their horses and drivers and organisation; you will come here and you will not find them. something else will be here, some different sort of vehicle, that is now perhaps the mere germ of an idea in some engineer student's brain. and this road and pavement will have changed, and these impressive great buildings; other buildings will be here, buildings that are as yet more impalpable than this page you read, more formless and flimsy by far than anything that is reasoned here. little plans sketched on paper, strokes of a pen or of a brush, will be the first materialisations of what will at last obliterate every detail and atom of these re-echoing actualities that overwhelm us now. and the clothing and gestures of these innumerable people, the character of their faces and bearing, these too will be recast in the spirit of what are now obscure and impalpable beginnings. the new things will be indeed of the substance of the thing that is, but differing just in the measure of the will and imagination that goes to make them. they will be strong and fair as the will is sturdy and organised and the imagination comprehensive and bold; they will be ugly and smeared with wretchedness as the will is fluctuating and the imagination timid and mean. indeed will is stronger than fact, it can mould and overcome fact. but this world has still to discover its will, it is a world that slumbers inertly, and all this roar and pulsation of life is no more than its heavy breathing.... my mind runs on to the thought of an awakening. as my omnibus goes lumbering up cockspur street through the clatter rattle of the cabs and carriages, there comes another fancy in my mind.... could one but realise an apocalyptic image and suppose an angel, such as was given to each of the seven churches of asia, given for a space to the service of the greater rule. i see him as a towering figure of flame and colour, standing between earth and sky, with a trumpet in his hands, over there above the haymarket, against the october glow; and when he sounds, all the samurai, all who are samurai in utopia, will know themselves and one another.... (whup! says a motor brougham, and a policeman stays the traffic with his hand.) all of us who partake of the samurai would know ourselves and one another! for a moment i have a vision of this resurrection of the living, of a vague, magnificent answer, of countless myriads at attention, of all that is fine in humanity at attention, round the compass of the earth. then that philosophy of individual uniqueness resumes its sway over my thoughts, and my dream of a world's awakening fades. i had forgotten.... things do not happen like that. god is not simple, god is not theatrical, the summons comes to each man in its due time for him, with an infinite subtlety of variety.... if that is so, what of my utopia? this infinite world must needs be flattened to get it on one retina. the picture of a solid thing, although it is flattened and simplified, is not necessarily a lie. surely, surely, in the end, by degrees, and steps, something of this sort, some such understanding, as this utopia must come. first here, then there, single men and then groups of men will fall into line--not indeed with my poor faulty hesitating suggestions--but with a great and comprehensive plan wrought out by many minds and in many tongues. it is just because my plan is faulty, because it mis-states so much, and omits so much, that they do not now fall in. it will not be like _my_ dream, the world that is coming. my dream is just my own poor dream, the thing sufficient for me. we fail in comprehension, we fail so variously and abundantly. we see as much as it is serviceable for us to see, and we see no further. but the fresh undaunted generations come to take on our work beyond our utmost effort, beyond the range of our ideas. they will learn with certainty things that to us are guesses and riddles.... there will be many utopias. each generation will have its new version of utopia, a little more certain and complete and real, with its problems lying closer and closer to the problems of the thing in being. until at last from dreams utopias will have come to be working drawings, and the whole world will be shaping the final world state, the fair and great and fruitful world state, that will only not be a utopia because it will be this world. so surely it must be---- the policeman drops his hand. "come up," says the 'bus driver, and the horses strain; "clitter, clatter, cluck, clak," the line of hurrying hansoms overtakes the omnibus going west. a dexterous lad on a bicycle with a bale of newspapers on his back dodges nimbly across the head of the column and vanishes up a side street. the omnibus sways forward. rapt and prophetic, his plump hands clasped round the handle of his umbrella, his billycock hat a trifle askew, this irascible little man of the voice, this impatient dreamer, this scolding optimist, who has argued so rudely and dogmatically about economics and philosophy and decoration, and indeed about everything under the sun, who has been so hard on the botanist and fashionable women, and so reluctant in the matter of beer, is carried onward, dreaming dreams, dreams that with all the inevitable ironies of difference, may be realities when you and i are dreams. he passes, and for a little space we are left with his egoisms and idiosyncrasies more or less in suspense. but why was he intruded? you ask. why could not a modern utopia be discussed without this impersonation--impersonally? it has confused the book, you say, made the argument hard to follow, and thrown a quality of insincerity over the whole. are we but mocking at utopias, you demand, using all these noble and generalised hopes as the backcloth against which two bickering personalities jar and squabble? do i mean we are never to view the promised land again except through a foreground of fellow-travellers? there is a common notion that the reading of a utopia should end with a swelling heart and clear resolves, with lists of names, formation of committees, and even the commencement of subscriptions. but this utopia began upon a philosophy of fragmentation, and ends, confusedly, amidst a gross tumult of immediate realities, in dust and doubt, with, at the best, one individual's aspiration. utopias were once in good faith, projects for a fresh creation of the world and of a most unworldly completeness; this so-called modern utopia is a mere story of personal adventures among utopian philosophies. indeed, that came about without the writer's intention. so it was the summoned vision came. for i see about me a great multitude of little souls and groups of souls as darkened, as derivative as my own; with the passage of years i understand more and more clearly the quality of the motives that urge me and urge them to do whatever we do.... yet that is not all i see, and i am not altogether bounded by my littleness. ever and again, contrasting with this immediate vision, come glimpses of a comprehensive scheme, in which these personalities float, the scheme of a synthetic wider being, the great state, mankind, in which we all move and go, like blood corpuscles, like nerve cells, it may be at times like brain cells, in the body of a man. but the two visions are not seen consistently together, at least by me, and i do not surely know that they exist consistently together. the motives needed for those wider issues come not into the interplay of my vanities and wishes. that greater scheme lies about the men and women i know, as i have tried to make the vistas and spaces, the mountains, cities, laws, and order of utopia lie about my talking couple, too great for their sustained comprehension. when one focuses upon these two that wide landscape becomes indistinct and distant, and when one regards that then the real persons one knows grow vague and unreal. nevertheless, i cannot separate these two aspects of human life, each commenting on the other. in that incongruity between great and individual inheres the incompatibility i could not resolve, and which, therefore, i have had to present in this conflicting form. at times that great scheme does seem to me to enter certain men's lives as a passion, as a real and living motive; there are those who know it almost as if it was a thing of desire; even for me, upon occasion, the little lures of the immediate life are seen small and vain, and the soul goes out to that mighty being, to apprehend it and serve it and possess. but this is an illumination that passes as it comes, a rare transitory lucidity, leaving the soul's desire suddenly turned to presumption and hypocrisy upon the lips. one grasps at the universe and attains--bathos. the hungers, the jealousies, the prejudices and habits have us again, and we are forced back to think that it is so, and not otherwise, that we are meant to serve the mysteries; that in these blinkers it is we are driven to an end we cannot understand. and then, for measured moments in the night watches or as one walks alone or while one sits in thought and speech with a friend, the wider aspirations glow again with a sincere emotion, with the colours of attainable desire.... that is my all about utopia, and about the desire and need for utopia, and how that planet lies to this planet that bears the daily lives of men. appendix scepticism of the instrument a portion of a paper read to the oxford philosophical society, november , , and reprinted, with some revision, from the version given in mind, vol. xiii. (n.s.), no. . (see also chapter i., section , and chapter x., sections and .) it seems to me that i may most propitiously attempt to interest you this evening by describing very briefly the particular metaphysical and philosophical system in which i do my thinking, and more particularly by setting out for your consideration one or two points in which i seem to myself to differ most widely from current accepted philosophy. you must be prepared for things that will strike you as crude, for a certain difference of accent and dialect that you may not like, and you must be prepared too to hear what may strike you as the clumsy statement of my ignorant rediscovery of things already beautifully thought out and said. but in the end you may incline to forgive me some of this first offence.... it is quite unavoidable that, in setting out these intellectual foundations of mine, i should lapse for a moment or so towards autobiography. a convergence of circumstances led to my having my knowledge of concrete things quite extensively developed before i came to philosophical examination at all. i have heard someone say that a savage or an animal is mentally a purely objective being, and in that respect i was like a savage or an animal until i was well over twenty. i was extremely unaware of the subjective or introverted element in my being. i was a positivist without knowing it. my early education was a feeble one; it was one in which my private observation, inquiry and experiment were far more important factors than any instruction, or rather perhaps the instruction i received was less even than what i learnt for myself, and it terminated at thirteen. i had come into pretty intimate contact with the harder realities of life, with hunger in various forms, and many base and disagreeable necessities, before i was fifteen. about that age, following the indication of certain theological and speculative curiosities, i began to learn something of what i will call deliberately and justly, elementary science--stuff i got out of cassell's popular educator and cheap text-books--and then, through accidents and ambitions that do not matter in the least to us now, i came to three years of illuminating and good scientific work. the central fact of those three years was huxley's course in comparative anatomy at the school in exhibition road. about that as a nucleus i arranged a spacious digest of facts. at the end of that time i had acquired what i still think to be a fairly clear, and complete and ordered view of the ostensibly real universe. let me try to give you the chief things i had. i had man definitely placed in the great scheme of space and time. i knew him incurably for what he was, finite and not final, a being of compromises and adaptations. i had traced his lungs, for example, from a swimming bladder, step by step, with scalpel and probe, through a dozen types or more, i had seen the ancestral caecum shrink to that disease nest, the appendix of to-day, i had watched the gill slit patched slowly to the purposes of the ear and the reptile jaw suspension utilised to eke out the needs of a sense organ taken from its native and natural water. i had worked out the development of those extraordinarily unsatisfactory and untrustworthy instruments, man's teeth, from the skin scutes of the shark to their present function as a basis for gold stoppings, and followed the slow unfolding of the complex and painful process of gestation through which man comes into the world. i had followed all these things and many kindred things by dissection and in embryology--i had checked the whole theory of development again in a year's course of palaeontology, and i had taken the dimensions of the whole process, by the scale of the stars, in a course of astronomical physics. and all that amount of objective elucidation came before i had reached the beginnings of any philosophical or metaphysical inquiry, any inquiry as to why i believed, how i believed, what i believed, or what the fundamental stuff of things was. now following hard upon this interlude with knowledge, came a time when i had to give myself to teaching, and it became advisable to acquire one of those teaching diplomas that are so widely and so foolishly despised, and that enterprise set me to a superficial, but suggestive study of educational method, of educational theory, of logic, of psychology, and so at last, when the little affair with the diploma was settled, to philosophy. now to come to logic over the bracing uplands of comparative anatomy is to come to logic with a lot of very natural preconceptions blown clean out of one's mind. it is, i submit, a way of taking logic in the flank. when you have realised to the marrow, that all the physical organs of man and all his physical structure are what they are through a series of adaptations and approximations, and that they are kept up to a level of practical efficiency only by the elimination of death, and that this is true also of his brain and of his instincts and of many of his mental predispositions, you are not going to take his thinking apparatus unquestioningly as being in any way mysteriously different and better. and i had read only a little logic before i became aware of implications that i could not agree with, and assumptions that seemed to me to be altogether at variance with the general scheme of objective fact established in my mind. i came to an examination of logical processes and of language with the expectation that they would share the profoundly provisional character, the character of irregular limitation and adaptation that pervades the whole physical and animal being of man. and i found the thing i had expected. and as a consequence i found a sort of intellectual hardihood about the assumptions of logic, that at first confused me and then roused all the latent scepticism in my mind. my first quarrel with the accepted logic i developed long ago in a little paper that was printed in the fortnightly review in july . it was called the "rediscovery of the unique," and re-reading it i perceive not only how bad and even annoying it was in manner--a thing i have long known--but also how remarkably bad it was in expression. i have good reason for doubting whether my powers of expression in these uses have very perceptibly improved, but at any rate i am doing my best now with that previous failure before me. that unfortunate paper, among other oversights i can no longer regard as trivial, disregarded quite completely the fact that a whole literature upon the antagonism of the one and the many, of the specific ideal and the individual reality, was already in existence. it defined no relations to other thought or thinkers. i understand now, what i did not understand then, why it was totally ignored. but the idea underlying that paper i cling to to-day. i consider it an idea that will ultimately be regarded as one of primary importance to human thought, and i will try and present the substance of that early paper again now very briefly, as the best opening of my general case. my opening scepticism is essentially a doubt of the objective reality of classification. i have no hesitation in saying that is the first and primary proposition of my philosophy. i have it in my mind that classification is a necessary condition of the working of the mental implement, but that it is a departure from the objective truth of things, that classification is very serviceable for the practical purposes of life but a very doubtful preliminary to those fine penetrations the philosophical purpose, in its more arrogant moods, demands. all the peculiarities of my way of thinking derive from that. a mind nourished upon anatomical study is of course permeated with the suggestion of the vagueness and instability of biological species. a biological species is quite obviously a great number of unique individuals which is separable from other biological species only by the fact that an enormous number of other linking individuals are inaccessible in time--are in other words dead and gone--and each new individual in that species does, in the distinction of its own individuality, break away in however infinitesimal degree from the previous average properties of the species. there is no property of any species, even the properties that constitute the specific definition, that is not a matter of more or less. if, for example, a species be distinguished by a single large red spot on the back, you will find if you go over a great number of specimens that red spot shrinking here to nothing, expanding there to a more general redness, weakening to pink, deepening to russet and brown, shading into crimson, and so on, and so on. and this is true not only of biological species. it is true of the mineral specimens constituting a mineral species, and i remember as a constant refrain in the lectures of prof. judd upon rock classification, the words "they pass into one another by insensible gradations." that is true, i hold, of all things. you will think perhaps of atoms of the elements as instances of identically similar things, but these are things not of experience but of theory, and there is not a phenomenon in chemistry that is not equally well explained on the supposition that it is merely the immense quantities of atoms necessarily taken in any experiment that mask by the operation of the law of averages the fact that each atom also has its unique quality, its special individual difference. this idea of uniqueness in all individuals is not only true of the classifications of material science; it is true, and still more evidently true, of the species of common thought, it is true of common terms. take the word chair. when one says chair, one thinks vaguely of an average chair. but collect individual instances, think of armchairs and reading chairs, and dining-room chairs and kitchen chairs, chairs that pass into benches, chairs that cross the boundary and become settees, dentists' chairs, thrones, opera stalls, seats of all sorts, those miraculous fungoid growths that cumber the floor of the arts and crafts exhibition, and you will perceive what a lax bundle in fact is this simple straightforward term. in co-operation with an intelligent joiner i would undertake to defeat any definition of chair or chairishness that you gave me. chairs just as much as individual organisms, just as much as mineral and rock specimens, are unique things--if you know them well enough you will find an individual difference even in a set of machine-made chairs--and it is only because we do not possess minds of unlimited capacity, because our brain has only a limited number of pigeon-holes for our correspondence with an unlimited universe of objective uniques, that we have to delude ourselves into the belief that there is a chairishness in this species common to and distinctive of all chairs. let me repeat; this is of the very smallest importance in all the practical affairs of life, or indeed in relation to anything but philosophy and wide generalisations. but in philosophy it matters profoundly. if i order two new-laid eggs for breakfast, up come two unhatched but still unique avian individuals, and the chances are they serve my rude physiological purpose. i can afford to ignore the hens' eggs of the past that were not quite so nearly this sort of thing, and the hens' eggs of the future that will accumulate modification age by age; i can venture to ignore the rare chance of an abnormality in chemical composition and of any startling aberration in my physiological reaction; i can, with a confidence that is practically perfect, say with unqualified simplicity "two eggs," but not if my concern is not my morning's breakfast but the utmost possible truth. now let me go on to point out whither this idea of uniqueness tends. i submit to you that syllogism is based on classification, that all hard logical reasoning tends to imply and is apt to imply a confidence in the objective reality of classification. consequently in denying that i deny the absolute validity of logic. classification and number, which in truth ignore the fine differences of objective realities, have in the past of human thought been imposed upon things. let me for clearness' sake take a liberty here--commit, as you may perhaps think, an unpardonable insolence. hindoo thought and greek thought alike impress me as being overmuch obsessed by an objective treatment of certain necessary preliminary conditions of human thought--number and definition and class and abstract form. but these things, number, definition, class and abstract form, i hold, are merely unavoidable conditions of mental activity--regrettable conditions rather than essential facts. the forceps of our minds are clumsy forceps, and crush the truth a little in taking hold of it. it was about this difficulty that the mind of plato played a little inconclusively all his life. for the most part he tended to regard the _idea_ as the something behind reality, whereas it seems to me that the idea is the more proximate and less perfect thing, the thing by which the mind, by ignoring individual differences, attempts to comprehend an otherwise unmanageable number of unique realities. let me give you a rough figure of what i am trying to convey in this first attack upon the philosophical validity of general terms. you have seen the results of those various methods of black and white reproduction that involve the use of a rectangular net. you know the sort of process picture i mean--it used to be employed very frequently in reproducing photographs. at a little distance you really seem to have a faithful reproduction of the original picture, but when you peer closely you find not the unique form and masses of the original, but a multitude of little rectangles, uniform in shape and size. the more earnestly you go into the thing, the closer you look, the more the picture is lost in reticulations. i submit the world of reasoned inquiry has a very similar relation to the world i call objectively real. for the rough purposes of every day the net-work picture will do, but the finer your purpose the less it will serve, and for an ideally fine purpose, for absolute and general knowledge that will be as true for a man at a distance with a telescope as for a man with a microscope it will not serve at all. it is true you can make your net of logical interpretation finer and finer, you can fine your classification more and more--up to a certain limit. but essentially you are working in limits, and as you come closer, as you look at finer and subtler things, as you leave the practical purpose for which the method exists, the element of error increases. every species is vague, every term goes cloudy at its edges, and so in my way of thinking, relentless logic is only another phrase for a stupidity,--for a sort of intellectual pigheadedness. if you push a philosophical or metaphysical inquiry through a series of valid syllogisms--never committing any generally recognised fallacy--you nevertheless leave a certain rubbing and marginal loss of objective truth and you get deflections that are difficult to trace, at each phase in the process. every species waggles about in its definition, every tool is a little loose in its handle, every scale has its individual error. so long as you are reasoning for practical purposes about the finite things of experience, you can every now and then check your process, and correct your adjustments. but not when you make what are called philosophical and theological inquiries, when you turn your implement towards the final absolute truth of things. doing that is like firing at an inaccessible, unmarkable and indestructible target at an unknown distance, with a defective rifle and variable cartridges. even if by chance you hit, you cannot know that you hit, and so it will matter nothing at all. this assertion of the necessary untrustworthiness of all reasoning processes arising out of the fallacy of classification in what is quite conceivably a universe of uniques, forms only one introductory aspect of my general scepticism of the instrument of thought. i have now to tell you of another aspect of this scepticism of the instrument which concerns negative terms. classes in logic are not only represented by circles with a hard firm outline, whereas they have no such definite limits, but also there is a constant disposition to think of negative terms as if they represented positive classes. with words just as with numbers and abstract forms there are definite phases of human development. there is, you know, with regard to number, the phase when man can barely count at all, or counts in perfect good faith and sanity upon his fingers. then there is the phase when he is struggling with the development of number, when he begins to elaborate all sorts of ideas about numbers, until at last he develops complex superstitions about perfect numbers and imperfect numbers, about threes and sevens and the like. the same is the case with abstracted forms, and even to-day we are scarcely more than heads out of the vast subtle muddle of thinking about spheres and ideally perfect forms and so on, that was the price of this little necessary step to clear thinking. you know better than i do how large a part numerical and geometrical magic, numerical and geometrical philosophy has played in the history of the mind. and the whole apparatus of language and mental communication is beset with like dangers. the language of the savage is, i suppose, purely positive; the thing has a name, the name has a thing. this indeed is the tradition of language, and to-day even, we, when we hear a name, are predisposed--and sometimes it is a very vicious disposition--to imagine forthwith something answering to the name. we are disposed, as an incurable mental vice, to accumulate intension in terms. if i say to you wodget or crump, you find yourself passing over the fact that these are nothings, these are, so to speak, mere blankety blanks, and trying to think what sort of thing a wodget or a crump may be. and where this disposition has come in, in its most alluring guise, is in the case of negative terms. our instrument of knowledge persists in handling even such openly negative terms as the absolute, the infinite, as though they were real existences, and when the negative element is ever so little disguised, as it is in such a word as omniscience, then the illusion of positive reality may be complete. please remember that i am trying to tell you my philosophy, and not arguing about yours. let me try and express how in my mind this matter of negative terms has shaped itself. i think of something which i may perhaps best describe as being off the stage or out of court, or as the void without implications, or as nothingness or as outer darkness. this is a sort of hypothetical beyond to the visible world of human thought, and thither i think all negative terms reach at last, and merge and become nothing. whatever positive class you make, whatever boundary you draw, straight away from that boundary begins the corresponding negative class and passes into the illimitable horizon of nothingness. you talk of pink things, you ignore, if you are a trained logician, the more elusive shades of pink, and draw your line. beyond is the not pink, known and knowable, and still in the not pink region one comes to the outer darkness. not blue, not happy, not iron, all the not classes meet in that outer darkness. that same outer darkness and nothingness is infinite space, and infinite time, and any being of infinite qualities, and all that region i rule out of court in my philosophy altogether. i will neither affirm nor deny if i can help it about any not things. i will not deal with not things at all, except by accident and inadvertence. if i use the word 'infinite' i use it as one often uses 'countless,' "the countless hosts of the enemy"--or 'immeasurable'--"immeasurable cliffs"--that is to say as the limit of measurement rather than as the limit of imaginary measurability, as a convenient equivalent to as many times this cloth yard as you can, and as many again and so on and so on. now a great number of apparently positive terms are, or have become, practically negative terms and are under the same ban with me. a considerable number of terms that have played a great part in the world of thought, seem to me to be invalidated by this same defect, to have no content or an undefined content or an unjustifiable content. for example, that word omniscient, as implying infinite knowledge, impresses me as being a word with a delusive air of being solid and full, when it is really hollow with no content whatever. i am persuaded that knowing is the relation of a conscious being to something not itself, that the thing known is defined as a system of parts and aspects and relationships, that knowledge is comprehension, and so that only finite things can know or be known. when you talk of a being of infinite extension and infinite duration, omniscient and omnipotent and perfect, you seem to me to be talking in negatives of nothing whatever. when you speak of the absolute you speak to me of nothing. if however you talk of a great yet finite and thinkable being, a being not myself, extending beyond my imagination in time and space, knowing all that i can think of as known and capable of doing all that i can think of as done, you come into the sphere of my mental operations, and into the scheme of my philosophy.... these then are my first two charges against our instrument of knowledge, firstly, that it can work only by disregarding individuality and treating uniques as identically similar objects in this respect or that, so as to group them under one term, and that once it has done so it tends automatically to intensify the significance of that term, and secondly, that it can only deal freely with negative terms by treating them as though they were positive. but i have a further objection to the instrument of human thought, that is not correlated to these former objections and that is also rather more difficult to convey. essentially this idea is to present a sort of stratification in human ideas. i have it very much in mind that various terms in our reasoning lie, as it were, at different levels and in different planes, and that we accomplish a large amount of error and confusion by reasoning terms together that do not lie or nearly lie in the same plane. let me endeavour to make myself a little less obscure by a most flagrant instance from physical things. suppose some one began to talk seriously of a man seeing an atom through a microscope, or better perhaps of cutting one in half with a knife. there are a number of non-analytical people who would be quite prepared to believe that an atom could be visible to the eye or cut in this manner. but any one at all conversant with physical conceptions would almost as soon think of killing the square root of with a rook rifle as of cutting an atom in half with a knife. our conception of an atom is reached through a process of hypothesis and analysis, and in the world of atoms there are no knives and no men to cut. if you have thought with a strong consistent mental movement, then when you have thought of your atom under the knife blade, your knife blade has itself become a cloud of swinging grouped atoms, and your microscope lens a little universe of oscillatory and vibratory molecules. if you think of the universe, thinking at the level of atoms, there is neither knife to cut, scale to weigh nor eye to see. the universe at that plane to which the mind of the molecular physicist descends has none of the shapes or forms of our common life whatever. this hand with which i write is in the universe of molecular physics a cloud of warring atoms and molecules, combining and recombining, colliding, rotating, flying hither and thither in the universal atmosphere of ether. you see, i hope, what i mean, when i say that the universe of molecular physics is at a different level from the universe of common experience;--what we call stable and solid is in that world a freely moving system of interlacing centres of force, what we call colour and sound is there no more than this length of vibration or that. we have reached to a conception of that universe of molecular physics by a great enterprise of organised analysis, and our universe of daily experiences stands in relation to that elemental world as if it were a synthesis of those elemental things. i would suggest to you that this is only a very extreme instance of the general state of affairs, that there may be finer and subtler differences of level between one term and another, and that terms may very well be thought of as lying obliquely and as being twisted through different levels. it will perhaps give a clearer idea of what i am seeking to convey if i suggest a concrete image for the whole world of a man's thought and knowledge. imagine a large clear jelly, in which at all angles and in all states of simplicity or contortion his ideas are imbedded. they are all valid and possible ideas as they lie, none in reality incompatible with any. if you imagine the direction of up or down in this clear jelly being as it were the direction in which one moves by analysis or by synthesis, if you go down for example from matter to atoms and centres of force and up to men and states and countries--if you will imagine the ideas lying in that manner--you will get the beginning of my intention. but our instrument, our process of thinking, like a drawing before the discovery of perspective, appears to have difficulties with the third dimension, appears capable only of dealing with or reasoning about ideas by projecting them upon the same plane. it will be obvious that a great multitude of things may very well exist together in a solid jelly, which would be overlapping and incompatible and mutually destructive, when projected together upon one plane. through the bias in our instrument to do this, through reasoning between terms not in the same plane, an enormous amount of confusion, perplexity and mental deadlocking occurs. the old theological deadlock between predestination and free-will serves admirably as an example of the sort of deadlock i mean. take life at the level of common sensation and common experience and there is no more indisputable fact than man's freedom of will, unless it is his complete moral responsibility. but make only the least penetrating of analyses and you perceive a world of inevitable consequences, a rigid succession of cause and effect. insist upon a flat agreement between the two, and there you are! the instrument fails. it is upon these three objections, and upon an extreme suspicion of abstract terms which arises materially out of my first and second objections, that i chiefly rest my case for a profound scepticism of the remoter possibilities of the instrument of thought. it is a thing no more perfect than the human eye or the human ear, though like those other instruments it may have undefined possibilities of evolution towards increased range, and increased power. so much for my main contention. but before i conclude i may--since i am here--say a little more in the autobiographical vein, and with a view to your discussion to show how i reconcile this fundamental scepticism with the very positive beliefs about world-wide issues i possess, and the very definite distinction i make between right and wrong. i reconcile these things by simply pointing out to you that if there is any validity in my image of that three dimensional jelly in which our ideas are suspended, such a reconciliation as you demand in logic, such a projection of the things as in accordance upon one plane, is totally unnecessary and impossible. this insistence upon the element of uniqueness in being, this subordination of the class to the individual difference, not only destroys the universal claim of philosophy, but the universal claim of ethical imperatives, the universal claim of any religious teaching. if you press me back upon my fundamental position i must confess i put faith and standards and rules of conduct upon exactly the same level as i put my belief of what is right in art, and what i consider right practice in art. i have arrived at a certain sort of self-knowledge and there are, i find, very distinct imperatives for me, but i am quite prepared to admit there is no proving them imperative on any one else. one's political proceedings, one's moral acts are, i hold, just as much self-expression as one's poetry or painting or music. but since life has for its primordial elements assimilation and aggression, i try not only to obey my imperatives, but to put them persuasively and convincingly into other minds, to bring about _my_ good and to resist and overcome _my_ evil as though they were the universal good and the universal evil in which unthinking men believe. and it is obviously in no way contradictory to this philosophy, for me, if i find others responding sympathetically to any notes of mine or if i find myself responding sympathetically to notes sounding about me, to give that common resemblance between myself and others a name, to refer these others and myself in common to this thing as if it were externalised and spanned us all. scepticism of the instrument is for example not incompatible with religious association and with organisation upon the basis of a common faith. it is possible to regard god as a being synthetic in relation to men and societies, just as the idea of a universe of atoms and molecules and inorganic relationships is analytical in relation to human life. the repudiation of demonstration in any but immediate and verifiable cases that this scepticism of the instrument amounts to, the abandonment of any universal validity for moral and religious propositions, brings ethical, social and religious teaching into the province of poetry, and does something to correct the estrangement between knowledge and beauty that is a feature of so much mental existence at this time. all these things are self-expression. such an opinion sets a new and greater value on that penetrating and illuminating quality of mind we call insight, insight which when it faces towards the contradictions that arise out of the imperfections of the mental instrument is called humour. in these innate, unteachable qualities i hold--in humour and the sense of beauty--lies such hope of intellectual salvation from the original sin of our intellectual instrument as we may entertain in this uncertain and fluctuating world of unique appearances.... so frankly i spread my little equipment of fundamental assumptions before you, heartily glad of the opportunity you have given me of taking them out, of looking at them with the particularity the presence of hearers ensures, and of hearing the impression they make upon you. of course, such a sketch must have an inevitable crudity of effect. the time i had for it--i mean the time i was able to give in preparation--was altogether too limited for any exhaustive finish of presentation; but i think on the whole i have got the main lines of this sketch map of my mental basis true. whether i have made myself comprehensible is a different question altogether. it is for you rather than me to say how this sketch map of mine lies with regard to your own more systematic cartography.... here followed certain comments upon personal idealism, and mr. f. c. s. schiller's humanism, of no particular value. the history of mr. polly by h. g. wells chapter the first beginnings, and the bazaar i "hole!" said mr. polly, and then for a change, and with greatly increased emphasis: "'ole!" he paused, and then broke out with one of his private and peculiar idioms. "oh! beastly silly wheeze of a hole!" he was sitting on a stile between two threadbare looking fields, and suffering acutely from indigestion. he suffered from indigestion now nearly every afternoon in his life, but as he lacked introspection he projected the associated discomfort upon the world. every afternoon he discovered afresh that life as a whole and every aspect of life that presented itself was "beastly." and this afternoon, lured by the delusive blueness of a sky that was blue because the wind was in the east, he had come out in the hope of snatching something of the joyousness of spring. the mysterious alchemy of mind and body refused, however, to permit any joyousness whatever in the spring. he had had a little difficulty in finding his cap before he came out. he wanted his cap--the new golf cap--and mrs. polly must needs fish out his old soft brown felt hat. "'_ere's_ your 'at," she said in a tone of insincere encouragement. he had been routing among the piled newspapers under the kitchen dresser, and had turned quite hopefully and taken the thing. he put it on. but it didn't feel right. nothing felt right. he put a trembling hand upon the crown of the thing and pressed it on his head, and tried it askew to the right and then askew to the left. then the full sense of the indignity offered him came home to him. the hat masked the upper sinister quarter of his face, and he spoke with a wrathful eye regarding his wife from under the brim. in a voice thick with fury he said: "i s'pose you'd like me to wear that silly mud pie for ever, eh? i tell you i won't. i'm sick of it. i'm pretty near sick of everything, comes to that.... hat!" he clutched it with quivering fingers. "hat!" he repeated. then he flung it to the ground, and kicked it with extraordinary fury across the kitchen. it flew up against the door and dropped to the ground with its ribbon band half off. "shan't go out!" he said, and sticking his hands into his jacket pockets discovered the missing cap in the right one. there was nothing for it but to go straight upstairs without a word, and out, slamming the shop door hard. "beauty!" said mrs. polly at last to a tremendous silence, picking up and dusting the rejected headdress. "tantrums," she added. "i 'aven't patience." and moving with the slow reluctance of a deeply offended woman, she began to pile together the simple apparatus of their recent meal, for transportation to the scullery sink. the repast she had prepared for him did not seem to her to justify his ingratitude. there had been the cold pork from sunday and some nice cold potatoes, and rashdall's mixed pickles, of which he was inordinately fond. he had eaten three gherkins, two onions, a small cauliflower head and several capers with every appearance of appetite, and indeed with avidity; and then there had been cold suet pudding to follow, with treacle, and then a nice bit of cheese. it was the pale, hard sort of cheese he liked; red cheese he declared was indigestible. he had also had three big slices of greyish baker's bread, and had drunk the best part of the jugful of beer.... but there seems to be no pleasing some people. "tantrums!" said mrs. polly at the sink, struggling with the mustard on his plate and expressing the only solution of the problem that occurred to her. and mr. polly sat on the stile and hated the whole scheme of life--which was at once excessive and inadequate as a solution. he hated foxbourne, he hated foxbourne high street, he hated his shop and his wife and his neighbours--every blessed neighbour--and with indescribable bitterness he hated himself. "why did i ever get in this silly hole?" he said. "why did i ever?" he sat on the stile, and looked with eyes that seemed blurred with impalpable flaws at a world in which even the spring buds were wilted, the sunlight metallic and the shadows mixed with blue-black ink. to the moralist i know he might have served as a figure of sinful discontent, but that is because it is the habit of moralists to ignore material circumstances,--if indeed one may speak of a recent meal as a circumstance,--with mr. polly _circum_. drink, indeed, our teachers will criticise nowadays both as regards quantity and quality, but neither church nor state nor school will raise a warning finger between a man and his hunger and his wife's catering. so on nearly every day in his life mr. polly fell into a violent rage and hatred against the outer world in the afternoon, and never suspected that it was this inner world to which i am with such masterly delicacy alluding, that was thus reflecting its sinister disorder upon the things without. it is a pity that some human beings are not more transparent. if mr. polly, for example, had been transparent or even passably translucent, then perhaps he might have realised from the laocoon struggle he would have glimpsed, that indeed he was not so much a human being as a civil war. wonderful things must have been going on inside mr. polly. oh! wonderful things. it must have been like a badly managed industrial city during a period of depression; agitators, acts of violence, strikes, the forces of law and order doing their best, rushings to and fro, upheavals, the _marseillaise_, tumbrils, the rumble and the thunder of the tumbrils.... i do not know why the east wind aggravates life to unhealthy people. it made mr. polly's teeth seem loose in his head, and his skin feel like a misfit, and his hair a dry, stringy exasperation.... why cannot doctors give us an antidote to the east wind? "never have the sense to get your hair cut till it's too long," said mr. polly catching sight of his shadow, "you blighted, degenerated paintbrush! ugh!" and he flattened down the projecting tails with an urgent hand. ii mr. polly's age was exactly thirty-five years and a half. he was a short, compact figure, and a little inclined to a localised _embonpoint_. his face was not unpleasing; the features fine, but a trifle too pointed about the nose to be classically perfect. the corners of his sensitive mouth were depressed. his eyes were ruddy brown and troubled, and the left one was round with more of wonder in it than its fellow. his complexion was dull and yellowish. that, as i have explained, on account of those civil disturbances. he was, in the technical sense of the word, clean shaved, with a small sallow patch under the right ear and a cut on the chin. his brow had the little puckerings of a thoroughly discontented man, little wrinklings and lumps, particularly over his right eye, and he sat with his hands in his pockets, a little askew on the stile and swung one leg. "hole!" he repeated presently. he broke into a quavering song. "ro-o-o-tten be-e-astly silly hole!" his voice thickened with rage, and the rest of his discourse was marred by an unfortunate choice of epithets. he was dressed in a shabby black morning coat and vest; the braid that bound these garments was a little loose in places; his collar was chosen from stock and with projecting corners, technically a "wing-poke"; that and his tie, which was new and loose and rich in colouring, had been selected to encourage and stimulate customers--for he dealt in gentlemen's outfitting. his golf cap, which was also from stock and aslant over his eye, gave his misery a desperate touch. he wore brown leather boots--because he hated the smell of blacking. perhaps after all it was not simply indigestion that troubled him. behind the superficialities of mr. polly's being, moved a larger and vaguer distress. the elementary education he had acquired had left him with the impression that arithmetic was a fluky science and best avoided in practical affairs, but even the absence of book-keeping and a total inability to distinguish between capital and interest could not blind him for ever to the fact that the little shop in the high street was not paying. an absence of returns, a constriction of credit, a depleted till, the most valiant resolves to keep smiling, could not prevail for ever against these insistent phenomena. one might bustle about in the morning before dinner, and in the afternoon after tea and forget that huge dark cloud of insolvency that gathered and spread in the background, but it was part of the desolation of these afternoon periods, these grey spaces of time after meals, when all one's courage had descended to the unseen battles of the pit, that life seemed stripped to the bone and one saw with a hopeless clearness. let me tell the history of mr. polly from the cradle to these present difficulties. "first the infant, mewling and puking in its nurse's arms." there had been a time when two people had thought mr. polly the most wonderful and adorable thing in the world, had kissed his toe-nails, saying "myum, myum," and marvelled at the exquisite softness and delicacy of his hair, had called to one another to remark the peculiar distinction with which he bubbled, had disputed whether the sound he had made was _just da da_, or truly and intentionally dadda, had washed him in the utmost detail, and wrapped him up in soft, warm blankets, and smothered him with kisses. a regal time that was, and four and thirty years ago; and a merciful forgetfulness barred mr. polly from ever bringing its careless luxury, its autocratic demands and instant obedience, into contrast with his present condition of life. these two people had worshipped him from the crown of his head to the soles of his exquisite feet. and also they had fed him rather unwisely, for no one had ever troubled to teach his mother anything about the mysteries of a child's upbringing--though of course the monthly nurse and her charwoman gave some valuable hints--and by his fifth birthday the perfect rhythms of his nice new interior were already darkened with perplexity .... his mother died when he was seven. he began only to have distinctive memories of himself in the time when his education had already begun. i remember seeing a picture of education--in some place. i think it was education, but quite conceivably it represented the empire teaching her sons, and i have a strong impression that it was a wall painting upon some public building in manchester or birmingham or glasgow, but very possibly i am mistaken about that. it represented a glorious woman with a wise and fearless face stooping over her children and pointing them to far horizons. the sky displayed the pearly warmth of a summer dawn, and all the painting was marvellously bright as if with the youth and hope of the delicately beautiful children in the foreground. she was telling them, one felt, of the great prospect of life that opened before them, of the spectacle of the world, the splendours of sea and mountain they might travel and see, the joys of skill they might acquire, of effort and the pride of effort and the devotions and nobilities it was theirs to achieve. perhaps even she whispered of the warm triumphant mystery of love that comes at last to those who have patience and unblemished hearts.... she was reminding them of their great heritage as english children, rulers of more than one-fifth of mankind, of the obligation to do and be the best that such a pride of empire entails, of their essential nobility and knighthood and the restraints and the charities and the disciplined strength that is becoming in knights and rulers.... the education of mr. polly did not follow this picture very closely. he went for some time to a national school, which was run on severely economical lines to keep down the rates by a largely untrained staff, he was set sums to do that he did not understand, and that no one made him understand, he was made to read the catechism and bible with the utmost industry and an entire disregard of punctuation or significance, and caused to imitate writing copies and drawing copies, and given object lessons upon sealing wax and silk-worms and potato bugs and ginger and iron and such like things, and taught various other subjects his mind refused to entertain, and afterwards, when he was about twelve, he was jerked by his parent to "finish off" in a private school of dingy aspect and still dingier pretensions, where there were no object lessons, and the studies of book-keeping and french were pursued (but never effectually overtaken) under the guidance of an elderly gentleman who wore a nondescript gown and took snuff, wrote copperplate, explained nothing, and used a cane with remarkable dexterity and gusto. mr. polly went into the national school at six and he left the private school at fourteen, and by that time his mind was in much the same state that you would be in, dear reader, if you were operated upon for appendicitis by a well-meaning, boldly enterprising, but rather over-worked and under-paid butcher boy, who was superseded towards the climax of the operation by a left-handed clerk of high principles but intemperate habits,--that is to say, it was in a thorough mess. the nice little curiosities and willingnesses of a child were in a jumbled and thwarted condition, hacked and cut about--the operators had left, so to speak, all their sponges and ligatures in the mangled confusion--and mr. polly had lost much of his natural confidence, so far as figures and sciences and languages and the possibilities of learning things were concerned. he thought of the present world no longer as a wonderland of experiences, but as geography and history, as the repeating of names that were hard to pronounce, and lists of products and populations and heights and lengths, and as lists and dates--oh! and boredom indescribable. he thought of religion as the recital of more or less incomprehensible words that were hard to remember, and of the divinity as of a limitless being having the nature of a schoolmaster and making infinite rules, known and unknown rules, that were always ruthlessly enforced, and with an infinite capacity for punishment and, most horrible of all to think of! limitless powers of espial. (so to the best of his ability he did not think of that unrelenting eye.) he was uncertain about the spelling and pronunciation of most of the words in our beautiful but abundant and perplexing tongue,--that especially was a pity because words attracted him, and under happier conditions he might have used them well--he was always doubtful whether it was eight sevens or nine eights that was sixty-three--(he knew no method for settling the difficulty) and he thought the merit of a drawing consisted in the care with which it was "lined in." "lining in" bored him beyond measure. but the _indigestions_ of mind and body that were to play so large a part in his subsequent career were still only beginning. his liver and his gastric juice, his wonder and imagination kept up a fight against the things that threatened to overwhelm soul and body together. outside the regions devastated by the school curriculum he was still intensely curious. he had cheerful phases of enterprise, and about thirteen he suddenly discovered reading and its joys. he began to read stories voraciously, and books of travel, provided they were also adventurous. he got these chiefly from the local institute, and he also "took in," irregularly but thoroughly, one of those inspiring weeklies that dull people used to call "penny dreadfuls," admirable weeklies crammed with imagination that the cheap boys' "comics" of to-day have replaced. at fourteen, when he emerged from the valley of the shadow of education, there survived something, indeed it survived still, obscured and thwarted, at five and thirty, that pointed--not with a visible and prevailing finger like the finger of that beautiful woman in the picture, but pointed nevertheless--to the idea that there was interest and happiness in the world. deep in the being of mr. polly, deep in that darkness, like a creature which has been beaten about the head and left for dead but still lives, crawled a persuasion that over and above the things that are jolly and "bits of all right," there was beauty, there was delight, that somewhere--magically inaccessible perhaps, but still somewhere, were pure and easy and joyous states of body and mind. he would sneak out on moonless winter nights and stare up at the stars, and afterwards find it difficult to tell his father where he had been. he would read tales about hunters and explorers, and imagine himself riding mustangs as fleet as the wind across the prairies of western america, or coming as a conquering and adored white man into the swarming villages of central africa. he shot bears with a revolver--a cigarette in the other hand--and made a necklace of their teeth and claws for the chief's beautiful young daughter. also he killed a lion with a pointed stake, stabbing through the beast's heart as it stood over him. he thought it would be splendid to be a diver and go down into the dark green mysteries of the sea. he led stormers against well-nigh impregnable forts, and died on the ramparts at the moment of victory. (his grave was watered by a nation's tears.) he rammed and torpedoed ships, one against ten. he was beloved by queens in barbaric lands, and reconciled whole nations to the christian faith. he was martyred, and took it very calmly and beautifully--but only once or twice after the revivalist week. it did not become a habit with him. he explored the amazon, and found, newly exposed by the fall of a great tree, a rock of gold. engaged in these pursuits he would neglect the work immediately in hand, sitting somewhat slackly on the form and projecting himself in a manner tempting to a schoolmaster with a cane.... and twice he had books confiscated. recalled to the realities of life, he would rub himself or sigh deeply as the occasion required, and resume his attempts to write as good as copperplate. he hated writing; the ink always crept up his fingers and the smell of ink offended him. and he was filled with unexpressed doubts. _why_ should writing slope down from right to left? _why_ should downstrokes be thick and upstrokes thin? _why_ should the handle of one's pen point over one's right shoulder? his copy books towards the end foreshadowed his destiny and took the form of commercial documents. "_dear sir_," they ran, "_referring to your esteemed order of the th ult., we beg to inform you_," and so on. the compression of mr. polly's mind and soul in the educational institutions of his time, was terminated abruptly by his father between his fourteenth and fifteenth birthday. his father--who had long since forgotten the time when his son's little limbs seemed to have come straight from god's hand, and when he had kissed five minute toe-nails in a rapture of loving tenderness--remarked: "it's time that dratted boy did something for a living." and a month or so later mr. polly began that career in business that led him at last to the sole proprietorship of a bankrupt outfitter's shop--and to the stile on which he was sitting. iii mr. polly was not naturally interested in hosiery and gentlemen's outfitting. at times, indeed, he urged himself to a spurious curiosity about that trade, but presently something more congenial came along and checked the effort. he was apprenticed in one of those large, rather low-class establishments which sell everything, from pianos and furniture to books and millinery, a department store in fact, the port burdock drapery bazaar at port burdock, one of the three townships that are grouped around the port burdock naval dockyards. there he remained six years. he spent most of the time inattentive to business, in a sort of uncomfortable happiness, increasing his indigestion. on the whole he preferred business to school; the hours were longer but the tension was not nearly so great. the place was better aired, you were not kept in for no reason at all, and the cane was not employed. you watched the growth of your moustache with interest and impatience, and mastered the beginnings of social intercourse. you talked, and found there were things amusing to say. also you had regular pocket money, and a voice in the purchase of your clothes, and presently a small salary. and there were girls. and friendship! in the retrospect port burdock sparkled with the facets of quite a cluster of remembered jolly times. ("didn't save much money though," said mr. polly.) the first apprentices' dormitory was a long bleak room with six beds, six chests of drawers and looking glasses and a number of boxes of wood or tin; it opened into a still longer and bleaker room of eight beds, and this into a third apartment with yellow grained paper and american cloth tables, which was the dining-room by day and the men's sitting-and smoking-room after nine. here mr. polly, who had been an only child, first tasted the joys of social intercourse. at first there were attempts to bully him on account of his refusal to consider face washing a diurnal duty, but two fights with the apprentices next above him, established a useful reputation for choler, and the presence of girl apprentices in the shop somehow raised his standard of cleanliness to a more acceptable level. he didn't of course have very much to do with the feminine staff in his department, but he spoke to them casually as he traversed foreign parts of the bazaar, or got out of their way politely, or helped them to lift down heavy boxes, and on such occasions he felt their scrutiny. except in the course of business or at meal times the men and women of the establishment had very little opportunity of meeting; the men were in their rooms and the girls in theirs. yet these feminine creatures, at once so near and so remote, affected him profoundly. he would watch them going to and fro, and marvel secretly at the beauty of their hair or the roundness of their necks or the warm softness of their cheeks or the delicacy of their hands. he would fall into passions for them at dinner time, and try and show devotions by his manner of passing the bread and margarine at tea. there was a very fair-haired, fair-skinned apprentice in the adjacent haberdashery to whom he said "good-morning" every morning, and for a period it seemed to him the most significant event in his day. when she said, "i _do_ hope it will be fine to-morrow," he felt it marked an epoch. he had had no sisters, and was innately disposed to worship womankind. but he did not betray as much to platt and parsons. to platt and parsons he affected an attitude of seasoned depravity towards womankind. platt and parsons were his contemporary apprentices in departments of the drapery shop, and the three were drawn together into a close friendship by the fact that all their names began with p. they decided they were the three ps, and went about together of an evening with the bearing of desperate dogs. sometimes, when they had money, they went into public houses and had drinks. then they would become more desperate than ever, and walk along the pavement under the gas lamps arm in arm singing. platt had a good tenor voice, and had been in a church choir, and so he led the singing; parsons had a serviceable bellow, which roared and faded and roared again very wonderfully; mr. polly's share was an extraordinary lowing noise, a sort of flat recitative which he called "singing seconds." they would have sung catches if they had known how to do it, but as it was they sang melancholy music hall songs about dying soldiers and the old folks far away. they would sometimes go into the quieter residential quarters of port burdock, where policemen and other obstacles were infrequent, and really let their voices soar like hawks and feel very happy. the dogs of the district would be stirred to hopeless emulation, and would keep it up for long after the three ps had been swallowed up by the night. one jealous brute of an irish terrier made a gallant attempt to bite parsons, but was beaten by numbers and solidarity. the three ps took the utmost interest in each other and found no other company so good. they talked about everything in the world, and would go on talking in their dormitory after the gas was out until the other men were reduced to throwing boots; they skulked from their departments in the slack hours of the afternoon to gossip in the packing-room of the warehouse; on sundays and bank holidays they went for long walks together, talking. platt was white-faced and dark, and disposed to undertones and mystery and a curiosity about society and the _demi-monde_. he kept himself _au courant_ by reading a penny paper of infinite suggestion called _modern society_. parsons was of an ampler build, already promising fatness, with curly hair and a lot of rolling, rollicking, curly features, and a large blob-shaped nose. he had a great memory and a real interest in literature. he knew great portions of shakespeare and milton by heart, and would recite them at the slightest provocation. he read everything he could get hold of, and if he liked it he read it aloud. it did not matter who else liked it. at first mr. polly was disposed to be suspicious of this literature, but was carried away by parsons' enthusiasm. the three ps went to a performance of "romeo and juliet" at the port burdock theatre royal, and hung over the gallery fascinated. after that they made a sort of password of: "do you bite your thumbs at us, sir?" to which the countersign was: "we bite our thumbs." for weeks the glory of shakespeare's verona lit mr. polly's life. he walked as though he carried a sword at his side, and swung a mantle from his shoulders. he went through the grimy streets of port burdock with his eye on the first floor windows--looking for balconies. a ladder in the yard flooded his mind with romantic ideas. then parsons discovered an italian writer, whose name mr. polly rendered as "bocashieu," and after some excursions into that author's remains the talk of parsons became infested with the word "_amours_," and mr. polly would stand in front of his hosiery fixtures trifling with paper and string and thinking of perennial picnics under dark olive trees in the everlasting sunshine of italy. and about that time it was that all three ps adopted turn-down collars and large, loose, artistic silk ties, which they tied very much on one side and wore with an air of defiance. and a certain swashbuckling carriage. and then came the glorious revelation of that great frenchman whom mr. polly called "rabooloose." the three ps thought the birth feast of gargantua the most glorious piece of writing in the world, and i am not certain they were wrong, and on wet sunday evenings where there was danger of hymn singing they would get parsons to read it aloud. towards the several members of the y. m. c. a. who shared the dormitory, the three ps always maintained a sarcastic and defiant attitude. "we got a perfect right to do what we like in our corner," platt maintained. "you do what you like in yours." "but the language!" objected morrison, the white-faced, earnest-eyed improver, who was leading a profoundly religious life under great difficulties. "_language_, man!" roared parsons, "why, it's _literature_!" "sunday isn't the time for literature." "it's the only time we've got. and besides--" the horrors of religious controversy would begin.... mr. polly stuck loyally to the three ps, but in the secret places of his heart he was torn. a fire of conviction burnt in morrison's eyes and spoke in his urgent persuasive voice; he lived the better life manifestly, chaste in word and deed, industrious, studiously kindly. when the junior apprentice had sore feet and homesickness morrison washed the feet and comforted the heart, and he helped other men to get through with their work when he might have gone early, a superhuman thing to do. polly was secretly a little afraid to be left alone with this man and the power of the spirit that was in him. he felt watched. platt, also struggling with things his mind could not contrive to reconcile, said "that confounded hypocrite." "he's no hypocrite," said parsons, "he's no hypocrite, o' man. but he's got no blessed joy de vive; that's what's wrong with him. let's go down to the harbour arms and see some of those blessed old captains getting drunk." "short of sugar, o' man," said mr. polly, slapping his trouser pocket. "oh, _carm_ on," said parsons. "always do it on tuppence for a bitter." "lemme get my pipe on," said platt, who had recently taken to smoking with great ferocity. "then i'm with you." pause and struggle. "don't ram it down, o' man," said parsons, watching with knitted brows. "don't ram it down. give it air. seen my stick, o' man? right o." and leaning on his cane he composed himself in an attitude of sympathetic patience towards platt's incendiary efforts. iv jolly days of companionship they were for the incipient bankrupt on the stile to look back upon. the interminable working hours of the bazaar had long since faded from his memory--except for one or two conspicuous rows and one or two larks--but the rare sundays and holidays shone out like diamonds among pebbles. they shone with the mellow splendour of evening skies reflected in calm water, and athwart them all went old parsons bellowing an interpretation of life, gesticulating, appreciating and making appreciate, expounding books, talking of that mystery of his, the "joy de vive." there were some particularly splendid walks on bank holidays. the three ps would start on sunday morning early and find a room in some modest inn and talk themselves asleep, and return singing through the night, or having an "argy bargy" about the stars, on monday evening. they would come over the hills out of the pleasant english country-side in which they had wandered, and see port burdock spread out below, a network of interlacing street lamps and shifting tram lights against the black, beacon-gemmed immensity of the harbour waters. "back to the collar, o' man," parsons would say. there is no satisfactory plural to o' man, so he always used it in the singular. "don't mention it," said platt. and once they got a boat for the whole summer day, and rowed up past the moored ironclads and the black old hulks and the various shipping of the harbour, past a white troopship and past the trim front and the ships and interesting vistas of the dockyard to the shallow channels and rocky weedy wildernesses of the upper harbour. and parsons and mr. polly had a great dispute and quarrel that day as to how far a big gun could shoot. the country over the hills behind port burdock is all that an old-fashioned, scarcely disturbed english country-side should be. in those days the bicycle was still rare and costly and the motor car had yet to come and stir up rural serenities. the three ps would take footpaths haphazard across fields, and plunge into unknown winding lanes between high hedges of honeysuckle and dogrose. greatly daring, they would follow green bridle paths through primrose studded undergrowths, or wander waist deep in the bracken of beech woods. about twenty miles from port burdock there came a region of hop gardens and hoast crowned farms, and further on, to be reached only by cheap tickets at bank holiday times, was a sterile ridge of very clean roads and red sand pits and pines and gorse and heather. the three ps could not afford to buy bicycles and they found boots the greatest item of their skimpy expenditure. they threw appearances to the winds at last and got ready-made workingmen's hob-nails. there was much discussion and strong feeling over this step in the dormitory. there is no country-side like the english country-side for those who have learnt to love it; its firm yet gentle lines of hill and dale, its ordered confusion of features, its deer parks and downland, its castles and stately houses, its hamlets and old churches, its farms and ricks and great barns and ancient trees, its pools and ponds and shining threads of rivers; its flower-starred hedgerows, its orchards and woodland patches, its village greens and kindly inns. other country-sides have their pleasant aspects, but none such variety, none that shine so steadfastly throughout the year. picardy is pink and white and pleasant in the blossom time, burgundy goes on with its sunshine and wide hillsides and cramped vineyards, a beautiful tune repeated and repeated, italy gives salitas and wayside chapels and chestnuts and olive orchards, the ardennes has its woods and gorges--touraine and the rhineland, the wide campagna with its distant apennines, and the neat prosperities and mountain backgrounds of south germany, all clamour their especial merits at one's memory. and there are the hills and fields of virginia, like an england grown very big and slovenly, the woods and big river sweeps of pennsylvania, the trim new england landscape, a little bleak and rather fine like the new england mind, and the wide rough country roads and hills and woodland of new york state. but none of these change scene and character in three miles of walking, nor have so mellow a sunlight nor so diversified a cloudland, nor confess the perpetual refreshment of the strong soft winds that blow from off the sea as our mother england does. it was good for the three ps to walk through such a land and forget for a time that indeed they had no footing in it all, that they were doomed to toil behind counters in such places as port burdock for the better part of their lives. they would forget the customers and shopwalkers and department buyers and everything, and become just happy wanderers in a world of pleasant breezes and song birds and shady trees. the arrival at the inn was a great affair. no one, they were convinced, would take them for drapers, and there might be a pretty serving girl or a jolly old lady, or what parsons called a "bit of character" drinking in the bar. there would always be weighty enquiries as to what they could have, and it would work out always at cold beef and pickles, or fried ham and eggs and shandygaff, two pints of beer and two bottles of ginger beer foaming in a huge round-bellied jug. the glorious moment of standing lordly in the inn doorway, and staring out at the world, the swinging sign, the geese upon the green, the duck-pond, a waiting waggon, the church tower, a sleepy cat, the blue heavens, with the sizzle of the frying audible behind one! the keen smell of the bacon! the trotting of feet bearing the repast; the click and clatter as the tableware is finally arranged! a clean white cloth! "ready, sir!" or "ready, gentlemen." better hearing that than "forward polly! look sharp!" the going in! the sitting down! the falling to! "bread, o' man?" "right o! don't bag all the crust, o' man." once a simple mannered girl in a pink print dress stayed and talked with them as they ate; led by the gallant parsons they professed to be all desperately in love with her, and courted her to say which she preferred of them, it was so manifest she did prefer one and so impossible to say which it was held her there, until a distant maternal voice called her away. afterwards as they left the inn she waylaid them at the orchard corner and gave them, a little shyly, three keen yellow-green apples--and wished them to come again some day, and vanished, and reappeared looking after them as they turned the corner--waving a white handkerchief. all the rest of that day they disputed over the signs of her favour, and the next sunday they went there again. but she had vanished, and a mother of forbidding aspect afforded no explanations. if platt and parsons and mr. polly live to be a hundred, they will none of them forget that girl as she stood with a pink flush upon her, faintly smiling and yet earnest, parting the branches of the hedgerows and reaching down apple in hand. which of them was it, had caught her spirit to attend to them?... and once they went along the coast, following it as closely as possible, and so came at last to foxbourne, that easternmost suburb of brayling and hampsted-on-the-sea. foxbourne seemed a very jolly little place to mr. polly that afternoon. it has a clean sandy beach instead of the mud and pebbles and coaly _défilements_ of port burdock, a row of six bathing machines, and a shelter on the parade in which the three ps sat after a satisfying but rather expensive lunch that had included celery. rows of verandahed villas proffered apartments, they had feasted in an hotel with a porch painted white and gay with geraniums above, and the high street with the old church at the head had been full of an agreeable afternoon stillness. "nice little place for business," said platt sagely from behind his big pipe. it stuck in mr. polly's memory. v mr. polly was not so picturesque a youth as parsons. he lacked richness in his voice, and went about in those days with his hands in his pockets looking quietly speculative. he specialised in slang and the disuse of english, and he played the rôle of an appreciative stimulant to parsons. words attracted him curiously, words rich in suggestion, and he loved a novel and striking phrase. his school training had given him little or no mastery of the mysterious pronunciation of english and no confidence in himself. his schoolmaster indeed had been both unsound and variable. new words had terror and fascination for him; he did not acquire them, he could not avoid them, and so he plunged into them. his only rule was not to be misled by the spelling. that was no guide anyhow. he avoided every recognised phrase in the language and mispronounced everything in order that he shouldn't be suspected of ignorance, but whim. "sesquippledan," he would say. "sesquippledan verboojuice." "eh?" said platt. "eloquent rapsodooce." "where?" asked platt. "in the warehouse, o' man. all among the table-cloths and blankets. carlyle. he's reading aloud. doing the high froth. spuming! windmilling! waw, waw! it's a sight worth seeing. he'll bark his blessed knuckles one of these days on the fixtures, o' man." he held an imaginary book in one hand and waved an eloquent gesture. "so too shall every hero inasmuch as notwithstanding for evermore come back to reality," he parodied the enthusiastic parsons, "so that in fashion and thereby, upon things and not _under_ things articulariously he stands." "i should laugh if the governor dropped on him," said platt. "he'd never hear him coming." "the o' man's drunk with it--fair drunk," said polly. "i never did. it's worse than when he got on to raboloose." chapter the second the dismissal of parsons i suddenly parsons got himself dismissed. he got himself dismissed under circumstances of peculiar violence, that left a deep impression on mr. polly's mind. he wondered about it for years afterwards, trying to get the rights of the case. parsons' apprenticeship was over; he had reached the status of an improver, and he dressed the window of the manchester department. by all the standards available he dressed it very well. by his own standards he dressed it wonderfully. "well, o' man," he used to say, "there's one thing about my position here,--i _can_ dress a window." and when trouble was under discussion he would hold that "little fluffums"--which was the apprentices' name for mr. garvace, the senior partner and managing director of the bazaar--would think twice before he got rid of the only man in the place who could make a windowful of manchester goods _tell_. then like many a fellow artist he fell a prey to theories. "the art of window dressing is in its infancy, o' man--in its blooming infancy. all balance and stiffness like a blessed egyptian picture. no joy in it, no blooming joy! conventional. a shop window ought to get hold of people, _grip_ 'em as they go along. it stands to reason. grip!" his voice would sink to a kind of quiet bellow. "_do_ they grip?" then after a pause, a savage roar; "_naw_!" "he's got a heavy on," said mr. polly. "go it, o' man; let's have some more of it." "look at old morrison's dress-stuff windows! tidy, tasteful, correct, i grant you, but bleak!" he let out the word reinforced to a shout; "bleak!" "bleak!" echoed mr. polly. "just pieces of stuff in rows, rows of tidy little puffs, perhaps one bit just unrolled, quiet tickets." "might as well be in church, o' man," said mr. polly. "a window ought to be exciting," said parsons; "it ought to make you say: el-_lo_! when you see it." he paused, and platt watched him over a snorting pipe. "rockcockyo," said mr. polly. "we want a new school of window dressing," said parsons, regardless of the comment. "a new school! the port burdock school. day after to-morrow i change the fitzallan street stuff. this time, it's going to be a change. i mean to have a crowd or bust!" and as a matter of fact he did both. his voice dropped to a note of self-reproach. "i've been timid, o' man. i've been holding myself in. i haven't done myself justice. i've kept down the simmering, seething, teeming ideas.... all that's over now." "over," gulped polly. "over for good and all, o' man." ii platt came to polly, who was sorting up collar boxes. "o' man's doing his blooming window." "what window?" "what he said." polly remembered. he went on with his collar boxes with his eye on his senior, mansfield. mansfield was presently called away to the counting house, and instantly polly shot out by the street door, and made a rapid transit along the street front past the manchester window, and so into the silkroom door. he could not linger long, but he gathered joy, a swift and fearful joy, from his brief inspection of parsons' unconscious back. parsons had his tail coat off and was working with vigour; his habit of pulling his waistcoat straps to the utmost brought out all the agreeable promise of corpulence in his youthful frame. he was blowing excitedly and running his fingers through his hair, and then moving with all the swift eagerness of a man inspired. all about his feet and knees were scarlet blankets, not folded, not formally unfolded, but--the only phrase is--shied about. and a great bar sinister of roller towelling stretched across the front of the window on which was a ticket, and the ticket said in bold black letters: "look!" so soon as mr. polly got into the silk department and met platt he knew he had not lingered nearly long enough outside. "did you see the boards at the back?" said platt. he hadn't. "the high egrugious is fairly on," he said, and dived down to return by devious subterranean routes to the outfitting department. presently the street door opened and platt, with an air of intense devotion to business assumed to cover his adoption of that unusual route, came in and made for the staircase down to the warehouse. he rolled up his eyes at polly. "oh _lor_!" he said and vanished. irresistible curiosity seized polly. should he go through the shop to the manchester department, or risk a second transit outside? he was impelled to make a dive at the street door. "where are you going?" asked mansfield. "lill dog," said polly with an air of lucid explanation, and left him to get any meaning he could from it. parsons was worth the subsequent trouble. parsons really was extremely rich. this time polly stopped to take it in. parsons had made a huge symmetrical pile of thick white and red blankets twisted and rolled to accentuate their woolly richness, heaped up in a warm disorder, with large window tickets inscribed in blazing red letters: "cosy comfort at cut prices," and "curl up and cuddle below cost." regardless of the daylight he had turned up the electric light on that side of the window to reflect a warm glow upon the heap, and behind, in pursuit of contrasted bleakness, he was now hanging long strips of grey silesia and chilly coloured linen dusterings. it was wonderful, but-- mr. polly decided that it was time he went in. he found platt in the silk department, apparently on the verge of another plunge into the exterior world. "cosy comfort at cut prices," said polly. "allittritions artful aid." he did not dare go into the street for the third time, and he was hovering feverishly near the window when he saw the governor, mr. garvace, that is to say, the managing director of the bazaar, walking along the pavement after his manner to assure himself all was well with the establishment he guided. mr. garvace was a short stout man, with that air of modest pride that so often goes with corpulence, choleric and decisive in manner, and with hands that looked like bunches of fingers. he was red-haired and ruddy, and after the custom of such _complexions_, hairs sprang from the tip of his nose. when he wished to bring the power of the human eye to bear upon an assistant, he projected his chest, knitted one brow and partially closed the left eyelid. an expression of speculative wonder overspread the countenance of mr. polly. he felt he must _see_. yes, whatever happened he must _see_. "want to speak to parsons, sir," he said to mr. mansfield, and deserted his post hastily, dashed through the intervening departments and was in position behind a pile of bolton sheeting as the governor came in out of the street. "what on earth do you think you are doing with that window, parsons?" began mr. garvace. only the legs of parsons and the lower part of his waistcoat and an intervening inch of shirt were visible. he was standing inside the window on the steps, hanging up the last strip of his background from the brass rail along the ceiling. within, the manchester shop window was cut off by a partition rather like the partition of an old-fashioned church pew from the general space of the shop. there was a panelled barrier, that is to say, with a little door like a pew door in it. parsons' face appeared, staring with round eyes at his employer. mr. garvace had to repeat his question. "dressing it, sir--on new lines." "come out of it," said mr. garvace. parsons stared, and mr. garvace had to repeat his command. parsons, with a dazed expression, began to descend the steps slowly. mr. garvace turned about. "where's morrison? morrison!" morrison appeared. "take this window over," said mr. garvace pointing his bunch of fingers at parsons. "take all this muddle out and dress it properly." morrison advanced and hesitated. "i beg your pardon, sir," said parsons with an immense politeness, "but this is _my_ window." "take it all out," said mr. garvace, turning away. morrison advanced. parsons shut the door with a click that arrested mr. garvace. "come out of that window," he said. "you can't dress it. if you want to play the fool with a window----" "this window's all right," said the genius in window dressing, and there was a little pause. "open the door and go right in," said mr. garvace to morrison. "you leave that door alone, morrison," said parsons. polly was no longer even trying to hide behind the stack of bolton sheetings. he realised he was in the presence of forces too stupendous to heed him. "get him out," said mr. garvace. morrison seemed to be thinking out the ethics of his position. the idea of loyalty to his employer prevailed with him. he laid his hand on the door to open it; parsons tried to disengage his hand. mr. garvace joined his effort to morrison's. then the heart of polly leapt and the world blazed up to wonder and splendour. parsons disappeared behind the partition for a moment and reappeared instantly, gripping a thin cylinder of rolled huckaback. with this he smote at morrison's head. morrison's head ducked under the resounding impact, but he clung on and so did mr. garvace. the door came open, and then mr. garvace was staggering back, hand to head; his autocratic, his sacred baldness, smitten. parsons was beyond all control--a strangeness, a marvel. heaven knows how the artistic struggle had strained that richly endowed temperament. "say i can't dress a window, you thundering old humbug," he said, and hurled the huckaback at his master. he followed this up by hurling first a blanket, then an armful of silesia, then a window support out of the window into the shop. it leapt into polly's mind that parsons hated his own effort and was glad to demolish it. for a crowded second polly's mind was concentrated upon parsons, infuriated, active, like a figure of earthquake with its coat off, shying things headlong. then he perceived the back of mr. garvace and heard his gubernatorial voice crying to no one in particular and everybody in general: "get him out of the window. he's mad. he's dangerous. get him out of the window." then a crimson blanket was for a moment over the head of mr. garvace, and his voice, muffled for an instant, broke out into unwonted expletive. then people had arrived from all parts of the bazaar. luck, the ledger clerk, blundered against polly and said, "help him!" somerville from the silks vaulted the counter, and seized a chair by the back. polly lost his head. he clawed at the bolton sheeting before him, and if he could have detached a piece he would certainly have hit somebody with it. as it was he simply upset the pile. it fell away from polly, and he had an impression of somebody squeaking as it went down. it was the sort of impression one disregards. the collapse of the pile of goods just sufficed to end his subconscious efforts to get something to hit somebody with, and his whole attention focussed itself upon the struggle in the window. for a splendid instant parsons towered up over the active backs that clustered about the shop window door, an active whirl of gesture, tearing things down and throwing them, and then he went under. there was an instant's furious struggle, a crash, a second crash and the crack of broken plate glass. then a stillness and heavy breathing. parsons was overpowered.... polly, stepping over scattered pieces of bolton sheeting, saw his transfigured friend with a dark cut, that was not at present bleeding, on the forehead, one arm held by somerville and the other by morrison. "you--you--you--you annoyed me," said parsons, sobbing for breath. iii there are events that detach themselves from the general stream of occurrences and seem to partake of the nature of revelations. such was this parsons affair. it began by seeming grotesque; it ended disconcertingly. the fabric of mr. polly's daily life was torn, and beneath it he discovered depths and terrors. life was not altogether a lark. the calling in of a policeman seemed at the moment a pantomime touch. but when it became manifest that mr. garvace was in a fury of vindictiveness, the affair took on a different complexion. the way in which the policeman made a note of everything and aspirated nothing impressed the sensitive mind of polly profoundly. polly presently found himself straightening up ties to the refrain of "'e then 'it you on the 'ed and----" in the dormitory that night parsons had become heroic. he sat on the edge of the bed with his head bandaged, packing very slowly and insisting over and again: "he ought to have left my window alone, o' man. he didn't ought to have touched my window." polly was to go to the police court in the morning as a witness. the terror of that ordeal almost overshadowed the tragic fact that parsons was not only summoned for assault, but "swapped," and packing his box. polly knew himself well enough to know he would make a bad witness. he felt sure of one fact only, namely, that "'e then 'it 'im on the 'ed and--" all the rest danced about in his mind now, and how it would dance about on the morrow heaven only knew. would there be a cross-examination? is it perjoocery to make a slip? people did sometimes perjuice themselves. serious offence. platt was doing his best to help parsons, and inciting public opinion against morrison. but parsons would not hear of anything against morrison. "he was all right, o' man--according to his lights," said parsons. "it isn't him i complain of." he speculated on the morrow. "i shall '_ave_ to pay a fine," he said. "no good trying to get out of it. it's true i hit him. i hit him"--he paused and seemed to be seeking an exquisite accuracy. his voice sank to a confidential note;--"on the head--about here." he answered the suggestion of a bright junior apprentice in a corner of the dormitory. "what's the good of a cross summons?" he replied; "with old corks, the chemist, and mottishead, the house agent, and all that lot on the bench? humble pie, that's my meal to-morrow, o' man. humble pie." packing went on for a time. "but lord! what a life it is!" said parsons, giving his deep notes scope. "ten-thirty-five a man trying to do his duty, mistaken perhaps, but trying his best; ten-forty--ruined! ruined!" he lifted his voice to a shout. "ruined!" and dropped it to "like an earthquake." "heated altaclation," said polly. "like a blooming earthquake!" said parsons, with the notes of a rising wind. he meditated gloomily upon his future and a colder chill invaded polly's mind. "likely to get another crib, ain't i--with assaulted the guvnor on my reference. i suppose, though, he won't give me refs. hard enough to get a crib at the best of times," said parsons. "you ought to go round with a show, o' man," said mr. polly. things were not so dreadful in the police court as mr. polly had expected. he was given a seat with other witnesses against the wall of the court, and after an interesting larceny case parsons appeared and stood, not in the dock, but at the table. by that time mr. polly's legs, which had been tucked up at first under his chair out of respect to the court, were extended straight before him and his hands were in his trouser pockets. he was inventing names for the four magistrates on the bench, and had got to "the grave and reverend signor with the palatial boko," when his thoughts were recalled to gravity by the sound of his name. he rose with alacrity and was fielded by an expert policeman from a brisk attempt to get into the vacant dock. the clerk to the justices repeated the oath with incredible rapidity. "right o," said mr. polly, but quite respectfully, and kissed the book. his evidence was simple and quite audible after one warning from the superintendent of police to "speak up." he tried to put in a good word for parsons by saying he was "naturally of a choleraic disposition," but the start and the slow grin of enjoyment upon the face of the grave and reverend signor with the palatial boko suggested that the word was not so good as he had thought it. the rest of the bench was frankly puzzled and there were hasty consultations. "you mean 'e 'as a 'ot temper," said the presiding magistrate. "i mean 'e 'as a 'ot temper," replied polly, magically incapable of aspirates for the moment. "you don't mean 'e ketches cholera." "i mean--he's easily put out." "then why can't you say so?" said the presiding magistrate. parsons was bound over. he came for his luggage while every one was in the shop, and garvace would not let him invade the business to say good-by. when mr. polly went upstairs for margarine and bread and tea, he slipped on into the dormitory at once to see what was happening further in the parsons case. but parsons had vanished. there was no parsons, no trace of parsons. his cubicle was swept and garnished. for the first time in his life polly had a sense of irreparable loss. a minute or so after platt dashed in. "ugh!" he said, and then discovered polly. polly was leaning out of the window and did not look around. platt went up to him. "he's gone already," said platt. "might have stopped to say good-by to a chap." there was a little pause before polly replied. he thrust his finger into his mouth and gulped. "bit on that beastly tooth of mine," he said, still not looking at platt. "it's made my eyes water, something chronic. any one might think i'd been doing a blooming pipe, by the look of me." chapter the third cribs i port burdock was never the same place for mr. polly after parsons had left it. there were no chest notes in his occasional letters, and little of the "joy de vive" got through by them. parsons had gone, he said, to london, and found a place as warehouseman in a cheap outfitting shop near st. paul's churchyard, where references were not required. it became apparent as time passed that new interests were absorbing him. he wrote of socialism and the rights of man, things that had no appeal for mr. polly. he felt strangers had got hold of his parsons, were at work upon him, making him into someone else, something less picturesque.... port burdock became a dreariness full of faded memories of parsons and work a bore. platt revealed himself alone as a tiresome companion, obsessed by romantic ideas about intrigues and vices and "society women." mr. polly's depression manifested itself in a general slackness. a certain impatience in the manner of mr. garvace presently got upon his nerves. relations were becoming strained. he asked for a rise of salary to test his position, and gave notice to leave when it was refused. it took him two months to place himself in another situation, and during that time he had quite a disagreeable amount of loneliness, disappointment, anxiety and humiliation. he went at first to stay with a married cousin who had a house at easewood. his widowed father had recently given up the music and bicycle shop (with the post of organist at the parish church) that had sustained his home, and was living upon a small annuity as a guest with this cousin, and growing a little tiresome on account of some mysterious internal discomfort that the local practitioner diagnosed as imagination. he had aged with mysterious rapidity and become excessively irritable, but the cousin's wife was a born manager, and contrived to get along with him. our mr. polly's status was that of a guest pure and simple, but after a fortnight of congested hospitality in which he wrote nearly a hundred letters beginning: _sir:_ _referring to your advt. in the "christian world" for an improver in gents' outfitting i beg to submit myself for the situation. have had six years' experience...._ and upset a bottle of ink over a toilet cover and the bedroom carpet, his cousin took him for a walk and pointed out the superior advantages of apartments in london from which to swoop upon the briefly yawning vacancy. "helpful," said mr. polly; "very helpful, o' man indeed. i might have gone on there for weeks," and packed. he got a room in an institution that was partly a benevolent hostel for men in his circumstances and partly a high minded but forbidding coffee house and a centre for pleasant sunday afternoons. mr. polly spent a critical but pleasant sunday afternoon in a back seat, inventing such phrases as: "soulful owner of the exorbiant largenial development."--an adam's apple being in question. "earnest joy." "exultant, urgent loogoobuosity." a manly young curate, marking and misunderstanding his preoccupied face and moving lips, came and sat by him and entered into conversation with the idea of making him feel more at home. the conversation was awkward and disconnected for a minute or so, and then suddenly a memory of the port burdock bazaar occurred to mr. polly, and with a baffling whisper of "lill' dog," and a reassuring nod, he rose up and escaped, to wander out relieved and observant into the varied london streets. he found the collection of men he found waiting about in wholesale establishments in wood street and st. paul's churchyard (where they interview the buyers who have come up from the country) interesting and stimulating, but far too strongly charged with the suggestion of his own fate to be really joyful. there were men in all degrees between confidence and distress, and in every stage between extravagant smartness and the last stages of decay. there were sunny young men full of an abounding and elbowing energy, before whom the soul of polly sank in hate and dismay. "smart juniors," said polly to himself, "full of smart juniosity. the shoveacious cult." there were hungry looking individuals of thirty-five or so that he decided must be "proletelerians"--he had often wanted to find someone who fitted that attractive word. middle-aged men, "too old at forty," discoursed in the waiting-rooms on the outlook in the trade; it had never been so bad, they said, while mr. polly wondered if "de-juiced" was a permissible epithet. there were men with an overweening sense of their importance, manifestly annoyed and angry to find themselves still disengaged, and inclined to suspect a plot, and men so faint-hearted one was terrified to imagine their behaviour when it came to an interview. there was a fresh-faced young man with an unintelligent face who seemed to think himself equipped against the world beyond all misadventure by a collar of exceptional height, and another who introduced a note of gaiety by wearing a flannel shirt and a check suit of remarkable virulence. every day mr. polly looked round to mark how many of the familiar faces had gone, and the deepening anxiety (reflecting his own) on the faces that remained, and every day some new type joined the drifting shoal. he realised how small a chance his poor letter from easewood ran against this hungry cluster of competitors at the fountain head. at the back of mr. polly's mind while he made his observations was a disagreeable flavour of dentist's parlour. at any moment his name might be shouted, and he might have to haul himself into the presence of some fresh specimen of employer, and to repeat once more his passionate protestation of interest in the business, his possession of a capacity for zeal--zeal on behalf of anyone who would pay him a yearly salary of twenty-six pounds a year. the prospective employer would unfold his ideals of the employee. "i want a smart, willing young man, thoroughly willing--who won't object to take trouble. i don't want a slacker, the sort of fellow who has to be pushed up to his work and held there. i've got no use for him." at the back of mr. polly's mind, and quite beyond his control, the insubordinate phrasemaker would be proffering such combinations as "chubby chops," or "chubby charmer," as suitable for the gentleman, very much as a hat salesman proffers hats. "i don't think you'd find much slackness about _me_, sir," said mr. polly brightly, trying to disregard his deeper self. "i want a young man who means getting on." "exactly, sir. excelsior." "i beg your pardon?" "i said excelsior, sir. it's a sort of motto of mine. from longfellow. would you want me to serve through?" the chubby gentleman explained and reverted to his ideals, with a faint air of suspicion. "do _you_ mean getting on?" he asked. "i hope so, sir," said mr. polly. "get on or get out, eh?" mr. polly made a rapturous noise, nodded appreciation, and said indistinctly--"_quite_ my style." "some of my people have been with me twenty years," said the employer. "my manchester buyer came to me as a boy of twelve. you're a christian?" "church of england," said mr. polly. "h'm," said the employer a little checked. "for good all round business work i should have preferred a baptist. still--" he studied mr. polly's tie, which was severely neat and businesslike, as became an aspiring outfitter. mr. polly's conception of his own pose and expression was rendered by that uncontrollable phrasemonger at the back as "obsequies deference." "i am inclined," said the prospective employer in a conclusive manner, "to look up your reference." mr. polly stood up abruptly. "thank you," said the employer and dismissed him. "chump chops! how about chump chops?" said the phrasemonger with an air of inspiration. "i hope then to hear from you, sir," said mr. polly in his best salesman manner. "if everything is satisfactory," said the prospective employer. ii a man whose brain devotes its hinterland to making odd phrases and nicknames out of ill-conceived words, whose conception of life is a lump of auriferous rock to which all the value is given by rare veins of unbusinesslike joy, who reads boccaccio and rabelais and shakespeare with gusto, and uses "stertoraneous shover" and "smart junior" as terms of bitterest opprobrium, is not likely to make a great success under modern business conditions. mr. polly dreamt always of picturesque and mellow things, and had an instinctive hatred of the strenuous life. he would have resisted the spell of ex-president roosevelt, or general baden powell, or mr. peter keary, or the late dr. samuel smiles, quite easily; and he loved falstaff and hudibras and coarse laughter, and the old england of washington irving and the memory of charles the second's courtly days. his progress was necessarily slow. he did not get rises; he lost situations; there was something in his eye employers did not like; he would have lost his places oftener if he had not been at times an exceptionally brilliant salesman, rather carefully neat, and a slow but very fair window-dresser. he went from situation to situation, he invented a great wealth of nicknames, he conceived enmities and made friends--but none so richly satisfying as parsons. he was frequently but mildly and discursively in love, and sometimes he thought of that girl who had given him a yellow-green apple. he had an idea, amounting to a flattering certainty, whose youthful freshness it was had stirred her to self-forgetfulness. and sometimes he thought of foxbourne sleeping prosperously in the sun. and he began to have moods of discomfort and lassitude and ill-temper due to the beginnings of indigestion. various forces and suggestions came into his life and swayed him for longer and shorter periods. he went to canterbury and came under the influence of gothic architecture. there was a blood affinity between mr. polly and the gothic; in the middle ages he would no doubt have sat upon a scaffolding and carved out penetrating and none too flattering portraits of church dignitaries upon the capitals, and when he strolled, with his hands behind his back, along the cloisters behind the cathedral, and looked at the rich grass plot in the centre, he had the strangest sense of being at home--far more than he had ever been at home before. "portly _capóns_," he used to murmur to himself, under the impression that he was naming a characteristic type of medieval churchman. he liked to sit in the nave during the service, and look through the great gates at the candles and choristers, and listen to the organ-sustained voices, but the transepts he never penetrated because of the charge for admission. the music and the long vista of the fretted roof filled him with a vague and mystical happiness that he had no words, even mispronounceable words, to express. but some of the smug monuments in the aisles got a wreath of epithets: "metrorious urnfuls," "funererial claims," "dejected angelosity," for example. he wandered about the precincts and speculated about the people who lived in the ripe and cosy houses of grey stone that cluster there so comfortably. through green doors in high stone walls he caught glimpses of level lawns and blazing flower beds; mullioned windows revealed shaded reading lamps and disciplined shelves of brown bound books. now and then a dignitary in gaiters would pass him, "portly capon," or a drift of white-robed choir boys cross a distant arcade and vanish in a doorway, or the pink and cream of some girlish dress flit like a butterfly across the cool still spaces of the place. particularly he responded to the ruined arches of the benedictine's infirmary and the view of bell harry tower from the school buildings. he was stirred to read the canterbury tales, but he could not get on with chaucer's old-fashioned english; it fatigued his attention, and he would have given all the story telling very readily for a few adventures on the road. he wanted these nice people to live more and yarn less. he liked the wife of bath very much. he would have liked to have known that woman. at canterbury, too, he first to his knowledge saw americans. his shop did a good class trade in westgate street, and he would see them go by on the way to stare at chaucer's "chequers," and then turn down mercery lane to prior goldstone's gate. it impressed him that they were always in a kind of quiet hurry, and very determined and methodical people,--much more so than any english he knew. "cultured rapacicity," he tried. "vorocious return to the heritage." he would expound them incidentally to his attendant apprentices. he had overheard a little lady putting her view to a friend near the christchurch gate. the accent and intonation had hung in his memory, and he would reproduce them more or less accurately. "now does this marlowe monument really and truly _matter_?" he had heard the little lady enquire. "we've no time for side shows and second rate stunts, mamie. we want just the big simple things of the place, just the broad elemental canterbury praposition. what is it saying to us? i want to get right hold of that, and then have tea in the very room that chaucer did, and hustle to get that four-eighteen train back to london." he would go over these precious phrases, finding them full of an indescribable flavour. "just the broad elemental canterbury praposition," he would repeat.... he would try to imagine parsons confronted with americans. for his own part he knew himself to be altogether inadequate.... canterbury was the most congenial situation mr. polly ever found during these wander years, albeit a very desert so far as companionship went. iii it was after canterbury that the universe became really disagreeable to mr. polly. it was brought home to him, not so much vividly as with a harsh and ungainly insistence, that he was a failure in his trade. it was not the trade he ought to have chosen, though what trade he ought to have chosen was by no means clear. he made great but irregular efforts and produced a forced smartness that, like a cheap dye, refused to stand sunshine. he acquired a sort of parsimony also, in which acquisition he was helped by one or two phases of absolute impecuniosity. but he was hopeless in competition against the naturally gifted, the born hustlers, the young men who meant to get on. he left the canterbury place very regretfully. he and another commercial gentleman took a boat one sunday afternoon at sturry-on-the-stour, when the wind was in the west, and sailed it very happily eastward for an hour. they had never sailed a boat before and it seemed simple and wonderful. when they turned they found the river too narrow for tacking and the tide running out like a sluice. they battled back to sturry in the course of six hours (at a shilling the first hour and six-pence for each hour afterwards) rowing a mile in an hour and a half or so, until the turn of the tide came to help them, and then they had a night walk to canterbury, and found themselves remorselessly locked out. the canterbury employer was an amiable, religious-spirited man and he would probably not have dismissed mr. polly if that unfortunate tendency to phrase things had not shocked him. "a tide's a tide, sir," said mr. polly, feeling that things were not so bad. "i've no lune-attic power to alter that." it proved impossible to explain to the canterbury employer that this was not a highly disrespectful and blasphemous remark. "and besides, what good are you to me this morning, do you think?" said the canterbury employer, "with your arms pulled out of their sockets?" so mr. polly resumed his observations in the wood street warehouses once more, and had some dismal times. the shoal of fish waiting for the crumbs of employment seemed larger than ever. he took counsel with himself. should he "chuck" the outfitting? it wasn't any good for him now, and presently when he was older and his youthful smartness had passed into the dulness of middle age it would be worse. what else could he do? he could think of nothing. he went one night to a music hall and developed a vague idea of a comic performance; the comic men seemed violent rowdies and not at all funny; but when he thought of the great pit of the audience yawning before him he realised that his was an altogether too delicate talent for such a use. he was impressed by the charm of selling vegetables by auction in one of those open shops near london bridge, but admitted upon reflection his general want of technical knowledge. he made some enquiries about emigration, but none of the colonies were in want of shop assistants without capital. he kept up his attendance in wood street. he subdued his ideal of salary by the sum of five pounds a year, and was taken at that into a driving establishment in clapham, which dealt chiefly in ready-made suits, fed its assistants in an underground dining-room and kept them until twelve on saturdays. he found it hard to be cheerful there. his fits of indigestion became worse, and he began to lie awake at night and think. sunshine and laughter seemed things lost for ever; picnics and shouting in the moonlight. the chief shopwalker took a dislike to him and nagged him. "nar then polly!" "look alive polly!" became the burthen of his days. "as smart a chap as you could have," said the chief shopwalker, "but no _zest_. no _zest_! no _vim_! what's the matter with you?" during his night vigils mr. polly had a feeling--a young rabbit must have very much the feeling, when after a youth of gambolling in sunny woods and furtive jolly raids upon the growing wheat and exciting triumphant bolts before ineffectual casual dogs, it finds itself at last for a long night of floundering effort and perplexity, in a net--for the rest of its life. he could not grasp what was wrong with him. he made enormous efforts to diagnose his case. was he really just a "lazy slacker" who ought to "buck up"? he couldn't find it in him to believe it. he blamed his father a good deal--it is what fathers are for--in putting him to a trade he wasn't happy to follow, but he found it impossible to say what he ought to have followed. he felt there had been something stupid about his school, but just where that came in he couldn't say. he made some perfectly sincere efforts to "buck up" and "shove" ruthlessly. but that was infernal--impossible. he had to admit himself miserable with all the misery of a social misfit, and with no clear prospect of more than the most incidental happiness ahead of him. and for all his attempts at self-reproach or self-discipline he felt at bottom that he wasn't at fault. as a matter of fact all the elements of his troubles had been adequately diagnosed by a certain high-browed, spectacled gentleman living at highbury, wearing a gold _pince_-_nez_, and writing for the most part in the beautiful library of the reform club. this gentleman did not know mr. polly personally, but he had dealt with him generally as "one of those ill-adjusted units that abound in a society that has failed to develop a collective intelligence and a collective will for order, commensurate with its complexities." but phrases of that sort had no appeal for mr. polly. chapter the fourth mr. polly an orphan i then a great change was brought about in the life of mr. polly by the death of his father. his father had died suddenly--the local practitioner still clung to his theory that it was imagination he suffered from, but compromised in the certificate with the appendicitis that was then so fashionable--and mr. polly found himself heir to a debateable number of pieces of furniture in the house of his cousin near easewood junction, a family bible, an engraved portrait of garibaldi and a bust of mr. gladstone, an invalid gold watch, a gold locket formerly belonging to his mother, some minor jewelry and _bric-a-brac_, a quantity of nearly valueless old clothes and an insurance policy and money in the bank amounting altogether to the sum of three hundred and ninety-five pounds. mr. polly had always regarded his father as an immortal, as an eternal fact, and his father being of a reserved nature in his declining years had said nothing about the insurance policy. both wealth and bereavement therefore took mr. polly by surprise and found him a little inadequate. his mother's death had been a childish grief and long forgotten, and the strongest affection in his life had been for parsons. an only child of sociable tendencies necessarily turns his back a good deal upon home, and the aunt who had succeeded his mother was an economist and furniture polisher, a knuckle rapper and sharp silencer, no friend for a slovenly little boy. he had loved other little boys and girls transitorily, none had been frequent and familiar enough to strike deep roots in his heart, and he had grown up with a tattered and dissipated affectionateness that was becoming wildly shy. his father had always been a stranger, an irritable stranger with exceptional powers of intervention and comment, and an air of being disappointed about his offspring. it was shocking to lose him; it was like an unexpected hole in the universe, and the writing of "death" upon the sky, but it did not tear mr. polly's heartstrings at first so much as rouse him to a pitch of vivid attention. he came down to the cottage at easewood in response to an urgent telegram, and found his father already dead. his cousin johnson received him with much solemnity and ushered him upstairs, to look at a stiff, straight, shrouded form, with a face unwontedly quiet and, as it seemed, with its pinched nostrils, scornful. "looks peaceful," said mr. polly, disregarding the scorn to the best of his ability. "it was a merciful relief," said mr. johnson. there was a pause. "second--second departed i've ever seen. not counting mummies," said mr. polly, feeling it necessary to say something. "we did all we could." "no doubt of it, o' man," said mr. polly. a second long pause followed, and then, much to mr. polly's great relief, johnson moved towards the door. afterwards mr. polly went for a solitary walk in the evening light, and as he walked, suddenly his dead father became real to him. he thought of things far away down the perspective of memory, of jolly moments when his father had skylarked with a wildly excited little boy, of a certain annual visit to the crystal palace pantomime, full of trivial glittering incidents and wonders, of his father's dread back while customers were in the old, minutely known shop. it is curious that the memory which seemed to link him nearest to the dead man was the memory of a fit of passion. his father had wanted to get a small sofa up the narrow winding staircase from the little room behind the shop to the bedroom above, and it had jammed. for a time his father had coaxed, and then groaned like a soul in torment and given way to blind fury, had sworn, kicked and struck at the offending piece of furniture and finally wrenched it upstairs, with considerable incidental damage to lath and plaster and one of the castors. that moment when self-control was altogether torn aside, the shocked discovery of his father's perfect humanity, had left a singular impression on mr. polly's queer mind. it was as if something extravagantly vital had come out of his father and laid a warmly passionate hand upon his heart. he remembered that now very vividly, and it became a clue to endless other memories that had else been dispersed and confusing. a weakly wilful being struggling to get obdurate things round impossible corners--in that symbol mr. polly could recognise himself and all the trouble of humanity. he hadn't had a particularly good time, poor old chap, and now it was all over. finished.... johnson was the sort of man who derives great satisfaction from a funeral, a melancholy, serious, practical-minded man of five and thirty, with great powers of advice. he was the up-line ticket clerk at easewood junction, and felt the responsibilities of his position. he was naturally thoughtful and reserved, and greatly sustained in that by an innate rectitude of body and an overhanging and forward inclination of the upper part of his face and head. he was pale but freckled, and his dark grey eyes were deeply set. his lightest interest was cricket, but he did not take that lightly. his chief holiday was to go to a cricket match, which he did as if he was going to church, and he watched critically, applauded sparingly, and was darkly offended by any unorthodox play. his convictions upon all subjects were taciturnly inflexible. he was an obstinate player of draughts and chess, and an earnest and persistent reader of the _british weekly_. his wife was a pink, short, wilfully smiling, managing, ingratiating, talkative woman, who was determined to be pleasant, and take a bright hopeful view of everything, even when it was not really bright and hopeful. she had large blue expressive eyes and a round face, and she always spoke of her husband as harold. she addressed sympathetic and considerate remarks about the deceased to mr. polly in notes of brisk encouragement. "he was really quite cheerful at the end," she said several times, with congratulatory gusto, "quite cheerful." she made dying seem almost agreeable. both these people were resolved to treat mr. polly very well, and to help his exceptional incompetence in every possible way, and after a simple supper of ham and bread and cheese and pickles and cold apple tart and small beer had been cleared away, they put him into the armchair almost as though he was an invalid, and sat on chairs that made them look down on him, and opened a directive discussion of the arrangements for the funeral. after all a funeral is a distinct social opportunity, and rare when you have no family and few relations, and they did not want to see it spoilt and wasted. "you'll have a hearse of course," said mrs. johnson. "not one of them combinations with the driver sitting on the coffin. disrespectful i think they are. i can't fancy how people can bring themselves to be buried in combinations." she flattened her voice in a manner she used to intimate aesthetic feeling. "i _do_ like them glass hearses," she said. "so refined and nice they are." "podger's hearse you'll have," said johnson conclusively. "it's the best in easewood." "everything that's right and proper," said mr. polly. "podger's ready to come and measure at any time," said johnson. "then you'll want a mourner's carriage or two, according as to whom you're going to invite," said mr. johnson. "didn't think of inviting any one," said polly. "oh! you'll _have_ to ask a few friends," said mr. johnson. "you can't let your father go to his grave without asking a few friends." "funerial baked meats like," said mr. polly. "not baked, but of course you'll have to give them something. ham and chicken's very suitable. you don't want a lot of cooking with the ceremony coming into the middle of it. i wonder who alfred ought to invite, harold. just the immediate relations; one doesn't want a great crowd of people and one doesn't want not to show respect." "but he hated our relations--most of them." "he's not hating them _now_," said mrs. johnson, "you may be sure of that. it's just because of that i think they ought to come--all of them--even your aunt mildred." "bit vulturial, isn't it?" said mr. polly unheeded. "wouldn't be more than twelve or thirteen people if they _all_ came," said mr. johnson. "we could have everything put out ready in the back room and the gloves and whiskey in the front room, and while we were all at the ceremony, bessie could bring it all into the front room on a tray and put it out nice and proper. there'd have to be whiskey and sherry or port for the ladies...." "where'll you get your mourning?" asked johnson abruptly. mr. polly had not yet considered this by-product of sorrow. "haven't thought of it yet, o' man." a disagreeable feeling spread over his body as though he was blackening as he sat. he hated black garments. "i suppose i must have mourning," he said. "well!" said johnson with a solemn smile. "got to see it through," said mr. polly indistinctly. "if i were you," said johnson, "i should get ready-made trousers. that's all you really want. and a black satin tie and a top hat with a deep mourning band. and gloves." "jet cuff links he ought to have--as chief mourner," said mrs. johnson. "not obligatory," said johnson. "it shows respect," said mrs. johnson. "it shows respect of course," said johnson. and then mrs. johnson went on with the utmost gusto to the details of the "casket," while mr. polly sat more and more deeply and droopingly into the armchair, assenting with a note of protest to all they said. after he had retired for the night he remained for a long time perched on the edge of the sofa which was his bed, staring at the prospect before him. "chasing the o' man about up to the last," he said. he hated the thought and elaboration of death as a healthy animal must hate it. his mind struggled with unwonted social problems. "got to put 'em away somehow, i suppose," said mr. polly. "wish i'd looked him up a bit more while he was alive," said mr. polly. ii bereavement came to mr. polly before the realisation of opulence and its anxieties and responsibilities. that only dawned upon him on the morrow--which chanced to be sunday--as he walked with johnson before church time about the tangle of struggling building enterprise that constituted the rising urban district of easewood. johnson was off duty that morning, and devoted the time very generously to the admonitory discussion of mr. polly's worldly outlook. "don't seem to get the hang of the business somehow," said mr. polly. "too much blooming humbug in it for my way of thinking." "if i were you," said mr. johnson, "i should push for a first-class place in london--take almost nothing and live on my reserves. that's what i should do." "come the heavy," said mr. polly. "get a better class reference." there was a pause. "think of investing your money?" asked johnson. "hardly got used to the idea of having it yet, o' man." "you'll have to do something with it. give you nearly twenty pounds a year if you invest it properly." "haven't seen it yet in that light," said mr. polly defensively. "there's no end of things you could put it into." "it's getting it out again i shouldn't feel sure of. i'm no sort of fiancianier. sooner back horses." "i wouldn't do that if i were you." "not my style, o' man." "it's a nest egg," said johnson. mr. polly made an indeterminate noise. "there's building societies," johnson threw out in a speculative tone. mr. polly, with detached brevity, admitted there were. "you might lend it on mortgage," said johnson. "very safe form of investment." "shan't think anything about it--not till the o' man's underground," said mr. polly with an inspiration. they turned a corner that led towards the junction. "might do worse," said johnson, "than put it into a small shop." at the moment this remark made very little appeal to mr. polly. but afterwards it developed. it fell into his mind like some small obscure seed, and germinated. "these shops aren't in a bad position," said johnson. the row he referred to gaped in the late painful stage in building before the healing touch of the plasterer assuages the roughness of the brickwork. the space for the shop yawned an oblong gap below, framed above by an iron girder; "windows and fittings to suit tenant," a board at the end of the row promised; and behind was the door space and a glimpse of stairs going up to the living rooms above. "not a bad position," said johnson, and led the way into the establishment. "room for fixtures there," he said, pointing to the blank wall. the two men went upstairs to the little sitting-room or best bedroom (it would have to be) above the shop. then they descended to the kitchen below. "rooms in a new house always look a bit small," said johnson. they came out of the house again by the prospective back door, and picked their way through builder's litter across the yard space to the road again. they drew nearer the junction to where a pavement and shops already open and active formed the commercial centre of easewood. on the opposite side of the way the side door of a flourishing little establishment opened, and a man and his wife and a little boy in a sailor suit came into the street. the wife was a pretty woman in brown with a floriferous straw hat, and the group was altogether very sundayfied and shiny and spick and span. the shop itself had a large plate-glass window whose contents were now veiled by a buff blind on which was inscribed in scrolly letters: "rymer, pork butcher and provision merchant," and then with voluptuous elaboration: "the world-famed easewood sausage." greetings were exchanged between mr. johnson and this distinguished comestible. "off to church already?" said johnson. "walking across the fields to little dorington," said mr. rymer. "very pleasant walk," said johnson. "very," said mr. rymer. "hope you'll enjoy it," said mr. johnson. "that chap's done well," said johnson _sotto voce_ as they went on. "came here with nothing--practically, four years ago. and as thin as a lath. look at him now! "he's worked hard of course," said johnson, improving the occasion. thought fell between the cousins for a space. "some men can do one thing," said johnson, "and some another.... for a man who sticks to it there's a lot to be done in a shop." iii all the preparations for the funeral ran easily and happily under mrs. johnson's skilful hands. on the eve of the sad event she produced a reserve of black sateen, the kitchen steps and a box of tin-tacks, and decorated the house with festoons and bows of black in the best possible taste. she tied up the knocker with black crape, and put a large bow over the corner of the steel engraving of garibaldi, and swathed the bust of mr. gladstone, that had belonged to the deceased, with inky swathings. she turned the two vases that had views of tivoli and the bay of naples round, so that these rather brilliant landscapes were hidden and only the plain blue enamel showed, and she anticipated the long-contemplated purchase of a tablecloth for the front room, and substituted a violet purple cover for the now very worn and faded raptures and roses in plushette that had hitherto done duty there. everything that loving consideration could do to impart a dignified solemnity to her little home was done. she had released mr. polly from the irksome duty of issuing invitations, and as the moments of assembly drew near she sent him and mr. johnson out into the narrow long strip of garden at the back of the house, to be free to put a finishing touch or so to her preparations. she sent them out together because she had a queer little persuasion at the back of her mind that mr. polly wanted to bolt from his sacred duties, and there was no way out of the garden except through the house. mr. johnson was a steady, successful gardener, and particularly good with celery and peas. he walked slowly along the narrow path down the centre pointing out to mr. polly a number of interesting points in the management of peas, wrinkles neatly applied and difficulties wisely overcome, and all that he did for the comfort and propitiation of that fitful but rewarding vegetable. presently a sound of nervous laughter and raised voices from the house proclaimed the arrival of the earlier guests, and the worst of that anticipatory tension was over. when mr. polly re-entered the house he found three entirely strange young women with pink faces, demonstrative manners and emphatic mourning, engaged in an incoherent conversation with mrs. johnson. all three kissed him with great gusto after the ancient english fashion. "these are your cousins larkins," said mrs. johnson; "that's annie (unexpected hug and smack), that's miriam (resolute hug and smack), and that's minnie (prolonged hug and smack)." "right-o," said mr. polly, emerging a little crumpled and breathless from this hearty introduction. "i see." "here's aunt larkins," said mrs. johnson, as an elderly and stouter edition of the three young women appeared in the doorway. mr. polly backed rather faint-heartedly, but aunt larkins was not to be denied. having hugged and kissed her nephew resoundingly she gripped him by the wrists and scanned his features. she had a round, sentimental, freckled face. "i should '_ave_ known 'im anywhere," she said with fervour. "hark at mother!" said the cousin called annie. "why, she's never set eyes on him before!" "i should '_ave_ known 'im anywhere," said mrs. larkins, "for lizzie's child. you've got her eyes! it's a resemblance! and as for _never seeing 'im_-- i've _dandled_ him, miss imperence. i've dandled him." "you couldn't dandle him now, ma!" miss annie remarked with a shriek of laughter. all the sisters laughed at that. "the things you say, annie!" said miriam, and for a time the room was full of mirth. mr. polly felt it incumbent upon him to say something. "_my_ dandling days are over," he said. the reception of this remark would have convinced a far more modest character than mr. polly that it was extremely witty. mr. polly followed it up by another one almost equally good. "my turn to dandle," he said, with a sly look at his aunt, and convulsed everyone. "not me," said mrs. larkins, taking his point, "_thank_ you," and achieved a climax. it was queer, but they seemed to be easy people to get on with anyhow. they were still picking little ripples and giggles of mirth from the idea of mr. polly dandling aunt larkins when mr. johnson, who had answered the door, ushered in a stooping figure, who was at once hailed by mrs. johnson as "why! uncle pentstemon!" uncle pentstemon was rather a shock. his was an aged rather than venerable figure; time had removed the hair from the top of his head and distributed a small dividend of the plunder in little bunches carelessly and impartially over the rest of his features; he was dressed in a very big old frock coat and a long cylindrical top hat, which he had kept on; he was very much bent, and he carried a rush basket from which protruded coy intimations of the lettuces and onions he had brought to grace the occasion. he hobbled into the room, resisting the efforts of johnson to divest him of his various encumbrances, halted and surveyed the company with an expression of profound hostility, breathing hard. recognition quickened in his eyes. "_you_ here," he said to aunt larkins and then; "you _would_ be.... these your gals?" "they are," said aunt larkins, "and better gals----" "that annie?" asked uncle pentstemon, pointing a horny thumb-nail. "fancy your remembering her name!" "she mucked up my mushroom bed, the baggage!" said uncle pentstemon ungenially, "and i give it to her to rights. trounced her i did--fairly. i remember her. here's some green stuff for you, grace. fresh it is and wholesome. i shall be wanting the basket back and mind you let me have it.... have you nailed him down yet? you always was a bit in front of what was needful." his attention was drawn inward by a troublesome tooth, and he sucked at it spitefully. there was something potent about this old man that silenced everyone for a moment or so. he seemed a fragment from the ruder agricultural past of our race, like a lump of soil among things of paper. he put his basket of vegetables very deliberately on the new violet tablecloth, removed his hat carefully and dabbled his brow, and wiped out his hat brim with a crimson and yellow pocket handkerchief. "i'm glad you were able to come, uncle," said mrs. johnson. "oh, i _came_" said uncle pentstemon. "i _came_." he turned on mrs. larkins. "gals in service?" he asked. "they aren't and they won't be," said mrs. larkins. "no," he said with infinite meaning, and turned his eye on mr. polly. "you lizzie's boy?" he said. mr. polly was spared much self-exposition by the tumult occasioned by further arrivals. "ah! here's may punt!" said mrs. johnson, and a small woman dressed in the borrowed mourning of a large woman and leading a very small long-haired observant little boy--it was his first funeral--appeared, closely followed by several friends of mrs. johnson who had come to swell the display of respect and made only vague, confused impressions upon mr. polly's mind. (aunt mildred, who was an unexplained family scandal, had declined mrs. johnson's hospitality.) everybody was in profound mourning, of course, mourning in the modern english style, with the dyer's handiwork only too apparent, and hats and jackets of the current cut. there was very little crape, and the costumes had none of the goodness and specialisation and genuine enjoyment of mourning for mourning's sake that a similar continental gathering would have displayed. still that congestion of strangers in black sufficed to stun and confuse mr. polly's impressionable mind. it seemed to him much more extraordinary than anything he had expected. "now, gals," said mrs. larkins, "see if you can help," and the three daughters became confusingly active between the front room and the back. "i hope everyone'll take a glass of sherry and a biscuit," said mrs. johnson. "we don't stand on ceremony," and a decanter appeared in the place of uncle pentstemon's vegetables. uncle pentstemon had refused to be relieved of his hat; he sat stiffly down on a chair against the wall with that venerable headdress between his feet, watching the approach of anyone jealously. "don't you go squashing my hat," he said. conversation became confused and general. uncle pentstemon addressed himself to mr. polly. "you're a little chap," he said, "a puny little chap. i never did agree to lizzie marrying him, but i suppose by-gones must be bygones now. i suppose they made you a clerk or something." "outfitter," said mr. polly. "i remember. them girls pretend to be dressmakers." "they _are_ dressmakers," said mrs. larkins across the room. "i _will_ take a glass of sherry. they 'old to it, you see." he took the glass mrs. johnson handed him, and poised it critically between a horny finger and thumb. "you'll be paying for this," he said to mr. polly. "here's _to_ you.... don't you go treading on my hat, young woman. you brush your skirts against it and you take a shillin' off its value. it ain't the sort of 'at you see nowadays." he drank noisily. the sherry presently loosened everybody's tongue, and the early coldness passed. "there ought to have been a _post-mortem_," polly heard mrs. punt remarking to one of mrs. johnson's friends, and miriam and another were lost in admiration of mrs. johnson's decorations. "so very nice and refined," they were both repeating at intervals. the sherry and biscuits were still being discussed when mr. podger, the undertaker, arrived, a broad, cheerfully sorrowful, clean-shaven little man, accompanied by a melancholy-faced assistant. he conversed for a time with johnson in the passage outside; the sense of his business stilled the rising waves of chatter and carried off everyone's attention in the wake of his heavy footsteps to the room above. iv things crowded upon mr. polly. everyone, he noticed, took sherry with a solemn avidity, and a small portion even was administered sacramentally to the punt boy. there followed a distribution of black kid gloves, and much trying on and humouring of fingers. "_good_ gloves," said one of mrs. johnson's friends. "there's a little pair there for willie," said mrs. johnson triumphantly. everyone seemed gravely content with the amazing procedure of the occasion. presently mr. podger was picking mr. polly out as chief mourner to go with mrs. johnson, mrs. larkins and annie in the first mourning carriage. "right o," said mr. polly, and repented instantly of the alacrity of the phrase. "there'll have to be a walking party," said mrs. johnson cheerfully. "there's only two coaches. i daresay we can put in six in each, but that leaves three over." there was a generous struggle to be pedestrian, and the two other larkins girls, confessing coyly to tight new boots and displaying a certain eagerness, were added to the contents of the first carriage. "it'll be a squeeze," said annie. "_i_ don't mind a squeeze," said mr. polly. he decided privately that the proper phrase for the result of that remark was "hysterial catechunations." mr. podger re-entered the room from a momentary supervision of the bumping business that was now proceeding down the staircase. "bearing up," he said cheerfully, rubbing his hands together. "bearing up!" that stuck very vividly in mr. polly's mind, and so did the close-wedged drive to the churchyard, bunched in between two young women in confused dull and shiny black, and the fact that the wind was bleak and that the officiating clergyman had a cold, and sniffed between his sentences. the wonder of life! the wonder of everything! what had he expected that this should all be so astoundingly different. he found his attention converging more and more upon the larkins cousins. the interest was reciprocal. they watched him with a kind of suppressed excitement and became risible with his every word and gesture. he was more and more aware of their personal quality. annie had blue eyes and a red, attractive mouth, a harsh voice and a habit of extreme liveliness that even this occasion could not suppress; minnie was fond, extremely free about the touching of hands and suchlike endearments; miriam was quieter and regarded him earnestly. mrs. larkins was very happy in her daughters, and they had the naïve affectionateness of those who see few people and find a strange cousin a wonderful outlet. mr. polly had never been very much kissed, and it made his mind swim. he did not know for the life of him whether he liked or disliked all or any of the larkins cousins. it was rather attractive to make them laugh; they laughed at anything. there they were tugging at his mind, and the funeral tugging at his mind, too, and the sense of himself as chief mourner in a brand new silk hat with a broad mourning band. he watched the ceremony and missed his responses, and strange feelings twisted at his heartstrings. v mr. polly walked back to the house because he wanted to be alone. miriam and minnie would have accompanied him, but finding uncle pentstemon beside the chief mourner they went on in front. "you're wise," said uncle pentstemon. "glad you think so," said mr. polly, rousing himself to talk. "i likes a bit of walking before a meal," said uncle pentstemon, and made a kind of large hiccup. "that sherry rises," he remarked. "grocer's stuff, i expect." he went on to ask how much the funeral might be costing, and seemed pleased to find mr. polly didn't know. "in that case," he said impressively, "it's pretty certain to cost more'n you expect, my boy." he meditated for a time. "i've seen a mort of undertakers," he declared; "a mort of undertakers." the larkins girls attracted his attention. "let's lodgin's and chars," he commented. "leastways she goes out to cook dinners. and look at 'em! "dressed up to the nines. if it ain't borryd clothes, that is. and they goes out to work at a factory!" "did you know my father much, uncle pentstemon?" asked mr. polly. "couldn't stand lizzie throwin' herself away like that," said uncle pentstemon, and repeated his hiccup on a larger scale. "that _weren't_ good sherry," said uncle pentstemon with the first note of pathos mr. polly had detected in his quavering voice. the funeral in the rather cold wind had proved wonderfully appetising, and every eye brightened at the sight of the cold collation that was now spread in the front room. mrs. johnson was very brisk, and mr. polly, when he re-entered the house found everybody sitting down. "come along, alfred," cried the hostess cheerfully. "we can't very well begin without you. have you got the bottled beer ready to open, betsy? uncle, you'll have a drop of whiskey, i expect." "put it where i can mix for myself," said uncle pentstemon, placing his hat very carefully out of harm's way on the bookcase. there were two cold boiled chickens, which johnson carved with great care and justice, and a nice piece of ham, some brawn and a steak and kidney pie, a large bowl of salad and several sorts of pickles, and afterwards came cold apple tart, jam roll and a good piece of stilton cheese, lots of bottled beer, some lemonade for the ladies and milk for master punt; a very bright and satisfying meal. mr. polly found himself seated between mrs. punt, who was much preoccupied with master punt's table manners, and one of mrs. johnson's school friends, who was exchanging reminiscences of school days and news of how various common friends had changed and married with mrs. johnson. opposite him was miriam and another of the johnson circle, and also he had brawn to carve and there was hardly room for the helpful betsy to pass behind his chair, so that altogether his mind would have been amply distracted from any mortuary broodings, even if a wordy warfare about the education of the modern young woman had not sprung up between uncle pentstemon and mrs. larkins and threatened for a time, in spite of a word or so in season from johnson, to wreck all the harmony of the sad occasion. the general effect was after this fashion: first an impression of mrs. punt on the right speaking in a refined undertone: "you didn't, i suppose, mr. polly, think to '_ave_ your poor dear father post-mortemed--" lady on the left side breaking in: "i was just reminding grace of the dear dead days beyond recall--" attempted reply to mrs. punt: "didn't think of it for a moment. can't give you a piece of this brawn, can i?" fragment from the left: "grace and beauty they used to call us and we used to sit at the same desk--" mrs. punt, breaking out suddenly: "don't _swaller_ your fork, willy. you see, mr. polly, i used to '_ave_ a young gentleman, a medical student, lodging with me--" voice from down the table: "'am, alfred? i didn't give you very much." bessie became evident at the back of mr. polly's chair, struggling wildly to get past. mr. polly did his best to be helpful. "can you get past? lemme sit forward a bit. urr-oo! right o." lady to the left going on valiantly and speaking to everyone who cares to listen, while mrs. johnson beams beside her: "there she used to sit as bold as brass, and the fun she used to make of things no one _could_ believe--knowing her now. she used to make faces at the mistress through the--" mrs. punt keeping steadily on: "the contents of the stummik at any rate _ought_ to be examined." voice of mr. johnson. "elfrid, pass the mustid down." miriam leaning across the table: "elfrid!" "once she got us all kept in. the whole school!" miriam, more insistently: "elfrid!" uncle pentstemon, raising his voice defiantly: "trounce 'er again i would if she did as much now. that i would! dratted mischief!" miriam, catching mr. polly's eye: "elfrid! this lady knows canterbury. i been telling her you been there." mr. polly: "glad you know it." the lady shouting: "i like it." mrs. larkins, raising her voice: "i won't '_ave_ my girls spoken of, not by nobody, old or young." pop! imperfectly located. mr. johnson at large: "_ain't_ the beer up! it's the 'eated room." bessie: "scuse me, sir, passing so soon again, but--" rest inaudible. mr. polly, accommodating himself: "urr-oo! right? right o." the knives and forks, probably by some secret common agreement, clash and clatter together and drown every other sound. "nobody 'ad the least idea 'ow 'e died,--nobody.... willie, don't _golp_ so. you ain't in a 'urry, are you? you don't want to ketch a train or anything,--golping like that!" "d'you remember, grace, 'ow one day we 'ad writing lesson...." "nicer girls no one ever 'ad--though i say it who shouldn't." mrs. johnson in a shrill clear hospitable voice: "harold, won't mrs. larkins '_ave_ a teeny bit more fowl?" mr. polly rising to the situation. "or some brawn, mrs. larkins?" catching uncle pentstemon's eye: "can't send _you_ some brawn, sir?" "elfrid!" loud hiccup from uncle pentstemon, momentary consternation followed by giggle from annie. the narration at mr. polly's elbow pursued a quiet but relentless course. "directly the new doctor came in he said: 'everything must be took out and put in spirits--everything.'" willie,--audible ingurgitation. the narration on the left was flourishing up to a climax. "ladies," she sez, "dip their pens _in_ their ink and keep their noses out of it!" "elfrid!"--persuasively. "certain people may cast snacks at other people's daughters, never having had any of their own, though two poor souls of wives dead and buried through their goings on--" johnson ruling the storm: "we don't want old scores dug up on such a day as this--" "old scores you may call them, but worth a dozen of them that put them to their rest, poor dears." "elfrid!"--with a note of remonstrance. "if you choke yourself, my lord, not another mouthful do you '_ave_. no nice puddin'! nothing!" "and kept us in, she did, every afternoon for a week!" it seemed to be the end, and mr. polly replied with an air of being profoundly impressed: "really!" "elfrid!"--a little disheartened. "and then they 'ad it! they found he'd swallowed the very key to unlock the drawer--" "then don't let people go casting snacks!" "_who's_ casting snacks!" "elfrid! this lady wants to _know_, '_ave_ the prossers left canterbury?" "no wish to make myself disagreeable, not to god's 'umblest worm--" "alf, you aren't very busy with that brawn up there!" and so on for the hour. the general effect upon mr. polly at the time was at once confusing and exhilarating; but it led him to eat copiously and carelessly, and long before the end, when after an hour and a quarter a movement took the party, and it pushed away its cheese plates and rose sighing and stretching from the remains of the repast, little streaks and bands of dyspeptic irritation and melancholy were darkening the serenity of his mind. he stood between the mantel shelf and the window--the blinds were up now--and the larkins sisters clustered about him. he battled with the oncoming depression and forced himself to be extremely facetious about two noticeable rings on annie's hand. "they ain't real," said annie coquettishly. "got 'em out of a prize packet." "prize packet in trousers, i expect," said mr. polly, and awakened inextinguishable laughter. "oh! the things you say!" said minnie, slapping his shoulder. suddenly something he had quite extraordinarily forgotten came into his head. "bless my heart!" he cried, suddenly serious. "what's the matter?" asked johnson. "ought to have gone back to shop--three days ago. they'll make no end of a row!" "lor, you _are_ a treat!" said cousin annie, and screamed with laughter at a delicious idea. "you'll get the chuck," she said. mr. polly made a convulsing grimace at her. "i'll die!" she said. "i don't believe you care a bit!" feeling a little disorganized by her hilarity and a shocked expression that had come to the face of cousin miriam, he made some indistinct excuse and went out through the back room and scullery into the little garden. the cool air and a very slight drizzle of rain was a relief--anyhow. but the black mood of the replete dyspeptic had come upon him. his soul darkened hopelessly. he walked with his hands in his pockets down the path between the rows of exceptionally cultured peas and unreasonably, overwhelmingly, he was smitten by sorrow for his father. the heady noise and muddle and confused excitement of the feast passed from him like a curtain drawn away. he thought of that hot and angry and struggling creature who had tugged and sworn so foolishly at the sofa upon the twisted staircase, and who was now lying still and hidden, at the bottom of a wall-sided oblong pit beside the heaped gravel that would presently cover him. the stillness of it! the wonder of it! the infinite reproach! hatred for all these people--all of them--possessed mr. polly's soul. "hen-witted gigglers," said mr. polly. he went down to the fence, and stood with his hands on it staring away at nothing. he stayed there for what seemed a long time. from the house came a sound of raised voices that subsided, and then mrs. johnson calling for bessie. "gowlish gusto," said mr. polly. "jumping it in. funererial games. don't hurt _him_ of course. doesn't matter to _him_...." nobody missed mr. polly for a long time. when at last he reappeared among them his eye was almost grim, but nobody noticed his eye. they were looking at watches, and johnson was being omniscient about trains. they seemed to discover mr. polly afresh just at the moment of parting, and said a number of more or less appropriate things. but uncle pentstemon was far too worried about his rush basket, which had been carelessly mislaid, he seemed to think with larcenous intentions, to remember mr. polly at all. mrs. johnson had tried to fob him off with a similar but inferior basket,--his own had one handle mended with string according to a method of peculiar virtue and inimitable distinction known only to himself--and the old gentleman had taken her attempt as the gravest reflection upon his years and intelligence. mr. polly was left very largely to the larkins trio. cousin minnie became shameless and kept kissing him good-by--and then finding out it wasn't time to go. cousin miriam seemed to think her silly, and caught mr. polly's eye sympathetically. cousin annie ceased to giggle and lapsed into a nearly sentimental state. she said with real feeling that she had enjoyed the funeral more than words could tell. chapter the fifth mr. polly takes a vacation i mr. polly returned to clapham from the funeral celebration prepared for trouble, and took his dismissal in a manly spirit. "you've merely anti-_separated_ me by a hair," he said politely. and he told them in the dormitory that he meant to take a little holiday before his next crib, though a certain inherited reticence suppressed the fact of the legacy. "you'll do that all right," said ascough, the head of the boot shop. "it's quite the fashion just at present. six weeks in wonderful wood street. they're running excursions...." "a little holiday"; that was the form his sense of wealth took first, that it made a little holiday possible. holidays were his life, and the rest merely adulterated living. and now he might take a little holiday and have money for railway fares and money for meals and money for inns. but--he wanted someone to take the holiday with. for a time he cherished a design of hunting up parsons, getting him to throw up his situation, and going with him to stratford-on-avon and shrewsbury and the welsh mountains and the wye and a lot of places like that, for a really gorgeous, careless, illimitable old holiday of a month. but alas! parsons had gone from the st. paul's churchyard outfitter's long ago, and left no address. mr. polly tried to think he would be almost as happy wandering alone, but he knew better. he had dreamt of casual encounters with delightfully interesting people by the wayside--even romantic encounters. such things happened in chaucer and "bocashiew," they happened with extreme facility in mr. richard le gallienne's very detrimental book, _the quest of the golden girl_, which he had read at canterbury, but he had no confidence they would happen in england--to him. when, a month later, he came out of the clapham side door at last into the bright sunshine of a fine london day, with a dazzling sense of limitless freedom upon him, he did nothing more adventurous than order the cabman to drive to waterloo, and there take a ticket for easewood. he wanted--what _did_ he want most in life? i think his distinctive craving is best expressed as fun--fun in companionship. he had already spent a pound or two upon three select feasts to his fellow assistants, sprat suppers they were, and there had been a great and very successful sunday pilgrimage to richmond, by wandsworth and wimbledon's open common, a trailing garrulous company walking about a solemnly happy host, to wonderful cold meat and salad at the roebuck, a bowl of punch, punch! and a bill to correspond; but now it was a weekday, and he went down to easewood with his bag and portmanteau in a solitary compartment, and looked out of the window upon a world in which every possible congenial seemed either toiling in a situation or else looking for one with a gnawing and hopelessly preoccupying anxiety. he stared out of the window at the exploitation roads of suburbs, and rows of houses all very much alike, either emphatically and impatiently _to let_ or full of rather busy unsocial people. near wimbledon he had a glimpse of golf links, and saw two elderly gentlemen who, had they chosen, might have been gentlemen of grace and leisure, addressing themselves to smite little hunted white balls great distances with the utmost bitterness and dexterity. mr. polly could not understand them. every road he remarked, as freshly as though he had never observed it before, was bordered by inflexible palings or iron fences or severely disciplined hedges. he wondered if perhaps abroad there might be beautifully careless, unenclosed high roads. perhaps after all the best way of taking a holiday is to go abroad. he was haunted by the memory of what was either a half-forgotten picture or a dream; a carriage was drawn up by the wayside and four beautiful people, two men and two women graciously dressed, were dancing a formal ceremonious dance full of bows and curtseys, to the music of a wandering fiddler they had encountered. they had been driving one way and he walking another--a happy encounter with this obvious result. they might have come straight out of happy theleme, whose motto is: "do what thou wilt." the driver had taken his two sleek horses out; they grazed unchallenged; and he sat on a stone clapping time with his hands while the fiddler played. the shade of the trees did not altogether shut out the sunshine, the grass in the wood was lush and full of still daffodils, the turf they danced on was starred with daisies. mr. polly, dear heart! firmly believed that things like that could and did happen--somewhere. only it puzzled him that morning that he never saw them happening. perhaps they happened south of guilford. perhaps they happened in italy. perhaps they ceased to happen a hundred years ago. perhaps they happened just round the corner--on weekdays when all good mr. pollys are safely shut up in shops. and so dreaming of delightful impossibilities until his heart ached for them, he was rattled along in the suburban train to johnson's discreet home and the briskly stimulating welcome of mrs. johnson. ii mr. polly translated his restless craving for joy and leisure into harold johnsonese by saying that he meant to look about him for a bit before going into another situation. it was a decision johnson very warmly approved. it was arranged that mr. polly should occupy his former room and board with the johnsons in consideration of a weekly payment of eighteen shillings. and the next morning mr. polly went out early and reappeared with a purchase, a safety bicycle, which he proposed to study and master in the sandy lane below the johnsons' house. but over the struggles that preceded his mastery it is humane to draw a veil. and also mr. polly bought a number of books, rabelais for his own, and "the arabian nights," the works of sterne, a pile of "tales from blackwood," cheap in a second-hand bookshop, the plays of william shakespeare, a second-hand copy of belloc's "road to rome," an odd volume of "purchas his pilgrimes" and "the life and death of jason." "better get yourself a good book on bookkeeping," said johnson, turning over perplexing pages. a belated spring was now advancing with great strides to make up for lost time. sunshine and a stirring wind were poured out over the land, fleets of towering clouds sailed upon urgent tremendous missions across the blue seas of heaven, and presently mr. polly was riding a little unstably along unfamiliar surrey roads, wondering always what was round the next corner, and marking the blackthorn and looking out for the first white flower-buds of the may. he was perplexed and distressed, as indeed are all right thinking souls, that there is no may in early may. he did not ride at the even pace sensible people use who have marked out a journey from one place to another, and settled what time it will take them. he rode at variable speeds, and always as though he was looking for something that, missing, left life attractive still, but a little wanting in significance. and sometimes he was so unreasonably happy he had to whistle and sing, and sometimes he was incredibly, but not at all painfully, sad. his indigestion vanished with air and exercise, and it was quite pleasant in the evening to stroll about the garden with johnson and discuss plans for the future. johnson was full of ideas. moreover, mr. polly had marked the road that led to stamton, that rising populous suburb; and as his bicycle legs grew strong his wheel with a sort of inevitableness carried him towards the row of houses in a back street in which his larkins cousins made their home together. he was received with great enthusiasm. the street was a dingy little street, a _cul-de-sac_ of very small houses in a row, each with an almost flattened bow window and a blistered brown door with a black knocker. he poised his bright new bicycle against the window, and knocked and stood waiting, and felt himself in his straw hat and black serge suit a very pleasant and prosperous-looking figure. the door was opened by cousin miriam. she was wearing a bluish print dress that brought out a kind of sallow warmth in her skin, and although it was nearly four o'clock in the afternoon, her sleeves were tucked up, as if for some domestic work, above the elbows, showing her rather slender but very shapely yellowish arms. the loosely pinned bodice confessed a delicately rounded neck. for a moment she regarded him with suspicion and a faint hostility, and then recognition dawned in her eyes. "why!" she said, "it's cousin elfrid!" "thought i'd look you up," he said. "fancy! you coming to see us like this!" she answered. they stood confronting one another for a moment, while miriam collected herself for the unexpected emergency. "explorations menanderings," said mr. polly, indicating the bicycle. miriam's face betrayed no appreciation of the remark. "wait a moment," she said, coming to a rapid decision, "and i'll tell ma." she closed the door on him abruptly, leaving him a little surprised in the street. "ma!" he heard her calling, and swift speech followed, the import of which he didn't catch. then she reappeared. it seemed but an instant, but she was changed; the arms had vanished into sleeves, the apron had gone, a certain pleasing disorder of the hair had been at least reproved. "i didn't mean to shut you out," she said, coming out upon the step. "i just told ma. how are you, elfrid? you _are_ looking well. i didn't know you rode a bicycle. is it a new one?" she leaned upon his bicycle. "bright it is!" she said. "what a trouble you must have to keep it clean!" mr. polly was aware of a rustling transit along the passage, and of the house suddenly full of hushed but strenuous movement. "it's plated mostly," said mr. polly. "what do you carry in that little bag thing?" she asked, and then branched off to: "we're all in a mess to-day you know. it's my cleaning up day to-day. i'm not a bit tidy i know, but i _do_ like to '_ave_ a go in at things now and then. you got to take us as you find us, elfrid. mercy we wasn't all out." she paused. she was talking against time. "i _am_ glad to see you again," she repeated. "couldn't keep away," said mr. polly gallantly. "had to come over and see my pretty cousins again." miriam did not answer for a moment. she coloured deeply. "you _do say_ things!" she said. she stared at mr. polly, and his unfortunate sense of fitness made him nod his head towards her, regard her firmly with a round brown eye, and add impressively: "i don't say _which_ of them." her answering expression made him realise for an instant the terrible dangers he trifled with. avidity flared up in her eyes. minnie's voice came happily to dissolve the situation. "'ello, elfrid!" she said from the doorstep. her hair was just passably tidy, and she was a little effaced by a red blouse, but there was no mistaking the genuine brightness of her welcome. he was to come in to tea, and mrs. larkins, exuberantly genial in a floriferous but dingy flannel dressing gown, appeared to confirm that. he brought in his bicycle and put it in the narrow, empty passage, and everyone crowded into a small untidy kitchen, whose table had been hastily cleared of the _débris_ of the midday repast. "you must come in 'ere," said mrs. larkins, "for miriam's turning out the front room. i never did see such a girl for cleanin' up. miriam's 'oliday's a scrub. you've caught us on the 'op as the sayin' is, but welcome all the same. pity annie's at work to-day; she won't be 'ome till seven." miriam put chairs and attended to the fire, minnie edged up to mr. polly and said: "i _am_ glad to see you again, elfrid," with a warm contiguous intimacy that betrayed a broken tooth. mrs. larkins got out tea things, and descanted on the noble simplicity of their lives, and how he "mustn't mind our simple ways." they enveloped mr. polly with a geniality that intoxicated his amiable nature; he insisted upon helping lay the things, and created enormous laughter by pretending not to know where plates and knives and cups ought to go. "who'm i going to sit next?" he said, and developed voluminous amusement by attempts to arrange the plates so that he could rub elbows with all three. mrs. larkins had to sit down in the windsor chair by the grandfather clock (which was dark with dirt and not going) to laugh at her ease at his well-acted perplexity. they got seated at last, and mr. polly struck a vein of humour in telling them how he learnt to ride the bicycle. he found the mere repetition of the word "wabble" sufficient to produce almost inextinguishable mirth. "no foreseeing little accidentulous misadventures," he said, "none whatever." (giggle from minnie.) "stout elderly gentleman--shirt sleeves--large straw wastepaper basket sort of hat--starts to cross the road--going to the oil shop--prodic refreshment of oil can--" "don't say you run 'im down," said mrs. larkins, gasping. "don't say you run 'im down, elfrid!" "run 'im down! not me, madam. i never run anything down. wabble. ring the bell. wabble, wabble--" (laughter and tears.) "no one's going to run him down. hears the bell! wabble. gust of wind. off comes the hat smack into the wheel. wabble. _lord! what's_ going to happen? hat across the road, old gentleman after it, bell, shriek. he ran into me. didn't ring his bell, hadn't _got_ a bell--just ran into me. over i went clinging to his venerable head. down he went with me clinging to him. oil can blump, blump into the road." (interlude while minnie is attended to for crumb in the windpipe.) "well, what happened to the old man with the oil can?" said mrs. larkins. "we sat about among the debreece and had a bit of an argument. i told him he oughtn't to come out wearing such a dangerous hat--flying at things. said if he couldn't control his hat he ought to leave it at home. high old jawbacious argument we had, i tell you. 'i tell you, sir--' 'i tell _you_, sir.' waw-waw-waw. infuriacious. but that's the sort of thing that's constantly happening you know--on a bicycle. people run into you, hens and cats and dogs and things. everything seems to have its mark on you; everything." "_you_ never run into anything." "never. swelpme," said mr. polly very solemnly. "never, 'e say!" squealed minnie. "hark at 'im!" and relapsed into a condition that urgently demanded back thumping. "don't be so silly," said miriam, thumping hard. mr. polly had never been such a social success before. they hung upon his every word--and laughed. what a family they were for laughter! and he loved laughter. the background he apprehended dimly; it was very much the sort of background his life had always had. there was a threadbare tablecloth on the table, and the slop basin and teapot did not go with the cups and saucers, the plates were different again, the knives worn down, the butter lived in a greenish glass dish of its own. behind was a dresser hung with spare and miscellaneous crockery, with a workbox and an untidy work-basket, there was an ailing musk plant in the window, and the tattered and blotched wallpaper was covered by bright-coloured grocers' almanacs. feminine wrappings hung from pegs upon the door, and the floor was covered with a varied collection of fragments of oilcloth. the windsor chair he sat in was unstable--which presently afforded material for humour. "steady, old nag," he said; "whoa, my friskiacious palfry!" "the things he says! you never know what he won't say next!" iii "you ain't talkin' of goin'!" cried mrs. larkins. "supper at eight." "stay to supper with _us_, now you '_ave_ come over," said mrs. larkins, with corroborating cries from minnie. "'ave a bit of a walk with the gals, and then come back to supper. you might all go and meet annie while i straighten up, and lay things out." "you're not to go touching the front room mind," said miriam. "_who's_ going to touch yer front room?" said mrs. larkins, apparently forgetful for a moment of mr. polly. both girls dressed with some care while mrs. larkins sketched the better side of their characters, and then the three young people went out to see something of stamton. in the streets their risible mood gave way to a self-conscious propriety that was particularly evident in miriam's bearing. they took mr. polly to the stamton wreckeryation ground--that at least was what they called it--with its handsome custodian's cottage, its asphalt paths, its jubilee drinking fountain, its clumps of wallflower and daffodils, and so to the new cemetery and a distant view of the surrey hills, and round by the gasworks to the canal to the factory, that presently disgorged a surprised and radiant annie. "el-_lo_" said annie. it is very pleasant to every properly constituted mind to be a centre of amiable interest for one's fellow creatures, and when one is a young man conscious of becoming mourning and a certain wit, and the fellow creatures are three young and ardent and sufficiently expressive young women who dispute for the honour of walking by one's side, one may be excused a secret exaltation. they did dispute. "i'm going to '_ave_ 'im now," said annie. "you two've been 'aving 'im all the afternoon. besides, i've got something to say to him." she had something to say to him. it came presently. "i say," she said abruptly. "i _did_ get them rings out of a prize packet." "what rings?" asked mr. polly. "what you saw at your poor father's funeral. you made out they meant something. they didn't--straight." "then some people have been very remiss about their chances," said mr. polly, understanding. "they haven't had any chances," said annie. "i don't believe in making oneself too free with people." "nor me," said mr. polly. "i may be a bit larky and cheerful in my manner," annie admitted. "but it don't _mean_ anything. i ain't that sort." "right o," said mr. polly. iv it was past ten when mr. polly found himself riding back towards easewood in a broad moonlight with a little japanese lantern dangling from his handle bar and making a fiery circle of pinkish light on and round about his front wheel. he was mightily pleased with himself and the day. there had been four-ale to drink at supper mixed with gingerbeer, very free and jolly in a jug. no shadow fell upon the agreeable excitement of his mind until he faced the anxious and reproachful face of johnson, who had been sitting up for him, smoking and trying to read the odd volume of "purchas his pilgrimes,"--about the monk who went into sarmatia and saw the tartar carts. "not had an accident, elfrid?" said johnson. the weakness of mr. polly's character came out in his reply. "not much," he said. "pedal got a bit loose in stamton, o' man. couldn't ride it. so i looked up the cousins while i waited." "not the larkins lot?" "yes." johnson yawned hugely and asked for and was given friendly particulars. "well," he said, "better get to bed. i have been reading that book of yours--rum stuff. can't make it out quite. quite out of date i should say if you asked me." "that's all right, o' man," said mr. polly. "not a bit of use for anything i can see." "not a bit." "see any shops in stamton?" "nothing to speak of," said mr. polly. "goo-night, o' man." before and after this brief conversation his mind ran on his cousins very warmly and prettily in the vein of high spring. mr. polly had been drinking at the poisoned fountains of english literature, fountains so unsuited to the needs of a decent clerk or shopman, fountains charged with the dangerous suggestion that it becomes a man of gaiety and spirit to make love, gallantly and rather carelessly. it seemed to him that evening to be handsome and humorous and practicable to make love to all his cousins. it wasn't that he liked any of them particularly, but he liked something about them. he liked their youth and femininity, their resolute high spirits and their interest in him. they laughed at nothing and knew nothing, and minnie had lost a tooth and annie screamed and shouted, but they were interesting, intensely interesting. and miriam wasn't so bad as the others. he had kissed them all and had been kissed in addition several times by minnie,--"oscoolatory exercise." he buried his nose in his pillow and went to sleep--to dream of anything rather than getting on in the world, as a sensible young man in his position ought to have done. v and now mr. polly began to lead a divided life. with the johnsons he professed to be inclined, but not so conclusively inclined as to be inconvenient, to get a shop for himself, to be, to use the phrase he preferred, "looking for an opening." he would ride off in the afternoon upon that research, remarking that he was going to "cast a strategetical eye" on chertsey or weybridge. but if not all roads, still a great majority of them, led by however devious ways to stamton, and to laughter and increasing familiarity. relations developed with annie and minnie and miriam. their various characters were increasingly interesting. the laughter became perceptibly less abundant, something of the fizz had gone from the first opening, still these visits remained wonderfully friendly and upholding. then back he would come to grave but evasive discussions with johnson. johnson was really anxious to get mr. polly "into something." his was a reserved honest character, and he would really have preferred to see his lodger doing things for himself than receive his money for housekeeping. he hated waste, anybody's waste, much more than he desired profit. but mrs. johnson was all for mr. polly's loitering. she seemed much the more human and likeable of the two to mr. polly. he tried at times to work up enthusiasm for the various avenues to well-being his discussion with johnson opened. but they remained disheartening prospects. he imagined himself wonderfully smartened up, acquiring style and value in a london shop, but the picture was stiff and unconvincing. he tried to rouse himself to enthusiasm by the idea of his property increasing by leaps and bounds, by twenty pounds a year or so, let us say, each year, in a well-placed little shop, the corner shop johnson favoured. there was a certain picturesque interest in imagining cut-throat economies, but his heart told him there would be little in practising them. and then it happened to mr. polly that real romance came out of dreamland into life, and intoxicated and gladdened him with sweetly beautiful suggestions--and left him. she came and left him as that dear lady leaves so many of us, alas! not sparing him one jot or one tittle of the hollowness of her retreating aspect. it was all the more to mr. polly's taste that the thing should happen as things happen in books. in a resolute attempt not to get to stamton that day, he had turned due southward from easewood towards a country where the abundance of bracken jungles, lady's smock, stitchwork, bluebells and grassy stretches by the wayside under shady trees does much to compensate the lighter type of mind for the absence of promising "openings." he turned aside from the road, wheeled his machine along a faintly marked attractive trail through bracken until he came to a heap of logs against a high old stone wall with a damaged coping and wallflower plants already gone to seed. he sat down, balanced the straw hat on a convenient lump of wood, lit a cigarette, and abandoned himself to agreeable musings and the friendly observation of a cheerful little brown and grey bird his stillness presently encouraged to approach him. "this is all right," said mr. polly softly to the little brown and grey bird. "business--later." he reflected that he might go on this way for four or five years, and then be scarcely worse off than he had been in his father's lifetime. "vile business," said mr. polly. then romance appeared. or to be exact, romance became audible. romance began as a series of small but increasingly vigorous movements on the other side of the wall, then as a voice murmuring, then as a falling of little fragments on the hither side and as ten pink finger tips, scarcely apprehended before romance became startling and emphatically a leg, remained for a time a fine, slender, actively struggling limb, brown stockinged and wearing a brown toe-worn shoe, and then--. a handsome red-haired girl wearing a short dress of blue linen was sitting astride the wall, panting, considerably disarranged by her climbing, and as yet unaware of mr. polly.... his fine instincts made him turn his head away and assume an attitude of negligent contemplation, with his ears and mind alive to every sound behind him. "goodness!" said a voice with a sharp note of surprise. mr. polly was on his feet in an instant. "dear me! can i be of any assistance?" he said with deferential gallantry. "i don't know," said the young lady, and regarded him calmly with clear blue eyes. "i didn't know there was anyone here," she added. "sorry," said mr. polly, "if i am intrudaceous. i didn't know you didn't want me to be here." she reflected for a moment on the word. "it isn't that," she said, surveying him. "i oughtn't to get over the wall," she explained. "it's out of bounds. at least in term time. but this being holidays--" her manner placed the matter before him. "holidays is different," said mr. polly. "i don't want to actually _break_ the rules," she said. "leave them behind you," said mr. polly with a catch of the breath, "where they are safe"; and marvelling at his own wit and daring, and indeed trembling within himself, he held out a hand for her. she brought another brown leg from the unknown, and arranged her skirt with a dexterity altogether feminine. "i think i'll stay on the wall," she decided. "so long as some of me's in bounds--" she continued to regard him with eyes that presently joined dancing in an irresistible smile of satisfaction. mr. polly smiled in return. "you bicycle?" she said. mr. polly admitted the fact, and she said she did too. "all my people are in india," she explained. "it's beastly rot--i mean it's frightfully dull being left here alone." "all _my_ people," said mr. polly, "are in heaven!" "i say!" "fact!" said mr. polly. "got nobody." "and that's why--" she checked her artless comment on his mourning. "i say," she said in a sympathetic voice, "i _am_ sorry. i really am. was it a fire or a ship--or something?" her sympathy was very delightful. he shook his head. "the ordinary table of mortality," he said. "first one and then another." behind his outward melancholy, delight was dancing wildly. "are _you_ lonely?" asked the girl. mr. polly nodded. "i was just sitting there in melancholy rectrospectatiousness," he said, indicating the logs, and again a swift thoughtfulness swept across her face. "there's no harm in our talking," she reflected. "it's a kindness. won't you get down?" she reflected, and surveyed the turf below and the scene around and him. "i'll stay on the wall," she said. "if only for bounds' sake." she certainly looked quite adorable on the wall. she had a fine neck and pointed chin that was particularly admirable from below, and pretty eyes and fine eyebrows are never so pretty as when they look down upon one. but no calculation of that sort, thank heaven, was going on beneath her ruddy shock of hair. vi "let's talk," she said, and for a time they were both tongue-tied. mr. polly's literary proclivities had taught him that under such circumstances a strain of gallantry was demanded. and something in his blood repeated that lesson. "you make me feel like one of those old knights," he said, "who rode about the country looking for dragons and beautiful maidens and chivalresque adventures." "oh!" she said. "why?" "beautiful maiden," he said. she flushed under her freckles with the quick bright flush those pretty red-haired people have. "nonsense!" she said. "you are. i'm not the first to tell you that. a beautiful maiden imprisoned in an enchanted school." "_you_ wouldn't think it enchanted!" "and here am i--clad in steel. well, not exactly, but my fiery war horse is anyhow. ready to absquatulate all the dragons and rescue you." she laughed, a jolly laugh that showed delightfully gleaming teeth. "i wish you could _see_ the dragons," she said with great enjoyment. mr. polly felt they were a sun's distance from the world of everyday. "fly with me!" he dared. she stared for a moment, and then went off into peals of laughter. "you _are_ funny!" she said. "why, i haven't known you five minutes." "one doesn't--in this medevial world. my mind is made up, anyhow." he was proud and pleased with his joke, and quick to change his key neatly. "i wish one could," he said. "i wonder if people ever did!" "if there were people like you." "we don't even know each other's names," she remarked with a descent to matters of fact. "yours is the prettiest name in the world." "how do you know?" "it must be--anyhow." "it _is_ rather pretty you know--it's christabel." "what did i tell you?" "and yours?" "poorer than i deserve. it's alfred." "_i_ can't call you alfred." "well, polly." "it's a girl's name!" for a moment he was out of tune. "i wish it was!" he said, and could have bitten out his tongue at the larkins sound of it. "i shan't forget it," she remarked consolingly. "i say," she said in the pause that followed. "why are you riding about the country on a bicycle?" "i'm doing it because i like it." she sought to estimate his social status on her limited basis of experience. he stood leaning with one hand against the wall, looking up at her and tingling with daring thoughts. he was a littleish man, you must remember, but neither mean-looking nor unhandsome in those days, sunburnt by his holiday and now warmly flushed. he had an inspiration to simple speech that no practised trifler with love could have bettered. "there _is_ love at first sight," he said, and said it sincerely. she stared at him with eyes round and big with excitement. "i think," she said slowly, and without any signs of fear or retreat, "i ought to get back over the wall." "it needn't matter to you," he said. "i'm just a nobody. but i know you are the best and most beautiful thing i've ever spoken to." his breath caught against something. "no harm in telling you that," he said. "i should have to go back if i thought you were serious," she said after a pause, and they both smiled together. after that they talked in a fragmentary way for some time. the blue eyes surveyed mr. polly with kindly curiosity from under a broad, finely modelled brow, much as an exceptionally intelligent cat might survey a new sort of dog. she meant to find out all about him. she asked questions that riddled the honest knight in armour below, and probed ever nearer to the hateful secret of the shop and his normal servitude. and when he made a flourish and mispronounced a word a thoughtful shade passed like the shadow of a cloud across her face. "boom!" came the sound of a gong. "lordy!" cried the girl and flashed a pair of brown legs at him and was gone. then her pink finger tips reappeared, and the top of her red hair. "knight!" she cried from the other side of the wall. "knight there!" "lady!" he answered. "come again to-morrow!" "at your command. but----" "yes?" "just one finger." "what do you mean?" "to kiss." the rustle of retreating footsteps and silence.... but after he had waited next day for twenty minutes she reappeared, a little out of breath with the effort to surmount the wall--and head first this time. and it seemed to him she was lighter and more daring and altogether prettier than the dreams and enchanted memories that had filled the interval. vii from first to last their acquaintance lasted ten days, but into that time mr. polly packed ten years of dreams. "he don't seem," said johnson, "to take a serious interest in anything. that shop at the corner's bound to be snapped up if he don't look out." the girl and mr. polly did not meet on every one of those ten days; one was sunday and she could not come, and on the eighth the school reassembled and she made vague excuses. all their meetings amounted to this, that she sat on the wall, more or less in bounds as she expressed it, and let mr. polly fall in love with her and try to express it below. she sat in a state of irresponsible exaltation, watching him and at intervals prodding a vivisecting point of encouragement into him--with that strange passive cruelty which is natural to her sex and age. and mr. polly fell in love, as though the world had given way beneath him and he had dropped through into another, into a world of luminous clouds and of desolate hopeless wildernesses of desiring and of wild valleys of unreasonable ecstasies, a world whose infinite miseries were finer and in some inexplicable way sweeter than the purest gold of the daily life, whose joys--they were indeed but the merest remote glimpses of joy--were brighter than a dying martyr's vision of heaven. her smiling face looked down upon him out of heaven, her careless pose was the living body of life. it was senseless, it was utterly foolish, but all that was best and richest in mr. polly's nature broke like a wave and foamed up at that girl's feet, and died, and never touched her. and she sat on the wall and marvelled at him and was amused, and once, suddenly moved and wrung by his pleading, she bent down rather shamefacedly and gave him a freckled, tennis-blistered little paw to kiss. and she looked into his eyes and suddenly felt a perplexity, a curious swimming of the mind that made her recoil and stiffen, and wonder afterwards and dream.... and then with some dim instinct of self-protection, she went and told her three best friends, great students of character all, of this remarkable phenomenon she had discovered on the other side of the wall. "look here," said mr. polly, "i'm wild for the love of you! i can't keep up this gesticulations game any more! i'm not a knight. treat me as a human man. you may sit up there smiling, but i'd die in torments to have you mine for an hour. i'm nobody and nothing. but look here! will you wait for me for five years? you're just a girl yet, and it wouldn't be hard." "shut up!" said christabel in an aside he did not hear, and something he did not see touched her hand. "i've always been just dilletentytating about till now, but i could work. i've just woke up. wait till i've got a chance with the money i've got." "but you haven't got much money!" "i've got enough to take a chance with, some sort of a chance. i'd find a chance. i'll do that anyhow. i'll go away. i mean what i say--i'll stop trifling and shirking. if i don't come back it won't matter. if i do----" her expression had become uneasy. suddenly she bent down towards him. "don't!" she said in an undertone. "don't--what?" "don't go on like this! you're different! go on being the knight who wants to kiss my hand as his--what did you call it?" the ghost of a smile curved her face. "gurdrum!" "but----!" then through a pause they both stared at each other, listening. a muffled tumult on the other side of the wall asserted itself. "shut _up_, rosie!" said a voice. "i tell you i will see! i can't half hear. give me a leg up!" "you idiot! he'll see you. you're spoiling everything." the bottom dropped out of mr. polly's world. he felt as people must feel who are going to faint. "you've got someone--" he said aghast. she found life inexpressible to mr. polly. she addressed some unseen hearers. "you filthy little beasts!" she cried with a sharp note of agony in her voice, and swung herself back over the wall and vanished. there was a squeal of pain and fear, and a swift, fierce altercation. for a couple of seconds he stood agape. then a wild resolve to confirm his worst sense of what was on the other side of the wall made him seize a log, put it against the stones, clutch the parapet with insecure fingers, and lug himself to a momentary balance on the wall. romance and his goddess had vanished. a red-haired girl with a pigtail was wringing the wrist of a schoolfellow who shrieked with pain and cried: "mercy! mercy! ooo! christabel!" "you idiot!" cried christabel. "you giggling idiot!" two other young ladies made off through the beech trees from this outburst of savagery. then the grip of mr. polly's fingers gave, and he hit his chin against the stones and slipped clumsily to the ground again, scraping his cheek against the wall and hurting his shin against the log by which he had reached the top. just for a moment he crouched against the wall. he swore, staggered to the pile of logs and sat down. he remained very still for some time, with his lips pressed together. "fool," he said at last; "you blithering fool!" and began to rub his shin as though he had just discovered its bruises. afterwards he found his face was wet with blood--which was none the less red stuff from the heart because it came from slight abrasions. chapter the sixth miriam i it is an illogical consequence of one human being's ill-treatment that we should fly immediately to another, but that is the way with us. it seemed to mr. polly that only a human touch could assuage the smart of his humiliation. moreover it had for some undefined reason to be a feminine touch, and the number of women in his world was limited. he thought of the larkins family--the larkins whom he had not been near now for ten long days. healing people they seemed to him now--healing, simple people. they had good hearts, and he had neglected them for a mirage. if he rode over to them he would be able to talk nonsense and laugh and forget the whirl of memories and thoughts that was spinning round and round so unendurably in his brain. "law!" said mrs. larkins, "come in! you're quite a stranger, elfrid!" "been seeing to business," said the unveracious polly. "none of 'em ain't at 'ome, but miriam's just out to do a bit of shopping. won't let me shop, she won't, because i'm so keerless. she's a wonderful manager, that girl. minnie's got some work at the carpet place. 'ope it won't make 'er ill again. she's a loving deliket sort, is minnie.... come into the front parlour. it's a bit untidy, but you got to take us as you find us. wot you been doing to your face?" "bit of a scrase with the bicycle," said mr. polly. "trying to pass a carriage on the on side, and he drew up and ran me against a wall." mrs. larkins scrutinised it. "you ought to '_ave_ someone look after your scrases," she said. "that's all red and rough. it ought to be cold-creamed. bring your bicycle into the passage and come in." she "straightened up a bit," that is to say she increased the dislocation of a number of scattered articles, put a workbasket on the top of several books, swept two or three dogs'-eared numbers of the _lady's own novelist_ from the table into the broken armchair, and proceeded to sketch together the tea-things with various such interpolations as: "law, if i ain't forgot the butter!" all the while she talked of annie's good spirits and cleverness with her millinery, and of minnie's affection and miriam's relative love of order and management. mr. polly stood by the window uneasily and thought how good and sincere was the larkins tone. it was well to be back again. "you're a long time finding that shop of yours," said mrs. larkins. "don't do to be precipitous," said mr. polly. "no," said mrs. larkins, "once you got it you got it. like choosing a 'usband. you better see you got it good. i kept larkins 'esitating two years i did, until i felt sure of him. a 'ansom man 'e was as you can see by the looks of the girls, but 'ansom is as 'ansom does. you'd like a bit of jam to your tea, i expect? i 'ope they'll keep _their_ men waiting when the time comes. i tell them if they think of marrying it only shows they don't know when they're well off. here's miriam!" miriam entered with several parcels in a net, and a peevish expression. "mother," she said, "you might '_ave_ prevented my going out with the net with the broken handle. i've been cutting my fingers with the string all the way 'ome." then she discovered mr. polly and her face brightened. "ello, elfrid!" she said. "where you been all this time?" "looking round," said mr. polly. "found a shop?" "one or two likely ones. but it takes time." "you've got the wrong cups, mother." she went into the kitchen, disposed of her purchases, and returned with the right cups. "what you done to your face, elfrid?" she asked, and came and scrutinised his scratches. "all rough it is." he repeated his story of the accident, and she was sympathetic in a pleasant homely way. "you are quiet to-day," she said as they sat down to tea. "meditatious," said mr. polly. quite by accident he touched her hand on the table, and she answered his touch. "why not?" thought mr. polly, and looking up, caught mrs. larkins' eye and flushed guiltily. but mrs. larkins, with unusual restraint, said nothing. she merely made a grimace, enigmatical, but in its essence friendly. presently minnie came in with some vague grievance against the manager of the carpet-making place about his method of estimating piece work. her account was redundant, defective and highly technical, but redeemed by a certain earnestness. "i'm never within sixpence of what i reckon to be," she said. "it's a bit too 'ot." then mr. polly, feeling that he was being conspicuously dull, launched into a description of the shop he was looking for and the shops he had seen. his mind warmed up as he talked. "found your tongue again," said mrs. larkins. he had. he began to embroider the subject and work upon it. for the first time it assumed picturesque and desirable qualities in his mind. it stimulated him to see how readily and willingly they accepted his sketches. bright ideas appeared in his mind from nowhere. he was suddenly enthusiastic. "when i get this shop of mine i shall have a cat. must make a home for a cat, you know." "what, to catch the mice?" said mrs. larkins. "no--sleep in the window. a venerable _signor_ of a cat. tabby. cat's no good if it isn't tabby. cat i'm going to have, and a canary! didn't think of that before, but a cat and a canary seem to go, you know. summer weather i shall sit at breakfast in the little room behind the shop, sun streaming in the window to rights, cat on a chair, canary singing and--mrs. polly...." "ello!" said mrs. larkins. "mrs. polly frying an extra bit of bacon. bacon singing, cat singing, canary singing. kettle singing. mrs. polly--" "but who's mrs. polly going to be?" said mrs. larkins. "figment of the imagination, ma'am," said mr. polly. "put in to fill up picture. no face to figure as yet. still, that's how it will be, i can assure you. i think i must have a bit of garden. johnson's the man for a garden of course," he said, going off at a tangent, "but i don't mean a fierce sort of garden. earnest industry. anxious moments. fervous digging. shan't go in for that sort of garden, ma'am. no! too much backache for me. my garden will be just a patch of 'sturtiums and sweet pea. red brick yard, clothes' line. trellis put up in odd time. humorous wind vane. creeper up the back of the house." "virginia creeper?" asked miriam. "canary creeper," said mr. polly. "you _will_ '_ave_ it nice," said miriam, desirously. "rather," said mr. polly. "ting-a-ling-a-ling. _shop!_" he straightened himself up and then they all laughed. "smart little shop," he said. "counter. desk. all complete. umbrella stand. carpet on the floor. cat asleep on the counter. ties and hose on a rail over the counter. all right." "i wonder you don't set about it right off," said miriam. "mean to get it exactly right, m'am," said mr. polly. "have to have a tomcat," said mr. polly, and paused for an expectant moment. "wouldn't do to open shop one morning, you know, and find the window full of kittens. can't sell kittens...." when tea was over he was left alone with minnie for a few minutes, and an odd intimation of an incident occurred that left mr. polly rather scared and shaken. a silence fell between them--an uneasy silence. he sat with his elbows on the table looking at her. all the way from easewood to stamton his erratic imagination had been running upon neat ways of proposing marriage. i don't know why it should have done, but it had. it was a kind of secret exercise that had not had any definite aim at the time, but which now recurred to him with extraordinary force. he couldn't think of anything in the world that wasn't the gambit to a proposal. it was almost irresistibly fascinating to think how immensely a few words from him would excite and revolutionise minnie. she was sitting at the table with a workbasket among the tea things, mending a glove in order to avoid her share of clearing away. "i like cats," said minnie after a thoughtful pause. "i'm always saying to mother, 'i wish we 'ad a cat.' but we couldn't '_ave_ a cat 'ere--not with no yard." "never had a cat myself," said mr. polly. "no!" "i'm fond of them," said minnie. "i like the look of them," said mr. polly. "can't exactly call myself fond." "i expect i shall get one some day. when about you get your shop." "i shall have my shop all right before long," said mr. polly. "trust me. canary bird and all." she shook her head. "i shall get a cat first," she said. "you never mean anything you say." "might get 'em together," said mr. polly, with his sense of a neat thing outrunning his discretion. "why! 'ow d'you mean?" said minnie, suddenly alert. "shop and cat thrown in," said mr. polly in spite of himself, and his head swam and he broke out into a cold sweat as he said it. he found her eyes fixed on him with an eager expression. "mean to say--" she began as if for verification. he sprang to his feet, and turned to the window. "little dog!" he said, and moved doorward hastily. "eating my bicycle tire, i believe," he explained. and so escaped. he saw his bicycle in the hall and cut it dead. he heard mrs. larkins in the passage behind him as he opened the front door. he turned to her. "thought my bicycle was on fire," he said. "outside. funny fancy! all right, reely. little dog outside.... miriam ready?" "what for?" "to go and meet annie." mrs. larkins stared at him. "you're stopping for a bit of supper?" "if i may," said mr. polly. "you're a rum un," said mrs. larkins, and called: "miriam!" minnie appeared at the door of the room looking infinitely perplexed. "there ain't a little dog anywhere, elfrid," she said. mr. polly passed his hand over his brow. "i had a most curious sensation. felt exactly as though something was up somewhere. that's why i said little dog. all right now." he bent down and pinched his bicycle tire. "you was saying something about a cat, elfrid," said minnie. "give you one," he answered without looking up. "the very day my shop is opened." he straightened himself up and smiled reassuringly. "trust me," he said. ii when, after imperceptible manoeuvres by mrs. larkins, he found himself starting circuitously through the inevitable recreation ground with miriam to meet annie, he found himself quite unable to avoid the topic of the shop that had now taken such a grip upon him. a sense of danger only increased the attraction. minnie's persistent disposition to accompany them had been crushed by a novel and violent and urgently expressed desire on the part of mrs. larkins to see her do something in the house sometimes.... "you really think you'll open a shop?" asked miriam. "i hate cribs," said mr. polly, adopting a moderate tone. "in a shop there's this drawback and that, but one is one's own master." "that wasn't all talk?" "not a bit of it." "after all," he went on, "a little shop needn't be so bad." "it's a 'ome," said miriam. "it's a home." pause. "there's no need to keep accounts and that sort of thing if there's no assistant. i daresay i could run a shop all right if i wasn't interfered with." "i should like to see you in your shop," said miriam. "i expect you'd keep everything tremendously neat." the conversation flagged. "let's sit down on one of those seats over there," said miriam. "where we can see those blue flowers." they did as she suggested, and sat down in a corner where a triangular bed of stock and delphinium brightened the asphalted traceries of the recreation ground. "i wonder what they call those flowers," she said. "i always like them. they're handsome." "delphicums and larkspurs," said mr. polly. "they used to be in the park at port burdock. "floriferous corner," he added approvingly. he put an arm over the back of the seat, and assumed a more comfortable attitude. he glanced at miriam, who was sitting in a lax, thoughtful pose with her eyes on the flowers. she was wearing her old dress, she had not had time to change, and the blue tones of her old dress brought out a certain warmth in her skin, and her pose exaggerated whatever was feminine in her rather lean and insufficient body, and rounded her flat chest delusively. a little line of light lay along her profile. the afternoon was full of transfiguring sunshine, children were playing noisily in the adjacent sandpit, some judas trees were brightly abloom in the villa gardens that bordered the recreation ground, and all the place was bright with touches of young summer colour. it all merged with the effect of miriam in mr. polly's mind. her thoughts found speech. "one did ought to be happy in a shop," she said with a note of unusual softness in her voice. it seemed to him that she was right. one did ought to be happy in a shop. folly not to banish dreams that made one ache of townless woods and bracken tangles and red-haired linen-clad figures sitting in dappled sunshine upon grey and crumbling walls and looking queenly down on one with clear blue eyes. cruel and foolish dreams they were, that ended in one's being laughed at and made a mock of. there was no mockery here. "a shop's such a respectable thing to be," said miriam thoughtfully. "_i_ could be happy in a shop," he said. his sense of effect made him pause. "if i had the right company," he added. she became very still. mr. polly swerved a little from the conversational ice-run upon which he had embarked. "i'm not such a blooming geezer," he said, "as not to be able to sell goods a bit. one has to be nosy over one's buying of course. but i shall do all right." he stopped, and felt falling, falling through the aching silence that followed. "if you get the right company," said miriam. "i shall get that all right." "you don't mean you've got someone--" he found himself plunging. "i've got someone in my eye, this minute," he said. "elfrid!" she said, turning on him. "you don't mean--" well, _did_ he mean? "i do!" he said. "not reely!" she clenched her hands to keep still. he took the conclusive step. "well, you and me, miriam, in a little shop--with a cat and a canary--" he tried too late to get back to a hypothetical note. "just suppose it!" "you mean," said miriam, "you're in love with me, elfrid?" what possible answer can a man give to such a question but "yes!" regardless of the public park, the children in the sandpit and everyone, she bent forward and seized his shoulder and kissed him on the lips. something lit up in mr. polly at the touch. he put an arm about her and kissed her back, and felt an irrevocable act was sealed. he had a curious feeling that it would be very satisfying to marry and have a wife--only somehow he wished it wasn't miriam. her lips were very pleasant to him, and the feel of her in his arm. they recoiled a little from each other and sat for a moment, flushed and awkwardly silent. his mind was altogether incapable of controlling its confusion. "i didn't dream," said miriam, "you cared--. sometimes i thought it was annie, sometimes minnie--" "always liked you better than them," said mr. polly. "i loved you, elfrid," said miriam, "since ever we met at your poor father's funeral. leastways i _would_ have done, if i had thought. you didn't seem to mean anything you said. "i _can't_ believe it!" she added. "nor i," said mr. polly. "you mean to marry me and start that little shop--" "soon as ever i find it," said mr. polly. "i had no more idea when i came out with you--" "nor me!" "it's like a dream." they said no more for a little while. "i got to pinch myself to think it's real," said miriam. "what they'll do without me at 'ome i can't imagine. when i tell them--" for the life of him mr. polly could not tell whether he was fullest of tender anticipations or regretful panic. "mother's no good at managing--not a bit. annie don't care for 'ouse work and minnie's got no 'ed for it. what they'll do without me i can't imagine." "they'll have to do without you," said mr. polly, sticking to his guns. a clock in the town began striking. "lor'!" said miriam, "we shall miss annie--sitting 'ere and love-making!" she rose and made as if to take mr. polly's arm. but mr. polly felt that their condition must be nakedly exposed to the ridicule of the world by such a linking, and evaded her movement. annie was already in sight before a flood of hesitation and terrors assailed mr. polly. "don't tell anyone yet a bit," he said. "only mother," said miriam firmly. iii figures are the most shocking things in the world. the prettiest little squiggles of black--looked at in the right light, and yet consider the blow they can give you upon the heart. you return from a little careless holiday abroad, and turn over the page of a newspaper, and against the name of that distant, vague-conceived railway in mortgages upon which you have embarked the bulk of your capital, you see instead of the familiar, persistent - (varying at most to _ex. div._) this slightly richer arrangement of marks: / -- / . it is like the opening of a pit just under your feet! so, too, mr. polly's happy sense of limitless resources was obliterated suddenly by a vision of this tracery: " " instead of the " " he had come to regard as the fixed symbol of his affluence. it gave him a disagreeable feeling about the diaphragm, akin in a remote degree to the sensation he had when the perfidy of the red-haired schoolgirl became plain to him. it made his brow moist. "going down a vortex!" he whispered. by a characteristic feat of subtraction he decided that he must have spent sixty-two pounds. "funererial baked meats," he said, recalling possible items. the happy dream in which he had been living of long warm days, of open roads, of limitless unchecked hours, of infinite time to look about him, vanished like a thing enchanted. he was suddenly back in the hard old economic world, that exacts work, that limits range, that discourages phrasing and dispels laughter. he saw wood street and its fearful suspenses yawning beneath his feet. and also he had promised to marry miriam, and on the whole rather wanted to. he was distraught at supper. afterwards, when mrs. johnson had gone to bed with a slight headache, he opened a conversation with johnson. "it's about time, o' man, i saw about doing something," he said. "riding about and looking at shops, all very debonnairious, o' man, but it's time i took one for keeps." "what did i tell you?" said johnson. "how do you think that corner shop of yours will figure out?" mr. polly asked. "you're really meaning it?" "if it's a practable proposition, o' man. assuming it's practable. what's your idea of the figures?" johnson went to the chiffonier, got out a letter and tore off the back sheet. "let's figure it out," he said with solemn satisfaction. "let's see the lowest you could do it on." he squared himself to the task, and mr. polly sat beside him like a pupil, watching the evolution of the grey, distasteful figures that were to dispose of his little hoard. "what running expenses have we got to provide for?" said johnson, wetting his pencil. "let's have them first. rent?..." at the end of an hour of hideous speculations, johnson decided: "it's close. but you'll have a chance." "m'm," said mr. polly. "what more does a brave man want?" "one thing you can do quite easily. i've asked about it." "what's that, o' man?" said mr. polly. "take the shop without the house above it." "i suppose i might put my head in to mind it," said mr. polly, "and get a job with my body." "not exactly that. but i thought you'd save a lot if you stayed on here--being all alone as you are." "never thought of that, o' man," said mr. polly, and reflected silently upon the needlessness of miriam. "we were talking of eighty pounds for stock," said johnson. "of course seventy-five is five pounds less, isn't it? not much else we can cut." "no," said mr. polly. "it's very interesting, all this," said johnson, folding up the half sheet of paper and unfolding it. "i wish sometimes i had a business of my own instead of a fixed salary. you'll have to keep books of course." "one wants to know where one is." "i should do it all by double entry," said johnson. "a little troublesome at first, but far the best in the end." "lemme see that paper," said mr. polly, and took it with the feeling of a man who takes a nauseating medicine, and scrutinised his cousin's neat figures with listless eyes. "well," said johnson, rising and stretching. "bed! better sleep on it, o' man." "right o," said mr. polly without moving, but indeed he could as well have slept upon a bed of thorns. he had a dreadful night. it was like the end of the annual holiday, only infinitely worse. it was like a newly arrived prisoner's backward glance at the trees and heather through the prison gates. he had to go back to harness, and he was as fitted to go in harness as the ordinary domestic cat. all night, fate, with the quiet complacency, and indeed at times the very face and gestures of johnson, guided him towards that undesired establishment at the corner near the station. "oh lord!" he cried, "i'd rather go back to cribs. i _should_ keep my money anyhow." fate never winced. "run away to sea," whispered mr. polly, but he knew he wasn't man enough. "cut my blooming throat." some braver strain urged him to think of miriam, and for a little while he lay still.... "well, o' man?" said johnson, when mr. polly came down to breakfast, and mrs. johnson looked up brightly. mr. polly had never felt breakfast so unattractive before. "just a day or so more, o' man--to turn it over in my mind," he said. "you'll get the place snapped up," said johnson. there were times in those last few days of coyness with his destiny when his engagement seemed the most negligible of circumstances, and times--and these happened for the most part at nights after mrs. johnson had indulged everybody in a welsh rarebit--when it assumed so sinister and portentous an appearance as to make him think of suicide. and there were times too when he very distinctly desired to be married, now that the idea had got into his head, at any cost. also he tried to recall all the circumstances of his proposal, time after time, and never quite succeeded in recalling what had brought the thing off. he went over to stamton with a becoming frequency, and kissed all his cousins, and miriam especially, a great deal, and found it very stirring and refreshing. they all appeared to know; and minnie was tearful, but resigned. mrs. larkins met him, and indeed enveloped him, with unwonted warmth, and there was a big pot of household jam for tea. and he could not make up his mind to sign his name to anything about the shop, though it crawled nearer and nearer to him, though the project had materialised now to the extent of a draft agreement with the place for his signature indicated in pencil. one morning, just after mr. johnson had gone to the station, mr. polly wheeled his bicycle out into the road, went up to his bedroom, packed his long white nightdress, a comb, and a toothbrush in a manner that was as offhand as he could make it, informed mrs. johnson, who was manifestly curious, that he was "off for a day or two to clear his head," and fled forthright into the road, and mounting turned his wheel towards the tropics and the equator and the south coast of england, and indeed more particularly to where the little village of fishbourne slumbers and sleeps. when he returned four days later, he astonished johnson beyond measure by remarking so soon as the shop project was reopened: "i've took a little contraption at fishbourne, o' man, that i fancy suits me better." he paused, and then added in a manner, if possible, even more offhand: "oh! and i'm going to have a bit of a nuptial over at stamton with one of the larkins cousins." "nuptial!" said johnson. "wedding bells, o' man. benedictine collapse." on the whole johnson showed great self-control. "it's your own affair, o' man," he said, when things had been more clearly explained, "and i hope you won't feel sorry when it's too late." but mrs. johnson was first of all angrily silent, and then reproachful. "i don't see what we've done to be made fools of like this," she said. "after all the trouble we've 'ad to make you comfortable and see after you. out late and sitting up and everything. and then you go off as sly as sly without a word, and get a shop behind our backs as though you thought we meant to steal your money. i 'aven't patience with such deceitfulness, and i didn't think it of you, elfrid. and now the letting season's 'arf gone by, and what i shall do with that room of yours i've no idea. frank is frank, and fair play fair play; so _i_ was told any'ow when i was a girl. just as long as it suits you to stay 'ere you stay 'ere, and then it's off and no thank you whether we like it or not. johnson's too easy with you. 'e sits there and doesn't say a word, and night after night 'e's been addin' and thinkin' for you, instead of seeing to his own affairs--" she paused for breath. "unfortunate amoor," said mr. polly, apologetically and indistinctly. "didn't expect it myself." iv mr. polly's marriage followed with a certain inevitableness. he tried to assure himself that he was acting upon his own forceful initiative, but at the back of his mind was the completest realisation of his powerlessness to resist the gigantic social forces he had set in motion. he had got to marry under the will of society, even as in times past it has been appointed for other sunny souls under the will of society that they should be led out by serious and unavoidable fellow-creatures and ceremoniously drowned or burnt or hung. he would have preferred infinitely a more observant and less conspicuous rôle, but the choice was no longer open to him. he did his best to play his part, and he procured some particularly neat check trousers to do it in. the rest of his costume, except for some bright yellow gloves, a grey and blue mixture tie, and that the broad crape hat-band was changed for a livelier piece of silk, were the things he had worn at the funeral of his father. so nearly akin are human joy and sorrow. the larkins sisters had done wonders with grey sateen. the idea of orange blossom and white veils had been abandoned reluctantly on account of the expense of cabs. a novelette in which the heroine had stood at the altar in "a modest going-away dress" had materially assisted this decision. miriam was frankly tearful, and so indeed was annie, but with laughter as well to carry it off. mr. polly heard annie say something vague about never getting a chance because of miriam always sticking about at home like a cat at a mouse-hole, that became, as people say, food for thought. mrs. larkins was from the first flushed, garrulous, and wet and smeared by copious weeping; an incredibly soaked and crumpled and used-up pocket handkerchief never left the clutch of her plump red hand. "goo' girls, all of them," she kept on saying in a tremulous voice; "such-goo-goo-goo-girls!" she wetted mr. polly dreadfully when she kissed him. her emotion affected the buttons down the back of her bodice, and almost the last filial duty miriam did before entering on her new life was to close that gaping orifice for the eleventh time. her bonnet was small and ill-balanced, black adorned with red roses, and first it got over her right eye until annie told her of it, and then she pushed it over her left eye and looked ferocious for a space, and after that baptismal kissing of mr. polly the delicate millinery took fright and climbed right up to the back part of her head and hung on there by a pin, and flapped piteously at all the larger waves of emotion that filled the gathering. mr. polly became more and more aware of that bonnet as time went on, until he felt for it like a thing alive. towards the end it had yawning fits. the company did not include mrs. johnson, but johnson came with a manifest surreptitiousness and backed against walls and watched mr. polly with doubt and speculation in his large grey eyes and whistled noiselessly and doubtful on the edge of things. he was, so to speak, to be best man, _sotto voce_. a sprinkling of girls in gay hats from miriam's place of business appeared in church, great nudgers all of them, but only two came on afterwards to the house. mrs. punt brought her son with his ever-widening mind, it was his first wedding, and a larkins uncle, a mr. voules, a licenced victualler, very kindly drove over in a gig from sommershill with a plump, well-dressed wife to give the bride away. one or two total strangers drifted into the church and sat down observantly far away. this sprinkling of people seemed only to enhance the cool brown emptiness of the church, the rows and rows of empty pews, disengaged prayerbooks and abandoned hassocks. it had the effect of a preposterous misfit. johnson consulted with a thin-legged, short-skirted verger about the disposition of the party. the officiating clergy appeared distantly in the doorway of the vestry, putting on his surplice, and relapsed into a contemplative cheek-scratching that was manifestly habitual. before the bride arrived mr. polly's sense of the church found an outlet in whispered criticisms of ecclesiastical architecture with johnson. "early norman arches, eh?" he said, "or perpendicular." "can't say," said johnson. "telessated pavements, all right." "it's well laid anyhow." "can't say i admire the altar. scrappy rather with those flowers." he coughed behind his hand and cleared his throat. at the back of his mind he was speculating whether flight at this eleventh hour would be criminal or merely reprehensible bad taste. a murmur from the nudgers announced the arrival of the bridal party. the little procession from a remote door became one of the enduring memories of mr. polly's life. the little verger had bustled to meet it, and arrange it according to tradition and morality. in spite of mrs. larkins' "don't take her from me yet!" he made miriam go first with mr. voules, the bridesmaids followed and then himself hopelessly unable to disentangle himself from the whispering maternal anguish of mrs. larkins. mrs. voules, a compact, rounded woman with a square, expressionless face, imperturbable dignity, and a dress of considerable fashion, completed the procession. mr. polly's eye fell first upon the bride; the sight of her filled him with a curious stir of emotion. alarm, desire, affection, respect--and a queer element of reluctant dislike all played their part in that complex eddy. the grey dress made her a stranger to him, made her stiff and commonplace, she was not even the rather drooping form that had caught his facile sense of beauty when he had proposed to her in the recreation ground. there was something too that did not please him in the angle of her hat, it was indeed an ill-conceived hat with large aimless rosettes of pink and grey. then his mind passed to mrs. larkins and the bonnet that was to gain such a hold upon him; it seemed to be flag-signalling as she advanced, and to the two eager, unrefined sisters he was acquiring. a freak of fancy set him wondering where and when in the future a beautiful girl with red hair might march along some splendid aisle. never mind! he became aware of mr. voules. he became aware of mr. voules as a watchful, blue eye of intense forcefulness. it was the eye of a man who has got hold of a situation. he was a fat, short, red-faced man clad in a tight-fitting tail coat of black and white check with a coquettish bow tie under the lowest of a number of crisp little red chins. he held the bride under his arm with an air of invincible championship, and his free arm flourished a grey top hat of an equestrian type. mr. polly instantly learnt from the eye that mr. voules knew all about his longing for flight. its azure pupil glowed with disciplined resolution. it said: "i've come to give this girl away, and give her away i will. i'm here now and things have to go on all right. so don't think of it any more"--and mr. polly didn't. a faint phantom of a certain "lill' dog" that had hovered just beneath the threshold of consciousness vanished into black impossibility. until the conclusive moment of the service was attained the eye of mr. voules watched mr. polly relentlessly, and then instantly he relieved guard, and blew his nose into a voluminous and richly patterned handkerchief, and sighed and looked round for the approval and sympathy of mrs. voules, and nodded to her brightly like one who has always foretold a successful issue to things. mr. polly felt then like a marionette that has just dropped off its wire. but it was long before that release arrived. he became aware of miriam breathing close to him. "hullo!" he said, and feeling that was clumsy and would meet the eye's disapproval: "grey dress--suits you no end." miriam's eyes shone under her hat-brim. "not reely!" she whispered. "you're all right," he said with the feeling of observation and criticism stiffening his lips. he cleared his throat. the verger's hand pushed at him from behind. someone was driving miriam towards the altar rail and the clergyman. "we're in for it," said mr. polly to her sympathetically. "where? here? right o." he was interested for a moment or so in something indescribably habitual in the clergyman's pose. what a lot of weddings he must have seen! sick he must be of them! "don't let your attention wander," said the eye. "got the ring?" whispered johnson. "pawned it yesterday," answered mr. polly and then had a dreadful moment under that pitiless scrutiny while he felt in the wrong waistcoat pocket.... the officiating clergy sighed deeply, began, and married them wearily and without any hitch. "_d'b'loved, we gath'd 'gether sight o' gard 'n face this con'gation join 'gather man, worn' holy mat'my which is on'bl state stooted by gard in times man's innocency_...." mr. polly's thoughts wandered wide and far, and once again something like a cold hand touched his heart, and he saw a sweet face in sunshine under the shadow of trees. someone was nudging him. it was johnson's finger diverted his eyes to the crucial place in the prayer-book to which they had come. "wiltou lover, cumfer, oner, keeper sickness and health..." "say 'i will.'" mr. polly moistened his lips. "i will," he said hoarsely. miriam, nearly inaudible, answered some similar demand. then the clergyman said: "who gifs worn married to this man?" "well, _i'm_ doing that," said mr. voules in a refreshingly full voice and looking round the church. "you see, me and martha larkins being cousins--" he was silenced by the clergyman's rapid grip directing the exchange of hands. "pete arf me," said the clergyman to mr. polly. "take thee mirum wed wife--" "take thee mirum wed' wife," said mr. polly. "have hold this day ford." "have hold this day ford." "betworse, richpoo'--" "bet worsh, richpoo'...." then came miriam's turn. "lego hands," said the clergyman; "got the ring? no! on the book. so! here! pete arf me, 'withis ring ivy wed.'" "withis ring ivy wed--" so it went on, blurred and hurried, like the momentary vision of an utterly beautiful thing seen through the smoke of a passing train.... "now, my boy," said mr. voules at last, gripping mr. polly's elbow tightly, "you've got to sign the registry, and there you are! done!" before him stood miriam, a little stiffly, the hat with a slight rake across her forehead, and a kind of questioning hesitation in her face. mr. voules urged him past her. it was astounding. she was his wife! and for some reason miriam and mrs. larkins were sobbing, and annie was looking grave. hadn't they after all wanted him to marry her? because if that was the case--! he became aware for the first time of the presence of uncle pentstemon in the background, but approaching, wearing a tie of a light mineral blue colour, and grinning and sucking enigmatically and judiciously round his principal tooth. v it was in the vestry that the force of mr. voules' personality began to show at its true value. he seemed to open out and spread over things directly the restraints of the ceremony were at an end. "everything," he said to the clergyman, "excellent." he also shook hands with mrs. larkins, who clung to him for a space, and kissed miriam on the cheek. "first kiss for me," he said, "anyhow." he led mr. polly to the register by the arm, and then got chairs for mrs. larkins and his wife. he then turned on miriam. "now, young people," he said. "one! or _i_ shall again." "that's right!" said mr. voules. "same again, miss." mr. polly was overcome with modest confusion, and turning, found a refuge from this publicity in the arms of mrs. larkins. then in a state of profuse moisture he was assaulted and kissed by annie and minnie, who were immediately kissed upon some indistinctly stated grounds by mr. voules, who then kissed the entirely impassive mrs. voules and smacked his lips and remarked: "home again safe and sound!" then with a strange harrowing cry mrs. larkins seized upon and bedewed miriam with kisses, annie and minnie kissed each other, and johnson went abruptly to the door of the vestry and stared into the church--no doubt with ideas of sanctuary in his mind. "like a bit of a kiss round sometimes," said mr. voules, and made a kind of hissing noise with his teeth, and suddenly smacked his hands together with great _éclat_ several times. meanwhile the clergyman scratched his cheek with one hand and fiddled the pen with the other and the verger coughed protestingly. "the dog cart's just outside," said mr. voules. "no walking home to-day for the bride, mam." "not going to drive us?" cried annie. "the happy pair, miss. _your_ turn soon." "get out!" said annie. "i shan't marry--ever." "you won't be able to help it. you'll have to do it--just to disperse the crowd." mr. voules laid his hand on mr. polly's shoulder. "the bridegroom gives his arm to the bride. hands across and down the middle. prump. prump, perump-pump-pump-pump." mr. polly found himself and the bride leading the way towards the western door. mrs. larkins passed close to uncle pentstemon, sobbing too earnestly to be aware of him. "such a goo-goo-goo-girl!" she sobbed. "didn't think _i'd_ come, did you?" said uncle pentstemon, but she swept past him, too busy with the expression of her feelings to observe him. "she didn't think i'd come, i lay," said uncle pentstemon, a little foiled, but effecting an auditory lodgment upon johnson. "i don't know," said johnson uncomfortably. "i suppose you were asked. how are you getting on?" "i was _arst_," said uncle pentstemon, and brooded for a moment. "i goes about seeing wonders," he added, and then in a sort of enhanced undertone: "one of 'er girls gettin' married. that's what i mean by wonders. lord's goodness! wow!" "nothing the matter?" asked johnson. "got it in the back for a moment. going to be a change of weather i suppose," said uncle pentstemon. "i brought 'er a nice present, too, what i got in this passel. vallyble old tea caddy that uset' be my mother's. what i kep' my baccy in for years and years--till the hinge at the back got broke. it ain't been no use to me particular since, so thinks i, drat it! i may as well give it 'er as not...." mr. polly found himself emerging from the western door. outside, a crowd of half-a-dozen adults and about fifty children had collected, and hailed the approach of the newly wedded couple with a faint, indeterminate cheer. all the children were holding something in little bags, and his attention was caught by the expression of vindictive concentration upon the face of a small big-eared boy in the foreground. he didn't for the moment realise what these things might import. then he received a stinging handful of rice in the ear, and a great light shone. "not yet, you young fool!" he heard mr. voules saying behind him, and then a second handful spoke against his hat. "not yet," said mr. voules with increasing emphasis, and mr. polly became aware that he and miriam were the focus of two crescents of small boys, each with the light of massacre in his eyes and a grubby fist clutching into a paper bag for rice; and that mr. voules was warding off probable discharges with a large red hand. the dog cart was in charge of a loafer, and the horse and the whip were adorned with white favours, and the back seat was confused but not untenable with hampers. "up we go," said mr. voules, "old birds in front and young ones behind." an ominous group of ill-restrained rice-throwers followed them up as they mounted. "get your handkerchief for your face," said mr. polly to his bride, and took the place next the pavement with considerable heroism, held on, gripped his hat, shut his eyes and prepared for the worst. "off!" said mr. voules, and a concentrated fire came stinging mr. polly's face. the horse shied, and when the bridegroom could look at the world again it was manifest the dog cart had just missed an electric tram by a hairsbreadth, and far away outside the church railings the verger and johnson were battling with an active crowd of small boys for the life of the rest of the larkins family. mrs. punt and her son had escaped across the road, the son trailing and stumbling at the end of a remorseless arm, but uncle pentstemon, encumbered by the tea-caddy, was the centre of a little circle of his own, and appeared to be dratting them all very heartily. remoter, a policeman approached with an air of tranquil unconsciousness. "steady, you idiot. stead-y!" cried mr. voules, and then over his shoulder: "i brought that rice! i like old customs! whoa! stead-y." the dog cart swerved violently, and then, evoking a shout of groundless alarm from a cyclist, took a corner, and the rest of the wedding party was hidden from mr. polly's eyes. vi "we'll get the stuff into the house before the old gal comes along," said mr. voules, "if you'll hold the hoss." "how about the key?" asked mr. polly. "i got the key, coming." and while mr. polly held the sweating horse and dodged the foam that dripped from its bit, the house absorbed miriam and mr. voules altogether. mr. voules carried in the various hampers he had brought with him, and finally closed the door behind him. for some time mr. polly remained alone with his charge in the little blind alley outside the larkins' house, while the neighbours scrutinised him from behind their blinds. he reflected that he was a married man, that he must look very like a fool, that the head of a horse is a silly shape and its eye a bulger; he wondered what the horse thought of him, and whether it really liked being held and patted on the neck or whether it only submitted out of contempt. did it know he was married? then he wondered if the clergyman had thought him much of an ass, and then whether the individual lurking behind the lace curtains of the front room next door was a man or a woman. a door opened over the way, and an elderly gentleman in a kind of embroidered fez appeared smoking a pipe with a quiet satisfied expression. he regarded mr. polly for some time with mild but sustained curiosity. finally he called: "hi!" "hullo!" said mr. polly. "you needn't 'old that '_orse_," said the old gentleman. "spirited beast," said mr. polly. "and,"--with some faint analogy to ginger beer in his mind--"he's up to-day." "'e won't turn 'isself round," said the old gentleman, "anyow. and there ain't no way through for 'im to go." "_verbum_ sap," said mr. polly, and abandoned the horse and turned, to the door. it opened to him just as mrs. larkins on the arm of johnson, followed by annie, minnie, two friends, mrs. punt and her son and at a slight distance uncle pentstemon, appeared round the corner. "they're coming," he said to miriam, and put an arm about her and gave her a kiss. she was kissing him back when they were startled violently by the shying of two empty hampers into the passage. then mr. voules appeared holding a third. "here! you'll '_ave_ plenty of time for that presently," he said, "get these hampers away before the old girl comes. i got a cold collation here to make her sit up. my eye!" miriam took the hampers, and mr. polly under compulsion from mr. voules went into the little front room. a profuse pie and a large ham had been added to the modest provision of mrs. larkins, and a number of select-looking bottles shouldered the bottle of sherry and the bottle of port she had got to grace the feast. they certainly went better with the iced wedding cake in the middle. mrs. voules, still impassive, stood by the window regarding these things with a faint approval. "makes it look a bit thicker, eh?" said mr. voules, and blew out both his cheeks and smacked his hands together violently several times. "surprise the old girl no end." he stood back and smiled and bowed with arms extended as the others came clustering at the door. "why, _un_-_clé_ voules!" cried annie, with a rising note. it was his reward. and then came a great wedging and squeezing and crowding into the little room. nearly everyone was hungry, and eyes brightened at the sight of the pie and the ham and the convivial array of bottles. "sit down everyone," cried mr. voules, "leaning against anything counts as sitting, and makes it easier to shake down the grub!" the two friends from miriam's place of business came into the room among the first, and then wedged themselves so hopelessly against johnson in an attempt to get out again and take off their things upstairs that they abandoned the attempt. amid the struggle mr. polly saw uncle pentstemon relieve himself of his parcel by giving it to the bride. "here!" he said and handed it to her. "weddin' present," he explained, and added with a confidential chuckle, "_i_ never thought i'd '_ave_ to give you one--ever." "who says steak and kidney pie?" bawled mr. voules. "who says steak and kidney pie? you '_ave_ a drop of old tommy, martha. that's what you want to steady you.... sit down everyone and don't all speak at once. who says steak and kidney pie?..." "vocificeratious," whispered mr. polly. "convivial vocificerations." "bit of 'am with it," shouted mr. voules, poising a slice of ham on his knife. "anyone '_ave_ a bit of 'am with it? won't that little man of yours, mrs. punt--won't 'e '_ave_ a bit of 'am?..." "and now ladies and gentlemen," said mr. voules, still standing and dominating the crammed roomful, "now you got your plates filled and something i can warrant you good in your glasses, wot about drinking the 'ealth of the bride?" "eat a bit fust," said uncle pentstemon, speaking with his mouth full, amidst murmurs of applause. "eat a bit fust." so they did, and the plates clattered and the glasses chinked. mr. polly stood shoulder to shoulder with johnson for a moment. "in for it," said mr. polly cheeringly. "cheer up, o' man, and peck a bit. no reason why _you_ shouldn't eat, you know." the punt boy stood on mr. polly's boots for a minute, struggling violently against the compunction of mrs. punt's grip. "pie," said the punt boy, "pie!" "you sit 'ere and '_ave_ 'am, my lord!" said mrs. punt, prevailing. "pie you can't '_ave_ and you won't." "lor bless my heart, mrs. punt!" protested mr. voules, "let the boy '_ave_ a bit if he wants it--wedding and all!" "you 'aven't 'ad 'im sick on your 'ands, uncle voules," said mrs. punt. "else you wouldn't want to humour his fancies as you do...." "i can't help feeling it's a mistake, o' man," said johnson, in a confidential undertone. "i can't help feeling you've been rash. let's hope for the best." "always glad of good wishes, o' man," said mr. polly. "you'd better have a drink of something. anyhow, sit down to it." johnson subsided gloomily, and mr. polly secured some ham and carried it off and sat himself down on the sewing machine on the floor in the corner to devour it. he was hungry, and a little cut off from the rest of the company by mrs. voules' hat and back, and he occupied himself for a time with ham and his own thoughts. he became aware of a series of jangling concussions on the table. he craned his neck and discovered that mr. voules was standing up and leaning forward over the table in the manner distinctive of after-dinner speeches, tapping upon the table with a black bottle. "ladies and gentlemen," said mr. voules, raising his glass solemnly in the empty desert of sound he had made, and paused for a second or so. "ladies and gentlemen,--the bride." he searched his mind for some suitable wreath of speech, and brightened at last with discovery. "here's luck to her!" he said at last. "here's luck!" said johnson hopelessly but resolutely, and raised his glass. everybody murmured: "here's luck." "luck!" said mr. polly, unseen in his corner, lifting a forkful of ham. "that's all right," said mr. voules with a sigh of relief at having brought off a difficult operation. "and now, who's for a bit more pie?" for a time conversation was fragmentary again. but presently mr. voules rose from his chair again; he had subsided with a contented smile after his first oratorical effort, and produced a silence by renewed hammering. "ladies and gents," he said, "fill up for the second toast:--the happy bridegroom!" he stood for half a minute searching his mind for the apt phrase that came at last in a rush. "here's (hic) luck to _him_," said mr. voules. "luck to him!" said everyone, and mr. polly, standing up behind mrs. voules, bowed amiably, amidst enthusiasm. "he may say what he likes," said mrs. larkins, "he's _got_ luck. that girl's a treasure of treasures, and always has been ever since she tried to nurse her own little sister, being but three at the time, and fell the full flight of stairs from top to bottom, no hurt that any outward eye 'as even seen, but always ready and helpful, always tidying and busy. a treasure, i must say, and a treasure i will say, giving no more than her due...." she was silenced altogether by a rapping sound that would not be denied. mr. voules had been struck by a fresh idea and was standing up and hammering with the bottle again. "the third toast, ladies and gentlemen," he said; "fill up, please. the mother of the bride. i--er.... uoo.... ere!... ladies and gem, 'ere's luck to 'er!..." vii the dingy little room was stuffy and crowded to its utmost limit, and mr. polly's skies were dark with the sense of irreparable acts. everybody seemed noisy and greedy and doing foolish things. miriam, still in that unbecoming hat--for presently they had to start off to the station together--sat just beyond mrs. punt and her son, doing her share in the hospitalities, and ever and again glancing at him with a deliberately encouraging smile. once she leant over the back of the chair to him and whispered cheeringly: "soon be together now." next to her sat johnson, profoundly silent, and then annie, talking vigorously to a friend. uncle pentstemon was eating voraciously opposite, but with a kindling eye for annie. mrs. larkins sat next to mr. voules. she was unable to eat a mouthful, she declared, it would choke her, but ever and again mr. voules wooed her to swallow a little drop of liquid refreshment. there seemed a lot of rice upon everybody, in their hats and hair and the folds of their garments. presently mr. voules was hammering the table for the fourth time in the interests of the best man.... all feasts come to an end at last, and the breakup of things was precipitated by alarming symptoms on the part of master punt. he was taken out hastily after a whispered consultation, and since he had got into the corner between the fireplace and the cupboard, that meant everyone moving to make way for him. johnson took the opportunity to say, "well--so long," to anyone who might be listening, and disappear. mr. polly found himself smoking a cigarette and walking up and down outside in the company of uncle pentstemon, while mr. voules replaced bottles in hampers and prepared for departure, and the womenkind of the party crowded upstairs with the bride. mr. polly felt taciturn, but the events of the day had stirred the mind of uncle pentstemon to speech. and so he spoke, discursively and disconnectedly, a little heedless of his listener as wise old men will. "they do say," said uncle pentstemon, "one funeral makes many. this time it's a wedding. but it's all very much of a muchness," said uncle pentstemon.... "'am _do_ get in my teeth nowadays," said uncle pentstemon, "i can't understand it. 'tisn't like there was nubbicks or strings or such in 'am. it's a plain food. "that's better," he said at last. "you _got_ to get married," said uncle pentstemon. "some has. some hain't. i done it long before i was your age. it hain't for me to blame you. you can't 'elp being the marrying sort any more than me. it's nat'ral-like poaching or drinking or wind on the stummik. you can't 'elp it and there you are! as for the good of it, there ain't no particular good in it as i can see. it's a toss up. the hotter come, the sooner cold, but they all gets tired of it sooner or later.... i hain't no grounds to complain. two i've 'ad and berried, and might '_ave_ '_ad_ a third, and never no worrit with kids--never.... "you done well not to '_ave_ the big gal. i will say that for ye. she's a gad-about grinny, she is, if ever was. a gad-about grinny. mucked up my mushroom bed to rights, she did, and i 'aven't forgot it. got the feet of a centipede, she 'as--ll over everything and neither with your leave nor by your leave. like a stray 'en in a pea patch. cluck! cluck! trying to laugh it off. _i_ laughed 'er off, i did. dratted lumpin baggage!..." for a while he mused malevolently upon annie, and routed out a reluctant crumb from some coy sitting-out place in his tooth. "wimmin's a toss up," said uncle pentstemon. "prize packets they are, and you can't tell what's in 'em till you took 'em 'ome and undone 'em. never was a bachelor married yet that didn't buy a pig in a poke. never. marriage seems to change the very natures in 'em through and through. you can't tell what they won't turn into--nohow. "i seen the nicest girls go wrong," said uncle pentstemon, and added with unusual thoughtfulness, "not that i mean _you_ got one of that sort." he sent another crumb on to its long home with a sucking, encouraging noise. "the _wust_ sort's the grizzler," uncle pentstemon resumed. "if ever i'd 'ad a grizzler i'd up and 'it 'er on the 'ed with sumpthin' pretty quick. i don't think i could abide a grizzler," said uncle pentstemon. "i'd liefer '_ave_ a lump-about like that other gal. i would indeed. i lay i'd make 'er stop laughing after a bit for all 'er airs. and mind where her clumsy great feet went.... "a man's got to tackle 'em, whatever they be," said uncle pentstemon, summing up the shrewd observation of an old-world life time. "good or bad," said uncle pentstemon raising his voice fearlessly, "a man's got to tackle 'em." viii at last it was time for the two young people to catch the train for waterloo _en route_ for fishbourne. they had to hurry, and as a concluding glory of matrimony they travelled second-class, and were seen off by all the rest of the party except the punts, master punt being now beyond any question unwell. "off!" the train moved out of the station. mr. polly remained waving his hat and mrs. polly her handkerchief until they were hidden under the bridge. the dominating figure to the last was mr. voules. he had followed them along the platform waving the equestrian grey hat and kissing his hand to the bride. they subsided into their seats. "got a compartment to ourselves anyhow," said mrs. polly after a pause. silence for a moment. "the rice 'e must '_ave_ bought. pounds and pounds!" mr. polly felt round his collar at the thought. "ain't you going to kiss me, elfrid, now we're alone together?" he roused himself to sit forward hands on knees, cocked his hat over one eye, and assumed an expression of avidity becoming to the occasion. "never!" he said. "ever!" and feigned to be selecting a place to kiss with great discrimination. "come here," he said, and drew her to him. "be careful of my 'at," said mrs. polly, yielding awkwardly. chapter the seventh the little shop at fishbourne i for fifteen years mr. polly was a respectable shopkeeper in fishbourne. years they were in which every day was tedious, and when they were gone it was as if they had gone in a flash. but now mr. polly had good looks no more, he was as i have described him in the beginning of this story, thirty-seven and fattish in a not very healthy way, dull and yellowish about the complexion, and with discontented wrinklings round his eyes. he sat on the stile above fishbourne and cried to the heavens above him: "oh! roo-o-o-tten be-e-astly silly hole!" and he wore a rather shabby black morning coat and vest, and his tie was richly splendid, being from stock, and his golf cap aslant over one eye. fifteen years ago, and it might have seemed to you that the queer little flower of mr. polly's imagination must be altogether withered and dead, and with no living seed left in any part of him. but indeed it still lived as an insatiable hunger for bright and delightful experiences, for the gracious aspects of things, for beauty. he still read books when he had a chance, books that told of glorious places abroad and glorious times, that wrung a rich humour from life and contained the delight of words freshly and expressively grouped. but alas! there are not many such books, and for the newspapers and the cheap fiction that abounded more and more in the world mr. polly had little taste. there was no epithet in them. and there was no one to talk to, as he loved to talk. and he had to mind his shop. it was a reluctant little shop from the beginning. he had taken it to escape the doom of johnson's choice and because fishbourne had a hold upon his imagination. he had disregarded the ill-built cramped rooms behind it in which he would have to lurk and live, the relentless limitations of its dimensions, the inconvenience of an underground kitchen that must necessarily be the living-room in winter, the narrow yard behind giving upon the yard of the royal fishbourne hotel, the tiresome sitting and waiting for custom, the restricted prospects of trade. he had visualised himself and miriam first as at breakfast on a clear bright winter morning amidst a tremendous smell of bacon, and then as having muffins for tea. he had also thought of sitting on the beach on sunday afternoons and of going for a walk in the country behind the town and picking _marguerites_ and poppies. but, in fact, miriam and he were extremely cross at breakfast, and it didn't run to muffins at tea. and she didn't think it looked well, she said, to go trapesing about the country on sundays. it was unfortunate that miriam never took to the house from the first. she did not like it when she saw it, and liked it less as she explored it. "there's too many stairs," she said, "and the coal being indoors will make a lot of work." "didn't think of that," said mr. polly, following her round. "it'll be a hard house to keep clean," said miriam. "white paint's all very well in its way," said miriam, "but it shows the dirt something fearful. better '_ave_ '_ad_ it nicely grained." "there's a kind of place here," said mr. polly, "where we might have some flowers in pots." "not me," said miriam. "i've 'ad trouble enough with minnie and 'er musk...." they stayed for a week in a cheap boarding house before they moved in. they had bought some furniture in stamton, mostly second-hand, but with new cheap cutlery and china and linen, and they had supplemented this from the fishbourne shops. miriam, relieved from the hilarious associations of home, developed a meagre and serious quality of her own, and went about with knitted brows pursuing some ideal of "'aving everything right." mr. polly gave himself to the arrangement of the shop with a certain zest, and whistled a good deal until miriam appeared and said that it went through her head. so soon as he had taken the shop he had filled the window with aggressive posters announcing in no measured terms that he was going to open, and now he was getting his stuff put out he was resolved to show fishbourne what window dressing could do. he meant to give them boater straws, imitation panamas, bathing dresses with novelties in stripes, light flannel shirts, summer ties, and ready-made flannel trousers for men, youths and boys. incidentally he watched the small fishmonger over the way, and had a glimpse of the china dealer next door, and wondered if a friendly nod would be out of place. and on the first sunday in this new life he and miriam arrayed themselves with great care, he in his wedding-funeral hat and coat and she in her going-away dress, and went processionally to church, a more respectable looking couple you could hardly imagine, and looked about them. things began to settle down next week into their places. a few customers came, chiefly for bathing suits and hat guards, and on saturday night the cheapest straw hats and ties, and mr. polly found himself more and more drawn towards the shop door and the social charm of the street. he found the china dealer unpacking a crate at the edge of the pavement, and remarked that it was a fine day. the china dealer gave a reluctant assent, and plunged into the crate in a manner that presented no encouragement to a loquacious neighbour. "zealacious commerciality," whispered mr. polly to that unfriendly back view.... ii miriam combined earnestness of spirit with great practical incapacity. the house was never clean nor tidy, but always being frightfully disarranged for cleaning or tidying up, and she cooked because food had to be cooked and with a sound moralist's entire disregard of the quality of the consequences. the food came from her hands done rather than improved, and looking as uncomfortable as savages clothed under duress by a missionary with a stock of out-sizes. such food is too apt to behave resentfully, rebel and work obi. she ceased to listen to her husband's talk from the day she married him, and ceased to unwrinkle the kink in her brow at his presence, giving herself up to mental states that had a quality of secret preoccupation. and she developed an idea for which perhaps there was legitimate excuse, that he was lazy. he seemed to stand about in the shop a great deal, to read--an indolent habit--and presently to seek company for talking. he began to attend the bar parlour of the god's providence inn with some frequency, and would have done so regularly in the evening if cards, which bored him to death, had not arrested conversation. but the perpetual foolish variation of the permutations and combinations of two and fifty cards taken five at a time, and the meagre surprises and excitements that ensue had no charms for mr. polly's mind, which was at once too vivid in its impressions and too easily fatigued. it was soon manifest the shop paid only in the least exacting sense, and miriam did not conceal her opinion that he ought to bestir himself and "do things," though what he was to do was hard to say. you see, when you have once sunken your capital in a shop you do not very easily get it out again. if customers will not come to you cheerfully and freely the law sets limits upon the compulsion you may exercise. you cannot pursue people about the streets of a watering place, compelling them either by threats or importunity to buy flannel trousers. additional sources of income for a tradesman are not always easy to find. wintershed at the bicycle and gramaphone shop to the right, played the organ in the church, and clamp of the toy shop was pew opener and so forth, gambell, the greengrocer, waited at table and his wife cooked, and carter, the watchmaker, left things to his wife while he went about the world winding clocks, but mr. polly had none of these arts, and wouldn't, in spite of miriam's quietly persistent protests, get any other. and on summer evenings he would ride his bicycle about the country, and if he discovered a sale where there were books he would as often as not waste half the next day in going again to acquire a job lot of them haphazard, and bring them home tied about with a string, and hide them from miriam under the counter in the shop. that is a heartbreaking thing for any wife with a serious investigatory turn of mind to discover. she was always thinking of burning these finds, but her natural turn for economy prevailed with her. the books he read during those fifteen years! he read everything he got except theology, and as he read his little unsuccessful circumstances vanished and the wonder of life returned to him, the routine of reluctant getting up, opening shop, pretending to dust it with zest, breakfasting with a shop egg underdone or overdone or a herring raw or charred, and coffee made miriam's way and full of little particles, the return to the shop, the morning paper, the standing, standing at the door saying "how do!" to passers-by, or getting a bit of gossip or watching unusual visitors, all these things vanished as the auditorium of a theatre vanishes when the stage is lit. he acquired hundreds of books at last, old dusty books, books with torn covers and broken covers, fat books whose backs were naked string and glue, an inimical litter to miriam. there was, for example, the voyages of la perouse, with many careful, explicit woodcuts and the frankest revelations of the ways of the eighteenth century sailorman, homely, adventurous, drunken, incontinent and delightful, until he floated, smooth and slow, with all sails set and mirrored in the glassy water, until his head was full of the thought of shining kindly brown-skinned women, who smiled at him and wreathed his head with unfamiliar flowers. he had, too, a piece of a book about the lost palaces of yucatan, those vast terraces buried in primordial forest, of whose makers there is now no human memory. with la perouse he linked "the island nights entertainments," and it never palled upon him that in the dusky stabbing of the "island of voices" something poured over the stabber's hands "like warm tea." queer incommunicable joy it is, the joy of the vivid phrase that turns the statement of the horridest fact to beauty! and another book which had no beginning for him was the second volume of the travels of the _abbés_ hue and gabet. he followed those two sweet souls from their lessons in thibetan under sandura the bearded (who called them donkeys to their infinite benefit and stole their store of butter) through a hundred misadventures to the very heart of lhassa, and it was a thirst in him that was never quenched to find the other volume and whence they came, and who in fact they were. he read fenimore cooper and "tom cringle's log" side by side with joseph conrad, and dreamt of the many-hued humanity of the east and west indies until his heart ached to see those sun-soaked lands before he died. conrad's prose had a pleasure for him that he was never able to define, a peculiar deep coloured effect. he found too one day among a pile of soiled sixpenny books at port burdock, to which place he sometimes rode on his ageing bicycle, bart kennedy's "a sailor tramp," all written in livid jerks, and had forever after a kindlier and more understanding eye for every burly rough who slouched through fishbourne high street. sterne he read with a wavering appreciation and some perplexity, but except for the pickwick papers, for some reason that i do not understand he never took at all kindly to dickens. yet he liked lever and thackeray's "catherine," and all dumas until he got to the vicomte de bragelonne. i am puzzled by his insensibility to dickens, and i record it as a good historian should, with an admission of my perplexity. it is much more understandable that he had no love for scott. and i suppose it was because of his ignorance of the proper pronunciation of words that he infinitely preferred any prose to any metrical writing. a book he browsed over with a recurrent pleasure was waterton's wanderings in south america. he would even amuse himself by inventing descriptions of other birds in the watertonian manner, new birds that he invented, birds with peculiarities that made him chuckle when they occurred to him. he tried to make rusper, the ironmonger, share this joy with him. he read bates, too, about the amazon, but when he discovered that you could not see one bank from the other, he lost, through some mysterious action of the soul that again i cannot understand, at least a tithe of the pleasure he had taken in that river. but he read all sorts of things; a book of old keltic stories collected by joyce charmed him, and mitford's tales of old japan, and a number of paper-covered volumes, _tales from blackwood_, he had acquired at easewood, remained a stand-by. he developed a quite considerable acquaintance with the plays of william shakespeare, and in his dreams he wore cinque cento or elizabethan clothes, and walked about a stormy, ruffling, taverning, teeming world. great land of sublimated things, thou world of books, happy asylum, refreshment and refuge from the world of everyday!... the essential thing of those fifteen long years of shopkeeping is mr. polly, well athwart the counter of his rather ill-lit shop, lost in a book, or rousing himself with a sigh to attend to business. meanwhile he got little exercise, indigestion grew with him until it ruled all his moods, he fattened and deteriorated physically, moods of distress invaded and darkened his skies, little things irritated him more and more, and casual laughter ceased in him. his hair began to come off until he had a large bald space at the back of his head. suddenly one day it came to him--forgetful of those books and all he had lived and seen through them--that he had been in his shop for exactly fifteen years, that he would soon be forty, and that his life during that time had not been worth living, that it had been in apathetic and feebly hostile and critical company, ugly in detail and mean in scope--and that it had brought him at last to an outlook utterly hopeless and grey. iii i have already had occasion to mention, indeed i have quoted, a certain high-browed gentleman living at highbury, wearing a _golden_ _pince_-_nez_ and writing for the most part in that beautiful room, the library of the reform club. there he wrestles with what he calls "social problems" in a bloodless but at times, i think one must admit, an extremely illuminating manner. he has a fixed idea that something called a "collective intelligence" is wanted in the world, which means in practice that you and i and everyone have to think about things frightfully hard and pool the results, and oblige ourselves to be shamelessly and persistently clear and truthful and support and respect (i suppose) a perfect horde of professors and writers and artists and ill-groomed difficult people, instead of using our brains in a moderate, sensible manner to play golf and bridge (pretending a sense of humour prevents our doing anything else with them) and generally taking life in a nice, easy, gentlemanly way, confound him! well, this dome-headed monster of intellect alleges that mr. polly was unhappy entirely through that. "a rapidly complicating society," he writes, "which as a whole declines to contemplate its future or face the intricate problems of its organisation, is in exactly the position of a man who takes no thought of dietary or regimen, who abstains from baths and exercise and gives his appetites free play. it accumulates useless and aimless lives as a man accumulates fat and morbid products in his blood, it declines in its collective efficiency and vigour and secretes discomfort and misery. every phase of its evolution is accompanied by a maximum of avoidable distress and inconvenience and human waste.... "nothing can better demonstrate the collective dulness of our community, the crying need for a strenuous intellectual renewal than the consideration of that vast mass of useless, uncomfortable, under-educated, under-trained and altogether pitiable people we contemplate when we use that inaccurate and misleading term, the lower middle class. a great proportion of the lower middle class should properly be assigned to the unemployed and the unemployable. they are only not that, because the possession of some small hoard of money, savings during a period of wage earning, an insurance policy or suchlike capital, prevents a direct appeal to the rates. but they are doing little or nothing for the community in return for what they consume; they have no understanding of any relation of service to the community, they have never been trained nor their imaginations touched to any social purpose. a great proportion of small shopkeepers, for example, are people who have, through the inefficiency that comes from inadequate training and sheer aimlessness, or improvements in machinery or the drift of trade, been thrown out of employment, and who set up in needless shops as a method of eking out the savings upon which they count. they contrive to make sixty or seventy per cent, of their expenditure, the rest is drawn from the shrinking capital. essentially their lives are failures, not the sharp and tragic failure of the labourer who gets out of work and starves, but a slow, chronic process of consecutive small losses which may end if the individual is exceptionally fortunate in an impoverished death bed before actual bankruptcy or destitution supervenes. their chances of ascendant means are less in their shops than in any lottery that was ever planned. the secular development of transit and communications has made the organisation of distributing businesses upon large and economical lines, inevitable; except in the chaotic confusions of newly opened countries, the day when a man might earn an independent living by unskilled or practically unskilled retailing has gone for ever. yet every year sees the melancholy procession towards petty bankruptcy and imprisonment for debt go on, and there is no statesmanship in us to avert it. every issue of every trade journal has its four or five columns of abridged bankruptcy proceedings, nearly every item in which means the final collapse of another struggling family upon the resources of the community, and continually a fresh supply of superfluous artisans and shop assistants, coming out of employment with savings or 'help' from relations, of widows with a husband's insurance money, of the ill-trained sons of parsimonious fathers, replaces the fallen in the ill-equipped, jerry-built shops that everywhere abound...." i quote these fragments from a gifted, if unpleasant, contemporary for what they are worth. i feel this has come in here as the broad aspect of this history. i come back to mr. polly sitting upon his gate and swearing in the east wind, and i so returning have a sense of floating across unbridged abysses between the general and the particular. there, on the one hand, is the man of understanding, seeing clearly--i suppose he sees clearly--the big process that dooms millions of lives to thwarting and discomfort and unhappy circumstances, and giving us no help, no hint, by which we may get that better "collective will and intelligence" which would dam the stream of human failure, and, on the other hand, mr. polly sitting on his gate, untrained, unwarned, confused, distressed, angry, seeing nothing except that he is, as it were, nettled in greyness and discomfort--with life dancing all about him; mr. polly with a capacity for joy and beauty at least as keen and subtle as yours or mine. iv i have hinted that our mother england had equipped mr. polly for the management of his internal concerns no whit better than she had for the direction of his external affairs. with a careless generosity she affords her children a variety of foods unparalleled in the world's history, and including many condiments and preserved preparations novel to the human economy. and miriam did the cooking. mr. polly's system, like a confused and ill-governed democracy, had been brought to a state of perpetual clamour and disorder, demanding now evil and unsuitable internal satisfactions, such as pickles and vinegar and the crackling on pork, and now vindictive external expression, war and bloodshed throughout the world. so that mr. polly had been led into hatred and a series of disagreeable quarrels with his landlord, his wholesalers, and most of his neighbours. rumbold, the china dealer next door, seemed hostile from the first for no apparent reason, and always unpacked his crates with a full back to his new neighbour, and from the first mr. polly resented and hated that uncivil breadth of expressionless humanity, wanted to prod it, kick it, satirise it. but you cannot satirise a hack, if you have no friend to nudge while you do it. at last mr. polly could stand it no longer. he approached and prodded rumbold. "ello!" said rumbold, suddenly erect and turned about. "can't we have some other point of view?" said mr. polly. "i'm tired of the end elevation." "eh?" said mr. rumbold, frankly puzzled. "of all the vertebracious animals man alone raises his face to the sky, o' man. well,--why invert it?" rumbold shook his head with a helpless expression. "don't like so much arreary pensy." rumbold distressed in utter obscurity. "in fact, i'm sick of your turning your back on me, see?" a great light shone on rumbold. "that's what you're talking about!" he said. "that's it," said polly. rumbold scratched his ear with the three strawy jampots he held in his hand. "way the wind blows, i expect," he said. "but what's the fuss?" "no fuss!" said mr. polly. "passing remark. i don't like it, o' man, that's all." "can't help it, if the wind blows my stror," said mr. rumbold, still far from clear about it.... "it isn't ordinary civility," said mr. polly. "got to unpack 'ow it suits me. can't unpack with the stror blowing into one's eyes." "needn't unpack like a pig rooting for truffles, need you?" "truffles?" "needn't unpack like a pig." mr. rumbold apprehended something. "pig!" he said, impressed. "you calling me a pig?" "it's the side i seem to get of you." "'ere," said mr. rumbold, suddenly fierce and shouting and marking his point with gesticulated jampots, "you go indoors. i don't want no row with you, and i don't want you to row with me. i don't know what you're after, but i'm a peaceable man--teetotaller, too, and a good thing if _you_ was. see? you go indoors!" "you mean to say--i'm asking you civilly to stop unpacking--with your back to me." "pig ain't civil, and you ain't sober. you go indoors and _lemme_ _go_ on unpacking. you--you're excited." "d'you mean--!" mr. polly was foiled. he perceived an immense solidity about rumbold. "get back to your shop and _lemme_ get on with my business," said mr. rumbold. "stop calling me pigs. see? sweep your pavemint." "i came here to make a civil request." "you came 'ere to make a row. i don't want no truck with you. see? i don't like the looks of you. see? and i can't stand 'ere all day arguing. see?" pause of mutual inspection. it occurred to mr. polly that probably he was to some extent in the wrong. mr. rumbold, blowing heavily, walked past him, deposited the jampots in his shop with an immense affectation that there was no mr. polly in the world, returned, turned a scornful back on mr. polly and dived to the interior of the crate. mr. polly stood baffled. should he kick this solid mass before him? should he administer a resounding kick? no! he plunged his hands deeply into his trowser pockets, began to whistle and returned to his own doorstep with an air of profound unconcern. there for a time, to the tune of "men of harlech," he contemplated the receding possibility of kicking mr. rumbold hard. it would be splendid--and for the moment satisfying. but he decided not to do it. for indefinable reasons he could not do it. he went indoors and straightened up his dress ties very slowly and thoughtfully. presently he went to the window and regarded mr. rumbold obliquely. mr. rumbold was still unpacking.... mr. polly had no human intercourse thereafter with rumbold for fifteen years. he kept up a hate. there was a time when it seemed as if rumbold might go, but he had a meeting of his creditors and then went on unpacking as obtusely as ever. v hinks, the saddler, two shops further down the street, was a different case. hinks was the aggressor--practically. hinks was a sporting man in his way, with that taste for checks in costume and tight trousers which is, under providence, so mysteriously and invariably associated with equestrian proclivities. at first mr. polly took to him as a character, became frequent in the god's providence inn under his guidance, stood and was stood drinks and concealed a great ignorance of horses until hinks became urgent for him to play billiards or bet. then mr. polly took to evading him, and hinks ceased to conceal his opinion that mr. polly was in reality a softish sort of flat. he did not, however, discontinue conversation with mr. polly; he would come along to him whenever he appeared at his door, and converse about sport and women and fisticuffs and the pride of life with an air of extreme initiation, until mr. polly felt himself the faintest underdeveloped intimation of a man that had ever hovered on the verge of non-existence. so he invented phrases for hinks' clothes and took rusper, the ironmonger, into his confidence upon the weaknesses of hinks. he called him the "chequered careerist," and spoke of his patterned legs as "shivery shakys." good things of this sort are apt to get round to people. he was standing at his door one day, feeling bored, when hinks appeared down the street, stood still and regarded him with a strange malignant expression for a space. mr. polly waved a hand in a rather belated salutation. mr. hinks spat on the pavement and appeared to reflect. then he came towards mr. polly portentously and paused, and spoke between his teeth in an earnest confidential tone. "you been flapping your mouth about me, i'm told," he said. mr. polly felt suddenly spiritless. "not that i know of," he answered. "not that you know of, be blowed! you been flapping your mouth." "don't see it," said mr. polly. "don't see it, be blowed! you go flapping your silly mouth about me and i'll give you a poke in the eye. see?" mr. hinks regarded the effect of this coldly but firmly, and spat again. "understand me?" he enquired. "don't recollect," began mr. polly. "don't recollect, be blowed! you flap your mouth a dam sight too much. this place gets more of your mouth than it wants.... seen this?" and mr. hinks, having displayed a freckled fist of extraordinary size and pugginess in an ostentatiously familiar manner to mr. polly's close inspection by sight and smell, turned it about this way and that and shaken it gently for a moment or so, replaced it carefully in his pocket as if for future use, receded slowly and watchfully for a pace, and then turned away as if to other matters, and ceased to be even in outward seeming a friend.... vi mr. polly's intercourse with all his fellow tradesmen was tarnished sooner or later by some such adverse incident, until not a friend remained to him, and loneliness made even the shop door terrible. shops bankrupted all about him and fresh people came and new acquaintances sprang up, but sooner or later a discord was inevitable, the tension under which these badly fed, poorly housed, bored and bothered neighbours lived, made it inevitable. the mere fact that mr. polly had to see them every day, that there was no getting away from them, was in itself sufficient to make them almost unendurable to his frettingly active mind. among other shopkeepers in the high street there was chuffles, the grocer, a small, hairy, silently intent polygamist, who was given rough music by the youth of the neighbourhood because of a scandal about his wife's sister, and who was nevertheless totally uninteresting, and tonks, the second grocer, an old man with an older, very enfeebled wife, both submerged by piety. tonks went bankrupt, and was succeeded by a branch of the national provision company, with a young manager exactly like a fox, except that he barked. the toy and sweetstuff shop was kept by an old woman of repellent manners, and so was the little fish shop at the end of the street. the berlin-wool shop having gone bankrupt, became a newspaper shop, then fell to a haberdasher in consumption, and finally to a stationer; the three shops at the end of the street wallowed in and out of insolvency in the hands of a bicycle repairer and dealer, a gramaphone dealer, a tobacconist, a sixpenny-halfpenny bazaar-keeper, a shoemaker, a greengrocer, and the exploiter of a cinematograph peep-show--but none of them supplied friendship to mr. polly. these adventurers in commerce were all more or less distraught souls, driving without intelligible comment before the gale of fate. the two milkmen of fishbourne were brothers who had quarrelled about their father's will, and started in opposition to each other; one was stone deaf and no use to mr. polly, and the other was a sporting man with a natural dread of epithet who sided with hinks. so it was all about him, on every hand it seemed were uncongenial people, uninteresting people, or people who conceived the deepest distrust and hostility towards him, a magic circle of suspicious, preoccupied and dehumanised humanity. so the poison in his system poisoned the world without. (but boomer, the wine merchant, and tashingford, the chemist, be it noted, were fraught with pride, and held themselves to be a cut above mr. polly. they never quarrelled with him, preferring to bear themselves from the outset as though they had already done so.) as his internal malady grew upon mr. polly and he became more and more a battle-ground of fermenting foods and warring juices, he came to hate the very sight, as people say, of every one of these neighbours. there they were, every day and all the days, just the same, echoing his own stagnation. they pained him all round the top and back of his head; they made his legs and arms weary and spiritless. the air was tasteless by reason of them. he lost his human kindliness. in the afternoons he would hover in the shop bored to death with his business and his home and miriam, and yet afraid to go out because of his inflamed and magnified dislike and dread of these neighbours. he could not bring himself to go out and run the gauntlet of the observant windows and the cold estranged eyes. one of his last friendships was with rusper, the ironmonger. rusper took over worthington's shop about three years after mr. polly opened. he was a tall, lean, nervous, convulsive man with an upturned, back-thrown, oval head, who read newspapers and the _review of reviews_ assiduously, had belonged to a literary society somewhere once, and had some defect of the palate that at first gave his lightest word a charm and interest for mr. polly. it caused a peculiar clicking sound, as though he had something between a giggle and a gas-meter at work in his neck. his literary admirations were not precisely mr. polly's literary admirations; he thought books were written to enshrine great thoughts, and that art was pedagogy in fancy dress, he had no sense of phrase or epithet or richness of texture, but still he knew there were books, he did know there were books and he was full of large windy ideas of the sort he called "modern (kik) thought," and seemed needlessly and helplessly concerned about "(kik) the welfare of the race." mr. polly would dream about that (kik) at nights. it seemed to that undesirable mind of his that rusper's head was the most egg-shaped head he had ever seen; the similarity weighed upon him; and when he found an argument growing warm with rusper he would say: "boil it some more, o' man; boil it harder!" or "six minutes at least," allusions rusper could never make head or tail of, and got at last to disregard as a part of mr. polly's general eccentricity. for a long time that little tendency threw no shadow over their intercourse, but it contained within it the seeds of an ultimate disruption. often during the days of this friendship mr. polly would leave his shop and walk over to mr. rusper's establishment, and stand in his doorway and enquire: "well, o' man, how's the mind of the age working?" and get quite an hour of it, and sometimes mr. rusper would come into the outfitter's shop with "heard the (kik) latest?" and spend the rest of the morning. then mr. rusper married, and he married very inconsiderately a woman who was totally uninteresting to mr. polly. a coolness grew between them from the first intimation of her advent. mr. polly couldn't help thinking when he saw her that she drew her hair back from her forehead a great deal too tightly, and that her elbows were angular. his desire not to mention these things in the apt terms that welled up so richly in his mind, made him awkward in her presence, and that gave her an impression that he was hiding some guilty secret from her. she decided he must have a bad influence upon her husband, and she made it a point to appear whenever she heard him talking to rusper. one day they became a little heated about the german peril. "i lay (kik) they'll invade us," said rusper. "not a bit of it. william's not the zerxiacious sort." "you'll see, o' man." "just what i shan't do." "before (kik) five years are out." "not it." "yes." "no." "yes." "oh! boil it hard!" said mr. polly. then he looked up and saw mrs. rusper standing behind the counter half hidden by a trophy of spades and garden shears and a knife-cleaning machine, and by her expression he knew instantly that she understood. the conversation paled and presently mr. polly withdrew. after that, estrangement increased steadily. mr. rusper ceased altogether to come over to the outfitter's, and mr. polly called upon the ironmonger only with the completest air of casuality. and everything they said to each other led now to flat contradiction and raised voices. rusper had been warned in vague and alarming terms that mr. polly insulted and made game of him; he couldn't discover exactly where; and so it appeared to him now that every word of mr. polly's might be an insult meriting his resentment, meriting it none the less because it was masked and cloaked. soon mr. polly's calls upon mr. rusper ceased also, and then mr. rusper, pursuing incomprehensible lines of thought, became afflicted with a specialised shortsightedness that applied only to mr. polly. he would look in other directions when mr. polly appeared, and his large oval face assumed an expression of conscious serenity and deliberate happy unawareness that would have maddened a far less irritable person than mr. polly. it evoked a strong desire to mock and ape, and produced in his throat a cough of singular scornfulness, more particularly when mr. rusper also assisted, with an assumed unconsciousness that was all his own. then one day mr. polly had a bicycle accident. his bicycle was now very old, and it is one of the concomitants of a bicycle's senility that its free wheel should one day obstinately cease to be free. it corresponds to that epoch in human decay when an old gentleman loses an incisor tooth. it happened just as mr. polly was approaching mr. rusper's shop, and the untoward chance of a motor car trying to pass a waggon on the wrong side gave mr. polly no choice but to get on to the pavement and dismount. he was always accustomed to take his time and step off his left pedal at its lowest point, but the jamming of the free wheel gear made that lowest moment a transitory one, and the pedal was lifting his foot for another revolution before he realised what had happened. before he could dismount according to his habit the pedal had to make a revolution, and before it could make a revolution mr. polly found himself among the various sonorous things with which mr. rusper adorned the front of his shop, zinc dustbins, household pails, lawn mowers, rakes, spades and all manner of clattering things. before he got among them he had one of those agonising moments of helpless wrath and suspense that seem to last ages, in which one seems to perceive everything and think of nothing but words that are better forgotten. he sent a column of pails thundering across the doorway and dismounted with one foot in a sanitary dustbin amidst an enormous uproar of falling ironmongery. "put all over the place!" he cried, and found mr. rusper emerging from his shop with the large tranquillities of his countenance puckered to anger, like the frowns in the brow of a reefing sail. he gesticulated speechlessly for a moment. "kik--jer doing?" he said at last. "tin mantraps!" said mr. polly. "jer (kik) doing?" "dressing all over the pavement as though the blessed town belonged to you! ugh!" and mr. polly in attempting a dignified movement realised his entanglement with the dustbin for the first time. with a low embittering expression he kicked his foot about in it for a moment very noisily, and finally sent it thundering to the curb. on its way it struck a pail or so. then mr. polly picked up his bicycle and proposed to resume his homeward way. but the hand of mr. rusper arrested him. "put it (kik) all (kik kik) back (kik)." "put it (kik) back yourself." "you got (kik) put it back." "get out of the (kik) way." mr. rusper laid one hand on the bicycle handle, and the other gripped mr. polly's collar urgently. whereupon mr. polly said: "leggo!" and again, "d'you _hear_! leggo!" and then drove his elbow with considerable force into the region of mr. rusper's midriff. whereupon mr. rusper, with a loud impassioned cry, resembling "woo kik" more than any other combination of letters, released the bicycle handle, seized mr. polly by the cap and hair and bore his head and shoulders downward. thereat mr. polly, emitting such words as everyone knows and nobody prints, butted his utmost into the concavity of mr. rusper, entwined a leg about him and after terrific moments of swaying instability, fell headlong beneath him amidst the bicycles and pails. there on the pavement these inexpert children of a pacific age, untrained in arms and uninured to violence, abandoned themselves to amateurish and absurd efforts to hurt and injure one another--of which the most palpable consequences were dusty backs, ruffled hair and torn and twisted collars. mr. polly, by accident, got his finger into mr. rusper's mouth, and strove earnestly for some time to prolong that aperture in the direction of mr. rusper's ear before it occurred to mr. rusper to bite him (and even then he didn't bite very hard), while mr. rusper concentrated his mind almost entirely on an effort to rub mr. polly's face on the pavement. (and their positions bristled with chances of the deadliest sort!) they didn't from first to last draw blood. then it seemed to each of them that the other had become endowed with many hands and several voices and great accessions of strength. they submitted to fate and ceased to struggle. they found themselves torn apart and held up by outwardly scandalised and inwardly delighted neighbours, and invited to explain what it was all about. "got to (kik) puttem all back!" panted mr. rusper in the expert grasp of hinks. "merely asked him to (kik) puttem all back." mr. polly was under restraint of little clamp, of the toy shop, who was holding his hands in a complex and uncomfortable manner that he afterwards explained to wintershed was a combination of something romantic called "ju-jitsu" and something else still more romantic called the "police grip." "pails," explained mr. polly in breathless fragments. "all over the road. pails. bungs up the street with his pails. look at them!" "deliber (kik) lib (kik) liberately rode into my goods (kik). constantly (kik) annoying me (kik)!" said mr. rusper.... they were both tremendously earnest and reasonable in their manner. they wished everyone to regard them as responsible and intellectual men acting for the love of right and the enduring good of the world. they felt they must treat this business as a profound and publicly significant affair. they wanted to explain and orate and show the entire necessity of everything they had done. mr. polly was convinced he had never been so absolutely correct in all his life as when he planted his foot in the sanitary dustbin, and mr. rusper considered his clutch at mr. polly's hair as the one faultless impulse in an otherwise undistinguished career. but it was clear in their minds they might easily become ridiculous if they were not careful, if for a second they stepped over the edge of the high spirit and pitiless dignity they had hitherto maintained. at any cost they perceived they must not become ridiculous. mr. chuffles, the scandalous grocer, joined the throng about the principal combatants, mutely as became an outcast, and with a sad, distressed helpful expression picked up mr. polly's bicycle. gambell's summer errand boy, moved by example, restored the dustbin and pails to their self-respect. "'_e_ ought--'_e_ ought (kik) pick them up," protested mr. rusper. "what's it all about?" said mr. hinks for the third time, shaking mr. rusper gently. "as 'e been calling you names?" "simply ran into his pails--as anyone might," said mr. polly, "and out he comes and scrags me!" "(kik) assault!" said mr. rusper. "he assaulted _me_," said mr. polly. "jumped (kik) into my dus'bin!" said mr. rusper. "that assault? or isn't it?" "you better drop it," said mr. hinks. "great pity they can't be'ave better, both of 'em," said mr. chuffles, glad for once to find himself morally unassailable. "anyone see it begin?" said mr. wintershed. "_i_ was in the shop," said mrs. rusper suddenly from the doorstep, piercing the little group of men and boys with the sharp horror of an unexpected woman's voice. "if a witness is wanted i suppose i've got a tongue. i suppose i got a voice in seeing my own 'usband injured. my husband went out and spoke to mr. polly, who was jumping off his bicycle all among our pails and things, and immediately 'e butted him in the stomach--immediately--most savagely--butted him. just after his dinner too and him far from strong. i could have screamed. but rusper caught hold of him right away, i will say that for rusper...." "i'm going," said mr. polly suddenly, releasing himself from the anglo-japanese grip and holding out his hands for his bicycle. "teach you (kik) to leave things alone," said mr. rusper with an air of one who has given a lesson. the testimony of mrs. rusper continued relentlessly in the background. "you'll hear of me through a summons," said mr. polly, preparing to wheel his bicycle. "(kik) me too," said mr. rusper. someone handed mr. polly a collar. "this yours?" mr. polly investigated his neck. "i suppose it is. anyone seen a tie?" a small boy produced a grimy strip of spotted blue silk. "human life isn't safe with you," said mr. polly as a parting shot. "(kik) yours isn't," said mr. rusper.... and they got small satisfaction out of the bench, which refused altogether to perceive the relentless correctitude of the behaviour of either party, and reproved the eagerness of mrs. rusper--speaking to her gently, firmly but exasperatingly as "my good woman" and telling her to "answer the question! answer the question!" "seems a pity," said the chairman, when binding them over to keep the peace, "you can't behave like respectable tradesmen. seems a great pity. bad example to the young and all that. don't do any good to the town, don't do any good to yourselves, don't do any manner of good, to have all the tradesmen in the place scrapping about the pavement of an afternoon. think we're letting you off very easily this time, and hope it will be a warning to you. don't expect men of your position to come up before us. very regrettable affair. eh?" he addressed the latter enquiry to his two colleagues. "exactly, exactly," said the colleague to the right. "er--(kik)," said mr. rusper. vii but the disgust that overshadowed mr. polly's being as he sat upon the stile, had other and profounder justification than his quarrel with rusper and the indignity of appearing before the county bench. he was for the first time in his business career short with his rent for the approaching quarter day, and so far as he could trust his own handling of figures he was sixty or seventy pounds on the wrong side of solvency. and that was the outcome of fifteen years of passive endurance of dulness throughout the best years of his life! what would miriam say when she learnt this, and was invited to face the prospect of exile--heaven knows what sort of exile!--from their present home? she would grumble and scold and become limply unhelpful, he knew, and none the less so because he could not help things. she would say he ought to have worked harder, and a hundred such exasperating pointless things. such thoughts as these require no aid from undigested cold pork and cold potatoes and pickles to darken the soul, and with these aids his soul was black indeed. "may as well have a bit of a walk," said mr. polly at last, after nearly intolerable meditations, and sat round and put a leg over the stile. he remained still for some time before he brought over the other leg. "kill myself," he murmured at last. it was an idea that came back to his mind nowadays with a continually increasing attractiveness--more particularly after meals. life he felt had no further happiness to offer him. he hated miriam, and there was no getting away from her whatever might betide. and for the rest there was toil and struggle, toil and struggle with a failing heart and dwindling courage, to sustain that dreary duologue. "life's insured," said mr. polly; "place is insured. i don't see it does any harm to her or anyone." he stuck his hands in his pockets. "needn't hurt much," he said. he began to elaborate a plan. he found it quite interesting elaborating his plan. his countenance became less miserable and his pace quickened. there is nothing so good in all the world for melancholia as walking, and the exercise of the imagination in planning something presently to be done, and soon the wrathful wretchedness had vanished from mr. polly's face. he would have to do the thing secretly and elaborately, because otherwise there might be difficulties about the life insurance. he began to scheme how he could circumvent that difficulty.... he took a long walk, for after all what is the good of hurrying back to shop when you are not only insolvent but very soon to die? his dinner and the east wind lost their sinister hold upon his soul, and when at last he came back along the fishbourne high street, his face was unusually bright and the craving hunger of the dyspeptic was returning. so he went into the grocer's and bought a ruddily decorated tin of a brightly pink fishlike substance known as "deep sea salmon." this he was resolved to consume regardless of cost with vinegar and salt and pepper as a relish to his supper. he did, and since he and miriam rarely talked and miriam thought honour and his recent behaviour demanded a hostile silence, he ate fast, and copiously and soon gloomily. he ate alone, for she refrained, to mark her sense of his extravagance. then he prowled into the high street for a time, thought it an infernal place, tried his pipe and found it foul and bitter, and retired wearily to bed. he slept for an hour or so and then woke up to the contemplation of miriam's hunched back and the riddle of life, and this bright attractive idea of ending for ever and ever and ever all the things that were locking him in, this bright idea that shone like a baleful star above all the reek and darkness of his misery.... chapter the eighth making an end to things i mr. polly designed his suicide with considerable care, and a quite remarkable altruism. his passionate hatred for miriam vanished directly the idea of getting away from her for ever became clear in his mind. he found himself full of solicitude then for her welfare. he did not want to buy his release at her expense. he had not the remotest intention of leaving her unprotected with a painfully dead husband and a bankrupt shop on her hands. it seemed to him that he could contrive to secure for her the full benefit of both his life insurance and his fire insurance if he managed things in a tactful manner. he felt happier than he had done for years scheming out this undertaking, albeit it was perhaps a larger and somberer kind of happiness than had fallen to his lot before. it amazed him to think he had endured his monotony of misery and failure for so long. but there were some queer doubts and questions in the dim, half-lit background of his mind that he had very resolutely to ignore. "sick of it," he had to repeat to himself aloud, to keep his determination clear and firm. his life was a failure, there was nothing more to hope for but unhappiness. why shouldn't he? his project was to begin the fire with the stairs that led from the ground floor to the underground kitchen and scullery. this he would soak with _paraffine_, and assist with firewood and paper, and a brisk fire in the coal cellar underneath. he would smash a hole or so in the stairs to ventilate the blaze, and have a good pile of boxes and paper, and a convenient chair or so in the shop above. he would have the _paraffine_ can upset and the shop lamp, as if awaiting refilling, at a convenient distance in the scullery ready to catch. then he would smash the house lamp on the staircase, a fall with that in his hand was to be the ostensible cause of the blaze, and then he would cut his throat at the top of the kitchen stairs, which would then become his funeral pyre. he would do all this on sunday evening while miriam was at church, and it would appear that he had fallen downstairs with the lamp, and been burnt to death. there was really no flaw whatever that he could see in the scheme. he was quite sure he knew how to cut his throat, deep at the side and not to saw at the windpipe, and he was reasonably sure it wouldn't hurt him very much. and then everything would be at an end. there was no particular hurry to get the thing done, of course, and meanwhile he occupied his mind with possible variations of the scheme.... it needed a particularly dry and dusty east wind, a sunday dinner of exceptional virulence, a conclusive letter from konk, maybrick, ghool and gabbitas, his principal and most urgent creditors, and a conversation with miriam arising out of arrears of rent and leading on to mutual character sketching, before mr. polly could be brought to the necessary pitch of despair to carry out his plans. he went for an embittering walk, and came back to find miriam in a bad temper over the tea things, with the brewings of three-quarters of an hour in the pot, and hot buttered muffin gone leathery. he sat eating in silence with his resolution made. "coming to church?" said miriam after she had cleared away. "rather. i got a lot to be grateful for," said mr. polly. "you got what you deserve," said miriam. "suppose i have," said mr. polly, and went and stared out of the back window at a despondent horse in the hotel yard. he was still standing there when miriam came downstairs dressed for church. something in his immobility struck home to her. "you'd better come to church than mope," she said. "i shan't mope," he answered. she remained still for a moment. her presence irritated him. he felt that in another moment he should say something absurd to her, make some last appeal for that understanding she had never been able to give. "oh! _go_ to church!" he said. in another moment the outer door slammed upon her. "good riddance!" said mr. polly. he turned about. "i've had my whack," he said. he reflected. "i don't see she'll have any cause to holler," he said. "beastly home! beastly life!" for a space he remained thoughtful. "here goes!" he said at last. ii for twenty minutes mr. polly busied himself about the house, making his preparations very neatly and methodically. he opened the attic windows in order to make sure of a good draught through the house, and drew down the blinds at the back and shut the kitchen door to conceal his arrangements from casual observation. at the end he would open the door on the yard and so make a clean clear draught right through the house. he hacked at, and wedged off, the tread of a stair. he cleared out the coals from under the staircase, and built a neat fire of firewood and paper there, he splashed about _paraffine_ and arranged the lamps and can even as he had designed, and made a fine inflammable pile of things in the little parlour behind the shop. "looks pretty arsonical," he said as he surveyed it all. "wouldn't do to have a caller now. now for the stairs!" "plenty of time," he assured himself, and took the lamp which was to explain the whole affair, and went to the head of the staircase between the scullery and the parlour. he sat down in the twilight with the unlit lamp beside him and surveyed things. he must light the fire in the coal cellar under the stairs, open the back door, then come up them very quickly and light the _paraffine_ puddles on each step, then sit down here again and cut his throat. he drew his razor from his pocket and felt the edge. it wouldn't hurt much, and in ten minutes he would be indistinguishable ashes in the blaze. and this was the end of life for him! the end! and it seemed to him now that life had never begun for him, never! it was as if his soul had been cramped and his eyes bandaged from the hour of his birth. why had he lived such a life? why had he submitted to things, blundered into things? why had he never insisted on the things he thought beautiful and the things he desired, never sought them, fought for them, taken any risk for them, died rather than abandon them? they were the things that mattered. safety did not matter. a living did not matter unless there were things to live for.... he had been a fool, a coward and a fool, he had been fooled too, for no one had ever warned him to take a firm hold upon life, no one had ever told him of the littleness of fear, or pain, or death; but what was the good of going through it now again? it was over and done with. the clock in the back parlour pinged the half hour. "time!" said mr. polly, and stood up. for an instant he battled with an impulse to put it all back, hastily, guiltily, and abandon this desperate plan of suicide for ever. but miriam would smell the _paraffine_! "no way out this time, o' man," said mr. polly; and he went slowly downstairs, matchbox in hand. he paused for five seconds, perhaps, to listen to noises in the yard of the royal fishbourne hotel before he struck his match. it trembled a little in his hand. the paper blackened, and an edge of blue flame ran outward and spread. the fire burnt up readily, and in an instant the wood was crackling cheerfully. someone might hear. he must hurry. he lit a pool of _paraffine_ on the scullery floor, and instantly a nest of snaky, wavering blue flame became agog for prey. he went up the stairs three steps at a time with one eager blue flicker in pursuit of him. he seized the lamp at the top. "now!" he said and flung it smashing. the chimney broke, but the glass receiver stood the shock and rolled to the bottom, a potential bomb. old rumbold would hear that and wonder what it was!... he'd know soon enough! then mr. polly stood hesitating, razor in hand, and then sat down. he was trembling violently, but quite unafraid. he drew the blade lightly under one ear. "lord!" but it stung like a nettle! then he perceived a little blue thread of flame running up his leg. it arrested his attention, and for a moment he sat, razor in hand, staring at it. it must be _paraffine_ on his trousers that had caught fire on the stairs. of course his legs were wet with _paraffine_! he smacked the flicker with his hand to put it out, and felt his leg burn as he did so. but his trousers still charred and glowed. it seemed to him necessary that he must put this out before he cut his throat. he put down the razor beside him to smack with both hands very eagerly. and as he did so a thin tall red flame came up through the hole in the stairs he had made and stood still, quite still as it seemed, and looked at him. it was a strange-looking flame, a flattish salmon colour, redly streaked. it was so queer and quiet mannered that the sight of it held mr. polly agape. "whuff!" went the can of _paraffine_ below, and boiled over with stinking white fire. at the outbreak the salmon-coloured flames shivered and ducked and then doubled and vanished, and instantly all the staircase was noisily ablaze. mr. polly sprang up and backwards, as though the uprushing tongues of fire were a pack of eager wolves. "good lord!" he cried like a man who wakes up from a dream. he swore sharply and slapped again at a recrudescent flame upon his leg. "what the deuce shall i do? i'm soaked with the confounded stuff!" he had nerved himself for throat-cutting, but this was fire! he wanted to delay things, to put them out for a moment while he did his business. the idea of arresting all this hurry with water occurred to him. there was no water in the little parlour and none in the shop. he hesitated for a moment whether he should not run upstairs to the bedrooms and get a ewer of water to throw on the flames. at this rate rumbold's would be ablaze in five minutes! things were going all too fast for mr. polly. he ran towards the staircase door, and its hot breath pulled him up sharply. then he dashed out through his shop. the catch of the front door was sometimes obstinate; it was now, and instantly he became frantic. he rattled and stormed and felt the parlour already ablaze behind him. in another moment he was in the high street with the door wide open. the staircase behind him was crackling now like horsewhips and pistol shots. he had a vague sense that he wasn't doing as he had proposed, but the chief thing was his sense of that uncontrolled fire within. what was he going to do? there was the fire brigade station next door but one. the fishbourne high street had never seemed so empty. far off at the corner by the god's providence inn a group of three stiff hobbledehoys in their black, best clothes, conversed intermittently with taplow, the policeman. "hi!" bawled mr. polly to them. "fire! fire!" and struck by a horrible thought, the thought of rumbold's deaf mother-in-law upstairs, began to bang and kick and rattle with the utmost fury at rumbold's shop door. "hi!" he repeated, "_fire!_" iii that was the beginning of the great fishbourne fire, which burnt its way sideways into mr. rusper's piles of crates and straw, and backwards to the petrol and stabling of the royal fishbourne hotel, and spread from that basis until it seemed half fishbourne would be ablaze. the east wind, which had been gathering in strength all that day, fanned the flame; everything was dry and ready, and the little shed beyond rumbold's in which the local fire brigade kept its manual, was alight before the fishbourne fire hose could be saved from disaster. in marvellously little time a great column of black smoke, shot with red streamers, rose out of the middle of the high street, and all fishbourne was alive with excitement. much of the more respectable elements of fishbourne society was in church or chapel; many, however, had been tempted by the blue sky and the hard freshness of spring to take walks inland, and there had been the usual disappearance of loungers and conversationalists from the beach and the back streets when at the hour of six the shooting of bolts and the turning of keys had ended the british ramadan, that weekly interlude of drought our law imposes. the youth of the place were scattered on the beach or playing in back yards, under threat if their clothes were dirtied, and the adolescent were disposed in pairs among the more secluded corners to be found upon the outskirts of the place. several godless youths, seasick but fishing steadily, were tossing upon the sea in old tarbold's, the infidel's, boat, and the clamps were entertaining cousins from port burdock. such few visitors as fishbourne could boast in the spring were at church or on the beach. to all these that column of smoke did in a manner address itself. "look here!" it said, "this, within limits, is your affair; what are you going to do?" the three hobbledehoys, had it been a weekday and they in working clothes, might have felt free to act, but the stiffness of black was upon them and they simply moved to the corner by rusper's to take a better view of mr. polly beating at the door. the policeman was a young, inexpert constable with far too lively a sense of the public house. he put his head inside the private bar to the horror of everyone there. but there was no breach of the law, thank heaven! "polly's and rumbold's on fire!" he said, and vanished again. a window in the top story over boomer's shop opened, and boomer, captain of the fire brigade, appeared, staring out with a blank expression. still staring, he began to fumble with his collar and tie; manifestly he had to put on his uniform. hinks' dog, which had been lying on the pavement outside wintershed's, woke up, and having regarded mr. polly suspiciously for some time, growled nervously and went round the corner into granville alley. mr. polly continued to beat and kick at rumbold's door. then the public houses began to vomit forth the less desirable elements of fishbourne society, boys and men were moved to run and shout, and more windows went up as the stir increased. tashingford, the chemist, appeared at his door, in shirt sleeves and an apron, with his photographic plate holders in his hand. and then like a vision of purpose came mr. gambell, the greengrocer, running out of clayford's alley and buttoning on his jacket as he ran. his great brass fireman's helmet was on his head, hiding it all but the sharp nose, the firm mouth, the intrepid chin. he ran straight to the fire station and tried the door, and turned about and met the eye of boomer still at his upper window. "the key!" cried mr. gambell, "the key!" mr. boomer made some inaudible explanation about his trousers and half a minute. "seen old rumbold?" cried mr. polly, approaching mr. gambell. "gone over downford for a walk," said mr. gambell. "he told me! but look 'ere! we 'aven't got the key!" "lord!" said mr. polly, and regarded the china shop with open eyes. he _knew_ the old woman must be there alone. he went back to the shop front and stood surveying it in infinite perplexity. the other activities in the street did not interest him. a deaf old lady somewhere upstairs there! precious moments passing! suddenly he was struck by an idea and vanished from public vision into the open door of the royal fishbourne tap. and now the street was getting crowded and people were laying their hands to this and that. mr. rusper had been at home reading a number of tracts upon tariff reform, during the quiet of his wife's absence in church, and trying to work out the application of the whole question to ironmongery. he heard a clattering in the street and for a time disregarded it, until a cry of fire! drew him to the window. he pencilled-marked the tract of chiozza money's that he was reading side by side with one by mr. holt schooling, made a hasty note "bal. of trade say , , " and went to look out. instantly he opened the window and ceased to believe the fiscal question the most urgent of human affairs. "good (kik) gud!" said mr. rusper. for now the rapidly spreading blaze had forced the partition into mr. rumbold's premises, swept across his cellar, clambered his garden wall by means of his well-tarred mushroom shed, and assailed the engine house. it stayed not to consume, but ran as a thing that seeks a quarry. polly's shop and upper parts were already a furnace, and black smoke was coming out of rumbold's cellar gratings. the fire in the engine house showed only as a sudden rush of smoke from the back, like something suddenly blown up. the fire brigade, still much under strength, were now hard at work in the front of the latter building; they had got the door open all too late, they had rescued the fire escape and some buckets, and were now lugging out their manual, with the hose already a dripping mass of molten, flaring, stinking rubber. boomer was dancing about and swearing and shouting; this direct attack upon his apparatus outraged his sense of chivalry. the rest of the brigade hovered in a disheartened state about the rescued fire escape, and tried to piece boomer's comments into some tangible instructions. "hi!" said rusper from the window. "kik! what's up?" gambell answered him out of his helmet. "hose!" he cried. "hose gone!" "i (kik) got hose!" cried rusper. he had. he had a stock of several thousand feet of garden hose, of various qualities and calibres, and now he felt was the time to use it. in another moment his shop door was open and he was hurling pails, garden syringes, and rolls of garden hose out upon the pavement. "(kik)," he cried, "undo it!" to the gathering crowd in the roadway. they did. presently a hundred ready hands were unrolling and spreading and tangling up and twisting and hopelessly involving mr. rusper's stock of hose, sustained by an unquenchable assurance that presently it would in some manner contain and convey water, and mr. rusper, on his knees, (kiking) violently, became incredibly busy with wire and brass junctions and all sorts of mysteries. "fix it to the (kik) bathroom tap!" said mr. rusper. next door to the fire station was mantell and throbson's, the little fishbourne branch of that celebrated firm, and mr. boomer, seeking in a teeming mind for a plan of action, had determined to save this building. "someone telephone to the port burdock and hampstead-on-sea fire brigades," he cried to the crowd and then to his fellows: "cut away the woodwork of the fire station!" and so led the way into the blaze with a whirling hatchet that effected wonders in no time in ventilation. but it was not, after all, such a bad idea of his. mantell and throbsons was separated from the fire station in front by a covered glass passage, and at the back the roof of a big outhouse sloped down to the fire station leads. the sturdy 'longshoremen, who made up the bulk of the fire brigade, assailed the glass roof of the passage with extraordinary gusto, and made a smashing of glass that drowned for a time the rising uproar of the flames. a number of willing volunteers started off to the new telephone office in obedience to mr. boomer's request, only to be told with cold official politeness by the young lady at the exchange that all that had been done on her own initiative ten minutes ago. she parleyed with these heated enthusiasts for a space, and then returned to the window. and indeed the spectacle was well worth looking at. the dusk was falling, and the flames were showing brilliantly at half a dozen points. the royal fishbourne hotel tap, which adjoined mr. polly to the west, was being kept wet by the enthusiastic efforts of a string of volunteers with buckets of water, and above at a bathroom window the little german waiter was busy with the garden hose. but mr. polly's establishment looked more like a house afire than most houses on fire contrive to look from start to finish. every window showed eager flickering flames, and flames like serpents' tongues were licking out of three large holes in the roof, which was already beginning to fall in. behind, larger and abundantly spark-shot gusts of fire rose from the fodder that was now getting alight in the royal fishbourne hotel stables. next door to mr. polly, mr. rumbold's house was disgorging black smoke from the gratings that protected its underground windows, and smoke and occasional shivers of flame were also coming out of its first-floor windows. the fire station was better alight at the back than in front, and its woodwork burnt pretty briskly with peculiar greenish flickerings, and a pungent flavour. in the street an inaggressively disorderly crowd clambered over the rescued fire escape and resisted the attempts of the three local constables to get it away from the danger of mr. polly's tottering façade, a cluster of busy forms danced and shouted and advised on the noisy and smashing attempt to cut off mantell and throbson's from the fire station that was still in ineffectual progress. further a number of people appeared to be destroying interminable red and grey snakes under the heated direction of mr. rusper; it was as if the high street had a plague of worms, and beyond again the more timid and less active crowded in front of an accumulation of arrested traffic. most of the men were in sabbatical black, and this and the white and starched quality of the women and children in their best clothes gave a note of ceremony to the whole affair. for a moment the attention of the telephone clerk was held by the activities of mr. tashingford, the chemist, who, regardless of everyone else, was rushing across the road hurling fire grenades into the fire station and running back for more, and then her eyes lifted to the slanting outhouse roof that went up to a ridge behind the parapet of mantell and throbson's. an expression of incredulity came into the telephone operator's eyes and gave place to hard activity. she flung up the window and screamed out: "two people on the roof up there! two people on the roof!" iv her eyes had not deceived her. two figures which had emerged from the upper staircase window of mr. rumbold's and had got after a perilous paddle in his cistern, on to the fire station, were now slowly but resolutely clambering up the outhouse roof towards the back of the main premises of messrs. mantell and throbson's. they clambered slowly and one urged and helped the other, slipping and pausing ever and again, amidst a constant trickle of fragments of broken tile. one was mr. polly, with his hair wildly disordered, his face covered with black smudges and streaked with perspiration, and his trouser legs scorched and blackened; the other was an elderly lady, quietly but becomingly dressed in black, with small white frills at her neck and wrists and a sunday cap of ecru lace enlivened with a black velvet bow. her hair was brushed back from her wrinkled brow and plastered down tightly, meeting in a small knob behind; her wrinkled mouth bore that expression of supreme resolution common with the toothless aged. she was shaky, not with fear, but with the vibrations natural to her years, and she spoke with the slow quavering firmness of the very aged. "i don't mind scrambling," she said with piping inflexibility, "but i can't jump and i _wunt_ jump." "scramble, old lady, then--scramble!" said mr. polly, pulling her arm. "it's one up and two down on these blessed tiles." "it's not what i'm used to," she said. "stick to it!" said mr. polly, "live and learn," and got to the ridge and grasped at her arm to pull her after him. "i can't jump, mind ye," she repeated, pressing her lips together. "and old ladies like me mustn't be hurried." "well, let's get as high as possible anyhow!" said mr. polly, urging her gently upward. "shinning up a water-spout in your line? near as you'll get to heaven." "i _can't_ jump," she said. "i can do anything but jump." "hold on!" said mr. polly, "while i give you a boost. that's--wonderful." "so long as it isn't jumping...." the old lady grasped the parapet above, and there was a moment of intense struggle. "urup!" said mr. polly. "hold on! gollys! where's she gone to?..." then an ill-mended, wavering, yet very reassuring spring side boot appeared for an instant. "thought perhaps there wasn't any roof there!" he explained, scrambling up over the parapet beside her. "i've never been out on a roof before," said the old lady. "i'm all disconnected. it's very bumpy. especially that last bit. can't we sit here for a bit and rest? i'm not the girl i use to be." "you sit here ten minutes," shouted mr. polly, "and you'll pop like a roast chestnut. don't understand me? _roast chestnut!_ roast chestnut! pop! there ought to be a limit to deafness. come on round to the front and see if we can find an attic window. look at this smoke!" "nasty!" said the old lady, her eyes following his gesture, puckering her face into an expression of great distaste. "come on!" "can't hear a word you say." he pulled her arm. "come on!" she paused for a moment to relieve herself of a series of entirely unexpected chuckles. "_sich_ goings on!" she said, "i never did! where's he going now?" and came along behind the parapet to the front of the drapery establishment. below, the street was now fully alive to their presence, and encouraged the appearance of their heads by shouts and cheers. a sort of free fight was going on round the fire escape, order represented by mr. boomer and the very young policeman, and disorder by some partially intoxicated volunteers with views of their own about the manipulation of the apparatus. two or three lengths of mr. rusper's garden hose appeared to have twined themselves round the ladder. mr. polly watched the struggle with a certain impatience, and glanced ever and again over his shoulder at the increasing volume of smoke and steam that was pouring up from the burning fire station. he decided to break an attic window and get in, and so try and get down through the shop. he found himself in a little bedroom, and returned to fetch his charge. for some time he could not make her understand his purpose. "got to come at once!" he shouted. "i hain't '_ad_ _sich_ a time for years!" said the old lady. "we'll have to get down through the house!" "can't do no jumpin'," said the old lady. "no!" she yielded reluctantly to his grasp. she stared over the parapet. "runnin' and scurrying about like black beetles in a kitchin," she said. "we've got to hurry." "mr. rumbold 'e's a very quiet man. 'e likes everything quiet. he'll be surprised to see me 'ere! why!--there 'e is!" she fumbled in her garments mysteriously and at last produced a wrinkled pocket handkerchief and began to wave it. "oh, come on!" cried mr. polly, and seized her. he got her into the attic, but the staircase, he found, was full of suffocating smoke, and he dared not venture below the next floor. he took her into a long dormitory, shut the door on those pungent and pervasive fumes, and opened the window to discover the fire escape was now against the house, and all fishbourne boiling with excitement as an immensely helmeted and active and resolute little figure ascended. in another moment the rescuer stared over the windowsill, heroic, but just a trifle self-conscious and grotesque. "lawks a mussy!" said the old lady. "wonders and wonders! why! it's mr. gambell! 'iding 'is 'ed in that thing! i _never_ did!" "can we get her out?" said mr. gambell. "there's not much time." "he might git stuck in it." "_you'll_ get stuck in it," said mr. polly, "come along!" "not for jumpin' i don't," said the old lady, understanding his gestures rather than his words. "not a bit of it. i bain't no good at jumping and i _wunt_." they urged her gently but firmly towards the window. "you _lemme_ do it my own way," said the old lady at the sill.... "i could do it better if e'd take it off." "oh! _carm_ on!" "it's wuss than carter's stile," she said, "before they mended it. with a cow a-looking at you." mr. gambell hovered protectingly below. mr. polly steered her aged limbs from above. an anxious crowd below babbled advice and did its best to upset the fire escape. within, streamers of black smoke were pouring up through the cracks in the floor. for some seconds the world waited while the old lady gave herself up to reckless mirth again. "_sich_ times!" she said, and "_poor_ rumbold!" slowly they descended, and mr. polly remained at the post of danger steadying the long ladder until the old lady was in safety below and sheltered by mr. rumbold (who was in tears) and the young policeman from the urgent congratulations of the crowd. the crowd was full of an impotent passion to participate. those nearest wanted to shake her hand, those remoter cheered. "the fust fire i was ever in and likely to be my last. it's a scurryin', 'urryin' business, but i'm real glad i haven't missed it," said the old lady as she was borne rather than led towards the refuge of the temperance hotel. also she was heard to remark: "'e was saying something about 'ot chestnuts. _i_ 'aven't 'ad no 'ot chestnuts." then the crowd became aware of mr. polly awkwardly negotiating the top rungs of the fire escape. "'ere 'e comes!" cried a voice, and mr. polly descended into the world again out of the conflagration he had lit to be his funeral pyre, moist, excited, and tremendously alive, amidst a tempest of applause. as he got lower and lower the crowd howled like a pack of dogs at him. impatient men unable to wait for him seized and shook his descending boots, and so brought him to earth with a run. he was rescued with difficulty from an enthusiast who wished to slake at his own expense and to his own accompaniment a thirst altogether heroic. he was hauled into the temperance hotel and flung like a sack, breathless and helpless, into the tear-wet embrace of miriam. v with the dusk and the arrival of some county constabulary, and first one and presently two other fire engines from port burdock and hampstead-on-sea, the local talent of fishbourne found itself forced back into a secondary, less responsible and more observant rôle. i will not pursue the story of the fire to its ashes, nor will i do more than glance at the unfortunate mr. rusper, a modern laocoon, vainly trying to retrieve his scattered hose amidst the tramplings and rushings of the port burdock experts. in a small sitting-room of the fishbourne temperance hotel a little group of fishbourne tradesmen sat and conversed in fragments and anon went to the window and looked out upon the smoking desolation of their homes across the way, and anon sat down again. they and their families were the guests of old lady bargrave, who had displayed the utmost sympathy and interest in their misfortunes. she had taken several people into her own house at everdean, had engaged the temperance hotel as a temporary refuge, and personally superintended the housing of mantell and throbson's homeless assistants. the temperance hotel became and remained extremely noisy and congested, with people sitting about anywhere, conversing in fragments and totally unable to get themselves to bed. the manager was an old soldier, and following the best traditions of the service saw that everyone had hot cocoa. hot cocoa seemed to be about everywhere, and it was no doubt very heartening and sustaining to everyone. when the manager detected anyone disposed to be drooping or pensive he exhorted that person at once to drink further hot cocoa and maintain a stout heart. the hero of the occasion, the centre of interest, was mr. polly. for he had not only caused the fire by upsetting a lighted lamp, scorching his trousers and narrowly escaping death, as indeed he had now explained in detail about twenty times, but he had further thought at once of that amiable but helpless old lady next door, had shown the utmost decision in making his way to her over the yard wall of the royal fishbourne hotel, and had rescued her with persistence and vigour in spite of the levity natural to her years. everyone thought well of him and was anxious to show it, more especially by shaking his hand painfully and repeatedly. mr. rumbold, breaking a silence of nearly fifteen years, thanked him profusely, said he had never understood him properly and declared he ought to have a medal. there seemed to be a widely diffused idea that mr. polly ought to have a medal. hinks thought so. he declared, moreover, and with the utmost emphasis, that mr. polly had a crowded and richly decorated interior--or words to that effect. there was something apologetic in this persistence; it was as if he regretted past intimations that mr. polly was internally defective and hollow. he also said that mr. polly was a "white man," albeit, as he developed it, with a liver of the deepest chromatic satisfactions. mr. polly wandered centrally through it all, with his face washed and his hair carefully brushed and parted, looking modest and more than a little absent-minded, and wearing a pair of black dress trousers belonging to the manager of the temperance hotel,--a larger man than himself in every way. he drifted upstairs to his fellow-tradesmen, and stood for a time staring into the littered street, with its pools of water and extinguished gas lamps. his companions in misfortune resumed a fragmentary disconnected conversation. they touched now on one aspect of the disaster and now on another, and there were intervals of silence. more or less empty cocoa cups were distributed over the table, mantelshelf and piano, and in the middle of the table was a tin of biscuits, into which mr. rumbold, sitting round-shoulderedly, dipped ever and again in an absent-minded way, and munched like a distant shooting of coals. it added to the solemnity of the affair that nearly all of them were in their black sunday clothes; little clamp was particularly impressive and dignified in a wide open frock coat, a gladstone-shaped paper collar, and a large white and blue tie. they felt that they were in the presence of a great disaster, the sort of disaster that gets into the papers, and is even illustrated by blurred photographs of the crumbling ruins. in the presence of that sort of disaster all honourable men are lugubrious and sententious. and yet it is impossible to deny a certain element of elation. not one of those excellent men but was already realising that a great door had opened, as it were, in the opaque fabric of destiny, that they were to get their money again that had seemed sunken for ever beyond any hope in the deeps of retail trade. life was already in their imagination rising like a phoenix from the flames. "i suppose there'll be a public subscription," said mr. clamp. "not for those who're insured," said mr. wintershed. "i was thinking of them assistants from mantell and throbson's. they must have lost nearly everything." "they'll be looked after all right," said mr. rumbold. "never fear." pause. "_i'm_ insured," said mr. clamp, with unconcealed satisfaction. "royal salamander." "same here," said mr. wintershed. "mine's the glasgow sun," mr. hinks remarked. "very good company." "you insured, mr. polly?" "he deserves to be," said rumbold. "ra-ther," said hinks. "blowed if he don't. hard lines it _would_ be--if there wasn't something for him." "commercial and general," answered mr. polly over his shoulder, still staring out of the window. "oh! i'm all right." the topic dropped for a time, though manifestly it continued to exercise their minds. "it's cleared me out of a lot of old stock," said mr. wintershed; "that's one good thing." the remark was felt to be in rather questionable taste, and still more so was his next comment. "rusper's a bit sick it didn't reach '_im_." everyone looked uncomfortable, and no one was willing to point the reason why rusper should be a bit sick. "rusper's been playing a game of his own," said hinks. "wonder what he thought he was up to! sittin' in the middle of the road with a pair of tweezers he was, and about a yard of wire--mending somethin'. wonder he warn't run over by the port burdock engine." presently a little chat sprang up upon the causes of fires, and mr. polly was moved to tell how it had happened for the one and twentieth time. his story had now become as circumstantial and exact as the evidence of a police witness. "upset the lamp," he said. "i'd just lighted it, i was going upstairs, and my foot slipped against where one of the treads was a bit rotten, and down i went. thing was aflare in a moment!..." he yawned at the end of the discussion, and moved doorward. "so long," said mr. polly. "good night," said mr. rumbold. "you played a brave man's part! if you don't get a medal--" he left an eloquent pause. "'ear, 'ear!" said mr. wintershed and mr. clamp. "goo'night, o' man," said mr. hinks. "goo'night all," said mr. polly ... he went slowly upstairs. the vague perplexity common to popular heroes pervaded his mind. he entered the bedroom and turned up the electric light. it was quite a pleasant room, one of the best in the temperance hotel, with a nice clean flowered wallpaper, and a very large looking-glass. miriam appeared to be asleep, and her shoulders were humped up under the clothes in a shapeless, forbidding lump that mr. polly had found utterly loathsome for fifteen years. he went softly over to the dressing-table and surveyed himself thoughtfully. presently he hitched up the trousers. "miles too big for me," he remarked. "funny not to have a pair of breeches of one's own.... like being born again. naked came i into the world...." miriam stirred and rolled over, and stared at him. "hello!" she said. "hello." "come to bed?" "it's three." pause, while mr. polly disrobed slowly. "i been thinking," said miriam, "it isn't going to be so bad after all. we shall get your insurance. we can easy begin all over again." "h'm," said mr. polly. she turned her face away from him and reflected. "get a better house," said miriam, regarding the wallpaper pattern. "i've always 'ated them stairs." mr. polly removed a boot. "choose a better position where there's more doing," murmured miriam.... "not half so bad," she whispered.... "you _wanted_ stirring up," she said, half asleep.... it dawned upon mr. polly for the first time that he had forgotten something. he ought to have cut his throat! the fact struck him as remarkable, but as now no longer of any particular urgency. it seemed a thing far off in the past, and he wondered why he had not thought of it before. odd thing life is! if he had done it he would never have seen this clean and agreeable apartment with the electric light.... his thoughts wandered into a question of detail. where could he have put the razor down? somewhere in the little room behind the shop, he supposed, but he could not think where more precisely. anyhow it didn't matter now. he undressed himself calmly, got into bed, and fell asleep almost immediately. chapter the ninth the potwell inn i but when a man has once broken through the paper walls of everyday circumstance, those unsubstantial walls that hold so many of us securely prisoned from the cradle to the grave, he has made a discovery. if the world does not please you _you can change it_. determine to alter it at any price, and you can change it altogether. you may change it to something sinister and angry, to something appalling, but it may be you will change it to something brighter, something more agreeable, and at the worst something much more interesting. there is only one sort of man who is absolutely to blame for his own misery, and that is the man who finds life dull and dreary. there are no circumstances in the world that determined action cannot alter, unless perhaps they are the walls of a prison cell, and even those will dissolve and change, i am told, into the infirmary compartment at any rate, for the man who can fast with resolution. i give these things as facts and information, and with no moral intimations. and mr. polly lying awake at nights, with a renewed indigestion, with miriam sleeping sonorously beside him and a general air of inevitableness about his situation, saw through it, understood there was no inevitable any more, and escaped his former despair. he could, for example, "clear out." it became a wonderful and alluring phrase to him: "clear out!" why had he never thought of clearing out before? he was amazed and a little shocked at the unimaginative and superfluous criminality in him that had turned old cramped and stagnant fishbourne into a blaze and new beginnings. (i wish from the bottom of my heart i could add that he was properly sorry.) but something constricting and restrained seemed to have been destroyed by that flare. _fishbourne wasn't the world_. that was the new, the essential fact of which he had lived so lamentably in ignorance. fishbourne as he had known it and hated it, so that he wanted to kill himself to get out of it, _wasn't the world_. the insurance money he was to receive made everything humane and kindly and practicable. he would "clear out," with justice and humanity. he would take exactly twenty-one pounds, and all the rest he would leave to miriam. that seemed to him absolutely fair. without him, she could do all sorts of things--all the sorts of things she was constantly urging him to do. and he would go off along the white road that led to garchester, and on to crogate and so to tunbridge wells, where there was a toad rock he had heard of, but never seen. (it seemed to him this must needs be a marvel.) and so to other towns and cities. he would walk and loiter by the way, and sleep in inns at night, and get an odd job here and there and talk to strange people. perhaps he would get quite a lot of work and prosper, and if he did not do so he would lie down in front of a train, or wait for a warm night, and then fall into some smooth, broad river. not so bad as sitting down to a dentist, not nearly so bad. and he would never open a shop any more. never! so the possibilities of the future presented themselves to mr. polly as he lay awake at nights. it was springtime, and in the woods so soon as one got out of reach of the sea wind, there would be anémones and primroses. ii a month later a leisurely and dusty tramp, plump equatorially and slightly bald, with his hands in his pockets and his lips puckered to a contemplative whistle, strolled along the river bank between uppingdon and potwell. it was a profusely budding spring day and greens such as god had never permitted in the world before in human memory (though indeed they come every year), were mirrored vividly in a mirror of equally unprecedented brown. for a time the wanderer stopped and stood still, and even the thin whistle died away from his lips as he watched a water vole run to and fro upon a little headland across the stream. the vole plopped into the water and swam and dived and only when the last ring of its disturbance had vanished did mr. polly resume his thoughtful course to nowhere in particular. for the first time in many years he had been leading a healthy human life, living constantly in the open air, walking every day for eight or nine hours, eating sparingly, accepting every conversational opportunity, not even disdaining the discussion of possible work. and beyond mending a hole in his coat that he had made while negotiating barbed wire, with a borrowed needle and thread in a lodging house, he had done no work at all. neither had he worried about business nor about time and seasons. and for the first time in his life he had seen the aurora borealis. so far the holiday had cost him very little. he had arranged it on a plan that was entirely his own. he had started with four five-pound notes and a pound divided into silver, and he had gone by train from fishbourne to ashington. at ashington he had gone to the post-office, obtained a registered letter, and sent his four five-pound notes with a short brotherly note addressed to himself at gilhampton post-office. he sent this letter to gilhampton for no other reason in the world than that he liked the name of gilhampton and the rural suggestion of its containing county, which was sussex, and having so despatched it, he set himself to discover, mark down and walk to gilhampton, and so recover his resources. and having got to gilhampton at last, he changed his five-pound note, bought four pound postal orders, and repeated his manoeuvre with nineteen pounds. after a lapse of fifteen years he rediscovered this interesting world, about which so many people go incredibly blind and bored. he went along country roads while all the birds were piping and chirruping and cheeping and singing, and looked at fresh new things, and felt as happy and irresponsible as a boy with an unexpected half-holiday. and if ever the thought of miriam returned to him he controlled his mind. he came to country inns and sat for unmeasured hours talking of this and that to those sage carters who rest for ever in the taps of country inns, while the big sleek brass jingling horses wait patiently outside with their waggons; he got a job with some van people who were wandering about the country with swings and a steam roundabout and remained with them for three days, until one of their dogs took a violent dislike to him and made his duties unpleasant; he talked to tramps and wayside labourers, he snoozed under hedges by day and in outhouses and hayricks at night, and once, but only once, he slept in a casual ward. he felt as the etiolated grass and daisies must do when you move the garden roller away to a new place. he gathered a quantity of strange and interesting memories. he crossed some misty meadows by moonlight and the mist lay low on the grass, so low that it scarcely reached above his waist, and houses and clumps of trees stood out like islands in a milky sea, so sharply denned was the upper surface of the mistbank. he came nearer and nearer to a strange thing that floated like a boat upon this magic lake, and behold! something moved at the stern and a rope was whisked at the prow, and it had changed into a pensive cow, drowsy-eyed, regarding him.... he saw a remarkable sunset in a new valley near maidstone, a very red and clear sunset, a wide redness under a pale cloudless heaven, and with the hills all round the edge of the sky a deep purple blue and clear and flat, looking exactly as he had seen mountains painted in pictures. he seemed transported to some strange country, and would have felt no surprise if the old labourer he came upon leaning silently over a gate had addressed him in an unfamiliar tongue.... then one night, just towards dawn, his sleep upon a pile of brushwood was broken by the distant rattle of a racing motor car breaking all the speed regulations, and as he could not sleep again, he got up and walked into maidstone as the day came. he had never been abroad in a town at half-past two in his life before, and the stillness of everything in the bright sunrise impressed him profoundly. at one corner was a startling policeman, standing in a doorway quite motionless, like a waxen image. mr. polly wished him "good morning" unanswered, and went down to the bridge over the medway and sat on the parapet very still and thoughtful, watching the town awaken, and wondering what he should do if it didn't, if the world of men never woke again.... one day he found himself going along a road, with a wide space of sprouting bracken and occasional trees on either side, and suddenly this road became strangely, perplexingly familiar. "lord!" he said, and turned about and stood. "it can't be." he was incredulous, then left the road and walked along a scarcely perceptible track to the left, and came in half a minute to an old lichenous stone wall. it seemed exactly the bit of wall he had known so well. it might have been but yesterday he was in that place; there remained even a little pile of wood. it became absurdly the same wood. the bracken perhaps was not so high, and most of its fronds still uncoiled; that was all. here he had stood, it seemed, and there she had sat and looked down upon him. where was she now, and what had become of her? he counted the years back and marvelled that beauty should have called to him with so imperious a voice--and signified nothing. he hoisted himself with some little difficulty to the top of the wall, and saw off under the beech trees two schoolgirls--small, insignificant, pig-tailed creatures, with heads of blond and black, with their arms twined about each other's necks, no doubt telling each other the silliest secrets. but that girl with the red hair--was she a countess? was she a queen? children perhaps? had sorrow dared to touch her? had she forgotten altogether?... a tramp sat by the roadside thinking, and it seemed to the man in the passing motor car he must needs be plotting for another pot of beer. but as a matter of fact what the tramp was saying to himself over and over again was a variant upon a well-known hebrew word. "itchabod," the tramp was saying in the voice of one who reasons on the side of the inevitable. "it's fair itchabod, o' man. there's no going back to it." iii it was about two o'clock in the afternoon one hot day in high may when mr. polly, unhurrying and serene, came to that broad bend of the river to which the little lawn and garden of the potwell inn run down. he stopped at the sight of the place with its deep tiled roof, nestling under big trees--you never get a decently big, decently shaped tree by the seaside--its sign towards the roadway, its sun-blistered green bench and tables, its shapely white windows and its row of upshooting hollyhock plants in the garden. a hedge separated it from a buttercup-yellow meadow, and beyond stood three poplars in a group against the sky, three exceptionally tall, graceful and harmonious poplars. it is hard to say what there was about them that made them so beautiful to mr. polly; but they seemed to him to touch a pleasant scene to a distinction almost divine. he remained admiring them for a long time. at last the need for coarser aesthetic satisfactions arose in him. "provinder," he whispered, drawing near to the inn. "cold sirloin for choice. and nut-brown brew and wheaten bread." the nearer he came to the place the more he liked it. the windows on the ground floor were long and low, and they had pleasing red blinds. the green tables outside were agreeably ringed with memories of former drinks, and an extensive grape vine spread level branches across the whole front of the place. against the wall was a broken oar, two boat-hooks and the stained and faded red cushions of a pleasure boat. one went up three steps to the glass-panelled door and peeped into a broad, low room with a bar and beer engine, behind which were many bright and helpful looking bottles against mirrors, and great and little pewter measures, and bottles fastened in brass wire upside down with their corks replaced by taps, and a white china cask labelled "shrub," and cigar boxes and boxes of cigarettes, and a couple of toby jugs and a beautifully coloured hunting scene framed and glazed, showing the most elegant and beautiful people taking piper's cherry brandy, and cards such as the law requires about the dilution of spirits and the illegality of bringing children into bars, and satirical verses about swearing and asking for credit, and three very bright red-cheeked wax apples and a round-shaped clock. but these were the mere background to the really pleasant thing in the spectacle, which was quite the plumpest woman mr. polly had ever seen, seated in an armchair in the midst of all these bottles and glasses and glittering things, peacefully and tranquilly, and without the slightest loss of dignity, asleep. many people would have called her a fat woman, but mr. polly's innate sense of epithet told him from the outset that plump was the word. she had shapely brows and a straight, well-shaped nose, kind lines and contentment about her mouth, and beneath it the jolly chins clustered like chubby little cherubim about the feet of an assumptioning-madonna. her plumpness was firm and pink and wholesome, and her hands, dimpled at every joint, were clasped in front of her; she seemed as it were to embrace herself with infinite confidence and kindliness as one who knew herself good in substance, good in essence, and would show her gratitude to god by that ready acceptance of all that he had given her. her head was a little on one side, not much, but just enough to speak of trustfulness, and rob her of the stiff effect of self-reliance. and she slept. "_my_ sort," said mr. polly, and opened the door very softly, divided between the desire to enter and come nearer and an instinctive indisposition to break slumbers so manifestly sweet and satisfying. she awoke with a start, and it amazed mr. polly to see swift terror flash into her eyes. instantly it had gone again. "law!" she said, her face softening with relief, "i thought you were jim." "i'm never jim," said mr. polly. "you've got his sort of hat." "ah!" said mr. polly, and leant over the bar. "it just came into my head you was jim," said the plump lady, dismissed the topic and stood up. "i believe i was having forty winks," she said, "if all the truth was told. what can i do for you?" "cold meat?" said mr. polly. "there _is_ cold meat," the plump woman admitted. "and room for it." the plump woman came and leant over the bar and regarded him judicially, but kindly. "there's some cold boiled beef," she said, and added: "a bit of crisp lettuce?" "new mustard," said mr. polly. "and a tankard!" "a tankard." they understood each other perfectly. "looking for work?" asked the plump woman. "in a way," said mr. polly. they smiled like old friends. whatever the truth may be about love, there is certainly such a thing as friendship at first sight. they liked each other's voices, they liked each other's way of smiling and speaking. "it's such beautiful weather this spring," said mr. polly, explaining everything. "what sort of work do you want?" she asked. "i've never properly thought that out," said mr. polly. "i've been looking round--for ideas." "will you have your beef in the tap or outside? that's the tap." mr. polly had a glimpse of an oaken settle. "in the tap will be handier for you," he said. "hear that?" said the plump lady. "hear what?" "listen." presently the silence was broken by a distant howl. "oooooo-_ver_!" "eh?" she said. he nodded. "that's the ferry. and there isn't a ferryman." "could i?" "can you punt?" "never tried." "well--pull the pole out before you reach the end of the punt, that's all. try." mr. polly went out again into the sunshine. at times one can tell so much so briefly. here are the facts then--bare. he found a punt and a pole, got across to the steps on the opposite side, picked up an elderly gentleman in an alpaca jacket and a pith helmet, cruised with him vaguely for twenty minutes, conveyed him tortuously into the midst of a thicket of forget-me-not spangled sedges, splashed some water-weed over him, hit him twice with the punt pole, and finally landed him, alarmed but abusive, in treacherous soil at the edge of a hay meadow about forty yards down stream, where he immediately got into difficulties with a noisy, aggressive little white dog, which was guardian of a jacket. mr. polly returned in a complicated manner to his moorings. he found the plump woman rather flushed and tearful, and seated at one of the green tables outside. "i been laughing at you," she said. "what for?" asked mr. polly. "i ain't 'ad such a laugh since jim come 'ome. when you 'it 'is 'ed, it 'urt my side." "it didn't hurt his head--not particularly." she waved her head. "did you charge him anything?" "gratis," said mr. polly. "i never thought of it." the plump woman pressed her hands to her sides and laughed silently for a space. "you ought to have charged him sumpthing," she said. "you better come and have your cold meat, before you do any more puntin'. you and me'll get on together." presently she came and stood watching him eat. "you eat better than you punt," she said, and then, "i dessay you could learn to punt." "wax to receive and marble to retain," said mr. polly. "this beef is a bit of all right, ma'm. i could have done differently if i hadn't been punting on an empty stomach. there's a lear feeling as the pole goes in--" "i've never held with fasting," said the plump woman. "you want a ferryman?" "i want an odd man about the place." "i'm odd, all right. what's your wages?" "not much, but you get tips and pickings. i've a sort of feeling it would suit you." "i've a sort of feeling it would. what's the duties? fetch and carry? ferry? garden? wash bottles? _ceteris paribus?_" "that's about it," said the fat woman. "give me a trial." "i've more than half a mind. or i wouldn't have said anything about it. i suppose you're all right. you've got a sort of half-respectable look about you. i suppose you 'aven't _done_ anything." "bit of arson," said mr. polly, as if he jested. "so long as you haven't the habit," said the plump woman. "my first time, m'am," said mr. polly, munching his way through an excellent big leaf of lettuce. "and my last." "it's all right if you haven't been to prison," said the plump woman. "it isn't what a man's happened to do makes 'im bad. we all happen to do things at times. it's bringing it home to him, and spoiling his self-respect does the mischief. you don't _look_ a wrong 'un. 'ave you been to prison?" "never." "nor a reformatory? nor any institution?" "not me. do i _look_ reformed?" "can you paint and carpenter a bit?" "well, i'm ripe for it." "have a bit of cheese?" "if i might." and the way she brought the cheese showed mr. polly that the business was settled in her mind. he spent the afternoon exploring the premises of the potwell inn and learning the duties that might be expected of him, such as stockholm tarring fences, digging potatoes, swabbing out boats, helping people land, embarking, landing and time-keeping for the hirers of two rowing boats and one canadian canoe, baling out the said vessels and concealing their leaks and defects from prospective hirers, persuading inexperienced hirers to start down stream rather than up, repairing rowlocks and taking inventories of returning boats with a view to supplementary charges, cleaning boots, sweeping chimneys, house-painting, cleaning windows, sweeping out and sanding the tap and bar, cleaning pewter, washing glasses, turpentining woodwork, whitewashing generally, plumbing and engineering, repairing locks and clocks, waiting and tapster's work generally, beating carpets and mats, cleaning bottles and saving corks, taking into the cellar, moving, tapping and connecting beer casks with their engines, blocking and destroying wasps' nests, doing forestry with several trees, drowning superfluous kittens, and dog-fancying as required, assisting in the rearing of ducklings and the care of various poultry, bee-keeping, stabling, baiting and grooming horses and asses, cleaning and "garing" motor cars and bicycles, inflating tires and repairing punctures, recovering the bodies of drowned persons from the river as required, and assisting people in trouble in the water, first-aid and sympathy, improvising and superintending a bathing station for visitors, attending inquests and funerals in the interests of the establishment, scrubbing floors and all the ordinary duties of a scullion, the ferry, chasing hens and goats from the adjacent cottages out of the garden, making up paths and superintending drainage, gardening generally, delivering bottled beer and soda water syphons in the neighbourhood, running miscellaneous errands, removing drunken and offensive persons from the premises by tact or muscle as occasion required, keeping in with the local policemen, defending the premises in general and the orchard in particular from depredators.... "can but try it," said mr. polly towards tea time. "when there's nothing else on hand i suppose i might do a bit of fishing." iv mr. polly was particularly charmed by the ducklings. they were piping about among the vegetables in the company of their foster mother, and as he and the plump woman came down the garden path the little creatures mobbed them, and ran over their boots and in between mr. polly's legs, and did their best to be trodden upon and killed after the manner of ducklings all the world over. mr. polly had never been near young ducklings before, and their extreme blondness and the delicate completeness of their feet and beaks filled him with admiration. it is open to question whether there is anything more friendly in the world than a very young duckling. it was with the utmost difficulty that he tore himself away to practise punting, with the plump woman coaching from the bank. punting he found was difficult, but not impossible, and towards four o'clock he succeeded in conveying a second passenger across the sundering flood from the inn to the unknown. as he returned, slowly indeed, but now one might almost say surely, to the peg to which the punt was moored, he became aware of a singularly delightful human being awaiting him on the bank. she stood with her legs very wide apart, her hands behind her back, and her head a little on one side, watching his gestures with an expression of disdainful interest. she had black hair and brown legs and a buff short frock and very intelligent eyes. and when he had reached a sufficient proximity she remarked: "hello!" "hello," said mr. polly, and saved himself in the nick of time from disaster. "silly," said the young lady, and mr. polly lunged nearer. "what are you called?" "polly." "liar!" "why?" "i'm polly." "then i'm alfred. but i meant to be polly." "i was first." "all right. i'm going to be the ferryman." "i see. you'll have to punt better." "you should have seen me early in the afternoon." "i can imagine it.... i've seen the others." "what others?" mr. polly had landed now and was fastening up the punt. "what uncle jim has scooted." "scooted?" "he comes and scoots them. he'll scoot you too, i expect." a mysterious shadow seemed to fall athwart the sunshine and pleasantness of the potwell inn. "i'm not a scooter," said mr. polly. "uncle jim is." she whistled a little flatly for a moment, and threw small stones at a clump of meadow-sweet that sprang from the bank. then she remarked: "when uncle jim comes back he'll cut your insides out.... p'raps, very likely, he'll let me see." there was a pause. "_who's_ uncle jim?" mr. polly asked in a faded voice. "don't you know who uncle jim is? he'll show you. he's a scorcher, is uncle jim. he only came back just a little time ago, and he's scooted three men. he don't like strangers about, don't uncle jim. he _can_ swear. he's going to teach me, soon as i can whissle properly." "teach you to swear!" cried mr. polly, horrified. "_and_ spit," said the little girl proudly. "he says i'm the gamest little beast he ever came across--ever." for the first time in his life it seemed to mr. polly that he had come across something sheerly dreadful. he stared at the pretty thing of flesh and spirit in front of him, lightly balanced on its stout little legs and looking at him with eyes that had still to learn the expression of either disgust or fear. "i say," said mr. polly, "how old are you?" "nine," said the little girl. she turned away and reflected. truth compelled her to add one other statement. "he's not what i should call handsome, not uncle jim," she said. "but he's a scorcher and no mistake.... gramma don't like him." v mr. polly found the plump woman in the big bricked kitchen lighting a fire for tea. he went to the root of the matter at once. "i say," he asked, "who's uncle jim?" the plump woman blanched and stood still for a moment. a stick fell out of the bundle in her hand unheeded. "that little granddaughter of mine been saying things?" she asked faintly. "bits of things," said mr. polly. "well, i suppose i must tell you sooner or later. he's--. it's jim. he's the drorback to this place, that's what he is. the drorback. i hoped you mightn't hear so soon.... very likely he's gone." "_she_ don't seem to think so." "'e 'asn't been near the place these two weeks and more," said the plump woman. "but who is he?" "i suppose i got to tell you," said the plump woman. "she says he scoots people," mr. polly remarked after a pause. "he's my own sister's son." the plump woman watched the crackling fire for a space. "i suppose i got to tell you," she repeated. she softened towards tears. "i try not to think of it, and night and day he's haunting me. i try not to think of it. i've been for easy-going all my life. but i'm that worried and afraid, with death and ruin threatened and evil all about me! i don't know what to do! my own sister's son, and me a widow woman and 'elpless against his doin's!" she put down the sticks she held upon the fender, and felt for her handkerchief. she began to sob and talk quickly. "i wouldn't mind nothing else half so much if he'd leave that child alone. but he goes talking to her--if i leave her a moment he's talking to her, teaching her words and giving her ideas!" "that's a bit thick," said mr. polly. "thick!" cried the plump woman; "it's 'orrible! and what am i to do? he's been here three times now, six days and a week and a part of a week, and i pray to god night and day he may never come again. praying! back he's come sure as fate. he takes my money and he takes my things. he won't let no man stay here to protect me or do the boats or work the ferry. the ferry's getting a scandal. they stand and shout and scream and use language.... if i complain they'll say i'm helpless to manage here, they'll take away my license, out i shall go--and it's all the living i can get--and he knows it, and he plays on it, and he don't care. and here i am. i'd send the child away, but i got nowhere to send the child. i buys him off when it comes to that, and back he comes, worse than ever, prowling round and doing evil. and not a soul to help me. not a soul! i just hoped there might be a day or so. before he comes back again. i was just hoping--i'm the sort that hopes." mr. polly was reflecting on the flaws and drawbacks that seem to be inseparable from all the more agreeable things in life. "biggish sort of man, i expect?" asked mr. polly, trying to get the situation in all its bearings. but the plump woman did not heed him. she was going on with her fire-making, and retailing in disconnected fragments the fearfulness of uncle jim. "there was always something a bit wrong with him," she said, "but nothing you mightn't have hoped for, not till they took him and carried him off and reformed him.... "he was cruel to the hens and chickings, it's true, and stuck a knife into another boy, but then i've seen him that nice to a cat, nobody could have been kinder. i'm sure he didn't do no 'arm to that cat whatever anyone tries to make out of it. i'd never listen to that.... it was that reformatory ruined him. they put him along of a lot of london boys full of ideas of wickedness, and because he didn't mind pain--and he don't, i will admit, try as i would--they made him think himself a hero. them boys laughed at the teachers they set over them, laughed and mocked at them--and i don't suppose they was the best teachers in the world; i don't suppose, and i don't suppose anyone sensible does suppose that everyone who goes to be a teacher or a chapl'in or a warder in a reformatory home goes and changes right away into an angel of grace from heaven--and oh, lord! where was i?" "what did they send him to the reformatory for?" "playing truant and stealing. he stole right enough--stole the money from an old woman, and what was i to do when it came to the trial but say what i knew. and him like a viper a-looking at me--more like a viper than a human boy. he leans on the bar and looks at me. 'all right, aunt flo,' he says, just that and nothing more. time after time, i've dreamt of it, and now he's come. 'they've reformed me,' he says, 'and made me a devil, and devil i mean to be to you. so out with it,' he says." "what did you give him last time?" asked mr. polly. "three golden pounds," said the plump woman. "'that won't last very long,' he says. 'but there ain't no hurry. i'll be back in a week about.' if i wasn't one of the hoping sort--" she left the sentence unfinished. mr. polly reflected. "what sort of a size is he?" he asked. "i'm not one of your herculaceous sort, if you mean that. nothing very wonderful bicepitally." "you'll scoot," said the plump woman with conviction rather than bitterness. "you'd better scoot now, and i'll try and find some money for him to go away again when he comes. it ain't reasonable to expect you to do anything but scoot. but i suppose it's the way of a woman in trouble to try and get help from a man, and hope and hope. i'm the hoping sort." "how long's he been about?" asked mr. polly, ignoring his own outlook. "three months it is come the seventh since he come in by that very back door--and i hadn't set eyes on him for seven long years. he stood in the door watchin' me, and suddenly he let off a yelp--like a dog, and there he was grinning at the fright he'd given me. 'good old aunty flo,' he says, 'ain't you dee-lighted to see me?' he says, 'now i'm reformed.'" the plump lady went to the sink and filled the kettle. "i never did like 'im," she said, standing at the sink. "and seeing him there, with his teeth all black and broken--. p'raps i didn't give him much of a welcome at first. not what would have been kind to him. 'lord!' i said, 'it's jim.'" "'it's jim,' he said. 'like a bad shillin'--like a damned bad shilling. jim and trouble. you all of you wanted me reformed and now you got me reformed. i'm a reformatory reformed character, warranted all right and turned out as such. ain't you going to ask me in, aunty dear?' "'come in,' i said, 'i won't have it said i wasn't ready to be kind to you!' "he comes in and shuts the door. down he sits in that chair. 'i come to torment you!' he says, 'you old sumpthing!' and begins at me.... no human being could ever have been called such things before. it made me cry out. 'and now,' he says, 'just to show i ain't afraid of 'urting you,' he says, and ups and twists my wrist." mr. polly gasped. "i could stand even his vi'lence," said the plump woman, "if it wasn't for the child." mr. polly went to the kitchen window and surveyed his namesake, who was away up the garden path with her hands behind her back, and whisps of black hair in disorder about her little face, thinking, thinking profoundly, about ducklings. "you two oughtn't to be left," he said. the plump woman stared at his back with hard hope in her eyes. "i don't see that it's _my_ affair," said mr. polly. the plump woman resumed her business with the kettle. "i'd like to have a look at him before i go," said mr. polly, thinking aloud. and added, "somehow. not my business, of course." "lord!" he cried with a start at a noise in the bar, "who's that?" "only a customer," said the plump woman. vi mr. polly made no rash promises, and thought a great deal. "it seems a good sort of crib," he said, and added, "for a chap who's looking for trouble." but he stayed on and did various things out of the list i have already given, and worked the ferry, and it was four days before he saw anything of uncle jim. and so _resistent_ is the human mind to things not yet experienced that he could easily have believed in that time that there was no such person in the world as uncle jim. the plump woman, after her one outbreak of confidence, ignored the subject, and little polly seemed to have exhausted her impressions in her first communication, and engaged her mind now with a simple directness in the study and subjugation of the new human being heaven had sent into her world. the first unfavourable impression of his punting was soon effaced; he could nickname ducklings very amusingly, create boats out of wooden splinters, and stalk and fly from imaginary tigers in the orchard with a convincing earnestness that was surely beyond the power of any other human being. she conceded at last that he should be called mr. polly, in honour of her, miss polly, even as he desired. uncle jim turned up in the twilight. uncle jim appeared with none of the disruptive violence mr. polly had dreaded. he came quite softly. mr. polly was going down the lane behind the church that led to the potwell inn after posting a letter to the lime-juice people at the post-office. he was walking slowly, after his habit, and thinking discursively. with a sudden tightening of the muscles he became aware of a figure walking noiselessly beside him. his first impression was of a face singularly broad above and with a wide empty grin as its chief feature below, of a slouching body and dragging feet. "arf a mo'," said the figure, as if in response to his start, and speaking in a hoarse whisper. "arf a mo', mister. you the noo bloke at the potwell inn?" mr. polly felt evasive. "'spose i am," he replied hoarsely, and quickened his pace. "arf a mo'," said uncle jim, taking his arm. "we ain't doing a (sanguinary) marathon. it ain't a (decorated) cinder track. i want a word with you, mister. see?" mr. polly wriggled his arm free and stopped. "what is it?" he asked, and faced the terror. "i jest want a (decorated) word wiv you. see?--just a friendly word or two. just to clear up any blooming errors. that's all i want. no need to be so (richly decorated) proud, if you _are_ the noo bloke at potwell inn. not a bit of it. see?" uncle jim was certainly not a handsome person. he was short, shorter than mr. polly, with long arms and lean big hands, a thin and wiry neck stuck out of his grey flannel shirt and supported a big head that had something of the snake in the convergent lines of its broad knotty brow, meanly proportioned face and pointed chin. his almost toothless mouth seemed a cavern in the twilight. some accident had left him with one small and active and one large and expressionless reddish eye, and wisps of straight hair strayed from under the blue cricket cap he wore pulled down obliquely over the latter. he spat between his teeth and wiped his mouth untidily with the soft side of his fist. "you got to blurry well shift," he said. "see?" "shift!" said mr. polly. "how?" "'cos the potwell inn's _my_ beat. see?" mr. polly had never felt less witty. "how's it your beat?" he asked. uncle jim thrust his face forward and shook his open hand, bent like a claw, under mr. polly's nose. "not your blooming business," he said. "you got to shift." "s'pose i don't," said mr. polly. "you got to shift." the tone of uncle jim's voice became urgent and confidential. "you don't know who you're up against," he said. "it's a kindness i'm doing to warn you. see? i'm just one of those blokes who don't stick at things, see? i don't stick at nuffin'." mr. polly's manner became detached and confidential--as though the matter and the speaker interested him greatly, but didn't concern him over-much. "what do you think you'll do?" he asked. "if you don't clear out?" "yes." "_gaw!_" said uncle jim. "you'd better. '_ere!_" he gripped mr. polly's wrist with a grip of steel, and in an instant mr. polly understood the relative quality of their muscles. he breathed, an uninspiring breath, into mr. polly's face. "what _won't_ i do?" he said. "once i start in on you." he paused, and the night about them seemed to be listening. "i'll make a mess of you," he said in his hoarse whisper. "i'll do you--injuries. i'll 'urt you. i'll kick you ugly, see? i'll 'urt you in 'orrible ways--'orrible, ugly ways...." he scrutinised mr. polly's face. "you'll cry," he said, "to see yourself. see? cry you will." "you got no right," began mr. polly. "right!" his note was fierce. "ain't the old woman me aunt?" he spoke still closer. "i'll make a gory mess of you. i'll cut bits orf you--" he receded a little. "i got no quarrel with _you_," he said. "it's too late to go to-night," said mr. polly. "i'll be round to-morrer--'bout eleven. see? and if i finds you--" he produced a blood-curdling oath. "h'm," said mr. polly, trying to keep things light. "we'll consider your suggestions." "you better," said uncle jim, and suddenly, noiselessly, was going. his whispering voice sank until mr. polly could hear only the dim fragments of sentences. "orrible things to you--'orrible things.... kick yer ugly.... cut yer--liver out... spread it all about, i will.... outing doos. see? i don't care a dead rat one way or the uvver." and with a curious twisting gesture of the arm uncle jim receded until his face was a still, dim thing that watched, and the black shadows of the hedge seemed to have swallowed up his body altogether. vii next morning about half-past ten mr. polly found himself seated under a clump of fir trees by the roadside and about three miles and a half from the potwell inn. he was by no means sure whether he was taking a walk to clear his mind or leaving that threat-marred paradise for good and all. his reason pointed a lean, unhesitating finger along the latter course. for after all, the thing was not _his_ quarrel. that agreeable plump woman, agreeable, motherly, comfortable as she might be, wasn't his affair; that child with the mop of black hair who combined so magically the charm of mouse and butterfly and flitting bird, who was daintier than a flower and softer than a peach, was no concern of his. good heavens! what were they to him? nothing!... uncle jim, of course, _had_ a claim, a sort of claim. if it came to duty and chucking up this attractive, indolent, observant, humorous, tramping life, there were those who had a right to him, a legitimate right, a prior claim on his protection and chivalry. why not listen to the call of duty and go back to miriam now?... he had had a very agreeable holiday.... and while mr. polly sat thinking these things as well as he could, he knew that if only he dared to look up the heavens had opened and the clear judgment on his case was written across the sky. he knew--he knew now as much as a man can know of life. he knew he had to fight or perish. life had never been so clear to him before. it had always been a confused, entertaining spectacle, he had responded to this impulse and that, seeking agreeable and entertaining things, evading difficult and painful things. such is the way of those who grow up to a life that has neither danger nor honour in its texture. he had been muddled and wrapped about and entangled like a creature born in the jungle who has never seen sea or sky. now he had come out of it suddenly into a great exposed place. it was as if god and heaven waited over him and all the earth was expectation. "not my business," said mr. polly, speaking aloud. "where the devil do _i_ come in?" and again, with something between a whine and a snarl in his voice, "not my blasted business!" his mind seemed to have divided itself into several compartments, each with its own particular discussion busily in progress, and quite regardless of the others. one was busy with the detailed interpretation of the phrase "kick you ugly." there's a sort of french wrestling in which you use and guard against feet. watch the man's eye, and as his foot comes up, grip and over he goes--at your mercy if you use the advantage right. but how do you use the advantage rightly? when he thought of uncle jim the inside feeling of his body faded away rapidly to a blank discomfort.... "old cadger! she hadn't no business to drag me into her quarrels. ought to go to the police and ask for help! dragging me into a quarrel that don't concern me." "wish i'd never set eyes on the rotten inn!" the reality of the case arched over him like the vault of the sky, as plain as the sweet blue heavens above and the wide spread of hill and valley about him. man comes into life to seek and find his sufficient beauty, to serve it, to win and increase it, to fight for it, to face anything and dare anything for it, counting death as nothing so long as the dying eyes still turn to it. and fear, and dulness and indolence and appetite, which indeed are no more than fear's three crippled brothers who make ambushes and creep by night, are against him, to delay him, to hold him off, to hamper and beguile and kill him in that quest. he had but to lift his eyes to see all that, as much a part of his world as the driving clouds and the bending grass, but he kept himself downcast, a grumbling, inglorious, dirty, fattish little tramp, full of dreads and quivering excuses. "why the hell was i ever born?" he said, with the truth almost winning him. what do you do when a dirty man who smells, gets you down and under in the dirt and dust with a knee below your diaphragm and a large hairy hand squeezing your windpipe tighter and tighter in a quarrel that isn't, properly speaking, yours? "if i had a chance against him--" protested mr. polly. "it's no good, you see," said mr. polly. he stood up as though his decision was made, and was for an instant struck still by doubt. there lay the road before him going this way to the east and that to the west. westward, one hour away now, was the potwell inn. already things might be happening there.... eastward was the wise man's course, a road dipping between hedges to a hop garden and a wood and presently no doubt reaching an inn, a picturesque church, perhaps, a village and fresh company. the wise man's course. mr. polly saw himself going along it, and tried to see himself going along it with all the self-applause a wise man feels. but somehow it wouldn't come like that. the wise man fell short of happiness for all his wisdom. the wise man had a paunch and round shoulders and red ears and excuses. it was a pleasant road, and why the wise man should not go along it merry and singing, full of summer happiness, was a miracle to mr. polly's mind, but confound it! the fact remained, the figure went slinking--slinking was the only word for it--and would not go otherwise than slinking. he turned his eyes westward as if for an explanation, and if the figure was no longer ignoble, the prospect was appalling. "one kick in the stummick would settle a chap like me," said mr. polly. "oh, god!" cried mr. polly, and lifted his eyes to heaven, and said for the last time in that struggle, "it isn't my affair!" and so saying he turned his face towards the potwell inn. he went back neither halting nor hastening in his pace after this last decision, but with a mind feverishly busy. "if i get killed, i get killed, and if he gets killed i get hung. don't seem just somehow. "don't suppose i shall _frighten_ him off." viii the private war between mr. polly and uncle jim for the possession of the potwell inn fell naturally into three chief campaigns. there was first of all the great campaign which ended in the triumphant eviction of uncle jim from the inn premises, there came next after a brief interval the futile invasions of the premises by uncle jim that culminated in the battle of the dead eel, and after some months of involuntary truce there was the last supreme conflict of the night surprise. each of these campaigns merits a section to itself. mr. polly re-entered the inn discreetly. he found the plump woman seated in her bar, her eyes a-stare, her face white and wet with tears. "o god!" she was saying over and over again. "o god!" the air was full of a spirituous reek, and on the sanded boards in front of the bar were the fragments of a broken bottle and an overturned glass. she turned her despair at the sound of his entry, and despair gave place to astonishment. "you come back!" she said. "ra-ther," said mr. polly. "he's--he's mad drunk and looking for her." "where is she?" "locked upstairs." "haven't you sent to the police?" "no one to send." "i'll see to it," said mr. polly. "out this way?" she nodded. he went to the crinkly paned window and peered out. uncle jim was coming down the garden path towards the house, his hands in his pockets and singing hoarsely. mr. polly remembered afterwards with pride and amazement that he felt neither faint nor rigid. he glanced round him, seized a bottle of beer by the neck as an improvised club, and went out by the garden door. uncle jim stopped amazed. his brain did not instantly rise to the new posture of things. "you!" he cried, and stopped for a moment. "you--_scoot!_" "_your_ job," said mr. polly, and advanced some paces. uncle jim stood swaying with wrathful astonishment and then darted forward with clutching hands. mr. polly felt that if his antagonist closed he was lost, and smote with all his force at the ugly head before him. smash went the bottle, and uncle jim staggered, half-stunned by the blow and blinded with beer. the lapses and leaps of the human mind are for ever mysterious. mr. polly had never expected that bottle to break. in the instant he felt disarmed and helpless. before him was uncle jim, infuriated and evidently still coming on, and for defence was nothing but the neck of a bottle. for a time our mr. polly has figured heroic. now comes the fall again; he sounded abject terror; he dropped that ineffectual scrap of glass and turned and fled round the corner of the house. "bolls!" came the thick voice of the enemy behind him as one who accepts a challenge, and bleeding, but indomitable, uncle jim entered the house. "bolls!" he said, surveying the bar. "fightin' with bolls! i'll show 'im fightin' with bolls!" uncle jim had learnt all about fighting with bottles in the reformatory home. regardless of his terror-stricken aunt he ranged among the bottled beer and succeeded after one or two failures in preparing two bottles to his satisfaction by knocking off the bottoms, and gripping them dagger-wise by the necks. so prepared, he went forth again to destroy mr. polly. mr. polly, freed from the sense of urgent pursuit, had halted beyond the raspberry canes and rallied his courage. the sense of uncle jim victorious in the house restored his manhood. he went round by the outhouses to the riverside, seeking a weapon, and found an old paddle boat hook. with this he smote uncle jim as he emerged by the door of the tap. uncle jim, blaspheming dreadfully and with dire stabbing intimations in either hand, came through the splintering paddle like a circus rider through a paper hoop, and once more mr. polly dropped his weapon and fled. a careless observer watching him sprint round and round the inn in front of the lumbering and reproachful pursuit of uncle jim might have formed an altogether erroneous estimate of the issue of the campaign. certain compensating qualities of the very greatest military value were appearing in mr. polly even as he ran; if uncle jim had strength and brute courage and the rich toughening experience a reformatory home affords, mr. polly was nevertheless sober, more mobile and with a mind now stimulated to an almost incredible nimbleness. so that he not only gained on uncle jim, but thought what use he might make of this advantage. the word "strategious" flamed red across the tumult of his mind. as he came round the house for the third time, he darted suddenly into the yard, swung the door to behind himself and bolted it, seized the zinc pig's pail that stood by the entrance to the kitchen and had it neatly and resonantly over uncle jim's head as he came belatedly in round the outhouse on the other side. one of the splintered bottles jabbed mr. polly's ear--at the time it seemed of no importance--and then uncle jim was down and writhing dangerously and noisily upon the yard tiles, with his head still in the pig pail and his bottles gone to splinters, and mr. polly was fastening the kitchen door against him. "can't go on like this for ever," said mr. polly, whooping for breath, and selecting a weapon from among the brooms that stood behind the kitchen door. uncle jim was losing his head. he was up and kicking the door and bellowing unamiable proposals and invitations, so that a strategist emerging silently by the tap door could locate him without difficulty, steal upon him unawares and--! but before that felling blow could be delivered uncle jim's ear had caught a footfall, and he turned. mr. polly quailed and lowered his broom,--a fatal hesitation. "_now_ i got you!" cried uncle jim, dancing forward in a disconcerting zigzag. he rushed to close, and mr. polly stopped him neatly, as it were a miracle, with the head of the broom across his chest. uncle jim seized the broom with both hands. "lea-go!" he said, and tugged. mr. polly shook his head, tugged, and showed pale, compressed lips. both tugged. then uncle jim tried to get round the end of the broom; mr. polly circled away. they began to circle about one another, both tugging hard, both intensely watchful of the slightest initiative on the part of the other. mr. polly wished brooms were longer, twelve or thirteen feet, for example; uncle jim was clearly for shortness in brooms. he wasted breath in saying what was to happen shortly, sanguinary, oriental soul-blenching things, when the broom no longer separated them. mr. polly thought he had never seen an uglier person. suddenly uncle jim flashed into violent activity, but alcohol slows movement, and mr. polly was equal to him. then uncle jim tried jerks, and for a terrible instant seemed to have the broom out of mr. polly's hands. but mr. polly recovered it with the clutch of a drowning man. then uncle jim drove suddenly at mr. polly's midriff, but again mr. polly was ready and swept him round in a circle. then suddenly a wild hope filled mr. polly. he saw the river was very near, the post to which the punt was tied not three yards away. with a wild yell, he sent the broom home into his antagonist's ribs. "woosh!" he cried, as the resistance gave. "oh! _gaw_!" said uncle jim, going backward helplessly, and mr. polly thrust hard and abandoned the broom to the enemy's despairing clutch. splash! uncle jim was in the water and mr. polly had leapt like a cat aboard the ferry punt and grasped the pole. up came uncle jim spluttering and dripping. "you (unprofitable matter, and printing it would lead to a censorship of novels)! you know i got a weak _chess_!" the pole took him in the throat and drove him backward and downwards. "lea go!" cried uncle jim, staggering and with real terror in his once awful eyes. splash! down he fell backwards into a frothing mass of water with mr. polly jabbing at him. under water he turned round and came up again as if in flight towards the middle of the river. directly his head reappeared mr. polly had him between the shoulders and under again, bubbling thickly. a hand clutched and disappeared. it was stupendous! mr. polly had discovered the heel of achilles. uncle jim had no stomach for cold water. the broom floated away, pitching gently on the swell. mr. polly, infuriated with victory, thrust uncle jim under again, and drove the punt round on its chain in such a manner that when uncle jim came up for the fourth time--and now he was nearly out of his depth, too buoyed up to walk and apparently nearly helpless,--mr. polly, fortunately for them both, could not reach him. uncle jim made the clumsy gestures of those who struggle insecurely in the water. "keep out," said mr. polly. uncle jim with a great effort got a footing, emerged until his arm-pits were out of water, until his waistcoat buttons showed, one by one, till scarcely two remained, and made for the camp sheeting. "keep out!" cried mr. polly, and leapt off the punt and followed the movements of his victim along the shore. "i tell you i got a weak chess," said uncle jim, moistly. "this ain't fair fightin'." "keep out!" said mr. polly. "this ain't fair fightin'," said uncle jim, almost weeping, and all his terrors had gone. "keep out!" said mr. polly, with an accurately poised pole. "i tell you i got to land, you fool," said uncle jim, with a sort of despairing wrathfulness, and began moving down-stream. "you keep out," said mr. polly in parallel movement. "don't you ever land on this place again!..." slowly, argumentatively, and reluctantly, uncle jim waded down-stream. he tried threats, he tried persuasion, he even tried a belated note of pathos; mr. polly remained inexorable, if in secret a little perplexed as to the outcome of the situation. "this cold's getting to my _marrer_!" said uncle jim. "you want cooling. you keep out in it," said mr. polly. they came round the bend into sight of nicholson's ait, where the backwater runs down to the potwell mill. and there, after much parley and several feints, uncle jim made a desperate effort and struggled into clutch of the overhanging _osiers_ on the island, and so got out of the water with the millstream between them. he emerged dripping and muddy and vindictive. "by _gaw_!" he said. "i'll skin you for this!" "you keep off or i'll do worse to you," said mr. polly. the spirit was out of uncle jim for the time, and he turned away to struggle through the _osiers_ towards the mill, leaving a shining trail of water among the green-grey stems. mr. polly returned slowly and thoughtfully to the inn, and suddenly his mind began to bubble with phrases. the plump woman stood at the top of the steps that led up to the inn door to greet him. "law!" she cried as he drew near, "'asn't 'e killed you?" "do i look like it?" said mr. polly. "but where's jim?" "gone off." "'e was mad drunk and dangerous!" "i put him in the river," said mr. polly. "that toned down his alcolaceous frenzy! i gave him a bit of a doing altogether." "hain't he 'urt you?" "not a bit of it!" "then what's all that blood beside your ear?" mr. polly felt. "quite a cut! funny how one overlooks things! heated moments! he must have done that when he jabbed about with those bottles. hullo, kiddy! you venturing downstairs again?" "ain't he killed you?" asked the little girl. "well!" "i wish i'd seen more of the fighting." "didn't you?" "all i saw was you running round the house and uncle jim after you." there was a little pause. "i was leading him on," said mr. polly. "someone's shouting at the ferry," she said. "right o. but you won't see any more of uncle jim for a bit. we've been having a _conversazione_ about that." "i believe it _is_ uncle jim," said the little girl. "then he can wait," said mr. polly shortly. he turned round and listened for the words that drifted across from the little figure on the opposite bank. so far as he could judge, uncle jim was making an appointment for the morrow. he replied with a defiant movement of the punt pole. the little figure was convulsed for a moment and then went on its way upstream--fiercely. so it was the first campaign ended in an insecure victory. ix the next day was wednesday and a slack day for the potwell inn. it was a hot, close day, full of the murmuring of bees. one or two people crossed by the ferry, an elaborately equipped fisherman stopped for cold meat and dry ginger ale in the bar parlour, some haymakers came and drank beer for an hour, and afterwards sent jars and jugs by a boy to be replenished; that was all. mr. polly had risen early and was busy about the place meditating upon the probable tactics of uncle jim. he was no longer strung up to the desperate pitch of the first encounter. but he was grave and anxious. uncle jim had shrunken, as all antagonists that are boldly faced shrink, after the first battle, to the negotiable, the vulnerable. formidable he was no doubt, but not invincible. he had, under providence, been defeated once, and he might be defeated altogether. mr. polly went about the place considering the militant possibilities of pacific things, _pokers_, copper sticks, garden implements, kitchen knives, garden nets, barbed wire, oars, clothes lines, blankets, pewter pots, stockings and broken bottles. he prepared a club with a stocking and a bottle inside upon the best east end model. he swung it round his head once, broke an outhouse window with a flying fragment of glass, and ruined the stocking beyond all darning. he developed a subtle scheme with the cellar flap as a sort of pitfall, but he rejected it finally because (a) it might entrap the plump woman, and (b) he had no use whatever for uncle jim in the cellar. he determined to wire the garden that evening, burglar fashion, against the possibilities of a night attack. towards two o'clock in the afternoon three young men arrived in a capacious boat from the direction of lammam, and asked permission to camp in the paddock. it was given all the more readily by mr. polly because he perceived in their proximity a possible check upon the self-expression of uncle jim. but he did not foresee and no one could have foreseen that uncle jim, stealing unawares upon the potwell inn in the late afternoon, armed with a large rough-hewn stake, should have mistaken the bending form of one of those campers--who was pulling a few onions by permission in the garden--for mr. polly's, and crept upon it swiftly and silently and smitten its wide invitation unforgettably and unforgiveably. it was an error impossible to explain; the resounding whack went up to heaven, the cry of amazement, and mr. polly emerged from the inn armed with the frying-pan he was cleaning, to take this reckless assailant in the rear. uncle jim, realising his error, fled blaspheming into the arms of the other two campers, who were returning from the village with butcher's meat and groceries. they caught him, they smacked his face with steak and punched him with a bursting parcel of lump sugar, they held him though he bit them, and their idea of punishment was to duck him. they were hilarious, strong young stockbrokers' clerks, _territorials_ and seasoned boating men; they ducked him as though it was romping, and all that mr. polly had to do was to pick up lumps of sugar for them and wipe them on his sleeve and put them on a plate, and explain that uncle jim was a notorious bad character and not quite right in his head. "got a regular obsession that the missis is his aunt," said mr. polly, expanding it. "perfect noosance he is." but he caught a glance of uncle jim's eye as he receded before the campers' urgency that boded ill for him, and in the night he had a disagreeable idea that perhaps his luck might not hold for the third occasion. that came soon enough. so soon, indeed, as the campers had gone. thursday was the early closing day at lammam, and next to sunday the busiest part of the week at the potwell inn. sometimes as many as six boats all at once would be moored against the ferry punt and hiring rowboats. people could either have a complete tea, a complete tea with jam, cake and eggs, a kettle of boiling water and find the rest, or refreshments _á la carte_, as they chose. they sat about, but usually the boiling water-_ers_ had a delicacy about using the tables and grouped themselves humbly on the ground. the _complete_ tea-_ers_ with jam and eggs got the best tablecloth on the table nearest the steps that led up to the glass-panelled door. the groups about the lawn were very satisfying to mr. polly's sense of amenity. to the right were the _complete_ tea-_ers_ with everything heart could desire, then a small group of three young men in remarkable green and violet and pale-blue shirts, and two girls in mauve and yellow blouses with common teas and gooseberry jam at the green clothless table, then on the grass down by the pollard willow a small family of hot water-_ers_ with a hamper, a little troubled by wasps in their jam from the nest in the tree and all in mourning, but happy otherwise, and on the lawn to the right a ginger beer lot of 'prentices without their collars and very jocular and happy. the young people in the rainbow shirts and blouses formed the centre of interest; they were under the leadership of a gold-spectacled senior with a fluting voice and an air of mystery; he ordered everything, and showed a peculiar knowledge of the qualities of the potwell jams, preferring gooseberry with much insistence. mr. polly watched him, christened him the "benifluous influence," glanced at the 'prentices and went inside and down into the cellar in order to replenish the stock of stone ginger beer which the plump woman had allowed to run low during the preoccupations of the campaign. it was in the cellar that he first became aware of the return of uncle jim. he became aware of him as a voice, a voice not only hoarse, but thick, as voices thicken under the influence of alcohol. "where's that muddy-faced mongrel?" cried uncle jim. "let 'im come out to me! where's that blighted whisp with the punt pole--i got a word to say to 'im. come out of it, you pot-bellied chunk of dirtiness, you! come out and '_ave_ your ugly face wiped. i got a thing for you.... '_ear_ me? "'e's 'iding, that's what 'e's doing," said the voice of uncle jim, dropping for a moment to sorrow, and then with a great increment of wrathfulness: "come out of my nest, you blinking cuckoo, you, or i'll cut your silly insides out! come out of it--you pock-marked rat! stealing another man's 'ome away from 'im! come out and look me in the face, you squinting son of a skunk!..." mr. polly took the ginger beer and went thoughtfully upstairs to the bar. "'e's back," said the plump woman as he appeared. "i knew 'e'd come back." "i heard him," said mr. polly, and looked about. "just gimme the old poker handle that's under the beer engine." the door opened softly and mr. polly turned quickly. but it was only the pointed nose and intelligent face of the young man with the gilt spectacles and discreet manner. he coughed and the spectacles fixed mr. polly. "i say," he said with quiet earnestness. "there's a chap out here seems to want someone." "why don't he come in?" said mr. polly. "he seems to want you out there." "what's he want?" "i _think_," said the spectacled young man after a thoughtful moment, "he appears to have brought you a present of fish." "isn't he shouting?" "he _is_ a little boisterous." "he'd better come in." the manner of the spectacled young man intensified. "i wish you'd come out and persuade him to go away," he said. "his language--isn't quite the thing--ladies." "it never was," said the plump woman, her voice charged with sorrow. mr. polly moved towards the door and stood with his hand on the handle. the gold-spectacled face disappeared. "now, my man," came his voice from outside, "be careful what you're saying--" "oo in all the world and hereafter are you to call me, me man?" cried uncle jim in the voice of one astonished and pained beyond endurance, and added scornfully: "you gold-eyed geezer, you!" "tut, tut!" said the gentleman in gilt glasses. "restrain yourself!" mr. polly emerged, poker in hand, just in time to see what followed. uncle jim in his shirtsleeves and a state of ferocious decolletage, was holding something--yes!--a dead eel by means of a piece of newspaper about its tail, holding it down and back and a little sideways in such a way as to smite with it upward and hard. it struck the spectacled gentleman under the jaw with a peculiar dead thud, and a cry of horror came from the two seated parties at the sight. one of the girls shrieked piercingly, "horace!" and everyone sprang up. the sense of helping numbers came to mr. polly's aid. "drop it!" he cried, and came down the steps waving his poker and thrusting the spectacled gentleman before him as once heroes were wont to wield the ox-hide shield. uncle jim gave ground suddenly, and trod upon the foot of a young man in a blue shirt, who immediately thrust at him violently with both hands. "lea go!" howled uncle jim. "that's the chap i'm looking for!" and pressing the head of the spectacled gentleman aside, smote hard at mr. polly. but at the sight of this indignity inflicted upon the spectacled gentleman a woman's heart was stirred, and a pink parasol drove hard and true at uncle jim's wiry neck, and at the same moment the young man in the blue shirt sought to collar him and lost his grip again. "suffragettes," gasped uncle jim with the ferule at his throat. "everywhere!" and aimed a second more successful blow at mr. polly. "wup!" said mr. polly. but now the jam and egg party was joining in the fray. a stout yet still fairly able-bodied gentleman in white and black checks enquired: "what's the fellow up to? ain't there no police here?" and it was evident that once more public opinion was rallying to the support of mr. polly. "oh, come on then all the lot of you!" cried uncle jim, and backing dexterously whirled the eel round in a destructive circle. the pink sunshade was torn from the hand that gripped it and whirled athwart the complete, but unadorned, tea things on the green table. "collar him! someone get hold of his collar!" cried the gold-spectacled gentleman, coming out of the scrimmage, retreating up the steps to the inn door as if to rally his forces. "stand clear, you blessed mantel ornaments!" cried uncle jim, "stand clear!" and retired backing, staving off attack by means of the whirling eel. mr. polly, undeterred by a sense of grave damage done to his nose, pressed the attack in front, the two young men in violet and blue skirmished on uncle jim's flanks, the man in white and black checks sought still further outflanking possibilities, and two of the apprentice boys ran for oars. the gold-spectacled gentleman, as if inspired, came down the wooden steps again, seized the tablecloth of the jam and egg party, lugged it from under the crockery with inadequate precautions against breakage, and advanced with compressed lips, curious lateral crouching movements, swift flashings of his glasses, and a general suggestion of bull-fighting in his pose and gestures. uncle jim was kept busy, and unable to plan his retreat with any strategic soundness. he was moreover manifestly a little nervous about the river in his rear. he gave ground in a curve, and so came right across the rapidly abandoned camp of the family in mourning, crunching a teacup under his heel, oversetting the teapot, and finally tripping backwards over the hamper. the eel flew out at a tangent from his hand and became a mere looping relic on the sward. "hold him!" cried the gentleman in spectacles. "collar him!" and moving forward with extraordinary promptitude wrapped the best tablecloth about uncle jim's arms and head. mr. polly grasped his purpose instantly, the man in checks was scarcely slower, and in another moment uncle jim was no more than a bundle of smothered blasphemy and a pair of wildly active legs. "duck him!" panted mr. polly, holding on to the earthquake. "bes' thing--duck him." the bundle was convulsed by paroxysms of anger and protest. one boot got the hamper and sent it ten yards. "go in the house for a clothes line someone!" said the gentleman in gold spectacles. "he'll get out of this in a moment." one of the apprentices ran. "bird nets in the garden," shouted mr. polly. "in the garden!" the apprentice was divided in his purpose. and then suddenly uncle jim collapsed and became a limp, dead seeming thing under their hands. his arms were drawn inward, his legs bent up under his person, and so he lay. "fainted!" said the man in checks, relaxing his grip. "a fit, perhaps," said the man in spectacles. "keep hold!" said mr. polly, too late. for suddenly uncle jim's arms and legs flew out like springs released. mr. polly was tumbled backwards and fell over the broken teapot and into the arms of the father in mourning. something struck his head--dazzingly. in another second uncle jim was on his feet and the tablecloth enshrouded the head of the man in checks. uncle jim manifestly considered he had done all that honour required of him, and against overwhelming numbers and the possibility of reiterated duckings, flight is no disgrace. uncle jim fled. mr. polly sat up after an interval of an indeterminate length among the ruins of an idyllic afternoon. quite a lot of things seemed scattered and broken, but it was difficult to grasp it all at once. he stared between the legs of people. he became aware of a voice, speaking slowly and complainingly. "someone ought to pay for those tea things," said the father in mourning. "we didn't bring them 'ere to be danced on, not by no manner of means." x there followed an anxious peace for three days, and then a rough man in a blue jersey, in the intervals of trying to choke himself with bread and cheese and pickled onions, broke out abruptly into information. "jim's lagged again, missus," he said. "what!" said the landlady. "our jim?" "your jim," said the man, and after an absolutely necessary pause for swallowing, added: "stealin' a 'atchet." he did not speak for some moments, and then he replied to mr. polly's enquiries: "yes, a 'atchet. down lammam way--night before last." "what'd 'e steal a 'atchet for?" asked the plump woman. "'e said 'e wanted a 'atchet." "i wonder what he wanted a hatchet for?" said mr. polly, thoughtfully. "i dessay 'e 'ad a use for it," said the gentleman in the blue jersey, and he took a mouthful that amounted to conversational suicide. there was a prolonged pause in the little bar, and mr. polly did some rapid thinking. he went to the window and whistled. "i shall stick it," he whispered at last. "'atchets or no 'atchets." he turned to the man with the blue jersey when he thought him clear for speech again. "how much did you say they'd given him?" he asked. "three munce," said the man in the blue jersey, and refilled anxiously, as if alarmed at the momentary clearness of his voice. xi those three months passed all too quickly; months of sunshine and warmth, of varied novel exertion in the open air, of congenial experiences, of interest and wholesome food and successful digestion, months that browned mr. polly and hardened him and saw the beginnings of his beard, months marred only by one anxiety, an anxiety mr. polly did his utmost to suppress. the day of reckoning was never mentioned, it is true, by either the plump woman or himself, but the name of uncle jim was written in letters of glaring silence across their intercourse. as the term of that respite drew to an end his anxiety increased, until at last it even trenched upon his well-earned sleep. he had some idea of buying a revolver. at last he compromised upon a small and very foul and dirty rook rifle which he purchased in lammam under a pretext of bird scaring, and loaded carefully and concealed under his bed from the plump woman's eye. september passed away, october came. and at last came that night in october whose happenings it is so difficult for a sympathetic historian to drag out of their proper nocturnal indistinctness into the clear, hard light of positive statement. a novelist should present characters, not vivisect them publicly.... the best, the kindliest, if not the justest course is surely to leave untold such things as mr. polly would manifestly have preferred untold. mr. polly had declared that when the cyclist discovered him he was seeking a weapon that should make a conclusive end to uncle jim. that declaration is placed before the reader without comment. the gun was certainly in possession of uncle jim at that time and no human being but mr. polly knows how he got hold of it. the cyclist was a literary man named warspite, who suffered from insomnia; he had risen and come out of his house near lammam just before the dawn, and he discovered mr. polly partially concealed in the ditch by the potwell churchyard wall. it is an ordinary dry ditch, full of nettles and overgrown with elder and dogrose, and in no way suggestive of an arsenal. it is the last place in which you would look for a gun. and he says that when he dismounted to see why mr. polly was allowing only the latter part of his person to show (and that it would seem by inadvertency), mr. polly merely raised his head and advised him to "look out!" and added: "he's let fly at me twice already." he came out under persuasion and with gestures of extreme caution. he was wearing a white cotton nightgown of the type that has now been so extensively superseded by pyjama sleeping suits, and his legs and feet were bare and much scratched and torn and very muddy. mr. warspite takes that exceptionally lively interest in his fellow-creatures which constitutes so much of the distinctive and complex charm of your novelist all the world over, and he at once involved himself generously in the case. the two men returned at mr. polly's initiative across the churchyard to the potwell inn, and came upon the burst and damaged rook rifle near the new monument to sir samuel _harpon_ at the corner by the yew. "that must have been his third go," said mr. polly. "it sounded a bit funny." the sight inspirited him greatly, and he explained further that he had fled to the churchyard on account of the cover afforded by tombstones from the flight of small shot. he expressed anxiety for the fate of the landlady of the potwell inn and her grandchild, and led the way with enhanced alacrity along the lane to that establishment. they found the doors of the house standing open, the bar in some disorder--several bottles of whisky were afterwards found to be missing--and blake, the village policeman, rapping patiently at the open door. he entered with them. the glass in the bar had suffered severely, and one of the mirrors was starred from a blow from a pewter pot. the till had been forced and ransacked, and so had the bureau in the minute room behind the bar. an upper window was opened and the voice of the landlady became audible making enquiries. they went out and parleyed with her. she had locked herself upstairs with the little girl, she said, and refused to descend until she was assured that neither uncle jim nor mr. polly's gun were anywhere on the premises. mr. blake and mr. warspite proceeded to satisfy themselves with regard to the former condition, and mr. polly went to his room in search of garments more suited to the brightening dawn. he returned immediately with a request that mr. blake and mr. warspite would "just come and look." they found the apartment in a state of extraordinary confusion, the bedclothes in a ball in the corner, the drawers all open and ransacked, the chair broken, the lock of the door forced and broken, one door panel slightly scorched and perforated by shot, and the window wide open. none of mr. polly's clothes were to be seen, but some garments which had apparently once formed part of a stoker's workaday outfit, two brownish yellow halves of a shirt, and an unsound pair of boots were scattered on the floor. a faint smell of gunpowder still hung in the air, and two or three books mr. polly had recently acquired had been shied with some violence under the bed. mr. warspite looked at mr. blake, and then both men looked at mr. polly. "that's _his_ boots," said mr. polly. blake turned his eye to the window. "some of these tiles '_ave_ just got broken," he observed. "i got out of the window and slid down the scullery tiles," mr. polly answered, omitting much, they both felt, from his explanation.... "well, we better find 'im and '_ave_ a word with 'im," said blake. "that's about my business now." xii but uncle jim had gone altogether.... he did not return for some days. that perhaps was not very wonderful. but the days lengthened to weeks and the weeks to months and still uncle jim did not recur. a year passed, and the anxiety of him became less acute; a second healing year followed the first. one afternoon about thirty months after the night surprise the plump woman spoke of him. "i wonder what's become of jim," she said. "_i_ wonder sometimes," said mr. polly. chapter the tenth miriam revisited i one summer afternoon about five years after his first coming to the potwell inn mr. polly found himself sitting under the pollard willow fishing for dace. it was a plumper, browner and healthier mr. polly altogether than the miserable bankrupt with whose dyspeptic portrait our novel opened. he was fat, but with a fatness more generally diffused, and the lower part of his face was touched to gravity by a small square beard. also he was balder. it was the first time he had found leisure to fish, though from the very outset of his potwell career he had promised himself abundant indulgence in the pleasures of fishing. fishing, as the golden page of english literature testifies, is a meditative and retrospective pursuit, and the varied page of memory, disregarded so long for sake of the teeming duties i have already enumerated, began to unfold itself to mr. polly's consideration. a speculation about uncle jim died for want of material, and gave place to a reckoning of the years and months that had passed since his coming to potwell, and that to a philosophical review of his life. he began to think about miriam, remotely and impersonally. he remembered many things that had been neglected by his conscience during the busier times, as, for example, that he had committed arson and deserted a wife. for the first time he looked these long neglected facts in the face. it is disagreeable to think one has committed arson, because it is an action that leads to jail. otherwise i do not think there was a grain of regret for that in mr. polly's composition. but deserting miriam was in a different category. deserting miriam was mean. this is a history and not a glorification of mr. polly, and i tell of things as they were with him. apart from the disagreeable twinge arising from the thought of what might happen if he was found out, he had not the slightest remorse about that fire. arson, after all, is an artificial crime. some crimes are crimes in themselves, would be crimes without any law, the cruelties, mockery, the breaches of faith that astonish and wound, but the burning of things is in itself neither good nor bad. a large number of houses deserve to be burnt, most modern furniture, an overwhelming majority of pictures and books--one might go on for some time with the list. if our community was collectively anything more than a feeble idiot, it would burn most of london and chicago, for example, and build sane and beautiful cities in the place of these pestilential heaps of rotten private property. i have failed in presenting mr. polly altogether if i have not made you see that he was in many respects an artless child of nature, far more untrained, undisciplined and spontaneous than an ordinary savage. and he was really glad, for all that little drawback of fear, that he had the courage to set fire to his house and fly and come to the potwell inn. but he was not glad he had left miriam. he had seen miriam cry once or twice in his life, and it had always reduced him to abject commiseration. he now imagined her crying. he perceived in a perplexed way that he had made himself responsible for her life. he forgot how she had spoilt his own. he had hitherto rested in the faith that she had over a hundred pounds of insurance money, but now, with his eye meditatively upon his float, he realised a hundred pounds does not last for ever. his conviction of her incompetence was unflinching; she was bound to have fooled it away somehow by this time. and then! he saw her humping her shoulders and sniffing in a manner he had always regarded as detestable at close quarters, but which now became harrowingly pitiful. "damn!" said mr. polly, and down went his float and he flicked up a victim to destruction and took it off the hook. he compared his own comfort and health with miriam's imagined distress. "ought to have done something for herself," said mr. polly, rebaiting his hook. "she was always talking of doing things. why couldn't she?" he watched the float oscillating gently towards quiescence. "silly to begin thinking about her," he said. "damn silly!" but once he had begun thinking about her he had to go on. "oh blow!" cried mr. polly presently, and pulled up his hook to find another fish had just snatched at it in the last instant. his handling must have made the poor thing feel itself unwelcome. he gathered his things together and turned towards the house. all the potwell inn betrayed his influence now, for here indeed he had found his place in the world. it looked brighter, so bright indeed as to be almost skittish, with the white and green paint he had lavished upon it. even the garden palings were striped white and green, and so were the boats, for mr. polly was one of those who find a positive sensuous pleasure in the laying on of paint. left and right were two large boards which had done much to enhance the inn's popularity with the lighter-minded variety of pleasure-seekers. both marked innovations. one bore in large letters the single word "museum," the other was as plain and laconic with "omlets!" the spelling of the latter word was mr. polly's own, but when he had seen a whole boatload of men, intent on lammam for lunch, stop open-mouthed, and stare and grin and come in and ask in a marked sarcastic manner for "omlets," he perceived that his inaccuracy had done more for the place than his utmost cunning could have contrived. in a year or so the inn was known both up and down the river by its new name of "omlets," and mr. polly, after some secret irritation, smiled and was content. and the fat woman's _omelettes_ were things to remember. (you will note i have changed her epithet. time works upon us all.) she stood upon the steps as he came towards the house, and smiled at him richly. "caught many?" she asked. "got an idea," said mr. polly. "would it put you out very much if i went off for a day or two for a bit of a holiday? there won't be much doing now until thursday." ii feeling recklessly secure behind his beard mr. polly surveyed the fishbourne high street once again. the north side was much as he had known it except that rusper had vanished. a row of new shops replaced the destruction of the great fire. mantell and throbson's had risen again upon a more flamboyant pattern, and the new fire station was in the swiss-teutonic style and with much red paint. next door in the place of rumbold's was a branch of the colonial tea company, and then a salmon and gluckstein tobacco shop, and then a little shop that displayed sweets and professed a "tea room upstairs." he considered this as a possible place in which to prosecute enquiries about his lost wife, wavering a little between it and the god's providence inn down the street. then his eye caught a name over the window, "polly," he read, "& larkins! well, i'm--astonished!" a momentary faintness came upon him. he walked past and down the street, returned and surveyed the shop again. he saw a middle-aged, rather untidy woman standing behind the counter, who for an instant he thought might be miriam terribly changed, and then recognised as his sister-in-law annie, filled out and no longer hilarious. she stared at him without a sign of recognition as he entered the shop. "can i have tea?" said mr. polly. "well," said annie, "you _can_. but our tea room's upstairs.... my sister's been cleaning it out--and it's a bit upset." "it _would_ be," said mr. polly softly. "i beg your pardon?" said annie. "i said _i_ didn't mind. up here?" "i daresay there'll be a table," said annie, and followed him up to a room whose conscientious disorder was intensely reminiscent of miriam. "nothing like turning everything upside down when you're cleaning," said mr. polly cheerfully. "it's my sister's way," said annie impartially. "she's gone out for a bit of air, but i daresay she'll be back soon to finish. it's a nice light room when it's tidy. can i put you a table over there?" "let _me_," said mr. polly, and assisted. he sat down by the open window and drummed on the table and meditated on his next step while annie vanished to get his tea. after all, things didn't seem so bad with miriam. he tried over several gambits in imagination. "unusual name," he said as annie laid a cloth before him. annie looked interrogation. "polly. polly & larkins. real, i suppose?" "polly's my sister's name. she married a mr. polly." "widow i presume?" said mr. polly. "yes. this five years--come october." "lord!" said mr. polly in unfeigned surprise. "found drowned he was. there was a lot of talk in the place." "never heard of it," said mr. polly. "i'm a stranger--rather." "in the medway near maidstone. he must have been in the water for days. wouldn't have known him, my sister wouldn't, if it hadn't been for the name sewn in his clothes. all whitey and eat away he was." "bless my heart! must have been rather a shock for her!" "it _was_ a shock," said annie, and added darkly: "but sometimes a shock's better than a long agony." "no doubt," said mr. polly. he gazed with a rapt expression at the preparations before him. "so i'm drowned," something was saying inside him. "life insured?" he asked. "we started the tea rooms with it," said annie. why, if things were like this, had remorse and anxiety for miriam been implanted in his soul? no shadow of an answer appeared. "marriage is a lottery," said mr. polly. "_she_ found it so," said annie. "would you like some jam?" "i'd like an egg," said mr. polly. "i'll have two. i've got a sort of feeling--. as though i wanted keeping up.... wasn't particularly good sort, this mr. polly?" "he was a _wearing_ husband," said annie. "i've often pitied my sister. he was one of that sort--" "dissolute?" suggested mr. polly faintly. "no," said annie judiciously; "not exactly dissolute. feeble's more the word. weak, 'e was. weak as water. 'ow long do you like your eggs boiled?" "four minutes exactly," said mr. polly. "one gets talking," said annie. "one does," said mr.-polly, and she left him to his thoughts. what perplexed him was his recent remorse and tenderness for miriam. now he was back in her atmosphere all that had vanished, and the old feeling of helpless antagonism returned. he surveyed the piled furniture, the economically managed carpet, the unpleasing pictures on the wall. why had he felt remorse? why had he entertained this illusion of a helpless woman crying aloud in the pitiless darkness for him? he peered into the unfathomable mysteries of the heart, and ducked back to a smaller issue. _was_ he feeble? the eggs came up. nothing in annie's manner invited a resumption of the discussion. "business brisk?" he ventured to ask. annie reflected. "it is," she said, "and it isn't. it's like that." "ah!" said mr. polly, and squared himself to his egg. "was there an inquest on that chap?" "what chap?" "what was his name?--polly!" "of course." "you're sure it was him?" "what you mean?" annie looked at him hard, and suddenly his soul was black with terror. "who else could it have been--in the very cloes 'e wore?" "of course," said mr. polly, and began his egg. he was so agitated that he only realised its condition when he was half way through it and annie safely downstairs. "lord!" he said, reaching out hastily for the pepper. "one of miriam's! management! i haven't tasted such an egg for five years.... wonder where she gets them! picks them out, i suppose!" he abandoned it for its fellow. except for a slight mustiness the second egg was very palatable indeed. he was getting on to the bottom of it as miriam came in. he looked up. "nice afternoon," he said at her stare, and perceived she knew him at once by the gesture and the voice. she went white and shut the door behind her. she looked as though she was going to faint. mr. polly sprang up quickly and handed her a chair. "my god!" she whispered, and crumpled up rather than sat down. "it's _you_" she said. "no," said mr. polly very earnestly. "it isn't. it just looks like me. that's all." "i _knew_ that man wasn't you--all along. i tried to think it was. i tried to think perhaps the water had altered your wrists and feet and the colour of your hair." "ah!" "i'd always feared you'd come back." mr. polly sat down by his egg. "i haven't come back," he said very earnestly. "don't you think it." "'ow we'll pay back the insurance now i _don't_ know." she was weeping. she produced a handkerchief and covered her face. "look here, miriam," said mr. polly. "i haven't come back and i'm not coming back. i'm--i'm a visitant from another world. you shut up about me and i'll shut up about myself. i came back because i thought you might be hard up or in trouble or some silly thing like that. now i see you again--i'm satisfied. i'm satisfied completely. see? i'm going to absquatulate, see? hey presto right away." he turned to his tea for a moment, finished his cup noisily, stood up. "don't you think you're going to see me again," he said, "for you ain't." he moved to the door. "that _was_ a tasty egg," he said, hovered for a second and vanished. annie was in the shop. "the missus has had a bit of a shock," he remarked. "got some sort of fancy about a ghost. can't make it out quite. so long!" and he had gone. iii mr. polly sat beside the fat woman at one of the little green tables at the back of the potwell inn, and struggled with the mystery of life. it was one of those evenings, serenely luminous, amply and atmospherically still, when the river bend was at its best. a swan floated against the dark green masses of the further bank, the stream flowed broad and shining to its destiny, with scarce a ripple--except where the reeds came out from the headland--the three poplars rose clear and harmonious against a sky of green and yellow. and it was as if it was all securely within a great warm friendly globe of crystal sky. it was as safe and enclosed and fearless as a child that has still to be born. it was an evening full of the quality of tranquil, unqualified assurance. mr. polly's mind was filled with the persuasion that indeed all things whatsoever must needs be satisfying and complete. it was incredible that life has ever done more than seemed to jar, that there could be any shadow in life save such velvet softnesses as made the setting for that silent swan, or any murmur but the ripple of the water as it swirled round the chained and gently swaying punt. and the mind of mr. polly, exalted and made tender by this atmosphere, sought gently, but sought, to draw together the varied memories that came drifting, half submerged, across the circle of his mind. he spoke in words that seemed like a bent and broken stick thrust suddenly into water, destroying the mirror of the shapes they sought. "jim's not coming back again ever," he said. "he got drowned five years ago." "where?" asked the fat woman, surprised. "miles from here. in the medway. away in kent." "lor!" said the fat woman. "it's right enough," said mr. polly. "how d'you know?" "i went to my home." "where?" "don't matter. i went and found out. he'd been in the water some days. he'd got my clothes and they'd said it was me." "_they_?" "it don't matter. i'm not going back to them." the fat woman regarded him silently for some time. her expression of scrutiny gave way to a quiet satisfaction. then her brown eyes went to the river. "poor jim," she said. "'e 'adn't much tact--ever." she added mildly: "i can't 'ardly say i'm sorry." "nor me," said mr. polly, and got a step nearer the thought in him. "but it don't seem much good his having been alive, does it?" "'e wasn't much good," the fat woman admitted. "ever." "i suppose there were things that were good to him," mr. polly speculated. "they weren't _our_ things." his hold slipped again. "i often wonder about life," he said weakly. he tried again. "one seems to start in life," he said, "expecting something. and it doesn't happen. and it doesn't matter. one starts with ideas that things are good and things are bad--and it hasn't much relation to what _is_ good and what is bad. i've always been the skeptaceous sort, and it's always seemed rot to me to pretend we know good from evil. it's just what i've _never_ done. no adam's apple stuck in _my_ throat, ma'am. i don't own to it." he reflected. "i set fire to a house--once." the fat woman started. "i don't feel sorry for it. i don't believe it was a bad thing to do--any more than burning a toy like i did once when i was a baby. i nearly killed myself with a razor. who hasn't?--anyhow gone as far as thinking of it? most of my time i've been half dreaming. i married like a dream almost. i've never really planned my life or set out to live. i happened; things happened to me. it's so with everyone. jim couldn't help himself. i shot at him and tried to kill him. i dropped the gun and he got it. he very nearly had me. i wasn't a second too soon--ducking.... awkward--that night was.... m'mm.... but i don't blame him--come to that. only i don't see what it's all up to.... "like children playing about in a nursery. hurt themselves at times.... "there's something that doesn't mind us," he resumed presently. "it isn't what we try to get that we get, it isn't the good we think we do is good. what makes us happy isn't our trying, what makes others happy isn't our trying. there's a sort of character people like and stand up for and a sort they won't. you got to work it out and take the consequences.... miriam was always trying." "who was miriam?" asked the fat woman. "no one you know. but she used to go about with her brows knit trying not to do whatever she wanted to do--if ever she did want to do anything--" he lost himself. "you can't help being fat," said the fat woman after a pause, trying to get up to his thoughts. "_you_ can't," said mr. polly. "it helps and it hinders." "like my upside down way of talking." "the magistrates wouldn't '_ave_ kept on the license to me if i 'adn't been fat...." "then what have we done," said mr. polly, "to get an evening like this? lord! look at it!" he sent his arm round the great curve of the sky. "if i was a nigger or an italian i should come out here and sing. i whistle sometimes, but bless you, it's singing i've got in my mind. sometimes i think i live for sunsets." "i don't see that it does you any good always looking at sunsets like you do," said the fat woman. "nor me. but i do. sunsets and things i was made to like." "they don't 'elp you," said the fat woman thoughtfully. "who cares?" said mr. polly. a deeper strain had come to the fat woman. "you got to die some day," she said. "some things i can't believe," said mr. polly suddenly, "and one is your being a skeleton...." he pointed his hand towards the neighbour's hedge. "look at 'em--against the yellow--and they're just stingin' nettles. nasty weeds--if you count things by their uses. and no help in the life hereafter. but just look at the look of them!" "it isn't only looks," said the fat woman. "whenever there's signs of a good sunset and i'm not too busy," said mr. polly, "i'll come and sit out here." the fat woman looked at him with eyes in which contentment struggled with some obscure reluctant protest, and at last turned them slowly to the black nettle pagodas against the golden sky. "i wish we could," she said. "i will." the fat woman's voice sank nearly to the inaudible. "not always," she said. mr. polly was some time before he replied. "come here always when i'm a ghost," he replied. "spoil the place for others," said the fat woman, abandoning her moral solicitudes for a more congenial point of view. "not my sort of ghost wouldn't," said mr. polly, emerging from another long pause. "i'd be a sort of diaphalous feeling--just mellowish and warmish like...." they said no more, but sat on in the warm twilight until at last they could scarcely distinguish each other's faces. they were not so much thinking as lost in a smooth, still quiet of the mind. a bat flitted by. "time we was going in, o' party," said mr. polly, standing up. "supper to get. it's as you say, we can't sit here for ever." the end mr. wells has also written the following novels: love and mr. lewisham kipps mr. polly the wheels of chance the new machiavelli ann veronica tono bungay marriage bealby the passionate friends the wife of sir isaac harman the research magnificent mr. britling sees it through the soul of a bishop the following fantastic and imaginative romances: the war of the worlds the time machine the wonderful visit the island of dr. moreau the sea lady the sleeper awakes the food of the gods the war in the air the first men in the moon in the days of the comet the world set free and numerous short stories now collected in one volume under the title of the country of the blind a series of books upon social, religious and political questions: anticipations ( ) mankind in the making first and last things new worlds for old a modern utopia the future in america an englishman looks at the world what is coming? war and the future god the invisible king and two little books about children's play, called: floor games and little wars in the fourth year anticipations of a world peace by h. g. wells author of "mr. britling sees it through," "the war and the future," "what is coming?" "the war that will end war," "the world set free," "in the days of the comet," and "a modern utopia" preface in the latter half of a few of us were writing that this war was a "war of ideas." a phrase, "the war to end war," got into circulation, amidst much sceptical comment. it was a phrase powerful enough to sway many men, essentially pacifists, towards taking an active part in the war against german imperialism, but it was a phrase whose chief content was its aspiration. people were already writing in those early days of disarmament and of the abolition of the armament industry throughout the world; they realized fully the element of industrial belligerency behind the shining armour of imperialism, and they denounced the "krupp-kaiser" alliance. but against such writing and such thought we had to count, in those days, great and powerful realities. even to those who expressed these ideas there lay visibly upon them the shadow of impracticability; they were very "advanced" ideas in , very utopian. against them was an unbroken mass of mental habit and public tradition. while we talked of this "war to end war," the diplomatists of the powers allied against germany were busily spinning a disastrous web of greedy secret treaties, were answering aggression by schemes of aggression, were seeing in the treacherous violence of germany only the justification for countervailing evil acts. to them it was only another war for "ascendancy." that was three years and a half ago, and since then this "war of ideas" has gone on to a phase few of us had dared hope for in those opening days. the russian revolution put a match to that pile of secret treaties and indeed to all the imperialist plans of the allies; in the end it will burn them all. the greatest of the western allies is now the united states of america, and the americans have come into this war simply for an idea. three years and a half ago a few of us were saying this was a war against the idea of imperialism, not german imperialism merely, but british and french and russian imperialism, and we were saying this not because it was so, but because we hoped to see it become so. to-day we can say so, because now it is so. in those days, moreover, we said this is the "war to end war," and we still did not know clearly how. we thought in terms of treaties and alliances. it is largely the detachment and practical genius of the great english-speaking nation across the atlantic that has carried the world on beyond and replaced that phrase by the phrase, "the league of nations," a phrase suggesting plainly the organization of a sufficient instrument by which war may be ended for ever. in talk of a world league of nations would have seemed, to the extremest pitch, "utopian." to-day the project has an air not only of being so practicable, but of being so urgent and necessary and so manifestly the sane thing before mankind that not to be busied upon it, not to be making it more widely known and better understood, not to be working out its problems and bringing it about, is to be living outside of the contemporary life of the world. for a book upon any other subject at the present time some apology may be necessary, but a book upon this subject is as natural a thing to produce now as a pair of skates in winter when the ice begins to bear. all we writers find ourselves engaged perforce in some part or other of a world-wide propaganda of this the most creative and hopeful of political ideas that has ever dawned upon the consciousness of mankind. with no concerted plan we feel called upon to serve it. and in no connection would one so like to think oneself un-original as in this connection. it would be a dismaying thing to realize that one were writing anything here which was not the possible thought of great multitudes of other people, and capable of becoming the common thought of mankind. one writes in such a book as this not to express oneself but to swell a chorus. the idea of the league of nations is so great a one that it may well override the pretensions and command the allegiance of kings; much more does it claim the self-subjugation of the journalistic writer. our innumerable books upon this great edifice of a world peace do not constitute a scramble for attention, but an attempt to express in every variety of phrase and aspect this one system of ideas which now possesses us all. in the same way the elementary facts and ideas of the science of chemistry might conceivably be put completely and fully into one text-book, but, as a matter of fact, it is far more convenient to tell that same story over in a thousand different forms, in a text-book for boys here, for a different sort or class of boy there, for adult students, for reference, for people expert in mathematics, for people unused to the scientific method, and so on. for the last year the writer has been doing what he can--and a number of other writers have been doing what they can--to bring about a united declaration of all the atlantic allies in favour of a league of nations, and to define the necessary nature of that league. he has, in the course of this work, written a series of articles upon the league and upon _the necessary sacrifices of preconceptions_ that the idea involves in the london press. he has also been trying to clear his own mind upon the real meaning of that ambiguous word "democracy," for which the league is to make the world "safe." the bulk of this book is made up of these discussions. for a very considerable number of readers, it may be well to admit here, it can have no possible interest; they will have come at these questions themselves from different angles and they will have long since got to their own conclusions. but there may be others whose angle of approach may be similar to the writer's, who may have asked some or most of the questions he has had to ask, and who may be actively interested in the answers and the working out of the answers he has made to these questions. for them this book is printed. h. g. wells. _may_, . it is a dangerous thing to recommend specific books out of so large and various a literature as the "league of nations" idea has already produced, but the reader who wishes to reach beyond the range of this book, or who does not like its tone and method, will probably find something to meet his needs and tastes better in marburg's "league of nations," a straightforward account of the american side of the movement by the former united states minister in belgium, on the one hand, or in the concluding parts of mr. fayle's "great settlement" ( ), a frankly sceptical treatment from the british imperialist point of view, on the other. an illuminating discussion, advocating peace treaties rather than a league, is sir walter phillimore's "three centuries of treaties." two excellent books from america, that chance to be on my table, are mr. goldsmith's "league to enforce peace" and "a world in ferment" by president nicholas murray butler. mater's "société des nations" (didier) is an able presentation of a french point of view. brailsford's "a league of nations" is already a classic of the movement in england, and a very full and thorough book; and hobson's "towards international government" is a very sympathetic contribution from the english liberal left; but the reader must understand that these two writers seem disposed to welcome a peace with an unrevolutionized germany, an idea to which, in common with most british people, i am bitterly opposed. walsh's "world rebuilt" is a good exhortation, and mugge's "parliament of man" is fresh and sane and able. the omnivorous reader will find good sense and quaint english in judge mejdell's "_jus gentium_," published in english by olsen's of christiania. there is an active league of nations society in dublin, as well as the london and washington ones, publishing pamphlets and conducting propaganda. all these books and pamphlets i have named happen to lie upon my study table as i write, but i have made no systematic effort to get together literature upon the subject, and probably there are just as many books as good of which i have never even heard. there must, i am sure, be statements of the league of nations idea forthcoming from various religious standpoints, but i do not know any sufficiently well to recommend them. it is incredible that neither the roman catholic church, the english episcopal church, nor any nonconformist body has made any effort as an organization to forward this essentially religious end of peace on earth. and also there must be german writings upon this same topic. i mention these diverse sources not in order to present a bibliography, but because i should be sorry to have the reader think that this little book pretends to state _the_ case rather than _a_ case for the league of nations. contents i. the way to concrete realization ii. the league must be representative iii. the necessary powers of the league iv. the labour view of middle africa v. getting the league idea clear in relation to imperialism vi. the war aims of the western allies compactly stated vii. the future of monarchy viii. the plain necessity for a league ix. democracy x. the recent struggle for proportional representation in great britain xi. the study and propaganda of democracy in the fourth year the league of free nations i the way to concrete realization more and more frequently does one hear this phrase, the league of nations, used to express the outline idea of the new world that will come out of the war. there can be no doubt that the phrase has taken hold of the imaginations of great multitudes of people: it is one of those creative phrases that may alter the whole destiny of mankind. but as yet it is still a very vague phrase, a cloudy promise of peace. i make no apology therefore, for casting my discussion of it in the most general terms. the idea is the idea of united human effort to put an end to wars; the first practical question, that must precede all others, is how far can we hope to get to a concrete realization of that? but first let me note the fourth word in the second title of this book. the common talk is of a "league of nations" merely. i follow the man who is, more than any other man, the leader of english political thought throughout the world to-day, president wilson, in inserting that significant adjective "free." we western allies know to-day what is involved in making bargains with governments that do not stand for their peoples; we have had all our russian deal, for example, repudiated and thrust back upon our hands; and it is clearly in his mind, as it must be in the minds of all reasonable men, that no mere "scrap of paper," with just a monarch's or a chancellor's endorsement, is a good enough earnest of fellowship in the league. it cannot be a diplomatist's league. the league of nations, if it is to have any such effect as people seem to hope from it, must be, in the first place, "understanded of the people." it must be supported by sustained, deliberate explanation, and by teaching in school and church and press of the whole mass of all the peoples concerned. i underline the adjective "free" here to set aside, once for all, any possible misconception that this modern idea of a league of nations has any affinity to that holy alliance of the diplomatists, which set out to keep the peace of europe so disastrously a century ago. later i will discuss the powers of the league. but before i come to that i would like to say a little about the more general question of its nature and authority. what sort of gathering will embody it? the suggestions made range from a mere advisory body, rather like the hague convention, which will merely pronounce on the rights and wrongs of any international conflict, to the idea of a sort of super-state, a parliament of mankind, a "super national" authority, practically taking over the sovereignty of the existing states and empires of the world. most people's ideas of the league fall between these extremes. they want the league to be something more than an ethical court, they want a league that will act, but on the other hand they shrink from any loss of "our independence." there seems to be a conflict here. there is a real need for many people to tidy up their ideas at this point. we cannot have our cake and eat it. if association is worth while, there must be some sacrifice of freedom to association. as a very distinguished colonial representative said to me the other day: "here we are talking of the freedom of small nations and the 'self-determination' of peoples, and at the same time of the council of the league of nations and all sorts of international controls. which do we want?" the answer, i think, is "both." it is a matter of more or less, of getting the best thing at the cost of the second-best. we may want to relax an old association in order to make a newer and wider one. it is quite understandable that peoples aware of a distinctive national character and involved in some big existing political complex, should wish to disentangle themselves from one group of associations in order to enter more effectively into another, a greater, and more satisfactory one. the finn or the pole, who has hitherto been a rather reluctant member of the synthesis of the russian empire, may well wish to end that attachment in order to become a free member of a worldwide brotherhood. the desire for free arrangement is not a desire for chaos. there is such a thing as untying your parcels in order to pack them better, and i do not see myself how we can possibly contemplate a great league of freedom and reason in the world without a considerable amount of such preliminary dissolution. it happens, very fortunately for the world, that a century and a quarter ago thirteen various and very jealous states worked out the problem of a union, and became--after an enormous, exhausting wrangle--the united states of america. now the way they solved their riddle was by delegating and giving over jealously specified sovereign powers and doing all that was possible to retain the residuum. they remained essentially sovereign states. new york, virginia, massachusetts, for example, remained legally independent. the practical fusion of these peoples into one people outran the legal bargain. it was only after long years of discussion that the point was conceded; it was indeed only after the civil war that the implications were fully established, that there resided a sovereignty in the american people as a whole, as distinguished from the peoples of the several states. this is a precedent that every one who talks about the league of nations should bear in mind. these states set up a congress and president in washington with strictly delegated powers. that congress and president they delegated to look after certain common interests, to deal with interstate trade, to deal with foreign powers, to maintain a supreme court of law. everything else--education, militia, powers of life and death--the states retained for themselves. to this day, for instance, the federal courts and the federal officials have no power to interfere to protect the lives or property of aliens in any part of the union outside the district of columbia. the state governments still see to that. the federal government has the legal right perhaps to intervene, but it is still chary of such intervention. and these states of the american union were at the outset so independent-spirited that they would not even adopt a common name. to this day they have no common name. we have to call them americans, which is a ridiculous name when we consider that canada, mexico, peru, brazil are all of them also in america. or else we have to call them virginians, californians, new englanders, and so forth. their legal and nominal separateness weighs nothing against the real fusion that their great league has now made possible. now, that clearly is a precedent of the utmost value in our schemes for this council of the league of nations. we must begin by delegating, as the states began by delegating. it is a far cry to the time when we shall talk and think of the sovereign people of the earth. that council of the league of nations will be a tie as strong, we hope, but certainly not so close and multiplex as the early tie of the states at washington. it will begin by having certain delegated powers and no others. it will be an "_ad hoc_" body. later its powers may grow as mankind becomes accustomed to it. but at first it will have, directly or mediately, all the powers that seem necessary to restrain the world from war--and unless i know nothing of patriotic jealousies it will have not a scrap of power more. the danger is much more that its powers will be insufficient than that they will be excessive. of that later. what i want to discuss here now is the constitution of this delegated body. i want to discuss that first in order to set aside out of the discussion certain fantastic notions that will otherwise get very seriously in our way. fantastic as they are, they have played a large part in reducing the hague tribunal to an ineffective squeak amidst the thunders of this war. a number of gentlemen scheming out world unity in studies have begun their proposals with the simple suggestion that each sovereign power should send one member to the projected parliament of mankind. this has a pleasant democratic air; one sovereign state, one vote. now let us run over a list of sovereign states and see to what this leads us. we find our list includes the british empire, with a population of four hundred millions, of which probably half can read and write some language or other; bogota with a population of a million, mostly poets; hayti with a population of a million and a third, almost entirely illiterate and liable at any time to further political disruption; andorra with a population of four or five thousand souls. the mere suggestion of equal representation between such "powers" is enough to make the british empire burst into a thousand (voting) fragments. a certain concession to population, one must admit, was made by the theorists; a state of over three millions got, if i remember rightly, two delegates, and if over twenty, three, and some of the small states were given a kind of intermittent appearance, they only came every other time or something of that sort; but at the hague things still remained in such a posture that three or four minute and backward states could outvote the british empire or the united states. therein lies the clue to the insignificance of the hague. such projects as these are idle projects and we must put them out of our heads; they are against nature; the great nations will not suffer them for a moment. but when we dismiss this idea of representation by states, we are left with the problem of the proportion of representation and of relative weight in the council of the league on our hands. it is the sort of problem that appeals terribly to the ingenious. we cannot solve it by making population a basis, because that will give a monstrous importance to the illiterate millions of india and china. ingenious statistical schemes have been framed in which the number of university graduates and the steel output come in as multipliers, but for my own part i am not greatly impressed by statistical schemes. at the risk of seeming something of a prussian, i would like to insist upon certain brute facts. the business of the league of nations is to keep the peace of the world and nothing else. no power will ever dare to break the peace of the world if the powers that are capable of making war under modern conditions say "_no_." and there are only four powers certainly capable at the present time of producing the men and materials needed for a modern war in sufficient abundance to go on fighting: britain, france, germany, and the united states. there are three others which are very doubtfully capable: italy, japan, and austria. russia i will mark--it is all that one can do with russia just now--with a note of interrogation. some day china may be war capable--i hope never, but it is a possibility. personally i don't think that any other power on earth would have a ghost of a chance to resist the will--if it could be an honestly united will--of the first-named four. all the rest fight by the sanction of and by association with these leaders. they can only fight because of the split will of the war-complete powers. some are forced to fight by that very division. no one can vie with me in my appreciation of the civilization of switzerland, sweden, or holland, but the plain fact of the case is that such powers are absolutely incapable of uttering an effective protest against war. far less so are your haytis and liberias. the preservation of the world-peace rests with the great powers and with the great powers alone. if they have the will for peace, it is peace. if they have not, it is conflict. the four powers i have named can now, if they see fit, dictate the peace of the world for ever. let us keep our grip on that. peace is the business of the great powers primarily. steel output, university graduates, and so forth may be convenient secondary criteria, may be useful ways of measuring war efficiency, but the meat and substance of the council of the league of nations must embody the wills of those leading peoples. they can give an enduring peace to the little nations and the whole of mankind. it can arrive in no other way. so i take it that the council of an ideal league of nations must consist chiefly of the representatives of the great belligerent powers, and that the representatives of the minor allies and of the neutrals--essential though their presence will be--must not be allowed to swamp the voices of these larger masses of mankind. and this state of affairs may come about more easily than logical, statistical-minded people may be disposed to think. our first impulse, when we discuss the league of nations idea, is to think of some very elaborate and definite scheme of members on the model of existing legislative bodies, called together one hardly knows how, and sitting in a specially built league of nations congress house. all schemes are more methodical than reality. we think of somebody, learned and "expert," in spectacles, with a thin clear voice, reading over the "projected constitution of a league of nations" to an attentive and respectful peace congress. but there is a more natural way to a league than that. instead of being made like a machine, the league of nations may come about like a marriage. the peace congress that must sooner or later meet may itself become, after a time, the council of a league of nations. the league of nations may come upon us by degrees, almost imperceptibly. i am strongly obsessed by the idea that that peace congress will necessarily become--and that it is highly desirable that it should become--a most prolonged and persistent gathering. why should it not become at length a permanent gathering, inviting representatives to aid its deliberations from the neutral states, and gradually adjusting itself to conditions of permanency? i can conceive no such peace congress as those that have settled up after other wars, settling up after this war. not only has the war been enormously bigger than any other war, but it has struck deeper at the foundations of social and economic life. i doubt if we begin to realize how much of the old system is dead to-day, how much has to be remade. since the beginnings of history there has been a credible promise of gold payments underneath our financial arrangements. it is now an incredible promise. the value of a pound note waves about while you look at it. what will happen to it when peace comes no man can tell. nor what will happen to the mark. the rouble has gone into the abyss. our giddy money specialists clutch their handfuls of paper and watch it flying down the steep. much as we may hate the germans, some of us will have to sit down with some of the enemy to arrange a common scheme for the preservation of credit in money. and i presume that it is not proposed to end this war in a wild scramble of buyers for such food as remains in the world. there is a shortage now, a greater shortage ahead of the world, and there will be shortages of supply at the source and transport in food and all raw materials for some years to come. the peace congress will have to sit and organize a share-out and distribution and reorganization of these shattered supplies. it will have to rhondda the nations. probably, too, we shall have to deal collectively with a pestilence before we are out of the mess. then there are such little jobs as the reconstruction of belgium and serbia. there are considerable rectifications of boundaries to be made. there are fresh states to be created, in poland and armenia for example. about all these smaller states, new and old, that the peace must call into being, there must be a system of guarantees of the most difficult and complicated sort. i do not see the press congress getting through such matters as these in a session of weeks or months. the idea the germans betrayed at brest, that things were going to be done in the versailles fashion by great moustached heroes frowning and drawing lines with a large black soldierly thumbnail across maps, is--old-fashioned. they have made their eastern treaties, it is true, in this mode, but they are still looking for some really responsible government to keep them now that they are made. from first to last clearly the main peace negotiations are going to follow unprecedented courses. this preliminary discussion of war aims by means of great public speeches, that has been getting more and more explicit now for many months, is quite unprecedented. apparently all the broad preliminaries are to be stated and accepted in the sight of all mankind before even an armistice occurs on the main, the western front. the german diplomatists hate this process. so do a lot of ours. so do some of the diplomatic frenchmen. the german junkers are dodging and lying, they are fighting desperately to keep back everything they possibly can for the bargaining and bullying and table-banging of the council chamber, but that way there is no peace. and when at last germany says snip sufficiently to the allies' snap, and the peace congress begins, it will almost certainly be as unprecedented as its prelude. before it meets, the broad lines of the settlement will have been drawn plainly with the approval of the mass of mankind. ii the league must be representative a peace congress, growing permanent, then, may prove to be the most practical and convenient embodiment of this idea of a league of nations that has taken possession of the imagination of the world. a most necessary preliminary to a peace congress, with such possibilities inherent in it, must obviously be the meeting and organization of a preliminary league of the allied nations. that point i would now enlarge. half a world peace is better than none. there seems no reason whatever why the world should wait for the central powers before it begins this necessary work. mr. mccurdy has been asking lately, "why not the league of nations _now_?" that is a question a great number of people would like to echo very heartily. the nearer the allies can come to a league of free nations before the peace congress the more prospect there is that that body will approximate in nature to a league of nations for the whole world. in one most unexpected quarter the same idea has been endorsed. the king's speech on the prorogation of parliament this february was one of the most remarkable royal utterances that have ever been made from the british throne. there was less of the old-fashioned king and more of the modern president about it than the most republican-minded of us could have anticipated. for the first time in a king's speech we heard of the "democracies" of the world, and there was a clear claim that the allies at present fighting the central powers did themselves constitute a league of nations. but we must admit that at present they do so only in a very rhetorical sense. there is no real council of empowered representatives, and nothing in the nature of a united front has been prepared. unless we provide beforehand for something more effective, italy, france, the united states, japan, and this country will send separate groups of representatives, with separate instructions, unequal status, and very probably conflicting views upon many subjects, to the ultimate peace discussions. it is quite conceivable--it is a very serious danger--that at this discussion skilful diplomacy on the part of the central powers may open a cleft among the allies that has never appeared during the actual war. have the british settled, for example, with italy and france for the supply of metallurgical coal after the war? those countries must have it somehow. across the board germany can make some tempting bids in that respect. or take another question: have the british arrived at common views with france, belgium, portugal, and south africa about the administration of central africa? suppose germany makes sudden proposals affecting native labour that win over the portuguese and the boers? there are a score of such points upon which we shall find the allied representatives haggling with each other in the presence of the enemy if they have not been settled beforehand. it is the plainest common sense that we should be fixing up all such matters with our allies now, and knitting together a common front for the final deal with german imperialism. and these things are not to be done effectively and bindingly nowadays by official gentlemen in discreet undertones. they need to be done with the full knowledge and authority of the participating peoples. the russian example has taught the world the instability of diplomatic bargains in a time of such fundamental issues as the present. there is little hope and little strength in hole-and-corner bargainings between the officials or politicians who happen to be at the head of this or that nation for the time being. our labour people will not stand this sort of thing and they will not be bound by it. there will be the plain danger of repudiation for all arrangements made in that fashion. a gathering of somebody or other approved by the british foreign office and of somebody or other approved by the french foreign office, of somebody with vague powers from america, and so on and so on, will be an entirely ineffective gathering. but that is the sort of gathering of the allies we have been having hitherto, and that is the sort of gathering that is likely to continue unless there is a considerable expression of opinion in favour of something more representative and responsible. even our foreign office must be aware that in every country in the world there is now bitter suspicion of and keen hostility towards merely diplomatic representatives. one of the most significant features of the time is the evident desire of the labour movement in every european country to take part in a collateral conference of labour that shall meet when and where the peace congress does and deliberate and comment on its proceedings. for a year now the demand of the masses for such a labour conference has been growing. it marks a distrust of officialdom whose intensity officialdom would do well to ponder. but it is the natural consequence of, it is the popular attempt at a corrective to, the aloofness and obscurity that have hitherto been so evil a characteristic of international negotiations. i do not think labour and intelligent people anywhere are going to be fobbed off with an old-fashioned diplomatic gathering as being that league of free nations they demand. on the other hand, i do not contemplate this bi-cameral conference with the diplomatists trying to best and humbug the labour people as well as each other and the labour people getting more and more irritated, suspicious, and extremist, with anything but dread. the allied countries must go into the conference _solid_, and they can only hope to do that by heeding and incorporating labour ideas before they come to the conference. the only alternative that i can see to this unsatisfactory prospect of a peace congress sitting side by side with a dissentient and probably revolutionary labour and socialist convention--both gatherings with unsatisfactory credentials contradicting one another and drifting to opposite extremes--is that the delegates the allied powers send to the peace conference (the same delegates which, if they are wise, they will have previously sent to a preliminary league of allied nations to discuss their common action at the peace congress), should be elected _ad hoc_ upon democratic lines. i know that this will be a very shocking proposal to all our able specialists in foreign policy. they will talk at once about the "ignorance" of people like the labour leaders and myself about such matters, and so on. what do we know of the treaty of so-and-so that was signed in the year seventeen something?--and so on. to which the answer is that we ought not to have been kept ignorant of these things. a day will come when the foreign offices of all countries will have to recognize that what the people do not know of international agreements "ain't facts." a secret treaty is only binding upon the persons in the secret. but what i, as a sample common person, am not ignorant of is this: that the business that goes on at the peace congress will either make or mar the lives of everyone i care for in the world, and that somehow, by representative or what not, _i have to be there_. the peace congress deals with the blood and happiness of my children and the future of my world. speaking as one of the hundreds of millions of "rank outsiders" in public affairs, i do not mean to respect any peace treaty that may end this war unless i am honestly represented at its making. i think everywhere there is a tendency in people to follow the russian example to this extent and to repudiate bargains in which they have had no voice. i do not see that any genuine realization of the hopes with which all this talk about the league of nations is charged can be possible, unless the two bodies which should naturally lead up to the league of nations--that is to say, firstly, the conference of the allies, and then the peace congress--are elected bodies, speaking confidently for the whole mass of the peoples behind them. it may be a troublesome thing to elect them, but it will involve much more troublesome consequences if they are not elected. this, i think, is one of the considerations for which many people's minds are still unprepared. but unless we are to have over again after all this bloodshed and effort some such "peace with honour" foolery as we had performed by "dizzy" and salisbury at that fatal berlin conference in which this present war was begotten, we must sit up to this novel proposal of electoral representation in the peace negotiations. something more than common sense binds our statesmen to this idea. they are morally pledged to it. president wilson and our british and french spokesmen alike have said over and over again that they want to deal not with the hohenzollerns but with the german people. in other words, we have demanded elected representatives from the german people with whom we may deal, and how can we make a demand of that sort unless we on our part are already prepared to send our own elected representatives to meet them? it is up to us to indicate by our own practice how we on our side, professing as we do to act for democracies, to make democracy safe on the earth, and so on, intend to meet this new occasion. yet it has to be remarked that, so far, not one of the league of nations projects i have seen have included any practicable proposals for the appointment of delegates either to that ultimate body or to its two necessary predecessors, the council of the allies and the peace congress. it is evident that here, again, we are neglecting to get on with something of very urgent importance. i will venture, therefore, to say a word or two here about the possible way in which a modern community may appoint its international representatives. and here, again, i turn from any european precedents to that political outcome of the british mind, the constitution of the united states. (because we must always remember that while our political institutions in britain are a patch-up of feudalism, tudor, stuart, and hanoverian monarchist traditions and urgent merely european necessities, a patch-up that has been made quasi-democratic in a series of after-thoughts, the american constitution is a real, deliberate creation of the english-speaking intelligence.) the president of the united states, then, we have to note, is elected in a most extraordinary way, and in a way that has now the justification of very great successes indeed. on several occasions the united states has achieved indisputable greatness in its presidents, and very rarely has it failed to set up very leaderly and distinguished men. it is worth while, therefore, to inquire how this president is elected. he is neither elected directly by the people nor appointed by any legislative body. he is chosen by a special college elected by the people. this college exists to elect him; it meets, elects him, and disperses. (i will not here go into the preliminary complications that makes the election of a president follow upon a preliminary election of two presidential candidates. the point i am making here is that he is a specially selected man chosen _ad hoc_.) is there any reason why we should, not adopt this method in this new necessity we are under of sending representatives, first, to the long overdue and necessary allied council, then to the peace congress, and then to the hoped-for council of the league of nations? i am anxious here only to start for discussion the idea of an electoral representation of the nations upon these three bodies that must in succession set themselves to define, organize, and maintain the peace of the world. i do not wish to complicate the question by any too explicit advocacy of methods of election or the like. in the united states this college which elects the president is elected on the same register of voters as that which elects the senate and congress, and at the same time. but i suppose if we are to give a popular mandate to the three or five or twelve or twenty (or whatever number it is) men to whom we are going to entrust our empire's share in this great task of the peace negotiations, it will be more decisive of the will of the whole nation if the college that had to appoint them is elected at a special election. i suppose that the great british common-weals over-seas, at present not represented in parliament, would also and separately at the same time elect colleges to appoint their representatives. i suppose there would be at least one indian representative elected, perhaps by some special electoral conference of indian princes and leading men. the chief defect of the american presidential election is that as the old single vote method of election is employed it has to be fought on purely party lines. he is the select man of the democratic half, or of the republican half of the nation. he is not the select man of the whole nation. it would give a far more representative character to the electoral college if it could be elected by fair modern methods, if for this particular purpose parliamentary constituencies could be grouped and the clean scientific method of proportional representation could be used. but i suppose the party politician in this, as in most of our affairs, must still have his pound of our flesh--and we must reckon with him later for the bloodshed. these are all, however, secondary considerations. the above paragraph is, so to speak, in the nature of a footnote. the fundamental matter, if we are to get towards any realization of this ideal of a world peace sustained by a league of nations, is to get straight away to the conception of direct special electoral mandates in this matter. at present all the political luncheon and dinner parties in london are busy with smirking discussions of "who is to go?" the titled ladies are particularly busy. they are talking about it as if we poor, ignorant, tax-paying, blood-paying common people did not exist. "l. g.," they say, will of course "_insist_ on going," but there is much talk of the "old man." people are getting quite nice again about "the old man's feelings." it would be such a pretty thing to send him. but if "l. g." goes we want him to go with something more than a backing of intrigues and snatched authority. and i do not think the mass of people have any enthusiasm for the old man. it is difficult again--by the dinner-party standards--to know how lord curzon can be restrained. but we common people do not care if he is restrained to the point of extinction. probably there will be nobody who talks or understands russian among the british representatives. but, of course, the british governing class has washed its hands of the russians. they were always very difficult, and now they are "impossible, my dear, perfectly impossible." no! that sort of thing will not do now. this peace congress is too big a job for party politicians and society and county families. the bulk of british opinion cannot go on being represented for ever by president wilson. we cannot always look to the americans to express our ideas and do our work for democracy. the foolery of the berlin treaty must not be repeated. we cannot have another popular prime minister come triumphing back to england with a gross of pink spectacles--through which we may survey the prospect of the next great war. the league of free nations means something very big and solid; it is not a rhetorical phrase to be used to pacify a restless, distressed, and anxious public, and to be sneered out of existence when that use is past. when the popular mind now demands a league of free nations it demands a reality. the only way to that reality is through the direct participation of the nation as a whole in the settlement, and that is possible only through the direct election for this particular issue of representative and responsible men. iii the necessary powers of the league if this phrase, "the league of free nations," is to signify anything more than a rhetorical flourish, then certain consequences follow that have to be faced now. no man can join a partnership and remain an absolutely free man. you cannot bind yourself to do this and not to do that and to consult and act with your associates in certain eventualities without a loss of your sovereign freedom. people in this country and in france do not seem to be sitting up manfully to these necessary propositions. if this league of free nations is really to be an effectual thing for the preservation of the peace of the world it must possess power and exercise power, powers must be delegated to it. otherwise it will only help, with all other half-hearted good resolutions, to pave the road of mankind to hell. nothing in all the world so strengthens evil as the half-hearted attempts of good to make good. it scarcely needs repeating here--it has been so generally said--that no league of free nations can hope to keep the peace unless every member of it is indeed a free member, represented by duly elected persons. nobody, of course, asks to "dictate the internal government" of any country to that country. if germans, for instance, like to wallow in absolutism after the war they can do so. but if they or any other peoples wish to take part in a permanent league of free nations it is only reasonable to insist that so far as their representatives on the council go they must be duly elected under conditions that are by the standards of the general league satisfactorily democratic. that seems to be only the common sense of the matter. every court is a potential conspiracy against freedom, and the league cannot tolerate merely court appointments. if courts are to exist anywhere in the new world of the future, they will be wise to stand aloof from international meddling. of course if a people, after due provision for electoral representation, choose to elect dynastic candidates, that is an altogether different matter. and now let us consider what are the powers that must be delegated to this proposed council of a league of free nations, if that is really effectually to prevent war and to organize and establish and make peace permanent in the world. firstly, then, it must be able to adjudicate upon all international disputes whatever. its first function must clearly be that. before a war can break out there must be the possibility of a world decision upon its rights and wrongs. the league, therefore, will have as its primary function to maintain a supreme court, whose decisions will be final, before which every sovereign power may appear as plaintiff against any other sovereign power or group of powers. the plea, i take it, will always be in the form that the defendant power or powers is engaged in proceedings "calculated to lead to a breach of the peace," and calling upon the league for an injunction against such proceedings. i suppose the proceedings that can be brought into court in this way fall under such headings as these that follow; restraint of trade by injurious tariffs or suchlike differentiations or by interference with through traffic, improper treatment of the subjects _or their property_ (here i put a query) of the plaintiff nation in the defendant state, aggressive military or naval preparation, disorder spreading over the frontier, trespass (as, for instance, by airships), propaganda of disorder, espionage, permitting the organization of injurious activities, such as raids or piracy. clearly all such actions must come within the purview of any world-supreme court organized to prevent war. but in addition there is a more doubtful and delicate class of case, arising out of the discontent of patches of one race or religion in the dominions of another. how far may the supreme court of the world attend to grievances between subject and sovereign? such cases are highly probable, and no large, vague propositions about the "self-determination" of peoples can meet all the cases. in macedonia, for instance, there is a jumble of albanian, serbian, bulgarian, greek and rumanian villages always jostling one another and maintaining an intense irritation between the kindred nations close at hand. and quite a large number of areas and cities in the world, it has to be remembered, are not homogeneous at all. will the great nations of the world have the self-abnegation to permit a scattered subject population to appeal against the treatment of its ruling power to the supreme court? this is a much more serious interference with sovereignty than intervention in an external quarrel. could a greek village in bulgarian macedonia plead in the supreme court? could the armenians in constantinople, or the jews in roumania, or the poles in west prussia, or the negroes in georgia, or the indians in the transvaal make such an appeal? could any indian population in india appeal? personally i should like to see the power of the supreme court extend as far as this. i do not see how we can possibly prevent a kindred nation pleading for the scattered people of its own race and culture, or any nation presenting a case on behalf of some otherwise unrepresented people--the united states, for example, presenting a case on behalf of the armenians. but i doubt if many people have made up their minds yet to see the powers of the supreme court of the league of nations go so far as this. i doubt if, to begin with, it will be possible to provide for these cases. i would like to see it done, but i doubt if the majority of the sovereign peoples concerned will reconcile their national pride with the idea, at least so far as their own subject populations go. here, you see, i do no more than ask a question. it is a difficult one, and it has to be answered before we can clear the way to the league of free nations. but the supreme court, whether it is to have the wider or the narrower scope here suggested, would be merely the central function of the league of free nations. behind the decisions of the supreme court must lie power. and here come fresh difficulties for patriotic digestions. the armies and navies of the world must be at the disposal of the league of free nations, and that opens up a new large area of delegated authority. the first impulse of any power disposed to challenge the decisions of the supreme court will be, of course, to arm; and it is difficult to imagine how the league of free nations can exercise any practical authority unless it has power to restrain such armament. the league of free nations must, in fact, if it is to be a working reality, have power to define and limit the military and naval and aerial equipment of every country in the world. this means something more than a restriction of state forces. it must have power and freedom to investigate the military and naval and aerial establishments of all its constituent powers. it must also have effective control over every armament industry. and armament industries are not always easy to define. are aeroplanes, for example, armament? its powers, i suggest, must extend even to a restraint upon the belligerent propaganda which is the natural advertisement campaign of every armament industry. it must have the right, for example, to raise the question of the proprietorship of newspapers by armament interests. disarmament is, in fact, a necessary factor of any league of free nations, and you cannot have disarmament unless you are prepared to see the powers of the council of the league extend thus far. the very existence of the league presupposes that it and it alone is to have and to exercise military force. any other belligerency or preparation or incitement to belligerency becomes rebellion, and any other arming a threat of rebellion, in a world league of free nations. but here, again, has the general mind yet thought out all that is involved in this proposition? in all the great belligerent countries the armament industries are now huge interests with enormous powers. krupp's business alone is as powerful a thing in germany as the crown. in every country a heavily subsidized "patriotic" press will fight desperately against giving powers so extensive and thorough as those here suggested to an international body. so long, of course, as the league of free nations remains a project in the air, without body or parts, such a press will sneer at it gently as "utopian," and even patronize it kindly. but so soon as the league takes on the shape its general proposition makes logically necessary, the armament interest will take fright. then it is we shall hear the drum patriotic loud in defence of the human blood trade. are we to hand over these most intimate affairs of ours to "a lot of foreigners"? among these "foreigners" who will be appealed to to terrify the patriotic souls of the british will be the "americans." are we men of english blood and tradition to see our affairs controlled by such "foreigners" as wilson, lincoln, webster and washington? perish the thought! when they might be controlled by disraelis, wettins, mount-battens, and what not! and so on and so on. krupp's agents and the agents of the kindred firms in great britain and france will also be very busy with the national pride of france. in germany they have already created a colossal suspicion of england. here is a giant in the path.... but let us remember that it is only necessary to defeat the propaganda of this vile and dangerous industry in four great countries. and for the common citizen, touched on the tenderest part of his patriotic susceptibilities, there are certain irrefutable arguments. whether the ways of the world in the years to come are to be the paths of peace or the paths of war is not going to alter this essential fact, that the great educated world communities, with a social and industrial organization on a war-capable scale, are going to dominate human affairs. whether they spend their power in killing or in educating and creating, france, germany, however much we may resent it, the two great english-speaking communities, italy, japan china, and presently perhaps a renascent russia, are jointly going to control the destinies of mankind. whether that joint control comes through arms or through the law is a secondary consideration. to refuse to bring our affairs into a common council does not make us independent of foreigners. it makes us more dependent upon them, as a very little consideration will show. i am suggesting here that the league of free nations shall practically control the army, navy, air forces, and armament industry of every nation in the world. what is the alternative to that? to do as we please? no, the alternative is that any malignant country will be free to force upon all the rest just the maximum amount of armament it chooses to adopt. since france, we say, has been free in military matters. what has been the value of that freedom? the truth is, she has been the bond-slave of germany, bound to watch germany as a slave watches a master, bound to launch submarine for submarine and cast gun for gun, to sweep all her youth into her army, to subdue her trade, her literature, her education, her whole life to the necessity of preparations imposed upon her by her drill-master over the rhine. and michael, too, has been a slave to his imperial master for the self-same reason, for the reason that germany and france were both so proudly sovereign and independent. both countries have been slaves to kruppism and zabernism--_because they were sovereign and free_! so it will always be. so long as patriotic cant can keep the common man jealous of international controls over his belligerent possibilities, so long will he be the helpless slave of the foreign threat, and "peace" remain a mere name for the resting phase between wars. but power over the military resources of the world is by no means the limit of the necessary powers of an effective league of free nations. there are still more indigestible implications in the idea, and, since they have got to be digested sooner or later if civilization is not to collapse, there is no reason why we should not begin to bite upon them now. i was much interested to read the british press upon the alleged proposal of the german chancellor that we should give up (presumably to germany) gibraltar, malta, egypt, and suchlike key possessions. it seemed to excite several of our politicians extremely. i read over the german chancellor's speech very carefully, so far as it was available, and it is clear that he did not propose anything of the sort. wilfully or blindly our press and our demagogues screamed over a false issue. the chancellor was defending the idea of the germans remaining in belgium and lorraine because of the strategic and economic importance of those regions to germany, and he was arguing that before we english got into such a feverish state of indignation about that, we should first ask ourselves what we were doing in gibraltar, etc., etc. that is a different thing altogether. and it is an argument that is not to be disposed of by misrepresentation. the british have to think hard over this quite legitimate german _tu quoque_. it is no good getting into a patriotic bad temper and refusing to answer that question. we british people are so persuaded of the purity and unselfishness with which we discharge our imperial responsibilities, we have been so trained in imperial self-satisfaction, we know so certainly that all our subject nations call us blessed, that it is a little difficult for us to see just how the fact that we are, for example, so deeply rooted in egypt looks to an outside intelligence. of course the german imperialist idea is a wicked and aggressive idea, as lord robert cecil has explained; they want to set up all over the earth coaling stations and strategic points, _on the pattern of ours._ well, they argue, we are only trying to do what you british have done. if we are not to do so--because it is aggression and so on and so on--is not the time ripe for you to make some concessions to the public opinion of the world? that is the german argument. either, they say, tolerate this idea of a germany with advantageous posts and possessions round and about the earth, or reconsider your own position. well, at the risk of rousing much patriotic wrath, i must admit that i think we _have_ to reconsider our position. our argument is that in india, egypt, africa and elsewhere, we stand for order and civilization, we are the trustees of freedom, the agents of knowledge and efficiency. on the whole the record of british rule is a pretty respectable one; i am not ashamed of our record. nevertheless _the case is altering_. it is quite justifiable for us british, no doubt, if we do really play the part of honest trustees, to remain in egypt and in india under existing conditions; it is even possible for us to glance at the helplessness of arabia, palestine, and mesopotamia, as yet incapable of self-government, helpless as new-born infants. but our case, our only justifiable case, is that we are trustees because there is no better trustee possible. and the creation of a council of a league of free nations would be like the creation of a public trustee for the world. the creation of a league of free nations must necessarily be the creation of an authority that may legitimately call existing empires to give an account of their stewardship. for an unchecked fragmentary control of tropical and chaotic regions, it substitutes the possibility of a general authority. and this must necessarily alter the problems not only of the politically immature nations and the control of the tropics, but also of the regulation of the sea ways, the regulation of the coming air routes, and the distribution of staple products in the world. i will not go in detail over the items of this list, because the reader can fill in the essentials of the argument from what has gone before. i want simply to suggest how widely this project of a league of free nations swings when once you have let it swing freely in your mind! and if you do not let it swing freely in your mind, it remains nothing--a sentimental gesture. the plain truth is that the league of free nations, if it is to be a reality, if it is to effect a real pacification of the world, must do no less than supersede empire; it must end not only this new german imperialism, which is struggling so savagely and powerfully to possess the earth, but it must also wind up british imperialism and french imperialism, which do now so largely and inaggressively possess it. and, moreover, this idea queries the adjective of belgian, portuguese, french, and british central africa alike, just as emphatically as it queries "german." still more effectually does the league forbid those creations of the futurist imagination, the imperialism of italy and greece, which make such threatening gestures at the world of our children. are these incompatibilities understood? until people have faced the clear antagonism that exists between imperialism and internationalism, they have not begun to suspect the real significance of this project of the league of free nations. they have not begun to realize that peace also has its price. iv the labour view of middle africa i was recently privileged to hear the views of one of those titled and influential ladies--with a general education at about the fifth standard level, plus a little french, german, italian, and music--who do so much to make our england what it is at the present time, upon the labour idea of an international control of "tropical" africa. she was loud and derisive about the "ignorance" of labour. "what can _they_ know about foreign politics?" she said, with gestures to indicate her conception of _them_. i was moved to ask her what she would do about africa. "leave it to lord robert!" she said, leaning forward impressively. "_leave it to the people who know._" unhappily i share the evident opinion of labour that we are not blessed with any profoundly wise class of people who have definite knowledge and clear intentions about africa, that these "_people who know_" are mostly a pretentious bluff, and so, in spite of a very earnest desire to take refuge in my "ignorance" from the burthen of thinking about african problems, i find myself obliged, like most other people, to do so. in the interests of our country, our children, and the world, we common persons _have_ to have opinions about these matters. a muddle-up in africa this year may kill your son and mine in the course of the next decade. i know this is not a claim to be interested in things african, such as the promoter of a tropical railway or an oil speculator has; still it is a claim. and for the life of me i cannot see what is wrong about the labour proposals, or what alternative exists that can give even a hope of peace in and about africa. the gist of the labour proposal is an international control of africa between the zambesi and the sahara. this has been received with loud protests by men whose work one is obliged to respect, by sir harry, johnston, for example, and sir alfred sharpe, and with something approaching a shriek of hostility by mr. cunninghame graham. but i think these gentlemen have not perhaps given the labour proposal quite as much attention as they have spent upon the details of african conditions. i think they have jumped to conclusions at the mere sound of the word "international." there have been some gross failures in the past to set up international administrations in africa and the near east. and these gentlemen think at once of some new congo administration and of nondescript police forces commanded by cosmopolitan adventurers. (see joseph conrad's "out-post of civilization.") they think of internationalism with greedy great powers in the background outside the internationalized area, intriguing to create disorder and mischief with ideas of an ultimate annexation. but i doubt if such nightmares do any sort of justice to the labour intention. and the essential thing i would like to point out to these authorities upon african questions is that not one of them even hints at any other formula which covers the broad essentials of the african riddle. what are these broad essentials? what are the ends that _must_ be achieved if africa is not to continue a festering sore in the body of mankind? the first most obvious danger of africa is the militarization of the black. general smuts has pointed this out plainly. the negro makes a good soldier; he is hardy, he stands the sea, and he stands cold. (there was a negro in the little party which reached the north pole.) it is absolutely essential to the peace of the world that there should be no arming of the negroes beyond the minimum necessary for the policing of africa. but how is this to be watched and prevented if there is no overriding body representing civilization to say "stop" to the beginnings of any such militarization? i do not see how sir harry johnston, sir alfred sharpe, and the other authorities can object to at least an international african "disarmament commission" to watch, warn, and protest. at least they must concede that. but in practice this involves something else. a practical consequence of this disarmament idea must be an effective control of the importation of arms into the "tutelage" areas of africa. that rat at the dykes of civilization, that ultimate expression of political scoundrelism, the gun-runner, has to be kept under and stamped out in africa as everywhere. a disarmament commission that has no forces available to prevent the arms trade will be just another hague convention, just another vague, well-intentioned, futile gesture. and closely connected with this function of controlling the arms trade is another great necessity of africa under "tutelage," and that is the necessity of a common collective agreement not to demoralize the native population. that demoralization, physical and moral, has already gone far. the whole negro population of africa is now rotten with diseases introduced by arabs and europeans during the last century, and such african statesmen as sir harry johnston are eloquent upon the necessity of saving the blacks--and the baser whites--from the effects of trade gin and similar alluring articles of commerce. moreover, from africa there is always something new in the way of tropical diseases, and presently africa, if we let it continue to fester as it festers now, may produce an epidemic that will stand exportation to a temperate climate. a bacterium that may kill you or me in some novel and disgusting way may even now be developing in some congo muck-heap. so here is the need for another commission to look after the health of africa. that, too, should be of authority over all the area of "tutelage" africa. it is no good stamping out infectious disease in nyasaland while it is being bred in portuguese east africa. and if there is a disarmament commission already controlling the importation of arms, why should not that body also control at the same time the importation of trade gin and similar delicacies, and direct quarantine and such-like health regulations? but there is another question in africa upon which our "ignorant" labour class is far better informed than our dear old eighteenth-century upper class which still squats so firmly in our foreign and colonial offices, and that is the question of forced labour. we cannot tolerate any possibilities of the enslavement of black africa. long ago the united states found out the impossibility of having slave labour working in the same system with white. to cure that anomaly cost the united states a long and bloody war. the slave-owner, the exploiter of the black, becomes a threat and a nuisance to any white democracy. he brings back his loot to corrupt press and life at home. what happened in america in the midst of the last century between federals and confederates must not happen again on a larger scale between white europe and middle africa. slavery in africa, open or disguised, whether enforced by the lash or brought about by iniquitous land-stealing, strikes at the home and freedom of every european worker--_and labour knows this_. but how are we to prevent the enslavement and economic exploitation of the blacks if we have no general watcher of african conditions? we want a common law for africa, a general declaration of rights, of certain elementary rights, and we want a common authority to which the black man and the native tribe may appeal for justice. what is the good of trying to elevate the population of uganda and to give it a free and hopeful life if some other population close at hand is competing against the baganda worker under lash and tax? so here is a third aspect of our international commission, as a native protectorate and court of appeal! there is still a fourth aspect of the african question in which every mother's son in europe is closely interested, and that is the trade question. africa is the great source of many of the most necessary raw materials upon which our modern comforts and conveniences depend; more particularly is it the source of cheap fat in the form of palm oil. one of the most powerful levers in the hands of the allied democracies at the present time in their struggle against the imperial brigands of potsdam is the complete control we have now obtained over these essential supplies. we can, if we choose, cut off germany altogether from these vital economic necessities, if she does not consent to abandon militant imperialism for some more civilized form of government. we hope that this war will end in that renunciation, and that germany will re-enter the community of nations. but whether that is so or not, whether germany is or is not to be one of the interested parties in the african solution, the fact remains that it is impossible to contemplate a continuing struggle for the african raw material supply between the interested powers. sooner or later that means a renewal of war. international trade rivalry is, indeed, only war--_smouldering_. we need, and labour demands, a fair, frank treatment of african trade, and that can only be done by some overriding regulative power, a commission which, so far as i can see, might also be the same commission as that we have already hypothesized as being necessary to control the customs in order to prevent gun-running and the gin trade. that commission might very conveniently have a voice in the administration of the great waterways of africa (which often run through the possessions of several powers) and in the regulation of the big railway lines and air routes that will speedily follow the conclusion of peace. now this i take it is the gist of the labour proposal. this--and no more than this--is what is intended by the "international control of tropical africa." _i do not read that phrase as abrogating existing sovereignties in africa_. what is contemplated is a delegation of authority. every one should know, though unhappily the badness of our history teaching makes it doubtful if every one does know, that the federal government of the united states of america did not begin as a sovereign government, and has now only a very questionable sovereignty. each state was sovereign, and each state delegated certain powers to washington. that was the initial idea of the union. only later did the idea of a people of the states as a whole emerge. in the same way i understand the labour proposal as meaning that we should delegate to an african commission the middle african customs, the regulation of inter-state trade, inter-state railways and waterways, quarantine and health generally, and the establishment of a supreme court for middle african affairs. one or two minor matters, such as the preservation of rare animals, might very well fall under the same authority. upon that commission the interested nations, that is to say--putting them in alphabetical order--the africander, the briton, the belgian, the egyptian, the frenchman, the italian, the indian the portuguese--might all be represented in proportion to their interest. whether the german would come in is really a question for the german to consider; he can come in as a good european, he cannot come in as an imperialist brigand. whether, too, any other nations can claim to have an interest in african affairs, whether the commission would not be better appointed by a league of free nations than directly by the interested governments, and a number of other such questions, need not be considered here. here we are discussing only the main idea of the labour proposal. now beneath the supervision and restraint of such a delegated commission i do not see why the existing administrations of tutelage africa should not continue. i do not believe that the labour proposal contemplates any humiliating cession of european sovereignty. under that international commission the french flag may still wave in senegal and the british over the protected state of uganda. given a new spirit in germany i do not see why the german flag should not presently be restored in german east africa. but over all, standing for righteousness, patience, fair play for the black, and the common welfare of mankind would wave a new flag, the sun of africa representing the central african commission of the league of free nations. that is my vision of the labour project. it is something very different, i know, from the nightmare of an international police of cosmopolitan scoundrels in nondescript uniforms, hastening to loot and ravish his dear uganda and his beloved nigeria, which distresses the crumpled pillow of sir harry johnston. but if it is not the solution, then it is up to him and his fellow authorities to tell us what is the solution of the african riddle. v getting the league idea clear in relation to imperialism § it is idle to pretend that even at the present time the idea of the league of free nations has secure possession of the british mind. there is quite naturally a sustained opposition to it in all the fastnesses of aggressive imperialism. such papers as the _times_ and the _morning post_ remain hostile and obstructive to the expression of international ideas. most of our elder statesmen seem to have learnt nothing and forgotten nothing during the years of wildest change the world has ever known. but in the general mind of the british peoples the movement of opinion from a narrow imperialism towards internationalism has been wide and swift. and it continues steadily. one can trace week by week and almost day by day the americanization of the british conception of the allied war aims. it may be interesting to reproduce here three communications upon this question made at different times by the present writer to the press. the circumstances of their publication are significant. the first is in substance identical with a letter which was sent to the _times_ late in may, , and rejected as being altogether too revolutionary. for nowadays the correspondence in the _times_ has ceased to be an impartial expression of public opinion. the correspondence of the _times_ is now apparently selected and edited in accordance with the views upon public policy held by the acting editor for the day. more and more has that paper become the organ of a sort of oxford imperialism, three or four years behind the times and very ripe and "expert." the letter is here given as it was finally printed in the issue of the _daily chronicle_ for june th, , under the heading, "wanted a statement of imperial policy." sir,--the time seems to have come for much clearer statements of outlook and intention from this country than it has hitherto been possible to make. the entry of america into the war and the banishment of autocracy and aggressive diplomacy from russia have enormously cleared the air, and the recent great speech of general smuts at the savoy hotel is probably only the first of a series of experiments in statement. it is desirable alike to clear our own heads, to unify our efforts, and to give the nations of the world some assurance and standard for our national conduct in the future, that we should now define the idea of our empire and its relation to the world outlook much more clearly than has ever hitherto been done. never before in the history of mankind has opinion counted for so much and persons and organizations for so little as in this war. never before has the need for clear ideas, widely understood and consistently sustained, been so commandingly vital. what do we mean by our empire, and what is its relation to that universal desire of mankind, the permanent rule of peace and justice in the world? the whole world will be the better for a very plain answer to that question. is it not time for us british not merely to admit to ourselves, but to assure the world that our empire as it exists to-day is a provisional thing, that in scarcely any part of the world do we regard it as more than an emergency arrangement, as a necessary association that must give place ultimately to the higher synthesis of a world league, that here we hold as trustees and there on account of strategic considerations that may presently disappear, and that though we will not contemplate the replacement of our flag anywhere by the flag of any other competing nation, though we do hope to hold together with our kin and with those who increasingly share our tradition and our language, nevertheless we are prepared to welcome great renunciations of our present ascendency and privileges in the interests of mankind as a whole. we need to make the world understand that we do not put our nation nor our empire before the commonwealth of man. unless presently we are to follow germany along the tragic path her national vanity and her world ambitions have made for her, that is what we have to make clear now. it is not only our duty to mankind, it is also the sane course for our own preservation. is it not the plain lesson of this stupendous and disastrous war that there is no way to secure civilization from destruction except by an impartial control and protection in the interests of the whole human race, a control representing the best intelligence of mankind, of these main causes of war. ( ) the politically undeveloped tropics; ( ) shipping and international trade; and ( ) small nationalities and all regions in a state of political impotence or confusion? it is our case against the germans that in all these three cases they have subordinated every consideration of justice and the general human welfare to a monstrous national egotism. that argument has a double edge. at present there is a vigorous campaign in america, russia, the neutral countries generally, to represent british patriotism as equally egotistic, and our purpose in this war as a mere parallel to the german purpose. in the same manner, though perhaps with less persistency, france and italy are also caricatured. we are supposed to be grabbing at mesopotamia and palestine, france at syria; italy is represented as pursuing a machiavellian policy towards the unfortunate greek republicans, with her eyes on the greek islands and greece in asia. is it not time that these base imputations were repudiated clearly and conclusively by our alliance? and is it not time that we began to discuss in much more frank and definite terms than has hitherto been done, the nature of the international arrangement that will be needed to secure the safety of such liberated populations as those of palestine, of the arab regions of the old turkish empire, of armenia, of reunited poland, and the like? i do not mean here mere diplomatic discussions and "understandings," i mean such full and plain statements as will be spread through the whole world and grasped and assimilated by ordinary people everywhere, statements by which we, as a people, will be prepared to stand or fall. almost as urgent is the need for some definite statement about africa. general smuts has warned not only the empire, but the whole world of the gigantic threat to civilization that lies in the present division of africa between various keenly competitive european powers, any one of which will be free to misuse the great natural resources at its disposal and to arm millions of black soldiers for aggression. a mere elimination of germany from africa will not solve that difficulty. what we have to eliminate is not this nation or that, but the system of national shoving and elbowing, the treatment of africa as the board for a game of beggar-my-neighbour-and-damn-the-niggers, in which a few syndicates, masquerading as national interests, snatch a profit to the infinite loss of all mankind. we want a lowering of barriers and a unification of interests, we want an international control of these disputed regions, to override nationalist exploitation. the whole world wants it. it is a chastened and reasonable world we live in to-day, and the time for white reason and the wide treatment of these problems is now. finally, the time is drawing near when the egyptian and the nations of india will ask us, "are things going on for ever here as they go on now, or are we to look for the time when we, too, like the africander, the canadian and the australian, will be your confessed and equal partners?" would it not be wise to answer that question in the affirmative before the voice in which it is asked grows thick with anger? in egypt, for example, we are either robbers very like--except for a certain difference in touch--the germans in belgium, or we are honourable trustees. it is our claim and pride to be honourable trustees. nothing so becomes a trustee as a cheerful openness of disposition. great britain has to table her world policy. it is a thing overdue. no doubt we have already a literature of liberal imperialism and a considerable accumulation of declarations by this statesman or that. but what is needed is a formulation much more representative, official and permanent than that, something that can be put beside president wilson's clear rendering of the american idea. we want all our peoples to understand, and we want all mankind to understand that our empire is not a net about the world in which the progress of mankind is entangled, but a self-conscious political system working side by side with the other democracies of the earth, preparing the way for, and prepared at last to sacrifice and merge itself in, the world confederation of free and equal peoples. § this letter was presently followed up by an article in the _daily news_, entitled "a reasonable man's peace." this article provoked a considerable controversy in the imperialist press, and it was reprinted as a pamphlet by a free trade organization, which distributed over , copies. it is particularly interesting to note, in view of what follows it, that it was attacked with great virulence in the _evening news_, the little fierce mud-throwing brother of the _daily mail_. the international situation at the present time is beyond question the most wonderful that the world has ever seen. there is not a country in the world in which the great majority of sensible people are not passionately desirous of peace, of an enduring peace, and--the war goes on. the conditions of peace can now be stated, in general terms that are as acceptable to a reasonable man in berlin as they are to a reasonable man in paris or london or petrograd or constantinople. there are to be no conquests, no domination of recalcitrant populations, no bitter insistence upon vindictive penalties, and there must be something in the nature of a world-wide league of nations to keep the peace securely in future, to "make the world safe for democracy," and maintain international justice. to that the general mind of the world has come to-day. why, then, does the waste and killing go on? why is not the peace conference sitting now? manifestly because a small minority of people in positions of peculiar advantage, in positions of trust and authority, and particularly the german reactionaries, prevent or delay its assembling. the answer which seems to suffice in all the allied countries is that the german imperial government--that the german imperial government alone--stands in the way, that its tradition is incurably a tradition of conquest and aggression, that until german militarism is overthrown, etc. few people in the allied countries will dispute that that is broadly true. but is it the whole and complete truth? is there nothing more to be done on our side? let us put a question that goes to the very heart of the problem. why does the great mass of the german people still cling to its incurably belligerent government? the answer to that question is not overwhelmingly difficult. the german people sticks to its militarist imperialism as mazeppa stuck to his horse; because it is bound to it, and the wolves pursue. the attentive student of the home and foreign propaganda literature of the german government will realize that the case made by german imperialism, the main argument by which it sticks to power, is this, that the allied governments are also imperialist, that they also aim at conquest and aggression, that for germany the choice is world empire or downfall and utter ruin. this is the argument that holds the german people stiffly united. for most men in most countries it would be a convincing argument, strong enough to override considerations of right and wrong. i find that i myself am of this way of thinking, that whether england has done right or wrong in the past--and i have sometimes criticized my country very bitterly--i will not endure the prospect of seeing her at the foot of some victorious foreign nation. neither will any german who matters. very few people would respect a german who did. but the case for the allies is that this great argument by which, and by which alone, the german imperial government keeps its grip upon the german people at the present time, and keeps them facing their enemies, is untrue. the allies declare that they do not want to destroy the german people, they do not want to cripple the german people; they want merely to see certain gaping wounds inflicted by germany repaired, and beyond that reasonable requirement they want nothing but to be assured, completely assured, absolutely assured, against any further aggressions on the part of germany. is that true? our leaders say so, and we believe them. we would not support them if we did not. and if it is true, have the statesmen of the allies made it as transparently and convincingly clear to the german people as possible? that is one of the supreme questions of the present time. we cannot too earnestly examine it. because in the answer to it lies the reason why so many men were killed yesterday on the eastern and western front, so many ships sunk, so much property destroyed, so much human energy wasted for ever upon mere destruction, and why to-morrow and the next day and the day after--through many months yet, perhaps--the same killing and destroying must still go on. in many respects this war has been an amazing display of human inadaptability. the military history of the war has still to be written, the grim story of machinery misunderstood, improvements resisted, antiquated methods persisted in; but the broad facts are already before the public mind. after three years of war the air offensive, the only possible decisive blow, is still merely talked of. not once nor twice only have the western allies had victory within their grasp--and failed to grip it. the british cavalry generals wasted the great invention of the tanks as a careless child breaks a toy. at least equally remarkable is the dragging inadaptability of european statecraft. everywhere the failure of ministers and statesmen to rise to the urgent definite necessities of the present time is glaringly conspicuous. they seem to be incapable even of thinking how the war may be brought to an end. they seem incapable of that plain speaking to the world audience which alone can bring about a peace. they keep on with the tricks and feints of a departed age. both on the side of the allies and on the side of the germans the declarations of public policy remain childishly vague and disingenuous, childishly "diplomatic." they chaffer like happy imbeciles while civilization bleeds to death. it was perhaps to be expected. few, if any, men of over five-and-forty completely readjust themselves to changed conditions, however novel and challenging the changes may be, and nearly all the leading figures in these affairs are elderly men trained in a tradition of diplomatic ineffectiveness, and now overworked and overstrained to a pitch of complete inelasticity. they go on as if it were still . could anything be more palpably shifty and unsatisfactory, more senile, more feebly artful, than the recent utterances of the german chancellor? and, on our own side-- let us examine the three leading points about this peace business in which this jaded statecraft is most apparent. let the reader ask himself the following questions:-- does he know what the allies mean to do with the problem of central africa? it is the clear common sense of the african situation that while these precious regions of raw material remain divided up between a number of competitive european imperialisms, each resolutely set upon the exploitation of its "possessions" to its own advantage and the disadvantage of the others, there can be no permanent peace in the world. there can be permanent peace in the world only when tropical and sub-tropical africa constitute a field free to the commercial enterprise of every one irrespective of nationality, when this is no longer an area of competition between nations. this is possible only under some supreme international control. it requires no special knowledge nor wisdom to see that. a schoolboy can see it. any one but a statesman absolutely flaccid with overstrain can see that. however difficult it may prove to work out in detail, such an international control _must_ therefore be worked out. the manifest solution of the problem of the german colonies in africa is neither to return them to her nor deprive her of them, but to give her a share in the pooled general control of mid-africa. in that way she can be deprived of all power for political mischief in africa without humiliation or economic injury. in that way, too, we can head off--and in no other way can we head off--the power for evil, the power of developing quarrels inherent in "imperialisms" other than german. but has the reader any assurance that this sane solution of the african problem has the support of the allied governments? at best he has only a vague persuasion. and consider how the matter looks "over there." the german government assures the german people that the allies intend to cut off germany from the african supply of raw material. that would mean the practical destruction of german economic life. it is something far more vital to the mass of germans than any question of belgium or alsace-lorraine. it is, therefore, one of the ideas most potent in nerving the overstrained german people to continue their fight. why are we, and why are the german people, not given some definite assurance in this matter? given reparation in europe, is germany to be allowed a fair share in the control and trade of a pooled and neutralized central africa? sooner or later we must come to some such arrangement. why not state it plainly now? a second question is equally essential to any really permanent settlement, and it is one upon which these eloquent but unsatisfactory mouthpieces of ours turn their backs with an equal resolution, and that is the fate of the ottoman empire. what in plain english are we up to there? whatever happens, that humpty dumpty cannot be put back as it was before the war. the idea of the german imperialist, the idea of our own little band of noisy but influential imperialist vulgarians, is evidently a game of grab, a perilous cutting up of these areas into jostling protectorates and spheres of influence, from which either the germans or the allies (according to the side you are on) are to be viciously shut out. on such a basis this war is a war to the death. neither germany, france, britain, italy, nor russia can live prosperously if its trade and enterprise is shut out from this cardinally important area. there is, therefore, no alternative, if we are to have a satisfactory permanent pacification of the world, but local self-development in these regions under honestly conceived international control of police and transit and trade. let it be granted that that will be a difficult control to organize. none the less it has to be attempted. it has to be attempted because _there is no other way of peace_. but once that conception has been clearly formulated, a second great motive why germany should continue fighting will have gone. the third great issue about which there is nothing but fog and uncertainty is the so-called "war after the war," the idea of a permanent economic alliance to prevent the economic recuperation of germany. upon that idea german imperialism, in its frantic effort to keep its tormented people fighting, naturally puts the utmost stress. the threat of war after the war robs the reasonable german of his last inducement to turn on his government and insist upon peace. shut out from all trade, unable to buy food, deprived of raw material, peace would be as bad for germany as war. he will argue naturally enough and reasonably enough that he may as well die fighting as starve. this is a far more vital issue to him than the belgian issue or poland or alsace-lorraine. our statesmen waste their breath and slight our intelligence when these foreground questions are thrust in front of the really fundamental matters. but as the mass of sensible people in every country concerned, in germany just as much as in france or great britain, know perfectly well, unimpeded trade is good for every one except a few rich adventurers, and restricted trade destroys limitless wealth and welfare for mankind to make a few private fortunes or secure an advantage for some imperialist clique. we want an end to this economic strategy, we want an end to this plotting of governmental cliques against the general welfare. in such offences germany has been the chief of sinners, but which among the belligerent nations can throw the first stone? here again the way to the world's peace, the only way to enduring peace, lies through internationalism, through an international survey of commercial treaties, through an international control of inter-state shipping and transport rates. unless the allied statesmen fail to understand the implications of their own general professions they mean that. but why do they not say it plainly? why do they not shout it so compactly and loudly that all germany will hear and understand? why do they justify imperialism to germany? why do they maintain a threatening ambiguity towards germany on all these matters? by doing so they leave germany no choice but a war of desperation. they underline and endorse the claim of german imperialism that this is a war for bare existence. they unify the german people. they prolong the war. § some weeks later i was able, at the invitation of the editor, to carry the controversy against imperialism into the _daily mail_, which has hitherto counted as a strictly imperialist paper. the article that follows was published in the _daily mail_ under the heading, "are we sticking to the point? a discussion of war aims." has this war-aims controversy really got down to essentials? is the purpose of this world conflict from first to last too complicated for brevity, or can we boil it down into a statement compact enough for a newspaper article? and if we can, why is there all this voluminous, uneasy, unquenchable disputation about war aims? as to the first question, i would say that the gist of the dispute between the central powers and the world can be written easily without undue cramping in an ordinary handwriting upon a postcard. it is the second question that needs answering. and the reason why the second question has to be asked and answered is this, that several of the allies, and particularly we british, are not being perfectly plain and simple-minded in our answer to the first, that there is a division among us and in our minds, and that our division is making us ambiguous in our behaviour, that it is weakening and dividing our action and strengthening and consolidating the enemy, and that unless we can drag this slurred-over division of aim and spirit into the light of day and _settle it now_, we are likely to remain double-minded to the end of the war, to split our strength while the war continues and to come out of the settlement at the end with nothing nearly worth the strain and sacrifice it has cost us. and first, let us deal with that postcard and say what is the essential aim of the war, the aim to which all other aims are subsidiary. it is, we have heard repeated again and again by every statesman of importance in every allied country, to defeat and destroy military imperialism, to make the world safe for ever against any such deliberate aggression as germany prepared for forty years and brought to a climax when she crossed the belgian frontier in . we want to make anything of that kind on the part of germany or of any other power henceforth impossible in this world. that is our great aim. whatever other objects may be sought in this war no responsible statesman dare claim them as anything but subsidiary to that; one can say, in fact, this is our sole aim, our other aims being but parts of it. better that millions should die now, we declare, than that hundreds of millions still unborn should go on living, generation after generation, under the black tyranny of this imperialist threat. there is our common agreement. so far, at any rate, we are united. the question i would put to the reader is this: are we all logically, sincerely, and fully carrying out the plain implications of this war aim? or are we to any extent muddling about with it in such a way as to confuse and disorganize our allies, weaken our internal will, and strengthen the enemy? now the plain meaning of this supreme declared war aim is that we are asking germany to alter her ways. we are asking germany to become a different germany. either germany has to be utterly smashed up and destroyed or else germany has to cease to be an aggressive military imperialism. the former alternative is dismissed by most responsible statesmen. they declare that they do not wish to destroy the german people or the german nationality or the civilized life of germany. i will not enlarge here upon the tedium and difficulties such an undertaking would present. i will dismiss it as being not only impossible, but also as an insanely wicked project. the second alternative, therefore, remains as our war aim. i do not see how the sloppiest reasoner can evade that. as we do not want to kill germany we must want to change germany. if we do not want to wipe germany off the face of the earth, then we want germany to become the prospective and trust-worthy friend of her fellow nations. and if words have any meaning at all, that is saying that we are fighting to bring about a revolution in germany. we want germany to become a democratically controlled state, such as is the united states to-day, with open methods and pacific intentions, instead of remaining a clenched fist. if we can bring that about we have achieved our war aim; if we cannot, then this struggle has been for us only such loss and failure as humanity has never known before. but do we, as a nation, stick closely to this clear and necessary, this only possible, meaning of our declared war aim? that great, clear-minded leader among the allies, that englishman who more than any other single man speaks for the whole english-speaking and western-thinking community, president wilson, has said definitely that this is his meaning. america, with him as her spokesman, is under no delusion; she is fighting consciously for a german revolution as the essential war aim. we in europe do not seem to be so lucid. i think myself we have been, and are still, fatally and disastrously not lucid. it is high time, and over, that we cleared our minds and got down to the essentials of the war. we have muddled about in blood and dirt and secondary issues long enough. we in britain are not clear-minded, i would point out, because we are double-minded. no good end is served by trying to ignore in the fancied interests of "unity" a division of spirit and intention that trips us up at every step. we are, we declare, fighting for a complete change in international methods, and we are bound to stick to the logical consequences of that. we have placed ourselves on the side of democratic revolution against autocratic monarchy, and we cannot afford to go on shilly-shallying with that choice. we cannot in these days of black or white play the part of lukewarm friends to freedom. i will not remind the reader here of the horrible vacillations and inconsistencies of policy in greece that have prolonged the war and cost us wealth and lives beyond measure, but president wilson himself has reminded us pungently enough and sufficiently enough of the follies and disingenuousness of our early treatment of the russian revolution. what i want to point out here is the supreme importance of a clear lead in this matter _now_ in order that we should state our war aims effectively. in every war there must be two sets of war aims kept in mind; we ought to know what we mean to do in the event of victory so complete that we can dictate what terms we choose, and we ought to know what, in the event of a not altogether conclusive tussle, are the minimum terms that we should consider justified us in a discontinuance of the tussle. now, unless our leading statesmen are humbugs and unless we are prepared to quarrel with america in the interests of the monarchist institutions of europe, we should, in the event of an overwhelming victory, destroy both the hohenzollern and hapsburg imperialisms, and that means, if it means anything at all and is not mere lying rhetoric, that we should insist upon germany becoming free and democratic, that is to say, in effect if not in form republican, and upon a series of national republics, polish, hungarian, serbo-croatian, bulgarian, and the like, in eastern europe, grouped together if possible into congenial groups--crowned republics it might be in some cases, in the case of the serb for example, but in no case too much crowned--that we should join with this renascent germany and with these thus liberalized powers and with our allies and with the neutrals in one great league of free nations, trading freely with one another, guaranteeing each other freedom, and maintaining a world-wide peace and disarmament and a new reign of law for mankind. if that is not what we are out for, then i do not understand what we are out for; there is dishonesty and trickery and diplomacy and foolery in the struggle, and i am no longer whole-hearted for such a half-hearted war. if after a complete victory we are to bolster up the hohenzollerns, hapsburgs, and their relations, set up a constellation of more cheating little subordinate kings, and reinstate that system of diplomacies and secret treaties and secret understandings, that endless drama of international threatening and plotting, that never-ending arming, that has led us after a hundred years of waste and muddle to the supreme tragedy of this war, then the world is not good enough for me and i shall be glad to close my eyes upon it. i am not alone in these sentiments. i believe that in writing thus i am writing the opinion of the great mass of reasonable british, french, italian, russian, and american men. i believe, too, that this is the desire also of great numbers of germans, and that they would, if they could believe us, gladly set aside their present rulers to achieve this plain common good for mankind. but, the reader will say, what evidence is there of any republican feeling in germany? that is always the objection made to any reasonable discussion of the war--and as most of us are denied access to german papers, it is difficult to produce quotations; and even when one does, there are plenty of fools to suggest and believe that the entire german press is an elaborate camouflage. yet in the german press there is far more criticism of militant imperialism than those who have no access to it can imagine. there is far franker criticism of militarism in germany than there is of reactionary toryism in this country, and it is more free to speak its mind. that, however, is a question by the way. it is not the main thing that i have to say here. what i have to say here is that in great britain--i will not discuss the affairs of any of our allies--there are groups and classes of people, not numerous, not representative, but placed in high and influential positions and capable of free and public utterance, who are secretly and bitterly hostile to this great war aim, which inspires all the allied peoples. these people are permitted to deny--our peculiar censorship does not hamper them--loudly and publicly that we are fighting for democracy and world freedom; "tosh," they say to our dead in the trenches, "you died for a mistake"; they jeer at this idea of a league of nations making an end to war, an idea that has inspired countless brave lads to face death and such pains and hardships as outdo even death itself; they perplex and irritate our allies by propounding schemes for some precious economic league of the british empire--that is to treat all "foreigners" with a common base selfishness and stupid hatred--and they intrigue with the most reactionary forces in russia. these british reactionaries openly, and with perfect impunity, represent our war as a thing as mean and shameful as germany's attack on belgium, and they do it because generosity and justice in the world is as terrible to them as dawn is to the creatures of the night. our tories blundered into this great war, not seeing whither it would take them. in particular it is manifest now by a hundred signs that they dread the fall of monarchy in germany and austria. far rather would they make the most abject surrenders to the kaiser than deal with a renascent republican germany. the recent letter of lord lansdowne, urging a peace with german imperialism, was but a feeler from the pacifist side of this most un-english, and unhappily most influential, section of our public life. lord lansdowne's letter was the letter of a peer who fears revolution more than national dishonour. but it is the truculent wing of this same anti-democratic movement that is far more active. while our sons suffer and die for their comforts and conceit, these people scheme to prevent any communication between the republican and socialist classes in germany and the allied population. at any cost this class of pampered and privileged traitors intend to have peace while the kaiser is still on his throne. if not they face a new world--in which their part will be small indeed. and with the utmost ingenuity they maintain a dangerous vagueness about the allied peace terms, _with the sole object of preventing a revolutionary movement in germany_. let me put it to the reader exactly why our failure to say plainly and exactly and conclusively what we mean to do about a score of points, and particularly about german economic life after the war, paralyses the penitents and friends and helpers that we could now find in germany. let me ask the reader to suppose himself a german in germany at the present time. of course if he was, he is sure that he would hate the kaiser as the source of this atrocious war, he would be bitterly ashamed of the belgian iniquity, of the submarine murders, and a score of such stains upon his national honour; and he would want to alter his national system and make peace. hundreds of thousands of germans are in that mood now. but as most of us have had to learn, a man may be bitterly ashamed of this or that incident in his country's history--what englishman, for instance, can be proud of glencoe?--he may disbelieve in half its institutions and still love his country far too much to suffer the thought of its destruction. i prefer to see my country right, but if it comes to the pinch and my country sins i will fight to save her from the destruction her sins may have brought upon her. that is the natural way of a man. but suppose a german wished to try to start a revolutionary movement in germany at the present time, have we given him any reason at all for supposing that a germany liberated and democratized, but, of course, divided and weakened as she would be bound to be in the process, would get better terms from the allies than a germany still facing them, militant, imperialist, and wicked? he would have no reason for believing anything of the sort. if we allies are honest, then if a revolution started in germany to-day we should if anything lower the price of peace to germany. but these people who pretend to lead us will state nothing of the sort. for them a revolution in germany would be the signal for putting up the price of peace. at any risk they are resolved that that german revolution shall not happen. your sane, good german, let me assert, is up against that as hard as if he was a wicked one. and so, poor devil, he has to put his revolutionary ideas away, they are hopeless ideas for him because of the power of the british reactionary, they are hopeless because of the line we as a nation take in this matter, and he has to go on fighting for his masters. a plain statement of our war aims that did no more than set out honestly and convincingly the terms the allies would make with a democratic republican germany--republican i say, because where a scrap of hohenzollern is left to-day there will be a fresh militarism to-morrow--would absolutely revolutionize the internal psychology of germany. we should no longer face a solid people. we should have replaced the false issue of germany and britain fighting for the hegemony of europe, the lie upon which the german government has always traded, and in which our extreme tory press has always supported the german government, by the true issue, which is freedom versus imperialism, the league of nations versus that net of diplomatic roguery and of aristocratic, plutocratic, and autocratic greed and conceit which dragged us all into this vast welter of bloodshed and loss. vi the war aims of the western allies here, quite compactly, is the plain statement of the essential cause and process of the war to which i would like to see the allied foreign offices subscribe, and which i would like to have placed plainly before the german mind. it embodies much that has been learnt and thought out since this war began, and i think it is much truer and more fundamental than that mere raging against german "militarism," upon which our politicians and press still so largely subsist. the enormous development of war methods and war material within the last fifty years has made war so horrible and destructive that it is impossible to contemplate a future for mankind from which it has not been eliminated; the increased facilities of railway, steamship, automobile travel and air navigation have brought mankind so close together that ordinary human life is no longer safe anywhere in the boundaries of the little states in which it was once secure. in some fashion it is now necessary to achieve sufficient human unity to establish a world peace and save the future of mankind. in one or other of two ways only is that unification possible. either men may set up a common league to keep the peace of the earth, or one state must ultimately become so great and powerful as to repeat for all the world what rome did for europe two thousand years ago. either we must have human unity by a league of existing states or by an imperial conquest. the former is now the declared aim of our country and its allies; the latter is manifestly the ambition of the present rulers of germany. whatever the complications may have been in the earlier stages of the war, due to treaties that are now dead letters and agreements that are extinct, the essential issue now before every man in the world is this: is the unity of mankind to be the unity of a common freedom, in which every race and nationality may participate with complete self-respect, playing its part, according to its character, in one great world community, or is it to be reached--and it can only be so reached through many generations of bloodshed and struggle still, even if it can be ever reached in this way at all--through conquest and a german hegemony? while the rulers of germany to-day are more openly aggressive and imperialist than they were in august, , the allies arrayed against them have made great progress in clearing up and realizing the instincts and ideals which brought them originally into the struggle. the german government offers the world to-day a warring future in which germany alone is to be secure and powerful and proud. _mankind will not endure that_. the allies offer the world more and more definitely the scheme of an organized league of free nations, a rule of law and justice about the earth. to fight for that and for no other conceivable end, the united states of america, with the full sympathy and co-operation of every state in the western hemisphere, has entered the war. the british empire, in the midst of the stress of the great war, has set up in dublin a convention of irishmen of all opinions with the fullest powers of deciding upon the future of their country. if ireland were not divided against herself she could be free and equal with england to-morrow. it is the open intention of great britain to develop representative government, where it has not hitherto existed, in india and egypt, to go on steadfastly increasing the share of the natives of these countries in the government of their own lands, until they too become free and equal members of the world league. neither france nor italy nor britain nor america has ever tampered with the shipping of other countries except in time of war, and the trade of the british empire has been impartially open to all the world. the extra-national "possessions," the so-called "subject nations" in the empires of britain, france, italy, and japan, are, in fact, possessions held in trust against the day when the league of free nations will inherit for mankind. is it to be union by conquest or is it to be union by league? for any sort of man except the german the question is, will you be a free citizen or will you be an underling to the german imperialism? for the german now the question is a far graver and more tragic one. for him it is this: "you belong to a people not now increasing very rapidly, a numerous people, but not so numerous as some of the great peoples of the world, a people very highly trained, very well drilled and well armed, perhaps as well trained and drilled and equipped as ever it will be. the collapse of russian imperialism has made you safe if now you can get peace, and you _can_ get a peace now that will neither destroy you nor humiliate you nor open up the prospect of fresh wars. the allies offer you such a peace. to accept it, we must warn you plainly, means refusing to go on with the manifest intentions of your present rulers, which are to launch you and your children and your children's children upon a career of struggle for war predominance, which may no doubt inflict untold deprivations and miseries upon the rest of mankind, but whose end in the long run, for germany and things german, can be only judgment and death." in such terms as these the oceanic allies could now state their war-will and carry the world straightway into a new phase of human history. they could but they do not. for alas! not one of them is free from the entanglements of past things; when we look for the wisdom of statesmen we find the cunning of politicians; when open speech and plain reason might save the world, courts, bureaucrats, financiers and profiteers conspire. vii the future of monarchy from the very outset of this war it was manifest to the clear-headed observer that only the complete victory of german imperialism could save the dynastic system in europe from the fate that it had challenged. that curious system had been the natural and unplanned development of the political complications of the seventeenth and eighteenth centuries. two systems of monarchies, the bourbon system and the german, then ruled europe between them. with the latter was associated the tradition of the european unity under the roman empire; all the germanic monarchs had an itch to be called caesar. the kaiser of the austro-hungarian empire and the czar had, so to speak, the prior claim to the title. the prussian king set up as a caesar in ; queen victoria became the caesar of india (kaisir-i-hind) under the auspices of lord beaconsfield, and last and least, that most detestable of all coburgers, ferdinand of bulgaria, gave kaiserism a touch of quaint absurdity by setting up as czar of bulgaria. the weakening of the bourbon system by the french revolution and the napoleonic adventure cleared the way for the complete ascendancy of the germanic monarchies in spite of the breaking away of the united states from that system. after , a constellation of quasi-divine teutonic monarchs, of which the german emperor, the german queen victoria, the german czar, were the greatest stars, formed a caste apart, intermarried only among themselves, dominated the world and was regarded with a mystical awe by the ignorant and foolish in most european countries. the marriages, the funerals, the coronations, the obstetrics of this amazing breed of idols were matters of almost universal worship. the czar and queen victoria professed also to be the heads of religion upon earth. the court-centered diplomacies of the more firmly rooted monarchies steered all the great liberating movements of the nineteenth century into monarchical channels. italy was made a monarchy; greece, the motherland of republics, was handed over to a needy scion of the danish royal family; the sturdy peasants of bulgaria suffered from a kindred imposition. even norway was saddled with as much of a king as it would stand, as a condition of its independence. at the dawn of the twentieth century republican freedom seemed a remote dream beyond the confines of switzerland and france--and it had no very secure air in france. reactionary scheming has been an intermittent fever in the french republic for six and forty years. the french foreign office is still undemocratic in tradition and temper. but for the restless disloyalty of the hohenzollerns this german kingly caste might be dominating the world to this day. of course the stability of this teutonic dynastic system in europe--which will presently seem to the student of history so curious a halting-place upon the way to human unity--rested very largely upon the maintenance of peace. it was the failure to understand this on the part of the german and bulgarian rulers in particular that has now brought all monarchy to the question. the implicit theory that supported the intermarrying german royal families in europe was that their inter-relationship and their aloofness from their subjects was a mitigation of national and racial animosities. in the days when queen victoria was the grandmother of europe this was a plausible argument. king, czar and emperor, or emperor and emperor would meet, and it was understood that these meetings were the lubrication of european affairs. the monarchs married largely, conspicuously, and very expensively for our good. royal funerals, marriages, christenings, coronations, and jubilees interrupted traffic and stimulated trade everywhere. they seemed to give a _raison d'être_ for mankind. it is the emperor william and the czar ferdinand who have betrayed not only humanity but their own strange caste by shattering all these pleasant illusions. the wisdom of kant is justified, and we know now that kings cause wars. it needed the shock of the great war to bring home the wisdom of that old scotchman of königsberg to the mind of the ordinary man. moreover in support of the dynastic system was the fact that it did exist as the system in possession, and all prosperous and intelligent people are chary of disturbing existing things. life is full of vestigial structures, and it is a long way to logical perfection. let us keep on, they would argue, with what we have. and another idea which, rightly or wrongly, made men patient with the emperors and kings was an exaggerated idea of the insecurity of republican institutions. you can still hear very old dull men say gravely that "kings are better than pronunciamentos"; there was an article upon greece to this effect quite recently in that uncertain paper _the new statesman_. then a kind of illustrative gesture would be made to the south american republics, although the internal disturbances of the south american republics have diminished to very small dimensions in the last three decades and although pronunciamentos rarely disturb the traffic in switzerland, the united states, or france. but there can be no doubt that the influence of the germanic monarchy up to the death of queen victoria upon british thought was in the direction of estrangement from the two great modern republics and in the direction of assistance and propitiation to germany. we surrendered heligoland, we made great concessions to german colonial ambitions, we allowed ourselves to be jockeyed into a phase of dangerous hostility to france. a practice of sneering at things american has died only very recently out of english journalism and literature, as any one who cares to consult the bound magazines of the 'seventies and 'eighties may soon see for himself. it is well too in these days not to forget colonel marchand, if only to remember that such a clash must never recur. but in justice to our monarchy we must remember that after the death of queen victoria, the spirit, if not the forms, of british kingship was greatly modified by the exceptional character and ability of king edward vii. he was curiously anti-german in spirit; he had essentially democratic instincts; in a few precious years he restored good will between france and great britain. it is no slight upon his successor to doubt whether any one could have handled the present opportunities and risks of monarchy in great britain as edward could have handled them. because no doubt if monarchy is to survive in the british empire it must speedily undergo the profoundest modification. the old state of affairs cannot continue. the european dynastic system, based upon the intermarriage of a group of mainly german royal families, is dead to-day; it is freshly dead, but it is as dead as the rule of the incas. it is idle to close our eyes to this fact. the revolution in russia, the setting up of a republic in china, demonstrating the ripeness of the east for free institutions, the entry of the american republics into world politics--these things slam the door on any idea of working back to the old nineteenth-century system. people calls to people. "no peace with the hohenzollerns" is a cry that carries with it the final repudiation of emperors and kings. the man in the street will assure you he wants no diplomatic peace. beyond the unstable shapes of the present the political forms of the future rise now so clearly that they are the common talk of men. kant's lucid thought told us long ago that the peace of the world demanded a world union of republics. that is a commonplace remark now in every civilized community. the stars in their courses, the logic of circumstances, the everyday needs and everyday intelligence of men, all these things march irresistibly towards a permanent world peace based on democratic republicanism. the question of the future of monarchy is not whether it will be able to resist and overcome that trend; it has as little chance of doing that as the lama of thibet has of becoming emperor of the earth. it is whether it will resist openly, become the centre and symbol of a reactionary resistance, and have to be abolished and swept away altogether everywhere, as the romanoffs have already been swept away in russia, or whether it will be able in this country and that to adapt itself to the necessities of the great age that dawns upon mankind, to take a generous and helpful attitude towards its own modification, and so survive, for a time at any rate, in that larger air. it is the fashion for the apologists of monarchy in the british empire to speak of the british system as a crowned republic. that is an attractive phrase to people of republican sentiments. it is quite conceivable that the british empire may be able to make that phrase a reality and that the royal line may continue, a line of hereditary presidents, with some of the ancient trappings and something of the picturesque prestige that, as the oldest monarchy in europe, it has to-day. two kings in europe have already gone far towards realizing this conception of a life president; both the king of italy and the king of norway live as simply as if they were in the white house and are far more accessible. along that line the british monarchy must go if it is not to go altogether. will it go along those lines? there are many reasons for hoping that it will do so. the _times_ has styled the crown the "golden link" of the empire. australians and canadians, it was argued, had little love for the motherland but the greatest devotion to the sovereign, and still truer was this of indians, egyptians, and the like. it might be easy to press this theory of devotion too far, but there can be little doubt that the british crown does at present stand as a symbol of unity over diversity such as no other crown, unless it be that of austria-hungary, can be said to do. the british crown is not like other crowns; it may conceivably take a line of its own and emerge--possibly a little more like a hat and a little less like a crown--from trials that may destroy every other monarchial system in the world. now many things are going on behind the scenes, many little indications peep out upon the speculative watcher and vanish again; but there is very little that is definite to go upon at the present time to determine how far the monarchy will rise to the needs of this great occasion. certain acts and changes, the initiative to which would come most gracefully from royalty itself, could be done at this present time. they may be done quite soon. upon the doing of them wait great masses of public opinion. the first of these things is for the british monarchy to sever itself definitely from the german dynastic system, with which it is so fatally entangled by marriage and descent, and to make its intention of becoming henceforth more and more british in blood as well as spirit, unmistakably plain. this idea has been put forth quite prominently in the _times_. the king has been asked to give his countenance to the sweeping away of all those restrictions first set up by george the third, upon the marriage of the royal princes with british, french and american subjects. the british empire is very near the limit of its endurance of a kingly caste of germans. the choice of british royalty between its peoples and its cousins cannot be indefinitely delayed. were it made now publicly and boldly, there can be no doubt that the decision would mean a renascence of monarchy, a considerable outbreak of royalist enthusiasm in the empire. there are times when a king or queen must need be dramatic and must a little anticipate occasions. it is not seemly to make concessions perforce; kings may not make obviously unwilling surrenders; it is the indecisive kings who lose their crowns. no doubt the anglicization of the royal family by national marriages would gradually merge that family into the general body of the british peerage. its consequent loss of distinction might be accompanied by an associated fading out of function, until the king became at last hardly more functional than was the late duke of norfolk as premier peer. possibly that is the most desirable course from many points of view. it must be admitted that the abandonment of marriages within the royal caste and a bold attempt to introduce a strain of british blood in the royal family does not in itself fulfil all that is needed if the british king is indeed to become the crowned president of his people and the nominal and accepted leader of the movement towards republican institutions. a thing that is productive of an enormous amount of republican talk in great britain is the suspicion--i believe an ill-founded suspicion--that there are influences at work at court antagonistic to republican institutions in friendly states and that there is a disposition even to sacrifice the interests of the liberal allies to dynastic sympathies. these things are not to be believed, but it would be a feat of vast impressiveness if there were something like a royal and public repudiation of the weaknesses of cousinship. the behaviour of the allies towards that great balkan statesman venizelos, the sacrificing of the friendly greek republicans in favour of the manifestly treacherous king of greece, has produced the deepest shame and disgust in many quarters that are altogether friendly, that are even warmly "loyal" to the british monarchy. and in a phase of tottering thrones it is very undesirable that the british habit of asylum should be abused. we have already in england the dethroned monarch of a friendly republic; he is no doubt duly looked after. in the future there may be a shaking of the autumnal boughs and a shower of emperors and kings. we do not want great britain to become a hotbed of reactionary plotting and the starting-point of restoration raids into the territories of emancipated peoples. this is particularly desirable if presently, after the kaiser's death--which by all the statistics of hohenzollern mortality cannot be delayed now for many years--the present crown prince goes a-wandering. we do not want any german ex-monarchs; sweden is always open to them and friendly, and to sweden they ought to go; and particularly do british people dread an irruption of hohenzollerns or coburgers. almost as undesirable would be the arrival of the czar and czarina. it is supremely important that no wind of suspicion should blow between us and the freedom of russia. after the war even more than during the war will the enemy be anxious to sow discord between the great russian-speaking and english-speaking democracies. quite apart from the scandal of their inelegant domesticities, the establishment of the czar and czarina in england with frequent and easy access to our royal family may be extraordinarily unfortunate for the british monarchy. i will confess a certain sympathy for the czar myself. he is not an evil figure, he is not a strong figure, but he has that sort of weakness, that failure in decision, which trails revolution in its wake. he has ended one dynasty already. the british royal family owes it to itself, that he bring not the infection of his misfortunes to windsor. the security of the british monarchy lies in such a courageous severance of its destinies from the teutonic dynastic system. will it make that severance? there i share an almost universal ignorance. the loyalty of the british is not to what kings are too prone to call "my person," not to a chosen and admired family, but to a renascent mankind. we have fought in this war for belgium, for france, for general freedom, for civilization and the whole future of mankind, far more than for ourselves. we have not fought for a king. we are discovering in that spirit of human unity that lies below the idea of a league of free nations the real invisible king of our heart and race. but we will very gladly go on with our task under a nominal king unless he hampers us in the task that grows ever more plainly before us. ... that, i think, is a fair statement of british public opinion on this question. but every day when i am in london i walk past buckingham palace to lunch at my club, and i look at that not very expressive façade and wonder--and we all wonder--what thoughts are going on behind it and what acts are being conceived there. out of it there might yet come some gesture of acceptance magnificent enough to set beside president wilson's magnificent declaration of war. ... these are things in the scales of fate. i will not pretend to be able to guess even which way the scales will swing. viii the plain necessity for a league great as the sacrifices of prejudice and preconception which any effective realization of this idea of a league of free nations will demand, difficult as the necessary delegations of sovereignty must be, none the less are such sacrifices and difficulties unavoidable. people in france and italy and great britain and germany alike have to subdue their minds to the realization that some such league is now a necessity for them if their peace and national life are to continue. there is no prospect before them but either some such league or else great humiliation and disastrous warfare driving them down towards social dissolution; and for the united states it is only a question of a little longer time before the same alternatives have to be faced. whether this war ends in the complete defeat of germany and german imperialism, or in a revolutionary modernization of germany, or in a practical triumph for the hohenzollerns, are considerations that affect the nature and scope of the league, but do not affect its essential necessity. in the first two cases the league of free nations will be a world league including germany as a principal partner, in the latter case the league of free nations will be a defensive league standing steadfast against the threat of a world imperialism, and watching and restraining with one common will the homicidal maniac in its midst. but in all these cases there can be no great alleviation of the evils that now blacken and threaten to ruin human life altogether, unless all the civilized and peace-seeking peoples of the world are pledged and locked together under a common law and a common world policy. there must rather be an intensification of these evils. there must be wars more evil than this war continuing this war, and more destructive of civilized life. there can be no peace and hope for our race but an organized peace and hope, armed against disturbance as a state is armed against mad, ferocious, and criminal men. now, there are two chief arguments, running one into the other, for the necessity of merging our existing sovereignties into a greater and, if possible, a world-wide league. the first is the present geographical impossibility of nearly all the existing european states and empires; and the second is the steadily increasing disproportion between the tortures and destructions inflicted by modern warfare and any possible advantages that may arise from it. underlying both arguments is the fact that modern developments of mechanical science have brought the nations of europe together into too close a proximity. this present war, more than anything else, is a violent struggle between old political ideas and new antagonistic conditions. it is the unhappy usage of our schools and universities to study the history of mankind only during periods of mechanical unprogressiveness. the historical ideas of europe range between the time when the greeks were going about the world on foot or horseback or in galleys or sailing ships to the days when napoleon, wellington, and nelson were going about at very much the same pace in much the same vehicles and vessels. at the advent of steam and electricity the muse of history holds her nose and shuts her eyes. science will study and get the better of a modern disease, as, for example, sleeping sickness, in spite of the fact that it has no classical standing; but our history schools would be shocked at the bare idea of studying the effect of modern means of communication upon administrative areas, large or small. this defect in our historical training has made our minds politically sluggish. we fail to adapt readily enough. in small things and great alike we are trying to run the world in areas marked out in or before the eighteenth century, regardless of the fact that a man or an army or an aeroplane can get in a few minutes or a few hours to points that it would have taken days or weeks to reach under the old foot-and-horse conditions. that matters nothing to the learned men who instruct our statesmen and politicians. it matters everything from the point of view of social and economic and political life. and the grave fact to consider is that all the great states of europe, except for the unification of italy and germany, are still much of the size and in much the same boundaries that made them strong and safe in the eighteenth century, that is to say, in the closing years of the foot-horse period. the british empire grew and was organized under those conditions, and had to modify itself only a little to meet the needs of steam shipping. all over the world are its linked possessions and its ports and coaling stations and fastnesses on the trade routes. and british people still look at the red-splashed map of the world with the profoundest self-satisfaction, blind to the swift changes that are making that scattered empire--if it is to remain an isolated system--almost the most dangerous conceivable. let me ask the british reader who is disposed to sneer at the league of nations and say he is very well content with the empire, thank you, to get his atlas and consider one or two propositions. and, first, let him think of aviation. i can assure him, because upon this matter i have some special knowledge, that long-distance air travel for men, for letters and light goods and for bombs, is continually becoming more practicable. but the air routes that air transport will follow must go over a certain amount of land, for this reason that every few hundred miles at the longest the machine must come down for petrol. a flying machine with a safe non-stop range of miles is still a long way off. it may indeed be permanently impracticable because there seems to be an upward limit to the size of an aeroplane engine. and now will the reader take the map of the world and study the air routes from london to the rest of the empire? he will find them perplexing--if he wants them to be "all-red." happily this is not a british difficulty only. will he next study the air routes from paris to the rest of the french possessions? and, finally, will he study the air routes out of germany to anywhere? the germans are as badly off as any people. but we are all badly off. so far as world air transit goes any country can, if it chooses, choke any adjacent country. directly any trade difficulty breaks out, any country can begin a vexatious campaign against its neighbour's air traffic. it can oblige it to alight at the frontier, to follow prescribed routes, to land at specified places on those routes and undergo examinations that will waste precious hours. but so far as i can see, no european statesman, german or allied, have begun to give their attention to this amazing difficulty. without a great pooling of air control, either a world-wide pooling or a pooling at least of the atlantic-mediterranean allies in one air league, the splendid peace possibilities of air transport--and they are indeed splendid--must remain very largely a forbidden possibility to mankind. and as a second illustration of the way in which changing conditions are altering political questions, let the reader take his atlas and consider the case of that impregnable fastness, that great naval station, that key to the mediterranean, gibraltar. british boys are brought up on gibraltar and the gibraltar idea. to the british imagination gibraltar is almost as sacred a national symbol as the lions in trafalgar square. now, in his atlas the reader will almost certainly find an inset map of this valuable possession, coloured bright red. the inset map will have attached to it a small scale of miles. from that he will be able to satisfy himself that there is not an inch of the rock anywhere that is not within five miles or less of spanish land, and that there is rather more than a semicircle of hills round the rock within a range of seven or eight miles. that is much less than the range of a sixteen-inch gun. in other words, the spaniards are in a position to knock gibraltar to bits whenever they want to do so, or to smash and sink any ships in its harbour. they can hit it on every side. consider, moreover, that there are long sweeps of coast north, south, and west of the rock, from which torpedoes could be discharged at any ship that approached. inquire further where on the rock an aeroplane can land. and having ascertained these things, ask yourself what is the present value of gibraltar? i will not multiply disagreeable instances of this sort, though it would be easy enough to do so in the case both of france and italy as well as of great britain. i give them as illustrations of the way in which everywhere old securities and old arrangements must be upset by the greater range of modern things. let us get on to more general conditions. there is not a capital city in europe that twenty years from now will not be liable to a bombing raid done by hundreds or even thousands of big aeroplanes, upon or even before a declaration of war, and there is not a line of sea communication that will not be as promptly interrupted by the hostile submarine. i point these things out here only to carry home the fact that the ideas of sovereign isolation and detachment that were perfectly valid in , the self-sufficient empire, imperial zollverein and all that stuff, and damn the foreigner! are now, because of the enormous changes in range of action and facility of locomotion that have been going on, almost as wild--or would be if we were not so fatally accustomed to them--and quite as dangerous, as the idea of setting up a free and sovereign state in the isle of dogs. all the european empires are becoming vulnerable at every point. surely the moral is obvious. the only wise course before the allied european powers now is to put their national conceit in their pockets and to combine to lock up their foreign policy, their trade interests, and all their imperial and international interests into a league so big as to be able to withstand the most sudden and treacherous of blows. and surely the only completely safe course for them and mankind--hard and nearly impossible though it may seem at the present juncture--is for them to lock up into one unity with a democratized germany and with all the other states of the earth into one peace-maintaining league. if the reader will revert again to his atlas he will see very clearly that a strongly consolidated league of free nations, even if it consisted only of our present allies, would in itself form a combination with so close a system of communication about the world, and so great an economic advantage, that in the long run it could oblige germany and the rest of the world to come in to its council. divided the oceanic allies are, to speak plainly, geographical rags and nakedness; united they are a world. to set about organizing that league now, with its necessary repudiation on the part of britain, france, and italy, of a selfish and, it must be remembered in the light of these things i have but hinted at here, a _now hopelessly unpracticable imperialism_, would, i am convinced, lead quite rapidly to a great change of heart in germany and to a satisfactory peace. but even if i am wrong in that, then all the stronger is the reason for binding, locking and uniting the allied powers together. it is the most dangerous of delusions for each and all of them to suppose that either britain, france or italy can ever stand alone again and be secure. and turning now to the other aspect of these consequences of the development of material science, it is too often assumed that this war is being as horrible and destructive as war can be. there never was so great a delusion. this war has only begun to be horrible. no doubt it is much more horrible and destructive than any former war, but even in comparison with the full possibilities of known and existing means of destruction it is still a mild war. perhaps it will never rise to its full possibilities. at the present stage there is not a combatant, except perhaps america, which is not now practising a pinching economy of steel and other mechanical material. the germans are running short of first-class flying men, and if we and our allies continue to press the air attack, and seek out and train our own vastly greater resources of first quality young airmen, the germans may come as near to being "driven out of the air" as is possible. i am a firmer believer than ever i was in the possibility of a complete victory over germany--through and by the air. but the occasional dropping of a big bomb or so in london is not to be taken as anything but a minimum display of what air war can do. in a little while now our alliance should be in a position to commence day and night continuous attacks upon the rhine towns. not hour-long raids such as london knows, but week-long raids. then and then only shall we be able to gauge the really horrible possibilities of the air war. they are in our hands and not in the hands of the germans. in addition the germans are at a huge disadvantage in their submarine campaign. their submarine campaign is only the feeble shadow of what a submarine campaign might be. turning again to the atlas the reader can see for himself that the german and austrian submarines are obliged to come out across very narrow fronts. a fence of mines less than three hundred miles long and two hundred feet deep would, for example, completely bar their exit through the north sea. the u-boats run the gauntlet of that long narrow sea and pay a heavy toll to it. if only our admiralty would tell the german public what that toll is now, there would come a time when german seamen would no longer consent to go down in them. consider, however, what a submarine campaign would be for great britain if instead of struggling through this bottle-neck it were conducted from the coast of norway, where these pests might harbour in a hundred fiords. consider too what this weapon may be in twenty years' time in the hands of a country in the position of the united states. great britain, if she is not altogether mad, will cease to be an island as soon as possible after the war, by piercing the channel tunnel--how different our transport problem would be if we had that now!--but such countries as australia, new zealand, and japan, directly they are involved in the future in a war against any efficient naval power with an unimpeded sea access, will be isolated forthwith. i cannot conceive that any of the great ocean powers will rest content until such a tremendous possibility of blockade as the submarine has created is securely vested in the hands of a common league beyond any power of sudden abuse. it must always be remembered that this war is a mechanical war conducted by men whose discipline renders them uninventive, who know little or nothing of mechanism, who are for the most part struggling blindly to get things back to the conditions for which they were trained, to napoleonic conditions, with infantry and cavalry and comparatively light guns, the so-called "war of manoeuvres." it is like a man engaged in a desperate duel who keeps on trying to make it a game of cricket. most of these soldiers detest every sort of mechanical device; the tanks, for example, which, used with imagination, might have given the british and french overwhelming victory on the western front, were subordinated to the usual cavalry "break through" idea. i am not making any particular complaint against the british and french generals in saying this. it is what must happen to any country which entrusts its welfare to soldiers. a soldier has to be a severely disciplined man, and a severely disciplined man cannot be a versatile man, and on the whole the british army has been as receptive to novelties as any. the german generals have done no better; indeed, they have not done so well as the generals of the allies in this respect. but after the war, if the world does not organize rapidly for peace, then as resources accumulate a little, the mechanical genius will get to work on the possibilities of these ideas that have merely been sketched out in this war. we shall get big land ironclads which will smash towns. we shall get air offensives--let the experienced london reader think of an air raid going on hour after hour, day after day--that will really burn out and wreck towns, that will drive people mad by the thousand. we shall get a very complete cessation of sea transit. even land transit may be enormously hampered by aerial attack. i doubt if any sort of social order will really be able to stand the strain of a fully worked out modern war. we have still, of course, to feel the full shock effects even of this war. most of the combatants are going on, as sometimes men who have incurred grave wounds will still go on for a time--without feeling them. the educational, biological, social, economic punishment that has already been taken by each of the european countries is, i feel, very much greater than we yet realize. russia, the heaviest and worst-trained combatant, has indeed shown the effects and is down and sick, but in three years' time all europe will know far better than it does now the full price of this war. and the shock effects of the next war will have much the same relation to the shock effects of this, as the shock of breaking a finger-nail has to the shock of crushing in a body. in russia to-day we have seen, not indeed social revolution, not the replacement of one social order by another, but disintegration. let not national conceit blind us. germany, france, italy, britain are all slipping about on that same slope down which russia has slid. which goes first, it is hard to guess, or whether we shall all hold out to some kind of peace. at present the social discipline of france and britain seems to be at least as good as that of germany, and the _morale_ of the rhineland and bavaria has probably to undergo very severe testing by systematized and steadily increasing air punishment as this year goes on. the next war--if a next war comes--will see all germany, from end to end, vulnerable to aircraft.... such are the two sets of considerations that will, i think, ultimately prevail over every prejudice and every difficulty in the way of the league of free nations. existing states have become impossible as absolutely independent sovereignties. the new conditions bring them so close together and give them such extravagant powers of mutual injury that they must either sink national pride and dynastic ambitions in subordination to the common welfare of mankind or else utterly shatter one another. it becomes more and more plainly a choice between the league of free nations and a famished race of men looting in search of non-existent food amidst the smouldering ruins of civilization. in the end i believe that the common sense of mankind will prefer a revision of its ideas of nationality and imperialism, to the latter alternative. it may take obstinate men a few more years yet of blood and horror to learn this lesson, but for my own part i cherish an obstinate belief in the potential reasonableness of mankind. ix democracy all the talk, all the aspiration and work that is making now towards this conception of a world securely at peace, under the direction of a league of free nations, has interwoven with it an idea that is often rather felt than understood, the idea of democracy. not only is justice to prevail between race and race and nation and nation, but also between man and man; there is to be a universal respect for human life throughout the earth; the world, in the words of president wilson, is to be made "safe for democracy." i would like to subject that word to a certain scrutiny to see whether the things we are apt to think and assume about it correspond exactly with the feeling of the word. i would like to ask what, under modern conditions, does democracy mean, and whether we have got it now anywhere in the world in its fulness and completion. and to begin with i must have a quarrel with the word itself. the eccentricities of modern education make us dependent for a number of our primary political terms upon those used by the thinkers of the small greek republics of ancient times before those petty states collapsed, through sheer political ineptitude, before the macedonians. they thought in terms of states so small that it was possible to gather all the citizens together for the purposes of legislation. these states were scarcely more than what we english might call sovereign urban districts. fast communications were made by runners; even the policeman with a bicycle of the modern urban district was beyond the scope of the greek imagination. there were no railways, telegraphs, telephones, books or newspapers, there was no need for the state to maintain a system of education, and the affairs of the state were so simple that they could be discussed and decided by the human voice and open voting in an assembly of all the citizens. that is what democracy, meant. in andorra, or perhaps in canton uri, such democracy may still be possible; in any other modern state it cannot exist. the opposite term to it was oligarchy, in which a small council of men controlled the affairs of the state. oligarchy, narrowed down to one man, became monarchy. if you wished to be polite to an oligarchy you called it an aristocracy; if you wished to point out that a monarch was rather by way of being self-appointed, you called him a tyrant. an oligarchy with a property qualification was a plutocracy. now the modern intelligence, being under a sort of magic slavery to the ancient greeks, has to adapt all these terms to the problems of states so vast and complex that they have the same relation to the greek states that the anatomy of a man has to the anatomy of a jellyfish. they are not only greater in extent and denser in population, but they are increasingly innervated by more and more rapid means of communication and excitement. in the classical past--except for such special cases as the feeding of rome with egyptian corn--trade was a traffic in luxuries or slaves, war a small specialized affair of infantry and horsemen in search of slaves and loot, and empire the exaction of tribute. the modern state must conduct its enormous businesses through a system of ministries; its vital interests go all round the earth; nothing that any ancient greek would have recognized as democracy is conceivable in a great modern state. it is absolutely necessary, if we are to get things clear in our minds about what democracy really means in relation to modern politics, first to make a quite fresh classification in order to find what items there really are to consider, and then to inquire which seem to correspond more or less closely in spirit with our ideas about ancient democracy. now there are two primary classes of idea about government in the modern world depending upon our conception of the political capacity of the common man. we may suppose he is a microcosm, with complete ideas and wishes about the state and the world, or we may suppose that he isn't. we may believe that the common man can govern, or we may believe that he can't. we may think further along the first line that he is so wise and good and right that we only have to get out of his way for him to act rightly and for the good of all mankind, or we may doubt it. and if we doubt that we may still believe that, though perhaps "you can fool all the people some of the time, and some of the people all the time," the common man, expressing himself by a majority vote, still remains the secure source of human wisdom. but next, while we may deny this universal distribution of political wisdom, we may, if we are sufficiently under the sway of modern ideas about collective psychology, believe that it is necessary to poke up the political indifference and inability of the common man as much as possible, to thrust political ideas and facts upon him, to incite him to a watchful and critical attitude towards them, and above all to secure his assent to the proceedings of the able people who are managing public affairs. or finally, we may treat him as a thing to be ruled and not consulted. let me at this stage make out a classificatory diagram of these elementary ideas of government in a modern country. class i. it is supposed that the common man _can_ govern: ( ) without further organization (anarchy); ( ) through a majority vote by delegates. class ii. it is supposed that the common man _cannot_ govern, and that government therefore must be through the agency of able persons who may be classified under one of the following sub-heads, either as ( ) persons elected by the common man because he believes them to be persons able to govern--just as he chooses his doctors as persons able to secure health, and his electrical engineers as persons able to attend to his tramways, lighting, etc., etc.; ( ) persons of a special class, as, for example, persons born and educated to rule (e.g. _aristocracy_), or rich business adventurers _(plutocracy)_ who rule without consulting the common man at all. to which two sub-classes we may perhaps add a sort of intermediate stage between them, namely: ( ) persons elected by a special class of voter. monarchy may be either a special case of class ii.( ), ( ) or ( ), in which the persons who rule have narrowed down in number to one person, and the duration of monarchy may be either for life or a term of years. these two classes and the five sub-classes cover, i believe, all the elementary political types in our world. now in the constitution of a modern state, because of the conflict and confusion of ideas, all or most of these five sub-classes may usually be found intertwined. the british constitution, for instance, is a complicated tangle of arrangements, due to a struggle between the ideas of class i.( ), class ii.( ), tending to become class ii.( ) and class ii.( ) in both its aristocratic and monarchist forms. the american constitution is largely dominated by class i.( ), from which it breaks away in the case of the president to a short-term monarchist aspect of class ii.( ). i will not elaborate this classification further. i have made it here in order to render clear first, that what we moderns mean by democracy is not what the greeks meant at all, that is to say, direct government by the assembly of all the citizens, and secondly and more important, that the word "democracy" is being used very largely in current discussion, so that it is impossible to say in any particular case whether the intention is class i.( ) or class ii.( ), and that we have to make up our minds whether we mean, if i may coin two phrases, "delegate democracy" or "selective democracy," or some definite combination of these two, when we talk about "democracy," before we can get on much beyond a generous gesture of equality and enfranchisement towards our brother man. the word is being used, in fact, confusingly for these two quite widely different things. now, it seems to me that though there has been no very clear discussion of the issue between those two very opposite conceptions of democracy, largely because of the want of proper distinctive terms, there has nevertheless been a wide movement of public opinion away from "delegate democracy" and towards "selective democracy." people have gone on saying "democracy," while gradually changing its meaning from the former to the latter. it is notable in great britain, for example, that while there has been no perceptible diminution in our faith in democracy, there has been a growing criticism of "party" and "politicians," and a great weakening in the power and influence of representatives and representative institutions. there has been a growing demand for personality and initiative in elected persons. the press, which was once entirely subordinate politically to parliamentary politics, adopts an attitude towards parliament and party leaders nowadays which would have seemed inconceivable insolence in the days of lord palmerston. and there has been a vigorous agitation in support of electoral methods which are manifestly calculated to subordinate "delegated" to "selected" men. the movement for electoral reform in great britain at the present time is one of quite fundamental importance in the development of modern democracy. the case of the reformers is that heretofore modern democracy has not had a fair opportunity of showing its best possibilities to the world, because the methods of election have persistently set aside the better types of public men, or rather of would-be public men, in favour of mere party hacks. that is a story common to britain and the american democracies, but in america it was expressed in rather different terms and dealt with in a less analytical fashion than it has been in great britain. it was not at first clearly understood that the failure of democracy to produce good government came through the preference of "delegated" over "selected" men, the idea of delegation did in fact dominate the minds of both electoral reformers and electoral conservatives alike, and the earlier stages of the reform movement in great britain were inspired not so much by the idea of getting a better type of representative as by the idea of getting a fairer representation of minorities. it was only slowly that the idea that sensible men do not usually belong to any political "party" took hold. it is only now being realized that what sensible men desire in a member of parliament is honour and capacity rather than a mechanical loyalty to a "platform." they do not want to dictate to their representative; they want a man they can trust as their representative. in the fifties and sixties of the last century, in which this electoral reform movement began and the method of proportional representation was thought out, it was possible for the reformers to work untroubled upon the assumption that if a man was not necessarily born a "... little liber-al, or else a little conservative," he must at least be a liberal-unionist or a conservative free-trader. but seeking a fair representation for party minorities, these reformers produced a system of voting at once simple and incapable of manipulation, that leads straight, not to the representation of small parties, but to a type of democratic government by selected best men. before giving the essential features of that system, it may be well to state in its simplest form the evils at which the reform aims. an election, the reformers point out, is not the simple matter it appears to be at the first blush. methods of voting can be manipulated in various ways, and nearly every method has its own liability to falsification. we may take for illustration the commonest, simplest case--the case that is the perplexity of every clear-thinking voter under british or american conditions--the case of a constituency in which every elector has one vote, and which returns one representative to parliament. the naive theory on which people go is that all the possible candidates are put up, that each voter votes for the one he likes best, and that the best man wins. the bitter experience is that hardly ever are there more than two candidates, and still more rarely is either of these the best man possible. suppose, for example, the constituency is mainly conservative. a little group of pothouse politicians, wire-pullers, busybodies, local journalists, and small lawyers, working for various monetary interests, have "captured" the local conservative organization. they have time and energy to capture it, because they have no other interest in life except that. it is their "business," and honest men are busy with other duties. for reasons that do not appear these local "workers" put up an unknown mr. goldbug as the official conservative candidate. he professes a generally conservative view of things, but few people are sure of him and few people trust him. against him the weaker (and therefore still more venal) liberal organization now puts up a mr. kentshire (formerly wurstberg) to represent the broader thought and finer generosities of the english mind. a number of conservative gentlemen, generally too busy about their honest businesses to attend the party "smokers" and the party cave, realize suddenly that they want goldbug hardly more than they want wurstberg. they put up their long-admired, trusted, and able friend mr. sanity as an independent conservative. every one knows the trouble that follows. mr. sanity is "going to split the party vote." the hesitating voter is told, with considerable truth, that a vote given for mr. sanity is a vote given for wurstberg. at any price the constituency does not want wurstberg. so at the eleventh hour mr. sanity is induced to withdraw, and mr. goldbug goes into parliament to misrepresent this constituency. and so with most constituencies, and the result is a legislative body consisting largely of men of unknown character and obscure aims, whose only credential is the wearing of a party label. they come into parliament not to forward the great interests they ostensibly support, but with an eye to the railway jobbery, corporation business, concessions and financial operations that necessarily go on in and about the national legislature. that in its simplest form is the dilemma of democracy. the problem that has confronted modern democracy since its beginning has not really been the representation of organized minorities--they are very well able to look after themselves--but _the protection of the unorganized mass of busily occupied, fairly intelligent men from the tricks of the specialists who work the party machines_. we know mr. sanity, we want mr. sanity, but we are too busy to watch the incessant intrigues to oust him in favour of the obscurely influential people, politically docile, who are favoured by the organization. we want an organizer-proof method of voting. it is in answer to this demand, as the outcome of a most careful examination of the ways in which voting may be protected from the exploitation of those who _work_ elections, that the method of proportional representation with a single transferable vote has been evolved. it is organizer-proof. it defies the caucus. if you do not like mr. goldbug you can put up and vote for mr. sanity, giving mr. goldbug your second choice, in the most perfect confidence that in any case your vote cannot help to return mr. wurstberg. with proportional representation with a single transferable vote (this specification is necessary, because there are also the inferior imitations of various election-riggers figuring as proportional representation), it is _impossible to prevent the effective candidature of independent men of repute beside the official candidates_. the method of voting under the proportional representation system has been ignorantly represented as complex. it is really almost ideally simple. you mark the list of candidates with numbers in the order of your preference. for example, you believe a to be absolutely the best man for parliament; you mark him . but b you think is the next best man; you mark him . that means that if a gets an enormous amount of support, ever so many more votes than he requires for his return, your vote will not be wasted. only so much of your vote as is needed will go to a; the rest will go to b. or, on the other hand, if a has so little support that his chances are hopeless, you will not have thrown your vote away upon him; it will go to b. similarly you may indicate a third, a fourth, and a fifth choice; if you like you may mark every name on your paper with a number to indicate the order of your preferences. and that is all the voter has to do. the reckoning and counting of the votes presents not the slightest difficulty to any one used to the business of computation. silly and dishonest men, appealing to still sillier audiences, have got themselves and their audiences into humorous muddles over this business, but the principles are perfectly plain and simple. let me state them here; they can be fully and exactly stated, with various ornaments, comments, arguments, sarcastic remarks, and digressions, in seventy lines of this type. it will be evident that, in any election under this system, any one who has got a certain proportion of no. votes will be elected. if, for instance, five people have to be elected and , voters vote, then any one who has got first votes or more _must_ be elected. votes is in that case enough to elect a candidate. this sufficient number of votes is called the _quota_, and any one who has more than that number of votes has obviously got more votes than is needful for election. so, to begin with, the voting papers are classified according to their first votes, and any candidates who have got more than a quota of first votes are forthwith declared elected. but most of these elected men would under the old system waste votes because they would have too many; for manifestly a candidate who gets more than the quota of votes _needs only a fraction of each of these votes to return him_. if, for instance, he gets double the quota he needs only half each vote. he takes that fraction, therefore, under this new and better system, and the rest of each vote is entered on to no. upon that voting paper. and so on. now this is an extremely easy job for an accountant or skilled computer, and it is quite easily checked by any other accountant and skilled computer. a reader with a bad arithmetical education, ignorant of the very existence of such a thing as a slide rule, knowing nothing of account keeping, who thinks of himself working out the resultant fractions with a stumpy pencil on a bit of greasy paper in a bad light, may easily think of this transfer of fractions as a dangerous and terrifying process. it is, for a properly trained man, the easiest, exactest job conceivable. the cash register people will invent machines to do it for you while you wait. what happens, then, is that every candidate with more than a quota, beginning with the top candidate, sheds a traction of each vote he has received, down the list, and the next one sheds his surplus fraction in the same way, and so on until candidates lower in the list, who are at first below the quota, fill up to it. when all the surplus votes of the candidates at the head of the list have been disposed of, then the hopeless candidates at the bottom of the list are dealt with. the second votes on their voting papers are treated as whole votes and distributed up the list, and so on. it will be plain to the quick-minded that, towards the end, there will be a certain chasing about of little fractions of votes, and a slight modification of the quota due to voting papers having no second or third preferences marked upon them, a chasing about that it will be difficult for an untrained intelligence to follow. _but untrained intelligences are not required to follow it_. for the skilled computer these things offer no difficulty at all. and they are not difficulties of principle but of manipulation. one might as well refuse to travel in a taxicab until the driver had explained the magneto as refuse to accept the principle of proportional representation by the single transferable vote until one had remedied all the deficiencies of one's arithmetical education. the fundamental principle of the thing, that a candidate who gets more votes than he wants is made to hand on a fraction of each vote to the voter's second choice, and that a candidate whose chances are hopeless is made to hand on the whole vote to the voter's second choice, so that practically only a small number of votes are ineffective, is within the compass of the mind of a boy of ten. but simple as this method is, it completely kills the organization and manipulation of voting. it completely solves the goldbug-wurstberg- sanity problem. it is knave-proof--short of forging, stealing, or destroying voting papers. a man of repute, a leaderly man, may defy all the party organizations in existence and stand beside and be returned over the head of a worthless man, though the latter be smothered with party labels. that is the gist of this business. the difference in effect between proportional representation and the old method of voting must ultimately be to change the moral and intellectual quality of elected persons profoundly. people are only beginning to realize the huge possibilities of advance inherent in this change of political method. it means no less than a revolution from "delegate democracy" to "selective democracy." now, i will not pretend to be anything but a strong partizan in this matter. when i speak of "democracy" i mean "selective democracy." i believe that "delegate democracy" is already provably a failure in the world, and that the reason why to-day, after three and a half years of struggle, we are still fighting german autocracy and fighting with no certainty of absolute victory, is because the affairs of the three great atlantic democracies have been largely in the hands not of selected men but of delegated men, men of intrigue and the party machine, of dodges rather than initiatives, second-rate men. when lord haldane, defending his party for certain insufficiencies in their preparation for the eventuality of the great war, pleaded that they had no "mandate" from the country to do anything of the sort, he did more than commit political suicide, he bore conclusive witness against the whole system which had made him what he was. neither britain nor france in this struggle has produced better statesmen nor better generals than the german autocracy. the british and french foreign offices are old monarchist organizations still. to this day the british and french politicians haggle and argue with the german ministers upon petty points and debating society advantages, smart and cunning, while the peoples perish. the one man who has risen to the greatness of this great occasion, the man who is, in default of any rival, rapidly becoming the leader of the world towards peace, is neither a delegate politician nor the choice of a monarch and his councillors. he is the one authoritative figure in these transactions whose mind has not been subdued either by long discipline in the party machine or by court intrigue, who has continued his education beyond those early twenties when the mind of the "budding politician" ceases to expand, who has thought, and thought things out, who is an educated man among dexterous under-educated specialists. by something very like a belated accident in the framing of the american constitution, the president of the united states is more in the nature of a selected man than any other conspicuous figure at the present time. he is specially elected by a special electoral college after an elaborate preliminary selection of candidates by the two great party machines. and be it remembered that mr. wilson is not the first great president the united states have had, he is one of a series of figures who tower over their european contemporaries. the united states have had many advantageous circumstances to thank for their present ascendancy in the world's affairs: isolation from militarist pressure for a century and a quarter, a vast virgin continent, plenty of land, freedom from centralization, freedom from titles and social vulgarities, common schools, a real democratic spirit in its people, and a great enthusiasm for universities; but no single advantage has been so great as this happy accident which has given it a specially selected man as its voice and figurehead in the world's affairs. in the average congressman, in the average senator, as ostrogorski's great book so industriously demonstrated, the united states have no great occasion for pride. neither the senate nor the house of representatives seem to rise above the level of the british houses of parliament, with a government unable to control the rebel forces of ulster, unable to promote or dismiss generals without an outcry, weakly amenable to the press, and terrifyingly incapable of great designs. it is to the united states of america we must look now if the world is to be made "safe for democracy." it is to the method of selection, as distinguished from delegation, that we must look if democracy is to be saved from itself. x the recent struggle for proportional representation in great britain british political life resists cleansing with all the vigour of a dirty little boy. it is nothing to your politician that the economic and social organization of all the world, is strained almost to the pitch of collapse, and that it is vitally important to mankind that everywhere the whole will and intelligence of the race should be enlisted in the great tasks of making a permanent peace and reconstructing the shattered framework of society. these are remote, unreal considerations to the politician. what is the world to him? he has scarcely heard of it. he has been far too busy as a politician. he has been thinking of smart little tricks in the lobby and brilliant exploits at question time. he has been thinking of jobs and appointments, of whether mr. asquith is likely to "come back" and how far it is safe to bank upon l. g. his one supreme purpose is to keep affairs in the hands of his own specialized set, to keep the old obscure party game going, to rig his little tricks behind a vast, silly camouflage of sham issues, to keep out able men and disinterested men, the public mind, and the general intelligence, from any effective interference with his disastrous manipulations of the common weal. i do not see how any intelligent and informed man can have followed the recent debates in the house of commons upon proportional representation without some gusts of angry contempt. they were the most pitiful and alarming demonstration of the intellectual and moral quality of british public life at the present time. from the wire-pullers of the fabian society and from the party organizers of both liberal and tory party alike, and from the knowing cards, the pothouse shepherds, and jobbing lawyers who "work" the constituencies, comes the chief opposition to this straightening out of our electoral system so urgently necessary and so long overdue. they have fought it with a zeal and efficiency that is rarely displayed in the nation's interest. from nearly every outstanding man outside that little inner world of political shams and dodges, who has given any attention to the question, comes, on the other hand, support for this reform. even the great party leaders, mr. balfour and mr. asquith, were in its favour. one might safely judge this question by considering who are the advocates on either side. but the best arguments for proportional representation arise out of its opponents' speeches, and to these i will confine my attention now. consider lord harcourt--heir to the most sacred traditions of the party game--hurling scorn at a project that would introduce "faddists, mugwumps," and so on and so on--in fact independent thinking men--into the legislature. consider the value of lord curzon's statement that london "rose in revolt" against the project. do you remember that day, dear reader, when the streets of london boiled with passionate men shouting, "no proportional representation! down with proportional representation"? you don't. nor do i. but what happened was that the guinea-pigs and solicitors and nobodies, the party hacks who form the bulk of london's misrepresentation in the house of commons, stampeded in terror against a proposal that threatened to wipe them out and replace them by known and responsible men. london, alas! does not seem to care how its members are elected. what londoner knows anything about his member? hundreds of thousands of londoners do not even know which of the ridiculous constituencies into which the politicians have dismembered our london they are in. only as i was writing this in my flat in st. james's court, westminster, did it occur to me to inquire who was representing me in the councils of the nation while i write.... after some slight difficulty i ascertained that my representative is a mr. burdett coutts, who was, in the romantic eighties, mr. ashmead-bartlett. and by a convenient accident i find that the other day he moved to reject the proportional representation amendment made by the house of lords to the representation of the people bill, so that i am able to look up the debate in hansard and study my opinions as he represented them and this question at one and the same time. and, taking little things first, i am proud and happy to discover that the member for me was the only participator in the debate who, in the vulgar and reprehensible phrase, "threw a dead cat," or, in polite terms, displayed classical learning. my member said, "_timeo danaos et dona ferentes_," with a rather graceful compliment to the labour conference at nottingham. "i could not help thinking to myself," said my member, "that at that conference there must have been many men of sufficient classical reading to say to themselves, '_timeo danaos et dona ferentes_.'" in which surmise he was quite right. except perhaps for "_tempus fugit,"_ "_verbum sap._," "_arma virumque_," and "_quis custodiet_," there is no better known relic of antiquity. but my member went a little beyond my ideas when he said: "we are asked to enter upon a method of legislation which can bear no other description than that of law-making in the dark," because i think it can bear quite a lot of other descriptions. this was, however, the artistic prelude to a large, vague, gloomy dissertation about nothing very definite, a muddling up of the main question with the minor issue of a schedule of constituencies involved in the proposal. the other parts of my member's speech do not, i confess, fill me with the easy confidence i would like to feel in my proxy. let me extract a few gems of eloquence from the speech of this voice which speaks for me, and give also the only argument he advanced that needs consideration. "history repeats itself," he said, "very often in curious ways as to facts, but generally with very different results." that, honestly, i like. it is a sentence one can read over several times. but he went on to talk of the entirely different scheme for minority representation, which was introduced into the reform bill of , and there i am obliged to part company with him. that was a silly scheme for giving two votes to each voter in a three-member constituency. it has about as much resemblance to the method of scientific voting under discussion as a bath-chair has to an aeroplane. "but that measure of minority representation led to a baneful invention," my representative went on to say, "and left behind it a hateful memory in the birmingham caucus. i well remember that when i stood for parliament thirty-two years ago _we had no better platform weapon than repeating over and over again in a sentence the name of mr. schnadhorst,_ and i am not sure that it would not serve the same purpose now. under that system the work of the caucus was, of course, far simpler than it will be if this system ever comes into operation. all the caucus had to do under that measure was to divide the electors into three groups and with three candidates, a., b., and c., to order one group to vote for a. and b., another for b. and c., and the third for a. and c., and they carried the whole of their candidates and kept them for many years. but the multiplicity of ordinal preferences, second, third, fourth, fifth, up to tenth, which the single transferable vote system would involve, will require a more scientific handling in party interests, and neither party will be able to face an election with any hope of success without the assistance of the most drastic form of caucus and _without its orders being carried out by the electors_." now, i swear by heaven that, lowly creature as i am, a lost vote, a nothing, voiceless and helpless in public affairs, i am not going to stand the imputation that that sort of reasoning represents the average mental quality of westminster--outside parliament, that is. most of my neighbours in st. james's court, for example, have quite large pieces of head above their eyebrows. read these above sentences over and ponder their significance--so far as they have any significance. never mind my keen personal humiliation at this display of the mental calibre of my representative, but consider what the mental calibre of a house must be that did not break out into loud guffaws at such a passage. the line of argument is about as lucid as if one reasoned that because one can break a window with a stone it is no use buying a telescope. and it remains entirely a matter for speculation whether my member is arguing that a caucus _can_ rig an election carried on under the proportional representation system or that it cannot. at the first blush it seems to read as if he intended the former. but be careful! did he? let me suggest that in that last sentence he really expresses the opinion that it cannot. it can be read either way. electors under modern conditions are not going to obey the "orders" of even the "most drastic caucus"--whatever a "drastic caucus" may be. why should they? in the birmingham instance it was only a section of the majority, voting by wards, in an election on purely party lines, which "obeyed" in order to keep out the minority party candidate. i think myself that my member's mind waggled. perhaps his real thoughts shone out through an argument not intended to betray them. what he did say as much as he said anything was that under proportional representation, elections are going to be very troublesome and difficult for party candidates. if that was his intention, then, after all, i forgive him much. i think that and more than that. i think that they are going to make party candidates who are merely party candidates impossible. that is exactly what we reformers are after. then i shall get a representative more to my taste than mr. burdett coutts. but let me turn now to the views of other people's representatives. perhaps the most damning thing ever said against the present system, damning because of its empty absurdity, was uttered by sir thomas whittaker. he was making the usual exaggerations of the supposed difficulties of the method. he said english people didn't like such "complications." they like a "straight fight between two men." think of it! a straight fight! for more than a quarter-century i have been a voter, usually with votes in two or three constituencies, and never in all that long political life have i seen a single straight fight in an election, but only the dismallest sham fights it is possible to conceive. thrice only in all that time have i cast a vote for a man whom i respected. on all other occasions the election that mocked my citizenship was either an arranged walk-over for one party or the other, or i had a choice between two unknown persons, mysteriously selected as candidates by obscure busy people with local interests in the constituency. every intelligent person knows that this is the usual experience of a free and independent voter in england. the "fight" of an ordinary parliamentary election in england is about as "straight" as the business of a thimble rigger. and consider just what these "complications" are of which the opponents of proportional representation chant so loudly. in the sham election of to-day, which the politicians claim gives them a mandate to muddle up our affairs, the voter puts a x against the name of the least detestable of the two candidates that are thrust upon him. under the proportional representation method there will be a larger constituency, a larger list of candidates, and a larger number of people to be elected, and he will put i against the name of the man he most wants to be elected, against his second choice, and if he likes he may indulge in marking a third, or even a further choice. he may, if he thinks fit, number off the whole list of candidates. that is all he will have to do. that is the stupendous intricacy of the method that flattens out the minds of lord harcourt and sir thomas whittaker. and as for the working of it, if you must go into that, all that happens is that if your first choice gets more votes than he needs for his return, he takes only the fraction of your vote that he requires, and the rest of the vote goes on to your number . if isn't in need of all of it, the rest goes on to . and so on. that is the profound mathematical mystery, that is the riddle beyond the wit of westminster, which overpowers these fine intelligences and sets them babbling of "senior wranglers." each time there is a debate on this question in the house, member after member hostile to the proposal will play the ignorant fool and pretend to be confused himself, and will try to confuse others, by deliberately clumsy statements of these most elementary ideas. surely if there were no other argument for a change of type in the house, these poor knitted brows, these public perspirations of the gentry who "cannot understand p.r.," should suffice. but let us be just; it is not all pretence; the inability of mr. austen chamberlain to grasp the simple facts before him was undoubtedly genuine. he followed mr. burdett coutts, in support of mr. burdett coutts, with the most christian disregard of the nasty things mr. burdett coutts had seemed to be saying about the birmingham caucus from which he sprang. he had a childish story to tell of how voters would not give their first votes to their real preferences, because they would assume he "would get in in any case"--god knows why. of course on the assumption that the voter behaves like an idiot, anything is possible. and never apparently having heard of fractions, this great birmingham leader was unable to understand that a voter who puts against a candidate's name votes for that candidate anyhow. he could not imagine any feeling on the part of the voter that no. was his man. a vote is a vote to this simple rather than lucid mind, a thing one and indivisible. read this-- "birmingham," he said, referring to a schedule under consideration, "is to be cut into three constituencies of four members each. i am to have a constituency of , electors, i suppose. how many thousand inhabitants i do not know. _every effort will be made to prevent any of those electors knowing--in fact, it would be impossible for any of them to know--whether they voted for me or not, or at any rate whether they effectively voted for me or not, or whether the vote which they wished to give to me was really diverted to somebody else_." only in a house of habitually inattentive men could any one talk such nonsense without reproof, but i look in vain through hansard's record of this debate for a single contemptuous reference to mr. chamberlain's obtuseness. and the rest of his speech was a lamentable account of the time and trouble he would have to spend upon his constituents if the new method came in. he was the perfect figure of the parochially important person in a state of defensive excitement. no doubt his speech appealed to many in the house. of course lord harcourt was quite right in saying that the character of the average house of commons member will be changed by proportional representation. it will. it will make the election of obscure and unknown men, of carpet-bag candidates who work a constituency as a hawker works a village, of local pomposities and village-pump "leaders" almost impossible. it will replace such candidates by better known and more widely known men. it will make the house of commons so much the more a real gathering of the nation, so much the more a house of representative men. (lord harcourt's "faddists and mugwumps.") and it is perfectly true as mr. ramsay macdonald (also an opponent) declares, that proportional representation means constituencies so big that it will be impossible for a poor man to cultivate and work them. that is unquestionable. but, mark another point, it will also make it useless, as mr. chamberlain has testified, for rich men to cultivate and work them. all this cultivating and working, all this going about and making things right with this little jobber here, that contractor there, all the squaring of small political clubs and organizations, all the subscription blackmail and charity bribery, that now makes a parliamentary candidature so utterly rotten an influence upon public life, will be killed dead by proportional representation. you cannot job men into parliament by proportional representation. proportional representation lets in the outsider. it lets in the common, unassigned voter who isn't in the local clique. that is the clue to nearly all this opposition of the politicians. it makes democracy possible for the first time in modern history. and that poor man of mr. ramsay macdonald's imagination, instead of cadging about a constituency in order to start politician, will have to make good in some more useful way--as a leader of the workers in their practical affairs, for example--before people will hear of him and begin to believe in him. the opposition to proportional representation of mr. sidney webb and his little circle is a trifle more "scientific" in tone than these naive objections of the common run of antagonist, but underlying it is the same passionate desire to keep politics a close game for the politician and to bar out the politically unspecialized man. there is more conceit and less jobbery behind the criticisms of this type of mind. it is an opposition based on the idea that the common man is a fool who does not know what is good for him. so he has to be stampeded. politics, according to this school, is a sort of cattle-driving. the webbites do not deny the broad facts of the case. our present electoral system, with our big modern constituencies of thousands of voters, leads to huge turnovers of political power with a relatively small shifting of public opinion. it makes a mock of public opinion by caricature, and parliament becomes the distorting mirror of the nation. under some loud false issue a few score of thousands of votes turn over, and in goes this party or that with a big sham majority. this the webbites admit. but they applaud it. it gives us, they say, "a strong government." public opinion, the intelligent man outside the house, is ruled out of the game. he has no power of intervention at all. the artful little fabian politicians rub their hands and say, "_now_ we can get to work with the wires! no one can stop us." and when the public complains of the results, there is always the repartee, "_you_ elected them." but the fabian psychology is the psychology of a very small group of pedants who believe that fair ends may be reached by foul means. it is much easier and more natural to serve foul ends by foul means. in practice it is not tricky benevolence but tricky bargaining among the interests that will secure control of the political wires. that is a bad enough state of affairs in ordinary times, but in times of tragic necessity like the present men will not be mocked in this way. life is going to be very intense in the years ahead of us. if we go right on to another caricature parliament, with perhaps half a hundred leading men in it and the rest hacks and nobodies, the baffled and discontented outsiders in the streets may presently be driven to rioting and the throwing of bombs. unless, indeed, the insurrection of the outsiders takes a still graver form, and the press, which has ceased entirely to be a party press in great britain, helps some adventurous prime minister to flout and set aside the lower house altogether. there is neither much moral nor much physical force behind the house of commons at the present time. the argument of the fabian opponents to proportional representation is frankly that the strongest government is got in a house of half a hundred or fewer leading men, with the rest of the parliament driven sheep. but the whole mischief of the present system is that the obscure members of parliament are not sheep; they are a crowd of little-minded, second-rate men just as greedy and eager and self-seeking as any of us. they vote straight indeed on all the main party questions, they obey their whips like sheep then; but there is a great bulk of business in parliament outside the main party questions, and obedience is not without its price. these are matters vitally affecting our railways and ships and communications generally, the food and health of the people, armaments, every sort of employment, the appointment of public servants, the everyday texture of all our lives. then the nobody becomes somebody, the party hack gets busy, the rat is in the granary.... in these recent debates in the house of commons one can see every stock trick of the wire-puller in operation. particularly we have the old dodge of the man who is "in theory quite in sympathy with proportional representation, but ..." it is, he declares regretfully, too late. it will cause delay. difficult to make arrangements. later on perhaps. and so on. it is never too late for a vital issue. upon the speedy adoption of proportional representation depends, as mr. balfour made plain in an admirable speech, whether the great occasions of the peace and after the peace are to be handled by a grand council of all that is best and most leaderlike in the nation, or whether they are to be left to a few leaders, apparently leading, but really profoundly swayed by the obscure crowd of politicians and jobbers behind them. are the politicians to hamper and stifle us in this supreme crisis of our national destinies or are we british peoples to have a real control of our own affairs in this momentous time? are men of light and purpose to have a voice in public affairs or not? proportional representation is supremely a test question. it is a question that no adverse decision in the house of commons can stifle. there are too many people now who grasp its importance and significance. every one who sets a proper value upon purity in public life and the vitality of democratic institutions will, i am convinced, vote and continue to vote across every other question against the antiquated, foul, and fraudulent electoral methods that have hitherto robbed democracy of three-quarters of its efficiency. xi the study and propaganda of democracy in the preceding chapter i have dealt with the discussion of proportional representation in the british house of commons in order to illustrate the intellectual squalor amidst which public affairs have to be handled at the present time, even in a country professedly "democratic." i have taken this one discussion as a sample to illustrate the present imperfection of our democratic instrument. all over the world, in every country, great multitudes of intelligent and serious people are now inspired by the idea of a new order of things in the world, of a world-wide establishment of peace and mutual aid between nation and nation and man and man. but, chiefly because of the elementary crudity of existing electoral methods, hardly anywhere at present, except at washington, do these great ideas and this world-wide will find expression. amidst the other politicians and statesmen of the world president wilson towers up with an effect almost divine. but it is no ingratitude to him to say that he is not nearly so exceptional a being among educated men as he is among the official leaders of mankind. everywhere now one may find something of the wilson purpose and intelligence, but nearly everywhere it is silenced or muffled or made ineffective by the political advantage of privileged or of violent and adventurous inferior men. he is "one of us," but it is his good fortune to have got his head out of the sack that is about the heads of most of us. in the official world, in the world of rulers and representatives and "statesmen," he almost alone, speaks for the modern intelligence. this general stifling of the better intelligence of the world and its possible release to expression and power, seems to me to be the fundamental issue underlying all the present troubles of mankind. we cannot get on while everywhere fools and vulgarians hold the levers that can kill, imprison, silence and starve men. we cannot get on with false government and we cannot get on with mob government; we must have right government. the intellectual people of the world have a duty of co-operation they have too long neglected. the modernization of political institutions, the study of these institutions until we have worked out and achieved the very best and most efficient methods whereby the whole community of mankind may work together under the direction of its chosen intelligences, is the common duty of every one who has a brain for the service. and before everything else we have to realize this crudity and imperfection in what we call "democracy" at the present time. democracy is still chiefly an aspiration, it is a spirit, it is an idea; for the most part its methods are still to seek. and still more is this "league of free nations" as yet but an aspiration. let us not underrate the task before us. only the disinterested devotion of hundreds of thousands of active brains in school, in pulpit, in book and press and assembly can ever bring these redeeming conceptions down to the solid earth to rule. all round the world there is this same obscuration of the real intelligence of men. in germany, human good will and every fine mind are subordinated to political forms that have for a mouthpiece a chancellor with his brains manifestly addled by the theories of _welt-politik_ and the bismarckian tradition, and for a figurehead a mad kaiser. nevertheless there comes even from germany muffled cries for a new age. a grinning figure like a bloodstained punch is all that speaks for the best brains in bulgaria. yes. we western allies know all that by heart; but, after all, the immediate question for each one of us is, "_what speaks for me?_" so far as official political forms go i myself am as ineffective as any right-thinking german or bulgarian could possibly be. i am more ineffective than a galician pole or a bohemian who votes for his nationalist representative. politically i am a negligible item in the constituency of this mr. burdett coutts into whose brain we have been peeping. politically i am less than a waistcoat button on that quaint figure. and that is all i am--except that i revolt. i have written of it so far as if it were just a joke. but indeed bad and foolish political institutions cannot be a joke. sooner or later they prove themselves to be tragedy. this war is that. it is yesterday's lazy, tolerant, "sense of humour" wading out now into the lakes of blood it refused to foresee. it is absurd to suppose that anywhere to-day the nationalisms, the suspicions and hatreds, the cants and policies, and dead phrases that sway men represent the current intelligence of mankind. they are merely the evidences of its disorganization. even now we _know_ we could do far better. give mankind but a generation or so of peace and right education and this world could mock at the poor imaginations that conceived a millennium. but we have to get intelligences together, we have to canalize thought before it can work and produce its due effects. to that end, i suppose, there has been a vast amount of mental activity among us political "negligibles." for my own part i have thought of the idea of god as the banner of human unity and justice, and i have made some tentatives in that direction, but men, i perceive, have argued themselves mean and petty about religion. at the word "god" passions bristle. the word "god" does not unite men, it angers them. but i doubt if god cares greatly whether we call him god or no. his service is the service of man. this double idea of the league of free nations, linked with the idea of democracy as universal justice, is free from the jealousy of the theologians and great enough for men to unite upon everywhere. i know how warily one must reckon with the spite of the priest, but surely these ideas may call upon the teachers of all the great world religions for their support. the world is full now of confused propaganda, propaganda of national ideas, of traditions of hate, of sentimental and degrading loyalties, of every sort of error that divides and tortures and slays mankind. all human institutions are made of propaganda, are sustained by propaganda and perish when it ceases; they must be continually explained and re-explained to the young and the negligent. and for this new world of democracy and the league of free nations to which all reasonable men are looking, there must needs be the greatest of all propagandas. for that cause every one must become a teacher and a missionary. "persuade to it and make the idea of it and the necessity for it plain," that is the duty of every school teacher, every tutor, every religious teacher, every writer, every lecturer, every parent, every trusted friend throughout the world. for it, too, every one must become a student, must go on with the task of making vague intentions into definite intentions, of analyzing and destroying obstacles, of mastering the ten thousand difficulties of detail.... i am a man who looks now towards the end of life; fifty-one years have i scratched off from my calendar, another slips by, and i cannot tell how many more of the sparse remainder of possible years are really mine. i live in days of hardship and privation, when it seems more natural to feel ill than well; without holidays or rest or peace; friends and the sons of my friends have been killed; death seems to be feeling always now for those i most love; the newspapers that come in to my house tell mostly of blood and disaster, of drownings and slaughterings, of cruelties and base intrigues. yet never have i been so sure that there is a divinity in man and that a great order of human life, a reign of justice and world-wide happiness, of plenty, power, hope, and gigantic creative effort, lies close at hand. even now we have the science and the ability available for a universal welfare, though it is scattered about the world like a handful of money dropped by a child; even now there exists all the knowledge that is needed to make mankind universally free and human life sweet and noble. we need but the faith for it, and it is at hand; we need but the courage to lay our hands upon it and in a little space of years it can be ours. the end. boon, the mind of the race, the wild asses of the devil, _and_ the last trump being a first selection from the literary remains of george boon, appropriate to the times prepared for publication by reginald bliss author of "the cousins of charlotte bronte," "a child's history of the crystal palace," "firelight rambles," "edible fungi," "whales in captivity," and other works with an ambiguous introduction by h. g. wells t. fisher unwin, ltd. london; adelphi terrace _first published in _ (all rights reserved) introduction whenever a publisher gets a book by one author he wants an introduction written to it by another, and mr. fisher unwin is no exception to the rule. nobody reads introductions, they serve no useful purpose, and they give no pleasure, but they appeal to the business mind, i think, because as a rule they cost nothing. at any rate, by the pressure of a certain inseparable intimacy between mr. reginald bliss and myself, this introduction has been extracted from me. i will confess that i have not read his book through, though i have a kind of first-hand knowledge of its contents, and that it seems to me an indiscreet, ill-advised book.... i have a very strong suspicion that this introduction idea is designed to entangle me in the responsibility for the book. in america, at any rate, "the life of george meek, bath chairman," was ascribed to me upon no better evidence. yet any one who likes may go to eastbourne and find meek with chair and all complete. but in view of the complications of the book market and the large simplicities of the public mind, i do hope that the reader--and by that i mean the reviewer--will be able to see the reasonableness and the necessity of distinguishing between me and mr. reginald bliss. i do not wish to escape the penalties of thus participating in, and endorsing, his manifest breaches of good taste, literary decorum, and friendly obligation, but as a writer whose reputation is already too crowded and confused and who is for the ordinary purposes of every day known mainly as a novelist, i should be glad if i could escape the public identification i am now repudiating. bliss is bliss and wells is wells. and bliss can write all sorts of things that wells could not do. this introduction has really no more to say than that. h. g. wells. contents introduction chapter the first the back of miss bathwick and george boon chapter the second being the first chapter of "the mind of the race" chapter the third the great slump, the revival of letters, and the garden by the sea chapter the fourth of art, of literature, of mr henry james chapter the fifth of the assembling and opening of the world conference on the mind of the race chapter the sixth of not liking hallery and the royal society for the discouragement of literature chapter the seventh wilkins makes certain objections chapter the eighth the beginning of "the wild asses of the devil" chapter the ninth the hunting of the wild asses of the devil chapter the tenth the story of the last trump boon, the mind of the race, the wild asses of the devil, _and_ the last trump chapter the first the back of miss bathwick and george boon § it is quite probable that the reader does not know of the death of george boon, and that "remains" before his name upon the title-page will be greeted with a certain astonishment. in the ordinary course of things, before the explosion of the war, the death of george boon would have been an event--oh! a three-quarters of a column or more in the _times_ event, and articles in the monthlies and reminiscences. as it is, he is not so much dead as missing. something happened at the eleventh hour--i think it was chiefly the admiralty report of the fight off the falkland islands--that blew his obituary notices clean out of the papers. and yet he was one of our most popular writers, and in america i am told he was in the "hundred thousand class." but now we think only of lord kitchener's hundred thousands. it is no good pretending about it. the war has ended all that. boon died with his age. after the war there will be a new sort of book-trade and a crop of new writers and a fresh tone, and everything will be different. this is an obituary, of more than george boon.... i regard the outlook with profound dismay. i try to keep my mind off it by drilling with the shrewsbury last line of volunteers and training down the excrescences of my physical style. when the war is over will be time enough to consider the prospects of a superannuated man of letters. we national volunteers are now no mere soldiers on paper; we have fairly washable badges by way of uniform; we have bought ourselves dummy rifles; we have persuaded the war office to give us a reluctant recognition on the distinct understanding that we have neither officers nor authority. in the event of an invasion, i understand, we are to mobilize and ... do quite a number of useful things. but until there is an invasion in actual progress, nothing is to be decided more precisely than what this whiff of printer's shrapnel, these four full stops, conveys.... § i must confess i was monstrously disappointed when at last i could get my hands into those barrels in the attic in which boon had stored his secret writings. there was more perhaps than i had expected; i do not complain of the quantity, but of the disorder, the incompleteness, the want of discipline and forethought. boon had talked so often and so convincingly of these secret books he was writing, he had alluded so frequently to this or that great project, he would begin so airily with "in the seventeenth chapter of my 'wild asses of the devil,'" or "i have been recasting the third part of our 'mind of the race,'" that it came as an enormous shock to me to find there was no seventeenth chapter; there was not even a completed first chapter to the former work, and as for the latter, there seems nothing really finished or settled at all beyond the fragments i am now issuing, except a series of sketches of lord rosebery, for the most part in a toga and a wreath, engaged in a lettered retirement at his villa at epsom, and labelled "patrician dignity, the last phase"--sketches i suppress as of no present interest--and a complete gallery of imaginary portraits (with several duplicates) of the academic committee that has done so much for british literature (the polignac prize, for example, and sir henry newbolt's professorship) in the last four or five years. so incredulous was i that this was all, that i pushed my inquiries from their original field in the attic into other parts of the house, pushed them, indeed, to the very verge of ransacking, and in that i greatly deepened the want of sympathy already separating me from mrs. boon. but i was stung by a thwarted sense of duty, and quite resolved that no ill-advised interference should stand between me and the publication of what boon has always represented to me as the most intimate productions of his mind. yet now the first rush of executorial emotion is over i can begin to doubt about boon's intention in making me his "literary executor." did he, after all, intend these pencilled scraps, these marginal caricatures, and--what seems to me most objectionable--annotated letters from harmless prominent people for publication? or was his selection of me his last effort to prolong what was, i think, if one of the slightest, one also of the most sustained interests of his life, and that was a prolonged faint jeering at my expense? because always--it was never hidden from me--in his most earnest moments boon jeered at me. i do not know why he jeered at me, it was always rather pointless jeering and far below his usual level, but jeer he did. even while we talked most earnestly and brewed our most intoxicating draughts of project and conviction, there was always this scarce perceptible blossom and flavour of ridicule floating like a drowning sprig of blue borage in the cup. his was indeed essentially one of those suspended minds that float above the will and action; when at last reality could be evaded no longer it killed him; he never really believed nor felt the urgent need that goads my more accurate nature to believe and do. always when i think of us together, i feel that i am on my legs and that he sits about. and yet he could tell me things i sought to know, prove what i sought to believe, shape beliefs to a conviction in me that i alone could never attain. he took life as it came, let his fancy play upon it, selected, elucidated, ignored, threw the result in jest or observation or elaborate mystification at us, and would have no more of it.... he would be earnest for a time and then break away. "the last trump" is quite typical of the way in which he would turn upon himself. it sets out so straight for magnificence; it breaks off so abominably. you will read it. yet he took things more seriously than he seemed to do. this war, i repeat, killed him. he could not escape it. it bore him down. he did his best to disregard it. but its worst stresses caught him in the climax of a struggle with a fit of pneumonia brought on by a freak of bathing by moonlight--in an english october, a thing he did to distract his mind from the tension after the marne--and it destroyed him. the last news they told him was that the germans had made their "shoot and scuttle" raid upon whitby and scarborough. there was much circumstantial description in the morning's paper. they had smashed up a number of houses and killed some hundreds of people, chiefly women and children. ten little children had been killed or mutilated in a bunch on their way to school, two old ladies at a boarding-house had had their legs smashed, and so on. "take this newspaper," he said, and held it out to his nurse. "take it," he repeated irritably, and shook it at her. he stared at it as it receded. then he seemed to be staring at distant things. "wild asses of the devil," he said at last. "oh! wild asses of the devil! i thought somehow it was a joke. it wasn't a joke. there they are, and the world is theirs." and he turned his face to the wall and never spoke again. § but before i go on it is necessary to explain that the george boon i speak of is not exactly the same person as the george boon, the great writer, whose fame has reached to every bookshop in the world. the same bodily presence perhaps they had, but that is all. except when he chose to allude to them, those great works on which that great fame rests, those books and plays of his that have made him a household word in half a dozen continents, those books with their style as perfect and obvious as the gloss upon a new silk hat, with their flat narrative trajectory that nothing could turn aside, their unsubdued and apparently unsubduable healthy note, their unavoidable humour, and their robust pathos, never came between us. we talked perpetually of literature and creative projects, but never of that "output" of his. we talked as men must talk who talk at all, with an untrammelled freedom; now we were sublime and now curious, now we pursued subtleties and now we were utterly trivial, but always it was in an undisciplined, irregular style quite unsuitable for publication. that, indeed, was the whole effect of the george boon i am now trying to convey, that he was indeed essentially not for publication. and this effect was in no degree diminished by the fact that the photograph of his beautiful castellated house, and of that extraordinarily irrelevant person mrs. boon--for i must speak my mind of her--and of her two dogs (binkie and chum), whom he detested, were, so to speak, the poulet and salade in the menu of every illustrated magazine. the fact of it is he was one of those people who will _not_ photograph; so much of him was movement, gesture, expression, atmosphere, and colour, and so little of him was form. his was the exact converse of that semi-mineral physical quality that men call handsome, and now that his career has come to its sad truncation i see no reason why i should further conceal the secret of the clear, emphatic, solid impression he made upon all who had not met him. it was, indeed, a very simple secret;-- _he never wrote anything for his public with his own hand._ he did this of set intention. he distrusted a certain freakishness of his finger-tips that he thought might have injured him with his multitudinous master. he knew his holograph manuscript would certainly get him into trouble. he employed a lady, the lady who figures in his will, miss bathwick, as his amanuensis. in miss bathwick was all his security. she was a large, cool, fresh-coloured, permanently young lady, full of serious enthusiasms; she had been faultlessly educated in a girls' high school of a not too modern type, and she regarded boon with an invincible respect. she wrote down his sentences (spelling without blemish in all the european languages) as they came from his lips, with the aid of a bright, efficient, new-looking typewriter. if he used a rare word or a whimsical construction, she would say, "i beg your pardon, mr. boon," and he would at once correct it; and if by any lapse of an always rather too nimble imagination he carried his thoughts into regions outside the tastes and interests of that enormous _ante-bellum_ public it was his fortune to please, then, according to the nature of his divagation, she would either cough or sigh or--in certain eventualities--get up and leave the room. by this ingenious device--if one may be permitted to use the expression for so pleasant and trustworthy an assistant--he did to a large extent free himself from the haunting dread of losing his public by some eccentricity of behaviour, some quirk of thought or fluctuation of "attitude" that has pursued him ever since the great success of "captain clayball," a book he wrote to poke fun at the crude imaginings of a particularly stupid schoolboy he liked, had put him into the forefront of our literary world. § he had a peculiar, and, i think, a groundless terror of the public of the united states of america, from which country he derived the larger moiety of his income. in spite of our remonstrances, he subscribed to the new york _nation_ to the very end, and he insisted, in spite of fact, reason, and my earnest entreaties (having regard to the future unification of the english-speaking race), in figuring that continental empire as a vain, garrulous, and prosperous female of uncertain age, and still more uncertain temper, with unfounded pretensions to intellectuality and an ideal of refinement of the most negative description, entirely on the strength of that one sample. one might as well judge england by the _spectator_. my protests seemed only to intensify his zest in his personification of columbia as the aunt errant of christendom, as a wild, sentimental, and advanced maiden lady of inconceivable courage and enterprise, whom everything might offend and nothing cow. "i know," he used to say, "something will be said or done and she'll have hysterics; the temptation to smuggle something through miss bathwick's back is getting almost too much for me. i _could_, you know. or some one will come along with something a little harder and purer and emptier and more emphatically handsome than i can hope to do. i shall lose her one of these days.... how can i hope to keep for ever that proud and fickle heart?" and then i remember he suddenly went off at a tangent to sketch out a great novel he was to call "aunt columbia." "no," he said, "they would suspect that--'aunt dove.'" she was to be a lady of great, unpremeditated wealth, living on a vast estate near a rather crowded and troublesome village. everything she did and said affected the village enormously. she took the people's children into her employment; they lived on her surplus vegetables. she was to have a particularly troublesome and dishonest household of servants and a spoiled nephew called teddy. and whenever she felt dull or energetic she drove down into the village and lectured and blamed the villagers--for being overcrowded, for being quarrelsome, for being poor and numerous, for not, in fact, being spinster ladies of enormous good fortune.... that was only the beginning of one of those vast schemes of his that have left no trace now in all the collection. his fear of shocking america was, i think, unfounded; at any rate, he succeeded in the necessary suppressions every time, and until the day of his death it was rare for the american press-cuttings that were removed in basketfuls almost daily with the other debris of his breakfast-table to speak of him in anything but quasi-amorous tones. he died for them the most spiritual as well as the most intellectual of men; "not simply intellectual, but lovable." they spoke of his pensive eyes, though, indeed, when he was not glaring at a camera they were as pensive as champagne, and when the robust pathos bumped against the unavoidable humour as they were swept along the narrow torrent of his story they said with all the pleasure of an apt quotation that indeed in his wonderful heart laughter mingled with tears. § i think george boon did on the whole enjoy the remarkable setting of his philosophical detachment very keenly; the monstrous fame of him that rolled about the world, that set out east and came back circumferentially from the west and beat again upon his doors. he laughed irresponsibly, spent the resulting money with an intelligent generosity, and talked of other things. "it is the quality of life," he said, and "the people love to have it so." i seem to see him still, hurrying but not dismayed, in flight from the camera of an intrusive admirer--an admirer not so much of him as of his popularity--up one of his garden walks towards his agreeable study. i recall his round, enigmatical face, an affair of rosy rotundities, his very bright, active eyes, his queer, wiry, black hair that went out to every point in the heavens, his ankles and neck and wrists all protruding from his garments in their own peculiar way, protruding a little more in the stress of flight. i recall, too, his general effect of careless and, on the whole, commendable dirtiness, accentuated rather than corrected by the vivid tie of soft orange-coloured silk he invariably wore, and how his light paces danced along the turf. (he affected in his private dominions trousers of faint drab corduroy that were always too short, braced up with vehement tightness, and displaying claret-coloured socks above his easy, square-toed shoes.) and i know that even that lumbering camera coming clumsily to its tripod ambush neither disgusted nor vulgarized him. he liked his game; he liked his success and the opulent stateliness it gave to the absurdities of mrs. boon and all the circumstances of his profoundly philosophical existence; and he liked it all none the worse because it was indeed nothing of himself at all, because he in his essence was to dull intelligences and commonplace minds a man invisible, a man who left no impression upon the camera-plate or moved by a hair's breadth the scale of a materialist balance. § but i will confess the state of the remains did surprise and disappoint me. his story of great literary enterprises, holograph and conducted in the profoundest secrecy, tallied so completely with, for example, certain reservations, withdrawals that took him out of one's company and gave him his evident best companionship, as it were, when he was alone. it was so entirely like him to concoct lengthy books away from his neatly ordered study, from the wise limitations of miss bathwick's significant cough and her still more significant back, that we all, i think, believed in these unseen volumes unquestioningly. while those fine romances, those large, bright plays, were being conceived in a publicity about as scandalous as a royal gestation, publicly planned and announced, developed, written, boomed, applauded, there was, we knew, this undercurrent of imaginative activity going on, concealed from miss bathwick's guardian knowledge, withdrawn from the stately rhythm of her keys. what more natural than to believe he was also writing it down? alas! i found nothing but fragments. the work upon which his present fame is founded was methodical, punctual and careful, and it progressed with a sort of inevitable precision from beginning to end, and so on to another beginning. not only in tone and spirit but in length (that most important consideration) he was absolutely trustworthy; his hundred thousand words of good, healthy, straightforward story came out in five months with a precision almost astronomical. in that sense he took his public very seriously. to have missed his morning's exercises behind miss bathwick's back would have seemed to him the most immoral--nay, worse, the most uncivil of proceedings. "she wouldn't understand it," he would say, and sigh and go. but these scraps and fragments are of an irregularity diametrically contrasting with this. they seem to have been begun upon impulse at any time, and abandoned with an equal impulsiveness, and they are written upon stationery of a variety and nature that alone would condemn them in the eyes of an alienist. the handwriting is always atrocious and frequently illegible, the spelling is strange, and sometimes indecently bad, the punctuation is sporadic, and many of the fragments would be at once put out of court as modern literature by the fact that they are written in pencil on _both sides of the paper_! such of the beginnings as achieve a qualified completeness are of impossible lengths; the longest is a piece--allowing for gaps--of fourteen thousand words, and another a fragment shaping at about eleven. these are, of course, quite impossible sizes, neither essay nor short story nor novel, and no editor or publisher would venture to annoy the public with writings of so bizarre a dimension. in addition there are fragments of verse. but i look in vain for anything beyond the first chapter of that tremendous serial, "the wild asses of the devil," that kept on day by day through june and july to the very outbreak of the war, and only a first chapter and a few illustrations and memoranda and fragments for our "mind of the race," that went on intermittently for several years. whole volumes of that great hotchpotch of criticism are lost in the sandbanks of my treacherous memory for ever. much of the matter, including a small ms. volume of those brief verses called limericks (personal always, generally actionable, and frequently lacking in refinement), i set aside at an early date. much else also i rejected as too disjointed and unfinished, or too eccentric. two bizarre fragments called respectively "jane in heaven" and "an account of a play," i may perhaps find occasion to issue at a later date, and there were also several brief imitations of villiers de l'isle adam quite alien to contemporary anglo-saxon taste, which also i hold over. sometimes upon separate sheets, sometimes in the margins of other compositions, and frequently at the end of letters received by him i found a curious abundance of queer little drawings, caricatures of his correspondents, burlesque renderings of occurrences, disrespectful sidenotes to grave and pregnant utterances, and the like. if ever the correspondence of george boon is published, it will have to be done in _fac-simile_. there is a considerable number of impressions of the back of miss bathwick's head, with and without the thread of velvet she sometimes wore about her neck, and quite a number of curiously idealized studies of that american reading public he would always so grotesquely and annoyingly insist on calling "her." and among other things i found a rendering of myself as a short, flattened little object that has a touch of malignity in it i had no reason to expect. few or none of these quaint comments are drawn with indian ink upon millboard in a manner suitable for reproduction, and even were they so, i doubt whether the public would care for very many of them. (i give my own portrait--it is singularly unlike me--to show the style of thing he did.) [illustration] of the "mind of the race" i may perhaps tell first. i find he had written out and greatly embellished the singularly vivid and detailed and happily quite imaginary account of the murder of that eminent litterateur, dr. tomlinson keyhole, with which the "mind of the race" was to have concluded; and there are an extraordinarily offensive interview with mr. raymond blathwayt (which, since it now "dates" so markedly, i have decided to suppress altogether) and an unfinished study of "the literary statesmen of the transition years from the nineteenth to the twentieth centuries" (including a lengthy comparison of the greatness of lords bryce and morley, a eulogy of lord morley and a discussion whether he has wit or humour) that were new to me. and perhaps i may note at this point the twenty sixpenny washing books in which boon had commenced what i am firmly convinced is a general index of the works of plato and aristotle. it is conceivable he did this merely as an aid to his private reading, though the idea of a popular romancer reading anything will come to the general reader with a little shock of surprise. [illustration: _boon's idea of_ aristotle _(in modern dress), from the washing books_. (_when asked_, "why _in modern dress?" boon replied simply that he would be._)] for my own part and having in memory his subtle and elusive talk, i am rather inclined to think that at one time he did go so far as to contemplate a familiar and humorous commentary upon these two pillars of the world's thought. an edition of them edited and copiously illustrated by him would, i feel sure, have been a remarkable addition to any gentleman's library. if he did turn his mind to anything of the sort he speedily abandoned the idea again, and with this mention and the note that he detested aristotle, those six and twenty washing books may very well follow the bulk of the drawings and most of the verse back into their original oblivion.... [illustration: _boon's idea of_ plato, _from the washing books_. (boon absolutely rejected the indian bacchus bust as a portrait of _plato_. when asked why, he remarked merely that it wasn't like him.)] § but now you will begin to understand the nature of the task that lies before me. if i am to do any justice to the cryptic george boon, if indeed i am to publish anything at all about him, i must set myself to edit and convey these books whose only publication was in fact by word of mouth in his garden arbours, using these few fragments as the merest accessories to that. i have hesitated, i have collected unfavourable advice, but at last i have resolved to make at least one experimental volume of boon's remains. after all, whatever we have of aristotle and socrates and all that we most value of johnson comes through the testimony of hearers. and though i cannot venture to compare myself with boswell.... i know the dangers i shall run in this attempt to save my friend from the devastating expurgations of his written ostensible career. i confess i cannot conceal from myself that, for example, i must needs show boon, by the standards of every day, a little treacherous. when i thrust an arm into one or other of the scores of densely packed bins of press cuttings that cumber the attics of his castellated mansion and extract a sample clutch, i find almost invariably praise, not judicious or intelligent praise perhaps, but slab and generous praise, paragraphs, advice, photographs, notices, notes, allusions and comparisons, praise of the unparalleled gloss on his style by doctor tomlinson keyhole under the pseudonym of "simon up to snuff," praise of the healthiness of the tone by doctor tomlinson keyhole under the pseudonym of "the silver fish," inspired announcements of some forthcoming venture made by doctor tomlinson keyhole under the pseudonym of "the true-born englishman," and interesting and exalting speculations as to the precise figure of boon's income over dr. tomlinson keyhole's own signature; i find chatty, if a little incoherent, notices by braybourne of the most friendly and helpful sort, and interviews of the most flattering description by this well-known litterateur and that. and i reflect that while all this was going on, there was boon on the other side of miss bathwick's rampart mind, not only not taking them and himself seriously, not only not controlling his disrespectful internal commentary on these excellent men, but positively writing it down, regaling himself with the imagined murder of this leader of thought and the forcible abduction to sinister and melancholy surroundings of that! and yet i find it hard to do even this measure of justice to my friend. he was treacherous, it must be written, and yet he was, one must confess, a singularly attractive man. there was a certain quality in his life--it was pleasant. when i think of doing him justice i am at once dashed and consoled by the thought of how little he cared how i judged him. and i recall him very vividly as i came upon him on one occasion. he is seated on a garden roller--an implement which makes a faultless outdoor seat when the handle is adjusted at a suitable angle against a tree, and one has taken the precaution to skid the apparatus with a piece of rockery or other convenient object. his back is against the handle, his legs lie in a boneless curve over the roller, and an inch or so of native buff shows between the corduroy trousers and the claret-coloured socks. he appears to be engaged partly in the degustation of an unappetizing lead pencil, and partly in the contemplation of a half-quire of notepaper. the expression of his rubicund face is distinctly a happy one. at the sound of my approach he looks up. "i've been drawing old keyhole again!" he says like a schoolboy. [illustration] nevertheless, if critics of standing are to be drawn like this by authors of position, then it seems to me that there is nothing before us but to say good-bye for ever to the dignity of letters. chapter the second being the first chapter of "the mind of the race" § it was one of boon's peculiarities to maintain a legend about every one he knew, and to me it was his humour to ascribe a degree of moral earnestness that i admit only too sadly is altogether above my quality. having himself invented this great project of a book upon the mind of the race which formed always at least the thread of the discourse when i was present, he next went some way towards foisting it upon me. he would talk to me about it in a tone of remonstrance, raise imaginary difficulties to propositions i was supposed to make and superstitions i entertained, speak of it as "this book bliss is going to write"; and at the utmost admit no more than collaboration. possibly i contributed ideas; but i do not remember doing so now very distinctly. possibly my influence was quasi-moral. the proposition itself fluctuated in his mind to suit this presentation and that, it had more steadfastness in mine. but if i was the anchorage he was the ship. at any rate we planned and discussed a book that boon pretended that i was writing and that i believed him to be writing, in entire concealment from miss bathwick, about the collective mind of the whole human race. edwin dodd was with us, i remember, in one of those early talks, when the thing was still taking form, and he sat on a large inverted flowerpot--we had camped in the greenhouse after lunch--and he was smiling, with his head slightly on one side and a wonderfully foxy expression of being on his guard that he always wore with boon. dodd is a leading member of the rationalist press association, a militant agnostic, and a dear, compact man, one of those middle victorians who go about with a preoccupied, caulking air, as though, after having been at great cost and pains to banish god from the universe, they were resolved not to permit him back on any terms whatever. he has constituted himself a sort of alert customs officer of a materialistic age, saying suspiciously, "here, now, what's this rapping under the table here?" and examining every proposition to see that the creator wasn't being smuggled back under some specious new generalization. boon used to declare that every night dodd looked under his bed for the deity, and slept with a large revolver under his pillow for fear of a revelation.... from the first dodd had his suspicions about this collective mind of boon's. most unjustifiable they seemed to me then, but he had them. "you must admit, my dear dodd----" began boon. "i admit nothing," said dodd smartly. "you perceive something more extensive than individual wills and individual processes of reasoning in mankind, a body of thought, a trend of ideas and purposes, a thing made up of the synthesis of all the individual instances, something more than their algebraic sum, losing the old as they fall out, taking up the young, a common mind expressing the species----" "oh--figuratively, perhaps!" said dodd. § for my own part i could not see where dodd's "figuratively" comes in. the mind of the race is as real to me as the mind of dodd or my own. because dodd is completely made up of dodd's right leg plus dodd's left leg, plus dodd's right arm plus dodd's left arm plus dodd's head and dodd's trunk, it doesn't follow that dodd is a mere figurative expression.... dodd, i remember, protested he had a self-consciousness that held all these constituents together, but there was a time when dodd was six months old, let us say, and there are times now when dodd sleeps or is lost in some vivid sensation or action, when that clear sense of self is in abeyance. there is no reason why the collective mind of the world should not presently become at least as self-conscious as dodd. boon, indeed, argued that that was happening even now, that our very talk in the greenhouse was to that synthetic over-brain like a child's first intimations of the idea of "me." "it's a _fantastic_ notion," said dodd, shaking his head. but boon was fairly launched now upon his topic, and from the first, i will confess, it took hold of me. "you mustn't push the analogy of dodd's mind too far," said boon. "these great over-minds----" "so there are several!" said dodd. "they fuse, they divide. these great over-minds, these race minds, share nothing of the cyclic fate of the individual life; there is no birth for them, no pairing and breeding, no inevitable death. that is the lot of such intermediate experimental creatures as ourselves. the creatures below us, like the creatures above us, are free from beginnings and ends. the amoeba never dies; it divides at times, parts of it die here and there, it has no sex, no begetting. (existence without a love interest. my god! how it sets a novelist craving!) neither has the germ plasm. these over-minds, which for the most part clothe themselves in separate languages and maintain a sort of distinction, stand to us as we stand to the amoebæ or the germ cells we carry; they are the next higher order of being; they emerge above the intense, intensely defined struggle of individuals which is the more obvious substance of lives at the rank of ours; they grow, they divide, they feed upon one another, they coalesce and rejuvenate. so far they are like amoebæ. but they think, they accumulate experiences, they manifest a collective will." "nonsense!" said dodd, shaking his head from side to side. "but the thing is manifest!" "i've never met it." "you met it, my dear dodd, the moment you were born. who taught you to talk? your mother, you say. but whence the language? who made the language that gives a bias to all your thoughts? and who taught you to think, dodd? whence came your habits of conduct? your mother, your schoolmaster were but mouthpieces, the books you read the mere forefront of that great being of voices! there it is--your antagonist to-day. you are struggling against it with tracts and arguments...." but now boon was fairly going. physically, perhaps, we were the children of our ancestors, but mentally we were the offspring of the race mind. it was clear as daylight. how could dodd dare to argue? we emerged into a brief independence of will, made our personal innovation, became, as it were, new thoughts in that great intelligence, new elements of effort and purpose, and were presently incorporated or forgotten or both in its immortal growth. would the race mind incorporate dodd or dismiss him? dodd sat on his flowerpot, shaking his head and saying "pooh!" to the cinerarias; and i listened, never doubting that boon felt the truth he told so well. he came near making the race soul incarnate. one felt it about us, receptive and responsive to boon's words. he achieved personification. he spoke of wars that peoples have made, of the roads and cities that grow and the routes that develop, no man planning them. he mentioned styles of architecture and styles of living; the gothic cathedral, i remember, he dwelt upon, a beauty, that arose like an exhalation out of scattered multitudes of men. he instanced the secular abolition of slavery and the establishment of monogamy as a development of christian teaching, as things untraceable to any individual's purpose. he passed to the mysterious consecutiveness of scientific research, the sudden determination of the european race mind to know more than chance thoughts could tell it.... "francis bacon?" said dodd. "men like bacon are no more than bright moments, happy thoughts, the discovery of the inevitable word; the race mind it was took it up, the race mind it was carried it on." "mysticism!" said dodd. "give me the rock of fact!" he shook his head so violently that suddenly his balance was disturbed; clap went his feet, the flowerpot broke beneath him, and our talk was lost in the consequent solicitudes. [illustration: _dodd the agnostic just before the flowerpot broke._] § now that i have been searching my memory, i incline rather more than i did to the opinion that the bare suggestion at any rate of this particular book did come from me. i probably went to boon soon after this talk with dodd and said a fine book might be written about the mind of humanity, and in all likelihood i gave some outline--i have forgotten what. i wanted a larger picture of that great being his imagination had struck out. i remember at any, rate boon taking me into his study, picking out goldsmith's "inquiry into the present state of polite learning," turning it over and reading from it. "something in this line?" he said, and read: "'complaints of our degeneracy in literature as well as in morals i own have been frequently exhibited of late.... the dullest critic who strives at a reputation for delicacy, by showing he cannot be pleased ...' "the old, old thing, you see! the weak protest of the living." he turned over the pages. "he shows a proper feeling, but he's a little thin.... he says some good things. but--'the age of louis xiv, notwithstanding these respectable names, is still vastly, superior.' is it? guess the respectable names that age of louis xiv could override!--voltaire, rousseau, diderot, montesquieu, d'alembert! and now tell me the respectable names of the age of louis xiv. and the conclusion of the whole matter-- "'thus the man who, under the patronage of the great might have done honour to humanity, when only patronized by the bookseller becomes a thing a little superior to the fellow who works at the press.' "'the patronage of the great'! 'fellow who works at the press'! goldsmith was a damnably genteel person at times in spite of the 'vicar'! it's printed with the long 's,' you see. it all helps to remind one that times have changed." ... i followed his careless footsteps into the garden; he went gesticulating before me, repeating, "'an inquiry into the state of polite learning'! that's what your 'mind of the race' means. suppose one did it now, we should do it differently in every way, from that." "yes, but how should we do it?" said i. the project had laid hold upon me. i wanted a broad outline of the whole apparatus of thinking and determination in the modern state; something that should bring together all its various activities, which go on now in a sort of deliberate ignorance of one another, which would synthesize research, education, philosophical discussion, moral training, public policy. "there is," i said, "a disorganized abundance now." "it's a sort of subconscious mind," said boon, seeming to take me quite seriously, "with a half instinctive will...." we discussed what would come into the book. one got an impression of the enormous range and volume of intellectual activity that pours along now, in comparison with the jejune trickle of goldsmith's days. then the world had--what? a few english writers, a few men in france, the royal society, the new berlin academy (conducting its transactions in french), all resting more or less upon the insecure patronage of the "great"; a few schools, public and private, a couple of dozen of universities in all the world, a press of which _the gentleman's magazine_ was the brightest ornament. now---- it is a curious thing that it came to us both as a new effect, this enormously greater size of the intellectual world of to-day. we didn't at first grasp the implications of that difference, we simply found it necessitated an enlargement of our conception. "and then a man's thoughts lived too in a world that had been created, lock, stock, and barrel, a trifle under six thousand years ago!..." we fell to discussing the range and divisions of our subject. the main stream, we settled, was all that one calls "literature" in its broader sense. we should have to discuss that principally. but almost as important as the actual development of ideas, suggestions, ideals, is the way they are distributed through the body of humanity, developed, rendered, brought into touch with young minds and fresh minds, who are drawn so into participation, who themselves light up and become new thoughts. one had to consider journalism, libraries, book distribution, lecturing, teaching. then there is the effect of laws, of inventions.... "done in a large, dull, half-abstract way," said boon, "one might fill volumes. one might become an eminent sociologist. you might even invent terminology. it's a chance----" we let it pass. he went on almost at once to suggest a more congenial form, a conversational novel. i followed reluctantly. i share the general distrust of fiction as a vehicle of discussion. we would, he insisted, invent a personality who would embody our idea, who should be fanatically obsessed by this idea of the mind of the race, who should preach it on all occasions and be brought into illuminating contact with all the existing mental apparatus and organization of the world. "something of your deep, moral earnestness, you know, only a little more presentable and not quite so vindictive," said boon, "and without your--lapses. i seem to see him rather like leo maxse: the same white face, the same bright eyes, the same pervading suggestion of nervous intensity, the same earnest, quasi-reasonable voice--but instead of that anti-german obsession of his, an intelligent passion for the racial thought. he must be altogether a fanatic. he must think of the mind of the race in season and out of season. collective thought will be no joke to him; it will be the supremely important thing. he will be passionately a patriot, entirely convinced of your proposition that 'the thought of a community is the life of a community,' and almost as certain that the tide of our thought is ebbing." "is it?" said i. "i've never thought. the 'encyclopædia britannica' says it is." "we must call the 'encyclopædia britannica.'" "as a witness--in the book--rather! but, anyhow, this man of ours will believe it and struggle against it. it will make him ill; it will spoil the common things of life for him altogether. i seem to see him interrupting some nice, bright, clean english people at tennis. 'look here, you know,' he will say, 'this is all very well. but have you _thought_ to-day? they tell me the germans are thinking, the japanese.' i see him going in a sort of agony round and about canterbury cathedral. 'here are all these beautiful, tranquil residences clustering round this supremely beautiful thing, all these well-dressed, excellent, fresh-coloured englishmen in their beautiful clerical raiment--deans, canons--and what have they _thought_, any of them? i keep my ear to the _hibbert journal_, but is it enough?' imagine him going through london on an omnibus. he will see as clear as the advertisements on the hoardings the signs of the formal breaking up of the old victorian church of england and dissenting cultures that have held us together so long. he will see that the faith has gone, the habits no longer hold, the traditions lie lax like cut string--there is nothing to replace these things. people do this and that dispersedly; there is democracy in beliefs even, and any notion is as good as another. and there is america. like a burst haggis. intellectually. the mind is confused, the race in the violent ferment of new ideas, in the explosive development of its own contrivances, has lost its head. it isn't thinking any more; it's stupefied one moment and the next it's diving about---- "it will be as clear as day to him that a great effort of intellectual self-control must come if the race is to be saved from utter confusion and dementia. and nobody seems to see it but he. he will go about wringing his hands, so to speak. i fancy him at last at a writing-desk, nervous white fingers clutched in his black hair. 'how can i put it so that they _must_ attend and see?'" so we settled on our method and principal character right away. but we got no farther because boon insisted before doing anything else on drawing a fancy portrait of this leading character of ours and choosing his name. we decided to call him hallery, and that he should look something like this-- [illustration: _hallery preparing to contradict._] that was how "the mind of the race" began, the book that was to have ended at last in grim burlesque with hallery's murder of dr. tomlinson keyhole in his villa at hampstead, and the conversation at dawn with that incredulous but literate policeman at highgate--he was reading a world's classic--to whom hallery gave himself up. chapter the third the great slump, the revival of letters, and the garden by the sea § the story, as boon planned it, was to begin with a spacious introduction. we were to tell of the profound decadence of letters at the opening of the twentieth century and how a movement of revival began. a few notes in pencil of this opening do exist among the remains, and to those i have referred. he read them over to me.... "'we begin,'" he said, "'in a minor key. the impetus of the romantic movement we declare is exhausted; the race mind, not only of the english-speaking peoples but of the whole world, has come upon a period of lethargy. the giants of the victorian age----'" my eye discovered a familiar binding among the flower-pots. "you have been consulting the 'encyclopædia britannica,'" i said. he admitted it without embarrassment. "i have prigged the whole thing from the last victorian edition--with some slight variations.... 'the giants of the victorian age had passed. men looked in vain for their successors. for a time there was an evident effort to fill the vacant thrones; for a time it seemed that the unstinted exertions of miss marie corelli, mr. hall caine, mrs. humphry ward, and the friends of mr. stephen phillips might go some way towards obliterating these magnificent gaps. and then, slowly but surely, it crept into men's minds that the game was up----'" "you will alter that phrase?" i said. "certainly. but it must serve now ... 'that, humanly speaking, it was impossible that anything, at once so large, so copious, so broadly and unhesitatingly popular, so nobly cumulative as the great victorian reputations could ever exist again. the race seemed threatened with intellectual barrenness; it had dropped its great blossoms, and stood amidst the pile of their wilting but still showy petals, budless and bare. it is curious to recall the public utterances upon literature that distinguished this desolate and melancholy time. it is a chorus of despair. there is in the comments of such admirable but ageing critics as still survived, of mr. gosse, for example, and the venerable sir sidney colvin and mr. mumchance, an inevitable suggestion of widowhood; the judges, bishops, statesmen who are called to speak upon literature speak in the same reminiscent, inconsolable note as of a thing that is dead. year after year one finds the speakers at the dinner of the royal literary fund admitting the impudence of their appeal. i remember at one of these festivities hearing the voice of mr. justice gummidge break.... the strain, it is needless to say, found its echo in dr. tomlinson keyhole; he confessed he never read anything that is less than thirty years old with the slightest enjoyment, and threw out the suggestion that nothing new should be published--at least for a considerable time--unless it was clearly shown to be posthumous.... "'except for a few irresistible volumes of facetiousness, the reading public very obediently followed the indications of authority in these matters, just as it had followed authority and sustained the giants in the great victorian days. it bought the long-neglected classics--anything was adjudged a classic that was out of copyright--it did its best to read them, to find a rare smack in their faded allusions, an immediate application for their forgotten topics. it made believe that architects were still like mr. pecksniff and schoolmasters like squeers, that there were no different women from jane austen's women, and that social wisdom ended in ruskin's fine disorder. but with the decay, of any intellectual observation of the present these past things had lost their vitality. a few resolute people maintained an artificial interest in them by participation in quotation-hunting competitions and the like, but the great bulk of the educated classes ceased presently to read anything whatever. the classics were still bought by habit, as people who have lost faith will still go to church; but it is only necessary to examine some surviving volume of this period to mark the coruscation of printer's errors, the sheets bound in upside down or accidentally not inked in printing or transferred from some sister classic in the same series, to realize that these volumes were mere receipts for the tribute paid by the pockets of stupidity to the ancient prestige of thought.... "'an air of completion rested upon the whole world of letters. a movement led by professor armstrong, the eminent educationist, had even gone some way towards banishing books from the schoolroom--their last refuge. people went about in the newly invented automobile and played open-air games; they diverted what attention they had once given to their minds to the more rational treatment of their stomachs. reading became the last resort of those too sluggish or too poor to play games; one had recourse to it as a substitute for the ashes of more strenuous times in the earlier weeks of mourning for a near relative, and even the sale of classics began at last to decline. an altogether more satisfying and alluring occupation for the human intelligence was found in the game of bridge. this was presently improved into auction bridge. preparations were made for the erection of a richly decorative memorial in london to preserve the memory of shakespeare, an english taj mahal; an academy of uncreative literature was established under the presidency of lord reay (who had never written anything at all), and it seemed but the matter of a few years before the goal of a complete and final mental quiet would be attained by the whole english-speaking community....'" § "you know," i said, "that doesn't exactly represent----" "hush!" said boon. "it was but a resting phase! and at this point i part company with the 'encyclopædia.'" "but you didn't get all that out of the 'encyclopædia'?" "practically--yes. i may have rearranged it a little. the encyclopædist is a most interesting and representative person. he takes up an almost eighteenth-century attitude, holds out hopes of a revival of taste under an academy, declares the interest of the great mass of men in literature is always 'empirical,' regards the great victorian boom in letters as quite abnormal, and seems to ignore what you would call that necessary element of vitalizing thought.... it's just here that hallery will have to dispute with him. we shall have to bring them together in our book somehow.... into this impressive scene of decline and the ebb of all thinking comes this fanatic hallery of ours, reciting with passionate conviction, 'the thought of a nation is the life of a nation.' you see our leading effect?" he paused. "we have to represent hallery as a voice crying in the wilderness. we have to present him in a scene of infinite intellectual bleakness, with the thinnest scrub of second-rate books growing contemptibly, and patches of what the encyclopædist calls tares--wind-wilted tares--about him. a mournful encyclopædist like some lone bird circling in the empty air beneath the fading stars.... well, something of that effect, anyhow! and then, you know, suddenly, mysteriously one grows aware of light, of something coming, of something definitely coming, of the dawn of a great literary revival...." "how does it come?" "oh! in the promiscuous way of these things. the swing of the pendulum, it may be. some eminent person gets bored at the prospect of repeating that rigmarole about the great victorians and our present slackness for all the rest of his life, and takes a leaf from one of hallery's books. we might have something after the fashion of the efficiency and wake-up-england affair. have you ever heard guinea-fowl at dawn?" "i've heard them at twilight. they say, 'come back. come back.' but what has that to do with----" "nothing. there's a movement, a stir, a twittering, and then a sudden promiscuous uproar, articles in the reviews, articles in the newspapers, paragraphs, letters, associations, societies, leagues. i imagine a very great personality indeed in the most extraordinary and unexpected way coming in...." (it was one of boon's less amiable habits to impute strange and uncanny enterprises, the sudden adoption of movements, manias, propagandas, adhesion to vegetarianism, socialism, the strangest eccentricities, to the british royal family.) "as a result hallery finds himself perforce a person of importance. 'the thought of a nation is the life of a nation,' one hears it from royal lips; 'a literature, a living soul, adequate to this vast empire,' turns up in the speech of a statesman of the greatest literary pretensions. arnold white responds to the new note. the _daily express_ starts a literary revival on its magazine page and offers a prize. the _times_ follows suit. reports of what is afoot reach social circles in new york.... the illumination passes with a dawnlike swiftness right across the broad expanse of british life, east and west flash together; the ladies' papers and the motoring journals devote whole pages to 'new literature,' and there is an enormous revival of book teas.... that sort of thing, you know--extensively." § "so much by way of prelude. now picture to yourself the immediate setting of my conference. just hand me that book by the 'encyclopædia.'" it was mallock's "new republic." he took it, turned a page or so, stuck a finger in it, and resumed. "it is in a narrow, ill-kept road by the seaside, bliss. a long wall, plaster-faced, blotched and peeling, crested with uncivil glass against the lower orders, is pierced by cast-iron gates clumsily classical, and through the iron bars of these there is visible the deserted gatekeeper's lodge, its cracked windows opaque with immemorial dirt, and a rich undergrowth of nettles beneath the rusty cypresses and stone-pines that border the carriage-way. an automobile throbs in the road; its occupants regard a board leaning all askew above the parapet, and hesitate to descend. on the board, which has been enriched by the attentions of the passing boy with innumerable radiant mud pellets, one reads with difficulty-- +-----------------------------------------------------+ | | | this classical villa | | | | with magnificent gardens in the victorian-italian | | style reaching down to the sea, and | | replete with latin and greek inscriptions, | | a garden study, literary associations, fully | | matured oxford allusions, and a great | | number of conveniently arranged | | bedrooms, to be | | | | let or sold. | | | | _apply to the owner_, | | mr. w. h. mallock, | | | | original author of | | "the new republic." | | | | _key within_. | | | +-----------------------------------------------------+ "'this _must_ be it, my dear archer,' says one of the occupants of the motor-car, and he rises, throws aside his furs, and reveals--the urbane presence of the encyclopædist. he descends, and rings a clangorous bell.... eh?" "it's the garden of the 'new republic'?" "exactly. revisited. it's an astonishing thing. do you know the date of the 'new republic'? the book's nearly forty years old! about the time of matthew arnold's 'friendship's garland,' and since that time there's been nothing like a systematic stocktaking of the english-speaking mind--until the encyclopædist reported 'no effects.' and i propose to make this little party in the motor-car a sort of scratch expedition, under the impetus of the proposed revival of thought. they are prospecting for a summer congress, which is to go into the state of the republic of letters thoroughly. it isn't perhaps quite gosse's style, but he has to be there--in a way he's the official british man of letters--but we shall do what we can for him, we shall make him show a strong disposition towards protective ironies and confess himself not a little bothered at being dragged into the horrid business. and i think we must have george moore, who has played uncle to so many movements and been so uniformly disappointed in his nephews. and william archer, with that face of his which is so exactly like his mind, a remarkably fine face mysteriously marred by an expression of unscrupulous integrity. and lastly, keyhole." "why keyhole?" i asked. "hallery has to murder some one. i've planned that--and who _would_ he murder but keyhole?... and we have to hold the first meeting in mallock's garden to preserve the continuity of english thought. "very well! then we invent a morose, elderly caretaker, greatly embittered at this irruption. he parleys for a time through the gate with all the loyalty of his class, mentions a number of discouraging defects, more particularly in the drainage, alleges the whole place is clammy, and only at gosse's clearly enunciated determination to enter produces the key." boon consulted his text. "naturally one would give a chapter to the villa by the sea and mallock generally. our visitors explore. they visit one scene after another familiar to the good mallockite; they descend 'the broad flights of steps flanked by gods and goddesses' that lead from one to another of the 'long, straight terraces set with vases and irish yews,' and the yews, you know, have suffered from the want of water, the vases are empty, and ivy, under the benediction of our modest climate, has already veiled the classical freedom--the conscientious nudity, one might say--of the statuary. the laurels have either grown inordinately or perished, and the 'busts of orators, poets, and philosophers' 'with latin inscriptions,' stand either bleakly exposed or else swallowed up, in a thicket. there is a pleasing struggle to translate the legends, and one gathers scholarship is not extinct in england. "the one oasis in a universal weediness is the pond about the 'scaly triton,' which has been devoted to the culture of spring onions, a vegetable to which the aged custodian quite superfluously avows himself very 'partial.' the visitors return to the house, walk along its terrace, survey its shuttered front, and they spend some time going through its musty rooms. dr. keyhole distinguishes himself by the feverish eagerness of his curiosity about where leslie slept and where was the boudoir of mrs. sinclair. he insists that a very sad and painful scandal about these two underlies the _new republic_, and professes a thirsty desire to draw a veil over it as conspicuously as possible. the others drag him away to the summer dining-room, now a great brier tangle, where once lady grace so pleasantly dined her guests. the little arena about the fountain in a porphyry basin they do not find, but the garden study they peer into, and see its inkpot in the shape of a classical temple, just as mr. mallock has described it, and the windowless theatre, and, in addition, they find a small private gas-works that served it. the old man lets them in, and by the light of uplifted vestas they see the decaying, rat-disordered ruins of the scene before which jenkinson who was jowett, and herbert who was ruskin, preached. it is as like a gorge in the indian caucasus as need be. the brocken act-drop above hangs low enough to show the toes of the young witch, still brightly pink.... "they go down to the beach, and the old man, with evil chuckles, recalls a hitherto unpublished anecdote of mixed bathing in the 'seventies, in which mrs. sinclair and a flushed and startled dr. jenkinson, greek in thought rather than action, play the chief parts, and then they wade through a nettle-bed to that 'small classical portico' which leads to the locked enclosure containing the three tombs, with effigies after the fashion of genoa cemetery. but the key of the gate is lost, so that they cannot go in to examine them, and the weeds have hidden the figures altogether. "'that's a pity,' some one remarks, 'for it's here, no doubt, that old laurence lies, with his first mistress and his last--under these cypresses.' "the aged custodian makes a derisive noise, and every one turns to him. "'i gather you throw some doubt?' the encyclopædist begins in his urbane way. "'buried--under the cypresses--first mistress and last!' the old man makes his manner invincibly suggestive of scornful merriment. "'but isn't it so?' "'bless y'r 'art, _no_! mr. laurence--buried! mr. laurence worn't never alive!' "'but there was a _young_ mr. laurence?' "'that was mr. mallup 'imself, that was! 'e was a great mistifier was mr. mallup, and sometimes 'e went about pretendin' to be mr. laurence and sometimes he was mr. leslie, and sometimes----but there, you'd 'ardly believe. 'e got all this up--cypresses, chumes, everythink--out of 'is 'ed. po'try. why! 'ere! jest come along 'ere, gents!' "he leads the way along a narrow privet alley that winds its surreptitious way towards an alcove. "'miss merton,' he says, flinging the door of this open. "'the roman catholic young person?' says dr. tomlinson keyhole. "'quite right, sir,' says the aged custodian. "they peer in. "hanging from a peg the four visitors behold a pale blue dress cut in the fashion of the 'seventies, a copious 'chignon' of fair hair, large earrings, and on the marble bench a pair of open-work stockings and other articles of feminine apparel. a tall mirror hangs opposite these garments, and in a little recess convenient to the hand are the dusty and decaying materials for a hasty 'make-up.' "the old custodian watches the effect of this display upon the others with masked enjoyment. "'you mean miss merton _painted_?' said the encyclopædist, knitting his brows. "'mr. mallup did,' says the aged custodian. "'you mean----?' "'mr. mallup was miss merton. 'e got _'er_ up too. parst 'er orf as a young lady, 'e did. oh, 'e was a great mistifier was mr. mallup. none of the three of 'em wasn't real people, really; he got 'em all up.' "'she had sad-looking eyes, a delicate, proud mouth, and a worn, melancholy look,' muses mr. archer. "'and young laurence was in love with her,' adds the encyclopædist.... "'they was all mr. mallup,' says the aged custodian. 'made up out of 'is 'ed. and the gents that pretended they was mr. 'uxley and mr. tyndall in disguise, one was bill smithers, the chemist's assistant, and the other was the chap that used to write and print the _margate advertiser_ before the noo papers come.'" chapter the fourth of art, of literature, of mr. henry james § the garden by the sea chapter was to have gone on discursively with a discussion upon this project of a conference upon the mind of the race. the automobile-ful of gentlemen who had first arrived was to have supplied the opening interlocutors, but presently they were to have been supplemented by the most unexpected accessories. it would have been an enormously big dialogue if it had ever been written, and boon's essentially lazy temperament was all against its ever getting written. there were to have been disputes from the outset as to the very purpose that had brought them all together. "a sort of literary stocktaking" was to have been mr. archer's phrase. repeated. unhappily, its commercialism was to upset mr. gosse extremely; he was to say something passionately bitter about its "utter lack of dignity." then relenting a little, he was to urge as an alternative "some controlling influence, some standard and restraint, a new and better academic influence." dr. keyhole was to offer his journalistic services in organizing an academic plebiscite, a suggestion which was to have exasperated mr. gosse to the pitch of a gleaming silence. in the midst of this conversation the party is joined by hallery and an american friend, a quiet harvard sort of man speaking meticulously accurate english, and still later by emissaries of lord northcliffe and mr. hearst, by mr. henry james, rather led into it by a distinguished hostess, by mr. w. b. yeats, late but keen, and by that sir henry lunn who organizes the swiss winter sports hotels. all these people drift in with an all too manifestly simulated accidentalness that at last arouses the distrust of the elderly custodian, so that mr. orage, the gifted editor of the _new age_, arriving last, is refused admission. the sounds of the conflict at the gates do but faintly perturb the conference within, which is now really getting to business, but afterwards mr. orage, slightly wounded in the face by a dexterously plied rake and incurably embittered, makes his existence felt by a number of unpleasant missiles discharged from over the wall in the direction of any audible voices. ultimately mr. orage gets into a point of vantage in a small pine-tree overlooking the seaward corner of the premises, and from this he contributes a number of comments that are rarely helpful, always unamiable, and frequently in the worst possible taste. such was boon's plan for the second chapter of "the mind of the race." but that chapter he never completely planned. at various times boon gave us a number of colloquies, never joining them together in any regular order. the project of taking up the discussion of the mind of the race at the exact point mr. mallock had laid it down, and taking the villa by the sea for the meeting-place, was at once opposed by hallery and his american friend with an evidently preconcerted readiness. they pointed out the entire democratization of thought and literature that had been going on for the past four decades. it was no longer possible to deal with such matters in the old aristocratic country-house style; it was no longer possible to take them up from that sort of beginning; the centre of mental gravity among the english-speaking community had shifted socially and geographically; what was needed now was something wider and ampler, something more in the nature of such a conference as the annual meeting of the british association. science left the gentleman's mansion long ago; literature must follow it--had followed it. to come back to mr. lankester's villa by the sea was to come back to a beaten covert. the hearst representative took up a strongly supporting position, and suggested that if indeed we wished to move with the times the thing to do was to strike out boldly for a special annex of the panama exhibition at san francisco and for organization upon sound american lines. it was a case, he said, even for "exhibits." sir henry lunn, however, objected that in america the anglo-saxon note was almost certain to be too exclusively sounded; that we had to remember there were vigorous cultures growing up and growing up more and more detachedly upon the continent of europe; we wanted, at least, their reflected lights ... some more central position.... in fact, switzerland ... where also numerous convenient hotels ... patronized, he gathered from the illustrated papers, by lord lytton, mrs. asquith, mr. f. r. benson ... and all sorts of helpful leading people. § meanwhile boon's plan was to make mr. george moore and mr. henry james wander off from the general dispute, and he invented a dialogue that even at the time struck me as improbable, in which both gentlemen pursue entirely independent trains of thought. mr. moore's conception of the projected symposium was something rather in the vein of the journeyings of shelley, byron, and their charming companions through france to italy, but magnified to the dimensions of an enormous pilgrimage, enlarged to the scale of a stream of refugees. "what, my dear james," he asked, "is this mind of humanity at all without a certain touch of romance, of adventure? even mallock appreciated the significance of _frou-frou_; but these fellows behind here...." to illustrate his meaning better, he was to have told, with an extraordinary and loving mastery of detail, of a glowing little experience that had been almost forced upon him at nismes by a pretty little woman from nebraska, and the peculiar effect it had had, and particularly the peculiar effect that the coincidence that both nebraska and nismes begin with an "n" and end so very differently, had had upon his imagination.... meanwhile mr. james, being anxious not merely to state but also to ignore, laboured through the long cadences of his companion as an indefatigable steam-tug might labour endlessly against a rolling sea, elaborating his own particular point about the proposed conference. "owing it as we do," he said, "very, very largely to our friend gosse, to that peculiar, that honest but restless and, as it were, at times almost malignantly ambitious organizing energy of our friend, i cannot altogether--altogether, even if in any case i should have taken so extreme, so devastatingly isolating a step as, to put it violently, _stand out_; yet i must confess to a considerable anxiety, a kind of distress, an apprehension, the terror, so to speak, of the kerbstone, at all this stream of intellectual trafficking, of going to and fro, in a superb and towering manner enough no doubt, but still essentially going to and fro rather than in any of the completed senses of the word _getting there_, that does so largely constitute the aggregations and activities we are invited to traverse. my poor head, such as it is and as much as it can and upon such legs--save the mark!--as it can claim, must, i suppose, play its inconsiderable part among the wheels and the rearings and the toots and the whistles and all this uproar, this--mm, mm!--let us say, this _infernal_ uproar, of the occasion; and if at times one has one's doubts before plunging in, whether after all, after the plunging and the dodging and the close shaves and narrow squeaks, one does begin to feel that one is getting through, whether after all one _will_ get through, and whether indeed there is any getting through, whether, to deepen and enlarge and display one's doubt quite openly, there is in truth any sort of ostensible and recognizable other side attainable and definable at all, whether to put this thing with a lucidity that verges on the brutal, whether our amiable and in most respects our adorable gosse isn't indeed preparing here and now, not the gathering together of a conference but the assembling, the _meet_, so to speak, of a wild-goose chase of an entirely desperate and hopeless description." at that moment mr. george moore was saying: "little exquisite shoulders without a touch of colour and with just that suggestion of rare old ivory in an old shop window in some out-of-the-way corner of paris that only the most patent abstinence from baths and the brutality of soaping----" each gentleman stopped simultaneously. ahead the path led between box-hedges to a wall, and above the wall was a pine-tree, and the editor of the _new age_ was reascending the pine-tree in a laborious and resolute manner, gripping with some difficulty in his hand a large and very formidable lump of unpleasantness.... with a common impulse the two gentlemen turned back towards the house. mr. james was the first to break the momentary silence. "and so, my dear moore, and so--to put it shortly--without any sort of positive engagement or entanglement or pledge or pressure--i _came_. and at the proper time and again with an entirely individual detachment and as little implication as possible i shall _go_...." subsequently mr. james was to have buttonholed hallery's american, and in the warm bath of his sympathy to have opened and bled slowly from another vein of thought. "i admit the abundance of--what shall i say?--_activities_ that our friend is summoning, the tremendous wealth of matter, of material for literature and art, that has accumulated during the last few decades. no one could appreciate, could savour and watch and respond, more than myself to the tremendous growing clangour of the mental process as the last half-century has exhibited it. but when it comes to the enterprise of gathering it together, and not simply just gathering it together, but gathering it _all_ together, then surely one must at some stage ask the question, _why_ all? why, in short, attempt to a comprehensiveness that must be overwhelming when in fact the need is for a selection that shall not merely represent but elucidate and lead. aren't we, after all, all of us after some such indicating projection of a leading digit, after such an insistence on the outstandingly essential in face of this abundance, this saturation, this fluid chaos that perpetually increases? here we are gathering together to celebrate and summarize literature in some sort of undefined and unprecedented fashion, and for the life of me i find it impossible to determine what among my numerous associates and friends and--to embrace still larger quantities of the stuff in hand--my contemporaries is considered to be the literature in question. so confused now are we between matter and treatment, between what is stated and documented and what is prepared and presented, that for the life of me i do not yet see whether we are supposed to be building an ark or whether by immersion and the meekest of submersions and an altogether complete submission of our distended and quite helpless carcasses to its incalculable caprice we are supposed to be celebrating and, in the whirling uncomfortable fashion of flotsam at large, indicating and making visible the whole tremendous cosmic inundation...." [illustration: _mr. james converses with mr. george moore upon matters of vital importance to both of them._] § it was entirely in the quality of boon's intellectual untidiness that for a time he should go off at a tangent in pursuit of mr. henry james and leave his literary picnic disseminated about the grounds of mr. mallock's villa. there, indeed, they remained. the story when he took it up again picked up at quite a different point. i remember how boon sat on the wall of his vegetable garden and discoursed upon james, while several of us squatted about on the cucumber-frames and big flowerpots and suchlike seats, and how over the wall ford madox hueffer was beating wilkins at badminton. hueffer wanted to come and talk too; james is one of his countless subjects--and what an omniscient man he is too!--but wilkins was too cross to let him off.... so that all that hueffer was able to contribute was an exhortation not to forget that henry james knew turgenev and that he had known them both, and a flat denial that dickens was a novelist. this last was the tail of that pre-raphaelite feud begun in _household words_, oh! generations ago.... "got you there, my boy!" said wilkins. "seven, twelve." we heard no more from hueffer. "you see," boon said, "you can't now talk of literature without going through james. james is unavoidable. james is to criticism what immanuel kant is to philosophy--a partially comprehensible essential, an inevitable introduction. if you understand what james is up to and if you understand what james is not up to, then you are placed. you are in the middle of the critical arena. you are in a position to lay about you with significance. otherwise.... "i want to get this hallery of mine, who is to be the hero of 'the mind of the race,' into a discussion with henry james, but that, you know, is easier said than imagined. hallery is to be one of those enthusiastic thinkers who emit highly concentrated opinion in gobbets, suddenly. james--isn't...." boon meditated upon his difficulties. "hallery's idea of literature is something tremendously comprehensive, something that pierces always down towards the core of things, something that carries and changes all the activities of the race. this sort of thing." he read from a scrap of paper-- "'the thought of a community is the life of that community, and if the collective thought of a community is disconnected and fragmentary, then the community is collectively vain and weak. that does not constitute an incidental defect but essential failure. though that community have cities such as the world has never seen before, fleets and hosts and glories, though it count its soldiers by the army corps and its children by the million, yet if it hold not to the reality of thought and formulated will beneath these outward things, it will pass, and all its glories will pass, like smoke before the wind, like mist beneath the sun; it will become at last only one more vague and fading dream upon the scroll of time, a heap of mounds and pointless history, even as are babylon and nineveh.'" "i've heard that before somewhere," said dodd. "most of this dialogue will have to be quotation," said boon. "he makes literature include philosophy?" "everything. it's all the central things. it's the larger bible to him, a thing about which all the conscious direction of life revolves. it's alive with passion and will. or if it isn't, then it ought to be.... and then as the antagonist comes this artist, this man who seems to regard the whole seething brew of life as a vat from which you skim, with slow, dignified gestures, works of art. ... works of art whose only claim is their art.... hallery is going to be very impatient about art." "ought there to be such a thing as a literary artist?" some one said. "ought there, in fact, to be henry james?" said dodd. "i don't think so. hallery won't think so. you see, the discussion will be very fundamental. there's contributory art, of course, and a way of doing things better or worse. just as there is in war, or cooking. but the way of doing isn't the end. first the end must be judged--and then if you like talk of how it is done. get there as splendidly as possible. but get there. james and george moore, neither of them take it like that. they leave out getting there, or the thing they get to is so trivial as to amount to scarcely more than an omission...." boon reflected. "in early life both these men poisoned their minds in studios. thought about pictures even might be less studio-ridden than it is. but james has never discovered that a novel isn't a picture.... that life isn't a studio.... "he wants a novel to be simply and completely _done_. he wants it to have a unity, he demands homogeneity.... why _should_ a book have that? for a picture it's reasonable, because you have to see it all at once. but there's no need to see a book all at once. it's like wanting to have a whole county done in one style and period of architecture. it's like insisting that a walking tour must stick to one valley.... "but james _begins_ by taking it for granted that a novel is a work of art that must be judged by its oneness. judged first by its oneness. some one gave him that idea in the beginning of things and he has never found it out. he doesn't find things out. he doesn't even seem to want to find things out. you can see that in him; he is eager to accept things--elaborately. you can see from his books that he accepts etiquettes, precedences, associations, claims. that is his peculiarity. he accepts very readily and then--elaborates. he has, i am convinced, one of the strongest, most abundant minds alive in the whole world, and he has the smallest penetration. indeed, he has no penetration. he is the culmination of the superficial type. or else he would have gone into philosophy and been greater even than his wonderful brother.... but here he is, spinning about, like the most tremendous of water-boatmen--you know those insects?--kept up by surface tension. as if, when once he pierced the surface, he would drown. it's incredible. a water-boatman as big as an elephant. i was reading him only yesterday 'the golden bowl'; it's dazzling how never for a moment does he go through." "recently he's been explaining himself," said dodd. "his 'notes on novelists.' it's one sustained demand for the picture effect. which is the denial of the sweet complexity of life, of the pointing this way and that, of the spider on the throne. philosophy aims at a unity and never gets there.... that true unity which we all suspect, and which no one attains, if it is to be got at all it is to be got by penetrating, penetrating down and through. the picture, on the other hand, is forced to a unity because it can see only one aspect at a time. i am doubtful even about that. think of hogarth or carpaccio. but if the novel is to follow life it must be various and discursive. life is diversity and entertainment, not completeness and satisfaction. all actions are half-hearted, shot delightfully with wandering thoughts--about something else. all true stories are a felt of irrelevances. but james sets out to make his novels with the presupposition that they can be made continuously relevant. and perceiving the discordant things, he tries to get rid of them. he sets himself to pick the straws out of the hair of life before he paints her. but without the straws she is no longer the mad woman we love. he talks of 'selection,' and of making all of a novel definitely _about_ a theme. he objects to a 'saturation' that isn't oriented. and he objects, if you go into it, for no clear reason at all. following up his conception of selection, see what in his own practice he omits. in practice james's selection becomes just omission and nothing more. he omits everything that demands digressive treatment or collateral statement. for example, he omits opinions. in all his novels you will find no people with defined political opinions, no people with religious opinions, none with clear partisanships or with lusts or whims, none definitely up to any specific impersonal thing. there are no poor people dominated by the imperatives of saturday night and monday morning, no dreaming types--and don't we all more or less live dreaming? and none are ever decently forgetful. all that much of humanity he clears out before he begins his story. it's like cleaning rabbits for the table. "but you see how relentlessly it follows from the supposition that the novel is a work of art aiming at pictorial unities! "all art too acutely self-centred comes to this sort of thing. james's denatured people are only the equivalent in fiction of those egg-faced, black-haired ladies, who sit and sit, in the japanese colour-prints, the unresisting stuff for an arrangement of blacks.... "then with the eviscerated people he has invented he begins to make up stories. what stories they are! concentrated on suspicion, on a gift, on possessing a 'piece' of old furniture, on what a little girl may or may not have noted in an emotional situation. these people cleared for artistic treatment never make lusty love, never go to angry war, never shout at an election or perspire at poker; never in any way _date_.... and upon the petty residuum of human interest left to them they focus minds of a jamesian calibre.... "the only living human motives left in the novels of henry james are a certain avidity, and an entirely superficial curiosity. even when relations are irregular or when sins are hinted at, you feel that these are merely attitudes taken up, gambits before the game of attainment and over-perception begins.... his people nose out suspicions, hint by hint, link by link. have you ever known living human beings do that? the thing his novel is _about_ is always there. it is like a church lit but without a congregation to distract you, with every light and line focused on the high altar. and on the altar, very reverently placed, intensely there, is a dead kitten, an egg-shell, a bit of string.... like his 'altar of the dead,' with nothing to the dead at all.... for if there was they couldn't all be candles and the effect would vanish.... and the elaborate, copious emptiness of the whole henry james exploit is only redeemed and made endurable by the elaborate, copious wit. upon the desert his selection has made henry james erects palatial metaphors.... the chief fun, the only exercise, in reading henry james is this clambering over vast metaphors.... "having first made sure that he has scarcely anything left to express, he then sets to work to express it, with an industry, a wealth of intellectual stuff that dwarfs newton. he spares no resource in the telling of his dead inventions. he brings up every device of language to state and define. bare verbs he rarely tolerates. he splits his infinitives and fills them up with adverbial stuffing. he presses the passing colloquialism into his service. his vast paragraphs sweat and struggle; they could not sweat and elbow and struggle more if god himself was the processional meaning to which they sought to come. and all for tales of nothingness.... it is leviathan retrieving pebbles. it is a magnificent but painful hippopotamus resolved at any cost, even at the cost of its dignity, upon picking up a pea which has got into a corner of its den. most things, it insists, are beyond it, but it can, at any rate, modestly, and with an artistic singleness of mind, pick up that pea...." § "a little while ago," said boon, suddenly struggling with his trouser pocket and producing some pieces of paper, "i sketched out a novel, and as it was rather in the manner of henry james i think perhaps you might be interested by it now. so much, that is, as there is of it. it is to be called 'the spoils of mr. blandish,' and it is all about this particular business of the selective life. mr. blandish, as i saw him, was pretty completely taken from the james ideal.... he was a man with an exquisite apprehension of particulars, with just that sense of there being a rightness attainable, a fitness, a charm, a finish.... in any little affair.... he believed that in speech and still more that in writing there was an inevitable right word, in actions great and small a mellowed etiquette, in everything a possible perfection. he was, in fact, the very soul of henry james--as i understand it.... this sort of man-- [illustration: _mr. blandish going delicately through life. "oh no! oh no! but _yes!_ and _this is it!_"_] "going delicately." i was able to secure the sketch. "he didn't marry, he didn't go upon adventures; lust, avarice, ambition, all these things that as milton says are to be got 'not without dust and heat,' were not for him. blood and dust and heat--he ruled them out. but he had independent means, he could live freely and delicately and charmingly, he could travel and meet and be delighted by all the best sorts of people in the best sorts of places. so for years he enriched his resonances, as an admirable violin grows richer with every note it sounds. he went about elaborately, avoiding ugliness, death, suffering, industrialism, politics, sport, the thought of war, the red blaze of passion. he travelled widely in the more settled parts of the world. chiefly he visited interesting and ancient places, putting his ever more exquisite sensorium at them, consciously taking delicate impressions upon the refined wax of his being. in a manner most carefully occasional, he wrote. always of faded places. his 'ypres' was wonderful. his 'bruges' and his 'hour of van eyk'.... "such," said boon, "is the hero. the story begins, oh! quite in the james manner with----" he read-- "'at times it seemed inaccessible, a thing beyond hope, beyond imagining, and then at times it became so concrete an imagination, a desire so specific, so nearly expressed, as to grow if not to the exact particulars of longitude and latitude, yet at any rate so far as county and district and atmosphere were concerned, so far indeed as an intuition of proximity was concerned, an intimation that made it seem at last at certain moments as if it could not possibly be very much farther than just round the corner or over the crest....' "but i've left a good bit of that to write up. in the book there will be pages and sheets of that sentence. the gist is that mr. blandish wants a house to live in and that he has an idea of the kind of house he wants. and the chapter, the long, unresting, progressing chapter, expands and expands; it never jumps you forward, it never lets you off, you can't skip and you can't escape, until there comes at last a culminating distension of statement in which you realize more and more clearly, until you realize it with the unforgettable certainty of a thing long fought for and won at last, that mr. blandish has actually come upon the house and with a vigour of decision as vivid as a flash of lightning in a wilderness of troubled clouds, as vivid indeed as the loud, sonorous bursting of a long blown bladder, has said '_this is it!_' on that '_this is it_' my chapter ends, with an effect of enormous relief, with something of the beautiful serenity that follows a difficult parturition. "the story is born. "and then we leap forward to possession. "'and here he was, in the warmest reality, in the very heart of the materialization of his dream----' he has, in fact, got the house. for a year or so from its first accidental discovery he had done nothing but just covet the house; too fearful of an overwhelming disappointment even to make a definite inquiry as to its accessibility. but he has, you will gather, taken apartments in the neighbourhood, thither he visits frequently, and almost every day when he walks abroad the coveted house draws him. it is in a little seaside place on the east coast, and the only available walks are along the shore or inland across the golf-links. either path offers tempting digressions towards _it_. he comes to know it from a hundred aspects and under a thousand conditions of light and atmosphere.... and while still in the early stage he began a curious and delicious secret practice in relationship. you have heard of the spaniard in love, in love with a woman he had seen but once, whom he might never see again, a princess, etiquette-defended, a goddess, and who yet, seeing a necklace that became her, bought it for the joy of owning something that was at least by fitness hers. even so did mr. blandish begin to buy first one little article and then, the fancy growing upon him more and more, things, 'pieces' they call them, that were in the vein of samphire house. and then came the day, the wonderful day, when as he took his afternoon feast of the eye, the door opened, some one came out towards him.... "it was incredible. they were giving him tea with hot, inadvisable scones--but their hotness, their close heaviness, he accepted with a ready devotion, would have accepted had they been ten times as hot and close and heavy, not heedlessly, indeed, but gratefully, willingly paying his price for these astonishing revelations that without an effort, serenely, calmly, dropped in between her gentle demands whether he would have milk and her mild inquiries as to the exact quantity of sugar his habits and hygienic outlook demanded, that his hostess so casually made. these generous, heedless people were talking of departures, of abandonments, of, so they put it, selling the dear old place, if indeed any one could be found to buy a place so old and so remote and--she pointed her intention with a laugh--so very, very dear. repletion of scones were a small price to pay for such a glowing, such an incredible gift of opportunity, thrust thus straight into the willing, amazed hands.... "he gets the house. he has it done up. he furnishes it, and every article of furniture seems a stroke of luck too good to be true. and to crown it all i am going to write one of those long crescendo passages that james loves, a sentence, pages of it, of happy event linking to happy event until at last the incredible completion, a butler, unquestionably early georgian, respectability, competence equally unquestionable, a wife who could cook, and cook well, no children, no thought or possibility of children, and to crown all, the perfect name--mutimer! [illustration: _mutimer at first._] "all this you must understand is told retrospectively as blandish installs himself in samphire house. it is told to the refrain, 'still, fresh every morning, came the persuasion "this is too good to be true."' and as it is told, something else, by the most imperceptible degrees, by a gathering up of hints and allusions and pointing details, gets itself told too, and that is the growing realization in the mind of blandish of a something extra, of something not quite bargained for,--the hoard and the haunting. about the house hangs a presence.... "he had taken it at first as a mere picturesque accessory to the whole picturesque and delightful wreathing of association and tradition about the place, that there should be this ancient flavour of the cutlass and the keg, this faint aroma of buried doubloons and stevensonian experiences. he had assumed, etc.... he had gathered, etc.... and it was in the most imperceptible manner that beyond his sense of these takings and assumptions and gatherings there grew his perception that the delicate quiver of appreciation, at first his utmost tribute to these illegal and adventurous and sanguinary associations, was broadening and strengthening, was, one hardly knew whether to say developing or degenerating, into a nervous reaction, more spinal and less equivocally agreeable, into the question, sensed rather than actually thought or asked, whether in fact the place didn't in certain lights and certain aspects and at certain unfavourable moments come near to evoking the ghost--if such sorites are permissible in the world of delicate shades--of the ghost, of the ghost of a shiver--of _aversion_.... "and so at page a hundred and fifty or thereabouts we begin to get into the story," said boon. "you wade through endless marshes of subtle intimation, to a sense of a presence in samphire house. for a number of pages you are quite unable to tell whether this is a ghost or a legend or a foreboding or simply old-fashioned dreams that are being allusively placed before you. but there is an effect piled up very wonderfully, of mr. blandish, obsessed, uneasy, watching furtively and steadfastly his guests, his callers, his domestics, continually asking himself, 'do they note it? are they feeling it?' "we break at last into incidents. a young friend of the impossible name of deshman helps evolve the story; he comes to stay; he seems to feel the influence from the outset, he cannot sleep, he wanders about the house.... do others know? _others?_... the gardener takes to revisiting the gardens after nightfall. he is met in the shrubbery with an unaccountable spade in his hand and answers huskily. why should a gardener carry a spade? why should he answer huskily? why should the presence, the doubt, the sense of something else elusively in the air about them, become intensified at the encounter? oh! conceivably of course in many places, but just _there_! as some sort of protection, it may be.... then suddenly as mr. blandish sits at his lonely but beautifully served dinner he becomes aware for the first time of a change in mutimer. [illustration: _mutimer at the end of a year._] "something told him in that instant that mutimer also _knew_.... "deshman comes again with a new and disconcerting habit of tapping the panelling and measuring the thickness of the walls when he thinks no one is looking, and then a sister of mr. blandish and a friend, a woman, yet not so much a woman as a disembodied intelligence in a feminine costume with one of those impalpable relationships with deshman that people have with one another in the world of henry james, an association of shadows, an atmospheric liaison. follow some almost sentenceless conversations. mr. blandish walks about the shrubbery with the friend, elaborately getting at it--whatever it is--and in front of them, now hidden by the yew hedges, now fully in view, walks deshman with the married and settled sister of mr. blandish.... "'so,' said mr. blandish, pressing the point down towards the newly discovered sensitiveness, 'where we feel, he it seems _knows_.' "she seemed to consider. "'he doesn't know completely,' was her qualification. "'but he has something--something tangible.' "'if he can make it tangible.' "on that the mind of mr. blandish played for a time. "'then it isn't altogether tangible yet?' "'it isn't tangible enough for him to go upon.' "'definitely something.' "her assent was mutely concise. "'that we on our part----?' "the _we_ seemed to trouble her. "'he knows more than you do,' she yielded. "the gesture, the half turn, the momentary halt in the paces of mr. blandish, plied her further. "'more, i think, than he has admitted--to any one.' "'even to you?' "he perceived an interesting wave of irritation. 'even to me,' he had wrung from her, but at the price of all further discussion. "putting the thing crassly," said boon, "deshman has got wind of a hoard, of a treasure, of something--heaven as yet only knows what something--buried, imbedded, in some as yet unexplained way incorporated with samphire house. on the whole the stress lies rather on treasure, the treasure of smuggling, of longshore practices, of illegality on the high seas. and still clearer is it that the amiable deshman wants to get at it without the participation of mr. blandish. until the very end you are never quite satisfied why deshman wants to get at it in so private a fashion. as the plot thickens you are played about between the conviction that deshman wants the stuff for himself and the firm belief of the lady that against the possible intervention of the treasury, he wants to secure it for mr. blandish, to secure it at least generously if nefariously, lest perhaps it should fall under the accepted definition and all the consequent confiscations of treasure trove. and there are further beautiful subtleties as to whether she really believes in this more kindly interpretation of the refined but dubitable deshman.... a friend of deshman's, shameless under the incredible name of mimbleton, becomes entangled in this thick, sweet flow of narrative--the james method of introducing a character always reminds me of going round with the lantern when one is treacling for moths. mimbleton has energy. he presses. under a summer dawn of delicious sweetness mimbleton is found insensible on the croquet lawn by mr. blandish, who, like most of the characters in the narrative from first to last, has been unable to sleep. and at the near corner of the house, close to a never before remarked ventilator, is a hastily and inaccurately refilled excavation.... "then events come hurrying in a sort of tangled haste--making sibyl-like gestures. "at the doorway mutimer appears--swaying with some profound emotion. he is still in his evening attire. he has not yet gone to bed. in spite of the dawn he carried a burning candle--obliquely. at the sight of his master he withdraws--backwards and with difficulty.... "then," said boon, "i get my crowning chapter: the breakfast, a peculiar _something_, something almost palpable in the atmosphere--deshman hoarse and a little talkative, mimbleton with a possibly nervous headache, husky also and demanding tea in a thick voice, mutimer waiting uneasily, and mr. blandish, outwardly calm, yet noting every particular, thinking meanings into every word and movement, and growing more and more clear in his conviction that _mutimer knows--knows everything_.... [illustration: _mutimer as the plot thickens._] "book two opens with mr. blandish practically in possession of the facts. putting the thing coarsely, the treasure is-- brandy, in considerable quantities bricked up in a disused cellar of samphire house. samphire house, instead of being the fine claret of a refuge mr. blandish supposed, is a loaded port. but of course in the novel we shall not put things coarsely, and for a long time you will be by no means clear what the 'spirit' is that mr. blandish is now resolved to exorcise. he is, in fact, engaged in trying to get that brandy away, trying to de-alcoholize his existence, trying--if one must put the thing in all the concrete crudity of his fundamental intention--to sell the stuff.... "now in real life you would just go and sell it. but people in the novels of henry james do not do things in the inattentive, offhand, rather confused, and partial way of reality: they bring enormous brains to bear upon the minutest particulars of existence. mr. blandish, following the laws of that world, has not simply to sell his brandy: he has to sell it subtly, intricately, interminably, with a delicacy, with a dignity.... "he consults friends--impalpable, intricate, inexhaustible friends. "there are misunderstandings. one old and trusted intimate concludes rather hastily that mr. blandish is confessing that he has written a poem, another that he is making a proposal of marriage, another that he wishes an introduction to the secretary of the psychical research society.... all this," said boon, "remains, perhaps indefinitely, to be worked out. only the end, the end, comes with a rush. deshman has found for him--one never gets nearer to it than the 'real right people.' the real right people send their agent down, a curious blend of gentleman and commercial person he is, to investigate, to verify, to estimate quantities. ultimately he will--shall we say it?--make an offer. with a sense of immense culmination the reader at last approaches the hoard.... "you are never told the thing exactly. it is by indefinable suggestions, by exquisite approaches and startings back, by circumlocution the most delicate, that your mind at last shapes its realization, that--the last drop of the last barrel has gone and that mutimer, the butler, lies dead or at least helpless--in the inner cellar. and a beautiful flavour, ripe and yet rare, rich without opulence, hangs--_diminuendo morendo_--in the air...." chapter the fifth of the assembling and opening of the world conference on the mind of the race § it must be borne in mind that not even the opening chapter of this huge book, "the mind of the race," was ever completely written. the discussion in the garden by the sea existed merely so far as the fragment of dialogue i have quoted took it. i do not know what mr. gosse contributed except that it was something bright, and that presently he again lost his temper and washed his hands of the whole affair and went off with mr. yeats to do a little academy thing of their own round a corner, and i do not know what became of the emissaries of lord northcliffe and mr. hearst. one conversation drops out of mind and another begins; it is like the battle of the aisne passing slowly into the battle of the yser. the idea develops into the holding of a definite congress upon the mind of the race at some central place. i don't think boon was ever very clear whether that place was chautauqua, or grindelwald, or stratford, or oxford during the long vacation, or the exhibition grounds at san francisco. it was, at any rate, some such place, and it was a place that was speedily placarded with all sorts of bills and notices and counsels, such as, "to the central hall," or "section b: criticism and reviewing," or "section m: prose style," or "authors' society (british) solicitors' department," or "exhibit of the reading room of the british museum." manifestly the model of a meeting of the british association for the advancement of science dominated his mind more and more, until at last he began to concoct a presidential address. and he invented a man called j. b. pondlebury, very active and illiterate, but an excellent organizer, trained by selfridge, that marshal field of london, who is very directive throughout. j. b. pondlebury orders the special trains, contrives impossible excursions, organizes garden fêtes and water parties, keeps people together who would prefer to be separated, and breaks up people who have been getting together. through all these things drifts hallery, whose writings started the idea, and sometimes he is almost, as it were, leader and sometimes he is like a drowned body in the torrent below niagara--pondlebury being niagara. on the whole the atmosphere of the great conference was american, and yet i distinctly remember that it was the special train to bâle of which he gave us an account one afternoon; it was a night journey of considerable eventfulness, with two adjacent carriages de luxe labelled respectively "specially reserved for miss marie corelli," and "specially reserved for mr. and mrs. george bernard shaw," with conspicuous reiterations. the other compartments were less exclusive, and contained curious minglings of greatness, activity, and reputation. sir j. m. barrie had an upper berth in a _wagon-lit_, where he remained sympathetically silent above a crowd of younger reputations, a crowd too numerous to permit the making of the lower berth and overflowing into the corridor. i remember boon kept jamming new people into that congestion. the whole train, indeed, was to be fearfully overcrowded. that was part of the joke. james joyce i recall as a novelist strange to me that boon insisted was a "first-rater." he represented him as being of immense size but extreme bashfulness. and he talked about d. h. lawrence, st. john ervine, reginald wright kauffman, leonard merrick, viola meynell, rose macaulay, katherine mansfield, mary austin, clutton brock, robert lynd, james stephens, philip guedalla, h. m. tomlinson, denis garstin, dixon scott, rupert brooke, geoffrey young, f. s. flint, marmaduke pickthall, randolph s. bourne, james milne---- "through all the jam, i think we must have ford madox hueffer, wandering to and fro up and down the corridor, with distraught blue eyes, laying his hands on heads and shoulders, the only uncle of the gifted young, talking in a languid, plangent tenor, now boasting about trivialities, and now making familiar criticisms (which are invariably ill-received), and occasionally quite absent-mindedly producing splendid poetry...." like most authors who have made their way to prominence and profit, boon was keenly sympathetic with any new writer who promised to do interesting work, and very ready with his praise and recognition. that disposition in these writing, prolific times would alone have choked the corridor. and he liked young people even when their promises were not exactly convincing. he hated to see a good book neglected, and was for ever ramming "the crystal age" and "said the fisherman" and "tony drum" and "george's mother" and "a hind let loose" and "growing pains" down the throats of his visitors. but there were very human and definite limits to his appreciations. conspicuous success, and particularly conspicuous respectable success, chilled his generosity. conrad he could not endure. i do him no wrong in mentioning that; it is the way with most of us; and a score of flourishing contemporaries who might have liked tickets for the conference special would have found great difficulty in getting them. there is a fascination in passing judgements and drawing up class lists. for a time the high intention of the mind of the race was forgotten while we talked the narrow "shop" of london literary journalism, and discovered and weighed and log-rolled and--in the case of the more established--blamed and condemned. that bâle train became less and less like a train and more and more like a descriptive catalogue. for the best part of an afternoon we talked of the young and the new, and then we fell into a discussion about such reputations as pickthall's and w. h. hudson's and the late stephen crane's, reputations ridiculously less than they ought to be, so that these writers, who are certainly as securely classic as beckford or herrick, are still unknown to half the educated english reading public. was it due to the haste of criticism or the illiteracy of publishers? that question led us so far away from the special bâle train that we never returned to it. but i know that we decided that the real and significant writers were to be only a small portion of the crowd that congested the train; there were also to be endless impostors, imitators, editors, raiders of the world of print.... at every important station there was to be a frightful row about all these people's tickets, and violent attempts to remove doubtful cases.... then mr. clement k. shorter was to come in to advise and help the conductor.... ultimately this led to trouble about mr. shorter's own credentials.... some of boon's jokes about this train were, to say the best of them, obvious. mr. compton mackenzie was in trouble about his excess luggage, for example. mr. upton sinclair, having carried out his ideal of an innocent frankness to a logical completeness in his travelling equipment, was forcibly wrapped in blankets by the train officials. mr. thomas hardy had a first-class ticket but travelled by choice or mistake in a second-class compartment, his deserted place being subsequently occupied by that promising young novelist mr. hugh walpole, provided with a beautiful fur rug, a fitted dressing-bag, a writing slope, a gold-nibbed fountain pen, innumerable introductions, and everything that a promising young novelist can need. the brothers chesterton, mr. maurice baring, and mr. belloc sat up all night in the _wagon-restaurant_ consuming beer enormously and conversing upon immortality and whether it extends to semitic and oriental persons. at the end of the train, i remember, there was to have been a horse-van containing mr. maurice hewlett's charger--mr. hewlett himself, i believe, was left behind by accident at the gare de lyons--mr. cunninghame graham's arab steed, and a large, quiet sheep, the inseparable pet of mr. arthur christopher benson.... there was also, i remember, a description of the whole party running for early coffee, which gave boon ample and regrettable opportunities for speculations upon the _déshabille_ of his contemporaries. much of the detail of that invention i prefer to forget, but i remember mr. shaw was fully prepared for the emerging with hand-painted pyjamas, over which he was wearing a saffron dressing-gown decorated in green and purple scrolls by one of the bolder artists associated with mr. roger fry, and as these special train allusions are all that i can ever remember boon saying about shaw, and as the drawing does in itself amount to a criticism, i give it here.... [illustration: _how mr. shaw knocked them all on bâle platform, and got right into the middle of the picture. remark his earnest face. this surely is no mountebank._] § boon was greatly exercised over the problem of a president. "why have a president?" dodd helped. "there must be a presidential address," said boon, "and these things always do have a president." "lord rosebery," suggested wilkins. "lord morley," said dodd. "lord bryce." then we looked at one another. "for my own part," said boon, "if we are going in for that sort of thing, i favour lord reay. "you see, lord reay has never done anything at all connected with literature. morley and bryce and rosebery have at any rate written things--historical studies, addresses, things like that--but reay has never written anything, and he let gollancz make him president of the british academy without a murmur. this seems to mark him out for this further distinction. he is just the sort of man who would be made--and who would let himself be made--president of a british affair of this sort, and they would hoist him up and he would talk for two or three hours without a blush. just like that other confounded peer--what was his name?--who bored and bored and bored at the anatole france dinner.... in the natural course of things it would be one of these literary lords...." "what would he say?" asked dodd. "maunderings, of course. it will make the book rather dull. i doubt if i can report him at length.... he will speak upon contemporary letters, the lack of current achievement.... i doubt if a man like lord reay ever reads at all. one wonders sometimes what these british literary aristocrats do with all their time. probably he left off reading somewhere in the eighties. he won't have noted it, of course, and he will be under the impression that nothing has been written for the past thirty years." "good lord!" said wilkins. "and he'll say that. slowly. steadily. endlessly. then he will thank god for the english classics, ask where now is our thackeray? where now our burns? our charlotte brontë? our tennyson? say a good word for our immortal bard, and sit down amidst the loud applause of thousands of speechlessly furious british and american writers...." "i don't see that this will help your book forward," said dodd. "no, but it's a proper way of beginning. like family prayers." "i suppose," said wilkins, "if you told a man of that sort that there were more and better poets writing in english beautifully in than ever before he wouldn't believe it. i suppose if you said that ford madox hueffer, for example, had produced sweeter and deeper poetry than alfred, lord tennyson, he'd have a fit." "he'd have nothing of the kind. you could no more get such an idea into the head of one of these great vestiges of our gladstonian days than you could get it into the seat of a windsor chair.... and people don't have fits unless something has got into them.... no, he'd reflect quite calmly that first of all he'd never heard of this hueffer, then that probably he was a very young man. and, anyhow, one didn't meet him in important places.... and after inquiry he would find out he was a journalist.... and then probably he'd cease to cerebrate upon the question...." § "besides," said boon, "we must have one of our literary peers because of america." "you're unjust to america," i said. "no," said boon. "but aunt dove--i know her ways." that led to a long, rambling discussion about the american literary atmosphere. nothing that i could say would make him relent from his emphatic assertion that it is a spinster atmosphere, an atmosphere in which you can't say all sorts of things and where all sorts of things have to be specially phrased. "and she can't stand young things and crude things----" "america!" said wilkins. "the america i mean. the sort of america that ought to supply young new writers with caresses and--nourishment. ...instead of which you get the _nation_.... that bleak acidity, that refined appeal to take the child away." "but they don't produce new young writers!" said wilkins. "but they do!" said boon. "and they strangle them!" it was extraordinary what a power metaphors and fancies had upon boon. only those who knew him intimately can understand how necessary miss bathwick was to him. he would touch a metaphor and then return and sip it, and then sip and drink and swill until it had intoxicated him hopelessly. "america," said boon, "can produce such a supreme writer as stephen crane--the best writer of english for the last half-century--or mary austin, who used to write---- what other woman could touch her? but america won't own such children. it's amazing. it's a case of concealment of birth. she exposes them. whether it's shame--or a chinese trick.... she'll sit never knowing she's had a stephen crane, adoring the european reputation, the florid mental gestures of a conrad. you see, she can tell conrad 'writes.' it shows. and she'll let mary austin die of neglect, while she worships the 'art' of mary ward. it's like turning from the feet of a goddess to a pair of goloshes. she firmly believes that old quack bergson is a bigger man than her own unapproachable william james.... she's incredible. i tell you it's only conceivable on one supposition.... i'd never thought before about these disgraceful sidelights on miss dove's career.... "we english do make foundlings of some of her little victims, anyhow.... but why hasn't she any natural instinct in the matter? "now, if one represented that peculiar bostonian intellectual gentility, the _nation_ kind of thing, as a very wicked, sour lady's-maid with a tremendous influence over the spinster's conduct...." his mind was running on. "i begin to see a melodramatic strain in this great novel, 'miss dove.'... 'miss dove's derelicts.'... too broad, i am afraid. if one were to represent sargent and henry james as two children left out one cold night in a basket at a cottage in the village by a mysterious stranger, with nothing but a roll of dollars and a rough drawing of the washington coat-of-arms to indicate their parentage.... "then when they grow up they go back to the big house and she's almost kind to them.... "have you ever read the critical articles of edgar allan poe? they're very remarkable. he is always demanding an american literature. it is like a deserted baby left to die in its cradle, weeping and wailing for its bottle.... what he wanted, of course, was honest and intelligent criticism. "to this day america kills her poes...." "but confound it!" said wilkins, "america does make discoveries for herself. hasn't she discovered lowes dickinson?" "but that merely helps my case. lowes dickinson has just the qualities that take the american judgement; he carries the shadow of king's college chapel about with him wherever he goes; he has an unobtrusive air of being doubly starred in baedeker and not thinking anything of it. and also she took noyes to her bosom. but when has american criticism ever had the intellectual pluck to proclaim an american? "and so, you see," he remarked, going off again at a tangent, "if we are going to bid for american adhesions there's only one course open to us in the matter of this presidential address.... lord morley...." "you're a little difficult to follow at times," said wilkins. "because he's the man who's safest not to say anything about babies or--anything alive.... obviously a literary congress in america must be a festival in honour of sterility. "aunt dove demands it. like celebrating the virginity of queen elizabeth...." § i find among the fragments of my departed friend some notes that seem to me to be more or less relevant here. they are an incomplete report of the proceedings of a section s, devoted to _poiometry_, apparently the scientific measurement of literary greatness. it seems to have been under the control of a special committee, including mr. james huneker, mr. slosson, sir thomas seccombe, mr. james douglas, mr. clement k. shorter, the acting editor of the _bookman_, and the competition editress of the _westminster gazette_.... apparently the notes refer to some paper read before the section. its authorship is not stated, nor is there any account of its reception. but the title is "the natural history of greatness, with especial reference to literary reputations." the opening was evidently one of those rapid historical sketches frequent in such papers. "persuasion that human beings are sometimes of disproportionate size appears first in the egyptian and syrian wall paintings.... probably innate.... the discouragement of the young a social necessity in all early societies. in all societies?... exaggerated stories about the departed.... golden ages. heroic ages. ancestor worship.... dead dogs better than living lions.... abraham. moses. the homeric reputation, the first great literary cant. resentment against homer's exaggerated claims on the part of intelligent people. zoilus. caricature of the homerists in the satyricon. other instances of unorthodox ancient criticism.... shakespeare as an intellectual nuisance.... extreme suffering caused to contemporary writers by the shakespeare legend.... "another form of opposition to these obsessions is the creation of countervailing reputations. certain people in certain ages have resolved to set up great men of their own to put beside these brocken spectres from the past. this marks a certain stage of social development, the beginning of self-consciousness in a civilized community. self-criticism always begins in self-flattery. virgil as an early instance of a great man of set intentions; deliberately put up as the latin homer.... "evolution of the greatness of aristotle during the middle ages. "little sense of contemporary greatness among the elizabethans. "comparison with the past the prelude to great-man-making, begins with such a work as swift's 'battle of the books.' concurrently the decline in religious feeling robs the past of its half-mystical prestige. the western world ripe for great men in the early nineteenth century. the germans as a highly competitive and envious people take the lead. the inflation of schiller. the greatness of goethe. incredible dullness of "elective affinities," of "werther," of "wilhelm meister's apprenticeship." the second part of "faust" a tiresome muddle. large pretentiousness of the man's career. resolve of the germans to have a great fleet, a great empire, a great man. difficulty in finding a suitable german for greatening. expansion of the goethe legend. german efficiency brought to bear on the task. lectures. professors. goethe compared to shakespeare. compared to homer. compared to christ. compared to god. discovered to be incomparable.... "stimulation of scotch activities. the scotch also passionately and aggressively patriotic. fortunate smallness of scotland and lack of adjacent docile germans has alone saved the world from another prussia. desperation of the search for a real scotch first rater. the discovery that burns was as great as shakespeare. greater. the booming of sir walter scott. wake up, england! the production of dickens. the slow but enormous discovery of wordsworth. victorian age sets up as a rival to the augustine. selection of great men in every department. the great victorian painters. sir frederick leighton, compared with titian and michael angelo. tennyson as virgil. lord tennyson at the crest of the victorian greatness wave. his hair. his cloak. his noble bearing. his aloofness. his great pipe. his price per word. his intellectual familiarities with queen victoria.... "longfellow essentially an american repartee.... "ingratitude of british royal family to those who contributed to the victorian greatness period, shown in the absence of representative great men from the buckingham palace monument. victoria did not do it all. compare the albert memorial.... "interesting task to plan an alternative pedestal. proposal to make designs for a monument to our own times. symbolic corner groups by will dyson. frieze of representative men by max. canopy by wyndham lewis. lost opportunity for much bright discussion.... "analysis of literary greatness. is any literary achievement essential to greatness? probably a minute minimum indispensable. burns. fitzgerald. but compare lord acton and lord reay. necessity of a marked personality. weaknesses, but no unpopular vices. greatness blighted by want of dignity. laurence sterne. reciprocal duty of those made great not to distress their public. but imperfectly established scandal or complexity of relationship may give scope for vindications and research. or a certain irregularity of life may create a loyal and devoted following of sympathizers. shelley.... then capable advocacy is needed and a critical world large enough to be effective but small enough to be unanimous. part an able publisher may play in establishing and developing a great man.... quiet push, not noisy push. injury done by tactless advertisement.... the element of luck.... "these are the seeds of greatness, but the growth depends upon the soil. the best soil is a large uncritical public newly come to reading, a little suspicious of the propriety of the practice and in a state of intellectual snobbishness. it must also be fairly uniform and on some common basis of ideas. ideally represented by the reading publics of germany, britain, the united states, and france in the middle nineteenth century.... "decline in the output of greatness towards the end of the victorian time. probably due in all cases to an enlargement of the reading public to unmanageable dimensions. no reputation sufficiently elastic to cover it. the growth of chicago, new york, and the west destroyed the preponderance of boston in america, and the civil war broke the succession of american great men. rarity of new american-born greatnesses after the war. dumping of established greatnesses from england gave no chance to the native market. no protection for america in this respect. in great britain the board schools create big masses of intelligent people inaccessible to the existing machinery by which greatness is imposed. the greatness output in britain declines also in consequence. mrs. humphry ward, the last of the british victorian great. expressed admiration of mr. gladstone for her work. support of the _spectator_. profound respect of the american people. rumour that she is represented as a sea goddess at the base of the queen victoria memorial unfounded. nobody is represented on the queen victoria memorial except queen victoria.... necessity after the epoch of mrs. ward of more and more flagrant advertisement to reach the enlarged public, so that at last touch is lost with the critical centres. great men beyond the limit. self-exploded candidates for greatness. boomsters. best sellers. mr. hall caine as the shocking example.... "other causes contributing to the decay of greatness among literary men. competition of politicians, princes, personages generally for the prestige of the literary man. superior initial advantage in conspicuousness. the genuine writer handicapped. the process already beginning at the crest of the period. queen victoria's 'leaves from a highland diary.' mr. gladstone and the higher windiness. later developments. the kaiser as a man of letters. mr. roosevelt as writer and critic. the essays of president wilson. the case of lord rosebery. mr. haldane as a philosopher. as a critic. his opinion of goethe. compare the royal and noble authors of byzantium. compare the roman emperor becoming pontifex maximus. compare the cannibal chief in a general's hat.... "return of the literary men as such to a decent obscurity. from which they are unlikely to emerge again. this an unmixed blessing. so long as good writing and sound thinking are still appreciated the less we hear about authors the better. never so little recognized greatness and never so much wise, subtle, sweet, and boldly conceived literary work as now. this will probably continue. [he was writing before the war.] the english-reading literary world too large now for the operations of greatening. doubtful case of rabindranath tagore. discuss this. special suitability of india as a basis for greatness. india probably on the verge of a greatness period.... "disrespect a natural disposition in the young. checked and subdued in small societies, but now happily rampant in the uncontrollable english-speaking communities. the new (undignified) criticism. the _english review_. mr. austin harrison and the street-boy style. the literature of the chalked fence. the _new age_. literary carbolic acid--with an occasional substitution of vitriol.... insurrection of the feminine mind against worship. miss rebecca west as the last birth of time. a virile-minded generation of young women indicated. mrs. humphry ward blushes publicly for the _freewoman_ in the _times_. hitherto greatness has demanded the applause of youth and feminine worship as necessary conditions. as necessary to its early stages as down to an eider chick. impossible to imagine incipient greatness nestling comfortably upon orage, austin harrison, and rebecca west. dearth of young sidney colvins.... unhappy position of various derelict and still imperfectly developed great surviving from the old times. arnold bennett as an aborted great man. would have made a great victorian and had a crowd of satellite helpers. now no one will ever treasure his old hats and pipes.... "idea of an experimental resurrection of those who still live in our hearts. if goethe had a second time on earth----? could he do it now? would lord haldane perceive him? imaginary description of lord haldane's recognition of a youthful goethe. they meet by accident during a walking tour in germany. amiable aloofness of lord haldane. his gradual discovery of an intellectual superior in his modest companion. public proclamation of his find.... doubts.... "peroration. will the world be happy without literary greatnesses? improvise and take a cheerful line upon this question." [illustration: _miss rebecca west, pensive, after writing her well-known opinion of that great good woman-soul, miss ellen key._] § ultimately, against every possibility of the case, boon decided that the president of his conference must be hallery. and he wrote his presidential address. but he never read that address to us. some shyness i think restrained him. i dig it out here now for the first time, a little astonished at it, disposed to admire something in its spirit.... but yet one has to admit that it shows an extraordinary lapse from boon's accustomed mocking humour. here is the opening. "hallery then advanced to the edge of the platform and fumbled with his manuscript. his face was very white and his expression bitterly earnest. with an appearance of effort he began, omitting in his nervousness any form of address to his audience-- "'for the most part, the life of human communities has been as unconscious as the life of animals. they have been born as unknowingly as the beasts; they have followed unforeseen and unheeded destinies, and destruction has come to them from forces scarcely anticipated and not understood. tribes, nations beyond counting, have come and passed, with scarcely a mental activity beyond a few legends, a priestly guess at cosmogony, a few rumours and traditions, a list of kings as bare as a schoolboy's diary, a war or so, a triumph or so.... we are still only in the beginning of history--in the development, that is, of a racial memory; we have as yet hardly begun to inquire into our racial origins, our racial conditions, our racial future.... philosophy, which is the discussion of the relation of the general to the particular, of the whole to the part, of the great and yet vague life of the race to the intense yet manifestly incomplete life of the individual, is still not three thousand years old. man has lived consciously as man it may be for hundreds of thousands of years, he has learnt of himself by talking to his fellows, he has expressed personal love and many personal feelings with a truth and beauty that are well nigh final, but the race does but begin to live as a conscious being. it begins to live as a conscious being, and as it does so, the individual too begins to live in a new way, a greater, more understanding, and more satisfying way. his thoughts apprehend interests beyond himself and beyond his particular life....' "at this point hallery became so acutely aware of his audience that for some seconds he could not go on reading. a number of people in various parts of the hall had suddenly given way to their coughs, a bald-headed gentleman about the middle of the assembly had discovered a draught, and was silently but conspicuously negotiating for the closing of a window by an attendant, and at the back a cultivated-looking young gentleman was stealing out on tiptoe. [illustration: _the first departure._] "for a moment hallery was distressed by the thought that perhaps he might have taken a more amusing line than the one he had chosen, and then, realizing how vain were such regrets and rather quickening his pace, he resumed the reading of his address-- "'you see that i am beginning upon a very comprehensive scale, for i propose to bring within the scope of this conference all that arises out of these two things, out of the realization of the incompleteness of man's individual life on the one hand and out of the realization of a greater being in which man lives, of a larger racial life and ampler references upon the other. all this much--and with a full awareness of just how much it is--i am going to claim as literature and our province. religion, i hold, every religion so far as it establishes and carries ideas, is literature, philosophy is literature, science is literature; a pamphlet or a leading article. i put all these things together----' "at this point there was a second departure. [illustration: _the second departure._] almost immediately followed by a third. [illustration: _the third departure._] "hallery halted for a second time and then gripped the reading-desk with both hands, and, reading now with a steadily accelerated velocity, heeded his audience no more-- "'i put all these things together because, indeed, it is only associations of antiquity and prescription and prestige can separate them. altogether they constitute the great vague body of man's super-personal mental life, his unselfish life, his growing life, as a premeditating, self-conscious race and destiny. here in growing volume, in this comprehensive literature of ours, preserved, selected, criticized, re-stated, continually rather more fined, continually rather more clarified, we have the mind, not of a mortal but of an immortal adventurer. whom for the moment, fractionally, infinitesimally, whenever we can forget ourselves in pure feeling, in service, in creative effort or disinterested thought, we are privileged in that measure to become. this wonder that we celebrate, this literature, is the dawn of human divinity. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .'" but though hallery went on, i do not, on reflection, think that i will. i doubt if boon ever decided to incorporate this extraordinary presidential address in our book; i think perhaps he meant to revise it or substitute something else. he wanted to state a case for the extreme importance of literature, and to my mind he carried his statement into regions mystical, to say the least of it, and likely to be considered blasphemous by many quite right-minded people. for instance, he made hallery speak of the word that links men's minds. he brings our poor, mortal, mental activities into the most extraordinary relationship with those greater things outside our lives which it is our duty to revere as much as possible and to think about as little as possible; he draws no line between them.... he never, i say, read the paper to us.... i cannot guess whether he did not read it to us because he doubted himself or because he doubted us, and i do not even care to examine my own mind to know whether i do or do not believe in the thesis he sets so unhesitatingly down. in a sense it is no doubt true that literature is a kind of over-mind of the race, and in a sense, no doubt, the bible and the koran, the talmud and the prayer book are literature. in a sense mr. upton sinclair's "bible" for socialists of bits from ancient and modern writings is literature. in a sense, too, literature does go on rather like a continuous mind thinking.... but i feel that all this is just in a sense.... i don't really believe it. i am not quite sure what i do really believe, but i certainly recoil from anything so crudely positive as hallery's wild assertions.... it would mean worshipping literature. or at least worshipping the truth in literature.... of course, one knows that real literature is something that has to do with leisure and cultivated people and books and shaded lamps and all that sort of thing. but hallery wants to drag in not only cathedrals and sanctuaries, but sky-signs and hoardings.... he wants literature to embrace whatever is in or whatever changes the mind of the race, except purely personal particulars. and i think boon was going to make hallery claim this, just in order to show up against these tremendous significances the pettiness of the contemporary literary life, the poverty and levity of criticism, the mean business side of modern book-making and book-selling.... turning over the pages of this rejected address, which i am sure the reader would not thank me for printing, i do come upon this presentable passage, which illustrates what i am saying-- "so that every man who writes to express or change or criticize an idea, every man who observes and records a fact in the making of a research, every man who hazards or tests a theory, every artist of any sort who really expresses, does thereby, in that very act, participate, share in, become for just that instant when he is novel and authentically _true_, the mind of the race, the thinking divinity. do you not see, then, what an arrogant worship, what a sacramental thing it is to lift up brain and hand and say, '_i too will add_'? we bring our little thoughts as the priest brings a piece of common bread to consecration, and though we have produced but a couplet or a dozen lines of prose, we have nevertheless done the parallel miracle. and all reading that is reading with the mind, all conscious subjugation of our attention to expressed beauty, or expressed truth, is sacramental, is communion with the immortal being. we lift up our thoughts out of the little festering pit of desire and vanity which is one's individual self into that greater self...." so he talks, and again presently of "that world-wide immortal communion incessant as the march of sun and planets amidst the stars...." and then, going on with his vast comparison, for i cannot believe this is more than a fantastic parallelism: "and if the mind that does, as we say, create is like the wafer that has become miraculously divine, then though you may not like to think of it, all you who give out books, who print books and collect books, and sell books and lend them, who bring pictures to people's eyes, set things forth in theatres, hand out thought in any way from the thinking to the attentive mind, all you are priests, you do a priestly office, and every bookstall and hoarding is a wayside shrine, offering consolation and release to men and women from the intolerable prison of their narrow selves...." § that, i think, is what boon really at the bottom of his heart felt and believed about literature. and yet in some way he could also not believe it; he could recognize something about it that made him fill the margin of the manuscript of this address with grotesque figures of an imaginary audience going out. they were, i know, as necessary to his whole conception as his swinging reference to the stars; both were as much part of his profound belief as the gargoyle on the spire and the high altar are necessary parts of a gothic cathedral. and among other figures i am amused rather than hurt to find near the end this of myself-- [illustration: _too high-pitched even for reginald._] chapter the sixth of not liking hallery and the royal society for the discouragement of literature § in the same peculiar receptacle in which i find this presidential address i found a quantity of other papers and scraps of paper, upon which boon, i should judge, had been thinking about that address and why he was ashamed to produce it to us, and why he perceived that this audience would dislike hallery so much that he was obliged to admit that they would go out before his lecture was finished, and why he himself didn't somehow like this hallery that he had made. all these writings are in the nature of fragments, some are illegible and more are incomprehensible; but it is clear that his mind attacked these questions with a most extraordinary width of reference. i find him writing about the one and the many, the general and the particular, the species and the individual, declaring that it is through "the dimensions (_sic_) of space and time" that "individuation" becomes possible, and citing darwin, heraclitus, kant, plato, and tagore, all with a view to determining just exactly what it was that irritated people in the breadth and height and expression of hallery's views. or to be more exact, what he knew would have irritated people with these views if they had ever been expressed. here is the sort of thing that i invite the intelligent reader to link up if he can with the very natural phenomenon of a number of quite ordinary sensible people hostile and in retreat before a tedious, perplexing, and presumptuous discourse-- "the individual human mind spends itself about equally in headlong flight from the universal, which it dreads as something that will envelop and subjugate it, and in headlong flight to the universal, which it seeks as a refuge from its own loneliness and silliness. it knows very certainly that the universal will ultimately comprehend and incorporate it, yet it desires always that the universal should _mother_ it, take it up without injuring it in the slightest degree, foment and nourish its egotism, cherish fondly all its distinctions, give it all the kingdoms of existence to play with.... "ordinary people snuggle up to god as a lost leveret in a freezing wilderness might snuggle up to a siberian tiger.... "you see that man who flies and seeks, who needs and does not want, does at last get to a kind of subconscious compromise over the matter. couldn't he perhaps get the infinite with the chill off? couldn't he perhaps find a warm stuffed tiger? he cheats himself by hiding in what he can pretend is the goal. so he tries to escape from the pursuit of the living god to dead gods, evades religion in a church, does his best to insist upon time-honoured formulæ; god must have a button on the point. and it is our instinctive protection of the subconscious arrangement that makes us so passionately resentful at raw religion, at crude spiritual realities, at people who come at us saying harsh understandable things about these awful matters.... _they may wake the tiger!..._ "we like to think of religion as something safely specialized, codified, and put away. then we can learn the rules and kick about a bit. but when some one comes along saying that science is religion, literature is religion, business--they'll come to that presently!--business is religion!... "it spoils the afternoon.... "but that alone does not explain why hallery, delivering his insistent presidential address, is detestable to his audience--for it is quite clear that he is detestable. i'm certain of it. no, what is the matter there is that the aggression of the universal is pointed and embittered by an all too justifiable suspicion that the individual who maintains it is still more aggressive, has but armed himself with the universal in order to achieve our discomfiture.... it's no good his being modest; that only embitters it. it is no good his making disavowals; that only shows that he is aware of it.... "of course i invented hallery only to get this burthen off myself.... "all spiritual truths ought to be conveyed by a voice speaking out of a dark void. as hardy wants his spirits to speak in the 'dynasts.' failing that, why should we not deal with these questions through the anonymity of a gramophone?... "a modern religion founded on a mysterious gramophone which was discovered carefully packed in a box of peculiar construction on a seat upon primrose hill.... "how well the great organized religions have understood this! how sound is the effort to meet it by shaving a priest's head or obliging him to grow a beard, putting him into canonicals, drilling him and regimenting him, so as to make him into a mere type.... "if i were to found a religion, i think i should insist upon masked priests...." § this idea that the defensive instinct of the individuality, jealousy, is constantly at war not only with other individualities but with all the great de-individualizing things, with faith, with science, with truth, with beauty; that out of its resentments and intricate devices one may draw the explanation of most of the perplexities and humours of the intellectual life, indeed the explanation of most life and of most motives, is the quintessence of boon. the mind of the race toils through this jungle of jealous individuality to emerge. and the individual, knowing that single-handed he hasn't a chance against the immortal, allies himself with this and that, with sham immortalities, and partially effaced and partially confuted general things. and so it sets up its greatnesses, to save it from greatness, its solemnities to preserve it from the overwhelming gravity of truth. "see," it can say, "i have my gods already, thank you. i do not think we will discuss this matter further." i admit the difficulty of following boon in this. i admit, too, that i am puzzled about his mind of the race. does he mean by that expression a great wisdom and will that must be, or a great wisdom and will that might be? but here he goes on with the topic of hallery again. "i invented hallery to get rid of myself, but, after all, hallery is really no more than the shadow of myself, and if i were impersonal and well bred, and if i spoke behind a black screen, it would still be as much my voice as ever. i do not see how it is possible to prevent the impersonal things coming by and through persons; but at any rate we can begin to recognize that the person who brings the message is only in his way like the messenger-boy who brings the telegrams. the writer may have a sensitive mind, the messenger-boy may have nimble heels; that does not make him the creator of the thing that comes. then i think people will be able to listen to such lectures as this of hallery's without remembering all the time that it's a particular human being with a white face and a lisp.... and perhaps they will be able to respect literature and fine thought for the sake of the general human mind for which they live and for the sake of their own receptiveness...." § and from that boon suddenly went off into absurdities. "should all literature be anonymous?" he asks at the head of a sheet of notes. "but one wants an author's name as a brand. perhaps a number would suffice. would authors write if they remained unknown? mixed motives. could one run a church with an unsalaried priesthood? but certainly now the rewards are too irregular, successful authors are absurdly flattered and provoked to impossible ambitions. could we imitate the modern constitutional state by permitting limited ambitions but retaining all the higher positions inaccessible to mere enterprise and merit? hereditary novelists, poets, and philosophers, for example. the real ones undistinguished. hereditary historians and scientific men are already practical reality. then such mischievous rewards and singlings out as the nobel prize could be distributed among these official intellectuals by lot or (better) by seniority. it would prevent much heartburning...." these last notes strike me as an extraordinary declension from the, at least, exalted argument of the preceding memoranda. but they do serve to emphasize the essence of--what shall i call it?--boonism, the idea that there is a great collective mental process going on in many minds, and that it is impertinent and distracting to single out persons, great men, groups and schools, coteries and academies. the flame burns wide and free. it is here; it is gone. you had it; you have it not. and again you see it plainly, stretching wide across the horizon.... § but after these scrappy notes about jealousy and how people protect their minds against ideas, and especially the idea which is god, and against the mental intrusions of their fellow-creatures conveying ideas, i understand better the purport of that uninvited society, which he declared insisted upon coming to the great conference upon the mind of the race, and which held such enthusiastic and crowded meetings that at last it swamped all the rest of the enterprise. it was, he declared, to the bitter offence of dodd, a society with very much the same attitude towards all impersonal mental activities that the rationalist press association has to religion, and it was called the royal society for the discouragement of literature. "why 'royal'?" i asked. "oh--obviously," he said.... this royal society was essentially an organization of the conservative instincts of man. its aim was to stop all this thinking.... and yet in some extraordinary way that either i did not note at the time or that he never explained, it became presently the whole conference! the various handbills, pamphlets in outline, notes for lectures, and so forth, that accompanied his notes of the proceedings of the royal society may either be intended as part of the sectional proceedings of the great conference or as the production of this hostile organization. i will make a few extracts from the more legible of these memoranda which render the point clearer. § publishers and book distributors (_comparable to the priest who hands the elements and as much upon their honour._) the publisher regrets that the copy for this section is missing, and fears that the substance of it must be left to the imagination of the reader. this is the more regrettable as the section was probably of a highly technical nature. § the young reviewer here, again, mr. boon's notes are not to be found, and repeated applications to mr. bliss have produced nothing but a vague telegram to "go ahead." § the schoolmaster and literature "essentially the work of the schoolmaster is to prepare the young and naturally over-individualized mind for communion with the mind of the race. essentially his curriculum deals with modes of expression, with languages, grammar, the mathematical system of statement, the various scientific systems of statement, the common legend of history. all leads up, as the scholar approaches adolescence, to the introduction to living literature, living thought, criticism, and religion. but when we consider how literature is taught in schools----" here the writing leaves off abruptly, and then there is written in very minute letters far down the page and apparently after an interval for reflection-- "scholastic humour _o god!_" chapter the seventh wilkins makes certain objections § wilkins the author began to think about the mind of the race quite suddenly. he made an attack upon boon as we sat in the rose-arbour smoking after lunch. wilkins is a man of a peculiar mental constitution; he alternates between a brooding sentimental egotism and a brutal realism, and he is as weak and false in the former mood as he is uncompromising in the latter. i think the attraction that certainly existed between him and boon must have been the attraction of opposites, for boon is as emotional and sentimental in relation to the impersonal aspects of life as he is pitiless in relation to himself. wilkins still spends large portions of his time thinking solemnly about some ancient trouble in which he was treated unjustly; i believe i once knew what it was, but i have long since forgotten. yet when his mind does get loose from his own "case" for a bit it is, i think, a very penetrating mind indeed. and, at any rate, he gave a lot of exercise to boon. "all through this book, boon," he began. "what book?" asked dodd. "this one we are in. all through this book you keep on at the idea of the mind of the race. it is what the book is about; it is its theme. yet i don't see exactly what you are driving at. sometimes you seem to be making out this mind of the race to be a kind of god----" "a synthetic god," said boon. "if it is to be called a god at all." dodd nodded as one whose worst suspicions are confirmed. "then one has to assume it is a continuing, coherent mind, that is slowly becoming wider, saner, profounder, more powerful?" boon never likes to be pressed back upon exact statements. "yes," he said reluctantly. "in general--on the whole--yes. what are you driving at?" "it includes all methods of expression from the poster when a play is produced at his majesty's theatre, from the cheering of the crowd when a fireman rescues a baby, up to--walter pater." "so far as pater expresses anything," said boon. "then you go on from the elevation this idea of a secular quasi-divine racial mental progress gives you, to judge and condemn all sorts of decent artistic and literary activities that don't fall in or don't admit that they fall in...." "something of that idea," said boon, growing a little testy--"something of that idea." "it gives you an opportunity of annoying a number of people you don't like." "if i offend, it is their fault!" said boon hotly. "criticism can have no friendships. if they like to take it ill.... my criticism is absolutely, honest.... some of them are my dearest friends." "they won't be," said wilkins, "when all this comes out.... but, anyhow, your whole case, your justification, your thesis is that there is this mind of the race, overriding, dominating---- and that you are its prophet." "because a man confesses a belief, wilkins, that doesn't make him a prophet. i don't set up--i express." "your mind of the race theory has an elegance, a plausibility, i admit," said wilkins. dodd's expression indicated that it didn't take him in. he compressed his lips. not a bit of it. "but is this in reality true? is this what exists and goes on? we people who sit in studies and put in whole hours of our days thinking and joining things together do get a kind of coherence into our ideas about the world. just because there is leisure and time for us to think. but are you sure that is the race at all? that is my point. aren't we intellectually just a by-product? if you went back to the time of plato, you would say that the idea of his "republic" was what was going on in the mind of the race then. but i object that that was only the futile fancy of a gentleman of leisure. what was really going on was the gathering up of the macedonian power to smash through greece, and then make greece conquer asia. your literature and philosophy are really just the private entertainment of old gentlemen out of the hurly-burly and ambitious young men too delicate to hunt or shoot. thought is nothing in the world until it begins to operate in will and act, and the history of mankind doesn't show now, and it never has shown, any consecutive relation to human thinking. the real mind of the race is, i submit, something not literary at all, not consecutive, but like the inconsecutive incoherences of an idiot----" "no," said boon, "of a child." "you have wars, you have great waves of religious excitement, you have patriotic and imperial delusions, you have ill-conceived and surprising economic changes----" "as if humanity as a whole were a mere creature of chance and instinct," said boon. "exactly," said wilkins. "i admit that," said boon. "but my case is that sanity grows. that what was ceases to be. the mind of reason gets now out of the study into the market-place." "you mean really, boon, that the mind of the race isn't a mind that _is_, it is just a mind that becomes." "that's what it's all about," said boon. "and that is where i want to take you up," said wilkins. "i want to suggest that the mind of the race may be just a gleam of conscious realization that passes from darkness to darkness----" "_no_," said boon. "why not?" "because i will not have it so," said boon. § there can be no denying that from quite an early stage in the discussion boon was excited and presently on the verge of ill-temper. this dragging of his will into a question of fact showed, i think, the beginning of his irritation. and he was short and presently rather uncivil in his replies to wilkins. boon argued that behind the individualities and immediacies of life there was in reality a consecutive growth of wisdom, that larger numbers of people and a larger proportion of people than ever before were taking part in the world mind process, and that presently this would become a great conscious general thinking of the race together. wilkins admitted that there had been a number of starts in the direction of impersonal understanding and explanation; indeed, there was something of the sort in every fresh religious beginning; but he argued that these starts do not show a regular progressive movement, and that none of them had ever achieved any real directive and unifying power over their adherents; that only a few christians had ever grasped christianity, that brahminism fell to intellectual powder before it touched the crowd, that nowadays there was less sign than ever of the honest intellectuals getting any hold whatever upon the minds and movements of the popular mass.... "the mind of the race," said wilkins, "seems at times to me much more like a scared child cowering in the corner of a cage full of apes." boon was extraordinarily disconcerted by these contradictions. "it will grow up," he snatched. "if the apes let it," said wilkins. "you can see how completely the thinkers and poets and all this stuff of literature and the study don't represent the real mind, such as it is, of humanity, when you note how the mass of mankind turns naturally to make and dominate its own organs of expression. take the popular press, take the popular theatre, take popular religion, take current fiction, take the music-hall, watch the development of the cinematograph. there you have the real body of mankind expressing itself. if you are right, these things should fall in a kind of relationship to the intellectual hierarchy. but the intellectual hierarchy goes and hides away in country houses and beautiful retreats and provincial universities and stuffy high-class periodicals. it's afraid of the mass of men, it dislikes and dreads the mass of men, and it affects a pride and aloofness to cover it. plato wanted to reorganize social order and the common life; the young man in the twopenny tube was the man he was after. he wanted to exercise him and teach him exactly what to do with the young woman beside him. instead of which poor plato has become just an occasion for some oxford don to bleat about his unapproachable style and wisdom...." "i admit we're not connected up yet," said boon. "you're more disconnected than ever you were. in the middle ages there was something like a connected system of ideas in christendom, so that the pope and the devout fishwife did in a sense march together...." you see the wrangling argument on which they were launched. boon maintained that there was a spreading thought process, clearly perceptible nowadays, and that those detachments of wilkins' were not complete. he instanced the cheap editions of broad-thinking books, the variety of articles in the modern newspaper, the signs of wide discussions. wilkins, on the other hand, asserted a predominant intellectual degeneration.... moreover, wilkins declared, with the murmurous approval of dodd, that much even of the academic thought process was going wrong, that bergson's pragmatism for ladies was a poor substitute even for herbert spencer, that the boom about "mendelism" was a triumph of weak thinking over comprehensive ideas. "even if we leave the masses out of account, it is still rather more than doubtful if there is any secular intellectual growth." and it is curious to recall now that as an instance of a degenerative thought process among educated people wilkins instanced modern germany. here, he said, in the case of a mind covering over a hundred million people altogether, was a real retrocession of intellectual freedom. the pretentious expression of instinctive crudity had always been the peculiar weakness of the german mind. it had become more and more manifest, he said, as nationalism had ousted foreign influence. you see what pretty scope for mutual contradiction there was in all this. "let me get books," cried wilkins, "and i will read you samples of the sort of thing that passes for thinking in germany. i will read you some of houston stewart chamberlain, some of nietzsche's boiling utterance, some of schopenhauer." "let me," said wilkins, "read a passage i have picked almost haphazard from schopenhauer. one gets schopenhauer rammed down one's throat as a philosopher, as a deep thinker, as the only alternative to the hegelian dose. and just listen----" he began to read in a voice of deliberate malice, letting his voice italicize the more scandalous transitions of what was certainly a very foolish and ill-knit piece of assertion. "'little men have a decided inclination for big women, and _vice versâ_; and indeed in a little man the preference for big women will be so much the more passionate if he himself was begotten by a big father, and only remains little through the influence of his mother; because he has inherited from his father the vascular system and its energy which was able to supply a large body with blood. if, on the other hand, his father and grandfather were both little, that inclination will make itself less felt. at the foundation of the aversion of a big woman to big men lies _the intention of nature_ to avoid too big a race.... further, the consideration as to the complexion is very decided. blondes prefer dark persons or brunettes; but the latter seldom prefer the former. _the reason is_, that fair hair and blue eyes are in themselves a variation from the type, almost an abnormity, analogous to white mice, or at least to grey horses. in no part of the world, not even in the vicinity of the pole, are they indigenous, except in europe, and are clearly of scandinavian origin. i may here express my opinion in passing that the white colour of the skin is not natural to man, but that by nature he has a black or brown skin, like _our forefathers the hindus_; that consequently a white man has never originally sprung from the womb of nature, and that thus there is no such thing as a white race, much as this is talked of, but every white man is a faded or bleached one. forced into this strange world, where he only exists like an exotic plant, and like this requires in winter the hothouse, in the course of thousands of years man became white. the gipsies, an indian race which immigrated only about four centuries ago, show the transition from the complexion of the hindu to our own. _therefore_ in sexual love nature strives to return to dark hair and brown eyes as the primitive type; but the white colour of the skin has become second nature, though not so that the brown of the hindu repels us. finally, each one also seeks in the particular parts of the body the corrective of his own defects and aberrations, and does so the more decidedly the more important the part is. _therefore_ snub-nosed individuals have an inexpressible liking for hook-noses, parrot-faces; and it is the same with regard to all other parts. men with excessively slim, long bodies and limbs can find beauty in a body which is even beyond measure stumpy and short.... whoever is himself in some respects very perfect does not indeed seek and love imperfection in this respect, but is yet more easily reconciled to it than others; because he himself insures the children against great imperfection of this part. for example, whoever is himself very white will not object to a yellow complexion; but whoever has the latter will find dazzling whiteness divinely beautiful.' (you will note that he perceives he has practically contradicted this a few lines before, and that evidently he has gone back and stuck in that saving clause about a white skin being second nature.) 'the rare case in which a man falls in love with a decidedly ugly woman occurs when, beside the exact harmony of the degree of sex explained above, the whole of her abnormities are precisely the opposite, and thus the corrective, of his. the love is then wont to reach a high degree....' "and so on and so on," said wilkins. "just a foolish, irresponsible saying of things. and all this stuff, this celibate cerebration, you must remember, is not even fresh; it was said far more funnily and pleasantly by old campanella in his 'city of the sun.' and, mind you, this isn't a side issue schopenhauer is upon; it isn't a moment of relaxation; this argument is essential to the whole argument of his philosophy...." "but after all," said boon, "schopenhauer is hardly to be considered a modern. he was pre-darwinian." "exactly why i begin with him," said wilkins. "he was a contemporary of darwin, and it was while darwin was patiently and industriously building up evidence, that this nonsense, a whole torrent of it, a complete doctrine about the will to live, was being poured out. but what i want you to notice is that while the sort of cautious massing of evidence, the close reasoning, the honesty and veracity, that distinguished the method of darwin and huxley, are scarcely to be met with anywhere to-day, this spouting style of doing things is everywhere. take any of the stuff of that intellectual jackdaw, bernard shaw, and you will find the schopenhauer method in full development; caught-up ideas, glib, irrational transitions, wild assertions about the life force, about the effects of alcohol, about 'fear-poisoned' meat, about medical science, about economic processes, about russia, about the irish temperament and the english intelligence, about the thoughts and mental processes of everybody and every sort of mind, stuff too incoherent and recklessly positive ever to be systematically answered. and yet half at least of the english-speaking intelligenzia regards shaw as a part of the thought process of the world. schopenhauer was a pioneer in the game of impudent assertion, very properly disregarded by his own generation; shaw's dementia samples this age. you see my case? in any rationally trained, clear-headed period shaw would have been looked into, dissected, and disposed of long ago.... and here i have two other of the voices that this time respects. it is all my argument that they are respected now enormously, boon; not merely that they exist. men to talk and write foolishly, to make groundless positive statements and to misapprehend an opponent there have always been, but this age now tolerates and accepts them. here is that invalid englishman, houston stewart chamberlain, who found a more congenial, intellectual atmosphere in germany, and this is his great book, 'the foundations of the nineteenth century.' this book has been received with the utmost solemnity in the highest quarters; nowhere has it been handed over to the derision which is its only proper treatment. you remember a rather readable and rather pretentious history we had in our schooldays, full of bad ethnology about kelts and anglo-saxons, called j. r. green's 'history of the english people'; it was part of that movement of professorial barbarity, of braggart race-imperialism and anti-irishism, of which froude and freeman were leaders; it smelt of carlyle and germany, it helped provoke the keltic renascence. well, that was evidently, the germ of herr chamberlain. here----" wilkins turned over the pages. "here he is, in fairly good form. it is a section called 'the turning point,' and it's quite on all fours with schopenhauer's 'our ancestors the hindus.' it is part of a sketch in outline of the history of the past. 'the important thing,' he says, is to 'fix the turning-point of the history of europe.' while he was at it he might just as well have _fixed_ the equator of the history of europe and its sparking-plug and the position of its liver. now, listen-- "'the awakening of the teutonic peoples to the consciousness of their all-important vocation as the founders of a completely new civilization and culture marks the turning-point; the year can be designated the central moment of this awakening.' "just consider that. he does not even trouble to remind us of the very considerable literature that must exist, of course, as evidence of that awakening. he just flings the statement out, knowing that his sort of follower swallows all such statements blind, and then, possibly with some qualms of doubt about what may have been happening in spain and italy and india and china and japan, he goes on-- "'scarcely any one will have the hardihood to deny that the inhabitants of northern europe have become the makers of the world's history. at no time have they stood alone ... others, too, have exercised influence--indeed great influence--upon the destinies of mankind, but then _always merely as opponents of the men from the north_....' "poor jenghiz khan, who had founded the mogul empire in india just about that time, and was to lay the foundations of the yuen dynasty, and prepare the way for the great days of the mings, never knew how _mere_ his relations were with these marvellous 'men from the north.' the tartars, it is true, were sacking moscow somewhere about twelve hundred.... but let us get on to more of the recital of teutonic glories. "'if, however, the teutons were not the only people who moulded the world's history' (generous admission) 'they unquestionably' (that _unquestionably_!) 'deserve the first place; all those who appear as genuine shapers of the destinies of mankind, whether as builders of states or as discoverers of new thoughts and of original art' (oh japan! oh ming dynasty! oh art and life of india!) 'belong to the teutonic race. the impulse given by the arabs is short lived' (astronomy, chemistry, mathematics, modern science generally!); 'the mongolians destroy but do not create anything' (samarkand, delhi, pekin); 'the great italians of the _rinascimento_ were _all_ born either in the north, saturated with lombardic, gothic, and frankish blood, or in the extreme germano-hellenic south; in spain it was the western goths who formed the element of life; the jews are working out their "renaissance" of to-day by following in every sphere as closely as possible the example of the teutonic peoples.' "that dodge of claiming all the great figures of the non-teutonic nations as teutons is carried out to magnificent extremes. dante is a teuton on the strength of his profile and his surname, and there is some fine play about the race of christ. he came from galilee, notoriously non-jewish, and so on; but lord redesdale, who writes a sympathetic introduction, sets the seal on the teutonic nationality of christ by reminding us that joseph was only the putative father.... "it makes a born teuton like myself feel his divinity," said wilkins, and read, browsing: "'from the moment the teuton awakes a new world begins to open out----' um! um!... oh, here we are again!-- "'it is equally untrue that our culture is a renaissance of the hellenic and the roman; it was only after the birth of the teutonic peoples that the renaissance of past achievements was possible and not _vice versâ_.'... i wonder what exactly _vice versâ_ means there!... 'the mightiest creators of that epoch--a shakespeare, a michael angelo--_do not know a word of greek or latin_.' "the stalwart ignorance of it! little latin and less greek even ben jonson allowed our william, and manifestly he was fed on tudor translations. and the illiteracy of michael angelo is just an inspiration of chamberlain's. he knows his readers. now, in itself there is no marvel in this assertive, prejudiced, garrulous ignorance; it is semi-sober bierhalle chatter, written down; and, god forgive us! most of us have talked in this way at one time or another; the sign and the wonder for you, boon, is that this stuff has been taken quite seriously by all germany and england and america, that it is accepted as first-rank stuff, that it has never been challenged, cut up, and sent to the butterman. it is modern thought. it is my second sample of the contemporary mind of the race. and now, gentlemen, we come to the third great intellectual high-kicker, nietzsche. nietzsche, i admit, had once a real and valid idea, and his work is built upon that real and valid idea; it is an idea that comes into the head of every intelligent person who grasps the idea of the secular change of species, the idea of darwinism, in the course of five or six minutes after the effective grasping. this is the idea that _man is not final_. but nietzsche was so constituted that to get an idea was to receive a revelation; this step, that every bright mind does under certain circumstances take, seemed a gigantic stride to him, a stride only possible to him, and for the rest of his lucid existence he resounded variations, he wrote epigrammatic cracker-mottoes and sham indian apophthegms, round and about his amazing discovery. and the whole thing is summed up in the title of dr. alexander tille's 'von darwin bis nietzsche,' in which this miracle of the obvious, this necessary corollary, is treated as a huge advance of the mind of mankind. no one slays this kind of thing nowadays. it goes on and goes on, a perpetually reinforced torrent of unreason washing through the brain of the race. there was a time when the general intelligence would have resisted and rejected schopenhauer, nietzsche, chamberlain, shaw; now it resists such invasions less and less. that, boon, is my case." wilkins, with his little pile of books for reference, his sombre manner, and his persistence, was indeed curiously suggestive of an advocate opening a trial. the mind of the race was far less of a continuity than it was when a generally recognized and understood orthodox christianity held it together, as a backbone holds together the ribs and limbs and head of a body. that manifestly was what he was driving at, as dodd presently complained. in those stabler days every one with ideas, willingly or unwillingly, had to refer to that doctrinal core, had to link up to it even if the connection was used only as a point of departure. now more and more, as in these three examples, people began irresponsibly in the air, with rash assertions about life and race and the tendency of things. and the louder they shouted, the more fantastic and remarkable they were, the more likely they were to gather a following and establish a fresh vortex in the deliquescent confusion. on the whole, boon was disposed to tolerate these dispersed beginnings. "we attack truth in open order," he said, "instead of in column." "i don't mind fresh beginnings," said wilkins; "i don't mind open order, but i do object to blank ignorance and sheer misconception. it isn't a new beginning for schopenhauer to say we are descended from hindus; it is just stupidity and mental retrogression. we are no more descended from hindus than hindus are descended from us; that we may have a common ancestry is quite a different thing. one might as well say that the chimpanzee is descended from a gorilla or a gorilla from a chimpanzee. and it isn't any sort of truth, it is just a loud lie, that the 'germanic' peoples realized anything whatever in the year . but all these--what shall i call them?--_moderns_ are more and more up to that kind of thing, stating plausible things that have already been disproved, stating things erroneously, inventing pseudo-facts, and so getting off with a flourish. in the fields of ideas, and presently in the fields of action, these wildly kicking personalities have swamped any orderly progress; they have arrested and disowned all that clearing up of thought and all that patient, triumphant arrangement of proven fact which characterized the late eighteenth and the first half of the nineteenth century. during that time the great analysis of biological science went on, which culminated in an entire revision of our conceptions of species, which opened a conceivable and hitherto undreamed-of past and future to the human imagination, which seemed to have revised and relaid the very foundations of philosophical discussion. and on that foundation, what has been done?" "naturally," cried boon, "after a great achievement there must be a pause. the mind of the race must have its digestive interludes." "but this is indigestion! first comes herbert spencer, with his misconception of the life process as a struggle of individuals to survive. his word 'evolution' is the quintessence of the misunderstanding; his image of a steadfast, mechanical unfolding through selfishness, masked plausibly and disastrously the intricate, perplexing vision of the truth. from that sort of thing we go at a stride to the inevitable super man, the megatherium individual of futurity, the large egoist, and all that nonsense. then comes a swarm of shallow, incontinent thinkers, anxious to find a simple driving force with a simple name for the whole process; the 'life force' and 'will,' and so on. these things, my dear boon, are just the appalling bubbles of gas that show how completely the mind of the race has failed to assimilate...." "it is remarkable," said boon, "how a metaphor may run away with the clearest of thinkers. the mind of the race is not so consistently gastric as all that." "you started the metaphor," said wilkins. "and you mounted it and it bolted with you. to these unpleasant consequences.... well, i hold, on the contrary, that after the superficialities of the sixties and seventies and eighties people's minds have been getting a firmer and firmer grip upon the reality of specific instability. the new body of intellectual experiment, which isn't indigestion at all but only a preliminary attack, is all that mass of trial thinking that one lumps together in one's mind when one speaks of pragmatism. with the breakdown of specific boundaries the validity of the logical process beyond finite ends breaks down. we make our truth for our visible purposes as we go along, and if it does not work we make it afresh. we see life once more as gallant experiment. the boundaries of our universe recede not only in time and space but thought. the hard-and-fast line between the scientific and the poetic method disappears...." "and you get bergson," said wilkins triumphantly. "bergson is of that class and type that exploits the affairs of thought. but i refuse to have pragmatism judged by bergson. he takes hold of the unfinished inquiries that constitute the movement of pragmatism and he makes a soft scepticism for delicate minds with easy ways back to any old-established orthodoxy they may regret." "but here is my case again," said wilkins. "it is only through bergson that the mind of the race, the great operating mass mind out there, can take hold of this new system of ideas...." § but now boon and wilkins were fairly launched upon a vital and entirely inconclusive controversy. was the thought process of the world growing, spreading, progressing, or was it going to pieces? the one produced a hundred instances of the enlarging and quickening of men's minds, the other replied by instancing vulgarities, distortions, wide acceptance of nonsense. did public advertisements make a more intelligent or less intelligent appeal now than they used to do? for half an afternoon they fought over the alleged degeneration of the _times_, multiplying instances, comparing the "parnellism and crime" pamphlet with lord northcliffe's war indiscretions, and discussing the comparative merits of mr. moberly bell's campaign to sell the twenty-year-old "encyclopædia britannica" and found a "book club" that should abolish booksellers, with the displayed and illustrated advertisements of the new period. the talk, you see, went high and low and came to no conclusion; but i think that on the whole wilkins did succeed in shaking boon's half-mystical confidence in the inevitableness of human wisdom. the honours, i think, lay with wilkins. boon did seem to establish that in physical science there had been, and was still, a great and growing process; but he was not able to prove, he could only express his faith, that the empire of sanity was spreading to greater and more human issues. he had to fall back upon prophecy. presently there would be another big lunge forward, and so forth. but wilkins, on his side, was able to make a case for a steady rotting in political life, an increase in loudness, emptiness, and violence in the last twenty years: he instanced carsonism, the methods of tariff reform, the vehement feminist movement, the malignant silliness of the "rebel" labour press, the rankness of german "patriotism."... "but there are young people thinking," said boon at last. "it isn't just these matured showings. where one youth thought thirty years ago, fifty are thinking now. these wild, loud things are just an irruption. just an irruption...." the mocker was distressed. the idea of active intellectual wrongness distressed him so much that he cast aside all his detachment from hallery, and showed plainly that to this imaginary hallery's idea of a secular growth of wisdom in mankind he himself was quite passionately clinging.... § he was so distressed that one day he talked about it to me alone for some time. "wilkins," he said, "insists on facts. it is difficult to argue with him on that basis. you see, i don't intend hallery's view to be an induction from facts. it's a conviction, an intuition. it is not the sort of thing one perceives after reading the newspaper placards or looking at the bookshelves in the british museum. it's something one knows for certain in the middle of the night. there is the mind of the race, i mean. it is something general; it is a refuge from the particular and it is in the nature of god. that's plain, isn't it? and through it there is communion. these phases, these irruptions are incidents. if all the world went frantic; if presently some horrible thing, some monstrous war smashed all books and thinking and civilization, still the mind would be there. it would immediately go on again and presently it would pick up all that had been done before--just as a philosopher would presently go on reading again after the servant-girl had fallen downstairs with the crockery.... it keeps on anyhow.... "oh! i don't know _how_, my dear fellow. i can't explain. i'm not telling you of something i've reasoned out and discovered; i'm telling you of something i _know_. it's faith if you like. it keeps on and i know it keeps on--although i can't for the life of me tell how...." he stopped. he flushed. "that, you see, is hallery's point of view," he said awkwardly. "but wilkins perhaps wouldn't contradict that. his point is merely that to be exact about words, that god-mind, that general mind of yours, isn't exactly to be called the mind of the race." "but it is the mind of the race," said boon. "it is the mind of the race. most of the race is out of touch with it, lost to it. much of the race is talking and doing nonsense and cruelty; astray, absurd. that does not matter to the truth, bliss. it matters to literature. it matters because literature, the clearing of minds, the release of minds, the food and guidance of minds, is the way, literature is illumination, the salvation of ourselves and of every one from isolations...." "might be," i suggested. "must be," he said. "oh! i know i've lived behind miss bathwick.... but i'm breaking out.... one of these days i will begin to dictate to her--and not mind what she does.... i'm a successful nobody--superficially--and it's only through my private thoughts and private jeering that i've come to see these things...." chapter the eighth the beginning of "the wild asses of the devil" § one day a little time after the argument with wilkins, boon told me he would read me a story. he read it from a pencilled manuscript. after some anxious seeking i have found most of it again and put it together. only a few pages are missing. here is the story. i am sorry to say it was never finished. but he gave me a very clear conception of the contemplated end. that i will indicate in its place. and i think you will see how its idea springs from the talk with wilkins i have had to render in the previous chapter. § there was once an author who pursued fame and prosperity in a pleasant villa on the south coast of england. he wrote stories of an acceptable nature and rejoiced in a growing public esteem, carefully offending no one and seeking only to please. he had married under circumstances of qualified and tolerable romance a lady who wrote occasional but otherwise regular verse, he was the father of a little daughter, whose reported sayings added much to his popularity, and some of the very best people in the land asked him to dinner. he was a deputy-lieutenant and a friend of the prime minister, a literary knighthood was no remote possibility for him, and even the nobel prize, given a sufficient longevity, was not altogether beyond his hopes. and this amount of prosperity had not betrayed him into any un-english pride. he remembered that manliness and simplicity which are expected from authors. he smoked pipes and not the excellent cigars he could have afforded. he kept his hair cut and never posed. he did not hold himself aloof from people of the inferior and less successful classes. he habitually travelled third class in order to study the characters he put into his delightful novels; he went for long walks and sat in inns, accosting people; he drew out his gardener. and though he worked steadily, he did not give up the care of his body, which threatened a certain plumpness and what is more to the point, a localized plumpness, not generally spread over the system but exaggerating the anterior equator. this expansion was his only care. he thought about fitness and played tennis, and every day, wet or fine, he went for at least an hour's walk.... yet this man, so representative of edwardian literature--for it is in the reign of good king edward the story begins--in spite of his enviable achievements and prospects, was doomed to the most exhausting and dubious adventures before his life came to its unhonoured end.... because i have not told you everything about him. sometimes--in the morning sometimes--he would be irritable and have quarrels with his shaving things, and there were extraordinary moods when it would seem to him that living quite beautifully in a pleasant villa and being well-off and famous, and writing books that were always good-humoured and grammatical and a little distinguished in an inoffensive way, was about as boring and intolerable a life as any creature with a soul to be damned could possibly pursue. which shows only that god in putting him together had not forgotten that viscus the liver which is usual on such occasions.... [illustration] the winter at the seaside is less agreeable and more bracing than the summer, and there were days when this author had almost to force himself through the wholesome, necessary routines of his life, when the south-west wind savaged his villa and roared in the chimneys and slapped its windows with gustsful of rain and promised to wet that author thoroughly and exasperatingly down his neck and round his wrists and ankles directly he put his nose outside his door. and the grey waves he saw from his window came rolling inshore under the hurrying grey rain-bursts, line after line, to smash along the undercliff into vast, feathering fountains of foam and sud and send a salt-tasting spin-drift into his eyes. but manfully he would put on his puttees and his water-proof cape and his biggest brierwood pipe, and out he would go into the whurryballoo of it all, knowing that so he would be all the brighter for his nice story-writing after tea. on such a day he went out. he went out very resolutely along the seaside gardens of gravel and tamarisk and privet, resolved to oblige himself to go right past the harbour and up to the top of the east cliff before ever he turned his face back to the comforts of fire and wife and tea and buttered toast.... and somewhere, perhaps half a mile away from home, he became aware of a queer character trying to keep abreast of him. his impression was of a very miserable black man in the greasy, blue-black garments of a stoker, a lascar probably from a steamship in the harbour, and going with a sort of lame hobble. as he passed this individual the author had a transitory thought of how much authors don't know in the world, how much, for instance, this shivering, cringing body might be hiding within itself, of inestimable value as "local colour" if only one could get hold of it for "putting into" one's large acceptable novels. why doesn't one sometimes tap these sources? kipling, for example, used to do so, with most successful results.... and then the author became aware that this enigma was hurrying to overtake him. he slackened his pace.... the creature wasn't asking for a light; it was begging for a box of matches. and, what was odd, in quite good english. the author surveyed the beggar and slapped his pockets. never had he seen so miserable a face. it was by no means a prepossessing face, with its aquiline nose, its sloping brows, its dark, deep, bloodshot eyes much too close together, its v-shaped, dishonest mouth and drenched chin-tuft. and yet it was attractively animal and pitiful. the idea flashed suddenly into the author's head: "why not, instead of going on, thinking emptily, through this beastly weather--why not take this man back home now, to the warm, dry study, and give him a hot drink and something to smoke, and _draw him out_?" get something technical and first-hand that would rather score off kipling. "its damnably cold!" he shouted, in a sort of hearty, forecastle voice. "it's worse than that," said the strange stoker. "it's a hell of a day!" said the author, more forcible than ever. "don't remind me of hell," said the stoker, in a voice of inappeasable regret. the author slapped his pockets again. "you've got an infernal cold. look here, my man--confound it! would you like a hot grog?..." [illustration] § the scene shifts to the author's study--a blazing coal fire, the stoker sitting dripping and steaming before it, with his feet inside the fender, while the author fusses about the room, directing the preparation of hot drinks. the author is acutely aware not only of the stoker but of himself. the stoker has probably never been in the home of an author before; he is probably awe-stricken at the array of books, at the comfort, convenience, and efficiency of the home, at the pleasant personality entertaining him.... meanwhile the author does not forget that the stoker is material, is "copy," is being watched, _observed_. so he poses and watches, until presently he forgets to pose in his astonishment at the thing he is observing. because this stoker is rummier than a stoker ought to be---- he does not simply accept a hot drink; he informs his host just how hot the drink must be to satisfy him. "isn't there something you could put in it--something called red pepper? i've tasted that once or twice. it's good. if you could put in a bit of red pepper." "if you can stand that sort of thing?" "and if there isn't much water, can't you set light to the stuff? or let me drink it boiling, out of a pannikin or something? pepper and all." wonderful fellows, these stokers! the author went to the bell and asked for red pepper. and then as he came back to the fire he saw something that he instantly dismissed as an optical illusion, as a mirage effect of the clouds of steam his guest was disengaging. the stoker was sitting, all crouched up, as close over the fire as he could contrive; and he was holding his black hands, not to the fire but _in_ the fire, holding them pressed flat against two red, glowing masses of coal.... he glanced over his shoulder at the author with a guilty start, and then instantly the author perceived that the hands were five or six inches away from the coal. then came smoking. the author produced one of his big cigars--for although a conscientious pipe-smoker himself he gave people cigars; and then, again struck by something odd, he went off into a corner of the room where a little oval mirror gave him a means of watching the stoker undetected. and this is what he saw. he saw the stoker, after a furtive glance at him, deliberately turn the cigar round, place the lighted end in his mouth, inhale strongly, and blow a torrent of sparks and smoke out of his nose. his firelit face as he did this expressed a diabolical relief. then very hastily he reversed the cigar again, and turned round to look at the author. the author turned slowly towards him. "you like that cigar?" he asked, after one of those mutual pauses that break down a pretence. "it's admirable." "why do you smoke it the other way round?" the stoker perceived he was caught. "it's a stokehole trick," he said. "do you mind if i do it? i didn't think you saw." "pray smoke just as you like," said the author, and advanced to watch the operation. it was exactly like the fire-eater at a village fair. the man stuck the burning cigar into his mouth and blew sparks out of his nostrils. "ah!" he said, with a note of genuine satisfaction. and then, with the cigar still burning in the corner of his mouth, he turned to the fire and _began to rearrange the burning coals with his hands_ so as to pile up a great glowing mass. he picked up flaming and white-hot lumps as one might pick up lumps of sugar. the author watched him, dumbfounded. "i say!" he cried. "you stokers get a bit tough." the stoker dropped the glowing piece of coal in his hand. "i forgot," he said, and sat back a little. "isn't that a bit--_extra_?" asked the author, regarding him. "isn't that some sort of trick?" "we get so tough down there," said the stoker, and paused discreetly as the servant came in with the red pepper. "now you can drink," said the author, and set himself to mix a drink of a pungency that he would have considered murderous ten minutes before. when he had done the stoker reached over and added more red pepper. "i don't quite see how it is your hand doesn't burn," said the author as the stoker drank. the stoker shook his head over the uptilted glass. "incombustible," he said, putting it down. "could i have just a tiny drop more? just brandy and pepper, if you _don't_ mind. set alight. i don't care for water except when it's super-heated steam." and as the author poured out another stiff glass of this incandescent brew, the stoker put up his hand and scratched the matted black hair over his temple. then instantly he desisted and sat looking wickedly at the author, while the author stared at him aghast. for at the corner of his square, high, narrow forehead, revealed for an instant by the thrusting back of the hair, a curious stumpy excrescence had been visible; and the top of his ear--he had a pointed top to his ear! "a-a-a-a-h!" said the author, with dilated eyes. "a-a-a-a-h!" said the stoker, in hopeless distress. "but you aren't----!" "i know--i know i'm not. i know.... i'm a devil. a poor, lost, homeless devil." and suddenly, with a gesture of indescribable despair, the apparent stoker buried his face in his hands and burst into tears. "only man who's ever been decently kind to me," he sobbed. "and now--you'll chuck me out again into the beastly wet and cold.... beautiful fire.... nice drink.... almost homelike.... just to torment me.... boo-ooh!" and let it be recorded to the credit of our little author, that he did overcome his momentary horror, that he did go quickly round the table, and that he patted that dirty stoker's shoulder. "there!" he said. "there! don't mind my rudeness. have another nice drink. have a hell of a drink. i won't turn you out if you're unhappy--on a day like this. have just a mouthful of pepper, man, and pull yourself together." and suddenly the poor devil caught hold of his arm. "nobody good to me," he sobbed. "nobody good to me." and his tears ran down over the author's plump little hand--scalding tears. § all really wonderful things happen rather suddenly and without any great emphasis upon their wonderfulness, and this was no exception to the general rule. this author went on comforting his devil as though this was nothing more than a chance encounter with an unhappy child, and the devil let his grief and discomfort have vent in a manner that seemed at the time as natural as anything could be. he was clearly a devil of feeble character and uncertain purpose, much broken down by harshness and cruelty, and it throws a curious light upon the general state of misconception with regard to matters diabolical that it came as a quite pitiful discovery to our author that a devil could be unhappy and heart-broken. for a long time his most earnest and persistent questioning could gather nothing except that his guest was an exile from a land of great warmth and considerable entertainment, and it was only after considerable further applications of brandy and pepper that the sobbing confidences of the poor creature grew into the form of a coherent and understandable narrative. and then it became apparent that this person was one of the very lowest types of infernal denizen, and that his role in the dark realms of dis had been that of watcher and minder of a herd of sinister beings hitherto unknown to our author, the devil's wild asses, which pastured in a stretch of meadows near the styx. they were, he gathered, unruly, dangerous, and enterprising beasts, amenable only to a certain formula of expletives, which instantly reduced them to obedience. these expletives the stoker-devil would not repeat; to do so except when actually addressing one of the wild asses would, he explained, involve torments of the most terrible description. the bare thought of them gave him a shivering fit. but he gave the author to understand that to crack these curses as one drove the wild asses to and from their grazing on the elysian fields was a by no means disagreeable amusement. the ass-herds would try who could crack the loudest until the welkin rang. and speaking of these things, the poor creature gave a picture of diabolical life that impressed the author as by no means unpleasant for any one with a suitable constitution. it was like the idylls of theocritus done in fire; the devils drove their charges along burning lanes and sat gossiping in hedges of flames, rejoicing in the warm, dry breezes (which it seems are rendered peculiarly bracing by the faint flavour of brimstone in the air), and watching the harpies and furies and witches circling in the perpetual afterglow of that inferior sky. and ever and again there would be holidays, and one would take one's lunch and wander over the sulphur craters picking flowers of sulphur or fishing for the souls of usurers and publishers and house-agents and land-agents in the lakes of boiling pitch. it was good sport, for the usurers and publishers and house-agents and land-agents were always eager to be caught; they crowded round the hooks and fought violently for the bait, and protested vehemently and entertainingly against the rules and regulations that compelled their instant return to the lake of fire. and sometimes when he was on holiday this particular devil would go through the saltpetre dunes, where the witches-brooms grow and the blasted heath is in flower, to the landing-place of the ferry whence the great road runs through the shops and banks of the via dolorosa to the new judgement hall, and watch the crowds of damned arriving by the steam ferry-boats of the consolidated charon company. this steamboat-gazing seems about as popular down there as it is at folkestone. almost every day notable people arrive, and, as the devils are very well informed about terrestrial affairs--for of course all the earthly newspapers go straight to hell--whatever else could one expect?--they get ovations of an almost undergraduate intensity. at times you can hear their cheering or booing, as the case may be, right away on the pastures where the wild asses feed. and that had been this particular devil's undoing. he had always been interested in the career of the rt. hon. w. e. gladstone.... he was minding the wild asses. he knew the risks. he knew the penalties. but when he heard the vast uproar, when he heard the eager voices in the lane of fire saying, "it's gladstone at last!" when he saw how quietly and unsuspiciously the wild asses cropped their pasture, the temptation was too much. he slipped away. he saw the great englishman landed after a slight struggle. he joined in the outcry of "speech! speech!" he heard the first delicious promise of a home rule movement which should break the last feeble links of celestial control.... and meanwhile the wild asses escaped--according to the rules and the prophecies.... § the little author sat and listened to this tale of a wonder that never for a moment struck him as incredible. and outside his rain-lashed window the strung-out fishing smacks pitched and rolled on their way home to folkestone harbour.... the wild asses escaped. they got away to the world. and his superior officers took the poor herdsman and tried him and bullied him and passed this judgement upon him: that he must go to the earth and find the wild asses, and say to them that certain string of oaths that otherwise must never be repeated, and so control them and bring them back to hell. that--or else one pinch of salt on their tails. it did not matter which. one by one he must bring them back, driving them by spell and curse to the cattle-boat of the ferry. and until he had caught and brought them all back he might never return again to the warmth and comfort of his accustomed life. that was his sentence and punishment. and they put him into a shrapnel shell and fired him out among the stars, and when he had a little recovered he pulled himself together and made his way to the world. but he never found his wild asses and after a little time he gave up trying. he gave up trying because the wild asses, once they had got out of control, developed the most amazing gifts. they could, for instance, disguise themselves with any sort of human shape, and the only way in which they differed then from a normal human being was--according to the printed paper of instructions that had been given to their custodian when he was fired out--that "their general conduct remains that of a wild ass of the devil." "and what interpretation can we put upon _that_?" he asked the listening author. and there was one night in the year--walpurgis night, when the wild asses became visibly great black wild asses and kicked up their hind legs and brayed. they had to. "but then, of course," said the devil, "they would take care to shut themselves up somewhere when they felt that coming on." like most weak characters, the stoker devil was intensely egotistical. he was anxious to dwell upon his own miseries and discomforts and difficulties and the general injustice of his treatment, and he was careless and casually indicative about the peculiarities of the wild asses, the matter which most excited and interested the author. he bored on with his doleful story, and the author had to interrupt with questions again and again in order to get any clear idea of the situation. the devil's main excuse for his nervelessness was his profound ignorance of human nature. "so far as i can see," he said, "they might all be wild asses. i tried it once----" "tried what?" "the formula. you know." "yes?" "on a man named sir edward carson." "well?" "_ugh!_" said the devil. "punishment?" "don't speak of it. he was just a professional lawyer-politician who had lost his sense of values.... how was _i_ to know?... but our people certainly know how to hurt...." after that it would seem this poor devil desisted absolutely from any attempt to recover his lost charges. he just tried to live for the moment and make his earthly existence as tolerable as possible. it was clear he hated the world. he found it cold, wet, draughty.... "i can't understand why everybody insists upon living outside of it," he said. "if you went inside----" he sought warmth and dryness. for a time he found a kind of contentment in charge of the upcast furnace of a mine, and then he was superseded by an electric-fan. while in this position he read a vivid account of the intense heat in the red sea, and he was struck by the idea that if he could get a job as stoker upon an indian liner he might snatch some days of real happiness during that portion of the voyage. for some time his natural ineptitude prevented his realizing this project, but at last, after some bitter experiences of homelessness during a london december, he had been able to ship on an indiaward boat--only to get stranded in folkestone in consequence of a propeller breakdown. and so here he was! he paused. "but about these wild asses?" said the author. the mournful, dark eyes looked at him hopelessly. "mightn't they do a lot of mischief?" asked the author. "they'll do no end of mischief," said the despondent devil. "ultimately you'll catch it for that?" "ugh!" said the stoker, trying not to think of it. § now the spirit of romantic adventure slumbers in the most unexpected places, and i have already told you of our plump author's discontents. he had been like a smouldering bomb for some years. now, he burst out. he suddenly became excited, energetic, stimulating, uplifting. [illustration: _the author uplifts the devil._] he stood over the drooping devil. "but my dear chap!" he said. "you must pull yourself together. you must do better than this. these confounded brutes may be doing all sorts of mischief. while you--shirk...." and so on. real ginger. "if i had some one to go with me. some one who knew his way about." the author took whisky in the excitement of the moment. he began to move very rapidly about his room and make short, sharp gestures. you know how this sort of emotion wells up at times. "we must work from some central place," said the author. "to begin with, london perhaps." it was not two hours later that they started, this author and this devil he had taken to himself, upon a mission. they went out in overcoats and warm underclothing--the author gave the devil a thorough outfit, a double lot of jaeger's extra thick--and they were resolved to find the wild asses of the devil and send them back to hell, or at least the author was, in the shortest possible time. in the picture you will see him with a field-glass slung under his arm, the better to watch suspected cases; in his pocket, wrapped in oiled paper, is a lot of salt to use if by chance he finds a wild ass when the devil and his string of oaths is not at hand. so he started. and when he had caught and done for the wild asses, then the author supposed that he would come back to his nice little villa and his nice little wife, and to his little daughter who said the amusing things, and to his popularity, his large gilt-edged popularity, and--except for an added prestige--be just exactly the man he had always been. little knowing that whosoever takes unto himself a devil and goes out upon a quest, goes out upon a quest from which there is no returning---- nevermore. [illustration: _precipitate start of the wild ass hunters._] chapter the ninth the hunting of the wild asses of the devil § at this point the surviving manuscript comes to an abrupt end. but boon read or extemporized far beyond this point. he made a figure that was at once absurd and pitiful of his little author making this raid upon the world, resolved to detect and exorcise these suspected wild asses, and he told us at great length of how steadily and inevitably the poor enthusiast entangled himself in feuds and false accusations, libels and denunciations, free fights, burglaries, and so to universal execration in a perpetually tightening coil. "i'll stick to it," he squeaks, with every fresh blow of fate. behind him, with a developing incurable bronchitis that could never be fatal, toiled the devil, more and more despondent, more and more draggle-tailed, voiceless and unhelpful. after a time he was perpetually trying to give his author the slip. but continually it is clearer that there _were_ diabolical wild asses loose and active in the affairs of the world.... one day the author had an inspiration. "was your lot the only lot that ever escaped?" "oh no!" said the devil. "ages before--there were some. it led to an awful row. just before the flood. they had to be drowned out. that's why they've been so stiff with me.... i'm not quite sure whether they didn't interbreed. they say in hell that the world has never been quite the same place since."... you see the scope this story gave boon's disposition to derision. there were endless things that boon hated, movements that seemed to him wanton and mischievous, outbreaks of disastrous violence, evil ideas. i should get myself into as much hot water as his author did if i were to tell all this poor man's adventures. he went to ulster, he pursued prominent tariff reformers, he started off to mexico and came back to investigate pan-germanism. i seem to remember his hanging for days about the entrance to printing house square.... and there was a scene in the house of commons. the author and the devil had been tracking a prominent politician--never mind whom--with the growing belief that here at last they had one of them. and walpurgis night grew near. walpurgis night came. "we must not lose sight of him," said the author, very alert and ruthless. "if necessary we must smash the windows, blow open doors." but the great man went down to the house as though nothing could possibly happen. they followed him. "he will certainly rush home," said the author, as the clock crept round to half-past eleven. "but anyhow let us get into the strangers' gallery and keep our eyes on him to the last." they managed it with difficulty. i remember how vividly boon drew the picture for us: the rather bored house, a coming and going of a few inattentive members, the nodding speaker and the clerks, the silent watchers in the gallery, a little flicker of white behind the grille. and then at five minutes to twelve the honourable member arose.... "we were wrong," said the author. "the draught here is fearful," said the devil. "hadn't we better go?" the honourable member went on speaking showy, memorable, mischievous things. the seconds ticked away. and then--then it happened. the author made a faint rattling sound in his throat and clung to the rail before him. the devil broke into a cold sweat. there, visible to all men, was a large black wild ass, kicking up its heels upon the floor of the house. and braying. and nobody was minding! the speaker listened patiently, one long finger against his cheek. the clerks bowed over the papers. the honourable member's two colleagues listened like men under an anæsthetic, each sideways, each with his arm over the back of the seat. across the house one member was furtively writing a letter and three others were whispering together. the author felt for the salt, then he gripped the devil's wrist. "say those words!" he shouted quite loudly--"say those words! say them now. then--we shall have him." but you know those house of commons ushers. and at that time their usual alertness had been much quickened by several suffragette outrages. before the devil had got through his second sentence or the author could get his salt out of his pocket both devil and author were travelling violently, scruff and pant-seat irresistibly gripped, down saint stephen's hall.... § "and you really begin to think," said wilkins, "that there has been an increase in violence and unreasonableness in the world?" "my case is that it is an irruption," said boon. "but i do begin to see a sort of violence of mind and act growing in the world." "there has always been something convulsive and extravagant in human affairs," said wilkins. "no public thing, no collective thing, has ever had the sanity of men thinking quietly in a study." and so we fell to discussing the mind of the race again, and whether there was indeed any sanity growing systematically out of human affairs, or whether this mind of the race was just a poor tormented rag of partial understanding that would never control the blind forces that had made and would destroy it. and it was inevitable that such a talk should presently drift to the crowning human folly, to that crowned wild ass of the devil, aggressive militarism. that talk was going on, i remember, one very bright, warm, sunny day in may, or it may be in june, of . and we talked of militarism as a flourish, as a kicking up of the national heels, as extravagance and waste; but, what seems to me so singular now, we none of us spoke of it or thought of it as a thing that could lead to the full horror of a universal war. human memory is so strange and treacherous a thing that i doubt now if many english people will recall our habitual disregard in those days of war as a probability. we thought of it as a costly, foolish threatening, but that it could actually happen----! § some things are so shocking that they seem to have given no shock at all, just as there are noises that are silences because they burst the ears. and for some days after the declaration of war against germany the whole business seemed a vast burlesque. it was incredible that this great people, for whom all western europe has mingled, and will to the end of time mingle, admiration with a certain humorous contempt, was really advancing upon civilization, enormously armed, scrupulously prepared, bellowing, "deutschland, deutschland ueber alles!" smashing, destroying, killing. we felt for a time, in spite of reason, that it was a joke, that presently michael would laugh.... but by jove! the idiot wasn't laughing.... for some weeks nobody in the circle about boon talked of anything but the war. the wild asses of the devil became an allusion, to indicate all this that was kicking europe to splinters. we got maps, and still more maps; we sent into the town for newspapers and got special intelligence by telephone; we repeated and discussed rumours. the belgians were showing pluck and resource, but the french were obviously shockingly unprepared. there were weeks--one may confess it now that they have so abundantly proved the contrary--when the french seemed crumpling up like pasteboard. they were failing to save the line of the meuse, maubeuge, lille, laon; there were surrenders, there was talk of treachery, and general french, left with his flank exposed, made a costly retreat. it was one sunday in early september that wilkins came to us with a _sunday observer_. "look," he said, "they are down on the seine! they are sweeping right round behind the eastern line. they have broken the french in two. here at senlis they are almost within sight of paris...." then some london eavesdropper talked of the british retreat. "kitchener says our army has lost half its fighting value. our base is to be moved again from havre to la rochelle...." boon sat on the edge of his hammock. "the germans must be beaten," he said. "the new world is killed; we go back ten thousand years; there is no light, no hope, no thought nor freedom any more unless the germans are beaten.... until the germans are beaten there is nothing more to be done in art, in literature, in life. they are a dull, envious, greedy, cunning, vulgar, interfering, and intolerably conceited people. a world under their dominance will be intolerable. i will not live in it...." "i had never believed they would do it," said wilkins.... "both my boys," said dodd, "have gone into the officers' training corps. they were in their cadet corps at school." "wasn't one an engineer?" asked boon. "the other was beginning to paint rather well," said dodd. "but it all has to stop." "i suppose i shall have to do something," said the london eavesdropper. "i'm thirty-eight.... i can ride and i'm pretty fit.... it's a nuisance." "what is a man of my kind to do?" asked wilkins. "i'm forty-eight." "i can't believe the french are as bad as they seem," said boon. "but, anyhow, we've no business to lean on the french.... but i wonder now---- pass me that map." § next week things had mended, and the french and british were pushing the germans back from the marne to the aisne. whatever doubts we had felt about the french were dispelled in that swift week of recovery. they were all right. it was a stupendous relief, for if france had gone down, if her spirit had failed us, then we felt all liberalism, all republicanism, all freedom and light would have gone out in this world for centuries. but then again at the aisne the germans stood, and our brisk rush of hope sobered down towards anxiety as the long flanking movement stretched towards the sea and the antwerp situation developed.... by imperceptible degrees our minds began to free themselves from the immediate struggle of the war, from strategy and movements, from the daily attempt to unriddle from reluctant and ambiguous dispatches, dutch rumours, censored gaps, and uninforming maps what was happening. it became clear to us that there were to be no particular dramatic strokes, no sudden, decisive battles, no swift and clear conclusions. the struggle began to assume in our minds its true proportions, its true extent, in time, in space, in historical consequence. we had thought of a dramatic three months' conflict and a redrawn map of europe; we perceived we were in the beginnings of a far vaster conflict; the end of an age; the slow, murderous testing and condemnation of whole systems of ideas that had bound men uneasily in communities for all our lives. we discussed--as all the world was discussing--the huge organization of sentiment and teaching that had produced this aggressive german patriotism, this tremendous national unanimity. ford madox hueffer came in to tell us stories of a disciplined professoriate, of all education turned into a war propaganda, of the deliberate official mental moulding of a whole people that was at once fascinating and incredible. we went over bernhardi and treitschke; we weighed nietzsche's share in that mental growth. our talk drifted with the changing season and boon's sudden illness after his chill, from his garden to his sitting-room, where he lay wrapped up upon a sofa, irritable and impatient with this unaccustomed experience of ill-health. "you see how much easier it is to grow an evil weed than a wholesome plant," he said. "while this great strong wickedness has developed in germany, what thought have we had in our english-speaking community? what does our world of letters amount to? clowns and dons and prigs, cults of the precious and cults of style, a few squeaking author-journalists and such time-serving scoundrels as i, with my patent bathwick filter, my twenty editions, and my thousands a year. none of us with any sense of a whole community or a common purpose! where is our strength to go against that strength of the heavy german mind? where is the mind of our race?" he looked at me with tired eyes. "it has been a joke with us," he said. "is there no power of thought among free men strong enough to swing them into armies that can take this monster by the neck? must men be bullied for ever? are there no men to think at least as earnestly as one climbs a mountain, and to write with their uttermost pride? are there no men to face truth as those boys at mons faced shrapnel, and to stick for the honour of the mind and for truth and beauty as those lads stuck to their trenches? bliss and i have tried to write of all the world of letters, and we have found nothing to write about but posturing and competition and sham reputations, and of dullness and impudence hiding and sheltering in the very sheath of the sword of thought.... for a little while after the war began our people seemed noble and dignified; but see now how all britain breaks after its first quiet into chatter about spies, sentimentality about the architecture of louvain, invasion scares, the bitter persecution of stray germans, and petty disputes and recriminations like a pool under a breeze. and below that nothing. while still the big thing goes on, ungrasped, day after day, a monstrous struggle of our world against the thing it will not have.... no one is clear about what sort of thing we will have. it is a nightmare in which we try continually to escape and have no-whither to escape.... what is to come out of this struggle? just anything that may come out of it, or something we mean _shall_ come out of it?" he sat up in his bed; his eyes were bright and he had little red spots in his cheeks. "at least the germans stand for something. it may be brutal, stupid, intolerable, but there it is--a definite intention, a scheme of living, an order, germanic kultur. but what the devil do _we_ stand for? was there anything that amounted to an intellectual life at all in all our beastly welter of writing, of nice-young-man poetry, of stylish fiction and fiction without style, of lazy history, popular philosophy, slobbering criticism, academic civilities? is there anything here to hold a people together? is there anything to make a new world? a literature ought to dominate the mind of its people. yet here comes the gale, and all we have to show for our racial thought, all the fastness we have made for our souls, is a flying scud of paper scraps, poems, such poems! casual articles, whirling headlong in the air, a few novels drowning in the floods...." § there were times during his illness and depression when we sat about boon very much after the fashion of job's comforters. and i remember an occasion when wilkins took upon himself the responsibility for a hopeful view. there was about wilkins's realistic sentimentality something at once akin and repugnant to boon's intellectual mysticism, so that for a time boon listened resentfully, and then was moved to spirited contradiction. wilkins declared that the war was like one of those great illnesses that purge the system of a multitude of minor ills. it was changing the spirit of life about us; it would end a vast amount of mere pleasure-seeking and aimless extravagance; it was giving people a sterner sense of duty and a more vivid apprehension of human brotherhood. this ineffective triviality in so much of our literary life of which boon complained would give place to a sense of urgent purpose.... "war," said boon, turning his face towards wilkins, "does nothing but destroy." "all making is destructive," said wilkins, while boon moved impatiently; "the sculptor destroys a block of marble, the painter scatters a tube of paint...." boon's eye had something of the expression of a man who watches another ride his favourite horse. "see already the new gravity in people's faces, the generosities, the pacification of a thousand stupid squabbles----" "if you mean carsonism," said boon, "it's only sulking until it can cut in again." "i deny it," said wilkins, warming to his faith. "this is the firing of the clay of western european life. it stops our little arts perhaps--but see the new beauty that comes.... we can well spare our professional books and professional writing for a time to get such humour and wonder as one can find in the soldiers' letters from the front. think of all the people whose lives would have been slack and ignoble from the cradle to the grave, who are being twisted up now to the stern question of enlistment; think of the tragedies of separation and danger and suffering that are throwing a stern bright light upon ten thousand obscure existences...." "and the noble procession of poor devils tramping through the slush from their burning homes, god knows whither! and the light of fire appearing through the cracks of falling walls, and charred bits of old people in the slush of the roadside, and the screams of men disembowelled, and the crying of a dying baby, in a wet shed full of starving refugees who do not know whither to go. go on, wilkins." "oh, if you choose to dwell on the horrors----!" "the one decent thing that we men who sit at home in the warm can do is to dwell on the horrors and do our little best to make sure that never, never shall this thing happen again. and that won't be done, wilkins, by leaving war alone. war, war with modern machines, is a damned great horrible trampling monster, a filthy thing, an indecency; we aren't doing anything heroic, we are trying to lift a foul stupidity off the earth, we are engaged in a colossal sanitary job. these men who go for us into the trenches, they come back with no illusions. they know how dirty and monstrous it is. they are like men who have gone down for the sake of the people they love to clear out a choked drain. they have no illusions about being glorified. they only hope they aren't blood-poisoned and their bodies altogether ruined. and as for the bracing stir of it, they tell me, wilkins, that their favourite song now in the trenches is-- "'nobody knows how bored we are, bored we are, bored we are, nobody knows how bored we are, and nobody seems to care.' meanwhile you sit at home and feel vicariously ennobled." he laid his hand on a daily newspaper beside him. "oh, you're not the only one. i will make you ashamed of yourself, wilkins. here's the superlative to your positive. here's the sort of man i should like to hold for five minutes head downwards in the bilge of a trench, writing on the heroic spirit in the _morning post_. he's one of your gentlemen who sit in a room full of books and promise themselves much moral benefit from the bloodshed in france. coleridge, he says, coleridge--the heroic, self-controlled spartan coleridge was of his opinion and very hard on pacificism--coleridge complained of peace-time in such words as these: 'all individual dignity and power, engulfed in courts, committees, institutions.... one benefit-club for mutual flattery.'... and then, i suppose, the old loafer went off to sponge on somebody.... and here's the stuff the heroic, spirited osborn, the _morning post_ gentleman--unhappily not a german, and unhappily too old for trench work--quotes with delight now--_now!_--after belgium!-- "'my spear, my sword, my shaggy shield! with these i till, with these i sow, with these i reap my harvest field-- no other wealth the gods bestow: with these i plant the fertile vine, with these i press the luscious wine. my spear, my sword, my shaggy shield! they make me lord of all below-- for those who dread my spear to wield, before my shaggy shield must bow. their fields, their vineyards, they resign, and all that cowards have is mine.' "he goes on to this-- "'it is in vain that the pacificist rages at such staunch braggadocio. it blares out a political truth of timeless validity in words that are by no means politic. sparta was the working model in ancient times of the state that lives by and for warfare, though never despising the rewards of an astute diplomacy; she was the prussia of antiquity.... "'spartan ideal of duty and discipline.'... "you see the spirit of him! you see what has got loose! it is a real and potent spirit; you have to reckon with it through all this business. to this sort of mind the 'pacificist' is a hateful fool. the pacificist prefers making vineyards, painting pictures, building gothic cathedrals, thinking clear thoughts to bawling "bruteland, bruteland, over all!" and killing people and smashing things up. he is a maker. that is what is intended here by a 'coward.' all real creative activity is hateful to a certain ugly, influential, aggressive type of mind, to this type of mind that expresses itself here in england through the _morning post_ and _spectator_. both these papers are soaked through and through with a genuine detestation of all fine creation, all beauty, all novelty, all frank, generous, and pleasant things. in peace-time they maintain an attitude of dyspeptic hostility to free art, to free literature, to fresh thought. they stand uncompromisingly for ugliness, dullness, and restriction--as ends in themselves. when you talk, wilkins, of the intellectual good of the war, i ask you to note the new exultation that has come into these evil papers. when they speak of the 'moral benefits' of war they mean the smashing up of everything that they hate and we care for. they mean reaction. this good man osborn, whom i have never seen or heard of before, seems to be quintessential of all that side. i can imagine him. i believe i could reconstruct him from this article i have here, just as anatomists have reconstructed extinct monsters from a single bone. he is, i am certain, a don. the emotional note suggests oxford. he is a classical scholar. and that is the extent of his knowledge. something in this way." he began to sketch rapidly. [illustration: _fancy portrait of mr. e. b. osborn, singing about his sword and his shield and his ruthless virility, and all that sort of thing._] "you have to realize that while the pacificists talk of the horrible ugliness of war and the necessity of establishing an everlasting world-peace, whiskered old ladies in hydropaths, dons on the _morning post_, chattering district visitors and blustering, bellowing parsons, people who are ever so much more representative of general humanity than we literary oddities--all that sort of people tucked away somewhere safe, are in a state of belligerent lustfulness and prepared--oh, prepared to give the very eyes of everybody else in this country, prepared to sacrifice the lives of all their servants and see the poor taxed to the devil, first for a victory over germany and then for the closest, silliest, loudest imitation of prussian swagger on our part (with them, of course, on the very top of it all) that we can contrive. that spirit is loose, wilkins. all the dowagers are mewing for blood, all the male old women who teach classics and dream of re-action at oxford and cambridge, are having the time of their lives. they trust to panic, to loud accusations, to that fear of complexity that comes with fatigue. they trust to the exhaustion of delicate purposes and sensitive nerves. and this force-loving, bullying silliness is far more likely to come out on top, after the distresses of this war, after the decent men are dead in the trenches and the wise ones shouted to silence, than any finely intellectual, necessarily difficult plan to put an end for ever to all such senseless brutalities." "i think you underrate the power of--well, modern sanity," said wilkins. "time will show," said boon. "i hope i do." "this man osborn, whoever he may be, must be just a fantastic extremist.... i do not see that he is an answer to my suggestion that for the whole mass of people this war means graver thought, steadier thought, a firmer collective purpose. it isn't only by books and formal literature that people think. there is the tremendous effect of realized and accumulated facts----" "wilkins," said boon, "do not cuddle such illusions. it is only in books and writings that facts get assembled. people are not grasping any comprehensive effects at all at the present time. one day one monstrous thing batters on our minds--a battleship is blown up or a hundred villagers murdered--and next day it is another. we do not so much think about it as get mentally scarred.... you can see in this spy hunt that is going on and in the increasing denunciations and wrangling of the papers how the strain is telling.... attention is overstrained and warms into violence. people are reading no books. they are following out no conclusions. no intellectual force whatever is evident dominating the situation. no organization is at work for a sane peace. where is any _power_ for pacificism? where is any strength on its side? america is far too superior to do anything but trade, the liberals here sniff at each other and quarrel gently but firmly on minor points, mr. norman angell advertises himself in a small magazine and resents any other work for peace as though it were an infringement of his copyright. read the daily papers; go and listen to the talk of people! don't theorize, but watch. the mind you will meet is not in the least like a mind doing something slowly but steadfastly; far more is it like a mind being cruelly smashed about and worried and sticking to its immediate purpose with a narrower and narrower intensity. until at last it is a pointed intensity. it is like a dying man strangling a robber in his death-grip.... we shall beat them, but we shall be dead beat doing it.... you see, wilkins, i have tried to think as you do. in a sort of way this war has inverted our relations. i say these things now because they force themselves upon me...." wilkins considered for some moments. "even if nothing new appears," he said at last, "the mere beating down and discrediting of the militarist system leaves a world released...." "but will it be broken down?" said boon. "think of the osborns." and then he cried in a voice of infinite despair: "no! war is just the killing of things and the smashing of things. and when it is all over, then literature and civilization will have to begin all over again. they will have to begin lower down and against a heavier load, and the days of our jesting are done. the wild asses of the devil are loose and there is no restraining them. what is the good, wilkins, of pretending that the wild asses are the instruments of providence kicking better than we know? it is all evil. evil. an evil year. and i lie here helpless, spitting and spluttering, with this chill upon my chest.... i cannot say or write what i would.... and in the days of my sunshine there were things i should have written, things i should have understood...." § afterwards boon consoled himself very much for a time by making further speculative sketches of mr. osborn, as the embodiment of the heroic spirit. i append one or two of the least offensive of these drawings. [illustration: _fancy sketch of mr. osborn (the heroic spirit) compelling his tailor to make him trousers for nothing. my weapon with my tailor speaks, it cuts my coat and sews my breeks._] [illustration: _mr. osborn, in a moment of virile indignation, swiping st. francis of assisi one with a club._] [illustration: _the soul of mr. osborn doing a war dance (as a spartan red indian) in order to work itself up for a_ "morning post" _article._] [illustration: _mr. osborn's dream of himself as a prussian spartan refreshing himself with hero's food (fresh human liver) and drink (blood and champagne) after a good go in at some pacificist softs._] § boon's pessimistic outlook on the war had a profoundly depressing effect upon me. i do all in my power to believe that wilkins is right, and that the hopelessness that darkened boon's last days was due to the overshadowing of his mind by his illness. it was not simply that he despaired of the world at large; so far as i am concerned, he pointed and barbed his opinion by showing how inevitable it was that the existing publishing and book trade would be shattered to fragments. adapted as i am now to the necessities of that trade, incapable as i am of the fresh exertions needed to bring me into a successful relationship to the unknown exigencies of the future, the sense of complete personal ruin mingled with and intensified the vision he imposed upon me of a world laid waste. i lay awake through long stretches of the night contemplating now my own life, no longer in its first vigour, pinched by harsh necessities and the fiercer competition of a young and needy generation, and now all life with its habits and traditions strained and broken. my daily fatigues at drill and the universal heavy cold in the head that has oppressed all britain this winter almost more than the war, have added their quota to my nightly discomfort. and when at last i have slept i have been oppressed with peculiar and melancholy dreams. one is so vividly in my mind that i am obliged to tell it here, although i am doubtful whether, except by a very extreme stretching of the meaning of words, we can really consider it among the remains of george boon. it was one of those dreams of which the scenery is not so much a desolate place as desolation itself, and i was there toiling up great steepnesses with a little box of something in my hand. and i knew, in that queer confused way that is peculiar to dreams, that i was not myself but that i was the author who is the hero of the wild asses of the devil, and also that i was neither he nor i, but all sorts of authors, the spirit of authorship, no author in particular but the author at large, and that, since the melancholy devil had deserted me--he had sneaked off heaven knows whither--it rested with me and with me alone to discover and catch and send out of this tormented world those same wild asses of the devil of which you have read. and so i had salt in my box, attic salt, a precious trust, the one thing in all the universe with which i could subdue them. and then suddenly there i was amidst all those very asses of which i have told you. there they were all about me, and they were more wild and horrible than i can describe to you. it was not that they were horrible in any particular way, they were just horrible, and they kicked up far over head, and leapt and did not even seem to trouble to elude my poor ineffectual efforts to get within salting distance of them. i toiled and i pursued amidst mad mountains that were suddenly marble flights of stairs that sloped and slid me down to precipices over which i floated; and then we were in soft places knee-deep in blood-red mud; and then they were close to my face, eye to eye, enormous revolving eyes, like the lanterns of lighthouses; and then they swept away, and always i grew smaller and feebler and more breathless, and always they grew larger, until only their vast legs danced about me on the sward, and all the rest was hidden. and all the while i was tugging at my box of attic salt, to get it open, to get a pinch. suddenly i saw they were all coming down upon me, and all the magic salt i had was in the box that would not open.... i saw the sward they trampled, and it was not sward, it was living beings, men hurt by dreadful wounds, and poor people who ran in streaming multitudes under the beating hoofs, and a lichenous growth of tender things and beautiful and sweet and right things on which they beat, splashing it all to blood and dirt. i could not open my box. i could not open my box. and a voice said: "your box! your box! laugh at them for the fools they are, and at the salt sting of laughter back they will fly to hell!" but i could not open my box, for i thought of my friend's sons and dear friends of my own, and there was no more spirit in me. "we cannot laugh!" i cried. "we cannot laugh! another generation! another generation may have the heart to do what we cannot do." and the voice said: "courage! only your poor courage can save us!" but in my dream i could do no more than weep pitifully and weep, and when i woke up my eyes were wet with tears. chapter the tenth the story of the last trump § "after this war," said wilkins, "after its revelation of horrors and waste and destruction, it is impossible that people will tolerate any longer that system of diplomacy and armaments and national aggression that has brought this catastrophe upon mankind. this is the war that will end war." "osborn," said boon, "osborn." "but after all the world has seen----!" "the world doesn't see," said boon.... boon's story of the last trump may well come after this to terminate my book. it has been by no means an easy task to assemble the various portions of this manuscript. it is written almost entirely in pencil, and sometimes the writing is so bad as to be almost illegible. but here at last it is, as complete, i think, as boon meant it to be. it is his epitaph upon his dream of the mind of the race. § the story of the last trump the story of the last trump begins in heaven and it ends in all sorts of places round about the world.... heaven, you must know, is a kindly place, and the blessed ones do not go on for ever singing alleluia, whatever you may have been told. for they too are finite creatures, and must be fed with their eternity in little bits, as one feeds a chick or a child. so that there are mornings and changes and freshness, there is time to condition their lives. and the children are still children, gravely eager about their playing and ready always for new things; just children they are, but blessèd as you see them in the pictures beneath the careless feet of the lord god. and one of these blessèd children routing about in an attic--for heaven is, of course, full of the most heavenly attics, seeing that it has children--came upon a number of instruments stored away, and laid its little chubby hands upon them.... now indeed i cannot tell what these instruments were, for to do so would be to invade mysteries.... but one i may tell of, and that was a great brazen trumpet which the lord god had made when he made the world--for the lord god finishes all his jobs--to blow when the time for our judgement came round. and he had made it and left it; there it was, and everything was settled exactly as the doctrine of predestination declares. and this blessèd child conceived one of those unaccountable passions of childhood for its smoothness and brassiness, and he played with it and tried to blow it, and trailed it about with him out of the attic into the gay and golden streets, and, after many fitful wanderings, to those celestial battlements of crystal of which you have doubtless read. and there the blessed child fell to counting the stars, and forgot all about the trumpet beside him until a flourish of his elbow sent it over.... down fell the trump, spinning as it fell, and for a day or so, which seemed but moments in heaven, the blessed child watched its fall until it was a glittering little speck of brightness.... when it looked a second time the trump was gone.... i do not know what happened to that child when at last it was time for judgement day and that shining trumpet was missed. i know that judgement day is long overpassed, because of the wickedness of the world; i think perhaps it was in a.d. when the expected day should have dawned that never came, but no other heavenly particulars do i know at all, because now my scene changes to the narrow ways of this earth.... and the prologue in heaven ends. § and now the scene is a dingy little shop in caledonian market, where things of an incredible worthlessness lie in wait for such as seek after an impossible cheapness. in the window, as though it had always been there and never anywhere else, lies a long, battered, discoloured trumpet of brass that no prospective purchaser has ever been able to sound. in it mice shelter, and dust and fluff have gathered after the fashion of this world. the keeper of the shop is a very old man, and he bought the shop long ago, but already this trumpet was there; he has no idea whence it came, nor its country or origin, nor anything about it. but once in a moment of enterprise that led to nothing he decided to call it an ancient ceremonial shawm, though he ought to have known that whatever a shawm may be the last thing it was likely to be is a trumpet, seeing that they are always mentioned together. and above it hung concertinas and melodeons and cornets and tin whistles and mouth-organs and all that rubbish of musical instruments which delight the hearts of the poor. until one day two blackened young men from the big motor works in the pansophist road stood outside the window and argued. they argued about these instruments in stock and how you made these instruments sound, because they were fond of argument, and one asserted and the other denied that he could make every instrument in the place sound a note. and the argument rose high, and led to a bet. "supposing, of course, that the instrument is in order," said hoskin, who was betting he could. "that's understood," said briggs. and then they called as witnesses certain other young and black and greasy men in the same employment, and after much argument and discussion that lasted through the afternoon, they went in to the little old dealer about teatime, just as he was putting a blear-eyed, stinking paraffin-lamp to throw an unfavourable light upon his always very unattractive window. and after great difficulty they arranged that for the sum of one shilling, paid in advance, hoskin should have a try at every instrument in the shop that briggs chose to indicate. and the trial began. the third instrument that was pitched upon by briggs for the trial was the strange trumpet that lay at the bottom of the window, the trumpet that you, who have read the introduction, know was the trumpet for the last trump. and hoskin tried and tried again, and then, blowing desperately, hurt his ears. but he could get no sound from the trumpet. then he examined the trumpet more carefully and discovered the mice and fluff and other things in it, and demanded that it should be cleaned; and the old dealer, nothing loth, knowing they were used to automobile-horns and such-like instruments, agreed to let them clean it on condition that they left it shiney. so the young men, after making a suitable deposit (which, as you shall hear, was presently confiscated), went off with the trumpet, proposing to clean it next day at the works and polish it with the peculiarly excellent brass polish employed upon the honk-honk horns of the firm. and this they did, and hoskin tried again. but he tried in vain. whereupon there arose a great argument about the trumpet, whether it was in order or not, whether it was possible for any one to sound it. for if not, then clearly it was outside the condition of the bet. others among the young men tried it, including two who played wind instruments in a band and were musically knowing men. after their own failure they were strongly on the side of hoskin and strongly against briggs, and most of the other young men were of the same opinion. "not a bit of it," said briggs, who was a man of resource. "_i_'ll show you that it can be sounded." and taking the instrument in his hand, he went towards a peculiarly powerful foot blow-pipe that stood at the far end of the toolshed. "good old briggs!" said one of the other young men, and opinion veered about. briggs removed the blow-pipe from its bellows and tube, and then adjusted the tube very carefully to the mouthpiece of the trumpet. then with great deliberation he produced a piece of bees-waxed string from a number of other strange and filthy contents in his pocket and tied the tube to the mouthpiece. and then he began to work the treadle of the bellows. "good old briggs!" said the one who had previously admired him. and then something incomprehensible happened. it was a flash. whatever else it was, it was a flash. and a sound that seemed to coincide exactly with the flash. afterwards the young men agreed to it that the trumpet blew to bits. it blew to bits and vanished, and they were all flung upon their faces--not backward, be it noted, but on their faces--and briggs was stunned and scared. the toolshed windows were broken and the various apparatus and cars around were much displaced, and _no traces of the trumpet were ever discovered_. that last particular puzzled and perplexed poor briggs very much. it puzzled and perplexed him the more because he had had an impression, so extraordinary, so incredible, that he was never able to describe it to any other living person. but his impression was this: that the flash that came with the sound came, not from the trumpet but to it, that it smote down to it and took it, and that its shape was in the exact likeness of a hand and arm of fire. § and that was not all, that was not the only strange thing about the disappearance of that battered trumpet. there was something else, even more difficult to describe, an effect as though for one instant something opened.... the young men who worked with hoskin and briggs had that clearness of mind which comes of dealing with machinery, and they all felt this indescribable something else, as if for an instant the world wasn't the world, but something lit and wonderful, larger---- this is what one of them said of it. "i felt," he said, "just for a minute--as though i was blown to kingdom come." "it is just how it took me," said another. "'lord,' i says, 'here's judgement day!' and then there i was sprawling among the flies...." but none of the others felt that they could say anything more definite than that. § moreover, there was a storm. all over the world there was a storm that puzzled meteorology, a moment's gale that left the atmosphere in a state of wild swaygog, rains, tornadoes, depressions, irregularities for weeks. news came of it from all the quarters of the earth. all over china, for example, that land of cherished graves, there was a dust-storm, dust leaped into the air. a kind of earthquake shook europe--an earthquake that seemed to have at heart the peculiar interests of mr. algernon ashton; everywhere it cracked mausoleums and shivered the pavements of cathedrals, swished the flower-beds of cemeteries, and tossed tombstones aside. a crematorium in texas blew up. the sea was greatly agitated, and the beautiful harbour of sydney, in australia, was seen to be littered with sharks floating upside down in manifest distress.... and all about the world a sound was heard like the sound of a trumpet instantly cut short. § but this much is only the superficial dressing of the story. the reality is something different. it is this: that in an instant, and for an instant, the dead lived, and all that are alive in the world did for a moment see the lord god and all his powers, his hosts of angels, and all his array looking down upon them. they saw him as one sees by a flash of lightning in the darkness, and then instantly the world was opaque again, limited, petty, habitual. that is the tremendous reality of this story. such glimpses have happened in individual cases before. the lives of the saints abound in them. such a glimpse it was that came to devindranath tagore upon the burning ghat at benares. but this was not an individual but a world experience; the flash came to every one. not always was it quite the same, and thereby the doubter found his denials, when presently a sort of discussion broke out in the obscurer press. for this one testified that it seemed that "one stood very near to me," and another saw "all the hosts of heaven flame up towards the throne." and there were others who had a vision of brooding watchers, and others who imagined great sentinels before a veiled figure, and some one who felt nothing more divine than a sensation of happiness and freedom such as one gets from a sudden burst of sunshine in the spring.... so that one is forced to believe that something more than wonderfully wonderful, something altogether strange, was seen, and that all these various things that people thought they saw were only interpretations drawn from their experiences and their imaginations. it was a light, it was beauty, it was high and solemn, it made this world seem a flimsy transparency.... then it had vanished.... and people were left with the question of what they had seen, and just how much it mattered. § a little old lady sat by the fire in a small sitting-room in west kensington. her cat was in her lap, her spectacles were on her nose; she was reading the morning's paper, and beside her, on a little occasional table, was her tea and a buttered muffin. she had finished the crimes and she was reading about the royal family. when she had read all there was to read about the royal family, she put down the paper, deposited the cat on the hearthrug, and turned to her tea. she had poured out her first cup and she had just taken up a quadrant of muffin when the trump and the flash came. through its instant duration she remained motionless with the quadrant of muffin poised halfway to her mouth. then very slowly she put the morsel down. "now what was that?" she said. she surveyed the cat, but the cat was quite calm. then she looked very, very hard at her lamp. it was a patent safety lamp, and had always behaved very well. then she stared at the window, but the curtains were drawn and everything was in order. "one might think i was going to be ill," she said, and resumed her toast. § not far away from this old lady, not more than three-quarters of a mile at most, sat mr. parchester in his luxurious study, writing a perfectly beautiful, sustaining sermon about the need of faith in god. he was a handsome, earnest, modern preacher, he was rector of one of our big west end churches, and he had amassed a large, fashionable congregation. every sunday, and at convenient intervals during the week, he fought against modern materialism, scientific education, excessive puritanism, pragmatism, doubt, levity, selfish individualism, further relaxation of the divorce laws, all the evils of our time--and anything else that was unpopular. he believed quite simply, he said, in all the old, simple, kindly things. he had the face of a saint, but he had rendered this generally acceptable by growing side whiskers. and nothing could tame the beauty of his voice. he was an enormous asset in the spiritual life of the metropolis--to give it no harsher name--and his fluent periods had restored faith and courage to many a poor soul hovering on the brink of the dark river of thought.... and just as beautiful christian maidens played a wonderful part in the last days of pompeii, in winning proud roman hearts to a hated and despised faith, so mr. parchester's naturally graceful gestures, and his simple, melodious, trumpet voice won back scores of our half-pagan rich women to church attendance and the social work of which his church was the centre.... and now by the light of an exquisitely shaded electric lamp he was writing this sermon of quiet, confident belief (with occasional hard smacks, perfect stingers in fact, at current unbelief and rival leaders of opinion) in the simple, divine faith of our fathers.... when there came this truncated trump and this vision.... § of all the innumerable multitudes who for the infinitesimal fraction of a second had this glimpse of the divinity, none were so blankly and profoundly astonished as mr. parchester. for--it may be because of his subtly spiritual nature--he _saw_, and seeing believed. he dropped his pen and let it roll across his manuscript, he sat stunned, every drop of blood fled from his face and his lips and his eyes dilated. while he had just been writing and arguing about god, there _was_ god! the curtain had been snatched back for an instant; it had fallen again; but his mind had taken a photographic impression of everything that he had seen--the grave presences, the hierarchy, the effulgence, the vast concourse, the terrible, gentle eyes. he felt it, as though the vision still continued, behind the bookcases, behind the pictured wall and the curtained window: _even now there was judgement!_ for quite a long time he sat, incapable of more than apprehending this supreme realization. his hands were held out limply upon the desk before him. and then very slowly his staring eyes came back to immediate things, and fell upon the scattered manuscript on which he had been engaged. he read an unfinished sentence and slowly recovered its intention. as he did so, a picture of his congregation came to him as he saw it from the pulpit during his evening sermon, as he had intended to see it on the sunday evening that was at hand, with lady rupert in her sitting and lady blex in hers and mrs. munbridge, the rich and in her jewish way very attractive mrs. munbridge, running them close in her adoration, and each with one or two friends they had brought to adore him, and behind them the hexhams and the wassinghams and behind them others and others and others, ranks and ranks of people, and the galleries on either side packed with worshippers of a less dominant class, and the great organ and his magnificent choir waiting to support him and supplement him, and the great altar to the left of him, and the beautiful new lady chapel, done by roger fry and wyndham lewis and all the latest people in art, to the right. he thought of the listening multitude, seen through the haze of the thousand electric candles, and how he had planned the paragraphs of his discourse so that the notes of his beautiful voice should float slowly down, like golden leaves in autumn, into the smooth tarn of their silence, word by word, phrase by phrase, until he came to-- "now to god the father, god the son----" and all the time he knew that lady blex would watch his face and mrs. munbridge, leaning those graceful shoulders of hers a little forward, would watch his face.... many people would watch his face. all sorts of people would come to mr. parchester's services at times. once it was said mr. balfour had come. just to hear him. after his sermons, the strangest people would come and make confessions in the beautifully furnished reception-room beyond the vestry. all sorts of people. once or twice he had asked people to come and listen to him; and one of them had been a very beautiful woman. and often he had dreamt of the people who might come: prominent people, influential people, remarkable people. but never before had it occurred to mr. parchester that, a little hidden from the rest of the congregation, behind the thin veil of this material world, there was another auditorium. and that god also, god also, watched his face. and watched him through and through. terror seized upon mr. parchester. he stood up, as though divinity had come into the room before him. he was trembling. he felt smitten and about to be smitten. he perceived that it was hopeless to try and hide what he had written, what he had thought, the unclean egotism he had become. "i did not know," he said at last. the click of the door behind him warned him that he was not alone. he turned and saw miss skelton, his typist, for it was her time to come for his manuscript and copy it out in the specially legible type he used. for a moment he stared at her strangely. she looked at him with those deep, adoring eyes of hers. "am i too soon, sir?" she asked in her slow, unhappy voice, and seemed prepared for a noiseless departure. he did not answer immediately. then he said: "miss skelton, the judgement of god is close at hand!" and seeing she stood perplexed, he said-- "miss skelton, how can you expect me to go on acting and mouthing this tosh when the sword of truth hangs over us?" something in her face made him ask a question. "did _you_ see anything?" he asked. "i thought it was because i was rubbing my eyes." "then indeed there is a god! and he is watching us now. and all this about us, this sinful room, this foolish costume, this preposterous life of blasphemous pretension----!" he stopped short, with a kind of horror on his face. with a hopeless gesture he rushed by her. he appeared wild-eyed upon the landing before his manservant, who was carrying a scuttle of coal upstairs. "brompton," he said, "what are you doing?" "coal, sir." "put it down, man!" he said. "are you not an immortal soul? god is here! as close as my hand! repent! turn to him! the kingdom of heaven is at hand!" § now if you are a policeman perplexed by a sudden and unaccountable collision between a taxicab and an electric standard, complicated by a blinding flash and a sound like an abbreviated trump from an automobile horn, you do not want to be bothered by a hatless clerical gentleman suddenly rushing out of a handsome private house and telling you that "the kingdom of heaven is at hand!" you are respectful to him because it is the duty of a policeman to be respectful to gentlemen, but you say to him, "sorry i can't attend to that now, sir. one thing at a time. i've got this little accident to see to." and if he persists in dancing round the gathering crowd and coming at you again, you say: "i'm afraid i must ask you just to get away from here, sir. you aren't being a 'elp, sir." and if, on the other hand, you are a well-trained clerical gentleman, who knows his way about in the world, you do not go on pestering a policeman on duty after he has said that, even although you think god is looking at you and judgement is close at hand. you turn away and go on, a little damped, looking for some one else more likely to pay attention to your tremendous tidings. and so it happened to the reverend mr. parchester. he experienced a curious little recession of confidence. he went on past quite a number of people without saying anything further, and the next person he accosted was a flower-woman sitting by her basket at the corner of chexington square. she was unable to stop him at once when he began to talk to her because she was tying up a big bundle of white chrysanthemums and had an end of string behind her teeth. and her daughter who stood beside her was the sort of girl who wouldn't say "bo!" to a goose. "do you know, my good woman," said mr. parchester, "that while we poor creatures of earth go about our poor business here, while we sin and blunder and follow every sort of base end, close to us, above us, around us, watching us, judging us, are god and his holy angels? i have had a vision, and i am not the only one. i have _seen_. we are _in_ the kingdom of heaven now and here, and judgement is all about us now! have you seen nothing? no light? no sound? no warning?" by this time the old flower-seller had finished her bunch of flowers and could speak. "i saw it," she said. "and mary--she saw it." "well?" said mr. parchester. "but, lord! it don't _mean_ nothing!" said the old flower-seller. § at that a kind of chill fell upon mr. parchester. he went on across chexington square by his own inertia. he was still about as sure that he had seen god as he had been in his study, but now he was no longer sure that the world would believe that he had. he felt perhaps that this idea of rushing out to tell people was precipitate and inadvisable. after all, a priest in the church of england is only one unit in a great machine; and in a world-wide spiritual crisis it should be the task of that great machine to act as one resolute body. this isolated crying aloud in the street was unworthy of a consecrated priest. it was a dissenting kind of thing to do. a vulgar individualistic screaming. he thought suddenly that he would go and tell his bishop--the great bishop wampach. he called a taxicab, and within half an hour he was in the presence of his commanding officer. it was an extraordinarily difficult and painful interview.... you see, mr. parchester believed. the bishop impressed him as being quite angrily resolved not to believe. and for the first time in his career mr. parchester realized just how much jealous hostility a beautiful, fluent, and popular preacher may arouse in the minds of the hierarchy. it wasn't, he felt, a conversation. it was like flinging oneself into the paddock of a bull that has long been anxious to gore one. "inevitably," said the bishop, "this theatricalism, this star-turn business, with its extreme spiritual excitements, its exaggerated soul crises and all the rest of it, leads to such a breakdown as afflicts you. inevitably! you were at least wise to come to me. i can see you are only in the beginning of your trouble, that already in your mind fresh hallucinations are gathering to overwhelm you, voices, special charges and missions, strange revelations.... i wish i had the power to suspend you right away, to send you into retreat...." mr. parchester made a violent effort to control himself. "but i tell you," he said, "that i saw god!" he added, as if to reassure himself: "more plainly, more certainly, than i see you." "of course," said the bishop, "this is how strange new sects come into existence; this is how false prophets spring out of the bosom of the church. loose-minded, excitable men of your stamp----" mr. parchester, to his own astonishment, burst into tears. "but i tell you," he wept, "he is here. i have seen. i know." "don't talk such nonsense!" said the bishop. "there is no one here but you and i!" mr. parchester expostulated. "but," he protested, "he is omnipresent." the bishop controlled an expression of impatience. "it is characteristic of your condition," he said, "that you are unable to distinguish between a matter of fact and a spiritual truth.... now listen to me. if you value your sanity and public decency and the discipline of the church, go right home from here and go to bed. send for broadhays, who will prescribe a safe sedative. and read something calming and graceful and purifying. for my own part, i should be disposed to recommend the 'life of saint francis of assisi.'...." § unhappily mr. parchester did not go home. he went out from the bishop's residence stunned and amazed, and suddenly upon his desolation came the thought of mrs. munbridge.... she would understand.... he was shown up to her own little sitting-room. she had already gone up to her room to dress, but when she heard that he had called, and wanted very greatly to see her, she slipped on a loose, beautiful tea-gown _négligé_ thing, and hurried to him. he tried to tell her everything, but she only kept saying "there! there!" she was sure he wanted a cup of tea, he looked so pale and exhausted. she rang to have the tea equipage brought back; she put the dear saint in an arm-chair by the fire; she put cushions about him, and ministered to him. and when she began partially to comprehend what he had experienced, she suddenly realized that she too had experienced it. that vision had been a brain-wave between their two linked and sympathetic brains. and that thought glowed in her as she brewed his tea with her own hands. he had been weeping! how tenderly he felt all these things! he was more sensitive than a woman. what madness to have expected understanding from the bishop! but that was just like his unworldliness. he was not fit to take care of himself. a wave of tenderness carried her away. "here is your tea!" she said, bending over him, and fully conscious of her fragrant warmth and sweetness, and suddenly, she could never afterwards explain why she was so, she was moved to kiss him on his brow.... how indescribable is the comfort of a true-hearted womanly friend! the safety of it! the consolation!... about half-past seven that evening mr. parchester returned to his own home, and brompton admitted him. brompton was relieved to find his employer looking quite restored and ordinary again. "brompton," said mr. parchester, "i will not have the usual dinner to-night. just a single mutton cutlet and one of those quarter-bottles of perrier jouet on a tray in my study. i shall have to finish my sermon to-night." (and he had promised mrs. munbridge he would preach that sermon specially for her.) § and as it was with mr. parchester and brompton and mrs. munbridge, and the taxi-driver and the policeman and the little old lady and the automobile mechanics and mr. parchester's secretary and the bishop, so it was with all the rest of the world. if a thing is sufficiently strange and great no one will perceive it. men will go on in their own ways though one rose from the dead to tell them that the kingdom of heaven was at hand, though the kingdom itself and all its glory became visible, blinding their eyes. they and their ways are one. men will go on in their ways as rabbits will go on feeding in their hutches within a hundred yards of a battery of artillery. for rabbits are rabbits, and made to eat and breed, and men are human beings and creatures of habit and custom and prejudice; and what has made them, what will judge them, what will destroy them--they may turn their eyes to it at times as the rabbits will glance at the concussion of the guns, but it will never draw them away from eating their lettuce and sniffing after their does.... § there was something of invalid peevishness even in the handwriting of boon's last story, the story of the last trump. of course, i see exactly what boon is driving at in this fragment. the distresses of the war had for a time broken down his faith in the mind of the race, and so he mocked at the idea that under any sort of threat or warning whatever men's minds can move out of the grooves in which they run. and yet in happier moods that was his own idea, and my belief in it came from him. that he should, in his illness, fall away from that saving confidence which he could give to me, and that he should die before his courage returned, seems just a part of the inexplicable tragedy of life. because clearly this end of the story of the last trump is forced and false, is unjust to life. i know how feebly we apprehend things, i know how we forget, but because we forget it does not follow that we never remember, because we fail to apprehend perfectly it does not follow that we have no understanding. and so i feel that the true course of the story of the last trump should have been far larger and much more wonderful and subtle than boon made it. that instant vision of god would not have been dismissed altogether. people might have gone on, as boon tells us they went on, but they would have been haunted nevertheless by a new sense of deep, tremendous things.... cynicism is humour in ill-health. it would have been far more difficult to tell the story of how a multitude of commonplace people were changed by a half-dubious perception that god was indeed close at hand to them, a perception that they would sometimes struggle with and deny, sometimes realize overwhelmingly; it would have been a beautiful, pitiful, wonderful story, and it may be if boon had lived he would have written it. he could have written it. but he was too ill for that much of writing, and the tired pencil turned to the easier course.... i can't believe after all i know of him, and particularly after the intimate talk i have repeated, that he would have remained in this mood. he would, i am certain, have altered the story of the last trump. he must have done so. and so, too, about this war, this dreadful outbreak of brutish violence which has darkened all our lives, i do not think he would have remained despairful. as his health mended, as the braveries of spring drew near, he would have risen again to the assurance he gave me that the mind is immortal and invincible. of course there is no denying the evil, the black evils of this war; many of us are impoverished and ruined, many of us are wounded, almost all of us have lost friends and suffered indirectly in a hundred ways. and all that is going on yet. the black stream of consequence will flow for centuries. but all this multitudinous individual unhappiness is still compatible with a great progressive movement in the general mind. being wounded and impoverished, being hurt and seeing things destroyed, is as much living and learning as anything else in the world. the tremendous present disaster of europe may not be, after all, a disaster for mankind. horrible possibilities have to be realized, and they can be realized only by experience; complacencies, fatuities have to be destroyed; we have to learn and relearn what boon once called "the bitter need for honesty." we must see these things from the standpoint of the race life, whose days are hundreds of years.... nevertheless, such belief cannot alter for me the fact that boon is dead and our little circle is scattered. i feel that no personal comfort nor any further happiness of the mind remains in store for me. my duties as his literary executor still give me access to the dear old house and the garden of our security, and, in spite of a considerable coolness between myself and mrs. boon--who would willingly have all this material destroyed and his reputation rest upon his better-known works--i make my duty my excuse to go there nearly every day and think. i am really in doubt about many matters. i cannot determine, for example, whether it may not be possible to make another volume from the fragments still remaining over after this one. there are great quantities of sketches, several long pieces of vers libre, the story of "jane in heaven," the draft of a novel. and so i go there and take out the papers and fall into fits of thinking. i turn the untidy pages and think about boon and of all the stream of nonsense and fancy that was so much more serious to him and to me than the serious business of life. i go there, i know, very much as a cat hangs about its home after its people have departed--that is to say, a little incredulously and with the gleam of a reasonless hope.... there must, i suppose, come a limit to these visitations, and i shall have to go about my own business. i can see in mrs. boon's eye that she will presently demand conclusive decisions. in a world that has grown suddenly chilly and lonely i know i must go on with my work under difficult and novel conditions (and now well into the routines of middle age) as if there were no such things as loss and disappointment. i am, i learned long ago, an uncreative, unimportant man. and yet, i suppose, i do something; i count; it is better that i should help than not in the great task of literature, the great task of becoming the thought and the expressed intention of the race, the task of taming violence, organizing the aimless, destroying error, the task of waylaying the wild asses of the devil and sending them back to hell. it does not matter how individually feeble we writers and disseminators are; we have to hunt the wild asses. as the feeblest puppy has to bark at cats and burglars. and we have to do it because we know, in spite of the darkness, the wickedness, the haste and hate, we know in our hearts, though no momentary trumpeting has shown it to us, that judgement is all about us and god stands close at hand. yes, we go on. but i wish that george boon were still in the world with me, and i wish that he could have written a different ending to the story of the last trump. the gresham press unwin brothers, limited woking and london proofreading team. what is coming? a forecast of things after the war by h.g. wells contents . forecasting the future . the end of the war . nations in liquidation . braintree, bocking, and the future of the world . how far will europe go toward socialism? . lawyer and press . the new education . what the war is doing for women . the new map of europe . the united states, france, britain, and russia . the "white man's burthen" . the outlook for the germans i. forecasting the future prophecy may vary between being an intellectual amusement and a serious occupation; serious not only in its intentions, but in its consequences. for it is the lot of prophets who frighten or disappoint to be stoned. but for some of us moderns, who have been touched with the spirit of science, prophesying is almost a habit of mind. science is very largely analysis aimed at forecasting. the test of any scientific law is our verification of its anticipations. the scientific training develops the idea that whatever is going to happen is really here now--if only one could see it. and when one is taken by surprise the tendency is not to say with the untrained man, "now, who'd ha' thought it?" but "now, what was it we overlooked?" everything that has ever existed or that will ever exist is here--for anyone who has eyes to see. but some of it demands eyes of superhuman penetration. some of it is patent; we are almost as certain of next christmas and the tides of the year and the death before a.d. of everybody now alive as if these things had already happened. below that level of certainty, but still at a very high level of certainty, there are such things as that men will probably be making aeroplanes of an improved pattern in , or that there will be a through railway connection between constantinople and bombay and between baku and bombay in the next half-century. from such grades of certainty as this, one may come down the scale until the most obscure mystery of all is reached: the mystery of the individual. will england presently produce a military genius? or what will mr. belloc say the day after to-morrow? the most accessible field for the prophet is the heavens; the least is the secret of the jumping cat within the human skull. how will so-and-so behave, and how will the nation take it? for such questions as that we need the subtlest guesses of all. yet, even to such questions as these the sharp, observant man may risk an answer with something rather better than an even chance of being right. the present writer is a prophet by use and wont. he is more interested in to-morrow than he is in to-day, and the past is just material for future guessing. "think of the men who have walked here!" said a tourist in the roman coliseum. it was a futurist mind that answered: "think of the men who will." it is surely as interesting that presently some founder of the world republic, some obstinate opponent of militarism or legalism, or the man who will first release atomic energy for human use, will walk along the via sacra as that cicero or giordano bruno or shelley have walked there in the past. to the prophetic mind all history is and will continue to be a prelude. the prophetic type will steadfastly refuse to see the world as a museum; it will insist that here is a stage set for a drama that perpetually begins. now this forecasting disposition has led the writer not only to publish a book of deliberate prophesying, called "anticipations," but almost without premeditation to scatter a number of more or less obvious prophecies through his other books. from first to last he has been writing for twenty years, so that it is possible to check a certain proportion of these anticipations by the things that have happened, some of these shots have hit remarkably close to the bull's-eye of reality; there are a number of inners and outers, and some clean misses. much that he wrote about in anticipation is now established commonplace. in there were still plenty of sceptics of the possibility either of automobiles or aeroplanes; it was not until that mr. s.p. langley (of the smithsonian institute) could send the writer a photograph of a heavier-than-air flying machine actually in the air. there were articles in the monthly magazines of those days _proving_ that flying was impossible. one of the writer's luckiest shots was a description (in "anticipations" in ) of trench warfare, and of a deadlock almost exactly upon the lines of the situation after the battle of the marne. and he was fortunate (in the same work) in his estimate of the limitations of submarines. he anticipated sir percy scott by a year in his doubts of the decisive value of great battleships (_see_ "an englishman looks at the world"); and he was sound in denying the decadence of france; in doubting (before the russo-japanese struggle) the greatness of the power of russia, which was still in those days a british bogey; in making belgium the battle-ground in a coming struggle between the mid-european powers and the rest of europe; and (he believes) in foretelling a renascent poland. long before europe was familiar with the engaging personality of the german crown prince, he represented great airships sailing over england (which country had been too unenterprising to make any) under the command of a singularly anticipatory prince karl, and in "the world set free" the last disturber of the peace is a certain "balkan fox." in saying, however, here and there that "before such a year so-and-so will happen," or that "so-and-so will not occur for the next twenty years," he was generally pretty widely wrong; most of his time estimates are too short; he foretold, for example, a special motor track apart from the high road between london and brighton before , which is still a dream, but he doubted if effective military aviation or aerial fighting would be possible before , which is a miss on the other side. he will draw a modest veil over certain still wider misses that the idle may find for themselves in his books; he prefers to count the hits and leave the reckoning of the misses to those who will find a pleasure in it. of course, these prophecies of the writer's were made upon a basis of very generalised knowledge. what can be done by a really sustained research into a particular question--especially if it is a question essentially mechanical--is shown by the work of a frenchman all too neglected by the trumpet of fame--clement ader. m. ader was probably the first man to get a mechanism up into the air for something more than a leap. his _eole_, as general mensier testifies, prolonged a jump as far as fifty metres as early as . in his _avion_ fairly flew. (this is a year ahead of the date of my earliest photograph of s.p. langley's aeropile in mid-air.) this, however, is beside our present mark. the fact of interest here is that in , when flying was still almost incredible, m. ader published his "aviation militaire." well, that was eight years ago, and men have been fighting in the air now for a year, and there is still nothing being done that m. ader did not see, and which we, if we had had the wisdom to attend to him, might not have been prepared for. there is much that he foretells which is still awaiting its inevitable fulfilment. so clearly can men of adequate knowledge and sound reasoning power see into the years ahead in all such matters of material development. but it is not with the development of mechanical inventions that the writer now proposes to treat. in this book he intends to hazard certain forecasts about the trend of events in the next decade or so. mechanical novelties will probably play a very small part in that coming history. this world-wide war means a general arrest of invention and enterprise, except in the direction of the war business. ability is concentrated upon that; the types of ability that are not applicable to warfare are neglected; there is a vast destruction of capital and a waste of the savings that are needed to finance new experiments. moreover, we are killing off many of our brightest young men. it is fairly safe to assume that there will be very little new furniture on the stage of the world for some considerable time; that if there is much difference in the roads and railways and shipping it will be for the worse; that architecture, domestic equipment, and so on, will be fortunate if in they stand where they did in the spring of . in the trenches of france and flanders, and on the battlefields of russia, the germans have been spending and making the world spend the comfort, the luxury and the progress of the next quarter-century. there is no accounting for tastes. but the result is that, while it was possible for the writer in to write "anticipations of the reaction of mechanical progress upon human life and thought," in his anticipations must belong to quite another system of consequences. the broad material facts before us are plain enough. it is the mental facts that have to be unravelled. it isn't now a question of "what thing--what faculty--what added power will come to hand, and how will it affect our ways of living?" it is a question of "how are people going to take these obvious things--waste of the world's resources, arrest of material progress, the killing of a large moiety of the males in nearly every european country, and universal loss and unhappiness?" we are going to deal with realities here, at once more intimate and less accessible than the effects of mechanism. as a preliminary reconnaissance, as it were, over the region of problems we have to attack, let us consider the difficulties of a single question, which is also a vital and central question in this forecast. we shall not attempt a full answer here, because too many of the factors must remain unexamined; later, perhaps, we may be in a better position to do so. this question is the probability of the establishment of a long world peace. at the outset of the war there was a very widely felt hope among the intellectuals of the world that this war might clear up most of the outstanding international problems, and prove the last war. the writer, looking across the gulf of experience that separates us from , recalls two pamphlets whose very titles are eloquent of this feeling--"the war that will end war," and "the peace of the world." was the hope expressed in those phrases a dream? is it already proven a dream? or can we read between the lines of the war news, diplomatic disputations, threats and accusations, political wranglings and stories of hardship and cruelty that now fill our papers, anything that still justifies a hope that these bitter years of world sorrow are the darkness before the dawn of a better day for mankind? let us handle this problem for a preliminary examination. what is really being examined here is the power of human reason to prevail over passion--and certain other restraining and qualifying forces. there can be little doubt that, if one could canvass all mankind and ask them whether they would rather have no war any more, the overwhelming mass of them would elect for universal peace. if it were war of the modern mechanical type that was in question, with air raids, high explosives, poison gas and submarines, there could be no doubt at all about the response. "give peace in our time, o lord," is more than ever the common prayer of christendom, and the very war makers claim to be peace makers; the german emperor has never faltered in his assertion that he encouraged austria to send an impossible ultimatum to serbia, and invaded belgium because germany was being attacked. the krupp-kaiser empire, he assures us, is no eagle, but a double-headed lamb, resisting the shearers and butchers. the apologists for war are in a hopeless minority; a certain number of german prussians who think war good for the soul, and the dear ladies of the london _morning post_ who think war so good for the manners of the working classes, are rare, discordant voices in the general chorus against war. if a mere unsupported and uncoordinated will for peace could realise itself, there would be peace, and an enduring peace, to-morrow. but, as a matter of fact, there is no peace coming to-morrow, and no clear prospect yet of an enduring universal peace at the end of this war. now what are the obstructions, and what are the antagonisms to the exploitation of this world-wide disgust with war and the world-wide desire for peace, so as to establish a world peace? let us take them in order, and it will speedily become apparent that we are dealing here with a subtle quantitative problem in psychology, a constant weighing of whether this force or that force is the stronger. we are dealing with influences so subtle that the accidents of some striking dramatic occurrence, for example, may turn them this way or that. we are dealing with the human will--and thereby comes a snare for the feet of the would-be impartial prophet. to foretell the future is to modify the future. it is hard for any prophet not to break into exhortation after the fashion of the prophets of israel. the first difficulty in the way of establishing a world peace is that it is nobody's business in particular. nearly all of us want a world peace--in an amateurish sort of way. but there is no specific person or persons to whom one can look for the initiatives. the world is a supersaturated solution of the will-for-peace, and there is nothing for it to crystallise upon. there is no one in all the world who is responsible for the understanding and overcoming of the difficulties involved. there are many more people, and there is much more intelligence concentrated upon the manufacture of cigarettes or hairpins than upon the establishment of a permanent world peace. there are a few special secretaries employed by philanthropic americans, and that is about all. there has been no provision made even for the emoluments of these gentlemen when universal peace is attained; presumably they would lose their jobs. nearly everybody wants peace; nearly everybody would be glad to wave a white flag with a dove on it now--provided no unfair use was made of such a demonstration by the enemy--but there is practically nobody thinking out the arrangements needed, and nobody making nearly as much propaganda for the instruction of the world in the things needful as is made in selling any popular make of automobile. we have all our particular businesses to attend to. and things are not got by just wanting them; things are got by getting them, and rejecting whatever precludes our getting them. that is the first great difficulty: the formal peace movement is quite amateurish. it is so amateurish that the bulk of people do not even realise the very first implication of the peace of the world. it has not succeeded in bringing this home to them. if there is to be a permanent peace of the world, it is clear that there must be some permanent means of settling disputes between powers and nations that would otherwise be at war. that means that there must be some head power, some point of reference, a supreme court of some kind, a universally recognised executive over and above the separate governments of the world that exist to-day. that does not mean that those governments have to disappear, that "nationality" has to be given up, or anything so drastic as that. but it does mean that all those governments have to surrender almost as much of their sovereignty as the constituent sovereign states which make up the united states of america have surrendered to the federal government; if their unification is to be anything more than a formality, they will have to delegate a control of their inter-state relations to an extent for which few minds are prepared at present. it is really quite idle to dream of a warless world in which states are still absolutely free to annoy one another with tariffs, with the blocking and squeezing of trade routes, with the ill-treatment of immigrants and travelling strangers, and between which there is no means of settling boundary disputes. moreover, as between the united states of the world and the united states of america there is this further complication of the world position: that almost all the great states of europe are in possession, firstly, of highly developed territories of alien language and race, such as egypt; and, secondly, of barbaric and less-developed territories, such as nigeria or madagascar. there will be nothing stable about a world settlement that does not destroy in these "possessions" the national preference of the countries that own them and that does not prepare for the immediate or eventual accession of these subject peoples to state rank. most certainly, however, thousands of intelligent people in those great european countries who believe themselves ardent for a world peace will be staggered at any proposal to place any part of "our empire" under a world administration on the footing of a united states territory. until they cease to be staggered by anything of the sort, their aspirations for a permanent peace will remain disconnected from the main current of their lives. and that current will flow, sluggishly or rapidly, towards war. for essentially these "possessions" are like tariffs, like the strategic occupation of neutral countries or secret treaties; they are forms of the conflict between nations to oust and prevail over other nations. going on with such things and yet deprecating war is really not an attempt to abolish conflict; it is an attempt to retain conflict and limit its intensity; it is like trying to play hockey on the understanding that the ball shall never travel faster than eight miles an hour. now it not only stands in our way to a permanent peace of the world that the great mass of men are not prepared for even the most obvious implications of such an idea, but there is also a second invincible difficulty--that there is nowhere in the world anybody, any type of men, any organisation, any idea, any nucleus or germ, that could possibly develop into the necessary over-government. we are asking for something out of the air, out of nothingness, that will necessarily array against itself the resistance of all those who are in control, or interested in the control, of the affairs of sovereign states of the world as they are at present; the resistance of a gigantic network of government organisations, interests, privileges, assumptions. against this a headless, vague aspiration, however universal, is likely to prove quite ineffective. of course, it is possible to suggest that the hague tribunal is conceivably the germ of such an overriding direction and supreme court as the peace of the world demands, but in reality the hague tribunal is a mere legal automatic machine. it does nothing unless you set it in motion. it has no initiative. it does not even protest against the most obvious outrages upon that phantom of a world-conscience--international law. pacificists in their search for some definite starting-point, about which the immense predisposition for peace may crystallise, have suggested the pope and various religious organisations as a possible basis for the organisation of peace. but there would be no appeal from such a beginning to the non-christian majority of mankind, and the suggestion in itself indicates a profound ignorance of the nature of the christian churches. with the exception of the quakers and a few russian sects, no christian sect or church has ever repudiated war; most have gone out of the way to sanction it and bless it. it is altogether too rashly assumed by people whose sentimentality outruns their knowledge that christianity is essentially an attempt to carry out the personal teachings of christ. it is nothing of the sort, and no church authority will support that idea. christianity--more particularly after the ascendancy of the trinitarian doctrine was established--was and is a theological religion; it is the religion that triumphed over arianism, manichseism, gnosticism, and the like; it is based not on christ, but on its creeds. christ, indeed, is not even its symbol; on the contrary, the chosen symbol of christianity is the cross to which christ was nailed and on which he died. it was very largely a religion of the legions. it was the warrior theodosius who, more than any single other man, imposed it upon europe. there is no reason, therefore, either in precedent or profession, for expecting any plain lead from the churches in this tremendous task of organising and making effective the widespread desire of the world for peace. and even were this the case, it is doubtful if we should find in the divines and dignitaries of the vatican, of the russian and british official churches, or of any other of the multitudinous christian sects, the power and energy, the knowledge and ability, or even the goodwill needed to negotiate so vast a thing as the creation of a world authority. one other possible starting-point has been suggested. it is no great feat for a naive imagination to suppose the president of the swiss confederation or the president of the united states--for each of these two systems is an exemplary and encouraging instance of the possibility of the pacific synthesis of independent states--taking a propagandist course and proposing extensions of their own systems to the suffering belligerents. but nothing of the sort occurs. and when you come to look into the circumstances of these two presidents you will discover that neither of them is any more free than anybody else to embark upon the task of creating a state-overriding, war-preventing organisation of the world. he has been created by a system, and he is bound to a system; his concern is with the interests of the people of switzerland or of the united states of america. president wilson, for example, is quite sufficiently occupied by the affairs of the white house, by the clash of political parties, by interferences with american overseas trade and the security of american citizens. he has no more time to give to projects for the fundamental reconstruction of international relationships than has any recruit drilling in england, or any captain on an ocean liner, or any engineer in charge of a going engine. we are all, indeed, busy with the things that come to hand every day. we are all anxious for a permanent world peace, but we are all up to the neck in things that leave us no time to attend to this world peace that nearly every sane man desires. meanwhile, a small minority of people who trade upon contention--militarists, ambitious kings and statesmen, war contractors, loan mongers, sensational journalists--follow up their interests and start and sustain war. there lies the paradoxical reality of this question. our first inquiry lands us into the elucidation of this deadlock. nearly everybody desires a world peace, and yet there is not apparent anywhere any man free and able and willing to establish it, while, on the other hand, there are a considerable number of men in positions of especial influence and power who will certainly resist the arrangements that are essential to its establishment. but does this exhaust the question, and must we conclude that mankind is doomed to a perpetual, futile struggling of states and nations and peoples--breaking ever and again into war? the answer to that would probably, be "yes" if it were not for the progress of war. war is continually becoming more scientific, more destructive, more coldly logical, more intolerant of non-combatants, and more exhausting of any kind of property. there is every reason to believe that it will continue to intensify these characteristics. by doing so it may presently bring about a state of affairs that will supply just the lacking elements that are needed for the development of a world peace. i would venture to suggest that the present war is doing so now: that it is producing changes in men's minds that may presently give us both the needed energy and the needed organisation from which a world direction may develop. the first, most distinctive thing about this conflict is the exceptionally searching way in which it attacks human happiness. no war has ever destroyed happiness so widely. it has not only killed and wounded an unprecedented proportion of the male population of all the combatant nations, but it has also destroyed wealth beyond precedent. it has also destroyed freedom--of movement, of speech, of economic enterprise. hardly anyone alive has escaped the worry of it and the threat of it. it has left scarcely a life untouched, and made scarcely a life happier. there is a limit to the principle that "everybody's business is nobody's business." the establishment of a world state, which was interesting only to a few cranks and visionaries before the war, is now the lively interest of a very great number of people. they inquire about it; they have become accessible to ideas about it. peace organisation seems, indeed, to be following the lines of public sanitation. everybody in england, for example, was bored by the discussion of sanitation--until the great cholera epidemic. everybody thought public health a very desirable thing, but nobody thought it intensely and overridingly desirable. then the interest in sanitation grew lively, and people exerted themselves to create responsible organisations. crimes of violence, again, were neglected in the great cities of europe until the danger grew to dimensions that evolved the police. there come occasions when the normal concentration of an individual upon his own immediate concerns becomes impossible; as, for instance, when a man who is stocktaking in his business premises discovers that the house next door is on fire. a great many people who have never troubled their heads about anything but their own purely personal and selfish interests are now realising that quite a multitude of houses about them are ablaze, and that the fire is spreading. that is one change the war will bring about that will make for world peace: a quickened general interest in its possibility. another is the certainty that the war will increase the number of devoted and fanatic characters available for disinterested effort. whatever other outcome this war may have, it means that there lies ahead a period of extreme economic and political dislocation. the credit system has been strained, and will be strained, and will need unprecedented readjustments. in the past such phases of uncertainty, sudden impoverishment and disorder as certainly lie ahead of us, have meant for a considerable number of minds a release--or, if you prefer it, a flight--from the habitual and selfish. types of intense religiosity, of devotion and of endeavour are let loose, and there will be much more likelihood that we may presently find, what it is impossible to find now, a number of devoted men and women ready to give their whole lives, with a quasi-religious enthusiasm, to this great task of peace establishment, finding in such impersonal work a refuge from the disappointments, limitations, losses and sorrows of their personal life--a refuge we need but little in more settled and more prosperous periods. they will be but the outstanding individuals in a very universal quickening. and simultaneously with this quickening of the general imagination by experience there are certain other developments in progress that point very clearly to a change under the pressure of this war of just those institutions of nationality, kingship, diplomacy and inter-state competition that have hitherto stood most effectually in the way of a world pacification. the considerations that seem to point to this third change are very convincing, to my mind. the real operating cause that is, i believe, going to break down the deadlock that has hitherto made a supreme court and a federal government for the world at large a dream, lies in just that possibility of an "inconclusive peace" which so many people seem to dread. germany, i believe, is going to be beaten, but not completely crushed, by this war; she is going to be left militarist and united with austria and hungary, and unchanged in her essential nature; and out of that state of affairs comes, i believe, the hope for an ultimate confederation of the nations of the earth. because, in the face of a league of the central european powers attempting recuperation, cherishing revenge, dreaming of a renewal of the struggle, it becomes impossible for the british, the french, the belgians, russians, italians or japanese to think any longer of settling their differences by war among themselves. to do so will mean the creation of opportunity for the complete reinstatement of german militarism. it will open the door for a conclusive german hegemony. now, however clumsy and confused the diplomacy of these present allies may be (challenged constantly, as it is, by democracy and hampered by a free, venal and irresponsible press in at least three of their countries), the necessity they will be under will be so urgent and so evident, that it is impossible to imagine that they will not set up some permanent organ for the direction and co-ordination of their joint international relationships. it may be a queerly constituted body at first; it may be of a merely diplomatic pretension; it may be called a congress, or any old name of that sort, but essentially its business will be to conduct a joint fiscal, military and naval policy, to keep the peace in the balkans and asia, to establish a relationship with china, and organise joint and several arbitration arrangements with america. and it must develop something more sure and swift than our present diplomacy. one of its chief concerns will be the right of way through the bosphorus and the dardanelles, and the watching of the forces that stir up conflict in the balkans and the levant. it must have unity enough for that; it must be much more than a mere leisurely, unauthoritative conference of representatives. for precisely similar reasons it seems to me incredible that the two great central european powers should ever fall into sustained conflict again with one another. they, too, will be forced to create some overriding body to prevent so suicidal a possibility. america too, it may be, will develop some pan-american equivalent. probably the hundred millions of latin america may achieve a method of unity, and then deal on equal terms with the present united states. the thing has been ably advocated already in south america. whatever appearances of separate sovereignties are kept up after the war, the practical outcome of the struggle is quite likely to be this: that there will be only three great world powers left--the anti-german allies, the allied central europeans, the pan-americans. and it is to be noted that, whatever the constituents of these three powers may be, none of them is likely to be a monarchy. they may include monarchies, as england includes dukedoms. but they will be overriding alliances, not overriding rulers. i leave it to the mathematician to work out exactly how much the chances of conflict are diminished when there are practically only three powers in the world instead of some scores. and these new powers will be in certain respects unlike any existing european "states." none of the three powers will be small or homogeneous enough to serve dynastic ambitions, embody a national or racial kultur, or fall into the grip of any group of financial enterprises. they will be more comprehensive, less romantic, and more businesslike altogether. they will be, to use a phrase suggested a year or so ago, great states.... and the war threat between the three will be so plain and definite, the issues will be so lifted out of the spheres of merely personal ambition and national feeling, that i do not see why the negotiating means, the standing conference of the three, should not ultimately become the needed nucleus of the world state for which at present we search the world in vain. there are more ways than one to the world state, and this second possibility of a post-war conference and a conference of the allies, growing almost unawares into a pacific organisation of the world, since it goes on directly from existing institutions, since it has none of the quality of a clean break with the past which the idea of an immediate world state and pax mundi involves, and more particularly since it neither abolishes nor has in it anything to shock fundamentally the princes, the diplomatists, the lawyers, the statesmen and politicians, the nationalists and suspicious people, since it gives them years in which to change and die out and reappear in new forms, and since at the same time it will command the support of every intelligent human being who gets his mind clear enough from his circumstances to understand its import, is a far more credible hope than the hope of anything coming _de novo_ out of hague foundations or the manifest logic of the war. but, of course, there weighs against these hopes the possibility that the allied powers are too various in their nature, too biased, too feeble intellectually and imaginatively, to hold together and maintain any institution for co-operation. the british press may be too silly not to foster irritation and suspicion; we may get carsonism on a larger scale trading on the resuscitation of dying hatreds; the british and russian diplomatists may play annoying tricks upon one another by sheer force of habit. there may be many troubles of that sort. even then i do not see that the hope of an ultimate world peace vanishes. but it will be a roman world peace, made in germany, and there will have to be several more great wars before it is established. germany is too homogeneous yet to have begun the lesson of compromise and the renunciation of the dream of national conquest. the germans are a national, not an imperial people. france has learnt that through suffering, and britain and russia because for two centuries they have been imperial and not national systems. the german conception of world peace is as yet a conception of german ascendancy. the allied conception becomes perforce one of mutual toleration. but i will not press this inquiry farther now. it is, as i said at the beginning, a preliminary exploration of one of the great questions with which i propose to play in these articles. the possibility i have sketched is the one that most commends itself to me as probable. after a more detailed examination of the big operating forces at present working in the world, we may be in a position to revise these suggestions with a greater confidence and draw our net of probabilities a little tighter. ii. the end of the war[ ] the prophet who emerges with the most honour from this war is bloch. it must be fifteen or sixteen years ago since this gifted pole made his forecast of the future. perhaps it is more, for the french translation of his book was certainly in existence before the boer war. his case was that war between antagonists of fairly equal equipment must end in a deadlock because of the continually increasing defensive efficiency of entrenched infantry. this would give the defensive an advantage over the most brilliant strategy and over considerably superior numbers that would completely discourage all aggression. he concluded that war was played out. [footnote : this chapter was originally a newspaper article. it was written in december, , and published about the middle of january. some of it has passed from the quality of anticipation to achievement, but i do not see that it needs any material revision on that account.] his book was very carefully studied in germany. as a humble disciple of bloch i should have realised this, but i did not, and that failure led me into some unfortunate prophesying at the outbreak of the war. i judged germany by the kaiser, and by the kaiser-worship which i saw in berlin. i thought that he was a theatrical person who would dream of vast massed attacks and tremendous cavalry charges, and that he would lead germany to be smashed against the allied defensive in the west, and to be smashed so thoroughly that the war would be over. i did not properly appreciate the more studious and more thorough germany that was to fight behind the kaiser and thrust him aside, the germany we british fight now, the ostwald-krupp germany of . that germany, one may now perceive, had read and thought over and thought out the bloch problem. there was also a translation of bloch into french. in english a portion of his book was translated for the general reader and published with a preface by the late mr. w.t. stead. it does not seem to have reached the british military authorities, nor was it published in england with an instructive intention. as an imaginative work it would have been considered worthless and impracticable. but it is manifest now that if the belgian and french frontiers had been properly prepared--as they should have been prepared when the germans built their strategic railways--with trenches and gun emplacements and secondary and tertiary lines, the germans would never have got fifty miles into either france or belgium. they would have been held at liége and in the ardennes. five hundred thousand men would have held them indefinitely. but the allies had never worked trench warfare; they were unready for it, germans knew of their unreadiness, and their unreadiness it is quite clear they calculated. they did not reckon, it is now clear that they were right in not reckoning, the allies as contemporary soldiers. they were going to fight a army with a army, and their whole opening scheme was based on the conviction that the allies would not entrench. somebody in those marvellous maxims from the dark ages that seem to form the chief reading of our military experts, said that the army that entrenches is a defeated army. the silly dictum was repeated and repeated in the english papers after the battle of the marne. it shows just where our military science had reached in , namely, to a level a year before bloch wrote. so the allies retreated. for long weeks the allies retreated out of the west of belgium, out of the north of france, and for rather over a month there was a loose mobile war--as if bloch had never existed. the germans were not fighting the pattern of war, they were fighting the pattern of war, in which direct attack, outflanking and so on were still supposed to be possible; they were fighting confident in their overwhelming numbers, in their prepared surprise, in the unthought-out methods of their opponents. in the "victorian" war that ended in the middle of september, , they delivered their blow, they over-reached, they were successfully counter-attacked on the marne, and then abruptly--almost unfairly it seemed to the british sportsmanlike conceptions--they shifted to the game played according to the very latest rules of . the war did not come up to date until the battle of the aisne. with that the second act of the great drama began. i do not believe that the germans ever thought it would come up to date so soon. i believe they thought that they would hustle the french out of paris, come right up to the channel at calais before the end of , and then entrench, produce the submarine attack and the zeppelins against england, working from calais as a base, and that they would end the war before the spring of --with the allies still a good fifteen years behindhand. i believe the battle of the marne was the decisive battle of the war, in that it shattered this plan, and that the rest of the fighting was germany's attempt to reconstruct their broken scheme in the face of an enemy who was continually getting more and more nearly up to date with the fighting. by december, bloch, who had seemed utterly discredited in august, was justified up to the hilt. the world was entrenched at his feet. by may the lagging military science of the british had so far overtaken events as to realise that shrapnel was no longer so important as high explosive, and within a year the significance of machine guns, a significance thoroughly ventilated by imaginative writers fifteen years before, was being grasped by the conservative but by no means inadaptable leaders of britain. the war since that first attempt--admirably planned and altogether justifiable (from a military point of view, i mean)--of germany to "rush" a victory, has consisted almost entirely of failures on both sides either to get round or through or over the situation foretold by bloch. there has been only one marked success, the german success in poland due to the failure of the russian munitions. then for a time the war in the east was mobile and precarious while the russians retreated to their present positions, and the germans pursued and tried to surround them. that was a lapse into the pre-bloch style. now the russians are again entrenched, their supplies are restored, the germans have a lengthened line of supplies, and bloch is back upon his pedestal so far as the eastern theatre goes. bloch has been equally justified in the anglo-french attempt to get round through gallipoli. the forces of the india office have pushed their way through unprepared country towards bagdad, and are now entrenching in mesopotamia, but from the point of view of the main war that is too remote to be considered either getting through or getting round; and so too the losses of the german colonies and the east african war are scarcely to be reckoned with in the main war. they have no determining value. there remains the balkan struggle. but the balkan struggle is something else; it is something new. it must be treated separately. it is a war of treacheries and brags and appearances. it is not a part of, it is a sequence to, the deadlock war of . but before dealing with this new development of the latter half of it is necessary to consider certain general aspects of the deadlock war. it is manifest that the germans hoped to secure an effective victory in this war before they ran up against bloch. but reckoning with bloch, as they certainly did, they hoped that even in the event of the war getting to earth, it would still be possible to produce novelties that would sufficiently neutralise bloch to secure a victorious peace. with unexpectedly powerful artillery suddenly concentrated, with high explosives, with asphyxiating gas, with a well-organised system of grenade throwing and mining, with attacks of flaming gas, and above all with a vast munition-making plant to keep them going, they had a very reasonable chance of hacking their way through. against these prepared novelties the allies have had to improvise, and on the whole the improvisation has kept pace with the demands made upon it. they have brought their military science up to date, and to-day the disparity in science and equipment between the antagonists has greatly diminished. there has been no escaping bloch after all, and the deadlock, if no sudden peace occurs, can end now in only one thing, the exhaustion in various degrees of all the combatants and the succumbing of the most exhausted. the idea of a conclusive end of the traditional pattern to this war, of a triumphal entry into london, paris, berlin or moscow, is to be dismissed altogether from our calculations. the end of this war will be a matter of negotiation between practically immobilised and extremely shattered antagonists. there is, of course, one aspect of the bloch deadlock that the germans at least have contemplated. if it is not possible to get through or round, it may still be possible to get over. there is the air path. this idea has certainly taken hold of the french mind, but france has been too busy and is temperamentally too economical to risk large expenditures upon what is necessarily an experiment. the british are too conservative and sceptical to be the pioneers in any such enterprise. the russians have been too poor in the necessary resources of mechanics and material. the germans alone have made any sustained attempt to strike through the air at their enemies beyond the war zone. their zeppelin raids upon england have shown a steadily increasing efficiency, and it is highly probable that they will be repeated on a much larger scale before the war is over. quite possibly, too, the germans are developing an accessory force of large aeroplanes to co-operate in such an attack. the long coasts of britain, the impossibility of their being fully equipped throughout their extent, except at a prohibitive cost of men and material, to resist air invaders, exposes the whole length of the island to considerable risk and annoyance from such an expedition. it is doubtful, though, if the utmost damage an air raid is likely to inflict upon england would count materially in the exhaustion process, and the moral effect of these raids has been, and will be, to stiffen the british resolution to fight this war through to the conclusive ending of any such possibilities. the net result of these air raids is an inflexible determination of the british people rather to die in death grips with german militarism than to live and let it survive. the best chance for the aircraft was at the beginning of the war, when a surprise development might have had astounding results. that chance has gone by. the germans are racially inferior to both french and english in the air, and the probability of effective blows over the deadlock is on the whole a probability in favour of the allies. nor is there anything on or under the sea that seems likely now to produce decisive results. we return from these considerations to a strengthened acceptance of bloch. the essential question for the prophet remains therefore the question of which group of powers will exhaust itself most rapidly. and following on from that comes the question of how the successive stages of exhaustion will manifest themselves in the combatant nations. the problems of this war, as of all war, end as they begin in national psychology. but it will be urged that this is reckoning without the balkans. i submit that the german thrust through the wooded wilderness of serbia is really no part of the war that has ended in the deadlock of . it is dramatic, tragic, spectacular, but it is quite inconclusive. here there is no way round or through to any vital centre of germany's antagonists. it turns nothing; it opens no path to paris, london, or petrograd. it is a long, long way from the danube to either egypt or mesopotamia, and there--and there--bloch is waiting. i do not think the germans have any intention of so generous an extension of their responsibilities. the balkan complication is no solution of the deadlock problem. it is the opening of the sequel. a whole series of new problems are opened up directly we turn to this most troubled region of the balkans--problems of the value of kingship, of nationality, of the destiny of such cities as constantinople, which from their very beginning have never had any sort of nationality at all, of the destiny of countries such as albania, where a tangle of intense tribal nationalities is distributed in spots and patches, or dalmatia, where one extremely self-conscious nation and language is present in the towns and another in the surrounding country, or asia minor, where no definite national boundaries, no religious, linguistic, or social homogeneities have ever established themselves since the roman legions beat them down. but all these questions can really be deferred or set aside in our present discussion, which is a discussion of the main war. whatever surprises or changes this last phase of the eastern empire, that blood-clotted melodrama, may involve, they will but assist and hasten on the essential conclusion of the great war, that the central powers and their pledged antagonists are in a deadlock, unable to reach a decision, and steadily, day by day, hour by hour, losing men, destroying material, spending credit, approaching something unprecedented, unknown, that we try to express to ourselves by the word exhaustion. just how the people who use the word "exhaustion" so freely are prepared to define it, is a matter for speculation. the idea seems to be a phase in which the production of equipped forces ceases through the using up of men or material or both. if the exhaustion is fairly mutual, it need not be decisive for a long time. it may mean simply an ebb of vigour on both sides, unusual hardship, a general social and economic disorganisation and grading down. the fact that a great killing off of men is implicit in the process, and that the survivors will be largely under discipline, militates against the idea that the end may come suddenly through a vigorous revolutionary outbreak. exhaustion is likely to be a very long and very thorough process, extending over years. a "war of attrition" may last into or , and may bring us to conditions of strain and deprivation still only very vaguely imagined. what happens in the turkish empire or india or america or elsewhere may extend the areas of waste and accelerate or retard the process, but is quite unlikely to end it. let us ask now which of the combatants is likely to undergo exhaustion most rapidly, and what is of equal or greater importance, which is likely to feel it first and most? no doubt there is a bias in my mind, but it seems to me that the odds are on the whole heavily against the central powers. their peculiar german virtue, their tremendously complete organisation, which enabled them to put so large a proportion of their total resources into their first onslaught and to make so great and rapid a recovery in the spring of , leaves them with less to draw upon now. out of a smaller fortune they have spent a larger sum. they are blockaded to a very considerable extent, and against them fight not merely the resources of the allies, but, thanks to the complete british victory in the sea struggle, the purchasable resources of all the world. conceivably the central powers will draw upon the resources of their balkan and asiatic allies, but the extent to which they can do that may very easily be over-estimated. there is a limit to the power for treason of these supposititious german monarchs that western folly has permitted to possess these balkan thrones--thrones which need never have been thrones at all--and none of the balkan peoples is likely to witness with enthusiasm the complete looting of its country in the german interest by a german court. germany will have to pay on the nail for most of her balkan help. she will have to put more into the balkans than she takes out. compared with the world behind the allies the turkish empire is a country of mountains, desert and undeveloped lands. to develop these regions into a source of supplies under the strains and shortages of war-time, will be an immense and dangerous undertaking for germany. she may open mines she may never work, build railways that others will enjoy, sow harvests for alien reaping. the people the bulgarians want in bulgaria are not germans but bulgarians; the people the turks want in anatolia are not germans but turks. and for all these tasks germany must send men. men? at present, so far as any judgment is possible, germany is feeling the pinch of the war much more even than france, which is habitually parsimonious, and instinctively cleverly economical, and russia, which is hardy and insensitive. great britain has really only begun to feel the stress. she has probably suffered economically no more than have holland or switzerland, and italy and japan have certainly suffered less. all these three great countries are still full of men, of gear, of saleable futures. in every part of the globe great britain has colossal investments. she has still to apply the great principle of conscription not only to her sons but to the property of her overseas investors and of her landed proprietors. she has not even looked yet at the german financial expedients of a year ago. she moves reluctantly, but surely, towards such a thoroughness of mobilisation. there need be no doubt that she will completely socialise herself, completely reorganise her whole social and economic structure sooner than lose this war. she will do it clumsily and ungracefully, with much internal bickering, with much trickery on the part of her lawyers, and much baseness on the part of her landlords; but she will do it not so slowly as a logical mind might anticipate. she will get there a little late, expensively, but still in time.... the german group, i reckon, therefore, will become exhausted first. i think, too, that germany will, as a nation, feel and be aware of what is happening to her sooner than any other of the nations that are sharing in this process of depletion. in the germans were reaping the harvest of forty years of economic development and business enterprise. property and plenty were new experiences, and a generation had grown up in whose world a sense of expansion and progress was normal. there existed amongst it no tradition of the great hardship of war, such as the french possessed, to steel its mind. it had none of the irrational mute toughness of the russians and british. it was a sentimental people, making a habit of success; it rushed chanting to war against the most grimly heroic and the most stolidly enduring of races. germany came into this war more buoyantly and confidently than any other combatant. it expected another ; at the utmost it anticipated a year of war. never were a people so disillusioned as the germans must already be, never has a nation been called upon for so complete a mental readjustment. neither conclusive victories nor defeats have been theirs, but only a slow, vast transition from joyful effort and an illusion of rapid triumph to hardship, loss and loss and loss of substance, the dwindling of great hopes, the realisation of ebb in the tide of national welfare. now they must fight on against implacable, indomitable allies. they are under stresses now as harsh at least as the stresses of france. and, compared with the french, the germans are untempered steel. we know little of the psychology of this new germany that has come into being since , but it is doubtful if it will accept defeat, and still more doubtful how it can evade some ending to the war that will admit the failure of all its great hopes of paris subjugated, london humbled, russia suppliant, belgium conquered, the near east a prey. such an admission will be a day of reckoning that german imperialism will postpone until the last hope of some breach among the allies, some saving miracle in the old eastern empire, some dramatically-snatched victory at the eleventh hour, is gone. nor can the pledged allies consent to a peace that does not involve the evacuation and compensation of belgium and serbia, and at least the autonomy of the lost rhine provinces of france. that is their very minimum. that, and the making of germany so sick and weary of military adventure that the danger of german ambition will cease to overshadow european life. those are the ends of the main war. europe will go down through stage after stage of impoverishment and exhaustion until these ends are attained, or made for ever impossible. but these things form only the main outline of a story with a vast amount of collateral interest. it is to these collateral issues that the amateur in prophecy must give his attention. it is here that the german will be induced by his government to see his compensations. he will be consoled for the restoration of serbia by the prospect of future conflicts between italian and jugoslav that will let him in again to the adriatic. his attention will be directed to his newer, closer association with bulgaria and turkey. in those countries he will be told he may yet repeat the miracle of hungary. and there may be also another hungary in poland. it will be whispered to him that he has really conquered those countries when indeed it is highly probable he has only spent his substance in setting up new assertive alien allies. the kaiser, if he is not too afraid of the precedent of sarajevo, may make a great entry into constantinople, with an effect of conquering what is after all only a temporarily allied capital. the german will hope also to retain his fleet, and no peace, he will be reminded, can rob him of his hard-earned technical superiority in the air. the german air fleet of may yet be something as predominant as the british navy of , and capable of delivering a much more intimate blow. had he not better wait for that? when such consolations as these become popular in the german press we of the pledged allies may begin to talk of peace, for these will be its necessary heralds. the concluding phase of a process of general exhaustion must almost inevitably be a game of bluff. neither side will admit its extremity. neither side, therefore, will make any direct proposals to its antagonists nor any open advances to a neutral. but there will be much inspired peace talk through neutral media, and the consultations of the anti-german allies will become more intimate and detailed. suggestions will "leak out" remarkably from both sides, to journalists and neutral go-betweens. the eastern and western allies will probably begin quite soon to discuss an anti-german zollverein and the co-ordination of their military and naval organisations in the days that are to follow the war. a discussion of a central european zollverein is already afoot. a general idea of the possible rearrangement of the european states after the war will grow up in the common european and american mind; public men on either side will indicate concordance with this general idea, and some neutral power, denmark or spain or the united states or holland, will invite representatives to an informal discussion of these possibilities. probably, therefore, the peace negotiations will take the extraordinary form of two simultaneous conferences--one of the pledged allies, sitting probably in paris or london, and the other of representatives of all the combatants meeting in some neutral country--holland would be the most convenient--while the war will still be going on. the dutch conference would be in immediate contact by telephone and telegraph with the allied conference and with berlin.... the broad conditions of a possible peace will begin to get stated towards the end of , and a certain lassitude will creep over the operations in the field.... the process of exhaustion will probably have reached such a point by that time that it will be a primary fact in the consciousness of common citizens of every belligerent country. the common life of all europe will have become--miserable. conclusive blows will have receded out of the imagination of the contending powers. the war will have reached its fourth and last stage as a war. the war of the great attack will have given place to the war of the military deadlock; the war of the deadlock will have gone on, and as the great combatants have become enfeebled relatively to the smaller states, there will have been a gradual shifting of the interest to the war of treasons and diplomacies in the eastern mediterranean. quickly thereafter the last phase will be developing into predominance, in which each group of nations will be most concerned, no longer about victories or conquests, but about securing for itself the best chances of rapid economic recuperation and social reconstruction. the commercial treaties, the arrangements for future associated action, made by the great allies among themselves will appear more and more important to them, and the mere question of boundaries less and less. it will dawn upon europe that she has already dissipated the resources that have enabled her to levy the tribute paid for her investments in every quarter of the earth, and that neither the germans nor their antagonists will be able for many years to go on with those projects for world exploitation which lay at the root of the great war. very jaded and anaemic nations will sit about the table on which the new map of europe will be drawn.... each of the diplomatists will come to that business with a certain pre-occupation. each will be thinking of his country as one thinks of a patient of doubtful patience and temper who is coming-to out of the drugged stupor of a crucial, ill-conceived, and unnecessary operation ... each will be thinking of labour, wounded and perplexed, returning to the disorganised or nationalised factories from which capital has gone a-fighting, and to which it may never return. iii. nations in liquidation the war has become a war of exhaustion. one hears a great deal of the idea that "financial collapse" may bring it to an end. a number of people seem to be convinced that a war cannot be waged without money, that soldiers must be paid, munitions must be bought; that for this money is necessary and the consent of bank depositors; so that if all the wealth of the world were nominally possessed by some one man in a little office he could stop the war by saying simply, "i will lend you no more money." now, as a matter of fact, money is a power only in so far as people believe in it and governments sustain it. if a state is sufficiently strong and well organised, its control over the money power is unlimited. if it can rule its people, and if it has the necessary resources of men and material within its borders, it can go on in a state of war so long as these things last, with almost any flimsy sort of substitute for money that it chooses to print. it can enrol and use the men, and seize and work the material. it can take over the land and cultivate it and distribute its products. the little man in the office is only a power because the state chooses to recognise his claim. so long as he is convenient he seems to be a power. so soon as the state is intelligent enough and strong enough it can do without him. it can take what it wants, and tell him to go and hang himself. that is the melancholy ultimate of the usurer. that is the quintessence of "finance." all credit is state-made, and what the state has made the state can alter or destroy. the owner and the creditor have never had any other power to give or withhold credit than the credit that was given to them. they exist by sufferance or superstition and not of necessity. it is the habit of overlooking this little flaw in the imperatives of ownership that enables people to say that this war cannot go on beyond such and such a date--the end of is much in favour just now--because we cannot pay for it. it would be about as reasonable to expect a battle to end because a landlord had ordered the soldiers off his estate. so long as there are men to fight and stuff to fight with the war can go on. there is bankruptcy, but the bankruptcy of states is not like the bankruptcy of individuals. there is no such thing among states as an undischarged bankrupt who is forbidden to carry on. a state may keep on going bankrupt indefinitely and still carry on. it will be the next step in our prophetic exercise to examine the differences between state bankruptcy and the bankruptcy of a subject of the state. the belligerent powers are approaching a phase when they will no longer be paying anything like twenty shillings in the pound. in a very definite sense they are not paying twenty shillings in the pound now. that is not going to stop the war, but it involves a string of consequences and possibilities of the utmost importance to our problem of what is coming when the war is over. the exhaustion that will bring this war to its end at last is a process of destruction of men and material. the process of bankruptcy that is also going on is nothing of the sort. bankruptcy destroys no concrete thing; it merely writes off a debt; it destroys a financial but not an economic reality. it is, in itself, a mental, not a physical fact. "a" owes "b" a debt; he goes bankrupt and pays a dividend, a fraction of his debt, and gets his discharge. "b's" feelings, as we novelists used to say, are "better imagined than described"; he does his best to satisfy himself that "a" can pay no more, and then "a" and "b" both go about their business again. in england, if "a" is a sufficiently poor man not to be formidable, and has gone bankrupt on a small scale, he gets squeezed ferociously to extract the last farthing from him; he may find himself in jail and his home utterly smashed up. if he is a richer man, and has failed on a larger scale, our law is more sympathetic, and he gets off much more easily. often his creditors find it advisable to arrange with him so that he will still carry on with his bankrupt concern. they find it is better to allow him to carry on than to smash him up. there are countless men in the world living very comfortably indeed, and running businesses that were once their own property for their creditors. there are still more who have written off princely debts and do not seem to be a "ha'p'orth the worse." and their creditors have found a balm in time and philosophy. bankruptcy is only painful and destructive to small people and helpless people; but then for them everything is painful and destructive; it can be a very light matter to big people; it may be almost painless to a state. if england went bankrupt in the completest way to-morrow, and repudiated all its debts both as a nation and as a community of individuals, if it declared, if i may use a self-contradictory phrase, a permanent moratorium, there would be not an acre of ploughed land in the country, not a yard of cloth or a loaf of bread the less for that. there would be nothing material destroyed within the state. there would be no immediate convulsion. use and wont would carry most people on some days before they even began to doubt whether so-and-so could pay his way, and whether there would be wages at the end of the week. but people who lived upon rent or investments or pensions would presently be very busy thinking how they were going to get food when the butcher and baker insisted upon cash. it would be only with comparative slowness that the bulk of men would realise that a fabric of confidence and confident assumptions had vanished; that cheques and bank notes and token money and every sort of bond and scrip were worthless, that employers had nothing to pay with, shopkeepers no means of procuring stock, that metallic money was disappearing, and that a paralysis had come upon the community. such an establishment as a workhouse or an old-fashioned monastery, living upon the produce of its own farming and supplying all its own labour, would be least embarrassed amidst the general perplexity. for it would not be upon a credit basis, but a socialistic basis, a basis of direct reality, and its need for payments would be incidental. and land-owning peasants growing their own food would carry on, and small cultivating occupiers, who could easily fall back on barter for anything needed. the mass of the population in such a country as england would, however, soon be standing about in hopeless perplexity and on the verge of frantic panic--although there was just as much food to be eaten, just as many houses to live in, and just as much work needing to be done. suddenly the pots would be empty, and famine would be in the land, although the farms and butchers' shops were still well stocked. the general community would be like an automobile when the magneto fails. everything would be there and in order, except for the spark of credit which keeps the engine working. that is how quite a lot of people seem to imagine national bankruptcy: as a catastrophic jolt. it is a quite impossible nightmare of cessation. the reality is the completest contrast. all the belligerent countries of the world are at the present moment quietly, steadily and progressively going bankrupt, and the mass of people are not even aware of this process of insolvency. an individual when he goes bankrupt is measured by the monetary standard of the country he is in; he pays five or ten or fifteen or so many shillings in the pound. a community in debt does something which is in effect the same, but in appearance rather different. it still pays a pound, but the purchasing power of the pound has diminished. this is what is happening all over the world to-day; there is a rise in prices. this is automatic national bankruptcy; unplanned, though perhaps not unforeseen. it is not a deliberate state act, but a consequence of the interruption of communications, the diversion of productive energy, the increased demand for many necessities by the government and the general waste under war conditions. at the beginning of this war england had a certain national debt; it has paid off none of that original debt; it has added to it tremendously; so far as money and bankers' records go it still owes and intends to pay that original debt; but if you translate the language of £.s.d. into realities, you will find that in loaves or iron or copper or hours of toil, or indeed in any reality except gold, it owes now, so far as that original debt goes, far less than it did at the outset. as the war goes on and the rise in prices continues, the subsequent borrowings and contracts are undergoing a similar bankrupt reduction. the attempt of the landlord of small weekly and annual properties to adjust himself to the new conditions by raising rents is being checked by legislation in great britain, and has been completely checked in france. the attempts of labour to readjust wages have been partially successful in spite of the eloquent protests of those great exponents of plain living, economy, abstinence, and honest, modest, underpaid toil, messrs. asquith, mckenna, and runciman. it is doubtful if the rise in wages is keeping pace with the rise in prices. so far as it fails to do so the load is on the usual pack animal, the poor man. the rest of the loss falls chiefly upon the creditor class, the people with fixed incomes and fixed salaries, the landlords, who have let at long leases, the people with pensions, endowed institutions, the church, insurance companies, and the like. they are all being scaled down. they are all more able to stand scaling down than the proletarians. assuming that it is possible to bring up wages to the level of the higher prices, and that the rise in rents can be checked by legislation or captured by taxation, the rise in prices is, on the whole, a thing to the advantage of the propertyless man as against accumulated property. it writes off the past and clears the way for a fresh start in the future. an age of cheapness is an old usurers' age. england before the war was a paradise of ancient usuries; everywhere were great houses and enclosed parks; the multitude of gentlemen's servants and golf clubs and such like excrescences of the comfort of prosperous people was perpetually increasing; it did not "pay" to build labourers' cottages, and the more expensive sort of automobile had driven the bicycle as a pleasure vehicle off the roads. western europe was running to fat and not to muscle, as america is to-day. but if that old usurer's age is over, the young usurer's age may be coming. to meet such enormous demands as this war is making there are three chief courses open to the modern state. the first is to _take_--to get men by conscription and material by requisition. the british government _takes_ more modestly than any other in the world; its tradition from magna charta onward, the legal training of most of its members, all make towards a reverence for private ownership and private claims, as opposed to the claims of state and commonweal, unequalled in the world's history. the next course of a nation in need is to _tax_ and pay for what it wants, which is a fractional and more evenly distributed method of taking. both of these methods raise prices, the second most so, and so facilitate the automatic release of the future from the boarding of the past. so far all the belligerent governments have taxed on the timid side. finally there is the _loan_. this mortgages the future to the present necessity, and it has so far been the predominant source of war credits. it is the method that produces least immediate friction in the state; it employs all the savings of surplus income that the unrest of civil enterprise leaves idle; it has an effect of creating property by a process that destroys the substance of the community. in germany an enormous bulk of property has been mortgaged to supply the subscriptions to the war loans, and those holdings have again been hypothecated to subscribe to subsequent loans. the pledged allies with longer stockings have not yet got to this pitch of overlapping. but everywhere in europe what is happening is a great transformation of the property owner into a _rentier_, and the passing of realty into the hands of the state. at the end of the war great britain will probably find herself with a national debt so great that she will be committed to the payment of an annual interest greater in figures than the entire national expenditure before the war. as an optimistic lady put it the other day: "all the people who aren't killed will be living quite comfortably on war loan for the rest of their lives." but part, at least, of the bulk of this wealth will be imaginary rather than real because of the rise in prices, in wages, in rent, and in taxation. most of us who are buying the british and french war loans have no illusions on that score; we know we are buying an income of diminishing purchasing power. yet it would be a poor creature in these days when there is scarcely a possible young man in one's circle who has not quite freely and cheerfully staked his life, who was not prepared to consider his investments as being also to an undefined extent a national subscription. a rise in prices is not, however, the only process that will check the appearance of a new rich usurer class after the war. there is something else ahead that has happened already in germany, that is quietly coming about among the allies, and that is the cessation of gold payments. in great britain, of course, the pound note is still convertible into a golden sovereign; but great britain will not get through the war on those terms. there comes a point in the stress upon a government when it must depart from the austerer line of financial rectitude--and tamper in some way with currency. sooner or later, and probably in all cases before , all the belligerents will be forced to adopt inconvertible paper money for their internal uses. there will be british assignats or greenbacks. it will seem to many financial sentimentalists almost as though great britain were hauling down a flag when the sovereign, which has already disappeared into bank and treasury coffers, is locked up there and reserved for international trade. but great britain has other sentiments to consider than the finer feelings of bankers and the delicacies of usury. the pound british will come out of this war like a company out of a well-shelled trench--attenuated. depreciation of the currency means, of course, a continuing rise in prices, a continuing writing off of debt. if labour has any real grasp of its true interests it will not resent this. it will merely insist steadfastly on a proper adjustment of its wages to the new standard. on that point, however, it will be better to write later.... let us see how far we have got in this guessing. we have considered reasons that seem to point to the destruction of a great amount of old property and old debt, and the creation of a great volume of new debt before the end of the war, and we have adopted the ideas that currency will probably have depreciated more and more and prices risen right up to the very end. there will be by that time a general habit of saving throughout the community, a habit more firmly established perhaps in the propertied than in the wages-earning class. people will be growing accustomed to a dear and insecure world. they will adopt a habit of caution; become desirous of saving and security. directly the phase of enormous war loans ends, the new class of _rentiers_ holding the various great new national loans will find themselves drawing this collectively vast income and anxious to invest it. they will for a time be receiving the bulk of the unearned income of the world. here, in the high prices representing demand and the need for some reinvestment of interest representing supply, we have two of the chief factors that are supposed to be necessary to a phase of business enterprise. will the economic history of the next few decades be the story of a restoration of the capitalistic system upon a new basis? shall we all become investors, speculators, or workers toiling our way to a new period of security, cheapness and low interest, a restoration of the park, the enclosure, the gold standard and the big automobile, with only this difference--that the minimum wage will be somewhere about two pounds, and that a five-pound note will purchase about as much as a couple of guineas would do in ? that is practically parallel with what happened in the opening half of the nineteenth century after the napoleonic wars, and it is not an agreeable outlook for those who love the common man or the nobility of life. but if there is any one principle sounder than another of all those that guide the amateur in prophecy, it is that _history never repeats itself_. the human material in which those monetary changes and those developments of credit will occur will be entirely different from the social medium of a hundred years ago. the nature of the state has altered profoundly in the last century. the later eighteenth and earlier nineteenth centuries constituted a period of extreme individualism. what were called "economic forces" had unrestricted play. in the minds of such people as harriet martineau and herbert spencer they superseded god. people were no longer reproached for "flying in the face of providence," but for "flying in the face of political economy." in that state of freedom you got whatever you could in any way you could; you were not your neighbour's keeper, and except that it interfered with the enterprise of pickpockets, burglars and forgers, and kept the dice loaded in favour of landlords and lawyers, the state stood aside from the great drama of human getting. for industrialism and speculation the state's guiding maxim was _laissez faire_. the state is now far less aloof and far more constructive. it is far more aware of itself and a common interest. germany has led the way from a system of individuals and voluntary associations in competition towards a new order of things, a completer synthesis. this most modern state is far less a swarming conflict of businesses than a great national business. it will emerge from this war much more so than it went in, and the thing is and will remain so plain and obvious that only the greediest and dullest people among the pledged allies will venture to disregard it. the allied nations, too, will have to rescue their economic future from individual grab and grip and chance. the second consideration that forbids us to anticipate any parallelism of the history of - with - is the greater lucidity of the general mind, the fact that all western europe, down to the agricultural labourers, can read and write and does read newspapers and "get ideas." the explanation of economic and social processes that were mysterious to the elect a hundred years ago are now the commonplaces of the tap-room. what happened then darkly, and often unconsciously, must happen in - openly and controllably. the current bankruptcy and liquidation and the coming reconstruction of the economic system of europe will go on in a quite unprecedented amount of light. we shall see and know what is happening much more clearly than anything of the kind has ever been seen before. it is not only that people will have behind them, as a light upon what is happening, the experiences and discussions of a hundred years, but that the international situation will be far plainer than it has ever been. this war has made germany the central fact in all national affairs about the earth. it is not going to destroy germany, and it seems improbable that either defeat or victory, or any mixture of these, will immediately alter the cardinal fact of germany's organised aggressiveness. the war will not end the conflict of anti-germany and germany, that will only end when the results of fifty years of aggressive education in germany have worn away. this will be so plain that the great bulk of people everywhere will not only see their changing economic relationships far more distinctly than such things have been seen hitherto, but that they will see them as they have never been seen before, definitely orientated to the threat of german world predominance. the landlord who squeezes, the workman who strikes and shirks, the lawyer who fogs and obstructs, will know, and will know that most people know, that what he does is done, not under an empty, regardless heaven, but in the face of an unsleeping enemy and in disregard of a continuous urgent necessity for unity. so far we have followed this speculation upon fairly firm ground, but now our inquiry must plunge into a jungle of far more difficult and uncertain possibilities. our next stage brings us to the question of how people and peoples and classes of people are going to react to the new conditions of need and knowledge this war will have brought about, and to the new demands that will be made upon them. this is really a question of how far they will prove able to get out of the habits and traditions of their former social state, how far they will be able to take generous views and make sacrifices and unselfish efforts, and how far they will go in self-seeking or class selfishness regardless of the common welfare. this is a question we have to ask separately of each great nation, and of the central powers as a whole, and of the allies as a whole, before we can begin to estimate the posture of the peoples of the world in, say, . now let me here make a sort of parenthesis on human nature. it will be rather platitudinous, but it is a necessary reminder for what follows. so far as i have been able to observe, nobody lives steadily at one moral level. if we are wise we shall treat no man and no class--and for the matter of that no nation--as either steadfastly malignant or steadfastly disinterested. there are phases in my life when i could die quite cheerfully for an idea; there are phases when i would not stir six yards to save a human life. most people fluctuate between such extremes. most people are self-seeking, but most people will desist from a self-seeking cause if they see plainly and clearly that it is not in the general interest, and much more readily if they also perceive that other people are of the same mind and know that they know their course is unsound. the fundamental error of orthodox political economy and of marxian socialism is to assume the inveterate selfishness of everyone. but most people are a little more disposed to believe what it is to their interest to believe than the contrary. most people abandon with reluctance ways of living and doing that have served them well. most people can see the neglect of duty in other classes more plainly than they do in their own. this war has brought back into the everyday human life of europe the great and overriding conception of devotion to a great purpose. but that does not imply clear-headedness in correlating the ways of one's ordinary life with this great purpose. it is no good treating as cynical villainy things that merely exhibit the incapacity of our minds to live consistently. one labour paper a month or so ago was contrasting mr. asquith's eloquent appeals to the working man to economise and forgo any rise in wages with the photographs that were appearing simultaneously in the smart papers of the very smart marriage of mr. asquith's daughter. i submit that by that sort of standard none of us will be blameless. but without any condemnation, it is easy to understand that the initiative to tax almost to extinction large automobiles, wedding dresses, champagne, pâté de foie gras and enclosed parks, instead of gin and water, bank holiday outings and virginia shag, is less likely to come from the prime minister class than from the class of dock labourers. there is an unconscious class war due to habit and insufficient thinking and insufficient sympathy that will play a large part in the distribution of the burthen of the state bankruptcy that is in progress, and in the subsequent readjustment of national life. and having made this parenthesis, i may perhaps go on to point out the peculiar limitations under which various classes will be approaching the phase of reorganisation, without being accused of making this or that class the villain of an anticipatory drama. now, three great classes will certainly resist the valiant reconstruction of economic life with a vigour in exact proportion to their baseness, stupidity and narrowness of outlook. they will, as classes, come up for a moral judgment, on whose verdict the whole future of western civilisation depends. if they cannot achieve a considerable, an unprecedented display of self-sacrifice, unselfish wisdom, and constructive vigour, if the community as a whole can produce no forces sufficient to restrain their lower tendencies, then the intelligent father had better turn his children's faces towards the new world. for europe will be busy with social disorder for a century. the first great class is the class that owns and holds land and land-like claims upon the community, from the throne downward. this court and land-holding class cannot go on being rich and living rich during the strains of the coming years. the reconstructing world cannot bear it. whatever rises in rent may occur through the rise in prices, must go to meet the tremendous needs of the state. this class, which has so much legislative and administrative power in at least three of the great belligerents--in great britain and germany perhaps most so--must be prepared to see itself taxed, and must be willing to assist in its own taxation to the very limit of its statistical increment. the almost vindictive greed of the landowners that blackened the history of england after waterloo, and brought great britain within sight of revolution, must not be repeated. the british empire cannot afford a revolution in the face of the central european powers. but in the past century there has been an enormous change in men's opinions and consciences about property; whereas we were individualists, now we are socialists. the british lord, the german junker, has none of the sense of unqualified rights that his great-grandfather had, and he is aware of a vigour of public criticism that did not exist in the former time.... how far will these men get out of the tradition of their birth and upbringing? next comes the great class of lawyers who, through the idiotic method of voting in use in modern democracies, are able practically to rule great britain, and who are powerful and influential in all democratic countries. in order to secure a certain independence and integrity in its courts, great britain long ago established the principle of enormously overpaying its judges and lawyers. the natural result has been to give our law courts and the legal profession generally a bias in favour of private wealth against both the public interest and the proletariat. it has also given our higher national education an overwhelming direction towards the training of advocates and against science and constructive statecraft. an ordinary lawyer has no idea of making anything; that tendency has been destroyed in his mind; he waits and sees and takes advantage of opportunity. everything that can possibly be done in england is done to make our rulers micawbers and artful dodgers. one of the most anxious questions that a briton can ask himself to-day is just how far the gigantic sufferings and still more monstrous warnings of this war have shocked the good gentlemen who must steer the ship of state through the strong rapids of the new peace out of this forensic levity their training has imposed upon them.... there, again, there are elements of hope. the lawyer has heard much about himself in the past few years. his conscience may check his tradition. and we have a press--it has many faults, but it is no longer a lawyer's press.... and the third class which has immediate interests antagonistic to bold reconstructions of our national methods is that vaguer body, the body of investing capitalists, the savers, the usurers, who live on dividends. it is a vast class, but a feeble class in comparison with the other two; it is a body rather than a class, a weight rather than a power. it consists of all sorts of people with nothing in common except the receipt of unearned income.... all these classes, by instinct and the baser kinds of reason also, will be doing their best to check the rise in prices, stop and reverse the advance in wages, prevent the debasement of the circulation, and facilitate the return to a gold standard and a repressive social stability. they will be resisting any comprehensive national reconstruction, any increase in public officials, any "conscription" of land or railways or what not for the urgent civil needs of the state. they will have fighting against these tendencies something in their own consciences, something in public opinion, the tradition of public devotion their own dead sons have revived--and certain other forces. they will have over against them the obvious urgent necessities of the time. the most urgent necessity will be to get back the vast moiety of the population that has been engaged either in military service or the making of munitions to productive work, to the production of food and necessary things, and to the restoration of that export trade which, in the case of great britain at least, now that her overseas investments have been set off by overseas war debts, is essential to the food supply. there will be coming back into civil life, not merely thousands, but millions of men who have been withdrawn from it. they will feel that they have deserved well of their country. they will have had their imaginations greatly quickened by being taken away from the homes and habits to which they were accustomed. they will have been well fed and inured to arms, to danger, and the chances of death. they will have no illusions about the conduct of the war by the governing classes, or the worshipful heroism of peers and princes. they will know just how easy is courage, and how hard is hardship, and the utter impossibility of doing well in war or peace under the orders of detected fools. this vast body will constitute a very stimulating congregation of spectators in any attempt on the part of landlord, lawyer and investor to resume the old political mystery dance, in which rents are to be sent up and wages down, while the old feuds of wales and ireland, ancient theological and sectarian jealousies and babyish loyalties, and so forth are to be waved in the eyes of the no longer fascinated realist. "meanwhile," they will say, with a stiff impatience unusual in their class, "about _us_?" ... here are the makings of internal conflict in every european country. in russia the landlord and lawyer, in france the landlord, are perhaps of less account, and in france the investor is more universal and jealous. in germany, where junker and court are most influential and brutal, there is a larger and sounder and broader tradition of practical efficiency, a modernised legal profession, and a more widely diffused scientific imagination. how far in each country will imagination triumph over tradition and individualism? how far does the practical bankruptcy of western civilisation mean a revolutionary smash-up, and a phase that may last for centuries, of disorder and more and more futile conflict? and how far does it mean a reconstruction of human society, within a few score of years, upon sounder and happier lines? must that reconstruction be preceded by a revolution in all or any of the countries? to what extent can the world produce the imagination it needs? that, so far, is the most fundamental question to which our prophetic explorations have brought us. iv. braintree, bocking, and the future of the world will the war be followed by a period of great distress, social disorder and a revolution in europe, or shall we pull through the crisis without violent disaster? may we even hope that great britain will step straight out of the war into a phase of restored and increasing welfare? like most people, i have been trying to form some sort of answer to this question. my state of mind in the last few months has varied from a considerable optimism to profound depression. i have met and talked to quite a number of young men in khaki--ex-engineers, ex-lawyers, ex-schoolmasters, ex-business men of all sorts--and the net result of these interviews has been a buoyant belief that there is in great britain the pluck, the will, the intelligence to do anything, however arduous and difficult, in the way of national reconstruction. and on the other hand there is a certain stretch of road between dunmow and coggeshall.... that stretch of road is continually jarring with my optimistic thoughts. it is a strongly pro-german piece of road. it supports allegations against great britain, as, for instance, that the british are quite unfit to control their own affairs, let alone those of an empire; that they are an incompetent people, a pig-headedly stupid people, a wasteful people, a people incapable of realising that a man who tills his field badly is a traitor and a weakness to his country.... let me place the case of this high road through braintree (bocking intervening) before the reader. it is, you will say perhaps, very small beer. but a straw shows the way the wind blows. it is a trivial matter of road metal, mud, and water-pipes, but it is also diagnostic of the essential difficulties in the way of the smooth and rapid reconstruction of great britain--and very probably of the reconstruction of all europe--after the war. the braintree high road, i will confess, becomes at times an image of the world for me. it is a poor, spiritless-looking bit of road, with raw stones on one side of it. it is also, i perceive, the high destiny of man in conflict with mankind. it is the way to harwich, holland, russia, china, and the whole wide world. even at the first glance it impresses one as not being the road that would satisfy an energetic and capable people. it is narrow for a high road, and in the middle of it one is checked by an awkward bend, by cross-roads that are not exactly cross-roads, so that one has to turn two blind corners to get on eastward, and a policeman, i don't know at what annual cost, has to be posted to nurse the traffic across. beyond that point one is struck by the fact that the south side is considerably higher than the north, that storm water must run from the south side to the north and lie there. it does, and the north side has recently met the trouble by putting down raw flints, and so converting what would be a lake into a sort of flint pudding. consequently one drives one's car as much as possible on the south side of this road. there is a suggestion of hostility and repartee between north and south side in this arrangement, which the explorer's inquiries will confirm. it may be only an accidental parallelism with profounder fact; i do not know. but the middle of this high road is a frontier. the south side belongs to the urban district of braintree; the north to the rural district of bocking. if the curious inquirer will take pick and shovel he will find at any rate one corresponding dualism below the surface. he will find a bocking water main supplying the houses on the north side and a braintree water main supplying the south. i rather suspect that the drains are also in duplicate. the total population of bocking and braintree is probably little more than thirteen thousand souls altogether, but for that there are two water supplies, two sets of schools, two administrations. to the passing observer the rurality of the bocking side is indistinguishable from the urbanity of the braintree side; it is just a little muddier. but there are dietetic differences. if you will present a bocking rustic with a tin of the canned fruit that is popular with the braintree townsfolk, you discover one of these differences. a dustman perambulates the road on the braintree side, and canned food becomes possible and convenient therefore. but the braintree grocers sell canned food with difficulty into bocking. bocking, less fortunate than its neighbour, has no dustman apparently, and is left with the tin on its hands. it can either bury it in its garden--if it has a garden--take it out for a walk wrapped in paper and drop it quietly in a ditch, if possible in the braintree area, or build a cairn with it and its predecessors and successors in honour of the local government board (president £ , , parliamentary secretary £ , , permanent secretary £ , , legal adviser £ , upward, a total administrative expenditure of over £ , ...). in death bocking and braintree are still divided. they have their separate cemeteries.... now to any disinterested observer there lies about the braintree-bocking railway station one community. it has common industries and common interests. there is no _octroi_ or anything of that sort across the street. the shops and inns on the bocking side of the main street are indistinguishable from those on the braintree side. the inhabitants of the two communities intermarry freely. if this absurd separation did not exist, no one would have the impudence to establish it now. it is wasteful, unfair (because the bocking piece is rather better off than braintree and with fewer people, so that there is a difference in the rates), and for nine-tenths of the community it is more or less of a nuisance. it is also a nuisance to the passing public because of such inconvenience as the asymmetrical main road. it hinders local development and the development of a local spirit. it may, of course, appeal perhaps to the humorous outlook of the followers of mr. g.k. chesterton and mr. belloc, who believe that this war is really a war in the interests of the athanasian creed, fatness, and unrestricted drink against science, discipline, and priggishly keeping fit enough to join the army, as very good fun indeed, good matter for some jolly reeling ballad about roundabout and roundabout, the jolly town of roundabout; but to anyone else the question of how it is that this wasteful bocking-braintree muddle, with its two boards, its two clerks, its two series of jobs and contracts, manages to keep on, was even before the war a sufficiently discouraging one. it becomes now a quite crucial problem. because the muddle between the sides of the main road through bocking and braintree is not an isolated instance; it is a fair sample of the way things are done in great britain; it is an intimation of the way in which the great task of industrial resettlement that the nation must face may be attempted. it is--or shall i write, "it may be"? that is just the question i do not settle in my mind. i would like to think that i have hit upon a particularly bad case of entangled local government. but it happens that whenever i have looked into local affairs i have found the same sort of waste and--insobriety of arrangement. when i started, a little while back, to go to braintree to verify these particulars, i was held up by a flood across the road between little easton and dunmow. every year that road is flooded and impassable for some days, because a bit of the affected stretch is under the county council and a bit under the little easton parish council, and they cannot agree about the contribution of the latter. these things bump against the most unworldly. and when one goes up the scale from the urban district and rural district boundaries, one finds equally crazy county arrangements, the same tangle of obstacle in the way of quick, effective co-ordinations, the same needless multiplicity of clerks, the same rich possibilities of litigation, misunderstanding, and deadlocks of opinion between areas whose only difference is that a mischievous boundary has been left in existence between them. and so on up to westminster. and to still greater things.... i know perfectly well how unpleasant all this is to read, this outbreak at two localities that have never done me any personal harm except a little mud-splashing. but this is a thing that has to be said now, because we are approaching a crisis when dilatory ways, muddle, and waste may utterly ruin us. this is the way things have been done in england, this is our habit of procedure, and if they are done in this way after the war this empire is going to smash. let me add at once that it is quite possible that things are done almost as badly or quite as badly in russia or france or germany or america; i am drawing no comparisons. all of us human beings were made, i believe, of very similar clay, and very similar causes have been at work everywhere. only that excuse, so popular in england, will not prevent a smash if we stick to the old methods under the stresses ahead. i do not see that it is any consolation to share in a general disaster. and i am sure that there must be the most delightful and picturesque reasons why we have all this overlapping and waste and muddle in our local affairs; why, to take another example, the boundary of the essex parishes of newton and widdington looks as though it had been sketched out by a drunken man in a runaway cab with a broken spring. this bocking-braintree main road is, it happens, an old stane street, along which roman legions marched to clean up the councils and clerks of the british tribal system two thousand years ago, and no doubt an historian could spin delightful consequences; this does not alter the fact that these quaint complications in english affairs mean in the aggregate enormous obstruction and waste of human energy. it does not alter the much graver fact, the fact that darkens all my outlook upon the future, that we have never yet produced evidence of any general disposition at any time to straighten out or even suspend these fumbling intricacies and ineptitudes. never so far has there appeared in british affairs that divine passion to do things in the clearest, cleanest, least wasteful, most thorough manner that is needed to straighten out, for example, these universal local tangles. always we have been content with the old intricate, expensive way, and to this day we follow it.... and what i want to know, what i would like to feel much surer about than i do is, is this in our blood? or is it only the deep-seated habit of long ages of security, long years of margins so ample, that no waste seemed altogether wicked. is it, in fact, a hopeless and ineradicable trait that we stick to extravagance and confusion? what i would like to think possible at the present time, up and down the scale from parish to province, is something of this sort. suppose the clerk of braintree went to the clerk of bocking and said: "look here, one of us could do the work of both of us, as well or better. the easy times are over, and offices as well as men should be prepared to die for their country. shall we toss to see who shall do it, and let the other man go off to find something useful to do?" then i could believe. such acts of virtue happen in the united states. here is a quotation from the new york _world_ of february th, : "for two unusual acts henry bruère may be remembered by new york longer than nine days. early in his incumbency he declared that his office was superfluous and should be abolished, the comptroller assuming its duties. he now abolishes by resignation his own connection with it, in spite of its $ , salary." suppose the people of braintree and bocking, not waiting for that lead, said: "but this is absurd! let us have an identical council and one clerk, and get ahead, instead of keeping up this silly pretence that one town is two." suppose someone of that , pounds' worth of gentlemen at the local government board set to work to replan our local government areas generally on less comic lines. suppose his official superiors helped, instead of snubbing him.... i see nothing of the sort happening. i see everywhere wary, watchful little men, thinking of themselves, thinking of their parish, thinking close, holding tight.... i know that there is a whole web of excuses for all these complicated, wasteful, and obstructive arrangements of our local government, these arrangements that i have taken merely as a sample of the general human way of getting affairs done. for it is affairs at large i am writing about, as i warned the reader at the beginning. directly one inquires closely into any human muddle, one finds all sorts of reasonable rights and objections and claims barring the way to any sweeping proposals. i can quite imagine that bocking has admirable reasons for refusing coalescence with braintree, except upon terms that braintree could not possibly consider. i can quite understand that there are many inconveniences and arguable injustices that would be caused by a merger of the two areas. i have no doubt it would mean serious loss to so-and-so, and quite novel and unfair advantage to so-and-so. it would take years to work the thing and get down to the footing of one water supply and an ambidextrous dustman on the lines of perfect justice and satisfactoriness all round. but what i want to maintain is that these little immediate claims and rights and vested interests and bits of justice and fairness are no excuse at all for preventing things being done in the clear, clean, large, quick way. they never constituted a decent excuse, and now they excuse waste and delay and inconvenience less than ever. let us first do things in the sound way, and then, if we can, let us pet and compensate any disappointed person who used to profit by their being done roundabout instead of earning an honest living. we are beginning to agree that reasonably any man may be asked to die for his country; what we have to recognise is that any man's proprietorship, interest, claims or rights may just as properly be called upon to die. bocking and braintree and mr. john smith--mr. john smith, the ordinary comfortable man with a stake in the country--have been thinking altogether too much of the claims and rights and expectations and economies of bocking and braintree and mr. john smith. they have to think now in a different way.... just consider the work of reconstruction that great britain alone will have to face in the next year or so. (and her task is, if anything, less than that of any of her antagonists or allies, except japan and italy.) she has now probably from six to ten million people in the british isles, men and women, either engaged directly in warfare or in the manufacture of munitions or in employments such as transit, nursing, and so forth, directly subserving these main ends. at least five-sixths of these millions must be got back to employment of a different character within a year of the coming of peace. everywhere manufacture, trade and transit has been disorganised, disturbed or destroyed. a new economic system has to be put together within a brief score or so of weeks; great dislocated masses of population have to be fed, kept busy and distributed in a world financially strained and abounding in wounded, cripples, widows, orphans and helpless people. in the next year or so the lives of half the population will have to be fundamentally readjusted. here is work for administrative giants, work for which no powers can be excessive. it will be a task quite difficult enough to do even without the opposition of legal rights, haggling owners, and dexterous profiteers. it would be a giant's task if all the necessary administrative machinery existed now in the most perfect condition. how is this tremendous job going to be done if every bocking in the country is holding out for impossible terms from braintree, and every braintree holding out for impossible terms from bocking, while the road out remains choked and confused between them; and if every john smith with a claim is insisting upon his reasonable expectation of profits or dividends, his reasonable solatium and compensation for getting out of the way? i would like to record my conviction that if the business of this great crisis is to be done in the same spirit, the jealous, higgling, legal spirit that i have seen prevailing in british life throughout my half-century of existence, it will not in any satisfactory sense of the phrase get done at all. this war has greatly demoralised and discredited the governing class in great britain, and if big masses of unemployed and unfed people, no longer strung up by the actuality of war, masses now trained to arms and with many quite sympathetic officers available, are released clumsily and planlessly into a world of risen prices and rising rents, of legal obstacles and forensic complications, of greedy speculators and hampered enterprises, there will be insurrection and revolution. there will be bloodshed in the streets and the chasing of rulers. there _will_ be, if we do seriously attempt to put the new wine of humanity, the new crude fermentations at once so hopeful and so threatening, that the war has released, into the old administrative bottles that served our purposes before the war. i believe that for old lawyers and old politicians and "private ownership" to handle the great problem of reconstruction after the war in the spirit in which our affairs were conducted before the war is about as hopeful an enterprise as if an elderly jobbing brick-layer, working on strict trade-union rules, set out to stop the biggest avalanche that ever came down a mountain-side. and since i am by no means altogether pessimistic, in spite of my qualmy phases, it follows that i do not believe that the old spirit will necessarily prevail. i do not, because i believe that in the past few decades a new spirit has come into human affairs; that our ostensible rulers and leaders have been falling behind the times, and that in the young and the untried, in, for example, the young european of thirty and under who is now in such multitudes thinking over life and his seniors in the trenches, there are still unsuspected resources of will and capacity, new mental possibilities and new mental habits, that entirely disturb the argument--based on the typical case of bocking and braintree--for a social catastrophe after the war. how best can this new spirit be defined? it is the creative spirit as distinguished from the legal spirit; it is the spirit of courage to make and not the spirit that waits and sees and claims; it is the spirit that looks to the future and not to the past. it is the spirit that makes bocking forget that it is not braintree and john smith forget that he is john smith, and both remember that they are england. for everyone there are two diametrically different ways of thinking about life; there is individualism, the way that comes as naturally as the grunt from a pig, of thinking outwardly from oneself as the centre of the universe, and there is the way that every religion is trying in some form to teach, of thinking back to oneself from greater standards and realities. there is the braintree that is braintree against england and the world, giving as little as possible and getting the best of the bargain, and there is the braintree that identifies itself with england and asks how can we do best for the world with this little place of ours, how can we educate best, produce most, and make our roads straight and good for the world to go through. every american knows the district that sends its congressman to washington for the good of his district, and the district, the rarer district, that sends a man to work for the united states. there is the john smith who feels toward england and the world as a mite feels toward its cheese, and the john smith who feels toward his country as a sheep-dog feels toward the flock. the former is the spirit of individualism, "business," and our law, the latter the spirit of socialism and science and--khaki.... they are both in all of us, they fluctuate from day to day; first one is ascendant and then the other. war does not so much tilt the balance as accentuate the difference. one rich british landowner sneaks off to new york state to set up a home there and evade taxation; another turns his mansion into a hospital and goes off to help serbian refugees. acts of baseness or generosity are contagious; this man will give himself altogether because of a story of devotion, this man declares he will do nothing until sir f.e. smith goes to the front. and the would-be prophet of what is going to happen must guess the relative force of these most impalpable and uncertain things. this braintree-bocking boundary which runs down the middle of the road is to be found all over the world. you will find it in ireland and the gentlemen who trade on the jealousies of the north side and the gentlemen who trade on the jealousies of the south. you will find it in england among the good people who would rather wreck the empire than work honestly and fairly with labour. there are not only parish boundaries, but park boundaries and class and sect boundaries. you will find the bocking-braintree line too at a dozen points on a small scale map of europe.... these braintree-bocking lines are the barbed-wire entanglements between us and the peace of the world. against these entanglements in every country the new spirit struggles in many thousands of minds. where will it be strongest? which country will get clear first, get most rapidly to work again, have least of the confusion and wrangling that must in some degree occur everywhere? will any country go altogether to pieces in hopeless incurable discord? now i believe that the answer to that last question is "no." and my reason for that answer is the same as my reason for believing that the association of the pledged allies will not break up after the war; it is that i believe that this war is going to end not in the complete smashing up and subjugation of either side, but in a general exhaustion that will make the recrudescence of the war still possible but very terrifying. mars will sit like a giant above all human affairs for the next two decades, and the speech of mars is blunt and plain. he will say to us all: "get your houses in order. if you squabble among yourselves, waste time, litigate, muddle, snatch profits and shirk obligations, i will certainly come down upon you again. i have taken all your men between eighteen and fifty, and killed and maimed such as i pleased; millions of them. i have wasted your substance--contemptuously. now, mark you, you have multitudes of male children between the ages of nine and nineteen running about among you. delightful and beloved boys. and behind them come millions of delightful babies. of these i have scarcely smashed and starved a paltry hundred thousand perhaps by the way. but go on muddling, each for himself and his parish and his family and none for all the world, go on in the old way, stick to-your 'rights,' stick to your 'claims' each one of you, make no concessions and no sacrifices, obstruct, waste, squabble, and presently i will come back again and take all that fresh harvest of life i have spared, all those millions that are now sweet children and dear little boys and youths, and i will squeeze it into red pulp between my hands, i will mix it with the mud of trenches and feast on it before your eyes, even more damnably than i have done with your grown-up sons and young men. and i have taken most of your superfluities already; next time i will take your barest necessities." so the red god, mars; and in these days of universal education the great mass of people will understand plainly now that that is his message and intention. men who cannot be swayed by the love of order and creation may be swayed by the thought of death and destruction.... there, i think, is the overriding argument that will burst the proprietorships and divisions and boundaries, the web of ineffectiveness that has held the world so long. labour returning from the trenches to its country and demanding promptness, planning, generous and devoted leaderships and organisation, demanding that the usurer and financier, the landlord and lawyer shall, if need be, get themselves altogether out of the way, will have behind its arguments the thought of the enemy still unsubdued, still formidable, recovering. both sides will feel that. this world is a more illuminated world than ; a thousand questions between law and duty have been discussed since then; beyond all comparison we know better what we are doing. i think the broad side of john smith (and sir john smith and john smith, k.c.) will get the better of his narrow ends--and that so it will be with jean dupont and hans meyer and the rest of them. there may be riots here and there; there may be some pretty considerable rows; but i do not think there is going to be a chaotic and merely destructive phase in great britain or any western european country. i cast my guess for reconstruction and not for revolt. v. how far will europe go toward socialism? a number of people are saying that this war is to be the end of individualism. "go as you please" has had its death-blow. out of this war, whatever else emerges, there will emerge a more highly organised state than existed before--that is to say, a less individualistic and more socialistic state. and there seems a heavy weight of probability on the side of this view. but there are also a number of less obvious countervailing considerations that may quite possibly modify or reverse this tendency. in this chapter an attempt is to be made to strike a balance between the two systems of forces, and guess how much will be private and how much public in europe in , or thereabouts. the prophets who foretell the coming of socialism base their case on three sets of arguments. they point out, first, the failure of individual enterprise to produce a national efficiency comparable to the partial state socialism of germany, and the extraordinary, special dangers inherent in private property that the war has brought to light; secondly, to the scores of approaches to practical socialism that have been forced upon great britain--for example, by the needs of the war; and, thirdly, to the obvious necessities that will confront the british empire and the allies generally after the war--necessities that no unorganised private effort can hope to meet effectively. all these arguments involve the assumption that the general understanding of the common interest will be sufficient to override individual and class motives; an exceedingly doubtful assumption, to say the least of it. but the general understanding of the common interest is most likely to be kept alive by the sense of a common danger, and we have already arrived at the conclusion that germany is going to be defeated but not destroyed in this war, and that she will be left with sufficient vitality and sufficient resentment and sufficient of her rancid cultivated nationalism to make not only the continuance of the alliance after the war obviously advisable and highly probable, but also to preserve in the general mind for a generation or so that sense of a common danger which most effectually conduces to the sweeping aside of merely personal and wasteful claims. into the consequences of this we have now to look a little more closely. it was the weaknesses of germany that made this war, and not her strength. the weaknesses of germany are her imperialism, her junkerism, and her intense, sentimental nationalism; for the former would have no german ascendancy that was not achieved by force, and, with the latter, made the idea of german ascendancy intolerable to all mankind. better death, we said. and had germany been no more than her court, her junkerism, her nationalism, the whole system would have smashed beneath the contempt and indignation of the world within a year. but the strength of germany has saved her from that destruction. she was at once the most archaic and modern of states. she was hohenzollern, claiming to be caesar, and flaunting a flat black eagle borrowed from imperial rome; and also she was the most scientific and socialist of states. it is her science and her socialism that have held and forced back the avengers of belgium for more than a year and a half. if she has failed as a conqueror, she has succeeded as an organisation. her ambition has been thwarted, and her method has been vindicated. she will, i think, be so far defeated in the contest of endurance which is now in progress that she will have to give up every scrap of territorial advantage she has gained; she may lose most of her colonial empire; she may be obliged to complete her modernisation by abandoning her militant imperialism; but she will have at least the satisfaction of producing far profounder changes in the chief of her antagonists than those she herself will undergo. the germany of the hohenzollerns had its mortal wound at the marne; the germany we fight to-day is the germany of krupp and ostwald. it is merely as if she had put aside a mask that had blinded her. she was methodical and civilised except for her head and aim; she will become entirely methodical. but the britain and russia and france she fights are lands full of the spirit of undefined novelty. they are being made over far more completely. they are being made over, not in spite of the war, but because of the war. only by being made over can they win the war. and if they do not win the war, then they are bound to be made over. they are not merely putting aside old things, but they are forming and organising within themselves new structures, new and more efficient relationships, that will last far beyond the still remote peace settlement. what this war has brought home to the consciousness of every intelligent man outside the german system, with such thoroughness as whole generations of discussion and peace experience could never have achieved, is a double lesson: that germany had already gone far to master when she blundered into the war; firstly, the waste and dangers of individualism, and, secondly, the imperative necessity of scientific method in public affairs. the waste and dangers of individualism have had a whole series of striking exemplifications both in europe and america since the war began. were there such a thing as a socialist propaganda in existence, were the so-called socialistic organisations anything better than a shabby little back-door into contemporary politics, those demonstrations would be hammering at the mind of everyone. it may be interesting to recapitulate some of the most salient instances. the best illustration, perhaps, of the waste that arises out of individualism is to be found in the extreme dislocation of the privately owned transit services of great britain at the present time. there is no essential reason whatever why food and fuel in great britain should be considerably dearer than they are under peace conditions. just the same home areas are under cultivation, just the same foreign resources are available; indeed, more foreign supplies are available because we have intercepted those that under normal conditions would have gone to germany. the submarine blockade of britain is now a negligible factor in this question. despite these patent conditions there has been, and is, a steady increase in the cost of provisions, coal, and every sort of necessity. this increase means an increase in the cost of production of many commodities, and so contributes again to the general scarcity. this is the domestic aspect of a difficulty that has also its military side. it is not sufficient merely to make munitions; they must also be delivered, great britain is suffering very seriously from congestion of the railways. she suffers both in social and military efficiency, and she is so suffering because her railways, instead of being planned as one great and simple national distributing system, have grown up under conditions of clumsy, dividend-seeking competition. each great railway company and combination has worked its own areas, and made difficulties and aggressions at the boundaries of its sphere of influence; here are inconvenient junctions and here unnecessary duplications; nearly all the companies come into london, each taking up its own area of expensive land for goods yards, sidings, shunting grounds, and each regardless of any proper correlation with the other; great areas of the county of london are covered with their idle trucks and their separate coal stores; in many provincial towns you will find two or even three railway stations at opposite ends of the town; the streets are blocked by the vans and trolleys of the several companies tediously handing about goods that could be dealt with at a tenth of the cost in time and labour at a central clearing-house, did such a thing exist; and each system has its vast separate staff, unaccustomed to work with any other staff. since the war began the government has taken over the general direction of this disarticulated machinery, but no one with eyes who travels about england now can fail to remark, in the miles and miles of waiting loaded trucks on every siding, the evidences of mischievous and now almost insuperable congestion. the trucks of each system that have travelled on to another still go back, for the most part, _empty_ to their own; and thousands of privately owned trucks, which carry cargo only one way, block our sidings. great britain wastes men and time to a disastrous extent in these needless shuntings and handlings. here, touching every life in the community, is one instance of the muddle that arises naturally out of the individualistic method of letting public services grow up anyhow without a plan, or without any direction at all except the research for private profit. a second series of deficiencies that the war has brought to light in the too individualistic british state is the entire want of connection between private profit and public welfare. so far as the interests of the capitalist go it does not matter whether he invests his money at home or abroad; it does not matter whether his goods are manufactured in london or timbuctoo. but what of the result? at the outbreak of the war great britain found that a score of necessary industries had drifted out of the country, because it did not "pay" any private person to keep them here. the shortage of dyes has been amply discussed as a typical case. a much graver one that we may now write about was the shortage of zinc. within a month or so of the outbreak of the war the british government had to take urgent and energetic steps to secure this essential ingredient of cartridge cases. individualism had let zinc refining drift to belgium and germany; it was the luck rather than the merit of great britain that one or two refineries still existed. still more extraordinary things came to light in the matter of the metal supply. under an individualistic system you may sell to the highest bidder, and anyone with money from anywhere may come in and buy. great supplies of colonial ores were found to be cornered by semi-national german syndicates. supplies were held up by these contracts against the necessities of the empire. and this was but one instance of many which have shown that, while industrial development in the allied countries is still largely a squabbling confusion of little short-sighted, unscientific, private profit-seeking owners, in germany it has been for some years increasingly run on far-seeing collectivist lines. against the comparatively little and mutually jealous british or american capitalists and millionaires germany pits itself as a single great capitalist and competitor. she has worked everywhere upon a comprehensive plan. against her great national electric combination, for example, only another national combination could stand. as it was, germany--in the way of business--wired and lit (and examined) the forts at liége. she bought and prepared a hundred strategic centres in individualistic belgium and france. so we pass from the fact that individualism is hopeless muddle to the fact that the individualist idea is one of limitless venality, who can buy, may control. and germany, in her long scheming against her individualist rivals, has not simply set herself to buy and hold the keys and axles of their economic machinery. she has set herself, it must be admitted, with a certain crudity and little success, but with unexampled vigour, to buy the minds of her adversaries. the western nations have taken a peculiar pride in having a free press; that is to say, a press that may be bought by anyone. our press is constantly bought and sold, in gross and detail, by financiers, advertisers, political parties, and the like. germany came into the market rather noisily, and great papers do to a large extent live in glass houses; but her efforts have been sufficient to exercise the minds of great numbers of men with the problem of what might have happened in the way of national confusion if the german attack had been more subtly conceived.... it is only a partial answer to this difficulty to say that a country that is so nationalist and aggressive as germany is incapable of subtle conceptions. the fact remains that in great britain at the present time there are newspaper proprietors who would be good bargains for germany at two million pounds a head, and that there was no effectual guarantee in the individualistic system, but only our good luck and the natural patriotism of the individuals concerned that she did not pick up these bargains before trading with the enemy became illegal. it happened, for example, that lord northcliffe was public-spirited, that was the good luck of great britain rather than her merit. there was nothing in the individualistic system to prevent germany from buying up the entire harmsworth press--_the times, daily mail_, and all--five years before the war, and using it to confuse the national mind, destroy the national unity, sacrifice the national interests, and frustrate the national will. not only the newspapers, but the news-agents and booksellers of both great britain and america are entirely at the disposal of any hostile power which chooses to buy them up quietly and systematically. it is merely a question of wealth and cleverness. and if the failure of the germans to grip the press of the french and english speaking countries has been conspicuous, she has been by no means so unsuccessful in--for example--spain. at the present time the thought and feeling of the spanish speaking world is being _educated_ against the allies. the spanish mind has been sold by its custodians into german control. muddle and venality do not, however, exhaust the demonstrated vices of individualism. individualism encourages desertion and treason. individualism permits base private people to abscond with the national resources and squeeze a profit out of national suffering. in the early stages of the war some bright minds conceived the idea of a corner in drugs. it is not illegal; it is quite the sort of thing that appeals to the individualistic frame of mind as entirely meritorious. as the _new statesman_ put it recently: "the happy owners of the world's available stock of a few indispensable drugs did not refrain from making, not only the various governments, but also all the sick people of the world pay double, and even tenfold, prices for what was essential to relieve pain and save life. what fortunes were thus made we shall probably never know, any more than we shall know the tale of the men and women and children who suffered and died because of their inability to pay, not the cost of production of what would have saved them, but the unnecessarily enhanced price that the chances of the market enabled the owners to exact." and another bright instance of the value of individualism is the selling of british shipping to neutral buyers just when the country is in the most urgent need of every ship it can get, and the deliberate transfer to america of a number of british businesses to evade paying a proper share of the national bill in taxation. the english who have gone to america at different times have been of very different qualities; at the head of the list are the english who went over in the _mayflower_; at the bottom will be the rich accessions of this war.... and perhaps a still more impressive testimony to the rottenness of these "business men," upon whom certain eccentric voices call so amazingly to come and govern us, is the incurable distrust they have sown in the minds of labour. never was an atmosphere of discipline more lamentable than that which has grown up in the factories, workshops, and great privately owned public services of america and western europe. the men, it is evident, _expect_ to be robbed and cheated at every turn. i can only explain their state of mind by supposing that they have been robbed and cheated. their scorn and contempt for their employees' good faith is limitless. their _morale_ is undermined by an invincible distrust. it is no good for mr. lloyd george to attempt to cure the gathered ill of a century with half an hour or so of eloquence. when great britain, in her supreme need, turns to the workmen she has trained in the ways of individualism for a century, she reaps the harvest individualism has sown. she has to fight with that handicap. every regulation for the rapid mobilisation of labour is scrutinised to find the trick in it. and they find the trick in it as often as not. smart individualistic "business experience" has been at the draughtsman's elbow. a man in an individualistic system does not escape from class ideas and prejudices by becoming an official. there is profound and bitter wisdom in the deep distrust felt by british labour for both military and industrial conscription. the breakdown of individualism has been so complete in great britain that we are confronted with the spectacle of this great and ancient kingdom reconstructing itself perforce, while it wages the greatest war in history. a temporary nationalisation of land transit has been improvised, and only the vast, deep-rooted, political influence of the shipowners and coalowners have staved off the manifestly necessary step of nationalising shipping and coal. i doubt if they will be able to stave it off to the end of the long struggle which is still before us if the militarism of germany is really to be arrested and discredited. expropriation and not conscription will be the supreme test of britain's loyalty to her allies. the british shipowners, in particular, are reaping enormous but precarious profits from the war. the blockade of britain, by the british shipowners is scarcely less effective than the blockade of germany by britain. with an urgent need of every ship for the national supplies, british ships, at the present moment of writing this, are still carrying cheap american automobiles to australia. they would carry munitions to germany if their owners thought they had a sporting chance of not getting caught at it. these british shipowners are a pampered class with great political and social influence, and no doubt as soon as the accumulating strain of the struggle tells to the extent of any serious restriction of their advantage and prospects, we shall see them shifting to the side of the at present negligible group of british pacifists. i do not think one can count on any limit to their selfishness and treason. i believe that the calculations of some of these extreme and apparently quite unreasonable "pacifists" are right. before the war is over there will be a lot of money in the pacifist business. the rich curs of the west end will join hands with the labour curs of the clyde. the base are to be found in all classes, but i doubt if they dominate any. i do not believe that any interest or group of interests in great britain can stand in the way of the will of the whole people to bring this struggle to a triumphant finish at any cost. i do not believe that the most sacred ties of personal friendship and blood relationship with influential people can save either shipowners or coalowners or army contractors to the end. there will be no end until these profit-makings are arrested. the necessary "conscriptions of property" must come about in great britain because there is no alternative but failure in the war, and the british people will not stand failure. i believe that the end of the war will see, not only transit, but shipping, collieries, and large portions of the machinery of food and drink production and distribution no longer under the administration of private ownership, but under a sort of provisional public administration. and very many british factories will be in the same case. two years ago no one would have dared to prophesy the tremendous rearrangement of manufacturing machinery which is in progress in britain to-day. thousands of firms of engineers and manufacturers of all sorts, which were flourishing in , exist to-day only as names, as shapes, as empty shells. their staffs have been shattered, scattered, reconstructed; their buildings enlarged and modified; their machinery exchanged, reconstituted, or taken. the reality is a vast interdependent national factory that would have seemed incredible to fourier. it will be as impossible to put back british industrialism into the factories and forms of the pre-war era as it would be to restore the carthaginian empire. there is a new economic great britain to-day, emergency made, jerry-built no doubt, a gawky, weedy giant, but a giant who may fill out to such dimensions as the german national system has never attained. behind it is an _idea_, a new idea, the idea of the nation as one great economic system working together, an idea which could not possibly have got into the sluggish and conservative british intelligence in half a century by any other means than the stark necessities of this war.... great britain cannot retrace those steps even if she would, and so she will be forced to carry this process of reconstruction through. and what is happening to great britain must, with its national differences, be happening to france and russia. not only for war ends, but for peace ends, behind the front and sustaining the front, individualities are being hammered together into common and concerted activities. at the end of this war great britain will find herself with this great national factory, this great national organisation of labour, planned, indeed, primarily to make war material, but convertible with the utmost ease to the purposes of automobile manufacture, to transit reconstruction, to electrical engineering, and endless such uses. france and russia will be in a parallel case. all the world will be exhausted, and none of the allies will have much money to import automobiles, railway material, electrical gear, and so on, from abroad. moreover, it will be a matter of imperative necessity for them to get ahead of the central powers with their productive activities. we shall all be too poor to import from america, and we shall be insane to import from germany. america will be the continent with the long purse, prepared to buy rather than sell. each country will have great masses of soldiers waiting to return to industrial life, and will therefore be extremely indisposed to break up any existing productive organisation. in the face of these facts, will any of the allied powers be so foolish as to disband this great system of national factories and nationally worked communications? moreover, we have already risked the prophecy that this war will not end with such conclusiveness as to justify an immediate beating out of our swords into ploughshares. there will be a military as well as a social reason for keeping the national factories in a going state. what more obvious course, then, than to keep them going by turning them on to manufacture goods of urgent public necessity? there are a number of modern commodities now practically standardised: the bicycle, the cheap watch, the ordinary tradesman's delivery automobile, the farmer's runabout, the country doctor's car, much electric-lighting material, dynamos, and so forth. and also, in a parallel case, there is shipbuilding. the chemical side of munition work can turn itself with no extreme difficulty to the making of such products as dyes. we face the fact, then, that either the state must go on with this production, as it can do, straight off from the signing of peace, converting with a minimum of friction, taking on its soldiers as they are discharged from the army as employees with a minimum waste of time and a minimum of social disorder, and a maximum advantage in the resumption of foreign trade, or there will be a dangerous break-up of the national factory system, a time of extreme chaos and bitter unemployment until capital accumulates for new developments. the risks of social convulsion will be enormous. and there is small hope that the central powers, and particularly industrial germany, will have the politeness to wait through the ten or twelve years of economic embarrassment that a refusal to take this bold but obviously advantageous step into scientific socialism will entail. but the prophet must be on his guard against supposing that, because a thing is highly desirable, it must necessarily happen; or that, because it is highly dangerous, it will be avoided. this bold and successful economic reconstruction upon national lines is not inevitable merely because every sound reason points us in that direction. a man may be very ill, a certain drug may be clearly indicated as the only possible remedy, but it does not follow that the drug is available, that the doctor will have the sense to prescribe it, or the patient the means to procure it or the intelligence to swallow it. the experience of history is that nations do not take the obviously right course, but the obviously wrong one. the present prophet knows only his england, but, so far as england is concerned, he can cover a sheet of paper with scarcely a pause, jotting down memoranda of numberless forces that make against any such rational reconstruction. most of these forces, in greater or less proportion, must be present in the case of every other country under consideration. the darkest shadow upon the outlook of european civilisation at the present time is not the war; it is the failure of any co-operative spirit between labour and the directing classes. the educated and leisured classes have been rotten with individualism for a century; they have destroyed the confidence of the worker in any leadership whatever. labour stands apart, intractable. if there is to be any such rapid conversion of the economic machinery as the opportunities and necessities of this great time demand, then labour must be taken into the confidence of those who would carry it through. it must be reassured and enlightened. labour must know clearly what is being done; it must be an assenting co-operator. the stride to economic national service and socialism is a stride that labour should be more eager to take than any other section of the community. the first step in reassuring labour must be to bring the greedy private owner and the speculator under a far more drastic discipline than at present. the property-owning class is continually accusing labour of being ignorant, suspicious, and difficult; it is blind to the fact that it is itself profit-seeking by habit, greedy, conceited, and half educated. every step in the mobilisation of great britain's vast resources for the purposes of the war has been hampered by the tricks, the failures to understand, and the almost instinctive disloyalties of private owners. the raising of rents in glasgow drove the infuriated workmen of the clyde district into an unwilling strike. it was an exasperating piece of private selfishness, quite typical of the individualistic state of mind, and the failure to anticipate or arrest it on the part of the government was a worse failure than suvla bay. and everywhere the officials of the ministry of munitions find private employers holding back workers and machinery from munition works, intriguing--more particularly through the board of trade--to have all sorts of manufactures for private profit recognised as munition work, or if that contention is too utterly absurd, then as work vitally necessary to the maintenance of british export trade and the financial position of the country. it is an undeniable fact that employers and men alike have been found far readier to risk their lives for their country than to lay aside any scale of profits to which they have grown accustomed. this conflict of individualistic enterprise and class suspicion against the synthesis of the public welfare is not peculiar to great britain; it is probably going on with local variations in germany, russia, italy, france, and, indeed, in every combatant country. because of the individualistic forces and feelings, none of us, either friends or enemies, are really getting anything like our full possible result out of our national efforts. but in germany there is a greater tradition of subordination; in france there is a greater clarity of mind than in any other country. great britain and russia in this, as in so many other matters, are at once close kindred and sharp antithesis. each is mentally crippled by the corruption of its educational system by an official religious orthodoxy, and hampered by a court which disowns any function of intellectual stimulus. neither possesses a scientifically educated _class_ to which it can look for the powerful handling of this great occasion; and each has acquired under these disadvantages the same strange faculty for producing sane resultants out of illogical confusions. it is the way of these unmethodical powers to produce unexpected, vaguely formulated, and yet effective cerebral action--apparently from their backbones. as i sit playing at prophecy, and turn over the multitudinous impressions of the last year in my mind, weighing the great necessities of the time against obstacles and petty-mindedness, i become more and more conscious of a third factor that is neither need nor obstruction, and that is the will to get things right that has been liberated by the war. the new spirit is still but poorly expressed, but it will find expression. the war goes on, and we discuss this question of economic reconstruction as though it was an issue that lay between the labour that has stayed behind and the business men, for the most part old men with old habits of mind, who have stayed behind. the real life of europe's future lies on neither side of that opposition. the real life is mutely busy at present, saying little because of the uproar of the guns, and not so much learning as casting habits and shedding delusions. in the trenches there are workers who have broken with the old slacking and sabotage, and there are prospective leaders who have forgotten profit. the men between eighteen and forty are far too busy in the blood and mud to make much showing now, but to-morrow these men will be the nation. when that third factor of the problem is brought in the outlook of the horoscope improves. the spirit of the war may be counted upon to balance and prevail against this spirit of individualism, this spirit of suspicion and disloyalty, which i fear more than anything else in the world. i believe in the young france, young england, and young russia this war is making, and so i believe that every european country will struggle along the path that this war has opened to a far more completely organised state than has existed ever before. the allies will become state firms, as germany was, indeed, already becoming before the war; setting private profit aside in the common interest, handling agriculture, transport, shipping, coal, the supply of metals, the manufacture of a thousand staple articles, as national concerns. in the face of the manifest determination of the central powers to do as much, the allies will be forced also to link their various state firms together into a great allied trust, trading with a common interest and a common plan with germany and america and the rest of the world.... youth and necessity will carry this against selfishness, against the unimaginative, against the unteachable, the suspicious, the "_old fool_." but i do not venture to prophesy that this will come about as if it were a slick and easy deduction from present circumstances. even in france i do not think things will move as lucidly and generously as that. there will be a conflict everywhere between wisdom and cunning, between the eyes of youth and the purblind, between energy and obstinacy. the reorganisation of the european states will come about clumsily and ungraciously. at every point the sticker will be found sticking tight, holding out to be bought off, holding out for a rent or a dividend or a share, holding out by mere instinct. at every turn, too, the bawler will be loud and active, bawling suspicions, bawling accusations, bawling panic, or just simply bawling. tricks, peculation, obstinacies, vanities--after this war men will still be men. but i do believe that through all the dust and din, the great reasons in the case, the steady constructive forces of the situation, will carry us. i believe that out of the ruins of the nineteenth century system of private capitalism that this war has smashed for ever, there will arise, there does even now arise, in this strange scaffolding of national munition factories and hastily nationalised public services, the framework of a new economic and social order based upon national ownership and service. let us now recapitulate a little and see how far we have got in constructing a picture of the european community as it will be in fifteen or twenty years' time. nominally it will be little more of a socialist state than it is to-day, but, as a matter of fact, the ships, the railways, the coal and metal supply, the great metal industries, much engineering, and most agriculture, will be more or less completely under collective ownership, and certainly very completely under collective control. this does not mean that there will have been any disappearance of private property, but only that there will have been a very considerable change in its character; the owner will be less of controller but more of a creditor; he will be a _rentier_ or an annuitant. the burthen of this class upon the community will not be relatively quite so heavy as it would otherwise have been, because of a very considerable rise in wages and prices. in a community in which all the great initiatives have been assumed by the state, the importance of financiers and promoters will have diminished relatively to the importance of administrative officials; the opportunities of private exploitation, indeed, will have so diminished that there will probably be far less evidence of great concentrations of private wealth in the european social landscape than there was before the war. on the other hand, there will be an enormously increased _rentier_ class drawing the interest of the war loans from the community, and maintaining a generally high standard of comfort. there will have been a great demand for administrative and technical abilities and a great stimulation of scientific and technical education. by we shall be going about a world that will have recovered very largely from the impoverishment of the struggle; we shall tour in state-manufactured automobiles upon excellent roads, and we shall live in houses equipped with a national factory electric light installation, and at every turn we shall be using and consuming the products of nationalised industry--and paying off the national debt simultaneously, and reducing our burden of _rentiers_. at the same time our boys will be studying science in their schools more thoroughly than they do now, and they will in many cases be learning russian instead of greek or german. more of our boys will be going into the public service, and fewer thinking of private business, and they will be going into the public service, not as clerks, but as engineers, technical chemists, manufacturers, state agriculturists, and the like. the public service will be less a service of clerks and more a service of practical men. the ties that bind france and great britain at the present moment will have been drawn very much closer. france, belgium and england will be drifting towards a french-english bi-lingualism.... so much of our picture we may splash in now. much that is quite essential remains to be discussed. so far we have said scarcely a word about the prospects of party politics and the problems of government that arise as the state ceases to be a mere impartial adjudicator between private individuals, and takes upon itself more and more of the direction of the general life of the community. vi. lawyer and press the riddle of administration is the most subtle of all those that the would-be prophet of the things that are coming must attempt. we see the great modern states confronted now by vast and urgent necessities, by opportunities that may never recur. individualism has achieved its inevitable failure; "go as you please" in a world that also contained aggressive militarism, has broken down. we live in a world of improvised state factories, commandeered railways, substituted labour and emergency arrangements. our vague-minded, lax, modern democracy has to pull itself together, has to take over and administer and succeed with a great system of collective functions, has to express its collective will in some better terms than "go as you please," or fail. and we find the affairs of nearly every great democratic state in the hands of a class of men not specially adapted to any such constructive or administrative work. i am writing here now chiefly of the western allies. russia is peculiar in having her administrative machine much more highly developed in relation to her general national life than the free democratic countries. she has to make a bureaucracy that has not hitherto been an example for efficiency into a bureaucracy that will be constructive, responsive, liberal, scientific, and efficient; the western countries have to do the same with that oligarchy of politicians which, as professor michels has recently pointed out in his striking book on "political parties," is the necessary reality of democratic government. by different methods the eastern and western powers have to attain a common end. both bureaucracy and pseudo-democratic oligarchy have to accomplish an identical task, to cement the pacific alliance of the pledged allies and to socialise their common industrial and economic life, so as to make it invulnerable to foreign attack. now in great britain, which is the democracy that has been most under the close observation of the present prophet, there is at present a great outcry against the "politician," and more particularly against the "lawyer-politician." he is our embarrassment. in him we personify all our difficulties. let us consider the charges against this individual. let us ask, can we do without him? and let us further see what chances there may be of so altering, qualifying, or balancing him as to minimise the evil of his influence. to begin with, let us run over the essentials of the charge against him. it is with a modest blush that the present prophet recapitulates these charges. so early as the year he was lifting up his voice, not exactly in the wilderness but at least in the royal institution, against the legal as compared with the creative or futurist type of mind. the legal mind, he insisted, looks necessarily to the past. it is dilatory because it has no sense of coming things, it is uninventive and wasteful, it does not create, it takes advantage. it is the type of mind least able, under any circumstances, to organise great businesses, to plan campaigns, to adventure or achieve. "wait and see" crystallises its spirit. its resistance is admirable, and it has no "go." nevertheless there is a tendency for power to gravitate in all democratic countries to the lawyer. in the british system the normal faults of the lawyer are enhanced, and his predominance intensified, by certain peculiarities of our system. in the first place, he belongs to a guild of exceptional power. in britain it happens that the unfortunate course was taken ages ago of bribing the whole legal profession to be honest. the british judges and law officers are stupendously overpaid in order to make them incorruptible; it is a poor but perhaps a well-merited compliment to their professional code. we have squared the whole profession to be individually unbribable. the judges, moreover, in the anglo-saxon communities are appointed from among the leading barristers, an arrangement that a child can see is demoralising and inadvisable. and in great britain all the greatest salaries in the government service are reserved for the legal profession. the greatest prizes, therefore, before an energetic young man who has to make his way in great britain are the legal prizes, and his line of advancement to these lies, for all the best years of his life, not through the public service, but through the private practice of advocacy. the higher education, such as it is, in great britain, produces under the stimulus of these conditions an advocate as its finest flower. to go from the posing and chatter of the union debating society to a university laboratory is, in britain, to renounce ambition. few men of exceptional energy will do that. the national consequences of this state of affairs have been only too manifest throughout the conduct of the war. the british government has developed all the strength and all the weakness of the great profession it represents. it has been uninventive, dilatory, and without initiative; it has been wasteful and evasive; but it has not been wanting in a certain eloquence and dignity, it has been wary and shrewd, and it has held on to office with the concentrated skill and determination of a sucker-fish. and the british mind, with a concentration and intensity unprecedented before the war, is speculating how it can contrive to get a different sort of ruler and administrator at work upon its affairs. there is a disposition in the press, and much of the private talk one hears, to get rid of lawyers from the control of national affairs altogether, to substitute "business men" or scientific men or "experts." that way lies dictatorship and caesarism. and even great britain is not so heedless of the experiences of other nations as to attempt again what has already been so abundantly worked out in national disaster across the channel. the essential business of government is to deal between man and man; it is not to manage the national affairs in detail, but to secure the proper managers, investigators, administrators, generals, and so forth, to maintain their efficiency, and keep the balance between them. we cannot do without a special class of men for these interventions and controls. in other words, we cannot do without a special class of politicians. they may be elected by a public or appointed by an autocrat; at some point they have to come in. and this business of intervening between men and classes and departments in public life, and getting them to work together, is so closely akin to the proper work of a lawyer in dealing between men and men, that, unless the latter are absolutely barred from becoming the former, it is almost unavoidable that politicians should be drawn more abundantly from the lawyer class than from any other class in the community. this is so much the case, that when the london _times_ turns in despair from a government of lawyers and looks about for an alternative, the first figure that presents itself is that distinguished advocate sir edward carson! but there is a difference between recognising that some sort of lawyer-politician is unavoidable and agreeing that the existing type of lawyer who is so largely accountable for the massive slowness, the confused action, the slovenliness rather than the weakness of purpose, shown by great britain in this war, is the only possible type, the british system of education and legal organisation is not the last word of human wisdom in these matters. the real case we british have against our lawyers, if i may adopt an expressive colloquialism, is not that they are lawyers, but that they are such infernal lawyers. they trail into modern life most of the faults of a mediaeval guild. they seem to have no sense of the state they could develop, no sense of the future they might control. their law and procedure has never been remodelled upon the framework of modern ideas; their minds are still set to the tune of mediaeval bickerings, traditionalism, and state blindness. they are mystery dealers, almost unanimously they have resisted giving the common man the protection of a code. in the united kingdom we have had no napoleon to override the profession. it is extraordinary how complete has been their preservation of barbaric conceptions. even the doctor is now largely emancipated from his archaic limitations as a skilled retainer. he thinks more and more of the public health, and less and less of his patron. the more recent a profession the less there is of the individualistic personal reference; scientific research, for example, disavows and forbids every personal reference. but while everyone would be shocked at some great doctor, or some great research institution, in these days of urgent necessity spending two or three weeks on the minor ailments of some rich person's lapdog, nobody is scandalised at the spectacle of sir edward carson and a costly law court spending long days upon the sordid disputes that centre upon young master slingsby's ear--whether it is the slingsby family ear or the ear of a supposititious child--a question that any three old women might be trusted to settle. after that he rests for a fortnight and recuperates, and returns--to take up a will case turning upon the toy rabbits and suchlike trifles which entertained the declining years of a nonagenarian. this, when we are assured that the country awaits sir edward as its deliverer. it is as if lord kitchener took a month off to act at specially high rates for the "movies." our standard for the lawyer is older and lower than it is for other men. there is no more reason nowadays why a lawyer should look to advocacy as a proper use of his knowledge than that a doctor should make private poisoning the lucrative side of his profession. there is no reason why a court of law should ignore the plain right of the commonweal to intervene in every case between man and man. there is every reason why trivial disputes about wills and legitimacy should not be wasting our national resources at the present time, when nearly every other form of waste is being restrained. the sound case against the legal profession in anglo-saxon countries is not that it is unnecessary, but that it is almost incredibly antiquated, almost incredibly careless of the public well-being, and that it corrupts or dwarfs all the men who enter it. our urgent need is not so much to get rid of the lawyer from our affairs as to get rid of the wig and gown spirit and of the special pleader, and to find and develop the new lawyer, the lawyer who is not an advocate, who is not afraid of a code, who has had some scientific education, and whose imagination has been quickened by the realisation of life as creative opportunity. we want to emancipate this profession from its ancient guild restrictions--the most anti-social and disastrous of all such restrictions--to destroy its disgraceful traditions of over-payment and fee-snatching, to insist upon a scientific philosophical training for its practitioners, to make the practice of advocacy a fall from grace, and to bar professional advocates from the bench. in the british trenches now there must be many hundreds of fine young lawyers, still but little corrupted, who would be only too glad to exchange the sordid vulgarities and essential dishonour of a successful lawyer's career under the old conditions for lives of service and statecraft.... no observer of the general trend of events in europe will get any real grasp of what is happening until he realises the cardinal importance of the reactions that centre upon this question. the current development of political institutions and the possible development of a new spirit and method in the legal profession are so intimately interwoven as to be practically one and the same question. the international question is, can we get a new germany? the national question everywhere is, can we get a better politician? the widely prevalent discontent with the part played by the lawyer in the affairs of all the western allies is certain to develop into a vigorous agitation for legal reconstruction. in the case of every other great trade union the war has exacted profound and vital concessions. the british working men, for example, have abandoned scores of protective restrictions upon women's labour, upon unskilled labour, for which they have fought for generations; they have submitted to a virtual serfdom that the nation's needs might be supplied; the medical profession has sent almost too large a proportion of its members to the front; the scientific men, the writers, have been begging to be used in any capacity at any price or none; the ministry of munitions is full of unpaid workers, and so on. the british legal profession and trade union alone has made no sign of any disposition to relax its elaborate restrictions upon the labour of amateurs and women, or to abate one jot or one tittle of its habitual rewards. there has been no attempt to reduce the costly law officers of the government, for example, or to call in the help of older men or women to release law officers who are of military experience or age. and i must admit that there are small signs of the advent of the "new lawyer," at whose possibility i have just flung a hopeful glance, to replace the existing mass of mediaeval unsoundness. barristers seem to age prematurely--at least in great britain--unless they are born old. in the legal profession one hears nothing of "the young"; one hears only of "smart juniors." reform and progressive criticism in the legal profession, unlike all other professions, seem to be the monopoly of the retired. nevertheless, great britain is as yet only beginning to feel the real stresses of the war; she is coming into the full strain a year behind france, germany, and russia; and after the war there lies the possibility of still more violent stresses; so that what is as yet a mere cloud of criticism and resentment at our lawyer-politicians and privileged legal profession may gather to a great storm before or . i am inclined to foretell as one most highly probable development of the present vague but very considerable revolt against the lawyer in british public life, first, some clumsy proposals or even attempts to leave him out, and use "business men," soldiers, admirals, dictators, or men of science, in his place--which is rather like throwing away a blottesque fountain-pen and trying to write with a walking-stick or a revolver or a flash-light--and then when that is found to be impossible, a resolute attempt to clean and reconstitute the legal profession on modern and more honourable lines; a movement into which, quite possibly, a number of the younger british lawyers, so soon as they realise that the movement is good enough to risk careers upon, may throw themselves. a large share in such a reform movement, if it occurs, will be brought about by the press; by which i mean not simply the periodical press, but all books and contemporary discussion. it is only by the natural playing off of press against lawyer-politician that democratic states can ever come to their own. and that brings me to the second part of this question, which is whether, quite apart from the possible reform and spiritual rebirth of the legal profession, there is not also the possibility of balancing and correcting its influence. in ancient hebrew history--it may be a warning rather than a precedent--there were two great forces, one formal, conservative and corrupting, the other undisciplined, creative, and destructive; the first was the priest, the second the prophet. their interaction is being extraordinarily paralleled in the anglo-saxon democracies by the interaction of lawyer-politician and press to-day. if the lawyer-politician is unavoidable, the press is indispensable. it is not in the clash and manoeuvres and mutual correction of party, but in the essential conflict of political authority on the one hand and press on the other that the future of democratic government apparently lies. in the clearer, simpler case of france, a less wealthy and finer type of lawyer interacts with a less impersonal press. it is in the great contrasts and the essential parallelism of the french and the anglo-saxon democratic systems that one finds the best practical reason for anticipating very profound changes in these two inevitables of democracy, the press and the lawyer-politician, and for assuming that the method of democracy has still a vast range of experimental adjustment between them still untried. such experimental adjustment will be the chief necessity and business of political life in every country of the world for the next few decades. the lawyer-politician and the press are as it were the right and left hands of a modern democracy. the war has brought this out clearly. it has ruptured the long-weakened bonds that once linked this and that newspaper with this and that party. for years the press of all the western democracies has been drifting slowly away from the tradition--it lasted longest and was developed most completely in great britain--that-newspapers were party organs. in the novels of disraeli the press appears as an ambiguously helpful person who is asked out to dinner, who is even admitted to week-end conferences, by the political great. he takes his orders from the whig peers or the tory peers. at his greatest he advises them respectfully. but that was in the closing days of the british oligarchy; that was before modern democracy had begun to produce its characteristic political forms. it is not so very much more than a century ago that great britain had her first lawyer prime minister. through all the napoleonic wars she was still a country ruled by great feudal landlords, and gentlemen adventurers associated with them. the lawyers only came to their own at the close of the great victorian duet of disraeli and gladstone, the last of the political gentlemen adventurers. it is only now, in the jolts and dissatisfactions of this war, that great britain rubs her eyes and looks at her government as it is. the old oligarchy established the tradition of her diplomacy. illiberal at home, it was liberal abroad; great britain was the defender of nationality, of constitutionalism, and of the balance of power against the holy alliance. in the figure of such a gentleman as sir edward grey the old order mingles with the new. but most of his colleagues are of the new order. they would have been incredible in the days of lord melbourne. in its essential quality the present british government is far more closely akin to the french than it is to its predecessor of a hundred years ago. essentially it is a government of lawyer-politicians with no close family ties or intimate political traditions and prejudices. and its natural and proper corrective is the press, over which it fails to exercise now even a shadow of the political and social influence that once kept that power in subjection. it is the way with all human institutions; they remain in appearance long after they have passed away in reality. it is on record that the roman senate still thought rome was a republic in the third century of the christian era. it is nothing wonderful, therefore, that people suppose that the king, the lords, and the commons, debating through a ministry and an opposition, still govern the british empire. as a matter of fact it is the lawyer-politicians, split by factions that simulate the ancient government and opposition, who rule, under a steadily growing pressure and checking by the press. since this war began the press has released itself almost inadvertently from its last association with the dying conflicts of party politics, and has taken its place as a distinct power in the realm, claiming to be more representative of the people than their elected representatives, and more expressive of the national mind and will. now there is considerable validity in this claim. it is easy to say that a paper may be bought by any proprietor and set to put what he chooses into the public mind. as a matter of fact, buying a newspaper is far more costly and public a proceeding than buying a politician. and if on the one hand the public has no control over what is printed in a paper, it has on the other the very completest control over what is read. a politician is checked by votes cast once in several years, a newspaper is checked by sales that vary significantly from day to day. a newspaper with no circulation is a newspaper that does not matter; a few weeks will suffice to show if it has carried its public with it or gone out of influence. it is absurd to speak of a newspaper as being less responsible than a politician. nevertheless, the influence of a great newspaper is so much greater than that of any politician, and its power more particularly for mischief--for the creation of panic conditions, for example--so much swifter, that it is open to question whether the press is at present sufficiently held to its enormous responsibilities. let us consider its weaknesses at the present time, let us ask what changes in its circumstances are desirable in the public interest, and what are likely to come about. we have already reckoned upon the press as a chief factor in the adequate criticism, cleansing, and modernisation of the british lawyer-politician; is there any power to which we may look for the security of the press? and i submit the answer is the press. for while the legal profession is naturally homogeneous, the press is by nature heterogeneous. dog does not eat dog, nor lawyer, lawyer; but the newspapers are sharks and cannibals, they are in perpetual conflict, the press is a profession as open as the law is closed; it has no anti-social guild feeling; it washes its dirty linen in public by choice and necessity, and disdains all professional etiquette. few people know what criticisms of the lord chief justice may have ripened in the minds of lord halsbury or sir edward carson, but we all know, to a very considerable degree of accuracy, the worst of what this great journalist or group of newspaper proprietors thinks of that. we have, therefore, considerable reason for regarding the press as being, in contrast with the legal profession, a self-reforming body. in the last decade there has been an enormous mass of criticism of the press by the press. there has been a tendency to exaggerate its irresponsibility. a better case is to be made against it for what i will call, using the word in its least offensive sense, its venality. by venality i mean the fact, a legacy from the now happily vanishing age of individualism, that in theory and law at least anyone may own a newspaper and sell it publicly or secretly to anyone, that its circulation and advertisement receipts may be kept secret or not as the proprietors choose, and that the proprietor is accountable to no one for any exceptional incomings or any sudden fluctuations in policy. a few years ago we were all discussing who should buy _the times_; i do not know what chances an agent of the kaiser might not have had if he had been sufficiently discreet. this venality will be far more dangerous to the allied countries after the war than during its continuance. so long as the state of war lasts there are prompt methods available for any direct newspaper treason, and it is in the neutral countries only that the buying and selling of papers against the national interest has occurred to any marked extent. directly peace is signed, unless we provide for the event beforehand, our press will pass under neutral conditions. there will be nothing to prevent, for example, any foreseeing foreign power coming into great britain, offering to buy up not only this paper or that, but also, what is far more important, to buy up the great book and newspaper distributing firms. these vitally important public services, so far as law and theory go, will be as entirely in the market as railway tickets at a station unless we make some intelligent preventive provision. unless we do, and if, as is highly probable, peace puts no immediate stop to international malignity, the germans will be bigger fools than i think them if they do not try to get hold of these public services. it is a matter of primary importance in the outlook of every country in europe, therefore, that it should insist upon and secure responsible native ownership of every newspaper and news and book distributing agency, and the most drastic punishment for newspaper corruption. given that guarantee against foreign bribery, we may, i think, let free speech rage. this is so much a matter of common sense that i cannot imagine even british "wait and see" waiting for the inevitable assault upon our national journalistic virtue that will follow the peace. so i spread out the considerations that i think justify our forecasting, in a very changed great britain and a changed europe, firstly, a legal profession with a quickened conscience, a sense of public function and a reformed organisation, and, secondly, a press, which is recognised and held accountable in law and in men's minds, as an estate of the realm, as something implicitly under oath to serve the state. i do not agree with professor michel's pessimistic conclusion that peace will bring back exacerbated party politics and a new era of futility to the democratic countries. i believe that the tremendous demonstration of this war (a demonstration that gains weight with every week of our lengthening effort), of the waste and inefficiency of the system of - , will break down at last even the conservatism of the most rigidly organised and powerful and out-of-date of all professions. it is not only that i look to the indignation and energy of intelligent men who are outside our legal and political system to reform it, but to those who are in it now. a man may be quietly parasitic upon his mother, and yet incapable of matricide. so much of our national energy and ability has been attracted to the law in great britain that our nation, with our lawyers in modern clothing instead of wigs and gowns, lawyers who have studied science and social theory instead of the spoutings of cicero and the loquacious artfulness of w.e. gladstone, lawyers who look forward at the destiny of their country instead of backward and at the markings on their briefs, may yet astonish the world. the british lawyer really holds the future of the british empire and, indeed, i could almost say, of the whole world in his hands at the present time, as much as any single sort of man can be said to hold it. inside his skull imagination and a heavy devil of evil precedent fight for his soul and the welfare of the world. and generosity fights against tradition and individualism. only the men of the press have anything like the same great possibilities of betrayal. to these two sorts of men the dim spirit of the nation looks for such leading as a democracy can follow. to them the men with every sort of special ability, the men of science, the men of this or that sort of administrative ability and experience, the men of creative gifts and habits, every sort of man who wants the world to get on, look for the removal (or the ingenious contrivance) of obstructions and entanglements, for the allaying (or the fomentation) of suspicion, misapprehension, and ignorant opposition, for administration (or class blackmail). yet while i sit as a prophetic amateur weighing these impalpable forces of will and imagination and habit and interest in lawyer, pressman, maker and administrator, and feeling by no means over-confident of the issue, it dawns upon me suddenly that there is another figure present, who has never been present before in the reckoning up of british affairs. it is a silent figure. this figure stands among the pressmen and among the lawyers and among the workers; for a couple of decades at least he will be everywhere in the british system; he is young and he is uniformed in khaki, and he brings with him a new spirit into british life, the spirit of the new soldier, the spirit of subordination to a common purpose.... france, which has lived so much farther and deeper and more bitterly than britain, knows....[ ] [footnote : in "an englishman looks at the world," a companion volume to the present one, which was first published by messrs. cassell early in , and is now obtainable in a shilling edition, the reader will find a full discussion of the probable benefit of proportional representation in eliminating the party hack from political life. proportional representation would probably break up party organisations altogether, and it would considerably enhance the importance and responsibility of the press. it would do much to accelerate the development of the state of affairs here foreshadowed, in which the rôle of government and opposition under the party system will be played by elected representatives and press respectively.] vii. the new education some few months ago mr. harold spender, in the _daily news_, was calling attention to a very significant fact indeed. the higher education in england, and more particularly the educational process of oxford and cambridge, which has been going on continuously since the middle ages, is practically in a state of suspense. oxford and cambridge have stopped. they have stopped so completely that mr. spender can speculate whether they can ever pick up again and resume upon the old lines. for my own part, as the father of two sons who are at present in mid-school, i hope with all my heart that they will not. i hope that the oxford and cambridge of unphilosophical classics and little-go greek for everybody, don's mathematics, bad french, ignorance of all europe except switzerland, forensic exercises in the union debating society, and cant about the gothic, the oxford and cambridge that turned boys full of life and hope and infinite possibility into barristers, politicians, mono-lingual diplomatists, bishops, schoolmasters, company directors, and remittance men, are even now dead. quite recently i passed through cambridge, and, with the suggestions of mr. spender in my mind, i paused to savour the atmosphere of the place. he had very greatly understated the facts of the case. he laid stress upon the fact that instead of the normal four thousand undergraduates or so, there are now scarcely four hundred. but before i was fairly in cambridge i realised that that gives no idea of the real cessation of english education. of the first seven undergraduates i saw upon the trumpington road, one was black, three were coloured, and one of the remaining three was certainly not british, but, i should guess, spanish-american. and it isn't only the undergraduates who have gone. all the dons of military age and quality have gone too, or are staying up not in caps and gowns, but in khaki; all the vigorous teachers are soldiering; there are no dons left except those who are unfit for service--and the clergy. buildings, libraries, empty laboratories, empty lecture theatres, vestiges, refugees, neutrals, khaki; that is cambridge to-day. there never was before, there never may be again, so wonderful an opportunity for a cleaning-up and sweeping-out of those two places, and for a profitable new start in british education. the cessation of oxford and cambridge does not give the full measure of the present occasion. all the other british universities are in a like case. and the schools which feed them have been practically swept clean of their senior boys. and not a tithe of any of this war class of schoolboys will ever go to the universities now, not a tithe of the war class of undergraduates will ever return. between the new education and the old there will be a break of two school generations. for the next thirty or forty years an exceptional class of men will play a leading part in british affairs, men who will have learnt more from reality and less from lectures than either the generations that preceded or the generations that will follow them. the subalterns of the great war will form a distinct generation and mark an epoch. their experiences of need, their sense of deficiencies, will certainly play a large part in the reconstitution of british education. _the stamp of the old system will not be on them_. now is the time to ask what sort of training should a university give to produce the ruling, directing, and leading men which it exists to produce? upon that great britain will need to make up its mind speedily. it is not a matter for to-morrow or the day after; it is necessary to decide now what it is the britain that is coming will need and want, and to set to work revising the admission and degree requirements, and reconstructing all those systems of public examinations for the public services that necessarily dominate school and university teaching, before the universities and schools reassemble. if the rotten old things once get together again, the rotten old things will have a new lease of life. this and no other is the hour for educational reconstruction. and it is in the decisions and readjustments of schools and lectures and courses, far more than anywhere else, that the real future of great britain will be decided. equally true is this of all the belligerent countries. much of the future has a kind of mechanical inevitableness, but here far more than anywhere else, can a few resolute and capable men mould the spirit and determine the quality of the europe to come. now surely the chief things that are needed in the education of a ruling class are these--first, the selection and development of character, then the selection and development of capacity, and, thirdly, the imparting of knowledge upon broad and comprehensive lines, and the power of rapidly taking up and using such detailed knowledge as may be needed for special occasions. it is upon the first count that the british schools and universities have been most open to criticism. we have found the british university-trained class under the fiery tests of this war an evasive, temporising class of people, individualistic, ungenerous, and unable either to produce or obey vigorous leadership. on the whole, it is a matter for congratulation, it says wonderful things for the inherent natural qualities of the english-speaking peoples, that things have proved no worse than they are, considering the nature of the higher education under which they have suffered. consider in what that educational process has consisted. its backbone has been the teaching of latin by men who can read, write, and speak it rather worse than a third-rate babu speaks english, and of ancient greek by teachers who at best half know this fine lost language. they do not expect any real mastery of either tongue by their students, and naturally, therefore, no real mastery is ever attained. the boys and young men just muff about at it for three times as long as would be needed to master completely both those tongues if they had "live" teachers, and so they acquire habits of busy futility and petty pedantry in all intellectual processes that haunt them throughout life. there are also sterile mathematical studies that never get from "exercises" to practice. there is a pretence of studying philosophy based on greek texts that few of the teachers and none of the taught can read comfortably, and a certain amount of history. the modern history school at oxford, for example, is the queerest collection of chunks of reading. english history from the beginning, with occasional glances at continental affairs, european history for about a century, bits of economics, and--the _politics_ of aristotle! it is not education; it is a jack-daw collection....this sort of jumble has been the essentials of the more pretentious type of "higher education" available in great britain up to the present. in this manner, through all the most sensitive and receptive years of life, our boys have been trained in "how not to get there," in a variety of disconnected subjects, by men who have never "got there," and it would be difficult to imagine any curriculum more calculated to produce a miscellaneous incompetence. they have also, it happens, received a certain training in _savoir faire_ through the collective necessities of school life, and a certain sharpening in the arts of advocacy through the debating society. except for these latter helps, they have had to face the world with minds neither more braced, nor more trained, nor more informed than any "uneducated" man's. surely the first condition that should be laid down for the new education in europe is that whatever is undertaken must be undertaken in grim earnest and done. it is ridiculous to talk about the "character-forming" value of any study that does not go through to an end. manifestly greek must be dropped as a part of the general curriculum for a highly educated man, for the simple reason that now there are scarcely any competent teachers, and because the sham of teaching it partially and pretentiously demoralises student and school alike. the claim of the clergy and so forth to "know" greek is one of the many corrupting lies in british intellectual life. english comic writers never weary of sneering at the hindu who claimed to be a "failed b.a.," but what is the ordinary classical degree man of an english university but a "failed" greek scholar? latin, too, must be either reduced to the position of a study supplementary to the native tongue, or brought up to an honest level of efficiency. french and german in the case of the english, and english in the case of the french and russians, are essentially governess languages; any intelligent boy or girl from a reasonably prosperous home ought to be able to read, write, and speak either before fifteen; they are to be taken by the way rather than regarded as a fundamental part of education. the french, german, or english literature and literary development up to and including contemporary work is, of course, an entirely different matter. but there can be no doubt of the great educational value of some highly inflected and well-developed language _taught by men to whom it is a genuine means of expression_. educational needs and public necessity point alike to such languages as russian or, in the case of great britain, hindustani to supply this sound training. if great britain means business after this war, if she is to do her duty by the eastern world she controls, she will not stick at the petty expense of getting a few hundreds of good russian and hindu teachers into the country, and she will place russian and hindustani upon at least an equal footing with greek in all her university and competitive examinations. moreover, it is necessary to set a definite aim of application before university mathematical teaching. as the first condition of character-building in all these things, the student should do what he ostensibly sets out to do. no degree and no position should be attainable by half accomplishment. of course, languages and mathematics do not by any means round off the education of a man of the leading classes. there is no doubt much exercise in their attainment, much value in their possession. but the essence of the higher education is now, as it always has been, philosophy; not the antiquated pretence of "reading" plato and aristotle, but the thorough and subtle examination of those great questions of life that most exercise and strengthen the mind. surely that is the essential difference of the "educated" and the "common" man. the former has thought, and thought out thoroughly and clearly, the relations of his mind to the universe as a whole, and of himself to the state and life. a mind untrained in swift and adequate criticism is essentially an uneducated mind, though it has as many languages as a courier and as much computation as a bookie. and what is our fundamental purpose in all this reform of our higher education? it is neither knowledge nor technical skill, but to make our young men talk less and think more, and to think more swiftly, surely, and exactly. for that we want less debating society and more philosophy, fewer prizes for forensic ability and more for strength and vigour of analysis. the central seat of character is the mind. a man of weak character thinks vaguely, a man of clear intellectual decisions acts with precision and is free from vacillation. a country of educated men acts coherently, smites swiftly, plans ahead; a country of confused education is a country of essential muddle. it is as the third factor in education that the handling and experience of knowledge comes, and of all knowledge that which is most accessible, most capable of being handled with the greatest variety of educational benefit, so as to include the criticism of evidence, the massing of facts, the extraction and testing of generalisations, lies in the two groups of the biological sciences and the exact sciences. no doubt a well-planned system of education will permit of much varied specialisation, will, indeed, specialise those who have special gifts from a very early age, will have corners for greek, hebrew, sanscrit, philology, archaeology, christian theology, and so on, and so on; nevertheless, for that great mass of sound men of indeterminate all-round ability who are the intellectual and moral backbone of a nation, it is in scientific studies that their best training lies, studies most convenient to undertake and most readily applied in life. from either of the two groups of the sciences one may pass on to research or to technical applications leading directly to the public service. the biological sciences broaden out through psychology and sociology to the theory and practice of law, and to political life. they lead also to medical and agricultural administration. the exact sciences lead to the administrative work of industrialism, and to general economics. these are the broad, clear lines of the educational necessities of a modern community, plain enough to see, so that every man who is not blinded by prejudice and self-interest can see them to-day. we have now before us a phase of opportunity in educational organisation that will never recur again. now that the apostolic succession of the old pedagogy is broken, and the entire system discredited, it seems incredible that it can ever again be reconstituted in its old seats upon the old lines. in these raw, harsh days of boundless opportunity, the opportunity of the new education, because it is the most fundamental, is assuredly the greatest of all. viii. what the war is doing for women section to discuss the effect of this war upon the relations of men and women to each other is to enter upon the analysis of a secular process compared with which even the vast convulsions and destructions of this world catastrophe appear only as jolts and incidents and temporary interruptions. there are certain matters that sustain a perennial development, that are on a scale beyond the dramatic happenings of history; wars, the movements of peoples and races, economic changes, such things may accelerate or stimulate or confuse or delay, but they cannot arrest the endless thinking out, the growth and perfecting of ideas, upon the fundamental relationships of human beings. first among such eternally progressive issues is religion, the relationship of man to god; next in importance and still more immediate is the matter of men's relations to women. in such matters each phase is a new phase; whatever happens, there is no going back and beginning over again. the social life, like the religious life, must grow and change until the human story is at an end. so that this war involves, in this as in so many matters, no fundamental set-back, no reversals nor restorations. at the most it will but realise things already imagined, release things latent. the nineteenth century was a period of unprecedented modification of social relationships; but great as these changes were, they were trivial in comparison with the changes in religious thought and the criticism of moral ideals. hell was the basis of religious thinking in a.d. , and the hangman was at the back of the law; in both hell and the hangman seemed on the verge of extinction. the creative impulse was everywhere replacing fear and compulsion in human motives. the opening decade of the twentieth century was a period of unprecedented abundance in everything necessary to human life, of vast accumulated resources, of leisure and release. it was also, because of that and because of the changed social and religious spirit, a period of great social disorganisation and confused impulses. we british can already look back to the opening half of as to an age gone for ever. except that we were all alive then and can remember, it has become now almost as remote, almost as "historical," as the days before the french revolution. our days, our methods and reactions, are already so different. the greater part of the freedom of movement, the travel and going to and fro, the leisure, the plenty and carelessness, that distinguished early twentieth century life from early nineteenth century life, has disappeared. most men are under military discipline, and every household economises. the whole british people has been brought up against such elementary realities of need, danger, and restraint as it never realised before. we discover that we had been living like olympians in regard to worldly affairs, we had been irresponsibles, amateurs. much of that fatness of life, the wrappings and trimmings of our life, has been stripped off altogether. that has not altered the bones of life; it has only made them plainer; but it has astonished us as much as if looking into a looking-glass one suddenly found oneself a skeleton. or a diagram. what was going on before this war in the relations of men and women is going on still, with more rapidity perhaps, and certainly with more thoroughness. the war is accentuating, developing, defining. previously our discussions and poses and movements had merely the air of seeking to accentuate and define. what was apparently being brought about by discursive efforts, and in a mighty controversy and confusion, is coming about now as a matter of course. before the war, in the british community as in most civilised communities, profound changes were already in progress, changes in the conditions of women's employment, in the legal relations of husband and wife, in the political status of women, in the status of illegitimate children, in manners and customs affecting the sexes. every civilised community was exhibiting a falling birth-rate and a falling death-rate, was changing the quality of its housing, and diminishing domestic labour by organising supplies and developing, appliances. that is to say, that primary human unit, the home, was altering in shape and size and frequency and colour and effect. a steadily increasing proportion of people were living outside the old family home, the home based on maternity and offspring, altogether. a number of us were doing our best to apprehend the summation of all this flood of change. we had a vague idea that women were somehow being "emancipated," but just what this word meant and what it implied were matters still under exploration. then came the war. for a time it seemed as if all this discussion was at an end, as if the problem itself had vanished. but that was only a temporary distraction of attention. the process of change swirled into new forms that did not fit very easily into the accepted formulae, swirled into new forms and continued on its way. if the discussion ceased for a time, the process of change ceased not at all. matters have travelled all the farther in the last two years for travelling mutely. the questions between men and women are far more important and far more incessant than the questions between germans and the rest of mankind. they are coming back now into the foreground of human thought, but amended and altered. our object is to state the general nature of that alteration. it has still been "emancipation," but very different in quality from the "emancipation" that was demanded so loudly and incoherently in that ancient world--of ! never had the relations of men and women been so uneasy as they were in the opening days of . the woman's movement battered and banged through all our minds. it broke out into that tumult in great britain perhaps ten years ago. when queen victoria died it was inaudible; search _punch_, search the newspapers of that tranquil age. in it kicked up so great a dust that the germans counted on the suffragettes as one of the great forces that were to paralyse england in the war. the extraordinary thing was that the feminist movement was never clearly defined during all the time of its maximum violence. we begin to perceive in the retrospect that the movement was multiple, made up of a number of very different movements interwoven. it seemed to concentrate upon the vote; but it was never possible to find even why women wanted the vote. some, for example, alleged that it was because they were like men, and some because they were entirely different. the broad facts that one could not mistake were a vast feminine discontent and a vast display of feminine energy. what had brought that about? two statistical factors are to be considered here. one of these was the steady decline in the marriage rate, and the increasing proportion of unmarried women of all classes, but particularly of the more educated classes, requiring employment. the second was the fall in the birth-rate, the diminution in size of the average family, the increase of sterile unions, and the consequent release of a considerable proportion of the energy of married women. co-operating with these factors of release were the economic elaborations that were improving the appliances of domestic life, replacing the needle by the sewing machine, the coal fire and lamp by gas and electricity, the dustpan and brush by the pneumatic carpet cleaner, and taking out of the house into the shop and factory the baking, much of the cooking, the making of clothes, the laundry work, and so forth, that had hitherto kept so many women at home and too busy to think. the care of even such children as there were was also less arduous; crêche and school held out hands for them, ready to do even that duty better. side by side with these releases from duty was a rise in the standard of education that was stimulating the minds and imaginations of woman beyond a point where the needle--even if there had been any use for the needle--can be an opiate. moreover, the world was growing richer, and growing richer in such a way that not only were leisure and desire increasing, but, because of increasingly scientific methods of production, the need in many branches of employment for any but very keen and able workers was diminishing. so that simultaneously the world, that vanished world before , was releasing and disengaging enormous volumes of untrained and unassigned feminine energy and also diminishing the usefulness of unskilful effort in every department of life. there was no demand to meet the supply. these were the underlying processes that produced the feminist outbreak of the decade before the war. now the debate between the sexes is a perennial. it began while we were still in the trees. it has its stereotyped accusations; its stereotyped repartees. the canterbury pilgrims had little to learn from christabel pankhurst. man and woman in that duet struggle perpetually for the upper hand, and the man restrains the woman and the woman resents the man. in every age some voice has been heard asserting, like plato, that the woman is a human being; and the prompt answer has been, "but such a different human being." wherever there is a human difference fair play is difficult, the universal clash of races witnesses to that, and sex is the greatest of human differences. but the general trend of mankind towards intelligence and reason has been also a trend away from a superstitious treatment of sexual questions and a recognition, so to speak, that a woman's "a man for a' that," that she is indeed as entitled to an independent soul and a separate voice in collective affairs. as brain has counted for more and more in the human effort and brute strength and the advantage of not bearing children for less and less, as man has felt a greater need for a companion and a lesser need for a slave, and as the increase of food and the protection of the girl from premature child-bearing has approximated the stature and strength and enterprise of the woman more and more to that of the man, this secular emancipation of the human female from the old herd subordination and servitude to the patriarchal male has gone on. essentially the secular process has been an equalising process. it was merely the exaggeration of its sustaining causes during the plenty and social and intellectual expansion of the last half-century that had stimulated this secular process to the pitch of crisis. there have always been two extreme aspects of the sexual debate. there have always been the oversexed women who wanted to be treated primarily as women, and the women who were irritated and bored by being treated primarily as women. there have always been those women who wanted to get, like joan of arc, into masculine attire, and the school of the "mystical darlings." there have always been the women who wanted to share men's work and the women who wanted to "inspire" it--the mates and the mistresses. of course, the mass of women lies between these extremes. but it is possible, nevertheless, to discuss this question as though it were a conflict of two sharply opposed ideals. it is convenient to write as if there were just these two sorts of women because so one can get a sharp definition in the picture. the ordinary woman fluctuates between the two, turns now to the western ideal of citizenship and now to the eastern of submission. these ideals fight not only in human society, but in every woman's career. chitra in rabindranath tagore's play, for example, tried both aspects of the woman's life, and tagore is at one with plato in preferring the rosalind type to the houri. and with him i venture to think is the clear reason of mankind. the real "emancipation" to which reason and the trend of things makes is from the yielding to the energetic side of a woman's disposition, from beauty enthroned for love towards the tall, weather-hardened woman with a spear, loving her mate as her mate loves her, and as sexless as a man in all her busy hours. but it was not simply the energies that tended towards this particular type that were set free during the latter half of the nineteenth century. every sort of feminine energy was set free. and it was not merely the self-reliant, independence-seeking women who were discontented. the ladies who specialised in feminine arts and graces and mysteries were also dissatisfied. they found they were not important enough. the former type found itself insufficiently respected, and the latter type found itself insufficiently adored. the two mingled their voices in the most confusing way in the literature of the suffrage movement before the war. the two tendencies mingle confusingly in the minds of the women that this movement was stirring up to think. the vote became the symbol for absolutely contradictory things; there is scarcely a single argument for it in suffragist literature that cannot be completely negatived out of suffragist literature. for example, compare the writings of miss cicely hamilton, the distinguished actress, with the publications of the pankhurst family. the former expresses a claim that, except for prejudice, a woman is as capable a citizen as a man and differing only in her sex; the latter consist of a long rhapsody upon the mystical superiorities of women and the marvellous benefits mankind will derive from handing things over to these sacred powers. the former would get rid of sex from most human affairs; the latter would make what our georgian grandfathers called "the sex" rule the world. or compare, say, the dark coquettings of miss elizabeth robins' "woman's secret" with the virile common sense of that most brilliant young writer, miss rebecca west, in her bitter onslaught on feminine limitations in the opening chapters of "the world's worst failure." the former is an extravagance of sexual mysticism. man can never understand women. women always hide deep and wonderful things away beyond masculine discovery. men do not even suspect. some day, perhaps--it is someone peeping from behind a curtain, and inviting men in provocative tones to come and play catch in a darkened harem. the latter is like some gallant soldier cursing his silly accoutrements. it is a hearty outbreak against that apparent necessity for elegance and sexual specialisation that undercuts so much feminine achievement, that reduces so much feminine art and writing to vapidity, and holds back women from the face of danger and brave and horrible deaths. it is west to miss robins' east. and yet i believe i am right in saying that all these four women writers have jostled one another upon suffrage platforms, and that they all suffered blows and injuries in the same cause, during the various riots and conflicts that occurred in london in the course of the great agitation. it was only when the agitation of the pankhurst family, aided by miss robins' remarkable book "where are you going to ...?" took a form that threatened to impose the most extraordinary restrictions on the free movements of women, and to establish a sort of universal purdah of hostility and suspicion against those degraded creatures, those stealers and destroyers of women, "the men," that the british feminist movement displayed any tendency to dissociate into its opposed and divergent strands. it is a little detail, but a very significant one in this connection, that the committee that organised the various great suffrage processions in london were torn by dispute about the dresses of the processionists. it was urged that a "masculine style of costume" discredited the movement, and women were urged to dress with a maximum of feminine charm. many women obtained finery they could ill afford, to take part in these demonstrations, and minced their steps as womanly as possible to freedom.... it would be easy to overstate the efflorescence of distinctively feminine emotion, dressiness, mysticism, and vanity upon the suffrage movement. those things showed for anyone to see. this was the froth of the whirlpool. what did not show was the tremendous development of the sense of solidarity among women. everybody knew that women had been hitting policemen at westminster; it was not nearly so showy a fact that women of title, working women, domestic servants, tradesmen's wives, professional workers, had all been meeting together and working together in a common cause, working with an unprecedented capacity and an unprecedented disregard of social barriers. one noted the nonsensical by-play of the movement; the way in which women were accustoming themselves to higher standards of achievement was not so immediately noticeable. that a small number of women were apparently bent on rendering the vote impossible by a campaign of violence and malicious mischief very completely masked the fact that a very great number of girls and young women no longer considered it seemly to hang about at home trying by a few crude inducements to tempt men to marry them, but were setting out very seriously and capably to master the young man's way of finding a place for oneself in the world. beneath the dust and noise realities were coming about that the dust and noise entirely failed to represent. we know that some women were shrieking for the vote; we did not realise that a generation of women was qualifying for it. the war came, the jolt of an earthquake, to throw things into their proper relationships. the immediate result was the disappearance of the militant suffragists from public view for a time, into which the noisier section hastened to emerge in full scream upon the congenial topic of war babies. "men," those dreadful creatures, were being camped and quartered all over the country. it followed, from all the social principles known to mrs. and miss pankhurst, that it was necessary to provide for an enormous number of war babies. subscriptions were invited. statisticians are still looking rather perplexedly for those war babies; the illegitimate birth-rate has fallen, and what has become of the subscriptions i do not know. _the suffragette_ rechristened itself _britannia_, dropped the war baby agitation, and, after an interlude of self-control, broke out into denunciations, first of this public servant and then of that, as traitors and german spies. finally, it discovered a mare's nest in the case of sir edward grey that led to its suppression, and the last i have from this misleading and unrepresentative feminist faction is the periodic appearance of a little ill-printed sheet of abuse about the chief foreign office people, resembling in manner and appearance the sort of denunciatory letter, at once suggestive and evasive, that might be written by the curate's discharged cook. and with that the aggressive section of the suffragist movement seems to have petered out, leaving the broad reality of feminine emancipation to go on in a beneficent silence. there can be no question that the behaviour of the great mass of women in great britain has not simply exceeded expectation but hope. and there can be as little doubt that the suffrage question, in spite of the self-advertising violence of its extravagant section, did contribute very materially to build up the confidence, the willingness to undertake responsibility and face hardship, that has been so abundantly displayed by every class of woman. it is not simply that there has been enough women and to spare for hospital work and every sort of relief and charitable service; that sort of thing has been done before, that was in the tradition of womanhood. it is that at every sort of occupation, clerking, shop-keeping, railway work, automobile driving, agricultural work, police work, they have been found efficient beyond precedent and intelligent beyond precedent. and in the munition factories, in the handling of heavy and often difficult machinery, and in adaptability and inventiveness and enthusiasm and steadfastness their achievement has been astonishing. more particularly in relation to intricate mechanical work is their record remarkable and unexpected. there is scarcely a point where women, having been given a chance, have not more than made good. they have revolutionised the estimate of their economic importance, and it is scarcely too much to say that when, in the long run, the military strength of the allies bears down the strength of germany, it will be this superiority of our women which enables us to pit a woman at--the censorship will object to exact geography upon this point--against a man at essen which has tipped the balance of this war. those women have won the vote. not the most frantic outbursts of militancy after this war can prevent them getting it. the girls who have faced death and wounds so gallantly in our cordite factories--there is a not inconsiderable list of dead and wounded from those places--have killed for ever the poor argument that women should not vote because they had no military value. indeed, they have killed every argument against their subjection. and while they do these things, that paragon of the virtues of the old type, that miracle of domestic obedience, the german _haus-frau_, the faithful gretchen, riots for butter. and as i have before remarked, the germans counted on the suffragettes as one of the great forces that were to paralyse england in this war. it is not simply that the british women have so bountifully produced intelligence and industry; that does not begin their record. they have been willing to go dowdy. the mass of women in great britain are wearing the clothes of . in every girl and woman one saw in the streets of london had an air of doing her best to keep in the fashion. now they are for the most part as carelessly dressed as a busy business man or a clever young student might have been. they are none the less pretty for that, and far more beautiful. but the fashions have floated away to absurdity. every now and then through the austere bustle of london in war time drifts a last practitioner of the "eternal feminine"--with the air of a foreign visitor, with the air of devotion to some peculiar cult. she has very high-heeled boots; she shows a leg, she has a short skirt with a peculiar hang, due no doubt to mysteries about the waist; she wears a comic little hat over one brow; there is something of columbine about her, something of the watteau shepherdess, something of a vivandiere, something of every age but the present age. her face, subject to the strange dictates of the mode, is smooth like the back of a spoon, with small features and little whisker-like curls before the ears such as butcher-boys used to wear half a century ago. even so, she dare not do this thing alone. something in khaki is with her, to justify her. you are to understand that this strange rig is for seeing him off or giving him a good time during his leave. sometimes she is quite elderly, sometimes nothing khaki is to be got, and the pretence that this is desired of her wears thin. still, the type will out. she does not pass with impunity, the last exponent of true feminine charm. the vulgar, the street boy, have evolved one of those strange sayings that have the air of being fragments from some lost and forgotten chant: "she's the army contractor's only daughter, spending it now." or simply, "spending it now." she does not pass with impunity, but she passes. she makes her stilted passage across the arena upon which the new womanhood of western europe shows its worth. it is an exit. there is likely to be something like a truce in the fashions throughout europe for some years. it is in america if anywhere that the holy fires of smartness and the fashion will be kept alive.... and so we come to prophecy. i do not believe that this invasion by women of a hundred employments hitherto closed to them is a temporary arrangement that will be reversed after the war. it is a thing that was going on, very slowly, it is true, and against much prejudice and opposition, before the war, but it was going on; it is in the nature of things. these women no doubt enter these employments as substitutes, but not usually as inferior substitutes; in quite a number of cases they are as good as men, and in many they are not underselling, they are drawing men's pay. what reason is there to suppose that they will relapse into a state of superfluous energy after the war? the war has merely brought about, with the rapidity of a landslide, a state of affairs for which the world was ripe. the world after the war will have to adjust itself to this extension of women's employment, and to this increase in the proportion of self-respecting, self-supporting women. contributing very largely to the establishment of this greatly enlarged class of independent women will be the great shortage for the next decade of marriageable men, due to the killing and disablement of the war. the women of the next decades will not only be able to get along economically without marriage, but they will find it much more difficult to marry. it will also probably be a period in which a rise in prices may, as it usually does, precede the compensating rise in wages. it may be that for some years it will be more difficult to maintain a family. this will be a third factor in the fixation of this class of bachelor women. various writers, brooding over the coming shortage of men, have jumped to the conclusion that polygamy is among the probabilities of the near future. they write in terms of real or affected alarm for which there is no justification; they wallow in visions of germany "legalising" polygamy, and see berlin seeking recuperation, in man power by converting herself into another salt lake city. but i do not think that germany, in the face of the economic ring that the allies will certainly draw about her, is likely to desire a very great increase in population for the next few years; i do not see any great possibility of a specially rich class capable of maintaining numerous wives being sustained by the impoverished and indebted world of europe, nor the sources from which a supply of women preferring to become constituents in a polygamous constellation rather than self-supporting freewomen is to be derived. the temperamental dislike of intelligent women to polygamy is at least as strong as a man's objection to polyandry. polygamy, open or hidden, flourishes widely only where there are women to be bought. moreover, there are considerable obstacles in religion and custom to be overcome by the innovating polygamist--even in germany. it might mean a breach of the present good relations between germany and the vatican. the relative inferiority of the tradition of the german to that of most other european women, its relative disposition towards feminine servitude, is no doubt a consideration on the other scale of this discussion, but i do not think it is one heavy enough to tilt back the beam. so far from a great number of men becoming polygamists, i think it would be possible to show cause for supposing that an increasing proportion will cease even to be monogamists. the romantic excitements of the war have produced a temporary rise in the british marriage rate; but before the war it had been falling slowly and the average age at marriage had been rising, and it is quite possible that this process will be presently resumed and, as a new generation grows up to restore the balance of the sexes, accelerated. we conclude, therefore, that this increase in the class of economically independent bachelor women that is now taking place is a permanent increase. it is probably being reinforced by a considerable number of war widows who will not remarry. we have to consider in what directions this mass of capable, intelligent, energetic, undomesticated freewomen is likely to develop, what its effect will be on social usage, and particularly how it will react upon the lives of the married women about them. because, as we have already pointed out in this chapter, the release of feminine energy upon which the feminist problem depends is twofold, being due not only to the increased unmarriedness of women through the disproportion of the sexes and the rise in the age of marriage, but also to the decreased absorption of married women in domestic duties. a woman, from the point of view of this discussion, is not "married and done for," as she used to be. she is not so extensively and completely married. her large and increasing leisure remains in the problem. the influence of this coming body of freewomen upon the general social atmosphere will be, i venture to think, liberalising and relaxing in certain directions and very bracing in others. this new type of women will want to go about freely without an escort, to be free to travel alone, take rooms in hotels, sit in restaurants, and so forth. now, as the women of the past decade showed, there are for a woman two quite antagonistic ways of going about alone. nothing showed the duplicate nature of the suffragist movement more than the great variety of deportment of women in the london streets during that time. there were types that dressed neatly and quietly and went upon their business with intent and preoccupied faces. their intention was to mingle as unobtrusively as possible into the stream of business, to be as far as possible for the ordinary purposes of traffic "men in a world of men." a man could speak to such women as he spoke to another man, without suspicion, could, for example, ask his way and be directed without being charged with annoying or accosting a delicate female. at the other extreme there was a type of young woman who came into the streets like something precious that has got loose. it dressed itself as feminine loveliness; it carried sex like a banner and like a challenge. its mind was fully prepared by the pankhurst literature for insult. it swept past distressed manhood imputing motives. it was pure hareem, and the perplexed masculine intelligence could never determine whether it was out for a demonstration or whether it was out for a spree. its motives in thus marching across the path of feminine emancipation were probably more complicated and confused than that alternative suggests, and sheer vanity abounded in the mixture. but undoubtedly that extremity is the vanishing extremity of these things. the new freewoman is going to be a grave and capable being, soberly dressed, and imposing her own decency and neutrality of behaviour upon the men she meets. and along the line of sober costume and simple and restrained behaviour that the freewoman is marking out, the married woman will also escape to new measures of freedom. i do not believe that among women of the same social origins and the same educational quality there can exist side by side entirely distinct schools of costume, deportment, and behaviour based on entirely divergent views of life. i do not think that men can be trained to differentiate between different sorts of women, sorts of women they will often be meeting simultaneously, and to treat this one with frankness and fellowship and that one with awe passion and romantic old-world gallantry. all sorts of intermediate types--the majority of women will be intermediate types--will complicate the problem. this conflict of the citizen-woman ideal with the loveliness-woman ideal, which was breaking out very plainly in the british suffrage movement before the war, will certainly return after the war, and i have little doubt which way the issue will fall. the human being is going to carry it against the sexual being. the struggle is going to be extensive and various and prolonged, but in the serious years ahead the serious type must, i feel, win. the plain, well-made dress will oust the ribbon and the decolletage. in every way the war is accelerating the emancipation of women from sexual specialisation. it is facilitating their economic emancipation. it is liberating types that will inevitably destroy both the "atmosphere of gallantry" which is such a bar to friendliness between people of opposite sexes and that atmosphere of hostile distrust which is its counterpart in the minds of the over-sexual suffragettes. it is arresting the change of fashions and simplifying manners. in another way also it is working to the same end. that fall in the birth-rate which has been so marked a feature in the social development of all modern states has become much more perceptible since the war began to tell upon domestic comfort. there is a full-cradle agitation going on in germany to check this decline; german mothers are being urged not to leave the crown prince of or without the necessary material for glory at some fresh battle of verdun. i doubt the zeal of their response. but everywhere the war signifies economic stress which must necessarily continue long after the war is over, and in the present state of knowledge that stress means fewer children. the family, already light, will grow lighter. this means that marriage, although it may be by no means less emotionally sacred, will become a lighter thing. once, to be married was a woman's whole career. household cares, a dozen children, and she was consumed. all her romances ended in marriage. all a decent man's romance ended there, too. she proliferated and he toiled, and when the married couple had brought up some of their children and buried the others, and blessed their first grandchildren, life was over. now, to be married is an incident in a woman's career, as in a man's. there is not the same necessity of that household, not the same close tie; the married woman remains partially a freewoman and assimilates herself to the freewoman. there is an increasing disposition to group solitary children and to delegate their care to specially qualified people, and this is likely to increase, because the high earning power of young women will incline them to entrust their children to others, and because a shortage of men and an excess of widows will supply other women willing to undertake that care. the more foolish women will take these releases as a release into levity, but the common sense of the newer types of women will come to the help of men in recognising the intolerable nuisance of this prolongation of flirting and charming on the part of people who have had what should be a satisfying love. nor will there be much wealth or superfluity to make levity possible and desirable. winsome and weak womanhood will be told bluntly by men and women alike that it is a bore. the frou-frou of skirts, the delicate mysteries of the toilette, will cease to thrill any but the very young men. marriage, deprived of its bonds of material necessity, will demand a closer and closer companionship as its justification and excuse. a marriage that does not ripen into a close personal friendship between two equals will be regarded with increasing definiteness as an unsatisfactory marriage. these things are not stated here as being desirable or undesirable. this is merely an attempt to estimate the drift and tendency of the time as it has been accentuated by the war. it works out to the realisation that marriage is likely to count for less and less as a state and for more and more as a personal relationship. it is likely to be an affair of diminishing public and increasing private importance. people who marry are likely to remain, so far as practical ends go, more detached and separable. the essential link will be the love and affection and not the home. with that go certain logical consequences. the first is that the circumstances of the unmarried mother will resemble more than they have hitherto done those of many married mothers; the harsh lines once drawn between them will dissolve. this will fall in with the long manifest tendency in modern society to lighten the disadvantages (in the case of legacy duties, for example) and stigma laid upon illegitimate children. and a type of marriage where personal compatibility has come to be esteemed the fundamental thing will be altogether more amenable to divorce than the old union which was based upon the kitchen and the nursery, and the absence of any care, education, or security for children beyond the range of the parental household. marriage will not only be lighter, but more dissoluble. to summarise all that has gone before, this war is accelerating rather than deflecting the stream of tendency, and is bringing us rapidly to a state of affairs in which women will be much more definitely independent of their sexual status, much less hampered in their self-development, and much more nearly equal to men than has ever been known before in the whole history of mankind.... ix. the new map of europe section in this chapter it is proposed to embark upon what may seem now, with the great war still in progress and still undecided, the most hopeless of all prophetic adventures. this is to speculate upon the redrawing of the map of europe after the war. but because the detailed happenings and exact circumstances of the ending of the war are uncertain, they need not alter the inevitable broad conclusion. i have already discussed that conclusion, and pointed out that the war has become essentially a war of mutual exhaustion. this does not mean, as some hasty readers may assume, that i foretell a "draw." we may be all white and staggering, but germany is, i believe, fated to go down first. she will make the first advances towards peace; she will ultimately admit defeat. but i do want to insist that by that time every belligerent, and not simply germany, will be exhausted to a pitch of extreme reasonableness. there will be no power left as germany was left in , in a state of "freshness" and a dictatorial attitude. that is to say they will all be gravitating, not to triumphs, but to such a settlement as seems to promise the maximum of equilibrium in the future. if towards the end of the war the united states should decide, after all, to abandon their present attitude of superior comment and throw their weight in favour of such a settlement as would make the recrudescence of militarism impossible, the general exhaustion may give america a relative importance far beyond any influence she could exert at the present time. in the end, america may have the power to insist upon almost vital conditions in the settlement; though whether she will have the imaginative force and will is, of course, quite another question. and before i go on to speculate about the actual settlement, there are one or two generalisations that it may be interesting to try over. law is a thin wash that we paint over the firm outlines of reality, and the treaties and agreements of emperors and kings and statesmen have little of the permanence of certain more fundamental human realities. i was looking the other day at sir mark sykes' "the caliph's inheritance," which contains a series of coloured maps of the political boundaries of south-western asia for the last three thousand years. the shapes and colours come and go--now it is persia, now it is macedonia, now the eastern empire, now the arab, now the turk who is ascendant. the colours change as if they were in a kaleidoscope; they advance, recede, split, vanish. but through all that time there exists obstinately an armenia, an essential persia, an arabia; they, too, advance or recede a little. i do not claim that they are eternal things, but they are far more permanent things than any rulers or empires; they are rooted to the ground by a peasantry, by a physical and temperamental attitude. apart from political maps of mankind, there are natural maps of mankind. i find it, too, in europe; the monarchs splash the water and break up the mirror in endless strange shapes; nevertheless, always it is tending back to its enduring forms; always it is gravitating back to a spain, to a gaul, to an italy, to a serbo-croatia, to a bulgaria, to a germany, to a poland. poland and armenia and egypt destroyed, subjugated, invincible, i would take as typical of what i mean by the natural map of mankind. let me repeat again that i do not assert there is an eternal map. it does change; there have been times--the european settlement of america and siberia, for example, the arabic sweep across north africa, the invasion of britain by the low german peoples--when it has changed very considerably in a century or so; but at its swiftest it still takes generations to change. the gentlemen who used to sit in conferences and diets, and divide up the world ever and again before the nineteenth century, never realised this. it is only within the last hundred years that mankind has begun to grasp the fact that one of the first laws of political stability is to draw your political boundaries along the lines of the natural map of mankind. now the nineteenth century phrased this conception by talking about the "principle of nationality." such interesting survivals of the nineteenth century as mr. c.r. buxton still talk of settling human affairs by that "principle." but unhappily for him the world is not so simply divided. there are tribal regions with no national sense. there are extensive regions of the earth's surface where the population is not homogeneous, where people of different languages or different incompatible creeds live village against village, a kind of human emulsion, incapable of any true mixture or unity. consider, for example, central africa, tyrone, albania, bombay, constantinople or transylvania. here are regions and cities with either no nationality or with as much nationality as a patchwork quilt has colour.... now so far as the homogeneous regions of the world go, i am quite prepared to sustain the thesis that they can only be tranquil, they can only develop their possibilities freely and be harmless to their neighbours, when they are governed by local men, by men of the local race, religion and tradition, and with a form of government that, unlike a monarchy or a plutocracy, does not crystallise commercial or national ambition. so far i go with those who would appeal to the "principle of nationality." but i would stipulate, further, that it would enormously increase the stability of the arrangement if such "nations" could be grouped together into "united states" wherever there were possibilities of inter-state rivalries and commercial friction. where, however, one deals with a region of mixed nationality, there is need of a subtler system of adjustments. such a system has already been worked out in the case of switzerland, where we have the community not in countries but cantons, each with its own religion, its culture and self-government, and all at peace under a polyglot and impartial common government. it is as plain as daylight to anyone who is not blinded by patriotic or private interests that such a country as albania, which is mono-lingual indeed, but hopelessly divided religiously, will never be tranquil, never contented, unless it is under a cantonal system, and that the only solution of the irish difficulty along the belt between ulster and catholic ireland lies in the same arrangement. then; thirdly, there are the regions and cities possessing no nationality, such as constantinople or bombay, which manifestly appertain not to one nation but many; the former to all the black sea nations, the latter to all india. disregarding ambitions and traditions, it is fairly obvious that such international places would be best under the joint control of, and form a basis of union between, all the peoples affected. now it is suggested here that upon these threefold lines it is possible to work out a map of the world of maximum contentment and stability, and that there will be a gravitation of all other arrangements, all empires and leagues and what not, towards this rational and natural map of mankind. this does not imply that that map will ultimately assert itself, but that it will always be tending to assert itself. it will obsess ostensible politics. i do not pretend to know with any degree of certainty what peculiar forms of muddle and aggression may not record themselves upon the maps of ; i do not certainly know whether mankind will be better off or worse off then, more or less civilised; but i do know, with a very considerable degree of certainty, that in a.d. there will still be a france, an ireland, a germany, a jugo-slav region, a constantinople, a rajputana, and a bengal. i do not mean that these are absolutely fixed things; they may have receded or expanded. but these are the more permanent things; these are the field, the groundwork, the basic reality; these are fundamental forces over which play the ambitions, treacheries, delusions, traditions, tyrannies of international politics. all boundaries will tend to reveal these fundamental forms as all clothing tends to reveal the body. you may hide the waist; you will only reveal the shoulders the more. you may mask, you may muffle the body; it is still alive inside, and the ultimate determining thing. and, having premised this much, it is possible to take up the problem of the peace of or , or whenever it is to be, with some sense of its limitations and superficiality. section we have already hazarded the prophecy that after a long war of general exhaustion germany will be the first to realise defeat. this does not mean that she will surrender unconditionally, but that she will be reduced to bargaining to see how much she must surrender, and what she may hold. it is my impression that she will be deserted by bulgaria, and that turkey will be out of the fighting before the end. but these are chancy matters. against germany there will certainly be the three great allies, france, russia and britain, and almost certainly japan will be with them. the four will probably have got to a very complete and detailed understanding among themselves. italy--in, i fear, a slightly detached spirit--will sit at the board. hungary will be present, sitting, so to speak, amidst the decayed remains of austria. roumania, a little out of breath through hurrying at the last, may be present as the latest ally of italy. the european neutrals will be at least present in spirit; their desires will be acutely felt; but it is doubtful if the united states will count for all that they might in the decision. such weight as america chooses to exercise--would that she would choose to exercise more!--will probably be on the side of the rational and natural settlement of the world. now the most important thing of all at this settlement will be the temper and nature of the germany with which the allies will be dealing. let us not be blinded by the passions of war into confusing a people with its government and the artificial kultur of a brief century. there is a germany, great and civilised, a decent and admirable people, masked by imperialism, blinded by the vanity of the easy victories of half a century ago, wrapped in illusion. how far will she be chastened and disillusioned by the end of this war? the terms of peace depend enormously upon the answer to that question. if we take the extremest possibility, and suppose a revolution in germany or in south germany, and the replacement of the hohenzollerns in all or part of germany by a republic, then i am convinced that for republican germany there would be not simply forgiveness, but a warm welcome back to the comity of nations. the french, british, belgians and italians, and every civilised force in russia would tumble over one another in their eager greeting of this return to sanity. if we suppose a less extreme but more possible revolution, taking the form of an inquiry into the sanity of the kaiser and his eldest son, and the establishment of constitutional safeguards for the future, that also would bring about an extraordinary modification of the resolution of the pledged allies. but no ending to this war, no sort of settlement, will destroy the antipathy of the civilised peoples for the violent, pretentious, sentimental and cowardly imperialism that has so far dominated germany. all europe outside germany now hates and dreads the hohenzollerns. no treaty of peace can end that hate, and so long as germany sees fit to identify herself with hohenzollern dreams of empire and a warfare of massacre and assassination, there must be war henceforth, open, or but thinly masked, against germany. it will be but the elementary common sense of the situation for all the allies to plan tariffs, exclusions, special laws against german shipping and shareholders and immigrants for so long a period as every german remains a potential servant of that system. whatever germany may think of the hohenzollerns, the world outside germany regards them as the embodiment of homicidal nationalism. and the settlement of europe after the war, if it is to be a settlement with the hohenzollerns and not with the german people, must include the virtual disarming of those robber murderers against any renewal of their attack. it would be the most obvious folly to stop anywhere short of that. with germany we would welcome peace to-morrow; we would welcome her shipping on the seas and her flag about the world; against the hohenzollerns it must obviously be war to the bitter end. but the ultimate of all sane european policy, as distinguished from oligarchic and dynastic foolery, is the establishment of the natural map of europe. there exists no school of thought that can claim a moment's consideration among the allies which aims at the disintegration of the essential germany or the subjugation of any germans to an alien rule. nor does anyone grudge germany wealth, trade, shipping, or anything else that goes with the politician's phrase of "legitimate expansion" for its own sake. if we do now set our minds to deprive germany of these things in their fullness, it is in exactly the same spirit as that in which one might remove that legitimate and peaceful implement, a bread knife, from the hand of a homicidal maniac. let but germany cure herself of her hohenzollern taint, and the world will grudge her wealth and economic pre-eminence as little as it grudges wealth and economic pre-eminence to the united states. now the probabilities of a german revolution open questions too complex and subtle for our present speculation. i would merely remark in passing that in great britain at least those possibilities seem to me to be enormously underrated. for our present purpose it will be most convenient to indicate a sort of maximum and minimum, depending upon the decision of germany to be entirely hohenzollern or wholly or in part european. but in either case we are going to assume that it is germany which has been most exhausted by the war, and which is seeking peace from the allies, who have also, we will assume, excellent internal reasons for desiring it. with the hohenzollerns it is mere nonsense to dream of any enduring peace, but whether we are making a lasting and friendly peace with germany or merely a sort of truce of military operations that will be no truce in the economic war against hohenzollern resources, the same essential idea will, i think, guide all the peace-desiring powers. they will try to draw the boundaries as near as they can to those of the natural map of mankind. then, writing as an englishman, my first thought of the european map is naturally of belgium. only absolute smashing defeat could force either britain or france to consent to anything short of the complete restoration of belgium. rather than give that consent they will both carry the war to at present undreamt-of extremities. belgium must be restored; her neutrality must be replaced by a defensive alliance with her two western allies; and if the world has still to reckon with hohenzollerns, then her frontier must be thrust forward into the adjacent french-speaking country so as to minimise the chances of any second surprise. it is manifest that every frontier that gives upon the hohenzollerns must henceforth be entrenched line behind line, and held permanently by a garrison ready for any treachery, and it becomes of primary importance that the franco-belgian line should be as short and strong as possible. aix, which germany has made a mere jumping-off place for aggressions, should clearly be held by belgium against a hohenzollern empire, and the fortified and fiscal frontier would run from it southward to include the grand duchy of luxembourg, with its french sympathies and traditions, in the permanent alliance. it is quite impossible to leave this ambiguous territory as it was before the war, with its railway in german hands and its postal and telegraphic service (since ) under hohenzollern control. it is quite impossible to hand over this strongly anti-prussian population to hohenzollern masters. but an englishman must needs write with diffidence upon this question of the western boundary. it is clear that all the boundaries of from aix to bale are a part of ancient history. no "as you were" is possible there. and it is not the business of anyone in great britain to redraw them. that task on our side lies between france and belgium. the business of great britain in the matter is as plain as daylight. it is to support to her last man and her last ounce of gold those new boundaries her allies consider essential to their comfort and security. but i do not see how france, unless she is really convinced she is beaten, can content herself with anything less than a strong franco-belgian frontier from aix, that will take in at least metz and saarburg. she knows best the psychology of the lost provinces, and what amount of annexation will spell weakness or strength. if she demands all alsace-lorraine back from the hohenzollerns, british opinion is resolved to support her, and to go through with this struggle until she gets it. to guess at the direction of the new line is not to express a british opinion, but to speculate upon the opinion of france. after the experience of luxembourg and belgium no one now dreams of a neutralised buffer state. what does not become french or belgian of the rhineland will remain german--for ever. that is perhaps conceivable, for example, of strassburg and the low-lying parts of alsace. i do not know enough to do more than guess. it is conceivable, but i do not think that it is probable. i think the probability lies in the other direction. this war of exhaustion may be going on for a year or so more, but the end will be the thrusting in of the too extended german lines. the longer and bloodier the job is, the grimmer will be the determination of the pledged allies to exact a recompense. if the germans offer peace while they still hold some part of belgium, there will be dealings. if they wait until the french are in the palatinate, then i doubt if the french will consent to go again. there will be no possible advantage to germany in a war of resistance once the scale of her fortunes begins to sink.... it is when we turn to the east of germany that the map-drawing becomes really animated. here is the region of great decisions. the natural map shows a line of obstinately non-german communities, stretching nearly from the baltic to the adriatic. there are poland, bohemia (with her kindred slovaks), the magyars, and the jugo-serbs. in a second line come the great and little russians, the roumanians, and the bulgarians. and here both great britain and france must defer to the wishes of their two allies, russia and italy. neither of these countries has expressed inflexible intentions, and the situation has none of the inevitable quality of the western line. except for the tsar's promise of autonomy to poland, nothing has been promised. on the western line there are only two possibilities that i can see: the aix-bale boundary, or the sickness and death of france. on the eastern line nothing is fated. there seems to be enormous scope for bargaining over all this field, and here it is that the chances of compensations and consolations for germany are to be found. let us first consider the case for poland. the way to a reunited poland seems to me a particularly difficult one. the perplexity arises out of the crime of the original partition; whichever side emerges with an effect of victory must needs give up territory if an autonomous poland is to reappear. a victorious germany would probably reconstitute the duchy of warsaw under a german prince; an entirely victorious russia would probably rejoin posen to russian poland and the polish fragment of galicia, and create a dependent polish kingdom under the tsar. neither project would be received with unstinted delight by the poles, but either would probably be acceptable to a certain section of them. disregarding the dim feelings of the peasantry, austrian poland would probably be the most willing to retain a connection with its old rulers. the habsburgs have least estranged the poles. the cracow district is the only section of poland which has been at all reconciled to foreign control; it is the most autonomous and contented of the fragments. it is doubtful how far national unanimity is any longer possible between the three polish fragments. like most english writers, i receive a considerable amount of printed matter from various schools of polish patriotism, and wide divergences of spirit and intention appear. a weak, divided and politically isolated poland of twelve or fifteen million people, under some puppet adventurer king set up between the hohenzollerns and the tsardom, does not promise much happiness for the poles or much security for the peace of the world. an entirely independent poland will be a feverish field of international intrigue--intrigue to which the fatal polish temperament lends itself all too readily; it may be a battlefield again within five-and-twenty years. i think, if i were a patriotic pole, i should determine to be a slav at any cost, and make the best of russia; ally myself with all her liberal tendencies, and rise or fall with her. and i should do my utmost in a field where at present too little has been done to establish understandings and lay the foundations of a future alliance with the czech-slovak community to the south. but, then, i am not a pole, but a western european with a strong liking for the russians. i am democratic and scientific, and the poles i have met are catholic and aristocratic and romantic, and all sorts of difficult things that must make co-operation with them on the part of russians, ruthenian peasants, czechs, and, indeed, other poles, slow and insecure. i doubt if either germany or russia wants to incorporate more poles--russia more particularly, which has all siberia over which to breed russians--and i am inclined to think that there is a probability that the end of this war may find poland still divided, and with boundary lines running across her not materially different from those of . that is, i think, an undesirable probability, but until the polish mind qualifies its desire for absolute independence with a determination to orient itself definitely to some larger political mass, it remains one that has to be considered. but the future of poland is not really separate from that of the austro-hungarian monarchy, nor is that again to be dealt with apart from that of the balkans. from danzig to the morea there runs across europe a series of distinctive peoples, each too intensely different and national to be absorbed and assimilated by either of their greater neighbours, germany or russia, and each relatively too small to stand securely alone. none have shaken themselves free from monarchical traditions; each may become an easy prey to dynastic follies and the aggressive obsessions of diplomacy. centuries of bloody rearrangement may lie before this east central belt of europe. to the liberal idealist the thought of a possible swiss system or group of swiss systems comes readily to mind. one thinks of a grouping of groups of republics, building up a united states of eastern europe. but neither hohenzollerns nor tsar would welcome that. the arm of democratic france is not long enough to reach to help forward such a development, and great britain is never sure whether she is a "crowned republic" or a germanic monarchy. hitherto in the balkans she has lent her influence chiefly to setting up those treacherous little german kings who have rewarded her so ill. the national monarchs of serbia and montenegro have alone kept faith with civilisation. i doubt, however, if great britain will go on with that dynastic policy. she herself is upon the eve of profound changes of spirit and internal organisation. but whenever one thinks of the possibilities of republican development in europe as an outcome of this war, it is to realise the disastrous indifference of america to the essentials of the european situation. the united states of america could exert an enormous influence at the close of the war in the direction of a liberal settlement and of liberal institutions.... they will, i fear, do nothing of the sort. it is here that the possibility of some internal change in germany becomes of such supreme importance. the hohenzollern imperialism towers like the black threat of a new caesarism over all the world. it may tower for some centuries; it may vanish to-morrow. a german revolution may destroy it; a small group of lunacy commissioners may fold it up and put it away. but should it go, it would at least take with it nearly every crown between hamburg and constantinople. the german kings would vanish like a wisp of smoke. suppose a german revolution and a correlated step forward towards liberal institutions on the part of russia, then the whole stage of eastern europe would clear as fever goes out of a man. this age of international elbowing and jostling, of intrigue and diplomacy, of wars, massacres, deportations _en masse_, and the continual fluctuation of irrational boundaries would come to an end forthwith. so sweeping a change is the extreme possibility. the probability is of something less lucid and more prosaic; of a discussion of diplomatists; of patched arrangements. but even under these circumstances the whole eastern european situation is so fluid and little controlled by any plain necessity, that there will be enormous scope for any individual statesman of imagination and force of will. there have recently been revelations, more or less trustworthy, of german schemes for a rearrangement of eastern europe. they implied a german victory. bohemia, poland, galicia and ruthenia were to make a habsburg-ruled state from the baltic to the black sea. the jugo-slav and the magyar were to be linked (uneasy bedfellows) into a second kingdom, also habsburg ruled; austria was to come into the german empire as a third habsburg dukedom or kingdom; roumania, bulgaria and greece were to continue as independent powers, german ruled. recently german proposals published in america have shown a disposition to admit the claims of roumania to the wallachian districts of transylvania. evidently the urgent need to create kingdoms or confederations larger than any such single states as the natural map supplies, is manifest to both sides. if germany, italy and russia can come to any sort of general agreement in these matters, their arrangements will be a matter of secondary importance to the western allies--saving our duty to serbia and montenegro and their rulers. russia may not find the german idea of a polish _plus_ bohemian border state so very distasteful, provided that the ruler is not a german; germany may find the idea still tolerable if the ruler is not the tsar. the destiny of the serbo-croatian future lies largely in the hands of italy and bulgaria. bulgaria was not in this war at the beginning, and she may not be in it at the end. her king is neither immortal nor irreplaceable. her desire now must be largely to retain her winnings in macedonia, and keep the frontier posts of a too embracing germany as far off as possible. she has nothing to gain and much to fear from roumania and greece. her present relations with turkey are unnatural. she has everything to gain from a prompt recovery of the friendship of italy and the sea powers. a friendly serbo-croatian buffer state against germany will probably be of equal comfort in the future to italy and bulgaria; more especially if italy has pushed down the adriatic coast along the line of the former venetian possessions. serbia has been overrun, but never were the convergent forces of adjacent interests so clearly in favour of her recuperation. the possibility of italy and that strange latin outlier, roumania, joining hands through an allied and friendly serbia must be very present in italian thought. the allied conception of the land route from the west and america to bagdad and india is by mont cenis, trieste, serbia and constantinople, as their north european line to india is through russia by baku. and that brings us to constantinople. constantinople is not a national city; it is now, and it has always been, an artificial cosmopolis, and constantinople and the dardanelles are essentially the gate of the black sea. it is to russia that the waterway is of supreme importance. any other power upon it can strangle russia; russia, possessing it, is capable of very little harm to any other country. roumania is the next most interested country. but roumania can reach up the danube and through bulgaria, serbia or hungary to the outer world. her greatest trade will always be with central europe. for generations the turks held thrace and anatolia before they secured constantinople. the turk can exist without constantinople; he is at his best outside constantinople; the fall of constantinople was the beginning of his decay. he sat down there and corrupted. his career was at an end. i confess that i find a bias in my mind for a russian ownership of constantinople. i think that if she does not get it now her gravitation towards it in the future will be so great as to cause fresh wars. somewhere she must get to open sea, and if it is not through constantinople then her line must lie either through a dependent armenia thrust down to the coast of the levant or, least probable and least desirable of all, through the persian gulf. the constantinople route is the most natural and least controversial of these. with the dwindling of the turkish power, the turks at constantinople become more and more like robber knights levying toll at the pass. i can imagine russia making enormous concessions in poland, for example, accepting retrocessions, and conceding autonomy, rather than foregoing her ancient destiny upon the bosphorus. i believe she will fight on along the black sea coast until she gets there. this, i think, is russia's fundamental end, without which no peace is worth having, as the liberation of belgium and the satisfaction of france is the fundamental end of great britain, and trieste-fiume is the fundamental end of italy. but for all the lands that lie between constantinople and west prussia there are no absolutely fundamental ends; that is the land of _quid pro quo_; that is where the dealing will be done. serbia must be restored and the croats liberated; sooner or later the south slav state will insist upon itself; but, except for that, i see no impossibility in the german dream of three kingdoms to take the place of austro-hungary, nor even in a southward extension of the hohenzollern empire to embrace the german one of the three. if the austrians have a passion for prussian "kultur," it is not for us to restrain it. austrian, saxon, bavarian, hanoverian and prussian must adjust their own differences. hungary would be naturally habsburg; is, in fact, now essentially habsburg, more habsburg than austria, and essentially anti-slav. her gravitation to the central powers seems inevitable. whether the polish-czech combination would be a habsburg kingdom at all is another matter. only if, after all, the allies are far less successful than they have now every reason to hope would that become possible. the gravitation of that west slav state to the central european system or to russia will, i think, be the only real measure of ultimate success or failure in this war. i think it narrows down to that so far as europe is concerned. most of the other things are inevitable. such, it seems to me, is the most open possibility in the european map in the years immediately before us. if by dying i could assure the end of the hohenzollern empire to-morrow i would gladly do it. but i have, as a balancing prophet, to face the high probability of its outliving me for some generations. it is to me a deplorable probability. far rather would i anticipate germany quit of her eagles and hohenzollerns, and ready to take her place as the leading power of the united states of europe. x. the united states, france, britain, and russia section in this chapter i propose to speculate a little about the future development of these four great states, whose destinies are likely to be much more closely interwoven than their past histories have been. i believe that the stars in their courses tend to draw these states together into a dominant peace alliance, maintaining the peace of the world. there may be other stars in that constellation, italy, japan, a confederated latin america, for example; i do not propose to deal with that possibility now, but only to dwell upon the development of understandings and common aims between france, russia, and the english-speaking states. they have all shared one common experience during the last two years; they have had an enormous loss of self-sufficiency. this has been particularly the case with the united states of america. at the beginning of this war, the united states were still possessed by the glorious illusion that they were aloof from general international politics, that they needed no allies and need fear no enemies, that they constituted a sort of asylum from war and all the bitter stresses and hostilities of the old world. themselves secure, they could intervene with grim resolution to protect their citizens all over the world. had they not bombarded algiers?... i remember that soon after the outbreak of the war i lunched at the savoy hotel in london when it was crammed with americans suddenly swept out of europe by the storm. my host happened to be a man of some diplomatic standing, and several of them came and talked to him. they were full of these old-world ideas of american immunity. their indignation was comical even at the time. some of them had been hustled; some had lost their luggage in germany. when, they asked, was it to be returned to them? some seemed to be under the impression that, war or no war, an american tourist had a perfect right to travel about in the vosges or up and down the rhine just as he thought fit. they thought he had just to wave a little american flag, and the referee would blow a whistle and hold up the battle until he had got by safely. one family had actually been careering about in a cart--their automobile seized--between the closing lines of french and germans, brightly unaware of the disrespect of bursting shells for american nationality.... since those days the american nation has lived politically a hundred years. the people of the united states have shed their delusion that there is an eastern and a western hemisphere, and that nothing can ever pass between them but immigrants and tourists and trade, and realised that this world is one round globe that gets smaller and smaller every decade if you measure it by day's journeys. they are only going over the lesson the british have learnt in the last score or so of years. this is one world and bayonets are a crop that spreads. let them gather and seed, it matters not how far from you, and a time will come when they will be sticking up under your nose. there is no real peace but the peace of the whole world, and that is only to be kept by the whole world resisting and suppressing aggression wherever it arises. to anyone who watches the american press, this realisation has been more and more manifest. from dreams of aloofness and ineffable superiority, america comes round very rapidly to a conception of an active participation in the difficult business of statecraft. she is thinking of alliances, of throwing her weight and influence upon the side of law and security. no longer a political thoreau in the woods, a sort of vegetarian recluse among nations, a being of negative virtues and unpremeditated superiorities, she girds herself for a manly part in the toilsome world of men. so far as i can judge, the american mind is eminently free from any sentimental leaning towards the british. americans have a traditional hatred of the hanoverian monarchy, and a democratic disbelief in autocracy. they are far more acutely aware of differences than resemblances. they suspect every englishman of being a bit of a gentleman and a bit of a flunkey. i have never found in america anything like that feeling common in the mass of english people that prevents the use of the word "foreigner" for an american; there is nothing to reciprocate the sympathy and pride that english and irish republicans and radicals feel for the states. few americans realise that there are such beings as english republicans. what has linked americans with the british hitherto has been very largely the common language and literature; it is only since the war began that there seems to have been any appreciable development of fraternal feeling. and that has been not so much discovery of a mutual affection as the realisation of a far closer community of essential thought and purpose than has hitherto been suspected. the americans, after thinking the matter out with great frankness and vigour, do believe that britain is on the whole fighting against aggression and not for profit, that she is honestly backing france and belgium against an intolerable attack, and that the hohenzollern empire is a thing that needs discrediting and, if possible, destroying in the interests of all humanity, germany included. america has made the surprising discovery that, allowing for their greater nearness, the british are thinking about these things almost exactly as americans think about them. they follow the phases of the war in great britain, the strain, the blunderings, the tenacity, the onset of conscription in an essentially non-military community, with the complete understanding of a people similarly circumstanced, differing only by scale and distance. they have been through something of the sort already; they may have something of the sort happen again. it had not occurred to them hitherto how parallel we were. they begin to have inklings of how much more parallel we may presently become. there is evidence of a real search for american affinities among the other peoples of the world; it is a new war-made feature of the thoughtful literature and journalists of america. and it is interesting to note how partial and divided these affinities must necessarily be. historically and politically, the citizen of the united states must be drawn most closely to france. france is the one other successful modern republic; she was the instigator and friend of american liberation. with great britain the tie of language, the tradition of personal freedom, and the strain in the blood are powerful links. but both france and britain are old countries, thickly populated, with a great and ancient finish and completeness, full of implicit relationships; america is by comparison crude, uninformed, explicit, a new country, still turning fresh soil, still turning over but half-explored natural resources. the united states constitute a modern country, a country on an unprecedented scale, being organised from the very beginning on modern lines. there is only one other such country upon the planet, and that curiously enough is parallel in climate, size, and position--russia in asia. even russia in europe belongs rather to the newness that is american than to the tradition that is european; harvard was founded more than half a century before petrograd. and when i looked out of the train window on my way to petrograd from germany, the little towns i saw were like no european towns i had ever seen. the wooden houses, the broad unmade roads, the traffic, the winter-bitten scenery, a sort of untidy spaciousness, took my mind instantly to the country one sees in the back part of new york state as one goes from boston to niagara. and the reality follows the appearance. the united states and russia are the west and the east of the same thing; they are great modern states, developing from the beginning upon a scale that only railways make possible. france and britain may perish in the next two centuries or they may persist, but there can be no doubt that two centuries ahead russia and the united states will be two of the greatest masses of fairly homogeneous population on the globe. there are no countries with whom the people of the united states are so likely to develop sympathy and a sense of common values and common interests as with these three, unless it be with the scandinavian peoples. the scandinavian peoples have developed a tendency to an extra-european outlook, to look west and east rather than southwardly, to be pacifist and progressive in a manner essentially american. from any close sympathy with germany the americans are cut off at present by the hohenzollerns and the system of ideas that the hohenzollerns have imposed upon german thought. so long as the germans cling to the tawdry tradition of the empire, so long as they profess militarism, so long as they keep up their ridiculous belief in some strange racial superiority to the rest of mankind, it is absurd to expect any co-operative feeling between them and any other great people. the american tradition is based upon the casting off of a germanic monarchy; it is its cardinal idea. these sturdy republicans did not fling out the hanoverians and their hessian troops to prepare the path of glory for potsdam. but except for the gash caused by the teutonic monarchy, there runs round the whole world a north temperate and sub-arctic zone of peoples, generally similar in complexion, physical circumstances, and intellectual and moral quality, having enormous undeveloped natural resources, and a common interest in keeping the peace while these natural resources are developed, having also a common interest in maintaining the integrity of china and preventing her development into a military power; it is a zone with the clearest prospect of a vast increase in its already enormous population, and it speaks in the main one or other of three languages, either french, russian, or english. i believe that natural sympathy will march with the obvious possibilities of the situation in bringing the american mind to the realisation of this band of common interests and of its compatibility with the older idea of an american continent protected by a monroe doctrine from any possibility of aggression from the monarchies of the old world. as the old conception of isolation fades and the american mind accustoms itself to the new conception of a need of alliances and understandings to save mankind from the megalomania of races and dynasties, i believe it will turn first to the idea of keeping the seas with britain and france, and then to this still wider idea of an understanding with the pledged allies that will keep the peace of the world. now germany has taught the world several things, and one of the most important of these lessons is the fact that the destinies of states and peoples is no longer to be determined by the secret arrangements of diplomatists and the agreements or jealousies of kings. for fifty years germany has been unifying the mind of her people against the world. she has obsessed them with an evil ideal, but the point we have to note is that she has succeeded in obsessing them with that ideal. no other modern country has even attempted such a moral and mental solidarity as germany has achieved. and good ideals need, just as much as bad ones, systematic inculcation, continual open expression and restatement. mute, mindless, or demented nations are dangerous and doomed nations. the great political conceptions that are needed to establish the peace of the world must become the common property of the mass of intelligent adults if they are to hold against the political scoundrel, the royal adventurer, the forensic exploiter, the enemies and scatterers of mankind. the french, americans, and english have to realise this necessity; they have to state a common will and they have to make their possession by that will understood by the russian people, and they have to share that will with the russian people. beyond that there lies the still greater task or making some common system of understandings with the intellectual masses of china and india. at present, with three of these four great powers enormously preoccupied with actual warfare, there is an opportunity for guiding expression on the part of america, for a real world leadership, such as may never occur again.... so far i have been stating a situation and reviewing certain possibilities. in the past half-century the united states has been developing a great system of universities and a continental production of literature and discussion to supplement the limited press and the new england literature of the earlier phase of the american process. it is one of the most interesting speculations in the world to everyone how far this new organisation of the american mind is capable of grasping the stupendous opportunities and appeals of the present time. the war and the great occasions that must follow the war will tax the mind and the intellectual and moral forces of the pledged allies enormously. how far is this new but very great and growing system of thought and learning in the united states capable of that propaganda of ideas and language, that progressive expression of a developing ideal of community, that in countries so spontaneous, so chaotic or democratic as the united states and the pledged allies must necessarily take the place of the organised authoritative _kultur_ of the teutonic type of state? as an undisguisedly patriotic englishman, i would like to see the lead in this intellectual synthesis of the nations, that _must_ be achieved if wars are to cease, undertaken by great britain. but i am bound to confess that in great britain i see neither the imaginative courage of france nor the brisk enterprise of the americans. i see this matter as a question of peace and civilisation, but there are other baser but quite as effective reasons why america, france, and great britain should exert themselves to create confidences and understandings between their populations and the russian population. there is the immediate business opportunity in russia. there is the secondary business opportunity in china that can best be developed as the partners rather than as the rivals of the russians. since the americans are nearest, by way of the pacific, since they are likely to have more capital and more free energy to play with than the pledged allies, i do on the whole incline to the belief that it is they who will yet do the pioneer work and the leading work that this opportunity demands. section if beneath the alliances of the present war there is to grow up a system of enduring understandings that will lead to the peace of the world, there is needed as a basis for such understandings much greater facility of intellectual intercourse than exists at present. firstly, the world needs a _lingua franca_; next, the western peoples need to know more of the russian language and life than they do, and thirdly, the english language needs to be made more easily accessible than it is at present. the chief obstacle to a frenchman or englishman learning russian is the difficult and confusing alphabet; the chief obstacle to anyone learning english is the irrational spelling. are people likely to overcome these very serious difficulties in the future, and, if so, how will they do it? and what prospects are there of a _lingua franca_? wherever one looks closely into the causes and determining influences of the great convulsions of this time, one is more and more impressed by the apparent smallness of the ultimate directing influence. it seems to me at least that it is a practically proven thing that this vast aggression of germany is to be traced back to a general tone of court thinking and discussion in the prussia of the eighteenth century, to the theories of a few professors and the gathering trend of german education in a certain direction. it seems to me that similarly the language teachers of to-day and to-morrow may hold in their hands the seeds of gigantic international developments in the future. it is not a question of the skill or devotion of individual teachers so much as of the possibility of organising them upon a grand scale. an individual teacher must necessarily use the ordinary books and ordinary spelling and type of the language in which he is giving instruction; he may get a few elementary instruction books from a private publisher, specially printed for teaching purposes, but very speedily he finds himself obliged to go to the current printed matter. this, as i will immediately show, bars the most rapid and fruitful method of teaching. and in this as in most affairs, private enterprise, the individualistic system, shows itself a failure. in england, for example, the choice of russian lesson books is poor and unsatisfactory, and there is either no serviceable russian-english, english-russian school dictionary in existence, or it is published so badly as to be beyond the range of my inquiries. but a state, or a group of universities, or even a rich private association such as far-seeing american, french and british business men might be reasonably expected to form, could attack the problem of teaching a language in an altogether different fashion. the difficulty in teaching english lies in the inconsistency of the spelling, and the consequent difficulties of pronunciation. if there were available an ample series of text-books, reading books, and books of general interest, done in a consistent phonetic type and spelling--in which the value of the letters of the phonetic system followed as far as possible the prevalent usage in europe--the difficulty in teaching english not merely to foreigners but, as the experiments in teaching reading of the simplified spelling society have proved up to the hilt, to english children can be very greatly reduced. at first the difficulty of the irrational spelling can be set on one side. the learner attacks and masters the essential language. then afterwards he can, if he likes, go on to the orthodox spelling, which is then no harder for him to read and master than it is for an englishman of ordinary education to read the facetious orthography of artemus ward or of the _westminster gazette_ "orfis boy." the learner does one thing at a time instead of attempting, as he would otherwise have to do, two things--and they are both difficult and different and conflicting things--simultaneously. learning a language is one thing and memorising an illogical system of visual images--for that is what reading ordinary english spelling comes to--is quite another. a man can learn to play first chess and then bridge in half the time that these two games would require if he began by attempting simultaneous play, and exactly the same principle applies to the language problem. these considerations lead on to the idea of a special development or sub-species of the english language for elementary teaching and foreign consumption. it would be english, very slightly simplified and regularised, and phonetically spelt. let us call it anglo-american. in it the propagandist power, whatever that power might be, state, university or association, would print not simply, instruction books but a literature of cheap editions. such a specialised simplified anglo-american variety of english would enormously stimulate the already wide diffusion of the language, and go far to establish it as that _lingua franca_ of which the world has need. and in the same way, the phonetic alphabet adopted as the english medium could be used as the medium for instruction in french, where, as in the british isles, canada, north and central africa, and large regions of the east, it is desirable to make an english-speaking community bi-lingual. at present a book in french means nothing to an uninstructed englishman, an english book conveys no accurate sound images to an uninstructed frenchman. on the other hand, a french book printed on a proper phonetic system could be immediately read aloud--though of course it could not be understood--by an uninstructed englishman. from the first he would have no difficulties with the sounds. and vice versa. such a system of books would mean the destruction of what are, for great masses of french and english people, insurmountable difficulties on the way to bi-lingualism. its production is a task all too colossal for any private publishers or teachers, but it is a task altogether trivial in comparison with the national value of its consequences. but whether it will ever be carried out is just one of those riddles of the jumping cat in the human brain that are most perplexing to the prophet. the problem becomes at once graver, less hopeful, and more urgent when we take up the case of russian. i have looked closely into this business of russian teaching, and i am convinced that only a very, very small number of french-and english-speaking people are going to master russian under the existing conditions of instruction. if we westerns want to get at russia in good earnest we must take up this russian language problem with an imaginative courage and upon a scale of which at present i see no signs. if we do not, then the belgians, french, americans and english will be doing business in russia after the war in the german language--or through a friendly german interpreter. that, i am afraid, is the probability of the case. but it need not be the case. will and intelligence could alter all that. what has to be done is to have russian taught at first in a western phonetic type. then it becomes a language not very much more difficult to acquire than, say, german by a frenchman. when the learner can talk with some freedom, has a fairly full vocabulary, a phraseology, knows his verb and so on, then and then only should he take up the unfamiliar and confusing set of visual images of russian lettering--i speak from the point of view of those who read the latin alphabet. how confusing it may be only those who have tried it can tell. its familiarity to the eye increases the difficulty; totally unfamiliar forms would be easier to learn. the frenchman or englishman is confronted with cop; the sound of that is sar! for those who learn languages, as so many people do nowadays, by visual images, there will always be an undercurrent toward saying "cop." the mind plunges hopelessly through that tangle to the elements of a speech which is as yet unknown. nevertheless almost all the instruction in russian of which i can get an account begins with the alphabet, and must, i suppose, begin with the alphabet until teachers have a suitably printed set of instruction books to enable them to take the better line. one school teacher i know, in a public school, devoted the entire first term, the third of a year, to the alphabet. at the end he was still dissatisfied with the progress of his pupils. he gave them russian words, of course, words of which they knew nothing--in russian characters. it was too much for them to take hold of at one and the same time. he did not even think of teaching them to write french and english words in the strange lettering. he did not attempt to write his russian in latin letters. he was apparently ignorant of any system of transliteration, and he did nothing to mitigate the impossible task before him. at the end of the term most of his pupils gave up the hopeless effort. it is not too much to say that for a great number of "visualising" people, the double effort at the outset of russian is entirely too much. it stops them altogether. but to almost anyone it is possible to learn russian if at first it is presented in a lettering that gives no trouble. if i found myself obliged to learn russian urgently, i would get some accepted system of transliteration, carefully transcribe every word of russian in my text-book into the latin characters, and learn the elements of the language from my manuscript. a year or so ago i made a brief visit to russia with a "russian self-taught" in my pocket. nothing sticks, nothing ever did stick of that self-taught russian except the words that i learnt in latin type. those i remember as i remember all words, as groups of latin letters. i learnt to count, for example, up to a hundred. the other day i failed to recognise the russian word for eleven in russian characters until i had spelt it out. then i said, "oh, of course!" but i knew it when i heard it. i write of these things from the point of view of the keen learner. some russian teachers will be found to agree with me; others will not. it is a paradox in the psychology of the teacher that few teachers are willing to adopt "slick" methods of teaching; they hate cutting corners far more than they hate obstacles, because their interest is in the teaching and not in the "getting there." but what we learners want is not an exquisite, rare knowledge of particulars, we do not want to spend an hour upon russian needlessly; we want to get there as quickly and effectively as possible. and for that, transliterated books are essential. now these may seem small details in the learning of languages, mere schoolmasters' gossip, but the consequences are on the continental scale. the want of these national text-books and readers is a great gulf between russia and her allies; _it is a greater gulf than the profoundest political misunderstanding could be_. we cannot get at them to talk plainly to them, and they cannot get at us to talk plainly to us. a narrow bridge of interpreters is our only link with the russian mind. and many of those interpreters are of a race which is for very good reasons hostile to russia. an abundant cheap supply, firstly, of english and french books, _in_ english and french, but in the russian character, by means of which russians may rapidly learn french and english--for it is quite a fable that these languages are known and used in russia below the level of the court and aristocracy--and, secondly, of russian books in the latin (or some easy phonetic development of the latin) type, will do more to facilitate interchange and intercourse between russia and france, america and britain, and so consolidate the present alliance than almost any other single thing. but that supply will not be a paying thing to provide; if it is left to publishers or private language teachers or any form of private enterprise it will never be provided. it is a necessary public undertaking. but because a thing is necessary it does not follow that it will be achieved. bread may be necessary to a starving man, but there is always the alternative that he will starve. france, which is most accessible to creative ideas, is least interested in this particular matter. great britain is still heavily conservative. it is idle to ignore the forces still entrenched in the established church, in the universities and the great schools, that stand for an irrational resistance to all new things. american universities are comparatively youthful and sometimes quite surprisingly innovating, and america is the country of the adventurous millionaire. there has been evidence in several american papers that have reached me recently of a disposition to get ahead with russia and cut out the germans (and incidentally the british). amidst the cross-currents and overlappings of this extraordinary time, it seems to me highly probable that america may lead in this vitally important effort to promote international understanding. xi. "the white man's burthen" one of the most curious aspects of the british "pacifist" is his willingness to give over great blocks of the black and coloured races to the hohenzollerns to exploit and experiment upon. i myself being something of a pacifist, and doing what i can, in my corner, to bring about the peace of the world, the peace of the world triumphant and armed against every disturber, could the more readily sympathise with the passive school of pacifists if its proposals involved the idea that england should keep to england and germany to germany. my political ideal is the united states of the world, a union of states whose state boundaries are determined by what i have defined as the natural map of mankind. i cannot understand those pacifists who talk about the german right to "expansion," and babble about a return of her justly lost colonies. that seems to me not pacificism but patriotic inversion. this large disposition to hand over our fellow-creatures to a teutonic educational system, with "frightfulness" in reserve, to "efficiency" on wittenberg lines, leaves me--hot. the ghosts of the thirst-tormented hereros rise up in their thousands from the african dust, protesting. this talk of "legitimate expansion" is indeed now only an exploiter's cant. the age of "expansion," the age of european "empires" is near its end. no one who can read the signs of the times in japan, in india, in china, can doubt it. it ended in america a hundred years ago; it is ending now in asia; it will end last in africa, and even in africa the end draws near. spain has but led the way which other "empires" must follow. look at her empire in the atlases of . she fell down the steps violently and painfully, it is true--but they are difficult to descend. no sane man, german or anti-german, who has weighed the prospects of the new age, will be desirous of a restoration of the now vanished german colonial empire, vindictive, intriguing, and unscrupulous, a mere series of centres of attack upon adjacent territory, to complicate the immense disentanglements and readjustments that lie already before the french and british and italians. directly we discuss the problem of the absolutely necessary permanent alliance that this war has forced upon at least france, belgium, britain and russia, this problem of the "empires" faces us. what are these allies going to do about their "subject races"? what is the world going to do about the "subject races"? it is a matter in which the "subject races" are likely to have an increasingly important voice of their own. we europeans may discuss their fate to-day among ourselves; we shall be discussing it with them to-morrow. if we do not agree with them then, they will take their fates in their own hands in spite of us. long before a.d. there will be no such thing as a "subject race" in all the world. here again we find ourselves asking just that same difficult question of more or less, that arises at every cardinal point of our review of the probable future. how far is this thing going to be done finely; how far is it going to be done cunningly and basely? how far will greatness of mind, how far will imaginative generosity, prevail over the jealous and pettifogging spirit that lurks in every human being? are french and british and belgians and italians, for example, going to help each other in africa, or are they going to work against and cheat each other? is the russian seeking only a necessary outlet to the seas of the world, or has he dreams of delhi? here again, as in all these questions, personal idiosyncrasy comes in; i am strongly disposed to trust the good in the russian. but apart from this uncertain question of generosity, there are in this case two powerful forces that make against disputes, secret disloyalties, and meanness. one is that germany will certainly be still dangerous at the end of the war, and the second is that the gap in education, in efficiency, in national feeling and courage of outlook, between the european and the great asiatic and african communities, is rapidly diminishing. if the europeans squabble much more for world ascendancy, there will be no world ascendancy for them to squabble for. we have still no means of measuring the relative enfeeblement of europe in comparison with asia already produced by this war. as it is, certain things are so inevitable--the integration of a modernised bengal, of china, and of egypt, for example--that the question before us is practically reduced to whether this restoration of the subject peoples will be done with the european's aid and goodwill, or whether it will be done against him. that it will be done in some manner or other is certain. the days of suppression are over. they know it in every country where white and brown and yellow mingle. if the pledged allies are not disposed to let in light to their subject peoples and prepare for the days of world equality that are coming, the germans will. if the germans fail to be the most enslaving of people, they may become the most liberating. they will set themselves, with their characteristic thoroughness, to destroy that magic "prestige" which in asia particularly is the clue to the miracle of european ascendancy. in the long run that may prove no ill service to mankind. the european must prepare to make himself acceptable in asia, to state his case to asia and be understood by asia, or to leave asia. that is the blunt reality of the asiatic situation. it has already been pointed out in these chapters that if the alliance of the pledged allies is indeed to be permanent, it implies something in the nature of a zollverein, a common policy towards the rest of the world and an arrangement involving a common control over the dependencies of all the allies. it will be interesting, now that we have sketched a possible map of europe after the war, to look a little more closely into the nature of the "empires" concerned, and to attempt a few broad details of the probable map of the eastern hemisphere outside europe in the years immediately to come. now there are, roughly speaking, three types of overseas "possessions." they may be either ( ) territory that was originally practically unoccupied and that was settled by the imperial people, or ( ) territory with a barbaric population having no national idea, or ( ) conquered states. in the case of the british empire all three are present; in the case of the french only the second and third; in the case of the russian only the first and third. each of these types must necessarily follow its own system of developments. take first those territories originally but thinly occupied, or not occupied at all, of which all or at least the dominant element of the population is akin to that of the "home country." these used to be called by the british "colonies"--though the "colonies" of greece and rome were really only garrison cities settled in foreign lands--and they are now being rechristened "dominions." australia, for instance, is a british dominion, and siberia and most of russia in asia, a russian dominion. their manifest destiny is for their children to become equal citizens with the cousins and brothers they have left at home. there has been much discussion in england during the last decade upon some modification of the british legislature that would admit representatives from the dominions to a proportional share in the government of the empire. the problem has been complicated by the unsettled status of ireland and the mischief-making tories there, and by the perplexities arising out of those british dependencies of non-british race--the indian states, for example, whose interests are sometimes in conflict with those of the dominions. the attractiveness of the idea of an imperial legislature is chiefly on the surface, and i have very strong doubts of its realisability. these dominions seem rather to tend to become independent and distinct sovereign states in close and affectionate alliance with great britain, and having a common interest in the british navy. in many ways the interests of the dominions are more divergent from those of great britain than are great britain and russia, or great britain and france. many of the interests of canada are more closely bound to those of the united states than they are to those of australasia, in such a matter as the maintenance of the monroe principle, for example. south africa again takes a line with regard to british indian subjects which is highly embarrassing to great britain. there is a tendency in all the british colonies to read american books and periodicals rather than british, if for no other reason than because their common life, life in a newish and very democratic land, is much more american than british in character. on the other hand, one must remember that great britain has european interests--the integrity of holland and belgium is a case in point--which are much closer to the interests of france than they are to those of the younger britains beyond the seas. a voice in an alliance that included france and the united states, and had its chief common interest in the control of the seas, may in the future seem far more desirable to these great and growing english-speaking dominions than the sending of representatives to an imperial house of lords at westminster, and the adornment of elderly colonial politicians with titles and decorations at buckingham palace. i think great britain and her allies have all of them to prepare their minds for a certain release of their grip upon their "possessions," if they wish to build up a larger unity; i do not see that any secure unanimity of purpose is possible without such releases and readjustments. now the next class of foreign "possession" is that in which the french and belgians and italians are most interested. britain also has possessions of this type in central africa and the less civilised districts of india, but russia has scarcely anything of the sort. in this second class of possession the population is numerous, barbaric, and incapable of any large or enduring political structure, and over its destinies rule a small minority of european administrators. the greatest of this series of possessions are those in black africa. the french imagination has taken a very strong hold of the idea of a great french-speaking west and central africa, with which the ordinary british citizen will only too gladly see the conquered german colonies incorporated. the italians have a parallel field of development in the hinterland of tripoli. side by side, france, belgium and italy, no longer troubled by hostile intrigues, may very well set themselves in the future to the task of building up a congenial latin civilisation out of the tribal confusions of these vast regions. they will, i am convinced, do far better than the english in this domain. the english-speaking peoples have been perhaps the most successful _settlers_ in the world; the united states and the dominions are there to prove it; only the russians in siberia can compare with them; but as administrators the british are a race coldly aloof. they have nothing to give a black people, and no disposition to give. the latin-speaking peoples, the mediterranean nations, on the other hand, have proved to be the most successful _assimilators_ of other races that mankind has ever known. alexandre dumas is not the least of the glories of france. in a hundred years' time black africa, west of tripoli, from oran to rhodesia, will, i believe, talk french. and what does not speak french will speak the closely related italian. i do not see why this latin black culture should not extend across equatorial africa to meet the indian influence at the coast, and reach out to join hands with madagascar. i do not see why the british flag should be any impediment to the latinisation of tropical africa or to the natural extension of the french and italian languages through egypt. i guess, however, that it will be an islamic and not a christian cult that will be talking italian and french. for the french-speaking civilisation will make roads not only for french, belgians, and italians, but for the arabs whose religion and culture already lie like a net over black africa. no other peoples and no other religion can so conveniently give the negro what is needed to bring him into the comity of civilised peoples.... a few words of digression upon the future of islam may not be out of place here. the idea of a militant christendom has vanished from the world. the last pretensions of christian propaganda have been buried in the balkan trenches. a unification of africa under latin auspices carries with it now no threat of missionary invasion. africa will be a fair field for all religions, and the religion to which the negro will take will be the religion that best suits his needs. that religion, we are told by nearly everyone who has a right to speak upon such questions, is islam, and its natural propagandist is the arab. there is no reason why he should not be a frenchified arab. both the french and the british have the strongest interest in the revival of arabic culture. let the german learn turkish if it pleases him. through all africa and western asia there is a great to-morrow for a renascent islam under arab auspices. constantinople, that venal city of the waterways, sitting like asenath at the ford, has corrupted all who came to her; she has been the paralysis of islam. but the islam of the turk is a different thing from the islam of the arab. that was one of the great progressive impulses in the world of men. it is our custom to underrate the arab's contribution to civilisation quite absurdly in comparison with our debt to the hebrew and greek. it is to the initiatives of islamic culture, for example, that we owe our numerals, the bulk of modern mathematics, and the science of chemistry. the british have already set themselves to the establishment of islamic university teaching in egypt, but that is the mere first stroke of the pick at the opening of the mine. english, french, russian, arabic, hindustani, spanish, italian; these are the great world languages that most concern the future of civilisation from the point of view of the peace alliance that impends. no country can afford to neglect any of those languages, but as a matter of primary importance i would say, for the british, hindustani, for the americans, russian or spanish, for the french and belgians and italians, arabic. these are the directions in which the duty of understanding is most urgent for each of these peoples, and the path of opportunity plainest. the disposition to underrate temporarily depressed nations, races, and cultures is a most irrational, prevalent, and mischievous form of stupidity. it distorts our entire outlook towards the future. the british reader can see its absurdity most easily when he reads the ravings of some patriotic german upon the superiority of the "teuton" over the italians and greeks--to whom we owe most things of importance in european civilisation. equally silly stuff is still to be read in british and american books about "asiatics." and was there not some fearful rubbish, not only in german but in english and french, about the "decadence" of france? but we are learning--rapidly. when i was a student in london thirty years ago we regarded japan as a fantastic joke; the comic opera, _the mikado_, still preserves that foolish phase for the admiration of posterity. and to-day there is a quite unjustifiable tendency to ignore the quality of the arab and of his religion. islam is an open-air religion, noble and simple in its broad conceptions; it is none the less vital from nigeria to china because it has sickened in the closeness of constantinople. the french, the italians, the british have to reckon with islam and the arab; where the continental deserts are, there the arabs are and there is islam; their culture will never be destroyed and replaced over these regions by europeanism. the allies who prepare the peace of the world have to make their peace with that. and when i foreshadow this necessary liaison of the french and arabic cultures, i am thinking not only of the arab that is, but of the arab that is to come. the whole trend of events in asia minor, the breaking up and decapitation of the ottoman empire and the euphrates invasion, points to a great revival of mesopotamia--at first under european direction. the vast system of irrigation that was destroyed by the mongol armies of hulugu in the thirteenth century will be restored; the desert will again become populous. but the local type will prevail. the new population of mesopotamia will be neither european nor indian; it will be arabic; and with its concentration arabic will lay hold of the printing press. a new intellectual movement in islam, a renascent bagdad, is as inevitable as is . i have, however, gone a little beyond the discussion of the future of the barbaric possessions in these anticipations of an arabic co-operation with the latin peoples in the reconstruction of western asia and the barbaric regions of north and central africa. but regions of administered barbarism occur not only in africa. the point is that they are administered, and that their economic development is very largely in the hands, and will for many generations remain in the hands, of the possessing country. hitherto their administration has been in the interests of the possessing nation alone. their acquisition has been a matter of bitter rivalries, their continued administration upon exclusive lines is bound to lead to dangerous clashings. the common sense of the situation points to a policy of give and take, in which throughout the possessions of all the pledged allies, the citizens of all will have more or less equal civil advantages. and this means some consolidation of the general control of those administered territories. i have already hinted at the possibility that the now exclusively british navy may some day be a world-navy controlled by an admiralty representing a group of allies, australasia, canada, britain and, it may be, france and russia and the united states. to those who know how detached the british admiralty is at the present time from the general methods of british political life, there will be nothing strange in this idea of its completer detachment. its personnel does to a large extent constitute a class apart. it takes its boys out of the general life very often before they have got to their fourteenth birthday. it is not so closely linked up with specific british social elements, with political parties and the general educational system, as are the rest of the national services. there is nothing so very fantastic in this idea of a sort of world-admiralty; it is not even completely novel. such bodies as the knights templars transcended nationality in the middle ages. i do not see how some such synthetic control of the seas is to be avoided in the future. and now coming back to the "white man's burthen," is there not a possibility that such a board of marine and international control as the naval and international problems of the future may produce (or some closely parallel body with a stronger latin element), would also be capable of dealing with these barbaric "administered territories"? a day may come when tripoli, nigeria, the french and the belgian congo will be all under one supreme control. we may be laying the foundations of such a system to-day unawares. the unstable and fluctuating conferences of the allies to-day, their repeated experiences of the disadvantages of evanescent and discontinuous co-ordinations, may press them almost unconsciously toward this building up of things greater than they know. we come now to the third and most difficult type of overseas "possessions." these are the annexed or conquered regions with settled populations already having a national tradition and culture of their own. they are, to put it bluntly, the suppressed, the overlaid, nations. now i am a writer rather prejudiced against the idea of nationality; my habit of thought is cosmopolitan; i hate and despise a shrewish suspicion of foreigners and foreign ways; a man who can look me in the face, laugh with me, speak truth and deal fairly, is my brother though his skin is as black as ink or as yellow as an evening primrose. but i have to recognise the facts of the case. in spite of all my large liberality, i find it less irritating to be ruled by people of my own language and race and tradition, and i perceive that for the mass of people alien rule is intolerable. local difference, nationality, is a very obstinate thing. every country tends to revert to its natural type. nationality will out. once a people has emerged above the barbaric stage to a national consciousness, that consciousness will endure. there is practically always going to be an egypt, a poland, an armenia. there is no indian nation, there never has been, but there are manifestly a bengal and a rajputana, there is manifestly a constellation of civilised nations in india. several of these have literatures and traditions that extend back before the days when the britons painted themselves with woad. let us deal with this question mainly with reference to india. what is said will apply equally to burmah or egypt or armenia or--to come back into europe--poland. now i have talked, i suppose, with many scores of people about the future of india, and i have never yet met anyone, indian or british, who thought it desirable that the british should evacuate india at once. and i have never yet met anyone who did not think that ultimately the british must let the indian nations control their own destinies. there are really not two opposite opinions about the destiny of india, but only differences of opinion as to the length of time in which that destiny is to be achieved. many indians think (and i agree with them) that india might be a confederation of sovereign states in close alliance with the british empire and its allies within the space of fifty years or so. the opposite extreme was expressed by an old weary indian administrator who told me, "perhaps they may begin to be capable of self-government in four or five hundred years." these are the extreme liberal and the extreme tory positions in this question. it is a choice between decades and centuries. there is no denial of the inevitability of ultimate restoration. no one of any experience believes the british administration in india is an eternal institution. there is a great deal of cant in this matter in great britain. genteel english people with relations in the indian civil service and habits of self-delusion, believe that indians are "grateful" for british rule. the sort of "patriotic" self-flattery that prevailed in the victorian age, and which is so closely akin to contemporary german follies, fostered and cultivated this sweet delusion. there are, no doubt, old ladies in germany to-day who believe that belgium will presently be "grateful" for the present german administration. let us clear our minds of such cant. as a matter of fact no indians really like british rule or think of it as anything better than a necessary, temporary evil. let me put the parallel case to an englishman or a frenchman. through various political ineptitudes our country has, we will suppose, fallen under the rule of the chinese. they administer it, we will further assume, with an efficiency and honesty unparalleled in the bad old times of our lawyer politicians. they do not admit us to the higher branches of the administration; they go about our country wearing a strange costume, professing a strange religion--which implies that ours is wrong--speaking an unfamiliar tongue. they control our financial system and our economic development--on chinese lines of the highest merit. they take the utmost care of our gothic cathedrals for us. they put our dearest racial possessions into museums and admire them very much indeed. they teach our young men to fly kites and eat bird's nest soup. they do all that a well-bred people can do to conceal their habit and persuasion of a racial superiority. but they keep up their "prestige." ... you know, we shouldn't love them. it really isn't a question of whether they rule well or ill, but that the position is against certain fundamentals of human nature. the only possible footing upon which we could meet them with comfortable minds would be the footing that we and they were discussing the terms of the restoration of our country. then indeed we might almost feel friendly with them. that is the case with all civilised "possessions." the only terms upon which educated british and indians can meet to-day with any comfort is precisely that. the living intercourse of the british and indian mind to-day is the discussion of the restoration. everything else is humbug on the one side and self-deception on the other. it is idle to speak of the british occupation of india as a conquest or a robbery. it is a fashion of much "advanced" literature in europe to assume that the european rule of various asiatic countries is the result of deliberate conquest with a view to spoliation. but that is only the ugly side of the facts. cases of the deliberate invasion and spoliation of one country by another have been very rare in the history of the last three centuries. there has always been an excuse, and there has always been a percentage of truth in the excuse. the history of every country contains phases of political ineptitude in which that country becomes so misgoverned as to be not only a nuisance to the foreigner within its borders but a danger to its neighbours. mexico is in such a phase to-day. and most of the aggressions and annexations of the modern period have arisen out of the inconveniences and reasonable fears caused by such an inept phase. i am a persistent advocate for the restoration of poland, but at the same time it is very plain to me that it is a mere travesty of the facts to say that poland, was a white lamb of a country torn to pieces by three wicked neighbours, poland in the eighteenth century was a dangerous political muddle, uncertain of her monarchy, her policy, her affinities. she endangered her neighbours because there was no guarantee that she might not fall under the tutelage of one of them and become a weapon against the others. the division of poland was an outrage upon the polish people, but it was largely dictated by an entirely honest desire to settle a dangerous possibility. it seemed less injurious than the possibility of a vacillating, independent poland playing off one neighbour against another. that possibility will still be present in the minds of the diplomatists who will determine the settlement after the war. until the poles make up their minds, and either convince the russians that they are on the side of russia and bohemia against germany for evermore, or the germans that they are willing to be posenised, they will live between two distrustful enemies. the poles need to think of the future more and the wrongs of poland less. they want less patriotic intrigue and more racial self-respect. they are not only poles but members of a greater brotherhood. my impression is that poland will "go slav"--in spite of cracow. but i am not sure. i am haunted by the fear that poland may still find her future hampered by poles who are, as people say, "too clever by half." an incalculable poland cannot be and will not be tolerated by the rest of europe. and the overspreading of india by the british was in the same way very clearly done under compulsion, first lest the dutch or french should exploit the vast resources of the peninsula against britain, and then for fear of a russian exploitation. i am no apologist for british rule in india; i think we have neglected vast opportunities there; it was our business from the outset to build up a free and friendly indian confederation, and we have done not a tithe of what we might have done to that end. but then we have not done a little of what we might have done for our own country. nevertheless we have our case to plead, not only for going to india but--with the berlin papers still babbling of bagdad and beyond[ ]--of sticking there very grimly. and so too the british have a fairly sound excuse for grabbing egypt in their fear lest in its phase of political ineptitude it should be the means of strangling the british empire as the turk in constantinople has been used to strangle the russian. none of these justifications i admit are complete, but all deserve consideration. it is no good arguing about the finer ethics of the things that are; the business of sane men is to get things better. the business of all sane men in all the countries of the pledged allies and in america is manifestly to sink petty jealousies and a suicidal competitiveness, and to organise co-operation with all the intellectual forces they can find or develop in the subject countries, to convert these inept national systems into politically efficient independent organisations in a world peace alliance. if we fail to do that, then all the inept states and all the subject states about the world will become one great field for the sowing of tares by the enemy. [footnote : this was written late in february, .] so that with regard to the civilised just as with regard to the barbaric regions of the "possessions" of the european-centred empires, we come to the same conclusion. that on the whole the path of safety lies in the direction of pooling them and of declaring a common policy of progressive development leading to equality. the pattern of the united states, in which the procedure is first the annexation of "territories" and then their elevation to the rank of "states," must, with of course far more difficulty and complication, be the pattern for the "empires" of to-day--so far as they are regions of alien population. the path of the dominions, settled by emigrants akin to the home population, siberia, canada, and so forth, to equal citizenship with the people of the mother country is by comparison simple and plain. and so the discussion of the future of the overseas "empires" brings us again to the same realisation to which the discussion of nearly every great issue arising out of this war has pointed, the realisation of the imperative necessity of some great council or conference, some permanent overriding body, call it what you will, that will deal with things more broadly than any "nationalism" or "patriotic imperialism" can possibly do. that body must come into human affairs. upon the courage and imagination of living statesmen it depends whether it will come simply and directly into concrete reality or whether it will materialise slowly through, it may be, centuries of blood and blundering from such phantom anticipations as this, anticipations that now haunt the thoughts of all politically-minded men. xii. the outlook for the germans section whatever some of us among the allies may say, the future of germany lies with germany. the utmost ambition of the allies falls far short of destroying or obliterating germany; it is to give the germans so thorough and memorable an experience of war that they will want no more of it for a few generations, and, failing the learning of that lesson, to make sure that they will not be in a position to resume their military aggressions upon mankind with any hope of success. after all, it is not the will of the allies that has determined even this resolve. it is the declared and manifest will of germany to become predominant in the world that has created the alliance against germany, and forged and tempered our implacable resolution to bring militarist germany down. and the nature of the coming peace and of the politics that will follow the peace are much more dependent upon german affairs than upon anything else whatever. this is so clearly understood in great britain that there is scarcely a newspaper that does not devote two or three columns daily to extracts from the german newspapers, and from letters found upon german killed, wounded, or prisoners, and to letters and descriptive articles from neutrals upon the state of the german mind. there can be no doubt that the british intelligence has grasped and kept its hold upon the real issue of this war with an unprecedented clarity. at the outset there came declarations from nearly every type of british opinion that this war was a war against the hohenzollern militarist idea, against prussianism, and not against germany. in that respect britain has documented herself to the hilt. there have been, of course, a number of passionate outcries and wild accusations against germans, as a race, during the course of the struggle; but to this day opinion is steadfast not only in britain, but if i may judge from the papers i read and the talk i hear, throughout the whole english-speaking community, that this is a war not of races but ideas. i am so certain of this that i would say if germany by some swift convulsion expelled her dynasty and turned herself into a republic, it would be impossible for the british government to continue the war for long, whether it wanted to do so or not. the forces in favour of reconciliation would be too strong. there would be a complete revulsion from the present determination to continue the war to its bitter but conclusive end. it is fairly evident that the present german government understands this frame of mind quite clearly, and is extremely anxious to keep it from the knowledge of the german peoples. every act or word from a british source that suggests an implacable enmity against the germans as a people, every war-time caricature and insult, is brought to their knowledge. it is the manifest interest of the hohenzollerns and prussianism to make this struggle a race struggle and not merely a political struggle, and to keep a wider breach between the peoples than between the governments. the "made in germany" grievance has been used to the utmost against great britain as an indication of race hostility. the everyday young german believes firmly that it was a blow aimed specially at germany; that no such regulation affected any goods but german goods. and the english, with their characteristic heedlessness, have never troubled to disillusion him. but even the british caricaturist and the british soldier betray their fundamental opinion of the matter in their very insults. they will not use a word of abuse for the germans as germans; they call them "huns," because they are thinking of attila, because they are thinking of them as invaders under a monarch of peaceful france and belgium, and not as a people living in a land of their own. in great britain there is to this day so little hostility for germans as such, that recently a nephew of lord haldane's, sir george makgill, has considered it advisable to manufacture race hostility and provide the hohenzollerns with instances and quotations through the exertions of a preposterous anti-german league. disregarding the essential evils of the prussian idea, this mischievous organisation has set itself to persuade the british people that the germans are diabolical _as a race_. it has displayed great energy and ingenuity in pestering and insulting naturalised germans and people of german origin in britain--below the rank of the royal family, that is--and in making enduring bad blood between them and the authentic british. it busies itself in breaking up meetings at which sentiments friendly to germany might be expressed, sentiments which, if they could be conveyed to german hearers, would certainly go far to weaken the determination of the german social democracy to fight to the end. there can, of course, be no doubt of the good faith of sir george makgill, but he could do the kaiser no better service than to help in consolidating every rank and class of german, by this organisation of foolish violence of speech and act, by this profession of an irrational and implacable hostility. his practical influence over here is trivial, thanks to the general good sense and the love of fair play in our people, but there can be little doubt that his intentions are about as injurious to the future peace of the world as any intentions could be, and there can be no doubt that intelligent use is made in germany of the frothings and ravings of his followers. "here, you see, is the disposition of the english," the imperialists will say to the german pacifists. "they are dangerous lunatics. clearly we must stick together to the end." ... the stuff of sir george makgill's league must not be taken as representative of any considerable section of british opinion, which is as a whole nearly as free from any sustained hatred of the germans as it was at the beginning of the war. there are, of course, waves of indignation at such deliberate atrocities as the _lusitania_ outrage or the zeppelin raids, wittenberg will not easily be forgotten, but it would take many sir george makgills to divert british anger from the responsible german government to the german masses. that lack of any essential hatred does not mean that british opinion is not solidly for the continuation of this war against militarist imperialism to its complete and final defeat. but if that can be defeated to any extent in germany by the germans, if the way opens to a germany as unmilitary and pacific as was great britain before this war, there remains from the british point of view nothing else to fight about. with the germany of _vorwaerts_ which, i understand, would evacuate and compensate belgium and serbia, set up a buffer state in alsace-lorraine, and another in a restored poland (including posen), the spirit of the allies has no profound quarrel at all, has never had any quarrel. we would only too gladly meet that germany at a green table to-morrow, and set to work arranging the compensation of belgium and serbia, and tracing over the outlines of the natural map of mankind the new political map of europe. still it must be admitted that not only in great britain but in all the allied countries one finds a certain active minority corresponding to sir george makgill's noisy following, who profess to believe that all germans to the third and fourth generation (save and except the hanoverian royal family domiciled in great britain) are a vile, treacherous, and impossible race, a race animated by an incredible racial vanity, a race which is indeed scarcely anything but a conspiracy against the rest of mankind. the ravings of many of these people can only be paralleled by the stuff about the cunning of the jesuits that once circulated in ultra-protestant circles in england. elderly protestant ladies used to look under the bed and in the cupboard every night for a jesuit, just as nowadays they look for a german spy, and as no doubt old german ladies now look for sir edward grey. it may be useful therefore, at the present time, to point out that not only is the aggressive german idea not peculiar to germany, not only are there endless utterances of french chauvinists and british imperialists to be found entirely as vain, unreasonable and aggressive, but that german militarist imperialism is so little representative of the german quality, that scarcely one of its leading exponents is a genuine german. of course there is no denying that the germans are a very distinctive people, as distinctive as the french. but their distinctions are not diabolical. until the middle of the nineteenth century it was the fashion to regard them as a race of philosophical incompetents. their reputation as a people of exceptionally military quality sprang up in the weed-bed of human delusions between and ; it will certainly not survive this war. their reputation for organisation is another matter. they are an orderly, industrious, and painstaking people, they have a great respect for science, for formal education, and for authority. it is their respect for education which has chiefly betrayed them, and made them the instrument of hohenzollern folly. mr. f.m. hueffer has shown this quite conclusively in his admirable but ill-named book, "when blood is their argument." their minds have been systematically corrupted by base historical teaching, and the inculcation of a rancid patriotism. they are a people under the sway of organised suggestion. this catastrophic war and its preparation have been their chief business for half a century; none the less their peculiar qualities have still been displayed during that period; they have still been able to lead the world in several branches of social organisation and in the methodical development of technical science. systems of ideas are perhaps more readily shattered than built up; the aggressive patriotism of many germans must be already darkened by serious doubts, and i see no inherent impossibility in hoping that the mass of the germans may be restored to the common sanity of mankind, even in the twenty or thirty years of life that perhaps still remain for me. consider the names of the chief exponents of the aggressive german idea, and you will find that not one is german. the first begetter of nietzsche's "blond beast," and of all that great flood of rubbish about a strange superior race with whitish hair and blue eyes, that has so fatally rotted the german imagination, was a frenchman named gobineau. we british are not altogether free from the disease. as a small boy i read the history of j.r. green, and fed my pride upon the peculiar virtues of my anglo-saxon blood. ("cp.," as they say in footnotes, carlyle and froude.) it was not a german but a renegade englishman of the englishman-hating whig type, mr. houston stewart chamberlain, who carried the gobineau theory to that delirious level which claims dante and leonardo as germans, and again it was not a german but a british peer, still among us, lord redesdale, who in his eulogistic preface to the english translation of chamberlain's torrent of folly, hinted not obscurely that the real father of christ was not the jew, joseph, but a much more germanic person. neither clausewitz, who first impressed upon the german mind the theory of ruthless warfare, nor bernhardi, nor treitschke, who did as much to build up the emperor's political imagination, strike one as bearing particularly german names. there are indeed very grave grounds for the german complaint that germany has been the victim of alien flattery and alien precedents. and what after all is the prussian dream of world empire but an imitative response to the british empire and the adventure of napoleon? the very title of the german emperor is the name of an italian, caesar, far gone in decay. and the backbone of the german system at the present time is the prussian, who is not really a german at all but a germanised wend. take away the imported and imposed elements from the things we fight to-day, leave nothing but what is purely and originally german, and you leave very little. we fight dynastic ambition, national vanity, greed, and the fruits of fifty years of basely conceived and efficiently conducted education. the majority of sensible and influential englishmen are fully aware of these facts. this does not alter their resolution to beat germany thoroughly and finally, and, if germany remains hohenzollern after the war, to do their utmost to ring her in with commercial alliances, tariffs, navigation and exclusion laws that will keep her poor and powerless and out of mischief so long as her vice remains in her. but these considerations of the essential innocence of the german do make all this systematic hostility, which the british have had forced upon them, a very uncongenial and reluctant hostility. pro-civilisation, and not anti-german, is the purpose of the allies. and the speculation of just how relentlessly and for how long this ring of suspicion and precaution need be maintained about germany, of how soon the german may decide to become once more a good european, is one of extraordinary interest to every civilised man. in other words, what are the prospects of a fairly fundamental revolution in german life and thought and affairs in the years immediately before us? § in a sense every european country must undergo revolutionary changes as a consequence of the enormous economic exhaustion and social dislocations of this war. but what i propose to discuss here is the possibility of a real political revolution, in the narrower sense of the word, in germany, a revolution that will end the hohenzollern system, the german dynastic system, altogether, that will democratise prussia and put an end for ever to that secretive scheming of military aggressions which is the essential quarrel of europe with germany. it is the most momentous possibility of our times, because it opens the way to an alternative state of affairs that may supersede the armed watching and systematic war of tariffs, prohibitions, and exclusions against the central empires that must quite unavoidably be the future attitude of the pledged allies to any survival of the hohenzollern empire. we have to bear in mind that in this discussion we are dealing with something very new and quite untried hitherto by anything but success, that new germany whose unification began with the spoliation of denmark and was completed at versailles. it is not a man's lifetime old. under the state socialism and aggressive militarism of the hohenzollern regime it had been led to a level of unexampled pride and prosperity, and it plunged shouting and singing into this war, confident of victories. it is still being fed with dwindling hopes of victory, no longer unstinted hopes, but still hopes--by a sort of political bread-card system. the hopes outlast the bread-and-butter, but they dwindle and dwindle. how is this parvenu people going to stand the cessation of hope, the realisation of the failure and fruitlessness of such efforts as no people on earth have ever made before? how are they going to behave when they realise fully that they have suffered and died and starved and wasted all their land in vain? when they learn too that the cause of the war was a trick, and the russian invasion a lie? they have a large democratic press that will not hesitate to tell them that, that does already to the best of its ability disillusion them. they are a carefully trained and educated and disciplined people, it is true[ ]; but the solicitude of the german government everywhere apparent, thus to keep the resentment of the people directed to the proper quarter, is, i think, just one of the things that are indicative of the revolutionary possibilities in germany. the allied governments let opinion, both in their own countries and in america, shift for itself; they do not even trouble to mitigate the inevitable exasperation of the military censorship by an intelligent and tactful control. the german government, on the other hand, has organised the putting of the blame upon other shoulders than its own elaborately and ably from the very beginning of the war. it must know its own people best, and i do not see why it should do this if there were not very dangerous possibilities ahead for itself in the national temperament. [footnote : a recent circular, which _vorwaerts_ quotes, sent by the education officials to the teachers of frankfurt-am-main, points out the necessity of the "beautiful task" of inculcating a deep love for the house of hohenzollern (crown prince, grin and all), and concludes, "all efforts to excuse or minimise or explain the disgraceful acts which our enemies have committed against germans all over the world are to be firmly opposed by you should you see any signs of these efforts entering the schools."] it is one of the commonplaces of this question that in the past the germans have always been loyal subjects and never made a revolution. it is alleged that there has never been a german republic. that is by no means conclusively true. the nucleus of swiss freedom was the german-speaking cantons about the lake of lucerne; tell was a german, and he was glorified by the german schiller. no doubt the protestant reformation was largely a business of dukes and princes, but the underlying spirit of that revolt also lay in the german national character. the anabaptist insurrection was no mean thing in rebellions, and the history of the dutch, who are, after all, only the extreme expression of the low german type, is a history of the most stubborn struggle for freedom in europe. this legend of german docility will not bear close examination. it is true that they are not given to spasmodic outbreaks, and that they do not lend themselves readily to intrigues and pronunciamentos, but there is every reason to suppose that they have the heads to plan and the wills to carry out as sound and orderly and effective a revolution as any people in europe. before the war drove them frantic, the german comic papers were by no means suggestive of an abject worship of authority and royalty for their own sakes. the teaching of all forms of morality and sentimentality in schools produces not only belief but reaction, and the livelier and more energetic the pupil the more likely he is to react rather than accept. whatever the feelings of the old women of germany may be towards the kaiser and his family, my impression of the opinion of germans in general is that they believed firmly in empire, kaiser and militarism wholly and solely because they thought these things meant security, success, triumph, more and more wealth, more and more germany, and all that had come to them since carried on to the _n_th degree.... i do not think that all the schoolmasters of germany, teaching in unison at the tops of their voices, will sustain that belief beyond the end of this war. at present every discomfort and disappointment of the german people is being sedulously diverted into rage against the allies, and particularly against the english. this is all very well as long as the war goes on with a certain effect of hopefulness. but what when presently the beam has so tilted against germany that an unprofitable peace has become urgent and inevitable? how can the hohenzollern suddenly abandon his pose of righteous indignation and make friends with the accursed enemy, and how can he make any peace at all with us while he still proclaims us accursed? either the emperor has to go to his people and say, "we promised you victory and it is defeat," or he has to say, "it is not defeat, but we are going to make peace with these russian barbarians who invaded us, with the incompetent english who betrayed us, with all these degenerate and contemptible races you so righteously hate and despise, upon such terms that we shall never be able to attack them again. this noble and wonderful war is to end in this futility and--these graves. you were tricked into it, as you were tricked into war in --but this time it has not turned out quite so well. and besides, after all, we find we can continue to get on with these people." ... in either case, i do not see how he can keep the habitual and cultivated german hate pointing steadily away from himself. so long as the war is going on that may be done, but when the soldiers come home the hate will come home as well. in times of war peoples may hate abroad and with some unanimity. but after the war, with no war going on or any prospect of a fresh war, with every exploiter and every industrial tyrant who has made his unobtrusive profits while the country scowled and spat at england, stripped of the cover of that excitement, then it is inevitable that much of this noble hate of england will be seen for the cant it is. the cultivated hate of the war phase, reinforced by the fresh hate born of confusion and misery, will swing loose, as it were, seeking dispersedly for objects. the petty, incessant irritations of proximity will count for more; the national idea for less. the hohenzollerns and the junkers will have to be very nimble indeed if the german accomplishment of hate does not swing round upon them. it is a common hypothesis with those who speculate on the probable effects of these disillusionments that germany may break up again into its component parts. it is pointed out that germany is, so to speak, a palimpsest, that the broad design of the great black eagle and the imperial crown are but newly painted over a great number of particularisms, and that these particularisms may return. the empire of the germans may break up again. that i do not believe. the forces that unified germany lie deeper than the hohenzollern adventure; print, paper and the spoken word have bound germany now into one people for all time. none the less those previous crowns and symbols that still show through the paint of the new design may help greatly, as that weakens under the coming stresses, to disillusion men about its necessity. there was, they will be reminded, a germany before prussia, before austria for the matter of that. the empire has been little more than the first german experiment in unity. it is a new-fangled thing that came and may go again--leaving germany still a nation, still with the sense of a common fatherland. let us consider a little more particularly the nature of the mass of population whose collective action in the years immediately ahead of us we are now attempting to forecast. its social strata are only very inexactly equivalent to those in the countries of the pledged allies. first there are the masses of the people. in england for purposes of edification we keep up the legend of the extreme efficiency of germany, the high level of german education, and so forth. the truth is that the average _elementary_ education of the common people in britain is superior to that of germany, that the domestic efficiency of the british common people is greater, their moral training better, and their personal quality higher. this is shown by a number of quite conclusive facts of which i will instance merely the higher german general death-rate, the higher german infantile death-rate, the altogether disproportionate percentage of crimes of violence in germany, and the indisputable personal superiority of the british common soldier over his german antagonist. it is only when we get above the level of the masses that the position is reversed. the ratio of public expenditure upon secondary and higher education in germany as compared with the expenditure upon elementary education is out of all proportion to the british ratio. directly we come to the commercial, directive, official, technical and professional classes in germany, we come to classes far more highly trained, more alert intellectually, more capable of collective action, and more accessible to general ideas, than the less numerous and less important corresponding classes in britain. this great german middle class is the strength and substance of the new germany; it has increased proportionally to the classes above and below it, it has developed almost all its characteristics during the last half-century. at its lower fringe it comprehends the skilled and scientifically trained artisans, it supplies the brains of social democracy, and it reaches up to the world of finance and quasi-state enterprise. and it is the "dark horse" in all these speculations. hitherto this middle class has been growing almost unawares. it has been so busy coming into existence and growing, there has been so much to do since , that it has had scarcely a moment to think round the general problem of politics at all. it has taken the new empire for granted as a child takes its home for granted, and its state of mind to-day must be rather like that of an intelligent boy who suddenly discovers that his father's picturesque and wonderful speculations have led to his arrest and brought the brokers into the house, and that there is nothing for it but to turn to and take control of the family affairs. in germany, the most antiquated and the most modern of european states, the old dynastic germany of the princes and junkers has lasted on by virtue of exceptional successes and prestige into the world of steel and electricity. but their prestige has paled before the engineering of krupp; their success evaporates. a new nation awakens to self-consciousness only to find itself betrayed into apparently irreconcilable hostility against the rest of mankind.... what will be the quality of the monarch and court and junkerdom that will face this awaking new germany? the monarch will be before very long the present crown prince. the hohenzollerns have at least the merit of living quickly, and the present emperor draws near his allotted term. he will break a record in his family if he lives another dozen years. so that quite soon after the war this new disillusioned germany will be contemplating the imperial graces of the present crown prince. in every way he is an unattractive and uninspiring figure; he has identified himself completely with that militarism that has brought about the european catastrophe; in repudiating him germany will repudiate her essential offence against civilisation, and his appears to be the sort of personality that it is a pleasure to repudiate. he or some kindred regent will be the symbol of royalty in germany through all those years of maximum stress and hardship ahead. through-out the greater part of germany the tradition of loyalty to his house is not a century old. and the real german loyalty is racial and national far more than dynastic. it is not the hohenzollern over all that they sing about; it is deutschland. (and--as in the case of all imperfectly civilised people--songs of hate for foreigners.) but it needed a decadent young american to sing: "thou prince of peace, thou god of war," to the dismal rhetorician of potsdam. real emperors reconcile and consolidate peoples, for an empire is not a nation; but the hohenzollerns have never dared to be anything but sedulously national, "echt deutsch" and advocates of black-letter. they know the people they have to deal with. this new substantial middle mass of germany has never been on friendly terms with the germany of the court and the landowner. it has inherited a burgerlich tradition and resented even while it tolerated the swagger of the aristocratic officer. it tolerated it because that sort of thing was supposed to be necessary to the national success. but munich, the comic papers, herr harden, _vorwaerts_, speak, i think, for the central masses of german life far more truly than any official utterances do. they speak in a voice a little gross, very sensible, blunt, with a kind of heavy humour. that german voice one may not like, but one must needs respect it. it is, at any rate, not bombastic. it is essentially honest. when the imperial eagle comes home with half its feathers out like a crow that has met a bear; when the surviving aristocratic officers reappear with a vastly diminished swagger in the biergartens, i believe that the hitherto acquiescent middle classes and skilled artisan class of german will entirely disappoint those people who expect them to behave either with servility or sentimental loyalty. the great revolutionary impulse of the french was passionate and generous. the revolutionary impulse of germany may be even more deadly; it may be contemptuous. it may be they will not even drag emperor and nobles down; they will shove them aside.... in all these matters one must ask the reader to enlarge his perspectives at least as far back as the last three centuries. the galaxy of german monarchies that has over-spread so much of europe is a growth of hardly more than two centuries. it is a phase in the long process of the break-up of the roman empire and of the catholic system that inherited its tradition. these royalties have formed a class apart, breeding only among themselves, and attempting to preserve a sort of caste internationalism in the face of an advance in human intelligence, a spread of printing, reading, and writing that makes inevitably for the recrudescence of national and race feeling, and the increasing participation of the people in government. in russia and england these originally german dynasties are meeting the problems of the new time by becoming national. they modify themselves from year to year. the time when britain will again have a queen of british race may not be very remote. the days when the affairs of europe could be discussed at windsor in german and from a german standpoint ended with the death of queen victoria, and it is only in such improvised courts as those of greece and bulgaria that the national outlook can still be contemplated from a foreign standpoint and discussed in a foreign tongue. the age when the monarchical system made the courts of three-quarters of europe a german's fatherland has ended for ever. and with that, the last rational advantage of monarchy and royalist sentimentality disappears from the middle-class german's point of view. so it seems to me that the following conclusions about the future of germany emerge from these considerations. it is improbable that there will be any such revolution as overthrew french imperialism in ; the new prussian imperialism is closer to the tradition of the people and much more firmly established through the educational propaganda of the past half-century. but liberal forces in germany may nevertheless be strong enough to force a peace upon the hohenzollern empire so soon as any hopes of aggressive successes die away, before the utmost stage of exhaustion is reached, early in , perhaps, or at latest in . this, we suppose, will be a restrictive peace so far as germany is concerned, humiliating her and hampering her development. the german press will talk freely of a _revanche_ and the renewal of the struggle, and this will help to consolidate the pledged allies in their resolve to hold germany on every front and to retard her economic and financial recovery. the dynasty will lose prestige gradually, the true story of the war will creep slowly into the german consciousness, and the idea of a middle-class republic, like the french republic, only defensively militant and essentially pacific and industrial, will become more and more popular in the country. this will have the support of strong journalists, journalists of the harden type for example. the dynasty tends to become degenerate, so that the probability of either some gross scandals or an ill-advised reactionary movement back to absolutism may develop a crisis within a few years of the peace settlement. the mercantile and professional classes will join hands with the social democrats to remove the decaying incubus of the hohenzollern system, and germany will become a more modern and larger repetition of the third french republic. this collapse of the germanic monarchical system may spread considerably beyond the limits of the german empire. it will probably be effected without much violence as a consequence of the convergence and maturity of many streams of very obvious thought. many of the monarchs concerned may find themselves still left with their titles, palaces, and personal estates, and merely deprived of their last vestiges of legal power. the way will thus be opened for a gradual renewal of good feeling between the people of germany and the western europeans. this renewal will be greatly facilitated by the inevitable fall in the german birth-rate that the shortage and economies of this war will have done much to promote, and by the correlated discrediting of the expansionist idea. by or so the alteration of perspectives will have gone so far that historians will be a little perplexed to explain the causes of the great war. the militarist monomania of germany will have become incomprehensible; her _welt politik_ literature incredible and unreadable.... such is my reading of the german horoscope. i doubt if there will be nearly so much writing and reading about the great war in the latter half of the twentieth century as there was about napoleon at the end of the nineteenth. the great war is essentially undramatic, it has no hero, it has no great leaders. it is a story of the common sense of humanity suppressing certain tawdry and vulgar ideas and ambitions, and readjusting much that was wasteful and unjust in social and economic organisation. it is the story of how the spirit of man was awakened by a nightmare of a war lord.... the nightmare will fade out of mind, and the spirit of man, with revivified energies, will set about the realities of life, the re-establishment of order, the increase of knowledge and creation. amid these realities the great qualities of the germans mark them for a distinguished and important rôle. § the primary business of the allies is not reconciliation with germany. their primary concern is to organise a great league of peace about the world with which the american states and china may either unite or establish a permanent understanding. separate attempts to restore friendship with the germans will threaten the unanimity of the league of peace, and perhaps renew the intrigues and evils of the germanic dynastic system which this war may destroy. the essential restoration of germany must be the work of german men speaking plain sense to germans, and inducing their country to hold out its hand not to this or that suspicious neighbour but to mankind. a militarist germany is a germany self-condemned to isolation or world empire. a germany which has returned to the ways of peace, on the other hand, will be a country that cannot be kept out of the system of civilisation. the tariff wall cannot but be lowered, the watchful restrictions cannot but be discontinued against such a germany. europe is a system with its heart half used, so long as germany is isolated. the german population is and will remain the central and largest mass of people in europe. that is a fact as necessary as the indianism of india. to reconstruct modern civilisation without germany would be a colossal artificial task that would take centuries to do. it is inconceivable that germany will stand out of europeanism so long as to allow the trade routes of the world to be entirely deflected from her. her own necessities march with the natural needs of the world. so that i give the alliance for the isolation of germany at the outside a life of forty years before it ceases to be necessary through the recovered willingness of the germans to lay aside aggression. but this is not a thing to be run at too hastily. it may be easily possible to delay this national general reconciliation of mankind by an unreal effusion. there will be no advantage in forcing the feelings of the late combatants. it is ridiculous to suppose that for the next decade or so, whatever happens, any frenchmen are going to feel genial about the occupation of their north-east provinces, or any belgians smile at the memory of dinant or louvain, or the poles or serbs forgive the desolation of their country, or any english or russians take a humorous view of the treatment their people have had as prisoners in germany. so long as these are living memories they will keep a barrier of dislike about germany. nor is it probable that the ordinary german is going to survey the revised map of africa with a happy sense of relief, or blame no one but himself for the vanished prosperity of . that is asking too much of humanity. unless i know nothing of germany, germany will bristle with "denkmals" to keep open all such sores. the dislike of germany by the allied nations will be returned in the hostility of a thwarted and disappointed people. not even the neutrals will be aloof from these hostilities and resentments. the world will still, in or so, be throwing much passion into the rights and wrongs of the sinking of the _lusitania_. there will be a bitterness in the memories of this and the next generation that will make the spectacle of ardent frenchmen or englishmen or belgians or russians embracing germans with gusto--unpleasant, to say the least of it. we may bring ourselves to understand, we may bring ourselves to a cold and reasonable forgiveness, we may suppress our sir george makgills and so forth, but it will take sixty or seventy years for the two sides in this present war to grow kindly again. let us build no false hopes nor pretend to any false generosities. these hatreds can die out only in one way, by the passing of a generation, by the dying out of the wounded and the wronged. our business, our unsentimental business, is to set about establishing such conditions that they will so die out. and that is the business of the sane germans too. behind the barriers this war will have set up between germany and anti-germany, the intelligent men in either camp must prepare the ultimate peace they will never enjoy, must work for the days when their sons at least may meet as they themselves can never meet, without accusation or resentment, upon the common business of the world peace. that is not to be done by any conscientious sentimentalities, any slobbering denials of unforgettable injuries. we want no pro-german leagues any more than we want anti-german leagues. we want patience--and silence. my reason insists upon the inevitableness and necessity of this ultimate reconciliation. i will do no more than i must to injure germany further, and i will do all that i can to restore the unity of mankind. none the less is it true that for me for all the rest of my life the germans i shall meet, the german things i shall see, will be smeared with the blood of my people and my friends that the wilfulness of germany has spilt. https://archive.org/details/discoveryoffutur welliala the discovery of the future by h. g. wells [illustration] new york b. w. huebsch copyright, , by b. w. huebsch printed in u. s. a. the discovery of the future[ ] by h. g. wells [ ] a discourse delivered at the royal institution. it will lead into my subject most conveniently to contrast and separate two divergent types of mind, types which are to be distinguished chiefly by their attitude toward time, and more particularly by the relative importance they attach and the relative amount of thought they give to the future. the first of these two types of mind, and it is, i think, the predominant type, the type of the majority of living people, is that which seems scarcely to think of the future at all, which regards it as a sort of blank non-existence upon which the advancing present will presently write events. the second type, which is, i think, a more modern and much less abundant type of mind, thinks constantly and by preference of things to come, and of present things mainly in relation to the results that must arise from them. the former type of mind, when one gets it in its purity, is retrospective in habit, and it interprets the things of the present, and gives value to this and denies it to that, entirely with relation to the past. the latter type of mind is constructive in habit, it interprets the things of the present and gives value to this or that, entirely in relation to things designed or foreseen. while from that former point of view our life is simply to reap the consequences of the past, from this our life is to prepare the future. the former type one might speak of as the legal or submissive type of mind, because the business, the practice, and the training of a lawyer dispose him toward it; he of all men must constantly refer to the law made, the right established, the precedent set, and consistently ignore or condemn the thing that is only seeking to establish itself. the latter type of mind i might for contrast call the legislative, creative, organizing, or masterful type, because it is perpetually attacking and altering the established order of things, perpetually falling away from respect for what the past has given us. it sees the world as one great workshop, and the present is no more than material for the future, for the thing that is yet destined to be. it is in the active mood of thought, while the former is in the passive; it is the mind of youth, it is the mind more manifest among the western nations, while the former is the mind of age, the mind of the oriental. things have been, says the legal mind, and so we are here. the creative mind says we are here because things have yet to be. now i do not wish to suggest that the great mass of people belong to either of these two types. indeed, i speak of them as two distinct and distinguishable types mainly for convenience and in order to accentuate their distinction. there are probably very few people who brood constantly upon the past without any thought of the future at all, and there are probably scarcely any who live and think consistently in relation to the future. the great mass of people occupy an intermediate position between these extremes, they pass daily and hourly from the passive mood to the active, they see this thing in relation to its associations and that thing in relation to its consequences, and they do not even suspect that they are using two distinct methods in their minds. but for all that they are distinct methods, the method of reference to the past and the method of reference to the future, and their mingling in many of our minds no more abolishes their difference than the existence of piebald horses proves that white is black. i believe that it is not sufficiently recognized just how different in their consequences these two methods are, and just where their difference and where the failure to appreciate their difference takes one. this present time is a period of quite extraordinary uncertainty and indecision upon endless questions--moral questions, æsthetic questions, religious and political questions--upon which we should all of us be happier to feel assured and settled; and a very large amount of this floating uncertainty about these important matters is due to the fact that with most of us these two insufficiently distinguished ways of looking at things are not only present together, but in actual conflict in our minds, in unsuspected conflict; we pass from one to the other heedlessly without any clear recognition of the fundamental difference in conclusions that exists between the two, and we do this with disastrous results to our confidence and to our consistency in dealing with all sorts of things. but before pointing out how divergent these two types or habits of mind really are, it is necessary to meet a possible objection to what has been said. i may put that objection in this form: is not this distinction between a type of mind that thinks of the past and a type of mind that thinks of the future a sort of hair-splitting, almost like distinguishing between people who have left hands and people who have right? everybody believes that the present is entirely determined by the past, you say; but then everybody believes also that the present determines the future. are we simply separating and contrasting two sides of everybody's opinion? to which one replies that we are not discussing what we know and believe about the relations of past, present, and future, or of the relation of cause and effect to each other in time. we all know the present depends for its causes on the past, and the future depends for its causes upon the present. but this discussion concerns the way in which we approach things upon this common ground of knowledge and belief. we may all know there is an east and a west, but if some of us always approach and look at things from the west, if some of us always approach and look at things from the east, and if others again wander about with a pretty disregard of direction, looking at things as chance determines, some of us will get to a westward conclusion of this journey, and some of us will get to an eastward conclusion, and some of us will get to no definite conclusion at all about all sorts of important matters. and yet those who are travelling east, and those who are travelling west, and those who are wandering haphazard, may be all upon the same ground of belief and statement and amid the same assembly of proven facts. precisely the same thing, divergence of result, will happen if you always approach things from the point of view of their causes, or if you approach them always with a view to their probable effects. and in several very important groups of human affairs it is possible to show quite clearly just how widely apart the two methods, pursued each in its purity, take those who follow them. i suppose that three hundred years ago all people who thought at all about moral questions, about questions of right and wrong, deduced their rules of conduct absolutely and unreservedly from the past, from some dogmatic injunction, some finally settled decree. the great mass of people do so to-day. it is written, they say. "thou shalt not steal," for example--that is the sole, complete, sufficient reason why you should not steal, and even to-day there is a strong aversion to admit that there is any relation between the actual consequences of acts and the imperatives of right and wrong. our lives are to reap the fruits of determinate things, and it is still a fundamental presumption of the established morality that one must do right though the heavens fall. but there are people coming into this world who would refuse to call it right if it brought the heavens about our heads, however authoritative its sources and sanctions, and this new disposition is, i believe, a growing one. i suppose in all ages people in a timid, hesitating, guilty way have tempered the austerity of a dogmatic moral code by small infractions to secure obviously kindly ends, but it was, i am told, the jesuits who first deliberately sought to qualify the moral interpretation of acts by a consideration of their results. to-day there are few people who have not more or less clearly discovered the future as a more or less important factor in moral considerations. to-day there is a certain small proportion of people who frankly regard morality as a means to an end, as an overriding of immediate and personal considerations out of regard to something to be attained in the future, and who break away altogether from the idea of a code dogmatically established forever. most of us are not so definite as that, but most of us are deeply tinged with the spirit of compromise between the past and the future; we profess an unbounded allegiance to the prescriptions of the past, and we practise a general observance of its injunctions, but we qualify to a vague, variable extent with considerations of expediency. we hold, for example, that we must respect our promises. but suppose we find unexpectedly that for one of us to keep a promise, which has been sealed and sworn in the most sacred fashion, must lead to the great suffering of some other human being, must lead, in fact, to practical evil? would a man do right or wrong if he broke such a promise? the practical decision most modern people would make would be to break the promise. most would say that they did evil to avoid a greater evil. but suppose it was not such very great suffering we were going to inflict, but only some suffering? and suppose it was a rather important promise? with most of us it would then come to be a matter of weighing the promise, the thing of the past, against this unexpected bad consequence, the thing of the future. and the smaller the overplus of evil consequences the more most of us would vacillate. but neither of the two types of mind we are contrasting would vacillate at all. the legal type of mind would obey the past unhesitatingly, the creative would unhesitatingly sacrifice it to the future. the legal mind would say, "they who break the law at any point break it altogether," while the creative mind would say, "let the dead past bury its dead." it is convenient to take my illustration from the sphere of promises, but it is in the realm of sexual morality that the two methods are most acutely in conflict. and i would like to suggest that until you have definitely determined either to obey the real or imaginary imperatives of the past, or to set yourself toward the demands of some ideal of the future, until you have made up your mind to adhere to one or other of these two types of mental action in these matters, you are not even within hope of a sustained consistency in the thought that underlies your acts, that in every issue of principle that comes upon you, you will be entirely at the mercy of the intellectual mood that happens to be ascendent at that particular moment in your mind. in the sphere of public affairs also these two ways of looking at things work out into equally divergent and incompatible consequences. the legal mind insists upon treaties, constitutions, legitimacies, and charters; the legislative incessantly assails these. whenever some period of stress sets in, some great conflict between institutions and the forces in things, there comes a sorting out of these two types of mind. the legal mind becomes glorified and transfigured in the form of hopeless loyalty, the creative mind inspires revolutions and reconstructions. and particularly is this difference of attitude accentuated in the disputes that arise out of wars. in most modern wars there is no doubt quite traceable on one side or the other a distinct creative idea, a distinct regard for some future consequence; but the main dispute even in most modern wars and the sole dispute in most mediæval wars will be found to be a reference, not to the future, but to the past; to turn upon a question of fact and right. the wars of plantagenet and lancastrian england with france, for example, were based entirely upon a dummy claim, supported by obscure legal arguments, upon the crown of france. and the arguments that centered about the late war in south africa ignored any ideal of a great united south african state almost entirely, and quibbled this way and that about who began the fighting and what was or was not written in some obscure revision of a treaty a score of years ago. yet beneath the legal issues the broad creative idea has been apparent in the public mind during this war. it will be found more or less definitely formulated beneath almost all the great wars of the past century, and a comparison of the wars of the nineteenth century with the wars of the middle ages will show, i think, that in this field also there has been a discovery of the future, an increasing disposition to shift the reference and values from things accomplished to things to come. yet though foresight creeps into our politics and a reference to consequence into our morality, it is still the past that dominates our lives. but why? why are we so bound to it? it is into the future we go, to-morrow is the eventful thing for us. there lies all that remains to be felt by us and our children and all those that are dear to us. yet we marshal and order men into classes entirely with regard to the past; we draw shame and honor out of the past; against the rights of property, the vested interests, the agreements and establishments of the past the future has no rights. literature is for the most part history or history at one remove, and what is culture but a mold of interpretation into which new things are thrust, a collection of standards, a sort of bed of king og, to which all new expressions must be lopped or stretched? our conveniences, like our thoughts, are all retrospective. we travel on roads so narrow that they suffocate our traffic; we live in uncomfortable, inconvenient, life-wasting houses out of a love of familiar shapes and familiar customs and a dread of strangeness; all our public affairs are cramped by local boundaries impossibly restricted and small. our clothing, our habits of speech, our spelling, our weights and measures, our coinage, our religious and political theories, all witness to the binding power of the past upon our minds. yet we do not serve the past as the chinese have done. there are degrees. we do not worship our ancestors or prescribe a rigid local costume; we dare to enlarge our stock of knowledge, and we qualify the classics with occasional adventures into original thought. compared with the chinese we are distinctly aware of the future. but compared with what we might be, the past is all our world. the reason why the retrospective habit, the legal habit, is so dominant, and always has been so predominant, is of course a perfectly obvious one. we follow a fundamental human principle and take what we can get. all people believe the past is certain, defined, and knowable, and only a few people believe that it is possible to know anything about the future. man has acquired the habit of going to the past because it was the line of least resistance for his mind. while a certain variable portion of the past is serviceable matter for knowledge in the case of everyone, the future is, to a mind without an imagination trained in scientific habits of thought, non-existent. all our minds are made of memories. in our memories each of us has something that without any special training whatever will go back into the past and grip firmly and convincingly all sorts of workable facts, sometimes more convincingly than firmly. but the imagination, unless it is strengthened by a very sound training in the laws of causation, wanders like a lost child in the blankness of things to come and returns empty. many people believe, therefore, that there can be no sort of certainty about the future. you can know no more about the future, i was recently assured by a friend, than you can know which way a kitten will jump next. and to all who hold that view, who regard the future as a perpetual source of convulsive surprises, as an impenetrable, incurable, perpetual blankness, it is right and reasonable to derive such values as it is necessary to attach to things from the events that have certainly happened with regard to them. it is our ignorance of the future and our persuasion that that ignorance is absolutely incurable that alone gives the past its enormous predominance in our thoughts. but through the ages, the long unbroken succession of fortune-tellers--and they flourish still--witnesses to the perpetually smoldering feeling that after all there may be a better sort of knowledge--a more serviceable sort of knowledge than that we now possess. on the whole there is something sympathetic for the dupe of the fortune-teller in the spirit of modern science; it is one of the persuasions that come into one's mind, as one assimilates the broad conception of science, that the adequacy of causation is universal; that in absolute fact--if not in that little bubble of relative fact which constitutes the individual life--in absolute fact the future is just as fixed and determinate, just as settled and inevitable, just as possible a matter of knowledge as the past. our personal memory gives us an impression of the superior reality and trustworthiness of things in the past, as of things that have finally committed themselves and said their say, but the more clearly we master the leading conceptions of science the better we understand that this impression is one of the results of the peculiar conditions of our lives, and not an absolute truth. the man of science comes to believe at last that the events of the year a.d. are as fixed, settled, and unchangeable as the events of the year . only about the latter he has some material for belief and about the former practically none. and the question arises how far this absolute ignorance of the future is a fixed and necessary condition of human life, and how far some application of intellectual methods may not attenuate even if it does not absolutely set aside the veil between ourselves and things to come. and i am venturing to suggest to you that along certain lines and with certain qualifications and limitations a working knowledge of things in the future is a possible and practicable thing. and in order to support this suggestion i would call your attention to certain facts about our knowledge of the past, and more particularly i would insist upon this, that about the past our range of absolute certainty is very limited indeed. about the past i would suggest we are inclined to overestimate our certainty, just as i think we are inclined to underestimate the certainties of the future. and such a knowledge of the past as we have is not all of the same sort or derived from the same sources. let us consider just what an educated man of to-day knows of the past. first of all he has the realest of all knowledge--the knowledge of his own personal experiences, his memory. uneducated people believe their memories absolutely, and most educated people believe them with a few reservations. some of us take up a critical attitude even toward our own memories; we know that they not only sometimes drop things out, but that sometimes a sort of dreaming or a strong suggestion will put things in. but for all that, memory remains vivid and real as no other knowledge can be, and to have seen and heard and felt is to be nearest to absolute conviction. yet our memory of direct impressions is only the smallest part of what we know. outside that bright area comes knowledge of a different order--the knowledge brought to us by other people. outside our immediate personal memory there comes this wider area of facts or quasi facts told us by more or less trustworthy people, told us by word of mouth or by the written word of living and of dead writers. this is the past of report, rumor, tradition, and history--the second sort of knowledge of the past. the nearer knowledge of this sort is abundant and clear and detailed, remoter it becomes vaguer, still more remotely in time and space it dies down to brief, imperfect inscriptions and enigmatical traditions, and at last dies away, so far as the records and traditions of humanity go, into a doubt and darkness as blank, just as blank, as futurity. and now let me remind you that this second zone of knowledge outside the bright area of what we have felt and witnessed and handled for ourselves--this zone of hearsay and history and tradition--completed the whole knowledge of the past that was accessible to shakespeare, for example. to these limits man's knowledge of the past was absolutely confined, save for some inklings and guesses, save for some small, almost negligible beginnings, until the nineteenth century began. besides the correct knowledge in this scheme of hearsay and history a man had a certain amount of legend and error that rounded off the picture in a very satisfactory and misleading way, according to bishop ussher, just exactly years b.c. and that was man's universal history--that was his all--until the scientific epoch began. and beyond those limits--? well, i suppose the educated man of the sixteenth century was as certain of the non-existence of anything before the creation of the world as he was, and as most of us are still, of the practical non-existence of the future, or at any rate he was as satisfied of the impossibility of knowledge in the one direction as in the other. but modern science, that is to say the relentless systematic criticism of phenomena, has in the past hundred years absolutely destroyed the conception of a finitely distant beginning of things; has abolished such limits to the past as a dated creation set, and added an enormous vista to that limited sixteenth century outlook. and what i would insist upon is that this further knowledge is a new kind of knowledge, obtained in a new kind of way. we know to-day, quite as confidently and in many respects more intimately than we know sargon or zenobia or caractacus, the form and the habits of creatures that no living being has ever met, that no human eye has ever regarded, and the character of scenery that no man has ever seen or can ever possibly see; we picture to ourselves the labyrinthodon raising its clumsy head above the water of the carboniferous swamps in which he lived, and we figure the pterodactyls, those great bird lizards, flapping their way athwart the forests of the mesozoic age with exactly the same certainty as that with which we picture the rhinoceros or the vulture. i doubt no more about the facts in this farther picture than i do about those in the nearest. i believe in the megatherium which i have never seen as confidently as i believe in the hippopotamus that has engulfed buns from my hand. a vast amount of detail in that farther picture is now fixed and finite for all time. and a countless number of investigators are persistently and confidently enlarging, amplifying, correcting, and pushing farther and farther back the boundaries of this greater past--this prehuman past--that the scientific criticism of existing phenomena has discovered and restored and brought for the first time into the world of human thought. we have become possessed of a new and once unsuspected history of the world--of which all the history that was known, for example, to dr. johnson is only the brief concluding chapter; and even that concluding chapter has been greatly enlarged and corrected by the exploring archæologists working strictly upon the lines of the new method--that is to say, the comparison and criticism of suggestive facts. i want particularly to insist upon this, that all this outer past--this non-historical past--is the product of a new and keener habit of inquiry, and no sort of revelation. it is simply due to a new and more critical way of looking at things. our knowledge of the geological past, clear and definite as it has become, is of a different and lower order than the knowledge of our memory, and yet of a quite practicable and trustworthy order--a knowledge good enough to go upon; and if one were to speak of the private memory as the personal past, of the next wider area of knowledge as the traditional or historical past, then one might call all that great and inspiring background of remoter geological time the inductive past. and this great discovery of the inductive past was got by the discussion and rediscussion and effective criticism of a number of existing facts, odd-shaped lumps of stone, streaks and bandings in quarries and cliffs, anatomical and developmental detail that had always been about in the world, that had been lying at the feet of mankind so long as mankind had existed, but that no one had ever dreamed before could supply any information at all, much more reveal such astounding and enlightening vistas. looked at in a new way they became sources of dazzling and penetrating light. the remoter past lit up and became a picture. considered as effects, compared and criticised, they yielded a clairvoyant vision of the history of interminable years. and now, if it has been possible for men by picking out a number of suggestive and significant looking things in the present, by comparing them, criticising them, and discussing them, with a perpetual insistence upon "why?" without any guiding tradition, and indeed in the teeth of established beliefs, to construct this amazing searchlight of inference into the remoter past, is it really, after all, such an extravagant and hopeless thing to suggest that, by seeking for operating causes instead of for fossils, and by criticising them as persistently and thoroughly as the geological record has been criticised, it may be possible to throw a searchlight of inference forward instead of backward, and to attain to a knowledge of coming things as clear, as universally convincing, and infinitely more important to mankind than the clear vision of the past that geology has opened to us during the nineteenth century? let us grant that anything to correspond with the memory, anything having the same relation to the future that memory has to the past, is out of the question. we cannot imagine, of course, that we can ever know any personal future to correspond with our personal past, or any traditional future to correspond with our traditional past; but the possibility of an inductive future to correspond with that great inductive past of geology and archæology is an altogether different thing. i must confess that i believe quite firmly that an inductive knowledge of a great number of things in the future is becoming a human possibility. i believe that the time is drawing near when it will be possible to suggest a systematic exploration of the future. and you must not judge the practicability of this enterprise by the failures of the past. so far nothing has been attempted, so far no first-class mind has ever focused itself upon these issues; but suppose the laws of social and political development, for example, were given as many brains, were given as much attention, criticism, and discussion as we have given to the laws of chemical combination during the last fifty years, what might we not expect? to the popular mind of to-day there is something very difficult in such a suggestion, soberly made. but here, in this institution (the royal institution of london) which has watched for a whole century over the splendid adolescence of science, and where the spirit of science is surely understood, you will know that as a matter of fact prophecy has always been inseparably associated with the idea of scientific research. the popular idea of scientific investigation is a vehement, aimless collection of little facts, collected as a bower bird collects shells and pebbles, in methodical little rows, and out of this process, in some manner unknown to the popular mind, certain conjuring tricks--the celebrated "wonders of science"--in a sort of accidental way emerge. the popular conception of all discovery is accident. but you will know that the essential thing in the scientific process is not the collection of facts, but the analysis of facts. facts are the raw material and not the substance of science. it is analysis that has given us all ordered knowledge, and you know that the aim and the test and the justification of the scientific process is not a marketable conjuring trick, but prophecy. until a scientific theory yields confident forecasts you know it is unsound and tentative; it is mere theorizing, as evanescent as art talk or the phantoms politicians talk about. the splendid body of gravitational astronomy, for example, establishes itself upon the certain forecast of stellar movements, and you would absolutely refuse to believe its amazing assertions if it were not for these same unerring forecasts. the whole body of medical science aims, and claims the ability, to diagnose. meteorology constantly and persistently aims at prophecy, and it will never stand in a place of honor until it can certainly foretell. the chemist forecasts elements before he meets them--it is very properly his boast--and the splendid manner in which the mind of clerk maxwell reached in front of all experiments and foretold those things that marconi has materialized is familiar to us all. all applied mathematics resolves into computation to foretell things which otherwise can only be determined by trial. even in so unscientific a science as economics there have been forecasts. and if i am right in saying that science aims at prophecy, and if the specialist in each science is in fact doing his best now to prophesy within the limits of his field, what is there to stand in the way of our building up this growing body of forecast into an ordered picture of the future that will be just as certain, just as strictly science, and perhaps just as detailed as the picture that has been built up within the last hundred years of the geological past? well, so far and until we bring the prophecy down to the affairs of man and his children, it is just as possible to carry induction forward as back; it is just as simple and sure to work out the changing orbit of the earth in the future until the tidal drag hauls one unchanging face at last toward the sun as it is to work back to its blazing and molten past. until man comes in, the inductive future is as real and convincing as the inductive past. but inorganic forces are the smaller part and the minor interest in this concern. directly man becomes a factor the nature of the problem changes, and our whole present interest centers on the question whether man is, indeed, individually and collectively incalculable, a new element which entirely alters the nature of our inquiry and stamps it at once as vain and hopeless, or whether his presence complicates, but does not alter, the essential nature of the induction. how far may we hope to get trustworthy inductions about the future of man? well, i think, on the whole, we are inclined to underrate our chance of certainties in the future, just as i think we are inclined to be too credulous about the historical past. the vividness of our personal memories, which are the very essence of reality to us, throws a glamor of conviction over tradition and past inductions. but the personal future must in the very nature of things be hidden from us so long as time endures, and this black ignorance at our very feet--this black shadow that corresponds to the brightness of our memories behind us--throws a glamor of uncertainty and unreality over all the future. we are continually surprising ourselves by our own will or want of will; the individualities about us are continually producing the unexpected, and it is very natural to reason that as we can never be precisely sure before the time comes what we are going to do and feel, and if we can never count with absolute certainty upon the acts and happenings even of our most intimate friends, how much the more impossible is it to anticipate the behavior in any direction of states and communities. in reply to which i would advance the suggestion that an increase in the number of human beings considered may positively simplify the case instead of complicating it; that as the individuals increase in number they begin to average out. let me illustrate this point by a comparison. angular pit-sand has grains of the most varied shapes. examined microscopically, you will find all sorts of angles and outlines and variations. before you look you can say of no particular grain what its outline will be. and if you shoot a load of such sand from a cart you cannot foretell with any certainty where any particular grain will be in the heap that you make; but you can tell--you can tell pretty definitely--the form of the heap as a whole. and further, if you pass that sand through a series of shoots and finally drop it some distance to the ground, you will be able to foretell that grains of a certain sort of form and size will for the most part be found in one part of the heap and grains of another sort of form and size will be found in another part of the heap. in such a case, you see, the thing as a whole may be simpler than its component parts, and this i submit is also the case in many human affairs. so that because the individual future eludes us completely that is no reason why we should not aspire to, and discover and use, safe and serviceable, generalizations upon countless important issues in the human destiny. but there is a very grave and important-looking difference between a load of sand and a multitude of human beings, and this i must face and examine. our thoughts and wills and emotions are contagious. an exceptional sort of sand grain, a sand grain that was exceptionally big and heavy, for example, exerts no influence worth considering upon any other of the sand grains in the load. they will fall and roll and heap themselves just the same whether that exceptional grain is with them or not; but an exceptional man comes into the world, a cæsar or a napoleon or a peter the hermit, and he appears to persuade and convince and compel and take entire possession of the sand heap--i mean the community--and to twist and alter its destinies to an almost unlimited extent. and if this is indeed the case, it reduces our project of an inductive knowledge of the future to very small limits. to hope to foretell the birth and coming of men of exceptional force and genius is to hope incredibly, and if, indeed, such exceptional men do as much as they seem to do in warping the path of humanity, our utmost prophetic limit in human affairs is a conditional sort of prophecy. if people do so and so, we can say, then such and such results will follow, and we must admit that that is our limit. but everybody does not believe in the importance of the leading man. there are those who will say that the whole world is different by reason of napoleon. there are those who will say that the world of to-day would be very much as it is now if napoleon had never been born. other men would have arisen to make napoleon's conquests and codify the law, redistribute the worn-out boundaries of europe and achieve all those changes which we so readily ascribe to napoleon's will alone. there are those who believe entirely in the individual man and those who believe entirely in the forces behind the individual man, and for my own part i must confess myself a rather extreme case of the latter kind. i must confess i believe that if by some juggling with space and time julius cæsar, napoleon, edward iv., william the conqueror, lord rosebery, and robert burns had all been changed at birth it would not have produced any serious dislocation of the course of destiny. i believe that these great men of ours are no more than images and symbols and instruments taken, as it were, haphazard by the incessant and consistent forces behind them; they are the pen-nibs fate has used for her writing, the diamonds upon the drill that pierces through the rock. and the more one inclines to this trust in forces the more one will believe in the possibility of a reasoned inductive view of the future that will serve us in politics, in morals, in social contrivances, and in a thousand spacious ways. and even those who take the most extreme and personal and melodramatic view of the ways of human destiny, who see life as a tissue of fairy godmother births and accidental meetings and promises and jealousies, will, i suppose, admit there comes a limit to these things--that at last personality dies away and the greater forces come to their own. the great man, however great he be, cannot set back the whole scheme of things; what he does in right and reason will remain, and what he does against the greater creative forces will perish. we cannot foresee him; let us grant that. his personal difference, the splendor of his effect, his dramatic arrangement of events will be his own--in other words, we cannot estimate for accidents and accelerations and delays; but if only we throw our web of generalization wide enough, if only we spin our rope of induction strong enough, the final result of the great man, his ultimate surviving consequences, will come within our net. such, then, is the sort of knowledge of the future that i believe is attainable and worth attaining. i believe that the deliberate direction of historical study and of economic and social study toward the future and an increasing reference, a deliberate and courageous reference, to the future in moral and religious discussion, would be enormously stimulating and enormously profitable to our intellectual life. i have done my best to suggest to you that such an enterprise is now a serious and practicable undertaking. but at the risk of repetition i would call your attention to the essential difference that must always hold between our attainable knowledge of the future and our existing knowledge of the past. the portion of the past that is brightest and most real to each of us is the individual past--the personal memory. the portion of the future that must remain darkest and least accessible is the individual future. scientific prophecy will not be fortune-telling, whatever else it may be. those excellent people who cast horoscopes, those illegal fashionable palm-reading ladies who abound so much to-day, in whom nobody is so foolish as to believe, and to whom everybody is foolish enough to go, need fear no competition from the scientific prophets. the knowledge of the future we may hope to gain will be general and not individual; it will be no sort of knowledge that will either hamper us in the exercise of our individual free will or relieve us of our personal responsibility. and now, how far is it possible at the present time to speculate on the particular outline the future will assume when it is investigated in this way? it is interesting, before we answer that question, to take into account the speculations of a certain sect and culture of people who already, before the middle of last century, had set their faces toward the future as the justifying explanation of the present. these were the positivists, whose position is still most eloquently maintained and displayed by mr. frederic harrison, in spite of the great expansion of the human outlook that has occurred since comte. if you read mr. harrison, and if you are also, as i presume your presence here indicates, saturated with that new wine of more spacious knowledge that has been given the world during the last fifty years, you will have been greatly impressed by the peculiar limitations of the positivist conception of the future. so far as i can gather, comte was, for all practical purposes, totally ignorant of that remoter past outside the past that is known to us by history, or if he was not totally ignorant of its existence, he was, and conscientiously remained, ignorant of its relevancy to the history of humanity. in the narrow and limited past he recognized men had always been like the men of to-day; in the future he could not imagine that they would be anything more than men like the men of to-day. he perceived, as we all perceive, that the old social order was breaking up, and after a richly suggestive and incomplete analysis of the forces that were breaking it up he set himself to plan a new static social order to replace it. if you will read comte, or, what is much easier and pleasanter, if you will read mr. frederic harrison, you will find this conception constantly apparent--that there was once a stable condition of society with humanity, so to speak, sitting down in an orderly and respectable manner; that humanity has been stirred up and is on the move, and that finally it will sit down again on a higher plane, and for good and all, cultured and happy, in the reorganized positivist state. and since he could see nothing beyond man in the future, there, in that millennial fashion, comte had to end. since he could imagine nothing higher than man, he had to assert that humanity, and particularly the future of humanity, was the highest of all conceivable things. all that was perfectly comprehensible in a thinker of the first half of the nineteenth century. but we of the early twentieth, and particularly that growing majority of us who have been born since the origin of species was written, have no excuse for any such limited vision. our imaginations have been trained upon a past in which the past that comte knew is scarcely more than the concluding moment. we perceive that man, and all the world of men, is no more than the present phase of a development so great and splendid that beside this vision epics jingle like nursery rhymes, and all the exploits of humanity shrivel to the proportion of castles in the sand. we look back through countless millions of years and see the will to live struggling out of the intertidal slime, struggling from shape to shape and from power to power, crawling and then walking confidently upon the land, struggling generation after generation to master the air, creeping down into the darkness of the deep; we see it turn upon itself in rage and hunger and reshape itself anew; we watch it draw nearer and more akin to us, expanding, elaborating itself, pursuing its relentless, inconceivable purpose, until at last it reaches us and its being beats through our brains and arteries, throbs and thunders in our battleships, roars through our cities, sings in our music, and flowers in our art. and when, from that retrospect, we turn again toward the future, surely any thought of finality, any millennial settlement of cultured persons, has vanished from our minds. this fact that man is not final is the great unmanageable, disturbing fact that arises upon us in the scientific discovery of the future, and to my mind, at any rate, the question what is to come after man is the most persistently fascinating and the most insoluble question in the whole world. of course we have no answer. such imaginations as we have refuse to rise to the task. but for the nearer future, while man is still man, there are a few general statements that seem to grow more certain. it seems to be pretty generally believed to-day that our dense populations are in the opening phase of a process of diffusion and aeration. it seems pretty inevitable also that at least the mass of white population in the world will be forced some way up the scale of education and personal efficiency in the next two or three decades. it is not difficult to collect reasons for supposing--and such reasons have been collected--that in the near future, in a couple of hundred years, as one rash optimist has written, or in a thousand or so, humanity will be definitely and conscientiously organizing itself as a great world state--a great world state that will purge from itself much that is mean, much that is bestial, and much that makes for individual dullness and dreariness, grayness and wretchedness in the world of to-day; and although we know that there is nothing final in that world state, although we see it only as something to be reached and passed, although we are sure there will be no such sitting down to restore and perfect a culture as the positivists foretell, yet few people can persuade themselves to see anything beyond that except in the vaguest and most general terms. that world state of more vivid, beautiful, and eventful people is, so to speak, on the brow of the hill, and we cannot see over, though some of us can imagine great uplands beyond and something, something that glitters elusively, taking first one form and then another, through the haze. we can see no detail, we can see nothing definable, and it is simply, i know, the sanguine necessity of our minds that makes us believe those uplands of the future are still more gracious and splendid than we can either hope or imagine. but of things that can be demonstrated we have none. yet i suppose most of us entertain certain necessary persuasions, without which a moral life in this world is neither a reasonable nor a possible thing. all this paper is built finally upon certain negative beliefs that are incapable of scientific establishment. our lives and powers are limited, our scope in space and time is limited, and it is not unreasonable that for fundamental beliefs we must go outside the sphere of reason and set our feet upon faith. implicit in all such speculations as this is a very definite and quite arbitrary belief, and that belief is that neither humanity nor in truth any individual human being is living its life in vain. and it is entirely by an act of faith that we must rule out of our forecasts certain possibilities, certain things that one may consider improbable and against the chances, but that no one upon scientific grounds can call impossible. one must admit that it is impossible to show why certain things should not utterly destroy and end the entire human race and story, why night should not presently come down and make all our dreams and efforts vain. it is conceivable, for example, that some great unexpected mass of matter should presently rush upon us out of space, whirl sun and planets aside like dead leaves before the breeze, and collide with and utterly destroy every spark of life upon this earth. so far as positive human knowledge goes, this is a conceivably possible thing. there is nothing in science to show why such a thing should not be. it is conceivable, too, that some pestilence may presently appear, some new disease, that will destroy, not or or per cent. of the earth's inhabitants as pestilences have done in the past, but per cent.; and so end our race. no one, speaking from scientific grounds alone, can say, "that cannot be." and no one can dispute that some great disease of the atmosphere, some trailing cometary poison, some great emanation of vapor from the interior of the earth, such as mr. shiel has made a brilliant use of in his "purple cloud," is consistent with every demonstrated fact in the world. there may arise new animals to prey upon us by land and sea, and there may come some drug or a wrecking madness into the minds of men. and finally, there is the reasonable certainty that this sun of ours must radiate itself toward extinction; that, at least, must happen; it will grow cooler and cooler, and its planets will rotate ever more sluggishly until some day this earth of ours, tideless and slow moving, will be dead and frozen, and all that has lived upon it will be frozen out and done with. there surely man must end. that of all such nightmares is the most insistently convincing. and yet one doesn't believe it. at least i do not. and i do not believe in these things because i have come to believe in certain other things--in the coherency and purpose in the world and in the greatness of human destiny. worlds may freeze and suns may perish, but there stirs something within us now that can never die again. do not misunderstand me when i speak of the greatness of human destiny. if i may speak quite openly to you, i will confess that, considered as a final product, i do not think very much of myself or (saving your presence) my fellow-creatures. i do not think i could possibly join in the worship of humanity with any gravity or sincerity. think of it! think of the positive facts. there are surely moods for all of us when one can feel swift's amazement that such a being should deal in pride. there are moods when one can join in the laughter of democritus; and they would come oftener were not the spectacle of human littleness so abundantly shot with pain. but it is not only with pain that the world is shot--it is shot with promise. small as our vanity and carnality make us, there has been a day of still smaller things. it is the long ascent of the past that gives the lie to our despair. we know now that all the blood and passion of our life were represented in the carboniferous time by something--something, perhaps, cold-blooded and with a clammy skin, that lurked between air and water, and fled before the giant amphibia of those days. for all the folly, blindness, and pain of our lives, we have come some way from that. and the distance we have travelled gives us some earnest of the way we have yet to go. why should things cease at man? why should not this rising curve rise yet more steeply and swiftly? there are many things to suggest that we are now in a phase of rapid and unprecedented development. the conditions under which men live are changing with an ever-increasing rapidity, and, so far as our knowledge goes, no sort of creatures have ever lived under changing conditions without undergoing the profoundest changes themselves. in the past century there was more change in the conditions of human life than there had been in the previous thousand years. a hundred years ago inventors and investigators were rare scattered men, and now invention and inquiry are the work of an unorganized army. this century will see changes that will dwarf those of the nineteenth century, as those of the nineteenth dwarf those of the eighteenth. one can see no sign anywhere that this rush of change will be over presently, that the positivist dream of a social reconstruction and of a new static culture phase will ever be realized. human society never has been quite static, and it will presently cease to attempt to be static. everything seems pointing to the belief that we are entering upon a progress that will go on, with an ever-widening and ever more confident stride, forever. the reorganization of society that is going on now beneath the traditional appearance of things is a kinetic reorganization. we are getting into marching order. we have struck our camp forever and we are out upon the roads. we are in the beginning of the greatest change that humanity has ever undergone. there is no shock, no epoch-making incident--but then there is no shock at a cloudy daybreak. at no point can we say, "here it commences, now; last minute was night and this is morning." but insensibly we are in the day. if we care to look, we can foresee growing knowledge, growing order, and presently a deliberate improvement of the blood and character of the race. and what we can see and imagine gives us a measure and gives us faith for what surpasses the imagination. it is possible to believe that all the past is but the beginning of a beginning, and that all that is and has been is but the twilight of the dawn. it is possible to believe that all that the human mind has ever accomplished is but the dream before the awakening. we cannot see, there is no need for us to see, what this world will be like when the day has fully come. we are creatures of the twilight. but it is out of our race and lineage that minds will spring, that will reach back to us in our littleness to know us better than we know ourselves, and that will reach forward fearlessly to comprehend this future that defeats our eyes. all this world is heavy with the promise of greater things, and a day will come, one day in the unending succession of days, when beings, beings who are now latent in our thoughts and hidden in our loins, shall stand upon this earth as one stands upon a footstool, and shall laugh and reach out their hands amid the stars. the art _of_ life series edward howard griggs, editor "the aim of this series of brief books is to illuminate the never-to-be-finished art of living. there is no thought of solving the problems or giving dogmatic theories of conduct. rather the purpose is to bring together in brief form the thoughts of some wise minds and the insight and appreciation of some deep characters, trained in the actual world of experience but attaining a vision of life in clear and wide perspective. such books should act as a challenge to the reader's own mind, bringing him to a clearer recognition of the problems of his life and the laws governing them, deepening his insight into the wonder and meaning of life and developing an attitude of appreciation that may make possible the wise and earnest facing of the deeps, dark or beautiful, in the life of the personal spirit.--_from the editor's introduction to the series, printed in full in "the use of the margin."_ _volumes ready:_ where knowledge fails by earl barnes the sixth sense. its cultivation and use. by charles h. brent the burden of poverty. what to do. by charles f. dole human equipment. its use and abuse. by edward howard griggs the use of the margin by edward howard griggs things worth while by thomas wentworth higginson self-measurement. a scale of human values with directions for personal application. by william dewitt hyde the super race. an american problem. by scott nearing product and climax by simon nelson patten latter day sinners and saints by edward alsworth ross each cents net; by mail, cents _to be had of all booksellers or the publisher_ b. w. huebsch fifth avenue new york * * * * * * transcriber's note: this text has been preserved as in the original, including archaic and inconsistent spelling, punctuation and grammar, except that obvious printer's errors have been corrected. distributed proofreaders an englishman looks at the world being a series of unrestrained remarks upon contemporary matters by h.g. wells blériot arrives and sets him thinking. ( ) he flies, ( ) and deduces certain consequences of cheap travel. ( ) he considers the king, and speculates on the new epoch; ( ) he thinks imperially, ( ) and then, coming to details, about labour, ( ) socialism, ( ) and modern warfare, ( ) he discourses on the modern novel, ( ) and the public library; ( ) criticises chesterton, belloc, ( ) and sir thomas more, ( ) and deals with the london traffic problem as a socialist should. ( ) he doubts the existence of sociology, ( ) discusses divorce, ( ) schoolmasters, ( ) motherhood, ( ) doctors, ( ) and specialisation; ( ) questions if there is a people, ( ) and diagnoses the political disease of our times. ( ) he then speculates upon the future of the american population, ( ) considers a possible set-back to civilisation, ( ) the ideal citizen, ( ) the still undeveloped possibilities of science, ( ), and--in the broadest spirit-- the human adventure. ( ) contents . the coming of blériot . my first flight . off the chain . of the new reign . will the empire live? . the labour unrest . the great state . the common sense of warfare . the contemporary novel . the philosopher's public library . about chesterton and belloc . about sir thomas more . traffic and rebuilding . the so-called science of sociology . divorce . the schoolmaster and the empire . the endowment of motherhood . doctors . an age of specialisation . is there a people? . the disease of parliaments . the american population . the possible collapse of civilisation . the ideal citizen . some possible discoveries . the human adventure an englishman looks at the world the coming of blÉriot (_july, _.) the telephone bell rings with the petulant persistence that marks a trunk call, and i go in from some ineffectual gymnastics on the lawn to deal with the irruption. there is the usual trouble in connecting up, minute voices in folkestone and dover and london call to one another and are submerged by buzzings and throbbings. then in elfin tones the real message comes through: "blériot has crossed the channel.... an article ... about what it means." i make a hasty promise and go out and tell my friends. from my garden i look straight upon the channel, and there are white caps upon the water, and the iris and tamarisk are all asway with the south-west wind that was also blowing yesterday. m. blériot has done very well, and mr. latham, his rival, had jolly bad luck. that is what it means to us first of all. it also, i reflect privately, means that i have under-estimated the possible stability of aeroplanes. i did not expect anything of the sort so soon. this is a good five years before my reckoning of the year before last. we all, i think, regret that being so near we were not among the fortunate ones who saw that little flat shape skim landward out of the blue; surely they have an enviable memory; and then we fell talking and disputing about what that swift arrival may signify. it starts a swarm of questions. first one remarks that here is a thing done, and done with an astonishing effect of ease, that was incredible not simply to ignorant people but to men well informed in these matters. it cannot be fifteen years ago since sir hiram maxim made the first machine that could lift its weight from the ground, and i well remember how the clumsy quality of that success confirmed the universal doubt that men could ever in any effectual manner fly. since then a conspiracy of accidents has changed the whole problem; the bicycle and its vibrations developed the pneumatic tyre, the pneumatic tyre rendered a comfortable mechanically driven road vehicle possible, the motor-car set an enormous premium on the development of very light, very efficient engines, and at last the engineer was able to offer the experimentalists in gliding one strong enough and light enough for the new purpose. and here we are! or, rather, m. blériot is! what does it mean for us? one meaning, i think, stands out plainly enough, unpalatable enough to our national pride. this thing from first to last was made abroad. of all that made it possible we can only claim so much as is due to the improvement of the bicycle. gliding began abroad while our young men of muscle and courage were braving the dangers of the cricket field. the motor-car and its engine was being worked out "over there," while in this country the mechanically propelled road vehicle, lest it should frighten the carriage horses of the gentry, was going meticulously at four miles an hour behind a man with a red flag. over there, where the prosperous classes have some regard for education and some freedom of imaginative play, where people discuss all sorts of things fearlessly, and have a respect for science, this has been achieved. and now our insularity is breached by the foreigner who has got ahead with flying. it means, i take it, first and foremost for us, that the world cannot wait for the english. it is not the first warning we have had. it has been raining warnings upon us; never was a slacking, dull people so liberally served with warnings of what was in store for them. but this event--this foreigner-invented, foreigner-built, foreigner-steered thing, taking our silver streak as a bird soars across a rivulet--puts the case dramatically. we have fallen behind in the quality of our manhood. in the men of means and leisure in this island there was neither enterprise enough, imagination enough, knowledge nor skill enough to lead in this matter. i do not see how one can go into the history of this development and arrive at any other conclusion. the french and americans can laugh at our aeroplanes, the germans are ten years ahead of our poor navigables. we are displayed a soft, rather backward people. either we are a people essentially and incurably inferior, or there is something wrong in our training, something benumbing in our atmosphere and circumstances. that is the first and gravest intimation in m. blériot's feat. the second is that, in spite of our fleet, this is no longer, from the military point of view, an inaccessible island. so long as one had to consider the navigable balloon the aerial side of warfare remained unimportant. a zeppelin is little good for any purpose but scouting and espionage. it can carry very little weight in proportion to its vast size, and, what is more important, it cannot drop things without sending itself up like a bubble in soda water. an armada of navigables sent against this island would end in a dispersed, deflated state, chiefly in the seas between orkney and norway--though i say it who should not. but these aeroplanes can fly all round the fastest navigable that ever drove before the wind; they can drop weights, take up weights, and do all sorts of able, inconvenient things. they are birds. as for the birds, so for aeroplanes; there is an upward limit of size. they are not going to be very big, but they are going to be very able and active. within a year we shall have--or rather _they_ will have--aeroplanes capable of starting from calais, let us say, circling over london, dropping a hundredweight or so of explosive upon the printing machines of _the times_, and returning securely to calais for another similar parcel. they are things neither difficult nor costly to make. for the price of a dreadnought one might have hundreds. they will be extremely hard to hit with any sort of missile. i do not think a large army of under-educated, under-trained, extremely unwilling conscripts is going to be any good against this sort of thing. i do not think that the arrival of m. blériot means a panic resort to conscription. it is extremely desirable that people should realise that these foreign machines are not a temporary and incidental advantage that we can make good by fussing and demanding eight, and saying we won't wait, and so on, and then subsiding into indolence again. they are just the first-fruits of a steady, enduring lead that the foreigner has won. the foreigner is ahead of us in education, and this is especially true of the middle and upper classes, from which invention and enterprise come--or, in our own case, do not come. he makes a better class of man than we do. his science is better than ours. his training is better than ours. his imagination is livelier. his mind is more active. his requirements in a novel, for example, are not kindly, sedative pap; his uncensored plays deal with reality. his schools are places for vigorous education instead of genteel athleticism, and his home has books in it, and thought and conversation. our homes and schools are relatively dull and uninspiring; there is no intellectual guide or stir in them; and to that we owe this new generation of nicely behaved, unenterprising sons, who play golf and dominate the tailoring of the world, while brazilians, frenchmen, americans and germans fly. that we are hopelessly behindhand in aeronautics is not a fact by itself. it is merely an indication that we are behindhand in our mechanical knowledge and invention m. blériot's aeroplane points also to the fleet. the struggle for naval supremacy is not merely a struggle in shipbuilding and expenditure. much more is it a struggle in knowledge and invention. it is not the power that has the most ships or the biggest ships that is going to win in a naval conflict. it is the power that thinks quickest of what to do, is most resourceful and inventive. eighty dreadnoughts manned by dull men are only eighty targets for a quicker adversary. well, is there any reason to suppose that our navy is going to keep above the general national level in these things? is the navy _bright_? the arrival of m. blériot suggests most horribly to me how far behind we must be in all matters of ingenuity, device, and mechanical contrivance. i am reminded again of the days during the boer war, when one realised that it had never occurred to our happy-go-lucky army that it was possible to make a military use of barbed wire or construct a trench to defy shrapnel. suppose in the north sea we got a surprise like that, and fished out a parboiled, half-drowned admiral explaining what a confoundedly slim, unexpected, almost ungentlemanly thing the enemy had done to him. very probably the navy is the exception to the british system; its officers are rescued from the dull homes and dull schools of their class while still of tender years, and shaped after a fashion of their own. but m. blériot reminds us that we may no longer shelter and degenerate behind these blue backs. and the keenest men at sea are none the worse for having keen men on land behind them. are we an awakening people? it is the vital riddle of our time. i look out upon the windy channel and think of all those millions just over there, who seem to get busier and keener every hour. i could imagine the day of reckoning coming like a swarm of birds. here the air is full of the clamour of rich and prosperous people invited to pay taxes, and beyond measure bitter. they are going to live abroad, cut their charities, dismiss old servants, and do all sorts of silly, vindictive things. we seem to be doing feeble next-to-nothings in the endowment of research. not one in twenty of the boys of the middle and upper classes learns german or gets more than a misleading smattering of physical science. most of them never learn to speak french. heaven alone knows what they do with their brains! the british reading and thinking public probably does not number fifty thousand people all told. it is difficult to see whence the necessary impetus for a national renascence is to come.... the universities are poor and spiritless, with no ambition to lead the country. i met a boy scout recently. he was hopeful in his way, but a little inadequate, i thought, as a basis for confidence in the future of the empire. we have still our derby day, of course.... apart from these patriotic solicitudes, m. blériot has set quite another train of thought going in my mind. the age of natural democracy is surely at an end through these machines. there comes a time when men will be sorted out into those who will have the knowledge, nerve, and courage to do these splendid, dangerous things, and those who will prefer the humbler level. i do not think numbers are going to matter so much in the warfare of the future, and that when organised intelligence differs from the majority, the majority will have no adequate power of retort. the common man with a pike, being only sufficiently indignant and abundant, could chase the eighteenth century gentleman as he chose, but i fail to see what he can do in the way of mischief to an elusive chevalier with wings. but that opens too wide a discussion for me to enter upon now. my first flight (eastbourne, _august , --three years later_.) hitherto my only flights have been flights of imagination but this morning i flew. i spent about ten or fifteen minutes in the air; we went out to sea, soared up, came back over the land, circled higher, planed steeply down to the water, and i landed with the conviction that i had had only the foretaste of a great store of hitherto unsuspected pleasures. at the first chance i will go up again, and i will go higher and further. this experience has restored all the keenness of my ancient interest in flying, which had become a little fagged and flat by too much hearing and reading about the thing and not enough participation. sixteen years ago, in the days of langley and lilienthal, i was one of the few journalists who believed and wrote that flying was possible; it affected my reputation unfavourably, and produced in the few discouraged pioneers of those days a quite touching gratitude. over my mantel as i write hangs a very blurred and bad but interesting photograph that professor langley sent me sixteen years ago. it shows the flight of the first piece of human machinery heavier than air that ever kept itself up for any length of time. it was a model, a little affair that would not have lifted a cat; it went up in a spiral and came down unsmashed, bringing back, like noah's dove, the promise of tremendous things. that was only sixteen years ago, and it is amusing to recall how cautiously even we out-and-out believers did our prophesying. i was quite a desperate fellow; i said outright that in my lifetime we should see men flying. but i qualified that by repeating that for many years to come it would be an enterprise only for quite fantastic daring and skill. we conjured up stupendous difficulties and risks. i was deeply impressed and greatly discouraged by a paper a distinguished cambridge mathematician produced to show that a flying machine was bound to pitch fearfully, that as it flew on its pitching _must_ increase until up went its nose, down went its tail, and it fell like a knife. we exaggerated every possibility of instability. we imagined that when the aeroplane wasn't "kicking up ahind and afore" it would be heeling over to the lightest side wind. a sneeze might upset it. we contrasted our poor human equipment with the instinctive balance of a bird, which has had ten million years of evolution by way of a start.... the waterplane in which i soared over eastbourne this morning with mr. grahame-white was as steady as a motor-car running on asphalt. then we went on from those anticipations of swaying insecurity to speculations about the psychological and physiological effects of flying. most people who look down from the top of a cliff or high tower feel some slight qualms of dread, many feel a quite sickening dread. even if men struggled high into the air, we asked, wouldn't they be smitten up there by such a lonely and reeling dismay as to lose all self-control? and, above all, wouldn't the pitching and tossing make them quite horribly sea-sick? i have always been a little haunted by that last dread. it gave a little undertow of funk to the mood of lively curiosity with which i got aboard the waterplane this morning--that sort of faint, thin funk that so readily invades one on the verge of any new experience; when one tries one's first dive, for example, or pushes off for the first time down an ice run. i thought i should very probably be sea-sick--or, to be more precise, air-sick; i thought also that i might be very giddy, and that i might get thoroughly cold and uncomfortable none of those things happened. i am still in a state of amazement at the smooth steadfastness of the motion. there is nothing on earth to compare with that, unless--and that i can't judge--it is an ice yacht travelling on perfect ice. the finest motor-car in the world on the best road would be a joggling, quivering thing beside it. to begin with, we went out to sea before the wind, and the plane would not readily rise. we went with an undulating movement, leaping with a light splashing pat upon the water, from wave to wave. then we came about into the wind and rose, and looking over i saw that there were no longer those periodic flashes of white foam. i was flying. and it was as still and steady as dreaming. i watched the widening distance between our floats and the waves. it wasn't by any means a windless day; there was a brisk, fluctuating breeze blowing out of the north over the downs. it seemed hardly to affect our flight at all. and as for the giddiness of looking down, one does not feel it at all. it is difficult to explain why this should be so, but it is so. i suppose in such matters i am neither exceptionally steady-headed nor is my head exceptionally given to swimming. i can stand on the edge of cliffs of a thousand feet or so and look down, but i can never bring myself right up to the edge nor crane over to look to the very bottom. i should want to lie down to do that. and the other day i was on that belvedere place at the top of the rotterdam sky-scraper, a rather high wind was blowing, and one looks down through the chinks between the boards one stands on upon the heads of the people in the streets below; i didn't like it. but this morning i looked directly down on a little fleet of fishing boats over which we passed, and on the crowds assembling on the beach, and on the bathers who stared up at us from the breaking surf, with an entirely agreeable exaltation. and eastbourne, in the early morning sunshine, had all the brightly detailed littleness of a town viewed from high up on the side of a great mountain. when mr. grahame-white told me we were going to plane down i will confess i tightened my hold on the sides of the car and prepared for something like the down-going sensation of a switchback railway on a larger scale. just for a moment there was that familiar feeling of something pressing one's heart up towards one's shoulders, and one's lower jaw up into its socket and of grinding one's lower teeth against the upper, and then it passed. the nose of the car and all the machine was slanting downwards, we were gliding quickly down, and yet there was no feeling that one rushed, not even as one rushes in coasting a hill on a bicycle. it wasn't a tithe of the thrill of those three descents one gets on the great mountain railway in the white city. there one gets a disagreeable quiver up one's backbone from the wheels, and a real sense of falling. it is quite peculiar to flying that one is incredulous of any collision. some time ago i was in a motor-car that ran over and killed a small dog, and this wretched little incident has left an open wound upon my nerves. i am never quite happy in a car now; i can't help keeping an apprehensive eye ahead. but you fly with an exhilarating assurance that you cannot possibly run over anything or run into anything--except the land or the sea, and even those large essentials seem a beautifully safe distance away. i had heard a great deal of talk about the deafening uproar of the engine. i counted a headache among my chances. there again reason reinforced conjecture. when in the early morning mr. travers came from brighton in this farman in which i flew i could hear the hum of the great insect when it still seemed abreast of beachy head, and a good two miles away. if one can hear a thing at two miles, how much the more will one not hear it at a distance of two yards? but at the risk of seeming too contented for anything i will assert i heard that noise no more than one hears the drone of an electric ventilator upon one's table. it was only when i came to speak to mr. grahame-white, or he to me, that i discovered that our voices had become almost infinitesimally small. and so it was i went up into the air at eastbourne with the impression that flying was still an uncomfortable experimental, and slightly heroic thing to do, and came down to the cheerful gathering crowd upon the sands again with the knowledge that it is a thing achieved for everyone. it will get much cheaper, no doubt, and much swifter, and be improved in a dozen ways--we _must_ get self-starting engines, for example, for both our aeroplanes and motor-cars--but it is available to-day for anyone who can reach it. an invalid lady of seventy could have enjoyed all that i did if only one could have got her into the passenger's seat. getting there was a little difficult, it is true; the waterplane was out in the surf, and i was carried to it on a boatman's back, and then had to clamber carefully through the wires, but that is a matter of detail. this flying is indeed so certain to become a general experience that i am sure that this description will in a few years seem almost as quaint as if i had set myself to record the fears and sensations of my first ride in a wheeled vehicle. and i suspect that learning to control a farman waterplane now is probably not much more difficult than, let us say, twice the difficulty in learning the control and management of a motor-bicycle. i cannot understand the sort of young man who won't learn how to do it if he gets half a chance. the development of these waterplanes is an important step towards the huge and swarming popularisation of flying which is now certainly imminent. we ancient survivors of those who believed in and wrote about flying before there was any flying used to make a great fuss about the dangers and difficulties of landing and getting up. we wrote with vast gravity about "starting rails" and "landing stages," and it is still true that landing an aeroplane, except upon a well-known and quite level expanse, is a risky and uncomfortable business. but getting up and landing upon fairly smooth water is easier than getting into bed. this alone is likely to determine the aeroplane routes along the line of the world's coastlines and lake groups and waterways. the airmen will go to and fro over water as the midges do. wherever there is a square mile of water the waterplanes will come and go like hornets at the mouth of their nest. but there are much stronger reasons than this convenience for keeping over water. over water the air, it seems, lies in great level expanses; even when there are gales it moves in uniform masses like the swift, still rush of a deep river. the airman, in mr. grahame-white's phrase, can go to sleep on it. but over the land, and for thousands of feet up into the sky, the air is more irregular than a torrent among rocks; it is--if only we could see it--a waving, whirling, eddying, flamboyant confusion. a slight hill, a ploughed field, the streets of a town, create riotous, rolling, invisible streams and cataracts of air that catch the airman unawares, make him drop disconcertingly, try his nerves. with a powerful enough engine he climbs at once again, but these sudden downfalls are the least pleasant and most dangerous experience in aviation. they exact a tiring vigilance. over lake or sea, in sunshine, within sight of land, this is the perfect way of the flying tourist. gladly would i have set out for france this morning instead of returning to eastbourne. and then coasted round to spain and into the mediterranean. and so by leisurely stages to india. and the east indies.... i find my study unattractive to-day. off the chain (_december, _) i was ill in bed, reading samuel warren's "ten thousand a year," and noting how much the world can change in seventy years. i had just got to the journey of titmouse from london to yorkshire in that ex-sheriff's coach he bought in long acre--where now the motor-cars are sold--when there came a telegram to bid me note how a certain mr. holt was upon the ocean, coming back to england from a little excursion. he had left london last saturday week at midday; he hoped to be back by thursday; and he had talked to the president in washington, visited philadelphia, and had a comparatively loitering afternoon in new york. what had i to say about it? firstly, that i wish this article could be written by samuel warren. and failing that, i wish that charles dickens, who wrote in his "american notes" with such passionate disgust and hostility about the first cunarder, retailing all the discomfort and misery of crossing the atlantic by steamship, could have shared mr. holt's experience. because i am chiefly impressed by the fact not that mr. holt has taken days where weeks were needed fifty years ago, but that he has done it very comfortably, without undue physical exertion, and at no greater expense, i suppose, than it cost dickens, whom the journey nearly killed. if mr. holt's expenses were higher, it was for the special trains and the sake of the record. anyone taking ordinary trains and ordinary passages may do what he has done in eighteen or twenty days. when i was a boy, "around the world in eighty days" was still a brilliant piece of imaginative fiction. now that is almost an invalid's pace. it will not be very long before a man will be able to go round the world if he wishes to do so ten times in a year. and it is perhaps forgivable if those who, like jules verne, saw all these increments in speed, motor-cars, and airships aeroplanes, and submarines, wireless telegraphy and what not, as plain and necessary deductions from the promises of physical science, should turn upon a world that read and doubted and jeered with "i told you so. _now_ will you respect a prophet?" it was not that the prophets professed any mystical and inexplicable illumination at which a sceptic might reasonably mock; they were prepared with ample reasons for the things they foretold. now, quite as confidently, they point on to a new series of consequences, high probabilities that follow on all this tremendous development of swift, secure, and cheapened locomotion, just as they followed almost necessarily upon the mechanical developments of the last century. briefly, the ties that bind men to place are being severed; we are in the beginning of a new phase in human experience. for endless ages man led the hunting life, migrating after his food, camping, homeless, as to this day are many of the indians and esquimaux in the hudson bay territory. then began agriculture, and for the sake of securer food man tethered himself to a place. the history of man's progress from savagery to civilisation is essentially a story of settling down. it begins in caves and shelters; it culminates in a wide spectacle of farms and peasant villages, and little towns among the farms. there were wars, crusades, barbarous invasions, set-backs, but to that state all asia, europe, north africa worked its way with an indomitable pertinacity. the enormous majority of human beings stayed at home at last; from the cradle to the grave they lived, married, died in the same district, usually in the same village; and to that condition, law, custom, habits, morals, have adapted themselves. the whole plan and conception of human society is based on the rustic home and the needs and characteristics of the agricultural family. there have been gipsies, wanderers, knaves, knights-errant and adventurers, no doubt, but the settled permanent rustic home and the tenure of land about it, and the hens and the cow, have constituted the fundamental reality of the whole scene. now, the really wonderful thing in this astonishing development of cheap, abundant, swift locomotion we have seen in the last seventy years--in the development of which mauretanias, aeroplanes, mile-a-minute expresses, tubes, motor-buses and motor cars are just the bright, remarkable points--is this: that it dissolves almost all the reason and necessity why men should go on living permanently in any one place or rigidly disciplined to one set of conditions. the former attachment to the soil ceases to be an advantage. the human spirit has never quite subdued itself to the laborious and established life; it achieves its best with variety and occasional vigorous exertion under the stimulus of novelty rather than by constant toil, and this revolution in human locomotion that brings nearly all the globe within a few days of any man is the most striking aspect of the unfettering again of the old restless, wandering, adventurous tendencies in man's composition. already one can note remarkable developments of migration. there is, for example, that flow to and fro across the atlantic of labourers from the mediterranean. italian workmen by the hundred thousand go to the united states in the spring and return in the autumn. again, there is a stream of thousands of prosperous americans to summer in europe. compared with any european country, the whole population of the united states is fluid. equally notable is the enormous proportion of the british prosperous which winters either in the high alps or along the riviera. england is rapidly developing the former irish grievance of an absentee propertied class. it is only now by the most strenuous artificial banking back that migrations on a far huger scale from india into africa, and from china and japan into australia and america are prevented. all the indications point to a time when it will be an altogether exceptional thing for a man to follow one occupation in one place all his life, and still rarer for a son to follow in his father's footsteps or die in his father's house. the thing is as simple as the rule of three. we are off the chain of locality for good and all. it was necessary heretofore for a man to live in immediate contact with his occupation, because the only way for him to reach it was to have it at his door, and the cost and delay of transport were relatively too enormous for him to shift once he was settled. _now_ he may live twenty or thirty miles away from his occupation; and it often pays him to spend the small amount of time and money needed to move--it may be half-way round the world--to healthier conditions or more profitable employment. and with every diminution in the cost and duration of transport it becomes more and more possible, and more and more likely, to be profitable to move great multitudes of workers seasonally between regions where work is needed in this season and regions where work is needed in that. they can go out to the agricultural lands at one time and come back into towns for artistic work and organised work in factories at another. they can move from rain and darkness into sunshine, and from heat into the coolness of mountain forests. children can be sent for education to sea beaches and healthy mountains. men will harvest in saskatchewan and come down in great liners to spend the winter working in the forests of yucatan. people have hardly begun to speculate about the consequences of the return of humanity from a closely tethered to a migratory existence. it is here that the prophet finds his chief opportunity. obviously, these great forces of transport are already straining against the limits of existing political areas. every country contains now an increasing ingredient of unenfranchised uitlanders. every country finds a growing section of its home-born people either living largely abroad, drawing the bulk of their income from the exterior, and having their essential interests wholly or partially across the frontier. in every locality of a western european country countless people are found delocalised, uninterested in the affairs of that particular locality, and capable of moving themselves with a minimum of loss and a maximum of facility into any other region that proves more attractive. in america political life, especially state life as distinguished from national political life, is degraded because of the natural and inevitable apathy of a large portion of the population whose interests go beyond the state. politicians and statesmen, being the last people in the world to notice what is going on in it, are making no attempt whatever to re-adapt this hugely growing floating population of delocalised people to the public service. as mr. marriott puts it in his novel, "_now,"_ they "drop out" from politics as we understand politics at present. local administration falls almost entirely--and the decision of imperial affairs tends more and more to fall--into the hands of that dwindling and adventurous moiety which sits tight in one place from the cradle to the grave. no one has yet invented any method for the political expression and collective direction of a migratory population, and nobody is attempting to do so. it is a new problem.... here, then, is a curious prospect, the prospect of a new kind of people, a floating population going about the world, uprooted, delocalised, and even, it may be, denationalised, with wide interests and wide views, developing no doubt, customs and habits of its own, a morality of its own, a philosophy of its own, and yet from the point of view of current politics and legislation unorganised and ineffective. most of the forces of international finance and international business enterprise will be with it. it will develop its own characteristic standards of art and literature and conduct in accordance with its new necessities. it is, i believe, the mankind of the future. and the last thing it will be able to do will be to legislate. the history of the immediate future will, i am convinced, be very largely the history of the conflict of the needs of this new population with the institutions, the boundaries the laws, prejudices, and deep-rooted traditions established during the home-keeping, localised era of mankind's career. this conflict follows as inevitably upon these new gigantic facilities of locomotion as the _mauretania_ followed from the discoveries of steam and steel. of the new reign (_june, _.) the bunting and the crimson vanish from the streets. already the vast army of improvised carpenters that the coronation has created set themselves to the work of demolition, and soon every road that converges upon central london will be choked again with great loads of timber--but this time going outward--as our capital emerges from this unprecedented inundation of loyalty. the most elaborately conceived, the most stately of all recorded british coronations is past. what new phase in the life of our nation and our empire does this tremendous ceremony inaugurate? the question is inevitable. there is nothing in all the social existence of men so full of challenge as the crowning of a king. it is the end of the overture; the curtain rises. this is a new beginning-place for histories. to us, the great mass of common englishmen, who have no place in the hierarchy of our land, who do not attend courts nor encounter uniforms, whose function is at most spectacular, who stand in the street and watch the dignitaries and the liveries pass by, this sense of critical expectation is perhaps greater than it is for those more immediately concerned in the spectacle. they have had their parts to play, their symbolic acts to perform, they have sat in their privileged places, and we have waited at the barriers until their comfort and dignity was assured. i can conceive many of them, a little fatigued, preparing now for social dispersal, relaxing comfortably into gossip, discussing the detail of these events with an air of things accomplished. they will decide whether the coronation has been a success and whether everything has or has not passed off very well. for us in the great crowd nothing has as yet succeeded or passed off well or ill. we are intent upon a king newly anointed and crowned, a king of whom we know as yet very little, but who has, nevertheless, roused such expectation as no king before him has done since tudor times, in the presence of gigantic opportunities. there is a conviction widespread among us--his own words, perhaps, have done most to create it--that king george is inspired, as no recent predecessor has been inspired, by the conception of kingship, that his is to be no rôle of almost indifferent abstinence from the broad processes of our national and imperial development. that greater public life which is above party and above creed and sect has, we are told, taken hold of his imagination; he is to be no crowned image of unity and correlation, a layer of foundation-stones and a signature to documents, but an actor in our drama, a living prince. time will test these hopes, but certainly we, the innumerable democracy of individually unimportant men, have felt the need for such a prince. our consciousness of defects, of fields of effort untilled, of vast possibilities neglected and slipping away from us for ever, has never really slumbered again since the chastening experiences of the boer war. since then the national spirit, hampered though it is by the traditions of party government and a legacy of intellectual and social heaviness, has been in uneasy and ineffectual revolt against deadness, against stupidity and slackness, against waste and hypocrisy in every department of life. we have come to see more and more clearly how little we can hope for from politicians, societies and organised movements in these essential things. it is this that has invested the energy and manhood, the untried possibilities of the new king with so radiant a light of hope for us. think what it may mean for us all--i write as one of that great ill-informed multitude, sincerely and gravely patriotic, outside the echoes of court gossip and the easy knowledge of exalted society--if our king does indeed care for these wider and profounder things! suppose we have a king at last who cares for the advancement of science, who is willing to do the hundred things that are so easy in his position to increase research, to honour and to share in scientific thought. suppose we have a king whose head rises above the level of the court artist, and who not only can but will appeal to the latent and discouraged power of artistic creation in our race. suppose we have a king who understands the need for incessant, acute criticism to keep our collective activities intelligent and efficient, and for a flow of bold, unhampered thought through every department of the national life, a king liberal without laxity and patriotic without pettiness or vulgarity. such, it seems to us who wait at present almost inexpressively outside the immediate clamours of a mere artificial loyalty, are the splendid possibilities of the time. for england is no exhausted or decaying country. it is rich with an unmeasured capacity for generous responses. it is a country burthened indeed, but not overwhelmed, by the gigantic responsibilities of empire, a little relaxed by wealth, and hampered rather than enslaved by a certain shyness of temperament, a certain habitual timidity, slovenliness and insincerity of mind. it is a little distrustful of intellectual power and enterprise, a little awkward and ungracious to brave and beautiful things, a little too tolerant of dull, well-meaning and industrious men and arrogant old women. it suffers hypocrites gladly, because its criticism is poor, and it is wastefully harsh to frank unorthodoxy. but its heart is sound if its judgments fall short of acuteness and if its standards of achievement are low. it needs but a quickening spirit upon the throne, always the traditional centre of its respect, to rise from even the appearance of decadence. there is a new quality seeking expression in england like the rising of sap in the spring, a new generation asking only for such leadership and such emancipation from restricted scope and ungenerous hostility as a king alone can give it.... when in its turn this latest reign comes at last to its reckoning, what will the sum of its achievement be? what will it leave of things visible? will it leave a london preserved and beautified, or will it but add abundantly to the lumps of dishonest statuary, the scars and masses of ill-conceived rebuilding which testify to the aesthetic degradation of the victorian period? will a great constellation of artists redeem the ambitious sentimentalities and genteel skilfulness that find their fitting mausoleum in the tate gallery? will our literature escape at last from pretentiousness and timidity, our philosophy from the foolish cerebrations of university "characters" and eminent politicians at leisure, and our starved science find scope and resources adequate to its gigantic needs? will our universities, our teaching, our national training, our public services, gain a new health from the reviving vigour of the national brain? or is all this a mere wild hope, and shall we, after perhaps some small flutterings of effort, the foundation of some ridiculous little academy of literary busybodies and hangers-on, the public recognition of this or that sociological pretender or financial "scientist," and a little polite jobbery with picture-buying, relapse into lassitude and a contented acquiescence in the rivalry of germany and the united states for the moral, intellectual and material leadership of the world? the deaths and accessions of kings, the changing of names and coins and symbols and persons, a little force our minds in the marking off of epochs. we are brought to weigh one generation against another, to reckon up our position and note the characteristics of a new phase. what lies before us in the next decades? is england going on to fresh achievements, to a renewed and increased predominance, or is she falling into a secondary position among the peoples of the world? the answer to that depends upon ourselves. have we pride enough to attempt still to lead mankind, and if we have, have we the wisdom and the quality? or are we just the children of good luck, who are being found out? some years ago our present king exhorted this island to "wake up" in one of the most remarkable of british royal utterances, and mr. owen seaman assures him in verse of an altogether laureate quality that we are now "free of the snare of slumber's silken bands," though i have not myself observed it. it is interesting to ask, is england really waking up? and if she is, what sort of awakening is she likely to have? it is possible, of course, to wake up in various different ways. there is the clear and beautiful dawn of new and balanced effort, easy, unresting, planned, assured, and there is also the blundering-up of a still half-somnolent man, irascible, clumsy, quarrelsome, who stubs his toe in his first walk across the room, smashes his too persistent alarum clock in a fit of nerves, and cuts his throat while shaving. all patriotic vehemence does not serve one's country. exertion is a more critical and dangerous thing than inaction, and the essence of success is in the ability to develop those qualities which make action effective, and without which strenuousness is merely a clumsy and noisy protest against inevitable defeat. these necessary qualities, without which no community may hope for pre-eminence to-day, are a passion for fine and brilliant achievement, relentless veracity of thought and method, and richly imaginative fearlessness of enterprise. have we english those qualities, and are we doing our utmost to select and develop them? i doubt very much if we are. let me give some of the impressions that qualify my assurance in the future of our race. i have watched a great deal of patriotic effort during the last decade, i have seen enormous expenditures of will, emotion and material for the sake of our future, and i am deeply impressed, not indeed by any effect of lethargy, but by the second-rate quality and the shortness and weakness of aim in very much that has been done. i miss continually that sharply critical imaginativeness which distinguishes all excellent work, which shines out supremely in cromwell's creation of the new model, or nelson's plan of action at trafalgar, as brightly as it does in newton's investigation of gravitation, turner's rendering of landscape, or shakespeare's choice of words, but which cannot be absent altogether if any achievement is to endure. we seem to have busy, energetic people, no doubt, in abundance, patient and industrious administrators and legislators; but have we any adequate supply of really creative ability? let me apply this question to one matter upon which england has certainly been profoundly in earnest during the last decade. we have been almost frantically resolved to keep the empire of the sea. but have we really done all that could have been done? i ask it with all diffidence, but has our naval preparation been free from a sort of noisy violence, a certain massive dullness of conception? have we really made anything like a sane use of our resources? i do not mean of our resources in money or stuff. it is manifest that the next naval war will be beyond all precedent a war of mechanisms, giving such scope for invention and scientifically equipped wit and courage as the world has never had before. now, have we really developed any considerable proportion of the potential human quality available to meet the demand for wits? what are we doing to discover, encourage and develop those supreme qualities of personal genius that become more and more decisive with every new weapon and every new complication and unsuspected possibility it introduces? suppose, for example, there was among us to-day a one-eyed, one-armed adulterer, rather fragile, prone to sea-sickness, and with just that one supreme quality of imaginative courage which made nelson our starry admiral. would he be given the ghost of a chance now of putting that gift at his country's disposal? i do not think he would, and i do not think he would because we underrate gifts and exceptional qualities, because there is no quickening appreciation for the exceptional best in a man, and because we overvalue the good behaviour, the sound physique, the commonplace virtues of mediocrity. i have but the knowledge of the man in the street in these things, though once or twice i have chanced on prophecy, and i am uneasily apprehensive of the quality of all our naval preparations. we go on launching these lumping great dreadnoughts, and i cannot bring myself to believe in them. they seem vulnerable from the air above and the deep below, vulnerable in a shallow channel and in a fog (and the north sea is both foggy and shallow), and immensely costly. if i were lord high admiral of england at war i would not fight the things. i would as soon put to sea in st. paul's cathedral. if i were fighting germany, i would stow half of them away in the clyde and half in the bristol channel, and take the good men out of them and fight with mines and torpedoes and destroyers and airships and submarines. and when i come to military matters my persuasion that things are not all right, that our current hostility to imaginative activity and our dull acceptance of established methods and traditions is leading us towards grave dangers, intensifies. in south africa the boers taught us in blood and bitterness the obvious fact that barbed wire had its military uses, and over the high passes on the way to lhassa (though, luckily, it led to no disaster) there was not a rifle in condition to use because we had not thought to take glycerine. the perpetual novelty of modern conditions demands an imaginative alertness we eliminate. i do not believe that the army council or anyone in authority has worked out a tithe of the essential problems of contemporary war. if they have, then it does not show. our military imagination is half-way back to bows and arrows. the other day i saw a detachment of the legion of frontiersmen disporting itself at totteridge. i presume these young heroes consider they are preparing for a possible conflict in england or western europe, and i presume the authorities are satisfied with them. it is at any rate the only serious war of which there is any manifest probability. western europe is now a network of railways, tramways, high roads, wires of all sorts; its chief beasts of burthen are the railway train and the motor car and the bicycle; towns and hypertrophied villages are often practically continuous over large areas; there is abundant water and food, and the commonest form of cover is the house. but the legion of frontiersmen is equipped for war, oh!--in arizona in , and so far as i am able to judge the most modern sections of the army extant are organised for a colonial war in (say) or . there is, of course, a considerable amount of vague energy demanding conscription and urging our youth towards a familiarity with arms and the backwoodsman's life, but of any thought-out purpose in our arming widely understood, of any realisation of what would have to be done and where it would have to be done, and of any attempts to create an instrument for that novel unprecedented undertaking, i discover no trace. in my capacity of devil's advocate pleading against national over-confidence, i might go on to the quality of our social and political movements. one hears nowadays a vast amount of chatter about efficiency--that magic word--and social organisation, and there is no doubt a huge expenditure of energy upon these things and a widespread desire to rush about and make showy and startling changes. but it does not follow that this involves progress if the enterprise itself is dully conceived and most of it does seem to me to be dully conceived. in the absence of penetrating criticism, any impudent industrious person may set up as an "expert," organise and direct the confused good intentions at large, and muddle disastrously with the problem in hand. the "expert" quack and the bureaucratic intriguer increase and multiply in a dull-minded, uncritical, strenuous period as disease germs multiply in darkness and heat. i find the same doubts of our quality assail me when i turn to the supreme business of education. it is true we all seem alive nowadays to the need of education, are all prepared for more expenditure upon it and more, but it does not follow necessarily in a period of stagnating imagination that we shall get what we pay for. the other day i discovered my little boy doing a subtraction sum, and i found he was doing it in a slower, clumsier, less businesslike way than the one i was taught in an old-fashioned "commercial academy" thirty odd years ago. the educational "expert," it seems, has been at work substituting a bad method for a good one in our schools because it is easier of exposition. the educational "expert," in the lack of a lively public intelligence, develops all the vices of the second-rate energetic, and he is, i am only too disposed to believe, making a terrible mess of a great deal of our science teaching and of the teaching of mathematics and english.... i have written enough to make clear the quality of my doubts. i think the english mind cuts at life with a dulled edge, and that its energy may be worse than its somnolence. i think it undervalues gifts and fine achievement, and overvalues the commonplace virtues of mediocre men. one of the greatest liberal statesmen in the time of queen victoria never held office because he was associated with a divorce case a quarter of a century ago. for him to have taken office would have been regarded as a scandal. but it is not regarded as a scandal that our government includes men of no more ability than any average assistant behind a grocer's counter. these are your gods, o england!--and with every desire to be optimistic i find it hard under the circumstances to anticipate that the new epoch is likely to be a blindingly brilliant time for our empire and our race. will the empire live? what will hold such an empire as the british together, this great, laxly scattered, sea-linked association of ancient states and new-formed countries, oriental nations, and continental colonies? what will enable it to resist the endless internal strains, the inevitable external pressures and attacks to which it must be subjected this is the primary question for british imperialism; everything else is secondary or subordinated to that. there is a multitude of answers. but i suppose most of them will prove under examination either to be, or to lead to, or to imply very distinctly this generalisation that if most of the intelligent and active people in the empire want it to continue it will, and that if a large proportion of such active and intelligent people are discontented and estranged, nothing can save it from disintegration. i do not suppose that a navy ten times larger than ours, or conscription of the most irksome thoroughness, could oblige canada to remain in the empire if the general will and feeling of canada were against it, or coerce india into a sustained submission if india presented a united and resistant front. our empire, for all its roll of battles, was not created by force; colonisation and diplomacy have played a far larger share in its growth than conquest; and there is no such strength in its sovereignty as the rule of pride and pressure demand. it is to the free consent and participation of its constituent peoples that we must look for its continuance. a large and influential body of politicians considers that in preferential trading between the parts of the empire, and in the erection of a tariff wall against exterior peoples, lies the secret of that deepened emotional understanding we all desire. i have never belonged to that school. i am no impassioned free trader--the sacred principle of free trade has always impressed me as a piece of party claptrap; but i have never been able to understand how an attempt to draw together dominions so scattered and various as ours by a network of fiscal manipulation could end in anything but mutual inconvenience mutual irritation, and disruption. in an open drawer in my bureau there lies before me now a crumpled card on which are the notes i made of a former discussion of this very issue, a discussion between a number of prominent politicians in the days before mr. chamberlain's return from south africa and the adoption of tariff reform by the unionist party; and i decipher again the same considerations, unanswered and unanswerable, that leave me sceptical to-day. take a map of the world and consider the extreme differences in position and condition between our scattered states. here is canada, lying along the united states, looking eastward to japan and china, westward to all europe. see the great slashes of lake, bay, and mountain chain that cut it meridianally. obviously its main routes and trades and relations lie naturally north and south; obviously its full development can only be attained with those ways free, open, and active. conceivably, you may build a fiscal wall across the continent; conceivably, you may shut off the east and half the west by impossible tariffs, and narrow its trade to one artificial duct to england, but only at the price of a hampered development it will be like nourishing the growing body of a man with the heart and arteries of a mouse. then here, again, are new zealand and australia, facing south america and the teeming countries of eastern asia; surely it is in relation to these vast proximities that their economic future lies. is it possible to believe that shipping mutton to london is anything but the mere beginning of their commercial development look at india, again, and south africa. is it not manifest that from the economic and business points of view each of these is an entirely separate entity, a system apart, under distinct necessities, needing entire freedom to make its own bargains and control its trade in its own way in order to achieve its fullest material possibilities? nor can i believe that financial entanglements greatly strengthen the bonds of an empire in any case. we lost the american colonies because we interfered with their fiscal arrangements, and it was napoleon's attempt to strangle the continental trade with great britain that began his downfall. i do not find in the ordinary relations of life that business relations necessarily sustain intercourse. the relations of buyer and seller are ticklish relations, very liable to strains and conflicts. i do not find people grow fond of their butchers and plumbers, and i doubt whether if one were obliged by some special taxation to deal only with one butcher or one plumber, it would greatly endear the relationship. forced buying is irritated buying, and it is the forbidden shop that contains the coveted goods. nor do i find, to take another instance, among the hotel staffs of switzerland and the riviera--who live almost entirely upon british gold--those impassioned british imperialist views the economic link theory would lead me to expect. and another link, too, upon which much stress is laid but about which i have very grave doubts, is the possibility of a unified organisation of the empire for military defence. we are to have, it is suggested, an imperial army and an imperial navy, and so far, no doubt, as the guaranteeing of a general peace goes, we may develop a sense of participation in that way. but it is well in these islands to remember that our extraordinary empire has no common enemy to weld it together from without. it is too usual to regard germany as the common enemy. we in great britain are now intensely jealous of germany. we are intensely jealous of germany not only because the germans outnumber us, and have a much larger and more diversified country than ours, and lie in the very heart and body of europe, but because in the last hundred years, while we have fed on platitudes and vanity, they have had the energy and humility to develop a splendid system of national education, to toil at science and art and literature, to develop social organisation, to master and better our methods of business and industry, and to clamber above us in the scale of civilisation. this has humiliated and irritated rather than chastened us, and our irritation has been greatly exacerbated by the swaggering bad manners, the talk of "blood and iron" and mailed fists, the welt-politik rubbish that inaugurated the new german phase. the british middle-class, therefore, is full of an angry, vague disposition to thwart that expansion which germans regard very reasonably as their natural destiny; there are all the possibilities of a huge conflict in that disposition, and it is perhaps well to remember how insular--or, at least, how european--the essentials of this quarrel are. we have lost our tempers, but canada has not. there is nothing in germany to make canada envious and ashamed of wasted years. canada has no natural quarrel with germany, nor has india, nor south africa, nor australasia. they have no reason to share our insular exasperation. on the other hand, all these states have other special preoccupations. new zealand, for example, having spent half a century and more in sheep-farming, land legislation, suppressing its drink traffic, lowering its birth-rate, and, in short, the achievement of an ideal preventive materialism, is chiefly consumed by hate and fear of japan, which in the same interval has made a stride from the thirteenth to the twentieth century, and which teems with art and life and enterprise and offspring. now japan in welt-politik is our ally. you see, the british empire has no common economic interests and no natural common enemy. it is not adapted to any form of zollverein or any form of united aggression. visibly, on the map of the world it has a likeness to open hands, while the german empire--except for a few ill-advised and imitative colonies--is clenched into a central european unity. physically, our empire is incurably scattered, various, and divided, and it is to quite other links and forces, it seems to me, than fiscal or military unification that we who desire its continuance must look to hold it together. there never was anything like it before. essentially it is an adventure of the british spirit, sanguine, discursive, and beyond comparison insubordinate, adaptable, and originating. it has been made by odd and irregular means by trading companies, pioneers, explorers, unauthorised seamen, adventurers like clive, eccentrics like gordon, invalids like rhodes. it has been made, in spite of authority and officialdom, as no other empire was ever made. the nominal rulers of britain never planned it. it happened almost in spite of them. their chief contribution to its history has been the loss of the united states. it is a living thing that has arisen, not a dead thing put together. beneath the thin legal and administrative ties that hold it together lies the far more vital bond of a traditional free spontaneous activity. it has a common medium of expression in the english tongue, a unity of liberal and tolerant purpose amidst its enormous variety of localised life and colour. and it is in the development and strengthening, the enrichment the rendering more conscious and more purposeful, of that broad creative spirit of the british that the true cement and continuance of our empire is to be found. the empire must live by the forces that begot it. it cannot hope to give any such exclusive prosperity as a zollverein might afford; it can hold out no hopes of collective conquests and triumphs--its utmost military rôle must be the guaranteeing of a common inaggressive security; but it can, if it is to survive, it must, give all its constituent parts such a civilisation as none of them could achieve alone, a civilisation, a wealth and fullness of life increasing and developing with the years. through that, and that alone, can it be made worth having and worth serving. and in the first place the whole empire must use the english language. i do not mean that any language must be stamped out, that a thousand languages may not flourish by board and cradle and in folk-songs and village gossip--erse, the taal, a hundred indian and other eastern tongues, canadian french--but i mean that also english must be available, that everywhere there must be english teaching. and everyone who wants to read science or history or philosophy, to come out of the village life into wider thoughts and broader horizons, to gain appreciation in art, must find ready to hand, easily attainable in english, all there is to know and all that has been said thereon. it is worth a hundred dreadnoughts and a million soldiers to the empire, that wherever the imperial posts reach, wherever there is a curious or receptive mind, there in english and by the imperial connection the full thought of the race should come. to the lonely youth upon the new zealand sheep farm, to the young hindu, to the trapper under a labrador tilt, to the half-breed assistant at a burmese oil-well, to the self-educating scottish miner or the egyptian clerk, the empire and the english language should exist, visibly and certainly, as the media by which his spirit escapes from his immediate surroundings and all the urgencies of every day, into a limitless fellowship of thought and beauty. now i am not writing this in any vague rhetorical way; i mean specifically that our empire has to become the medium of knowledge and thought to every intelligent person in it, or that it is bound to go to pieces. it has no economic, no military, no racial, no religious unity. its only conceivable unity is a unity of language and purpose and outlook. if it is not held together by thought and spirit, it cannot be held together. no other cement exists that can hold it together indefinitely. not only english literature, but all other literatures well translated into english, and all science and all philosophy, have to be brought within the reach of everyone capable of availing himself of such reading. and this must be done, not by private enterprise or for gain, but as an imperial function. wherever the empire extends there its presence must signify all that breadth of thought and outlook no localised life can supply. only so is it possible to establish and maintain the wide understandings, the common sympathy necessary to our continued association. the empire, mediately or immediately, must become the universal educator, news-agent, book-distributor, civiliser-general, and vehicle of imaginative inspiration for its peoples, or else it must submit to the gravitation of its various parts to new and more invigorating associations. no empire, it may be urged, has ever attempted anything of this sort, but no empire like the british has ever yet existed. its conditions and needs are unprecedented, its consolidation is a new problem, to be solved, if it is solved at all, by untried means. and in the english language as a vehicle of thought and civilisation alone is that means to be found. now it is idle to pretend that at the present time the british empire is giving its constituent peoples any such high and rewarding civilisation as i am here suggesting. it gives them a certain immunity from warfare, a penny post, an occasional spectacular coronation, a few knighthoods and peerages, and the services of an honest, unsympathetic, narrow-minded, and unattractive officialism. no adequate effort is being made to render the english language universal throughout its limits, none at all to use it as a medium of thought and enlightenment. half the good things of the human mind are outside english altogether, and there is not sufficient intelligence among us to desire to bring them in. if one would read honest and able criticism, one must learn french; if one would be abreast of scientific knowledge and philosophical thought, or see many good plays or understand the contemporary european mind, german. and yet it would cost amazingly little to get every good foreign thing done into english as it appeared. it needs only a little understanding and a little organisation to ensure the immediate translation of every significant article, every scientific paper of the slightest value. the effort and arrangement needed to make books, facilities for research, and all forms of art accessible throughout the empire, would be altogether trivial in proportion to the consolidation it would effect. but english people do not understand these things. their empire is an accident. it was made for them by their exceptional and outcast men, and in the end it will be lost, i fear, by the intellectual inertness of their commonplace and dull-minded leaders. empire has happened to them and civilisation has happened to them as fresh lettuces come to tame rabbits. they do not understand how they got, and they will not understand how to keep. art, thought, literature, all indeed that raises men above locality and habit, all that can justify and consolidate the empire, is nothing to them. they are provincials mocked by a world-wide opportunity, the stupid legatees of a great generation of exiles. they go out of town for the "shootin'," and come back for the fooleries of parliament, and to see what the censor has left of our playwrights and sir jesse boot of our writers, and to dine in restaurants and wear clothes. mostly they call themselves imperialists, which is just their harmless way of expressing their satisfaction with things as they are. in practice their imperialism resolves itself into a vigorous resistance to taxation and an ill-concealed hostility to education. it matters nothing to them that the whole next generation of canadians has drawn its ideas mainly from american publications, that india and egypt, in despite of sounder mental nourishment, have developed their own vernacular press, that australia and new zealand even now gravitate to america for books and thought. it matters nothing to them that the poverty and insularity of our intellectual life has turned american art to france and italy, and the american universities towards germany. the slow starvation and decline of our philosophy and science, the decadence of british invention and enterprise, troubles them not at all, because they fail to connect these things with the tangible facts of empire. "the world cannot wait for the english." ... and the sands of our imperial opportunity twirl through the neck of the hour-glass. the labour unrest (_may, _.) sec. our country is, i think, in a dangerous state of social disturbance. the discontent of the labouring mass of the community is deep and increasing. it may be that we are in the opening phase of a real and irreparable class war. since the coronation we have moved very rapidly indeed from an assurance of extreme social stability towards the recognition of a spreading disorganisation. it is idle to pretend any longer that these labour troubles are the mere give and take of economic adjustment. no adjustment is in progress. new and strange urgencies are at work in our midst, forces for which the word "revolutionary" is only too faithfully appropriate. nothing is being done to allay these forces; everything conspires to exasperate them. whither are these forces taking us? what can still be done and what has to be done to avoid the phase of social destruction to which we seem to be drifting? hitherto, in great britain at any rate, the working man has shown himself a being of the most limited and practical outlook. his narrowness of imagination, his lack of general ideas, has been the despair of the socialist and of every sort of revolutionary theorist. he may have struck before, but only for definite increments of wages or definite limitations of toil; his acceptance of the industrial system and its methods has been as complete and unquestioning as his acceptance of earth and sky. now, with an effect of suddenness, this ceases to be the case. a new generation of workers is seen replacing the old, workers of a quality unfamiliar to the middle-aged and elderly men who still manage our great businesses and political affairs. the worker is beginning now to strike for unprecedented ends--against the system, against the fundamental conditions of labour, to strike for no defined ends at all, perplexingly and disconcertingly. the old-fashioned strike was a method of bargaining, clumsy and violent perhaps, but bargaining still; the new-fashioned strike is far less of a haggle, far more of a display of temper. the first thing that has to be realised if the labour question is to be understood at all is this, that the temper of labour has changed altogether in the last twenty or thirty years. essentially that is a change due to intelligence not merely increased but greatly stimulated, to the work, that is, of the board schools and of the cheap press. the outlook of the workman has passed beyond the works and his beer and his dog. he has become--or, rather, he has been replaced by--a being of eyes, however imperfect, and of criticism, however hasty and unjust. the working man of to-day reads, talks, has general ideas and a sense of the round world; he is far nearer to the ruler of to-day in knowledge and intellectual range than he is to the working man of fifty years ago. the politician or business magnate of to-day is no better educated and very little better informed than his equals were fifty years ago. the chief difference is golf. the working man questions a thousand things his father accepted as in the very nature of the world, and among others he begins to ask with the utmost alertness and persistence why it is that he in particular is expected to toil. the answer, the only justifiable answer, should be that that is the work for which he is fitted by his inferior capacity and culture, that these others are a special and select sort, very specially trained and prepared for their responsibilities, and that at once brings this new fact of a working-class criticism of social values into play. the old workman might and did quarrel very vigorously with his specific employer, but he never set out to arraign all employers; he took the law and the church and statecraft and politics for the higher and noble things they claimed to be. he wanted an extra shilling or he wanted an hour of leisure, and that was as much as he wanted. the young workman, on the other hand, has put the whole social system upon its trial, and seems quite disposed to give an adverse verdict. he looks far beyond the older conflict of interests between employer and employed. he criticises the good intentions of the whole system of governing and influential people, and not only their good intentions, but their ability. these are the new conditions, and the middle-aged and elderly gentlemen who are dealing with the crisis on the supposition that their vast experience of labour questions in the 'seventies and 'eighties furnishes valuable guidance in this present issue are merely bringing the gunpowder of misapprehension to the revolutionary fort. the workman of the new generation is full of distrust the most demoralising of social influences. he is like a sailor who believes no longer either in the good faith or seamanship of his captain, and, between desperation and contempt, contemplates vaguely but persistently the assumption of control by a collective forecastle. he is like a private soldier obsessed with the idea that nothing can save the situation but the death of an incompetent officer. his distrust is so profound that he ceases not only to believe in the employer, but he ceases to believe in the law, ceases to believe in parliament, as a means to that tolerable life he desires; and he falls back steadily upon his last resource of a strike, and--if by repressive tactics we make it so--a criminal strike. the central fact of all this present trouble is that distrust. there is only one way in which our present drift towards revolution or revolutionary disorder can be arrested, and that is by restoring the confidence of these alienated millions, who visibly now are changing from loyalty to the crown, from a simple patriotism, from habitual industry, to the more and more effective expression of a deepening resentment. this is a psychological question, a matter of mental states. feats of legal subtlety are inopportune, arithmetical exploits still more so. to emerge with the sum of s. - / d. as a minimum, by calculating on the basis of the mine's present earnings, from a conference which the miners and everybody else imagined was to give a minimum of s., may be clever, but it is certainly not politic in the present stage of labour feeling. to stamp violently upon obscure newspapers nobody had heard of before and send a printer to prison, and to give thereby a flaming advertisement to the possible use of soldiers in civil conflicts and set every barrack-room talking, may be permissible, but it is certainly very ill-advised. the distrust deepens. the real task before a governing class that means to go on governing is not just at present to get the better of an argument or the best of a bargain, but to lay hold of the imaginations of this drifting, sullen and suspicious multitude, which is the working body of the country. what we prosperous people, who have nearly all the good things of life and most of the opportunity, have to do now is to justify ourselves. we have to show that we are indeed responsible and serviceable, willing to give ourselves, and to give ourselves generously for what we have and what we have had. we have to meet the challenge of this distrust. the slack days for rulers and owners are over. if there are still to be rulers and owners and managing and governing people, then in the face of the new masses, sensitive, intelligent, critical, irritable, as no common people have ever been before, these rulers and owners must be prepared to make themselves and display themselves wise, capable and heroic--beyond any aristocratic precedent. the alternative, if it is an alternative, is resignation--to the social democracy. and it is just because we are all beginning to realise the immense need for this heroic quality in those who rule and are rich and powerful, as the response and corrective to these distrusts and jealousies that are threatening to disintegrate our social order, that we have all followed the details of this great catastrophe in the atlantic with such intense solicitude. it was one of those accidents that happen with a precision of time and circumstance that outdoes art; not an incident in it all that was not supremely typical. it was the penetrating comment of chance upon our entire social situation. beneath a surface of magnificent efficiency was--slap-dash. the third-class passengers had placed themselves on board with an infinite confidence in the care that was to be taken of them, and they went down, and most of their women and children went down with the cry of those who find themselves cheated out of life. in the unfolding record of behaviour it is the stewardesses and bandsmen and engineers--persons of the trade-union class--who shine as brightly as any. and by the supreme artistry of chance it fell to the lot of that tragic and unhappy gentleman, mr. bruce ismay, to be aboard and to be caught by the urgent vacancy in the boat and the snare of the moment. no untried man dare say that he would have behaved better in his place. he escaped. he thought it natural to escape. his class thinks it was right and proper that he did escape. it is not the man i would criticise, but the manifest absence of any such sense of the supreme dignity of his position as would have sustained him in that crisis. he was a rich man and a ruling man, but in the test he was not a proud man. in the common man's realisation that such is indeed the case with most of those who dominate our world, lies the true cause and danger of our social indiscipline. and the remedy in the first place lies not in social legislation and so forth, but in the consciences of the wealthy. heroism and a generous devotion to the common good are the only effective answer to distrust. if such dominating people cannot produce these qualities there will have to be an end to them, and the world must turn to some entirely different method of direction. sec. the essential trouble in our growing labour disorder is the profound distrust which has grown up in the minds of the new generation of workers of either the ability or the good faith of the property owning, ruling and directing class. i do not attempt to judge the justice or not of this distrust; i merely point to its existence as one of the striking and essential factors in the contemporary labour situation. this distrust is not, perhaps, the proximate cause of the strikes that now follow each other so disconcertingly, but it embitters their spirit, it prevents their settlement, and leads to their renewal. i have tried to suggest that, whatever immediate devices for pacification might be employed, the only way to a better understanding and co-operation, the only escape from a social slide towards the unknown possibilities of social democracy, lies in an exaltation of the standard of achievement and of the sense of responsibility in the possessing and governing classes. it is not so much "wake up, england!" that i would say as "wake up, gentlemen!"--for the new generation of the workers is beyond all question quite alarmingly awake and critical and angry. and they have not merely to wake up, they have to wake up visibly and ostentatiously if those old class reliances on which our system is based are to be preserved and restored. we need before anything else a restoration of class confidence. it is a time when class should speak with class very frankly. there is too much facile misrepresentation, too ready a disposition on either side to accept caricatures as portraits and charges as facts. however tacit our understandings were in the past, with this new kind of labour, this young, restive labour of the twentieth century, which can read, discuss and combine, we need something in the nature of a social contract. and it is when one comes to consider by what possible means these suspicious third-class passengers in our leaking and imperilled social liner can be brought into generous co-operation with the second and the first that one discovers just how lamentably out of date and out of order our political institutions, which should supply the means for just this inter-class discussion, have become. between the busy and preoccupied owning and employing class on the one hand, and the distressed, uneasy masses on the other, intervenes the professional politician, not as a mediator, but as an obstacle, who must be propitiated before any dealings are possible. our national politics no longer express the realities of the national life; they are a mere impediment in the speech of the community. with our whole social order in danger, our legislature is busy over the trivial little affairs of the welsh established church, whose endowment probably is not equal to the fortune of any one of half a dozen _titanic_ passengers or a tithe of the probable loss of another strike among the miners. we have a legislature almost antiquarian, compiling a museum of gladstonian legacies rather than governing our world to-day. law is the basis of civilisation, but the lawyer is the law's consequence, and, with us at least, the legal profession is the political profession. it delights in false issues and merely technical politics. steadily with the ascendancy of the house of commons the barristers have ousted other types of men from political power. the decline of the house of lords has been the last triumph of the house of lawyers, and we are governed now to a large extent not so much by the people for the people as by the barristers for the barristers. they set the tone of political life. and since they are the most specialised, the most specifically trained of all the professions, since their training is absolutely antagonistic to the creative impulses of the constructive artist and the controlled experiments of the scientific man, since the business is with evidence and advantages and the skilful use of evidence and advantages, and not with understanding, they are the least statesmanlike of all educated men, and they give our public life a tone as hopelessly discordant with our very great and urgent social needs as one could well imagine. they do not want to deal at all with great and urgent social needs. they play a game, a long and interesting game, with parties as sides, a game that rewards the industrious player with prominence, place, power and great rewards, and the less that game involves the passionate interests of other men, the less it draws them into participation and angry interference, the better for the steady development of the politician's career. a distinguished and active fruitlessness, leaving the world at last as he found it, is the political barrister's ideal career. to achieve that, he must maintain legal and political monopolies, and prevent the invasion of political life by living interests. and so far as he has any views about labour beyond the margin of his brief, the barrister politician seems to regard getting men back to work on any terms and as soon as possible as the highest good. and it is with such men that our insurgent modern labour, with its vaguely apprehended wants, its large occasions and its rapid emotional reactions, comes into contact directly it attempts to adjust itself in the social body. it is one of the main factors in the progressive embitterment of the labour situation that whatever business is afoot--arbitration, conciliation, inquiry--our contemporary system presents itself to labour almost invariably in a legal guise. the natural infirmities of humanity rebel against an unimaginative legality of attitude, and the common workaday man has no more love for this great and necessary profession to-day than he had in the time of jack cade. little reasonable things from the lawyers' point of view--the rejection, for example, of certain evidence in the _titanic_ inquiry because it might amount to a charge of manslaughter, the constant interruption and checking of a labour representative at the same tribunal upon trivial points--irritate quite disproportionately. lawyer and working man are antipathetic types, and it is a very grave national misfortune that at this time, when our situation calls aloud for statecraft and a certain greatness of treatment, our public life should be dominated as it has never been dominated before by this most able and illiberal profession. now for that great multitude of prosperous people who find themselves at once deeply concerned in our present social and economic crisis, and either helplessly entangled in party organisation or helplessly outside politics, the elimination and cure of this disease of statecraft, the professional politician, has become a very urgent matter. to destroy him, to get him back to his law courts and keep him there, it is necessary to destroy the machinery of the party system that sustains him, and to adopt some electoral method that will no longer put the independent representative man at a hopeless disadvantage against the party nominee. such a method is to be found in proportional representation with large constituencies, and to that we must look for our ultimate liberation from our present masters, these politician barristers. but the labour situation cannot wait for this millennial release, and for the current issue it seems to me patent that every reasonable prosperous man will, even at the cost to himself of some trouble and hard thinking, do his best to keep as much of this great and acute controversy as he possibly can out of the lawyer's and mere politician's hands and in his own. leave labour to the lawyers, and we shall go very deeply into trouble indeed before this business is over. they will score their points, they will achieve remarkable agreements full of the possibility of subsequent surprises, they will make reputations, and do everything heaven and their professional training have made them to do, and they will exasperate and exasperate! lawyers made the first french revolution, and now, on a different side, they may yet bring about an english one. these men below there are still, as a class, wonderfully patient and reasonable, quite prepared to take orders and recognise superior knowledge, wisdom and nobility. they make the most reasonable claims for a tolerable life, for certain assurances and certain latitudes. implicit rather than expressed is their demand for wisdom and right direction from those to whom the great surplus and freedom of civilisation are given. it is an entirely reasonable demand if man is indeed a social animal. but we have got to treat them fairly and openly. this patience and reasonableness and willingness for leadership is not limitless. it is no good scoring our mean little points, for example, and accusing them of breach of contract and all sorts of theoretical wrongs because they won't abide by agreements to accept a certain scale of wages when the purchasing power of money has declined. when they made that agreement they did not think of that possibility. when they said a pound they thought of what was then a poundsworth of living. the mint has since been increasing its annual output of gold coins to two or three times the former amount, and we have, as it were, debased the coinage with extraordinary quantities of gold. but we who know and own did nothing to adjust that; we did not tell the working man of that; we have let him find it out slowly and indirectly at the grocer's shop. that may be permissible from the lawyer's point of view, but it certainly isn't from the gentleman's, and it is only by the plea that its inequalities give society a gentleman that our present social system can claim to endure. i would like to accentuate that, because if we are to emerge again from these acute social dissensions a reunited and powerful people, there has to be a change of tone, a new generosity on the part of those who deal with labour speeches, labour literature, labour representatives, and labour claims. labour is necessarily at an enormous disadvantage in discussion; in spite of a tremendous inferiority in training and education it is trying to tell the community its conception of its needs and purposes. it is not only young as a participator in the discussion of affairs; it is actually young. the average working man is not half the age of the ripe politicians and judges and lawyers and wealthy organisers who trip him up legally, accuse him of bad faith, mark his every inconsistency. it isn't becoming so to use our forensic advantages. it isn't--if that has no appeal to you--wise. the thing our society has most to fear from labour is not organised resistance, not victorious strikes and raised conditions, but the black resentment that follows defeat. meet labour half-way, and you will find a new co-operation in government; stick to your legal rights, draw the net of repressive legislation tighter, then you will presently have to deal with labour enraged. if the anger burns free, that means revolution; if you crush out the hope of that, then sabotage and a sullen general sympathy for anarchistic crime. sec. in the preceding pages i have discussed certain aspects of the present labour situation. i have tried to show the profound significance in this discussion of the distrust which has grown up in the minds of the workers, and how this distrust is being exacerbated by our entirely too forensic method of treating their claims. i want now to point out a still more powerful set of influences which is steadily turning our labour struggles from mere attempts to adjust hours and wages into movements that are gravely and deliberately revolutionary. this is the obvious devotion of a large and growing proportion of the time and energy of the owning and ruling classes to pleasure and excitement, and the way in which this spectacle of amusement and adventure is now being brought before the eyes and into the imagination of the working man. the intimate psychology of work is a thing altogether too little considered and discussed. one asks: "what keeps a workman working properly at his work?" and it seems a sufficient answer to say that it is the need of getting a living. but that is not the complete answer. work must to some extent interest; if it bores, no power on earth will keep a man doing it properly. and the tendency of modern industrialism has been to subdivide processes and make work more boring and irksome. also the workman must be satisfied with the living he is getting, and the tendency of newspaper, theatre, cinematograph show and so forth is to fill his mind with ideas of ways of living infinitely more agreeable and interesting than his own. habit also counts very largely in the regular return of the man to his job, and the fluctuations of employment, the failure of the employing class to provide any alternative to idleness during slack time, break that habit of industry. and then, last but not least, there is self-respect. men and women are capable of wonders of self-discipline and effort if they feel that theirs is a meritorious service, if they imagine the thing they are doing is the thing they ought to do. a miner will cut coal in a different spirit and with a fading zest if he knows his day's output is to be burnt to waste secretly by a lunatic. man is a social animal; few men are naturally social rebels, and most will toil very cheerfully in subordination if they feel that the collective end is a fine thing and a great thing. now, this force of self-respect is much more acutely present in the mind of the modern worker than it was in the thought of his fathers. he is intellectually more active than his predecessors, his imagination is relatively stimulated, he asks wide questions. the worker of a former generation took himself for granted; it is a new phase when the toilers begin to ask, not one man here or there, but in masses, in battalions, in trades: "why, then, are _we_ toilers, and for what is it that we toil?" what answer do we give them? i ask the reader to put himself in the place of a good workman, a young, capable miner, let us say, in search of an answer to that question. he is, we will suppose, temporarily unemployed through the production of a glut of coal, and he goes about the world trying to see the fine and noble collective achievements that justify the devotion of his whole life to humble toil. i ask the reader: what have we got to show that man? what are we doing up in the light and air that justifies our demand that he should go on hewing in narrow seams and cramped corners until he can hew no more? where is he to be taken to see these crowning fruits of our release from toil? shall we take him to the house of commons to note which of the barristers is making most headway over welsh disestablishment, or shall we take him to the _titanic_ inquiry to hear the latest about those fifty-five third-class children (out of eighty-three) who were drowned? shall we give him an hour or so among the portraits at the royal academy, or shall we make an enthusiastic tour of london sculpture and architecture and saturate his soul with the beauty he makes possible? the new automobile club, for example. "without you and your subordination we could not have had that." or suppose we took him the round of the west-end clubs and restaurants and made him estimate how many dinners london can produce at a pinch at the price of his local daily minimum, say, and upward; or borrow an aeroplane at hendon and soar about counting all the golfers in the home counties on any week-day afternoon. "you suffer at the roots of things, far below there, but see all this nobility and splendour, these sweet, bright flowers to which your rootlet life contributes." or we might spend a pleasant morning trying to get a passable woman's hat for the price of his average weekly wages in some west-end shop.... but indeed this thing is actually happening. the older type of miner was illiterate, incurious; he read nothing, lived his own life, and if he had any intellectual and spiritual urgencies in him beyond eating and drinking and dog-fighting, the local little bethel shunted them away from any effective social criticism. the new generation of miners is on an altogether different basis. it is at once less brutal and less spiritual; it is alert, informed, sceptical, and the press, with photographic illustrations, the cinema, and a score of collateral forces, are giving it precisely that spectacular view of luxury, amusement, aimlessness and excitement, taunting it with just that suggestion that it is for that, and that alone, that the worker's back aches and his muscles strain. whatever gravity and spaciousness of aim there may be in our prosperous social life does not appear to him. he sees, and he sees all the more brightly because he is looking at it out of toil and darkness, the glitter, the delight for delight's sake, the show and the pride and the folly. cannot you understand how it is that these young men down there in the hot and dangerous and toilsome and inglorious places of life are beginning to cry out, "we are being made fools of," and to fling down their tools, and cannot you see how futile it is to dream that mr. asquith or some other politician by some trick of a conciliation act or some claptrap of compulsory arbitration, or that any belated suppression of discussion and strike organisations by the law, will avert this gathering storm? the spectacle of pleasure, the parade of clothes, estates, motor-cars, luxury and vanity in the sight of the workers is the culminating irritant of labour. so long as that goes on, this sombre resolve to which we are all awakening, this sombre resolve rather to wreck the whole fabric than to continue patiently at work, will gather strength. it does not matter that such a resolve is hopeless and unseasonable; we are dealing here with the profounder impulses that underlie reason. crush this resentment; it will recur with accumulated strength. it does not matter that there is no plan in existence for any kind of social order that could be set up in the place of our present system; no plan, that is, that will endure half an hour's practical criticism. the cardinal fact before us is that the workers do not intend to stand things as they are, and that no clever arguments, no expert handling of legal points, no ingenious appearances of concession, will stay that progressive embitterment. but i think i have said enough to express and perhaps convey my conviction that our present labour troubles are unprecedented, and that they mean the end of an epoch. the supply of good-tempered, cheap labour--upon which the fabric of our contemporary ease and comfort is erected--is giving out. the spread of information and the means of presentation in every class and the increase of luxury and self-indulgence in the prosperous classes are the chief cause of that. in the place of that old convenient labour comes a new sort of labour, reluctant, resentful, critical, and suspicious. the replacement has already gone so far that i am certain that attempts to baffle and coerce the workers back to their old conditions must inevitably lead to a series of increasingly destructive outbreaks, to stresses and disorder culminating in revolution. it is useless to dream of going on now for much longer upon the old lines; our civilisation, if it is not to enter upon a phase of conflict and decay, must begin to adapt itself to the new conditions of which the first and foremost is that the wages-earning labouring class as a distinctive class, consenting to a distinctive treatment and accepting life at a disadvantage is going to disappear. whether we do it soon as the result of our reflections upon the present situation, or whether we do it presently through the impoverishment that must necessarily result from a lengthening period of industrial unrest, there can be little doubt that we are going to curtail very considerably the current extravagance of the spending and directing classes upon food, clothing, display, and all the luxuries of life. the phase of affluence is over. and unless we are to be the mere passive spectators of an unprecedented reduction of our lives, all of us who have leisure and opportunity have to set ourselves very strenuously to the problem not of reconciling ourselves to the wage-earners, for that possibility is over, but of establishing a new method of co-operation with those who seem to be definitely decided not to remain wage-earners for very much longer. we have, as sensible people, to realise that the old arrangement which has given us of the fortunate minority so much leisure, luxury, and abundance, advantages we have as a class put to so vulgar and unprofitable a use, is breaking down, and that we have to discover a new, more equable way of getting the world's work done. certain things stand out pretty obviously. it is clear that in the times ahead of us there must be more economy in giving trouble and causing work, a greater willingness to do work for ourselves, a great economy of labour through machinery and skilful management. so much is unavoidable if we are to meet these enlarged requirements upon which the insurgent worker insists. if we, who have at least some experience of affairs, who own property, manage businesses, and discuss and influence public organisation, if we are not prepared to undertake this work of discipline and adaptation for ourselves, then a time is not far distant when insurrectionary leaders, calling themselves socialists or syndicalists, or what not, men with none of our experience, little of our knowledge, and far less hope of success, will take that task out of our hands.[ ] [footnote : larkinism comes to endorse me since this was written.] we have, in fact, to "pull ourselves together," as the phrase goes, and make an end to all this slack, extravagant living, this spectacle of pleasure, that has been spreading and intensifying in every civilised community for the last three or four decades. what is happening to labour is indeed, from one point of view, little else than the correlative of what has been happening to the more prosperous classes in the community. they have lost their self-discipline, their gravity, their sense of high aims, they have become the victims of their advantages and labour, grown observant and intelligent, has discovered itself and declares itself no longer subordinate. just what powers of recovery and reconstruction our system may have under these circumstances the decades immediately before us will show. sec. let us try to anticipate some of the social developments that are likely to spring out of the present labour situation. it is quite conceivable, of course, that what lies before us is not development but disorder. given sufficient suspicion on one side and sufficient obstinacy and trickery on the other, it may be impossible to restore social peace in any form, and industrialism may degenerate into a wasteful and incurable conflict. but that distressful possibility is the worst and perhaps the least probable of many. it is much more acceptable to suppose that our social order will be able to adjust itself to the new outlook and temper and quality of the labour stratum that elementary education, a press very cheap and free, and a period of great general affluence have brought about. one almost inevitable feature of any such adaptation will be a changed spirit in the general body of society. we have come to a serious condition of our affairs, and we shall not get them into order again without a thorough bracing-up of ourselves in the process. there can be no doubt that for a large portion of our comfortable classes existence has been altogether too easy for the last lifetime or so. the great bulk of the world's work has been done out of their sight and knowledge; it has seemed unnecessary to trouble much about the general conduct of things, unnecessary, as they say, to "take life too seriously." this has not made them so much vicious as slack, lazy, and over-confident; there has been an elaboration of trivial things and a neglect of troublesome and important things. the one grave shock of the boer war has long been explained and sentimentalised away. but it will not be so easy to explain away a dislocated train service and an empty coal cellar as it was to get a favourable interpretation upon some demonstration of national incompetence half the world away. it is indeed no disaster, but a matter for sincere congratulation that the british prosperous and the british successful, to whom warning after warning has rained in vain from the days of ruskin, carlyle, matthew arnold, should be called to account at last in their own household. they will grumble, they will be very angry, but in the end, i believe, they will rise to the opportunities of their inconvenience. they will shake off their intellectual lassitude, take over again the public and private affairs they have come to leave so largely in the hands of the political barrister and the family solicitor, become keen and critical and constructive, bring themselves up to date again. that is not, of course, inevitable, but i am taking now the more hopeful view. and then? what sort of working arrangements are our renascent owning and directing classes likely to make with the new labouring class? how is the work going to be done in the harder, cleaner, more equalised, and better managed state that, in one's hopeful mood, one sees ahead of us? now after the experiences of the past twelve months it is obvious that the days when most of the directed and inferior work of the community will be done by intermittently employed and impecunious wage-earners is drawing to an end. a large part of the task of reconstruction ahead of us will consist in the working out of schemes for a more permanent type of employment and for a direct participation of the worker in the pride, profits, and direction of the work. such schemes admit of wide variations between a mere bonus system, a periodic tipping of the employees to prevent their striking and a real and honest co-partnery. in the latter case a great enterprise, forced to consider its "hands" as being also in their degree "heads," would include a department of technical and business instruction for its own people. from such ideas one passes very readily to the conception of guild-managed businesses in which the factor of capital would no longer stand out as an element distinct from and contrasted with the proprietorship of the workers. one sees the worker as an active and intelligent helper during the great portion of his participation, and as an annuitant and perhaps, if he has devised economies and improvements, a receiver of royalties during his declining years. and concurrently with the systematic reconstruction of a large portion of our industries upon these lines there will have to be a vigorous development of the attempts that are already being made, in garden cities, garden suburbs, and the like, to re-house the mass of our population in a more civilised and more agreeable manner. probably that is not going to pay from the point of view of the money-making business man, but we prosperous people have to understand that there are things more important and more profitable than money-making, and we have to tax ourselves not merely in money, but in time, care, and effort in the matter. half the money that goes out of england to switzerland and the riviera ought to go to the extremely amusing business of clearing up ugly corners and building jolly and convenient workmen's cottages--even if we do it at a loss. it is part of our discharge for the leisure and advantages the system has given us, part of that just give and take, over and above the solicitor's and bargain-hunter's and money-lender's conception of justice, upon which social order ultimately rests. we have to do it not in a mood of patronage, but in a mood of attentive solicitude. if not on high grounds, then on low grounds our class has to set to work and make those other classes more interested and comfortable and contented. it is what we are for. it is quite impossible for workmen and poor people generally to plan estates and arrange their own homes; they are entirely at the mercy of the wealthy in this matter. there is not a slum, not a hovel, not an eyesore upon the english landscape for which some well-off owner is not ultimately to be blamed or excused, and the less we leave of such things about the better for us in that day of reckoning between class and class which now draws so near. it is as plain now as the way from calais to paris that if the owning class does not attend to these amenities the mass of the people, doing its best to manage the thing through the politicians, presently will. they may make a frightful mess of it, but that will never bring back things again into the hands that hold them and neglect them. their time will have passed for ever. but these are the mere opening requirements of this hope of mine of a quickened social consciousness among the more fortunate and leisurely section of the community i believe that much profounder changes in the conditions of labour are possible than those i have suggested i am beginning to suspect that scarcely any of our preconceptions about the way work must be done, about the hours of work and the habits of work, will stand an exhaustive scientific analysis. it is at least conceivable that we could get much of the work that has to be done to keep our community going in far more toil-saving and life-saving ways than we follow at the present time. so far scientific men have done scarcely anything to estimate under what conditions a man works best, does most work, works more happily. suppose it turns out to be the case that a man always following one occupation throughout his lifetime, working regularly day after day for so many hours, as most wage-earners do at the present time, does not do nearly so much or nearly so well as he would do if he followed first one occupation and then another, or if he worked as hard as he possibly could for a definite period and then took holiday? i suspect very strongly, indeed i am convinced, that in certain occupations, teaching, for example, or surgery, a man begins by working clumsily and awkwardly, that his interest and skill rise rapidly, that if he is really well suited in his profession he may presently become intensely interested and capable of enormous quantities of his very best work, and that then his interest and vigour rapidly decline i am disposed to believe that this is true of most occupations, of coal-mining or engineering, or brick-laying or cotton-spinning. the thing has never been properly thought about. our civilisation has grown up in a haphazard kind of way, and it has been convenient to specialise workers and employ them piecemeal. but if it is true that in respect of any occupation a man has his period of maximum efficiency, then we open up a whole world of new social possibilities. what we really want from a man for our social welfare in that case is not regular continuing work, but a few strenuous years of high-pressure service. we can as a community afford to keep him longer at education and training before he begins, and we can release him with a pension while he is still full of life and the capacity for enjoying freedom. but obviously this is impossible upon any basis of weekly wages and intermittent employment; we must be handling affairs in some much more comprehensive way than that before we can take and deal with the working life of a man as one complete whole. that is one possibility that is frequently in my thoughts about the present labour crisis. there is another, and that is the great desirability of every class in the community having a practical knowledge of what labour means. there is a vast amount of work which either is now or is likely to be in the future within the domain of the public administration--road-making, mining, railway work, post-office and telephone work, medical work, nursing, a considerable amount of building for example. why should we employ people to do the bulk of these things at all? why should we not as a community do them ourselves? why, in other words, should we not have a labour conscription and take a year or so of service from everyone in the community, high or low? i believe this would be of enormous moral benefit to our strained and relaxed community. i believe that in making labour a part of everyone's life and the whole of nobody's life lies the ultimate solution of these industrial difficulties. sec. it is almost a national boast that we "muddle through" our troubles, and i suppose it is true and to our credit that by virtue of a certain kindliness of temper, a humorous willingness to make the best of things, and an entirely amiable forgetfulness, we do come out of pressures and extremities that would smash a harder, more brittle people only a little chipped and damaged. and it is quite conceivable that our country will, in a measure, survive the enormous stresses of labour adjustment that are now upon us, even if it never rises to any heroic struggle against these difficulties. but it may survive as a lesser country, as an impoverished and second-rate country. it will certainly do no more than that, if in any part of the world there is to be found a people capable of taking up this gigantic question in a greater spirit. perhaps there is no such people, and the conflicts and muddles before us will be world-wide. or suppose that it falls to our country in some strange way to develop a new courage and enterprise, and to be the first to go forward into this new phase of civilisation i foresee, from which a distinctive labouring class, a class that is of expropriated wage-earners, will have almost completely disappeared. now hitherto the utmost that any state, overtaken by social and economic stresses, has ever achieved in the way of adapting itself to them has been no more than patching. individuals and groups and trades have found themselves in imperfectly apprehended and difficult times, and have reluctantly altered their ways and ideas piecemeal under pressure. sometimes they have succeeded in rubbing along upon the new lines, and sometimes the struggle has submerged them, but no community has ever yet had the will and the imagination to recast and radically alter its social methods as a whole. the idea of such a reconstruction has never been absent from human thought since the days of plato, and it has been enormously reinforced by the spreading material successes of modern science, successes due always to the substitution of analysis and reasoned planning for trial and the rule of thumb. but it has never yet been so believed in and understood as to render any real endeavour to reconstruct possible. the experiment has always been altogether too gigantic for the available faith behind it, and there have been against it the fear of presumption, the interests of all advantaged people, and the natural sloth of humanity. we do but emerge now from a period of deliberate happy-go-lucky and the influence of herbert spencer, who came near raising public shiftlessness to the dignity of a national philosophy. everything would adjust itself--if only it was left alone. yet some things there are that cannot be done by small adjustments, such as leaping chasms or killing an ox or escaping from the roof of a burning house. you have to decide upon a certain course on such occasions and maintain a continuous movement. if you wait on the burning house until you scorch and then turn round a bit or move away a yard or so, or if on the verge of a chasm you move a little in the way in which you wish to go, disaster will punish your moderation. and it seems to me that the establishment of the world's work upon a new basis--and that and no less is what this labour unrest demands for its pacification--is just one of those large alterations which will never be made by the collectively unconscious activities of men, by competitions and survival and the higgling of the market. humanity is rebelling against the continuing existence of a labour class as such, and i can see no way by which our present method of weekly wages employment can change by imperceptible increments into a method of salary and pension--for it is quite evident that only by reaching that shall we reach the end of these present discontents. the change has to be made on a comprehensive scale or not at all. we need nothing less than a national plan of social development if the thing is to be achieved. now that, i admit, is, as the americans say, a large proposition. but we are living in a time of more and more comprehensive plans, and the mere fact that no scheme so extensive has ever been tried before is no reason at all why we should not consider one. we think nowadays quite serenely of schemes for the treatment of the nation's health as one whole, where our fathers considered illness as a blend of accident with special providences; we have systematised the community's water supply, education, and all sorts of once chaotic services, and germany and our own infinite higgledy-piggledy discomfort and ugliness have brought home to us at last even the possibility of planning the extension of our towns and cities. it is only another step upward in scale to plan out new, more tolerable conditions of employment for every sort of worker and to organise the transition from our present disorder. the essential difficulty between the employer and the statesman in the consideration of this problem is the difference in the scope of their view. the employer's concern with the man who does his work is day-long or week-long; the statesman's is life-long. the conditions of private enterprise and modern competition oblige the employer to think only of the worker as a hand, who appears and does his work and draws his wages and vanishes again. only such strikes as we have had during the past year will rouse him from that attitude of mind. the statesman at the other extremity has to consider the worker as a being with a beginning, a middle, an end--and offspring. he can consider all these possibilities of deferring employment and making the toil of one period of life provide for the leisure and freedom of another, which are necessarily entirely out of the purview of an employer pure and simple. and i find it hard to see how we can reconcile the intermittency of competitive employment with the unremitting demands of a civilised life except by the intervention of the state or of some public organisation capable of taking very wide views between the business organiser on the one hand and the subordinate worker on the other. on the one hand we need some broader handling of business than is possible in the private adventure of the solitary proprietor or the single company, and on the other some more completely organised development of the collective bargain. we have to bring the directive intelligence of a concern into an organic relation with the conception of the national output as a whole, and either through a trade union or a guild, or some expansion of a trade union, we have to arrange a secure, continuous income for the worker, to be received not directly as wages from an employer but intermediately through the organisation. we need a census of our national production, a more exhaustive estimate of our resources, and an entirely more scientific knowledge of the conditions of maximum labour efficiency. one turns to the state.... and it is at this point that the heart of the patriotic englishman sinks, because it is our national misfortune that all the accidents of public life have conspired to retard the development of just that body of knowledge, just that scientific breadth of imagination which is becoming a vital necessity for the welfare of a modern civilised community. we are caught short of scientific men just as in the event of a war with germany we shall almost certainly be caught short of scientific sailors and soldiers. you cannot make that sort of thing to order in a crisis. scientific education--and more particularly the scientific education of our owning and responsible classes--has been crippled by the bitter jealousy of the classical teachers who dominate our universities, by the fear and hatred of the established church, which still so largely controls our upper-class schools, and by the entire lack of understanding and support on the part of those able barristers and financiers who rule our political life. science has been left more and more to men of modest origin and narrow outlook, and now we are beginning to pay in internal dissensions, and presently we may have to pay in national humiliation for this almost organised rejection of stimulus and power. but however thwarted and crippled our public imagination may be, we have still got to do the best we can with this situation; we have to take as comprehensive views as we can, and to attempt as comprehensive a method of handling as our party-ridden state permits. in theory i am a socialist, and were i theorising about some nation in the air i would say that all the great productive activities and all the means of communication should be national concerns and be run as national services. but our state is peculiarly incapable of such functions; at the present time it cannot even produce a postage stamp that will stick; and the type of official it would probably evolve for industrial organisation, slowly but unsurely, would be a maddening combination of the district visitor and the boy clerk. it is to the independent people of some leisure and resource in the community that one has at last to appeal for such large efforts and understandings as our present situation demands. in the default of our public services, there opens an immense opportunity for voluntary effort. deference to our official leaders is absurd; it is a time when men must, as the phrase goes, "come forward." we want a national plan for our social and economic development which everyone may understand and which will serve as a unifying basis for all our social and political activities. such a plan is not to be flung out hastily by an irresponsible writer. it can only come into existence as the outcome of a wide movement of inquiry and discussion. my business in these pages has been not prescription but diagnosis. i hold it to be the clear duty of every intelligent person in the country to do his utmost to learn about these questions of economic and social organisation and to work them out to conclusions and a purpose. we have come to a phase in our affairs when the only alternative to a great, deliberate renascence of will and understanding is national disorder and decay. sec. i have attempted a diagnosis of this aspect of our national situation. i have pointed out that nearly all the social forces of our time seem to be in conspiracy to bring about the disappearance of a labour class as such and the rearrangement of our work and industry upon a new basis. that rearrangement demands an unprecedented national effort and the production of an adequate national plan. failing that, we seem doomed to a period of chronic social conflict and possibly even of frankly revolutionary outbreaks that may destroy us altogether or leave us only a dwarfed and enfeebled nation.... and before we can develop that national plan and the effective realisation of such a plan that is needed to save us from that fate, two things stand immediately before us to be done, unavoidable preliminaries to that more comprehensive work. the first of these is the restoration of representative government, and the second a renascence of our public thought about political and social things. as i have already suggested, a main factor in our present national inability to deal with this profound and increasing social disturbance is the entirely unrepresentative and unbusinesslike nature of our parliamentary government. it is to a quite extraordinary extent a thing apart from our national life. it becomes more and more so. to go into the house of commons is to go aside out of the general stream of the community's vitality into a corner where little is learnt and much is concocted, into a specialised assembly which is at once inattentive to and monstrously influential in our affairs. there was a period when the debates in the house of commons were an integral, almost a dominant, part of our national thought, when its speeches were read over in tens of thousands of homes, and a large and sympathetic public followed the details of every contested issue. now a newspaper that dared to fill its columns mainly with parliamentary debates, with a full report of the trivialities the academic points, the little familiar jokes, and entirely insincere pleadings which occupy that gathering would court bankruptcy. this diminishing actuality of our political life is a matter of almost universal comment to-day. but it is extraordinary how much of that comment is made in a tone of hopeless dissatisfaction, how rarely it is associated with any will to change a state of affairs that so largely stultifies our national purpose. and yet the causes of our present political ineptitude are fairly manifest, and a radical and effective reconstruction is well within the wit of man. all causes and all effects in our complex modern state are complex, but in this particular matter there can be little doubt that the key to the difficulty lies in the crudity and simplicity of our method of election, a method which reduces our apparent free choice of rulers to a ridiculous selection between undesirable alternatives, and hands our whole public life over to the specialised manipulator. our house of commons could scarcely misrepresent us more if it was appointed haphazard by the lord chamberlain or selected by lot from among the inhabitants of netting hill. election of representatives in one-member local constituencies by a single vote gives a citizen practically no choice beyond the candidates appointed by the two great party organisations in the state. it is an electoral system that forbids absolutely any vote splitting or any indication of shades of opinion. the presence of more than two candidates introduces an altogether unmanageable complication, and the voter is at once reduced to voting not to secure the return of the perhaps less hopeful candidate he likes, but to ensure the rejection of the candidate he most dislikes. so the nimble wire-puller slips in. in great britain we do not have elections any more; we have rejections. what really happens at a general election is that the party organisations--obscure and secretive conclaves with entirely mysterious funds--appoint about , men to be our rulers, and all that we, we so-called self-governing people, are permitted to do is, in a muddled, angry way, to strike off the names of about half of these selected gentlemen. take almost any member of the present government and consider his case. you may credit him with a lifelong industrious intention to get there, but ask yourself what is this man's distinction, and for what great thing in our national life does he stand? by the complaisance of our party machinery he was able to present himself to a perplexed constituency as the only possible alternative to conservatism and tariff reform, and so we have him. and so we have most of his colleagues. now such a system of representation is surely a system to be destroyed at any cost, because it stifles our national discussion and thwarts our national will. and we can leave no possible method of alteration untried. it is not rational that a great people should be baffled by the mere mechanical degeneration of an electoral method too crudely conceived. there exist alternatives, and to these alternatives we must resort. since john stuart mill first called attention to the importance of the matter there has been a systematic study of the possible working of electoral methods, and it is now fairly proved that in proportional representation, with large constituencies returning each many members, there is to be found a way of escape from this disastrous embarrassment of our public business by the party wire-puller and the party nominee. i will not dwell upon the particulars of the proportional representation system here. there exists an active society which has organised the education of the public in the details of the proposal. suffice it that it does give a method by which a voter may vote with confidence for the particular man he prefers, with no fear whatever that his vote will be wasted in the event of that man's chance being hopeless. there is a method by which the order of the voter's subsequent preference is effectively indicated. that is all, but see how completely it modifies the nature of an election. instead of a hampered choice between two, you have a free choice between many. such a change means a complete alteration in the quality of public life. the present immense advantage of the party nominee--which is the root cause, which is almost the sole cause of all our present political ineptitude--would disappear. he would be quite unable to oust any well-known and representative independent candidate who chose to stand against him. there would be an immediate alteration in type in the house of commons. in the place of these specialists in political getting-on there would be few men who had not already gained some intellectual and moral hold upon the community; they would already be outstanding and distinguished men before they came to the work of government. great sections of our national life, science, art, literature, education, engineering, manufacture would cease to be under-represented, or misrepresented by the energetic barrister and political specialist, and our legislature would begin to serve, as we have now such urgent need of its serving, as the means and instrument of that national conference upon the social outlook of which we stand in need. and it is to the need and nature of that conference that i would devote myself. i do not mean by the word conference any gathering of dull and formal and inattentive people in this dusty hall or that, with a jaded audience and intermittently active reporters, such as this word may conjure up to some imaginations. i mean an earnest direction of attention in all parts of the country to this necessity for a studied and elaborated project of conciliation and social co-operation we cannot afford to leave such things to specialised politicians and self-appointed, self-seeking "experts" any longer. a modern community has to think out its problems as a whole and co-operate as a whole in their solution. we have to bring all our national life into this discussion of the national plan before us, and not simply newspapers and periodicals and books, but pulpit and college and school have to bear their part in it. and in that particular i would appeal to the schools, because there more than anywhere else is the permanent quickening of our national imagination to be achieved. we want to have our young people filled with a new realisation that history is not over, that nothing is settled, and that the supreme dramatic phase in the story of england has still to come. it was not in the norman conquest, not in the flight of king james ii, nor the overthrow of napoleon; it is here and now. it falls to them to be actors not in a reminiscent pageant but a living conflict, and the sooner they are prepared to take their part in that the better our empire will acquit itself. how absurd is the preoccupation of our schools and colleges with the little provincialisms of our past history before a.d. ! "no current politics," whispers the schoolmaster, "no religion--except the coldest formalities _some parent might object_." and he pours into our country every year a fresh supply of gentlemanly cricketing youths, gapingly unprepared--unless they have picked up a broad generalisation or so from some surreptitious socialist pamphlet--for the immense issues they must control, and that are altogether uncontrollable if they fail to control them. the universities do scarcely more for our young men. all this has to be altered, and altered vigorously and soon, if our country is to accomplish its destinies. our schools and colleges exist for no other purpose than to give our youths a vision of the world and of their duties and possibilities in the world. we can no longer afford to have them the last preserves of an elderly orthodoxy and the last repository of a decaying gift of superseded tongues. they are needed too urgently to make our leaders leader-like and to sustain the active understandings of the race. and from the labour class itself we are also justified in demanding a far more effectual contribution to the national conference than it is making at the present time. mere eloquent apologies for distrust, mere denunciations of capitalism and appeals for a socialism as featureless as smoke, are unsatisfactory when one regards them as the entire contribution of the ascendant worker to the discussion of the national future. the labour thinker has to become definite in his demands and clearer upon the give and take that will be necessary before they can be satisfied. he has to realise rather more generously than he has done so far the enormous moral difficulty there is in bringing people who have been prosperous and at an advantage all their lives to the pitch of even contemplating a social reorganisation that may minimise or destroy their precedence. we have all to think, to think hard and think generously, and there is not a man in england to-day, even though his hands are busy at work, whose brain may not be helping in this great task of social rearrangement which lies before us all. social panaceas (_june, _.) to have followed the frequent discussions of the labour unrest in the press is to have learnt quite a lot about the methods of popular thought. and among other things i see now much better than i did why patent medicines are so popular. it is clear that as a community we are far too impatient of detail and complexity, we want overmuch to simplify, we clamour for panaceas, we are a collective invitation to quacks. our situation is an intricate one, it does not admit of a solution neatly done up in a word or a phrase. yet so powerful is this wish to simplify that it is difficult to make it clear that one is not oneself a panacea-monger. one writes and people read a little inattentively and more than a little impatiently, until one makes a positive proposal then they jump. "so _that's_ your remedy!" they say. "how absurdly inadequate!" i was privileged to take part in one such discussion in , and among other things in my diagnosis of the situation i pointed out the extreme mischief done to our public life by the futility of our electoral methods. they make our whole public life forensic and ineffectual, and i pointed out that this evil effect, which vitiates our whole national life, could be largely remedied by an infinitely better voting system known as proportional representation. thereupon the _westminster gazette_ declared in tones of pity and contempt that it was no remedy--and dismissed me. it would be as intelligent to charge a doctor who pushed back the crowd about a broken-legged man in the street with wanting to heal the limb by giving the sufferer air. the task before our community, the task of reorganising labour on a basis broader than that of employment for daily or weekly wages, is one of huge complexity, and it is as entirely reasonable as it is entirely preliminary to clean and modernise to the utmost our representative and legislative machinery. it is remarkable how dominant is this disposition to get a phrase, a word, a simple recipe, for an undertaking so vast in reality that for all the rest of our lives a large part of the activities of us, forty million people, will be devoted to its partial accomplishment. in the presence of very great issues people become impatient and irritated, as they would not allow themselves to be irritated by far more limited problems. nobody in his senses expects a panacea for the comparatively simple and trivial business of playing chess. nobody wants to be told to "rely wholly upon your pawns," or "never, never move your rook"; nobody clamours "give me a third knight and all will be well"; but that is exactly what everybody seems to be doing in our present discussion and as another aspect of the same impatience, i note the disposition to clamour against all sorts of necessary processes in the development of a civilisation. for example, i read over and over again of the failure of representative government, and in nine cases out of ten i find that this amounts to a cry against any sort of representative government. it is perfectly true that our representative institutions do not work well and need a vigorous overhauling, but while i find scarcely any support for such a revision, the air is full of vague dangerous demands for aristocracy, for oligarchy, for autocracy. it is like a man who jumps out of his automobile because he has burst a tyre, refuses a proffered stepney, and bawls passionately for anything--for a four-wheeler, or a donkey, as long as he can be free from that exploded mechanism. there are evidently quite a considerable number of people in this country who would welcome a tyrant at the present time, a strong, silent, cruel, imprisoning, executing, melodramatic sort of person, who would somehow manage everything while they went on--being silly. i find that form of impatience cropping up everywhere. i hear echoes of mr. blatchford's "wanted, a man," and we may yet see a general boulanger prancing in our streets. there never was a more foolish cry. it is not a man we want, but just exactly as many million men as there are in great britain at the present time, and it is you, the reader, and i, and the rest of us who must together go on with the perennial task of saving the country by _firstly_, doing our own jobs just as well as ever we can, and _secondly_--and this is really just as important as firstly--doing our utmost to grasp our national purpose, doing our utmost, that is, to develop and carry out our national plan. it is everyman who must be the saviour of the state in a modern community; we cannot shift our share in the burthen; and here again, i think, is something that may well be underlined and emphasised. at present our "secondly" is unduly subordinated to our "firstly"; our game is better individually than collectively; we are like a football team that passes badly, and our need is not nearly so much to change the players as to broaden their style. and this brings me, in a spirit entirely antagonistic, up against mr. galsworthy's suggestion of an autocratic revolution in the methods of our public schools. but before i go on to that, let me first notice a still more comprehensive cry that has been heard again and again in this discussion, and that is the alleged failure of education generally. there is never any remedial suggestion made with this particular outcry; it is merely a gust of abuse and insult for schools, and more particularly board schools, carrying with it a half-hearted implication that they should be closed, and then the contribution concludes. now there is no outcry at the present time more unjust or--except for the "wanted, a man" clamour--more foolish. no doubt our educational resources, like most other things, fall far short of perfection, but of all this imperfection the elementary schools are least imperfect; and i would almost go so far as to say that, considering the badness of their material, the huge, clumsy classes they have to deal with, the poorness of their directive administration, their bad pay and uncertain outlook, the elementary teachers of this country are amazingly efficient. and it is not simply that they are good under their existing conditions, but that this service has been made out of nothing whatever in the course of scarcely forty years. an educational system to cover an empire is not a thing that can be got for the asking, it is not even to be got for the paying; it has to be grown; and in the beginning it is bound to be thin, ragged, forced, crammy, text-bookish, superficial, and all the rest of it. as reasonable to complain that the children born last year were immature. a little army of teachers does not flash into being at the passing of an education act. not even an organisation for training those teachers comes to anything like satisfactory working order for many years, without considering the delays and obstructions that have been caused by the bickerings and bitterness of the various christian churches. so that it is not the failure of elementary education we have really to consider, but the continuance and extension of its already almost miraculous results. and when it comes to the education of the ruling and directing classes, there is kindred, if lesser reason, for tempering zeal with patience. this upper portion of our educational organisation needs urgently to be bettered, but it is not to be bettered by trying to find an archangel who will better it dictatorially. for the good of our souls there are no such beings to relieve us of our collective responsibility. it is clear that appointments in this field need not only far more care and far more insistence upon creative power than has been shown in the past, but for the rest we have to do with the men we have and the schools we have. we cannot have an educational purge, if only because we have not the new men waiting. here again the need is not impatience, not revolution, but a sustained and penetrating criticism, a steadfast, continuous urgency towards effort and well-planned reconstruction and efficiency. and as a last example of the present hysterical disposition to scrap things before they have been fairly tried is the outcry against examinations, which has done so much to take the keenness off the edge of school work in the last few years. because a great number of examiners chosen haphazard turned out to be negligent and incompetent as examiners, because their incapacity created a cynical trade in cramming, a great number of people have come to the conclusion, just as examinations are being improved into efficiency, that all examinations are bad. in particular that excellent method of bringing new blood and new energy into the public services and breaking up official gangs and cliques, the competitive examination system, has been discredited, and the wire-puller and the influential person are back again tampering with a steadily increasing proportion of appointments.... but i have written enough of this impatience, which is, as it were, merely the passion for reconstruction losing its head and defeating its own ends. there is no hope for us outside ourselves. no violent changes, no napoleonic saviours can carry on the task of building the great state, the civilised state that rises out of our disorders that is for us to do, all of us and each one of us. we have to think clearly, and study and consider and reconsider our ideas about public things to the very utmost of our possibilities. we have to clarify our views and express them and do all we can to stir up thinking and effort in those about us. i know it would be more agreeable for all of us if we could have some small pill-like remedy for all the troubles of the state, and take it and go on just as we are going now. but, indeed, to say a word for that idea would be a treason. we are the state, and there is no other way to make it better than to give it the service of our lives. just in the measure of the aggregate of our devotions and the elaborated and criticised sanity of our public proceedings will the world mend. i gather from a valuable publication called "secret remedies," which analyses many popular cures, that this hasty passion for simplicity, for just one thing that will settle the whole trouble, can carry people to a level beyond an undivided trust in something warranted in a bottle. they are ready to put their faith in what amounts to practically nothing in a bottle. and just at present, while a number of excellent people of the middle class think that only a "man" is wanted and all will be well with us, there is a considerable wave of hopefulness among the working class in favour of a weak solution of nothing, which is offered under the attractive label of syndicalism. so far i have been able to discuss the present labour situation without any use of this empty word, but when one finds it cropping up in every other article on the subject, it becomes advisable to point out what syndicalism is not. and incidentally it may enable me to make clear what socialism in the broader sense, constructive socialism, that is to say, is. syndicalism or citizenship "is a railway porter a railway porter first and a man afterwards, or is he a man first and incidentally a railway porter?" that is the issue between this tawdrification of trade unionism which is called syndicalism, and the ideals of that great state, that great commonweal, towards which the constructive forces in our civilisation tend. are we to drift on to a disastrous intensification of our present specialisation of labour as labour, or are we to set to work steadfastly upon a vast social reconstruction which will close this widening breach and rescue our community from its present dependence upon the reluctant and presently insurgent toil of a wages-earning proletariat? regarded as a project of social development, syndicalism is ridiculous; regarded as an illuminating and unintentionally ironical complement to the implicit theories of our present social order, it is worthy of close attention. the dream of the syndicalist is an impossible social fragmentation. the transport service is to be a democratic republic, the mines are to be a democratic republic, every great industry is to be a democratic republic within the state; our community is to become a conflict of inter-woven governments of workers, incapable of progressive changes of method or of extension or transmutation of function, the whole being of a man is to lie within his industrial specialisation, and, upon lines of causation not made clear, wages are to go on rising and hours of work are to go on falling.... there the mind halts, blinded by the too dazzling vistas of an unimaginative millennium and the way to this, one gathers, is by striking--persistent, destructive striking--until it comes about. such is syndicalism, the cheap labour panacea, to which the more passionate and less intelligent portion of the younger workers, impatient of the large constructive developments of modern socialism, drifts steadily. it is the direct and logical reaction to our present economic system, which has counted our workers neither as souls nor as heads, but as hands. they are beginning to accept the suggestions of that method. it is the culmination in aggression of that, at first, entirely protective trade unionism which the individual selfishness and collective short-sightedness and state blindness of our owning and directing and ruling classes forced upon the working man. at first trade unionism was essentially defensive; it was the only possible defence of the workers, who were being steadily pressed over the margin of subsistence. it was a nearly involuntary resistance to class debasement. mr. vernon hartshorn has expressed it as that in a recent article. but his paper, if one read it from beginning to end, displayed, compactly and completely, the unavoidable psychological development of the specialised labour case. he began in the mildest tones with those now respectable words, a "guaranteed minimum" of wages, housing, and so forth, and ended with a very clear intimation of an all-labour community. if anything is certain in this world, it is that the mass of the community will not rest satisfied with these guaranteed minima. all those possible legislative increments in the general standard of living are not going to diminish the labour unrest; they are going to increase it. a starving man may think he wants nothing in the world but bread, but when he has eaten you will find he wants all sorts of things beyond. mr. hartshorn assures us that the worker is "not out for a theory." so much the worse for the worker and all of us when, like the mere hand we have made him, he shows himself unable to define or even forecast his ultimate intentions. he will in that case merely clutch. and the obvious immediate next objective of that clutch directly its imagination passes beyond the "guaranteed minima" phase is the industry as a whole. i do not see how anyone who desires the continuing development of civilisation can regard a trade union as anything but a necessary evil, a pressure-relieving contrivance an arresting and delaying organisation begotten by just that class separation of labour which in the commonweal of the great state will be altogether destroyed. it leads nowhither; it is a shelter hut on the road. the wider movement of modern civilisation is against class organisation and caste feeling. these are forces antagonistic to progress, continually springing up and endeavouring to stereotype the transitory organisation, and continually being defeated. of all the solemn imbecilities one hears, surely the most foolish is this, that we are in "an age of specialisation." the comparative fruitfulness and hopefulness of our social order, in comparison with any other social system, lies in its flat contradiction of that absurdity. our medical and surgical advances, for example, are almost entirely due to the invasion of medical research by the chemist; our naval development to the supersession of the sailor by the engineer; we sweep away the coachman with the railway, beat the suburban line with the electric tramway, and attack that again with the petrol omnibus, oust brick and stonework in substantial fabrics by steel frames, replace the skilled maker of woodcuts by a photographer, and so on through the whole range of our activities. change of function, arrest of specialisation by innovations in method and appliance, progress by the infringement of professional boundaries and the defiance of rule: these are the commonplaces of our time. the trained man, the specialised man, is the most unfortunate of men; the world leaves him behind, and he has lost his power of overtaking it. versatility, alert adaptability, these are our urgent needs. in peace and war alike the unimaginative, uninventive man is a burthen and a retardation, as he never was before in the world's history. the modern community, therefore, that succeeds most rapidly and most completely in converting both its labourers and its leisure class into a population of active, able, unhurried, educated, and physically well-developed people will be inevitably the dominant community in the world. that lies on the face of things about us; a man who cannot see that must be blind to the traffic in our streets. syndicalism is not a plan of social development. it is a spirit of conflict. that conflict lies ahead of us, the open war of strikes, or--if the forces of law and order crush that down--then sabotage and that black revolt of the human spirit into crime which we speak of nowadays as anarchism, unless we can discover a broad and promising way from the present condition of things to nothing less than the complete abolition of the labour class. that, i know, sounds a vast proposal, but this is a gigantic business altogether, and we can do nothing with it unless we are prepared to deal with large ideas. if st. paul's begins to totter it is no good propping it up with half a dozen walking-sticks, and small palliatives have no legitimate place at all in this discussion. our generation has to take up this tremendous necessity of a social reconstruction in a great way; its broad lines have to be thought out by thousands of minds, and it is for that reason that i have put the stress upon our need of discussion, of a wide intellectual and moral stimulation of a stirring up in our schools and pulpits, and upon the modernisation and clarification of what should be the deliberative assembly of the nation. it would be presumptuous to anticipate the national plan that must emerge from so vast a debate, but certain conclusions i feel in my bones will stand the test of an exhaustive criticism. the first is that a distinction will be drawn between what i would call "interesting work" and what i would call "mere labour." the two things, i admit, pass by insensible gradations into one another, but while on the one hand such work as being a master gardener and growing roses, or a master cabinet maker and making fine pieces, or an artist of almost any sort, or a story writer, or a consulting physician, or a scientific investigator, or a keeper of wild animals, or a forester, or a librarian, or a good printer, or many sorts of engineer, is work that will always find men of a certain temperament enthusiastically glad to do it, if they can only do it for comfortable pay--for such work is in itself _living_--there is, on the other hand, work so irksome and toilsome, such as coal mining, or being a private soldier during a peace, or attending upon lunatics, or stoking, or doing over and over again, almost mechanically, little bits of a modern industrial process, or being a cash desk clerk in a busy shop, that few people would undertake if they could avoid it. and the whole strength of our collective intelligence will be directed first to reducing the amount of such irksome work by labour-saving machinery, by ingenuity of management, and by the systematic avoidance of giving trouble as a duty, and then to so distributing the residuum of it that it will become the whole life of no class whatever in our population. i have already quoted the idea of professor william james of a universal conscription for such irksome labour, and while he would have instituted that mainly for its immense moral effect upon the community, i would point out that, combined with a nationalisation of transport, mining, and so forth, it is also a way to a partial solution of this difficulty of "mere toil." and the mention of a compulsory period of labour service for everyone--a year or so with the pickaxe as well as with the rifle--leads me to another idea that i believe will stand the test of unlimited criticism, and that is a total condemnation of all these eight-hour-a-day, early-closing, guaranteed-weekly-half-holiday notions that are now so prevalent in liberal circles. under existing conditions, in our system of private enterprise and competition, these restrictions are no doubt necessary to save a large portion of our population from lives of continuous toil, but, like trade unionism, they are a necessity of our present conditions, and not a way to a better social state. if we rescue ourselves as a community from poverty and discomfort, we must take care not to fling ourselves into something far more infuriating to a normal human being--and that is boredom. the prospect of a carefully inspected sanitary life, tethered to some light, little, uninteresting daily job, six or eight hours of it, seems to me--and i am sure i write here for most normal, healthy, active people--more awful than hunger and death. it is far more in the quality of the human spirit, and still more what we all in our hearts want the human spirit to be, to fling itself with its utmost power at a job and do it with passion. for my own part, if i was sentenced to hew a thousand tons of coal, i should want to get at it at once and work furiously at it, with the shortest intervals for rest and refreshment and an occasional night holiday, until i hewed my way out, and if some interfering person with a benevolent air wanted to restrict me to hewing five hundredweight, and no more and no less, each day and every day, i should be strongly disposed to go for that benevolent person with my pick. that is surely what every natural man would want to do, and it is only the clumsy imperfection of our social organisation that will not enable a man to do his stint of labour in a few vigorous years and then come up into the sunlight for good and all. it is along that line that i feel a large part of our labour reorganisation, over and beyond that conscription, must ultimately go. the community as a whole would, i believe, get far more out of a man if he had such a comparatively brief passion of toil than if he worked, with occasional lapses into unemployment, drearily all his life. but at present, with our existing system of employment, one cannot arrange so comprehensive a treatment of a man's life. there is needed some state or quasi-public organisation which shall stand between the man and the employer, act as his banker and guarantor, and exact his proper price. then, with his toil over, he would have an adequate pension and be free to do nothing or anything else as he chose. in a socialistic order of society, where the state would also be largely the employer, such a method would be, of course, far more easily contrived. the more modern statements of socialism do not contemplate making the state the sole employer; it is chiefly in transport, mining, fisheries, forestry, the cultivation of the food staples, and the manufacture of a few such articles as bricks and steel, and possibly in housing in what one might call the standardisable industries, that the state is imagined as the direct owner and employer and it is just in these departments that the bulk of the irksome toil is to be found. there remain large regions of more specialised and individualised production that many socialists nowadays are quite prepared to leave to the freer initiatives of private enterprise. most of these are occupations involving a greater element of interest, less direction and more co-operation, and it is just here that the success of co-partnery and a sustained life participation becomes possible.... this complete civilised system without a specialised, property-less labour class is not simply a possibility, it is necessary; the whole social movement of the time, the stars in their courses, war against the permanence of the present state of affairs. the alternative to this gigantic effort to rearrange our world is not a continuation of muddling along, but social war. the syndicalist and his folly will be the avenger of lost opportunities. not a labour state do we want, nor a servile state, but a powerful leisure state of free men. the great state sec. for many years now i have taken a part in the discussion of socialism. during that time socialism has become a more and more ambiguous term. it has seemed to me desirable to clear up my own ideas of social progress and the public side of my life by restating them, and this i have attempted in this essay. in order to do so it has been convenient to coin two expressions, and to employ them with a certain defined intention. they are firstly: the normal social life, and secondly: the great state. throughout this essay these expressions will be used in accordance with the definitions presently to be given, and the fact that they are so used will be emphasised by the employment of capitals. it will be possible for anyone to argue that what is here defined as the normal social life is not the normal social life, and that the great state is indeed no state at all. that will be an argument outside the range delimited by these definitions. now what is intended by the normal social life here is a type of human association and employment, of extreme prevalence and antiquity, which appears to have been the lot of the enormous majority of human beings as far back as history or tradition or the vestiges of material that supply our conceptions of the neolithic period can carry us. it has never been the lot of all humanity at any time, to-day it is perhaps less predominant than it has ever been, yet even to-day it is probably the lot of the greater moiety of mankind. essentially this type of association presents a localised community, a community of which the greater proportion of the individuals are engaged more or less directly in the cultivation of the land. with this there is also associated the grazing or herding over wider or more restricted areas, belonging either collectively or discretely to the community, of sheep, cattle, goats, or swine, and almost always the domestic fowl is commensal with man in this life. the cultivated land at least is usually assigned, temporarily or inalienably, as property to specific individuals, and the individuals are grouped in generally monogamic families of which the father is the head. essentially the social unit is the family, and even where, as in mohammedan countries, there is no legal or customary restriction upon polygamy, monogamy still prevails as the ordinary way of living. unmarried women are not esteemed, and children are desired. according to the dangers or securities of the region, the nature of the cultivation and the temperament of the people, this community is scattered either widely in separate steadings or drawn together into villages. at one extreme, over large areas of thin pasture this agricultural community may verge on the nomadic; at another, in proximity to consuming markets, it may present the concentration of intensive culture. there may be an adjacent wild supplying wood, and perhaps controlled by a simple forestry. the law that holds this community together is largely traditional and customary and almost always as its primordial bond there is some sort of temple and some sort of priest. typically, the temple is devoted to a local god or a localised saint, and its position indicates the central point of the locality, its assembly place and its market. associated with the agriculture there are usually a few imperfectly specialised tradesmen, a smith, a garment-maker perhaps, a basket-maker or potter, who group about the church or temple. the community may maintain itself in a state of complete isolation, but more usually there are tracks or roads to the centres of adjacent communities, and a certain drift of travel, a certain trade in non-essential things. in the fundamentals of life this normal community is independent and self-subsisting, and where it is not beginning to be modified by the novel forces of the new times it produces its own food and drink, its own clothing, and largely intermarries within its limits. this in general terms is what is here intended by the phrase the normal social life. it is still the substantial part of the rural life of all europe and most asia and africa, and it has been the life of the great majority of human beings for immemorial years. it is the root life. it rests upon the soil, and from that soil below and its reaction to the seasons and the moods of the sky overhead have grown most of the traditions, institutions, sentiments, beliefs, superstitions, and fundamental songs and stories of mankind. but since the very dawn of history at least this normal social life has never been the whole complete life of mankind. quite apart from the marginal life of the savage hunter, there have been a number of forces and influences within men and women and without, that have produced abnormal and surplus ways of living, supplemental, additional, and even antagonistic to this normal scheme. and first as to the forces within men and women. long as it has lasted, almost universal as it has been, the human being has never yet achieved a perfect adaptation to the needs of the normal social life. he has attained nothing of that frictionless fitting to the needs of association one finds in the bee or the ant. curiosity, deep stirrings to wander, the still more ancient inheritance of the hunter, a recurrent distaste for labour, and resentment against the necessary subjugations of family life have always been a straining force within the agricultural community. the increase of population during periods of prosperity has led at the touch of bad seasons and adversity to the desperate reliefs of war and the invasion of alien localities. and the nomadic and adventurous spirit of man found reliefs and opportunities more particularly along the shores of great rivers and inland seas. trade and travel began, at first only a trade in adventitious things, in metals and rare objects and luxuries and slaves. with trade came writing and money; the inventions of debt and rent, usury and tribute. history finds already in its beginnings a thin network of trading and slaving flung over the world of the normal social life, a network whose strands are the early roads, whose knots are the first towns and the first courts. indeed, all recorded history is in a sense the history of these surplus and supplemental activities of mankind. the normal social life flowed on in its immemorial fashion, using no letters, needing no records, leaving no history. then, a little minority, bulking disproportionately in the record, come the trader, the sailor, the slave, the landlord and the tax-compeller, the townsman and the king. all written history is the story of a minority and their peculiar and abnormal affairs. save in so far as it notes great natural catastrophes and tells of the spreading or retrocession of human life through changes of climate and physical conditions it resolves itself into an account of a series of attacks and modifications and supplements made by excessive and superfluous forces engendered within the community upon the normal social life. the very invention of writing is a part of those modifying developments. the normal social life is essentially illiterate and traditional. the normal social life is as mute as the standing crops; it is as seasonal and cyclic as nature herself, and reaches towards the future only an intimation of continual repetitions. now this human over-life may take either beneficent or maleficent or neutral aspects towards the general life of humanity. it may present itself as law and pacification, as a positive addition and superstructure to the normal social life, as roads and markets and cities, as courts and unifying monarchies, as helpful and directing religious organisations, as literature and art and science and philosophy, reflecting back upon the individual in the normal social life from which it arose, a gilding and refreshment of new and wider interests and added pleasures and resources. one may define certain phases in the history of various countries when this was the state of affairs, when a countryside of prosperous communities with a healthy family life and a wide distribution of property, animated by roads and towns and unified by a generally intelligible religious belief, lived in a transitory but satisfactory harmony under a sympathetic government. i take it that this is the condition to which the minds of such original and vigorous reactionary thinkers as mr. g.k. chesterton and mr. hilaire belloc for example turn, as being the most desirable state of mankind. but the general effect of history is to present these phases as phases of exceptional good luck, and to show the surplus forces of humanity as on the whole antagonistic to any such equilibrium with the normal social life. to open the book of history haphazard is, most commonly, to open it at a page where the surplus forces appear to be in more or less destructive conflict with the normal social life. one opens at the depopulation of italy by the aggressive great estates of the roman empire, at the impoverishment of the french peasantry by a too centralised monarchy before the revolution, or at the huge degenerative growth of the great industrial towns of western europe in the nineteenth century. or again one opens at destructive wars. one sees these surplus forces over and above the normal social life working towards unstable concentrations of population, to centralisation of government, to migrations and conflicts upon a large scale; one discovers the process developing into a phase of social fragmentation and destruction and then, unless the whole country has been wasted down to its very soil, the normal social life returns as the heath and furze and grass return after the burning of a common. but it never returns in precisely its old form. the surplus forces have always produced some traceable change; the rhythm is a little altered. as between the gallic peasant before the roman conquest, the peasant of the gallic province, the carlovingian peasant, the french peasant of the thirteenth, the seventeenth, and the twentieth centuries, there is, in spite of a general uniformity of life, of a common atmosphere of cows, hens, dung, toil, ploughing, economy, and domestic intimacy, an effect of accumulating generalising influences and of wider relevancies. and the oscillations of empires and kingdoms, religious movements, wars, invasions, settlements leave upon the mind an impression that the surplus life of mankind, the less-localised life of mankind, that life of mankind which is not directly connected with the soil but which has become more or less detached from and independent of it, is becoming proportionately more important in relation to the normal social life. it is as if a different way of living was emerging from the normal social life and freeing itself from its traditions and limitations. and this is more particularly the effect upon the mind of a review of the history of the past two hundred years. the little speculative activities of the alchemist and natural philosopher, the little economic experiments of the acquisitive and enterprising landed proprietor, favoured by unprecedented periods of security and freedom, have passed into a new phase of extraordinary productivity. they had added preposterously and continue to add on a gigantic scale and without any evident limits to the continuation of their additions, to the resources of humanity. to the strength of horses and men and slaves has been added the power of machines and the possibility of economies that were once incredible the normal social life has been overshadowed as it has never been overshadowed before by the concentrations and achievements of the surplus life. vast new possibilities open to the race; the traditional life of mankind, its traditional systems of association, are challenged and threatened; and all the social thought, all the political activity of our time turns in reality upon the conflict of this ancient system whose essentials we have here defined and termed the normal social life with the still vague and formless impulses that seem destined either to involve it and the race in a final destruction or to replace it by some new and probably more elaborate method of human association. because there is the following difference between the action of the surplus forces as we see them to-day and as they appeared before the outbreak of physical science and mechanism. then it seemed clearly necessary that whatever social and political organisation developed, it must needs; rest ultimately on the tiller of the soil, the agricultural holding, and the normal social life. but now even in agriculture huge wholesale methods have appeared. they are declared to be destructive; but it is quite conceivable that they may be made ultimately as recuperative as that small agriculture which has hitherto been the inevitable social basis. if that is so, then the new ways of living may not simply impose themselves in a growing proportion upon the normal social life, but they may even oust it and replace it altogether. or they may oust it and fail to replace it. in the newer countries the normal social life does not appear to establish itself at all rapidly. no real peasantry appears in either america or australia; and in the older countries, unless there is the most elaborate legislative and fiscal protection, the peasant population wanes before the large farm, the estate, and overseas production. now most of the political and social discussion of the last hundred years may be regarded and rephrased as an attempt to apprehend this defensive struggle of the normal social life against waxing novelty and innovation and to give a direction and guidance to all of us who participate. and it is very largely a matter of temperament and free choice still, just where we shall decide to place ourselves. let us consider some of the key words of contemporary thought, such as liberalism, individualism, socialism, in the light of this broad generalisation we have made; and then we shall find it easier to explain our intention in employing as a second technicality the phrase of the great state as an opposite to the normal social life, which we have already defined. sec. the normal social life has been defined as one based on agriculture, traditional and essentially unchanging. it has needed no toleration and displayed no toleration for novelty and strangeness. its beliefs have been on such a nature as to justify and sustain itself, and it has had an intrinsic hostility to any other beliefs. the god of its community has been a jealous god even when he was only a tribal and local god. only very occasionally in history until the coming of the modern period do we find any human community relaxing from this ancient and more normal state of entire intolerance towards ideas or practices other than its own. when toleration and a receptive attitude towards alien ideas was manifested in the old world, it was at some trading centre or political centre; new ideas and new religions came by water along the trade routes. and such toleration as there was rarely extended to active teaching and propaganda. even in liberal athens the hemlock was in the last resort at the service of the ancient gods and the ancient morals against the sceptical critic. but with the steady development of innovating forces in human affairs there has actually grown up a cult of receptivity, a readiness for new ideas, a faith in the probable truth of novelties. liberalism--i do not, of course, refer in any way to the political party which makes this profession--is essentially anti-traditionalism; its tendency is to commit for trial any institution or belief that is brought before it. it is the accuser and antagonist of all the fixed and ancient values and imperatives and prohibitions of the normal social life. and growing up in relation to liberalism and sustained by it is the great body of scientific knowledge, which professes at least to be absolutely undogmatic and perpetually on its trial and under assay and re-examination. now a very large part of the advanced thought of the past century is no more than the confused negation of the broad beliefs and institutions which have been the heritage and social basis of humanity for immemorial years. this is as true of the extremest individualism as of the extremest socialism. the former denies that element of legal and customary control which has always subdued the individual to the needs of the normal social life, and the latter that qualified independence of distributed property which is the basis of family autonomy. both are movements against the ancient life, and nothing is more absurd than the misrepresentation which presents either as a conservative force. they are two divergent schools with a common disposition to reject the old and turn towards the new. the individualist professes a faith for which he has no rational evidence, that the mere abandonment of traditions and controls must ultimately produce a new and beautiful social order; while the socialist, with an equal liberalism, regards the outlook with a kind of hopeful dread, and insists upon an elaborate readjustment, a new and untried scheme of social organisation to replace the shattered and weakening normal social life. both these movements, and, indeed, all movements that are not movements for the subjugation of innovation and the restoration of tradition, are vague in the prospect they contemplate. they produce no definite forecasts of the quality of the future towards which they so confidently indicate the way. but this is less true of modern socialism than of its antithesis, and it becomes less and less true as socialism, under an enormous torrent of criticism, slowly washes itself clean from the mass of partial statement, hasty misstatement, sheer error and presumption that obscured its first emergence. but it is well to be very clear upon one point at this stage, and that is, that this present time is not a battle-ground between individualism and socialism; it is a battle-ground between the normal social life on the one hand and a complex of forces on the other which seek a form of replacement and seem partially to find it in these and other doctrines. nearly all contemporary thinkers who are not too muddled to be assignable fall into one of three classes, of which the third we shall distinguish is the largest and most various and divergent. it will be convenient to say a little of each of these classes before proceeding to a more particular account of the third. our analysis will cut across many accepted classifications, but there will be ample justification for this rearrangement. all of them may be dealt with quite justly as accepting the general account of the historical process which is here given. then first we must distinguish a series of writers and thinkers which one may call--the word conservative being already politically assigned--the conservators. these are people who really do consider the normal social life as the only proper and desirable life for the great mass of humanity, and they are fully prepared to subordinate all exceptional and surplus lives to the moral standards and limitations that arise naturally out of the normal social life. they desire a state in which property is widely distributed, a community of independent families protected by law and an intelligent democratic statecraft from the economic aggressions of large accumulations and linked by a common religion. their attitude to the forces of change is necessarily a hostile attitude. they are disposed to regard innovations in transit and machinery as undesirable, and even mischievous disturbances of a wholesome equilibrium. they are at least unfriendly to any organisation of scientific research, and scornful of the pretensions of science. criticisms of the methods of logic, scepticism of the more widely diffused human beliefs, they would classify as insanity. two able english writers, mr. g.k. chesterton and mr. belloc, have given the clearest expression to this system of ideals, and stated an admirable case for it. they present a conception of vinous, loudly singing, earthy, toiling, custom-ruled, wholesome, and insanitary men; they are pagan in the sense that their hearts are with the villagers and not with the townsmen, christian in the spirit of the parish priest. there are no other conservators so clear-headed and consistent. but their teaching is merely the logical expression of an enormous amount of conservative feeling. vast multitudes of less lucid minds share their hostility to novelty and research; hate, dread, and are eager to despise science, and glow responsive to the warm, familiar expressions of primordial feelings and immemorial prejudices the rural conservative, the liberal of the allotments and small-holdings type, mr. roosevelt--in his western-farmer, philoprogenitive phase as distinguished from the phase of his more imperialist moments--all present themselves as essentially conservators as seekers after and preservers of the normal social life. so, too, do socialists of the william morris type. the mind of william morris was profoundly reactionary he hated the whole trend of later nineteenth-century modernism with the hatred natural to a man of considerable scholarship and intense aesthetic sensibilities. his mind turned, exactly as mr. belloc's turns, to the finished and enriched normal social life of western europe in the middle ages, but, unlike mr. belloc, he believed that, given private ownership of land and the ordinary materials of life, there must necessarily be an aggregatory process, usury, expropriation, the development of an exploiting wealthy class. he believed profit was the devil. his "news from nowhere" pictures a communism that amounted in fact to little more than a system of private ownership of farms and trades without money or any buying and selling, in an atmosphere of geniality, generosity, and mutual helpfulness. mr. belloc, with a harder grip upon the realities of life, would have the widest distribution of proprietorship, with an alert democratic government continually legislating against the protean reappearances of usury and accumulation and attacking, breaking up, and redistributing any large unanticipated bodies of wealth that appeared. but both men are equally set towards the normal social life, and equally enemies of the new. the so-called "socialist" land legislation of new zealand again is a tentative towards the realisation of the same school of ideas: great estates are to be automatically broken up, property is to be kept disseminated; a vast amount of political speaking and writing in america and throughout the world enforces one's impression of the widespread influence of conservator ideals. of course, it is inevitable that phases of prosperity for the normal social life will lead to phases of over-population and scarcity, there will be occasional famines and occasional pestilences and plethoras of vitality leading to the blood-letting of war. i suppose mr. chesterton and mr. belloc at least have the courage of their opinions, and are prepared to say that such things always have been and always must be; they are part of the jolly rhythms of the human lot under the sun, and are to be taken with the harvest home and love-making and the peaceful ending of honoured lives as an integral part of the unending drama of mankind. sec. now opposed to the conservators are all those who do not regard contemporary humanity as a final thing nor the normal social life as the inevitable basis of human continuity. they believe in secular change, in progress, in a future for our species differing continually more from its past. on the whole, they are prepared for the gradual disentanglement of men from the normal social life altogether, and they look for new ways of living and new methods of human association with a certain adventurous hopefulness. now, this second large class does not so much admit of subdivision into two as present a great variety of intermediaries between two extremes. i propose to give distinctive names to these extremes, with the very clear proviso that they are not antagonised, and that the great multitude of this second, anti-conservator class, this liberal, more novel class modern conditions have produced falls between them, and is neither the one nor the other, but partaking in various degrees of both. on the one hand, then, we have that type of mind which is irritated by and distrustful of all collective proceedings which is profoundly distrustful of churches and states, which is expressed essentially by individualism. the individualist appears to regard the extensive disintegrations of the normal social life that are going on to-day with an extreme hopefulness. whatever is ugly or harsh in modern industrialism or in the novel social development of our time he seems to consider as a necessary aspect of a process of selection and survival, whose tendencies are on the whole inevitably satisfactory. the future welfare of man he believes in effect may be trusted to the spontaneous and planless activities of people of goodwill, and nothing but state intervention can effectively impede its attainment. and curiously close to this extreme optimistic school in its moral quality and logical consequences, though contrasting widely in the sinister gloom of its spirit, is the socialism of karl marx. he declared the contemporary world to be a great process of financial aggrandisement and general expropriation, of increasing power for the few and of increasing hardship and misery for the many, a process that would go on until at last a crisis of unendurable tension would be reached and the social revolution ensue. the world had, in fact, to be worse before it could hope to be better. he contemplated a continually exacerbated class war, with a millennium of extraordinary vagueness beyond as the reward of the victorious workers. his common quality with the individualist lies in his repudiation of and antagonism to plans and arrangements, in his belief in the overriding power of law. their common influence is the discouragement of collective understandings upon the basis of the existing state. both converge in practice upon _laissez faire_. i would therefore lump them together under the term of planless progressives, and i would contrast with them those types which believe supremely in systematised purpose. the purposeful and systematic types, in common with the individualist and marxist, regard the normal social life, for all the many thousands of years behind it, as a phase, and as a phase which is now passing, in human experience; and they are prepared for a future society that may be ultimately different right down to its essential relationships from the human past. but they also believe that the forces that have been assailing and disintegrating the normal social life, which have been, on the one hand, producing great accumulations of wealth, private freedom, and ill-defined, irresponsible and socially dangerous power, and, on the other, labour hordes, for the most part urban, without any property or outlook except continuous toil and anxiety, which in england have substituted a dischargeable agricultural labourer for the independent peasant almost completely, and in america seem to be arresting any general development of the normal social life at all, are forces of wide and indefinite possibility that need to be controlled by a collective effort implying a collective design, deflected from merely injurious consequences and organised for a new human welfare upon new lines. they agree with that class of thinking i have distinguished as the conservators in their recognition of vast contemporary disorders and their denial of the essential beneficence of change. but while the former seem to regard all novelty and innovation as a mere inundation to be met, banked back, defeated and survived, these more hopeful and adventurous minds would rather regard contemporary change as amounting on the whole to the tumultuous and almost catastrophic opening-up of possible new channels, the violent opportunity of vast, deep, new ways to great unprecedented human ends, ends that are neither feared nor evaded. now while the conservators are continually talking of the "eternal facts" of human life and human nature and falling back upon a conception of permanence that is continually less true as our perspectives extend, these others are full of the conception of adaptation, of deliberate change in relationship and institution to meet changing needs. i would suggest for them, therefore, as opposed to the conservators and contrasted with the planless progressives, the name of constructors. they are the extreme right, as it were, while the planless progressives are the extreme left of anti-conservator thought. i believe that these distinctions i have made cover practically every clear form of contemporary thinking, and are a better and more helpful classification than any now current. but, of course, nearly every individual nowadays is at least a little confused, and will be found to wobble in the course even of a brief discussion between one attitude and the other. this is a separation of opinions rather than of persons. and particularly that word socialism has become so vague and incoherent that for a man to call himself a socialist nowadays is to give no indication whatever whether he is a conservator like william morris, a non-constructor like karl marx, or a constructor of any of half a dozen different schools. on the whole, however, modern socialism tends to fall towards the constructor wing. so, too, do those various movements in england and germany and france called variously nationalist and imperialist, and so do the american civic and social reformers. under the same heading must come such attempts to give the vague impulses of syndicalism a concrete definition as the "guild socialism" of mr. orage. all these movements are agreed that the world is progressive towards a novel and unprecedented social order, not necessarily and fatally better, and that it needs organised and even institutional guidance thither, however much they differ as to the form that order should assume. for the greater portion of a century socialism has been before the world, and it is not perhaps premature to attempt a word or so of analysis of that great movement in the new terms we are here employing. the origins of the socialist idea were complex and multifarious never at any time has it succeeded in separating out a statement of itself that was at once simple, complete and acceptable to any large proportion of those who call themselves socialists. but always it has pointed to two or three definite things. the first of these is that unlimited freedoms of private property, with increasing facilities of exchange, combination, and aggrandisement, become more and more dangerous to human liberty by the expropriation and reduction to private wages slavery of larger and larger proportions of the population. every school of socialism states this in some more or less complete form, however divergent the remedial methods suggested by the different schools. and, next, every school of socialism accepts the concentration of management and property as necessary, and declines to contemplate what is the typical conservator remedy, its re-fragmentation. accordingly it sets up not only against the large private owner, but against owners generally, the idea of a public proprietor, the state, which shall hold in the collective interest. but where the earlier socialisms stopped short, and where to this day socialism is vague, divided, and unprepared, is upon the psychological problems involved in that new and largely unprecedented form of proprietorship, and upon the still more subtle problems of its attainment. these are vast, and profoundly, widely, and multitudinously difficult problems, and it was natural and inevitable that the earlier socialists in the first enthusiasm of their idea should minimise these difficulties, pretend in the fullness of their faith that partial answers to objections were complete answers, and display the common weaknesses of honest propaganda the whole world over. socialism is now old enough to know better. few modern socialists present their faith as a complete panacea, and most are now setting to work in earnest upon these long-shirked preliminary problems of human interaction through which the vital problem of a collective head and brain can alone be approached. a considerable proportion of the socialist movement remains, as it has been from the first, vaguely democratic. it points to collective ownership with no indication of the administrative scheme it contemplates to realise that intention. necessarily it remains a formless claim without hands to take hold of the thing it desires. indeed in a large number of cases it is scarcely more than a resentful consciousness in the expropriated masses of social disintegration. it spends its force very largely in mere revenges upon property as such, attacks simply destructive by reason of the absence of any definite ulterior scheme. it is an ill-equipped and planless belligerent who must destroy whatever he captures because he can neither use nor take away. a council of democratic socialists in possession of london would be as capable of an orderly and sustained administration as the anabaptists in munster. but the discomforts and disorders of our present planless system do tend steadily to the development of this crude socialistic spirit in the mass of the proletariat; merely vindictive attacks upon property, sabotage, and the general strike are the logical and inevitable consequences of an uncontrolled concentration of property in a few hands, and such things must and will go on, the deep undertow in the deliquescence of the normal social life, until a new justice, a new scheme of compensations and satisfactions is attained, or the normal social life re-emerges. fabian socialism was the first systematic attempt to meet the fatal absence of administrative schemes in the earlier socialisms. it can scarcely be regarded now as anything but an interesting failure, but a failure that has all the educational value of a first reconnaissance into unexplored territory. starting from that attack on aggregating property, which is the common starting-point of all socialist projects, the fabians, appalled at the obvious difficulties of honest confiscation and an open transfer from private to public hands, conceived the extraordinary idea of _filching_ property for the state. a small body of people of extreme astuteness were to bring about the municipalisation and nationalisation first of this great system of property and then of that, in a manner so artful that the millionaires were to wake up one morning at last, and behold, they would find themselves poor men! for a decade or more mr. pease, mr. bernard shaw, mr. and mrs. sidney webb, mrs. besant, dr. lawson dodd, and their associates of the london fabian society, did pit their wits and ability, or at any rate the wits and ability of their leisure moments, against the embattled capitalists of england and the world, in this complicated and delicate enterprise, without any apparent diminution of the larger accumulations of wealth. but in addition they developed another side of fabianism, still more subtle, which professed to be a kind of restoration in kind of property to the proletariat and in this direction they were more successful. a dexterous use, they decided, was to be made of the poor law, the public health authority, the education authority, and building regulations and so forth, to create, so to speak, a communism of the lower levels. the mass of people whom the forces of change had expropriated were to be given a certain minimum of food, shelter, education, and sanitation, and this, the socialists were assured, could be used as the thin end of the wedge towards a complete communism. the minimum, once established, could obviously be raised continually until either everybody had what they needed, or the resources of society gave out and set a limit to the process. this second method of attack brought the fabian movement into co-operation with a large amount of benevolent and constructive influence outside the socialist ranks altogether. few wealthy people really grudge the poor a share of the necessities of life, and most are quite willing to assist in projects for such a distribution. but while these schemes naturally involved a very great amount of regulation and regimentation of the affairs of the poor, the fabian society fell away more and more from its associated proposals for the socialisation of the rich. the fabian project changed steadily in character until at last it ceased to be in any sense antagonistic to wealth as such. if the lion did not exactly lie down with the lamb, at any rate the man with the gun and the alleged social mad dog returned very peaceably together. the fabian hunt was up. great financiers contributed generously to a school of economics that had been founded with moneys left to the fabian society by earlier enthusiasts for socialist propaganda and education. it remained for mr. belloc to point the moral of the whole development with a phrase, to note that fabianism no longer aimed at the socialisation of the whole community, but only at the socialisation of the poor. the first really complete project for a new social order to replace the normal social life was before the world, and this project was the compulsory regimentation of the workers and the complete state control of labour under a new plutocracy. our present chaos was to be organised into a servile state. sec. now to many of us who found the general spirit of the socialist movement at least hopeful and attractive and sympathetic, this would be an almost tragic conclusion, did we believe that fabianism was anything more than the first experiment in planning--and one almost inevitably shallow and presumptuous--of the long series that may be necessary before a clear light breaks upon the road humanity must follow. but we decline to be forced by this one intellectual fiasco towards the _laissez faire_ of the individualist and the marxist, or to accept the normal social life with its atmosphere of hens and cows and dung, its incessant toil, its servitude of women, and its endless repetitions as the only tolerable life conceivable for the bulk of mankind--as the ultimate life, that is, of mankind. with less arrogance and confidence, but it may be with a firmer faith, we declare that we believe a more spacious social order than any that exists or ever has existed, a peace of the world in which there is an almost universal freedom, health, happiness, and well-being and which contains the seeds of a still greater future, is possible to mankind. we propose to begin again with the recognition of those same difficulties the fabians first realised. but we do not propose to organise a society, form a group for the control of the two chief political parties, bring about "socialism" in twenty-five years, or do anything beyond contributing in our place and measure to that constructive discussion whose real magnitude we now begin to realise. we have faith in a possible future, but it is a faith that makes the quality of that future entirely dependent upon the strength and clearness of purpose that this present time can produce. we do not believe the greater social state is inevitable. yet there is, we hold, a certain qualified inevitability about this greater social state because we believe any social state not affording a general contentment, a general freedom, and a general and increasing fullness of life, must sooner or later collapse and disintegrate again, and revert more or less completely to the normal social life, and because we believe the normal social life is itself thick-sown with the seeds of fresh beginnings. the normal social life has never at any time been absolutely permanent, always it has carried within itself the germs of enterprise and adventure and exchanges that finally attack its stability. the superimposed social order of to-day, such as it is, with its huge development of expropriated labour, and the schemes of the later fabians to fix this state of affairs in an organised form and render it plausibly tolerable, seem also doomed to accumulate catastrophic tensions. bureaucratic schemes for establishing the regular lifelong subordination of a labouring class, enlivened though they may be by frequent inspection, disciplinary treatment during seasons of unemployment, compulsory temperance, free medical attendance, and a cheap and shallow elementary education fail to satisfy the restless cravings in the heart of man. they are cravings that even the baffling methods of the most ingeniously worked conciliation boards cannot permanently restrain. the drift of any servile state must be towards a class revolt, paralysing sabotage and a general strike. the more rigid and complete the servile state becomes, the more thorough will be its ultimate failure. its fate is decay or explosion. from its débris we shall either revert to the normal social life and begin again the long struggle towards that ampler, happier, juster arrangement of human affairs which we of this book, at any rate, believe to be possible, or we shall pass into the twilight of mankind. this greater social life we put, then, as the only real alternative to the normal social life from which man is continually escaping. for it we do not propose to use the expressions the "socialist state" or "socialism," because we believe those terms have now by constant confused use become so battered and bent and discoloured by irrelevant associations as to be rather misleading than expressive. we propose to use the term the great state to express this ideal of a social system no longer localised, no longer immediately tied to and conditioned by the cultivation of the land, world-wide in its interests and outlook and catholic in its tolerance and sympathy, a system of great individual freedom with a universal understanding among its citizens of a collective thought and purpose. now, the difficulties that lie in the way of humanity in its complex and toilsome journey through the coming centuries towards this great state are fundamentally difficulties of adaptation and adjustment. to no conceivable social state is man inherently fitted: he is a creature of jealousy and suspicion, unstable, restless, acquisitive, aggressive, intractable, and of a most subtle and nimble dishonesty. moreover, he is imaginative, adventurous, and inventive. his nature and instincts are as much in conflict with the necessary restrictions and subjugation of the normal social life as they are likely to be with any other social net that necessity may weave about him. but the normal social life has this advantage that it has a vast accumulated moral tradition and a minutely worked-out material method. all the fundamental institutions have arisen in relation to it and are adapted to its conditions. to revert to it after any phase of social chaos and distress is and will continue for many years to be the path of least resistance for perplexed humanity. this conception of the great state, on the other hand, is still altogether unsubstantial. it is a project as dream-like to-day as electric lighting, electric traction, or aviation would have been in the year . in a man reasonably conversant with the physical science of his time could have declared with a very considerable confidence that, given a certain measure of persistence and social security, these things were more likely to be attained than not in the course of the next century. but such a prophecy was conditional on the preliminary accumulation of a considerable amount of knowledge, on many experiments and failures. had the world of , by some wave of impulse, placed all its resources in the hands of the ablest scientific man alive, and asked him to produce a practicable paying electric vehicle before , at best he would have produced some clumsy, curious toy, more probably he would have failed altogether; and, similarly, if the whole population of the world came to the present writer and promised meekly to do whatever it was told, we should find ourselves still very largely at a loss in our project for a millennium. yet just as nearly every man at work upon voltaic electricity in knew that he was preparing for electric traction, so do i know quite certainly, in spite of a whole row of unsolved problems before me, that i am working towards the great state. let me briefly recapitulate the main problems which have to be attacked in the attempt to realise the outline of the great state. at the base of the whole order there must be some method of agricultural production, and if the agricultural labourer and cottager and the ancient life of the small householder on the holding, a life laborious, prolific, illiterate, limited, and in immediate contact with the land used, is to recede and disappear it must recede and disappear before methods upon a much larger scale, employing wholesale machinery and involving great economies. it is alleged by modern writers that the permanent residence of the cultivator in close relation to his ground is a legacy from the days of cumbrous and expensive transit, that the great proportion of farm work is seasonal, and that a migration to and fro between rural and urban conditions would be entirely practicable in a largely planned community. the agricultural population could move out of town into an open-air life as the spring approached, and return for spending, pleasure, and education as the days shortened. already something of this sort occurs under extremely unfavourable conditions in the movement of the fruit and hop pickers from the east end of london into kent, but that is a mere hint of the extended picnic which a broadly planned cultivation might afford. a fully developed civilisation, employing machines in the hands of highly skilled men, will minimise toil to the very utmost, no man will shove where a machine can shove, or carry where a machine can carry; but there will remain, more particularly in the summer, a vast amount of hand operations, invigorating and even attractive to the urban population given short hours, good pay, and all the jolly amusement in the evening camp that a free, happy, and intelligent people will develop for themselves, and there will be little difficulty about this particular class of work to differentiate it from any other sort of necessary labour. one passes, therefore, with no definite transition from the root problem of agricultural production in the great state to the wider problem of labour in general. a glance at the countryside conjures up a picture of extensive tracts being cultivated on a wholesale scale, of skilled men directing great ploughing, sowing, and reaping plants, steering cattle and sheep about carefully designed enclosures, constructing channels and guiding sewage towards its proper destination on the fields, and then of added crowds of genial people coming out to spray trees and plants, pick and sort and pack fruits. but who are these people? why are they in particular doing this for the community? is our great state still to have a majority of people glad to do commonplace work for mediocre wages, and will there be other individuals who will ride by on the roads, sympathetically, no doubt, but with a secret sense of superiority? so one opens the general problem of the organisation for labour. i am careful here to write "for labour" and not "of labour," because it is entirely against the spirit of the great state that any section of the people should be set aside as a class to do most of the monotonous, laborious, and uneventful things for the community. that is practically the present arrangement, and that, with a quickened sense of the need of breaking people in to such a life, is the ideal of the bureaucratic servile state to which, in common with the conservators, we are bitterly opposed. and here i know i am at my most difficult, most speculative, and most revolutionary point. we who look to the great state as the present aim of human progress believe a state may solve its economic problem without any section whatever of the community being condemned to lifelong labour. and contemporary events, the phenomena of recent strikes, the phenomena of sabotage, carry out the suggestion that in a community where nearly everyone reads extensively travels about, sees the charm and variety in the lives of prosperous and leisurely people, no class is going to submit permanently to modern labour conditions without extreme resistance, even after the most elaborate labour conciliation schemes and social minima are established things are altogether too stimulating to the imagination nowadays. of all impossible social dreams that belief in tranquillised and submissive and virtuous labour is the wildest of all. no sort of modern men will stand it. they will as a class do any vivid and disastrous thing rather than stand it. even the illiterate peasant will only endure lifelong toil under the stimulus of private ownership and with the consolations of religion; and the typical modern worker has neither the one nor the other. for a time, indeed, for a generation or so even, a labour mass may be fooled or coerced, but in the end it will break out against its subjection, even if it breaks out to a general social catastrophe. we have, in fact, to invent for the great state, if we are to suppose any great state at all, an economic method without any specific labour class. if we cannot do so, we had better throw ourselves in with the conservators forthwith, for they are right and we are absurd. adhesion to the conception of the great state involves adhesion to the belief that the amount of regular labour, skilled and unskilled, required to produce everything necessary for everyone living in its highly elaborate civilisation may, under modern conditions, with the help of scientific economy and power-producing machinery, be reduced to so small a number of working hours per head in proportion to the average life of the citizen, as to be met as regards the greater moiety of it by the payment of wages over and above the gratuitous share of each individual in the general output; and as regards the residue, a residue of rough, disagreeable, and monotonous operations, by some form of conscription, which will demand a year or so, let us say, of each person's life for the public service. if we reflect that in the contemporary state there is already food, shelter, and clothing of a sort for everyone, in spite of the fact that enormous numbers of people do no productive work at all because they are too well off, that great numbers are out of work, great numbers by bad nutrition and training incapable of work, and that an enormous amount of the work actually done is the overlapping production of competitive trade and work upon such politically necessary but socially useless things as dreadnoughts, it becomes clear that the absolutely unavoidable labour in a modern community and its ratio to the available vitality must be of very small account indeed. but all this has still to be worked out even in the most general terms. an intelligent science of economics should afford standards and technicalities and systematised facts upon which to base an estimate. the point was raised a quarter of a century ago by morris in his "news from nowhere," and indeed it was already discussed by more in his "utopia." our contemporary economics is, however, still a foolish, pretentious pseudo-science, a festering mass of assumptions about buying and selling and wages-paying, and one would as soon consult bradshaw or the works of dumas as our orthodox professors of economics for any light upon this fundamental matter. moreover, we believe that there is a real disposition to work in human beings, and that in a well-equipped community, in which no one was under an unavoidable urgency to work, the greater proportion of productive operations could be made sufficiently attractive to make them desirable occupations. as for the irreducible residue of undesirable toil, i owe to my friend the late professor william james this suggestion of a general conscription and a period of public service for everyone, a suggestion which greatly occupied his thoughts during the last years of his life. he was profoundly convinced of the high educational and disciplinary value of universal compulsory military service, and of the need of something more than a sentimental ideal of duty in public life. he would have had the whole population taught in the schools and prepared for this year (or whatever period it had to be) of patient and heroic labour, the men for the mines, the fisheries, the sanitary services, railway routine, the women for hospital, and perhaps educational work, and so forth. he believed such a service would permeate the whole state with a sense of civic obligation.... but behind all these conceivable triumphs of scientific adjustment and direction lies the infinitely greater difficulty on our way to the great state, the difficulty of direction. what sort of people are going to distribute the work of the community, decide what is or is not to be done, determine wages, initiate enterprises; and under what sort of criticism, checks, and controls are they going to do this delicate and extensive work? with this we open the whole problem of government, administration and officialdom. the marxist and the democratic socialist generally shirk this riddle altogether; the fabian conception of a bureaucracy, official to the extent of being a distinct class and cult, exists only as a starting-point for healthy repudiations. whatever else may be worked out in the subtler answers our later time prepares, nothing can be clearer than that the necessary machinery of government must be elaborately organised to prevent the development of a managing caste in permanent conspiracy, tacit or expressed, against the normal man. quite apart from the danger of unsympathetic and fatally irritating government there can be little or no doubt that the method of making men officials for life is quite the worst way of getting official duties done. officialdom is a species of incompetence. this rather priggish, teachable, and well-behaved sort of boy, who is attracted by the prospect of assured income and a pension to win his way into the civil service, and who then by varied assiduities rises to a sort of timidly vindictive importance, is the last person to whom we would willingly entrust the vital interests of a nation. we want people who know about life at large, who will come to the public service seasoned by experience, not people who have specialised and acquired that sort of knowledge which is called, in much the same spirit of qualification as one speaks of german silver, expert knowledge. it is clear our public servants and officials must be so only for their periods of service. they must be taught by life, and not "trained" by pedagogues. in every continuing job there is a time when one is crude and blundering, a time, the best time, when one is full of the freshness and happiness of doing well, and a time when routine has largely replaced the stimulus of novelty. the great state will, i feel convinced, regard changes in occupation as a proper circumstance in the life of every citizen; it will value a certain amateurishness in its service, and prefer it to the trite omniscience of the stale official. on that score of the necessity or versatility, if on no other score, i am flatly antagonistic to the conceptions of "guild socialism" which have arisen recently out of the impact of mr. penty and syndicalism upon the uneasy intelligence of mr. orage. and since the fabian socialists have created a widespread belief that in their projected state every man will be necessarily a public servant or a public pupil because the state will be the only employer and the only educator, it is necessary to point out that the great state presupposes neither the one nor the other. it is a form of liberty and not a form of enslavement. we agree with the older forms of socialism in supposing an initial proprietary independence in every citizen. the citizen is a shareholder in the state. above that and after that, he works if he chooses. but if he likes to live on his minimum and do nothing--though such a type of character is scarcely conceivable--he can. his earning is his own surplus. above the basal economics of the great state we assume with confidence there will be a huge surplus of free spending upon extra-collective ends. public organisations, for example, may distribute impartially and possibly even print and make ink and paper for the newspapers in the great state, but they will certainly not own them. only doctrine-driven men have ever ventured to think they would. nor will the state control writers and artists, for example, nor the stage--though it may build and own theatres--the tailor, the dressmaker, the restaurant cook, an enormous multitude of other busy workers-for-preferences. in the great state of the future, as in the life of the more prosperous classes of to-day, the greater proportion of occupations and activities will be private and free. i would like to underline in the most emphatic way that it is possible to have this great state, essentially socialistic, owning and running the land and all the great public services, sustaining everybody in absolute freedom at a certain minimum of comfort and well-being, and still leaving most of the interests, amusements, and adornments of the individual life, and all sorts of collective concerns, social and political discussion, religious worship, philosophy, and the like to the free personal initiatives of entirely unofficial people. this still leaves the problem of systematic knowledge and research, and all the associated problems of aesthetic, moral, and intellectual initiative to be worked out in detail; but at least it dispels the nightmare of a collective mind organised as a branch of the civil service, with authors, critics, artists, scientific investigators appointed in a phrensy of wire-pulling--as nowadays the british state appoints its bishops for the care of its collective soul. let me now indicate how these general views affect the problem of family organisation and the problem of women's freedom. in the normal social life the position of women is easily defined. they are subordinated but important. the citizenship rests with the man, and the woman's relation to the community as a whole is through a man. but within that limitation her functions as mother, wife, and home-maker are cardinal. it is one of the entirely unforeseen consequences that have arisen from the decay of the normal social life and its autonomous home that great numbers of women while still subordinate have become profoundly unimportant they have ceased to a very large extent to bear children, they have dropped most of their home-making arts, they no longer nurse nor educate such children as they have, and they have taken on no new functions that compensate for these dwindling activities of the domestic interior. that subjugation which is a vital condition to the normal social life does not seem to be necessary to the great state. it may or it may not be necessary. and here we enter upon the most difficult of all our problems. the whole spirit of the great state is against any avoidable subjugation; but the whole spirit of that science which will animate the great state forbids us to ignore woman's functional and temperamental differences. a new status has still to be invented for women, a feminine citizenship differing in certain respects from the normal masculine citizenship. its conditions remain to be worked out. we have indeed to work out an entire new system of relations between men and women, that will be free from servitude, aggression, provocation, or parasitism. the public endowment of motherhood as such may perhaps be the first broad suggestion of the quality of this new status. a new type of family, a mutual alliance in the place of a subjugation, is perhaps the most startling of all the conceptions which confront us directly we turn ourselves definitely towards the great state. and as our conception of the great state grows, so we shall begin to realise the nature of the problem of transition, the problem of what we may best do in the confusion of the present time to elucidate and render practicable this new phase of human organisation. of one thing there can be no doubt, that whatever increases thought and knowledge moves towards our goal; and equally certain is it that nothing leads thither that tampers with the freedom of spirit, the independence of soul in common men and women. in many directions, therefore, the believer in the great state will display a jealous watchfulness of contemporary developments rather than a premature constructiveness. we must watch wealth; but quite as necessary it is to watch the legislator, who mistakes propaganda for progress and class exasperation to satisfy class vindictiveness for construction. supremely important is it to keep discussion open, to tolerate no limitation on the freedom of speech, writing, art and book distribution, and to sustain the utmost liberty of criticism upon all contemporary institutions and processes. this briefly is the programme of problems and effort to which my idea of the great state, as the goal of contemporary progress, leads me. the diagram on p. shows compactly the gist of the preceding discussion; it gives the view of social development upon which i base all my political conceptions. the normal social life produces an increasing surplus of energy and opportunity, more particularly under modern conditions of scientific organisation and power production; and this through the operation of rent and of usury tends to | |------------------------------| (a) release and (b) expropriate | | an increasing proportion of the population to become: | | (_a_) a leisure class and (_b_) a labour class under no urgent compulsion divorced from the land and to work living upon uncertain wages | | | | | | | which may degenerate degenerate | | | | into a waster class into a sweated, | | | | \ overworked, | | | | \ violently | | | | \ resentful | | | | \ and destructive | | | | \ rebel class | | | | \ / | | | | and produce a | | | | social debacle | | | | | | | which may become which may become | | a governing the controlled | | class (with waster regimented | | elements) in and disciplined | | an unprogressive labour class of | | bureaucratic <-----------------> an unprogressive | | servile state bureaucratic | | servile state | | | which may become which may be the whole community rendered needless of the great state by a universal working under various compulsory year motives and inducements or so of labour but not constantly, service together nor permanently with a scientific nor unwillingly organisation of production, and so reabsorbed by re-endowment into the leisure class of the great state the common sense of warfare sec. conscription i want to say as compactly as possible why i do not believe that conscription would increase the military efficiency of this country, and why i think it might be a disastrous step for this country to take. by conscription i mean the compulsory enlistment for a term of service in the army of the whole manhood of the country. and i am writing now from the point of view merely of military effectiveness. the educational value of a universal national service, the idea which as a socialist i support very heartily, of making every citizen give a year or so of his life to our public needs, are matters quite outside my present discussion. what i am writing about now is this idea that the country can be strengthened for war by making every man in it a bit of a soldier. and i want the reader to be perfectly clear about the position i assume with regard to war preparations generally. i am not pleading for peace when there is no peace; this country has been constantly threatened during the past decade, and is threatened now by gigantic hostile preparations; it is our common interest to be and to keep at the maximum of military efficiency possible to us. my case is not merely that conscription will not contribute to that, but that it would be a monstrous diversion of our energy and emotion and material resources from the things that need urgently to be done. it would be like a boxer filling his arms with empty boxing-gloves and then rushing--his face protruding over the armful--into the fray. let me make my attack on this prevalent and increasing superstition of the british need for conscription in two lines, one following the other. for, firstly, it is true that britain at the present time is no more capable of creating such a conscript army as france or germany possesses in the next ten years than she is of covering her soil with a tropical forest, and, secondly, it is equally true that if she had such an army it would not be of the slightest use to her. for the conscript armies in which europe still so largely believes are only of use against conscript armies and adversaries who will consent to play the rules of the german war game; they are, if we chose to determine they shall be, if we chose to deal with them as they should be dealt with, as out of date as a roman legion or a zulu impi. now, first, as to the impossibility of getting our great army into existence. all those people who write and talk so glibly in favour of conscription seem to forget that to take a common man, and more particularly a townsman, clap him into a uniform and put a rifle in his hand does not make a soldier. he has to be taught not only the use of his weapons, but the methods of a strange and unfamiliar life out of doors; he has to be not simply drilled, but accustomed to the difficult modern necessities of open order fighting, of taking cover, of entrenchment, and he has to have created within him, so that it will stand the shock of seeing men killed round about him, confidence in himself, in his officers, and the methods and weapons of his side. body, mind, and imagination have all to be trained--and they need trainers. the conversion of a thousand citizens into anything better than a sheep-like militia demands the enthusiastic services of scores of able and experienced instructors who know what war is; the creation of a universal army demands the services of many scores of thousands of not simply "old soldiers," but keen, expert, modern-minded _officers_. without these officers our citizen army would be a hydra without heads. and we haven't these officers. we haven't a tithe of them. we haven't these officers, and we can't make them in a hurry. it takes at least five years to make an officer who knows his trade. it needs a special gift, in addition to that knowledge, to make a man able to impart it. and our empire is at a peculiar disadvantage in the matter, because india and our other vast areas of service and opportunity overseas drain away a large proportion of just those able and educated men who would in other countries gravitate towards the army. such small wealth of officers as we have--and i am quite prepared to believe that the officers we have are among the very best in the world--are scarcely enough to go round our present supply of private soldiers. and the best and most brilliant among this scanty supply are being drawn upon more and more for aerial work, and for all that increasing quantity of highly specialised services which are manifestly destined to be the real fighting forces of the future. we cannot spare the best of our officers for training conscripts; we shall get the dismallest results from the worst of them; and so even if it were a vital necessity for our country to have an army of all its manhood now, we could not have it, and it would be a mere last convulsion to attempt to make it with the means at our disposal. but that brings me to my second contention, which is that we do not want such an army. i believe that the vast masses of men in uniform maintained by the continental powers at the present time are enormously overrated as fighting machines. i see germany in the likeness of a boxer with a mailed fist as big as and rather heavier than its body, and i am convinced that when the moment comes for that mailed fist to be lifted, the whole disproportionate system will topple over. the military ascendancy of the future lies with the country that dares to experiment most, that experiments best, and meanwhile keeps its actual fighting force fit and admirable and small and flexible. the experience of war during the last fifteen years has been to show repeatedly the enormous defensive power of small, scientifically handled bodies of men. these huge conscript armies are made up not of masses of military muscle, but of a huge proportion of military fat. their one way of fighting will be to fall upon an antagonist with all their available weight, and if he is mobile and dexterous enough to decline that issue of adiposity they will become a mere embarrassment to their own people. modern weapons and modern contrivance are continually decreasing the number of men who can be employed efficiently upon a length of front. i doubt if there is any use for more than , men upon the whole franco-belgian frontier at the present time. such an army, properly supplied, could--so far as terrestrial forces are concerned--hold that frontier against any number of assailants. the bigger the forces brought against it the sooner the exhaustion of the attacking power. now, it is for employment upon that frontier, and for no other conceivable purpose in the world, that great britain is asked to create a gigantic conscript army. and if too big an army is likely to be a mere encumbrance in war, it is perhaps even a still graver blunder to maintain one during that conflict of preparation which is at present the european substitute for actual hostilities. it consumes. it produces nothing. it not only eats and drinks and wears out its clothes and withdraws men from industry, but under the stress of invention it needs constantly to be re-armed and freshly equipped at an expenditure proportionate to its size. so long as the conflict of preparation goes on, then the bigger the army your adversary maintains under arms the bigger is his expenditure and the less his earning power. the less the force you employ to keep your adversary over-armed, and the longer you remain at peace with him while he is over-armed, the greater is your advantage. there is only one profitable use for any army, and that is victorious conflict. every army that is not engaged in victorious conflict is an organ of national expenditure, an exhausting growth in the national body. and for great britain an attempt to create a conscript army would involve the very maximum of moral and material exhaustion with the minimum of military efficiency. it would be a disastrous waste of resources that we need most urgently for other things. sec. in the popular imagination the dreadnought is still the one instrument of naval war. we count our strength in dreadnoughts and super-dreadnoughts, and so long as we are spending our national resources upon them faster than any other country, if we sink at least £ for every £ sunk in these obsolescent monsters by germany, we have a reassuring sense of keeping ahead and being thoroughly safe. this confidence in big, very expensive battleships is, i believe and hope, shared by the german government and by europe generally, but it is, nevertheless, a very unreasonable confidence, and it may easily lead us into the most tragic of national disillusionments. we of the general public are led to suppose that the next naval war--if ever we engage in another naval war--will begin with a decisive fleet action. the plan of action is presented with an alluring simplicity. our adversary will come out to us, in a ratio of to , or in some ratio still more advantageous to us, according as our adversary happens to be this power or that power, there will be some tremendous business with guns and torpedoes, and our admirals will return victorious to discuss the discipline and details of the battle and each other's little weaknesses in the monthly magazines. this is a desirable but improbable anticipation. no hostile power is in the least likely to send out any battleships at all against our invincible dreadnoughts. they will promenade the seas, always in the ratio of or more to , looking for fleets securely tucked away out of reach. they will not, of course, go too near the enemy's coast, on account of mines, and, meanwhile, our cruisers will hunt the enemy's commerce into port. then other things will happen. the enemy we shall discover using unsportsmanlike devices against our capital ships. unless he is a lunatic, he will prove to be much stronger in reality than he is on paper in the matter of submarines, torpedo-boats, waterplanes and aeroplanes. these are things cheap to make and easy to conceal. he will be richly stocked with ingenious devices for getting explosives up to these two million pound triumphs of our naval engineering. on the cloudy and foggy nights so frequent about these islands he will have extraordinary chances, and sooner or later, unless we beat him thoroughly in the air above and in the waters beneath, for neither of which proceedings we are prepared, some of these chances will come off, and we shall lose a dreadnought. it will be a poor consolation if an ill-advised and stranded zeppelin or so enlivens the quiet of the english countryside by coming down and capitulating. it will be a trifling countershock to wing an aeroplane or so, or blow a torpedo-boat out of the water. our dreadnoughts will cease to be a source of unmitigated confidence a second battleship disaster will excite the press extremely. a third will probably lead to a retirement of the battle fleet to some east coast harbour, a refuge liable to aeroplanes, or to the west coast of ireland--and the real naval war, which, as i have argued in an earlier chapter, will be a war of destroyers, submarines and hydroplanes, will begin. incidentally a commerce destroyer may take advantage of the retirement of our fleet to raid our trade routes. we shall then realise that the actual naval weapons are these smaller weapons, and especially the destroyer, the submarine, and the waterplane--the waterplane most of all, because of its possibilities of a comparative bigness--in the hands of competent and daring men. and i find myself, as a patriotic englishman, more and more troubled by doubts whether we are as certainly superior to any possible adversary in these essential things as we are in the matter of dreadnoughts. i find myself awake at nights, after a day much agitated by a belligerent press, wondering whether the real empire of the sea may not even now have slipped out of our hands while our attention has been fixed on our stately procession of giant warships, while our country has been in a dream, hypnotised by the dreadnought idea. for some years there seems to have been a complete arrest of the british imagination in naval and military matters. that declining faculty, never a very active or well-exercised one, staggered up to the conception of a dreadnought, and seems now to have sat down for good. its reply to every demand upon it has been "more dreadnoughts." the future, as we british seem to see it, is an avenue of dreadnoughts and super-dreadnoughts and super-super-dreadnoughts, getting bigger and bigger in a kind of inverted perspective. but the ascendancy of fleets of great battleships in naval warfare, like the phase of huge conscript armies upon land, draws to its close. the progress of invention makes both the big ship and the army crowd more and more vulnerable and less and less effective. a new phase of warfare opens beyond the vista of our current programmes. smaller, more numerous and various and mobile weapons and craft and contrivances, manned by daring and highly skilled men, must ultimately take the place of those massivenesses. we are entering upon a period in which the invention of methods and material for war is likely to be more rapid and diversified than it has ever been before, and the question of what we have been doing behind the splendid line of our dreadnoughts to meet the demands of this new phase is one of supreme importance. knowing, as i do, the imaginative indolence of my countrymen, it is a question i face with something very near to dismay. but it is one that has to be faced. the question that should occupy our directing minds now is no longer "how can we get more dreadnoughts?" but "what have we to follow the dreadnought?" to the power that has most nearly guessed the answer to that riddle belongs the future empire of the seas. it is interesting to guess for oneself and to speculate upon the possibility of a kind of armoured mother-ship for waterplanes and submarines and torpedo craft, but necessarily that would be a mere journalistic and amateurish guessing. i am not guessing, but asking urgent questions. what force, what council, how many imaginative and inventive men has the country got at the present time employed not casually but professionally in anticipating the new strategy, the new tactics, the new material, the new training that invention is so rapidly rendering necessary? i have the gravest doubts whether we are doing anything systematic at all in this way. now, it is the tremendous seriousness of this deficiency to which i want to call attention. great britain has in her armour a gap more dangerous and vital than any mere numerical insufficiency of men or ships. she is short of minds. behind its strength of current armaments to-day, a strength that begins to evaporate and grow obsolete from the very moment it comes into being, a country needs more and more this profounder strength of intellectual and creative activity. this country most of all, which was left so far behind in the production of submarines, airships and aeroplanes, must be made to realise the folly of its trust in established things. each new thing we take up more belatedly and reluctantly than its predecessor. the time is not far distant when we shall be "caught" lagging unless we change all this. we need a new arm to our service; we need it urgently, and we shall need it more and more, and that arm is research. we need to place inquiry and experiment upon a new footing altogether, to enlist for them and organise them, to secure the pick of our young chemists and physicists and engineers, and to get them to work systematically upon the anticipation and preparation of our future war equipment. we need a service of invention to recover our lost lead in these matters. and it is because i feel so keenly the want of such a service, and the want of great sums of money for it, that i deplore the disposition to waste millions upon the hasty creation of a universal service army and upon excessive dreadnoughting. i am convinced that we are spending upon the things of yesterday the money that is sorely needed for the things of to-morrow. with our eyes averted obstinately from the future we are backing towards disaster. sec. in the present armament competition there are certain considerations that appear to be almost universally overlooked, and which tend to modify our views profoundly of what should be done. ultimately they will affect our entire expenditure upon war preparation. expenditure upon preparation for war falls, roughly, into two classes: there is expenditure upon things that have a diminishing value, things that grow old-fashioned and wear out, such as fortifications, ships, guns, and ammunition, and expenditure upon things that have a permanent and even growing value, such as organised technical research, military and naval experiment, and the education and increase of a highly trained class of war experts. i want to suggest that we are spending too much money in the former and not enough in the latter direction we are buying enormous quantities of stuff that will be old iron in twenty years' time, and we are starving ourselves of that which cannot be bought or made in a hurry, and upon which the strength of nations ultimately rests altogether; we are failing to get and maintain a sufficiency of highly educated and developed men inspired by a tradition of service and efficiency. no doubt we must be armed to-day, but every penny we divert from men-making and knowledge-making to armament beyond the margin of bare safety is a sacrifice of the future to the present. every penny we divert from national wealth-making to national weapons means so much less in resources, so much more strain in the years ahead. but a great system of laboratories and experimental stations, a systematic, industrious increase of men of the officer-aviator type, of the research student type, of the engineer type, of the naval-officer type, of the skilled sergeant-instructor type, a methodical development of a common sentiment and a common zeal among such a body of men, is an added strength that grows greater from the moment you call it into being. in our schools and military and naval colleges lies the proper field for expenditure upon preparation for our ultimate triumph in war. all other war preparation is temporary but that. this would be obvious in any case, but what makes insistence upon it peculiarly urgent is the manifestly temporary nature of the present european situation and the fact that within quite a small number of years our war front will be turned in a direction quite other than that to which it faces now. for a decade and more all western europe has been threatened by german truculence; the german, inflamed by the victories of and , has poured out his energy in preparation for war by sea and land, and it has been the difficult task of france and england to keep the peace with him. the german has been the provocator and leader of all modern armaments. but that is not going on. it is already more than half over. if we can avert war with germany for twenty years, we shall never have to fight germany. in twenty years' time we shall be talking no more of sending troops to fight side by side on the frontier of france; we shall be talking of sending troops to fight side by side with french and germans on the frontiers of poland. and the justification of that prophecy is a perfectly plain one. the german has filled up his country, his birth-rate falls, and the very vigour of his military and naval preparations, by raising the cost of living, hurries it down. his birth-rate falls as ours and the frenchman's falls, because he is nearing his maximum of population it is an inevitable consequence of his geographical conditions. but eastward of him, from his eastern boundaries to the pacific, is a country already too populous to conquer, but with possibilities of further expansion that are gigantic. the slav will be free to increase and multiply for another hundred years. eastward and southward bristle the slavs, and behind the slavs are the colossal possibilities of asia. even german vanity, even the preposterous ambitions that spring from that brief triumph of sedan, must awaken at last to these manifest facts, and on the day when germany is fully awake we may count the western european armageddon as "off" and turn our eyes to the greater needs that will arise beyond germany. the old game will be over and a quite different new game will begin in international relations. during these last few years of worry and bluster across the north sea we have a little forgotten india in our calculations. as germany faces round eastward again, as she must do before very long, we shall find india resuming its former central position in our ideas of international politics. with india we may pursue one of two policies: we may keep her divided and inefficient for war, as she is at present, and hold her and own her and defend her as a prize, or we may arm her and assist her development into a group of quasi-independent english-speaking states--in which case she will become our partner and possibly at last even our senior partner. but that is by the way. what i am pointing out now is that whether we fight germany or not, a time is drawing near when germany will cease to be our war objective and we shall cease to be germany's war objective, and when there will have to be a complete revision of our military and naval equipment in relation to those remoter, vaster asiatic possibilities. now that possible campaign away there, whatever its particular nature may be, which will be shaping our military and naval policy in the year or thereabouts, will certainly be quite different in its conditions from the possible campaign in europe and the narrow seas which determines all our preparations now. we cannot contemplate throwing an army of a million british conscripts on to the north-west frontier of india, and a fleet of super-dreadnoughts will be ineffective either in thibet or the baltic shallows. all our present stuff, indeed, will be on the scrap-heap then. what will not be on the scrap-heap will be such enterprise and special science and inventive power as we have got together. that is versatile. that is good to have now and that will be good to have then. everyone nowadays seems demanding increased expenditure upon war preparation. i will follow the fashion. i will suggest that we have the courage to restrain and even to curtail our monstrous outlay upon war material and that we begin to spend lavishly upon military and naval education and training, upon laboratories and experimental stations, upon chemical and physical research and all that makes knowledge and leading, and that we increase our expenditure upon these things as fast as we can up to ten or twelve millions a year. at present we spend about eighteen and a half millions a year upon education out of our national funds, but fourteen and a half of this, supplemented by about as much again from local sources, is consumed in merely elementary teaching. so that we spend only about four millions a year of public money on every sort of research and education above the simple democratic level. nearly thirty millions for the foundations and only a seventh for the edifice of will and science! is it any marvel that we are a badly organised nation, a nation of very widely diffused intelligence and very second-rate guidance and achievement? is it any marvel that directly we are tested by such a new development as that of aeroplanes or airships we show ourselves in comparison with the more braced-up nations of the continent backward, unorganised unimaginative, unenterprising? our supreme want to-day, if we are to continue a belligerent people, is a greater supply of able educated men, versatile men capable of engines, of aviation, of invention, of leading and initiative. we need more laboratories, more scholarships out of the general mass of elementary scholars, a quasi-military discipline in our colleges and a great array of new colleges, a much readier access to instruction in aviation and military and naval practice. and if we are to have national service let us begin with it where it is needed most and where it is least likely to disorganise our social and economic life; let us begin at the top. let us begin with the educated and propertied classes and exact a couple of years' service in a destroyer or a waterplane, or an airship, or a, research laboratory, or a training camp, from the sons of everybody who, let us say, pays income tax without deductions. let us mix with these a big proportion--a proportion we may increase steadily--of keen scholarship men from the elementary schools. such a braced-up class as we should create in this way would give us the realities of military power, which are enterprise, knowledge, and invention; and at the same time it would add to and not subtract from the economic wealth of the community make men; that is the only sane, permanent preparation for war. so we should develop a strength and create a tradition that would not rust nor grow old-fashioned in all the years to come. the contemporary novel circumstances have made me think a good deal at different times about the business of writing novels, and what it means, and is, and may be; and i was a professional critic of novels long before i wrote them. i have been writing novels, or writing about novels, for the last twenty years. it seems only yesterday that i wrote a review--the first long and appreciative review he had--of mr. joseph conrad's "almayer's folly" in the _saturday review_. when a man has focussed so much of his life upon the novel, it is not reasonable to expect him to take too modest or apologetic a view of it. i consider the novel an important and necessary thing indeed in that complicated system of uneasy adjustments and readjustments which is modern civilisation i make very high and wide claims for it. in many directions i do not think we can get along without it. now this, i know, is not the usually received opinion. there is, i am aware, the theory that the novel is wholly and solely a means of relaxation. in spite of manifest facts, that was the dominant view of the great period that we now in our retrospective way speak of as the victorian, and it still survives to this day. it is the man's theory of the novel rather than the woman's. one may call it the weary giant theory. the reader is represented as a man, burthened, toiling, worn. he has been in his office from ten to four, with perhaps only two hours' interval at his club for lunch; or he has been playing golf; or he has been waiting about and voting in the house; or he has been fishing; or he has been disputing a point of law; or writing a sermon; or doing one of a thousand other of the grave important things which constitute the substance of a prosperous man's life. now at last comes the little precious interval of leisure, and the weary giant takes up a book. perhaps he is vexed: he may have been bunkered, his line may have been entangled in the trees, his favourite investment may have slumped, or the judge have had indigestion and been extremely rude to him. he wants to forget the troublesome realities of life. he wants to be taken out of himself, to be cheered, consoled, amused--above all, amused. he doesn't want ideas, he doesn't want facts; above all, he doesn't want--_problems_. he wants to dream of the bright, thin, gay excitements of a phantom world--in which he can be hero--of horses ridden and lace worn and princesses rescued and won. he wants pictures of funny slums, and entertaining paupers, and laughable longshoremen, and kindly impulses making life sweet. he wants romance without its defiance, and humour without its sting; and the business of the novelist, he holds, is to supply this cooling refreshment. that is the weary giant theory of the novel. it ruled british criticism up to the period of the boer war--and then something happened to quite a lot of us, and it has never completely recovered its old predominance. perhaps it will; perhaps something else may happen to prevent its ever doing so. both fiction and criticism to-day are in revolt against that tired giant, the prosperous englishman. i cannot think of a single writer of any distinction to-day, unless it is mr. w.w. jacobs, who is content merely to serve the purpose of those slippered hours. so far from the weary reader being a decently tired giant, we realise that he is only an inexpressibly lax, slovenly and under-trained giant, and we are all out with one accord resolved to exercise his higher ganglia in every possible way. and so i will say no more of the idea that the novel is merely a harmless opiate for the vacant hours of prosperous men. as a matter of fact, it never has been, and by its nature i doubt if it ever can be. i do not think that women have ever quite succumbed to the tired giant attitude in their reading. women are more serious, not only about life, but about books. no type or kind of woman is capable of that lounging, defensive stupidity which is the basis of the tired giant attitude, and all through the early 'nineties, during which the respectable frivolity of great britain left its most enduring marks upon our literature, there was a rebel undertow of earnest and aggressive writing and reading, supported chiefly by women and supplied very largely by women, which gave the lie to the prevailing trivial estimate of fiction. among readers, women and girls and young men at least will insist upon having their novels significant and real, and it is to these perpetually renewed elements in the public that the novelist must look for his continuing emancipation from the wearier and more massive influences at work in contemporary british life. and if the novel is to be recognised as something more than a relaxation, it has also, i think, to be kept free from the restrictions imposed upon it by the fierce pedantries of those who would define a general form for it. every art nowadays must steer its way between the rocks of trivial and degrading standards and the whirlpool of arbitrary and irrational criticism. whenever criticism of any art becomes specialised and professional whenever a class of adjudicators is brought into existence, those adjudicators are apt to become as a class distrustful of their immediate impressions, and anxious for methods of comparison between work and work, they begin to emulate the classifications and exact measurements of a science, and to set up ideals and rules as data for such classification and measurements. they develop an alleged sense of technique, which is too often no more than the attempt to exact a laboriousness of method, or to insist upon peculiarities of method which impress the professional critic not so much as being merits as being meritorious. this sort of thing has gone very far with the critical discussion both of the novel and the play. you have all heard that impressive dictum that some particular theatrical display, although moving, interesting, and continually entertaining from start to finish, was for occult technical reasons "not a play," and in the same way you are continually having your appreciation of fiction dashed by the mysterious parallel condemnation, that the story you like "isn't a novel." the novel has been treated as though its form was as well-defined as the sonnet. some year or so ago, for example, there was a quite serious discussion, which began, i believe, in a weekly paper devoted to the interests of various nonconformist religious organisations, about the proper length for a novel. the critic was to begin his painful duties with a yard measure. the matter was taken up with profound gravity by the _westminster gazette_, and a considerable number of literary men and women were circularised and asked to state, in the face of "tom jones," "the vicar of wakefield," "the shabby-genteel story," and "bleak house," just exactly how long the novel ought to be. our replies varied according to the civility of our natures, but the mere attempt to raise the question shows, i think, how widespread among the editorial, paragraph-writing, opinion-making sort of people is this notion of prescribing a definite length and a definite form for the novel. in the newspaper correspondence that followed, our friend the weary giant made a transitory appearance again. we were told the novel ought to be long enough for him to take up after dinner and finish before his whisky at eleven. that was obviously a half-forgotten echo of edgar allan poe's discussion of the short story. edgar allan poe was very definite upon the point that the short story should be finished at a sitting. but the novel and short story are two entirely different things, and the train of reasoning that made the american master limit the short story to about an hour of reading as a maximum, does not apply to the longer work. a short story is, or should be, a simple thing; it aims at producing one single, vivid effect; it has to seize the attention at the outset, and never relaxing, gather it together more and more until the climax is reached. the limits of the human capacity to attend closely therefore set a limit to it; it must explode and finish before interruption occurs or fatigue sets in. but the novel i hold to be a discursive thing; it is not a single interest, but a woven tapestry of interests; one is drawn on first by this affection and curiosity, and then by that; it is something to return to, and i do not see that we can possibly set any limit to its extent. the distinctive value of the novel among written works of art is in characterisation, and the charm of a well-conceived character lies, not in knowing its destiny, but in watching its proceedings. for my own part, i will confess that i find all the novels of dickens, long as they are, too short for me. i am sorry they do not flow into one another more than they do. i wish micawber and dick swiveller and sairey gamp turned up again in other novels than their own, just as shakespeare ran the glorious glow of falstaff through a group of plays. but dickens tried this once when he carried on the pickwick club into "master humphrey's clock." that experiment was unsatisfactory, and he did not attempt anything of the sort again. following on the days of dickens, the novel began to contract, to subordinate characterisation to story and description to drama; considerations of a sordid nature, i am told, had to do with that; something about a guinea and a half and six shillings with which we will not concern ourselves--but i rejoice to see many signs to-day that that phase of narrowing and restriction is over, and that there is every encouragement for a return towards a laxer, more spacious form of novel-writing. the movement is partly of english origin, a revolt against those more exacting and cramping conceptions of artistic perfection to which i will recur in a moment, and a return to the lax freedom of form, the rambling discursiveness, the right to roam, of the earlier english novel, of "tristram shandy" and of "tom jones"; and partly it comes from abroad, and derives a stimulus from such bold and original enterprises as that of monsieur rolland in his "jean christophe." its double origin involves a double nature; for while the english spirit is towards discursiveness and variety, the new french movement is rather towards exhaustiveness. mr. arnold bennett has experimented in both forms of amplitude. his superb "old wives' tale," wandering from person to person and from scene to scene, is by far the finest "long novel" that has been written in english in the english fashion in this generation, and now in "clayhanger" and its promised collaterals, he undertakes that complete, minute, abundant presentation of the growth and modification of one or two individual minds, which is the essential characteristic of the continental movement towards the novel of amplitude. while the "old wives' tale" is discursive, "clayhanger" is exhaustive; he gives us both types of the new movement in perfection. i name "jean christophe" as a sort of archetype in this connection, because it is just at present very much in our thoughts by reason of the admirable translation mr. cannan is giving us; but there is a greater predecessor to this comprehensive and spectacular treatment of a single mind and its impressions and ideas, or of one or two associated minds, that comes to us now _via_ mr. bennett and mr. cannan from france. the great original of all this work is that colossal last unfinished book of flaubert, "bouvard et pécuchet." flaubert, the bulk of whose life was spent upon the most austere and restrained fiction--turgenev was not more austere and restrained--broke out at last into this gay, sad miracle of intellectual abundance. it is not extensively read in this country; it is not yet, i believe, translated into english; but there it is--and if it is new to the reader i make him this present of the secret of a book that is a precious wilderness of wonderful reading. but if flaubert is really the continental emancipator of the novel from the restrictions of form, the master to whom we of the english persuasion, we of the discursive school, must for ever recur is he, whom i will maintain against all comers to be the subtlest and greatest _artist_--i lay stress upon that word artist--that great britain has ever produced in all that is essentially the novel, laurence sterne.... the confusion between the standards of a short story and the standards of the novel which leads at last to these--what shall i call them?--_westminster gazettisms?_--about the correct length to which the novelist should aspire, leads also to all kinds of absurd condemnations and exactions upon matters of method and style. the underlying fallacy is always this: the assumption that the novel, like the story, aims at a single, concentrated impression. from that comes a fertile growth of error. constantly one finds in the reviews of works of fiction the complaint that this, that or the other thing in a novel is irrelevant. now it is the easiest thing, and most fatal thing, to become irrelevant in a short story. a short story should go to its point as a man flies from a pursuing tiger: he pauses not for the daisies in his path, or to note the pretty moss on the tree he climbs for safety. but the novel by comparison is like breakfasting in the open air on a summer morning; nothing is irrelevant if the waiter's mood is happy, and the tapping of the thrush upon the garden path, or the petal of apple-blossom that floats down into my coffee, is as relevant as the egg i open or the bread and butter i bite. and all sorts of things that inevitably mar the tense illusion which is the aim of the short story--the introduction, for example, of the author's personality--any comment that seems to admit that, after all, fiction is fiction, a change in manner between part and part, burlesque, parody, invective, all such thing's are not necessarily wrong in the novel. of course, all these things may fail in their effect; they may jar, hinder, irritate, and all are difficult to do well; but it is no artistic merit to evade a difficulty any more than it is a merit in a hunter to refuse even the highest of fences. nearly all the novels that have, by the lapse of time, reached an assured position of recognised greatness, are not only saturated in the personality of the author, but have in addition quite unaffected personal outbreaks. the least successful instance the one that is made the text against all such first-personal interventions, is, of course, thackeray. but i think the trouble with thackeray is not that he makes first-personal interventions, but that he does so with a curious touch of dishonesty. i agree with the late mrs. craigie that there was something profoundly vulgar about thackeray. it was a sham thoughtful, sham man-of-the-world pose he assumed; it is an aggressive, conscious, challenging person astride before a fire, and a little distended by dinner and a sense of social and literary precedences, who uses the first person in thackeray's novels. it isn't the real thackeray; it isn't a frank man who looks you in the eyes and bares his soul and demands your sympathy. that is a criticism of thackeray, but it isn't a condemnation of intervention. i admit that for a novelist to come in person in this way before his readers involves grave risks; but when it is done without affectations, starkly as a man comes in out of the darkness to tell of perplexing things without--as, for instance, mr. joseph conrad does for all practical purposes in his "lord jim"--then it gives a sort of depth, a sort of subjective reality, that no such cold, almost affectedly ironical detachment as that which distinguishes the work of mr. john galsworthy, for example, can ever attain. and in some cases the whole art and delight of a novel may lie in the author's personal interventions; let such novels as "elizabeth and her german garden," and the same writer's "elizabeth in rügen," bear witness. now, all this time i have been hacking away at certain hampering and limiting beliefs about the novel, letting it loose, as it were, in form and purpose; i have still to say just what i think the novel is, and where, if anywhere, its boundary-line ought to be drawn. it is by no means an easy task to define the novel. it is not a thing premeditated. it is a thing that has grown up into modern life, and taken upon itself uses and produced results that could not have been foreseen by its originators. few of the important things in the collective life of man started out to be what they are. consider, for example, all the unexpected aesthetic values, the inspiration and variety of emotional result which arises out of the cross-shaped plan of the gothic cathedral, and the undesigned delight and wonder of white marble that has ensued, as i have been told, through the ageing and whitening of the realistically coloured statuary of the greeks and romans. much of the charm of the old furniture and needlework, again, upon which the present time sets so much store, lies in acquired and unpremeditated qualities. and no doubt the novel grew up out of simple story-telling, and the universal desire of children, old and young alike, for a story. it is only slowly that we have developed the distinction of the novel from the romance, as being a story of human beings, absolutely credible and conceivable as distinguished from human beings frankly endowed with the glamour, the wonder, the brightness, of a less exacting and more vividly eventful world. the novel is a story that demands, or professes to demand, no make-believe. the novelist undertakes to present you people and things as real as any that you can meet in an omnibus. and i suppose it is conceivable that a novel might exist which was just purely a story of that kind and nothing more. it might amuse you as one is amused by looking out of a window into a street, or listening to a piece of agreeable music, and that might be the limit of its effect. but almost always the novel is something more than that, and produces more effect than that. the novel has inseparable moral consequences. it leaves impressions, not simply of things seen, but of acts judged and made attractive or unattractive. they may prove very slight moral consequences, and very shallow moral impressions in the long run, but there they are, none the less, its inevitable accompaniments. it is unavoidable that this should be so. even if the novelist attempts or affects to be impartial, he still cannot prevent his characters setting examples; he still cannot avoid, as people say, putting ideas into his readers' heads. the greater his skill, the more convincing his treatment the more vivid his power of suggestion. and it is equally impossible for him not to betray his sense that the proceedings of this person are rather jolly and admirable, and of that, rather ugly and detestable. i suppose mr. bennett, for example, would say that he should not do so; but it is as manifest to any disinterested observer that he greatly loves and admires his card, as that richardson admired his sir charles grandison, or that mrs. humphry ward considers her marcella a very fine and estimable young woman. and i think it is just in this, that the novel is not simply a fictitious record of conduct, but also a study and judgment of conduct, and through that of the ideas that lead to conduct, that the real and increasing value--or perhaps to avoid controversy i had better say the real and increasing importance--of the novel and of the novelist in modern life comes in. it is no new discovery that the novel, like the drama, is a powerful instrument of moral suggestion. this has been understood in england ever since there has been such a thing as a novel in england. this has been recognised equally by novelists, novel-readers, and the people who wouldn't read novels under any condition whatever. richardson wrote deliberately for edification, and "tom jones" is a powerful and effective appeal for a charitable, and even indulgent, attitude towards loose-living men. but excepting fielding and one or two other of those partial exceptions that always occur in the case of critical generalisations, there is a definable difference between the novel of the past and what i may call the modern novel. it is a difference that is reflected upon the novel from a difference in the general way of thinking. it lies in the fact that formerly there was a feeling of certitude about moral values and standards of conduct that is altogether absent to-day. it wasn't so much that men were agreed upon these things--about these things there have always been enormous divergences of opinion--as that men were emphatic, cocksure, and unteachable about whatever they did happen to believe to a degree that no longer obtains. this is the balfourian age, and even religion seeks to establish itself on doubt. there were, perhaps, just as many differences in the past as there are now, but the outlines were harder--they were, indeed, so hard as to be almost, to our sense, savage. you might be a roman catholic, and in that case you did not want to hear about protestants, turks, infidels, except in tones of horror and hatred. you knew exactly what was good and what was evil. your priest informed you upon these points, and all you needed in any novel you read was a confirmation, implicit or explicit, of these vivid, rather than charming, prejudices. if you were a protestant you were equally clear and unshakable. your sect, whichever sect you belonged to, knew the whole of truth and included all the nice people. it had nothing to learn in the world, and it wanted to learn nothing outside its sectarian convictions. the unbelievers you know, were just as bad, and said their creeds with an equal fury--merely interpolating _nots_. people of every sort--catholic, protestant, infidel, or what not--were equally clear that good was good and bad was bad, that the world was made up of good characters whom you had to love, help and admire, and of bad characters to whom one might, in the interests of goodness, even lie, and whom one had to foil, defeat and triumph over shamelessly at every opportunity. that was the quality of the times. the novel reflected this quality of assurance, and its utmost charity was to unmask an apparent villain and show that he or she was really profoundly and correctly good, or to unmask an apparent saint and show the hypocrite. there was no such penetrating and pervading element of doubt and curiosity--and charity, about the rightfulness and beauty of conduct, such as one meets on every hand to-day. the novel-reader of the past, therefore, like the novel-reader of the more provincial parts of england to-day, judged a novel by the convictions that had been built up in him by his training and his priest or his pastor. if it agreed with these convictions he approved; if it did not agree he disapproved--often with great energy. the novel, where it was not unconditionally banned altogether as a thing disturbing and unnecessary, was regarded as a thing subordinated to the teaching of the priest or pastor, or whatever director and dogma was followed. its modest moral confirmations began when authority had completed its direction. the novel was good--if it seemed to harmonise with the graver exercises conducted by mr. chadband--and it was bad and outcast if mr. chadband said so. and it is over the bodies of discredited and disgruntled chadbands that the novel escapes from its servitude and inferiority. now the conflict of authority against criticism is one of the eternal conflicts of humanity. it is the conflict of organisation against initiative, of discipline against freedom. it was the conflict of the priest against the prophet in ancient judaea, of the pharisee against the nazarene, of the realist against the nominalist, of the church against the franciscan and the lollard, of the respectable person against the artist, of the hedge-clippers of mankind against the shooting buds. and to-day, while we live in a period of tightening and extending social organisation, we live also in a period of adventurous and insurgent thought, in an intellectual spring unprecedented in the world's history. there is an enormous criticism going on of the faiths upon which men's lives and associations are based, and of every standard and rule of conduct. and it is inevitable that the novel, just in the measure of its sincerity and ability, should reflect and co-operate in the atmosphere and uncertainties and changing variety of this seething and creative time. and i do not mean merely that the novel is unavoidably charged with the representation of this wide and wonderful conflict. it is a necessary part of the conflict. the essential characteristic of this great intellectual revolution amidst which we are living to-day, that revolution of which the revival and restatement of nominalism under the name of pragmatism is the philosophical aspect, consists in the reassertion of the importance of the individual instance as against the generalisation. all our social, political, moral problems are being approached in a new spirit, in an inquiring and experimental spirit, which has small respect for abstract principles and deductive rules. we perceive more and more clearly, for example, that the study of social organisation is an empty and unprofitable study until we approach it as a study of the association and inter-reaction of individualised human beings inspired by diversified motives, ruled by traditions, and swayed by the suggestions of a complex intellectual atmosphere. and all our conceptions of the relationships between man and man, and of justice and rightfulness and social desirableness, remain something misfitting and inappropriate, something uncomfortable and potentially injurious, as if we were trying to wear sharp-edged clothes made for a giant out of tin, until we bring them to the test and measure of realised individualities. and this is where the value and opportunity of the modern novel comes in. so far as i can see, it is the only medium through which we can discuss the great majority of the problems which are being raised in such bristling multitude by our contemporary social development nearly every one of those problems has at its core a psychological problem, and not merely a psychological problem, but one in which the idea of individuality is an essential factor. dealing with most of these questions by a rule or a generalisation is like putting a cordon round a jungle full of the most diversified sort of game. the hunting only begins when you leave the cordon behind you and push into the thickets. take, for example, the immense cluster of difficulties that arises out of the increasing complexity of our state. on every hand we are creating officials, and compared with only a few years ago the private life in a dozen fresh directions comes into contact with officialdom. but we still do practically nothing to work out the interesting changes that occur in this sort of man and that, when you withdraw him as it were from the common crowd of humanity, put his mind if not his body into uniform and endow him with powers and functions and rules. it is manifestly a study of the profoundest public and personal importance. it is manifestly a study of increasing importance. the process of social and political organisation that has been going on for the last quarter of a century is pretty clearly going on now if anything with increasing vigour--and for the most part the entire dependence of the consequences of the whole problem upon the reaction between the office on the one hand and the weak, uncertain, various human beings who take office on the other, doesn't seem even to be suspected by the energetic, virtuous and more or less amiable people whose activities in politics and upon the backstairs of politics bring about these developments. they assume that the sort of official they need, a combination of god-like virtue and intelligence with unfailing mechanical obedience, can be made out of just any young nephew. and i know of no means of persuading people that this is a rather unjustifiable assumption, and of creating an intelligent controlling criticism of officials and of assisting conscientious officials to an effective self-examination, and generally of keeping the atmosphere of official life sweet and healthy, except the novel. yet so far the novel has scarcely begun its attack upon this particular field of human life, and all the attractive varied play of motive it contains. of course we have one supreme and devastating study of the illiterate minor official in bumble. that one figure lit up and still lights the whole problem of poor law administration for the english reading community. it was a translation of well-meant regulations and pseudo-scientific conceptions of social order into blundering, arrogant, ill-bred flesh and blood. it was worth a hundred royal commissions. you may make your regulations as you please, said dickens in effect; this is one sample of the stuff that will carry them out. but bumble stands almost alone. instead of realising that he is only one aspect of officialdom, we are all too apt to make him the type of all officials, and not an urban district council can get into a dispute about its electric light without being denounced as a bumbledom by some whirling enemy or other. the burthen upon bumble's shoulders is too heavy to be borne, and we want the contemporary novel to give us a score of other figures to put beside him, other aspects and reflections upon this great problem of officialism made flesh. bumble is a magnificent figure of the follies and cruelties of ignorance in office--i would have every candidate for the post of workhouse master pass a severe examination upon "oliver twist"--but it is not only caricature and satire i demand. we must have not only the fullest treatment of the temptations, vanities, abuses, and absurdities of office, but all its dreams, its sense of constructive order, its consolations, its sense of service, and its nobler satisfactions. you may say that is demanding more insight and power in our novels and novelists than we can possibly hope to find in them. so much the worse for us. i stick to my thesis that the complicated social organisation of to-day cannot get along without the amount of mutual understanding and mutual explanation such a range of characterisation in our novels implies. the success of civilisation amounts ultimately to a success of sympathy and understanding. if people cannot be brought to an interest in one another greater than they feel to-day, to curiosities and criticisms far keener, and co-operations far subtler, than we have now; if class cannot be brought to measure itself against, and interchange experience and sympathy with class, and temperament with temperament then we shall never struggle very far beyond the confused discomforts and uneasiness of to-day, and the changes and complications of human life will remain as they are now, very like the crumplings and separations and complications of an immense avalanche that is sliding down a hill. and in this tremendous work of human reconciliation and elucidation, it seems to me it is the novel that must attempt most and achieve most. you may feel disposed to say to all this: we grant the major premises, but why look to the work of prose fiction as the main instrument in this necessary process of, so to speak, sympathising humanity together? cannot this be done far more effectively through biography and autobiography, for example? isn't there the lyric; and, above all, isn't there the play? well, so far as the stage goes, i think it is a very charming and exciting form of human activity, a display of actions and surprises of the most moving and impressive sort; but beyond the opportunity it affords for saying startling and thought-provoking things--opportunities mr. shaw, for example, has worked to the utmost limit--i do not see that the drama does much to enlarge our sympathies and add to our stock of motive ideas. and regarded as a medium for startling and thought-provoking things, the stage seems to me an extremely clumsy and costly affair. one might just as well go about with a pencil writing up the thought-provoking phrase, whatever it is, on walls. the drama excites our sympathies intensely, but it seems to me it is far too objective a medium to widen them appreciably, and it is that widening, that increase in the range of understanding, at which i think civilisation is aiming. the case for biography, and more particularly autobiography, as against the novel, is, i admit, at the first blush stronger. you may say: why give us these creatures of a novelist's imagination, these phantom and fantastic thinkings and doings, when we may have the stories of real lives, really lived--the intimate record of actual men and women? to which one answers: "ah, if one could!" but it is just because biography does deal with actual lives, actual facts, because it radiates out to touch continuing interests and sensitive survivors, that it is so unsatisfactory, so untruthful. its inseparable falsehood is the worst of all kinds of falsehood--the falsehood of omission. think what an abounding, astonishing, perplexing person gladstone must have been in life, and consider lord morley's "life of gladstone," cold, dignified--not a life at all, indeed, so much as embalmed remains; the fire gone, the passions gone, the bowels carefully removed. all biography has something of that post-mortem coldness and respect, and as for autobiography--a man may show his soul in a thousand half-conscious ways, but to turn upon oneself and explain oneself is given to no one. it is the natural liars and braggarts, your cellinis and casanovas, men with a habit of regarding themselves with a kind of objective admiration, who do best in autobiography. and, on the other hand, the novel has neither the intense self-consciousness of autobiography nor the paralysing responsibilities of the biographer. it is by comparison irresponsible and free. because its characters are figments and phantoms, they can be made entirely transparent. because they are fictions, and you know they are fictions, so that they cannot hold you for an instant so soon as they cease to be true, they have a power of veracity quite beyond that of actual records. every novel carries its own justification and its own condemnation in its success or failure to convince you that _the thing was so_. now history, biography, blue-book and so forth, can hardly ever get beyond the statement that the superficial fact was so. you see now the scope of the claim i am making for the novel; it is to be the social mediator, the vehicle of understanding, the instrument of self-examination, the parade of morals and the exchange of manners, the factory of customs, the criticism of laws and institutions and of social dogmas and ideas. it is to be the home confessional, the initiator of knowledge, the seed of fruitful self-questioning. let me be very clear here. i do not mean for a moment that the novelist is going to set up as a teacher, as a sort of priest with a pen, who will make men and women believe and do this and that. the novel is not a new sort of pulpit; humanity is passing out of the phase when men _sit under_ preachers and dogmatic influences. but the novelist is going to be the most potent of artists, because he is going to present conduct, devise beautiful conduct, discuss conduct analyse conduct, suggest conduct, illuminate it through and through. he will not teach, but discuss, point out, plead, and display. and this being my view you will be prepared for the demand i am now about to make for an absolutely free hand for the novelist in his choice of topic and incident and in his method of treatment; or rather, if i may presume to speak for other novelists, i would say it is not so much a demand we make as an intention we proclaim. we are going to write, subject only to our limitations, about the whole of human life. we are going to deal with political questions and religious questions and social questions. we cannot present people unless we have this free hand, this unrestricted field. what is the good of telling stories about people's lives if one may not deal freely with the religious beliefs and organisations that have controlled or failed to control them? what is the good of pretending to write about love, and the loyalties and treacheries and quarrels of men and women, if one must not glance at those varieties of physical temperament and organic quality, those deeply passionate needs and distresses from which half the storms of human life are brewed? we mean to deal with all these things, and it will need very much more than the disapproval of provincial librarians, the hostility of a few influential people in london, the scurrility of one paper, and the deep and obstinate silences of another, to stop the incoming tide of aggressive novel-writing. we are going to write about it all. we are going to write about business and finance and politics and precedence and pretentiousness and decorum and indecorum, until a thousand pretences and ten thousand impostures shrivel in the cold, clear air of our elucidations. we are going to write of wasted opportunities and latent beauties until a thousand new ways of living open to men and women. we are going to appeal to the young and the hopeful and the curious, against the established, the dignified, and defensive. before we have done, we will have all life within the scope of the novel. the philosopher's public library suppose a philosopher had a great deal of money to spend--though this is not in accordance with experience, it is not inherently impossible--and suppose he thought, as any philosopher does think, that the british public ought to read much more and better books than they do, and that founding public libraries was the way to induce them to do so, what sort of public libraries would he found? that, i submit, is a suitable topic for a disinterested speculator. he would, i suppose, being a philosopher, begin by asking himself what a library essentially was, and he would probably come to the eccentric conclusion that it was essentially a collection of books. he would, in his unworldliness, entirely overlook the fact that it might be a job for a municipally influential builder, a costly but conspicuous monument to opulent generosity, a news-room, an employment bureau, or a meeting-place for the glowing young; he would never think for a moment of a library as a thing one might build, it would present itself to him with astonishing simplicity as a thing one would collect. bricks ceased to be literature after babylon. his first proceeding would be, i suppose, to make a list of that collection. what books, he would say, have all my libraries to possess anyhow? and he would begin to jot down--with the assistance of a few friends, perhaps--this essential list. he would, being a philosopher, insist on good editions, and he would also take great pains with the selection. it would not be a limited or an exclusive list--when in doubt he would include. he would disregard modern fiction very largely, because any book that has any success can always be bought for sixpence, and modern poetry, because, with an exception or so, it does not signify at all. he would set almost all the greek and roman literature in well-printed translations and with luminous introductions--and if there were no good translations he would give some good man £ or so to make one--translations of all that is good in modern european literatures, and, last but largest portion of his list, editions of all that is worthy of our own. he would make a very careful list of thoroughly modern encyclopaedias, atlases, and volumes of information, and a particularly complete catalogue of all literature that is still copyright; and then--with perhaps a secretary or so--he would revise all his lists and mark against every book whether he would have two, five or ten or twenty copies, or whatever number of copies of it he thought proper in each library. then next, being a philosopher, he would decide that if he was going to buy a great number of libraries in this way, he was going to make an absolutely new sort of demand for these books, and that he was entitled to a special sort of supply. he would not expect the machinery of retail book-selling to meet the needs of wholesale buying. so he would go either to wholesale booksellers, or directly to the various publishers of the books and editions he had chosen, and ask for reasonable special prices for the two thousand or seven thousand or fifty thousand of each book he required. and the publishers would, of course, give him very special prices, more especially in the case of the out-of-copyright books. he would probably find it best to buy whole editions in sheets and bind them himself in strong bindings. and he would emerge from these negotiations in possession of a number of complete libraries each of--how many books? less than twenty thousand ought to do it, i think, though that is a matter for separate discussion, and that should cost him, buying in this wholesale way, under rather than over £ , a library. and next he would bethink himself of the readers of these books. "these people," he would say, "do not know very much about books, which, indeed, is why i am giving them this library." accordingly, he would get a number of able and learned people to write him guides to his twenty thousand books, and, in fact, to the whole world of reading, a guide, for example, to the books on history in general, a special guide to books on english history, or french or german history, a guide to the books on geology, a guide to poetry and poetical criticisms, and so forth. some such books our philosopher would find already done--the "bibliography of american history," of the american libraries' association, for example, and mr. nield's "guide to historical fiction"--and what are not done he would commission good men to do for him. suppose he had to commission forty such guides altogether and that they cost him on the average £ each, for he would take care not to sweat their makers, then that would add another £ , to his expenditure. but if he was going to found libraries, let us say, that would only be £ a library--a very trivial addition to his expenditure. the rarer books mentioned in these various guides would remind him, however, of the many even his ample limit of twenty thousand forced him to exclude, and he would, perhaps, consider the need of having two or three libraries each for the storage of a hundred thousand books or so not kept at the local libraries, but which could be sent to them at a day's notice at the request of any reader. and then, and only then, would he give his attention to the housing and staffing that this reality of books would demand. being a philosopher and no fool, he would draw a very clear, hard distinction between the reckless endowment of the building trade and the dissemination of books. he would distinguish, too, between a library and a news-room, and would find no great attraction in the prospect of supplying the national youth with free but thumby copies of the sixpenny magazines. he would consider that all that was needed for his library was, first, easily accessible fireproof shelving for his collection, with ample space for his additions, an efficient distributing office, a cloak-room, and so forth, and eight or nine not too large, well lit, well carpeted, well warmed and well ventilated rooms radiating from that office, in which the guides and so forth could be consulted, and where those who had no convenient, quiet room at home could read. he would find that, by avoiding architectural vulgarities, a simple, well proportioned building satisfying all these requirements and containing housing for the librarian, assistant, custodian and staff could be built for between £ , and £ , , excluding the cost of site, and his sites, which he would not choose for their conspicuousness, might average something under another £ , . he would try to make a bargain with the local people for their co-operation in his enterprise, though he would, as a philosopher, understand that where a public library is least wanted it is generally most needed. but in most cases he would succeed in stipulating for a certain standard of maintenance by the local authority. since moderately prosperous illiterate men undervalue education and most town councillors are moderately illiterate men, he would do his best to keep the salary and appointment of the librarian out of such hands. he would stipulate for a salary of at least £ , in addition to housing, light and heat, and he would probably find it advisable to appoint a little committee of visitors who would have the power to examine qualifications, endorse the appointment, and recommend the dismissal of all his four hundred librarians. he would probably try to make the assistantship at £ a year or thereabout a sort of local scholarship to be won by competition, and only the cleaner and caretaker's place would be left to the local politician. and, of course, our philosopher would stipulate that, apart from all other expenditure, a sum of at least £ a year should be set aside for buying new books. so our rich philosopher would secure at the minimum cost a number of efficiently equipped libraries throughout the country. eight thousand pounds down and £ a year is about as cheap as a public library can be. below that level, it would be cheaper to have no public library. above that level, a public library that is not efficient is either dishonestly or incapably organised or managed, or it is serving too large a district and needs duplication, or it is trying to do too much. about chesterton and belloc it has been one of the less possible dreams of my life to be a painted pagan god and live upon a ceiling. i crown myself becomingly in stars or tendrils or with electric coruscations (as the mood takes me), and wear an easy costume free from complications and appropriate to the climate of those agreeable spaces. the company about me on the clouds varies greatly with the mood of the vision, but always it is in some way, if not always a very obvious way, beautiful. one frequent presence is g.k. chesterton, a joyous whirl of brush work, appropriately garmented and crowned. when he is there, i remark, the whole ceiling is by a sort of radiation convivial. we drink limitless old october from handsome flagons, and we argue mightily about pride (his weak point) and the nature of deity. a hygienic, attentive, and essentially anaesthetic eagle checks, in the absence of exercise, any undue enlargement of our promethean livers.... chesterton often--but never by any chance belloc. belloc i admire beyond measure, but there is a sort of partisan viciousness about belloc that bars him from my celestial dreams. he never figures, no, not even in the remotest corner, on my ceiling. and yet the divine artist, by some strange skill that my ignorance of his technique saves me from the presumption of explaining, does indicate exactly where belloc is. a little quiver of the paint, a faint aura, about the spectacular masses of chesterton? i am not certain. but no intelligent beholder can look up and miss the remarkable fact that belloc exists--and that he is away, safely away, away in his heaven, which is, of course, the park lane imperialist's hell. there he presides.... but in this life i do not meet chesterton exalted upon clouds, and there is but the mockery of that endless leisure for abstract discussion afforded by my painted entertainments. i live in an urgent and incessant world, which is at its best a wildly beautiful confusion of impressions and at its worst a dingy uproar. it crowds upon us and jostles us, we get our little interludes for thinking and talking between much rough scuffling and laying about us with our fists. and i cannot afford to be continually bickering with chesterton and belloc about forms of expression. there are others for whom i want to save my knuckles. one may be wasteful in peace and leisure, but economies are the soul of conflict. in many ways we three are closely akin; we diverge not by necessity but accident, because we speak in different dialects and have divergent metaphysics. all that i can i shall persuade to my way of thinking about thought and to the use of words in my loose, expressive manner, but belloc and chesterton and i are too grown and set to change our languages now and learn new ones; we are on different roads, and so we must needs shout to one another across intervening abysses. these two say socialism is a thing they do not want for men, and i say socialism is above all what i want for men. we shall go on saying that now to the end of our days. but what we do all three want is something very alike. our different roads are parallel. i aim at a growing collective life, a perpetually enhanced inheritance for our race, through the fullest, freest development of the individual life. what they aim at ultimately i do not understand, but it is manifest that its immediate form is the fullest and freest development of the individual life. we all three hate equally and sympathetically the spectacle of human beings blown up with windy wealth and irresponsible power as cruelly and absurdly as boys blow up frogs; we all three detest the complex causes that dwarf and cripple lives from the moment of birth and starve and debase great masses of mankind. we want as universally as possible the jolly life, men and women warm-blooded and well-aired, acting freely and joyously, gathering life as children gather corn-cockles in corn. we all three want people to have property of a real and personal sort, to have the son, as chesterton put it, bringing up the port his father laid down, and pride in the pears one has grown in one's own garden. and i agree with chesterton that giving--giving oneself out of love and fellowship--is the salt of life. but there i diverge from him, less in spirit, i think, than in the manner of his expression. there is a base because impersonal way of giving. "standing drink," which he praises as noble, is just the thing i cannot stand, the ultimate mockery and vulgarisation of that fine act of bringing out the cherished thing saved for the heaven-sent guest. it is a mere commercial transaction, essentially of the evil of our time. think of it! two temporarily homeless beings agree to drink together, and they turn in and face the public supply of drink (a little vitiated by private commercial necessities) in the public-house. (it is horrible that life should be so wholesale and heartless.) and jones, with a sudden effusion of manner, thrusts twopence or ninepence (got god knows how) into the economic mysteries and personal delicacy of brown. i'd as soon a man slipped sixpence down my neck. if jones has used love and sympathy to detect a certain real thirst and need in brown and knowledge and power in its assuaging by some specially appropriate fluid, then we have an altogether different matter; but the common business of "standing treat" and giving presents and entertainments is as proud and unspiritual as cock-crowing, as foolish and inhuman as that sorry compendium of mercantile vices, the game of poker, and i am amazed to find chesterton commend it. but that is a criticism by the way. chesterton and belloc agree with the socialist that the present world does not give at all what they want. they agree that it fails to do so through a wild derangement of our property relations. they are in agreement with the common contemporary man (whose creed is stated, i think, not unfairly, but with the omission of certain important articles by chesterton), that the derangements of our property relations are to be remedied by concerted action and in part by altered laws. the land and all sorts of great common interests must be, if not owned, then at least controlled, managed, checked, redistributed by the state. our real difference is only about a little more or a little less owning. i do not see how belloc and chesterton can stand for anything but a strong state as against those wild monsters of property, the strong, big private owners. the state must be complex and powerful enough to prevent them. state or plutocrat there is really no other practical alternative before the world at the present time. either we have to let the big financial adventurers, the aggregating capitalist and his press, in a loose, informal combination, rule the earth, either we have got to stand aside from preventive legislation and leave things to work out on their present lines, or we have to construct a collective organisation sufficiently strong for the protection of the liberties of the some-day-to-be-jolly common man. so far we go in common. if belloc and chesterton are not socialists, they are at any rate not anti-socialists. if they say they want an organised christian state (which involves practically seven-tenths of the socialist desire), then, in the face of our big common enemies, of adventurous capital, of alien imperialism, base ambition, base intelligence, and common prejudice and ignorance, i do not mean to quarrel with them politically, so long as they force no quarrel on me. their organised christian state is nearer the organised state i want than our present plutocracy. our ideals will fight some day, and it will be, i know, a first-rate fight, but to fight now is to let the enemy in. when we have got all we want in common, then and only then can we afford to differ. i have never believed that a socialist party could hope to form a government in this country in my lifetime; i believe it less now than ever i did. i don't know if any of my fabian colleagues entertain so remarkable a hope. but if they do not, then unless their political aim is pure cantankerousness, they must contemplate a working political combination between the socialist members in parliament and just that non-capitalist section of the liberal party for which chesterton and belloc speak. perpetual opposition is a dishonourable aim in politics; and a man who mingles in political development with no intention of taking on responsible tasks unless he gets all his particular formulae accepted is a pervert, a victim of irish bad example, and unfit far decent democratic institutions ... i digress again, i see, but my drift i hope is clear. differ as we may, belloc and chesterton are with all socialists in being on the same side of the great political and social cleavage that opens at the present time. we and they are with the interests of the mass of common men as against that growing organisation of great owners who have common interests directly antagonistic to those of the community and state. we socialists are only secondarily politicians. our primary business is not to impose upon, but to ram right into the substance of that object of chesterton's solicitude, the circle of ideas of the common man, the idea of the state as his own, as a thing he serves and is served by. we want to add to his sense of property rather than offend it. if i had my way i would do that at the street corners and on the trams, i would take down that alien-looking and detestable inscription "l.c.c.," and put up, "this tram, this street, belongs to the people of london." would chesterton or belloc quarrel with that? suppose that chesterton is right, and that there are incurable things in the mind of the common man flatly hostile to our ideals; so much of our ideals will fail. but we are doing our best by our lights, and all we can. what are chesterton and belloc doing? if our ideal is partly right and partly wrong, are they trying to build up a better ideal? will they state a utopia and how they propose it shall be managed? if they lend their weight only to such fine old propositions as that a man wants freedom, that he has a right to do as he likes with his own, and so on, they won't help the common man much. all that fine talk, without some further exposition, goes to sustain mr. rockefeller's simple human love of property, and the woman and child sweating manufacturer in his fight for the inspector-free home industry. i bought on a bookstall the other day a pamphlet full of misrepresentation and bad argument against socialism by an australian jew, published by the single-tax people apparently in a disinterested attempt to free the land from the landowner by the simple expedient of abusing anyone else who wanted to do as much but did not hold henry george to be god and lord; and i know socialists who will protest with tears in their eyes against association with any human being who sings any song but the "red flag" and doubts whether marx had much experience of affairs. well, there is no reason why chesterton and belloc should at their level do the same sort of thing. when we talk on a ceiling or at a dinner-party with any touch of the celestial in its composition, chesterton and i, belloc and i, are antagonists with an undying feud, but in the fight against human selfishness and narrowness and for a finer, juster law, we are brothers--at the remotest, half-brothers. chesterton isn't a socialist--agreed! but now, as between us and the master of elibank or sir hugh bell or any other free trade liberal capitalist or landlord, which side is he on? you cannot have more than one fight going on in the political arena at the same time, because only one party or group of parties can win. and going back for a moment to that point about a utopia, i want one from chesterton. purely unhelpful criticism isn't enough from a man of his size. it isn't justifiable for him to go about sitting on other people's utopias. i appeal to his sense of fair play. i have done my best to reconcile the conception of a free and generous style of personal living with a social organisation that will save the world from the harsh predominance of dull, persistent, energetic, unscrupulous grabbers tempered only by the vulgar extravagance of their wives and sons. it isn't an adequate reply to say that nobody stood treat there, and that the simple, generous people like to beat their own wives and children on occasion in a loving and intimate manner, and that they won't endure the spirit of mr. sidney webb. about sir thomas more there are some writers who are chiefly interesting in themselves, and some whom chance and the agreement of men have picked out as symbols and convenient indications of some particular group or temperament of opinions. to the latter it is that sir thomas more belongs. an age and a type of mind have found in him and his utopia a figurehead and a token; and pleasant and honourable as his personality and household present themselves to the modern reader, it is doubtful if they would by this time have retained any peculiar distinction among the many other contemporaries of whom we have chance glimpses in letters and suchlike documents, were it not that he happened to be the first man of affairs in england to imitate the "republic" of plato. by that chance it fell to him to give the world a noun and an adjective of abuse, "utopian," and to record how under the stimulus of plato's releasing influence the opening problems of our modern world presented themselves to the english mind of his time. for the most part the problems that exercised him are the problems that exercise us to-day, some of them, it may be, have grown up and intermarried, new ones have joined their company, but few, if any, have disappeared, and it is alike in his resemblances to and differences from the modern speculative mind that his essential interest lies. the portrait presented by contemporary mention and his own intentional and unintentional admissions, is of an active-minded and agreeable-mannered man, a hard worker, very markedly prone to quips and whimsical sayings and plays upon words, and aware of a double reputation as a man of erudition and a wit. this latter quality it was that won him advancement at court, and it may have been his too clearly confessed reluctance to play the part of an informal table jester to his king that laid the grounds of that deepening royal resentment that ended only with his execution. but he was also valued by the king for more solid merits, he was needed by the king, and it was more than a table scorned or a clash of opinion upon the validity of divorce; it was a more general estrangement and avoidance of service that caused that fit of regal petulance by which he died. it would seem that he began and ended his career in the orthodox religion and a general acquiescence in the ideas and customs of his time, and he played an honourable and acceptable part in that time; but his permanent interest lies not in his general conformity but in his incidental scepticism, in the fact that underlying the observances and recognised rules and limitations that give the texture of his life were the profoundest doubts, and that, stirred and disturbed by plato, he saw fit to write them down. one may question if such scepticism is in itself unusual, whether any large proportion of great statesmen, great ecclesiastics and administrators have escaped phases of destructive self-criticism of destructive criticism of the principles upon which their general careers were framed. but few have made so public an admission as sir thomas more. a good catholic undoubtedly he was, and yet we find him capable of conceiving a non-christian community excelling all christendom in wisdom and virtue; in practice his sense of conformity and orthodoxy was manifest enough, but in his "utopia" he ventures to contemplate, and that not merely wistfully, but with some confidence, the possibility of an absolute religious toleration. the "utopia" is none the less interesting because it is one of the most inconsistent of books. never were the forms of socialism and communism animated by so entirely an individualist soul. the hands are the hands of plato, the wide-thinking greek, but the voice is the voice of a humane, public-spirited, but limited and very practical english gentleman who takes the inferiority of his inferiors for granted, dislikes friars and tramps and loafers and all undisciplined and unproductive people, and is ruler in his own household. he abounds in sound practical ideas, for the migration of harvesters, for the universality of gardens and the artificial incubation of eggs, and he sweeps aside all plato's suggestion of the citizen woman as though it had never entered his mind. he had indeed the whig temperament, and it manifested itself down even to the practice of reading aloud in company, which still prevails among the more representative survivors of the whig tradition. he argues ably against private property, but no thought of any such radicalism as the admission of those poor peons of his, with head half-shaved and glaring uniform against escape, to participation in ownership appears in his proposals. his communism is all for the convenience of his syphogrants and tranibores, those gentlemen of gravity and experience, lest one should swell up above the others. so too is the essential whiggery of the limitation of the prince's revenues. it is the very spirit of eighteenth century constitutionalism. and his whiggery bears utilitarianism instead of the vanity of a flower. among his cities, all of a size, so that "he that knoweth one knoweth all," the benthamite would have revised his sceptical theology and admitted the possibility of heaven. like any whig, more exalted reason above the imagination at every point, and so he fails to understand the magic prestige of gold, making that beautiful metal into vessels of dishonour to urge his case against it, nor had he any perception of the charm of extravagance, for example, or the desirability of various clothing. the utopians went all in coarse linen and undyed wool--why should the world be coloured?--and all the economy of labour and shortening of the working day was to no other end than to prolong the years of study and the joys of reading aloud, the simple satisfactions of the good boy at his lessons, to the very end of life. "in the institution of that weal publique this end is only and chiefly pretended and minded, that what time may possibly be spared from the necessary occupations and affairs of the commonwealth, all that the citizens should withdraw from the bodily service to the free liberty of the mind and garnishing of the same. for herein they suppose the felicity of this life to consist." indeed, it is no paradox to say that "utopia," which has by a conspiracy of accidents become a proverb for undisciplined fancifulness in social and political matters, is in reality a very unimaginative work. in that, next to the accident of its priority, lies the secret of its continuing interest. in some respects it is like one of those precious and delightful scrapbooks people disinter in old country houses; its very poverty of synthetic power leaves its ingredients, the cuttings from and imitations of plato, the recipe for the hatching of eggs, the stern resolutions against scoundrels and rough fellows, all the sharper and brighter. there will always be found people to read in it, over and above the countless multitudes who will continue ignorantly to use its name for everything most alien to more's essential quality. traffic and rebuilding the london traffic problem is just one of those questions that appeal very strongly to the more prevalent and less charitable types of english mind. it has a practical and constructive air, it deals with impressively enormous amounts of tangible property, it rests with a comforting effect of solidity upon assumptions that are at once doubtful and desirable. it seems free from metaphysical considerations, and it has none of those disconcerting personal applications, those penetrations towards intimate qualities, that makes eugenics, for example, faintly but persistently uncomfortable. it is indeed an ideal problem for a healthy, hopeful, and progressive middle-aged public man. and, as i say, it deals with enormous amounts of tangible property. like all really serious and respectable british problems it has to be handled gently to prevent its coming to pieces in the gift. it is safest in charge of the expert, that wonderful last gift of time. he will talk rapidly about congestion, long-felt wants, low efficiency, economy, and get you into his building and rebuilding schemes with the minimum of doubt and head-swimming. he is like a good hendon pilot. unspecialised writers have the destructive analytical touch. they pull the wrong levers. so far as one can gather from the specialists on the question, there is very considerable congestion in many of the london thoroughfares, delays that seem to be avoidable occur in the delivery of goods, multitudes of empty vans cumber the streets, we have hundreds of acres of idle trucks--there are more acres of railway sidings than of public parks in greater london--and our overseas cousins find it ticklish work crossing regent street and piccadilly. regarding life simply as an affair of getting people and things from where they are to where they appear to be wanted, this seems all very muddled and wanton. so far it is quite easy to agree with the expert. and some of the various and entirely incompatible schemes experts are giving us by way of a remedy, appeal very strongly to the imagination. for example, there is the railway clearing house, which, it is suggested, should cover i do not know how many acres of what is now slumland in shoreditch. the position is particularly convenient for an underground connection with every main line into london. upon the underground level of this great building every goods train into london will run. its trucks and vans will be unloaded, the goods passed into lifts, which will take every parcel, large and small, at once to a huge, ingeniously contrived sorting-floor above. there in a manner at once simple, ingenious and effective, they will be sorted and returned, either into delivery vans at the street level or to the trains emptied and now reloading on the train level. above and below these three floors will be extensive warehouse accommodation. such a scheme would not only release almost all the vast area of london now under railway yards for parks and housing, but it would give nearly every delivery van an effective load, and probably reduce the number of standing and empty vans or half-empty vans on the streets of london to a quarter or an eighth of the present number. mostly these are heavy horse vans, and their disappearance would greatly facilitate the conversion of the road surfaces to the hard and even texture needed for horseless traffic. but that is a scheme too comprehensive and rational for the ordinary student of the london traffic problem, whose mind runs for the most part on costly and devastating rearrangements of the existing roadways. moreover, it would probably secure a maximum of effect with a minimum of property manipulation; always an undesirable consideration in practical politics. and it would commit london and england to goods transit by railway for another century. far more attractive to the expert advisers of our various municipal authorities are such projects as a new thames bridge scheme, which will (with incalculable results) inject a new stream of traffic into saint paul's churchyard; and the removal of charing cross station to the south side of the river. then, again, we have the systematic widening of various thoroughfares, the shunting of tramways into traffic streams, and many amusing, expensive, and interesting tunnellings and clearances. taken together, these huge reconstructions of london are incoherent and conflicting; each is based on its own assumptions and separate "expert" advice, and the resulting new opening plays its part in the general circulation as duct or aspirator, often with the most surprising results. the discussion of the london traffic problem as we practise it in our clubs is essentially the sage turning over and over again of such fragmentary schemes, headshakings over the vacant sites about aldwych and the strand, brilliant petty suggestions and--dispersal. meanwhile the experts intrigue; one partial plan after another gets itself accepted, this and that ancient landmark perish, builders grow rich, and architects infamous, and some tower bridge horror, some vulgarity of the automobile club type, some buckingham palace atrocity, some regent street stupidity, some such cramped and thwarted thing as that new arch which gives upon charing cross is added to the confusion. i do not see any reason to suppose that this continuous muddle of partial destruction and partial rebuilding is not to constitute the future history of london. let us, however, drop the expert methods and handle this question rather more rudely. do we want london rebuilt? if we do, is there, after all, any reason why we should rebuild it on its present site? london is where it is for reasons that have long ceased to be valid; it grew there, it has accumulated associations, an immense tradition, that this constant mucking about of builders and architects is destroying almost as effectually as removal to a new site. the old sort of rebuilding was a natural and picturesque process, house by house, and street by street, a thing as pleasing and almost as natural in effect as the spreading and interlacing of trees; as this new building, this clearance of areas, the piercing of avenues, becomes more comprehensive, it becomes less reasonable. if we can do such big things we may surely attempt bigger things, so that whether we want to plan a new capital or preserve the old, it comes at last to the same thing, that it is unreasonable to be constantly pulling down the london we have and putting it up again. let us drain away our heavy traffic into tunnels, set up that clearing-house plan, and control the growth at the periphery, which is still so witless and ugly, and, save for the manifest tidying and preserving that is needed, begin to leave the central parts of london, which are extremely interesting even where they are not quite beautiful, in peace. the so-called science of sociology it has long been generally recognised that there are two quite divergent ways of attacking sociological and economic questions, one that is called scientific and one that is not, and i claim no particular virtue in the recognition of that; but i do claim a certain freshness in my analysis of this difference, and it is to that analysis that your attention is now called. when i claim freshness i do not make, you understand, any claim to original discovery. what i have to say, and have been saying for some time, is also more or less, and with certain differences to be found in the thought of professor bosanquet, for example, in alfred sidgwick's "use of words in reasoning," in sigwart's "logic," in contemporary american metaphysical speculation. i am only one incidental voice speaking in a general movement of thought. my trend of thought leads me to deny that sociology is a science, or only a science in the same loose sense that modern history is a science, and to throw doubt upon the value of sociology that follows too closely what is called the scientific method. the drift of my argument is to dispute not only that sociology is a science, but also to deny that herbert spencer and comte are to be exalted as the founders of a new and fruitful system of human inquiry. i find myself forced to depreciate these modern idols, and to reinstate the greek social philosophers in their vacant niches, to ask you rather to go to plato for the proper method, the proper way of thinking sociologically. we certainly owe the word sociology to comte, a man of exceptionally methodical quality. i hold he developed the word logically from an arbitrary assumption that the whole universe of being was reducible to measurable and commeasurable and exact and consistent expressions. in a very obvious way, sociology seemed to comte to crown the edifice of the sciences; it was to be to the statesman what pathology and physiology were to the doctor; and one gathers that, for the most part, he regarded it as an intellectual procedure in no way differing from physics. his classification of the sciences shows pretty clearly that he thought of them all as exact logical systematisations of fact arising out of each other in a synthetic order, each lower one containing the elements of a lucid explanation of those above it--physics explaining chemistry; chemistry, physiology; physiology, sociology; and so forth. his actual method was altogether unscientific; but through all his work runs the assumption that in contrast with his predecessors he is really being as exact and universally valid as mathematics. to herbert spencer--very appropriately since his mental characteristics make him the english parallel to comte--we owe the naturalisation of the word in english. his mind being of greater calibre than comte's, the subject acquired in his hands a far more progressive character. herbert spencer was less unfamiliar with natural history than with any other branch of practical scientific work; and it was natural he should turn to it for precedents in sociological research. his mind was invaded by the idea of classification, by memories of specimens and museums; and he initiated that accumulation of desiccated anthropological anecdotes that still figures importantly in current sociological work. on the lines he initiated sociological investigation, what there is of it, still tends to go. from these two sources mainly the work of contemporary sociologists derives. but there persists about it a curious discursiveness that reflects upon the power and value of the initial impetus. mr. v.v. branford, the able secretary of the sociological society, recently attempted a useful work in a classification of the methods of what he calls "approach," a word that seems to me eminently judicious and expressive. a review of the first volume the sociological society has produced brings home the aptness of this image of exploratory operations, of experiments in "taking a line." the names of dr. beattie crozier and mr. benjamin kidd recall works that impress one as large-scale sketches of a proposed science rather than concrete beginnings and achievements. the search for an arrangement, a "method," continues as though they were not. the desperate resort to the analogical method of commenius is confessed by dr. steinmetz, who talks of social morphology, physiology, pathology, and so forth. there is also a less initiative disposition in the vicomte combes de lestrade and in the work of professor giddings. in other directions sociological work is apt to lose its general reference altogether, to lapse towards some department of activity not primarily sociological at all. examples of this are the works of mr. and mrs. sidney webb, m. ostrogorski and m. gustave le bon. from a contemplation of all this diversity professor durkheim emerges, demanding a "synthetic science," "certain synthetic conceptions"--and professor karl pearson endorses the demand--to fuse all these various activities into something that will live and grow. what is it that tangles this question so curiously that there is not only a failure to arrive at a conclusion, but a failure to join issue? well, there is a certain not too clearly recognised order in the sciences to which i wish to call your attention, and which forms the gist of my case against this scientific pretension. there is a gradation in the importance of the instance as one passes from mechanics and physics and chemistry through the biological sciences to economics and sociology, a gradation whose correlatives and implications have not yet received adequate recognition, and which do profoundly affect the method of study and research in each science. let me begin by pointing out that, in the more modern conceptions of logic, it is recognised that there are no identically similar objective experiences; the disposition is to conceive all real objective being as individual and unique. this is not a singular eccentric idea of mine; it is one for which ample support is to be found in the writings of absolutely respectable contemporaries, who are quite untainted by association with fiction. it is now understood that conceivably only in the subjective world, and in theory and the imagination, do we deal with identically similar units, and with absolutely commensurable quantities. in the real world it is reasonable to suppose we deal at most with _practically_ similar units and _practically_ commensurable quantities. but there is a strong bias, a sort of labour-saving bias in the normal human mind to ignore this, and not only to speak but to think of a thousand bricks or a thousand sheep or a thousand sociologists as though they were all absolutely true to sample. if it is brought before a thinker for a moment that in any special case this is not so, he slips back to the old attitude as soon as his attention is withdrawn. this source of error has, for instance, caught nearly the whole race of chemists, with one or two distinguished exceptions, and _atoms_ and _ions_ and so forth of the same species are tacitly assumed to be similar one to another. be it noted that, so far as the practical results of chemistry and physics go, it scarcely matters which assumption we adopt. for purposes of inquiry and discussion the incorrect one is infinitely more convenient. but this ceases to be true directly we emerge from the region of chemistry and physics. in the biological sciences of the eighteenth century, commonsense struggled hard to ignore individuality in shells and plants and animals. there was an attempt to eliminate the more conspicuous departures as abnormalities, as sports, nature's weak moments, and it was only with the establishment of darwin's great generalisation that the hard and fast classificatory system broke down, and individuality came to its own. yet there had always been a clearly felt difference between the conclusions of the biological sciences and those dealing with lifeless substance, in the relative vagueness, the insubordinate looseness and inaccuracy of the former. the naturalist accumulated facts and multiplied names, but he did not go triumphantly from generalisation to generalisation after the fashion of the chemist or physicist. it is easy to see, therefore, how it came about that the inorganic sciences were regarded as the true scientific bed-rock. it was scarcely suspected that the biological sciences might perhaps, after all, be _truer_ than the experimental, in spite of the difference in practical value in favour of the latter. it was, and is by the great majority of people to this day, supposed to be the latter that are invincibly true; and the former are regarded as a more complex set of problems merely, with obliquities and refractions that presently will be explained away. comte and herbert spencer certainly seem to me to have taken that much for granted. herbert spencer no doubt talked of the unknown and the unknowable, but not in this sense, as an element of inexactness running through all things. he thought of the unknown as the indefinable beyond to an immediate world that might be quite clearly and exactly known. well, there is a growing body of people who are beginning to hold the converse view--that counting, classification, measurement, the whole fabric of mathematics, is subjective and deceitful, and that the uniqueness of individuals is the objective truth. as the number of units taken diminishes, the amount of variety and inexactness of generalisation increases, because individuality tells more and more. could you take men by the thousand billion, you could generalise about them as you do about atoms; could you take atoms singly, it may be you would find them as individual as your aunts and cousins. that concisely is the minority belief, and it is the belief on which this present paper is based. now, what is called the scientific method is the method of ignoring individualities; and, like many mathematical conventions, its great practical convenience is no proof whatever of its final truth. let me admit the enormous value, the wonder of its results in mechanics, in all the physical sciences, in chemistry, even in physiology--but what is its value beyond that? is the scientific method of value in biology? the great advances made by darwin and his school in biology were not made, it must be remembered, by the scientific method, as it is generally conceived, at all. he conducted a research into pre-documentary history. he collected information along the lines indicated by certain interrogations; and the bulk of his work was the digesting and critical analysis of that. for documents and monuments he had fossils and anatomical structures and germinating eggs too innocent to lie, and so far he was nearer simplicity. but, on the other hand, he had to correspond with breeders and travellers of various sorts, classes entirely analogous, from the point of view of evidence, to the writers of history and memoirs. i question profoundly whether the word "science," in current usage anyhow, ever means such patient disentanglement as darwin pursued. it means the attainment of something positive and emphatic in the way of a conclusion, based on amply repeated experiments capable of infinite repetition, "proved," as they say, "up to the hilt." it would be, of course, possible to dispute whether the word "science" should convey this quality of certitude; but to most people it certainly does at the present time. so far as the movements of comets and electric trams go, there is, no doubt, practically cocksure science; and indisputably comte and herbert spencer believed that cocksure could be extended to every conceivable finite thing. the fact that herbert spencer called a certain doctrine individualism reflects nothing on the non-individualising quality of his primary assumptions and of his mental texture. he believed that individuality (heterogeneity) was and is an evolutionary product from an original homogeneity. it seems to me that the general usage is entirely for the limitation of the use of the word "science" to knowledge and the search after knowledge of a high degree of precision. and not simply the general usage: "science is measurement," science is "organised common sense," proud, in fact, of its essential error, scornful of any metaphysical analysis of its terms. if we quite boldly face the fact that hard positive methods are less and less successful just in proportion as our "ologies" deal with larger and less numerous individuals; if we admit that we become less "scientific" as we ascend the scale of the sciences, and that we do and must change our method, then, it is humbly submitted we shall be in a much better position to consider the question of "approaching" sociology. we shall realise that all this talk of the organisation of sociology, as though presently the sociologist would be going about the world with the authority of a sanitary engineer, is and will remain nonsense. in one respect we shall still be in accordance with the positivist map of the field of human knowledge; with us as with that, sociology stands at the extreme end of the scale from the molecular sciences. in these latter there is an infinitude of units; in sociology, as comte perceived, there is only one unit. it is true that herbert spencer, in order to get classification somehow, did, as professor durkheim has pointed out, separate human society into societies, and made believe they competed one with another and died and reproduced just like animals, and that economists, following list, have for the purposes of fiscal controversy discovered economic types; but this is a transparent device, and one is surprised to find thoughtful and reputable writers off their guard against such bad analogy. but, indeed, it is impossible to isolate complete communities of men, or to trace any but rude general resemblances between group and group. these alleged units have as much individuality as pieces of cloud; they come, they go, they fuse and separate. and we are forced to conclude that not only is the method of observation, experiment, and verification left far away down the scale, but that the method of classification under types, which has served so useful a purpose in the middle group of subjects, the subjects involving numerous but a finite number of units, has also to be abandoned here. we cannot put humanity into a museum, or dry it for examination; our one single still living specimen is all history, all anthropology, and the fluctuating world of men. there is no satisfactory means of dividing it, and nothing else in the real world with which to compare it. we have only the remotest ideas of its "life-cycle" and a few relics of its origin and dreams of its destiny ... sociology, it is evident, is, upon any hypothesis, no less than the attempt to bring that vast, complex, unique being, its subject, into clear, true relations with the individual intelligence. now, since individual intelligences are individual, and each is a little differently placed in regard to the subject under consideration, since the personal angle of vision is much wider towards humanity than towards the circumambient horizon of matter, it should be manifest that no sociology of universal compulsion, of anything approaching the general validity of the physical sciences, is ever to be hoped for--at least upon the metaphysical assumptions of this paper. with that conceded, we may go on to consider the more hopeful ways in which that great being may be presented in a comprehensible manner. essentially this presentation must involve an element of self-expression must partake quite as much of the nature of art as of science. one finds in the first conference of the sociological society, professor stein, speaking, indeed a very different philosophical dialect from mine, but coming to the same practical conclusion in the matter, and mr. osman newland counting "evolving ideals for the future" as part of the sociologist's work. mr. alfred fouillée also moves very interestingly in the region of this same idea; he concedes an essential difference between sociology and all other sciences in the fact of a "certain kind of liberty belonging to society in the exercise of its higher functions." he says further: "if this view be correct, it will not do for us to follow in the steps of comte and spencer, and transfer, bodily and ready-made, the conceptions and the methods of the natural sciences into the science of society. for here the fact of _consciousness_ entails a reaction of the whole assemblage of social phenomena upon themselves, such as the natural sciences have no example of." and he concludes: "sociology ought, therefore, to guard carefully against the tendency to crystallise that which is essentially fluid and moving, the tendency to consider as given fact or dead data that which creates itself and gives itself into the world of phenomena continually by force of its own ideal conception." these opinions do, in their various keys, sound a similar _motif_ to mine. if, indeed, the tendency of these remarks is justifiable, then unavoidably the subjective element, which is beauty, must coalesce with the objective, which is truth; and sociology mast be neither art simply, nor science in the narrow meaning of the word at all, but knowledge rendered imaginatively, and with an element of personality that is to say, in the highest sense of the term, literature. if this contention is sound, if therefore we boldly set aside comte and spencer altogether, as pseudo-scientific interlopers rather than the authoritative parents of sociology, we shall have to substitute for the classifications of the social sciences an inquiry into the chief literary forms that subserve sociological purposes. of these there are two, one invariably recognised as valuable and one which, i think, under the matter-of-fact scientific obsession, is altogether underrated and neglected the first, which is the social side of history, makes up the bulk of valid sociological work at the present time. of history there is the purely descriptive part, the detailed account of past or contemporary social conditions, or of the sequence of such conditions; and, in addition, there is the sort of historical literature that seeks to elucidate and impose general interpretations upon the complex of occurrences and institutions, to establish broad historical generalisations, to eliminate the mass of irrelevant incident, to present some great period of history, or all history, in the light of one dramatic sequence, or as one process. this dr. beattie crozier, for example, attempts in his "history of intellectual development." equally comprehensive is buckle's "history of civilisation." lecky's "history of european morals," during the onset of christianity again, is essentially sociology. numerous works--atkinson's "primal law," and andrew lang's "social origins," for example--may be considered, as it were, to be fragments to the same purport. in the great design of gibbon's "decline and fall of the roman empire," or carlyle's "french revolution," you have a greater insistence upon the dramatic and picturesque elements in history, but in other respects an altogether kindred endeavour to impose upon the vast confusions of the past a scheme of interpretation, valuable just to the extent of its literary value, of the success with which the discrepant masses have been fused and cast into the shape the insight of the writer has determined. the writing of great history is entirely analogous to fine portraiture, in which fact is indeed material, but material entirely subordinate to vision. one main branch of the work of a sociological society therefore should surely be to accept and render acceptable, to provide understanding, criticism, and stimulus for such literary activities as restore the dead bones of the past to a living participation in our lives. but it is in the second and at present neglected direction that i believe the predominant attack upon the problem implied by the word "sociology" must lie; the attack that must be finally driven home. there is no such thing in sociology as dispassionately considering what _is_, without considering what is _intended to be_. in sociology, beyond any possibility of evasion, ideas are facts. the history of civilisation is really the history of the appearance and reappearance, the tentatives and hesitations and alterations, the manifestations and reflections in this mind and that, of a very complex, imperfect elusive idea, the social idea. it is that idea struggling to exist and realise itself in a world of egotisms, animalisms, and brute matter. now, i submit it is not only a legitimate form of approach, but altogether the most promising and hopeful form of approach, to endeavour to disentangle and express one's personal version of that idea, and to measure realities from the stand-point of that idealisation. i think, in fact, that the creation of utopias--and their exhaustive criticism--is the proper and distinctive method of sociology. suppose now the sociological society, or some considerable proportion of it, were to adopt this view, that sociology is the description of the ideal society and its relation to existing societies, would not this give the synthetic framework professor durkheim, for example, has said to be needed? almost all the sociological literature beyond the province of history that has stood the test of time and established itself in the esteem of men is frankly utopian. plato, when his mind turned to schemes of social reconstruction thrust his habitual form of dialogue into a corner; both the "republic" and the "laws" are practically utopias in monologue; and aristotle found the criticism of the utopian suggestions of his predecessors richly profitable. directly the mind of the world emerged again at the renascence from intellectual barbarism in the brief breathing time before sturm and the schoolmasters caught it and birched it into scholarship and a new period of sterility, it went on from plato to the making of fresh utopias. not without profit did more discuss pauperism in this form and bacon the organisation of research; and the yeast of the french revolution was utopias. even comte, all the while that he is professing science, fact, precision, is adding detail after detail to the intensely personal utopia of a western republic that constitutes his one meritorious gift to the world. sociologists cannot help making utopias; though they avoid the word, though they deny the idea with passion, their very silences shape a utopia. why should they not follow the precedent of aristotle, and accept utopias as material? there used to be in my student days, and probably still flourishes, a most valuable summary of fact and theory in comparative anatomy, called rolleston's "forms of animal life." i figure to myself a similar book, a sort of dream book of huge dimensions, in reality perhaps dispersed in many volumes by many hands, upon the ideal society. this book, this picture of the perfect state, would be the backbone of sociology. it would have great sections devoted to such questions as the extent of the ideal society, its relation to racial differences, the relations of the sexes in it, its economic organisations, its organisation for thought and education, its "bible"--as dr. beattie crozier would say--its housing and social atmosphere, and so forth. almost all the divaricating work at present roughly classed together as sociological could be brought into relation in the simplest manner, either as new suggestions, as new discussion or criticism, as newly ascertained facts bearing upon such discussions and sustaining or eliminating suggestions. the institutions of existing states would come into comparison with the institutions of the ideal state, their failures and defects would be criticised most effectually in that relation, and the whole science of collective psychology, the psychology of human association, would be brought to bear upon the question of the practicability of this proposed ideal. this method would give not only a boundary shape to all sociological activities, but a scheme of arrangement for text books and lectures, and points of direction and reference for the graduation and post graduate work of sociological students. only one group of inquiries commonly classed as sociological would have to be left out of direct relationship with this ideal state; and that is inquiries concerning the rough expedients to meet the failure of imperfect institutions. social emergency work of all sorts comes under this head. what to do with the pariah dogs of constantinople, what to do with the tramps who sleep in the london parks, how to organise a soup kitchen or a bible coffee van, how to prevent ignorant people, who have nothing else to do, getting drunk in beer-houses, are no doubt serious questions for the practical administrator, questions of primary importance to the politician; but they have no more to do with sociology than the erection of a temporary hospital after the collision of two trains has to do with railway engineering. so much for my second and most central and essential portion of sociological work. it should be evident that the former part, the historical part, which conceivably will be much the bulkier and more abundant of the two, will in effect amount to a history of the suggestions in circumstance and experience of that idea of society of which the second will consist, and of the instructive failures in attempting its incomplete realisation. divorce the time is fast approaching when it will be necessary for the general citizen to form definite opinions upon proposals for probably quite extensive alterations of our present divorce laws, arising out of the recommendations of the recent royal commission on the subject. it may not be out of place, therefore, to run through some of the chief points that are likely to be raised, and to set out the main considerations affecting these issues. divorce is not one of those things that stand alone, and neither divorce law nor the general principles of divorce are to be discussed without a reference to antecedent arrangements. divorce is a sequel to marriage, and a change in the divorce law is essentially a change in the marriage law. there was a time in this country when our marriage was a practically divorceless bond, soluble only under extraordinary circumstances by people in situations of exceptional advantage for doing so. now it is a bond under conditions, and in the event of the adultery of the wife, or of the adultery plus cruelty or plus desertion of the husband, and of one or two other rarer and more dreadful offences, it can be broken at the instance of the aggrieved party. a change in the divorce law is a change in the dissolution clauses, so to speak, of the contract for the marriage partnership. it is a change in the marriage law. a great number of people object to divorce under any circumstances whatever. this is the case with the orthodox catholic and with the orthodox positivist. and many religious and orthodox people carry their assertion of the indissolubility of marriage to the grave; they demand that the widow or widower shall remain unmarried, faithful to the vows made at the altar until death comes to the release of the lonely survivor also. re-marriage is regarded by such people as a posthumous bigamy. there is certainly a very strong and logical case to be made out for a marriage bond that is indissoluble even by death. it banishes step-parents from the world. it confers a dignity of tragic inevitability upon the association of husband and wife, and makes a love approach the gravest, most momentous thing in life. it banishes for ever any dream of escape from the presence and service of either party, or of any separation from the children of the union. it affords no alternative to "making the best of it" for either husband or wife; they have taken a step as irrevocable as suicide. and some logical minds would even go further, and have no law as between the members of a family, no rights, no private property within that limit. the family would be the social unit and the father its public representative, and though the law might intervene if he murdered or ill-used wife or children, or they him, it would do so in just the same spirit that it might prevent him from self-mutilation or attempted suicide, for the good of the state simply, and not to defend any supposed independence of the injured member. there is much, i assert, to be said for such a complete shutting up of the family from the interference of the law, and not the least among these reasons is the entire harmony of such a view with the passionate instincts of the natural man and woman in these matters. all unsophisticated human beings appear disposed to a fierce proprietorship in their children and their sexual partners, and in no respect is the ordinary mortal so easily induced to vehemence and violence. for my own part, i do not think the maintenance of a marriage that is indissoluble, that precludes the survivor from re-marriage, that gives neither party an external refuge from the misbehaviour of the other, and makes the children the absolute property of their parents until they grow up, would cause any very general unhappiness most people are reasonable enough, good-tempered enough, and adaptable enough to shake down even in a grip so rigid, and i would even go further and say that its very rigidity, the entire absence of any way out at all, would oblige innumerable people to accommodate themselves to its conditions and make a working success of unions that, under laxer conditions, would be almost certainly dissolved. we should have more people of what i may call the "broken-in" type than an easier release would create, but to many thinkers the spectacle of a human being thoroughly "broken-in" is in itself extremely satisfactory. a few more crimes of desperation perhaps might occur, to balance against an almost universal effort to achieve contentment and reconciliation. we should hear more of the "natural law" permitting murder by the jealous husband or by the jealous wife, and the traffic in poisons would need a sedulous attention--but even there the impossibility of re-marriage would operate to restrain the impatient. on the whole, i can imagine the world rubbing along very well with marriage as unaccommodating as a perfected steel trap. exceptional people might suffer or sin wildly--to the general amusement or indignation. but when once we part from the idea of such a rigid and eternal marriage bond--and the law of every civilised country and the general thought and sentiment everywhere have long since done so--then the whole question changes. if marriage is not so absolutely sacred a bond, if it is not an eternal bond, but a bond we may break on this account or that, then at once we put the question on a different footing. if we may terminate it for adultery or cruelty, or any cause whatever, if we may suspend the intimacy of husband and wife by separation orders and the like, if we recognise their separate property and interfere between them and their children to ensure the health and education of the latter, then we open at once the whole question of a terminating agreement. marriage ceases to be an unlimited union and becomes a definite contract. we raise the whole question of "what are the limits in marriage, and how and when may a marriage terminate?" now, many answers are being given to that question at the present time. we may take as the extremest opposite to the eternal marriage idea the proposal of mr. bernard shaw, that marriage should be terminable at the instance of either party. you would give due and public notice that your marriage was at an end, and it would be at an end. this is marriage at its minimum, as the eternal indissoluble marriage is marriage at its maximum, and the only conceivable next step would be to have a marriage makeable by the oral declaration of both parties and terminable by the oral declaration of either, which would be, indeed, no marriage at all, but an encounter. you might marry a dozen times in that way in a day.... somewhere between these extremes lies the marriage law of a civilised state. let us, rather than working down from the eternal marriage of the religious idealists, work up from mr. shaw. the former course is, perhaps, inevitable for the legislator, but the latter is much more convenient for our discussion. now, the idea of a divorce so easy and wilful as mr. shaw proposes arises naturally out of an exclusive consideration of what i may call the amorous sentimentalities of marriage. if you regard marriage as merely the union of two people in love, then, clearly, it is intolerable, an outrage upon human dignity, that they should remain intimately united when either ceases to love. and in that world of mr. shaw's dreams, in which everybody is to have an equal income and nobody is to have children, in that culminating conversazione of humanity, his marriage law will, no doubt, work with the most admirable results. but if we make a step towards reality and consider a world in which incomes are unequal, and economic difficulties abound--for the present we will ignore the complication of offspring--we at once find it necessary to modify the first fine simplicity of divorce at either partner's request. marriage is almost always a serious economic disturbance for both man and woman: work has to be given up and rearranged, resources have to be pooled; only in the rarest cases does it escape becoming an indefinite business partnership. accordingly, the withdrawal of one partner raises at once all sorts of questions of financial adjustment, compensation for physical, mental, and moral damage, division of furniture and effects and so forth. no doubt a very large part of this could be met if there existed some sort of marriage settlement providing for the dissolution of the partnership. otherwise the petitioner for a shaw-esque divorce must be prepared for the most exhaustive and penetrating examination before, say, a court of three assessors--representing severally the husband, the wife, and justice--to determine the distribution of the separation. this point, however, leads me to note in passing the need that does exist even to-day for a more precise business supplement to marriage as we know it in england and america. i think there ought to be a very definite and elaborate treaty of partnership drawn up by an impartial private tribunal for every couple that marries, providing for most of the eventualities of life, taking cognizance of the earning power, the property and prospects of either party, insisting upon due insurances, ensuring private incomes for each partner, securing the welfare of the children, and laying down equitable conditions in the event of a divorce or separation. such a treaty ought to be a necessary prelude to the issue of a licence to marry. and given such a basis to go upon, then i see no reason why, in the case of couples who remain childless for five or six years, let us say, and seem likely to remain childless, the shaw-esque divorce at the instance of either party, without reason assigned, should not be a very excellent thing indeed. and i take up this position because i believe in the family as the justification of marriage. marriage to me is no mystical and eternal union, but a practical affair, to be judged as all practical things are judged--by its returns in happiness and human welfare. and directly we pass from the mists and glamours of amorous passion to the warm realities of the nursery, we pass into a new system of considerations altogether. we are no longer considering a. in relation to mrs. a., but a. and mrs. a. in relation to an indefinite number of little a.'s, who are the very life of the state in which they live. into the case of mr. a. _v_. mrs. a. come master a. and miss a. intervening. they have the strongest claim against both their parents for love, shelter and upbringing, and the legislator and statesman, concerned as he is chiefly with the future of the community, has the strongest reasons for seeing that they get these things, even at the price of considerable vexation, boredom or indignity to mr. and mrs. a. and here it is that there arises the rational case against free and frequent divorce and the general unsettlement and fluctuation of homes that would ensue. at this point we come to the verge of a jungle of questions that would demand a whole book for anything like a complete answer. let us try as swiftly and simply as possible to form a general idea at least of the way through. remember that we are working upward from mr. shaw's question of "why not separate at the choice of either party?" we have got thus far, that no two people who do not love each other should be compelled to live together, except where the welfare of their children comes in to override their desire to separate, and now we have to consider what may or may not be for the welfare of the children. mr. shaw, following the late samuel butler, meets this difficulty by the most extravagant abuse of parents. he would have us believe that the worst enemies a child can have are its mother and father, and that the only civilised path to citizenship is by the incubator, the crêche, and the mixed school and college. in these matters he is not only ignorant, but unfeeling and unsympathetic, extraordinarily so in view of his great capacity for pity and sweetness in other directions and of his indignant hatred of cruelty and unfairness, and it is not necessary to waste time in discussing what the common experience confutes neither is it necessary to fly to the other extreme, and indulge in preposterous sentimentalities about the magic of fatherhood and a mother's love. these are not magic and unlimited things, but touchingly qualified and human things. the temperate truth of the matter is that in most parents there are great stores of pride, interest, natural sympathy, passionate love and devotion which can be tapped in the interests of the children and the social future, and that it is the mere commonsense of statecraft to use their resources to the utmost. it does not follow that every parent contains these reservoirs, and that a continual close association with the parents is always beneficial to children. if it did, we should have to prosecute everyone who employed a governess or sent away a little boy to a preparatory school. and our real task is to establish a test that will gauge the desirability and benefit of a parent's continued parentage. there are certainly parents and homes from which the children might be taken with infinite benefit to themselves and to society, and whose union it is ridiculous to save from the divorce court shears. suppose, now, we made the willingness of a parent to give up his or her children the measure of his beneficialness to them. there is no reason why we should restrict divorce only to the relation of husband and wife. let us broaden the word and make it conceivable for a husband or wife to divorce not only the partner, but the children. then it might be possible to meet the demands of the shaw-esque extremist up to the point of permitting a married parent, who desired freedom, to petition for a divorce, not from his or her partner simply, but from his or her family, and even for a widow or widower to divorce a family. then would come the task of the assessors. they would make arrangements for the dissolution of the relationship, erring from justice rather in the direction of liberality towards the divorced group, they would determine contributions, exact securities appoint trustees and guardians.... on the whole, i do not see why such a system should not work very well. it would break up many loveless homes, quarrelling and bickering homes, and give a safety-valve for that hate which is the sinister shadow of love. i do not think it would separate one child from one parent who was really worthy of its possession. so far i have discussed only the possibility of divorce without offences, the sort of divorce that arises out of estrangement and incompatibilities. but divorce, as it is known in most christian countries, has a punitive element, and is obtained through the failure of one of the parties to observe the conditions of the bond and the determination of the other to exact suffering. divorce as it exists at present is not a readjustment but a revenge. it is the nasty exposure of a private wrong. in england a husband may divorce his wife for a single act of infidelity, and there can be little doubt that we are on the eve of an equalisation of the law in this respect. i will confess i consider this an extreme concession to the passion of jealousy, and one likely to tear off the roof from many a family of innocent children. only infidelity leading to supposititious children in the case of the wife, or infidelity obstinately and offensively persisted in or endangering health in the case of the husband, really injure the home sufficiently to justify a divorce on the assumptions of our present argument. if we are going to make the welfare of the children our criterion in these matters, then our divorce law does in this direction already go too far. a husband or wife may do far more injury to the home by constantly neglecting it for the companionship of some outside person with whom no "matrimonial offence" is ever committed. of course, if our divorce law exists mainly for the gratification of the fiercer sexual resentments, well and good, but if that is so, let us abandon our pretence that marriage is an institution for the establishment and protection of homes. and while on the one hand existing divorce laws appear to be obsessed by sexual offences, other things of far more evil effect upon the home go without a remedy. there are, for example, desertion, domestic neglect, cruelty to the children drunkenness or harmful drug-taking, indecency of living and uncontrollable extravagance. i cannot conceive how any logical mind, having once admitted the principle of divorce, can hesitate at making these entirely home-wrecking things the basis of effective pleas. but in another direction, some strain of sentimentality in my nature makes me hesitate to go with the great majority of divorce law reformers. i cannot bring myself to agree that either a long term of imprisonment or the misfortune of insanity should in itself justify a divorce. i admit the social convenience, but i wince at the thought of those tragic returns of the dispossessed. so far as insanity goes, i perceive that the cruelty of the law would but endorse the cruelty of nature. but i do not like men to endorse the cruelty of nature. and, of course, there is no decent-minded person nowadays but wants to put an end to that ugly blot upon our civilisation, the publication of whatever is most spicy and painful in divorce court proceedings. it is an outrage which falls even more heavily on the innocent than on the guilty, and which has deterred hundreds of shy and delicate-minded people from seeking legal remedies for nearly intolerable wrongs. the sort of person who goes willingly to the divorce court to-day is the sort of person who would love a screaming quarrel in a crowded street. the emotional breach of the marriage bond is as private an affair as its consummation, and it would be nearly as righteous to subject young couples about to marry to a blustering cross-examination by some underbred bully of a barrister upon their motives, and then to publish whatever chance phrases in their answers appeared to be amusing in the press, as it is to publish contemporary divorce proceedings. the thing is a nastiness, a stream of social contagion and an extreme cruelty, and there can be no doubt that whatever other result this british royal commission may have, there at least will be many sweeping alterations. the schoolmaster and the empire sec. "if youth but knew" is the title of a book published some years ago, but still with a quite living interest, by "kappa"; it is the bitter complaint of a distressed senior against our educational system. he is hugely disappointed in the public-school boy, and more particularly in one typical specimen. he is--if one might hazard a guess--an uncle bereft of great expectations. he finds an echo in thousands of other distressed uncles and parents. they use the most divergent and inadequate forms of expression for this vague sense that the result has not come out good enough; they put it contradictorily and often wrongly, but the sense is widespread and real and justifiable and we owe a great debt to "kappa" for an accurate diagnosis of what in the aggregate amounts to a grave national and social evil. the trouble with "kappa's" particular public-school boy is his unlit imagination, the apathetic commonness of his attitude to life at large. he is almost stupidly not interested in the mysteries of material fact, nor in the riddles and great dramatic movements of history, indifferent to any form of beauty, and pedantically devoted to the pettiness of games and clothing and social conduct. it is, in fact, chiefly by his style in these latter things, his extensive unilluminated knowledge of greek and latin, and his greater costliness, that he differs from a young carpenter or clerk. a young carpenter or clerk of the same temperament would have no narrower prejudices nor outlook, no less capacity for the discussion of broad questions and for imaginative thinking. and it has come to the mind of "kappa" as a discovery, as an exceedingly remarkable and moving thing, a thing to cry aloud about, that this should be so, that this is all that the best possible modern education has achieved. he makes it more than a personal issue. he has come to the conclusion that this is not an exceptional case at all, but a fair sample of what our upper-class education does for the imagination of those who must presently take the lead among us. he declares plainly that we are raising a generation of rulers and of those with whom the duty of initiative should chiefly reside, who have minds atrophied by dull studies and deadening suggestions, and he thinks that this is a matter of the gravest concern for the future of this land and empire. it is difficult to avoid agreeing with him either in his observation or in his conclusion. anyone who has seen much of undergraduates, or medical students, or army candidates, and also of their social subordinates, must be disposed to agree that the difference between the two classes is mainly in unimportant things--in polish, in manner, in superficialities of accent and vocabulary and social habit--and that their minds, in range and power, are very much on a level. with an invincibly aristocratic tradition we are failing altogether to produce a leader class adequate to modern needs. the state is light-headed. but while one agrees with "kappa" and shares his alarm, one must confess the remedies he considers indicated do not seem quite so satisfactory as his diagnosis of the disease. he attacks the curriculum and tells us we must reduce or revolutionise instruction and exercise in the dead languages, introduce a broader handling of history, a more inspiring arrangement of scientific courses, and so forth. i wish, indeed, it were possible to believe that substituting biology for greek prose composition or history with models and photographs and diagrams for latin versification, would make any considerable difference in this matter. for so one might discuss this question and still give no offence to a most amiable and influential class of men. but the roots of the evil, the ultimate cause of that typical young man's deadness, lie not at all in that direction. to indicate the direction in which it does lie is quite unavoidably to give offence to an indiscriminatingly sensitive class. yet there is need to speak plainly. this deadening of soul comes not from the omission or inclusion of this specific subject or that; it is the effect of the general scholastic atmosphere. it is an atmosphere that admits of no inspiration at all. it is an atmosphere from which living stimulating influences have been excluded from which stimulating and vigorous personalities are now being carefully eliminated, and in which dull, prosaic men prevail invincibly. the explanation of the inert commonness of "kappa's" schoolboy lies not in his having learnt this or not learnt that, but in the fact that from seven to twenty he has been in the intellectual shadow of a number of good-hearted, sedulously respectable conscientiously manly, conforming, well-behaved men, who never, to the knowledge of their pupils and the public, at any rate, think strange thoughts do imaginative or romantic things, pay tribute to beauty, laugh carelessly, or countenance any irregularity in the world. all erratic and enterprising tendencies in him have been checked by them and brought at last to nothing; and so he emerges a mere residuum of decent minor dispositions. the dullness of the scholastic atmosphere the grey, intolerant mediocrity that is the natural or assumed quality of every upper-class schoolmaster, is the true cause of the spiritual etiolation of "kappa's" young friend. now, it is a very grave thing, i know, to bring this charge against a great profession--to say, as i do say, that it is collectively and individually dull. but someone has to do this sooner or later; we have restrained ourselves and argued away from the question too long. there is, i allege, a great lack of vigorous and inspiring minds in our schools. our upper-class schools are out of touch with the thought of the time, in a backwater of intellectual apathy. we have no original or heroic school-teachers. let me ask the reader frankly what part our leading headmasters play in his intellectual world; if when some prominent one among them speaks or writes or talks, he expects anything more than platitudes and little things? has he ever turned aside to learn what this headmaster or that thought of any question that interested him? has he ever found freshness or power in a schoolmaster's discourse; or found a schoolmaster caring keenly for fine and beautiful things? who does not know the schoolmaster's trite, safe admirations, his thin, evasive discussion, his sham enthusiasms for cricket, for fly-fishing, for perpendicular architecture, for boyish traits; his timid refuge in "good form," his deadly silences? and if we do not find him a refreshing and inspiring person, and his mind a fountain of thought in which we bathe and are restored, is it likely our sons will? if the schoolmaster at large is grey and dull, shirking interesting topics and emphatic speech, what must he be like in the monotonous class-room? these may seem wanton charges to some, but i am not speaking without my book. monthly i am brought into close contact with the pedagogic intelligence through the medium of three educational magazines. a certain morbid habit against which i struggle in vain makes me read everything i catch a schoolmaster writing. i am, indeed, one of the faithful band who read the educational supplement of the _times_. in these papers schoolmasters write about their business, lectures upon the questions of their calling are reported at length, and a sort of invalid discussion moves with painful decorum through the correspondence column. the scholastic mind so displayed in action fascinates me. it is like watching a game of billiards with wooden cushes and beechwood balls. sec. but let me take one special instance. in a periodical, now no longer living, called the _independent review_, there appeared some years ago a very curious and typical contribution by the headmaster of dulwich, which i may perhaps use as an illustration of the mental habits which seem inseparably associated with modern scholastic work. it is called "english ideas on education," and it begins--trite, imitative, undistinguished--thus: "the most important question in a country is that of education, and the most important people in a country are those who educate its inhabitants. others have most of the present in their hands: those who educate have all the future. with the present is bound up all the happiness only of the utterly selfish and the thoughtless among mankind; on the future rest all the thoughts of every parent and every wise man and patriot." it is the opening of a boy's essay. and from first to last this remarkable composition is at or below that level. it is an entirely inconclusive paper, it is impossible to understand why it was written; it quotes nothing it says nothing about and was probably written in ignorance of "kappa" or any other modern contributor to english ideas, and it occupied about six and a quarter of the large-type pages of this now vanished _independent review_. "english ideas on education"!--this very brevity is eloquent, the more so since the style is by no means succinct. it must be read to be believed. it is quite extraordinarily non-prehensile in quality and substance nothing is gripped and maintained and developed; it is like the passing of a lax hand over the surfaces of disarranged things. it is difficult to read, because one's mind slips over it and emerges too soon at the end, mildly puzzled though incurious still as to what it is all about. one perceives mr. gilkes through a fog dimly thinking that greek has something vital to do with "a knowledge of language and man," that the classical master is in some mysterious way superior to the science man and more imaginative, and that science men ought not to be worried with the greek that is too high for them; and he seems, too, to be under the odd illusion that "on all this" englishmen "seem now to be nearly in agreement," and also on the opinion that games are a little overdone and that civic duties and the use of the rifle ought to be taught. statements are made--the sort of statements that are suffered in an atmosphere where there is no swift, fierce opposition to be feared; they frill out into vague qualifications and butt gently against other partially contradictory statements. there is a classification of minds--the sort of classification dear to the y.m.c.a. essayists, made for the purposes of the essay and unknown to psychology. there are, we are told, accurate unimaginative, ingenious minds capable of science and kindred vulgar things (such was archimedes), and vague, imaginative minds, with the gift for language and for the treatment of passion and the higher indefinable things (such as homer and mr. gilkes), and, somehow, this justifies those who are destined for "science" in dropping greek. certain "considerations," however, loom inconclusively upon this issue--rather like interested spectators of a street fight in a fog. for example, to learn a language is valuable "in proportion as the nation speaking it is great"--a most empty assertion; and "no languages are so good," for the purpose of improving style, "as the exact and beautiful languages of rome and greece." is it not time at least that this last, this favourite but threadbare article of the schoolmaster's creed was put away for good? everyone who has given any attention to this question must be aware that the intellectual gesture is entirely different in highly inflected languages such as greek and latin and in so uninflected a language as english, that learning greek to improve one's english style is like learning to swim in order to fence better, and that familiarity with greek seems only too often to render a man incapable of clear, strong expression in english at all. yet mr. gilkes can permit this old assertion, so dear to country rectors and the classical scholar, to appear within a column's distance of such style as this: "it is now understood that every subject is valuable, if it is properly taught; it will perform that which, as follows from the accounts given above of the aim of education, is the work most important in the case of boys--that is, it will draw out their faculties and make them useful in the world, alert, trained in industry, and able to understand, so far as their school lessons educated them, and make themselves master of any subject set before them." this quotation is conclusive. sec. i am haunted by a fear that the careless reader will think i am writing against upper-class schoolmasters. i am, it is undeniable, writing against their dullness, but it is, i hold, a dullness that is imposed upon them by the conditions under which they live. indeed, i believe, could i put the thing directly to the profession--"do you not yourselves feel needlessly limited and dull?"--should receive a majority of affirmative responses. we have, as a nation, a certain ideal of what a schoolmaster must be; to that he must by art or nature approximate, and there is no help for it but to alter our ideal. nothing else of any wide value can be done until that is done. in the first place, the received ideal omits a most necessary condition. we do not insist upon a headmaster or indeed any of our academic leaders and dignitaries, being a man of marked intellectual character, a man of intellectual distinction. it is assumed, rather lightly in many cases, that he has done "good work," as they say--the sort of good work that is usually no good at all, that increases nothing, changes nothing, stimulates no one, leads no whither. that, surely, must be altered. we must see to it that our leading schoolmasters at any rate must be men of insight and creative intelligence, men who could at a pinch write a good novel or produce illuminating criticism or take an original part in theological or philosophical discussion, or do any of these minor things. they must be authentic men, taking a line of their own and capable of intellectual passion. they should be able to make their mark outside the school, if only to show they carry a living soul into it. as things are, nothing is so fatal to a schoolmaster's career as to do that. and closely related to this omission is our extreme insistence upon what we call high moral character, meaning, really, something very like an entire absence of moral character. we insist upon tact, conformity, and an unblemished record. now, in these days, of warring opinion, these days of gigantic, strange issues that cannot possibly be expressed in the formulae of the smaller times that have gone before, tact is evasion, conformity formality, and silence an unblemished record, mere evidence of the damning burial of a talent of life. the sort of man into whose hands we give our sons' minds must never have experimented morally or thought at all freely or vigorously about, for example, god, socialism, the mosaic account of the creation, social procedure, republicanism, beauty, love, or, indeed, about anything likely to interest an intelligent adolescent. at the approach of all such things he must have acquired the habit of the modest cough, the infectious trick of the nice evasion. how can "kappa" expect inspiration from the decorous resultants who satisfy these conditions? what brand can ever be lit at altars that have borne no fire? and you find the secondary schoolmaster who complies with these restrictions becoming the zealous and grateful agent of the tendencies that have made him what he is, converting into a practice those vague dreads of idiosyncrasy, of positive acts and new ideas, that dictated the choice of him and his rule of life. his moral teaching amounts to this: to inculcate truth-telling about small matters and evasion about large, and to cultivate a morbid obsession in the necessary dawn of sexual consciousness. so far from wanting to stimulate the imagination, he hates and dreads it. i find him perpetually haunted by a ridiculous fear that boys will "do something," and in his terror seeking whatever is dull and unstimulating and tiring in intellectual work, clipping their reading, censoring their periodicals, expurgating their classics, substituting the stupid grind of organised "games" for natural, imaginative play, persecuting loafers--and so achieving his end and turning out at last, clean-looking, passively well-behaved, apathetic, obliterated young men, with the nicest manners and no spark of initiative at all, quite safe not to "do anything" for ever. i submit this may be a very good training for polite servants, but it is not the way to make masters in the world. if we english believe we are indeed a masterful people, we must be prepared to expose our children to more and more various stimulations than we do; they must grow up free, bold, adventurous, initiated, even if they have to take more risks in the doing of that. an able and stimulating teacher is as rare as a fine artist, and is a thing worth having for your son, even at the price of shocking your wife by his lack of respect for that magnificent compromise, the establishment, or you by his socialism or by his catholicism or darwinism, or even by his erroneous choice of ties and collars. boys who are to be free, masterly men must hear free men talking freely of religion, of philosophy, of conduct. they must have heard men of this opinion and that, putting what they believe before them with all the courage of conviction. they must have an idea of will prevailing over form. it is far more important that boys should learn from original, intellectually keen men than they should learn from perfectly respectable men, or perfectly orthodox men, or perfectly nice men. the vital thing to consider about your son's schoolmaster is whether he talked lifeless twaddle yesterday by way of a lesson, and not whether he loved unwisely or was born of poor parents, or was seen wearing a frock-coat in combination with a bowler, or confessed he doubted the apostles' creed, or called himself a socialist, or any disgraceful thing like that, so many years ago. it is that sort of thing "kappa" must invert if he wants a change in our public schools. you may arrange and rearrange curricula, abolish greek, substitute "science"--it will not matter a rap. even those model canoes of yours, "kappa," will be wasted if you still insist upon model schoolmasters. so long as we require our schoolmasters to be politic, conforming, undisturbing men, setting up polonius as an ideal for them, so long will their influence deaden the souls of our sons. the endowment of motherhood some few years ago the fabian society, which has been so efficient in keeping english socialism to the lines of "artfulness and the 'eighties," refused to have anything to do with the endowment of motherhood. subsequently it repented and produced a characteristic pamphlet in which the idea was presented with a sort of minimising furtiveness as a mean little extension of outdoor relief. these fabian socialists, instead of being the daring advanced people they are supposed to be, are really in many things twenty years behind the times. there need be nothing shamefaced about the presentation of the endowment of motherhood. there is nothing shameful about it. it is a plain and simple idea for which the mind of the man in the street has now been very completely prepared. it has already crept into social legislation to the extent of thirty shillings. i suppose if one fact has been hammered into us in the past two decades more than any other it is this: that the supply of children is falling off in the modern state; that births, and particularly good-quality births, are not abundant enough; that the birth-rate, and particularly the good-class birth-rate, falls steadily below the needs of our future. if no one else has said a word about this important matter, ex-president roosevelt would have sufficed to shout it to the ends of the earth. every civilised community is drifting towards "race-suicide" as rome drifted into "race-suicide" at the climax of her empire. well, it is absurd to go on building up a civilisation with a dwindling supply of babies in the cradles--and these not of the best possible sort--and so i suppose there is hardly an intelligent person in the english-speaking communities who has not thought of some possible remedy--from the naive scoldings of mr. roosevelt and the more stolid of the periodicals to sane and intelligible legislative projects. the reasons for the fall in the birth-rate are obvious enough. it is a necessary consequence of the individualistic competition of modern life. people talk of modern women "shirking" motherhood, but it would be a silly sort of universe in which a large proportion of women had any natural and instinctive desire to shirk motherhood, and, i believe, a huge proportion of modern women are as passionately predisposed towards motherhood as ever women were. but modern conditions conspire to put a heavy handicap upon parentage and an enormous premium upon the partial or complete evasion of offspring, and that is where the clue to the trouble lies. our social arrangements discourage parentage very heavily, and the rational thing for a statesman to do in the matter is not to grow eloquent, but to do intelligent things to minimise that discouragement. consider the case of an energetic young man and an energetic young woman in our modern world. so long as they remain "unencumbered" they can subsist on a comparatively small income and find freedom and leisure to watch for and follow opportunities of self-advancement; they can travel, get knowledge and experience, make experiments, succeed. one might almost say the conditions of success and self-development in the modern world are to defer marriage as long as possible, and after that to defer parentage as long as possible. and even when there is a family there is the strongest temptation to limit it to three or four children at the outside. parents who can give three children any opportunity in life prefer to do that than turn out, let us say, eight ill-trained children at a disadvantage, to become the servants and unsuccessful competitors of the offspring of the restrained. that fact bites us all; it does not require a search. it is all very well to rant about "race-suicide," but there are the clear, hard conditions of contemporary circumstances for all but the really rich, and so patent are they that i doubt if all the eloquence of mr. roosevelt and its myriad echoes has added a thousand babies to the eugenic wealth of the english-speaking world. modern married people, and particularly those in just that capable middle class from which children are most urgently desirable from the statesman's point of view, are going to have one or two children to please themselves but they are not going to have larger families under existing conditions, though all the ex-presidents and all the pulpits in the world clamour together for them to do so. if having and rearing children is a private affair, then no one has any right to revile small families; if it is a public service, then the parent is justified in looking to the state to recognise that service and offer some compensation for the worldly disadvantages it entails. he is justified in saying that while his unencumbered rival wins past him he is doing the state the most precious service in the world by rearing and educating a family, and that the state has become his debtor. in other words, the modern state has got to pay for its children if it really wants them--and more particularly it has to pay for the children of good homes. the alternative to that is racial replacement and social decay. that is the essential idea conveyed by this phrase, the endowment of motherhood. now, how is the paying to be done? that needs a more elaborate answer, of which i will give here only the roughest, crudest suggestion. probably it would be found best that the payment should be made to the mother, as the administrator of the family budget, that its amount should be made dependent upon the quality of the home in which the children are being reared, upon their health and physical development, and upon their educational success. be it remembered, we do not want any children; we want good-quality children. the amount to be paid, i would particularly point out, should vary with the standing of the home. people of that excellent class which spends over a hundred a year on each child ought to get about that much from the state, and people of the class which spends five shillings a week per head on them would get about that, and so on. and if these payments were met by a special income tax there would be no social injustice whatever in such an unequality of payment. each social stratum would pay according to its prosperity, and the only redistribution that would in effect occur would be that the childless people of each class would pay for the children of that class. the childless family and the small family would pay equally with the large family, incomes being equal, but they would receive in proportions varying with the health and general quality of their children. that, i think, gives the broad principles upon which the payments would be made. of course, if these subsidies resulted in too rapid a rise in the birth-rate, it would be practicable to diminish the inducement; and if, on the other hand, the birth-rate still fell, it would be easy to increase the inducement until it sufficed. that concisely is the idea of the endowment of motherhood. i believe firmly that some such arrangement is absolutely necessary to the continuous development of the modern state. these proposals arise so obviously out of the needs of our time that i cannot understand any really intelligent opposition to them. i can, however, understand a partial and silly application of them. it is most important that our good-class families should be endowed, but the whole tendency of the timid and disingenuous progressivism of our time, which is all mixed up with ideas of charity and aggressive benevolence to the poor, would be to apply this--as that fabian tract i mention does--only to the poor mother. to endow poor and bad-class motherhood and leave other people severely alone would be a proceeding so supremely idiotic, so harmful to our national quality, as to be highly probable in the present state of our public intelligence. it comes quite on a level with the policy of starving middle-class education that has left us with nearly the worst educated middle class in western europe. the endowment of motherhood does not attract the bureaucratic type of reformer because it offers a minimum chance of meddlesome interference with people's lives. there would be no chance of "seeking out" anybody and applying benevolent but grim compulsions on the strength of it. in spite of its wide scope it would be much less of a public nuisance than that wet children's charter, which exasperates me every time i pass a public-house on a rainy night. but, on the other hand, there would be an enormous stimulus to people to raise the quality of their homes, study infantile hygiene, seek out good schools for them--and do their duty as all good parents naturally want to do now--if only economic forces were not so pitilessly against them--thoroughly and well. doctors in that extravagant world of which i dream, in which people will live in delightful cottages and ground rents will serve instead of rates, and everyone will have a chance of being happy--in that impossible world all doctors will be members of one great organisation for the public health, with all or most of their income guaranteed to them: i doubt if there will be any private doctors at all. heaven forbid i should seem to write a word against doctors as they are. daily i marvel at the wonders the general practitioner achieves, having regard to the difficulties of his position. but i cannot hide from myself, and i do not intend to hide from anyone else, my firm persuasion that the services the general practitioner is able to render us are not one-tenth so effectual as they might be if, instead of his being a private adventurer, he were a member of a sanely organised public machine. consider what his training and equipment are, consider the peculiar difficulties of his work, and then consider for a moment what better conditions might be invented, and perhaps you will not think my estimate of one-tenth an excessive understatement in this matter. nearly the whole of our medical profession and most of our apparatus for teaching and training doctors subsist on strictly commercial lines by earning fees. this chief source of revenue is eked out by the wanton charity of old women, and conspicuous subscriptions by popularity hunters, and a small but growing contribution (in the salaries of medical officers of health and so forth) from the public funds. but the fact remains that for the great mass of the medical profession there is no living to be got except at a salary for hospital practice or by earning fees in receiving or attending upon private cases. so long as a doctor is learning or adding to knowledge, he earns nothing, and the common, unintelligent man does not see why he should earn anything. so that a doctor who has no religious passion for poverty and self-devotion gets through the minimum of training and learning as quickly and as cheaply as possible, and does all he can to fill up the rest of his time in passing rapidly from case to case. the busier he keeps, the less his leisure for thought and learning, the richer he grows, and the more he is esteemed. his four or five years of hasty, crowded study are supposed to give him a complete and final knowledge of the treatment of every sort of disease, and he goes on year after year, often without co-operation, working mechanically in the common incidents of practice, births, cases of measles and whooping cough, and so forth, and blundering more or less in whatever else turns up. there are no public specialists to whom he can conveniently refer the difficulties he constantly encounters; only in the case of rich patients is the specialist available; there are no properly organised information bureaus for him, and no means whatever of keeping him informed upon progress and discovery in medical science. he is not even required to set apart a month or so in every two or three years in order to return to lectures and hospitals and refresh his knowledge. indeed, the income of the average general practitioner would not permit of such a thing, and almost the only means of contact between him and current thought lies in the one or other of our two great medical weeklies to which he happens to subscribe. now just as i have nothing but praise for the average general practitioner, so i have nothing but praise and admiration for those stalwart-looking publications. without them i can imagine nothing but the most terrible intellectual atrophy among our medical men. but since they are private properties run for profit they have to pay, and half their bulk consists of the brilliantly written advertisements of new drugs and apparatus. they give much knowledge, they do much to ventilate perplexing questions, but a broadly conceived and properly endowed weekly circular could, i believe, do much more. at any rate, in my utopia this duty of feeding up the general practitioners will not be left to private enterprise. behind the first line of my medical army will be a second line of able men constantly digesting new research for its practical needs--correcting, explaining, announcing; and, in addition, a force of public specialists to whom every difficulty in diagnosis will be at once referred. and there will be a properly organised system of reliefs that will allow the general practitioner and his right hand, the nurse, to come back to the refreshment of study before his knowledge and mind have got rusty. but then my utopia is a socialistic system. under our present system of competitive scramble, under any system that reduces medical practice to mere fee-hunting nothing of this sort is possible. then in my utopia, for every medical man who was mainly occupied in practice, i would have another who was mainly occupied in or about research. people hear so much about modern research that they do not realise how entirely inadequate it is in amount and equipment. our general public is still too stupid to understand the need and value of sustained investigations in any branch of knowledge at all. in spite of all the lessons of the last century, it still fails to realise how discovery and invention enrich the community and how paying an investment is the public employment of clever people to think and experiment for the benefit of all. it still expects to get a newton or a joule for £ a year, and requires him to conduct his researches in the margin of time left over when he has got through his annual eighty or ninety lectures. it imagines discoveries are a sort of inspiration that comes when professors are running to catch trains. it seems incapable of imagining how enormous are the untried possibilities of research. of course, if you will only pay a handful of men salaries at which the cook of any large london hotel would turn up his nose, you cannot expect to have the master minds of the world at your service; and save for a few independent or devoted men, therefore, it is not reasonable to suppose that such a poor little dribble of medical research as is now going on is in the hands of persons of much more than average mental equipment. how can it be? one hears a lot of the rigorous research into the problem of cancer that is now going on. does the reader realise that all the men in the whole world who are giving any considerable proportion of their time to this cancer research would pack into a very small room, that they are working in little groups without any properly organised system of intercommunication, and that half of them are earning less than a quarter of the salary of a bond street shopwalker by those vastly important inquiries? not one cancer case in twenty thousand is being properly described and reported. and yet, in comparison with other diseases, cancer is being particularly well attended to. the general complacency with the progress in knowledge we have made and are making is ridiculously unjustifiable. enormous things were no doubt done in the nineteenth century in many fields of knowledge, but all that was done was out of all proportion petty in comparison with what might have been done. i suppose the whole of the unprecedented progress in material knowledge of the nineteenth century was the work of two or three thousand men, who toiled against opposition, spite and endless disadvantages, without proper means of intercommunication and with wretched facilities for experiment. such discoveries as were distinctively medical were the work of only a few hundred men. now, suppose instead of that scattered band of un-co-ordinated workers a great army of hundreds of thousands of well-paid men; suppose, for instance, the community had kept as many scientific and medical investigators as it has bookmakers and racing touts and men about town--should we not know a thousand times as much as we do about disease and health and strength and power? but these are utopian questionings. the sane, practical man shakes his head, smiles pityingly at my dreamy impracticability, and passes them by. an age of specialisation there is something of the phonograph in all of us, but in the sort of eminent person who makes public speeches about education and reading, and who gives away prizes and opens educational institutions, there seems to be little else but gramophone. these people always say the same things, and say them in the same note. and why should they do that if they are really individuals? there is, i cannot but suspect, in the mysterious activities that underlie life, some trade in records for these distinguished gramophones, and it is a trade conducted upon cheap and wholesale lines. there must be in these demiurgic profundities a rapid manufacture of innumerable thousands of that particular speech about "scrappy reading," and that contrast of "modern" with "serious" literature, that babbles about in the provinces so incessantly. gramophones thinly disguised as bishops, gramophones still more thinly disguised as eminent statesmen, gramophones k.c.b. and gramophones f.r.s. have brazened it at us time after time, and will continue to brazen it to our grandchildren when we are dead and all our poor protests forgotten. and almost equally popular in their shameless mouths is the speech that declares this present age to be an age of specialisation. we all know the profound droop of the eminent person's eyelids as he produces that discovery, the edifying deductions or the solemn warnings he unfolds from this proposition, and all the dignified, inconclusive rigmarole of that cylinder. and it is nonsense from beginning to end. this is most distinctly _not_ an age of specialisation. there has hardly been an age in the whole course of history less so than the present. a few moments of reflection will suffice to demonstrate that. this is beyond any precedent an age of change, change in the appliances of life, in the average length of life, in the general temper of life; and the two things are incompatible. it is only under fixed conditions that you can have men specialising. they specialise extremely, for example, under such conditions as one had in hindustan up to the coming of the present generation. there the metal worker or the cloth worker, the wheelwright or the druggist of yesterday did his work under almost exactly the same conditions as his predecessor did it five hundred years before. he had the same resources, the same tools, the same materials; he made the same objects for the same ends. within the narrow limits thus set him he carried work to a fine perfection; his hand, his mental character were subdued to his medium. his dress and bearing even were distinctive; he was, in fact, a highly specialised man. he transmitted his difference to his sons. caste was the logical expression in the social organisation of this state of high specialisation, and, indeed, what else is caste or any definite class distinctions but that? but the most obvious fact of the present time is the disappearance of caste and the fluctuating uncertainty of all class distinctions. if one looks into the conditions of industrial employment specialisation will be found to linger just in proportion as a trade has remained unaffected by inventions and innovation. the building trade, for example, is a fairly conservative one. a brick wall is made to-day much as it was made two hundred years ago, and the bricklayer is in consequence a highly skilled and inadaptable specialist. no one who has not passed through a long and tedious training can lay bricks properly. and it needs a specialist to plough a field with horses or to drive a cab through the streets of london. thatchers, old-fashioned cobblers, and hand workers are all specialised to a degree no new modern calling requires. with machinery skill disappears and unspecialised intelligence comes in. any generally intelligent man can learn in a day or two to drive an electric tram, fix up an electric lighting installation, or guide a building machine or a steam plough. he must be, of course, much more generally intelligent than the average bricklayer, but he needs far less specialised skill. to repair machinery requires, of course, a special sort of knowledge, but not a special sort of training. in no way is this disappearance of specialisation more marked than in military and naval affairs. in the great days of greece and rome war was a special calling, requiring a special type of man. in the middle ages war had an elaborate technique, in which the footman played the part of an unskilled labourer, and even within a period of a hundred years it took a long period of training and discipline before the common discursive man could be converted into the steady soldier. even to-day traditions work powerfully, through extravagance of uniform, and through survivals of that mechanical discipline that was so important in the days of hand-to-hand fighting, to keep the soldier something other than a man. for all the lessons of the boer war we are still inclined to believe that the soldier has to be something severely parallel, carrying a rifle he fires under orders, obedient to the pitch of absolute abnegation of his private intelligence. we still think that our officers have, like some very elaborate and noble sort of performing animal, to be "trained." they learn to fight with certain specified "arms" and weapons, instead of developing intelligence enough to use anything that comes to hand. but, indeed, when a really great european war does come and lets loose motor-cars, bicycles, wireless telegraphy, aeroplanes, new projectiles of every size and shape, and a multitude of ingenious persons upon the preposterously vast hosts of conscription, the military caste will be missing within three months of the beginning, and the inventive, versatile, intelligent man will have come to his own. and what is true of a military caste is equally true of a special governing class such as our public schools maintain. the misunderstanding that has given rise to this proposition that this is an age of specialisation, and through that no end of mischief in misdirected technical education and the like, is essentially a confusion between specialisation and the division of labour. no doubt this is an age when everything makes for wider and wider co-operations. work that was once done by one highly specialised man--the making of a watch, for example--is now turned out wholesale by elaborate machinery, or effected in great quantities by the contributed efforts of a number of people. each of these people may bring a highly developed intelligence to bear for a time upon the special problem in hand, but that is quite a different thing from specialising to do that thing. this is typically shown in scientific research. the problem or the parts of problems upon which the inquiry of an individual man is concentrated are often much narrower than the problems that occupied faraday or dalton, and yet the hard and fast lines that once divided physicist from chemist, or botanist from pathologist have long since gone. professor farmer, the botanist, investigates cancer, and the ordinary educated man, familiar though he is with their general results, would find it hard to say which were the chemists and which the physicists among professors dewar and ramsey lord rayleigh and curie. the classification of sciences that was such a solemn business to our grandfathers is now merely a mental obstruction. it is interesting to glance for a moment at the possible source of this mischievous confusion between specialisation and the division of labour. i have already glanced at the possibility of a diabolical world manufacturing gramophone records for our bishops and statesmen and suchlike leaders of thought, but if we dismiss that as a merely elegant trope, i must confess i think it is the influence of herbert spencer. his philosophy is pervaded by an insistence which is, i think, entirely without justification, that the universe, and every sort of thing in it, moves from the simple and homogeneous to the complex and heterogeneous. an unwary man obsessed with that idea would be very likely to assume without consideration that men were less specialised in a barbaric state of society than they are to-day. i think i have given reasons for believing that the reverse of this is nearer the truth. is there a people? of all the great personifications that have dominated the mind of man, the greatest, the most marvellous, the most impossible and the most incredible, is surely the people, that impalpable monster to which the world has consecrated its political institutions for the last hundred years. it is doubtful now whether this stupendous superstition has reached its grand climacteric, and there can be little or no dispute that it is destined to play a prominent part in the history of mankind for many years to come. there is a practical as well as a philosophical interest, therefore, in a note or so upon the attributes of this legendary being. i write "legendary," but thereby i display myself a sceptic. to a very large number of people the people is one of the profoundest realities in life. they believe--what exactly do they believe about the people? when they speak of the people they certainly mean something more than the whole mass of individuals in a country lumped together. that is the people, a mere varied aggregation of persons, moved by no common motive, a complex interplay. the people, as the believer understands the word, is something more mysterious than that. the people is something that overrides and is added to the individualities that make up the people. it is, as it were, itself an individuality of a higher order--as indeed, its capital "p" displays. it has a will of its own which is not the will of any particular person in it, it has a power of purpose and judgment of a superior sort. it is supposed to be the underlying reality of all national life and the real seat of all public religious emotion. unfortunately, it lacks powers of expression, and so there is need of rulers and interpreters. if they express it well in law and fact, in book and song, they prosper under its mysterious approval; if they do not, it revolts or forgets or does something else of an equally annihilatory sort. that, briefly, is the idea of the people. my modest thesis is that there exists nothing of the sort, that the world of men is entirely made up of the individuals that compose it, and that the collective action is just the algebraic sum of all individual actions. how far the opposite opinion may go, one must talk to intelligent americans or read the contemporary literature of the first french revolution to understand. i find, for example, so typical a young american as the late frank norris roundly asserting that it is the people to whom we are to ascribe the triumphant emergence of the name of shakespeare from the ruck of his contemporaries and the passage in which this assertion is made is fairly representative of the general expression of this sort of mysticism. "one must keep one's faith in the people--the plain people, the burgesses, the grocers--else of all men the artists are most miserable and their teachings vain. let us admit and concede that this belief is ever so sorely tried at times.... but in the end, and at last, they will listen to the true note and discriminate between it and the false." and then he resorts to italics to emphasise: "_in the last analysis the people are always right_." and it was that still more typical american, abraham lincoln, who declared his equal confidence in the political wisdom of this collective being. "you can fool all the people some of the time and some of the people all the time, but you cannot fool all the people all the time." the thing is in the very opening words of the american constitution, and theodore parker calls it "the american idea" and pitches a still higher note: "a government of all the people, by all the people, for all the people; a government of all the principles of eternal justice, _the unchanging law of god."_ it is unavoidable that a collective wisdom distinct from any individual and personal one is intended in these passages. mr. norris, for example, never figured to himself a great wave of critical discrimination sweeping through the ranks of the various provision trades and a multitude of simple, plain burgesses preferring shakespeare and setting marlowe aside. such a particularisation of his statement would have at once reduced it to absurdity. nor does any american see the people particularised in that way. they believe in the people one and indivisible, a simple, mystical being, which pervades and dominates the community and determines its final collective consequences. now upon the belief that there is a people rests a large part of the political organisation of the modern world. the idea was one of the chief fruits of the speculations of the eighteenth century, and the american constitution is its most perfect expression. one turns, therefore, inevitably to the american instance, not because it is the only one, but because there is the thing in its least complicated form. we have there an almost exactly logical realisation of this belief. the whole political machine is designed and expressed to register the people's will, literature is entirely rewarded and controlled by the effectual suffrages of the bookseller's counter, science (until private endowment intervened) was in the hands of the state legislatures, and religion the concern of the voluntary congregations. on the assumption that there is a people there could be no better state of affairs. you and i and everyone, except for a vote or a book, or a service now and then, can go about our business, you to your grocery and i to mine, and the direction of the general interests rests safe in the people's hands. now that is by no means a caricature of the attitude of mind of many educated americans. you find they have little or nothing to do with actual politics, and are inclined to regard the professional politician with a certain contempt; they trouble their heads hardly at all about literature, and they contemplate the general religious condition of the population with absolute unconcern. it is not that they are unpatriotic or morally trivial that they stand thus disengaged; it is that they have a fatalistic belief in this higher power. whatever troubles and abuses may arise they have an absolute faith that "in the last analysis" the people will get it right. and now suppose that i am right and that there is no people! suppose that the crowd is really no more than a crowd, a vast miscellaneous confusion of persons which grows more miscellaneous every year. suppose this conception of the people arose out of a sentimental idealisation, rousseau fashion, of the ancient homogeneous peasant class--a class that is rapidly being swept out of existence by modern industrial developments--and that whatever slender basis of fact it had in the past is now altogether gone. what consequences may be expected? it does not follow that because the object of your reverence is a dead word you will get no oracles from the shrine. if the sacred people remains impassive, inarticulate, non-existent, there are always the keepers of the shrine who will oblige. professional politicians, venal and violent men, will take over the derelict political control, people who live by the book trade will alone have a care for letters, research and learning will be subordinated to political expediency, and a great development of noisily competitive religious enterprises will take the place of any common religious formula. there will commence a secular decline in the quality of public thought, emotion and activity. there will be no arrest or remedy for this state of affairs so long as that superstitious faith in the people as inevitably right "in the last analysis" remains. and if my supposition is correct, it should be possible to find in the united states, where faith in the people is indisputably dominant, some such evidence of the error of this faith. is there? i write as one that listens from afar. but there come reports of legislative and administrative corruption, of organised public blackmail, that do seem to carry out my thesis. one thinks of edgar allan poe, who dreamt of founding a distinctive american literature, drugged and killed almost as it were symbolically, amid electioneering and nearly lied out of all posthumous respect by that scoundrel griswold; one thinks of state universities that are no more than mints for bogus degrees; one thinks of "science" christianity and zion city. these things are quite insufficient for a q.e.d., but i submit they favour my proposition. suppose there is no people at all, but only enormous, differentiating millions of men. all sorts of widely accepted generalisations will collapse if that foundation is withdrawn. i submit it as worth considering. the disease of parliaments sec. there is a growing discord between governments and governed in the world. there has always been discord between governments and governed since states began; government has always been to some extent imposed, and obedience to some extent reluctant. we have come to regard it as a matter of course that under all absolutions and narrow oligarchies the community, so soon as it became educated and as its social elaboration developed a free class with private initiatives, so soon, indeed, as it attained to any power of thought and expression at all, would express discontent. but we english and americans and western europeans generally had supposed that, so far as our own communities were concerned, this discontent was already anticipated and met by representative institutions. we had supposed that, with various safeguards and elaborations, our communities did, as a matter of fact, govern themselves. our panacea for all discontents was the franchise. social and national dissatisfaction could be given at the same time a voice and a remedy in the ballot box. our liberal intelligences could and do still understand russians wanting votes, indians wanting votes, women wanting votes. the history of nineteenth-century liberalism in the world might almost be summed up in the phrase "progressive enfranchisement." but these are the desires of a closing phase in political history. the new discords go deeper than that. the new situation which confronts our liberal intelligence is the discontent of the enfranchised, the contempt and hostility of the voters for their elected delegates and governments. this discontent, this resentment, this contempt even, and hostility to duly elected representatives is no mere accident of this democratic country or that; it is an almost world-wide movement. it is an almost universal disappointment with so-called popular government, and in many communities--in great britain particularly--it is manifesting itself by an unprecedented lawlessness in political matters, and in a strange and ominous contempt for the law. one sees it, for example, in the refusal of large sections of the medical profession to carry out insurance legislation, in the repudiation of irish home rule by ulster, and in the steady drift of great masses of industrial workers towards the conception of a universal strike. the case of the discontented workers in great britain and france is particularly remarkable. these people form effective voting majorities in many constituencies; they send alleged socialist and labour representatives into the legislative assembly; and, in addition, they have their trade unions with staffs of elected officials, elected ostensibly to state their case and promote their interests. yet nothing is now more evident than that these officials, working-men representatives and the like, do not speak for their supporters, and are less and less able to control them. the syndicalist movement, sabotage in france, and larkinism in great britain, are, from the point of view of social stability, the most sinister demonstrations of the gathering anger of the labouring classes with representative institutions. these movements are not revolutionary movements, not movements for reconstruction such as were the democratic socialist movements that closed the nineteenth century. they are angry and vindictive movements. they have behind them the most dangerous and terrible of purely human forces, the wrath, the blind destructive wrath, of a cheated crowd. now, so far as the insurrection of labour goes, american conditions differ from european, and the process of disillusionment will probably follow a different course. american labour is very largely immigrant labour still separated by barriers of language and tradition from the established thought of the nation. it will be long before labour in america speaks with the massed effectiveness of labour in france and england, where master and man are racially identical, and where there is no variety of "dagoes" to break up the revolt. but in other directions the american disbelief in and impatience with "elected persons" is and has been far profounder than it is in europe. the abstinence of men of property and position from overt politics, and the contempt that banishes political discussion from polite society, are among the first surprises of the visiting european to america, and now that, under an organised pressure of conscience, college-trained men and men of wealth are abandoning this strike of the educated and returning to political life, it is, one notes, with a prevailing disposition to correct democracy by personality, and to place affairs in the hands of autocratic mayors and presidents rather than to carry out democratic methods to the logical end. at times america seems hot for a caesar. if no caesar is established, then it will be the good fortune of the republic rather than its democratic virtue which will have saved it. and directly one comes to look into the quality and composition of the elected governing body of any modern democratic state, one begins to see the reason and nature of its widening estrangement from the community it represents. in no sense are these bodies really representative of the thought and purpose of the nation; the conception of its science, the fresh initiatives of its philosophy and literature, the forces that make the future through invention and experiment, exploration and trial and industrial development have no voice, or only an accidental and feeble voice, there. the typical elected person is a smart rather than substantial lawyer, full of cheap catchwords and elaborate tricks of procedure and electioneering, professing to serve the interests of the locality which is his constituency, but actually bound hand and foot to the specialised political association, his party, which imposed him upon that constituency. arrived at the legislature, his next ambition is office, and to secure and retain office he engages in elaborate manoeuvres against the opposite party, upon issues which his limited and specialised intelligence indicates as electorally effective. but being limited and specialised, he is apt to drift completely out of touch with the interests and feelings of large masses of people in the community. in great britain, the united states and france alike there is a constant tendency on the part of the legislative body to drift into unreality, and to bore the country with the disputes that are designed to thrill it. in great britain, for example, at the present time the two political parties are both profoundly unpopular with the general intelligence, which is sincerely anxious, if only it could find a way, to get rid of both of them. irish home rule--an issue as dead as mutton, is opposed to tariff reform, which has never been alive. much as the majority of people detest the preposterously clumsy attempts to amputate ireland from the rule of the british parliament which have been going on since the breakdown of mr. gladstone's political intelligence, their dread of foolish and scoundrelly fiscal adventurers is sufficiently strong to retain the liberals in office. the recent exposures of the profound financial rottenness of the liberal party have deepened the public resolve to permit no such enlarged possibilities of corruption as tariff reform would afford their at least equally dubitable opponents. and meanwhile, beneath those ridiculous alternatives, those sham issues, the real and very urgent affairs of the nation, the vast gathering discontent of the workers throughout the empire, the racial conflicts in india and south africa which will, if they are not arrested, end in our severance from india, the insane waste of national resources, the control of disease, the frightful need of some cessation of armament, drift neglected.... now do these things indicate the ultimate failure and downfall of representative government? was this idea which inspired so much of the finest and most generous thought of the eighteenth and nineteenth centuries a wrong idea, and must we go back to caesarism or oligarchy or plutocracy or a theocracy, to rome or venice or carthage, to the strong man or the ruler by divine right, for the political organisation of the future? my answer to that question would be an emphatic no. my answer would be that the idea of representative government is the only possible idea for the government of a civilised community. but i would add that so far representative government has not had even the beginnings of a fair trial. so far we have not had representative government, but only a devastating caricature. it is quite plain now that those who first organised the parliamentary institutions which now are the ruling institutions of the greater part of mankind fell a prey to certain now very obvious errors. they did not realise that there are hundreds of different ways in which voting may be done, and that every way will give a different result. they thought, and it is still thought by a great number of mentally indolent people, that if a country is divided up into approximately equivalent areas, each returning one or two representatives, if every citizen is given one vote, and if there is no legal limit to the presentation of candidates, that presently a cluster of the wisest, most trusted and best citizens will come together in the legislative assembly. in reality the business is far more complicated than this. in reality a country will elect all sorts of different people according to the electoral method employed. it is a fact that anyone who chooses to experiment with a willing school or club may verify. suppose, for example, that you take your country, give every voter one single vote, put up six and twenty candidates for a dozen vacancies, and give them no adequate time for organisation. the voters, you will find, will return certain favourites, a and b and c and d let us call them, by enormous majorities, and behind these at a considerable distance will come e, f, g, h, i, j, k, and l. now give your candidates time to develop organisation. a lot of people who swelled a's huge vote will dislike j and k and l so much, and prefer m and n so much, that if they are assured that by proper organisation a's return can be made certain without their voting for him, they will vote for m and n. but they will do so only on that understanding. similarly certain b-ites will want o and p if they can be got without sacrificing b. so that adequate party organisation in the community may return not the dozen a naive vote would give, but a, b, c, d, e, f, g, h, m, n, o, p. now suppose that, instead of this arrangement, your community is divided into twelve constituencies and no candidate may contest more than one of them. and suppose each constituency has strong local preferences. a, b and c are widely popular; in every constituency they have supporters but in no constituency does any one of the three command a majority. they are great men, not local men. q, who is an unknown man in most of the country, has, on the contrary, a strong sect of followers in the constituency for which a stands, and beats him by one vote; another local celebrity, e, disposes of b in the same way; c is attacked not only by s but t, whose peculiar views upon vaccination, let us say, appeal to just enough of c's supporters to let in s. similar accidents happen in the other constituencies, and the country that would have unreservedly returned a, b, c, d, e, f, g, h, i, j, k and l on the first system, return instead o, p, q, r, s, t, u, v, w, x, y, z. numerous voters who would have voted for a if they had a chance vote instead for r, s, t, etc., numbers who would have voted for b, vote for q, v, w, x, etc. but now suppose that a and b are opposed to one another, and that there is a strong a party and a strong b party highly organised in the country. b is really the second favourite over the country as a whole, but a is the first favourite. d, f, h, j, l, n, p, r, u, w, y constitute the a candidates and in his name they conquer. b, c, e, g, i, k, m, o, q, s, v are all thrown out in spite of the wide popularity of b and c. b and c, we have supposed, are the second and third favourites, and yet they go out in favour of y, of whom nobody has heard before, some mere hangers-on of a's. such a situation actually occurs in both ulster and home-rule ireland. but now let us suppose another arrangement, and that is that the whole country is one constituency, and every voter has, if he chooses to exercise them, twelve votes, which, however, he must give, if he gives them all, to twelve separate people. then quite certainly a, b, c, d will come in, but the tail will be different. m, n, o, p may come up next to them, and even z, that eminent non-party man, may get in. but now organisation may produce new effects. the ordinary man, when he has twelve votes to give, likes to give them all, so that there will be a good deal of wild voting at the tails of the voting papers. now if a small resolute band decide to plump for t or to vote only for a and t or b and t, t will probably jump up out of the rejected. this is the system which gives the specialist, the anti-vaccinator or what not, the maximum advantage. v, w, x and y, being rather hopeless anyhow, will probably detach themselves from party and make some special appeal, say to the teetotal vote or the mormon vote or the single tax vote, and so squeeze past o, p, q, r, who have taken a more generalised line. i trust the reader will bear with me through these alphabetical fluctuations. many people, i know from colloquial experiences, do at about this stage fly into a passion. but if you will exercise self-control, then i think you will see my point that, according to the method of voting, almost any sort of result may be got out of an election except the production of a genuinely representative assembly. and that is the a priori case for supposing, what our experience of contemporary life abundantly verifies, that the so-called representative assemblies of the world are not really representative at all. i will go farther and say that were it not for the entire inefficiency of our method of voting, not one-tenth of the present american and french senators, the french deputies, the american congressmen, and the english members of parliament would hold their positions to-day. they would never have been heard of. they are not really the elected representatives of the people; they are the products of a ridiculous method of election; they are the illegitimate children of the party system and the ballot-box, who have ousted the legitimate heirs from their sovereignty. they are no more the expression of the general will than the tsar or some president by _pronunciamento_. they are an accidental oligarchy of adventurers. representative government has never yet existed in the world; there was an attempt to bring it into existence in the eighteenth century, and it succumbed to an infantile disorder at the very moment of its birth. what we have in the place of the leaders and representatives are politicians and "elected persons." the world is passing rapidly from localised to generalised interests, but the method of election into which our fathers fell is the method of electing one or two representatives from strictly localised constituencies. its immediate corruption was inevitable. if discussing and calculating the future had been, as it ought to be, a common, systematic occupation, the muddles of to-day might have been foretold a hundred years ago. from such a rough method of election the party system followed as a matter of course. in theory, of course, there may be any number of candidates for a constituency and a voter votes for the one he likes best; in practice there are only two or three candidates, and the voter votes for the one most likely to beat the candidate he likes least. it cannot be too strongly insisted that in contemporary elections we vote against; we do not vote for. if a, b and c are candidates, and you hate c and all his works and prefer a, but doubt if he will get as many votes as b, who is indifferent to you, the chances are you will vote for b. if c and b have the support of organised parties, you are still less likely to risk "wasting" your vote upon a. if your real confidence is in g, who is not a candidate for your constituency, and if b pledges himself to support g, while a retains the right of separate action, you may vote for b even if you distrust him personally. additional candidates would turn any election of this type into a wild scramble. the system lies, in fact, wholly open to the control of political organisations, calls out, indeed, for the control of political organisations, and has in every country produced what is so evidently demanded. the political organisations to-day rule us unchallenged. save as they speak for us, the people are dumb. elections of the prevalent pattern, which were intended and are still supposed by simple-minded people to give every voter participation in government, do as a matter of fact effect nothing of the sort. they give him an exasperating fragment of choice between the agents of two party organisations, over neither of which he has any intelligible control. for twenty-five years i have been a voter, and in all that time i have only twice had an opportunity of voting for a man of distinction in whom i had the slightest confidence. commonly my choice of a "representative" has been between a couple of barristers entirely unknown to me or the world at large. rather more than half the men presented for my selection have not been english at all, but of alien descent. this, then, is the sum of the political liberty of the ordinary american or englishman, that is the political emancipation which englishwomen have shown themselves so pathetically eager to share. he may reject one of two undesirables, and the other becomes his "representative." now this is not popular government at all; it is government by the profession of politicians, whose control becomes more and more irresponsible in just the measure that they are able to avoid real factions within their own body. whatever the two party organisations have a mind to do together, whatever issue they chance to reserve from "party politics," is as much beyond the control of the free and independent voter as if he were a slave subject in ancient peru. our governments in the more civilised parts of the world to-day are only in theory and sentiment democratic. in reality they are democracies so eviscerated by the disease of bad electoral methods that they are mere cloaks for the parasitic oligarchies that have grown up within their form and substance. the old spirit of freedom and the collective purpose which overthrew and subdued priestcrafts and kingcrafts, has done so, it seems, only to make way for these obscure political conspiracies. instead of liberal institutions, mankind has invented a new sort of usurpation. and it is not unnatural that many of us should be in a phase of political despair. these oligarchies of the party organisations have now been evolving for two centuries, and their inherent evils and dangers become more and more manifest. the first of these is the exclusion from government of the more active and intelligent sections of the community. it is not treated as remarkable, it is treated as a matter of course, that neither in congress nor in the house of commons is there any adequate representation of the real thought of the time, of its science, invention and enterprise, of its art and feeling, of its religion and purpose. when one speaks of congressmen or members of parliament one thinks, to be plain about it, of intellectual riff-raff. when one hears of a pre-eminent man in the english-speaking community, even though that pre-eminence may be in political or social science, one is struck by a sense of incongruity if he happens to be also in the legislature. when lord haldane disengages the gifford lectures or lord morley writes a "life of gladstone" or ex-president roosevelt is delivered of a magazine article, there is the same sort of excessive admiration as when a royal princess does a water-colour sketch or a dog walks on its hind legs. now this intellectual inferiority of the legislator is not only directly bad for the community by producing dull and stupid legislation, but it has a discouraging and dwarfing effect upon our intellectual life. nothing so stimulates art, thought and science as realisation; nothing so cripples it as unreality. but to set oneself to know thoroughly and to think clearly about any human question is to unfit oneself for the forensic claptrap which is contemporary politics, is to put oneself out of the effective current of the nation's life. the intelligence of any community which does not make a collective use of that intelligence, starves and becomes hectic, tends inevitably to preciousness and futility on the one hand, and to insurgency, mischief and anarchism on the other. from the point of view of social stability this estrangement of the national government and the national intelligence is far less serious than the estrangement between the governing body and the real feeling of the mass of the people. to many observers this latter estrangement seems to be drifting very rapidly towards a social explosion in the british isles. the organised masses of labour find themselves baffled both by their parliamentary representatives and by their trade union officials. they are losing faith in their votes and falling back in anger upon insurrectionary ideals, upon the idea of a general strike, and upon the expedients of sabotage. they are doing this without any constructive proposals at all, for it is ridiculous to consider syndicalism as a constructive proposal. they mean mischief because they are hopeless and bitterly disappointed. it is the same thing in france, and before many years are over it will be the same thing in america. that way lies chaos. in the next few years there may be social revolt and bloodshed in most of the great cities of western europe. that is the trend of current probability. yet the politicians go on in an almost complete disregard of this gathering storm. their jerrymandered electoral methods are like wool in their ears, and the rejection of tweedledum for tweedledee is taken as a "mandate" for tweedledee's distinctive brand of political unrealities.... is this an incurable state of things? is this method of managing our affairs the only possible electoral method, and is there no remedy for its monstrous clumsiness and inefficiency but to "show a sense of humour," or, in other words, to grin and bear it? or is it conceivable that there may be a better way to government than any we have yet tried, a method of government that would draw every class into conscious and willing co-operation with the state, and enable every activity of the community to play its proper part in the national life? that was the dream of those who gave the world representative government in the past. was it an impossible dream? sec. is this disease of parliaments an incurable disease, and have we, therefore, to get along as well as we can with it, just as a tainted and incurable invalid diets and is careful and gets along through life? or is it possible that some entirely more representative and effective collective control of our common affairs can be devised? the answer to that must determine our attitude to a great number of fundamental questions. if no better governing body is possible than the stupid, dilatory and forensic assemblies that rule in france, britain and america to-day, then the civilised human community has reached its climax. that more comprehensive collective handling of the common interests to which science and intelligent socialism point, that collective handling which is already urgently needed if the present uncontrolled waste of natural resources and the ultimate bankruptcy of mankind is to be avoided, is quite beyond the capacity of such assemblies; already there is too much in their clumsy and untrustworthy hands, and the only course open to us is an attempt at enlightened individualism, an attempt to limit and restrict state activities in every possible way, and to make little private temporary islands of light and refinement amidst the general disorder and decay. all collectivist schemes, all rational socialism, if only socialists would realise it, all hope for humanity, indeed, are dependent ultimately upon the hypothetical possibility of a better system of government than any at present in existence. let us see first, then, if we can lay down any conditions which such a better governing body would satisfy. afterwards it will be open to us to believe or disbelieve in its attainment. imagination is the essence of creation. if we can imagine a better government we are half-way to making it. now, whatever other conditions such a body will satisfy, we may be sure that it will not be made up of members elected by single-member constituencies. a single-member constituency must necessarily contain a minority, and may even contain a majority of dissatisfied persons whose representation is, as it were, blotted out by the successful candidate. three single-member constituencies which might all return members of the same colour, if they were lumped together to return three members would probably return two of one colour and one of another. there would still, however, be a suppressed minority averse to both these colours, or desiring different shades of those colours from those afforded them in the constituency. other things being equal, it may be laid down that the larger the constituency and the more numerous its representatives, the greater the chance of all varieties of thought and opinion being represented. but that is only a preliminary statement; it still leaves untouched all the considerations advanced in the former part of this discussion to show how easily the complications and difficulties of voting lead to a falsification of the popular will and understanding. but here we enter a region where a really scientific investigation has been made, and where established results are available. a method of election was worked out by hare in the middle of the last century that really does seem to avoid or mitigate nearly every falsifying or debilitating possibility in elections; it was enthusiastically supported by j.s. mill; it is now advocated by a special society--the proportional representation society--to which belong men of the most diverse type of distinction, united only by the common desire to see representative government a reality and not a disastrous sham. it is a method which does render impossible nearly every way of forcing candidates upon constituencies, and nearly every trick for rigging results that now distorts and cripples the political life of the modern world. it exacts only one condition, a difficult but not an impossible condition, and that is the honest scrutiny and counting of the votes. the peculiar invention of the system is what is called the single transferable vote--that is to say, a vote which may be given in the first instance to one candidate, but which, in the event of his already having a sufficient quota of votes to return him, may be transferred to another. the voter marks clearly in the list of the candidates the order of his preference by placing , , , and so forth against the names. in the subsequent counting the voting papers are first classified according to the first votes. let us suppose that popular person a is found to have received first votes enormously in excess of what is needed to return him. the second votes are then counted on his papers, and after the number of votes necessary to return him has been deducted, the surplus votes are divided in due proportion among the second choice names, and count for them. that is the essential idea of the whole thing. at a stroke all that anxiety about wasting votes and splitting votes, _which is the secret of all party political manipulation_ vanishes. you may vote for a well knowing that if he is safe your vote will be good for c. you can make sure of a, and at the same time vote for c. you are in no need of a "ticket" to guide you, and you need have no fear that in supporting an independent candidate you will destroy the prospects of some tolerably sympathetic party man without any compensating advantage. the independent candidate does, in fact, become possible for the first time. the hobson's choice of the party machine is abolished. let me be a little more precise about the particulars of this method, the only sound method, of voting in order to ensure an adequate representation of the community. let us resort again to the constituency i imagined in my last paper, a constituency in which candidates represented by all the letters of the alphabet struggle for twelve places. and let us suppose that a, b, c and d are the leading favourites. suppose that there are twelve thousand voters in the constituency, and that three thousand votes are cast for a--i am keeping the figures as simple as possible--then a has two thousand more than is needed to return him. _all_ the second votes on his papers are counted, and it is found that , or a fifth of them, go to c; , or a sixth, go to e; , or a tenth, to g; to j; , or a fifteenth, each to k and l, and a hundred each, or a thirtieth, to m, n, o, p, q, r, s, t, w and z. then the surplus of , is divided in these proportions--that is a fifth of , goes to c, a sixth to e, and the rest to g, j, etc., in proportion. c, who already has votes, gets another , and is now returned and has, moreover, to spare; and the same division of the next votes upon c's paper occurs as has already been made with a's. but previously to this there has been a distribution of b's surplus votes, b having got , of first votes. and so on. after the distribution of the surplus votes of the elect at the top of the list, there is a distribution of the second votes upon the papers of those who have voted for the hopeless candidates at the bottom of the list. at last a point is reached when twelve candidates have a quota. in this way the "wasting" of a vote, or the rejection of a candidate for any reason except that hardly anybody wants him, become practically impossible. this method of the single transferable vote with very large constituencies and many members does, in fact, give an entirely valid electoral result; each vote tells for all it is worth, and the freedom of the voter is only limited by the number of candidates who put up or are put up for election. this method, and this method alone, gives representative government; all others of the hundred and one possible methods admit of trickery, confusion and falsification. proportional representation is not a faddist proposal, not a perplexing ingenious complication of a simple business; it is the carefully worked out right way to do something that hitherto we have been doing in the wrong way. it is no more an eccentricity than is proper baking in the place of baking amidst dirt and with unlimited adulteration, or the running of trains to their destinations instead of running them without notice into casually selected sidings and branch lines. it is not the substitution of something for something else of the same nature; it is the substitution of right for wrong. it is the plain common sense of the greatest difficulty in contemporary affairs. i know that a number of people do not, will not, admit this of proportional representation. perhaps it is because of that hideous mouthful of words for a thing that would be far more properly named sane voting. this, which is the only correct way, these antagonists regard as a peculiar way. it has unfamiliar features, and that condemns it in their eyes. it takes at least ten minutes to understand, and that is too much for their plain, straightforward souls. "complicated"--that word of fear! they are like the man who approved of an electric tram, but said that he thought it would go better without all that jiggery-pokery of wires up above. they are like the western judge in the murder trial who said that if only they got a man hanged for this abominable crime, he wouldn't make a pedantic fuss about the question of _which_ man. they are like the plain, straightforward promoter who became impatient with maps and planned a railway across switzerland by drawing a straight line with a ruler across jungfrau and matterhorn and glacier and gorge. or else they are like mr. j. ramsay macdonald, m.p., who knows too well what would happen to him. now let us consider what would be the necessary consequences of the establishment of proportional representation in such a community as great britain--that is to say, the redistribution of the country into great constituencies such as london or ulster or wessex or south wales, each returning a score or more of members, and the establishment of voting by the single transferable vote. the first, immediate, most desirable result would be the disappearance of the undistinguished party candidate; he would vanish altogether. he would be no more seen. proportional representation would not give him the ghost of a chance. the very young man of good family, the subsidised barrister, the respectable nobody, the rich supporter of the party would be ousted by known men. no candidate who had not already distinguished himself, and who did not stand for something in the public eye, would have a chance of election. there alone we have a sufficient reason for anticipating a very thorough change in the quality and character of the average legislator. and next, no party organisation, no intimation from headquarters, no dirty tricks behind the scenes, no conspiracy of spite and scandal would have much chance of keeping out any man of real force and distinction who had impressed the public imagination. to be famous in science, to have led thought, to have explored or administered or dissented courageously from the schemes of official wire-pullers would no longer be a bar to a man's attainment of parliament. it would be a help. not only the level of parliamentary intelligence, but the level of personal independence would be raised far above its present position. and parliament would become a gathering of prominent men instead of a means to prominence. the two-party system which holds all the english-speaking countries to-day in its grip would certainly be broken up by proportional representation. sane voting in the end would kill the liberal and tory and democratic and republican party-machines. that secret rottenness of our public life, that hidden conclave which sells honours, fouls finance, muddles public affairs, fools the passionate desires of the people, and ruins honest men by obscure campaigns would become impossible. the advantage of party support would be a doubtful advantage, and in parliament itself the party men would find themselves outclassed and possibly even outnumbered by the independent. it would be only a matter of a few years between the adoption of sane voting and the disappearance of the cabinet from british public life. it would become possible for parliament to get rid of a minister without getting rid of a ministry, and to express its disapproval of--let us say--some foolish project for rearranging the local government of ireland without opening the door upon a vista of fantastical fiscal adventures. the party-supported cabinet, which is now the real government of the so-called democratic countries, would cease to be so, and government would revert more and more to the legislative assembly. and not only would the latter body resume government, but it would also necessarily take into itself all those large and growing exponents of extra-parliamentary discontent that now darken the social future. the case of the armed "unionist" rebel in ulster, the case of the workman who engages in sabotage, the case for sympathetic strikes and the general strike, all these cases are identical in this, that they declare parliament a fraud, that justice lies outside it and hopelessly outside it, and that to seek redress through parliament is a waste of time and energy. sane voting would deprive all these destructive movements of the excuse and necessity for violence. there is, i know, a disposition in some quarters to minimise the importance of proportional representation, as though it were a mere readjustment of voting methods. it is nothing of the sort; it is a prospective revolution. it will revolutionise government far more than a mere change from kingdom to republic or vice versa could possibly do; it will give a new and unprecedented sort of government to the world. the real leaders of the country will govern the country. for great britain, for example, instead of the secret, dubious and dubitable cabinet, which is the real british government of to-day, poised on an unwieldy and crowded house of commons, we should have open government by the representatives of, let us say, twenty great provinces, ulster, wales, london, for example, each returning from twelve to thirty members. it would be a steadier, stabler, more confident, and more trusted government than the world has ever seen before. ministers, indeed, and even ministries might come and go, but that would not matter, as it does now, because there would be endless alternatives through which the assembly could express itself instead of the choice between two parties. the arguments against proportional representation that have been advanced hitherto are trivial in comparison with its enormous advantages. implicit in them all is the supposition that public opinion is at bottom a foolish thing, and that electoral methods are to pacify rather than express a people. it is possibly true that notorious windbags, conspicuously advertised adventurers, and the heroes of temporary sensations may run a considerable chance upon the lists. my own estimate of the popular wisdom is against the idea that any vividly prominent figure must needs get in; i think the public is capable of appreciating, let us say, the charm and interest of mr. sandow or mr. jack johnson or mr. harry lauder or mr. evan roberts without wanting to send these gentlemen into parliament. and i think that the increased power that the press would have through its facilities in making reputations may also be exaggerated. reputations are mysterious things and not so easily forced, and even if it were possible for a section of the press to limelight a dozen or so figures up to the legislature, they would still have, i think, to be interesting, sympathetic and individualised figures; and at the end they would be only half a dozen among four hundred men of a repute more naturally achieved. a third objection is that this reform would give us group politics and unstable government. it might very possibly give us unstable ministries, but unstable ministries may mean stable government, and such stable ministries as that which governs england at the present time may, by clinging obstinately to office, mean the wildest fluctuations of policy. mr. ramsay macdonald has drawn a picture of the too-representative parliament of proportional representation, split up into groups each pledged to specific measures and making the most extraordinary treaties and sacrifices of the public interest in order to secure the passing of these definite bills. but mr. ramsay macdonald is exclusively a parliamentary man; he knows contemporary parliamentary "shop" as a clerk knows his "guv'nor," and he thinks in the terms of his habitual life; he sees representatives only as politicians financed from party headquarters; it is natural that he should fail to see that the quality and condition of the sanely elected member of parliament will be quite different from these scheming climbers into positions of trust with whom he deals to-day. it is the party system based on insane voting that makes governments indivisible wholes and gives the group and the cave their terrors and their effectiveness. mr. ramsay macdonald is as typical a product of existing electoral methods as one could well have, and his peculiarly keen sense of the power of intrigue in legislation is as good evidence as one could wish for of the need for drastic change. of course, sane voting is not a short cut to the millennium, it is no way of changing human nature, and in the new type of assembly, as in the old, spite, vanity, indolence, self-interest, and downright dishonesty will play their part. but to object to a reform on that account is not a particularly effective objection. these things will play their part, but it will be a much smaller part in the new than in the old. it is like objecting to some projected and long-needed railway because it does not propose to carry its passengers by immediate express to heaven. the american population sec. the social conditions and social future of america constitute a system of problems quite distinct and separate from the social problems of any other part of the world. the nearest approach to parallel conditions, and that on a far smaller and narrower scale, is found in the british colonies and in the newly settled parts of siberia. for while in nearly every other part of the world the population of to-day is more or less completely descended from the prehistoric population of the same region, and has developed its social order in a slow growth extending over many centuries, the american population is essentially a transplanted population, a still fluid and imperfect fusion of great fragments torn at this point or that from the gradually evolved societies of europe. the european social systems grow and flower upon their roots, in soil which has made them and to which they are adapted. the american social accumulation is a various collection of cuttings thrust into a new soil and respiring a new air, so different that the question is still open to doubt, and indeed there are those who do doubt, how far these cuttings are actually striking root and living and growing, whether indeed they are destined to more than a temporary life in the new hemisphere. i propose to discuss and weigh certain arguments for and against the belief that these ninety million people who constitute the united states of america are destined to develop into a great distinctive nation with a character and culture of its own. humanly speaking, the united states of america (and the same is true of canada and all the more prosperous, populous and progressive regions of south america) is a vast sea of newly arrived and unstably rooted people. of the seventy-six million inhabitants recorded by the census, ten and a half million were born and brought up in one or other of the european social systems, and the parents of another twenty-six millions were foreigners. another nine million are of african negro descent. fourteen million of the sixty-five million native-born are living not in the state of their birth, but in other states to which they have migrated. of the thirty and a half million whites whose parents on both sides were native americans, a high proportion probably had one if not more grand-parents foreign-born. nearly five and a half million out of thirty-three and a half million whites in were foreign-born, and another five and a quarter million the children of foreign-born parents. the children of the latter five and a quarter million count, of course, in the census as native-born of native parents. immigration varies enormously with the activity of business, but in it rose for the first time above a million. these figures may be difficult to grasp. the facts may be seen in a more concrete form by the visitor to ellis island, the receiving station for the immigrants into new york harbour. one goes to this place by tugs from the united states barge office in battery park, and in order to see the thing properly one needs a letter of introduction to the commissioner in charge. then one is taken through vast barracks littered with people of every european race, every type of low-class european costume, and every degree of dirtiness, to a central hall in which the gist of the examining goes on. the floor of this hall is divided up into a sort of maze of winding passages between lattice work, and along these passages, day after day, incessantly, the immigrants go, wild-eyed gipsies, armenians, greeks, italians, ruthenians, cossacks, german peasants, scandinavians, a few irish still, impoverished english, occasional dutch; they halt for a moment at little desks to exhibit papers, at other little desks to show their money and prove they are not paupers, to have their eyes scanned by this doctor and their general bearing by that. their thumb-marks are taken, their names and heights and weights and so forth are recorded for the card index; and so, slowly, they pass along towards america, and at last reach a little wicket, the gate of the new world. through this metal wicket drips the immigration stream--all day long, every two or three seconds, an immigrant with a valise or a bundle, passes the little desk and goes on past the well-managed money-changing place, past the carefully organised separating ways that go to this railway or that, past the guiding, protecting officials--into a new world. the great majority are young men and young women between seventeen and thirty, good, youthful, hopeful peasant stock. they stand in a long string, waiting to go through that wicket, with bundles, with little tin boxes, with cheap portmanteaus with odd packages, in pairs, in families, alone, women with children, men with strings of dependents, young couples. all day that string of human beads waits there, jerks forward, waits again; all day and every day, constantly replenished, constantly dropping the end beads through the wicket, till the units mount to hundreds and the hundreds to thousands.... in such a prosperous year as more immigrants passed through that wicket into america than children were born in the whole of france. this figure of a perpetual stream of new stranger citizens will serve to mark the primary distinction between the american social problem and that of any european or asiatic community. the vast bulk of the population of the united states has, in fact, only got there from europe in the course of the last hundred years, and mainly since the accession of queen victoria to the throne of great britain. that is the first fact that the student of the american social future must realise. only an extremely small proportion of its blood goes back now to those who fought for freedom in the days of george washington. the american community is not an expanded colonial society that has become autonomous. it is a great and deepening pool of population accumulating upon the area these predecessors freed, and since fed copiously by affluents from every european community. fresh ingredients are still being added in enormous quantity, in quantity so great as to materially change the racial quality in a score of years. it is particularly noteworthy that each accession of new blood seems to sterilise its predecessors. had there been no immigration at all into the united states, but had the rate of increase that prevailed in - prevailed to , the population, which would then have been a purely native american one, would have amounted to a hundred million--that is to say, to approximately nine million in excess of the present total population. the new waves are for a time amazingly fecund, and then comes a rapid fall in the birth-rate. the proportion of colonial and early republican blood in the population is, therefore, probably far smaller even than the figures i have quoted would suggest. these accesses of new population have come in a series of waves, very much as if successive reservoirs of surplus population in the old world had been tapped, drained and exhausted. first came the irish and germans, then central europeans of various types, then poland and western russia began to pour out their teeming peoples, and more particularly their jews, bohemia, the slavonic states, italy and hungary followed and the latest arrivals include great numbers of levantines, armenians and other peoples from asia minor and the balkan peninsula. the hungarian immigrants have still a birth-rate of forty-six per thousand, the highest birth-rate in the world. a considerable proportion of the mediterranean arrivals, it has to be noted, and more especially the italians, do not come to settle. they work for a season or a few years, and then return to italy. the rest come to stay. a vast proportion of these accessions to the american population since has, with the exception of the east european jews, consisted of peasantry, mainly or totally illiterate, accustomed to a low standard of life and heavy bodily toil. for most of them the transfer to a new country meant severance from the religious communion in which they had been bred and from the servilities or subordinations to which they were accustomed they brought little or no positive social tradition to the synthesis to which they brought their blood and muscle. the earlier german, english and scandinavian incomers were drawn from a somewhat higher social level, and were much more closely akin in habits and faith to the earlier founders of the republic. our inquiry is this: what social structure is this pool of mixed humanity developing or likely to develop? sec. if we compare any european nation with the american, we perceive at once certain broad differences. the former, in comparison with the latter, is evolved and organised; the latter, in comparison with the former, is aggregated and chaotic. in nearly every european country there is a social system often quite elaborately classed and defined; each class with a sense of function, with an idea of what is due to it and what is expected of it. nearly everywhere you find a governing class, aristocratic in spirit, sometimes no doubt highly modified by recent economic and industrial changes, with more or less of the tradition of a feudal nobility, then a definite great mercantile class, then a large self-respecting middle class of professional men, minor merchants, and so forth, then a new industrial class of employees in the manufacturing and urban districts, and a peasant population rooted to the land. there are, of course, many local modifications of this form: in france the nobility is mostly expropriated; in england, since the days of john bull, the peasant has lost his common rights and his holding, and become an "agricultural labourer" to a newer class of more extensive farmer. but these are differences in detail; the fact of the organisation, and the still more important fact of the traditional feeling of organisation, remain true of all these older communities. and in nearly every european country, though it may be somewhat despoiled here and shorn of exclusive predominance there, or represented by a dislocated "reformed" member, is the church, custodian of a great moral tradition, closely associated with the national universities and the organisation of national thought. the typical european town has its castle or great house, its cathedral or church, its middle-class and lower-class quarters. five miles off one can see that the american town is on an entirely different plan. in his remarkable "american scene," mr. henry james calls attention to the fact that the church as one sees it and feels it universally in europe is altogether absent, and he adds a comment as suggestive as it is vague. speaking of the appearance of the churches, so far as they do appear amidst american urban scenery, he says: "looking for the most part no more established or seated than a stopped omnibus, they are reduced to the inveterate bourgeois level (that of private, accommodated pretensions merely), and fatally despoiled of the fine old ecclesiastical arrogance, ... the field of american life is as bare of the church as a billiard-table of a centre-piece; a truth that the myriad little structures 'attended' on sundays and on the 'off' evenings of their 'sociables' proclaim as with the audible sound of the roaring of a million mice.... "and however one indicates one's impression of the clearance, the clearance itself, in its completeness, with the innumerable odd connected circumstances that bring it home, represents, in the history of manners and morals, a deviation in the mere measurement of which hereafter may well reside a certain critical thrill. i say hereafter because it is a question of one of those many measurements that would as yet, in the united states, be premature. of all the solemn conclusions one feels as 'barred,' the list is quite headed in the states, i think, by this particular abeyance of judgment. when an ancient treasure of precious vessels, overscored with glowing gems and wrought artistically into wondrous shapes, has, by a prodigious process, been converted through a vast community into the small change, the simple circulating medium of dollars and 'nickels,' we can only say that the consequent permeation will be of values of a new order. of _what_ order we must wait to see." america has no church. neither has it a peasantry nor an aristocracy, and until well on in the victorian epoch it had no disproportionately rich people. in america, except in the regions where the negro abounds, there is no lower stratum. there is no "soil people" to this community at all; your bottom-most man is a mobile freeman who can read, and who has ideas above digging and pigs and poultry-keeping, except incidentally for his own ends. no one owns to subordination as a consequence, any position which involves the acknowledgment of an innate inferiority is difficult to fill; there is, from the european point of view, an extraordinary dearth of servants, and this endures in spite of a great peasant immigration. the servile tradition will not root here now; it dies forthwith. an enormous importation of european serfs and peasants goes on, but as they touch this soil their backs begin to stiffen with a new assertion. and at the other end of the scale, also, one misses an element. there is no territorial aristocracy, no aristocracy at all, no throne, no legitimate and acknowledged representative of that upper social structure of leisure, power and state responsibility which in the old european theory of society was supposed to give significance to the whole. the american community, one cannot too clearly insist, does not correspond to an entire european community at all, but only to the middle masses of it, to the trading and manufacturing class between the dimensions of the magnate and the clerk and skilled artisan. it is the central part of the european organism without either the dreaming head or the subjugated feet. even the highly feudal slave-holding "county family" traditions of virginia and the south pass now out of memory. so that in a very real sense the past of the american nation is in europe, and the settled order of the past is left behind there. this community was, as it were, taken off its roots, clipped of its branches, and brought hither. it began neither serf nor lord, but burgher and farmer; it followed the normal development of the middle class under progress everywhere and became capitalistic. the huge later immigration has converged upon the great industrial centres and added merely a vast non-servile element of employees to the scheme. america has been and still very largely is a one-class country. it is a great sea of human beings detached from their traditions of origin. the social difference from europe appears everywhere, and nowhere more strikingly than in the railway carriages. in england the compartments in these are either "first class," originally designed for the aristocracy, or "second class," for the middle class, or "third class," for the populace. in america there is only one class, one universal simple democratic car. in the southern states, however, a proportion of these simple democratic cars are inscribed with the word "white," whereby nine million people are excluded. but to this original even-handed treatment there was speedily added a more sumptuous type of car, the parlour car, accessible to extra dollars; and then came special types of train, all made up of parlour cars and observation cars and the like. in england nearly every train remains still first, second and third, or first and third. and now, quite outdistancing the differentiation of england, america produces private cars and private trains, such as europe reserves only for crowned heads. the evidence of the american railways, then, suggests very strongly what a hundred other signs confirm, that the huge classless sea of american population is not destined to remain classless, is already developing separations and distinctions and structures of its own. and monstrous architectural portents in boston and salt lake city encourage one to suppose that even that churchless aspect, which so stirred the speculative element in mr. henry james, is only the opening formless phase of a community destined to produce not only classes but intellectual and moral forms of the most remarkable kind. sec. it is well to note how these ninety millions of people whose social future we are discussing are distributed. this huge development of human appliances and resources is here going on in a community that is still, for all the dense crowds of new york, the teeming congestion of east side, extraordinarily scattered. america, one recalls, is still an unoccupied country across which the latest developments of civilisation are rushing. we are dealing here with a continuous area of land which is, leaving alaska out of account altogether, equal to great britain, france, the german empire, the austro-hungarian empire, italy, belgium, japan, holland, spain and portugal, sweden and norway, turkey in europe, egypt and the whole empire of india, and the population spread out over this vast space is still less than the joint population of the first two countries named and not a quarter that of india. moreover, it is not spread at all evenly. much of it is in undistributed clots. it is not upon the soil; barely half of it is in holdings and homes and authentic communities. it is a population of an extremely modern type. urban concentration has already gone far with it; fifteen millions of it are crowded into and about twenty great cities, another eighteen millions make up five hundred towns. between these centres of population run railways indeed, telegraph wires, telephone connections, tracks of various sorts, but to the european eye these are mere scratchings on a virgin surface. an empty wilderness manifests itself through this thin network of human conveniences, appears in the meshes even at the railroad side. essentially, america is still an unsettled land, with only a few incidental good roads in favoured places, with no universal police, with no wayside inns where a civilised man may rest, with still only the crudest of rural postal deliveries, with long stretches of swamp and forest and desert by the track side, still unassailed by industry. this much one sees clearly enough eastward of chicago. westward it becomes more and more the fact. in idaho, at last, comes the untouched and perhaps invincible desert, plain and continuous through the long hours of travel. huge areas do not contain one human being to the square mile, still vaster portions fall short of two.... it is upon pennsylvania and new york state and the belt of great towns that stretches out past chicago to milwaukee and madison that the nation centres and seems destined to centre. one needs but examine a tinted population map to realise that. the other concentrations are provincial and subordinate; they have the same relation to the main axis that glasgow or cardiff have to london in the british scheme. sec. when i speak of this vast multitude, these ninety millions of the united states of america as being for the most part peasants de-peasant-ised and common people cut off from their own social traditions, i do not intend to convey that the american community is as a whole traditionless. there is in america a very distinctive tradition indeed, which animates the entire nation, gives a unique idiom to its press and all its public utterances, and is manifestly the starting point from which the adjustments of the future must be made. the mere sight of the stars and stripes serves to recall it; "yankee" in the mouth of a european gives something of its quality. one thinks at once of a careless abandonment of any pretension, of tireless energy and daring enterprise, of immense self-reliance, of a disrespect for the past so complete that a mummy is in itself a comical object, and the blowing out of an ill-guarded sacred flame, a delightful jest. one thinks of the enterprise of the sky-scraper and the humour of "a yankee at the court of king arthur," and of "innocents abroad." its dominant notes are democracy, freedom, and confidence. it is religious-spirited without superstition consciously christian in the vein of a nearly unitarian christianity, fervent but broadened, broadened as a halfpenny is broadened by being run over by an express train, substantially the same, that is to say, but with a marked loss of outline and detail. it is a tradition of romantic concession to good and inoffensive women and a high development of that personal morality which puts sexual continence and alcoholic temperance before any public virtue. it is equally a tradition of sporadic emotional public-spiritedness, entirely of the quality of gallantry, of handsome and surprising gifts to the people, disinterested occupation of office and the like. it is emotionally patriotic, hypotheticating fighting and dying for one's country as a supreme good while inculcating also that working and living for oneself is quite within the sphere of virtuous action. it adores the flag but suspects the state. one sees more national flags and fewer national servants in america than in any country in the world. its conception of manners is one of free plain-spoken men revering women and shielding them from most of the realities of life, scornful of aristocracies and monarchies, while asserting simply, directly, boldly and frequently an equal claim to consideration with all other men. if there is any traditional national costume, it is shirt-sleeves. and it cherishes the rights of property above any other right whatsoever. such are the details that come clustering into one's mind in response to the phrase, the american tradition. from the war of independence onward until our own times that tradition, that very definite ideal, has kept pretty steadily the same. it is the image of a man and not the image of a state. its living spirit has been the spirit of freedom at any cost, unconditional and irresponsible. it is the spirit of men who have thrown off a yoke, who are jealously resolved to be unhampered masters of their "own," to whom nothing else is of anything but secondary importance. that was the spirit of the english small gentry and mercantile class, the comfortable property owners, the parliamentarians, in stuart times. indeed even earlier, it is very largely the spirit of more's "utopia." it was that spirit sent oliver cromwell himself packing for america, though a heedless and ill-advised and unforeseeing king would not let him go. it was the spirit that made taxation for public purposes the supreme wrong and provoked each country, first the mother country and then in its turn the daughter country, to armed rebellion. it has been the spirit of the british whig and the british nonconformist almost up to the present day. in the reform club of london, framed and glazed over against magna charta, is the american declaration of independence, kindred trophies they are of the same essentially english spirit of stubborn insubordination. but the american side of it has gone on unchecked by the complementary aspect of the english character which british toryism expresses. the war of independence raised that whig suspicion of and hostility to government and the freedom of private property and the repudiation of any but voluntary emotional and supererogatory co-operation in the national purpose to the level of a religion, and the american constitution with but one element of elasticity in the supreme court decisions, established these principles impregnably in the political structure. it organised disorganisation. personal freedom, defiance of authority, and the stars and stripes have always gone together in men's minds; and subsequent waves of immigration, the irish fleeing famine, for which they held the english responsible, and the eastern european jews escaping relentless persecutions, brought a persuasion of immense public wrongs, as a necessary concomitant of systematic government, to refresh without changing this defiant thirst for freedom at any cost. in my book, "the future in america," i have tried to make an estimate of the working quality of this american tradition of unconditional freedom for the adult male citizen. i have shown that from the point of view of anyone who regards civilisation as an organisation of human interdependence and believes that the stability of society can be secured only by a conscious and disciplined co-ordination of effort, it is a tradition extraordinarily and dangerously deficient in what i have called a "_sense of the state_." and by a "sense of the state" i mean not merely a vague and sentimental and showy public-spiritedness--of that the states have enough and to spare--but a real sustaining conception of the collective interest embodied in the state as an object of simple duty and as a determining factor in the life of each individual. it involves a sense of function and a sense of "place," a sense of a general responsibility and of a general well-being overriding the individual's well-being, which are exactly the senses the american tradition attacks and destroys. for the better part of a century the american tradition, quite as much by reason of what it disregards as of what it suggests, has meant a great release of human energy, a vigorous if rough and untidy exploitation of the vast resources that the european invention of railways and telegraphic communication put within reach of the american people. it has stimulated men to a greater individual activity, perhaps, than the world has ever seen before. men have been wasted by misdirection no doubt, but there has been less waste by inaction and lassitude than was the case in any previous society. great bulks of things and great quantities of things have been produced, huge areas brought under cultivation, vast cities reared in the wilderness. but this tradition has failed to produce the beginnings or promise of any new phase of civilised organisation, the growths have remained largely invertebrate and chaotic, and, concurrently with its gift of splendid and monstrous growth, it has also developed portentous political and economic evils. no doubt the increment of human energy has been considerable, but it has been much less than appears at first sight. much of the human energy that america has displayed in the last century is not a development of new energy but a diversion. it has been accompanied by a fall in the birth-rate that even the immigration torrent has not altogether replaced. its insistence on the individual, its disregard of the collective organisation, its treatment of women and children as each man's private concern, has had its natural outcome. men's imaginations have been turned entirely upon individual and immediate successes and upon concrete triumphs; they have had no regard or only an ineffectual sentimental regard for the race. every man was looking after himself, and there was no one to look after the future. had the promise of been fulfilled, there would now be in the united states of america one hundred million descendants of the homogeneous and free-spirited native population of that time. there is not, as a matter of fact, more than thirty-five million. there is probably, as i have pointed out, much less. against the assets of cities, railways, mines and industrial wealth won, the american tradition has to set the price of five-and-seventy million native citizens who have never found time to get born, and whose place is now more or less filled by alien substitutes. biologically speaking, this is not a triumph for the american tradition. it is, however, very clearly an outcome of the intense individualism of that tradition. under the sway of that it has burnt its future in the furnace to keep up steam. the next and necessary evil consequent upon this exaltation of the individual and private property over the state, over the race that is and over public property, has been a contempt for public service. it has identified public spirit with spasmodic acts of public beneficence. the american political ideal became a cincinnatus whom nobody sent for and who therefore never left his plough. there has ensued a corrupt and undignified political life, speaking claptrap, dark with violence, illiterate and void of statesmanship or science, forbidding any healthy social development through public organisation at home, and every year that the increasing facilities of communication draw the alien nations closer, deepening the risks of needless and disastrous wars abroad. and in the third place it is to be remarked that the american tradition has defeated its dearest aims of a universal freedom and a practical equality. the economic process of the last half-century, so far as america is concerned has completely justified the generalisations of marx. there has been a steady concentration of wealth and of the reality as distinguished from the forms of power in the hands of a small energetic minority, and a steady approximation of the condition of the mass of the citizens to that of the so-called proletariat of the european communities. the tradition of individual freedom and equality is, in fact, in process of destroying the realities of freedom and equality out of which it rose. instead of the six hundred thousand families of the year , all at about the same level of property and, excepting the peculiar condition of seven hundred thousand blacks, with scarcely anyone in the position of a hireling, we have now as the most striking, though by no means the most important, fact in american social life a frothy confusion of millionaires' families, just as wasteful, foolish and vicious as irresponsible human beings with unlimited resources have always shown themselves to be. and, concurrently with the appearance of these concentrations of great wealth, we have appearing also poverty, poverty of a degree that was quite unknown in the united states for the first century of their career as an independent nation. in the last few decades slums as frightful as any in europe have appeared with terrible rapidity, and there has been a development of the viler side of industrialism, of sweating and base employment of the most ominous kind. in mr. robert hunter's "poverty" one reads of "not less than eighty thousand children, most of whom are little girls, at present employed in the textile mills of this country. in the south there are now six times as many children at work as there were twenty years ago. child labour is increasing yearly in that section of the country. each year more little ones are brought in from the fields and hills to live in the degrading and demoralising atmosphere of the mill towns...." children are deliberately imported by the italians. i gathered from commissioner watchorn at ellis island that the proportion of little nephews and nieces, friends' sons and so forth brought in by them is peculiarly high, and i heard him try and condemn a doubtful case. it was a particularly unattractive italian in charge of a dull-eyed little boy of no ascertainable relationship.... in the worst days of cotton-milling in england the conditions were hardly worse than those now existing in the south. children, the tiniest and frailest, of five and six years of age, rise in the morning and, like old men and women, go to the mills to do their day's labour; and, when they return home, "wearily fling themselves on their beds, too tired to take off their clothes." many children work all night--"in the maddening racket of the machinery, in an atmosphere insanitary and clouded with humidity and lint." "it will be long," adds mr. hunter in his description, "before i forget the face of a little boy of six years, with his hands stretched forward to rearrange a bit of machinery, his pallid face and spare form already showing the physical effects of labour. this child, six years of age, was working twelve hours a day." from mr. spargo's "bitter cry of the children" i learn this much of the joys of certain among the youth of pennsylvania: "for ten or eleven hours a day children of ten and eleven stoop over the chute and pick out the slate and other impurities from the coal as it moves past them. the air is black with coal dust, and the roar of the crushers, screens and rushing mill-race of coal is deafening. sometimes one of the children falls into the machinery and is terribly mangled, or slips into the chute and is smothered to death. many children are killed in this way. many others, after a time, contract coal-miners asthma and consumption, which gradually undermine their health. breathing continually day after day the clouds of coal dust, their lungs become black and choked with small particles of anthracite...." in massachusetts, at fall river, the hon. j.f. carey tells how little naked boys, free americans, work for mr. borden, the new york millionaire, packing cloth into bleaching vats, in a bath of chemicals that bleaches their little bodies like the bodies of lepers.... altogether it would seem that at least one million and a half children are growing up in the united states of america stunted and practically uneducated because of unregulated industrialism. these children, ill-fed, ill-trained mentally benighted, since they are alive and active, since they are an active and positive and not a negative evil, are even more ominous in the american outlook than those five and sixty million of good race and sound upbringing who will now never be born. sec. it must be repeated that the american tradition is really the tradition of one particular ingredient in this great admixture and stirring up of peoples. this ingredient is the colonial british, whose seventeenth century puritanism and eighteenth century mercantile radicalism and rationalism manifestly furnished all the stuff out of which the american tradition is made. it is this stuff planted in virgin soil and inflated to an immense and buoyant optimism by colossal and unanticipated material prosperity and success. from that british middle-class tradition comes the individualist protestant spirit, the keen self-reliance and personal responsibility, the irresponsible expenditure, the indiscipline and mystical faith in things being managed properly if they are only let alone. "state-blindness" is the natural and almost inevitable quality of a middle-class tradition, a class that has been forced neither to rule nor obey, which has been concentrated and successfully concentrated on private gain. this middle-class british section of the american population was, and is to this day, the only really articulate ingredient in its mental composition. and so it has had a monopoly in providing the american forms of thought. the other sections of peoples that have been annexed by or have come into this national synthesis are _silent_ so far as any contribution to the national stock of ideas and ideals is concerned. there are, for example, those great elements, the spanish catholics, the french catholic population of louisiana, the irish catholics, the french-canadians who are now ousting the sterile new englander from new england, the germans, the italians the hungarians. comparatively they say nothing. from all the ten million of coloured people come just two or three platform voices, booker washington, dubois, mrs. church terrell, mere protests at specific wrongs. the clever, restless eastern european jews, too, have still to find a voice. professor münsterberg has written with a certain bitterness of the inaudibility of the german element in the american population. they allow themselves, he remonstrates, to count for nothing. they did not seem to exist, he points out, even in politics until prohibitionist fury threatened their beer. then, indeed, the american german emerged from silence and obscurity, but only to rescue his mug and retire again with it into enigmatical silence. if there is any exception to this predominance of the tradition of the english-speaking, originally middle-class, english-thinking northerner in the american mind, it is to be found in the spread of social democracy outward from the festering tenement houses of chicago into the mining and agrarian regions of the middle west. it is a fierce form of socialist teaching that speaks throughout these regions, far more closely akin to the revolutionary socialism of the continent of europe than to the constructive and evolutionary socialism of great britain. its typical organ is _the appeal to reason_, which circulates more than a quarter of a million copies weekly from kansas city. it is a socialism reeking with class feeling and class hatred and altogether anarchistic in spirit; a new and highly indigestible contribution to the american moral and intellectual synthesis. it is remarkable chiefly as the one shrill exception in a world of plastic acceptance. now it is impossible to believe that this vast silence of these imported and ingested factors that the american nation has taken to itself is as acquiescent as it seems. no doubt they are largely taking over the traditional forms of american thought and expression quietly and without protest, and wearing them; but they will wear them as a man wears a misfit, shaping and adapting it every day more and more to his natural form, here straining a seam and there taking in a looseness. a force of modification must be at work. it must be at work in spite of the fact that, with the exception of social democracy, it does not anywhere show as a protest or a fresh beginning or a challenge to the prevailing forms. how far it has actually been at work is, perhaps, to be judged best by an observant stroller, surveying the crowds of a sunday evening in new york, or read in the sheets of such a mirror of popular taste as the sunday edition of the _new york american_ or the _new york herald_. in the former just what i mean by the silent modification of the old tradition is quite typically shown. its leading articles are written by mr. arthur brisbane, the son of one of the brook farm utopians, that gathering in which hawthorne and henry james senior, and margaret fuller participated, and in which the whole brilliant world of boston's past, the world of emerson, longfellow, thoreau, was interested. mr. brisbane is a very distinguished man, quite over and above the fact that he is paid the greatest salary of any journalist in the world. he writes with a wit and directness that no other living man can rival, and he holds up constantly what is substantially the american ideal of the past century to readers who evidently need strengthening in it. it is, of course, the figure of a man and not of a state; it is a man, clean, clean shaved and almost obtrusively strong-jawed, honest, muscular, alert, pushful, chivalrous, self-reliant, non-political except when he breaks into shrewd and penetrating voting--"you can fool all the people some of the time," etc.--and independent--independent--in a world which is therefore certain to give way to him. his doubts, his questionings, his aspirations, are dealt with by mr. brisbane with a simple direct fatherliness with all the beneficent persuasiveness of a revivalist preacher. millions read these leaders and feel a momentary benefit, en route for the more actual portions of the paper. he asks: "why are all men gamblers?" he discusses our longing for immortal imperfection, and "did we once live on the moon?" he recommends the substitution of whisky and soda for neat whisky, drawing an illustration from the comparative effect of the diluted and of the undiluted liquid as an eye-wash ("try whisky on your friend's eyeball!" is the heading), sleep ("the man who loses sleep will make a failure of his life, or at least diminish greatly his chances of success"), and the education of the feminine intelligence ("the cow that kicks her weaned calf is all heart"). he makes identically the same confident appeal to the moral motive which was for so long the salvation of the puritan individualism from which the american tradition derives. "that hand," he writes, "which supports the head of the new-born baby, the mother's hand, supports the civilisation of the world." but that sort of thing is not saving the old native strain in the population. it moves people, no doubt, but inadequately. and here is a passage that is quite the quintessence of americanism, of all its deep moral feeling and sentimental untruthfulness. i wonder if any man but an american or a british nonconformist in a state of rhetorical excitement ever believed that shakespeare wrote his plays or michael angelo painted in a mood of humanitarian exaltation, "_for the good of all men_." "what _shall_ we strive for? _money_? "get a thousand millions. your day will come, and in due course the graveyard rat will gnaw as calmly at your bump of acquisitiveness as at the mean coat of the pauper. "then shall we strive for _power_? "the names of the first great kings of the world are forgotten, and the names of all those whose power we envy will drift to forgetfulness soon. what does the most powerful man in the world amount to standing at the brink of niagara, with his solar plexus trembling? what is his power compared with the force of the wind or the energy of one small wave sweeping along the shore? "the power which man can build up within himself, for himself, is nothing. only the dull reasoning of gratified egotism can make it seem worth while. "then what is worth while? let us look at some of the men who have come and gone, and whose lives inspire us. take a few at random: "columbus, michael angelo, wilberforce, shakespeare, galileo, fulton, watt, hargreaves--these will do. "let us ask ourselves this question: 'was there any _one thing_ that distinguished _all_ their lives, that united all these men, active in fields so different?' "yes. every man among them, and every man whose life history is worth the telling, did something for _the good of other men_.... "get money if you can. get power if you can; then, if you want to be more than the ten thousand million unknown mingled in the dust beneath you, see what good you can do with your money and your power. "if you are one of the many millions who have not and can't get money or power, see what good you can do without either: "you can help carry a load for an old man. you can encourage and help a poor devil trying to reform. you can set a good example to children. you can stick to the men with whom you work, fighting honestly for their welfare. "time was when the ablest man would rather kill ten men than feed a thousand children. that time has gone. we do not care much about feeding the children, but we care less about killing the men. to that extent we have improved already. "the day will come when we shall prefer helping our neighbour to robbing him--legally--of a million dollars. "do what good you can _now_, while it is unusual, and have the satisfaction of being a pioneer and an eccentric." it is the voice of the american tradition strained to the utmost to make itself audible to the new world, and cracking into italics and breaking into capitals with the strain. the rest of that enormous bale of paper is eloquent of a public void of moral ambitions, lost to any sense of comprehensive things, deaf to ideas, impervious to generalisations, a public which has carried the conception of freedom to its logical extreme of entire individual detachment. these tell-tale columns deal all with personality and the drama of personal life. they witness to no interest but the interest in intense individual experiences. the engagements, the love affairs, the scandals of conspicuous people are given in pitiless detail in articles adorned with vigorous portraits and sensational pictorial comments. even the eavesdroppers who write this stuff strike the personal note, and their heavily muscular portraits frown beside the initial letter. murders and crimes are worked up to the keenest pitch of realisation, and any new indelicacy in fashionable costume, any new medical device or cure, any new dance or athleticism, any new breach in the moral code, any novelty in sea bathing or the woman's seat on horseback, or the like, is given copious and moving illustration, stirring headlines, and eloquent reprobation. there is a coloured supplement of knock-about fun, written chiefly in the quaint dialect of the new york slums. it is a language from which "th" has vanished, and it presents a world in which the kicking by a mule of an endless succession of victims is an inexhaustible joy to young and old. "dat ole maud!" there is a smaller bale dealing with sport. in the advertisement columns one finds nothing of books, nothing of art; but great choice of bust developers, hair restorers, nervous tonics, clothing sales, self-contained flats, and business opportunities.... individuality has, in fact, got home to itself, and, as people say, taken off its frills. all but one; mr. arthur brisbane's eloquence one may consider as the last stitch of the old costume--mere decoration. excitement remains the residual object in life. the _new york american_ represents a clientele to be counted by the hundred thousand, manifestly with no other solicitudes, just burning to live and living to burn. sec. the modifications of the american tradition that will occur through its adoption by these silent foreign ingredients in the racial synthesis are not likely to add to it or elaborate it in any way. they tend merely to simplify it to bare irresponsible non-moral individualism. it is with the detail and qualification of a tradition as with the inflexions of a language; when another people takes it over the refinements disappear. but there are other forces of modification at work upon the american tradition of an altogether more hopeful kind. it has entered upon a constructive phase. were it not so, then the american social outlook would, indeed, be hopeless. the effectual modifying force at work is not the strangeness nor the temperamental maladjustment of the new elements of population, but the conscious realisation of the inadequacy of the tradition on the part of the more intelligent sections of the american population. that blind national conceit that would hear no criticism and admit no deficiency has disappeared. in the last decade such a change has come over the american mind as sometimes comes over a vigorous and wilful child. suddenly it seems to have grown up, to have begun to weigh its powers and consider its possible deficiencies. there was a time when american confidence and self-satisfaction seemed impregnable; at the slightest qualm of doubt america took to violent rhetoric as a drunkard resorts to drink. now the indictment i have drawn up harshly, bluntly and unflatteringly in sec. would receive the endorsement of american after american. the falling birth-rate of all the best elements in the state, the cankering effect of political corruption, the crumbling of independence and equality before the progressive aggregation of wealth--he has to face them, he cannot deny them. there has arisen a new literature, the literature of national self-examination, that seems destined to modify the american tradition profoundly. to me it seems to involve the hope and possibility of a conscious collective organisation of social life. if ever there was an epoch-marking book it was surely henry demarest lloyd's "wealth against commonwealth." it marks an epoch not so much by what it says as by what it silently abandons. it was published in , and it stated in the very clearest terms the incompatibility of the almost limitless freedom of property set up by the constitution, with the practical freedom and general happiness of the mass of men. it must be admitted that lloyd never followed up the implications of this repudiation. he made his statements in the language of the tradition he assailed, and foreshadowed the replacement of chaos by order in quite chaotic and mystical appeals. here, for instance, is a typical passage from "man, the social creator". "property is now a stumbling-block to the people, just as government has been. property will not be abolished, but, like government, it will be democratised. "the philosophy of self-interest as the social solution was a good living and working synthesis in the days when civilisation was advancing its frontiers twenty miles a day across the american continent, and every man for himself was the best social mobilisation possible. "but to-day it is a belated ghost that has overstayed the cock-crow. these were frontier morals. but this same, everyone for himself, becomes most immoral when the frontier is abolished and the pioneer becomes the fellow-citizen and these frontier morals are most uneconomic when labour can be divided and the product multiplied. most uneconomic, for they make closure the rule of industry, leading not to wealth, but to that awful waste of wealth which is made visible to every eye in our unemployed--not hands alone, but land, machinery, and, most of all, hearts. those who still practise these frontier morals are like criminals, who, according to the new science of penology, are simply reappearances of old types. their acquisitiveness once divine like mercury's, is now out of place except in jail. because out of place, they are a danger. a sorry day it is likely to be for those who are found in the way when the new people rise to rush into each other's arms, to get together, to stay together and to live together. the labour movement halts because so many of its rank and file--and all its leaders--do not see clearly the golden thread of love on which have been strung together all the past glories of human association, and which is to serve for the link of the new association of friends who labour, whose motto is 'all for all.'" the establishment of the intricate co-operative commonwealth by a rush of eighty million flushed and shiny-eyed enthusiasts, in fact, is lloyd's proposal. he will not face, and few americans to this day will face, the cold need of a great science of social adjustment and a disciplined and rightly ordered machinery to turn such enthusiasms to effect. they seem incurably wedded to gush. however, he did express clearly enough the opening phase of american disillusionment with the wild go-as-you-please that had been the conception of life in america through a vehement, wasteful, expanding century. and he was the precursor of what is now a bulky and extremely influential literature of national criticism. a number of writers, literary investigators one may call them, or sociological men of letters, or magazine publicists--they are a little difficult to place--has taken up the inquiry into the condition of civic administration, into economic organisation into national politics and racial interaction, with a frank fearlessness and an absence of windy eloquence that has been to many europeans a surprising revelation of the reserve forces of the american mind. president roosevelt, that magnificent reverberator of ideas, that gleam of wilful humanity, that fantastic first interruption to the succession of machine-made politicians at the white house, has echoed clearly to this movement and made it an integral part of the general intellectual movement of america. it is to these first intimations of the need of a "sense of the state" in america that i would particularly direct the reader's attention in this discussion. they are the beginnings of what is quite conceivably a great and complex reconstructive effort. i admit they are but beginnings. they may quite possibly wither and perish presently; they may much more probably be seized upon by adventurers and converted into a new cant almost as empty and fruitless as the old. the fact remains that, through this busy and immensely noisy confusion of nearly a hundred millions of people, these little voices go intimating more and more clearly the intention to undertake public affairs in a new spirit and upon new principles, to strengthen the state and the law against individual enterprise, to have done with those national superstitions under which hypocrisy and disloyalty and private plunder have sheltered and prospered for so long. just as far as these reform efforts succeed and develop is the organisation of the united states of america into a great, self-conscious, civilised nation, unparalleled in the world's history, possible; just as far as they fail is failure written over the american future. the real interest of america for the next century to the student of civilisation will be the development of these attempts, now in their infancy, to create and realise out of this racial hotchpotch, this human chaos, an idea, of the collective commonwealth as the datum of reference for every individual life. sec. i have hinted in the last section that there is a possibility that the new wave of constructive ideas in american thought may speedily develop a cant of its own. but even then, a constructive cant is better than a destructive one. even the conscious hypocrite has to do something to justify his pretences, and the mere disappearance from current thought of the persuasion that organisation is a mistake and discipline needless, clears the ground of one huge obstacle even if it guarantees nothing about the consequent building. but, apart from this, are there more solid and effectual forces behind this new movement of ideas that makes for organisation in american medley at the present time? the speculative writer casting about for such elements lights upon four sets of possibilities which call for discussion. first, one has to ask: how far is the american plutocracy likely to be merely a wasteful and chaotic class, and how far is it likely to become consciously aristocratic and constructive? secondly, and in relation to this, what possibilities of pride and leading are there in the great university foundations of america? will they presently begin to tell as a restraining and directing force upon public thought? thirdly, will the growing american socialist movement, which at present is just as anarchistic and undisciplined in spirit as everything else in america, presently perceive the constructive implications of its general propositions and become statesmanlike and constructive? and, fourthly, what are the latent possibilities of the american women? will women as they become more and more aware of themselves as a class and of the problem of their sex become a force upon the anarchistic side, a force favouring race-suicide, or upon the constructive side which plans and builds and bears the future? the only possible answer to each one of these questions at present is guessing and an estimate. but the only way in which a conception of the american social future may be reached lies through their discussion. let us begin by considering what constructive forces may exist in this new plutocracy which already so largely sways american economic and political development. the first impression is one of extravagant and aimless expenditure, of a class irresponsible and wasteful beyond all precedent. one gets a zolaesque picture of that aspect in mr. upton sinclair's "metropolis," or the fashionable intelligence of the popular new york sunday editions, and one finds a good deal of confirmatory evidence in many incidental aspects of the smart american life of paris and the riviera. the evidence in the notorious thaw trial, after one has discounted its theatrical elements, was still a very convincing demonstration of a rotten and extravagant, because aimless and functionless, class of rich people. but one has to be careful in this matter if one is to do justice to the facts. if a thing is made up of two elements, and one is noisy and glaringly coloured, and the other is quiet and colourless, the first impression created will be that the thing is identical with the element that is noisy and glaringly coloured. one is much less likely to hear of the broad plans and the quality of the wise, strong and constructive individuals in a class than of their foolish wives, their spendthrift sons, their mistresses, and their moments of irritation and folly. in the making of very rich men there is always a factor of good fortune and a factor of design and will. one meets rich men at times who seem to be merely lucky gamblers, who strike one as just the thousandth man in a myriad of wild plungers, who are, in fact, chance nobodies washed up by an eddy. others, again, strike one as exceptionally lucky half-knaves. but there are others of a growth more deliberate and of an altogether higher personal quality. one takes such men as mr. j.d. rockefeller or mr. pierpont morgan--the scale of their fortunes makes them public property--and it is clear that we are dealing with persons on quite a different level of intellectual power from the british colonel norths, for example, or the south african joels. in my "future in america" i have taken the former largely at miss tarbell's estimate, and treated him as a case of acquisitiveness raised in baptist surroundings. but i doubt very much if that exhausts the man as he is to-day. given a man brought up to saving and "getting on" as if to a religion, a man very acquisitive and very patient and restrained, and indubitably with great organising power, and he grows rich beyond the dreams of avarice. and having done so, there he is. what is he going to do? every step he takes up the ascent to riches gives him new perspectives and new points of view. it may have appealed to the young rockefeller, clerk in a chicago house, that to be rich was itself a supreme end; in the first flush of the discovery that he was immensely rich, he may have thanked heaven as if for a supreme good, and spoken to a sunday school gathering as if he knew himself for the most favoured of men. but all that happened twenty years ago or more. one does not keep on in that sort of satisfaction; one settles down to the new facts. and such men as mr. rockefeller and mr. pierpont morgan do not live in a made and protected world with their minds trained, tamed and fed and shielded from outside impressions as royalties do. the thought of the world has washed about them; they have read and listened to the discussion of themselves for some decades; they have had sleepless nights of self-examination. to succeed in acquiring enormous wealth does not solve the problem of life; indeed, it reopens it in a new form. "what shall i do with myself?" simply recurs again. you may have decided to devote yourself to getting on, getting wealthy. well, you have got it. now, again, comes the question: "what shall i do?" mr. pierpont morgan, i am told, collected works of art. i can understand that satisfying a rich gentleman of leisure, but not a man who has felt the sensation of holding great big things in his great big hands. saul, going out to seek his father's asses, found a kingdom--and became very spiritedly a king, and it seems to me that these big industrial and financial organisers, whatever in their youth they proposed to do or be, must many of them come to realise that their organising power is up against no less a thing than a nation's future. napoleon, it is curious to remember once wanted to run a lodging-house, and a man may start to corner oil and end the father of a civilisation. now, i am disposed to suspect at times that an inkling of such a realisation may have come to some of these very rich men. i am inclined to put it among the possibilities of our time that it may presently become clearly and definitely the inspiring idea of many of those who find themselves predominantly rich. i do not see why these active rich should not develop statesmanship, and i can quite imagine them developing very considerable statesmanship. because these men were able to realise their organising power in the absence of economic organisation, it does not follow that they will be fanatical for a continuing looseness and freedom of property. the phase of economic liberty ends itself, as marx long ago pointed out. the american business world becomes more and more a managed world with fewer and fewer wild possibilities of succeeding. of all people the big millionaires should realise this most acutely, and, in fact, there are many signs that they do. it seems to me that the educational zeal of mr. andrew carnegie and the university and scientific endowments of mr. rockefeller are not merely showy benefactions; they express a definite feeling of the present need of constructive organisation in the social scheme. the time has come to build. there is, i think, good reason for expecting that statesmanship of the millionaires to become more organised and scientific and comprehensive in the coming years. it is plausible at least to maintain that the personal quality of the american plutocracy has risen in the last three decades, has risen from the quality of a mere irresponsible wealthy person towards that of a real aristocrat with a "sense of the state." that one may reckon the first hopeful possibility in the american outlook. and intimately connected with this development of an attitude of public responsibility in the very rich is the decay on the one hand of the preposterous idea once prevalent in america that politics is an unsuitable interest for a "gentleman," and on the other of the democratic jealousy of any but poor politicians. in new york they talk very much of "gentlemen," and by "gentlemen" they seem to mean rich men "in society" with a college education. nowadays, "gentlemen" seem more and more disposed towards politics, and less and less towards a life of business or detached refinement. president roosevelt, for example, was one of the pioneers in this new development, this restoration of virility to the gentlemanly ideal. his career marks the appearance of a new and better type of man in american politics, the close of the rule of the idealised nobody. the prophecy has been made at times that the united states might develop a caesarism, and certainly the position of president might easily become that of an imperator. no doubt in the event of an acute failure of the national system such a catastrophe might occur, but the more hopeful and probable line of development is one in which a conscious and powerful, if informal, aristocracy will play a large part. it may, indeed, never have any of the outward forms of an aristocracy or any definite public recognition. the americans are as chary of the coronet and the known aristocratic titles as the romans were of the word king. octavius, for that reason, never called himself king nor italy a kingdom. he was just the caesar of the republic, and the empire had been established for many years before the romans fully realised that they had returned to monarchy. sec. the american universities are closely connected in their development with the appearance and growing class-consciousness of this aristocracy of wealth. the fathers of the country certainly did postulate a need of universities, and in every state congress set aside public lands to furnish a university with material resources. every state possesses a university, though in many instances these institutions are in the last degree of feebleness. in the days of sincere democracy the starvation of government and the dislike of all manifest inequalities involved the starvation of higher education. moreover, the entirely artificial nature of the state boundaries, representing no necessary cleavages and traversed haphazard by the lines of communication, made some of these state foundations unnecessary and others inadequate to a convergent demand. from the very beginning, side by side with the state universities, were the universities founded by benefactors; and with the evolution of new centres of population, new and extremely generous plutocratic endowments appeared. the dominant universities of america to-day, the treasure houses of intellectual prestige, are almost all of them of plutocratic origin, and even in the state universities, if new resources are wanted to found new chairs, to supply funds for research or publication or what not, it is to the more state-conscious wealthy and not to the state legislature that the appeal is made almost as a matter of course. the common voter, the small individualist has less constructive imagination--is more individualistic, that is, than the big individualist. this great network of universities that is now spread over the states, interchanging teachers, literature and ideas, and educating not only the professions but a growing proportion of business leaders and wealthy people, must necessarily take an important part in the reconstruction of the american tradition that is now in progress. it is giving a large and increasing amount of attention to the subjects that bear most directly upon the peculiar practical problems of statecraft in america, to psychology, sociology and political science. it is influencing the press more and more directly by supplying a rising proportion of journalists and creating an atmosphere of criticism and suggestion. it is keeping itself on the one hand in touch with the popular literature of public criticism in those new and curious organs of public thought, the ten-cent magazines; and on the other it is making a constantly more solid basis of common understanding upon which the newer generation of plutocrats may meet. that older sentimental patriotism must be giving place under its influence to a more definite and effectual conception of a collective purpose. it is to the moral and intellectual influence of sustained scientific study in the universities, and a growing increase of the college-trained element in the population that we must look if we are to look anywhere for the new progressive methods, for the substitution of persistent, planned and calculated social development for the former conditions of systematic neglect and corruption in public affairs varied by epileptic seizures of "reform." sec. a third influence that may also contribute very materially to the reconstruction of the american tradition is the socialist movement. it is true that so far american socialism has very largely taken an anarchistic form, has been, in fact, little more than a revolutionary movement of the wages-earning class against the property owner. it has already been pointed out that it derives not from contemporary english socialism but from the marxist social democracy of the continent of europe, and has not even so much of the constructive spirit as has been developed by the english socialists of the fabian and labour party group or by the newer german evolutionary socialists. nevertheless, whenever socialism is intelligently met by discussion or whenever it draws near to practicable realisation, it becomes, by virtue of its inherent implications, a constructive force, and there is no reason to suppose that it will not be intelligently met on the whole and in the long run in america. the alternative to a developing socialism among the labouring masses in america is that revolutionary anarchism from which it is slowly but definitely marking itself off. in america we have to remember that we are dealing with a huge population of people who are for the most part, and more and more evidently destined under the present system of free industrial competition, to be either very small traders, small farmers on the verge of debt, or wages-earners for all their lives. they are going to lead limited lives and worried lives--and they know it. nearly everyone can read and discuss now, the process of concentrating property and the steady fixation of conditions that were once fluid and adventurous goes on in the daylight visibly to everyone. and it has to be borne in mind also that these people are so far under the sway of the american tradition that each thinks himself as good as any man and as much entitled to the fullness of life. whatever social tradition their fathers had, whatever ideas of a place to be filled humbly and seriously and duties to be done, have been left behind in europe. no church dominates the scenery of this new land, and offers in authoritative and convincing tones consolations hereafter for lives obscurely but faithfully lived. whatever else happens in this national future, upon one point the patriotic american may feel assured, and that is of an immense general discontent in the working class and of a powerful movement in search of a general betterment. the practical forms and effects of that movement will depend almost entirely upon the average standard of life among the workers and their general education. sweated and ill-organised foreigners, such as one finds in new jersey living under conditions of great misery, will be fierce, impatient and altogether dangerous. they will be acutely exasperated by every picture of plutocratic luxury in their newspaper, they will readily resort to destructive violence. the western miner, the western agriculturist, worried beyond endurance between the money-lender and railway combinations will be almost equally prone to savage methods of expression. _the appeal to reason_, for example, to which i have made earlier reference in this chapter, is furious to wreck the present capitalistic system, but it is far too angry and impatient for that satisfaction to produce any clear suggestion of what shall replace it. to call this discontent of the seething underside of the american system socialism is a misnomer. were there no socialism there would be just as much of this discontent, just the same insurgent force and desire for violence, taking some other title and far more destructive methods. this discontent is a part of the same planless confusion that gives on the other side the wanton irresponsible extravagances of the smart people of new york. but socialism alone, of all the forms of expression adopted by the losers in the economic struggle, contains constructive possibilities and leads its adherents towards that ideal of an organised state, planned and developed, from which these terrible social stresses may be eliminated, which is also the ideal to which sociology and the thoughts of every constructive-minded and foreseeing man in any position of life tend to-day. in the socialist hypothesis of collective ownership and administration as the social basis, there is the germ of a "sense of the state" that may ultimately develop into comprehensive conceptions of social order, conceptions upon which enlightened millionaires and unenlightened workers may meet at last in generous and patriotic co-operation. the chances of the american future, then, seem to range between two possibilities just as a more or less constructive socialism does or does not get hold of and inspire the working mass of the population. in the worst event--given an emotional and empty hostility to property as such, masquerading as socialism--one has the prospect of a bitter and aimless class war between the expropriated many and the property-holding few, a war not of general insurrection but of localised outbreaks, strikes and brutal suppressions, a war rising to bloody conflicts and sinking to coarsely corrupt political contests, in which one side may prevail in one locality and one in another, and which may even develop into a chronic civil war in the less-settled parts of the country or an irresistible movement for secession between west and east. that is assuming the greatest imaginable vehemence and short-sighted selfishness and the least imaginable intelligence on the part of both workers and the plutocrat-swayed government. but if the more powerful and educated sections of the american community realise in time the immense moral possibilities of the socialist movement, if they will trouble to understand its good side instead of emphasising its bad, if they will keep in touch with it and help in the development of a constructive content to its propositions, then it seems to me that popular socialism may count as a third great factor in the making of the civilised american state. in any case, it does not seem to me probable that there can be any national revolutionary movement or any complete arrest in the development of an aristocratic phase in american history. the area of the country is too great and the means of communication between the workers in different parts inadequate for a concerted rising or even for effective political action in mass. in the worst event--and it is only in the worst event that a great insurrectionary movement becomes probable--the newspapers, magazines, telephones and telegraphs, all the apparatus of discussion and popular appeal, the railways, arsenals, guns, flying machines, and all the material of warfare, will be in the hands of the property owners, and the average of betrayal among the leaders of a class, not racially homogeneous, embittered, suspicious united only by their discomforts and not by any constructive intentions, will necessarily be high. so that, though the intensifying trouble between labour and capital may mean immense social disorganisation and lawlessness, though it may even supply the popular support in new attempts at secession, i do not see in it the possibility and force for that new start which the revolutionary socialists anticipate; i see it merely as one of several forces making, on the whole and particularly in view of the possible mediatory action of the universities, for construction and reconciliation. sec. what changes are likely to occur in the more intimate social life of the people of the united states? two influences are at work that may modify this profoundly. one is that spread of knowledge and that accompanying change in moral attitude which is more and more sterilising the once prolific american home, and the second is the rising standard of feminine education. there has arisen in this age a new consciousness in women. they are entering into the collective thought to a degree unprecedented in the world's history, and with portents at once disquieting and confused. in sec. i enumerated what i called the silent factors in the american synthesis, the immigrant european aliens, the catholics, the coloured blood, and so forth. i would now observe that, in the making of the american tradition, the women also have been to a large extent, and quite remarkably, a silent factor. that tradition is not only fundamentally middle-class and english, but it is also fundamentally masculine. the citizen is the man. the woman belongs to him. he votes for her, works for her, does all the severer thinking for her. she is in the home behind the shop or in the dairy at the farmhouse with her daughters. she gets the meal while the men talk. the american imagination and american feeling centre largely upon the family and upon "mother." american ideals are homely. the social unit is the home, and it is another and a different set of influences and considerations that are never thought of at all when the home sentiment is under discussion, that, indeed, it would be indelicate to mention at such a time, which are making that social unit the home of one child or of no children at all. that ideal of a man-owned, mother-revering home has been the prevalent american ideal from the landing of the _mayflower_ right down to the leader writing of mr. arthur brisbane. and it is clear that a very considerable section among one's educated women contemporaries do not mean to stand this ideal any longer. they do not want to be owned and cherished, and they do not want to be revered. how far they represent their sex in this matter it is very hard to say. in england in the professional and most intellectually active classes it is scarcely an exaggeration to say that _all_ the most able women below five-and-thirty are workers for the suffrage and the ideal of equal and independent citizenship, and active critics of the conventions under which women live to-day. it is at least plausible to suppose that a day is approaching when the alternatives between celibacy or a life of economic dependence and physical subordination to a man who has chosen her, and upon whose kindness her happiness depends, or prostitution, will no longer be a satisfactory outlook for the great majority of women, and when, with a newly aroused political consciousness, they will be prepared to exert themselves as a class to modify this situation. it may be that this is incorrect, and that in devotion to an accepted male and his children most women do still and will continue to find their greatest satisfaction in life. but it is the writer's impression that so simple and single-hearted a devotion is rare, and that, released from tradition--and education, reading and discussion do mean release from tradition--women are as eager for initiative, freedom and experience as men. in that case they will persist in the present agitation for political rights, and these secured, go on to demand a very considerable reconstruction of our present social order. it is interesting to point the direction in which this desire for independence will probably take them. they will discover that the dependence of women at the present time is not so much a law-made as an economic dependence due to the economic disadvantages their sex imposes upon them. maternity and the concomitants of maternity are the circumstances in their lives, exhausting energy and earning nothing, that place them at a discount. from the stage when property ceased to be chiefly the creation of feminine agricultural toil (the so-called primitive matriarchate) to our present stage, women have had to depend upon a man's willingness to keep them, in order to realise the organic purpose of their being. whether conventionally equal or not, whether voters or not, that necessity for dependence will still remain under our system of private property and free independent competition. there is only one evident way by which women as a class can escape from that dependence each upon an individual man and from all the practical inferiority this dependence entails, and that is by so altering their status as to make maternity and the upbringing of children a charge not upon the husband of the mother but upon the community. the public endowment of maternity is the only route by which the mass of women can reach that personal freedom and independent citizenship so many of them desire. now, this idea of the endowment of maternity--or as it is frequently phrased, the endowment of the home--is at present put forward by the modern socialists as an integral part of their proposals, and it is interesting to note that there is this convergent possibility which may bring the feminist movement at last altogether into line with constructive socialism. obviously, before anything in the direction of family endowment becomes practicable, public bodies and the state organisation will need to display far more integrity and efficiency than they do in america at the present time. still, that is the trend of things in all contemporary civilised communities, and it is a trend that will find a powerful reinforcement in men's solicitudes as the increasing failure of the unsupported private family to produce offspring adequate to the needs of social development becomes more and more conspicuous. the impassioned appeals of president roosevelt have already brought home the race-suicide of the native-born to every american intelligence, but mere rhetoric will not in itself suffice to make people, insecurely employed and struggling to maintain a comfortable standard of life against great economic pressure, prolific. presented as a call to a particularly onerous and quite unpaid social duty the appeal for unrestricted parentage fails. husband and wife alike dread an excessive burthen. travel, leisure, freedom, comfort, property and increased ability for business competition are the rewards of abstinence from parentage, and even the disapproval of president roosevelt and the pride of offspring are insufficient counterweights to these inducements. large families disappear from the states, and more and more couples are childless. those who have children restrict their number in order to afford those they have some reasonable advantage in life. this, in the presence of the necessary knowledge, is as practically inevitable a consequence of individualist competition and the old american tradition as the appearance of slums and a class of millionaires. these facts go to the very root of the american problem. i have already pointed out that, in spite of a colossal immigration, the population of the united states was at the end of the nineteenth century over twenty millions short of what it should have been through its own native increase had the birth-rate of the opening of the century been maintained. for a hundred years america has been "fed" by europe. that feeding process will not go on indefinitely. the immigration came in waves as if reservoir after reservoir was tapped and exhausted. nowadays england, scotland, ireland, france and scandinavia send hardly any more; they have no more to send. germany and switzerland send only a few. the south european and austrian supply is not as abundant as it was. there may come a time when europe and western asia will have no more surplus population to send, when even eastern asia will have passed into a less fecund phase, and when america will have to look to its own natural increase for the continued development of its resources. if the present isolated family of private competition is still the social unit, it seems improbable that there will be any greater natural increase than there is in france. will the growing idea of a closer social organisation have developed by that time to the possibility of some collective effort in this matter? or will that only come about after the population of the world has passed through a phase of absolute recession? the peculiar constitution of the united states gives a remarkable freedom of experiment in these matters to each individual state, and local developments do not need to wait upon a national change of opinion; but, on the other hand, the superficial impression of an english visitor is that any such profound interference with domestic autonomy runs counter to all that americans seem to hold dear at the present time. these are, however, new ideas and new considerations that have still to be brought adequately before the national consciousness, and it is quite impossible to calculate how a population living under changing conditions and with a rising standard of education and a developing feminine consciousness may not think and feel and behave in a generation's time. at present for all political and collective action america is a democracy of untutored individualist men who will neither tolerate such interference between themselves and the women they choose to marry as the endowment of motherhood implies, nor view the "kids" who will at times occur even in the best-regulated families as anything but rather embarrassing, rather amusing by-products of the individual affections. i find in the london _new age_ for august th, , a description by mr. jerome k. jerome of "john smith," the average british voter. john smith might serve in some respects for the common man of all the modern civilisations. among other things that john smith thinks and wants, he wants: "a little house and garden in the country all to himself. his idea is somewhere near half an acre of ground. he would like a piano in the best room; it has always been his dream to have a piano. the youngest girl, he is convinced, is musical. as a man who has knocked about the world and has thought, he quite appreciates the argument that by co-operation the material side of life can be greatly improved. he quite sees that by combining a dozen families together in one large house better practical results can be obtained. it is as easy to direct the cooking for a hundred as for half a dozen. there would be less waste of food, of coals, of lighting. to put aside one piano for one girl is absurd. he sees all this, but it does not alter one little bit his passionate craving for that small house and garden all to himself. he is built that way. he is typical of a good many other men and women built on the same pattern. what are you going to do with them? change them--their instincts, their very nature, rooted in the centuries? or, as an alternative, vary socialism to fit john smith? which is likely to prove the shorter operation?" that, however, is by the way. here is the point at issue: "he has heard that socialism proposes to acknowledge woman's service to the state by paying her a weekly wage according to the number of children that she bears and rears. i don't propose to repeat his objections to the idea; they could hardly be called objections. there is an ugly look comes into his eyes; something quite undefinable, prehistoric, almost dangerous, looks out of them.... in talking to him on this subject you do not seem to be talking to a man. it is as if you had come face to face with something behind civilisation, behind humanity, something deeper down still among the dim beginnings of creation...." now, no doubt mr. jerome is writing with emphasis here. but there is sufficient truth in the passage for it to stand here as a rough symbol of another factor in this question. john smithism, that manly and individualist element in the citizen, stands over against and resists all the forces of organisation that would subjugate it to a collective purpose. it is careless of coming national cessation and depopulation, careless of the insurgent spirit beneath the acquiescences of mrs. smith, careless of its own inevitable defeat in the economic struggle, careless because it can understand none of these things; it is obstinately muddle-headed, asserting what it conceives to be itself against the universe and all other john smiths whatsoever. it is a factor with all other factors. the creative, acquisitive, aggressive spirit of those bigger john smiths who succeed as against the myriads of john smiths who fail, the wider horizons and more efficient methods of the educated man, the awakening class-consciousness of women, the inevitable futility of john smithism, the sturdy independence that makes john smith resent even disciplined co-operation with tom brown to achieve a common end, his essential incapacity, indeed, for collective action; all these things are against the ultimate triumph, and make for the ultimate civilisation even of john smith. sec. it may be doubted if the increasing collective organisation of society to which the united states of america, in common with all the rest of the world, seem to be tending will be to any very large extent a national organisation. the constitution is an immense and complicated barrier to effectual centralisation. there are many reasons for supposing the national government will always remain a little ineffectual and detached from the full flow of american life, and this notwithstanding the very great powers with which the president is endowed. one of these reasons is certainly the peculiar accident that has placed the seat of government upon the potomac. to the thoughtful visitor to the united states this hiding away of the central government in a minute district remote from all the great centres of thought, population and business activity becomes more remarkable more perplexing, more suggestive of an incurable weakness in the national government as he grasps more firmly the peculiarities of the american situation. i do not see how the central government of that great american nation of which i dream can possibly be at washington, and i do not see how the present central government can possibly be transferred to any other centre. but to go to washington, to see and talk to washington, is to receive an extraordinary impression of the utter isolation and hopelessness of washington. the national government has an air of being marooned there. or as though it had crept into a corner to do something in the dark. one goes from the abounding movement and vitality of the northern cities to this sunny and enervating place through the negligently cultivated country of virginia, and one discovers the slovenly, unfinished promise of a city, broad avenues lined by negro shanties and patches of cultivation, great public buildings and an immense post office, a lifeless museum, an inert university, a splendid desert library, a street of souvenir shops, a certain industry of "seeing washington," an idiotic colossal obelisk. it seems an ideal nest for the tariff manipulator, a festering corner of delegates and agents and secondary people. in the white house, in the time of president roosevelt, the present writer found a transitory glow of intellectual activity, the spittoons and glass screens that once made it like a london gin palace had been removed, and the former orgies of handshaking reduced to a minimum. it was, one felt, an accidental phase. the assassination of mckinley was an interruption of the normal washington process. to this place, out of the way of everywhere, come the senators and congressmen, mostly leaving their families behind them in their states of origin, and hither, too, are drawn a multitude of journalists and political agents and clerks, a crowd of underbred, mediocre men. for most of them there is neither social nor intellectual life. the thought of america is far away, centred now in new york; the business and economic development centres upon new york; apart from the president, it is in new york that one meets the people who matter, and the new york atmosphere that grows and develops ideas and purposes. new york is the natural capital of the united states, and would need to be the capital of any highly organised national system. government from the district of columbia is in itself the repudiation of any highly organised national system. but government from this ineffectual, inert place is only the most striking outcome of that inflexible constitution the wrangling delegates of - did at last produce out of a conflict of state jealousies. they did their best to render centralisation or any coalescence of states impossible and private property impregnable, and so far their work has proved extraordinarily effective. only a great access of intellectual and moral vigour in the nation can ever set it aside. and while the more and more sterile millions of the united states grapple with the legal and traditional difficulties that promise at last to arrest their development altogether, the rest of the world will be moving on to new phases. an awakened asia will be reorganising its social and political conceptions in the light of modern knowledge and modern ideas, and south america will be working out its destinies, perhaps in the form of a powerful confederation of states. all europe will be schooling its john smiths to finer discipline and broader ideas. it is quite possible that the american john smiths may have little to brag about in the way of national predominance by a.d. . it is quite possible that the united states may be sitting meekly at the feet of at present unanticipated teachers. the possible collapse of civilisation (_new year, _.) the editor of the _new york world_ has asked me to guess the general trend of events in the next thirty years or so with especial reference to the outlook for the state and city of new york. i like and rarely refuse such cheerful invitations to prophesy. i have already made a sort of forecast (in my "anticipations") of what may happen if the social and economic process goes on fairly smoothly for all that time, and shown a new york relieved from its present congestion by the development of the means of communication, and growing and spreading in wide and splendid suburbs towards boston and philadelphia. i made that forecast before ever i passed sandy hook, but my recent visit only enhanced my sense of growth and "go" in things american. still, we are nowadays all too apt to think that growth is inevitable and progress in the nature of things; the wonderful century, as dr. alfred russel wallace called the nineteenth, has made us perhaps over-confident and forgetful of the ruins of great cities and confident prides of the past that litter the world, and here i will write about the other alternative, of the progressive process "hitting something," and smashing. there are two chief things in modern life that impress me as dangerous and incalculable. the first of these is the modern currency and financial system, and the second is the chance we take of destructive war. let me dwell first of all on the mysterious possibilities of the former, and then point out one or two uneasy developments of the latter. now, there is nothing scientific about our currency and finance at all. it is a thing that has grown up and elaborated itself out of very simple beginnings in the course of a century or so. three hundred years ago the edifice had hardly begun to rise from the ground, most property was real, most people lived directly on the land, most business was on a cash basis, oversea trade was a proportionately small affair, labour was locally fixed. most of the world was at the level at which much of china remains to-day--able to get along without even coinage. it was a rudimentary world from the point of view of the modern financier and industrial organiser. well, on that rude, secure basis there has now been piled the most chancy and insecurely experimental system of conventions and assumptions about money and credit it is possible to imagine. there has grown up a vast system of lending and borrowing, a world-wide extension of joint-stock enterprises that involve at last the most fantastic relationships. i find myself, for example, owning (partially, at least) a bank in new zealand, a railway in cuba, another in canada, several in brazil, an electric power plant in the city of westminster, and so on, and i use these stocks and shares as a sort of interest-bearing money. if i want money to spend, i sell a railway share much as one might change a hundred-pound banknote; if i have more cash than i need immediately i buy a few shares. i perceive that the value of these shares oscillates, sometimes rather gravely, and that the value of the alleged money on the cheques i get also oscillates as compared with the things i want to buy; that, indeed, the whole system (which has only existed for a couple of centuries or so, and which keeps on getting higher and giddier) is perpetually swaying and quivering and bending and sagging; but it is only when such a great crisis occurs as that of that it enters my mind that possibly there is no limit to these oscillations, that possibly the whole vast accidental edifice will presently come smashing down. why shouldn't it? i defy any economist or financial expert to prove that it cannot. that it hasn't done so in the little time for which it has existed is no reply at all. it is like arguing that a man cannot die because he has never been known to do so. previous men have died, previous civilisations have collapsed, if not of acute, then of chronic financial disorders. the experience of indicated very clearly how a collapse might occur. a panic, like an avalanche, is a thing much easier to start than stop. previous panics have been arrested by good luck; this last one in america, for example, found europe strong and prosperous and helpful. in every panic period there is a huge dislocation of business enterprises, vast multitudes of men are thrown out of employment, there is grave social and political disorder; but in the end, so far, things have an air of having recovered. but now, suppose the panic wave a little more universal--and panic waves tend to be more extensive than they used to be. suppose that when securities fall all round, and gold appreciates in new york, and frightened people begin to sell investments and hoard gold, the same thing happens in other parts of the world. increase the scale of the trouble only two or three times, and would our system recover? imagine great masses of men coming out of employment, and angry and savage, in all our great towns; imagine the railways working with reduced staffs on reduced salaries or blocked by strikers; imagine provision dealers stopping consignments to retailers, and retailers hesitating to give credit. a phase would arrive when the police and militia keeping order in the streets would find themselves on short rations and without their weekly pay. what we moderns, with our little three hundred years or so of security, do not recognise is that things that go up and down may, given a certain combination of chances, go down steadily, down and down. what would you do, dear reader--what should i do--if a slump went on continually? and that brings me to the second great danger to our modern civilisation, and that is war. we have over-developed war. while we have left our peace organisation to the niggling, slow, self-seeking methods of private enterprise; while we have left the breeding of our peoples to chance, their minds to the halfpenny press and their wealth to the drug manufacturer, we have pushed forward the art of war on severely scientific and socialist lines; we have put all the collective resources of the community and an enormous proportion of its intelligence and invention ungrudgingly into the improvement and manufacture of the apparatus of destruction. great britain, for example, is content with the railways and fireplaces and types of housing she had fifty years ago; she still uses telephones and the electric light in the most tentative spirit; but every ironclad she had five-and-twenty years ago is old iron now and abandoned. everything crawls forward but the science of war; that rushes on. of what will happen if presently the guns begin to go off i have no shadow of doubt. every year has seen the disproportionate increase until now. every modern european state is more or less like a cranky, ill-built steamboat in which some idiot has mounted and loaded a monstrous gun with no apparatus to damp its recoil. whether that gun hits or misses when it is fired, of one thing we may be absolutely certain--it will send the steamboat to the bottom of the sea. modern warfare is an insanity, not a sane business proposition. its preparation eats more and more into the resources which should be furnishing a developing civilisation; its possibilities of destruction are incalculable. a new epoch has opened with the coming of the navigable balloon and the flying machine. to begin with, these things open new gulfs for expenditure; in the end they mean possibilities of destruction beyond all precedent. such things as the _zeppelin_ and the _ville de paris_ are only the first pigmy essays of the aeronaut. it is clear that to be effective, capable of carrying guns and comparatively insensitive to perforation by shot and shell, these things will have to be very much larger and as costly, perhaps, as a first-class cruiser. imagine such monsters of the air, and wild financial panic below! here, then, are two associated possibilities with which to modify our expectation of an america advancing steadily on the road to an organised civilisation, of new york rebuilding herself in marble, spreading like a garden city over new jersey and long island and new york state, becoming a new and greater venice, queen of the earth. perhaps, after all, the twentieth century isn't going to be so prosperous as the nineteenth. perhaps, instead of going resistlessly onward, we are going to have a set-back. perhaps we are going to be put back to learn over again under simpler conditions some of those necessary fundamental lessons our race has learnt as yet insufficiently well--honesty and brotherhood, social collectivism, and the need of some common peace-preserving council for the whole world. the ideal citizen our conceptions of what a good citizen should be are all at sixes and sevens. no two people will be found to agree in every particular of such an ideal, and the extreme divergences upon what is necessary, what is permissible, what is unforgivable in him, will span nearly the whole range of human possibility and conduct. as a consequence, we bring up our children in a mist of vague intimations, in a confusion of warring voices, perplexed as to what they must do, uncertain as to what they may do, doomed to lives of compromise and fluctuating and inoperative opinion. ideals and suggestions come and go before their eyes like figures in a fog. the commonest pattern, perhaps--the commonest pattern certainly in sunday schools and edifying books, and on all those places and occasions when morality is sought as an end--is a clean and able-bodied person, truthful to the extent that he does not tell lies, temperate so far as abstinence is concerned, honest without pedantry, and active in his own affairs, steadfastly law-abiding and respectful to custom and usage, though aloof from the tumult of politics, brave but not adventurous, punctual in some form of religious exercise, devoted to his wife and children, and kind without extravagance to all men. everyone feels that this is not enough, everyone feels that something more is wanted and something different; most people are a little interested in what that difference can be, and it is a business that much of what is more than trivial in our art, our literature and our drama must do to fill in bit by bit and shade by shade the subtle, the permanent detail of the answer. it does very greatly help in this question to bear in mind the conflict of our origins. every age is an age of transition, of minglings, of the breaking up of old, narrow cultures, and the breaking down of barriers, of spiritual and often of actual interbreeding. not only is the physical but the moral and intellectual ancestry of everyone more mixed than ever it was before. we blend in our blood, everyone of us, and we blend in our ideas and purposes, craftsmen, warriors, savages, peasants, and a score of races, and an endless multitude of social expedients and rules. go back but a hundred generations in the lineage of the most delicate girl you know, and you will find a dozen murderers. you will find liars and cheats, lascivious sinners, women who have sold themselves, slaves, imbeciles, devotees, saints, men of fantastic courage, discreet and watchful persons, usurers, savages, criminals and kings, and every one of this miscellany, not simply fathering or mothering on the way to her, but teaching urgently and with every grade of intensity, views and habits for which they stand. something of it all has come to her, albeit much may seem forgotten. in every human birth, with a new little variation, a fresh slight novelty of arrangement the old issues rise again. our ideas, even more than our blood, flow from multitudinous sources. certain groups of ideas come to us distinctively associated with certain marked ways of life. many, and for a majority of us, it may be, most of our ancestors were serfs or slaves. and men and women who have had, generation after generation, to adapt themselves to slavery and the rule of a master, develop an idea of goodness very different from that of princes. from our slave ancestry, says lester ward, we learnt to work, and certainly it is from slavery we derive the conception that industry, even though it be purposeless industry, is a virtue in itself. the good slave, too, has a morality of restraints; he abstains from the food he handles and hungers for, and he denies himself pride and initiative of every sort. he is honest in not taking, but he is unscrupulous about adequate service. he makes no virtue of frankness, but much of kindly helpfulness and charity to the weak. he has no sense of duty in planning or economising. he is polite and soft-spoken, and disposed to irony rather than denunciation, ready to admire cuteness and condone deception. not so the rebel. that tradition is working in us also. it has been the lot of vast masses of population in every age to be living in successful or unsuccessful resistance to mastery, to be dreading oppression or to be just escaped from it. resentment becomes a virtue then, and any peace with the oppressor a crime. it is from rebel origins so many of us get the idea that disrespectfulness is something of a duty and obstinacy a fine thing. and under the force of this tradition we idealise the rugged and unmanageable, we find something heroic in rough clothes and hands, in bad manners, insensitive behaviour, and unsociableness. and a community of settlers, again, in a rough country, fighting for a bare existence, makes a virtue of vehemence, of a hasty rapidity of execution. hurried and driven men glorify "push" and impatience, and despise finish and fine discriminations as weak and demoralising things. these three, the serf, the rebel, and the squatter, are three out of a thousand types and aspects that have gone to our making. in the american composition they are dominant. but all those thousand different standards and traditions are our material, each with something fine, and each with something evil. they have all provided the atmosphere of upbringing for men in the past. out of them and out of unprecedented occasions, we in this newer age, in which there are no slaves, in which every man is a citizen, in which the conveniences of a great and growing civilisation makes the frantic avidity of the squatter a nuisance, have to set ourselves to frame the standard of our children's children, to abandon what the slave or the squatter or the rebel found necessary and that we find unnecessary, to fit fresh requirements to our new needs. so we have to develop our figure of the fine man, our desirable citizen in that great and noble civilised state we who have a "sense of the state" would build out of the confusions of our world. to describe that ideal modern citizen now is at best to make a guess and a suggestion of what must be built in reality by the efforts of a thousand minds. but he will be a very different creature from that indifferent, well-behaved business man who passes for a good citizen to-day. he will be neither under the slave tradition nor a rebel nor a vehement elemental man. essentially he will be aristocratic, aristocratic not in the sense that he has slaves or class inferiors, because probably he will have nothing of the sort, but aristocratic in the sense that he will feel the state belongs to him and he to the state. he will probably be a public servant; at any rate, he will be a man doing some work in the complicated machinery of the modern community for a salary and not for speculative gain. typically, he will be a professional man. i do not think the ideal modern citizen can be a person living chiefly by buying for as little as he can give and selling for as much as he can get; indeed, most of what we idolise to-day as business enterprise i think he will regard with considerable contempt. but, then, i am a socialist, and look forward to the time when the economic machinery of the community will be a field not for private enrichment but for public service. he will be good to his wife and children as he will be good to his friend, but he will be no partisan for wife and family against the common welfare. his solicitude will be for the welfare of all the children of the community; he will have got beyond blind instinct; he will have the intelligence to understand that almost any child in the world may have as large a share as his own offspring in the parentage of his great-great-grandchildren his wife he will treat as his equal; he will not be "kind" to her, but fair and frank and loving, as one equal should be with another; he will no more have the impertinence to pet and pamper her, to keep painful and laborious things out of her knowledge to "shield" her from the responsibility of political and social work, than he will to make a chinese toy of her and bind her feet. he and she will love that they may enlarge and not limit one another. consciously and deliberately the ideal citizen will seek beauty in himself and in his way of living. he will be temperate rather than harshly abstinent, and he will keep himself fit and in training as an elementary duty. he will not be a fat or emaciated person. fat, panting men, and thin, enfeebled ones cannot possibly be considered good citizens any more than dirty or verminous people. he will be just as fine and seemly in his person as he can be, not from vanity and self-assertion but to be pleasing and agreeable to his fellows. the ugly dress and ugly bearing of the "good man" of to-day will be as incomprehensible to him as the filth of a palaeolithic savage is to us. he will not speak of his "frame," and hang clothes like sacks over it; he will know and feel that he and the people about him have wonderful, delightful and beautiful bodies. and--i speak of the ideal common citizen--he will be a student and a philosopher. to understand will be one of his necessary duties. his mind, like his body, will be fit and well clothed. he will not be too busy to read and think, though he may be too busy to rush about to get ignorantly and blatantly rich. it follows that, since he will have a mind exercised finely and flexible and alert, he will not be a secretive man. secretiveness and secret planning are vulgarity; men and women need to be educated, and he will be educated out of these vices. he will be intensely truthful, not simply in the vulgar sense of not misstating facts when pressed, but truthful in the manner of the scientific man or the artist, and as scornful of concealment as they; truthful, that is to say, as the expression of a ruling desire to have things made plain and clear, because that so they are most beautiful and life is at its finest.... and all that i have written of him is equally true and applies word for word, with only such changes of gender as are needed, to the woman citizen also. some possible discoveries the present time is harvest home for the prophets. the happy speculator in future sits on the piled-up wain, singing "i told you so," with the submarine and the flying machine and the marconigram and the north pole successfully achieved. in the tumult of realisations it perhaps escapes attention that the prophetic output of new hopes is by no means keeping pace with the crop of consummations. the present trend of scientific development is not nearly so obvious as it was a score of years ago; its promises lack the elementary breadth of that simpler time. once you have flown, you have flown. once you have steamed about under water, you have steamed about under water. there seem no more big things of that kind available--so that i almost regret the precipitance of commander peary and captain amundsen. no one expects to go beyond that atmosphere for some centuries at least; all the elements are now invaded. conceivably man may presently contrive some sort of earthworm apparatus, so that he could go through the rocks prospecting very much as an earthworm goes through the soil, excavating in front and dumping behind, but, to put it moderately, there are considerable difficulties. and i doubt the imaginative effect. on the whole, i think material science has got samples now of all its crops at this level, and that what lies before it in the coming years is chiefly to work them out in detail and realise them on the larger scale. no doubt science will still yield all sorts of big surprising effects, but nothing, i think, to equal the dramatic novelty, the demonstration of man having got to something altogether new and strange, of montgolfier, or the wright brothers, of columbus, or the polar conquest. there remains, of course, the tapping of atomic energy, but i give two hundred years yet before that.... so far, then, as mechanical science goes i am inclined to think the coming period will be, from the point of view of the common man, almost without sensational interest. there will be an immense amount of enrichment and filling-in, but of the sort that does not get prominently into the daily papers. at every point there will be economies and simplifications of method, discoveries of new artificial substances with new capabilities, and of new methods of utilising power. there will be a progressive change in the apparatus and quality of human life--the sort of alteration of the percentages that causes no intellectual shock. electric heating, for example, will become practicable in our houses, and then cheaper, and at last so cheap and good that nobody will burn coal any more. little electric contrivances will dispense with menial service in more and more directions. the builder will introduce new, more convenient, healthier and prettier substances, and the young architect will become increasingly the intelligent student of novelty. the steam engine, the coal yard, and the tail chimney, and indeed all chimneys, will vanish quietly from our urban landscape. the speeding up and cheapening of travel, and the increase in its swiftness and comfort will go on steadily--widening experience. a more systematic and understanding social science will be estimating the probable growth and movement of population, and planning town and country on lines that would seem to-day almost inconceivably wise and generous. all this means a quiet broadening and aeration and beautifying of life. utopian requirements, so far as the material side of things goes, will be executed and delivered with at last the utmost promptness.... it is in quite other directions that the scientific achievements to astonish our children will probably be achieved. progress never appears to be uniform in human affairs. there are intricate correlations between department and department. one field must mark time until another can come up to it with results sufficiently arranged and conclusions sufficiently simplified for application medicine waits on organic chemistry, geology on mineralogy, and both on the chemistry of high pressures and temperature. and subtle variations in method and the prevailing mental temperament of the type of writer engaged, produce remarkable differences in the quality and quantity of the stated result. moreover, there are in the history of every scientific province periods of seed-time, when there is great activity without immediate apparent fruition, and periods, as, for example, the last two decades of electrical application, of prolific realisation. it is highly probable that the physiologist and the organic chemist are working towards co-operations that may make the physician's sphere the new scientific wonderland. at present dietary and regimen are the happy hunting ground of the quack and that sort of volunteer specialist, half-expert, half-impostor, who flourishes in the absence of worked out and definite knowledge. the general mass of the medical profession, equipped with a little experience and a muddled training, and preposterously impeded by the private adventure conditions under which it lives, goes about pretending to the possession of precise knowledge which simply does not exist in the world. medical research is under-endowed and stupidly endowed, not for systematic scientific inquiry so much as for the unscientific seeking of remedies for specific evils--for cancer, consumption, and the like. yet masked, misrepresented limited and hampered, the work of establishing a sound science of vital processes in health and disease is probably going on now, similar to the clarification of physics and chemistry that went on in the later part of the eighteenth and the early years of the nineteenth centuries. it is not unreasonable to suppose that medicine may presently arrive at far-reaching generalised convictions, and proceed to take over this great hinterland of human interests which legitimately belongs to it. but medicine is not the only field to which we may reasonably look for a sudden development of wonders. compared with the sciences of matter, psychology and social science have as yet given the world remarkably little cause for amazement. not only is our medicine feeble and fragmentary, but our educational science is the poorest miscellany of aphorisms and dodges. indeed, directly one goes beyond the range of measurement and weighing and classification, one finds a sort of unprogressive floundering going on, which throws the strongest doubts upon the practical applicability of the current logical and metaphysical conceptions in those fields. we have emerged only partially from the age of the schoolmen in these directions we have not emerged at all. it is quite possible that in university lecture rooms and forbidding volumes of metaphysical discussion a new emancipation of the human intellect and will is even now going on. presently men may be attacking the problems of the self-control of human life and of human destiny in new phrases and an altogether novel spirit. guesses at the undiscovered must necessarily be vague, but my anticipations fall into two groups, and first i am disposed to expect a great systematic increment in individual human power. we probably have no suspicion as yet of what may be done with the human body and mind by way of enhancing its effectiveness i remember talking to the late sir michael foster upon the possibilities of modern surgery, and how he confessed that he did not dare for his reputation's sake tell ordinary people the things he believed would some day become matter-of-fact operations. in that respect i think he spoke for very many of his colleagues. it is already possible to remove almost any portion of the human body, including, if needful, large sections of the brain; it is possible to graft living flesh on living flesh, make new connections, mould, displace, and rearrange. it is also not impossible to provoke local hypertrophy, and not only by knife and physical treatment but by the subtler methods of hypnotism, profound changes can be wrought in the essential structure of a human being. if only our knowledge of function and value were at all adequate, we could correct and develop ourselves in the most extraordinary way. our knowledge is not adequate, but it may not always remain inadequate. we have already had some very astonishing suggestions in this direction from doctor metchnikoff. he regards the human stomach and large intestine as not only vestigial and superfluous in the human economy, but as positively dangerous on account of the harbour they afford for those bacteria that accelerate the decay of age. he proposes that these viscera should be removed. to a layman like myself this is an altogether astounding and horrifying idea, but doctor metchnikoff is a man of the very greatest scientific reputation, and it does not give him any qualm of horror or absurdity to advance it. i am quite sure that if a gentleman called upon me "done up" in the way i am dimly suggesting, with most of the contents of his abdomen excavated, his lungs and heart probably enlarged and improved, parts of his brain removed to eliminate harmful tendencies and make room for the expansion of the remainder, his mind and sensibilities increased, and his liability to fatigue and the need of sleep abolished, i should conceal with the utmost difficulty my inexpressible disgust and terror. but, then, if m. blériot, with his flying machine, ear-flaps and goggles, had soared down in the year b.c., let us say, upon my woad-adorned ancestors--every family man in britain was my ancestor in those days--at dover, they would have had entirely similar emotions. and at present i am not discussing what is beautiful in humanity, but what is possible--and what, being possible, is likely to be attempted. it does not follow that because men will some day have this enormous power over themselves, physically and mentally, that they will necessarily make themselves horrible--even by our present standards quite a lot of us would be all the slenderer and more active and graceful for "metchnikoffing"--nor does surgery exhaust the available methods. we are still in the barbaric age, so far as our use of food and drugs is concerned. we stuff all sorts of substances into our unfortunate interiors and blunder upon the most various consequences. few people of three score and ten but have spent in the aggregate the best part of a year in a state of indigestion, stupid, angry or painful indigestion as the case may be. no one would be so careless and ignorant about the fuel he burnt in his motor-car as most of us are about the fuel we burn in our bodies. and there are all sort of stimulating and exhilarating things, digesting things, fatigue-suppressing things, exercise economising things, we dare not use because we are afraid of our ignorance of their precise working. there seems no reason to suppose that human life, properly understood and controlled, could not be a constant succession of delightful and for the most part active bodily and mental phases. it is sheer ignorance and bad management that keep the majority of people in that disagreeable system of states which we indicate by saying we are "a bit off colour" or a little "out of training." it may seem madly utopian now to suggest that practically everyone in the community might be clean, beautiful, incessantly active, "fit," and long-lived, with the marks of all the surgery they have undergone quite healed and hidden, but not more madly utopian than it would have seemed to king alfred the great if one had said that practically everyone in this country, down to the very swineherds, should be able to read and write. metchnikoff has speculated upon the possibility of delaying old age, and i do not see why his method should not be applied to the diurnal need of sleep. no vital process seems to be absolutely fated in itself; it is a thing conditioned and capable of modification. if metchnikoff is right--and to a certain extent he must be right--the decay of age is due to changing organic processes that may be checked and delayed and modified by suitable food and regimen. he holds out hope of a new phase in the human cycle, after the phase of struggle and passion, a phase of serene intellectual activity, old age with all its experience and none of its infirmities. still more are fatigue and the need for repose dependent upon chemical changes in the body. it would seem we are unable to maintain exertion, partly through the exhaustion of our tissues, but far more by the loading of our blood with fatigue products--a recuperative interlude must ensue. but there is no reason to suppose that the usual food of to-day is the most rapidly assimilable nurture possible, that a rapidly digestible or injectable substance is not conceivable that would vastly accelerate repair, nor that the elimination and neutralisation of fatigue products might not also be enormously hastened. there is no inherent impossibility in the idea not only of various glands being induced to function in a modified manner, but even in the insertion upon the circulation of interceptors and artificial glandular structures. no doubt that may strike even an adventurous surgeon as chimerical, but consider what people, even authoritative people, were saying of flying and electric traction twenty years ago. at present a man probably does not get more than three or four hours of maximum mental and physical efficiency in the day. few men can keep at their best in either physical or intellectual work for so long as that. the rest of the time goes in feeding, digesting, sleeping, sitting about, relaxation of various kinds. it is quite possible that science may set itself presently to extend systematically that proportion of efficient time. the area of maximum efficiency may invade the periods now demanded by digestion, sleep, exercise, so that at last nearly the whole of a man's twenty-four hours will be concentrated on his primary interests instead of dispersed among these secondary necessary matters. please understand i do not consider this concentration of activity and these vast "artificialisations" of the human body as attractive or desirable things. at the first proposal much of this tampering with the natural stuff of life will strike anyone, i think, as ugly and horrible, just as seeing a little child, green-white and still under an anaesthetic, gripped my heart much more dreadfully than the sight of the same child actively bawling with pain. but the business of this paper is to discuss things that may happen, and not to evolve dreams of loveliness. perhaps things of this kind will be manageable without dreadfulness. perhaps man will come to such wisdom that neither the knife nor the drugs nor any of the powers which science thrusts into his hand will slay the beauty of life for him. suppose we assume that he is not such a fool as to let that happen, and that ultimately he will emerge triumphant with all these powers utilised and controlled. it is not only that an amplifying science may give mankind happier bodies and far more active and eventful lives, but that psychology and educational and social science, reinforcing literature and working through literature and art, may dare to establish serenities in his soul. for surely no one who has lived, no one who has watched sin and crime and punishment, but must have come to realise the enormous amount of misbehaviour that is mere ignorance and want of mental scope. for my own part i have never believed in the devil. and it may be a greater undertaking but no more impossible to make ways to goodwill and a good heart in men than it is to tunnel mountains and dyke back the sea. the way that led from the darkness of the cave to the electric light is the way that will lead to light in the souls of men, that is to say, the way of free and fearless thinking, free and fearless experiment, organised exchange of thoughts and results, and patience and persistence and a sort of intellectual civility. and with the development of philosophical and scientific method that will go on with this great increase in man's control over himself, another issue that is now a mere pious aspiration above abysses of ignorance and difficulty, will come to be a manageable matter. it has been the perpetual wonder of philosophers from plato onward that men have bred their dogs and horses and left any man or woman, however vile, free to bear offspring in the next generation of men. still that goes on. beautiful and wonderful people die childless and bury their treasure in the grave, and we rest content with a system of matrimony that seems designed to perpetuate mediocrity. a day will come when men will be in possession of knowledge and opportunity that will enable them to master this position, and then certainly will it be assured that every generation shall be born better than was the one before it. and with that the history of humanity will enter upon a new phase, a phase which will be to our lives as daylight is to the dreaming of a child as yet unborn. the human adventure alone among all the living things this globe has borne, man reckons with destiny. all other living things obey the forces that created them; and when the mood of the power changes, submit themselves passively to extinction man only looks upon those forces in the face, anticipates the exhaustion of nature's kindliness, seeks weapons to defend himself. last of the children of saturn, he escapes their general doom. he dispossesses his begetter of all possibility of replacement, and grasps the sceptre of the world. before man the great and prevalent creatures followed one another processionally to extinction; the early monsters of the ancient seas, the clumsy amphibians struggling breathless to the land, the reptiles, the theriomorpha and the dinosaurs, the bat-winged reptiles of the mesozoic forests, the colossal grotesque first mammals, the giant sloths, the mastodons and mammoths; it is as if some idle dreamer moulded them and broke them and cast them aside, until at last comes man and seizes the creative wrist that would wipe him out of being again. there is nothing else in all the world that so turns against the powers that have made it, unless it be man's follower fire. but fire is witless; a little stream, a changing breeze can stop it. man circumvents. if fire were human it would build boats across the rivers and outmanoeuvre the wind. it would lie in wait in sheltered places, smouldering, husbanding its fuel until the grass was yellow and the forests sere. but fire is a mere creature of man's; our world before his coming knew nothing of it in any of its habitable places, never saw it except in the lightning flash or remotely on some volcanic coronet. man brought it into the commerce of life, a shining, resentful slave, to hound off the startled beasts from his sleeping-place and serve him like a dog. suppose that some enduring intelligence watched through the ages the successions of life upon this planet, marked the spreading first of this species and then that, the conflicts, the adaptations, the predominances, the dyings away, and conceive how it would have witnessed this strange dramatic emergence of a rare great ape to manhood. to such a mind the creature would have seemed at first no more than one of several varieties of clambering frugivorous mammals, a little distinguished by a disposition to help his clumsy walking with a stake and reinforce his fist with a stone. the foreground of the picture would have been filled by the rhinoceros and mammoth, the great herds of ruminants, the sabre-toothed lion and the big bears. then presently the observer would have noted a peculiar increasing handiness about the obscurer type, an unwonted intelligence growing behind its eyes. he would have perceived a disposition in this creature no beast had shown before, a disposition to make itself independent of the conditions of climate and the chances of the seasons. did shelter fail among the trees and rocks, this curious new thing-began to make itself harbours of its own; was food irregular, it multiplied food. it began to spread out from its original circumstances, fitting itself to novel needs, leaving the forests, invading the plains, following the watercourses upward and downward, presently carrying the smoke of its fires like a banner of conquest into wintry desolations and the high places of the earth. the first onset of man must have been comparatively slow, the first advances needed long ages. by small degrees it gathered pace. the stride from the scattered savagery of the earlier stone period to the first cities, historically a vast interval, would have seemed to that still watcher, measuring by the standards of astronomy and the rise and decline of races and genera and orders, a, step almost abrupt. it took, perhaps, a thousand generations or so to make it. in that interval man passed from an animal-like obedience to the climate and the weather and his own instincts, from living in small family parties of a score or so over restricted areas of indulgent country, to permanent settlements, to the life of tribal and national communities and the beginnings of cities. he had spread in that fragment of time over great areas of the earth's surface, and now he was adapting himself to the arctic circle on the one hand and to the life of the tropics on the other; he had invented the plough and the ship, and subjugated most of the domestic animals; he was beginning to think of the origin of the world and the mysteries of being. writing had added its enduring records to oral tradition, and he was already making roads. another five or six hundred generations at most bring him to ourselves. we sweep into the field of that looker-on, the momentary incarnations of this sempiternal being, man. and after us there comes-- a curtain falls. the time in which we, whose minds meet here in this writing, were born and live and die, would be to that imagined observer a mere instant's phase in the swarming liberation of our kind from ancient imperatives. it would seem to him a phase of unprecedented swift change and expansion and achievement. in this last handful of years, electricity has ceased to be a curious toy, and now carries half mankind upon their daily journeys, it lights our cities till they outshine the moon and stars, and reduces to our service a score of hitherto unsuspected metals; we clamber to the pole of our globe, scale every mountain, soar into the air, learn how to overcome the malaria that barred our white races from the tropics, and how to draw the sting from a hundred such agents of death. our old cities are being rebuilt in towering marble; great new cities rise to vie with them. never, it would seem, has man been so various and busy and persistent, and there is no intimation of any check to the expansion of his energies. and all this continually accelerated advance has come through the quickening and increase of man's intelligence and its reinforcement through speech and writing. all this has come in spite of fierce instincts that make him the most combatant and destructive of animals, and in spite of the revenge nature has attempted time after time for his rebellion against her routines, in the form of strange diseases and nearly universal pestilences. all this has come as a necessary consequence of the first obscure gleaming of deliberate thought and reason through the veil of his animal being. to begin with, he did not know what he was doing. he sought his more immediate satisfaction and safety and security. he still apprehends imperfectly the change that comes upon him. the illusion of separation that makes animal life, that is to say, passionate competing and breeding and dying, possible, the blinkers nature has put upon us that we may clash against and sharpen one another, still darken our eyes. we live not life as yet, but in millions of separated lives, still unaware except in rare moods of illumination that we are more than those fellow beasts of ours who drop off from the tree of life and perish alone. it is only in the last three or four thousand years, and through weak and tentative methods of expression, through clumsy cosmogonies and theologies, and with incalculable confusion and discoloration, that the human mind has felt its way towards its undying being in the race. man still goes to war against himself, prepares fleets and armies and fortresses, like a sleep-walker who wounds himself, like some infatuated barbarian who hacks his own limbs with a knife. but he awakens. the nightmares of empire and racial conflict and war, the grotesques of trade jealousy and tariffs, the primordial dream-stuff of lewdness and jealousy and cruelty, pale before the daylight which filters between his eyelids. in a little while we individuals will know ourselves surely for corpuscles in his being, for thoughts that come together out of strange wanderings into the coherence of a waking mind. a few score generations ago all living things were in our ancestry. a few score generations ahead, and all mankind will be in sober fact descendants from our blood. in physical as in mental fact we separate persons, with all our difference and individuality, are but fragments, set apart for a little while in order that we may return to the general life again with fresh experiences and fresh acquirements, as bees return with pollen and nourishment to the fellowship of the hive. and this man, this wonderful child of old earth, who is ourselves in the measure of our hearts and minds, does but begin his adventure now. through all time henceforth he does but begin his adventure. this planet and its subjugation is but the dawn of his existence. in a little while he will reach out to the other planets, and take that greater fire, the sun, into his service. he will bring his solvent intelligence to bear upon the riddles of his individual interaction, transmute jealousy and every passion, control his own increase, select and breed for his embodiment a continually finer and stronger and wiser race. what none of us can think or will, save in a disconnected partiality, he will think and will collectively. already some of us feel our merger with that greater life. there come moments when the thing shines out upon our thoughts. sometimes in the dark sleepless solitudes of night, one ceases to be so-and-so, one ceases to bear a proper name, forgets one's quarrels and vanities, forgives and understands one's enemies and oneself, as one forgives and understands the quarrels of little children, knowing oneself indeed to be a being greater than one's personal accidents, knowing oneself for man on his planet, flying swiftly to unmeasured destinies through the starry stillnesses of space. the salvaging of civilization the salvaging of civilization by h. g. wells cassell and company, limited london, new york, toronto and melbourne contents page i. the probable future of mankind ii. the project of a world state iii. the enlargement of patriotism to a world state iv. the bible of civilization; part one v. the bible of civilization; part two vi. the schooling of the world vii. college, newspaper and book viii. the envoy index the salvaging of civilization i the probable future of mankind[a] [a] first published in the _review of reviews_. § the present outlook of human affairs is one that admits of broad generalizations and that seems to require broad generalizations. we are in one of those phases of experience which become cardinal in history. a series of immense and tragic events have shattered the self-complacency and challenged the will and intelligence of mankind. that easy general forward movement of human affairs which for several generations had seemed to justify the persuasion of a necessary and invincible progress, progress towards greater powers, greater happiness, and a continual enlargement of life, has been checked violently and perhaps arrested altogether. the spectacular catastrophe of the great war has revealed an accumulation of destructive forces in our outwardly prosperous society, of which few of us had dreamt; and it has also revealed a profound incapacity to deal with and restrain these forces. the two years of want, confusion, and indecision that have followed the great war in europe and asia, and the uncertainties that have disturbed life even in the comparatively untouched american world, seem to many watchful minds even more ominous to our social order than the war itself. what is happening to our race? they ask. did the prosperities and confident hopes with which the twentieth century opened, mark nothing more than a culmination of fortuitous good luck? has the cycle of prosperity and progress closed? to what will this staggering and blundering, the hatreds and mischievous adventures of the present time, bring us? is the world in the opening of long centuries of confusion and disaster such as ended the western roman empire in europe or the han prosperity in china? and if so, will the debacle extend to america? or is the american (and pacific?) system still sufficiently removed and still sufficiently autonomous to maintain a progressive movement of its own if the old world collapse? some sort of answer to these questions, vast and vague though they are, we must each one of us have before we can take an intelligent interest or cast an effective vote in foreign affairs. even though a man formulate no definite answer, he must still have an implicit persuasion before he can act in these matters. if he have no clear conclusions openly arrived at, then he must act upon subconscious conclusions instinctively arrived at. far better is it that he should bring them into the open light of thought. the suppression of war is generally regarded as central to the complex of contemporary problems. but war is not a new thing in human experience, and for scores of centuries mankind has managed to get along in spite of its frequent recurrence. most states and empires have been intermittently at war throughout their periods of stability and prosperity. but their warfare was not the warfare of the present time. the thing that has brought the rush of progressive development of the past century and a half to a sudden shock of arrest is not the old and familiar warfare, but warfare strangely changed and exaggerated by novel conditions. it is this change in conditions, therefore, and not war itself, which is the reality we have to analyse in its bearing upon our social and political ideas. in the european great powers resorted to war, as they had resorted to war on many previous occasions, to decide certain open issues. this war flamed out with an unexpected rapidity until all the world was involved; and it developed a horror, a monstrosity of destructiveness, and, above all, an inconclusiveness quite unlike any preceding war. that unlikeness was the essence of the matter. whatever justifications could be found for its use in the past, it became clear to many minds that under the new conditions war was no longer a possible method of international dealing. the thing lay upon the surface. the idea of a league of nations sustaining a supreme world court to supersede the arbitrament of war, did not so much arise at any particular point as break out simultaneously wherever there were intelligent men. now what was this change in conditions that had confronted mankind with the perplexing necessity of abandoning war? for perplexing it certainly is. war has been a ruling and constructive idea in all human societies up to the present time; few will be found to deny it. political institutions have very largely developed in relation to the idea of war; defence and aggression have shaped the outer form of every state in the world, just as co-operation sustained by compulsion has shaped its inner organization. and if abruptly man determines to give up the waging of war, he may find that this determination involves the most extensive and penetrating modifications of political and social conceptions that do not at the first glance betray any direct connection with belligerent activities at all. it is to the general problem arising out of this consideration, that this and the three following essays will be addressed; the question: what else has to go if war is to go out of human life? and the problem of what has to be done if it is to be banished and barred out for ever from the future experiences of our race. for let us face the truth in this matter; the abolition of war is no casting of ancient, barbaric, and now obsolete traditions, no easy and natural progressive step; the abolition of war, if it can be brought about, will be a reversal not only of the general method of human life hitherto but of the general method of nature, the method, that is, of conflict and survival. it will be a new phase in the history of life, and not simply an incident in the history of man. these brief essays will attempt to present something like the true dimensions of the task before mankind if war is indeed to be superseded, and to show that the project of abolishing war by the occasional meeting of some council of a league of nations or the like, is, in itself, about as likely to succeed as a proposal to abolish thirst, hunger, and death by a short legislative act. let us first examine the change in the conditions of human life that has altered war from a normal aspect of the conflict for existence of human societies into a terror and a threat for the entire species. the change is essentially a change in the amount of power available for human purposes, and more particularly in the amount of material power that can be controlled by one individual. human society up to a couple of centuries ago was essentially a man-power and horse-power system. there was in addition a certain limited use of water power and wind power, but that was not on a scale to affect the general truth of the proposition. the first intimation of the great change began seven centuries ago with the appearance of explosives. in the thirteenth century the mongols made a very effective military use of the chinese discovery of gunpowder. they conquered most of the known world, and their introduction of a low-grade explosive in warfare rapidly destroyed the immunity of castles and walled cities, abolished knighthood, and utterly wrecked and devastated the irrigation system of mesopotamia, which had been a populous and civilized region since before the beginnings of history. but the restricted metallurgical knowledge of the time set definite limits to the size and range of cannon. it was only with the nineteenth century that the large scale production of cast steel and the growth of chemical knowledge made the military use of a variety of explosives practicable. the systematic extension of human power began in the eighteenth century with the utilization of steam and coal. that opened a crescendo of invention and discovery which thrust rapidly increasing quantities of material energy into men's hands. even now that crescendo may not have reached its climax. we need not rehearse here the familiar story of the abolition of distance that ensued; how the radiogram and the telegram have made every event of importance a simultaneous event for the minds of everyone in the world, how journeys which formerly took months or weeks now take days or hours, nor how printing and paper have made possible a universally informed community, and so forth. nor will we describe the effect of these things upon warfare. the point that concerns us here is this, that before this age of discovery communities had fought and struggled with each other much as naughty children might do in a crowded nursery, _within the measure of their strength_. they had hurt and impoverished each other, but they had rarely destroyed each other completely. their squabbles may have been distressing, but they were tolerable. it is even possible to regard these former wars as healthy, hardening and invigorating conflicts. but into this nursery has come science, and has put into the fists of these children razor blades with poison on them, bombs of frightful explosive, corrosive fluids and the like. the comparatively harmless conflicts of these infants are suddenly fraught with quite terrific possibilities, and it is only a question of sooner or later before the nursery becomes a heap of corpses or is blown to smithereens. a real nursery invaded by a reckless person distributing such gifts, would be promptly saved by the intervention of the nurse; but humanity has no nurse but its own poor wisdom. and whether that poor wisdom can rise to the pitch of effectual intervention is the most fundamental problem in mundane affairs at the present time. the deadly gifts continue. there was a steady increase in the frightfulness and destructiveness of belligerence from up to the beginning of , when shortage of material and energy checked the process; and since the armistice there has been an industrious development of military science. the next well-organized war, we are assured, will be far more swift and extensive in its destruction--more particularly of the civilian population. armies will advance no longer along roads but extended in line, with heavy tank transport which will plough up the entire surface of the land they traverse; aerial bombing, with bombs each capable of destroying a small town, will be practicable a thousand miles beyond the military front, and the seas will be swept clear of shipping by mines and submarine activities. there will be no distinction between combatants and non-combatants, because every able-bodied citizen, male or female, is a potential producer of food and munitions; and probably the safest, and certainly the best supplied shelters in the universal cataclysm, will be the carefully buried, sandbagged, and camouflaged general-headquarters of the contending armies. there military gentlemen of limited outlook and high professional training will, in comparative security, achieve destruction beyond their understanding. the hard logic of war which gives victory always to the most energetic and destructive combatant, will turn warfare more and more from mere operations for loot or conquest or predominance into operations for the conclusive destruction of the antagonists. a relentless thrust towards strenuousness is a characteristic of belligerent conditions. war is war, and vehemence is in its nature. you must hit always as hard as you can. offensive and counter-offensive methods continue to prevail over merely defensive ones. the victor in the next great war will be bombed from the air, starved, and depleted almost as much as the loser. his victory will be no easy one; it will be a triumph of the exhausted and dying over the dead. it has been argued that such highly organized and long prepared warfare as the world saw in - is not likely to recur again for a considerable time because of the shock inflicted by it upon social stability. there may be spasmodic wars with improvised and scanty supplies, these superficially more hopeful critics admit, but there remain no communities now so stable and so sure of their people as to prepare and wage again a fully elaborated scientific war. but this view implies no happier outlook for mankind. it amounts to this, that so long as men remain disordered and impoverished they will not rise again to the full height of scientific war. but manifestly this will only be for so long as they remain disordered and impoverished. when they recover they will recover to repeat again their former disaster with whatever modern improvements and intensifications the ingenuity of the intervening time may have devised. this new phase of disorder, conflict, and social unravelling upon which we have entered, this phase of decline due to the enhanced and increasing powers for waste and destruction in mankind, is bound, therefore, to continue so long as the divisions based upon ancient ideas of conflict remain; and if for a time the decadence seems to be arrested, it will only be to accumulate under the influence of those ideas a fresh war-storm sufficiently destructive and disorganizing to restore the decadent process. unless mankind can readjust its political and social ideas to this essential new fact of its enormously enlarged powers, unless it can eliminate or control its pugnacity, no other prospect seems open to us but decadence, at least to such a level of barbarism as to lose and forget again all the scientific and industrial achievements of our present age. then, with its powers shrunken to their former puny scale, our race may recover some sort of balance between the injuries and advantages of conflict. or, since our decadent species may have less vitality and vigour than it had in its primitive phases, it may dwindle and fade out altogether before some emboldened animal antagonist, or through some world-wide disease brought to it perhaps by rats and dogs and insects and what not, who may be destined to be heirs to the rusting and mouldering ruins of the cities and ports and ways and bridges of to-day. only one alternative to some such retrogression seems possible, and that is the conscious, systematic reconstruction of human society to avert it. the world has been brought into one community, and the human mind and will may be able to recognize and adapt itself to this fact--in time. men, as a race, may succeed in turning their backs upon the method of warfare and the methods of conflict and in embarking upon an immense world-wide effort of co-operation and mutual toleration and salvage. they may have the vigour to abandon their age-long attempt to live in separate sovereign states, and to grapple with and master the now quite destructive force that traditional hostility has become, and bring their affairs together under one law and one peace. these new vast powers over nature which have been given to them, and which will certainly be their destruction if their purposes remain divergent and conflicting, will then be the means by which they may set up a new order of as yet scarcely imaginable interest and happiness and achievement. but is our race capable of such an effort, such a complete reversal of its instinctive and traditional impulses? can we find premonitions of any such bold and revolutionary adaptations as these, in the mental and political life of to-day? how far are we, reader and writer, for example, working for these large new securities? do we even keep them steadfastly in our minds? how is it with the people around us? are not we and they and all the race still just as much adrift in the current of circumstances as we were before ? without a great effort on our part (or on someone's part) that current which swirled our kind into a sunshine of hope and opportunity for a while will carry our race on surely and inexorably to fresh wars, to shortages, hunger, miseries, and social debacles, at last either to complete extinction or to a degradation beyond our present understanding. § the urgent need for a great creative effort has become apparent in the affairs of mankind. it is manifest that unless some unity of purpose can be achieved in the world, unless the ever more violent and disastrous incidence of war can be averted, unless some common control can be imposed on the headlong waste of man's limited inheritance of coal, oil, and moral energy that is now going on, the history of humanity must presently culminate in some sort of disaster, repeating and exaggerating the disaster of the great war, producing chaotic social conditions, and going on thereafter in a degenerative process towards extinction. so much all reasonable men seem now prepared to admit. but upon the question of how and in what form a unity of purpose and a common control of human affairs is to be established, there is still a great and lamentable diversity of opinion and, as a consequence, an enfeeblement and wasteful dispersal of will. at present nothing has been produced but the manifestly quite inadequate league of nations at geneva, and a number of generally very vague movements for a world law, world disarmament, and the like, among the intellectuals of the various civilized countries of the world. the common failings of all these initiatives are a sort of genteel timidity and a defective sense of the scale of the enterprise before us. a neglect of the importance of scale is one of the gravest faults of contemporary education. because a world-wide political organ is needed, it does not follow that a so-called league of nations without representative sanctions, military forces, or authority of any kind, a league from which large sections of the world are excluded altogether, is any contribution to that need. people have a way of saying it is better than nothing. but it may be worse than nothing. it may create a feeling of disillusionment about world-unifying efforts. if a mad elephant were loose in one's garden, it would be an excellent thing to give one's gardener a gun. but it would have to be an adequate gun, an elephant gun. to give him a small rook-rifle and tell him it was better than nothing, and encourage him to face the elephant with that in his hand, would be the directest way of getting rid not of the elephant but of the gardener. it is, if people will but think steadfastly, inconceivable that there should be any world control without a merger of sovereignty, but the framers of these early tentatives towards world unity have lacked the courage of frankness in this respect. they have been afraid of outbreaks of bawling patriotism, and they have tried to believe, and to make others believe, that they contemplate nothing more than a league of nations, when in reality they contemplate a subordination of nations and administrations to one common law and rule. the elementary necessity of giving the council of any world-peace organization which is to be more than a sentimental international gesture, not only a complete knowledge but an effective control of all the military resources and organizations in the world, appalled them. they did not even ask for such a control. the frowning solidity of existing things was too much for them. they wanted to change them, but when it came to laying hands on them--no! they decided to leave them alone. they wanted a new world--and it is to contain just the same things as the old. but are these intellectuals right in their estimate of the common man? is he such a shallow and vehement fool as they seem to believe? is he so patriotic as they make out? if mankind is to be saved from destruction there must be a world control; a world control means a world government, it is only another name for it, and manifestly that government must have a navy that will supersede the british navy, artillery that will supersede the french artillery, air forces superseding all existing air forces, and so forth. for many flags there must be one sovereign flag; _orbis terrarum_. unless a world control amounts to that it will be ridiculous, just as a judge supported by two or three unarmed policemen, a newspaper reporter and the court chaplain, proposing to enforce his decisions in a court packed with the heavily armed friends of the plaintiff and defendant would be ridiculous. but the common man is supposed to be so blindly and incurably set upon his british navy or his french army, or whatever his pet national instrument of violence may be, that it is held to be impossible to supersede these beloved and adored forces. if that is so, then a world law is impossible, and the wisest course before us is to snatch such small happiness as we may hope to do and leave the mad elephant to work its will in the garden. but is it so? if the mass of common men are incurably patriotic and belligerent why is there a note of querulous exhortation in nearly all patriotic literature? why, for instance, is mr. rudyard kipling's "history of england" so full of goading and scolding? and very significant indeed to any student of the human outlook was the world-response to president wilson's advocacy of the league of nations idea, in its first phase in , before the weakening off and disillusionment of the versailles conference. just for a little while it seemed that president wilson stood for a new order of things in the world, that he had the wisdom and will and power to break the net of hatreds and nationalisms and diplomacies in which the old world was entangled. and while he seemed to be capable of that, while he promised most in the way of change and national control, then it was that he found his utmost support in every country in the world. in the latter half of there was scarcely a country anywhere in which one could not have found men ready to die for president wilson. a great hopefulness was manifest in the world. it faded, it faded very rapidly again. but that brief wave of enthusiasm, which set minds astir with the same great idea of one peace of justice throughout the earth in china and bokhara and the indian bazaars, in iceland and basutoland and ireland and morocco, was indeed a fact perhaps more memorable in history even than the great war itself. it displayed a possibility of the simultaneous operation of the same general ideas throughout the world quite beyond any previous experience. it demonstrated that the generality of men are as capable of being cosmopolitan and pacifist as they are of being patriotic and belligerent. both moods are extensions and exaltations beyond the everyday life, which itself is neither one thing nor the other. and both are transitory moods, responses to external suggestion. it is to that first wave of popular feeling for a world law transcending and moving counter to all contemporary diplomacies, and not to the timid legalism of the framers of the first schemes for a league of nations that we must look, if we are to hope at all for the establishment of a new order in human affairs. it is upon the spirit of that transitory response to the transitory greatness of president wilson that we have to seize; we have to lay hold of that, to recall it and confirm it and enlarge and strengthen it, to make it a flux of patriotisms and a creator of new loyalties and devotions, and out of the dead dust of our present institutions to build up for it and animate with it the body of a true world state. we have already stated the clear necessity, if mankind is not to perish by the hypertrophy of warfare, for the establishment of an armed and strong world law. here in this spirit that has already gleamed upon the world is the possible force to create and sustain such a world law. what is it that intervenes between the universal human need and its satisfaction? why, since there are overwhelming reasons for it and a widespread disposition for it, is there no world-wide creative effort afoot now in which men and women by the million are participating--and participating with all their hearts? why is it that, except for the weak gestures of the geneva league of nations and a little writing of books and articles, a little pamphleteering, some scattered committee activities on the part of people chiefly of the busybody class, an occasional speech and a diminishing volume of talk and allusion, no attempts are apparent to stay the plain drift of human society towards new conflicts and the sluices of final disaster? the answer to that why, probes deep into the question of human motives. it must be because we are all creatures of our immediate surroundings, because our minds and energies are chiefly occupied by the affairs of every day, because we are all chiefly living our own lives, and very few of us, except by a kind of unconscious contribution, the life of mankind. in moments of mental activity, in the study or in contemplation, we may rise to a sense of the dangers and needs of human destiny, but it is only a few minds and characters of prophetic quality that, without elaborate artificial assistance, seem able to keep hold upon and guide their lives by such relatively gigantic considerations. the generality of men and women, so far as their natural disposition goes, are scarcely more capable of apprehending and consciously serving the human future than a van full of well-fed rabbits would be of grasping the fact that their van was running smoothly and steadily down an inclined plane into the sea. it is only as the result of considerable educational effort and against considerable resistance that our minds are brought to a broader view. in every age for many thousands of years men of exceptional vision have spent their lives in passionate efforts to bring us ordinary men into some relation of response and service to the greater issues of life. it is these pioneers of vision who have given the world its religions and its philosophical cults, its loyalties and observances; and who have imposed ideas of greatness and duty on their fellows. in every age the ordinary man has submitted reluctantly to such teachings, has made his peculiar compromises with them, has reduced them as far as possible to formula and formality, and got back as rapidly as possible to the eating and drinking and desire, the personal spites and rivalries and glories which constitute his reality. the mass of men to-day do not seem to care, nor want to care, whither the political and social institutions to which they are accustomed are taking them. such considerations overstrain us. and it is only by the extremest effort of those who are capable of a sense of racial danger and duty that the collective energies of men can ever be gathered together and organized and orientated towards the common good. to nearly all men and women, unless they are in the vein for it, such discussion as this in these essays does not appeal as being right or wrong; it does not really interest them, rather it worries them; and for the most part they would be glad to disregard it as completely as a lecture on wheels and gravitation and the physiological consequences of prolonged submergence would be disregarded by those rabbits in the van. but man is a creature very different in his nature from a rabbit, and if he is less instinctively social, he is much more consciously social. chief among his differences must be the presence of those tendencies which we call conscience, that haunting craving to be really right and to do the really right thing which is the basis of the moral and perhaps also of most of the religious life. in this lies our hope for mankind. man hates to be put right, and yet also he wants to be right. he is a creature divided against himself, seeking both to preserve and to overcome his egotism. it is upon the presence of the latter strand in man's complex make-up that we must rest our hopes of a developing will for the world state which will gradually gather together and direct into a massive constructive effort the now quite dispersed chaotic and traditional activities of men. as we have examined this problem it has become clear that the task of bringing about that consolidated world state which is necessary to prevent the decline and decay of mankind is not primarily one for the diplomatists and lawyers and politicians at all. it is an educational one. it is a moral based on an intellectual reconstruction. the task immediately before mankind is to find release from the contentious loyalties and hostilities of the past which make collective world-wide action impossible at the present time, in a world-wide common vision of the history and destinies of the race. on that as a basis, and on that alone, can a world control be organized and maintained. the effort demanded from mankind, therefore, is primarily and essentially a bold reconstruction of the outlook upon life of hundreds of millions of minds. the idea of a world commonweal has to be established as the criterion of political institutions, and also as the criterion of general conduct in hundreds of millions of brains. it has to dominate education everywhere in the world. when that end is achieved, then the world state will be achieved, and it can be achieved in no other way. and unless that world state can be achieved, it would seem that the outlook before mankind is a continuance of disorder and of more and more destructive and wasteful conflicts, a steady process of violence, decadence, and misery towards extinction, or towards modifications of our type altogether beyond our present understanding and sympathy. § in framing an estimate of the human future two leading facts are dominant. the first is the plain necessity for a political reorganization of the world as a unity, to save our race from the social disintegration and complete physical destruction which war, under modern conditions, must ultimately entail, and the second is the manifest absence of any sufficient will in the general mass of mankind at the present time to make such a reorganization possible. there appear to be the factors of such a will in men, but they are for the most part unawakened, or they are unorganized and ineffective. and there is a very curious incapacity to grasp the reality of the human situation, a real resistance to seeing things as they are--for man is an effort-shirking animal--which greatly impedes the development of such a will. failing the operation of such a sufficient will, human affairs are being directed by use and wont, by tradition and accidental deflections. mankind, after the tragic concussion of the great war, seems now to be drifting again towards new and probably more disastrous concussions. the catastrophe of the great war did more or less completely awaken a certain limited number of intelligent people to the need of some general control replacing this ancient traditional driftage of events. but they shrank from the great implications of such a world control. the only practicable way to achieve a general control in the face of existing governments, institutions and prejudices, interested obstruction and the common disregard, is by extending this awakening to great masses of people. this means an unprecedented educational effort, an appeal to men's intelligence and men's imagination such as the world has never seen before. is it possible to rationalize the at present chaotic will of mankind? that possibility, if it is a possibility, is the most important thing in contemporary human affairs. we are asking here for an immense thing, for a change of ideas, a vast enlargement of ideas, and for something very like a change of heart in hundreds of millions of human beings. but then we are dealing with the fate of the entire species. we are discussing the prevention of wars, disorders, shortages, famines and miseries for centuries ahead. the initial capital we have to go upon is as yet no more than the aroused understanding and conscience of a few thousands, at most of a few score thousands of people. can so little a leaven leaven so great a lump? is a response to this appeal latent in the masses of mankind? is there anything in history to justify hope for so gigantic a mental turnover in our race? a consideration of the spread of christianity in the first four centuries a.d. or of the spread of islam in the seventh century will, we believe, support a reasonable hope that such a change in the minds of men, whatever else it may be, is a practicable change, that it can be done and that it may even probably be done. consider our two instances. the propagandas of those two great religions changed and changed for ever the political and social outlook over vast areas of the world's surface. yet while the stir for world unity begins now simultaneously in many countries and many groups of people, those two propagandas each radiated from a single centre and were in the first instance the teachings of single individuals; and while to-day we can deal with great reading populations and can reach them by press and printed matter, by a universal distribution of books, by great lecturing organizations and the like, those earlier great changes in human thought were achieved mainly by word of mouth and by crabbed manuscripts, painfully copied and passed slowly from hand to hand. so far it is only the trader who has made any effectual use of the vast facilities the modern world has produced for conveying a statement simultaneously to great numbers of people at a distance. the world of thought still hesitates to use the means of power that now exist for it. history and political philosophy in the modern world are like bashful dons at a dinner party; they crumble their bread and talk in undertones and clever allusions to their nearest neighbour, abashed at the thought of addressing the whole table. but in a world where mars can reach out in a single night and smite a city a thousand miles away, we cannot suffer wisdom to hesitate in an inaudible gentility. the knowledge and vision that is good enough for the best of us is good enough for all. this gospel of human brotherhood and a common law and rule for all mankind, the attempt to meet this urgent necessity of a common control of human affairs, which indeed is no new religion but only an attempt to realize practically the common teaching of all the established religions of the world, has to speak with dominating voice everywhere between the poles and round about the world. and it must become part of the universal education. it must speak through the school and university. it is too often forgotten, in america, perhaps, even more than in europe, that education exists for the community, and for the individual only so far as it makes him a sufficient member of the community. the chief end of education is to subjugate and sublimate for the collective purposes of our kind the savage egotism we inherit. every school, every college, teaches directly and still more by implication, relationship to a community and devotion to a community. in too many cases that community we let our schools and colleges teach to our children is an extremely narrow one; it is the community of a sect, of a class, or of an intolerant, greedy and unrighteous nationalism. schools have increased greatly in numbers throughout the world during the last century, but there has been little or no growth in the conception of education in schools. education has been extended, but it has not been developed. if man is to be saved from self-destruction by the organization of a world community, there must be a broadening of the reference of the teaching in the schools of all the world to that community of the world. world-wide educational development and reform are the necessary preparations for and the necessary accompaniments of a political reconstruction of the world. the two are the right and left hands of the same thing. neither can effect much without the other. now it is manifest that this reorganization of the world's affairs and of the world's education which we hold to be imperatively dictated by the change in warfare, communications and other conditions of human life brought about by scientific discovery during the last hundred years, carries with it a practical repudiation of the claims of every existing sovereign government in the world to be final and sovereign, to be anything more than provisional and replaceable. there is the difficulty that has checked hundreds of men after their first step towards this work for a universal peace. it involves, it cannot but involve, a revision of their habitual allegiances. at best existing governments are to be regarded as local trustees and caretakers for the coming human commonweal. if they are not that, then they are necessarily obstructive and antagonistic. but few rulers, few governments, few officials, will have the greatness of mind to recognize and admit this plain reality. by a kind of necessity they force upon their subjects and publics a conflict of loyalties. the feeble driftage of human affairs from one base or greedy arrangement or cowardly evasion to another, since the armistice of , is very largely due to the obstinate determination of those who are in positions of authority and responsibility to ignore the plain teachings of the great war and its sequelæ. they are resisting adjustments; their minds are fighting against the sacrifices of pride and authority that a full recognition of their subordination to the world commonweal will involve. they are prepared, it would seem, to fight against the work of human salvation basely and persistently, whenever their accustomed importance is threatened. even in the schools and in the world of thought the established thing will make its unrighteous fight for life. the dull and the dishonest in high places will suppress these greater ideas when they can, and ignore when they dare not suppress. it seems too much to hope for that there should be any willingness on the part of any established authority to admit its obsolescence and prepare the way for its merger in a world authority. it is not creative minds that produce revolutions, but the obstinate conservatism of established authority. it is the blank refusal to accept the idea of an orderly evolution towards new things that gives a revolutionary quality to every constructive proposal. the huge task of political and educational reconstruction which is needed to arrest the present drift of human affairs towards catastrophe, must be achieved, if it is to be achieved at all, mainly by voluntary and unofficial effort; and for the most part in the teeth of official opposition. there are one or two existing states to which men have looked for some open recognition of their duty to mankind as a whole, and of the necessarily provisional nature of their contemporary constitutions. the united states of america constitute a political system, profoundly different in its origin and in its spirit, from any old-world state; it was felt that here at least might be an evolutionary state; and in the palmy days of president wilson it did seem for a brief interval as if the new world was indeed coming to the rescue of the old, as if america was to play the rôle of a propagandist continent, bringing its ideas of equality and freedom, and extending the spirit of its union to all the nations of the earth. from that expectation, the world opinion is now in a state of excessive and unreasonable recoil. president wilson fell away from his first intimations of that world-wide federal embrace; his mind and will were submerged by the clamour of contending patriotisms and the subtle expedients of old-world diplomacy in paris; but american accessibility to the idea of a federalized world neither began with him nor will it end with his failure. america is still a hopeful laboratory of world-unifying thought. a long string of arbitration treaties stands to the credit of america, and a series of developing pan-american projects, pointing clearly to at least a continental synthesis within a measurable time. there has been, and there still is, a better understanding of, and a greater receptivity to, ideas of international synthesis in america than in any european state. and the british empire, which according to many of its liberal apologists is already a league of nations linked together in a mutually advantageous peace, to that too men have looked for some movement of adaptation to this greater synthesis which is the world's pre-eminent need. but so far the british empire has failed to respond to such expectations. the war has left it strained and bruised and with its affairs very much in the grip of the military class, the most illiterate and dangerous class in the community. they have done, perhaps, irreparable mischief to the peace of the empire in ireland, india and egypt, and they have made the claim of the british system to be an exemplary unification of dissimilar peoples seem now to many people incurably absurd. it is a great misfortune for mankind that the british empire, which played so sturdy and central a part in the great war, could at its close achieve no splendid and helpful gesture towards a generous reconstruction. since the armistice there has been an extraordinary opportunity for the british monarchy to have displayed a sense of the new occasions before the world, and to have led the way towards the efforts and renunciations of an international renascence. it could have taken up a lead that the president of the united states had initiated and relinquished; it could have used its peculiar position to make an unexampled appeal to the whole world. it could have created a new epoch in history. the prince of wales has been touring the world-wide dominions of which, some day, he is to be the crowned head. he has received addresses, visited sights, been entertained, shaken hands with scores of thousands of people and submitted himself to the eager, yet unpenetrating gaze of vast multitudes. his smallest acts have been observed with premeditated admiration, his lightest words recorded. he is not now a boy; he saw something of the great war, even if his exalted position denied him any large share of its severer hardships and dangers; he cannot be blind to the general posture of the world's affairs. here, surely, was a chance of saying something that would be heard from end to end of the earth, something kingly and great-minded. here was the occasion for a fine restatement of the obligations and duties of empire. but from first to last the prince has said nothing to quicken the imaginations of the multitude of his future subjects to the gigantic possibilities of these times, nothing to reassure the foreign observer that the british empire embodies anything more than the colossal national egotism and impenetrable self-satisfaction of the british peoples. "here we are," said the old order in those demonstrations, "and here we mean to stick. just as we have been, so we remain. british!--we are bourbons." these smiling tours of the prince of wales in these years of shortage, stress, and insecurity, constitute a propaganda of inanity unparalleled in the world's history. * * * * * nor do we find in the nominal rulers and official representatives of other countries any clear admission of the necessity for a great and fundamental change in the scope and spirit of government. these official and ruling people, more than any other people, are under the sway of that life of use and wont which dominates us all. they are often trained to their positions, or they have won their way to their positions of authority through a career of political activities which amounts to a training. and that training is not a training in enterprise and change; it is a training in sticking tight and getting back to precedent. we can expect nothing from them. we shall be lucky if the resistance of the administrative side of existing states to the conception of a world commonweal is merely passive. there is little or no prospect of any existing governing system, unless it be such a federal system as switzerland or the united states, passing directly and without extensive internal changes into combination with other sovereign powers as part of a sovereign world system. at some point the independent states will as systems resist, and unless an overwhelming world conscience for the world state has been brought into being and surrounds them with an understanding watchfulness, and invades the consciences of their supporters and so weakens their resisting power, they will resist violently and disastrously. but it will be an incoherent resistance because the very nature of the sovereign states of to-day is incoherence. there can be no world-wide combination of sovereign states to resist the world state, because that would be to create the world state in the attempt to defeat it. § in the three preceding essays an attempt has been made to state the pass at which mankind has arrived, the dangers and mischiefs that threaten our race, and the need there is and the opportunities there are for a strenuous attempt to end the age-long bickerings of nations and empires and establish one community of law and effort throughout the whole world. stress has been laid chiefly upon the monstrous evils and disasters a continuation of our present divisions, our nationalisms and imperialisms and the like, will certainly entail. these considerations of evil however are only the negative argument for this creative effort; they have been thrust forward because war, disorder, insufficiency, and the ill health, the partings, deprivations, boredom and unhappiness that arise out of these things are well within our experience and entirely credible; the positive argument for a world order demands at once more faith and imagination. given a world law and world security, a release from the net of bickering frontiers, world-wide freedom of movement, and world-wide fellowship, a thousand good things that are now beyond hope or dreaming would come into the ordinary life. the whole world would be our habitation, and the energies of men, released from their preoccupation with contention, would go more and more abundantly into the accumulation and application of scientific knowledge, that is to say into the increase of mental and bodily health, of human power, of interest and happiness. even to-day the most delightful possibilities stand waiting, inaccessible to nearly all of us because of the general insecurity, distrust and anger. flying, in a world safely united in peace, could take us now to the ends of the earth smoothly, securely through the sweet upper air, in five or six days. in two or three years there could again be abundance of food and pleasant clothing for everyone throughout the whole world. men could be destroying their slums and pestilential habitations and rebuilding spacious and beautiful cities. given only peace and confidence and union we could double our yearly production of all that makes life desirable and still double our leisure for thought and growth. we could live in a universal palace and make the whole globe our garden and playground. but these are not considerations that sway people to effort. fear and hate, not hope and desire, have been hitherto the effective spurs for men. the most popular religions are those which hold out the widest hopes of damnation. our lives are lives of use and wont, we distrust the promise of delightful experience and achievements beyond our accustomed ways; it offends our self-satisfaction even to regard them as possibilities; we do not like the implied cheapening of familiar things. we are all ready to sneer at "utopias," as elderly invalids sneer at the buoyant hopes of youth and do their best to think them sure of frustration. the aged and disillusioned profess a keen appreciation of the bath chair and the homely spoonful of medicine, and pity a crudity that misses the fine quality of those ripe established things. most people are quite ready to dismiss the promise of a full free life for all mankind with a sneer. that would rob the world of romance, they say, the romance of passport offices, custom houses, shortages of food, endless petty deprivations, slums, pestilence, under-educated stunted children, youths dying in heaps in muddy trenches, an almost universal lack of vitality, and all the picturesque eventfulness of contemporary conditions. so that we have not dwelt here upon the life-giving aspect of a possible world state, but only on its life-saving aspects. we have not argued that our present life of use and wont could be replaced by an infinitely better way of living. we have rather pointed out that if things continue to drift as they are doing, the present life of use and wont will become intolerably insecure. it is the thought of the large bombing aeroplane and not the hope of swift travelling across the sky that will move the generality of men, if they are to be moved at all, towards a world peace. but whether the lever that moves them is desire or fear the majority of men, unless the species is to perish, must be brought within a measurable time to an understanding of, and a will for, a single world government. and since at first existing institutions, established traditions, educational organizations and the like, will all be passively if not actively resistant to the spread of this saving idea, and much more so to any attempts to realize this saving idea, there remains nothing for us to look to, at the present time, for the first organization of this immense effort of mental reversal, but the zeal and devotion and self-sacrifice of convinced individuals. the world state must begin; it can only begin, as a propagandist cult, or as a group of propagandist cults, to which men and women must give themselves and their energies, regardless of the consequences to themselves. laying the foundations of a world state upon a site already occupied by a muddle of buildings is an undertaking which will almost necessarily bring its votaries into conflict with established authority and current sentiment; they will have to face the possibility of lives of conflict, misunderstanding, much thankless exertion; they must count on little honour and considerable active dislike; and they will have to find what consolation they can in the interest of the conflict itself and in the thought of a world, made at last by such efforts as theirs, peaceful and secure and vigorous, a world they can never hope to see. so stated it seems a bad bargain that the worker for the world state is invited to make, yet the world has never lacked people prepared to make such a bargain and they will not fail it now. there are worse things than conflict without manifest victory and effort without apparent reward. to the finer kind of mind it is infinitely more tragic and distressing to find that existence bears a foolish aimless face. many people, tormented by the discontent of conscience, and wanting, more than they can ever want any satisfaction, some satisfying rule of life, some criterion of conduct, will find in this cult of the world state just that sustaining reality they need. and their number will grow. because it is a practical and reasonable shape for a life, arising naturally out of a proper understanding of history and physical science, and embodying in a unifying plan the teaching of all the great religions of the world. it comes to us not to destroy but to fulfil. the activities of a cult which set itself to bring about the world state would at first be propagandist, they would be intellectual and educational, and only as a sufficient mass of opinion and will had accumulated would they become to a predominant extent politically constructive. such a cult must direct itself particularly to the teaching of the young. so far the propaganda for a world law, the league of nations propaganda, since it has sought immediate political results, has been addressed almost entirely to adults; and as a consequence it has had to adapt itself as far as possible to their preconceptions about the history and outlook of their own nationality, and to the general absence as yet in the world of any vision of the welfare of mankind as one whole. it is because of this acceptance of current adult ideas about patriotism and nationality that the movement has adopted the unsatisfactory phrase, a league of nations, when what is contemplated is much more than a league and a very considerable subordination of national sovereignty. and a large share in the current ineffectiveness of the league of nations is evidently due to the fact that men interpret the phrase and the proposition of the league of nations differently in accordance with the different fundamental historical ideas they possess, ideas that propaganda has hitherto left unassailed. the worker for the world state will look further and plough deeper. it is these fundamental ideas which are the vitally important objective of a world-unifying movement, and they can only be brought into that world-wide uniformity which is essential to the enduring peace of mankind, by teaching children throughout all the earth the common history of their kind, and so directing their attention to the common future of their descendants. the driving force that makes either war or peace is engendered where the young are taught. the teacher, whether mother, priest, or schoolmaster, is the real maker of history; rulers, statesmen and soldiers do but work out the possibilities of co-operation or conflict the teacher creates. this is no rhetorical flourish; it is a sober fact. the politicians and masses of our time dance on the wires of their early education. teaching then is the initial and decisive factor in the future of mankind, and the first duty of everyone who has the ability and opportunity, is to teach, or to subserve the teaching of, the true history of mankind and of the possibilities of this vision of a single world state that history opens out to us. men and women can help the spread of the saving doctrine in a thousand various ways; for it is not only in homes and schools that minds are shaped. they can print and publish books, endow schools and teaching, organize the distribution of literature, insist upon the proper instruction of children in world wide charity and fellowship, fight against every sort of suppression or restrictive control of right education, bring pressure through political and social channels upon every teaching organization to teach history aright, sustain missions and a new sort of missionary, the missionaries to all mankind of knowledge and the idea of one world civilization and one world community; they can promote and help the progress of historical and ethnological and political science, they can set their faces against every campaign of hate, racial suspicion, and patriotic falsehood, they can refuse, they are bound to refuse, obedience to any public authority which oppresses and embitters class against class, race against race, and people against people. a belligerent government as such, they can refuse to obey; and they can refuse to help or suffer any military preparations that are not directed wholly and plainly to preserving the peace of the world. this is the plain duty of every honest man to-day, to judge his magistrate before he obeys him, and to render unto cæsar nothing that he owes to god and mankind. and those who are awakened to the full significance of the vast creative effort now before mankind will set themselves particularly to revise the common moral judgment upon many acts and methods of living that obstruct the way of the world state. blatant, aggressive patriotism and the incitements against foreign peoples that usually go with it, are just as criminal and far more injurious to our race than, for example, indecent provocations and open incitements to sexual vice; they produce a much beastlier and crueller state of mind, and they deserve at least an equal condemnation. yet you will find even priests and clergymen to-day rousing the war passions of their flocks and preaching conflict from the very steps of the altar. so far the movement towards a world state has lacked any driving power of passion. we have been passing through a phase of intellectual revision. the idea of a world unity and brotherhood has come back again into the world almost apologetically, deferentially, asking for the kind words of successful politicians and for a gesture of patronage from kings. yet this demand for one world-empire of righteousness was inherent in the teachings of buddha, it flashed for a little while behind the sword of islam, it is the embodiment in earthly affairs of the spirit of christ. it is a call to men for service as of right, it is not an appeal to them that they may refuse, not a voice that they may disregard. it is too great a thing to hover for long thus deferentially on the outskirts of the active world it has come to save. to-day the world state says "please listen; make way for me." to-morrow it will say: "make way for me, little people." the day is not remote when disregardful "patriotic" men hectoring in the crowd will be twisted round perforce to the light they refuse to see. first comes the idea and then slowly the full comprehension of the idea, comes realization, and with that realization will come a kindling anger at the vulgarity, the meanness, the greed and baseness and utter stupidity that refuses to attend to this clear voice, this definite demand of our racial necessity. to-day we teach, but as understanding grows we must begin to act. we must put ourselves and our rulers and our fellow men on trial. we must ask: "what have you done, what are you doing to help or hinder the peace and order of mankind?" a time will come when a politician who has wilfully made war and promoted international dissension will be as sure of the dock and much surer of the noose than a private homicide. it is not reasonable that those who gamble with men's lives should not stake their own. the service of the world state calls for much more than passive resistance to belligerent authorities, for much more than exemplary martyrdoms. it calls for the greater effort of active interference with mischievous men. "i will believe in the league of nations," one man has written, "when men will fight for it." for this league of nations at geneva, this little corner of balfourian jobs and gentility, no man would dream of fighting, but for the great state of mankind, men will presently be very ready to fight and, as the thing may go, either to kill or die. things must come in their order; first the idea, then the kindling of imaginations, then the world wide battle. we who live in the bleak days after a great crisis, need be no more discouraged by the apparent indifference of the present time than are fields that are ploughed and sown by the wet days of february and the cold indifference of the winds of early march. the ploughing has been done, and the seed is in the ground, and the world state stirs in a multitude of germinating minds. ii the project of a world state[b] [b] written originally as a lecture to be delivered in america. in this paper, i want to tell you of the idea that now shapes and dominates my public life--the idea of a world politically united--of a world securely and permanently at peace. and i want to say what i have to say, so far as regards the main argument of it, as accurately and plainly as possible, without any eloquence or flourishes. when i first planned this paper, i chose as the title _the utopia of a world state_. well, there is something a little too flimsy and unpracticable about that word utopia. to most people utopia conveys the idea of a high-toned political and ethical dream--agreeable and edifying, no doubt, but of no practical value whatever. what i have to talk about this evening is not a bit dreamlike, it is about real dangers and urgent necessities. it is a project and not a utopia. it may be a vast and impossible project. it may be a hopeless project. but if it fails our civilization fails. and so i have called this paper not the utopia but _the project of a world state._ there are some things that it is almost impossible to tell without seeming to scream and exaggerate, and yet these things may be in reality the soberest matter of fact. i want to say that this civilization in which we are living is tumbling down, and i think tumbling down very fast; that i think rapid enormous efforts will be needed to save it; and that i see no such efforts being made at the present time. i do not know if these words convey any concrete ideas to the reader's mind. there are statements that can open such unfamiliar vistas as to seem devoid of any real practical meaning at all, and this i think may be one of them. in the past year i have been going about europe. i have had glimpses of a new phase of this civilization of ours--a new phase that would have sounded like a fantastic dream if one had told about it ten years ago. i have seen a great city that had over two million inhabitants, dying, and dying with incredible rapidity. in i was in the city of st. petersburg and it seemed as safe and orderly a great city as yours. i went thither in comfortable and punctual trains. i stayed in an hotel as well equipped and managed as any american hotel. i went to dine with and visit households of cultivated people. i walked along streets of brilliantly lit and well-furnished shops. it was, in fact, much the same sort of life that you are living here to-day--a part of our (then) world-wide modern civilization. i revisited these things last summer. i found such a spectacle of decay that it seems almost impossible to describe it to those who have never seen the like. streets with great holes where the drains had fallen in. stretches of roadway from which the wood paving had been torn for firewood. lampposts that had been knocked over lying as they were left, without an attempt to set them up again. shops and markets deserted and decayed and ruinous. not closed shops but abandoned shops, as abandoned-looking as an old boot or an old can by the wayside. the railways falling out of use. a population of half a million where formerly there had been two. a strangely homeless city, a city of discomforts and anxieties, a city of want and ill-health and death. such was petersburg in . i know there are people who have a quick and glib explanation of this vast and awe-inspiring spectacle of a great empire in collapse. they say it is bolshevism has caused all this destruction. but i hope to show here, among other more important things, that bolshevism is merely a part of this immense collapse--that the overthrow of a huge civilized organization needs some more comprehensive explanation than that a little man named lenin was able to get from geneva to russia at a particular crisis in russian history. and particularly is it to be noted that this immense destruction of civilized life has not been confined to russia or to regions under bolshevik rule. austria and hungary present spectacles hardly less desolating than russia. there is a conspicuous ebb in civilization in eastern germany. and even when you come to france and italy and ireland there are cities, townships, whole wide regions, where you can say: this has gone back since and it is still going back in material prosperity, in health, in social order. even in england and scotland, in holland and denmark and sweden, it is hard to determine whether things are stagnant or moving forward or moving back--they are certainly not going ahead as they were before - . the feeling in england is rather like the feeling of a man who is not quite sure whether he has caught a slight chill or whether he is in the opening stage of a serious illness. now what i want to do here is to theorize about this shadow, this chill and arrest, that seems to have come upon the flourishing and expanding civilization in which all of us were born and reared. i want to put a particular view of what is happening before you, and what it is that we are up against. i want to put before you for your judgment the view that this overstrain and breaking down and stoppage of the great uprush of civilization that has gone on for the past three centuries is due to the same forces and is the logical outcome of the same forces that led to that uprush, to that tremendous expansion of human knowledge and power and life. and that that breaking up is an inevitable thing unless we meet it by a very great effort of a particular kind. now the gist of my case is this: that the civilization of the past three centuries has produced a great store of scientific knowledge, and that this scientific knowledge has altered the material scale of human affairs and enormously enlarged the physical range of human activities, but that there has been no adequate adjustment of men's political ideas to the new conditions. this adjustment is a subtle and a difficult task. it is also a greatly neglected task. and upon the possibility of our making this adjustment depends the issue whether the ebb of civilizing energy, the actual smashing and breaking down of modern civilization, which has already gone very far indeed in russia and which is going on in most of eastern and central europe, extends to the whole civilized world. let me make a very rough and small scale analysis of what is happening to the world to-day. and let us disregard many very important issues and concentrate upon the chief, most typical issue, the revolution in the facilities of locomotion and communication that has occurred to the world and the consequences of that revolution. for the international problem to-day is essentially dependent upon the question of transport and communication--all others are subordinate to that. i shall particularly call your attention to certain wide differences between the american case and the old-world case in this matter. it is not understood clearly enough at the present time how different is the american international problem from the european international problem, and how inevitable it is that america and europe should approach international problems from a different angle and in a different spirit. both lines of thought and experience do, i believe, lead at last to the world state, but they get there by a different route and in a different manner. the idea that the government of the united states can take its place side by side with the governments of the old world on terms of equality with those governments in order to organize the peace of the world, is, i believe, a mistaken and unworkable idea. i shall argue that the government of the united states and the community of the united states are things different politically and mentally from those of the states of the old world, and that the rôle they are destined to play in the development of a world state of mankind is essentially a distinctive one. and i shall try to show cause for regarding the very noble and splendid project of a world-wide league of nations that has held the attention of the world for the past three years, as one that is, at once, a little too much for complete american participation, and not sufficient for the urgent needs of europe. it is not really so practicable and reasonable a proposition as it seemed at first. the idea of a world state, though it looks a far greater and more difficult project, is, in the long run, a sounder and more hopeful proposition. now let me make myself as clear as i can be about the central idea upon which the whole of the arguments in this lecture rests. it is this: forgive me for a repetition--that there has been a complete alteration in the range and power of human activities in the last hundred years. men can react upon men with a rapidity and at a distance inconceivable a hundred years ago. this is particularly the case with locomotion and methods of communication generally. i will not remind you in any detail of facts with which you are familiar; how that in the time of napoleon the most rapid travel possible of the great conqueror himself did not average all over as much as four and a half miles an hour. a hundred and seven miles a day for thirteen days--the pace of his rush from vilna to paris after the moscow disaster--was regarded as a triumph of speed. in those days, too, it was a marvel that by means of semaphores it was possible to transmit a short message from london to portsmouth in the course of an hour or so. since then we have seen a development of telegraphy that has at last made news almost simultaneous about the world, and a steady increase in the rate of travel until, as we worked it out in the civil air transport committee in london, it is possible, if not at present practicable, to fly from london to australia, half way round the earth, in about eight days. i say possible, but not practicable, because at present properly surveyed routes, landing grounds and adequate supplies of petrol and spare parts do not exist. given those things, that journey could be done now in the time i have stated. this tremendous change in the range of human activities involves changes in the conditions of our political life that we are only beginning to work out to their proper consequences to-day. it is a curious thing that america, which owes most to this acceleration in locomotion, has felt it least. the united states have taken the railway, the river steamboat, the telegraph and so forth as though they were a natural part of their growth. they were not. these things happened to come along just in time to save american unity. the united states of to-day were made first by the river steamboat, and then by the railway. without these things, the present united states, this vast continental nation, would have been altogether impossible. the westward flow of population would have been far more sluggish. it might never have crossed the great central plains. it took, you will remember, nearly two hundred years for effective settlement to reach from the coast to the missouri, much less than half-way across the continent. the first state established beyond the river was the steamboat state of missouri in . but the rest of the distance to the pacific was done in a few decades. if we had the resources of the cinema it would be interesting to show a map of north america year by year from onward, with little dots to represent hundreds of people, each dot a hundred, and stars to represent cities of a hundred thousand people. for two hundred years you would see that stippling creeping slowly along the coastal districts and navigable waters, spreading still more gradually into indiana, kentucky, and so forth. then somewhere about would come a change. things would get more lively along the river courses. the dots would be multiplying and spreading. that would be the steamboat. the pioneer dots would be spreading soon from a number of jumping-off places along the great rivers over kansas and nebraska. then from about onward would come the black lines of the railways, and after that the little black dots would not simply creep but run. they would appear now so rapidly, it would be almost as though they were being put on by some sort of spraying machine. and suddenly here and then there would appear the first stars to indicate the first great cities of a hundred thousand people. first one or two and then a multitude of cities--each like a knot in the growing net of the railways. this is a familiar story. i recall it to you now to enforce this point--that the growth of the united states is a process that has no precedent in the world's history; it is a new kind of occurrence. such a community could not have come into existence before, and if it had it would, without railways, have certainly dropped to pieces long before now. without railways or telegraph it would be far easier to administer california from pekin than from washington. but this great population of the united states of america has not only grown outrageously; it has kept uniform. nay, it has become more uniform. the man of san francisco is more like the man of new york to-day than the man of virginia was like the man of new england a century ago. and the process of assimilation goes on unimpeded. the united states is being woven by railway, by telegraph, more and more into one vast human unity, speaking, thinking, and acting harmoniously with itself. soon aviation will be helping in the work. now this great community of the united states is, i repeat, an altogether new thing in history. there have been great empires before with populations exceeding millions, but these were associations of divergent peoples; there has never been one single people on this scale before. we want a new term for this new thing. we call the united states a country, just as we call france or holland a country. but really the two things are as different as an automobile and a one-horse shay. they are the creations of different periods and different conditions; they are going to work at a different pace and in an entirely different way. if you propose--as i gather some of the league of nations people propose--to push the peace of the world along on a combination of these two sorts of vehicle, i venture to think the peace of the world will be subjected to some very considerable strains. let me now make a brief comparison between the american and the european situation in relation to these vital matters, locomotion and the general means of communicating. i said just now that the united states of america owe most to the revolution in locomotion and have felt it least. europe on the other hand owes least to the revolution in locomotion and has felt it most. the revolution in locomotion found the united states of america a fringe of population on the sea margins of a great rich virgin empty country into which it desired to expand, and into which it was free to expand. the steamboat and railway seemed to come as a natural part of that expansion. they came as unqualified blessings. but into western europe they came as a frightful nuisance. the states of europe, excepting russia, were already a settled, established and balanced system. they were living in final and conclusive boundaries with no further possibility of peaceful expansion. every extension of a european state involved a war; it was only possible through war. and while the limits to the united states have been set by the steamship and the railroad, the limits to the european sovereign states were drawn at a much earlier time. they were drawn by the horse, and particularly the coach-horse travelling along the high road. if you will examine a series of political maps of europe for the last two thousand years, you will see that there has evidently been a definite limit to the size of sovereign states through all that time, due to the impossibility of keeping them together because of the difficulty of intercommunication if they grew bigger. and this was in spite of the fact that there were two great unifying ideas present in men's minds in europe throughout that period, namely, the unifying idea of the roman empire, and the unifying idea of christendom. both these ideas tended to make europe one, but the difficulties of communication defeated that tendency. it is quite interesting to watch the adventures of what is called first the roman empire and afterwards the holy roman empire, in a series of historical maps. it keeps expanding and then dropping to pieces again. it is like the efforts of someone who is trying to pack up a parcel which is much too big, in wet blotting paper. the cohesion was inadequate. and so it was that the eighteenth century found europe still divided up into what i may perhaps call these high-road and coach-horse states, each with a highly developed foreign policy, each with an intense sense of national difference and each with intense traditional antagonisms. then came this revolution in the means of locomotion, which has increased the normal range of human activity at least ten times. the effect of that in america was opportunity; the effect of it in europe was congestion. it is as if some rather careless worker of miracles had decided suddenly to make giants of a score of ordinary men, and chose the moment for the miracle when they were all with one exception strap-hanging in a street car. the united states was that fortunate exception. now this is what modern civilization has come up against, and it is the essential riddle of the modern sphinx which must be solved if we are to live. all the european boundaries of to-day are impossibly small for modern conditions. and they are sustained by an intensity of ancient tradition and patriotic passion.... that is where we stand. the citizens of the united states of america are not without their experience in this matter. the crisis of the national history of the american community, the war between union and secession, was essentially a crisis between the great state of the new age and the local feeling of an earlier period. but union triumphed. americans live now in a generation that has almost forgotten that there once seemed a possibility that the map of north america might be broken up at last into as many communities as the map of europe. except by foreign travel, the present generation of americans can have no idea of the net of vexations and limitations in which europeans are living at the present time because of their political disunion. let me take a small but quite significant set of differences, the inconveniences of travel upon a journey of a little over a thousand miles. they are in themselves petty inconveniences, but they will serve to illustrate the net that is making free civilized life in europe more and more impossible. take first the american case. an american wants to travel from new york to st. louis. he looks up the next train, packs his bag, gets aboard a sleeper and turns out at st. louis next day ready for business. take now the european parallel. a european wants to travel from london to warsaw. now that is a shorter distance by fifty or sixty miles than the distance from new york to st. louis. will he pack his bag, get aboard a train and go there? he will not. he will have to get a passport, and getting a passport involves all sorts of tiresome little errands. one has to go to a photographer, for example, to get photographs to stick on the passport. the good european has then to take his passport to the french representative in london for a french visa, or, if he is going through belgium, for a belgian visa. after that he must get a german visa. then he must go round to the czecho-slovak office for a czechoslovak visa. finally will come the polish visa. each of these endorsements necessitates something vexatious, personal attendance, photography, stamps, rubber stamps, mysterious signatures and the like, and always the payment of fees. also they necessitate delays. the other day i had occasion to go to moscow, and i learnt that it takes three weeks to get a visa for finland and three weeks to get a visa for esthonia. you see you can't travel about europe at all without weeks and weeks of preparation. the preparations for a little journey to russia the other day took three whole days out of my life, cost me several pounds in stamps and fees, and five in bribery. ultimately, however, the good european is free to start. arriving at the french frontier in an hour or so, he will be held up for a long customs' examination. also he will need to change some of his money into francs. his english money will be no good in france. the exchange in europe is always fluctuating, and he will be cheated on the exchange. all european countries, including my own, cheat travellers on the exchange--that is apparently what the exchange is for. he will then travel for a few hours to the german frontier. there he will be bundled out again. the french will investigate him closely to see that he is not carrying gold or large sums of money out of france. then he will be handed over to the germans. he will go through the same business with the customs and the same business with the money. his french money is no further use to him and he must get german. a few more hours and he will arrive on the frontier of bohemia. same search for gold. then customs' examination and change of money again. a few hours more and he will be in poland. search for gold, customs, fresh money. as most of these countries are pursuing different railway policies, he will probably have to change trains and rebook his luggage three or four times. the trains may be ingeniously contrived not to connect so as to force him to take some longer route politically favoured by one of the intervening states. he will be lucky if he gets to warsaw in four days. arrived in warsaw, he will probably need a permit to stay there, and he will certainly need no end of permits to leave. now here is a fuss over a fiddling little journey of , miles. is it any wonder that the bookings from london to warsaw are infinitesimal in comparison with the bookings from new york to st. louis? but what i have noted here are only the normal inconveniences of the traveller. they are by no means the most serious inconveniences. the same obstructions that hamper the free movement of a traveller, hamper the movement of foodstuffs and all sorts of merchandise in a much greater degree. everywhere in europe trade is being throttled by tariffs and crippled by the st. vitus' dance of the exchanges. each of these european sovereign states turns out paper money at its own sweet will. last summer i went to prague and exchanged pounds for kroners. they ought to have been to the pound. on monday they were to the pound: on friday . they jump about between and , and everybody is inconvenienced except the bankers and money changers. and this uncertain exchange diverts considerable amounts of money that should be stimulating business enterprise into a barren and mischievous gambling with the circulation. between each one of these compressed european countries the movement of food or labour is still more blocked and impeded. and in addition to these nuisances of national tariffs and independent national coinages at every few score miles, europe is extraordinarily crippled by its want of any central authority to manage the most elementary collective interests; the control of vice, for example; the handling of infectious diseases; the suppression of international criminals. europe is now confronted by a new problem--the problem of air transport. so far as i can see, air transport is going to be strangled in europe by international difficulties. one can fly comfortably and safely from london to paris in two or three hours. but the passport preliminaries will take days beforehand. the other day i wanted to get quickly to reval in esthonia from england and back again. the distance is about the same as from boston to minneapolis, and it could be done comfortably in or hours' flying. i proposed to the handley page company that they should arrange this for me. they explained that they had no power to fly beyond amsterdam in holland; thence it might be possible to get a german plane to hamburg, and thence again a danish plane to copenhagen--leaving about miles which were too complicated politically to fly. each stoppage would involve passport and other difficulties. in the end it took me five days to get to reval and seven days to get back. in europe, with its present frontiers, flying is not worth having. it can never be worth having--it can never be worked successfully--until it is worked as at least a pan-european affair. all these are the normal inconveniences of the national divisions of europe in peace time. by themselves they are strangling all hope of economic recovery. for europe is _not_ getting on to its feet economically. only a united effort can effect that. but along each of the ridiculously restricted frontiers into which the european countries are packed, lies also the possibility of war. national independence means the right to declare war. and so each of these packed and strangulated european countries is obliged, by its blessed independence, to maintain as big an army and as big a military equipment as its bankrupt condition--for we are all bankrupt--permits. since the end of the great war, nothing has been done of any real value to ensure any european country against the threat of war, and nothing will be done, and nothing can be done to lift that threat, so long as the idea of national independence overrides all other considerations. and again, it is a little difficult for a mind accustomed to american conditions, to realize what modern war will mean in europe. not one of these sovereign european states i have named between london and warsaw is any larger than the one single american state of texas, and not one has a capital that cannot be effectively bombed by aeroplane raiders from its frontier within five or six hours of a declaration of war. we can fly from london to paris in two or three hours. and the aerial bombs of to-day, i can assure you, will make the biggest bombs of seem like little crackers. over all these european countries broods this immediate threat of a warfare that will strain and torment the nerves of every living man, woman or child in the countries affected. nothing of the sort can approach the american citizen except after a long warning. the worst war that could happen to any north american country would merely touch its coasts. now i have dwelt on these differences between america and europe because they involve an absolute difference in outlook towards world peace projects, towards leagues of nations, world states and the like, between the american and the european. the american lives in a political unity on the big modern scale. he can go on comfortably for a hundred years yet before he begins to feel tight in his political skin, and before he begins to feel the threat of immediate warfare close to his domestic life. he believes by experience in peace, but he feels under no passionate urgency to organize it. so far as he himself is concerned, he has got peace organized for a good long time ahead. i doubt if it would make any very serious difference for some time in the ordinary daily life of kansas city, let us say, if all europe were reduced to a desert in the next five years. but on the other hand, the intelligent european is up against the unity of europe problem night and day. europe cannot go on. european civilization cannot go on, unless that net of boundaries which strangles her is dissolved away. the difficulties created by language differences, by bitter national traditions, by bad political habits and the like, are no doubt stupendous. but stupendous though they are, they have to be faced. unless they are overcome, and overcome in a very few years, europe--entangled in this net of boundaries, and under a perpetual fear of war, will, i am convinced, follow russia and slide down beyond any hope of recovery into a process of social dissolution as profound and disastrous as that which closed the career of the western roman empire. the american intelligence and the european intelligence approach this question of a world peace, therefore, from an entirely different angle and in an entirely different spirit. to the american in the blessed ease of his great unbroken territory, it seems a matter simply of making his own ample securities world-wide by treaties of arbitration and such-like simple agreements. and my impression is that he thinks of europeans as living under precisely similar conditions. nothing of that sort will meet the problem of the old world. the european situation is altogether more intense and tragic than the american. europe needs not treaties but a profound change in its political ideas and habits. europe is saturated with narrow patriotism like a body saturated by some evil inherited disease. she is haunted by narrow ambitions and ancient animosities. it is because of this profound difference of situation and outlook that i am convinced of the impossibility of any common political co-operation to organize a world peace between america and europe at the present time. the american type of state and the european type of state are different things, incapable of an effectual alliance; the steam tractor and the ox cannot plough this furrow together. american thought, american individuals, may no doubt play a very great part in the task of reconstruction that lies before europe, but not the american federal government as a sovereign state among equal states. the united states constitute a state on a different scale and level from any old world state. patriotism and the national idea in america is a different thing and a bigger scale thing than the patriotism and national idea in any old world state. any league of nations aiming at stability now, would necessarily be a league seeking to stereotype existing boundaries and existing national ideas. now these boundaries and these ideas are just what have to be got rid of at any cost. before europe can get on to a level and on to equal terms with the united states, the european communities have to go through a process that america went through--under much easier conditions--a century and a half ago. they have to repeat, on a much greater scale and against profounder prejudices, the feat of understanding and readjustment that was accomplished by the american people between and . as you will all remember, these states after they had decided upon independence, framed certain articles of confederation; they were articles of confederation between thirteen nations, between the people of massachusetts, the people of virginia, the people of georgia, and so forth--thirteen distinct and separate sovereign peoples. they made a union so lax and feeble that it could neither keep order at home nor maintain respect abroad. then they produced another constitution. they swept aside all that talk about the people of massachusetts, the people of virginia, and the rest of their thirteen nations. they based their union on a wider idea: the people of the united states. now europe, if it is not to sink down to anarchy, has to do a parallel thing. if europe is to be saved from ultimate disaster, europe has to stop thinking in terms of the people of france, the people of england, the people of germany, the french, the british, the germans, and so forth. europe has to think at least of the people of europe, if not of the civilized people of the world. if we europeans cannot bring our minds to that, there is no hope for us. only by thinking of all peoples can any people be saved in europe. fresh wars will destroy the social fabric of europe, and europe will perish as nations, fighting. there are many people who think that there is at least one political system in the old world which, like the united states, is large enough and world wide enough to go on by itself under modern conditions for some considerable time. they think that the british empire can, as it were, stand out of the rest of the old world as a self-sufficient system. they think that it can stand out freely as the united states can stand out, and that these two english-speaking powers have merely to agree together to dominate and keep the peace of the world. let me give a little attention to this idea. it is i believe a wrong idea, and one that may be very disastrous to our common english-speaking culture if it is too fondly cherished. there can be no denying that the british imperial system is a system different in its nature and size from a typical european state, from a state of the horse and road scale, like france, let us say, or germany. and equally it is with the united states a new growth. the present british empire is indeed a newer growth than the united states. but while the united states constitute a homogeneous system and grow more homogeneous, the british empire is heterogeneous and shows little or no assimilative power. and while the united states are all gathered together and are still very remote from any serious antagonist, the british empire is scattered all over the world, entangled with and stressed against a multitude of possible antagonists. i have been arguing that the size and manageability of all political states is finally a matter of transport and communications. they grow to a limit strictly determined by these considerations. beyond that limit they are unstable. let us now apply these ideas to the british empire. i have shown that the great system of the united states is the creation of the river steamboat and the railway. quite as much so is the present british empire the creation of the ocean-going steamship--protected by a great navy. the british empire is a modern ocean state just as the united states is a modern continental state. the political and economic cohesion of the british empire rests upon this one thing, upon the steamship remaining the dominant and secure means of world transport in the future. if the british empire is to remain sovereign and secure and independent of the approval and co-operation of other states, it is necessary that steamship transport (ocean transport) should remain dominant in peace and invulnerable in war. well, that brings us face to face with two comparatively new facts that throw a shadow upon both that predominance and upon that invulnerability. one is air transport; the other the submarine. the possibilities of the ocean-going submarine i will not enlarge upon now. they will be familiar to everyone who followed the later phases of the great war. it must be clear that sea power is no longer the simple and decisive thing it was before the coming of the submarine. the sea ways can no longer be taken and possessed completely. to no other power, except japan, is this so grave a consideration as it is to britain. and if we turn to the possibilities of air-transport in the future we are forced towards the same conclusion, that the security of the british empire must rest in the future not on its strength in warfare, but on its keeping the peace within and without its boundaries. i was a member of the british civil air transport committee, and we went with care and thoroughness into the possibilities and probabilities of the air. my work on that committee convinced me that in the near future the air may be the chief if not the only highway for long-distance mails, for long-distance passenger traffic, and for the carriage of most valuable and compact commodities. the ocean ways are likely to be only the ways for slow travel and for staple and bulky trade. and my studies on that committee did much to confirm my opinion that in quite a brief time the chief line of military attack will be neither by sea nor land but through the air. moreover, it was borne in upon me that the chief air routes of the world will lie over the great plains of the world, that they will cross wide stretches of sea or mountainous country only very reluctantly. now think of how the british empire lies with relation to the great sea and land masses of the world. there has been talk in great britain of what people have called "all-red air routes," that is to say, all-british air routes. there are no all-red air routes. you cannot get out of britain to any other parts of the empire, unless perhaps it is canada, without crossing foreign territory. that is a fact that british people have to face and digest, and the sooner they grasp it the better for them. britain cannot use air ways even to develop her commerce in peace time without the consent and co-operation of a large number of her intervening neighbours. if she embarks single-handed on any considerable war she will find both her air and her sea communications almost completely cut. and so the british empire, in spite of its size and its modernity, is not much better off now in the way of standing alone than the other european countries. it is no exception to our generalization that (apart from all other questions) the scale and form of the european states are out of harmony with contemporary and developing transport conditions, and that all these powers are, if only on this account, under one urgent necessity to sink those ideas of complete independence that have hitherto dominated them. it is a life and death necessity. if they cannot obey it they will all be destroyed. iii the enlargement of patriotism to a world state in my opening argument i have shown the connexion between the present intense political troubles of the world and more particularly of europe, and the advance in mechanical knowledge during the past hundred and fifty years. i have shown that without a very drastic readjustment of political ideas and habits, there opens before europe and the world generally, a sure prospect of degenerative conflicts; that without such a readjustment, our civilization has passed its zenith and must continue the process of collapse that has been in progress since august, . now this readjustment means an immediate conflict with existing patriotism. we have embarked here upon a discussion in which emotion and passion seem quite unavoidable, the discussion of nationality. at the very outset we bump violently against patriotism as any european understands that word. and it is, i hold, impossible not to bump against european patriotisms. we cannot temporize with patriotism, as one finds it in europe, and get on towards a common human welfare. the two things are flatly opposed. one or other must be sacrificed. the political and social muddle of europe at the present time is very largely due to the attempt to compromise between patriotism and the common good of europe. do we want to get rid of patriotism altogether? i do not think we want to get rid of patriotism, and i do not think we could, even if we wanted to do so. it seems to be necessary to his moral life, that a man should feel himself part of a community, belonging to it, and it belonging to him. and that this community should be a single and lovable reality, inspired by a common idea, with a common fashion and aim. but a point i have been trying to bring out throughout all this argument so far is this--that when a european goes to the united states of america he finds a new sort of state, materially bigger and materially less encumbered than any european state. and he also finds an intensely patriotic people whose patriotism isn't really the equivalent of a european patriotism. it is historically and practically a synthesis of european patriotisms. it is numerically bigger. it is geographically ten times as big. that is very important indeed from the point of view of this discussion. and it is synthetic; it is a thing made out of something smaller. people, i believe, talk of per cent. americans. there is no per cent. american except the red indian. there isn't a white man in the united states from whose blood a large factor of european patriotism hasn't been washed out to make way for his american patriotism. upon this fact of american patriotism, as a larger different thing than european patriotism, i build. the thing can be done. if it can be done in the europeans and their descendants who have come to america, it can conceivably be done in the europeans who abide in europe. and how can we set about doing it? america, the silent, comprehensive continent of america, did the thing by taking all the various nationalities who have made up her population and obliging them to live together. unhappily we cannot take the rest of our european nations now and put them on to a great virgin continent to learn a wider political wisdom. there are no more virgin continents. europe must stay where she is.... now i am told it sometimes helps scientific men to clear up their ideas about a process by imagining that process reversed and so getting a view of it from a different direction. let us then, for a few moments, instead of talking of the expansion and synthesis of patriotism in europe, imagine a development of narrow patriotism in america and consider how that case could be dealt with. suppose, for instance, there was a serious outbreak of local patriotism in kentucky. suppose you found the people of kentucky starting a flag of their own and objecting to what they would probably call the "vague internationalism" of the stars and stripes. suppose you found them wanting to set up tariff barriers to the trade of the states round about them. suppose you found they were preparing to annex considerable parts of the state of virginia by force, in order to secure a proper strategic frontier among the mountains to the east, and that they were also talking darkly of their need for an outlet to the sea of their very own. what would an american citizen think of such an outbreak? he would probably think that kentucky had gone mad. but this, which seems such fantastic behaviour when we imagine it occurring in kentucky, is exactly what is happening in europe in the case of little states that are hardly any larger than kentucky. they have always been so. they have not gone mad; if this sort of thing is madness then they were born mad. and they have never been cured. a state of affairs that is regarded in europe as normal would be regarded in the united states as a grave case of local mental trouble. and what would the american community probably do in such a case? it would probably begin by inquiring where kentucky had got these strange ideas. they would look for sources of infection. somebody must have been preaching there or writing in the newspapers or teaching mischief in the school. and i suppose the people of the united states would set themselves very earnestly to see that sounder sense was talked and taught to the people of kentucky about these things. now that is precisely what has to be done in the parallel european case. everywhere in europe there goes on in the national schools, in the patriotic churches, in the national presses, in the highly nationalized literatures, a unity-destroying propaganda of patriotism. the schools of all the european countries at the present time with scarcely an exception, teach the most rancid patriotism; they are centres of an abominable political infection. the children of europe grow up with an intensity of national egotism that makes them, for all practical international purposes, insane. they are not born with it, but they are infected with it as soon as they can read and write. the british learn nothing but the glories of britain and the british empire; the french are, if possible, still more insanely concentrated on france; the germans are just recovering from the bitter consequences of forty years of intensive nationalist education. and so on. every country in europe is its own _sinn fein_, cultivating that ugly and silly obsession of "ourselves alone." "ourselves alone" is the sure guide to conflict and disaster, to want, misery, violence, degradation and death for our children and our children's children--until our race is dead. the first task before us in europe is, at any cost, to release our children from this nationalist obsession, to teach the mass of european people a little truthful history in which each one will see the past and future of his own country in their proper proportions, and a little truthful ethnology in which each country will get over the delusion that its people are a distinct and individual race. the history teaching in the schools of europe is at the very core of this business. but that is only, so to speak, the point of application of great complex influences, the influences that mould us in childhood, the teachings of literature, of the various religious bodies, and the daily reiteration of the press. before europe can get on, there has to be a colossal turnover of these moral and intellectual forces in the direction of creating an international mind. if that can be effected then there is hope for europe and the old world. if it cannot be effected, then certainly europe will go down--with its flags nailed to its masts. we are on a sinking ship that only one thing can save. we have to oust these european patriotisms by some greater idea or perish. what is this greater idea to be? now i submit that this greater idea had best be the idea of the world state of all mankind. i will admit that so far i have made a case only for teaching the idea of a united states of europe in europe. i have concentrated our attention upon that region of maximum congestion and conflict. but as a matter of fact there are no real and effective barriers and boundaries in the old world between europe and asia and africa. the ordinary russian talks of "europe" as one who is outside it. the european political systems flow over and have always overflowed into the greater areas to the east and south. remember the early empires of macedonia and rome. see how the russian language runs to the pacific, and how islam radiates into all three continents. i will not elaborate this case. when you bear such things in mind, i think you will agree with me that if we are to talk of a united states of europe, it is just as easy and practicable to talk of a united states of the old world. and are we to stop at a united states of the old world? no doubt the most evident synthetic forces in america at the present time point towards some sort of pan-american unification. that is the nearest thing. that may come first. but are we to contemplate a sort of dual world--the new world against the old? i do not think that would be any very permanent or satisfactory stopping-place. why make two bites at a planet? if we work for unity on the large scale we are contemplating, we may as well work for world unity. not only in distance but in a score of other matters are london and rome nearer to new york than is patagonia, and san francisco is always likely to be more interesting to japan than paris or madrid. i cannot see any reason for supposing that the mechanical drawing together of the peoples of the world into one economic and political unity is likely to cease--unless our civilization ceases. i see no signs that our present facilities for transport and communication are the ultimate possible facilities. once we break away from current nationalist limitations in our political ideas, then there is no reason and no advantage in contemplating any halfway house to a complete human unity. now after what i have been saying it is very easy to explain why i would have this idea of human unity put before people's minds in the form of a world state and not of a league of nations. let me first admit the extraordinary educational value of the league of nations propaganda, and of the attempt that has been made to create a league of nations. it has brought before the general intelligence of the world the proposition of a world law and a world unity that could not perhaps have been broached in any other way. but is it a league of nations that is wanted? i submit to you that the word "nations" is just the word that should have been avoided--that it admits and tends to stereotype just those conceptions of division and difference that we must at any cost minimize and obliterate if our species is to continue. and the phrase has a thin and legal and litigious flavour. what loyalty and what devotion can we expect this multiple association to command? it has no unity--no personality. it is like asking a man to love the average member of a woman's club instead of loving his wife. for the idea of man, for human unity, for our common blood, for the one order of the world, i can imagine men living and dying, but not for a miscellaneous assembly that will not mix--even in its name. it has no central idea, no heart to it, this league of nations formula. it is weak and compromising just where it should be strong--in defining its antagonism to separate national sovereignty. for that is what it aims at, if it means business. if it means business it means at least a super-state overriding the autonomy of existing states, and if it does not mean business then we have no use for it whatever. it may seem a much greater undertaking to attack nationality and nationalism instead of patching up a compromise with these things, but along the line of independent nationality lies no hope of unity and peace and continuing progress for mankind. we cannot suffer these old concentrations of loyalty because we want that very loyalty which now, concentrates upon them to cement and sustain the peace of all the world. just as in the past provincial patriotisms have given place to national patriotisms, so now we need to oust these still too narrow devotions by a new unity and a new reigning idea, the idea of one state and one flag in all the earth. the idea of the world state stands to the idea of the league of nations much as the idea of the one god of earth and heaven stands to a divine committee composed of wodin and baal and jupiter and amon ra and mumbo jumbo and all the other national and tribal gods. there is no compromise possible in the one matter as in the other. there is no way round. the task before mankind is to substitute the one common idea of an overriding world commonweal for the multitudinous ideas of little commonweals that prevail everywhere to-day. we have already glanced at the near and current consequences of our failure to bring about that substitution. now this is an immense proposal. is it a preposterous one? let us not shirk the tremendous scale upon which the foundations of a world state of all mankind must be laid. but remember, however great that task before us may seem, however near it may come to the impossible, nevertheless, in the establishment of one world rule and one world law lies the only hope of escape from an increasing tangle of wars, from social overstrain, and at last a social dissolution so complete as to end for ever the tale of mankind as we understand mankind. personally i am appalled by the destruction already done in the world in the past seven years. i doubt if any untravelled american can realize how much of europe is already broken up. i do not think many people realize how swiftly europe is still sinking, how urgent it is to get european affairs put back upon a basis of the common good if civilization is to be saved. and now, as to the immensity of this project of substituting loyalty to a world commonweal for loyalty to a single egotistical belligerent nation. it is a project to invade hundreds of millions of minds, to attack certain ideas established in those minds and either to efface those ideas altogether or to supplement and correct them profoundly by this new idea of a human commonweal. we have to get not only into the at present intensely patriotic minds of frenchmen, germans, english, irish and japanese, but into the remote and difficult minds of arabs and indians and into the minds of the countless millions of china. is there any precedent to justify us in hoping that such a change in world ideas is possible? i think there is. i would suggest that the general tendency of thought about these things to-day is altogether too sceptical of what teaching and propaganda can do in these matters. in the past there have been very great changes in human thought. i need scarcely remind you of the spread of christianity in western europe. in a few centuries the whole of western europe was changed from the wild confusion of warring tribes that succeeded the breakdown of the roman empire, into the unity of christendom, into a community with such an idea of unity that it could be roused from end to end by the common idea of the crusades. still more remarkable was the swift transformation in less than a century of all the nations and peoples to the south and west of the mediterranean, from spain to central asia, into the unity of islam, a unity which has lasted to this day. in both these cases, what i may call the mental turnover was immense. i think if you will consider the spread of these very complex and difficult religions, and compare the means at the disposal of their promoters with the means at the disposal of intelligent people to-day, you will find many reasons for believing that a recasting of people's ideas into the framework of a universal state is by no means an impossible project. those great teachings of the past were spread largely by word of mouth. their teachers had to travel slowly and dangerously. people were gathered together to hear with great difficulty, except in a few crowded towns. books could be used only sparingly. few people could read, fewer still could translate, and mss. were copied with extreme slowness upon parchment. there was no printing, no paper, no post. and except for a very few people there were no schools. both christendom and islam had to create their common schools in order to preserve even a minimum of their doctrine intact from generation to generation. all this was done in the teeth of much bitter opposition and persecution. now to-day we have means of putting ideas and arguments swiftly and effectively before people all over the world at the same time, such as no one could have dreamt of a hundred years ago. we have not only books and papers, but in the cinema we have a means of rapid, vivid presentation still hardly used. we have schools nearly everywhere. and here in the need for an overruling world state, and the idea of world service replacing combative patriotism, we have an urgent, a commanding human need. we have an invincible case for this world state and an unanswerable objection to the nationalisms and patriotisms that would oppose it. is it not almost inevitable that some of us should get together and begin a propaganda upon modern lines of this organized world peace, without which our race must perish? the world perishes for the want of a common political idea. it is still quite possible to give the world this common political idea, the idea of a federal world state. we cannot help but set about doing it. so i put it to you that the most important work before men and women to-day is the preaching and teaching, the elaboration and then at last the realization of this project of the world state. we have to create a vision of it, to make it seem first a possibility and then an approaching reality. this is a task that demands the work and thought of thousands of minds. we have to spread the idea of a federal world state, as an approaching reality, throughout the world. we can do this nowadays through a hundred various channels. we can do it through the press, through all sorts of literary expression, in our schools, colleges, and universities, through political mouthpieces, by special organizations, and last, but not least, through the teaching of the churches. for remember that all the great religions of the world are in theory universalist; they may tolerate the divisions of men but they cannot sanction them. we propose no religious revolution, but at most a religious revival. we can spread ideas and suggestions now with a hundred times the utmost rapidity of a century ago. this movement need not at once intervene in politics. it is a prospective movement, and its special concern will be with young and still growing minds. but as it spreads it will inevitably change politics. the nations, states, and kingdoms of to-day, which fight and scheme against each other as though they had to go on fighting and scheming for ever, will become more and more openly and manifestly merely guardian governments, governments playing a waiting part in the world, while the world state comes of age. for this world state, for which the world is waiting, must necessarily be a fusion of all governments, and heir to all the empires. so far i have been occupied by establishing a case for the world state. it has been, i fear, rather an abstract discussion. i have kept closely to the bare hard logic of the present human situation. but now let me attempt very briefly, in the barest outline, some concrete realization of what a world state would mean. let us try and conceive for ourselves the form a world state would take. i do not care to leave this discussion with nothing to it but a phrase which is really hardly more than a negative phrase until we put some body to it. as it stands world state means simply a politically undivided world. let us try and carry that over to the idea of a unified organized state throughout the world. let us try to imagine what a world government would be like. i find that when one speaks of a world state people think at once of some existing government and magnify it to world proportions. they ask, for example, where will the world congress meet; and how will you elect your world president? won't your world president, they say, be rather a tremendous personage? how are we to choose him? or will there be a world king? these are very natural questions, at the first onset. but are they sound questions? may they not be a little affected by false analogies? the governing of the whole of the world may turn out to be _not_ a magnified version of governing a part of the world, but a different sort of job altogether. these analogies that people draw so readily from national states may not really work in a world state. and first with regard to this question of a king or president. let us ask whether it is probable that the world state will have any single personal head at all? is the world state likely to be a monarchy--either an elective short term limited monarchy such as is the united states, or an inherited limited monarchy like the british empire? many people will say, you _must_ have a head of the state. but _must_ you? is not this idea a legacy from the days when states were small communities needing a leader in war and diplomacy? in the world state we must remember there will be no war--and no diplomacy as such. i would even question whether in such a great modern state as the u.s.a. the idea and the functions of the president may not be made too important. indeed i believe that question has been asked by many people in the states lately, and has been answered in the affirmative. the broad lines of the united states constitution were drawn in a period of almost universal monarchy. american affairs were overshadowed by the personality of george washington, and as you know, monarchist ideas were so rife that there was a project, during the years of doubt and division that followed the war of independence, for importing a german king, a prussian prince, in imitation of the british monarchy. but if the united states were beginning again to-day on its present scale, would it put so much power and importance upon a single individual as it put upon george washington and his successors in the white house? i doubt it very much. there may be a limit, i suggest, to the size and complexity of a community that can be directed by a single personal head. perhaps that limit may have been passed by both the united states and by the british empire at the present time. it may be possible for one person to be leader and to have an effect of directing personality in a community of millions or even of tens of millions. but is it possible for one small short-lived individual to get over and affect and make any sort of contact with hundreds of millions in thousands of towns and cities? recently we have watched with admiration and sympathy the heroic efforts of the prince of wales to shake hands with and get his smile well home into the hearts of the entire population of the british empire of which he is destined to become the "golden link." after tremendous exertions a very large amount of the ground still remains to be covered. i will confess i cannot see any single individual human head in my vision of the world state. the linking reality of the world state is much more likely to be not an individual but an idea--such an idea as that of a human commonweal under the god of all mankind. if at any time, for any purpose, some one individual had to step out and act for the world state as a whole, then i suppose the senior judges of the supreme court, or the speaker of the council, or the head of the associated scientific societies, or some such person, could step out and do what had to be done. but if there is to be no single head person, there must be at least some sort of assembly or council. that seems to be necessary. but will it be a gathering at all like congress or the british parliament, with a government side and an opposition ruled by party traditions and party ideas? there again, i think we may be too easily misled by existing but temporary conditions. i do not think it is necessary to assume that the council of the world state will be an assembly of party politicians. i believe it will be possible to have it a real gathering of representatives, a fair sample of the thought and will of mankind at large, and to avoid a party development by a more scientific method of voting than the barbaric devices used for electing representatives to congress or the british parliament, devices that play directly into the hands of the party organizer who trades upon the defects of political method. will this council be directly elected? that, i think, may be found to be essential. and upon a very broad franchise. because, _firstly_, it is before all things important that every adult in the world should feel a direct and personal contact between himself and the world state, and that he is an assenting and participating citizen of the world; and _secondly_, because if your council is appointed by any intermediate body, all sorts of local and national considerations, essential in the business of the subordinate body, will get in the way of a simple and direct regard for the world commonweal. and as to this council: will it have great debates and wonderful scenes and crises and so forth--the sort of thing that looks well in a large historical painting? there again we may be easily misled by analogy. one consideration that bars the way to anything of that sort is that its members will have no common language which they will be all able to speak with the facility necessary for eloquence. eloquence is far more adapted to the conditions of a red indian pow-wow than to the ordering of large and complicated affairs. the world council may be a very taciturn assembly. it may even meet infrequently. its members may communicate their views largely by _notes_ which may have to be very clear and explicit, because they will have to stand translation, and short--to escape neglect. and what will be the chief organs and organizations and works and methods with which this council of the world state will be concerned? there will be a supreme court determining _not_ international law, but world law. there will be a growing code of world law. there will be a world currency. there will be a ministry of posts, transport and communications generally. there will be a ministry of trade in staple products and for the conservation and development of the natural resources of the earth. there will be a ministry of social and labour conditions. there will be a ministry of world health. there will be a ministry, the most important ministry of all, watching and supplementing national educational work and taking up the care and stimulation of backward communities. and instead of a war office and naval and military departments, there will be a _peace ministry_ studying the belligerent possibilities of every new invention, watching for armed disturbances everywhere, and having complete control of every armed force that remains in the world. all these world ministries will be working in co-operation with local authorities who will apply world-wide general principles to local conditions. these items probably comprehend everything that the government of a world state would have to do. much of its activity would be merely the co-ordination and adjustment of activities already very thoroughly discussed and prepared for it by local and national discussions. i think it will be a mistake for us to assume that the work of a world government will be vaster and more complex than that of such governments as those of the united states or the british empire. in many respects it will have an enormously simplified task. there will be no foreign enemy, no foreign competition, no tariffs, so far as it is concerned, or tariff wars. it will be keeping order; it will not be carrying on a contest. there will be no necessity for secrecy; it will not be necessary to have a cabinet plotting and planning behind closed doors; there will be no general policy except a steady attention to the common welfare. even the primary origin of a world council must necessarily be different from that of any national government. every existing government owes its beginnings to force and is in its fundamental nature militant. it is an offensive-defensive organ. this fact saturates our legal and social tradition more than one realizes at first. there is, about civil law everywhere, a faint flavour of a relaxed state of siege. but a world government will arise out of different motives and realize a different ideal. it will be primarily an organ for keeping the peace. and now perhaps we may look at this project of a world state mirrored in the circumstances of the life of one individual citizen. let us consider very briefly the life of an ordinary young man living in a world state and consider how it would differ from a commonplace life to-day. he will have been born in some one of the united states of the world--in new york or california, or ontario or new zealand, or portugal or france or bengal or shan-si; but wherever his lot may fall, the first history he will learn will be the wonderful history of mankind, from its nearly animal beginnings, a few score thousand years ago, with no tools, but implements of chipped stone and hacked wood, up to the power and knowledge of our own time. his education will trace for him the beginnings of speech, of writing, of cultivation and settlement. he will learn of the peoples and nations of the past, and how each one has brought its peculiar gifts and its distinctive contribution to the accumulating inheritance of our race. he will know, perhaps, less of wars, battles, conquests, massacres, kings and the like unpleasant invasions of human dignity and welfare, and he will know more of explorers, discoverers and stout outspoken men than our contemporary citizen. while he is still a little boy, he will have the great outlines of the human adventure brought home to his mind by all sorts of vivid methods of presentation, such as the poor poverty-struck schools of our own time cannot dream of employing. and on this broad foundation he will build up his knowledge of his own particular state and nation and people, learning not tales of ancient grievances and triumphs and revenges, but what his particular race and countryside have given and what it gives and may be expected to give to the common welfare of the world. on such foundations his social consciousness will be built. he will learn an outline of all that mankind knows and of the fascinating realms of half knowledge in which man is still struggling to know. his curiosity and his imagination will be roused and developed. he will probably be educated continuously at least until he is eighteen or nineteen, and perhaps until he is two or three and twenty. for a world that wastes none of its resources upon armaments or soldiering, and which produces whatever it wants in the regions best adapted to that production, and delivers them to the consumer by the directest route, will be rich enough not only to spare the first quarter of everybody's life for education entirely, but to keep on with some education throughout the whole lifetime. of course the school to which our young citizen of the world will go will be very different from the rough and tumble schools of to-day, understaffed with underpaid assistants, and having bare walls. it will have benefited by some of the intelligence and wealth we lavish to-day on range-finders and submarines. even a village school will be in a beautiful little building costing as much perhaps as a big naval gun or a bombing-aeroplane costs to-day. i know this will sound like shocking extravagance to many contemporary hearers, but in the world state the standards will be different. i don't know whether any of us really grasp what we are saying when we talk of greater educational efficiency in the future. that means--if it means anything--teaching more with much less trouble. it will mean, for instance, that most people will have three or four languages properly learnt; that they will think about things mathematical with a quickness and clearness that puzzles us; that about all sorts of things their minds will move in daylight where ours move in a haze of ignorance or in an emotional fog. this clear-headed, broad-thinking young citizen of the world state will not be given up after his educational years to a life of toil--there will be very little toil left in the world. mankind will have machines and power enough to do most of the toil for it. why, between and we blew away enough energy and destroyed enough machinery and turned enough good grey matter into stinking filth to release hundreds of millions of toilers from toil for ever! our young citizen will choose some sort of interesting work--perhaps creative work. and he will be free to travel about the whole world without a passport or visa, without a change of money; everywhere will be his country; he will find people everywhere who will be endlessly different, but none suspicious or hostile. everywhere he will find beautiful and distinctive cities, freely expressive of the spirit of the land in which they have arisen. strange and yet friendly cities. the world will be a far healthier place than it is now--for mankind as a whole will still carry on organized wars--no longer wars of men against men, but of men against malarias and diseases and infections. probably he will never know what a cold is, or a headache. he will be able to go through the great forests of the tropics without shivering with fever and without saturating himself with preventive drugs. he will go freely among great mountains; he will fly to the poles of the earth if he chooses, and dive into the cold, now hidden, deep places of the sea. but it is very difficult to fill in the picture of his adult life so that it will seem real to our experience. it is hard to conceive and still more difficult to convey. we live in this congested, bickering, elbowing, shoving world, and it has soaked into our natures and made us a part of itself. hardly any of us know what it is to be properly educated, and hardly any what it is to be in constant general good health. to talk of what the world may be to most of us is like talking of baths and leisure and happy things to some poor hopeless, gin-soaked drudge in a slum. the creature is so devitalized; the dirt is so ingrained, so much a second nature, that a bath really isn't attractive. clean and beautiful clothes sound like a mockery or priggishness. to talk of spacious and beautiful places only arouses a violent desire in the poor thing to get away somewhere and hide. in squalor and misery, quarrelling and fighting make a sort of nervous relief. to multitudes of slum-bred people the prospect of no more fighting is a disagreeable prospect, a dull outlook. well, all this world of ours may seem a slum to the people of a happier age. they will feel about our world just as we feel about the ninth or tenth century, when we read of its brigands and its insecurities, its pestilences, its miserable housing, its abstinence from ablutions. but our young citizen will not have been inured to our base world. he will have little of our ingrained dirt in his mind and heart. he will love. he will love beautifully. as most of us once hoped to do in our more romantic moments. he will have ambitions--for the world state will give great scope to ambition. he will work skilfully and brilliantly, or he will administer public services, or he will be an able teacher, or a mental or physical physician, or he will be an interpretative or creative artist; he may be a writer or a scientific investigator, he may be a statesman in his state, or even a world statesman. if he is a statesman he may be going up perhaps to the federal world congress. in the year there will still be politics, but they will be great politics. instead of the world's affairs being managed in a score of foreign offices, all scheming meanly and cunningly against each other, all planning to thwart and injure each other, they will be managed under the direction of an educated and organized common intelligence intent only upon the common good. dear! dear! dear! does it sound like rubbish to you? i suppose it does. you think i am talking of a dreamland, of an unattainable utopia? perhaps i am! this dear, jolly old world of dirt, war, bankruptcy, murder and malice, thwarted lives, wasted lives, tormented lives, general ill health and a social decadence that spreads and deepens towards a universal smash--how can we hope to turn it back from its course? how priggish and impracticable! how impertinent! how preposterous! i seem to hear a distant hooting.... sometimes it seems to me that the barriers that separate man and man are nearly insurmountable and invincible, that we who talk of a world state now are only the pioneers of a vast uphill struggle in the minds and hearts of men that may need to be waged for centuries--that may fail in the end. sometimes again, in other moods, it seems to me that these barriers and nationalities and separations are so illogical, so much a matter of tradition, so plainly mischievous and cruel, that at any time we may find the common sense of our race dissolving them away.... who can see into that darkest of all mysteries, the hearts and wills of mankind? it may be that it is well for us not to know of the many generations who will have to sustain this conflict. yes, that is one mood, and there is the other. perhaps we fear too much. even before our lives run out we may feel the dawn of a greater age perceptible among the black shadows and artificial glares of these unhappy years. iv the bible of civilization part one § in my next two papers i am going to discuss and--what shall i say?--experiment with an old but neglected idea, an idea that was first broached i believe about the time when the state of connecticut was coming into existence and while new york was still the dutch city of new amsterdam. the man who propounded this idea was a certain great bohemian, komensky, who is perhaps better known in our western world by his latinized name comenius. he professed himself the pupil of bacon. he was the friend of milton. he travelled from one european country to another with his political and educational ideas. for a time he thought of coming to america. it is a great pity that he never came. and his idea, the particular idea of his we are going to discuss, was the idea of a common book, a book of history, science and wisdom, which should form the basis and framework for the thoughts and imaginations of every citizen in the world. in many ways the thinkers and writers of the early seventeenth century seem more akin to us and more sympathetic with the world of to-day, than any intervening group of literary figures. they strike us as having a longer vision than the men of the eighteenth century, and as being bolder--and, how shall i put it?--more desperate in their thinking than the nineteenth century minds. and this closer affinity to our own time arises, i should think, directly and naturally, out of the closer resemblance of their circumstances. between and , just as in our present age, the world was tremendously unsettled and distressed. a century and more of expansion and prosperity had given place to a phase of conflict, exhaustion and entire political unsettlement. britain was involved in the bitter political struggle that culminated in the execution of king charles i. ireland was a land of massacre and counter-massacre. the thirty years war in central europe was in its closing, most dreadful stages of famine and plunder. in france the crown and the nobles were striving desperately for ascendancy in the war of the fronde. the turk threatened vienna. nowhere in western europe did there remain any secure and settled political arrangements. everywhere there was disorder, everywhere it seemed that anything might happen, and it is just those disordered and indeterminate times that are most fruitful of bold religious and social and political and educational speculations and initiatives. this was the period that produced the quakers and a number of the most vigorous developments of puritanism, in which the foundations of modern republicanism were laid, and in which the project of a world league of nations--or rather of a world state--received wide attention. and the student of comenius will find in him an active and sensitive mind responding with a most interesting similarity to our own responses, to the similar conditions of his time. he has been distressed and dismayed--as most of us have been distressed and dismayed--by a rapid development of violence, by a great release of cruelty and suffering in human affairs. he felt none of the security that was felt in the eighteenth and nineteenth centuries of the _certainty_ of progress. he realized as we do that the outlook for humanity is a very dark and uncertain one unless human effort is stimulated and organized. he traced the evils of his time to human discords and divisions, to our political divisions, and the mutual misconceptions due to our diversity of languages and leading ideas. in all that he might be writing and thinking in . and his proposed remedies find an echo in a number of our contemporary movements. he wanted to bring all nations to form one single state. he wanted to have a universal language as the common medium of instruction and discussion, and he wanted to create a common book of necessary knowledge, a sort of common basis of wisdom, for all educated men in the world. now this last is the idea i would like to develop now. i would like to discuss whether our education--which nowadays in our modern states reaches everyone--whether our education can include and ought to include such a book of necessary knowledge and wisdom; and (having attempted to answer that enquiry in the affirmative) i shall then attempt a sketch of such a book. but to begin with perhaps i may meet an objection that is likely to arise. i have called this hypothetical book of ours the bible of civilization, and it may be that someone will say: yes, but you have a sufficient book of that sort already; you have the bible itself and that is all you need. well, i am taking the bible as my model. i am taking it because twice in history--first as the old testament and then again as the old and new testament together--it has formed a culture, and unified and kept together through many generations great masses of people. it has been the basis of the jewish and christian civilizations alike. and even in the new world the state of connecticut did, i believe, in its earliest beginnings take the bible as its only law. nevertheless, i hope i shall not offend any reader if i point out that the bible is not all that we need to-day, and that also in some respects it is redundant. its very virtues created its limitations. it served men so well that they made a canon of it and refused to alter it further. throughout the most vital phases of hebrew history, throughout the most living years of christian development the bible changed and grew. then its growth ceased and its text became fixed. but the world went on growing and discovering new needs and new necessities. let me deal first with its redundancy. so far as redundancy goes, a great deal of the book of leviticus, for example, seems not vitally necessary for the ordinary citizen of to-day; there are long explicit directions for temple worship and sacrificial procedure. there is again, so far as the latter day citizen is concerned, an excess of information about the minor kings of israel and judah. and there is more light than most of us feel we require nowadays upon the foreign policies of assyria and egypt. it stirs our pulses feebly, it helps us only very indirectly to learn that attai begat nathan and nathan begat zabad, or that obed begat jehu and jehu begat azariah, and so on for two or three hundred verses. and so far as deficiencies go, there is a great multitude of modern problems--problems that enter intimately into the moral life of all of us, with which the bible does not deal, the establishment of american independence, for example, and the age-long feud of russia and poland that has gone on with varying fortunes for four centuries. that is much more important to our modern world than the ancient conflict of assyria and egypt which plays so large a part in the old bible record. and there are all sorts of moral problems arising out of modern conditions on which the bible sheds little or no direct light: the duties of a citizen at an election, or the duties of a shareholder to the labour employed by his company, for example. for these things we need at least a supplement, if we are still to keep our community upon one general basis of understanding, upon one unifying standard of thought and behaviour. we are so brought up upon the bible, we are so used to it long before we begin to think hard about it, that all sorts of things that are really very striking about it, the facts that the history of judah and israel is told twice over and that the gospel narrative is repeated four times over for example, do not seem at all odd to us. how else, we ask, could you have it? yet these are very odd features if we are to regard the bible as the compactest and most perfect statement of essential truth and wisdom. and still more remarkable, it seems to me, is it that the bible breaks off. one could understand very well if the bible broke off with the foundation of christianity. now this event has happened, it might say, nothing else matters. it is the culmination. but the bible does not do that. it goes on to a fairly detailed account of the beginnings and early politics of the christian church. it gives the opening literature of theological exposition. and then, with that strange and doubtful book, the revelation of st. john the divine, it comes to an end. as i say, it leaves off. it leaves off in the middle of roman imperial and social conflicts. but the world has gone on and goes on--elaborating its problems, encountering fresh problems--until now there is a gulf of upwards of eighteen hundred years between us and the concluding expression of the thought of that ancient time. i make these observations in no spirit of detraction. if anything, these peculiarities of the bible add to the wonder of its influence over the lives and minds of men. it has been the book that has held together the fabric of western civilization. it has been the handbook of life to countless millions of men and women. the civilization we possess could not have come into existence and could not have been sustained without it. it has explained the world to the mass of our people, and it has given them moral standards and a form into which their consciences could work. but does it do that to-day? frankly, i do not think it does. i think that during the last century the bible has lost much of its former hold. it no longer grips the community. and i think it has lost hold because of those sundering eighteen centuries, to which every fresh year adds itself, because of profound changes in the methods and mechanisms of life, and because of the vast extension of our ideas by the development of science in the last century or so. it has lost hold, but nothing has arisen to take its place. that is the gravest aspect of this matter. it was the cement with which our western communities were built and by which they were held together. and the weathering of these centuries and the acids of these later years have eaten into its social and personal influence. it is no longer a sufficient cement. and--this is the essence of what i am driving at--_our modern communities are no longer cemented_, they lack organized solidarity, they are not prepared to stand shocks and strains, they have become dangerously loose mentally and morally. that, i believe, is the clue to a great proportion of the present social and political troubles of the world. we need to get back to a cement. we want a bible. we want a bible so badly that we cannot afford to put the old bible on a pinnacle out of daily use. we want it re-adapted for use. if it is true that the old bible falls short in its history and does not apply closely to many modern problems, then we need a revised and enlarged bible in our schools and homes to restore a common ground of ideas and interpretations if our civilization is to hold together. now let us see what the bible gave a man in the days when it could really grip and hold and contain him; and let us ask if it is impossible to restore and reconstruct a bible for the needs of these great and dangerous days in which we are living. can we re-cement our increasingly unstable civilization? i will not ask now whether there is still time left for us to do anything of the sort. the first thing the bible gave a man was a cosmogony. it gave him an account of the world in which he found himself and of his place in it. and then it went on to a general history of mankind. it did not tell him that history as a string of facts and dates, but as a moving and interesting story into which he himself finally came, a story of promises made and destinies to be fulfilled. it gave him a dramatic relationship to the schemes of things. it linked him to all mankind with a conception of relationships and duties. it gave him a place in the world and put a meaning into his life. it explained him to himself and to other people, and it explained other people to him. in other words, out of the individual it made a citizen with a code of duties and expectations. now i take it that both from the point of view of individual happiness and from the point of view of the general welfare, this development of the citizenship of a man, this placing of a man in his own world, is of primary importance. it is the necessary basis of all right education; it is the fundamental purpose of the school, and i do not believe an individual can be happy or a community be prosperous without it. the bible and the religions based on it gave that idea of a place in the world to the people it taught. but do we provide that idea of a place in the world for our people to-day? i suggest that we do not. we do not give them a clear vision of the universe in which they live, and we do not give them a history that invests their lives with meaning and dignity. the cosmogony of the bible has lost grip and conviction upon men's minds, and the ever-widening gulf of years makes its history and its political teaching more and more remote and unhelpful amidst the great needs of to-day. nothing has been done to fill up these widening gaps. we have so great a respect for the letter of the bible that we ignore its spirit and its proper use. we do not rewrite and retell genesis in the light and language of modern knowledge, and we do not revise and bring its history up to date and so apply it to the problems of our own time. so we have allowed the bible to become antiquated and remote, venerable and unhelpful. there has been a great extension of what we call education in the past hundred years, but while we have spread education widely, there has been a sort of shrinkage and enfeeblement of its aims. education in the past set out to make a christian and a citizen and afterwards a gentleman out of the crude, vulgar, self-seeking individual. does education even pretend to do as much to-day? it does nothing of the sort. our young people are taught to read and write. they are taught bookkeeping and languages that are likely to be useful to them. they are given a certain measure of technical education, and _they are taught to shove_. and then we turn them out into the world to get on. our test of a college education is--does it make a successful business man? well, this, i take it, is the absolute degradation of education. it is a modern error that education exists for the individual. education exists for the community and the race; it exists to subdue the individual for the good of the world and his own ultimate happiness. but we have been letting the essentials of education slip back into a secondary place in our pursuit of mere equipment, and we see the results to-day throughout all the modern states of the world, in a loss of cohesion, discipline and co-operation. men will not co-operate except to raise prices on the consumer or wages on the employer, and everyone scrambles for a front place and a good time. and they do so, partly no doubt by virtue of an ineradicable factor in them known as original sin, but also very largely because the vision of life that was built up in their minds at school and in their homes was fragmentary and uninspiring; it had no commanding appeal for their imaginations, and no imperatives for their lives. so i put it, that for the opening books of our bible of civilization, our bible translated into terms of modern knowledge, and as the basis of all our culture, we shall follow the old bible precedent exactly. we shall tell to every citizen of our community, as plainly, simply and beautifully as we can, the new story of genesis, the tremendous spectacle of the universe that science has opened to us, the flaming beginnings of our world, the vast ages of its making and the astounding unfolding, age after age, of life. we shall tell of the changing climates of this spinning globe and the coming and going of great floras and faunas, mighty races of living things, until out of the vast, slow process our own kind emerged. and we shall tell the story of our race. how through hundreds of thousands of years it won power over nature, hunted and presently sowed and reaped. how it learnt the secrets of the metals, mastered the riddle of the seasons, and took to the seas. that story of our common inheritance and of our slow upward struggle has to be taught throughout our entire community, in the city slums and in the out-of-the-way farmsteads most of all. by teaching it, we restore again to our people the lost basis of a community, a common idea of their place in space and time. then, still following the bible precedent, we must tell a universal history of man. and though on the surface it may seem to be a very different history from the bible story, in substance it will really be very much the same history, only robbed of ancient trappings and symbols, and made real and fresh again for our present ideas. it will still be a story of conditional promises, the promises of human possibility, a record of sins and blunders and lost opportunities, of men who walked not in the ways of righteousness, of stiff-necked generations, and of merciful renewals of hope. it will still point our lives to a common future which will be the reward and judgment of our present lives. you may say that no such book exists--which is perfectly true--and that no such book could be written. but there i think you underrate the capacity of our english-speaking people. it would be quite possible to get together a committee that would give us the compact and clear cosmogony of history that is needed. some of the greatest, most inspiring books and documents in the world have been produced by committees: magna carta, the declaration of independence, the english translation of the bible, and the prayer book of the english church are all the productions of committees, and they are all fine and inspiring compilations. for the last three years i have been experimenting with this particular task, and, with the help of six other people, i have sketched out and published an outline of our world's origins and history to show the sort of thing i mean. that _outline_ is, of course, a corrupting mass of faults and minor inaccuracies, but it does demonstrate the possibility of doing what is required. and its reception both in america and england has shown how ready, how greedy many people are, on account of themselves and on account of their children, for an ordered general account of the existing knowledge of our place in space and time. for want of anything better they have taken my _outline_ very eagerly. far more eagerly would they have taken a finer, sounder and more authoritative work. in england this _outline_ was almost the first experiment of the kind that has been made--the only other i know of in england, was a very compact general history of the world by mr. oscar browning published in . but there are several educationists in america who have been at work on the same task. in this matter of a more generalized history teaching, the new world is decidedly leading the old. the particular problems of a population of mixed origins have forced it upon teachers in the united states. my friend--i am very happy to be able to call him my friend--professor breasted, in conjunction with that very able teacher professor robinson, has produced two books, _ancient times_ and _mediæval and modern times_, which together make a very complete history of civilized man. they do not, however, give a history of life before man, nor very much of human pre-history. another admirable american summary of history is doctor hutton webster's _history of the ancient world_ together with his _mediæval and modern history_. this again is very sparing of the story of primitive man. but the work of these gentlemen confirms my own experience that it is quite possible to tell in a comprehensible and inspiring outline the whole history of life and mankind in the compass of a couple of manageable volumes. neither browning nor breasted and robinson, nor hutton webster, nor my own effort are very much longer than twice the length of dickens' novel of _bleak house_. so there you have it. there is the thing shown to be possible. if it is possible for us isolated workers to do as much then why should not the thing be done in a big and authoritative manner? why should we not have a great educational conference of teachers, scientific men and historians from all the civilized peoples of the world, and why should they not draft out a standard world history for general use in the world's schools? why should that draft not be revised by scores of specialists? discussed and re-discussed? polished and finished, and made the opening part of a new bible of civilization, a new common basis for a world culture? at intervals it would need to be revised, and it could be revised and brought up to date in the same manner. now such a book and such a book alone would put the people of the world upon an absolutely new footing with regard to social and international affairs. they would be told a history coming right up to the daily newspaper. they would see themselves and the news of to-day as part of one great development. it would give their lives significance and dignity. it would give the events of the current day significance and dignity. it would lift their imaginations up to a new level. i say lift, but i mean restore their imaginations to a former level. because if you look back into the lives of the pilgrim fathers, let us say, or into those of the great soldiers and statesmen of cromwellian england, you will find that these men had a sense of personal significance, a sense of destiny, such as no one in politics or literature seems to possess to-day. they were still in touch with the old bible. to-day if life seems adventurous and fragmentary and generally aimless it is largely because of this one thing. we have lost touch with history. we have ceased to see human affairs as one great epic unfolding. and only by the universal teaching of universal history can that epic quality be restored. you see then the first part of my project for a bible of civilization, a rewriting of genesis and exodus and judges and chronicles in terms of world history. it would be a quite possible thing to do.... is it worth doing? and let me add here that when we do get our new genesis and our new historical books, they will have a great number of illustrations as a living and necessary part of them. for nowadays we can not only have a canonical text, but canonical maps and illustrations. the old hebrew bible was merely the written word. indeed it was not even that, for it was written without vowels. that was not a merit, nor a precedent for us; it was an unavoidable limitation in those days; but under modern conditions there is no reason whatever why we should confine our bible to words when a drawing or a map can better express the thing we wish to convey. it is one of the great advantages of the modern book over the ancient book that because of printing it can use pictures as well as words. when books had to be reproduced by copyists the use of pictures was impossible. they would have varied with each copying until they became hopelessly distorted.... § but the cosmological and historical part of the old bible was merely the opening, the groundwork upon which the rest was built. let us now consider what else the bible gave a man and a community, and what would be the modern form of the things it gave. the next thing in order that the bible gave a man and the community to which he belonged was the law. rules of life. rules of health. prescriptions--often very detailed and intimate--of permissible and unpermissible conduct. this also the modern citizen needs and should have: he and she need a book of personal wisdom. first as to health. one of the first duties of a citizen is to keep himself in mental and bodily health in order to be fit for the rest of his duties. now the real bible, our model, is extremely explicit upon a number of points, upon what constitutes cleanness or uncleanness, upon ablutions, upon what a man or woman may eat and what may not be eaten, upon a number of such points. it was for its times and circumstances a directory of healthy practice. well, i do not see why the bible of a modern civilization should not contain a book of similarly clear injunctions and warnings--why we should not tell every one of our people what is to be known about self-care. and closely connected with the care of one's mental and bodily health is sexual morality, upon which again deuteronomy and leviticus are most explicit, leaving very little to the imagination. i am all for imitating the wholesome frankness of the ancient book. where there are no dark corners there is very little fermentation, there is very little foulness or infection. but in nearly every detail and in method and manner, the bible of our civilization needs to be fuller and different from its prototype upon these matters. the real bible dealt with an oriental population living under much cruder conditions than our own, engaged mainly in agriculture, and with a far less various dietary than ours. they had fermented but not distilled liquors; they had no preserved nor refrigerated foods; they married at adolescence; many grave diseases that prevail to-day were unknown to them, and their sanitary problems were entirely different. generally our new leviticus will have to be much fuller. it must deal with exercise--which came naturally to those hebrew shepherds. it must deal with the preservation of energy under conditions of enervation of which the prophets knew nothing. on the other hand our new leviticus can afford to give much less attention to leprosy--which almost dominates the health instructions of the ancient law-giver. i do not know anything very much about the movements in america that aim at the improvement of the public health and at the removal of public ignorance upon vital things. in britain we have a number of powerful organizations active in disseminating knowledge to counteract the spread of this or that infectious or contagious disease. the war has made us in europe much more outspoken and fearless in dealing with lurking hideous evils. we believe much more than we did in the curative value of light and knowledge. and we have a very considerable literature of books on--what shall i call it? on sex wisdom, which aim to prevent some of that great volume of misery, deprivation and nervous disease due to the prevailing ignorance and secrecy in these matters. for in these matters great multitudes of modern people still live in an ignorance that would have been inconceivable to an ancient hebrew. in england now the books of such a writer as dr. marie stopes are enormously read, and--though they are by no means perfect works--do much to mitigate the hidden disappointments, discontents, stresses and cruelties of married life. now i believe that it would be possible to compile a modern leviticus and deuteronomy to tell our whole modern community decently and plainly--just as plainly as the old hebrew bible instructed its hebrew population--what was to be known and what had to be done, and what had not to be done in these intimate matters. but health and sex do not exhaust the problems of conduct. there are also the problems of property and trade and labour. upon these also the old bible did not hesitate to be explicit. for example, it insisted meticulously upon the right of labour to glean and upon the seller giving a "full measure brimming over," and it prohibited usury. but here again the bible is extraordinarily unhelpful when we come to modern issues, because its rules and regulations were framed for a community and for an economic system altogether cruder, more limited and less complicated than our own. much of the old testament we have to remember was already in existence before the free use of coined metal. the vast credit system of our days, joint-stock company enterprise and the like, were beyond the imagination of that time. so too was any anticipation of modern industrialism. and accordingly we live to-day in a world in which neither property nor employment have ever been properly moralized. the bulk of our present social and economic troubles is due very largely to that. in no matter is this muddled civilization of ours more hopelessly at sixes and sevens than in this matter of the rights and duties of property. manifestly property is a trust for the community varying in its responsibilities with the nature of the property. the property one has in one's toothbrush is different from the property one has in ten thousand acres of land; the property one has in a photograph of a friend is different from the property one has in some irreplaceable masterpiece of portraiture. the former one may destroy with a good conscience, but not the latter. at least so it seems to me. but opinions vary enormously on these matters because we have never really worked them out. on the one hand, in this matter of property, we have the extreme individualist who declares that a man has an unlimited right to do what he likes with his own--so that a man who owns a coal mine may just burn it out to please himself or spite the world, or raise the price of coal generally--and on the other hand we have the extreme communist who denies all property and in practice--so far as i can understand his practice--goes on the principle that everything belongs to somebody else or that one is entitled to exercise proprietary rights over everything that does not belong to oneself. (i confess that communistic practice is a little difficult to formulate.) between these extremists you can find every variety of idea about what one may do and about what one may not do with money and credit and property generally. is it an offence to gamble? is it an offence to speculate? is it an offence to hold fertile fields and not cultivate them? is it an offence to hold fertile fields and undercultivate them? is it an offence to use your invested money merely to live pleasantly without working? is it an offence to spend your money on yourself and refuse your wife more than bare necessities? is it an offence to spend exorbitant sums that might otherwise go in reproductive investments, to gratify the whims and vanities of your wife? you will find different people answering any of these questions with yes or no. but it cannot be both yes and no. there must be a definable right or wrong upon all these issues. almost all the labour trouble in the world springs directly from our lack of an effective detailed moral code about property. the freedom that is claimed for all sorts of property and exercised by all sorts of property to waste or withhold is the clue to that savage resentment which flares out nowadays in every great labour conflict. labour is a rebel because property is a libertine. now this untilled field of conduct, this moral wilderness of the rights and duties and limitations of property, the books of the law in a modern bible could clear up in the most lucid and satisfying way. i want to get those parts of deuteronomy and leviticus written again, more urgently than any other part of the modern bible. i want to see it at work in the schools and in the law-courts. i admit that it would be a most difficult book to write and that we should raise controversial storms over every verse. but what an excellent thing to have it out, once for all, with some of these rankling problems! what an excellent thing if we could get together a choice group of representative men--strictly rationed as to paper--and get them to set down clearly and exactly just what classes of property they recognized and what limitations the community was entitled to impose upon each sort. every country in the world does impose limitations. in italy you may not export an ancient work of art, although it is your own. in england you may not maltreat your own dog or cat. in the united states, i am told, you may not use your dollars to buy alcohol. why should we not make all this classification of property and the restraints upon each class of property, systematic and world-wide? if we could so moralize the use of property, if we could arrive at a clear idea of just what use an owner could make of his machinery, or a financier could make of his credit, would there be much left of the incessant labour conflicts of the present time? for if you will look into it, you will find there is hardly ever a labour conflict into which some unsettled question of principle, some unsettled question of the permissible use of property, does not enter as the final and essential dispute. v the bible of civilization part two § in the preceding sections we have discussed genesis and the historical books generally as they would appear in a modernized bible, and we have dealt with the law. but these are only the foundations and openings of the bible as we know it. we come now to the psalms and proverbs, the song of songs, the book of job--and the prophets. what are the modern equivalents of these books? well, what were they? they were the entire hebrew literature down to about the time of ezra; they include sacred songs, love songs, a dramatic dialogue, a sort of novel in the books of ruth and esther, and so forth. what would be our equivalent of this part of the bible to-day? what would be the equivalent for the bible of a world civilization? i suppose that it would be the whole world literature. that, i admit, is a rather tremendous proposition. are we to contemplate the prospect of a modern bible in twenty or thirty thousand volumes? such a vast bible would defeat its own end. we want a bible that everyone will know, which will be grasped by the mind of everyone. that is essential to our idea of a bible as a social cement. fortunately our model bible, as we have it to-day, gives us a lead in this matter. its contents are classified. we have first of all the canonical books, which are treated as the vitally important books; they are the books, to quote the phrase used in the english prayer book, which are "necessary to salvation." and then we have a collection of other books, the apocrypha, the books set aside, books often admirable and beautiful, but not essential, good to be read for "example of life and instruction of manners," yet books that everyone need not read and know. let us take this lead and let us ask whether we can--with the whole accumulated literature of the world as our material--select a bookful or so of matter, of such exceptional value that it would be well for all mankind to read it and know it. this will be our equivalent for the canonical books. i will return to that in a moment. and outside this canonical book or books, shall we leave all the rest of literature in a limitless apocrypha? i am doubtful about that. i would suggest that we make a second intermediate class between the canonical books that everyone in our civilization ought to read and the outer apocrypha that you may read or not as you choose. this intermediate class i would call the great books of the world. it would not be a part of our bible, but it would come next to our bible. it would not be what one must read but only what it is desirable the people should read. now this canonical literature we are discussing is to be the third vital part of our modern bible. i conceive of it as something that would go into the hands of every man and woman in that coming great civilization which is the dream of our race. together with the book of world history and the book of law and righteousness and wisdom that i have sketched out to you, and another book of which i shall have something to say later, this canonical literature will constitute the intellectual and moral cement of the world society, that intellectual and moral cement for the want of which our world falls into political and social confusion and disaster to-day. upon such a basis, upon a common body of ideas, a common moral teaching and the world-wide assimilation of the same emotional and æsthetic material, it may still be possible to build up humanity into one co-operative various and understanding community. now if we bear this idea of a cementing function firmly in mind, we shall have a criterion by which to judge what shall be omitted from and what shall be included in the books of literature in this modern bible of ours. we shall begin, of course, by levying toll upon the old and new testaments. i do not think i need justify that step. i suppose that there will be no doubt of the inclusion of many of the psalms--but i question if we should include them all--and of a number of splendid passages from the prophets. should we include the song of songs? i am inclined to think that the compilers of a new bible would hesitate at that. should we include the book of job? that i think would be a very difficult question indeed for our compilers. the book of job is a very wonderful and beautiful discussion of the profound problem of evil in the world. it is a tremendous exercise to read and understand, but is it universally necessary? i am disposed to think that the book of job, possibly with the illustrations of blake, would not make a part of our canon but would rank among our great books. it is a part of a very large literature of discussion, of which i shall have more to say in a moment. so too i question if we should make the story of ruth or the story of esther fundamental teaching for our world civilization. daniel, again, i imagine relegated to the apocrypha. but to this i will return later. the story of the gospels would, of course, have been incorporated in our historical book, but in addition as part of our first canon, each of the four gospels--with the possible omission of the genealogies--would have a place, for the sake of their matchless directness, simplicity and beauty. they give a picture, they convey an atmosphere of supreme value to us all, incommunicable in any other form or language. again there is a great wealth of material in the epistles. it is, for example, inconceivable that such a passage as that of st. paul's epistle to the corinthians--"though i speak with the tongues of men and angels and have not charity i am become as sounding brass or a tinkling cymbal"--the whole of that wonderful chapter--should ever pass out of the common heritage of mankind. so much from the ancient bible for our modern bible, all its inspiration and beauty and fire. and now what else? speaking in english to an english-speaking audience one name comes close upon the bible, shakespear. what are we going to do about shakespear? if you were to waylay almost any englishman or american and put this project of a modern bible before him, and then begin your list of ingredients with the bible and the whole of shakespear, he would almost certainly say, "yes, yes." but would he be right? on reflection he might perhaps recede and say "not the whole of shakespear," but well, _hamlet_, _the tempest_, _romeo and juliet_, _a midsummer-night's dream_. but even these! are they "generally necessary to salvation"? we run our minds through the treasures of shakespear as we might run our fingers through the contents of a box of very precious and beautiful jewels--before equipping a youth for battle. no. these things are for ornament and joy. i doubt if we could have a single play--a single scene of shakespear's in our canon. he goes altogether into the great books, all of him; he joins the aristocracy of the apocrypha. and, i believe, nearly all the great plays of the world would have to join him there. euripides and sophocles, schiller and ibsen. perhaps some speeches and such-like passages might be quoted in the canon, but that is all. our canon, remember, is to be the essential cementing stuff of our community and nothing more. if once we admit merely beautiful and delightful things, then i see an overwhelming inrush of jewels and flowers. if we admit _a midsummer-night's dream_, then i must insist that we also admit such lovely nonsense as in xanadu did kubla khan a stately pleasure dome decree, where alph the sacred river ran through caverns measureless to man down to a sunless sea.... our canon i am afraid cannot take in such things, and with the plays we must banish also all the novels; the greater books of such writers as cervantes, defoe, dickens, fielding, tolstoi, hardy, hamsun, that great succession of writers--they are all good for "example of life and instruction of manners," and to the apocrypha they must go. and so it is that since i would banish _romeo and juliet_, i would also banish the song of songs, and since i must put away _vanity fair_ and the _shabby genteel story_, i would also put away _esther_ and _ruth_. and i find myself most reluctant to exclude not any novels written in english, but one or two great sweeping books by non-english writers. it seems to me that tolstoi's _war and peace_ and hamsun's _growth of the soil_ are books on an almost biblical scale, that they deal with life so greatly as to come nearest to the idea of a universally inspiring and illuminating literature which underlies the idea of our canon. if we put in any whole novels into the canon i would plead for these. but i will not plead now even for these. i do not think any novels at all can go into our modern bible, as whole works. the possibility of long passages going in, is of course, quite a different matter. and passing now from great plays and great novels and romances, we come to the still more difficult problem of great philosophical and critical works. take _gulliver's travels_--an intense, dark, stirring criticism of life and social order--and the _dialogues of plato_, full of light and inspiration. in these latter we might quarry for beautiful passages for our canon, but i do not think we could take them in as wholes, and if we do not take them in as complete books, then i think that semitic parallel to these greek dialogues, the book of job, must stand not in our canon, but in the great book section of our apocrypha. and next we have to consider all the great epics in the world. there again i am for exclusion. this bible we are considering must be universally available. if it is too bulky for universal use it loses its primary function of a moral cement. we cannot include the _iliad_, the norse sagas, the _Æneid_ or _paradise lost_ in our canon. let them swell the great sack of our apocrypha, and let the children read them if they will. when one glances in this fashion over the accumulated literary resources of mankind it becomes plain that our canonical books of literature in this modern bible of ours can be little more than an anthology or a group of anthologies. perhaps they might be gathered under separate heads, as the 'book of freedom,' the 'book of justice,' the 'book of charity.' and now having done nothing as yet but reject, let me begin to accept. let me quote a few samples of the kind of thing that i imagine would best serve the purpose of our bible and that should certainly be included. here are words that every american knows by heart already--i would like every man in the world to know them by heart and to repeat them. it is lincoln's gettysburg address and i will not spare you a word of it: "fourscore and seven years ago our fathers brought forth on this continent a new nation, conceived in liberty, and dedicated to the proposition that all men are created equal. now we are engaged in a great civil war, testing whether that nation, or any nation so conceived and so dedicated, can long endure. we are met on a great battlefield of that war. we have come to dedicate a portion of that field, as a final resting-place for those who here gave their lives that that nation might live. it is altogether fitting and proper that we should do this. but in a larger sense, we cannot dedicate--we cannot consecrate--we cannot hallow--this ground. the brave men, living and dead, who struggled here, have consecrated it, far above our poor power to add or detract. the world will little note, nor long remember what we say here, but it can never forget what they did here. it is for us, the living, rather, to be dedicated here to the unfinished work which they who fought here have thus far so nobly advanced. it is rather for us to be here dedicated to the great task remaining before us--that from these honored dead we take increased devotion to that cause for which they gave the last full measure of devotion. that we here highly resolve that these dead shall not have died in vain--that this nation, under god, shall have a new birth of freedom--and that government of the people, by the people, for the people, shall not perish from the earth." and here is something that might perhaps make another short chapter in the same book of freedom--but it deals with freedom of a different sort: out of the night that covers me black as the pit from pole to pole, i thank whatever gods may be for my unconquerable soul. in the fell clutch of circumstance i have not winced nor cried aloud, under the bludgeonings of chance, my head is bloody but unbowed. beyond this place of wrath and tears, looms but the horror of the shade, and yet the menace of the years finds and shall find me unafraid. it matters not how strait the gate, how charged with punishments the scroll, i am the master of my fate, i am the captain of my soul. that, as you know, was henley's, and as i turned up his volume of poems to copy out that poem i came again on these familiar lines: the ways of death are soothing and serene, and all the words of death are grave and sweet, from camp and church, the fireside and the street, she beckons forth--and strife and song have been. a summer's night descending cool and green, and dark on daytime's dust and stress and heat, the ways of death are soothing and serene, and all the words of death are grave and sweet. there seems something in that also which i could spare only very reluctantly from a new bible in the world. yet i tender those lines very doubtfully. for i am not a very cultivated and well-read person, and note only the things that have struck upon my mind; but i quite understand that there must be many things of the same sort, but better, that i have never encountered, or that i have not heard or read under circumstances that were favourable to their proper appreciation. i would rather say about what i am quoting in this section, not positively "this thing," but merely "this sort of thing." and in the vein of "this sort of thing" let me quote you--again for the book of freedom--a passage from milton, defending the ancient english tradition of free speech and free decision and praising london and england. this london and england of which he boasts have broadened out as the idea of jerusalem has broadened out, to world-wide comprehensions. let no false modesty blind us to our great tradition; you and i are still thinking in milton's city; we continue, however unworthily, the great inheritance of the world-wide responsibility and service, of his englishmen. here is my passage: "now once again by all concurrence of signs, and by the general instinct of holy and devout men, as they daily and solemnly express their thoughts, god is decreeing to begin some new and great period in his church, even to the reforming of reformation itself; what does he then but reveal himself to his servants, and as his manner is, first to his englishmen? i say, as his manner is, first to us, though we mark not the method of his counsels, and are unworthy. behold now this vast city, a city of refuge, the mansion-house of liberty, encompassed and surrounded with his protection; the shop of war hath not there more anvils and hammers working, to fashion out the plates and instruments of armed justice in defence of beleaguered truth, than there be pens and heads there, sitting by their studious lamps, musing, searching, revolving new notions and ideas wherewith to present, as with their homage and their fealty, the approaching reformation: others as fast reading, trying all things, assenting to the force of reason and convincement. "what could a man require more from a nation so pliant and so prone to seek after knowledge? what wants there to such a towardly and pregnant soil, but wise and faithful labourers, to make a knowing people, a nation of prophets, of sages, and of worthies? we reckon more than five months yet to harvest; there need not be five weeks, had we but eyes to lift up, the fields are white already. where there is much desire to learn, there of necessity will be much arguing, much writing, many opinions; for opinion in good men is but knowledge in the making. under these fantastic terrors of sect and schism, we wrong the earnest and zealous thirst after knowledge and understanding, which god hath stirred up in this city. what some lament of, we rather should rejoice at, should rather praise this pious forwardness among men, to reassume the ill-deputed care of their religion into their own hands again. a little generous prudence, a little forbearance of one another, and some grain of charity might win all these diligencies to join and unite into one general and brotherly search after truth; could we but forego this prelatical tradition of crowding free consciences and christian liberties into canons and precepts of men. i doubt not, if some great and worthy stranger should come among us, wise to discern the mould and temper of a people, and how to govern it, observing the high hopes and aims, the diligent alacrity of our extended thoughts and reasonings in the pursuance of truth and freedom, but that he would cry out as pyrrhus did, admiring the roman docility and courage: 'if such were my epirots, i would not despair the greatest design that could be attempted to make a church or kingdom happy.' "yet these are the men cried out against for schismatics and sectaries, as if, while the temple of the lord was building, some cutting, some squaring the marble, others hewing the cedars, there should be a sort of irrational men, who could not consider there must be many schisms and many dissections made in the quarry and in the timber ere the house of god can be built. and when every stone is laid artfully together, it cannot be united into a continuity, it can but be contiguous in this world: neither can every piece of the building be of one form; nay, rather the perfection consists in this, that out of many moderate varieties and brotherly dissimilitudes that are not vastly disproportional, arises the goodly and the graceful symmetry that commends the whole pile and structure." but i will not go on turning over the pages of books and reciting prose and poetry to you. i cannot even begin to remind you of the immense treasure of noble and ennobling prose and verse that this world has accumulated in the past three thousand years. not one soul in ten thousand that is born into this world even tastes from that store. for most of mankind now that treasure is as if it had never been. is it too much to suggest that we should make some organized attempt to gather up the quintessence of literature now, and make it accessible to the masses of our race? why should we not on a large scale with a certain breadth and dignity set about compiling the poetic books, the books of inspiration for a renewed bible, for a bible of civilization? it seems to me that such a book made universally accessible, made a basis of teaching everywhere could set the key of the whole world's thought. § today there remains one other element if we are to complete the parallelism of the old bible and the new. the christian bible ends with a forecast, the book of revelation; the hebrew bible ended also with forecasts, the prophets. to that the old bible owed much of its magic power over men's imaginations and the inspiration it gave them. it was not a dead record, not an accumulation of things finished and of songs sung. it pointed steadily and plainly to the days to come as the end and explanation of all that went before. so too our modern bible, if it is to hold and rule the imagination of men, must close i think with a _book of forecasts_. we want to make our world think more than it does about the consequences of the lives it leads and the political deeds that it does and that it permits to be done. we want to turn the human imagination round again towards the future which our lives create. we want a collection and digest of forecasts and warnings to complete this modern bible of ours. now here i think you will say--and i admit with perfect reason--that i am floating away from any reasonable possibility at all. how can we have forecasts and prophecies of things that are happening now? well, i will make a clean breast of it, and admit that i am asking for something that may be impossible. nevertheless it is something that is very necessary if men are to remain indeed intelligent co-operating communities. in the past you will find where there have been orderly and successful communities the men in them had an idea of a destiny, of some object, something that would amount to a criterion and judgment upon their collective conduct. well, i believe that we have to get back to something of that sort. we have statesmen and politicians who profess to guide our destinies. whither are they guiding our destinies? surely they have some idea. the great american statesmen and the great european statesmen are making to-morrow. what is the to-morrow they are making? they must have some idea of it. otherwise they must be imposters. i am loth to believe them imposters, mere adventurers who have blundered into positions of power and honour with no idea of what they are doing to the world. but if they have an idea of what they are doing to the world, they foresee and intend a future. that, i take it, is sound reasoning and the inference is plain. they ought to write down their ideas of this future before us. it would be helpful to all of us. it might be a very helpful exercise for them. it is, i think, reasonable for americans to ask the great political personages of america, the president and so forth, for example: whether they think the united states will stand alone in twenty-five years' time as they stand alone now? or whether they think that there will be a greater united states--of all america--or of all the world? they must know their own will about that. and it is equally reasonable to ask the great political personages of the british empire: what will ireland be in twenty-five years' time? what will india be? there must be a plan, an intended thing. otherwise these men have no intentions; otherwise they must be, in two words, dangerous fools. the sooner we substitute a type of man with a sufficient foresight and capable of articulate speech in the matter, the better for our race. and again every statesman and every politician throughout the world says that the relations of industrial enterprise to the labour it employs are unsatisfactory. yes. but how are those relations going to develop? how do they mean them to develop? are we just drifting into an unknown darkness in all these matters with blind leaders of our blindness? or cannot a lot of these things be figured out by able and intelligent people? i put it to you that they can. that it is a reasonable and proper thing to ask our statesmen and politicians: what is going to happen to the world? what sort of better social order are you making for? what sort of world order are you creating? let them open their minds to us, let them put upon permanent record the significance of all their intrigues and manoeuvres. then as they go on we can check their capacity and good faith. we can establish a control at last that will rule presidents and kings. now the answer to these questions for statesmen is what i mean by a _book of forecasts_. such a book i believe is urgently needed to help our civilization. it is a book we ought all to possess and read. i know you will say that such a _book of forecasts_ will be at first a preposterously insufficient book--that every year will show it up and make it more absurd. i quite agree. the first _book of forecasts_ will be a poor thing. miserably poor. so poor that people will presently clamour to have it thoroughly revised. the revised _book of forecasts_ will not be quite so bad. it will have been tested against realities. it will form the basis of a vast amount of criticism and discussion. when again it comes to be revised, it will be much nearer possible realities. i put it to you that the psychology, the mentality of a community that has a _book of forecasts_ in hand and under watchful revision will be altogether steadier and stronger and clearer than that of a community which lives as we do to-day, mere adventurers, without foresight, in a world of catastrophies and accidents and unexpected things. we shall be living again in a plan. our lives will be shaped to certain defined ends. we shall fall into place in a great scheme of activities. we shall recover again some or all of the steadfastness and dignity of the old religious life. § today let me with this _book of forecasts_ round off my fantasy. i would picture to you this modern bible, perhaps two or three times as bulky as the old bible, and consisting first of the historical books with maps and the like; the books of conduct and wisdom; the anthologies of poetry and literature; and finally the book of forecasts, taking the place of the prophets and revelations. i would picture this revivified bible to you as most carefully done and printed and made accessible to all, the basis of education in every school, the common platform of all discussion--just as in the past the old bible used to be. i would ask you to imagine it translated into every language, a common material of understanding throughout all the world. and furthermore, i imagine something else about this--quite unlike the old bible--i imagine all of it periodically revised. the historical books would need to be revised and brought up to date, there would be new lights on health and conduct, there would be fresh additions to the anthologies, and there would be forecasts that would have to be struck out because they were realized or because they were shown to be hopeless or undesirable, and fresh forecasts would be added to replace them. it would be a bible moving forward and changing and gaining with human experience and human destiny.... well, that is my dream of a bible of civilization. have i in any way carried my vision out to you of this little row of four or five volumes in every house, in every life, throughout the world, holding the lives and ideas and imaginations of men together in a net of common familiar phrases and common established hopes? and is this a mere fantastic talk, or is this a thing that could be done and that ought to be done? i do not know how it will appear to you, but to me it seems that this book i have been talking about, the bible of to-day's civilization, is not simply a conceivable possibility, it is a great and urgent need. our education is, i think, pointless without it, a shell without a core. our social life is aimless without it, we are a crowd without a common understanding. only by means of some such unifying instrument, i believe, can we hope to lift human life out of its present dangerous drift towards confusion and disaster. it is, i think therefore, an urgently desirable undertaking. it is also a very practicable one. the creation of such a bible, its printing and its translation, and a propaganda that would carry it into the homes and schools of most of the world, could i think all be achieved by a few hundred resolute and capable people at a cost of thirty or forty million dollars. that is a less sum than that the united states--in a time when they have no enemy to fear in all the world--are prepared to spend upon the building of what is for them an entirely superfluous and extravagant toy, a great navy. you may, you probably will, differ very widely upon much that i have here put before you. let me ask you not to let any of the details of my sketching set you against the fundamental idea, that old creative idea of the bohemian educationist who was the pupil of bacon and the friend of milton, the idea of komensky, the idea of creating and using a common book, a book of knowledge and wisdom, as the necessary foundation for any enduring human unanimity. vi the schooling of the world and now i am going on to a review of the broad facts of the educational organization of our present world. i am myself a very under-educated person. it is a constant trouble to me. like seeks like in this world. i propose to ask the question whether the whole world is not under-educated, and i warn you in advance that i am going to answer in the affirmative. i am going to discuss the possibility of raising the general educational level very considerably, and i am going to consider what such a raising of the educational level would mean in human life. i propose to adopt rather a vulgar, business-like tone about all this. i am going to apply to the human community much the same sort of tests that a manufacturer applies to his factory. his factory has some distinctive product, and when he looks into his affairs he tries to find out whether he gets the utmost quantity of the product, whether he gets the best possible quality of the product, whether he gets it as efficiently and inexpensively as possible, and constantly how he can improve his factory and his processes in all these matters. now the human community may be regarded as a concern engaged in the production of human life. and it may be judged very largely by the question whether the human life it produces is abundant and full and intense and beautiful. most of the tests that we apply to a state or a city or a period or a nation resolve themselves, you will find, into these questions:-- what was the life it produced? what is the life it produces? now i will further assume that as yet the community has little or no control over the raw product, over the life, that is to say, that comes into it. i admit that from at least the time of plato onward the possibility has been discussed of _breeding_ human beings as we do horses and dogs. there is an enormous amount of what is called eugenic literature and discussion to-day. but i will set all that sort of thing aside from our present discussion because i do not think anything of the kind is practicable at the present time. quite apart from any other considerations, one has to remember one entire difference between the possible breeding of human beings and the actual breeding of dogs and horses. we breed dogs and horses for uniformity, for certain very limited specified _points_--speed, scent and the like. but human beings we should have to breed for variety: we cannot specify any particular _points_ we want. we want statesmen and poets and musicians and philosophers and swift men and strong men and delicate men and brave men. the qualities of one would be the weaknesses of another. it is really a false analogy, that between the breeding of men and the breeding of horses and dogs. in the case of human beings we want much more subtle and delicate combinations of qualities. for any practical purposes we do not know what we want nor do we know how to get it. so let us rule that theme out of our present discussion altogether. and i also propose to rule out another set of topics from this discussion--simply because if we don't do so we shall have more matter than we can handle conveniently in the time at our disposal. i propose to leave out all questions of health and physical welfare. there is, as you know, a vast literature now in existence, concerned with the health and welfare of children before and after birth, concerned with infantile life, with social conditions and social work directed to the production of a vigorous population. i am going to assume here that all that sort of thing is seen to--that it is all right, that somebody is doing that, that we need not trouble for the present about any of those things. this leaves us with the mental life only of our community and its individuals to consider. on that i propose to concentrate this discussion. now the human mind in its opening stages in a civilized community passes through a process which may best be named as _schooling_. and under schooling i would include not only the sort of things that we do to a prospective citizen in the school and the infant school but also anything in the nature of a school-like lesson that is done by the mother or nurse or tutor at home, or by playmates and companions anywhere. out of this schooling arises the general mental life. it is the structural ground-stuff of all education and thought. now what is this _schooling_ to do--what is it doing to the new human being? let us recall what our own schooling was. it fell into two pretty clearly defined parts. we learnt reading and writing, we made a certain study of grammar, the method of language, perhaps we learnt the beginnings of some other language than our own; we learnt some arithmetic and perhaps a little geometry and algebra; we did some drawing. all these things were ways of expression, means of expressing ourselves, means of comprehending our thoughts in terms of other people's minds, and of understanding the expressions of others. that was the basis and substance of our schooling; a training in mental elucidation and in communication with other minds. but also as our schooling went on there was something more; we learnt a little history, some geography, the beginnings of science. this second part of education was not so much expression as _wisdom_. we learnt what was generally known of the world about us and of its past. we entered into the common knowledge and common ideas of the world. now, obviously, this _schooling_ is merely a specialization and expansion of a parental function. in the primitive ages of our race the parent, and particularly the mother, out of an instinctive impulse and practical necessity, restrained and showed and taught, and the child, with an instinctive imitativeness and docility, obeyed and learnt. and as the primitive family grew into a tribe, as functions specialized and the range of knowledge widened, this primitive schooling by the mother was supplemented and extended by the showing of things by companions and by the maxims and initiations of old men. it was only with the development of early civilizations, as the mysteries of writing and reading began to be important in life, that the school, _qua_ school, became a thing in itself. and as the community expanded, the scope of instruction expanded with it. schooling is, in fact, and always has been, the expansion and development of the primitive savage mind, which is still all that we inherit, to adapt it to the needs of a larger community. it makes out of the savage raw material which is our basal mental stuff, a citizen. it is a necessary process of fusion if a civilized community is to keep in being. without at least a network of schooled persons, able to communicate its common ideas and act in intelligent co-operation, no community beyond a mere family group can ever hold together. as the human community expands, therefore, the range of schooling must expand to keep pace with it. i want to base my inquiry upon that proposition. if it is sound, certain very interesting conclusions follow. i have already shown in the preceding discussions that the _range_ of the modern state has increased at least ten times in the past century, and that the scale of our community of intercourse has increased correspondingly. i want now to ask if there has been any corresponding enlargement of the scope of the schooling--either of the community as a whole or of any special governing classes in the community--to keep pace with this tremendous extension of range. i am going to argue that there has not been such an enlargement, and that a large factor in our present troubles is the failure of education and educational method to keep pace with the new demands made upon them. now i will first ask what would one like one's son or daughter to get at school to make him or her a full living citizen of this modern world. and at first i will not take into consideration the question of expense or any such practical difficulties. i will suppose that for the education of this fortunate young citizen whose case we are considering we have limitless means, the best possible tutors, the best apparatus and absolutely the most favourable conditions. the only limits to the teaching of this young citizen are his or her own limitations. we suppose a pupil of fair average intelligence only. now first we shall want our pupil to understand, speak, read and write the mother tongue well. to do this thoroughly in english involves a fairly sound knowledge of latin grammar and at least some slight knowledge of the elements of greek. latin and greek, which are disappearing as distinct and separate subjects from many school curricula, are returning as necessary parts of the english course. but nowadays a full life is not to be lived with a single language. the world becomes polyglot. even if we do not want to live among foreigners, we want to read their books and newspapers and understand and follow their thought. few of us there are who would not gladly read and speak several more languages if we had the chance of doing so. i would therefore set down as a desirable part of this ideal education we are planning, two or three other languages in addition to the mother tongue learnt early and thoroughly. these additional languages can be acquired easily if they are learnt in the right way. the easiest way to learn a language is to learn it when you are quite young. many prosperous people in europe nowadays contrive to bring up their children with two or three foreign languages, by employing foreign nurses and nursery governesses who never speak to the children except in the foreign languages. in many cases what is known as the alternate week system prevails. the governess is swiss and for one week she talks nothing but french and for another nothing but german. in this way the children at the age of eight or nine can be made to talk all three languages with a perfect accent and an easy idiom. now, if this can be done for some children it could be done for all children--provided we could find the nurses and governesses or some equivalent for the nurses and governesses, and if we can organize the business efficiently. that point i will defer. i note here simply that the thing is possible, if not practicable. children, however, who have made this much start with languages are unable, in england and america at least, to go on properly with the learning of languages when they pass into a school. our schools are so badly organized that it is rare to find even french well taught, and there is rarely any teaching at all of modern languages other than french or german. often the two foreign languages are taught by different teachers employing different methods, and both employing a different grammatical nomenclature from that used in studying the mother tongue. the classes are encumbered with belated beginners. the child who has got languages from its governess, therefore, marks time--that is to say, wastes time in these subjects at school. the child well grounded in some foreign tongue is often a source of irritation to the teacher, and gets into trouble because it uses idiomatic expressions with which the teacher is unfamiliar, or seems to reflect upon the teacher's accent. these are the limitations of the school and not the limitations of the pupil. _given facilities_, there is no reason why there should not be a rapid expansion of the language syllabus at thirteen or fourteen, and why language generally should not be studied. some slavonic language could be taken up--russian or czech--and a beginning made with some non-aryan tongue--arabic, for example. the object of language teaching in a civilized state is twofold: to give a thorough, intimate, usable knowledge of the mother tongue and of certain key languages. but if teaching were systematic and no time were wasted, if schooling joined on and were continuous instead of being catastrophically disconnected, there is another side of language teaching altogether--now entirely disregarded--and that is the acquisition _in skeleton_ of quite a number of languages clustering round the key languages. if at the end of his schooling a boy knows english, french and german very well and nothing more, he is still a helpless foreigner in relation to large parts of the world. but if, in addition, he has an outline knowledge of russian and arabic or turkish or hindustani--it need only be a quite bare outline--and if he has had a term or so of spanish in relation to his french, or swedish in relation to his german, then he has the key in his hands for almost any language he may want. if he has not the language in his head, he has it very conveniently on call--he needs but a sensible conversation dictionary and in a little while he can possess himself of it. you may think this a large order; you may think i am demanding linguistic prodigies; but remember that i am upon my own ground here; i am a trained teacher and a student of pedagogic science, and i am a watchful parent; i know how time and opportunity are wasted in school, and particularly in language teaching. languages are not things that exist in water-tight compartments; each one illuminates the other and--unless it is taught with stupefying stupidity--leads on to others. a child can acquire the polyglot habit almost unawares. this widening grasp of languages is or was within the capacity of nearly everyone born into the world--given the facilities. i ask you to note that qualification--"given the facilities." and now let us turn from the language side to the rest of schooling. a second main division of our schooling was mathematical instruction of a sort. it fell into the three more or less isolated subjects of arithmetic, algebra and euclid. we carried on in these closed cells what was, i now perceive, a needlessly laborious and needlessly muddled struggle to comprehend quantity, series and form. in all these matters, looking back upon what i was taught, comparing it with what i now know, and comparing my mind with the minds of more fortunate individuals, i cannot resist the persuasion that i was very badly done indeed in this section. and it is small consolation to me to note that most people's minds seem to be no better done than mine. my arithmetic, for instance, is mediocre. it is pervaded by inaccuracy. you may say that this is probably want of aptitude. partly, no doubt, but not altogether. what is want of aptitude? bad as my arithmetic is now it is not so bad as it was when i left school. when i was about twenty i held a sort of inquest upon it and found out a number of things. i found that i had been allowed to acquire certain bad habits and besetting sins--most people do. for instance, when i ran up a column of figures to add them i would pass from nine to seven quite surely and say sixteen; but if i went from seven to nine i had a vicious disposition to make it eighteen. endless additions went wrong through that one error. i had fumbled into this vice and--this is my point--my school had no apparatus, and no system of checks, to discover that this had occurred. i used to get my addition wrong and i used to be punished--stupidly--by keeping me in from exercise. time after time this happened; there was no investigation and no improvement. nobody ever put me through a series of test sums that would have analysed my errors and discovered these besetting sins of mine that led to my inaccurate arithmetic. and another thing that made my arithmetic wrong was a defect in eyesight. my two eyes haven't quite the same focal length and this often puts me out of the straight with a column of figures. but there was nothing in my school to discover that, and my school never did discover it. my geometrical faculties are also very poor and undeveloped. euclid's elements, indeed, i have always found simple and straightforward, but when it comes to anything in solid geometry--the intersection of a sphere by a cone, let us say, or something of that sort--i am hopelessly at sea. deep-seated habits of faulting and fogging, which were actually developed by my schooling, prevent my forming any conception of the surfaces involved. here again, just as with the language teaching, hardly any of us are really fully educated. we suffer, nearly all of us, from a lack of quantitative grasp and from an imperfect grasp of form. few of us have acquired such a grasp. few of us ever made a proper use of models, and nearly all of us have miserably trained hands. _given proper facilities_--and here again i ask you to note that proviso--given proper educational facilities, most of us would not only be able to talk with most people in the world but we should also have a conception of form and quantity far more subtle than that possessed by any but a few mathematicians and mechanical geniuses to-day. let me now come to a third main division of what we call _schooling_. in our schooling there was an attempt to give us a view of the world about us and a view of our place in it, under the headings of history and geography. it would be impossible to imagine a feebler attempt. the history and geography i had was perhaps, in one respect, the next best thing to a good course. it was so thoroughly and hopelessly bad that it left me with a vivid sense of ignorance. i read, therefore, with great avidity during my adolescence. in english schools now i doubt if the teaching of history is much better than it was in my time, but geography has grown and improved--largely through the vigorous initiative of professor huxley, who replaced the old dreary topography by a vivid description of the world and mingled with it a sort of _general elementary science_ under the name of physiography. this subject, with the addition of some elementary biology and physiology does now serve to give many young people in great britain something like a general view of the world as a whole. we need now to make a parallel push with the teaching of history. upon this matter of the teaching of history i am a fanatic. i cannot think of an education as even half done until there has been a fairly sound review of the whole of the known past, from the beginnings of the geological record up to our own time. until that is done, the pupil has not been _placed_ in the world. he is incapable of understanding his relationship to and his rôle in the scheme of things. he is, whatever else he may have learnt, essentially an ignorant person. and now let me recapitulate these demands i have made upon the process of schooling--this process of teaching that begins in the nursery and ends about the age of sixteen or seventeen. i have asked that it should involve a practical mastery of three or four languages, including the mother tongue, and that perhaps four or five other additional languages shall have been studied, so to speak, in skeleton. i have added mathematics carried much higher and farther than most of our schools do to-day. i have demanded a sound knowledge of universal history, a knowledge of general physical and general biological science, and i have thrown in, with scarcely a word of apology, a good training of the eyes and hands in drawing and manual work. so far as the pupil goes, i submit this is an entirely practicable proposal. it can be done, i am convinced, with any ordinary pupil of average all-round ability, given--what is now almost universally wanting--the proper educational facilities. and now i will go on to examine the question of why these facilities are wanting. i want to ask why a large class, if not the whole of our population, is not educated up to the level of wide understanding and fully developed capacity such a schooling as i have sketched out implies. well, the first fact obvious to every parent who has ever enquired closely into the educational outlook of his offspring, the first fact we have to face is this: there are not enough properly equipped schools and, still more, not enough good teachers, to do the job. it is proclaiming no very profound secret to declare that there is hardly such a thing in the world to-day as a fully equipped school, that is to say a school having all the possible material and apparatus and staffed sufficiently with a bright and able teacher, a really live and alert educationist, in every necessary subject, such as would be needed to give this ideal education. that is the great primary obstacle, that is the core of our present problem. we cannot get our modern community educated to anything like its full possibilities as yet because we have neither the teachers nor the schools. now is this a final limitation? for a moment i will leave the question of the possibilities of more and better equipped schools on one side. i will deal with the supply of teachers. at present we do not even attempt to get good teachers; we do not offer any approach to a tolerable life for an ordinary teacher; we compel them to lead mean and restricted lives; we underpay them shockingly; we do not deserve nearly such good teachers as we get. but even supposing we were to offer reasonable wages for teachers; an average all-round wage of £ , a year or so, and respect and dignity; it does not follow that we should get as many as we should need--using the methods that are in use to-day--to provide this ideal schooling for most of our population, or, indeed, for any large section of our population. you will note a new proviso creeping in at this point--"using the methods that are used to-day." because you must remember it is not simply a matter of payment that makes the teacher. teachers are born and not made. good teaching requires a peculiar temperament and distinctive aptitudes. i doubt very much, even if you could secure the services of every human being who had the natural gifts needed in a good teacher, if you could disregard every question of cost and payment, i doubt whether even then you would command the services of more than one passable teacher for a hundred children and of more than one really inspired and inspiring teacher for five hundred children. no doubt you could get _a sort of teacher_ for every score or even for every dozen children, a commonplace person who could be trained to do a few simple educational things, but i am speaking now of good teachers who have the mental subtlety, the sympathy and the devotion necessary for efficient teaching by the individualistic methods in use to-day. and since, _using the methods that are used to-day_, you can only hope to secure fully satisfactory results with one teacher to every score of pupils, or fewer, and since it is unlikely we shall ever be able to command the services of more than a tithe of the people who could teach well, it seems that we come up here against an insurmountable obstacle to an educated population. now i want to press home the idea of that difficulty. i am an old and seasoned educationist; most of my earliest writings are concealed in the anonymity of the london educational papers of a quarter of a century ago, and my knowledge of educational literature is fairly extensive. i know in particular the literature of educational reform. and i do not recall that i have ever encountered any recognition of this fundamental difficulty in the way of educational development. the literature of educational reform is always assuming parents of limitless intelligence, sympathy and means, employing teachers of limitless energy and capacity. and that to an extreme degree is what we haven't got and what we can never hope to have. educational reformers seem always to be looking at education from the point of view of the individual scholastic enterprise and of the individual pupil, and hardly ever from the point of view of a public task dealing with the community as a whole. for all practical purposes this makes waste paper of a considerable proportion of educational literature. this literature, the reader will find, is pervaded by certain fixed ideas. there is a sort of standing objection to any _machining_ of education. there is, we are constantly told, to be no syllabus of instruction, no examinations and no controls, no prescribed text-books or diagrams because these things limit the genius of the teacher. and this goes on with a blissful invincible disregard of the fact that in nine hundred and ninety-nine cases out of the thousand the genius of the teacher isn't and can't be there. and also of the fact that this affair of elementary education has in its essentials been done over and over and over again for thousands of millions of times. there ought to be as much scope left for genius and originality in ordinary teaching as there is for genius and originality in a hen laying an ordinary egg. these educational idealists are always disregarding the fundamental problem of educational organization altogether, the problem of economy, economy of the most precious thing of all, _teaching power_. it is the problem of stretching the competent teacher over the maximum number of pupils, and that can be done only by the same methods of economy that are practised in every other large-scale production--by the standardization of everything that can be standardized, and by the use of every possible time and labour-saving device and every possible replacement of human effort, not in order to dispense with originality and initiative but in order to conserve them for application at their points of maximum efficiency. i have said that a disregard of the possibilities of wide organization and its associated economy of effort is characteristic of most "advanced" educational literature. you will, if you will examine them, find that disregard working out to its natural consequences in what are called the "advanced" schools that appeal to educationally anxious parents nowadays. you will find that these places, often very picturesque and pleasing-looking places, are rarely prosperous enough to maintain more than one or two good teachers. the rest of the staff shrinks from scrutiny. you will find these schools adorned with attractive diagrams drawn by the teachers, and strikingly original models and apparatus made by the teachers, and if you look closely into the matter or consult an intelligent pupil, you will find there are never enough diagrams and apparatus to see a course through. if you press that matter you will find that they haven't had time to make them so far. and they will never get so far. no school, however rich and prosperous and however enthusiastically run, can hope to make for itself all the plant and diagrams and apparatus needed for a fully efficient modern education such as we have sketched out. as well might a busy man hope to array himself, by his own efforts, with hats, suits and boots made by himself out of wool and raw hides. but now i think you will begin to see what i am driving at. it is this: that if the general level of education is to be raised in our modern community, and if that better education is to be spread over most of our community, it is necessary to reorganize education in the world upon entirely bolder, more efficient, and more economical lines. we are inexorably limited as to the number of good teachers we can get into the educational organization, and we are limited as inexorably as to the quality of the rank and file of our teaching profession; but we are not limited in the equipment and systematic organization of teaching methods and apparatus. that is what i want particularly to enlarge upon now. think of the ordinary schoolhouse--a mere empty brick building with a few hat-pegs, a stale map or so, half a dozen plaster casts, a few hundred tattered books, a blackboard, and some broken chemical apparatus: think of it as the dingy insufficiency it is! in such a place the best teacher must needs waste three-fourths of his energies. in such a place staff and pupils meet chiefly to waste each other's time. this is the first and principal point at which we can stanch the wastage of teaching energy that now goes on. everywhere about the world nowadays, the schoolhouse is set up and equipped by a private person or a local authority in more or less complete ignorance of educational possibilities, in more or less complete disconnectedness, without any of the help or any of the economy that comes from a centralized mass production. let us now consider what we might have in the place of this typical schoolhouse of to-day. let me first suggest that every school should have a complete library of very full and explicit lesson notes, properly sorted and classified. all the ordinary subjects in schools have been taught over and over again millions and millions of times. few people, i think, realize that, and fewer still realize the reasonable consequences of that. human minds are very much the same everywhere, and the best way of teaching every ordinary school subject, the best possible lesson and the best possible succession of lessons, ought to have been worked out to the last point, and the courses ought to have been stereotyped long ago. yet if you go into any school to-day, in ninety-nine cases out of the hundred you will find an inexpert and ill-prepared young teacher giving a clumsy, vamped-up lesson as though it had never been given before. he or she will have no proper notes and no proper diagrams, and a halting and faulty discourse will be eked out by feeble scratchings with chalk on a blackboard, by querulous questioning of the pupils, and irrelevancies. the thing is preposterous. and linked up with this complete equipment of proper lesson notes upon which the teacher will give the lessons, there should be a thing which does not exist at present in any school and which ought to exist in every school, a collection of some hundreds of thousands of pictures and diagrams, properly and compactly filed; a copious supply of maps, views of scenery, pictures of towns, and so forth for teaching geography, diagrams and tables for scientific subjects, and so on and so on. you must remember that if the schools of the world were thought of as a whole and dealt with as a whole, these things could be produced wholesale at a cost out of comparison cheaper than they are made to-day. there is no reason whatever why school equipment should not be a world market. a lesson upon the geography of sweden needs precisely the same maps, the same pictures of scenery, types of people, animals, cities, and so forth, whether that lesson is given in china or peru or morocco or london. there is no reason why these pictures and maps should not be printed from the same blocks and distributed from the same centre for the schools of all mankind. if the government of any large country had the vigour and intelligence to go right ahead and manufacture a proper equipment of notes and diagrams for its own use in all its own schools, it would probably be able to recoup itself for most of the outlay by dominating the map and diagram markets of the rest of the world. and next to this full and manageable collection of pictures and diagrams, which the teacher would whip out, with the appropriate notes, five minutes before his lesson began, the modern school would have quite a considerable number of gramophones. these would be used not only to supply music for drill and so forth, and for the analytical study of music, but for the language teaching. instead of the teacher having to pretend, as he usually pretends now, to a complete knowledge of the foreign language he can really only smatter, he would become the honest assistant of the real teaching instrument--the gramophone. here, again, it is a case for big methods or none--a case for mass production. a mass production of gramophone records for language teaching throughout the world would so reduce the cost that every school could quite easily be equipped with a big repertory of language records. for the first year of any language study, at any rate, the work would go always to the accompaniment of the proper accent and intonation. and all over the world each language would be taught with the same accent and quantities and idioms--a very desirable thing indeed. and now let me pass on to another requirement for an efficient school that our educational organization has still to discover--the method of using the cinematograph. i ask for half a dozen projectors or so in every school, and for a well-stocked storehouse of films. the possibilities of certain branches of teaching have been altogether revolutionized by the cinematograph. in nearly every school nowadays you will find a lot of more or less worn and damaged scientific apparatus which is supposed to be used for demonstrating the elementary facts of chemistry, physics and the like. there is a belief that the science teachers--and they do their best with the time and skill and material at their disposal--rig up experimental displays of the more illuminating experimental facts with this damaged litter. many of us can recall the realities of the sort of demonstration i mean. the performance took two or three hours to prepare, an hour to deliver and an hour or so to clear away; it was difficult to follow, impossible to repeat, it usually went wrong, and almost invariably the teacher lost his temper. these practical demonstrations occurred usually in the opening enthusiasm of the term. as the weeks wore on, the pretence of practical teaching was quietly dropped, and we crammed our science out of the text-book. now that is the sort of thing that still goes on. but it ought to be entirely out of date. all that scientific bric-a-brac in the cupboard had far better be thrown away. all the demonstration experiments that science teachers will require in the future can be performed once for all--before a cinematograph. they can be done _finally_; they need never be done again. you can get the best and most dexterous teacher in the world--he can do what has to be done with the best apparatus, in the best light; anything that is very minute or subtle you can magnify or repeat from another point of view; anything that is intricate you can record with extreme slowness; you can show the facts a mile off or six inches off, and all that your actual class teacher need do now is to spend five minutes on getting out the films he wants, ten minutes in reading over the corresponding lecture notes, and then he can run the film, give the lesson, question his class upon it, note what they miss and how they take it, run the film again for a second scrutiny, and get out for the subsequent study of the class the ample supply of diagrams and pictures needed to fix the lesson. can there be any comparison between the educational efficiency of the two methods? so i put it to you, that it is possible now to make--and that the world needs badly that we should make--a new sort of school, a standardized school, a school richly equipped with modern apparatus and economizing the labour of teaching to an extent at present undreamt of, in which, all over the world, the same stereotyped lessons, leading the youth of the whole world through a parallel course of schooling, can be delivered. i know that in putting this before you i challenge some of the most popular affectations of cultivated people. i know that many people will be already writhing with a genteel horror at the idea of the same lesson being given in identical terms to everybody in turn throughout the world. it sounds monotonous. it will rob the world of variety--and so on and so on. but indeed it will not be monotonous at all. that lesson will be new and fresh and good to every pupil who receives it. and remember it is by our hypothesis the best possible form and arrangement of that lesson. it is to take the place of a sham lesson or no lesson at all. there is an eternal freshness in learning as in all the other main things in life. it will be no more monotonous than having one's seventh birthday or falling in love for the first time. and as for variety, i for one do not care how soon every possible variety of ignorance and misconception is banished from the world. the sun shines on the whole world and it is the same sun. i have still to be persuaded that our planet would be more various and interesting if it were lit by two or three thousand uncertain, spasmodic and differently coloured searchlights directed upon it from every direction. i am pleading for a clear white light of education that shall go like the sun round the whole world. you see that in all this i am driving at--what shall i call it?--syndicated schools, syndicated lesson notes, and, so far as equipment goes, mass production. i want to see the sort of thing happening to schools that has already happened to many sorts of retail shops. in the place of little ill-equipped schools, each run by its own teacher and buying its own books and diagrams and material and so forth in small quantities at high prices, i want to see a great central organization, employing teachers of genius, working in consultation and co-operation and producing lesson notes, diagrams, films, phonograph records, cheaply, abundantly, on a big scale for a nation, or a group of nations, or, if you like, for all the world, just as america produces watches and alarum clocks and cheap automobiles for all the world. and i want to see the schools of the world being run, so far as the intellectual training goes, not by local committees but by that _central organization_. it is only by this reorganization of schooling upon the lines of big production that we can hope to get a civilized community in the world at an educational level very markedly higher than the existing educational level. but if we could so economize teaching energy--if we made our really great teachers, by the use of modern appliances, teachers not of handfuls but of millions; if we insisted upon a universal application of the best and most effective methods of teaching, just as we insist upon the best and most effective methods of street traction and town lighting--then i believe it would be possible to build the civilization of the years to come on a foundation of mental preparation incomparably sounder and higher than anything we know of to-day. vii college, newspaper and book and now let us go on to the next stages of education. the schooling process is a natural phase in human development--it is our elaboration of the natural learning of boyhood and girlhood and of adolescence. there was schooling before schools; there was schooling before humanity. i have watched a cat schooling her kittens. schooling is a part of being young. and we grow up. so there comes a time when schooling is over, when the process of equipment gives place to an increasing share in the activities and decisions of adult life. nevertheless for us education must still go on. i suppose that the savage or the barbarian or the peasant in any part of the world or the uneducated man anywhere would laugh if you told him that the adult must still learn. but in our modern world--i mean the more or less civilized world of the last twenty-five centuries or so--there has grown up a new idea--new, i mean, in the sense that it runs counter to the life scheme of primitive humanity and of most other living things--and that is _the idea that one can go on learning right up to the end of life_. it marks off modern man from all animals, that in his adult life he can display a sense that there remains something still to be investigated and wisdom still to be acquired. i do not know enough history to tell you with any confidence when adult men, instead of just going about the business of life after they had grown up, continued to devote themselves to learning, to a deliberate prolongation of what is for all other animals an adolescent phase. but by the time of buddha in india and confucius in china and the schools of the philosophers in the greek world the thing was in full progress. that was twenty-six centuries ago or more. something of the sort may have been going on in the temples of egypt or samaria a score of centuries before. i do not know. you must ask some such great authority as professor breasted about that. it may be fifty or a hundred centuries since men, although they were fully grown up, still went on trying to learn. the idea of adult learning has spread ever since. to-day i suppose most educated people would agree that so long as we live we learn and ought to learn--that we ought to develop our ideas and enlarge, correct and change our ideas. but even to-day you will find people who have not yet acquired this view. you will find even teachers and doctors and business men who are persuaded that they had learnt all that there was to learn by twenty-five or thirty. it is only quite recently that this idea has passed beyond a special class and pervaded the world generally--the idea of everyone being a life-long student and of the whole world becoming, as it were, a university for those who have passed beyond the schooling stage. it has spread recently because in recent years the world has changed so rapidly that the idea of settling down for life has passed out of our minds, has given place to a new realization of the need of continuous adaptation to the very end of our days. it is no good settling down in a world that, on its part, refuses to do anything of the sort. but hitherto, before these new ideas began to spread in our community, the mass of men and women definitely _settled down_. at twelve, or fifteen, or sixteen, or twenty it was decided that they should stop learning. it has only been a rare and exceptional class hitherto that has gone on learning throughout life. the scene and field of that learning hitherto has been, in our western communities, the university. essentially the university is and has been an organization of adult learning as distinguished from preparatory and adolescent learning. but between the phase of schooling and the phase of adult learning there is an intermediate stage. in scotland and america that is distinguished and thought of clearly as the _college stage_. but in england, where we do not think so clearly, this college stage is mixed up with and done partly at school and partly in the university. it is not marked off so definitely from the stage of general preparation that precedes it or from the stage of free intellectual enterprise that follows it. now what should college give the young citizen, male or female, upon the foundation of schooling we have already sketched out? in practice we find a good deal of technical study comes into the college stage. the budding lawyer begins to read law, the doctor starts his professional studies, the future engineer becomes technical, and the young merchant sets to work, or should do, to study the great movements of commerce and business method and organization. as the college stage of those who do not, as a matter of fact, go to college, we have now in every civilized country the evening continuation school, the evening technical school and the works school. but important as these things are from the point of view of service, they are not the _soul_--not the real meaning of the college stage. the soul of the college stage, the most important value about it, is that in it is a sort of preparatory pause and inspection of the whole arena of life. it is the educational concomitant of the stage of adolescence. the young man and the young woman begin to think for themselves, and the college education is essentially the supply of stimulus and material for that process. it was in the college stage that most of us made out our religion and made it real for ourselves. it was then we really took hold of social and political ideas, when we became alive to literature and art, when we began the delightful and distressful enterprise of finding ourselves. and i think most of us will agree when we look back that the most real thing in our college life was not the lecturing and the lessons--very much of that stuff could very well have been done in the schooling stage--but the arguments of the debating society, the discussions that broke out in the classroom or laboratory, the talks in one's rooms about god and religion, about the state and freedom, about art, about every possible and impossible social relationship. now in addition to that i had something else in my own college course--something of the same sort of thing but better. i have spoken of myself as under-educated. my schooling was shocking but, as a blessed compensation, my college stage was rather exceptionally good. my schooling ended when i was thirteen. my father, who was a professional cricketer, was smashed up by an accident, and i had three horrible years in employment in shops. then my luck changed and i found myself under one of the very greatest teachers of his time, professor huxley. i worked at the royal college of science in london for one year under him in his great course in zoology, and for a year and a half under a very good but rather uninspiring teacher, professor judd, the geologist. i did also physics and astronomy. altogether i had three full years of science study. and the teaching of biology at that time, as huxley had planned it, was a continuing, systematic, illuminating study of life, of the forms and appearances of life, of the way of life, of the interplay of life, of the past of life and the present prospect of life. it was a tremendous training in the sifting of evidence and the examination of appearances. every man is likely to be biassed, i suppose, in favour of his own educational course. yet it seems to me that those three years of work were educational--that they gave a vision of the universe as a whole and a discipline and a power such as no other course, no classical or mathematical course i have ever had a chance of testing, could do. i am so far a believer in a biological backbone for the college phase of education that i have secured it for my sons and i have done all i can to extend it in england. nevertheless, important as that formal college work was to me, it still seems to me that the informal part of our college life--the talk, the debates, the discussion, the scampering about london to attend great political meetings, to hear william morris on socialism, auberon herbert on individualism, gladstone on home rule, or bradlaugh on atheism--for those were the lights of my remote student days--was about equally important. if schooling is a training in expression and communication, college is essentially the establishment of broad convictions. and in order that they may be established firmly and clearly, it is necessary that the developing young man or woman should hear all possible views and see the medal of truth not only from the obverse but from the reverse side. now here again i want to put the same sort of questions i have put about schooling. is the college stage of our present educational system anywhere near its maximum possible efficiency? and could it not be extended from its present limited range until it reached practically the whole adolescent community? let me deal with the first of these questions first. could we not do much more than we do to make the broad issues of various current questions plain and accessible to our students in the college stage? for example, there is a vast discussion afoot upon the questions that centre upon property, its rights and its limitations. there is a great literature of collectivist socialism and guild socialism and communism. about these things our young people must know. they are very urgent questions; our sons and daughters will have to begin to deal with them from the moment they leave college. upon them they must form working opinions, and they must know not only what they themselves believe but, if our public affairs are not to degenerate into the squalid, obstinate, hopeless conflicts of prejudiced adherents, they must know also what is believed by other people whose convictions are different from theirs. you may want to hush these matters up. many elderly people do. you will fail. all our intelligent students will insist upon learning what they can of these discussions and forming opinions for themselves. and if the college will not give them the representative books, a fair statement of the facts and views, and some guidance through the maze of these questions, it means merely that they will get a few books in a defiant or underhand way and form one-sided and impassioned opinions. another great set of questions upon which the adolescent want to judge for themselves, and ought to judge for themselves, are the religious questions. and a third group are those that determine the principles of sexual conduct. i know that in all these matters, on both sides of the atlantic, a great battle rages between dogma and concealment on the one hand and open ventilation on the other. upon the issue i have no doubt. i find it hard even to imagine the case for the former side. so long as _schooling_ goes on, the youngster is immature, needs to be protected, is not called upon for judgments and initiatives, and may well be kept under mental limitations. i do not care very much how you censor or select the reading and talking and thinking of the schoolboy or schoolgirl. but it seems to me that with adolescence comes the right to knowledge and the right of judgment. and that it is the _task and duty_ of the college to give matters of opinion in the solid--to let the student walk round and see them from every side. now how is this to be done? i suggest that to begin with we open wide our colleges to propaganda of every sort. there is still a general tendency in universities on both sides of the atlantic to treat propaganda as infection. for the adolescent it is not--it is a stimulating drug. let me instance my own case. i am a man of protestant origins and with a protestant habit of mind. but it is a matter of great regret to me that there is no good roman catholic propaganda available for my sons in their college life. i would like to have the old mother church giving my boys an account of herself and of the part she has played in the history of the world, telling them what she stands for and claims to be, giving her own account of the mass. these things are interwoven with our past; they are part of us. i do not like them to go into a church and stare like foreigners and strangers at the altar. and side by side with that catholic propaganda i would like them to hear an interpretation of religious origins and church history by some non-catholic or sceptical ethnologist. he, too, should be free to tell his story and drive his conclusions home. but you will find most colleges and most college societies bar religious instruction and discussion. what do they think they are training? some sort of genteel recluse--or men and women? so, too, with the discussion of bolshevism. i do not know how things are in america but in england there has been a ridiculous attempt to suppress bolshevik propaganda. i have seen a lot of bolshevik propaganda and it is not very convincing stuff. but by suppressing it, by police seizures of books and papers and the like, it has been invested with a quality of romantic mystery and enormous significance. our boys and girls, especially the brighter and more imaginative, naturally enough think it must be tremendous stuff to agitate the authorities in this fashion. at our universities, moreover, the more loutish types of student have been incited to attack and smash up the youths suspected of such reading. this gives it the glamour of high intellectual quality. the result is that every youngster in the british colleges with a spark of mental enterprise and self-respect is anxious to be convinced of bolshevik doctrine. he believes in lenin--because he has been prevented from reading him. sober collectivists like myself haven't a chance with him. but you see my conception of the college course? its backbone should be the study of biology and its substance should be the threshing out of the burning questions of our day. you may object to this that i am proposing the final rejection of that discipline in classical philosophy which is still claimed as the highest form of college education in the world----the sort of course that the men take in what is called _greats_ at oxford. you will accuse me of wanting to bury and forget aristotle and plato, heraclitus and lucretius, and so forth and so on. but i don't want to do that--_so far as their thought is still alive_. so far as their thought is still alive these men will come into the discussion of living questions now. if they are ancients and dead then let them be buried and left to the archæological excavator. if they are still moderns and alive, i defy you to bury them if you are discussing living questions in a full and honest way. but don't go hunting after them, there are still modern immortals in the darkness of a forgotten language. don't make a superstition of them. let them come hunting after you. either they are unavoidable if your living questions are fully discussed, or they are irrelevant and they do not matter. that there is a wisdom and beauty in the classics which is incommunicable in any modern language, which obviously neither ennobles nor empowers, but which is nevertheless supremely precious, is a kind of nonsense dear to the second-rate classical don, but it has nothing endearing about it for any other human beings. i will not bother you further with that sort of affectation here. and this college course i have sketched should, in the modern state, pass insensibly into adult mental activities. concurrently with it there will be going on, as i have said, a man's special technical training. he will be preparing himself for a life of industrialism, commerce, engineering, agriculture, medicine, administration, education or what not. and as with the man, so with the woman. that, too, is a process which in this changing new world of ours can never be completed. neither of these college activities will ever really leave off. all through his life a man or woman should be confirming, fixing or modifying his or her general opinions; and all the time his or her technical knowledge and power should be consciously increased. and now let me come to the second problem we opened up in connection with college education--the problem of its extension. can we extend it over most or all of a modern population? i don't think we can, if we are to see it in terms of college buildings, class rooms, tutors, professors and the like. here again, just as in the case of schooling, we have to raise the neglected problem--neglected so far as education goes--of economy of effort; and we have to look once more at the new facilities that our educational institutions have so far refused to utilize. our european colleges and universities have a long and honourable tradition that again owes much to the educational methods of the roman empire and the hellenic world. this tradition was already highly developed before the days of printing from movable type, and long before the days when maps or illustrations were printed. the higher education, therefore, was still, as it was in the stone age, largely vocal. and the absence of paper and so forth, rendering notebooks costly and rare, made a large amount of memorizing necessary. for that reason the mediæval university teacher was always dividing his subject into firstly and secondly and fourthly and sixthly and so on, so that the student could afterwards tick off and reproduce the points on his fingers--a sort of thumb and finger method of thought--still to be found in perfection in the discourses of that eminent catholic apologist, mr. hilaire belloc. it is a method that destroys all sense of proportion between the headings; main considerations and secondary and tertiary points get all catalogued off as equivalent numbers, but it was a mnemonic necessity of those vanished days. and they have by no means completely vanished. we still use the lecture as the normal basis of instruction in our colleges, we still hear discourses in the firstly, secondly and thirdly form, and we still prefer even a second-rate professor on the spot to the printed word of the ablest teacher at a distance. most of us who have been through college courses can recall the distress of hearing a dull and inadequate view of a subject being laboriously unfolded in a long series of tedious lectures, in spite of the existence of full and competent text-books. and here again it would seem that the time has come to centralize our best teaching, to create a new sort of wide teaching professor who will teach not in one college but in many, and to direct the local professor to the more suitable task of ensuring by a commentary, by organized critical work, and so forth, that the text-book is duly read, discussed and compared with the kindred books in the college library. this means that the great teaching professors will not lecture, or that they will lecture only to try over their treatment of a subject before an intelligent audience as a prelude to publication. they may perhaps visit the colleges under their influence, but their basis instrument of instruction will be not a course of lectures but a book. they will carry out the dictum of carlyle that the modern university is a university of books. now the frank recognition of the book and not the lecture as the substantial basis of instruction opens up a large and interesting range of possibilities. it releases the process of learning from its old servitude to place and to time. it is no longer necessary for the student to go to a particular room, at a particular hour, to hear the golden words drop from the lips of a particular teacher. the young man who reads at eleven o'clock in the morning in luxurious rooms in trinity college, cambridge, will have no very marked advantage over another young man, employed during the day, who reads at eleven o'clock at night in a bed-sitting-room in glasgow. the former, you will say, may get commentary and discussion, but there is no particular reason why the latter should not form some sort of reading society with his fellows, and discuss the question with them in the dinner hour and on the way to the works. nor is there any reason why he should not get tutorial help as a university extension from the general educational organization, as good in quality as any other tutorial help. and this release of the essentials of a college education from limitations of locality and time brought about by modern conditions, not only makes it unnecessary for a man to come "up" to college to be educated, but abolishes the idea that his educational effort comes to an end when he goes "down." attendance at college no longer justifies a claim to education; inability to enter a college is no longer an excuse for illiteracy. i do not think that our educational and university authorities realize how far the college stage of education has already escaped from the local limitations of colleges; they do not understand what a great and growing volume of adolescent learning and thought, of college education in the highest and best sense of the word, goes on outside the walls of colleges altogether; and on the other they do not grasp the significant fact that, thanks to the high organization of sports and amusements and social life in our more prosperous universities, a great proportion of the youngsters who come in to their colleges never get the realities of a college education at all, and go out into the world again as shallow and uneducated as they came in. and this failure to grasp the great change in educational conditions brought about, for the most part, in the last half-century, accounts for the fact that when we think of any extension of higher education in the modern community we are all too apt to think of it as a great proliferation of expensive, pretentious college buildings and a great multiplication of little teaching professorships, and a further segregation of so many hundreds or thousands of our adolescents from the general community, when as a matter of fact the reality of education has ceased to lie in that direction at all. the modern task is not to multiply teachers _but to exalt and intensify exceptionally good teachers_, to recognize their close relationship with the work of university research--which it is their business to digest and interpret--and to secure the production and wide distribution of books throughout the community. i am inclined to think that the type of adolescent education, very much segregated in out-of-the-way colleges and aristocratic in spirit, such as goes on now at oxford, cambridge, yale, holloway, wellesley and the like, has probably reached and passed its maximum development. i doubt if the modern community can afford to continue it; it certainly cannot afford to extend it very widely. but as i have pointed out, there has always been a second strand to college education--the technical side, the professional training or apprenticeship. here there are sound reasons that the student should go to a particular place, to the special museums and laboratories, to the institutes of research, to the hospitals, factories, works, ports, industrial centres and the like where the realities he studies are to be found, or to the studios or workshops or theatres where they practise the art to which he aspires. here it seems we have natural centres of aggregation in relation to which the college stage of a civilized community, the general adolescent education, the vision of the world as a whole and the realization of the individual place in it, can be organized most conveniently. you see that what i am suggesting here is in effect that we should take our colleges, so far as they are segregations of young people for general adolescent education, and break them as a cook breaks eggs--and stir them up again into the general intellectual life of the community. coupled with that there should, of course, be a proposal to restrict the hours of industrial work or specialized technical study up to the age of twenty, at least, in order to leave time for this college stage in the general education of every citizen of the world. the idea has already been broached that men and women in the modern community are no longer inclined to consider themselves as ever completely adult and finished; there is a growing disposition and a growing necessity to keep on learning throughout life. in the worlds of research, of literature and art and economic enterprise, that adult learning takes highly specialized forms which i will not discuss now; but in the general modern community the process of continuing education after the college stage is still evidently only at a primitive level of development. there are a certain number of literary societies and societies for the study of particular subjects; the pulpit still performs an educational function; there are public lectures and in america there are the hopeful germs of what may become later on a very considerable organization of adult study in the lyceum chautauqua system; but for the generality of people the daily newspaper, the sunday newspaper, the magazine and the book constitute the only methods of mental revision and enlargement after the school or college stage is past. now we have to remember that the bulk of this great organization of newspapers and periodicals and all the wide distribution of books that goes on to-day are extremely recent things. this new nexus of print has grown up in the lifetime of four or five generations, and it is undergoing constant changes. we are apt to forget its extreme newness in history and to disregard the profound difference in mental conditions it makes between our own times and any former period. it is impossible to believe that thus far it is anything but a sketch and intimation of what it will presently be. it has grown. no man foresaw it; no one planned it. we of this generation have grown up with it and are in the habit of behaving as though this nexus had always been with us and as though it would certainly remain with us. the latter conclusion is almost wilder than the former. by what we can only consider a series of fortunate accidents, the press and the book world have provided and do provide a necessary organ in the modern world state, an organ for swift general information upon matters of fact and for the rapid promulgation and diffusion of ideas and interpretations. the newspaper grew, as we know, out of the news-letter which in a manuscript form existed before the roman empire; it owes its later developments largely to the advertisement possibilities that came with the expansion of the range of trading as the railways and suchlike means of communication developed. modern newspapers have been described, not altogether inaptly, as sheets of advertisements with news and discussions printed on the back. the extension of book reading from a small class, chiefly of men, to the whole community has also been largely a response to new facilities; though it owes something also to the religious disputes of the last three centuries. the population of europe, one may say with a certain truth, first learnt to read the bible, and only afterwards to read books in general. a large proportion of the book publishing in the english language in the seventeenth and eighteenth centuries still consisted of sermons and controversial theological works. both newspaper and book production began in a small way as the enterprise of free individuals, without anyone realizing the dimensions to which the thing would grow. our modern press and book trade, in spite of many efforts to centralize and control it, in spite of defence of the realm acts and the like, is still the production of an unorganized multitude of persons. it is not centralized; it is not controlled. to this fact the nexus of print owes what is still its most valuable quality. thoughts and ideas of the most varied and conflicting sort arise and are developed and worked out and fought out in this nexus, just as they do in a freely thinking vigorous mind. i am not, you will note, saying that this freedom is perfect or that the thought process of the print nexus could not go very much better than it does, but i am saying that it has a very considerable freedom and vigour and that so far as it has these qualities it is a very fine thing indeed. now many people think that we are moving in the direction of world socialism to-day. collectivism is perhaps a better, more definite word than socialism, and, so far as keeping the peace goes, and in matters of transport and communication, trade, currency, elementary education, the production and distribution of staples and the conservation of the natural resources of the world go, i believe that the world and the common sense of mankind move steadily towards a world collectivism. but the more co-operation we have in our common interests, the more necessary is it to guard very jealously the freedom of the mind, that is to say, the liberty of discussion and suggestion. it is here that the communist regime in russia has encountered its most fatal difficulty. a catastrophic unqualified abolition of private property has necessarily resulted in all the paper, all the printing machinery, all the libraries, all the news-stalls and book shops, becoming government property. it is impossible to print anything without the consent of the government. one cannot buy a book or newspaper; one must take what the government distributes. free discussion--never a very free thing in russia--has now on any general scale become quite impossible. it was a difficulty foreseen long ago in socialist discussions, but never completely met by the thorough-paced communist. at one blow the active mental life of russia has been ended, and so long as russia remains completely and consistently communist it cannot be resumed. it can only be resumed by some surrender of paper, printing and book distribution from absolute government ownership to free individual control. that can only be done by an abandonment of the full rigours of communist theory. in our western communities the dangers to the intellectual nexus lie rather on the other side. the war period produced considerable efforts at government control and as a consequence considerable annoyance to writers, much concealment and some interference with the expression of opinion; but on the whole both newspapers and books held their own. there is to-day probably as much freedom of publishing as ever there was. it is not from the western governments that mischief is likely to come to free intellectual activity in the western communities but from the undisciplined individual, and from the incitements to mob violence by propagandist religions and cults against free discussion. about the american press i know and can say little. i will speak only of things with which i am familiar. i am inclined to think that there has been a considerable increase of deliberate lying in the british press since , and a marked loss of journalistic self-respect. particular interests have secured control of large groups of papers and pushed their particular schemes in entire disregard of the general mental well-being. for instance, there has recently been a remarkable boycott in the london press of a very able collectivist book, sir leo money's _triumph of nationalization_, because it would have interfered with the operation of very large groups which were concerned in getting back public property into private hands on terms advantageous to the latter. it is a book not only important as a statement of a peculiar economic view, but because of the statesmanlike gravity and clearness of its exposition. i do not think it would have been possible to stand between the public and a writer in this way in the years before . a considerable proportion of the industrial and commercial news is now written to an end. the british press has also suffered greatly from the outbreak of social and nationalist rancour arising out of the great war, the inability of the european mind to grasp the bolshevik issue, and the clumsy blunderings of the versailles settlement. quite half the news from eastern europe that appears in the london press is now deliberate fabrication, and a considerable proportion of the rest is rephrased and mutilated to give a misleading impression to the reader. but people cannot be continuously deceived in this way, and the consequence of this press demoralization has been a great loss of influence for the daily paper. a diminishing number of people now believe the news as it is given them, and fewer still take the unsigned portions of the newspaper as written in good faith. and there has been a consequent enhancement of the importance of signed journalism. men of manifest honesty, men with names to keep clean, have built up reputations and influence upon the ruins of editorial prestige. the exploitation of newspapers by the adventurers of "private enterprise" in business, has carried with it this immense depreciation in the power and honour of the newspaper. i am inclined to think that this swamping of a large part of the world's press by calculated falsehood and partisan propaganda is a temporary phase in the development of the print nexus: nevertheless, it is a very great inconvenience and danger to the world. it stands very much in the way of that universal adult education which is our present concern. reality is horribly distorted. men cannot see the world clearly and they cannot, therefore, begin to think about it rightly. we need a much better and more trustworthy press than we possess. we cannot get on to a new and better world without it. the remedy is to be found not, i believe, in any sort of government control, but in a legal campaign against the one thing harmful--the lie. it would be in the interests of most big advertisers, for most big advertisement is honest; it would be, in the long run, in the interests of the press; and it would mean an enormous step forward in the general mental clarity of the world if a deliberate lie, whether in an advertisement or in the news or other columns of the press, was punishable--punishable whether it did or did not involve anything that is now an actionable damage. and it would still further strengthen the print nexus and clear the mind of the world if it were compulsory to correct untrue statements in the periodical press, whether they had been made in good faith or not, at least as conspicuously and lengthily as the original statement. i can see no impossibility in the realization of either of these proposals, and no objection that a really honest newspaper proprietor or advertiser could offer to them. it would make everyone careful, of course, but i fail to see any grievance in that. the sanitary effect upon the festering disputes of our time would be incalculably great. it would be like opening the windows upon a stuffy, overcrowded and unventilated room of disputing people. given adequate laws to prevent the cornering of paper or the partisan control of the means of distribution of books and printed matter, i believe that the present freedoms and the unhampered individualism of the world of thought, discussion and literary expression are and must remain conditions essential to the proper growth and activity of a common world mind. on the basis of that sounder education i have sketched in a preceding paper, there is possible such an extension of understanding, such an increase of intelligent co-operations and such a clarification of wills as to dissolve away half the difficulties and conflicts of the present time and to provide for the other half such a power of solution as we, in the heats, entanglements and limitations of our present ignorance, doubt and misinformation can scarcely begin to imagine. i do not know how far i have conveyed to you in the last two papers my underlying idea of an education not merely intensive but extensive, planned so economically and so ably as to reach every man and woman in the world. it is a dream not of _individuals educated_--we have thought too much of the individual educated _for_ the individual--but of a _world educated_ to a pitch of understanding and co-operation far beyond anything we know of to-day, for the sake of all mankind. i have tried to show that, given organization, given the will for it, such a world-wide education is possible. i wish i had the gift of eloquence so that i could touch your wills in this matter. i do not know how this world of to-day strikes upon you. i am not ungrateful for the gift of life. while there is life and a human mind, it seems to me there must always be excitements and beauty, even if the excitements are fierce and the beauty terrible and tragic. nevertheless, this world of mankind to-day seems to me to be a very sinister and dreadful world. it has come to this--that i open my newspaper every morning with a sinking heart, and usually i find little to console me. every day there is a new tale of silly bloodshed. every day i read of anger and hate, oppression and misery and want--stupid anger and oppression, needless misery and want--the insults and suspicions of ignorant men, and the inane and horrible self-satisfaction of the well-to-do. it is a vile world because it is an under-educated world, unreasonable, suspicious, base and ferocious. the air of our lives is a close and wrathful air; it has the closeness of a prison--the indescribable offence of crowded and restricted humanity. and yet i know that there is a way out. up certain steps there is a door to this dark prison of ignorance, prejudice and passion in which we live--and that door is only locked on the inside. it is within our power, given the will for it, given the courage for it--it is within our power to go out. the key to all our human disorder is organized education, comprehensive and universal. the watchword of conduct that will clear up all our difficulties is, the _plain truth_. rely upon that watchword, use that key with courage and we can go out of the prison in which we live; we can go right out of the conditions of war, shortage, angry scrambling, mutual thwarting and malaise and disease in which we live; we and our kind can go out into sunlight, into a sweet air of understanding, into confident freedoms and a full creative life--for ever. i do not know--i do not dare to believe--that i shall live to hear that key grating in the lock. it may be our children and our children's children will still be living in this jail. but a day will surely come when that door will open wide and all our race will pass out from this magic prison of ignorance, suspicion and indiscipline in which we now all suffer together. viii the envoy in the preceding papers i have, with some repetition and much stumbling, set out a fairly complete theory of what men and women have to do at the present time if human life is to go on hopefully to any great happiness and achievement in the days to come. much of this material was first prepared to be delivered to a lecture audience, and i regret that ill-health has prevented a complete re-writing of these portions. there is more of the uplifted forefinger and the reiterated point than i should have allowed myself in an essay. but this is a loss of grace rather than of clearness. and since i am stating a case and not offering the reader anything professing to be a literary work, i shall not apologise for finally summing up and underlining the chief points of this book. they are, firstly: that a great change in human conditions has been brought about during the past century, and secondly that a vast task of adaptation, which must be, initially and fundamentally, _mental_ adaptation, has to be undertaken by our race. it is a task which politicians, who live from day to day, and statesmen, who live from event to event, may hinder or aid very greatly, but which they cannot be expected to conduct or control. politicians and statesmen perforce live and work in the scheme of ideas they find about them; the conditions of their activities are made for them. they can be compelled by the weight of public opinion to help it, but the driving force for this great task must come not from official sources but from the steadfast educational pressure of a great and growing multitude of convinced people. in times of fluctuation and dissolving landmarks, the importance of the teacher--using the word in its widest sense--rises with the progressive dissolution of the established order. the creative responsibility for the world to-day passes steadily into the hands of writers and school teachers, students of social and economic science, professors and poets, editors and journalists, publishers and newspaper proprietors, preachers, every sort of propagandist and every sort of disinterested person who can give time and energy to the reconstruction of the social idea. human life will continue to be more and more dangerously chaotic until a world social idea crystallizes out. that--and no existing institution and no current issue--is the primary concern of the present age. we need, therefore, before all other sorts of organization, educational organizations; we need, before any other sort of work, work of education and enlightenment; we need everywhere active societies pressing for a better, more efficient conduct of public schooling, for a wider, more enlightening school curriculum, for a world-wide linking-up of educational systems, for a ruthless subordination of naval, military and court expenditure to educational needs, and for a systematic discouragement of mischief-making between nation and nation and race and race and class and class. i could wish to see educational societies, organized as such, springing up everywhere, watching local bodies in order to divert economies from the educational starvation of a district to other less harmful saving; watching for obscurantism and reaction and mischievous nationalist teaching in the local schools and colleges and in the local press; watching members of parliament and congressmen for evidences of educational good-will or malignity; watching and getting control of the administration of public libraries; assisting, when necessary, in the supply of sound literature in their districts; raising funds for invigorating educational propaganda in poor countries like china and in atrociously educated countries like ireland, and corresponding with kindred societies throughout the world. i believe such societies would speedily become much more influential than the ordinary political party clubs and associations that now use up so much human energy in the western communities. subordinating all vulgar political considerations to educational development as the supreme need in the world's affairs, even quite small societies could exercise a powerful decisive voice in a great number of political contests. and an educational movement is more tenacious than any other sort of social or political movement whatever. it trains its adherents. what it wins it holds. i know that in thus putting all the importance upon educational needs at the present time i shall seem to many readers to be ignoring quite excessively the profound racial, social and economic conflicts that are in progress. i do. i believe we shall never get on with human affairs until we do ignore them. i offer no suggestion whatever as to what sides people should take in such an issue as that between france and germany or between sinn fein and the british government, or in the class war. i offer no such suggestion because i believe that all these conflicts and all such current conflicts are so irrational and destructive that it is impossible for a sane man who wishes to serve the world to identify himself with either side in any of them. these conflicts are mere aspects of the gross and passionate stupidity and ignorance and sectionalism of our present world. the class war, the push for and the resistance to some vague reorganization called the social revolution--such things are the natural inevitable result of the sordid moral and intellectual muddle of our common ideas about property. the capitalist, the employer, the property-owning class, as a class, have neither the intelligence nor the conscience to comprehend any moral limitations, any limitations whatever but the strong arm of the law, upon what they do with their property. their black and obstinate ignorance, the clumsy adventurousness they call private enterprise, their unconscious insolence to poor people, their stupidly conspicuous self-indulgence, produce as a necessary result the black hatred of the employed and the expropriated. on one side we have greed, insensibility and incapacity, on the other envy and suffering stung to vindictive revolt: on neither side light nor generosity nor creative will. neither side has any power to give us any reality we need. neither side is more than a hate and an aggression. how can one take sides between them? the present system, _unless it can develop a better intelligence and a better heart_, is manifestly destined to foster fresh wars and to continue wasting what is left of the substance of mankind, until absolute social disaster overtakes us all. and manifestly the revolutionary communist, _at his present level of education_, has neither the plans nor the capacity to substitute any more efficient system for this crazy edifice of ill-disciplined private enterprise that is now blundering to destruction. but at a higher level of intelligence, at a level at which it is possible to define the limitations of private property clearly and to ensure a really loyal and effectual co-operation between individual and state, this issue--this wholly destructive conflict between the property manipulator and the communist fanatic which is now rapidly wrecking our world--disappears. it disappears as completely as the causes of a murderous conflict between two drunken men will disappear when they are separated and put under a stream of clear cold water. so it is that, in spite of their apparent urgency, i ask the reader to detach himself from these present conflicts of national politics, of political parties and of the class war as completely as he can; or, if he cannot detach himself completely, then to play such a part in them, regardless of any other consideration, as may be most conducive to a wide-thinking, wide-ranging education upon which we can base a new world order. a resolute push for quite a short period now might reconstruct the entire basis of our collective human life. in this book i have tried to show what form that push should take, to show that it has a reasonable hope of an ultimate success, and that unless it is made, the outlook for mankind is likely to 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and numerous short stories now collected in one volume under the title of the country of the blind a series of books upon social, religious and political questions: anticipations ( ) mankind in the making first and last things new worlds for old a modern utopia the future in america an englishman looks at the world what is coming? war and the future in the fourth year god the invisible king the outline of history russia in the shadows and two little books about children's play, called: floor games and little wars [illustration: he sat down in a garden, with his back to a house that overlooked all london.] the food of the gods and how it came to earth h.g. wells [illustration] contents. book i. the dawn of the food. i. the discovery of the food ii. the experimental farm iii. the giant rats iv. the giant children v. the minimificence of mr. bensington book ii. the food in the village. i. the coming of the food ii. the brat gigantic book iii. the harvest of the food. i. the altered world ii. the giant lovers iii. young caddles in london iv. redwood's two days v. the giant leaguer book i. the dawn of the food. the food of the gods. chapter the first. the discovery of the food. i. in the middle years of the nineteenth century there first became abundant in this strange world of ours a class of men, men tending for the most part to become elderly, who are called, and who are very properly called, but who dislike extremely to be called--"scientists." they dislike that word so much that from the columns of _nature_, which was from the first their distinctive and characteristic paper, it is as carefully excluded as if it were--that other word which is the basis of all really bad language in this country. but the great public and its press know better, and "scientists" they are, and when they emerge to any sort of publicity, "distinguished scientists" and "eminent scientists" and "well-known scientists" is the very least we call them. certainly both mr. bensington and professor redwood quite merited any of these terms long before they came upon the marvellous discovery of which this story tells. mr. bensington was a fellow of the royal society and a former president of the chemical society, and professor redwood was professor of physiology in the bond street college of the london university, and he had been grossly libelled by the anti-vivisectionists time after time. and they had led lives of academic distinction from their very earliest youth. they were of course quite undistinguished looking men, as indeed all true scientists are. there is more personal distinction about the mildest-mannered actor alive than there is about the entire royal society. mr. bensington was short and very, very bald, and he stooped slightly; he wore gold-rimmed spectacles and cloth boots that were abundantly cut open because of his numerous corns, and professor redwood was entirely ordinary in his appearance. until they happened upon the food of the gods (as i must insist upon calling it) they led lives of such eminent and studious obscurity that it is hard to find anything whatever to tell the reader about them. mr. bensington won his spurs (if one may use such an expression of a gentleman in boots of slashed cloth) by his splendid researches upon the more toxic alkaloids, and professor redwood rose to eminence--i do not clearly remember how he rose to eminence! i know he was very eminent, and that's all. things of this sort grow. i fancy it was a voluminous work on reaction times with numerous plates of sphygmograph tracings (i write subject to correction) and an admirable new terminology, that did the thing for him. the general public saw little or nothing of either of these gentlemen. sometimes at places like the royal institution and the society of arts it did in a sort of way see mr. bensington, or at least his blushing baldness and something of his collar and coat, and hear fragments of a lecture or paper that he imagined himself to be reading audibly; and once i remember--one midday in the vanished past--when the british association was at dover, coming on section c or d, or some such letter, which had taken up its quarters in a public-house, and following two, serious-looking ladies with paper parcels, out of mere curiosity, through a door labelled "billiards" and "pool" into a scandalous darkness, broken only by a magic-lantern circle of redwood's tracings. i watched the lantern slides come and go, and listened to a voice (i forget what it was saying) which i believe was the voice of professor redwood, and there was a sizzling from the lantern and another sound that kept me there, still out of curiosity, until the lights were unexpectedly turned up. and then i perceived that this sound was the sound of the munching of buns and sandwiches and things that the assembled british associates had come there to eat under cover of the magic-lantern darkness. and redwood i remember went on talking all the time the lights were up and dabbing at the place where his diagram ought to have been visible on the screen--and so it was again so soon as the darkness was restored. i remember him then as a most ordinary, slightly nervous-looking dark man, with an air of being preoccupied with something else, and doing what he was doing just then under an unaccountable sense of duty. i heard bensington also once--in the old days--at an educational conference in bloomsbury. like most eminent chemists and botanists, mr. bensington was very authoritative upon teaching--though i am certain he would have been scared out of his wits by an average board school class in half-an-hour--and so far as i can remember now, he was propounding an improvement of professor armstrong's heuristic method, whereby at the cost of three or four hundred pounds' worth of apparatus, a total neglect of all other studies and the undivided attention of a teacher of exceptional gifts, an average child might with a peculiar sort of thumby thoroughness learn in the course of ten or twelve years almost as much chemistry as one could get in one of those objectionable shilling text-books that were then so common.... quite ordinary persons you perceive, both of them, outside their science. or if anything on the unpractical side of ordinary. and that you will find is the case with "scientists" as a class all the world over. what there is great of them is an annoyance to their fellow scientists and a mystery to the general public, and what is not is evident. there is no doubt about what is not great, no race of men have such obvious littlenesses. they live in a narrow world so far as their human intercourse goes; their researches involve infinite attention and an almost monastic seclusion; and what is left over is not very much. to witness some queer, shy, misshapen, grey-headed, self-important, little discoverer of great discoveries, ridiculously adorned with the wide ribbon of some order of chivalry and holding a reception of his fellow-men, or to read the anguish of _nature_ at the "neglect of science" when the angel of the birthday honours passes the royal society by, or to listen to one indefatigable lichenologist commenting on the work of another indefatigable lichenologist, such things force one to realise the unfaltering littleness of men. and withal the reef of science that these little "scientists" built and are yet building is so wonderful, so portentous, so full of mysterious half-shapen promises for the mighty future of man! they do not seem to realise the things they are doing! no doubt long ago even mr. bensington, when he chose this calling, when he consecrated his life to the alkaloids and their kindred compounds, had some inkling of the vision,--more than an inkling. without some such inspiration, for such glories and positions only as a "scientist" may expect, what young man would have given his life to such work, as young men do? no, they _must_ have seen the glory, they must have had the vision, but so near that it has blinded them. the splendour has blinded them, mercifully, so that for the rest of their lives they can hold the lights of knowledge in comfort--that we may see! and perhaps it accounts for redwood's touch of preoccupation, that--there can be no doubt of it now--he among his fellows was different, he was different inasmuch as something of the vision still lingered in his eyes. ii. the food of the gods i call it, this substance that mr. bensington and professor redwood made between them; and having regard now to what it has already done and all that it is certainly going to do, there is surely no exaggeration in the name. so i shall continue to call it therefore throughout my story. but mr. bensington would no more have called it that in cold blood than he would have gone out from his flat in sloane street clad in regal scarlet and a wreath of laurel. the phrase was a mere first cry of astonishment from him. he called it the food of the gods, in his enthusiasm and for an hour or so at the most altogether. after that he decided he was being absurd. when he first thought of the thing he saw, as it were, a vista of enormous possibilities--literally enormous possibilities; but upon this dazzling vista, after one stare of amazement, he resolutely shut his eyes, even as a conscientious "scientist" should. after that, the food of the gods sounded blatant to the pitch of indecency. he was surprised he had used the expression. yet for all that something of that clear-eyed moment hung about him and broke out ever and again.... "really, you know," he said, rubbing his hands together and laughing nervously, "it has more than a theoretical interest. "for example," he confided, bringing his face close to the professor's and dropping to an undertone, "it would perhaps, if suitably handled, _sell_.... "precisely," he said, walking away,--"as a food. or at least a food ingredient. "assuming of course that it is palatable. a thing we cannot know till we have prepared it." he turned upon the hearthrug, and studied the carefully designed slits upon his cloth shoes. "name?" he said, looking up in response to an inquiry. "for my part i incline to the good old classical allusion. it--it makes science res--. gives it a touch of old-fashioned dignity. i have been thinking ... i don't know if you will think it absurd of me.... a little fancy is surely occasionally permissible.... herakleophorbia. eh? the nutrition of a possible hercules? you know it _might_ ... "of course if you think _not_--" redwood reflected with his eyes on the fire and made no objection. "you think it would do?" redwood moved his head gravely. "it might be titanophorbia, you know. food of titans.... you prefer the former? "you're quite sure you don't think it a little _too_--" "no." "ah! i'm glad." and so they called it herakleophorbia throughout their investigations, and in their report,--the report that was never published, because of the unexpected developments that upset all their arrangements,--it is invariably written in that way. there were three kindred substances prepared before they hit on the one their speculations had foretolds and these they spoke of as herakleophorbia i, herakleophorbia ii, and herakleophorbia iii. it is herakleophorbia iv. which i--insisting upon bensington's original name--call here the food of the gods. iii. the idea was mr. bensington's. but as it was suggested to him by one of professor redwood's contributions to the philosophical transactions, he very properly consulted that gentleman before he carried it further. besides which it was, as a research, a physiological, quite as much as a chemical inquiry. professor redwood was one of those scientific men who are addicted to tracings and curves. you are familiar--if you are at all the sort of reader i like--with the sort of scientific paper i mean. it is a paper you cannot make head nor tail of, and at the end come five or six long folded diagrams that open out and show peculiar zigzag tracings, flashes of lightning overdone, or sinuous inexplicable things called "smoothed curves" set up on ordinates and rooting in abscissae--and things like that. you puzzle over the thing for a long time and end with the suspicion that not only do you not understand it but that the author does not understand it either. but really you know many of these scientific people understand the meaning of their own papers quite well: it is simply a defect of expression that raises the obstacle between us. i am inclined to think that redwood thought in tracings and curves. and after his monumental work upon reaction times (the unscientific reader is exhorted to stick to it for a little bit longer and everything will be as clear as daylight) redwood began to turn out smoothed curves and sphygmographeries upon growth, and it was one of his papers upon growth that really gave mr. bensington his idea. redwood, you know, had been measuring growing things of all sorts, kittens, puppies, sunflowers, mushrooms, bean plants, and (until his wife put a stop to it) his baby, and he showed that growth went out not at a regular pace, or, as he put it, so, / / / / / / / / / / / but with bursts and intermissions of this sort, _____ / / _____/ / / _____/ / / / and that apparently nothing grew regularly and steadily, and so far as he could make out nothing could grow regularly and steadily: it was as if every living thing had just to accumulate force to grow, grew with vigour only for a time, and then had to wait for a space before it could go on growing again. and in the muffled and highly technical language of the really careful "scientist," redwood suggested that the process of growth probably demanded the presence of a considerable quantity of some necessary substance in the blood that was only formed very slowly, and that when this substance was used up by growth, it was only very slowly replaced, and that meanwhile the organism had to mark time. he compared his unknown substance to oil in machinery. a growing animal was rather like an engine, he suggested, that can move a certain distance and must then be oiled before it can run again. ("but why shouldn't one oil the engine from without?" said mr. bensington, when he read the paper.) and all this, said redwood, with the delightful nervous inconsecutiveness of his class, might very probably be found to throw a light upon the mystery of certain of the ductless glands. as though they had anything to do with it at all! in a subsequent communication redwood went further. he gave a perfect brock's benefit of diagrams--exactly like rocket trajectories they were; and the gist of it--so far as it had any gist--was that the blood of puppies and kittens and the sap of sunflowers and the juice of mushrooms in what he called the "growing phase" differed in the proportion of certain elements from their blood and sap on the days when they were not particularly growing. and when mr. bensington, after holding the diagrams sideways and upside down, began to see what this difference was, a great amazement came upon him. because, you see, the difference might probably be due to the presence of just the very substance he had recently been trying to isolate in his researches upon such alkaloids as are most stimulating to the nervous system. he put down redwood's paper on the patent reading-desk that swung inconveniently from his arm-chair, took off his gold-rimmed spectacles, breathed on them and wiped them very carefully. "by jove!" said mr. bensington. then replacing his spectacles again he turned to the patent reading-desk, which immediately, as his elbow came against its arm, gave a coquettish squeak and deposited the paper, with all its diagrams in a dispersed and crumpled state, on the floor. "by jove!" said mr. bensington, straining his stomach over the arm-chair with a patient disregard of the habits of this convenience, and then, finding the pamphlet still out of reach, he went down on all fours in pursuit. it was on the floor that the idea of calling it the food of the gods came to him.... for you see, if he was right and redwood was right, then by injecting or administering this new substance of his in food, he would do away with the "resting phase," and instead of growth going on in this fashion, _____ / / _____/ / / _____/ / / / it would (if you follow me) go thus-- / / / / / / / / / / / iv. the night after his conversation with redwood mr. bensington could scarcely sleep a wink. he did seem once to get into a sort of doze, but it was only for a moment, and then he dreamt he had dug a deep hole into the earth and poured in tons and tons of the food of the gods, and the earth was swelling and swelling, and all the boundaries of the countries were bursting, and the royal geographical society was all at work like one great guild of tailors letting out the equator.... that of course was a ridiculous dream, but it shows the state of mental excitement into which mr. bensington got and the real value he attached to his idea, much better than any of the things he said or did when he was awake and on his guard. or i should not have mentioned it, because as a general rule i do not think it is at all interesting for people to tell each other about their dreams. by a singular coincidence redwood also had a dream that night, and his dream was this:-- | | | | | | | | | | it was a diagram done in fire upon a long scroll of the abyss. and he (redwood) was standing on a planet before a sort of black platform lecturing about the new sort of growth that was now possible, to the more than royal institution of primordial forces--forces which had always previously, even in the growth of races, empires, planetary systems, and worlds, gone so:-- _____ / _____/ / _____/ / / and even in some cases so:-- ____ / \ _____/ / / and he was explaining to them quite lucidly and convincingly that these slow, these even retrogressive methods would be very speedily quite put out of fashion by his discovery. ridiculous of course! but that too shows-- that either dream is to be regarded as in any way significant or prophetic beyond what i have categorically said, i do not for one moment suggest. chapter the second. the experimental farm. i. mr. bensington proposed originally to try this stuff, so soon as he was really able to prepare it, upon tadpoles. one always does try this sort of thing upon tadpoles to begin with; this being what tadpoles are for. and it was agreed that he should conduct the experiments and not redwood, because redwood's laboratory was occupied with the ballistic apparatus and animals necessary for an investigation into the diurnal variation in the butting frequency of the young bull calf, an investigation that was yielding curves of an abnormal and very perplexing sort, and the presence of glass globes of tadpoles was extremely undesirable while this particular research was in progress. but when mr. bensington conveyed to his cousin jane something of what he had in mind, she put a prompt veto upon the importation of any considerable number of tadpoles, or any such experimental creatures, into their flat. she had no objection whatever to his use of one of the rooms of the flat for the purposes of a non-explosive chemistry that, so far as she was concerned, came to nothing; she let him have a gas furnace and a sink and a dust-tight cupboard of refuge from the weekly storm of cleaning she would not forego. and having known people addicted to drink, she regarded his solicitude for distinction in learned societies as an excellent substitute for the coarser form of depravity. but any sort of living things in quantity, "wriggly" as they were bound to be alive and "smelly" dead, she could not and would not abide. she said these things were certain to be unhealthy, and bensington was notoriously a delicate man--it was nonsense to say he wasn't. and when bensington tried to make the enormous importance of this possible discovery clear, she said that it was all very well, but if she consented to his making everything nasty and unwholesome in the place (and that was what it all came to) then she was certain he would be the first to complain. and mr. bensington went up and down the room, regardless of his corns, and spoke to her quite firmly and angrily without the slightest effect. he said that nothing ought to stand in the way of the advancement of science, and she said that the advancement of science was one thing and having a lot of tadpoles in a flat was another; he said that in germany it was an ascertained fact that a man with an idea like his would at once have twenty thousand properly-fitted cubic feet of laboratory placed at his disposal, and she said she was glad and always had been glad that she was not a german; he said that it would make him famous for ever, and she said it was much more likely to make him ill to have a lot of tadpoles in a flat like theirs; he said he was master in his own house, and she said that rather than wait on a lot of tadpoles she'd go as matron to a school; and then he asked her to be reasonable, and she asked _him_ to be reasonable then and give up all this about tadpoles; and he said she might respect his ideas, and she said not if they were smelly she wouldn't, and then he gave way completely and said--in spite of the classical remarks of huxley upon the subject--a bad word. not a very bad word it was, but bad enough. and after that she was greatly offended and had to be apologised to, and the prospect of ever trying the food of the gods upon tadpoles in their flat at any rate vanished completely in the apology. so bensington had to consider some other way of carrying out these experiments in feeding that would be necessary to demonstrate his discovery, so soon as he had his substance isolated and prepared. for some days he meditated upon the possibility of boarding out his tadpoles with some trustworthy person, and then the chance sight of the phrase in a newspaper turned his thoughts to an experimental farm. and chicks. directly he thought of it, he thought of it as a poultry farm. he was suddenly taken with a vision of wildly growing chicks. he conceived a picture of coops and runs, outsize and still more outsize coops, and runs progressively larger. chicks are so accessible, so easily fed and observed, so much drier to handle and measure, that for his purpose tadpoles seemed to him now, in comparison with them, quite wild and uncontrollable beasts. he was quite puzzled to understand why he had not thought of chicks instead of tadpoles from the beginning. among other things it would have saved all this trouble with his cousin jane. and when he suggested this to redwood, redwood quite agreed with him. redwood said that in working so much upon needlessly small animals he was convinced experimental physiologists made a great mistake. it is exactly like making experiments in chemistry with an insufficient quantity of material; errors of observation and manipulation become disproportionately large. it was of extreme importance just at present that scientific men should assert their right to have their material _big_. that was why he was doing his present series of experiments at the bond street college upon bull calves, in spite of a certain amount of inconvenience to the students and professors of other subjects caused by their incidental levity in the corridors. but the curves he was getting were quite exceptionally interesting, and would, when published, amply justify his choice. for his own part, were it not for the inadequate endowment of science in this country, he would never, if he could avoid it, work on anything smaller than a whale. but a public vivarium on a sufficient scale to render this possible was, he feared, at present, in this country at any rate, a utopian demand. in germany--etc. as redwood's bull calves needed his daily attention, the selection and equipment of the experimental farm fell largely on bensington. the entire cost also, was, it was understood, to be defrayed by bensington, at least until a grant could be obtained. accordingly he alternated his work in the laboratory of his flat with farm hunting up and down the lines that run southward out of london, and his peering spectacles, his simple baldness, and his lacerated cloth shoes filled the owners of numerous undesirable properties with vain hopes. and he advertised in several daily papers and _nature_ for a responsible couple (married), punctual, active, and used to poultry, to take entire charge of an experimental farm of three acres. he found the place he seemed in need of at hickleybrow, near urshot, in kent. it was a little queer isolated place, in a dell surrounded by old pine woods that were black and forbidding at night. a humped shoulder of down cut it off from the sunset, and a gaunt well with a shattered penthouse dwarfed the dwelling. the little house was creeperless, several windows were broken, and the cart shed had a black shadow at midday. it was a mile and a half from the end house of the village, and its loneliness was very doubtfully relieved by an ambiguous family of echoes. the place impressed bensington as being eminently adapted to the requirements of scientific research. he walked over the premises sketching out coops and runs with a sweeping arm, and he found the kitchen capable of accommodating a series of incubators and foster mothers with the very minimum of alteration. he took the place there and then; on his way back to london he stopped at dunton green and closed with an eligible couple that had answered his advertisements, and that same evening he succeeded in isolating a sufficient quantity of herakleophorbia i. to more than justify these engagements. the eligible couple who were destined under mr. bensington to be the first almoners on earth of the food of the gods, were not only very perceptibly aged, but also extremely dirty. this latter point mr. bensington did not observe, because nothing destroys the powers of general observation quite so much as a life of experimental science. they were named skinner, mr. and mrs. skinner, and mr. bensington interviewed them in a small room with hermetically sealed windows, a spotted overmantel looking-glass, and some ailing calceolarias. mrs. skinner was a very little old woman, capless, with dirty white hair drawn back very very tightly from a face that had begun by being chiefly, and was now, through the loss of teeth and chin, and the wrinkling up of everything else, ending by being almost exclusively--nose. she was dressed in slate colour (so far as her dress had any colour) slashed in one place with red flannel. she let him in and talked to him guardedly and peered at him round and over her nose, while mr. skinner she alleged made some alteration in his toilette. she had one tooth that got into her articulations and she held her two long wrinkled hands nervously together. she told mr. bensington that she had managed fowls for years; and knew all about incubators; in fact, they themselves had run a poultry farm at one time, and it had only failed at last through the want of pupils. "it's the pupils as pay," said mrs. skinner. mr. skinner, when he appeared, was a large-faced man, with a lisp and a squint that made him look over the top of your head, slashed slippers that appealed to mr. bensington's sympathies, and a manifest shortness of buttons. he held his coat and shirt together with one hand and traced patterns on the black-and-gold tablecloth with the index finger of the other, while his disengaged eye watched mr. bensington's sword of damocles, so to speak, with an expression of sad detachment. "you don't want to run thith farm for profit. no, thir. ith all the thame, thir. ekthperimenth! prethithely." he said they could go to the farm at once. he was doing nothing at dunton green except a little tailoring. "it ithn't the thmart plathe i thought it wath, and what i get ithent thkarthely worth having," he said, "tho that if it ith any convenienth to you for uth to come...." and in a week mr. and mrs. skinner were installed in the farm, and the jobbing carpenter from hickleybrow was diversifying the task of erecting runs and henhouses with a systematic discussion of mr. bensington. "i haven't theen much of 'im yet," said mr. skinner. "but as far as i can make 'im out 'e theems to be a thtewpid o' fool." "_i_ thought 'e seemed a bit dotty," said the carpenter from hickleybrow. "'e fanthieth 'imself about poultry," said mr. skinner. "o my goodneth! you'd think nobody knew nothin' about poultry thept 'im." "'e _looks_ like a 'en," said the carpenter from hickleybrow; "what with them spectacles of 'is." mr. skinner came closer to the carpenter from hickleybrow, and spoke in a confidential manner, and one sad eye regarded the distant village, and one was bright and wicked. "got to be meathured every blethed day--every blethed 'en, 'e thays. tho as to thee they grow properly. what oh ... eh? every blethed 'en--every blethed day." and mr. skinner put up his hand to laugh behind it in a refined and contagious manner, and humped his shoulders very much--and only the other eye of him failed to participate in his laughter. then doubting if the carpenter had quite got the point of it, he repeated in a penetrating whisper; "_meathured_!" "'e's worse than our old guvnor; i'm dratted if 'e ain't," said the carpenter from hickleybrow. ii. experimental work is the most tedious thing in the world (unless it be the reports of it in the _philosophical transactions_), and it seemed a long time to mr. bensington before his first dream of enormous possibilities was replaced by a crumb of realisation. he had taken the experimental farm in october, and it was may before the first inklings of success began. herakleophorbia i. and ii. and iii. had to be tried, and failed; there was trouble with the rats of the experimental farm, and there was trouble with the skinners. the only way to get skinner to do anything he was told to do was to dismiss him. then he would nib his unshaven chin--he was always unshaven most miraculously and yet never bearded--with a flattened hand, and look at mr. bensington with one eye, and over him with the other, and say, "oo, of courthe, thir--if you're _theriouth_!" but at last success dawned. and its herald was a letter in the long slender handwriting of mr. skinner. "the new brood are out," wrote mr. skinner, "and don't quite like the look of them. growing very rank--quite unlike what the similar lot was before your last directions was given. the last, before the cat got them, was a very nice, stocky chick, but these are growing like thistles. i never saw. they peck so hard, striking above boot top, that am unable to give exact measures as requested. they are regular giants, and eating as such. we shall want more corn very soon, for you never saw such chicks to eat. bigger than bantams. going on at this rate, they ought to be a bird for show, rank as they are. plymouth rocks won't be in it. had a scare last night thinking that cat was at them, and when i looked out at the window could have sworn i see her getting in under the wire. the chicks was all awake and pecking about hungry when i went out, but could not see anything of the cat. so gave them a peck of corn, and fastened up safe. shall be glad to know if the feeding to be continued as directed. food you mixed is pretty near all gone, and do not like to mix any more myself on account of the accident with the pudding. with best wishes from us both, and soliciting continuance of esteemed favours, "respectfully yours, "alfred newton skinner." the allusion towards the end referred to a milk pudding with which some herakleophorbia ii. had got itself mixed with painful and very nearly fatal results to the skinners. but mr. bensington, reading between the lines saw in this rankness of growth the attainment of his long sought goal. the next morning he alighted at urshot station, and in the bag in his hand he carried, sealed in three tins, a supply of the food of the gods sufficient for all the chicks in kent. it was a bright and beautiful morning late in may, and his corns were so much better that he resolved to walk through hickleybrow to his farm. it was three miles and a half altogether, through the park and villages and then along the green glades of the hickleybrow preserves. the trees were all dusted with the green spangles of high spring, the hedges were full of stitchwort and campion and the woods of blue hyacinths and purple orchid; and everywhere there was a great noise of birds--thrushes, blackbirds, robins, finches, and many more--and in one warm corner of the park some bracken was unrolling, and there was a leaping and rushing of fallow deer. these things brought back to mr. bensington his early and forgotten delight in life; before him the promise of his discovery grew bright and joyful, and it seemed to him that indeed he must have come upon the happiest day in his life. and when in the sunlit run by the sandy bank under the shadow of the pine trees he saw the chicks that had eaten the food he had mixed for them, gigantic and gawky, bigger already than many a hen that is married and settled and still growing, still in their first soft yellow plumage (just faintly marked with brown along the back), he knew indeed that his happiest day had come. at mr. skinner's urgency he went into the runs but after he had been pecked through the cracks in his shoes once or twice he got out again, and watched these monsters through the wire netting. he peered close to the netting, and followed their movements as though he had never seen a chick before in his life. "whath they'll be when they're grown up ith impothible to think," said mr. skinner. "big as a horse," said mr. bensington. "pretty near," said mr. skinner. "several people could dine off a wing!" said mr. bensington. "they'd cut up into joints like butcher's meat." "they won't go on growing at thith pathe though," said mr. skinner. "no?" said mr. bensington. "no," said mr. skinner. "i know thith thort. they begin rank, but they don't go on, bleth you! no." there was a pause. "itth management," said mr. skinner modestly. mr. bensington turned his glasses on him suddenly. "we got 'em almoth ath big at the other plathe," said mr. skinner, with his better eye piously uplifted and letting himself go a little; "me and the mithith." mr. bensington made his usual general inspection of the premises, but he speedily returned to the new run. it was, you know, in truth ever so much more than he had dared to expect. the course of science is so tortuous and so slow; after the clear promises and before the practical realisation arrives there comes almost always year after year of intricate contrivance, and here--here was the foods of the gods arriving after less than a year of testing! it seemed too good--too good. that hope deferred which is the daily food of the scientific imagination was to be his no more! so at least it seemed to him then. he came back and stared at these stupendous chicks of his, time after time. "let me see," he said. "they're ten days old. and by the side of an ordinary chick i should fancy--about six or seven times as big...." "itth about time we artht for a rithe in thkrew," said mr. skinner to his wife. "he'th ath pleathed ath punth about the way we got thothe chickth on in the further run--pleathed ath punth he ith." he bent confidentially towards her. "thinkth it'th that old food of hith," he said behind his hands and made a noise of suppressed laughter in his pharyngeal cavity.... mr. bensington was indeed a happy man that day. he was in no mood to find fault with details of management. the bright day certainly brought out the accumulating slovenliness of the skinner couple more vividly than he had ever seen it before. but his comments were of the gentlest. the fencing of many of the runs was out of order, but he seemed to consider it quite satisfactory when mr. skinner explained that it was a "fokth or a dog or thomething" did it. he pointed out that the incubator had not been cleaned. "that it _asn't_, sir," said mrs. skinner with her arms folded, smiling coyly behind her nose. "we don't seem to have had time to clean it not since we been 'ere...." he went upstairs to see some rat-holes that skinner said would justify a trap--they certainly were enormous--and discovered that the room in which the food of the gods was mixed with meal and bran was in a quite disgraceful order. the skinners were the sort of people who find a use for cracked saucers and old cans and pickle jars and mustard boxes, and the place was littered with these. in one corner a great pile of apples that skinner had saved was decaying, and from a nail in the sloping part of the ceiling hung several rabbit skins, upon which he proposed to test his gift as a furrier. ("there ithn't mutth about furth and thingth that _i_ don't know," said skinner.) mr. bensington certainly sniffed critically at this disorder, but he made no unnecessary fuss, and even when he found a wasp regaling itself in a gallipot half full of herakleophorbia iv, he simply remarked mildly that his substance was better sealed from the damp than exposed to the air in that manner. and he turned from these things at once to remark--what had been for some time in his mind--"i _think_, skinner--you know, i shall kill one of these chicks--as a specimen. i think we will kill it this afternoon, and i will take it back with me to london." he pretended to peer into another gallipot and then took off his spectacles to wipe them. "i should like," he said, "i should like very much, to have some relic--some memento--of this particular brood at this particular day." "by-the-bye," he said, "you don't give those little chicks meat?" "oh! _no_, thir," said skinner, "i can athure you, thir, we know far too much about the management of fowlth of all dethcriptionth to do anything of that thort." "quite sure you don't throw your dinner refuse--i thought i noticed the bones of a rabbit scattered about the far corner of the run--" but when they came to look at them they found they were the larger bones of a cat picked very clean and dry. iii. "_that's_ no chick," said mr. bensington's cousin jane. "well, i should _think_ i knew a chick when i saw it," said mr. bensington's cousin jane hotly. "it's too big for a chick, for one thing, and besides you can _see_ perfectly well it isn't a chick. "it's more like a bustard than a chick." "for my part," said redwood, reluctantly allowing bensington to drag him into the argument, "i must confess that, considering all the evidence--" "oh! if you do _that_," said mr. bensington's cousin jane, "instead of using your eyes like a sensible person--" "well, but really, miss bensington--!" "oh! go _on!_" said cousin jane. "you men are all alike." "considering all the evidence, this certainly falls within the definition--no doubt it's abnormal and hypertrophied, but still--especially since it was hatched from the egg of a normal hen--yes, i think, miss bensington, i must admit--this, so far as one can call it anything, is a sort of chick." "you mean it's a chick?" said cousin jane. "i _think_ it's a chick," said redwood. "what nonsense!" said mr. bensington's cousin jane, and "oh!" directed at redwood's head, "i haven't patience with you," and then suddenly she turned about and went out of the room with a slam. "and it's a very great relief for me to see it too, bensington," said redwood, when the reverberation of the slam had died away. "in spite of its being so big." without any urgency from mr. bensington he sat down in the low arm-chair by the fire and confessed to proceedings that even in an unscientific man would have been indiscreet. "you will think it very rash of me, bensington, i know," he said, "but the fact is i put a little--not very much of it--but some--into baby's bottle, very nearly a week ago!" "but suppose--!" cried mr. bensington. "i know," said redwood, and glanced at the giant chick upon the plate on the table. "it's turned out all right, thank goodness," and he felt in his pocket for his cigarettes. he gave fragmentary details. "poor little chap wasn't putting on weight... desperately anxious.--winkles, a frightful duffer ... former pupil of mine ... no good.... mrs. redwood--unmitigated confidence in winkles.... _you_ know, man with a manner like a cliff--towering.... no confidence in _me_, of course.... taught winkles.... scarcely allowed in the nursery.... something had to be done.... slipped in while the nurse was at breakfast ... got at the bottle." "but he'll grow," said mr. bensington. "he's growing. twenty-seven ounces last week.... you should hear winkles. it's management, he said." "dear me! that's what skinner says!" redwood looked at the chick again. "the bother is to keep it up," he said. "they won't trust me in the nursery alone, because i tried to get a growth curve out of georgina phyllis--you know--and how i'm to give him a second dose--" "need you?" "he's been crying two days--can't get on with his ordinary food again, anyhow. he wants some more now." "tell winkles." "hang winkles!" said redwood. "you might get at winkles and give him powders to give the child--" "that's about what i shall have to do," said redwood, resting his chin on his fist and staring into the fire. bensington stood for a space smoothing the down on the breast of the giant chick. "they will be monstrous fowls," he said. "they will," said redwood, still with his eyes on the glow. "big as horses," said bensington. "bigger," said redwood. "that's just it!" bensington turned away from the specimen. "redwood," he said, "these fowls are going to create a sensation." redwood nodded his head at the fire. "and by jove!" said bensington, coming round suddenly with a flash in his spectacles, "so will your little boy!" "that's just what i'm thinking of," said redwood. he sat back, sighed, threw his unconsumed cigarette into the fire and thrust his hands deep into his trousers pockets. "that's precisely what i'm thinking of. this herakleophorbia is going to be queer stuff to handle. the pace that chick must have grown at--!" "a little boy growing at that pace," said mr. bensington slowly, and stared at the chick as he spoke. "i _say_!" said bensington, "he'll be big." "i shall give him diminishing doses," said redwood. "or at any rate winkles will." "it's rather too much of an experiment." "much." "yet still, you know, i must confess--... some baby will sooner or later have to try it." "oh, we'll try it on _some_ baby--certainly." "exactly so," said bensington, and came and stood on the hearthrug and took off his spectacles to wipe them. "until i saw these chicks, redwood, i don't think i _began_ to realise--anything--of the possibilities of what we were making. it's only beginning to dawn upon me ... the possible consequences...." and even then, you know, mr. bensington was far from any conception of the mine that little train would fire. iv. that happened early in june. for some weeks bensington was kept from revisiting the experimental farm by a severe imaginary catarrh, and one necessary flying visit was made by redwood. he returned an even more anxious-looking parent than he had gone. altogether there were seven weeks of steady, uninterrupted growth.... and then the wasps began their career. it was late in july and nearly a week before the hens escaped from hickleybrow that the first of the big wasps was killed. the report of it appeared in several papers, but i do not know whether the news reached mr. bensington, much less whether he connected it with the general laxity of method that prevailed in the experimental farm. there can be but little doubt now, that while mr. skinner was plying mr. bensington's chicks with herakleophorbia iv, a number of wasps were just as industriously--perhaps more industriously--carrying quantities of the same paste to their early summer broods in the sand-banks beyond the adjacent pine-woods. and there can be no dispute whatever that these early broods found just as much growth and benefit in the substance as mr. bensington's hens. it is in the nature of the wasp to attain to effective maturity before the domestic fowl--and in fact of all the creatures that were--through the generous carelessness of the skinners--partaking of the benefits mr. bensington heaped upon his hens, the wasps were the first to make any sort of figure in the world. it was a keeper named godfrey, on the estate of lieutenant-colonel rupert hick, near maidstone, who encountered and had the luck to kill the first of these monsters of whom history has any record. he was walking knee high in bracken across an open space in the beechwoods that diversify lieutenant-colonel hick's park, and he was carrying his gun--very fortunately for him a double-barrelled gun--over his shoulder, when he first caught sight of the thing. it was, he says, coming down against the light, so that he could not see it very distinctly, and as it came it made a drone "like a motor car." he admits he was frightened. it was evidently as big or bigger than a barn owl, and, to his practised eye, its flight and particularly the misty whirl of its wings must have seemed weirdly unbirdlike. the instinct of self-defence, i fancy, mingled with long habit, when, as he says, he "let fly, right away." the queerness of the experience probably affected his aim; at any rate most of his shot missed, and the thing merely dropped for a moment with an angry "wuzzzz" that revealed the wasp at once, and then rose again, with all its stripes shining against the light. he says it turned on him. at any rate, he fired his second barrel at less than twenty yards and threw down his gun, ran a pace or so, and ducked to avoid it. it flew, he is convinced, within a yard of him, struck the ground, rose again, came down again perhaps thirty yards away, and rolled over with its body wriggling and its sting stabbing out and back in its last agony. he emptied both barrels into it again before he ventured to go near. when he came to measure the thing, he found it was twenty-seven and a half inches across its open wings, and its sting was three inches long. the abdomen was blown clean off from its body, but he estimated the length of the creature from head to sting as eighteen inches--which is very nearly correct. its compound eyes were the size of penny pieces. that is the first authenticated appearance of these giant wasps. the day after, a cyclist riding, feet up, down the hill between sevenoaks and tonbridge, very narrowly missed running over a second of these giants that was crawling across the roadway. his passage seemed to alarm it, and it rose with a noise like a sawmill. his bicycle jumped the footpath in the emotion of the moment, and when he could look back, the wasp was soaring away above the woods towards westerham. after riding unsteadily for a little time, he put on his brake, dismounted--he was trembling so violently that he fell over his machine in doing so--and sat down by the roadside to recover. he had intended to ride to ashford, but he did not get beyond tonbridge that day.... after that, curiously enough, there is no record of any big wasps being seen for three days. i find on consulting the meteorological record of those days that they were overcast and chilly with local showers, which may perhaps account for this intermission. then on the fourth day came blue sky and brilliant sunshine and such an outburst of wasps as the world had surely never seen before. how many big wasps came out that day it is impossible to guess. there are at least fifty accounts of their apparition. there was one victim, a grocer, who discovered one of these monsters in a sugar-cask and very rashly attacked it with a spade as it rose. he struck it to the ground for a moment, and it stung him through the boot as he struck at it again and cut its body in half. he was first dead of the two.... the most dramatic of the fifty appearances was certainly that of the wasp that visited the british museum about midday, dropping out of the blue serene upon one of the innumerable pigeons that feed in the courtyard of that building, and flying up to the cornice to devour its victim at leisure. after that it crawled for a time over the museum roof, entered the dome of the reading-room by a skylight, buzzed about inside it for some little time--there was a stampede among the readers--and at last found another window and vanished again with a sudden silence from human observation. most of the other reports were of mere passings or descents. a picnic party was dispersed at aldington knoll and all its sweets and jam consumed, and a puppy was killed and torn to pieces near whitstable under the very eyes of its mistress.... the streets that evening resounded with the cry, the newspaper placards gave themselves up exclusively in the biggest of letters to the "gigantic wasps in kent." agitated editors and assistant editors ran up and down tortuous staircases bawling things about "wasps." and professor redwood, emerging from his college in bond street at five, flushed from a heated discussion with his committee about the price of bull calves, bought an evening paper, opened it, changed colour, forgot about bull calves and committee forthwith, and took a hansom headlong for bensington's flat. v. the flat was occupied, it seemed to him--to the exclusion of all other sensible objects--by mr. skinner and his voice, if indeed you can call either him or it a sensible object! the voice was up very high slopping about among the notes of anguish. "itth impothible for uth to thtop, thir. we've thtopped on hoping thingth would get better and they've only got worth, thir. it ithn't on'y the waptheth, thir--thereth big earwigth, thir--big ath that, thir." (he indicated all his hand and about three inches of fat dirty wrist.) "they pretty near give mithith thkinner fitth, thir. and the thtinging nettleth by the runth, thir, _they're_ growing, thir, and the canary creeper, thir, what we thowed near the think, thir--it put itth tendril through the window in the night, thir, and very nearly caught mithith thkinner by the legth, thir. itth that food of yourth, thir. wherever we thplathed it about, thir, a bit, it'th thet everything growing ranker, thir, than i ever thought anything could grow. itth impothible to thtop a month, thir. itth more than our liveth are worth, thir. even if the waptheth don't thting uth, we thall be thuffocated by the creeper, thir. you can't imagine, thir--unleth you come down to thee, thir--" he turned his superior eye to the cornice above redwood's head. "'ow do we know the ratth 'aven't got it, thir! that 'th what i think of motht, thir. i 'aven't theen any big ratth, thir, but 'ow do i know, thir. we been frightened for dayth becauth of the earwigth we've theen--like lobthters they wath--two of 'em, thir--and the frightful way the canary creeper wath growing, and directly i heard the waptheth--directly i 'eard 'em, thir, i underthood. i didn't wait for nothing exthept to thow on a button i'd lortht, and then i came on up. even now, thir, i'm arf wild with angthiety, thir. 'ow do _i_ know watth happenin' to mithith thkinner, thir! thereth the creeper growing all over the plathe like a thnake, thir--thwelp me but you 'ave to watch it, thir, and jump out of itth way!--and the earwigth gettin' bigger and bigger, and the waptheth--. she 'athen't even got a blue bag, thir--if anything thould happen, thir!" "but the hens," said mr. bensington; "how are the hens?" "we fed 'em up to yethterday, thwelp me," said mr. skinner, "but thith morning we didn't _dare_, thir. the noithe of the waptheth wath--thomething awful, thir. they wath coming ont--dothenth. ath big ath 'enth. i thayth, to 'er, i thayth you juth thow me on a button or two, i thayth, for i can't go to london like thith, i thayth, and i'll go up to mithter benthington, i thayth, and ekthplain thingth to 'im. and you thtop in thith room till i come back to you, i thayth, and keep the windowth thhut jutht ath tight ath ever you can, i thayth." "if you hadn't been so confoundedly untidy--" began redwood. "oh! don't thay _that_, thir," said skinner. "not now, thir. not with me tho diththrethed, thir, about mithith thkinner, thir! oh, _don't,_ thir! i 'aven't the 'eart to argue with you. thwelp me, thir, i 'aven't! itth the ratth i keep a thinking of--'ow do i know they 'aven't got at mithith thkinner while i been up 'ere?" "and you haven't got a solitary measurement of all these beautiful growth curves!" said redwood. "i been too upthet, thir," said mr. skinner. "if you knew what we been through--me and the mithith! all thith latht month. we 'aven't known what to make of it, thir. what with the henth gettin' tho rank, and the earwigth, and the canary creeper. i dunno if i told you, thir--the canary creeper ..." "you've told us all that," said redwood. "the thing is, bensington, what are we to do?" "what are _we_ to do?" said mr. skinner. "you'll have to go back to mrs. skinner," said redwood. "you can't leave her there alone all night." "not alone, thir, i don't. not if there wath a dothen mithith thkinnerth. itth mithter benthington--" "nonsense," said redwood. "the wasps will be all right at night. and the earwigs will get out of your way--" "but about the ratth?" "there aren't any rats," said redwood. vi. mr. skinner might have foregone his chief anxiety. mrs. skinner did not stop out her day. about eleven the canary creeper, which had been quietly active all the morning, began to clamber over the window and darken it very greatly, and the darker it got the more and more clearly mrs. skinner perceived that her position would speedily become untenable. and also that she had lived many ages since skinner went. she peered out of the darkling window, through the stirring tendrils, for some time, and then went very cautiously and opened the bedroom door and listened.... everything seemed quiet, and so, tucking her skirts high about her, mrs. skinner made a bolt for the bedroom, and having first looked under the bed and locked herself in, proceeded with the methodical rapidity of an experienced woman to pack for departure. the bed had not been made, and the room was littered with pieces of the creeper that skinner had hacked off in order to close the window overnight, but these disorders she did not heed. she packed in a decent sheet. she packed all her own wardrobe and a velveteen jacket that skinner wore in his finer moments, and she packed a jar of pickles that had not been opened, and so far she was justified in her packing. but she also packed two of the hermetically closed tins containing herakleophorbia iv. that mr. bensington had brought on his last visit. (she was honest, good woman--but she was a grandmother, and her heart had burned within her to see such good growth lavished on a lot of dratted chicks.) and having packed all these things, she put on her bonnet, took off her apron, tied a new boot-lace round her umbrella, and after listening for a long time at door and window, opened the door and sallied out into a perilous world. the umbrella was under her arm and she clutched the bundle with two gnarled and resolute hands. it was her best sunday bonnet, and the two poppies that reared their heads amidst its splendours of band and bead seemed instinct with the same tremulous courage that possessed her. the features about the roots of her nose wrinkled with determination. she had had enough of it! all alone there! skinner might come back there if he liked. she went out by the front door, going that way not because she wanted to go to hickleybrow (her goal was cheasing eyebright, where her married daughter resided), but because the back door was impassable on account of the canary creeper that had been growing so furiously ever since she upset the can of food near its roots. she listened for a space and closed the front door very carefully behind her. at the corner of the house she paused and reconnoitred.... an extensive sandy scar upon the hillside beyond the pine-woods marked the nest of the giant wasps, and this she studied very earnestly. the coming and going of the morning was over, not a wasp chanced to be in sight then, and except for a sound scarcely more perceptible than a steam wood-saw at work amidst the pines would have been, everything was still. as for earwigs, she could see not one. down among the cabbage indeed something was stirring, but it might just as probably be a cat stalking birds. she watched this for a time. she went a few paces past the corner, came in sight of the run containing the giant chicks and stopped again. "ah!" she said, and shook her head slowly at the sight of them. they were at that time about the height of emus, but of course much thicker in the body--a larger thing altogether. they were all hens and five all told, now that the two cockerels had killed each other. she hesitated at their drooping attitudes. "poor dears!" she said, and put down her bundle; "they've got no water. and they've 'ad no food these twenty-four hours! and such appetites, too, as they 'ave!" she put a lean finger to her lips and communed with herself. then this dirty old woman did what seems to me a quite heroic deed of mercy. she left her bundle and umbrella in the middle of the brick path and went to the well and drew no fewer than three pailfuls of water for the chickens' empty trough, and then while they were all crowding about that, she undid the door of the run very softly. after which she became extremely active, resumed her package, got over the hedge at the bottom of the garden, crossed the rank meadows (in order to avoid the wasps' nest) and toiled up the winding path towards cheasing eyebright. she panted up the hill, and as she went she paused ever and again, to rest her bundle and get her breath and stare back at the little cottage beside the pine-wood below. and when at last, when she was near the crest of the hill, she saw afar off three several wasps dropping heavily westward, it helped her greatly on her way. she soon got out of the open and in the high banked lane beyond (which seemed a safer place to her), and so up by hickleybrow coombe to the downs. there at the foot of the downs where a big tree gave an air of shelter she rested for a space on a stile. then on again very resolutely.... you figure her, i hope, with her white bundle, a sort of erect black ant, hurrying along the little white path-thread athwart the downland slopes under the hot sun of the summer afternoon. on she struggled after her resolute indefatigable nose, and the poppies in her bonnet quivered perpetually and her spring-side boots grew whiter and whiter with the downland dust. flip-flap, flip-flap went her footfalls through the still heat of the day, and persistently, incurably, her umbrella sought to slip from under the elbow that retained it. the mouth wrinkle under her nose was pursed to an extreme resolution, and ever and again she told her umbrella to come up or gave her tightly clutched bundle a vindictive jerk. and at times her lips mumbled with fragments of some foreseen argument between herself and skinner. and far away, miles and miles away, a steeple and a hanger grew insensibly out of the vague blue to mark more and more distinctly the quiet corner where cheasing eyebright sheltered from the tumult of the world, recking little or nothing of the herakleophorbia concealed in that white bundle that struggled so persistently towards its orderly retirement. vii. so far as i can gather, the pullets came into hickleybrow about three o'clock in the afternoon. their coming must have been a brisk affair, though nobody was out in the street to see it. the violent bellowing of little skelmersdale seems to have been the first announcement of anything out of the way. miss durgan of the post office was at the window as usual, and saw the hen that had caught the unhappy child, in violent flight up the street with its victim, closely pursued by two others. you know that swinging stride of the emancipated athletic latter-day pullet! you know the keen insistence of the hungry hen! there was plymouth rock in these birds, i am told, and even without herakleophorbia that is a gaunt and striding strain. probably miss durgan was not altogether taken by surprise. in spite of mr. bensington's insistence upon secrecy, rumours of the great chicken mr. skinner was producing had been about the village for some weeks. "lor!" she cried, "it's what i expected." she seems to have behaved with great presence of mind. she snatched up the sealed bag of letters that was waiting to go on to urshot, and rushed out of the door at once. almost simultaneously mr. skelmersdale himself appeared down the village, gripping a watering-pot by the spout, and very white in the face. and, of course, in a moment or so every one in the village was rushing to the door or window. the spectacle of miss durgan all across the road, with the entire day's correspondence of hickleybrow in her hand, gave pause to the pullet in possession of master skelmersdale. she halted through one instant's indecision and then turned for the open gates of fulcher's yard. that instant was fatal. the second pullet ran in neatly, got possession of the child by a well-directed peck, and went over the wall into the vicarage garden. "charawk, chawk, chawk, chawk, chawk, chawk!" shrieked the hindmost hen, hit smartly by the watering-can mr. skelmersdale had thrown, and fluttered wildly over mrs. glue's cottage and so into the doctor's field, while the rest of those gargantuan birds pursued the pullet, in possession of the child across the vicarage lawn. "good heavens!" cried the curate, or (as some say) something much more manly, and ran, whirling his croquet mallet and shouting, to head off the chase. "stop, you wretch!" cried the curate, as though giant hens were the commonest facts in life. and then, finding he could not possibly intercept her, he hurled his mallet with all his might and main, and out it shot in a gracious curve within a foot or so of master skelmersdale's head and through the glass lantern of the conservatory. smash! the new conservatory! the vicar's wife's beautiful new conservatory! it frightened the hen. it might have frightened any one. she dropped her victim into a portugal laurel (from which he was presently extracted, disordered but, save for his less delicate garments, uninjured), made a flapping leap for the roof of fulcher's stables, put her foot through a weak place in the tiles, and descended, so to speak, out of the infinite into the contemplative quiet of mr. bumps the paralytic--who, it is now proved beyond all cavil, did, on this one occasion in his life, get down the entire length of his garden and indoors without any assistance whatever, bolt the door after him, and immediately relapse again into christian resignation and helpless dependence upon his wife.... the rest of the pullets were headed off by the other croquet players, and went through the vicar's kitchen garden into the doctor's field, to which rendezvous the fifth also came at last, clucking disconsolately after an unsuccessful attempt to walk on the cucumber frames in mr. witherspoon's place. they seem to have stood about in a hen-like manner for a time, and scratched a little and chirrawked meditatively, and then one pecked at and pecked over a hive of the doctor's bees, and after that they set off in a gawky, jerky, feathery, fitful sort of way across the fields towards urshot, and hickleybrow street saw them no more. near urshot they really came upon commensurate food in a field of swedes; and pecked for a space with gusto, until their fame overtook them. the chief immediate reaction of this astonishing irruption of gigantic poultry upon the human mind was to arouse an extraordinary passion to whoop and run and throw things, and in quite a little time almost all the available manhood of hickleybrows and several ladies, were out with a remarkable assortment of flappish and whangable articles in hand--to commence the scooting of the giant hens. they drove them into urshot, where there was a rural fete, and urshot took them as the crowning glory of a happy day. they began to be shot at near findon beeches, but at first only with a rook rifle. of course birds of that size could absorb an unlimited quantity of small shot without inconvenience. they scattered somewhere near sevenoaks, and near tonbridge one of them fled clucking for a time in excessive agitation, somewhat ahead of and parallel with the afternoon boat express--to the great astonishment of every one therein. and about half-past five two of them were caught very cleverly by a circus proprietor at tunbridge wells, who lured them into a cage, rendered vacant through the death of a widowed dromedary, by scattering cakes and bread.... viii. when the unfortunate skinner got out of the south-eastern train at urshot that evening it was already nearly dusk. the train was late, but not inordinately late--and mr. skinner remarked as much to the station-master. perhaps he saw a certain pregnancy in the station-master's eye. after the briefest hesitation and with a confidential movement of his hand to the side of his mouth he asked if "anything" had happened that day. "how d'yer _mean_?" said the station-master, a man with a hard, emphatic voice. "thethe 'ere waptheth and thingth." "we 'aven't 'ad much time to think of _waptheth_," said the station-master agreeably. "we've been too busy with your brasted 'ens," and he broke the news of the pullets to mr. skinner as one might break the window of an adverse politician. "you ain't 'eard anything of mithith thkinner?" asked skinner, amidst that missile shower of pithy information and comment. "no fear!" said the station-master--as though even he drew the line somewhere in the matter of knowledge. "i mutht make inquireth bout thith," said mr. skinner, edging out of reach of the station-master's concluding generalisations about the responsibility attaching to the excessive nurture of hens.... going through urshot mr. skinner was hailed by a lime-burner from the pits over by hankey and asked if he was looking for his hens. "you ain't 'eard anything of mithith thkinner?" he asked. the lime-burner--his exact phrases need not concern us--expressed his superior interest in hens.... it was already dark--as dark at least as a clear night in the english june can be--when skinner--or his head at any rate--came into the bar of the jolly drovers and said: "ello! you 'aven't 'eard anything of thith 'ere thtory bout my 'enth, 'ave you?" "oh, _'aven't_ we!" said mr. fulcher. "why, part of the story's been and bust into my stable roof and one chapter smashed a 'ole in missis vicar's green 'ouse--i beg 'er pardon--conservarratory." skinner came in. "i'd like thomething a little comforting," he said, "'ot gin and water'th about my figure," and everybody began to tell him things about the pullets. "_grathuth_ me!" said skinner. "you 'aven't 'eard anything about mithith thkinner, 'ave you?" he asked in a pause. "that we 'aven't!" said mr. witherspoon. "we 'aven't thought of 'er. we ain't thought nothing of either of you." "ain't you been 'ome to-day?" asked fulcher over a tankard. "if one of those brasted birds 'ave pecked 'er," began mr. witherspoon and left the full horror to their unaided imaginations.... it appeared to the meeting at the time that it would be an interesting end to an eventful day to go on with skinner and see if anything _had_ happened to mrs. skinner. one never knows what luck one may have when accidents are at large. but skinner, standing at the bar and drinking his hot gin and water, with one eye roving over the things at the back of the bar and the other fixed on the absolute, missed the psychological moment. "i thuppothe there 'athen't been any trouble with any of thethe big waptheth to-day anywhere?" he asked, with an elaborate detachment of manner. "been too busy with your 'ens," said fulcher. "i thuppothe they've all gone in now anyhow," said skinner. "what--the 'ens?" "i wath thinking of the waptheth more particularly," said skinner. and then, with, an air of circumspection that would have awakened suspicion in a week-old baby, and laying the accent heavily on most of the words he chose, he asked, "i _thuppothe nobody_ 'athn't '_eard_ of any other _big_ thingth, about, 'ave they? big _dogth_ or _catth_ or anything of _that_ thort? theemth to me if thereth big henth and big waptheth comin' on--" he laughed with a fine pretence of talking idly. but a brooding expression came upon the faces of the hickleybrow men. fulcher was the first to give their condensing thought the concrete shape of words. "a cat to match them 'ens--" said fulcher. "ay!" said witherspoon, "a cat to match they 'ens." "'twould be a tiger," said fulcher. "more'n a tiger," said witherspoon.... when at last skinner followed the lonely footpath over the swelling field that separated hickleybrow from the sombre pine-shaded hollow in whose black shadows the gigantic canary-creeper grappled silently with the experimental farm, he followed it alone. he was distinctly seen to rise against the sky-line, against the warm clear immensity of the northern sky--for so far public interest followed him--and to descend again into the night, into an obscurity from which it would seem he will nevermore emerge. he passed--into a mystery. no one knows to this day what happened to him after he crossed the brow. when later on the two fulchers and witherspoon, moved by their own imaginations, came up the hill and stared after him, the flight had swallowed him up altogether. the three men stood close. there was not a sound out of the wooded blackness that hid the farm from their eyes. "it's all right," said young fulcher, ending a silence. "don't see any lights," said witherspoon. "you wouldn't from here." "it's misty," said the elder fulcher. they meditated for a space. "'e'd 'ave come back if anything was wrong," said young fulcher, and this seemed so obvious and conclusive that presently old fulcher said, "well," and the three went home to bed--thoughtfully i will admit.... a shepherd out by huckster's farm heard a squealing in the night that he thought was foxes, and in the morning one of his lambs had been killed, dragged halfway towards hickleybrow and partially devoured.... the inexplicable part of it all is the absence of any indisputable remains of skinner! many weeks after, amidst the charred ruins of the experimental farm, there was found something which may or may not have been a human shoulder-blade and in another part of the ruins a long bone greatly gnawed and equally doubtful. near the stile going up towards eyebright there was found a glass eye, and many people discovered thereupon that skinner owed much of his personal charm to such a possession. it stared out upon the world with that same inevitable effect of detachment, that same severe melancholy that had been the redemption of his else worldly countenance. and about the ruins industrious research discovered the metal rings and charred coverings of two linen buttons, three shanked buttons entire, and one of that metallic sort which is used in the less conspicuous sutures of the human oeconomy. these remains have been accepted by persons in authority as conclusive of a destroyed and scattered skinner, but for my own entire conviction, and in view of his distinctive idiosyncrasy, i must confess i should prefer fewer buttons and more bones. the glass eye of course has an air of extreme conviction, but if it really _is_ skinner's--and even mrs. skinner did not certainly know if that immobile eye of his was glass--something has changed it from a liquid brown to a serene and confident blue. that shoulder-blade is an extremely doubtful document, and i would like to put it side by side with the gnawed scapulae of a few of the commoner domestic animals before i admitted its humanity. and where were skinner's boots, for example? perverted and strange as a rat's appetite must be, is it conceivable that the same creatures that could leave a lamb only half eaten, would finish up skinner--hair, bones, teeth, and boots? i have closely questioned as many as i could of those who knew skinner at all intimately, and they one and all agree that they cannot imagine _anything_ eating him. he was the sort of man, as a retired seafaring person living in one of mr. w.w. jacobs' cottages at dunton green told me, with a guarded significance of manner not uncommon in those parts, who would "get washed up anyhow," and as regards _the_ devouring element was "fit to put a fire out." he considered that skinner would be as safe on a raft as anywhere. the retired seafaring man added that he wished to say nothing whatever against skinner; facts were facts. and rather than have his clothes made by skinner, the retired seafaring man remarked he would take his chance of being locked up. these observations certainly do not present skinner in the light of an appetising object. to be perfectly frank with the reader, i do not believe he ever went back to the experimental farm. i believe he hovered through long hesitations about the fields of the hickleybrow glebe, and finally, when that squealing began, took the line of least resistance out of his perplexities into the incognito. and in the incognito, whether of this or of some other world unknown to us, he obstinately and quite indisputably has remained to this day.... chapter the third. the giant rats. i. it was two nights after the disappearance of mr. skinner that the podbourne doctor was out late near hankey, driving in his buggy. he had been up all night assisting another undistinguished citizen into this curious world of ours, and his task accomplished, he was driving homeward in a drowsy mood enough. it was about two o'clock in the morning, and the waning moon was rising. the summer night had gone cold, and there was a low-lying whitish mist that made things indistinct. he was quite alone--for his coachman was ill in bed--and there was nothing to be seen on either hand but a drifting mystery of hedge running athwart the yellow glare of his lamps, and nothing to hear but the clitter-clatter of his horses and the gride and hedge echo of his wheels. his horse was as trustworthy as himself, and one does not wonder that he dozed.... you know that intermittent drowsing as one sits, the drooping of the head, the nodding to the rhythm of the wheels then chin upon the breast, and at once the sudden start up again. _pitter, litter, patter_. "what was that?" it seemed to the doctor he had heard a thin shrill squeal close at hand. for a moment he was quite awake. he said a word or two of undeserved rebuke to his horse, and looked about him. he tried to persuade himself that he had heard the distant squeal of a fox--or perhaps a young rabbit gripped by a ferret. _swish, swish, swish, pitter, patter, swish_--... what was that? he felt he was getting fanciful. he shook his shoulders and told his horse to get on. he listened, and heard nothing. or was it nothing? he had the queerest impression that something had just peeped over the hedge at him, a queer big head. with round ears! he peered hard, but he could see nothing. "nonsense," said he. he sat up with an idea that he had dropped into a nightmare, gave his horse the slightest touch of the whip, spoke to it and peered again over the hedge. the glare of his lamp, however, together with the mist, rendered things indistinct, and he could distinguish nothing. it came into his head, he says, that there could be nothing there, because if there was his horse would have shied at it. yet for all that his senses remained nervously awake. then he heard quite distinctly a soft pattering of feet in pursuit along the road. he would not believe his ears about that. he could not look round, for the road had a sinuous curve just there. he whipped up his horse and glanced sideways again. and then he saw quite distinctly where a ray from his lamp leapt a low stretch of hedge, the curved back of--some big animal, he couldn't tell what, going along in quick convulsive leaps. he says he thought of the old tales of witchcraft--the thing was so utterly unlike any animal he knew, and he tightened his hold on the reins for fear of the fear of his horse. educated man as he was, he admits he asked himself if this could be something that his horse could not see. ahead, and drawing near in silhouette against the rising moon, was the outline of the little hamlet of hankey, comforting, though it showed never a light, and he cracked his whip and spoke again, and then in a flash the rats were at him! he had passed a gate, and as he did so, the foremost rat came leaping over into the road. the thing sprang upon him out of vagueness into the utmost clearness, the sharp, eager, round-eared face, the long body exaggerated by its movement; and what particularly struck him, the pink, webbed forefeet of the beast. what must have made it more horrible to him at the time was, that he had no idea the thing was any created beast he knew. he did not recognise it as a rat, because of the size. his horse gave a bound as the thing dropped into the road beside it. the little lane woke into tumult at the report of the whip and the doctor's shout. the whole thing suddenly went fast. _rattle-clatter, clash, clatter_. the doctor, one gathers, stood up, shouted to his horse, and slashed with all his strength. the rat winced and swerved most reassuringly at his blow--in the glare of his lamp he could see the fur furrow under the lash--and he slashed again and again, heedless and unaware of the second pursuer that gained upon his off side. he let the reins go, and glanced back to discover the third rat in pursuit behind.... his horse bounded forward. the buggy leapt high at a rut. for a frantic minute perhaps everything seemed to be going in leaps and bounds.... it was sheer good luck the horse came down in hankey, and not either before or after the houses had been passed. no one knows how the horse came down, whether it stumbled or whether the rat on the off side really got home with one of those slashing down strokes of the teeth (given with the full weight of the body); and the doctor never discovered that he himself was bitten until he was inside the brickmaker's house, much less did he discover when the bite occurred, though bitten he was and badly--a long slash like the slash of a double tomahawk that had cut two parallel ribbons of flesh from his left shoulder. he was standing up in his buggy at one moment, and in the next he had leapt to the ground, with his ankle, though he did not know it, badly sprained, and he was cutting furiously at a third rat that was flying directly at him. he scarcely remembers the leap he must have made over the top of the wheel as the buggy came over, so obliteratingly hot and swift did his impressions rush upon him. i think myself the horse reared up with the rat biting again at its throat, and fell sideways, and carried the whole affair over; and that the doctor sprang, as it were, instinctively. as the buggy came down, the receiver of the lamp smashed, and suddenly poured a flare of blazing oil, a thud of white flame, into the struggle. that was the first thing the brickmaker saw. he had heard the clatter of the doctor's approach and--though the doctor's memory has nothing of this--wild shouting. he had got out of bed hastily, and as he did so came the terrific smash, and up shot the glare outside the rising blind. "it was brighter than day," he says. he stood, blind cord in hand, and stared out of the window at a nightmare transformation of the familiar road before him. the black figure of the doctor with its whirling whip danced out against the flame. the horse kicked indistinctly, half hidden by the blaze, with a rat at its throat. in the obscurity against the churchyard wall, the eyes of a second monster shone wickedly. another--a mere dreadful blackness with red-lit eyes and flesh-coloured hands--clutched unsteadily on the wall coping to which it had leapt at the flash of the exploding lamp. you know the keen face of a rat, those two sharp teeth, those pitiless eyes. seen magnified to near six times its linear dimensions, and still more magnified by darkness and amazement and the leaping fancies of a fitful blaze, it must have been an ill sight for the brickmaker--still more than half asleep. then the doctor had grasped the opportunity, that momentary respite the flare afforded, and was out of the brickmaker's sight below battering the door with the butt of his whip.... the brickmaker would not let him in until he had got a light. there are those who have blamed the man for that, but until i know my own courage better, i hesitate to join their number. the doctor yelled and hammered.... the brickmaker says he was weeping with terror when at last the door was opened. "bolt," said the doctor, "bolt"--he could not say "bolt the door." he tried to help, and was of no service. the brickmaker fastened the door, and the doctor had to sit on the chair beside the clock for a space before he could go upstairs.... "i don't know what they _are_!" he repeated several times. "i don't know what they _are_"--with a high note on the "are." the brickmaker would have got him whisky, but the doctor would not be left alone with nothing but a flickering light just then. it was long before the brickmaker could get him to go upstairs.... and when the fire was out the giant rats came back, took the dead horse, dragged it across the churchyard into the brickfield and ate at it until it was dawn, none even then daring to disturb them.... ii. redwood went round, to bensington about eleven the next morning with the "second editions" of three evening papers in his hand. bensington looked up from a despondent meditation over the forgotten pages of the most distracting novel the brompton road librarian had been able to find him. "anything fresh?" he asked. "two men stung near chartham." "they ought to let us smoke out that nest. they really did. it's their own fault." "it's their own fault, certainly," said redwood. "have you heard anything--about buying the farm?" "the house agent," said redwood, "is a thing with a big mouth and made of dense wood. it pretends someone else is after the house--it always does, you know--and won't understand there's a hurry. 'this is a matter of life and death,' i said, 'don't you understand?' it drooped its eyes half shut and said, 'then why don't you go the other two hundred pounds?' i'd rather live in a world of solid wasps than give in to the stonewalling stupidity of that offensive creature. i--" he paused, feeling that a sentence like that might very easily be spoiled by its context. "it's too much to hope," said bensington, "that one of the wasps--" "the wasp has no more idea of public utility than a--than a house agent," said redwood. he talked for a little while about house agents and solicitors and people of that sort, in the unjust, unreasonable way that so many people do somehow get to talk of these business calculi ("of all the cranky things in this cranky world, it is the most cranky to my mind of all, that while we expect honour, courage, efficiency, from a doctor or a soldier as a matter of course, a solicitor or a house agent is not only permitted but expected to display nothing but a sort of greedy, greasy, obstructive, over-reaching imbecility--" etc.)--and then, greatly relieved, he went to the window and stared out at the sloane street traffic. bensington had put the most exciting novel conceivable on the little table that carried his electric standard. he joined the fingers of his opposed hands very carefully and regarded them. "redwood," he said. "do they say much about _us_?" "not so much as i should expect." "they don't denounce us at all?" "not a bit. but, on the other hand, they don't back up what i point out must be done. i've written to the _times_, you know, explaining the whole thing--" "we take the _daily chronicle_," said bensington. "and the _times_ has a long leader on the subject--a very high-class, well-written leader, with three pieces of _times_ latin--_status quo_ is one--and it reads like the voice of somebody impersonal of the greatest importance suffering from influenza headache and talking through sheets and sheets of felt without getting any relief from it whatever. reading between the lines, you know, it's pretty clear that the _times_ considers that it is useless to mince matters, and that something (indefinite of course) has to be done at once. otherwise still more undesirable consequences--_times_ english, you know, for more wasps and stings. thoroughly statesmanlike article!" "and meanwhile this bigness is spreading in all sorts of ugly ways." "precisely." "i wonder if skinner was right about those big rats--" "oh no! that would be too much," said redwood. he came and stood by bensington's chair. "by-the-bye," he said, with a slightly lowered voice, "how does _she_--?" he indicated the closed door. "cousin jane? she simply knows nothing about it. doesn't connect us with it and won't read the articles. 'gigantic wasps!' she says, 'i haven't patience to read the papers.'" "that's very fortunate," said redwood. "i suppose--mrs. redwood--?" "no," said redwood, "just at present it happens--she's terribly worried about the child. you know, he keeps on." "growing?" "yes. put on forty-one ounces in ten days. weighs nearly four stone. and only six months old! naturally rather alarming." "healthy?" "vigorous. his nurse is leaving because he kicks so forcibly. and everything, of course, shockingly outgrown. everything, you know, has had to be made fresh, clothes and everything. perambulator--light affair--broke one wheel, and the youngster had to be brought home on the milkman's hand-truck. yes. quite a crowd.... and we've put georgina phyllis back into his cot and put him into the bed of georgina phyllis. his mother--naturally alarmed. proud at first and inclined to praise winkles. not now. feels the thing _can't_ be wholesome. _you_ know." "i imagined you were going to put him on diminishing doses." "i tried it." "didn't it work?" "howls. in the ordinary way the cry of a child is loud and distressing; it is for the good of the species that this should be so--but since he has been on the herakleophorbia treatment---" "mm," said bensington, regarding his fingers with more resignation than he had hitherto displayed. "practically the thing _must_ come out. people will hear of this child, connect it up with our hens and things, and the whole thing will come round to my wife.... how she will take it i haven't the remotest idea." "it _is_ difficult," said mr. bensington, "to form any plan--certainly." he removed his glasses and wiped them carefully. "it is another instance," he generalised, "of the thing that is continually happening. we--if indeed i may presume to the adjective--_scientific_ men--we work of course always for a theoretical result--a purely theoretical result. but, incidentally, we do set forces in operation--_new_ forces. we mustn't control them--and nobody else _can_. practically, redwood, the thing is out of our hands. _we_ supply the material--" "and they," said redwood, turning to the window, "get the experience." "so far as this trouble down in kent goes i am not disposed to worry further." "unless they worry us." "exactly. and if they like to muddle about with solicitors and pettifoggers and legal obstructions and weighty considerations of the tomfool order, until they have got a number of new gigantic species of vermin well established--things always _have_ been in a muddle, redwood." redwood traced a twisted, tangled line in the air. "and our real interest lies at present with your boy." redwood turned about and came and stared at his collaborator. "what do you think of him, bensington? you can look at this business with a greater detachment than i can. what am i to do about him?" "go on feeding him." "on herakleophorbia?" "on herakleophorbia." "and then he'll grow." "he'll grow, as far as i can calculate from the hens and the wasps, to the height of about five-and-thirty feet--with everything in proportion---" "and then what'll he do?" "that," said mr. bensington, "is just what makes the whole thing so interesting." "confound it, man! think of his clothes." "and when he's grown up," said redwood, "he'll only be one solitary gulliver in a pigmy world." mr. bensington's eye over his gold rim was pregnant. "why solitary?" he said, and repeated still more darkly, "_why_ solitary?" "but you don't propose---?" "i said," said mr. bensington, with the self-complacency of a man who has produced a good significant saying, "why solitary?" "meaning that one might bring up other children---?" "meaning nothing beyond my inquiry." redwood began to walk about the room. "of course," he said, "one might--but still! what are we coming to?" bensington evidently enjoyed his line of high intellectual detachment. "the thing that interests me most, redwood, of all this, is to think that his brain at the top of him will also, so far as my reasoning goes, be five-and-thirty feet or so above our level.... what's the matter?" redwood stood at the window and stared at a news placard on a paper-cart that rattled up the street. "what's the matter?" repeated bensington, rising. redwood exclaimed violently. "what is it?" said bensington. "get a paper," said redwood, moving doorward. "why?" "get a paper. something--i didn't quite catch--gigantic rats--!" "rats?" "yes, rats. skinner was right after all!" "what do you mean?" "how the deuce am _i_ to know till i see a paper? great rats! good lord! i wonder if he's eaten!" he glanced for his hat, and decided to go hatless. as he rushed downstairs two steps at a time, he could hear along the street the mighty howlings, to and fro, of the hooligan paper-sellers making a boom. "'orrible affair in kent--'orrible affair in kent. doctor ... eaten by rats. 'orrible affair--'orrible affair--rats--eaten by stchewpendous rats. full perticulars--'orrible affair." iii. cossar, the well-known civil engineer, found them in the great doorway of the flat mansions, redwood holding out the damp pink paper, and bensington on tiptoe reading over his arm. cossar was a large-bodied man with gaunt inelegant limbs casually placed at convenient corners of his body, and a face like a carving abandoned at an early stage as altogether too unpromising for completion. his nose had been left square, and his lower jaw projected beyond his upper. he breathed audibly. few people considered him handsome. his hair was entirely tangential, and his voice, which he used sparingly, was pitched high, and had commonly a quality of bitter protest. he wore a grey cloth jacket suit and a silk hat on all occasions. he plumbed an abysmal trouser pocket with a vast red hand, paid his cabman, and came panting resolutely up the steps, a copy of the pink paper clutched about the middle, like jove's thunderbolt, in his hand. "skinner?" bensington was saying, regardless of his approach. "nothing about him," said redwood. "bound to be eaten. both of them. it's too terrible.... hullo! cossar!" "this your stuff?" asked cossar, waving the paper. "well, why don't you stop it?" he demanded. "_can't_ be jiggered!" said cossar. "_buy the place_?" he cried. "what nonsense! burn it! i knew you chaps would fumble this. _what are you to do_? why--what i tell you. "_you_? do? why! go up the street to the gunsmith's, of course. _why_? for guns. yes--there's only one shop. get eight guns! rifles. not elephant guns--no! too big. not army rifles--too small. say it's to kill--kill a bull. say it's to shoot buffalo! see? eh? rats? no! how the deuce are they to understand that? because we _want_ eight. get a lot of ammunition. don't get guns without ammunition--no! take the lot in a cab to--where's the place? _urshot_? charing cross, then. there's a train---well, the first train that starts after two. think you can do it? all right. license? get eight at a post-office, of course. gun licenses, you know. not game. why? it's rats, man. "you--bensington. got a telephone? yes. i'll ring up five of my chaps from ealing. _why_ five? because it's the right number! "where you going, redwood? get a hat! _nonsense_. have mine. you want guns, man--not hats. got money? enough? all right. so long. "where's the telephone, bensington?" bensington wheeled about obediently and led the way. cossar used and replaced the instrument. "then there's the wasps," he said. "sulphur and nitre'll do that. obviously. plaster of paris. you're a chemist. where can i get sulphur by the ton in portable sacks? _what_ for? why, lord _bless_ my heart and soul!--to smoke out the nest, of course! i suppose it must be sulphur, eh? you're a chemist. sulphur best, eh?" "yes, i should _think_ sulphur." "nothing better?" "right. that's your job. that's all right. get as much sulphur as you can--saltpetre to make it burn. sent? charing cross. right away. see they do it. follow it up. anything?" he thought a moment. "plaster of paris--any sort of plaster--bung up nest--holes--you know. that _i'd_ better get." "how much?" "how much what?" "sulphur." "ton. see?" bensington tightened his glasses with a hand tremulous with determination. "right," he said, very curtly. "money in your pocket?" asked cossar. "hang cheques. they may not know you. pay cash. obviously. where's your bank? all right. stop on the way and get forty pounds--notes and gold." another meditation. "if we leave this job for public officials we shall have all kent in tatters," said cossar. "now is there--anything? _no! hi_!" he stretched a vast hand towards a cab that became convulsively eager to serve him ("cab, sir?" said the cabman. "obviously," said cossar); and bensington, still hatless, paddled down the steps and prepared to mount. "i _think_," he said, with his hand on the cab apron, and a sudden glance up at the windows of his flat, "i _ought_ to tell my cousin jane--" "more time to tell her when you come back," said cossar, thrusting him in with a vast hand expanded over his back.... "clever chaps," remarked cossar, "but no initiative whatever. cousin jane indeed! i know her. rot, these cousin janes! country infested with 'em. i suppose i shall have to spend the whole blessed night, seeing they do what they know perfectly well they ought to do all along. i wonder if it's research makes 'em like that or cousin jane or what?" he dismissed this obscure problem, meditated for a space upon his watch, and decided there would be just time to drop into a restaurant and get some lunch before he hunted up the plaster of paris and took it to charing cross. the train started at five minutes past three, and he arrived at charing cross at a quarter to three, to find bensington in heated argument between two policemen and his van-driver outside, and redwood in the luggage office involved in some technical obscurity about his ammunition. everybody was pretending not to know anything or to have any authority, in the way dear to south-eastern officials when they catch you in a hurry. "pity they can't shoot all these officials and get a new lot," remarked cossar with a sigh. but the time was too limited for anything fundamental, and so he swept through these minor controversies, disinterred what may or may not have been the station-master from some obscure hiding-place, walked about the premises holding him and giving orders in his name, and was out of the station with everybody and everything aboard before that official was fully awake to the breaches in the most sacred routines and regulations that were being committed. "who _was_ he?" said the high official, caressing the arm cossar had gripped, and smiling with knit brows. "'e was a gentleman, sir," said a porter, "anyhow. 'im and all 'is party travelled first class." "well, we got him and his stuff off pretty sharp--whoever he was," said the high official, rubbing his arm with something approaching satisfaction. and as he walked slowly back, blinking in the unaccustomed daylight, towards that dignified retirement in which the higher officials at charing cross shelter from the importunity of the vulgar, he smiled still at his unaccustomed energy. it was a very gratifying revelation of his own possibilities, in spite of the stiffness of his arm. he wished some of those confounded arm-chair critics of railway management could have seen it. iv. by five o'clock that evening this amazing cossar, with no appearance of hurry at all, had got all the stuff for his fight with insurgent bigness out of urshot and on the road to hickleybrow. two barrels of paraffin and a load of dry brushwood he had bought in urshot; plentiful sacks of sulphur, eight big game guns and ammunition, three light breechloaders, with small-shot ammunition for the wasps, a hatchet, two billhooks, a pick and three spades, two coils of rope, some bottled beer, soda and whisky, one gross of packets of rat poison, and cold provisions for three days, had come down from london. all these things he had sent on in a coal trolley and a hay waggon in the most business-like way, except the guns and ammunition, which were stuck under the seat of the red lion waggonette appointed to bring on redwood and the five picked men who had come up from ealing at cossar's summons. cossar conducted all these transactions with an invincible air of commonplace, in spite of the fact that urshot was in a panic about the rats, and all the drivers had to be specially paid. all the shops were shut in the place, and scarcely a soul abroad in the street, and when he banged at a door a window was apt to open. he seemed to consider that the conduct of business from open windows was an entirely legitimate and obvious method. finally he and bensington got the red lion dog-cart and set off with the waggonette, to overtake the baggage. they did this a little beyond the cross-roads, and so reached hickleybrow first. bensington, with a gun between his knees, sitting beside cossar in the dog-cart, developed a long germinated amazement. all they were doing was, no doubt, as cossar insisted, quite the obvious thing to do, only--! in england one so rarely does the obvious thing. he glanced from his neighbour's feet to the boldly sketched hands upon the reins. cossar had apparently never driven before, and he was keeping the line of least resistance down the middle of the road by some no doubt quite obvious but certainly unusual light of his own. "why don't we all do the obvious?" thought bensington. "how the world would travel if one did! i wonder for instance why i don't do such a lot of things i know would be all right to do--things i _want_ to do. is everybody like that, or is it peculiar to me!" he plunged into obscure speculation about the will. he thought of the complex organised futilities of the daily life, and in contrast with them the plain and manifest things to do, the sweet and splendid things to do, that some incredible influences will never permit us to do. cousin jane? cousin jane he perceived was important in the question, in some subtle and difficult way. why should we after all eat, drink, and sleep, remain unmarried, go here, abstain from going there, all out of deference to cousin jane? she became symbolical without ceasing to be incomprehensible! a stile and a path across the fields caught his eye and reminded him of that other bright day, so recent in time, so remote in its emotions, when he had walked from urshot to the experimental farm to see the giant chicks. fate plays with us. "tcheck, tcheck," said cossar. "get up." it was a hot midday afternoon, not a breath of wind, and the dust was thick in the roads. few people were about, but the deer beyond the park palings browsed in profound tranquillity. they saw a couple of big wasps stripping a gooseberry bush just outside hickleybrow, and another was crawling up and down the front of the little grocer's shop in the village street trying to find an entry. the grocer was dimly visible within, with an ancient fowling-piece in hand, watching its endeavours. the driver of the waggonette pulled up outside the jolly drovers and informed redwood that his part of the bargain was done. in this contention he was presently joined by the drivers of the waggon and the trolley. not only did they maintain this, but they refused to let the horses be taken further. "them big rats is nuts on 'orses," the trolley driver kept on repeating. cossar surveyed the controversy for a moment. "get the things out of that waggonette," he said, and one of his men, a tall, fair, dirty engineer, obeyed. "gimme that shot gun," said cossar. he placed himself between the drivers. "we don't want _you_ to drive," he said. "you can say what you like," he conceded, "but we want these horses." they began to argue, but he continued speaking. "if you try and assault us i shall, in self-defence, let fly at your legs. the horses are going on." he treated the incident as closed. "get up on that waggon, flack," he said to a thickset, wiry little man. "boon, take the trolley." the two drivers blustered to redwood. "you've done your duty to your employers," said redwood. "you stop in this village until we come back. no one will blame you, seeing we've got guns. we've no wish to do anything unjust or violent, but this occasion is pressing. i'll pay if anything happens to the horses, never fear." "_that's_ all right," said cossar, who rarely promised. they left the waggonette behind, and the men who were not driving went afoot. over each shoulder sloped a gun. it was the oddest little expedition for an english country road, more like a yankee party, trekking west in the good old indian days. they went up the road, until at the crest by the stile they came into sight of the experimental farm. they found a little group of men there with a gun or so--the two fulchers were among them--and one man, a stranger from maidstone, stood out before the others and watched the place through an opera-glass. these men turned about and stared at redwood's party. "anything fresh?" said cossar. "the waspses keeps a comin' and a goin'," said old fulcher. "can't see as they bring anything." "the canary creeper's got in among the pine trees now," said the man with the lorgnette. "it wasn't there this morning. you can see it grow while you watch it." he took out a handkerchief and wiped his object-glasses with careful deliberation. "i reckon you're going down there," ventured skelmersdale. "will you come?" said cossar. skelmersdale seemed to hesitate. "it's an all-night job." skelmersdale decided that he wouldn't. "rats about?" asked cossar. "one was up in the pines this morning--rabbiting, we reckon." cossar slouched on to overtake his party. bensington, regarding the experimental farm under his hand, was able to gauge now the vigour of the food. his first impression was that the house was smaller than he had thought--very much smaller; his second was to perceive that all the vegetation between the house and the pine-wood had become extremely large. the roof over the well peeped amidst tussocks of grass a good eight feet high, and the canary creeper wrapped about the chimney stack and gesticulated with stiff tendrils towards the heavens. its flowers were vivid yellow splashes, distinctly visible as separate specks this mile away. a great green cable had writhed across the big wire enclosures of the giant hens' run, and flung twining leaf stems about two outstanding pines. fully half as tall as these was the grove of nettles running round behind the cart-shed. the whole prospect, as they drew nearer, became more and more suggestive of a raid of pigmies upon a dolls' house that has been left in a neglected corner of some great garden. there was a busy coming and going from the wasps' nest, they saw. a swarm of black shapes interlaced in the air, above the rusty hill-front beyond the pine cluster, and ever and again one of these would dart up into the sky with incredible swiftness and soar off upon some distant quest. their humming became audible at more than half a mile's distance from the experimental farm. once a yellow-striped monster dropped towards them and hung for a space watching them with its great compound eyes, but at an ineffectual shot from cossar it darted off again. down in a corner of the field, away to the right, several were crawling about over some ragged bones that were probably the remains of the lamb the rats had brought from huxter's farm. the horses became very restless as they drew near these creatures. none of the party was an expert driver, and they had to put a man to lead each horse and encourage it with the voice. they could see nothing of the rats as they came up to the house, and everything seemed perfectly still except for the rising and falling "whoozzzzzzzzz, whoooo-zoo-oo" of the wasps' nest. they led the horses into the yard, and one of cossar's men, seeing the door open--the whole of the middle portion of the door had been gnawed out--walked into the house. nobody missed him for the time, the rest being occupied with the barrels of paraffin, and the first intimation they had of his separation from them was the report of his gun and the whizz of his bullet. "bang, bang," both barrels, and his first bullet it seems went through the cask of sulphur, smashed out a stave from the further side, and filled the air with yellow dust. redwood had kept his gun in hand and let fly at something grey that leapt past him. he had a vision of the broad hind-quarters, the long scaly tail and long soles of the hind-feet of a rat, and fired his second barrel. he saw bensington drop as the beast vanished round the corner. then for a time everybody was busy with a gun. for three minutes lives were cheap at the experimental farm, and the banging of guns filled the air. redwood, careless of bensington in his excitement, rushed in pursuit, and was knocked headlong by a mass of brick fragments, mortar, plaster, and rotten lath splinters that came flying out at him as a bullet whacked through the wall. he found himself sitting on the ground with blood on his hands and lips, and a great stillness brooded over all about him. then a flattish voice from within the house remarked: "gee-whizz!" "hullo!" said redwood. "hullo there!" answered the voice. and then: "did you chaps get 'im?" a sense of the duties of friendship returned to redwood. "is mr. bensington hurt?" he said. the man inside heard imperfectly. "no one ain't to blame if i ain't," said the voice inside. it became clearer to redwood that he must have shot bensington. he forgot the cuts upon his face, arose and came back to find bensington seated on the ground and rubbing his shoulder. bensington looked over his glasses. "we peppered him, redwood," he said, and then: "he tried to jump over me, and knocked me down. but i let him have it with both barrels, and my! how it has hurt my shoulder, to be sure." a man appeared in the doorway. "i got him once in the chest and once in the side," he said. "where's the waggons?" said cossar, appearing amidst a thicket of gigantic canary-creeper leaves. it became evident, to redwood's amazement, first, that no one had been shot, and, secondly, that the trolley and waggon had shifted fifty yards, and were now standing with interlocked wheels amidst the tangled distortions of skinner's kitchen garden. the horses had stopped their plunging. half-way towards them, the burst barrel of sulphur lay in the path with a cloud of sulphur dust above it. he indicated this to cossar and walked towards it. "has any one seen that rat?" shouted cossar, following. "i got him in between the ribs once, and once in the face as he turned on me." they were joined by two men, as they worried at the locked wheels. "i killed that rat," said one of the men. "have they got him?" asked cossar. "jim bates has found him, beyond the hedge. i got him jest as he came round the corner.... whack behind the shoulder...." when things were a little ship-shape again redwood went and stared at the huge misshapen corpse. the brute lay on its side, with its body slightly bent. its rodent teeth overhanging its receding lower jaw gave its face a look of colossal feebleness, of weak avidity. it seemed not in the least ferocious or terrible. its fore-paws reminded him of lank emaciated hands. except for one neat round hole with a scorched rim on either side of its neck, the creature was absolutely intact. he meditated over this fact for some time. "there must have been two rats," he said at last, turning away. "yes. and the one that everybody hit--got away." "i am certain that my own shot--" a canary-creeper leaf tendril, engaged in that mysterious search for a holdfast which constitutes a tendril's career, bent itself engagingly towards his neck and made him step aside hastily. "whoo-z-z z-z-z-z-z-z-z," from the distant wasps' nest, "whoo oo zoo-oo." v. this incident left the party alert but not unstrung. they got their stores into the house, which had evidently been ransacked by the rats after the flight of mrs. skinner, and four of the men took the two horses back to hickleybrow. they dragged the dead rat through the hedge and into a position commanded by the windows of the house, and incidentally came upon a cluster of giant earwigs in the ditch. these creatures dispersed hastily, but cossar reached out incalculable limbs and managed to kill several with his boots and gun-butt. then two of the men hacked through several of the main stems of the canary creeper--huge cylinders they were, a couple of feet in diameter, that came out by the sink at the back; and while cossar set the house in order for the night, bensington, redwood, and one of the assistant electricians went cautiously round by the fowl runs in search of the rat-holes. they skirted the giant nettles widely, for these huge weeds threatened them with poison-thorns a good inch long. then round beyond the gnawed, dismantled stile they came abruptly on the huge cavernous throat of the most westerly of the giant rat-holes, an evil-smelling profundity, that drew them up into a line together. "i _hope_ they'll come out," said redwood, with a glance at the pent-house of the well. "if they don't--" reflected bensington. "they will," said redwood. they meditated. "we shall have to rig up some sort of flare if we _do_ go in," said redwood. they went up a little path of white sand through the pine-wood and halted presently within sight of the wasp-holes. the sun was setting now, and the wasps were coming home for good; their wings in the golden light made twirling haloes about them. the three men peered out from under the trees--they did not care to go right to the edge of the wood--and watched these tremendous insects drop and crawl for a little and enter and disappear. "they will be still in a couple of hours from now," said redwood.... "this is like being a boy again." "we can't miss those holes," said bensington, "even if the night is dark. by-the-bye--about the light--" "full moon," said the electrician. "i looked it up." they went back and consulted with cossar. he said that "obviously" they must get the sulphur, nitre, and plaster of paris through the wood before twilight, and for that they broke bulk and carried the sacks. after the necessary shouting of the preliminary directions, never a word was spoken, and as the buzzing of the wasps' nest died away there was scarcely a sound in the world but the noise of footsteps, the heavy breathing of burthened men, and the thud of the sacks. they all took turns at that labour except mr. bensington, who was manifestly unfit. he took post in the skinners' bedroom with a rifle, to watch the carcase of the dead rat, and of the others, they took turns to rest from sack-carrying and to keep watch two at a time upon the rat-holes behind the nettle grove. the pollen sacs of the nettles were ripe, and every now and then the vigil would be enlivened by the dehiscence of these, the bursting of the sacs sounding exactly like the crack of a pistol, and the pollen grains as big as buckshot pattered all about them. mr. bensington sat at his window on a hard horse-hair-stuffed arm-chair, covered by a grubby antimacassar that had given a touch of social distinction to the skinners' sitting-room for many years. his unaccustomed rifle rested on the sill, and his spectacles anon watched the dark bulk of the dead rat in the thickening twilight, anon wandered about him in curious meditation. there was a faint smell of paraffin without, for one of the casks leaked, and it mingled with a less unpleasant odour arising from the hacked and crushed creeper. within, when he turned his head, a blend of faint domestic scents, beer, cheese, rotten apples, and old boots as the leading _motifs_, was full of reminiscences of the vanished skinners. he regarded the dim room for a space. the furniture had been greatly disordered--perhaps by some inquisitive rat--but a coat upon a clothes-peg on the door, a razor and some dirty scraps of paper, and a piece of soap that had hardened through years of disuse into a horny cube, were redolent of skinner's distinctive personality. it came to bensington's mind with a complete novelty of realisation that in all probability the man had been killed and eaten, at least in part, by the monster that now lay dead there in the darkling. to think of all that a harmless-looking discovery in chemistry may lead to! here he was in homely england and yet in infinite danger, sitting out alone with a gun in a twilit, ruined house, remote from every comfort, his shoulder dreadfully bruised from a gun-kick, and--by jove! he grasped now how profoundly the order of the universe had changed for him. he had come right away to this amazing experience, _without even saying a word to his cousin jane_! what must she be thinking of him? he tried to imagine it and he could not. he had an extraordinary feeling that she and he were parted for ever and would never meet again. he felt he had taken a step and come into a world of new immensities. what other monsters might not those deepening shadows hide? the tips of the giant nettles came out sharp and black against the pale green and amber of the western sky. everything was very still--very still indeed. he wondered why he could not hear the others away there round the corner of the house. the shadow in the cart-shed was now an abysmal black. * * * * * _bang ... bang ... bang_. a sequence of echoes and a shout. a long silence. _bang_ and a _diminuendo_ of echoes. stillness. then, thank goodness! redwood and cossar were coming out of the inaudible darknesses, and redwood was calling "bensington!" "bensington! we've bagged another of the rats!" "cossar's bagged another of the rats!" vi. when the expedition had finished refreshment, the night had fully come. the stars were at their brightest, and a growing pallor towards hankey heralded the moon. the watch on the rat-holes had been maintained, but the watchers had shifted to the hill slope above the holes, feeling this a safer firing-point. they squatted there in a rather abundant dew, fighting the damp with whisky. the others rested in the house, and the three leaders discussed the night's work with the men. the moon rose towards midnight, and as soon as it was clear of the downs, every one except the rat-hole sentinels started off in single file, led by cossar, towards the wasps' nest. so far as the wasps' nest went, they found their task exceptionally easy--astonishingly easy. except that it was a longer labour, it was no graver affair than any common wasps' nest might have been. danger there was, no doubt, danger to life, but it never so much as thrust its head out of that portentous hillside. they stuffed in the sulphur and nitre, they bunged the holes soundly, and fired their trains. then with a common impulse all the party but cossar turned and ran athwart the long shadows of the pines, and, finding cossar had stayed behind, came to a halt together in a knot, a hundred yards away, convenient to a ditch that offered cover. just for a minute or two the moonlit night, all black and white, was heavy with a suffocated buzz, that rose and mingled to a roar, a deep abundant note, and culminated and died, and then almost incredibly the night was still. "by jove!" said bensington, almost in a whisper, "_it's done!_" all stood intent. the hillside above the black point-lace of the pine shadows seemed as bright as day and as colourless as snow. the setting plaster in the holes positively shone. cossar's loose framework moved towards them. "so far--" said cossar. crack--_bang_! a shot from near the house and then--stillness. "what's _that_?" said bensington. "one of the rats put its head out," suggested one of the men. "by-the-bye, we left our guns up there," said redwood. "by the sacks." every one began to walk towards the hill again. "that must be the rats," said bensington. "obviously," said cossar, gnawing his finger nails. _bang_! "hullo?" said one of the men. then abruptly came a shout, two shots, a loud shout that was almost a scream, three shots in rapid succession and a splintering of wood. all these sounds were very clear and very small in the immense stillness of the night. then for some moments nothing but a minute muffled confusion from the direction of the rat-holes, and then again a wild yell ... each man found himself running hard for the guns. two shots. bensington found himself, gun in hand, going hard through the pine trees after a number of receding backs. it is curious that the thought uppermost in his mind at that moment was the wish that his cousin jane could see him. his bulbous slashed boots flew out in wild strides, and his face was distorted into a permanent grin, because that wrinkled his nose and kept his glasses in place. also he held the muzzle of his gun projecting straight before him as he flew through the chequered moonlight. the man who had run away met them full tilt--he had dropped his gun. "hullo," said cossar, and caught him in his arms. "what's this?" "they came out together," said the man. "the rats?" "yes, six of them." "where's flack?" "down." "what's he say?" panted bensington, coming up, unheeded. "flack's down?" "he fell down." "they came out one after the other." "what?" "made a rush. i fired both barrels first." "you left flack?" "they were on to us." "come on," said cossar. "you come with us. where's flack? show us." the whole party moved forward. further details of the engagement dropped from the man who had run away. the others clustered about him, except cossar, who led. "where are they?" "back in their holes, perhaps. i cleared. they made a rush for their holes." "what do you mean? did you get behind them?" "we got down by their holes. saw 'em come out, you know, and tried to cut 'em off. they lolloped out--like rabbits. we ran down and let fly. they ran about wild after our first shot and suddenly came at us. _went_ for us." "how many?" "six or seven." cossar led the way to the edge of the pine-wood and halted. "d'yer mean they _got_ flack?" asked some one. "one of 'em was on to him." "didn't you shoot?" "how _could_ i?" "every one loaded?" said cossar over his shoulder. there was a confirmatory movement. "but flack--" said one. "d'yer mean--flack--" said another. "there's no time to lose," said cossar, and shouted "flack!" as he led the way. the whole force advanced towards the rat-holes, the man who had run away a little to the rear. they went forward through the rank exaggerated weeds and skirted the body of the second dead rat. they were extended in a bunchy line, each man with his gun pointing forward, and they peered about them in the clear moonlight for some crumpled, ominous shape, some crouching form. they found the gun of the man who had run away very speedily. "flack!" cried cossar. "flack!" "he ran past the nettles and fell down," volunteered the man who ran away. "where?" "round about there." "where did he fall?" he hesitated and led them athwart the long black shadows for a space and turned judicially. "about here, i think." "well, he's not here now." "but his gun---?" "confound it!" swore cossar, "where's everything got to?" he strode a step towards the black shadows on the hillside that masked the holes and stood staring. then he swore again. "if they _have_ dragged him in---!" so they hung for a space tossing each other the fragments of thoughts. bensington's glasses flashed like diamonds as he looked from one to the other. the men's faces changed from cold clearness to mysterious obscurity as they turned them to or from the moon. every one spoke, no one completed a sentence. then abruptly cossar chose his line. he flapped limbs this way and that and expelled orders in pellets. it was obvious he wanted lamps. every one except cossar was moving towards the house. "you're going into the holes?" asked redwood. "obviously," said cossar. he made it clear once more that the lamps of the cart and trolley were to be got and brought to him. bensington, grasping this, started off along the path by the well. he glanced over his shoulder, and saw cossar's gigantic figure standing out as if he were regarding the holes pensively. at the sight bensington halted for a moment and half turned. they were all leaving cossar---! cossar was able to take care of himself, of course! suddenly bensington saw something that made him shout a windless "hi!" in a second three rats had projected themselves from the dark tangle of the creeper towards cossar. for three seconds cossar stood unaware of them, and then he had become the most active thing in the world. he didn't fire his gun. apparently he had no time to aim, or to think of aiming; he ducked a leaping rat, bensington saw, and then smashed at the back of its head with the butt of his gun. the monster gave one leap and fell over itself. cossar's form went right down out of sight among the reedy grass, and then he rose again, running towards another of the rats and whirling his gun overhead. a faint shout came to bensington's ears, and then he perceived the remaining two rats bolting divergently, and cossar in pursuit towards the holes. the whole thing was an affair of misty shadows; all three fighting monsters were exaggerated and made unreal by the delusive clearness of the light. at moments cossar was colossal, at moments invisible. the rats flashed athwart the eye in sudden unexpected leaps, or ran with a movement of the feet so swift, they seemed to run on wheels. it was all over in half a minute. no one saw it but bensington. he could hear the others behind him still receding towards the house. he shouted something inarticulate and then ran back towards cossar, while the rats vanished. he came up to him outside the holes. in the moonlight the distribution of shadows that constituted cossar's visage intimated calm. "hullo," said cossar, "back already? where's the lamps? they're all back now in their holes. one i broke the neck of as it ran past me ... see? there!" and he pointed a gaunt finger. bensington was too astonished for conversation ... the lamps seemed an interminable time in coming. at last they appeared, first one unwinking luminous eye, preceded by a swaying yellow glare, and then, winking now and then, and then shining out again, two others. about them came little figures with little voices, and then enormous shadows. this group made as it were a spot of inflammation upon the gigantic dreamland of moonshine. "flack," said the voices. "flack." an illuminating sentence floated up. "locked himself in the attic." cossar was continually more wonderful. he produced great handfuls of cotton wool and stuffed them in his ears--bensington wondered why. then he loaded his gun with a quarter charge of powder. who else could have thought of that? wonderland culminated with the disappearance of cossar's twin realms of boot sole up the central hole. cossar was on all fours with two guns, one trailing on each side from a string under his chin, and his most trusted assistant, a little dark man with a grave face, was to go in stooping behind him, holding a lantern over his head. everything had been made as sane and obvious and proper as a lunatic's dream. the wool, it seems, was on account of the concussion of the rifle; the man had some too. obviously! so long as the rats turned tail on cossar no harm could come to him, and directly they headed for him he would see their eyes and fire between them. since they would have to come down the cylinder of the hole, cossar could hardly fail to hit them. it was, cossar insisted, the obvious method, a little tedious perhaps, but absolutely certain. as the assistant stooped to enter, bensington saw that the end of a ball of twine had been tied to the tail of his coat. by this he was to draw in the rope if it should be needed to drag out the bodies of the rats. bensington perceived that the object he held in his hand was cossar's silk hat. how had it got there? it would be something to remember him by, anyhow. at each of the adjacent holes stood a little group with a lantern on the ground shining up the hole, and with one man kneeling and aiming at the round void before him, waiting for anything that might emerge. there was an interminable suspense. then they heard cossar's first shot, like an explosion in a mine.... every one's nerves and muscles tightened at that, and bang! bang! bang! the rats had tried a bolt, and two more were dead. then the man who held the ball of twine reported a twitching. "he's killed one in there," said bensington, "and he wants the rope." he watched the rope creep into the hole, and it seemed as though it had become animated by a serpentine intelligence--for the darkness made the twine invisible. at last it stopped crawling, and there was a long pause. then what seemed to bensington the queerest monster of all crept slowly from the hole, and resolved itself into the little engineer emerging backwards. after him, and ploughing deep furrows, cossar's boots thrust out, and then came his lantern-illuminated back.... only one rat was left alive now, and this poor, doomed wretch cowered in the inmost recesses until cossar and the lantern went in again and slew it, and finally cossar, that human ferret, went through all the runs to make sure. "we got 'em," he said to his nearly awe-stricken company at last. "and if i hadn't been a mud-headed mucker i should have stripped to the waist. obviously. feel my sleeves, bensington! i'm wet through with perspiration. jolly hard to think of everything. only a halfway-up of whisky can save me from a cold." vii. there were moments during that wonderful night when it seemed to bensington that he was planned by nature for a life of fantastic adventure. this was particularly the case for an hour or so after he had taken a stiff whisky. "shan't go back to sloane street," he confided to the tall, fair, dirty engineer. "you won't, eh?" "no fear," said bensington, nodding darkly. the exertion of dragging the seven dead rats to the funeral pyre by the nettle grove left him bathed in perspiration, and cossar pointed out the obvious physical reaction of whisky to save him from the otherwise inevitable chill. there was a sort of brigand's supper in the old bricked kitchen, with the row of dead rats lying in the moonlight against the hen-runs outside, and after thirty minutes or so of rest, cossar roused them all to the labours that were still to do. "obviously," as he said, they had to "wipe the place out. no litter--no scandal. see?" he stirred them up to the idea of making destruction complete. they smashed and splintered every fragment of wood in the house; they built trails of chopped wood wherever big vegetation was springing; they made a pyre for the rat bodies and soaked them in paraffin. bensington worked like a conscientious navvy. he had a sort of climax of exhilaration and energy towards two o'clock. when in the work of destruction he wielded an axe the bravest fled his neighbourhood. afterwards he was a little sobered by the temporary loss of his spectacles, which were found for him at last in his side coat-pocket. men went to and fro about him--grimy, energetic men. cossar moved amongst them like a god. bensington drank that delight of human fellowship that comes to happy armies, to sturdy expeditions--never to those who live the life of the sober citizen in cities. after cossar had taken his axe away and set him to carry wood he went to and fro, saying they were all "good fellows." he kept on--long after he was aware of fatigue. at last all was ready, and the broaching of the paraffin began. the moon, robbed now of all its meagre night retinue of stars, shone high above the dawn. "burn everything," said cossar, going to and fro--"burn the ground and make a clean sweep of it. see?" bensington became aware of him, looking now very gaunt and horrible in the pale beginnings of the daylight, hurrying past with his lower jaw projected and a flaring torch of touchwood in his hand. "come away!" said some one, pulling bensington's arm. the still dawn--no birds were singing there--was suddenly full of a tumultuous crackling; a little dull red flame ran about the base of the pyre, changed to blue upon the ground, and set out to clamber, leaf by leaf, up the stem of a giant nettle. a singing sound mingled with the crackling.... they snatched their guns from the corner of the skinners' living-room, and then every one was running. cossar came after them with heavy strides.... then they were standing looking back at the experimental farm. it was boiling up; the smoke and flames poured out like a crowd in a panic, from doors and windows and from a thousand cracks and crevices in the roof. trust cossar to build a fire! a great column of smoke, shot with blood-red tongues and darting flashes, rushed up into the sky. it was like some huge giant suddenly standing up, straining upward and abruptly spreading his great arms out across the sky. it cast the night back upon them, utterly hiding and obliterating the incandescence of the sun that rose behind it. all hickleybrow was soon aware of that stupendous pillar of smoke, and came out upon the crest, in various _deshabille_, to watch them coming. behind, like some fantastic fungus, this smoke pillar swayed and fluctuated, up, up, into the sky--making the downs seem low and all other objects petty, and in the foreground, led by cossar, the makers of this mischief followed the path, eight little black figures coming wearily, guns shouldered, across the meadow. as bensington looked back there came into his jaded brain, and echoed there, a familiar formula. what was it? "you have lit to-day--? you have lit to-day--?" then he remembered latimer's words: "we have lit this day such a candle in england as no man may ever put out again--" what a man cossar was, to be sure! he admired his back view for a space, and was proud to have held that hat. proud! although he was an eminent investigator and cossar only engaged in applied science. suddenly he fell shivering and yawning enormously and wishing he was warmly tucked away in bed in his little flat that looked out upon sloane street. (it didn't do even to think of cousin jane.) his legs became cotton strands, his feet lead. he wondered if any one would get them coffee in hickleybrow. he had never been up all night for three-and-thirty years. viii. and while these eight adventurers fought with rats about the experimental farm, nine miles away, in the village of cheasing eyebright, an old lady with an excessive nose struggled with great difficulties by the light of a flickering candle. she gripped a sardine tin opener in one gnarled hand, and in the other she held a tin of herakleophorbia, which she had resolved to open or die. she struggled indefatigably, grunting at each fresh effort, while through the flimsy partition the voice of the caddles infant wailed. "bless 'is poor 'art," said mrs. skinner; and then, with her solitary tooth biting her lip in an ecstasy of determination, "come _up_!" and presently, "_jab_!" a fresh supply of the food of the gods was let loose to wreak its powers of giantry upon the world. chapter the fourth. the giant children. i. for a time at least the spreading circle of residual consequences about the experimental farm must pass out of the focus of our narrative--how for a long time a power of bigness, in fungus and toadstool, in grass and weed, radiated from that charred but not absolutely obliterated centre. nor can we tell here at any length how these mournful spinsters, the two surviving hens, made a wonder of and a show, spent their remaining years in eggless celebrity. the reader who is hungry for fuller details in these matters is referred to the newspapers of the period--to the voluminous, indiscriminate files of the modern recording angel. our business lies with mr. bensington at the focus of the disturbance. he had come back to london to find himself a quite terribly famous man. in a night the whole world had changed with respect to him. everybody understood. cousin jane, it seemed, knew all about it; the people in the streets knew all about it; the newspapers all and more. to meet cousin jane was terrible, of course, but when it was over not so terrible after all. the good woman had limits even to her power over facts; it was clear that she had communed with herself and accepted the food as something in the nature of things. she took the line of huffy dutifulness. she disapproved highly, it was evident, but she did not prohibit. the flight of bensington, as she must have considered it, may have shaken her, and her worst was to treat him with bitter persistence for a cold he had not caught and fatigue he had long since forgotten, and to buy him a new sort of hygienic all-wool combination underwear that was apt to get involved and turned partially inside out and partially not, and as difficult to get into for an absent-minded man, as--society. and so for a space, and as far as this convenience left him leisure, he still continued to participate in the development of this new element in human history, the food of the gods. the public mind, following its own mysterious laws of selection, had chosen him as the one and only responsible inventor and promoter of this new wonder; it would hear nothing of redwood, and without a protest it allowed cossar to follow his natural impulse into a terribly prolific obscurity. before he was aware of the drift of these things, mr. bensington was, so to speak, stark and dissected upon the hoardings. his baldness, his curious general pinkness, and his golden spectacles had become a national possession. resolute young men with large expensive-looking cameras and a general air of complete authorisation took possession of the flat for brief but fruitful periods, let off flash lights in it that filled it for days with dense, intolerable vapour, and retired to fill the pages of the syndicated magazines with their admirable photographs of mr. bensington complete and at home in his second-best jacket and his slashed shoes. other resolute-mannered persons of various ages and sexes dropped in and told him things about boomfood--it was _punch_ first called the stuff "boomfood"--and afterwards reproduced what they had said as his own original contribution to the interview. the thing became quite an obsession with broadbeam, the popular humourist. he scented another confounded thing he could not understand, and he fretted dreadfully in his efforts to "laugh the thing down." one saw him in clubs, a great clumsy presence with the evidences of his midnight oil burning manifest upon his large unwholesome face, explaining to every one he could buttonhole: "these scientific chaps, you know, haven't a sense of humour, you know. that's what it is. this science--kills it." his jests at bensington became malignant libels.... an enterprising press-cutting agency sent bensington a long article about himself from a sixpenny weekly, entitled "a new terror," and offered to supply one hundred such disturbances for a guinea, and two extremely charming young ladies, totally unknown to him, called, and, to the speechless indignation of cousin jane, had tea with him and afterwards sent him their birthday books for his signature. he was speedily quite hardened to seeing his name associated with the most incongruous ideas in the public press, and to discover in the reviews articles written about boomfood and himself in a tone of the utmost intimacy by people he had never heard of. and whatever delusions he may have cherished in the days of his obscurity about the pleasantness of fame were dispelled utterly and for ever. at first--except for broadbeam--the tone of the public mind was quite free from any touch of hostility. it did not seem to occur to the public mind as anything but a mere playful supposition that any more herakleophorbia was going to escape again. and it did not seem to occur to the public mind that the growing little band of babies now being fed on the food would presently be growing more "up" than most of us ever grow. the sort of thing that pleased the public mind was caricatures of eminent politicians after a course of boom-feeding, uses of the idea on hoardings, and such edifying exhibitions as the dead wasps that had escaped the fire and the remaining hens. beyond that the public did not care to look, until very strenuous efforts were made to turn its eyes to the remoter consequences, and even then for a while its enthusiasm for action was partial. "there's always somethin' new," said the public--a public so glutted with novelty that it would hear of the earth being split as one splits an apple without surprise, and, "i wonder what they'll do next." but there were one or two people outside the public, as it were, who did already take that further glance, and some it seems were frightened by what they saw there. there was young caterham, for example, cousin of the earl of pewterstone, and one of the most promising of english politicians, who, taking the risk of being thought a faddist, wrote a long article in the _nineteenth century and after_ to suggest its total suppression. and--in certain of his moods, there was bensington. "they don't seem to realise--" he said to cossar. "no, they don't." "and do we? sometimes, when i think of what it means--this poor child of redwood's--and, of course, your three... forty feet high, perhaps! after all, _ought_ we to go on with it?" "go on with it!" cried cossar, convulsed with inelegant astonishment and pitching his note higher than ever. "of _course_ you'll go on with it! what d'you think you were made for? just to loaf about between meal-times? "serious consequences," he screamed, "of course! enormous. obviously. ob-viously. why, man, it's the only chance you'll ever get of a serious consequence! and you want to shirk it!" for a moment his indignation was speechless, "it's downright wicked!" he said at last, and repeated explosively, "wicked!" but bensington worked in his laboratory now with more emotion than zest. he couldn't tell whether he wanted serious consequences to his life or not; he was a man of quiet tastes. it was a marvellous discovery, of course, quite marvellous--but--he had already become the proprietor of several acres of scorched, discredited property near hickleybrow, at a price of nearly £ an acre, and at times he was disposed to think this as serious a consequence of speculative chemistry as any unambitious man could wish. of course he was famous--terribly famous. more than satisfying, altogether more than satisfying, was the fame he had attained. but the habit of research was strong in him.... and at moments, rare moments in the laboratory chiefly, he would find something else than habit and cossar's arguments to urge him to his work. this little spectacled man, poised perhaps with his slashed shoes wrapped about the legs of his high stool and his hand upon the tweezer of his balance weights, would have again a flash of that adolescent vision, would have a momentary perception of the eternal unfolding of the seed that had been sown in his brain, would see as it were in the sky, behind the grotesque shapes and accidents of the present, the coming world of giants and all the mighty things the future has in store--vague and splendid, like some glittering palace seen suddenly in the passing of a sunbeam far away.... and presently it would be with him as though that distant splendour had never shone upon his brain, and he would perceive nothing ahead but sinister shadows, vast declivities and darknesses, inhospitable immensities, cold, wild, and terrible things. ii. amidst the complex and confused happenings, the impacts from the great outer world that constituted mr. bensington's fame, a shining and active figure presently became conspicuous--became almost, as it were, a leader and marshal of these externalities in mr. bensington's eyes. this was dr. winkles, that convincing young practitioner, who has already appeared in this story as the means whereby redwood was able to convey the food to his son. even before the great outbreak, it was evident that the mysterious powders redwood had given him had awakened this gentleman's interest immensely, and so soon as the first wasps came he was putting two and two together. he was the sort of doctor that is in manners, in morals, in methods and appearance, most succinctly and finally expressed by the word "rising." he was large and fair, with a hard, alert, superficial, aluminium-coloured eye, and hair like chalk mud, even-featured and muscular about the clean-shaven mouth, erect in figure and energetic in movement, quick and spinning on the heel, and he wore long frock coats, black silk ties and plain gold studs and chains and his silk hats had a special shape and brim that made him look wiser and better than anybody. he looked as young or old as anybody grown up. and after that first wonderful outbreak he took to bensington and redwood and the food of the gods with such a convincing air of proprietorship, that at times, in spite of the testimony of the press to the contrary, bensington was disposed to regard him as the original inventor of the whole affair. "these accidents," said winkles, when bensington hinted at the dangers of further escapes, "are nothing. nothing. the discovery is everything. properly developed, suitably handled, sanely controlled, we have--we have something very portentous indeed in this food of ours.... we must keep our eye on it ... we mustn't let it out of control again, and--we mustn't let it rest." he certainly did not mean to do that. he was at bensington's now almost every day. bensington, glancing from the window, would see the faultless equipage come spanking up sloane street and after an incredibly brief interval winkles would enter the room with a light, strong motion, and pervade it, and protrude some newspaper and supply information and make remarks. "well," he would say, rubbing his hands, "how are we getting on?" and so pass to the current discussion about it. "do you see," he would say, for example, "that caterham has been talking about our stuff at the church association?" "dear me!" said bensington, "that's a cousin of the prime minister, isn't it?" "yes," said winkles, "a very able young man--very able. quite wrong-headed; you know, violently reactionary--but thoroughly able. and he's evidently disposed to make capital out of this stuff of ours. takes a very emphatic line. talks of our proposal to use it in the elementary schools---" "our proposal to use it in the elementary schools!" "_i_ said something about that the other day--quite in passing--little affair at a polytechnic. trying to make it clear the stuff was really highly beneficial. not in the slightest degree dangerous, in spite of those first little accidents. which cannot possibly occur again.... you know it _would_ be rather good stuff--but he's taken it up." "what did you say?" "mere obvious nothings. but as you see---! takes it up with perfect gravity. treats the thing as an attack. says there is already a sufficient waste of public money in elementary schools without this. tells the old stories about piano lessons again--_you_ know. no one; he says, wishes to prevent the children of the lower classes obtaining an education suited to their condition, but to give them a food of this sort will be to destroy their sense of proportion utterly. expands the topic. what good will it do, he asks, to make poor people six-and-thirty feet high? he really believes, you know, that they _will_ be thirty-six feet high." "so they would _be_," said bensington, "if you gave them our food at all regularly. but nobody said anything---" "_i_ said something." "but, my dear winkles--!" "they'll be bigger, of course," interrupted winkles, with an air of knowing all about it, and discouraging the crude ideas of bensington. "bigger indisputably. but listen to what he says! will it make them happier? that's his point. curious, isn't it? will it make them better? will they be more respectful to properly constituted authority? is it fair to the children themselves?? curious how anxious his sort are for justice--so far as any future arrangements go. even nowadays, he says, the cost of feeding and clothing children is more than many of their parents can contrive, and if this sort of thing is to be permitted--! eh? "you see he makes my mere passing suggestion into a positive proposal. and then he calculates how much a pair of breeches for a growing lad of twenty feet high or so will cost. just as though he really believed--ten pounds, he reckons, for the merest decency. curious this caterham! so concrete! the honest, and struggling ratepayer will have to contribute to that, he says. he says we have to consider the rights of the parent. it's all here. two columns. every parent has a right to have his children brought up in his own size.... "then comes the question of school accommodation, cost of enlarged desks and forms for our already too greatly burthened national schools. and to get what?--a proletariat of hungry giants. winds up with a very serious passage, says even if this wild suggestion--mere passing fancy of mine, you know, and misinterpreted at that--this wild suggestion about the schools comes to nothing, that doesn't end the matter. this is a strange food, so strange as to seem to him almost wicked. it has been scattered recklessly--so he says--and it may be scattered again. once you've taken it, it's poison unless you go on with it. 'so it is,' said bensington. and in short he proposes the formation of a national society for the preservation of the proper proportions of things. odd? eh? people are hanging on to the idea like anything." "but what do they propose to do?" winkles shrugged his shoulders and threw out his hands. "form a society," he said, "and fuss. they want to make it illegal to manufacture this herakleophorbia--or at any rate to circulate the knowledge of it. i've written about a bit to show that caterham's idea of the stuff is very much exaggerated--very much exaggerated indeed, but that doesn't seem to check it. curious how people are turning against it. and the national temperance association, by-the-bye, has founded a branch for temperance in growth." "mm," said bensington and stroked his nose. "after all that has happened there's bound to be this uproar. on the face of it the thing's--_startling_." winkles walked about the room for a time, hesitated, and departed. it became evident there was something at the back of his mind, some aspect of crucial importance to him, that he waited to display. one day, when redwood and bensington were at the flat together he gave them a glimpse of this something in reserve. "how's it all going?" he said; rubbing his hands together. "we're getting together a sort of report." "for the royal society?" "yes." "hm," said. winkles, very profoundly, and walked to the hearth-rug. "hm. but--here's the point. _ought_ you?" "ought we--what?" "ought you to publish?" "we're not in the middle ages," said redwood. "i know." "as cossar says, swapping wisdom--that's the true scientific method." "in most cases, certainly. but--this is exceptional." "we shall put the whole thing before the royal society in the proper way," said redwood. winkles returned to that on a later occasion. "it's in many ways an exceptional discovery." "that doesn't matter," said redwood. "it's the sort of knowledge that could easily be subject to grave abuse--grave dangers, as caterham puts it." redwood said nothing. "even carelessness, you know--" "if we were to form a committee of trustworthy people to control the manufacture of boomfood--herakleophorbia, i _should_ say--we might--" he paused, and redwood, with a certain private discomfort, pretended that he did not see any sort of interrogation.... outside the apartments of redwood and bensington, winkle, in spite of the incompleteness of his instructions, became a leading authority upon boomfood. he wrote letters defending its use; he made notes and articles explaining its possibilities; he jumped up irrelevantly at the meetings of the scientific and medical associations to talk about it; he identified himself with it. he published a pamphlet called "the truth about boomfood," in which he minimised the whole of the hickleybrow affair almost to nothing. he said that it was absurd to say boomfood would make people thirty-seven feet high. that was "obviously exaggerated." it would make them bigger, of course, but that was all.... within that intimate circle of two it was chiefly evident that winkles was extremely anxious to help in the making of herakleophorbia, help in correcting any proofs there might be of any paper there might be in preparation upon the subject--do anything indeed that might lead up to his participation in the details of the making of herakleophorbia. he was continually telling them both that he felt it was a big thing, that it had big possibilities. if only they were--"safeguarded in some way." and at last one day he asked outright to be told just how it was made. "i've been thinking over what you said," said redwood. "well?" said winkles brightly. "it's the sort of knowledge that could easily be subject to grave abuse," said redwood. "but i don't see how that applies," said winkles. "it does," said redwood. winkles thought it over for a day or so. then he came to redwood and said that he doubted if he ought to give powders about which he knew nothing to redwood's little boy; it seemed to him it was uncommonly like taking responsibility in the dark. that made redwood thoughtful. "you've seen that the society for the total suppression of boomfood claims to have several thousand members," said winkles, changing the subject. "they've drafted a bill," said winkles. "they've got young caterham to take it up--readily enough. they're in earnest. they're forming local committees to influence candidates. they want to make it penal to prepare and store herakleophorbia without special license, and felony--matter of imprisonment without option--to administer boomfood--that's what they call it, you know--to any person under one-and-twenty. but there's collateral societies, you know. all sorts of people. the society for the preservation of ancient statures is going to have mr. frederic harrison on the council, they say. you know he's written an essay about it; says it is vulgar, and entirely inharmonious with that revelation of humanity that is found in the teachings of comte. it is the sort of thing the eighteenth century _couldn't_ have produced even in its worst moments. the idea of the food never entered the head of comte--which shows how wicked it really is. no one, he says, who really understood comte...." "but you don't mean to say--" said redwood, alarmed out of his disdain for winkles. "they'll not do all that," said winkles. "but public opinion is public opinion, and votes are votes. everybody can see you are up to a disturbing thing. and the human instinct is all against disturbance, you know. nobody seems to believe caterham's idea of people thirty-seven feet high, who won't be able to get inside a church, or a meeting-house, or any social or human institution. but for all that they're not so easy in their minds about it. they see there's something--something more than a common discovery--" "there is," said redwood, "in every discovery." "anyhow, they're getting--restive. caterham keeps harping on what may happen if it gets loose again. i say over and over again, it won't, and it can't. but--there it is!" and he bounced about the room for a little while as if he meant to reopen the topic of the secret, and then thought better of it and went. the two scientific men looked at one another. for a space only their eyes spoke. "if the worst comes to the worst," said redwood at last, in a strenuously calm voice, "i shall give the food to my little teddy with my own hands." iii. it was only a few days after this that redwood opened his paper to find that the prime minister had promised a royal commission on boomfood. this sent him, newspaper in hand, round to bensington's flat. "winkles, i believe, is making mischief for the stuff. he plays into the hands of caterham. he keeps on talking about it, and what it is going to do, and alarming people. if he goes on, i really believe he'll hamper our inquiries. even as it is--with this trouble about my little boy--" bensington wished winkles wouldn't. "do you notice how he has dropped into the way of calling it boomfood?" "i don't like that name," said bensington, with a glance over his glasses. "it is just so exactly what it is--to winkles." "why does he keep on about it? it isn't his!" "it's something called booming," said redwood. "_i_ don't understand. if it isn't his, everybody is getting to think it is. not that _that_ matters." "in the event of this ignorant, this ridiculous agitation becoming--serious," began bensington. "my little boy can't get on without the stuff," said redwood. "i don't see how i can help myself now. if the worst comes to the worst--" a slight bouncing noise proclaimed the presence of winkles. he became visible in the middle of the room rubbing his hands together. "i wish you'd knock," said bensington, looking vicious over the gold rims. winkles was apologetic. then he turned to redwood. "i'm glad to find you here," he began; "the fact is--" "have you seen about this royal commission?" interrupted redwood. "yes," said winkles, thrown out. "yes." "what do you think of it?" "excellent thing," said winkles. "bound to stop most of this clamour. ventilate the whole affair. shut up caterham. but that's not what i came round for, redwood. the fact is--" "i don't like this royal commission," said bensington. "i can assure you it will be all right. i may say--i don't think it's a breach of confidence--that very possibly _i_ may have a place on the commission--" "oom," said redwood, looking into the fire. "i can put the whole thing right. i can make it perfectly clear, first, that the stuff is controllable, and, secondly, that nothing short of a miracle is needed before anything like that catastrophe at hickleybrow can possibly happen again. that is just what is wanted, an authoritative assurance. of course, i could speak with more confidence if i knew--but that's quite by the way. and just at present there's something else, another little matter, upon which i'm wanting to consult you. ahem. the fact is--well--i happen to be in a slight difficulty, and you can help me out." redwood raised his eyebrows, and was secretly glad. "the matter is--highly confidential." "go on," said redwood. "don't worry about that." "i have recently been entrusted with a child--the child of--of an exalted personage." winkles coughed. "you're getting on," said redwood. "i must confess it's largely your powders--and the reputation of my success with your little boy--there is, i cannot disguise, a strong feeling against its use. and yet i find that among the more intelligent--one must go quietly in these things, you know--little by little. still, in the case of her serene high--i mean this new little patient of mine. as a matter of fact--the suggestion came from the parent. or i should never--" he struck redwood as being embarrassed. "i thought you had a doubt of the advisability of using these powders," said redwood. "merely a passing doubt." "you don't propose to discontinue--" "in the case of your little boy? certainly not!" "so far as i can see, it would be murder." "i wouldn't do it for the world." "you shall have the powders," said redwood. "i suppose you couldn't--" "no fear," said redwood. "there isn't a recipe. it's no good, winkles, if you'll pardon my frankness. i'll make you the powders myself." "just as well, perhaps," said winkles, after a momentary hard stare at redwood--"just as well." and then: "i can assure you i really don't mind in the least." iv. when winkles had gone bensington came and stood on the hearth-rug and looked down at redwood. "her serene highness!" he remarked. "her serene highness!" said redwood. "it's the princess of weser dreiburg!" "no further than a third cousin." "redwood," said bensington; "it's a curious thing to say, i know, but--do you think winkles understands?" "what?" "just what it is we have made. "does he really understand," said bensington, dropping his voice and keeping his eye doorward, "that in the family--the family of his new patient--" "go on," said redwood. "who have always been if anything a little _under_--_under_--" "the average?" "yes. and so _very_ tactfully undistinguished in _any_ way, he is going to produce a royal personage--an outsize royal personage--of _that_ size. you know, redwood, i'm not sure whether there is not something almost--_treasonable_ ..." he transferred his eyes from the door to redwood. redwood flung a momentary gesture--index finger erect--at the fire. "by jove!" he said, "he _doesn't_ know!" "that man," said redwood, "doesn't know anything. that was his most exasperating quality as a student. nothing. he passed all his examinations, he had all his facts--and he had just as much knowledge--as a rotating bookshelf containing the _times encyclopedia_. and he doesn't know anything _now_. he's winkles, and incapable of really assimilating anything not immediately and directly related to his superficial self. he is utterly void of imagination and, as a consequence, incapable of knowledge. no one could possibly pass so many examinations and be so well dressed, so well done, and so successful as a doctor without that precise incapacity. that's it. and in spite of all he's seen and heard and been told, there he is--he has no idea whatever of what he has set going. he has got a boom on, he's working it well on boomfood, and some one has let him in to this new royal baby--and that's boomier than ever! and the fact that weser dreiburg will presently have to face the gigantic problem of a thirty-odd-foot princess not only hasn't entered his head, but couldn't--it couldn't!" "there'll be a fearful row," said bensington. "in a year or so." "so soon as they really see she is going on growing." "unless after their fashion--they hush it up." "it's a lot to hush up." "rather!" "i wonder what they'll do?" "they never do anything--royal tact." "they're bound to do something." "perhaps _she_ will." "o lord! yes." "they'll suppress her. such things have been known." redwood burst into desperate laughter. "the redundant royalty--the bouncing babe in the iron mask!" he said. "they'll have to put her in the tallest tower of the old weser dreiburg castle and make holes in the ceilings as she grows from floor to floor! well, i'm in the very same pickle. and cossar and his three boys. and--well, well." "there'll be a fearful row," bensington repeated, not joining in the laughter. "a _fearful_ row." "i suppose," he argued, "you've really thought it out thoroughly, redwood. you're quite sure it wouldn't be wiser to warn winkles, wean your little boy gradually, and--and rely upon the theoretical triumph?" "i wish to goodness you'd spend half an hour in my nursery when the food's a little late," said redwood, with a note of exasperation in his voice; "then you wouldn't talk like that, bensington. besides--fancy warning winkles... no! the tide of this thing has caught us unawares, and whether we're frightened or whether we're not--_we've got to swim!_" "i suppose we have," said bensington, staring at his toes. "yes. we've got to swim. and your boy will have to swim, and cossar's boys--he's given it to all three of them. nothing partial about cossar--all or nothing! and her serene highness. and everything. we are going on making the food. cossar also. we're only just in the dawn of the beginning, redwood. it's evident all sorts of things are to follow. monstrous great things. but i can't imagine them, redwood. except--" he scanned his finger nails. he looked up at redwood with eyes bland through his glasses. "i've half a mind," he adventured, "that caterham is right. at times. it's going to destroy the proportions of things. it's going to dislocate--what isn't it going to dislocate?" "whatever it dislocates," said redwood, "my little boy must have the food." they heard some one falling rapidly upstairs. then cossar put his head into the flat. "hullo!" he said at their expressions, and entering, "well?" they told him about the princess. "_difficult question!_" he remarked. "not a bit of it. _she'll_ grow. your boy'll grow. all the others you give it to 'll grow. everything. like anything. what's difficult about that? that's all right. a child could tell you that. where's the bother?" they tried to make it clear to him. "_not go on with it!_" he shrieked. "but--! you can't help yourselves now. it's what you're for. it's what winkles is for. it's all right. often wondered what winkles was for. _now_ it's obvious. what's the trouble? "_disturbance_? obviously. _upset things_? upset everything. finally--upset every human concern. plain as a pikestaff. they're going to try and stop it, but they're too late. it's their way to be too late. you go on and start as much of it as you can. thank god he has a use for you!" "but the conflict!" said bensington, "the stress! i don't know if you have imagined--" "you ought to have been some sort of little vegetable, bensington," said cossar--"that's what you ought to have been. something growing over a rockery. here you are, fearfully and wonderfully made, and all you think you're made for is just to sit about and take your vittles. d'you think this world was made for old women to mop about in? well, anyhow, you can't help yourselves now--you've _got_ to go on." "i suppose we must," said redwood. "slowly--" "no!" said cossar, in a huge shout. "no! make as much as you can and as soon as you can. spread it about!" he was inspired to a stroke of wit. he parodied one of redwood's curves with a vast upward sweep of his arm. "redwood!" he said, to point the allusion, "make it so!" v. there is, it seems, an upward limit to the pride of maternity, and this in the case of mrs. redwood was reached when her offspring completed his sixth month of terrestrial existence, broke down his high-class bassinet-perambulator, and was brought home, bawling, in the milk-truck. young redwood at that time weighed fifty-nine and a half pounds, measured forty-eight inches in height, and gripped about sixty pounds. he was carried upstairs to the nursery by the cook and housemaid. after that, discovery was only a question of days. one afternoon redwood came home from his laboratory to find his unfortunate wife deep in the fascinating pages of _the mighty atom_, and at the sight of him she put the book aside and ran violently forward and burst into tears on his shoulder. "tell me what you have _done_ to him," she wailed. "tell me what you have done." redwood took her hand and led her to the sofa, while he tried to think of a satisfactory line of defence. "it's all right, my dear," he said; "it's all right. you're only a little overwrought. it's that cheap perambulator. i've arranged for a bath-chair man to come round with something stouter to-morrow--" mrs. redwood looked at him tearfully over the top of her handkerchief. "a baby in a bath-chair?" she sobbed. "well, why not?" "it's like a cripple." "it's like a young giant, my dear, and you've no cause to be ashamed of him." "you've done something to him, dandy," she said. "i can see it in your face." "well, it hasn't stopped his growth, anyhow," said redwood heartlessly. "i _knew_," said mrs. redwood, and clenched her pocket-handkerchief ball fashion in one hand. she looked at him with a sudden change to severity. "what have you done to our child, dandy?" "what's wrong with him?" "he's so big. he's a monster." "nonsense. he's as straight and clean a baby as ever a woman had. what's wrong with him?" "look at his size." "that's all right. look at the puny little brutes about us! he's the finest baby--" "he's _too_ fine," said mrs. redwood. "it won't go on," said redwood reassuringly; "it's just a start he's taken." but he knew perfectly well it would go on. and it did. by the time this baby was twelve months old he tottered just one inch under five feet high and scaled eight stone three; he was as big in fact as a st. peter's _in vaticano_ cherub, and his affectionate clutch at the hair and features of visitors became the talk of west kensington. they had an invalid's chair to carry him up and down to his nursery, and his special nurse, a muscular young person just out of training, used to take him for his airings in a panhard h.p. hill-climbing perambulator specially made to meet his requirement. it was lucky in every way that redwood had his expert witness connection in addition to his professorship. when one got over the shock of little redwood's enormous size, he was, i am told by people who used to see him almost daily teufteufing slowly about hyde park, a singularly bright and pretty baby. he rarely cried or needed a comforter. commonly he clutched a big rattle, and sometimes he went along hailing the bus-drivers and policemen along the road outside the railings as "dadda!" and "babba!" in a sociable, democratic way. "there goes that there great boomfood baby," the bus-driver used to say. "looks 'ealthy," the forward passenger would remark. "bottle fed," the bus-driver would explain. "they say it 'olds a gallon and 'ad to be specially made for 'im." "very 'ealthy child any'ow," the forward passenger would conclude. when mrs. redwood realized that his growth was indeed going on indefinitely and logically--and this she really did for the first time when the motor-perambulator arrived--she gave way to a passion of grief. she declared she never wished to enter her nursery again, wished she was dead, wished the child was dead, wished everybody was dead, wished she had never married redwood, wished no one ever married anybody, ajaxed a little, and retired to her own room, where she lived almost exclusively on chicken broth for three days. when redwood came to remonstrate with her, she banged pillows about and wept and tangled her hair. "_he's_ all right," said redwood. "he's all the better for being big. you wouldn't like him smaller than other people's children." "i want him to be _like_ other children, neither smaller nor bigger. i wanted him to be a nice little boy, just as georgina phyllis is a nice little girl, and i wanted to bring him up nicely in a nice way, and here he is"--and the unfortunate woman's voice broke--"wearing number four grown-up shoes and being wheeled about by--booboo!--petroleum! "i can never love him," she wailed, "never! he's too much for me! i can never be a mother to him, such as i meant to be!" but at last, they contrived to get her into the nursery, and there was edward monson redwood ("pantagruel" was only a later nickname) swinging in a specially strengthened rocking-chair and smiling and talking "goo" and "wow." and the heart of mrs. redwood warmed again to her child, and she went and held him in her arms and wept. "they've done something to you," she sobbed, "and you'll grow and grow, dear; but whatever i can do to bring you up nice i'll do for you, whatever your father may say." and redwood, who had helped to bring her to the door, went down the passage much relieved. (eh! but it's a base job this being a man--with women as they are!) vi. before the year was out there were, in addition to redwood's pioneer vehicle, quite a number of motor-perambulators to be seen in the west of london. i am told there were as many as eleven; but the most careful inquiries yield trustworthy evidence of only six within the metropolitan area at that time. it would seem the stuff acted differently upon different types of constitution. at first herakleophorbia was not adapted to injection, and there can be no doubt that quite a considerable proportion of human beings are incapable of absorbing this substance in the normal course of digestion. it was given, for example, to winkles' youngest boy; but he seems to have been as incapable of growth as, if redwood was right, his father was incapable of knowledge. others again, according to the society for the total suppression of boomfood, became in some inexplicable way corrupted by it, and perished at the onset of infantile disorders. the cossar boys took to it with amazing avidity. of course a thing of this kind never comes with absolute simplicity of application into the life of man; growth in particular is a complex thing, and all generalisations must needs be a little inaccurate. but the general law of the food would seem to be this, that when it could be taken into the system in any way it stimulated it in very nearly the same degree in all cases. it increased the amount of growth from six to seven times, and it did not go beyond that, whatever amount of the food in excess was taken. excess of herakleophorbia indeed beyond the necessary minimum led, it was found, to morbid disturbances of nutrition, to cancer and tumours, ossifications, and the like. and once growth upon the large scale had begun, it was soon evident that it could only continue upon that scale, and that the continuous administration of herakleophorbia in small but sufficient doses was imperative. if it was discontinued while growth was still going on, there was first a vague restlessness and distress, then a period of voracity--as in the case of the young rats at hankey--and then the growing creature had a sort of exaggerated anaemia and sickened and died. plants suffered in a similar way. this, however, applied only to the growth period. so soon as adolescence was attained--in plants this was represented by the formation of the first flower-buds--the need and appetite for herakleophorbia diminished, and so soon as the plant or animal was fully adult, it became altogether independent of any further supply of the food. it was, as it were, completely established on the new scale. it was so completely established on the new scale that, as the thistles about hickleybrow and the grass of the down side already demonstrated, its seed produced giant offspring after its kind. and presently little redwood, pioneer of the new race, first child of all who ate the food, was crawling about his nursery, smashing furniture, biting like a horse, pinching like a vice, and bawling gigantic baby talk at his "nanny" and "mammy" and the rather scared and awe-stricken "daddy," who had set this mischief going. the child was born with good intentions. "padda be good, be good," he used to say as the breakables flew before him. "padda" was his rendering of pantagruel, the nickname redwood imposed on him. and cossar, disregarding certain ancient lights that presently led to trouble, did, after a conflict with the local building regulations, get building on a vacant piece of ground adjacent to redwood's home, a comfortable well-lit playroom, schoolroom, and nursery for their four boys--sixty feet square about this room was, and forty feet high. redwood fell in love with that great nursery as he and cossar built it, and his interest in curves faded, as he had never dreamt it could fade, before the pressing needs of his son. "there is much," he said, "in fitting a nursery. much. "the walls, the things in it, they will all speak to this new mind of ours, a little more, a little less eloquently, and teach it, or fail to teach it a thousand things." "obviously," said cossar, reaching hastily for his hat. they worked together harmoniously, but redwood supplied most of the educational theory required ... they had the walls and woodwork painted with a cheerful vigour; for the most part a slightly warmed white prevailed, but there were bands of bright clean colour to enforce the simple lines of construction. "clean colours we _must_ have," said redwood, and in one place had a neat horizontal band of squares, in which crimson and purple, orange and lemon, blues and greens, in many hues and many shades, did themselves honour. these squares the giant children should arrange and rearrange to their pleasure. "decorations must follow," said redwood; "let them first get the range of all the tints, and then this may go away. there is no reason why one should bias them in favour of any particular colour or design." then, "the place must be full of interest," said redwood. "interest is food for a child, and blankness torture and starvation. he must have pictures galore." there were no pictures hung about the room for any permanent service, however, but blank frames were provided into which new pictures would come and pass thence into a portfolio so soon as their fresh interest had passed. there was one window that looked down the length of a street, and in addition, for an added interest, redwood had contrived above the roof of the nursery a camera obscura that watched the kensington high street and not a little of the gardens. in one corner that most worthy implement, an abacus, four feet square, a specially strengthened piece of ironmongery with rounded corners, awaited the young giants' incipient computations. there were few woolly lambs and such-like idols, but instead cossar, without explanation, had brought one day in three four-wheelers a great number of toys (all just too big for the coming children to swallow) that could be piled up, arranged in rows, rolled about, bitten, made to flap and rattle, smacked together, felt over, pulled out, opened, closed, and mauled and experimented with to an interminable extent. there were many bricks of wood in diverse colours, oblong and cuboid, bricks of polished china, bricks of transparent glass and bricks of india-rubber; there were slabs and slates; there were cones, truncated cones, and cylinders; there were oblate and prolate spheroids, balls of varied substances, solid and hollow, many boxes of diverse size and shape, with hinged lids and screw lids and fitting lids, and one or two to catch and lock; there were bands of elastic and leather, and a number of rough and sturdy little objects of a size together that could stand up steadily and suggest the shape of a man. "give 'em these," said cossar. "one at a time." these things redwood arranged in a locker in one corner. along one side of the room, at a convenient height for a six-or eight-foot child, there was a blackboard, on which the youngsters might flourish in white and coloured chalk, and near by a sort of drawing block, from which sheet after sheet might be torn, and on which they could draw in charcoal, and a little desk there was, furnished with great carpenter's pencils of varying hardness and a copious supply of paper, on which the boys might first scribble and then draw more neatly. and moreover redwood gave orders, so far ahead did his imagination go, for specially large tubes of liquid paint and boxes of pastels against the time when they should be needed. he laid in a cask or so of plasticine and modelling clay. "at first he and his tutor shall model together," he said, "and when he is more skilful he shall copy casts and perhaps animals. and that reminds me, i must also have made for him a box of tools! "then books. i shall have to look out a lot of books to put in his way, and they'll have to be big type. now what sort of books will he need? there is his imagination to be fed. that, after all, is the crown of every education. the crown--as sound habits of mind and conduct are the throne. no imagination at all is brutality; a base imagination is lust and cowardice; but a noble imagination is god walking the earth again. he must dream too of a dainty fairy-land and of all the quaint little things of life, in due time. but he must feed chiefly on the splendid real; he shall have stories of travel through all the world, travels and adventures and how the world was won; he shall have stories of beasts, great books splendidly and clearly done of animals and birds and plants and creeping things, great books about the deeps of the sky and the mystery of the sea; he shall have histories and maps of all the empires the world has seen, pictures and stories of all the tribes and habits and customs of men. and he must have books and pictures to quicken his sense of beauty, subtle japanese pictures to make him love the subtler beauties of bird and tendril and falling flower, and western pictures too, pictures of gracious men and women, sweet groupings, and broad views of land and sea. he shall have books on the building of houses and palaces; he shall plan rooms and invent cities-- "i think i must give him a little theatre. "then there is music!" redwood thought that over, and decided that his son might best begin with a very pure-sounding harmonicon of one octave, to which afterwards there could be an extension. "he shall play with this first, sing to it and give names to the notes," said redwood, "and afterwards--?" he stared up at the window-sill overhead and measured the size of the room with his eye. "they'll have to build his piano in here," he said. "bring it in in pieces." he hovered about amidst his preparations, a pensive, dark, little figure. if you could have seen him there he would have looked to you like a ten-inch man amidst common nursery things. a great rug--indeed it was a turkey carpet--four hundred square feet of it, upon which young redwood was soon to crawl--stretched to the grill-guarded electric radiator that was to warm the whole place. a man from cossar's hung amidst scaffolding overhead, fixing the great frame that was to hold the transitory pictures. a blotting-paper book for plant specimens as big as a house door leant against the wall, and from it projected a gigantic stalk, a leaf edge or so and one flower of chickweed, all of that gigantic size that was soon to make urshot famous throughout the botanical world ... a sort of incredulity came to redwood as he stood among these things. "if it really _is_ going on--" said redwood, staring up at the remote ceiling. from far away came a sound like the bellowing of a mafficking bull, almost as if in answer. "it's going on all right," said redwood. "evidently." there followed resounding blows upon a table, followed by a vast crowing shout, "gooloo! boozoo! bzz ..." "the best thing i can do," said redwood, following out some divergent line of thought, "is to teach him myself." that beating became more insistent. for a moment it seemed to redwood that it caught the rhythm of an engine's throbbing--the engine he could have imagined of some great train of events that bore down upon him. then a descendant flight of sharper beats broke up that effect, and were repeated. "come in," he cried, perceiving that some one rapped, and the door that was big enough for a cathedral opened slowly a little way. the new winch ceased to creak, and bensington appeared in the crack, gleaming benevolently under his protruded baldness and over his glasses. "i've ventured round to _see_," he whispered in a confidentially furtive manner. "come in," said redwood, and he did, shutting the door behind him. he walked forward, hands behind his back, advanced a few steps, and peered up with a bird-like movement at the dimensions about him. he rubbed his chin thoughtfully. "every time i come in," he said, with a subdued note in his voice, "it strikes me as--'_big_.'" "yes," said redwood, surveying it all again also, as if in an endeavour to keep hold of the visible impression. "yes. they're going to be big too, you know." "i know," said bensington, with a note that was nearly awe. "_very_ big." they looked at one another, almost, as it were, apprehensively. "very big indeed," said bensington, stroking the bridge of his nose, and with one eye that watched redwood doubtfully for a confirmatory expression. "all of them, you know--fearfully big. i don't seem able to imagine--even with this--just how big they're all going to be." chapter the fifth. the minimificence of mr. bensington. i. it was while the royal commission on boomfood was preparing its report that herakleophorbia really began to demonstrate its capacity for leakage. and the earliness of this second outbreak was the more unfortunate, from the point of view of cossar at any rate, since the draft report still in existence shows that the commission had, under the tutelage of that most able member, doctor stephen winkles (f.r.s. m.d. f.r.c.p. d. sc. j.p. d.l. etc.), already quite made up its mind that accidental leakages were impossible, and was prepared to recommend that to entrust the preparation of boomfood to a qualified committee (winkles chiefly), with an entire control over its sale, was quite enough to satisfy all reasonable objections to its free diffusion. this committee was to have an absolute monopoly. and it is, no doubt, to be considered as a part of the irony of life that the first and most alarming of this second series of leakages occurred within fifty yards of a little cottage at keston occupied during the summer months by doctor winkles. there can be little doubt now that redwood's refusal to acquaint winkles with the composition of herakleophorbia iv. had aroused in that gentleman a novel and intense desire towards analytical chemistry. he was not a very expert manipulator, and for that reason probably he saw fit to do his work not in the excellently equipped laboratories that were at his disposal in london, but without consulting any one, and almost with an air of secrecy, in a rough little garden laboratory at the keston establishment. he does not seem to have shown either very great energy or very great ability in this quest; indeed one gathers he dropped the inquiry after working at it intermittently for about a month. this garden laboratory, in which the work was done, was very roughly equipped, supplied by a standpipe tap with water, and draining into a pipe that ran down into a swampy rush-bordered pool under an alder tree in a secluded corner of the common just outside the garden hedge. the pipe was cracked, and the residuum of the food of the gods escaped through the crack into a little puddle amidst clumps of rushes, just in time for the spring awakening. everything was astir with life in that scummy little corner. there was frog spawn adrift, tremulous with tadpoles just bursting their gelatinous envelopes; there were little pond snails creeping out into life, and under the green skin of the rush stems the larvae of a big water beetle were struggling out of their egg cases. i doubt if the reader knows the larva of the beetle called (i know not why) dytiscus. it is a jointed, queer-looking thing, very muscular and sudden in its movements, and given to swimming head downward with its tail out of water; the length of a man's top thumb joint it is, and more--two inches, that is for those who have not eaten the food--and it has two sharp jaws that meet in front of its head--tubular jaws with sharp points--through which its habit is to suck its victim's blood ... the first things to get at the drifting grains of the food were the little tadpoles and the little water snails; the little wriggling tadpoles in particular, once they had the taste of it, took to it with zest. but scarcely did one of them begin to grow into a conspicuous position in that little tadpole world and try a smaller brother or so as an aid to a vegetarian dietary, when nip! one of the beetle larvae had its curved bloodsucking prongs gripping into his heart, and with that red stream went herakleophorbia iv, in a state of solution, into the being of a new client. the only thing that had a chance with these monsters to get any share of the food were the rushes and slimy green scum in the water and the seedling weeds in the mud at the bottom. a clean up of the study presently washed a fresh spate of the food into the puddle, and overflowed it, and carried all this sinister expansion of the struggle for life into the adjacent pool under the roots of the alder... the first person to discover what was going on was a mr. lukey carrington, a special science teacher under the london education board, and, in his leisure, a specialist in fresh-water algae, and he is certainly not to be envied his discovery. he had come down to keston common for the day to fill a number of specimen tubes for subsequent examination, and he came, with a dozen or so of corked tubes clanking faintly in his pocket, over the sandy crest and down towards the pool, spiked walking stick in hand. a garden lad standing on the top of the kitchen steps clipping doctor winkles' hedge saw him in this unfrequented corner, and found him and his occupation sufficiently inexplicable and interesting to watch him pretty closely. he saw mr. carrington stoop down by the side of the pool, with his hand against the old alder stem, and peer into the water, but of course he could not appreciate the surprise and pleasure with which mr. carrington beheld the big unfamiliar-looking blobs and threads of the algal scum at the bottom. there were no tadpoles visible--they had all been killed by that time--and it would seem mr. carrington saw nothing at all unusual except the excessive vegetation. he bared his arm to the elbow, leant forward, and dipped deep in pursuit of a specimen. his seeking hand went down. instantly there flashed out of the cool shadow under the tree roots something-- flash! it had buried its fangs deep into his arm--a bizarre shape it was, a foot long and more, brown and jointed like a scorpion. its ugly apparition and the sharp amazing painfulness of its bite were too much for mr. carrington's equilibrium. he felt himself going, and yelled aloud. over he toppled, face foremost, splash! into the pool. the boy saw him vanish, and heard the splashing of his struggle in the water. the unfortunate man emerged again into the boy's field of vision, hatless and streaming with water, and screaming! never before had the boy heard screams from a man. this astonishing stranger appeared to be tearing at something on the side of his face. there appeared streaks of blood there. he flung out his arms as if in despair, leapt in the air like a frantic creature, ran violently ten or twelve yards, and then fell and rolled on the ground and over and out of sight of the boy. the lad was down the steps and through the hedge in a trice--happily with the garden shears still in hand. as he came crashing through the gorse bushes, he says he was half minded to turn back, fearing he had to deal with a lunatic, but the possession of the shears reassured him. "i could 'ave jabbed his eyes," he explained, "anyhow." directly mr. carrington caught sight of him, his demeanour became at once that of a sane but desperate man. he struggled to his feet, stumbled, stood up, and came to meet the boy. "look!" he cried, "i can't get 'em off!" and with a qualm of horror the boy saw that, attached to mr. carrington's cheek, to his bare arm, and to his thigh, and lashing furiously with their lithe brown muscular bodies, were three of these horrible larvae, their great jaws buried deep in his flesh and sucking for dear life. they had the grip of bulldogs, and mr. carrington's efforts to detach the monsters from his face had only served to lacerate the flesh to which it had attached itself, and streak face and neck and coat with living scarlet. "i'll cut 'im," cried the boy; "'old on, sir." and with the zest of his age in such proceedings, he severed one by one the heads from the bodies of mr. carrington's assailants. "yup," said the boy with a wincing face as each one fell before him. even then, so tough and determined was their grip that the severed heads remained for a space, still fiercely biting home and still sucking, with the blood streaming out of their necks behind. but the boy stopped that with a few more slashes of his scissors--in one of which mr. carrington was implicated. "i couldn't get 'em off!" repeated carrington, and stood for a space, swaying and bleeding profusely. he dabbed feeble hands at his injuries and examined the result upon his palms. then he gave way at the knees and fell headlong in a dead faint at the boy's feet, between the still leaping bodies of his defeated foes. very luckily it didn't occur to the boy to splash water on his face--for there were still more of these horrors under the alder roots--and instead he passed back by the pond and went into the garden with the intention of calling assistance. and there he met the gardener coachman and told him of the whole affair. when they got back to mr. carrington he was sitting up, dazed and weak, but able to warn them against the danger in the pool. ii. such were the circumstances by which the world had its first notification that the food was loose again. in another week keston common was in full operation as what naturalists call a centre of distribution. this time there were no wasps or rats, no earwigs and no nettles, but there were at least three water-spiders, several dragon-fly larvae which presently became dragon-flies, dazzling all kent with their hovering sapphire bodies, and a nasty gelatinous, scummy growth that swelled over the pond margin, and sent its slimy green masses surging halfway up the garden path to doctor winkles's house. and there began a growth of rushes and equisetum and potamogeton that ended only with the drying of the pond. it speedily became evident to the public mind that this time there was not simply one centre of distribution, but quite a number of centres. there was one at ealing--there can be no doubt now--and from that came the plague of flies and red spider; there was one at sunbury, productive of ferocious great eels, that could come ashore and kill sheep; and there was one in bloomsbury that gave the world a new strain of cockroaches of a quite terrible sort--an old house it was in bloomsbury, and much inhabited by undesirable things. abruptly the world found itself confronted with the hickleybrow experiences all over again, with all sorts of queer exaggerations of familiar monsters in the place of the giant hens and rats and wasps. each centre burst out with its own characteristic local fauna and flora.... we know now that every one of these centres corresponded to one of the patients of doctor winkles, but that was by no means apparent at the time. doctor winkles was the last person to incur any odium in the matter. there was a panic quite naturally, a passionate indignation, but it was indignation not against doctor winkles but against the food, and not so much against the food as against the unfortunate bensington, whom from the very first the popular imagination had insisted upon regarding as the sole and only person responsible for this new thing. the attempt to lynch him that followed is just one of those explosive events that bulk largely in history and are in reality the least significant of occurrences. the history of the outbreak is a mystery. the nucleus of the crowd certainly came from an anti-boomfood meeting in hyde park organised by extremists of the caterham party, but there seems no one in the world who actually first proposed, no one who ever first hinted a suggestion of the outrage at which so many people assisted. it is a problem for m. gustave le bon--a mystery in the psychology of crowds. the fact emerges that about three o'clock on sunday afternoon a remarkably big and ugly london crowd, entirely out of hand, came rolling down thursday street intent on bensington's exemplary death as a warning to all scientific investigators, and that it came nearer accomplishing its object than any london crowd has ever come since the hyde park railings came down in remote middle victorian times. this crowd came so close to its object indeed, that for the space of an hour or more a word would have settled the unfortunate gentleman's fate. the first intimation he had of the thing was the noise of the people outside. he went to the window and peered, realising nothing of what impended. for a minute perhaps he watched them seething about the entrance, disposing of an ineffectual dozen of policemen who barred their way, before he fully realised his own importance in the affair. it came upon him in a flash--that that roaring, swaying multitude was after him. he was all alone in the flat--fortunately perhaps--his cousin jane having gone down to ealing to have tea with a relation on her mother's side, and he had no more idea of how to behave under such circumstances than he had of the etiquette of the day of judgment. he was still dashing about the flat asking his furniture what he should do, turning keys in locks and then unlocking them again, making darts at door and window and bedroom--when the floor clerk came to him. "there isn't a moment, sir," he said. "they've got your number from the board in the hall! they're coming straight up!" he ran mr. bensington out into the passage, already echoing with the approaching tumult from the great staircase, locked the door behind them, and led the way into the opposite flat by means of his duplicate key. "it's our only chance now," he said. he flung up a window which opened on a ventilating shaft, and showed that the wall was set with iron staples that made the rudest and most perilous of wall ladders to serve as a fire escape from the upper flats. he shoved mr. bensington out of the window, showed him how to cling on, and pursued him up the ladder, goading and jabbing his legs with a bunch of keys whenever he desisted from climbing. it seemed to bensington at times that he must climb that vertical ladder for evermore. above, the parapet was inaccessibly remote, a mile perhaps, below--he did not care to think of things below. "steady on!" cried the clerk, and gripped his ankle. it was quite horrible having his ankle gripped like that, and mr. bensington tightened his hold on the iron staple above to a drowning clutch, and gave a faint squeal of terror. it became evident the clerk had broken a window, and then it seemed he had leapt a vast distance sideways, and there came the noise of a window-frame sliding in its sash. he was bawling things. mr. bensington moved his head round cautiously until he could see the clerk. "come down six steps," the clerk commanded. all this moving about seemed very foolish, but very, very cautiously mr. bensington lowered a foot. "don't pull me!" he cried, as the clerk made to help him from the open window. it seemed to him that to reach the window from the ladder would be a very respectable feat for a flying fox, and it was rather with the idea of a decent suicide than in any hope of accomplishing it that he made the step at last, and quite ruthlessly the clerk pulled him in. "you'll have to stop here," said the clerk; "my keys are no good here. it's an american lock. i'll get out and slam the door behind me and see if i can find the man of this floor. you'll be locked in. don't go to the window, that's all. it's the ugliest crowd i've ever seen. if only they think you're out they'll probably content themselves by breaking up your stuff--" "the indicator said in," said bensington. "the devil it did! well, anyhow, i'd better not be found--" he vanished with a slam of the door. bensington was left to his own initiative again. it took him under the bed. there presently he was found by cossar. bensington was almost comatose with terror when he was found, for cossar had burst the door in with his shoulder by jumping at it across the breadth of the passage. "come out of it, bensington," he said. "it's all right. it's me. we've got to get out of this. they're setting the place on fire. the porters are all clearing out. the servants are gone. it's lucky i caught the man who knew. "look here!" bensington, peering from under the bed, became aware of some unaccountable garments on cossar's arm, and, of all things, a black bonnet in his hand! "they're having a clear out," said cossar, "if they don't set the place on fire they'll come here. troops may not be here for an hour yet. fifty per cent. hooligans in the crowd, and the more furnished flats they go into the better they'll like it. obviously.... they mean a clear out. you put this skirt and bonnet on, bensington, and clear out with me." "d'you _mean_--?" began bensington, protruding a head, tortoise fashion. "i mean, put 'em on and come! obviously," and with a sudden vehemence he dragged bensington from under the bed, and began to dress him for his new impersonation of an elderly woman of the people. he rolled up his trousers and made him kick off his slippers, took off his collar and tie and coat and vest, slipped a black skirt over his head, and put on a red flannel bodice and a body over the same. he made him take off his all too characteristic spectacles, and clapped the bonnet on his head. "you might have been born an old woman," he said as he tied the strings. then came the spring-side boots--a terrible wrench for corns--and the shawl, and the disguise was complete. "up and down," said cossar, and bensington obeyed. "you'll do," said cossar. and in this guise it was, stumbling awkwardly over his unaccustomed skirts, shouting womanly imprecations upon his own head in a weird falsetto to sustain his part, and to the roaring note of a crowd bent upon lynching him, that the original discoverer of herakleophorbia iv. proceeded down the corridor of chesterfield mansions, mingled with that inflamed disorderly multitude, and passed out altogether from the thread of events that constitutes our story. never once after that escape did he meddle again with the stupendous development of the food of the gods he of all men had done most to begin. iii. this little man who started the whole thing passes out of the story, and after a time he passed altogether out of the world of things, visible and tellable. but because he started the whole thing it is seemly to give his exit an intercalary page of attention. one may picture him in his later days as tunbridge wells came to know him. for it was at tunbridge wells he reappeared after a temporary obscurity, so soon as he fully realised how transitory, how quite exceptional and unmeaning that fury of rioting was. he reappeared under the wing of cousin jane, treating himself for nervous shock to the exclusion of all other interests, and totally indifferent, as it seemed, to the battles that were raging then about those new centres of distribution, and about the baby children of the food. he took up his quarters at the mount glory hydrotherapeutic hotel, where there are quite extraordinary facilities for baths, carbonated baths, creosote baths, galvanic and faradic treatment, massage, pine baths, starch and hemlock baths, radium baths, light baths, heat baths, bran and needle baths, tar and birdsdown baths,--all sorts of baths; and he devoted his mind to the development of that system of curative treatment that was still imperfect when he died. and sometimes he would go down in a hired vehicle and a sealskin trimmed coat, and sometimes, when his feet permitted, he would walk to the pantiles, and there he would sip chalybeate water under the eye of his cousin jane. his stooping shoulders, his pink appearance, his beaming glasses, became a "feature" of tunbridge wells. no one was the least bit unkind to him, and indeed the place and the hotel seemed very glad to have the distinction of his presence. nothing could rob him of that distinction now. and though he preferred not to follow the development of his great invention in the daily papers, yet when he crossed the lounge of the hotel or walked down the pantiles and heard the whisper, "there he is! that's him!" it was not dissatisfaction that softened his mouth and gleamed for a moment in his eye. this little figure, this minute little figure, launched the food of the gods upon the world! one does not know which is the most amazing, the greatness or the littleness of these scientific and philosophical men. you figure him there on the pantiles, in the overcoat trimmed with fur. he stands under that chinaware window where the spring spouts, and holds and sips the glass of chalybeate water in his hand. one bright eye over the gilt rim is fixed, with an expression of inscrutable severity, on cousin jane. "mm," he says, and sips. so we make our souvenir, so we focus and photograph this discoverer of ours for the last time, and leave him, a mere dot in our foreground, and pass to the greater picture that has developed about him, to the story of his food, how the scattered giant children grew up day by day into a world that was all too small for them, and how the net of boomfood laws and boomfood conventions, which the boomfood commission was weaving even then, drew closer and closer upon them with every year of their growth, until-- book ii the food in the village. chapter the first. the coming of the food. i. our theme, which began so compactly in mr. bensington's study, has already spread and branched, until it points this way and that, and henceforth our whole story is one of dissemination. to follow the food of the gods further is to trace the ramifications of a perpetually branching tree; in a little while, in the quarter of a lifetime, the food had trickled and increased from its first spring in the little farm near hickleybrow until it had spread,--it and the report and shadow of its power,--throughout the world. it spread beyond england very speedily. soon in america, all over the continent of europe, in japan, in australia, at last all over the world, the thing was working towards its appointed end. always it worked slowly, by indirect courses and against resistance. it was bigness insurgent. in spite of prejudice, in spite of law and regulation, in spite of all that obstinate conservatism that lies at the base of the formal order of mankind, the food of the gods, once it had been set going, pursued its subtle and invincible progress. the children of the food grew steadily through all these years; that was the cardinal fact of the time. but it is the leakages make history. the children who had eaten grew, and soon there were other children growing; and all the best intentions in the world could not stop further leakages and still further leakages. the food insisted on escaping with the pertinacity of a thing alive. flour treated with the stuff crumbled in dry weather almost as if by intention into an impalpable powder, and would lift and travel before the lightest breeze. now it would be some fresh insect won its way to a temporary fatal new development, now some fresh outbreak from the sewers of rats and such-like vermin. for some days the village of pangbourne in berkshire fought with giant ants. three men were bitten and died. there would be a panic, there would be a struggle, and the salient evil would be fought down again, leaving always something behind, in the obscurer things of life--changed for ever. then again another acute and startling outbreak, a swift upgrowth of monstrous weedy thickets, a drifting dissemination about the world of inhumanly growing thistles, of cockroaches men fought with shot guns, or a plague of mighty flies. there were some strange and desperate struggles in obscure places. the food begot heroes in the cause of littleness ... and men took such happenings into their lives, and met them by the expedients of the moment, and told one another there was "no change in the essential order of things." after the first great panic, caterham, in spite of his power of eloquence, became a secondary figure in the political world, remained in men's minds as the exponent of an extreme view. only slowly did he win a way towards a central position in affairs. "there was no change in the essential order of things,"--that eminent leader of modern thought, doctor winkles, was very clear upon this,--and the exponents of what was called in those days progressive liberalism grew quite sentimental upon the essential insincerity of their progress. their dreams, it would appear, ran wholly on little nations, little languages, little households, each self-supported on its little farm. a fashion for the small and neat set in. to be big was to be "vulgar," and dainty, neat, mignon, miniature, "minutely perfect," became the key-words of critical approval.... meanwhile, quietly, taking their time as children must, the children of the food, growing into a world that changed to receive them, gathered strength and stature and knowledge, became individual and purposeful, rose slowly towards the dimensions of their destiny. presently they seemed a natural part of the world; all these stirrings of bigness seemed a natural part of the world, and men wondered how things had been before their time. there came to men's ears stories of things the giant boys could do, and they said "wonderful!"--without a spark of wonder. the popular papers would tell of the three sons of cossar, and how these amazing children would lift great cannons, hurl masses of iron for hundreds of yards, and leap two hundred feet. they were said to be digging a well, deeper than any well or mine that man had ever made, seeking, it was said, for treasures hidden in the earth since ever the earth began. these children, said the popular magazines, will level mountains, bridge seas, tunnel your earth to a honeycomb. "wonderful!" said the little folks, "isn't it? what a lot of conveniences we shall have!" and went about their business as though there was no such thing as the food of the gods on earth. and indeed these things were no more than the first hints and promises of the powers of the children of the food. it was still no more than child's play with them, no more than the first use of a strength in which no purpose had arisen. they did not know themselves for what they were. they were children--slow-growing children of a new race. the giant strength grew day by day--the giant will had still to grow into purpose and an aim. looking at it in a shortened perspective of time, those years of transition have the quality of a single consecutive occurrence; but indeed no one saw the coming of bigness in the world, as no one in all the world till centuries had passed saw, as one happening, the decline and fall of rome. they who lived in those days were too much among these developments to see them together as a single thing. it seemed even to wise men that the food was giving the world nothing but a crop of unmanageable, disconnected irrelevancies, that might shake and trouble indeed, but could do no more to the established order and fabric of mankind. to one observer at least the most wonderful thing throughout that period of accumulating stress is the invincible inertia of the great mass of people, their quiet persistence in all that ignored the enormous presences, the promise of still more enormous things, that grew among them. just as many a stream will be at its smoothest, will look most tranquil, running deep and strong, at the very verge of a cataract, so all that is most conservative in man seemed settling quietly into a serene ascendency during these latter days. reaction became popular: there was talk of the bankruptcy of science, of the dying of progress, of the advent of the mandarins,--talk of such things amidst the echoing footsteps of the children of the food. the fussy pointless revolutions of the old time, a vast crowd of silly little people chasing some silly little monarch and the like, had indeed died out and passed away; but change had not died out. it was only change that had changed. the new was coming in its own fashion and beyond the common understanding of the world. to tell fully of its coming would be to write a great history, but everywhere there was a parallel chain of happenings. to tell therefore of the manner of its coming in one place is to tell something of the whole. it chanced one stray seed of immensity fell into the pretty, petty village of cheasing eyebright in kent, and from the story of its queer germination there and of the tragic futility that ensued, one may attempt--following one thread, as it were--to show the direction in which the whole great interwoven fabric of the thing rolled off the loom of time. ii. cheasing eyebright had of course a vicar. there are vicars and vicars, and of all sorts i love an innovating vicar--a piebald progressive professional reactionary--the least. but the vicar of cheasing eyebright was one of the least innovating of vicars, a most worthy, plump, ripe, and conservative-minded little man. it is becoming to go back a little in our story to tell of him. he matched his village, and one may figure them best together as they used to be, on the sunset evening when mrs. skinner--you will remember her flight!--brought the food with her all unsuspected into these rustic serenities. the village was looking its very best just then, under that western light. it lay down along the valley beneath the beechwoods of the hanger, a beading of thatched and red-tiled cottages--cottages with trellised porches and pyracanthus-lined faces, that clustered closer and closer as the road dropped from the yew trees by the church towards the bridge. the vicarage peeped not too ostentatiously between the trees beyond the inn, an early georgian front ripened by time, and the spire of the church rose happily in the depression made by the valley in the outline of the hills. a winding stream, a thin intermittency of sky blue and foam, glittered amidst a thick margin of reeds and loosestrife and overhanging willows, along the centre of a sinuous pennant of meadow. the whole prospect had that curiously english quality of ripened cultivation--that look of still completeness--that apes perfection, under the sunset warmth. and the vicar too looked mellow. he looked habitually and essentially mellow, as though he had been a mellow baby born into a mellow class, a ripe and juicy little boy. one could see, even before he mentioned it, that he had gone to an ivy-clad public school in its anecdotage, with magnificent traditions, aristocratic associations, and no chemical laboratories, and proceeded thence to a venerable college in the very ripest gothic. few books he had younger than a thousand years; of these, yarrow and ellis and good pre-methodist sermons made the bulk. he was a man of moderate height, a little shortened in appearance by his equatorial dimensions, and a face that had been mellow from the first was now climacterically ripe. the beard of a david hid his redundancy of chin; he wore no watch chain out of refinements and his modest clerical garments were made by a west end tailor.... and he sat with a hand on either shin, blinking at his village in beatific approval. he waved a plump palm towards it. his burthen sang out again. what more could any one desire? "we are fortunately situated," he said, putting the thing tamely. "we are in a fastness of the hills," he expanded. he explained himself at length. "we are out of it all." for they had been talking, he and his friend, of the horrors of the age, of democracy, and secular education, and sky scrapers, and motor cars, and the american invasion, the scrappy reading of the public, and the disappearance of any taste at all. "we are out of it all," he repeated, and even as he spoke the footsteps of some one coming smote upon his ear, and he rolled over and regarded her. you figure the old woman's steadfastly tremulous advance, the bundle clutched in her gnarled lank hand, her nose (which was her countenance) wrinkled with breathless resolution. you see the poppies nodding fatefully on her bonnet, and the dust-white spring-sided boots beneath her skimpy skirts, pointing with an irrevocable slow alternation east and west. beneath her arm, a restive captive, waggled and slipped a scarcely valuable umbrella. what was there to tell the vicar that this grotesque old figure was--so far as his village was concerned at any rate--no less than fruitful chance and the unforeseen, the hag weak men call fate. but for us, you understand, no more than mrs. skinner. as she was too much encumbered for a curtsey, she pretended not to see him and his friend at all, and so passed, flip-flop, within three yards of them, onward down towards the village. the vicar watched her slow transit in silence, and ripened a remark the while.... the incident seemed to him of no importance whatever. old womankind, _aere perennius_, has carried bundles since the world began. what difference has it made? "we are out of it all," said the vicar. "we live in an atmosphere of simple and permanent things, birth and toil, simple seed-time and simple harvest. the uproar passes us by." he was always very great upon what he called the permanent things. "things change," he would say, "but humanity--_aere perennius_." thus the vicar. he loved a classical quotation subtly misapplied. below, mrs. skinner, inelegant but resolute, had involved herself curiously with wilmerding's stile. iii. no one knows what the vicar made of the giant puff-balls. no doubt he was among the first to discover them. they were scattered at intervals up and down the path between the near down and the village end--a path he frequented daily in his constitutional round. altogether, of these abnormal fungi there were, from first to last, quite thirty. the vicar seems to have stared at each severally, and to have prodded most of them with his stick once or twice. one he attempted to measure with his arms, but it burst at his ixion embrace. he spoke to several people about them, and said they were "marvellous!" and he related to at least seven different persons the well-known story of the flagstone that was lifted from the cellar floor by a growth of fungi beneath. he looked up his sowerby to see if it was _lycoperdon coelatum_ or _giganteum_--like all his kind since gilbert white became famous, he gilbert-whited. he cherished a theory that _giganteum_ is unfairly named. one does not know if he observed that those white spheres lay in the very track that old woman of yesterday had followed, or if he noted that the last of the series swelled not a score of yards from the gate of the caddles' cottage. if he observed these things, he made no attempt to place his observation on record. his observation in matters botanical was what the inferior sort of scientific people call a "trained observation"--you look for certain definite things and neglect everything else. and he did nothing to link this phenomenon with the remarkable expansion of the caddles' baby that had been going on now for some weeks, indeed ever since caddles walked over one sunday afternoon a month or more ago to see his mother-in-law and hear mr. skinner (since defunct) brag about his management of hens. iv. the growth of the puff-balls following on the expansion of the caddles' baby really ought to have opened the vicar's eyes. the latter fact had already come right into his arms at the christening--almost over-poweringly.... the youngster bawled with deafening violence when the cold water that sealed its divine inheritance and its right to the name of "albert edward caddles" fell upon its brow. it was already beyond maternal porterage, and caddles, staggering indeed, but grinning triumphantly at quantitatively inferior parents, bore it back to the free-sitting occupied by his party. "i never saw such a child!" said the vicar. this was the first public intimation that the caddles' baby, which had begun its earthly career a little under seven pounds, did after all intend to be a credit to its parents. very soon it was clear it meant to be not only a credit but a glory. and within a month their glory shone so brightly as to be, in connection with people in the caddles' position, improper. the butcher weighed the infant eleven times. he was a man of few words, and he soon got through with them. the first time he said, "e's a good un;" the next time he said, "my word!" the third time he said, "_well_, mum," and after that he simply blew enormously each time, scratched his head, and looked at his scales with an unprecedented mistrust. every one came to see the big baby--so it was called by universal consent--and most of them said, "e's a bouncer," and almost all remarked to him, "_did_ they?" miss fletcher came and said she "never _did_," which was perfectly true. lady wondershoot, the village tyrant, arrived the day after the third weighing, and inspected the phenomenon narrowly through glasses that filled it with howling terror. "it's an unusually big child," she told its mother, in a loud instructive voice. "you ought to take unusual care of it, caddles. of course it won't go on like this, being bottle fed, but we must do what we can for it. i'll send you down some more flannel." the doctor came and measured the child with a tape, and put the figures in a notebook, and old mr. drifthassock, who farmed by up marden, brought a manure traveller two miles out of their way to look at it. the traveller asked the child's age three times over, and said finally that he was blowed. he left it to be inferred how and why he was blowed; apparently it was the child's size blowed him. he also said it ought to be put into a baby show. and all day long, out of school hours, little children kept coming and saying, "please, mrs. caddles, mum, may we have a look at your baby, please, mum?" until mrs. caddles had to put a stop to it. and amidst all these scenes of amazement came mrs. skinner, and stood and smiled, standing somewhat in the background, with each sharp elbow in a lank gnarled hand, and smiling, smiling under and about her nose, with a smile of infinite profundity. "it makes even that old wretch of a grandmother look quite pleasant," said lady wondershoot. "though i'm sorry she's come back to the village." of course, as with almost all cottagers' babies, the eleemosynary element had already come in, but the child soon made it clear by colossal bawling, that so far as the filling of its bottle went, it hadn't come in yet nearly enough. the baby was entitled to a nine days' wonder, and every one wondered happily over its amazing growth for twice that time and more. and then you know, instead of its dropping into the background and giving place to other marvels, it went on growing more than ever! lady wondershoot heard mrs. greenfield, her housekeeper, with infinite amazement. "caddles downstairs again. no food for the child! my dear greenfield, it's impossible. the creature eats like a hippopotamus! i'm sure it can't be true." "i'm sure i hope you're not being imposed upon, my lady," said mrs. greenfield. "it's so difficult to tell with these people," said lady wondershoot. "now i do wish, my good greenfield, that you'd just go down there yourself this afternoon and _see_--see it have its bottle. big as it is, i cannot imagine that it needs more than six pints a day." "it hasn't no business to, my lady," said mrs. greenfield. the hand of lady wondershoot quivered, with that c.o.s. sort of emotion, that suspicious rage that stirs in all true aristocrats, at the thought that possibly the meaner classes are after all--as mean as their betters, and--where the sting lies--scoring points in the game. but mrs. greenfield could observe no evidence of peculation, and the order for an increasing daily supply to the caddles' nursery was issued. scarcely had the first instalment gone, when caddles was back again at the great house in a state abjectly apologetic. "we took the greates' care of 'em, mrs. greenfield, i do assure you, mum, but he's regular bust 'em! they flew with such vilence, mum, that one button broke a pane of the window, mum, and one hit me a regular stinger jest 'ere, mum." lady wondershoot, when she heard that this amazing child had positively burst out of its beautiful charity clothes, decided that she must speak to caddles herself. he appeared in her presence with his hair hastily wetted and smoothed by hand, breathless, and clinging to his hat brim as though it was a life-belt, and he stumbled at the carpet edge out of sheer distress of mind. lady wondershoot liked bullying caddles. caddles was her ideal lower-class person, dishonest, faithful, abject, industrious, and inconceivably incapable of responsibility. she told him it was a serious matter, the way his child was going on. "it's 'is appetite, my ladyship," said caddles, with a rising note. "check 'im, my ladyship, you can't," said caddles. "there 'e lies, my ladyship, and kicks out 'e does, and 'owls, that distressin'. we 'aven't the 'eart, my ladyship. if we 'ad--the neighbours would interfere...." lady wondershoot consulted the parish doctor. "what i want to know," said lady wondershoot, "is it _right_ this child should have such an extraordinary quantity of milk?" "the proper allowance for a child of that age," said the parish doctor, "is a pint and a half to two pints in the twenty-four hours. i don't see that you are called upon to provide more. if you do, it is your own generosity. of course we might try the legitimate quantity for a few days. but the child, i must admit, seems for some reason to be physiologically different. possibly what is called a sport. a case of general hypertrophy." "it isn't fair to the other parish children," said lady wondershoot. "i am certain we shall have complaints if this goes on." "i don't see that any one can be expected to give more than the recognised allowance. we might insist on its doing with that, or if it wouldn't, send it as a case into the infirmary." "i suppose," said lady wondershoot, reflecting, "that apart from the size and the appetite, you don't find anything else abnormal--nothing monstrous?" "no. no, i don't. but no doubt if this growth goes on, we shall find grave moral and intellectual deficiencies. one might almost prophesy that from max nordau's law. a most gifted and celebrated philosopher, lady wondershoot. he discovered that the abnormal is--abnormal, a most valuable discovery, and well worth bearing in mind. i find it of the utmost help in practice. when i come upon anything abnormal, i say at once, this is abnormal." his eyes became profound, his voice dropped, his manner verged upon the intimately confidential. he raised one hand stiffly. "and i treat it in that spirit," he said. v. "tut, tut!" said the vicar to his breakfast things--the day after the coming of mrs. skinner. "tut, tut! what's this?" and poised his glasses at his paper with a general air of remonstrance. "giant wasps! what's the world coming to? american journalists, i suppose! hang these novelties! giant gooseberries are good enough for me. "nonsense!" said the vicar, and drank off his coffee at a gulp, eyes steadfast on the paper, and smacked his lips incredulously. "bosh!" said the vicar, rejecting the hint altogether. but the next day there was more of it, and the light came. not all at once, however. when he went for his constitutional that day he was still chuckling at the absurd story his paper would have had him believe. wasps indeed--killing a dog! incidentally as he passed by the site of that first crop of puff-balls he remarked that the grass was growing very rank there, but he did not connect that in any way with the matter of his amusement. "we should certainly have heard something of it," he said; "whitstable can't be twenty miles from here." beyond he found another puff-ball, one of the second crop, rising like a roc's egg out of the abnormally coarsened turf. the thing came upon him in a flash. he did not take his usual round that morning. instead he turned aside by the second stile and came round to the caddles' cottage. "where's that baby?" he demanded, and at the sight of it, "goodness me!" he went up the village blessing his heart, and met the doctor full tilt coming down. he grasped his arm. "what does this _mean_?" he said. "have you seen the paper these last few days?" the doctor said he had. "well, what's the matter with that child? what's the matter with everything--wasps, puff-balls, babies, eh? what's making them grow so big? this is most unexpected. in kent too! if it was america now--" "it's a little difficult to say just what it is," said the doctor. "so far as i can grasp the symptoms--" "yes?" "it's hypertrophy--general hypertrophy." "hypertrophy?" "yes. general--affecting all the bodily structures--all the organism. i may say that in my own mind, between ourselves, i'm very nearly convinced it's that.... but one has to be careful." "ah," said the vicar, a good deal relieved to find the doctor equal to the situation. "but how is it it's breaking out in this fashion, all over the place?" "that again," said the doctor, "is difficult to say." "urshot. here. it's a pretty clear case of spreading." "yes," said the doctor. "yes. i think so. it has a strong resemblance at any rate to some sort of epidemic. probably epidemic hypertrophy will meet the case." "epidemic!" said the vicar. "you don't mean it's contagious?" the doctor smiled gently and rubbed one hand against the other. "that i couldn't say," he said. "but---!" cried the vicar, round-eyed. "if it's _catching_--it--it affects _us!_" he made a stride up the road and turned about. "i've just been there," he cried. "hadn't i better---? i'll go home at once and have a bath and fumigate my clothes." the doctor regarded his retreating back for a moment, and then turned about and went towards his own house.... but on the way he reflected that one case had been in the village a month without any one catching the disease, and after a pause of hesitation decided to be as brave as a doctor should be and take the risks like a man. and indeed he was well advised by his second thoughts. growth was the last thing that could ever happen to him again. he could have eaten--and the vicar could have eaten--herakleophorbia by the truckful. for growth had done with them. growth had done with these two gentlemen for evermore. vi. it was a day or so after this conversation--a day or so, that is, after the burning of the experimental farm--that winkles came to redwood and showed him an insulting letter. it was an anonymous letter, and an author should respect his character's secrets. "you are only taking credit for a natural phenomenon," said the letter, "and trying to advertise yourself by your letter to the _times_. you and your boomfood! let me tell you, this absurdly named food of yours has only the most accidental connection with those big wasps and rats. the plain fact is there is an epidemic of hypertrophy--contagious hypertrophy--which you have about as much claim to control as you have to control the solar system. the thing is as old as the hills. there was hypertrophy in the family of anak. quite outside your range, at cheasing eyebright, at the present time there is a baby--" "shaky up and down writing. old gentleman apparently," said redwood. "but it's odd a baby--" he read a few lines further, and had an inspiration. "by jove!" said he. "that's my missing mrs. skinner!" he descended upon her suddenly in the afternoon of the following day. she was engaged in pulling onions in the little garden before her daughter's cottage when she saw him coming through the garden gate. she stood for a moment "consternated," as the country folks say, and then folded her arms, and with the little bunch of onions held defensively under her left elbow, awaited his approach. her mouth opened and shut several times; she mumbled her remaining tooth, and once quite suddenly she curtsied, like the blink of an arc-light. "i thought i should find you," said redwood. "i thought you might, sir," she said, without joy. "where's skinner?" "'e ain't never written to me, sir, not once, nor come nigh of me since i came here. sir." "don't you know what's become of him?" "him not having written, no, sir," and she edged a step towards the left with an imperfect idea of cutting off redwood from the barn door. "no one knows what has become of him," said redwood. "i dessay '_e_ knows," said mrs. skinner. "he doesn't tell." "he was always a great one for looking after 'imself and leaving them that was near and dear to 'im in trouble, was skinner. though clever as could be," said mrs. skinner.... "where's this child?" asked redwood abruptly. she begged his pardon. "this child i hear about, the child you've been giving our stuff to--the child that weighs two stone." mrs. skinner's hands worked, and she dropped the onions. "reely, sir," she protested, "i don't hardly know, sir, what you mean. my daughter, sir, mrs. caddles, '_as_ a baby, sir." and she made an agitated curtsey and tried to look innocently inquiring by tilting her nose to one side. "you'd better let me see that baby, mrs. skinner," said redwood. mrs. skinner unmasked an eye at him as she led the way towards the barn. "of course, sir, there may 'ave been a _little_, in a little can of nicey i give his father to bring over from the farm, or a little perhaps what i happened to bring about with me, so to speak. me packing in a hurry and all ..." "um!" said redwood, after he had cluckered to the infant for a space. "oom!" he told mrs. caddles the baby was a very fine child indeed, a thing that was getting well home to her intelligence--and he ignored her altogether after that. presently she left the barn--through sheer insignificance. "now you've started him, you'll have to keep on with him, you know," he said to mrs. skinner. he turned on her abruptly. "don't splash it about _this_ time," he said. "splash it about, sir?" "oh! _you_ know." she indicated knowledge by convulsive gestures. "you haven't told these people here? the parents, the squire and so on at the big house, the doctor, no one?" mrs. skinner shook her head. "i wouldn't," said redwood.... he went to the door of the barn and surveyed the world about him. the door of the barn looked between the end of the cottage and some disused piggeries through a five-barred gate upon the highroad. beyond was a high, red brick-wall rich with ivy and wallflower and pennywort, and set along the top with broken glass. beyond the corner of the wall, a sunlit notice-board amidst green and yellow branches reared itself above the rich tones of the first fallen leaves and announced that "trespassers in these woods will be prosecuted." the dark shadow of a gap in the hedge threw a stretch of barbed wire into relief. "um," said redwood, then in a deeper note, "oom!" there came a clatter of horses and the sound of wheels, and lady wondershoot's greys came into view. he marked the faces of coachman and footman as the equipage approached. the coachman was a very fine specimen, full and fruity, and he drove with a sort of sacramental dignity. others might doubt their calling and position in the world, he at any rate was sure--he drove her ladyship. the footman sat beside him with folded arms and a face of inflexible certainties. then the great lady herself became visible, in a hat and mantle disdainfully inelegant, peering through her glasses. two young ladies protruded necks and peered also. the vicar passing on the other side swept off the hat from his david's brow unheeded.... redwood remained standing in the doorway for a long time after the carriage had passed, his hands folded behind him. his eyes went to the green, grey upland of down, and into the cloud-curdled sky, and came back to the glass-set wall. he turned upon the cool shadows within, and amidst spots and blurs of colour regarded the giant child amidst that rembrandtesque gloom, naked except for a swathing of flannel, seated upon a huge truss of straw and playing with its toes. "i begin to see what we have done," he said. he mused, and young caddles and his own child and cossar's brood mingled in his musing. he laughed abruptly. "good lord!" he said at some passing thought. he roused himself presently and addressed mrs. skinner. "anyhow he mustn't be tortured by a break in his food. that at least we can prevent. i shall send you a can every six months. that ought to do for him all right." mrs. skinner mumbled something about "if you think so, sir," and "probably got packed by mistake.... thought no harm in giving him a little," and so by the aid of various aspen gestures indicated that she understood. so the child went on growing. and growing. "practically," said lady wondershoot, "he's eaten up every calf in the place. if i have any more of this sort of thing from that man caddles--" vii. but even so secluded a place as cheasing eyebright could not rest for long in the theory of hypertrophy--contagious or not--in view of the growing hubbub about the food. in a little while there were painful explanations for mrs. skinner--explanations that reduced her to speechless mumblings of her remaining tooth--explanations that probed her and ransacked her and exposed her--until at last she was driven to take refuge from a universal convergence of blame in the dignity of inconsolable widowhood. she turned her eye--which she constrained to be watery--upon the angry lady of the manor, and wiped suds from her hands. "you forget, my lady, what i'm bearing up under." and she followed up this warning note with a slightly defiant: "it's 'im i think of, my lady, night _and_ day." she compressed her lips, and her voice flattened and faltered: "bein' et, my lady." and having established herself on these grounds, she repeated the affirmation her ladyship had refused before. "i 'ad no more idea what i was giving the child, my lady, than any one _could_ 'ave...." her ladyship turned her mind in more hopeful directions, wigging caddles of course tremendously by the way. emissaries, full of diplomatic threatenings, entered the whirling lives of bensington and redwood. they presented themselves as parish councillors, stolid and clinging phonographically to prearranged statements. "we hold you responsible, mister bensington, for the injury inflicted upon our parish, sir. we hold you responsible." a firm of solicitors, with a snake of a style--banghurst, brown, flapp, codlin, brown, tedder, and snoxton, they called themselves, and appeared invariably in the form of a small rufous cunning-looking gentleman with a pointed nose--said vague things about damages, and there was a polished personage, her ladyship's agent, who came in suddenly upon redwood one day and asked, "well, sir, and what do you propose to do?" to which redwood answered that he proposed to discontinue supplying the food for the child, if he or bensington were bothered any further about the matter. "i give it for nothing as it is," he said, "and the child will yell your village to ruins before it dies if you don't let it have the stuff. the child's on your hands, and you have to keep it. lady wondershoot can't always be lady bountiful and earthly providence of her parish without sometimes meeting a responsibility, you know." "the mischief's done," lady wondershoot decided when they told her--with expurgations--what redwood had said. "the mischief's done," echoed the vicar. though indeed as a matter of fact the mischief was only beginning. chapter the second. the brat gigantic. i. the giant child was ugly--the vicar would insist. "he always had been ugly--as all excessive things must be." the vicar's views had carried him out of sight of just judgment in this matter. the child was much subjected to snapshots even in that rustic retirement, and their net testimony is against the vicar, testifying that the young monster was at first almost pretty, with a copious curl of hair reaching to his brow and a great readiness to smile. usually caddles, who was slightly built, stands smiling behind the baby, perspective emphasising his relative smallness. after the second year the good looks of the child became more subtle and more contestable. he began to grow, as his unfortunate grandfather would no doubt have put it, "rank." he lost colour and developed an increasing effect of being somehow, albeit colossal, yet slight. he was vastly delicate. his eyes and something about his face grew finer--grew, as people say, "interesting." his hair, after one cutting, began to tangle into a mat. "it's the degenerate strain coming out in him," said the parish doctor, marking these things, but just how far he was right in that, and just how far the youngster's lapse from ideal healthfulness was the result of living entirely in a whitewashed barn upon lady wondershoot's sense of charity tempered by justice, is open to question. the photographs of him that present him from three to six show him developing into a round-eyed, flaxen-haired youngster with a truncated nose and a friendly stare. there lurks about his lips that never very remote promise of a smile that all the photographs of the early giant children display. in summer he wears loose garments of ticking tacked together with string; there is usually one of those straw baskets upon his head that workmen use for their tools, and he is barefooted. in one picture he grins broadly and holds a bitten melon in his hand. the winter pictures are less numerous and satisfactory. he wears huge sabots--no doubt of beechwoods and (as fragments of the inscription "john stickells, iping," show) sacks for socks, and his trousers and jacket are unmistakably cut from the remains of a gaily patterned carpet. underneath that there were rude swathings of flannel; five or six yards of flannel are tied comforter-fashion about his neck. the thing on his head is probably another sack. he stares, sometimes smiling, sometimes a little ruefully, at the camera. even when he was only five years old, one sees that half whimsical wrinkling over his soft brown eyes that characterised his face. he was from the first, the vicar always declared, a terrible nuisance about the village. he seems to have had a proportionate impulse to play, much curiosity and sociability, and in addition there was a certain craving within him--i grieve to say--for more to eat. in spite of what mrs. greenfield called an "_excessively_ generous" allowance of food from lady wondershoot, he displayed what the doctor perceived at once was the "criminal appetite." it carries out only too completely lady wondershoot's worst experiences of the lower classes--that in spite of an allowance of nourishment inordinately beyond what is known to be the maximum necessity even of an adult human being, the creature was found to steal. and what he stole he ate with an inelegant voracity. his great hand would come over garden walls; he would covet the very bread in the bakers' carts. cheeses went from marlow's store loft, and never a pig trough was safe from him. some farmer walking over his field of swedes would find the great spoor of his feet and the evidence of his nibbling hunger--a root picked here, a root picked there, and the holes, with childish cunning, heavily erased. he ate a swede as one devours a radish. he would stand and eat apples from a tree, if no one was about, as normal children eat blackberries from a bush. in one way at any rate this shortness of provisions was good for the peace of cheasing eyebright--for many years he ate up every grain very nearly of the food of the gods that was given him.... indisputably the child was troublesome and out of place, "he was always about," the vicar used to say. he could not go to school; he could not go to church by virtue of the obvious limitations of its cubical content. there was some attempt to satisfy the spirit of that "most foolish and destructive law"--i quote the vicar--the elementary education act of , by getting him to sit outside the open window while instruction was going on within. but his presence there destroyed the discipline of the other children. they were always popping up and peering at him, and every time he spoke they laughed together. his voice was so odd! so they let him stay away. nor did they persist in pressing him to come to church, for his vast proportions were of little help to devotion. yet there they might have had an easier task; there are good reasons for guessing there were the germs of religious feeling somewhere in that big carcase. the music perhaps drew him. he was often in the churchyard on a sunday morning, picking his way softly among the graves after the congregation had gone in, and he would sit the whole service out beside the porch, listening as one listens outside a hive of bees. at first he showed a certain want of tact; the people inside would hear his great feet crunch restlessly round their place of worship, or become aware of his dim face peering in through the stained glass, half curious, half envious, and at times some simple hymn would catch him unawares, and he would howl lugubriously in a gigantic attempt at unison. whereupon little sloppet, who was organ-blower and verger and beadle and sexton and bell-ringer on sundays, besides being postman and chimney-sweep all the week, would go out very briskly and valiantly and send him mournfully away. sloppet, i am glad to say, felt it--in his more thoughtful moments at any rate. it was like sending a dog home when you start out for a walk, he told me. but the intellectual and moral training of young caddles, though fragmentary, was explicit. from the first, vicar, mother, and all the world, combined to make it clear to him that his giant strength was not for use. it was a misfortune that he had to make the best of. he had to mind what was told him, do what was set him, be careful never to break anything nor hurt anything. particularly he must not go treading on things or jostling against things or jumping about. he had to salute the gentlefolks respectful and be grateful for the food and clothing they spared him out of their riches. and he learnt all these things submissively, being by nature and habit a teachable creature and only by food and accident gigantic. for lady wondershoot, in these early days, he displayed the profoundest awe. she found she could talk to him best when she was in short skirts and had her dog-whip, and she gesticulated with that and was always a little contemptuous and shrill. but sometimes the vicar played master--a minute, middle-aged, rather breathless david pelting a childish goliath with reproof and reproach and dictatorial command. the monster was now so big that it seems it was impossible for any one to remember he was after all only a child of seven, with all a child's desire for notice and amusement and fresh experience, with all a child's craving for response, attention and affection, and all a child's capacity for dependence and unrestricted dulness and misery. the vicar, walking down the village road some sunlit morning, would encounter an ungainly eighteen feet of the inexplicable, as fantastic and unpleasant to him as some new form of dissent, as it padded fitfully along with craning neck, seeking, always seeking the two primary needs of childhood--something to eat and something with which to play. there would come a look of furtive respect into the creature's eyes and an attempt to touch the matted forelock. in a limited way the vicar had an imagination--at any rate, the remains of one--and with young caddles it took the line of developing the huge possibilities of personal injury such vast muscles must possess. suppose a sudden madness--! suppose a mere lapse into disrespect--! however, the truly brave man is not the man who does not feel fear but the man who overcomes it. every time and always the vicar got his imagination under. and he used always to address young caddles stoutly in a good clear service tenor. "being a good boy, albert edward?" and the young giant, edging closer to the wall and blushing deeply, would answer, "yessir--trying." "mind you do," said the vicar, and would go past him with at most a slight acceleration of his breathing. and out of respect for his manhood he made it a rule, whatever he might fancy, never to look back at the danger, when once it was passed. in a fitful manner the vicar would give young caddles private tuition. he never taught the monster to read--it was not needed; but he taught him the more important points of the catechism--his duty to his neighbour for example, and of that deity who would punish caddles with extreme vindictiveness if ever he ventured to disobey the vicar and lady wondershoot. the lessons would go on in the vicar's yard, and passers-by would hear that great cranky childish voice droning out the essential teachings of the established church. "to onner 'n 'bey the king and allooer put 'nthority under 'im. to s'bmit meself t'all my gov'ners, teachers, spir'shall pastors an' masters. to order myself lowly 'n rev'rently t'all my betters--" presently it became evident that the effect of the growing giant on unaccustomed horses was like that of a camel, and he was told to keep off the highroad, not only near the shrubbery (where the oafish smile over the wall had exasperated her ladyship extremely), but altogether. that law he never completely obeyed, because of the vast interest the highroad had for him. but it turned what had been his constant resort into a stolen pleasure. he was limited at last almost entirely to old pasture and the downs. i do not know what he would have done if it had not been for the downs. there there were spaces where he might wander for miles, and over these spaces he wandered. he would pick branches from trees and make insane vast nosegays there until he was forbidden, take up sheep and put them in neat rows, from which they immediately wandered (at this he invariably laughed very heartily), until he was forbidden, dig away the turf, great wanton holes, until he was forbidden.... he would wander over the downs as far as the hill above wreckstone, but not farther, because there he came upon cultivated land, and the people, by reason of his depredations upon their root-crops, and inspired moreover by a sort of hostile timidity his big unkempt appearance frequently evoked, always came out against him with yapping dogs to drive him away. they would threaten him and lash at him with cart whips. i have heard that they would sometimes fire at him with shot guns. and in the other direction he ranged within sight of hickleybrow. from above thursley hanger he could get a glimpse of the london, chatham, and dover railway, but ploughed fields and a suspicious hamlet prevented his nearer access. and after a time there came boards--great boards with red letters that barred him in every direction. he could not read what the letters said: "out of bounds," but in a little while he understood. he was often to be seen in those days, by the railway passengers, sitting, chin on knees, perched up on the down hard by the thursley chalk pits, where afterwards he was set working. the train seemed to inspire a dim emotion of friendliness in him, and sometimes he would wave an enormous hand at it, and sometimes give it a rustic incoherent hail. "big," the peering passenger would say. "one of these boom children. they say, sir, quite unable to do anything for itself--little better than an idiot in fact, and a great burden on the locality." "parents quite poor, i'm told." "lives on the charity of the local gentry." every one would stare intelligently at that distant squatting monstrous figure for a space. "good thing that was put a stop to," some spacious thinking mind would suggest. "nice to 'ave a few thousand of _them_ on the rates, eh?" and usually there was some one wise enough to tell this philosopher: "you're about right there, sir," in hearty tones. ii. he had his bad days. there was, for example, that trouble with the river. he made little boats out of whole newspapers, an art he learnt by watching the spender boy, and he set them sailing down the stream--great paper cocked-hats. when they vanished under the bridge which marks the boundary of the strictly private grounds about eyebright house, he would give a great shout and run round and across tormat's new field--lord! how tormat's pigs did scamper, to be sure, and turn their good fat into lean muscle!--and so to meet his boats by the ford. right across the nearer lawns these paper boats of his used to go, right in front of eyebright house, right under lady wondershoot's eyes! disorganising folded newspapers! a pretty thing! gathering enterprise from impunity, he began babyish hydraulic engineering. he delved a huge port for his paper fleets with an old shed door that served him as a spade, and, no one chancing to observe his operations just then, he devised an ingenious canal that incidentally flooded lady wondershoot's ice-house, and finally he dammed the river. he dammed it right across with a few vigorous doorfuls of earth--he must have worked like an avalanche--and down came a most amazing spate through the shrubbery and washed away miss spinks and her easel and the most promising water-colour sketch she had ever begun, or, at any rate, it washed away her easel and left her wet to the knees and dismally tucked up in flight to the house, and thence the waters rushed through the kitchen garden, and so by the green door into the lane and down into the riverbed again by short's ditch. meanwhile, the vicar, interrupted in conversation with the blacksmith, was amazed to see distressful stranded fish leaping out of a few residual pools, and heaped green weed in the bed of the stream, where ten minutes before there had been eight feet and more of clear cool water. after that, horrified at his own consequences, young caddles fled his home for two days and nights. he returned only at the insistent call of hunger, to bear with stoical calm an amount of violent scolding that was more in proportion to his size than anything else that had ever before fallen to his lot in the happy village. iii. immediately after that affair lady wondershoot, casting about for exemplary additions to the abuse and fastings she had inflicted, issued a ukase. she issued it first to her butler, and very suddenly, so that she made him jump. he was clearing away the breakfast things, and she was staring out of the tall window on the terrace where the fawns would come to be fed. "jobbet," she said, in her most imperial voice--"jobbet, this thing must work for its living." and she made it quite clear not only to jobbet (which was easy), but to every one else in the village, including young caddles, that in this matter, as in all things, she meant what she said. "keep him employed," said lady wondershoot. "that's the tip for master caddles." "it's the tip, i fancy, for all humanity," said the vicar. "the simple duties, the modest round, seed-time and harvest--" "exactly," said lady wondershoot. "what _i_ always say. satan finds some mischief still for idle hands to do. at any rate among the labouring classes. we bring up our under-housemaids on that principle, always. what shall we set him to do?" that was a little difficult. they thought of many things, and meanwhile they broke him in to labour a bit by using him instead of a horse messenger to carry telegrams and notes when extra speed was needed, and he also carried luggage and packing-cases and things of that sort very conveniently in a big net they found for him. he seemed to like employment, regarding it as a sort of game, and kinkle, lady wondershoot's agent, seeing him shift a rockery for her one day, was struck by the brilliant idea of putting him into her chalk quarry at thursley hanger, hard by hickleybrow. this idea was carried out, and it seemed they had settled his problem. he worked in the chalk pit, at first with the zest of a playing child, and afterwards with an effect of habit--delving, loading, doing all the haulage of the trucks, running the full ones down the lines towards the siding, and hauling the empty ones up by the wire of a great windlass--working the entire quarry at last single-handed. i am told that kinkle made a very good thing indeed out of him for lady wondershoot, consuming as he did scarcely anything but his food, though that never restrained her denunciation of "the creature" as a gigantic parasite upon her charity.... at that time he used to wear a sort of smock of sacking, trousers of patched leather, and iron-shod sabots. over his head was sometimes a queer thing--a worn-out beehive straw chair it was, but usually he went bareheaded. he would be moving about the pit with a powerful deliberation, and the vicar on his constitutional round would get there about midday to find him shamefully eating his vast need of food with his back to all the world. his food was brought to him every day, a mess of grain in the husk, in a truck--a small railway truck, like one of the trucks he was perpetually filling with chalk, and this load he used to char in an old limekiln and then devour. sometimes he would mix with it a bag of sugar. sometimes he would sit licking a lump of such salt as is given to cows, or eating a huge lump of dates, stones and all, such as one sees in london on barrows. for drink he walked to the rivulet beyond the burnt-out site of the experimental farm at hickleybrow and put down his face to the stream. it was from his drinking in that way after eating that the food of the gods did at last get loose, spreading first of all in huge weeds from the river-side, then in big frogs, bigger trout and stranding carp, and at last in a fantastic exuberance of vegetation all over the little valley. and after a year or so the queer monstrous grub things in the field before the blacksmith's grew so big and developed into such frightful skipjacks and cockchafers--motor cockchafers the boys called them--that they drove lady wondershoot abroad. iv. but soon the food was to enter upon a new phase of its work in him. in spite of the simple instructions of the vicar--instructions intended to round off the modest natural life befitting a giant peasant, in the most complete and final manner--he began to ask questions, to inquire into things, to _think_. as he grew from boyhood to adolescence it became increasingly evident that his mind had processes of its own--out of the vicar's control. the vicar did his best to ignore this distressing phenomenon, but still--he could feel it there. the young giant's material for thought lay about him. quite involuntarily, with his spacious views, his constant overlooking of things, he must have seen a good deal of human life, and as it grew clearer to him that he too, save for this clumsy greatness of his, was also human, he must have come to realise more and more just how much was shut against him by his melancholy distinction. the sociable hum of the school, the mystery of religion that was partaken in such finery, and which exhaled so sweet a strain of melody, the jovial chorusing from the inn, the warmly glowing rooms, candle-lit and fire-lit, into which he peered out of the darkness, or again the shouting excitement, the vigour of flannelled exercise upon some imperfectly understood issue that centred about the cricket-field--all these things must have cried aloud to his companionable heart. it would seem that as his adolescence crept upon him, he began to take a very considerable interest in the proceedings of lovers, in those preferences and pairings, those close intimacies that are so cardinal in life. one sunday, just about that hour when the stars and the bats and the passions of rural life come out, there chanced to be a young couple "kissing each other a bit" in love lane, the deep hedged lane that runs out back towards the upper lodge. they were giving their little emotions play, as secure in the warm still twilight as any lovers could be. the only conceivable interruption they thought possible must come pacing visibly up the lane; the twelve-foot hedge towards the silent downs seemed to them an absolute guarantee. then suddenly--incredibly--they were lifted and drawn apart. they discovered themselves held up, each with a finger and thumb under the armpits, and with the perplexed brown eyes of young caddles scanning their warm flushed faces. they were naturally dumb with the emotions of their situation. "_why_ do you like doing that?" asked young caddles. i gather the embarrassment continued until the swain remembering his manhood, vehemently, with loud shouts, threats, and virile blasphemies, such as became the occasion, bade young caddles under penalties put them down. whereupon young caddles, remembering his manners, did put them down politely and very carefully, and conveniently near for a resumption of their embraces, and having hesitated above them for a while, vanished again into the twilight ... "but i felt precious silly," the swain confided to me. "we couldn't 'ardly look at one another--bein' caught like that. "kissing we was--_you_ know. "and the cur'ous thing is, she blamed it all on to me," said the swain. "flew out something outrageous, and wouldn't 'ardly speak to me all the way 'ome...." the giant was embarking upon investigations, there could be no doubt. his mind, it became manifest, was throwing up questions. he put them to few people as yet, but they troubled him. his mother, one gathers, sometimes came in for cross-examination. he used to come into the yard behind his mother's cottage, and, after a careful inspection of the ground for hens and chicks, he would sit down slowly with his back against the barn. in a minute the chicks, who liked him, would be pecking all over him at the mossy chalk-mud in the seams of his clothing, and if it was blowing up for wet, mrs. caddles' kitten, who never lost her confidence in him, would assume a sinuous form and start scampering into the cottage, up to the kitchen fender, round, out, up his leg, up his body, right up to his shoulder, meditative moment, and then scat! back again, and so on. sometimes she would stick her claws in his face out of sheer gaiety of heart, but he never dared to touch her because of the uncertain weight of his hand upon a creature so frail. besides, he rather liked to be tickled. and after a time he would put some clumsy questions to his mother. "mother," he would say, "if it's good to work, why doesn't every one work?" his mother would look up at him and answer, "it's good for the likes of us." he would meditate, "_why_?" and going unanswered, "what's work _for_, mother? why do i cut chalk and you wash clothes, day after day, while lady wondershoot goes about in her carriage, mother, and travels off to those beautiful foreign countries you and i mustn't see, mother?" "she's a lady," said mrs. caddles. "oh," said young caddles, and meditated profoundly. "if there wasn't gentlefolks to make work for us to do," said mrs. caddles, "how should we poor people get a living?" this had to be digested. "mother," he tried again; "if there wasn't any gentlefolks, wouldn't things belong to people like me and you, and if they did--" "lord sakes and _drat_ the boy!" mrs. caddles would say--she had with the help of a good memory become quite a florid and vigorous individuality since mrs. skinner died. "since your poor dear grandma was took, there's no abiding you. don't you arst no questions and you won't be told no lies. if once i was to start out answerin' you _serious_, y'r father 'd 'ave to go' and arst some one else for 'is supper--let alone finishing the washin'." "all right, mother," he would say, after a wondering stare at her. "i didn't mean to worry." and he would go on thinking. v. he was thinking too four years after, when the vicar, now no longer ripe but over-ripe, saw him for the last time of all. you figure the old gentleman visibly a little older now, slacker in his girth, a little coarsened and a little weakened in his thought and speech, with a quivering shakiness in his hand and a quivering shakiness in his convictions, but his eye still bright and merry for all the trouble the food had caused his village and himself. he had been frightened at times and disturbed, but was he not alive still and the same still? and fifteen long years--a fair sample of eternity--had turned the trouble into use and wont. "it was a disturbance, i admit," he would say, "and things are different--different in many ways. there was a time when a boy could weed, but now a man must go out with axe and crowbar--in some places down by the thickets at least. and it's a little strange still to us old-fashioned people for all this valley, even what used to be the river bed before they irrigated, to be under wheat--as it is this year--twenty-five feet high. they used the old-fashioned scythe here twenty years ago, and they would bring home the harvest on a wain--rejoicing--in a simple honest fashion. a little simple drunkenness, a little frank love-making, to conclude ... poor dear lady wondershoot--she didn't like these innovations. very conservative, poor dear lady! a touch of the eighteenth century about her, i always said. her language for example ... bluff vigour ... "she died comparatively poor. these big weeds got into her garden. she was not one of these gardening women, but she liked her garden in order--things growing where they were planted and as they were planted--under control ... the way things grew was unexpected--upset her ideas ... she didn't like the perpetual invasion of this young monster--at last she began to fancy he was always gaping at her over her wall ... she didn't like his being nearly as high as her house ... jarred with her sense of proportion. poor dear lady! i had hoped she would last my time. it was the big cockchafers we had for a year or so that decided her. they came from the giant larvae--nasty things as big as rats--in the valley turf ... "and the ants no doubt weighed with her also. "since everything was upset and there was no peace and quietness anywhere now, she said she thought she might just as well be at monte carlo as anywhere else. and she went. "she played pretty boldly, i'm told. died in a hotel there. very sad end... exile... not--not what one considers meet... a natural leader of our english people... uprooted. so i... "yet after all," harped the vicar, "it comes to very little. a nuisance of course. children cannot run about so freely as they used to do, what with ant bites and so forth. perhaps it's as well ... there used to be talk--as though this stuff would revolutionise everything ... but there is something that defies all these forces of the new ... i don't know of course. i'm not one of your modern philosophers--explain everything with ether and atoms. evolution. rubbish like that. what i mean is something the 'ologies don't include. matter of reason--not understanding. ripe wisdom. human nature. _aere perennius._ ... call it what you will." and so at last it came to the last time. the vicar had no intimation of what lay so close upon him. he did his customary walk, over by farthing down, as he had done it for more than a score of years, and so to the place whence he would watch young caddles. he did the rise over by the chalk-pit crest a little puffily--he had long since lost the muscular christian stride of early days; but caddles was not at his work, and then, as he skirted the thicket of giant bracken that was beginning to obscure and overshadow the hanger, he came upon the monster's huge form seated on the hill--brooding as it were upon the world. caddles' knees were drawn up, his cheek was on his hand, his head a little aslant. he sat with his shoulder towards the vicar, so that those perplexed eyes could not be seen. he must have been thinking very intently--at any rate he was sitting very still ... he never turned round. he never knew that the vicar, who had played so large a part in shaping his life, looked then at him for the very last of innumerable times--did not know even that he was there. (so it is so many partings happen.) the vicar was struck at the time by the fact that, after all, no one on earth had the slightest idea of what this great monster thought about when he saw fit to rest from his labours. but he was too indolent to follow up that new theme that day; he fell back from its suggestion into his older grooves of thought. "_aere-perennius,"_ he whispered, walking slowly homeward by a path that no longer ran straight athwart the turf after its former fashion, but wound circuitously to avoid new sprung tussocks of giant grass. "no! nothing is changed. dimensions are nothing. the simple round, the common way--" and that night, quite painlessly, and all unknowing, he himself went the common way--out of this mystery of change he had spent his life in denying. they buried him in the churchyard of cheasing eyebright, near to the largest yew, and the modest tombstone bearing his epitaph--it ended with: _ut in principio, nunc est et semper_--was almost immediately hidden from the eye of man by a spread of giant, grey tasselled grass too stout for scythe or sheep, that came sweeping like a fog over the village out of the germinating moisture of the valley meadows in which the food of the gods had been working. book iii. the harvest of the food. chapter the first. the altered world. i. change played in its new fashion with the world for twenty years. to most men the new things came little by little and day by day, remarkably enough, but not so abruptly as to overwhelm. but to one man at least the full accumulation of those two decades of the food's work was to be revealed suddenly and amazingly in one day. for our purpose it is convenient to take him for that one day and to tell something of the things he saw. this man was a convict, a prisoner for life--his crime is no concern of ours--whom the law saw fit to pardon after twenty years. one summer morning this poor wretch, who had left the world a young man of three-and-twenty, found himself thrust out again from the grey simplicity of toil and discipline, that had become his life, into a dazzling freedom. they had put unaccustomed clothes upon him; his hair had been growing for some weeks, and he had parted it now for some days, and there he stood, in a sort of shabby and clumsy newness of body and mind, blinking with his eyes and blinking indeed with his soul, _outside_ again, trying to realise one incredible thing, that after all he was again for a little while in the world of life, and for all other incredible things, totally unprepared. he was so fortunate as to have a brother who cared enough for their distant common memories to come and meet him and clasp his hand--a brother he had left a little lad, and who was now a bearded prosperous man--whose very eyes were unfamiliar. and together he and this stranger from his kindred came down into the town of dover, saying little to one another and feeling many things. they sat for a space in a public-house, the one answering the questions of the other about this person and that, reviving queer old points of view, brushing aside endless new aspects and new perspectives, and then it was time to go to the station and take the london train. their names and the personal things they had to talk of do not matter to our story, but only the changes and all the strangeness that this poor returning soul found in the once familiar world. in dover itself he remarked little except the goodness of beer from pewter--never before had there been such a draught of beer, and it brought tears of gratitude to his eyes. "beer's as good as ever," said he, believing it infinitely better.... it was only as the train rattled them past folkestone that he could look out beyond his more immediate emotions, to see what had happened to the world. he peered out of the window. "it's sunny," he said for the twelfth time. "i couldn't ha' had better weather." and then for the first time it dawned upon him that there were novel disproportions in the world. "lord sakes," he cried, sitting up and looking animated for the first time, "but them's mortal great thissels growing out there on the bank by that broom. if so be they _be_ thissels? or 'ave i been forgetting?" but they were thistles, and what he took for tall bushes of broom was the new grass, and amidst these things a company of british soldiers--red-coated as ever--was skirmishing in accordance with the directions of the drill book that had been partially revised after the boer war. then whack! into a tunnel, and then into sandling junction, which was now embedded and dark--its lamps were all alight--in a great thicket of rhododendron that had crept out of some adjacent gardens and grown enormously up the valley. there was a train of trucks on the sandgate siding piled high with rhododendron logs, and here it was the returning citizen heard first of boomfood. as they sped out into a country again that seemed absolutely unchanged, the two brothers were hard at their explanations. the one was full of eager, dull questions; the other had never thought, had never troubled to see the thing as a single fact, and he was allusive and difficult to follow. "it's this here boomfood stuff," he said, touching his bottom rock of knowledge. "don't you know? 'aven't they told you--any of 'em? boomfood! you know--boomfood. what all the election's about. scientific sort of stuff. 'asn't no one ever told you?" he thought prison had made his brother a fearful duffer not to know that. they made wide shots at each other by way of question and answer. between these scraps of talk were intervals of window-gazing. at first the man's interest in things was vague and general. his imagination had been busy with what old so-and-so would say, how so-and-so would look, how he would say to all and sundry certain things that would present his "putting away" in a mitigated light. this boomfood came in at first as it were a thing in an odd paragraph of the newspapers, then as a source of intellectual difficulty with his brother. but it came to him presently that boomfood was persistently coming in upon any topic he began. in those days the world was a patchwork of transition, so that this great new fact came to him in a series of shocks of contrast. the process of change had not been uniform; it had spread from one centre of distribution here and another centre there. the country was in patches: great areas where the food was still to come, and areas where it was already in the soil and in the air, sporadic and contagious. it was a bold new motif creeping in among ancient and venerable airs. the contrast was very vivid indeed along the line from dover to london at that time. for a space they traversed just such a country-side as he had known since his childhood, the small oblongs of field, hedge-lined, of a size for pigmy horses to plough, the little roads three cart-widths wide, the elms and oaks and poplars dotting these fields about, little thickets of willow beside the streams; ricks of hay no higher than a giant's knees, dolls' cottages with diamond panes, brickfields, and straggling village streets, the larger houses of the petty great, flower-grown railway banks, garden-set stations, and all the little things of the vanished nineteenth century still holding out against immensity. here and there would be a patch of wind-sown, wind-tattered giant thistle defying the axe; here and there a ten-foot puff-ball or the ashen stems of some burnt-out patch of monster grass; but that was all there was to hint at the coming of the food. for a couple of score of miles there was nothing else to foreshadow in any way the strange bigness of the wheat and of the weeds that were hidden from him not a dozen miles from his route just over the hills in the cheasing eyebright valley. and then presently the traces of the food would begin. the first striking thing was the great new viaduct at tonbridge, where the swamp of the choked medway (due to a giant variety of _chara_) began in those days. then again the little country, and then, as the petty multitudinous immensity of london spread out under its haze, the traces of man's fight to keep out greatness became abundant and incessant. in that south-eastern region of london at that time, and all about where cossar and his children lived, the food had become mysteriously insurgent at a hundred points; the little life went on amidst daily portents that only the deliberation of their increase, the slow parallel growth of usage to their presence, had robbed of their warning. but this returning citizen peered out to see for the first time the facts of the food strange and predominant, scarred and blackened areas, big unsightly defences and preparations, barracks and arsenals that this subtle, persistent influence had forced into the life of men. here, on an ampler scale, the experience of the first experimental farm had been repeated time and again. it had been in the inferior and accidental things of life--under foot and in waste places, irregularly and irrelevantly--that the coming of a new force and new issues had first declared itself. there were great evil-smelling yards and enclosures where some invincible jungle of weed furnished fuel for gigantic machinery (little cockneys came to stare at its clangorous oiliness and tip the men a sixpence); there were roads and tracks for big motors and vehicles--roads made of the interwoven fibres of hypertrophied hemp; there were towers containing steam sirens that could yell at once and warn the world against any new insurgence of vermin, or, what was queerer, venerable church towers conspicuously fitted with a mechanical scream. there were little red-painted refuge huts and garrison shelters, each with its -yard rifle range, where the riflemen practised daily with soft-nosed ammunition at targets in the shape of monstrous rats. six times since the day of the skinners there had been outbreaks of giant rats--each time from the south-west london sewers, and now they were as much an accepted fact there as tigers in the delta by calcutta.... the man's brother had bought a paper in a heedless sort of way at sandling, and at last this chanced to catch the eye of the released man. he opened the unfamiliar sheets--they seemed to him to be smaller, more numerous, and different in type from the papers of the times before--and he found himself confronted with innumerable pictures about things so strange as to be uninteresting, and with tall columns of printed matter whose headings, for the most part, were as unmeaning as though they had been written in a foreign tongue--"great speech by mr. caterham"; "the boomfood laws." "who's this here caterham?" he asked, in an attempt to make conversation. "_he's_ all right," said his brother. "ah! sort of politician, eh?" "goin' to turn out the government. jolly well time he did." "ah!" he reflected. "i suppose all the lot _i_ used to know--chamberlain, rosebery--all that lot--_what_?" his brother had grasped his wrist and pointed out of the window. "that's the cossars!" the eyes of the released prisoner followed the finger's direction and saw-- "my gawd!" he cried, for the first time really overcome with amazement. the paper dropped into final forgottenness between his feet. through the trees he could see very distinctly, standing in an easy attitude, the legs wide apart and the hand grasping a ball as if about to throw it, a gigantic human figure a good forty feet high. the figure glittered in the sunlight, clad in a suit of woven white metal and belted with a broad belt of steel. for a moment it focussed all attention, and then the eye was wrested to another more distant giant who stood prepared to catch, and it became apparent that the whole area of that great bay in the hills just north of sevenoaks had been scarred to gigantic ends. a hugely banked entrenchment overhung the chalk pit, in which stood the house, a monstrous squat egyptian shape that cossar had built for his sons when the giant nursery had served its turn, and behind was a great dark shed that might have covered a cathedral, in which a spluttering incandescence came and went, and from out of which came a titanic hammering to beat upon the ear. then the attention leapt back to the giant as the great ball of iron-bound timber soared up out of his hand. the two men stood up and stared. the ball seemed as big as a cask. "caught!" cried the man from prison, as a tree blotted out the thrower. the train looked on these things only for the fraction of a minute and then passed behind trees into the chislehurst tunnel. "my gawd!" said the man from prison again, as the darkness closed about them. "why! that chap was as 'igh as a 'ouse." "that's them young cossars," said his brother, jerking his head allusively--"what all this trouble's about...." they emerged again to discover more siren-surmounted towers, more red huts, and then the clustering villas of the outer suburbs. the art of bill-sticking had lost nothing in the interval, and from countless tall hoardings, from house ends, from palings, and a hundred such points of vantage came the polychromatic appeals of the great boomfood election. "caterham," "boomfood," and "jack the giant-killer" again and again and again, and monstrous caricatures and distortions--a hundred varieties of misrepresentations of those great and shining figures they had passed so nearly only a few minutes before.... ii. it had been the purpose of the younger brother to do a very magnificent thing, to celebrate this return to life by a dinner at some restaurant of indisputable quality, a dinner that should be followed by all that glittering succession of impressions the music halls of those days were so capable of giving. it was a worthy plan to wipe off the more superficial stains of the prison house by this display of free indulgence; but so far as the second item went the plan was changed. the dinner stood, but there was a desire already more powerful than the appetite for shows, already more efficient in turning the man's mind away from his grim prepossession with his past than any theatre could be, and that was an enormous curiosity and perplexity about this boomfood and these boom children--this new portentous giantry that seemed to dominate the world. "i 'aven't the 'ang of 'em," he said. "they disturve me." his brother had that fineness of mind that can even set aside a contemplated hospitality. "it's _your_ evening, dear old boy," he said. "we'll try to get into the mass meeting at the people's palace." and at last the man from prison had the luck to find himself wedged into a packed multitude and staring from afar at a little brightly lit platform under an organ and a gallery. the organist had been playing something that had set boots tramping as the people swarmed in; but that was over now. hardly had the man from prison settled into place and done his quarrel with an importunate stranger who elbowed, before caterham came. he walked out of a shadow towards the middle of the platform, the most insignificant little pigmy, away there in the distance, a little black figure with a pink dab for a face,--in profile one saw his quite distinctive aquiline nose--a little figure that trailed after it most inexplicably--a cheer. a cheer it was that began away there and grew and spread. a little spluttering of voices about the platform at first that suddenly leapt up into a flame of sound and swept athwart the whole mass of humanity within the building and without. how they cheered! hooray! hooray! no one in all those myriads cheered like the man from prison. the tears poured down his face, and he only stopped cheering at last because the thing had choked him. you must have been in prison as long as he before you can understand, or even begin to understand, what it means to a man to let his lungs go in a crowd. (but for all that he did not even pretend to himself that he knew what all this emotion was about.) hooray! o god!--hoo-ray! and then a sort of silence. caterham had subsided to a conspicuous patience, and subordinate and inaudible persons were saying and doing formal and insignificant things. it was like hearing voices through the noise of leaves in spring. "wawawawa---" what did it matter? people in the audience talked to one another. "wawawawawa---" the thing went on. would that grey-headed duffer never have done? interrupting? of course they were interrupting. "wa, wa, wa, wa---" but shall we hear caterham any better? meanwhile at any rate there was caterham to stare at, and one could stand and study the distant prospect of the great man's features. he was easy to draw was this man, and already the world had him to study at leisure on lamp chimneys and children's plates, on anti-boomfood medals and anti-boomfood flags, on the selvedges of caterham silks and cottons and in the linings of good old english caterham hats. he pervades all the caricature of that time. one sees him as a sailor standing to an old-fashioned gun, a port-fire labelled "new boomfood laws" in his hand; while in the sea wallows that huge, ugly, threatening monster, "boomfood;" or he is _cap-a-pie_ in armour, st. george's cross on shield and helm, and a cowardly titanic caliban sitting amidst desecrations at the mouth of a horrid cave declines his gauntlet of the "new boomfood regulations;" or he comes flying down as perseus and rescues a chained and beautiful andromeda (labelled distinctly about her belt as "civilisation") from a wallowing waste of sea monster bearing upon its various necks and claws "irreligion," "trampling egotism," "mechanism," "monstrosity," and the like. but it was as "jack the giant-killer" that the popular imagination considered caterham most correctly cast, and it was in the vein of a jack the giant-killer poster that the man from prison, enlarged that distant miniature. the "wawawawa" came abruptly to an end. he's done. he's sitting down. yes! no! yes! it's caterham! "caterham!" "caterham!" and then came the cheers. it takes a multitude to make such a stillness as followed that disorder of cheering. a man alone in a wilderness;--it's stillness of a sort no doubt, but he hears himself breathe, he hears himself move, he hears all sorts of things. here the voice of caterham was the one single thing heard, a thing very bright and clear, like a little light burning in a black velvet recess. hear indeed! one heard him as though he spoke at one's elbow. it was stupendously effective to the man from prison, that gesticulating little figure in a halo of light, in a halo of rich and swaying sounds; behind it, partially effaced as it were, sat its supporters on the platform, and in the foreground was a wide perspective of innumerable backs and profiles, a vast multitudinous attention. that little figure seemed to have absorbed the substance from them all. caterham spoke of our ancient institutions. "earearear," roared the crowd. "ear! ear!" said the man from prison. he spoke of our ancient spirit of order and justice. "earearear!" roared the crowd. "ear! ear!" cried the man from prison, deeply moved. he spoke of the wisdom of our forefathers, of the slow growth of venerable institutions, of moral and social traditions, that fitted our english national characteristics as the skin fits the hand. "ear! ear!" groaned the man from prison, with tears of excitement on his cheeks. and now all these things were to go into the melting pot. yes, into the melting pot! because three men in london twenty years ago had seen fit to mix something indescribable in a bottle, all the order and sanctity of things--cries of "no! no!"--well, if it was not to be so, they must exert themselves, they must say good-bye to hesitation--here there came a gust of cheering. they must say good-bye to hesitation and half measures. "we have heard, gentlemen," cried caterham, "of nettles that become giant nettles. at first they are no more than other nettles--little plants that a firm hand may grasp and wrench away; but if you leave them--if you leave them, they grow with such a power of poisonous expansion that at last you must needs have axe and rope, you must needs have danger to life and limb, you must needs have toil and distress--men may be killed in their felling, men may be killed in their felling---" there came a stir and interruption, and then the man from prison heard caterham's voice again, ringing clear and strong: "learn about boomfood from boomfood itself and--" he paused--"_grasp your nettle before it is too late!_" he stopped and stood wiping his lips. "a crystal," cried some one, "a crystal," and then came that same strange swift growth to thunderous tumult, until the whole world seemed cheering.... the man from prison came out of the hall at last, marvellously stirred, and with that in his face that marks those who have seen a vision. he knew, every one knew; his ideas were no longer vague. he had come back to a world in crisis, to the immediate decision of a stupendous issue. he must play his part in the great conflict like a man--like a free, responsible man. the antagonism presented itself as a picture. on the one hand those easy gigantic mail-clad figures of the morning--one saw them now in a different light--on the other this little black-clad gesticulating creature under the limelight, that pigmy thing with its ordered flow of melodious persuasion, its little, marvellously penetrating voice, john caterham--"jack the giant-killer." they must all unite to "grasp the nettle" before it was "too late." iii. the tallest and strongest and most regarded of all the children of the food were the three sons of cossar. the mile or so of land near sevenoaks in which their boyhood passed became so trenched, so dug out and twisted about, so covered with sheds and huge working models and all the play of their developing powers, it was like no other place on earth. and long since it had become too little for the things they sought to do. the eldest son was a mighty schemer of wheeled engines; he had made himself a sort of giant bicycle that no road in the world had room for, no bridge could bear. there it stood, a great thing of wheels and engines, capable of two hundred and fifty miles an hour, useless save that now and then he would mount it and fling himself backwards and forwards across that cumbered work-yard. he had meant to go around the little world with it; he had made it with that intention, while he was still no more than a dreaming boy. now its spokes were rusted deep red like wounds, wherever the enamel had been chipped away. "you must make a road for it first, sonnie," cossar had said, "before you can do that." so one morning about dawn the young giant and his brothers had set to work to make a road about the world. they seem to have had an inkling of opposition impending, and they had worked with remarkable vigour. the world had discovered them soon enough, driving that road as straight as a flight of a bullet towards the english channel, already some miles of it levelled and made and stamped hard. they had been stopped before midday by a vast crowd of excited people, owners of land, land agents, local authorities, lawyers, policemen, soldiers even. "we're making a road," the biggest boy had explained. "make a road by all means," said the leading lawyer on the ground, "but please respect the rights of other people. you have already infringed the private rights of twenty-seven private proprietors; let alone the special privileges and property of an urban district board, nine parish councils, a county council, two gasworks, and a railway company...." "goodney!" said the elder boy cossar. "you will have to stop it." "but don't you want a nice straight road in the place of all these rotten rutty little lanes?" "i won't say it wouldn't be advantageous, but--" "it isn't to be done," said the eldest cossar boy, picking up his tools. "not in this way," said the lawyer, "certainly." "how is it to be done?" the leading lawyer's answer had been complicated and vague. cossar had come down to see the mischief his children had done, and reproved them severely and laughed enormously and seemed to be extremely happy over the affair. "you boys must wait a bit," he shouted up to them, "before you can do things like that." "the lawyer told us we must begin by preparing a scheme, and getting special powers and all sorts of rot. said it would take us years." "_we'll_ have a scheme before long, little boy," cried cossar, hands to his mouth as he shouted, "never fear. for a bit you'd better play about and make models of the things you want to do." they did as he told them like obedient sons. but for all that the cossar lads brooded a little. "it's all very well," said the second to the first, "but i don't always want just to play about and plan, i want to do something _real_, you know. we didn't come into this world so strong as we are, just to play about in this messy little bit of ground, you know, and take little walks and keep out of the towns"--for by that time they were forbidden all boroughs and urban districts. "doing nothing's just wicked. can't we find out something the little people _want_ done and do it for them--just for the fun of doing it? "lots of them haven't houses fit to live in," said the second boy, "let's go and build 'em a house close up to london, that will hold heaps and heaps of them and be ever so comfortable and nice, and let's make 'em a nice little road to where they all go and do business--nice straight little road, and make it all as nice as nice. we'll make it all so clean and pretty that they won't any of them be able to live grubby and beastly like most of them do now. water enough for them to wash with, we'll have--you know they're so dirty now that nine out of ten of their houses haven't even baths in them, the filthy little skunks! you know, the ones that have baths spit insults at the ones that haven't, instead of helping them to get them--and call 'em the great unwashed--_-you_ know. we'll alter all that. and we'll make electricity light and cook and clean up for them, and all. fancy! they make their women--women who are going to be mothers--crawl about and scrub floors! "we could make it all beautifully. we could bank up a valley in that range of hills over there and make a nice reservoir, and we could make a big place here to generate our electricity and have it all simply lovely. couldn't we, brother? and then perhaps they'd let us do some other things." "yes," said the elder brother, "we could do it _very_ nice for them." "then _let's,"_ said the second brother. "_i_ don't mind," said the elder brother, and looked about for a handy tool. and that led to another dreadful bother. agitated multitudes were at them in no time, telling them for a thousand reasons to stop, telling them to stop for no reason at all--babbling, confused, and varied multitudes. the place they were building was too high--it couldn't possibly be safe. it was ugly; it interfered with the letting of proper-sized houses in the neighbourhood; it ruined the tone of the neighbourhood; it was unneighbourly; it was contrary to the local building regulations; it infringed the right of the local authority to muddle about with a minute expensive electric supply of its own; it interfered with the concerns of the local water company. local government board clerks roused themselves to judicial obstruction. the little lawyer turned up again to represent about a dozen threatened interests; local landowners appeared in opposition; people with mysterious claims claimed to be bought off at exorbitant rates; the trades unions of all the building trades lifted up collective voices; and a ring of dealers in all sorts of building material became a bar. extraordinary associations of people with prophetic visions of aesthetic horrors rallied to protect the scenery of the place where they would build the great house, of the valley where they would bank up the water. these last people were absolutely the worst asses of the lot, the cossar boys considered. that beautiful house of the cossar boys was just like a walking-stick thrust into a wasps' nest, in no time. "i never did!" said the elder boy. "we can't go on," said the second brother. "rotten little beasts they are," said the third of the brothers; "we can't do _anything!_" "even when it's for their own comfort. such a _nice_ place we'd have made for them too." "they seem to spend their silly little lives getting in each other's way," said the eldest boy, "rights and laws and regulations and rascalities; it's like a game of spellicans.... well, anyhow, they'll have to live in their grubby, dirty, silly little houses for a bit longer. it's very evident _we_ can't go on with this." and the cossar children left that great house unfinished, a mere hole of foundations and the beginning of a wall, and sulked back to their big enclosure. after a time the hole was filled with water and with stagnation and weeds, and vermin, and the food, either dropped there by the sons of cossar or blowing thither as dust, set growth going in its usual fashion. water voles came out over the country and did infinite havoc, and one day a farmer caught his pigs drinking there, and instantly and with great presence of mind--for he knew: of the great hog of oakham--slew them all. and from that deep pool it was the mosquitoes came, quite terrible mosquitoes, whose only virtue was that the sons of cossar, after being bitten for a little, could stand the thing no longer, but chose a moonlight night when law and order were abed and drained the water clean away into the river by brook. but they left the big weeds and the big water voles and all sorts of big undesirable things still living and breeding on the site they had chosen--the site on which the fair great house of the little people might have towered to heaven ... iv. that had been in the boyhood of the sons, but now they were nearly men, and the chains had been tightening upon them, and tightening with every year of growth. each year they grew, and the food spread and great things multiplied, each year the stress and tension rose. the food had been at first for the great mass of mankind a distant marvel, and now it was coming home to every threshold, and threatening, pressing against and distorting the whole order of life. it blocked this, it overturned that; it changed natural products, and by changing natural products it stopped employments and threw men out of work by the hundred thousands; it swept over boundaries and turned the world of trade into a world of cataclysms: no wonder mankind hated it. and since it is easier to hate animate than inanimate things, animals more than plants, and one's fellow-men more completely than any animals, the fear and trouble engendered by giant nettles and six-foot grass blades, awful insects and tiger-like vermin, grew all into one great power of detestation that aimed itself with a simple directness at that scattered band of great human beings, the children of the food. that hatred had become the central force in political affairs. the old party lines had been traversed and effaced altogether under the insistence of these newer issues, and the conflict lay now with the party of the temporisers, who were for putting little political men to control and regulate the food, and the party of reaction for whom caterham spoke, speaking always with a more sinister ambiguity, crystallising his intention first in one threatening phrase and then another, now that men must "prune the bramble growths," now that they must find a "cure for elephantiasis," and at last upon the eve of the election that they must "grasp the nettle." one day the three sons of cossar, who were now no longer boys but men, sat among the masses of their futile work and talked together after their fashion of all these things. they had been working all day at one of a series of great and complicated trenches their father had bid them make, and now it was sunset, and they sat in the little garden space before the great house and looked at the world and rested, until the little servants within should say their food was ready. you must figure these mighty forms, forty feet high the least of them was, reclining on a patch of turf that would have seemed a stubble of reeds to a common man. one sat up and chipped earth from his huge boots with an iron girder he grasped in his hand; the second rested on his elbow; the third whittled a pine tree into shape and made a smell of resin in the air. they were clothed not in cloth but in under-garments of woven rope and outer clothes of felted aluminium wire; they were shod with timber and iron, and the links and buttons and belts of their clothing were all of plated steel. the great single-storeyed house they lived in, egyptian in its massiveness, half built of monstrous blocks of chalk and half excavated from the living rock of the hill, had a front a full hundred feet in height, and beyond, the chimneys and wheels, the cranes and covers of their work sheds rose marvellously against the sky. through a circular window in the house there was visible a spout from which some white-hot metal dripped and dripped in measured drops into a receptacle out of sight. the place was enclosed and rudely fortified by monstrous banks of earth, backed with steel both over the crests of the downs above and across the dip of the valley. it needed something of common size to mark the nature of the scale. the train that came rattling from sevenoaks athwart their vision, and presently plunged into the tunnel out of their sight, looked by contrast with them like some small-sized automatic toy. "they have made all the woods this side of ightham out of bounds," said one, "and moved the board that was out by knockholt two miles and more this way." "it is the least they could do," said the youngest, after a pause. "they are trying to take the wind out of caterham's sails." "it's not enough for that, and--it is almost too much for us," said the third. "they are cutting us off from brother redwood. last time i went to him the red notices had crept a mile in, either way. the road to him along the downs is no more than a narrow lane." the speaker thought. "what has come to our brother redwood?" "why?" said the eldest brother. the speaker hacked a bough from his pine. "he was like--as though he wasn't awake. he didn't seem to listen to what i had to say. and he said something of--love." the youngest tapped his girder on the edge of his iron sole and laughed. "brother redwood," he said, "has dreams." neither spoke for a space. then the eldest brother said, "this cooping up and cooping up grows more than i can bear. at last, i believe, they will draw a line round our boots and tell us to live on that." the middle brother swept aside a heap of pine boughs with one hand and shifted his attitude. "what they do now is nothing to what they will do when caterham has power." "if he gets power," said the youngest brother, smiting the ground with his girder. "as he will," said the eldest, staring at his feet. the middle brother ceased his lopping, and his eye went to the great banks that sheltered them about. "then, brothers," he said, "our youth will be over, and, as father redwood said to us long ago, we must quit ourselves like men." "yes," said the eldest brother; "but what exactly does that mean? just what does it mean--when that day of trouble comes?" he too glanced at those rude vast suggestions of entrenchment about them, looking not so much at them as through them and over the hills to the innumerable multitudes beyond. something of the same sort came into all their minds--a vision of little people coming out to war, in a flood, the little people, inexhaustible, incessant, malignant.... "they are little," said the youngest brother; "but they have numbers beyond counting, like the sands of the sea." "they have arms--they have weapons even, that our brothers in sunderland have made." "besides, brothers, except for vermin, except for little accidents with evil things, what have we seen of killing?" "i know," said the eldest brother. "for all that--we are what we are. when the day of trouble comes we must do the thing we have to do." he closed his knife with a snap--the blade was the length of a man--and used his new pine staff to help himself rise. he stood up and turned towards the squat grey immensity of the house. the crimson of the sunset caught him as he rose, caught the mail and clasps about his neck and the woven metal of his arms, and to the eyes of his brother it seemed as though he was suddenly suffused with blood ... as the young giant rose a little black figure became visible to him against that western incandescence on the top of the embankment that towered above the summit of the down. the black limbs waved in ungainly gestures. something in the fling of the limbs suggested haste to the young giant's mind. he waved his pine mast in reply, filled the whole valley with his vast hullo! threw a "something's up" to his brothers, and set off in twenty-foot strides to meet and help his father. v. it chanced too that a young man who was not a giant was delivering his soul about these sons of cossar just at that same time. he had come over the hills beyond sevenoaks, he and his friend, and he it was did the talking. in the hedge as they came along they had heard a pitiful squealing, and had intervened to rescue three nestling tits from the attack of a couple of giant ants. that adventure it was had set him talking. "reactionary!" he was saying, as they came within sight of the cossar encampment. "who wouldn't be reactionary? look at that square of ground, that space of god's earth that was once sweet and fair, torn, desecrated, disembowelled! those sheds! that great wind-wheel! that monstrous wheeled machine! those dykes! look at those three monsters squatting there, plotting some ugly devilment or other! look--look at all the land!" his friend glanced at his face. "you have been listening to caterham," he said. "using my eyes. looking a little into the peace and order of the past we leave behind. this foul food is the last shape of the devil, still set as ever upon the ruin of our world. think what the world must have been before our days, what it was still when our mothers bore us, and see it now! think how these slopes once smiled under the golden harvest, how the hedges, full of sweet little flowers, parted the modest portion of this man from that, how the ruddy farmhouses dotted the land, and the voice of the church bells from yonder tower stilled the whole world each sabbath into sabbath prayer. and now, every year, still more and more of monstrous weeds, of monstrous vermin, and these giants growing all about us, straddling over us, blundering against all that is subtle and sacred in our world. why here--look!" he pointed, and his friend's eyes followed the line of his white finger. "one of their footmarks. see! it has smashed itself three feet deep and more, a pitfall for horse and rider, a trap to the unwary. there is a briar rose smashed to death; there is grass uprooted and a teazle crushed aside, a farmer's drain pipe snapped and the edge of the pathway broken down. destruction! so they are doing all over the world, all over the order and decency the world of men has made. trampling on all things. reaction! what else?" "but--reaction. what do you hope to do?" "stop it!" cried the young man from oxford. "before it is too late." "but---" "it's _not_ impossible," cried the young man from oxford, with a jump in his voice. "we want the firm hand; we want the subtle plan, the resolute mind. we have been mealy-mouthed and weak-handed; we have trifled and temporised and the food has grown and grown. yet even now--" he stopped for a moment. "this is the echo of caterham," said his friend. "even now. even now there is hope--abundant hope, if only we make sure of what we want and what we mean to destroy. the mass of people are with us, much more with us than they were a few years ago; the law is with us, the constitution and order of society, the spirit of the established religions, the customs and habits of mankind are with us--and against the food. why should we temporise? why should we lie? we hate it, we don't want it; why then should we have it? do you mean to just grizzle and obstruct passively and do nothing--till the sands are out?" he stopped short and turned about. "look at that grove of nettles there. in the midst of them are homes--deserted--where once clean families of simple men played out their honest lives! "and there!" he swung round to where the young cossars muttered to one another of their wrongs. "look at them! and i know their father, a brute, a sort of brute beast with an intolerant loud voice, a creature who has ran amuck in our all too merciful world for the last thirty years and more. an engineer! to him all that we hold dear and sacred is nothing. nothing! the splendid traditions of our race and land, the noble institutions, the venerable order, the broad slow march from precedent to precedent that has made our english people great and this sunny island free--it is all an idle tale, told and done with. some claptrap about the future is worth all these sacred things.... the sort of man who would run a tramway over his mother's grave if he thought that was the cheapest line the tramway could take.... and you think to temporise, to make some scheme of compromise, that will enable you to live in your way while that--that machinery--lives in its. i tell you it is hopeless--hopeless. as well make treaties with a tiger! they want things monstrous--we want them sane and sweet. it is one thing or the other." "but what can you do?" "much! all! stop the food! they are still scattered, these giants; still immature and disunited. chain them, gag them, muzzle them. at any cost stop them. it is their world or ours! stop the food. shut up these men who make it. do anything to stop cossar! you don't seem to remember--one generation--only one generation needs holding down, and then--then we could level those mounds there, fill up their footsteps, take the ugly sirens from our church towers, smash all our elephant guns, and turn our faces again to the old order, the ripe old civilisation for which the soul of man is fitted." "it's a mighty effort." "for a mighty end. and if we don't? don't you see the prospect before us clear as day? everywhere the giants will increase and multiply; everywhere they will make and scatter the food. the grass will grow gigantic in our fields, the weeds in our hedges, the vermin in the thickets, the rats in the drains. more and more and more. this is only a beginning. the insect world will rise on us, the plant world, the very fishes in the sea, will swamp and drown our ships. tremendous growths will obscure and hide our houses, smother our churches, smash and destroy all the order of our cities, and we shall become no more than a feeble vermin under the heels of the new race. mankind will be swamped and drowned in things of its own begetting! and all for nothing! size! mere size! enlargement and _da capo_. already we go picking our way among the first beginnings of the coming time. and all we do is to say 'how inconvenient!' to grumble and do nothing. _no_!" he raised his hand. "let them do the thing they have to do! so also will i. i am for reaction--unstinted and fearless reaction. unless you mean to take this food also, what else is there to do in all the world? we have trifled in the middle ways too long. you! trifling in the middle ways is your habit, your circle of existence, your space and time. so, not i! i am against the food, with all my strength and purpose against the food." he turned on his companion's grunt of dissent. "where are you?" "it's a complicated business---" "oh!--driftwood!" said the young man from oxford, very bitterly, with a fling of all his limbs. "the middle way is nothingness. it is one thing or the other. eat or destroy. eat or destroy! what else is there to do?" chapter the second. the giant lovers. i. now it chanced in the days when caterham was campaigning against the boom-children before the general election that was--amidst the most tragic and terrible circumstances--to bring him into power, that the giant princess, that serene highness whose early nutrition had played so great a part in the brilliant career of doctor winkles, had come from the kingdom of her father to england, on an occasion that was deemed important. she was affianced for reasons of state to a certain prince--and the wedding was to be made an event of international significance. there had arisen mysterious delays. rumour and imagination collaborated in the story and many things were said. there were suggestions of a recalcitrant prince who declared he would not be made to look like a fool--at least to this extent. people sympathised with him. that is the most significant aspect of the affair. now it may seem a strange thing, but it is a fact that the giant princess, when she came to england, knew of no other giants whatever. she had lived in a world where tact is almost a passion and reservations the air of one's life. they had kept the thing from her; they had hedged her about from sight or suspicion of any gigantic form, until her appointed coming to england was due. until she met young redwood she had no inkling that there was such a thing as another giant in the world. in the kingdom of the father of the princess there were wild wastes of upland and mountains where she had been accustomed to roam freely. she loved the sunrise and the sunset and all the great drama of the open heavens more than anything else in the world, but among a people at once so democratic and so vehemently loyal as the english her freedom was much restricted. people came in brakes, in excursion trains, in organised multitudes to see her; they would cycle long distances to stare at her, and it was necessary to rise betimes if she would walk in peace. it was still near the dawn that morning when young redwood came upon her. the great park near the palace where she lodged stretched, for a score of miles and more, west and south of the western palace gates. the chestnut trees of its avenues reached high above her head. each one as she passed it seemed to proffer a more abundant wealth of blossom. for a time she was content with sight and scent, but at last she was won over by these offers, and set herself so busily to choose and pick that she did not perceive young redwood until he was close upon her. she moved among the chestnut trees, with the destined lover drawing near to her, unanticipated, unsuspected. she thrust her hands in among the branches, breaking them and gathering them. she was alone in the world. then--- she looked up, and in that moment she was mated. we must needs put our imaginations to his stature to see the beauty he saw. that unapproachable greatness that prevents our immediate sympathy with her did not exist for him. there she stood, a gracious girl, the first created being that had ever seemed a mate for him, light and slender, lightly clad, the fresh breeze of the dawn moulding the subtly folding robe upon her against the soft strong lines of her form, and with a great mass of blossoming chestnut branches in her hands. the collar of her robe opened to show the whiteness of her neck and a soft shadowed roundness that passed out of sight towards her shoulders. the breeze had stolen a strand or so of her hair too, and strained its red-tipped brown across her cheek. her eyes were open blue, and her lips rested always in the promise of a smile as she reached among the branches. she turned upon him with a start, saw him, and for a space they regarded one another. for her, the sight of him was so amazing, so incredible, as to be, for some moments at least, terrible. he came to her with the shock of a supernatural apparition; he broke all the established law of her world. he was a youth of one-and-twenty then, slenderly built, with his father's darkness and his father's gravity. he was clad in a sober soft brown leather, close-fitting easy garments, and in brown hose, that shaped him bravely. his head went uncovered in all weathers. they stood regarding one another--she incredulously amazed, and he with his heart beating fast. it was a moment without a prelude, the cardinal meeting of their lives. for him there was less surprise. he had been seeking her, and yet his heart beat fast. he came towards her, slowly, with his eyes upon her face. "you are the princess," he said. "my father has told me. you are the princess who was given the food of the gods." "i am the princess--yes," she said, with eyes of wonder. "but--what are you?" "i am the son of the man who made the food of the gods." "the food of the gods!" "yes, the food of the gods." "but--" her face expressed infinite perplexity. "what? i don't understand. the food of the gods?" "you have not heard?" "the food of the gods! _no_!" she found herself trembling violently. the colour left her face. "i did not know," she said. "do you mean--?" he waited for her. "do you mean there are other--giants?" he repeated, "did you not know?" and she answered, with the growing amazement of realisation, "_no!_" the whole world and all the meaning of the world was changing for her. a branch of chestnut slipped from her hand. "do you mean to say," she repeated stupidly, "that there are other giants in the world? that some food--?" he caught her amazement. "you know nothing?" he cried. "you have never heard of us? you, whom the food has made akin to us!" there was terror still in the eyes that stared at him. her hand rose towards her throat and fell again. she whispered, "_no_." it seemed to her that she must weep or faint. then in a moment she had rule over herself and she was speaking and thinking clearly. "all this has been kept from me," she said. "it is like a dream. i have dreamt--have dreamt such things. but waking--no. tell me! tell me! what are you? what is this food of the gods? tell me slowly--and clearly. why have they kept it from me, that i am not alone?" ii. "tell me," she said, and young redwood, tremulous and excited, set himself to tell her--it was poor and broken telling for a time--of the food of the gods and the giant children who were scattered over the world. you must figure them both, flushed and startled in their bearing; getting at one another's meaning through endless half-heard, half-spoken phrases, repeating, making perplexing breaks and new departures--a wonderful talk, in which she awakened from the ignorance of all her life. and very slowly it became clear to her that she was no exception to the order of mankind, but one of a scattered brotherhood, who had all eaten the food and grown for ever out of the little limits of the folk beneath their feet. young redwood spoke of his father, of cossar, of the brothers scattered throughout the country, of the great dawn of wider meaning that had come at last into the history of the world. "we are in the beginning of a beginning," he said; "this world of theirs is only the prelude to the world the food will make. "my father believes--and i also believe--that a time will come when littleness will have passed altogether out of the world of man,--when giants shall go freely about this earth--their earth--doing continually greater and more splendid things. but that--that is to come. we are not even the first generation of that--we are the first experiments." "and of these things," she said, "i knew nothing!" "there are times when it seems to me almost as if we had come too soon. some one, i suppose, had to come first. but the world was all unprepared for our coming and for the coming of all the lesser great things that drew their greatness from the food. there have been blunders; there have been conflicts. the little people hate our kind.... "they are hard towards us because they are so little.... and because our feet are heavy on the things that make their lives. but at any rate they hate us now; they will have none of us--only if we could shrink back to the common size of them would they begin to forgive.... "they are happy in houses that are prison cells to us; their cities are too small for us; we go in misery along their narrow ways; we cannot worship in their churches.... "we see over their walls and over their protections; we look inadvertently into their upper windows; we look over their customs; their laws are no more than a net about our feet.... "every time we stumble we hear them shouting; every time we blunder against their limits or stretch out to any spacious act.... "our easy paces are wild flights to them, and all they deem great and wonderful no more than dolls' pyramids to us. their pettiness of method and appliance and imagination hampers and defeats our powers. there are no machines to the power of our hands, no helps to fit our needs. they hold our greatness in servitude by a thousand invisible bands. we are stronger, man for man, a hundred times, but we are disarmed; our very greatness makes us debtors; they claim the land we stand upon; they tax our ampler need of food and shelter, and for all these things we must toil with the tools these dwarfs can make us--and to satisfy their dwarfish fancies ... "they pen us in, in every way. even to live one must cross their boundaries. even to meet you here to-day i have passed a limit. all that is reasonable and desirable in life they make out of bounds for us. we may not go into the towns; we may not cross the bridges; we may not step on their ploughed fields or into the harbours of the game they kill. i am cut off now from all our brethren except the three sons of cossar, and even that way the passage narrows day by day. one could think they sought occasion against us to do some more evil thing ..." "but we are strong," she said. "we should be strong--yes. we feel, all of us--you too i know must feel--that we have power, power to do great things, power insurgent in us. but before we can do anything--" he flung out a hand that seemed to sweep away a world. "though i thought i was alone in the world," she said, after a pause, "i have thought of these things. they have taught me always that strength was almost a sin, that it was better to be little than great, that all true religion was to shelter the weak and little, encourage the weak and little, help them to multiply and multiply until at last they crawled over one another, to sacrifice all our strength in their cause. but ... always i have doubted the thing they taught." "this life," he said, "these bodies of ours, are not for dying." "no." "nor to live in futility. but if we would not do that, it is already plain to all our brethren a conflict must come. i know not what bitterness of conflict must presently come, before the little folks will suffer us to live as we need to live. all the brethren have thought of that. cossar, of whom i told you: he too has thought of that." "they are very little and weak." "in their way. but you know all the means of death are in their hands, and made for their hands. for hundreds of thousands of years these little people, whose world we invade, have been learning how to kill one another. they are very able at that. they are able in many ways. and besides, they can deceive and change suddenly.... i do not know.... there comes a conflict. you--you perhaps are different from us. for us, assuredly, the conflict comes.... the thing they call war. we know it. in a way we prepare for it. but you know--those little people!--we do not know how to kill, at least we do not want to kill--" "look," she interrupted, and he heard a yelping horn. he turned at the direction of her eyes, and found a bright yellow motor car, with dark goggled driver and fur-clad passengers, whooping, throbbing, and buzzing resentfully at his heel. he moved his foot, and the mechanism, with three angry snorts, resumed its fussy way towards the town. "filling up the roadway!" floated up to him. then some one said, "look! did you see? there is the monster princess over beyond the trees!" and all their goggled faces came round to stare. "i say," said another. "_that_ won't do ..." "all this," she said, "is more amazing than i can tell." "that they should not have told you," he said, and left his sentence incomplete. "until you came upon me, i had lived in a world where i was great--alone. i had made myself a life--for that. i had thought i was the victim of some strange freak of nature. and now my world has crumbled down, in half an hour, and i see another world, other conditions, wider possibilities--fellowship--" "fellowship," he answered. "i want you to tell me more yet, and much more," she said. "you know this passes through my mind like a tale that is told. you even ... in a day perhaps, or after several days, i shall believe in you. now--now i am dreaming.... listen!" the first stroke of a clock above the palace offices far away had penetrated to them. each counted mechanically "seven." "this," she said, "should be the hour of my return. they will be taking the bowl of my coffee into the hall where i sleep. the little officials and servants--you cannot dream how grave they are--will be stirring about their little duties." "they will wonder ... but i want to talk to you." she thought. "but i want to think too. i want now to think alone, and think out this change in things, think away the old solitude, and think you and those others into my world.... i shall go. i shall go back to-day to my place in the castle, and to-morrow, as the dawn comes, i shall come again--here." "i shall be here waiting for you." "all day i shall dream and dream of this new world you have given me. even now, i can scarcely believe--" she took a step back and surveyed him from the feet to the face. their eyes met and locked for a moment. "yes," she said, with a little laugh that was half a sob. "you are real. but it is very wonderful! do you think--indeed--? suppose to-morrow i come and find you--a pigmy like the others... yes, i must think. and so for to-day--as the little people do--" she held out her hand, and for the first time they touched one another. their hands clasped firmly and their eyes met again. "good-bye," she said, "for to-day. good-bye! good-bye, brother giant!" he hesitated with some unspoken thing, and at last he answered her simply, "good-bye." for a space they held each other's hands, studying each the other's face. and many times after they had parted, she looked back half doubtfully at him, standing still in the place where they had met.... she walked into her apartments across the great yard of the palace like one who walks in a dream, with a vast branch of chestnut trailing from her hand. iii. these two met altogether fourteen times before the beginning of the end. they met in the great park or on the heights and among the gorges of the rusty-roaded, heathery moorland, set with dusky pine-woods, that stretched to the south-west. twice they met in the great avenue of chestnuts, and five times near the broad ornamental water the king, her great-grandfather, had made. there was a place where a great trim lawn, set with tall conifers, sloped graciously to the water's edge, and there she would sit, and he would lie at her knees and look up in her face and talk, telling of all the things that had been, and of the work his father had set before him, and of the great and spacious dream of what the giant people should one day be. commonly they met in the early dawn, but once they met there in the afternoon, and found presently a multitude of peering eavesdroppers about them, cyclists, pedestrians, peeping from the bushes, rustling (as sparrows will rustle about one in the london parks) amidst the dead leaves in the woods behind, gliding down the lake in boats towards a point of view, trying to get nearer to them and hear. it was the first hint that offered of the enormous interest the countryside was taking in their meetings. and once--it was the seventh time, and it precipitated the scandal--they met out upon the breezy moorland under a clear moonlight, and talked in whispers there, for the night was warm and still. very soon they had passed from the realisation that in them and through them a new world of giantry shaped itself in the earth, from the contemplation of the great struggle between big and little, in which they were clearly destined to participate, to interests at once more personal and more spacious. each time they met and talked and looked on one another, it crept a little more out of their subconscious being towards recognition, that something more dear and wonderful than friendship was between them, and walked between them and drew their hands together. and in a little while they came to the word itself and found themselves lovers, the adam and eve of a new race in the world. they set foot side by side into the wonderful valley of love, with its deep and quiet places. the world changed about them with their changing mood, until presently it had become, as it were, a tabernacular beauty about their meetings, and the stars were no more than flowers of light beneath the feet of their love, and the dawn and sunset the coloured hangings by the way. they ceased to be beings of flesh and blood to one another and themselves; they passed into a bodily texture of tenderness and desire. they gave it first whispers and then silence, and drew close and looked into one another's moonlit and shadowy faces under the infinite arch of the sky. and the still black pine-trees stood about them like sentinels. the beating steps of time were hushed into silence, and it seemed to them the universe hung still. only their hearts were audible, beating. they seemed to be living together in a world where there is no death, and indeed so it was with them then. it seemed to them that they sounded, and indeed they sounded, such hidden splendours in the very heart of things as none have ever reached before. even for mean and little souls, love is the revelation of splendours. and these were giant lovers who had eaten the food of the gods ... * * * * * you may imagine the spreading consternation in this ordered world when it became known that the princess who was affianced to the prince, the princess, her serene highness! with royal blood in her veins! met,--frequently met,--the hypertrophied offspring of a common professor of chemistry, a creature of no rank, no position, no wealth, and talked to him as though there were no kings and princes, no order, no reverence--nothing but giants and pigmies in the world, talked to him and, it was only too certain, held him as her lover. "if those newspaper fellows get hold of it!" gasped sir arthur poodle bootlick ... "i am told--" whispered the old bishop of frumps. "new story upstairs," said the first footman, as he nibbled among the dessert things. "so far as i can make out this here giant princess--" "they say--" said the lady who kept the stationer's shop by the main entrance to the palace, where the little americans get their tickets for the state apartments ... and then: "we are authorised to deny--" said "picaroon" in _gossip_. and so the whole trouble came out. iv. "they say that we must part," the princess said to her lover. "but why?" he cried. "what new folly have these people got into their heads?" "do you know," she asked, "that to love me--is high treason?" "my dear," he cried; "but does it matter? what is their right--right without a shadow of reason--and their treason and their loyalty to us?" "you shall hear," she said, and told him of the things that had been told to her. "it was the queerest little man who came to me with a soft, beautifully modulated voice, a softly moving little gentleman who sidled into the room like a cat and put his pretty white hand up so, whenever he had anything significant to say. he is bald, but not of course nakedly bald, and his nose and face are chubby rosy little things, and his beard is trimmed to a point in quite the loveliest way. he pretended to have emotions several times and made his eyes shine. you know he is quite a friend of the real royal family here, and he called me his dear young lady and was perfectly sympathetic even from the beginning. 'my dear young lady,' he said, 'you know--_you mustn't,'_ several times, and then, 'you owe a duty.'" "where do they make such men?" "he likes it," she said. "but i don't see--" "he told me serious things." "you don't think," he said, turning on her abruptly, "that there's anything in the sort of thing he said?" "there's something in it quite certainly," said she. "you mean--?" "i mean that without knowing it we have been trampling on the most sacred conceptions of the little folks. we who are royal are a class apart. we are worshipped prisoners, processional toys. we pay for worship by losing--our elementary freedom. and i was to have married that prince--you know nothing of him though. well, a pigmy prince. he doesn't matter.... it seems it would have strengthened the bonds between my country and another. and this country also was to profit. imagine it!--strengthening the bonds!" "and now?" "they want me to go on with it--as though there was nothing between us two." "nothing!" "yes. but that isn't all. he said--" "your specialist in tact?" "yes. he said it would be better for you, better for all the giants, if we two--abstained from conversation. that was how he put it." "but what can they do if we don't?" "he said you might have your freedom." "_i!_" "he said, with a stress, 'my dear young lady, it would be better, it would be more dignified, if you parted, willingly.' that was all he said. with a stress on willingly." "but--! what business is it of these little wretches, where we love, how we love? what have they and their world to do with us?" "they do not think that." "of course," he said, "you disregard all this." "it seems utterly foolish to me." "that their laws should fetter us! that we, at the first spring of life, should be tripped by their old engagements, their aimless institutions! oh--! we disregard it." "i am yours. so far--yes." "so far? isn't that all?" "but they--if they want to part us--" "what can they do?" "i don't know. what _can_ they do?" "who cares what they can do, or what they will do? i am yours and you are mine. what is there more than that? i am yours and you are mine--for ever. do you think i will stop for their little rules, for their little prohibitions, their scarlet boards indeed!--and keep from _you_?" "yes. but still, what can they do?" "you mean," he said, "what are we to do?" "yes." "we? we can go on." "but if they seek to prevent us?" he clenched his hands. he looked round as if the little people were already coming to prevent them. then turned away from her and looked about the world. "yes," he said. "your question was the right one. what can they do?" "here in this little land," she said, and stopped. he seemed to survey it all. "they are everywhere." "but we might--" "whither?" "we could go. we could swim the seas together. beyond the seas--" "i have never been beyond the seas." "there are great and desolate mountains amidst which we should seem no more than little people, there are remote and deserted valleys, there are hidden lakes and snow-girdled uplands untrodden by the feet of men. _there_--" "but to get there we must fight our way day after day through millions and millions of mankind." "it is our only hope. in this crowded land there is no fastness, no shelter. what place is there for us among these multitudes? they who are little can hide from one another, but where are we to hide? there is no place where we could eat, no place where we could sleep. if we fled--night and day they would pursue our footsteps." a thought came to him. "there is one place," he said, "even in this island." "where?" "the place our brothers have made over beyond there. they have made great banks about their house, north and south and east and west; they have made deep pits and hidden places, and even now--one came over to me quite recently. he said--i did not altogether heed what he said then. but he spoke of arms. it may be--there--we should find shelter.... "for many days," he said, after a pause, "i have not seen our brothers... dear! i have been dreaming, i have been forgetting! the days have passed, and i have done nothing but look to see you again ... i must go to them and talk to them, and tell them of you and of all the things that hang over us. if they will help us, they can help us. then indeed we might hope. i do not know how strong their place is, but certainly cossar will have made it strong. before all this--before you came to me, i remember now--there was trouble brewing. there was an election--when all the little people settle things, by counting heads. it must be over now. there were threats against all our race--against all our race, that is, but you. i must see our brothers. i must tell them all that has happened between us, and all that threatens now." v. he did not come to their next meeting until she had waited some time. they were to meet that day about midday in a great space of park that fitted into a bend of the river, and as she waited, looking ever southward under her hand, it came to her that the world was very still, that indeed it was broodingly still. and then she perceived that, spite of the lateness of the hour, her customary retinue of voluntary spies had failed her. left and right, when she came to look, there was no one in sight, and there was never a boat upon the silver curve of the thames. she tried to find a reason for this strange stillness in the world.... then, a grateful sight for her, she saw young redwood far away over a gap in the tree masses that bounded her view. immediately the trees hid him, and presently he was thrusting through them and in sight again. she could see there was something different, and then she saw that he was hurrying unusually and then that he limped. he gestured to her, and she walked towards him. his face became clearer, and she saw with infinite concern that he winced at every stride. she ran towards him, her mind full of questions and vague fear. he drew near to her and spoke without a greeting. "are we to part?" he panted. "no," she answered. "why? what is the matter?" "but if we do not part--! it is _now_." "what is the matter?" "i do not want to part," he said. "only--" he broke off abruptly to ask, "you will not part from me?" she met his eyes with a steadfast look. "what has happened?" she pressed. "not for a time?" "what time?" "years perhaps." "part! no!" "you have thought?" he insisted. "i will not part." she took his hand. "if this meant death, _now_, i would not let you go." "if it meant death," he said, and she felt his grip upon her fingers. he looked about him as if he feared to see the little people coming as he spoke. and then: "it may mean death." "now tell me," she said. "they tried to stop my coming." "how?" "and as i came out of my workshop where i make the food of the gods for the cossars to store in their camp, i found a little officer of police--a man in blue with white clean gloves--who beckoned me to stop. 'this way is closed!' said he. i thought little of that; i went round my workshop to where another road runs west, and there was another officer. 'this road is closed!' he said, and added: 'all the roads are closed!'" "and then?" "i argued with him a little. 'they are public roads!' i said. "'that's it,' said he. 'you spoil them for the public.' "'very well,' said i, 'i'll take the fields,' and then, up leapt others from behind a hedge and said, 'these fields are private.' "'curse your public and private,' i said, 'i'm going to my princess,' and i stooped down and picked him up very gently--kicking and shouting--and put him out of my way. in a minute all the fields about me seemed alive with running men. i saw one on horseback galloping beside me and reading something as he rode--shouting it. he finished and turned and galloped away from me--head down. i couldn't make it out. and then behind me i heard the crack of guns." "guns!" "guns--just as they shoot at the rats. the bullets came through the air with a sound like things tearing: one stung me in the leg." "and you?" "came on to you here and left them shouting and running and shooting behind me. and now--" "now?" "it is only the beginning. they mean that we shall part. even now they are coming after me." "we will not." "no. but if we will not part--then you must come with me to our brothers." "which way?" she said. "to the east. yonder is the way my pursuers will be coming. this then is the way we must go. along this avenue of trees. let me go first, so that if they are waiting--" he made a stride, but she had seized his arm. "no," cried she. "i come close to you, holding you. perhaps i am royal, perhaps i am sacred. if i hold you--would god we could fly with my arms about you!--it may be, they will not shoot at you--" she clasped his shoulder and seized his hand as she spoke; she pressed herself nearer to him. "it may be they will not shoot you," she repeated, and with a sudden passion of tenderness he took her into his arms and kissed her cheek. for a space he held her. "even if it is death," she whispered. she put her hands about his neck and lifted her face to his. "dearest, kiss me once more." he drew her to him. silently they kissed one another on the lips, and for another moment clung to one another. then hand in hand, and she striving always to keep her body near to his, they set forward if haply they might reach the camp of refuge the sons of cossar had made, before the pursuit of the little people overtook them. and as they crossed the great spaces of the park behind the castle there came horsemen galloping out from among the trees and vainly seeking to keep pace with their giant strides. and presently ahead of them were houses, and men with guns running out of the houses. at the sight of that, though he sought to go on and was even disposed to fight and push through, she made him turn aside towards the south. as they fled a bullet whipped by them overhead. chapter the third. young caddles in london. i. all unaware of the trend of events, unaware of the laws that were closing in upon all the brethren, unaware indeed that there lived a brother for him on the earth, young caddles chose this time to come out of his chalk pit and see the world. his brooding came at last to that. there was no answer to all his questions in cheasing eyebright; the new vicar was less luminous even than the old, and the riddle of his pointless labour grew at last to the dimensions of exasperation. "why should i work in this pit day after day?" he asked. "why should i walk within bounds and be refused all the wonders of the world beyond there? what have i done, to be condemned to this?" and one day he stood up, straightened his back, and said in a loud voice, "no! "i won't," he said, and then with great vigour cursed the pit. then, having few words, he sought to express his thought in acts. he took a truck half filled with chalk, lifted it, and flung it, smash, against another. then he grasped a whole row of empty trucks and spun them down a bank. he sent a huge boulder of chalk bursting among them, and then ripped up a dozen yards of rail with a mighty plunge of his foot. so he commenced the conscientious wrecking of the pit. "work all my days," he said, "at this!" it was an astonishing five minutes for the little geologist he had, in his preoccupation, overlooked. this poor little creature having dodged two boulders by a hairbreadth, got out by the westward corner and fled athwart the hill, with flapping rucksack and twinkling knicker-bockered legs, leaving a trail of cretaceous echinoderms behind him; while young caddles, satisfied with the destruction he had achieved, came striding out to fulfil his purpose in the world. "work in that old pit, until i die and rot and stink!... what worm did they think was living in my giant body? dig chalk for god knows what foolish purpose! not _i!_" the trend of road and railway perhaps, or mere chance it was, turned his face to london, and thither he came striding; over the downs and athwart the meadows through the hot afternoon, to the infinite amazement of the world. it signified nothing to him that torn posters in red and white bearing various names flapped from every wall and barn; he knew nothing of the electoral revolution that had flung caterham, "jack the giant-killer," into power. it signified nothing to him that every police station along his route had what was known as caterham's ukase upon its notice board that afternoon, proclaiming that no giant, no person whatever over eight feet in height, should go more than five miles from his "place of location" without a special permission. it signified nothing to him that on his wake belated police officers, not a little relieved to find themselves belated, shook warning handbills at his retreating back. he was going to see what the world had to show him, poor incredulous blockhead, and he did not mean that occasional spirited persons shouting "hi!" at him should stay his course. he came on down by rochester and greenwich towards an ever-thickening aggregation of houses, walking rather slowly now, staring about him and swinging his huge chopper. people in london had heard something of him before, how that he was idiotic but gentle, and wonderfully managed by lady wondershoot's agent and the vicar; how in his dull way he revered these authorities and was grateful to them for their care of him, and so forth. so that when they learnt from the newspaper placards that afternoon that he also was "on strike," the thing appeared to many of them as a deliberate, concerted act. "they mean to try our strength," said the men in the trains going home from business. "lucky we have caterham." "it's in answer to his proclamation." the men in the clubs were better informed. they clustered round the tape or talked in groups in their smoking-rooms. "he has no weapons. he would have gone to sevenoaks if he had been put up to it." "caterham will handle him...." the shopmen told their customers. the waiters in restaurants snatched a moment for an evening paper between the courses. the cabmen read it immediately after the betting news.... the placards of the chief government evening paper were conspicuous with "grasping the nettle." others relied for effect on: "giant redwood continues to meet the princess." the _echo_ struck a line of its own with: "rumoured revolt of giants in the north of england. the sunderland giants start for scotland." the _westminster gazette_ sounded its usual warning note. "giants beware," said the _westminster gazette_, and tried to make a point out of it that might perhaps serve towards uniting the liberal party--at that time greatly torn between seven intensely egotistical leaders. the later newspapers dropped into uniformity. "the giant in the new kent road," they proclaimed. "what i want to know," said the pale young man in the tea shop, "is why we aren't getting any news of the young cossars. you'd think they'd be in it most of all ..." "they tell me there's another of them young giants got loose," said the barmaid, wiping out a glass. "i've always said they was dangerous things to 'ave about. right away from the beginning ... it ought to be put a stop to. any'ow, i 'ope 'e won't come along 'ere." "i'd like to 'ave a look at 'im," said the young man at the bar recklessly, and added, "i _seen_ the princess." "d'you think they'll 'urt 'im?" said the barmaid. "may 'ave to," said the young man at the bar, finishing his glass. amidst a hum of ten million such sayings young caddles came to london... ii. i think of young caddles always as he was seen in the new kent road, the sunset warm upon his perplexed and staring face. the road was thick with its varied traffic, omnibuses, trams, vans, carts, trolleys, cyclists, motors, and a marvelling crowd--loafers, women, nurse-maids, shopping women, children, venturesome hobble-dehoys--gathered behind his gingerly moving feet. the hoardings were untidy everywhere with the tattered election paper. a babblement of voices surged about him. one sees the customers and shopmen crowding in the doorways of the shops, the faces that came and went at the windows, the little street boys running and shouting, the policemen taking it all quite stiffly and calmly, the workmen knocking off upon scaffoldings, the seething miscellany of the little folks. they shouted to him, vague encouragement, vague insults, the imbecile catchwords of the day, and he stared down at them, at such a multitude of living creatures as he had never before imagined in the world. now that he had fairly entered london he had had to slacken his pace more and more, the little folks crowded so mightily upon him. the crowd grew denser at every step, and at last, at a corner where two great ways converged, he came to a stop, and the multitude flowed about him and closed him in. there he stood, with his feet a little apart, his back to a big corner gin palace that towered twice his height and ended in a sky sign, staring down at the pigmies and wondering--trying, i doubt not, to collate it all with the other things of his life, with the valley among the downlands, the nocturnal lovers, the singing in the church, the chalk he hammered daily, and with instinct and death and the sky, trying to see it all together coherent and significant. his brows were knit. he put up his huge paw to scratch his coarse hair, and groaned aloud. "i don't see it," he said. his accent was unfamiliar. a great babblement went across the open space--a babblement amidst which the gongs of the trams, ploughing their obstinate way through the mass, rose like red poppies amidst corn. "what did he say?" "said he didn't see." "said, where is the sea?" "said, where is a seat?" "he wants a seat." "can't the brasted fool sit on a 'ouse or somethin'?" "what are ye for, ye swarming little people? what are ye all doing, what are ye all for? "what are ye doing up here, ye swarming little people, while i'm a-cuttin' chalk for ye, down in the chalk pits there?" his queer voice, the voice that had been so bad for school discipline at cheasing eyebright, smote the multitude to silence while it sounded and splashed them all to tumult at the end. some wit was audible screaming "speech, speech!" "what's he saying?" was the burthen of the public mind, and an opinion was abroad that he was drunk. "hi, hi, hi," bawled the omnibus-drivers, threading a dangerous way. a drunken american sailor wandered about tearfully inquiring, "what's he want anyhow?" a leathery-faced rag-dealer upon a little pony-drawn cart soared up over the tumult by virtue of his voice. "garn 'ome, you brasted giant!" he brawled, "garn 'ome! you brasted great dangerous thing! can't you see you're a-frightening the 'orses? go _'ome_ with you! 'asn't any one 'ad the sense to tell you the law?" and over all this uproar young caddles stared, perplexed, expectant, saying no more. down a side road came a little string of solemn policemen, and threaded itself ingeniously into the traffic. "stand back," said the little voices; "keep moving, please." young caddles became aware of a little dark blue figure thumping at his shin. he looked down, and perceived two white hands gesticulating. "_what_?" he said, bending forward. "can't stand about here," shouted the inspector. "no! you can't stand about here," he repeated. "but where am i to go?" "back to your village. place of location. anyhow, now--you've got to move on. you're obstructing the traffic." "what traffic?" "along the road." "but where is it going? where does it come from? what does it mean? they're all round me. what do they want? what are they doin'? i want to understand. i'm tired of cuttin' chalk and bein' all alone. what are they doin' for me while i'm a-cuttin' chalk? i may just as well understand here and now as anywhere." "sorry. but we aren't here to explain things of that sort. i must arst you to move on." "don't you know?" "i must arst you to move on--_if_ you please ... i'd strongly advise you to get off 'ome. we've 'ad no special instructions yet--but it's against the law ... clear away there. clear away." the pavement to his left became invitingly bare, and young caddles went slowly on his way. but now his tongue was loosened. "i don't understand," he muttered. "i don't understand." he would appeal brokenly to the changing crowd that ever trailed beside him and behind. "i didn't know there were such places as this. what are all you people doing with yourselves? what's it all for? what is it all for, and where do i come in?" he had already begotten a new catchword. young men of wit and spirit addressed each other in this manner, "ullo 'arry o'cock. wot's it all _for_? eh? wot's it all bloomin' well _for_?" to which there sprang up a competing variety of repartees, for the most part impolite. the most popular and best adapted for general use appears to have been "_shut_ it," or, in a voice of scornful detachment--"_garn!_" there were others almost equally popular. iii. what was he seeking? he wanted something the pigmy world did not give, some end which the pigmy world prevented his attaining, prevented even his seeing clearly, which he was never to see clearly. it was the whole gigantic social side of this lonely dumb monster crying out for his race, for the things akin to him, for something he might love and something he might serve, for a purpose he might comprehend and a command he could obey. and, you know, all this was _dumb_, raged dumbly within him, could not even, had he met a fellow giant, have found outlet and expression in speech. all the life he knew was the dull round of the village, all the speech he knew was the talk of the cottage, that failed and collapsed at the bare outline of his least gigantic need. he knew nothing of money, this monstrous simpleton, nothing of trade, nothing of the complex pretences upon which the social fabric of the little folks was built. he needed, he needed--whatever he needed, he never found his need. all through the day and the summer night he wandered, growing hungry but as yet untired, marking the varied traffic of the different streets, the inexplicable businesses of all these infinitesimal beings. in the aggregate it had no other colour than confusion for him.... he is said to have plucked a lady from her carriage in kensington, a lady in evening dress of the smartest sort, to have scrutinised her closely, train and shoulder blades, and to have replaced her--a little carelessly--with the profoundest sigh. for that i cannot vouch. for an hour or so he watched people fighting for places in the omnibuses at the end of piccadilly. he was seen looming over kennington oval for some moments in the afternoon, but when he saw these dense thousands were engaged with the mystery of cricket and quite regardless of him he went his way with a groan. he came back to piccadilly circus between eleven and twelve at night and found a new sort of multitude. clearly they were very intent: full of things they, for inconceivable reasons, might do, and of others they might not do. they stared at him and jeered at him and went their way. the cabmen, vulture-eyed, followed one another continually along the edge of the swarming pavement. people emerged from the restaurants or entered them, grave, intent, dignified, or gently and agreeably excited or keen and vigilant--beyond the cheating of the sharpest waiter born. the great giant, standing at his corner, peered at them all. "what is it all for?" he murmured in a mournful vast undertone, "what is it all for? they are all so earnest. what is it i do not understand?" and none of them seemed to see, as he could do, the drink-sodden wretchedness of the painted women at the corner, the ragged misery that sneaked along the gutters, the infinite futility of all this employment. the infinite futility! none of them seemed to feel the shadow of that giant's need, that shadow of the future, that lay athwart their paths... across the road high up mysterious letters flamed and went, that might, could he have read them, have measured for him the dimensions of human interest, have told him of the fundamental needs and features of life as the little folks conceived it. first would come a flaming t; then u would follow, tu; then p, tup; until at last there stood complete, across the sky, this cheerful message to all who felt the burthen of life's earnestness: tupper's tonic wine for vigour. snap! and it had vanished into night, to be followed in the same slow development by a second universal solicitude: beauty soap. not, you remark, mere cleansing chemicals, but something, as they say, "ideal;" and then, completing the tripod of the little life: tanker's yellow pills. after that there was nothing for it but tupper again, in naming crimson letters, snap, snap, across the void. t u p p.... early in the small hours it would seem that young caddles came to the shadowy quiet of regent's park, stepped over the railings and lay down on a grassy slope near where the people skate in winter time, and there he slept an hour or so. and about six o'clock in the morning, he was talking to a draggled woman he had found sleeping in a ditch near hampstead heath, asking her very earnestly what she thought she was for.... iv. the wandering of caddles about london came to a head on the second day in the morning. for then his hunger overcame him. he hesitated where the hot-smelling loaves were being tossed into a cart, and then very quietly knelt down and commenced robbery. he emptied the cart while the baker's man fled for the police, and then his great hand came into the shop and cleared counter and cases. then with an armful, still eating, he went his way looking for another shop to go on with his meal. it happened to be one of those seasons when work is scarce and food dear, and the crowd in that quarter was sympathetic even with a giant who took the food they all desired. they applauded the second phase of his meal, and laughed at his stupid grimace at the policeman. "i woff hungry," he said, with his mouth full. "brayvo!" cried the crowd. "brayvo!" then when he was beginning his third baker's shop, he was stopped by half a dozen policemen hammering with truncheons at his shins. "look here, my fine giant, you come along o' me," said the officer in charge. "you ain't allowed away from home like this. you come off home with me." they did their best to arrest him. there was a trolley, i am told, chasing up and down streets at that time, bearing rolls of chain and ship's cable to play the part of handcuffs in that great arrest. there was no intention then of killing him. "he is no party to the plot," caterham had said. "i will not have innocent blood upon my hands." and added: "--until everything else has been tried." at first caddles did not understand the import of these attentions. when he did, he told the policemen not to be fools, and set off in great strides that left them all behind. the bakers' shops had been in the harrow road, and he went through canal london to st. john's wood, and sat down in a private garden there to pick his teeth and be speedily assailed by another posse of constables. "you lea' me alone," he growled, and slouched through the gardens--spoiling several lawns and kicking down a fence or so, while the energetic little policemen followed him up, some through the gardens, some along the road in front of the houses. here there were one or two with guns, but they made no use of them. when he came out into the edgware road there was a new note and a new movement in the crowd, and a mounted policeman rode over his foot and got upset for his pains. "you lea' me alone," said caddles, facing the breathless crowd. "i ain't done anything to you." at that time he was unarmed, for he had left his chalk chopper in regent's park. but now, poor wretch, he seems to have felt the need of some weapon. he turned back towards the goods yard of the great western railway, wrenched up the standard of a tall arc light, a formidable mace for him, and flung it over his shoulder. and finding the police still turning up to pester him, he went back along the edgware road, towards cricklewood, and struck off sullenly to the north. he wandered as far as waltham, and then turned back westward and then again towards london, and came by the cemeteries and over the crest of highgate about midday into view of the greatness of the city again. he turned aside and sat down in a garden, with his back to a house that overlooked all london. he was breathless, and his face was lowering, and now the people no longer crowded upon him as they had done when first he came to london, but lurked in the adjacent garden, and peeped from cautious securities. they knew by now the thing was grimmer than they had thought. "why can't they lea' me alone?" growled young caddles. "i _mus'_ eat. why can't they lea' me alone?" he sat with a darkling face, gnawing at his knuckles and looking down over london. all the fatigue, worry, perplexity, and impotent wrath of his wanderings was coming to a head in him. "they mean nothing," he whispered. "they mean nothing. and they _won't_ let me alone, and they _will_ get in my way." and again, over and over to himself, "meanin' nothing. "ugh! the little people!" he bit harder at his knuckles and his scowl deepened. "cuttin' chalk for 'em," he whispered. "and all the world is theirs! _i_ don't come in--nowhere." presently with a spasm of sick anger he saw the now familiar form of a policeman astride the garden wall. "lea' me alone," grunted the giant. "lea' me alone." "i got to do my duty," said the little policeman, with a face that was white and resolute. "you lea' me alone. i got to live as well as you. i got to think. i got to eat. you lea' me alone." "it's the law," said the little policeman, coming no further. "we never made the law." "nor me," said young caddles. "you little people made all that before i was born. you and your law! what i must and what i mustn't! no food for me to eat unless i work a slave, no rest, no shelter, nothin', and you tell me--" "i ain't got no business with that," said the policeman. "i'm not one to argue. all i got to do is to carry out the law." and he brought his second leg over the wall and seemed disposed to get down. other policemen appeared behind him. "i got no quarrel with _you_--mind," said young caddles, with his grip tight upon his huge mace of iron, his face pale, and a lank explanatory great finger to the policeman. "i got no quarrel with you. but--_you lea' me alone."_ the policeman tried to be calm and commonplace, with a monstrous tragedy clear before his eyes. "give me the proclamation," he said to some unseen follower, and a little white paper was handed to him. "lea' me alone," said caddles, scowling, tense, and drawn together. "this means," said the policeman before he read, "go 'ome. go 'ome to your chalk pit. if not, you'll be hurt." caddles gave an inarticulate growl. then when the proclamation had been read, the officer made a sign. four men with rifles came into view and took up positions of affected ease along the wall. they wore the uniform of the rat police. at the sight of the guns, young caddles blazed into anger. he remembered the sting of the wreckstone farmers' shot guns. "you going to shoot off those at me?" he said, pointing, and it seemed to the officer he must be afraid. "if you don't march back to your pit--" then in an instant the officer had slung himself back over the wall, and sixty feet above him the great electric standard whirled down to his death. bang, bang, bang, went the heavy guns, and smash! the shattered wall, the soil and subsoil of the garden flew. something flew with it, that left red drops on one of the shooter's hands. the riflemen dodged this way and that and turned valiantly to fire again. but young caddles, already shot twice through the body, had spun about to find who it was had hit him so heavily in the back. bang! bang! he had a vision of houses and greenhouses and gardens, of people dodging at windows, the whole swaying fearfully and mysteriously. he seems to have made three stumbling strides, to have raised and dropped his huge mace, and to have clutched his chest. he was stung and wrenched by pain. what was this, warm and wet, on his hand? one man peering from a bedroom window saw his face, saw him staring, with a grimace of weeping dismay, at the blood upon his hand, and then his knees bent under him, and he came crashing to the earth, the first of the giant nettles to fall to caterham's resolute clutch, the very last that he had reckoned would come into his hand. chapter the fourth. redwood's two days. i. so soon as caterham knew the moment for grasping his nettle had come, he took the law into his own hands and sent to arrest cossar and redwood. redwood was there for the taking. he had been undergoing an operation in the side, and the doctors had kept all disturbing things from him until his convalescence was assured. now they had released him. he was just out of bed, sitting in a fire-warmed room, with a heap of newspapers about him, reading for the first time of the agitation that had swept the country into the hands of caterham, and of the trouble that was darkening over the princess and his son. it was in the morning of the day when young caddles died, and when the policeman tried to stop young redwood on his way to the princess. the latest newspapers redwood had did but vaguely prefigure these imminent things. he was re-reading these first adumbrations of disaster with a sinking heart, reading the shadow of death more and more perceptibly into them, reading to occupy his mind until further news should come. when the officers followed the servant into his room, he looked up eagerly. "i thought it was an early evening paper," he said. then standing up, and with a swift change of manner: "what's this?" after that redwood had no news of anything for two days. they had come with a vehicle to take him away, but when it became evident that he was ill, it was decided to leave him for a day or so until he could be safely removed, and his house was taken over by the police and converted into a temporary prison. it was the same house in which giant redwood had been born and in which herakleophorbia had for the first time been given to a human being, and redwood had now been a widower and had lived alone in it eight years. he had become an iron-grey man, with a little pointed grey beard and still active brown eyes. he was slender and soft-voiced, as he had ever been, but his features had now that indefinable quality that comes of brooding over mighty things. to the arresting officer his appearance was in impressive contrast to the enormity of his offences. "here's this feller," said the officer in command, to his next subordinate, "has done his level best to bust up everything, and 'e's got a face like a quiet country gentleman; and here's judge hangbrow keepin' everything nice and in order for every one, and 'e's got a 'ead like a 'og. then their manners! one all consideration and the other snort and grunt. which just shows you, doesn't it, that appearances aren't to be gone upon, whatever else you do." but his praise of redwood's consideration was presently dashed. the officers found him troublesome at first until they had made it clear that it was useless for him to ask questions or beg for papers. they made a sort of inspection of his study indeed, and cleared away even the papers he had. redwood's voice was high and expostulatory. "but don't you see," he said over and over again, "it's my son, my only son, that is in this trouble. it isn't the food i care for, but my son." "i wish indeed i could tell you, sir," said the officer. "but our orders are strict." "who gave the orders?" cried redwood. "ah! _that_, sir---" said the officer, and moved towards the door.... "'e's going up and down 'is room," said the second officer, when his superior came down. "that's all right. he'll walk it off a bit." "i hope 'e will," said the chief officer. "the fact is i didn't see it in that light before, but this here giant what's been going on with the princess, you know, is this man's son." the two regarded one another and the third policeman for a space. "then it is a bit rough on him," the third policeman said. it became evident that redwood had still imperfectly apprehended the fact that an iron curtain had dropped between him and the outer world. they heard him go to the door, try the handle and rattle the lock, and then the voice of the officer who was stationed on the landing telling him it was no good to do that. then afterwards they heard him at the windows and saw the men outside looking up. "it's no good that way," said the second officer. then redwood began upon the bell. the senior officer went up and explained very patiently that it could do no good to ring the bell like that, and if it was rung for nothing now it might have to be disregarded presently when he had need of something. "any reasonable attendance, sir," the officer said. "but if you ring it just by way of protest we shall be obliged, sir, to disconnect." the last word the officer heard was redwood's high-pitched, "but at least you might tell me if my son--" ii. after that redwood spent most of his time at the windows. but the windows offered him little of the march of events outside. it was a quiet street at all times, and that day it was unusually quiet: scarcely a cab, scarcely a tradesman's cart passed all that morning. now and then men went by--without any distinctive air of events--now and then a little group of children, a nursemaid and a woman going shopping, and so forth. they came on to the stage right or left, up or down the street, with an exasperating suggestion of indifference to any concerns more spacious than their own; they would discover the police-guarded house with amazement and exit in the opposite direction, where the great trusses of a giant hydrangea hung across the pavement, staring back or pointing. now and then a man would come and ask one of the policemen a question and get a curt reply ... opposite the houses seemed dead. a housemaid appeared once at a bedroom window and stared for a space, and it occurred to redwood to signal to her. for a time she watched his gestures as if with interest and made a vague response to them, then looked over her shoulder suddenly and turned and went away. an old man hobbled out of number and came down the steps and went off to the right, altogether without looking up. for ten minutes the only occupant of the road was a cat.... with such events that interminable momentous morning lengthened out. about twelve there came a bawling of newsvendors from the adjacent road; but it passed. contrary to their wont they left redwood's street alone, and a suspicion dawned upon him that the police were guarding the end of the street. he tried to open the window, but this brought a policeman into the room forthwith.... the clock of the parish church struck twelve, and after an abyss of time--one. they mocked him with lunch. he ate a mouthful and tumbled the food about a little in order to get it taken away, drank freely of whisky, and then took a chair and went back to the window. the minutes expanded into grey immensities, and for a time perhaps he slept.... he woke with a vague impression of remote concussions. he perceived a rattling of the windows like the quiver of an earthquake, that lasted for a minute or so and died away. then after a silence it returned.... then it died away again. he fancied it might be merely the passage of some heavy vehicle along the main road. what else could it be? after a time he began to doubt whether he had heard this sound. he began to reason interminably with himself. why, after all, was he seized? caterham had been in office two days--just long enough--to grasp his nettle! grasp his nettle! grasp his giant nettle! the refrain once started, sang through his mind, and would not be dismissed. what, after all, could caterham do? he was a religious man. he was bound in a sort of way by that not to do violence without a cause. grasp his nettle! perhaps, for example, the princess was to be seized and sent abroad. there might be trouble with his son. in which case--! but why had he been arrested? why was it necessary to keep him in ignorance of a thing like that? the thing suggested--something more extensive. perhaps, for example--they meant to lay all the giants by the heels! they were all to be arrested together. there had been hints of that in the election speeches. and then? no doubt they had got cossar also? caterham was a religious man. redwood clung to that. the back of his mind was a black curtain, and on that curtain there came and went a word--a word written in letters of fire. he struggled perpetually against that word. it was always as it were beginning to get written on the curtain and never getting completed. he faced it at last. "massacre!" there was the word in its full brutality. no! no! no! it was impossible! caterham was a religious man, a civilised man. and besides after all these years, after all these hopes! redwood sprang up; he paced the room. he spoke to himself; he shouted. "_no!_" mankind was surely not so mad as that--surely not! it was impossible, it was incredible, it could not be. what good would it do to kill the giant human when the gigantic in all the lower things had now inevitably come? they could not be so mad as that! "i must dismiss such an idea," he said aloud; "dismiss such an idea! absolutely!" he pulled up short. what was that? certainly the windows had rattled. he went to look out into the street. opposite he saw the instant confirmation of his ears. at a bedroom at number was a woman, towel in hand, and at the dining-room of number a man was visible behind a great vase of hypertrophied maidenhair fern, both staring out and up, both disquieted and curious. he could see now too, quite clearly, that the policeman on the pavement had heard it also. the thing was not his imagination. he turned to the darkling room. "guns," he said. he brooded. "guns?" they brought him in strong tea, such as he was accustomed to have. it was evident his housekeeper had been taken into consultation. after drinking it, he was too restless to sit any longer at the window, and he paced the room. his mind became more capable of consecutive thought. the room had been his study for four-and-twenty years. it had been furnished at his marriage, and all the essential equipment dated from then, the large complex writing-desk, the rotating chair, the easy chair at the fire, the rotating bookcase, the fixture of indexed pigeon-holes that filled the further recess. the vivid turkey carpet, the later victorian rugs and curtains had mellowed now to a rich dignity of effect, and copper and brass shone warm about the open fire. electric lights had replaced the lamp of former days; that was the chief alteration in the original equipment. but among these things his connection with the food had left abundant traces. along one wall, above the dado, ran a crowded array of black-framed photographs and photogravures, showing his son and cossar's sons and others of the boom-children at various ages and amidst various surroundings. even young caddles' vacant visage had its place in that collection. in the corner stood a sheaf of the tassels of gigantic meadow grass from cheasing eyebright, and on the desk there lay three empty poppy heads as big as hats. the curtain rods were grass stems. and the tremendous skull of the great hog of oakham hung, a portentous ivory overmantel, with a chinese jar in either eye socket, snout down above the fire.... it was to the photographs that redwood went, and in particular to the photographs of his son. they brought back countless memories of things that had passed out of his mind, of the early days of the food, of bensington's timid presence, of his cousin jane, of cossar and the night work at the experimental farm. these things came to him now very little and bright and distinct, like things seen through a telescope on a sunny day. and then there was the giant nursery, the giant childhood, the young giant's first efforts to speak, his first clear signs of affection. guns? it flowed in on him, irresistibly, overwhelmingly, that outside there, outside this accursed silence and mystery, his son and cossar's sons, and all these glorious first-fruits of a greater age were even now--fighting. fighting for life! even now his son might be in some dismal quandary, cornered, wounded, overcome.... he swung away from the pictures and went up and down the room gesticulating. "it cannot be," he cried, "it cannot be. it cannot end like that!" "what was that?" he stopped, stricken rigid. the trembling of the windows had begun again, and then had come a thud--a vast concussion that shook the house. the concussion seemed to last for an age. it must have been very near. for a moment it seemed that something had struck the house above him--an enormous impact that broke into a tinkle of falling glass, and then a stillness that ended at last with a minute clear sound of running feet in the street below. those feet released him from his rigor. he turned towards the window, and saw it starred and broken. his heart beat high with a sense of crisis, of conclusive occurrence, of release. and then again, his realisation of impotent confinement fell about him like a curtain! he could see nothing outside except that the small electric lamp opposite was not lighted; he could hear nothing after the first suggestion of a wide alarm. he could add nothing to interpret or enlarge that mystery except that presently there came a reddish fluctuating brightness in the sky towards the south-east. this light waxed and waned. when it waned he doubted if it had ever waxed. it had crept upon him very gradually with the darkling. it became the predominant fact in his long night of suspense. sometimes it seemed to him it had the quiver one associates with dancing flames, at others he fancied it was no more than the normal reflection of the evening lights. it waxed and waned through the long hours, and only vanished at last when it was submerged altogether under the rising tide of dawn. did it mean--? what could it mean? almost certainly it was some sort of fire, near or remote, but he could not even tell whether it was smoke or cloud drift that streamed across the sky. but about one o'clock there began a flickering of searchlights athwart that ruddy tumult, a flickering that continued for the rest of the night. that too might mean many things? what could it mean? what did it mean? just this stained unrestful sky he had and the suggestion of a huge explosion to occupy his mind. there came no further sounds, no further running, nothing but a shouting that might have been only the distant efforts of drunken men... he did not turn up his lights; he stood at his draughty broken window, a distressful, slight black outline to the officer who looked ever and again into the room and exhorted him to rest. all night redwood remained at his window peering up at the ambiguous drift of the sky, and only with the coming of the dawn did he obey his fatigue and lie down upon the little bed they had prepared for him between his writing-desk and the sinking fire in the fireplace under the great hog's skull. iii. for thirty-six long hours did redwood remain imprisoned, closed in and shut off from the great drama of the two days, while the little people in the dawn of greatness fought against the children of the food. then abruptly the iron curtain rose again, and he found himself near the very centre of the struggle. that curtain rose as unexpectedly as it fell. in the late afternoon he was called to the window by the clatter of a cab, that stopped without. a young man descended, and in another minute stood before him in the room, a slightly built young man of thirty perhaps, clean shaven, well dressed, well mannered. "mr. redwood, sir," he began, "would you be willing to come to mr. caterham? he needs your presence very urgently." "needs my presence!" there leapt a question into redwood's mind, that for a moment he could not put. he hesitated. then in a voice that broke he asked: "what has he done to my son?" and stood breathless for the reply. "your son, sir? your son is doing well. so at least we gather." "doing well?" "he was wounded, sir, yesterday. have you not heard?" redwood smote these pretences aside. his voice was no longer coloured by fear, but by anger. "you know i have not heard. you know i have heard nothing." "mr. caterham feared, sir--it was a time of upheaval. every one--taken by surprise. he arrested you to save you, sir, from any misadventure--" "he arrested me to prevent my giving any warning or advice to my son. go on. tell me what has happened. have you succeeded? have you killed them all?" the young man made a pace or so towards the window, and turned. "no, sir," he said concisely. "what have you to tell me?" "it's our proof, sir, that this fighting was not planned by us. they found us ... totally unprepared." "you mean?" "i mean, sir, the giants have--to a certain extent--held their own." the world changed, for redwood. for a moment something like hysteria had the muscles of his face and throat. then he gave vent to a profound "ah!" his heart bounded towards exultation. "the giants have held their own!" "there has been terrible fighting--terrible destruction. it is all a most hideous misunderstanding ... in the north and midlands giants have been killed ... everywhere." "they are fighting now?" "no, sir. there was a flag of truce." "from them?" "no, sir. mr. caterham sent a flag of truce. the whole thing is a hideous misunderstanding. that is why he wants to talk to you, and put his case before you. they insist, sir, that you should intervene--" redwood interrupted. "do you know what happened to my son?" he asked. "he was wounded." "tell me! tell me!" "he and the princess came--before the--the movement to surround the cossar camp was complete--the cossar pit at chislehurst. they came suddenly, sir, crashing through a dense thicket of giant oats, near river, upon a column of infantry ... soldiers had been very nervous all day, and this produced a panic." "they shot him?" "no, sir. they ran away. some shot at him--wildly--against orders." redwood gave a note of denial. "it's true, sir. not on account of your son, i won't pretend, but on account of the princess." "yes. that's true." "the two giants ran shouting towards the encampment. the soldiers ran this way and that, and then some began firing. they say they saw him stagger--" "ugh!" "yes, sir. but we know he is not badly hurt." "how?" "he sent the message, sir, that he was doing well!" "to me?" "who else, sir?" redwood stood for nearly a minute with his arms tightly folded, taking this in. then his indignation found a voice. "because you were fools in doing the thing, because you miscalculated and blundered, you would like me to think you are not murderers in intention. and besides--the rest?" the young man looked interrogation. "the other giants?" the young man made no further pretence of misunderstanding. his tone fell. "thirteen, sir, are dead." "and others wounded?" "yes, sir." "and caterham," he gasped, "wants to meet me! where are the others?" "some got to the encampment during the fighting, sir ... they seem to have known--" "well, of course they did. if it hadn't been for cossar--cossar is there?" "yes, sir. and all the surviving giants are there--the ones who didn't get to the camp in the fighting have gone, or are going now under the flag of trace." "that means," said redwood, "that you are beaten." "we are not beaten. no, sir. you cannot say we are beaten. but your sons have broken the rules of war. once last night, and now again. after our attack had been withdrawn. this afternoon they began to bombard london--" "that's legitimate!" "they have been firing shells filled with--poison." "poison?" "yes. poison. the food--" "herakleophorbia?" "yes, sir. mr. caterham, sir--" "you are beaten! of course that beats you. it's cossar! what can you hope to do now? what good is it to do anything now? you will breathe it in the dust of every street. what is there to fight for more? rules of war, indeed! and now caterham wants to humbug me to help him bargain. good heavens, man! why should i come to your exploded windbag? he has played his game ... murdered and muddled. why should i?" the young man stood with an air of vigilant respect. "it is a fact, sir," he interrupted, "that the giants insist that they shall see you. they will have no ambassador but you. unless you come to them, i am afraid, sir, there will be more bloodshed." "on _your_ side, perhaps." "no, sir--on both sides. the world is resolved the thing must end." redwood looked about the study. his eyes rested for a moment on the photograph of his boy. he turned and met the expectation of the young man. "yes," he said at last, "i will come." iv. his encounter with caterham was entirely different from his anticipation. he had seen the man only twice in his life, once at dinner and once in the lobby of the house, and his imagination had been active not with the man but with the creation of the newspapers and caricaturists, the legendary caterham, jack the giant-killer, perseus, and all the rest of it. the element of a human personality came in to disorder all that. here was not the face of the caricatures and portraits, but the face of a worn and sleepless man, lined and drawn, yellow in the whites of the eyes, a little weakened about the mouth. here, indeed, were the red-brown eyes, the black hair, the distinctive aquiline profile of the great demagogue, but here was also something else that smote any premeditated scorn and rhetoric aside. this man was suffering; he was suffering acutely; he was under enormous stress. from the beginning he had an air of impersonating himself. presently, with a single gesture, the slightest movement, he revealed to redwood that he was keeping himself up with drugs. he moved a thumb to his waistcoat pocket, and then, after a few sentences more, threw concealment aside, and slipped the little tabloid to his lips. moreover, in spite of the stresses upon him, in spite of the fact that he was in the wrong, and redwood's junior by a dozen years, that strange quality in him, the something--personal magnetism one may call it for want of a better name--that had won his way for him to this eminence of disaster was with him still. on that also redwood had failed to reckon. from the first, so far as the course and conduct of their speech went, caterham prevailed over redwood. all the quality of the first phase of their meeting was determined by him, all the tone and procedure were his. that happened as if it was a matter of course. all redwood's expectations vanished at his presence. he shook hands before redwood remembered that he meant to parry that familiarity; he pitched the note of their conference from the outset, sure and clear, as a search for expedients under a common catastrophe. if he made any mistake it was when ever and again his fatigue got the better of his immediate attention, and the habit of the public meeting carried him away. then he drew himself up--through all their interview both men stood--and looked away from redwood, and began to fence and justify. once even he said "gentlemen!" quietly, expandingly, he began to talk.... there were moments when redwood ceased even to feel himself an interlocutor, when he became the mere auditor of a monologue. he became the privileged spectator of an extraordinary phenomenon. he perceived something almost like a specific difference between himself and this being whose beautiful voice enveloped him, who was talking, talking. this mind before him was so powerful and so limited. from its driving energy, its personal weight, its invincible oblivion to certain things, there sprang up in redwood's mind the most grotesque and strange of images. instead of an antagonist who was a fellow-creature, a man one could hold morally responsible, and to whom one could address reasonable appeals, he saw caterham as something, something like a monstrous rhinoceros, as it were, a civilised rhinoceros begotten of the jungle of democratic affairs, a monster of irresistible onset and invincible resistance. in all the crashing conflicts of that tangle he was supreme. and beyond? this man was a being supremely adapted to make his way through multitudes of men. for him there was no fault so important as self-contradiction, no science so significant as the reconciliation of "interests." economic realities, topographical necessities, the barely touched mines of scientific expedients, existed for him no more than railways or rifled guns or geographical literature exist for his animal prototype. what did exist were gatherings, and caucuses, and votes--above all, votes. he was votes incarnate--millions of votes. and now in the great crisis, with the giants broken but not beaten, this vote-monster talked. it was so evident that even now he had everything to learn. he did not know there were physical laws and economic laws, quantities and reactions that all humanity voting _nemine contradicente_ cannot vote away, and that are disobeyed only at the price of destruction. he did not know there are moral laws that cannot be bent by any force of glamour, or are bent only to fly back with vindictive violence. in the face of shrapnel or the judgment day, it was evident to redwood that this man would have sheltered behind some curiously dodged vote of the house of commons. what most concerned his mind now was not the powers that held the fastness away there to the south, not defeat and death, but the effect of these things upon his majority, the cardinal reality in his life. he had to defeat the giants or go under. he was by no means absolutely despairful. in this hour of his utmost failure, with blood and disaster upon his hands, and the rich promise of still more horrible disaster, with the gigantic destinies of the world towering and toppling over him, he was capable of a belief that by sheer exertion of his voice, by explaining and qualifying and restating, he might yet reconstitute his power. he was puzzled and distressed no doubt, fatigued and suffering, but if only he could keep up, if only he could keep talking-- as he talked he seemed to redwood to advance and recede, to dilate and contract. redwood's share of the talk was of the most subsidiary sort, wedges as it were suddenly thrust in. "that's all nonsense." "no." "it's no use suggesting that." "then why did you begin?" it is doubtful if caterham really heard him at all. round such interpolations caterham's speech flowed indeed like some swift stream about a rock. there this incredible man stood, on his official hearthrug, talking, talking with enormous power and skill, talking as though a pause in his talk, his explanations, his presentation of standpoints and lights, of considerations and expedients, would permit some antagonistic influence to leap into being--into vocal being, the only being he could comprehend. there he stood amidst the slightly faded splendours of that official room in which one man after another had succumbed to the belief that a certain power of intervention was the creative control of an empire.... the more he talked the more certain redwood's sense of stupendous futility grew. did this man realise that while he stood and talked there, the whole great world was moving, that the invincible tide of growth flowed and flowed, that there were any hours but parliamentary hours, or any weapons in the hands of the avengers of blood? outside, darkling the whole room, a single leaf of giant virginia creeper tapped unheeded on the pane. redwood became anxious to end this amazing monologue, to escape to sanity and judgment, to that beleaguered camp, the fastness of the future, where, at the very nucleus of greatness, the sons were gathered together. for that this talking was endured. he had a curious impression that unless this monologue ended he would presently find himself carried away by it, that he must fight against caterham's voice as one fights against a drug. facts had altered and were altering beneath that spell. what was the man saying? since redwood had to report it to the children of the food, in a sort of way he perceived it did matter. he would have to listen and guard his sense of realities as well as he could. much about bloodguiltiness. that was eloquence. that didn't matter. next? he was suggesting a convention! he was suggesting that the surviving children of the food should capitulate and go apart and form a community of their own. there were precedents, he said, for this. "we would assign them territory--" "where?" interjected redwood, stooping to argue. caterham snatched at that concession. he turned his face to redwood's, and his voice fell to a persuasive reasonableness. that could be determined. that, he contended, was a quite subsidiary question. then he went on to stipulate: "and except for them and where they are we must have absolute control, the food and all the fruits of the food must be stamped out--" redwood found himself bargaining: "the princess?" "she stands apart." "no," said redwood, struggling to get back to the old footing. "that's absurd." "that afterwards. at any rate we are agreed that the making of the food must stop--" "i have agreed to nothing. i have said nothing--" "but on one planet, to have two races of men, one great, one small! consider what has happened! consider that is but a little foretaste of what might presently happen if this food has its way! consider all you have already brought upon this world! if there is to be a race of giants, increasing and multiplying--" "it is not for me to argue," said redwood. "i must go to our sons. i want to go to my son. that is why i have come to you. tell me exactly what you offer." caterham made a speech upon his terms. the children of the food were to be given a great reservation--in north america perhaps or africa--in which they might live out their lives in their own fashion. "but it's nonsense," said redwood. "there are other giants now abroad. all over europe--here and there!" "there could be an international convention. it's _not_ impossible. something of the sort indeed has already been spoken of ... but in this reservation they can live out their own lives in their own way. they may do what they like; they may make what they like. we shall be glad if they will make us things. they may be happy. think!" "provided there are no more children." "precisely. the children are for us. and so, sir, we shall save the world, we shall save it absolutely from the fruits of your terrible discovery. it is not too late for us. only we are eager to temper expediency with mercy. even now we are burning and searing the places their shells hit yesterday. we can get it under. trust me we shall get it under. but in that way, without cruelty, without injustice--" "and suppose the children do not agree?" for the first time caterham looked redwood fully in the face. "they must!" "i don't think they will." "why should they not agree?" he asked, in richly toned amazement. "suppose they don't?" "what can it be but war? we cannot have the thing go on. we cannot. sir. have you scientific men _no_ imagination? have you no mercy? we cannot have our world trampled under a growing herd of such monsters and monstrous growths as your food has made. we cannot and we cannot! i ask you, sir, what can it be but war? and remember--this that has happened is only a beginning! _this_ was a skirmish. a mere affair of police. believe me, a mere affair of police. do not be cheated by perspective, by the immediate bigness of these newer things. behind us is the nation--is humanity. behind the thousands who have died there are millions. were it not for the fear of bloodshed, sir, behind our first attacks there would be forming other attacks, even now. whether we can kill this food or not, most assuredly we can kill your sons! you reckon too much on the things of yesterday, on the happenings of a mere score of years, on one battle. you have no sense of the slow course of history. i offer this convention for the sake of lives, not because it can change the inevitable end. if you think that your poor two dozen of giants can resist all the forces of our people and of all the alien peoples who will come to our aid; if you think you can change humanity at a blow, in a single generation, and alter the nature and stature of man--" he flung out an arm. "go to them now, sir. i see them, for all the evil they have done, crouching among their wounded--" he stopped, as though he had glanced at redwood's son by chance. there came a pause. "go to them," he said. "that is what i want to do." "then go now...." he turned and pressed the button of a bell; without, in immediate response, came a sound of opening doors and hastening feet. the talk was at an end. the display was over. abruptly caterham seemed to contract, to shrivel up into a yellow-faced, fagged-out, middle-sized, middle-aged man. he stepped forward, as if he were stepping out of a picture, and with a complete assumption of that friendliness that lies behind all the public conflicts of our race, he held out his hand to redwood. as if it were a matter of course, redwood shook hands with him for the second time. chapter the fifth. the giant leaguer. i. presently redwood found himself in a train going south over the thames. he had a brief vision of the river shining under its lights, and of the smoke still going up from the place where the shell had fallen on the north bank, and where a vast multitude of men had been organised to burn the herakleophorbia out of the ground. the southern bank was dark, for some reason even the streets were not lit, all that was clearly visible was the outlines of the tall alarm-towers and the dark bulks of flats and schools, and after a minute of peering scrutiny he turned his back on the window and sank into thought. there was nothing more to see or do until he saw the sons.... he was fatigued by the stresses of the last two days; it seemed to him that his emotions must needs be exhausted, but he had fortified himself with strong coffee before starting, and his thoughts ran thin and clear. his mind touched many things. he reviewed again, but now in the enlightenment of accomplished events, the manner in which the food had entered and unfolded itself in the world. "bensington thought it might be an excellent food for infants," he whispered to himself, with a faint smile. then there came into his mind as vivid as if they were still unsettled his own horrible doubts after he had committed himself by giving it to his own son. from that, with a steady unfaltering expansion, in spite of every effort of men to help and hinder, the food had spread through the whole world of man. and now? "even if they kill them all," redwood whispered, "the thing is done." the secret of its making was known far and wide. that had been his own work. plants, animals, a multitude of distressful growing children would conspire irresistibly to force the world to revert again to the food, whatever happened in the present struggle. "the thing is done," he said, with his mind swinging round beyond all his controlling to rest upon the present fate of the children and his son. would he find them exhausted by the efforts of the battle, wounded, starving, on the verge of defeat, or would he find them still stout and hopeful, ready for the still grimmer conflict of the morrow? his son was wounded! but he had sent a message! his mind came back to his interview with caterham. he was roused from his thoughts by the stopping of his train in chislehurst station. he recognised the place by the huge rat alarm-tower that crested camden hill, and the row of blossoming giant hemlocks that lined the road.... caterham's private secretary came to him from the other carriage and told him that half a mile farther the line had been wrecked, and that the rest of the journey was to be made in a motor car. redwood descended upon a platform lit only by a hand lantern and swept by the cool night breeze. the quiet of that derelict, wood-set, weed-embedded suburb--for all the inhabitants had taken refuge in london at the outbreak of yesterday's conflict--became instantly impressive. his conductor took him down the steps to where a motor car was waiting with blazing lights--the only lights to be seen--handed him over to the care of the driver and bade him farewell. "you will do your best for us," he said, with an imitation of his master's manner, as he held redwood's hand. so soon as redwood could be wrapped about they started out into the night. at one moment they stood still, and then the motor car was rushing softly and swiftly down the station incline. they turned one corner and another, followed the windings of a lane of villas, and then before them stretched the road. the motor droned up to its topmost speed, and the black night swept past them. everything was very dark under the starlight, and the whole world crouched mysteriously and was gone without a sound. not a breath stirred the flying things by the wayside; the deserted, pallid white villas on either hand, with their black unlit windows, reminded him of a noiseless procession of skulls. the driver beside him was a silent man, or stricken into silence by the conditions of his journey. he answered redwood's brief questions in monosyllables, and gruffly. athwart the southern sky the beams of searchlights waved noiseless passes; the sole strange evidences of life they seemed in all that derelict world about the hurrying machine. the road was presently bordered on either side by gigantic blackthorn shoots that made it very dark, and by tail grass and big campions, huge giant dead-nettles as high as trees, flickering past darkly in silhouette overhead. beyond keston they came to a rising hill, and the driver went slow. at the crest he stopped. the engine throbbed and became still. "there," he said, and his big gloved finger pointed, a black misshapen thing before redwood's eyes. far away as it seemed, the great embankment, crested by the blaze from which the searchlights sprang, rose up against the sky. those beams went and came among the clouds and the hilly land about them as if they traced mysterious incantations. "i don't know," said the driver at last, and it was clear he was afraid to go on. presently a searchlight swept down the sky to them, stopped as it were with a start, scrutinised them, a blinding stare confused rather than mitigated by an intervening monstrous weed stem or so. they sat with their gloves held over their eyes, trying to look under them and meet that light. "go on," said redwood after a while. the driver still had his doubts; he tried to express them, and died down to "i don't know" again. at last he ventured on. "here goes," he said, and roused his machinery to motion again, followed intently by that great white eye. to redwood it seemed for a long time they were no longer on earth, but in a state of palpitating hurry through a luminous cloud. teuf, teuf, teuf, teuf, went the machine, and ever and again--obeying i know not what nervous impulse--the driver sounded his horn. they passed into the welcome darkness of a high-fenced lane, and down into a hollow and past some houses into that blinding stare again. then for a space the road ran naked across a down, and they seemed to hang throbbing in immensity. once more giant weeds rose about them and whirled past. then quite abruptly close upon them loomed the figure of a giant, shining brightly where the searchlight caught him below, and black against the sky above. "hullo there!" he cried, and "stop! there's no more road beyond ... is that father redwood?" redwood stood up and gave a vague shout by way of answer, and then cossar was in the road beside him, gripping both hands with both of his and pulling him out of the car. "what of my son?" asked redwood. "he's all right," said cossar. "they've hurt nothing serious in _him_." "and your lads?" "well. all of them, well. but we've had to make a fight for it." the giant was saying something to the motor driver. redwood stood aside as the machine wheeled round, and then suddenly cossar vanished, everything vanished, and he was in absolute darkness for a space. the glare was following the motor back to the crest of the keston hill. he watched the little conveyance receding in that white halo. it had a curious effect, as though it was not moving at all and the halo was. a group of war-blasted giant elders flashed into gaunt scarred gesticulations and were swallowed again by the night ... redwood turned to cossar's dim outline again and clasped his hand. "i have been shut up and kept in ignorance," he said, "for two whole days." "we fired the food at them," said cossar. "obviously! thirty shots. eh!" "i come from caterham." "i know you do." he laughed with a note of bitterness. "i suppose he's wiping it up." ii. "where is my son?" said redwood. "he is all right. the giants are waiting for your message." "yes, but my son--..." he passed with cossar down a long slanting tunnel that was lit red for a moment and then became dark again, and came out presently into the great pit of shelter the giants had made. redwood's first impression was of an enormous arena bounded by very high cliffs and with its floor greatly encumbered. it was in darkness save for the passing reflections of the watchman's searchlights that whirled perpetually high overhead, and for a red glow that came and went from a distant corner where two giants worked together amidst a metallic clangour. against the sky, as the glare came about, his eye caught the familiar outlines of the old worksheds and playsheds that were made for the cossar boys. they were hanging now, as it were, at a cliff brow, and strangely twisted and distorted with the guns of caterham's bombardment. there were suggestions of huge gun emplacements above there, and nearer were piles of mighty cylinders that were perhaps ammunition. all about the wide space below, the forms of great engines and incomprehensible bulks were scattered in vague disorder. the giants appeared and vanished among these masses and in the uncertain light; great shapes they were, not disproportionate to the things amidst which they moved. some were actively employed, some sitting and lying as if they courted sleep, and one near at hand, whose body was bandaged, lay on a rough litter of pine boughs and was certainly asleep. redwood peered at these dim forms; his eyes went from one stirring outline to another. "where is my son, cossar?" then he saw him. his son was sitting under the shadow of a great wall of steel. he presented himself as a black shape recognisable only by his pose,--his features were invisible. he sat chin upon hand, as though weary or lost in thought. beside him redwood discovered the figure of the princess, the dark suggestion of her merely, and then, as the glow from the distant iron returned, he saw for an instant, red lit and tender, the infinite kindliness of her shadowed face. she stood looking down upon her lover with her hand resting against the steel. it seemed that she whispered to him. redwood would have gone towards them. "presently," said cossar. "first there is your message." "yes," said redwood, "but--" he stopped. his son was now looking up and speaking to the princess, but in too low a tone for them to hear. young redwood raised his face, and she bent down towards him, and glanced aside before she spoke. "but if we are beaten," they heard the whispered voice of young redwood. she paused, and the red blaze showed her eyes bright with unshed tears. she bent nearer him and spoke still lower. there was something so intimate and private in their bearing, in their soft tones, that redwood--redwood who had thought for two whole days of nothing but his son--felt himself intrusive there. abruptly he was checked. for the first time in his life perhaps he realised how much more a son may be to his father than a father can ever be to a son; he realised the full predominance of the future over the past. here between these two he had no part. his part was played. he turned to cossar, in the instant realisation. their eyes met. his voice was changed to the tone of a grey resolve. "i will deliver my message now," he said. "afterwards--... it will be soon enough then." the pit was so enormous and so encumbered that it was a long and tortuous route to the place from which redwood could speak to them all. he and cossar followed a steeply descending way that passed beneath an arch of interlocking machinery, and so came into a vast deep gangway that ran athwart the bottom of the pit. this gangway, wide and vacant, and yet relatively narrow, conspired with everything about it to enhance redwood's sense of his own littleness. it became, as it were, an excavated gorge. high overhead, separated from him by cliffs of darkness, the searchlights wheeled and blazed, and the shining shapes went to and fro. giant voices called to one another above there, calling the giants together to the council of war, to hear the terms that caterham had sent. the gangway still inclined downward towards black vastnesses, towards shadows and mysteries and inconceivable things, into which redwood went slowly with reluctant footsteps and cossar with a confident stride.... redwood's thoughts were busy. the two men passed into the completest darkness, and cossar took his companion's wrist. they went now slowly perforce. redwood was moved to speak. "all this," he said, "is strange." "big," said cossar. "strange. and strange that it should be strange to me--i, who am, in a sense, the beginning of it all. it's--" he stopped, wrestling with his elusive meaning, and threw an unseen gesture at the cliff. "i have not thought of it before. i have been busy, and the years have passed. but here i see--it is a new generation, cossar, and new emotions and new needs. all this, cossar--" cossar saw now his dim gesture to the things about them. "all this is youth." cossar made no answers and his irregular footfalls went striding on. "it isn't _our_ youth, cossar. they are taking things over. they are beginning upon their own emotions, their own experiences, their own way. we have made a new world, and it isn't ours. it isn't even--sympathetic. this great place--" "i planned it," said cossar, his face close. "but now?" "ah! i have given it to my sons." redwood could feel the loose wave of the arm that he could not see. "that is it. we are over--or almost over." "your message!" "yes. and then--" "we're over." "well--?" "of course we are out of it, we two old men," said cossar, with his familiar note of sudden anger. "of course we are. obviously. each man for his own time. and now--it's _their_ time beginning. that's all right. excavator's gang. we do our job and go. see? that is what death is for. we work out all our little brains and all our little emotions, and then this lot begins afresh. fresh and fresh! perfectly simple. what's the trouble?" he paused to guide redwood to some steps. "yes," said redwood, "but one feels--" he left his sentence incomplete. "that is what death is for." he heard cossar below him insisting, "how else could the thing be done? that is what death is for." iii. after devious windings and ascents they came out upon a projecting ledge from which it was possible to see over the greater extent of the giants' pit, and from which redwood might make himself heard by the whole of their assembly. the giants were already gathered below and about him at different levels, to hear the message he had to deliver. the eldest son of cossar stood on the bank overhead watching the revelations of the searchlights, for they feared a breach of the truce. the workers at the great apparatus in the corner stood out clear in their own light; they were near stripped; they turned their faces towards redwood, but with a watchful reference ever and again to the castings that they could not leave. he saw these nearer figures with a fluctuating indistinctness, by lights that came and went, and the remoter ones still less distinctly. they came from and vanished again into the depths of great obscurities. for these giants had no more light than they could help in the pit, that their eyes might be ready to see effectually any attacking force that might spring upon them out of the darknesses around. ever and again some chance glare would pick out and display this group or that of tall and powerful forms, the giants from sunderland clothed in overlapping metal plates, and the others clad in leather, in woven rope or in woven metal, as their conditions had determined. they sat amidst or rested their hands upon, or stood erect among machines and weapons as mighty as themselves, and all their faces, as they came and went from visible to invisible, had steadfast eyes. he made an effort to begin and did not do so. then for a moment his son's face glowed out in a hot insurgence of the fire, his son's face looking up to him, tender as well as strong; and at that he found a voice to reach them all, speaking across a gulf, as it were, to his son. "i come from caterham," he said. "he sent me to you, to tell you the terms he offers." he paused. "they are impossible terms, i know, now that i see you here all together; they are impossible terms, but i brought them to you, because i wanted to see you all--and my son. once more ... i wanted to see my son...." "tell them the terms," said cossar. "this is what caterham offers. he wants you to go apart and leave his world!" "where?" "he does not know. vaguely somewhere in the world a great region is to be set apart.... and you are to make no more of the food, to have no children of your own, to live in your own way for your own time, and then to end for ever." he stopped. "and that is all?" "that is all." there followed a great stillness. the darkness that veiled the giants seemed to look thoughtfully at him. he felt a touch at his elbow, and cossar was holding a chair for him--a queer fragment of doll's furniture amidst these piled immensities. he sat down and crossed his legs, and then put one across the knee of the other, and clutched his boot nervously, and felt small and self-conscious and acutely visible and absurdly placed. then at the sound of a voice he forgot himself again. "you have heard, brothers," said this voice out of the shadows. and another answered, "we have heard." "and the answer, brothers?" "to caterham?" "is no!" "and then?" there was a silence for the space of some seconds. then a voice said: "these people are right. after their lights, that is. they have been right in killing all that grew larger than its kind--beast and plant and all manner of great things that arose. they were right in trying to massacre us. they are right now in saying we must not marry our kind. according to their lights they are right. they know--it is time that we also knew--that you cannot have pigmies and giants in one world together. caterham has said that again and again--clearly--their world or ours." "we are not half a hundred now," said another, "and they are endless millions." "so it may be. but the thing is as i have said." then another long silence. "and are we to die then?" "god forbid!" "are they?" "no." "but that is what caterham says! he would have us live out our lives, die one by one, till only one remains, and that one at last would die also, and they would cut down all the giant plants and weeds, kill all the giant under-life, burn out the traces of the food--make an end to us and to the food for ever. then the little pigmy world would be safe. they would go on--safe for ever, living their little pigmy lives, doing pigmy kindnesses and pigmy cruelties each to the other; they might even perhaps attain a sort of pigmy millennium, make an end to war, make an end to over-population, sit down in a world-wide city to practise pigmy arts, worshipping one another till the world begins to freeze...." in the corner a sheet of iron fell in thunder to the ground. "brothers, we know what we mean to do." in a spluttering of light from the searchlights redwood saw earnest youthful faces turning to his son. "it is easy now to make the food. it would be easy for us to make food for all the world." "you mean, brother redwood," said a voice out of the darkness, "that it is for the little people to eat the food." "what else is there to do?" "we are not half a hundred and they are many millions." "but we held our own." "so far." "if it is god's will, we may still hold our own." "yes. but think of the dead!" another voice took up the strain. "the dead," it said. "think of the unborn...." "brothers," came the voice of young redwood, "what can we do but fight them, and if we beat them, make them take the food? they cannot help but take the food now. suppose we were to resign our heritage and do this folly that caterham suggests! suppose we could! suppose we give up this great thing that stirs within us, repudiate this thing our fathers did for us--that _you_, father, did for us--and pass, when our time has come, into decay and nothingness! what then? will this little world of theirs be as it was before? they may fight against greatness in us who are the children of men, but can they conquer? even if they should destroy us every one, what then? would it save them? no! for greatness is abroad, not only in us, not only in the food, but in the purpose of all things! it is in the nature of all things; it is part of space and time. to grow and still to grow: from first to last that is being--that is the law of life. what other law can there be?" "to help others?" "to grow. it is still, to grow. unless we help them to fail...." "they will fight hard to overcome us," said a voice. and another, "what of that?" "they will fight," said young redwood. "if we refuse these terms, i doubt not they will fight. indeed i hope they will be open and fight. if after all they offer peace, it will be only the better to catch us unawares. make no mistake, brothers; in some way or other they will fight. the war has begun, and we must fight, to the end. unless we are wise, we may find presently we have lived only to make them better weapons against our children and our kind. this, so far, has been only the dawn of battle. all our lives will be a battle. some of us will be killed in battle, some of us will be waylaid. there is no easy victory--no victory whatever that is not more than half defeat for us. be sure of that. what of that? if only we keep a foothold, if only we leave behind us a growing host to fight when we are gone!" "and to-morrow?" "we will scatter the food; we will saturate the world with the food." "suppose they come to terms?" "our terms are the food. it is not as though little and great could live together in any perfection of compromise. it is one thing or the other. what right have parents to say, my child shall have no light but the light i have had, shall grow no greater than the greatness to which i have grown? do i speak for you, brothers?" assenting murmurs answered him. "and to the children who will be women as well as to the children who will be men," said a voice from the darkness. "even more so--to be mothers of a new race ..." "but for the next generation there must be great and little," said redwood, with his eyes on his son's face. "for many generations. and the little will hamper the great and the great press upon the little. so it must needs be, father." "there will be conflict." "endless conflict. endless misunderstanding. all life is that. great and little cannot understand one another. but in every child born of man, father redwood, lurks some seed of greatness--waiting for the food." "then i am to go to caterham again and tell him--" "you will stay with us, father redwood. our answer goes to caterham at dawn." "he says that he will fight...." "so be it," said young redwood, and his brethren murmured assent. "_the iron waits_," cried a voice, and the two giants who were working in the corner began a rhythmic hammering that made a mighty music to the scene. the metal glowed out far more brightly than it had done before, and gave redwood a clearer view of the encampment than had yet come to him. he saw the oblong space to its full extent, with the great engines of warfare ranged ready to hand. beyond, and at a higher level, the house of the cossars stood. about him were the young giants, huge and beautiful, glittering in their mail, amidst the preparations for the morrow. the sight of them lifted his heart. they were so easily powerful! they were so tall and gracious! they were so steadfast in their movements! there was his son amongst them, and the first of all giant women, the princess.... there leapt into his mind the oddest contrast, a memory of bensington, very bright and little--bensington with his hand amidst the soft breast feathers of that first great chick, standing in that conventionally furnished room of his, peering over his spectacles dubiously as cousin jane banged the door.... it had all happened in a yesterday of one-and-twenty years. then suddenly a strange doubt took hold of him: that this place and present greatness were but the texture of a dream; that he was dreaming, and would in an instant wake to find himself in his study again, the giants slaughtered, the food suppressed, and himself a prisoner locked in. what else indeed was life but that--always to be a prisoner locked in! this was the culmination and end of his dream. he would wake through bloodshed and battle, to find his food the most foolish of fancies, and his hopes and faith of a greater world to come no more than the coloured film upon a pool of bottomless decay. littleness invincible! so strong and deep was this wave of despondency, this suggestion of impending disillusionment, that he started to his feet. he stood and pressed his clenched fists into his eyes, and so for a moment remained, fearing to open them again and see, lest the dream should already have passed away.... the voice of the giant children spoke to one another, an undertone to that clangorous melody of the smiths. his tide of doubt ebbed. he heard the giant voices; he heard their movements about him still. it was real, surely it was real--as real as spiteful acts! more real, for these great things, it may be, are the coming things, and the littleness, bestiality, and infirmity of men are the things that go. he opened his eyes. "done," cried one of the two ironworkers, and they flung their hammers down. a voice sounded above. the son of cossar, standing on the great embankment, had turned and was now speaking to them all. "it is not that we would oust the little people from the world," he said, "in order that we, who are no more than one step upwards from their littleness, may hold their world for ever. it is the step we fight for and not ourselves.... we are here, brothers, to what end? to serve the spirit and the purpose that has been breathed into our lives. we fight not for ourselves--for we are but the momentary hands and eyes of the life of the world. so you, father redwood, taught us. through us and through the little folk the spirit looks and learns. from us by word and birth and act it must pass--to still greater lives. this earth is no resting place; this earth is no playing place, else indeed we might put our throats to the little people's knife, having no greater right to live than they. and they in their turn might yield to the ants and vermin. we fight not for ourselves but for growth--growth that goes on for ever. to-morrow, whether we live or die, growth will conquer through us. that is the law of the spirit for ever more. to grow according to the will of god! to grow out of these cracks and crannies, out of these shadows and darknesses, into greatness and the light! greater," he said, speaking with slow deliberation, "greater, my brothers! and then--still greater. to grow, and again--to grow. to grow at last into the fellowship and understanding of god. growing.... till the earth is no more than a footstool.... till the spirit shall have driven fear into nothingness, and spread...." he swung his arm heavenward:--"_there!"_ his voice ceased. the white glare of one of the searchlights wheeled about, and for a moment fell upon him, standing out gigantic with hand upraised against the sky. for one instant he shone, looking up fearlessly into the starry deeps, mail-clad, young and strong, resolute and still. then the light had passed, and he was no more than a great black outline against the starry sky--a great black outline that threatened with one mighty gesture the firmament of heaven and all its multitude of stars. the end. kipps the story of a simple soul books by h. g. wells short stories twelve stories and a dream the plattner story and others tales of space and time the stolen bacillus and other stories romances the food of the gods the wonderful visit the war of the worlds the invisible man the time machine the first men in the moon the sea lady the island of dr. moreau novels kipps love and mr. lewisham the wheels of chance sociological essays a modern utopia anticipations mankind in the making. kipps the story of a simple soul by h. g. wells new york charles scribner's sons copyright , by charles scribner's sons published, "those individuals who have led secluded or isolated lives, or have hitherto moved in other spheres than those wherein well-bred people move, will gather all the information necessary from these pages to render them thoroughly conversant with the manners and amenities of society." _manners and rules of good society_ _by a member of the aristocracy_ contents: book i. the making of kipps page i. the little shop at new romney ii. the emporium iii. the wood-carving class iv. chitterlow v. "swapped" vi. the unexpected book ii. mr. coote, the chaperon i. the new conditions ii. the walshinghams iii. engaged iv. the bicycle manufacturer v. the pupil lover vi. discords vii. london viii. kipps enters society ix. the labyrinthodon book iii. kippses i. the housing problem ii. the callers iii. terminations book i the making of kipps chapter i the little shop at new romney § until he was nearly arrived at adolescence it did not become clear to kipps how it was that he was under the care of an aunt and uncle instead of having a father and mother like other boys. yet he had vague memories of a somewhere else that was not new romney--of a dim room, a window looking down on white buildings--and of a some one else who talked to forgotten people, and who was his mother. he could not recall her features very distinctly, but he remembered with extreme definition a white dress she wore, with a pattern of little sprigs of flowers and little bows of ribbon upon it, and a girdle of straight-ribbed white ribbon about the waist. linked with this, he knew not how, were clouded half-obliterated recollections of scenes in which there was weeping, weeping in which he was inscrutably moved to join. some terrible tall man with a loud voice played a part in these scenes, and either before or after them there were impressions of looking for interminable periods out of the windows of railway trains in the company of these two people.... he knew, though he could not remember that he had ever been told, that a certain faded, wistful face, that looked at him from a plush and gilt framed daguerreotype above the mantel of the "sitting-room," was the face of his mother. but that knowledge did not touch his dim memories with any elucidation. in that photograph she was a girlish figure, leaning against a photographer's stile, and with all the self-conscious shrinking natural to that position. she had curly hair and a face far younger and prettier than any other mother in his experience. she swung a dolly varden hat by the string, and looked with obedient respectful eyes on the photographer-gentleman who had commanded the pose. she was very slight and pretty. but the phantom mother that haunted his memory so elusively was not like that, though he could not remember how she differed. perhaps she was older, or a little less shrinking, or, it may be, only dressed in a different way.... it is clear she handed him over to his aunt and uncle at new romney with explicit directions and a certain endowment. one gathers she had something of that fine sense of social distinctions that subsequently played so large a part in kipps' career. he was not to go to a "common" school, she provided, but to a certain seminary in hastings that was not only a "middle-class academy," with mortar boards and every evidence of a higher social tone, but also remarkably cheap. she seems to have been animated by the desire to do her best for kipps, even at a certain sacrifice of herself, as though kipps were in some way a superior sort of person. she sent pocket-money to him from time to time for a year or more after hastings had begun for him, but her face he never saw in the days of his lucid memory. his aunt and uncle were already high on the hill of life when first he came to them. they had married for comfort in the evening or at any rate in the late afternoon of their days. they were at first no more than vague figures in the background of proximate realities, such realities as familiar chairs and tables, quiet to ride and drive, the newel of the staircase, kitchen furniture, pieces of firewood, the boiler tap, old newspapers, the cat, the high street, the back yard and the flat fields that are always so near in that little town. he knew all the stones in the yard individually, the creeper in the corner, the dustbin and the mossy wall, better than many men know the faces of their wives. there was a corner under the ironing-board which by means of a shawl could, under propitious gods, be made a very decent cubby-house, a corner that served him for several years as the indisputable hub of the world; and the stringy places in the carpet, the knots upon the dresser, and the several corners of the rag hearthrug his uncle had made, became essential parts of his mental foundations. the shop he did not know so thoroughly--it was a forbidden region to him; yet somehow he managed to know it very well. his aunt and uncle were, as it were, the immediate gods of this world; and, like the gods of the world of old, occasionally descended right into it, with arbitrary injunctions and disproportionate punishments. and, unhappily, one rose to their olympian level at meals. then one had to say one's "grace," hold one's spoon and fork in mad, unnatural ways called "properly," and refrain from eating even nice sweet things "too fast." if he "gobbled" there was trouble, and at the slightest _abandon_ with knife, fork, and spoon, his aunt rapped his knuckles, albeit his uncle always finished up his gravy with his knife. sometimes, moreover, his uncle would come, pipe in hand, out of a sedentary remoteness in the most disconcerting way, when a little boy was doing the most natural and attractive things, with "drat and drabbit that young rascal! what's he a-doing of now?" and his aunt would appear at door or window to interrupt interesting conversation with children who were upon unknown grounds considered "low" and undesirable, and call him in. the pleasantest little noises, however softly you did them,--drumming on tea-trays, trumpeting your fists, whistling on keys, ringing chimes with a couple of pails, or playing tunes on the window-panes,--brought down the gods in anger. yet what noise is fainter than your finger on the window--gently done? sometimes, however, these gods gave him broken toys out of the shop, and then one loved them better--for the shop they kept was, among other things, a toy shop. (the other things included books to read and books to give away and local photographs; it had some pretensions also to be a china shop, and the fascia spoke of glass; it was also a stationer's shop with a touch of haberdashery about it, and in the windows and odd corners were mats and terra-cotta dishes, and milking-stools for painting; and there was a hint of picture-frames, and fire-screens, and fishing tackle, and air-guns, and bathing suits, and tents: various things, indeed, but all cruelly attractive to a small boy's fingers.) once his aunt gave him a trumpet if he would _promise_ faithfully not to blow it, and afterwards took it away again. and his aunt made him say his catechism and something she certainly called the "colic for the day" every sunday in the year. as the two grew old while he grew up, and as his impression of them modified insensibly from year to year, it seemed to him at last that they had always been as they were when, in his adolescent days, his impression of things grew fixed. his aunt he thought of as always lean, rather worried-looking, and prone to a certain obliquity of cap, and his uncle massive, many-chinned, and careless about his buttons. they neither visited nor received visitors. they were always very suspicious about their neighbours and other people generally; they feared the "low" and they hated and despised the "stuck-up," and so they "kept themselves _to_ themselves," according to the english ideal. consequently little kipps had no playmates, except through the sin of disobedience. by inherent nature he had a sociable disposition. when he was in the high street he made a point of saying "hello!" to passing cyclists, and he would put his tongue out at the quodling children whenever their nursemaid was not looking. and he began a friendship with sid pornick, the son of the haberdasher next door, that, with wide intermissions, was destined to last his lifetime through. pornick, the haberdasher, i may say at once, was, according to old kipps, a "blaring jackass"; he was a teetotaller, a "nyar, nyar, 'im-singing methodis'," and altogether distasteful and detrimental, he and his together, to true kipps ideals, so far as little kipps could gather them. this pornick certainly possessed an enormous voice, and he annoyed old kipps greatly by calling, "you--arn" and "siddee," up and down his house. he annoyed old kipps by private choral services on sunday, all his family "nyar, nyar-ing"; and by mushroom culture; by behaving as though the pilaster between the two shops was common property; by making a noise of hammering in the afternoon, when old kipps wanted to be quiet after his midday meal; by going up and down uncarpeted stairs in his boots; by having a black beard; by attempting to be friendly; and by--all that sort of thing. in fact, he annoyed old kipps. he annoyed him especially with his shop doormat. old kipps never beat his mat, preferring to let sleeping dust lie; and, seeking a motive for a foolish proceeding, he held that pornick waited until there was a suitable wind in order that the dust disengaged in that operation might defile his neighbour's shop. these issues would frequently develop into loud and vehement quarrels, and on one occasion came so near to violence as to be subsequently described by pornick (who read his newspaper) as a "disgraceful frackass." on that occasion he certainly went into his own shop with extreme celerity. but it was through one of these quarrels that the friendship of little kipps and sid pornick came about. the two small boys found themselves one day looking through the gate at the doctor's goats together; they exchanged a few contradictions about which goat could fight which, and then young kipps was moved to remark that sid's father was a "blaring jackass." sid said he wasn't, and kipps repeated that he was, and quoted his authority. then sid, flying off at a tangent rather alarmingly, said he could fight young kipps with one hand, an assertion young kipps with a secret want of confidence denied. there were some vain repetitions, and the incident might have ended there, but happily a sporting butcher boy chanced on the controversy at this stage, and insisted upon seeing fair play. the two small boys under his pressing encouragement did at last button up their jackets, square and fight an edifying drawn battle, until it seemed good to the butcher boy to go on with mrs. holyer's mutton. then, according to his directions and under his experienced stage management, they shook hands and made it up. subsequently, a little tear-stained perhaps, but flushed with the butcher boy's approval ("tough little kids"), and with cold stones down their necks as he advised, they sat side by side on the doctor's gate, projecting very much behind, staunching an honourable bloodshed, and expressing respect for one another. each had a bloody nose and a black eye--three days later they matched to a shade--neither had given in, and, though this was tacit, neither wanted any more. it was an excellent beginning. after this first encounter the attributes of their parents and their own relative value in battle never rose between them, and if anything was wanted to complete the warmth of their regard it was found in a joint dislike of the eldest quodling. the eldest quodling lisped, had a silly sort of straw hat and a large pink face (all covered over with self-satisfaction), and he went to the national school with a green baize bag--a contemptible thing to do. they called him names and threw stones at him, and when he replied by threatenings ("look 'ere, young art kipth, you better _thtoppit_!") they were moved to attack and put him to flight. and after that they broke the head of ann pornick's doll, so that she went home weeping loudly--a wicked and endearing proceeding. sid was whacked, but, as he explained, he wore a newspaper tactically adjusted during the transaction, and really it didn't hurt him at all.... and mrs. pornick put her head out of the shop door suddenly, and threatened kipps as he passed. § "cavendish academy," the school that had won the limited choice of kipps' vanished mother, was established in a battered private house in the part of hastings remotest from the sea; it was called an academy for young gentlemen, and many of the young gentlemen had parents in "india," and other unverifiable places. others were the sons of credulous widows, anxious, as kipps' mother had been, to get something a little "superior" to a board school education as cheaply as possible; and others again were sent to demonstrate the dignity of their parents and guardians. and of course there were boys from france. its "principal" was a lean, long creature of indifferent digestion and temper, who proclaimed himself on a gilt-lettered board in his front garden george garden woodrow, f.s.sc., letters indicating that he had paid certain guineas for a bogus diploma. a bleak white-washed outhouse constituted his schoolroom, and the scholastic quality of its carved and worn desks and forms was enhanced by a slippery blackboard and two large yellow out-of-date maps, one of africa and the other of wiltshire, that he had picked up cheap at a sale. there were other maps and globes in his study, where he interviewed inquiring parents, but these his pupils never saw. and in a glass cupboard in the passage was several shillingsworth of test tubes and chemicals, a tripod, a glass retort, and a damaged bunsen burner, manifesting that the "scientific laboratory" mentioned in the prospectus was no idle boast. this prospectus, which was in dignified but incorrect english, laid particular stress on the sound preparation for a commercial career given in the academy, but the army, navy and civil service were glanced at in an ambiguous sentence. there was something vague in the prospectus about "examinational successes"--though woodrow, of course, disapproved of "cram"--and a declaration that the curriculum included "art," "modern foreign languages" and "a sound technical and scientific training." then came insistence upon the "moral well-being" of the pupils, and an emphatic boast of the excellence of the religious instruction, "so often neglected nowadays even in schools of wide repute." "that's bound to fetch 'em," mr. woodrow had remarked when he drew up the prospectus. and in conjunction with the mortarboards it certainly did. attention was directed to the "motherly" care of mrs. woodrow--in reality a small partially effaced woman with a plaintive face and a mind above cookery; and the prospectus concluded with a phrase intentionally vague, "fare unrestricted, and our own milk and produce." the memories kipps carried from that school into after life were set in an atmosphere of stuffiness and mental muddle; and included countless pictures of sitting on creaking forms bored and idle, of blot licking and the taste of ink, of torn books with covers that set one's teeth on edge, of the slimy surface of the laboured slates, of furtive marble-playing, whispered story-telling, and of pinches, blows, and a thousand such petty annoyances being perpetually "passed on" according to the custom of the place, of standing up in class and being hit suddenly and unreasonably for imaginary misbehaviour, of mr. woodrow's raving days, when a scarcely sane injustice prevailed, of the cold vacuity of the hour of preparation before the bread-and-butter breakfast, and of horrible headaches and queer, unprecedented, internal feelings resulting from mrs. woodrow's motherly rather than intelligent cookery. there were dreary walks, when the boys marched two by two, all dressed in the mortarboard caps that so impressed the widowed mothers; there were dismal half-holidays when the weather was wet and the spirit of evil temper and evil imagination had the pent boys to work its will on; there were unfair, dishonourable fights and miserable defeats and victories, there was bullying and being bullied. a coward boy kipps particularly afflicted, until at last he was goaded to revolt by incessant persecution, and smote kipps to tolerance with whirling fists. there were memories of sleeping three in a bed, of the dense leathery smell of the schoolroom when one returned thither after ten minutes' play, of a playground of mud and incidental sharp flints. and there was much furtive foul language. "our sundays are our happiest days," was one of woodrow's formulæ with the inquiring parent, but kipps was not called in evidence. they were to him terrible gaps of inanity--no work, no play, a drear expanse of time with the mystery of church twice and plum duff once in the middle. the afternoon was given up to furtive relaxations, among which "torture chamber" games with the less agreeable, weaker boys figured. it was from the difference between this day and common days that kipps derived his first definite conceptions of the nature of god and heaven. his instinct was to evade any closer acquaintance as long as he could. the school work varied, according to the prevailing mood of mr. woodrow. sometimes that was a despondent lethargy; copy-books were distributed or sums were "set," or the great mystery of bookkeeping was declared in being, and beneath these superficial activities lengthy conversations and interminable guessing games with marbles went on while mr. woodrow sat inanimate at his desk heedless of school affairs, staring in front of him at unseen things. at times his face was utterly inane, at times it had an expression of stagnant amazement, as if he saw before his eyes with pitiless clearness the dishonour and mischief of his being.... at other times the f.s.sc. roused himself to action, and would stand up a wavering class and teach it, goading it with bitter mockery and blows through a chapter of ann's "first french course," or "france and the french," or a dialogue about a traveller's washing, or the parts of an opera-house. his own knowledge of french had been obtained years ago in another english private school, and he had refreshed it by occasional weeks of loafing and mean adventure in dieppe. he would sometimes in their lessons hit upon some reminiscence of these brighter days, and then he would laugh inexplicably and repeat french phrases of an unfamiliar type. among the commoner exercises he prescribed the learning of long passages of poetry from a "poetry book," which he would delegate an elder boy to "hear," and there was reading aloud from the holy bible, verse by verse--it was none of your "godless" schools!--so that you counted the verses up to your turn and then gave yourself to conversation--and sometimes one read from a cheap history of this land. they did, as kipps reported, "loads of catechism." also there was much learning of geographical names and lists, and sometimes woodrow in an outbreak of energy would see these names were actually found on a map. and once, just once, there was a chemistry lesson--a lesson of indescribable excitement--glass things of the strangest shape, a smell like bad eggs, something bubbling in something, a smash and stench, and mr. woodrow saying quite distinctly--they thrashed it out in the dormitory afterwards--"damn!" followed by the whole school being kept in, with extraordinary severities, for an hour.... but interspersed with the memories of this grey routine were certain patches of brilliant colour--the holidays, his holidays, which in spite of the feud between their seniors, he spent as much as possible with sid pornick, the son of the irascible black-bearded haberdasher next door. they seemed to be memories of a different world. there were glorious days of "mucking about" along the beach, the siege of unresisting martello towers, the incessant interest of the mystery and motion of windmills, the windy excursions with boarded feet over the yielding shingle to dungeness lighthouse--sid pornick and he far adrift from reality, smugglers and armed men from the moment they left great stone behind them--wanderings in the hedgeless reedy marsh, long excursions reaching even to hythe, where the machine guns of the empire are forever whirling and tapping, and to rye and winchelsea, perched like dream-cities on their little hills. the sky in these memories was the blazing hemisphere of the marsh heavens in summer, or its wintry tumult of sky and sea; and there were wrecks, real wrecks, in it (near dymchurch pitched high and blackened and rotting were the ribs of a fishing smack flung aside like an empty basket when the sea had devoured its crew); and there was bathing all naked in the sea, bathing to one's armpits and even trying to swim in the warm sea-water (spite of his aunt's prohibition), and (with her indulgence) the rare eating of dinner from a paper parcel miles away from home. toke and cold ground rice pudding with plums it used to be--there is no better food at all. and for the background, in the place of woodrow's mean, fretting rule, were his aunt's spare but frequently quite amiable figure--for though she insisted on his repeating the english church catechism every sunday, she had an easy way over dinners that one wanted to take abroad--and his uncle, corpulent and irascible, but sedentary and easily escaped. and freedom! the holidays were indeed very different from school. they were free, they were spacious, and though he never knew it in these words--they had an element of beauty. in his memory of his boyhood they shone like strips of stained glass window in a dreary waste of scholastic wall, they grew brighter and brighter as they grew remoter. there came a time at last and moods when he could look back to them with a feeling akin to tears. the last of these windows was the brightest, and instead of the kaleidoscopic effects of its predecessors its glory was a single figure. for in the last of his holidays, before the moloch of retail trade got hold of him, kipps made his first tentative essays at the mysterious shrine of love. very tentative they were, for he had become a boy of subdued passions, and potential rather than actual affectionateness. and the objects of these first stirrings of the great desire was no other than ann pornick, the head of whose doll he and sid had broken long ago, and rejoiced over long ago, in the days when he had yet to learn the meaning of a heart. § negotiations were already on foot to make kipps into a draper before he discovered the lights that lurked in ann pornick's eyes. school was over, absolutely over, and it was chiefly present to him that he was never to go to school again. it was high summer. the "breaking up" of school had been hilarious; and the excellent maxim, "last day's pay day," had been observed by him with a scrupulous attention to his honour. he had punched the heads of all his enemies, wrung wrists and kicked shins; he had distributed all his unfinished copybooks, all his school books, his collection of marbles and his mortarboard cap among such as loved him; and he had secretly written in obscure pages of their books, "remember art kipps." he had also split the anæmic woodrow's cane, carved his own name deeply in several places about the premises, and broken the scullery window. he had told everybody so often that he was to learn to be a sea captain that he had come almost to believe the thing himself. and now he was home, and school was at an end for him for evermore. he was up before six on the day of his return, and out in the hot sunlight of the yard. he set himself to whistle a peculiarly penetrating arrangement of three notes supposed by the boys of the hastings academy and himself and sid pornick, for no earthly reason whatever, to be the original huron war-cry. as he did this he feigned not to be doing it, because of the hatred between his uncle and the pornicks, but to be examining with respect and admiration a new wing of the dustbin recently erected by his uncle--a pretence that would not have deceived a nestling tomtit. presently there came a familiar echo from the pornick hunting-ground. then kipps began to sing, "ar pars eight tra-la, in the lane be'ind the church." to which an unseen person answered, "ar pars eight it is, in the lane be'ind the church." the "tra-la" was considered to render this sentence incomprehensible to the uninitiated. in order to conceal their operations still more securely, both parties to this duet then gave vent to a vocalisation of the huron war-cry again, and after a lingering repetition of the last and shrillest note, dispersed severally, as became boys in the enjoyment of holidays, to light the house fires for the day. half-past eight found kipps sitting on the sunlit gate at the top of the long lane that runs towards the sea, clashing his boots in a slow rhythm, and whistling with great violence all that he knew of an excruciatingly pathetic air. there appeared along by the churchyard wall a girl in a short frock, brown-haired, quick-coloured, and with dark blue eyes. she had grown so that she was a little taller than kipps, and her colour had improved. he scarcely remembered her, so changed was she since last holidays--if indeed he had seen her last holidays, a thing he could not clearly remember. some vague emotion arose at the sight of her. he stopped whistling and regarded her, oddly tongue-tied. "he can't come," said ann, advancing boldly. "not yet." "what--not sid?" "no. father's made him dust all his boxes again." "what for?" "i dunno. father's in a stew 'smorning." "oh!" pause. kipps looked at her, and then was unable to look at her again. she regarded him with interest. "you left school?" she remarked after a pause. "yes." "so's sid." the conversation languished. ann put her hands on the top of the gate, and began a stationary hopping, a sort of ineffectual gymnastic experiment. "can you run?" she said presently. "run you any day," said kipps. "gimme a start?" "where for?" said kipps. ann considered, and indicated a tree. she walked towards it, and turned. "gimme to here?" she called. kipps, standing now and touching the gate, smiled to express conscious superiority. "further!" he said. "here?" "bit more!" said kipps, and then, repenting of his magnanimity, said "orf!" suddenly, and so recovered his lost concession. they arrived abreast at the tree, flushed and out of breath. "tie!" said ann, throwing her hair back from her face with her hand. "i won," panted kipps. they disputed firmly but quite politely. "run it again, then," said kipps. "_i_ don't mind." they returned towards the gate. "you don't run bad," said kipps, temperately expressing sincere admiration. "i'm pretty good, you know." ann sent her hair back by an expert toss of the head. "you give me a start," she allowed. they became aware of sid approaching them. "you better look out, young ann," said sid, with that irreverent want of sympathy usual in brothers. "you been out nearly 'arf-hour. nothing ain't been done upstairs. father said he didn't know where you was, but when he did he'd warm y'r young ear." ann prepared to go. "how about that race?" asked kipps. "lor!" cried sid, quite shocked. "you ain't been racing _her!_" ann swung herself round the end of the gate with her eyes on kipps, and then turned away suddenly and ran off down the lane. kipps' eyes tried to go after her, and came back to sid's. "i give her a lot of start," said kipps apologetically. "it wasn't a proper race." and so the subject was dismissed. but kipps was _distrait_ for some seconds, perhaps, and the mischief had begun in him. § they proceeded to the question of how two accomplished hurons might most satisfactorily spend the morning. manifestly their line lay straight along the lane to the sea. "there's a new wreck," said sid, "and my!--don't it smell just!" "smell?" "fair make you sick. it's rotten wheat." they fell to talking of wrecks, and so came to ironclads and wars and suchlike manly matters. half-way to the wreck kipps made a casual irrelevant remark. "your sister ain't a bad sort," he said off-handedly. "i clout her a lot," said sidney modestly, and after a pause the talk reverted to more suitable topics. the new wreck was full of rotting grain, and smelt abominably, even as sid had said. this was excellent. they had it all to themselves. they took possession of it in force, at sid's suggestion, and had speedily to defend it against enormous numbers of imaginary "natives," who were at last driven off by loud shouts of _bang_, _bang_, and vigorous thrusting and shoving of sticks. then, also at sid's direction, they sailed with it into the midst of a combined french, german and russian fleet, demolishing the combination unassisted, and having descended to the beach, clambered up the side and cut out their own vessel in brilliant style, they underwent a magnificent shipwreck (with vocalised thunder) and floated "waterlogged"--so sid insisted--upon an exhausted sea. these things drove ann out of mind for a time. but at last, as they drifted without food or water upon a stagnant ocean, haggard-eyed, chins between their hands, looking in vain for a sail, she came to mind again abruptly. "it's rather nice 'aving sisters," remarked one perishing mariner. sid turned round and regarded him thoughtfully. "not it!" he said. "no?" "not a bit of it." he grinned confidentially. "know too much," he said; and afterwards, "get out of things." he resumed his gloomy scrutiny of the hopeless horizon. presently he fell to spitting jerkily between his teeth, as he had read was the way with such ripe manhood as chews its quid. "sisters," he said, "is rot. that's what sisters are. girls if you like, but sisters--no!" "but ain't sisters girls?" "_n-eaow!_" said sid, with unspeakable scorn. and kipps answered, "of course. i didn't mean---- i wasn't thinking of that." "you got a girl?" asked sid, spitting very cleverly again. kipps admitted his deficiency. he felt compunction. "you don't know who _my_ girl is, art kipps--i bet." "who is, then?" asked kipps, still chiefly occupied by his own poverty. "ah!" kipps let a moment elapse before he did his duty. "tell us!" sid eyed him and hesitated. "secret?" he said. "secret." "dying solemn?" "dying solemn!" kipps' self-concentration passed into curiosity. sid administered a terrible oath. even after that precaution he adhered lovingly to his facts. "it begins with a nem," he said, doling them out parsimoniously. "m a u d," he spelt, with a stern eye on kipps, "c h a r t e r i s." now, maud charteris was a young person of eighteen and the daughter of the vicar of st. bavon's,--besides which she had a bicycle,--so that as her name unfolded the face of kipps lengthened with respect. "get out!" he gasped incredulously. "she ain't your girl, sid pornick." "she is!" answered sid, stoutly. "what--truth?" "_truth._" kipps scrutinised his face. "reely?" sid touched wood, whistled, and repeated a binding doggerel with great solemnity. kipps still struggled with the amazing new light on the world about him. "d'you mean--she knows?" sid flushed deeply, and his aspect became stern and gloomy. he resumed his wistful scrutiny of the sunlit sea. "i'd die for that girl, art kipps," he said presently, and kipps did not press a question he felt to be ill timed. "i'd do anything she asked me to do," said sid--"just anything. if she was to ask me to chuck myself into the sea." he met kipps' eye. "i _would_," he said. they were pensive for a space, and then sid began to discourse in fragments of love, a theme upon which kipps had already in a furtive way meditated a little, but which, apart from badinage, he had never yet heard talked about in the light of day. of course many and various aspects of life had come to light in the muffled exchange of knowledge that went on under the shadow of woodrow, but this of sentimental love was not among them. sid, who was a boy with an imagination, having once broached this topic, opened his heart, or at any rate a new wing of his heart, to kipps, and found no fault with kipps for a lack of return. he produced a thumbed novelette that had played a part in his sentimental awakening; he proffered it to kipps, and confessed there was a character in it, a baronet, singularly like himself. this baronet was a person of volcanic passions which he concealed beneath a demeanour of "icy cynicism." the utmost expression he permitted himself was to grit his teeth; and now his attention was called to it, kipps remarked that sid also had a habit of gritting his teeth--and indeed had had all the morning. they read for a time, and presently sid talked again. the conception of love sid made evident was compact of devotion and much spirited fighting and a touch of mystery; but through all that cloud of talk there floated before kipps a face that was flushed and hair that was tossed aside. so they budded, sitting on the blackening old wreck in which men had lived and died, looking out to sea, talking of that other sea upon which they must presently embark.... they ceased to talk, and sid read; but kipps falling behind with the reading and not wishing to admit that he read slowlier than sid, whose education was of the inferior elementary school brand, lapsed into meditation. "i _would_ like to 'ave a girl," said kipps. "i mean just to talk to and all that...." a floating object distracted them at last from this obscure topic. they abandoned the wreck and followed the new interest a mile along the beach, bombarding it with stones until it came to land. they had inclined to a view that it would contain romantic mysteries, but it was simply an ill-preserved kitten--too much even for them. and at last they were drawn dinnerward and went home hungry and pensive side by side. § but kipps' imagination had been warmed by that talk of love, and in the afternoon, when he saw ann pornick in the high street and said "hello!" it was a different "hello" from that of their previous intercourse. and when they had passed they both looked back and caught each other doing so. yes, he _did_ want a girl badly.... afterwards he was distracted by a traction engine going through the town, and his aunt had got some sprats for supper. when he was in bed, however, sentiment came upon him again in a torrent quite abruptly and abundantly, and he put his head under the pillow and whispered very softly, "i love ann pornick," as a sort of supplementary devotion. in his subsequent dreams he ran races with ann, and they lived in a wreck together, and always her face was flushed and her hair about her face. they just lived in a wreck and ran races, and were very, very fond of one another. and their favourite food was rock-chocolate, dates, such as one buys off barrows, and sprats--fried sprats.... in the morning he could hear ann singing in the scullery next door. he listened to her for some time, and it was clear to him that he must put things before her. towards dusk that evening they chanced on one another at the gate by the church; but though there was much in his mind, it stopped there with a resolute shyness until he and ann were out of breath catching cockchafers, and were sitting on that gate of theirs again. ann sat up upon the gate, dark against vast masses of flaming crimson and darkling purple, and her eyes looked at kipps from a shadowed face. there came a stillness between them, and quite abruptly he was moved to tell his love. "ann," he said, "i _do_ like you. i wish you was my girl.... i say, ann: will you _be_ my girl?" ann made no pretence of astonishment. she weighed the proposal for a moment with her eyes on kipps. "if you like, artie," she said lightly. "_i_ don't mind if i am." "all right," said kipps, breathless with excitement, "then you are." "all right," said ann. something seemed to fall between them, and they no longer looked openly at one another. "lor'!" cried ann suddenly, "see that one!" and jumped down and darted after a cockchafer that had boomed within a yard of her face. and with that they were girl and boy again.... they avoided their new relationship painfully. they did not recur to it for several days, though they met twice. both felt that there remained something before this great experience was complete, but there was an infinite diffidence about the next step. kipps talked in fragments of all sorts of matters, telling particularly of the great things that were being done to make a man and a draper of him, how he had two new pairs of trousers and a black coat and four new shirts. and all the while his imagination was urging him to that unknown next step, and when he was alone and in the dark he became even an enterprising wooer. it became evident to him that it would be nice to take ann by the hand; even the decorous novelettes sid affected egged him on to that greater nearness of intimacy. then a great idea came to him, in a paragraph called "lovers' tokens" that he read in a torn fragment of _tit bits_. it fell in to the measure of his courage--a divided sixpence! he secured his aunt's best scissors, fished a sixpence out of his jejune tin money-box, and jabbed his finger in a varied series of attempts to get it in half. when they met again the sixpence was still undivided. he had not intended to mention the matter to her at that stage, but it came up spontaneously. he endeavoured to explain the theory of broken sixpences and his unexpected failure to break one. "but what you break it for?" said ann. "it's no good if it's broke." "it's a token," said kipps. "like...?" "oh, you keep half and i keep half, and when we're sep'rated you look at your half and i look at mine--see! then we think of each other." "oh!" said ann, and appeared to assimilate this information. "only _i_ can't get it in 'arf nohow," said kipps. they discussed this difficulty for some time without illumination. then ann had a happy thought. "tell you what," she said, starting away from him abruptly and laying a hand on his arm, "you let _me_ 'ave it, artie. i know where father keeps his file." kipps handed her the sixpence, and they came upon a pause. "i'll easy do it," said ann. in considering the sixpence side by side, his head had come near her cheek. quite abruptly he was moved to take his next step into the unknown mysteries of love. "ann," he said, and gulped at his temerity, "i _do_ love you. straight. i'd do anything for you, ann. reely--i would." he paused for breath. she answered nothing, but she was no doubt enjoying herself. he came yet closer to her--his shoulder touched hers. "ann, i wish you'd----" he stopped. "what?" said ann. "ann--lemme kiss you." things seemed to hang for a space; his tone, the drop of his courage, made the thing incredible as he spoke. kipps was not of that bold order of wooers who impose conditions. ann perceived that she was not prepared for kissing after all. kissing, she said, was silly, and when kipps would have displayed a belated enterprise, she flung away from him. he essayed argument. he stood afar off, as it were--the better part of a yard--and said she _might_ let him kiss her, and then that he didn't see what good it was for her to be his girl if he couldn't kiss her. she repeated that kissing was silly. a certain estrangement took them homeward. they arrived in the dusky high street not exactly together, and not exactly apart, but struggling. they had not kissed, but all the guilt of kissing was between them. when kipps saw the portly contours of his uncle standing dimly in the shop doorway, his footsteps faltered, and the space between our young couple increased. above, the window over pornick's shop was open, and mrs. pornick was visible, taking the air. kipps assumed an expression of extreme innocence. he found himself face to face with his uncle's advanced outposts of waistcoat buttons. "where ye bin, my boy?" "bin for a walk, uncle." "not along of that brat of pornick's?" "along of who?" "that gell"--indicating ann with his pipe. "oh, no, uncle!"--very faintly. "run in, my boy." old kipps stood aside, with an oblique glance upward, and his nephew brushed clumsily by him and vanished out of sight of the street, into the vague obscurity of the little shop. the door closed behind old kipps with a nervous jangle of its bell, and he set himself to light the single oil lamp that illuminated his shop at nights. it was an operation requiring care and watching, or else it flared and "smelt." often it smelt after all. kipps for some reason found the dusky living-room with his aunt in it too populous for his feelings, and went upstairs. "that brat of pornick's!" it seemed to him that a horrible catastrophe had occurred. he felt he had identified himself inextricably with his uncle, and cut himself off from her for ever by saying "oh, no!" at supper he was so visibly depressed that his aunt asked him if he wasn't feeling well. under this imminent threat of medicine he assumed an unnatural cheerfulness. he lay awake for nearly half an hour that night, groaning because things had all gone wrong--because ann wouldn't let him kiss her, and because his uncle had called her a brat. it seemed to kipps almost as though he himself had called her a brat.... there came an interval during which ann was altogether inaccessible. one, two, three days passed, and he did not see her. sid he met several times; they went fishing, and twice they bathed; but though sid lent and received back two further love stories, they talked no more of love. they kept themselves in accord, however, agreeing that the most flagrantly sentimental story was "proper." kipps was always wanting to speak of ann, but never daring to do so. he saw her on sunday evening going off to chapel. she was more beautiful than ever in her sunday clothes, but she pretended not to see him because her mother was with her. but he thought she pretended not to see him because she had given him up for ever. brat!--who could be expected ever to forgive that? he abandoned himself to despair, he ceased even to haunt the places where she might be found. § with paralysing unexpectedness came the end. mr. shalford, the draper at folkestone to whom he was to be bound apprentice, had expressed a wish to "shape the lad a bit" before the autumn sale. kipps became aware that his box was being packed, and gathered the full truth of things on the evening before his departure. he became feverishly eager to see ann just once more. he made silly and needless excuses to go out into the yard, he walked three times across the street without any excuse at all, to look up at the pornick windows. still she was hidden. he grew desperate. it was within half an hour of his departure that he came on sid. "hello!" he said; "i'm orf!" "business?" "yes." pause. "i say, sid. you going 'ome?" "straight now." "d'you mind? ask ann about that." "about what?" "she'll know." and sid said he would. but even that, it seemed, failed to evoke ann. at last the folkestone bus rumbled up, and he ascended. his aunt stood in the doorway to see him off. his uncle assisted with the box and portmanteau. only furtively could he glance up at the pornick windows, and still it seemed ann hardened her heart against him. "get up!" said the driver, and the hoofs began to clatter. no--she would not come out even to see him off. the bus was in motion, and old kipps was going back into his shop. kipps stared in front of him, assuring himself that he did not care. he heard a door slam, and instantly craned out his neck to look back. he knew that slam so well. behold! out of the haberdasher's door a small, untidy figure in homely pink print had shot resolutely into the road, and was sprinting in pursuit. in a dozen seconds she was abreast of the bus. at the sight of her kipps' heart began to beat very quickly, but he made no immediate motion of recognition. "artie!" she cried breathlessly, "artie! artie! you know! i got _that_!" the bus was already quickening its pace, and leaving her behind again, when kipps realized what "that" meant. he became animated, he gasped, and gathered his courage together, and mumbled an incoherent request to the driver to "stop jest a jiff for sunthin'." the driver grunted, as the disparity of their years demanded, and then the bus had pulled up, and ann was below. she leapt up upon the wheel. kipps looked down into ann's face, and it was foreshortened and resolute. he met her eyes just for one second as their hands touched. he was not a reader of eyes. something passed quickly from hand to hand, something that the driver, alert at the corner of his eye, was not allowed to see. kipps hadn't a word to say, and all she said was, "i done it, 'smorning." it was like a blank space in which something pregnant should have been written and wasn't. then she dropped down, and the bus moved forward. after the lapse of about ten seconds it occurred to him to stand and wave his new bowler hat at her over the corner of the bus top, and to shout hoarsely, "goo-bye, ann! don' forget me--while i'm away!" she stood in the road looking after him, and presently she waved her hand. he remained standing unstably, his bright, flushed face looking back at her, and his hair fluffing in the wind, and he waved his hat until at last the bend of the road hid her from his eyes. then he turned about and sat down, and presently he began to put the half sixpence he held clenched in his hand into his trouser pocket. he looked sideways at the driver, to judge how much he had seen. then he fell a-thinking. he resolved that, come what might, when he came back to new romney at christmas, he would by hook or by crook kiss ann. then everything would be perfect and right, and he would be perfectly happy. chapter ii the emporium § when kipps left new romney, with a small yellow tin box, a still smaller portmanteau, a new umbrella, and a keepsake half-sixpence, to become a draper, he was a youngster of fourteen, thin, with whimsical drakes' tails at the poll of his head, smallish features, and eyes that were sometimes very light and sometimes very dark, gifts those of his birth; and by the nature of his training he was indistinct in his speech, confused in his mind, and retreating in his manners. inexorable fate had appointed him to serve his country in commerce, and the same national bias towards private enterprise and leaving bad alone, which entrusted his general education to mr. woodrow, now indentured him firmly into the hands of mr. shalford, of the folkestone drapery bazaar. apprenticeship is still the recognised english way to the distributing branch of the social service. if mr. kipps had been so unfortunate as to have been born a german he might have been educated in an elaborate and costly special school ("over-educated--crammed up"--old kipps) to fit him for his end--such being their pedagogic way. he might.... but why make unpatriotic reflections in a novel? there was nothing pedagogic about mr. shalford. he was an irascible, energetic little man, with hairy hands, for the most part under his coat tails, a long, shiny, bald head, a pointed, aquiline nose a little askew, and a neatly trimmed beard. he walked lightly and with a confident jerk, and he was given to humming. he had added to exceptional business "push," bankruptcy under the old dispensation, and judicious matrimony. his establishment was now one of the most considerable in folkestone, and he insisted on every inch of frontage by alternate stripes of green and yellow down the houses over the shops. his shops were numbered , and on the street, and on his billheads to . he encountered the abashed and awestricken kipps with the praises of his system and himself. he spread himself out behind his desk with a grip on the lapel of his coat and made kipps a sort of speech. "we expect y'r to work, y'r know, and we expect y'r to study our interests," explained mr. shalford in the regal and commercial plural. "our system here is the best system y'r could have. i made it, and i ought to know. i began at the very bottom of the ladder when i was fourteen, and there isn't a step in it i don't know. not a step. mr. booch in the desk will give y'r the card of rules and fines. jest wait a minute." he pretended to be busy with some dusty memoranda under a paper-weight, while kipps stood in a sort of paralysis of awe regarding his new master's oval baldness. "two thous'n three forty-seven pounds," whispered mr. shalford audibly, feigning forgetfulness of kipps. clearly a place of great transactions! mr. shalford rose, and handing kipps a blotting-pad and an inkpot to carry--mere symbols of servitude, for he made no use of them--emerged into a counting-house where three clerks had been feverishly busy ever since his door handle had turned. "booch," said mr. shalford, "'ave y'r copy of the rules?" and a down-trodden, shabby little old man with a ruler in one hand and a quill pen in his mouth, silently held out a small book with green and yellow covers, mainly devoted, as kipps presently discovered, to a voracious system of fines. he became acutely aware that his hands were full, and that everybody was staring at him. he hesitated a moment before putting the inkpot down to free a hand. "mustn't fumble like _that_," said mr. shalford as kipps pocketed the rules. "won't do here. come along, come along," and he cocked his coat tails high, as a lady might hold up her dress, and led the way into the shop. a vast interminable place it seemed to kipps, with unending shining counters and innumerable faultlessly dressed young men and presently houri-like young women staring at him. here there was a long vista of gloves dangling from overhead rods, there ribbons and baby-linen. a short young lady in black mittens was making out the account of a customer, and was clearly confused in her addition by shalford's eagle eye. a thickset young man with a bald head and a round, very wise face, who was profoundly absorbed in adjusting all the empty chairs down the counter to absolutely equal distances, awoke out of his preoccupation and answered respectfully to a few napoleonic and quite unnecessary remarks from his employer. kipps was told that this young man's name was mr. buggins, and that he was to do whatever mr. buggins told him to do. they came round a corner into a new smell, which was destined to be the smell of kipps' life for many years, the vague, distinctive smell of manchester goods. a fat man with a large nose jumped--actually jumped--at their appearance, and began to fold a pattern of damask in front of him exactly like an automaton that is suddenly set going. "carshot, see to this boy to-morrow," said the master. "see he don't fumble. smart'n 'im up." "yussir," said carshot fatly, glanced at kipps, and resumed his pattern-folding with extreme zeal. "whatever mr. carshot says y'r to do, ye _do_," said mr. shalford, trotting onward; and carshot blew out his face with an appearance of relief. they crossed a large room full of the strangest things kipps had ever seen. ladylike figures, surmounted by black wooden knobs in the place of the refined heads one might have reasonably expected, stood about with a lifelike air of conscious fashion. "costume room," said shalford. two voices engaged in some sort of argument--"i can assure you, miss mergle, you are entirely mistaken--entirely, in supposing i should do anything so unwomanly,"--sank abruptly, and they discovered two young ladies, taller and fairer than any of the other young ladies, and with black trains to their dresses, who were engaged in writing at a little table. whatever they told him to do, kipps gathered he was to do. he was also, he understood, to do whatever carshot and booch told him to do. and there were also buggins and mr. shalford. and not to forget or fumble! they descended into a cellar called "the warehouse," and kipps had an optical illusion of errand boys fighting. some aerial voice said, "teddy!" and the illusion passed. he looked again, and saw quite clearly that they were packing parcels and always would be, and that the last thing in the world that they would or could possibly do was to fight. yet he gathered from the remarks mr. shalford addressed to their busy backs that they had been fighting--no doubt at some past period of their lives. emerging in the shop again among a litter of toys and what are called "fancy articles," shalford withdrew a hand from beneath his coat tails to indicate an overhead change-carrier. he entered into elaborate calculations to show how many minutes in one year were saved thereby, and lost himself among the figures. "seven tums eight seven nine--was it? or seven eight nine? now, _now_! why, when i was a boy your age i c'd do a sum like that as soon as hear it. we'll soon get y'r into better shape than that. make you fishent. well, y'r must take my word, it comes to pounds and pounds saved in the year--pounds and pounds. system! system everywhere. fishency." he went on murmuring "fishency" and "system" at intervals for some time. they passed into a yard, and mr. shalford waved his hand to his three delivery vans all striped green and yellow--"uniform--green, yell'r--system." all over the premises were pinned absurd little cards. "this door locked after : .--by order, edwin shalford," and the like. mr. shalford always wrote "by order," though it conveyed no earthly meaning to him. he was one of those people who collect technicalities upon them as the reduvius bug collects dirt. he was the sort of man who is not only ignorant, but absolutely incapable of english. when he wanted to say he had a sixpenny-ha'penny longcloth to sell, he put it thus to startled customers: "can do you one, six half if y' like." he always omitted pronouns and articles and so forth; it seemed to him the very essence of the efficiently businesslike. his only preposition was "as" or the compound "as per." he abbreviated every word he could; he would have considered himself the laughing-stock of wood street if he had chanced to spell _socks_ in any way but "sox." but, on the other hand, if he saved words here, he wasted them there: he never acknowledged an order that was not an esteemed favour, nor sent a pattern without begging to submit it. he never stipulated for so many months' credit, but bought in november "as jan." it was not only words he abbreviated in his london communications. in paying his wholesalers his "system" admitted of a constant error in the discount of a penny or twopence, and it "facilitated business," he alleged, to ignore odd pence in the cheques he wrote. his ledger clerk was so struck with the beauty of this part of the system, that he started a private one on his own account with the stamp box, that never came to shalford's knowledge. this admirable british merchant would glow with a particular pride of intellect when writing his london orders. "ah! do y'r think _you_'ll ever be able to write london orders?" he would say with honest pride to kipps, waiting impatiently long after closing time to take these triumphs of commercial efficiency to post, and so end the interminable day. kipps shook his head, anxious for mr. shalford to get on. "now, here, f' example, i've written--see?--' piece in. cott. blk, elas. / or.' what do i mean by that _or_, eh?--d'ye know?" kipps promptly hadn't the faintest idea. "and then, ' ea. silk net as per patts herewith': _ea._, eh?" "dunno, sir." it was not mr. shalford's way to explain things. "dear, dear! pity you couldn't get some c'mercial education at your school. 'stid of all this lit'ry stuff. well, my boy, if y' don't 'ussel a bit y'll never write london orders, _that's_ pretty plain. jest stick stamps on all those letters, and mind y'r stick 'em right way up, and try and profit a little more by the opportunities your aunt and uncle have provided ye. can't say _what_'ll happen t'ye if ye don't." and kipps, tired, hungry, and belated, set about stamping with vigour and despatch. "lick the _envelope_," said mr. shalford, "lick the _envelope_," as though he grudged the youngster the postage-stamp gum. "it's the little things mount up," he would say; and, indeed, that was his philosophy of life--to bustle and save, always to bustle and save. his political creed linked reform, which meant nothing, with efficiency which meant a sweated service, and economy which meant a sweated expenditure, and his conception of a satisfactory municipal life was to "keep down the rates." even his religion was to save his soul, and to preach a similar cheese-paring to the world. § the indentures that bound kipps to mr. shalford were antique and complex: they insisted on the latter gentleman's parental privileges; they forbade kipps to dice and game; they made him over body and soul to mr. shalford for seven long years, the crucial years of his life. in return there were vague stipulations about teaching the whole art and mystery of the trade to him; but as there was no penalty attached to negligence, mr. shalford, being a sound, practical business man, considered this a mere rhetorical flourish, and set himself assiduously to get as much out of kipps and to put as little into him as he could in the seven years of their intercourse. what he put into kipps was chiefly bread and margarine, infusions of chicory and tea-dust, colonial meat by contract at threepence a pound, potatoes by the sack, and watered beer. if, however, kipps chose to buy any supplementary material for growth, mr. shalford had the generosity to place his kitchen resources at his disposal free--if the fire chanced to be going. he was also allowed to share a bedroom with eight other young englishmen, and to sleep in a bed which, except in very severe weather, could be made with the help of his overcoat and private underlinen, not to mention newspapers, quite sufficiently warm for any reasonable soul. in addition kipps was taught the list of fines; and how to tie up parcels; to know where goods were kept in mr. shalford's systematised shop; to hold his hands extended upon the counter and to repeat such phrases as "what can i have the pleasure...?" "no trouble, i 'ssure you," and the like; to block, fold, and measure materials of all sorts; to lift his hat from his head when he passed mr. shalford abroad, and to practise a servile obedience to a large number of people. but he was not, of course, taught the "cost" mark of the goods he sold, nor anything of the method of buying such goods. nor was his attention directed to the unfamiliar social habits and fashions to which his trade ministered. the use of half the goods he saw sold and was presently to assist in selling he did not understand; materials for hangings, cretonnes, chintzes, and the like, serviettes and all the bright, hard white wear of a well-ordered house, pleasant dress materials, linings, stiffenings--they were to him from first to last no more than things heavy and difficult to handle in bulk, that one folded up, unfolded, cut in lengths, and saw dwindle and pass away out into that mysterious happy world in which the customer dwells. kipps hurried from piling linen table-cloths, that were collectively as heavy as lead, to eat off oil-cloth in a gas-lit dining-room underground; and he dreamt of combing endless blankets beneath his overcoat, spare undershirt, and three newspapers. so he had at least the chance of learning the beginnings of philosophy. in return for these benefits he worked so that he commonly went to bed exhausted and footsore. his round began at half-past six in the morning, when he would descend unwashed and shirtless, in old clothes and a scarf, and dust boxes and yawn, and take down wrappers and clean the windows until eight. then in half an hour he would complete his toilet and take an austere breakfast of bread and margarine and what only an imperial englishman would admit to be coffee, after which refreshment he ascended to the shop for the labours of the day. commonly these began with a mighty running to and fro with planks and boxes and goods for carshot, the window-dresser, who, whether he worked well or ill, nagged persistently by reason of a chronic indigestion, until the window was done. sometimes the costume window had to be dressed, and then kipps staggered down the whole length of the shop from the costume room with one after another of those ladylike shapes grasped firmly, but shamefully, each about her single ankle of wood. such days as there was no window-dressing, there was a mighty carrying and lifting of blocks and bales of goods into piles and stacks. after this there were terrible exercises, at first almost despairfully difficult: certain sorts of goods that came in folded had to be rolled upon rollers, and for the most part refused absolutely to be rolled, at any rate by kipps; and certain other sorts of goods that came from the wholesalers rolled had to be measured and folded, which folding makes young apprentices wish they were dead. all of it, too, quite avoidable trouble, you know, that is not avoided because of the cheapness of the genteeler sorts of labour and the dearness of forethought in the world. and then consignments of new goods had to be marked off and packed into proper parcels; and carshot packed like conjuring tricks, and kipps packed like a boy with tastes in some other direction--not ascertained. and always carshot nagged. he had a curious formula of appeal to his visceral oeconomy, had carshot, that the refinement of the times and the earnest entreaties of my friends induce me to render by an anæmic paraphrase. "my heart and lungs! i never see such a boy," so i present carshot's refrain; and even when he was within a foot or so of the customer's face the disciplined ear of kipps would still at times develop a featureless, intercalary murmur into--well, "my heart and lungs!" there came a blessed interval when kipps was sent abroad "matching." this consisted chiefly in supplying unexpected defects in buttons, ribbon, lining, and so forth in the dressmaking department. he was given a written paper of orders with patterns pinned thereto, and discharged into the sunshine and interest of the street. then, until he thought it wise to return and stand the racket of his delay, he was a free man, clear of all reproach. he made remarkable discoveries in topography, as for example that the most convenient way from the establishment of mr. adolphus davis to the establishment of messrs. plummer, roddis & tyrrel, two of his principal places of call, is not as is generally supposed down the sandgate road, but up the sandgate road, round by west terrace, and along the leas to the lift, watch the lift up and down _twice_, but not longer, because that wouldn't do, back along the leas, watch the harbour for a short time, and then round by the churchyard, and so (hurrying) into church street and rendezvous street. but on some exceptionally fine days the route lay through radnor park to the pond where the little boys sail ships and there are interesting swans. he would return to find the shop settling down to the business of serving customers. and now he had to stand by to furnish any help that was necessary to the seniors who served, to carry parcels and bills about the shop, to clear away "stuff" after each engagement, to hold up curtains until his arms ached, and what was more difficult than all, to do nothing, and not stare disconcertingly at customers when there was nothing for him to do. he plumbed an abyss of boredom, or stood a mere carcass, with his mind far away, fighting the enemies of the empire, or steering a dream ship perilously into unknown seas. to be recalled sharply to our higher civilisation by some bustling senior's "nar then, kipps. _look_ alive! ketch 'old. (my heart and lungs!)" at half-past seven o'clock--except on late nights--a feverish activity of "straightening up" began, and when the last shutter was up outside, kipps with the speed of an arrow leaving a bow would start hanging wrappers over the fixtures and over the piles of wares upon the counters, preparatory to a vigorous scattering of wet sawdust and the sweeping out of the shop. sometimes people would stay long after the shop was closed--"they don't mind a bit at shalford's," these ladies used to say--it is always ladies do this sort of thing--and while they loitered it was forbidden to touch a wrapper, or take any measures to conclude the day until the doors closed behind them. mr. kipps would watch these later customers from the shadow of a stack of goods, and death and disfigurement was the least he wished for them. rarely much later than nine, a supper of bread and cheese and watered beer awaited him upstairs, and, that consumed, the rest of the day was entirely at his disposal for reading, recreation, and the improvement of his mind.... the front door was locked at half-past ten, and the gas in the dormitory extinguished at eleven. § on sundays he was obliged to go to church once, and commonly he went twice, for there was nothing else to do. he sat in the free seats at the back; he was too shy to sing, and not always clever enough to keep his place in the prayer-book, and he rarely listened to the sermon. but he had developed a sort of idea that going to church had a tendency to alleviate life. his aunt wanted to have him confirmed, but he evaded this ceremony for some years. in the intervals between services he walked about folkestone with an air of looking for something. folkestone was not so interesting on sundays as on week-days, because the shops were shut; but on the other hand there was a sort of confusing brilliance along the front of the leas in the afternoon. sometimes the apprentice next above him would condescend to go with him; but when the apprentice next but one above him condescended to go with the apprentice next above him, then kipps, being habited as yet in ready-made clothes without tails, and unsuitable therefore to appear in such company, went alone. sometimes he would strike out into the country--still as if looking for something he missed--but the rope of meal-times haled him home again; and sometimes he would invest the major portion of the weekly allowance of a shilling that old booch handed out to him, in a sacred concert on the pier. he would sometimes walk up and down the leas between twenty and thirty times after supper, desiring much the courage to speak to some other person in the multitude similarly employed. almost invariably he ended his sunday footsore. he never read a book; there were none for him to read, and besides, in spite of mr. woodrow's guidance through a cheap and cheaply annotated edition of the _tempest_ (english literature) he had no taste that way; he never read any newspapers, except occasionally _tit-bits_ or a ha'penny "comic." his chief intellectual stimulus was an occasional argey-bargey that sprang up between carshot and buggins at dinner. kipps listened as if to unparalleled wisdom and wit, and treasured all the gems of repartee in his heart against the time when he, too, should be a buggins and have the chance and courage for speech. at times there came breaks in this routine--sale times, darkened by extra toil and work past midnight, but brightened by a sprat supper and some shillings in the way of 'premiums.' and every year--not now and then, but every year--mr. shalford, with parenthetic admiration of his own generosity and glancing comparisons with the austerer days when _he_ was apprenticed, conceded kipps no less than ten days' holiday--ten whole days every year! many a poor soul at portland might well envy the fortunate kipps. insatiable heart of man! but how those days were grudged and counted as they snatched themselves away from him one after another! once a year came stock-taking, and at intervals gusts of "marking off" goods newly arrived. then the splendours of mr. shalford's being shone with oppressive brilliancy. "system!" he would say, "system. come! 'ussel!" and issue sharp, confusing, contradictory orders very quickly. carshot trotted about, confused, perspiring, his big nose up in the air, his little eye on mr. shalford, his forehead crinkled, his lips always going to the formula "oh, my heart and lungs!" the smart junior and the second apprentice vied with one another in obsequious alacrity. the smart junior aspired to carshot's position, and that made him almost violently subservient to shalford. they all snapped at kipps. kipps held the blotting-pad and the safety inkpot and a box of tickets, and ran and fetched things. if he put the ink down before he went to fetch things mr. shalford usually knocked it over, and if he took it away mr. shalford wanted it before he returned. "you make my tooth ache, kipps," mr. shalford would say. "you gimme n'ralgia. you got no more system in you than a bad potato." and at the times when kipps carried off the inkpot mr. shalford would become purple in the face and jab round with his dry pen at imaginary inkpots and swear, and carshot would stand and vociferate, and the smart junior would run to the corner of the department and vociferate, and the second apprentice would pursue kipps, vociferating, "look alive, kipps! look alive! ink, man! ink!" a vague self-disgust, that shaped itself as an intense hate of shalford and all his fellow-creatures, filled the soul of kipps during these periods of storm and stress. he felt that the whole business was unjust and idiotic, but the why and the wherefore was too much for his unfortunate brain. his mind was a welter. one desire, the desire to dodge some at least of a pelting storm of disagreeable comment, guided him through a fumbling performance of his duties. his disgust was infinite! it was not decreased by the inflamed ankles and sore feet that form a normal incident in the business of making an english draper; and the senior apprentice, minton, a gaunt, sullen-faced youngster with close-cropped, wiry, black hair, a loose, ugly mouth, and a moustache like a smudge of ink, directed his attention to deeper aspects of the question and sealed his misery. "when you get too old to work they chuck you away," said minton. "lor! you find old drapers everywhere--tramps, beggars, dock labourers, 'bus conductors--quod. anywhere but in a crib." "don't they get shops of their own?" "lord! '_ow_ are they to get shops of their own? they 'aven't any capital! how's a draper's shopman to save up five hundred pounds even? i tell you it can't be done. you got to stick to cribs until it's over. i tell you we're in a blessed drainpipe, and we've got to crawl along it till we die." the idea that fermented perpetually in the mind of minton was to "hit the little beggar slap in the eye"--the little beggar being mr. shalford--"and see how his blessed system met that." the threat filled kipps with splendid anticipations whenever shalford went marking off in minton's department. he would look at minton and look at shalford, and decide where he would best like shalford hit.... but for reasons known to himself shalford never pished and tushed with minton, as he did at the harmless carshot, and this interesting experiment upon the system was never attempted. § there were times when kipps would lie awake, all others in the dormitory asleep and snoring, and think dismally of the outlook minton pictured. dimly he perceived the thing that had happened to him--how the great, stupid machine of retail trade had caught his life into its wheels, a vast, irresistible force which he had neither strength of will nor knowledge to escape. this was to be his life until his days should end. no adventures, no glory, no change, no freedom. neither--though the force of that came home to him later--might he dream of effectual love and marriage. and there was a terrible something called the "swap," or "the key of the street," and "crib hunting," of which the talk was scanty but sufficient. night after night he would resolve to enlist, to run away to sea, to set fire to the warehouse, or drown himself; and morning after morning he rose up and hurried downstairs in fear of a sixpenny fine. he would compare his dismal round of servile drudgery with those windy, sunlit days at littlestone, those windows of happiness shining ever brighter as they receded. the little figure of ann seemed in all these windows now. she, too, had happened on evil things. when kipps went home for the first christmas after he was bound, that great suspended resolve of his to kiss her flared up to hot determination, and he hurried out and whistled in the yard. there was a still silence, and then old kipps appeared behind him. "it's no good your whistling there, my boy," said old kipps in a loud, clear tone, designed to be audible over the wall. "they've cleared out all you 'ad any truck with. _she's_ gone as help to ashford, my boy. _help!_ slavey is what we used to call 'em, but times are changed. wonder they didn't say lady-'elp while they was about it. it 'ud be like 'em." and sid? sid had gone, too. "arrand boy or somethink," said old kipps. "to one of these here brasted cicycle shops." "_has_ 'e!" said kipps, with a feeling that he had been gripped about the chest, and he turned quickly and went indoors. old kipps, still supposing him present, went on to further observations of an anti-pornick hue.... when kipps got upstairs safe in his own bedroom, he sat down on the bed and stared at nothing. they were caught--they were all caught. all life took on the hue of one perpetual, dismal monday morning. the hurons were scattered, the wrecks and the beach had passed away from him, the sun of those warm evenings at littlestone had set for evermore.... the only pleasure left for the brief remainder of his holiday after that was to think he was not in the shop. even that was transient. two more days--one more day--half a day. when he went back there were one or two very dismal nights indeed. he went so far as to write home some vague intimation of his feelings about business and his prospects, quoting minton. but mrs. kipps answered him, "did he want the pornicks to say he wasn't good enough to be a draper?" this dreadful possibility was of course conclusive in the matter. "no," he resolved they should not say he failed at that. he derived much help from a "manly" sermon delivered in an enormous voice by a large, fat, sun-red clergyman, just home from a colonial bishopric he had resigned on the plea of ill-health, exhorting him that whatever his hand found to do, he was to do with all his might; and the revision of his catechism preparatory to his confirmation reminded him that it behooved him "to do his duty in that state of life unto which it shall please god to call him...." after a time the sorrows of kipps grew less acute, and save for a miracle the brief tragedy of his life was over. he subdued himself to his position even as his church required of him, seeing moreover no way out of it. the earliest mitigation of his lot was that his soles and ankles became indurated to the perpetual standing. the next was an unexpected weekly whiff of freedom that came every thursday. mr. shalford, after a brave stand for what he called "innyvishal lib'ty" and the "idea of my system," a stand which he explained he made chiefly on patriotic grounds, was at last, under pressure of certain of his customers, compelled to fall in line with the rest of the local early closing association, and mr. kipps could emerge in daylight and go where he listed for long, long hours. moreover minton, the pessimist, reached the end of his appointed time and left--to enlist in a cavalry regiment and go about this planet leading an insubordinate but interesting life, that ended at last in an intimate, vivid and really you know by no means painful or tragic night grapple in the terah valley. in a little while kipps cleaned windows no longer; he was serving customers (of the less important sort) and taking goods out on approval; and presently he was third apprentice, and his moustache was visible, and there were three apprentices whom he might legally snub and cuff. but one was (most dishonestly) too big to cuff in spite of his greener years. § there came still other distractions, the natural distractions of adolescence, to take his mind off the inevitable. his costume, for example, began to interest him more; he began to realise himself as a visible object, to find an interest in the costume-room mirrors and the eyes of the girl apprentices. in this he was helped by counsel and example. pierce, his immediate senior, was by way of being what was called a masher, and preached his cult. during slack times grave discussions about collars, ties, the cut of trouser legs, and the proper shape of a boot-toe, were held in the manchester department. in due course kipps went to a tailor, and his short jacket was replaced by a morning coat with tails. stirred by this, he purchased at his own expense three stand-up collars to replace his former turn-down ones. they were nearly three inches high, higher than those pierce wore, and they made his neck quite sore and left a red mark under his ears.... so equipped, he found himself fit company even for this fashionable apprentice, who had now succeeded minton in his seniority. most potent help of all in the business of forgetting his cosmic disaster was this, that so soon as he was in tail coats the young ladies of the establishment began to discover that he was no longer a "horrid little boy." hitherto they had tossed heads at him and kept him in his place. now they discovered that he was a "nice boy," which is next door at least to being a "feller," and in some ways even preferable. it is painful to record that his fidelity to ann failed at their first onset. i am fully sensible how entirely better this story would be from a sentimental point of view if he had remained true to that early love. only then it would have been a different story altogether. and at least kipps was thus far true, that with none of these later loves was there any of that particular quality that linked ann's flushed face and warmth and the inner things of life so inseparably together. though they were not without emotions of various sorts. it was one of the young ladies in the costume-room who first showed by her manner that he was a visible object and capable of exciting interest. she talked to him, she encouraged him to talk to her, she lent him a book she possessed, and darned a sock for him, and said she would be his elder sister. she allowed him to escort her to church with a great air of having induced him to go. then she investigated his eternal welfare, overcame a certain affectation of virile indifference to religion, and extorted a promise that he would undergo "confirmation." this excited the other young lady in the costumes, her natural rival, and she set herself with great charm and subtlety to the capture of the ripening heart of kipps. she took a more worldly line. she went for a walk with him to the pier on sunday afternoon, and explained to him how a gentleman must always walk "outside" a lady on a pavement, and how all gentlemen wore, or at least carried gloves, and generally the broad beginnings of the british social ideal. afterwards the ladies exchanged "words," upon sabbatical grounds. in this way was the _toga virilis_ bestowed on kipps, and he became recognised as a suitable object for that platonic eros whose blunted darts devastate even the very highest-class establishments. in this way, too, did that pervading ambition of the british young man to be, if not a "gentleman," at least mistakably like one, take root in his heart. he took to these new interests with quite natural and personal zest. he became initiated into the mysteries of "flirting," and--at a slightly later stage, and with some leading hints from pierce, who was of a communicative disposition in these matters--of the milder forms of "spooning." very soon he was engaged. before two years were out he had been engaged six times, and was beginning to be rather a desperate fellow, so far as he could make out. desperate, but quite gentlemanly, be it understood, and without let or hindrance to the fact that he was, in four brief lessons, "prepared" by a distant-mannered and gloomy young curate, and "confirmed" a member of the established church. the engagements in drapery establishments do not necessarily involve a subsequent marriage. they are essentially more refined, less coarsely practical, and altogether less binding than the engagements of the vulgar rich. these young ladies do not like not to be engaged--it is so unnatural; and mr. kipps was as easy to get engaged to as one could wish. there are, from the young lady's point of view, many conveniences in being engaged. you get an escort for church and walks and so forth. it is not quite the thing to walk abroad with a "feller," much more to "spoon" with him, when he is neither one's _fiancé_ nor an adopted brother; it is considered either a little _fast_, or else as savouring of the "walking-out" habits of the servant girls. now, such is the sweetness of human charity, that the shop young lady in england has just the same horror of doing anything that savours of the servant girl as the lady journalist, let us say, has of anything savouring of the shop girl, or the really quite nice young lady has of anything savouring of any sort of girl who has gone down into the economic battlefield to earn herself a living.... but the very deepest of these affairs was still among the shallow places of love; at best it was paddling where it is decreed that men must sink or swim. of the deep and dangerous places, and of the huge buoyant lift of its waves, he tasted nothing. affairs of clothes and vanities they were, jealousies about a thing said, flatteries and mutual boastings, climaxes in the answering grasp of hands, the temerarious use of christian names, culminations in a walk, or a near confidence, or a little pressure more or less. close-sitting on a seat after twilight, with some little fondling, was indeed the boldest of a lover's adventures, the utmost limit of his enterprises in the service of that stark great lady, who is daughter of uranus and the sea. the "young ladies" who reigned in his heart came and went like people in an omnibus: there was the vehicle, so to speak, upon the road, and they entered and left it without any cataclysm of emotion. for all that, this development of the sex interest was continuously very interesting to kipps, and kept him going as much as anything through all these servile years. § for a tailpiece to this chapter one may vignette one of those little affairs. it is a bright sunday afternoon; the scene is a secluded little seat half-way down the front of the leas, and kipps is four years older than when he parted from ann. there is a quite perceptible down upon his upper lip, and his costume is just as tremendous a "mash" as lies within his means. his collar is so high that it scars his inaggressive jawbone, and his hat has a curly brim, his tie shows taste, his trousers are modestly brilliant, and his boots have light cloth uppers and button at the side. he jabs at the gravel before him with a cheap cane, and glances sideways at flo bates, the young lady from the cash desk. she is wearing a brilliant blouse and a gaily trimmed hat. there is an air of fashion about her that might disappear under the analysis of a woman of the world, but which is quite sufficient to make kipps very proud to be distinguished as her particular "feller," and to be allowed at temperate intervals to use her christian name. the conversation is light and gay in the modern style, and flo keeps on smiling, good temper being her special charm. "ye see, you don' mean what _i_ mean," he is saying. "well, what do _you_ mean?" "not what you mean!" "well, tell me." "_ah!_ that's another story." pause. they look meaningly at one another. "you _are_ a one for being roundabout," says the lady. "well, you're not so plain, you know." "not plain?" "no." "you don't mean to say i'm roundabout?" "no. i mean to say ... though----" pause. "well?" "you're not a bit plain--you're" (his voice jumps up to a squeak) "pretty. see?" "oh, get _out_!" her voice lifts also--with pleasure. she strikes at him with her glove, then glances suddenly at a ring upon her finger. her smile disappears momentarily. another pause. eyes meet and the smile returns. "i wish i knew----" says kipps. "knew----?" "where you got that ring." she lifts the hand with the ring until her eyes just show (very prettily) over it. "you'd just _like_ to know," she says slowly, and smiles still more brightly with the sense of successful effect. "i dessay i could guess." "i dessay you couldn't." "couldn't i?" "no!" "guess it in three." "not the name." "ah!" "_ah!_" "well, anyhow lemme look at it." he looks at it. pause. giggles, slight struggle, and a slap on kipps' coatsleeve. a passerby appears down the path, and she hastily withdraws her hand. she glances at the face of the approaching man. they maintain a bashful silence until he has passed. chapter iii the wood-carving class § though these services to venus epipontia, the seaside venus, and these studies in the art of dress, did much to distract his thoughts and mitigate his earlier miseries, it would be mere optimism to present kipps as altogether happy. a vague dissatisfaction with life drifted about him and every now and again enveloped him like a sea fog. during these periods it was greyly evident that there was something, something vital in life, lacking. for no earthly reason that kipps could discover, he was haunted by a suspicion that life was going wrong or had already gone wrong in some irrevocable way. the ripening self-consciousness of adolescence developed this into a clearly felt insufficiency. it was all very well to carry gloves, open doors, never say "miss" to a girl, and walk "outside," but were there not other things, conceivably even deeper things, before the complete thing was attained? for example, certain matters of knowledge. he perceived great bogs of ignorance about him, fumbling traps, where other people, it was alleged, _real_ gentlemen and ladies, for example, and the clergy, had knowledge and assurance, bogs which it was sometimes difficult to elude. a girl arrived in the millinery department who could, she said, _speak_ french and german. she snubbed certain advances, and a realisation of inferiority blistered kipps. but he tried to pass the thing off as a joke by saying, "parlez-vous francey," whenever he met her, and inducing the junior apprentice to say the same. he even made some dim half-secret experiments towards remedying the deficiencies he suspected. he spent five shillings on five serial numbers of a home educator, and bought (and even thought of reading) a shakespeare and a bacon's "advancement of learning" and the poems of herrick from a chap who was hard up. he battled with shakespeare all one sunday afternoon, and found the "english literature" with which mr. woodrow had equipped him had vanished down some crack in his mind. he had no doubt it was very splendid stuff, but he couldn't quite make out what it was all about. there was an occult meaning, he knew, in literature, and he had forgotten it. moreover, he discovered one day, while taunting the junior apprentice with ignorance, that his "rivers of england" had also slipped his memory, and he laboriously restored that fabric of rote learning: "ty wear tees 'umber...." i suppose some such phase of discontent is a normal thing in every adolescence. the ripening mind seeks something upon which its will may crystallise, upon which its discursive emotions, growing more abundant with each year of life, may concentrate. for many, though not for all, it takes a religious direction, but in those particular years the mental atmosphere of folkestone was exceptionally free from any revivalistic disturbance that might have reached kipps' mental being. sometimes they fall in love. i have known this uneasiness end in different cases in a vow to read one book (not a novel) every week, to read the bible through in a year, to pass in the honours division of the london matriculation examination, to become an accomplished chemist, and never more to tell a lie. it led kipps finally into technical education as we understand it in the south of england. it was in the last year of his apprenticeship that he had pursued his researches after that missing qualification into the folkestone young men's association, where mr. chester coote prevailed. mr. chester coote was a young man of semi-independent means who inherited a share in a house agency, read mrs. humphry ward, and took an interest in social work. he was a whitish-faced young man with a prominent nose, pale blue eyes, and a quivering quality in his voice. he was very active upon committees; he was very prominent and useful on all social occasions, in evidence upon platforms and upon all those semi-public occasions when the great descend. he lived with an only sister. to kipps and his kind in the young men's association he read a stimulating paper on "self-help." he said it was the noblest of all our distinctive english characteristics, and he was very much down upon the "over-educated" germans. at the close a young german hairdresser made a few commendatory remarks which developed somehow into an oration on hanoverian politics. as he became excited he became guttural and obscure; the meeting sniggered cheerfully at such ridiculous english, and kipps was so much amused that he forgot a private project to ask this chester coote how he might set about a little self-help on his own private account in such narrow margins of time as the system of mr. shalford spared him. but afterwards in the night-time it came to him again. it was a few months later, and after his apprenticeship was over and mr. shalford had with depreciatory observations taken him on as an improver at twenty pounds a year, that this question was revived by a casual article on technical education in a morning paper that a commercial traveller had left behind him. it played the _rôle_ of the word in season. something in the nature of conversion, a faint sort of concentration of purpose, really occurred in him then. the article was written with penetrating vehemence, and it stimulated him to the pitch of inquiring about the local science and art classes, and after he had told everybody in the shop about it and taken the advice of all who supported his desperate resolution, he joined. at first he attended the class in freehand, that being the subject taught on early closing night; and he had already made some progress in that extraordinary routine of reproducing freehand "copies" which for two generations had passed with english people for instruction in art, when the dates of the classes were changed. thereby just as the march winds were blowing he was precipitated into the wood-carving class, and his mind diverted first to this useful and broadening pursuit, and then to its teacher. § the class in wood-carving was an extremely select class, conducted at that time by a young lady named walshingham, and as this young lady was destined by fortune to teach kipps a great deal more than wood carving, it will be well if the reader gets the picture of her correctly in mind. she was only a year or so older than he was; she had a pale, intellectual face, dark grey eyes, and black hair, which she wore over her forehead in an original and striking way that she had adopted from a picture by rossetti in the south kensington museum. she was slender, so that without ungainliness she had an effect of being tall, and her hands were shapely and white when they came into contrast with hands much exercised in rolling and blocking. she dressed in those loose and pleasant forms and those soft and tempered shades that arose in england in the socialistic-æsthetic epoch and remain to this day among us as the badge of those who read turgenev's novels, scorn current fiction, and think on higher planes. i think she was as beautiful as most beautiful people, and to kipps she was altogether beautiful. she had, kipps learnt, matriculated at london university, an astounding feat to his imagination; and the masterly way in which she demonstrated how to prod and worry honest pieces of wood into useless and unedifying patterns in relief extorted his utmost admiration. at first, when kipps had learnt he was to be taught by a "girl," he was inclined to resent it, the more so as buggins had recently been very strong on the gross injustice of feminine employment. "we have to keep wives," said buggins (though as a matter of fact he did not keep even one), "and how are we to do it with a lot of girls coming in to take the work out of our mouths?" afterwards kipps, in conjunction with pierce, looked at it from another point of view, and thought it would be rather a "lark." finally, when he saw her, and saw her teaching, and coming nearer to him with an impressive deliberation, he was breathless with awe and the quality of her dark, slender femininity. the class consisted of two girls and a maiden lady of riper years, friends of miss walshingham's, and anxious rather to support her in an interesting experiment than to become really expert wood-carvers; an oldish young man with spectacles and a black beard, who never spoke to any one, and who was evidently too short-sighted to see his work as a whole; a small boy who was understood to have a "gift" for wood-carving; and a lodging-house keeper who "took classes" every winter, she told mr. kipps, as though they were a tonic, and "found they did her good." and occasionally mr. chester coote--refined and gentlemanly--would come into the class, with or without papers, ostensibly on committee business, but in reality to talk to the less attractive one of the two girl students; and sometimes a brother of miss walshingham's, a slender, dark young man with a pale face, and fluctuating resemblances to the young napoleon, would arrive just at the end of the class-time to see his sister home. all these personages impressed kipps with a sense of inferiority that in the case of miss walshingham became positively abysmal. the ideas and knowledge they appeared to have, their personal capacity and freedom, opened a new world to his imagination. these people came and went, with a sense of absolute assurance, against an overwhelming background of plaster casts, diagrams and tables, benches and a blackboard--a background that seemed to him to be saturated with recondite knowledge and the occult and jealously guarded tips and secrets that constitute art and the higher life. they went home, he imagined, to homes where the piano was played with distinction and freedom, and books littered the tables, and foreign languages were habitually used. they had complicated meals, no doubt--with serviettes. they "knew etiquette," and how to avoid all the errors for which kipps bought penny manuals, "what to avoid," "common errors in speaking," and the like. he knew nothing about it all--nothing whatever; he was a creature of the outer darkness blinking in an unsuspected light. he heard them speak easily and freely to one another of examinations, of books and paintings, of "last year's academy"--a little contemptuously; and once, just at the end of the class-time, mr. chester coote and young walshingham and the two girls argued about something or other called, he fancied, "vagner" or "vargner"--they seemed to say it both ways--and which presently shaped itself more definitely as the name of a man who made up music. (carshot and buggins weren't in it with them.) young walshingham, it appeared, said something or other that was an "epigram," and they all applauded him. kipps, i say, felt himself a creature of outer darkness, an inexcusable intruder in an altitudinous world. when the epigram happened, he first of all smiled, to pretend he understood, and instantly suppressed the smile to show he did not listen. then he became extremely hot and uncomfortable, though nobody had noticed either phase. it was clear his only chance of concealing his bottomless baseness was to hold his tongue, and meanwhile he chipped with earnest care, and abased his soul before the very shadow of miss walshingham. she used to come and direct and advise him, with, he felt, an effort to conceal the scorn she had for him; and, indeed, it is true that at first she thought of him chiefly as the clumsy young man with the red ears. and as soon as he emerged from the first effect of pure and awestricken humility--he was greatly helped to emerge from that condition to a perception of human equality by the need the lodging-house keeper was under to talk while she worked, and as she didn't like miss walshingham and her friends very much, and the young man with spectacles was deaf, she naturally talked to kipps--he perceived that he was in a state of adoration for miss walshingham that it seemed almost a blasphemous familiarity to speak of us being in love. this state, you must understand, had nothing to do with "flirting" or "spooning" and that superficial passion that flashes from eye to eye upon the leas and pier--absolutely nothing. that he knew from the first. her rather pallid, intelligent young face, beneath those sombre clouds of hair, put her in a class apart; towards her the thought of "attentions" paled and vanished. to approach such a being, to perform sacrifices and to perish obviously for her, seemed the limit he might aspire to, he or any man. for if his love was abasement, at any rate it had this much of manliness, that it covered all his sex. it had not yet come to kipps to acknowledge any man as his better in his heart of hearts. when one does that the game is played and one grows old indeed. the rest of his sentimental interests vanished altogether in this great illumination. he meditated about her when he was blocking cretonne; her image was before his eyes at tea-time, and blotted out the more immediate faces, and made him silent and preoccupied, and so careless in his bearing that the junior apprentice, sitting beside him, mocked at and parodied his enormous bites of bread and butter unreproved. he became conspicuously less popular on the "fancy" side, the "costumes" was chilly with him and the "millinery" cutting. but he did not care. an intermittent correspondent with flo bates, that had gone on since she left mr. shalford's desk for a position at tunbridge "nearer home," and which had roused kipps in its earlier stages to unparalleled heights of epistolatory effort, died out altogether by reason of his neglect. he heard with scarcely a pang that, as a consequence perhaps of his neglect, flo was "carrying on with a chap who managed a farm." every thursday he jabbed and gouged at his wood, jabbing and gouging intersecting circles and diamond traceries, and that laboured inane which our mad world calls ornament, and he watched miss walshingham furtively whenever she turned away. the circles in consequence were jabbed crooked; and his panels, losing their symmetry, became comparatively pleasing to the untrained eye--and once he jabbed his finger. he would cheerfully have jabbed all his fingers if he could have found some means of using the opening to express himself of the vague emotions that possessed him. but he shirked conversation just as earnestly as he desired it; he feared that profound general ignorance of his might appear. § there came a time when she could not open one of the class-room windows. the man with the black beard pored over his chipping heedlessly.... it did not take kipps a moment to grasp his opportunity. he dropped his gouge and stepped forward. "lem _me_," he said.... he could not open the window either! "oh, please don't trouble," she said. "'sno trouble," he gasped. still the sash stuck. he felt his manhood was at stake. he gathered himself together for a tremendous effort, and the pane broke with a snap, and he thrust his hand into the void beyond. "_there!_" said miss walshingham, and the glass fell ringing into the courtyard below. then kipps made to bring his hand back, and felt the keen touch of the edge of the broken glass at his wrist. he turned dolefully. "i'm tremendously sorry," he said in answer to the accusation in miss walshingham's eyes. "i didn't think it would break like that,"--as if he had expected it to break in some quite different and entirely more satisfactory manner. the boy with the gift of wood-carving having stared at kipps' face for a moment, became involved in a laocoon struggle with a giggle. "you've cut your wrist," said one of the girl friends, standing up and pointing. she was a pleasant-faced, greatly freckled girl, with a helpful disposition, and she said "you've cut your wrist," as brightly as if she had been a trained nurse. kipps looked down, and saw a swift line of scarlet rush down his hand. he perceived the other man student regarding this with magnified eyes. "you _have_ cut your wrist," said miss walshingham, and kipps regarded his damage with greater interest. "he's cut his wrist," said the maiden lady to the lodging-house keeper, and seemed in doubt what a lady should do. "it's----" she hesitated at the word "bleeding," and nodded to the lodging-house keeper instead. "dreadfully," said the maiden lady, and tried to look and tried not to look at the same time. "of _course_ he's cut his wrist," said the lodging-house keeper, momentarily quite annoyed at kipps; and the other young lady, who thought kipps rather common, went on quietly with her wood-cutting with an air of its being the proper thing to do--though nobody else seemed to know it. "you must tie it up," said miss walshingham. "we must tie it up," said the freckled girl. "i 'adn't the slightest idea that window was going to break like that," said kipps, with candour. "nort the slightest." he glanced again at the blood on his wrist, and it seemed to him that it was on the very point of dropping on the floor of that cultured class-room. so he very neatly licked it off, feeling at the same time for his handkerchief. "oh, _don't!_" said miss walshingham as he did so, and the girl with the freckles made a movement of horror. the giggle got the better of the boy with the gift, and celebrated its triumph by unseemly noises; in spite of which it seemed to kipps at the moment that the act that had made miss walshingham say "oh, _don't!_" was rather a desperate and manly treatment of what was after all a creditable injury. "it ought to be tied up," said the lodging-house keeper, holding her chisel upright in her hand. "it's a bad cut to bleed like that." "we must tie it up," said the freckled girl, and hesitated in front of kipps. "have you got a handkerchief?" she said. "i dunno 'ow i managed _not_ to bring one," said kipps. "i---- not 'aving a cold i suppose some'ow i didn't think----" he checked a further flow of blood. the girl with the freckles caught miss walshingham's eye, and held it for a moment. both glanced at kipps' injury. the boy with the gift, who had reappeared with a chastened expression from some noisy pursuit beneath his desk, made the neglected motions of one who proffers shyly. miss walshingham under the spell of the freckled girl's eye produced a handkerchief. the voice of the maiden lady could be heard in the background. "i've been through all the technical education ambulance classes twice, and i know you go _so_ if it's a vein, and _so_ if it's an artery--at least you go _so_ for one and _so_ for the other, whichever it may be; but...." "if you will give me your hand," said the freckled girl, and proceeded with miss walshingham's assistance to bandage kipps in a most businesslike way. yes, they actually bandaged kipps. they pulled up his cuffs--happily they were not a very frayed pair--and held his wrist, and wrapped the soft handkerchief round it, and tightened the knot together. and miss walshingham's face, the face of that almost divine over-human, came close to the face of kipps. "we're not hurting you, are we?" she said. "not a bit," said kipps, as he would have said if they had been sawing his arm off. "we're not experts, you know," said the freckled girl. "i'm sure it's a dreadful cut," said miss walshingham. "it ain't much reely," said kipps; "and you're taking a lot of trouble. i'm sorry i broke that window. i can't think what i could have been doing." "it isn't so much the cut at the time, it's the poisoning afterwards," came the voice of the maiden lady. "of course i'm quite willing to pay for the window," panted kipps opulently. "we must make it just as tight as possible, to stop the bleeding," said the freckled girl. "i don't think it's much reely," said kipps. "i'm awful sorry i broke that window, though." "put your finger on the knot, dear," said the freckled girl. "eh?" said kipps; "i mean----" both the young ladies became very intent on the knot, and mr. kipps was very red and very intent upon the two young ladies. "mortified, and had to be sawn off," said the maiden lady. "sawn off?" said the lodging-house keeper. "sawn _right_ off," said the maiden lady, and jabbed at her mangled design. "_there_," said the freckled girl, "i think that ought to do. you're sure it's not too tight?" "not a bit," said kipps. he met miss walshingham's eye, and smiled to show how little he cared for wounds and pain. "it's only a little cut," he added. the maiden lady appeared as an addition to their group. "you should have washed the wound, dear," she said. "i was just telling miss collis." she peered through her glasses at the bandage. "that doesn't look _quite_ right," she remarked critically. "you should have taken the ambulance classes. but i suppose it will have to do. are you hurting?" "not a bit," said kipps, and he smiled at them all with the air of a brave soldier in hospital. "i'm sure it _must_ hurt," said miss walshingham. "anyhow, you're a very good patient," said the girl with the freckles. mr. kipps became quite pink. "i'm only sorry i broke the window--that's all," he said. "but who would have thought it was going to break like that?" pause. "i'm afraid you won't be able to go on carving to-night," said miss walshingham. "i'll try," said kipps. "it reelly doesn't hurt--not anything to matter." presently miss walshingham came to him as he carved heroically with his hand bandaged in her handkerchief. there was a touch of a novel interest in her eyes. "i'm afraid you're not getting on very fast," she said. the freckled girl looked up and regarded miss walshingham. "i'm doing a little, anyhow," said kipps. "i don't want to waste any time. a feller like me hasn't much time to spare." it struck the girls that there was a quality of modest disavowal about that "feller like me." it gave them a light into this obscure person, and miss walshingham ventured to commend his work as "promising" and to ask whether he meant to follow it up. kipps didn't "altogether know"--"things depended on so much," but if he was in folkestone next winter he certainly should. it did not occur to miss walshingham at the time to ask why his progress in art depended upon his presence in folkestone. there was some more questions and answers--they continued to talk to him for a little time, even when mr. chester coote had come into the room--and when at last the conversation had died out it dawned upon kipps just how much his cut wrist had done for him.... he went to sleep that night revising that conversation for the twentieth time, treasuring this and expanding that, and inserting things he might have said to miss walshingham, things he might still say about himself--in relation more or less explicit to her. he wasn't quite sure if he wouldn't like his arm to mortify a bit, which would make him interesting, or to heal up absolutely, which would show the exceptional purity of his blood. § the affair of the broken window happened late in april, and the class came to an end in may. in that interval there were several small incidents and great developments of emotion. i have done kipps no justice if i have made it seem that his face was unsightly. it was, as the freckled girl pointed out to helen walshingham, an "interesting" face, and that aspect of him which presented chiefly erratic hair and glowing ears ceased to prevail. they talked him over, and the freckled girl discovered there was something "wistful" in his manner. they detected a "natural delicacy," and the freckled girl set herself to draw him out from that time forth. the freckled girl was nineteen, and very wise and motherly and benevolent, and really she greatly preferred drawing out kipps to wood-carving. it was quite evident to her that kipps was in love with helen walshingham, and it struck her as a queer and romantic and pathetic and extremely interesting phenomenon. and as at that time she regarded helen as "simply lovely," it seemed only right and proper that she should assist kipps in his modest efforts to place himself in a state of absolute _abandon_ upon her altar. under her sympathetic management the position of kipps was presently defined quite clearly. he was unhappy in his position--misunderstood. he told her he "didn't seem to get on like" with customers, and she translated this for him as "too sensitive." the discontent with his fate in life, the dreadful feeling that education was slipping by him, troubles that time and usage were glazing over a little, revived to their old acuteness but not to their old hopelessness. as a basis for sympathy indeed they were even a source of pleasure. and one day at dinner it happened that carshot and buggins fell talking of "these here writers," and how dickens had been a labeller of blacking and thackeray "an artist who couldn't sell a drawing," and how samuel johnson had walked to london without any boots, having thrown away his only pair "out of pride." "it's luck," said buggins, "to a very large extent. they just happen to hit on something that catches on, and there you are!" "nice easy life they have of it, too," said miss mergle. "write just an hour or so, and done for the day! almost like gentlefolks." "there's more work in it than you'd think," said carshot, stooping to a mouthful. "i wouldn't mind changing, for all that," said buggins. "i'd like to see one of these here authors marking off with jimmy." "i think they copy from each other a good deal," said miss mergle. "even then (chup, chup, chup)," said carshot, "there's writing it out in their own hands." they proceeded to enlarge upon the literary life, on its ease and dignity, on the social recognition accorded to those who led it, and on the ample gratifications their vanity achieved. "pictures everywhere--never get a new suit without being photographed--almost like royalty," said miss mergle. and all this talk impressed the imagination of kipps very greatly. here was a class that seemed to bridge the gulf. on the one hand essentially low, but by factitious circumstances capable of entering upon those levels of social superiority to which all true englishmen aspire, those levels from which one may tip a butler, scorn a tailor, and even commune with those who lead "men" into battle. "almost like gentlefolks"--that was it! he brooded over these things in the afternoon, until they blossomed into daydreams. suppose, for example, he had chanced to write a book, a well-known book, under an assumed name, and yet kept on being a draper all the time.... impossible, of course, but _suppose_--it made quite a long dream. and at the next wood-carving class he let it be drawn from him that his real choice in life was to be a nawther--"only one doesn't get a chance." after that there were times when kipps had that pleasant sense that comes of attracting interest. he was a mute, inglorious dickens, or at any rate something of that sort, and they were all taking him at that. the discovery of this indefinable "something in" him, the development of which was now painfully restricted and impossible, did much to bridge the gulf between himself and miss walshingham. he was unfortunate, he was futile, but he was not "common." even now with help...? the two girls, and the freckled girl in particular, tried to "stir him up" to some effort to do his imputed potentialities justice. they were still young enough to believe that to nice and niceish members of the male sex--more especially when under the stimulus of feminine encouragement--nothing is finally impossible. the freckled girl was, i say, the stage manager of this affair, but miss walshingham was the presiding divinity. a touch of proprietorship came in her eyes at times when she looked at him. he was hers--unconditionally--and she knew it. to her directly kipps scarcely ever made a speech. the enterprising things that he was continually devising to say to her, he usually did not say, or he said them in a suitably modified form to the girl with the freckles. and one day the girl with the freckles smote him to the heart. she said to him, with the faintest indication of her head across the class-room to where her friend reached a cast from the shelf, "i do think helen walshingham is sometimes the most lovely person in the world. look at her now!" kipps gasped for a moment. the moment lengthened, and she regarded him as an intelligent young surgeon might regard an operation without anæsthetics. "you're right," he said, and then looked at her with an entire abandonment of visage. she coloured under his glare of silent avowal, and he blushed brightly. "i think so, too," he said hoarsely, cleared his throat, and after a meditative moment proceeded sacramentally with his wood-carving. "you _are_ wonderful," said the freckled girl to miss walshingham, apropos of nothing, as they went on their way home together. "he simply adores you." "but, my dear, what have i done?" said helen. "that's just it," said the freckled girl. "what _have_ you done?" and then with a terrible swiftness came the last class of the course, to terminate this relationship altogether. kipps was careless of dates, and the thing came upon him with an effect of abrupt surprise. just as his petals were expanding so hopefully, "finis," and the thing was at an end. but kipps did not fully appreciate that the end was indeed and really and truly the end, until he was back in the emporium after the end was over. the end began practically in the middle of the last class, when the freckled girl broached the topic of terminations. she developed the question of just how he was going on after the class ended. she hoped he would stick to certain resolutions of self-improvement he had breathed. she said quite honestly that he owed it to himself to develop his possibilities. he expressed firm resolve, but dwelt on difficulties. he had no books. she instructed him how to get books from the public library. he was to get a form of application for a ticket signed by a ratepayer; and he said "of course," when she said mr. shalford would do that, though all the time he knew perfectly well it would "never do" to ask mr. shalford for anything of the sort. she explained that she was going to north wales for the summer, information he received without immediate regret. at intervals he expressed his intention of going on with wood-carving when the summer was over, and once he added "if----" she considered herself extremely delicate not to press for the completion of that "if----" after that talk there was an interval of languid wood-carving and watching miss walshingham. then presently there came a bustle of packing, a great ceremony of hand-shaking all round by miss collis and the maiden lady of ripe years, and then kipps found himself outside the class-room, on the landing with his two friends. it seemed to him he had only just learnt that this was the last class of all. there came a little pause, and the freckled girl suddenly went back into the class-room, and left kipps and miss walshingham alone together for the first time. kipps was instantly breathless. she looked at his face with a glance that mingled sympathy and curiosity, and held out her white hand. "well, good-bye, mr. kipps," she said. he took her hand and held it. "i'd do anything," said kipps, and had not the temerity to add, "for you." he stopped awkwardly. he shook her hand and said, "good-bye." there was a little pause. "i hope you will have a pleasant holiday," she said. "i shall come back to the class next year, anyhow," said kipps valiantly, and turned abruptly to the stairs. "i hope you will," said miss walshingham. he turned back towards her. "reelly?" he said. "i hope everybody will come back." "i will--anyhow," said kipps. "you may count on that," and he tried to make his tones significant. they looked at one another through a little pause. "good-bye," she said. kipps lifted his hat. she turned towards the class-room. "well?" said the freckled girl, coming back towards her. "nothing," said helen. "at least--presently." and she became very energetic about some scattered tools on a desk. the freckled girl went out and stood for a moment at the head of the stairs. when she came back she looked very hard at her friend. the incident struck her as important--wonderfully important. it was unassimilable, of course, and absurd, but there it was, the thing that is so cardinal to a girl, the emotion, the subservience, the crowning triumph of her sex. she could not help feeling that helen took it, on the whole, a little too hardly. chapter iv chitterlow § the hour of the class on the following thursday found kipps in a state of nearly incredible despondency. he was sitting with his eyes on the reading room clock, his chin resting on his fists and his elbows on the accumulated comic papers that were comic alas! in vain! he paid no heed to the little man in spectacles glaring opposite to him, famishing for _fun_. in this place it was he had sat night after night, each night more blissful than the last, waiting until it should be time to go to her! and then--bliss! and now the hour had come and there was no class! there would be no class now until next october; it might be there would never be a class so far as he was concerned again. it might be there would never be a class again, for shalford, taking exception at a certain absent-mindedness that led to mistakes and more particularly to the ticketing of several articles in kipps' manchester window upside down, had been "on to" him for the past few days in an exceedingly onerous manner.... he sighed profoundly, pushed the comic papers back--they were rent away from him instantly by the little man in spectacles--and tried the old engravings of folkestone in the past, that hang about the room. but these, too, failed to minister to his bruised heart. he wandered about the corridors for a time and watched the library indicator for awhile. wonderful thing that! but it did not hold him for long. people came and laughed near him and that jarred with him dreadfully. he went out of the building and a beastly cheerful barrel organ mocked him in the street. he was moved to a desperate resolve to go down to the beach. there it might be he would be alone. the sea might be rough--and attuned to him. it would certainly be dark. "if i 'ad a penny i'm blest if i wouldn't go and chuck myself off the end of the pier.... _she'd_ never miss me...." he followed a deepening vein of thought. "penny though! it's tuppence," he said after a space. he went down dover street in a state of profound melancholia--at the pace and mood as it were of his own funeral procession--and he crossed at the corner of tontine street heedless of all mundane things. and there it was that fortune came upon him, in disguise and with a loud shout, the shout of a person endowed with an unusually rich, full voice, followed immediately by a violent blow in the back. his hat was over his eyes and an enormous weight rested on his shoulders and something kicked him in the back of his calf. then he was on all fours in some mud that fortune, in conjunction with the folkestone corporation and in the pursuit of equally mysterious ends, had heaped together even lavishly for his reception. he remained in that position for some seconds awaiting further developments and believing almost anything broken before his heart. gathering at last that this temporary violence of things in general was over, and being perhaps assisted by a clutching hand, he arose, and found himself confronting a figure holding a bicycle and thrusting forward a dark face in anxious scrutiny. "you aren't hurt, matey?" gasped the figure. "was that _you_ 'it me?" said kipps. "it's these handles, you know," said the figure with an air of being a fellow sufferer. "they're too _low_. and when i go to turn, if i don't remember, bif!--and i'm _in_ to something." "well--you give me a oner in the back--anyhow," said kipps, taking stock of his damages. "i was coming down hill, you know," explained the bicyclist. "these little folkestone hills are a fair treat. it isn't as though i'd been on the level. i came rather a whop." "you did _that_," said kipps. "i was back pedalling for all i was worth anyhow," said the bicyclist. "not that i _am_ worth much back pedalling." he glanced round and made a sudden movement almost as if to mount his machine. then he turned as rapidly to kipps again, who was now stooping down, pursuing the tale of his injuries. "here's the back of my trouser leg all tore down," said kipps, "and i believe i'm bleeding. you reely ought to be more careful----" the stranger investigated the damage with a rapid movement. "holy smoke, so you are!" he laid a friendly hand on kipps' arm. "i say--look here! come up to my diggings and sew it up. i'm----. of course i'm to blame, and i say----" his voice sank to a confidential friendliness. "here's a slop. don't let on i ran you down. haven't a lamp, you know. might be a bit awkward, for _me_." kipps looked up towards the advancing policeman. the appeal to his generosity was not misplaced. he immediately took sides with his assailant. he stood up as the representative of the law drew nearer. he assumed an air which he considered highly suggestive of an accident not having happened. "all right," he said, "go on!" "right you are," said the cyclist promptly, and led the way, and then, apparently with some idea of deception, called over his shoulder, "i'm tremendous glad to have met you, old chap. "it really isn't a hundred yards," he said after they had passed the policeman, "it's just round the corner." "of course," said kipps, limping slightly. "i don't want to get a chap into trouble. accidents _will_ happen. still----" "oh! _rather!_ i believe you. accidents _will_ happen. especially when you get _me_ on a bicycle." he laughed. "you aren't the first i've run down not by any manner of means! i don't think you can be hurt much either. it isn't as though i was scorching. you didn't see me coming. i was back pedalling like anything. only naturally it seems to you i must have been coming fast. and i did all i could to ease off the bump as i hit you. it was just the treadle i think came against your calf. but it was all right of you about that policeman, you know. that was a fair bit of all right. under the circs, if you'd told him i was riding it might have been forty bob! forty bob! i'd have had to tell 'em time is money. just now for mr. h. c. "i shouldn't have blamed you either, you know. most men after a bump like that might have been spiteful. the least i can do is to stand you a needle and thread. and a clothes brush. it isn't everyone who'd have taken it like you. "scorching! why if i'd been scorching you'd have--coming as we did--you'd have been knocked silly. "but i tell you, the way you caught on about that slop was something worth seeing. when i asked you, i didn't half expect it. bif! right off. cool as a cucumber. had your line at once. i tell you that there isn't many men would have acted as you have done, i _will_ say that. you acted like a gentleman over that slop." kipps' first sense of injury disappeared. he limped along a pace or so behind, making depreciatory noises in response to these flattering remarks and taking stock of the very appreciative person who uttered them. as they passed the lamps he was visible as a figure with a slight anterior plumpness, progressing buoyantly on knickerbockered legs, with quite enormous calves, legs that, contrasting with kipps' own narrow practice, were even exuberantly turned out at the knees and toes. a cycling cap was worn very much on one side, and from beneath it protruded carelessly straight wisps of dark red hair, and ever and again an ample nose came into momentary view round the corner. the muscular cheeks of this person and a certain generosity of chin he possessed were blue shaven and he had no moustache. his carriage was spacious and confident, his gestures up and down the narrow deserted back street they traversed, were irresistibly suggestive of ownership; a suggestion of broadly gesticulating shadows were born squatting on his feet and grew and took possession of the road and reunited at last with the shadows of the infinite, as lamp after lamp was passed. kipps saw by the flickering light of one of them that they were in little fenchurch street, and then they came round a corner sharply into a dark court and stopped at the door of a particularly ramshackle looking little house, held up between two larger ones, like a drunken man between policemen. the cyclist propped his machine carefully against the window, produced a key and blew down it sharply. "the lock's a bit tricky," he said, and devoted himself for some moments to the task of opening the door. some mechanical catastrophe ensued and the door was open. "you'd better wait here a bit while i get the lamp," he remarked to kipps; "very likely it isn't filled," and vanished into the blackness of the passage. "thank god for matches!" he said, and kipps had an impression of a passage in the transitory pink flare and the bicyclist disappearing into a further room. kipps was so much interested by these things that for the time he forgot his injuries altogether. an interval and kipps was dazzled by a pink shaded kerosene lamp. "you go in," said the red-haired man, "and i'll bring in the bike," and for a moment kipps was alone in the lamp-lit room. he took in rather vaguely the shabby ensemble of the little apartment, the round table covered with a torn, red, glass-stained cover on which the lamp stood, a mottled looking-glass over the fireplace reflecting this, a disused gas bracket, an extinct fire, a number of dusty postcards and memoranda stuck round the glass, a dusty, crowded paper rack on the mantel with a number of cabinet photographs, a table littered with papers and cigarette ash and a syphon of soda water. then the cyclist reappeared and kipps saw his blue-shaved, rather animated face and bright-reddish, brown eyes for the first time. he was a man perhaps ten years older than kipps, but his beardless face made them in a way contemporary. "you behaved all right about that policeman--anyhow," he repeated as he came forward. "i don't see 'ow else i could 'ave done," said kipps quite modestly. the cyclist scanned his guest for the first time and decided upon hospitable details. "we'd better let that mud dry a bit before we brush it. whiskey there is, good old methusaleh, canadian rye, and there's some brandy that's all right. which'll you have?" "_i_ dunno," said kipps, taken by surprise, and then seeing no other course but acceptance, "well--whiskey, then." "right you are, old boy, and if you'll take my advice you'll take it neat. i may not be a particular judge of this sort of thing, but i do know old methusaleh pretty well. old methusaleh--four stars. that's me! good old harry chitterlow and good old methusaleh. leave 'em together. bif! he's gone!" he laughed loudly, looked about him, hesitated and retired, leaving kipps in possession of the room and free to make a more precise examination of its contents. § he particularly remarked the photographs that adorned the apartment. they were chiefly photographs of ladies, in one case in tights, which kipps thought a "bit 'ot," but one represented the bicyclist in the costume of some remote epoch. it did not take kipps long to infer that the others were probably actresses and that his host was an actor, and the presence of the half of a large, coloured playbill seemed to confirm this. a note framed in an oxford frame that was a little too large for it, he presently demeaned himself to read. "dear mr. chitterlow," it ran its brief course, "if after all you will send the play you spoke of i will endeavour to read it," followed by a stylish but absolutely illegible signature, and across this was written in pencil, "what price, harry, now?" and in the shadow by the window was a rough and rather able sketch of the bicyclist in chalk on brown paper, calling particular attention to the curvature of the forward lines of his hull and calves and the jaunty carriage of his nose, and labelled unmistakably "chitterlow." kipps thought it "rather a take-off." the papers on the table by the syphon were in manuscript. kipps observed manuscript of a particularly convulsive and blottesque sort and running obliquely across the page. presently he heard the metallic clamour as if of a series of irreparable breakages with which the lock of the front door discharged its function, and then chitterlow reappeared, a little out of breath as if from running and with a starry labelled bottle in his large, freckled hand. "sit down, old chap," he said, "sit down. i had to go out for it after all. wasn't a solitary bottle left. however, it's all right now we're here. no, don't sit on that chair, there's sheets of my play on that. that's the one--with the broken arm. i think this glass is clean, but anyhow wash it out with a squizz of syphon and shy it in the fireplace. here! i'll do it! lend it here!" as he spoke mr. chitterlow produced a corkscrew from a table drawer, attached and overcame good old methusaleh's cork in a style a bartender might envy, washed out two tumblers in his simple, effectual manner, and poured a couple of inches of the ancient fluid into each. kipps took his tumbler, said "thenks" in an off-hand way, and after a momentary hesitation whether he should say "here's to you!" or not, put it to his lips without that ceremony. for a space fire in his throat occupied his attention to the exclusion of other matters, and then he discovered mr. chitterlow with an intensely bulldog pipe alight, seated on the opposite side of the empty fireplace and pouring himself out a second dose of whiskey. "after all," said mr. chitterlow, with his eye on the bottle and a little smile wandering to hide amidst his larger features, "this accident might have been worse. i wanted someone to talk to a bit, and i didn't want to go to a pub, leastways not a folkestone pub, because as a matter of fact i'd promised mrs. chitterlow, who's away, not to, for various reasons, though of course if i'd wanted to i'm just that sort i should have all the same, and here we are! it's curious how one runs up against people out bicycling!" "isn't it!" said kipps, feeling that the time had come for him to say something. "here we are, sitting and talking like old friends, and half an hour ago we didn't know we existed. leastways we didn't know each other existed. i might have passed you in the street perhaps and you might have passed me, and how was i to tell that, put to the test, you would have behaved as decently as you have behaved. only it happened otherwise, that's all. you're not smoking!" he said. "have a cigarette?" kipps made a confused reply that took the form of not minding if he did, and drank another sip of old methusaleh in his confusion. he was able to follow the subsequent course of that sip for quite a long way. it was as though the old gentleman was brandishing a burning torch through his vitals, lighting him here and lighting him there until at last his whole being was in a glow. chitterlow produced a tobacco pouch and cigarette papers and with an interesting parenthesis that was a little difficult to follow about some lady named kitty something or other who had taught him the art when he was as yet only what you might call a nice boy, made kipps a cigarette, and with a consideration that won kipps' gratitude suggested that after all he might find a little soda water an improvement with the whiskey. "some people like it that way," said chitterlow, and then with voluminous emphasis, "_i don't_." emboldened by the weakened state of his enemy kipps promptly swallowed the rest of him and had his glass at once hospitably replenished. he began to feel he was of a firmer consistency than he commonly believed, and turned his mind to what chitterlow was saying with the resolve to play a larger part in the conversation than he had hitherto done. also he smoked through his nose quite successfully, an art he had only very recently acquired. meanwhile chitterlow explained that he was a playwright, and the tongue of kipps was unloosened to respond that he knew a chap, or rather one of their fellows knew a chap, or at least to be perfectly correct this fellow's brother did, who had written a play. in response to chitterlow's enquiries he could not recall the title of the play, nor where it had appeared nor the name of the manager who produced it, though he thought the title was something about "love's ransom" or something like that. "he made five 'undred pounds by it, though," said kipps. "i know that." "that's nothing," said chitterlow, with an air of experience that was extremely convincing. "nothing. may seem a big sum to _you_, but _i_ can assure you it's just what one gets any day. there's any amount of money, an-ny amount, in a good play." "i dessay," said kipps, drinking. "any amount of money!" chitterlow began a series of illustrative instances. he was clearly a person of quite unequalled gift for monologue. it was as though some conversational dam had burst upon kipps, and in a little while he was drifting along upon a copious rapid of talk about all sorts of theatrical things by one who knows all about them, and quite incapable of anticipating whither that rapid meant to carry him. presently somehow they had got to anecdotes about well-known theatrical managers, little teddy bletherskite, artful old chumps, and the magnificent behemoth, "petted to death, you know, fair sickened, by all these society women." chitterlow described various personal encounters with these personages, always with modest self-depreciation, and gave kipps a very amusing imitation of old chumps in a state of intoxication. then he took two more stiff doses of old methusaleh in rapid succession. kipps reduced the hither end of his cigarette to a pulp as he sat "dessaying" and "quite believing" chitterlow in the sagest manner and admiring the easy way in which he was getting on with this very novel and entertaining personage. he had another cigarette made for him, and then chitterlow, assuming by insensible degrees more and more of the manner of a rich and successful playwright being interviewed by a young admirer, set himself to answer questions which sometimes kipps asked and sometimes chitterlow, about the particulars and methods of his career. he undertook this self-imposed task with great earnestness and vigour, treating the matter indeed with such fulness that at times it seemed lost altogether under a thicket of parentheses, footnotes and episodes that branched and budded from its stem. but it always emerged again, usually by way of illustration to its own degressions. practically it was a mass of material for the biography of a man who had been everywhere and done everything (including the hon. thomas norgate, which was a record), and in particular had acted with great distinction and profit (he dated various anecdotes, "when i was getting thirty, or forty or fifty, dollars a week") throughout america and the entire civilised world. and as he talked on and on in that full, rich, satisfying voice he had, and as old methusaleh, indisputably a most drunken old reprobate of a whiskey, busied himself throughout kipps, lighting lamp after lamp until the entire framework of the little draper was illuminated and glowing like some public building on a festival, behold chitterlow and kipps with him and the room in which they sat, were transfigured! chitterlow became in very truth that ripe, full man of infinite experience and humour and genius, fellow of shakespeare and ibsen and maeterlinck (three names he placed together quite modestly far above his own) and no longer ambiguously dressed in a sort of yachting costume with cycling knickerbockers, but elegantly if unconventionally attired, and the room ceased to be a small and shabby room in a folkestone slum, and grew larger and more richly furnished, and the fly-blown photographs were curious old pictures, and the rubbish on the walls the most rare and costly bric-à-brac, and the indisputable paraffin lamp, a soft and splendid light. a certain youthful heat that to many minds might have weakened old methusaleh's starry claim to a ripe antiquity, vanished in that glamour, two burnt holes and a claimant darn in the table cloth, moreover, became no more than the pleasing contradictions natural in the house of genius, and as for kipps!--kipps was a bright young man of promise, distinguished by recent quick, courageous proceedings not too definitely insisted upon, and he had been rewarded by admission to a sanctum and confidences, for which the common prosperous, for which "society women" even, were notoriously sighing in vain. "don't _want_ them, my boy; they'd simply play old harry with the work, you know! chaps outside, bank clerks and university fellows, think the life's all _that_ sort of thing. don't you believe 'em. don't you believe 'em." and then----! "boom.... boom.... boom.... boom.... right in the middle of a most entertaining digression on flats who join touring companies under the impression that they are actors, kipps much amused at their flatness as exposed by chitterlow. "lor'!" said kipps like one who awakens, "that's not eleven!" "must be," said chitterlow. "it was nearly ten when i got that whiskey. it's early yet----" "all the same i must be going," said kipps, and stood up. "even now--maybe. fact is--i 'ad _no_ idea. the 'ouse door shuts at 'arf past ten, you know. i ought to 'ave thought before." "well, if you _must_ go! i tell you what. i'll come, too.... why! there's your leg, old man! clean forgot it! you can't go through the streets like that. i'll sew up the tear. and meanwhile have another whiskey." "i ought to be getting on _now_," protested kipps feebly, and then chitterlow was showing him how to kneel on a chair in order that the rent trouser leg should be attainable and old methusaleh on his third round was busy repairing the temporary eclipse of kipps' arterial glow. then suddenly chitterlow was seized with laughter and had to leave off sewing to tell kipps that the scene wouldn't make a bad bit of business in a farcical comedy, and then he began to sketch out the farcical comedy and that led him to a digression about another farcical comedy of which he had written a ripping opening scene which wouldn't take ten minutes to read. it had something in it that had never been done on the stage before, and was yet perfectly legitimate, namely, a man with a live beetle down the back of his neck trying to seem at his ease in a roomful of people.... "_they_ won't lock you out," he said, in a singularly reassuring tone, and began to read and act what he explained to be (not because he had written it, but simply because he knew it was so on account of his exceptional experience of the stage) and what kipps also quite clearly saw to be, one of the best opening scenes that had ever been written. when it was over kipps, who rarely swore, was inspired to say the scene was "damned fine" about six times over, whereupon as if by way of recognition, chitterlow took a simply enormous portion of the inspiring antediluvian, declaring at the same time that he had rarely met a "finer" intelligence than kipps' (stronger there might be, _that_ he couldn't say with certainty as yet, seeing how little after all they had seen of each other, but a finer _never_); that it was a shame such a gallant and discriminating intelligence should be nightly either locked up or locked out at ten--well, ten thirty then--and that he had half a mind to recommend old somebody or other (apparently the editor of a london daily paper) to put on kipps forthwith as a dramatic critic in the place of the current incapable. "i don't think i've ever made up anything for print," said kipps; "----ever. i'd have a thundering good try, though, if ever i got a chance. i would that! i've written window tickets often enough. made 'em up and everything. but that's different." "you'd come to it all the fresher for not having done it before. and the way you picked up every point in that scene, my boy, was a fair treat! i tell you, you'd knock william archer into fits. not so literary, of course, you'd be, but i don't believe in literary critics any more than in literary playwrights. plays _aren't_ literature--that's just the point they miss. plays are plays. no! that won't hamper you anyhow. you're wasted down here, i tell you. just as i was, before i took to acting. i'm hanged if i wouldn't like your opinion on these first two acts of that tragedy i'm on to. i haven't told you about that. it wouldn't take me more than an hour to read...." § then so far as he could subsequently remember, kipps had "another," and then it would seem that suddenly, regardless of the tragedy, he insisted that he "reelly _must_ be getting on," and from that point his memory became irregular. certain things have remained quite clearly, and as it is a matter of common knowledge that intoxicated people forget what happens to them, it follows that he was not intoxicated. chitterlow came with him partly to see him home and partly for a freshener before turning in. kipps recalled afterwards very distinctly how in little fenchurch street he discovered that he could not walk straight and also that chitterlow's needle and thread in his still unmended trouser leg was making an annoying little noise on the pavement behind him. he tried to pick up the needle suddenly by surprise and somehow tripped and fell and then chitterlow, laughing uproariously, helped him up. "it wasn't a bicycle this time, old boy," said chitterlow, and that appeared to them both at the time as being a quite extraordinarily good joke indeed. they punched each other about on the strength of it. for a time after that kipps certainly pretended to be quite desperately drunk and unable to walk and chitterlow entered into the pretence and supported him. after that kipps remembered being struck with the extremely laughable absurdity of going down hill to tontine street in order to go up hill again to the emporium, and trying to get that idea into chitterlow's head and being unable to do so on account of his own merriment or chitterlow's evident intoxication, and his next memory after that was of the exterior of the emporium, shut and darkened, and, as it were, frowning at him with all its stripes of yellow and green. the chilly way in which "shalford" glittered in the moonlight printed itself with particular vividness on his mind. it appeared to kipps that that establishment was closed to him for evermore. those gilded letters, in spite of appearances, spelt finis for him and exile from folkestone. he would never do wood-carving, never see miss walshingham again. not that he had ever hoped to see her again. but this was the knife, this was final. he had stayed out, he had got drunk, there had been that row about the manchester window dressing only three days ago.... in the retrospect he was quite sure that he was perfectly sober then and at bottom extremely unhappy, but he kept a brave face on the matter nevertheless, and declared stoutly he didn't care if he _was_ locked out. whereupon chitterlow slapped him on the back very hard and told him that was a "bit of all right," and assured him that when he himself had been a clerk in sheffield before he took to acting he had been locked out sometimes for six nights running. "what's the result?" said chitterlow. "i could go back to that place now, and they'd be glad to have me.... glad to have me," he repeated, and then added, "that is to say, if they remember me--which isn't very likely." kipps asked a little weakly, "what am i to do?" "keep out," said chitterlow. "you can't knock 'em up now--that would give you right away. you'd better try and sneak in in the morning with the cat. that'll do you. you'll probably get in all right in the morning if nobody gives you away." then for a time--perhaps as the result of that slap in the back--kipps felt decidedly queer, and acting on chitterlow's advice went for a bit of a freshener upon the leas. after a time he threw off the temporary queerness and found chitterlow patting him on the shoulder and telling him that he'd be all right now in a minute and all the better for it--which he was. and the wind having dropped and the night being now a really very beautiful moonlight night indeed, and all before kipps to spend as he liked and with only a very little tendency to spin round now and again to mar its splendour, they set out to walk the whole length of the leas to the sandgate lift and back, and as they walked chitterlow spoke first of moonlight transfiguring the sea and then of moonlight transfiguring faces, and so at last he came to the topic of love, and upon that he dwelt a great while, and with a wealth of experience and illustrative anecdote that seemed remarkably pungent and material to kipps. he forgot his lost miss walshingham and his outraged employer again. he became as it were a desperado by reflection. chitterlow had had adventures, a quite astonishing variety of adventures in this direction; he was a man with a past, a really opulent past, and he certainly seemed to like to look back and see himself amidst its opulence. he made no consecutive history, but he gave kipps vivid, momentary pictures of relations and entanglements. one moment he was in flight--only too worthily in flight--before the husband of a malay woman in cape town. at the next he was having passionate complications with the daughter of a clergyman in york. then he passed to a remarkable grouping at seaford. "they say you can't love two women at once," said chitterlow. "but i tell you----" he gesticulated and raised his ample voice. "it's _rot_! _rot!_" "i know that," said kipps. "why, when i was in the smalls with bessie hopper's company there were three." he laughed and decided to add, "not counting bessie, that is." he set out to reveal life as it is lived in touring companies, a quite amazing jungle of interwoven "affairs" it appeared to be, a mere amorous winepress for the crushing of hearts. "people say this sort of thing's a nuisance and interferes with work. i tell you it isn't. the work couldn't go on without it. they _must_ do it. they haven't the temperament if they don't. if they hadn't the temperament they wouldn't want to act, if they have--bif!" "you're right," said kipps. "i see that." chitterlow proceeded to a close criticism of certain historical indiscretions of mr. clement scott respecting the morals of the stage. speaking in confidence and not as one who addresses the public, he admitted regretfully the general truth of these comments. he proceeded to examine various typical instances that had almost forced themselves upon him personally, and with especial regard to the contrast between his own character towards women and that of the hon. thomas norgate, with whom it appeared he had once been on terms of great intimacy.... kipps listened with emotion to these extraordinary recollections. they were wonderful to him, they were incredibly credible. of course the tumultuous, passionate course was the way life ran--except in high-class establishments! such things happened in novels, in plays--only he had been fool enough not to understand they happened. his share in the conversation was now indeed no more than faint writing in the margin; chitterlow was talking quite continuously. he expanded his magnificent voice into huge guffaws, he drew it together into a confidential intensity, it became drawlingly reminiscent, he was frank, frank with the effect of a revelation, reticent also with the effect of a revelation, a stupendously gesticulating, moonlit black figure, wallowing in itself, preaching adventure and the flesh to kipps. yet withal shot with something of sentiment, with a sort of sentimental refinement very coarsely and egotistically done. the times he had had!--even before he was as old as kipps he had had innumerable times. well, he said with a sudden transition, he had sown his wild oats--one had to somewhen--and now he fancied he had mentioned it earlier in the evening, he was happily married. she was, he indicated, a "born lady." her father was a prominent lawyer, a solicitor in kentish town, "done a lot of public house business"; her mother was second cousin to the wife of abel jones, the fashionable portrait painter--"almost society people in a way." that didn't count with chitterlow. he was no snob. what _did_ count was that she possessed, what he ventured to assert without much fear of contradiction, was the very finest, completely untrained contralto voice in all the world. ("but to hear it properly," said chitterlow, "you want a big hall.") he became rather vague and jerked his head about to indicate when and how he had entered matrimony. she was, it seemed, "away with her people." it was clear that chitterlow did not get on with these people very well. it would seem they failed to appreciate his playwright, regarding it as an unremunerative pursuit, whereas as he and kipps knew, wealth beyond the dreams of avarice would presently accrue. only patience and persistence were needful. he went off at a tangent to hospitality. kipps must come down home with him. they couldn't wander about all night, with a bottle of the right sort pining at home for them. "you can sleep on the sofa. you won't be worried by broken springs anyhow, for i took 'em all out myself two or three weeks ago. i don't see what they even put 'em in for. it's a point i know about. i took particular notice of it when i was with bessie hopper. three months we were and all over england, north wales and the isle of man, and i never struck a sofa in diggings anywhere that hadn't a broken spring. not once--all the time." he added almost absently: "it happens like that at times." they descended the slant road towards harbour street and went on past the pavilion hotel. § they came into the presence of old methusaleh again, and that worthy under chitterlow's direction at once resumed the illumination of kipps' interior with the conscientious thoroughness that distinguished him. chitterlow took a tall portion to himself with an air of asbestos, lit the bulldog pipe again, and lapsed for a space into meditation, from which kipps roused him by remarking that he expected "an acter 'as a lot of ups and downs like, now and then." at which chitterlow seemed to bestir himself. "ra-ther," he said. "and sometimes it's his own fault and sometimes it isn't. usually it is. if it isn't one thing it's another. if it isn't the manager's wife it's bar-bragging. i tell you things happen at times. i'm a fatalist. the fact is character has you. you can't get away from it. you may think you do, but you don't." he reflected for a moment. "it's that what makes tragedy psychology really. it's the greek irony--ibsen and--all that. up to date." he emitted this exhaustive summary of high-toned modern criticism as if he was repeating a lesson while thinking of something else, but it seemed to rouse him as it passed his lips, by including the name of ibsen. he became interested in telling kipps, who was indeed open to any information whatever about this quite novel name, exactly where he thought ibsen fell short, points where it happened that ibsen was defective just where it chanced that he, chitterlow, was strong. of course he had no desire to place himself in any way on an equality with ibsen; still the fact remained that his own experience in england and america and the colonies was altogether more extensive than ibsen could have had. ibsen had probably never seen "one decent bar scrap" in his life. that, of course, was not ibsen's fault or his own merit, but there the thing was. genius, he knew, was supposed to be able to do anything or to do without anything; still he was now inclined to doubt that. he had a play in hand that might perhaps not please william archer--whose opinion, after all, he did not value as he valued kipps' opinion--but which he thought was at any rate as well constructed as anything ibsen ever did. so with infinite deviousness chitterlow came at last to his play. he decided he would not read it to kipps, but tell him about it. this was the simpler because much of it was still unwritten. he began to explain his plot. it was a complicated plot and all about a nobleman who had seen everything and done everything and knew practically all that chitterlow knew about women; that is to say, "all about women" and suchlike matters. it warmed and excited chitterlow. presently he stood up to act a situation--which could not be explained. it was an extremely vivid situation. kipps applauded the situation vehemently. "tha's dam' fine," said the new dramatic critic, quite familiar with his part now, striking the table with his fist and almost upsetting his third portion (in the second series) of old methusaleh. "tha's dam' fine, chit'low!" "you see it?" said chitterlow, with the last vestiges of that incidental gloom disappearing. "good, old boy! i thought you'd see it. but it's just the sort of thing the literary critic can't see. however, it's only a beginning----" he replenished kipps and proceeded with his exposition. in a little while it was no longer necessary to give that over-advertised ibsen the purely conventional precedence he had hitherto had. kipps and chitterlow were friends and they could speak frankly and openly of things not usually admitted. "any 'ow," said kipps, a little irrelevantly and speaking over the brim of the replenishment, "what you read jus' now was dam' fine. nothing can't alter that." he perceived a sort of faint, buzzing vibration about things that was very nice and pleasant and with a little care he had no difficulty whatever in putting his glass back on the table. then he perceived chitterlow was going on with the scenario, and then that old methusaleh had almost entirely left his bottle. he was glad there was so little more methusaleh to drink because that would prevent his getting drunk. he knew that he was not now drunk, but he knew that he had had enough. he was one of those who always know when they have had enough. he tried to interrupt chitterlow to tell him this, but he could not get a suitable opening. he doubted whether chitterlow might not be one of those people who did not know when they had had enough. he discovered that he disapproved of chitterlow. highly. it seemed to him that chitterlow went on and on like a river. for a time he was inexplicably and quite unjustly cross with chitterlow and wanted to say to him, "you got the gift of the gab," but he only got so far as to say "the gift," and then chitterlow thanked him and said he was better than archer any day. so he eyed chitterlow with a baleful eye until it dawned upon him that a most extraordinary thing was taking place. chitterlow kept mentioning someone named kipps. this presently began to perplex kipps very greatly. dimly but decidedly he perceived this was wrong. "look 'ere," he said suddenly, "_what_ kipps?" "this chap kipps i'm telling you about." "what chap kipps you're telling which about?" "i told you." kipps struggled with a difficulty in silence for a space. then he reiterated firmly, "_what_ chap kipps?" "this chap in my play--man who kisses the girl." "never kissed a girl," said kipps; "leastwise----" and subsided for a space. he could not remember whether he had kissed ann or not--he knew he had meant to. then suddenly in a tone of great sadness and addressing the hearth he said, "_my_ name's kipps." "eh?" said chitterlow. "kipps," said kipps, smiling a little cynically. "what about him?" "he's me." he tapped his breastbone with his middle finger to indicate his essential self. he leant forward very gravely towards chitterlow. "look 'ere, chit'low," he said, "you haven't no business putting my name into play. you mustn't do things like that. you'd lose me my crib, right away." and they had a little argument--so far as kipps could remember. chitterlow entered upon a general explanation of how he got his names. these, he had for the most part got out of a newspaper that was still, he believed, "lying about." he even made to look for it, and while he was doing so kipps went on with the argument, addressing himself more particularly to the photograph of the girl in tights. he said that at first her costume had not commended her to him, but now he perceived she had an extremely sensible face. he told her she would like buggins if she met him; he could see she was just that sort. she would admit, all sensible people would admit, that using names in plays was wrong. you could, for example, have the law of him. he became confidential. he explained that he was already in sufficient trouble for stopping out all night without having his name put in plays. he was certain to be in the deuce of a row, the deuce of a row. why had he done it? why hadn't he gone at ten? because one thing leads to another. one thing, he generalized, always does lead to another.... he was trying to tell her that he was utterly unworthy of miss walshingham, when chitterlow gave up the search and suddenly accused him of being drunk and talking "rot----." chapter v "swapped" § he awoke on the thoroughly comfortable sofa that had had all its springs removed, and although he had certainly not been intoxicated, he awoke with what chitterlow pronounced to be, quite indisputably, a head and a mouth. he had slept in his clothes and he felt stiff and uncomfortable all over, but the head and mouth insisted that he must not bother over little things like that. in the head was one large, angular idea that it was physically painful to have there. if he moved his head the angular idea shifted about in the most agonising way. this idea was that he had lost his situation and was utterly ruined and that it really mattered very little. shalford was certain to hear of his escapade, and that coupled with that row about the manchester window----! he raised himself into a sitting position under chitterlow's urgent encouragement. he submitted apathetically to his host's attentions. chitterlow, who admitted being a "bit off it" himself and in need of an egg-cupful of brandy, just an egg-cupful neat, dealt with that head and mouth as a mother might deal with the fall of an only child. he compared it with other heads and mouths that he had met, and in particular to certain experienced by the hon. thomas norgate. "right up to the last," said chitterlow, "he couldn't stand his liquor. it happens like that at times." and after chitterlow had pumped on the young beginner's head and given him some anchovy paste piping hot on buttered toast, which he preferred to all the other remedies he had encountered, kipps resumed his crumpled collar, brushed his clothes, tacked up his knee, and prepared to face mr. shalford and the reckoning for this wild, unprecedented night, the first "night out" that ever he had taken. acting on chitterlow's advice to have a bit of a freshener before returning to the emporium, kipps walked some way along the leas and back and then went down to a shop near the harbour to get a cup of coffee. he found that extremely reinvigorating, and he went on up the high street to face the inevitable terrors of the office, a faint touch of pride in his depravity tempering his extreme self-abasement. after all, it was not an unmanly headache; he had been out all night, and he had been drinking and his physical disorder was there to witness the fact. if it wasn't for the thought of shalford he would have been even a proud man to discover himself at last in such a condition. but the thought of shalford was very dreadful. he met two of the apprentices snatching a walk before shop began. at the sight of them he pulled his spirits together, put his hat back from his pallid brow, thrust his hands into his trouser pockets and adopted an altogether more dissipated carriage; he met their innocent faces with a wan smile. just for a moment he was glad that his patch at the knee was, after all, visible and that some at least of the mud on his clothes had refused to move at chitterlow's brushing. what wouldn't they think he had been up to? he passed them without speaking. he could imagine how they regarded his back. then he recollected mr. shalford.... the deuce of a row certainly and perhaps----! he tried to think of plausible versions of the affair. he could explain he had been run down by rather a wild sort of fellow who was riding a bicycle, almost stunned for the moment (even now he felt the effects of the concussion in his head) and had been given whiskey to restore him, and "the fact is, sir"--with an upward inflection of the voice, an upward inflection of the eyebrows and an air of its being the last thing one would have expected whiskey to do, the manifestation indeed of a practically unique physiological weakness--"it got into my _'ed_!" put like that it didn't look so bad. he got to the emporium a little before eight and the housekeeper with whom he was something of a favourite ("there's no harm in mr. kipps," she used to say) seemed to like him if anything better for having broken the rules and gave him a piece of dry toast and a good hot cup of tea. "i suppose the g. v.----" began kipps. "he knows," said the housekeeper. he went down to shop a little before time, and presently booch summoned him to the presence. he emerged from the private office after an interval of ten minutes. the junior clerk scrutinised his visage. buggins put the frank question. kipps answered with one word. "swapped!" said kipps. § kipps leant against the fixtures with his hands in his pockets and talked to the two apprentices under him. "i don't care if i _am_ swapped," said kipps. "i been sick of teddy and his system some time. i was a good mind to chuck it when my time was up. wish i 'ad now." afterwards pierce came round and kipps repeated this. "what's it for?" said pierce. "that row about the window tickets?" "no fear!" said kipps and sought to convey a perspective of splendid depravity. "i wasn't in las' night," he said and made even pierce, "man about town" pierce, open his eyes. "why! where did you get to?" asked pierce. he conveyed that he had been "fair round the town." "with a nactor chap, i know." "one can't _always_ be living like a curit," he said. "no fear," said pierce, trying to play up to him. but kipps had the top place in that conversation. "my lor'!" said kipps, when pierce had gone, "but wasn't my mouth and 'ed bad this morning before i 'ad a pick-me-up!" "whad jer 'ave?" "anchovy on 'ot buttered toast. it's the very best pick-me-up there is. you trust me, rodgers. i never take no other and i don't advise you to. see?" and when pressed for further particulars, he said again he had been "fair all _round_ the town, with a nactor chap" he knew. they asked curiously all he had done and he said, "well, what do _you_ think?" and when they pressed for still further details he said there were things little boys ought not to know and laughed darkly and found them some huckaback to roll. and in this manner for a space did kipps fend off the contemplation of the "key of the street" that shalford had presented him. § this sort of thing was all very well when junior apprentices were about, but when kipps was alone with himself it served him not at all. he was uncomfortable inside and his skin was uncomfortable, and head and mouth palliated perhaps, but certainly not cured, were still with him. he felt, to tell the truth, nasty and dirty and extremely disgusted with himself. to work was dreadful and to stand still and think still more dreadful. his patched knee reproached him. these were the second best of his three pairs of trousers, and they had cost him thirteen and sixpence. practically ruined they were. his dusting pair was unfit for shop and he would have to degrade his best. when he was under inspection he affected the slouch of a desperado, but directly he found himself alone, this passed insensibly into the droop. the financial aspect of things grew large before him. his whole capital in the world was the sum of five pounds in the post office savings bank and four and sixpence cash. besides there would be two months' screw. his little tin box upstairs was no longer big enough for his belongings; he would have to buy another, let alone that it was not calculated to make a good impression in a new "crib." then there would be paper and stamps needed in some abundance for answering advertisements and railway fares when he went "crib hunting." he would have to write letters, and he never wrote letters. there was spelling for example to consider. probably if nothing turned up before his month was up he would have to go home to his uncle and aunt. how would they take it?... for the present at any rate he resolved not to write to them. such disagreeable things as this it was that lurked below the fair surface of kipps' assertion, "i've been wanting a chance. if 'e 'adn't swapped me, i should very likely 'ave swapped _'im_." in the perplexed privacies of his own mind he could not understand how everything had happened. he had been the victim of fate, or at least of one as inexorable--chitterlow. he tried to recall the successive steps that had culminated so disastrously. they were difficult to recall.... buggins that night abounded in counsel and reminiscence. "curious thing," said buggins, "but every time i've had the swap i've never believed i should get another crib--never. but i have," said buggins. "always. so don't lose heart, whatever you do.... "whatever you do," said buggins, "keep hold of your collars and cuffs--shirts if you can, but collars anyhow. spout them last. and anyhow, it's summer!--you won't want your coat.... you got a good umbrella.... "you'll no more get a shop from new romney, than--anything. go straight up to london, get the cheapest room you can find--and hang out. don't eat too much. many a chap's put his prospects in his stomach. get a cup o' coffee and a slice--egg if you like--but remember you got to turn up at the warehouse tidy. the best places _now_, i believe, are the old cabmen's eating houses. keep your watch and chain as long as you can.... "there's lots of shops going," said buggins. "lots!" and added reflectively, "but not this time of year perhaps." he began to recall his own researches. "'stonishing lot of chaps you see," he said. "all sorts. look like dukes some of 'em. high hat. patent boots. frock coat. all there. all right for a west end crib. others--lord! it's a caution, kipps. boots been inked in some reading rooms--_i_ used to write in a reading room in fleet street, regular penny club--hat been wetted, collar frayed, tail coat buttoned up, black chest-plaster tie--spread out. shirt, you know, gone----" buggins pointed upward with a pious expression. "no shirt, i expect?" "eat it," said buggins. kipps meditated. "i wonder where old merton is," he said at last. "i often wondered about 'im." § it was the morning following kipps' notice of dismissal that miss walshingham came into the shop. she came in with a dark, slender lady, rather faded, rather tightly dressed, whom kipps was to know some day as her mother. he discovered them in the main shop at the counter of the ribbon department. he had come to the opposite glove counter with some goods enclosed in a parcel that he had unpacked in his own department. the two ladies were both bent over a box of black ribbon. he had a moment of tumultuous hesitations. the etiquette of the situation was incomprehensible. he put down his goods very quietly and stood hands on counter, staring at these two ladies. then, as miss walshingham sat back, the instinct of flight seized him.... he returned to his manchester shop wildly agitated. directly he was out of sight of her he wanted to see her. he fretted up and down the counter, and addressed some snappish remarks to the apprentice in the window. he fumbled for a moment with a parcel, untied it needlessly, began to tie it up again and then bolted back again into the main shop. he could hear his own heart beating. the two ladies were standing in the manner of those who have completed their purchases and are waiting for their change. mrs. walshingham regarded some remnants with impersonal interest; helen's eyes searched the shop. they distinctly lit up when they discovered kipps. he dropped his hands to the counter by habit and stood for a moment regarding her awkwardly. what would she do? would she cut him? she came across the shop to him. "how are _you_, mr. kipps?" she said, in her clear, distinct tones, and she held out her hand. "very well, thank you," said kipps; "how are you?" she said she had been buying some ribbon. he became aware of mrs. walshingham very much surprised. this checked something allusive about the class and he said instead that he supposed she was glad to be having her holidays now. she said she was, it gave her more time for reading and that sort of thing. he supposed that she would be going abroad and she thought that perhaps they _would_ go to knocke or bruges for a time. then came a pause and kipps' soul surged within him. he wanted to tell her he was leaving and would never see her again. he could find neither words nor voice to say it. the swift seconds passed. the girl in the ribbons was handing mrs. walshingham her change. "well," said miss walshingham, "good-bye," and gave him her hand again. kipps bowed over her hand. his manners, his counter manners, were the easiest she had ever seen upon him. she turned to her mother. it was no good now, no good. her mother! you couldn't say a thing like that before her mother! all was lost but politeness. kipps rushed for the door. he stood at the door bowing with infinite gravity, and she smiled and nodded as she went out. she saw nothing of the struggle within him, nothing but a satisfactory emotion. she smiled like a satisfied goddess as the incense ascends. mrs. walshingham bowed stiffly and a little awkwardly. he remained holding the door open for some seconds after they had passed out, then rushed suddenly to the back of the "costume" window to watch them go down the street. his hands tightened on the window rack as he stared. her mother appeared to be asking discreet questions. helen's bearing suggested the off-hand replies of a person who found the world a satisfactory place to live in. "really, mumsie, you cannot expect me to cut my own students dead," she was in fact saying.... they vanished round henderson's corner. gone! and he would never see her again--never! it was as though someone had struck his heart with a whip. never! never! never! and she didn't know! he turned back from the window and the department with its two apprentices was impossible. the whole glaring world was insupportable. he hesitated and made a rush head down for the cellar that was his manchester warehouse. rodgers asked him a question that he pretended not to hear. the manchester warehouse was a small cellar apart from the general basement of the building and dimly lit by a small gas flare. he did not turn that up, but rushed for the darkest corner, where on the lowest shelf the sale window tickets were stored. he drew out the box of these with trembling hands and upset them on the floor, and so having made himself a justifiable excuse for being on the ground, with his head well in the dark, he could let his poor bursting little heart have its way with him for a space. and there he remained until the cry of "kipps! forward!" summoned him once more to face the world. chapter vi the unexpected § now in the slack of that same day, after the midday dinner and before the coming of the afternoon customers, this disastrous chitterlow descended upon kipps with the most amazing coincidence in the world. he did not call formally, entering and demanding kipps, but privately, in a confidential and mysterious manner. kipps was first aware of him as a dark object bobbing about excitedly outside the hosiery window. he was stooping and craning and peering in the endeavour to see into the interior between and over the socks and stockings. then he transferred his attention to the door, and after a hovering scrutiny, tried the baby-linen display. his movements and gestures suggested a suppressed excitement. seen by daylight, chitterlow was not nearly such a magnificent figure as he had been by the subdued nocturnal lightings and beneath the glamour of his own interpretation. the lines were the same indeed, but the texture was different. there was a quality about the yachting cap, an indefinable finality of dustiness, a shiny finish on all the salient surfaces of the reefer coat. the red hair and the profile, though still forcible and fine, were less in the quality of michael angelo and more in that of the merely picturesque. but it was a bright brown eye still that sought amidst the interstices of the baby-linen. kipps was by no means anxious to interview chitterlow again. if he had felt sure that chitterlow would not enter the shop he would have hid in the warehouse until the danger was past, but he had no idea of chitterlow's limitations. he decided to keep up the shop in the shadows until chitterlow reached the side window of the manchester department and then to go outside as if to inspect the condition of the window and explain to him that things were unfavourable to immediate intercourse. he might tell him he had already lost his situation.... "ullo, chit'low," he said, emerging. "very man i want to see," said chitterlow, shaking with vigour. "very man i want to see." he laid a hand on kipps' arm. "how _old_ are you, kipps?" "one and twenty," said kipps. "why?" "talk about coincidences! and your name now? wait a minute." he held out a finger. "_is_ it arthur?" "yes," said kipps. "you're the man," said chitterlow. "what man?" "it's about the thickest coincidence i ever struck," said chitterlow, plunging his extensive hand into his breast coat pocket. "half a jiff and i'll tell you your mother's christian name." he laughed and struggled with his coat for a space, produced a washing book and two pencils, which he deposited in his side pocket; then in one capacious handful, a bent but by no means finally disabled cigar, the rubber proboscis of a bicycle pump, some twine and a lady's purse, and finally a small pocket book, and from this, after dropping and recovering several visiting cards, he extracted a carelessly torn piece of newspaper. "euphemia," he read and brought his face close to kipps'. "eh?" he laughed noisily. "it's about as fair a bit of all right as anyone _could_ have--outside a coincidence play. don't say her name wasn't euphemia, kipps, and spoil the whole blessed show." "whose name--euphemia?" asked kipps. "your mother's." "lemme see what it says on the paper." chitterlow handed him the fragment and turned away. "you may say what you like," he said, addressing a vast, deep laugh to the street generally. kipps attempted to read. "'waddy or kipps. if arthur waddy or arthur kipps, the son of margaret euphemia kipps, who----'" chitterlow's finger swept over the print. "i went down the column and every blessed name that seemed to fit my play i took. i don't believe in made-up names. as i told you. i'm all with zola in that. documents whenever you can. i like 'em hot and real. see? who was waddy?" "never heard his name." "not waddy?" "no!" kipps tried to read again and abandoned the attempt. "what does it mean?" he said. "i don't understand." "it means," said chitterlow, with a momentary note of lucid exposition, "so far as i can make out that you're going to strike it rich. never mind about the waddy--that's a detail. what does it usually mean? you'll hear of something to your advantage--very well. i took that newspaper up to get my names by the merest chance. directly i saw it again and read that--i knew it was you. i believe in coincidences. people say they don't happen. _i_ say they do. everything's a coincidence. seen properly. here you are. here's one! incredible? not a bit of it! see? it's you! kipps! waddy be damned! it's a mascot. there's luck in my play. bif! you're there. _i'm_ there. fair _in_ it! snap!" and he discharged his fingers like a pistol. "never you mind about the 'waddy.'" "eh?" said kipps, with a nervous eye on chitterlow's fingers. "you're all right," said chitterlow; "you may bet the seat of your only breeches on that! don't you worry about the waddy--that's as clear as day. you're about as right side up as a billiard ball--whatever you do. don't stand there gaping, man! read the paper if you don't believe me. read it!" he shook it under kipps' nose. kipps became aware of the second apprentice watching them from the shop. his air of perplexity gave place to a more confident bearing. "'---- who was born at east grinstead.' i certainly was born there. i've 'eard my aunt say----" "i knew it," said chitterlow, taking hold of one edge of the paper and bringing his face close alongside kipps'. "'----on september the first, eighteen hundred and seventy-eight----'" "_that's_ all right," said chitterlow. "it's all, all right, and all you have to do is write to watson and bean and get it----" "get what?" "whatever it is." kipps sought his moustache. "you'd write?" he asked. "ra-ther." "but what d'you think it is?" "that's the fun of it!" said chitterlow, taking three steps in some as yet uninvented dance. "that's where the joke comes in. it may be anything--it may be a million. if so! where does little harry come in? eh?" kipps was trembling slightly. "but----" he said, and thought. "if you was me----" he began. "about that waddy----?" he glanced up and saw the second apprentice disappear with amazing swiftness from behind the goods in the window. "_what?_" asked chitterlow, but he never had an answer. "lor'! there's the guv'nor!" said kipps, and made a prompt dive for the door. he dashed in only to discover that shalford, with the junior apprentice in attendance, had come to mark off remnants of kipps' cotton dresses and was demanding him. "hullo, kipps," he said, "outside----?" "seein' if the window was straight, sir," said kipps. "umph!" said shalford. for a space kipps was too busily employed to think at all of chitterlow or the crumpled bit of paper in his trouser pocket. he was, however, painfully aware of a suddenly disconcerted excitement at large in the street. there came one awful moment when chitterlow's nose loomed interrogatively over the ground glass of the department door, and his bright, little, red-brown eye sought for the reason of kipps' disappearance, and then it became evident that he saw the high light of shalford's baldness and grasped the situation and went away. and then kipps (with that advertisement in his pocket) was able to come back to the business in hand. he became aware that shalford had asked a question. "yessir, nosir, rightsir. i'm sorting up zephyrs to-morrow, sir," said kipps. presently he had a moment to himself again, and, taking up a safe position behind a newly unpacked pile of summer lace curtains, he straightened out the piece of paper and reperused it. it was a little perplexing. that "arthur waddy or arthur kipps"--did that imply two persons or one? he would ask pierce or buggins. only---- it had always been impressed upon him that there was something demanding secrecy about his mother. "don't you answer no questions about your mother," his aunt had been wont to say. "tell them you don't know, whatever it is they ask you." "now this----?" kipps' face became portentously careful and he tugged at his moustache, such as it was, hard. he had always represented his father as being a "gentleman farmer." "it didn't pay," he used to say with a picture in his own mind of a penny magazine aristocrat prematurely worn out by worry. "i'm a norfan, both sides," he would explain, with the air of one who had seen trouble. he said he lived with his uncle and aunt, but he did not say that they kept a toy shop, and to tell anyone that his uncle had been a butler--_a servant!_--would have seemed the maddest of indiscretions. almost all the assistants in the emporium were equally reticent and vague, so great is their horror of "lowness" of any sort. to ask about this "waddy or kipps" would upset all these little fictions. he was not, as a matter of fact, perfectly clear about his real status in the world (he was not, as a matter of fact, perfectly clear about anything), but he knew that there was a quality about his status that was--detrimental. under the circumstances----? it occurred to him that it would save a lot of trouble to destroy the advertisement there and then. in which case he would have to explain to chitterlow! "eng!" said mr. kipps. "kipps," cried carshot, who was shopwalking; "kipps, forward!" he thrust back the crumpled paper into his pocket and sallied forth to the customers. "i want," said the customer, looking vaguely about her through glasses, "a little bit of something to cover a little stool i have. anything would do--a remnant or anything----" the matter of the advertisement remained in abeyance for half an hour, and at the end the little stool was still a candidate for covering and kipps had a thoroughly representative collection of the textile fabrics in his department to clear away. he was so angry about the little stool that the crumpled advertisement lay for a space in his pocket, absolutely forgotten. § kipps sat on his tin box under the gas bracket that evening, and looked up the name euphemia and learnt what it meant in the "enquire within about everything" that constituted buggins' reference library. he hoped buggins, according to his habit, would ask him what he was looking for, but buggins was busy turning out his week's washing. "two collars," said buggins, "half pair socks, two dickeys. shirt?... m'm. there ought to be another collar somewhere." "euphemia," said kipps at last, unable altogether to keep to himself this suspicion of a high origin that floated so delightfully about him, "eu--phemia; it isn't a name _common_ people would give to a girl, is it?" "it isn't the name any decent people would give to a girl," said buggins, "----common or not." "lor'!" said kipps. "why?" "it's giving girls names like that," said buggins, "that nine times out of ten makes 'em go wrong. it unsettles 'em. if ever i was to have a girl, if ever i was to have a dozen girls, i'd call 'em all jane. every one of 'em. you couldn't have a better name than that. euphemia indeed! what next?... good lord!... that isn't one of my collars there, is it? under your bed?"... kipps got him the collar. "i don't see no great 'arm in euphemia," he said as he did so. after that he became restless. "i'm a good mind to write that letter," he said, and then, finding buggins preoccupied wrapping his washing up in the "half sox," added to himself, "a thundering good mind." so he got his penny bottle of ink, borrowed the pen from buggins and with no very serious difficulty in spelling or composition, did as he had resolved. he came back into the bedroom about an hour afterwards a little out of breath and pale. "where you been?" said buggins, who was now reading the _daily world manager_, which came to him in rotation from carshot. "out to post some letters," said kipps, hanging up his hat. "crib hunting?" "mostly," said kipps. "rather," he added, with a nervous laugh; "what else?" buggins went on reading. kipps sat on his bed and regarded the back of the _daily world manager_ thoughtfully. "buggins," he said at last. buggins lowered his paper and looked. "i say, buggins, what do these here advertisements mean that say so-and-so will hear of something greatly to his advantage?" "missin' people," said buggins, making to resume reading. "how d'yer mean?" asked kipps. "money left and that sort of thing?" buggins shook his head. "debts," he said, "more often than not." "but that ain't to his advantage." "they put that to get 'old of 'em," said buggins. "often it's wives." "what you mean?" "deserted wives, try and get their husbands back that way." "i suppose it _is_ legacies sometimes, eh? perhaps if someone was left a hundred pounds by someone----" "hardly ever," said buggins. "well, 'ow----?" began kipps and hesitated. buggins resumed reading. he was very much excited by a leader on indian affairs. "by jove!" he said, "it won't do to give these here blacks votes." "no fear," said kipps. "they're different altogether," said buggins. "they 'aven't the sound sense of englishmen, and they 'aven't the character. there's a sort of tricky dishonesty about 'em--false witness and all that--of which an englishman has no idea. outside their courts of law--it's a pos'tive fact, kipps--there's witnesses waitin' to be 'ired. reg'lar trade. touch their 'ats as you go in. englishmen 'ave no idea, i tell you--not ord'nary englishmen. it's in their blood. they're too timid to be honest. too slavish. they aren't used to being free like we are, and if you gave 'em freedom they wouldn't make a proper use of it. now _we_----. oh, _damn_!" for the gas had suddenly gone out and buggins had the whole column of society club chat still to read. buggins could talk of nothing after that but shalford's meanness in turning off the gas, and after being extremely satirical indeed about their employer, undressed in the dark, hit his bare toe against a box and subsided after unseemly ejaculations into silent ill-temper. though kipps tried to get to sleep before the affair of the letter he had just posted resumed possession of his mind he could not do so. he went over the whole thing again, quite exhaustively. now that his first terror was abating he couldn't quite determine whether he was glad or sorry that he had posted that letter. if it _should_ happen to be a hundred pounds! it _must_ be a hundred pounds! if it was he could hold out for a year, for a couple of years even, before he got a crib. even if it was fifty pounds----! buggins was already breathing regularly when kipps spoke again. "_bug_-gins," he said. buggins pretended to be asleep, and thickened his regular breathing (a little too hastily) to a snore. "i say buggins," said kipps after an interval. "_what's_ up now?" said buggins unamiably. "'spose _you_ saw an advertisement in a paper, with your name in it, see, asking you to come and see someone, like, so as to hear of something very much to your----" "hide," said buggins shortly. "but----" "i'd hide." "er?" "goonight, o' man," said buggins, with convincing earnestness. kipps lay still for a long time, then blew profoundly, turned over and stared at the other side of the dark. he had been a fool to post that letter! lord! _hadn't_ he been a fool! § it was just five days and a half after the light had been turned out while buggins was reading, that a young man with a white face and eyes bright and wide-open, emerged from a side road upon the leas front. he was dressed in his best clothes, and, although the weather was fine, he carried his umbrella, just as if he had been to church. he hesitated and turned to the right. he scanned each house narrowly as he passed it, and presently came to an abrupt stop. "hughenden," said the gateposts in firm, black letters, and the fanlight in gold repeated "hughenden." it was a stucco house fit to take your breath away, and its balcony was painted a beautiful sea-green, enlivened with gilding. he stood looking up at it. "gollys!" he said at last in an awestricken whisper. it had rich-looking crimson curtains to all the lower windows and brass railed blinds above. there was a splendid tropical plant in a large, artistic pot in the drawing-room window. there was a splendid bronzed knocker (ring also) and two bells--one marked "servants." gollys! _servants_, eh? he walked past away from it, with his eyes regarding it, and then turned and came back. he passed through a further indecision, and finally drifted away to the sea front and sat down on a seat a little way along the leas and put his arm over the back and regarded "hughenden." he whistled an air very softly to himself, put his head first on one side and then on the other. then for a space he scowled fixedly at it. a very stout old gentleman, with a very red face and very protuberant eyes, sat down beside kipps, removed a panama hat of the most abandoned desperado cut, and mopped his brow and blew. then he began mopping the inside of his hat. kipps watched him for a space, wondering how much he might have a year, and where he bought his hat. then "hughenden" reasserted itself. an impulse overwhelmed him. "i say," he said, leaning forward, to the old gentleman. the old gentleman started and stared. "_whad_ do you say?" he asked fiercely. "you wouldn't think," said kipps, indicating with his forefinger, "that that 'ouse there belongs to me." the old gentleman twisted his neck round to look at "hughenden." then he came back to kipps, looked at his mean, little garments with apoplectic intensity and blew at him by way of reply. "it does," said kipps, a little less confidently. "don't be a fool," said the old gentleman, and put his hat on and wiped out the corners of his eyes. "it's hot enough," panted the old gentleman indignantly, "without fools." kipps looked from the old gentleman to the house and back to the old gentleman. the old gentleman looked at kipps and snorted and looked out to sea, and again, snorting very contemptuously, at kipps. "mean to say it doesn't belong to me?" said kipps. the old gentleman just glanced over his shoulder at the house in dispute and then fell to pretending kipps didn't exist. "it's been lef' me this very morning," said kipps. "it ain't the only one that's been lef' me, neither." "aw!" said the old gentleman, like one who is sorely tried. he seemed to expect the passers-by presently to remove kipps. "it _'as_," said kipps. he made no further remark to the old gentleman for a space, but looked with a little less certitude at the house.... "i got----" he said and stopped. "it's no good telling you if you don't believe," he said. the old gentleman, after a struggle with himself, decided not to have a fit. "try that game on with me," he panted. "give you in charge." "what game?" "wasn't born yesterday," said the old gentleman, and blew. "besides," he added, "_look_ at you! i know you," and the old gentleman coughed shortly and nodded to the horizon and coughed again. kipps looked dubiously from the house to the old gentleman and back to the house. their conversation, he gathered, was over. presently he got up and went slowly across the grass to its stucco portal again. he stood and his mouth shaped the precious word, "hughenden." it was all _right_! he looked over his shoulder as if in appeal to the old gentleman, then turned and went his way. the old gentleman was so evidently past all reason! he hung for a moment some distance along the parade, as though some invisible string was pulling him back. when he could no longer see the house from the pavement he went out into the road. then with an effort he snapped the string. he went on down a quiet side street, unbuttoned his coat furtively, took out three bank notes in an envelope, looked at them and replaced them. then he fished up five new sovereigns from his trouser pocket and examined them. to such a confidence had his exact resemblance to his dead mother's portrait carried messrs. watson and bean. it was right enough. it really was _all_ right. he replaced the coins with grave precaution and went his way with a sudden briskness. it was all right--he had it now--he was a rich man at large. he went up a street and round a corner and along another street, and started towards the pavilion and changed his mind and came round back, resolved to go straight to the emporium and tell them all. he was aware of someone crossing a road far off ahead of him, someone curiously relevant to his present extraordinary state of mind. it was chitterlow. of course it was chitterlow who had told him first of the whole thing! the playwright was marching buoyantly along a cross street. his nose was in the air, the yachting cap was on the back of his head and the large freckled hand grasped two novels from the library, a morning newspaper, a new hat done up in paper and a lady's net bag full of onions and tomatoes.... he passed out of sight behind the wine merchant's at the corner, as kipps decided to hurry forward and tell him of the amazing change in the order of the universe that had just occurred. kipps uttered a feeble shout, arrested as it began, and waved his umbrella. then he set off at a smart pace in pursuit. he came round the corner and chitterlow had gone; he hurried to the next and there was no chitterlow, he turned back unavailingly and his eyes sought some other possible corner. his hand fluttered to his mouth and he stood for a space at the pavement edge, staring about him. no good! but the sight of chitterlow was a wholesome thing, it connected events together, joined him on again to the past at a new point, and that was what he so badly needed.... it was all right--all right. he became suddenly very anxious to tell everybody at the emporium, absolutely everybody, all about it. that was what wanted doing. he felt that telling was the thing to make this business real. he gripped his umbrella about the middle and walked very eagerly. he entered the emporium through the manchester department. he flung open the door (over whose ground glass he had so recently, in infinite apprehension, watched the nose of chitterlow) and discovered the second apprentice and pierce in conversation. pierce was prodding his hollow tooth with a pin and talking in fragments about the distinctive characteristics of good style. kipps came up in front of the counter. "i say," he said; "what d'yer think?" "what?" said pierce over the pin. "guess." "you've slipped out because teddy's in london." "something more." "what?" "been left a fortune." "garn!" "i 'ave." "get out!" "straight. i been lef' twelve 'undred pounds--twelve 'undred pounds a year!" he moved towards the little door out of the department into the house, moving, as heralds say, _regardant passant_. pierce stood with mouth wide open and pin poised in air. "no!" he said at last. "it's right," said kipps, "and i'm going." and he fell over the doormat into the house. § it happened that mr. shalford was in london buying summer sale goods--and no doubt also interviewing aspirants to succeed kipps. so that there was positively nothing to hinder a wild rush of rumour from end to end of the emporium. all the masculine members began their report with the same formula. "heard about kipps?" the new girl in the cash desk had had it from pierce and had dashed out into the fancy shop to be the first with the news on the fancy side. kipps had been left a thousand pounds a year, twelve thousand pounds a year. kipps had been left twelve hundred thousand pounds. the figures were uncertain, but the essential facts they had correct. kipps had gone upstairs. kipps was packing his box. he said he wouldn't stop another day in the old emporium, not for a thousand pounds! it was said that he was singing ribaldry about old shalford. he had come down! he was in the counting house. there was a general movement thither. poor old buggins had a customer and couldn't make out what the deuce it was all about! completely out of it was buggins. there was a sound of running to and fro and voices saying this, that and the other thing about kipps. ring-a-dinger, ring-a-dinger went the dinner bell all unheeded. the whole of the emporium was suddenly bright-eyed, excited, hungry to tell somebody, to find at any cost somebody who didn't know and be first to tell them, "kipps has been left thirty--forty--fifty thousand pounds!" "_what!_" cried the senior porter, "him!" and ran up to the counting house as eagerly as though kipps had broken his neck. "one of our chaps just been left sixty thousand pounds," said the first apprentice, returning after a great absence, to his customer. "unexpectedly?" said the customer. "quite," said the first apprentice.... "i'm sure if anyone deserves it, it's mr. kipps," said miss mergle, and her train rustled as she hurried to the counting house. there stood kipps amidst a pelting shower of congratulations. his face was flushed and his hair disordered. he still clutched his hat and best umbrella in his left hand. his right hand was anyone's to shake rather than his own. (ring-a-dinger, ring-a-dinger ding, ding, ding, dang you! went the neglected dinner bell.) "good old kipps," said pierce, shaking; "good old kipps." booch rubbed one anæmic hand upon the other. "you're sure it's all right, mr. kipps," he said in the background. "i'm sure we all congratulate him," said miss mergle. "great scott!" said the new young lady in the glove department. "twelve hundred a year! great scott! you aren't thinking of marrying anyone, are you, mr. kipps?" "three pounds, five and ninepence a day," said mr. booch, working in his head almost miraculously.... everyone, it seemed, was saying how glad they were it was kipps, except the junior apprentice, upon whom--he being the only son of a widow and used to having the best of everything as a right--an intolerable envy, a sense of unbearable wrong, had cast its gloomy shade. all the rest were quite honestly and simply glad--gladder perhaps at that time than kipps because they were not so overpowered.... kipps went downstairs to dinner, emitting fragmentary, disconnected statements. "never expected anything of the sort.... when this here old bean told me, you could have knocked me down with a feather.... he says, 'you b'en lef' money.' even then i didn't expect it'd be mor'n a hundred pounds perhaps. something like that." with the sitting down to dinner and the handing of plates the excitement assumed a more orderly quality. the housekeeper emitted congratulations as she carved and the maidservant became dangerous to clothes with the plates--she held them anyhow, one expected to see one upside down even--she found kipps so fascinating to look at. everyone was the brisker and hungrier for the news (except the junior apprentice) and the housekeeper carved with unusual liberality. it was high old times there under the gaslight, high old times. "i'm sure if anyone deserves it," said miss mergle--"pass the salt, please--it's kipps." the babble died away a little as carshot began barking across the table at kipps. "you'll be a bit of a swell, kipps," he said. "you won't hardly know yourself." "quite the gentleman," said miss mergle. "many real gentlemen's families," said the housekeeper, "have to do with less." "see you on the leas," said carshot. "my gu--!" he met the housekeeper's eye. she had spoken about that before. "my eye!" he said tamely, lest words should mar the day. "you'll go to london, i reckon," said pierce. "you'll be a man about town. we shall see you mashing 'em, with violets in your button'ole down the burlington arcade." "one of these west end flats. that'd be my style," said pierce. "and a first-class club." "aren't these clubs a bit 'ard to get into?" asked kipps, open-eyed, over a mouthful of potato. "no fear. not for money," said pierce. and the girl in the laces who had acquired a cynical view of modern society from the fearless exposures of miss marie corelli, said, "money goes everywhere nowadays, mr. kipps." but carshot showed the true british strain. "if i was kipps," he said, pausing momentarily for a knifeful of gravy, "i should go to the rockies and shoot bears." "i'd certainly 'ave a run over to boulogne," said pierce, "and look about a bit. i'm going to do that next easter myself, anyhow--see if i don't." "go to oireland, mr. kipps," came the soft insistence of biddy murphy, who managed the big workroom, flushed and shining in the irish way, as she spoke. "go to oireland. ut's the loveliest country in the world. outside car-rs. fishin', shootin', huntin'. an' pretty gals! eh! you should see the lakes of killarney, mr. kipps!" and she expressed ecstasy by a facial pantomime and smacked her lips. and presently they crowned the event. it was pierce who said, "kipps, you ought to stand sham!" and it was carshot who found the more poetical word, "champagne." "rather!" said kipps hilariously, and the rest was a question of detail and willing emissaries. "here it comes!" they said as the apprentice came down the staircase. "how about the shop?" said someone. "oh! _hang_ the shop!" said carshot and made gruntulous demands for a corkscrew with a thing to cut the wire. pierce, the dog! had a wire cutter in his pocket knife. how shalford would have stared at the gold tipped bottles if he had chanced to take an early train! bang with the corks, and bang! gluck, gluck, gluck, and sizzle! when kipps found them all standing about him under the gas flare, saying almost solemnly "kipps!" with tumblers upheld--"have it in tumblers," carshot had said; "have it in tumblers. it isn't a wine like you have in glasses. not like port and sherry. it cheers you up, but you don't get drunk. it isn't hardly stronger than lemonade. they drink it at dinner, some of 'em, every day." "what! at three and six a bottle!" said the housekeeper incredulously. "_they_ don't stick at _that_," said carshot; "not the champagne sort." the housekeeper pursed her lips and shook her head.... when kipps, i say, found them all standing up to toast him in that manner, there came such a feeling in his throat and face that for the life of him he scarcely knew for a moment whether he was not going to cry. "kipps!" they all said, with kindly eyes. it was very good of them, it was very good of them, and hard there wasn't a stroke of luck for them all! but the sight of upturned chins and glasses pulled him together again.... they did him honour. unenviously and freely they did him honour. for example, carshot being subsequently engaged in serving cretonne and desiring to push a number of rejected blocks up the counter in order to have space for measuring, swept them by a powerful and ill-calculated movement of the arm, with a noise like thunder partly on to the floor and partly on to the foot of the still gloomily preoccupied junior apprentice. and buggins, whose place it was to shopwalk while carshot served, shopwalked with quite unparalleled dignity, dangling a new season's sunshade with a crooked handle on one finger. he arrested each customer who came down the shop with a grave and penetrating look. "showing very 'tractive line new sheason's shun-shade," he would remark, and, after a suitable pause, "'markable thing, one our 'sistant leg'sy twelve 'undred a year. v'ry 'tractive. nothing more to-day, mum? no!" and he would then go and hold the door open for them with perfect decorum and with the sunshade dangling elegantly from his left hand.... and the second apprentice, serving a customer with cheap ticking, and being asked suddenly if it was strong, answered remarkably, "oo! _no_, mum! strong! why it ain't 'ardly stronger than lemonade...." the head porter, moreover, was filled with a virtuous resolve to break the record as a lightning packer and make up for lost time. mr. swaffenham, of the sandgate riviera, for example, who was going out to dinner that night at seven, received at half-past six, instead of the urgently needed dress shirt he expected, a corset specially adapted to the needs of persons inclined to embonpoint. a parcel of summer underclothing selected by the elder miss waldershawe, was somehow distributed in the form of gratis additions throughout a number of parcels of a less intimate nature, and a box of millinery on approval to lady pamshort (at wampachs) was enriched by the addition of the junior porter's cap.... these little things, slight in themselves, witness perhaps none the less eloquently to the unselfish exhilaration felt throughout the emporium at the extraordinary and unexpected enrichment of mr. kipps. § the 'bus that plies between new romney and folkestone is painted a british red and inscribed on either side with the word "tip-top" in gold amidst voluptuous scrolls. it is a slow and portly 'bus. below it swings a sort of hold, hung by chains between the wheels, and in the summer time the top has garden seats. the front over the two dauntless unhurrying horses rises in tiers like a theatre; there is first a seat for the driver and his company, and above that a seat and above that, unless my memory plays me false, a seat. there are days when this 'bus goes and days when it doesn't go--you have to find out. and so you get to new romney. this 'bus it was, this ruddy, venerable and immortal 'bus, that came down the folkestone hill with unflinching deliberation, and trundled through sandgate and hythe, and out into the windy spaces of the marsh, with kipps and all his fortunes on its brow. you figure him there. he sat on the highest seat diametrically above the driver and his head was spinning and spinning with champagne and this stupendous tomfoolery of luck and his heart was swelling, swelling indeed at times as though it would burst him, and his face towards the sunlight was transfigured. he said never a word, but ever and again as he thought of this or that, he laughed. he seemed full of chuckles for a time, detached and independent chuckles, chuckles that rose and burst in him like bubbles in a wine.... he held a banjo sceptre-fashion and restless on his knee. he had always wanted a banjo, and now he had got one at malchior's while he was waiting for the 'bus. there sat beside him a young servant who was sucking peppermint and a little boy with a sniff, whose flitting eyes showed him curious to know why ever and again kipps laughed, and beside the driver were two young men in gaiters talking about "tegs." and there sat kipps, all unsuspected, twelve hundred a year, as it were, disguised as a common young man. and the young man in gaiters to the left of the driver eyed kipps and his banjo, and especially his banjo, ever and again as if he found it and him, with his rapt face, an insoluble enigma. and many a king has ridden into a conquered city with a lesser sense of splendour than kipps. their shadows grew long behind them and their faces were transfigured in gold as they rumbled on towards the splendid west. the sun set before they had passed dymchurch, and as they came lumbering into new romney past the windmill the dusk had come. the driver handed down the banjo and the portmanteau, and kipps having paid him--"that's aw right," he said to the change, as a gentleman should--turned about and ran the portmanteau smartly into old kipps, whom the sound of the stopping of the 'bus had brought to the door of the shop in an aggressive mood and with his mouth full of supper. "ullo, uncle, didn't see you," said kipps. "blunderin' ninny," said old kipps. "what's brought _you_ here? ain't early closing, is it? not toosday?" "got some news for you, uncle," said kipps, dropping the portmanteau. "ain't lost your situation, 'ave you? what's that you got there? i'm blowed if it ain't a banjo. goo-lord! spendin' your money on banjoes! don't put down your portmanty there--anyhow. right in the way of everybody. i'm blowed if ever i saw such a boy as you've got lately. here! molly! and, look here! what you got a portmanty for? why! goo-lord! you ain't _really_ lost your place, 'ave you?" "somethin's happened," said kipps slightly dashed. "it's all right, uncle. i'll tell you in a minute." old kipps took the banjo as his nephew picked up the portmanteau again. the living room door opened quickly, showing a table equipped with elaborate simplicity for supper, and mrs. kipps appeared. "if it ain't young artie," she said. "why! whatever's brought _you_ 'ome?" "ullo, aunt," said artie. "i'm coming in. i got somethin' to tell you. i've 'ad a bit of luck." he wouldn't tell them all at once. he staggered with the portmanteau round the corner of the counter, set a bundle of children's tin pails into clattering oscillation, and entered the little room. he deposited his luggage in the corner beside the tall clock, and turned to his aunt and uncle again. his aunt regarded him doubtfully, the yellow light from the little lamp on the table escaped above the shade and lit her forehead and the tip of her nose. it would be all right in a minute. he wouldn't tell them all at once. old kipps stood in the shop door with the banjo in his hand, breathing noisily. "the fact is, aunt, i've 'ad a bit of luck." "you ain't been backin' gordless 'orses, artie?" she asked. "no fear." "it's a draw he's been in," said old kipps, still panting from the impact of the portmanteau; "it's a dratted draw. jest look here, molly. he's won this 'ere trashy banjer and thrown up his situation on the strength of it--that's what he's done. goin' about singing. dash and plunge! jest the very fault poor pheamy always 'ad. blunder right in and no one mustn't stop 'er!" "you ain't thrown up your place, artie, 'ave you?" said mrs. kipps. kipps perceived his opportunity. "i 'ave," he said; "i've throwed it up." "what for?" said old kipps. "so's to learn the banjo!" "goo _lord_!" said old kipps, in horror to find himself verified. "i'm going about playing!" said kipps with a giggle. "goin' to black my face, aunt, and sing on the beach. i'm going to 'ave a most tremenjous lark and earn any amount of money--you see. twenty-six fousand pounds i'm going to earn just as easy as nothing!" "kipps," said mrs. kipps, "he's been drinking!" they regarded their nephew across the supper table with long faces. kipps exploded with laughter and broke out again when his aunt shook her head very sadly at him. then suddenly he fell grave. he felt he could keep it up no longer. "it's all right, aunt. reely. i ain't mad and i ain't been drinking. i been lef' money. i been left twenty-six fousand pounds." pause. "and you thrown up your place?" said old kipps. "yes," said kipps. "rather!" "and bort this banjer, put on your best noo trousers and come right on 'ere?" "well," said mrs. kipps, "_i_ never did." "these ain't my noo trousers, aunt," said kipps regretfully. "my noo trousers wasn't done." "i shouldn't ha' thought that _even you_ could ha' been such a fool as that," said old kipps. pause. "it's _all_ right," said kipps a little disconcerted by their distrustful solemnity. "it's all right--reely! twenny-six fousan' pounds. and a 'ouse----" old kipps pursed his lips and shook his head. "a 'ouse on the leas. i could have gone there. only i didn't. i didn't care to. i didn't know what to say. i wanted to come and tell you." "how d'yer know the 'ouse----?" "they told me." "well," said old kipps, and nodded his head portentously towards his nephew, with the corners of his mouth pulled down in a portentous, discouraging way. "well, you _are_ a young gaby." "i didn't _think_ it of you, artie!" said mrs. kipps. "wadjer mean?" asked kipps faintly, looking from one to the other with a withered face. old kipps closed the shop door. "they been 'avin' a lark with you," said old kipps in a mournful undertone. "that's what i mean, my boy. they jest been seein' what a gaby like you 'ud do." "i dessay that young quodling was in it," said mrs. kipps. "'e's jest that sort." (for quodling of the green baize bag had grown up to be a fearful dog, the terror of new romney.) "it's somebody after your place very likely," said old kipps. kipps looked from one sceptical, reproving face to the other, and round him at the familiar shabby, little room, with his familiar cheap portmanteau on the mended chair, and that banjo amidst the supper things like some irrevocable deed. could he be rich indeed? could it be that these things had really happened? or had some insane fancy whirled him hither? still--perhaps a hundred pounds---- "but," he said. "it's all right, reely, uncle. you don't think----? i 'ad a letter." "got up," said old kipps. "but i answered it and went to a norfis." old kipps felt staggered for a moment, but he shook his head and chins sagely from side to side. as the memory of old bean and shalford revived, the confidence of kipps came back to him. "i saw a nold gent, uncle--perfect gentleman. and 'e told me all about it. mos' respectable 'e was. said 'is name was watson and bean--leastways 'e was bean. said it was lef' me----" kipps suddenly dived into his breast pocket. "by my grandfather----" the old people started. old kipps uttered an exclamation and wheeled round towards the mantel shelf above which the daguerreotype of his lost younger sister smiled its fading smile upon the world. "waddy 'is name was," said kipps, with his hand still deep in his pocket. "it was _'is_ son was my father----" "waddy!" said old kipps. "waddy!" said mrs. kipps. "she'd never say," said old kipps. there was a long silence. kipps fumbled with a letter, a crumpled advertisement and three bank notes. he hesitated between these items. "why! that young chap what was arsting questions----" said old kipps, and regarded his wife with an eye of amazement. "must 'ave been," said mrs. kipps. "must 'ave been," said old kipps. "james," said mrs. kipps, in an awestricken voice, "after all--perhaps--it's true!" "_'ow_ much did you say?" asked old kipps. "'ow much did you say 'ed lef' you, me b'y?" it was thrilling, though not quite in the way kipps had expected. he answered almost meekly across the meagre supper things, with his documentary evidence in his hand: "twelve 'undred pounds. 'proximately, he said. twelve 'undred pounds a year. 'e made 'is will, jest before 'e died--not more'n a month ago. when 'e was dying, 'e seemed to change like, mr. bean said. 'e'd never forgiven 'is son, never--not till then. 'is son 'ad died in australia, years and years ago, and _then_ 'e 'adn't forgiven 'im. you know--'is son what was my father. but jest when 'e was ill and dying 'e seemed to get worried like and longing for someone of 'is own. and 'e told mr. bean it was 'im that had prevented them marrying. so 'e thought. that's 'ow it all come about...." § at last kipps' flaring candle went up the narrow uncarpeted staircase to the little attic that had been his shelter and refuge during all the days of his childhood and youth. his head was whirling. he had been advised, he had been warned, he had been flattered and congratulated, he had been given whiskey and hot water and lemon and sugar, and his health had been drunk in the same. he had also eaten two welsh rabbits--an unusual supper. his uncle was chiefly for his going into parliament, his aunt was consumed with a great anxiety. "i'm afraid he'll go and marry beneath 'im." "y'ought to 'ave a bit o' shootin' somewheer," said old kipps. "it's your _duty_ to marry into a county family, artie. remember that." "there's lots of young noblemen'll be glad to 'ang on to you," said old kipps. "you mark my words. and borry your money. and then, good day to ye." "i got to be precious careful," said kipps. "mr. bean said that." "and you got to be precious careful of this old bean," said old kipps. "we may be out of the world in noo romney, but i've 'eard a bit about s'licitors, for all that. you keep your eye on old bean, me b'y. "'ow do we know what 'e's up to, with your money, even now?" said old kipps, pursuing this uncomfortable topic. "'e _looked_ very respectable," said kipps.... kipps undressed with great deliberation, and with vast gaps of pensive margin. twenty-six thousand pounds! his aunt's solicitude had brought back certain matters into the foreground that his "twelve 'undred a year!" had for a time driven away altogether. his thoughts went back to the wood-carving class. twelve hundred a year. he sat on the edge of the bed in profound meditation and his boots fell "whop" and "whop" upon the floor, with a long interval between each "whop." twenty-five thousand pounds. "by gum!" he dropped the remainder of his costume about him on the floor, got into bed, pulled the patchwork quilt over him and put his head on the pillow that had been first to hear of ann pornick's accession to his heart. but he did not think of ann pornick now. it was about everything in the world except ann pornick that he seemed to be trying to think of--simultaneously. all the vivid happenings of the day came and went in his overtaxed brain; "that old bean" explaining and explaining, the fat man who wouldn't believe, an overpowering smell of peppermint, the banjo, miss mergle saying he deserved it, chitterlow's vanishing round a corner, the wisdom and advice and warnings of his aunt and uncle. she was afraid he would marry beneath him, _was_ she? she didn't know.... his brain made an excursion into the wood-carving class and presented kipps with the picture of himself amazing that class by a modest yet clearly audible remark, "i been left twenty-six thousand pounds." then he told them all quietly but firmly that he had always loved miss walshingham, always, and so he had brought all his twenty-six thousand pounds with him to give to her there and then. he wanted nothing in return.... yes, he wanted nothing in return. he would give it to her all in an envelope and go. of course he would keep the banjo--and a little present for his aunt and uncle--and a new suit perhaps--and one or two other things she would not miss. he went off at a tangent. he might buy a motor car, he might buy one of these here things that will play you a piano--that would make old buggins sit up! he could pretend he had learnt to play--he might buy a bicycle and a cyclist suit.... a terrific multitude of plans of what he might do and in particular of what he might buy, came crowding into his brain, and he did not so much fall asleep as pass into a disorder of dreams in which he was driving a four-horse tip-top coach down sandgate hill ("i shall have to be precious careful"), wearing innumerable suits of clothes, and through some terrible accident wearing them all wrong. consequently he was being laughed at. the coach vanished in the interest of the costume. he was wearing golfing suits and a silk hat. this passed into a nightmare that he was promenading on the leas in a highland costume, with a kilt that kept shrinking, and shalford was following him with three policemen. "he's my assistant," shalford kept repeating; "he's escaped. he's an escaped improver. keep by him and in a minute you'll have to run him in. i know 'em. we say they wash, but they won't."... he could feel the kilt creeping up his legs. he would have tugged at it to pull it down only his arms were paralysed. he had an impression of giddy crisis. he uttered a shriek of despair. "_now!_" said shalford. he woke in horror, his quilt had slipped off the bed. he had a fancy he had just been called, that he had somehow overslept himself and missed going down for dusting. then he perceived it was still night and light by reason of the moonlight, and that he was no longer in the emporium. he wondered where he could be. he had a curious fancy that the world had been swept and rolled up like a carpet and that he was nowhere. it occurred to him that perhaps he was mad. "buggins!" he said. there was no answer, not even the defensive snore. no room, no buggins, nothing! then he remembered better. he sat on the edge of his bed for some time. could anyone have seen his face they would have seen it white and drawn with staring eyes. then he groaned weakly. "twenty-six thousand pounds?" he whispered. just then it presented itself in an almost horribly overwhelming mass. he remade his bed and returned to it. he was still dreadfully wakeful. it was suddenly clear to him that he need never trouble to get up punctually at seven again. that fact shone out upon him like a star through clouds. he was free to lie in bed as long as he liked, get up when he liked, go where he liked, have eggs every morning for breakfast or rashers or bloater paste or.... also he was going to astonish miss walshingham.... astonish her and astonish her.... * * * * * he was awakened by a thrush singing in the fresh dawn. the whole room was flooded with warm, golden sunshine. "i say!" said the thrush. "i say! i say! twelve 'undred a year! twelve 'undred a year. twelve 'undred a year! i say! i say! i say!" he sat up in bed and rubbed the sleep from his eyes with his knuckles. then he jumped out of bed and began dressing very eagerly. he did not want to lose any time in beginning the new life. end of book i book ii mr. coote, the chaperon chapter i the new conditions § there comes a gentlemanly figure into these events and for a space takes a leading part therein, a good influence, a refined and amiable figure, mr. chester coote. you must figure him as about to enter our story, walking with a curious rectitude of bearing through the evening dusk towards the public library, erect, large-headed--he had a great, big head full of the suggestion of a powerful mind, well under control--with a large, official-looking envelope in his white and knuckly hand. in the other he carries a gold-handled cane. he wears a silken grey jacket suit, buttoned up, and anon he coughs behind the official envelope. he has a prominent nose, slatey grey eyes and a certain heaviness about the mouth. his mouth hangs breathing open, with a slight protrusion of the lower jaw. his straw hat is pulled down a little in front, and he looks each person he passes in the eye, and directly his look is answered looks away. thus mr. chester coote, as he was on the evening when he came upon kipps. he was a local house agent and a most active and gentlemanly person, a conscious gentleman, equally aware of society and the serious side of life. from amateur theatricals of a nice, refined sort to science classes, few things were able to get along without him. he supplied a fine, full bass, a little flat and quavery perhaps, but very abundant, to the st. stylites' choir.... he passes on towards the public library, lifts the envelope in salutation to a passing curate, smiles and enters.... it was in the public library that he came upon kipps. by that time kipps had been rich a week or more, and the change in his circumstances was visible upon his person. he was wearing a new suit of drab flannels, a panama hat and a red tie for the first time, and he carried a silver-mounted stick with a tortoise shell handle. he felt extraordinarily different, perhaps more different than he really was, from the meek improver of a week ago. he felt as he felt dukes must feel, yet at bottom he was still modest. he was leaning on his stick and regarding the indicator with a respect that never palled. he faced round to meet mr. coote's overflowing smile. "what are you doang hea?" said mr. chester coote. kipps was momentarily abashed. "oh," he said slowly, and then, "mooching round a bit." that coote should address him with this easy familiarity was a fresh reminder of his enhanced social position. "jes' mooching round," he said. "i been back in folkestone free days now. at my 'ouse, you know." "ah!" said mr. coote. "i haven't yet had an opportunity of congratulating you on your good fortune." kipps held out his hand. "it was the cleanest surprise that ever was," he said. "when mr. bean told me of it--you could have knocked me down with a feather." "it must mean a tremendous change for you." "oo. rather. change. why, i'm like the chap in the song they sing, i don't 'ardly know where i are. _you_ know." "an extraordinary change," said mr. coote. "i can quite believe it. are you stopping in folkestone?" "for a bit. i got a 'ouse, you know. what my gran'father 'ad. i'm stopping there. his housekeeper was kep' on. fancy--being in the same town and everything!" "precisely," said mr. coote. "that's it!" and coughed like a sheep behind four straight fingers. "mr. bean got me to come back to see to things. else i was out in new romney, where my uncle and aunt live. but it's a lark coming back. in a way...." the conversation hung for a moment. "are you getting a book?" asked coote. "well, i 'aven't got a ticket yet. but i shall get one all right, and have a go in at reading. i've often wanted to. rather. i was just 'aving a look at this indicator. first-class idea. tells you all you want to know." "it's simple," said coote, and coughed again, keeping his eyes fixed on kipps. for a moment they hung, evidently disinclined to part. then kipps jumped at an idea he had cherished for a day or more,--not particularly in relation to coote, but in relation to anyone. "you doing anything?" he asked. "just called with a papah about the classes." "because----. would you care to come up and look at my 'ouse and 'ave a smoke and a chat. eh?" he made indicative back jerks of the head, and was smitten with a horrible doubt whether possibly this invitation might not be some hideous breach of etiquette. was it, for example, the correct hour? "i'd be awfully glad if you would," he added. mr. coote begged for a moment while he handed the official-looking envelope to the librarian and then declared himself quite at kipps' service. they muddled a moment over precedence at each door they went through and so emerged to the street. "it feels awful rum to me at first, all this," said kipps "'aving a 'ouse of my own and all that. it's strange, you know. 'aving all day. reely i don't 'ardly know what to do with my time. "d'ju smoke?" he said suddenly, proffering a magnificent gold decorated pigskin cigarette case, which he produced from nothing, almost as though it was some sort of trick. coote hesitated and declined, and then, with great liberality, "don't let me hinder you...." they walked a little way in silence, kipps being chiefly concerned to affect ease in his new clothes and keeping a wary eye on coote. "it's rather a big windfall," said coote presently. "it yields you an income----?" "twelve 'undred a year," said kipps. "bit over--if anything." "do you think of living in folkestone?" "don't know 'ardly yet. i _may_. then again, i may not. i got a furnished 'ouse, but i may let it." "your plans are undecided?" "that's jest it," said kipps. "very beautiful sunset it was to-night," said coote, and kipps said, "wasn't it?" and they began to talk of the merits of sunsets. did kipps paint? not since he was a boy. he didn't believe he could now. coote said his sister was a painter and kipps received this intimation with respect. coote sometimes wished he could find time to paint himself,--but one couldn't do everything and kipps said that was "jest it." they came out presently upon the end of the leas and looked down to where the squat dark masses of the harbour and harbour station, gemmed with pinpoint lights, crouched against the twilit grey of the sea. "if one could do _that_," said coote, and kipps was inspired to throw his head back, cock it on one side, regard the harbour with one eye shut and say that it would take some doing. then coote said something about "abend," which kipps judged to be in a foreign language and got over by lighting another cigarette from his by no means completed first one. "you're right, _puff_, _puff_." he felt that so far he had held up his end of the conversation in a very creditable manner, but that extreme discretion was advisable. they turned away and coote remarked that the sea was good for crossing, and asked kipps if he had been over the water very much. kipps said he hadn't been--"much," but he thought very likely he'd have a run over to boulogne soon, and coote proceeded to talk of the charms of foreign travel, mentioning quite a number of unheard-of places by name. he had been to them! kipps remained on the defensive, but behind his defences his heart sank. it was all very well to pretend, but presently it was bound to come out. _he_ didn't know anything of all this.... so they drew near the house. at his own gate kipps became extremely nervous. it was a fine, impressive door. he knocked neither a single knock nor a double, but about one and a half--an apologetic half. they were admitted by an irreproachable housemaid, with a steady eye, before which kipps cringed dreadfully. he hung up his hat and fell about over hall chairs and things. "there's a fire in the study, mary?" he had the audacity to ask, though evidently he knew, and led the way upstairs panting. he tried to shut the door and discovered the housemaid behind him coming to light his lamp. this enfeebled him further. he said nothing until the door closed behind her. meanwhile to show his _sang froid_ he hummed and flitted towards the window, and here and there. coote went to the big hearthrug and turned and surveyed his host. his hand went to the back of his head and patted his occiput--a gesture frequent with him. "'ere we are," said kipps, hands in his pockets and glancing round him. it was a gaunt victorian room, with a heavy, dirty cornice, and the ceiling enriched by the radiant plaster ornament of an obliterated gas chandelier. it held two large glass fronted bookcases, one of which was surmounted by a stuffed terrier encased in glass. there was a mirror over the mantel and hangings and curtains of magnificent crimson patternings. on the mantel were a huge black clock of classical design, vases in the burslem etruscan style, spills and toothpicks in large receptacles of carved rock, large lava ash trays and an exceptionally big box of matches. the fender was very great and brassy. in a favourable position, under the window, was a spacious rosewood writing desk, and all the chairs and other furniture were of rosewood and well stuffed. "this," said kipps, in something near an undertone, "was the o' gentleman's study--my grandfather that was. 'e used to sit at that desk and write." "books?" "no. letters to the _times_, and things like that. 'e's got 'em all cut out--stuck in a book.... leastways, he _'ad_. it's in that bookcase.... won't you sit down?" coote did, bowing very slightly, and kipps secured his vacated position on the extensive black skin rug. he spread out his legs compass-fashion and tried to appear at his ease. the rug, the fender, the mantel and mirror conspired with great success to make him look a trivial and intrusive little creature amidst their commonplace hauteur, and his own shadow on the opposite wall seemed to think everything a great lark and mocked and made tremendous fun of him.... § for a space kipps played a defensive game and coote drew the lines of the conversation. they kept away from the theme of kipps' change of fortune, and coote made remarks upon local and social affairs. "you must take an interest in these things now," was as much as he said in the way of personalities. but it speedily became evident that he was a person of wide and commanding social relationships. he spoke of "society" being mixed in the neighbourhood and of the difficulty of getting people to work together, and "do" things; they were cliquish. incidentally he alluded quite familiarly to men with military titles, and once even to someone with a title, a lady punnet. not snobbishly, you understand, nor deliberately, but quite in passing. he had, it appeared, talked to lady punnet about private theatricals! in connection with the hospitals. she had been unreasonable and he had put her right, gently of course, but firmly. "if you stand up to these people," said coote, "they like you all the better." it was also very evident he was at his ease with the clergy; "my friend, mr. densemore--a curate, you know, and rather curious, the reverend _and_ honourable." coote grew visibly in kipps' eyes as he said these things; he became, not only the exponent of "vagner or vargner," the man whose sister had painted a picture to be exhibited at the royal academy, the type of the hidden thing called culture, but a delegate, as it were, or at least an intermediary from that great world "up there," where there were men servants, where there were titles, where people dressed for dinner, drank wine at meals, wine costing very often as much as three and sixpence the bottle, and followed through a maze of etiquette, the most stupendous practices.... coote sat back in the armchair smoking luxuriously and expanding pleasantly, with the delightful sense of savoir faire; kipps sat forward, his elbows on his chair arm alert, and his head a little on one side. you figure him as looking little and cheap and feeling smaller and cheaper amidst his new surroundings. but it was a most stimulating and interesting conversation. and soon it became less general and more serious and intimate. coote spoke of people who had got on, and of people who hadn't, of people who seemed to be _in_ everything and people who seemed to be _out_ of everything, and then he came round to kipps. "you'll have a good time," he said abruptly, with a smile that would have interested a dentist. "i dunno," said kipps. "there's mistakes, of course." "that's jest it." coote lit a new cigarette. "one can't help being interested in what you will do," he remarked. "of course--for a young man of spirit, come suddenly into wealth--there's temptations." "i got to go careful," said kipps. "o' bean told me that at the very first." coote went on to speak of pitfalls, of betting, of bad companions. "i know," said kipps, "i know." "there's doubt again," said coote. "i know a young fellow--a solicitor--handsome, gifted. and yet, you know--utterly sceptical. practically altogether a sceptic." "lor'!" said kipps, "not a natheist?" "i fear so," said coote. "really, you know, an awfully fine young fellow--gifted! but full of this dreadful modern spirit--cynical! all this overman stuff. nietzsche and all that.... i wish i could do something for him." "ah!" said kipps and knocked the ash off his cigarette. "i know a chap--one of our apprentices he was--once. always scoffing.... he lef'!" he paused. "never wrote for his refs," he said, in the deep tone proper to a moral tragedy, and then, after a pause--"enlisted!" "ah!" said coote. "and often," he said, after a pause, "it's just the most spirited chaps, just the chaps one likes best, who go wrong." "it's temptation," kipps remarked. he glanced at coote, leant forward, knocked the ash from his cigarette into the mighty fender. "that's jest it," he said; "you get tempted. before you know where you are." "modern life," said coote, "is so--complex. it isn't everyone is strong. half the young fellows who go wrong, aren't really bad." "that's jest it," said kipps. "one gets a tone from one's surroundings----" "that's exactly it," said kipps. he meditated. "_i_ picked up with a chap," he said. "a nacter. leastways he writes plays. clever fellow. but----" he implied extensive moral obloquy by a movement of his head. "of course it's seeing life," he added. coote pretended to understand the full implications of kipps' remark. "is it _worth_ it?" he asked. "that's jest it," said kipps. he decided to give some more. "one gets talking," he said. "then it's ''ave a drink!' old methusaleh four stars--and where _are_ you? _i_ been drunk," he said in a tone of profound humility, and added, "lots of times." "tt. tt.," said coote. "dozens of times," said kipps, smiling sadly, and added, "lately." his imagination became active and seductive. "one thing leads to another. cards, p'raps. girls----" "i know," said coote; "i know." kipps regarded the fire and flushed slightly. he borrowed a sentence that chitterlow had recently used. "one can't tell tales out of school," he said. "i can imagine it," said coote. kipps looked with a confidential expression into coote's face. "it was bad enough when money was limited," he remarked. "but now----" he spoke with raised eyebrows, "i got to steady down." "you _must_," said coote, protruding his lips into a sort of whistling concern for a moment. "i must," said kipps, nodding his head slowly with raised eyebrows. he looked at his cigarette end and threw it into the fender. he was beginning to think he was holding his own in this conversation rather well, after all. kipps was never a good liar. he was the first to break silence. "i don't mean to say i been reely bad or reely bad drunk. a 'eadache perhaps--three or four times, say. but there it is!" "i have never tasted alcohol in my life," said coote, with an immense frankness, "never!" "no?" "never. i don't feel _i_ should be likely to get drunk at all--it isn't that. and i don't go so far as to say even that in small quantities--at meals--it does one harm. but if i take it, someone else who doesn't know where to stop--you see?" "that's jest it," said kipps, with admiring eyes. "i smoke," admitted coote. "one doesn't want to be a pharisee." it struck kipps what a tremendously good chap this coote was, not only tremendously clever and educated and a gentleman and one knowing lady punnet, but good. he seemed to be giving all his time and thought to doing good things to other people. a great desire to confide certain things to him arose. at first kipps hesitated whether he should confide an equal desire for benevolent activities or for further depravity--either was in his mind. he rather affected the pose of the good intentioned dog. then suddenly his impulses took quite a different turn, fell indeed into what was a far more serious rut in his mind. it seemed to him coote might be able to do for him something he very much wanted done. "companionship accounts for so much," said coote. "that's jest it," said kipps. "of course, you know, in my new position----. that's just the difficulty." he plunged boldly at his most secret trouble. he knew that he wanted refinement--culture. it was all very well--but he knew. but how was one to get it? he knew no one, knew no people----. he rested on the broken sentence. the shop chaps were all very well, very good chaps and all that, but not what one wanted. "i feel be'ind," said kipps. "i feel out of it. and consequently i feel it's no good. and then if temptation comes along----" "exactly," said coote. kipps spoke of his respect for miss walshingham and her freckled friend. he contrived not to look too self-conscious. "you know, i'd like to talk to people like that, but i can't. a chap's afraid of giving himself away." "of course," said coote, "of course." "i went to a middle-class school, you know. you mustn't fancy i'm one of these here board-school chaps, but you know it reely wasn't a first-class affair. leastways he didn't take pains with us. if you didn't want to learn you needn't--i don't believe it was _much_ better than one of these here national schools. we wore mortarboards, o' course. but what's _that_? "i'm a regular fish out of water with this money. when i got it--it's a week ago--reely i thought i'd got everything i wanted. but i dunno what to _do_." his voice went up into a squeak. "practically," he said, "it's no good shuttin' my eyes to things--i'm a gentleman." coote indicated a serious assent. "and there's the responsibilities of a gentleman," he remarked. "that's jest it," said kipps. "there's calling on people," said kipps. "if you want to go on knowing someone you knew before like. people that's refined." he laughed nervously. "i'm a regular fish out of water," he said, with expectant eyes on coote. but coote only nodded for him to go on. "this actor chap," he meditated, "is a good sort of chap. but 'e isn't what _i_ call a gentleman. i got to 'old myself in with 'im. 'e'd make me go it wild in no time. 'e's pretty near the on'y chap i know. except the shop chaps. they've come round to 'ave supper once already and a bit of a sing song afterwards. i sang. i got a banjo, you know, and i vamp a bit. vamping--you know. haven't got far in the book--'ow to vamp--but still i'm getting on. jolly, of course, in a way, but what does it lead to?... besides that, there's my aunt and uncle. _they're_ very good old people--very--jest a bit interfering p'r'aps and thinking one isn't grown up, but right enough. only----. it isn't what i _want_. i feel i've got be'ind with everything. i want to make it up again. i want to get with educated people who know 'ow to do things--in the regular, proper way." his beautiful modesty awakened nothing but benevolence in the mind of chester coote. "if i had someone like you," said kipps, "that i knew regular like----" from that point their course ran swift and easy. "if i _could_ be of any use to you," said coote.... "but you're so busy and all that." "not _too_ busy. you know, your case is a very interesting one. it was partly that made me speak to you and draw you out. here you are with all this money and no experience, a spirited young chap----" "that's jest it," said kipps. "i thought i'd see what you were made of, and i must confess i've rarely talked to anyone that i've found quite so interesting as you have been----" "i seem able to say things to you like somehow," said kipps. "i'm glad. i'm tremendously glad." "i want a friend. that's it--straight." "my dear chap, if i----" "yes, but----" "_i_ want a friend, too." "reely?" "yes. you know, my dear kipps--if i may call you that." "go on," said kipps. "i'm rather a lonely dog myself. _this_ to-night----. i've not had anyone i've spoken to so freely of my work for months." "no?" "you. and, my dear chap, if i can do anything to guide or help you----" coote displayed all his teeth in a kindly tremulous smile and his eyes were shiny. "shake 'ands," said kipps, deeply moved, and he and coote rose and clasped with mutual emotion. "it's reely too good of you," said kipps. "whatever i can do i will," said coote. and so their compact was made. from that moment they were friends, intimate, confidential, high-thinking, _sotto voce_ friends. all the rest of their talk (and it inclined to be interminable) was an expansion of that. for that night kipps wallowed in self-abandonment and coote behaved as one who had received a great trust. that sinister passion for pedagoguery to which the good intentioned are so fatally liable, that passion of infinite presumption that permits one weak human being to arrogate the direction of another weak human being's affairs, had coote in its grip. he was to be a sort of lay confessor and director of kipps, he was to help kipps in a thousand ways, he was in fact to chaperon kipps into the higher and better sort of english life. he was to tell him his faults, advise him about the right thing to do---- "it's all these things i don't know," said kipps. "i don't know, for instance, what's the right sort of dress to wear--i don't even know if i'm dressed right now----" "all these things"--coote stuck out his lips and nodded rapidly to show he understood--"trust me for that," he said, "trust me." as the evening wore on coote's manner changed, became more and more the manner of a proprietor. he began to take up his rôle, to survey kipps with a new, with a critical affection. it was evident the thing fell in with his ideas. "it will be awfully interesting," he said. "you know, kipps, you're really good stuff." (every sentence now he said "kipps" or "my dear kipps" with a curiously authoritative intonation.) "i know," said kipps, "only there's such a lot of things i don't seem to be up to some'ow. that's where the trouble comes in." they talked and talked, and now kipps was talking freely. they rambled over all sorts of things. among others kipps' character was dealt with at length. kipps gave valuable lights on it. "when i'm reely excited," he said, "i don't seem to care _what_ i do. i'm like that." and again, "i don't like to do anything under'and. i _must_ speak out...." he picked a piece of cotton from his knee, the fire grimaced behind his back, and his shadow on the wall and ceiling was disrespectfully convulsed. § kipps went to bed at last with an impression of important things settled, and he lay awake for quite a long time. he felt he was lucky. he had known--in fact buggins and carshot and pierce had made it very clear indeed--that his status in life had changed and that stupendous adaptations had to be achieved, but how they were to be effected had driven that adaptation into the incredible. here in the simplest, easiest way was the adapter. the thing had become possible. not of course easy, but possible. there was much to learn, sheer intellectual toil, methods of address, bowing, an enormous complexity of laws. one broken, you are an outcast. how, for example, would one encounter lady punnet? it was quite possible some day he might really have to do that. coote might introduce him. "lord!" he said aloud to the darkness between grinning and dismay. he figured himself going into the emporium to buy a tie, for example, and there in the face of buggins, carshot, pierce and the rest of them, meeting "my friend, lady punnet!" it might not end with lady punnet! his imagination plunged and bolted with him, galloped, took wings and soared to romantic, to poetical altitudes.... suppose some day one met royalty. by accident, say! he soared to that! after all,--twelve hundred a year is a lift, a tremendous lift. how did one address royalty? "your majesty's goodness," it will be, no doubt--something like that--and on the knees. he became impersonal. over a thousand a year made him an esquire, didn't it? he thought that was it. in which case, wouldn't he have to be presented at court? velvet cycling breeches like you wear cycling, and a sword! what a curious place a court must be! kneeling and bowing, and what was it miss mergle used to talk about? of course!--ladies with long trains walking about backward. everybody walked about backward at court, he knew, when not actually on their knees. perhaps, though, some people regular stood up to the king! talked to him, just as one might talk to buggins, say. cheek of course! dukes, it might be, did that--by permission? millionnaires?... from such thoughts this free citizen of our crowned republic passed insensibly into dreams, turgid dreams of that vast ascent which constitutes the true-born briton's social scheme, which terminates with retrogressive progression and a bending back. § the next morning he came down to breakfast looking grave--a man with much before him in the world.... kipps made a very special thing of his breakfast. daily once hopeless dreams came true then. it had been customary in the emporium to supplement shalford's generous, indeed unlimited, supply of bread and butter-substitute, by private purchases, and this had given kipps very broad, artistic conceptions of what the meal might be. now there would be a cutlet or so or a mutton chop--this splendour buggins had reported from the great london clubs--haddock, kipper, whiting or fish-balls, eggs, boiled or scrambled, or eggs and bacon, kidney also frequently and sometimes liver. amidst a garland of such themes, sausages, black and white puddings, bubble-and-squeak, fried cabbage and scallops came and went. always as camp followers came potted meat in all varieties, cold bacon, german sausage, brawn, marmalade and two sorts of jam, and when he had finished these he would sit among his plates and smoke a cigarette and look at all these dishes crowded round him with a beatific approval. it was his principal meal. he was sitting with his cigarette regarding his apartment with that complacency begotten of a generous plan of feeding successfully realized, when newspapers and post arrived. there were several things by the post, tradesmen's circulars and cards and two pathetic begging letters--his luck had got into the papers--and there was a letter from a literary man and a book to enforce his request for /--to put down socialism. the book made it very clear that prompt action on the part of property owners was becoming urgent, if property was to last out the year. kipps dipped in it and was seriously perturbed. and there was a letter from old kipps saying it was difficult to leave the shop and come over and see him again just yet, but that he had been to a sale at lydd the previous day and bought a few good old books and things it would be difficult to find the equal of in folkestone. "they don't know the value of these things out here," wrote old kipps, "but you may depend upon it they are valuable," and a brief financial statement followed. "there is an engraving someone might come along and offer you a lot of money for one of these days. depend upon it, these old things are about the best investment you could make...." old kipps had long been addicted to sales, and his nephew's good fortune had converted what had once been but a looking and a craving--he had rarely even bid for anything in the old days except the garden tools or the kitchen gallipots or things like that, things one gets for sixpence and finds a use for--into a very active pleasure. sage and penetrating inspection, a certain mystery of bearing, tactical bids and purchase!--purchase!--the old man had had a good time. while kipps was rereading the begging letters and wishing he had the sound, clear common sense of buggins to help him a little, the parcels post brought along the box from his uncle. it was a large, insecure looking case held together by a few still loyal nails, and by what the british war office would have recognised at once as an army corps of string, rags and odds and ends tied together. kipps unpacked it with a table knife, assisted at a critical point by the poker, and found a number of books and other objects of an antique type. there were three bound volumes of early issues of chambers' journal, a copy of punch's pocket book for , sturm's reflections, an early version of gill's geography (slightly torn), an illustrated work on spinal curvature, an early edition of kirke's human physiology, the scottish chiefs and a little volume on the language of flowers. there was a fine steel engraving, oak-framed and with some rusty spots, done in the colossal style and representing the handwriting on the wall. there were also a copper kettle, a pair of candle snuffers, a brass shoehorn, a tea caddy to lock, two decanters (one stoppered) and what was probably a portion of an eighteenth century child's rattle. kipps examined these objects one by one and wished he knew more about them. turning over the pages of the physiology again he came upon a striking plate in which a youth of agreeable profile displayed his interior in an unstinted manner to the startled eye. it was a new view of humanity altogether for kipps, and it arrested his mind. this anatomised figure made him forget for a space that he was "practically a gentleman" altogether, and he was still surveying its extraordinary complications when another reminder of a world quite outside those spheres of ordered gentility into which his dreams had carried him overnight, arrived (following the servant) in the person of chitterlow. § "ul-_lo_!" said kipps, rising. "not busy?" said chitterlow, enveloping kipps' hand for a moment in one of his own and tossing the yachting cap upon the monumental carved oak sideboard. "only a bit of reading," said kipps. "reading, eh?" chitterlow cocked the red eye at the books and other properties for a moment and then, "i've been expecting you 'round again one night." "i been coming 'round," said kipps. "on'y there's a chap 'ere----. i was coming 'round last night on'y i met 'im." he walked to the hearthrug. chitterlow drifted around the room for a time, glancing at things as he talked. "i've altered that play tremendously since i saw you," he said. "pulled it all to pieces." "what play's that, chit'low?" "the one we were talking about. you know. you said something--i don't know if you meant it--about buying half of it. not the tragedy. i wouldn't sell my twin brother a share in that. that's my investment. that's my serious work. no! i mean that new farce i've been on to. thing with the business about a beetle." "oo yes," said kipps. "_i_ remember." "i thought you would. said you'd take a fourth share for a hundred pounds. _you_ know." "i seem to remember something----" "well, it's all different. every bit of it. i'll tell you. you remember what you said about a butterfly? you got confused, you know--old meth. kept calling the beetle a butterfly and that set me off. i've made it quite different. quite different. instead of popplewaddle--thundering good farce name that, you know; for all that it came from a visitors' list--instead of popplewaddle getting a beetle down his neck and rushing about, i've made him a collector--collects butterflies, and this one you know's a rare one. comes in at window, centre." chitterlow began to illustrate with appropriate gestures. "pop rushes about after it. forgets he mustn't let on he's in the house. after that----. tells 'em. rare butterfly, worth lots of money. some are, you know. everyone's on to it after that. butterfly can't get out of room, every time it comes out to have a try, rush and scurry. well, i've worked on that. only----" he came very close to kipps. he held up one hand horizontally and tapped it in a striking and confidential manner with the fingers of the other. "something else," he said. "that's given me a real ibsenish touch--like the wild duck. you know that woman--i've made her lighter--and she sees it. when they're chasing the butterfly the third time, she's on! she looks. 'that's me!' she says. bif! pestered butterfly. _she's_ the pestered butterfly. it's legitimate. much more legitimate than the wild duck--where there isn't a duck! "knock 'em! the very title ought to knock 'em. i've been working like a horse at it.... you'll have a gold mine in that quarter share, kipps.... _i_ don't mind. it's suited me to sell it, and suited you to buy. bif!" chitterlow interrupted his discourse to ask, "you haven't any brandy in the house, have you? not to drink, you know. but i want just an eggcupful to pull me steady. my liver's a bit queer.... it doesn't matter, if you haven't. not a bit. i'm like that. yes, whiskey'll do. better!" kipps hesitated for a moment, then turned and fumbled in the cupboard of his sideboard. presently he disinterred a bottle of whiskey and placed it on the table. then he put out first one bottle of soda water and after the hesitation of a moment another. chitterlow picked up the bottle and read the label. "good old methusaleh," he said. kipps handed him the corkscrew and then his hand fluttered up to his mouth. "i'll have to ring now," he said, "to get glasses." he hesitated for a moment before doing so, leaning doubtfully as it were towards the bell. when the housemaid appeared he was standing on the hearthrug with his legs wide apart, with the bearing of a desperate fellow. and after they had both had whiskeys--"you know a decent whiskey," chitterlow remarked and took another "just to drink."--kipps produced cigarettes and the conversation flowed again. chitterlow paced the room. he was, he explained, taking a day off; that was why he had come around to see kipps. whenever he thought of any extensive change in a play he was writing he always took a day off. in the end it saved time to do so. it prevented his starting rashly upon work that might have to be rewritten. there was no good in doing work when you might have to do it over again, none whatever. presently they were descending the steps by the parade _en route_ for the warren, with chitterlow doing the talking and going with a dancing drop from step to step.... they had a great walk, not a long one, but a great one. they went up by the sanatorium, and over the east cliff and into that queer little wilderness of slippery and tumbling clay and rock under the chalk cliffs, a wilderness of thorn and bramble, wild rose and wayfaring tree, that adds so greatly to folkestone's charm. they traversed its intricacies and clambered up to the crest of the cliffs at last by a precipitous path that chitterlow endowed in some mysterious way with suggestions of alpine adventure. every now and then he would glance aside at sea and cliffs with a fresh boyishness of imagination that brought back new romney and the stranded wrecks to kipps' memory; but mostly he bored on with his great obsession of plays and playwriting, and that empty absurdity that is so serious to his kind, his art. that was a thing that needed a monstrous lot of explaining. along they went, sometimes abreast, sometimes in single file, up the little paths, and down the little paths, and in among the bushes and out along the edge above the beach, and kipps went along trying ever and again to get an insignificant word in edgeways, and the gestures of chitterlow flew wide and far and his great voice rose and fell, and he said this and he said that and he biffed and banged into the circumambient inane. it was assumed that they were embarked upon no more trivial enterprise than the reform of the british stage, and kipps found himself classed with many opulent and even royal and noble amateurs--the honourable thomas norgate came in here--who had interested themselves in the practical realisation of high ideals about the drama. only he had a finer understanding of these things, and instead of being preyed upon by the common professional--"and they _are_ a lot," said chitterlow; "i haven't toured for nothing"--he would have chitterlow. kipps gathered few details. it was clear he had bought the quarter of a farcical comedy--practically a gold mine--and it would appear it would be a good thing to buy the half. a suggestion, or the suggestion of a suggestion, floated out that he should buy the whole play and produce it forthwith. it seemed he was to produce the play upon a royalty system of a new sort, whatever a royalty system of any sort might be. then there was some doubt, after all, whether that farcical comedy was in itself sufficient to revolutionise the present lamentable state of the british drama. better perhaps for such a purpose was that tragedy--as yet unfinished--which was to display all that chitterlow knew about women, and which was to centre about a russian nobleman embodying the fundamental chitterlow personality. then it became clearer that kipps was to produce several plays. kipps was to produce a great number of plays. kipps was to found a national theatre. it is probable that kipps would have expressed some sort of disavowal, if he had known how to express it. occasionally his face assumed an expression of whistling meditation, but that was as far as he got towards protest. in the clutch of chitterlow and the incalculable, kipps came round to the house in fenchurch street and was there made to participate in the midday meal. he came to the house, forgetting certain confidences, and was reminded of the existence of a mrs. chitterlow (with the finest completely untrained contralto voice in england) by her appearance. she had an air of being older than chitterlow, although probably she wasn't, and her hair was a reddish brown, streaked with gold. she was dressed in one of those complaisant garments that are dressing gowns or tea gowns or bathing wraps or rather original evening robes according to the exigencies of the moment--from the first kipps was aware that she possessed a warm and rounded neck, and her well-moulded arms came and vanished from the sleeves--and she had large, expressive brown eyes that he discovered ever and again fixed in an enigmatical manner upon his own. a simple but sufficient meal had been distributed with careless spontaneity over the little round table in the room with the photographs and looking glass, and when a plate had by chitterlow's direction been taken from under the marmalade in the cupboard and the kitchen fork and a knife that was not loose in its handle had been found for kipps they began and she had evidently heard of kipps before, and he made a tumultuous repast. chitterlow ate with quiet enormity, but it did not interfere with the flow of his talk. he introduced kipps to his wife very briefly; made it vaguely evident that the production of the comedy was the thing chiefly settled. his reach extended over the table, and he troubled nobody. when mrs. chitterlow, who for a little while seemed socially self-conscious, reproved him for taking a potato with a jab of his fork, he answered, "well, you shouldn't have married a man of genius," and from a subsequent remark it was perfectly clear that chitterlow's standing in this respect was made no secret of in his household. they drank old methusaleh and syphon soda, and there was no clearing away, they just sat among the plates and things, and mrs. chitterlow took her husband's tobacco pouch and made a cigarette and smoked and blew smoke and looked at kipps with her large, brown eyes. kipps had seen cigarettes smoked by ladies before, "for fun," but this was real smoking. it frightened him rather. he felt he must not encourage this lady--at any rate in chitterlow's presence. they became very cheerful after the repast, and as there was now no waste to deplore, such as one experiences in the windy, open air, chitterlow gave his voice full vent. he fell to praising kipps very highly and loudly. he said he had known kipps was the right sort, he had seen it from the first, almost before he got up out of the mud on that memorable night. "you can," he said, "sometimes. that was why----" he stopped, but he seemed on the verge of explaining that it was his certainty of kipps being the right sort had led him to confer this great fortune upon him. he left that impression. he threw out a number of long sentences and material for sentences of a highly philosophical and incoherent character about coincidences. it became evident he considered dramatic criticism in a perilously low condition.... about four kipps found himself stranded, as it were, by a receding chitterlow on a seat upon the leas. he was chiefly aware that chitterlow was an overwhelming personality. he puffed his cheeks and blew. no doubt this was seeing life, but had he particularly wanted to see life that day? in a way chitterlow had interrupted him. the day he had designed for himself was altogether different from this. he had been going to read through a precious little volume called "don't" that coote had sent round for him, a book of invaluable hints, a summary of british deportment that had only the one defect of being at points a little out of date. that reminded him he had intended to perform a difficult exercise called an afternoon call upon the cootes, as a preliminary to doing it in deadly earnest upon the walshinghams. it was no good to-day, anyhow, now. he came back to chitterlow. he would have to explain to chitterlow he was taking too much for granted, he would have to do that. it was so difficult to do in chitterlow's presence though; in his absence it was easy enough. this half share, and taking a theatre and all of it, was going too far. the quarter share was right enough, he supposed, but even that----! a hundred pounds! what wealth is there left in the world after one has paid out a hundred pounds from it? he had to recall that in a sense chitterlow had indeed brought him his fortune before he could face even that. you must not think too hardly of him. to kipps you see there was as yet no such thing as proportion in these matters. a hundred pounds went to his horizon. a hundred pounds seemed to him just exactly as big as any other large sum of money. chapter ii the walshinghams § the cootes live in a little house in bouverie square with a tangle of virginia creeper up the verandah. kipps had been troubled in his mind about knocking double or single--it is these things show what a man is made of--but happily there was a bell. a queer little maid, with a big cap, admitted kipps and took him through a bead curtain and a door into a little drawing-room, with a black and gold piano, a glazed bookcase, a moorish cosy corner and a draped looking glass over-mantel bright with regent street ornaments and photographs of various intellectual lights. a number of cards of invitation to meetings and the match list of a band of hope cricket club were stuck into the looking glass frame with coote's name as a vice-president. there was a bust of beethoven over the bookcase and the walls were thick with conscientiously executed but carelessly selected "views" in oil and water colours and gilt frames. at the end of the room facing the light was a portrait that struck kipps at first as being coote in spectacles and feminine costume and that he afterwards decided must be coote's mother. then the original appeared and he discovered that it was coote's elder and only sister who kept house for him. she wore her hair in a knob behind, and the sight of the knob suggested to kipps an explanation for a frequent gesture of coote's, a patting exploratory movement to the back of his head. and then it occurred to him that this was quite an absurd idea altogether. she said "mr. kipps, i believe," and kipps laughed pleasantly and said, "that's it!" and then she told him that "chester" had gone down to the art school to see about sending off some drawings or other and that he would be back soon. then she asked kipps if he painted, and showed him the pictures on the wall. kipps asked her where each one was "of," and when she showed him some of the leas slopes he said he never would have recognised them. he said it was funny how things looked in a picture very often. "but they're awfully _good_," he said. "did you do them?" he would look at them with his neck arched like a swan's, his head back and on one side and then suddenly peer closely into them. "they _are_ good. i wish i could paint." "that's what chester says," she answered. "i tell him he has better things to do." kipps seemed to get on very well with her. then coote came in and they left her and went upstairs together and had a good talk about reading and the rules of life. or rather coote talked, and the praises of thought and reading were in his mouth.... you must figure coote's study, a little bedroom put to studious uses, and over the mantel an array of things he had been led to believe indicative of culture and refinement, an autotype of rossetti's "annunciation," an autotype of watt's "minotaur," a swiss carved pipe with many joints and a photograph of amiens cathedral (these two the spoils of travel), a phrenological bust and some broken fossils from the warren. a rotating bookshelf carried the encyclopædia britannica (tenth edition), and on the top of it a large official looking, age grubby, envelope bearing the mystic words, "on his majesty's service," a number or so of the "bookman," and a box of cigarettes were lying. a table under the window bore a little microscope, some dust in a saucer, some grimy glass slips and broken cover glasses, for coote had "gone in for" biology a little. the longer side of the room was given over to bookshelves, neatly edged with pinked american cloth, and with an array of books--no worse an array of books than you find in any public library; an almost haphazard accumulation of obsolete classics, contemporary successes, the hundred best books (including samuel warren's "ten thousand a year") old school books, directories, the times atlas, ruskin in bulk, tennyson complete in one volume, longfellow, charles kingsley, smiles and mrs. humphry ward, a guide book or so, several medical pamphlets, odd magazine numbers, and much indescribable rubbish--in fact a compendium of the contemporary british mind. and in front of this array stood kipps, ill-taught and untrained, respectful, awestricken and, for a moment at any rate, willing to learn, while coote, the exemplary coote, talked to him like a bishop of reading and the virtue in books. "nothing enlarges the mind," said coote, "like travel and books.... and they're both so easy nowadays, and so cheap!" "i've often wanted to 'ave a good go in at reading," kipps replied. "you'd hardly believe," coote said, "how much you can get out of books. provided you avoid trashy reading, that is. you ought to make a rule, kipps, and read one serious book a week. of course, we can learn even from novels, nace novels that is, but it isn't the same thing as serious reading. i made a rule, one serious book and one novel--no more. there's some of the serious books i've been reading lately--on that table; sartor resartus--mrs. twaddletome's pond life, the scottish chiefs, life and letters of dean farrar...." § there came at last the sound of a gong and kipps descended to tea in that state of nervous apprehension at the difficulties of eating and drinking that his aunt's knuckle rappings had implanted in him forever. over coote's shoulder he became aware of a fourth person in the moorish cosy corner, and he turned, leaving incomplete something incoherent he was saying to miss coote about his modest respect and desire for literature to discover this fourth person was miss helen walshingham, hatless and looking very much at home. she rose at once with an extended hand to meet his hesitation. "you're stopping in folkestone, mr. kipps?" "'ere on a bit of business," said kipps. "i thought you was away in bruges." "that's later," said miss walshingham. "we're stopping until my brother's holiday begins and we're trying to let our house. where are you staying in folkestone?" "i got a 'ouse of mine--on the leas." "i've heard all about your good fortune--this afternoon." "isn't it a go!" said kips. "i 'aven't nearly got to believe its reely 'appened yet. when that mr. bean told me of it you could 'ave knocked me down with a feather.... it's a tremenjous change for me." he discovered miss coote was asking him whether he took milk and sugar. "_i_ don't mind," said kipps. "just as you like." coote became active handing tea and bread and butter. it was thinly cut, and the bread was rather new, and the half of the slice that kipps took fell upon the floor. he had been holding it by the edge, for he was not used to this migratory method of taking tea without plates or table. this little incident ruled him out of the conversation for a time, and when he came to attend to it again they were talking about something or other prodigious--a performer of some sort--that was coming, called, it seemed, "padrooski." so kipps, who had quietly dropped into a chair, ate his bread and butter, said "no, thenk you" to any more, and by this discreet restraint got more freedom with his cup and saucer. apart from the confusion natural to tea, he was in a state of tremulous excitement on account of the presence of miss walshingham. he glanced from miss coote to her brother and then at helen. he regarded her over the top of his cup as he drank. here she was, solid and real. it was wonderful. he remarked, as he had done at times before, the easy flow of the dark hair back from her brow over her ears, the shapeliness of the white hands that came out from her simple white cuffs, the delicate pencilling of her brow. presently she turned her face to him almost suddenly, and smiled with the easiest assurance of friendship. "you will go, i suppose," she said, and added, "to the recital." "if i'm in folkestone i shall," said kipps, clearing away a little hoarseness. "i don't _know_ much about music, but what i do know i like." "i'm sure you'll like paderewski," she said. "if you do," he said, "i dessay i shall." he found coote very kindly taking his cup. "do you think of living in folkestone?" asked miss coote, in a tone of proprietorship, from the hearthrug. "no," said kipps, "that's jest it--i hardly know." he also said that he wanted to look around a bit before doing anything. "there's so much to consider," said coote, smoothing the back of his head. "i may go back to new romney for a bit," said kipps. "i got an uncle and aunt there. i reely don't know." helen regarded him thoughtfully for a moment. "you must come and see us," she said, "before we go to bruges." "oo, rather!" said kipps. "if i may." "yes, do," she said, and suddenly stood up before kipps could formulate an enquiry when he should call. "you're sure you can spare that drawing board?" she said to miss coote, and the conversation passed out of range. and when he had said "good-bye" to miss walshingham and she had repeated her invitation to call, he went upstairs again with coote to look out certain initiatory books they had had under discussion. and then kipps, blowing very resolutely, went back to his own place, bearing in his arm ( ) sesame and lilies, ( ) sir george tressady, ( ) an anonymous book on "vitality" that coote particularly esteemed. and, having got to his own sitting-room, he opened sesame and lilies and read it with ruthless determination for some time. § presently he leant back and gave himself up to the business of trying to imagine just exactly what miss walshingham could have thought of him when she saw him. doubts about the precise effect of the grey flannel suit began to trouble him. he turned to the mirror over the mantel, and then got into a chair to study the hang of the trousers. it looked all right. luckily, she had not seen the panama hat. he knew that he had the brim turned up wrong, but he could not find out which way the brim was right. however, that she had not seen. he might perhaps ask at the shop where he bought it. he meditated for awhile on his reflected face--doubtful whether he liked it or not--and then got down again and flitted across to the sideboard where there lay two little books, one in a cheap, magnificent cover of red and gold, and the other in green canvas. the former was called, as its cover witnessed, "manners and rules of good society, by a member of the aristocracy," and after the cover had indulged in a band of gilded decoration, light-hearted but natural under the circumstances, it added "twenty-first edition." the second was that admirable classic, "the art of conversing." kipps returned with these to his seat, placed the two before him, opened the latter with a sigh and flattened it under his hand. then with knitted brows he began to read onward from a mark, his lips moving. "having thus acquired possession of an idea, the little ship should not be abruptly launched into deep waters, but should be first permitted to glide gently and smoothly into the shallows, that is to say, the conversation should not be commenced by broadly and roundly stating a fact, or didactically expressing an opinion, as the subject would be thus virtually or summarily disposed of, or perhaps be met with a 'really' or 'indeed,' or some equally brief monosyllabic reply. if an opposite opinion were held by the person to whom the remark were addressed, he might not, if a stranger, care to express it in the form of a direct contradiction, or actual dissent. to glide imperceptibly into conversation is the object to be attained." at this point mr. kipps rubbed his fingers through his hair with an expression of some perplexity and went back to the beginning. § when kipps made his call on the walshinghams, it all happened so differently from the "manners and rules" prescription ("paying calls") that he was quite lost from the very outset. instead of the footman or maidservant proper in these cases, miss walshingham opened the door to him herself. "i'm so glad you've come," she said, with one of her rare smiles. she stood aside for him to enter the rather narrow passage. "i thought i'd call," he said, retaining his hat and stick. she closed the door and led the way to a little drawing-room, which impressed kipps as being smaller and less emphatically coloured than that of the cootes, and in which at first only a copper bowl of white poppies upon the brown tablecloth caught his particular attention. "you won't think it unconventional to come in, mr. kipps, will you?" she remarked. "mother is out." "i don't mind," he said, smiling amiably, "if you don't." she walked around the table and stood regarding him across it, with that same look between speculative curiosity and appreciation that he remembered from the last of the art class meetings. "i wondered whether you would call or whether you wouldn't before you left folkestone." "i'm not leaving folkestone for a bit, and any'ow, i should have called on you." "mother will be sorry she was out. i've told her about you, and she wants, i know, to meet you." "i saw 'er--if that was 'er--in the shop," said kipps. "yes--you did, didn't you!... she has gone out to make some duty calls, and i didn't go. i had something to write. i write a little, you know." "reely!" said kipps. "it's nothing much," she said, "and it comes to nothing." she glanced at a little desk near the window, on which there lay some paper. "one must do something." she broke off abruptly. "have you seen our outlook?" she asked and walked to the window, and kipps came and stood beside her. "we look on the square. it might be worse, you know. that outporter's truck there is horrid--and the railings, but it's better than staring one's social replica in the face, isn't it? it's pleasant in early spring--bright green, laid on with a dry brush--and it's pleasant in autumn." "i like it," said kipps. "that laylock there is pretty, isn't it?" "children come and pick it at times," she remarked. "i dessay they do," said kipps. he rested on his hat and stick and looked appreciatively out of the window, and she glanced at him for one swift moment. a suggestion that might have come from the art of conversing came into his head. "have you a garden?" he said. she shrugged her shoulders. "only a little one," she said, and then, "perhaps you would like to see it." "i like gardenin'," said kipps, with memories of a pennyworth of nasturtiums he had once trained over his uncle's dustbin. she led the way with a certain relief. they emerged through a four seasons coloured glass door to a little iron verandah that led by iron steps to a minute walled garden. there was just room for a patch of turf and a flower-bed; one sturdy variegated euonymus grew in the corner. but the early june flowers, the big narcissus, snow upon the mountains, and a fine show of yellow wallflowers shone gay. "that's our garden," said helen. "it's not a very big one, is it?" "i like it," said kipps. "it's small," she said, "but this is the day of small things." kipps didn't follow that. "if you were writing when i came," he remarked, "i'm interrupting you." she turned round with her back to the railing and rested, leaning on her hands. "i had finished," she said. "i couldn't get on." "were you making up something?" asked kipps. there was a little interval before she smiled. "i try--quite vainly--to write stories," she said. "one must do something. i don't know whether i shall ever do any good--at that--anyhow. it seems so hopeless. and, of course, one must study the popular taste. but, now my brother has gone to london, i get a lot of leisure." "i seen your brother, 'aven't i?" "he came to the class once or twice. very probably you have. he's gone to london to pass his examinations and become a solicitor. and then, i suppose, he'll have a chance. not much, perhaps, even then. but he's luckier than i am." "you got your classes and things." "they ought to satisfy me. but they don't. i suppose i'm ambitious. we both are. and we hadn't much of a springboard." she glanced over his shoulder at the cramped little garden with an air of reference in her gesture. "i should think you could do anything if you wanted to," said kipps. "as a matter of fact i can't do anything i want to." "you done a good deal." "what?" "well, didn't you pass one of these here university things?" "oh! i matriculated!" "i should think i was no end of a swell if _i_ did, i know that." "mr. kipps, do you know how many people matriculate into london university every year?" "how many then?" "between two and three thousand." "well, just think how many don't!" her smile came again, and broke into a laugh. "oh, _they_ don't count," she said, and then, realising that might penetrate kipps if he was left with it, she hurried on to, "the fact is, i'm a discontented person, mr. kipps. folkestone, you know, is a sea front, and it values people by sheer vulgar prosperity. we're not prosperous, and we live in a back street. we have to live here because this is our house. it's a mercy we haven't to 'let.' one feels one hasn't opportunities. if one had, i suppose one wouldn't use them. still----" kipps felt he was being taken tremendously into her confidence. "that's jest it," he said, very sagely. he leant forward on his stick and said, very earnestly, "i believe you could do anything you wanted to, if you tried." she threw out her hands in disavowal. "i know," said he, very sagely and nodding his head. "i watched you once or twice when you were teaching that wood-carving class." for some reason this made her laugh--a rather pleasant laugh, and that made kipps feel a very witty and successful person. "it's very evident," she said, "that you're one of those rare people who believe in me, mr. kipps," to which he answered, "oo, i _do_!" and then suddenly they became aware of mrs. walshingham coming along the passage. in another moment she appeared through the four seasons door, bonneted and ladylike, and a little faded, exactly as kipps had seen her in the shop. kipps felt a certain apprehension at her appearance, in spite of the reassurances he had had from coote. "mr. kipps has called on us," said helen, and mrs. walshingham said it was very kind of him, and added that new people didn't call on them very much nowadays. there was nothing of the scandalised surprise kipps had seen in the shop; she had heard, perhaps, he was a gentleman now. in the shop he had thought her rather jaded and haughty, but he had scarcely taken her hand, which responded to his touch with a friendly pressure, before he knew how mistaken he had been. she then told her daughter that someone called mrs. wace had been out, and turned to kipps again to ask him if he had had tea. kipps said he had not, and helen moved towards some mysterious interior. "but _i_ say," said kipps; "don't you on my account----!" helen vanished, and he found himself alone with mrs. walshingham, which, of course, made him breathless and boreas-looking for a moment. "you were one of helen's pupils in the wood-carving class?" asked mrs. walshingham, regarding him with the quiet watchfulness proper to her position. "yes," said kipps, "that's 'ow i 'ad the pleasure----" "she took a great interest in her wood-carving class. she is so energetic, you know, and it gives her an outlet." "i thought she taught something splendid." "everyone says she did very well. helen, i think, would do anything well that she undertook to do. she's so very clever. and she throws herself into things so." she untied her bonnet strings with a pleasant informality. "she has told me all about her class. she used to be full of it. and about your cut hand." "lor'!" said kipps; "fancy, telling that!" "oh, yes! and how brave you were." (though, indeed, helen's chief detail had been his remarkable expedient for checking bloodshed.) kipps became bright pink. "she said you didn't seem to feel it a bit." kipps felt he would have to spend weeks over "the art of conversing." while he still hung fire helen returned with the apparatus for afternoon tea upon a tray. "do you mind pulling out the table?" asked mrs. walshingham. that, again, was very homelike. kipps put down his hat and stick in the corner and, amidst an iron thunder, pulled out a little, rusty, green-painted table, and then in the easiest manner followed helen in to get chairs. so soon as he had got rid of his teacup--he refused all food, of course, and they were merciful--he became wonderfully at his ease. presently he was talking. he talked quite modestly and simply about his changed condition and his difficulties and plans. he spread what indeed had an air of being all his simple little soul before his eyes. in a little while his clipped, defective accent had become less perceptible to their ears, and they began to realise, as the girl with the freckles had long since realised, that there were passable aspects of kipps. he confided, he submitted, and for both of them he had the realest, the most seductively flattering undertone of awe and reverence. he stopped about two hours, having forgotten how terribly incorrect it is to stay at such a length. they did not mind at all. chapter iii engaged § within two months, within a matter of three and fifty days, kipps had clambered to the battlements of heart's desire. it all became possible by the walshinghams--it would seem at coote's instigation--deciding, after all, not to spend the holidays at bruges. instead, they remained in folkestone, and this happy chance gave kipps just all these opportunities of which he stood in need. his crowning day was at lympne, and long before the summer warmth began to break, while indeed august still flamed on high. they had organized--no one seemed to know who suggested it first--a water party on the still reaches of the old military canal at hythe, the canal that was to have stopped napoleon if the sea failed us, and they were to picnic by the brick bridge, and afterwards to clamber to lympne castle. the host of the gathering, it was understood very clearly, was kipps. they went, a merry party. the canal was weedy, with only a few inches of water at the shallows, and so they went in three canadian canoes. kipps had learned to paddle--it had been his first athletic accomplishment, and his second--with the last three or four of ten private lessons still to come--was to be cycling. but kipps did not paddle at all badly; muscles hardened by lifting pieces of cretonne could cut a respectable figure by the side of coote's executions, and the girl with the freckles, the girl who understood him, came in his canoe. they raced the walshinghams, brother and sister; and coote, in a liquefying state and blowing mightily, but still persistent and always quite polite and considerate, toiled behind with mrs. walshingham. she could not be expected to paddle (though, of course, she "offered") and she reclined upon specially adjusted cushions under a black and white sunshade and watched kipps and her daughter, and feared at intervals that coote was getting hot. they were all more or less in holiday costume, the eyes of the girls looked out under the shade of wide-brimmed hats; even the freckled girl was unexpectedly pretty, and helen, swinging sunlit to her paddle, gave kipps, almost for the first time, the suggestion of a graceful body. kipps was arrayed in the completest boating costume, and when his fashionable panama was discarded and his hair blown into disorder he became, in his white flannels, as sightly as most young men. his complexion was a notable asset. things favoured him, the day favoured him, everyone favoured him. young walshingham, the girl with the freckles, coote and mrs. walshingham, were playing up to him in the most benevolent way, and between the landing place and lympne, fortune, to crown their efforts, had placed a small, convenient field entirely at the disposal of an adolescent bull. not a big, real, resolute bull, but, on the other hand, no calf; a young bull, in the same stage of emotional development as kipps, "standing where the two rivers meet." detachedly our party drifted towards him. when they landed young walshingham, with the simple directness of a brother, abandoned his sister to kipps and secured the freckled girl, leaving coote to carry mrs. walshingham's light wool wrap. he started at once, in order to put an effectual distance between himself and his companion, on the one hand, and a certain persuasive chaperonage that went with coote, on the other. young walshingham, i think i have said, was dark, with a napoleonic profile, and it was natural for him, therefore, to be a bold thinker and an epigrammatic speaker, and he had long ago discovered great possibilities of appreciation in the freckled girl. he was in a very happy frame that day because he had just been entrusted with the management of kipps' affairs (old bean inexplicably dismissed), and that was not a bad beginning for a solicitor of only a few months' standing, and, moreover, he had been reading nietzsche, and he thought that in all probability he was the non-moral overman referred to by that writer. he wore fairly large-sized hats. he wanted to expand the theme of the non-moral overman in the ear of the freckled girl, to say it over, so to speak, and in order to seclude his exposition they went aside from the direct path and trespassed through a coppice, avoiding the youthful bull. they escaped to these higher themes but narrowly, for coote and mrs. walshingham, subtle chaperones both, and each indisposed for excellent reasons to encumber kipps and helen, were hot upon their heels. these two kept direct route to the stile of the bull's field, and the sight of the animal at once awakened coote's innate aversion to brutality in any shape or form. he said the stiles were too high, and that they could do better by going around by the hedge, and mrs. walshingham, nothing loath, agreed. this left the way clear for kipps and helen, and they encountered the bull. helen did not observe the bull, but kipps did; but, that afternoon at any rate, he was equal to facing a lion. and the bull really came at them. it was not an affair of the bull-ring exactly, no desperate rushes and gorings; but he came; he regarded them with a large, wicked, bluish eye, opened a mouth below his moistly glistening nose and booed, at any rate, if he did not exactly bellow, and he shook his head wickedly and showed that tossing was in his mind. helen was frightened, without any loss of dignity, and kipps went extremely white. but he was perfectly calm, and he seemed to her to have lost the last vestiges of his accent and his social shakiness. he directed her to walk quietly towards the stile, and made an oblique advance towards the bull. "you be orf!" he said.... when helen was well over the stile kipps withdrew in good order. he got over the stile under cover of a feint, and the thing was done--a small thing, no doubt, but just enough to remove from helen's mind an incorrect deduction that a man who was so terribly afraid of a teacup as kipps must necessarily be abjectly afraid of everything else in the world. in her moment of reaction she went perhaps too far in the opposite direction. hitherto kipps had always had a certain flimsiness of effect for her. now suddenly he was discovered solid. he was discovered possible in many new ways. here, after all, was the sort of back a woman can get behind!... as so these heirs of the immemorial ages went past the turf-crowned mass of portus lemanus up the steep slopes towards the mediæval castle on the crest the thing was also manifest in her eyes. § everyone who stays in folkestone gets, sooner or later, to lympne. the castle became a farmhouse long ago, and the farmhouse, itself now ripe and venerable, wears the walls of the castle as a little man wears a big man's coat. the kindliest of farm ladies entertains a perpetual stream of visitors and shows her vast mangle, and her big kitchen, and takes you out upon the sunniest little terrace garden in all the world, and you look down the sheep-dotted slopes to where, beside the canal and under the trees, the crumpled memories of rome sleep forever. for hither to this lonely spot the galleys once came, the legions, the emperors, masters of the world. the castle is but a thing of yesterday, king stephen's time or thereabout, in that retrospect. one climbs the pitch of perforation, and there one is lifted to the centre of far more than a hemisphere of view. away below one's feet, almost at the bottom of the hill, the marsh begins, and spreads and spreads in a mighty crescent that sweeps about the sea, the marsh dotted with the church towers of forgotten mediæval towns and breaking at last into the low, blue hills of winchelsea and hastings; east hangs france, between the sea and the sky, and round the north, bounding the wide prospectives of farms and houses and woods, the downs, with their hangers and chalk pits, sustain the passing shadows of the sailing clouds. and here it was, high out of the world of everyday, and in the presence of spacious beauty, that kipps and helen found themselves agreeably alone. all six, it had seemed, had been coming for the keep, but mrs. walshingham had hesitated at the horrid little stairs, and then suddenly felt faint, and so she and the freckled girl had remained below, walking up and down in the shadow of the house, and coote had remembered they were all out of cigarettes, and had taken off young walshingham into the village. there had been shouting to explain between ground and parapet, and then helen and kipps turned again to the view, and commended it and fell silent. helen sat fearlessly in an embrasure, and kipps stood beside her. "i've always been fond of scenery," kipps repeated, after an interval. then he went off at a tangent. "d'you reely think that was right what coote was saying?" she looked interrogation. "about my name?" "being really c-u-y-p-s? i have my doubts. i thought at first----. what makes mr. coote add an s to cuyp?" "i dunno," said kipps, foiled. "i was jest thinking----" she shot one wary glance at him and then turned her eyes to the sea. kipps was out for a space. he had intended to lead from this question to the general question of surnames and change of names; it had seemed a light and witty way of saying something he had in mind, and suddenly he perceived that this was an unutterably vulgar and silly project. the hitch about that "s" had saved him. he regarded her profile for a moment, framed in weather-beaten stone, and backed by the blue elements. he dropped the question of his name out of existence and spoke again of the view. "when i see scenery, and things that are beautiful, it makes me feel----" she looked at him suddenly, and saw him fumbling for his words. "silly like," he said. she took him in with her glance, the old look of proprietorship it was, touched with a certain warmth. she spoke in a voice as unambiguous as her eyes. "you needn't," she said. "you know, mr. kipps, you hold yourself too cheap." her eyes and words smote him with amazement. he stared at her like a man who awakens. she looked down. "you mean----" he said; and then, "don't you hold me cheap?" she glanced up again and shook her head. "but--for instance--you don't think of me--as an equal like." "why not?" "oo! but reely----" his heart beat very fast. "if i thought," he said, and then, "you know so much." "that's nothing," she said. then, for a long time, as it seemed to them, both kept silence, a silence that said and accomplished many things. "i know what i am," he said, at length.... "if i thought it was possible.... if i thought _you_.... i believe i could do anything----" he stopped, and she sat downcast and strikingly still. "miss walshingham," he said, "is it possible that you ... could care for me enough to--to 'elp me? miss walshingham, do you care for me at all?" it seemed she was never going to answer. she looked up at him. "i think," she said, "you are the most generous--look at what you have done for my brother--the most generous and the most modest of men. and this afternoon--i thought you were the bravest." she turned her head, glanced down, waved her hand to someone on the terrace below, and stood up. "mother is signalling," she said. "we must go down." kipps became polite and deferential by habit, but his mind was a tumult that had nothing to do with that. he moved before her towards the little door that opened on the winding stairs--"always precede a lady down or up stairs"--and then on the second step he turned resolutely. "but," he said, looking up out of the shadow, flannel-clad and singularly like a man. she looked down on him, with her hand upon the stone lintel. he held out his hand as if to help her. "can you tell me?" he said. "you must know----" "what?" "if you care for me?" she did not answer for a long time. it was as if everything in the world had drawn to the breaking point, and in a minute must certainly break. "yes," she said, at last, "i know." abruptly, by some impalpable sign, he knew what the answer would be, and he remained still. she bent down over him and softened to her wonderful smile. "promise me," she insisted. he promised with his still face. "if _i_ do not hold you cheap, you will never hold yourself cheap----" "if you do not hold me cheap, you mean?" she bent down quite close beside him. "i hold you," she said, and then whispered, "_dear_." "me?" she laughed aloud. he was astonished beyond measure. he stipulated, lest there might be some misconception, "you will marry me?" she was laughing, inundated by the sense of bountiful power, of possession and success. he looked quite a nice little man to have. "yes," she laughed. "what else could i mean?" and, "yes." he felt as a praying hermit might have felt, snatched from the midst of his quiet devotions, his modest sackcloth and ashes, and hurled neck and crop over the glittering gates of paradise, smack among the iridescent wings, the bright-eyed cherubim. he felt like some lowly and righteous man dynamited into bliss.... his hand tightened upon the rope that steadies one upon the stairs of stone. he was for kissing her hand and did not. he said not a word more. he turned about, and with something very like a scared expression on his face led the way into the obscurity of their descent. § everyone seemed to understand. nothing was said, nothing was explained, the merest touch of the eyes sufficed. as they clustered in the castle gateway coote, kipps remembered afterwards, laid hold of his arm as if by chance and pressed it. it was quite evident he knew. his eyes, his nose, shone with benevolent congratulations, shone, too, with the sense of a good thing conducted to its climax. mrs. walshingham, who had seemed a little fatigued by the hill, recovered, and was even obviously stirred by affection for her daughter. there was, in passing, a motherly caress. she asked kipps to give her his arm in walking down the steep. kipps in a sort of dream obeyed. he found himself trying to attend to her, and soon he was attending. she and kipps talked like sober, responsible people and went slowly, while the others drifted down the hill together, a loose little group of four. he wondered momentarily what they would talk about and then sank into his conversation with mrs. walshingham. he conversed, as it were, out of his superficial personality, and his inner self lay stunned in unsuspected depths within. it had an air of being an interesting and friendly talk, almost their first long talk together. hitherto he had had a sort of fear of mrs. walshingham, as of a person possibly satirical, but she proved a soul of sense and sentiment, and kipps, for all of his abstraction, got on with her unexpectedly well. they talked a little upon scenery and the inevitable melancholy attaching to the old ruins and the thought of vanished generations. "perhaps they jousted here," said mrs. walshingham. "they was up to all sorts of things," said kipps, and then the two came round to helen. she spoke of her daughter's literary ambitions. "she will do something, i feel sure. you know, mr. kipps, it's a great responsibility to a mother to feel her daughter is--exceptionally clever." "i dessay it is," said kipps. "there's no mistake about that." she spoke, too, of her son--almost like helen's twin--alike, yet different. she made kipps feel quite fatherly. "they are so quick, so artistic," she said, "so full of ideas. almost they frighten me. one feels they need opportunities--as other people need air." she spoke of helen's writing. "even when she was quite a little dot she wrote verse." (kipps, sensation.) "her father had just the same tastes----" mrs. walshingham turned a little beam of half-pathetic reminiscence on the past. "he was more artist than business man. that was the trouble.... he was misled by his partner, and when the crash came everyone blamed him.... well, it doesn't do to dwell on horrid things--especially to-day. there are bright days, mr. kipps, and dark days. and mine have not always been bright." kipps presented a face of coote-like sympathy. she diverged to talk of flowers, and kipps' mind was filled with the picture of helen bending down towards him in the keep.... they spread the tea under the trees before the little inn, and at a certain moment kipps became aware that everyone in the party was simultaneously and furtively glancing at him. there might have been a certain tension had it not been first of all for coote and his tact, and afterwards for a number of wasps. coote was resolved to make this memorable day pass off well, and displayed an almost boisterous sense of fun. then young walshingham began talking of the roman remains below lympne, intending to lead up to the overman. "these old roman chaps," he said, and then the wasps arrived. they killed three in the jam alone. kipps killed wasps, as if it were in a dream, and handed things to the wrong people, and maintained a thin surface of ordinary intelligence with the utmost difficulty. at times he became aware, aware with an extraordinary vividness, of helen. helen was carefully not looking at him and behaving with amazing coolness and ease. but just for that one time there was the faintest suggestion of pink beneath the ivory of her cheeks.... tacitly the others conceded to kipps the right to paddle back with helen; he helped her into the canoe and took his paddle, and, paddling slowly, dropped behind the others. and now his inner self stirred again. he said nothing to her. how could he ever say anything to her again? she spoke to him at rare intervals about reflections and the flowers and the trees, and he nodded in reply. but his mind moved very slowly forward now from the point at which it had fallen stunned in the lympne keep, moving forward to the beginnings of realisation. as yet he did not say even in the recesses of his heart that she was his. but he perceived that the goddess had come from her altar amazingly, and had taken him by the hand! the sky was a vast splendour, and then close to them were the dark, protecting trees and the shining, smooth, still water. he was an erect, black outline to her; he plied his paddle with no unskilful gesture, the water broke to snaky silver and glittered far behind his strokes. indeed, he did not seem bad to her. youth calls to youth the wide world through, and her soul rose in triumph over his subjection. and behind him was money and opportunity, freedom and london, a great background of seductively indistinct hopes. to him her face was a warm dimness. in truth, he could not see her eyes, but it seemed to his love-witched brain he did and that they shone out at him like dusky stars. all the world that evening was no more than a shadowy frame of darkling sky and water and dripping bows about helen. he seemed to see through things with an extraordinary clearness; she was revealed to him certainly, as the cause and essence of it all. he was indeed at his heart's desire. it was one of those times when there seems to be no future, when time has stopped and we are at an end. kipps, that evening, could not have imagined a to-morrow, all that his imagination had pointed towards was attained. his mind stood still and took the moments as they came. § about nine that night coote came around to kipps' new apartment in the upper sandgate road--the house on the leas had been let furnished--and kipps made an effort toward realisation. he was discovered sitting at the open window and without a lamp, quite still. coote was deeply moved, and he pressed kipps' palm and laid a knobby, white hand on his shoulder and displayed the sort of tenderness becoming in a crisis. kipps was too moved that night, and treated coote like a very dear brother. "she's splendid," said coote, coming to it abruptly. "isn't she?" said kipps. "i couldn't help noticing her face," said coote.... "you know, my dear kipps, that this is better than a legacy." "i don't deserve it," said kipps. "you can't say that." "i don't. i can't 'ardly believe it. i can't believe it at all. no!" there followed an expressive stillness. "it's wonderful," said kipps. "it takes me like that." coote made a faint blowing noise, and so again they came for a time of silence. "and it began--before your money?" "when i was in 'er class," said kipps, solemnly. coote, speaking out of a darkness which he was illuminating strangely with efforts to strike a match, said that it was beautiful. he could not have _wished_ kipps a better fortune.... he lit a cigarette, and kipps was moved to do the same, with a sacramental expression. presently speech flowed more freely. coote began to praise helen and her mother and brother. he talked of when "it" might be, he presented the thing as concrete and credible. "it's a county family, you know," he said. "she is connected, you know, with the beaupres family--you know lord beaupres." "no!" said kipps, "reely!" "distantly, of course," said coote. "still----" he smiled a smile that glimmered in the twilight. "it's too much," said kipps, overcome. "it's so all like that." coote exhaled. for a time kipps listened to helen's praises and matured a point of view. "i say, coote," he said. "what ought i to do now?" "what do you mean?" said coote. "i mean about calling on 'er and all that." he reflected. "naturally, i want to do it all right." "of course," said coote. "it would be awful to go and do something--now--all wrong." coote's cigarette glowed as he meditated. "you must call, of course," he decided. "you'll have to speak to mrs. walshingham." "'ow?" said kipps. "tell her you mean to marry her daughter." "i dessay she knows," said kipps, with defensive penetration. coote's head was visible, shaking itself judiciously. "then there's the ring," said kipps. "what 'ave i to do about that?" "what ring do you mean?" "'ngagement ring. there isn't anything at all about that in 'manners and rules of good society'--not a word." "of course you must get something--tasteful. yes." "what sort of a ring?" "something nace. they'll show you in the shop." "of course. i 'spose i got to take it to 'er, eh? put it on her finger." "oh, no! send it. much better." "ah!" said kipps, for the first time, with a note of relief. "then, 'ow about this call--on mrs. walshingham, i mean. 'ow ought one to go?" "rather a ceremonial occasion," reflected coote. "wadyer mean? frock coat?" "i _think_ so," said coote, with discrimination. "light trousers and all that?" "yes." "rose?" "i think it might run to a buttonhole." the curtain that hung over the future became less opaque to the eyes of kipps. to-morrow, and then other days, became perceptible at least as existing. frock coat, silk hat and a rose! with a certain solemnity he contemplated himself in the process of slow transformation into an english gentleman, arthur cuyps, frock-coated on occasions of ceremony, the familiar acquaintance of lady punnet, the recognised wooer of a distant connection of the earl of beaupres. something like awe at the magnitude of his own fortune came upon him. he felt the world was opening out like a magic flower in a transformation scene at the touch of this wand of gold. and helen, nestling beautiful in the red heart of the flower. only ten weeks ago he had been no more than the shabbiest of improvers and shamefully dismissed for dissipation, the mere soil-burned seed, as it were, of these glories. he resolved the engagement ring should be of expressively excessive quality and appearance, in fact, the very best they had. "ought i to send 'er flowers?" he speculated. "not necessarily," said coote. "though, of course, it's an attention."... kipps meditated on flowers. "when you see her," said coote, "you'll have to ask her to name the day." kipps started. "that won't be just yet a bit, will it?" "don't know any reason for delay." "oo, but--a year, say." "rather a long time," said coote. "is it?" said kipps, turning his head sharply. "but----" there was quite a long pause. "i say," he said, at last, and in an unaltered voice, "you'll 'ave to 'elp me about the wedding." "only too happy," said coote. "of course," said kipps, "i didn't think----" he changed his line of thought. "coote," he asked, "wot's a 'state-eh-tate'?" "a 'tate-ah-tay'!" said coote, improvingly, "is a conversation alone together." "lor'!" said kipps, "but i thought----. it says _strictly_ we oughtn't to enjoy a tater-tay, not sit together, walk together, ride together or meet during any part of the day. that don't leave much time for meeting, does it?" "the books says that?" asked coote. "i jest learnt it by 'eart before you came. i thought that was a bit rum, but i s'pose it's all right." "you won't find miss walshingham so strict as all that," said coote. "i think that's a bit extreme. they'd only do that now in very strict old aristocratic families. besides, the walshinghams are so modern--advanced, you might say. i expect you'll get plenty of chances of talking together." "there's a tremendous lot to think about," said kipps, blowing a profound sigh. "d'you mean--p'raps we might be married in a few months or so." "you'll _have_ to be," said coote. "why not?"... midnight found kipps alone, looking a little tired and turning over the leaves of the red-covered textbook with a studious expression. he paused for a moment on page , his eye caught by the words: "for an uncle or aunt by marriage the period is six weeks black, with jet trimmings." "no," said kipps, after a vigorous mental effort. "that's not it." the pages rustled again. he stopped and flattened out the little book decisively at the beginning of the chapter on "weddings." he became pensive. he stared at the lamp wick. "i suppose i ought to go over and tell them," he said, at last. § kipps called on mrs. walshingham, attired in the proper costume for ceremonial occasions in the day. he carried a silk hat, and he wore a deep-skirted frock coat, his boots were patent leather and his trousers dark grey. he had generous white cuffs with gold links, and his grey gloves, one thumb in which had burst when he put them on, he held loosely in his hand. he carried a small umbrella rolled to an exquisite tightness. a sense of singular correctness pervaded his being and warred with the enormity of the occasion for possession of his soul. anon he touched his silk cravat. the world smelt of his rosebud. he seated himself on a new re-covered chintz armchair and stuck out the elbow of the arm that held his hat. "i know," said mrs. walshingham, "i know everything," and helped him out most amazingly. she deepened the impression he had already received of her sense and refinement. she displayed an amount of tenderness that touched him. "this is a great thing," she said, "to a mother," and her hand rested for a moment on his impeccable coat sleeve. "a daughter, arthur," she explained, "is so much more than a son." marriage, she said, was a lottery, and without love and toleration there was much unhappiness. her life had not always been bright--there had been dark days and bright days. she smiled rather sweetly. "this is a bright one," she said. she said very kind and flattering things to kipps, and she thanked him for his goodness to her son. ("that wasn't anything," said kipps.) and then she expanded upon the theme of her two children. "both so accomplished," she said, "so clever. i call them my twin jewels." she was repeating a remark that she had made at lympne, that she always said her children needed opportunities, as other people needed air, when she was abruptly arrested by the entry of helen. they hung on a pause, helen perhaps surprised by kipps' weekday magnificence. then she advanced with outstretched hand. both the young people were shy. "i jest called 'round," began kipps, and became uncertain how to end. "won't you have some tea?" asked helen. she walked to the window, looked out at the familiar outporter's barrow, turned, surveyed kipps for a moment ambiguously, said "i will get some tea," and so departed again. mrs. walshingham and kipps looked at one another and the lady smiled indulgently. "you two young people mustn't be shy of each other," said mrs. walshingham, which damaged kipps considerably. she was explaining how sensitive helen always had been, even about quite little things, when the servant appeared with the tea things, and then helen followed, and taking up a secure position behind the little banboo tea table, broke the ice with officious teacup clattering. then she introduced the topic of a forthcoming open-air performance of "as you like it," and steered past the worst of the awkwardness. they discussed stage illusion. "i mus' say," said kipps, "i don't quite like a play in a theayter. it seems sort of unreal, some'ow." "but most plays are written for the stage," said helen, looking at the sugar. "i know," admitted kipps. they finished tea. "well," said kipps, and rose. "you mustn't go yet," said mrs. walshingham, rising and taking his hand. "i'm sure you two must have heaps to say to each other," and so she escaped towards the door. § among other projects that seemed almost equally correct to kipps at that exalted moment was one of embracing helen with ardour as soon as the door closed behind her mother and one of headlong flight through the open window. then he remembered he ought to hold the door open for mrs. walshingham, and turned from that duty to find helen still standing, beautifully inaccessible, behind the tea things. he closed the door and advanced toward her with his arms akimbo and his hands upon his coat skirts. then, feeling angular, he moved his right hand to his moustache. anyhow, he was dressed all right. somewhere at the back of his mind, dim and mingled with doubt and surprise, appeared the perception that he felt now quite differently towards her, that something between them had been blown from lympne keep to the four winds of heaven.... she regarded him with an eye of critical proprietorship. "mother has been making up to you," she said, smiling slightly. she added, "it was nice of you to come around to see her." they stood through a brief pause, as though each had expected something different in the other and was a little perplexed at its not being there. kipps found he was at the corner of the brown covered table, and he picked up a little flexible book that lay upon it to occupy his mind. "i bought you a ring to-day," he said, bending the book and speaking for the sake of saying something, and then he was moved to genuine speech. "you know," he said, "i can't 'ardly believe it." her face relaxed slightly again. "no?" she said, and may have breathed, "nor i." "no," he went on. "it's as though everything 'ad changed. more even than when i got my money. 'ere we are going to marry. it's like being someone else. what i feel is----" he turned a flushed and earnest face to her. he seemed to come alive to her with one natural gesture. "i don't _know_ things. i'm not good enough. i'm not refined. the more you'll see of me the more you'll find me out." "but i'm going to help you." "you'll 'ave to 'elp me a fearful lot." she walked to the window, glanced out of it, made up her mind, turned and came towards him, with her hands clasped behind her back. "all these things that trouble you are very little things. if you don't mind--if you will let me tell you things----" "i wish you would." "then i will." "they're little things to you, but they aren't to me." "it all depends, if you don't mind being told." "by you?" "i don't expect you to be told by strangers." "oo!" said kipps, expressing much. "you know, there are just a few little things. for instance, you know, you are careless with your pronunciation.... you don't mind my telling you?" "i like it," said kipps. "there's aitches." "i know," said kipps, and then, endorsingly, "i been told. fact is, i know a chap, a nacter, _he's_ told me. he's told me, and he's going to give me a lesso nor so." "i'm glad of that. it only requires a little care." "of course. on the stage they got to look out. they take regular lessons." "of course," said helen, a little absently. "i dessay i shall soon get into it," said kipps. "and then there's dress," said helen, taking up her thread again. kipps became pink, but he remained respectfully attentive. "you don't mind?" she said. "oo, no." "you mustn't be too--too dressy. it's possible to be over-conventional, over-elaborate. it makes you look like a shop--like a common, well-off person. there's a sort of easiness that is better. a real gentleman looks right, without looking as though he had tried to be right." "jest as though 'e'd put on what came first?" said the pupil, in a faded voice. "not exactly that, but a sort of ease." kipps nodded his head intelligently. in his heart he was kicking his silk hat about the room in an ecstasy of disappointment. "and you must accustom yourself to be more at your ease when you are with people," said helen. "you've only got to forget yourself a little and not be anxious----" "i'll try," said kipps, looking rather hard at the teapot. "i'll do my best to try." "i know you will," she said, and laid a hand for an instant upon his shoulder and withdrew it. he did not perceive her caress. "one has to learn," he said. his attention was distracted by the strenuous efforts that were going on in the back of his head to translate, "i say, didn't you ought to name the day?" into easy as well as elegant english, a struggle that was still undecided when the time came for them to part.... he sat for a long time at the open window of his sitting-room with an intent face, recapitulating that interview. his eyes rested at last almost reproachfully on the silk hat beside him. "'ow is one to know?" he asked. his attention was caught by a rubbed place in the nap, and, still thoughtful, he rolled up his handkerchief skilfully into a soft ball and began to smooth this down. his expression changed slowly. "'ow the juice is one to know?" he said, putting down the hat with some emphasis. he rose up, went across the room to the sideboard, and, standing there, opened and began to read "manners and rules." chapter iv the bicycle manufacturer § so kipps embarked upon his engagement, steeled himself to the high enterprise of marrying above his breeding. the next morning found him dressing with a certain quiet severity of movement, and it seemed to his landlady's housemaid that he was unusually dignified at breakfast. he meditated profoundly over his kipper and his kidney and bacon. he was going to new romney to tell the old people what had happened and where he stood. and the love of helen had also given him courage to do what buggins had once suggested to him as a thing he would do were he in kipps' place, and that was to hire a motor car for the afternoon. he had an early cold lunch, and then, with an air of quiet resolution, assumed a cap and coat he had purchased to this end, and thus equipped strolled around, blowing slightly, to the motor shop. the transaction was unexpectedly easy, and within the hour kipps, spectacled and wrapped about, was tootling through dymchurch. they came to a stop smartly and neatly outside the little toy shop. "make that thing 'oot a bit, will you," said kipps. "yes, that's it." "whup," said the motor car. "whurrup!" both his aunt and uncle came out on the pavement. "why, it's artie," cried his aunt, and kipps had a moment of triumph. he descended to hand claspings, removed wraps and spectacles, and the motor driver retired to take "an hour off." old kipps surveyed the machinery and disconcerted kipps for a moment by asking him in a knowing tone what they asked him for a thing like that. the two men stood inspecting the machine and impressing the neighbours for a time, and then they strolled through the shop into the little parlour for a drink. "they ain't settled," old kipps had said to the neighbours. "they ain't got no further than experiments. there's a bit of take-in about each. you take my advice and wait, me boy, even if it's a year or two, before you buy one for your own use." (though kipps had said nothing of doing anything of the sort.) "'ow d'you like that whiskey i sent?" asked kipps, dodging the old familiar bunch of children's pails. old kipps became tactful. "it's a very good whiskey, my boy," said old kipps. "i 'aven't the slightest doubt it's a very good whiskey and cost you a tidy price. but--dashed if it soots me! they put this here foozle ile in it, my boy, and it ketches me jest 'ere." he indicated his centre of figure. "gives me the heartburn," he said, and shook his head rather sadly. "it's a very good whiskey," said kipps. "it's what the actor manager chaps drink in london, i 'appen to know." "i dessay they do, my boy," said old kipps, "but then they've 'ad their livers burnt out, and i 'aven't. they ain't dellicat like me. my stummik always _'as_ been extrey dellicat. sometimes it's almost been as though nothing would lay on it. but that's in passing. i liked those segars. you can send me some of them segars...." you cannot lead a conversation straight from the gastric consequences of foozle ile to love, and so kipps, after a friendly inspection of a rare old engraving after morland (perfect except for a hole kicked through the centre) that his uncle had recently purchased by private haggle, came to the topic of the old people's removal. at the outset of kipps' great fortunes there had been much talk of some permanent provision for them. it had been conceded they were to be provided for comfortably, and the phrase "retire from business" had been very much in the air. kipps had pictured an ideal cottage, with a creeper always in exuberant flower about the door, where the sun shone forever and the wind never blew and a perpetual welcome hovered in the doorway. it was an agreeable dream, but when it came to the point of deciding upon this particular cottage or that, and on this particular house or that, kipps was surprised by an unexpected clinging to the little home, which he had always understood to be the worst of all possible houses. "we don't want to move in a 'urry," said mrs. kipps. "when we want to move, we want to move for life. i've had enough moving about in my time," said old kipps. "we can do here a bit more, now we done here so long," said mrs. kipps. "you lemme look about a bit _fust_," said old kipps. and in looking about old kipps found perhaps a finer joy than any mere possession could have given. he would shut his shop more or less effectually against the intrusion of customers, and toddle abroad seeking new matter for his dream; no house was too small and none too large for his knowing enquiries. occupied houses took his fancy more than vacancies, and he would remark, "you won't be a livin' 'ere forever, even if you think you will," when irate householders protested against the unsolicited examination of their more intimate premises.... remarkable difficulties arose of a totally unexpected sort. "if we 'ave a larger 'ouse," said mrs. kipps with sudden bitterness, "we shall want a servant, and i don't want no gells in the place larfin' at me, sniggerin' and larfin' and prancin' and trapesin', lardy da! if we 'ave a smaller 'ouse, there won't be room to swing a cat." room to swing a cat it seemed was absolutely essential. it was an infrequent but indispensable operation. "when we _do_ move," said old kipps, "if we could get a bit of shootin'----. i don't want to sell off all this here stock for nothin'. it's took years to 'cumulate. i put a ticket in the winder sayin' 'sellin' orf,' but it 'asn't brought nothing like a roosh. one of these 'ere dratted visitors pretendin' to want an air gun, was all we 'ad in yesterday. jest an excuse for spyin' round and then go away and larf at you. no-thanky to everything, it didn't matter what.... that's 'ow _i_ look at it, artie." they pursued meandering fancies about the topic of their future settlement for a space and kipps became more and more hopeless of any proper conversational opening that would lead to his great announcement, and more and more uncertain how such an opening should be taken. once indeed old kipps, anxious to get away from this dangerous subject of removals, began: "and what are you a-doin' of in folkestone? i shall have to come over and see you one of these days," but before kipps could get in upon that, his uncle had passed into a general exposition of the proper treatment of landladies and their humbugging, cheating ways, and so the opportunity vanished. it seemed to kipps the only thing to do was to go out into the town for a stroll, compose an effectual opening at leisure, and then come back and discharge it at them in its consecutive completeness. and even out of doors and alone, he found his mind distracted by irrelevant thoughts. § his steps led him out of the high street towards the church, and he leant for a time over the gate that had once been the winning post of his race with ann pornick, and presently found himself in a sitting position on the top rail. he had to get things smooth again, he knew; his mind was like a mirror of water after a breeze. the image of helen and his great future was broken and mingled into fragmentary reflections of remoter things, of the good name of old methusaleh three stars, of long dormant memories the high street saw fit, by some trick of light and atmosphere, to arouse that afternoon.... abruptly a fine, full voice from under his elbow shouted, "what--o art!" and, behold, sid pornick was back in his world, leaning over the gate beside him, and holding out a friendly hand. he was oddly changed and yet oddly like the sid that kipps had known. he had the old broad face and mouth, abundantly freckled, the same short nose, and the same blunt chin, the same odd suggestion of his sister ann without a touch of her beauty; but he had quite a new voice, loud and a little hard, and his upper lip carried a stiff and very fair moustache. kipps shook hands. "i was jest thinking of _you_, sid," he said, "jest this very moment and wondering if ever i should see you again, ever. and 'ere you are!" "one likes a look 'round at times," said sid. "how are _you_, old chap?" "all right," said kipps. "i just been lef'----" "you aren't changed much," interrupted sid. "ent i?" said kipps, foiled. "i knew your back directly i came 'round the corner. spite of that 'at you got on. hang it, i said, that's art kipps or the devil. and so it was." kipps made a movement of his neck as if he would look at his back and judge. then he looked sid in the face. "you got a moustache, sid," he said. "i s'pose you're having your holidays?" said sid. "well, partly. but i just been lef'----" "_i'm_ taking a bit of a holiday," sid went on. "but the fact is, i have to give _myself_ holidays nowadays. i've set up for myself." "not down here?" "no fear! i'm not a turnip. i've started in hammersmith, manufacturing." sid spoke offhand as though there was no such thing as pride. "not drapery?" "no fear! engineer. manufacture bicycles." he clapped his hand to his breast pocket and produced a number of pink handbills. he handed one to kipps and prevented him reading it by explanations and explanatory dabs of a pointing finger. "that's our make, my make to be exact, the red flag, see?--i got a transfer with my name--pantocrat tyres, eight pounds--yes, _there_--clinchers ten, dunlop's eleven, ladies' one pound more--that's the lady's. best machine at a democratic price in london. no guineas and no discounts--honest trade. i build 'em--to order. i've built," he reflected, looking away seaward--"seventeen. counting orders in 'and.... come down to look at the old place a bit. mother likes it at times." "thought you'd all gone away----" "what! after my father's death? no! my mother's come back, and she's living at muggett's cottages. the sea air suits 'er. she likes the old place better than hammersmith ... and i can afford it. got an old crony or so here.... gossip ... have tea.... s'pose _you_ ain't married, kipps?" kipps shook his head, "i----" he began. "_i_ am," said sid. "married these two years and got a nipper. proper little chap." kipps got his word in at last. "i got engaged day before yesterday," he said. "ah!" said sid airily. "that's all right. who's the fortunate lady?" kipps tried to speak in an offhand way. he stuck his hands in his pockets as he spoke. "she's a solicitor's daughter," he said, "in folkestone. rather'r nice set. county family. related to the earl of beaupres----" "steady on!" cried sid. "you see, i've 'ad a bit of luck, sid. been lef' money." sid's eye travelled instinctively to mark kipps' garments. "how much?" he asked. "'bout twelve 'undred a year," said kipps, more offhandedly than ever. "lord!" said sid, with a note of positive dismay, and stepped back a pace or two. "my granfaver it was," said kipps, trying hard to be calm and simple. "'ardly knew i _'ad_ a granfaver. and then--bang! when o' bean, the solicitor, told me of it, you could 'ave knocked me down----" "_'ow_ much?" demanded sid, with a sharp note in his voice. "twelve 'undred pound a year--'proximately, that is...." sid's attempt at genial unenvious congratulation did not last a minute. he shook hands with an unreal heartiness and said he was jolly glad. "it's a blooming stroke of luck," he said. "it's a bloomin' stroke of luck," he repeated; "that's what it is," with the smile fading from his face. "of course, better you 'ave it than me, o' chap. so i don't envy you, anyhow. _i_ couldn't keep it, if i did 'ave it." "'ow's that?" said kipps, a little hipped by sid's patent chagrin. "i'm a socialist, you see," said sid. "i don't 'old with wealth. what _is_ wealth? labour robbed out of the poor. at most it's only yours in trust. leastways, that 'ow _i_ should take it." he reflected. "the present distribution of wealth," he said and stopped. then he let himself go, with unmasked bitterness. "it's no sense at all. it's jest damn foolishness. who's going to work and care in a muddle like this? here first you do--something anyhow--of the world's work, and it pays you hardly anything, and then it invites you to do nothing, nothing whatever, and pays you twelve hundred pounds a year. who's going to respect laws and customs when they come to damn silliness like that?" he repeated, "twelve hundred pounds a year!" at the sight of kipps' face he relented slightly. "it's not you i'm thinking of, o' man; it's the system. better you than most people. still----" he laid both hands on the gate and repeated to himself, "twelve 'undred a year.... gee-whizz, kipps! you'll be a swell!" "i shan't," said kipps with imperfect conviction. "no fear." "you can't 'ave money like that and not swell out. you'll soon be too big to speak to--'ow do they put it?--a mere mechanic like me." "no fear, siddee," said kipps with conviction. "i ain't that sort." "ah!" said sid, with a sort of unwilling scepticism, "money'll be too much for you. besides--you're caught by a swell already." "'ow d'you mean?" "that girl you're going to marry. masterman says----" "oo's masterman?" "rare good chap i know--takes my first floor front room. masterson says it's always the wife pitches the key. always. there's no social differences--till women come in." "ah!" said kipps profoundly. "you don't know." sid shook his head. "fancy!" he reflected, "art kipps!... twelve 'undred a year!" kipps tried to bridge that opening gulf. "remember the hurons, sid?" "rather," said sid. "remember that wreck?" "i can smell it now--sort of sour smell." kipps was silent for a moment with reminiscent eyes on sid's still troubled face. "i say, sid, 'ow's ann?" "_she's_ all right," said sid. "where is she now?" "in a place ... ashford." "oh!" sid's face had become a shade sulkier than before. "the fact is," he said, "we don't get on very well together. _i_ don't hold with service. we're common people, i suppose, but i don't like it. i don't see why a sister of mine should wait at other people's tables. no. not even if they got twelve 'undred a year." kipps tried to change the point of application. "remember 'ow you came out once when we were racing here?... she didn't run bad for a girl." and his own words raised an image brighter than he could have supposed, so bright it seemed to breathe before him and did not fade altogether, even when he was back in folkestone an hour or so later. but sid was not to be deflected from that other rankling theme by any reminiscences of ann. "i wonder what you will do with all that money," he speculated. "i wonder if you will do any good at all. i wonder what you _could_ do. you should hear masterman. he'd tell you things. suppose it came to me, what should i do? it's no good giving it back to the state as things are. start an owenite profit-sharing factory perhaps. or a new socialist paper. we want a new socialist paper." he tried to drown his personal chagrin in elaborate exemplary suggestions.... § "i must be gettin' on to my motor," said kipps at last, having to a large extent heard him out. "what! got a motor?" "no!" said kipps apologetically. "only jobbed for the day." "'ow much?" "five pounds." "keep five families for a week! good lord!" that seemed to crown sid's disgust. yet drawn by a sort of fascination he came with kipps and assisted at the mounting of the motor. he was pleased to note it was not the most modern of motors, but that was the only grain of comfort. kipps mounted at once, after one violent agitation of the little shop-door to set the bell a-jingle and warn his uncle and aunt. sid assisted with the great furlined overcoat and examined the spectacles. "good-bye, o' chap!" said kipps. "good-bye, o' chap!" said sid. the old people came out to say good-bye. old kipps was radiant with triumph. "'pon my sammy, artie! i'm a goo' mind to come with you," he shouted, and then, "i got something you might take with you!" he dodged back into the shop and returned with the perforated engraving after morland. "you stick to this, my boy," he said. "you get it repaired by someone who knows. it's the most vallyble thing i got you so far, you take my word." "warrup!" said the motor, and tuff, tuff, tuff, and backed and snorted while old kipps danced about on the pavement as if foreseeing complex catastrophes, and told the driver, "that's all right." he waved his stout stick to his receding nephew. then he turned to sid. "now, if you could make something like that, young pornick, you _might_ blow a bit!" "i'll make a doocid sight better than _that_ before i done," said sid, hands deep in his pockets. "not _you_," said old kipps. the motor set up a prolonged sobbing moan and vanished around the corner. sid stood motionless for a space, unheeding some further remark from old kipps. the young mechanic had just discovered that to have manufactured seventeen bicycles, including orders in hand, is not so big a thing as he had supposed, and such discoveries try one's manhood.... "oh well!" said sid at last, and turned his face towards his mother's cottage. she had got a hot teacake for him, and she was a little hurt that he was dark and preoccupied as he consumed it. he had always been such a boy for teacake, and then when one went out specially and got him one----! he did not tell her--he did not tell anyone--he had seen young kipps. he did not want to talk about kipps for a bit to anyone at all. chapter v the pupil lover § when kipps came to reflect upon his afternoon's work he had his first inkling of certain comprehensive incompatibilities lying about the course of true love in his particular case. he had felt without understanding the incongruity between the announcement he had failed to make and the circle of ideas of his aunt and uncle. it was this rather than the want of a specific intention that had silenced him, the perception that when he travelled from folkestone to new romney he travelled from an atmosphere where his engagement to helen was sane and excellent to an atmosphere where it was only to be regarded with incredulous suspicion. coupled and associated with this jar was his sense of the altered behaviour of sid pornick, the evident shock to that ancient alliance caused by the fact of his enrichment, the touch of hostility in his "you'll soon be swelled too big to speak to a poor mechanic like me." kipps was unprepared for the unpleasant truth; that the path of social advancement is and must be strewn with broken friendships. this first protrusion of that fact caused a painful confusion in his mind. it was speedily to protrude in a far more serious fashion in relation to the "hands" from the emporium, and chitterlow. from the day at lympne castle his relations with helen had entered upon a new footing. he had prayed for helen as good souls pray for heaven, with as little understanding of what it was he prayed for. and now that period of standing humbly in the shadows before the shrine was over, and the goddess, her veil of mystery flung aside, had come down to him and taken hold of him, a good, strong, firm hold, and walked by his side.... she liked him. what was singular was that very soon she had kissed him thrice, whimsically upon the brow, and he had never kissed her at all. he could not analyse his feelings, only he knew the world was wonderfully changed about them, but the truth was that, though he still worshipped and feared her, though his pride in his engagement was ridiculously vast, he loved her now no more. that subtle something woven of the most delicate strands of self-love and tenderness and desire, had vanished imperceptibly; and was gone now for ever. but that she did not suspect in him, nor as a matter of fact did he. she took him in hand in perfect good faith. she told him things about his accent, she told him things about his bearing, about his costume and his way of looking at things. she thrust the blade of her intelligence into the tenderest corners of kipps' secret vanity, she slashed his most intimate pride to bleeding tatters. he sought very diligently to anticipate some at least of these informing thrusts by making great use of coote. but the unanticipated made a brave number.... she found his simple willingness a very lovable thing. indeed she liked him more and more. there was a touch of motherliness in her feelings towards him. but his upbringing and his associations had been, she diagnosed, "awful." at new romney she glanced but little; that was remote. but in her inventory--she went over him as one might go over a newly taken house, with impartial thoroughness--she discovered more proximate influences, surprising intimations of nocturnal "sing-songs"--she pictured it as almost shocking that kipps should sing to the banjo--much low-grade wisdom treasured from a person called buggins--"who _is_ buggins?" said helen--vague figures of indisputable vulgarity, pierce and carshot, and more particularly, a very terrible social phenomenon, chitterlow. chitterlow blazed upon them with unheralded oppressive brilliance the first time they were abroad together. they were going along the front of the leas to see a school play in sandgate--at the last moment mrs. walshingham had been unable to come with them--when chitterlow loomed up into the new world. he was wearing the suit of striped flannel and the straw hat that had followed kipps' payment in advance for his course in elocution, his hands were deep in his side pockets and animated the corners of his jacket, and his attentive gaze at the passing loungers, the faint smile under his boldly drawn nose, showed him engaged in studying character--no doubt for some forthcoming play. "what ho!" said he, at the sight of kipps, and swept off the straw hat with so ample a clutch of his great, flat hand that it suggested to helen's startled mind a conjurer about to palm a half-penny. "'ello, chitt'low," said kipps a little awkwardly and not saluting. chitterlow hesitated. "half a mo', my boy," he said, and arrested kipps by extending a large hand over his chest. "excuse me, my dear," he said, bowing like his russian count by way of apology to helen and with a smile that would have killed at a hundred yards. he affected a semi-confidential grouping of himself and kipps while helen stood in white amazement. "about that play," he said. "'ow about it?" asked kipps, acutely aware of helen. "it's all right," said chitterlow. "there's a strong smell of syndicate in the air, i may tell you--strong." "that's aw right," said kipps. "you needn't tell everybody," said chitterlow with a transitory, confidential hand to his mouth, which pointed the application of the "everybody" just a trifle too strongly. "but i think it's coming off. however----. i mustn't detain you now. so long. you'll come 'round, eh?" "right you are," said kipps. "to-night?" "at eight." and then, and more in the manner of a russian prince than any common count, chitterlow bowed and withdrew. just for a moment he allowed a conquering eye to challenge helen's and noted her for a girl of quality.... there was a silence between our lovers for a space. "that," said kipps with an allusive movement of the head, "was chitterlow." "is he--a friend of yours?" "in a way.... you see--i met 'im. leastways 'e met me. run into me with a bicycle, 'e did, and so we got talking together." he tried to appear at his ease. the young lady scrutinised his profile. "what is he?" "'e's a nacter chap," said kipps. "leastways 'e writes plays." "and sells them?" "partly." "whom to?" "different people. shares he sells.... it's all right, reely--i meant to tell you about him before." helen looked over her shoulder to catch a view of chitterlow's retreating aspect. it did not compel her complete confidence. she turned to her lover and said in a tone of quiet authority, "you must tell me all about chitterlow. now." the explanation began.... the school play came almost as a relief to kipps. in the flusterment of going in he could almost forget for a time his laocoon struggle to explain, and in the intervals he did his best to keep forgetting. but helen, with a gentle insistence, resumed the explanation of chitterlow as they returned towards folkestone. chitterlow was confoundedly difficult to explain. you could hardly imagine! there was an almost motherly anxiety in helen's manner, blended with the resolution of a schoolmistress to get to the bottom of the affair. kipps' ears were soon quite brightly red. "have you seen one of his plays?" "'e's tole me about one." "but on the stage." "no. he 'asn't 'ad any on the stage yet. that's all coming...." "promise me," she said in conclusion, "you won't do anything without consulting me." and of course kipps promised. "oo--no!" they went on their way in silence. "one can't know everybody," said helen in general. "of course," said kipps; "in a sort of way it was him that helped me to my money." and he indicated in a confused manner the story of the advertisement. "i don't like to drop 'im all at once," he added. helen was silent for a space, and when she spoke she went off at a tangent. "we shall live in london--soon," she remarked. "it's only while we are here." it was the first intimation she gave him of their post-nuptial prospects. "we shall have a nice little flat somewhere, not too far west, and there we shall build up a circle of our own." § all that declining summer kipps was the pupil lover. he made an extraordinarily open secret of his desire for self-improvement; indeed helen had to hint once or twice that his modest frankness was excessive, and all this new circle of friends did, each after his or her manner, everything that was possible to supplement helen's efforts and help him to ease and skill in the more cultivated circles to which he had come. coote was still the chief teacher, the tutor--there are so many little difficulties that a man may take to another man that he would not care to propound to the woman he loves--but they were all, so to speak, upon the staff. even the freckled girl said to him once in a pleasant way, "you mustn't say "contre temps," you must say "contraytom,"" when he borrowed that expression from "manners and rules," and she tried at his own suggestion to give him clear ideas upon the subject of "as" and "has." a certain confusion between these words was becoming evident, the first fruits of a lesson from chitterlow on the aspirate. hitherto he had discarded that dangerous letter almost altogether, but now he would pull up at words beginning with "h" and draw a sawing breath--rather like a startled kitten--and then aspirate with vigour. said kipps one day, "_as_ 'e?--i should say, ah--has 'e? ye know i got a lot of difficulty over them two words, which is which?" "well, 'as' is a conjunction and 'has' is a verb." "i know," said kipps, "but when is 'has' a conjunction and when is 'as' a verb?" "well," said the freckled girl, preparing to be very lucid. "it's _has_ when it means one has, meaning having, but if it isn't it's _as_. as for instance one says 'e--i mean _he_--he has. but one says 'as he has.'" "i see," said kipps. "so i ought to say 'as 'e?'" "no, if you are asking a question you say _has_ 'e--i mean he--'as he?" she blushed quite brightly, but still clung to her air of lucidity. "i see," said kipps. he was about to say something further, but he desisted. "i got it much clearer now. _has_ 'e? _has_ 'e as. yes." "if you remember about having." "oo i will," said kipps. miss coote specialised in kipps' artistic development. she had early found an opinion that he had considerable artistic sensibility, his remarks on her work had struck her as decidedly intelligent, and whenever he called around to see them she would show him some work of art, now an illustrated book, now perhaps a colour print of a botticelli, now the hundred best paintings, now "academy pictures," now a german art handbook and now some magazine of furniture and design. "i know you like these things," she used to say, and kipps said, "oo i _do_." he soon acquired a little armoury of appreciative sayings. when presently the walshinghams took him up to the arts and crafts, his deportment was intelligent in the extreme. for a time he kept a wary silence and suddenly pitched upon a colour print. "that's rather nace," he said to mrs. walshingham. "that lill' thing. there." he always said things like that by preference to the mother rather than the daughter unless he was perfectly sure. he quite took to mrs. walshingham. he was impressed by her conspicuous tact and refinement; it seemed to him that the ladylike could go no further. she was always dressed with a delicate fussiness that was never disarranged and even a sort of faded quality about her hair and face and bearing and emotions contributed to her effect. kipps was not a big man, and commonly he did not feel a big man, but with mrs. walshingham he always felt enormous and distended, as though he was a navvy who had taken some disagreeable poison which puffed him up inside his skin as a preliminary to bursting. he felt, too, as though he had been rolled in clay and his hair dressed with gum. and he felt that his voice was strident and his accent like somebody swinging a crowded pig's pail in a free and careless manner. all this increased and enforced his respect for her. her hand, which flitted often and again to his hand and arm, was singularly well shaped and cool. "arthur," she called him from the very beginning. she did not so much positively teach and tell him as tactfully guide and infect him. her conversation was not so much didactic as exemplary. she would say, "i _do_ like people to do" so and so. she would tell him anecdotes of nice things done, of gentlemanly feats of graceful consideration; she would record her neat observations of people in trains and omnibuses; how, for example, a man had passed her change to the conductor, "quite a common man he looked," but he had lifted his hat. she stamped kipps so deeply with the hat-raising habit that he would uncover if he found himself in the same railway ticket office with a lady had to stand ceremoniously until the difficulties of change drove him to an apologetic provisional oblique resumption of his headgear.... and robbing these things of any air of personal application, she threw about them an abundant talk about her two children--she called them her twin jewels quite frequently--about their gifts, their temperaments, their ambition, their need of opportunity. they needed opportunity, she would say, as other people needed air.... in his conversations with her kipps always assumed, and she seemed to assume, that she was to join that home in london helen foreshadowed, but he was surprised one day to gather that this was not to be the case. "it wouldn't do," said helen, with decision. "we want to make a circle of our own." "but won't she be a bit lonely down here?" asked kipps. "there's the waces, and mrs. prebble and mrs. bindon botting and--lots of people she knows." and helen dismissed this possibility.... young walshingham's share in the educational syndicate was smaller. but he shone out when they went to london on that arts and crafts expedition. then this rising man of affairs showed kipps how to buy the more theatrical weeklies for consumption in the train, how to buy and what to buy in the way of cigarettes with gold tips and shilling cigars, and how to order hock for lunch and sparkling moselle for dinner, how to calculate the fare of a hansom cab--penny a minute while he goes--how to look intelligently at an hotel tape, and how to sit still in a train like a thoughtful man instead of talking like a fool and giving yourself away. and he, too, would glance at the good time coming when they were to be in london for good and all. that prospect expanded and developed particulars. it presently took up a large part of helen's conversation. her conversations with kipps were never of a grossly sentimental sort; there was a shyness of speech in that matter with both of them, but these new adumbrations were at least as interesting and not so directly disagreeable as the clear-cut intimations of personal defect that for a time had so greatly chastened kipps' delight in her presence. the future presented itself with an almost perfect frankness as a joint campaign of mrs. walshingham's twin jewels upon the great world, with kipps in the capacity of baggage and supply. they would still be dreadfully poor, of course--this amazed kipps, but he said nothing--until "brudderkins" began to succeed, but if they were clever and lucky they might do a great deal. when helen spoke of london a brooding look, as of one who contemplates a distant country, came into her eyes. already it seemed they had the nucleus of a set. brudderkins was a member of the theatrical judges, an excellent and influential little club of journalists and literary people, and he knew shimer and stargate and whiffle, of the "red dragon," and besides these were the revels. they knew the revels quite well. sidney revel before his rapid rise to prominence as a writer of epigrammatic essays that were quite above the ordinary public, had been an assistant master at one of the best folkestone schools, brudderkins had brought him home to tea several times, and it was he had first suggested helen should try and write. "it's perfectly easy," sidney had said. he had been writing occasional things for the evening papers, and for the weekly reviews even at that time. then he had gone up to london and had almost unavoidedly become a dramatic critic. those brilliant essays had followed, and then "red hearts a-beating," the romance that had made him. it was a tale of spirited adventure, full of youth and beauty and naïve passion and generous devotion, bold, as the _bookman_ said, and frank in places, but never in the slightest degree morbid. he had met and married an american widow with quite a lot of money, and they had made a very distinct place for themselves, kipps learnt, in the literary and artistic society of london. helen seemed to dwell on the revels a great deal; it was her exemplary story, and when she spoke of sidney--she often called him sidney--she would become thoughtful. she spoke most of him naturally because she had still to meet mrs. revel.... certainly they would be in the world in no time, even if the distant connection with the beaupres family came to nothing. kipps gathered that with his marriage and the movement to london they were to undergo that subtle change of name coote had first adumbrated. they were to become "cuyps," mr. and mrs. cuyps. or, was it cuyp? "it'll be rum at first," said kipps. "i dessay i shall soon get into it."... so in their several ways they all contributed to enlarge and refine and exercise the intelligence of kipps. and behind all these other influences, and, as it were, presiding over and correcting these influences, was kipps' nearest friend, coote, a sort of master of the ceremonies. you figure his face, blowing slightly with solicitude, his slate coloured, projecting but not unkindly eye intent upon our hero. the thing he thought was going off admirably. he studied kipps' character immensely. he would discuss him with his sister, with mrs. walshingham, with the freckled girl, with anyone who would stand it. "he is an interesting character," he would say, "likable--a sort of gentleman by instinct. he takes to all these things. he improves every day. he'll soon get sang froid. we took him up just in time. he wants now--well----. next year, perhaps, if there is a good extension literature course, he might go in for it. he wants to go in for something like that." "he's going in for his bicycle now," said mrs. walshingham. "that's all right for summer," said coote, "but he wants to go in for some serious, intellectual interest, something to take him out of himself a little more. savoir faire and self-forgetfulness is more than half the secret of sang froid." § the world as coote presented it was in part an endorsement, in part an amplification and in part a rectification of the world of kipps, the world that derived from the old couple in new romney and had been developed in the emporium; the world, in fact, of common british life. there was the same subtle sense of social graduation that had moved mrs. kipps to prohibit intercourse with labourers' children and the same dread of anything "common" that had kept the personal quality of mr. shalford's establishment so high. but now a certain disagreeable doubt about kipps' own position was removed and he stood with coote inside the sphere of gentlemen assured. within the sphere of gentlemen there are distinctions of rank indeed, but none of class; there are the big people and the modest, refined, gentlemanly little people like coote, who may even dabble in the professions and counterless trades; there are lords and magnificences, and there are gentle folk who have to manage, but they can all call on one another, they preserve a general equality of deportment throughout, they constitute that great state within the state, society, or at any rate they make believe they do. "but reely," said the pupil, "not what you call being in society?" "yes," said coote. "of course, down here one doesn't see much of it, but there's local society. it has the same rules." "calling and all that?" "precisely," said coote. kipps thought, whistled a bar, and suddenly broached a question of conscience. "i often wonder," he said, "whether i oughtn't to dress for dinner--when i'm alone 'ere." coote protruded his lips and reflected. "not full dress," he adjudicated; "that would be a little excessive. but you should _change_, you know. put on a mess jacket and that sort of thing--easy dress. that is what _i_ should do, certainly, if i wasn't in harness--and poor." he coughed modestly and patted his hair behind. and after that the washing bill of kipps quadrupled, and he was to be seen at times by the bandstand with his light summer overcoat unbuttoned to give a glimpse of his nice white tie. he and coote would be smoking the gold-tipped cigarettes young walshingham had prescribed as _chic_, and appreciating the music highly. "that's--puff--a very nice bit," kipps would say, or better, "that's nace." and at the first grunts of the loyal anthem up they stood with religiously uplifted hats. whatever else you might call them, you could never call them disloyal. the boundary of society was admittedly very close to coote and kipps, and a leading solicitude of the true gentleman was to detect clearly those "beneath" him, and to behave towards them in a proper spirit. "it's jest there it's so 'ard for me," said kipps. he had to cultivate a certain "distance," to acquire altogether the art of checking the presumption of bounders and old friends. it was difficult, coote admitted. "that's what, so harkward--i mean awkward." "i got mixed up with this lot 'ere," said kipps. "you could give them a hint," said coote. "'ow?" "oh!--the occasion will suggest something." the occasion came one early closing night when kipps was sitting in a canopy chair near the bandstand, with his summer overcoat fully open and a new gibus pulled slightly forward over his brow, waiting for coote. they were to hear the band for an hour and then go down to assist miss coote and the freckled girl in trying over some of beethoven's duets, if they remembered them, that is, sufficiently well. and as kipps lounged back in his chair and occupied his mind with his favourite amusement on such evenings, which consisted chiefly in supposing that everyone about him was wondering who he was, came a rude rap at the canvas back and the voice of pierce. "it's nice to be a gentleman," said pierce, and swung a penny chair into position while buggins appeared smiling agreeably on the other side and leant upon his stick. _he was smoking a common briar pipe!_ two real ladies, very fashionably dressed and sitting close at hand, glanced quickly at pierce, and then away again, and it was evident _their_ wonder was at an end. "_he's_ all right," said buggins, removing his pipe and surveying kipps. "'ello, buggins!" said kipps, not too cordially. "'ow goes it?" "all right. holiday's next week. if you don't look out, kipps, i shall be on the continong before you. eh?" "you going t' boologne?" "ra-ther. parley vous francey. you bet." "_i_ shall 'ave a bit of a run over there one of these days," said kipps. there came a pause. pierce applied the top of his stick to his mouth for a space and regarded kipps. then he glanced at the people about them. "i say, kipps," he said in a distinct, loud voice, "see 'er ladyship lately?" kipps perceived the audience was to be impressed, but he responded half-heartedly, "no, i 'aven't," he said. "she was along of sir william the other night," said pierce, still loud and clear, "and she asked to be remembered to you." it seemed to kipps that one of the two ladies smiled faintly and said something to the other, and then certainly they glanced at pierce. kipps flushed scarlet. "_did_ she?" he answered. buggins laughed good-humouredly over his pipe. "sir william suffers a lot from his gout," pierce continued unabashed. (buggins much amused with his pipe between his teeth.) kipps became aware of coote at hand. coote nodded rather distantly to pierce. "hope i haven't kept you waiting, kipps," he said. "i kep' a chair for you," said kipps and removed a guardian foot. "but you've got your friends," said coote. "oh! _we_ don't mind," said pierce cordially, "the more the merrier," and, "why don't you get a chair, buggins?" buggins shook his head in a sort of aside to pierce and coote coughed behind his hand. "been kep' late at business?" asked pierce. coote turned quite pale and pretended not to hear. his eyes sought in space for a time and with a convulsive movement he recognised a distant acquaintance and raised his hat. pierce had also become a little pale. he addressed himself to kipps in an undertone. "mr. coote, isn't he?" he asked. coote addressed himself to kipps directly and exclusively. his manner had the calm of extreme tension. "i'm rather late," he said. "i think we ought almost to be going on _now_." kipps stood up. "that's all right," he said. "which way are you going?" said pierce, standing also, and brushing some crumbs of cigarette ash from his sleeve. for a moment coote was breathless. "thank you," he said, and gasped. then he delivered the necessary blow; "i don't think we're in need of your society, you know," and turned away. kipps found himself falling over chairs and things in the wake of coote, and then they were clear of the crowd. for a space coote said nothing; then he remarked abruptly and quite angrily for him, "i think that was _awful_ cheek!" kipps made no reply.... the whole thing was an interesting little object lesson in distance, and it stuck in the front of kipps' mind for a long time. he had particularly vivid the face of pierce, with an expression between astonishment and anger. he felt as though he had struck pierce in the face under circumstances that gave pierce no power to reply. he did not attend very much to the duets and even forgot at the end of one of them to say how perfectly lovely it was. § but you must not imagine that the national ideal of a gentleman, as coote developed it, was all a matter of deportment and selectness, a mere isolation from debasing associations. there is a serious side, a deeper aspect of the true, true gentleman. the true gentleman does not wear his heart on his sleeve. he is a polished surface above deeps. for example, he is deeply religious, as coote was, as mrs. walshingham was, but outside the walls of a church it never appears, except perhaps now and then in a pause, in a profound look, in a sudden avoidance. in quite a little while kipps also had learnt the pause, the profound look, the sudden avoidance, that final refinement of spirituality, impressionistic piety. and the true gentleman is patriotic also. when one saw coote lifting his hat to the national anthem, then perhaps one got a glimpse of what patriotic emotions, what worship, the polish of a gentleman may hide. or singing out his deep notes against the hosts of midian, in the st. stylites choir; then indeed you plumbed his spiritual side. christian, dost thou heed them, on the holy ground, how the hosts of mid-i-an, prowl and prowl around! christian, up and smai-it them.... but these were but gleams. for the rest, religion, nationality, passion, money, politics; much more so those cardinal issues, birth and death, the true gentleman skirted about, and became facially rigid towards and ceased to speak and panted and blew. "one doesn't talk of that sort of thing," coote would say with a gesture of the knuckly hand. "o' course," kipps would reply, with an equal significance. profundities. deep as it were, blowing to deep. one does not talk, but on the other hand one is punctilious to do. actions speak. kipps--in spite of the fact that the walshinghams were more than a little lax--kipps, who had formerly flitted sunday after sunday from one folkestone church to another, had now a sitting of his own, paid for duly at saint stylites. there he was to be seen, always at the surplice evening service, and sometimes of a morning, dressed with a sober precision, and with an eye on coote in the chancel. no difficulties now about finding the place in his book. he became a communicant again--he had lapsed soon after his confirmation when the young lady in the costume-room, who was his adopted sister, left the emporium--and he would sometimes go around to the vestry for coote after the service. one evening he was introduced to the hon. and rev. densemore. he was much too confused to say anything, and the noble cleric had nothing to say, but indisputably they were introduced.... no! you must not imagine our national ideal of a gentleman is without its "serious side," without even its stern and uncompromising side. the imagination no doubt refuses to see coote displaying extraordinary refinements of courage upon the stricken field, but in the walks of peace there is sometimes sore need of sternness. charitable as one may be, one must admit there are people who _do_ things, impossible things; people who place themselves "out of it" in countless ways; people, moreover, who are by a sort of predestination out of it from the beginning, and against these society has invented a terrible protection for its cootery, the cut. the cut is no joke for anyone. it is excommunication. you may be cut by an individual, you may be cut by a set or you may be--and this is so tragic that beautiful romances have been written about it--"cut by the county." one figures coote discharging this last duty and cutting somebody--coote, erect and pale, never speaking, going past with eyes of pitiless slate, lower jaw protruding a little, face pursed up and cold and stiff.... it never dawned upon kipps that he would one day have to face this terrible front, to be to coote not only as one dead, but as one gone more than a stage or so in decay, cut and passed, banned and outcast for ever. yet so it was to be! one cannot hide any longer that all this fine progress of kipps is doomed to end in collapse. so far indeed you have seen him ascend. you have seen him becoming more refined and careful day by day, more carefully dressed, less clumsy in the ways and methods of social life. you have seen the gulf widening between himself and his former low associates. i have brought you at last to the vision of him, faultlessly dressed and posed, in an atmosphere of candlelight and chanting, in his own sitting in one of the most fashionable churches in folkestone.... all the time i have refrained from the lightest touch upon the tragic note that must now creep into my tale. yet the net of his low connections has been about his feet, and moreover there was something interwoven in his being.... chapter vi discords § one day kipps set out upon his newly-mastered bicycle to new romney to break the news of his engagement to his uncle and aunt--this time positively. he was now a finished cyclist, but as yet an unseasoned one; the southwest wind, even in its summer guise, as one meets it in the marsh, is the equivalent of a reasonable hill, and ever and again he got off and refreshed himself by a spell of walking. he was walking just outside new romney preparatory to his triumphal entry (one hand off) when abruptly he came upon ann pornick. it chanced he was thinking about her at the time. he had been thinking curious things; whether, after all, the atmosphere of new romney and the marsh had not some difference, some faint impalpable quality that was missing in the great and fashionable world of folkestone behind there on the hill. here there was a homeliness, a familiarity. he had noted as he passed that old mr. cliffordown's gate had been mended with a fresh piece of string. in folkestone he didn't take notice and he didn't care if they built three hundred houses. come to think of it, that was odd. it was fine and grand to have twelve hundred a year; it was fine to go about on trams and omnibuses and think not a person aboard was as rich as oneself; it was fine to buy and order this and that and never have any work to do and to be engaged to a girl distantly related to the earl of beauprés, but yet there had been a zest in the old time out here, a rare zest in the holidays, in sunlight, on the sea beach and in the high street, that failed from these new things. he thought of those bright windows of holiday that had seemed so glorious to him in the retrospect from his apprentice days. it was strange that now, amidst his present splendours, they were glorious still! all those things were over now--perhaps that was it! something had happened to the world and the old light had been turned out. he himself was changed, and sid was changed, terribly changed, and ann no doubt was changed. he thought of her with the hair blown about her flushed cheeks as they stood together after their race.... certainly she must be changed, and all the magic she had been fraught with to the very hem of her short petticoats gone no doubt for ever. and as he thought that, or before and while he thought it, for he came to all these things in his own vague and stumbling way, he looked up, and there was ann! she was seven years older and greatly altered; yet for the moment it seemed to him that she had not changed at all. "ann!" he said, and she, with a lifting note, "it's art kipps!" then he became aware of changes--improvements. she was as pretty as she had promised to be, her blue eyes as dark as his memory of them, and with a quick, high colour, but now kipps by several inches was the taller again. she was dressed in a simple grey dress that showed her very clearly as a straight and healthy little woman, and her hat was sundayfied with pink flowers. she looked soft and warm and welcoming. her face was alight to kipps with her artless gladness at their encounter. "it's art kipps!" she said. "rather," said kipps. "you got your holidays?" it flashed upon kipps that sid had not told her of his great fortune. much regretful meditation upon sid's behaviour had convinced him that he himself was to blame for exasperating boastfulness in that affair, and this time he took care not to err in that direction. he erred in the other. "i'm taking a bit of a 'oliday," he said. "so'm i," said ann. "you been for a walk?" asked kipps. ann showed him a bunch of wayside flowers. "it's a long time since i seen you, ann. why, 'ow long must it be? seven--eight years nearly." "it don't do to count," said ann. "it don't look like it," said kipps, with the slightest emphasis. "you got a moustache," said ann, smelling her flowers and looking at him over them, not without admiration. kipps blushed.... presently they came to the bifurcation of the roads. "i'm going down this way to mother's cottage," said ann. "i'll come a bit your way if i may." in new romney social distinctions that are primary realities in folkestone are absolutely non-existent, and it seemed quite permissible for him to walk with ann, for all that she was no more than a servant. they talked with remarkable ease to one another, they slipped into a vein of intimate reminiscence in the easiest manner. in a little while kipps was amazed to find ann and himself at this: "you r'ember that half sixpence? what you cut for me?" "yes." "i got it still." she hesitated. "funny, wasn't it?" she said, and then, "you got yours, artie?" "rather," said kipps. "what do you think?" and wondered in his heart of hearts why he had never looked at that sixpence for so long. ann smiled at him frankly. "i didn't expect you'd keep it," she said. "i thought often--it was silly to keep mine. besides," she reflected, "it didn't mean anything really." she glanced at him as she spoke and met his eye. "oh, didn't it!" said kipps, a little late with his response, and realising his infidelity to helen even as he spoke. "it didn't mean much anyhow," said ann. "you still in the drapery?" "i'm living at folkestone," began kipps and decided that that sufficed. "didn't sid tell you he met me?" "no! here?" "yes. the other day. 'bout a week or more ago." "that was before i came." "ah! that was it," said kipps. "'e's got on," said ann. "got 'is own shop now, artie." "'e tole me." they found themselves outside muggett's cottages. "you going in?" said kipps. "i s'pose so," said ann. they both hung upon the pause. ann took a plunge. "d'you often come to new romney?" she said. "i ride over a bit at times," said kipps. another pause. ann held out her hand. "i'm glad i seen you," she said. extraordinary impulses arose in neglected parts of kipps' being. "ann," he said and stopped. "yes," said she, and was bright to him. they looked at one another. all and more than all of those first emotions of his adolescence had come back to him. her presence banished a multitude of countervaling considerations. it was ann more than ever. she stood breathing close to him, with her soft-looking lips a little apart and gladness in her eyes. "i'm awful glad to see you again," he said; "it brings back old times." "doesn't it?" another pause. he would have liked to have had a long talk to her, to have gone for a walk with her or something, to have drawn nearer to her in any conceivable way, and, above all, to have had some more of the appreciation that shone in her eyes, but a vestige of folkestone still clinging to him told him it "wouldn't do." "well," he said, "i must be getting on," and turned away reluctantly, with a will under compulsion.... when he looked back from the corner she was still at the gate. she was perhaps a little disconcerted by his retreat. he felt that. he hesitated for a moment, half turned, stood and suddenly did great things with his hat. that hat! the wonderful hat of our civilisation!... in another minute he was engaged in a singularly absent-minded conversation with his uncle about the usual topics. his uncle was very anxious to buy him a few upright clocks as an investment for subsequent sale. and there were also some very nice globes, one terrestrial and the other celestial, in a shop at lydd that would look well in a drawing-room and inevitably increase in value.... kipps either did or did not agree to this purchase; he was unable to recollect. the southwest wind perhaps helped him back, at any rate he found himself through dymchurch without having noticed the place. there came an odd effect as he drew near hythe. the hills on the left and the trees on the right seemed to draw together and close in upon him until his way was straight and narrow. he could not turn around on that treacherous, half-tamed machine, but he knew that behind him, he knew so well, spread the wide, vast flatness of the marsh shining under the afternoon sky. in some way this was material to his thoughts. and as he rode through hythe he came upon the idea that there was a considerable amount of incompatibility between the existence of one who was practically a gentleman and of ann. in the neighbourhood of seabrook he began to think he had, in some subtle way, lowered himself by walking along by the side of ann.... after all, she was only a servant. ann! she called out all the least gentlemanly instincts of his nature. there had been a moment in their conversation when he had quite distinctly thought it would really be an extremely nice thing for someone to kiss her lips.... there was something warming about ann--at least for kipps. she impressed him as having somewhen during their vast interval of separation contrived to make herself in some distinctive way his. fancy keeping that half sixpence all this time! it was the most flattering thing that had ever happened to kipps. § he found himself presently sitting over "the art of conversing," lost in the strangest musings. he got up, walked about, became stagnant at the window for a space, roused himself and by way of something lighter tried "sesame and lilies." from that, too, his attention wandered. he sat back. anon he smiled, anon sighed. he arose, pulled his keys from his pocket, looked at them, decided and went upstairs. he opened the little yellow box that had been the nucleus of all his possessions in the world, and took out a small "escritoire," the very humblest sort of present, and opened it--kneeling. and there, in the corner, was a little packet of paper, sealed as a last defence against any prying invader, with red sealing wax. it had gone untouched for years. he held this little packet between finger and thumb for a moment, regarding it, and then put down the escritoire and broke the seal.... as he was getting into bed that night he remembered something for the first time! "dash it!" he said. "dashed if i told 'em _this_ time.... _well!_ i shall 'ave to go over to new romney again!" he got into bed and remained sitting pensively on the pillow for a space. "it's a rum world," he reflected after a vast interval. then he recalled that she had noticed his moustache and embarked upon a sea of egotistical musings. he imagined himself telling ann how rich he was. what a surprise that would be for her! finally he sighed profoundly, blew out his candle and snuggled down, and in a little while he was asleep.... but the next morning and at intervals afterwards he found himself thinking of ann--ann, the bright, the desirable, the welcoming, and with an extraordinary streakiness he wanted quite badly to go and then as badly not to go over to new romney again. sitting on the leas in the afternoon, he had an idea. "i ought to 'ave told 'er, i suppose, about my being engaged. "ann!" all sorts of dreams and impressions that had gone clean out of his mental existence came back to him, changed and brought up to date to fit her altered presence. he thought of how he had gone back to new romney for his christmas holidays, determined to kiss her, and of the awful blankness of the discovery that she had gone away. it seemed incredible now, and yet not wholly incredible, that he had cried real tears for her--how many years was it ago? § daily i should thank my maker that he did not appoint me censor of the world of men. i should temper a fierce injustice with a spasmodic indecision that would prolong rather than mitigate the bitterness of the day. for human dignity, for all conscious human superiority i should lack the beginnings of charity, for bishops, prosperous schoolmasters, judges and all large respect-pampered souls. and more especially bishops, towards whom i bear an atavistic, viking grudge, dreaming not infrequently and with invariable zest of galleys and landings and well known living ornaments of the episcopal bench sprinting inland on twinkling gaiters before my thirsty blade--all these people, i say, should treat below their deserts, but, on the other hand, for such as kipps----. there the exasperating indecisions would come in. the judgment would be arrested at kipps. everyone and everything would wait. _you_ would wait. the balance would sway and sway, and whenever it heeled towards an adverse decision, my finger would set it swaying again. kings, warriors, statesmen, brilliant women of our first families, personalities, gallants, panting with indignation, headline humanity in general, would stand undamned, unheeded, or be damned in the most casual manner for their importunity, while my eye went about for anything possible that could be said on behalf of kipps.... albeit i fear nothing can save him from condemnation upon this present score, that within two days he was talking to ann again. one seeks excuses. overnight there had been an encounter of chitterlow and young walshingham in his presence, that had certainly warped his standards. they had called within a few minutes of each other, and the two swayed by virile attentions to old methuselah four stars, had talked against each other, over and at the hospitable presence of kipps. walshingham had seemed to win at the beginning, but finally chitterlow had made a magnificent display of vociferation and swept him out of existence. at the beginning chitterlow had opened upon the great profits of playwrights and young walshingham had capped him at once with a cynical, but impressive, display of knowledge of the high finance. if chitterlow boasted his thousands, young walshingham boasted his hundreds of thousands, and was for a space left in sole possession of the stage, juggling with the wealth of nations. he was going on by way of financial politics to the overman, before chitterlow recovered from his first check, and came back to victory. "talking of women," said chitterlow, coming in abruptly upon some things not generally known, beyond walshingham's more immediate circle, about a recently departed empire-builder; "talking of women and the way they get at a man----" [though as a matter of fact they had been talking of the corruption of society by speculation.] upon this new topic chitterlow was soon manifestly invincible. he knew so much, he had known so many. young walshingham did his best with epigrams and reservations, but even to kipps it was evident that this was a book-learned depravity. one felt walshingham had never known the inner realities of passion. but chitterlow convinced and amazed. he had run away with girls, he had been run away with by girls, he had been in love with several at a time--"not counting bessie"--he had loved and lost, he had loved and refrained, and he had loved and failed. he threw remarkable lights upon the moral state of america--in which country he had toured with great success. he set his talk to the tune of one of mr. kipling's best known songs. he told an incident of simple, romantic passion, a delirious dream of love and beauty in a saturday to monday steamboat trip up the hudson, and tagged his end with, "i learnt about women from 'er!" after that he adopted the refrain and then lapsed into the praises of kipling. "little kipling," said chitterlow, with the familiarity of affection, "_he_ knows," and broke into quotation: "i've taken my fun where i found it; i've rogued and i've ranged in my time; i've 'ad my picking of sweet'earts, an' four of the lot was prime." (these things, i say, affect the moral standards of the best of us.) "_i'd_ have liked to have written that," said chitterlow. "that's life, that is! but go and put it on the stage, put even a bit of the realities of life on the stage, and see what they'll do to you! only kipling could venture on a job like that. that poem knocked me! i don't say kipling hasn't knocked me before and since, but that was a fair knock out. and yet--you know--there's one thing in it ... this: "i've taken my fun where i've found it, and now i must pay for my fun, for the more you 'ave known o' the others, the less will you settle to one----" well. in my case anyhow--i don't know how much that proves, seeing i'm exceptional in so many things and there's no good denying it--but so far as i'm concerned--i tell you two, but of course you needn't let it go any farther--i've been perfectly faithful to muriel ever since i married her--ever since.... not once. not even by accident have i ever said or done anything in the slightest----." his little, brown eye became pensive after this flattering intimacy and the gorgeous draperies of his abundant voice fell into graver folds. "_i learnt about women from 'er_," he said impressively. "yes," said walshingham, getting into the hinder spaces of that splendid pause, "a man must know about women. and the only sound way of learning is the experimental method." "if you want to know about the experimental method, my boy," said chitterlow, resuming.... so they talked. _ex pede herculem_, as coote, that cultivated polyglot, would have put it. and in the small hours kipps went to bed, with his brain whirling with words and whiskey, and sat for an unconscionable time upon his bed edge, musing sadly upon the unmanly monogamy of soul that had cast its shadow upon his career, musing with his thoughts pointing around more and more certainly to the possibility of at least duplicity with ann. § for some days he had been refraining with some insistence from going off to new romney again.... i do not know if this may count in palliation of his misconduct. men, real strong-souled, healthy men, should be, i suppose, impervious to conversational atmospheres, but i have never claimed for kipps a place at these high levels. the unquenchable fact remains that the next day he spent the afternoon with ann and found no scruple in displaying himself a budding lover. he had met her in the high street, had stopped her, and almost on the spur of the moment had boldly proposed a walk, "for the sake of old times." "_i_ don't mind," said ann. her consent almost frightened kipps. his imagination had not carried him to that. "it would be a lark," said kipps, and looked up the street and down. "now?" he said. "i don't mind a bit, artie. i was just going for a walk along towards st. mary's." "let's go that way be'ind the church," said kipps, and presently they found themselves drifting seaward in a mood of pleasant commonplace. for a while they talked of sid. it went clean out of kipps' head at that early stage even that ann was a "girl" according to the exposition of chitterlow, and for a time he remembered only that she was ann. but afterwards, with the reek of that talk in his head, he lapsed a little from that personal relation. they came out upon the beach and sat down in a tumbled, pebbly place, where a meagre grass and patches of sea poppy were growing, and kipps reclined on his elbow and tossed pebbles in his hand, and ann sat up, sunlit, regarding him. they talked in fragments. they exhausted sid, they exhausted ann, and kipps was chary of his riches. he declined to a faint love-making. "i got that 'arf sixpence still," he said. "reely?" that changed the key. "i always kept mine, some'ow," said ann, and there was a pause. they spoke of how often they had thought of each other during those intervening years. kipps may have been untruthful, but ann perhaps was not. "i met people here and there," said ann; "but i never met anyone quite like you, artie." "it's jolly our meeting again, anyhow," said kipps. "look at that ship out there. she's pretty close in...." he had a dull period, became indeed almost pensive, and then he was enterprising for a while. he tossed up his pebbles so that as if by accident they fell on ann's hand. then, very penitently, he stroked the place. that would have led to all sorts of coquetries on the part of flo banks, for example, but it disconcerted and checked kipps to find ann made no objection, smiled pleasantly down on him, with eyes half shut because of the sun. she was taking things very much for granted. he began to talk, and chitterlow standards resuming possession of him he said he had never forgotten her. "i never forgotten you either, artie," she said. "funny, isn't it?" it impressed kipps also as funny. he became reminiscent, and suddenly a warm summer's evening came back to him. "remember them cockchafers, ann?" he said. but the reality of the evening he recalled was not the chase of cockchafers. the great reality that had suddenly arisen between them was that he had never kissed ann in his life. he looked up and there were her lips. he had wanted to very badly, and his memory leaped and annihilated an interval. that old resolution came back to him and all sorts of new resolutions passed out of mind. and he had learnt something since those boyish days. this time he did not ask. he went on talking, his nerves began very faintly to quiver and his mind grew bright. presently, having satisfied himself that there was no one to see, he sat up beside her and remarked upon the clearness of the air, and how close dungeness seemed to them. then they came upon a pause again. "ann," he whispered, and put an arm that quivered about her. she was mute and unresisting, and, as he was to remember, solemn. he turned her face towards him, and kissed her lips, and she kissed him back again--kisses frank and tender as a child's. § it was curious that in the retrospect he did not find nearly the satisfaction in this infidelity he had imagined was there. it was no doubt desperately doggish, doggish to an almost chitterlowesque degree to recline on the beach at littlestone with a "girl," to make love to her and to achieve the triumph of kissing her, when he was engaged to another "girl" at folkestone, but somehow these two people were not "girls," they were ann and helen. particularly helen declined to be considered as a "girl." and there was something in ann's quietly friendly eyes, in her frank smile, in the naïve pressure of her hand, there was something undefended and welcoming that imparted a flavour to the business upon which he had not counted. he had learnt about women from her. that refrain ran through his mind and deflected his thoughts, but as a matter of fact he had learnt about nothing but himself. he wanted very much to see ann some more and explain. he did not clearly know what it was he wanted to explain. he did not clearly know anything. it is the last achievement of the intelligence to get all of one's life into one coherent scheme, and kipps was only in a measure more aware of himself as a whole than is a tree. his existence was an affair of dissolving and recurring moods. when he thought of helen or ann or any of his friends, he thought sometimes of this aspect and sometimes of that--and often one aspect was finally incongruous with another. he loved helen, he revered helen. he was also beginning to hate her with some intensity. when he thought of that expedition to lympne, profound, vague, beautiful emotions flooded his being; when he thought of paying calls with her perforce, or of her latest comment on his bearing, he found himself rebelliously composing fierce and pungent insults, couched in the vernacular. but ann, whom he had seen so much less of, was a simpler memory. she was pretty, she was almost softly feminine, and she was possible to his imagination just exactly where helen was impossible. more than anything else, she carried the charm of respect for him, the slightest glance of her eyes was balm for his perpetually wounded self-conceit. chance suggestions it was set the tune of his thoughts, and his state of health and repletion gave the colour. yet somehow he had this at least almost clear in his mind, that to have gone to see ann a second time, to have implied that she had been in possession of his thoughts through all this interval, and, above all, to have kissed her, was shabby and wrong. only unhappily this much of lucidity had come now just a few hours after it was needed. § four days after this it was that kipps got up so late. he got up late, cut his chin while shaving, kicked a slipper into his sponge bath and said, "desh!" perhaps you know those intolerable mornings, dear reader, when you seem to have neither the heart nor the strength to rise, and your nervous adjustments are all wrong and your fingers thumbs, and you hate the very birds for singing. you feel inadequate to any demand whatever. often such awakenings follow a poor night's rest, and commonly they mean indiscriminate eating, or those subtle mental influences old kipps ascribed to "foozle ile" in the system, or worry. and with kipps--albeit chitterlow had again been his guest overnight--assuredly worry had played a leading rôle. troubles had been gathering upon him for days, there had been a sort of concentration of these hosts of midian overnight, and in the grey small hours kipps had held his review. the predominating trouble marched under this banner: mr. kipps mrs. bindon botting at home thursday, september th anagrams, to : r. s. v. p. a banner that was the fac-simile of a card upon his looking glass in the room below. and in relation to this terribly significant document things had come to a pass with helen that he could only describe in his own expressive idiom as "words." it had long been a smouldering issue between them that kipps was not availing himself with any energy or freedom of the opportunities he had of social exercises, much less was he seeking additional opportunities. he had, it was evident, a peculiar dread of that universal afternoon enjoyment, the call, and helen made it unambiguously evident that this dread was "silly" and had to be overcome. his first display of this unmanly weakness occurred at the coote's on the day before he kissed ann. they were all there, chatting very pleasantly, when the little servant with the big cap announced the younger miss wace. whereupon kipps manifested a lively horror and rose partially from his chair. "o gum!" he protested. "carn't i go upstairs?" then he sank back, for it was too late. very probably the younger miss wace had heard him as she came in. helen said nothing of that, though her manner may have shown her surprise, but afterwards she told kipps he must get used to seeing people, and suggested that he should pay a series of calls with mrs. walshingham and herself. kipps gave a reluctant assent at the time and afterwards displayed a talent for evasion that she had not suspected in him. at last she did succeed in securing him for a call upon miss punchafer, of radnor park--a particularly easy call because miss punchafer being so deaf one could say practically what one liked--and then outside the gate he shirked again. "i can't go in," he said in a faded voice. "you _must_," said helen, beautiful as ever, but even more than a little hard and forbidding. "i can't." he produced his handkerchief hastily, thrust it to his face, and regarded her over it with rounded, hostile eyes. "'possible," he said in a hoarse, strange voice out of the handkerchief. "nozzez bleedin'." but that was the end of his power of resistance, and when the rally for the anagram tea occurred she bore down his feeble protests altogether. she insisted. she said frankly, "i am going to give you a good talking to about this," and she did.... from coote he gathered something of the nature of anagrams and anagram parties. an anagram, coote explained, was a word spelt the same way as another, only differently arranged, as, for instance, t. o. c. o. e. would be an anagram for his own name, coote. "t. o. c. o. e.," repeated kipps very carefully. "or t. o. e. c. o.," said coote. "or t. o. e. c. o.," said kipps, assisting his poor head by nodding it at each letter. "toe company like," he said in his efforts to comprehend. when kipps was clear what an anagram meant, coote came to the second heading, the tea. kipps gathered there might be from thirty to sixty people present, and that each one would have an anagram pinned on. "they give you a card to put your guesses on, rather like a dance programme, and then, you know, you go around and guess," said coote. "it's rather good fun." "oo rather!" said kipps, with simulated gusto. "it shakes everybody up together," said coote. kipps smiled and nodded.... in the small hours all his painful meditations were threaded by the vision of that anagram tea; it kept marching to and fro and in and out of all his other troubles, from thirty to sixty people, mostly ladies and callers, and a great number of the letters of the alphabet, and more particularly p. i. k. p. s. and t. o. e. c. o., and he was trying to make one word out of the whole interminable procession.... this word, as he finally gave it with some emphasis to the silence of the night, was _"demn!"_ then, wreathed as it were in this lettered procession, was the figure of helen as she had appeared at the moment of "words"; her face a little hard, a little irritated, a little disappointed. he imagined himself going around and guessing under her eye.... he tried to think of other things, without lapsing upon a still deeper uneasiness that was wreathed with yellow sea poppies, and the figures of buggins, pierce and carshot, three murdered friendships, rose reproachfully in the stillness and changed horrible apprehensions into unspeakable remorse. last night had been their customary night for the banjo, and kipps, with a certain tremulous uncertainty, had put old methuselah amidst a retinue of glasses on the table and opened a box of choice cigars. in vain. they were in no need, it seemed, of _his_ society. but instead chitterlow had come, anxious to know if it was all right about that syndicate plan. he had declined anything but a very weak whiskey and soda, "just to drink," at least until business was settled, and had then opened the whole affair with an effect of great orderliness to kipps. soon he was taking another whiskey by sheer inadvertency, and the complex fabric of his conversation was running more easily from the broad loom of his mind. into that pattern had interwoven a narrative of extensive alterations in the pestered butterfly--the neck and beetle business was to be restored--the story of a grave difference of opinion with mrs. chitterlow, where and how to live after the play had succeeded, the reasons why the hon. thomas norgate had never financed a syndicate, and much matter also about the syndicate now under discussion. but if the current of their conversation had been vortical and crowded, the outcome was perfectly clear. kipps was to be the chief participator in the syndicate, and his contribution was to be two thousand pounds. kipps groaned and rolled over and found helen, as it were, on the other side. "promise me," she had said, "you won't do anything without consulting me." kipps at once rolled back to his former position, and for a space lay quite still. he felt like a very young rabbit in a trap. then suddenly, with extraordinary distinctness, his heart cried out for ann, and he saw her as he had seen her at new romney, sitting amidst the yellow sea poppies with the sunlight on her face. his heart called out for her in the darkness as one calls for rescue. he knew, as though he had known it always, that he loved helen no more. he wanted ann, he wanted to hold her and be held by her, to kiss her again and again, to turn his back forever on all these other things.... he rose late, but this terrible discovery was still there, undispelled by cockcrow or the day. he rose in a shattered condition, and he cut himself while shaving, but at last he got into his dining-room and could pull the bell for the hot constituents of his multifarious breakfast. and then he turned to his letters. there were two real letters in addition to the customary electric belt advertisement, continental lottery circular and betting tout's card. one was in a slight mourning envelope and addressed in an unfamiliar hand. this he opened first and discovered a note: mrs. raymond wace requests the pleasure of mr. kipps' company at dinner on tuesday, september st, at o'clock with a hasty movement kipps turned his mind to the second letter. it was an unusually long one from his uncle, and ran as follows: "my dear nephew: "we are considerably startled by your letter though expecting something of the sort and disposed to hope for the best. if the young lady is a relation to the earl of beauprés well and good but take care you are not being imposed upon for there are many who will be glad enough to snap you up now your circumstances are altered--i waited on the old earl once while in service and he was remarkably close with his tips and suffered from corns. a hasty old gent and hard to please--i daresay he has forgotten me altogether--and anyhow there is no need to rake up bygones. to-morrow is bus day and as you say the young lady is living near by we shall shut up shop for there is really nothing doing now what with all the visitors bringing everything with them down to their very children's pails and say how de do to her and give her a bit of a kiss and encouragement if we think her suitable--she will be pleased to see your old uncle--we wish we could have had a look at her first but still there is not much mischief done and hoping that all will turn out well yet i am "your affectionate uncle "edward george kipps. "my heartburn still very bad. i shall bring over a few bits of rhubub i picked up, a sort you won't get in folkestone and if possible a good bunch of flowers for the young lady." "comin' over to-day," said kipps, standing helplessly with the letter in his hand. "'ow, the juice----? "i carn't. "kiss 'er!" "i carn't even face 'er----!" a terrible anticipation of that gathering framed itself in his mind--a hideous, impossible disaster. his voice went up to a note of despair, "and it's too late to telegrarf and stop 'em!" about twenty minutes after this, an outporter in castle hill avenue was accosted by a young man, with a pale, desperate face, an exquisitely rolled umbrella and a heavy gladstone bag. "carry this to the station, will you?" said the young man. "i want to ketch the nex' train to london.... you'll 'ave to look sharp--i 'aven't very much time." chapter vii london § london was kipps' third world. there were no doubt other worlds, but kipps knew only these three; firstly, new romney and the emporium, constituting his primary world, his world of origin, which also contained ann; secondly, the world of culture and refinement, the world of which coote was chaperon, and into which kipps was presently to marry, a world it was fast becoming evident absolutely incompatible with the first, and, thirdly, a world still to a large extent unexplored, london. london presented itself as a place of great, grey spaces and incredible multitudes of people, centring about charing cross station and the royal grand hotel, and containing at unexpected arbitrary points shops of the most amazing sort, statuary, squares, restaurants--where it was possible for clever people like walshingham to order a lunch item by item, to the waiters' evident respect and sympathy--exhibitions of incredible things--the walshinghams had taken him to the arts and crafts and to a picture gallery--and theatres. london, moreover, is rendered habitable by hansom cabs. young walshingham was a natural cab taker, he was an all-round large minded young man, and he had in the course of their two days' stay taken kipps into no less than nine, so that kipps was singularly not afraid of these vehicles. he knew that whereever you were, so soon as you were thoroughly lost you said "hi!" to a cab, and then "royal grand hotel." day and night these trusty conveyances are returning the strayed londoner back to his point of departure, and were it not for their activity in a little while the whole population, so vast and incomprehensible is the intricate complexity of this great city, would be hopelessly lost forever. at any rate, that is how the thing presented itself to kipps, and i have heard much the same from visitors from america. his train was composed of corridor carriages, and he forgot his trouble for a time in the wonders of this modern substitute for railway compartments. he went from the non-smoking to the smoking carriage and smoked a cigarette, and strayed from his second-class carriage to a first and back. but presently black care got aboard the train and came and sat beside him. the exhilaration of escape had evaporated now, and he was presented with a terrible picture of his aunt and uncle arriving at his lodgings and finding him fled. he had left a hasty message that he was called away suddenly on business, "ver' important business," and they were to be sumptuously entertained. his immediate motive had been his passionate dread of an encounter between these excellent but unrefined old people and the walshinghams, but now that end was secured, he could see how thwarted and exasperated they would be. how to explain to them? he ought never to have written to tell them! he ought to have got married and told them afterwards. he ought to have consulted helen. "promise me," she had said. "oh, _desh_!" said kipps, and got up and walked back into the smoking car and began to consume cigarettes. suppose, after all, they found out the walshingham's address and went there! at charing cross, however, there were distractions again. he took a cab in an entirely walshingham manner, and was pleased to note the enhanced respect of the cabman when he mentioned the royal grand. he followed walshingham's routine on their previous visit with perfect success. they were very nice in the office, and gave him an excellent room at fourteen shillings the night. he went up and spent a considerable time in examining the furniture of his room, scrutinising himself in its various mirrors and sitting on the edge of the bed whistling. it was a vast and splendid apartment, and cheap at fourteen shillings. but, finding the figure of ann inclined to resume possession of his mind, he roused himself and descended by the staircase after a momentary hesitation before the lift. he had thought of lunch, but he drifted into the great drawing-room and read a guide to the hotels of europe for a space, until a doubt whether he was entitled to use this palatial apartment without extra charge arose in his mind. he would have liked something to eat very much now, but his inbred terror of the table was very strong. he did at last get by a porter in uniform towards the dining-room, but at the sight of a number of waiters and tables, with remarkable complications of knives and glasses, terror seized him, and he backed out again, with a mumbled remark to the waiter in the doorway about this not being the way. he hovered in the hall and lounge until he thought the presiding porter regarded him with suspicion, and then went up to his room again by the staircase, got his hat and umbrella and struck boldly across the courtyard. he would go to a restaurant instead. he had a moment of elation in the gateway. he felt all the strand must notice him as he emerged through the great gate of the hotel. "one of these here rich swells," they would say. "don't they do it just!" a cabman touched his hat. "no fear," said kipps, pleasantly. then he remembered he was hungry again. yet he decided he was in no great hurry for lunch, in spite of an internal protest, and turned eastward along the strand in a leisurely manner. he tried to find a place to suit him soon enough. he tried to remember the sort of things walshingham had ordered. before all things he didn't want to go into a place and look like a fool. some of these places rook you dreadful, besides making fun of you. there was a place near essex street where there was a window brightly full of chops, tomatoes and lettuce. he stopped at this and reflected for a time, and then it occurred to him that you were expected to buy these things raw and cook them at home. anyhow, there was sufficient doubt in the matter to stop him. he drifted on to a neat window with champagne bottles, a dish of asparagus and a framed menu of a two shilling lunch. he was about to enter, when fortunately he perceived two waiters looking at him over the back screen of the window with a most ironical expression, and he sheered off at once. there was a wonderful smell of hot food half way down fleet street and a nice looking tavern with several doors, but he could not decide which door. his nerve was going under the strain. he hesitated at farringdon street and drifted up to st. paul's and round the church yard, full chiefly of dead bargains in the shop windows, to cheapside. but now kipps was getting demoralised, and each house of refreshment seemed to promise still more complicated obstacles to food. he didn't know how you went in and what was the correct thing to do with your hat, he didn't know what you said to the waiter or what you called the different things; he was convinced absolutely he would "fumble," as shalford would have said, and look like a fool. somebody might laugh at him! the hungrier he got the more unendurable was the thought that anyone should laugh at him. for a time he considered an extraordinary expedient to account for his ignorance. he would go in and pretend to be a foreigner and not know english. then they might understand.... presently he had drifted into a part of london where there did not seem to be any refreshment places at all. "oh, _desh_!" said kipps, in a sort of agony of indecisiveness. "the very nex' place i see, in i go." the next place was a fried fish shop in a little side street, where there were also sausages on a gas-lit grill. he would have gone in, but suddenly a new scruple came to him, that he was too well dressed for the company he could see dimly through the steam sitting at the counter and eating with a sort of nonchalant speed. § he was half minded to resort to a hansom and brave the terrors of the dining-room of the royal grand--they wouldn't know why he had gone out really--when the only person he knew in london appeared (as the only person one does know will do in london) and slapped him on the shoulder. kipps was hovering at a window at a few yards from the fish shop, pretending to examine some really strikingly cheap pink baby linen, and trying to settle finally about those sausages. "hullo, kipps!" cried sid; "spending the millions?" kipps turned, and was glad to perceive no lingering vestige of the chagrin that had been so painful at new romney. sid looked grave and important, and he wore a quite new silk hat that gave a commercial touch to a generally socialistic costume. for a moment the sight of sid uplifted kipps wonderfully. he saw him as a friend and helper, and only presently did it come clearly into his mind that this was the brother of ann. he made amiable noises. "i've just been up this way," sid explained, "buying a second-hand 'namelling stove.... i'm going to 'namel myself." "lor'!" said kipps. "yes. do me a lot of good. let the customer choose his colour. see? what brings _you_ up?" kipps had a momentary vision of his foiled uncle and aunt. "jest a bit of a change," he said. sid came to a swift decision. "come down to my little show. i got someone i'd like to see talking to you." even then kipps did not think of ann in this connection. "well," he said, trying to invent an excuse on the spur of the moment. "fact is," he explained, "i was jest looking 'round to get a bit of lunch." "dinner, we call it," said sid. "but that's all right. you can't get anything to eat hereabout. if you're not too haughty to do a bit of slumming, there's some mutton spoiling for me now----" the word "mutton" affected kipps greatly. "it won't take us 'arf an hour," said sid, and kipps was carried. he discovered another means of london locomotion in the underground railway, and recovered his self-possession in that interest. "you don't mind going third?" asked sid, and kipps said, "nort a _bit_ of it." they were silent in the train for a time, on account of strangers in the carriage, and then sid began to explain who it was that he wanted kipps to meet. "it's a chap named masterman--do you no end of good. "he occupies our first floor front room, you know. it isn't so much for gain i let as company. we don't _want_ the whole 'ouse, and another, i knew the man before. met him at our sociological, and after a bit he said he wasn't comfortable where he was. that's how it came about. he's a first-class chap--first-class. science! you should see his books! "properly he's a sort of journalist. he's written a lot of things, but he's been too ill lately to do very much. poetry he's written, all sorts. he writes for the _commonweal_ sometimes, and sometimes he reviews books. 'e's got 'eaps of books--'eaps. besides selling a lot. "he knows a regular lot of people, and all sorts of things. he's been a dentist, and he's a qualified chemist, an' i seen him often reading german and french. taught 'imself. he was here----" sid indicated south kensington, which had come opportunely outside the carriage windows, with a nod of his head, "--three years. studying science. but you'll see 'im. when he really gets to talking--he _pours_ it out." "ah!" said kipps, nodding sympathetically, with his two hands on his umbrella knob. "he'll do big things some day," said sid. "he's written a book on science already. 'physiography,' it's called. 'elementary physiography'! some day he'll write an advanced--when he gets time." he let this soak into kipps. "i can't introduce you to lords and swells," he went on, "but i _can_ show you a famous man, that's going to be. i _can_ do that. leastways--unless----" sid hesitated. "he's got a frightful cough," he said. "he won't care to talk with me," weighed kipps. "that's all right; _he_ won't mind. he's fond of talking. he'd talk to anyone," said sid, reassuringly, and added a perplexing bit of londonized latin. "he doesn't _pute_ anything, _non alienum_. you know." "_i_ know," said kipps, intelligently, over his umbrella knob, though of course that was altogether untrue. § kipps found sid's shop a practical looking establishment, stocked with the most remarkable collection of bicycles and pieces of bicycle that he had ever beheld. "my hiring stock," said sid, with a wave to this ironmongery, "and there's the best machine at a democratic price in london, the red-flag, built by _me_. see?" he indicated a graceful, grey-brown framework in the window. "and there's my stock of accessories--store prices. "go in for motors a bit," added sid. "mutton?" said kipps, not hearing him distinctly. "motors, i _said_.... 'owever, mutton department 'ere," and he opened a door that had a curtain guarded window in its upper panel, to reveal a little room with red walls and green furniture, with a white clothed table and the generous promise of a meal. "fanny!" he shouted. "here's art kipps." a bright-eyed young woman of five or six and twenty in a pink print appeared, a little flushed from cooking, and wiped a hand on an apron and shook hands and smiled, and said it would all be ready in a minute. she went on to say she had heard of kipps and his luck, and meanwhile sid vanished to draw the beer, and returned with two glasses for himself and kipps. "drink that," said sid, and kipps felt all the better for it. "i give mr. masterman _'is_ upstairs a hour ago," said mrs. sid. "i didn't think 'e ought to wait." a rapid succession of brisk movements on the part of everyone, and they were all four at dinner--the fourth person being master walt whitman pornick, a cheerful young gentleman of one and a half, who was given a spoon to hammer on the table with to keep him quiet, and who got "kipps" right at the first effort and kept it all through the meal, combining it first with this previous acquisition, and then that. "peacock kipps" said master walt, at which there was great laughter, and also "more mutton, kipps." "he's a regular oner," said mrs. sid, "for catching up words. you can't say a word but what 'e's on to it." there were no serviettes and less ceremony, and kipps thought he had never enjoyed a meal so much. everyone was a little excited by the meeting and chatting, and disposed to laugh, and things went off easily from the very beginning. if there was a pause master walt filled it in. mrs. sid, who tempered her enormous admiration for sid's intellect and his socialism and his severe business methods by a motherly sense of her sex and seniority, spoke of them both as "you boys," and dilated--when she was not urging kipps to have some more of this or that--on the disparity between herself and her husband. "shouldn't ha' thought there was a year between you," said kipps; "you seem jest a match." "_i'm his_ match, anyhow," said mrs. sid, and no epigram of young walshingham's was ever better received. "match," said young walt, coming in on the trail of the joke and getting a round for himself. any sense of superior fortune had long vanished from kipps' mind, and he found himself looking at host and hostess with enormous respect. really, old sid was a wonderful chap, here in his own house at two and twenty, carving his own mutton and lording it over wife and child. no legacies needed by him! and mrs. sid, so kind and bright and hearty! and the child, old sid's child! old sid had jumped round a bit. it needed the sense of his fortune at the back of his mind to keep kipps from feeling abject. he resolved he'd buy young walt something tremendous in toys at the first opportunity. "drop more beer, art?" "right you are, old man." "cut mr. kipps a bit more bread, sid." "can't i pass _you_ a bit?" sid was all right, sid was, and there was no mistake about that. it was growing up in his mind that sid was the brother of ann, but he said nothing about her for excellent reasons. after all, because he remembered sid's irritation at her name when they had met in new romney seemed to show a certain separation. they didn't tell each other much.... he didn't know how things might be between ann and sid, either. still, for all that, sid was ann's brother. the furniture of the room did not assert itself very much above the cheerful business at the table, but kipps was impressed with the idea that it was pretty. there was a dresser at the end with a number of gay plates and a mug or so, a labour day poster, by walter crane, on the wall, and through the glass and over the blind of the shop door one had a glimpse of the bright coloured advertisement cards of bicycle dealers, and a shelfful of boxes labelled, the paragon bell, the scarum bell, and the patent omi! horn.... it seemed incredible that he had been in folkestone that morning, and even now his aunt and uncle----! brrr. it didn't do to think of his aunt and uncle. § when sid repeated his invitation to come and see masterman, kipps, now flushed with beer and irish stew, said he didn't mind if he did, and after a preliminary shout from sid that was answered by a voice and a cough, the two went upstairs. "masterman's a rare one," said sid over his arm and in an undertone. "you should hear him speak at a meeting.... if he's in form, that is." he rapped and went into a large, untidy room. "this is kipps," he said. "you know. the chap i told you of. with twelve 'undred a year." masterman sat gnawing at an empty pipe and as close to the fire as though it was alight and the season midwinter. kipps concentrated upon him for a space, and only later took in something of the frowsy furniture, the little bed half behind, and evidently supposed to be wholly behind, a careless screen, the spittoon by the fender, the remains of a dinner on the chest of drawers and the scattered books and papers. masterman's face showed him a man of forty or more, with curious hollows at the side of his forehead and about his eyes. his eyes were very bright; there was a spot of red in his cheeks, and the wiry black moustache under his short, red nose had been trimmed with scissors into a sort of brush along his upper lip. his teeth were darkened ruins. his jacket collar was turned up about a knitted white neck wrap, and his sleeves betrayed no cuffs. he did not rise to greet kipps, but held out a thin wristed hand and pointed with the other to a bedroom arm chair. "glad to see you," he said. "sit down and make yourself at home. will you smoke?" kipps said he would, and produced his store. he was about to take one, and then, with a civil afterthought, handed the packet first to masterman and sid. masterman pretended surprise to find his pipe out before he took one. there was an interlude of matches. sid pushed the end of the screen out of his way, sat down on the bed thus frankly admitted, and prepared, with a certain quiet satisfaction of manner, to witness masterman's treatment of kipps. "and how does it feel to have twelve hundred a year?" asked masterman, holding his cigarette to his nose tip in a curious manner. "it's rum," confided kipps, after a reflective interval. "it feels juiced rum." "i never felt it," said masterman. "it takes a bit of getting into," said kipps. "i can tell you that." masterman smoked and regarded kipps with curious eyes. "i expect it does," he said presently. "and has it made you perfectly happy?" he asked, abruptly. "i couldn't 'ardly say _that_," said kipps. masterman smiled. "no," he said. "has it made you much happier?" "it did at first." "yes. but you got used to it. how long, for example, did the real delirious excitement last?" "oo, _that_! perhaps a week," said kipps. masterman nodded his head. "that's what discourages _me_ from amassing wealth," he said to sid. "you adjust yourself. it doesn't last. i've always had an inkling of that, and it's interesting to get it confirmed. i shall go on sponging for a bit longer on _you_, i think." "you don't," said sid. "no fear." "twenty-four thousand pounds," said masterman, and blew a cloud of smoke. "lord! doesn't it worry you?" "it is a bit worrying at times.... things 'appen." "going to marry?" "yes." "h'm. lady, i guess, of a superior social position?" "rather," said kipps. "cousin to the earl of beauprés." masterman readjusted his long body with an air of having accumulated all the facts he needed. he snuggled his shoulder-blades down into the chair and raised his angular knees. "i doubt," he said, flicking cigarette ash into the atmosphere, "if any great gain or loss of money does--as things are at present--make more than the slightest difference in one's happiness. it ought to--if money was what it ought to be, the token for given service; one ought to get an increase in power and happiness for every pound one got. but the plain fact is the times are out of joint, and money--money, like everything else, is a deception and a disappointment." he turned his face to kipps and enforced his next words with the index finger of his lean, lank hand. "if i thought otherwise," he said, "i should exert _myself_ to get some. but, if one sees things clearly, one is so discouraged. so confoundedly discouraged.... when you first got your money, you thought that it meant you might buy just anything you fancied?" "i was a bit that way," said kipps. "and you found that you couldn't. you found that for all sorts of things it was a question of where to buy and how to buy, and what you didn't know how to buy with your money, straight away this world planted something else upon you----" "i got rather done over a banjo first day," said kipps. "leastways, my uncle says." "exactly," said masterman. sid began to speak from the bed. "that's all very well, masterman," he said, "but, after all, money is power, you know. you can do all sorts of things----" "i'm talking of happiness," said masterman. "you can do all sorts of things with a loaded gun in the hammersmith broadway, but nothing--practically--that will make you or any one else very happy. nothing. power's a different matter altogether. as for happiness, you want a world in order before money or property, or any of those things that have any real value, and this world, i tell you, is hopelessly out of joint. man is a social animal with a mind nowadays that goes around the globe, and a community cannot be happy in one part and unhappy in another. it's all or nothing, no patching any more for ever. it is the standing mistake of the world not to understand that. consequently people think there is a class or order somewhere, just above them or just below them, or a country or place somewhere, that is really safe and happy. the fact is, society is one body, and it is either well or ill. that's the law. this society we live in is ill. it's a fractious, feverish invalid, gouty, greedy and ill-nourished. you can't have a happy left leg with neuralgia, or a happy throat with a broken leg. that's my position, and that's the knowledge you'll come to. i'm so satisfied of it that i sit here and wait for my end quite calmly, sure that i can't better things by bothering--in my time, and so far as i am concerned, that is. i'm not even greedy any more--my egotism's at the bottom of a pond, with a philosophical brick around its neck. the world is ill, my time is short and my strength is small. i'm as happy here as anywhere." he coughed and was silent for a moment, then brought the index finger around to kipps again. "you've had the opportunity of sampling two grades of society, and you don't find the new people you're among much better or any happier than the old?" "no," said kipps, reflectively. "no. i 'aven't seen it quite like that before, but----. no. they're not." "and you might go all up the scale and down the scale and find the same thing. man's a gregarious beast, a gregarious beast, and no money will buy you out of your own time--any more than out of your own skill. all the way up and all the way down the scale there's the same discontent. no one is quite sure where they stand, and everyone's fretting. the herd's uneasy and feverish. all the old tradition goes or has gone, and there's no one to make a new tradition. where are your nobles now? where are your gentlemen? they vanished directly the peasant found out he wasn't happy and ceased to be a peasant. there's big men and little men mixed up together, that's all. none of us know where we are. your cads in a bank holiday train and your cads on a two thousand pound motor; except for a difference in scale, there's not a pin to choose between them. your smart society is as low and vulgar and uncomfortable for a balanced soul as a gin palace, no more and no less; there's no place or level of honour or fine living left in the world; so what's the good of climbing?" "'ear, 'ear," said sid. "it's true," said kipps. "_i_ don't climb," said masterman, and accepted kipps' silent offer of another cigarette. "no," he said. "this world is out of joint. it's broken up, and i doubt if it will heal. i doubt very much if it'll heal. we're in the beginning of the sickness of the world." he rolled his cigarette in his lean fingers and repeated with satisfaction: "the sickness of the world." "it's we've got to make it better," said sid, and looked at kipps. "ah, sid's an optimist," said masterman. "so are you, most times," said sid. kipps lit another cigarette with an air of intelligent participation. "frankly," said masterman, recrossing his legs and expelling a jet of smoke luxuriously, "frankly, i think this civilisation of ours is on the topple." "there's socialism," said sid. "there's no imagination to make use of it." "we've got to _make_ one," said sid. "in a couple of centuries perhaps," said masterman. "but meanwhile we're going to have a pretty acute attack of confusion. universal confusion. like one of those crushes when men are killed and maimed for no reason at all, going into a meeting or crowding for a train. commercial and industrial stresses. political exploitation. tariff wars. revolutions. all the bloodshed that will come of some fools calling half the white world yellow. these things alter the attitude of everybody to everybody. everybody's going to feel 'em. every fool in the world panting and shoving. _we're_ all going to be as happy and comfortable as a household during a removal. what else can we expect?" kipps was moved to speak, but not in answer to masterman's enquiry. "i've never rightly got the 'eng of this socialism," he said. "what's it going to do, like?" they had been imagining that he had some elementary idea in the matter, but as soon as he had made it clear that he hadn't, sid plunged at exposition, and in a little while masterman, abandoning his pose of the detached man ready to die, joined in. at first he joined in only to correct sid's version, but afterwards he took control. his manner changed. he sat up and rested his elbow on his knees, and his cheek flushed a little. he expanded his case against property and the property class with such vigour that kipps was completely carried away, and never thought of asking for a clear vision of the thing that would fill the void this abolition might create. for a time he quite forgot his own private opulence. and it was as if something had been lit in masterman. his languor passed. he enforced his words by gestures of his long, thin hands. and as he passed swiftly from point to point of his argument it was evident he grew angry. "to-day," he said, "the world is ruled by rich men; they may do almost anything they like with the world. and what are they doing? laying it waste!" "hear, hear!" said sid, very sternly. masterman stood up, gaunt and long, thrust his hands in his pockets and turned his back to the fireplace. "collectively, the rich to-day have neither heart nor imagination. no! they own machinery, they have knowledge and instruments and powers beyond all previous dreaming, and what are they doing with them? think what they are doing with them, kipps, and think what they might do. god gives them a power like the motor car, and all they can do with it is to go careering about the roads in goggled masks killing children and making machinery hateful to the soul of man! ("true," said sid, "true.") god gives them means of communication, power unparalleled of every sort, time and absolute liberty! they waste it all in folly! here under their feet (and kipps' eyes followed the direction of a lean index finger to the hearthrug) under their accursed wheels, the great mass of men festers and breeds in darkness, darkness those others make by standing in the light. the darkness breeds and breeds. it knows no better.... unless you can crawl or pander or rob you must stay in the stew you are born in. and those rich beasts above claw and clutch as though they had nothing! they grudge us our schools, they grudge us a gleam of light and air, they cheat us and then seek to forget us.... there is no rule, no guidance, only accidents and happy flukes.... our multitudes of poverty increase, and this crew of rulers makes no provision, foresees nothing, anticipates nothing...." he paused and made a step, and stood over kipps in a white heat of anger. kipps nodded in a non-commital manner and looked hard and rather gloomily at his host's slipper as he talked. "it isn't as though they had something to show for the waste they make of us, kipps. they haven't. they are ugly and cowardly and mean. look at their women! painted, dyed and drugged, hiding their ugly shapes under a load of dress! there isn't a woman in the swim of society at the present time, wouldn't sell herself, body and soul, who wouldn't lick the boots of a jew or marry a nigger, rather than live decently on a hundred a year! on what would be wealth for you and me! they know it. they know we know it.... no one believes in them. no one believes in nobility any more. nobody believes in kingship any more. nobody believes there is justice in the law.... but people have habits, people go on in the old grooves, as long as there's work, as long as there's weekly money.... it won't last, kipps." he coughed and paused. "wait for the lean years," he cried. "wait for the lean years." and suddenly he fell into a struggle with his cough and spat a gout of blood. "it's nothing," he said to kipps' note of startled horror. he went on talking, and the protests of his cough interlaced with his words, and sid beamed in an ecstasy of painful admiration. "look at the fraud they have let life become, the miserable mockery of the hope of one's youth. what have _i_ had? i found myself at thirteen being forced into a factory like a rabbit into a chloroformed box. thirteen!--when _their_ children are babies. but even a child of that age could see what it meant, that hell of a factory! monotony and toil and contempt and dishonour! and then death. so i fought--at thirteen!" minton's "crawling up a drain pipe until you die" echoed in kipps' mind, but masterman, instead of minton's growl, spoke in a high, indignant tenor. "i got out at last--somehow," he said, quietly, suddenly plumping back in his chair. he went on after a pause. "for a bit. some of us get out by luck, some by cunning, and crawl on to the grass, exhausted and crippled to die. that's a poor man's success, kipps. most of us don't get out at all. i worked all day and studied half the night, and here i am with the common consequences. beaten! and never once have i had a fair chance, never once!" his lean, clenched fist flew out in a gust of tremulous anger. "these skunks shut up all the university scholarships at nineteen for fear of men like me. and then--do _nothin'_.... we're wasted for nothing. by the time i'd learnt something the doors were locked. i thought knowledge would do it--i did think that! i've fought for knowledge as other men fight for bread. i've starved for knowledge. i've turned my back on women; i've done even that. i've burst my accursed lung...." his voice rose with impotent anger. "i'm a better man than any ten princes alive! and i'm beaten and wasted. i've been crushed, trampled and defiled by a drove of hogs. i'm no use to myself or the world. i've thrown my life away to make myself too good for use in this huckster's scramble. if i had gone in for business, if i had gone in for plotting to cheat my fellow men--ah, well! it's too late. it's too late for that, anyhow. it's too late for anything now! and i couldn't have done it.... and over in new york now there's a pet of society making a corner in wheat! "by god!" he cried hoarsely, with a clutch of the lean hand. "by god! if i had his throat! even now i might do something for the world." he glared at kipps, his face flushed deep, his sunken eyes glowing with passion, and then suddenly he changed altogether. there was a sound of tea things rattling upon a tray outside the door, and sid rose to open it. "all of which amounts to this," said masterman, suddenly quiet and again talking against time. "the world is out of joint, and there isn't a soul alive who isn't half waste or more. you'll find it the same with you in the end, wherever your luck may take you.... i suppose you won't mind my having another cigarette?" he took kipps' cigarette with a hand that trembled so violently it almost missed its object, and stood up, with something of guilt in his manner as mrs. sid came into the room. her eye met his and marked the flush upon his face. "been talking socialism?" said mrs. sid, a little severely. § six o'clock that day found kipps drifting eastward along the southward margin of rotten row. you figure him a small, respectably attired figure going slowly through a sometimes immensely difficult and always immense world. at times he becomes pensive and whistles softly. at times he looks about him. there are a few riders in the row, a carriage flashes by every now and then along the roadway, and among the great rhododendrons and laurels and upon the greensward there are a few groups and isolated people dressed in the style kipps adopted to call upon the walshinghams when first he was engaged. amid the complicated confusion of kipps' mind was a regret that he had not worn his other things.... presently he perceived that he would like to sit down; a green chair tempted him. he hesitated at it, took possession of it, and leant back and crossed one leg over the other. he rubbed his under lip with his umbrella handle and reflected upon masterman and his denunciation of the world. "bit orf 'is 'ead, poor chap," said kipps, and added: "i wonder." he thought intently for a space. "i wonder what he meant by the lean years?" the world seemed a very solid and prosperous concern just here, and well out of reach of masterman's dying clutch. and yet---- it was curious he should have been reminded of minton. his mind turned to a far more important matter. just at the end sid had said to him, "seen ann?" and as he was about to answer, "you'll see a bit more of her now. she's got a place in folkestone." it had brought him back from any concern about the world being out of joint or anything of that sort. ann! one might run against her any day. he tugged at his little moustache. he would like to run against ann very much.... "and it would be juiced awkward if i did!" in folkestone! it was a jolly sight too close.... then, at the thought that he might run against ann in his beautiful evening dress on the way to the band, he fluttered into a momentary dream, that jumped abruptly into a nightmare. suppose he met her when he was out with helen! "oh, lor'!" said kipps. life had developed a new complication that would go on and go on. for some time he wished with the utmost fervour that he had not kissed ann, that he had not gone to new romney the second time. he marvelled at his amazing forgetfulness of helen on that occasion. helen took possession of his mind. he would have to write to helen, an easy, off-hand letter, to say that he had come to london for a day or so. he tried to imagine her reading it. he would write just such another letter to the old people, and say he had had to come up on business. that might do for _them_ all right, but helen was different. she would insist on explanations. he wished he could never go back to folkestone again. that would settle the whole affair. a passing group attracted his attention, two faultlessly dressed gentlemen and a radiantly expensive lady. they were talking, no doubt, very brilliantly. his eyes followed them. the lady tapped the arm of the left hand gentleman with a daintily tinted glove. swells! no end.... his soul looked out upon life in general as a very small nestling might peep out of its nest. what an extraordinary thing life was, to be sure, and what a remarkable variety of people there were in it! he lit a cigarette and speculated upon that receding group of three, and blew smoke and watched them. they seemed to do it all right. probably they all had incomes of very much over twelve hundred a year. perhaps not. probably none of them suspected, as they went past, that he, too, was a gentleman of independent means, dressed, as he was, without distinction. of course things were easier for them. they were brought up always to dress well and do the right thing from their very earliest years; they started clear of all his perplexities; they had never got mixed up with all sorts of different people who didn't go together. if, for example, that lady there got engaged to that gentleman, she would be quite safe from any encounter from a corpulent, osculatory uncle, or chitterlow, or the dangerously insignificant eye of pierce. his thoughts came round to helen. when they were married and cuyps, or cuyp--coote had failed to justify his "s"--and in that west end flat and shaken free of all these low class associations, would he and she parade here of an afternoon dressed like that? it would be rather fine to do so. if one's dress was all right. helen! she was difficult to understand at times. he blew extensive clouds of cigarette smoke. there would be teas, there would be dinners, there would be calls. of course he would get into the way of it. but anagrams were a bit stiff to begin with! it was beastly confusing at first to know when to use your fork at dinner, and all that. still---- he felt an extraordinary doubt whether he would get into the way of it. he was interested for a space by a girl and groom on horseback, and then he came back to his personal preoccupations. he would have to write to helen. what could he say to explain his absence from the anagram tea? she had been pretty clear she wanted him to come. he recalled her resolute face without any great tenderness. he _knew_ he would look like a silly ass at that confounded tea! suppose he shirked it and went back in time for the dinner! dinners were beastly difficult, too, but not as bad as anagrams. the very first thing that might happen when he got back to folkestone would be to run against ann. suppose, after all, he did meet ann when he was with helen! what queer encounters were possible in the world! thank goodness, they were going to live in london! but that brought him around to chitterlow. the chitterlows were coming to london, too. if they didn't get money they'd come after it; they weren't the sort of people to be choked off easily, and if they did they'd come to london to produce their play. he tried to imagine some seemly social occasion invaded by chitterlow and his rhetoric, by his torrential thunder of self-assertion, the whole company flattened thereunder like wheat under a hurricane. confound and hang chitterlow! yet, somehow, somewhen, one would have to settle accounts with him! and there was sid! sid was ann's brother. he realised with sudden horror the social indiscretion of accepting sid's invitation to dinner. sid wasn't the sort of chap one could snub or cut, and besides--ann's brother! he didn't want to cut him. it would be worse than cutting buggins and pierce--a sight worse. and after that lunch! it would be the next thing to cutting ann herself. and even as to ann! suppose he was with helen or coote!... "oh, blow!" he said, at last, and then, viciously, "_blow!_" and so rose and flung away his cigarette end, and pursued his reluctant, dubiating way towards the really quite uncongenial splendours of the royal grand.... and it is vulgarly imagined that to have money is to have no troubles at all! § kipps endured splendour at the royal grand hotel for three nights and days, and then he retreated in disorder. the royal grand defeated and overcame and routed kipps, not of intention, but by sheer royal grandeur, grandeur combined with an organisation for his comfort carried to excess. on his return he came upon a difficulty; he had lost his circular piece of cardboard with the number of his room, and he drifted about the hall and passages in a state of perplexity for some time, until he thought all the porters and officials in gold lace caps must be watching him and jesting to one another about him. finally, in a quiet corner, down below the hairdresser's shop, he found a kindly looking personage in bottle green, to whom he broached his difficulty. "i say," he said, with a pleasant smile, "i can't find my room nohow." the personage in bottle green, instead of laughing in a nasty way, as he might well have done, became extremely helpful, showed kipps what to do, got his key, and conducted him by lift and passage to his chamber. kipps tipped him half a crown. safe in his room, kipps pulled himself together for dinner. he had learnt enough from young walshingham to bring his dress clothes, and now he began to assume them. unfortunately, in the excitement of his flight from his aunt and uncle, he had forgotten to put in his other boots, and he was some time deciding between his purple cloth slippers, with a golden marigold, and the prospect of cleaning the boots he was wearing with the towel, but finally, being a little footsore, he took the slippers. afterwards, when he saw the porters and waiters and the other guests catch a sight of the slippers, he was sorry he had not chosen the boots. however, to make up for any want of style at that end, he had his crush hat under his arm. he found the dining-room without excessive trouble. it was a vast and splendidly decorated place, and a number of people, evidently quite _au fait_, were dining there at little tables lit with electric, red shaded candles, gentlemen in evening dress, and ladies with dazzling, astonishing necks. kipps had never seen evening dress in full vigour before, and he doubted his eyes. and there were also people not in evening dress who, no doubt, wondered what noble family kipps represented. there was a band in a decorated recess, and the band looked collectively at the purple slippers, and so lost any chance they may have had of a collection, so far as kipps was concerned. the chief drawback to this magnificent place was the excessive space of floor that had to be crossed before you got your purple slippers hid in under a table. he selected a little table--not the one where a rather impudent looking waiter held a chair, but another--sat down, and finding his gibus in his hand, decided after a moment of thought to rise slightly and sit on it. (it was discovered in his abandoned chair at a late hour by a supper party, and restored to him next day.) he put the napkin carefully on one side, selected his soup without difficulty, "clear, please," but he was rather floored by the presentation of a quite splendidly bound wine card. he turned it over, discovered a section devoted to whiskey, and had a bright idea. "'ere," he said to the waiter, with an encouraging movement of his head, and then in a confidential manner, "you haven't any old methuselah three stars, 'ave you?" the waiter went away to enquire, and kipps went on with his soup with an enhanced self-respect. finally, old methuselah being unobtainable, he ordered a claret from about the middle of the list. "let's 'ave some of this," he said. he knew claret was a good sort of wine. "a half bottle?" said the waiter. "right you are," said kipps. he felt he was getting on. he leant back after his soup, a man of the world, and then slowly brought his eyes around to the ladies in evening dress on his right.... he couldn't have thought it! they were scorchers. jest a bit of black velvet over the shoulders! he looked again. one of them was laughing with a glass of wine half raised--wicked-looking woman she was--the other, the black velvet one, was eating bits of bread with nervous quickness and talking fast. he wished old buggins could see them. he found a waiter regarding him and blushed deeply. he did not look again for some time, and became confused about his knife and fork over the fish. presently he remarked a lady in pink to the left of him eating the fish with an entirely different implement. it was over the _vol au vent_ that he began to go to pieces. he took a knife to it; then saw the lady in pink was using a fork only, and hastily put down his knife, with a considerable amount of rich creaminess on the blade, upon the cloth. then he found that a fork in his inexperienced hand was an instrument of chase rather than capture. his ears became violently red, and then he looked up, to discover the lady in pink glancing at him and then smiling as she spoke to the man beside her. he hated the lady in pink very much. he stabbed a large piece of the _vol au vent_ at last, and was too glad of his luck not to take a mouthful of it. but it was an extensive fragment, and pieces escaped him. shirt front! "desh it!" he said, and had resort to his spoon. his waiter went and spoke to two other waiters, no doubt jeering at him. he became very fierce suddenly. "ere!" he said, gesticulating, and then, "clear this away!" the entire dinner party on his right, the party of the ladies in advanced evening dress, looked at him.... he felt that everyone was watching him and making fun of him, and the injustice of this angered him. after all, they had every advantage he hadn't. and then, when they got him there doing his best, what must they do but glance and sneer and nudge one another. he tried to catch them at it, and then took refuge in a second glass of wine. suddenly and extraordinarily he found himself a socialist. he did not care how close it was to the lean years when all these things would end. mutton came with peas. he arrested the hand of the waiter. "no peas," he said. he knew something of the difficulty and danger of eating peas. then, when the peas went away again he was embittered again.... echoes of masterman's burning rhetoric began to reverberate in his mind. nice lot of people these were to laugh at anyone! women half undressed. it was that made him so beastly uncomfortable. how could one eat one's dinner with people about him like that? nice lot they were. he was glad he wasn't one of them, anyhow. yes, they might look. he resolved if they looked at him again he would ask one of the men who he was staring at. his perturbed and angry face would have concerned anyone. the band by an unfortunate accident was playing truculent military music. the mental change kipps underwent was, in its way, what psychologists call a conversion. in a few moments all kipps' ideals were changed. he who had been "practically a gentleman," the sedulous pupil of coote, the punctilious raiser of hats, was instantly a rebel, an outcast, the hater of everything "stuck up," the foe of society and the social order of to-day. here they were among the profits of their robbery, these people who might do anything with the world.... "no, thenks," he said to a dish. he addressed a scornful eye at the shoulders of the lady to his left. presently he was refusing another dish. he didn't like it--fussed up food! probably cooked by some foreigner. he finished up his wine and his bread. "no, thenks." "no, thenks."... he discovered the eye of a diner fixed curiously upon his flushed face. he responded with a glare. couldn't he go without things if he liked? "what's this?" said kipps to a great green cone. "ice," said the waiter. "i'll 'ave some," said kipps. he seized a fork and spoon and assailed the bombe. it cut rather stiffly. "come up!" said kipps, with concentrated bitterness, and the truncated summit of the bombe flew off suddenly, travelling eastward with remarkable velocity. flop, it went upon the floor a yard away, and for awhile time seemed empty. at the adjacent table they were laughing together. shy the rest of the bombe at them? flight? at any rate a dignified withdrawal. "no!" said kipps, "no more," arresting the polite attempt of the waiter to serve him with another piece. he had a vague idea he might carry off the affair as though he had meant the ice to go on the floor--not liking ice, for example, and being annoyed at the badness of his dinner. he put both hands on the table, thrust back his chair, disengaged a purple slipper from his napkin, and rose. he stepped carefully over the prostrate ice, kicked the napkin under the table, thrust his hands deep into his pockets, and marched out--shaking the dust of the place, as it were, from his feet. he left behind him a melting fragment of ice upon the floor, his gibus hat, warm and compressed in his chair, and in addition every social ambition he had ever entertained in the world. § kipps went back to folkestone in time for the anagram tea. but you must not imagine that the change of heart that came to him in the dining-room of the royal grand hotel involved any change of attitude toward this promised social and intellectual treat. he went back because the royal grand was too much for him. outwardly calm, or at most a little flushed and ruffled, inwardly kipps was a horrible, tormented battleground of scruples, doubts, shames and self-assertions during that three days of silent, desperate grappling with the big hotel. he did not intend the monstrosity should beat him without a struggle, but at last he had sullenly to admit himself overcome. the odds were terrific. on the one hand himself--with, among other things, only one pair of boots; on the other a vast wilderness of rooms, covering several acres, and with over a thousand people, staff and visitors, all chiefly occupied in looking queerly at kipps, in laughing at him behind his back, in watching for difficult corners at which to confront and perplex him, and inflict humiliations upon him. for example, the hotel scored over its electric light. after the dinner the chambermaid, a hard, unsympathetic young woman with a superior manner, was summoned by a bell kipps had rung under the impression the button was the electric light switch. "look 'ere," said kipps, rubbing a shin that had suffered during his search in the dark, "why aren't there any candles or matches?" the hotel explained and scored heavily. "it isn't everyone is up to these things," said kipps. "no, it isn't," said the chambermaid, with ill-concealed scorn, and slammed the door at him. "s'pose i ought to have tipped her," said kipps. after that kipps cleaned his boots with a pocket-handkerchief and went for a long walk and got home in a hansom, but the hotel scored again by his not putting out his boots and so having to clean them again in the morning. the hotel also snubbed him by bringing him hot water when he was fully dressed and looking surprised at his collar, but he got a breakfast, i must admit, with scarcely any difficulty. after that the hotel scored heavily by the fact that there are twenty-four hours in the day and kipps had nothing to do in any of them. he was a little footsore from his previous day's pedestrianism, and he could make up his mind for no long excursions. he flitted in and out of the hotel several times, and it was the polite porter who touched his hat every time that first set kipps tipping. "what 'e wants is a tip," said kipps. so at the next opportunity he gave the man an unexpected shilling, and having once put his hand in his pocket, there was no reason why he should not go on. he bought a newspaper at the book-stall and tipped the boy the rest of the shilling, and then went up by the lift and tipped the man a sixpence, leaving his newspaper inadvertently in the lift. he met his chambermaid in the passage and gave her half a crown. he resolved to demonstrate his position to the entire establishment in this way. he didn't like the place; he disapproved of it politically, socially, morally, but he resolved no taint of meanness should disfigure his sojourn in its luxurious halls. he went down by the lift (tipping again), and, being accosted by a waiter with his gibus, tipped the finder half a crown. he had a vague sense that he was making a flank movement upon the hotel and buying over its staff. they would regard him as a character. they would get to like him. he found his stock of small silver diminishing, and replenished it at a desk in the hall. he tipped a man in bottle green who looked like the man who had shown him his room the day before, and then he saw a visitor eyeing him, and doubted whether he was in this instance doing right. finally he went out and took chance 'buses to their destinations, and wandered a little in remote, wonderful suburbs and returned. he lunched at a chop house in islington, and found himself back in the royal grand, now unmistakably footsore and london weary, about three. he was drawn towards the drawing-room by a neat placard about afternoon tea. it occurred to him that the campaign of tipping upon which he had embarked was perhaps after all a mistake. he was confirmed in this by observing that the hotel officials were watching him, not respectfully, but with a sort of amused wonder, as if to see whom he would tip next. however, if he backed out now, they would think him an awful fool. everyone wasn't so rich as he was. it was his way to tip. still---- he grew more certain the hotel had scored again. he pretended to be lost in thought and so drifted by, and having put hat and umbrella in the cloak-room went into the drawing-room for afternoon tea. there he did get what for a time he held to be a point in his favour. the room was large and quiet at first, and he sat back restfully until it occurred to him that his attitude brought his extremely dusty boots too prominently into the light, so instead he sat up, and then people of the upper and upper middle classes began to come and group themselves about him and have tea likewise, and so revive the class animosities of the previous day. presently a fluffy, fair-haired lady came into prominent existence a few yards away. she was talking to a respectful, low-voiced clergyman, whom she was possibly entertaining at tea. "no," she said, "dear lady jane wouldn't like that!" "mumble, mumble, mumble," from the clergyman. "poor dear lady jane was always so sensitive," the voice of the lady sang out clear and emphatic. a fat, hairless, important-looking man joined this group, took a chair and planted it firmly with its back in the face of kipps, a thing that offended kipps mightily. "are you telling him," gurgled the fat, hairless man, "about dear lady jane's affliction?" a young couple, lady brilliantly attired and the man in a magnificently cut frock coat, arranged themselves to the right, also with an air of exclusion towards kipps. "i've told him," said the gentleman in a flat, abundant voice. "my!" said the young lady, with an american smile. no doubt they all thought kipps was out of it. a great desire to assert himself in some way surged up in his heart. he felt he would like to cut in on the conversation in some dramatic way. a monologue something in the manner of masterman? at any rate, abandoning that as impossible, he would like to appear self-centred and at ease. his eyes, wandering over the black surfaces of a noble architectural mass close by, discovered a slot--an enamelled plaque of directions. it was some sort of musical box! as a matter of fact, it was the very best sort of harmonicon and specially made to the scale of the hotel. he scrutinised the plaque with his head at various angles and glanced about him at his neighbours. it occurred to kipps that he would like some music, that to inaugurate some would show him a man of taste and at his ease at the same time. he rose, read over a list of tunes, selected one haphazard, pressed his sixpence--it was sixpence!--home, and prepared for a confidential, refined little melody. considering the high social tone of the royal grand, it was really a very loud instrument indeed. it gave vent to three deafening brays and so burst the dam of silence that had long pent it in. it seemed to be chiefly full of the greatuncles of trumpets, megalo-trombones and railway brakes. it made sounds like shunting trains. it did not so much begin as blow up your counter-scarp or rush forward to storm under cover of melodious shrapnel. it had not so much an air as a _ricochette_. the music had, in short, the inimitable quality of sousa. it swept down upon the friend of lady jane and carried away something socially striking into the eternal night of the unheard; the american girl to the left of it was borne shrieking into the inaudible. "high cockalorum tootletootle tootle loo. high cockalorum tootle lootle loo. bump, bump, bump--bump." joyous, exorbitant music it was from the gigantic nursery of the future, bearing the hearer along upon its torrential succession of sounds, as if he was in a cask on niagara. whiroo! yah and have at you! the strenuous life! yaha! stop! a reprieve! a reprieve! no! bang! bump! everybody looked around, conversation ceased and gave place to gestures. the friend of lady jane became terribly agitated. "can't it be stopped?" she vociferated, pointing a gloved finger and saying something to the waiter about "that dreadful young man." "ought not to be working," said the clerical friend of lady jane. the waiter shook his head at the fat, hairless gentleman. people began to move away. kipps leant back luxurious, and then tipped with a half crown to pay. he paid, tipped like a gentleman, rose with an easy gesture, and strolled towards the door. his retreat evidently completed the indignation of the friend of lady jane, and from the door he could still discern her gestures as asking, "can't it be stopped?" the music followed him into the passage and pursued him to the lift and only died away completely in the quiet of his own room, and afterwards from his window he saw the friend of lady jane and her party having their tea carried out to a little table in the court. bump, bump, bump, bump floated up to him, and certainly that was a point to him. but it was his only score; all the rest of the game lay in the hands of the upper classes and the big hotel. and presently he was doubting whether even this was really a point. it seemed a trifle vulgar, come to think it over, to interrupt people when they were talking. he saw a clerk peering at him from the office, and suddenly it occurred to him that the place might get back at him tremendously over the bill. they would probably take it out of him by charging pounds and pounds. suppose they charged more than he had! the clerk had a particularly nasty face, just the face to take advantage of a vacillating kipps. he became aware of a man in a cap touching it, and produced his shilling automatically, but the strain was beginning to tell. it was a deuce and all of an expense--this tipping. if the hotel chose to stick it on to the bill something tremendous what was kipps to do? refuse to pay? make a row? if he did he couldn't fight all these men in bottle green.... he went out about seven and walked for a long time and dined at last upon a chop in the euston road; then he walked along to the edgeware road and sat and rested in the metropolitan music hall for a time until a trapeze performance unnerved him and finally he came back to bed. he tipped the lift man sixpence and wished him good-night. in the silent watches of the night he reviewed the tale of the day's tipping, went over the horrors of the previous night's dinner, and heard again the triumphant bray of the harmonicon devil released from its long imprisonment. everyone would be told about him to-morrow. he couldn't go on! he admitted his defeat. never in their whole lives had any of these people seen such a fool as he! ugh!... his method of announcing his withdrawal to the clerk was touched with bitterness. "i'm going to get out of this," said kipps, blowing windily. "let's see what you got on my bill." "one breakfast?" asked the clerk. "do i _look_ as if i'd ate two?"... at his departure kipps, with a hot face, convulsive gestures and an embittered heart, tipped everyone who did not promptly and actively resist, including an absent-minded south african diamond merchant, who was waiting in the hall for his wife and succumbed to old habit. he paid his cabman a four shilling piece at charing cross, having no smaller change, and wished he could burn him alive. then in a sudden reaction of economy he refused the proffered help of a porter and carried his bag quite violently to the train. chapter viii kipps enters society § submission to inexorable fate took kipps to the anagram tea. at any rate he would meet helen there in the presence of other people and be able to carry off the worst of the difficulty of explaining his little jaunt to london. he had not seen her since his last portentous visit to new romney. he was engaged to her, he would have to marry her, and the sooner he faced her again the better. before wild plans of turning socialist, defying the world and repudiating all calling for ever, his heart on second thoughts sank. he felt helen would never permit anything of the sort. as for the anagrams he could do no more than his best and that he was resolved to do. what had happened at the royal grand, what had happened at new romney, he must bury in his memory and begin again at the reconstruction of his social position. ann, buggins, chitterlow, all these, seen in the matter-of-fact light of the folkestone train, stood just as they stood before; people of an inferior social position who had to be eliminated from his world. it was a bother about ann, a bother and a pity. his mind rested so for a space on ann until the memory of these anagrams drew him away. if he could see coote that evening he might, he thought, be able to arrange some sort of connivance about the anagrams, and his mind was chiefly busy sketching proposals for such an arrangement. it would not, of course, be ungentlemanly cheating, but only a little mystification. coote very probably might drop him a hint of the solution of one or two of the things, not enough to win a prize, but enough to cover his shame. or failing that he might take a humorous, quizzical line and pretend he was pretending to be very stupid. there were plenty of ways out of it if one kept a sharp lookout.... the costume kipps wore to the anagram tea was designed as a compromise between the strict letter of high fashion and seaside laxity, a sort of easy, semi-state for afternoon. helen's first reproof had always lingered in his mind. he wore a frock coat, but mitigated it by a panama hat of romantic shape with a black band, grey gloves, but for relaxation brown button boots. the only other man besides the clergy present, a new doctor with an attractive wife, was in full afternoon dress. coote was not there. kipps was a little pale, but quite self-possessed, as he approached mrs. bindon botting's door. he took a turn while some people went in and then faced it manfully. the door opened and revealed--ann! in the background through a draped doorway behind a big fern in a great art pot the elder miss botting was visible talking to two guests; the auditory background was a froth of feminine voices.... our two young people were much too amazed to give one another any formula of greeting, though they had parted warmly enough. each was already in a state of extreme tension to meet the demands of this great and unprecedented occasion of an anagram tea. "lor'!" said ann, her sole remark, and then the sense of miss botting's eye ruled her straight again. she became very pale, but she took his hat mechanically, and he was already removing his gloves. "ann," he said in a low tone, and then "fency!" the eldest miss botting knew kipps was the sort of guest who requires nursing, and she came forward vocalising charm. she said it was "awfully jolly of him to come, awfully jolly. it was awfully difficult to get any good men!" she handed kipps forward, mumbling in a dazed condition, to the drawing-room, and there he encountered helen looking unfamiliar in an unfamiliar hat. it was as if he had not met her for years. she astonished him. she didn't seem to mind in the least his going to london. she held out a shapely hand, and smiled encouragingly. "you've faced the anagrams?" she said. the second miss botting accosted them, a number of oblong pieces of paper in her hand, mysteriously inscribed. "take an anagram," she said; "take an anagram," and boldly pinned one of these brief documents to kipps' lapel. the letters were "cypshi," and kipps from the very beginning suspected this was an anagram for cuyps. she also left a thing like a long dance programme, from which dangled a little pencil in his hand. he found himself being introduced to people, and then he was in a corner with the short lady in a big bonnet, who was pelting him with gritty little bits of small talk that were gone before you could take hold of them and reply. "very hot," said this lady. "very hot, indeed--hot all the summer--remarkable year--all the years remarkable now--don't know what we're coming to--don't you think so, mr. kipps?" "oo rather," said kipps, and wondered if ann was still in the hall. ann! he ought not to have stared at her like a stuck fish and pretended not to know her. that couldn't be right. but what _was_ right? the lady in the big bonnet proceeded to a second discharge. "hope you're fond of anagrams, mr. kipps--difficult exercise--still one must do something to bring people together--better than ludo anyhow. don't you think so, mr. kipps?" ann fluttered past the open door. her eyes met his in amazed enquiry. something had got dislocated in the world for both of them.... he ought to have told her he was engaged. he ought to have explained things to her. perhaps even now he might be able to drop her a hint. "don't you think so, mr. kipps?" "oo rather," said kipps for the third time. a lady with a tired smile, who was labelled conspicuously "wogdelenk," drifted towards kipps' interlocutor and the two fell into conversation. kipps found himself socially aground. he looked about him. helen was talking to a curate and laughing. kipps was overcome by a vague desire to speak to ann. he was for sidling doorward. "what are _you_, please?" said an extraordinarily bold, tall girl, and arrested him while she took down "cypshi." "i'm sure i don't know what it means," she explained. "i'm sir bubh. don't you think anagrams are something chronic?" kipps made stockish noises, and the young lady suddenly became the nucleus of a party of excited friends who were forming a syndicate to guess, and barred his escape. she took no further notice of him. he found himself jammed against an occasional table and listening to the conversation of mrs. "wogdelenk" and his lady with the big bonnet. "she packed her two beauties off together," said the lady in the big bonnet. "time enough, too. don't think much of this girl; she's got as housemaid now. pretty, of course, but there's no occasion for a housemaid to be pretty--none whatever. and she doesn't look particularly up to her work either. kind of 'mazed expression." "you never can tell," said the lady labelled "wogdelenk;" "you never can tell. my wretches are big enough, heaven knows, and do they work? not a bit of it!"... kipps felt dreadfully out of it with regard to all these people, and dreadfully in it with ann. he scanned the back of the big bonnet and concluded it was an extremely ugly bonnet indeed. it got jerking forward as each short, dry sentence was snapped off at the end and a plume of osprey on it jerked excessively. "she hasn't guessed even one!" followed by a shriek of girlish merriment, came from the group about the tall, bold girl. they'd shriek at him presently, perhaps. beyond thinking his own anagram might be cuyps, he hadn't a notion. what a chatter they were all making! it was just like a summer sale! just the sort of people who'd give a lot of trouble and swap you! and suddenly the smouldering fires of rebellion leapt to flame again. these were a rotten lot of people, and the anagrams were rotten nonsense, and he, kipps, had been a rotten fool to come. there was helen away there, still laughing, with her curate. pity she couldn't marry a curate and leave him (kipps) alone! then he'd know what to do. he disliked the whole gathering collectively and in detail. why were they all trying to make him one of themselves? he perceived unexpected ugliness everywhere about him. there were two great pins jabbed through the tall girl's hat, and the swirls of her hair below the brim with the minutest piece of tape tie-up showing did not repay close examination. mrs. "wogdelenk" wore a sort of mumps bandage of lace, and there was another lady perfectly dazzling with beads, and jewels and bits of trimming. they were all flaps and angles and flounces--these women. not one of them looked as neat and decent a shape as ann's clean, trim, little figure. echoes of masterman woke up in him again. ladies indeed! here were all these chattering people, with money, with leisure, with every chance in the world, and all they could do was to crowd like this into a couple of rooms and jabber nonsense about anagrams. "could cypshi really mean cuyps?" floated like a dissolving wreath of mist across his mind. abruptly resolution stood armed in his heart. he was going to get out of this! "'scuse me," he said, and began to wade neck deep through the bubbling tea party. he was going to get out of it all! he found himself close by helen. "i'm orf," he said, but she gave him the briefest glance. she did not appear to hear him. "still, mr. spratlingdown, you _must_ admit there's a limit even to conformity," she was saying.... he was in a curtained archway, and ann was before him carrying a tray supporting several small sugar bowls. he was moved to speech. "_what_ a lot!" he said, and then mysteriously, "i'm engaged to _her_." he indicated helen's new hat, and became aware of a skirt he had stepped upon. ann stared at him helplessly, borne past in the grip of incomprehensible imperatives. why shouldn't they talk together? he was in a small room, and then at the foot of the staircase in the hall. he heard the rustle of a dress, and what was conceivable his hostess was upon him. "but you're not going, mr. kipps?" she said. "i must," he said; "i got to." "but, mr. kipps!" "i must," he said. "i'm not well." "but before the guessing! without any tea!" ann appeared and hovered behind him. "i got to go," said kipps. if he parleyed with her helen might awake to his desperate attempt. "of course if you _must_ go." "it's something i've forgotten," said kipps, beginning to feel regrets. "reely i must." mrs. botting turned with a certain offended dignity, and ann in a state of flushed calm that evidently concealed much came forward to open the door. "i'm very sorry," he said; "i'm very sorry," half to his hostess and half to her, and was swept past her by superior social forces--like a drowning man in a mill-race--and into the upper sandgate road. he half turned upon the step, and then slam went the door.... he retreated along the leas, a thing of shame and perplexity--mrs. botting's aggrieved astonishment uppermost in his mind.... something--reinforced by the glances of the people he was passing--pressed its way to his attention through the tumultuous disorder of his mind. he became aware that he was still wearing his little placard with the letters "cypshi." "desh it!" he said, clutching off this abomination. in another moment its several letters, their task accomplished, were scattering gleefully before the breeze down the front of the leas. § kipps was dressed for mrs. wace's dinner half an hour before it was time to start, and he sat waiting until coote should come to take him around. "manners and rules of good society" lay before him neglected. he had read the polished prose of the member of the aristocracy, on page , as far as-- "the acceptance of an invitation is in the eyes of diners out, a binding obligation which only ill-health, family bereavement, or some all-important reason justifies its being set on one side or otherwise evaded"-- and then he had lapsed into gloomy thoughts. that afternoon he had had a serious talk with helen. he had tried to express something of the change of heart that had happened to him. but to broach the real state of the matter had been altogether too terrible for him. he had sought a minor issue. "i don't like all this seciety," he had said. "but you must _see_ people," said helen. "yes, but----. it's the sort of people you see." he nerved himself. "i didn't think much of that lot at the enegram tea." "you have to see all sorts of people if you want to see the world," said helen. kipps was silent for a space and a little short of breath. "my dear arthur," she began, almost kindly, "i shouldn't ask you to go to these affairs if i didn't think it good for you, should i?" kipps acquiesced in silence. "you will find the benefit of it all when we get to london. you learn to swim in a tank before you go out into the sea. these people here are good enough to learn upon. they're stiff and rather silly and dreadfully narrow and not an idea in a dozen of them, but it really doesn't matter at all. you'll soon get savoir faire." he made to speak again, and found his powers of verbal expression lacking. instead he blew a sigh. "you'll get used to it all very soon," said helen helpfully.... as he sat meditating over that interview and over the vistas of london that opened before him, on the little flat, and teas and occasions and the constant presence of brudderkins and all the bright prospect of his new and better life, and how he would never see ann any more, the housemaid entered with a little package, a small, square envelope to "arthur kipps, esquire." "a young woman left this, sir," said the housemaid, a little severely. "eh?" said kipps; "what young woman?" and then suddenly began to understand. "she looked an ordinary young woman," said the housemaid coldly. "ah!" said kipps. "_that's_ orlright." he waited till the door had closed behind the girl, staring at the envelope in his hand, and then, with a curious feeling of increasing tension, tore it open. as he did so, some quicker sense than sight or touch told him its contents. it was ann's half sixpence. and, besides, not a word! then she must have heard him----! she had kept the half sixpence all these years! he was standing with the envelope in his hand, trying to get on from that last inference, when coote became audible without. coote appeared in evening dress, a clean and radiant coote, with large, greenish, white gloves and a particularly large white tie, edged with black. "for a third cousin," he presently explained. "nace, isn't it?" he could see kipps was pale and disturbed and put this down to the approaching social trial. "you keep your nerve up, kipps, my dear chap, and you'll be all right," said coote, with a big, brotherly glove on kipps' sleeve. § the dinner came to a crisis so far as kipps' emotions were concerned, with mrs. bindon botting's talk about servants, but before that there had been several things of greater or smaller magnitude to perturb and disarrange his social front. one little matter that was mildly insurgent throughout the entire meal was, if i may be permitted to mention so intimate a matter, the behaviour of his left brace. the webbing--which was of a cheerful scarlet silk--had slipped away from its buckle, fastened no doubt in agitation, and had developed a strong tendency to place itself obliquely in the manner rather of an official decoration, athwart his spotless front. it first asserted itself before they went in to dinner. he replaced this ornament by a dexterous thrust when no one was looking and thereafter the suppression of his novel innovation upon the stereotyped sombreness of evening dress became a standing preoccupation. on the whole, he was inclined to think his first horror excessive; at any rate no one remarked upon it. however you imagine him constantly throughout the evening, with one eye and one hand, whatever the rest of him might be doing, predominantly concerned with the weak corner. but this, i say, was a little matter. what exercised him much more was to discover helen quite terribly in evening dress. the young lady had let her imagination rove londonward, and this costume was perhaps an anticipation of that clever little flat not too far west which was to become the centre of so delightful a literary and artistic set. it was, of all the feminine costumes present, most distinctly an evening dress. one was advised miss walshingham had arms and shoulders of a type by no means despicable, one was advised miss walshingham was capable not only of dignity but charm, even a certain glow of charm. it was, you know, her first evening dress, a tribute paid by walshingham finance to her brightening future. had she wanted keeping in countenance, she would have had to have fallen back upon her hostess, who was resplendent in black and steel. the other ladies had to a certain extent compromised. mrs. walshingham had dressed with just a refined, little v and mrs. bindon botting, except for her dear mottled arms, confided scarcely more of her plump charm to the world. the elder miss botting stopped short of shoulders, and so did miss wace. but helen didn't. she was--had kipps had eyes to see it--a quite beautiful human figure; she knew it and she met him with a radiant smile that had forgotten all the little difference of the afternoon. but to kipps her appearance was the last release. with that, she had become as remote, as foreign, as incredible as a wife and mate, as though the cnidian venus herself, in all her simple elegance, was before witnesses, declared to be his. if, indeed, she had ever been credible as a wife and mate. she ascribed his confusion to modest reverence, and having blazed smiling upon him for a moment turned a shapely shoulder towards him and exchanged a remark with mrs. bindon botting. ann's poor little half sixpence came against kipps' fingers in his pocket and he clutched at it suddenly as though it was a talisman. then he abandoned it to suppress his order of the brace. he was affected by a cough. "miss wace tells me mr. revel is coming," mrs. botting was saying. "isn't it delightful?" said helen. "we saw him last night. he's stopped on his way to paris. he's going to meet his wife there." kipps' eyes rested for a moment on helen's dazzling deltoid, and then went enquiringly, accusingly almost to coote's face. where, in the presence of this terrible emergency, was the gospel of suppression now--that furtive treatment of religion and politics, and birth and death and bathing and babies, and "all those things" which constitutes your true gentleman? he had been too modest even to discuss this question with his mentor, but surely, surely this quintessence of all that is good and nice could regard these unsolicited confidences only in one way. with something between relief and the confirmation of his worst fears he perceived, by a sort of twitching of the exceptionally abundant muscles about coote's lower jaw, in a certain deliberate avoidance of one particular direction by these pale, but resolute, grey eyes, by the almost convulsive grip of the ample, greenish white gloves behind him, a grip broken at times for controlling pats at the black-bordered tie and the back of that spacious head, and by a slight but increasing disposition to cough, that _coote did not approve_! to kipps helen had once supplied a delicately beautiful dream, a thing of romance and unsubstantial mystery. but this was her final materialisation, and the last thin wreath of glamour about her was dispelled. in some way (he had forgotten how and it was perfectly incomprehensible) he was bound to this dark, solid and determined young person whose shadow and suggestion he had once loved. he had to go through with the thing as a gentleman should. still---- and when he was sacrificing ann! he wouldn't stand this sort of thing, whatever else he stood.... should he say something about her dress to her--to-morrow? he could put his foot down firmly. he could say, "look 'ere. i don't care. i ain't going to stand it. see?" she'd say something unexpected, of course. she always did say something unexpected. suppose for once he overrode what she said? simply repeated his point? he found these thoughts battling with certain conversational aggressions from mrs. wace, and then revel arrived and took the centre of the stage. the author of that brilliant romance, "red hearts a-beating," was a less imposing man than kipps had anticipated, but he speedily effaced that disappointment by his predominating manners. although he lived habitually in the vivid world of london, his collar and tie were in no way remarkable, and he was neither brilliantly handsome nor curly nor long-haired. his personal appearance suggested arm chairs, rather than the equestrian exercises and amorous toyings and passionate intensities of his masterpiece; he was inclined to be fat, with whitish flesh, muddy coloured straight hair, he had a rather shapeless and truncated nose and his chin was asymmetrical. one eye was more inclined to stare than the other. he might have been esteemed a little undistinguished looking were it not for his beeswaxed moustache, which came amidst his features with a pleasing note of incongruity, and the whimsical wrinkles above and about his greater eye. his regard sought and found helen's as he entered the room and they shook hands presently with an air of intimacy kipps, for no clear reason, found objectionable. he saw them clasp their hands, heard coote's characteristic cough--a sound rather more like a very, very old sheep, a quarter of a mile away, being blown to pieces by a small charge of gunpowder than anything else in the world--did some confused beginnings of a thought, and then they were all going in to dinner and helen's shining bare arm lay along his sleeve. kipps was in no state for conversation. she glanced at him, and, though he did not know it, very slightly pressed his elbow. he struggled with strange respiratory dislocations. before them went coote, discoursing in amiable reverberations to mrs. walshingham, and at the head of the procession was mrs. bindon botting talking fast and brightly beside the erect military figure of little mr. wace. (he was not a soldier really, but he had caught a martinet bearing by living so close to shorncliffe.) revel came last, in charge of mrs. wace's queenly black and steel, politely admiring in a flute-like cultivated voice the mellow wall paper of the staircase. kipps marvelled at everybody's self-possession. from the earliest spoonful of soup it became evident that revel considered himself responsible for the table talk. and before the soup was over it was almost as manifest that mrs. bindon botting inclined to consider his sense of responsibility excessive. in her circle mrs. bindon botting was esteemed an agreeable rattle, her manner and appearance were conspicuously vivacious for one so plump, and she had an almost irish facility for humorous description. she would keep people amused all through an afternoon call, with the story of how her jobbing gardener had got himself married and what his home was like, or how her favourite butt, mr. stigson warder, had all his unfortunate children taught almost every conceivable instrument because they had the phrenological bump of music abnormally large. "they got to trombones, my dear!" she would say, with her voice coming to a climax. usually her friends conspired to draw her out, but on this occasion they neglected to do so, a thing that militated against her keen desire to shine in revel's eyes. after a time she perceived that the only thing for her to do was to cut in on the talk, on her own account, and this she began to do. she made several ineffectual snatches at the general attention and then revel drifted towards a topic she regarded as particularly her own, the ordering of households. they came to the thing through talk about localities. "we are leaving our house in the boltons," said revel, "and taking a little place at wimbledon, and i think of having rooms in dane's inn. it will be more convenient in many ways. my wife is furiously addicted to golf and exercise of all sorts, and i like to sit about in clubs--i haven't the strength necessary for these hygienic proceedings--and the old arrangement suited neither of us. and, besides, no one could imagine the demoralisation the domestics of west london have undergone during the last three years." "it's the same everywhere," said mrs. bindon botting. "very possibly it is. a friend of mine calls it the servile tradition in decay and regards it all as a most hopeful phenomenon----" "he ought to have had my last two criminals," said mrs. bindon botting. she turned to mrs. wace while revel came again a little too late with a "possibly----" "and i haven't told you, my dear," she said, speaking with voluble rapidity, "i'm in trouble again." "the last girl?" "the last girl. before i can get a cook, my hard won housemaid"--she paused--"chucks it." "panic?" asked young walshingham. "mysterious grief! everything merry as a marriage bell until my anagram tea! then in the evening a portentous rigour of bearing, a word or so from my aunt, and immediately--floods of tears and notice!" for a moment her eye rested thoughtfully on kipps, as she said: "is there anything heartrending about anagrams?" "i find them so," said revel. "i----" but mrs. bindon botting got away again. "for a time it made me quite uneasy----" kipps jabbed his lip with his fork rather painfully, and was recalled from a fascinated glare at mrs. botting to the immediate facts of dinner. "----whether anagrams might not have offended the good domestic's moral code--you never can tell. we made enquiries. no. no. no. she _must_ go and that's all!" "one perceives," said revel, "in these disorders, dimly and distantly, the last dying glow of the age of romance. let us suppose, mrs. botting, let us at least try to suppose--it is love." kipps clattered with his knife and fork. "it's love," said mrs. botting; "what else can it be? beneath the orderly humdrum of our lives these romances are going on, until at last they bust up and give notice and upset our humdrum altogether. some fatal, wonderful soldier----" "the passions of the common or house domestic," said revel, and recovered possession of the table. upon the troubled disorder of kipps' table manners there had supervented a quietness, an unusual calm. for once in his life he had distinctly made up his mind on his own account. he listened no more to revel. he put down his knife and fork and refused anything that followed. coote regarded him with tactful concern and helen flushed a little. § about half-past nine that night came a violent pull at the bell of mrs. bindon botting, and a young man in a dress suit, a gibus and other marks of exalted social position stood without. athwart his white expanse of breast lay a ruddy bar of patterned silk that gave him a singular distinction and minimised the glow of a few small stains of burgundy. his gibus was thrust back and exposed a disorder of hair that suggested a reckless desperation. he had, in fact, burnt his boats and refused to join the ladies. coote, in the subsequent conversation, had protested quietly, "you're going on all right, you know," to which kipps had answered he didn't care a "eng" about that, and so, after a brief tussle with walshingham's detaining arm, had got away. "i got something to do," he said. "'ome." and here he was--panting an extraordinary resolve. the door opened, revealing the pleasantly furnished hall of mrs. bindon botting, lit by rose-tinted lights, and in the centre of the picture, neat and pretty in black and white, stood ann. at the sight of kipps her colour vanished. "ann," said kipps, "i want to speak to you. i got something to say to you right away. see? i'm----" "this ain't the door to speak to me at," said ann. "but, ann! it's something special." "you spoke enough," said ann. "ann!" "besides. that's my door, down there. basement. if i was caught talking at _this_ door----!" "but, ann, _i'm_----" "basement after nine. them's my hours. i'm a servant and likely to keep one. if you're calling here, what name please? but you got your friends and i got mine and you mustn't go talking to _me_." "but, ann, i want to ask you----" someone appeared in the hall behind ann. "not here," said ann. "don't know anyone of that name," and incontinently slammed the door in his face. "what was that, ann?" said mrs. bindon botting's invalid aunt. "ge'm a little intoxicated, ma'am--asking for the wrong name, ma'am." "what name did he want?" asked the lady, doubtfully. "no name that _we_ know, ma'am," said ann, hustling along the hall towards the kitchen stairs. "i hope you weren't too short with him, ann." "no shorter than he deserved, considering 'ow he be'aved," said ann, with her bosom heaving. and mrs. bindon botting's invalid aunt, perceiving suddenly that this call had some relation to ann's private and sentimental trouble, turned, after one moment of hesitating scrutiny, away. she was an extremely sympathetic lady, was mrs. bindon botting's invalid aunt; she took an interest in the servants, imposed piety, extorted confessions and followed human nature, blushing and lying defensively, to its reluctantly revealed recesses, but ann's sense of privacy was strong and her manner under drawing out and encouragement, sometimes even alarming.... so the poor old lady went upstairs again. § the basement door opened and kipps came into the kitchen. he was flushed and panting. he struggled for speech. "'ere," he said, and held out two half sixpences. ann stood behind the kitchen table--face pale and eyes round, and now--and it simplified kipps very much--he could see she had indeed been crying. "well?" she said. "don't you see?" ann moved her head slightly. "i kep' it all these years." "you kep' it too long." his mouth closed and his flush died away. he looked at her. the amulet, it seemed, had failed to work. "ann!" he said. "well?" "ann." the conversation still hung fire. "ann," he said, made a movement with his hands that suggested appeal, and advanced a step. ann shook her head more defiantly, and became defensive. "look here, ann," said kipps. "i been a fool." they stared into each other's miserable eyes. "ann," he said. "i want to marry you." ann clutched the table edge. "you can't," she said faintly. he made as if to approach her around the table, and she took a step that restored their distance. "i must," he said. "you can't." "i must. you _got_ to marry me, ann." "you can't go marrying everybody. you got to marry 'er." "i shan't." ann shook her head. "you're engaged to that girl. lady, rather. you can't be engaged to me." "i don't want to be engaged to you. i _been_ engaged. i want to be married to you. see? rightaway." ann turned a shade paler. "but what d'you mean?" she asked. "come right off to london and marry me. now." "what d'you mean?" kipps became extremely lucid and earnest. "i mean come right off and marry me now before anyone else can. _see?_" "in london?" "in london." they stared at one another again. they took things for granted in the most amazing way. "i couldn't," said ann. "for one thing my month's not up for mor'n free weeks yet." they hung before that for a moment as though it was insurmountable. "look 'ere, ann! arst to go. arst to go!" "_she_ wouldn't," said ann. "then come without arsting," said kipps. "she's keep my box----" "she won't." "she will." "she won't." "you don't know 'er." "well, desh'er--let'er! let'er! who cares? i'll buy you a 'undred boxes if you'll come." "it wouldn't be right towards her." "it isn't her you got to think about, ann. it's me." "and you 'aven't treated me properly," she said. "you 'aven't treated me properly, artie. you didn't ought to 'ave----" "i didn't say i _'ad_," he interrupted, "did i, ann?" he appealed. "i didn't come to arguefy. i'm all wrong. i never said i wasn't. it's yes or no. me or not.... i been a fool. there! see? i been a fool. ain't that enough? i got myself all tied up with everyone and made a fool of myself all around...." he pleaded, "it isn't as if we didn't care for one another, ann." she seemed impassive and he resumed his discourse. "i thought i wasn't likely ever to see you again, ann. i reely did. it isn't as though i was seein' you all the time. i didn't know what i wanted, and i went and be'aved like a fool--jest as anyone might. i know what i want and i know what i don't want now." "ann!" "well?" "will you come?... will you come?..." silence. "if you don't answer me, ann--i'm desprit--if you don't answer me now, if you don't say you'll come i'll go right out now----" he turned doorward passionately as he spoke, with his threat incomplete. "i'll go," he said; "i 'aven't a friend in the world! i been and throwed everything away. i don't know why i done things and why i 'aven't. all i know is i can't stand nothing in the world any more." he choked. "the pier," he said. he fumbled with the door latch, grumbling some inarticulate self-pity, as if he sought a handle, and then he had it open. clearly he was going. "artie!" said ann, sharply. he turned about and the two hung, white and tense. "i'll do it," said ann. his face began to work, he shut the door and came a step back to her, staring; his face became pitiful and then suddenly they moved together. "artie!" she cried, "don't go!" and held out her arms, weeping. they clung close to one another.... "oh! i _been_ so mis'bel," cried kipps, clinging to this lifebuoy, and suddenly his emotion, having no further serious work in hand, burst its way to a loud _boohoo_! his fashionable and expensive gibus flopped off and fell and rolled and lay neglected on the floor. "i been so mis'bel," said kipps, giving himself vent. "oh! i _been_ so mis'bel, ann." "be quiet," said ann, holding his poor, blubbering head tightly to her heaving shoulder, and herself all a-quiver; "be quiet. she's there! listenin'. she'll 'ear you, artie, on the stairs...." § ann's last words when, an hour later, they parted, mrs. and miss bindon botting having returned very audibly upstairs, deserve a section to themselves. "i wouldn't do this for everyone, mind you," whispered ann. chapter ix the labyrinthodon § you imagine them fleeing through our complex and difficult social system, as it were, for life, first on foot and severally to the folkestone central station; then in a first-class carriage, with kipps' bag as sole chaperone to charing cross, and then in a four-wheeler, a long, rumbling, palpitating, slow flight through the multitudinous swarming london streets to sid. kipps kept peeping out of the window. "it's the next corner after this, i believe," he would say. for he had a sort of feeling that at sid's he would be immune from the hottest pursuits. he paid the cabman in a manner adequate to the occasion and turned to his prospective brother-in-law. "me and ann," he said, "we're going to marry." "but i thought----" began sid. kipps motioned him towards explanations in the shop.... "it's no good, my arguing with you," said sid, smiling delightedly as the case unfolded. "you done it now." and masterman being apprised of the nature of the affair descended slowly in a state of flushed congratulation. "i thought you might find the higher life a bit difficult," said masterman, projecting a bony hand. "but i never thought you'd have the originality to clear out.... won't the young lady of the superior classes swear! never mind--it doesn't matter anyhow. "you were starting a climb," he said at dinner, "that doesn't lead anywhere. you would have clambered from one refinement of vulgarity to another and never got to any satisfactory top. there isn't a top. it's a squirrel's cage. things are out of joint, and the only top there is is a lot of blazing card playing women and betting men--you should read modern society--seasoned with archbishops and officials and all that sort of glossy, pandering bosh.... you'd have hung on, a disconsolate, dismal, little figure, somewhere up the ladder, far below even the motor-car class, while your wife larked about--or fretted because she wasn't a bit higher than she was.... i found it all out long ago. i've seen women of that sort. and i don't climb any more." "i often thought about what you said last time i saw you," said kipps. "i wonder what i said," said masterman in parenthesis. "anyhow, you're doing the right and sane thing, and that's a rare spectacle. you're going to marry your equal, and you're going to take your own line, quite independently of what people up there, or people down there, think you ought or ought not to do. that's about the only course one can take nowadays with everything getting more muddled and upside down every day. make your own little world and your own house first of all, keep that right side up whatever you do, and marry your mate.... that, i suppose, is what _i_ should do--if _i_ had a mate.... but people of my sort, luckily for the world, don't get made in pairs. no! "besides----! however----" and abruptly, taking advantage of an interruption by master walt, he lapsed into thought. presently he came out of his musings. "after all," he said, "there's hope." "what about?" said sid. "everything," said masterman. "where there's life there's hope," said mrs. sid. "but none of you aren't eating anything like you ought to." masterman lifted his glass. "here's to hope!" he said, "the light of the world!" sid beamed at kipps as who should say, "you don't meet a character like _this_ every dinner time." "here's to hope," repeated masterman. "the best thing one can have. hope of life--yes." he imposed his movement of magnificent self-pity on them all. even young walt was impressed. they spent the days before their marriage in a number of agreeable excursions together. one day they went to kew by steamboat, and admired the house full of paintings of flowers extremely; and one day they went early to have a good, long day at the crystal palace, and enjoyed themselves very much indeed. they got there so early that nothing was open inside, all the stalls were wrappered up and all the minor exhibitions locked and barred; they seemed the minutest creatures even to themselves in that enormous empty aisle and their echoing footsteps indecently loud. they contemplated realistic groups of plaster savages, and ann thought they'd be queer people to have about. she was glad there were none in this country. they meditated upon replicas of classical statuary without excessive comment. kipps said at large, it must have been a queer world then, but ann very properly doubted if they really went about like that. but the place at that early hour was really lonely. one began to fancy things. so they went out into the october sunshine of the mighty terraces, and wandered amidst miles of stucco tanks and about those quiet gargantuan grounds. a great, grey emptiness it was, and it seemed marvellous to them, but not nearly so marvellous as it might have seemed. "i never see a finer place, never," said kipps, turning to survey the entirety of the enormous glass front with paxton's vast image in the centre. "what it must 'ave cost to build!" said ann, and left her sentence eloquently incomplete. presently they came to a region of caves and waterways, and amidst these waterways strange reminders of the possibilities of the creator. they passed under an arch made of a whale's jaws, and discovered amidst herbage, as if they were browsing or standing unoccupied and staring as if amazed at themselves, huge effigies of iguanodons and deinotheria and mastodons and suchlike cattle, gloriously done in green and gold. "they got everything," said kipps. "earl's court isn't a patch on it." his mind was very greatly exercised by these monsters, and he hovered about them and returned to them. "you'd wonder 'ow they ever got enough to eat," he said several times. § it was later in the day, and upon a seat in the presence of the green and gold labyrinthodon that looms so splendidly above the lake, that the kippses fell into talk about their future. they had made a sufficient lunch in the palace, they had seen pictures and no end of remarkable things, and that and the amber sunlight made a mood for them, quiet and philosophical, a heaven mood. kipps broke a contemplative silence with an abrupt illusion to one principal preoccupation. "i shall offer an 'pology and i shall offer 'er brother damages. if she likes to bring an action for breach after that, well--i done all i can.... they can't get much out of reading my letters in court, because i didn't write none. i dessay a thousan' or two'll settle all that, anyhow. i ain't much worried about that. that don't worry me very much, ann--no." and then, "it's a lark, our marrying. it's curious 'ow things come about. if i 'adn't run against you, where should i 'ave been now. eh?... even after we met, i didn't seem to see it like--not marrying you i mean--until that night i came. i didn't--reely." "i didn't neither," said ann, with thoughtful eyes on the water. for a time kipps' mind was occupied by the prettiness of her thinking face. a faint, tremulous network of lights reflected from the ripples of a passing duck, played subtly over her cheek and faded away. ann reflected. "i s'pose things 'ad to be," she said. kipps mused. "it's curious 'ow ever i got on to be engaged to 'er." "she wasn't suited to you," said ann. "suited. no fear! that's jest it. 'ow did it come about?" "i expect she led you on," said ann. kipps was half-minded to assent. then he had a twinge of conscience. "it wasn't that, ann," he said. "it's curious. i don't know what it was, but it wasn't that. i don't recollect.... no.... life's jolly rum; that's one thing any'ow. and i suppose i'm a rum sort of feller. i get excited sometimes, and then i don't seem to care _what_ i do. that's about what it was reely. still----" they meditated, kipps with his arms folded and pulling at his scanty moustache. presently a faint smile came over his face. "we'll get a nice _little_ 'ouse out ithe way." "it's 'omelier than folkestone," said ann. "jest a nice _little_ 'ouse," said kipps. "there's hughenden, of course. but that's let. besides being miles too big. and i wouldn't live in folkestone again some'ow--not for anything." "i'd like to 'ave a 'ouse of my own," said ann. "i've often thought, being in service, 'ow much i'd like to manage a 'ouse of my own." "you'd know all about what the servants was up to, anyhow," said kipps, amused. "servants! we don't want no servants," said ann, startled. "you'll 'ave to 'ave a servant," said kipps. "if it's only to do the 'eavy work of the 'ouse." "what! and not be able 'ardly to go into my own kitchen?" said ann. "you ought to 'ave a servant," said kipps. "one could easy 'ave a woman in for anything that's 'eavy," said ann. "besides---- if i 'ad one of the girls one sees about nowadays i should want to be taking the broom out of 'er 'and and do it all over myself. i'd manage better without 'er." "we ought to 'ave one servant anyhow," said kipps, "else 'ow should we manage if we wanted to go out together or anything like that?" "i might get a _young_ girl," said ann, "and bring 'er up in my own way." kipps left the matter at that and came back to the house. "there's little 'ouses going into hythe, just the sort we want, not too big and not too small. we'll 'ave a kitching and a dining-room and a little room to sit in of a night." "it mustn't be a 'ouse with a basement," said ann. "what's a basement?" "it's a downstairs, where there's not arf enough light and everything got to be carried--up and down, up and down, all day--coals and everything. and it's got to 'ave a watertap and sink and things upstairs. you'd 'ardly believe, artie, if you 'adn't been in service, 'ow cruel and silly some 'ouses are built--you'd think they 'ad a spite against servants the way the stairs are made." "we won't 'ave one of that sort," said kipps.... "we'll 'ave a quiet little life. now go out a bit--now come 'ome again. read a book perhaps if we got nothing else to do. 'ave old buggins in for an evening at times. 'ave sid down. there's bicycles----" "i don't fancy myself on a bicycle," said ann. "'ave a trailer," said kipps, "and sit like a lady. i'd take you out to new romney easy as anything jest to see the old people." "i wouldn't mind that," said ann. "we'll jest 'ave a sensible little 'ouse, and sensible things. no art or anything of that sort, nothing stuck-up or anything, but jest sensible. we'll be as right as anything, ann." "no socialism," said ann, starting a lurking doubt. "no socialism," said kipps; "just sensible, that's all." "i dessay it's all right for them that understand it, artie, but i don't agree with this socialism." "i don't neither, reely," said kipps. "i can't argue about it, but it don't seem real like to me. all the same masterman's a clever fellow, ann." "i didn't like 'im at first, artie, but i do now--in a way. you don't understand 'im all at once." "'e's so clever," said kipps. "arf the time i can't make out what 'e's up to. 'e's the cleverest chap i ever met. i never 'eard such talking. 'e ought to write a book.... it's a rum world, ann, when a chap like that isn't 'ardly able to earn a living." "it's 'is 'ealth," said ann. "i expect it is," said kipps, and ceased to talk for a little while. then he spoke with deliberation, "sea air might be the saving of 'im, ann." he glanced doubtfully at ann, and she was looking at him even fondly. "you think of other people a lot," said ann. "i been looking at you sittin' there and thinking." "i suppose i do. i suppose when one's 'appy one does." "_you_ do," said ann. "we shall be 'appy in that little 'ouse, ann. don't y' think?" she met his eyes and nodded. "i seem to see it," said kipps, "sort of cosy like. 'bout tea time and muffins, kettle on the 'ob, cat on the 'earthrug. we must get a cat, ann, and _you_ there. eh?" they regarded each other with appreciative eyes and kipps became irrelevant. "i don't believe, ann," he said, "i 'aven't kissed you not for 'arf an hour. leastways not since we was in those caves." for kissing had already ceased to be a matter of thrilling adventure for them. ann shook her head. "you be sensible and go on talking about mr. masterman," she said.... but kipps had wandered to something else. "i like the way your 'air turns back just there," he said, with an indicative finger. "it was like that, i remember, when you was a girl. sort of wavy. i've often thought of it----.... 'member when we raced that time--out be'ind the church?" then for a time they sat idly, each following out agreeable meditations. "it's rum," said kipps. "what's rum?" "'ow everything's 'appened," said kipps. "who'd 'ave thought of our being 'ere like this six weeks ago?... who'd 'ave thought of my ever 'aving any money?" his eyes went to the big labyrinthodon. he looked first carelessly and then suddenly with a growing interest in its vast face. "i'm deshed," he murmured. ann became interested. he laid a hand on her arm and pointed. ann scrutinised the labyrinthodon and then came around to kipps' face in mute interrogation. "don't you see it?" said kipps. "see what?" "'e's jest _like_ old coote." "it's extinct," said ann, not clearly apprehending. "i dessay 'e is. but 'e's jest like old coote all the same for that." kipps meditated on the monstrous shapes in sight. "i wonder 'ow all these old antediluvium animals got extinct," he asked. "no one couldn't possibly 'ave killed 'em." "why! _i_ know that," said ann. "they was overtook by the flood...." kipps meditated for a while. "but i thought they had to take two of everything there was----" "within reason they 'ad," said ann.... the kippses left it at that. the great green and gold labyrinthodon took no notice of their conversation. it gazed with its wonderful eyes over their heads into the infinite--inflexibly calm. it might indeed have been coote himself there, coote, the unassuming, cutting them dead.... § and in due course these two simple souls married, and venus urania, the goddess of wedded love, the goddess of tolerant kindliness or meeting half way, to whom all young couples should pray and offer sacrifices of self, who is indeed a very great and noble and kindly goddess, was in some manner propitiated, and bent down and blessed them in their union. end of book ii. book iii kippses chapter i the housing problem § honeymoons and all things come to an end, and you see at last mr. and mrs. arthur kipps descending upon the hythe platform--coming to hythe to find that nice _little_ house--to realise that bright dream of a home they had first talked about in the grounds of the crystal palace. they are a valiant couple, you perceive, but small, and the world is a large incongruous system of complex and difficult things. kipps wears a grey suit, with a wing-poke collar and a neat, smart tie. mrs. kipps is the same bright and healthy little girl woman you saw in the marsh; not an inch has been added to her stature in all my voluminous narrative. only now she wears a hat. it is a hat very unlike the hats she used to wear on her sundays out, a flourishing hat with feathers and buckle and bows and things. the price of that hat would take many people's breath away--it cost two guineas! kipps chose it. kipps paid for it. they left the shop with flushed cheeks and smarting eyes, glad to be out of range of the condescending saleswoman. "artie," said ann, "you didn't ought to 'ave----" that was all. and you know, the hat didn't suit ann a bit. her clothes did not suit her at all. the simple, cheap, clean brightness of her former style had given place not only to this hat, but to several other things in the same key. and out from among these things looked her pretty face, the face of a wise little child--an artless wonder struggling through a preposterous dignity. they had bought that hat one day when they had gone to see the shops in bond street. kipps had looked at the passers-by and it had suddenly occurred to him that ann was dowdy. he had noted the hat of a very proud-looking lady passing in an electric brougham and had resolved to get ann the nearest thing to that. the railway porters perceived some subtle incongruity in ann, the knot of cabmen in the station doorway, the two golfers and the lady with daughters, who had also got out of the train. and kipps, a little pale, blowing a little, not in complete possession of himself, knew that they noticed her and him. and ann----. it is hard to say just what ann observed of these things. "'ere!" said kipps to a cabman, and regretted too late a vanished "h." "i got a trunk up there," he said to a ticket inspector, "marked a. k." "ask a porter," said the inspector, turning his back. "demn!" said kipps, not altogether inaudibly. § it is all very well to sit in the sunshine and talk of the house you will have, and another altogether to achieve it. we english--all the world indeed to-day--live in a strange atmosphere of neglected great issues, of insistent, triumphant petty things, we are given up to the fine littlenesses of intercourse; table manners and small correctitudes are the substance of our lives. you do not escape these things for long even by so catastrophic a proceeding as flying to london with a young lady of no wealth and inferior social position. the mists of noble emotion swirl and pass and there you are divorced from all your deities and grazing in the meadows under the argus eyes of the social system, the innumerable mean judgments you feel raining upon you, upon your clothes and bearing, upon your pretensions and movements. our world to-day is a meanly conceived one--it is only an added meanness to conceal that fact. for one consequence, it has very few nice little houses, such things do not come for the asking, they are not to be bought with money during ignoble times. its houses are built on the ground of monstrously rich, shabbily extortionate landowners, by poor, parsimonious, greedy people in a mood of elbowing competition. what can you expect from such ridiculous conditions? to go househunting is to spy out the nakedness of this pretentious world, to see what our civilization amounts to when you take away curtains and flounces and carpets and all the fluster and distraction of people and fittings. it is to see mean plans meanly executed for mean ends, the conventions torn aside, the secrets stripped, the substance underlying all such chester cootery, soiled and worn and left. so you see our poor, dear kippses going to and fro, in hythe, in sandgate, in ashford and canterbury and deal and dover--at last even in folkestone, with "orders to view," pink and green and white and yellow orders to view, and labelled keys in kipps' hand and frowns and perplexity upon their faces.... they did not clearly know what they wanted, but whatever it was they saw, they knew they did not want that. always they found a confusing multitude of houses they could not take, and none they could. their dreams began to turn mainly on empty, abandoned-looking rooms, with unfaded patches of paper to mark the place of vanished pictures and doors that had lost their keys. they saw rooms floored with boards that yawned apart and were splintered, skirtings eloquent of the industrious mouse, kitchens with a dead black-beetle in the empty cupboard, and a hideous variety of coal holes and dark cupboards under the stairs. they stuck their little heads through roof trap-doors and gazed at disorganised ball taps, at the bleak filthiness of unstoppered roofs. there were occasions when it seemed to them that they must be the victims of an elaborate conspiracy of house agents, so bleak and cheerless is a second-hand empty house in comparison with the humblest of inhabited dwellings. commonly the houses were too big. they had huge windows that demanded vast curtains in mitigation, countless bedrooms, acreage of stone steps to be cleaned, kitchens that made ann protest. she had come so far towards a proper conception of kipps' social position as to admit the prospect of one servant--"but lor'!" she would say, "you'd want a manservant in this 'ouse." when the houses were not too big, then they were almost invariably the product of speculative building, of that multitudinous hasty building for the extravagant multitude of new births that was the essential disaster of the nineteenth century. the new houses ann refused as damp, and even the youngest of these that had been in use showed remarkable signs of a sickly constitution, the plaster flaked away, the floors gaped, the paper mouldered and peeled, the doors dropped, the bricks scaled and the railings rusted, nature in the form of spiders, earwigs, cockroaches, mice, rats, fungi and remarkable smells, was already fighting her way back.... and the plan was invariably inconvenient, invariably. all the houses they saw had a common quality for which she could find no word, but for which the proper word is incivility. "they build these 'ouses," she said, "as though girls wasn't 'uman beings." sid's social democracy had got into her blood perhaps, and anyhow they went about discovering the most remarkable inconsiderateness in the contemporary house. "there's kitching stairs to go up, artie!" ann would say. "some poor girl's got to go up and down, up and down, and be tired out, jest because they haven't the sense to leave enough space to give their steps a proper rise--and no water upstairs anywhere--every drop got to be carried! it's 'ouses like this wear girls out. "it's 'aving 'ouses built by men, i believe, makes all the work and trouble," said ann.... the kippses, you see, thought they were looking for a reasonably simple little contemporary house, but indeed they were looking either for dreamland or a.d. or thereabouts, and it hadn't come. § but it was a foolish thing of kipps to begin building a house. he did that out of an extraordinary animosity for house agents he had conceived. everybody hates house agents just as everybody loves sailors. it is no doubt a very wicked and unjust hatred, but the business of a novelist is not ethical principle but facts. everybody hates house agents because they have everybody at a disadvantage. all other callings have a certain amount of give and take; the house agent simply takes. all other callings want you; your solicitor is afraid you may change him, your doctor cannot go too far, your novelist--if only you knew it--is mutely abject towards your unspoken wishes--and as for your tradespeople, milkmen will fight outside your front door for you, and green-grocers call in tears if you discard them suddenly; but who ever heard of a house agent struggling to serve anyone? you want to get a house; you go to him, you dishevelled and angry from travel, anxious, enquiring; he calm, clean, inactive, reticent, quietly doing nothing. you beg him to reduce rents, whitewash ceilings, produce other houses, combine the summer house of no. with the conservatory of no. --much he cares! you want to dispose of a house; then he is just the same, serene, indifferent--on one occasion i remember he was picking his teeth all the time he answered me. competition is a mockery among house agents, they are all alike, you cannot wound them by going to the opposite office, you cannot dismiss them, you can at most dismiss yourself. they are invulnerably placed behind mahogany and brass, too far usually even for a sudden swift lunge with an umbrella, and to throw away the keys they lend you instead of returning them is larceny and punishable as such. it was a house agent in dover who finally decided kipps to build. kipps, with a certain faltering in his voice, had delivered his ultimatum, no basement, not more than eight rooms, hot and cold water upstairs, coal cellar in the house but with intervening doors to keep dust from the scullery and so forth. he stood blowing. "you'll have to build a house," said the house agent, sighing wearily, "if you want all that." it was rather for the sake of effective answer than with any intention at the time that kipps mumbled, "that's about what i shall do--this goes on." whereupon the house agent smiled. he smiled! when kipps came to turn the thing over in his mind he was surprised to find quite a considerable intention had germinated and was growing up in him. after all, lots of people _have_ built houses. how could there be so many if they hadn't? suppose he "reely" did! then he would go to the house agent and say, "'ere, while you been getting me a sootable 'ouse, blowed if i 'aven't built one!" go round to all of them; all the house agents in folkestone, in dover, ashford, canterbury, margate, ramsgate, saying that! perhaps then they might be sorry. it was in the small hours that he awoke to a realisation that he had made up his mind in the matter. "ann," he said, "ann," and also used the sharp of his elbow. ann was at last awakened to the pitch of an indistinct enquiry what was the matter. "i'm going to build a house, ann." "eh?" said ann, suddenly, as if awake. "build a house." ann said something incoherent about he'd better wait until the morning before he did anything of the sort, and immediately with a fine trustfulness went fast asleep again. but kipps lay awake for a long while building his house, and in the morning at breakfast he made his meaning clear. he had smarted under the indignities of house agents long enough, and this seemed to promise revenge--a fine revenge. "and, you know, we might reely make rather a nice little 'ouse out of it--like we want." so resolved, it became possible for them to take a house for a year, with a basement, no service lift, blackleading to do everywhere, no water upstairs, no bathroom, vast sash windows to be cleaned from the sill, stone steps with a twist and open to the rain into the coal cellar, insufficient cupboards, unpaved path to the dustbin, no fireplace to the servant's bedroom, no end of splintery wood to scrub--in fact, a very typical english middle-class house. and having added to this house some furniture, and a languid young person with unauthentic golden hair named gwendolen, who was engaged to a sergeant-major and had formerly been in an hotel, having "moved in" and spent some sleepless nights varied by nocturnal explorations in search of burglars, because of the strangeness of being in a house for which they were personally responsible, kipps settled down for a time and turned himself with considerable resolution to the project of building a home. § at first kipps had gathered advice, finding an initial difficulty in how to begin. he went into a builder's shop at seabrook one day, and told the lady in charge that he wanted a house built; he was breathless but quite determined, and he was prepared to give his order there and then, but she temporised with him and said her husband was out, and he left without giving his name. also he went and talked to a man in a cart who was pointed out to him by a workman as the builder of a new house near saltwood, but he found him first sceptical and then overpoweringly sarcastic. "i suppose you build a 'ouse every 'oliday," he said, and turned from kipps with every symptom of contempt. afterwards carshot told alarming stories about builders, and shook kipps' expressed resolution a good deal, and then pierce raised the question whether one ought to go in the first instance to a builder at all and not rather to an architect. pierce knew a man at ashford whose brother was an architect, and as it is always better in these matters to get someone you know, the kippses decided, before pierce had gone, and carshot's warning had resumed their sway, to apply to him. they did so--rather dubiously. the architect who was brother of pierce's friend appeared as a small, alert individual with a black bag and a cylindrical silk hat, and he sat at the dining-room table, with his hat and his bag exactly equidistant right and left of him, and maintained a demeanour of impressive woodenness, while kipps on the hearthrug, with a quaking sense of gigantic enterprise, vacillated answers to his enquiries. ann held a watching brief for herself, in a position she had chosen as suitable to the occasion beside the corner of the carved oak sideboard. they felt, in a sense, at bay. the architect began by asking for the site, and seemed a little discomposed to discover this had still to be found. "i thought of building just anywhere," said kipps. "i 'aven't made up my mind about that yet." the architect remarked that he would have preferred to see the site in order to know where to put what he called his "ugly side," but it was quite possible of course to plan a house "in the air," on the level, "simply with back and front assumed"--if they would like to do that. kipps flushed slightly, and secretly hoping it would make no great difference in the fees, said a little doubtfully that he thought that would be all right. the architect then marked off as it were the first section of his subject, with a single dry cough, opened his bag, took out a spring tape measure, some hard biscuits, a metal flask, a new pair of dogskin gloves, a clockwork motor-car partially wrapped in paper, a bunch of violets, a paper of small brass screws, and finally a large, distended notebook; he replaced the other objects carefully, opened his notebook, put a pencil to his lips and said: "and what accommodation will you require?" to which ann, who had followed his every movement with the closest attention and a deepening dread, replied with the violent suddenness of one who has long lain in wait, "cubbuds!" "anyhow," she added, catching her husband's eye. the architect wrote it down. "and how many rooms?" he said, coming to secondary matters. the young people regarded one another. it was dreadfully like giving an order. "how many bedrooms, for example?" asked the architect. "one?" suggested kipps, inclined now to minimise at any cost. "there's gwendolen," said ann. "visitors perhaps," said the architect, and temperately, "you never know." "two, p'raps?" said kipps. "we don't want no more than a _little_ 'ouse, you know." "but the merest shooting-box----," said the architect. they got to six; he beat them steadily from bedroom to bedroom, the word "nursery" played across their imaginative skies--he mentioned it as the remotest possibility--and then six being reluctantly conceded, ann came forward to the table, sat down and delivered herself of one of her prepared conditions: "'ot and cold water," she said, "laid on to each room--any'ow." it was an idea long since acquired from sid. "yes," said kipps, on the hearthrug, "'ot and cold water laid on to each bedroom--we've settled on that." it was the first intimation to the architect that he had to deal with a couple of exceptional originality, and as he had spent the previous afternoon in finding three large houses in _the builder_, which he intended to combine into an original and copyright design of his own, he naturally struggled against these novel requirements. he enlarged on the extreme expensiveness of plumbing, on the extreme expensiveness of everything not already arranged for in his scheme, and only when ann declared she'd as soon not have the house as not have her requirements, and kipps, blenching the while, had said he didn't mind what a thing cost him so long as he got what he wanted, did he allow a kindred originality of his own to appear beneath the acquired professionalism of his methods. he dismissed their previous talk with his paragraphic cough. "of course," he said, "if you don't mind being unconventional----" he explained that he had been thinking of a queen anne style of architecture (ann directly she heard her name shook her head at kipps in an aside) so far as the exterior went. for his own part, he said, he liked to have the exterior of a house in a style, not priggishly in a style, but mixed, with one style uppermost, and the gables and dormers and casements of the queen anne style, with a little rough cast and sham timbering here and there and perhaps a bit of an overhang diversified a house and made it interesting. the advantages of what he called a queen anne style was that it had such a variety of features.... still, if they were prepared to be unconventional it could be done. a number of houses were now built in the unconventional style and were often very pretty. in the unconventional style one frequently had what perhaps he might call internal features, for example, an old english oak staircase and gallery. white rough-cast and green paint were a good deal favoured in houses of this type. he indicated that this excursus on style was finished by a momentary use of his cough, and reopened his notebook, which he had closed to wave about in a moment of descriptive enthusiasm while expatiating on the unbridled wealth of external features associated with queen anne. "six bedrooms," he said, moistening his pencil. "one with barred windows suitable for a nursery if required." kipps endorsed this huskily and reluctantly. there followed a most interesting discussion upon house building, in which kipps played a minor part. they passed from bedrooms to the kitchen and scullery, and there ann displayed an intelligent exactingness that won the expressed admiration of the architect. they were particularly novel upon the position of the coal cellar, which ann held to be altogether too low in the ordinary house, necessitating much heavy carrying. they dismissed as impracticable the idea of having coal cellar and kitchen at the top of the house, because that would involve carrying all the coal through the house, and therewith much subsequent cleaning, and for a time they dealt with a conception of a coal cellar on the ground floor with a light staircase running up outside to an exterior shoot. "it might be made a feature," said the architect, a little doubtfully, jotting down a note of it. "it would be apt to get black, you know." thence they passed to the alternative of service lifts, and then by an inspiration of the architect to the possibilities of gas heating. kipps did a complicated verbal fugue on the theme, "gas heating heats the air," with variable aspirates; he became very red and was lost to the discussion altogether for a time, though his lips kept silently on. subsequently the architect wrote to say that he found in his notebook very full and explicit directions for bow windows to all rooms, for bedrooms, for water supply, lift, height of stairs and absence of twists therein, for a well-ventilated kitchen twenty feet square, with two dressers and a large box-window seat, for scullery and outhouses and offices, but nothing whatever about drawing-room, dining-room, library or study, or approximate cost, and he awaited further instructions. he presumed there would be a breakfast-room, dining-room, drawing-room, and study for mr. kipps, at least that was his conception, and the young couple discussed this matter long and ardently. ann was distinctly restrictive in this direction. "i don't see what you want a drawin'-room and a dinin' _and_ a kitchen for. if we was going to let in summer--well and good. but we're not going to let. consequently we don't want so many rooms. then there's a 'all. what use is a 'all? it only makes work. and a study!" kipps had been humming and stroking his moustache since he had read the architect's letter. "i think i'd like a little bit of a study--not a big one, of course, but one with a desk and book-shelves, like there was in hughenden. i'd like that." it was only after they had talked to the architect again and seen how scandalised he was at the idea of not having a drawing-room that they consented to that internal feature. they consented to please him. "but we shan't never use it," said ann. kipps had his way about a study. "when i get that study," said kipps, "i shall do a bit of reading i've long wanted to do. i shall make a habit of going in there and reading something an hour every day. there's shakespeare and a lot of things a man like me ought to read. besides, we got to 'ave _somewhere_ to put the encyclopædia. i've always thought a study was about what i've wanted all along. you can't 'elp reading if you got a study. if you 'aven't, there's nothing for it, so far's _i_ can see, but treshy novels." he looked down at ann and was surprised to see a joyless thoughtfulness upon her face. "fency, ann!" he said, not too buoyantly, "'aving a little 'ouse of our own!" "it won't be a little 'ouse," said ann, "not with all them rooms." § any lingering doubt in that matter was dispelled when it came to plans. the architect drew three sets of plans on a transparent bluish sort of paper that smelt abominably. he painted them very nicely; brick red and ginger, and arsenic green and a leaden sort of blue, and brought them over to show our young people. the first set were very simple, with practically no external features--"a plain style," he said it was--but it looked a big sort of house nevertheless; the second had such extras as a conservatory, bow windows of various sorts, one rough-cast gable and one half-timbered ditto in plaster, and a sort of overhung verandah, and was much more imposing; and the third was quite fungoid with external features, and honeycombed with internal ones; it was, he said, "practically a mansion," and altogether a very noble fruit of the creative mind of man. it was, he admitted, perhaps almost too good for hythe; his art had run away with him and produced a modern mansion in the "best folkestone style"; it had a central hall with a staircase, a moorish gallery, and tudor stained glass window, crenelated battlements to the leading over the portico, an octagonal bulge with octagonal bay windows, surmounted by an oriental dome of metal, lines of yellow bricks to break up the red and many other richnesses and attractions. it was the sort of house, ornate and in its dignified way voluptuous, that a city magnate might build, but it seemed excessive to the kippses. the first plan had seven bedrooms, the second eight, the third eleven; that had, the architect explained, "worked in" as if they were pebbles in a mountaineer's boat. "they're big 'ouses," said ann directly the elevations were unrolled. kipps listened to the architect with round eyes and an exuberant caution in his manner, anxious not to commit himself further than he had done to the enterprise, and the architect pointed out the features and other objects of interest with the scalpel belonging to a pocket manicure set that he carried. ann watched kipps' face and communicated with him furtively over the architect's head. "_not so big_," said ann's lips. "it's a bit big for what i meant," said kipps, with a reassuring eye on ann. "you won't think it big when you see it up," said the architect; "you take my word for that." "we don't want no more than six bedrooms," said kipps. "make this one a box-room, then," said the architect. a feeling of impotence silenced kipps for a time. "now which," said the architect, spreading them out, "is it to be?" he flattened down the plans of the most ornate mansion to show it to better effect. kipps wanted to know how much each would cost "at the outside," which led to much alarmed signalling from ann. but the architect could estimate only in the most general way. they were not really committed to anything when the architect went away; kipps had promised to think it over, that was all. "we can't 'ave that 'ouse," said ann. "they're miles too big--all of them," agreed kipps. "you'd want----. four servants wouldn't be 'ardly enough," said ann. kipps went to the hearthrug and spread himself. his tone was almost offhand. "nex' time 'e comes," said kipps, "i'll 'splain to him. it isn't at all the sort of thing we want. it's--it's a misunderstanding. you got no occasion to be anxious 'bout it, ann." "i don't see much good reely in building an 'ouse at all," said ann. "oo, we _got_ to build a 'ouse now we begun," said kipps. "but, now, supposin' we 'ad----." he spread out the most modest of the three plans and scratched his cheek. § it was unfortunate that old kipps came over the next day. old kipps always produced peculiar states of mind in his nephew, a rash assertiveness, a disposition towards display unlike his usual self. there had been great difficulty in reconciling both these old people to the pornick mesalliance, and at times the controversy echoed in old kipps' expressed thoughts. this perhaps it was, and no ignoble vanity, that set the note of florid successfulness going in kipps' conversation whenever his uncle appeared. mrs. kipps was, as a matter of fact, not reconciled at all, she had declined all invitations to come over on the 'bus, and was a taciturn hostess on the one occasion when the young people called at the toy shop _en route_ for mrs. pornick. she displayed a tendency to sniff that was clearly due to pride rather than catarrh, and except for telling ann she hoped she would not feel too "stuck up" about her marriage, confined her conversation to her nephew or the infinite. the call was a brief one and made up chiefly of pauses, no refreshment was offered or asked for, and ann departed with a singularly high colour. for some reason she would not call at the toy shop when they found themselves again in new romney. but old kipps, having adventured over and tried the table of the new _menage_ and found it to his taste, showed many signs of softening towards ann. he came again and then again. he would come over by the 'bus, and except when his mouth was absolutely full, he would give his nephew one solid and continuous mass of advice of the most subtle and disturbing description, until it was time to toddle back to the high street for the afternoon 'bus. he would walk with him to the sea front, and commence _pourparlers_ with boatmen for the purchase of one of their boats. "you ought to keep a boat of your own," he said, though kipps was a singularly poor sailor--or he would pursue a plan that was forming in his mind in which he should own and manage what he called "weekly" property in the less conspicuous streets of hythe. the cream of that was to be a weekly collection of rents in person, the nearest approach to feudal splendour left in this democratised country. he gave no hint of the source of the capital he designed for this investment and at times it would appear he intended it as an occupation for his nephew rather than himself. but there remained something in his manner towards ann; in the glances of scrutiny he gave her unawares, that kept kipps alertly expansive whenever he was about. and in all sorts of ways. it was on account of old kipps, for example, that our kipps plunged one day, a golden plunge, and brought home a box of cummerbundy ninepenny cigars, and substituted blue label old methusaleh four stars for the common and generally satisfactory white brand. "some of this is whiskey, my boy," said old kipps when he tasted it, smacking critical lips. "saw a lot of young officer fellers coming along," said old kipps. "you ought to join the volunteers, my boy, and get to know a few." "i dessay i shall," said kipps. "later." "they'd make you an officer, you know, 'n no time. they want officers," said old kipps. "it isn't everyone can afford it. they'd be regular glad to 'ave you.... ain't bort a dog yet?" "not yet, uncle. 'ave a segar?" "not a moty car?" "not yet, uncle." "there's no 'urry 'bout that. and don't get one of these 'ere trashy cheap ones when you do get it, my boy. get one as'll last a lifetime.... i'm surprised you don't 'ire a bit more." "ann don't seem to fency a moty car," said kipps. "ah!" said old kipps, "i expect not," and glanced a comment at the door. "she ain't used to going out," he said. "more at 'ome indoors." "fact is," said kipps, hastily, "we're thinking of building a 'ouse." "i wouldn't do that, my boy," began old kipps, but his nephew was routing in the cheffonier drawer amidst the plans. he got them in time to check some further comment on ann. "um," said the old gentleman, a little impressed by the extraordinary odour and the unusual transparency of the tracing paper kipps put into his hands. "thinking of building a 'ouse, are you?" kipps began with the most modest of the three projects. old kipps read slowly through his silver-rimmed spectacles: "plan of a 'ouse for arthur kipps esquire--um." he didn't warm to the project all at once, and ann drifted into the room to find him still scrutinising the architect's proposals a little doubtfully. "we couldn't find a decent 'ouse anywhere," said kipps, leaning against the table and assuming an offhand note. "i didn't see why we shouldn't run up one for ourselves." old kipps could not help liking the tone of that. "we thought we might see----" said ann. "it's a spekerlation, of course," said old kipps, and held the plan at a distance of two feet or more from his glasses and frowned. "this isn't exactly the 'ouse i should expect you to 'ave thought of, though," he said. "practically it's a villa. it's the sort of 'ouse a bank clerk might 'ave. 'tisn't what i should call a gentleman's 'ouse, artie." "it's plain, of course," said kipps, standing beside his uncle and looking down at this plan, which certainly did seem a little less magnificent now than it had at the first encounter. "you mustn't 'ave it too plain," said old kipps. "if it's comfortable----," ann hazarded. old kipps glanced at her over his spectacles. "you ain't comfortable, my gal, in this world, not if you don't live up to your position," so putting compactly into contemporary english that fine old phrase, _noblesse oblige_. "a 'ouse of this sort is what a retired tradesman might 'ave, or some little whippersnapper of a s'liciter. but _you_----" "course that isn't the o'ny plan," said kipps, and tried the middle one. but it was the third one which won over old kipps. "now that's a _'ouse_, my boy," he said at the sight of it. ann came and stood just behind her husband's shoulder while old kipps expanded upon the desirability of the larger scheme. "you ought to 'ave a billiard-room," he said; "i don't see that, but all the rest's all right. a lot of these 'ere officers 'ere 'ud be glad of a game of billiards."... "what's all these dots?" said old kipps. "s'rubbery," said kipps. "flow'ing s'rubs." "there's eleven bedrooms in that 'ouse," said ann. "it's a bit of a lot, ain't it, uncle?" "you'll want 'em, my girl. as you get on, you'll be 'aving visitors. friends of your 'usband, p'raps, from the school of musketry, what you want 'im to get on with. you can't never tell." "if we 'ave a great s'rubbery," ann ventured, "we shall 'ave to keep a gardener." "if you don't 'ave a s'rubbery," said old kipps, with a note of patient reasoning, "'ow are you to prevent every jackanapes that goes by, starin' into your drorin'-room winder--p'raps when you get someone a bit special to entertain?" "we ain't _used_ to a s'rubbery," said ann, mulishly; "we get on very well 'ere." "it isn't what you're used to," said old kipps, "it's what you ought to 'ave _now_." and with that ann dropped out of the discussion. "study and lib'ry," old kipps read. "that's right. i see a tantalus the other day over brookland, the very thing for a gentleman's study. i'll try and get over and bid for it."... by 'bus time old kipps was quite enthusiastic about the house building, and it seemed to be definitely settled that the largest plan was the one decided upon. but ann had said nothing further in the matter. § when kipps returned from seeing his uncle into the 'bus--there always seemed a certain doubt whether that portly figure would go into the little red "tip-top" box--he found ann still standing by the table, looking with an expression of comprehensive disapproval at the three plans. "there don't seem much the matter with uncle," said kipps, assuming the hearthrug, "spite of 'is 'eartburn. 'e 'opped up them steps like a bird." ann remained staring at the plans. "you don't like them plans?" hazarded kipps. "no, i don't, artie." "we got to build somethin' now." "but--it's a gentleman's 'ouse, artie!" "it's--it's a decent size, o' course." kipps took a flirting look at the drawing and went to the window. "look at the cleanin'. free servants'll be lost in that 'ouse, artie." "we must _'ave_ servants," said kipps. ann looked despondently at her future residence. "we got to keep up our position, any'ow," said kipps, turning towards her. "it stands to reason, ann, we got a position. very well! i can't 'ave you scrubbin' floors. you got to 'ave a servant and you got to manage a 'ouse. you wouldn't 'ave me ashamed----" ann opened her lips and did not speak. "what?" asked kipps. "nothing," said ann, "only i did want it to be a _little_ 'ouse, artie. i wanted it to be a 'andy little 'ouse, jest for us." kipps' face was suddenly flushed and mulish. he took up the curiously smelling tracings again. "i'm not a-going to be looked down upon," he said. "it's not only uncle i'm thinking of!" ann stared at him. kipps went on. "i won't 'ave that young walshingham f'r instance, sneering and sniffling at me. making out as if we was all wrong. i see 'im yesterday.... nor coote neether. i'm as good--we're as good. whatever's 'appened." silence and the rustle of plans. he looked up and saw ann's eyes bright with tears. for a moment the two stared at one another. "we'll 'ave the big 'ouse," said ann, with a gulp. "i didn't think of that, artie." her aspect was fierce and resolute, and she struggled with emotion. "we'll 'ave the big 'ouse," she repeated. "they shan't say i dragged you down wiv' me--none of them shan't say that. i've thought--i've always been afraid of that." kipps looked again at the plan, and suddenly the grand house had become very grand indeed. he blew. "no, artie, none of them shan't say that," and with something blind in her motions ann tried to turn the plan round to her.... after all, kipps thought there might be something to say for the milder project.... but he had gone so far that now he did not know how to say it. and so the plans went out to the builders, and in a little while kipps was committed to two thousand five hundred pounds worth of building. but then, you know, he had an income of twelve hundred a year. § it is extraordinary what minor difficulties cluster about house building. "i say, ann," remarked kipps one day, "we shall 'ave to call this little 'ouse by a name. i was thinking of 'ome cottage. but i dunno whether 'ome cottage is quite the thing like. all these little fishermen's places are called cottages." "i like cottage," said ann. "it's got eleven bedrooms, d'see," said kipps. "i don't see 'ow you can call it a cottage with more bedrooms than four. prop'ly speaking, it's a large villa. prop'ly, it's almost a big 'ouse. leastways a 'ouse." "well," said ann, "if you must call it villa--home villa.... i wish it wasn't." kipps meditated. "'ow about eureka villa?" he said, raising his voice. "what's eureka?" "it's a name," he said. "there used to be eureka dress fasteners. there's lots of names, come to think of it, to be got out of a shop. there's pyjama villa. i remember that in the hosiery. no, come to think, that wouldn't do. but maraposa--sort of oatmeal cloth, that was.... no! eureka's better." ann meditated. "it seems silly like to 'ave a name that don't mean much." "perhaps it does," said kipps. "though it's what people 'ave to do." he became meditative. "i got it!" he cried. "not oreeka!" said ann. "no! there used to be a 'ouse at hastings opposite our school--quite a big 'ouse it was--st. ann's. now _that_----" "no," said mrs. kipps with decision. "thanking you kindly, but i don't have no butcher boys making game of me."... they consulted carshot, who suggested after some days of reflection, waddycombe, as a graceful reminder of kipps' grandfather; old kipps, who was for "upton manor house," where he had once been second footman; buggins, who favoured either a stern simple number, "number one"--if there were no other houses there, or something patriotic, as "empire villa," and pierce, who inclined to "sandringham"; but in spite of all this help they were still undecided when, amidst violent perturbations of the soul, and after the most complex and difficult hagglings, wranglings, fears, muddles and goings to and fro, kipps became the joyless owner of a freehold plot of three-eighths of an acre, and saw the turf being wheeled away from the site that should one day be his home. chapter ii the callers § the kippses sat at their midday dinner-table and amidst the vestiges of rhubarb pie, and discussed two postcards the one o'clock post had brought. it was a rare bright moment of sunshine in a wet and windy day in the march that followed their marriage. kipps was attired in a suit of brown, with a tie of fashionable green, while ann wore one of those picturesque loose robes that are usually associated with sandals and advanced ideas. but there weren't any sandals on ann or any advanced ideas, and the robe had come quite recently through the counsels of mrs. sid pornick. "it's artlike," said kipps, giving way. "it's more comfortable," said ann. the room looked out by french windows upon a little patch of green and the hythe parade. the parade was all shiny wet with rain, and the green-grey sea tumbled and tumbled between parade and sky. the kipps' furniture, except for certain chromo lithographs of kipps' incidental choice that struck a quiet note amidst the wall paper, had been tactfully forced by an expert salesman, and it was in a style of mediocre elegance. there was a sideboard of carved oak that had only one fault, it reminded kipps at times of wood-carving, and its panel of bevelled glass now reflected the back of his head. on its shelf were two books from parsons' library, each with a "place" marked by a slip of paper; neither of the kippses could have told you the title of either book they read, much less the author's name. there was an ebonised overmantel set with phials and pots of brilliant colour, each duplicated by looking-glass, and bearing also a pair of chinese jars made in birmingham, a wedding present from mr. and mrs. sidney pornick, and several sumptuous japanese fans. and there was a turkey carpet of great richness. in addition to these modern exploits of messrs. bunt and bubble, there were two inactive tall clocks, whose extreme dilapidation appealed to the connoisseur; a terrestrial and a celestial globe, the latter deeply indented; a number of good old iron moulded and dusty books, and a stuffed owl wanting one (easily replaceable) glass eye, obtained by the exertions of uncle kipps. the table equipage was as much as possible like mrs. bindon botting's, only more costly, and in addition there were green and crimson wine glasses--though the kippses never drank wine. kipps turned to the more legible of his two postcards again. "'unavoidably prevented from seein' me to-day,' 'e says. i like 'is cheek. after i give 'im 'is start and everything." he blew. "'e certainly treats you a bit orf'and," said ann. kipps gave vent to his dislike of young walshingham. "he's getting too big for 'is britches," he said. "i'm beginning to wish she _'ad_ brought an action for breach. ever since _'e_ said she wouldn't, 'e's seemed to think i've got no right to spend my own money." "'e's never liked your building the 'ouse," said ann. kipps displayed wrath. "what the goodness 'as it got to do wiv' 'im?" "overman indeed!" he added. "overmantel!... 'e trys that on with me, i'll tell 'im something 'e won't like." he took up the second card. "dashed if i can read a word of it. i can jest make out chit-low at the end and that's all." he scrutinised it. "it's like someone in a fit writing. this here might be w h a t--_what_. p r i c e--_i_ got it! what price harry now? it was a sort of saying of 'is. i expect 'e's either done something or not done something towards starting that play, ann." "i expect that's about it," said ann. kipps grunted with effort. "i can't read the rest," he said at last, "nohow." a thoroughly annoying post. he pitched the card on the table, stood up and went to the window, where ann, after a momentary reconnaisance at chitterlow's hieroglyphics, came to join him. "wonder what i shall do this afternoon," said kipps, with his hands deep in his pockets. he produced and lit a cigarette. "go for a walk, i s'pose," said ann. "i _been_ for a walk this morning. "s'pose i must go for another," he added, after an interval. they regarded the windy waste of sea for a space. "wonder why it is 'e won't see me," said kipps, returning to the problem of young walshingham. "it's all lies about 'is being too busy." ann offered no solution. "rain again!" said kipps, as the lash of the little drops stung the window. "oo, bother!" said kipps, "you got to do something. look 'ere, ann! i'll go orf for a reg'lar tramp through the rain, up by saltwood, 'round by newington, over the camp, and so 'round and back, and see 'ow they're getting on about the 'ouse. see? and look 'ere! you get gwendolen to go out a bit before i come back. if it's still rainy, she can easy go 'round and see 'er sister. then we'll 'ave a bit of tea, with tea cake--all buttery, see? toce it ourselves, p'raps. eh?" "i dessay i can find something to do in the 'ouse," said ann, considering. "you'll take your mackintosh and leggin's, i s'pose. you'll get wet without your mackintosh over those roads." "righ-o," said kipps, and went to ask gwendolen for his brown leggings and his other pair of boots. § things conspired to demoralise kipps that afternoon. when he got outside the house everything looked so wet under the drive of the southwester that he abandoned the prospect of the clay lanes towards newington altogether, and turned east to folkestone along the seabrook digue. his mackintosh flapped about him, the rain stung his cheek; for a time he felt a hardy man. and then as abruptly the rain ceased and the wind fell, and before he was through sandgate high street it was a bright spring day. and there was kipps in his mackintosh and squeaky leggings, looking like a fool! inertia carried him another mile to the leas, and there the whole world was pretending there had never been such a thing as rain--ever. there wasn't a cloud in the sky; except for an occasional puddle the asphalt paths looked as dry as a bone. a smartly dressed man in one of those overcoats that look like ordinary cloth and are really most deceitfully and unfairly waterproof, passed him and glanced at the stiff folds of his mackintosh. "demn!" said kipps. his mackintosh swished against his leggings, his leggings piped and whistled over his boot-tops. "why do i never get anything right?" kipps asked of a bright implacable universe. nice old ladies passed him, refined people with tidy umbrellas, bright, beautiful, supercilious-looking children. of course! the right thing for such a day as this was a light overcoat and an umbrella. a child might have known that. he had them at home, but how could one explain that? he decided to turn down by the harvey monument and escape through clifton gardens towards the hills. and thereby he came upon coote. he already felt the most abject and propitiatory of social outcasts when he came upon coote, and coote finished him. he passed within a yard of coote. coote was coming along towards the leas, and when kipps saw him his legs hesitated about their office and he seemed to himself to stagger about all over the footpath. at the sight of him coote started visibly. then a sort of _rigor vitae_ passed through his frame, his jaw protruded and errant bubbles of air seemed to escape and run about beneath his loose skin. (seemed i say--i am perfectly well aware that there is really connective tissue in coote as in all of us to prevent anything of the sort.) his eyes fixed themselves on the horizon and glazed. as he went by kipps could hear his even, resolute breathing. he went by, and kipps staggered on into a universe of dead cats and dust heaps, rind and ashes--_cut!_ cut! it was part of the inexorable decrees of providence that almost immediately afterwards the residuum of kipps had to pass a very, very long and observant-looking girls' school. kipps recovered consciousness again on the road between shorncliffe station and cheriton, though he cannot remember, indeed to this day he has never attempted to remember, how he got there. and he was back at certain thoughts suggested by his last night's novel reading, that linked up directly with the pariah-like emotions of these last encounters. the novel lay at home upon the cheffonier; it was one of society and politics--there is no need whatever to give the title or name the author--written with a heavy-handed thoroughness that overrode any possibility of resistance on the part of the kipps mind. it had crushed all his poor little edifice of ideals, his dreams of a sensible, unassuming existence, of snugness, of not caring what people said and all the rest of it, to dust; it had reinstated, squarely and strongly again, the only proper conception of english social life. there was a character in the book who trifled with art, who was addicted to reading french novels, who dressed in a loose, careless way, who was a sorrow to his dignified, silvery-haired, politico-religious mother, and met the admonitions of bishops with a front of brass. he treated a "nice girl," to whom they had got him engaged, badly; he married beneath him--some low thing or other. and sank.... kipps could not escape the application of the case. he was enabled to see how this sort of thing looked to decent people; he was enabled to gauge the measure of the penalties due. his mind went from that to the frozen marble of coote's visage. _he deserved it!_... that day of remorse! later it found him coming upon the site of his building operations and surveying it in a mood near to despair, his mackintosh over his arm. hardly anyone was at work that day--no doubt the builders were having him in some obscure manner--and the whole place seemed a dismal and depressing litter. the builder's shed, black-lettered wilkins, builder, hythe, looked like a stranded thing amidst a cast-up disorder of wheelbarrows and wheeling planks, and earth and sand and bricks. the foundations of the walls were trenches full of damp concrete, drying in patches; the rooms--it was incredible they could ever be rooms--were shaped out as squares and oblongs of coarse, wet grass and sorrel. they looked absurdly small--dishonestly small. what could you expect? of course the builders were having him, building too small, building all wrong, using bad materials! old kipps had told him a wrinkle or two. the builders were having him, young walshingham was having him, everybody was having him! they were having him and laughing at him because they didn't respect him. they didn't respect him because he couldn't do things right. who could respect him?... he was an outcast, he had no place in the world. he had had his chance in the world and turned his back on it. he had "behaved badly"--that was the phrase.... here a great house was presently to arise, a house to be paid for, a house neither he nor ann could manage--with eleven bedrooms, and four disrespectful servants having them all the time! how had it all happened exactly? this was the end of his great fortune! what a chance he had had! if he had really carried out his first intentions and stuck to things, how much better everything might have been! if he had got a tutor--that had been in his mind originally--a special sort of tutor to show him everything right; a tutor for gentlemen of neglected education. if he had read more and attended better to what coote had said! coote, who had just cut him!... eleven bedrooms! what had possessed him? no one would ever come to see them, no one would ever have anything to do with them. even his aunt cut him! his uncle treated him with a half-contemptuous sufferance. he had not a friend worth counting in the world! buggins, carshot, pierce; shop assistants! the pornicks--a low socialist lot! he stood among his foundations like a lonely figure among ruins; he stood among the ruins of his future, and owned himself a foolish and mistaken man. he saw himself and ann living out their shameful lives in this great crazy place--as it would be--with everybody laughing secretly at them and their eleven rooms, and nobody approaching them--nobody nice and right that is, for ever. and ann! what was the matter with ann? she'd given up going for walks lately, got touchy and tearful, been fitful with her food. just when she didn't ought to. it was all a part of the judgment upon wrongdoing, it was all part of the social penalties that juggernaut of a novel had brought home to his mind. § he let himself in with his latchkey. he went moodily into the dining-room and got out the plans to look at them. he had a vague hope that there would prove to be only ten bedrooms. but he found there were still eleven. he became aware of ann standing over him. "look 'ere, artie!" said ann. he looked up and found her holding a number of white oblongs. his eyebrows rose. "it's callers," said ann. he put his plans aside slowly and took and read the cards in silence, with a sort of solemnity. callers after all! then perhaps he wasn't to be left out of the world after all. mrs. g. porrett smith, miss porrett smith, miss mabel porrett smith, and two smaller cards of the rev. g. porrett smith. "lor'!" he said, "_clergy!_" "there was a lady," said ann, "and two growed-up gals--all dressed up!" "and 'im?" "there wasn't no _'im_." "not----?" he held out the little card. "no; there was a lady and two young ladies." "but--these cards! wad they go and leave these two little cards with the rev. g. smith on for? not if 'e wasn't with 'em." "'e wasn't with 'em." "not a little chap--dodgin' about be'ind the others? and didn't come in?" "i didn't see no gentleman with them at all," said ann. "rum!" said kipps. a half-forgotten experience came back to him. "_i_ know," he said, waving the reverend gentleman's card; "'e give 'em the slip, that's what he'd done. gone off while they was rapping before you let 'em in. it's a fair call, any'ow." he felt a momentary base satisfaction at his absence. "what did they talk about, ann?" there was a pause. "i didn't let 'em in," said ann. he looked up suddenly and perceived that something unusual was the matter with ann. her face was flushed, her eyes were red and hard. "didn't let 'em in?" "no! they didn't come in at all." he was too astonished for words. "i answered the door," said ann; "i'd been upstairs 'namelling the floor. 'ow was i to think about callers, artie? we ain't never 'ad callers all the time we been 'ere. i'd sent gwendolen out for a bref of fresh air, and there i was upstairs 'namelling that floor she done so bad, so's to get it done before she came back. i thought i'd 'namel that floor and then get tea and 'ave it quiet with you, toce and all, before she came back. 'ow was i to think about callers?" she paused. "well," said kipps, "what them?" "they came and rapped. 'ow was i to know? i thought it was a tradesman or something. never took my apron off, never wiped the 'namel off my 'ands--nothing. there they was!" she paused again. she was getting to the disagreeable part. "wad they say?" said kipps. "she says, 'is mrs. kipps at home?' see? to me." "yes." "and me all painty and no cap on and nothing, neither missis nor servant like. there, artie, i could 'a sunk through the floor with shame, i really could. i could 'ardly get my voice. i couldn't think of nothing to say but just 'not at 'ome,' and out of 'abit like i 'eld the tray. and they give me the cards and went, and 'ow i shall ever look that lady in the face again i don't know.... and that's all about it, artie! they looked me up and down, they did, and then i shut the door on 'em." "goo!" said kipps. ann went and poked the fire needlessly with a passion quivering hand. "i wouldn't 'ave 'ad that 'appen for five pounds," said kipps. "a clergyman and all!" ann dropped the poker into the fender with some _éclat_ and stood up and looked at her hot face in the glass. kipps' disappointment grew. "you did ought to 'ave known better than that, ann! you reely did." he sat forward, cards in hand, with a deepening sense of social disaster. the things were laid upon the table, toast sheltered under a cover, at mid fender, the teapot warmed beside it, and the kettle just lifted from the hob, sang amidst the coals. ann glanced at him for a moment, then stooped with the kettle-holder to wet the tea. "tcha!" said kipps, with his mental state developing. "i don't see it's any use getting in a state about it now," said ann. "don't you? i do. see? 'ere's these people, good people, want to 'sociate with us, and 'ere you go and slap 'em in the face!" "i didn't slap 'em in the face." "you do--practically. you slams the door in their face, and that's all we see of 'em ever. i wouldn't 'ave 'ad this 'appen not for a ten-pound note." he rounded his regrets with a grunt. for a while there was silence, save for the little stir of ann's movements preparing the tea. "tea, artie," said ann, handing him a cup. kipps took it. "i put sugar _once_," said ann. "oo, dash it! oo cares?" said kipps, taking an extraordinarily large additional lump with fury quivering fingers, and putting his cup with a slight excess of force on the recess cupboard. "oo cares? "i wouldn't 'ave 'ad that 'appen," he said, bidding steadily against accomplished things, "for twenty pounds." he gloomed in silence through a long minute or so. then ann said the fatal thing that exploded him. "artie!" she said. "what?" "there's buttud toce down there! by your foot!" there was a pause, husband and wife regarded one another. "buttud toce!" he said. "you go and mess up them callers and then you try and stuff me up with buttud toce! buttud toce indeed! 'ere's our first chance of knowing anyone that's at all fit to 'sociate with----. look 'ere, ann! tell you what it is--you got to return that call." "return that call!" "yes, you got to return that call. that's what you got to do! i know----" he waved his arm vaguely towards the miscellany of books in the recess. "it's in manners and rools of good s'ity. you got to find jest 'ow many cards to leave and you got to go and leave 'em. see?" ann's face expressed terror. "but, artie, 'ow _can_ i?" "'ow _can_ you? 'ow _could_ you? you got to do it, any'ow. they won't know you--not in your bond street 'at! if they do, they won't say nothing." his voice assumed a note of entreaty. "you mus', ann." "i can't." "you mus'." "i can't and i won't. anything in reason i'll do, but face those people again i can't--after what 'as 'appened." "you won't?" "no!"... "so there they go--orf! and we never see them again! and so it goes on! so it goes on! we don't know nobody and we _shan't_ know anybody! and you won't put yourself out not a little bit, or take the trouble to find out anything 'ow it ought to be done." terrible pause. "i never ought to 'ave merried you, artie, that's the troof." "oh! _don't_ go into that." "i never ought to 'ave merried you, artie. i'm not equal to the position. if you 'adn't said you'd drown yourself----" she choked. "i don' see why you shouldn't _try_, ann. _i've_ improved. why don't you? 'stead of which you go sending out the servant and 'namelling floors, and then when visitors come----" "'ow was _i_ to know about y'r old visitors?" cried ann in a wail, and suddenly got up and fled from amidst their ruined tea, the tea of which "toce, all buttery," was to be the crown and glory. kipps watched her with a momentary consternation. then he hardened his heart. "ought to 'ave known better," he said, "goin' on like that!" he remained for a space rubbing his knees and muttering. he emitted scornfully: "i carn't an' i won't." he saw her as the source of all his shames. presently, quite mechanically, he stooped down and lifted the flowery china cover. "ter dash 'er buttud toce!" he shouted at the sight of it, and clapped the cover down again hard.... when gwendolen came back she perceived things were in a slightly unusual poise. kipps sat by the fire in a rigid attitude reading a casually selected volume of the _encyclopaedia britannica_, and ann was upstairs and inaccessible--to reappear at a later stage with reddened eyes. before the fire and still in a perfectly assimilable condition was what was evidently an untouched supply of richly buttered toast under a cracked cover. "they've 'ad a bit of a tiff," said gwendolen, attending to her duties in the kitchen, with her outdoor hat still on and her mouth full. "they're rummuns--if ever! my eye!" and she took another piece of ann's generously buttered toast. § the kippses spoke no more that day to one another. the squabble about cards and buttered toast was as serious to them as the most rational of differences. it was all rational to them. their sense of wrong burnt within them; their sense of what was owing to themselves, the duty of implacability, the obstinacy of pride. in the small hours kipps lay awake at the nadir of unhappiness and came near groaning. he saw life as an extraordinarily desolating muddle; his futile house, his social discredit, his bad behaviour to helen, his low marriage to ann.... he became aware of something irregular in ann's breathing.... he listened. she was awake and quietly and privately sobbing! he hardened his heart; resolutely he hardened his heart. the stupid little tragedies of these clipped and limited lives! what is the good of keeping up the idyllic sham and pretending that ill-educated, misdirected people "get along very well," and that all this is harmlessly funny and nothing more? you think i'm going to write fat, silly, grinning novels about half-educated, under-trained people and keep it up all the time, that the whole thing's nothing but funny! as i think of them lying unhappily there in the darkness, my vision pierces the night. see what i can see! above them, brooding over them, i tell you there is a monster, a lumpish monster, like some great, clumsy griffin thing, like the crystal palace labyrinthodon, like coote, like the leaden goddess dulness pope abhorred, like some fat, proud flunkey, like pride, like indolence, like all that is darkening and heavy and obstructive in life. it is matter and darkness, it is the anti-soul, stupidity. my kippses live in its shadow. shalford and his apprenticeship system, the hastings academy, the ideas of coote, the ideas of the old kippses, all the ideas that have made kipps what he is, all these are its shadow. but for that monster they might not be groping among false ideas and hurt one another so sorely and so stupidly; but for that, the glowing promise of childhood and youth might have had a happier fruition, thought might have awakened in them to meet _the_ thought of the world, the quickening sunshine of literature pierced to the substance of their souls, their lives might not have been divorced, as now they are divorced for ever, from the apprehension of beauty that we favoured ones are given--the vision of the grail that makes life fine for ever. i have laughed, and i laugh at these two people; i have sought to make you laugh.... but i see through the darkness the souls of my kippses, as they are, as little pink strips of living stuff, like the bodies of little, ill-nourished, ailing, ignorant children, children who feel pain, who are naughty and muddled and suffer and do not understand why. and the claw of this beast rests upon them! chapter iii terminations § next morning came a remarkable telegram from folkestone. "please come at once, urgent, walshingham," said the telegram, and kipps, after an agitated but still ample breakfast, departed.... when he returned his face was very white and his countenance disordered. he let himself in with his latchkey and came into the dining-room where ann sat, affecting to work at a little thing she called a bib. she heard his hat fall in the hall before he entered, as though he had missed the peg. "i got something to tell you, ann," he said, disregarding their overnight quarrel, and went to the hearthrug and took hold of the mantel, and stared at ann as though the sight of her was novel. "well?" said ann, not looking up and working a little faster. "'e's gone!" ann looked up sharply and her hands stopped. "_who's_ gone?" for the first time she perceived kipps' pallor. "young walshingham--i saw 'er and she tole me." "gone? what d'you mean?" "cleared out! gone off for good!" "what for?" "for 'is 'ealth," said kipps, with sudden bitterness. "'e's been speckylating. he's speckylated our money and 'e's speckylated their money, and now 'e's took 'is 'ook. that's all about it, ann." "you mean?" "i mean 'e's orf and our twenty-four thousand's orf, too! and 'ere we are! smashed up! that's all about it, ann." he panted. ann had no vocabulary for such an occasion. "oh, lor'!" she said, and sat still. kipps came about and stuck his hands deeply in his trouser pockets. "speckylated every penny--lorst it all--and gorn." even his lips were white. "you mean we ain't got nothin' left, artie?" "not a penny! not a bloomin' penny, ann. no!" a gust of passion whirled across the soul of kipps. he flung out a knuckly fist. "if i 'ad 'im 'ere," he said, "i'd--i'd--i'd wring 'is neck for 'im. i'd--i'd----" his voice rose to a shout. he thought of gwendolen in the kitchen and fell to "ugh!" "but, artie," said ann, trying to grasp it, "d'you mean to say he's took our money?" "speckylated it!" said kipps, with an illustrative flourish of the arm, that failed to illustrate. "bort things dear and sold 'em cheap, and played the 'ankey-pankey jackass with everything we got. that's what i mean 'e's done, ann." he repeated this last sentence with the addition of violent adverbs. "d'you mean to say our money's _gone_, artie?" "ter-dash it, _yes_, ann!" swore kipps, exploding in a shout. "ain't i tellin' you?" he was immediately sorry. "i didn't mean to 'oller at you, ann," he said, "but i'm all shook up. i don't 'ardly know what i'm sayin'. ev'ry penny."... "but, artie----" kipps grunted. he went to the window and stared for a moment at a sunlit sea. "gord!" he swore. "i mean," he said, coming back to ann and with an air of exasperation, "that he's 'bezzled and 'ooked it. that's what i mean, ann." ann put down the bib. "but wot are we going to _do_, artie?" kipps indicated ignorance, wrath and despair with one comprehensive gesture of his hands. he caught an ornament from the mantel and replaced it. "i'm going to bang about," he said, "if i ain't precious careful." "you saw _'er_, you say?" "yes." "what did she say 'xactly?" said ann. "told me to see a s'licitor--tole me to get someone to 'elp me at once. she was there in black--like she used to be--and speaking cool and careful-like. 'elen!... she's precious 'ard, is 'elen. she looked at me straight. 'it's my fault,' she said, 'i ought to 'ave warned you.... only under the circumstances it was a little difficult.' straight as anything. i didn't 'ardly say anything to 'er. i didn't seem to begin to take it in until she was showing me out. i 'adn't anything to say. jest as well, perhaps. she talked like a call a'most. she said--what _was_ it she said about her mother? 'my mother's overcome with grief,' she said, 'so naturally everything comes on me.'" "and she told you to get someone to 'elp you?" "yes. i been to old bean." "o' bean?" "yes. what i took my business away from!" "what did he say?" "he was a bit off'and at first, but then 'e come 'round. he couldn't tell me anything till 'e knew the facts. what i know of young walshingham, there won't be much 'elp in the facts. no!" he reflected for a space. "it's a smash-up, ann. more likely than not, ann, 'e's left us over'ead in debt. we got to get out of it just 'ow we can.... "we got to begin again," he went on. "_'ow_, i don't know. all the way 'ome my 'ead's been going. we got to get a living some'ow or other. 'aving time to ourselves, and a bit of money to spend, and no hurry and worry, it's all over for ever, ann. we was fools, ann. we didn't know our benefits. we been caught. gord!... gord!" he was on the verge of "banging about" again. they heard a jingle in the passage, the large soft impact of a servant's indoor boots. as if she were a part, a mitigatory part of fate, came gwendolen to lay the midday meal. kipps displayed self-control forthwith. ann picked up the bib again and bent over it, and the kippses bore themselves gloomily perhaps, but not despairfully, while their dependant was in the room. she spread the cloth and put out the cutlery with a slow inaccuracy, and kipps, after a whisper to himself, went again to the window. ann got up and put away her work methodically in the cheffonier. "when i think," said kipps, as soon as the door closed again behind gwendolen, "when i think of the 'ole people and 'aving to tell 'em of it all--i want to smesh my 'ead against the nearest wall. smesh my silly brains out! and buggins--buggins what i'd 'arf promised to start in a lill' outfitting shop in rendezvous street."... gwendolen returned and restored dignity. the midday meal spread itself slowly before them. gwendolen, after her custom, left the door open and kipps closed it carefully before sitting down. he stood for a moment, regarding the meal doubtfully. "i don't feel as if i could swaller a moufful," he said. "you got to eat," said ann.... for a time they said little, and once swallowing was achieved, ate on with a sort of melancholy appetite. each was now busy thinking. "after all," said kipps, presently, "whatever 'appens, they can't turn us out or sell us up before nex' quarter-day. i'm pretty sure about that." "sell us up!" said ann. "i dessey we're bankrup'," said kipps, trying to say it easily and helping himself with a trembling hand to unnecessary potatoes. then a long silence. ann ceased to eat, and there were silent tears. "more potatoes, artie?" choked ann. "i couldn't," said kipps. "no." he pushed back his plate, which was indeed replete with potatoes, got up and walked about the room. even the dinner-table looked distraught and unusual. "what to do, i _don't_ know," he said. "oh, _lord_!" he ejaculated, and picked up and slapped down a book. then his eye fell upon another postcard that had come from chitterlow by the morning's post, and which now lay by him on the mantel-shelf. he took it up, glanced at its imperfectly legible message, and put it down. "delayed!" he said, scornfully. "not prodooced in the smalls. or is it smells 'e says? 'ow can one understand that? any'ow 'e's 'umbugging again.... somefing about the strand. no! well, 'e's 'ad all the money 'e'll ever get out of me!... i'm done." he seemed to find a momentary relief in the dramatic effect of his announcement. he came near to a swagger of despair upon the hearthrug, and then suddenly came and sat down next to ann and rested his chin on the knuckles of his two clenched hands. "i been a fool, ann," he said in a gloomy monotone. "i been a brasted fool. but it's 'ard on us, all the same. it's 'ard." "'ow was you to know?" said ann. "i ought to 'ave known. i did in a sort of way know. and 'ere we are! i wouldn't care so much if it was myself, but it's _you_, ann! 'ere we are! regular smashed up! and you----" he checked at an unspeakable aggravation of their disaster. "i knew 'e wasn't to be depended upon and there i left it! and you got to pay.... what's to 'appen to us all, i don't know." he thrust out his chin and glared at fate. "'ow do you know 'e's speckylated everything?" said ann, after a silent survey of him. "'e 'as," said kipps, irritably, holding firm to disaster. "she say so?" "she don't know, of course, but you depend upon it that's it. she told me she knew something was on, and when she found 'im gone and a note lef' for her she knew it was up with 'im. 'e went by the night boat. she wrote that telegram off to me straight away." ann surveyed his features with tender, perplexed eyes; she had never seen him so white and drawn before, and her hand rested an inch or so away from his arm. the actual loss was still, as it were, afar from her. the immediate thing was his enormous distress. "'ow do you know----?" she said and stopped. it would irritate him too much. kipps' imagination was going headlong. "sold up!" he emitted presently, and ann flinched. "going back to work, day after day--i can't stand it, ann, i can't. and you----" "it don't do to think of it," said ann. presently he came upon a resolve. "i keep on thinking of it, and thinking of it, and what's to be done and what's to be done. i shan't be any good 'ome s'arfernoon. it keeps on going 'round and 'round in my 'ead, and 'round and 'round. i better go for a walk or something. i'd be no comfort to you, ann. i should want to 'owl and 'ammer things if i 'ung about 'ome. my fingers is all atwitch. i shall keep on thinking 'ow i might 'ave stopped it and callin' myself a fool."... he looked at her between pleading and shame. it seemed like deserting her. ann regarded him with tear-dimmed eyes. "you'd better do what's good for you, artie," she said.... "_i'll_ be best cleaning. it's no use sending off gwendolen before her month, and the top room wants turning out." she added with a sort of grim humour: "may as well turn it out now while i got it." "i _better_ go for a walk," said kipps.... and presently our poor exploded kipps was marching out to bear his sudden misery. habit turned him up the road towards his growing house, and then suddenly he perceived his direction--"oh, lor'!"--and turned aside and went up the steep way to the hill crest and the sandling road, and over the line by that tree-embowered junction, and athwart the wide fields towards postling--a little, black, marching figure--and so up the downs and over the hills, whither he had never gone before.... § he came back long after dark, and ann met him in the passage. "where you been, artie?" she asked, with a strained note in her voice. "i been walking and walking--trying to tire myself out. all the time i been thinking what shall i do. trying to fix something up all out of nothing." "i didn't know you meant to be out all this time." kipps was gripped by compunction.... "i can't think what we ought to do," he said, presently. "you can't do anything much, artie, not till you hear from mr. bean." "no; i can't do anything much. that's jest it. and all this time i keep feelin' if i don't do something the top of my 'ead'll bust.... been trying to make up advertisements 'arf the time i been out--'bout finding a place, good salesman and stock-keeper, and good manchester dresses, window-dressing--lor'! fancy that all beginning again!... if you went to stay with sid a bit--if i sent every penny i got to you--i dunno! i dunno!" when they had gone to bed there was an elaborate attempt to get to sleep.... in one of their great waking pauses kipps remarked in a muffled tone: "i didn't mean to frighten you, ann, being out so late. i kep' on walking and walking, and some'ow it seemed to do me good. i went out to the 'illtop ever so far beyond stanford, and sat there ever so long, and it seemed to make me better. just looking over the marsh like, and seeing the sun set."... "very likely," said ann, after a long interval, "it isn't so bad as you think it is, artie." "it's bad," said kipps. "very likely, after all, it isn't quite so bad. if there's only a little----" there came another long silence. "ann," said kipps in the quiet darkness. "yes," said ann. "ann," said kipps, and stopped as though he had hastily shut a door upon speech. "i kep' thinking," he said, trying again, "i kep' thinking--after all--i been cross to you and a fool about things--about them cards, ann; but"--his voice shook to pieces--"we _'ave_ been 'appy, ann ... some'ow ... togever." and with that he and then she fell into a passion of weeping. they clung very tightly together--closer than they had been since ever the first brightness of their married days turned to the grey of common life again. all the disaster in the world could not prevent their going to sleep at last with their poor little troubled heads close together on one pillow. there was nothing more to be done, there was nothing more to be thought; time might go on with his mischiefs, but for a little while at least they still had one another. § kipps returned from his second interview with mr. bean in a state of strange excitement. he let himself in with his latch-key and slammed the door. "ann!" he shouted, in an unusual note; "ann!" ann replied distantly. "something to tell you," said kipps; "something noo!" ann appeared apprehensive from the kitchen. "ann," he said, going before her into the little dining-room, for his news was too dignified for the passage, "very likely, ann, o' bean says, we shall 'ave----" he decided to prolong the suspense. "guess!" "i can't, artie." "think of a lot of money!" "a 'undred pounds p'raps?" he spoke with immense deliberation. "o v e r a f o u s a n d p o u n d s!" ann stared and said nothing, only went a shade whiter. "over, he said. a'most certainly over." he shut the dining-room door and came forward hastily, for ann, it was clear, meant to take this mitigation of their disaster with a complete abandonment of her self-control. she came near flopping; she fell into his arms. "artie," she got to at last and began to weep, clinging tightly to him. "pretty near certain," said kipps, holding her. "a fousand pounds!" "i _said_, artie," she wailed on his shoulder with the note of accumulated wrongs, "very likely it wasn't so bad."... "there's things," he said, when presently he came to particulars, "'e couldn't touch. the noo place! it's freehold and paid for, and with the bit of building on it, there's five or six 'undred pound p'raps--say worf free 'undred, for safety. we can't be sold up to finish it, like we thought. o' bean says we can very likely sell it and get money. 'e says you often get a chance to sell a 'ouse lessen 'arf done, 'specially free'old. _very_ likely, 'e say. then there's hughenden. hughenden 'asn't been mortgaged not for more than 'arf its value. there's a 'undred or so to be got on that, and the furniture and the rent for the summer still coming in. 'e says there's very likely other things. a fousand pounds, that's what 'e said. 'e said it might even be more."... they were sitting now at the table. "it alters everything," said ann. "i been thinking that, ann, all the way 'ome. i came in the motor car. first ride i've 'ad since the smash. we needn't send off gwendolen, leastways not till _after_. you know. we needn't turn out of 'ere--not for a long time. what we been doing for the o' people we can go on doing a'most as much. and your mother!... i wanted to 'oller coming along. i pretty near run coming down the road by the hotel." "oh, i _am_ glad we can stop 'ere and be comfortable a bit," said ann. "i _am_ glad for that." "i pretty near told the driver on the motor--only 'e was the sort won't talk.... you see, ann, we'll be able to start a shop, we'll be able to get _into_ something like. all about our 'aving to go back to places and that; all that doesn't matter any more." for a while they abandoned themselves to ejaculating transports. then they fell talking to shape an idea to themselves of the new prospect that opened before them. "we must start a sort of shop," said kipps, whose imagination had been working. "it'll 'ave to be a shop." "drapery?" said ann. "you want such a lot of capital for the drapery, mor'n a thousand pounds you want by a long way--to start it anything like proper." "well, outfitting. like buggins was going to do." kipps glanced at that for a moment, because the idea had not occurred to him. then he came back to his prepossession. "well, i thought of something else, ann," he said. "you see, i've always thought a little book-shop. it isn't like the drapery--'aving to be learnt. i thought--even before this smash-up--'ow i'd like to 'ave something to do, instead of always 'aving 'olidays always like we 'ave been 'aving." he reflected. "you don't know _much_ about books, do you, artie?" "you don't want to." he illustrated. "i noticed when we used to go to that lib'ry at folkestone, ladies weren't anything like what they was in a draper's--if you 'aven't got _just_ what they want it's 'oh, no!' and out they go. but in a book shop it's different. one book's very like another--after all, what is it? something to read and done with. it's not a thing that matters like print dresses or serviettes--where you either like 'em or don't, and people judge you by. they take what you give 'em in books and lib'ries, and glad to be told _what_ to. see 'ow we was--up at that lib'ry."... he paused. "you see, ann---- "well, i read 'n 'dvertisement the other day. i been asking mr. bean. it said--five 'undred pounds." "what did?" "branches," said kipps. ann failed to understand. "it's a sort of thing that gets up book shops all over the country," said kipps. "i didn't tell you, but i arst about it a bit. on'y i dropped it again. before this smash, i mean. i'd thought i'd like to keep a shop for a lark, on'y then i thought it silly. besides it 'ud 'ave been beneath me." he blushed vividly. "it was a sort of projek of mine, ann. "on'y it wouldn't 'ave done," he added. it was a tortuous journey when the kippses set out to explain anything to each other. but through a maze of fragmentary elucidations and questions, their minds did presently begin to approximate to a picture of a compact, bright, little shop, as a framework for themselves. "i thought of it one day when i was in folkestone. i thought of it one day when i was looking in at a window. i see a chap dressin' a window and he was whistlin' reg'lar light-'arted.... i thought then i'd like to keep a bookshop, any'ow, jest for something to do. and when people weren't about, then you could sit and read the books. see? it wouldn't be 'arf bad."... they mused, each with elbows on table and knuckles to lips, looking with speculative eyes at each other. "very likely we'll be 'appier than we should 'ave been with more money," said kipps presently. "we wasn't 'ardly suited," reflected ann, and left her sentence incomplete. "fish out of water like," said kipps.... "you won't 'ave to return that call now," said kipps, opening a new branch of the question. "that's one good thing." "lor'!" said ann, visibly brightening, "no more i shan't!" "i don't s'pose they'd want you to, even if you did--with things as they are." a certain added brightness came into ann's face. "nobody won't be able to come leaving cards on us, artie, now, any more. we are out of _that_!" "there isn't no necessity for us to be stuck up," said kipps, "any more for ever! 'ere we are, ann, common people, with jest no position at all, as you might say, to keep up. no sev'nts, not if you don't like. no dressin' better than other people. if it wasn't we been robbed--dashed if i'd care a rap about losing that money. i b'lieve"--his face shone with the rare pleasure of paradox--"i reely b'lieve, ann, it'll prove a savin' in the end." § the remarkable advertisement which had fired kipps' imagination with this dream of a bookshop opened out in the most alluring way. it was one little facet in a comprehensive scheme of transatlantic origin, which was to make our old-world methods of book-selling "sit up," and it displayed an imaginative briskness, a lucidity and promise that aroused the profoundest scepticism in the mind of mr. bean. to kipps' renewed investigations it presented itself in an expository illustrated pamphlet (far too well printed, mr. bean thought, for a reputable undertaking) of the most convincing sort. mr. bean would not let him sink his capital in shares in its projected company that was to make all things new in the world of books, but he could not prevent kipps becoming one of their associated booksellers. and so when presently it became apparent that an epoch was not to be made, and the "associated booksellers' trading union (limited)" receded and dissolved and liquidated (a few drops) and vanished and went away to talk about something else, kipps remained floating undamaged in this interestingly uncertain universe as an independent bookseller. except that it failed, the associated booksellers' trading union had all the stigmata of success. its fault, perhaps, was that it had them all instead of only one or two. it was to buy wholesale for all its members and associates and exchange stock, having a common books-in-stock list and a common lending library, and it was to provide a uniform registered shop front to signify all these things to the intelligent passer-by. except that it was controlled by buoyant young over-men with a touch of genius in their arithmetic, it was, i say, a most plausible and hopeful project. kipps went several times to london and an agent came to hythe; mr. bean made some timely interventions, and then behind a veil of planks and an announcement in the high street, the uniform registered shop front came rapidly into being. "associated booksellers' trading union," said this shop front, in a refined, artistic lettering that bookbuyers were going to value, as wise men over forty value the proper label for berncasteler doctor, and then, "arthur kipps." next to starting a haberdasher's shop i doubt if kipps could have been more truly happy than during those weeks of preparation. there is, of course, nothing on earth, and i doubt at times if there is a joy in heaven, like starting a small haberdasher's shop. imagine, for example, having a drawerful of tapes (one whole piece most exquisitely blocked of every possible width of tape), or, again, an army of neat, large packages, each displaying one sample of hooks and eyes. think of your cottons, your drawer of coloured silks, the little, less, least of the compartments and thin packets of your needle drawer! poor princes and wretched gentlefolk mysteriously above retail trade, may taste only the faint unsatisfactory shadow of these delights with trays of stamps or butterflies. i write, of course, for those to whom these things appeal; there are clods alive who see nothing, or next to nothing, in spools of mercerised cotton and endless bands of paper-set pins. i write for the wise, and as i write i wonder that kipps resisted haberdashery. he did. yet even starting a bookshop is at least twenty times as interesting as building your own house to your own design in unlimited space and time, or any possible thing people with indisputable social position and sound securities can possibly find to do. upon that i rest. you figure kipps "going to have a look to see how the little shop is getting on," the shop that is not to be a loss and a spending of money, but a gain. he does not walk too fast towards it; as he comes into view of it his paces slacken and his head goes to one side. he crosses to the pavement opposite in order to inspect the fascia better, already his name is adumbrated in faint white lines; stops in the middle of the road and scrutinises imaginary details for the benefit of his future next door neighbour, the curiosity-shop man, and so at last, in.... a smell of paint and of the shavings of imperfectly seasoned pinewood! the shop is already glazed and a carpenter is busy over the fittings for adjustable shelves in the side windows. a painter is busy on the fixtures round about (shelving above and drawers below), which are to accommodate most of the stock, and the counter--the counter and desk are done. kipps goes inside the desk, the desk which is to be the strategic centre of the shop, brushes away some sawdust, and draws out the marvellous till; here gold is to be, here silver, here copper--notes locked up in a cash-box in the well below. then he leans his elbows on the desk, rests his chin on his fist and fills the shelves with imaginary stock; books beyond reading. every day a man who cares to wash his hands and read uncut pages artfully may have his cake and eat it, among that stock. under the counter to the right, paper and string are to lurk ready to leap up and embrace goods sold; on the table to the left, art publications, whatever they may prove to be! he maps it out, serves an imaginary customer, receives a dream seven and six pence, packs, bows out. he wonders how it was he ever came to fancy a shop a disagreeable place. "it's different," he says at last, after musing on that difficulty, "being your own." it _is_ different.... or, again, you figure kipps with something of the air of a young sacristan, handling his brightly virginal account-books, and looking, and looking again, and then still looking, at an unparalleled specimen of copperplate engraving, ruled money below and above, bearing the words "in account with, arthur kipps" (loud flourishes), "the booksellers' trading union" (temperate decoration). you figure ann sitting and stitching at one point of the circumference of the light of the lamp, stitching queer little garments for some unknown stranger, and over against her sits kipps. before him is one of those engraved memorandum forms, a moist pad, wet with some thick and greasy greenish purple ink that is also spreading quietly but steadily over his fingers, a cross-nibbed pen for first-aid surgical assistance to the patient in his hand, a dating rubber stamp. at intervals he brings down this latter with great care and emphasis upon the paper, and when he lifts it there appears a beautiful oval design of which "paid, arthur kipps, the associated booksellers' trading union," and a date, are the essential ingredients, stamped in purple ink. anon he turns his attention to a box of small, round, yellow labels, declaring "this book was bought from the associated booksellers' trading union." he licks one with deliberate care, sticks it on the paper before him and defaces it with great solemnity. "i can do it, ann," he says, looking up brightly. for the associated booksellers' trading union, among other brilliant notions and inspirations, devised an ingenious system of taking back its books again in part payment for new ones within a specified period. when it failed, all sorts of people were left with these unredeemed pledges in hand. § amidst all this bustle and interest, all this going to and fro before they "moved in" to the high street, came the great crisis that hung over the kippses, and one morning in the small hours ann's child was born.... kipps was coming to manhood swiftly now. the once rabbit-like soul that had been so amazed by the discovery of "chubes" in the human interior and so shocked by the sight of a woman's shoulder-blades, that had found shame and anguish in a mislaid gibus and terror in an anagram tea, was at last facing the greater realities. he came suddenly upon the master thing in life, birth. he passed through hours of listening, hours of impotent fear in the night and in the dawn, and then there was put into his arms something most wonderful, a weak and wailing creature, incredibly, heart-stirringly soft and pitiful, with minute appealing hands that it wrung his heart to see. he held this miracle in his arms and touched its tender cheek as if he feared his lips might injure it. and this marvel was his son! and there was ann, with a greater strangeness and a greater familiarity in her quality than he had ever found before. there were little beads of perspiration on her temples and her lips, and her face was flushed, not pale as he had feared to see it. she had the look of one who emerges from some strenuous and invigorating act. he bent down and kissed her, and he had no words to say. she wasn't to speak much yet, but she stroked his arm with her hand and had to tell him one thing: "he's over nine pounds, artie," she whispered. "bessie's--bessie's wasn't no more than eight." to have given kipps a pound of triumph over sid seemed to her almost to justify nunc dimittis. she watched his face for a moment, then closed her eyes in a kind of blissful exhaustion as the nurse, with something motherly in her manner, pushed kipps out of the room. § kipps was far too much preoccupied with his own life to worry about the further exploits of chitterlow. the man had got his two thousand; on the whole kipps was glad he had had it rather than young walshingham, and there was an end to the matter. as for the complicated transactions he achieved and proclaimed by mainly illegible and always incomprehensible postcards, they were like passing voices heard in the street as one goes about one's urgent concerns. kipps put them aside and they got in between the pages of the stock and were lost forever and sold in with the goods to customers who puzzled over them mightily. then one morning as he was dusting round before breakfast, chitterlow returned, appeared suddenly in the shop doorway. kipps was overcome with amazement. it was the most unexpected thing in the world. the man was in evening dress, evening dress in that singularly crumpled state it assumes after the hour of dawn, and above his dishevelled red hair, a smallish gibus hat tilted remarkably forward. he opened the door and stood, tall and spread, with one vast white glove flung out as if to display how burst a glove might be, his eyes bright, such wrinkling of brow and mouth as only an experienced actor can produce, and a singular radiance of emotion upon his whole being, an altogether astonishing spectacle. it was amazing beyond the powers of kipps. the bell jangled for a bit and then gave it up and was silent. for a long, great second everything was quietly attentive. kipps was amazed to his uttermost; had he had ten times the capacity he would still have been fully amazed. "it's chit'low!" he said at last, standing duster in hand. but he doubted whether it was not a dream. "tzit!" gasped that most excitable and extraordinary person, still in an incredibly expanded attitude, and then with a slight forward jerk of the starry split glove, "bif!" he could say no more. the tremendous speech he had had ready vanished from his mind. kipps stared at his extraordinary facial changes, vaguely conscious of the truth of the teachings of nisbet and lombroso concerning men of genius. then suddenly chitterlow's features were convulsed, the histrionic fell from him like a garment, and he was weeping. he said something indistinct about "old kipps! _good_ old kipps! oh, old kipps!" and somehow he managed to mix a chuckle and a sob in the most remarkable way. he emerged from somewhere near the middle of his original attitude, a merely life-size creature. "my play, boo-hoo!" he sobbed, clutching at his friend's arm. "my play, kipps! (sob) you know?" "well?" cried kipps, with his heart sinking in sympathy, "it ain't----" "no," howled chitterlow; "no. it's a success! my dear chap! my dear boy! oh! it's a--bu--boo-hoo!--a big success!" he turned away and wiped streaming tears with the back of his hand. he walked a pace or so and turned. he sat down on one of the specially designed artistic chairs of the associated booksellers' trading union and produced an exiguous lady's handkerchief, extraordinarily belaced. he choked. "_my_ play," and covered his face here and there. he made an unsuccessful effort to control himself, and shrank for a space to the dimensions of a small and pathetic creature. his great nose suddenly came through a careless place in the handkerchief. "i'm knocked," he said in a muffled voice, and so remained for a space--wonderful--veiled. he made a gallant effort to wipe his tears away. "i had to tell you," he said, gulping. "be all right in a minute," he added, "calm," and sat still.... kipps stared in commiseration of such success. then he heard footsteps and went quickly to the house doorway. "jest a minute," he said. "don't go in the shop, ann, for a minute. it's chitterlow. he's a bit essited. but he'll be better in a minute. it's knocked him over a bit. you see"--his voice sank to a hushed note as one who announces death--"'e's made a success with his play." he pushed her back lest she should see the scandal of another male's tears.... soon chitterlow felt better, but for a little while his manner was even alarmingly subdued. "i _had_ to come and tell you," he said. "i _had_ to astonish someone. muriel--she'll be firstrate, of course. but she's over at dymchurch." he blew his nose with enormous noise, and emerged instantly a merely garrulous optimist. "i expect she'll be precious glad." "she doesn't know yet, my dear boy. she's at dymchurch--with a friend. she's seen some of my first nights before.... better out of it.... i'm going to her now. i've been up all night--talking to the boys and all that. i'm a bit off it just for a bit. but--it knocked 'em. it knocked everybody." he stared at the floor and went on in a monotone. "they laughed a bit at the beginning--but nothing like a settled laugh--not until the second act--you know--the chap with the beetle down his neck. little chisholme did that bit to rights. then they began--_to_ rights." his voice warmed and increased. "laughing! it made _me_ laugh! we jumped 'em into the third act before they had time to cool. everybody was on it. i never saw a first night go so fast. laugh, laugh, laugh, laugh, laugh, laugh" (he howled the last word with stupendous violence). everything they laughed at. they laughed at things that we hadn't meant to be funny--not for one moment. bif! bizz! curtain. a fair knock-out!... i went on--but i didn't say a word. chisholme did the patter. shouting! it was like walking under niagara--going across that stage. it was like never having seen an audience before.... "then afterwards--the boys!" his emotion held him for a space. "dear old boys!" he murmured. his words multiplied, his importance increased. in a little while he was restored to something of his old self. he was enormously excited. he seemed unable to sit down anywhere. he came into the breakfast-room so soon as kipps was sure of him, shook hands with mrs. kipps parenthetically, sat down and immediately got up again. he went to the bassinette in the corner and looked absentmindedly at kipps, junior, and said he was glad if only for the youngster's sake. he immediately resumed the thread of his discourse.... he drank a cup of coffee noisily and walked up and down the room talking, while they attempted breakfast amidst the gale of his excitement. the infant slept marvellously through it all. "you won't mind my sitting down, mrs. kipps. i couldn't sit down for anyone, or i'd do it for you. it's you i'm thinking of more than anyone, you and muriel, and all old pals and good friends. it means wealth, it means money--hundreds and thousands.... if you'd heard 'em, _you'd know_." he was silent through a portentous moment while topics battled for him and finally he burst and talked of them all together. it was like the rush of water when a dam bursts and washes out a fair-sized provincial town; all sorts of things floated along on the swirl. for example, he was discussing his future behaviour. "i'm glad it's come now. not before. i've had my lesson. i shall be very discreet now, trust me. we've learnt the value of money." he discussed the possibility of a country house, of taking a martello tower as a swimming-box (as one might say a shooting-box) of living in venice because of its artistic associations and scenic possibilities, of a flat in westminster or a house in the west end. he also raised the question of giving up smoking and drinking, and what classes of drink were especially noxious to a man of his constitution. but discourses on all this did not prevent a parenthetical computation of the probable profits on the supposition of a thousand nights here and in america, nor did it ignore the share kipps was to have, nor the gladness with which chitterlow would pay that share, nor the surprise and regret with which he had learnt, through an indirect source which awakened many associations, of the turpitude of young walshingham, nor the distaste chitterlow had always felt for young walshingham and men of his type. an excursus upon napoleon had got into the torrent somehow and kept bobbing up and down. the whole thing was thrown into the form of a single complex sentence, with parenthetical and subordinate clauses fitting one into the other like chinese boxes, and from first to last it never even had an air of approaching anything in the remotest degree partaking of the nature of a full stop. into this deluge came the _daily news_, like the gleam of light in watts' picture, the waters were assuaged while its sheet was opened, and it had a column, a whole column, of praise. chitterlow held the paper and kipps read over his left hand, and ann under his right. it made the affair more real to kipps; it seemed even to confirm chitterlow against lurking doubts he had been concealing. but it took him away. he departed in a whirl, to secure a copy of every morning paper, every blessed rag there is, and take them all to dymchurch and muriel forthwith. it had been the send-off the boys had given him that had prevented his doing as much at charing cross--let alone that he only caught it by the skin of his teeth.... besides which the bookstall wasn't open. his white face, lit by a vast excitement, bid them a tremendous farewell, and he departed through the sunlight, with his buoyant walk, buoyant almost to the tottering pitch. his hair, as one got it sunlit in the street, seemed to have grown in the night. they saw him stop a newsboy. "every blessed rag," floated to them on the notes of that gorgeous voice. the newsboy, too, had happened on luck. something like a faint cheer from the newsboy came down the air to terminate that transaction. chitterlow went on his way swinging a great budget of papers, a figure of merited success. the newsboy recovered from his emotion with a jerk, examined something in his hand again, transferred it to his pocket, watched chitterlow for a space, and then in a sort of hushed silence resumed his daily routine.... ann and kipps watched that receding happiness in silence, until he vanished round the bend of the road. "i _am_ glad," said ann at last, speaking with a little sigh. "so'm i," said kipps, with emphasis. "for if ever a feller 'as worked and waited--it's 'im."... they went back through the shop rather thoughtfully, and after a peep at the sleeping baby, resumed their interrupted breakfast. "if ever a feller 'as worked and waited, it's 'im," said kipps, cutting bread. "very likely it's true," said ann, a little wistfully. "what's true?" "about all that money coming." kipps meditated. "i don't see why it shouldn't be," he decided, and handed ann a piece of bread on the tip of his knife. "but we'll keep on the shop," he said after an interval for further reflection, "all the same.... i 'aven't much trust in money after the things we've seen." § that was two years ago, and as the whole world knows, the "pestered butterfly" is running still. it _was_ true. it has made the fortune of a once declining little theatre in the strand, night after night the great beetle scene draws happy tears from a house packed to repletion, and kipps--for all that chitterlow is not what one might call a business man--is almost as rich as he was in the beginning. people in australia, people in lancashire, scotland, ireland, in new orleans, in jamaica, in new york and montreal, have crowded through doorways to kipps' enrichment, lured by the hitherto unsuspected humours of the entomological drama. wealth rises like an exhalation all over our little planet, and condenses, or at least some of it does, in the pockets of kipps. "it's rum," said kipps. he sat in the little kitchen out behind the bookshop and philosophised and smiled, while ann gave arthur waddy kipps his evening tub before the fire. kipps was always present at this ceremony unless customers prevented; there was something in the mixture of the odours of tobacco, soap and domesticity that charmed him unspeakably. "chuckerdee, o' man," he said, affably, wagging his pipe at his son, and thought incidentally, after the manner of all parents, that very few children could have so straight and clean a body. "dadda's got a cheque," said arthur waddy kipps, emerging for a moment from the towel. "'e gets 'old of everything," said ann. "you can't say a word----" "dadda got a cheque," this marvellous child repeated. "yes, o' man, i got a cheque. and it's got to go into a bank for you, against when you got to go to school. see? so's you'll grow up knowing your way about a bit." "dadda's got a cheque," said the wonder son, and then gave his mind to making mighty splashes with his foot. every time he splashed, laughter overcame him, and he had to be held up for fear he should tumble out of the tub in his merriment. finally he was towelled to his toe-tips, wrapped up in warm flannel, and kissed, and carried off to bed by ann's cousin and lady help, emma. and then after ann had carried away the bath into the scullery, she returned to find her husband with his pipe extinct and the cheque still in his hand. "two fousand pounds," he said. "it's dashed rum. wot 'ave _i_ done to get two fousand pounds, ann?" "what 'aven't you--not to?" said ann. he reflected upon this view of the case. "i shan't never give up this shop," he said at last. "we're very 'appy 'ere," said ann. "not if i 'ad _fifty_ fousand pounds." "no fear," said ann. "you got a shop," said kipps, "and you come along in a year's time and there it is. but money--look 'ow it come and goes! there's no sense in money. you may kill yourself trying to get it, and then it comes when you aren't looking. there's my 'riginal money! where is it now? gone! and it's took young walshingham with it, and 'e's gone, too. it's like playing skittles. 'long comes the ball, right and left you fly, and there it is rolling away and not changed a bit. no sense in it! 'e's gone, and she's gone--gone off with that chap revel, that sat with me at dinner. merried man! and chit'low rich! lor'!--what a fine place that gerrik club is, to be sure, where i 'ad lunch wiv' 'im! better'n _any_ 'otel. footmen in powder they got--not waiters, ann--footmen! 'e's rich and me rich--in a sort of way.... don't seem much sense in it, ann, 'owever you look at it." he shook his head. "i know one thing," said kipps. "what?" "i'm going to put it in jest as many different banks as i can. see? fifty 'ere, fifty there. 'posit. i'm not going to 'nvest it--no fear." "it's only frowing money away," said ann. "i'm 'arf a mind to bury some of it under the shop. only i expect one 'ud always be coming down at nights to make sure it was there.... i don't seem to trust anyone--not with money." he put the cheque on the table corner and smiled and tapped his pipe on the grate with his eyes on that wonderful document. "s'pose old bean started orf," he reflected.... "one thing, 'e _is_ a bit lame." "'e wouldn't," said ann; "not 'im." "i was only joking like." he stood up, put his pipe among the candlesticks on the mantel, took up the cheque and began folding it carefully to put it back in his pocket-book. a little bell jangled. "shop!" said kipps. "that's right. keep a shop and the shop'll keep you. that's 'ow i look at it, ann." he drove his pocket-book securely into his breast pocket before he opened the living-room door.... but whether indeed it is the bookshop that keeps kipps or whether it is kipps who keeps the bookshop is just one of those commercial mysteries people of my unarithmetical temperament are never able to solve. they do very well, the dears, anyhow, thank heaven! the bookshop of kipps is on the left-hand side of the hythe high street coming from folkestone, between the yard of the livery stable and the shop-window full of old silver and such like things--it is quite easy to find--and there you may see him for yourself and speak to him and buy this book of him if you like. he has it in stock, i know. very delicately i've seen to that. his name is not kipps, of course, you must understand that, but everything else is exactly as i have told you. you can talk to him about books, about politics, about going to boulogne, about life, and the ups and downs of life. perhaps he will quote you buggins--from whom, by the bye, one can now buy everything a gentleman's wardrobe should contain at the little shop in rendezvous street, folkestone. if you are fortunate to find kipps in a good mood he may even let you know how he inherited a fortune "once." "run froo it," he'll say with a not unhappy smile. "got another afterwards--speckylating in plays. needn't keep this shop if i didn't like. but it's something to do."... or he may be even more intimate. "i seen some things," he said to me once. "raver! life! why! once i--i _'loped_! i did--reely!" (of course you will not tell kipps that he _is_ "kipps," or that i have put him in this book. he does not know. and you know, one never knows how people are going to take that sort of thing. i am an old and trusted customer now, and for many amiable reasons i should prefer that things remained exactly on their present footing.) § one early-closing evening in july they left the baby to the servant cousin, and kipps took ann for a row on the hythe canal. it was a glorious evening, and the sun set in a mighty blaze and left a world warm, and very still. the twilight came. and there was the water, shining bright, and the sky a deepening blue, and the great trees that dipped their boughs towards the water, exactly as it had been when he paddled home with helen, when her eyes had seemed to him like dusky stars. he had ceased from rowing and rested on his oars, and suddenly he was touched by the wonder of life, the strangeness that is a presence stood again by his side. out of the darknesses beneath the shallow, weedy stream of his being rose a question, a question that looked up dimly and never reached the surface. it was the question of the wonder of the beauty, the purposeless, inconsecutive beauty, that falls so strangely among the happenings and memories of life. it never reached the surface of his mind, it never took to itself substance or form, it looked up merely as the phantom of a face might look, out of deep waters, and sank again to nothingness. 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"mr. wells has the gift of making his philosophical, or rather sociological, speculations of absorbing interest to the general reader. his literary imagination, which was born in him, works on the positive, scientific education to which his mind was subjected at its most receptive period, and the rare combination gives to his writings a peculiar distinction."--_the academy._ charles scribner's sons, new york |=================================================| | mr. wells has also written | | the following novels: | | | | tono bungay | | love and mr. lewisham | | kipps ann veronica | | the history of mr. polly | | and the new machiavelli | | | | numerous short stories now published | | in a single volume under the title. | | the country of the blind | | | | the following fantastic romances: | | | | the time machine | | the wonderful visit | | the invisible man | | the war of the worlds | | the sea lady | | in the days of the comet | | the sleeper awakes | | the food of the gods | | the war in the air | | the first men in the moon | | and the island of doctor moreau | | | | and a series of books upon social and political | | questions of which | | | | a modern utopia | | first and last things (religion) | | new worlds for old | | the future in america | | and anticipations | | are the chief. | |=================================================| marriage by h. g. wells "and the poor dears haven't the shadow of a doubt they will live happily ever afterwards."--_from a private letter_. [illustration] new york duffield & company copyright, duffield & company _fraternally to arnold bennett_ book the first marjorie marries marriage chapter the first a day with the popes § an extremely pretty girl occupied a second-class compartment in one of those trains which percolate through the rural tranquillities of middle england from ganford in oxfordshire to rumbold junction in kent. she was going to join her family at buryhamstreet after a visit to some gloucestershire friends. her father, mr. pope, once a leader in the coach-building world and now by retirement a gentleman, had taken the buryhamstreet vicarage furnished for two months (beginning on the fifteenth of july) at his maximum summer rental of seven guineas a week. his daughter was on her way to this retreat. at first she had been an animated traveller, erect and keenly regardful of every detail upon the platforms of the stations at which her conveyance lingered, but the tedium of the journey and the warmth of the sunny afternoon had relaxed her pose by imperceptible degrees, and she sat now comfortably in the corner, with her neat toes upon the seat before her, ready to drop them primly at the first sign of a fellow-traveller. her expression lapsed more and more towards an almost somnolent reverie. she wished she had not taken a second-class ticket, because then she might have afforded a cup of tea at reading, and so fortified herself against this insinuating indolence. she was travelling second class, instead of third as she ought to have done, through one of those lapses so inevitable to young people in her position. the two carmel boys and a cousin, two greyhounds and a chow had come to see her off; they had made a brilliant and prosperous group on the platform and extorted the manifest admiration of two youthful porters, and it had been altogether too much for marjorie pope to admit it was the family custom--except when her father's nerves had to be considered--to go third class. so she had made a hasty calculation--she knew her balance to a penny because of the recent tipping--and found it would just run to it. fourpence remained,--and there would be a porter at buryhamstreet! her mother had said: "you will have ample." well, opinions of amplitude vary. with numerous details fresh in her mind, marjorie decided it would be wiser to avoid financial discussion during her first few days at buryhamstreet. there was much in marjorie's equipment in the key of travelling second class at the sacrifice of afternoon tea. there was, for example, a certain quiet goodness of style about her clothes, though the skirt betrayed age, and an entire absence of style about her luggage, which was all in the compartment with her, and which consisted of a distended hold-all, a very good tennis racquet in a stretcher, a portmanteau of cheap white basketwork held together by straps, and a very new, expensive-looking and meretricious dressing-bag of imitation morocco, which had been one of her chief financial errors at oxbridge. the collection was eloquent indeed of incompatible standards.... marjorie had a chin that was small in size if resolute in form, and a mouth that was not noticeably soft and weak because it was conspicuously soft and pretty. her nose was delicately aquiline and very subtly and finely modelled, and she looked out upon the world with steady, grey-blue eyes beneath broad, level brows that contradicted in a large measure the hint of weakness below. she had an abundance of copper-red hair, which flowed back very prettily from her broad, low forehead and over her delicate ears, and she had that warm-tinted clear skin that goes so well with reddish hair. she had a very dainty neck, and the long slender lines of her body were full of the promise of a riper beauty. she had the good open shoulders of a tennis-player and a swimmer. some day she was to be a tall, ruddy, beautiful woman. she wore simple clothes of silvery grey and soft green, and about her waist was a belt of grey leather in which there now wilted two creamy-petalled roses. that was the visible marjorie. somewhere out of time and space was an invisible marjorie who looked out on the world with those steady eyes, and smiled or drooped with the soft red lips, and dreamt, and wondered, and desired. § what a queer thing the invisible human being would appear if, by some discovery as yet inconceivable, some spiritual x-ray photography, we could flash it into sight! long ago i read a book called "soul shapes" that was full of ingenious ideas, but i doubt very much if the thing so revealed would have any shape, any abiding solid outline at all. it is something more fluctuating and discursive than that--at any rate, for every one young enough not to have set and hardened. things come into it and become it, things drift out of it and cease to be it, things turn upside down in it and change and colour and dissolve, and grow and eddy about and blend into each other. one might figure it, i suppose, as a preposterous jumble animated by a will; a floundering disconnectedness through which an old hump of impulse rises and thrusts unaccountably; a river beast of purpose wallowing in a back eddy of mud and weeds and floating objects and creatures drowned. now the sunshine of gladness makes it all vivid, now it is sombre and grimly insistent under the sky of some darkling mood, now an emotional gale sweeps across it and it is one confused agitation.... and surely these invisible selves of men were never so jumbled, so crowded, complicated, and stirred about as they are at the present time. once i am told they had a sort of order, were sphered in religious beliefs, crystal clear, were arranged in a cosmogony that fitted them as hand fits glove, were separated by definite standards of right and wrong which presented life as planned in all its essential aspects from the cradle to the grave. things are so no longer. that sphere is broken for most of us; even if it is tied about and mended again, it is burst like a seed case; things have fallen out and things have fallen in.... can i convey in any measure how it was with marjorie? what was her religion? in college forms and returns, and suchlike documents, she would describe herself as "church of england." she had been baptized according to the usages of that body, but she had hitherto evaded confirmation into it, and although it is a large, wealthy, and powerful organization with many minds to serve it, it had never succeeded in getting into her quick and apprehensive intelligence any lucid and persuasive conception of what it considered god and the universe were up to with her. it had failed to catch her attention and state itself to her. a number of humorous and other writers and the general trend of talk around her, and perhaps her own shrewd little observation of superficial things, had, on the other hand, created a fairly definite belief in her that it wasn't as a matter of fact up to very much at all, that what it said wasn't said with that absolute honesty which is a logical necessity in every religious authority, and that its hierarchy had all sorts of political and social considerations confusing its treatment of her immortal soul.... marjorie followed her father in abstaining from church. he too professed himself "church of england," but he was, if we are to set aside merely superficial classifications, an irascible atheist with a respect for usage and good taste, and an abject fear of the disapproval of other gentlemen of his class. for the rest he secretly disliked clergymen on account of the peculiarity of their collars, and a certain influence they had with women. when marjorie at the age of fourteen had displayed a hankering after ecclesiastical ceremony and emotional religion, he had declared: "we don't want any of _that_ nonsense," and sent her into the country to a farm where there were young calves and a bottle-fed lamb and kittens. at times her mother went to church and displayed considerable orthodoxy and punctilio, at times the good lady didn't, and at times she thought in a broad-minded way that there was a lot in christian science, and subjected herself to the ministrations of an american named silas root. but his ministrations were too expensive for continuous use, and so the old faith did not lose its hold upon the family altogether. * * * * * at school marjorie had been taught what i may best describe as muffled christianity--a temperate and discreet system designed primarily not to irritate parents, in which the painful symbol of the crucifixion and the riddle of what salvation was to save her from, and, indeed, the coarser aspects of religion generally, were entirely subordinate to images of amiable perambulations, and a rich mist of finer feelings. she had been shielded, not only from arguments against her religion, but from arguments for it--the two things go together--and i do not think it was particularly her fault if she was now growing up like the great majority of respectable english people, with her religious faculty as it were, artificially faded, and an acquired disposition to regard any speculation of why she was, and whence and whither, as rather foolish, not very important, and in the very worst possible taste. and so, the crystal globe being broken which once held souls together, you may expect to find her a little dispersed and inconsistent in her motives, and with none of that assurance a simpler age possessed of the exact specification of goodness or badness, the exact delimitation of right and wrong. indeed, she did not live in a world of right and wrong, or anything so stern; "horrid" and "jolly" had replaced these archaic orientations. in a world where a mercantile gentility has conquered passion and god is neither blasphemed nor adored, there necessarily arises this generation of young people, a little perplexed, indeed, and with a sense of something missing, but feeling their way inevitably at last to the great releasing question, "then why shouldn't we have a good time?" yet there was something in marjorie, as in most human beings, that demanded some general idea, some aim, to hold her life together. a girl upon the borders of her set at college was fond of the phrase "living for the moment," and marjorie associated with it the speaker's lax mouth, sloe-like eyes, soft, quick-flushing, boneless face, and a habit of squawking and bouncing in a forced and graceless manner. marjorie's natural disposition was to deal with life in a steadier spirit than that. yet all sorts of powers and forces were at work in her, some exalted, some elvish, some vulgar, some subtle. she felt keenly and desired strongly, and in effect she came perhaps nearer the realization of that offending phrase than its original exponent. she had a clean intensity of feeling that made her delight in a thousand various things, in sunlight and textures, and the vividly quick acts of animals, in landscape, and the beauty of other girls, in wit, and people's voices, and good strong reasoning, and the desire and skill of art. she had a clear, rapid memory that made her excel perhaps a little too easily at school and college, an eagerness of sympathetic interest that won people very quickly and led to disappointments, and a very strong sense of the primary importance of miss marjorie pope in the world. and when any very definite dream of what she would like to be and what she would like to do, such as being the principal of a ladies' college, or the first woman member of parliament, or the wife of a barbaric chief in borneo, or a great explorer, or the wife of a millionaire and a great social leader, or george sand, or saint teresa, had had possession of her imagination for a few weeks, an entirely contrasted and equally attractive dream would presently arise beside it and compete with it and replace it. it wasn't so much that she turned against the old one as that she was attracted by the new, and she forgot the old dream rather than abandoned it, simply because she was only one person, and hadn't therefore the possibility of realizing both. in certain types marjorie's impressionability aroused a passion of proselytism. people of the most diverse kinds sought to influence her, and they invariably did so. quite a number of people, including her mother and the principal of her college, believed themselves to be the leading influence in her life. and this was particularly the case with her aunt plessington. her aunt plessington was devoted to social and political work of an austere and aggressive sort (in which mr. plessington participated); she was childless, and had a movement of her own, the good habits movement, a progressive movement of the utmost scope and benevolence which aimed at extensive interferences with the food and domestic intimacies of the more defenceless lower classes by means ultimately of legislation, and she had marjorie up to see her, took her for long walks while she influenced with earnestness and vigour, and at times had an air of bequeathing her mantle, movement and everything, quite definitely to her "little madge." she spoke of training her niece to succeed her, and bought all the novels of mrs. humphry ward for her as they appeared, in the hope of quickening in her that flame of politico-social ambition, that insatiable craving for dinner-parties with important guests, which is so distinctive of the more influential variety of english womanhood. it was due rather to her own habit of monologue than to any reserve on the part of marjorie that she entertained the belief that her niece was entirely acquiescent in these projects. they went into marjorie's mind and passed. for nearly a week, it is true, she had dramatized herself as the angel and inspiration of some great modern statesman, but this had been ousted by a far more insistent dream, begotten by a picture she had seen in some exhibition, of a life of careless savagery, whose central and constantly recurrent incident was the riding of barebacked horses out of deep-shadowed forest into a foamy sunlit sea--in a costume that would certainly have struck aunt plessington as a mistake. if you could have seen marjorie in her railway compartment, with the sunshine, sunshine mottled by the dirty window, tangled in her hair and creeping to and fro over her face as the train followed the curves of the line, you would certainly have agreed with me that she was pretty, and you might even have thought her beautiful. but it was necessary to fall in love with marjorie before you could find her absolutely beautiful. you might have speculated just what business was going on behind those drowsily thoughtful eyes. if you are--as people say--"victorian," you might even have whispered "day dreams," at the sight of her.... she _was_ dreaming, and in a sense she was thinking of beautiful things. but only mediately. she was thinking how very much she would enjoy spending freely and vigorously, quite a considerable amount of money,--heaps of money. you see, the carmels, with whom she had just been staying, were shockingly well off. they had two motor cars with them in the country, and the boys had the use of the second one as though it was just an old bicycle. marjorie had had a cheap white dinner-dress, made the year before by a chelsea french girl, a happy find of her mother's, and it was shapely and simple and not at all bad, and she had worn her green beads and her egyptian necklace of jade; but kitty carmel and her sister had had a new costume nearly every night, and pretty bracelets, and rubies, big pearls, and woven gold, and half a score of delightful and precious things for neck and hair. everything in the place was bright and good and abundant, the servants were easy and well-mannered, without a trace of hurry or resentment, and one didn't have to be sharp about the eggs and things at breakfast in the morning, or go without. all through the day, and even when they had gone to bathe from the smart little white and green shed on the upper lake, marjorie had been made to feel the insufficiency of her equipment. kitty carmel, being twenty-one, possessed her own cheque-book and had accounts running at half a dozen west-end shops; and both sisters had furnished their own rooms according to their taste, with a sense of obvious effect that had set marjorie speculating just how a room might be done by a girl with a real eye for colour and a real brain behind it.... the train slowed down for the seventeenth time. marjorie looked up and read "buryhamstreet." § her reverie vanished, and by a complex but almost instantaneous movement she had her basket off the rack and the carriage door open. she became teeming anticipations. there, advancing in a string, were daffy, her elder sister, theodore, her younger brother, and the dog toupee. sydney and rom hadn't come. daffy was not copper red like her sister, but really quite coarsely red-haired; she was bigger than marjorie, and with irregular teeth instead of marjorie's neat row; she confessed them in a broad simple smile of welcome. theodore was hatless, rustily fuzzy-headed, and now a wealth of quasi-humorous gesture. the dog toupee was straining at a leash, and doing its best in a yapping, confused manner, to welcome the wrong people by getting its lead round their legs. "toupee!" cried marjorie, waving the basket. "toupee!" they all called it toupee because it was like one, but the name was forbidden in her father's hearing. her father had decided that the proper name for a family dog in england is towser, and did his utmost to suppress a sobriquet that was at once unprecedented and not in the best possible taste. which was why the whole family, with the exception of mrs. pope, of course, stuck to toupee.... marjorie flashed a second's contrast with the carmel splendours. "hullo, old daffy. what's it like?" she asked, handing out the basket as her sister came up. "it's a lark," said daffy. "where's the dressing-bag?" "thoddy," said marjorie, following up the dressing-bag with the hold-all. "lend a hand." "stow it, toupee," said theodore, and caught the hold-all in time. in another moment marjorie was out of the train, had done the swift kissing proper to the occasion, and rolled a hand over toupee's head--toupee, who, after a passionate lunge at a particularly savoury drover from the next compartment, was now frantically trying to indicate that marjorie was the one human being he had ever cared for. brother and sister were both sketching out the state of affairs at buryhamstreet vicarage in rapid competitive jerks, each eager to tell things first--and the whole party moved confusedly towards the station exit. things pelted into marjorie's mind. "we've got an old donkey-cart. i thought we shouldn't get here--ever.... madge, we can go up the church tower whenever we like, only old daffy won't let me shin up the flagstaff. it's _perfectly_ safe--you couldn't fall off if you tried.... had positively to get out at the level crossing and _pull_ him over.... there's a sort of moat in the garden.... you never saw such furniture, madge! and the study! it's hung with texts, and stuffed with books about the scarlet woman.... piano's rather good, it's a broadwood.... the dad's got a war on about the tennis net. oh, frightful! you'll see. it won't keep up. he's had a letter kept waiting by the _times_ for a fortnight, and it's a terror at breakfast. says the motor people have used influence to silence him. says that's a game two can play at.... old sid got herself upset stuffing windfalls. rather a sell for old sid, considering how refined she's getting...." there was a brief lull as the party got into the waiting governess cart. toupee, after a preliminary refusal to enter, made a determined attempt on the best seat, from which he would be able to bark in a persistent, official manner at anything that passed. that suppressed, and theodore's proposal to drive refused, they were able to start, and attention was concentrated upon daffy's negotiation of the station approach. marjorie turned on her brother with a smile of warm affection. "how are you, old theodore?" "i'm all right, old madge." "mummy?" "every one's all right," said theodore; "if it wasn't for that damned infernal net----" "ssssh!" cried both sisters together. "_he_ says it," said theodore. both sisters conveyed a grave and relentless disapproval. "pretty bit of road," said marjorie. "i like that little house at the corner." a pause and the eyes of the sisters met. "_he's_ here," said daffy. marjorie affected ignorance. "who's here?" "_il vostro senior miraculoso_." "just as though a fellow couldn't understand your kiddy little italian," said theodore, pulling toupee's ear. "oh well, i thought he might be," said marjorie, regardless of her brother. "oh!" said daffy. "i didn't know----" both sisters looked at each other, and then both glanced at theodore. he met marjorie's eyes with a grimace of profound solemnity. "little brothers," he said, "shouldn't know. just as though they didn't! rot! but let's change the subject, my dears, all the same. lemme see. there are a new sort of flea on toupee, madge, that he gets from the hens." "_is_ a new sort," corrected daffy. "he's horrider than ever, madge. he leaves his soap in soak now to make us think he has used it. this is the village high street. isn't it jolly?" "corners don't _bite_ people," said theodore, with a critical eye to the driving. marjorie surveyed the high street, while daffy devoted a few moments to theodore. the particular success of the village was its brace of chestnut trees which, with that noble disregard of triteness which is one of the charms of villages the whole world over, shadowed the village smithy. on either side of the roadway between it and the paths was a careless width of vivid grass protected by white posts, which gave way to admit a generous access on either hand to a jolly public house, leering over red blinds, and swinging a painted sign against its competitor. several of the cottages had real thatch and most had porches; they had creepers nailed to their faces, and their gardens, crowded now with flowers, marigolds, begonias, snapdragon, delphiniums, white foxgloves, and monkshood, seemed almost too good to be true. the doctor's house was pleasantly georgian, and the village shop, which was also a post and telegraph office, lay back with a slight air of repletion, keeping its bulging double shop-windows wide open in a manifest attempt not to fall asleep. two score of shock-headed boys and pinafored girls were drilling upon a bald space of ground before the village school, and near by, the national emotion at the ever-memorable diamond jubilee of queen victoria had evoked an artistic drinking-fountain of grey stone. beyond the subsequent green--there were the correctest geese thereon--the village narrowed almost to a normal road again, and then, recalling itself with a start, lifted a little to the churchyard wall about the grey and ample church. "it's just like all the villages that ever were," said marjorie, and gave a cry of delight when daffy, pointing to the white gate between two elm trees that led to the vicarage, remarked: "that's us." in confirmation of which statement, sydney and rom, the two sisters next in succession to marjorie, and with a strong tendency to be twins in spite of the year between them, appeared in a state of vociferous incivility opening the way for the donkey-carriage. sydney was sydney, and rom was just short for romola--one of her mother's favourite heroines in fiction. "old madge," they said; and then throwing respect to the winds, "old gargoo!" which was marjorie's forbidden nickname, and short for gargoyle (though surely only victorian gothic, ever produced a gargoyle that had the remotest right to be associated with the neat brightness of marjorie's face). she overlooked the offence, and the pseudo-twins boarded the cart from behind, whereupon the already overburthened donkey, being old and in a manner wise, quickened his pace for the house to get the whole thing over. "it's really an avenue," said daffy; but marjorie, with her mind strung up to the carmel standards, couldn't agree. it was like calling a row of boy-scouts potsdam grenadiers. the trees were at irregular distances, of various ages, and mostly on one side. still it was a shady, pleasant approach. and the vicarage was truly very interesting and amusing. to these londoners accustomed to live in a state of compression, elbows practically touching, in a tall, narrow fore-and-aft stucco house, all window and staircase, in a despondent brompton square, there was an effect of maundering freedom about the place, of enlargement almost to the pitch of adventure and sunlight to the pitch of intoxication. the house itself was long and low, as if a london house holidaying in the country had flung itself asprawl; it had two disconnected and roomy staircases, and when it had exhausted itself completely as a house, it turned to the right and began again as rambling, empty stables, coach house, cart sheds, men's bedrooms up ladders, and outhouses of the most various kinds. on one hand was a neglected orchard, in the front of the house was a bald, worried-looking lawn area capable of simultaneous tennis and croquet, and at the other side a copious and confused vegetable and flower garden full of roses, honesty, hollyhocks, and suchlike herbaceous biennials and perennials, lapsed at last into shrubbery, where a sickle-shaped, weedy lagoon of uncertain aims, which had evidently, as a rustic bridge and a weeping willow confessed, aspired to be an "ornamental water," declined at last to ducks. and there was access to the church, and the key of the church tower, and one went across the corner of the lawn, and by a little iron gate into the churchyard to decipher inscriptions, as if the tombs of all buryhamstreet were no more than a part of the accommodation relinquished by the vicar's household. marjorie was hurried over the chief points of all this at a breakneck pace by sydney and rom, and when sydney was called away to the horrors of practice--for sydney in spite of considerable reluctance was destined by her father to be "the musical one"--rom developed a copious affection, due apparently to some occult æsthetic influence in marjorie's silvery-grey and green, and led her into the unlocked vestry, and there prayed in a whisper that she might be given "one good hug, just _one_"--and so they came out with their arms about each other very affectionately to visit the lagoon again. and then rom remembered that marjorie hadn't seen either the walnut-tree in the orchard, or the hen with nine chicks.... somewhere among all these interests came tea and mrs. pope. mrs. pope kissed her daughter with an air of having really wanted to kiss her half an hour ago, but of having been distracted since. she was a fine-featured, anxious-looking little woman, with a close resemblance to all her children, in spite of the fact that they were markedly dissimilar one to the other, except only that they took their ruddy colourings from their father. she was dressed in a neat blue dress that had perhaps been hurriedly chosen, and her method of doing her hair was a manifest compromise between duty and pleasure. she embarked at once upon an exposition of the bedroom arrangements, which evidently involved difficult issues. marjorie was to share a room with daffy--that was the gist of it--as the only other available apartment, originally promised to marjorie, had been secured by mr. pope for what he called his "matutinal ablutions, _videlicet_ tub." "then, when your aunt plessington comes, you won't have to move," said mrs. pope with an air of a special concession. "your father's looking forward to seeing you, but he mustn't be disturbed just yet. he's in the vicar's study. he's had his tea in there. he's writing a letter to the _times_ answering something they said in a leader, and also a private note calling attention to their delay in printing his previous communication, and he wants to be delicately ironical without being in any way offensive. he wants to hint without actually threatening that very probably he will go over to the _spectator_ altogether if they do not become more attentive. the _times_ used to print his letters punctually, but latterly these automobile people seem to have got hold of it.... he has the window on the lawn open, so that i think, perhaps, we'd better not stay out here--for fear our voices might disturb him." "better get right round the other side of the church," said daffy. "he'd hear far less of us if we went indoors," said mrs. pope. § the vicarage seemed tight packed with human interest for marjorie and her mother and sisters. going over houses is one of the amusements proper to her sex, and she and all three sisters and her mother, as soon as they had finished an inaudible tea, went to see the bedroom she was to share with daffy, and then examined, carefully and in order, the furniture and decoration of the other bedrooms, went through the rooms downstairs, always excepting and avoiding very carefully and closing as many doors as possible on, and hushing their voices whenever they approached the study in which her father was being delicately ironical without being offensive to the _times_. none of them had seen any of the vicarage people at all--mr. pope had come on a bicycle and managed all the negotiations--and it was curious to speculate about the individuals whose personalities pervaded the worn and faded furnishings of the place. the popes' keen-eyed inspection came at times, i think, dangerously near prying. the ideals of decoration and interests of the vanished family were so absolutely dissimilar to the london standards as to arouse a sort of astonished wonder in their minds. some of the things they decided were perfectly hideous, some quaint, some were simply and weakly silly. everything was different from hartstone square. daffy was perhaps more inclined to contempt, and mrs. pope to refined amusement and witty appreciation than marjorie. marjorie felt there was something in these people that she didn't begin to understand, she needed some missing clue that would unlock the secret of their confused peculiarity. she was one of those people who have an almost instinctive turn for decoration in costume and furniture; she had already had a taste of how to do things in arranging her rooms at bennett college, oxbridge, where also she was in great demand among the richer girls as an adviser. she knew what it was to try and fail as well as to try and succeed, and these people, she felt, hadn't tried for anything she comprehended. she couldn't quite see why it was that there was at the same time an attempt at ornament and a disregard of beauty, she couldn't quite do as her mother did and dismiss it as an absurdity and have done with it. she couldn't understand, too, why everything should be as if it were faded and weakened from something originally bright and clear. all the rooms were thick with queer little objects that indicated a quite beaver-like industry in the production of "work." there were embroidered covers for nearly every article on the wash-hand-stand, and mats of wool and crochet wherever anything stood on anything; there were "tidies" everywhere, and odd little brackets covered with gilded and varnished fir cones and bearing framed photographs and little jars and all sorts of colourless, dusty little objects, and everywhere on the walls tacks sustained crossed fans with badly painted flowers or transfer pictures. there was a jar on the bedroom mantel covered with varnished postage stamps and containing grey-haired dried grasses. there seemed to be a moral element in all this, for in the room sydney shared with rom there was a decorative piece of lettering which declared that-- "something attempted, something done, has earned a night's repose." there were a great number of texts that set marjorie's mind stirring dimly with intimations of a missed significance. over her own bed, within the lattice of an oxford frame, was the photograph of a picture of an extremely composed young woman in a trailing robe, clinging to the rock of ages in the midst of histrionically aggressive waves, and she had a feeling, rather than a thought, that perhaps for all the oddity of the presentation it did convey something acutely desirable, that she herself had had moods when she would have found something very comforting in just such an impassioned grip. and on a framed, floriferous card, these incomprehensible words: |================================| |thy grace is sufficient for me. | |================================| seemed to be saying something to her tantalizingly just outside her range of apprehension. did all these things light up somehow to those dispossessed people--from some angle she didn't attain? were they living and moving realities when those others were at home again? the drawing-room had no texts; it was altogether more pretentious and less haunted by the faint and faded flavour of religion that pervaded the bedrooms. it had, however, evidences of travel in switzerland and the mediterranean. there was a piano in black and gold, a little out of tune, and surmounted by a benares brass jar, enveloping a scarlet geranium in a pot. there was a japanese screen of gold wrought upon black, that screened nothing. there was a framed chromo-lithograph of jerusalem hot in the sunset, and another of jerusalem cold under a sub-tropical moon, and there were gourds, roses of jericho, sandalwood rosaries and kindred trash from the holy land in no little profusion upon a what-not. such books as the room had contained had been arranged as symmetrically as possible about a large, pink-shaded lamp upon the claret-coloured cloth of a round table, and were to be replaced, mrs. pope said, at their departure. at present they were piled on a side-table. the girls had been through them all, and were ready with the choicer morsels for marjorie's amusement. there was "black beauty," the sympathetic story of a soundly anglican horse, and a large bible extra-illustrated with photographs of every well-known scriptural picture from michael angelo to doré, and a book of injunctions to young ladies upon their behaviour and deportment that rom and sydney found particularly entertaining. marjorie discovered that sydney had picked up a new favourite phrase. "i'm afraid we're all dreadfully cynical," said sydney, several times. a more advanced note was struck by a copy of "aurora leigh," richly underlined in pencil, but with exclamation marks at some of the bolder passages.... and presently, still avoiding the open study window very elaborately, this little group of twentieth century people went again into the church--the church whose foundations were laid in a.d. --foundations of rubble and cement that included flat roman bricks from a still remoter basilica. their voices dropped instinctively, as they came into its shaded quiet from the exterior sunshine. marjorie went a little apart and sat in a pew that gave her a glimpse of the one good stained-glass window. rom followed her, and perceiving her mood to be restful, sat a yard away. syd began a whispered dispute with her mother whether it wasn't possible to try the organ, and whether theodore might not be bribed to blow. daffy discovered relics of a lepers' squint and a holy-water stoup, and then went to scrutinize the lettering of the ten commandments of the mosaic law that shone black and red on gold on either side of the i.h.s. monogram behind the white-clothed communion table that had once been the altar. upon a notice board hung about the waist of the portly pulpit were the numbers of hymns that had been sung three days ago. the sound protestantism of the vicar had banished superfluous crosses from the building; the bible reposed upon the wings of a great brass eagle; shining blue and crimson in the window, saint christopher carried his lord. what a harmonized synthesis of conflicts a country church presents! what invisible mysteries of filiation spread between these ancient ornaments and symbols and the new young minds from the whirlpool of the town that looked upon them now with such bright, keen eyes, wondering a little, feeling a little, missing so much? it was all so very cool and quiet now--with something of the immobile serenity of death. § when mr. pope had finished his letter to the _times_, he got out of the window of the study, treading on a flower-bed as he did so--he was the sort of man who treads on flower-beds--partly with the purpose of reading his composition aloud to as many members of his family as he could assemble for the purpose, and so giving them a chance of appreciating the nuances of his irony more fully than if they saw it just in cold print without the advantage of his intonation, and partly with the belated idea of welcoming marjorie. the law presented a rather discouraging desolation. then he became aware that the church tower frothed with his daughters. in view of his need of an audience, he decided after a brief doubt that their presence there was unobjectionable, and waved his ms. amiably. marjorie flapped a handkerchief in reply.... the subsequent hour was just the sort of hour that gave mr. pope an almost meteorological importance to his family. he began with an amiability that had no fault, except, perhaps, that it was a little forced after the epistolary strain in the study, and his welcome to marjorie was more than cordial. "well, little madge-cat!" he said, giving her an affectionate but sound and heavy thump on the left shoulder-blade, "got a kiss for the old daddy?" marjorie submitted a cheek. "that's right," said mr. pope; "and now i just want you all to advise me----" he led the way to a group of wicker garden chairs. "you're coming, mummy?" he said, and seated himself comfortably and drew out a spectacle case, while his family grouped itself dutifully. it made a charming little picture of a man and his womankind. "i don't often flatter myself," he said, "but this time i think i've been neat--neat's the word for it." he cleared his throat, put on his spectacles, and emitted a long, flat preliminary note, rather like the sound of a child's trumpet. "er--'dear sir!'" "rom," said mrs. pope, "don't creak your chair." "it's daffy, mother," said rom. "oh, _rom!_" said daffy. mr. pope paused, and looked with a warning eye over his left spectacle-glass at rom. "don't creak your chair, rom," he said, "when your mother tells you." "i was _not_ creaking my chair," said rom. "i heard it," said mr. pope, suavely. "it was daffy." "your mother does not think so," said mr. pope. "oh, all right! i'll sit on the ground," said rom, crimson to the roots of her hair. "me too," said daffy. "i'd rather." mr. pope watched the transfer gravely. then he readjusted his glasses, cleared his throat again, trumpeted, and began. "er--'dear sir,'" "oughtn't it to be simply 'sir,' father, for an editor?" said marjorie. "perhaps i didn't explain, marjorie," said her father, with the calm of great self-restraint, and dabbing his left hand on the manuscript in his right, "that this is a _private_ letter--a private letter." "i didn't understand," said marjorie. "it would have been evident as i went on," said mr. pope, and prepared to read again. this time he was allowed to proceed, but the interruptions had ruffled him, and the gentle stresses that should have lifted the subtleties of his irony into prominence missed the words, and he had to go back and do his sentences again. then rom suddenly, horribly, uncontrollably, was seized with hiccups. at the second hiccup mr. pope paused, and looked very hard at his daughter with magnified eyes; as he was about to resume, the third burst its way through the unhappy child's utmost effort. mr. pope rose with an awful resignation. "that's enough," he said. he regarded the pseudo-twin vindictively. "you haven't the self-control of a child of six," he said. then very touchingly to mrs. pope: "mummy, shall we try a game of tennis with the new generation?" "can't you read it after supper?" asked mrs. pope. "it must go by the eight o'clock post," said mr. pope, putting the masterpiece into his breast pocket, the little masterpiece that would now perhaps never be read aloud to any human being. "daffy, dear, do you mind going in for the racquets and balls?" the social atmosphere was now sultry, and overcast, and mr. pope's decision to spend the interval before daffy returned in seeing whether he couldn't do something to the net, which was certainly very unsatisfactory, did not improve matters. then, unhappily, marjorie, who had got rather keen upon tennis at the carmels', claimed her father's first two services as faults, contrary to the etiquette of the family. it happened that mr. pope had a really very good, hard, difficult, smart-looking serve, whose only defect was that it always went either too far or else into the net, and so a feeling had been fostered and established by his wife that, on the whole, it was advisable to regard the former variety as a legitimate extension of a father's authority. naturally, therefore, mr. pope was nettled at marjorie's ruling, and his irritation increased when his next two services to daffy perished in the net. ("damn that net! puts one's eye out.") then marjorie gave him an unexpected soft return which he somehow muffed, and then daffy just dropped a return over the top of the net. (love-game.) it was then marjorie's turn to serve, which she did with a new twist acquired from the eldest carmel boy that struck mr. pope as un-english. "go on," he said concisely. "fifteen love." she was gentle with her mother and they got their first rally, and when it was over mr. pope had to explain to marjorie that if she returned right up into his corner of the court he would have to run backwards very fast and might fall over down the silly slope at that end. she would have to consider him and the court. one didn't get everything out of a game by playing merely to win. she said "all right, daddy," rather off-handedly, and immediately served to him again, and he, taken a little unawares, hit the ball with the edge of his racquet and sent it out, and then he changed racquets with daffy--it seemed he had known all along she had taken his, but he had preferred to say nothing--uttered a word of advice to his wife just on her stroke, and she, failing to grasp his intention as quickly as she ought to have done, left the score forty-fifteen. he felt better when he returned marjorie's serve, and then before she could control herself she repeated her new unpleasant trick of playing into the corner again, whereupon, leaping back with an agility that would have shamed many a younger man, mr. pope came upon disaster. he went spinning down the treacherous slope behind, twisted his ankle painfully and collapsed against the iron railings of the shrubbery. it was too much, and he lost control of himself. his daughters had one instant's glimpse of the linguistic possibilities of a strong man's agony. "i told her," he went on as if he had said nothing. "_tennis!_" for a second perhaps he seemed to hesitate upon a course of action. then as if by a great effort he took his coat from the net post and addressed himself houseward, incarnate grand dudgeon--limping. "had enough of it, mummy," he said, and added some happily inaudible comment on marjorie's new style of play. the evening's exercise was at an end. the three ladies regarded one another in silence for some moments. "i will take in the racquets, dear," said mrs. pope. "i think the other ball is at your end," said daffy.... the apparatus put away, marjorie and her sister strolled thoughtfully away from the house. "there's croquet here too," said daffy. "we've not had the things out yet!".... "he'll play, i suppose." "he wants to play."... "of course," said marjorie after a long pause, "there's no _reasoning_ with dad!" § character is one of england's noblest and most deliberate products, but some englishmen have it to excess. mr. pope had. he was one of that large and representative class which imparts a dignity to national commerce by inheriting big businesses from its ancestors. he was a coach-builder by birth, and a gentleman by education and training. he had been to city merchant's and cambridge. throughout the earlier half of the nineteenth century the popes had been the princes of the coach-building world. mr. pope's great-grandfather had been a north london wheelwright of conspicuous dexterity and integrity, who had founded the family business; his son, mr. pope's grandfather, had made that business the occupation of his life and brought it to the pinnacle of pre-eminence; his son, who was marjorie's grandfather, had displayed a lesser enthusiasm, left the house at the works for a home ten miles away and sent a second son into the church. it was in the days of the third pope that the business ceased to expand, and began to suffer severely from the competition of an enterprising person who had originally supplied the firm with varnish, gradually picked up the trade in most other materials and accessories needed in coach-building, and passed on by almost imperceptible stages to delivering the article complete--dispensing at last altogether with the intervention of pope and son--to the customer. marjorie's father had succeeded in the fulness of time to the inheritance this insurgent had damaged. mr. pope was a man of firm and resentful temper, with an admiration for cato, brutus, cincinnatus, cromwell, washington, and the sterner heroes generally, and by nature a little ill-used and offended at things. he suffered from indigestion and extreme irritability. he found himself in control of a business where more flexible virtues were needed. the popes based their fame on a heavy, proud type of vehicle, which the increasing luxury and triviality of the age tended to replace by lighter forms of carriage, carriages with diminutive and apologetic names. as these lighter forms were not only lighter but less expensive, mr. pope with a pathetic confidence in the loyalty of the better class of west end customer, determined to "make a stand" against them. he was the sort of man to whom making a stand is in itself a sombre joy. if he had had to choose his pose for a portrait, he would certainly have decided to have one foot advanced, the other planted like a british oak behind, the arms folded and the brows corrugated,--making a stand. unhappily the stars in their courses and the general improvement of roads throughout the country fought against him. the lighter carriages, and especially the lighter carriages of that varnish-selling firm, which was now absorbing businesses right and left, prevailed over mr. pope's resistance. for crossing a mountain pass or fording a river, for driving over the scene of a recent earthquake or following a retreating army, for being run away with by frantic horses or crushing a personal enemy, there can be no doubt the pope carriages remained to the very last the best possible ones and fully worth the inflexible price demanded. unhappily all carriages in a civilization essentially decadent are not subjected to these tests, and the manufactures of his rivals were not only much cheaper, but had a sort of meretricious smartness, a disingenuous elasticity, above all a levity, hateful indeed to the spirit of mr. pope yet attractive to the wanton customer. business dwindled. nevertheless the habitual element in the good class customer did keep things going, albeit on a shrinking scale, until mr. pope came to the unfortunate decision that he would make a stand against automobiles. he regarded them as an intrusive nuisance which had to be seen only to be disowned by the landed gentry of england. rather than build a car he said he would go out of business. he went out of business. within five years of this determination he sold out the name, good will, and other vestiges of his concern to a mysterious buyer who turned out to be no more than an agent for these persistently expanding varnish makers, and he retired with a genuine grievance upon the family accumulations--chiefly in consols and home railways. he refused however to regard his defeat as final, put great faith in the approaching exhaustion of the petrol supply, and talked in a manner that should have made the automobile association uneasy, of devoting the rest of his days to the purification of england from these aggressive mechanisms. "it was a mistake," he said, "to let them in." he became more frequent at his excellent west end club, and directed a certain portion of his capital to largely indecisive but on the whole unprofitable speculations in south african and south american enterprises. he mingled a little in affairs. he was a tough conventional speaker, rich in established phrases and never abashed by hearing himself say commonplace things, and in addition to his campaign against automobiles he found time to engage also in quasi-political activities, taking chairs, saying a few words and so on, cherishing a fluctuating hope that his eloquence might ultimately win him an invitation to contest a constituency in the interests of reaction and the sounder elements in the liberal party. he had a public-spirited side, and he was particularly attracted by that mass of modern legislative proposals which aims at a more systematic control of the lives of lower class persons for their own good by their betters. indeed, in the first enthusiasm of his proprietorship of the pope works at east purblow, he had organized one of those benevolent industrial experiments that are now so common. he felt strongly against the drink evil, that is to say, the unrestricted liberty of common people to drink what they prefer, and he was acutely impressed by the fact that working-class families do not spend their money in the way that seems most desirable to upper middle-class critics. accordingly he did his best to replace the dangerous freedoms of money by that ideal of the social reformer, payment in kind. to use his invariable phrase, the east purblow experiment did "no mean service" to the cause of social reform. unhappily it came to an end through a prosecution under the truck act, that blot upon the statute book, designed, it would appear, even deliberately to vitiate man's benevolent control of his fellow man. the lessons to be drawn from that experience, however, grew if anything with the years. he rarely spoke without an allusion to it, and it was quite remarkable how readily it could be adapted to illuminate a hundred different issues in the hospitable columns of the _spectator_.... § at seven o'clock marjorie found herself upstairs changing into her apple-green frock. she had had a good refreshing wash in cold soft water, and it was pleasant to change into thinner silk stockings and dainty satin slippers and let down and at last brush her hair and dress loiteringly after the fatigues of her journey and the activities of her arrival. she looked out on the big church and the big trees behind it against the golden quiet of a summer evening with extreme approval. "i suppose those birds are rooks," she said. but daffy had gone to see that the pseudo-twins had done themselves justice in their muslin frocks and pink sashes; they were apt to be a little sketchy with their less accessible buttons. marjorie became aware of two gentlemen with her mother on the lawn below. one was her almost affianced lover, will magnet, the humorous writer. she had been doing her best not to think about him all day, but now he became an unavoidable central fact. she regarded him with an almost perplexed scrutiny, and wondered vividly why she had been so excited and pleased by his attentions during the previous summer. mr. magnet was one of those quiet, deliberately unassuming people who do not even attempt to be beautiful. not for him was it to pretend, but to prick the bladder of pretence. he was a fairish man of forty, pale, with a large protuberant, observant grey eye--i speak particularly of the left--and a face of quiet animation warily alert for the wit's opportunity. his nose and chin were pointed, and his lips thin and quaintly pressed together. he was dressed in grey, with a low-collared silken shirt showing a thin neck, and a flowing black tie, and he carried a grey felt hat in his joined hands behind his back. she could hear the insinuating cadences of his voice as he talked in her mother's ear. the other gentleman, silent on her mother's right, must, she knew, be mr. wintersloan, whom mr. magnet had proposed to bring over. his dress betrayed that modest gaiety of disposition becoming in an artist, and indeed he was one of mr. magnet's favourite illustrators. he was in a dark bluish-grey suit; a black tie that was quite unusually broad went twice around his neck before succumbing to the bow, and his waistcoat appeared to be of some gaily-patterned orange silk. marjorie's eyes returned to mr. magnet. hitherto she had never had an opportunity of remarking that his hair was more than a little attenuated towards the crown. it was funny how his tie came out under his chin to the right. what an odd thing men's dress had become, she thought. why did they wear those ridiculous collars and ties? why didn't they always dress in flannels and look as fine and slender and active as the elder carmel boy for example? mr. magnet couldn't be such an ill-shaped man. why didn't every one dress to be just as beautiful and splendid as possible?--instead of wearing queer things! "coming down?" said daffy, a vision of sulphur-yellow, appearing in the doorway. "let _them_ go first," said marjorie, with a finer sense of effect. "and theodore. we don't want to make part of a comic entry with theodore, daffy." accordingly, the two sisters watched discreetly--they had to be wary on account of mr. magnet's increasingly frequent glances at the windows--and when at last all the rest of the family had appeared below, they decided their cue had come. mr. pope strolled into the group, with no trace of his recent debacle except a slight limp. he was wearing a jacket of damson-coloured velvet, which he affected in the country, and all traces of his grand dudgeon were gone. but then he rarely had grand dudgeon except in the sanctities of family life, and hardly ever when any other man was about. "well," his daughters heard him say, with a witty allusiveness that was difficult to follow, "so the magnet has come to the mountain again--eh?" "come on, madge," said daffy, and the two sisters emerged harmoniously together from the house. it would have been manifest to a meaner capacity than any present that evening that mr. magnet regarded marjorie with a distinguished significance. he had two eyes, but he had that mysterious quality so frequently associated with a bluish-grey iris which gives the effect of looking hard with one large orb, a sort of grey searchlight effect, and he used this eye ray now to convey a respectful but firm admiration in the most unequivocal manner. he saluted daffy courteously, and then allowed himself to retain marjorie's hand for just a second longer than was necessary as he said--very simply--"i am very pleased indeed to meet you again--very." a slight embarrassment fell between them. "you are staying near here, mr. magnet?" "at the inn," said mr. magnet, and then, "i chose it because it would be near you." his eye pressed upon her again for a moment. "is it comfortable?" said marjorie. "so charmingly simple," said mr. magnet. "i love it." a tinkling bell announced the preparedness of supper, and roused the others to the consciousness that they were silently watching mr. magnet and marjorie. "it's quite a simple farmhouse supper," said mrs. pope. § there were ducks, green peas, and adolescent new potatoes for supper, and afterwards stewed fruit and cream and junket and cheese, bottled beer, gilbey's burgundy, and home-made lemonade. mrs. pope carved, because mr. pope splashed too much, and bones upset him and made him want to show up chicken in the _times_. so he sat at the other end and rallied his guests while mrs. pope distributed the viands. he showed not a trace of his recent umbrage. theodore sat between daffy and his mother because of his table manners, and marjorie was on her father's right hand and next to mr. wintersloan, while mr. magnet was in the middle of the table on the opposite side in a position convenient for looking at her. both maids waited. the presence of magnet invariably stirred the latent humorist in mr. pope. he felt that he who talks to humorists should himself be humorous, and it was his private persuasion that with more attention he might have been, to use a favourite form of expression, "no mean jester." quite a lot of little things of his were cherished as "good" both by himself and, with occasional inaccuracies, by mrs. pope. he opened out now in a strain of rich allusiveness. "what will you drink, mr. wintersloan?" he said. "wine of the country, yclept beer, red wine from france, or my wife's potent brew from the golden lemon?" mr. wintersloan thought he would take burgundy. mr. magnet preferred beer. "i've heard there's iron in the beer, and i believe it," misquoted mr. pope, and nodded as it were to the marker to score. "daffy and marjorie are still in the lemonade stage. will you take a little burgundy to-night, mummy?" mrs. pope decided she would, and was inspired to ask mr. wintersloan if he had been in that part of the country before. topography ensued. mr. wintersloan had a style of his own, and spoke of the buryhamstreet district as a "pooty little country--pooty little hills, with a swirl in them." this pleased daffy and marjorie, and their eyes met for a moment. then mr. magnet, with a ray full on marjorie, said he had always been fond of surrey. "i think if ever i made a home in the country i should like it to be here." mr. wintersloan said surrey would tire him, it was too bossy and curly, too flocculent; he would prefer to look on broader, simpler lines, with just a sudden catch in the breath in them--if you understand me? marjorie did, and said so. "a sob--such as you get at the break of a pinewood on a hill." this baffled mr. pope, but marjorie took it. "or the short dry cough of a cliff," she said. "exactly," said mr. wintersloan, and having turned a little deliberate close-lipped smile on her for a moment, resumed his wing. "so long as a landscape doesn't _sneeze_" said mr. magnet, in that irresistible dry way of his, and rom and sydney, at any rate, choked. "now is the hour when landscapes yawn," mused mr. pope, coming in all right at the end. then mrs. pope asked mr. wintersloan, about his route to buryhamstreet, and then mr. pope asked mr. magnet whether he was playing at a new work or working at a new play. mr. magnet said he was dreaming over a play. he wanted to bring out the more serious side of his humour, go a little deeper into things than he had hitherto done. "mingling smiles and tears," said mr. pope approvingly. mr. magnet said very quietly that all true humour did that. then mrs. pope asked what the play was to be about, and mr. magnet, who seemed disinclined to give an answer, turned the subject by saying he had to prepare an address on humour for the next dinner of the _literati_. "it's to be a humourist's dinner, and they've made me the guest of the evening--by way of a joke to begin with," he said with that dry smile again. mrs. pope said he shouldn't say things like that. she then said "syd!" quietly but sharply to sydney, who was making a disdainful, squinting face at theodore, and told the parlourmaid to clear the plates for sweets. mr. magnet professed great horror of public speaking. he said that whenever he rose to make an after-dinner speech all the ices he had ever eaten seemed to come out of the past, and sit on his backbone. the talk centered for awhile on mr. magnet's address, and apropos of tests of humour mr. pope, who in his way was "no mean raconteur," related the story of the man who took the salad dressing with his hand, and when his host asked why he did that, replied: "oh! i thought it was spinach!" "many people," added mr. pope, "wouldn't see the point of that. and if they don't see the point they can't--and the more they try the less they do." all four girls hoped secretly and not too confidently that their laughter had not sounded hollow. and then for a time the men told stories as they came into their heads in an easy, irresponsible way. mr. magnet spoke of the humour of the omnibus-driver who always dangled and twiddled his badge "by way of a joke" when he passed the conductor whose father had been hanged, and mr. pope, perhaps, a little irrelevantly, told the story of the little boy who was asked his father's last words, and said "mother was with him to the end," which particularly amused mrs. pope. mr. wintersloan gave the story of the woman who was taking her son to the hospital with his head jammed into a saucepan, and explained to the other people in the omnibus: "you see, what makes it so annoying, it's me only saucepan!" then they came back to the sense of humour with the dentist who shouted with laughter, and when asked the reason by his patient, choked out: "wrong tooth!" and then mr. pope reminded them of the heartless husband who, suddenly informed that his mother-in-law was dead, exclaimed "oh, don't make me laugh, please, i've got a split lip...." § the conversation assumed a less anecdotal quality with the removal to the drawing-room. on mr. magnet's initiative the gentlemen followed the ladies almost immediately, and it was mr. magnet who remembered that marjorie could sing. both the elder sisters indeed had sweet clear voices, and they had learnt a number of those jolly songs the english made before the dull hanoverians came. syd accompanied, and rom sat back in the low chair in the corner and fell deeply in love with mr. wintersloan. the three musicians in their green and sulphur-yellow and white made a pretty group in the light of the shaded lamp against the black and gold broadwood, the tawdry screen, its pattern thin glittering upon darkness, and the deep shadows behind. marjorie loved singing, and forgot herself as she sang. "i love, and he loves me again, yet dare i not tell who; for if the nymphs should know my swain, i fear they'd love him too," she sang, and mr. magnet could not conceal the intensity of his admiration. mr. pope had fallen into a pleasant musing; several other ripe old yarns, dear delicious old things, had come into his mind that he felt he might presently recall when this unavoidable display of accomplishments was overpast, and it was with one of them almost on his lips that he glanced across at his guest. he was surprised to see mr. magnet's face transfigured. he was sitting forward, looking up at marjorie, and he had caught something of the expression of those blessed boys who froth at the feet of an assumption. for an instant mr. pope did not understand. then he understood. it was marjorie! he had a twinge of surprise, and glanced at his own daughter as though he had never seen her before. he perceived in a flash for the first time that this troublesome, clever, disrespectful child was tall and shapely and sweet, and indeed quite a beautiful young woman. he forgot his anecdotes. his being was suffused with pride and responsibility and the sense of virtue rewarded. he did not reflect for a moment that marjorie embodied in almost equal proportions the very best points in his mother and his mother-in-law, and avoided his own more salient characteristics with so neat a dexterity that from top to toe, except for the one matter of colour, not only did she not resemble him but she scarcely even alluded to him. he thought simply that she was his daughter, that she derived from him, that her beauty was his. she was the outcome of his meritorious preparations. he recalled all the moments when he had been kind and indulgent to her, all the bills he had paid for her; all the stresses and trials of the coach-building collapse, all the fluctuations of his speculative adventures, became things he had faced patiently and valiantly for her sake. he forgot the endless times when he had been viciously cross with her, all the times when he had pished and tushed and sworn in her hearing. he had on provocation and in spite of her mother's protests slapped her pretty vigorously, but such things are better forgotten; nor did he recall how bitterly he had opposed the college education which had made her now so clear in eye and thought, nor the frightful shindy, only three months since, about that identical green dress in which she now stood delightful. he forgot these petty details, as an idealist should. there she was, his daughter. an immense benevolence irradiated his soul--for marjorie--for magnet. his eyes were suffused with a not ignoble tenderness. the man, he knew, was worth at least thirty-five thousand pounds, a discussion of investments had made that clear, and he must be making at least five thousand a year! a beautiful girl, a worthy man! a good fellow, a sound good fellow, a careful fellow too--as these fellows went! old daddy would lose his treasure of course. well, a father must learn resignation, and he for one would not stand in the way of his girl's happiness. a day would come when, very beautifully and tenderly, he would hand her over to magnet, his favourite daughter to his trusted friend. "well, my boy, there's no one in all the world----" he would begin. it would be a touching parting. "don't forget your old father, maggots," he would say. at such a moment that quaint nickname would surely not be resented.... he reflected how much he had always preferred marjorie to daffy. she was brighter--more like him. daffy was unresponsive, with a touch of bitterness under her tongue.... he was already dreaming he was a widower, rather infirm, the object of magnet's and marjorie's devoted care, when the song ceased, and the wife he had for the purpose of reveries just consigned so carelessly to the cemetery proposed that they should have a little game that every one could play at. a number of pencils and slips of paper appeared in her hands. she did not want the girls to exhaust their repertory on this first occasion--and besides, mr. pope liked games in which one did things with pencils and strips of paper. mr. magnet wished the singing to go on, he said, but he was overruled. so for a time every one played a little game in which mr. pope was particularly proficient. indeed, it was rare that any one won but mr. pope. it was called "the great departed," and it had such considerable educational value that all the children had to play at it whenever he wished. it was played in this manner; one of the pseudo twins opened a book and dabbed a finger on the page, and read out the letter immediately at the tip of her finger, then all of them began to write as hard as they could, writing down the names of every great person they could think of, whose name began with that letter. at the end of five minutes mr. pope said stop! and then began to read his list out, beginning with the first name. everybody who had that name crossed it out and scored one, and after his list was exhausted all the surviving names on the next list were read over in the same way, and so on. the names had to be the names of dead celebrated people, only one monarch of the same name of the same dynasty was allowed, and mr. pope adjudicated on all doubtful cases. it was great fun. the first two games were won as usual by mr. pope, and then mr. wintersloan, who had been a little distraught in his manner, brightened up and scribbled furiously. the letter was _d_, and after mr. pope had rehearsed a tale of nine and twenty names, mr. wintersloan read out his list in that curious voice of his which suggested nothing so much as some mobile drink glucking out of the neck of a bottle held upside down. "dahl," he began. "who was dahl?" asked mr. pope. "'vented dahlias," said mr. wintersloan, with a sigh. "danton." "forgot him," said mr. pope. "davis." "davis?" "davis straits. doe." "who?" "john doe, richard roe." "legal fiction, i'm afraid," said mr. pope. "dam," said mr. wintersloan, and added after a slight pause: "anthony van." mr. pope made an interrogative noise. "painter--eighteenth century--dutch. dam, jan van, his son. dam, frederich van. dam, wilhelm van. dam, diedrich van. dam, wilhelmina, wood engraver, gifted woman. diehl." "who?" "painter--dead--famous. see düsseldorf. it's all painters now--all guaranteed dead, all good men. deeds of norfolk, the aquarellist, denton, dibbs." "er?" said mr. pope. "the warwick claude, _you_ know. died ." "dickson, dunting, john dickery. peter dickery, william dock--i beg your pardon?" mr. pope was making a protesting gesture, but mr. wintersloan's bearing was invincible, and he proceeded. in the end he emerged triumphant with forty-nine names, mostly painters for whose fame he answered, but whose reputations were certainly new to every one else present. "i can go on like that," said mr. wintersloan, "with any letter," and turned that hard little smile full on marjorie. "i didn't see how to do it at first. i just cast about. but i know a frightful lot of painters. no end. shall we try again?" marjorie glanced at her father. mr. wintersloan's methods were all too evident to her. a curious feeling pervaded the room that mr. pope didn't think mr. wintersloan's conduct honourable, and that he might even go some way towards saying so. so mrs. pope became very brisk and stirring, and said she thought that now perhaps a charade would be more amusing. it didn't do to keep on at a game too long. she asked rom and daphne and theodore and mr. wintersloan to go out, and they all agreed readily, particularly rom. "come on!" said rom to mr. wintersloan. everybody else shifted into an audience-like group between the piano and the what-not. mr. magnet sat at marjorie's feet, while syd played a kind of voluntary, and mr. pope leant back in his chair, with his brows knit and lips moving, trying to remember something. the charade _was_ very amusing. the word was catarrh, and mr. wintersloan, as the patient in the last act being given gruel, surpassed even the children's very high expectations. rom, as his nurse, couldn't keep her hands off him. then the younger people kissed round and were packed off to bed, and the rest of the party went to the door upon the lawn and admired the night. it was a glorious summer night, deep blue, and rimmed warmly by the afterglow, moonless, and with a few big lamp-like stars above the black still shapes of trees. mrs. pope said they would all accompany their guests to the gate at the end of the avenue--in spite of the cockchafers. mr. pope's ankle, however, excused him; the cordiality of his parting from mr. wintersloan seemed a trifle forced, and he limped thoughtfully and a little sombrely towards the study to see if he could find an encyclopædia or some such book of reference that would give the names of the lesser lights of dutch, italian, and english painting during the last two centuries. he felt that mr. wintersloan had established an extraordinarily bad precedent. § marjorie discovered that she and mr. magnet had fallen a little behind the others. she would have quickened her pace, but mr. magnet stopped short and said: "marjorie!" "when i saw you standing there and singing," said mr. magnet, and was short of breath for a moment. marjorie's natural gift for interruption failed her altogether. "i felt i would rather be able to call you mine--than win an empire." the pause seemed to lengthen, between them, and marjorie's remark when she made it at last struck her even as she made it as being but poorly conceived. she had some weak idea of being self-depreciatory. "i think you had better win an empire, mr. magnet," she said meekly. then, before anything more was possible, they had come up to daffy and mr. wintersloan and her mother at the gate.... as they returned mrs. pope was loud in the praises of will magnet. she had a little clear-cut voice, very carefully and very skilfully controlled, and she dilated on his modesty, his quiet helpfulness at table, his ready presence of mind. she pointed out instances of those admirable traits, incidents small in themselves but charming in their implications. when somebody wanted junket, he had made no fuss, he had just helped them to junket. "so modest and unassuming," sang mrs. pope. "you'd never dream he was quite rich and famous. yet every book he writes is translated into russian and german and all sorts of languages. i suppose he's almost the greatest humorist we have. that play of his; what is it called?--_our owd woman_--has been performed nearly twelve hundred times! i think that is the most wonderful of gifts. think of the people it has made happy." the conversation was mainly monologue. both marjorie and daffy were unusually thoughtful. § marjorie ended the long day in a worldly mood. "penny for your thoughts," said daffy abruptly, brushing the long firelit rapids of her hair. "not for sale," said marjorie, and roused herself. "i've had a long day." "it's always just the time i particularly wish i was a man," she remarked after a brief return to meditation. "fancy, no hair-pins, no brushing, no tie-up to get lost about, no strings. i suppose they haven't strings?" "they haven't," said daffy with conviction. she met marjorie's interrogative eye. "father would swear at them," she explained. "he'd naturally tie himself up--and we should hear of it." "i didn't think of that," said marjorie, and stuck out her chin upon her fists. "sound induction." she forgot this transitory curiosity. "suppose one had a maid, daffy--a real maid ... a maid who mended your things ... did your hair while you read...." "oh! here goes," and she stood up and grappled with the task of undressing. chapter the second the two proposals of mr. magnet § it was presently quite evident to marjorie that mr. magnet intended to propose marriage to her, and she did not even know whether she wanted him to do so. she had met him first the previous summer while she had been staying with the petley-cresthams at high windower, and it had been evident that he found her extremely attractive. she had never had a real grown man at her feet before, and she had found it amazingly entertaining. she had gone for a walk with him the morning before she came away--a frank and ingenuous proceeding that made mrs. petley-crestham say the girl knew what she was about, and she had certainly coquetted with him in an extraordinary manner at golf-croquet. after that oxbridge had swallowed her up, and though he had called once on her mother while marjorie was in london during the christmas vacation, he hadn't seen her again. he had written--which was exciting--a long friendly humorous letter about nothing in particular, with an air of its being quite the correct thing for him to do, and she had answered, and there had been other exchanges. but all sorts of things had happened in the interval, and marjorie had let him get into quite a back place in her thoughts--the fact that he was a member of her father's club had seemed somehow to remove him from a great range of possibilities--until a drift in her mother's talk towards him and a letter from him with an indefinable change in tone towards intimacy, had restored him to importance. now here he was in the foreground of her world again, evidently more ardent than ever, and with a portentous air of being about to do something decisive at the very first opportunity. what was he going to do? what had her mother been hinting at? and what, in fact, did the whole thing amount to? marjorie was beginning to realize that this was going to be a very serious affair indeed for her--and that she was totally unprepared to meet it. it had been very amusing, very amusing indeed, at the petley-cresthams', but there were moments now when she felt towards mr. magnet exactly as she would have felt if he had been one of the oxbridge tradesmen hovering about her with a "little account," full of apparently exaggerated items.... her thoughts and feelings were all in confusion about this business. her mind was full of scraps, every sort of idea, every sort of attitude contributed something to that twentieth century jumble. for example, and so far as its value went among motives, it was by no means a trivial consideration; she wanted a proposal for its own sake. daffy had had a proposal last year, and although it wasn't any sort of eligible proposal, still there it was, and she had given herself tremendous airs. but marjorie would certainly have preferred some lighter kind of proposal than that which now threatened her. she felt that behind mr. magnet were sanctions; that she wasn't free to deal with this proposal as she liked. he was at buryhamstreet almost with the air of being her parents' guest. less clear and more instinctive than her desire for a proposal was her inclination to see just all that mr. magnet was disposed to do, and hear all that he was disposed to say. she was curious. he didn't behave in the least as she had expected a lover to behave. but then none of the boys, the "others" with whom she had at times stretched a hand towards the hem of emotion, had ever done that. she had an obscure feeling that perhaps presently mr. magnet must light up, be stirred and stirring. even now his voice changed very interestingly when he was alone with her. his breath seemed to go--as though something had pricked his lung. if it hadn't been for that new, disconcerting realization of an official pressure behind him, i think she would have been quite ready to experiment extensively with his emotions.... but she perceived as she lay awake next morning that she wasn't free for experiments any longer. what she might say or do now would be taken up very conclusively. and she had no idea what she wanted to say or do. marriage regarded in the abstract--that is to say, with mr. magnet out of focus--was by no means an unattractive proposal to her. it was very much at the back of marjorie's mind that after oxbridge, unless she was prepared to face a very serious row indeed and go to teach in a school--and she didn't feel any call whatever to teach in a school--she would probably have to return to hartstone square and share daffy's room again, and assist in the old collective, wearisome task of propitiating her father. the freedoms of oxbridge had enlarged her imagination until that seemed an almost unendurably irksome prospect. she had tasted life as it could be in her father's absence, and she was beginning to realize just what an impossible person he was. marriage was escape from all that; it meant not only respectful parents but a house of her very own, furniture of her choice, great freedom of movement, an authority, an importance. she had seen what it meant to be a prosperously married young woman in the person of one or two resplendent old girls revisiting bennett college, scattering invitations, offering protections and opportunities.... of course there is love. marjorie told herself, as she had been trained to tell herself, to be sensible, but something within her repeated: _there is love_. of course she liked mr. magnet. she really did like mr. magnet very much. she had had her girlish dreams, had fallen in love with pictures of men and actors and a music master and a man who used to ride by as she went to school; but wasn't this desolating desire for self-abandonment rather silly?--something that one left behind with much else when it came to putting up one's hair and sensible living, something to blush secretly about and hide from every eye? among other discrepant views that lived together in her mind as cats and rats and parrots and squirrels and so forth used to live together in those happy family cages unseemly men in less well-regulated days were wont to steer about our streets, was one instilled by quite a large proportion of the novels she had read, that a girl was a sort of self-giving prize for high moral worth. mr. magnet she knew was good, was kind, was brave with that truer courage, moral courage, which goes with his type of physique; he was modest, unassuming, well off and famous, and very much in love with her. his true self, as mrs. pope had pointed out several times, must be really very beautiful, and in some odd way a line of shakespeare had washed up in her consciousness as being somehow effectual on his behalf: "love looks not with the eye but with the mind." she felt she ought to look with the mind. nice people surely never looked in any other way. it seemed from this angle almost her duty to love him.... perhaps she did love him, and mistook the symptoms. she did her best to mistake the symptoms. but if she did truly love him, would it seem so queer and important and antagonistic as it did that his hair was rather thin upon the crown of his head? she wished she hadn't looked down on him.... poor marjorie! she was doing her best to be sensible, and she felt herself adrift above a clamorous abyss of feared and forbidden thoughts. down there she knew well enough it wasn't thus that love must come. deep in her soul, the richest thing in her life indeed and the best thing she had to give humanity, was a craving for beauty that at times became almost intolerable, a craving for something other than beauty and yet inseparably allied with it, a craving for deep excitement, for a sort of glory in adventure, for passion--for things akin to great music and heroic poems and bannered traditions of romance. she had hidden away in her an immense tumultuous appetite for life, an immense tumultuous capacity for living. to be loved beautifully was surely the crown and climax of her being. she did not dare to listen to these deeps, yet these insurgent voices filled her. even while she drove her little crocodile of primly sensible thoughts to their sane appointed conclusion, her blood and nerves and all her being were protesting that mr. magnet would not do, that whatever other worthiness was in him, regarded as a lover he was preposterous and flat and foolish and middle-aged, and that it were better never to have lived than to put the treasure of her life to his meagre lips and into his hungry, unattractive arms. "the ugliness of it! the spiritless horror of it!" so dumbly and formlessly the rebel voices urged. "one has to be sensible," said marjorie to herself, suddenly putting down shaw's book on municipal trading, which she imagined she had been reading.... (perhaps all marriage was horrid, and one had to get over it.) that was rather what her mother had conveyed to her. § mr. magnet made his first proposal in form three days later, after coming twice to tea and staying on to supper. he had played croquet with mr. pope, he had been beaten twelve times in spite of twinges in the sprained ankle--heroically borne--had had three victories lucidly explained away, and heard all the particulars of the east purblow experiment three times over, first in relation to the new labour exchanges, then regarded at rather a different angle in relation to female betting, tally-men, and the sanctities of the home generally, and finally in a more exhaustive style, to show its full importance from every side and more particularly as demonstrating the gross injustice done to mr. pope by the neglect of its lessons, a neglect too systematic to be accidental, in the social reform literature of the time. moreover, mr. magnet had been made to understand thoroughly how several later quasi-charitable attempts of a similar character had already become, or must inevitably become, unsatisfactory through their failure to follow exactly in the lines laid down by mr. pope. mr. pope was really very anxious to be pleasant and agreeable to mr. magnet, and he could think of no surer way of doing so than by giving him an unrestrained intimacy of conversation that prevented anything more than momentary intercourse between his daughter and her admirer. and not only did mr. magnet find it difficult to get away from mr. pope without offence, but whenever by any chance mr. pope was detached for a moment mr. magnet discovered that marjorie either wasn't to be seen, or if she was she wasn't to be isolated by any device he could contrive, before the unappeasable return of mr. pope. mr. magnet did not get his chance therefore until lady petchworth's little gathering at summerhay park. lady petchworth was mrs. pope's oldest friend, and one of those brighter influences which save our english country-side from lassitude. she had been more fortunate than mrs. pope, for while mr. pope with that aptitude for disadvantage natural to his temperament had, he said, been tied to a business that never gave him a chance, lady petchworth's husband had been a reckless investor of exceptional good-luck. in particular, led by a dream, he had put most of his money into a series of nitrate deposits in caves in saghalien haunted by benevolent penguins, and had been rewarded beyond the dreams of avarice. his foresight had received the fitting reward of a knighthood, and sir thomas, after restoring the parish church at summerhay in a costly and destructive manner, spent his declining years in an enviable contentment with lady petchworth and the world at large, and died long before infirmity made him really troublesome. good fortune had brought out lady petchworth's social aptitudes. summerhay park was everything that a clever woman, inspired by that gardening literature which has been so abundant in the opening years of the twentieth century, could make it. it had rosaries and rock gardens, sundials and yew hedges, pools and ponds, lead figures and stone urns, box borderings and wilderness corners and hundreds and hundreds of feet of prematurely-aged red-brick wall with broad herbaceous borders; the walks had primroses, primulas and cowslips in a quite disingenuous abundance, and in spring the whole extent of the park was gay, here with thousands of this sort of daffodil just bursting out and here with thousands of that sort of narcissus just past its prime, and every patch ready to pass itself off in its naturalized way as the accidental native flower of the field, if only it hadn't been for all the other different varieties coming on or wilting-off in adjacent patches.... her garden was only the beginning of lady petchworth's activities. she had a model dairy, and all her poultry was white, and so far as she was able to manage it she made summerhay a model village. she overflowed with activities, it was astonishing in one so plump and blonde, and meeting followed meeting in the artistic little red-brick and green-stained timber village hall she had erected. now it was the national theatre and now it was the national mourning; now it was the break up of the poor law, and now the majority report, now the mothers' union, and now socialism, and now individualism, but always something progressive and beneficial. she did her best to revive the old village life, and brought her very considerable powers of compulsion to make the men dance in simple old morris dances, dressed up in costumes they secretly abominated, and to induce the mothers to dress their children in art-coloured smocks instead of the prints and blue serge frocks they preferred. she did not despair, she said, of creating a spontaneous peasant art movement in the district, springing from the people and expressing the people, but so far it had been necessary to import not only instructors and material, but workers to keep the thing going, so sluggish had the spontaneity of our english countryside become. her little gatherings were quite distinctive of her. they were a sort of garden party extending from mid-day to six or seven; there would be a nucleus of house guests, and the highways and byeways on every hand would be raided to supply persons and interests. she had told her friend to "bring the girls over for the day," and flung an invitation to mr. pope, who had at once excused himself on the score of his ankle. mr. pope was one of those men who shun social gatherings--ostensibly because of a sterling simplicity of taste, but really because his intolerable egotism made him feel slighted and neglected on these occasions. he told his wife he would be far happier with a book at home, exhorted her not to be late, and was seen composing himself to read the "vicar of wakefield"--whenever they published a new book mr. pope pretended to read an old one--as the hired waggonette took the rest of his family--theodore very unhappy in buff silk and a wide stuart collar--down the avenue. they found a long lunch table laid on the lawn beneath the chestnuts, and in full view of the poppies and forget-me-nots around the stone obelisk, a butler and three men servants with brass buttons and red and white striped waistcoats gave dignity to the scene, and beyond, on the terrace amidst abundance of deckchairs, cane chairs, rugs, and cushions, a miscellaneous and increasing company seethed under lady petchworth's plump but entertaining hand. there were, of course, mr. magnet, and his friend mr. wintersloan--lady petchworth had been given to understand how the land lay; and there was mr. bunford paradise the musician, who was doing his best to teach a sullen holiday class in the village schoolroom to sing the artless old folk songs of surrey again, in spite of the invincible persuasion of everybody in the class that the songs were rather indelicate and extremely silly; there were the rev. jopling baynes, and two cambridge undergraduates in flannels, and a doctor something or other from london. there was also the hon. charles muskett, lord pottinger's cousin and estate agent, in tweeds and very helpful. the ladies included mrs. raff, the well-known fashion writer, in a wonderful costume, the anonymous doctor's wife, three or four neighbouring mothers with an undistinguished daughter or so, and two quiet-mannered middle-aged ladies, whose names marjorie could not catch, and whom lady petchworth, in that well-controlled voice of hers, addressed as kate and julia, and seemed on the whole disposed to treat as humorous. there was also fraulein schmidt in charge of lady petchworth's three tall and already abundant children, prunella, prudence, and mary, and a young, newly-married couple of cousins, who addressed each other in soft undertones and sat apart. these were the chief items that became distinctive in marjorie's survey; but there were a number of other people who seemed to come and go, split up, fuse, change their appearance slightly, and behave in the way inadequately apprehended people do behave on these occasions. marjorie very speedily found her disposition to take a detached and amused view of the entertainment in conflict with more urgent demands. from the outset mr. magnet loomed upon her--he loomed nearer and nearer. he turned his eye upon her as she came up to the wealthy expanse of lady petchworth's presence, like some sort of obsolescent iron-clad turning a dull-grey, respectful, loving searchlight upon a fugitive torpedo boat, and thereafter he seemed to her to be looking at her without intermission, relentlessly, and urging himself towards her. she wished he wouldn't. she hadn't at all thought he would on this occasion. at first she relied upon her natural powers of evasion, and the presence of a large company. then gradually it became apparent that lady petchworth and her mother, yes--and the party generally, and the gardens and the weather and the stars in their courses were of a mind to co-operate in giving opportunity for mr. magnet's unmistakable intentions. and marjorie with that instability of her sex which has been a theme for masculine humour in all ages, suddenly and with an extraordinary violence didn't want to make up her mind about mr. magnet. she didn't want to accept him; and as distinctly she didn't want to refuse him. she didn't even want to be thought about as making up her mind about him--which was, so to speak, an enlargement of her previous indisposition. she didn't even want to seem to avoid him, or to be thinking about him, or aware of his existence. after the greeting of lady petchworth she had succeeded very clumsily in not seeing mr. magnet, and had addressed herself to mr. wintersloan, who was standing a little apart, looking under his hand, with one eye shut, at the view between the tree stems towards buryhamstreet. he told her that he thought he had found something "pooty" that hadn't been done, and she did her best to share his artistic interests with a vivid sense of mr. magnet's tentative incessant approach behind her. he joined them, and she made a desperate attempt to entangle mr. wintersloan in a three-cornered talk in vain. he turned away at the first possible opportunity, and left her to an embarrassed and eloquently silent _tête-à-tête_. mr. magnet's professional wit had deserted him. "it's nice to see you again," he said after an immense interval. "shall we go and look at the aviary?" "i hate to see birds in cages," said marjorie, "and it's frightfully jolly just here. do you think mr. wintersloan will paint this? he does paint, doesn't he?" "i know him best in black and white," said mr. magnet. marjorie embarked on entirely insincere praises of mr. wintersloan's manner and personal effect; magnet replied tepidly, with an air of reserving himself to grapple with the first conversational opportunity. "it's a splendid day for tennis," said marjorie. "i think i shall play tennis all the afternoon." "i don't play well enough for this publicity." "it's glorious exercise," said marjorie. "almost as good as dancing," and she decided to stick to that resolution. "i never lose a chance of tennis if i can help it." she glanced round and detected a widening space between themselves and the next adjacent group. "they're looking at the goldfish," she said. "let us join them." everyone moved away as they came up to the little round pond, but then marjorie had luck, and captured prunella, and got her to hold hands and talk, until fraulein schmidt called the child away. and then marjorie forced mr. magnet to introduce her to mr. bunford paradise. she had a bright idea of sitting between prunella and mary at the lunch table, but a higher providence had assigned her to a seat at the end between julia--or was it kate?--and mr. magnet. however, one of the undergraduates was opposite, and she saved herself from undertones by talking across to him boldly about newnham, though she hadn't an idea of his name or college. from that she came to tennis. to her inflamed imagination he behaved as if she was under a taboo, but she was desperate, and had pledged him and his friend to a foursome before the meal was over. "don't _you_ play?" said the undergraduate to mr. magnet. "very little," said mr. magnet. "very little--" at the end of an hour she was conspicuously and publicly shepherded from the tennis court by mrs. pope. "other people want to play," said her mother in a clear little undertone. mr. magnet fielded her neatly as she came off the court. "you play tennis like--a wild bird," he said, taking possession of her. only marjorie's entire freedom from irish blood saved him from a vindictive repartee. § "shall we go and look at the aviary?" said mr. magnet, reverting to a favourite idea of his, and then remembered she did not like to see caged birds. "perhaps we might see the water garden?" he said. "the water garden is really very delightful indeed--anyhow. you ought to see that." on the spur of the moment, marjorie could think of no objection to the water garden, and he led her off. "i often think of that jolly walk we had last summer," said mr. magnet, "and how you talked about your work at oxbridge." marjorie fell into a sudden rapture of admiration for a butterfly. twice more was mr. magnet baffled, and then they came to the little pool of water lilies with its miniature cascade of escape at the head and source of the water garden. "one of lady petchworth's great successes," said mr. magnet. "i suppose the lotus is like the water-lily," said marjorie, with no hope of staving off the inevitable---- she stood very still by the little pool, and in spite of her pensive regard of the floating blossoms, stiffly and intensely aware of his relentless regard. "marjorie," came his voice at last, strangely softened. "there is something i want to say to you." she made no reply. "ever since we met last summer----" a clear cold little resolution not to stand this, had established itself in marjorie's mind. if she must decide, she _would_ decide. he had brought it upon himself. "marjorie," said mr. magnet, "i love you." she lifted a clear unhesitating eye to his face. "i'm sorry, mr. magnet," she said. "i wanted to ask you to marry me," he said. "i'm sorry, mr. magnet," she repeated. they looked at one another. she felt a sort of scared exultation at having done it; her mother might say what she liked. "i love you very much," he said, at a loss. "i'm sorry," she repeated obstinately. "i thought you cared for me a little." she left that unanswered. she had a curious feeling that there was no getting away from this splashing, babbling pool, that she was fixed there until mr. magnet chose to release her, and that he didn't mean to release her yet. in which case she would go on refusing. "i'm disappointed," he said. marjorie could only think that she was sorry again, but as she had already said that three times, she remained awkwardly silent. "is it because----" he began and stopped. "it isn't because of anything. please let's go back to the others, mr. magnet. i'm sorry if i'm disappointing." and by a great effort she turned about. mr. magnet remained regarding her--i can only compare it to the searching preliminary gaze of an artistic photographer. for a crucial minute in his life marjorie hated him. "i don't understand," he said at last. then with a sort of naturalness that ought to have touched her he said: "is it possible, marjorie--that i might hope?--that i have been inopportune?" she answered at once with absolute conviction. "i don't think so, mr. magnet." "i'm sorry," he said, "to have bothered you." "_i'm_ sorry," said marjorie. a long silence followed. "i'm sorry too," he said. they said no more, but began to retrace their steps. it was over. abruptly, mr. magnet's bearing had become despondent--conspicuously despondent. "i had hoped," he said, and sighed. with a thrill of horror marjorie perceived he meant to _look_ rejected, let every one see he had been rejected--after encouragement. what would they think? how would they look? what conceivably might they not say? something of the importance of the thing she had done, became manifest to her. she felt first intimations of regret. they would all be watching, mother, daffy, lady petchworth. she would reappear with this victim visibly suffering beside her. what could she say to straighten his back and lift his chin? she could think of nothing. ahead at the end of the shaded path she could see the copious white form, the agitated fair wig and red sunshade of lady petchworth---- § mrs. pope's eye was relentless; nothing seemed hidden from it; nothing indeed was hidden from it; mr. magnet's back was diagrammatic. marjorie was a little flushed and bright-eyed, and professed herself eager, with an unnatural enthusiasm, to play golf-croquet. it was eloquently significant that mr. magnet did not share her eagerness, declined to play, and yet when she had started with the rev. jopling baynes as partner, stood regarding the game with a sort of tender melancholy from the shade of the big chestnut-tree. mrs. pope joined him unobtrusively. "you're not playing, mr. magnet," she remarked. "i'm a looker-on, this time," he said with a sigh. "marjorie's winning, i think," said mrs. pope. he made no answer for some seconds. "she looks so charming in that blue dress," he remarked at last, and sighed from the lowest deeps. "that bird's-egg blue suits her," said mrs. pope, ignoring the sigh. "she's clever in her girlish way, she chooses all her own dresses,--colours, material, everything." (and also, though mrs. pope had not remarked it, she concealed her bills.) there came a still longer interval, which mrs. pope ended with the slightest of shivers. she perceived mr. magnet was heavy for sympathy and ripe to confide. "i think," she said, "it's a little cool here. shall we walk to the water garden, and see if there are any white lilies?" "there are," said mr. magnet sorrowfully, "and they are very beautiful--_quite_ beautiful." he turned to the path along which he had so recently led marjorie. he glanced back as they went along between lady petchworth's herbaceous border and the poppy beds. "she's so full of life," he said, with a sigh in his voice. mrs. pope knew she must keep silent. "i asked her to marry me this afternoon," mr. magnet blurted out. "i couldn't help it." mrs. pope made her silence very impressive. "i know i ought not to have done so without consulting you"--he went on lamely; "i'm very much in love with her. it's----it's done no harm." mrs. pope's voice was soft and low. "i had no idea, mr. magnet.... you know she is very young. twenty. a mother----" "i know," said magnet. "i can quite understand. but i've done no harm. she refused me. i shall go away to-morrow. go right away for ever.... i'm sorry." another long silence. "to me, of course, she's just a child," mrs. pope said at last. "she _is_ only a child, mr. magnet. she could have had no idea that anything of the sort was in your mind----" her words floated away into the stillness. for a time they said no more. the lilies came into sight, dreaming under a rich green shade on a limpid pool of brown water, water that slept and brimmed over as it were, unconsciously into a cool splash and ripple of escape. "how beautiful!" cried mrs. pope, for a moment genuine. "i spoke to her here," said mr. magnet. the fountains of his confidence were unloosed. "now i've spoken to you about it, mrs. pope," he said, "i can tell you just how i--oh, it's the only word--adore her. she seems so sweet and easy--so graceful----" mrs. pope turned on him abruptly, and grasped his hands; she was deeply moved. "i can't tell you," she said, "what it means to a mother to hear such things----" words failed her, and for some moments they engaged in a mutual pressure. "ah!" said mr. magnet, and had a queer wish it was the mother he had to deal with. "are you sure, mr. magnet," mrs. pope went on as their emotions subsided, "that she really meant what she said? girls are very strange creatures----" "she seems so clear and positive." "her manner is always clear and positive." "yes. i know." "i know she _has_ cared for you." "no!" "a mother sees. when your name used to be mentioned----. but these are not things to talk about. there is something--something sacred----" "yes," he said. "yes. only----of course, one thing----" mrs. pope seemed lost in the contemplation of water-lilies. "i wondered," said mr. magnet, and paused again. then, almost breathlessly, "i wondered if there should be perhaps--some one else?" she shook her head slowly. "i should know," she said. "are you sure?" "i know i should know." "perhaps recently?" "i am sure i should know. a mother's intuition----" memories possessed her for awhile. "a girl of twenty is a mass of contradictions. i can remember myself as if it was yesterday. often one says no, or yes--out of sheer nervousness.... i am sure there is no other attachment----" it occurred to her that she had said enough. "what a dignity that old gold-fish has!" she remarked. "he waves his tail--as if he were a beadle waving little boys out of church." § mrs. pope astonished marjorie by saying nothing about the all too obvious event of the day for some time, but her manner to her second daughter on their way home was strangely gentle. it was as if she had realized for the first time that regret and unhappiness might come into that young life. after supper, however, she spoke. they had all gone out just before the children went to bed to look for the new moon; daffy was showing the pseudo-twins the old moon in the new moon's arms, and marjorie found herself standing by her mother's side. "i hope dear," said mrs. pope, "that it's all for the best--and that you've done wisely, dear." marjorie was astonished and moved by her mother's tone. "it's so difficult to know what _is_ for the best," mrs. pope went on. "i had to do--as i did," said marjorie. "i only hope you may never find you have made a great mistake, dear. he cares for you very, very much." "oh! we see it now!" cried rom, "we see it now! mummy, have you seen it? like a little old round ghost being nursed!" when marjorie said "good-night," mrs. pope kissed her with an unaccustomed effusion. it occurred to marjorie that after all her mother had no selfish end to serve in this affair. § the idea that perhaps after all she had made a great mistake, the mistake of her life it might be, was quite firmly established in its place among all the other ideas in marjorie's mind by the time she had dressed next morning. subsequent events greatly intensified this persuasion. a pair of new stockings she had trusted sprang a bad hole as she put them on. she found two unmistakable bills from oxbridge beside her plate, and her father was "horrid" at breakfast. her father, it appeared, had bought the ordinary shares of a cuban railway very extensively, on the distinct understanding that they would improve. in a decent universe, with a proper respect for meritorious gentlemen, these shares would have improved accordingly, but the weather had seen fit to shatter the wisdom of mr. pope altogether. the sugar crop had collapsed, the bears were at work, and every morning now saw his nominal capital diminished by a dozen pounds or so. i do not know what mr. pope would have done if he had not had his family to help him bear his trouble. as it was he relieved his tension by sending theodore from the table for dropping a knife, telling rom when she turned the plate round to pick the largest banana that she hadn't the self-respect of a child of five, and remarking sharply from behind the _times_ when daffy asked marjorie if she was going to sketch: "oh, for god's sake don't _whisper!_" then when mrs. pope came round the table and tried to take his coffee cup softly to refill it without troubling him, he snatched at it, wrenched it roughly out of her hand, and said with his mouth full, and strangely in the manner of a snarling beast: "no' ready yet. half foo'." marjorie wanted to know why every one didn't get up and leave the room. she glanced at her mother and came near to speaking. and very soon she would have to come home and live in the midst of this again--indefinitely! after breakfast she went to the tumbledown summer-house by the duckpond, and contemplated the bills she had not dared to open at table. one was boots, nearly three pounds, the other books, over seven. "i _know_ that's wrong," said marjorie, and rested her chin on her hand, knitted her brows and tried to remember the details of orders and deliveries.... marjorie had fallen into the net prepared for our sons and daughters by the delicate modesty of the oxbridge authorities in money matters, and she was, for her circumstances, rather heavily in debt. but i must admit that in marjorie's nature the oxbridge conditions had found an eager and adventurous streak that rendered her particularly apt to these temptations. i doubt if reticence is really a virtue in a teacher. but this is a fearful world, and the majority of those who instruct our youth have the painful sensitiveness of the cloistered soul to this spirit of terror in things. the young need particularly to be told truthfully and fully all we know of three fundamental things: the first of which is god, the next their duty towards their neighbours in the matter of work and money, and the third sex. these things, and the adequate why of them, and some sort of adequate how, make all that matters in education. but all three are obscure and deeply moving topics, topics for which the donnish mind has a kind of special ineptitude, and which it evades with the utmost skill and delicacy. the middle part of this evaded triad was now being taken up in marjorie's case by the oxbridge tradespeople. the oxbridge shopkeeper is peculiar among shopkeepers in the fact that he has to do very largely with shy and immature customers with an extreme and distinctive ignorance of most commercial things. they are for the most part short of cash, but with vague and often large probabilities of credit behind them, for most people, even quite straitened people, will pull their sons and daughters out of altogether unreasonable debts at the end of their university career; and so the oxbridge shopkeeper becomes a sort of propagandist of the charms and advantages of insolvency. alone among retailers he dislikes the sight of cash, declines it, affects to regard it as a coarse ignorant truncation of a budding relationship, begs to be permitted to wait. so the youngster just up from home discovers that money may stay in the pocket, be used for cab and train fares and light refreshments; all the rest may be had for the asking. marjorie, with her innate hunger for good fine things, with her quite insufficient pocket-money, and the irregular habits of expenditure a spasmodically financed, hard-up home is apt to engender, fell very readily into this new, delightful custom of having it put down (whatever it happened to be). she had all sorts of things put down. she and the elder carmel girl used to go shopping together, having things put down. she brightened her rooms with colour-prints and engravings, got herself pretty and becoming clothes, acquired a fitted dressing-bag already noted in this story, and one or two other trifles of the sort, revised her foot-wear, created a very nice little bookshelf, and although at times she felt a little astonished and scared at herself, resolutely refused to estimate the total of accumulated debt she had attained. indeed until the bills came in it was impossible to do that, because, following the splendid example of the carmel girl, she hadn't even inquired the price of quite a number of things.... she didn't dare think now of the total. she lied even to herself about that. she had fixed on fifty pounds as the unendurable maximum. "it is less than fifty pounds," she said, and added: "_must_ be." but something in her below the threshold of consciousness knew that it was more. and now she was in her third year, and the oxbridge tradesman, generally satisfied with the dimensions of her account, and no longer anxious to see it grow, was displaying the less obsequious side of his character. he wrote remarks at the bottom of his account, remarks about settlement, about having a bill to meet, about having something to go on with. he asked her to give the matter her "early attention." she had a disagreeable persuasion that if she wanted many more things anywhere she would have to pay ready money for them. she was particularly short of stockings. she had overlooked stockings recently. daffy, unfortunately, was also short of stockings. and now, back with her family again, everything conspired to remind marjorie of the old stringent habits from which she had had so delightful an interlude. she saw daffy eye her possessions, reflect. this morning something of the awfulness of her position came to her.... at oxbridge she had made rather a joke of her debts. "i'd _swear_ i haven't had three pairs of house shoes," said marjorie. "but what can one do?" and about the whole position the question was, "what can one do?" she proceeded with tense nervous movements to tear these two distasteful demands into very minute pieces. then she collected them all together in the hollow of her hand, and buried them in the loose mould in a corner of the summer-house. "madge," said theodore, appearing in the sunshine of the doorway. "aunt plessington's coming! she's sent a wire. someone's got to meet her by the twelve-forty train." § aunt plessington's descent was due to her sudden discovery that buryhamstreet was in close proximity to summerhay park, indeed only three miles away. she had promised a lecture on her movement for lady petchworth's village room in summerhay, and she found that with a slight readjustment of dates she could combine this engagement with her promised visit to her husband's sister, and an evening or so of influence for her little madge. so she had sent hubert to telegraph at once, and "here," she said triumphantly on the platform, after a hard kiss at marjorie's cheek, "we are again." there, at any rate, she was, and uncle hubert was up the platform seeing after the luggage, in his small anxious way. aunt plessington was a tall lean woman, with firm features, a high colour and a bright eye, who wore hats to show she despised them, and carefully dishevelled hair. her dress was always good, but extremely old and grubby, and she commanded respect chiefly by her voice. her voice was the true governing-class voice, a strangulated contralto, abundant and authoritative; it made everything she said clear and important, so that if she said it was a fine morning it was like leaded print in the _times_, and she had over her large front teeth lips that closed quietly and with a slight effort after her speeches, as if the words she spoke tasted well and left a peaceful, secure sensation in the mouth. uncle hubert was a less distinguished figure, and just a little reminiscent of the small attached husbands one finds among the lower crustacea: he was much shorter and rounder than his wife, and if he had been left to himself, he would probably have been comfortably fat in his quiet little way. but aunt plessington had made him a haigite, which is one of the fiercer kinds of hygienist, just in the nick of time. he had round shoulders, a large nose, and glasses that made him look astonished--and she said he had a great gift for practical things, and made him see after everything in that line while she did the lecturing. his directions to the porter finished, he came up to his niece. "hello, marjorie!" he said, in a peculiar voice that sounded as though his mouth was full (though of course, poor dear, it wasn't), "how's the first class?" "a second's good enough for me, uncle hubert," said marjorie, and asked if they would rather walk or go in the donkey cart, which was waiting outside with daffy. aunt plessington, with an air of great _bonhomie_ said she'd ride in the donkey cart, and they did. but no pseudo-twins or theodore came to meet this arrival, as both uncle and aunt had a way of asking how the lessons were getting on that they found extremely disagreeable. also, their aunt measured them, and incited them with loud encouraging noises to grow one against the other in an urgent, disturbing fashion. aunt plessington's being was consumed by thoughts of getting on. she was like bernard shaw's life force, and she really did not seem to think there was anything in existence but shoving. she had no idea what a lark life can be, and occasionally how beautiful it can be when you do not shove, if only, which becomes increasingly hard each year, you can get away from the shovers. she was one of an energetic family of eight sisters who had maintained themselves against a mutual pressure by the use of their elbows from the cradle. they had all married against each other, all sorts of people; two had driven their husbands into bishoprics and made quite typical bishop's wives, one got a leading barrister, one a high war-office official, and one a rich jew, and aunt plessington, after spending some years in just missing a rich and only slightly demented baronet, had pounced--it's the only word for it--on uncle hubert. "a woman is nothing without a husband," she said, and took him. he was a fairly comfortable oxford don in his furtive way, and bringing him out and using him as a basis, she specialized in intellectual philanthropy and evolved her movement. it was quite remarkable how rapidly she overhauled her sisters again. what the movement was, varied considerably from time to time, but it was always aggressively beneficial towards the lower strata of the community. among its central ideas was her belief that these lower strata can no more be trusted to eat than they can to drink, and that the licensing monopoly which has made the poor man's beer thick, lukewarm and discreditable, and so greatly minimized its consumption, should be extended to the solid side of his dietary. she wanted to place considerable restrictions upon the sale of all sorts of meat, upon groceries and the less hygienic and more palatable forms of bread (which do not sufficiently stimulate the coatings of the stomach), to increase the present difficulties in the way of tobacco purchasers, and to put an end to that wanton and deleterious consumption of sweets which has so bad an effect upon the enamel of the teeth of the younger generation. closely interwoven with these proposals was an adoption of the principle of the east purblow experiment, the principle of payment in kind. she was quite in agreement with mr. pope that poor people, when they had money, frittered it away, and so she proposed very extensive changes in the truck act, which could enable employers, under suitable safeguards, and with the advice of a small body of spinster inspectors, to supply hygienic housing, approved clothing of moral and wholesome sort, various forms of insurance, edifying rations, cuisine, medical aid and educational facilities as circumstances seemed to justify, in lieu of the wages the employees handled so ill.... as no people in england will ever admit they belong to the lower strata of society, aunt plessington's movement attracted adherents from every class in the community. she now, as they drove slowly to the vicarage, recounted to marjorie--she had the utmost contempt for daffy because of her irregular teeth and a general lack of progressive activity--the steady growth of the movement, and the increasing respect shown for her and hubert in the world of politico-social reform. some of the meetings she had addressed had been quite full, various people had made various remarks about her, hostile for the most part and yet insidiously flattering, and everybody seemed quite glad to come to the little dinners she gave in order, she said, to gather social support for her reforms. she had been staying with the mastersteins, who were keenly interested, and after she had polished off lady petchworth she was to visit lady rosenbaum. it was all going on swimmingly, these newer english gentry were eager to learn all she had to teach in the art of breaking in the anglo-saxon villagers, and now, how was marjorie going on, and what was _she_ going to do in the world? marjorie said she was working for her final. "and what then?" asked aunt plessington. "not very clear, aunt, yet." "looking around for something to take up?" "yes, aunt." "well, you've time yet. and it's just as well to see how the land lies before you begin. it saves going back. you'll have to come up to london with me for a little while, and see things, and be seen a little." "i should love to." "i'll give you a good time," said aunt plessington, nodding promisingly. "theodore getting on in school?" "he's had his remove." "and how's sydney getting on with the music?" "excellently." "and rom. rom getting on?" marjorie indicated a more restrained success. "and what's daffy doing?" "oh! _get_ on!" said daffy and suddenly whacked the donkey rather hard. "i beg your pardon, aunt?" "i asked what _you_ were up to, daffy?" "dusting, aunt--and the virtues," said daffy. "you ought to find something better than that." "father tells me a lot about the east purblow experiment," said daffy after a perceptible interval. "ah!" cried aunt plessington with a loud encouraging note, but evidently making the best of it, "_that's_ better. sociological observation." "yes, aunt," said daffy, and negotiated a corner with exceptional care. § mrs. pope, who had an instinctive disposition to pad when aunt plessington was about, had secured the presence at lunch of mr. magnet (who was after all staying on in buryhamstreet) and the rev. jopling baynes. aunt plessington liked to meet the clergy, and would always if she could win them over to an interest in the movement. she opened the meal with a brisk attack upon him. "come, mr. baynes," she said, "what do your people eat here? hubert and i are making a study of the gluttonous side of village life, and we find that no one knows so much of that as the vicar--not even the doctor." the reverend jopling baynes was a clergyman of the evasive type with a quite distinguished voice. he pursed his lips and made his eyes round. "well, mrs. plessington," he said and fingered his glass, "it's the usual dietary. the usual dietary." "too much and too rich, badly cooked and eaten too fast," said aunt plessington. "and what do you think is the remedy?" "we make an effort," said the rev. jopling baynes, "we make an effort. a hint here, a word there." "nothing organized?" "no," said the rev. jopling baynes, and shook his head with a kind of resignation. "we are going to alter all that," said aunt plessington briskly, and went on to expound the movement and the diverse way in which it might be possible to control and improve the domestic expenditure of the working classes. the rev. jopling baynes listened sympathetically across the table and tried to satisfy a healthy appetite with as abstemious an air as possible while he did so. aunt plessington passed rapidly from general principles, to a sketch of the success of the movement, and hubert, who had hitherto been busy with his lunch, became audible from behind the exceptionally large floral trophy that concealed him from his wife, bubbling confirmatory details. she was very bright and convincing as she told of this prominent man met and subdued, that leading antagonist confuted, and how the bishops were coming in. she made it clear in her swift way that an intelligent cleric resolved to get on in this world _en route_ for a better one hereafter, might do worse than take up her movement. and this touched in, she turned her mind to mr. magnet. (that floral trophy, i should explain, by the by, was exceptionally large because of mrs. pope's firm conviction that aunt plessington starved her husband. accordingly, she masked him, and so was able to heap second and third helpings upon his plate without aunt plessington discovering his lapse. the avidity with which hubert ate confirmed her worst suspicions and evinced, so far as anything ever did evince, his gratitude.) "well, mr. magnet," she said, "i wish i had your sense of humour." "i wish you had," said mr. magnet. "i should write tracts," said aunt plessington. "i knew it was good for something," said mr. magnet, and daffy laughed in a tentative way. "i mean it," said aunt plessington brightly. "think if we had a dickens--and you are the nearest man alive to dickens--on the side of social reform to-day!" mr. magnet's light manner deserted him. "we do what we can, mrs. plessington," he said. "how much more might be done," said aunt plessington, "if humour could be organized." "hear, hear!" said mr. pope. "if all the humorists of england could be induced to laugh at something together." "they do--at times," said mr. magnet, but the atmosphere was too serious for his light touch. "they could laugh it out of existence," said aunt plessington. it was evident mr. magnet was struck by the idea. "of course," he said, "in _punch_, to which i happen to be an obscure occasional contributor----" mrs. pope was understood to protest that he should not say such things. "we _do_ remember just what we can do either in the way of advertising or injury. i don't think you'll find us up against any really _solid_ institutions." "but do you think, mr. magnet, you are sufficiently kind to the new?" aunt plessington persisted. "i think we are all grateful to _punch_," said the rev. jopling baynes suddenly and sonorously, "for its steady determination to direct our mirth into the proper channels. i do not think that any one can accuse its editor of being unmindful of his great responsibilities----" marjorie found it a very interesting conversation. she always met her aunt again with a renewal of a kind of admiration. that loud authoritative rudeness, that bold thrusting forward of the movement until it became the sole criterion of worth or success, this annihilation by disregard of all that aunt plessington wasn't and didn't and couldn't, always in the intervals seemed too good to be true. of course this really was the way people got on and made a mark, but she felt it must be almost as trying to the nerves as aeronautics. suppose, somewhere up there your engine stopped! how aunt plessington dominated the table! marjorie tried not to catch daffy's eye. daffy was unostentatiously keeping things going, watching the mustard, rescuing the butter, restraining theodore, and i am afraid not listening very carefully to aunt plessington. the children were marvellously silent and jumpily well-behaved, and mr. pope, in a very unusual state of subdued amiability, sat at the end of the table with the east purblow experiment on the tip of his tongue. he liked aunt plessington, and she was good for him. they had the same inherent distrust of the intelligence and good intentions of their fellow creatures, and she had the knack of making him feel that he too was getting on, that she was saying things on his behalf in influential quarters, and in spite of the almost universal conspiracy (based on jealousy) to ignore his stern old-world virtues, he might still be able to battle his way to the floor of the house of commons and there deliver himself before he died of a few sorely needed home-truths about motor cars, decadence and frivolity generally.... § after lunch aunt plessington took her little madge for an energetic walk, and showed herself far more observant than the egotism of her conversation at that meal might have led one to suppose. or perhaps she was only better informed. aunt plessington loved a good hard walk in the afternoon; and if she could get any one else to accompany her, then hubert stayed at home, and curled up into a ball on a sofa somewhere, and took a little siesta that made him all the brighter for the intellectual activities of the evening. the thought of a young life, new, untarnished, just at the outset, just addressing itself to the task of getting on, always stimulated her mind extremely, and she talked to marjorie with a very real and effectual desire to help her to the utmost of her ability. she talked of a start in life, and the sort of start she had had. she showed how many people who began with great advantages did not shove sufficiently, and so dropped out of things and weren't seen and mentioned. she defended herself for marrying hubert, and showed what a clever shoving thing it had been to do. it startled people a little, and made them realize that here was a woman who wanted something more in a man than a handsome organ-grinder. she made it clear that she thought a clever marriage, if not a startlingly brilliant one, the first duty of a girl. it was a girl's normal gambit. she branched off to the things single women might do, in order to justify this view. she did not think single women could do very much. they might perhaps shove as suffragettes, but even there a husband helped tremendously--if only by refusing to bail you out. she ran over the cases of a number of prominent single women. "and what," said aunt plessington, "do they all amount to? a girl is so hampered and an old maid is so neglected," said aunt plessington. she paused. "why don't you up and marry mr. magnet, marjorie?" she said, with her most brilliant flash. "it takes two to make a marriage, aunt," said marjorie after a slight hesitation. "my dear child! he worships the ground you tread on!" said aunt plessington. "he's rather--grown up," said marjorie. "not a bit of it. he's not forty. he's just the age." "i'm afraid it's a little impossible." "impossible?" "you see i've refused him, aunt." "naturally--the first time! but i wouldn't send him packing the second." there was an interval. marjorie decided on a blunt question. "do you really think, aunt, i should do well to marry mr. magnet?" "he'd give you everything a clever woman needs," said aunt plessington. "everything." with swift capable touches she indicated the sort of life the future mrs. magnet might enjoy. "he's evidently a man who wants helping to a position," she said. "of course his farces and things, i'm told, make no end of money, but he's just a crude gift by himself. money like that is nothing. with a clever wife he might be all sorts of things. without one he'll just subside--you know the sort of thing this sort of man does. a rather eccentric humorous house in the country, golf, croquet, horse-riding, rose-growing, queer hats." "isn't that rather what he would like to do, aunt?" said marjorie. "that's not _our_ business, madge," said aunt plessington with humorous emphasis. she began to sketch out a different and altogether smarter future for the fortunate humorist. there would be a house in a good central position in london where marjorie would have bright successful lunches and dinners, very unpretending and very good, and tempt the clever smart with the lure of the interestingly clever; there would be a bright little country cottage in some pretty accessible place to which aunt and uncle plessington and able and influential people generally could be invited for gaily recreative and yet extremely talkative and helpful week-ends. both places could be made centres of intrigue; conspiracies for getting on and helping and exchanging help could be organized, people could be warned against people whose getting-on was undesirable. in the midst of it all, dressed with all the natural wit she had and an enlarging experience, would be marjorie, shining like a rising planet. it wouldn't be long, if she did things well, before she had permanent officials and young cabinet ministers mingling with her salad of writers and humorists and the plessington connexion. "then," said aunt plessington with a joyous lift in her voice, "you'll begin to _weed_ a little." for a time the girl's mind resisted her. but marjorie was of the impressionable sex at an impressionable age, and there was something overwhelming in the undeviating conviction of her aunt, in the clear assurance of her voice, that this life which interested her was the real life, the only possible successful life. the world reformed itself in marjorie's fluent mind, until it was all a scheme of influence and effort and ambition and triumphs. dinner-parties and receptions, men wearing orders, cabinet ministers more than a little in love asking her advice, beautiful robes, a great blaze of lights; why! she might be, said aunt plessington rising to enthusiasm, "another marcella." the life was not without its adventurous side; it wasn't in any way dull. aunt plessington to illustrate that point told amusing anecdotes of how two almost impudent invitations on her part had succeeded, and how she had once scored off her elder sister by getting a coveted celebrity through their close family resemblance. "after accepting he couldn't very well refuse because i wasn't somebody else," she ended gleefully. "so he came--and stayed as long as anybody." what else was there for marjorie to contemplate? if she didn't take this by no means unattractive line, what was the alternative? some sort of employment after a battle with her father, a parsimonious life, and even then the oxbridge tradesmen and their immortal bills.... aunt plessington was so intent upon her theme that she heeded nothing of the delightful little flowers she trampled under foot across the down, nor the jolly squirrel with an artistic temperament who saw fit to give an uninvited opinion upon her personal appearance from the security of a beech-tree in the wood. but marjorie, noting quite a number of such things with the corner of her mind, and being now well under the plessington sway, wished she had more concentration.... in the evening after supper the customary games were suspended, and mr. and mrs. plessington talked about getting on, and work and efficiency generally, and explained how so-and-so had spoilt his chances in life, and why so-and-so was sure to achieve nothing, and how this man ate too much and that man drank too much, and on the contrary what promising and capable people the latest adherents of and subscribers to the movement were, until two glasses of hot water came--aunt plessington had been told it was good for her digestion and she thought it just as well that hubert should have some too--and it was time for every one to go to bed. § next morning an atmosphere of getting on and strenuosity generally prevailed throughout the vicarage. the plessingtons were preparing a memorandum on their movement for the "reformer's year book," every word was of importance and might win or lose adherents and subscribers, and they secured the undisturbed possession of the drawing-room, from which the higher notes of aunt plessington's voice explaining the whole thing to hubert, who had to write it out, reached, a spur to effort, into every part of the house. their influence touched every one. marjorie, struck by the idea that she was not perhaps getting on at oxbridge so fast as she ought to do, went into the summer-house with marshall's "principles of economics," read for two hours, and did not think about her bills for more than a quarter of the time. rom, who had already got up early and read through about a third of "aurora leigh," now set herself with dogged determination to finish that great poem. syd practised an extra ten minutes--for aunt plessington didn't mind practice so long as there wasn't a tune. mrs. pope went into the kitchen and made a long-needed fuss about the waste of rice. mr. pope began the pamphlet he had had in contemplation for some time upon the advantages to public order of payment in kind. theodore, who had washed behind his ears and laced his boots in all the holes, went into the yard before breakfast and hit a tennis ball against the wall and back, five hundred and twenty-two times--a record. he would have resumed this after breakfast, but his father came round the corner of the house with a pen in his mouth, and asked him indistinctly, but fiercely, what the _devil_ he was doing. so he went away, and after a fretful interval set himself to revise his latin irregular verbs. by twelve he had done wonders. later in the day the widening circle of aggressive urgency reached the kitchen, and at two the cook gave notice in order, she said, to better herself. lunch, unconscious of this impending shadow, was characterized by a virtuous cheerfulness, and aunt plessington told in detail how her seven and twenty nephews and nieces, the children of her various sisters, were all getting on. on the whole, they were not getting on so brilliantly as they might have done (which indeed is apt to be the case with the children of people who have loved not well but too wisely), and it was borne in upon the mind of the respectfully listening marjorie that, to borrow an easy colloquialism of her aunt's, she might "take the shine out of the lot of them" with a very little zeal and effort--and of course mr. magnet. the lecture in the evening at summerhay was a great success. the chair was taken by the rev. jopling baynes, lady petchworth was enthroned behind the table, hubert was in charge of his wife's notes--if notes should be needed--and mr. pope, expectant of an invitation at the end to say a few words about the east purblow experiment, also occupied a chair on the platform. lady petchworth, with her abundant soft blond hair, brightly blond still in spite of her fifty-five years, her delicate features, her plump hands, her numerous chins and her entirely inaudible voice, made a pleasing contrast with aunt plessington's resolute personality. she had perhaps an even greater assurance of authority, but it was a quiet assurance; you felt that she knew that if she spoke in her sleep she would be obeyed, that it was quite unnecessary to make herself heard. the two women, indeed, the one so assertive, the other so established, were at the opposite poles of authoritative british womanhood, and harmonized charmingly. the little room struck the note of a well-regulated brightness at every point, it had been decorated in a keltic but entirely respectful style by one of lady petchworth's artistic discoveries, it was lit by paraffin lamps that smelt hardly at all, and it was gay with colour prints illustrating the growth of the british empire from the battle of ethandune to the surrender of cronje. the hall was fairly full. few could afford to absent themselves from these brightening occasions, but there was a tendency on the part of the younger and the less thoughtful section of the village manhood to accumulate at the extreme back and rumble in what appeared to be a slightly ironical spirit, so far as it had any spirit, with its feet. the rev. jopling baynes opened proceedings with a few well-chosen remarks, in which he complimented every one present either singly or collectively according to their rank and importance, and then aunt plessington came forward to the centre of the platform amidst a hectic flush of applause, and said "haw!" in a loud clear ringing tone. she spoke without resorting to the notes in hubert's little fist, very freely and easily. her strangulated contralto went into every corner of the room and positively seemed to look for and challenge inattentive auditors. she had come over, she said, and she had been very glad to come over and talk to them that night, because it meant not only seeing them but meeting her very dear delightful friend lady petchworth (loud applause) and staying for a day or so with her brother-in-law mr. pope (unsupported outburst of applause from mr. magnet), to whom she and social reform generally owed so much. she had come to talk to them that night about the national good habits movement, which was attracting so much attention and which bore so closely on our national life and character; she happened to be--here aunt plessington smiled as she spoke--a humble person connected with that movement, just a mere woman connected with it; she was going to explain to them as well as she could in her womanly way and in the time at her disposal just what it was and just what it was for, and just what means it adopted and just what ends it had in view. well, they all knew what habits were, and that there were good habits and bad habits, and she supposed that the difference between a good man and a bad man was just that the good man had good habits and the bad one had bad habits. everybody she supposed wanted to get on. if a man had good habits he got on, and if he had bad habits he didn't get on, and she supposed it was the same with a country, if its people had good habits they got on, and if its people had bad habits they didn't get on. for her own part she and her husband (hubert gave a little self-conscious jump) had always cultivated good habits, and she had to thank him with all her heart for his help in doing so. (applause from the front seats.) now, the whole idea of her movement was to ask, how can we raise the standard of the national habits? how can we get rid of bad habits and cultivate good ones?... (here there was a slight interruption due to some one being suddenly pushed off the end of a form at the back, and coming to the floor with audible violence, after which a choked and obstructed tittering continued intermittently for some time.) some of her audience, she remarked, had not yet acquired the habit of sitting still. (laughter, and a coarse vulgar voice: "good old billy punt!") well, to resume, she and her husband had made a special and careful study of habits; they had consulted all sorts of people and collected all sorts of statistics, in fact they had devoted themselves to this question, and the conclusion to which they came was this, that good habits were acquired by training and bad habits came from neglect and carelessness and leaving people, who weren't fit for such freedom, to run about and do just whatever they liked. and so, she went on with a note of complete demonstration, the problem resolved itself into the question of how far they could get more training into the national life, and how they could check extravagant and unruly and wasteful and unwise ways of living. (hear, hear! from mr. pope.) and this was the problem she and her husband had set themselves to solve. (scuffle, and a boy's voice at the back, saying: "oh, _shut_ it, nuts! shut it!") well, she and her husband had worked the thing out, and they had come to the conclusion that what was the matter with the great mass of english people was first that they had rather too much loose money, and secondly that they had rather too much loose time. (a voice: "what o!" and the rev. jopling baynes suddenly extended his neck, knitted his brows, and became observant of the interrupter.) she did not say they had too much money (a second voice: "not arf!"), but too much _loose_ money. she did not say they had too much time but too much loose time, that is to say, they had money and time they did not know how to spend properly. and so they got into mischief. a great number of people in this country, she maintained, and this was especially true of the lower classes, did not know how to spend either money or time; they bought themselves wasteful things and injurious things, and they frittered away their hours in all sorts of foolish, unprofitable ways. and, after the most careful and scientific study of this problem, she and her husband had come to the conclusion that two main principles must underlie any remedial measures that were attempted, the first of which was the principle of payment in kind, which had already had so interesting a trial at the great carriage works of east purblow, and the second, the principle of continuous occupation, which had been recognized long ago in popular wisdom by that admirable proverb--or rather quotation--she believed it was a quotation, though she gave, she feared, very little time to poetry ("better employed," from mr. pope)-- "satan finds some mischief still for idle hands to do." (irrepressible outbreak of wild and sustained applause from the back seats, and in a sudden lull a female voice asking in a flattened, thwarted tone: "ain't there to be no lantern then?") the lecturer went on to explain what was meant by either member of what perhaps they would permit her to call this double-barrelled social remedy. it was an admirable piece of lucid exposition. slowly the picture of a better, happier, more disciplined england grew upon the minds of the meeting. first she showed the new sort of employer her movement would evoke, an employer paternal, philanthropic, vaguely responsible for the social order of all his dependants. (lady petchworth was seen to nod her head slowly at this.) only in the last resort, and when he was satisfied that his worker and his worker's family were properly housed, hygienically clothed and fed, attending suitable courses of instruction and free from any vicious inclinations, would he pay wages in cash. in the discharge of the duties of payment he would have the assistance of expert advice, and the stimulus of voluntary inspectors of his own class. he would be the natural clan-master, the captain and leader, adviser and caretaker of his banded employees. responsibility would stimulate him, and if responsibility did not stimulate him, inspectors (both men and women inspectors) would. the worker, on the other hand, would be enormously more healthy and efficient under the new régime. his home, designed by qualified and officially recognized architects, would be prettier as well as more convenient and elevating to his taste, his children admirably trained and dressed in the new and more beautiful clothing with which lady petchworth (applause) had done so much to make them familiar, his vital statistics compared with current results would be astonishingly good, his mind free from any anxiety but the proper anxiety of a man in his position, to get his work done properly and earn recognition from those competent and duly authorized to judge it. of all this she spoke with the inspiring note of absolute conviction. all this would follow payment in kind and continuous occupation as days follow sunrise. and there would always,--and here aunt plessington's voice seemed to brighten--be something for the worker to get on with, something for him to do; lectures, classes, reading-rooms, improving entertainments. his time would be filled. the proper authorities would see that it was filled--and filled in the right way. never for a moment need he be bored. he would never have an excuse for being bored. that was the second great idea, the complementary idea to the first. "and here it is," she said, turning a large encouraging smile on lady petchworth, "that the work of a national theatre, instructive, stimulating, well regulated, and morally sustaining, would come in." he wouldn't, of course, be _compelled_ to go, but there would be his seat, part of his payment in kind, and the public-house would be shut, most other temptations would be removed.... the lecture reached its end at last with only one other interruption. some would-be humorist suddenly inquired, _à propos_ of nothing: "what's the fare to america, billy?" and a voice, presumably billy's, answered him: "mor'n _you'll_ ev 'av in _you'_ pocket." the rev. jopling baynes, before he called upon mr. pope for his promised utterance about east purblow, could not refrain from pointing out how silly "in every sense of the word" these wanton interruptions were. what, he asked, had english social reform to do with the fare to america?--and having roused the meeting to an alert silence by the length of his pause, answered in a voice of ringing contempt: "nothing--_whatsoever_." then mr. pope made his few remarks about east purblow with the ease and finish that comes from long practice; much, he said, had to be omitted "in view of" the restricted time at his disposal, but he did not grudge that, the time had been better filled. ("no, no," from aunt plessington.) yes, yes,--by the lucid and delightful lecture they had all enjoyed, and he not least among them. (applause.)... § they came out into a luminous blue night, with a crescent young moon high overhead. it was so fine that the popes and the plessingtons and mr. magnet declined lady petchworth's proffered car, and walked back to buryhamstreet across the park through a sleeping pallid cornfield, and along by the edge of the pine woods. mr. pope would have liked to walk with mr. magnet and explain all that the pressure on his time had caused him to omit from his speech, and why it was he had seen fit to omit this part and include that. some occult power, however, baffled this intention, and he found himself going home in the company of his brother-in-law and daffy, with aunt plessington and his wife like a barrier between him and his desire. marjorie, on the other hand, found mr. magnet's proximity inevitable. they fell a little behind and were together again for the first time since her refusal. he behaved, she thought, with very great restraint, and indeed he left her a little doubtful on that occasion whether he had not decided to take her decision as final. he talked chiefly about the lecture, which had impressed him very deeply. mrs. plessington, he said, was so splendid--made him feel trivial. he felt stirred up by her, wanted to help in this social work, this picking up of helpless people from the muddle in which they wallowed. he seemed not only extraordinarily modest but extraordinarily gentle that night, and the warm moonshine gave his face a shadowed earnestness it lacked in more emphatic lights. she felt the profound change in her feelings towards him that had followed her rejection of him. it had cleared away his effect of oppression upon her. she had no longer any sense of entanglement and pursuit, and all the virtues his courtship had obscured shone clear again. he was kindly, he was patient--and she felt something about him a woman is said always to respect, he gave her an impression of ability. after all, he could banish the trouble that crushed and overwhelmed her with a movement of his little finger. of all her load of debt he could earn the payment in a day. "your aunt goes to-morrow?" he said. marjorie admitted it. "i wish i could talk to her more. she's so inspiring." "you know of our little excursion for friday?" he asked after a pause. she had not heard. friday was theodore's birthday; she knew it only too well because she had had to part with her stamp collection--which very luckily had chanced to get packed and come to buryhamstreet--to meet its demand. mr. magnet explained he had thought it might be fun to give a picnic in honour of the anniversary. "how jolly of you!" said marjorie. "there's a pretty bit of river between wamping and friston hanger--i've wanted you to see it for a long time, and friston hanger church has the prettiest view. the tower gets the bend of the river." he told her all he meant to do as if he submitted his plans for her approval. they would drive to wamping and get a very comfortable little steam launch one could hire there. wintersloan was coming down again; an idle day of this kind just suited his temperament. theodore would like it, wouldn't he? "theodore will think he is king of surrey!" "i'll have a rod and line if he wants to fish. i don't want to forget anything. i want it to be _his_ day really and truly." the slightest touch upon the pathetic note? she could not tell. but that evening brought marjorie nearer to loving magnet than she had ever been. before she went to sleep that night she had decided he was quite a tolerable person again; she had been too nervous and unjust with him. after all, his urgency and awkwardness had been just a part of his sincerity. perhaps the faint doubt whether he would make his request again gave the zest of uncertainty to his devotion. of course, she told herself, he would ask again. and then the blissful air of limitless means she might breathe. the blessed release.... she was suddenly fast asleep. § friday was after all not so much theodore's day as mr. magnet's. until she found herself committed there was no shadow of doubt in marjorie's mind of what she meant to do. "before i see you again," said aunt plessington at the parting kiss, "i hope you'll have something to tell me." she might have been hymen thinly disguised as an aunt, waving from the departing train. she continued by vigorous gestures and unstinted display of teeth and a fluttering handkerchief to encourage marjorie to marry mr. magnet, until the curve of the cutting hid her from view.... fortune favoured mr. magnet with a beautiful day, and the excursion was bright and successful from the outset. it was done well, and what perhaps was more calculated to impress marjorie, it was done with lavish generosity. from the outset she turned a smiling countenance upon her host. she did her utmost to suppress a reviving irrational qualm in her being, to maintain clearly and simply her overnight decision, that he should propose again and that she should accept him. yet the festival was just a little dreamlike in its quality to her perceptions. she found she could not focus clearly on its details. two waggonettes came from wamping; there was room for everybody and to spare, and wamping revealed itself a pleasant small country town with stocks under the market hall, and just that tint of green paint and that loafing touch the presence of a boating river gives. the launch was brilliantly smart with abundant crimson cushions and a tasselled awning, and away to the left was a fine old bridge that dated in its essentials from plantagenet times. they started with much whistling and circling, and went away up river under overhanging trees that sometimes swished the funnel, splashing the meadow path and making the reeds and bulrushes dance with their wash. they went through a reluctant lock, steamed up a long reach, they passed the queerly painted potwell inn with its picturesque group of poplars and its absurd new notice-board of "omlets." ... theodore was five stone of active happiness; he and the pseudo-twins, strictly under his orders as the universal etiquette of birthdays prescribes, clambered round and round the boat, clutching the awning rail and hanging over the water in an entirely secure and perilous looking manner. no one, unless his father happened to be upset by something, would check him, he knew, on this auspicious day. mr. magnet sat with the grey eye on marjorie and listened a little abstractedly to mr. pope, who was telling very fully what he would say if the liberal party were to ask his advice at the present juncture. mrs. pope attended discreetly, and daffy and marjorie with a less restrained interest, to mr. wintersloan, who showed them how to make faces out of a fist tied up in a pocket-handkerchief, how to ventriloquize, how to conjure with halfpence--which he did very amusingly--and what the buttons on a man's sleeve were for; theodore clambering at his back discovered what he was at, and by right of birthday made him do all the faces and tricks over again. then mr. wintersloan told stories of all the rivers along which, he said, he had travelled in steamboats; the rhine, the danube, the hoogly and the fall river, and particularly how he had been bitten by a very young crocodile. "it's the smell of the oil brings it all back to me," he said. "and the kind of sway it gives you." he made sinuous movements of his hand, and looked at marjorie with that wooden yet expressive smile. friston hanger proved to be even better than wamping. it had a character of its own because it was built very largely of a warm buff coloured local rock instead of the usual brick, and the outhouses at least of the little inn at which they landed were thatched. most of the cottages had casement windows with diamond panes, and the streets were cobbled and very up-and-down hill. the place ran to high walls richly suggestive of hidden gardens, overhung by big trees and pierced by secretive important looking doors. and over it all rose an unusually big church, with a tall buttressed tower surmounted by a lantern of pierced stone. "we'll go through the town and look at the ruins of the old castle beyond the church," said mr. magnet to marjorie, "and then i want you to see the view from the church tower." and as they went through the street, he called her attention again to the church tower in a voice that seemed to her to be inexplicably charged with significance. "i want you to go up there," he said. "how about something to eat, mr. magnet?" remarked theodore suddenly, and everybody felt a little surprised when mr. magnet answered: "who wants things to eat on your birthday, theodore?" but they saw the joke of that when they reached the castle ruins and found in the old tilting yard, with its ivy-covered arch framing a view of the town and stream, a table spread with a white cloth that shone in the sunshine, glittering with glass and silver and gay with a bowl of salad and flowers and cold pies and a jug of claret-cup and an ice pail--a silver pail! containing two promising looking bottles, in the charge of two real live waiters, in evening dress as waiters should be, but with straw hats to protect them from the sun and weather. "oh!" cried mrs. pope, "what a _splendid_ idea, mr. magnet," when the destination of the feast was perfectly clear, and even theodore seemed a little overawed--almost as if he felt his birthday was being carried too far and might provoke a judgment later. manifestly mr. magnet must have ordered this in london, and have had it sent down, waiters and all! theodore knew he was a very wonderful little boy in spite of the acute criticism of four devoted sisters, and mr. magnet had noticed him before at times, but this was, well, rather immense! "look at the pie-crusts, old man!" and on the pie-crusts, and on the icing of the cake, their munificent host had caused to be done in little raised letters of dough and chocolate the word "theodore." "oh, _mr._ magnet!" said marjorie--his eye so obviously invited her to say something. mr. pope tried a nebulous joke about "groaning boards of frisky hanger," and only mr. wintersloan restrained his astonishment and admiration. "you could have got those chaps in livery," he said--unheeded. the lunch was as a matter of fact his idea; he had refused to come unless it was provided, and he had somehow counted on blue coats, brass buttons, and yellow waistcoats--but everybody else of course ascribed the whole invention to mr. magnet. "well," said mr. pope with a fine air of epigram, "the only thing i can say is--to eat it," and prepared to sit down. "melon," cried mr. magnet to the waiters, "we'll begin with the melon. have you ever tried melon with pepper and salt, mrs. pope?" "you put salt in everything," admired mr. pope. "salt from those attics of yours--attic salt." "or there's ginger!" said mr. magnet, after a whisper from the waiter. mr. pope said something classical about "ginger hot in the mouth." "some of these days," said mr. wintersloan, "when i have exhausted all other sensations, i mean to try melon and mustard." rom made a wonderful face at him. "i can think of worse things than that," said mr. wintersloan with a hard brightness. "not till after lunch, mr. wintersloan!" said rom heartily. "the claret cup's all right for theodore, mrs. pope," said magnet. "it's a special twelve year old brand." (he thought of everything!) "mummy," said mr. pope. "you'd better carve this pie, i think." "i want very much," said mr. magnet in marjorie's ear and very confidentially, "to show you the view from the church tower. i think--it will appeal to you." "rom!" said theodore, uncontrollably, in a tremendous stage whisper. "there's peaches!... _there!_ on the hamper!" "champagne, m'am?" said the waiter suddenly in mrs. pope's ear, wiping ice-water from the bottle. (but what could it have cost him?) § marjorie would have preferred that mr. magnet should not have decided with such relentless determination to make his second proposal on the church tower. his purpose was luminously clear to her from the beginning of lunch onward, and she could feel her nerves going under the strain of that long expectation. she tried to pull herself together, tried not to think about it, tried to be amused by the high spirits and nonsense of mr. wintersloan and syd and rom and theodore; but mr. magnet was very pervasive, and her mother didn't ever look at her, looked past her and away from her and all round her, in a profoundly observant manner. marjorie felt chiefly anxious to get to the top of that predestinate tower and have the whole thing over, and it was with a start that she was just able to prevent one of the assiduous waiters filling her glass with champagne for the third time. there was a little awkwardness in dispersing after lunch. mr. pope, his heart warmed by the champagne and mellowed by a subsequent excellent cigar, wanted very much to crack what he called a "postprandial jest" or so with the great humorist, while theodore also, deeply impressed with the discovery that there was more in mr. magnet than he had supposed, displayed a strong disposition to attach himself more closely than he had hitherto done to this remarkable person, and study his quiet but enormous possibilities with greater attention. mrs. pope with a still alertness did her best to get people adjusted, but syd and rom had conceived a base and unnatural desire to subjugate the affections of the youngest waiter, and wouldn't listen to her proposal that they should take theodore away into the town; mr. wintersloan displayed extraordinary cunning and resource in evading a _tête-à-tête_ with mr. pope that would have released mr. magnet. now mrs. pope came to think of it, mr. wintersloan never had had the delights of a good talk with mr. pope, he knew practically nothing about the east purblow experiment except for what mr. magnet might have retailed to him, and she was very greatly puzzled to account for his almost manifest reluctance to go into things thoroughly. daffy remained on hand, available but useless, and mrs. pope, smiling at the landscape and a prey to management within, was suddenly inspired to take her eldest daughter into her confidence. "daffy," she said, with a guileful finger extended and pointing to the lower sky as though she was pointing out the less obvious and more atmospheric beauties of surrey, "get theodore away from mr. magnet if you can. he wants to talk to marjorie." daffy looked round. "shall i call him?" she said. "no," said mrs. pope, "do it--just--quietly." "i'll try," said daffy and stared at her task, and mrs. pope, feeling that this might or might not succeed but that anyhow she had done what she could, strolled across to her husband and laid a connubial touch upon his shoulder. "all the young people," she said, "are burning to climb the church tower. i never _can_ understand this activity after lunch." "not me," said mr. pope. "eh, magnet?" "_i'm_ game," said theodore. "come along, mr. magnet." "i think," said mr. magnet looking at marjorie, "i shall go up. i want to show marjorie the view." "we'll stay here, mummy, eh?" said mr. pope, with a quite unusual geniality, and suddenly put his arm round mrs. pope's waist. her motherly eye sought daffy's, and indicated her mission. "i'll come with you, theodore," said daffy. "there isn't room for everyone at once up that tower." "i'll go with mr. magnet," said theodore, relying firmly on the privileges of the day.... for a time they played for position, with the intentions of mr. magnet showing more and more starkly through the moves of the game. at last theodore was lured down a side street by the sight of a huge dummy fish dangling outside a tackle and bait shop, and mr. magnet and marjorie, already with a dreadful feeling of complicity, made a movement so rapid it seemed to her almost a bolt for the church tower. whatever mr. magnet desired to say, and whatever elasticity his mind had once possessed with regard to it, there can be no doubt that it had now become so rigid as to be sayable only in that one precise position, and in the exact order he had determined upon. but when at last they got to that high serenity, mr. magnet was far too hot and far too much out of breath to say anything at all for a time except an almost explosive gust or so of approbation of the scenery. "shor' breath!" he said, "win'ey stairs always--that 'fect on me--buful sceny--suwy--like it always." marjorie found herself violently disposed to laugh; indeed she had never before been so near the verge of hysterics. "it's a perfectly lovely view," she said. "no wonder you wanted me to see it." "naturally," said mr. magnet, "wanted you to see it." marjorie, with a skill her mother might have envied, wriggled into a half-sitting position in an embrasure and concentrated herself upon the broad wooded undulations that went about the horizon, and mr. magnet mopped his face with surreptitious gestures, and took deep restoring breaths. "i've always wanted to bring you here," he said, "ever since i found it in the spring." "it was very kind of you, mr. magnet," said marjorie. "you see," he explained, "whenever i see anything fine or rich or splendid or beautiful now, i seem to want it for you." his voice quickened as though he were repeating something that had been long in his mind. "i wish i could give you all this country. i wish i could put all that is beautiful in the world at your feet." he watched the effect of this upon her for a moment. "marjorie," he said, "did you really mean what you told me the other day, that there was indeed no hope for me? i have a sort of feeling i bothered you that day, that perhaps you didn't mean all----" he stopped short. "i don't think i knew what i meant," said marjorie, and magnet gave a queer sound of relief at her words. "i don't think i know what i mean now. i don't think i can say i love you, mr. magnet. i would if i could. i like you very much indeed, i think you are awfully kind, you're more kind and generous than anyone i have ever known...." saying he was kind and generous made her through some obscure association of ideas feel that he must have understanding. she had an impulse to put her whole case before him frankly. "i wonder," she said, "if you can understand what it is to be a girl." then she saw the absurdity of her idea, of any such miracle of sympathy. he was entirely concentrated upon the appeal he had come prepared to make. "marjorie," he said, "i don't ask you to love me yet. all i ask is that you shouldn't decide _not_ to love me." marjorie became aware of theodore, hotly followed by daffy, in the churchyard below. "i _know_ he's up there," theodore was manifestly saying. marjorie faced her lover gravely. "mr. magnet," she said, "i will certainly promise you that." "i would rather be your servant, rather live for your happiness, than do anything else in all the world," said mr. magnet. "if you would trust your life to me, if you would deign--." he paused to recover his thread. "if you would deign to let me make life what it should be for you, take every care from your shoulders, face every responsibility----" marjorie felt she had to hurry. she could almost feel the feet of theodore coming up that tower. "mr. magnet," she said, "you don't understand. you don't realize what i am. you don't know how unworthy i am--what a mere ignorant child----" "let me be judge of that!" cried mr. magnet. they paused almost like two actors who listen for the prompter. it was only too obvious that both were aware of a little medley of imperfectly subdued noises below. theodore had got to the ladder that made the last part of the ascent, and there daffy had collared him. "_my_ birthday," said theodore. "come down! you _shan't_ go up there!" said daffy. "you _mustn't_, theodore!" "why not?" there was something like a scuffle, and whispers. then it would seem theodore went--reluctantly and with protests. but the conflict receded. "marjorie!" said mr. magnet, as though there had been no pause, "if you would consent only to make an experiment, if you would try to love me. suppose you _tried_ an engagement. i do not care how long i waited...." he paused. "will you try?" he urged upon her distressed silence. she felt as though she forced the word. "_yes!_" she said in a very low voice. then it seemed to her that mr. magnet leapt upon her. she felt herself pulled almost roughly from the embrasure, and he had kissed her. she struggled in his embrace. "mr. magnet!" she said. he lifted her face and kissed her lips. "marjorie!" he said, and she had partly released herself. "oh _don't_ kiss me," she cried, "don't kiss me yet!" "but a kiss!" "i don't like it." "i beg your pardon!" he said. "i forgot----. but you.... you.... i couldn't help it." she was suddenly wildly sorry for what she had done. she felt she was going to cry, to behave absurdly. "i want to go down," she said. "marjorie, you have made me the happiest of men! all my life, all my strength i will spend in showing you that you have made no mistake in trusting me----" "yes," she said, "yes," and wondered what she could say or do. it seemed to him that her shrinking pose was the most tenderly modest thing he had ever seen. "oh my dear!" he said, and restrained himself and took her passive hand and kissed it. "i want to go down to them!" she insisted. he paused on the topmost rungs of the ladder, looking unspeakable things at her. then he turned to go down, and for the second time in her life she saw that incipient thinness.... "i am sure you will never be sorry," he said.... they found mr. and mrs. pope in the churchyard. mr. pope was reading with amusement for the third time an epitaph that had caught his fancy-- "lands ever bright, days ever fair, and yet we weep that _he_ is there." he read. "you know that's really good. that ought to be printed somewhere." mrs. pope glanced sharply at her daughter's white face, and found an enigma. then she looked at mr. magnet. there was no mistake about mr. magnet. marjorie had accepted him, whatever else she had felt or done. § marjorie's feelings for the rest of the day are only to be accounted for on the supposition that she was overwrought. she had a preposterous reaction. she had done this thing with her eyes open after days of deliberation, and now she felt as though she was caught in a trap. the clearest thing in her mind was that mr. magnet had taken hold of her and kissed her, kissed her on the lips, and that presently he would do it again. and also she was asking herself with futile reiteration why she had got into debt at oxbridge? why she had got into debt? for such silly little things too! nothing definite was said in her hearing about the engagement, but everybody seemed to understand. mr. pope was the most demonstrative, he took occasion to rap her hard upon the back, his face crinkled with a resolute kindliness. "ah!" he said, "sly maggots!" he also administered several resounding blows to magnet's shoulder blades, and irradiated the party with a glow of benevolent waggery. marjorie submitted without an answer to these paternal intimations. mrs. pope did no more than watch her daughter. invisible but overwhelming forces were busy in bringing marjorie and her glowing lover alone together again. it happened at last, as he was departing; she was almost to her inflamed imagination thrust out upon him, had to take him to the gate; and there in the shadows of the trees he kissed her "good night" with passionate effusion. "madge," he said, "madge!" she made no answer. she submitted passively to his embrace, and then suddenly and dexterously disengaged herself from him, ran in, and without saying good-night to anyone went to her room to bed. mr. pope was greatly amused by this departure from the customary routine of life, and noted it archly. when daffy came up marjorie was ostentatiously going to sleep.... as she herself was dropping off daffy became aware of an odd sound, somehow familiar, and yet surprising and disconcerting. suddenly wide awake again, she started up. yes there was no mistake about it! and yet it was very odd. "madge, what's up?" no answer. "i say! you aren't crying, madge, are you?" then after a long interval: "_madge!_" an answer came in a muffled voice, almost as if marjorie had something in her mouth. "oh shut it, old daffy." "but madge?" said daffy after reflection. "shut it. _do_ shut it! leave me alone, i say! can't you leave me alone? oh!"--and for a moment she let her sobs have way with her--"daffy, don't worry me. old daffy! _please!_" daffy sat up for a long time in the stifled silence that ensued, and then like a sensible sister gave it up, and composed herself again to slumber.... outside watching the window in a state of nebulous ecstasy, was mr. magnet, moonlit and dewy. it was a high serene night with a growing moon and a scattered company of major stars, and if no choir of nightingales sang there was at least a very active nightjar. "more than i hoped," whispered mr. magnet, "more than i dared to hope." he was very sleepy, but it seemed to him improper to go to bed on such a night--on such an occasion. chapter the third the man who fell out of the sky § for the next week marjorie became more nearly introspective than she had ever been in her life before. she began to doubt her hitherto unshaken conviction that she was a single, consistent human being. she found such discords and discrepancies between mood and mood, between the conviction of this hour and the feeling of that, that it seemed to her she was rather a collection of samples of emotion and attitude than anything so simple as an individual. for example, there can be no denying there was one marjorie in the bundle who was immensely set up by the fact that she was engaged, and going to be at no very remote date mistress of a london house. she was profoundly plessingtonian, and quite the vulgarest of the lot. the new status she had attained and the possibly beautiful house and the probably successful dinner-parties and the arrangements and the importance of such a life was the substance of this creature's thought. she designed some queenly dresses. this was the marjorie most in evidence when it came to talking with her mother and daphne. i am afraid she patronized daphne, and ignored the fact that daphne, who had begun with a resolute magnanimity, was becoming annoyed and resentful. and she thought of things she might buy, and the jolly feeling of putting them about and making fine effects with them. one thing she told daphne, she had clearly resolved upon; the house should be always full and brimming over with beautiful flowers. "i've always wished mother would have more flowers--and not keep them so long when she has them...." another marjorie in the confusion of her mind was doing her sincerest, narrow best to appreciate and feel grateful for and return the devotion of mr. magnet. this marjorie accepted and even elaborated his views, laid stress on his voluntary subjection, harped upon his goodness, brought her to kiss him. "i don't deserve all this love," this side of marjorie told magnet. "but i mean to learn to love you----" "my dear one!" cried magnet, and pressed her hand.... a third marjorie among the many was an altogether acuter and less agreeable person. she was a sprite of pure criticism, and in spite of the utmost efforts to suppress her, she declared night and day in the inner confidences of marjorie's soul that she did not believe in mr. magnet's old devotion at all. she was anti-magnet, a persistent insurgent. she was dreadfully unsettling. it was surely this marjorie that wouldn't let the fact of his baldness alone, and who discovered and insisted upon a curious unbeautiful flatness in his voice whenever he was doing his best to speak from the heart. and as for this devotion, what did it amount to? a persistent unimaginative besetting of marjorie, a growing air of ownership, an expansive, indulgent, smiling disposition to thwart and control. and he was always touching her! whenever he came near her she would wince at the freedoms a large, kind hand might take with her elbow or wrist, at a possible sudden, clumsy pat at some erring strand of hair. then there was an appraising satisfaction in his eye. on the third day of their engagement he began, quite abruptly, to call her "magsy." "we'll end this scandal of a girl pope," he said. "magsy magnet, you'll be--m.m. no women m.p.'s for _us_, magsy...." she became acutely critical of his intellectual quality. she listened with a new alertness to the conversations at the dinner-table, the bouts of wit with her father. she carried off utterances and witticism for maturer reflection. she was amazed to find how little they could withstand the tests and acids of her mind. so many things, such wide and interesting fields, he did not so much think about as cover with a large enveloping shallowness.... he came strolling around the vicarage into the garden one morning about eleven, though she had not expected him until lunch-time; and she was sitting with her feet tucked up on the aged but still practicable garden-seat reading shaw's "common sense of municipal trading." he came and leant over the back of the seat, and she looked up, said "good morning. isn't it perfectly lovely?" and indicated by a book still open that her interest in it remained alive. "what's the book, magsy?" he asked, took it out of her slightly resisting hand, closed it and read the title. "um," he said; "isn't this a bit stiff for little women's brains?" all the rebel marjories were up in arms at that. "dreadful word, 'municipal.' i _don't_ like it." he shook his head with a grimace of humorous distaste. "i suppose women have as good brains as men," said marjorie, "if it comes to that." "better," said magnet. "that's why they shouldn't trouble about horrid things like municipal and trading.... on a day like this!" "don't you think this sort of thing is interesting?" "oh!" he said, and flourished the book. "come! and besides--_shaw!_" "he makes a very good case." "but he's such a--mountebank." "does that matter? he isn't a mountebank there." "he's not sincere. i doubt if you had a serious book on municipal trading, magsy, whether you'd make head or tail of it. it's a stiff subject. shaw just gets his chance for a smart thing or so.... i'd rather you read a good novel." he really had the air of taking her reading in hand. "you think i ought not to read an intelligent book." "i think we ought to leave those things to the people who understand." "but we ought to understand." he smiled wisely. "there's a lot of things _you_ have to understand," he said, "nearer home than this." marjorie was ablaze now. "what a silly thing to say!" she cried, with an undergraduate's freedom. "really, you are talking nonsense! i read that book because it interests me. if i didn't, i should read something else. do you mean to suggest that i'm reading like a child, who holds a book upside down?" she was so plainly angry that he was taken aback. "i don't mean to suggest--" he began, and turned to greet the welcome presence, the interrogative eye of mrs. pope. "here we are!" he said, "having a quarrel!" "marjorie!" said mrs. pope. "oh, it's serious!" said mr. magnet, and added with a gleam: "it's about municipal trading!" mrs. pope knew the wicked little flicker in marjorie's eye better than mr. magnet. she had known it from the nursery, and yet she had never quite mastered its meaning. she had never yet realized it was marjorie, she had always regarded it as something marjorie, some other marjorie, ought to keep under control. so now she adopted a pacificatory tone. "oh! lovers' quarrels," she said, floating over the occasion. "lovers' quarrels. you mustn't ask _me_ to interfere!" marjorie, already a little ashamed of her heat, thought for an instant she ought to stand that, and then decided abruptly with a return to choler that she would not do so. she stood up, and held out her hand for her book. "mr. magnet," she said to her mother with remarkable force and freedom as she took it, "has been talking unutterable nonsense. i don't call that a lovers' quarrel--anyhow." then, confronted with a double astonishment, and having no more to say, she picked up her skirt quite unnecessarily, and walked with a heavenward chin indoors. "i'm afraid," explained mr. magnet, "i was a little too free with one of magsy's favourite authors." "which is the favourite author now?" asked mrs. pope, after a reflective pause, with a mother's indulgent smile. "shaw." he raised amused eyebrows. "it's just the age, i suppose." "she's frightfully loyal while it lasts," said mrs. pope. "no one dare say a word against them." "i think it's adorable of her," said mr. magnet--with an answering loyalty and gusto. § the aviation accident occurred while mrs. pope, her two eldest daughters, and mr. magnet were playing golf-croquet upon the vicarage lawn. it was a serene, hot afternoon, a little too hot to take a game seriously, and the four little figures moved slowly over the green and grouped and dispersed as the game required. mr. magnet was very fond of golf-croquet, he displayed a whimsical humour and much invention at this game, it was not too exacting physically; and he could make his ball jump into the air in the absurdest manner. occasionally he won a laugh from marjorie or daffy. no one else was in sight; the pseudo-twins and theodore and toupee were in the barn, and mr. pope was six miles away at wamping, lying prone, nibbling grass blades and watching a county cricket match, as every good englishman, who knows what is expected of him, loves to do.... click went ball and mallet, and then after a long interval, click. it seemed incredible that anything could possibly happen before tea. but this is no longer the world it was. suddenly this tranquil scene was slashed and rent by the sound and vision of a monoplane tearing across the heavens. a purring and popping arrested mr. magnet in mid jest, and the monster came sliding up the sky over the trees beside the church to the east, already near enough to look big, a great stiff shape, big buff sails stayed with glittering wire, and with two odd little wheels beneath its body. it drove up the sky, rising with a sort of upward heaving, until the croquet players could see the driver and a passenger perched behind him quite clearly. it passed a little to the right of the church tower and only a few yards above the level of the flagstaff, there wasn't fifty feet of clearance altogether, and as it did so marjorie could see both driver and passenger making hasty movements. it became immense and over-shadowing, and every one stood rigid as it swept across the sun above the vicarage chimneys. then it seemed to drop twenty feet or so abruptly, and then both the men cried out as it drove straight for the line of poplars between the shrubbery and the meadow. "oh, oh, oh!" cried mrs. pope and daffy. evidently the aviator was trying to turn sharply; the huge thing banked, but not enough, and came about and slipped away until its wing was slashing into the tree tops with a thrilling swish of leaves and the snapping of branches and stays. "run!" cried magnet, and danced about the lawn, and the three ladies rushed sideways as the whole affair slouched down on them. it came on its edge, hesitated whether to turn over as a whole, then crumpled, and amidst a volley of smashing and snapping came to rest amidst ploughed-up turf, a clamorous stench of petrol, and a cloud of dust and blue smoke within twenty yards of them. the two men had jumped to clear the engine, had fallen headlong, and were now both covered by the fabric of the shattered wing. it was all too spectacular for word or speech until the thing lay still. even then the croquet players stood passive for awhile waiting for something to happen. it took some seconds to reconcile their minds to this sudden loss of initiative in a monster that had been so recently and threateningly full of go. it seemed quite a long time before it came into marjorie's head that she ought perhaps to act in some way. she saw a tall young man wriggling on all fours from underneath the wreckage of fabric. he stared at her rather blankly. she went forward with a vague idea of helping him. he stood up, swayed doubtfully on his legs, turned, and became energetic, struggling mysteriously with the edge of the left wing. he gasped and turned fierce blue eyes over his shoulder. "help me to hold the confounded thing up!" he cried, with a touch of irritation in his voice at her attitude. marjorie at once seized the edge of the plane and pushed. the second man, in a peculiar button-shaped head-dress, was lying crumpled up underneath, his ear and cheek were bright with blood, and there was a streak of blood on the ground near his head. "that's right. can you hold it if i use only one hand?" marjorie gasped "yes," with a terrific weight as it seemed suddenly on her wrists. "right o," and the tall young man had thrust himself backwards under the plane until it rested on his back, and collared the prostrate man. "keep it up!" he said fiercely when marjorie threatened to give way. he seemed to assume that she was there to obey orders, and with much grunting and effort he had dragged his companion clear of the wreckage. the man's face was a mass of blood, and he was sickeningly inert to his companion's lugging. "let it go," said the tall young man, and marjorie thanked heaven as the broken wing flapped down again. she came helpfully to his side, and became aware of daffy and her mother a few paces off. magnet--it astonished her--was retreating hastily. but he had to go away because the sight of blood upset him--so much that it was always wiser for him to go away. "is he hurt?" cried mrs. pope. "we both are," said the tall young man, and then as though these other people didn't matter and he and marjorie were old friends, he said: "can we turn him over?" "i think so." marjorie grasped the damaged man's shoulder and got him over skilfully. "will you get some water?" said the tall young man to daffy and mrs. pope, in a way that sent daffy off at once for a pail. "he wants water," she said to the parlourmaid who was hurrying out of the house. the tall young man had gone down on his knees by his companion, releasing his neck, and making a hasty first examination of his condition. "the pneumatic cap must have saved his head," he said, throwing the thing aside. "lucky he had it. he can't be badly hurt. just rubbed his face along the ground. silly thing to have come as we did." he felt the heart, and tried the flexibility of an arm. "_that's_ all right," he said. he became judicial and absorbed over the problems of his friend's side. "um," he remarked. he knelt back and regarded marjorie for the first time. "thundering smash," he said. his face relaxed into an agreeable smile. "he only bought it last week." "is he hurt?" "rib, i think--or two ribs perhaps. stunned rather. all _this_--just his nose." he regarded marjorie and marjorie him for a brief space. he became aware of mrs. pope on his right hand. then at a clank behind, he turned round to see daphne advancing with a pail of water. the two servants were now on the spot, and the odd-job man, and the old lady who did out the church, and magnet hovered doubtfully in the distance. suddenly with shouts and barks of sympathetic glee the pseudo-twins, theodore and toupee shot out of the house. new thoughts were stirring in the young aviator. he rose, wincing a little as he did so. "i'm afraid i'm a little rude," he said. "i do hope your friend isn't hurt," said mrs. pope, feeling the duty of a hostess. "he's not hurt _much_--so far as i can see. haven't we made rather a mess of your lawn?" "oh, not at all!" said mrs. pope. "we have. if that is your gardener over there, it would be nice if he kept back the people who seem to be hesitating beyond those trees. there will be more presently. i'm afraid i must throw myself on your hands." he broke into a chuckle for a moment. "i have, you know. is it possible to get a doctor? my friend's not hurt so very much, but still he wants expert handling. he's sir rupert solomonson, from"--he jerked his head back--"over beyond tunbridge wells. my name's trafford." "i'm mrs. pope and these are my daughters." trafford bowed. "we just took the thing out for a lark," he said. marjorie had been regarding the prostrate man. his mouth was a little open, and he showed beautiful teeth. apart from the dry blood upon him he was not an ill-looking man. he was manifestly a jew, a square-rigged jew (you have remarked of course that there are square-rigged jews, whose noses are within bounds, and fore-and-aft jews, whose noses aren't), with not so much a bullet-head as a round-shot, cropped like the head of a capuchin monkey. suddenly she was down and had his head on her knee, with a quick movement that caught trafford's eye. "he's better," she said. "his eyelids flickered. daffy, bring the water." she had felt a queer little repugnance at first with this helpless man, but now that professional nurse who lurks in the composition of so many women, was uppermost. "give me your handkerchief," she said to trafford, and with daffy kneeling beside her and also interested, and mrs. pope a belated but more experienced and authoritative third, sir rupert was soon getting the best of attention. "wathall ..." said sir rupert suddenly, and tried again: "wathall." a third effort gave "wathall about, eh?" "if we could get him into the shade," said marjorie. "woosh," cried sir rupert. "weeeooo!" "that's all right," said trafford. "it's only a rib or two." "eeeeeyoooo!" said sir rupert. "exactly. we're going to carry you out of the glare." "don't touch me," said sir rupert. "gooo." it took some little persuasion before sir rupert would consent to be moved, and even then he was for a time--oh! crusty. but presently trafford and the two girls had got him into the shade of a large bush close to where in a circle of rugs and cushions the tea things lay prepared. there they camped. the helpful odd-job man was ordered to stave off intruders from the village; water, towels, pillows were forthcoming. mr. magnet reappeared as tentative assistance, and solomonson became articulate and brave and said he'd nothing but a stitch in his side. in his present position he wasn't at all uncomfortable. only he didn't want any one near him. he enforced that by an appealing smile. the twins, invited to fetch the doctor, declined, proffering theodore. they had conceived juvenile passions for the tall young man, and did not want to leave him. he certainly had a very nice face. so theodore after walking twice round the wreckage, tore himself away and departed on rom's bicycle. enquiry centred on solomonson for a time. his face, hair and neck were wet but no longer bloody, and he professed perfect comfort so long as he wasn't moved, and no one came too near him. he was very clear about that though perfectly polite, and scrutinized their faces to see if they were equally clear. satisfied upon this point he closed his eyes and spoke no more. he looked then like a capuchin monkey lost in pride. there came a pause. every one was conscious of having risen to an emergency and behaved well under unusual circumstances. the young man's eye rested on the adjacent tea-things, lacking nothing but the coronation of the teapot. "why not," he remarked, "have tea?" "if you think your friend----" began mrs. pope. "oh! _he's_ all right. aren't you, solomonson? there's nothing more now until the doctor." "only want to be left alone," said solomonson, and closed his heavy eyelids again. mrs. pope told the maids, with an air of dismissal, to get tea. "we can keep an eye on him," said trafford. marjorie surveyed her first patient with a pretty unconscious mixture of maternal gravity and girlish interest, and the twins to avoid too openly gloating upon the good looks of trafford, chose places and secured cushions round the tea-things, calculating to the best of their ability how they might secure the closest proximity to him. mr. magnet and toupee had gone to stare at the monoplane; they were presently joined by the odd-job man in an interrogative mood. "pretty complete smash, sir!" said the odd-job man, and then perceiving heads over the hedge by the churchyard, turned back to his duty of sentinel. daffy thought of the need of more cups and plates and went in to get them, and mrs. pope remarked that she did hope sir rupert was not badly hurt.... "extraordinary all this is," remarked mr. trafford. "now, here we were after lunch, twenty miles away--smoking cigars and with no more idea of having tea with you than--i was going to say--flying. but that's out of date now. then we just thought we'd try the thing.... like a dream." he addressed himself to marjorie: "i never feel that life is quite real until about three days after things have happened. never. two hours ago i had not the slightest intention of ever flying again." "but haven't you flown before?" asked mrs. pope. "not much. i did a little at sheppey, but it's so hard for a poor man to get his hands on a machine. and here was solomonson, with this thing in his hangar, eating its head off. let's take it out," i said, "and go once round the park. and here we are.... i thought it wasn't wise for him to come...." sir rupert, without opening his eyes, was understood to assent. "do you know," said trafford, "the sight of your tea makes me feel frightfully hungry." "i don't think the engine's damaged?" he said cheerfully, "do you?" as magnet joined them. "the ailerons are in splinters, and the left wing's not much better. but that's about all except the wheels. one falls so much lighter than you might suppose--from the smash.... lucky it didn't turn over. then, you know, the engine comes on the top of you, and you're done." § the doctor arrived after tea, with a bag and a stethoscope in a small coffin-like box, and the popes and mr. magnet withdrew while sir rupert was carefully sounded, tested, scrutinized, questioned, watched and examined in every way known to medical science. the outcome of the conference was presently communicated to the popes by mr. trafford and the doctor. sir rupert was not very seriously injured, but he was suffering from concussion and shock, two of his ribs were broken and his wrist sprained, unless perhaps one of the small bones was displaced. he ought to be bandaged up and put to bed.... "couldn't we--" said mrs. pope, but the doctor assured her his own house was quite the best place. there sir rupert could stay for some days. at present the cross-country journey over the downs or by the south eastern railway would be needlessly trying and painful. he would with the popes' permission lie quietly where he was for an hour or so, and then the doctor would come with a couple of men and a carrying bed he had, and take him off to his own house. there he would be, as mr. trafford said, "as right as ninepence," and mr. trafford could put up either at the red lion with mr. magnet or in the little cottage next door to the doctor. (mr. trafford elected for the latter as closer to his friend.) as for the smashed aeroplane, telegrams would be sent at once to sir rupert's engineers at chesilbury, and they would have all that cleared away by mid-day to-morrow.... the doctor departed; sir rupert, after stimulants, closed his eyes, and mr. trafford seated himself at the tea-things for some more cake, as though introduction by aeroplane was the most regular thing in the world. he had very pleasant and easy manners, an entire absence of self-consciousness, and a quick talkative disposition that made him very rapidly at home with everybody. he described all the sensations of flight, his early lessons and experiments, and in the utmost detail the events of the afternoon that had led to this disastrous adventure. he made his suggestion of "trying the thing" seem the most natural impulse in the world. the bulk of the conversation fell on him; mr. magnet, save for the intervention of one or two jests, was quietly observant; the rest were well disposed to listen. and as mr. trafford talked his eye rested ever and again on marjorie with the faintest touch of scrutiny and perplexity, and she, too, found a curious little persuasion growing up in her mind that somewhere, somehow, she and he had met and had talked rather earnestly. but how and where eluded her altogether.... they had sat for an hour--the men from the doctor's seemed never coming--when mr. pope returned unexpectedly from his cricket match, which had ended a little prematurely in a rot on an over-dry wicket. he was full of particulars of the day's play, and how wiper had got a most amazing catch and held it, though he fell; how jenks had deliberately bowled at a man's head, he believed, and little gibbs thrown a man out from slip. he was burning to tell all this in the utmost detail to magnet and his family, so that they might at least share the retrospect of his pleasure. he had thought out rather a good pun on wiper, and he was naturally a little thwarted to find all this good, rich talk crowded out by a more engrossing topic. at the sight of a stranger grouped in a popular manner beside the tea-things, he displayed a slight acerbity, which was if anything increased by the discovery of a prostrate person with large brown eyes and an expression of oriental patience and disdain, in the shade of a bush near by. at first he seemed scarcely to grasp mrs. pope's explanations, and regarded sir rupert with an expression that bordered on malevolence. then, when his attention was directed to the smashed machine upon the lawn, he broke out into a loud indignant: "good god! what next?" he walked towards the wreckage, disregarding mr. trafford beside him. "a man can't go away from his house for an hour!" he complained. "i can assure you we did all we could to prevent it," said trafford. "ought never to have had it to prevent," said mr. pope. "is your friend hurt?" "a rib--and shock," said trafford. "well--he deserves it," said mr. pope. "rather than launch myself into the air in one of those infernal things, i'd be stood against a wall and shot." "tastes differ, of course," said trafford, with unruffled urbanity. "you'll have all this cleared away," said mr. pope. "mechanics--oh! a complete break-down party--are speeding to us in fast motors," said trafford. "thanks to the kindness of your domestic in taking a telegram for me." "hope they won't kill any one," said mr. pope, and just for a moment the conversation hung fire. "and your friend?" he asked. "he goes in the next ten minutes--well, whenever the litter comes from the doctor's. poor old solomonson!" "solomonson?" "sir rupert." "oh!" said mr. pope. "is that the pigmentation solomonson?" "i believe he does do some beastly company of that sort," said trafford. "isn't it amazing we didn't smash our engine?" sir rupert solomonson was indeed a familiar name to mr. pope. he had organized the exploitation of a number of pigment and bye-product patents, and the ordinary and deferred shares of his syndicate has risen to so high a price as to fill mr. pope with the utmost confidence in their future; indeed he had bought considerably, withdrawing capital to do so from an argentine railway whose stock had awakened his distaste and a sort of moral aversion by slumping heavily after a bad wheat and linseed harvest. this discovery did much to mitigate his first asperity, his next remark to trafford was almost neutral, and he was even asking sir rupert whether he could do anything to make him comfortable, when the doctor returned with a litter, borne by four hastily compiled bearers. § some brightness seemed to vanish when the buoyant mr. trafford, still undauntedly cheerful, limped off after his more injured friend, and disappeared through the gate. marjorie found herself in a world whose remaining manhood declined to see anything but extreme annoyance in this gay, exciting rupture of the afternoon. "good god!" said mr. pope. "what next? what next?" "registration, i hope," said mr. magnet,--"and relegation to the desert of sahara." "one good thing about it," said mr. pope--"it all wastes petrol. and when the petrol supply gives out--they're done." "certainly we might all have been killed!" said mrs. pope, feeling she had to bear her witness against their visitors, and added: "if we hadn't moved out of the way, that is." there was a simultaneous movement towards the shattered apparatus, about which a small contingent of villagers, who had availed themselves of the withdrawal of the sentinel, had now assembled. "look at it!" said mr. pope, with bitter hostility. "look at it!" everyone had anticipated his command. "they'll never come to anything," said mr. pope, after a pause of silent hatred. "but they _have_ to come to something," said marjorie. "they've come to smash!" said mr. magnet, with the true humorist's air. "but consider the impudence of this invasion, the wild--objectionableness of it!" "they're nasty things," said mr. magnet. "nasty things!" a curious spirit of opposition stirred in marjorie. it seemed to her that men who play golf-croquet and watch cricket matches have no business to contemn men who risk their lives in the air. she sought for some controversial opening. "isn't the engine rather wonderful?" she remarked. mr. magnet regarded the engine with his head a little on one side. "it's the usual sort," he said. "there weren't engines like that twenty years ago." "there weren't people like _you_ twenty years ago," said mr. magnet, smiling wisely and kindly, and turned his back on the thing. mr. pope followed suit. he was filled with the bitter thought that he would never now be able to tell the history of the remarkable match he had witnessed. it was all spoilt for him--spoilt for ever. everything was disturbed and put out. "they've left us our tennis lawn," he said, with a not unnatural resentment passing to invitation. "what do you say, magnet? now you've begun the game you must keep it up?" "if marjorie, or mrs. pope, or daffy...?" said magnet. mrs. pope declared the house required her. and so with the gravest apprehensions, and an insincere compliment to their father's energy, daffy and marjorie made up a foursome for that healthy and invigorating game. but that evening mr. pope got his serve well into the bay of the sagging net almost at once, and with marjorie in the background taking anything he left her, he won quite easily, and everything became pleasant again. magnet gloated upon marjorie and served her like a missionary giving bibles to heathen children, he seemed always looking at her instead of the ball, and except for a slight disposition on the part of daffy to slash, nothing could have been more delightful. and at supper mr. pope, rather crushing his wife's attempt to recapitulate the more characteristic sayings and doings of sir rupert and his friend, did after all succeed in giving every one a very good idea indeed of the more remarkable incidents of the cricket match at wamping, and made the pun he had been accustomed to use upon the name of wiper in a new and improved form. a general talk about cricket and the immense good of cricket followed. mr. pope said he would make cricket-playing compulsory for every english boy. everyone it seemed to marjorie was forgetting that dark shape athwart the lawn, and all the immense implication of its presence, with a deliberate and irrational skill, and she noted that the usual move towards the garden at the end of the evening was not made. § in the night time marjorie had a dream that she was flying about in the world on a monoplane with mr. trafford as a passenger. then mr. trafford disappeared, and she was flying about alone with a curious uneasy feeling that in a minute or so she would be unable any longer to manage the machine. then her father and mr. magnet appeared very far below, walking about and disapproving of her. mr. magnet was shaking his head very, very sagely, and saying: "rather a stiff job for little marjorie," and her father was saying she would be steadier when she married. and then, she wasn't clear how, the engine refused to work until her bills were paid, and she began to fall, and fall, and fall towards mr. magnet. she tried frantically to pay her bills. she was falling down the fronts of skyscrapers and precipices--and mr. magnet was waiting for her below with a quiet kindly smile that grew wider and wider and wider.... she woke up palpitating. § next morning a curious restlessness came upon marjorie. conceivably it was due to the absence of magnet, who had gone to london to deliver his long promised address on the characteristics of english humour to the _literati_ club. conceivably she missed his attentions. but it crystallized out in the early afternoon into the oddest form, a powerful craving to go to the little town of pensting, five miles off, on the other side of buryhamstreet, to buy silk shoelaces. she decided to go in the donkey cart. she communicated her intention to her mother, but she did not communicate an equally definite intention to be reminded suddenly of sir rupert solomonson as she was passing the surgery, and make an inquiry on the spur of the moment--it wouldn't surely be anything but a kindly and justifiable impulse to do that. she might see mr. trafford perhaps, but there was no particular harm in that. it is also to be remarked that finding theodore a little disposed to encumber her vehicle with his presence she expressed her delight at being released from the need of going, and abandoned the whole expedition to him--knowing as she did perfectly well that if theodore hated anything more than navigating the donkey cart alone, it was going unprotected into a shop to buy articles of feminine apparel--until he chucked the whole project and went fishing--if one can call it fishing when there are no fish and the fisherman knows it--in the decadent ornamental water. and it is also to be remarked that as marjorie approached the surgery she was seized with an absurd and powerful shyness, so that not only did she not call at the surgery, she did not even look at the surgery, she gazed almost rigidly straight ahead, telling herself, however, that she merely deferred that kindly impulse until she had bought her laces. and so it happened that about half a mile beyond the end of buryhamstreet she came round a corner upon trafford, and by a singular fatality he also was driving a donkey, or, rather, was tracing a fan-like pattern on the road with a donkey's hoofs. it was a very similar donkey to marjorie's, but the vehicle was a governess cart, and much smarter than marjorie's turn-out. his ingenuous face displayed great animation at the sight of her, and as she drew alongside he hailed her with an almost unnatural ease of manner. "hullo!" he cried. "i'm taking the air. you seem to be able to drive donkeys forward. how do you do it? i can't. never done anything so dangerous in my life before. i've just been missed by two motor cars, and hung for a terrible minute with my left wheel on the very verge of an unfathomable ditch. i could hear the little ducklings far, far below, and bits of mould dropping. i tried to count before the splash. aren't you--_white?_" "but why are you doing it?" "one must do something. i'm bandaged up and can't walk. it hurt my leg more than i knew--your doctor says. solomonson won't talk of anything but how he feels, and _i_ don't care a rap how he feels. so i got this thing and came out with it." marjorie made her inquiries. there came a little pause. "some day no one will believe that men were ever so foolish as to trust themselves to draught animals," he remarked. "hullo! look out! the horror of it!" a large oil van--a huge drum on wheels--motor-driven, had come round the corner, and after a preliminary and quite insufficient hoot, bore down upon them, and missing trafford as it seemed by a miracle, swept past. both drivers did wonderful things with whips and reins, and found themselves alone in the road again, with their wheels locked and an indefinite future. "i leave the situation to you," said trafford. "or shall we just sit and talk until the next motor car kills us?" "we ought to make an effort," said marjorie, cheerfully, and descended to lead the two beasts. assisted by an elderly hedger, who had been taking a disregarded interest in them for some time, she separated the wheels and got the two donkeys abreast. the old hedger's opinion of their safety on the king's highway was expressed by his action rather than his words; he directed the beasts towards a shady lane that opened at right angles to the road. he stood by their bridles while marjorie resumed her seat. "it seems to me clearly a case for compromise," said trafford. "you want to go that way, i want to go that way. let us both go _this_ way. it is by such arrangements that civilization becomes possible." he dismissed the hedger generously and resumed his reins. "shall we race?" he asked. "with your leg?" she inquired. "no; with the donkeys. i say, this _is_ rather a lark. at first i thought it was both dangerous and dull. but things have changed. i am in beastly high spirits. i feel there will be a cry before night; but still, i am----i wanted the companionship of an unbroken person. it's so jolly to meet you again." "again?" "after the year before last." "after the year before last?" "you didn't know," said trafford, "i had met you before? how aggressive i must have seemed! well, _i_ wasn't quite clear. i spent the greater part of last night--my ankle being foolish in the small hours--in trying to remember how and where." "i don't remember," said marjorie. "i remembered you very distinctly, and some things i thought about you, but not where it had happened. then in the night i got it. it _is_ a puzzle, isn't it? you see, i was wearing a black gown, and i had been out of the sunlight for some months--and my eye, i remember it acutely, was bandaged. i'm usually bandaged somewhere. 'i was a king in babylon and you were a christian slave' --i mean a candidate." marjorie remembered suddenly. "you're professor trafford." "not in this atmosphere. but i am at the romeike college. and as soon as i recalled examining you i remembered it--minutely. you were intelligent, though unsound--about cryo-hydrates it was. ah, you remember me now. as most young women are correct by rote and unintelligent in such questions, and as it doesn't matter a rap about anything of that sort, whether you are correct or not, as long as the mental gesture is right----" he paused for a moment, as though tired of his sentence. "i remembered you." he proceeded in his easy and detached manner, that seemed to make every topic possible, to tell her his first impressions of her, and show how very distinctly indeed he remembered her. "you set me philosophizing. i'd never examined a girls' school before, and i was suddenly struck by the spectacle of the fifty of you. what's going to become of them all?" "i thought," he went on, "how bright you were, and how keen and eager you were--_you_, i mean, in particular--and just how certain it was your brightness and eagerness would be swallowed up by some silly ordinariness or other--stuffy marriage or stuffy domestic duties. the old, old story--done over again with a sort of threadbare badness. (nothing to say against it if it's done well.) i got quite sentimental and pathetic about life's breach of faith with women. odd, isn't it, how one's mind runs on. but that's what i thought. it's all come back to me." marjorie's bright, clear eye came round to him. "i don't see very much wrong with the lot of women," she reflected. "things are different nowadays. anyhow----" she paused. "you don't want to be a man?" "_no!_" she was emphatic. "some of us cut more sharply at life than you think," he said, plumbing her unspoken sense. she had never met a man before who understood just how a girl can feel the slow obtuseness of his sex. it was almost as if he had found her out at something. "oh," she said, "perhaps you do," and looked at him with an increased interest. "i'm half-feminine, i believe," he said. "for instance, i've got just a woman's joy in textures and little significant shapes. i know how you feel about that. i can spend hours, even now, in crystal gazing--i don't mean to see some silly revelation of some silly person's proceedings somewhere, but just for the things themselves. i wonder if you have ever been in the natural history museum at south kensington, and looked at ruskin's crystal collection? i saw it when i was a boy, and it became--i can't help the word--an obsession. the inclusions like moss and like trees, and all sorts of fantastic things, and the cleavages and enclosures with little bubbles, and the lights and shimmer--what were we talking about? oh, about the keen way your feminine perceptions cut into things. and yet somehow i was throwing contempt on the feminine intelligence. i don't do justice to the order of my thoughts. never mind. we've lost the thread. but i wish you knew my mother." he went on while marjorie was still considering the proper response to this. "you see, i'm her only son and she brought me up, and we know each other--oh! very well. she helps with my work. she understands nearly all of it. she makes suggestions. and to this day i don't know if she's the most original or the most parasitic of creatures. and that's the way with all women and girls, it seems to me. you're as critical as light, and as undiscriminating.... i say, do i strike you as talking nonsense?" "not a bit," said marjorie. "but you do go rather fast." "i know," he admitted. "but somehow you excite me. i've been with solomonson a week, and he's dull at all times. it was that made me take out that monoplane of his. but it did him no good." he paused. "they told me after the exam.," said marjorie, "you knew more about crystallography--than anyone." "does that strike you as a dull subject?" "no," said marjorie, in a tone that invited justifications. "it isn't. i think--naturally, that the world one goes into when one studies molecular physics is quite the most beautiful of wonderlands.... i can assure you i work sometimes like a man who is exploring a magic palace.... do you know anything of molecular physics?" "you examined me," said marjorie. "the sense one has of exquisite and wonderful rhythms--just beyond sound and sight! and there's a taunting suggestion of its being all there, displayed and confessed, if only one were quick enough to see it. why, for instance, when you change the composition of a felspar almost imperceptibly, do the angles change? what's the correspondence between the altered angle and the substituted atom? why does this bit of clear stuff swing the ray of light so much out of its path, and that swing it more? then what happens when crystals gutter down, and go into solution. the endless launching of innumerable little craft. think what a clear solution must be if only one had ultra-microscopic eyes and could see into it, see the extraordinary patternings, the swimming circling constellations. and then the path of a ray of polarized light beating through it! it takes me like music. do you know anything of the effects of polarized light, the sight of a slice of olivine-gabbro for instance between crossed nicols?" "i've seen some rock sections," said marjorie. "i forget the names of the rocks." "the colours?" "oh yes, the colours." "is there anything else so rich and beautiful in all the world? and every different mineral and every variety of that mineral has a different palette of colours, a different scheme of harmonies--and is telling you something." "if only you understood." "exactly. all the ordinary stuff of life--you know--the carts and motor cars and dusty roads and--cinder sifting, seems so blank to me--with that persuasion of swing and subtlety beneath it all. as if the whole world was fire and crystal and aquiver--with some sort of cotton wrappers thrown over it...." "dust sheets," said marjorie. "i know." "or like a diamond painted over!" "with that sort of grey paint, very full of body--that lasts." "yes." he smiled at her. "i can't help apologetics. most people think a professor of science is just----" "a professor of science." "yes. something all pedantries and phrases. i want to clear my character. as though it is foolish to follow a vortex ring into a vacuum, and wise to whack at a dirty golf ball on a suburban railway bank. oh, their golf! under high heaven!... you don't play golf, do you, by any chance?" "only the woman's part," said marjorie. "and they despise us," he said. "solomonson can hardly hide how he despises us. nothing is more wonderful than the way these people go on despising us who do research, who have this fever of curiosity, who won't be content with--what did you call those wrappers?" "dust sheets." "yes, dust sheets. what a life! swaddling bands, dust sheets and a shroud! you know, research and discovery aren't nearly so difficult as people think--if only you have the courage to say a thing or try a thing now and then that it isn't usual to say or try. and after all----" he went off at a tangent, "these confounded ordinary people aren't justified in their contempt. we keep on throwing them things over our shoulders, electric bells, telephones, marconigrams. look at the beautiful electric trains that come towering down the london streets at nightfall, ships of light in full sail! twenty years ago they were as impossible as immortality. we conquer the seas for these--golfers, puts arms in their hands that will certainly blow them all to bits if ever the idiots go to war with them, come sailing out of the air on them----" he caught marjorie's eye and stopped. "_falling_ out of the air on them," corrected marjorie very softly. "that was only an accident," said mr. trafford.... so they began a conversation in the lane where the trees met overhead that went on and went on like a devious path in a shady wood, and touched upon all manner of things.... § in the end quite a number of people were aggrieved by this dialogue, in the lane that led nowhither.... sir rupert solomonson was the first to complain. trafford had been away "three mortal hours." no one had come near him, not a soul, and there hadn't been even a passing car to cheer his ear. sir rupert admitted he had to be quiet. "but not so _damned_ quiet." "i'd have been glad," said sir rupert, "if a hen had laid an egg and clucked a bit. you might have thought there had been a resurrection or somethin', and cleared off everybody. lord! it was deadly. i'd have sung out myself if it hadn't been for these infernal ribs...." mrs. pope came upon the affair quite by accident. "well, marjorie," she said as she poured tea for the family, "did you get your laces?" "never got there, mummy," said marjorie, and paused fatally. "didn't get there!" said mrs. pope. "that's worse than theodore! wouldn't the donkey go, poor dear?" there was nothing to colour about, and yet marjorie felt the warm flow in neck and cheek and brow. she threw extraordinary quantities of candour into her manner. "i had a romantic adventure," she said rather quietly. "i was going to tell you." (sensation.) "you see it was like this," said marjorie. "i ran against mr. trafford...." she drank tea, and pulled herself together for a lively description of the wheel-locking and the subsequent conversation, a bright ridiculous account which made the affair happen by implication on the high road and not in a byeway, and was adorned with every facetious ornament that seemed likely to get a laugh from the children. but she talked rather fast, and she felt she forced the fun a little. however, it amused the children all right, and theodore created a diversion by choking with his tea. from first to last marjorie was extremely careful to avoid the affectionate scrutiny of her mother's eye. and had this lasted the _whole_ afternoon? asked mrs. pope. "oh, they'd talked for half-an-hour," said marjorie, or more, and had driven back very slowly together. "he did all the talking. you saw what he was yesterday. and the donkeys seemed too happy together to tear them away." "but what was it all about?" asked daffy curious. "he asked after you, daffy, most affectionately," said marjorie, and added, "several times." (though trafford had as a matter of fact displayed a quite remarkable disregard of all her family.) "and," she went on, getting a plausible idea at last, "he explained all about aeroplanes. and all that sort of thing. has daddy gone to wamping for some more cricket?..." (but none of this was lost on mrs. pope.) § mr. magnet's return next day was heralded by nearly two-thirds of a column in the _times_. the lecture on the characteristics of humour had evidently been quite a serious affair, and a very imposing list of humorists and of prominent people associated with their industry had accepted the hospitality of the _literati_. marjorie ran her eyes over the chairman's flattering introduction, then with a queer faint flavour of hostility she reached her destined husband's utterance. she seemed to hear the flat full tones of his voice as she read, and automatically the desiccated sentences of the reporter filled out again into those rich quietly deliberate unfoldings of sound that were already too familiar to her ear. mr. magnet had begun with modest disavowals. "there was a story, he said,"--so the report began--"whose hallowed antiquity ought to protect it from further exploitation, but he was tempted to repeat it because it offered certain analogies to the present situation. there were three characters in the story, a bluebottle and two scotsmen. (laughter.) the bluebottle buzzed on the pane, otherwise a profound silence reigned. this was broken by one of the scotsmen trying to locate the bluebottle with zoölogical exactitude. said this scotsman: 'sandy, i am thinking if yon fly is a birdie or a beastie.' the other replied: 'man, don't spoil good whiskey with religious conversation.' (laughter.) he was tempted, mr. magnet resumed, to ask himself and them why it was that they should spoil the aftereffects of a most excellent and admirably served dinner by an academic discussion on british humour. at first he was pained by the thought that they proposed to temper their hospitality with a demand for a speech. a closer inspection showed that he was to introduce a debate and that others were to speak, and that was a new element in their hospitality. further, he was permitted to choose the subject so that he could bring their speeches within the range of his comprehension. (laughter.) his was an easy task. he could make it easier; the best thing to do would be to say nothing at all. (laughter.)" for a space the reporter seemed to have omitted largely--perhaps he was changing places with his relief--and the next sentence showed mr. magnet engaged as it were in revising a _hortus siccus_ of jokes. "there was the humour of facts and situations," he was saying, "or that humour of expression for which there was no human responsibility, as in the case of irish humour; he spoke of the humour of the soil which found its noblest utterance in the bull. humour depended largely on contrast. there was a humour of form and expression which had many local varieties. american humour had been characterized by exaggeration, the suppression of some link in the chain of argument or narrative, and a wealth of simile and metaphor which had been justly defined as the poetry of a pioneer race."... marjorie's attention slipped its anchor, and caught lower down upon: "in england there was a near kinship between laughter and tears; their mental relations were as close as their physical. abroad this did not appear to be the case. it was different in france. but perhaps on the whole it would be better to leave the humour of france and what some people still unhappily chose to regard as matters open to controversy--he referred to choice of subject--out of their discussion altogether. ('hear, hear,' and cheers.)"... attention wandered again. then she remarked:--it reminded her in some mysterious way of a dropped hairpin--"it was noticeable that the pun to a great extent had become démodé...." at this point the flight of marjorie's eyes down the column was arrested by her father's hand gently but firmly taking possession of the _times_. she yielded it without reluctance, turned to the breakfast table, and never resumed her study of the social relaxations of humorists.... indeed she forgot it. her mind was in a state of extreme perplexity. she didn't know what to make of herself or anything or anybody. her mind was full of trafford and all that he had said and done and all that he might have said and done, and it was entirely characteristic that she could not think of magnet in any way at all except as a bar-like shadow that lay across all her memories and all the bright possibilities of this engaging person. she thought particularly of the mobile animation of his face, the keen flash of enthusiasm in his thoughts and expressions.... it was perhaps more characteristic of her time than of her that she did not think she was dealing so much with a moral problem as an embarrassment, and that she hadn't as yet felt the first stirrings of self-reproach for the series of disingenuous proceedings that had rendered the yesterday's encounter possible. but she was restless, wildly restless as a bird whose nest is taken. she could abide nowhere. she fretted through the morning, avoided daffy in a marked manner, and inflicted a stinging and only partially merited rebuke upon theodore for slouching, humping and--of all trite grievances!--not washing behind his ears. as if any chap washed behind his ears! she thought tennis with the pseudo-twins might assuage her, but she broke off after losing two sets; and then she went into the garden to get fresh flowers, and picked a large bunch and left them on the piano until her mother reminded her of them. she tried a little shaw. she struggled with an insane wish to walk through the wood behind the village and have an accidental meeting with someone who couldn't possibly appear but whom it would be quite adorable to meet. anyhow she conquered that. she had a curious and rather morbid indisposition to go after lunch to the station and meet mr. magnet as her mother wished her to do, in order to bring him straight to the vicarage to early tea, but here again reason prevailed and she went. mr. magnet arrived by the . , and to marjorie's eye his alighting presence had an effect of being not so much covered with laurels as distended by them. his face seemed whiter and larger than ever. he waved a great handful of newspapers. "hullo, magsy!" he said. "they've given me a thumping press. i'm nearer swelled head than i've ever been, so mind how you touch me!" "we'll take it down at croquet," said marjorie. "they've cleared that thing away?" "and made up the lawn like a billiard table," she said. "that makes for skill," he said waggishly. "i shall save my head after all." for a moment he seemed to loom towards kissing her, but she averted this danger by a business-like concern for his bag. he entrusted this to a porter, and reverted to the triumph of overnight so soon as they were clear of the station. he was overflowing with kindliness towards his fellow humorists, who had appeared in force and very generously at the banquet, and had said the most charming things--some of which were in one report and some in another, and some the reporters had missed altogether--some of the kindliest. "it's a pleasant feeling to think that a lot of good fellows think you are a good fellow," said mr. magnet. he became solicitous for her. how had she got on while he was away? she asked him how one was likely to get on at buryhamstreet; monoplanes didn't fall every day, and as she said that it occurred to her she was behaving meanly. but he was going on to his next topic before she could qualify. "i've got something in my pocket," he remarked, and playfully: "guess." she did, but she wouldn't. she had a curious sinking of the heart. "i want you to see it before anyone else," he said. "then if you don't like it, it can go back. it's a sapphire." he was feeling nervously in his pockets and then the little box was in her hand. she hesitated to open it. it made everything so dreadfully concrete. and this time the sense of meanness was altogether acuter. he'd bought this in london; he'd brought it down, hoping for her approval. yes, it was--horrid. but what was she to do? "it's--awfully pretty," she said with the glittering symbol in her hand, and indeed he had gone to one of those artistic women who are reviving and improving upon the rich old roman designs. "it's so beautifully made." "i'm so glad you like it. you really _do_ like it?" "i don't deserve it." "oh! but you _do_ like it?" "enormously." "ah! i spent an hour in choosing it." she could see him. she felt as though she had picked his pocket. "only i don't deserve it, mr. magnet. indeed i don't. i feel i am taking it on false pretences." "nonsense, magsy. nonsense! slip it on your finger, girl." "but i don't," she insisted. he took the box from her, pocketed it and seized her hand. she drew it away from him. "no!" she said. "i feel like a cheat. you know, i don't--i'm sure i don't love----" "i'll love enough for two," he said, and got her hand again. "no!" he said at her gesture, "you'll wear it. why shouldn't you?" and so marjorie came back along the vicarage avenue with his ring upon her hand. and mr. pope was evidently very glad to see him.... the family was still seated at tea upon rugs and wraps, and still discussing humorists at play, when professor trafford appeared, leaning on a large stick and limping, but resolute, by the church gate. "pish!" said mr. pope. marjorie tried not to reveal a certain dismay, there was dumb, rich approval in daphne's eyes, and the pleasure of theodore and the pseudo-twins was only too scandalously evident. "hoo-ray!" said theodore, with ill-concealed relief. mrs. pope was the incarnate invocation of tact as trafford drew near. "i hope," he said, with obvious insincerity, "i don't invade you. but solomonson is frightfully concerned and anxious about your lawn, and whether his men cleared it up properly and put things right." his eye went about the party and rested on marjorie. "how are you?" he said, in a friendly voice. "well, we seem to have got our croquet lawn back," said mr. pope. "and our nerves are recovering. how is sir rupert?" "a little fractious," said trafford, with the ghost of a smile. "you'll take some tea?" said mrs. pope in the pause that followed. "thank you," said trafford and sat down instantly. "i saw your jolly address in the _standard_," he said to magnet. "i haven't read anything so amusing for some time." "rom dear," said mrs. pope, "will you take the pot in and get some fresh tea?" mr. trafford addressed himself to the flattery of magnet with considerable skill. he had detected a lurking hostility in the eyes of the two gentlemen that counselled him to propitiate them if he meant to maintain his footing in the vicarage, and now he talked to them almost exclusively and ignored the ladies modestly but politely in the way that seems natural and proper in a british middle-class house of the better sort. but as he talked chiefly of the improvement of motor machinery that had recently been shown at the engineering exhibition, he did not make that headway with marjorie's father that he had perhaps anticipated. mr. pope fumed quietly for a time, and then suddenly spoke out. "i'm no lover of machines," he said abruptly, slashing across mr. trafford's description. "all our troubles began with villainous saltpetre. i'm an old-fashioned man with a nose--and a neck, and i don't want the one offended or the other broken. no, don't ask me to be interested in your valves and cylinders. what do you say, magnet? it starts machinery in my head to hear about them...." on such occasions as this when mr. pope spoke out, his horror of an anti-climax or any sort of contradiction was apt to bring the utterance to a culmination not always to be distinguished from a flight. and now he rose to his feet as he delivered himself. "who's for a game of tennis?" he said, "in this last uncontaminated patch of air? i and marjorie will give you a match, daffy--if magnet isn't too tired to join you." daffy looked at marjorie for an instant. "we'll want you, theodore, to look after the balls in the potatoes," said mr. pope lest that ingenuous mind should be corrupted behind his back.... mrs. pope found herself left to entertain a slightly disgruntled trafford. rom and syd hovered on the off chance of notice, at the corner of the croquet lawn nearest the tea things. mrs. pope had already determined to make certain little matters clearer than they appeared to be to this agreeable but superfluous person, and she was greatly assisted by his opening upon the subject of her daughters. "jolly tennis looks," he said. "don't they?" said mrs. pope. "i think it is such a graceful game for a girl." mr. trafford glanced at mrs. pope's face, but her expression was impenetrable. "they both like it and play it so well," she said. "their father is so skillful and interested in games. marjorie tells me you were her examiner a year or so ago." "yes. she struck my memory--her work stood out." "of course she is clever," said mrs. pope. "or we shouldn't have sent her to oxbridge. there she's doing quite well--quite well. everyone says so. i don't know, of course, if mr. magnet will let her finish there." "mr. magnet?" "she's just engaged to him. of course she's frightfully excited about it, and naturally he wants her to come away and marry. there's very little excuse for a long engagement. no." her voice died in a musical little note, and she seemed to be scrutinizing the tennis with an absorbed interest. "they've got new balls," she said, as if to herself. trafford had rolled over, and she fancied she detected a change in his voice when it came. "isn't it rather a waste not to finish a university career?" he said. "oh, it wouldn't be wasted. of course a girl like that will be hand and glove with her husband. she'll be able to help him with the scientific side of his jokes and all that. i sometimes wish it had been daffy who had gone to college though. i sometimes think we've sacrificed daffy a little. she's not the bright quickness of marjorie, but there's something quietly solid about her mind--something _stable_. perhaps i didn't want her to go away from me.... mr. magnet is doing wonders at the net. he's just begun to play--to please marjorie. don't you think he's a dreadfully amusing man, mr. trafford? he says such _quiet_ things." § the effect of this _éclaircissement_ upon mr. trafford was not what it should have been. properly he ought to have realized at once that marjorie was for ever beyond his aspirations, and if he found it too difficult to regard her with equanimity, then he ought to have shunned her presence. but instead, after his first shock of incredulous astonishment, his spirit rose in a rebellion against arranged facts that was as un-english as it was ungentlemanly. he went back to solomonson with a mood of thoughtful depression giving place to a growing passion of indignation. he presented it to himself in a generalized and altruistic form. "what the deuce is the good of all this talk of eugenics," he asked himself aloud, "if they are going to hand over that shining girl to that beastly little area sneak?" he called mr. magnet a "beastly little area sneak!" nothing could show more clearly just how much he had contrived to fall in love with marjorie during his brief sojourn in buryhamstreet and the acuteness of his disappointment, and nothing could be more eloquent of his forcible and undisciplined temperament. and out of ten thousand possible abusive epithets with which his mind was no doubt stored, this one, i think, had come into his head because of the alert watchfulness with which mr. magnet followed a conversation, as he waited his chance for some neat but brilliant flash of comment.... trafford, like marjorie, was another of those undisciplined young people our age has produced in such significant quantity. he was just six-and-twenty, but the facts that he was big of build, had as an only child associated much with grown-up people, and was already a conspicuous success in the world of micro-chemical research, had given him the self-reliance and assurance of a much older man. he had still to come his croppers and learn most of the important lessons in life, and, so far, he wasn't aware of it. he was naturally clean-minded, very busy and interested in his work, and on remarkably friendly and confidential terms with his mother who kept house for him, and though he had had several small love disturbances, this was the first occasion that anything of the kind had ploughed deep into his feelings and desires. trafford's father had died early in life. he had been a brilliant pathologist, one of that splendid group of scientific investigators in the middle victorian period which shines ever more brightly as our criticism dims their associated splendours, and he had died before he was thirty through a momentary slip of the scalpel. his wife--she had been his wife for five years--found his child and his memory and the quality of the life he had made about her too satisfying for the risks of a second marriage, and she had brought up her son with a passionate belief in the high mission of research and the supreme duty of seeking out and expressing truth finely. and here he was, calling mr. magnet a "beastly little area sneak." the situation perplexed him. marjorie perplexed him. it was, had he known it, the beginning for him of a lifetime of problems and perplexities. he was absolutely certain she didn't love magnet. why, then, had she agreed to marry him? such pressures and temptations as he could see about her seemed light to him in comparison with such an undertaking. were they greater than he supposed? his method of coming to the issue of that problem was entirely original. he presented himself next afternoon with the air of an invited guest, drove mr. pope who was suffering from liver, to expostulatory sulking in the study, and expressed a passionate craving for golf-croquet, in spite of mrs. pope's extreme solicitude for his still bandaged ankle. he was partnered with daffy, and for a long time he sought speech with marjorie in vain. at last he was isolated in a corner of the lawn, and with the thinnest pretence of inadvertence, in spite of daffy's despairing cry of "she plays next!" he laid up within two yards of her. he walked across to her as she addressed herself to her ball, and speaking in an incredulous tone and with the air of a comment on the game, he said: "i say, are you engaged to that chap magnet?" marjorie was amazed, but remarkably not offended. something in his tone set her trembling. she forgot to play, and stood with her mallet hanging in her hand. "punish him!" came the voice of magnet from afar. "yes," she said faintly. his remark came low and clear. it had a note of angry protest. "_why?_" marjorie, by the way of answer, hit her ball so that it jumped and missed his, ricochetted across the lawn and out of the ground on the further side. "i'm sorry if i've annoyed you," said trafford, as marjorie went after her ball, and daffy thanked heaven aloud for the respite. they came together no more for a time, and trafford, observant with every sense, found no clue to the riddle of her grave, intent bearing. she played very badly, and with unusual care and deliberation. he felt he had made a mess of things altogether, and suddenly found his leg was too painful to go on. "partner," he asked, "will you play out my ball for me? i can't go on. i shall have to go." marjorie surveyed him, while daffy and magnet expressed solicitude. he turned to go, mallet in hand, and found marjorie following him. "is that the heavier mallet?" she asked, and stood before him looking into his eyes and weighing a mallet in either hand. "mr. trafford, you're one of the worst examiners i've ever met," she said. he looked puzzled. "i don't know _why_," said marjorie, "i wonder as much as you. but i am"; and seeing the light dawning in his eyes, she turned about, and went back to the debacle of her game. § after that mr. trafford had one clear desire in his being which ruled all his other desires. he wanted a long, frank, unembarrassed and uninterrupted conversation with marjorie. he had a very strong impression that marjorie wanted exactly the same thing. for a week he besieged the situation in vain. after the fourth day solomonson was only kept in buryhamstreet by sheer will-power, exerted with a brutality that threatened to end that friendship abruptly. he went home on the sixth day in his largest car, but trafford stayed on beyond the limits of decency to perform some incomprehensible service that he spoke of as "clearing up." "i want," he said, "to clear up." "but what _is_ there to clear up, my dear boy?" "solomonson, you're a pampered plutocrat," said trafford, as though everything was explained. "i don't see any sense in it at all," said solomonson, and regarded his friend aslant with thick, black eyebrows raised. "i'm going to stay," said trafford. and solomonson said one of those unhappy and entirely disregarded things that ought never to be said. "there's some girl in this," said solomonson. "your bedroom's always waiting for you at riplings," he said, when at last he was going off.... trafford's conviction that marjorie also wanted, with an almost equal eagerness, the same opportunity for speech and explanations that he desired, sustained him in a series of unjustifiable intrusions upon the seclusion of the popes. but although the manner of mr. and mrs. pope did change considerably for the better after his next visit, it was extraordinary how impossible it seemed for him and marjorie to achieve their common end of an encounter. always something intervened. in the first place, mrs. pope's disposition to optimism had got the better of her earlier discretions, and a casual glance at daphne's face when their visitor reappeared started quite a new thread of interpretations in her mind. she had taken the opportunity of hinting at this when mr. pope asked over his shirt-stud that night, "what the devil that--that chauffeur chap meant by always calling in the afternoon." "now that will magnet monopolizes marjorie," she said, after a little pause and a rustle or so, "i don't see why daffy shouldn't have a little company of her own age." mr. pope turned round and stared at her. "i didn't think of that," he said. "but, anyhow, i don't like the fellow." "he seems to be rather clever," said mrs. pope, "though he certainly talks too much. and after all it was sir rupert's aeroplane. _he_ was only driving it to oblige." "he'll think twice before he drives another," said mr. pope, wrenching off his collar.... once mrs. pope had turned her imagination in this more and more agreeable direction, she was rather disposed, i am afraid, to let it bolt with her. and it was a deflection that certainly fell in very harmoniously with certain secret speculations of daphne's. trafford, too, being quite unused to any sort of social furtiveness, did perhaps, in order to divert attention from his preoccupation with marjorie, attend more markedly to daphne than he would otherwise have done. and so presently he found daphne almost continuously on his hands. so far as she was concerned, he might have told her the entire history of his life, and every secret he had in the world, without let or hindrance. mrs. pope, too, showed a growing appreciation of his company, became sympathetic and confidential in a way that invited confidence, and threw a lot of light on her family history and daffy's character. she had found daffy a wonderful study, she said. mr. pope, too, seemed partly reconciled to him. the idea that, after all, both motor cars and monoplane were sir rupert's, and not trafford's, had produced a reaction in the latter gentleman's favour. moreover, it had occurred to him that trafford's accident had perhaps disposed him towards a more thoughtful view of mechanical traction, and that this tendency would be greatly helped by a little genial chaff. so that he ceased to go indoors when trafford was there, and hung about, meditating and delivering sly digs at this new victim of his ripe, old-fashioned humour. nor did it help trafford in his quest for marjorie and a free, outspoken delivery that the pseudo-twins considered him a person of very considerable charm, and that theodore, though indisposed to "suck up" to him publicly--i write here in theodorese--did so desire intimate and solitary communion with him, more particularly in view of the chances of an adventitious aeroplane ride that seemed to hang about him--as to stalk him persistently--hovering on the verge of groups, playing a waiting game with a tennis ball and an old racquet, strolling artlessly towards the gate of the avenue when the time seemed ripening for his appearance or departure. on the other hand, marjorie was greatly entangled by magnet. magnet was naturally an attentive lover; he was full of small encumbering services, and it made him none the less assiduous to perceive that marjorie seemed to find no sort of pleasure in all the little things he did. he seemed to think that if picking the very best rose he could find for her did not cause a very perceptible brightening in her, then it was all the more necessary quietly to force her racquet from her hand and carry it for her, or help her ineffectually to cross a foot-wide ditch, or offer to read her in a rich, abundant, well modulated voice, some choice passage from "the forest lovers" of mr. maurice hewlett. and behind these devotions there was a streak of jealousy. he knew as if by instinct that it was not wise to leave these two handsome young people together; he had a queer little disagreeable sensation whenever they spoke to one another or looked at one another. whenever trafford and marjorie found themselves in a group, there was magnet in the midst of them. he knew the value of his marjorie, and did not mean to lose her.... being jointly baffled in this way was oddly stimulating to marjorie's and trafford's mutual predisposition. if you really want to throw people together, the thing to do--thank god for ireland!--is to keep them apart. by the fourth day of this emotional incubation, marjorie was thinking of trafford to the exclusion of all her reading; and trafford was lying awake at nights--oh, for half an hour and more--thinking of bold, decisive ways of getting at marjorie, and bold, decisive things to say to her when he did. (but why she should be engaged to magnet continued, nevertheless, to puzzle him extremely. it was a puzzle to which no complete solution was ever to be forthcoming....) § at last that opportunity came. marjorie had come with her mother into the village, and while mrs. pope made some purchases at the general shop she walked on to speak to mrs. blythe the washerwoman. trafford suddenly emerged from the red lion with a soda syphon under each arm. she came forward smiling. "i say," he said forthwith, "i want to talk with you--badly." "and i," she said unhesitatingly, "with you." "how can we?" "there's always people about. it's absurd." "we'll have to meet." "yes." "i have to go away to-morrow. i ought to have gone two days ago. where _can_ we meet?" she had it all prepared. "listen," she said. "there is a path runs from our shrubbery through a little wood to a stile on the main road." he nodded. "either i will be there at three or about half-past five or--there's one more chance. while father and mr. magnet are smoking at nine.... i might get away." "couldn't i write?" "no. impossible." "i've no end of things to say...." mrs. pope appeared outside her shop, and trafford gesticulated a greeting with the syphons. "all right," he said to marjorie. "i'm shopping," he cried as mrs. pope approached. § all through the day marjorie desired to go to trafford and could not do so. it was some minutes past nine when at last with a swift rustle of skirts that sounded louder than all the world to her, she crossed the dimly lit hall between dining-room and drawing-room and came into the dreamland of moonlight upon the lawn. she had told her mother she was going upstairs; at any moment she might be missed, but she would have fled now to trafford if an army pursued her. her heart seemed beating in her throat, and every fibre of her being was aquiver. she flitted past the dining-room window like a ghost, she did not dare to glance aside at the smokers within, and round the lawn to the shrubbery, and so under a blackness of trees to the gate where he stood waiting. and there he was, dim and mysterious and wonderful, holding the gate open for her, and she was breathless, and speechless, and near sobbing. she stood before him for a moment, her face moonlit and laced with the shadows of little twigs, and then his arms came out to her. "my darling," he said, "oh, my darling!" they had no doubt of one another or of anything in the world. they clung together; their lips came together fresh and untainted as those first lovers' in the garden. "i will die for you," he said, "i will give all the world for you...." they had thought all through the day of a hundred statements and explanations they would make when this moment came, and never a word of it all was uttered. all their anticipations of a highly strung eventful conversation vanished, phrases of the most striking sort went like phantom leaves before a gale. he held her and she clung to him between laughing and sobbing, and both were swiftly and conclusively assured their lives must never separate again. § marjorie never knew whether it was a moment or an age before her father came upon them. he had decided to take a turn in the garden when magnet could no longer restrain himself from joining the ladies, and he chanced to be stick in hand because that was his habit after twilight. so it was he found them. she heard his voice falling through love and moonlight like something that comes out of an immense distance. "good god!" he cried, "what next!" but he still hadn't realized the worst. "daffy," he said, "what in the name of goodness----?" marjorie put her hands before her face too late. "good lord!" he cried with a rising inflection, "it's madge!" trafford found the situation difficult. "i should explain----" but mr. pope was giving himself up to a towering rage. "you damned scoundrel!" he said. "what the devil are you doing?" he seized marjorie by the arm and drew her towards him. "my poor misguided girl!" he said, and suddenly she was tensely alive, a little cry of horror in her throat, for her father, at a loss for words and full of heroic rage, had suddenly swung his stick with passionate force, and struck at trafford's face. she heard the thud, saw trafford wince and stiffen. for a perfectly horrible moment it seemed to her these men, their faces queerly distorted by the shadows of the branches in the slanting moonlight, might fight. then she heard trafford's voice, sounding cool and hard, and she knew that he would do nothing of the kind. in that instant if there had remained anything to win in marjorie it was altogether won. "i asked your daughter to meet me here," he said. "be off with you, sir!" cried mr. pope. "don't tempt me further, sir," and swung his stick again. but now the force had gone out of him. trafford stood with a hand out ready for him, and watched his face. "i asked your daughter to meet me here, and she came. i am prepared to give you any explanation----" "if you come near this place again----" for some moments marjorie's heart had been held still, now it was beating violently. she felt this scene must end. "mr. trafford," she said, "will you go. go now. nothing shall keep us apart!" mr. pope turned on her. "silence, girl!" he said. "i shall come to you to-morrow," said trafford. "yes," said marjorie, "to-morrow." "marjorie!" said mr. pope, "_will_ you go indoors." "i have done nothing----" "be off, sir." "i have done nothing----" "will you be off, sir? and you, marjorie--will you go indoors?" he came round upon her, and after one still moment of regard for trafford--and she looked very beautiful in the moonlight with her hair a little disordered and her face alight--she turned to precede her father through the shrubbery. mr. pope hesitated whether he should remain with trafford. a perfectly motionless man is very disconcerting. "be off, sir," he said over his shoulder, lowered through a threatening second, and followed her. but trafford remained stiffly with a tingling temple down which a little thread of blood was running, until their retreating footsteps had died down into that confused stirring of little sounds which makes the stillness of an english wood at night. then he roused himself with a profound sigh, and put a hand to his cut and bruised cheek. "_well!_" he said. chapter the fourth crisis § crisis prevailed in buryhamstreet that night. on half a dozen sleepless pillows souls communed with the darkness, and two at least of those pillows were wet with tears. not one of those wakeful heads was perfectly clear about the origins and bearings of the trouble; not even mr. pope felt absolutely sure of himself. it had come as things come to people nowadays, because they will not think things out, much less talk things out, and are therefore in a hopeless tangle of values that tightens sooner or later to a knot.... what an uncharted perplexity, for example, was the mind of that excellent woman mrs. pope! poor lady! she hadn't a stable thing in her head. it is remarkable that some queer streak in her composition sympathized with marjorie's passion for trafford. but she thought it such a pity! she fought that sympathy down as if it were a wicked thing. and she fought too against other ideas that rose out of the deeps and did not so much come into her mind as cluster at the threshold, the idea that marjorie was in effect grown up, a dozen queer criticisms of magnet, and a dozen subtle doubts whether after all marjorie was going to be happy with him as she assured herself the girl would be. (so far as any one knew trafford might be an excellent match!) and behind these would-be invaders of her guarded mind prowled even worse ones, doubts, horrible disloyal doubts, about the wisdom and kindness of mr. pope. quite early in life mrs. pope had realized that it is necessary to be very careful with one's thoughts. they lead to trouble. she had clipped the wings of her own mind therefore so successfully that all her conclusions had become evasions, all her decisions compromises. her profoundest working conviction was a belief that nothing in the world was of value but "tact," and that the art of living was to "tide things over." but here it seemed almost beyond her strength to achieve any sort of tiding over.... (why _couldn't_ mr. pope lie quiet?) whatever she said or did had to be fitted to the exigencies of mr. pope. availing himself of the privileges of matrimony, her husband so soon as mr. magnet had gone and they were upstairs together, had explained the situation with vivid simplicity, and had gone on at considerable length and with great vivacity to enlarge upon his daughter's behaviour. he ascribed this moral disaster,--he presented it as a moral disaster of absolutely calamitous dimensions--entirely to mrs. pope's faults and negligences. warming with his theme he had employed a number of homely expressions rarely heard by decent women except in these sacred intimacies, to express the deep indignation of a strong man moved to unbridled speech by the wickedness of those near and dear to him. still warming, he raised his voice and at last shouted out his more forcible meanings, until she feared the servants and children might hear, waved a clenched fist at imaginary traffords and scoundrels generally, and giving way completely to his outraged virtue, smote and kicked blameless articles of furniture in a manner deeply impressive to the feminine intelligence. finally he sat down in the little arm-chair between her and the cupboard where she was accustomed to hang up her clothes, stuck out his legs very stiffly across the room, and despaired of his family in an obtrusive and impregnable silence for an enormous time. all of which awakened a deep sense of guilt and unworthiness in mrs. pope's mind, and prevented her going to bed, but did not help her in the slightest degree to grasp the difficulties of the situation.... she would have lain awake anyhow, but she was greatly helped in this by mr. pope's restlessness. he was now turning over from left to right or from right to left at intervals of from four to seven minutes, and such remarks as "damned scoundrel! get out of this!" or "_my_ daughter and degrade yourself in this way!" or "never let me see your face again!" "plight your troth to one man, and fling yourself shamelessly--i repeat it, marjorie, shamelessly--into the arms of another!" kept mrs. pope closely in touch with the general trend of his thoughts. she tried to get together her plans and perceptions rather as though she swept up dead leaves on a gusty day. she knew that the management of the whole situation rested finally on her, and that whatever she did or did not do, or whatever arose to thwart her arrangements, its entire tale of responsibility would ultimately fall upon her shoulders. she wondered what was to be done with marjorie, with mr. magnet? need he know? could that situation be saved? everything at present was raw in her mind. except for her husband's informal communications she did not even know what had appeared, what daffy had seen, what magnet thought of marjorie's failure to bid him good-night. for example, had mr. magnet noticed mr. pope's profound disturbance? she had to be ready to put a face on things before morning, and it seemed impossible she could do so. in times of crisis, as every woman knows, it is always necessary to misrepresent everything to everybody, but how she was to dovetail her misrepresentations, get the best effect from them, extract a working system of rights and wrongs from them, she could not imagine.... (oh! she did so wish mr. pope would lie quiet.) but he had no doubts of what became _him_. he had to maintain a splendid and irrational rage--at any cost--to anybody. § a few yards away, a wakeful marjorie confronted a joyless universe. she had a baffling realization that her life was in a hopeless mess, that she really had behaved disgracefully, and that she couldn't for a moment understand how it had happened. she had intended to make quite sure of trafford--and then put things straight. only her father had spoilt everything. she regarded her father that night with a want of natural affection terrible to record. why had he come just when he had, just as he had? why had he been so violent, so impossible? of course, she had no business to be there.... she examined her character with a new unprecedented detachment. wasn't she, after all, rather a mean human being? it had never occurred to her before to ask such a question. now she asked it with only too clear a sense of the answer. she tried to trace how these multiplying threads of meanness had first come into the fabric of a life she had supposed herself to be weaving in extremely bright, honourable, and adventurous colours. she ought, of course, never to have accepted magnet.... she faced the disagreeable word; was she a liar? at any rate, she told lies. and she'd behaved with extraordinary meanness to daphne. she realized that now. she had known, as precisely as if she had been told, how daphne felt about trafford, and she'd never given her an inkling of her own relations. she hadn't for a moment thought of daphne. no wonder daffy was sombre and bitter. whatever she knew, she knew enough. she had heard trafford's name in urgent whispers on the landing. "i suppose you couldn't leave him alone," daffy had said, after a long hostile silence. that was all. just a sentence without prelude or answer flung across the bedroom, revealing a perfect understanding--deeps of angry disillusionment. marjorie had stared and gasped, and made no answer. would she ever see him again? after this horror of rowdy intervention? she didn't deserve to; she didn't deserve anything.... oh, the tangle of it all! the tangle of it all! and those bills at oxbridge! she was just dragging trafford down into her own miserable morass of a life. her thoughts would take a new turn. "i love him," she whispered soundlessly. "i would die for him. i would like to lie under his feet--and him not know it." her mind hung on that for a long time. "not know it until afterwards," she corrected. she liked to be exact, even in despair.... and then in her memory he was struck again, and stood stiff and still. she wanted to kneel to him, imagined herself kneeling.... and so on, quite inconclusively, round and round through the interminable night hours. § the young man in the village was, if possible, more perplexed, round-eyed and generally inconclusive than anyone else in this series of nocturnal disturbances. he spent long intervals sitting on his window-sill regarding a world that was scented with nightstock, and seemed to be woven of moonshine and gossamer. being an inexpert and infrequent soliloquist, his only audible comment on his difficulties was the repetition in varying intonations of his fervent, unalterable conviction that he was damned. but behind this simple verbal mask was a great fury of mental activity. he had something of marjorie's amazement at the position of affairs. he had never properly realized that it was possible for any one to regard marjorie as a daughter, to order her about and resent the research for her society as criminal. it was a new light in his world. some day he was to learn the meaning of fatherhood, but in these night watches he regarded it as a hideous survival of mediæval darknesses. "of course," he said, entirely ignoring the actual quality of their conversation, "she had to explain about the magnet affair. can't one--converse?" he reflected through great intervals. "i _will_ see her! why on earth shouldn't i see her?" "i suppose they can't lock her up!" for a time he contemplated a writ of habeas corpus. he saw reason to regret the gaps in his legal knowledge. "can any one get a writ of habeas corpus for any one--it doesn't matter whom"--more especially if you are a young man of six-and-twenty, anxious to exchange a few richly charged words with a girl of twenty who is engaged to someone else? the night had no answer. it was nearly dawn when he came to the entirely inadvisable conclusion--i use his own word's--to go and have it out with the old ruffian. he would sit down and ask him what he meant by it all--and reason with him. if he started flourishing that stick again, it would have to be taken away. and having composed a peroration upon the institution of the family of a character which he fondly supposed to be extraordinarily tolerant, reasonable and convincing, but which was indeed calculated to madden mr. pope to frenzy, mr. trafford went very peacefully to sleep. § came dawn, with a noise of birds and afterwards a little sleep, and then day, and heavy eyes opened again, and the sound of frying and the smell of coffee recalled our actors to the stage. mrs. pope was past her worst despair; always the morning brings courage and a clearer grasp of things, and she could face the world with plans shaped subconsciously during those last healing moments of slumber. breakfast was difficult, but not impossible. mr. pope loomed like a thundercloud, but marjorie pleaded a headache very wisely, and was taken a sympathetic cup of tea. the pseudo-twins scented trouble, but theodore was heedless and over-full of an entertaining noise made by a moorhen as it dived in the ornamental water that morning. you could make it practically _sotto voce_, and it amused syd. he seemed to think the _times_ opaque to such small sounds, and learnt better only to be dismissed underfed and ignominiously from the table to meditate upon the imperfections of his soul in the schoolroom. there for a time he was silent, and then presently became audible again, playing with a ball and, presumably, marjorie's tennis racquet. directly she could disentangle herself from breakfast mrs. pope, with all her plans acute, went up to the girls' room. she found her daughter dressing in a leisurely and meditative manner. she shut the door almost confidentially. "marjorie," she said, "i want you to tell me all about this." "i thought i heard father telling you," said marjorie. "he was too indignant," said mrs. pope, "to explain clearly. you see, marjorie"--she paused before her effort--"he knows things--about this professor trafford." "what things?" asked marjorie, turning sharply. "i don't know, my dear--and i can't imagine." she looked out of the window, aware of marjorie's entirely distrustful scrutiny. "i don't believe it," said marjorie. "don't believe what, dear?" "whatever he says." "i wish i didn't," said mrs. pope, and turned. "oh, madge," she cried, "you cannot imagine how all this distresses me! i cannot--i cannot conceive how you came to be in such a position! surely honour----! think of mr. magnet, how good and patient he has been! you don't know that man. you don't know all he is, and all that it means to a girl. he is good and honourable and--pure. he is kindness itself. it seemed to me that you were to be so happy--rich, honoured." she was overcome by a rush of emotion; she turned to the bed and sat down. "_there!_" she said desolately. "it's all ruined, shattered, gone." marjorie tried not to feel that her mother was right. "if father hadn't interfered," she said weakly. "oh, don't, my dear, speak so coldly of your father! you don't know what he has to put up with. you don't know his troubles and anxieties--all this wretched business." she paused, and her face became portentous. "marjorie, do you know if these railways go on as they are going he may have to _eat into his capital_ this year. just think of that, and the worry he has! and this last shame and anxiety!" her voice broke again. marjorie listened with an expression that was almost sullen. "but what is it," she asked, "that father knows about mr. trafford?" "i don't know, dear. i don't know. but it's something that matters--that makes it all different." "well, may i speak to mr. trafford before he leaves buryhamstreet?" "my dear! never see him, dear--never think of him again! your father would not dream----some day, marjorie, you will rejoice--you will want to thank your father on your bended knees that he saved you from the clutches of this man...." "i won't believe anything about mr. trafford," she said slowly, "until i know----" she left the sentence incomplete. she made her declaration abruptly. "i love mr. trafford," she said, with a catch in her voice, "and i don't love mr. magnet." mrs. pope received this like one who is suddenly stabbed. she sat still as if overwhelmed, one hand pressed to her side and her eyes closed. then she said, as if she gasped involuntarily-- "it's too dreadful! marjorie," she said, "i want to ask you to do something. after all, a mother has _some_ claim. will you wait just a little. will you promise me to do nothing--nothing, i mean, to commit you--until your father has been able to make inquiries. don't _see_ him for a little while. very soon you'll be one-and-twenty, and then perhaps things may be different. if he cares for you, and you for him, a little separation won't matter.... until your father has inquired...." "mother," said marjorie, "i can't----" mrs. pope drew in the air sharply between her teeth, as if in agony. "but, mother----mother, i _must_ let mr. trafford know that i'm not to see him. i _can't_ suddenly cease.... if i could see him once----" "don't!" said mrs. pope, in a hollow voice. marjorie began weeping. "he'd not understand," she said. "if i might just speak to him!" "not alone, marjorie." marjorie stood still. "well--before you." mrs. pope conceded the point. "and then, marjorie----" she said. "i'd keep my word, mother," said marjorie, and began to sob in a manner she felt to be absurdly childish--"until--until i am one-and-twenty. i'd promise that." mrs. pope did a brief calculation. "marjorie," she said, "it's only your happiness i think of." "i know," said marjorie, and added in a low voice, "and father." "my dear, you don't understand your father.... i believe--i do firmly believe--if anything happened to any of you girls--anything bad--he would kill himself.... and i know he means that you aren't to go about so much as you used to do, unless we have the most definite promises. of course, your father's ideas aren't always my ideas, marjorie; but it's your duty--you know how hasty he is and--quick. just as you know how good and generous and kind he is"--she caught marjorie's eye, and added a little lamely--"at bottom." ... she thought. "i think i could get him to let you say just one word with mr. trafford. it would be very difficult, but----" she paused for a few seconds, and seemed to be thinking deeply. "marjorie," she said, "mr. magnet must never know anything of this." "but, mother----!" "nothing!" "i can't go on with my engagement!" mrs. pope shook her head inscrutably. "but how _can_ i, mother?" "you need not tell him _why_, marjorie." "but----" "just think how it would humiliate and distress him! you _can't_, marjorie. you must find some excuse--oh, any excuse! but not the truth--not the truth, marjorie. it would be too dreadful." marjorie thought. "look here, mother, i _may_ see mr. trafford again? i _may_ really speak to him?" "haven't i promised?" "then, i'll do as you say," said marjorie. § mrs. pope found her husband seated at the desk in the ultra-protestant study, meditating gloomily. "i've been talking to her," she said, "she's in a state of terrible distress." "she ought to be," said mr. pope. "philip, you don't understand marjorie." "i don't." "you think she was kissing that man." "well, she was." "you can think _that_ of her!" mr. pope turned his chair to her. "but i _saw!_" mrs. pope shook her head. "she wasn't; she was struggling to get away from him. she told me so herself. i've been into it with her. you don't understand, philip. a man like that has a sort of fascination for a girl. he dazzles her. it's the way with girls. but you're quite mistaken.... quite. it's a sort of hypnotism. she'll grow out of it. of course, she _loves_ mr. magnet. she does indeed. i've not a doubt of it. but----" "you're _sure_ she wasn't kissing him?" "positive." "then why didn't you say so?" "a girl's so complex. you didn't give her a chance. she's fearfully ashamed of herself--fearfully! but it's just because she _is_ ashamed that she won't admit it." "i'll make her admit it." "you ought to have had all boys," said mrs. pope. "oh! she'll admit it some day--readily enough. but i believe a girl of her spirit would rather _die_ than begin explaining. you can't expect it of her. really you can't." he grunted and shook his head slowly from side to side. she sat down in the arm-chair beside the desk. "i want to know just exactly what we are to do about the girl, philip. i can't bear to think of her--up there." "how?" he asked. "up there?" "yes," she answered with that skilful inconsecutiveness of hers, and let a brief silence touch his imagination. "do you think that man means to come here again?" she asked. "chuck him out if he does," said mr. pope, grimly. she pressed her lips together firmly. she seemed to be weighing things painfully. "i wouldn't," she said at last. "what do you mean?" asked mr. pope. "i do not want you to make an open quarrel with mr. trafford." "_not_ quarrel!" "not an open one," said mrs. pope. "of course i know how nice it would be if you _could_ use a horsewhip, dear. there's such a lot of things--if we only just slash. but--it won't help. get him to go away. she's consented never to see him again--practically. she's ready to tell him so herself. part them against their will--oh! and the thing may go on for no end of time. but treat it as it ought to be treated--she'll be very tragic for a week or so, and then she'll forget him like a dream. he _is_ a dream--a girl's dream.... if only we leave it alone, she'll leave it alone." § things were getting straight, mrs. pope felt. she had now merely to add a few touches to the tranquillization of daphne, and the misdirection of the twin's curiosity. these touches accomplished, it seemed that everything was done. after a brief reflection, she dismissed the idea of putting things to theodore. she ran over the possibilities of the servants eavesdropping, and found them negligible. yes, everything was done--everything. and yet.... the queer string in her nature between religiosity and superstition began to vibrate. she hesitated. then she slipped upstairs, fastened the door, fell on her knees beside the bed and put the whole thing as acceptably as possible to heaven in a silent, simple, but lucidly explanatory prayer.... she came out of her chamber brighter and braver than she had been for eighteen long hours. she could now, she felt, await the developments that threatened with the serenity of one who is prepared at every point. she went almost happily to the kitchen, only about forty-five minutes behind her usual time, to order the day's meals and see with her own eyes that economies prevailed. and it seemed to her, on the whole, consoling, and at any rate a distraction, when the cook informed her that after all she _had_ meant to give notice on the day of aunt plessington's visit. § the unsuspecting magnet, fatigued but happy--for three hours of solid humorous writing (omitting every unpleasant suggestion and mingling in the most acceptable and saleable proportions smiles and tears) had added its quota to the intellectual heritage of england, made a simple light lunch cooked in homely village-inn fashion, lit a well merited cigar, and turned his steps towards the vicarage. he was preceded at some distance along the avenuesque drive by the back of mr. trafford, which he made no attempt to overtake. mr. trafford was admitted and disappeared, and a minute afterwards magnet reached the door. mrs. pope appeared radiant--about the weather. a rather tiresome man had just called upon mr. pope about business matters, she said, and he might be detained five or ten minutes. marjorie and daffy were upstairs--resting. they had been disturbed by bats in the night. "isn't it charmingly rural?" said mrs. pope. "_bats!_" she talked about bats and the fear she had of their getting in her hair, and as she talked she led the way brightly but firmly as far as possible out of earshot of the windows of the ultra protestant study in which mr. pope was now (she did so hope temperately) interviewing mr. trafford. § directly mr. trafford had reached the front door it had opened for him, and closed behind him at once. he had found himself with mrs. pope. "you wish to see my husband?" she had said, and had led him to the study forthwith. she had returned at once to intercept mr. magnet.... trafford found mr. pope seated sternly at the centre of the writing desk, regarding him with a threatening brow. "well, sir," said mr. pope breaking the silence, "you have come to offer some explanation----" while awaiting this encounter mr. pope had not been insensitive to the tactical and scenic possibilities of the occasion. in fact, he had spent the latter half of the morning in intermittent preparations, arranging desks, books, hassocks in advantageous positions, and not even neglecting such small details as the stamp tray, the articles of interest from jerusalem, and the rock-crystal cenotaph, which he had exhibited in such a manner as was most calculated to damp, chill and subjugate an antagonist in the exposed area towards the window. he had also arranged the chairs in a highly favourable pattern. mr. trafford was greatly taken aback by mr. pope's juridical manner and by this form of address, and he was further put out by mr. pope saying with a regal gesture to the best illuminated and most isolated chair: "be seated, sir." mr. trafford's exordium vanished from his mind, he was at a loss for words until spurred to speech by mr. pope's almost truculent: "well?" "i am in love sir, with your daughter." "i am not aware of it," said mr. pope, and lifted and dropped the paper-weight. "my daughter, sir, is engaged to marry mr. magnet. if you had approached me in a proper fashion before presuming to attempt--to attempt----" his voice thickened with indignation,--"liberties with her, you would have been duly informed of her position--and everyone would have been saved"--he lifted the paper-weight. "everything that has happened." (bump.) mr. trafford had to adjust himself to the unexpected elements in this encounter. "oh!" he said. "yes," said mr. pope, and there was a distinct interval. "is your daughter in love with mr. magnet?" asked mr. trafford in an almost colloquial tone. mr. pope smiled gravely. "i presume so, sir." "she never gave me that impression, anyhow," said the young man. "it was neither her duty to give nor yours to receive that impression," said mr. pope. again mr. trafford was at a loss. "have you come here, sir, merely to bandy words?" asked mr. pope, drumming with ten fingers on the table. mr. trafford thrust his hands into his pockets and assumed a fictitious pose of ease. he had never found any one in his life before quite so provocative of colloquialism as mr. pope. "look here, sir, this is all very well," he began, "but why can't i fall in love with your daughter? i'm a doctor of science and all that sort of thing. i've a perfectly decent outlook. my father was rather a swell in his science. i'm an entirely decent and respectable person." "i beg to differ," said mr. pope. "but i am." "again," said mr. pope, with great patience, and a slight forward bowing of the head, "i beg to differ." "well--differ. but all the same----" he paused and began again, and for a time they argued to no purpose. they generalized about the position of an engaged girl and the rights and privileges of a father. then mr. pope, "to cut all this short," told him frankly he wasn't wanted, his daughter did not want him, nobody wanted him; he was an invader, he had to be got rid of--"if possible by peaceful means." trafford disputed these propositions, and asked to see marjorie. mr. pope had been leading up to this, and at once closed with that request. "she is as anxious as any one to end this intolerable siege," he said. he went to the door and called for marjorie, who appeared with conspicuous promptitude. she was in a dress of green linen that made her seem very cool as well as very dignified to trafford; she was tense with restrained excitement, and either--for these things shade into each other--entirely without a disposition to act her part or acting with consummate ability. trafford rose at the sight of her, and remained standing. mr. pope closed the door and walked back to the desk. "mr. trafford has to be told," he said, "that you don't want him in buryhamstreet." he arrested marjorie's forward movement towards trafford by a gesture of the hand, seated himself, and resumed his drumming on the table. "well?" he said. "i don't think you ought to stay in buryhamstreet, mr. trafford," said marjorie. "you don't want me to?" "it will only cause trouble--and scenes." "you want me to go?" "away from here." "you really mean that?" marjorie did not answer for a little time; she seemed to be weighing the exact force of all she was going to say. "mr. trafford," she answered, "everything i've ever said to you--everything--i've _meant_, more than i've ever meant anything. everything!" a little flush of colour came into trafford's cheeks. he regarded marjorie with a brightening eye. "oh well," he said, "i don't understand. but i'm entirely in your hands, of course." marjorie's pose and expression altered. for an instant she was a miracle of instinctive expression, she shone at him, she conveyed herself to him, she assured him. her eyes met his, she stood warmly flushed and quite unconquered--visibly, magnificently _his_. she poured into him just that riotous pride and admiration that gives a man altogether to a woman.... then it seemed as if a light passed, and she was just an everyday marjorie standing there. "i'll do anything you want me to," said trafford. "then i want you to go." "ah!" said mr. pope. "yes," said trafford, with his eyes on her self-possession. "i've promised not to write or send to you, or--think more than i can help of you, until i'm twenty-one--nearly two months from now." "and then?" "i don't know. how can i?" "you hear, sir?" from mr. pope, in the pause of mutual scrutiny that followed. "one question," said mr. trafford. "you've surely asked enough, sir," said mr. pope. "are you still engaged to magnet?" "sir!" "please, father;" said marjorie, with unusual daring and in her mother's voice. "mr. trafford, after what i've told you--you must leave that to me." "she _is_ engaged to mr. magnet," said mr. pope. "tell him outright, marjorie. make it clear." "i think i understand," said trafford, with his eyes on marjorie. "i've not seen mr. magnet since last night," said marjorie. "and so--naturally--i'm still engaged to him." "precisely!" said mr. pope, and turned with a face of harsh interrogation to his importunate caller. mr. trafford seemed disposed for further questions. "i don't think we need detain you, madge," said mr. pope, over his shoulder. the two young people stood facing one another for a moment, and i am afraid that they were both extremely happy and satisfied with each other. it was all right, they were quite sure--all right. their lips were almost smiling. then marjorie made an entirely dignified exit. she closed the door very softly, and mr. pope turned to his visitor again with a bleak politeness. "i hope that satisfies you," he said. "there is nothing more to be said at present, i admit," said mr. trafford. "nothing," said mr. pope. both gentlemen bowed. mr. pope rose ceremoniously, and mr. trafford walked doorward. he had a sense of latent absurdities in these tremendous attitudes. they passed through the hall--processionally. but just at the end some lower strain in mr. trafford's nature touched the fine dignity of the occasion with an inappropriate remark. "good-bye, sir," said mr. pope, holding the housedoor wide. "good-bye, sir," said mr. trafford, and then added with a note of untimely intimacy in his voice, with an inexcusable levity upon his lips: "you know--there's nobody--no man in the world--i'd sooner have for a father-in-law than you." mr. pope, caught unprepared on the spur of the moment, bowed in a cold and distant manner, and then almost immediately closed the door to save himself from violence.... from first to last neither gentleman had made the slightest allusion to a considerable bruise upon mr. trafford's left cheek, and a large abrasion above his ear. § that afternoon marjorie began her difficult task of getting disengaged from mr. magnet. it was difficult because she was pledged not to tell him of the one thing that made this line of action not only explicable, but necessary. magnet, perplexed, and disconcerted, and secretly sustained by her mother's glancing sidelights on the feminine character and the instability of "girlish whims," remained at buryhamstreet until the family returned to hartstone square. the engagement was ended--formally--but in such a manner that magnet was left a rather pathetic and invincibly assiduous besieger. he lavished little presents upon both sisters, he devised little treats for the entire family, he enriched theodore beyond the dreams of avarice, and he discussed his love and admiration for marjorie, and the perplexities and delicacies of the situation not only with mrs. pope, but with daphne. at first he had thought very little of daphne, but now he was beginning to experience the subtle pleasures of a confidential friendship. she understood, he felt; it was quite wonderful how she understood. he found daffy much richer in response than marjorie, and far less disconcerting in reply.... mr. pope, for all marjorie's submission to his wishes, developed a grand dudgeon of exceptionally fine proportions when he heard of the breach of the engagement. he ceased to speak to his daughter or admit himself aware of her existence, and the grand dudgeon's blighting shadow threw a chill over the life of every one in the house. he made it clear that the grand dudgeon would only be lifted by marjorie's re-engagement to magnet, and that whatever blight or inconvenience fell on the others was due entirely to marjorie's wicked obstinacy. using mrs. pope as an intermediary, he also conveyed to marjorie his decision to be no longer burthened with the charges of her education at oxbridge, and he made it seem extremely doubtful whether he should remember her approaching twenty-first birthday. marjorie received the news of her severance from oxbridge, mrs. pope thought, with a certain hardness. "i thought he would do that," said marjorie. "he's always wanted to do that," and said no more. chapter the fifth a telephone call § trafford went back to solomonson for a day or so, and then to london, to resume the experimental work of the research he had in hand. but he was so much in love with marjorie that for some days it was a very dazed mind that fumbled with the apparatus--arranged it and rearranged it, and fell into daydreams that gave the utmost concern to durgan the bottle-washer. "he's not going straight at things," said durgan the bottle-washer to his wife. "he usually goes so straight at things it's a pleasure to watch it. he told me he was going down into kent to think everything out." mr. durgan paused impressively, and spoke with a sigh of perplexity. "he hasn't...." but later durgan was able to report that trafford had pulled himself together. the work was moving. "i was worried for a bit," said mr. durgan. "but i _think_ it's all right again. i _believe_ it's all right again." § trafford was one of those rare scientific men who really ought to be engaged in scientific research. he could never leave an accepted formula alone. his mind was like some insatiable corrosive, that ate into all the hidden inequalities and plastered weaknesses of accepted theories, and bit its way through every plausibility of appearance. he was extraordinarily fertile in exasperating alternative hypotheses. his invention of destructive test experiments was as happy as the respectful irony with which he brought them into contact with the generalizations they doomed. he was already, at six-and-twenty, hated, abused, obstructed, and respected. he was still outside the royal society, of course, and the editors of the scientific periodicals admired his papers greatly, and delayed publication; but it was fairly certain that that pressure of foreign criticism and competition which prevents english scientific men of good family and social position from maintaining any such national standards as we are able to do in art, literature, and politics, would finally carry him in. and since he had a small professorship worth three hundred a year, which gave him the command of a sufficient research laboratory and the services of mr. durgan, a private income of nearly three hundred more, a devoted mother to keep house for him, and an invincible faith in truth, he had every prospect of winning in his particular struggle to inflict more truth, new lucidities, and fresh powers upon this fractious and unreasonable universe. in the world of science now, even more than in the world of literature and political thought, the thing that is alive struggles, half-suffocated, amidst a copious production of things born dead. the endowment of research, the organization of scientific progress, the creation of salaried posts, and the assignment of honours, has attracted to this field just that type of man which is least gifted to penetrate and discover, and least able to admit its own defect or the quality of a superior. such men are producing great, bulky masses of imitative research, futile inquiries, and monstrous entanglements of technicality about their subjects; and it is to their instinctive antagonism to the idea of a "gift" in such things that we owe the preposterous conception of a training for research, the manufacture of mental blinkers that is to say, to avoid what is the very soul of brilliant inquiry--applicable discursiveness. the trained investigator is quite the absurdest figure in the farce of contemporary intellectual life; he is like a bath-chair perpetually starting to cross the himalayas by virtue of a licence to do so. for such enterprises one must have wings. organization and genius are antipathetic. the vivid and creative mind, by virtue of its qualities, is a spasmodic and adventurous mind; it resents blinkers, and the mere implication that it can be driven in harness to the unexpected. it demands freedom. it resents regular attendance from ten to four and punctualities in general and all those paralyzing minor tests of conduct that are vitally important to the imagination of the authoritative dull. consequently, it is being eliminated from its legitimate field, and it is only here and there among the younger men that such a figure as trafford gives any promise of a renewal of that enthusiasm, that intellectual enterprise, which were distinctive of the great age of scientific advance. trafford was the only son of his parents. his father had been a young surgeon, more attracted by knowledge than practice, who had been killed by a scratch of the scalpel in an investigation upon ulcerative processes, at the age of twenty-nine. trafford at that time was three years old, so that he had not the least memory of his father; but his mother, by a thousand almost unpremeditated touches, had built up a figure for him and a tradition that was shaping his life. she had loved her husband passionately, and when he died her love burnt up like a flame released, and made a god of the good she had known with him. she was then a very beautiful and active-minded woman of thirty, and she did her best to reconstruct her life; but she could find nothing so living in the world as the clear courage, the essential simplicity, and tender memories of the man she had lost. and she was the more devoted to him that he had had little weaknesses of temper and bearing, and that an outrageous campaign had been waged against him that did not cease with his death. he had, in some medical periodical, published drawings of a dead dog clamped to display a deformity, and these had been seized upon by a group of anti-vivisection fanatics as the representation of a vivisection. a libel action had been pending when he died; but there is no protection of the dead from libel. that monstrous lie met her on pamphlet cover, on hoardings, in sensational appeals; it seemed immortal, and she would have suffered the pains of a dozen suttees if she could have done so, to show the world how the power and tenderness of this alleged tormentor of helpless beasts had gripped one woman's heart. it counted enormously in her decision to remain a widow and concentrate her life upon her son. she watched his growth with a care and passionate subtlety that even at six-and-twenty he was still far from suspecting. she dreaded his becoming a mother's pet, she sent him away to school and fretted through long terms alone, that he might be made into a man. she interested herself in literary work and social affairs lest she should press upon him unduly. she listened for the crude expression of growing thought in him with an intensity that was almost anguish. she was too intelligent to dream of forming his mind, he browsed on every doctrine to find his own, but she did desire most passionately, she prayed, she prayed in the darkness of sleepless nights, that the views, the breadths, the spacious emotions which had ennobled her husband in her eyes should rise again in him. there were years of doubt and waiting. he was a good boy and a bad boy, now brilliant, now touching, now disappointing, now gloriously reassuring, and now heart-rending as only the children of our blood can be. he had errors and bad moments, lapses into sheer naughtiness, phases of indolence, attacks of contagious vulgarity. but more and more surely she saw him for his father's son; she traced the same great curiosities, the same keen dauntless questioning; whatever incidents might disturb and perplex her, his intellectual growth went on strong and clear and increasing like some sacred flame that is carried in procession, halting perhaps and swaying a little but keeping on, over the heads of a tumultuous crowd. he went from his school to the royal college of science, thence to successes at cambridge, and thence to berlin. he travelled a little in asia minor and persia, had a journey to america, and then came back to her and london, sunburnt, moustached, manly, and a little strange. when he had been a boy she had thought his very soul pellucid; it had clouded opaquely against her scrutiny as he passed into adolescence. then through the period of visits and departures, travel together, separations, he grew into something detached and admirable, a man curiously reminiscent of his father, unexpectedly different. she ceased to feel what he was feeling in his mind, had to watch him, infer, guess, speculate about him. she desired for him and dreaded for him with an undying tenderness, but she no longer had any assurance that she could interfere to help him. he had his father's trick of falling into thought. her brown eyes would watch him across the flowers and delicate glass and silver of her dinner table when he dined at home with her. sometimes he seemed to forget she existed, sometimes he delighted in her, talked to amuse her, petted her; sometimes, and then it was she was happiest, he talked of plays and books with her, discussed general questions, spoke even of that broadly conceived scheme of work which engaged so much of his imagination. she knew that it was distinguished and powerful work. old friends of her husband spoke of it to her, praised its inspired directness, its beautiful simplicity. since the days of wollaston, they said, no one had been so witty an experimenter, no one had got more out of mere scraps of apparatus or contrived more ingenious simplifications. when he had accepted the minor professorship which gave him a footing in the world of responsible scientific men, she had taken a house in a quiet street in chelsea which necessitated a daily walk to his laboratory. it was a little old georgian house with worn and graceful rooms, a dignified front door and a fine gateway of sussex ironwork much painted and eaten away. she arranged it with great care; she had kept most of her furniture, and his study had his father's bureau, and the selfsame agate paper-weight that had pressed the unfinished paper he left when he died. she was a woman of persistent friendships, and there came to her, old connections of those early times trailing fresher and younger people in their wake, sons, daughters, nephews, disciples; her son brought home all sorts of interesting men, and it was remarkable to her that amidst the talk and discussion at her table, she discovered aspects of her son and often quite intimate aspects she would never have seen with him alone. she would not let herself believe that this indian summer of her life could last for ever. he was no passionless devotee of research, for all his silence and restraints. she had seen him kindle with anger at obstacles and absurdities, and quicken in the presence of beauty. she knew how readily and richly he responded to beauty. things happened to have run smoothly with him so far, that was all. "of course," she said, "he must fall in love. it cannot be long before he falls in love." once or twice that had seemed to happen, and then it had come to nothing.... she knew that sooner or later this completion of his possibilities must come, that the present steadfastness of purpose was a phase in which forces gathered, that love must sweep into his life as a deep and passionate disturbance. she wondered where it would take him, whether it would leave him enriched or devastated. she saw at times how young he was; she had, as i suppose most older people have about their juniors, the profoundest doubt whether he was wise enough yet to be trusted with a thing so good as himself. he had flashes of high-spirited indiscretion, and at times a wildfire of humour flared in his talk. so far that had done no worse for him than make an enemy or so in scientific circles. but she had no idea of the limits of his excitability. she would watch him and fear for him--she knew the wreckage love can make--and also she desired that he should lose nothing that life and his nature could give him. § in the two months of separation that ensued before marjorie was one-and-twenty, trafford's mind went through some remarkable phases. at first the excitement of his passion for marjorie obscured everything else, then with his return to london and his laboratory the immense inertia of habit and slowly developed purposes, the complex yet convergent system of ideas and problems to which so much of his life had been given, began to reassert itself. his love was vivid and intense, a light in his imagination, a fever in his blood; but it was a new thing; it had not crept into the flesh and bones of his being, it was away there in surrey; the streets of london, his home, the white-walled chamber with its skylight and high windows and charts of constants, in which his apparatus was arranged, had no suggestion of her. she was outside--an adventure--a perplexing incommensurable with all these things. he had left buryhamstreet with marjorie riotously in possession of his mind. he could think of nothing but marjorie in the train, and how she had shone at him in the study, and how her voice had sounded when she spoke, and how she stood and moved, and the shape and sensation of her hands, and how it had felt to hold her for those brief moments in the wood and press lips and body to his, and how her face had gleamed in the laced shadows of the moonlight, soft and wonderful. in fact, he thought of marjorie. he thought she was splendid, courageous, wise by instinct. he had no doubt of her or that she was to be his--when the weeks of waiting had passed by. she was his, and he was marjorie's; that had been settled from the beginning of the world. it didn't occur to him that anything had happened to alter his life or any of his arrangements in any way, except that they were altogether altered--as the world is altered without displacement when the sun pours up in the east. he was glorified--and everything was glorified. he wondered how they would meet again, and dreamt a thousand impossible and stirring dreams, but he dreamt them as dreams. at first, to durgan's infinite distress, he thought of her all day, and then, as the old familiar interests grappled him again, he thought of her in the morning and the evening and as he walked between his home and the laboratory and at all sorts of incidental times--and even when the close-locked riddles of his research held the foreground and focus of his thoughts, he still seemed to be thinking of her as a radiant background to ions and molecules and atoms and interwoven systems of eddies and quivering oscillations deep down in the very heart of matter. and always he thought of her as something of the summer. the rich decays of autumn came, the chelsea roads were littered with variegated leaves that were presently wet and dirty and slippery, the twilight crept down into the day towards five o'clock and four, but in his memory of her the leaves were green, the evenings were long, the warm quiet of rural surrey in high august filled the air. so that it was with a kind of amazement he found her in london and in november close at hand. he was called to the college telephone one day from a conversation with a proposed research student. it was a middle-aged woman bachelor anxious for the d.sc., who wished to occupy the further bench in the laboratory; but she had no mental fire, and his mind was busy with excuses and discouragements. he had no thought of marjorie when she answered, and for an instant he did not recognize her voice. "yes, i'm mr. trafford."... "who is it?" he reiterated with a note of irascibility. "_who?_" the little voice laughed. "why! i'm marjorie!" it said. then she was back in his life like a lantern suddenly become visible in a wood at midnight. it was like meeting her as a china figure, neat and perfect and two inches high. it was her voice, very clear and very bright, and quite characteristic, as though he was hearing it through the wrong end of a telescope. it was her voice, clear as a bell; confident without a shadow. "it's _me!_ marjorie! i'm twenty-one to-day!" it was like a little arrow of exquisite light shot into the very heart of his life. he laughed back. "are you for meeting me then, marjorie?" § they met in kensington gardens with an air of being clandestine and defiant. it was one of those days of amber sunlight, soft air, and tender beauty with which london relieves the tragic glooms of the year's decline. there were still a residue of warm-tinted leaves in puffs and clusters upon the tree branches, a boat or two ruffled the blue serpentine, and the waterfowl gave colour and animation to the selvage of the water. the sedges were still a greenish yellow. the two met shyly. they were both a little unfamiliar to each other. trafford was black-coated, silk-hatted, umbrella-d, a decorous young professor in the place of the cheerful aeronaut who had fallen so gaily out of the sky. marjorie had a new tailor-made dress of russet-green, and a little cloth toque ruled and disciplined the hair he had known as a ruddy confusion.... they had dreamt, i think, of extended arms and a wild rush to embrace one another. instead, they shook hands. "and so," said trafford, "we meet again!" "i don't see why we shouldn't meet!" said marjorie. there was a slight pause. "let's have two of those jolly little green chairs," said trafford.... they walked across the grass towards the chairs he had indicated, and both were full of the momentous things they were finding it impossible to say. "there ought to be squirrels here, as there are in new york," he said at last. they sat down. there was a moment's silence, and then trafford's spirit rose in rebellion and he plunged at this--this stranger beside him. "look here," he said, "do you still love me, marjorie?" she looked up into his face with eyes in which surprise and scrutiny passed into something altogether beautiful. "i love you--altogether," she said in a steady, low voice. and suddenly she was no longer a stranger, but the girl who had flitted to his arms breathless, unhesitating, through the dusk. his blood quickened. he made an awkward gesture as though he arrested an impulse to touch her. "my sweetheart," he said. "my dear one!" marjorie's face flashed responses. "it's you," he said. "me," she answered. "do you remember?" "everything!" "my dear!" "i want to tell you things," said marjorie. "what are we to do?".... he tried afterwards to retrace that conversation. he was chiefly ashamed of his scientific preoccupations during that london interval. he had thought of a thousand things; marjorie had thought of nothing else but love and him. her happy assurance, her absolute confidence that his desires would march with hers, reproached and confuted every adverse thought in him as though it was a treachery to love. he had that sense which i suppose comes at times to every man, of entire unworthiness for the straight, unhesitating decision, the clear simplicity of a woman's passion. he had dreamt vaguely, unsubstantially, the while he had arranged his pressures and temperatures and infinitesimal ingredients, and worked with goniometer and trial models and the new calculating machine he had contrived for his research. but she had thought clearly, definitely, fully--of nothing but coming to him. she had thought out everything that bore upon that; reasons for preciptance, reasons for delay, she had weighed the rewards of conformity against the glamour of romance. it became more and more clear to him as they talked, that she was determined to elope with him, to go to italy, and there have an extraordinarily picturesque and beautiful time. her definiteness shamed his poverty of anticipation. her enthusiasm carried him with her. of course it was so that things must be done.... when at last they parted under the multiplying lamps of the november twilight, he turned his face eastward. he was afraid of his mother's eyes--he scarcely knew why. he walked along kensington gore, and the clustering confused lights of street and house, white and golden and orange and pale lilac, the moving lamps and shining glitter of the traffic, the luminous interiors of omnibuses, the reflection of carriage and hoarding, the fading daylight overhead, the phantom trees to the left, the deepening shadows and blacknesses among the houses on his right, the bobbing heads of wayfarers, were just for him the stir and hue and texture of fairyland. all the world was fairyland. he went to his club and dined there, and divided the evening between geography, as it is condensed in baedeker and murray on north italy, italian switzerland and the italian riviera, and a study of the marriage laws as they are expounded in "whitaker's almanac," the "encyclopædia britannica," and other convenient works of reference. he replaced the books as he used them, and went at last from the library into the smoking-room, but seeing a man who might talk to him there, he went out at once into the streets, and fetched a wide compass by baker street, oxford street, and hyde park, home. he was a little astonished at himself and everything. but it was going to be--splendid. (what poor things words can be!) § he found his mother still up. she had been re-reading "the old wives' tale," and she sat before a ruddy fire in the shadow beyond the lit circle of a green-shaded electric light thinking, with the book put aside. in the dimness above was his father's portrait. "time you were in bed, mother," he said reprovingly, and kissed her eyebrow and stood above her. "what's the book?" he asked, and picked it up and put it down, forgotten. their eyes met. she perceived he had something to say; she did not know what. "where have you been?" she asked. he told her, and they lapsed into silence. she asked another question and he answered her, and the indifferent conversation ended again. the silence lengthened. then he plunged: "i wonder, mother, if it would put you out very much if i brought home a wife to you?" so it had come to this--and she had not seen it coming. she looked into the glowing recesses of the fire before her and controlled her voice by an effort. "i'd be glad for you to do it, dear--if you loved her," she said very quietly. he stared down at her for a moment; then he knelt down beside her and took her hand and kissed it. "_my dear_," she whispered softly, stroking his head, and her tears came streaming. for a time they said no more. presently he put coal on the fire, and then sitting on the hearthrug at her feet and looking away from her into the flames--in an attitude that took her back to his boyhood--he began to tell her brokenly and awkwardly of marjorie. "it's so hard, mother, to explain these things," he began. "one doesn't half understand the things that are happening to one. i want to make you in love with her, dear, just as i am. and i don't see how i can." "perhaps i shall understand, my dear. perhaps i shall understand better than you think." "she's such a beautiful thing--with something about her----. you know those steel blades you can bend back to the hilt--and they're steel! and she's tender. it's as if someone had taken tears, mother, and made a spirit out of them----" she caressed and stroked his hand. "my dear," she said, "i know." "and a sort of dancing daring in her eyes." "yes," she said. "but tell me where she comes from, and how you met her--and all the circumstantial things that a sensible old woman can understand." he kissed her hand and sat down beside her, with his shoulder against the arm of her chair, his fingers interlaced about his knee. she could not keep her touch from his hair, and she tried to force back the thought in her mind that all these talks must end, that very soon indeed they would end. and she was glad, full of pride and joy too that her son was a lover after her heart, a clean and simple lover as his father had been before him. he loved this unknown marjorie, finely, sweetly, bravely, even as she herself could have desired to have been loved. she told herself she did not care very greatly even if this marjorie should prove unworthy. so long as her son was not unworthy. he pieced his story together. he gave her a picture of the popes, marjorie in her family like a jewel in an ugly setting, so it seemed to him, and the queer dull rage of her father and all that they meant to do. she tried to grasp his perplexities and advise, but chiefly she was filled with the thought that he was in love. if he wanted a girl he should have her, and if he had to take her by force, well, wasn't it his right? she set small store upon the popes that night--or any circumstances. and since she herself had married on the slightest of security, she was concerned very little that this great adventure was to be attempted on an income of a few hundreds a year. it was outside her philosophy that a wife should be anything but glad to tramp the roads if need be with the man who loved her. he sketched out valiant plans, was for taking marjorie away in the teeth of all opposition and bringing her back to london. it would have to be done decently, of course, but it would have, he thought, to be done. mrs. trafford found the prospect perfect; never before had he sounded and looked so like that dim figure which hung still and sympathetic above them. ever and again she glanced up at her husband's quiet face.... on one point she was very clear with him. "you'll live with us, mother?" he said abruptly. "not with you. as near as you like. but one house, one woman.... i'll have a little flat of my own--for you both to come to me." "oh, nonsense, mother! you'll have to be with us. living alone, indeed!" "my dear, i'd _prefer_ a flat of my own. you don't understand--everything. it will be better for all of us like that." there came a little pause between them, and then her hand was on his head again. "oh, my dear," she said, "i want you to be happy. and life can be difficult. i won't give a chance--for things to go wrong. you're hers, dear, and you've got to be hers--be each other's altogether. i've watched so many people. and that's the best, the very best you can have. there's just the lovers--the real enduring lovers; and the uncompleted people who've failed to find it."... § trafford's second meeting with marjorie, which, by the by, happened on the afternoon of the following day, brought them near to conclusive decisions. the stiffness of their first encounter in london had altogether vanished. she was at her prettiest and in the highest spirits--and she didn't care for anything else in the world. a gauzy silk scarf which she had bought and not paid for that day floated atmospherically about her straight trim body; her hair had caught the infection of insurrection and was waving rebelliously about her ears. as he drew near her his grave discretion passed from him as clouds pass from a hillside. she smiled radiantly. he held out both his hands for both of hers, and never did a maiden come so near and yet not get a public and shameless kissing. one could as soon describe music as tell their conversation. it was a matter of tones and feelings. but the idea of flight together, of the bright awakening in unfamiliar sunshine with none to come between them, had gripped them both. a certain sober gravity of discussion only masked that deeper inebriety. it would be easy for them to get away; he had no lectures until february; he could, he said, make arrangements, leave his research. she dreaded disputation. she was for a simple disappearance, notes on pincushions and defiantly apologetic letters from boulogne, but his mother's atmosphere had been a gentler one than her home's, with a more powerful disposition to dignity. he still couldn't understand that the cantankerous egotism of pope was indeed the essential man; it seemed to him a crust of bad manners that reason ought to pierce. the difference in their atmospheres came out in their talk--in his desire for a handsome and dignified wedding--though the very heavens protested--and her resolve to cut clear of every one, to achieve a sort of gaol delivery of her life, make a new beginning altogether, with the minimum of friction and the maximum of surprise. unused to fighting, he was magnificently prepared to fight; she, with her intimate knowledge of chronic domestic conflict, was for the evasion of all the bickerings, scoldings, and misrepresentations his challenge would occasion. he thought in his innocence a case could be stated and discussed; but no family discussion she had ever heard had even touched the realities of the issue that occasioned it. "i don't like this underhand preparation," he said. "nor i," she echoed. "but what can one do?" "well, oughtn't i to go to your father and give him a chance? why shouldn't i? it's--the dignified way." "it won't be dignified for father," said marjorie, "anyhow." "but what right has he to object?" "he isn't going to discuss his rights with you. he _will_ object." "but _why?_" "oh! because he's started that way. he hit you. i haven't forgotten it. well, if he goes back on that now----he'd rather die than go back on it. you see, he's ashamed in his heart. it would be like confessing himself wrong not to keep it up that you're the sort of man one hits. he just hates you because he hit you. i haven't been his daughter for twenty-one years for nothing." "i'm thinking of us," said trafford. "i don't see we oughtn't to go to him just because he's likely to be--unreasonable." "my dear, do as you please. he'll forbid and shout, and hit tables until things break. suppose he locks me up!" "oh, habeas corpus, and my strong right arm! he's much more likely to turn you out-of-doors." "not if he thinks the other will annoy you more. i'll have to bear a storm." "not for long." "he'll bully mother till she cries over me. but do as you please. she'll come and she'll beg me----do as you please. perhaps i'm a coward. i'd far rather i could slip away." trafford thought for a moment. "i'd far rather you could," he answered, in a voice that spoke of inflexible determinations. they turned to the things they meant to do. "_italy!_" she whispered, "_italy!_" her face was alight with her burning expectation of beauty, of love, of the new heaven and the new earth that lay before them. the intensity of that desire blazing through her seemed to shame his dull discretions. he had to cling to his resolution, lest it should vanish in that contagious intoxication. "you understand i shall come to your father," he said, as they drew near the gate where it seemed discreet for them to part. "it will make it harder to get away," she said, with no apparent despondency. "it won't stop us. oh! do as you please." she seemed to dismiss the question, and stood hand-in-hand with him in a state of glowing gravity. she wouldn't see him again for four-and-twenty hours. then a thought came into her head--a point of great practical moment. "oh!" she said, "of course, you won't tell father you've seen me." she met his eye. "really you mustn't," she said. "you see--he'll make a row with mother for not having watched me better. i don't know what he isn't likely to do. it isn't myself----this is a confidential communication--all this. no one in this world knows i am meeting you. if you _must_ go to him, go to him." "for myself?" she nodded, with her open eyes on his--eyes that looked now very blue and very grave, and her lips a little apart. she surprised him a little, but even this sudden weakness seemed adorable. "all right," he said. "you don't think that i'm shirking----?" she asked, a little too eagerly. "you know your father best," he answered. "i'll tell you all he says and all the terror of him here to-morrow afternoon." § in the stillness of the night trafford found himself thinking over marjorie; it was a new form of mental exercise, which was destined to play a large part in his existence for many subsequent years. there had come a shadow on his confidence in her. she was a glorious person; she had a kind of fire behind her and in her--shining through her, like the lights in a fire-opal, but----he wished she had not made him promise to conceal their meeting and their close co-operation from her father. why did she do that? it would spoil his case with her father, and it could forward things for them in no conceivable way. and from that, in some manner too subtle to trace, he found his mind wandering to another problem, which was destined to reappear with a slowly dwindling importance very often in this procedure of thinking over marjorie in the small hours. it was the riddle--it never came to him in the daytime, but only in those intercalary and detachedly critical periods of thought--why exactly had she engaged herself to magnet? why had she? he couldn't imagine himself, in marjorie's position, doing anything of the sort. marjorie had ways of her own; she was different.... well, anyhow, she was splendid and loving and full of courage.... he had got no further than this when at last he fell asleep. § trafford's little attempt to regularise his position was as creditable to him as it was inevitably futile. he sought out , hartstone square in the morning on his way to his laboratory, and he found it one of a great row of stucco houses each with a portico and a dining-room window on the ground floor, and each with a railed area from which troglodytic servants peeped. collectively the terrace might claim a certain ugly dignity of restraint, there was none of your queen anne nonsense of art or beauty about it, and the narrow height, the subterranean kitchens of each constituent house, told of a steep relentless staircase and the days before the pampering of the lower classes began. the houses formed a square, as if the british square so famous at waterloo for its dogged resistance to all the forces of the universe had immortalized itself in buildings, and they stared upon a severely railed garden of hardy shrubs and gravel to which the tenants had the inestimable privilege of access. they did not use it much, that was their affair, but at any rate they had keys and a nice sense of rights assured, and at least it kept other people out. trafford turned out of a busy high road full of the mixed exhilarating traffic of our time, and came along a quiet street into this place, and it seemed to him he had come into a corner of defence and retreat, into an atmosphere of obstinate and unteachable resistances. but this illusion of conservativism in its last ditch was dispelled altogether in mr. pope's portico. youth flashed out of these solemnities like a dart shot from a cave. trafford was raising his hand to the solid brass knocker when abruptly it was snatched from his fingers, the door was flung open and a small boy with a number of dirty books in a strap flew out and hit him with projectile violence. "blow!" said the young gentleman recoiling, and trafford recovering said: "hullo, theodore!" "lord!" said theodore breathless, "it's you! _what_ a lark! your name's never mentioned--no how. what _did_ you do?... wish i could stop and see it! i'm ten minutes late. _ave atque vale_. so long!" he vanished with incredible velocity. and mr. trafford was alone in possession of the open doorway except for toupee, who after a violent outbreak of hostility altered his mind and cringed to his feet in abject and affectionate propitiation. a pseudo-twin appeared, said "hello!" and vanished, and then he had an instant's vision of mr. pope, newspaper in hand, appearing from the dining-room. his expression of surprise changed to malevolence, and he darted back into the room from which he had emerged. trafford decided to take the advice of a small brass plate on his left hand, and "ring also." a housemaid came out of the bowels of the earth very promptly and ushered him up two flights of stairs into what was manifestly mr. pope's study. it was a narrow, rather dark room lit by two crimson-curtained windows, and with a gas fire before which mr. pope's walking boots were warming for the day. the apartment revealed to trafford's cursory inspection many of the stigmata of an englishman of active intelligence and literary tastes. there in the bookcase were the collected works of scott, a good large illustrated shakespeare in numerous volumes, and a complete set of bound _punches_ from the beginning. a pile of back numbers of the _times_ stood on a cane stool in a corner, and in a little bookcase handy for the occupier of the desk were whitaker, wisden and an old peerage. the desk bore traces of recent epistolary activity, and was littered with the printed matter of aunt plessington's movements. two or three recent issues of _the financial review of reviews_ were also visible. about the room hung steel engravings apparently of defunct judges or at any rate of exceedingly grim individuals, and over the mantel were trophies of athletic prowess, a bat witnessing that mr. pope had once captained the second eleven at harrogby. mr. pope entered with a stern expression and a sentence prepared. "well, sir," he said with a note of ironical affability, "to what may i ascribe this--intrusion?" mr. trafford was about to reply when mr. pope interrupted. "will you be seated," he said, and turned his desk chair about for himself, and occupying it, crossed his legs and pressed the finger tips of his two hands together. "well, sir?" he said. trafford remained standing astraddle over the boots before the gas fire. "look here, sir," he said; "i am in love with your daughter. she's one and twenty, and i want to see her--and in fact----" he found it hard to express himself. he could think only of a phrase that sounded ridiculous. "i want--in fact--to pay my addresses to her." "well, sir, i don't want you to do so. that is too mild. i object strongly--very strongly. my daughter has been engaged to a very distinguished and able man, and i hope very shortly to hear that that engagement----practically it is still going on. i don't want you to intrude upon my daughter further." "but look here, sir. there's a certain justice--i mean a certain reasonableness----" mr. pope held out an arresting hand. "i don't wish it. let that be enough." "of course it isn't enough. i'm in love with her--and she with me. i'm an entirely reputable and decent person----" "may i be allowed to judge what is or is not suitable companionship for my daughter--and what may or may not be the present state of her affections?" "well, that's rather the point we are discussing. after all, marjorie isn't a baby. i want to do all this--this affair, openly and properly if i can, but, you know, i mean to marry marjorie--anyhow." "there are two people to consult in that matter." "i'll take the risk of that." "permit me to differ." a feeling of helplessness came over trafford. the curious irritation mr. pope always roused in him began to get the better of him. his face flushed hotly. "oh really! really! this is--this is nonsense!" he cried. "i never heard anything so childish and pointless as your objection----" "be careful, sir!" cried mr. pope, "be careful!" "i'm going to marry marjorie." "if she marries you, sir, she shall never darken my doors again!" "if you had a thing against me!" "_haven't_ i!" "what have you?" there was a quite perceptible pause before pope fired his shot. "does any decent man want the name of trafford associated with his daughter. trafford! look at the hoardings, sir!" a sudden blaze of anger lit trafford. "my god!" he cried and clenched his fists and seemed for a moment ready to fall upon the man before him. then he controlled himself by a violent effort. "you believe in that libel on my dead father?" he said, with white lips. "has it ever been answered?" "a hundred times. and anyhow!--confound it! i don't believe--_you_ believe it. you've raked it up--as an excuse! you want an excuse for your infernal domestic tyranny! that's the truth of it. you can't bear a creature in your household to have a will or preference of her own. i tell you, sir, you are intolerable--intolerable!" he was shouting, and pope was standing now and shouting too. "leave my house, sir. get out of my house, sir. you come here to insult me, sir!" a sudden horror of himself and pope seized the younger man. he stiffened and became silent. never in his life before had he been in a bawling quarrel. he was amazed and ashamed. "leave my house!" cried pope with an imperious gesture towards the door. trafford made an absurd effort to save the situation. "i am sorry, sir, i lost my temper. i had no business to abuse you----" "you've said enough." "i apologise for that. i've done what i could to manage things decently." "will you go, sir?" threatened mr. pope. "i'm sorry i came," said trafford. mr. pope took his stand with folded arms and an expression of weary patience. "i did what i could," said trafford at the door. the staircase and passage were deserted. the whole house seemed to have caught from mr. pope that same quality of seeing him out.... "confound it!" said trafford in the street. "how on earth did all this happen?"... he turned eastward, and then realized that work would be impossible that day. he changed his direction for kensington gardens, and in the flower-bordered walk near the albert memorial he sat down on a chair, and lugged at his moustache and wondered. he was extraordinarily perplexed, as well as ashamed and enraged by this uproar. how had it begun? of course, he had been stupidly abusive, but the insult to his father had been unendurable. did a man of pope's sort quite honestly believe that stuff? if he didn't, he deserved kicking. if he did, of course he was entitled to have it cleared up. but then he wouldn't listen! was there any case for the man at all? had he, trafford, really put the thing so that pope would listen? he couldn't remember. what was it he had said in reply to pope? what was it exactly that pope had said? it was already vague; it was a confused memory of headlong words and answers; what wasn't vague, what rang in his ears still, was the hoarse discord of two shouting voices. could marjorie have heard? § so marjorie carried her point. she wasn't to be married tamely after the common fashion which trails home and all one's beginnings into the new life. she was to be eloped with, romantically and splendidly, into a glorious new world. she walked on shining clouds, and if she felt some remorse, it was a very tender and satisfactory remorse, and with a clear conviction below it that in the end she would be forgiven. they made all their arrangements elaborately and carefully. trafford got a license to marry her; she was to have a new outfit from top to toe to go away with on that eventful day. it accumulated in the shop, and they marked the clothes _m.t._ she was watched, she imagined, but as her father did not know she had seen trafford, nothing had been said to her, and no attempt was made to prohibit her going out and coming in. trafford entered into the conspiracy with a keen interest, a certain amusement, and a queer little feeling of distaste. he hated to hide any act of his from any human being. the very soul of scientific work, you see, is publication. but marjorie seemed to justify all things, and when his soul turned against furtiveness, he reminded it that the alternative was bawling. one eventful afternoon he went to the college, and marjorie slipped round by his arrangement to have tea with mrs. trafford.... he returned about seven in a state of nervous apprehension; came upstairs two steps at a time, and stopped breathless on the landing. he gulped as he came in, and his eyes were painfully eager. "she's been?" he asked. but marjorie had won mrs. trafford. "she's been," she answered. "yes, she's all right, my dear." "oh, mother!" he said. "she's a beautiful creature, dear--and such a child! oh! such a child! and god bless you, dear, god bless you.... "i think all young people are children. i want to take you both in my arms and save you.... i'm talking nonsense, dear." he kissed her, and she clung to him as if he were something too precious to release. § the elopement was a little complicated by a surprise manoeuvre of mrs. pope's. she was more alive to the quality of the situation, poor lady! than her daughter suspected; she was watching, dreading, perhaps even furtively sympathizing and trying to arrange--oh! trying dreadfully to arrange. she had an instinctive understanding of the deep blue quiet in marjorie's eyes, and the girl's unusual tenderness with daffy and the children. she peeped under the blind as marjorie went out, noted the care in her dress, watched her face as she returned, never plumbed her with a question for fear of the answer. she did not dare to breathe a hint of her suspicions to her husband, but she felt things were adrift in swift, smooth water, and all her soul cried out for delay. so presently there came a letter from cousin susan pendexter at plymouth. the weather was beautiful, marjorie must come at once, pack up and come and snatch the last best glow of the dying autumn away there in the west. marjorie's jerry-built excuses, her manifest chagrin and reluctance, confirmed her mother's worst suspicions. she submitted and went, and mrs. pope and syd saw her off. i do not like to tell how a week later marjorie explained herself and her dressing-bag and a few small articles back to london from plymouth. suffice it that she lied desperately and elaborately. her mother had never achieved such miracles of mis-statement, and she added a vigour that was all her own. it is easier to sympathize with her than exonerate her. she was in a state of intense impatience, and--what is strange--extraordinarily afraid that something would separate her from her lover if she did not secure him. she was in a fever of determination. she could not eat or sleep or attend to anything whatever; she was occupied altogether with the thought of assuring herself to trafford. he towered in her waking vision over town and land and sea. he didn't hear the lies she told; he only knew she was magnificently coming back to him. he met her at paddington, a white-faced, tired, splendidly resolute girl, and they went to the waiting registrar's forthwith. she bore herself with the intentness and dignity of one who is taking the cardinal step in life. they kissed as though it was a symbol, and were keenly business-like about cabs and luggage and trains. at last they were alone in the train together. they stared at one another. "we've done it, mrs. trafford!" said trafford. she snapped like an over-taut string, crumpled, clung to him, and without a word was weeping passionately in his arms. it surprised him that she could weep as she did, and still more to see her as she walked by his side along the folkestone pier, altogether recovered, erect, a little flushed and excited like a child. she seemed to miss nothing. "oh, smell the sea!" she said, "look at the lights! listen to the swish of the water below." she watched the luggage spinning on the wire rope of the giant crane, and he watched her face and thought how beautiful she was. he wondered why her eyes could sometimes be so blue and sometimes dark as night. the boat cleared the pier and turned about and headed for france. they walked the upper deck together and stood side by side, she very close to him. "i've never crossed the sea before," she said. "old england," she whispered. "it's like leaving a nest. a little row of lights and that's all the world i've ever known, shrunken to that already." presently they went forward and peered into the night. "look!" she said. "_italy!_ there's sunshine and all sorts of beautiful things ahead. warm sunshine, wonderful old ruins, green lizards...." she paused and whispered almost noiselessly: "_love_----" they pressed against each other. "and yet isn't it strange? all you can see is darkness, and clouds--and big waves that hiss as they come near...." § italy gave all her best to welcome them. it was a late year, a golden autumn, with skies of such blue as marjorie had never seen before. they stayed at first in a pretty little italian hotel with a garden on the lake, and later they walked over salvator to morcote and by boat to ponte tresa, and thence they had the most wonderful and beautiful tramp in the world to luino, over the hills by castelrotto. to the left of them all day was a broad valley with low-lying villages swimming in a luminous mist, to the right were purple mountains. they passed through paved streets with houses the colour of flesh and ivory, with balconies hung with corn and gourds, with tall church campaniles rising high, and great archways giving upon the blue lowlands; they tramped along avenues of sweet chestnut and between stretches of exuberant vineyard, in which men and women were gathering grapes--purple grapes, a hatful for a soldo, that rasped the tongue. everything was strange and wonderful to marjorie's eyes; now it would be a wayside shrine and now a yoke of soft-going, dewlapped oxen, now a chapel hung about with _ex votos_, and now some unfamiliar cultivation--or a gipsy-eyed child--or a scorpion that scuttled in the dust. the very names of the villages were like jewels to her, varasca, croglio, ronca, sesia, monteggio. they walked, or sat by the wayside and talked, or rested at the friendly table of some kindly albergo. a woman as beautiful as ceres, with a white neck all open, made them an omelette, and then fetched her baby from its cradle to nurse it while she talked to them as they made their meal. and afterwards she filled their pockets with roasted chestnuts, and sent them with melodious good wishes upon their way. and always high over all against the translucent blue hung the white shape of monte rosa, that warmed in colour as the evening came. marjorie's head was swimming with happiness and beauty, and with every fresh delight she recurred again to the crowning marvel of this clean-limbed man beside her, who smiled and carried all her luggage in a huge rucksack that did not seem to exist for him, and watched her and caressed her--and was hers, _hers!_ at baveno there were letters. they sat at a little table outside a café and read them, suddenly mindful of england again. incipient forgiveness showed through mrs. pope's reproaches, and there was also a simple, tender love-letter (there is no other word for it) from old mrs. trafford to her son. from baveno they set off up monte mottarone--whence one may see the alps from visto to ortler spitz--trusting to find the inn still open, and if it was closed to get down to orta somehow before night. or at the worst sleep upon the mountain side. (monte mottarone! just for a moment taste the sweet italian name upon your lips.) these were the days before the funicular from stresa, when one trudged up a rude path through the chestnuts and walnuts. as they ascended the long windings through the woods, they met an old poet and his wife, coming down from sunset and sunrise. there was a word or two about the inn, and they went upon their way. the old man turned ever and again to look at them. "adorable young people," he said. "adorable happy young people.... "did you notice, dear, how she held that dainty little chin of hers?... "pride is such a good thing, my dear, clear, straight pride like theirs--and they were both so proud!... "isn't it good, dear, to think that once you and i may have looked like that to some passer-by. i wish i could bless them--sweet, swift young things! i wish, dear, it was possible for old men to bless young people without seeming to set up for saints...." book the second marjorie married chapter the first settling down § it was in a boat among reeds upon the lake of orta that trafford first became familiarized with the idea that marjorie was capable of debt. "oh, i ought to have told you," she began, apropos of nothing. her explanation was airy; she had let the thing slip out of her mind for a time. but there were various debts to oxbridge tradespeople. how much? well, rather a lot. of course, the tradespeople were rather enticing when first one went up----how much, anyhow? "oh, about fifty pounds," said marjorie, after her manner. "not _more_. i've not kept all the bills; and some haven't come in. you know how slow they are." "these things _will_ happen," said trafford, though, as a matter of fact, nothing of the sort had happened in his case. "however, you'll be able to pay as soon as you get home, and get them all off your mind." "i think fifty pounds will clear me," said marjorie, clinging to her long-established total, "if you'll let me have that." "oh, we don't do things like that," said trafford. "i'm arranging that my current account will be a sort of joint account, and your signature will be as good as mine--for the purpose of drawing, at least. you'll have your own cheque-book----" "i don't understand, quite," said marjorie. "you'll have your own cheque-book and write cheques as you want them. that seems the simplest way to me." "of course," said marjorie. "but isn't this--rather unusual? father always used to allowance mother." "it's the only decent way according to my ideas," said trafford. "a man shouldn't marry when he can't trust." "of course not," said marjorie. something between fear and compunction wrung her. "do you think you'd better?" she asked, very earnestly. "better?" "do this." "why not?" "it's--it's so generous." he didn't answer. he took up an oar and began to push out from among the reeds with something of the shy awkwardness of a boy who becomes apprehensive of thanks. he stole a glance at her presently and caught her expression--there was something very solemn and intent in her eyes--and he thought what a grave, fine thing his marjorie could be. but, indeed, her state of mind was quite exceptionally confused. she was disconcerted--and horribly afraid of herself. "do you mean that i can spend what i like?" asked marjorie. "just as i may," he said. "i wonder," said marjorie again, "if i'd better." she was tingling with delight at this freedom, and she knew she was not fit for its responsibility. she just came short of a passionate refusal of his proposal. he was still so new to her, and things were so wonderful, or i think she would have made that refusal. "you've got to," said trafford, and ended the matter. so marjorie was silent--making good resolutions. § perhaps some day it may be possible to tell in english again, in the language of shakspeare and herrick, of the passion, the tenderness, the beauty, and the delightful familiarizations of a happy honeymoon; suffice it now, in this delicate period, to record only how our two young lovers found one day that neither had a name for the other. he said she could be nothing better than marjorie to him; and she, after a number of unsuccessful experiments, settled down to the old school-boy nickname made out of his initials, r. a. g. "dick," she said, "is too bird-like and boy-like. andrew i can't abide. goodwin gives one no chances for current use. rag you must be. mag and rag--poor innocents! old rag!" "mag," he said, "has its drawbacks! the street-boy in london says, 'shut your mag.' no, i think i shall stick to marjorie...." all honeymoons must end at last, so back they came to london, still very bright and happy. and then, marjorie, whose eyes had changed from flashing stones to darkly shining pools of blue, but whose soul had still perhaps to finds its depths, set herself to the business of decorating and furnishing the little house mrs. trafford had found for them within ten minutes of her own. meanwhile they lived in lodgings. there can be no denying that marjorie began her furnishing with severely virtuous intentions. she was very particular to ask trafford several times what he thought she might spend upon the enterprise. he had already a bedroom and a study equipped, and he threw out three hundred pounds as his conception of an acceptable figure. "very well," said marjorie, with a note of great precision, "now i shall know," and straightway that sum took a place in her imagination that was at once definitive and protective, just as her estimate of fifty pounds for her oxbridge debts had always been. she assured herself she was going to do things, and she assured herself she was doing things, on three hundred pounds. at times the astonishment of two or three school friends, who joined her in her shopping, stirred her to a momentary surprise at the way she was managing to keep things within that limit, and following a financial method that had, after all, in spite of some momentary and already nearly forgotten distresses, worked very well at oxbridge, she refrained from any additions until all the accounts had come to hand. it was an immense excitement shopping to make a home. there was in her composition a strain of constructive artistry with such concrete things, a strain that had hitherto famished. she was making a beautiful, secure little home for trafford, for herself, for possibilities--remote perhaps, but already touching her imagination with the anticipation of warm, new, wonderful delights. there should be simplicity indeed in this home, but no bareness, no harshness, never an ugliness nor a discord. she had always loved colour in the skies, in the landscapes, in the texture of stuffs and garments; now out of the chaotic skein of countless shops she could choose and pick and mingle her threads in a glow of feminine self-expression. on three hundred pounds, that is to say--as a maximum. the house she had to deal with was, like mrs. trafford's, old and rather small; it was partly to its lack of bedroom accommodation, but much more to the invasion of the street by the back premises of messrs. siddons & thrale, the great chelsea outfitters, that the lowness of the rent was due, a lowness which brought it within the means of trafford. marjorie knew very clearly that her father would say her husband had taken her to live in a noisy slum, and that made her all the keener to ensure that every good point in the interior told to its utmost, and that whatever was to be accessible to her family should glow with a refined but warm prosperity. the room downstairs was shapely, and by ripping off the papered canvas of the previous occupier, some very dilapidated but admirably proportioned panelling was brought to light. the dining-room and study door on the ground floor, by a happy accident, were of mahogany, with really very beautiful brass furnishings; and the dining-room window upon the minute but by no means offensive paved garden behind, was curved and had a little shallow balcony of ironwork, half covered by a devitalized but leafy grapevine. moreover, the previous occupier had equipped the place with electric light and a bathroom of almost american splendour on the landing, glass-shelved, white-tiled, and white painted, so that it was a delight to go into. marjorie's mind leapt very rapidly to the possibilities of this little establishment. the panelling must be done and done well, anyhow; that would be no more than a wise economy, seeing it might at any time help them to re-let; it would be painted white, of course, and thus set the key for a clean brightness of colour throughout. the furniture would stand out against the softly shining white, and its line and proportions must be therefore the primary qualities to consider as she bought it. the study was much narrower than the dining-room, and so the passage, which the agent called the hall, was much broader and more commodious behind the happily wide staircase than in front, and she was able to banish out of the sight of the chance visitor all that litter of hat-stand and umbrella-stand, letters, boxes arriving and parcels to post, which had always offended her eye at home. at home there had been often the most unsightly things visible, one of theo's awful caps, or his school books, and not infrequently her father's well-worn and all too fatally comfortable house slippers. a good effect at first is half the victory of a well done house, and marjorie accomplished another of her real economies here by carpeting hall and staircase with a fine-toned, rich-feeling and rather high-priced blue carpet, held down by very thick brass stair-rods. she hung up four well-chosen steel engravings, put a single chippendale chair in the hall, and a dark old dutch clock that had turned out to be only five pounds when she had expected the shopman to say eleven or twelve, on the half-landing. that was all. round the corner by the study door was a mahogany slab, and the litter all went upon a capacious but very simple dark-stained hat-stand and table that were out of the picture entirely until you reached the stairs. her dining-room was difficult for some time. she had equipped that with a dark oak welsh dresser made very bright with a dessert service that was, in view of its extremely decorative quality, remarkably cheap, and with some very pretty silver-topped glass bottles and flasks. this dresser and a number of simple but shapely facsimiles of old chairs, stood out against a nearly primrose paper, very faintly patterned, and a dark blue carpet with a margin of dead black-stained wood. over the mantel was a german colour-print of waves full of sunlight breaking under cliffs, and between this and the window were dark bookshelves and a few bright-coloured books. on the wall, black-framed, were four very good japanese prints, rich in greenish-blues and blueish-greys that answered the floor, and the window curtains took up some of the colours of the german print. but something was needed towards the window, she felt, to balance the warmly shining plates upon the dresser. the deep rose-red of the cherries that adorned them was too isolated, usurped too dominating a value. and while this was weighing upon her mind she saw in a window in regent street a number of bokhara hangings very nobly displayed. they were splendid pieces of needlework, particularly glorious in their crimsons and reds, and suddenly it came to her that it was just one of these, one that had great ruby flowers upon it with dead-blue interlacings, that was needed to weld her gay-coloured scheme together. she hesitated, went half-way to piccadilly circus, turned back and asked the prices. the prices were towering prices, ten, fifteen, eighteen guineas, and when at last the shopman produced one with all the charm of colour she sought at eight, it seemed like ten guineas snatched back as they dropped from her hands. and still hesitating, she had three that pleased her most sent home, "on approval," before she decided finally to purchase one of them. but the trial was conclusive. and then, struck with a sudden idea, she carried off a long narrow one she had had no idea of buying before into the little study behind. suppose, she thought, instead of hanging two curtains as anybody else would do in that window, she ran this glory of rich colour across from one side on a great rod of brass. she was giving the study the very best of her attention. after she had lapsed in some other part of the house from the standards of rigid economy she had set up, she would as it were restore the balance by adding something to the gracefully dignified arrangement of this den he was to use. and the brass rod of the bokhara hanging that was to do instead of curtains released her mind somehow to the purchase of certain old candlesticks she had hitherto resisted. they were to stand, bored to carry candle electric lights, on either corner of the low bookcase that faced the window. they were very heavy, very shapely candlesticks, and they cost thirty-five shillings. they looked remarkably well when they were put up, except that a sort of hollowness appeared between them and clamoured for a delightful old brass-footed workbox she had seen in a shop in baker street. enquiry confirmed her quick impression that this was a genuine piece (of quite exceptional genuineness) and that the price--they asked five pounds ten and came down to five guineas--was in accordance with this. it was a little difficult (in spite of the silent hunger between the candlesticks) to reconcile this particular article with her dominating idea of an austerely restrained expenditure, until she hit upon the device of calling it a _hors d'oeuvre_, and regarding it not as furniture but as a present from herself to trafford that happened to fall in very agreeably with the process of house furnishing. she decided she would some day economise its cost out of her dress allowance. the bookcase on which it stood was a happy discovery in kensington, just five feet high, and with beautiful oval glass fronts, and its capacity was supplemented and any excess in its price at least morally compensated by a very tall, narrow, distinguished-looking set of open shelves that had been made for some special corner in another house, and which anyhow were really and truly dirt cheap. the desk combined grace and good proportions to an admirable extent, the fender of pierced brass looked as if it had always lived in immediate contact with the shapely old white marble fireplace, and the two arm-chairs were marvels of dignified comfort. by the fireplace were a banner-shaped needlework firescreen, a white sheepskin hearthrug, a little patch and powder table adapted to carry books, and a green-shaded lamp, grouped in a common inaudible demand for a reader in slippers. trafford, when at last the apartment was ready for his inspection, surveyed these arrangements with a kind of dazzled admiration. "by jove!" he said. "how little people know of the homes of the poor!" marjorie was so delighted with his approval that she determined to show mrs. trafford next day how prettily at least her son was going to live. the good lady came and admired everything, and particularly the bokhara hangings. she did not seem to appraise, but something set marjorie talking rather nervously of a bargain-hunter's good fortune. mrs. trafford glanced at the candlesticks and the low bookcase, and returned to the glowing piece of needlework that formed the symmetrical window curtain in the study. she took it in her hand, and whispered, "beautiful!" "but aren't these rather good?" asked mrs. trafford. marjorie answered, after a little pause. "they're not too good for _him_," she said. § and now these young people had to resume life in london in earnest. the orchestral accompaniment of the world at large began to mingle with their hitherto unsustained duet. it had been inaudible in italy. in chelsea it had sounded, faintly perhaps but distinctly, from their very first inspection of the little house. a drawing-room speaks of callers, a dining-room of lunch-parties and dinners. it had swayed marjorie from the front door inward. during their honeymoon they had been gloriously unconscious of comment. now marjorie began to show herself keenly sensitive to the advent of a score of personalities, and very anxious to show just how completely successful in every sense her romantic disobedience had been. she knew she had been approved of, admired, condemned, sneered at, thoroughly discussed. she felt it her first duty to trafford, to all who had approved of her flight, to every one, herself included, to make this marriage obviously, indisputably, a success, a success not only by her own standards but by the standards of anyonesoever who chose to sit in judgment on her. there was trafford. she felt she had to extort the admission from every one that he was the handsomest, finest, ablest, most promising and most delightful man a prominent humorist was ever jilted for. she wanted them to understand clearly just all that trafford was--and that involved, she speedily found in practice, making them believe a very great deal that as yet trafford wasn't. she found it practically impossible not to anticipate his election to the royal society and the probability of a more important professorship. she felt that anyhow he was an f.r.s. in the sight of god.... it was almost equally difficult not to indicate a larger income than facts justified. it was entirely in marjorie's vein in those early days that she would want to win on every score and by every standard of reckoning. if marjorie had been a general she would have counted no victory complete if the struggle was not sustained and desperate, and if it left the enemy with a single gun or flag, or herself with so much as a man killed or wounded. the people she wanted to impress varied very widely. she wanted to impress the carmel girls, and the carmel girls, she knew, with their racial trick of acute appraisement, were only to be won by the very highest quality all round. they had, she knew, two standards of quality, cost and distinction. as far as possible, she would give them distinction. but whenever she hesitated over something on the verge of cheapness the thought of those impending judgments tipped the balance. the carmel girls were just two influential representatives of a host. she wanted to impress quite a number of other school and college friends. there were various shy, plastic-spirited, emotional creatures, of course, for the most part with no confidence in their own appearance, who would be impressed quite adequately enough by trafford's good looks and witty manner and easy temper. they might perhaps fall in love with him and become slavish to her after the way of their kind, and anyhow they would be provided for, but there were plenty of others of a harder texture whose tests would be more difficult to satisfy. there were girls who were the daughters of prominent men, who must be made to understand that trafford was prominent, girls who were well connected, who must be made to realize the subtle excellence of trafford's blood. as she thought of constance graham, for example, or ottiline winchelsea, she felt the strongest disposition to thicken the by no means well authenticated strands that linked trafford with the traffords of trafford-over-lea. she went about the house dreaming a little apprehensively of these coming calls, and the pitiless light of criticism they would bring to bear, not indeed upon her happiness--that was assured--but upon her success. the social side of the position would have to be strained to the utmost, marjorie felt, with aunt plessington. the thought of aunt plessington made her peculiarly apprehensive. aunt plessington had to the fullest extent that contempt for merely artistic or scientific people which sits so gracefully upon the administrative english. you see people of that sort do not get on in the sense that a young lawyer or barrister gets on. they do not make steps; they boast and quarrel and are jealous perhaps, but that steady patient shove upward seems beyond their intelligence. the energies god manifestly gave them for shoving, they dissipate in the creation of weak beautiful things and unremunerative theories, or in the establishment of views sometimes diametrically opposed to the ideas of influential people. and they are "queer"--socially. they just moon about doing this so-called "work" of theirs, and even when the judgment of eccentric people forces a kind of reputation upon them--heaven knows why?--they make no public or social use of it. it seemed to aunt plessington that the artist and the scientific man were dealt with very neatly and justly in the parable of the buried talent. moreover their private lives were often scandalous, they married for love instead of interest, often quite disadvantageously, and their relationships had all the instability that is natural upon such a foundation. and, after all, what good were they? she had never met an artist or a prominent imaginative writer or scientific man that she had not been able to subdue in a minute or so by flat contradiction, and if necessary slightly raising her voice. they had little or no influence even upon their own public appointments.... the thought of the invasion of her agreeable little back street establishment by this britannic system of judgments filled marjorie's heart with secret terrors. she felt she had to grapple with and overcome aunt plessington, or be for ever fallen--at least, so far as that amiable lady's report went, and she knew it went pretty far. she wandered about the house trying to imagine herself aunt plessington. immediately she felt the gravest doubts whether the whole thing wasn't too graceful and pretty. a rich and rather massive ugliness, of course, would have been the thing to fetch aunt plessington. happily, it was aunt plessington's habit to veil her eyes with her voice. she might not see very much. the subjugation of aunt plessington was difficult, but not altogether hopeless, marjorie felt, provided her rejection of magnet had not been taken as an act of personal ingratitude. there was a case on her side. she was discovering, for example, that trafford had a really very considerable range of acquaintance among quite distinguished people; big figures like evesham and machaldo, for example, were intelligently interested in the trend of his work. she felt this gave her a basis for plessingtonian justifications. she could produce those people--as one shows one's loot. she could imply, "oh, love and all that nonsense! certainly not! _this_ is what i did it for." with skill and care and good luck, and a word here and there in edgeways, she believed she might be able to represent the whole adventure as the well-calculated opening of a campaign on soundly plessingtonian lines. her marriage to trafford, she tried to persuade herself, might be presented as something almost as brilliant and startling as her aunt's swoop upon her undistinguished uncle. she might pretend that all along she had seen her way to things, to coveted dinner-tables and the familiarity of coveted guests, to bringing people together and contriving arrangements, to influence and prominence, to culminations and intrigues impossible in the comparatively specialized world of a successful humorist and playwright, and so at last to those high freedoms of authoritative and if necessary offensive utterance in a strangulated contralto, and from a position of secure eminence, which is the goal of all virtuously ambitious englishwomen of the governing classes--that is to say, of all virtuously ambitious englishwomen.... § and while such turbid solicitudes as these were flowing in again from the london world to which she had returned, and fouling the bright, romantic clearness of marjorie's life, trafford, in his ampler, less detailed way was also troubled about their coming re-entry into society. he, too, had his old associations. for example, he was by no means confident of the favourable judgments of his mother upon marjorie's circle of school and college friends, whom he gathered from marjorie's talk were destined to play a large part in this new phase of his life. she had given him very ample particulars of some of them; and he found them interesting rather than richly attractive personalities. it is to be noted that while he thought always of marjorie as a beautiful, grown-up woman, and his mate and equal, he was still disposed to regard her intimate friends as schoolgirls of an advanced and aggressive type.... then that large circle of distinguished acquaintances which marjorie saw so easily and amply utilized for the subjugation of aunt plessington didn't present itself quite in that service to trafford's private thoughts. he hadn't that certitude of command over them, nor that confidence in their unhesitating approval of all he said and did. just as marjorie wished him to shine in the heavens over all her people, so, in regard to his associates, he was extraordinarily anxious that they should realize, and realize from the outset without qualification or hesitation, how beautiful, brave and delightful she was. and you know he had already begun to be aware of an evasive feeling in his mind that at times she did not altogether do herself justice--he scarcely knew as yet how or why.... she was very young.... one or two individuals stood out in his imagination, representatives and symbols of the rest. particularly there was that old giant, sir roderick dover, who had been, until recently, the professor of physics in the great oxford laboratories. dover and trafford had one of those warm friendships which spring up at times between a rich-minded man whose greatness is assured and a young man of brilliant promise. it was all the more affectionate because dover had been a friend of trafford's father. these two and a group of other careless-minded, able, distinguished, and uninfluential men at the winton club affected the end of the smoking-room near the conservatory in the hours after lunch, and shared the joys of good talk and fine jesting about the big fireplace there. under dover's broad influence they talked more ideas and less gossip than is usual with english club men. twaddle about appointments, about reputations, topics from the morning's papers, london architecture, and the commerce in "good stories" took refuge at the other end in the window bays or by the further fireplace. trafford only began to realize on his return to london how large a share this intermittent perennial conversation had contributed to the atmosphere of his existence. amidst the romantic circumstances of his flight with marjorie he had forgotten the part these men played in his life and thoughts. now he was enormously exercised in the search for a reconciliation between these, he felt, incommensurable factors. he was afraid of what might be sir roderick's unspoken judgment on marjorie and the house she had made--though what was there to be afraid of? he was still more afraid--and this was even more remarkable--of the clear little judgments--hard as loose, small diamonds in a bed--that he thought marjorie might pronounce on sir roderick. he had never disguised from himself that sir roderick was fat--nobody who came within a hundred yards of him could be under any illusion about that--and that he drank a good deal, ate with a cosmic spaciousness, loved a cigar, and talked and laughed with a freedom that sometimes drove delicate-minded new members into the corners remotest from the historical fireplace. trafford knew himself quite definitely that there was a joy in dover's laugh and voice, a beauty in his face (that was somehow mixed up with his healthy corpulence), and a breadth, a charity, a leonine courage in his mind (that was somehow mixed up with his careless freedom of speech) that made him an altogether satisfactory person. but supposing marjorie didn't see any of that! still, he was on the verge of bringing sir roderick home when a talk at the club one day postponed that introduction of the two extremes of trafford's existence for quite a considerable time. those were the days of the first enthusiasms of the militant suffrage movement, and the occasional smashing of a downing street window or an assault upon a minister kept the question of woman's distinctive intelligence and character persistently before the public. godley buzard, the feminist novelist, had been the guest of some member to lunch, and the occasion was too provocative for any one about dover's fireplace to avoid the topic. buzard's presence, perhaps, drove dover into an extreme position on the other side; he forgot trafford's new-wedded condition, and handled this great argument, an argument which has scarcely progressed since its beginning in the days of plato and aristophanes, with the freedoms of an ancient greek and the explicitness of a modern scientific man. he opened almost apropos of nothing. "women," he said, "are inferior--and you can't get away from it." "you can deny it," said buzard. "in the face of the facts," said sir roderick. "to begin with, they're several inches shorter, several pounds lighter; they've less physical strength in footpounds." "more endurance," said buzard. "less sensitiveness merely. all those are demonstrable things--amenable to figures and apparatus. then they stand nervous tensions worse, the breaking-point comes sooner. they have weaker inhibitions, and inhibition is the test of a creature's position in the mental scale." he maintained that in the face of buzard's animated protest. buzard glanced at their moral qualities. "more moral!" cried dover, "more self-restraint! not a bit of it! their desires and passions are weaker even than their controls; that's all. weaken restraints and they show their quality. a drunken woman is far worse than a drunken man. and as for their biological significance----" "they are the species," said buzard, "and we are the accidents." "they are the stolon and we are the individualized branches. they are the stem and we are the fruits. surely it's better to exist than just transmit existence. and that's a woman's business, though we've fooled and petted most of 'em into forgetting it...." he proceeded to an attack on the intellectual quality of women. he scoffed at the woman artist, at feminine research, at what he called the joke of feminine philosophy. buzard broke in with some sentences of reply. he alleged the lack of feminine opportunity, inferior education. "you don't or won't understand me," said dover. "it isn't a matter of education or opportunity, or simply that they're of inferior capacity; it lies deeper than that. they don't _want_ to do these things. they're different." "precisely," ejaculated buzard, as if he claimed a score. "they don't care for these things. they don't care for art or philosophy, or literature or anything except the things that touch them directly. that's their peculiar difference. hunger they understand, and comfort, and personal vanity and desire, furs and chocolate and husbands, and the extreme importance conferred upon them by having babies at infrequent intervals. but philosophy or beauty for its own sake, or dreams! lord! no! the mahometans know they haven't souls, and they say it. we know, and keep it up that they have. haven't all we scientific men had 'em in our laboratories working; don't we know the papers they turn out? every sane man of five and forty knows something of the disillusionment of the feminine dream, but we who've had the beautiful creatures under us, weighing rather badly, handling rather weakly, invariably missing every fine detail and all the implications of our researches, never flashing, never leaping, never being even thoroughly bad,--we're specialists in the subject. at the present time there are far more educated young women than educated young men available for research work--and who wants them? oh, the young professors who've still got ideals perhaps. and in they come, and if they're dull, they just voluminously do nothing, and if they're bright, they either marry your demonstrator or get him into a mess. and the work----? it's nothing to them. no woman ever painted for the love of painting, or sang for the sounds she made, or philosophized for the sake of wisdom as men do----" buzard intervened with instances. dover would have none of them. he displayed astonishing and distinctive knowledge. "madame curie," clamoured buzard, "madame curie." "there was curie," said dover. "no woman alone has done such things. i don't say women aren't clever," he insisted. "they're too clever. give them a man's track or a man's intention marked and defined, they'll ape him to the life----" buzard renewed his protests, talking at the same time as dover, and was understood to say that women had to care for something greater than art or philosophy. they were custodians of life, the future of the race---- "and that's my crowning disappointment," cried dover. "if there was one thing in which you might think women would show a sense of some divine purpose in life, it is in the matter of children--and they show about as much care in that matter, oh!--as rabbits. yes, rabbits! i stick to it. look at the things a nice girl will marry; look at the men's children she'll consent to bring into the world. cheerfully! proudly! for the sake of the home and the clothes. nasty little beasts they'll breed without turning a hair. all about us we see girls and women marrying ugly men, dull and stupid men, ill-tempered dyspeptic wrecks, sickly young fools, human rats--_rats!_" "no, no!" cried trafford to dover. buzard's voice clamoured that all would be different when women had the vote. "if ever we get a decent care for eugenics, it will come from men," said a white-faced little man on the sofa beside trafford, in the confidential tone of one who tells a secret. "doing it cheerfully!" insisted dover. trafford in mid-protest was suddenly stricken into silence by a memory. it was as if the past had thrown a stone at the back of his head and hit it smartly. he nipped his sentence in the bud. he left the case for women to buzard.... he revived that memory again on his way home. it had been in his mind overlaid by a multitude of newer, fresher things, but now he took it out and looked at it. it was queer, it was really very queer, to think that once upon a time, not so very long ago, marjorie had been prepared to marry magnet. of course she had hated it, but still----.... there is much to be discovered about life, even by a brilliant and rising young professor of physics.... presently dover, fingering the little glass of yellow chartreuse he had hitherto forgotten in the heat of controversy, took a more personal turn. "don't we know," he said, and made the limpid amber vanish in his pause. "don't we know we've got to manage and control 'em--just as we've got to keep 'em and stand the racket of their misbehaviour? don't our instincts tell us? doesn't something tell us all that if we let a woman loose with our honour and trust, some other man will get hold of her? we've tried it long enough now, this theory that a woman's a partner and an equal; we've tried it long enough to see some of the results, and does it work? does it? a woman's a prize, a possession, a responsibility, something to take care of and be careful about.... you chaps, if you'll forgive me, you advanced chaps, seem to want to have the women take care of you. you seem always to want to force decisions on them, make them answerable for things that you ought to decide and answer for.... if one could, if one could! if!... but they're not helps--that's a dream--they're distractions, gratifications, anxieties, dangers, undertakings...." buzard got in his one effective blow at this point. "that's why you've never married, sir roderick?" he threw out. the big man was checked for a moment. trafford wondered what memory lit that instant's pause. "i've had my science," said dover. § mrs. pope was of course among the first to visit the new home so soon as it was open to inspection. she arrived, looking very bright and neat in a new bonnet and some new black furs that suited her, bearing up bravely but obviously in a state of dispersed and miscellaneous emotion.... in many ways marjorie's marriage had been a great relief to her mother. particularly it had been a financial relief. marjorie had been the most expensive child of her family, and her cessation had led to increments both of mrs. pope's and daphne's all too restricted allowances. mrs. pope had been able therefore to relapse from the orthodox anglicanism into which poverty had driven her, and indulge for an hour weekly in the consolations of higher thought. these exercises in emancipated religiosity occurred at the house of mr. silas root, and were greatly valued by a large circle of clients. essentially they were orgies of vacuity, and they cost six guineas for seven hours. they did her no end of good. all through the precious weekly hour she sat with him in a silent twilight, very, very still and feeling--oh! "higher" than anything, and when she came out she wore an inane smile on her face and was prepared not to worry, to lie with facility, and to take the easiest way in every eventuality in an entirely satisfactory and exalted manner. moreover he was "treating" her investments. acting upon his advice, and doing the whole thing quietly with the idea of preparing a pleasant surprise for her husband, she had sold out of certain home railway debentures and invested in a company for working the auriferous waste which is so abundant in the drainage of philadelphia, a company whose shareholders were chiefly higher thought disciples and whose profits therefore would inevitably be greatly enhanced by their concerted mental action. it was to the prospective profits in this that she owed the new black furs she was wearing. the furs and the bonnet and the previous day's treatment she had had, all helped to brace her up on marjorie's doorstep for a complex and difficult situation, and to carry her through the first tensions of her call. she was so much to pieces as it was that she could not help feeling how much more to pieces she might have been--but for the grace of silas root. she knew she ought to have very strong feelings about trafford, though it was not really clear to her what feelings she ought to have. on the whole she was inclined to believe she was experiencing moral disapproval mixed up with a pathetic and rather hopeless appeal for the welfare of the tender life that had entrusted itself so recklessly to these brutal and discreditable hands, though indeed if she had really dared to look inside her mind her chief discovery would have been a keenly jealous appreciation of trafford's good looks and generous temper, and a feeling of injustice as between her own lot and marjorie's. however, going on her assumed basis she managed to be very pale, concise and tight-lipped at any mention of her son-in-law, and to put a fervour of helpless devotion into her embraces of her daughter. she surveyed the house with a pained constrained expression, as though she tried in vain to conceal from herself that it was all slightly improper, and even such objects as the bokhara hangings failed to extort more than an insincere, "oh, very nice, dear--_very_ nice." in the bedroom, she spoke about mr. pope. "he was dreadfully upset," she said. "his first thought was to come after you both with a pistol. if--if _he_ hadn't married you----" "but dear mummy, of _course_ we meant to marry! we married right away." "yes, dear, of course. but if he hadn't----" she paused, and marjorie, with a momentary flush of indignation in her cheeks, did not urge her to conclude her explanation. "he's _wounded_," said mrs. pope. "some day perhaps he'll come round--you were always his favourite daughter." "i know," said marjorie concisely, with a faint flavour of cynicism in her voice. "i'm afraid dear, at present--he will do nothing for you." "i don't think rag would like him to," said marjorie with an unreal serenity; "_ever_." "for a time i'm afraid he'll refuse to see you. he just wants to forget----. everything." "poor old dad! i wish he wouldn't put himself out like this. still, i won't bother him, mummy, if you mean that." then suddenly into mrs. pope's unsystematic, unstable mind, started perhaps by the ring in her daughter's voice, there came a wave of affectionate feeling. that she had somehow to be hostile and unsympathetic to marjorie, that she had to pretend that trafford was wicked and disgusting, and not be happy in the jolly hope and happiness of this bright little house, cut her with a keen swift pain. she didn't know clearly why she was taking this coldly hostile attitude, or why she went on doing so, but the sense of that necessity hurt her none the less. she put out her hands upon her daughter's shoulders and whimpered: "oh my dear! i do wish things weren't so difficult--so very difficult." the whimper changed by some inner force of its own to honest sobs and tears. marjorie passed through a flash of amazement to a sudden understanding of her mother's case. "poor dear mummy," she said. "oh! poor dear mummy. it's a shame of us!" she put her arms about her mother and held her for awhile. "it _is_ a shame," said her mother in a muffled voice, trying to keep hold of this elusive thing that had somehow both wounded her and won her daughter back. but her poor grasp slipped again. "i knew you'd come to see it," she said, dabbing with her handkerchief at her eyes. "i knew you would." and then with the habitual loyalty of years resuming its sway: "he's always been so good to you."... but mrs. pope had something more definite to say to marjorie, and came to it at last with a tactful offhandedness. marjorie communicated it to trafford about an hour later on his return from the laboratory. "i say," she said, "old daffy's engaged to magnet!" she paused, and added with just the faintest trace of resentment in her voice: "she can have him, as far as i'm concerned." "he didn't wait long," said trafford tactlessly. "no," said marjorie; "he didn't wait long.... of course she got him on the rebound."... § mrs. pope was only a day or so ahead of a cloud of callers. the carmel girls followed close upon her, tall figures of black fur, with costly-looking muffs and a rich glitter at neck and wrist. marjorie displayed her house, talking fluently about other things, and watching for effects. the carmel girls ran their swift dark eyes over her appointments, glanced quickly from side to side of her rooms, saw only too certainly that the house was narrow and small----. but did they see that it was clever? they saw at any rate that she meant it to be clever, and with true oriental politeness said as much urgently and extravagantly. then there were the rambord girls and their mother, an unobservant lot who chattered about the ice at prince's; then constance graham came with a thoroughbred but very dirty aunt, and then ottiline winchelsea with an american minor poet, who wanted a view of mountains from the windows at the back, and said the bathroom ought to be done in pink. then lady solomonson came; an extremely expensive-looking fair lady with an affectation of cynicism, a keen intelligence, acutely apt conversation, and a queer effect of thinking of something else all the time she was talking. she missed nothing.... hardly anybody failed to appreciate the charm and decision of marjorie's use of those bokhara embroideries. they would have been cheap at double the price. § and then our two young people went out to their first dinner-parties together. they began with trafford's rich friend solomonson, who had played so large and so passive a part in their first meeting. he had behaved with a sort of magnanimous triumph over the marriage. he made it almost his personal affair, as though he had brought it about. "i knew there was a girl in it," he insisted, "and you told me there wasn't. o-a-ah! and you kept me in that smell of disinfectant and things--what a chap that doctor was for spilling stuff!--for six blessed days!..." marjorie achieved a dress at once simple and good with great facility by not asking the price until it was all over. (there is no half-success with dinner-dresses, either the thing is a success and inestimable, or not worth having at any price at all.) it was blue with a thread of gold, and she had a necklace of blueish moonstones, gold-set, and her hair ceased to be copper and became golden, and her eyes unfathomable blue. she was radiant with health and happiness, no one else there had her clear freshness, and her manner was as restrained and dignified and ready as a proud young wife's can be. everyone seemed to like her and respect her and be interested in her, and trafford kissed her flushed cheek in the hansom as they came home again and crowned her happiness. it had been quite a large party, and really much more splendid and brilliant than anything she had ever seen before. there had been one old gentleman with a coloured button and another with a ribbon; there had been a countess with historical pearls, and half-a-dozen other people one might fairly call distinguished. the house was tremendous in its way, spacious, rich, glowing with lights, abounding in vistas and fine remote backgrounds. in the midst of it all she had a sudden thrill at the memory that less than a year ago she had been ignominiously dismissed from the dinner-table by her father for a hiccup.... a few days after aunt plessington suddenly asked the traffords to one of her less important but still interesting gatherings; not one of those that swayed the world perhaps, but one which marjorie was given to understand achieved important subordinate wagging. aunt plessington had not called, she explained in her note, because of the urgent demands the movement made upon her time; it was her wonderful hard-breathing way never to call on anyone, and it added tremendously to her reputation; none the less it appeared--though here the scrawl became illegible--she meant to shove and steer her dear niece upward at a tremendous pace. they were even asked to come a little early so that she might make trafford's acquaintance. the dress was duly admired, and then aunt plessington--assuming the hearthrug and forgetting the little matter of their career--explained quite napoleonic and wonderful things she was going to do with her movement, fresh principles, fresh applications, a big committee of all the "names"--they were easy to get if you didn't bother them to do things--a new and more attractive title, "payment in kind" was to give way to "reality of reward," and she herself was going to have her hair bleached bright white (which would set off her eyes and colour and the general geniality of appearance due to her projecting teeth), and so greatly increase her "platform efficiency." hubert, she said, was toiling away hard at the detail of these new endeavours. he would be down in a few minutes' time. marjorie, she said, ought to speak at their meetings. it would help both the traffords to get on if marjorie cut a dash at the outset, and there was no such dash to be cut as speaking at aunt plessington's meetings. it was catching on; all next season it was sure to be the thing. so many promising girls allowed themselves to be submerged altogether in marriage for a time, and when they emerged everyone had forgotten the promise of their début. she had an air of rescuing marjorie from an impending fate by disabusing trafford from injurious prepossessions.... presently the guests began to drop in, a vegetarian health specialist, a rising young woman factory inspector, a phrenologist who was being induced to put great talents to better uses under aunt plessington's influence, his dumb, obscure, but inevitable wife, a colonial bishop, a baroness with a taste rather than a capacity for intellectual society, a wealthy jam and pickle manufacturer and his wife, who had subscribed largely to the funds of the movement and wanted to meet the lady of title, and the editor of the movement's organ, _upward and on_, a young gentleman of abundant hair and cadaverous silences, whom aunt plessington patted on the shoulder and spoke of as "one of our discoveries." and then uncle hubert came down, looking ruffled and overworked, with his ready-made dress-tie--he was one of those men who can never master the art of tying a bow--very much askew. the conversation turned chiefly on the movement; if it strayed aunt plessington reached out her voice after it and brought it back in a masterful manner. through soup and fish marjorie occupied herself with the inflexible rigour of the young editor, who had brought her down. when she could give her attention to the general conversation she discovered her husband a little flushed and tackling her aunt with an expression of quiet determination. the phrenologist and the vegetarian health specialist were regarding him with amazement, the jam and pickle manufacturer's wife was evidently deeply shocked. he was refusing to believe in the value of the movement, and aunt plessington was manifestly losing her temper. "i don't see, mrs. plessington," he was saying, "that all this amounts to more than a kind of glorious district visiting. that is how i see it. you want to attack people in their homes--before they cry out to you. you want to compel them by this payment in kind of yours to do what you want them to do instead of trying to make them want to do it. now, i think your business is to make them want to do it. you may perhaps increase the amount of milk in babies, and the amount of whitewash in cottages and slums by your methods--i don't dispute the promise of your statistics--but you're going to do it at a cost of human self-respect that's out of all proportion----" uncle hubert's voice, with that thick utterance that always suggested a mouthful of plums, came booming down the table. "all these arguments," he said, "have been answered long ago." "no doubt," said trafford with a faint asperity. "but tell me the answers." "it's ridiculous," said aunt plessington, "to talk of the self-respect of the kind of people--oh! the very dregs!" "it's just because the plant is delicate that you've got to handle it carefully," said trafford. "here's miss gant," said aunt plessington, "_she_ knows the strata we are discussing. she'll tell you they have positively _no_ self-respect--none at all." "_my_ people," said miss gant, as if in conclusive testimony, "actually conspire with their employers to defeat me." "i don't see the absence of self-respect in that," said trafford. "but all their interests----" "i'm thinking of their pride."... the discussion lasted to the end of dinner and made no headway. as soon as the ladies were in the drawing-room, aunt plessington, a little flushed from the conflict, turned on marjorie and said, "i _like_ your husband. he's wrong-headed, but he's young, and he's certainly spirited. he _ought_ to get on if he wants to. does he do nothing but his researches?" "he lectures in the spring term," said marjorie. "ah!" said aunt plessington with a triumphant note, "you must alter all that. you must interest him in wider things. you must bring him out of his shell, and let him see what it is to deal with affairs. then he wouldn't talk such nonsense about our work." marjory was at a momentary loss for a reply, and in the instant's respite aunt plessington turned to the jam and pickle lady and asked in a bright, encouraging note: "well! and how's the village club getting on?"... she had another lunge at trafford as he took his leave. "you must come again soon," she said. "i _love_ a good wrangle, and hubert and i never want to talk about our movement to any one but unbelievers. you don't know the beginnings of it yet. only i warn you they have a way of getting converted. i warn you."... on this occasion there was no kissing in the cab. trafford was exasperated. "of all the intolerable women!" he said, and was silent for a time. "the astounding part of it is," he burst out, "that this sort of thing, this movement and all the rest of it, does really give the quality of english public affairs. it's like a sample--dredged. the--the _cheapness_ of it! raised voices, rash assertions, sham investigations, meetings and committees and meetings, that's the stuff of it, and politicians really have to attend to it, and silly, ineffective, irritating bills really get drafted and messed about with and passed on the strength of it. public affairs are still in the dark ages. nobody now would think of getting together a scratch committee of rich old women and miscellaneous conspicuous people to design an electric tram, and jabbering and jabbering and jabbering, and if any one objects"--a note of personal bitterness came into his voice--"jabbering faster; but nobody thinks it ridiculous to attempt the organization of poor people's affairs in that sort of way. this project of the supersession of wages by payment in kind--oh! it's childish. if it wasn't it would be outrageous and indecent. your uncle and aunt haven't thought for a moment of any single one of the necessary consequences of these things they say their confounded movement aims at, effects upon the race, upon public spirit, upon people's habits and motives. they've just a queer craving to feel powerful and influential, which they think they can best satisfy by upsetting the lives of no end of harmless poor people--the only people they dare upset--and that's about as far as they go.... your aunt's detestable, marjorie." marjorie had never seen him so deeply affected by anything but herself. it seemed to her he was needlessly disturbed by a trivial matter. he sulked for a space, and then broke out again. "that confounded woman talks of my physical science," he said, "as if research were an amiable weakness, like collecting postage stamps. and it's changed human conditions more in the last ten years than all the parliamentary wire-pullers and legislators and administrative experts have done in two centuries. and for all that, there's more clerks in whitehall than professors of physics in the whole of england."... "i suppose it's the way that sort of thing gets done," said marjorie, after an interval. "that sort of thing doesn't get done," snapped trafford. "all these people burble about with their movements and jobs, and lectures and stuff--and _things happen_. like some one getting squashed to death in a crowd. nobody did it, but anybody in the muddle can claim to have done it--if only they've got the cheek of your aunt plessington." he seemed to have finished. "_done!_" he suddenly broke out again. "why! people like your aunt plessington don't even know where the handle is. if they ventured to look for it, they'd give the whole show away! done, indeed!" "here we are!" said marjorie, a little relieved to find the hansom turning out of king's road into their own side street.... and then marjorie wore the blue dress with great success at the carmels'. the girls came and looked at it and admired it--it was no mere politeness. they admitted there was style about it, a quality--there was no explaining. "you're _wonderful_, madge!" cried the younger carmel girl. the carmel boy, seizing the opportunity of a momentary seclusion in a corner, ended a short but rather portentous silence with "i say, you _do_ look ripping," in a voice that implied the keenest regret for the slacknesses of a summer that was now infinitely remote to marjorie. it was ridiculous that the carmel boy should have such emotions--he was six years younger than trafford and only a year older than marjorie, and yet she was pleased by his manifest wound.... there was only one little thing at the back of her mind that alloyed her sense of happy and complete living that night, and that was the ghost of an addition sum. at home, in her pretty bureau, a little gathering pile of bills, as yet unpaid, and an empty cheque-book with appealing counterfoils, awaited her attention. marjorie had still to master the fact that all the fine braveries and interests and delights of life that offer themselves so amply to the favoured children of civilization, trail and, since the fall of man at any rate, have trailed after them something--something, the justification of morality, the despair of all easy, happy souls, the unavoidable drop of bitterness in the cup of pleasure--the reckoning. chapter the second the child of the ages § when the intellectual history of this time comes to be written, nothing i think will stand out more strikingly than the empty gulf in quality between the superb and richly fruitful scientific investigations that are going on and the general thought of other educated sections of the community. i do not mean that the scientific men are as a whole a class of supermen, dealing with and thinking about everything in a way altogether better than the common run of humanity, but that in their own field, they think and work with an intensity, an integrity, a breadth, boldness, patience, thoroughness and faithfulness that (excepting only a few artists) puts their work out of all comparison with any other human activity. often the field in which the work is done is very narrow, and almost universally the underlying philosophy is felt rather than apprehended. a scientific man may be large and deep-minded, deliberate and personally detached in his work, and hasty, commonplace and superficial in every other relation of life. nevertheless it is true that in these particular directions the human mind has achieved a new and higher quality of attitude and gesture, a veracity, self-detachment and self-abnegating vigour of criticism that tend to spread out and must ultimately spread out to every other human affair. in these uncontroversial issues at least mankind has learnt the rich rewards that ensue from patience and infinite pains. the peculiar circumstances of trafford's birth and upbringing had accentuated his natural disposition toward this new thoroughness of intellectual treatment which has always distinguished the great artist, and which to-day is also the essential quality of the scientific method. he had lived apart from any urgency to produce and compete in the common business of the world; his natural curiosities, fed and encouraged by his natural gifts, had grown into a steady passion for clarity and knowledge. but with him there was no specialization. he brought out from his laboratory into the everyday affairs of the world the same sceptical restraint of judgment which is the touchstone of scientific truth. this made him a tepid and indeed rather a scornful spectator of political and social life. party formulae, international rivalries, social customs, and very much of the ordinary law of our state impressed him as a kind of fungoid growth out of a fundamental intellectual muddle. it all maintained itself hazardously, changing and adapting itself unintelligently to unseen conditions. he saw no ultimate truth in this seething welter of human efforts, no tragedy as yet in its defeats, no value in its victories. it had to go on, he believed, until the spreading certitudes of the scientific method pierced its unsubstantial thickets, burst its delusive films, drained away its folly. aunt plessington's talk of order and progress and the influence of her movement impressed his mind very much as the cackle of some larger kind of hen--which cackles because it must. only aunt plessington being human simply imagined the egg. she laid--on the plane of the ideal. when the great nonsensical issues between liberal and conservative, between socialist and individualist, between "anglo-saxon" and "teuton," between the "white race" and the "yellow race" arose in trafford's company, he would if he felt cheerful take one side or the other as chance or his amusement with his interlocutors determined, and jest and gibe at the opponent's inconsistencies, and if on the other hand he chanced to be irritable he would lose his temper at this "chewing of mesembryanthemum" and sulk into silence. "chewing mesembryanthemum" was one of trafford's favourite images,--no doubt the reader knows that abundant fleshy mediterranean weed and the weakly unpleasant wateriness of its substance. he went back to his laboratory and his proper work after such discussions with a feeling of escape, as if he shut a door upon a dirty and undisciplined market-place crowded with mental defectives. yet even before he met and married marjorie, there was a queer little undertow of thought in his mind which insisted that this business could not end with door-slamming, that he didn't altogether leave the social confusion outside his panels when he stood alone before his apparatus, and that sooner or later that babble of voices would force his defences and overcome his disdain. his particular work upon the intimate constitution of matter had broadened very rapidly in his hands. the drift of his work had been to identify all colloids as liquid solutions of variable degrees of viscosity, and to treat crystalline bodies as the only solids. he had dealt with oscillating processes in colloid bodies with especial reference to living matter. he had passed from a study of the melting and toughening of glass to the molecular structure of a number of elastic bodies, and so, by a characteristic leap into botanical physiology, to the states of resinous and gummy substances at the moment of secretion. he worked at first upon a false start, and then resumed to discover a growing illumination. he found himself in the presence of phenomena that seemed to him to lie near the still undiscovered threshold to the secret processes of living protoplasm. he was, as it were, breaking into biology by way of molecular physics. he spent many long nights of deep excitement, calculating and arranging the development of these seductive intimations. it was this work which his marriage had interrupted, and to which he was now returning. he was surprised to find how difficult it was to take it up again. he had been only two months away from it, and yet already it had not a little of the feeling of a relic taken from a drawer. something had faded. it was at first as if a film had come over his eyes, so that he could no longer see these things clearly and subtly and closely. his senses, his emotions, had been living in a stirring and vivid illumination. now in this cool quietude bright clouds of coloured memory-stuff swam distractingly before his eyes. phantom kisses on his lips, the memory of touches and the echoing vibrations of an adorable voice, the thought of a gay delightful fireside and the fresh recollection of a companion intensely felt beside him, effaced the delicate profundities of this dim place. durgan hovered about him, helpful and a mute reproach. trafford had to force his attention daily for the better part of two weeks before he had fully recovered the fine enchanting interest of that suspended work. § at last one day he had the happiness of possession again. he had exactly the sensation one gets when some hitherto intractable piece of a machine one is putting together, clicks neatly and beyond all hoping, into its place. he found himself working in the old style, with the hours slipping by disregarded. he sent out durgan to get him tobacco and tea and smoked-salmon sandwiches, and he stayed in the laboratory all night. he went home about half-past five, and found a white-faced, red-eyed marjorie still dressed, wrapped in a travelling-rug, and crumpled and asleep in his study arm-chair beside the grey ashes of an extinct fire. in the instant before she awoke he could see what a fragile and pitiful being a healthy and happy young wife can appear. her pose revealed an unsuspected slender weakness of body, her face something infantile and wistful he had still to reckon with. she awoke with a start and stared at him for a moment, and at the room about her. "oh, where have you been?" she asked almost querulously. "where _have_ you been?" "but my dear!" he said, as one might speak to a child, "why aren't you in bed? it's just dawn." "oh," she said, "i waited and i waited. it seemed you _must_ come. i read a book. and then i fell asleep." and then with a sob of feeble self-pity, "and here i am!" she rubbed the back of her hand into one eye and shivered. "i'm cold," she said, "and i want some tea." "let's make some," said trafford. "it's been horrible waiting," said marjorie without moving; "horrible! where have you been?" "i've been working. i got excited by my work. i've been at the laboratory. i've had the best spell of work i've ever had since our marriage." "but i have been up all night!" she cried with her face and voice softening to tears. "how _could_ you? how _could_ you?" he was surprised by her weeping. he was still more surprised by the self-abandonment that allowed her to continue. "i've been working," he repeated, and then looked about with a man's helplessness for the tea apparatus. one must have hot water and a teapot and a kettle; he would find those in the kitchen. he strolled thoughtfully out of the room, thinking out the further details of tea-making all mixed up with amazement at marjorie, while she sat wiping her eyes with a crumpled pocket-handkerchief. presently she followed him down with the rug about her like a shawl, and stood watching him as he lit a fire of wood and paper among the ashes in the kitchen fireplace. "it's been dreadful," she said, not offering to help. "you see," he said, on his knees, "i'd really got hold of my work at last." "but you should have sent----" "i was thinking of my work. i clean forgot." "forgot?" "absolutely." "forgot--_me!_" "of course," said trafford, with a slightly puzzled air, "you don't see it as i do." the kettle engaged him for a time. then he threw out a suggestion. "we'll have to have a telephone." "i couldn't imagine where you were. i thought of all sorts of things. i almost came round--but i was so horribly afraid i mightn't find you." he renewed his suggestion of a telephone. "so that if i really want you----" said marjorie. "or if i just want to feel you're there." "yes," said trafford slowly, jabbing a piece of firewood into the glow; but it was chiefly present in his mind that much of that elaborate experimenting of his wasn't at all a thing to be cut athwart by the exasperating gusts of a telephone bell clamouring for attention. hitherto the laboratory telephone had been in the habit of disconnecting itself early in the afternoon. and yet after all it was this instrument, the same twisted wire and little quivering tympanum, that had brought back marjorie into his life. § and now trafford fell into a great perplexity of mind. his banker had called his attention to the fact that his account was overdrawn to the extent of three hundred and thirteen pounds, and he had been under that vague sort of impression one always has about one's current account that he was a hundred and fifty or so to the good. his first impression was that those hitherto infallible beings, those unseen gnomes of the pass-book whose lucid figures, neat tickings, and unrelenting additions constituted banks to his imagination, must have made a mistake; his second that some one had tampered with a cheque. his third thought pointed to marjorie and the easy circumstances of his home. for a fortnight now she had been obviously ailing, oddly irritable; he did not understand the change in her, but it sufficed to prevent his taking the thing to her at once and going into it with her as he would have done earlier. instead he had sent for his pass-book, and in the presence of its neat columns realized for the first time the meaning of marjorie's "three hundred pounds." including half-a-dozen cheques to oxbridge tradesmen for her old debts, she had spent, he discovered, nearly seven hundred and fifty. he sat before the little bundle of crumpled strips of pink and white, perforated, purple stamped and effaced, in a state of extreme astonishment. it was no small factor in his amazement to note how very carelessly some of those cheques of marjorie's had been written. several she had not even crossed. the effect of it all was that she'd just spent his money--freely--with an utter disregard of the consequences. up to that moment it had never occurred to trafford that anybody one really cared for, could be anything but punctilious about money. now here, with an arithmetical exactitude of demonstration, he perceived that marjorie wasn't. it was so tremendous a discovery for him, so disconcerting and startling, that he didn't for two days say a word to her about it. he couldn't think of a word to say. he felt that even to put these facts before her amounted to an accusation of disloyalty and selfishness that he hadn't the courage to make. his work stopped altogether. he struggled hourly with that accusation. did she realize----? there seemed no escape from his dilemma; either she didn't care or she didn't understand! his thoughts went back to the lake of orta, when he had put all his money at her disposal. she had been surprised, and now he perceived she had also been a little frightened. the chief excuse he could find for her was that she was inexperienced--absolutely inexperienced. even now, of course, she was drawing fresh cheques.... he would have to pull himself together, and go into the whole thing--for all its infinite disagreeableness--with her.... but it was marjorie who broached the subject. he had found work at the laboratory unsatisfactory, and after lunching at his club he had come home and gone to his study in order to think out the discussion he contemplated with her. she came in to him as he sat at his desk. "busy?" she said. "not very," he answered, and she came up to him, kissed his head, and stood beside him with her hand on his shoulder. "pass-book?" she asked. he nodded. "i've been overrunning." "no end." the matter was opened. what would she say? she bent to his ear and whispered. "i'm going to overrun some more." his voice was resentful. "you _can't_," he said compactly without looking at her. "you've spent--enough." "there's--things." "what things?" her answer took some time in coming. "we'll have to give a wedding present to daffy.... i shall want--some more furniture." well, he had to go into it now. "i don't think you can have it," he said, and then as she remained silent, "marjorie, do you know how much money i've got?" "six thousand." "i _had_. but we've spent nearly a thousand pounds. yes--one thousand pounds--over and above income. we meant to spend four hundred. and now, we've got--hardly anything over five." "five thousand," said marjorie. "five thousand." "and there's your salary." "yes, but at this pace----" "dear," said marjorie, and her hands came about his neck, "dear--there's something----" she broke off. an unfamiliar quality in her voice struck into him. he turned his head to see her face, rose to his feet staring at her. this remarkable young woman had become soft and wonderful as april hills across which clouds are sweeping. her face was as if he had never seen it before; her eyes bright with tears. "oh! don't let's spoil things by thinking of money," she said. "i've got something----" her voice fell to a whisper. "don't let's spoil things by thinking of money.... it's too good, dear, to be true. it's too good to be true. it makes everything perfect.... we'll have to furnish that little room. i didn't dare to hope it--somehow. i've been so excited and afraid. but we've got to furnish that little room there--that empty little room upstairs, dear, that we left over.... oh my _dear!_ my _dear!_" § the world of trafford and marjorie was filled and transfigured by the advent of their child. for two days of abundant silences he had been preparing a statement of his case for her, he had been full of the danger to his research and all the waste of his life that her extravagance threatened. he wanted to tell her just all that his science meant to him, explain how his income and life had all been arranged to leave him, mind and time and energy, free for these commanding investigations. his life was to him the service of knowledge--or futility. he had perceived that she did not understand this in him; that for her, life was a blaze of eagerly sought experiences and gratifications. so far he had thought out things and had them ready for her. but now all this impending discussion vanished out of his world. their love was to be crowned by the miracle of parentage. this fact flooded his outlook and submerged every other consideration. this manifest probability came to him as if it were an unforeseen marvel. it was as if he had never thought of such a thing before, as though a fact entirely novel in the order of the universe had come into existence. marjorie became again magical and wonderful for him, but in a manner new and strange, she was grave, solemn, significant. he was filled with a passionate solicitude for her welfare, and a passionate desire to serve her. it seemed impossible to him that only a day or so ago he should have been accusing her in his heart of disloyalty, and searching for excuses and mitigations.... all the freshness of his first love for marjorie returned, his keen sense of the sweet gallantry of her voice and bearing, his admiration for the swift, falconlike swoop of her decisions, for the grace and poise of her body, and the steady frankness of her eyes; but now it was all charged with his sense of this new joint life germinating at the heart of her slender vigour, spreading throughout her being to change it altogether into womanhood for ever. in this new light his passion for research and all the scheme of his life appeared faded and unworthy, as much egotism as if he had been devoted to hunting or golf or any such aimless preoccupation. fatherhood gripped him and faced him about. it was manifestly a monstrous thing that he should ever have expected marjorie to become a mere undisturbing accessory to the selfish intellectualism of his career, to shave and limit herself to a mere bachelor income, and play no part of her own in the movement of the world. he knew better now. research must fall into its proper place, and for his immediate business he must set to work to supplement his manifestly inadequate resources. at first he could form no plan at all for doing that. he determined that research must still have his morning hours until lunch-time, and, he privately resolved, some part of the night. the rest of his day, he thought, he would set aside for a time to money-making. but he was altogether inexperienced in the methods of money-making; it was a new problem, and a new sort of problem to him altogether. he discovered himself helpless and rather silly in the matter. the more obvious possibilities seemed to be that he might lecture upon his science or write. he communicated with a couple of lecture agencies, and was amazed at their scepticism; no doubt he knew his science, on that point they were complimentary in a profuse, unconvincing manner, but could he interest like x--and here they named a notorious quack--could he _draw_? he offered science notes to a weekly periodical; the editor answered that for the purposes of his publication he preferred, as between professors and journalists, journalists. "you real scientific men," he said, "are no doubt a thousand times more accurate and novel and all that, but as no one seems able to understand you----" he went to his old fellow-student, gwenn, who was editing _the scientific review_, and through him he secured some semi-popular lectures, which involved, he found, travelling about twenty-nine miles weekly at the rate of four-and-sixpence a mile--counting nothing for the lectures. afterwards gwenn arranged for some regular notes on physics and micro-chemistry. trafford made out a weekly time-table, on whose white of dignity, leisure, and the honourable pursuit of knowledge, a diaper of red marked the claims of domestic necessity. § it was astonishing how completely this coming child dominated the whole atmosphere and all the circumstances of the traffords. it became their central fact, to which everything else turned and pointed. its effect on marjorie's circle of school and college friends was prodigious. she was the first of their company to cross the mysterious boundaries of a woman's life. she became to them a heroine mingled with something of the priestess. they called upon her more abundantly and sat with her, noted the change in her eyes and voice and bearing, talking with a kind of awe and a faint diffidence of the promised new life. many of them had been deeply tinged by the women's suffrage movement, the feminist note was strong among them, and when one afternoon ottiline winchelsea brought round agatha alimony, the novelist, and agatha said in that deep-ringing voice of hers: "i hope it will be a girl, so that presently she may fight the battle of her sex," there was the profoundest emotion. but when marjorie conveyed that to trafford he was lacking in response. "i want a boy," he said, and, being pressed for a reason, explained: "oh, one likes to have a boy. i want him with just your quick eyes and ears, my dear, and just my own safe and certain hands." mrs. pope received the news with that depth and aimless complexity of emotion which had now become her habitual method with marjorie. she kissed and clasped her daughter, and thought confusedly over her shoulder, and said: "of course, dear----. oh, i _do_ so hope it won't annoy your father." daffy was "nice," but vague, and sufficiently feminist to wish it a daughter, and the pseudo-twins said "_hoo_-ray!" and changed the subject at the earliest possible opportunity. but theodore was deeply moved at the prospect of becoming an uncle, and went apart and mused deeply and darkly thereon for some time. it was difficult to tell just what trafford's mother thought, she was complex and subtle, and evidently did not show marjorie all that was in her mind; but at any rate it was clear the prospect of a grandchild pleased and interested her. and about aunt plessington's views there was no manner of doubt at all. she thought, and remarked judicially, as one might criticize a game of billiards, that on the whole it was just a little bit too soon. § marjorie kept well throughout march and april, and then suddenly she grew unutterably weary and uncomfortable in london. the end of april came hot and close and dry--it might have been july for the heat--the scrap of garden wilted, and the streets were irritating with fine dust and blown scraps of paper and drifting straws. she could think of nothing but the shade of trees, and cornfields under sunlight and the shadows of passing clouds. so trafford took out an old bicycle and wandered over the home counties for three days, and at last hit upon a little country cottage near great missenden, a cottage a couple of girl artists had furnished and now wanted to let. it had a long, untidy vegetable garden and a small orchard and drying-ground, with an old, superannuated humbug of a pear-tree near the centre surrounded by a green seat, and high hedges with the promise of honeysuckle and dog-roses, and gaps that opened into hospitable beechwoods--woods not so thick but that there were glades of bluebells, bracken and, to be exact, in places embattled stinging-nettles. he took it and engaged a minute, active, interested, philoprogenitive servant girl for it, and took marjorie thither in a taxi-cab. she went out, wrapped in a shawl, and sat under the pear-tree and cried quietly with weakness and sentiment and the tenderness of afternoon sunshine, and forthwith began to pick up wonderfully, and was presently writing to trafford to buy her a dog to go for walks with, while he was away in london. trafford was still struggling along with his research in spite of a constant gravitation to the cottage and marjorie's side, but he was also doing his best to grapple with the difficulties of his financial situation. his science notes, which were very uncongenial and difficult to do, and his lecturing, still left his income far behind his expenditure, and the problem of minimising the inevitable fresh inroads on his capital was insistent and distracting. he discovered that he could manage his notes more easily and write a more popular article if he dictated to a typist instead of writing out the stuff in his own manuscript. dictating made his sentences more copious and open, and the effect of the young lady's by no means acquiescent back was to make him far more explicit than he tended to be pen in hand. with a pen and alone he felt the boredom of the job unendurably, and, to be through with it, became more and more terse, allusive, and compactly technical, after the style of his original papers. one or two articles by him were accepted and published by the monthly magazines, but as he took what the editors sent him, he did not find this led to any excessive opulence.... but his heart was very much with marjorie through all this time. hitherto he had taken her health and vigour and companionship for granted, and it changed his attitudes profoundly to find her now an ailing thing, making an invincible appeal for restraint and consideration and help. she changed marvellously, she gained a new dignity, and her complexion took upon itself a fresh, soft beauty. he would spend three or four days out of a week at the cottage, and long hours of that would be at her side, paper and notes of some forthcoming lecture at hand neglected, talking to her consolingly and dreamingly. his thoughts were full of ideas about education; he was obsessed, as are most intelligent young parents of the modern type, by the enormous possibilities of human improvement that might be achieved--if only one could begin with a baby from the outset, on the best lines, with the best methods, training and preparing it--presumably for a cleaned and chastened world. indeed he made all the usual discoveries of intelligent modern young parents very rapidly, fully and completely, and overlooked most of those practical difficulties that finally reduce them to human dimensions again in quite the normal fashion. "i sit and muse sometimes when i ought to be computing," he said. "old durgan watches me and grunts. but think, if we take reasonable care, watch its phases, stand ready with a kindergarten toy directly it stretches out its hand--think what we can make of it!"... "we will make it the most wonderful child in the world," said marjorie. "indeed! what else can it be?" "your eyes," said trafford, "and my hands." "a girl." "a boy." he kissed her white and passive wrist. § the child was born a little before expectation at the cottage throughout a long summer's night and day in early september. its coming into the world was a long and painful struggle; the general practitioner who had seemed two days before a competent and worthy person enough, revealed himself as hesitating, old-fashioned, and ill-equipped. he had a lingering theological objection to the use of chloroform, and the nurse from london sulked under his directions and came and discussed his methods scornfully with trafford. from sundown until daylight trafford chafed in the little sitting-room and tried to sleep, and hovered listening at the foot of the narrow staircase to the room above. he lived through interminable hours of moaning and suspense.... the dawn and sunrise came with a quality of beautiful horror. for years afterwards that memory stood out among other memories as something peculiarly strange and dreadful. day followed an interminable night and broke slowly. things crept out of darkness, awoke as it were out of mysteries and reclothed themselves in unsubstantial shadows and faint-hued forms. all through that slow infiltration of the world with light and then with colour, the universe it seemed was moaning and endeavouring, and a weak and terrible struggle went on and kept on in that forbidden room whose windows opened upon the lightening world, dying to a sobbing silence, rising again to agonizing cries, fluctuating, a perpetual obstinate failure to achieve a tormenting end. he went out, and behold the sky was a wonder of pink flushed level clouds and golden hope, and nearly every star except the morning star had gone, the supine moon was pale and half-dissolved in blue, and the grass which had been grey and wet, was green again, and the bushes and trees were green. he returned and hovered in the passage, washed his face, listened outside the door for age-long moments, and then went out again to listen under the window.... he went to his room and shaved, sat for a long time thinking, and then suddenly knelt by his bed and prayed. he had never prayed before in all his life.... he returned to the garden, and there neglected and wet with dew was the camp chair marjorie had sat on the evening before, the shawl she had been wearing, the novel she had been reading. he brought these things in as if they were precious treasures.... light was pouring into the world again now. he noticed with an extreme particularity the detailed dewy delicacy of grass and twig, the silver edges to the leaves of briar and nettle, the soft clearness of the moss on bank and wall. he noted the woods with the first warmth of autumn tinting their green, the clear, calm sky, with just a wisp or so of purple cloud waning to a luminous pink on the brightening east, the exquisite freshness of the air. and still through the open window, incessant, unbearable, came this sound of marjorie moaning, now dying away, now reviving, now weakening again.... was she dying? were they murdering her? it was incredible this torture could go on. somehow it must end. chiefly he wanted to go in and kill the doctor. but it would do no good to kill the doctor! at last the nurse came out, looking a little scared, to ask him to cycle three miles away and borrow some special sort of needle that the fool of a doctor had forgotten. he went, outwardly meek, and returning was met by the little interested servant, very alert and excited and rather superior--for here was something no man can do--with the news that he had a beautiful little daughter, and that all was well with marjorie. he said "thank god, thank god!" several times, and then went out into the kitchen and began to eat some flabby toast and drink some lukewarm tea he found there. he was horribly fatigued. "is she all right?" he asked over his shoulder, hearing the doctor's footsteps on the stairs.... they were very pontifical and official with him. presently they brought out a strange, wizened little animal, wailing very stoutly, with a face like a very, very old woman, and reddish skin and hair--it had quite a lot of wet blackish hair of an incredible delicacy of texture. it kicked with a stumpy monkey's legs and inturned feet. he held it: his heart went out to it. he pitied it beyond measure, it was so weak and ugly. he was astonished and distressed by the fact of its extreme endearing ugliness. he had expected something strikingly pretty. it clenched a fist, and he perceived it had all its complement of fingers and ridiculous, pretentious little finger nails. inside that fist it squeezed his heart.... he did not want to give it back to them. he wanted to protect it. he felt they could not understand it or forgive, as he could forgive, its unjustifiable feebleness.... later, for just a little while, he was permitted to see marjorie--marjorie so spent, so unspeakably weary, and yet so reassuringly vital and living, so full of gentle pride and gentler courage amidst the litter of surgical precaution, that the tears came streaming down his face and he sobbed shamelessly as he kissed her. "little daughter," she whispered and smiled--just as she had always smiled--that sweet, dear smile of hers!--and closed her eyes and said no more.... afterwards as he walked up and down the garden he remembered their former dispute and thought how characteristic of marjorie it was to have a daughter in spite of all his wishes. § for weeks and weeks this astonishing and unprecedented being filled the traffords' earth and sky. very speedily its minute quaintness passed, and it became a vigorous delightful baby that was, as the nurse explained repeatedly and very explicitly, not only quite exceptional and distinguished, but exactly everything that a baby should be. its weight became of supreme importance; there was a splendid week when it put on nine ounces, and an indifferent one when it added only one. and then came a terrible crisis. it was ill; some sort of infection had reached it, an infantile cholera. its temperature mounted to a hundred and three and a half. it became a flushed misery, wailing with a pathetic feeble voice. then it ceased to wail. marjorie became white-lipped and heavy-eyed from want of sleep, and it seemed to trafford that perhaps his child might die. it seemed to him that the spirit of the universe must be a monstrous calivan since children had to die. he went for a long walk through the october beechwoods, under a windy sky, and in a drift of falling leaves, wondering with a renewed freshness at the haunting futilities of life.... life was not futile--anything but that, but futility seemed to be stalking it, waiting for it.... when he returned the child was already better, and in a few days it was well again--but very light and thin. when they were sure of its safety, marjorie and he confessed the extremity of their fears to one another. they had not dared to speak before, and even now they spoke in undertones of the shadow that had hovered and passed over the dearest thing in their lives. chapter the third the new phase § in the course of the next six months the child of the ages became an almost ordinary healthy baby, and trafford began to think consecutively about his scientific work again--in the intervals of effort of a more immediately practical sort. the recall of molecular physics and particularly of the internal condition of colloids to something like their old importance in his life was greatly accelerated by the fact that a young oxford don named behrens was showing extraordinary energy in what had been for a time trafford's distinctive and undisputed field. behrens was one of those vividly clever energetic people who are the despair of originative men. he had begun as trafford's pupil and sedulous ape; he had gone on to work that imitated trafford's in everything except its continual freshness, and now he was ransacking every scrap of suggestion to be found in trafford's work, and developing it with an intensity of uninspired intelligence that most marvellously simulated originality. he was already being noted as an authority; sometimes in an article his name would be quoted and trafford's omitted in relation to trafford's ideas, and in every way his emergence and the manner of his emergence threatened and stimulated his model and master. a great effort had to be made. trafford revived the drooping spirits of durgan by a renewed punctuality in the laboratory. he began to stay away from home at night and work late again, now, however, under no imperative inspiration, but simply because it was only by such an invasion of the evening and night that it would be possible to make headway against behren's unremitting industry. and this new demand upon trafford's already strained mental and nervous equipment began very speedily to have its effect upon his domestic life. it is only in romantic fiction that a man can work strenuously to the limit of his power and come home to be sweet, sunny and entertaining. trafford's preoccupation involved a certain negligence of marjorie, a certain indisposition to be amused or interested by trifling things, a certain irritability.... § and now, indeed, the traffords were coming to the most difficult and fatal phase in marriage. they had had that taste of defiant adventure which is the crown of a spirited love affair, they had known the sweetness of a maiden passion for a maid, and they had felt all those rich and solemn emotions, those splendid fears and terrible hopes that weave themselves about the great partnership in parentage. and now, so far as sex was concerned, there might be much joy and delight still, but no more wonder, no fresh discoveries of incredible new worlds and unsuspected stars. love, which had been a new garden, an unknown land, a sunlit sea to launch upon, was now a rich treasure-house of memories. and memories, although they afford a perpetually increasing enrichment to emotion, are not sufficient in themselves for the daily needs of life. for this, indeed, is the truth of passionate love, that it works outs its purpose and comes to an end. a day arrives in every marriage when the lovers must face each other, disillusioned, stripped of the last shred of excitement--undisguisedly themselves. and our two were married; they had bound themselves together under a penalty of scandalous disgrace, to take the life-long consequences of their passionate association. it was upon trafford that this exhaustion of the sustaining magic of love pressed most severely, because it was he who had made the greatest adaptations to the exigencies of their union. he had crippled, he perceived more and more clearly, the research work upon which his whole being had once been set, and his hours were full of tiresome and trivial duties and his mind engaged and worried by growing financial anxieties. he had made these abandonments in a phase of exalted passion for the one woman in the world and her unprecedented child, and now he saw, in spite of all his desire not to see, that she was just a weak human being among human beings, and neither she nor little margharita so very marvellous. but while marjorie shrank to the dimensions of reality, research remained still a luminous and commanding dream. in love one fails or one wins home, but the lure of research is for ever beyond the hills, every victory is a new desire. science has inexhaustibly fresh worlds to conquer.... he was beginning now to realize the dilemma of his life, the reality of the opposition between marjorie and child and home on the one hand and on the other this big wider thing, this remoter, severer demand upon his being. he had long perceived these were distinct and different things, but now it appeared more and more inevitable that they should be antagonistic and mutually disregardful things. each claimed him altogether, it seemed, and suffered compromise impatiently. and this is where the particular stress of his situation came in. hitherto he had believed that nothing of any importance was secret or inexplicable between himself and marjorie. his ideal of his relationship had assumed a complete sympathy of feeling, an almost instinctive identity of outlook. and now it was manifest they were living in a state of inadequate understanding, that she knew only in the most general and opaque forms, the things that interested him so profoundly, and had but the most superficial interest in his impassioned curiosities. and missing as she did the strength of his intellectual purpose she missed too, she had no inkling of, the way in which her careless expansiveness pressed upon him. she was unaware that she was destroying an essential thing in his life. he could not tell how far this antagonism was due to inalterable discords of character, how far it might not be an ineradicable sex difference, a necessary aspect of marriage. the talk of old sir roderick dover at the winton club germinated in his mind, a branching and permeating suggestion. and then would come a phase of keen sympathy with marjorie; she would say brilliant and penetrating things, display a swift cleverness that drove all these intimations of incurable divergence clean out of his head again. then he would find explanations in the differences between his and marjorie's training and early associations. he perceived his own upbringing had had a steadfastness and consistency that had been altogether lacking in hers. he had had the rare advantage of perfect honesty in the teaching and tradition of his home. there had never been any shams or sentimentalities for him to find out and abandon. from boyhood his mother's hand had pointed steadily to the search for truth as the supreme ennobling fact in life. she had never preached this to him, never delivered discourses upon his father's virtues, but all her conversation and life was saturated with this idea. compared with this atmosphere of high and sustained direction, the intellectual and moral quality of the popes, he saw, was the quality of an agitated rag bag. they had thought nothing out, joined nothing together, they seemed to believe everything and nothing, they were neither religious nor irreligious, neither moral nor adventurous. in the place of a religion, and tainting their entire atmosphere, they had the decaying remains of a dead anglicanism; it was clear they did not believe in its creed, and as clear that they did not want to get rid of it; it afforded them no guidance, but only vague pretensions, and the dismal exercises of silas root flourished in its shadows, a fungus, a post-mortem activity of the soul. none of them had any idea of what they were for or what their lives as a whole might mean; they had no standards, but only instincts and an instinctive fear of instincts; pope wanted to be tremendously respected and complimented by everybody and get six per cent. for his money; mrs. pope wanted things to go smoothly; the young people had a general indisposition to do anything that might "look bad," and otherwise "have a good time." but neither marjorie nor any of them had any test for a good time, and so they fluctuated in their conceptions of what they wanted from day to day. now it was plessingtonian standards, now carmel standards, now the standards of agatha alimony; now it was a stimulating novel, now a gleam of æsthetic imaginativeness come, heaven knows whence, that dominated her mood. he was beginning to understand all this at last, and to see the need of coherence in marjorie's mood. he realized the unfairness of keeping his thoughts to himself, the need of putting his case before her, and making her realize their fatal and widening divergence. he wanted to infect her with his scientific passion, to give her his sense of the gravity of their practical difficulties. he would sit amidst his neglected work in his laboratory framing explanatory phrases. he would prepare the most lucid and complete statements, and go about with these in his mind for days waiting for an opportunity of saying what he felt so urgently had to be said. but the things that seemed so luminous and effective in the laboratory had a curious way of fading and shrinking beside the bright colours of marjorie's bokhara hangings, in the presence of little margharita pink and warm and entertaining in her bath, or amidst the fluttering rustle of the afternoon tea-parties that were now becoming frequent in his house. and when he was alone with her he discovered they didn't talk now any more--except in terms of a constrained and formal affection. what had happened to them? what was the matter between himself and marjorie that he couldn't even intimate his sense of their divergence? he would have liked to discuss the whole thing with his mother, but somehow that seemed disloyal to marjorie.... one day they quarrelled. he came in about six in the afternoon, jaded from the delivery of a suburban lecture, and the consequent tedium of suburban travel, and discovered marjorie examining the effect of a new picture which had replaced the german print of sunlit waves over the dining-room mantelpiece. it was a painting in the post-impressionist manner, and it had arrived after the close of the exhibition in weldon street, at which marjorie had bought it. she had bought it in obedience to a sudden impulse, and its imminence had long weighed upon her conscience. she had gone to the show with sydney flor and old mrs. flor, sydney's mother, and a kind of excitement had come upon them at the idea of possessing this particular picture. mrs. flor had already bought three herbins, and her daughter wanted to dissuade her from more. "but they're so delightful," said mrs. flor. "you're overrunning your allowance," said sydney. disputing the point, they made inquiries for the price, and learnt that this bright epigram in colour was going begging--was even offered at a reduction from the catalogue price. a reduced price always had a strong appeal nowadays to marjorie's mind. "if you don't get it," she said abruptly, "i shall." the transition from that attitude to ownership was amazingly rapid. then nothing remained but to wait for the picture. she had dreaded a mistake, a blundering discord, but now with the thing hung she could see her quick eye had not betrayed her. it was a mass of reds, browns, purples, and vivid greens and greys; an effect of roof and brick house facing upon a dutch canal, and it lit up the room and was echoed and reflected by all the rest of her courageous colour scheme, like a coal-fire amidst mahogany and metal. it justified itself to her completely, and she faced her husband with a certain confidence. "hullo!" he cried. "a new picture," she said. "what do you think of it?" "what is it?" "a town or something--never mind. look at the colour. it heartens everything." trafford looked at the painting with a reluctant admiration. "it's brilliant--and impudent. he's an artist--whoever he is. he hits the thing. but--i say--how did you get it?" "i bought it." "bought it! good lord! how much?" "oh! ten guineas," said marjorie, with an affectation of ease; "it will be worth thirty in ten years' time." trafford's reply was to repeat: "ten guineas!" their eyes met, and there was singularly little tenderness in their eyes. "it was priced at thirteen," said marjorie, ending a pause, and with a sinking heart. trafford had left her side. he walked to the window and sat down in a chair. "i think this is too much," he said, and his voice had disagreeable notes in it she had never heard before. "i have just been earning two guineas at croydon, of all places, administering comminuted science to fools--and here i find--this exploit! ten guineas' worth of picture. to say we can't afford it is just to waste a mild expression. it's--mad extravagance. it's waste of money--it's--oh!--monstrous disloyalty. disloyalty!" he stared resentful at the cheerful, unhesitating daubs of the picture for a moment. its affected carelessness goaded him to fresh words. he spoke in a tone of absolute hostility. "i think this winds me up to something," he said. "you'll have to give up your cheque-book, marjorie." "give up my cheque-book!" he looked up at her and nodded. there was a warm flush in her cheeks, her lips panted apart, and tears of disappointment and vexation were shining beautifully in her eyes. she mingled the quality of an indignant woman with the distress and unreasonable resentment of a child. "because i've bought this picture?" "can we go on like this?" he asked, and felt how miserably he had bungled in opening this question that had been in his mind so long. "but it's _beautiful!_" she said. he disregarded that. he felt now that he had to go on with these long-premeditated expostulations. he was tired and dusty from his third-class carriage, his spirit was tired and dusty, and he said what he had to say without either breadth or power, an undignified statement of personal grievances, a mere complaint of the burthen of work that falls upon a man. that she missed the high aim in him, and all sense of the greatness they were losing had vanished from his thoughts. he had too heavy a share of the common burthen, and she pressed upon him unthinkingly; that was all he could say. he girded at her with a bitter and loveless truth; it was none the less cruel that in her heart she knew these things he said were true. but he went beyond justice--as every quarrelling human being does; he called the things she had bought and the harmonies she had created, "this litter and rubbish for which i am wasting my life." that stabbed into her pride acutely and deeply. she knew anyhow that it wasn't so simple and crude as that. it was not mere witlessness she contributed to their trouble. she tried to indicate her sense of that. but she had no power of ordered reasoning, she made futile interruptions, she was inexpressive of anything but emotion, she felt gagged against his flow of indignant, hostile words. they blistered her. suddenly she went to her little desk in the corner, unlocked it with trembling hands, snatched her cheque-book out of a heap of still unsettled bills, and having locked that anti-climax safe away again, turned upon him. "here it is," she said, and stood poised for a moment. then she flung down the little narrow grey cover--nearly empty, it was, of cheques, on the floor before him. "take it," she cried, "take it. i never asked you to give it me." a memory of orta and its reeds and sunshine and love rose like a luminous mist between them.... she ran weeping from the room. he leapt to his feet as the door closed. "marjorie!" he cried. but she did not hear him.... § the disillusionment about marriage which had discovered trafford a thwarted, overworked, and worried man, had revealed marjorie with time on her hands, superabundant imaginative energy, and no clear intimation of any occupation. with them, as with thousands of young couples in london to-day, the breadwinner was overworked, and the spending partner's duty was chiefly the negative one of not spending. you cannot consume your energies merely in not spending money. do what she could, marjorie could not contrive to make house and child fill the waking hours. she was far too active and irritable a being to be beneficial company all day for genial, bubble-blowing little margharita; she could play with that young lady and lead her into ecstasies of excitement and delight, and she could see with an almost instinctive certainty when anything was going wrong; but for the rest that little life reposed far more beneficially upon the passive acquiescence of may, her pink and wholesome nurse. and the household generally was in the hands of a trustworthy cook-general, who maintained a tolerable routine. marjorie did not dare to have an idea about food or domestic arrangements; if she touched that routine so much as with her little finger it sent up the bills. she could knock off butcher and greengrocer and do every scrap of household work that she could touch, in a couple of hours a day. she tried to find some work to fill her leisure; she suggested to trafford that she might help him by writing up his science notes from rough pencil memoranda, but when it became clear that the first step to her doing this would be the purchase of a remington typewriter and a special low table to carry it, he became bluntly discouraging. she thought of literary work, and sat down one day to write a short story and earn guineas, and was surprised to find that she knew nothing of any sort of human being about whom she could invent a story. she tried a cheap subscription at mudie's and novels, and they filled her with a thirst for events; she tried needlework, and found her best efforts aesthetically feeble and despicable, and that her mind prowled above the silks and colours like a hungry wolf. the early afternoons were the worst time, from two to four, before calling began. the devil was given great power over marjorie's early afternoon. she could even envy her former home life then, and reflect that there, at any rate, one had a chance of a game or a quarrel with daffy or syd or rom or theodore. she would pull herself together and go out for a walk, and whichever way she went there were shops and shops and shops, a glittering array of tempting opportunities for spending money. sometimes she would give way to spending exactly as a struggling drunkard decides to tipple. she would fix on some object, some object trivial and a little rare and not too costly, as being needed--when she knew perfectly well it wasn't needed--and choose the most remotest shops and display the exactest insistence upon her requirements. sometimes she would get home from these raids without buying at all. after four the worst of the day was over; one could call on people or people might telephone and follow up with a call; and there was a chance of trafford coming home.... one day at the carmels' she found herself engaged in a vigorous flirtation with young carmel. she hadn't noticed it coming on, but there she was in a windowseat talking quite closely to him. he said he was writing a play, a wonderful passionate play about st. francis, and only she could inspire and advise him. wasn't there some afternoon in the week when she sat and sewed, so that he might come and sit by her and read to her and talk to her? he made his request with a certain confidence, but it filled her with a righteous panic; she pulled him up with an abruptness that was almost inartistic. on her way home she was acutely ashamed of herself; this was the first time she had let any man but trafford think he might be interesting to her, but once or twice on former occasions she had been on the verge of such provocative intimations. this sort of thing anyhow mustn't happen. but if she didn't dress with any distinction--because of the cost--and didn't flirt and trail men in her wake, what was she to do at the afternoon gatherings which were now her chief form of social contact? what was going to bring people to her house? she knew that she was more than ordinarily beautiful and that she could talk well, but that does not count for much if you are rather dowdy, and quite uneventfully virtuous. it became the refrain of all her thoughts that she must find something to do. there remained "movements." she might take up a movement. she was a rather exceptionally good public speaker. only her elopement and marriage had prevented her being president of her college debating society. if she devoted herself to some movement she would be free to devise an ostentatiously simple dress for herself and stick to it, and she would be able to give her little house a significance of her own, and present herself publicly against what is perhaps quite the best of all backgrounds for a good-looking, clear-voiced, self-possessed woman, a platform. yes; she had to go in for a movement. she reviewed the chief contemporary movements much as she might have turned over dress fabrics in a draper's shop, weighing the advantages and disadvantages of each.... london, of course, is always full of movements. essentially they are absorbents of superfluous feminine energy. they have a common flavour of progress and revolutionary purpose, and common features in abundant meetings, officials, and organization generally. few are expensive, and still fewer produce any tangible results in the world. they direct themselves at the most various ends; the poor, that favourite butt, either as a whole or in such typical sections as the indigent invalid or the indigent aged, the young, public health, the woman's cause, the prevention of animal food, anti-vivisection, the gratuitous advertisement of shakespear (that neglected poet), novel but genteel modifications of medical or religious practice, dress reform, the politer aspects of socialism, the encouragement of æronautics, universal military service, garden suburbs, domestic arts, proportional representation, duodecimal arithmetic, and the liberation of the drama. they range in size and importance from campaigns on a plessingtonian scale to sober little intellectual beckingham things that arrange to meet half-yearly, and die quietly before the second assembly. if heaven by some miracle suddenly gave every movement in london all it professed to want, our world would be standing on its head and everything would be extremely unfamiliar and disconcerting. but, as mr. roosevelt once remarked, the justifying thing about life is the effort and not the goal, and few movements involve any real and impassioned struggle to get to the ostensible object. they exist as an occupation; they exercise the intellectual and moral activities without undue disturbance of the normal routines of life. in the days when everybody was bicycling an ingenious mechanism called hacker's home bicycle used to be advertised. hacker's home bicycle was a stand bearing small rubber wheels upon which one placed one's bicycle (properly equipped with a cyclometer) in such a way that it could be mounted and ridden without any sensible forward movement whatever. in bad weather, or when the state of the roads made cycling abroad disagreeable hacker's home bicycle could be placed in front of an open window and ridden furiously for any length of time. whenever the rider tired, he could descend--comfortably at home again--and examine the cyclometer to see how far he had been. in exactly the same way the ordinary london movement gives scope for the restless and progressive impulse in human nature without the risk of personal entanglements or any inconvenient disturbance of the milieu. marjorie considered the movements about her. she surveyed the accessible aspects of socialism, but that old treasure-house of constructive suggestion had an effect like a rich château which had been stormed and looted by a mob. for a time the proposition that "we are all socialists nowadays" had prevailed. the blackened and discredited frame remained, the contents were scattered; aunt plessington had a few pieces, the tory democrats had taken freely, the liberals were in possession of a hastily compiled collection. there wasn't, she perceived, and there never had been a socialist movement; the socialist idea which had now become part of the general consciousness, had always been too big for polite domestication. she weighed aunt plessington, too, in the balance, and found her not so much wanting indeed as excessive. she felt that a movement with aunt plessington in it couldn't possibly offer even elbow-room for anybody else. philanthropy generally she shunned. the movements that aim at getting poor people into rooms and shouting at them in an improving, authoritative way, aroused an instinctive dislike in her. her sense of humour, again, would not let her patronize shakespear or the stage, or raise the artistic level of the country by means of green-dyed deal, and the influence of trafford on her mind debarred her from attempting the physical and moral regeneration of humanity by means of beans and nut butter. it was indeed rather by the elimination of competing movements than by any positive preference that she found herself declining at last towards agatha alimony's section of the suffrage movement.... it was one of the less militant sections, but it held more meetings and passed more resolutions than any two others. one day trafford, returning from an afternoon of forced and disappointing work in his laboratory,--his mind had been steadfastly sluggish and inelastic,--discovered marjorie's dining room crowded with hats and all the rustle and colour which plays so large a part in constituting contemporary feminine personality. buzard, the feminist writer, and a young man just down from cambridge who had written a decadent poem, were the only men present. the chairs were arranged meeting-fashion, but a little irregularly to suggest informality; the post-impressionist picture was a rosy benediction on the gathering, and at a table in the window sat mrs. pope in the chair, looking quietly tactful in an unusually becoming bonnet, supported by her daughter and agatha alimony. marjorie was in a simple gown of blueish-grey, hatless amidst a froth of foolish bows and feathers, and she looked not only beautiful and dignified but deliberately and conscientiously patient until she perceived the new arrival. then he noted she was a little concerned for him, and made some futile sign he did not comprehend. the meeting was debating the behaviour of women at the approaching census, and a small, earnest, pale-faced lady with glasses was standing against the fireplace with a crumpled envelope covered with pencil notes in her hand, and making a speech. trafford wanted his tea badly, but he had not the wit to realize that his study had been converted into a refreshment room for the occasion; he hesitated, and seated himself near the doorway, and so he was caught; he couldn't, he felt, get away and seem to slight a woman who was giving herself the pains of addressing him. the small lady in glasses was giving a fancy picture of the mind of mr. asquith and its attitude to the suffrage movement, and telling with a sort of inspired intimacy just how mr. asquith had hoped to "bully women down," and just how their various attempts to bring home to him the eminent reasonableness of their sex by breaking his windows, interrupting his meetings, booing at him in the streets and threatening his life, had time after time baffled this arrogant hope. there had been many signs lately that mr. asquith's heart was failing him. now here was a new thing to fill him with despair. when mr. asquith learnt that women refused to be counted in the census, then at least she was convinced he must give in. when he gave in it would not be long--she had her information upon good authority--before they got the vote. so what they had to do was not to be counted in the census. that was their paramount duty at the present time. the women of england had to say quietly but firmly to the census man when he came round: "no, we don't count in an election, and we won't count now. thank you." no one could force a woman to fill in a census paper she didn't want to, and for her own part, said the little woman with the glasses, she'd starve first. (applause.) for her own part she was a householder with a census paper of her own, and across that she was going to write quite plainly and simply what she thought of mr. asquith. some of those present wouldn't have census papers to fill up; they would be sent to the man, the so-called head of the house. but the w.s.p.u. had foreseen that. each householder had to write down the particulars of the people who slept in his house on sunday night, or who arrived home before mid-day on monday; the reply of the women of england must be not to sleep in a house that night where census papers were properly filled, and not to go home until the following afternoon. all through that night the women of england must be abroad. she herself was prepared, and her house would be ready. there would be coffee and refreshments enough for an unlimited number of refugees, there would be twenty or thirty sofas and mattresses and piles of blankets for those who chose to sleep safe from all counting. in every quarter of london there would be houses of refuge like hers. and so they would make mr. asquith's census fail, as it deserved to fail, as every census would fail until women managed these affairs in a sensible way. for she supposed they were all agreed that only women could manage these things in a sensible way. that was _her_ contribution to this great and important question. (applause, amidst which the small lady with the glasses resumed her seat.) trafford glanced doorward, but before he could move another speaker was in possession of the room. this was a very young, tall, fair, round-shouldered girl who held herself with an unnatural rigidity, fixed her eyes on the floor just in front of the chairwoman, and spoke with knitted brows and an effect of extreme strain. she remarked that some people did not approve of this proposed boycott of the census. she hung silent for a moment, as if ransacking her mind for something mislaid, and then proceeded to remark that she proposed to occupy a few moments in answering that objection--if it could be called an objection. they said that spoiling the census was an illegitimate extension of the woman movement. well, she objected--she objected fiercely--to every word of that phrase. nothing was an illegitimate extension of the woman movement. nothing could be. (applause.) that was the very principle they had been fighting for all along. so that, examined in this way, this so-called objection resolved itself into a mere question begging phrase. nothing more. and her reply therefore to those who made it was that they were begging the question, and however well that might do for men, it would certainly not do, they would find, for women. (applause.) for the freshly awakened consciousness of women. (further applause.) this was a war in which quarter was neither asked nor given; if it were not so things might be different. she remained silent after that for the space of twenty seconds perhaps, and then remarked that that seemed to be all she had to say, and sat down amidst loud encouragement. then with a certain dismay trafford saw his wife upon her feet. he was afraid of the effect upon himself of what she was going to say, but he need have had no reason for his fear. marjorie was a seasoned debater, self-possessed, with a voice very well controlled and a complete mastery of that elaborate appearance of reasonableness which is so essential to good public speaking. she could speak far better than she could talk. and she startled the meeting in her opening sentence by declaring that she meant to stay at home on the census night, and supply her husband with every scrap of information he hadn't got already that might be needed to make the return an entirely perfect return. (marked absence of applause.) she proceeded to avow her passionate interest in the feminist movement of which this agitation for the vote was merely the symbol. (a voice: "no!") no one could be more aware of the falsity of woman's position at the present time than she was--she seemed to be speaking right across the room to trafford--they were neither pets nor partners, but something between the two; now indulged like spoilt children, now blamed like defaulting partners; constantly provoked to use the arts of their sex, constantly mischievous because of that provocation. she caught her breath and stopped for a moment, as if she had suddenly remembered the meeting intervening between herself and trafford. no, she said, there was no more ardent feminist and suffragist than herself in the room. she wanted the vote and everything it implied with all her heart. with all her heart. but every way to get a thing wasn't the right way, and she felt with every fibre of her being that this petulant hostility to the census was a wrong way and an inconsistent way, and likely to be an unsuccessful way--one that would lose them the sympathy and help of just that class of men they should look to for support, the cultivated and scientific men. (a voice: "_do_ we want them?") what was the commonest charge made by the man in the street against women?--that they were unreasonable and unmanageable, that it was their way to get things by crying and making an irrelevant fuss. and here they were, as a body, doing that very thing! let them think what the census and all that modern organization of vital statistics of which it was the central feature stood for. it stood for order, for the replacement of guesses and emotional generalization by a clear knowledge of facts, for the replacement of instinctive and violent methods, by which women had everything to lose (a voice: "no!") by reason and knowledge and self-restraint, by which women had everything to gain. to her the advancement of science, the progress of civilization, and the emancipation of womanhood were nearly synonymous terms. at any rate, they were different phases of one thing. they were different aspects of one wider purpose. when they struck at the census, she felt, they struck at themselves. she glanced at trafford as if she would convince him that this was the real voice of the suffrage movement, and sat down amidst a brief, polite applause, that warmed to rapture as agatha alimony, the deep-voiced, stirring agatha, rose to reply. miss alimony, who was wearing an enormous hat with three nodding ostrich feathers, a purple bow, a gold buckle and numerous minor ornaments of various origin and substance, said they had all of them listened with the greatest appreciation and sympathy to the speech of their hostess. their hostess was a newcomer to the movement, she knew she might say this without offence, and was passing through a phase, an early phase, through which many of them had passed. this was the phase of trying to take a reasonable view of an unreasonable situation. (applause.) their hostess had spoken of science, and no doubt science was a great thing; but there was something greater than science, and that was the ideal. it was woman's place to idealize. sooner or later their hostess would discover, as they had all discovered, that it was not to science but the ideal that women must look for freedom. consider, she said, the scientific men of to-day. consider, for example, sir james crichton-browne, the physiologist. was he on their side? on the contrary, he said the most unpleasant things about them on every occasion. he went out of his way to say them. or consider sir almroth wright, did he speak well of women? or sir ray lankester, the biologist, who was the chief ornament of the anti-suffrage society. or sir roderick dover, the physicist, who--forgetting madame curie, a far more celebrated physicist than himself, she ventured to say (applause.) had recently gone outside his province altogether to abuse feminine research. there were your scientific men. mrs. trafford had said their anti-census campaign would annoy scientific men; well, under the circumstances, she wanted to annoy scientific men. (applause.) she wanted to annoy everybody. until women got the vote (loud applause) the more annoying they were the better. when the whole world was impressed by the idea that voteless women were an intolerable nuisance, then there would cease to be voteless women. (enthusiasm.) mr. asquith had said-- and so on for quite a long time.... buzard rose out of waves of subsiding emotion. buzard was a slender, long-necked, stalk-shaped man with gilt glasses, uneasy movements and a hypersensitive manner. he didn't so much speak as thrill with thought vibrations; he spoke like an entranced but still quite gentlemanly sibyl. after agatha's deep trumpet calls, he sounded like a solo on the piccolo. he picked out all his more important words with a little stress as though he gave them capitals. he said their hostess's remarks had set him thinking. he thought it was possible to stew the scientific argument in its own juice. there was something he might call the factuarial estimate of values. well, it was a high factuarial value on their side, in his opinion at any rate, when anthropologists came and told him that the primitive human society was a matriarchate. ("but it wasn't!" said trafford to himself.) it had a high factuarial value when they assured him that every one of the great primitive inventions was made by a woman, and that it was to women they owed fire and the early epics and sagas. ("good lord!" said trafford.) it had a high factuarial value when they not only asserted but proved that for thousands of years, and perhaps for hundreds of thousands of years, women had been in possession of articulate speech before men rose to that level of intelligence.... it occurred suddenly to trafford that he could go now; that it would be better to go; that indeed he _must_ go; it was no doubt necessary that his mind should have to work in the same world as buzard's mental processes, but at any rate those two sets of unsympathetic functions need not go on in the same room. something might give way. he got up, and with those elaborate efforts to be silent that lead to the violent upsetting of chairs, got himself out of the room and into the passage, and was at once rescued by the sympathetic cook-general, in her most generalized form, and given fresh tea in his study--which impressed him as being catastrophically disarranged.... § when marjorie was at last alone with him she found him in a state of extreme mental stimulation. "your speech," he said, "was all right. i didn't know you could speak like that, marjorie. but it soared like the dove above the waters. waters! i never heard such a flood of rubbish.... you know, it's a mistake to _mass_ women. it brings out something silly.... it affected buzard as badly as any one. the extraordinary thing is they have a case, if only they'd be quiet. why did you get them together?" "it's our local branch." "yes, but _why?_" "well, if they talk about things--discussions like this clear up their minds." "discussion! it wasn't discussion." "oh! it was a beginning." "chatter of that sort isn't the beginning of discussion, it's the end. it's the death-rattle. nobody was meeting the thoughts of any one. i admit buzard, who's a man, talked the worst rubbish of all. that primitive matriarchate of his! so it isn't sex. i've noticed before that the men in this movement of yours are worse than the women. it isn't sex. it's something else. it's a foolishness. it's a sort of irresponsible looseness." he turned on her gravely. "you ought not to get all these people here. it's contagious. before you know it you'll find your own mind liquefy and become enthusiastic and slop about. you'll begin to talk monomania about mr. asquith." "but it's a great movement, rag, even if incidentally they say and do silly things!" "my dear! aren't i feminist? don't i want women fine and sane and responsible? don't i want them to have education, to handle things, to vote like men and bear themselves with the gravity of men? and these meetings--all hat and flutter! these displays of weak, untrained, hysterical vehemence! these gatherings of open-mouthed impressionable young girls to be trained in incoherence! you can't go on with it!" marjorie regarded him quietly for a moment. "i must go on with something," she said. "well, not this." "then _what?_" "something sane." "tell me what." "it must come out of yourself." marjorie thought sullenly for a moment. "nothing comes out of myself," she said. "i don't think you realize a bit what my life has become," she went on; "how much i'm like some one who's been put in a pleasant, high-class prison." "this house! it's your own!" "it doesn't give me an hour's mental occupation in the day. it's all very well to say i might do more in it. i can't--without absurdity. or expenditure. i can't send the girl away and start scrubbing. i can't make jam or do ornamental needlework. the shops do it better and cheaper, and i haven't been trained to it. i've been trained _not_ to do it. i've been brought up on games and school-books, and fed on mixed ideas. i can't sit down and pacify myself with a needle as women used to do. besides, i not only detest doing needlework but i hate it--the sort of thing a woman of my kind does anyhow--when it's done. i'm no artist. i'm not sufficiently interested in outside things to spend my time in serious systematic reading, and after four or five novels--oh, these meetings are better than that! you see, you've got a life--too much of it--_i_ haven't got enough. i wish almost i could sleep away half the day. oh! i want something _real_, rag; something more than i've got." a sudden inspiration came to her. "will you let me come to your laboratory and work with you?" she stopped abruptly. she caught up her own chance question and pointed it at him, a vitally important challenge. "will you let me come to your laboratory and work?" she repeated. trafford thought. "no," he said. "why not?" "because i'm in love with you. i can't think of my work when you're about.... and you're too much behind. oh my dear! don't you see how you're behind?" he paused. "i've been soaking in this stuff of mine for ten long years." "yes," assented marjorie flatly. he watched her downcast face, and then it lifted to him with a helpless appeal in her eyes, and lift in her voice. "but look here, rag!" she cried--"what on earth am i to _do?_" § at least there came out of these discussions one thing, a phrase, a purpose, which was to rule the lives of the traffords for some years. it expressed their realization that instinct and impulse had so far played them false, that life for all its rich gifts of mutual happiness wasn't adjusted between them. "we've got," they said, "to talk all this out between us. we've got to work this out." they didn't mean to leave things at a misfit, and that was certainly their present relation. they were already at the problem of their joint lives, like a tailor with his pins and chalk. marjorie hadn't rejected a humorist and all his works in order to decline at last to the humorous view of life, that rather stupid, rather pathetic, grin-and-bear-it attitude compounded in incalculable proportions of goodwill, evasion, indolence, slovenliness, and (nevertheless) spite (masquerading indeed as jesting comment), which supplies the fabric of everyday life for untold thousands of educated middle-class people. she hated the misfit. she didn't for a moment propose to pretend that the ungainly twisted sleeve, the puckered back, was extremely jolly and funny. she had married with a passionate anticipation of things fitting and fine, and it was her nature, in great matters as in small, to get what she wanted strenuously before she counted the cost. about both their minds there was something sharp and unrelenting, and if marjorie had been disposed to take refuge from facts in swathings of aesthetic romanticism, whatever covering she contrived would have been torn to rags very speedily by that fierce and steely veracity which swung down out of the laboratory into her home. one may want to talk things out long before one hits upon the phrases that will open up the matter. there were two chief facts in the case between them and so far they had looked only one in the face, the fact that marjorie was unemployed to a troublesome and distressing extent, and that there was nothing in her nature or training to supply, and something in their circumstances and relations to prevent any adequate use of her energies. with the second fact neither of them cared to come to close quarters as yet, and neither as yet saw very distinctly how it was linked to the first, and that was the steady excess of her expenditure over their restricted means. she was secretly surprised at her own weakness. week by week and month by month, they were spending all his income and eating into that little accumulation of capital that had once seemed so sufficient against the world.... and here it has to be told that although trafford knew that marjorie had been spending too much money, he still had no idea of just how much money she had spent. she was doing her utmost to come to an understanding with him, and at the same time--i don't explain it, i don't excuse it--she was keeping back her bills from him, keeping back urgent second and third and fourth demands, that she had no cheque-book now to stave off even by the most partial satisfaction. it kept her awake at nights, that catastrophic explanation, that all unsuspected by trafford hung over their attempts at mutual elucidation; it kept her awake but she could not bring it to the speaking point, and she clung, in spite of her own intelligence, to a persuasion that _after_ they had got something really settled and defined then it would be time enough to broach the particulars of this second divergence.... talking one's relations over isn't particularly easy between husband and wife at any time; we are none of us so sure of one another as to risk loose phrases or make experiments in expression in matters so vital; there is inevitably an excessive caution on the one hand and an abnormal sensitiveness to hints and implications on the other. marjorie's bills were only an extreme instance of these unavoidable suppressions that always occur. moreover, when two people are continuously together, it is amazingly hard to know when and where to begin; where intercourse is unbroken it is as a matter of routine being constantly interrupted. you cannot broach these broad personalities while you are getting up in the morning, or over the breakfast-table while you make the coffee, or when you meet again after a multitude of small events at tea, or in the evening when one is rather tired and trivial after the work of the day. then miss margharita trafford permitted no sustained analysis of life in her presence. she synthesized things fallaciously, but for the time convincingly; she insisted that life wasn't a thing you discussed, but pink and soft and jolly, which you crowed at and laughed at and addressed as "goo." even without margharita there were occasions when the traffords were a forgetfulness to one another. after an ear has been pinched or a hand has been run through a man's hair, or a pretty bare shoulder kissed, all sorts of broader interests lapse into a temporary oblivion. they found discussion much more possible when they walked together. a walk seemed to take them out of the everyday sequence, isolate them from their household, abstract them a little from one another. they set out one extravagant spring sunday to great missenden, and once in spring also they discovered the waterlow park. on each occasion they seemed to get through an enormous amount of talking. but the great missenden walk was all mixed up with a sweet keen wind, and beechwoods just shot with spring green and bursting hedges and the extreme earliness of honeysuckle, which trafford noted for the first time, and a clamorous rejoicing of birds. and in the waterlow park there was a great discussion of why the yellow crocus comes before white and purple, and the closest examination of the manner in which daffodils and narcissi thrust their green noses out of the garden beds. also they found the ugly, ill-served, aggressively propagandist non-alcoholic refreshment-room in that gracious old house a scandal and disappointment, and trafford scolded at the stupidity of officialdom that can control so fine a thing so ill. though they talked on these walks they were still curiously evasive. indeed, they were afraid of each other. they kept falling away from their private thoughts and intentions. they generalized, they discussed marriage and george gissing and bernard shaw and the suffrage movement and the agitation for the reform of the divorce laws. they pursued imaginary cases into distant thickets of contingency remotely far from the personal issues between them.... § one day came an incident that marjorie found wonderfully illuminating. trafford had a fit of rage. stung by an unexpected irritation, he forgot himself, as people say, and swore, and was almost physically violent, and the curious thing was that so he lit up things for her as no premeditated attempt of his had ever done. a copy of the _scientific bulletin_ fired the explosion. he sat down at the breakfast-table with the heaviness of a rather overworked and worried man, tasted his coffee, tore open a letter and crumpled it with his hand, turned to the _bulletin_, regarded its list of contents with a start, opened it, read for a minute, and expressed himself with an extraordinary heat of manner in these amazing and unprecedented words: "oh! damnation and damnation!" then he shied the paper into the corner of the room and pushed his plate from him. "damn the whole scheme of things!" he said, and met the blank amazement of marjorie's eye. "behrens!" he said with an air of explanation. "behrens?" she echoed with a note of inquiry. "he's doing my stuff!" he sat darkling for a time and then hit the table with his fist so hard that the breakfast things seemed to jump together--to marjorie's infinite amazement. "i can't _stand_ it!" he said. she waited some moments. "i don't understand," she began. "what has he done?" "oh!" was trafford's answer. he got up, recovered the crumpled paper and stood reading. "fool and thief," he said. marjorie was amazed beyond measure. she felt as though she had been effaced from trafford's life. "ugh!" he cried and slapped back the _bulletin_ into the corner with quite needless violence. he became aware of marjorie again. "he's doing my work," he said. and then as if he completed the explanation: "and i've got to be in croydon by half-past ten to lecture to a pack of spinsters and duffers, because they're too stupid to get the stuff from books. it's all in books,--every bit of it." he paused and went on in tones of unendurable wrong. "it isn't as though he was doing it right. he isn't. he can't. he's a fool. he's a clever, greedy, dishonest fool with a twist. oh! the pile, the big pile of silly muddled technicalities he's invented already! the solemn mess he's making of it! and there he is, i can't get ahead of him, i can't get at him. i've got no time. i've got no room or leisure to swing my mind in! oh, curse these engagements, curse all these silly fretting entanglements of lecture and article! i never get the time, i can't get the time, i can't get my mind clear! i'm worried! i'm badgered! and meanwhile behrens----!" "is he discovering what you want to discover?" "behrens! _no!_ he's going through the breaches i made. he's guessing out what i meant to do. and he's getting it set out all wrong,--misleading terminology,--distinctions made in the wrong place. oh, the fool he is!" "but afterwards----" "afterwards i may spend my life--removing the obstacles he's made. he'll be established and i shan't. you don't know anything of these things. you don't understand." she didn't. her next question showed as much. "will it affect your f.r.s.?" she asked. "oh! _that's_ safe enough, and it doesn't matter anyhow. the f.r.s.! confound the silly little f.r.s.! as if that mattered. it's seeing all my great openings--misused. it's seeing all i might be doing. this brings it all home to me. don't you understand, marjorie? will you never understand? i'm getting away from all _that!_ i'm being hustled away by all this work, this silly everyday work to get money. don't you see that unless i can have time for thought and research, life is just darkness to me? i've made myself master of that stuff. i had at any rate. no one can do what i can do there. and when i find myself--oh, shut out, shut out! i come near raving. as i think of it i want to rave again." he paused. then with a swift transition: "i suppose i'd better eat some breakfast. is that egg boiled?" she gave him an egg, brought his coffee, put things before him, seated herself at the table. for a little while he ate in silence. then he cursed behrens. "look here!" she said. "bad as i am, you've got to reason with me, rag. i didn't know all this. i didn't understand ... i don't know what to do." "what _is_ there to do?" "i've got to do something. i'm beginning to see things. it's just as though everything had become clear suddenly." she was weeping. "oh, my dear! i want to help you. i have so wanted to help you. always. and it's come to this!" "but it's not _your_ fault. i didn't mean that. it's--it's in the nature of things." "it's my fault." "it's not your fault." "it is." "confound it, marjorie. when i swear at behrens i'm not swearing at you." "it's my fault. all this is my fault. i'm eating you up. what's the good of your pretending, rag. you know it is. oh! when i married you i meant to make you happy, i had no thought but to make you happy, to give myself to you, my body, my brains, everything, to make life beautiful for you----" "well, _haven't_ you?" he thrust out a hand she did not take. "i've broken your back," she said. an unwonted resolution came into her face. her lips whitened. "don't you know, rag," she said, forcing herself to speak----"don't you guess? you don't know half! in that bureau there----in there! it's stuffed with bills. unpaid bills." she was weeping, with no attempt to wipe the streaming tears away; terror made the expression of her wet face almost fierce. "bills," she repeated. "more than a hundred pounds still. yes! now. _now!_" he drew back, stared at her and with no trace of personal animus, like one who hears of a common disaster, remarked with a quiet emphasis: "oh, _damn!_" "i know," she said, "damn!" and met his eyes. there was a long silence between them. she produced a handkerchief and wiped her eyes. "that's what i amount to," she said. "it's your silly upbringing," he said after a long pause. "and my silly self." she stood up, unlocked and opened her littered desk, turned and held out the key to him. "why?" he asked. "take it. you gave me a cheque-book of my own and a corner of my own, and they--they are just ambushes--against you." he shook his head. "take it," said marjorie with quiet insistence. he obeyed. she stood with her eyes on the crumpled heap of bills. they were not even tidily arranged. that seemed to her now an extreme aggravation of her offence. "i ought to be sent to the chemist's," she remarked, "as one sends a worthless cat." trafford weighed this proposition soberly for some moments. "you're a bother, marjorie," he said with his eyes on the desk; "no end of a bother. i'd better have those bills." he looked at her, stood up, put his hands on her shoulders, drew her to him and kissed her forehead. he did it without passion, without tenderness, with something like resignation in his manner. she clung to him tightly, as though by clinging she could warm and soften him. "rag," she whispered; "all my heart is yours.... i want to help you.... and this is what i have done." "i know," he said--almost grimly. he repeated his kiss. then he seemed to explode again. "gods!" he cried, "look at the clock. i shall miss that croydon lecture!" he pushed her from him. "where are my boots?..." § marjorie spent the forenoon and the earlier part of the afternoon repeating and reviewing this conversation. her mind was full of the long disregarded problem of her husband's state of mind. she thought with a sympathetic astonishment of his swearing, of his startling blow upon the table. she hadn't so far known he could swear. but this was the real thing, the relief of vehement and destructive words. his voice, saying "damnation and damnation," echoed and re-echoed in her ears. somehow she understood that as she had never understood any sober statement of his case. such women as marjorie, i think, have an altogether keener understanding of people who have lost control of themselves than they have of reasoned cases. perhaps that is because they themselves always reserve something when they state a reasoned case. she went on to the apprehension of a change in him that hitherto she had not permitted herself to see--a change in his attitude to her. there had been a time when she had seemed able without an effort to nestle inside his heart. now she felt distinctly for the first time that that hadn't happened. she had instead a sense of her embrace sliding over a rather deliberately contracted exterior.... of course he had been in a hurry.... she tried to follow him on his journey to croydon. now he'd have just passed out of london bridge. what was he thinking and feeling about her in the train? now he would be going into the place, wherever it was, where he gave his lecture. did he think of behrens and curse her under his breath as he entered that tiresome room?... it seemed part of the prevailing inconvenience of life that daffy should see fit to pay an afternoon call. marjorie heard the sobs and uproar of an arrested motor, and glanced discreetly from the window to discover the dark green car with its green-clad chauffeur which now adorned her sister's life, and which might under different circumstances, have adorned her own. wilkins--his name was wilkins, his hair was sandy and his expression discreet, and he afforded material for much quiet humorous observation--descended smartly and opened the door. daffy appeared in black velvet, with a huge black fur muff, and an air of being unaware that there were such things as windows in the world. it was just four, and the cook-general, who ought to have been now in her housemaid's phase, was still upstairs divesting herself of her more culinary characteristics. marjorie opened the door. "hullo, old daffy!" she said. "hullo, old madge!" and there was an exchange of sisterly kisses and a mutual inspection. "nothing wrong?" asked daffy, surveying her. "_wrong?_" "you look pale and--tired about the eyes," said daffy, leading the way into the drawing-room. "thought you might be a bit off it, that's all. no offence, madge." "i'm all right," said marjorie, getting her back to the light. "want a holiday, perhaps. how's every one?" "all right. _we're_ off to lake garda next week. this new play has taken it out of will tremendously. he wants a rest and fresh surroundings. it's to be the biggest piece of work he's done--so far, and it's straining him. and people worry him here; receptions, first nights, dinners, speeches. he's so neat, you know, in his speeches.... but it wastes him. he wants to get away. how's rag?" "busy." "lecturing?" "and his research of course." "oh! of course. how's the babe?" "just in. come up and see the little beast, daffy! it is getting so pretty, and it talks----" margharita dominated intercourse for a time. she was one of those tactful infants who exactly resemble their fathers and exactly resemble their mothers, and have a charm and individuality quite distinctly their own, and she was now beginning to converse with startling enterprise and intelligence. "big, big, bog," she said at the sight of daffy. "remembers you," said marjorie. "bog! go ta-ta!" said margharita. "there!" said marjorie, and may, the nurse in the background, smiled unlimited appreciation. "bably," said margharita. "that's herself!" said marjorie, falling on her knees. "she talks like this all day. oh de sweetums, den!" _was_ it? daffy made amiable gestures and canary-like noises with her lips, and margharita responded jovially. "you darling!" cried marjorie, "you delight of life," kneeling by the cot and giving the crowing, healthy little mite a passionate hug. "it's really the nicest of babies," daffy conceded, and reflected.... "i don't know what i should do with a kiddy," said daffy, as the infant worship came to an end; "i'm really glad we haven't one--yet. he'd love it, i know. but it would be a burthen in some ways. they _are_ a tie. as he says, the next few years means so much for him. of course, here his reputation is immense, and he's known in germany, and there are translations into russian; but he's still got to conquer america, and he isn't really well known yet in france. they read him, of course, and buy him in america, but they're--_restive_. oh! i do so wish they'd give him the nobel prize, madge, and have done with it! it would settle everything. still, as he says, we mustn't think of that--yet, anyhow. he isn't venerable enough. it's doubtful, he thinks, that they would give the nobel prize to any humorist now that mark twain is dead. mark twain was different, you see, because of the german emperor and all that white hair and everything." at this point margharita discovered that the conversation had drifted away from herself, and it was only when they got downstairs again that daffy could resume the thread of magnet's career, which had evidently become the predominant interest in her life. she brought out all the worst elements of marjorie's nature and their sisterly relationship. there were moments when it became nakedly apparent that she was magnifying magnet to belittle trafford. marjorie did her best to counter-brag. she played her chief card in the f. r. s. "they always ask will to the royal society dinner," threw out daffy; "but of course he can't always go. he's asked to so many things." five years earlier marjorie would have kicked her shins for that. instead she asked pointedly, offensively, if magnet was any balder. "he's not really bald," said daffy unruffled, and went on to discuss the advisability of a second motor car--purely for town use. "i tell him i don't want it," said daffy, "but he's frightfully keen upon getting one." § when daffy had at last gone marjorie went back into trafford's study and stood on the hearthrug regarding its appointments, with something of the air of one who awakens from a dream. she had developed a new, appalling thought. was daffy really a better wife than herself? it was dawning upon marjorie that she hadn't been doing the right thing by her husband, and she was as surprised as if it had been suddenly brought home to her that she was neglecting margharita. this was her husband's study--and it showed just a little dusty in the afternoon sunshine, and everything about it denied the pretensions of serene sustained work that she had always made to herself. here were the crumpled galley proofs of his science notes; here were unanswered letters. there, she dare not touch them, were computations, under a glass paper-weight. what did they amount to now? on the table under the window were back numbers of the _scientific bulletin_ in a rather untidy pile, and on the footstool by the arm-chair she had been accustomed to sit at his feet when he stayed at home to work, and look into the fire, and watch him furtively, and sometimes give way to an overmastering tenderness and make love to him. the thought of magnet, pampered, fenced around, revered in his industrious tiresome repetitions, variations, dramatizations and so forth of the half-dozen dry little old jokes which the british public accepted as his characteristic offering and rewarded him for so highly, contrasted vividly with her new realization of trafford's thankless work and worried face. and she loved him, she loved him--_so_. she told herself in the presence of all these facts, and without a shadow of doubt in her mind that all she wanted in the world was to make him happy. it occurred to her as a rather drastic means to this end that she might commit suicide. she had already gone some way in the composition of a touching letter of farewell to him, containing a luminous analysis of her own defects, before her common-sense swept away this imaginative exercise. meanwhile, as if it had been working at her problem all the time that this exciting farewell epistle had occupied the foreground of her thoughts, her natural lucidity emerged with the manifest conclusion that she had to alter her way of living. she had been extraordinarily regardless of him, she only began to see that, and now she had to take up the problem of his necessities. her self-examination now that it had begun was thorough. she had always told herself before that she had made a most wonderful and beautiful little home for him. but had she made it for him? had he as a matter of fact ever wanted it, except that he was glad to have it through her? no doubt it had given him delight and happiness, it had been a marvellous little casket of love for them, but how far did that outweigh the burthen and limitation it had imposed upon him? she had always assumed he was beyond measure grateful to her for his home, in spite of all her bills, but was he? it was like sticking a knife into herself to ask that, but she was now in a phase heroic enough for the task--was he? she had always seen herself as the giver of bounties; greatest bounty of all was margharita. she had faced pains and terrors and the shadow of death to give him margharita. now with daffy's illuminating conversation in her mind, she could turn the light upon a haunting doubt that had been lurking in the darkness for a long time. had he really so greatly wanted margharita? had she ever troubled to get to the bottom of that before? hadn't she as a matter of fact wanted margharita ten thousand times more than he had done? hadn't she in effect imposed margharita upon him, as she had imposed her distinctive and delightful home upon him, regardlessly, because these things were the natural and legitimate developments of herself? these things were not his ends. had she hitherto ever really cared what his ends might be? a phrase she had heard abundantly enough in current feminist discussion recurred to her mind, "the economic dependence of women," and now for the first time it was charged with meaning. she had imposed these things upon him not because she loved him, but because these things that were the expansions and consequences of her love for him were only obtainable through him. a woman gives herself to a man out of love, and remains clinging parasitically to him out of necessity. was there no way of evading that necessity? for a time she entertained dreams of marvellous social reconstructions. suppose the community kept all its women, suppose all property in homes and furnishings and children vested in them! that was marjorie's version of that idea of the endowment of womanhood which has been creeping into contemporary thought during the last two decades. then every woman would be a princess to the man she loved.... he became more definitely personal. suppose she herself was rich, then she could play the princess to trafford; she could have him free, unencumbered, happy and her lover! then, indeed, her gifts would be gifts, and all her instincts and motives would but crown his unhampered life! she could not go on from that idea, she lapsed into a golden reverie, from which she was roused by the clock striking five. in half an hour perhaps trafford would be home again. she could at least be so much of a princess as to make his home sweet for his home-coming. there should be tea in here, where callers did not trouble. she glanced at an empty copper vase. it ached. there was no light in the room. there would be just time to dash out into high street and buy some flowers for it before he came.... § spring and a renewed and deepened love for her husband were in marjorie's blood. her mind worked rapidly during the next few days, and presently she found herself clearly decided upon her course of action. she had to pull herself together and help him, and if that meant a spartan and strenuous way of living, then manifestly she must be spartan and strenuous. she must put an end once for all to her recurrent domestic deficits, and since this could only be done by getting rid of may, she must get rid of may and mind the child herself. (every day, thank heaven! margharita became more intelligent, more manageable, and more interesting.) then she must also make a far more systematic and thorough study of domestic economy than she had hitherto done, and run the shopping and housekeeping on severer lines; she bought fruit carelessly, they had far too many joints; she never seemed able to restrain herself when it came to flowers. and in the evenings, which would necessarily be very frequently lonely evenings if trafford's researches were to go on, she would typewrite, and either acquire great speed at that or learn shorthand, and so save trafford's present expenditure on a typist. that unfortunately would mean buying a typewriter. she found one afternoon in a twopenny book-box, with which she was trying to allay her craving for purchases, a tattered little pamphlet entitled: "proposals for the establishment of an order of samurai," which fell in very exactly with her mood. the title "dated"; it carried her mind back to her middle girlhood and the defeats of kuropatki and the futile earnest phase in english thought which followed the boer war. the order was to be a sort of self-appointed nobility serving the world. it shone with the light of a generous dawn, but cast, i fear, the shadow of the prig. its end was the agenda club.... she read and ceased to read--and dreamt. the project unfolded the picture of a new method of conduct to her, austere, yet picturesque and richly noble. these samurai, it was intimated, were to lead lives of hard discipline and high effort, under self-imposed rule and restraint. they were to stand a little apart from the excitements and temptations of everyday life, to eat sparingly, drink water, resort greatly to self-criticism and self-examination, and harden their spirits by severe and dangerous exercises. they were to dress simply, work hard, and be the conscious and deliberate salt of the world. they were to walk among mountains. incidentally, great power was to be given them. such systematic effort and self-control as this, seemed to marjorie to give just all she wasn't and needed to be, to save her life and trafford's from a common disaster.... it particularly appealed to her that they were to walk among mountains.... but it is hard to make a change in the colour of one's life amidst the routine one has already established about oneself, in the house that is grooved by one's weaknesses, amidst hangings and ornaments living and breathing with the life of an antagonistic and yet insidiously congenial ideal. a great desire came upon marjorie to go away with trafford for a time, out of their everyday life into strange and cool and spacious surroundings. she wanted to leave london and its shops, and the home and the movements and the callers and rivalries, and even dimpled little margharita's insistent claims, and get free and think. it was the first invasion of their lives by this conception, a conception that was ever afterwards to leave them altogether, of retreat and reconstruction. she knelt upon the white sheepskin hearthrug at trafford's feet one night, and told him of her desire. he, too, was tired of his work and his vexations, and ripe for this suggestion of an altered life. the easter holiday was approaching, and nearly twenty unencumbered days. mrs. trafford, they knew, would come into the house, meanwhile, and care for margharita. they would go away somewhere together and walk, no luggage but a couple of knapsacks, no hotel but some homely village inn. they would be in the air all day, until they were saturated with sweet air and spirit of clean restraints. they would plan out their new rule, concentrate their aims. "and i could think," said trafford, "of this new work i can't begin here. i might make some notes." presently came the question of where the great walk should be. manifestly, it must be among mountains, manifestly, and marjorie's eye saw those mountains with snow upon their summits and cold glaciers on their flanks. could they get to switzerland? if they travelled second class throughout, and took the cheaper way, as samurai should?... § that holiday seemed to marjorie as if they had found a lost and forgotten piece of honeymoon. she had that same sense of fresh beginnings that had made their first walk in italian switzerland so unforgettable. she was filled with the happiness of recovering trafford when he had seemed to be slipping from her. all day they talked of their outlook, and how they might economise away the need of his extra work, and so release him for his search again. for the first time he talked of his work to her, and gave her some intimation of its scope and quality. he became enthusiastic with the sudden invention of experimental devices, so that it seemed to her almost worth while if instead of going on they bolted back, he to his laboratory and she to her nursery, and so at once inaugurated the new régime. but they went on, to finish the holiday out. and the delight of being together again with unfettered hours of association! they rediscovered each other, the same--and a little changed. if their emotions were less bright and intense, their interest was far wider and deeper. the season was too early for high passes, and the weather was changeable. they started from fribourg and walked to thun and then back to bulle, and so to bultigen, saanen, montbovon and the lake of geneva. they had rain several days, the sweet, soft, windless mountain rain that seemed so tolerable to those who are accustomed to the hard and driven downpours of england, and in places they found mud and receding snow; the inns were at their homeliest, and none the worse for that, and there were days of spring sunshine when a multitude of minute and delightful flowers came out as it seemed to meet them--it was impossible to suppose so great a concourse universal--and spread in a scented carpet before their straying feet. the fruit trees in the valleys were powdered with blossom, and the new grass seemed rather green-tinted sunlight than merely green. and they walked with a sort of stout leisureliness, knapsacks well-hung and cloaks about them, with their faces fresh and bright under the bracing weather, and their lungs deep charged with mountain air, talking of the new austerer life that was now beginning. with great snow-capped mountains in the background, streaming precipices overhead, and a sward of flowers to go upon, that strenuous prospect was altogether delightful. they went as it pleased them, making detours into valleys, coming back upon their steps. the interludes of hot, bright april sunshine made them indolent, and they would loiter and halt where some rock or wall invited, and sit basking like happy, animals, talking very little, for long hours together. trafford seemed to have forgotten all the strain and disappointment of the past two years, to be amazed but in no wise incredulous at this enormous change in her and in their outlook; it filled her with a passion of pride and high resolve to think that so she could recover and uplift him. he was now very deeply in love with her again. he talked indeed of his research, but so that it might interest her, and when he thought alone, he thought, not of it, but of her, making again the old discoveries, his intense delight in the quality of her voice, his joy in a certain indescribable gallantry in her bearing. he pitied all men whose wives could not carry themselves, and whose voices failed and broke under the things they had to say. and then again there was the way she moved her arms, the way her hands took hold of things, the alert lucidity of her eyes, and then that faint, soft shadow of a smile upon her lips when she walked thinking or observant, all unaware that he was watching her. it rained in the morning of their eleventh day and then gave way to warmth and sunshine, so that they arrived at les avants in the afternoon a little muddy and rather hot. at one of the tables under the trees outside the grand hotel was a small group of people dressed in the remarkable and imposing costume which still in those days distinguished the motorist. they turned from their tea to a more or less frank inspection of the traffords, and suddenly broke out into cries of recognition and welcome. solomonson--for the most part brown leather--emerged with extended hands, and behind him, nestling in the midst of immense and costly furs, appeared the kindly salience and brightness of his lady's face. "good luck!" cried solomonson. "good luck! come and have tea with us! but this is a happy encounter!" "we're dirty--but so healthy!" cried marjorie, saluting lady solomonson. "you look, oh!--splendidly well," that lady responded. "we've been walking." "with just that knapsack!" "it's been glorious." "but the courage!" said lady solomonson, and did not add, "the tragic hardship!" though her tone conveyed it. she had all the unquestioning belief of her race in the sanity of comfort. she had ingrained in her the most definite ideas of man's position and woman's, and that any one, man or woman, should walk in mud except under dire necessity, was outside the range of her philosophy. she thought marjorie's thick boots and short skirts quite the most appalling feminine costume she had ever seen. she saw only a ruined complexion and damaged womanhood in marjorie's rain-washed, sun-bit cheek. her benevolent heart rebelled at the spectacle. it was dreadful, she thought, that nice young people like the traffords should have come to this. the rest of the party were now informally introduced. they were all very splendid and disconcertingly free from mud. one was christabel morrison, the actress, a graceful figure in a green baize coat and brown fur, who looked ever so much more charming than her innumerable postcards and illustrated-paper portraits would have led one to expect; her neighbour was solomonson's cousin lee, the organizer of the theatre syndicate, a brown-eyed, attenuated, quick-minded little man with an accent that struck trafford as being on the whole rather dutch, and the third lady was lady solomonson's sister, mrs. lee. it appeared they were all staying at lee's villa above vevey, part of an amusing assembly of people who were either vividly rich or even more vividly clever, an accumulation which the traffords in the course of the next twenty minutes were three times invited, with an increasing appreciation and earnestness, to join. from the first our two young people were not indisposed to do so. for eleven days they had maintained their duologue at the very highest level; seven days remained to them before they must go back to begin the hard new life in england, and there was something very attractive--they did not for a moment seek to discover the elements of that attractiveness--in this proposal of five or six days of luxurious indolence above the lake, a sort of farewell to the worldly side of worldly things, before they set forth upon the high and narrow path they had resolved to tread. "but we've got no clothes," cried marjorie, "no clothes at all! we've these hobnail boots and a pair each of heelless slippers." "my dear!" cried lady solomonson in real distress, and as much aside as circumstances permitted, "my dear! my sister can manage all that!" her voice fell to earnest undertones. "we can really manage all that. the house is packed with things. we'll come to dinner in fancy dress. and scott, my maid, is so clever." "but really!" said marjorie. "my dear!" said lady solomonson. "everything." and she changed places with lee in order to be perfectly confidential and explicit. "rachel!" she cried, and summoned her sister for confirmatory assurances.... "but my husband!" marjorie became audible. "we've long persian robes," said mrs. lee, with a glance of undisguised appraisement. "he'll be splendid. he'll look like a soldan...." the rest of the company forced a hectic conversation in order not to seem to listen, and presently lady solomonson and her sister were triumphant. they packed marjorie into the motor car, and trafford and solomonson returned to vevey by train and thence up to the villa by a hired automobile. § they didn't go outside the magic confines of the lees' villa for three days, and when they did they were still surrounded by their host's service and possessions; they made an excursion to chillon in his motor-cars, and went in his motor-boat to lunch with the maynards in their lake-side villa close to geneva. during all that time they seemed lifted off the common earth into a world of fine fabrics, agreeable sounds, noiseless unlimited service, and ample untroubled living. it had an effect of enchantment, and the long healthy arduous journey thither seemed a tale of incredible effort amidst these sunny excesses. the weather had the whim to be serenely fine, sunshine like summer and the bluest of skies shone above the white wall and the ilex thickets and cypresses that bounded them in from the great world of crowded homes and sous and small necessities. and through the texture of it all for trafford ran a thread of curious new suggestion. an intermittent discussion of economics and socialism was going on between himself and solomonson and an agreeable little stammering man in brown named minter, who walked up in the afternoon from vevey,--he professed to be writing a novel--during the earlier half of the day. minter displayed the keenest appreciation of everything in his entertainment, and blinked cheerfully and expressed opinions of the extremest socialistic and anarchistic flavour to an accompaniment of grateful self-indulgence. "your port-wine is wonderful, lee," he would say, sipping it. "a terrible retribution will fall upon you some day for all this." the villa had been designed by lee to please his wife, and if it was neither very beautiful nor very dignified, it was at any rate very pretty and amusing. it might have been built by a parisian dressmaker--in the châteauesque style. it was of greyish-white stone, with a roof of tiles. it had little balconies and acutely roofed turrets, and almost burlesque buttresses, pierced by doors and gates; and sun-trap loggias, as pleasantly casual as the bows and embroideries of a woman's dress; and its central hall, with an impluvium that had nothing to do with rain-water, and its dining-room, to which one ascended from this hall between pillars up five broad steps, were entirely irrelevant to all its exterior features. unobtrusive men-servants in grey with scarlet facings hovered serviceably. from the little terrace, all set with orange-trees in tubs, one could see, through the branches and stems of evergreens and over a foreground of budding, starting vineyard, the clustering roofs of vevey below, an agglomeration veiled ever so thinly in the morning by a cobweb of wood smoke, against the blue background of lake with its winged sailing-boats, and sombre alpine distances. minter made it all significant by a wave of the hand. "all this," he said, and of the crowded work-a-day life below, "all that." "all this," with its rich litter of stuffs and ornaments, its fine profusion, its delicacies of flower and food and furniture, its frequent inconsecutive pleasures, its noiseless, ready service, was remarkably novel and yet remarkably familiar to trafford. for a time he could not understand this undertone of familiarity, and then a sunlit group of hangings in one of the small rooms that looked out upon the lake took his mind back to his own dining-room, and the little inadequate, but decidedly good, bokhara embroidery that dominated it like a flag, that lit it, and now lit his understanding, like a confessed desire. of course, mrs. lee--happy woman!--was doing just everything that marjorie would have loved to do. marjorie had never confessed as much, perhaps she had never understood as much, but now in the presence of mrs. lee's æsthetic exuberances, trafford at least understood. he surveyed the little room, whose harmonies he had at first simply taken for granted, noted the lustre-ware that answered to the gleaming persian tiles, the inspiration of a metallic thread in the hangings, and the exquisite choice of the deadened paint upon the woodwork, and realized for the first time how little aimless extravagance can be, and all the timid, obstinately insurgent artistry that troubled his wife. he stepped through the open window into a little loggia, and stared unseeingly over glittering, dark-green leaves to the mysteries of distance in the great masses above st. gingolph, and it seemed for the first time that perhaps in his thoughts he had done his wife a wrong. he had judged her fickle, impulsive, erratic, perhaps merely because her mind followed a different process from his, because while he went upon the lines of constructive truth, her guide was a more immediate and instinctive sense of beauty. he was very much alive to her now, and deeply in love with her. he had reached les avants with all his sense of their discordance clean washed and walked out of his mind, by rain and sun and a flow of high resolutions, and the brotherly swing of their strides together. they had come to the lee's villa, mud-splashed, air-sweet comrades, all unaware of the subtle differences of atmosphere they had to encounter. they had no suspicion that it was only about half of each other that had fraternized. now here they were in a company that was not only altogether alien to their former mood, but extremely interesting and exciting and closely akin to the latent factors in marjorie's composition. their hostess and her sister had the keen, quick æsthetic sensibilities of their race, with all that freedom of reading and enfranchisement of mind which is the lot of the western women. lee had an immense indulgent affection for his wife, he regarded her arrangements and exploits with an admiration that was almost american. and mrs. lee's imagination had run loose in pursuit of beautiful and remarkable people and splendours rather than harmonies of line and colour. lee, like solomonson, had that inexplicable alchemy of mind which distils gold from the commerce of the world ("all this," said minter to trafford, "is an exhalation from all that"); he accumulated wealth as one grows a beard, and found his interest in his uxorious satisfactions, and so mrs. lee, with her bright watchful eyes, quick impulsive movements and instinctive command had the utmost freedom to realize her ideals. in the world at large lee and solomonson seemed both a little short and a little stout, and a little too black and bright for their entirely conventional clothing, but for the dinner and evening of the villa they were now, out of consideration for trafford, at their ease, and far more dignified in oriental robes. trafford was accommodated with a long, black, delicately embroidered garment that reached to his feet, and suited something upstanding and fine in his bearing; minter, who had stayed on from an afternoon call, was gorgeous in chinese embroidery. the rest of the men clung boldly or bashfully to evening dress.... on the evening of his arrival trafford, bathed and robed, found the rest of the men assembling about an open wood fire in the smaller hall at the foot of the main staircase. lee was still upstairs, and solomonson, with a new grace of gesture begotten by his costume, made the necessary introductions; a little man with fine-cut features and a galway accent was rex the playwright; a tall, grey-haired, clean-shaven man was bright from the new york central museum; and a bearded giant with a roof of red hair and a remote eye was radlett barns, the great portrait-painter, who consents to paint your portrait for posterity as the king confers a knighthood. these were presently joined by lee and pacey, the blond-haired musician, and mottersham, whose patents and inventions control electric lighting and heating all over the world, and then, with the men duly gathered and expectant, the women came down the wide staircase. the staircase had been planned and lit for these effects, and mrs. lee meant to make the most of her new discovery. her voice could be heard in the unseen corridor above arranging the descent: "you go first, dear. will you go with christabel?" the conversation about the fire checked and ceased with the sound of voices above and the faint rustle of skirts. then came christabel morrison, her slender grace beautifully contrasted with the fuller beauties of that great lady of the stage, marion rufus. lady solomonson descended confidently in a group of three, with lady mottersham and sharp-tongued little mrs. rex, all very rich and splendid. after a brief interval their hostess preceded marjorie, and was so much of an artist that she had dressed herself merely as a foil to this new creation. she wore black and scarlet, that made the white face and bright eyes under her sombre hair seem the face of an inspiring spirit. a step behind her and to the right of her came marjorie, tall and wonderful, as if she were the queen of earth and sunshine, swathed barbarically in gold and ruddy brown, and with her abundant hair bound back by a fillet of bloodstones and gold. radlett barns exclaimed at the sight of her. she was full of the manifest consciousness of dignity as she descended, quite conscious and quite unembarrassed; two borrowed golden circlets glittered on her shining arm, and a thin chain of gold and garnets broke the contrast of the warm, sun-touched neck above, with the unsullied skin below. she sought and met her husband's astonishment with the faintest, remotest of smiles. it seemed to him that never before had he appreciated her beauty. his daily companion had become this splendour in the sky. she came close by him with hand extended to greet sir philip mottersham. he was sensible of the glow of her, as it were of a scented aura about her. he had a first full intimation of the cult and worship of woman and the magnificence of women, old as the mediterranean and its goddesses, and altogether novel to his mind.... christabel morrison found him a pleasant but not very entertaining or exciting neighbor at the dinner-table, and was relieved when the time came for her to turn an ear to the artistic compliments of radlett barns. but trafford was too interested and amused by the general effect of the dinner to devote himself to the rather heavy business of really exhilarating christabel. he didn't give his mind to her. he found the transformation of sir rupert into a turbanned oriental who might have come out of a picture by carpaccio, gently stimulating and altogether delightful. his attention returned again and again to that genial swarthiness. mrs. lee on his left lived in her eyes, and didn't so much talk to him as rattle her mind at him almost absent-mindedly, as one might dangle keys at a baby while one talked to its mother. yet it was evident she liked the look of him. her glance went from his face to his robe, and up and down the table, at the bright dresses, the shining arms, the glass and light and silver. she asked him to tell her just where he had tramped and just what he had seen, and he had scarcely begun answering her question before her thoughts flew off to three trophies of china and silver, struggling groups of china boys bearing up great silver shells of fruit and flowers that stood down the centre of the table. "what do you think of my chubby boys?" she asked. "they're german work. they came from a show at düsseldorf last week. ben saw i liked them, and sent back for them secretly, and here they, are! i thought they might be too colourless. but are they?" "no," said trafford, "they're just cool. under that glow of fruit. is this salt-cellar english cut glass?" "old dutch," said mrs. lee. "isn't it jolly?" she embarked with a roving eye upon the story of her dutch glass, which was abundant and admirable, and broke off abruptly to say, "your wife is wonderful." "her hair goes back," she said, "like music. you know what i mean--a sort of easy rhythm. you don't mind my praising your wife?" trafford said he didn't. "and there's a sort of dignity about her. all my life, mr. trafford, i've wanted to be tall. it stopped my growth." she glanced off at a tangent. "tell me, mr. trafford," she asked, "was your wife beautiful like this when you married her? i mean--of course she was a beautiful girl and adorable and all that; but wasn't she just a slender thing?" she paused, but if she had a habit of asking disconcerting questions she did not at any rate insist upon answers, and she went on to confess that she believed she would be a happier woman poor than rich--"not that ben isn't all he should be"--but that then she would have been a fashionable dressmaker. "people want help," she said, "so much more help than they get. they go about with themselves--what was it mr. radlett barns said the other night--oh!--like people leading horses they daren't ride. i think he says such good things at times, don't you? so wonderful to be clever in two ways like that. just look _now_ at your wife--now i mean, that they've drawn that peacock-coloured curtain behind her. my brother-in-law has been telling me you keep the most wonderful and precious secrets locked up in your breast, that you know how to make gold and diamonds and all sorts of things. if i did,--i should make them." she pounced suddenly upon rex at her left with questions about the keltic renascence, was it still going on--or what? and trafford was at liberty for a time to enjoy the bright effects about him, the shadowed profile and black hair of christabel to the right of him, and the coruscating refractions and reflections of lady solomonson across the white and silver and ivory and blossom of the table. then mrs. lee dragged him into a sudden conflict with rex, by saying abruptly-- "of course, mr. trafford wouldn't believe that." he looked perhaps a little lost. "i was telling mrs. lee," said rex, "that i don't believe there's any economy of human toil in machinery whatever. i mean that the machine itself really embodies all the toil it seems to save, toil that went to the making of it and preparing it and getting coal for it...." § next morning they found their hostess at breakfast in the dining-room and now the sun was streaming through a high triple window that had been curtained overnight, and they looked out through clean, bright plate-glass upon mountains half-dissolved in a luminous mist, and a mist-veiled lake below. great stone jars upon the terrace bore a blaze of urged and early blossom, and beyond were cypresses. their hostess presided at one of two round tables, at a side table various breakfast dishes kept warm over spirit lamps, and two men servants dispensed tea and coffee. in the bay of the window was a fruit table, with piled fruit-plates and finger-bowls. mrs. lee waved a welcoming hand, and drew marjorie to a seat beside her. rex was consuming trout and christabel peaches, and solomonson, all his overnight orientalism abandoned, was in outspoken tweeds and quite under the impression that he was interested in golf. trafford got frizzled bacon for marjorie and himself, and dropped into a desultory conversation, chiefly sustained by christabel, about the peculiarly exalting effect of beautiful scenery on christabel's mind. mrs. lee was as usual distraught, and kept glancing towards the steps that led up from the hall. lady solomonson appeared with a rustle in a wrapper of pink chinese silk. "i came down after all," she said. "i lay in bed weighing rolls and coffee and relaxed muscles against your english breakfast downstairs. and suddenly i remembered your little sausages!" she sat down with a distribution of handkerchief, bag, letters, a gold fountain pen and suchlike equipments, and trafford got her some of the coveted delicacies. mrs. lee suddenly cried out, "_here_ they come! _here_ they come!" and simultaneously the hall resonated with children's voices and the yapping of a skye terrier. then a gay little procession appeared ascending the steps. first came a small but princely little boy of three, with a ruddy face and curly black hair, behind him was a slender, rather awkward girl of perhaps eleven, and a sturdier daughter of israel of nine. a nurse in artistic purple followed, listening inattentively to some private whisperings of a knickerbockered young man of five, and then came another purple-robed nurse against contingencies, and then a nurse of a different, white-clad, and more elaborately costumed sort, carrying a sumptuous baby of eight or nine months. "ah! the _darlings!_" cried christabel, springing up quite beautifully, and lady solomonson echoed the cry. the procession broke against the tables and split about the breakfast party. the small boy in petticoats made a confident rush for marjorie, christabel set herself to fascinate his elder brother, the young woman of eleven scrutinized trafford with speculative interest and edged towards him coyly, and mrs. lee interviewed her youngest born. the amiable inanities suitable to the occasion had scarcely begun before a violent clapping of hands announced the appearance of lee. it was lee's custom, mrs. lee told marjorie over her massively robed baby, to get up very early and work on rolls and coffee; he never breakfasted nor joined them until the children came. all of them rushed to him for their morning kiss, and it seemed to trafford that lee at least was an altogether happy creature as he accepted the demonstrative salutations of this struggling, elbowing armful of offspring, and emerged at last like a man from a dive, flushed and ruffled and smiling, to wish his adult guests good morning. "come upstairs with us, daddy," cried the children, tugging at him. "come upstairs!" mrs. lee ran her eye about her table and rose. "it's the children's hour," she said to marjorie. "you don't i hope, mind children?" "but," said trafford incredulous, and with a friendly arm about his admirer, "is this tall young woman yours?" the child shot him a glance of passionate appreciation for this scrap of flattery. "we began young," said mrs. lee, with eyes of uncritical pride for the ungainly one, and smiled at her husband. "upstairs," cried the boy of five and the girl of nine. "upstairs." "may we come?" asked marjorie. "may we all come?" asked christabel, determined to be in the movement. rex strolled towards the cigars, with disentanglement obviously in his mind. "do you really care?" asked mrs. lee. "you know, i'm so proud of their nursery. would you care----? always i go up at this time." "i've my little nursery, too," said marjorie. "of course!" cried mrs. lee, "i forgot. of course;" and overwhelmed marjorie with inquiries as she followed her husband. every one joined the nurseryward procession except rex, who left himself behind with an air of inadvertency, and escaped to the terrace and a cigar.... it was a wonderful nursery, a suite of three bedrooms, a green and white, well-lit schoolroom and a vast playroom, and hovering about the passage trafford remarked a third purple nurse and a very efficient and serious-looking swiss governess. the schoolroom and the nursery displayed a triumph of judicious shopping and arrangement, the best of german and french and english things had been blended into a harmony at once hygienic and pedagogic and humanly charming. for once marjorie had to admire the spending of another woman, and admit to herself that even she could not have done better with the money. there were clever little desks for the elder children to work at, adjustable desks scientifically lit so that they benefited hands and shoulders and eyes; there were artistically coloured and artistically arranged pictures, and a little library held all the best of lang and lucas, rare good things like "uncle lubin," maurice baring's story of "forget-me-not," "johnny crow's garden," "the bad child's book of beasts," animal books and bird books, costume books and story books, colour books and rhyme books, abundant, yet every one intelligently chosen, no costly meretricious printed rubbish such as silly gentile mothers buy. then in the great nursery, with its cork carpet on which any toy would stand or run, was an abundance of admirable possessions and shelving for everything, and great fat cloth elephants to ride, and go-carts, and hooks for a swing. marjorie's quick eye saw, and she admired effusively and envied secretly, and mrs. lee appreciated her appreciation. a skirmishing romp of the middle children and lee went on about the two of them, and trafford was led off by his admirer into a cubby-house in one corner (with real glass windows made to open) and the muslin curtains were drawn while he was shown a secret under vows. lady solomonson discovered some soldiers, and was presently on her knees in a corner with the five-year old boy. "these are like my teddy's," she was saying. "my billy has some of these." trafford emerged from the cubby-house, which was perhaps a little cramped for him, and surveyed the room, with his admirer lugging at his arm unheeded, and whispering: "come back with me." of course this was the clue to lee and solomonson. how extremely happy lee appeared to be! enormous vistas of dark philoprogenitive parents and healthy little jews and jewesses seemed to open out to trafford, hygienically reared, exquisitely trained and educated. and he and marjorie had just one little daughter--with a much poorer educational outlook. she had no cloth elephant to ride, no elaborate cubby-house to get into, only a half-dozen picture books or so, and later she wouldn't when she needed it get that linguistic swiss. he wasn't above the normal human vanity of esteeming his own race and type the best, and certain vulgar aspects of what nowadays one calls eugenics crossed his mind. § during those few crowded days of unfamiliar living trafford accumulated a vast confused mass of thoughts and impressions. he realized acutely the enormous gulf between his attitudes towards women and those of his host and solomonson--and indeed of all the other men. it had never occurred to him before that there was any other relationship possible between a modern woman and a modern man but a frank comradeship and perfect knowledge, helpfulness, and honesty. that had been the continual implication of his mother's life, and of all that he had respected in the thought and writing of his time. but not one of these men in their place--with the possible exception of minter, who remained brilliant but ambiguous--believed anything of the sort. it necessarily involved in practice a share of hardship for women, and it seemed fundamental to them that women should have no hardship. he sought for a word, and hung between chivalry and orientalism. he inclined towards chivalry. their women were lifted a little off the cold ground of responsibility. charm was their obligation. "a beautiful woman should be beautifully dressed," said radlett barns in the course of the discussion of a contemporary portrait painter. lee nodded to endorse an obvious truth. "but she ought to dress herself," said barns. "it ought to be herself to the points of the old lace--chosen and assimilated. it's just through not being that, that so many rich women are--detestable. heaps of acquisition. caddis-women...." trafford ceased to listen, he helped himself to a cigar and pinched its end and lit it, while his mind went off to gnaw at: "a beautiful woman should be beautifully dressed," as a dog retires with a bone. he couldn't escape from its shining truth, and withal it was devastating to all the purposes of his life. he rejected the word orientalism; what he was dealing with here was chivalry. "all this," was indeed, under the thinnest of disguises, the castle and the pavilion, and lee and solomonson were valiant knights, who entered the lists not indeed with spear and shield but with prospectus and ingenious enterprise, who drew cheques instead of swords for their ladies' honour, who held "all that" in fee and subjection that these exquisite and wonderful beings should flower in rich perfection. all these women lived in a magic security and abundance, far above the mire and adventure of the world; their knights went upon quests for them and returned with villas and pictures and diamonds and historical pearls. and not one of them all was so beautiful a being as his marjorie, whom he made his squaw, whom he expected to aid and follow him, and suffer uncomplainingly the rough services of the common life. not one was half so beautiful as marjorie, nor half so sweet and wonderful.... if such thoughts came in lee's villa, they returned with redoubled force when trafford found himself packed painfully with marjorie in the night train to paris. his head ached with the rattle and suffocation of the train, and he knew hers must ache more. the windows of the compartment and the door were all closed, the litigious little commercial traveller in shiny grey had insisted upon that, there was no corner seat either for marjorie or himself, the dim big package over her head swayed threateningly. the green shade over the light kept opening with the vibration of the train, the pallid old gentleman with the beard had twisted himself into a ghastly resemblance to a broken-necked corpse, and pressed his knees hard and stiffly against trafford, and the small, sniffing, bow-legged little boy beside the rusty widow woman in the corner smelt mysteriously and penetratingly of roquefort cheese. for the seventeenth time the little commercial traveller jumped up with an unbecoming expletive, and pulled the shade over the light, and the silent young man in the fourth corner stirred and readjusted his legs. for a time until the crack of light overhead had widened again every one became a dark head-dangling outline.... he watched the dim shape before him and noted the weary droop of her pose. he wished he had brought water. he was intolerably thirsty, and his thirst gave him the measure of hers. this jolting foetid compartment was a horrible place for her, an intolerably horrible place. and she was standing it, for all her manifest suffering, with infinite gallantry and patience. what a gallant soul indeed she was! whatever else she did she never failed to rise to a challenge. her very extravagance that had tried their lives so sorely was perhaps just one aspect of that same quality. it is so easy to be saving if one is timid; so hard if one is unaccustomed to fear. how beautiful she had shone at times in the lights and glitter of that house behind there, and now she was back in her weather-stained tweeds again, like a shining sword thrust back into a rusty old sheath. was it fair that she should come back into the sheath because of this passion of his for a vast inexhaustible research? he had never asked himself before if it was fair to assume she would follow his purpose and his fortunes. he had taken that for granted. and she too had taken that for granted, which was so generously splendid of her. all her disloyalties had been unintentional, indeed almost instinctive, breaches of her subordination to this aim which was his alone. these breaches he realized had been the reality of her nature fighting against her profoundest resolutions. he wondered what lee must think of this sort of married life. how ugly and selfish it must seem from that point of view. he perceived for the first time the fundamental incongruity of marjorie's position, she was made to shine, elaborately prepared and trained to shine, desiring keenly to shine, and then imprisoned and hidden in the faded obscurity of a small, poor home. how conspicuously, how extremely he must be wanting in just that sort of chivalry in which lee excelled! those business men lived for their women to an extent he had hitherto scarcely dreamt of doing.... his want of chivalry was beyond dispute. and was there not also an extraordinary egotism in this concentration upon his own purposes, a self-esteem, a vanity? had her life no rights? suppose now he were to give her--two years, three years perhaps of his life--altogether. or even four. was it too much to grudge her four? solomonson had been at his old theme with him, a theme the little man had never relinquished since their friendship first began years ago, possibilities of a business alliance and the application of a mind of exceptional freshness and penetration to industrial development. why shouldn't that be tried? why not "make money" for a brief strenuous time, and then come back, when marjorie's pride and comfort were secure?... (poor dear, how weary she looked!) he wondered how much more remained of this appalling night. it would have made so little difference if they had taken the day train and travelled first-class. wasn't she indeed entitled to travel first-class? pictures of the immense spaciousness, the softness, cleanliness and dignity of first-class compartments appeared in his mind.... he would have looked at his watch, but to get at it would mean disturbing the silent young man on his left. outside in the corridor there broke out a noisy dispute about a missing coupon, a dispute in that wonderful language that is known to the facetious as _entente cordiale_, between an englishman and the conductor of the train.... § in paris there was a dispute with an extortionate cabman, and the crossing from dieppe to newhaven was rough and bitterly cold. they were both ill. they reached home very dirty and weary, and among the pile of letters and papers on trafford's desk was a big bundle of science note proofs, and two letters from croydon and pinner to alter the hours of his lectures for various plausible and irritating reasons. the little passage looked very small and rather bare as the door shut behind them, and the worn places that had begun to be conspicuous during the last six months, and which they had forgotten during the swiss holiday, reasserted themselves. the dining-room, after spacious rooms flooded with sunshine, betrayed how dark it was, and how small. those bokhara embroideries that had once shone so splendid, now, after mrs. lee's rich and unlimited harmonies, seemed skimpy and insufficient, mere loin-cloths for the artistic nakedness of the home. they felt, too, they were beginning to find out their post-impressionist picture. they had not remembered it as nearly so crude as it now appeared. the hole a flying coal had burnt in the unevenly faded dark-blue carpet looked larger than it had ever done before, and was indeed the only thing that didn't appear faded and shrunken. § the atmosphere of the lees' villa had disturbed marjorie's feelings and ideas even more than it had trafford's. she came back struggling to recover those high resolves that had seemed so secure when they had walked down to les avantes. there was a curiously tormenting memory of that vast, admirable nursery, and the princely procession of children that would not leave her mind. no effort of her reason could reconcile her to the inferiority of margharita's equipment. she had a detestable craving for a uniform for may. but may was going.... but indeed she was not so sure that may was going. she was no longer buoyantly well, she was full of indefinable apprehensions of weakness and failure. she struggled to control an insurgence of emotions that rose out of the deeps of her being. she had now, she knew, to take on her share of the burden, to become one of the samurai, to show her love no longer as a demand but as a service. yet from day to day she procrastinated under the shadow of apprehended things; she forebore to dismiss may, to buy that second-hand typewriter she needed, to take any irrevocable step towards the realization of the new way of living. she tried to think away her fears, but they would not leave her. she felt that trafford watched her pale face with a furtive solicitude and wondered at her hesitations; she tried in vain to seem cheerful and careless in his presence, with an anxiety, with premonitions that grew daily. there was no need to worry him unduly.... but soon the matter was beyond all doubting. one night she gathered her courage together suddenly and came down into his study in her dressing-gown with her hair about her shoulders. she opened the door and her heart failed her. "rag," she whispered. "yes," he said busily from his desk, without looking round. "i want to speak to you," she answered, and came slowly, and stood beside him silently. "well, old marjorie?" he said presently, drawing a little intricate pattern in the corner of his blotting paper, and wondering whether this was a matter of five pounds or ten. "i meant so well," she said and caught herself back into silence again. he started at the thought, at a depth and meaning in her voice, turned his chair about to look at her, and discovered she was weeping and choking noiselessly. he stood up close to her, moving very slowly and silently, his eyes full of this new surmise, and now without word or gesture from her he knew his thought was right. "my dear," he whispered. she turned her face from him. "i meant so well," she sobbed. "my dear! i meant so well." still with an averted face her arms came out to him in a desperate, unreasoning appeal for love. he took her and held her close to him. "never mind, dear," he said. "don't mind." her passion now was unconstrained. "i thought--" he began, and left the thing unsaid. "but your work," she said; "your research?" "i must give up research," he said. "oh, my dearest!" "i must give up research," he repeated. "i've been seeing it for days. clearer and clearer. _this_ dear, just settles things. even--as we were coming home in the train--i was making up my mind. at vevey i was talking to solomonson." "my dear," she whispered, clinging to him. "i talked to solomonson. he had ideas--a proposal." "no," she said. "yes," he said. "i've left the thing too long." he repeated. "i must give up research--for years. i ought to have done it long before." "i had meant so well," she said. "i meant to work. i meant to deny myself...." "i'm glad," he whispered. "glad! why should you weep?" it seemed nothing to him then, that so he should take a long farewell to the rare, sweet air of that wonderland his mind had loved so dearly. all he remembered was that marjorie was very dear to him, very dear to him, and that all her being was now calling out for him and his strength. "i had thought anyhow of giving up research," he repeated. "this merely decides. it happens to decide. i love you, dear. i put my research at your feet. gladly. this is the end, and i do not care, my dear, at all. i do not care at all--seeing i have you...." he stood beside her for a moment, and then sat down again, sideways, upon his chair. "it isn't you, my dear, or me," he said, "but life that beats us--that beautiful, irrational mother.... life does not care for research or knowledge, but only for life. oh! the world has to go on yet for tens of thousands of years before--before we are free for that. i've got to fight--as other men fight...." he thought in silence for a time, oddly regardless of her. "but if it was not you," he said, staring at the fireplace with knitted brows, "if i did not love you.... thank god, i love you, dear! thank god, our children are love children! i want to live--to my finger-tips, but if i didn't love you--oh! love you! then i think now--i'd be glad--i'd be glad, i think, to cheat life of her victory." "oh, my dear!" she cried, and clung weeping to him, and caught at him and sat herself upon his knees, and put her arms about his head, and kissed him passionately with tear-salt lips, with her hair falling upon his face. "my dear," she whispered.... § so soon as trafford could spare an afternoon amidst his crowded engagements he went to talk to solomonson, who was now back in london. "solomonson," he said, "you were talking about rubber at vevey." "i remember," said solomonson with a note of welcome. "i've thought it over." "i _thought_ you would." "i've thought things over. i'm going to give up my professorship--and science generally, and come into business--if that is what you are meaning." solomonson turned his paper-weight round very carefully before replying. then he said: "you mustn't give up your professorship yet, trafford. for the rest--i'm glad." he reflected, and then his bright eyes glanced up at trafford. "i knew," he said, "you would." "i didn't," said trafford. "things have happened since." "something was bound to happen. you're too good--for what it gave you. i didn't talk to you out there for nothing. i saw things.... let's go into the other room, and smoke and talk it over." he stood up as he spoke. "i thought you would," he repeated, leading the way. "i knew you would. you see,--one _has_ to. you can't get out of it." "it was all very well before you were married," said solomonson, stopping short to say it, "but when a man's married he's got to think. he can't go on devoting himself to his art and his science and all that--not if he's married anything worth having. no. oh, i understand. he's got to look about him, and forget the distant prospect for a bit. i saw you'd come to it. _i_ came to it. had to. i had ambitions--just as you have. i've always had an inclination to do a bit of research on my own. i _like_ it, you know. oh! i could have done things. i'm sure i could have done things. i'm not a born money-maker. but----." he became very close and confidential. "it's----_them_. you said good-bye to science for a bit when you flopped me down on that old croquet-lawn, trafford." he went off to reminiscences. "lord, how we went over! no more aviation for me, trafford!" he arranged chairs, and produced cigars. "after all--this of course--it's interesting. once you get into the movement of it, it takes hold of you. it's a game." "i've thought over all you said," trafford began, using premeditated phrases. "bluntly--i want three thousand a year, and i don't make eight hundred. it's come home to me. i'm going to have another child." solomonson gesticulated a congratulation. "all the same, i hate dropping research. it's stuff i'm made to do. about that, solomonson, i'm almost superstitious. i could say i had a call.... it's the maddest state of affairs! now that i'm doing absolutely my best work for mankind, work i firmly believe no one else can do, i just manage to get six hundred--nearly two hundred of my eight hundred is my own. what does the world think i could do better--that would be worth four times as much." "the world doesn't think anything at all about it," said solomonson. "suppose it did!" the thought struck sir rupert. he knitted his brows and looked hard obliquely at the smoke of his cigar. "oh, it won't," he said, rejecting a disagreeable idea. "there isn't any world--not in that sense. that's the mistake you make, trafford." "it's not what your work is worth," he explained. "it's what your advantages can get for you. people are always going about supposing--just what you suppose--that people ought to get paid in proportion to the good they do. it's forgetting what the world is, to do that. very likely some day civilization will get to that, but it hasn't got to it yet. it isn't going to get to it for hundreds and hundreds of years." his manner became confidential. "civilization's just a fight, trafford--just as savagery is a fight, and being a wild beast is a fight,--only you have paddeder gloves on and there's more rules. we aren't out for everybody, we're out for ourselves--and a few friends perhaps--within limits. it's no good hurrying ahead and pretending civilization's something else, when it isn't. that's where all these socialists and people come a howler. oh, _i_ know the socialists. i see 'em at my wife's at homes. they come along with the literary people and the artists' wives and the actors and actresses, and none of them take much account of me because i'm just a business man and rather dark and short, and so i get a chance of looking at them from the side that isn't on show while the other's turned to the women, and they're just as fighting as the rest of us, only they humbug more and they don't seem to me to have a decent respect for any of the common rules. and that's about what it all comes to, trafford." sir rupert paused, and trafford was about to speak when the former resumed again, his voice very earnest, his eyes shining with purpose. he liked trafford, and he was doing his utmost to make a convincing confession of the faith that was in him. "it's when it comes to the women," said sir rupert, "that one finds it out. that's where _you've_ found it out. you say, i'm going to devote my life to the service of humanity in general. you'll find humanity in particular, in the shape of all the fine, beautiful, delightful and desirable women you come across, preferring a narrower turn of devotion. see? that's all. _caeteris paribus_, of course. that's what i found out, and that's what you've found out, and that's what everybody with any sense in his head finds out, and there you are." "you put it--graphically," said trafford. "i feel it graphically. i may be all sorts of things, but i do know a fact when i see it. i'm here with a few things i want and a woman or so i have and want to keep, and the kids upstairs, bless 'em! and i'm in league with all the others who want the same sort of things. against any one or anything that upsets us. we stand by the law and each other, and that's what it all amounts to. that's as far as my patch of humanity goes. humanity at large! humanity be blowed! _look_ at it! it isn't that i'm hostile to humanity, mind you, but that i'm not disposed to go under as i should do if i didn't say that. so i say it. and that's about all it is, and there you are." he regarded trafford over his cigar, drawing fiercely at it for some moments. then seeing trafford on the point of speaking, he snatched it from his lips, demanded silence by waving it at his hearer, and went on. "i say all this in order to dispose of any idea that you can keep up the open-minded tell-everybody-every-thing scientific attitude if you come into business. you can't. put business in two words and what is it? keeping something from somebody else, and making him pay for it--" "oh, look here!" protested trafford. "that's not the whole of business." "there's making him want it, of course, advertisement and all that, but that falls under making him pay for it, really." "but a business man organizes public services, consolidates, economizes." sir rupert made his mouth look very wide by sucking in the corners. "incidentally," he said, and added after a judicious pause: "sometimes ... i thought we were talking of making money." "go on," said trafford. "you set me thinking," said solomonson. "it's the thing i always like about you. i tell you, trafford, i don't believe that the majority of people who make money help civilization forward any more than the smoke that comes out of the engine helps the train forward. if you put it to me, i don't. i've got no illusions of that sort. they're about as much help as--fat. they accumulate because things happen to be arranged so." "things will be arranged better some day." "they aren't arranged better now. grip that! _now_, it's a sort of paradox. if you've got big gifts and you choose to help forward the world, if you choose to tell all you know and give away everything you can do in the way of work, you've got to give up the ideas of wealth and security, and that means fine women and children. you've got to be a _deprived_ sort of man. 'all right,' you say, 'that's me!' but how about your wife being a deprived sort of woman? eh? that's where it gets you! and meanwhile, you know, while _you_ make your sacrifices and do your researches, there'll be little mean sharp active beasts making money all over you like maggots on a cheese. and if everybody who'd got gifts and altruistic ideas gave themselves up to it, then evidently only the mean and greedy lot would breed and have the glory. they'd get everything. every blessed thing. there wouldn't be an option they didn't hold. and the other chaps would produce the art and the science and the literature, as far as the men who'd got hold of things would let 'em, and perish out of the earth altogether.... there you are! still, that's how things are made...." "but it isn't worth it. it isn't worth extinguishing oneself in order to make a world for those others, anyhow. them and their children. is it? eh? it's like building a temple for flies to buzz in.... there is such a thing as a personal side to eugenics, you know." solomonson reflected over the end of his cigar. "it isn't good enough," he concluded. "you're infernally right," said trafford. "very well," said solomonson, "and now we can get to business." § the immediate business was the systematic exploitation of the fact that trafford had worked out the problem of synthesizing indiarubber. he had done so with an entire indifference to the commercial possibilities of the case, because he had been irritated by the enormous publicity given to behrens' assertion that he had achieved this long-sought end. of course the production of artificial rubbers and rubber-like substances had been one of the activities of the synthetic chemist for many years, from the appearance of tilden's isoprene rubber onward, and there was already a formidable list of collaterals, dimethybutadiene, and so forth, by which the coveted goal could be approached. behrens had boldly added to this list as his own a number of variations upon a theme of trafford's, originally designed to settle certain curiosities about elasticity. behrens' products were not only more massively rubber-like than anything that had gone before them, but also extremely cheap to produce, and his bold announcement of success had produced a check in rubber sales and widespread depression in the quiveringly sensitive market of plantation shares. solomonson had consulted trafford about this matter at vevey, and had heard with infinite astonishment that trafford had already roughly prepared and was proposing to complete and publish, unpatented and absolutely unprotected, first a smashing demonstration of the unsoundness of behrens' claim and then a lucid exposition of just what had to be done and what could be done to make an indiarubber absolutely indistinguishable from the natural product. the business man could not believe his ears. "my dear chap, positively--you mustn't," solomonson had screamed, and he had opened his fingers and humped his shoulders and for all his public school and university training lapsed undisguisedly into the oriental. "don't you _see_ all you are throwing away?" he squealed. "i suppose it's our quality to throw such things away," said trafford, when at last solomonson's point of view became clear to him. they had embarked upon a long rambling discussion of that issue of publication, a discussion they were now taking up again. "when men dropped that idea of concealing knowledge, alchemist gave place to chemist," said trafford, "and all that is worth having in modern life, all that makes it better and safer and more hopeful than the ancient life, began." "my dear fellow," said solomonson, "i know, i know. but to give away the synthesis of rubber! to just shove it out of the window into the street! _gare l'eau!_ o! and when you could do with so much too!".... now they resumed the divergent threads of that vevey talk. solomonson had always entertained the warmest friendship and admiration for trafford, and it was no new thing that he should desire a business co-operation. he had been working for that in the old days at riplings; he had never altogether let the possibility drop out of sight between them in spite of trafford's repudiations. he believed himself to be a scientific man turned to business, but indeed his whole passion was for organization and finance. he knew he could do everything but originate, and in trafford he recognized just that rare combination of an obstinate and penetrating simplicity with constructive power which is the essential blend in the making of great intellectual initiatives. to trafford belonged the secret of novel and unsuspected solutions; what were fixed barriers and unsurmountable conditions to trained investigators and commonplace minds, would yield to his gift of magic inquiry. he could startle the accepted error into self-betrayal. other men might play the game of business infinitely better than he--solomonson knew, indeed, quite well that he himself could play the game infinitely better than trafford--but it rested with trafford by right divine of genius to alter the rules. if only he could be induced to alter the rules secretly, unostentatiously, on a business footing, instead of making catastrophic plunges into publicity! and everything that had made trafford up to the day of his marriage was antagonistic to such strategic reservations. the servant of science has as such no concern with personal consequences; his business is the steady, relentless clarification of knowledge. the human affairs he changes, the wealth he makes or destroys, are no concern of his; once these things weigh with him, become primary, he has lost his honour as a scientific man. "but you _must_ think of consequences," solomonson had cried during those intermittent talks at vevey. "here you are, shying this cheap synthetic rubber of yours into the world--for it's bound to be cheap! any one can see that--like a bomb into a market-place. what's the good of saying you don't care about the market-place, that _your_ business is just to make bombs and drop them out of the window? you smash up things just the same. why! you'll ruin hundreds and thousands of people, people living on rubber shares, people working in plantations, old, inadaptable workers in rubber works...." sir rupert was now still a little incredulous of trafford's change of purpose, and for a time argued conceded points. then slowly he came to the conditions and methods of the new relationship. he sketched out a scheme of co-operation and understandings between his firm and trafford, between them both and his associated group in the city. behrens was to have rope and produce his slump in plantation shares, then trafford was to publish his criticism of behrens, reserving only that catalytic process which was his own originality, the process that was to convert the inert, theoretically correct synthetic rubber, with a mysterious difference in the quality of its phases, into the real right thing. with behrens exploded, plantation shares would recover, and while their friends in the city manipulated that, trafford would resign his professorship and engage himself to an ostentatious promotion syndicate for the investigation of synthetic rubber. his discovery would follow immediately the group had cleared itself of plantation shares; indeed he could begin planning the necessary works forthwith; the large scale operations in the process were to be protected as far as possible by patents, but its essential feature, the addition of a specific catalytic agent, could be safely dealt with as a secret process. "i hate secrecy," said trafford. "business," interjected solomonson, and went on with his exposition of the relative advantages of secrecy and patent rights. it was all a matter of just how many people you had to trust. as that number increased, the more and more advisable did it become to put your cards on the table and risk the complex uncertain protection of the patent law. they went into elaborate calculations, clerks were called upon to hunt up facts and prices, and the table was presently littered with waste arithmetic. "i believe we can do the stuff at tenpence a pound," said solomonson, leaning back in his chair at last, and rattling his fountain pen between his teeth, "so soon, that is, as we deal in quantity. tenpence! we can lower the price and spread the market, sixpence by sixpence. in the end--there won't be any more plantations. have to grow tea.... i say, let's have an invalid dinner of chicken and champagne, and go on with this. it's fascinating. you can telephone." they dined together, and solomonson on champagne rather than chicken. his mind, which had never shown an instant's fatigue, began to glow and sparkle. this enterprise, he declared, was to be only the first of a series of vigorous exploitations. the whole thing warmed him. he would rather make ten thousand by such developments, than a hundred thousand by mere speculation. trafford had but scratched the surface of his mine of knowledge. "let's think of other things," said sir rupert solomonson. "diamonds! no! they've got too many tons stowed away already. a diamond now--it's an absolutely artificial value. at any time a new discovery and one wild proprietor might bust that show. lord!--diamonds! metals? of course you've worked the colloids chiefly. i suppose there's been more done in metals and alloys than anywhere. there's a lot of other substances. business has hardly begun to touch substances yet, you know, trafford--flexible glass, for example, and things like that. so far we've always taken substances for granted. on our side, i mean. it's extraordinary how narrow the outlook of business and finance is--still. it never seems to lead to things, never thinks ahead. in this case of rubber, for example----" "when men fight for their own hands and for profit and position in the next ten years or so, i suppose they tend to become narrow." "i suppose they must." sir rupert's face glowed with a new idea, and his voice dropped a little lower. "but what a pull they get, trafford, if perhaps--they don't, eh?" "no," said trafford with a smile and a sigh, "the other sort gets the pull." "not _this_ time," said solomonson; "not with you to spot processes and me to figure out the cost--" he waved his hands to the litter that had been removed to a side table--"and generally see how the business end of things is going...." book the third marjorie at lonely hut chapter the first successes § i find it hard to trace the accumulation of moods and feelings that led trafford and marjorie at last to make their extraordinary raid upon labrador. in a week more things happen in the thoughts of such a man as trafford, changes, revocations, deflections, than one can chronicle in the longest of novels. i have already in an earlier passage of this story sought to give an image of the confused content of a modern human mind, but that pool was to represent a girl of twenty, and trafford now was a man of nearly thirty-five, and touching life at a hundred points for one of the undergraduate marjorie's. perhaps that made him less confused, but it certainly made him fuller. let me attempt therefore only the broad outline of his changes of purpose and activity until i come to the crucial mood that made these two lives a little worth telling about, amidst the many thousands of such lives that people are living to-day.... it took him seven years from his conclusive agreement with solomonson to become a rich and influential man. it took him only seven years, because already by the mere accidents of intellectual interest he was in possession of knowledge of the very greatest economic importance, and because solomonson was full of that practical loyalty and honesty that distinguishes his race. i think that in any case trafford's vigor and subtlety of mind would have achieved the prosperity he had found necessary to himself, but it might have been, under less favorable auspices, a much longer and more tortuous struggle. success and security were never so abundant nor so easily attained by men with capacity and a sense of proportion as they are in the varied and flexible world of to-day. we live in an affluent age with a nearly incredible continuous fresh increment of power pouring in from mechanical invention, and compared with our own, most other periods have been meagre and anxious and hard-up times. our problems are constantly less the problems of submission and consolation and continually more problems of opportunity.... trafford found the opening campaign, the operation with the plantation shares and his explosion of behrens' pretensions extremely uncongenial. it left upon his mind a confused series of memories of interviews and talks in offices for the most part dingy and slovenly, of bales of press-cuttings and blue-pencilled financial publications, of unpleasing encounters with a number of bright-eyed, flushed, excitable and extremely cunning men, of having to be reserved and limited in his talk upon all occasions, and of all the worst aspects of solomonson. all that part of the new treatment of life that was to make him rich gave him sensations as though he had ceased to wash himself mentally, until he regretted his old life in his laboratory as a traveller in a crowded night train among filthy people might regret the bathroom he had left behind him.... but the development of his manufacture of rubber was an entirely different business, and for a time profoundly interesting. it took him into a new astonishing world, the world of large-scale manufacture and industrial organization. the actual planning of the works was not in itself anything essentially new to him. so far as all that went it was scarcely more than the problem of arranging an experiment upon a huge and permanent scale, and all that quick ingenuity, that freshness and directness of mind that had made his purely scientific work so admirable had ample and agreeable scope. even the importance of cost and economy at every point in the process involved no system of considerations that was altogether novel to him. the british investigator knows only too well the necessity for husbanded material and inexpensive substitutes. but strange factors came in, a new region of interest was opened with the fact that instead of one experimenter working with the alert responsive assistance of durgan, a multitude of human beings--even in the first drafts of his project they numbered already two hundred, before the handling and packing could be considered--had to watch, control, assist or perform every stage in a long elaborate synthesis. for the first time in his life trafford encountered the reality of labour, as it is known to the modern producer. it will be difficult in the future, when things now subtly or widely separated have been brought together by the receding perspectives of time, for the historian to realize just how completely out of the thoughts of such a young man as trafford the millions of people who live and die in organized productive industry had been. that vast world of toil and weekly anxiety, ill-trained and stupidly directed effort and mental and moral feebleness, had been as much beyond the living circle of his experience as the hosts of genghis khan or the social life of the forbidden city. consider the limitations of his world. in all his life hitherto he had never been beyond a certain prescribed area of london's immensities, except by the most casual and uninstructive straying. he knew chelsea and kensington and the north bank and (as a boy) battersea park, and all the strip between kensington and charing cross, with some scraps of the strand as far as the law courts, a shop or so in tottenham court road and fragments about the british museum and holborn and regent's park, a range up edgware road to maida vale, the routes west and south-west through uxbridge and putney to the country, and wimbledon common and putney heath. he had never been on hampstead heath nor visited the botanical gardens nor gone down the thames below london bridge, nor seen sydenham nor epping forest nor the victoria park. take a map and blot all he knew and see how vast is the area left untouched. all industrial london, all wholesale london, great oceans of human beings fall into that excluded area. the homes he knew were comfortable homes, the poor he knew were the parasitic and dependent poor of the west, the shops, good retail shops, the factories for the most part engaged in dressmaking. of course he had been informed about this vast rest of london. he knew that as a matter of fact it existed, was populous, portentous, puzzling. he had heard of "slums," read "tales of mean streets," and marvelled in a shallow transitory way at such wide wildernesses of life, apparently supported by nothing at all in a state of grey, darkling but prolific discomfort. like the princess who wondered why the people having no bread did not eat cake, he could never clearly understand why the population remained there, did not migrate to more attractive surroundings. he had discussed the problems of those wildernesses as young men do, rather confidently, very ignorantly, had dismissed them, recurred to them, and forgotten them amidst a press of other interests, but now it all suddenly became real to him with the intensity of a startling and intimate contact. he discovered this limitless, unknown, greater london, this london of the majority, as if he had never thought of it before. he went out to inspect favourable sites in regions whose very names were unfamiliar to him, travelled on dirty little intraurban railway lines to hitherto unimagined railway stations, found parks, churches, workhouses, institutions, public-houses, canals, factories, gas-works, warehouses, foundries and sidings, amidst a multitudinous dinginess of mean houses, shabby back-yards, and ill-kept streets. there seemed to be no limits to this thread-bare side of london, it went on northward, eastward, and over the thames southward, for mile after mile--endlessly. the factories and so forth clustered in lines and banks upon the means of communication, the homes stretched between, and infinitude of parallelograms of grimy boxes with public-houses at the corners and churches and chapels in odd places, towering over which rose the council schools, big, blunt, truncated-looking masses, the means to an education as blunt and truncated, born of tradition and confused purposes, achieving by accident what they achieve at all. and about this sordid-looking wilderness went a population that seemed at first as sordid. it was in no sense a tragic population. but it saw little of the sun, felt the wind but rarely, and so had a white, dull skin that looked degenerate and ominous to a west-end eye. it was not naked nor barefooted, but it wore cheap clothes that were tawdry when new, and speedily became faded, discoloured, dusty, and draggled. it was slovenly and almost wilfully ugly in its speech and gestures. and the food it ate was rough and coarse if abundant, the eggs it consumed "tasted"--everything "tasted"; its milk, its beer, its bread was degraded by base adulterations, its meat was hacked red stuff that hung in the dusty air until it was sold; east of the city trafford could find no place where by his standards he could get a tolerable meal tolerably served. the entertainment of this eastern london was jingle, its religion clap-trap, its reading feeble and sensational rubbish without kindliness or breadth. and if this great industrial multitude was neither tortured nor driven nor cruelly treated--as the slaves and common people of other days have been--yet it was universally anxious, perpetually anxious about urgent small necessities and petty dissatisfying things.... that was the general effect of this new region in which he had sought out and found the fortunate site for his manufacture of rubber, and against this background it was that he had now to encounter a crowd of selected individuals, and weld them into a harmonious and successful "process." they came out from their millions to him, dingy, clumsy, and at first it seemed without any individuality. insensibly they took on character, rounded off by unaccustomed methods into persons as marked and distinctive as any he had known. there was dowd, for instance, the technical assistant, whom he came to call in his private thoughts dowd the disinherited. dowd had seemed a rather awkward, potentially insubordinate young man of unaccountably extensive and curiously limited attainments. he had begun his career in a crowded home behind and above a baker's shop in hoxton, he had gone as a boy into the works of a clerkenwell electric engineer, and there he had developed that craving for knowledge which is so common in poor men of the energetic type. he had gone to classes, read with a sort of fury, feeding his mind on the cheap and adulterated instruction of grant-earning crammers and on stale, meretricious and ill-chosen books; his mental food indeed was the exact parallel of the rough, abundant, cheap and nasty groceries and meat that gave the east-ender his spots and dyspeptic complexion, the cheap text-books were like canned meat and dangerous with intellectual ptomaines, the rascally encyclopædias like weak and whitened bread, and dowd's mental complexion, too, was leaden and spotted. yet essentially he wasn't, trafford found, by any means bad stuff; where his knowledge had had a chance of touching reality it became admirable, and he was full of energy in his work and a sort of honest zeal about the things of the mind. the two men grew from an acute mutual criticism into a mutual respect. at first it seemed to trafford that when he met dowd he was only meeting dowd, but a time came when it seemed to him that in meeting dowd he was meeting all that vast new england outside the range of ruling-class dreams, that multitudinous greater england, cheaply treated, rather out of health, angry, energetic and now becoming intelligent and critical, that england which organized industrialism has created. there were nights when he thought for hours about dowd. other figures grouped themselves round him--markham, the head clerk, the quintessence of east-end respectability, who saw to the packing; miss peckover, an ex-telegraph operator, a woman so entirely reliable and unobservant that the most betraying phase of the secret process could be confidently entrusted to her hands. behind them were clerks, workmen, motor-van men, work-girls, a crowd of wage-earners, from amidst which some individual would assume temporary importance and interest by doing something wrong, getting into trouble, becoming insubordinate, and having contributed a little vivid story to trafford's gathering impressions of life, drop back again into undistinguished subordination. dowd became at last entirely representative. when first trafford looked dowd in the eye, he met something of the hostile interest one might encounter in a swordsman ready to begin a duel. there was a watchfulness, an immense reserve. they discussed the work and the terms of their relationship, and all the while trafford felt there was something almost threateningly not mentioned. presently he learnt from a silvertown employer what that concealed aspect was. dowd was "that sort of man who makes trouble," disposed to strike rather than not upon a grievance, with a taste for open-air meetings, a member, obstinately adherent in spite of friendly remonstrance, of the social democratic party. this in spite of his clear duty to a wife and two small white knobby children. for a time he would not talk to trafford of anything but business--trafford was so manifestly the enemy, not to be trusted, the adventurous plutocrat, the exploiter--when at last dowd did open out he did so defiantly, throwing opinions at trafford as a mob might hurl bricks at windows. at last they achieved a sort of friendship and understanding, an amiability as it were, in hostility, but never from first to last would he talk to trafford as one gentleman to another; between them, and crossed only by flimsy, temporary bridges, was his sense of incurable grievances and fundamental injustice. he seemed incapable of forgetting the disadvantages of his birth and upbringing, the inferiority and disorder of the house that sheltered him, the poor food that nourished him, the deadened air he breathed, the limited leisure, the inadequate books. implicit in his every word and act was the assurance that but for this handicap he could have filled trafford's place, while trafford would certainly have failed in his. for all these things dowd made trafford responsible; he held him to that inexorably. "_you_ sweat us," he said, speaking between his teeth; "_you_ limit us, _you_ stifle us, and away there in the west-end, _you_ and the women you keep waste the plunder." trafford attempted palliation. "after all," he said, "it's not me so particularly----" "but it is," said dowd. "it's the system things go upon." "you're the responsible part of it. _you_ have freedom, _you_ have power and endless opportunity--" trafford shrugged his shoulders. "it's because your sort wants too much," said dowd, "that my sort hasn't enough." "tell me how to organize things better." "much you'd care. they'll organize themselves. everything is drifting to class separation, the growing discontent, the growing hardship of the masses.... then you'll see." "then what's going to happen?" "overthrow. and social democracy." "how is that going to work?" dowd had been cornered by that before. "i don't care if it _doesn't_ work," he snarled, "so long as we smash up this. we're getting too sick to care what comes after." "dowd," said trafford abruptly, "_i'm_ not so satisfied with things." dowd looked at him askance. "you'll get reconciled to it," he said. "it's ugly here--but it's all right there--at the spending end.... your sort has got to grab, your sort has got to spend--until the thing works out and the social revolution makes an end of you." "and then?" dowd became busy with his work. trafford stuck his hands in his pockets and stared out of the dingy factory window. "i don't object so much to your diagnosis," he said, "as to your remedy. it doesn't strike me as a remedy." "it's an end," said dowd, "anyhow. my god! when i think of all the women and shirkers flaunting and frittering away there in the west, while here men and women toil and worry and starve...." he stopped short like one who feels too full for controlled speech. "dowd," said trafford after a fair pause, "what would you do if you were me?" "do?" said dowd. "yes," said trafford as one who reconsiders it, "what would you do?" "now that's a curious question, mr. trafford," said dowd, turning to regard him. "meaning--if i were in your place?" "yes," said trafford. "what would you do in my place?" "i should sell out of this place jolly quick," he said. "_sell!_" said trafford softly. "yes--sell. and start a socialist daily right off. an absolutely independent, unbiassed socialist daily." "and what would that do?" "it would stir people up. every day it would stir people up." "but you see i can't edit. i haven't the money for half a year of a socialist daily.... and meanwhile people want rubber." dowd shook his head. "you mean that you and your wife want to have the spending of six or eight thousand a year," he said. "i don't make half of that," said trafford. "well--half of that," pressed dowd. "it's all the same to me." trafford reflected. "the point where i don't agree with you," he said, "is in supposing that my scale of living--over there, is directly connected with the scale of living--about here." "well, isn't it?" "'directly,' i said. no. if we just stopped it--over there--there'd be no improvement here. in fact, for a time it would mean dislocations. it might mean permanent, hopeless, catastrophic dislocation. you know that as well as i do. suppose the west-end became--tolstoyan; the east would become chaos." "not much likelihood," sneered dowd. "that's another question. that we earn together here and that i spend alone over there, it's unjust and bad, but it isn't a thing that admits of any simple remedy. where we differ, dowd, is about that remedy. i admit the disease as fully as you do. i, as much as you, want to see the dawn of a great change in the ways of human living. but i don't think the diagnosis is complete and satisfactory; our problem is an intricate muddle of disorders, not one simple disorder, and i don't see what treatment is indicated." "socialism," said dowd, "is indicated." "you might as well say that health is indicated," said trafford with a note of impatience in his voice. "does any one question that if we could have this socialist state in which every one is devoted and every one is free, in which there is no waste and no want, and beauty and brotherhood prevail universally, we wouldn't? but----. you socialists have no scheme of government, no scheme of economic organization, no intelligible guarantees of personal liberty, no method of progress, no ideas about marriage, no plan--except those little pickpocket plans of the fabians that you despise as much as i do--for making this order into that other order you've never yet taken the trouble to work out even in principle. really you know, dowd, what is the good of pointing at my wife's dresses and waving the red flag at me, and talking of human miseries----" "it seems to wake you up a bit," said dowd with characteristic irrelevance. § the accusing finger of dowd followed trafford into his dreams. behind it was his grey-toned, intelligent, resentful face, his smouldering eyes, his slightly frayed collar and vivid, ill-chosen tie. at times trafford could almost hear his flat insistent voice, his measured h-less speech. dowd was so penetratingly right,--and so ignorant of certain essentials, so wrong in his forecasts and ultimates. it was true beyond disputing that trafford as compared with dowd had opportunity, power of a sort, the prospect and possibility of leisure. he admitted the liability that followed on that advantage. it expressed so entirely the spirit of his training that with trafford the noble maxim of the older socialists; "from each according to his ability, to each according to his need," received an intuitive acquiescence. he had no more doubt than dowd that dowd was the victim of a subtle evasive injustice, innocently and helplessly underbred, underfed, cramped and crippled, and that all his own surplus made him in a sense dowd's debtor. but dowd's remedies! trafford made himself familiar with the socialist and labor newspapers, and he was as much impressed by their honest resentments and their enthusiastic hopefulness as he was repelled by their haste and ignorance, their cocksure confidence in untried reforms and impudent teachers, their indiscriminating progressiveness, their impulsive lapses into hatred, misrepresentation and vehement personal abuse. he was in no mood for the humours of human character, and he found the ill-masked feuds and jealousies of the leaders, the sham statecraft of g. b. magdeberg, m.p., the sham machiavellism of dorvil, the sham persistent good-heartedness of will pipes, discouraging and irritating. altogether it seemed to him the conscious popular movement in politics, both in and out of parliament, was a mere formless and indeterminate aspiration. it was a confused part of the general confusion, symptomatic perhaps, but exercising no controls and no direction. his attention passed from the consideration of this completely revolutionary party to the general field of social reform. with the naïve directness of a scientific man, he got together the published literature of half a dozen flourishing agitations and philanthropies, interviewed prominent and rather embarrassed personages, attended meetings, and when he found the speeches too tiresome to follow watched the audience about him. he even looked up aunt plessington's movement, and filled her with wild hopes and premature boastings about a promising convert. "marjorie's brought him round at last!" said aunt plessington. "i knew i could trust my little madge!" his impression was not the cynic's impression of these wide shallows of activity. progress and social reform are not, he saw, mere cloaks of hypocrisy; a wealth of good intention lies behind them in spite of their manifest futility. there is much dishonesty due to the blundering desire for consistency in people of hasty intention, much artless and a little calculated self-seeking, but far more vanity and amiable feebleness of mind in their general attainment of failure. the plessingtons struck him as being after all very typical of the publicist at large, quite devoted, very industrious, extremely presumptuous and essentially thin-witted. they would cheat like ill-bred children for example, on some petty point of reputation, but they could be trusted to expend, ineffectually indeed, but with the extremest technical integrity, whatever sums of money their adherents could get together.... he emerged from this inquiry into the proposed remedies and palliatives for dowd's wrongs with a better opinion of people's hearts and a worse one of their heads than he had hitherto entertained. pursuing this line of thought he passed from the politicians and practical workers to the economists and sociologists. he spent the entire leisure of the second summer after the establishment of the factory upon sociological and economic literature. at the end of that bout of reading he attained a vivid realization of the garrulous badness that rules in this field of work, and the prevailing slovenliness and negligence in regard to it. he chanced one day to look up the article on socialism in the new encyclopædia britannica, and found in its entire failure to state the case for or against modern socialism, to trace its origins, or to indicate any rational development in the movement, a symptom of the universal laxity of interest in these matters. indeed, the writer did not appear to have heard of modern socialism at all; he discussed collective and individualist methods very much as a rather ill-read schoolgirl in a hurry for her college debating society might have done. compared with the treatment of engineering or biological science in the same compilation, this article became almost symbolical of the prevailing habitual incompetence with which all this system of questions is still handled. the sciences were done scantily and carelessly enough, but they admitted at any rate the possibility of completeness; this did not even pretend to thoroughness. one might think such things had no practical significance. and at the back of it all was dowd, remarkably more impatient each year, confessing the failure of parliamentary methods, of trades unionism, hinting more and more plainly at the advent of a permanent guerilla war against capital, at the general strike and sabotage. "it's coming to that," said dowd; "it's coming to that." "_what's the good of it?_" he said, echoing trafford's words. "it's a sort of relief to the feelings. why shouldn't we?" § but you must not suppose that at any time these huge grey problems of our social foundations and the riddle of intellectual confusion one reaches through them, and the yet broader riddles of human purpose that open beyond, constitute the whole of trafford's life during this time. when he came back to marjorie and his home, a curtain of unreality fell between him and all these things. it was as if he stepped through such boundaries as alice passed to reach her wonderland; the other world became a dream again; as if he closed the pages of a vivid book and turned to things about him. or again it was as if he drew down the blind of a window that gave upon a landscape, grave, darkling, ominous, and faced the warm realities of a brightly illuminated room.... in a year or so he had the works so smoothly organized and dowd so reconciled, trained and encouraged that his own daily presence was unnecessary, and he would go only three and then only two mornings a week to conduct those secret phases in the preparation of his catalytic that even dowd could not be trusted to know. he reverted more and more completely to his own proper world. and the first shock of discovering that greater london which "isn't in it" passed away by imperceptible degrees. things that had been as vivid and startling as new wounds became unstimulating and ineffective with repetition. he got used to the change from belgravia to east ham, from east ham to belgravia. he fell in with the unusual persuasion in belgravia, that, given a firm and prompt home secretary, east ham could be trusted to go on--for quite a long time anyhow. one cannot sit down for all one's life in the face of insoluble problems. he had a motor-car now that far outshone magnet's, and he made the transit from west to east in the minimum of time and with the minimum of friction. it ceased to be more disconcerting that he should have workers whom he could dismiss at a week's notice to want or prostitution than that he should have a servant waiting behind his chair. things were so. the main current of his life--and the main current of his life flowed through marjorie and his home--carried him on. rubber was his, but there were still limitless worlds to conquer. he began to take up, working under circumstances of considerable secrecy at solomonson's laboratories at riplings, to which he would now go by motor-car for two or three days at a time, the possibility of a cheap, resilient and very tough substance, rubber glass, that was to be, solomonson was assured, the road surface of the future. § the confidence of solomonson had made it impossible for trafford to alter his style of living almost directly upon the conclusion of their agreement. he went back to marjorie to broach a financially emancipated phase. they took a furnished house at shackleford, near godalming in surrey, and there they lived for nearly a year--using their chelsea home only as a town apartment for trafford when business held him in london. and there it was, in the pretty surrey country, with the sweet air of pine and heather in marjorie's blood, that their second child was born. it was a sturdy little boy, whose only danger in life seemed to be the superfluous energy with which he resented its slightest disrespect of his small but important requirements. when it was time for marjorie to return to london, spring had come round again, and trafford's conceptions of life were adapting themselves to the new scale upon which they were now to do things. while he was busy creating his factory in the east end, marjorie was displaying an equal if a less original constructive energy in sussex square, near lancaster gate, for there it was the new home was to be established. she set herself to furnish and arrange it so as to produce the maximum of surprise and chagrin in daphne, and she succeeded admirably. the magnets now occupied a flat in whitehall court, the furniture magnet had insisted upon buying himself with all the occult cunning of the humorist in these matters, and not even daphne could blind herself to the superiority both in arrangement and detail of marjorie's home. that was very satisfactory, and so too was the inevitable exaggeration of trafford's financial importance. "he can do what he likes in the rubber world," said marjorie. "in mincing lane, where they deal in rubber shares, they used to call him and sir rupert the invaders; now they call them the conquering heroes.... of course, it's mere child's play to godwin, but, as he said, 'we want money.' it won't really interfere with his more important interests...." i do not know why both those sisters were more vulgarly competitive with each other than with any one else; i have merely to record the fact that they were so. the effect upon the rest of marjorie's family was equally gratifying. mr. pope came to the house-warming as though he had never had the slightest objection to trafford's antecedents, and told him casually after dinner that marjorie had always been his favourite daughter, and that from the first he had expected great things of her. he told magnet, who was the third man of the party, that he only hoped syd and rom would do as well as their elder sisters. afterwards, in the drawing-room, he whacked marjorie suddenly and very startlingly on the shoulder-blade--it was the first bruise he had given her since buryhamstreet days. "you've made a man of him, maggots," he said. the quiet smile of the christian scientist was becoming now the fixed expression of mrs. pope's face, and it scarcely relaxed for a moment as she surveyed her daughter's splendours. she had triumphantly refused to worry over a rather serious speculative disappointment, but her faith in her prophet's spiritual power had been strengthened rather than weakened by the manifest insufficiency of his financial prestidigitations, and she was getting through life quite radiantly now, smiling at (but not, of course, giving way to) beggars, smiling at toothaches and headaches, both her own and other people's, smiling away doubts, smiling away everything that bows the spirit of those who are still in the bonds of the flesh.... afterwards the children came round, syd and rom now with skirts down and hair up, and rather stiff in the fine big rooms, and theodore in a high collar and very anxious to get trafford on his side in his ambition to chuck a proposed bank clerkship and go in for professional aviation.... it was pleasant to be respected by her family again, but the mind of marjorie was soon reaching out to the more novel possibilities of her changed position. she need no longer confine herself to teas and afternoons. she could now, delightful thought! give dinners. dinners are mere vulgarities for the vulgar, but in the measure of your brains does a dinner become a work of art. there is the happy blending of a modern and distinguished simplicity with a choice of items essentially good and delightful and just a little bit not what was expected. there is the still more interesting and difficult blending and arrangement of the diners. from the first marjorie resolved on a round table, and the achievement of that rare and wonderful thing, general conversation. she had a clear centre, with a circle of silver bowls filled with short cut flowers and low shaded, old silver candlesticks adapted to the electric light. the first dinner was a nervous experience for her, but happily trafford seemed unconscious of the importance of the occasion and talked very easily and well; at last she attained her old ambition to see sir roderick dover in her house, and there was remington, the editor of the _blue weekly_ and his silent gracious wife; edward crampton, the historian, full of surprising new facts about kosciusko; the solomonsons and mrs. millingham, and mary gasthorne the novelist. it was a good talking lot. remington sparred agreeably with the old toryism of dover, flank attacks upon them both were delivered by mrs. millingham and trafford, crampton instanced hungarian parallels, and was happily averted by mary gasthorne with travel experiences in the carpathians; the diamonds of lady solomonson and mrs. remington flashed and winked across the shining table, as their wearers listened with unmistakable intelligence, and when the ladies had gone upstairs sir rupert solomonson told all the men exactly what he thought of the policy of the _blue weekly_, a balanced, common-sense judgment. upstairs lady solomonson betrayed a passion of admiration for mrs. remington, and mrs. millingham mumbled depreciation of the same lady's intelligence in mary gasthorne's unwilling ear. "she's _passive_," said mrs. millingham. "she bores him...." for a time marjorie found dinner-giving delightful--it is like picking and arranging posies of human flowers--and fruits--and perhaps a little dried grass, and it was not long before she learnt that she was esteemed a success as a hostess. she gathered her earlier bunches in the carmel and solomonson circle, with a stiffening from among the literary and scientific friends of trafford and his mother, and one or two casual and undervalued blossoms from aunt plessington's active promiscuities. she had soon a gaily flowering garden of her own to pick from. its strength and finest display lay in its increasing proportion of political intellectuals, men in and about the house who relaxed their minds from the tense detailed alertness needed in political intrigues by conversation that rose at times to the level of the smarter sort of article in the half-crown reviews. the women were more difficult than the men, and marjorie found herself wishing at times that girl novelists and playwrights were more abundant, or women writers on the average younger. these talked generally well, and one or two capable women of her own type talked and listened with an effect of talking; so many other women either chattered disturbingly, or else did not listen, with an effect of not talking at all, and so made gaps about the table. many of these latter had to be asked because they belonged to the class of inevitable wives, _sine-qua-nons_, and through them she learnt the value of that priceless variety of kindly unselfish men who can create the illusion of attentive conversation in the most uncomfortable and suspicious natures without producing backwater and eddy in the general flow of talk. indisputably marjorie's dinners were successful. of course, the abundance and æsthetic achievements of mrs. lee still seemed to her immeasurably out of reach, but it was already possible to show aunt plessington how the thing ought really to be done, aunt plessington with her narrow, lank, austerely served table, with a sort of quarter-deck at her own end and a subjugated forecastle round hubert. and accordingly the plessingtons were invited and shown, and to a party, too, that restrained aunt plessington from her usual conversational prominence.... these opening years of trafford's commercial phase were full of an engaging activity for marjorie as for him, and for her far more completely than for him were the profounder solicitudes of life lost sight of in the bright succession of immediate events. marjorie did not let her social development interfere with her duty to society in the larger sense. two years after the vigorous and resentful godwin came a second son, and a year and a half later a third. "that's enough," said marjorie, "now we've got to rear them." the nursery at sussex square had always been a show part of the house, but it became her crowning achievement. she had never forgotten the lee display at vevey, the shining splendours of modern maternity, the books, the apparatus, the space and light and air. the whole second floor was altered to accommodate these four triumphant beings, who absorbed the services of two nurses, a swiss nursery governess and two housemaids--not to mention those several hundred obscure individuals who were yielding a sustaining profit in the east end. at any rate, they were very handsome and promising children, and little margharita could talk three languages with a childish fluency, and invent and write a short fable in either french or german--with only as much misspelling as any child of eight may be permitted.... then there sprang up a competition between marjorie and the able, pretty wife of halford wallace, most promising of under-secretaries. they gave dinners against each other, they discovered young artists against each other, they went to first-nights and dressed against each other. marjorie was ruddy and tall, mrs. halford wallace dark and animated; halford wallace admired marjorie, trafford was insensible to mrs. halford wallace. they played for points so vague that it was impossible for any one to say which was winning, but none the less they played like artists, for all they were worth.... trafford's rapid prosperity and his implicit promise of still wider activities and successes brought him innumerable acquaintances and many friends. he joined two or three distinguished clubs, he derived an uncertain interest from a series of week-end visits to ample, good-mannered households, and for a time he found a distraction in little flashes of travel to countries that caught at his imagination, morocco, montenegro, southern russia. i do not know whether marjorie might not have been altogether happy during this early sussex square period, if it had not been for an unconquerable uncertainty about trafford. but ever and again she became vaguely apprehensive of some perplexing unreality in her position. she had never had any such profundity of discontent as he experienced. it was nothing clear, nothing that actually penetrated, distressing her. it was at most an uneasiness. for him the whole fabric of life was, as it were, torn and pieced by a provocative sense of depths unplumbed that robbed it of all its satisfactions. for her these glimpses were as yet rare, mere moments of doubt that passed again and left her active and assured. § it was only after they had been married six or seven years that trafford began to realize how widely his attitudes to marjorie varied. he emerged slowly from a naïve unconsciousness of his fluctuations,--a naïve unconsciousness of inconsistency that for most men and women remains throughout life. his ruling idea that she and he were friends, equals, confederates, knowing everything about each other, co-operating in everything, was very fixed and firm. but indeed that had become the remotest rendering of their relationship. their lives were lives of intimate disengagement. they came nearest to fellowship in relation to their children; there they shared an immense common pride. beyond that was a less confident appreciation of their common house and their joint effect. and then they liked and loved each other tremendously. they could play upon each other and please each other in a hundred different ways, and they did so, quite consciously, observing each other with the completest externality. she was still in many ways for him the bright girl he had admired in the examination, still the mysterious dignified transfiguration of that delightful creature on the tragically tender verge of motherhood; these memories were of more power with him than the present realities of her full-grown strength and capacity. he petted and played with the girl still; he was still tender and solicitous for that early woman. he admired and co-operated also with the capable, narrowly ambitious, beautiful lady into which marjorie had developed, but those remoter experiences it was that gave the deeper emotions to their relationship. the conflict of aims that had at last brought trafford from scientific investigation into business, had left behind it a little scar of hostility. he felt his sacrifice. he felt that he had given something for her that she had had no right to exact, that he had gone beyond the free mutualities of honest love and paid a price for her; he had deflected the whole course of his life for her and he was entitled to repayments. unconsciously he had become a slightly jealous husband. he resented inattentions and absences. he felt she ought to be with him and orient all her proceedings towards him. he did not like other people to show too marked an appreciation of her. she had a healthy love of admiration, and in addition her social ambitions made it almost inevitable that at times she should use her great personal charm to secure and retain adherents. he was ashamed to betray the resentments thus occasioned, and his silence widened the separation more than any protest could have done.... for his own part he gave her no cause for a reciprocal jealousy. other women did not excite his imagination very greatly, and he had none of the ready disposition to lapse to other comforters which is so frequent a characteristic of the husband out of touch with his life's companion. he was perhaps an exceptional man in his steadfast loyalty to his wife. he had come to her as new to love as she had been. he had never in his life taken that one decisive illicit step which changes all the aspects of sexual life for a man even more than for a woman. love for him was a thing solemn, simple, and unspoilt. he perceived that it was not so for most other men, but that did little to modify his own private attitude. in his curious scrutiny of the people about him, he did not fail to note the drift of adventures and infidelities that glimmers along beneath the even surface of our social life. one or two of his intimate friends, solomonson was one of them, passed through "affairs." once or twice those dim proceedings splashed upward to the surface in an open scandal. there came remington's startling elopement with isabel rivers, the writer, which took two brilliant and inspiring contemporaries suddenly and distressingly out of trafford's world. trafford felt none of that rage and forced and jealous contempt for the delinquents in these matters which is common in the ill-regulated, virtuous mind. indeed, he was far more sympathetic with than hostile to the offenders. he had brains and imagination to appreciate the grim pathos of a process that begins as a hopeful quest, full of the suggestion of noble possibilities, full of the craving for missed intensities of fellowship and realization, that loiters involuntarily towards beauties and delights, and ends at last too often after gratification of an appetite, in artificially hideous exposures, and the pelting misrepresentations of the timidly well-behaved vile. but the general effect of pitiful evasions, of unavoidable meannesses, of draggled heroics and tortuously insincere explanations confirmed him in his aversion from this labyrinthine trouble of extraneous love.... but if trafford was a faithful husband, he ceased to be a happy and confident one. there grew up in him a vast hinterland of thoughts and feelings, an accumulation of unspoken and largely of unformulated things in which his wife had no share. and it was in that hinterland that his essential self had its abiding place.... it came as a discovery; it remained for ever after a profoundly disturbing perplexity that he had talked to marjorie most carelessly, easily and seriously, during their courtship and their honeymoon. he remembered their early intercourse now as an immense happy freedom in love. then afterwards a curtain had fallen. that almost delirious sense of escaping from oneself, of having at last found some one from whom there need be no concealment, some one before whom one could stand naked-souled and assured of love as one stands before one's god, faded so that he scarce observed its passing, but only discovered at last that it had gone. he misunderstood and met misunderstanding. he found he could hurt her by the things he said, and be exquisitely hurt by her failure to apprehend the spirit of some ill-expressed intention. and it was so vitally important not to hurt, not to be hurt. at first he only perceived that he reserved himself; then there came the intimation of the question, was she also perhaps in such another hinterland as his, keeping herself from him? he had perceived the cessation of that first bright outbreak of self-revelation, this relapse into the secrecies of individuality, quite early in their married life. i have already told of his first efforts to bridge their widening separation by walks and talks in the country, and by the long pilgrimage among the alps that had ended so unexpectedly at vevey. in the retrospect the years seemed punctuated with phases when "we must talk" dominated their intercourse, and each time the impulse of that recognized need passed away by insensible degrees again--with nothing said. § marjorie cherished an obstinate hope that trafford would take up political questions and go into parliament. it seemed to her that there was something about him altogether graver and wider than most of the active politicians she knew. she liked to think of those gravities assuming a practical form, of trafford very rapidly and easily coming forward into a position of cardinal significance. it gave her general expenditure a quality of concentration without involving any uncongenial limitation to suppose it aimed at the preparation of a statesman's circle whenever trafford chose to adopt that assumption. little men in great positions came to her house and talked with opaque self-confidence at her table; she measured them against her husband while she played the admiring female disciple to their half-confidential talk. she felt that he could take up these questions and measures that they reduced to trite twaddle, open the wide relevancies behind them, and make them magically significant, sweep away the encrusting pettiness, the personalities and arbitrary prejudices. but why didn't he begin to do it? she threw out hints he seemed blind towards, she exercised miracles of patience while he ignored her baits. she came near intrigue in her endeavor to entangle him in political affairs. for a time it seemed to her that she was succeeding--i have already told of his phase of inquiry and interest in socio-political work--and then he relapsed into a scornful restlessness, and her hopes weakened again. but he could not concentrate his mind, he could not think where to begin. day followed day, each with its attacks upon his intention, its petty just claims, its attractive novelties of aspect. the telephone bell rang, the letters flopped into the hall, malcom the butler seemed always at hand with some distracting oblong on his salver. dowd was developing ideas for a reconstructed organization of the factory, solomonson growing enthusiastic about rubber-glass, his house seemed full of women, marjorie had an engagement for him to keep or the children were coming in to say good-night. to his irritated brain the whole scheme of his life presented itself at last as a tissue of interruptions which prevented his looking clearly at reality. more and more definitely he realized he wanted to get away and think. his former life of research became invested with an effect of immense dignity and of a steadfast singleness of purpose.... but trafford was following his own lights, upon his own lines. he was returning to that faith in the supreme importance of thought and knowledge, upon which he had turned his back when he left pure research behind him. to that familiar end he came by an unfamiliar route, after his long, unsatisfying examination of social reform movements and social and political theories. immaturity, haste and presumption vitiated all that region, and it seemed to him less and less disputable that the only escape for mankind from a continuing extravagant futility lay through the attainment of a quite unprecedented starkness and thoroughness of thinking about all these questions. this conception of a needed renascence obsessed him more and more, and the persuasion, deeply felt if indistinctly apprehended, that somewhere in such an effort there was a part for him to play.... life is too great for us or too petty. it gives us no tolerable middle way between baseness and greatness. we must die daily on the levels of ignoble compromise or perish tragically among the precipices. on the one hand is a life--unsatisfying and secure, a plane of dulled gratifications, mean advantages, petty triumphs, adaptations, acquiescences and submissions, and on the other a steep and terrible climb, set with sharp stones and bramble thickets and the possibilities of grotesque dislocations, and the snares of such temptation as comes only to those whose minds have been quickened by high desire, and the challenge of insoluble problems and the intimations of issues so complex and great, demanding such a nobility of purpose, such a steadfastness, alertness and openness of mind, that they fill the heart of man with despair.... there were moods when trafford would, as people say, pull himself together, and struggle with his gnawing discontent. he would compare his lot with that of other men, reproach himself for a monstrous greed and ingratitude. he remonstrated with himself as one might remonstrate with a pampered child refusing to be entertained by a whole handsome nursery full of toys. other men did their work in the world methodically and decently, did their duty by their friends and belongings, were manifestly patient through dullness, steadfastly cheerful, ready to meet vexations with a humorous smile, and grateful for orderly pleasures. was he abnormal? or was he in some unsuspected way unhealthy? trafford neglected no possible explanations. did he want this great renascence of the human mind because he was suffering from some subtle form of indigestion? he invoked, independently of each other, the aid of two distinguished specialists. they both told him in exactly the same voice and with exactly the same air of guineas well earned: "what you want, mr. trafford, is a change." trafford brought his mind to bear upon the instances of contentment about him. he developed an opinion that all men and many women were potentially at least as restless as himself. a huge proportion of the usage and education in modern life struck upon him now as being a training in contentment. or rather in keeping quiet and not upsetting things. the serious and responsible life of an ordinary prosperous man fulfilling the requirements of our social organization fatigues and neither completely satisfies nor completely occupies. still less does the responsible part of the life of a woman of the prosperous classes engage all her energies or hold her imagination. and there has grown up a great informal organization of employments, games, ceremonies, social routines, travel, to consume these surplus powers and excessive cravings, which might otherwise change or shatter the whole order of human living. he began to understand the forced preoccupation with cricket and golf, the shooting, visiting, and so forth, to which the young people of the economically free classes in the community are trained. he discovered a theory for hobbies and specialized interests. he began to see why people go to scotland to get away from london, and come to london to get away from scotland, why they crowd to and fro along the riviera, swarm over switzerland, shoot, yacht, hunt, and maintain an immense apparatus of racing and motoring. because so they are able to remain reasonably contented with the world as it is. he perceived, too, that a man who has missed or broken through the training to this kind of life, does not again very readily subdue himself to the security of these systematized distractions. his own upbringing had been antipathetic to any such adaptations; his years of research had given him the habit of naked intimacy with truth, filled him with a craving for reality and the destructive acids of a relentless critical method. he began to understand something of the psychology of vice, to comprehend how small a part mere sensuality, how large a part the spirit of adventure and the craving for illegality, may play, in the career of those who are called evil livers. mere animal impulses and curiosities it had always seemed possible to him to control, but now he was beginning to apprehend the power of that passion for escape, at any cost, in any way, from the petty, weakly stimulating, competitive motives of low-grade and law-abiding prosperity.... for a time trafford made an earnest effort to adjust himself to the position in which he found himself, and make a working compromise with his disturbing forces. he tried to pick up the scientific preoccupation of his earlier years. he made extensive schemes, to solomonson's great concern, whereby he might to a large extent disentangle himself from business. he began to hunt out forgotten note-books and yellowing sheets of memoranda. he found the resumption of research much more difficult than he had ever supposed possible. he went so far as to plan a laboratory, and to make some inquiries as to site and the cost of building, to the great satisfaction not only of marjorie but of his mother. old mrs. trafford had never expressed her concern at his abandonment of molecular physics for money-making, but now in her appreciation of his return to pure investigation she betrayed her sense of his departure. but in his heart he felt that this methodical establishment of virtue by limitation would not suffice for him. he said no word of this scepticism as it grew in his mind. marjorie was still under the impression that he was returning to research, and that she was free to contrive the steady preparation for that happier day when he should assume his political inheritance. and then presently a queer little dispute sprang up between them. suddenly, for the first time since he took to business, trafford found himself limiting her again. she was disposed, partly through the natural growth of her circle and her setting and partly through a movement on the part of mrs. halford wallace, to move from sussex square into a larger, more picturesquely built house in a more central position. she particularly desired a good staircase. he met her intimations of this development with a curious and unusual irritation. the idea of moving bothered him. he felt that exaggerated annoyance which is so often a concomitant of overwrought nerves. they had a dispute that was almost a quarrel, and though marjorie dropped the matter for a time, he could feel she was still at work upon it. chapter the second trafford decides to go § a haunting desire to go away into solitude grew upon trafford very steadily. he wanted intensely to think, and london and marjorie would not let him think. he wanted therefore to go away out of london and marjorie's world. he wanted, he felt, to go away alone and face god, and clear things up in his mind. by imperceptible degrees this desire anticipated its realization. his activities were affected more and more by intimations of a determined crisis. one eventful day it seemed to him that his mind passed quite suddenly from desire to resolve. he found himself with a project, already broadly definite. hitherto he hadn't been at all clear where he could go. from the first almost he had felt that this change he needed, the change by which he was to get out of the thickets of work and perplexity and distraction that held him captive, must be a physical as well as a mental removal; he must go somewhere, still and isolated, where sustained detached thinking was possible.... his preference, if he had one, inclined him to some solitude among the himalaya mountains. that came perhaps from kim and the precedent of the hindoo's religious retreat from the world. but this retreat he contemplated was a retreat that aimed at a return, a clarified and strengthened resumption of the world. and then suddenly, as if he had always intended it, labrador flashed through his thoughts, like a familiar name that had been for a time quite unaccountably forgotten. the word "labrador" drifted to him one day from an adjacent table as he sat alone at lunch in the liberal union club. some bore was reciting the substance of a lecture to a fellow-member. "seems to be a remarkable country," said the speaker. "mineral wealth hardly glanced at, you know. furs and a few score indians. and at our doors. practically--at our doors." trafford ceased to listen. his mind was taking up this idea of labrador. he wondered why he had not thought of labrador before. he had two or three streams of thought flowing in his mind, as a man who muses alone is apt to do. marjorie's desire to move had reappeared; a particular group of houses between berkeley square and park lane had taken hold of her fancy, she had urged the acquisition of one upon him that morning, and this kept coming up into consciousness like a wrong thread in a tapestry. moreover, he was watching his fellow-members with a critical rather than a friendly eye. a half-speculative, half-hostile contemplation of his habitual associates was one of the queer aspects of this period of unsettlement. they exasperated him by their massive contentment with the surface of things. they came in one after another patting their ties, or pulling at the lapels of their coats, and looked about them for vacant places with a conscious ease of manner that irritated his nerves. no doubt they were all more or less successful and distinguished men, matter for conversation and food for anecdotes, but why did they trouble to give themselves the air of it? they halted or sat down by friends, enunciated vapid remarks in sonorous voices, and opened conversations in trite phrases, about london architecture, about the political situation or the morning's newspaper, conversations that ought, he felt, to have been thrown away unopened, so stale and needless they seemed to him. they were judges, lawyers of all sorts, bankers, company promoters, railway managers, stockbrokers, pressmen, politicians, men of leisure. he wondered if indeed they were as opaque as they seemed, wondered with the helpless wonder of a man of exceptional mental gifts whether any of them at any stage had had such thoughts as his, had wanted as acutely as he did now to get right out of the world. did old booch over there, for example, guzzling oysters, cry at times upon the unknown god in the vast silences of the night? but booch, of course, was a member or something of the house of laymen, and very sound on the thirty-nine articles--a man who ate oysters like that could swallow anything--and in the vast silences of the night he was probably heavily and noisily asleep.... blenkins, the gentlemanly colleague of denton in the control of the _old country gazette_, appeared on his way to the pay-desk, gesticulating amiably _en-route_ to any possible friend. trafford returned his salutation, and pulled himself together immediately after in fear that he had scowled, for he hated to be churlish to any human being. blenkins, too, it might be, had sorrow and remorse and periods of passionate self-distrust and self-examination; maybe blenkins could weep salt tears, as blenkins no doubt under suitable sword-play would reveal heart and viscera as quivering and oozy as any man's. but to trafford's jaundiced eyes just then, it seemed that if you slashed blenkins across he would probably cut like a cheese.... now, in labrador----.... so soon as blenkins had cleared, trafford followed him to the pay-desk, and went on upstairs to the smoking-room, thinking of labrador. long ago he had read the story of wallace and hubbard in that wilderness. there was much to be said for a winter in labrador. it was cold, it was clear, infinitely lonely, with a keen edge of danger and hardship and never a letter or a paper. one could provision a hut and sit wrapped in fur, watching the northern lights.... "i'm off to labrador," said trafford, and entered the smoking-room. it was, after all, perfectly easy to go to labrador. one had just to go.... as he pinched the end of his cigar, he became aware of blenkins, with a gleam of golden glasses and a flapping white cuff, beckoning across the room to him. with that probable scowl on his conscience trafford was moved to respond with an unreal warmth, and strolled across to blenkins and a group of three or four other people, including that vigorous young politician, weston massinghay, and hart, k.c., about the further fireplace. "we were talking of you," said blenkins. "come and sit down with us. why don't you come into parliament?" "i've just arranged to go for some months to labrador." "industrial development?" asked blenkins, all alive. "no. holiday." no blenkins believes that sort of thing, but of course, if trafford chose to keep his own counsel---- "well, come into parliament as soon as you get back." trafford had had that old conversation before. he pretended insensibility when blenkins gestured to a vacant chair. "no," he said, still standing, "we settled all that. and now i'm up to my neck in--detail about labrador. i shall be starting--before the month is out." blenkins and hart simulated interest. "it's immoral," said blenkins, "for a man of your standing to keep out of politics." "it's more than immoral," said hart; "it's american." "solomonson comes in to represent the firm," smiled trafford, signalled the waiter for coffee, and presently disentangled himself from their company. for blenkins trafford concealed an exquisite dislike and contempt; and blenkins had a considerable admiration for trafford, based on extensive misunderstandings. blenkins admired trafford because he was good-looking and well-dressed, with a beautiful and successful wife, because he had become reasonably rich very quickly and easily, was young and a fellow of the royal society with a reputation that echoed in berlin, and very perceptibly did not return blenkins' admiration. all these things filled blenkins with a desire for trafford's intimacy, and to become the associate of the very promising political career that it seemed to him, in spite of trafford's repudiations, was the natural next step in a deliberately and honourably planned life. he mistook trafford's silences and detachment for the marks of a strong, silent man, who was scheming the immense, vulgar, distinguished-looking achievements that appeal to the blenkins mind. blenkins was a sentimentally loyal party liberal, and as he said at times to hart and weston massinghay: "if those other fellows get hold of him----!" blenkins was the fine flower of oxford liberalism and the tennysonian days. he wanted to be like king arthur and sir galahad, with the merest touch of launcelot, and to be perfectly upright and splendid and very, very successful. he was a fair, tenoring sort of person with an arthurian moustache and a disposition to long frock coats. it had been said of him that he didn't dress like a gentleman, but that he dressed more like a gentleman than a gentleman ought to dress. it might have been added that he didn't behave like a gentleman, but that he behaved more like a gentleman than a gentleman ought to behave. he didn't think, but he talked and he wrote more thoughtfully in his leaders, and in the little dialogues he wrote in imitation of sir arthur helps, than any other person who didn't think could possibly do. he was an orthodox churchman, but very, very broad; he held all the doctrines, a distinguished sort of thing to do in an age of doubt, but there was a quality about them as he held them--as though they had been run over by something rather heavy. it was a flattened and slightly obliterated breadth--nothing was assertive, but nothing, under examination, proved to be altogether gone. his profuse thoughtfulness was not confined to his journalistic and literary work, it overflowed into talks. he was a man for great talks, interminable rambling floods of boyish observation, emotional appreciation, and silly, sapient comment. he loved to discuss "who are the best talkers now alive?" he had written an essay, _talk in the past_. he boasted of week-ends when the talk had gone on from the moment of meeting in the train to the moment of parting at euston, or paddington, or waterloo; and one or two hostesses with embittered memories could verify his boasting. he did his best to make the club a talking club, and loved to summon men to a growing circle of chairs.... trafford had been involved in talks on one or two occasions, and now, as he sat alone in the corridor and smoked and drank his coffee, he could imagine the talk he had escaped, the talk that was going on in the smoking room--the platitudes, the sagacities, the digressions, the sudden revelation of deep, irrational convictions. he reflected upon the various talks at which he had assisted. his chief impression of them all was of an intolerable fluidity. never once had he known a talk thicken to adequate discussion; never had a new idea or a new view come to him in a talk. he wondered why blenkins and his like talked at all. essentially they lived for pose, not for expression; they did not greatly desire to discover, make, or be; they wanted to seem and succeed. talking perhaps was part of their pose of great intellectual activity, and blenkins was fortunate to have an easy, unforced running of mind.... over his cigar trafford became profoundly philosophical about talk. and after the manner of those who become profoundly philosophical he spread out the word beyond its original and proper intentions to all sorts of kindred and parallel things. blenkins and his miscellany of friends in their circle of chairs were, after all, only a crude rendering of very much of intellectual activity of mankind. men talked so often as dogs bark. those talkers never came to grips, fell away from topic to topic, pretended depth and evaded the devastating horrors of sincerity. listening was a politeness amongst them that was presently rewarded with utterance. tremendously like dogs they were, in a dog-fancying neighborhood on a summer week-day afternoon. fluidity, excessive abundance, inconsecutiveness; these were the things that made talk hateful to trafford. wasn't most literature in the same class? wasn't nearly all present philosophical and sociological discussion in the world merely a blenkins circle on a colossal scale, with every one looming forward to get in a deeply thoughtful word edgeways at the first opportunity? imagine any one in distress about his soul or about mankind, going to a professor of economics or sociology or philosophy! he thought of the endless, big, expensive, fruitless books, the windy expansions of industrious pedantry that mocked the spirit of inquiry. the fields of physical and biological science alone had been partially rescued from the floods of human inconsecutiveness. there at least a man must, on the whole, join on to the work of other men, stand a searching criticism, justify himself. philosophically this was an age of relaxed schoolmen. he thought of doctor codger at cambridge, bubbling away with his iridescent hegelianism like a salted snail; of doctor quiller at oxford, ignoring bergson and fulminating a preposterous insular pragmatism. each contradicted the other fundamentally upon matters of universal concern; neither ever joined issue with the other. why in the name of humanity didn't some one take hold of those two excellent gentlemen, and bang their busy heads together hard and frequently until they either compromised or cracked? § he forgot these rambling speculations as he came out into the spring sunshine of pall mall, and halting for a moment on the topmost step, regarded the tidy pavements, the rare dignified shops, the waiting taxicabs, the pleasant, prosperous passers-by. his mind lapsed back to the thought that he meant to leave all this and go to labrador. his mind went a step further, and reflected that he would not only go to labrador, but--it was highly probable--come back again. and then? why, after all, should he go to labrador at all? why shouldn't he make a supreme effort here? something entirely irrational within him told him with conclusive emphasis that he had to go to labrador.... he remembered there was this confounded business of the proposed house in mayfair to consider.... § it occurred to him that he would go a little out of his way, and look at the new great laboratories at the romeike college, of which his old bottle-washer durgan was, he knew, extravagantly proud. romeike's widow was dead now and her will executed, and her substance half turned already to bricks and stone and glazed tiles and all those excesses of space and appliance which the rich and authoritative imagine must needs give us science, however ill-selected and underpaid and slighted the users of those opportunities may be. the architects had had great fun with the bequest; a quarter of the site was devoted to a huge square surrounded by dignified, if functionless, colonnades, and adorned with those stone seats of honour which are always so chill and unsatisfactory as resting places in our island climate. the laboratories, except that they were a little shaded by the colonnades, were everything a laboratory should be; the benches were miracles of convenience, there wasn't anything the industrious investigator might want, steam, high pressures, electric power, that he couldn't get by pressing a button or turning a switch, unless perhaps it was inspiring ideas. and the new library at the end, with its greys and greens, its logarithmic computators at every table, was a miracle of mental convenience. durgan showed his old professor the marvels. "if he _chooses_ to do something here," said durgan not too hopefully, "a man can...." "what's become of the little old room where we two used to work?" asked trafford. "they'll turn 'em all out presently," said durgan, "when this part is ready, but just at present it's very much as you left it. there's been precious little research done there since you went away--not what _i_ call research. females chiefly--and boys. playing at it. making themselves into d.sc.'s by a baby research instead of a man's examination. it's like broaching a thirty-two gallon cask full of pap to think of it. lord, sir, the swill! research! counting and weighing things! professor lake's all right, i suppose, but his work was mostly mathematical; he didn't do much of it here. no, the old days ended, sir, when you...." he arrested himself, and obviously changed his words. "got busy with other things." trafford surveyed the place; it seemed to him to have shrunken a little in the course of the three years that had intervened since he resigned his position. on the wall at the back there still hung, fly-blown and a little crumpled, an old table of constants he had made for his elasticity researches. lake had kept it there, for lake was a man of generous appreciations, and rather proud to follow in the footsteps of an investigator of trafford's subtlety and vigor. the old sink in the corner where trafford had once swilled his watch glasses and filled his beakers had been replaced by one of a more modern construction, and the combustion cupboard was unfamiliar, until durgan pointed out that it had been enlarged. the ground-glass window at the east end showed still the marks of an explosion that had banished a clumsy student from this sanctuary at the very beginning of trafford's career. "by jove!" he said after a silence, "but i did some good work here." "you did, sir," said durgan. "i wonder--i may take it up again presently." "i doubt it, sir," said durgan. "oh! but suppose i come back?" "i don't think you would find yourself coming back, sir," said durgan after judicious consideration. he adduced no shadow of a reason for his doubt, but some mysterious quality in his words carried conviction to trafford's mind. he knew that he would never do anything worth doing in molecular physics again. he knew it now conclusively for the first time. § he found himself presently in bond street. the bright may day had brought out great quantities of people, so that he had to come down from altitudes of abstraction to pick his way among them. he was struck by the prevailing interest and contentment in the faces he passed. there was no sense of insecurity betrayed, no sense of the deeps and mysteries upon which our being floats like a film. they looked solid, they looked satisfied; surely never before in the history of the world has there been so great a multitude of secure-feeling, satisfied-looking, uninquiring people as there is to-day. all the tragic great things of life seem stupendously remote from them; pain is rare, death is out of sight, religion has shrunken to an inconsiderable, comfortable, reassuring appendage of the daily life. and with the bright small things of immediacy they are so active and alert. never before has the world seen such multitudes, and a day must come when it will cease to see them for evermore. as he shouldered his way through the throng before the oxford street shop windows he appreciated a queer effect, almost as it were of insanity, about all this rich and abundant and ultimately aimless life, this tremendous spawning and proliferation of uneventful humanity. these individual lives signified no doubt enormously to the individuals, but did all the shining, reflecting, changing existence that went by like bubbles in a stream, signify collectively anything more than the leaping, glittering confusion of shoaling mackerel on a sunlit afternoon? the pretty girl looking into the window schemed picturesque achievements with lace and ribbon, the beggar at the curb was alert for any sympathetic eye, the chauffeur on the waiting taxi-cab watched the twopences ticking on with a quiet satisfaction; each followed a keenly sought immediate end, but altogether? where were they going altogether? until he knew that, where was the sanity of statecraft, the excuse of any impersonal effort, the significance of anything beyond a life of appetites and self-seeking instincts? he found that perplexing suspicion of priggishness affecting him again. why couldn't he take the gift of life as it seemed these people took it? why was he continually lapsing into these sombre, dimly religious questionings and doubts? why after all should he concern himself with these riddles of some collective and ultimate meaning in things? was he for all his ability and security so afraid of the accidents of life that on that account he clung to this conception of a larger impersonal issue which the world in general seemed to have abandoned so cheerfully? at any rate he did cling to it--and his sense of it made the abounding active life of this stirring, bristling thoroughfare an almost unendurable perplexity.... by the marble arch a little crowd had gathered at the pavement edge. he remarked other little knots towards paddington, and then still others, and inquiring, found the king was presently to pass. they promised themselves the gratification of seeing the king go by. they would see a carriage, they would see horses and coachmen, perhaps even they might catch sight of a raised hat and a bowing figure. and this would be a gratification to them, it would irradiate the day with a sense of experiences, exceptional and precious. for that some of them had already been standing about for two or three hours. he thought of these waiting people for a time, and then he fell into a speculation about the king. he wondered if the king ever lay awake at three o'clock in the morning and faced the riddle of the eternities or whether he did really take himself seriously and contentedly as being in himself the vital function of the state, performed his ceremonies, went hither and thither through a wilderness of gaping watchers, slept well on it. was the man satisfied? was he satisfied with his empire as it was and himself as he was, or did some vision, some high, ironical intimation of the latent and lost possibilities of his empire and of the world of things conceivable that lies beyond the poor tawdry splendours of our present loyalties, ever dawn upon him? trafford's imagination conjured up a sleepless king emperor agonizing for humanity.... he turned to his right out of lancaster gate into sussex square, and came to a stop at the pavement edge. from across the road he surveyed the wide white front and portals of the house that wasn't big enough for marjorie. § he let himself in with his latchkey. malcolm, his man, hovered at the foot of the staircase, and came forward for his hat and gloves and stick. "mrs. trafford in?" asked trafford. "she said she would be in by four, sir." trafford glanced at his watch and went slowly upstairs. on the landing there had been a rearrangement of the furniture, and he paused to survey it. the alterations had been made to accommodate a big cloisonné jar, that now glowed a wonder of white and tinted whites and luminous blues upon a dark, deep-shining stand. he noted now the curtain of the window had been changed from something--surely it had been a reddish curtain!--to a sharp clear blue with a black border, that reflected upon and sustained and encouraged the jar tremendously. and the wall behind--? yes. its deep brown was darkened to an absolute black behind the jar, and shaded up between the lacquer cabinets on either hand by insensible degrees to the general hue. it was wonderful, perfectly harmonious, and so subtly planned that it seemed it all might have grown, as flowers grow.... he entered the drawing-room and surveyed its long and handsome spaces. post-impressionism was over and gone; three long pictures by young rogerson and one of redwood's gallant bronzes faced the tall windows between the white marble fireplaces at either end. there were two lean jars from india, a young boy's head from florence, and in a great bowl in the remotest corner a radiant mass of azaleas.... his mood of wondering at familiar things was still upon him. it came to him as a thing absurd and incongruous that this should be his home. it was all wonderfully arranged into one dignified harmony, but he felt now that at a touch of social earthquake, with a mere momentary lapse towards disorder, it would degenerate altogether into litter, lie heaped together confessed the loot it was. he came to a stop opposite one of the rogersons, a stiffly self-conscious shop girl in her sunday clothes, a not unsuccessful emulation of nicholson's wonderful mrs. stafford of paradise row. regarded as so much brown and grey and amber-gold, it was coherent in marjorie's design, but regarded as a work of art, as a piece of expression, how madly irrelevant was its humour and implications to that room and the purposes of that room! rogerson wasn't perhaps trying to say much, but at any rate he was trying to say something, and redwood too was asserting freedom and adventure, and the thought of that florentine of the bust, and the patient, careful indian potter, and every maker of all the little casual articles about him, produced an effect of muffled, stifled assertions. against this subdued and disciplined background of muted, inarticulate cries,--cries for beauty, for delight, for freedom, marjorie and her world moved and rustled and chattered and competed--wearing the skins of beasts, the love-plumage of birds, the woven cocoon cases of little silkworms.... "preposterous," he whispered. he went to the window and stared out; turned about and regarded the gracious variety of that long, well-lit room again, then strolled thoughtfully upstairs. he reached the door of his study, and a sound of voices from the schoolroom--it had recently been promoted from the rank of day nursery to this level--caught his mood. he changed his mind, crossed the landing, and was welcomed with shouts. the rogues had been dressing up. margharita, that child of the dreadful dawn, was now a sturdy and domineering girl of eight, and she was attired in a gilt paper mitre and her governess's white muslin blouse so tied at the wrists as to suggest long sleeves, a broad crimson band doing duty as a stole. she was becket prepared for martyrdom at the foot of the altar. godwin, his eldest son, was a hot-tempered, pretty-featured pleasantly self-conscious boy of nearly seven and very happy now in a white dragoon's helmet and rude but effective brown paper breastplate and greaves, as the party of assassin knights. a small acolyte in what was in all human probably one of the governess's more intimate linen garments assisted becket, while the general congregation of canterbury was represented by edward, aged two, and the governess, disguised with a union jack tied over her head after the well-known fashion of the middle ages. after the children had welcomed their father and explained the bloody work in hand, they returned to it with solemn earnestness, while trafford surveyed the tragedy. godwin slew with admirable gusto, and i doubt if the actual thomas of canterbury showed half the stately dignity of margharita. the scene finished, they went on to the penance of henry the second; and there was a tremendous readjustment of costumes, with much consultation and secrecy. trafford's eyes went from his offspring to the long, white-painted room, with its gay frieze of ships and gulls and its rug-variegated cork carpet of plain brick red. everywhere it showed his wife's quick cleverness, the clean serviceable decorativeness of it all, the pretty patterned window curtains, the writing desks, the little library of books, the flowers and bulbs in glasses, the counting blocks and bricks and jolly toys, the blackboard on which the children learnt to draw in bold wide strokes, the big, well-chosen german colour prints upon the walls. and the children did credit to their casket; they were not only full of vitality but full of ideas, even edward was already a person of conversation. they were good stuff anyhow.... it was fine in a sense, trafford thought, to have given up his own motives and curiosities to afford this airy pleasantness of upbringing for them, and then came a qualifying thought. would they in their turn for the sake of another generation have to give up fine occupations for mean occupations, deep thoughts for shallow? would the world get them in turn? would the girls be hustled and flattered into advantageous marriages, that dinners and drawing-rooms might still prevail? would the boys, after this gracious beginning, presently have to swim submerged in another generation of blenkinses and their talk, toil in arduous self-seeking, observe, respect and manipulate shams, succeed or fail, and succeeding, beget amidst hope and beautiful emotions yet another generation doomed to insincerities and accommodations, and so die at last--as he must die?... he heard his wife's clear voice in the hall below, and went down to meet her. she had gone into the drawing-room, and he followed her in and through the folding doors to the hinder part of the room, where she stood ready to open a small bureau. she turned at his approach, and smiled a pleasant, habitual smile.... she was no longer the slim, quick-moving girl who had come out of the world to him when he crawled from beneath the wreckage of solomonson's plane, no longer the half-barbaric young beauty who had been revealed to him on the staircase of the vevey villa. she was now a dignified, self-possessed woman, controlling her house and her life with a skilful, subtle appreciation of her every point and possibility. she was wearing now a simple walking dress of brownish fawn colour, and her hat was touched with a steely blue that made her blue eyes seem handsome and hard, and toned her hair to a merely warm brown. she had, as it were, subdued her fine colours into a sheath in order that she might presently draw them again with more effect. "hullo, old man!" she said, "you home?" he nodded. "the club bored me--and i couldn't work." her voice had something of a challenge and defiance in it. "i've been looking at a house," she said. "alice carmel told me of it. it isn't in berkeley square, but it's near it. it's rather good." he met her eye. "that's--premature," he said. "we can't go on living in this one." "i won't go to another." "but why?" "i just won't." "it isn't the money?" "no," said trafford, with sudden fierce resentment. "i've overtaken you and beaten you there, marjorie." she stared at the harsh bitterness of his voice. she was about to speak when the door opened, and malcom ushered in aunt plessington and uncle hubert. husband and wife hung for a moment, and then realized their talk was at an end.... marjorie went forward to greet her aunt, careless now of all that once stupendous influence might think of her. she had long ceased to feel even the triumph of victory in her big house, her costly, dignified clothes, her assured and growing social importance. for five years aunt plessington had not even ventured to advise; had once or twice admired. all that business of magnet was--even elaborately--forgotten.... seven years of feverish self-assertion had left their mark upon both the plessingtons. she was leaner, more gauntly untidy, more aggressively ill-dressed. she no longer dressed carelessly, she defied the world with her clothes, waved her tattered and dingy banners in its face. uncle hubert was no fatter, but in some queer way he had ceased to be thin. like so many people whose peripheries defy the manifest quaint purpose of providence, he was in a state of thwarted adiposity, and with all the disconnectedness and weak irritability characteristic of his condition. he had developed a number of nervous movements, chin-strokings, cheek-scratchings, and incredulous pawings at his more salient features. "isn't it a lark?" began aunt plessington, with something like a note of apprehension in her highpitched voice, and speaking almost from the doorway, "we're making a call together. i and hubert! it's an attack in force." uncle hubert goggled in the rear and stroked his chin, and tried to get together a sort of facial expression. the traffords made welcoming noises, and marjorie advanced to meet her aunt. "we want you to do something for us," said aunt plessington, taking two hands with two hands.... in the intervening years the movement had had ups and downs; it had had a boom, which had ended abruptly in a complete loss of voice for aunt plessington--she had tried to run it on a patent non-stimulating food, and then it had entangled itself with a new cult of philanthropic theosophy from which it had been extracted with difficulty and in a damaged condition. it had never completely recovered from that unhappy association. latterly aunt plessington had lost her nerve, and she had taken to making calls upon people with considerable and sometimes embarrassing demand for support, urging them to join committees, take chairs, stake reputations, speak and act as foils for her. if they refused she lost her temper very openly and frankly, and became industriously vindictive. she circulated scandals or created them. her old assurance had deserted her; the strangulated contralto was losing its magic power, she felt, in this degenerating england it had ruled so long. in the last year or so she had become extremely snappy with uncle hubert. she ascribed much of the movement's futility to the decline of his administrative powers and the increasing awkwardness of his gestures, and she did her utmost to keep him up to the mark. her only method of keeping him up to the mark was to jerk the bit. she had now come to compel marjorie to address a meeting that was to inaugurate a new phase in the movement's history, and she wanted marjorie because she particularly wanted a daring, liberal, and spiritually amorous bishop, who had once told her with a note of profound conviction that marjorie was a very beautiful woman. she was so intent upon her purpose that she scarcely noticed trafford. he slipped from the room unobserved under cover of her playful preliminaries, and went to the untidy little apartment overhead which served in that house as his study. he sat down at the big desk, pushed his methodically arranged papers back, and drummed on the edge with his fingers. "i'm damned if we have that bigger house," said trafford. § he felt he wanted to confirm and establish this new resolution, to go right away to labrador for a year. he wanted to tell someone the thing definitely. he would have gone downstairs again to marjorie, but she was submerged and swimming desperately against the voluble rapids of aunt plessington's purpose. it might be an hour before that attack withdrew. presently there would be other callers. he decided to have tea with his mother and talk to her about this new break in the course of his life. except that her hair was now grey and her brown eyes by so much contrast brighter, mrs. trafford's appearance had altered very little in the ten years of her only son's marriage. whatever fresh realizations of the inevitably widening separation between parent and child these years had brought her, she had kept to herself. she had watched her daughter-in-law sometimes with sympathy, sometimes with perplexity, always with a jealous resolve to let no shadow of jealousy fall between them. marjorie had been sweet and friendly to her, but after the first outburst of enthusiastic affection, she had neither offered nor invited confidences. old mrs. trafford had talked of marjorie to her son guardedly, and had marked and respected a growing indisposition on his part to discuss his wife. for a year or so after his marriage she had ached at times with a sense of nearly intolerable loneliness, and then the new interests she had found for herself had won their way against this depression. the new insurrectionary movement of women that had distinguished those years had attacked her by its emotion and repelled her by its crudity, and she had resolved, quite in the spirit of the man who had shaped her life, to make a systematic study of all the contributory strands that met in this difficult tangle. she tried to write, but she found that the poetic gift, the gift of the creative and illuminating phrase which alone justifies writing, was denied to her, and so she sought to make herself wise, to read and hear, and discuss and think over these things, and perhaps at last inspire and encourage writing in others. her circle of intimates grew, and she presently remarked with a curious interest that while she had lost the confidences of her own son and his wife, she was becoming the confidant of an increasing number of other people. they came to her, she perceived, because she was receptive and sympathetic and without a claim upon them or any interest to complicate the freedoms of their speech with her. they came to her, because she did not belong to them nor they to her. it is, indeed, the defect of all formal and established relationship, that it embarrasses speech, and taints each phase in intercourse with the flavour of diplomacy. one can be far more easily outspoken to a casual stranger one may never see again than to that inseparable other, who may misinterpret, who may disapprove or misunderstand, and who will certainly in the measure of that discord remember.... it became at last a matter of rejoicing to mrs. trafford that the ties of the old instinctive tenderness between herself and her son, the memories of pain and tears and the passionate conflict of childhood, were growing so thin and lax and inconsiderable, that she could even hope some day to talk to him again--almost as she talked to the young men and young women who drifted out of the unknown to her and sat in her little room and sought to express their perplexities and listened to her advice.... it seemed to her that afternoon the wished-for day had come. trafford found her just returned from a walk in kensington gardens and writing a note at her desk under the narrow sunlit window that looked upon the high street. "finish your letter, little mother," he said, and took possession of the hearthrug. when she had sealed and addressed her letter, she turned her head and found him looking at his father's portrait. "done?" he asked, becoming aware of her eyes. she took her letter into the hall and returned to him, closing the door behind her. "i'm going away, little mother," he said with an unconvincing off-handedness. "i'm going to take a holiday." "alone?" "yes. i want a change. i'm going off somewhere--untrodden ground as near as one can get it nowadays--labrador." their eyes met for a moment. "is it for long?" "the best part of a year." "i thought you were going on with your research work again." "no." he paused. "i'm going to labrador." "why?" she asked. "i'm going to think." she found nothing to say for a moment. "it's good," she remarked, "to think." then, lest she herself should seem to be thinking too enormously, she rang the bell to order the tea that was already on its way. "it surprises a mother," she said, when the maid had come and gone, "when her son surprises her." "you see," he repeated, as though it explained everything, "i want to think." then after a pause she asked some questions about labrador; wasn't it very cold, very desert, very dangerous and bitter, and he answered informingly. how was he going to stay there? he would go up the country with an expedition, build a hut and remain behind. alone? yes--thinking. her eyes rested on his face for a time. "it will be--lonely," she said after a pause. she saw him as a little still speck against immense backgrounds of snowy wilderness. the tea-things came before mother and son were back at essentials again. then she asked abruptly: "why are you going away like this?" "i'm tired of all this business and finance," he said after a pause. "i thought you would be," she answered as deliberately. "yes. i've had enough of things. i want to get clear. and begin again somehow." she felt they both hung away from the essential aspect. either he or she must approach it. she decided that she would, that it was a less difficult thing for her than for him. "and marjorie?" she asked. he looked into his mother's eyes very quietly. "you see," he went on deliberately disregarding her question, "i'm beached. i'm aground. i'm spoilt now for the old researches--spoilt altogether. and i don't like this life i'm leading. i detest it. while i was struggling it had a kind of interest. there was an excitement in piling up the first twenty thousand. but _now_--! it's empty, it's aimless, it's incessant...." he paused. she turned to the tea-things, and lit the spirit lamp under the kettle. it seemed a little difficult to do, and her hand trembled. when she turned on him again it was with an effort. "does marjorie like the life you are leading?" she asked, and pressed her lips together tightly. he spoke with a bitterness in his voice that astonished her. "oh, _she_ likes it." "are you sure?" he nodded. "she won't like it without you." "oh, that's too much! it's her world. it's what she's done--what she's made. she can have it; she can keep it. i've played my part and got it for her. but now--now i'm free to go. i will go. she's got everything else. i've done my half of the bargain. but my soul's my own. if i want to go away and think, i will. not even marjorie shall stand in the way of that." she made no answer to this outburst for a couple of seconds. then she threw out, "why shouldn't marjorie think, too?" he considered that for some moments. "she doesn't," he said, as though the words came from the roots of his being. "but you two----" "we don't talk. it's astonishing--how we don't. we don't. we can't. we try to, and we can't. and she goes her way, and now--i will go mine." "and leave her?" he nodded. "in london?" "with all the things she cares for." "except yourself." "i'm only a means----" she turned her quiet face to him. "you know," she said, "that isn't true."... "no," she repeated, to his silent contradiction. "i've watched her," she went on. "you're _not_ a means. i'd have spoken long ago if i had thought that. haven't i watched? haven't i lain awake through long nights thinking about her and you, thinking over every casual mood, every little sign--longing to help--helpless." ... she struggled with herself, for she was weeping. "_it has come to this_," she said in a whisper, and choked back a flood of tears. trafford stood motionless, watching her. she became active. she moved round the table. she looked at the kettle, moved the cups needlessly, made tea, and stood waiting for a moment before she poured it out. "it's so hard to talk to you," she said, "and about all this.... i care so much. for her. and for you.... words don't come, dear.... one says stupid things." she poured out the tea, and left the cups steaming, and came and stood before him. "you see," she said, "you're ill. you aren't just. you've come to an end. you don't know where you are and what you want to do. neither does she, my dear. she's as aimless as you--and less able to help it. ever so much less able." "but she doesn't show it. she goes on. she wants things and wants things----" "and you want to go away. it's the same thing. it's exactly the same thing. it's dissatisfaction. life leaves you empty and craving--leaves you with nothing to do but little immediate things that turn to dust as you do them. it's her trouble, just as it's your trouble." "but she doesn't show it." "women don't. not so much. perhaps even she doesn't know it. half the women in our world don't know--and for a woman it's so much easier to go on--so many little things."... trafford tried to grasp the intention of this. "mother," he said, "i mean to go away." "but think of her!" "i've thought. now i've got to think of myself." "you can't--without her." "i will. it's what i'm resolved to do." "go right away?" "right away." "and think?" he nodded. "find out--what it all means, my boy?" "yes. so far as i'm concerned." "and then----?" "come back, i suppose. i haven't thought." "to her?" he didn't answer. she went and stood beside him, leaning upon the mantel. "godwin," she said, "she'd only be further behind.... you've got to take her with you." he stood still and silent. "you've got to think things out with her. if you don't----" "i can't." "then you ought to go away with her----" she stopped. "for good?" he asked. "yes." they were both silent for a space. then mrs. trafford gave her mind to the tea that was cooling in the cups, and added milk and sugar. she spoke again with the table between them. "i've thought so much of these things," she said with the milk-jug in her hand. "it's not only you two, but others. and all the movement about us.... marriage isn't what it was. it's become a different thing because women have become human beings. only----you know, godwin, all these things are so difficult to express. woman's come out of being a slave, and yet she isn't an equal.... we've had a sort of sham emancipation, and we haven't yet come to the real one." she put down the milk-jug on the tray with an air of grave deliberation. "if you go away from her and make the most wonderful discoveries about life and yourself, it's no good--unless she makes them too. it's no good at all.... you can't live without her in the end, any more than she can live without you. you may think you can, but i've watched you. you don't want to go away from her, you want to go away from the world that's got hold of her, from the dresses and parties and the competition and all this complicated flatness we have to live in.... it wouldn't worry you a bit, if it hadn't got hold of her. you don't want to get out of it for your own sake. you _are_ out of it. you are as much out of it as any one can be. only she holds you in it, because she isn't out of it. your going away will do nothing. she'll still be in it--and still have her hold on you.... you've got to take her away. or else--if you go away--in the end it will be just like a ship, godwin, coming back to its moorings." she watched his thoughtful face for some moments, then arrested herself just in time in the act of putting a second portion of sugar into each of the cups. she handed her son his tea, and he took it mechanically. "you're a wise little mother," he said. "i didn't see things in that light.... i wonder if you're right." "i know i am," she said. "i've thought more and more,--it was marjorie." "it's the world." "women made the world. all the dress and display and competition." mrs. trafford thought. "sex made the world. neither men nor women. but the world has got hold of the women tighter than it has the men. they're deeper in." she looked up into his face. "take her with you," she said, simply. "she won't come," said trafford, after considering it. mrs. trafford reflected. "she'll come--if you make her," she said. "she'll want to bring two housemaids." "i don't think you know marjorie as well as i do." "but she can't----" "she can. it's you--you'll want to take two housemaids for her. even you.... men are not fair to women." trafford put his untasted tea upon the mantelshelf, and confronted his mother with a question point blank. "does marjorie care for me?" he asked. "you're the sun of her world." "but she goes her way." "she's clever, she's full of life, full of activities, eager to make and arrange and order; but there's nothing she is, nothing she makes, that doesn't centre on you." "but if she cared, she'd understand!" "my dear, do _you_ understand?" he stood musing. "i had everything clear," he said. "i saw my way to labrador...." her little clock pinged the hour. "good god!" he said, "i'm to be at dinner somewhere at seven. we're going to a first night. with the bernards, i think. then i suppose we'll have a supper. always life is being slashed to tatters by these things. always. one thinks in snatches of fifty minutes. it's dementia...." § they dined at the loretto restaurant with the bernards and richard hampden and mrs. godwin capes, the dark-eyed, quiet-mannered wife of the dramatist, a woman of impulsive speech and long silences, who had subsided from an early romance (capes had been divorced for her while she was still a mere girl) into a markedly correct and exclusive mother of daughters. through the dinner marjorie was watching trafford and noting the deep preoccupation of his manner. he talked a little to mrs. bernard until it was time for hampden to entertain her, then finding mrs. capes was interested in bernard, he lapsed into thought. presently marjorie discovered his eyes scrutinizing herself. she hoped the play would catch his mind, but the play seemed devised to intensify his sense of the tawdry unreality of contemporary life. bernard filled the intervals with a conventional enthusiasm. capes didn't appear. "he doesn't seem to care to see his things," his wife explained. "it's so brilliant," said bernard. "he has to do it," said mrs. capes slowly, her sombre eyes estimating the crowded stalls below. "it isn't what he cares to do." the play was in fact an admirable piece of english stagecraft, and it dealt exclusively with that unreal other world of beings the english theatre has for its own purposes developed. just as greece through the ages evolved and polished and perfected the idealized life of its homeric poems, so the british mind has evolved their stage land to embody its more honourable dreams, full of heroic virtues, incredible honour, genial worldliness, childish villainies, profound but amiable waiters and domestics, pathetic shepherds and preposterous crimes. capes, needing an income, had mastered the habits and customs of this imagined world as one learns a language; success endorsed his mastery; he knew exactly how deeply to underline an irony and just when it is fit and proper for a good man to call upon "god!" or cry out "damn!" in this play he had invented a situation in which a charming and sympathetic lady had killed a gross and drunken husband in self-defence, almost but not quite accidentally, and had then appealed to the prodigious hero for assistance in the resulting complications. at a great cost of mental suffering to himself he had told his first and only lie to shield her. then years after he had returned to england--the first act happened, of course in india--to find her on the eve of marrying, without any of the preliminary confidences common among human beings, an old school friend of his. (in plays all gentlemen have been at school together, and one has been the other's fag.) the audience had to be interested in the problem of what the prodigious hero was to do in this prodigious situation. should he maintain a colossal silence, continue his shielding, and let his friend marry the murderess saved by his perjury, or----?... the dreadful quandary! indeed, the absolute--inconvenience! marjorie watched trafford in the corner of the box, as he listened rather contemptuously to the statement of the evening's problem and then lapsed again into a brooding quiet. she wished she understood his moods better. she felt there was more in this than a mere resentment at her persistence about the new house.... why didn't he go on with things?... this darkling mood of his had only become manifest to her during the last three or four years of their life. previously, of course, he had been irritable at times. were they less happy now than they had been in the little house in chelsea? it had really been a horrible little house. and yet there had been a brightness then--a nearness.... she found her mind wandering away upon a sort of stock-taking expedition. how much of real happiness had she and trafford had together? they ought by every standard to be so happy.... she declined the bernard's invitation to a chafing-dish supper, and began to talk so soon as she and trafford had settled into the car. "rag," she said, "something's the matter?" "well--yes." "the house?" "yes--the house." marjorie considered through a little interval. "old man, why are you so prejudiced against a bigger house?" "oh, because the one we have bores me, and the next one will bore me more." "but try it." "i don't want to." "well," she said and lapsed into silence. "and then," he asked, "what are we going to do?" "going to do--when?" "after the new house----" "i'm going to open out," she said. he made no answer. "i want to open out. i want you to take your place in the world, the place you deserve." "a four-footman place?" "oh! the house is only a means." he thought upon that. "a means," he asked, "to what? look here, marjorie, what do you think you are up to with me and yourself? what do you see me doing--in the years ahead?" she gave him a silent and thoughtful profile for a second or so. "at first i suppose you are going on with your researches." "well?" "then----i must tell you what i think of you, rag. politics----" "good lord!" "you've a sort of power. you could make things noble." "and then? office?" "why not? look at the little men they are." "and then perhaps a still bigger house?" "you're not fair to me." he pulled up the bearskin over his knees. "marjorie!" he said. "you see----we aren't going to do any of those things at all.... _no!_..." "i can't go on with my researches," he explained. "that's what you don't understand. i'm not able to get back to work. i shall never do any good research again. that's the real trouble, marjorie, and it makes all the difference. as for politics----i can't touch politics. i despise politics. i think this empire and the monarchy and lords and commons and patriotism and social reform and all the rest of it, silly, _silly_ beyond words; temporary, accidental, foolish, a mere stop-gap--like a gipsey's roundabout in a place where one will presently build a house.... you don't help make the house by riding on the roundabout.... there's no clear knowledge--no clear purpose.... only research matters--and expression perhaps--i suppose expression is a sort of research--until we get that--that sufficient knowledge. and you see, i can't take up my work again. i've lost something...." she waited. "i've got into this stupid struggle for winning money," he went on, "and i feel like a woman must feel who's made a success of prostitution. i've been prostituted. i feel like some one fallen and diseased.... business and prostitution; they're the same thing. all business is a sort of prostitution, all prostitution is a sort of business. why should one sell one's brains any more than one sells one's body?... it's so easy to succeed if one has good brains and cares to do it, and doesn't let one's attention or imagination wander--and it's so degrading. hopelessly degrading.... i'm sick of this life, marjorie. _i_ don't want to buy things. i'm sick of buying. i'm at an end. i'm clean at an end. it's exactly as though suddenly in walking through a great house one came on a passage that ended abruptly in a door, which opened--on nothing! nothing!" "this is a mood," she whispered to his pause. "it isn't a mood, it's a fact.... i've got nothing ahead, and i don't know how to get back. my life's no good to me any more. i've spent myself." she looked at him with dismayed eyes. "but," she said, "this _is_ a mood." "no," he said, "no mood, but conviction. i _know_...." he started. the car had stopped at their house, and malcolm was opening the door of the car. they descended silently, and went upstairs in silence. he came into her room presently and sat down by her fireside. she had gone to her dressing-table and unfastened a necklace; now with this winking and glittering in her hand she came and stood beside him. "rag," she said, "i don't know what to say. this isn't so much of a surprise.... i _felt_ that somehow life was disappointing you, that i was disappointing you. i've felt it endless times, but more so lately. i haven't perhaps dared to let myself know just how much.... but isn't it what life is? doesn't every wife disappoint her husband? we're none of us inexhaustible. after all, we've had a good time; isn't it a little ungrateful to forget?..." "look here, rag," she said. "i don't know what to do. if i did know, i would do it.... what are we to do?" "think," he suggested. "we've got to live as well as think." "it's the immense troublesome futility of--everything," he said. "well--let us cease to be futile. let us _do_. you say there is no grip for you in research, that you despise politics.... there's no end of trouble and suffering. cannot we do social work, social reform, change the lives of others less fortunate than ourselves...." "who are we that we should tamper with the lives of others?" "but one must do something." he thought that over. "no," he said "that's the universal blunder nowadays. one must do the right thing. and we don't know the right thing, marjorie. that's the very heart of the trouble.... does this life satisfy _you?_ if it did would you always be so restless?..." "but," she said, "think of the good things in life?" "it's just the good, the exquisite things in life, that make me rebel against this life we are leading. it's because i've seen the streaks of gold that i know the rest for dirt. when i go cheating and scheming to my office, and come back to find you squandering yourself upon a horde of chattering, overdressed women, when i think that that is our substance and everyday and what we are, then it is i remember most the deep and beautiful things.... it is impossible, dear, it is intolerable that life was made beautiful for us--just for these vulgarities." "isn't there----" she hesitated. "love--still?" "but----has it been love? love is a thing that grows. but we took it--as people take flowers out of a garden, cut them off, put them in water.... how much of our daily life has been love? how much of it mere consequences of the love we've left behind us?... we've just cohabited and 'made love'--you and i--and thought of a thousand other things...." he looked up at her. "oh, i love a thousand things about you," he said. "but do i love _you_, marjorie? have i got you? haven't i lost you--haven't we both lost something, the very heart of it all? do you think that we were just cheated by instinct, that there wasn't something in it we felt and thought was there? and where is it now? where is that brightness and wonder, marjorie, and the pride and the immense unlimited hope?" she was still for a moment, then knelt very swiftly before him and held out her arms. "oh rag!" she said, with a face of tender beauty. he took her finger tips in his, dropped them and stood up above her. "my dear," he cried, "my dear! why do you always want to turn love into--touches?... stand up again. stand up there, my dear; don't think i've ceased to love you, but stand up there and let me talk to you as one man to another. if we let this occasion slide to embraces...." he stopped short. she crouched before the fire at his feet. "go on," she said, "go on." "i feel now that all our lives now, marjorie----we have come to a crisis. i feel that now----_now_ is the time. either we shall save ourselves now or we shall never save ourselves. it is as if something had gathered and accumulated and could wait no longer. if we do not seize this opportunity----then our lives will go on as they have gone on, will become more and more a matter of small excitements and elaborate comforts and distraction...." he stopped this halting speech and then broke out again. "oh! why _should_ the life of every day conquer us? why should generation after generation of men have these fine beginnings, these splendid dreams of youth, attempt so much, achieve so much and then, then become--_this!_ look at this room, this litter of little satisfactions! look at your pretty books there, a hundred minds you have pecked at, bright things of the spirit that attracted you as jewels attract a jackdaw. look at the glass and silver, and that silk from china! and we are in the full tide of our years, marjorie. now is the very crown and best of our lives. and this is what we do, we sample, we accumulate. for this we loved, for this we hoped. do you remember when we were young--that life seemed so splendid--it was intolerable we should ever die?... the splendid dream! the intimations of greatness!... the miserable failure!" he raised clenched fists. "i won't stand it, marjorie. i won't endure it. somehow, in some way, i will get out of this life--and you with me. i have been brooding upon this and brooding, but now i know...." "but how?" asked marjorie, with her bare arms about her knees, staring into the fire. "_how?_" "we must get out of its constant interruptions, its incessant vivid, petty appeals...." "we might go away--to switzerland." "we _went_ to switzerland. didn't we agree--it was our second honeymoon. it isn't a honeymoon we need. no, we'll have to go further than that." a sudden light broke upon marjorie's mind. she realized he had a plan. she lifted a fire-lit face to him and looked at him with steady eyes and asked---- "where?" "ever so much further." "where?" "i don't know." "you do. you've planned something." "i don't know, marjorie. at least--i haven't made up my mind. where it is very lonely. cold and remote. away from all this----" his mind stopped short, and he ended with a cry: "oh! god! how i want to get out of all this!" he sat down in her arm-chair, and bowed his face on his hands. then abruptly he stood up and went out of the room. § when in five minutes' time he came back into her room she was still upon her hearthrug before the fire, with her necklace in her hand, the red reflections of the flames glowing and winking in her jewels and in her eyes. he came and sat again in her chair. "i have been ranting," he said. "i feel i've been--eloquent. you make me feel like an actor-manager, in a play by capes.... you are the most difficult person for me to talk to in all the world--because you mean so much to me." she moved impulsively and checked herself and crouched away from him. "i mustn't touch your hand," she whispered. "i want to explain." "you've got to explain." "i've got quite a definite plan.... but a sort of terror seized me. it was like--shyness." "i know. i knew you had a plan." "you see.... i mean to go to labrador." he leant forward with his elbows on his knees and his hands extended, explanatory. he wanted intensely that she should understand and agree and his desire made him clumsy, now slow and awkward, now glibly and unsatisfyingly eloquent. but she comprehended his quality better than he knew. they were to go away to labrador, this snowy desert of which she had scarcely heard, to camp in the very heart of the wilderness, two hundred miles or more from any human habitation---- "but how long?" she asked abruptly. "the better part of a year." "and we are to talk?" "yes," he said, "talk and think ourselves together--oh!--the old phrases carry it all--find god...." "it is what i dreamt of, rag, years ago." "will you come," he cried, "out of all this?" she leant across the hearthrug, and seized and kissed his hand.... then, with one of those swift changes of hers, she was in revolt. "but, rag," she exclaimed, "this is dreaming. we are not free. there are the children! rag! we cannot leave the children!" "we can," he said. "we must." "but, my dear!--our duty!" "_is_ it a mother's duty always to keep with her children? they will be looked after, their lives are organized, there is my mother close at hand.... what is the good of having children at all--unless their world is to be better than our world?... what are we doing to save them from the same bathos as this--to which we have come? we give them food and health and pictures and lessons, that's all very well while they are just little children; but we've got no religion to give them, no aim, no sense of a general purpose. what is the good of bread and health--and no worship?... what can we say to them when they ask us why we brought them into the world?--_we_ happened--_you_ happened. what are we to tell them when they demand the purpose of all this training, all these lessons? when they ask what we are preparing them for? just that _you_, too, may have children! is that any answer? marjorie, it's common-sense to try this over--to make this last supreme effort--just as it will be common-sense to separate if we can't get the puzzle solved together." "separate!" "separate. why not? we can afford it. of course, we shall separate." "but rag!--separate!" he faced her protest squarely. "life is not worth living," he said, "unless it has more to hold it together than ours has now. if we cannot escape together, then--_i will go alone_."... § they parted that night resolved to go to labrador together, with the broad outline of their subsequent journey already drawn. each lay awake far into the small hours thinking of this purpose and of one another, with a strange sense of renewed association. each woke to a morning of sunshine heavy-eyed. each found that overnight decision remote and incredible. it was like something in a book or a play that had moved them very deeply. they came down to breakfast, and helped themselves after the wonted fashion of several years, marjorie with a skilful eye to the large order of her household; the _times_ had one or two characteristic letters which interested them both; there was the usual picturesque irruption of the children and a distribution of early strawberries among them. trafford had two notes in his correspondence which threw a new light upon the reconstruction of the norton-batsford company in which he was interested; he formed a definite conclusion upon the situation, and went quite normally to his study and the telephone to act upon that. it was only as the morning wore on that it became real to him that he and marjorie had decided to leave the world. then, with the norton-batsford business settled, he sat at his desk and mused. his apathy passed. his imagination began to present first one picture and then another of his retreat. he walked along oxford street to his club thinking--"soon we shall be out of all this." by the time he was at lunch in his club, labrador had become again the magic refuge it had seemed the day before. after lunch he went to work in the library, finding out books about labrador, and looking up the details of the journey. but his sense of futility and hopeless oppression had vanished. he walked along the corridor and down the great staircase, and without a trace of the despairful hostility of the previous day, passed blenkins, talking grey bosh with infinite thoughtfulness. he nodded easily to blenkins. he was going out of it all, as a man might do who discovers after years of weary incarceration that the walls of his cell are made of thin paper. the time when blenkins seemed part of a prison-house of routine and invincible stupidity seemed ten ages ago. in pall mall trafford remarked lady grampians and the countess of claridge, two women of great influence, in a big green car, on the way no doubt to create or sustain or destroy; and it seemed to him that it was limitless ages since these poor old dears with their ridiculous hats and their ridiculous airs, their luncheons and dinners and dirty aggressive old minds, had sent tidal waves of competitive anxiety into his home.... he found himself jostling through the shopping crowd on the sunny side of regent street. he felt now that he looked over the swarming, preoccupied heads at distant things. he and marjorie were going out of it all, going clean out of it all. they were going to escape from society and shopping, and petty engagements and incessant triviality--as a bird flies up out of weeds. § but marjorie fluctuated more than he did. there were times when the expedition for which he was now preparing rapidly and methodically seemed to her the most adventurously-beautiful thing that had ever come to her, and times when it seemed the maddest and most hopeless of eccentricities. there were times when she had devastating premonitions of filth, hunger, strain and fatigue, damp and cold, when her whole being recoiled from the project, when she could even think of staying secure in london and letting him go alone. she developed complicated anxieties for the children; she found reasons for further inquiries, for delay. "why not," she suggested, "wait a year?" "no," he said, "i won't. i mean we are to do this, and do it now, and nothing but sheer physical inability to do it will prevent my carrying it out.... and you? of course you are to come. i can't drag you shrieking all the way to labrador; short of that i'm going to _make_ you come with me." she sat and looked up at him with dark lights in her upturned eyes, and a little added warmth in her cheek. "you've never forced my will like this before," she said, in a low voice. "never." he was too intent upon his own resolve to heed her tones. "it hasn't seemed necessary somehow," he said, considering her statement. "now it does." "this is something final," she said. "it is final." she found an old familiar phrasing running through her head, as she sat crouched together, looking up at his rather gaunt, very intent face, the speech of another woman echoing to her across a vast space of years: "whither thou goest i will go----" "in labrador," he began.... chapter the third the pilgrimage to lonely hut § marjorie was surprised to find how easy it was at last to part from her children and go with trafford. "i am not sorry," she said, "not a bit sorry--but i am fearfully afraid. i shall dream they are ill.... apart from that, it's strange how you grip me and they don't...." in the train to liverpool she watched trafford with the queer feeling which comes to all husbands and wives at times that that other partner is indeed an undiscovered stranger, just beginning to show perplexing traits,--full of inconceivable possibilities. for some reason his tearing her up by the roots in this fashion had fascinated her imagination. she felt a strange new wonder at him that had in it just a pleasant faint flavour of fear. always before she had felt a curious aversion and contempt for those servile women who are said to seek a master, to want to be mastered, to be eager even for the physical subjugations of brute force. now she could at least understand, sympathize even with them. not only trafford surprised her but herself. she found she was in an unwonted perplexing series of moods. all her feelings struck her now as being incorrect as well as unexpected; not only had life become suddenly full of novelty but she was making novel responses. she felt that she ought to be resentful and tragically sorry for her home and children. she felt this departure ought to have the quality of an immense sacrifice, a desperate and heroic undertaking for trafford's sake. instead she could detect little beyond an adventurous exhilaration when presently she walked the deck of the steamer that was to take her to st. john's. she had visited her cabin, seen her luggage stowed away, and now she surveyed the mersey and its shipping with a renewed freshness of mind. she was reminded of the day, now nearly nine years ago, when she had crossed the sea for the first time--to italy. then, too, trafford had seemed a being of infinitely wonderful possibilities.... what were the children doing?--that ought to have been her preoccupation. she didn't know; she didn't care! trafford came and stood beside her, pointed out this and that upon the landing stage, no longer heavily sullen, but alert, interested, almost gay.... neither of them could find any way to the great discussion they had set out upon, in this voyage to st. john's. but there was plenty of time before them. plenty of time! they were both the prey of that uneasy distraction which seems the inevitable quality of a passenger steamship. they surveyed and criticized their fellow travellers, and prowled up and down through the long swaying days and the cold dark nights. they slept uneasily amidst fog-horn hootings and the startling sounds of waves swirling against the ports. marjorie had never had a long sea voyage before; for the first time in her life she saw all the world, through a succession of days, as a circle of endless blue waters, with the stars and planets and sun and moon rising sharply from its rim. until one has had a voyage no one really understands that old earth is a watery globe.... they ran into thirty hours of storm, which subsided, and then came a slow time among icebergs, and a hooting, dreary passage through fog. the first three icebergs were marvels, the rest bores; a passing collier out of her course and pitching heavily, a lonely black and dirty ship with a manner almost derelict, filled their thoughts for half a day. their minds were in a state of tedious inactivity, eager for such small interests and only capable of such small interests. there was no hurry to talk, they agreed, no hurry at all, until they were settled away ahead there among the snows. "there we shall have plenty of time for everything...." came the landfall and then st. john's, and they found themselves side by side watching the town draw near. the thought of landing and transference to another ship refreshed them both.... they were going, trafford said, in search of god, but it was far more like two children starting out upon a holiday. § there was trouble and procrastination about the half-breed guides that trafford had arranged should meet them at st. john's, and it was three weeks from their reaching newfoundland before they got themselves and their guides and equipment and general stores aboard the boat for port dupré. thence he had planned they should go in the gibson schooner to manivikovik, the marconi station at the mouth of the green river, and thence past the new pulp-mills up river to the wilderness. there were delays and a few trivial, troublesome complications in carrying out this scheme, but at last a day came when trafford could wave good-bye to the seven people and eleven dogs which constituted the population of peter hammond's, that last rude outpost of civilization twenty miles above the pulp-mill, and turn his face in good earnest towards the wilderness. neither he nor marjorie looked back at the headland for a last glimpse of the little settlement they were leaving. each stared ahead over the broad, smooth sweep of water, broken by one transverse bar of foaming shallows, and scanned the low, tree-clad hills beyond that drew together at last in the distant gorge out of which the river came. the morning was warm and full of the promise of a hot noon, so that the veils they wore against the assaults of sand-flies and mosquitoes were already a little inconvenient. it seemed incredible in this morning glow that the wooded slopes along the shore of the lake were the border of a land in which nearly half the inhabitants die of starvation. the deep-laden canoes swept almost noiselessly through the water with a rhythmic alternation of rush and pause as the dripping paddles drove and returned. altogether there were four long canoes and five indian breeds in their party, and when they came to pass through shallows both marjorie and trafford took a paddle. they came to the throat of the gorge towards noon, and found strong flowing deep water between its high purple cliffs. all hands had to paddle again, and it was only when they came to rest in a pool to eat a mid-day meal and afterwards to land upon a mossy corner for a stretch and a smoke, that marjorie discovered the peculiar beauty of the rock about them. on the dull purplish-grey surfaces played the most extraordinary mist of luminous iridescence. it fascinated her. here was a land whose common substance had this gemlike opalescence. but her attention was very soon withdrawn from these glancing splendours. she had had to put aside her veil to eat, and presently she felt the vividly painful stabs of the black-fly and discovered blood upon her face. a bigger fly, the size and something of the appearance of a small wasp, with an evil buzz, also assailed her and trafford. it was a bad corner for flies; the breeds even were slapping their wrists and swearing under the torment, and every one was glad to embark and push on up the winding gorge. it opened out for a time, and then the wooded shores crept in again, and in another half-hour they saw ahead of them a long rush of foaming waters among tumbled rocks that poured down from a brimming, splashing line of light against the sky. they crossed the river, ran the canoes into an eddy under the shelter of a big stone and began to unload. they had reached their first portage. the rest of the first day was spent in packing and lugging first the cargoes and then the canoes up through thickets and over boulders and across stretches of reindeer moss for the better part of two miles to a camping ground about half-way up the rapids. marjorie and trafford tried to help with the carrying, but this evidently shocked and distressed the men too much, so they desisted and set to work cutting wood and gathering moss for the fires and bedding for the camp. when the iron stove was brought up the man who had carried it showed them how to put it up on stakes and start a fire in it, and then trafford went to the river to get water, and marjorie made a kind of flour cake in the frying-pan in the manner an american woman from the wilderness had once shown her, and boiled water for tea. the twilight had deepened to night while the men were still stumbling up the trail with the last two canoes. it gave marjorie a curiously homeless feeling to stand there in the open with the sunset dying away below the black scrubby outlines of the treetops uphill to the northwest, and to realize the nearest roof was already a day's toilsome journey away. the cool night breeze blew upon her bare face and arms--for now the insects had ceased from troubling and she had cast aside gloves and veil and turned up her sleeves to cook--and the air was full of the tumult of the rapids tearing seaward over the rocks below. struggling through the bushes towards her was an immense, headless quadruped with unsteady legs and hesitating paces, two of the men carrying the last canoe. two others were now assisting trafford to put up the little tent that was to shelter her, and the fifth was kneeling beside her very solemnly and respectfully cutting slices of bacon for her to fry. the air was very sweet, and she wished she could sleep not in the tent but under the open sky. it was queer, she thought, how much of the wrappings of civilization had slipped from them already. every day of the journey from london had released them or deprived them--she hardly knew which--of a multitude of petty comforts and easy accessibilities. the afternoon toil uphill intensified the effect of having clambered up out of things--to this loneliness, this twilight openness, this simplicity. the men ate apart at a fire they made for themselves, and after trafford and marjorie had supped on damper, bacon and tea, he smoked. they were both too healthily tired to talk very much. there was no moon but a frosty brilliance of stars, the air which had been hot and sultry at mid-day grew keen and penetrating, and after she had made him tell her the names of constellations she had forgotten, she suddenly perceived the wisdom of the tent, went into it--it was sweet and wonderful with sprigs of the labrador tea-shrub--undressed, and had hardly rolled herself up into a cocoon of blankets before she was fast asleep. she was awakened by a blaze of sunshine pouring into the tent, a smell of fried bacon and trafford's voice telling her to get up. "they've gone on with the first loads," he said. "get up, wrap yourself in a blanket, and come and bathe in the river. it's as cold as ice." she blinked at him. "aren't you stiff?" she asked. "i was stiffer before i bathed," he said. she took the tin he offered her. (they weren't to see china cups again for a year.) "it's woman's work getting tea," she said as she drank. "you can't be a squaw all at once," said trafford. § after marjorie had taken her dip, dried roughly behind a bush, twisted her hair into a pigtail and coiled it under her hat, she amused herself and trafford as they clambered up through rocks and willows to the tent again by cataloguing her apparatus of bath and toilette at sussex square and tracing just when and how she had parted from each item on the way to this place. "but i _say!_" she cried, with a sudden, sharp note of dismay, "we haven't soap! this is our last cake almost. i never thought of soap." "nor i," said trafford. he spoke again presently. "we don't turn back for soap," he said. "we don't turn back for anything," said marjorie. "still--i didn't count on a soapless winter." "i'll manage something," said trafford, a little doubtfully. "trust a chemist...." that day they finished the portage and came out upon a wide lake with sloping shores and a distant view of snow-topped mountains, a lake so shallow that at times their loaded canoes scraped on the glaciated rock below and they had to alter their course. they camped in a lurid sunset; the night was warm and mosquitoes were troublesome, and towards morning came a thunderstorm and wind and rain. the dawn broke upon a tearing race of waves and a wild drift of slanting rain sweeping across the lake before a gale. marjorie peered out at this as one peers out under the edge of an umbrella. it was manifestly impossible to go on, and they did nothing that day but run up a canvas shelter for the men and shift the tent behind a thicket of trees out of the full force of the wind. the men squatted stoically, and smoked and yarned. everything got coldly wet, and for the most part the traffords sat under the tent and stared blankly at this summer day in labrador. "now," said trafford, "we ought to begin talking." "there's nothing much to do else," said marjorie. "only one can't begin," said trafford. he was silent for a time. "we're getting out of things," he said.... the next day began with a fine drizzle through which the sun broke suddenly about ten o'clock. they made a start at once, and got a good dozen miles up the lake before it was necessary to camp again. both marjorie and trafford felt stiff and weary and uncomfortable all day, and secretly a little doubtful now of their own endurance. they camped on an island on turf amidst slippery rocks, and the next day were in a foaming difficult river again, with glittering shallows that obliged every one to get out at times to wade and push. all through the afternoon they were greatly beset by flies. and so they worked their way on through a third days' journey towards the silent inland of labrador. day followed day of toilsome and often tedious travel; they fought rapids, they waited while the men stumbled up long portages under vast loads, going and returning, they camped and discussed difficulties and alternatives. the flies sustained an unrelenting persecution, until faces were scarred in spite of veils and smoke fires, until wrists and necks were swollen and the blood in a fever. as they got higher and higher towards the central plateau, the mid-day heat increased and the nights grew colder, until they would find themselves toiling, wet with perspiration, over rocks that sheltered a fringe of ice beneath their shadows. the first fatigues and lassitudes, the shrinking from cold water, the ache of muscular effort, gave place to a tougher and tougher endurance; skin seemed to have lost half its capacity for pain without losing a tithe of its discrimination, muscles attained a steely resilience; they were getting seasoned. "i don't feel philosophical," said trafford, "but i feel well." "we're getting out of things." "suppose we are getting out of our problems!..." one day as they paddled across a mile-long pool, they saw three bears prowling in single file high up on the hillside. "look," said the man, and pointed with his paddle at the big, soft, furry black shapes, magnified and startling in the clear air. all the canoes rippled to a stop, the men, at first still, whispered softly. one passed a gun to trafford, who hesitated and looked at marjorie. the air of tranquil assurance about these three huge loafing monsters had a queer effect on marjorie's mind. they made her feel that they were at home and that she was an intruder. she had never in her life seen any big wild animals except in a menagerie. she had developed a sort of unconscious belief that all big wild animals were in menageries nowadays, and this spectacle of beasts entirely at large startled her. there was never a bar between these creatures, she felt, and her sleeping self. they might, she thought, do any desperate thing to feeble men and women who came their way. "shall i take a shot?" asked trafford. "no," said marjorie, pervaded by the desire for mutual toleration. "let them be." the big brutes disappeared in a gully, reappeared, came out against the skyline one by one and vanished. "too long a shot," said trafford, handing back the gun.... their journey lasted altogether a month. never once did they come upon any human being save themselves, though in one place they passed the poles--for the most part overthrown--of an old indian encampment. but this desolation was by no means lifeless. they saw great quantities of waterbirds, geese, divers, arctic partridge and the like, they became familiar with the banshee cry of the loon. they lived very largely on geese and partridge. then for a time about a string of lakes, the country was alive with migrating deer going south, and the men found traces of a wolf. they killed six caribou, and stayed to skin and cut them up and dry the meat to replace the bacon they had consumed, caught, fried and ate great quantities of trout, and became accustomed to the mysterious dance of the northern lights as the sunset afterglow faded. everywhere, except in the river gorges, the country displayed the low hummocky lines and tarn-like pools of intensely glaciated land; everywhere it was carpeted with reindeer moss growing upon peat and variegated by bushes of flowering, sweet-smelling labrador tea. in places this was starred with little harebells and diversified by tussocks of heather and rough grass, and over the rocks trailed delicate dwarf shrubs and a very pretty and fragrant pink-flowered plant of which neither she nor trafford knew the name. there was an astonishing amount of wild fruit, raspberries, cranberries, and a white kind of strawberry that was very delightful. the weather, after its first outbreak, remained brightly serene.... and at last it seemed fit to trafford to halt and choose his winter quarters. he chose a place on the side of a low, razor-hacked rocky mountain ridge, about fifty feet above the river--which had now dwindled to a thirty-foot stream. his site was near a tributary rivulet that gave convenient water, in a kind of lap that sheltered between two rocky knees, each bearing thickets of willow and balsam. not a dozen miles away from them now they reckoned was the height of land, the low watershed between the waters that go to the atlantic and those that go to hudson's bay. close beside the site he had chosen a shelf of rock ran out and gave a glimpse up the narrow rocky valley of the green river's upper waters and a broad prospect of hill and tarn towards the south-east. north and north-east of them the country rose to a line of low crests, with here and there a yellowing patch of last year's snow, and across the valley were slopes covered in places by woods of stunted pine. it had an empty spaciousness of effect; the one continually living thing seemed to be the green river, hurrying headlong, noisily, perpetually, in an eternal flight from this high desolation. birds were rare here, and the insects that buzzed and shrilled and tormented among the rocks and willows in the gorge came but sparingly up the slopes to them. "here presently," said trafford, "we shall be in peace." "it is very lonely," said marjorie. "the nearer to god." "think! not one of these hills has ever had a name." "well?" "it might be in some other planet." "oh!--we'll christen them. that shall be marjorie ridge, and that rag valley. this space shall be--oh! bayswater! before we've done with it, this place and every feature of it will be as familiar as sussex square. more so,--for half the houses there would be stranger to us, if we could see inside them, than anything in this wilderness.... as familiar, say--as your drawing-room. that's better." marjorie made no answer, but her eyes went from the reindeer moss and scrub and thickets of the foreground to the low rocky ridges that bounded the view north and east of them. the scattered boulders, the tangles of wood, the barren upper slopes, the dust-soiled survivals of the winter's snowfall, all contributed to an effect at once carelessly desert and hopelessly untidy. she looked westward, and her memory was full of interminable streaming rapids, wastes of ice-striated rocks, tiresome struggles through woods and wild, wide stretches of tundra and tarn, trackless and treeless, infinitely desolate. it seemed to her that the sea coast was but a step from london and ten thousand miles away from her. § the men had engaged to build the framework of hut and store shed before returning, and to this under trafford's direction they now set themselves. they were all half-breeds, mingling with indian with scottish or french blood, sober and experienced men. three were named mackenzie, two brothers and a cousin, and another, raymond noyes, was a relation and acquaintance of that george elson who was with wallace and leonidas hubbard, and afterwards guided mrs. hubbard in her crossing of labrador. the fifth was a boy of eighteen named lean. they were all familiar with the idea of summer travel in this country; quite a number, a score or so that is to say, of adventurous people, including three or four women, had ventured far in the wake of the hubbards into these great wildernesses during the decade that followed that first tragic experiment in which hubbard died. but that any one not of indian or esquimaux blood should propose to face out the labrador winter was a new thing to them. they were really very sceptical at the outset whether these two highly civilized-looking people would ever get up to the height of land at all, and it was still with manifest incredulity that they set about the building of the hut and the construction of the sleeping bunks for which they had brought up planking. a stream of speculative talk had flowed along beside marjorie and trafford ever since they had entered the green river; and it didn't so much come to an end as get cut off at last by the necessity of their departure. noyes would stand, holding a hammer and staring at the narrow little berth he was fixing together. "you'll not sleep in this," he said. "i will," replied marjorie. "you'll come back with us." "not me." "there'll be wolves come and howl." "let 'em." "they'll come right up to the door here. winter makes 'em hidjus bold." marjorie shrugged her shoulders. "it's that cold i've known a man have his nose froze while he lay in bed," said noyes. "up here?" "down the coast. but they say it's 'most as cold up here. many's the man it's starved and froze."... he and his companions told stories,--very circumstantial and pitiful stories, of indian disasters. they were all tales of weariness and starvation, of the cessation of food, because the fishing gave out, because the caribou did not migrate by the customary route, because the man of a family group broke his wrist, and then of the start of all or some of the party to the coast to get help and provisions, of the straining, starving fugitives caught by blizzards, losing the track, devouring small vermin raw, gnawing their own skin garments until they toiled half-naked in the snow,--becoming cannibals, becoming delirious, lying down to die. once there was an epidemic of influenza, and three families of seven and twenty people just gave up and starved and died in their lodges, and were found, still partly frozen, a patient, pitiful company, by trappers in the spring.... such they said, were the common things that happened in a labrador winter. did the traffords wish to run such risks? a sort of propagandist enthusiasm grew up in the men. they felt it incumbent upon them to persuade the traffords to return. they reasoned with them rather as one does with wilful children. they tried to remind them of the delights and securities of the world they were deserting. noyes drew fancy pictures of the pleasures of london by way of contrast to the bitter days before them. "you've got everything there, everything. suppose you feel a bit ill, you go out, and every block there's a drug store got everything--all the new rem'dies--p'raps twenty, thirty sorts of rem'dy. lit up, nice. and chaps in collars--like gentlemen. or you feel a bit dully and you go into the streets and there's people. why! when i was in new york i used to spend hours looking at the people. hours! and everything lit up, too. sky signs! readin' everywhere. you can spend hours and hours in new york----" "london," said marjorie. "well, london--just going about and reading the things they stick up. every blamed sort of thing. or you say, let's go somewhere. let's go out and be a bit lively. see? up you get on a car and there you are! great big restaurants, blazing with lights, and you can't think of a thing to eat they haven't got. waiters all round you, dressed tremendous, fair asking you to have more. or you say, let's go to a theatre. very likely," said noyes, letting his imagination soar, "you order up one of these automobillies." "by telephone," helped trafford. "by telephone," confirmed noyes. "when i was in new york there was a telephone in each room in the hotel. each room. i didn't use it ever, except once when they didn't answer--but there it was. i know about telephones all right...." why had they come here? none of the men were clear about that. marjorie and trafford would overhear them discussing this question at their fire night after night; they seemed to talk of nothing else. they indulged in the boldest hypotheses, even in the theory that trafford knew of deposits of diamonds and gold, and would trust no one but his wife with the secret. they seemed also attracted by the idea that our two young people had "done something." lean, with memories of some tattered sixpenny novel that had drifted into his hands from england, had even some notion of an elopement, of a pursuing husband or a vindictive wife. he was young and romantic, but it seemed incredible he should suggest that marjorie was a royal princess. yet there were moments when his manner betrayed a more than personal respect.... one night after a hard day's portage mackenzie was inspired by a brilliant idea. "they got no children," he said, in a hoarse, exceptionally audible whisper. "it worries them. them as is catholics goes pilgrimages, but these ain't catholics. see?" "i can't stand that," said marjorie. "it touches my pride. i've stood a good deal. mr. mackenzie!... mr.... mackenzie." the voice at the men's fire stopped and a black head turned around. "what is it, mrs. trafford?" asked mackenzie. she held up four fingers. "four!" she said. "eh?" "three sons and a daughter," said marjorie. mackenzie did not take it in until his younger brother had repeated her words. "and you've come from them to _this_.... sir, what _have_ you come for?" "we want to be here," shouted trafford to their listening pause. their silence was incredulous. "we wanted to be alone together. there was too much--over there--too much everything." mackenzie, in silhouette against the fire, shook his head, entirely dissatisfied. he could not understand how there could be too much of anything. it was beyond a trapper's philosophy. "come back with us sir," said noyes. "you'll weary of it...." noyes clung to the idea of dissuasion to the end. "i don't care to leave ye," he said, and made a sort of byword of it that served when there was nothing else to say. he made it almost his last words. he turned back for another handclasp as the others under their light returning packs were filing down the hill. "i don't care to leave ye," he said. "good luck!" said trafford. "you'll need it," said noyes, and looked at marjorie very gravely and intently before he turned about and marched off after his fellows.... both marjorie and trafford felt a queer emotion, a sense of loss and desertion, a swelling in the throat, as that file of men receded over the rocky slopes, went down into a dip, reappeared presently small and remote cresting another spur, going on towards the little wood that hid the head of the rapids. they halted for a moment on the edge of the wood and looked back, then turned again one by one and melted stride by stride into the trees. noyes was the last to go. he stood, in an attitude that spoke as plainly as words, "i don't care to leave ye." something white waved and flickered; he had whipped out the letters they had given him for england, and he was waving them. then, as if by an effort, he set himself to follow the others, and the two still watchers on the height above saw him no more. chapter the fourth lonely hut § marjorie and trafford walked slowly back to the hut. "there is much to do before the weather breaks," he said, ending a thoughtful silence. "then we can sit inside there and talk about the things we need to talk about." he added awkwardly: "since we started, there has been so much to hold the attention. i remember a mood--an immense despair. i feel it's still somewhere at the back of things, waiting to be dealt with. it's our essential fact. but meanwhile we've been busy, looking at fresh things." he paused. "now it will be different perhaps...." for nearly four weeks indeed they were occupied very closely, and crept into their bunks at night as tired as wholesome animals who drop to sleep. at any time the weather might break; already there had been two overcast days and a frowning conference of clouds in the north. when at last storms began they knew there would be nothing for it but to keep in the hut until the world froze up. there was much to do to the hut. the absence of anything but stunted and impoverished timber and the limitation of time, had forbidden a log hut, and their home was really only a double framework, rammed tight between inner and outer frame with a mixture of earth and boughs and twigs of willow, pine and balsam. the floor was hammered earth carpeted with balsam twigs and a caribou skin. outside and within wall and roof were faced with coarse canvas--that was trafford's idea--and their bunks occupied two sides of the hut. heating was done by the sheet-iron stove they had brought with them, and the smoke was carried out to the roof by a thin sheet-iron pipe which had come up outside a roll of canvas. they had made the roof with about the pitch of a swiss châlet, and it was covered with nailed waterproof canvas, held down by a large number of big lumps of stone. much of the canvassing still remained to do when the men went down, and then the traffords used every scrap of packing-paper and newspaper that had come up with them and was not needed for lining the bunks in covering any crack or join in the canvas wall. two decadent luxuries, a rubber bath and two rubber hot-water bottles, hung behind the door. they were almost the only luxuries. kettles and pans and some provisions stood on a shelf over the stove; there was also a sort of recess cupboard in the opposite corner, reserve clothes were in canvas trunks under the bunks, they kept their immediate supply of wood under the eaves just outside the door, and there was a big can of water between stove and door. when the winter came they would have to bring in ice from the stream. this was their home. the tent that had sheltered marjorie on the way up was erected close to this hut to serve as a rude scullery and outhouse, and they also made a long, roughly thatched roof with a canvas cover, supported on stakes, to shelter the rest of the stores. the stuff in tins and cases and jars they left on the ground under this; the rest--the flour, candles, bacon, dried caribou beef, and so forth, they hung, as they hoped, out of the reach of any prowling beast. and finally and most important was the wood pile. this they accumulated to the north and east of the hut, and all day long with a sort of ant-like perseverance trafford added to it from the thickets below. once or twice, however, tempted by the appearance of birds, he went shooting, and one day he got five geese that they spent a day upon, plucking, cleaning, boiling and putting up in all their store of empty cans, letting the fat float and solidify on the top to preserve this addition to their provision until the advent of the frost rendered all other preservatives unnecessary. they also tried to catch trout down in the river below, but though they saw many fish the catch was less than a dozen. it was a discovery to both of them to find how companionable these occupations were, how much more side by side they could be amateurishly cleaning out a goose and disputing about its cooking, than they had ever contrived to be in sussex square. "these things are so infernally interesting," said trafford, surveying the row of miscellaneous cans upon the stove he had packed with disarticulated goose. "but we didn't come here to picnic. all this is eating us up. i have a memory of some immense tragic purpose----" "that tin's _boiling!_" screamed marjorie sharply. he resumed his thread after an active interlude. "we'll keep the wolf from the door," he said. "don't talk of wolves!" said marjorie. "it is only when men have driven away the wolf from the door--oh! altogether away, that they find despair in the sky? i wonder----" "what?" asked marjorie in his pause. "i wonder if there is nothing really in life but this, the food hunt and the love hunt. is life just all hunger and need, and are we left with nothing--nothing at all--when these things are done?... we're infernally uncomfortable here." "oh, nonsense!" cried marjorie. "think of your carpets at home! think of the great, warm, beautiful house that wasn't big enough!--and yet here, we're happy." "we _are_ happy," said marjorie, struck by the thought. "only----" "yes." "i'm afraid. and i long for the children. and the wind _nips_." "it may be those are good things for us. no! this is just a lark as yet, marjorie. it's still fresh and full of distractions. the discomforts are amusing. presently we'll get used to it. then we'll talk out--what we have to talk out.... i say, wouldn't it keep and improve this goose of ours if we put in a little brandy?" § the weather broke at last. one might say it smashed itself over their heads. there came an afternoon darkness swift and sudden, a wild gale and an icy sleet that gave place in the night to snow, so that trafford looked out next morning to see a maddening chaos of small white flakes, incredibly swift, against something that was neither darkness nor light. even with the door but partly ajar a cruelty of cold put its claw within, set everything that was moveable swaying and clattering, and made marjorie hasten shuddering to heap fresh logs upon the fire. once or twice trafford went out to inspect tent and roof and store-shed, several times wrapped to the nose he battled his way for fresh wood, and for the rest of the blizzard they kept to the hut. it was slumberously stuffy, but comfortingly full of flavours of tobacco and food. there were two days of intermission and a day of gusts and icy sleet again, turning with one extraordinary clap of thunder to a wild downpour of dancing lumps of ice, and then a night when it seemed all labrador, earth and sky together, was in hysterical protest against inconceivable wrongs. and then the break was over; the annual freezing-up was accomplished, winter had established itself, the snowfall moderated and ceased, and an ice-bound world shone white and sunlit under a cloudless sky. § through all that time they got no further with the great discussion for which they had faced that solitude. they attempted beginnings. "where had we got to when we left england?" cried marjorie. "you couldn't work, you couldn't rest--you hated our life." "yes, i know. i had a violent hatred of the lives we were leading. i thought--we had to get away. to think.... but things don't leave us alone here." he covered his face with his hands. "why did we come here?" he asked. "you wanted--to get out of things." "yes. but with you.... have we, after all, got out of things at all? i said coming up, perhaps we were leaving our own problem behind. in exchange for other problems--old problems men have had before. we've got nearer necessity; that's all. things press on us just as much. there's nothing more fundamental in wild nature, nothing profounder--only something earlier. one doesn't get out of life by going here or there.... but i wanted to get you away--from all things that had such a hold on you.... "when one lies awake at nights, then one seems to get down into things...." he went to the door, opened it, and stood looking out. against a wan daylight the snow was falling noiselessly and steadily. "everything goes on," he said.... "relentlessly...." § that was as far as they had got when the storms ceased and they came out again into an air inexpressibly fresh and sharp and sweet, and into a world blindingly clean and golden white under the rays of the morning sun. "we will build a fire out here," said marjorie; "make a great pile. there is no reason at all why we shouldn't live outside all through the day in such weather as this." § one morning trafford found the footmarks of some catlike creature in the snow near the bushes where he was accustomed to get firewood; they led away very plainly up the hill, and after breakfast he took his knife and rifle and snowshoes and went after the lynx--for that he decided the animal must be. there was no urgent reason why he should want to kill a lynx, unless perhaps that killing it made the store shed a trifle safer; but it was the first trail of any living thing for many days; it promised excitement; some primordial instinct perhaps urged him. the morning was a little overcast, and very cold between the gleams of wintry sunshine. "good-bye, dear wife!" he said, and then as she remembered afterwards came back a dozen yards to kiss her. "i'll not be long," he said. "the beast's prowling, and if it doesn't get wind of me i ought to find it in an hour." he hesitated for a moment. "i'll not be long," he repeated, and she had an instant's wonder whether he hid from her the same dread of loneliness that she concealed. or perhaps he only knew her secret. up among the tumbled rocks he turned, and she was still watching him. "good-bye!" he cried and waved, and the willow thickets closed about him. she forced herself to the petty duties of the day, made up the fire from the pile he had left for her, set water to boil, put the hut in order, brought out sheets and blankets to air and set herself to wash up. she wished she had been able to go with him. the sky cleared presently, and the low december sun lit all the world about her, but it left her spirit desolate. she did not expect him to return until mid-day, and she sat herself down on a log before the fire to darn a pair of socks as well as she could. for a time this unusual occupation held her attention and then her hands became slow and at last inactive, and she fell into reverie. she thought at first of her children and what they might be doing, in england across there to the east it would be about five hours later, four o'clock in the afternoon, and the children would be coming home through the warm muggy london sunshine with fraulein otto to tea. she wondered if they had the proper clothes, if they were well; were they perhaps quarrelling or being naughty or skylarking gaily across the park. of course fraulein otto was all right, quite to be trusted, absolutely trustworthy, and their grandmother would watch for a flushed face or an irrational petulance or any of the little signs that herald trouble with more than a mother's instinctive alertness. no need to worry about the children, no need whatever.... the world of london opened out behind these thoughts; it was so queer to think that she was in almost the same latitude as the busy bright traffic of the autumn season in kensington gore; that away there in ten thousand cleverly furnished drawing-rooms the ringing tea things were being set out for the rustling advent of smart callers and the quick leaping gossip. and there would be all sorts of cakes and little things; for a while her mind ran on cakes and little things, and she thought in particular whether it wasn't time to begin cooking.... not yet. what was it she had been thinking about? ah! the solomonsons and the capeses and the bernards and the carmels and the lees. would they talk of her and trafford? it would be strange to go back to it all. would they go back to it all? she found herself thinking intently of trafford. what a fine human being he was! and how touchingly human! the thoughts of his moments of irritation, his baffled silences, filled her with a wild passion of tenderness. she had disappointed him; all that life failed to satisfy him. dear master of her life! what was it he needed? she too wasn't satisfied with life, but while she had been able to assuage herself with a perpetual series of petty excitements, theatres, new books and new people, meetings, movements, dinners, shows, he had grown to an immense discontent. he had most of the things men sought, wealth, respect, love, children.... so many men might have blunted their heart-ache with--adventures. there were pretty women, clever women, unoccupied women. she felt she wouldn't have minded--_much_--if it made him happy.... it was so wonderful he loved her still.... it wasn't that he lacked occupation; on the whole he overworked. his business interests were big and wide. ought he to go into politics? why was it that the researches that had held him once, could hold him now no more? that was the real pity of it. was she to blame for that? she couldn't state a case against herself, and yet she felt she was to blame. she had taken him away from those things, forced him to make money.... she sat chin on hand staring into the fire, the sock forgotten on her knee. she could not weigh justice between herself and him. if he was unhappy it was her fault. she knew if he was unhappy it was no excuse that she had not known, had been misled, had a right to her own instincts and purposes. she had got to make him happy. but what was she to do, what was there for her to do?... only he could work out his own salvation, and until he had light, all she could do was to stand by him, help him, cease to irritate him, watch, wait. anyhow she could at least mend his socks as well as possible, so that the threads would not chafe him.... she flashed to her feet. what was that? it seemed to her she had heard the sound of a shot, and a quick brief wake of echoes. she looked across the icy waste of the river, and then up the tangled slopes of the mountain. her heart was beating very fast. it must have been up there, and no doubt he had killed his beast. some shadow of doubt she would not admit crossed that obvious suggestion. this wilderness was making her as nervously responsive as a creature of the wild. came a second shot; this time there was no doubt of it. then the desolate silence closed about her again. she stood for a long time staring at the shrubby slopes that rose to the barren rock wilderness of the purple mountain crest. she sighed deeply at last, and set herself to make up the fire and prepare for the mid-day meal. once far away across the river she heard the howl of a wolf. time seemed to pass very slowly that day. she found herself going repeatedly to the space between the day tent and the sleeping hut from which she could see the stunted wood that had swallowed him up, and after what seemed a long hour her watch told her it was still only half-past twelve. and the fourth or fifth time that she went to look out she was set atremble again by the sound of a third shot. and then at regular intervals out of that distant brown purple jumble of thickets against the snow came two more shots. "something has happened," she said, "something has happened," and stood rigid. then she became active, seized the rifle that was always at hand when she was alone, fired into the sky and stood listening. prompt come an answering shot. "he wants me," said marjorie. "something----perhaps he has killed something too big to bring!" she was for starting at once, and then remembered this was not the way of the wilderness. she thought and moved very rapidly. her mind catalogued possible requirements, rifle, hunting knife, the oilskin bag with matches, and some chunks of dry paper, the rucksack--and he would be hungry. she took a saucepan and a huge chunk of cheese and biscuit. then a brandy flask is sometimes handy--one never knows. though nothing was wrong, of course. needles and stout thread, and some cord. snowshoes. a waterproof cloak could be easily carried. her light hatchet for wood. she cast about to see if there was anything else. she had almost forgotten cartridges--and a revolver. nothing more. she kicked a stray brand or so into the fire, put on some more wood, damped the fire with an armful of snow to make it last longer, and set out towards the willows into which he had vanished. there was a rustling and snapping of branches as she pushed her way through the bushes, a little stir that died insensibly into quiet again; and then the camping place became very still.... scarcely a sound occurred, except for the little shuddering and stirring of the fire, and the reluctant, infrequent drip from the icicles along the sunny edge of the log hut roof. about one o'clock the amber sunshine faded out altogether, a veil of clouds thickened and became greyly ominous, and a little after two the first flakes of a snowstorm fell hissing into the fire. a wind rose and drove the multiplying snowflakes in whirls and eddies before it. the icicles ceased to drip, but one or two broke and fell with a weak tinkling. a deep soughing, a shuddering groaning of trees and shrubs, came ever and again out of the ravine, and the powdery snow blew like puffs of smoke from the branches. by four the fire was out, and the snow was piling high in the darkling twilight against tent and hut.... § trafford's trail led marjorie through the thicket of dwarf willows and down to the gully of the rivulet which they had called marjorie trickle; it had long since become a trough of snow-covered rotten ice; the trail crossed this and, turning sharply uphill, went on until it was clear of shrubs and trees, and in the windy open of the upper slopes it crossed a ridge and came over the lip of a large desolate valley with slopes of ice and icy snow. here she spent some time in following his loops back on the homeward trail before she saw what was manifestly the final trail running far away out across the snow, with the spoor of the lynx, a lightly-dotted line, to the right of it. she followed this suggestion of the trail, put on her snowshoes, and shuffled her way across this valley, which opened as she proceeded. she hoped that over the ridge she would find trafford, and scanned the sky for the faintest discolouration of a fire, but there was none. that seemed odd to her, but the wind was in her face, and perhaps it beat the smoke down. then as her eyes scanned the hummocky ridge ahead, she saw something, something very intent and still, that brought her heart into her mouth. it was a big, grey wolf, standing with back haunched and head down, watching and winding something beyond there, out of sight. marjorie had an instinctive fear of wild animals, and it still seemed dreadful to her that they should go at large, uncaged. she suddenly wanted trafford violently, wanted him by her side. also she thought of leaving the trail, going back to the bushes. she had to take herself in hand. in the wastes one did not fear wild beasts. one had no fear of them. but why not fire a shot to let him know she was near? the beast flashed round with an animal's instantaneous change of pose, and looked at her. for a couple of seconds, perhaps, woman and brute regarded one another across a quarter of a mile of snowy desolation. suppose it came towards her! she would fire--and she would fire at it. she made a guess at the range and aimed very carefully. she saw the snow fly two yards ahead of the grisly shape, and then in an instant it had vanished over the crest. she reloaded, and stood for a moment waiting for trafford's answer. no answer came. "queer!" she whispered, "queer!"--and suddenly such a horror of anticipation assailed her that she started running and floundering through the snow to escape it. twice she called his name, and once she just stopped herself from firing a shot. over the ridge she would find him. surely she would find him over the ridge. she found herself among rocks, and there was a beaten and trampled place where trafford must have waited and crouched. then on and down a slope of tumbled boulders. there came a patch where he had either thrown himself down or fallen. it seemed to her he must have been running.... suddenly, a hundred feet or so away, she saw a patch of violently disturbed snow--snow stained a dreadful colour, a snow of scarlet crystals! three strides and trafford was in sight. she had a swift conviction he was dead. he was lying in a crumpled attitude on a patch of snow between convergent rocks, and the lynx, a mass of blood smeared silvery fur, was in some way mixed up with him. she saw as she came nearer that the snow was disturbed round about them, and discoloured copiously, yellow widely, and in places bright red, with congealed and frozen blood. she felt no fear now, and no emotion; all her mind was engaged with the clear, bleak perception of the fact before her. she did not care to call to him again. his head was hidden by the lynx's body, it was as if he was burrowing underneath the creature; his legs were twisted about each other in a queer, unnatural attitude. then, as she dropped off a boulder, and came nearer, trafford moved. a hand came out and gripped the rifle beside him; he suddenly lifted a dreadful face, horribly scarred and torn, and crimson with frozen blood; he pushed the grey beast aside, rose on an elbow, wiped his sleeve across his eyes, stared at her, grunted, and flopped forward. he had fainted. she was now as clear-minded and as self-possessed as a woman in a shop. in another moment she was kneeling by his side. she saw, by the position of his knife and the huge rip in the beast's body, that he had stabbed the lynx to death as it clawed his head; he must have shot and wounded it and then fallen upon it. his knitted cap was torn to ribbons, and hung upon his neck. also his leg was manifestly injured; how, she could not tell. it was chiefly evident he must freeze if he lay here. it seemed to her that perhaps he had pulled the dead brute over him to protect his torn skin from the extremity of cold. the lynx was already rigid, its clumsy paws asprawl--the torn skin and clot upon trafford's face was stiff as she put her hands about his head to raise him. she turned him over on his back--how heavy he seemed!--and forced brandy between his teeth. then, after a moment's hesitation, she poured a little brandy on his wounds. she glanced at his leg, which was surely broken, and back at his face. then she gave him more brandy and his eyelids flickered. he moved his hand weakly. "the blood," he said, "kept getting in my eyes." she gave him brandy once again, wiped his face and glanced at his leg. something ought to be done to that she thought. but things must be done in order. she stared up at the darkling sky with its grey promise of snow, and down the slopes of the mountain. clearly they must stay the night here. they were too high for wood among these rocks, but three or four hundred yards below there were a number of dwarfed fir trees. she had brought an axe, so that a fire was possible. should she go back to camp and get the tent? trafford was trying to speak again. "i got----" he said. "yes?" "got my leg in that crack. damn--damned nuisance." was he able to advise her? she looked at him, and then perceived she must bind up his head and face. she knelt behind him and raised his head on her knee. she had a thick silk neck muffler, and this she supplemented by a band she cut and tore from her inner vest. she bound this, still warm from her body, about him, wrapped her cloak round him. the next thing was a fire. five yards away, perhaps, a great mass of purple gabbro hung over a patch of nearly snowless moss. a hummock to the westward offered shelter from the weakly bitter wind, the icy draught, that was soughing down the valley. always in labrador, if you can, you camp against a rock surface; it shelters you from the wind, reflects your fire, guards your back. "rag!" she said. "rotten hole," said trafford. "what?" she cried sharply. "got you in a rotten hole," he said. "eh?" "listen," she said, and shook his shoulder. "look! i want to get you up against that rock." "won't make much difference," said trafford, and opened his eyes. "where?" he asked. "there." he remained quite quiet for a second perhaps. "listen to me," he said. "go back to camp." "yes," she said. "go back to camp. make a pack of all the strongest food--strenthin'--strengthrin' food--you know?" he seemed troubled to express himself. "yes," she said. "down the river. down--down. till you meet help." "leave you?" he nodded his head and winced. "you're always plucky," he said. "look facts in the face. kiddies. thought it over while you were coming." a tear oozed from his eye. "not be a fool, madge. kiss me good-bye. not be a fool. i'm done. kids." she stared at him and her spirit was a luminous mist of tears. "you old _coward_," she said in his ear, and kissed the little patch of rough and bloody cheek beneath his eye. then she knelt up beside him. "_i'm_ boss now, old man," she said. "i want to get you to that place there under the rock. if i drag, can you help?" he answered obstinately: "you'd better go." "i'll make you comfortable first," she answered, "anyhow." he made an enormous effort, and then with her quick help and with his back to her knee, had raised himself on his elbows. "and afterwards?" he asked. "build a fire." "wood?" "down there." "two bits of wood tied on my leg--splints. then i can drag myself. see? like a blessed old walrus." he smiled, and she kissed his bandaged face again. "else it hurts," he apologized, "more than i can stand." she stood up again, thought, put his rifle and knife to his hand for fear of that lurking wolf, abandoning her own rifle with an effort, and went striding and leaping from rock to rock towards the trees below. she made the chips fly, and was presently towing three venerable pine dwarfs, bumping over rock and crevice, back to trafford. she flung them down, stood for a moment bright and breathless, then set herself to hack off the splints he needed from the biggest stem. "now," she said, coming to him. "a fool," he remarked, "would have made the splints down there. you're--_good_, marjorie." she lugged his leg out straight, put it into the natural and least painful pose, padded it with moss and her torn handkerchief, and bound it up. as she did so a handful of snowflakes came whirling about them. she was now braced up to every possibility. "it never rains," she said grimly, "but it pours," and went on with her bone-setting. he was badly weakened by pain and shock, and once he swore at her sharply. "sorry," he said. she rolled him over on his chest, and left him to struggle to the shelter of the rock while she went for more wood. the sky alarmed her. the mountains up the valley were already hidden by driven rags of slaty snowstorms. this time she found a longer but easier path for dragging her boughs and trees; she determined she would not start the fire until nightfall, nor waste any time in preparing food until then. there were dead boughs for kindling--more than enough. it was snowing quite fast by the time she got up to him with her second load, and a premature twilight already obscured and exaggerated the rocks and mounds about her. she gave some of her cheese to trafford, and gnawed some herself on her way down to the wood again. she regretted that she had brought neither candles nor lantern, because then she might have kept on until the cold of night stopped her, and she reproached herself bitterly because she had brought no tea. she could forgive herself the lantern, she had never expected to be out after dark, but the tea was inexcusable. she muttered self-reproaches while she worked like two men among the trees, panting puffs of mist that froze upon her lips and iced the knitted wool that covered her chin. why don't they teach a girl to handle an axe?... when at last the wolfish cold of the labrador night had come, it found trafford and marjorie seated almost warmly on a bed of pine boughs between the sheltering dark rock behind and a big but well husbanded fire in front, drinking a queer-tasting but not unsavory soup of lynx-flesh, that she had fortified with the remainder of the brandy. then they tried roast lynx and ate a little, and finished with some scraps of cheese and deep draughts of hot water. then--oh tyburnia and chelsea and all that is becoming!--they smoked trafford's pipe for alternate minutes, and marjorie found great comfort in it. the snowstorm poured incessantly out of the darkness to become flakes of burning fire in the light of the flames, flakes that vanished magically, but it only reached them and wetted them in occasional gusts. what did it matter for the moment if the dim snow-heaps rose and rose about them? a glorious fatigue, an immense self-satisfaction possessed marjorie; she felt that they had both done well. "i am not afraid of to-morrow now," she said at last--a thought matured. "_no!_" trafford had the pipe and did not speak for a moment. "nor i," he said at last. "very likely we'll get through with it." he added after a pause: "i thought i was done for. a man--loses heart. after a loss of blood." "the leg's better?" "hot as fire." his humour hadn't left him. "it's a treat," he said. "the hottest thing in labrador." "i've been a good squaw this time, old man?" she asked suddenly. he seemed not to hear her; then his lips twitched and he made a feeble movement for her hand. "i cursed you," he said.... she slept, but on a spring as it were, lest the fire should fall. she replenished it with boughs, tucked in the half-burnt logs, and went to sleep again. then it seemed to her that some invisible hand was pouring a thin spirit on the flames that made them leap and crackle and spread north and south until they filled the heavens. her eyes were open and the snowstorm overpast, leaving the sky clear, and all the westward heaven alight with the trailing, crackling, leaping curtains of the aurora, brighter than she had ever seen them before. quite clearly visible beyond the smoulder of the fire, a wintry waste of rock and snow, boulder beyond boulder, passed into a dun obscurity. the mountain to the right of them lay long and white and stiff, a shrouded death. all earth was dead and waste and nothing, and the sky alive and coldly marvellous, signalling and astir. she watched the changing, shifting colours, and they made her think of the gathering banners of inhuman hosts, the stir and marshalling of icy giants for ends stupendous and indifferent to all the trivial impertinence of man's existence.... that night the whole world of man seemed small and shallow and insecure to her, beyond comparison. one came, she thought, but just a little way out of its warm and sociable cities hither, and found this homeless wilderness; one pricked the thin appearances of life with microscope or telescope and came to an equal strangeness. all the pride and hope of human life goes to and fro in a little shell of air between this ancient globe of rusty nickel-steel and the void of space; faint specks we are within a film; we quiver between the atom and the infinite, being hardly more substantial than the glow within an oily skin that drifts upon the water. the wonder and the riddle of it! here she and trafford were! phantasmal shapes of unsubstantial fluid thinly skinned against evaporation and wrapped about with woven wool and the skins of beasts, that yet reflected and perceived, suffered and sought to understand; that held a million memories, framed thoughts that plumbed the deeps of space and time,--and another day of snow or icy wind might leave them just scattered bones and torn rags gnawed by a famishing wolf!... she felt a passionate desire to pray.... she glanced at trafford beside her, and found him awake and staring. his face was very pale and strange in that livid, flickering light. she would have spoken, and then she saw his lips were moving, and something, something she did not understand, held her back from doing so. § the bleak, slow dawn found marjorie intently busy. she had made up the fire, boiled water and washed and dressed trafford's wounds, and made another soup of lynx. but trafford had weakened in the night, the stuff nauseated him, he refused it and tried to smoke and was sick, and then sat back rather despairfully after a second attempt to persuade her to leave him there to die. this failure of his spirit distressed her and a little astonished her, but it only made her more resolute to go through with her work. she had awakened cold, stiff and weary, but her fatigue vanished with movement; she toiled for an hour replenishing her pile of fuel, made up the fire, put his gun ready to his hand, kissed him, abused him lovingly for the trouble he gave her until his poor torn face lit in response, and then parting on a note of cheerful confidence set out to return to the hut. she found the way not altogether easy to make out, wind and snow had left scarcely a trace of their tracks, and her mind was full of the stores she must bring and the possibility of moving him nearer to the hut. she was startled to see by the fresh, deep spoor along the ridge how near the wolf had dared approach them in the darkness.... ever and again marjorie had to halt and look back to get her direction right. as it was she came through the willow scrub nearly half a mile above the hut, and had to follow the steep bank of the frozen river down. at one place she nearly slipped upon an icy slope of rock. one possibility she did not dare to think of during that time; a blizzard now would cut her off absolutely from any return to trafford. short of that she believed she could get through. her quick mind was full of all she had to do. at first she had thought chiefly of his immediate necessities, of food and some sort of shelter. she had got a list of things in her head--meat extract, bandages, corrosive sublimate by way of antiseptic, brandy, a tin of beef, some bread and so forth; she went over that several times to be sure of it, and then for a time she puzzled about a tent. she thought she could manage a bale of blankets on her back, and that she could rig a sleeping tent for herself and trafford with one and some bent sticks. the big tent would be too much to strike and shift. and then her mind went on to a bolder enterprise, which was to get him home. the nearer she could bring him to the log hut, the nearer they would be to supplies. she cast about for some sort of sledge. the snow was too soft and broken for runners, especially among the trees, but if she could get a flat of smooth wood she thought she might be able to drag him. she decided to try the side of her bunk. she could easily get that off. she would have, of course, to run it edgewise through the thickets and across the ravine, but after that she would have almost clear going until she reached the steep place of broken rocks within two hundred yards of him. the idea of a sledge grew upon her, and she planned to nail a rope along the edge and make a kind of harness for herself. she found the camping-place piled high with drifted snow, which had invaded tent and hut, and that some beast, a wolverine she guessed, had been into the hut, devoured every candle-end and the uppers of trafford's well-greased second boots, and had then gone to the corner of the store shed and clambered up to the stores. she made no account of its depredations there, but set herself to make a sledge and get her supplies together. there was a gleam of sunshine, but she did not like the look of the sky, and she was horribly afraid of what might be happening to trafford. she carried her stuff through the wood and across the ravine, and returned for her improvised sledge. she was still struggling with that among the trees when it began to snow again. it was hard then not to be frantic in her efforts. as it was, she packed her stuff so loosely on the planking that she had to repack it, and she started without putting on her snowshoes, and floundered fifty yards before she discovered that omission. the snow was now falling fast, darkling the sky and hiding everything but objects close at hand, and she had to use all her wits to determine her direction; she knew she must go down a long slope and then up to the ridge, and it came to her as a happy inspiration that if she bore to the left she might strike some recognizable vestige of her morning's trail. she had read of people walking in circles when they have no light or guidance, and that troubled her until she bethought herself of the little compass on her watch chain. by that she kept her direction. she wished very much she had timed herself across the waste, so that she could tell when she approached the ridge. soon her back and shoulders were aching violently, and the rope across her chest was tugging like some evil-tempered thing. but she did not dare to rest. the snow was now falling thick and fast, the flakes traced white spirals and made her head spin, so that she was constantly falling away to the south-westward and then correcting herself by the compass. she tried to think how this zig-zagging might affect her course, but the snow whirls confused her mind and a growing anxiety would not let her pause to think. she felt blinded; it seemed to be snowing inside her eyes so that she wanted to rub them. soon the ground must rise to the ridge, she told herself; it must surely rise. then the sledge came bumping at her heels and she perceived she was going down hill. she consulted the compass, and she found she was facing south. she turned sharply to the right again. the snowfall became a noiseless, pitiless torture to sight and mind. the sledge behind her struggled to hold her back, and the snow balled under her snowshoes. she wanted to stop and rest, take thought, sit for a moment. she struggled with herself and kept on. she tried walking with shut eyes, and tripped and came near sprawling. "oh god!" she cried, "oh god!" too stupefied for more articulate prayers. would the rise of the ground to the ribs of rock never come? a figure, black and erect, stood in front of her suddenly, and beyond appeared a group of black, straight antagonists. she staggered on towards them, gripping her rifle with some muddled idea of defence, and in another moment she was brushing against the branches of a stunted fir, which shed thick lumps of snow upon her feet. what trees were these? had she ever passed any trees? no! there were no trees on her way to trafford.... she began whimpering like a tormented child. but even as she wept she turned her sledge about to follow the edge of the wood. she was too much downhill, she thought and she must bear up again. she left the trees behind, made an angle uphill to the right, and was presently among trees again. again she left them and again came back to them. she screamed with anger at them and twitched her sledge away. she wiped at the snowstorm with her arm as though she would wipe it away. she wanted to stamp on the universe.... and she ached, she ached.... something caught her eye ahead, something that gleamed; it was exactly like a long, bare rather pinkish bone standing erect on the ground. just because it was strange and queer she ran forward to it. then as she came nearer she perceived it was a streak of barked trunk; a branch had been torn off a pine tree and the bark stripped down to the root. and then her foot hit against a freshly hewn stump, and then came another, poking its pinkish wounds above the snow. and there were chips! this filled her with wonder. some one had been cutting wood! there must be indians or trappers near, she thought, and then realized the wood-cutter could be none other than herself. she turned to the right and saw the rocks rising steeply close at hand. "oh rag!" she cried, and fired her rifle in the air. ten seconds, twenty seconds, and then so loud and near it amazed her, came his answering shot. it sounded like the hillside bursting. in another moment she had discovered the trail she had made overnight and that morning by dragging firewood. it was now a shallow soft white trench. instantly her despair and fatigue had gone from her. should she take a load of wood with her? she asked herself, in addition to the weight behind her, and had a better idea. she would unload and pile her stuff here, and bring him down on the sledge closer to the wood. she looked about and saw two rocks that diverged with a space between. she flashed schemes. she would trample the snow hard and flat, put her sledge on it, pile boughs and make a canopy of blanket overhead and behind. then a fire in front. she saw her camp admirable. she tossed her provisions down and ran up the broad windings of her pine-tree trail to trafford, with the unloaded sledge bumping behind her. she ran as lightly as though she had done nothing that day. she found him markedly recovered, weak and quiet, with snow drifting over his feet, his rifle across his knees, and his pipe alight. "back already," he said, "but----" he hesitated. "no grub?" she knelt over him, gave his rough unshaven cheek a swift kiss, and very rapidly explained her plan. § in three days' time they were back at the hut, and the last two days they wore blue spectacles because of the mid-day glare of the sunlit snow. it amazed marjorie to discover as she lay awake in the camp on the edge of the ravine close to the hut to which she had lugged trafford during the second day, that she was deeply happy. it was preposterous that she should be so, but those days of almost despairful stress were irradiated now by a new courage. she was doing this thing, against all labrador and the snow-driving wind that blew from the polar wilderness, she was winning. it was a great discovery to her that hardship and effort almost to the breaking-point could ensue in so deep a satisfaction. she lay and thought how deep and rich life had become for her, as though in all this effort and struggle some unsuspected veil had been torn away. she perceived again, but now with no sense of desolation, that same infinite fragility of life which she had first perceived when she had watched the aurora borealis flickering up the sky. beneath that realization and carrying it, as a river flood may carry scum, was a sense of herself as something deeper, greater, more enduring than mountain or wilderness or sky, or any of those monstrous forms of nature that had dwarfed her physical self to nothingness. she had a persuasion of self detachment and illumination, and withal of self-discovery. she saw her life of time and space for what it was. away in london the children, with the coldest of noses and the gayest of spirits, would be scampering about their bedrooms in the mild morning sunlight of a london winter; elsie, the parlourmaid, would be whisking dexterous about the dining-room, the bacon would be cooking and the coffee-mill at work, the letters of the morning delivery perhaps just pattering into the letter-box, and all the bright little household she had made, with all the furniture she had arranged, all the characteristic decoration she had given it, all the clever convenient arrangements, would be getting itself into action for another day--and _it wasn't herself!_ it was the extremest of her superficiality. she had come out of all that, and even so it seemed she had come out of herself; this weary woman lying awake on the balsam boughs with a brain cleared by underfeeding and this continuous arduous bath of toil in snow-washed, frost cleansed, starry air, this, too, was no more than a momentarily clarified window for her unknown and indefinable reality. what was that reality? what was she herself? she became interested in framing an answer to that, and slipped down from the peace of soul she had attained. her serenity gave way to a reiteration of this question, reiterations increasing and at last oppressing like the snowflakes of a storm, perpetual whirling repetitions that at last confused her and hid the sky.... she fell asleep.... § with their return to the hut, marjorie had found herself encountering a new set of urgencies. in their absence that wretched little wolverine had found great plenty and happiness in the tent and store-shed; its traces were manifest nearly everywhere, and it had particularly assailed the candles, after a destructive time among the frozen caribou beef. it had clambered up on the packages of sardines and jumped thence on to a sloping pole that it could claw along into the frame of the roof. she rearranged the packages, but that was no good. she could not leave trafford in order to track the brute down, and for a night or so she could not think of any way of checking its depredations. it came each night.... trafford kept her close at home. she had expected that when he was back in his bunk, secure and warm, he would heal rapidly, but instead he suddenly developed all the symptoms of a severe feverish cold, and his scars, which had seemed healing, became flushed and ugly-looking. moreover, there was something wrong with his leg, an ominous ache that troubled her mind. every woman, she decided, ought to know how to set a bone. he was unable to sleep by reason of these miseries, though very desirous of doing so. he became distressingly weak and inert, he ceased to care for food, and presently he began ta talk to himself with a complete disregard of her presence. hourly she regretted her ignorance of medicine that left her with no conceivable remedy for all the aching and gnawing that worried and weakened him, except bathing with antiseptics and a liberal use of quinine. and his face became strange to her, for over his flushed and sunken cheeks, under the raw spaces of the scar a blond beard bristled and grew. presently, trafford was a bearded man. incidentally, however, she killed the wolverine by means of a trap of her own contrivance, a loaded rifle with a bait of what was nearly her last candles, rigged to the trigger. but this loss of the candles brought home to them the steady lengthening of the nights. scarcely seven hours of day remained now in the black, cold grip of the darkness. and through those seventeen hours of chill aggression they had no light but the red glow of the stove. she had to close the door of the hut and bar every chink and cranny against the icy air, that became at last a murderous, freezing wind. not only did she line the hut with every scrap of skin and paper she could obtain, but she went out with the spade toiling for three laborious afternoons in piling and beating snow against the outer frame. and now it was that trafford talked at last, talked with something of the persistence of delirium, and she sat and listened hour by hour, silently, for he gave no heed to her or to anything she might say. he talked, it seemed, to god.... § darkness about a sullen glow of red, and a voice speaking. the voice of a man, fevered and in pain, wounded and amidst hardship and danger, struggling with the unrelenting riddle of his being. ever and again when a flame leapt she would see his face, haggard, bearded, changed, and yet infinitely familiar. his voice varied, now high and clear, now mumbling, now vexed and expostulating, now rich with deep feeling, now fagged and slow; his matter varied, too; now he talked like one who is inspired, and now like one lost and confused, stupidly repeating phrases, going back upon a misleading argument, painfully, laboriously beginning over and over again. marjorie sat before the stove watching it burn and sink, replenishing it, preparing food, and outside the bitter wind moaned and blew the powdery snow before it, and the shortening interludes of pallid, diffused daylight which pass for days in such weather, came and went. intense cold had come now with leaden snowy days and starless nights. sometimes his speech filled her mind, seemed to fill all her world; sometimes she ceased to listen, following thoughts of her own. sometimes she dozed; sometimes she awakened from sleep to find him talking. but slowly she realized a thread in his discourse, a progress and development. sometimes he talked of his early researches, and then he would trace computations with his hands as if he were using a blackboard, and became distressed to remember what he had written. sometimes he would be under the claws of the lynx again, and fighting for his eyes. "ugh!" he said, "keep those hind legs still. keep your hind legs still! knife? knife? ah! got it. gu--u--u, you _beast!_" but the gist of his speech was determined by the purpose of his journey to labrador. at last he was reviewing his life and hers, and all that their life might signify, even as he determined to do. she began to perceive that whatever else drifted into his mind and talk, this recurred and grew, that he returned to the conclusion he had reached, and not to the beginning of the matter, and went on from that.... "you see," he said, "our lives are nothing--nothing in themselves. i know that; i've never had any doubts of that. we individuals just pick up a mixed lot of things out of the powers that begat us, and lay them down again presently a little altered, that's all--heredities, traditions, the finger nails of my grandfather, a great-aunt's lips, the faith of a sect, the ideas of one's time. we live and then we die, and the threads run, dispersing this way and that. to make other people again. whatever's immortal isn't that, our looks or our habits, our thoughts or our memories--just the shapes, these are, of one immortal stuff.... one immortal stuff."... the voice died away as if he was baffled. then it resumed. "but we ought to _partake_ of immortality; that's my point. we ought to partake of immortality. "i mean we're like the little elements in a magnet; ought not to lie higgledy-piggledy, ought to point the same way, bepolarized----something microcosmic, you know, ought to be found in a man. "analogies run away with one. suppose the bar isn't magnetized yet! suppose purpose has to come; suppose the immortal stuff isn't yet, isn't being but struggling to be. struggling to be.... gods! that morning! when the child was born! and afterwards she was there--with a smile on her lips, and a little flushed and proud--as if nothing had happened so very much out of the way. nothing so wonderful. and we had another life besides our own!..." afterwards he came back to that. "that was a good image," he said, "something trying to exist, which isn't substance, doesn't belong to space or time, something stifled and enclosed, struggling to get through. just confused birth cries, eyes that hardly see, deaf ears, poor little thrusting hands. a thing altogether blind at first, a twitching and thrusting of protoplasm under the waters, and then the plants creeping up the beaches, the insects and reptiles on the margins of the rivers, beasts with a flicker of light in their eyes answering the sun. and at last, out of the long interplay of desire and fear, an ape, an ape that stared and wondered, and scratched queer pictures on a bone...." he lapsed into silent thought for a time, and marjorie glanced at his dim face in the shadows. "i say nothing of ultimates," he said at last. he repeated that twice before his thoughts would flow again. "this is as much as i see, in time as i know it and space as i know it--_something struggling to exist_. it's true to the end of my limits. what can i say beyond that? it struggles to exist, becomes conscious, becomes now conscious of itself. that is where i come in, as a part of it. above the beast in me is that--the desire to know better, to know--beautifully, and to transmit my knowledge. that's all there is in life for me beyond food and shelter and tidying up. this being--opening its eyes, listening, trying to comprehend. every good thing in man is that;--looking and making pictures, listening and making songs, making philosophies and sciences, trying new powers, bridge and engine, spark and gun. at the bottom of my soul, _that_. we began with bone-scratching. we're still--near it. i am just a part of this beginning--mixed with other things. every book, every art, every religion is that, the attempt to understand and express--mixed with other things. nothing else matters, nothing whatever. i tell you----nothing whatever! "i've always believed that. all my life i've believed that. "only i've forgotten." "every man with any brains believes that at the bottom of his heart. only he gets busy and forgets. he goes shooting lynxes and breaks his leg. odd, instinctive, brutal thing to do--to go tracking down a lynx to kill it! i grant you that, marjorie. i grant you that." "grant me what?" she cried, startled beyond measure to hear herself addressed. "grant you that it is rather absurd to go hunting a lynx. and what big paws it has--disproportionately big! i wonder if that's an adaptation to snow. tremendous paws they are.... but the real thing, i was saying, the real thing is to get knowledge, and express it. all things lead up to that. civilization, social order, just for that. except for that, all the life of man, all his affairs, his laws and police, his morals and manners--nonsense, nonsense, nonsense. lynx hunts! just ways of getting themselves mauled and clawed perhaps--into a state of understanding. who knows?..." his voice became low and clear. "understanding spreading like a dawn.... "logic and language, clumsy implements, but rising to our needs, rising to our needs, thought clarified, enriched, reaching out to every man alive--some day--presently--touching every man alive, harmonizing acts and plans, drawing men into gigantic co-operations, tremendous co-operations.... "until man shall stand upon this earth as upon a footstool and reach out his hand among the stars.... "and then i went into the rubber market, and spent seven years of my life driving shares up and down and into a net!... queer game indeed! stupid ass behrens was--at bottom.... "there's a flaw in it somewhere...." he came back to that several times before he seemed able to go on from it. "there _is_ a collective mind," he said, "a growing general consciousness--growing clearer. something put me away from that, but i know it. my work, my thinking, was a part of it. that's why i was so mad about behrens." "behrens?" "of course. he'd got a twist, a wrong twist. it makes me angry now. it will take years, it will eat up some brilliant man to clean up after behrens----" "yes, but the point is"--his voice became acute--"why did i go making money and let behrens in? why generally and in all sorts of things does behrens come in?..." he was silent for a long time, and then he began to answer himself. "of course," he said, "i said it--or somebody said it--about this collective mind being mixed with other things. it's something arising out of life--not the common stuff of life. an exhalation.... it's like the little tongues of fire that came at pentecost.... queer how one comes drifting back to these images. perhaps i shall die a christian yet.... the other christians won't like me if i do. what was i saying?... it's what i reach up to, what i desire shall pervade me, not what i am. just as far as i give myself purely to knowledge, to making feeling and thought clear in my mind and words, to the understanding and expression of the realities and relations of life, just so far do i achieve salvation.... salvation!... "i wonder, is salvation the same for every one? perhaps for one man salvation is research and thought, and for another expression in art, and for another nursing lepers. provided he does it in the spirit. he has to do it in the spirit...." there came a silence as though some difficulty baffled him, and he was feeling back to get his argument again. "this flame that arises out of life, that redeems life from purposeless triviality, _isn't_ life. let me get hold of that. that's a point. that's a very important point." something had come to him. "i've never talked of this to marjorie. i've lived with her nine years and more, and never talked of religion. not once. that's so queer of us. any other couple in any other time would have talked religion no end.... people ought to." then he stuck out an argumentative hand. "you see, marjorie _is_ life," he said. "she took me." he spoke slowly, as though he traced things carefully. "before i met her i suppose i wasn't half alive. no! yet i don't remember i felt particularly incomplete. women were interesting, of course; they excited me at times, that girl at yonkers!--h'm. i stuck to my work. it was fine work, i forget half of it now, the half-concealed intimations i mean--queer how one forgets!--but i know i felt my way to wide, deep things. it was like exploring caves--monstrous, limitless caves. such caves!... very still--underground. wonderful and beautiful.... they're lying there now for other men to seek. other men will find them.... then _she_ came, as though she was taking possession. the beauty of her, oh! the life and bright eagerness, and the incompatibility! that's the riddle! i've loved her always. when she came to my arms it seemed to me the crown of life. caves indeed! old caves! nothing else seemed to matter. but something did. all sorts of things did. i found that out soon enough. and when that first child was born. that for a time was supreme.... yes--she's the quintessence of life, the dear greed of her, the appetite, the clever appetite for things. she grabs. she's so damned clever! the light in her eyes! her quick sure hands!... only my work was crowded out of my life and ended, and she didn't seem to feel it, she didn't seem to mind it. there was a sort of disregard. disregard. as though all that didn't really matter...." "_my dear!_" whispered marjorie unheeded. she wanted to tell him it mattered now, mattered supremely, but she knew he had no ears for her. his voice flattened. "it's perplexing," he said. "the two different things." then suddenly he cried out harshly: "i ought never to have married her--never, never! i had my task. i gave myself to her. oh! the high immensities, the great and terrible things open to the mind of man! and we breed children and live in littered houses and play with our food and chatter, chatter, chatter. oh, the chatter of my life! the folly! the women with their clothes. i can hear them rustle now, whiff the scent of it! the scandals--as though the things they did with themselves and each other mattered a rap; the little sham impromptu clever things, the trying to keep young--and underneath it all that continual cheating, cheating, cheating, damning struggle for money!... "marjorie, marjorie, marjorie! why is she so good and no better! why wasn't she worth it altogether?... "no! i don't want to go on with it any more--ever. i want to go back. "i want my life over again, and to go back. "i want research, and the spirit of research that has died in me, and that still, silent room of mine again, that room, as quiet as a cell, and the toil that led to light. oh! the coming of that light, the uprush of discovery, the solemn joy as the generalization rises like a sun upon the facts--floods them with a common meaning. that is what i want. that is what i have always wanted.... "give me my time oh god! again; i am sick of this life i have chosen. i am sick of it! this--busy death! give me my time again.... why did you make me, and then waste me like this? why are we made for folly upon folly? folly! and brains made to scale high heaven, smeared into the dust! into the dust, into the dust. dust!..." he passed into weak, wandering repetitions of disconnected sentences, that died into whispers and silence, and marjorie watched him and listened to him, and waited with a noiseless dexterity upon his every need. § one day, she did not know what day, for she had lost count of the days, marjorie set the kettle to boil and opened the door of the hut to look out, and the snow was ablaze with diamonds, and the air was sweet and still. it occurred to her that it would be well to take trafford out into that brief brightness. she looked at him and found his eyes upon the sunlight quiet and rather wondering eyes. "would you like to get out into that?" she asked abruptly. "yes," he said, and seemed disposed to get up. "you've got a broken leg," she cried, to arrest his movement, and he looked at her and answered: "of course--i forgot." she was all atremble that he should recognize her and speak to her. she pulled her rude old sledge alongside his bunk, and kissed him, and showed him how to shift and drop himself upon the plank. she took him in her arms and lowered him. he helped weakly but understandingly, and she wrapped him up warmly on the planks and lugged him out and built up a big fire at his feet, wondering, but as yet too fearful to rejoice, at the change that had come to him. he said no more, but his eyes watched her move about with a kind of tired curiosity. he smiled for a time at the sun, and shut his eyes, and still faintly smiling, lay still. she had a curious fear that if she tried to talk to him this new lucidity would vanish again. she went about the business of the morning, glancing at him ever and again, until suddenly the calm of his upturned face smote her, and she ran to him and crouched down to him between hope and a terrible fear, and found that he was sleeping, and breathing very lightly, sleeping with the deep unconsciousness of a child.... when he awakened the sun was red in the west. his eyes met hers, and he seemed a little puzzled. "i've been sleeping, madge?" he said. she nodded. "and dreaming? i've a vague sort of memory of preaching and preaching in a kind of black, empty place, where there wasn't anything.... a fury of exposition ... a kind of argument.... i say!--is there such a thing in the world as a new-laid egg--and some bread-and-butter?" he seemed to reflect. "of course," he said, "i broke my leg. gollys! i thought that beast was going to claw my eyes out. lucky, madge, it didn't get my eyes. it was just a chance it didn't." he stared at her. "i say," he said, "you've had a pretty rough time! how long has this been going on?" he amazed her by rising himself on his elbow and sitting up. "your leg!" she cried. he put his hand down and felt it. "pretty stiff," he said. "you get me some food--there _were_ some eggs, madge, frozen new-laid, anyhow--and then we'll take these splints off and feel about a bit. eh! why not? how did you get me out of that scrape, madge? i thought i'd got to be froze as safe as eggs. (those eggs ought to be all right, you know. if you put them on in a saucepan and wait until they boil.) i've a sort of muddled impression.... by jove, madge, you've had a time! i say you _have_ had a time!" his eyes, full of a warmth of kindliness she had not seen for long weeks, scrutinized her face. "i say!" he repeated, very softly. all her strength went from her at his tenderness. "oh, my dear," she wailed, kneeling at his side, "my dear, dear!" and still regardful of his leg, she yet contrived to get herself weeping into his coveted arms. he regarded her, he held her, he patted her back! the infinite luxury to her! he'd come back. he'd come back to her. "how long has it been?" he asked. "poor dear! poor dear! how long can it have been?" § from that hour trafford mended. he remained clear-minded, helpful, sustaining. his face healed daily. marjorie had had to cut away great fragments of gangrenous frozen flesh, and he was clearly destined to have a huge scar over forehead and cheek, but in that pure, clear air, once the healing had begun it progressed swiftly. his leg had set, a little shorter than its fellow and with a lump in the middle of the shin, but it promised to be a good serviceable leg none the less. they examined it by the light of the stove with their heads together, and discussed when it would be wise to try it. how do doctors tell when a man may stand on his broken leg? she had a vague impression you must wait six weeks, but she could not remember why she fixed upon that time. "it seems a decent interval," said trafford. "we'll try it." she had contrived a crutch for him against that momentous experiment, and he sat up in his bunk, pillowed up by a sack and her rugs, and whittled it smooth, and padded the fork with the skin of that slaughtered wolverine, poor victim of hunger!--while she knelt by the stove feeding it with logs, and gave him an account of their position. "we're somewhere in the middle of december," she said, "somewhere between the twelfth and the fourteenth,--yes! i'm as out as that!--and i've handled the stores pretty freely. so did that little beast until i got him." she nodded at the skin in his hand. "i don't see myself shooting much now, and so far i've not been able to break the ice to fish. it's too much for me. even if it isn't too late to fish. this book we've got describes barks and mosses, and that will help, but if we stick here until the birds and things come, we're going to be precious short. we may have to last right into july. i've plans--but it may come to that. we ought to ration all the regular stuff, and trust to luck for a feast. the rations!--i don't know what they'll come to." "right o," said trafford admiring her capable gravity. "let's ration." "marjorie," he asked abruptly, "are you sorry we came?" her answer came unhesitatingly. "_no!_" "nor i." he paused. "i've found you out," he said. "dear dirty living thing!... you _are_ dirty, you know." "i've found myself," she answered, thinking. "i feel as if i've never loved you until this hut. i suppose i have in my way----" "lugano," he suggested. "don't let's forget good things, marjorie. oh! and endless times!" "oh, of course! as for _that_----! but now--now you're in my bones. we were just two shallow, pretty, young things--loving. it was sweet, dear--sweet as youth--but not this. unkempt and weary--then one understands love. i suppose i _am_ dirty. think of it! i've lugged you through the snow till my shoulders chafed and bled. i cried with pain, and kept on lugging----oh, my dear! my dear!" he kissed her hair. "i've held you in my arms to keep you from freezing. (i'd have frozen myself first.) we've got to starve together perhaps before the end.... dear, if i could make you, you should eat me.... i'm--i'm beginning to understand. i've had a light. i've begun to understand. i've begun to see what life has been for you, and how i've wasted--wasted." "_we've_ wasted!" "no," she said, "it was i." she sat back on the floor and regarded him. "you don't remember things you said--when you were delirious?" "no," he answered. "what did i say?" "nothing?" "nothing clearly. what did i say?" "it doesn't matter. no, indeed. only you made me understand. you'd never have told me. you've always been a little weak with me there. but it's plain to me why we didn't keep our happiness, why we were estranged. if we go back alive, we go back--all that settled for good and all." "what?" "that discord. my dear, i've been a fool, selfish, ill-trained and greedy. we've both been floundering about, but i've been the mischief of it. yes, i've been the trouble. oh, it's had to be so. what are we women--half savages, half pets, unemployed things of greed and desire--and suddenly we want all the rights and respect of souls! i've had your life in my hands from the moment we met together. if i had known.... it isn't that we can make you or guide you--i'm not pretending to be an inspiration--but--but we can release you. we needn't press upon you; we can save you from the instincts and passions that try to waste you altogether on us.... yes, i'm beginning to understand. oh, my child, my husband, my man! you talked of your wasted life!... i've been thinking--since first we left the mersey. i've begun to see what it is to be a woman. for the first time in my life. we're the responsible sex. and we've forgotten it. we think we've done a wonder if we've borne men into the world and smiled a little, but indeed we've got to bear them all our lives.... a woman has to be steadier than a man and more self-sacrificing than a man, because when she plunges she does more harm than a man.... and what does she achieve if she does plunge? nothing--nothing worth counting. dresses and carpets and hangings and pretty arrangements, excitements and satisfactions and competition and more excitements. we can't _do_ things. we don't bring things off! and you, you monster! you dream! you want to stick your hand out of all that is and make something that isn't, begin to be! that's the man----" "dear old madge!" he said, "there's all sorts of women and all sorts of men." "well, our sort of women, then, and our sort of men." "i doubt even that." "i don't. i've found my place. i've been making my master my servant. we women--we've been looting all the good things in the world, and helping nothing. you've carried me on your back until you are loathing life. i've been making you fetch and carry for me, love me, dress me, keep me and my children, minister to my vanities and greeds.... no; let me go on. i'm so penitent, my dear, so penitent i want to kneel down here and marry you all over again, heal up your broken life and begin again."... she paused. "one doesn't begin again," she said. "but i want to take a new turn. dear, you're still only a young man; we've thirty or forty years before us--forty years perhaps or more.... what shall we do with our years? we've loved, we've got children. what remains? here we can plan it out, work it out, day after day. what shall we do with our lives and life? tell me, make me your partner; it's you who know, what are we doing with life?" § what are we doing with life? that question overtakes a reluctant and fugitive humanity. the traffords were but two of a great scattered host of people, who, obeying all the urgencies of need and desire, struggling, loving, begetting, enjoying, do nevertheless find themselves at last unsatisfied. they have lived the round of experience, achieved all that living creatures have sought since the beginning of the world--security and gratification and offspring--and they find themselves still strong, unsatiated, with power in their hands and years before them, empty of purpose. what are they to do? the world presents such a spectacle of evasion as it has never seen before. never was there such a boiling over and waste of vital energy. the sphinx of our opportunity calls for the uttermost powers of heart and brain to read its riddle--the new, astonishing riddle of excessive power. a few give themselves to those honourable adventures that extend the range of man, they explore untravelled countries, climb remote mountains, conduct researches, risk life and limb in the fantastic experiments of flight, and a monstrous outpouring of labour and material goes on in the strenuous preparation for needless and improbable wars. the rest divert themselves with the dwarfish satisfactions of recognized vice, the meagre routine of pleasure, or still more timidly with sport and games--those new unscheduled perversions of the soul. we are afraid of our new selves. the dawn of human opportunity appals us. few of us dare look upon this strange light of freedom and limitless resources that breaks upon our world. "think," said trafford, "while we sit here in this dark hut--think of the surplus life that wastes itself in the world for sheer lack of direction. away there in england--i suppose that is westward"--he pointed--"there are thousands of men going out to-day to shoot. think of the beautifully made guns, the perfected ammunition, the excellent clothes, the army of beaters, the carefully preserved woodland, the admirable science of it--all for that idiot massacre of half-tame birds! just because man once had need to be a hunter! think of the others again--golfing. think of the big, elaborate houses from which they come, the furnishings, the service. and the women--dressing! perpetually dressing. _you_, marjorie--you've done nothing but dress since we married. no, let me abuse you, dear! it's insane, you know! you dress your minds a little to talk amusingly, you spread your minds out to backgrounds, to households, picturesque and delightful gardens, nurseries. those nurseries! think of our tremendously cherished and educated children! and when they grow up, what have we got for them? a feast of futility...." § on the evening of the day when trafford first tried to stand upon his leg, they talked far into the night. it had been a great and eventful day for them, full of laughter and exultation. he had been at first ridiculously afraid; he had clung to her almost childishly, and she had held him about the body with his weight on her strong right arm and his right arm in her left hand, concealing her own dread of a collapse under a mask of taunting courage. the crutch had proved admirable. "it's my silly knees!" trafford kept on saying. "the leg's all right, but i get put out by my silly knees." they made the day a feast, a dinner of two whole day's rations and a special soup instead of supper. "the birds will come," they explained to each other, "ducks and geese, long before may. may, you know, is the latest." marjorie confessed the habit of sharing his pipe was growing on her. "what shall we do in tyburnia!" she said, and left it to the imagination. "if ever we get back there," he said. "i don't much fancy kicking a skirt before my shins again--and i'll be a black, coarse woman down to my neck at dinner for years to come!..." then, as he lay back in his bunk and she crammed the stove with fresh boughs and twigs of balsam that filled the little space about them with warmth and with a faint, sweet smell of burning and with flitting red reflections, he took up a talk about religion they had begun some days before. "you see," he said, "i've always believed in salvation. i suppose a man's shy of saying so--even to his wife. but i've always believed more or less distinctly that there was something up to which a life worked--always. it's been rather vague, i'll admit. i don't think i've ever believed in individual salvation. you see, i feel these are deep things, and the deeper one gets the less individual one becomes. that's why one thinks of those things in darkness and loneliness--and finds them hard to tell. one has an individual voice, or an individual birthmark, or an individualized old hat, but the soul--the soul's different.... it isn't me talking to you when it comes to that.... this question of what we are doing with life isn't a question to begin with for you and me as ourselves, but for you and me as mankind. am i spinning it too fine, madge?" "no," she said, intent; "go on." "you see, when we talk rations here, marjorie, it's ourselves, but when we talk religion--it's mankind. you've either got to be everyman in religion or leave it alone. that's my idea. it's no more presumptuous to think for the race than it is for a beggar to pray--though that means going right up to god and talking to him. salvation's a collective thing and a mystical thing--or there isn't any. fancy the almighty and me sitting up and keeping eternity together! god and r. a. g. trafford, f.r.s.--that's silly. fancy a man in number seven boots, and a tailor-made suit in the nineteen-fourteen fashion, sitting before god! that's caricature. but god and man! that's sense, marjorie."... he stopped and stared at her. marjorie sat red-lit, regarding him. "queer things you say!" she said. "so much of this i've never thought out. i wonder why i've never done so.... too busy with many things, i suppose. but go on and tell me more of these secrets you've kept from me!" "well, we've got to talk of these things as mankind--or just leave them alone, and shoot pheasants."... "if i could shoot a pheasant now!" whispered marjorie, involuntarily. "and where do we stand? what do we need--i mean the whole race of us--kings and beggars together? you know, marjorie, it's this,--it's understanding. that's what mankind has got to, the realization that it doesn't understand, that it can't express, that it's purblind. we haven't got eyes for those greater things, but we've got the promise--the intimation of eyes. we've come out of an unsuspecting darkness, brute animal darkness, not into sight, that's been the mistake, but into a feeling of illumination, into a feeling of light shining through our opacity.... "i feel that man has now before all things to know. that's his supreme duty, to feel, realize, see, understand, express himself to the utmost limits of his power." he sat up, speaking very earnestly to her, and in that flickering light she realized for the first time how thin he had become, how bright and hollow his eyes, his hair was long over his eyes, and a rough beard flowed down to his chest. "all the religions," he said, "all the philosophies, have pretended to achieve too much. we've no language yet for religious truth or metaphysical truth; we've no basis yet broad enough and strong enough on which to build. religion and philosophy have been impudent and quackish--quackish! they've been like the doctors, who have always pretended they could cure since the beginning of things, cure everything, and to this day even they haven't got more than the beginnings of knowledge on which to base a cure. they've lacked humility, they've lacked the honour to say they didn't know; the priests took things of wood and stone, the philosophers took little odd arrangements of poor battered words, metaphors, analogies, abstractions, and said: "that's it! think of their silly old absolute,--ab-solutus, an untied parcel. i heard haldane at the aristotelian once, go on for an hour--no! it was longer than an hour--as glib and slick as a well-oiled sausage-machine, about the different sorts of absolute, and not a soul of us laughed out at him! the vanity of such profundities! they've no faith, faith in patience, faith to wait for the coming of god. and since we don't know god, since we don't know his will with us, isn't it plain that all our lives should be a search for him and it? can anything else matter,--after we are free from necessity? that is the work now that is before all mankind, to attempt understanding--by the perpetual finding of thought and the means of expression, by perpetual extension and refinement of science, by the research that every artist makes for beauty and significance in his art, by the perpetual testing and destruction and rebirth under criticism of all these things, and by a perpetual extension of this intensifying wisdom to more minds and more minds and more, till all men share in it, and share in the making of it.... there you have my creed, marjorie; there you have the very marrow of me."... he became silent. "will you go back to your work?" she said, abruptly. "go back to your laboratory?" he stared at her for a moment without speaking. "never," he said at last. "but," she said, and the word dropped from her like a stone that falls down a well.... "my dear," he said, at last, "i've thought of that. but since i left that dear, dusty little laboratory, and all those exquisite subtle things--i've lived. i've left that man seven long years behind me. some other man must go on--i think some younger man--with the riddles i found to work on then. i've grown--into something different. it isn't how atoms swing with one another, or why they build themselves up so and not so, that matters any more to me. i've got you and all the world in which we live, and a new set of riddles filling my mind, how thought swings about thought, how one man attracts his fellows, how the waves of motive and conviction sweep through a crowd and all the little drifting crystallizations of spirit with spirit and all the repulsions and eddies and difficulties, that one can catch in that turbulent confusion. i want to do a new sort of work now altogether.... life has swamped me once, but i don't think it will get me under again;--i want to study men." he paused and she waited, with a face aglow. "i want to go back to watch and think--and i suppose write. i believe i shall write criticism. but everything that matters is criticism!... i want to get into contact with the men who are thinking. i don't mean to meet them necessarily, but to get into the souls of their books. every writer who has anything to say, every artist who matters, is the stronger for every man or woman who responds to him. that's the great work--the reality. i want to become a part of this stuttering attempt to express, i want at least to resonate, even if i do not help.... and you with me, marjorie--you with me! everything i write i want you to see and think about. i want you to read as i read.... now after so long, now that, now that we've begun to talk, you know, talk again----" something stopped his voice. something choked them both into silence. he held out a lean hand, and she shuffled on her knees to take it.... "don't please make me," she stumbled through her thoughts, "one of those little parasitic, parroting wives--don't pretend too much about me--because you want me with you----. don't forget a woman isn't a man." "old madge," he said, "you and i have got to march together. didn't i love you from the first, from that time when i was a boy examiner and you were a candidate girl--because your mind was clear?" "and we will go back," she whispered, "with a work----" "with a purpose," he said. she disengaged herself from his arm, and sat close to him upon the floor. "i think i can see what you will do," she said. she mused. "for the first time i begin to see things as they may be for us. i begin to see a life ahead. for the very first time." queer ideas came drifting into her head. suddenly she cried out sharply in that high note he loved. "good heavens!" she said. "the absurdity! the infinite absurdity!" "but what?" "i might have married will magnet----. that's all." she sprang to her feet. there came a sound of wind outside, a shifting of snow on the roof, and the door creaked. "half-past eleven," she exclaimed looking at the watch that hung in the light of the stove door. "i don't want to sleep yet; do you? i'm going to brew some tea--make a convivial drink. and then we will go on talking. it's so good talking to you. so good!... i've an idea! don't you think on this special day, it might run to a biscuit?" her face was keenly anxious. he nodded. "one biscuit each," she said, trying to rob her voice of any note of criminality. "just one, you know, won't matter." she hovered for some moments close to the stove before she went into the arctic corner that contained the tin of tea. "if we can really live like that!" she said. "when we are home again." "why not?" he answered. she made no answer, but went across for the tea.... he turned his head at the sound of the biscuit tin and watched her put out the precious discs. "i shall have another pipe," he proclaimed, with an agreeable note of excess. "thank heaven for unstinted tobacco...." and now marjorie's mind was teaming with thoughts of this new conception of a life lived for understanding. as she went about the preparation of the tea, her vividly concrete imagination was active with the realization of the life they would lead on their return. she could not see it otherwise than framed in a tall, fine room, a study, a study in sombre tones, with high, narrow, tall, dignified bookshelves and rich deep green curtains veiling its windows. there should be a fireplace of white marble, very plain and well proportioned, with furnishings of old brass, and a big desk towards the window beautifully lit by electric light, with abundant space for papers to lie. and she wanted some touch of the wilderness about it; a skin perhaps.... the tea was still infusing when she had determined upon an enormous paper-weight of that iridescent labradorite that had been so astonishing a feature of the green river valley. she would have it polished on one side only--the other should be rough to show the felspar in its natural state.... it wasn't that she didn't feel and understand quite fully the intention and significance of all he had said, but that in these symbols of texture and equipment her mind quite naturally clothed itself. and while this room was coming into anticipatory being in her mind, she was making the tea very deftly and listening to trafford's every word. § that talk marked an epoch to marjorie. from that day forth her imagination began to shape a new, ordered and purposeful life for trafford and herself in london, a life not altogether divorced from their former life, but with a faith sustaining it and aims controlling it. she had always known of the breadth and power of his mind, but now as he talked of what he might do, what interests might converge and give results through him, it seemed she really knew him for the first time. in his former researches, so technical and withdrawn, she had seen little of his mind in action: now he was dealing in his own fashion with things she could clearly understand. there were times when his talk affected her like that joy of light one has in emerging into sunshine from a long and tedious cave. he swept things together, flashed unsuspected correlations upon her intelligence, smashed and scattered absurd yet venerated conventions of thought, made undreamt-of courses of action visible in a flare of luminous necessity. and she could follow him and help him. just as she had hampered him and crippled him, so now she could release him--she fondled that word. she found a preposterous image in her mind that she hid like a disgraceful secret, that she tried to forget, and yet its stupendous, its dreamlike absurdity had something in it that shaped her delight as nothing else could do; she was, she told herself--hawking with an archangel!... these were her moods of exaltation. and she was sure she had never loved her man before, that this was indeed her beginning. it was as if she had just found him.... perhaps, she thought, true lovers keep on finding each other all through their lives. and he too had discovered her. all the host of marjories he had known, the shining, delightful, seductive, wilful, perplexing aspects that had so filled her life, gave place altogether for a time to this steady-eyed woman, lean and warm-wrapped with the valiant heart and the frost-roughened skin. what a fine, strong, ruddy thing she was! how glad he was for this wild adventure in the wilderness, if only because it had made him lie among the rocks and think of her and wait for her and despair of her life and god, and at last see her coming back to him, flushed with effort and calling his name to him out of that whirlwind of snow.... and there was at least one old memory mixed up with all these new and overmastering impressions, the memory of her clear unhesitating voice as it had stabbed into his life again long years ago, minute and bright in the telephone: "_it's me, you know. it's marjorie!_" perhaps after all she had not wasted a moment of his life, perhaps every issue between them had been necessary, and it was good altogether to be turned from the study of crystals to the study of men and women.... and now both their minds were londonward, where all the tides and driftage and currents of human thought still meet and swirl together. they were full of what they would do when they got back. marjorie sketched that study to him--in general terms and without the paper-weight--and began to shape the world she would have about it. she meant to be his squaw and body-servant first of all, and then--a mother. children, she said, are none the worse for being kept a little out of focus. and he was rapidly planning out his approach to the new questions to which he was now to devote his life. "one wants something to hold the work together," he said, and projected a book. "one cannot struggle at large for plain statement and copious and free and courageous statement, one needs a positive attack." he designed a book, which he might write if only for the definition it would give him and with no ultimate publication, which was to be called: "the limits of language as a means of expression." ... it was to be a pragmatist essay, a sustained attempt to undermine the confidence of all that scholasticism and logic chopping which still lingers like the _sequelæ_ of a disease in our university philosophy. "those duffers sit in their studies and make a sort of tea of dry old words--and think they're distilling the spirit of wisdom," he said. he proliferated titles for a time, and settled at last on "from realism to reality." he wanted to get at that at once; it fretted him to have to hang in the air, day by day, for want of books to quote and opponents to lance and confute. and he wanted to see pictures, too and plays, read novels he had heard of and never read, in order to verify or correct the ideas that were seething in his mind about the qualities of artistic expression. his thought had come out to a conviction that the line to wider human understandings lies through a huge criticism and cleaning up of the existing methods of formulation, as a preliminary to the wider and freer discussion of those religious and social issues our generation still shrinks from. "it's grotesque," he said, "and utterly true that the sanity and happiness of all the world lies in its habits of generalization." there was not even paper for him to make notes or provisional drafts of the new work. he hobbled about the camp fretting at these deprivations. "marjorie," he said, "we've done our job. why should we wait here on this frosty shelf outside the world? my leg's getting sounder--if it wasn't for that feeling of ice in it. why shouldn't we make another sledge from the other bunk and start down--" "to hammond?" "why not?" "but the way?" "the valley would guide us. we could do four hours a day before we had to camp. i'm not sure we couldn't try the river. we could drag and carry all our food...." she looked down the wide stretches of the valley. there was the hill they had christened marjorie ridge. at least it was familiar. every night before nightfall if they started there would be a fresh camping place to seek among the snow-drifts, a great heap of wood to cut to last the night. suppose his leg gave out--when they were already some days away, so that he could no longer go on or she drag him back to the stores. plainly there would be nothing for it then but to lie down and die together.... and a sort of weariness had come to her as a consequence of two months of half-starved days, not perhaps a failure so much as a reluctance of spirit. "of course," she said, with a new aspect drifting before her mind, "then--we _could_ eat. we _could_ feed up before we started. we could feast almost!" § "while you were asleep the other night," trafford began one day as they sat spinning out their mid-day meal, "i was thinking how badly i had expressed myself when i talked to you the other day, and what a queer, thin affair i made of the plans i wanted to carry out. as a matter of fact, they're neither queer nor thin, but they are unreal in comparison with the common things of everyday life, hunger, anger, all the immediate desires. they must be. they only begin when those others are at peace. it's hard to set out these things; they're complicated and subtle, and one cannot simplify without falsehood. i don't want to simplify. the world has gone out of its way time after time through simplifications and short cuts. save us from epigrams! and when one thinks over what one has said, at a little distance,--one wants to go back to it, and say it all again. i seem to be not so much thinking things out as reviving and developing things i've had growing in my mind ever since we met. it's as though an immense reservoir of thought had filled up in my mind at last and was beginning to trickle over and break down the embankment between us. this conflict that has been going on between our life together and my--my intellectual life; it's only just growing clear in my own mind. yet it's just as if one turned up a light on something that had always been there.... "it's a most extraordinary thing to think out, marjorie, that antagonism. our love has kept us so close together and always our purposes have been--like that." he spread divergent hands. "i've speculated again and again whether there isn't something incurably antagonistic between women (that's _you_ generalized, marjorie) and men (that's me) directly we pass beyond the conditions of the individualistic struggle. i believe every couple of lovers who've ever married have felt that strain. yet it's not a difference in kind between us but degree. the big conflict between us has a parallel in a little internal conflict that goes on; there's something of man in every woman and a touch of the feminine in every man. but you're nearer as woman to the immediate personal life of sense and reality than i am as man. it's been so ever since the men went hunting and fighting and the women kept hut, tended the children and gathered roots in the little cultivation close at hand. it's been so perhaps since the female carried and suckled her child and distinguished one male from another. it may be it will always be so. men were released from that close, continuous touch with physical necessities long before women were. it's only now that women begin to be released. for ages now men have been wandering from field and home and city, over the hills and far away, in search of adventures and fresh ideas and the wells of mystery beyond the edge of the world, but it's only now that the woman comes with them too. our difference isn't a difference in kind, old marjorie; it's the difference between the old adventurer and the new feet upon the trail." "we've got to come," said marjorie. "oh! you've got to come. no good to be pioneers if the race does not follow. the women are the backbone of the race; the men are just the individuals. into this labrador and into all the wild and desolate places of thought and desire, if men come you women have to come too--and bring the race with you. some day." "a long day, mate of my heart." "who knows how long or how far? aren't you at any rate here, dear woman of mine.... (_surely you are here_)." he went off at a tangent. "there's all those words that seem to mean something and then don't seem to mean anything, that keep shifting to and fro from the deepest significance to the shallowest of claptrap, socialism, christianity.... you know,--they aren't anything really, as yet; they are something trying to be.... haven't i said that before, marjorie?" she looked round at him. "you said something like that when you were delirious," she answered, after a little pause. "it's one of the ideas that you're struggling with. you go on, old man, and _talk_. we've months--for repetitions." "well, i mean that all these things are seeking after a sort of co-operation that's greater than our power even of imaginative realization; that's what i mean. the kingdom of heaven, the communion of saints, the fellowship of men; these are things like high peaks far out of the common life of every day, shining things that madden certain sorts of men to climb. certain sorts of us! i'm a religious man, i'm a socialistic man. these calls are more to me than my daily bread. i've got something in me more generalizing than most men. i'm more so than many other men and most other women, i'm more socialistic than you...." "you know, marjorie, i've always felt you're a finer individual than me, i've never had a doubt of it. you're more beautiful by far than i, woman for my man. you've a keener appetite for things, a firmer grip on the substance of life. i love to see you do things, love to see you move, love to watch your hands; you've cleverer hands than mine by far.... and yet--i'm a deeper and bigger thing than you. i reach up to something you don't reach up to.... you're in life--and i'm a little out of it, i'm like one of those fish that began to be amphibian, i go out into something where you don't follow--where you hardly begin to follow. "that's the real perplexity between thousands of men and women.... "it seems to me that the primitive socialism of christianity and all the stuff of modern socialism that matters is really aiming--almost unconsciously, i admit at times--at one simple end, at the release of the human spirit from the individualistic struggle---- "you used 'release' the other day, marjorie? of course, i remember. it's queer how i go on talking after you have understood." "it was just a flash," said marjorie. "we have intimations. neither of us really understands. we're like people climbing a mountain in a mist, that thins out for a moment and shows valleys and cities, and then closes in again, before we can recognize them or make out where we are." trafford thought. "when i talk to you, i've always felt i mustn't be too vague. and the very essence of all this is a vague thing, something we shall never come nearer to it in all our lives than to see it as a shadow and a glittering that escapes again into a mist.... and yet it's everything that matters, everything, the only thing that matters truly and for ever through the whole range of life. and we have to serve it with the keenest thought, the utmost patience, inordinate veracity.... "the practical trouble between your sort and my sort, marjorie, is the trouble between faith and realization. you demand the outcome. oh! and i hate to turn aside and realize. i've had to do it for seven years. damnable years! men of my sort want to understand. we want to understand, and you ask us to make. we want to understand atoms, ions, molecules, refractions. you ask us to make rubber and diamonds. i suppose it's right that incidentally we should make rubber and diamonds. finally, i warn you, we will make rubber unnecessary and diamonds valueless. and again we want to understand how people react upon one another to produce social consequences, and you ask us to put it at once into a draft bill for the reform of something or other. i suppose life lies between us somewhere, we're the two poles of truth seeking and truth getting; with me alone it would be nothing but a luminous dream, with you nothing but a scramble in which sooner or later all the lamps would be upset.... but it's ever too much of a scramble yet, and ever too little of a dream. all our world over there is full of the confusion and wreckage of premature realizations. there's no real faith in thought and knowledge yet. old necessity has driven men so hard that they still rush with a wild urgency--though she goads no more. greed and haste, and if, indeed, we seem to have a moment's breathing space, then the gawdsaker tramples us under." "my dear!" cried marjorie, with a sharp note of amusement. "what _is_ a gawdsaker?" "oh," said trafford, "haven't you heard that before? he's the person who gets excited by any deliberate discussion and gets up wringing his hands and screaming, 'for gawd's sake, let's _do_ something _now!_' i think they used it first for pethick lawrence, that man who did so much to run the old militant suffragettes and burke the proper discussion of woman's future. you know. you used to have 'em in chelsea--with their hats. oh! 'gawdsaking' is the curse of all progress, the hectic consumption that kills a thousand good beginnings. you see it in small things and in great. you see it in my life; gawdsaking turned my life-work to cash and promotions, gawdsaking----look at the way the aviators took to flying for prizes and gate-money, the way pure research is swamped by endowments for technical applications! then that poor ghost-giant of an idea the socialists have;--it's been treated like one of those unborn lambs they kill for the fine skin of it, made into results before ever it was alive. was there anything more pitiful? the first great dream and then the last phase! when your aunt plessington and the district visitors took and used it as a synonym for payment in kind.... it's natural, i suppose, for people to be eager for results, personal and immediate results--the last lesson of life is patience. naturally they want reality, naturally! they want the individual life, something to handle and feel and use and live by, something of their very own before they die, and they want it now. but the thing that matters for the race, marjorie, is a very different thing; it is to get the emerging thought process clear and to keep it clear--and to let those other hungers go. we've got to go back to england on the side of that delay, that arrest of interruption, that detached, observant, synthesizing process of the mind, that solvent of difficulties and obsolescent institutions, which is the reality of collective human life. we've got to go back on the side of pure science--literature untrammeled by the preconceptions of the social schemers--art free from the urgency of immediate utility--and a new, a regal, a god-like sincerity in philosophy. and, above all, we've got to stop this jackdaw buying of yours, my dear, which is the essence of all that is wrong with the world, this snatching at everything, which loses everything worth having in life, this greedy confused realization of our accumulated resources! you're going to be a non-shopping woman now. you're to come out of bond street, you and your kind, like israel leaving the egyptian flesh-pots. you're going to be my wife and my mate.... less of this service of things. investments in comfort, in security, in experience, yes; but not just spending any more...." he broke off abruptly with: "i want to go back and begin." "yes," said marjorie, "we will go back," and saw minutely and distantly, and yet as clearly and brightly as if she looked into a concave mirror, that tall and dignified study, a very high room indeed, with a man writing before a fine, long-curtained window and a great lump of rich-glowing labradorite upon his desk before him holding together an accumulation of written sheets.... she knew exactly the shop in oxford street where the stuff for the curtains might be best obtained. § one night marjorie had been sitting musing before the stove for a long time, and suddenly she said: "i wonder if we shall fail. i wonder if we shall get into a mess again when we are back in london.... as big a mess and as utter a discontent as sent us here...." trafford was scraping out his pipe, and did not answer for some moments. then he remarked: "what nonsense!" "but we shall," she said. "everybody fails. to some extent, we are bound to fail. because indeed nothing is clear; nothing is a clear issue.... you know--i'm just the old marjorie really in spite of all these resolutions--the spendthrift, the restless, the eager. i'm a born snatcher and shopper. we're just the same people really." "no," he said, after thought. "you're all labrador older." "i always _have_ failed," she considered, "when it came to any special temptations, rag. i can't _stand_ not having a thing!" he made no answer. "and you're still the same old rag, you know," she went on. "who weakens into kindness if i cry. who likes me well-dressed. who couldn't endure to see me poor." "not a bit of it. no! i'm a very different rag with a very different marjorie. yes indeed! things--are graver. why!--i'm lame for life--and i've a scar. the very _look_ of things is changed...." he stared at her face and said: "you've hidden the looking-glass and you think i haven't noted it----" "it keeps on healing," she interrupted. "and if it comes to that--where's my complexion?" she laughed. "these are just the superficial aspects of the case." "nothing ever heals completely," he said, answering her first sentence, "and nothing ever goes back to the exact place it held before. we _are_ different, you sun-bitten, frost-bitten wife of mine."... "character is character," said marjorie, coming back to her point. "don't exaggerate conversion, dear. it's not a bit of good pretending we shan't fall away, both of us. each in our own manner. we shall. we shall, old man. london is still a tempting and confusing place, and you can't alter people fundamentally, not even by half-freezing and half-starving them. you only alter people fundamentally by killing them and replacing them. i shall be extravagant again and forget again, try as i may, and you will work again and fall away again and forgive me again. you know----it's just as though we were each of us not one person, but a lot of persons, who sometimes meet and shout all together, and then disperse and forget and plot against each other...." "oh, things will happen again," said trafford, in her pause. "but they will happen again with a difference--after this. with a difference. that's the good of it all.... we've found something here--that makes everything different.... we've found each other, too, dear wife." she thought intently. "i am afraid," she whispered. "but what is there to be afraid of?" "_myself_." she spoke after a little pause that seemed to hesitate. "at times i wish--oh, passionately!--that i could pray." "why don't you?" "i don't believe enough--in that. i wish i did." trafford thought. "people are always so exacting about prayer," he said. "exacting." "you want to pray--and you can't make terms for a thing you want. i used to think i could. i wanted god to come and demonstrate a bit.... it's no good, madge.... if god chooses to be silent--you must pray to the silence. if he chooses to live in darkness, you must pray to the night...." "yes," said marjorie, "i suppose one must." she thought. "i suppose in the end one does," she said.... § mixed up with this entirely characteristic theology of theirs and their elaborate planning-out of a new life in london were other strands of thought. queer memories of london and old times together would flash with a peculiar brightness across their contemplation of the infinities and the needs of mankind. out of nowhere, quite disconnectedly, would come the human, finite: "do you remember----?" two things particularly pressed into their minds. one was the thought of their children, and i do not care to tell how often in the day now they calculated the time in england, and tried to guess to a half mile or so where those young people might be and what they might be doing. "the shops are bright for christmas now," said marjorie. "this year dick was to have had his first fireworks. i wonder if he did. i wonder if he burnt his dear little funny stumps of fingers. i hope not." "oh, just a little," said trafford. "i remember how a squib made my glove smoulder and singed me, and how my mother kissed me for taking it like a man. it was the best part of the adventure." "dick shall burn his fingers when his mother's home to kiss him. but spare his fingers now, dadda...." the other topic was food. it was only after they had been doing it for a week or so that they remarked how steadily they gravitated to reminiscences, suggestions, descriptions and long discussions of eatables--sound, solid eatables. they told over the particulars of dinners they had imagined altogether forgotten; neither hosts nor conversations seemed to matter now in the slightest degree, but every item in the menu had its place. they nearly quarrelled one day about _hors-d'oeuvre_. trafford wanted to dwell on them when marjorie was eager for the soup. "it's niggling with food," said marjorie. "oh, but there's no reason," said trafford, "why you shouldn't take a lot of _hors-d'oeuvre_. three or four sardines, and potato salad and a big piece of smoked salmon, and some of that norwegian herring, and so on, and keep the olives by you to pick at. it's a beginning." "it's--it's immoral," said marjorie, "that's what i feel. if one needs a whet to eat, one shouldn't eat. the proper beginning of a dinner is soup--good, hot, _rich_ soup. thick soup--with things in it, vegetables and meat and things. bits of oxtail." "not peas." "no, not peas. pea-soup is tiresome. i never knew anything one tired of so soon. i wish we hadn't relied on it so much." "thick soup's all very well," said trafford, "but how about that clear stuff they give you in the little pavement restaurants in paris. you know--_croûte-au-pot_, with lovely great crusts and big leeks and lettuce leaves and so on! tremendous aroma of onions, and beautiful little beads of fat! and being a clear soup, you see what there is. that's--interesting. twenty-five centimes, marjorie. lord! i'd give a guinea a plate for it. i'd give five pounds for one of those jolly white-metal tureens full--you know, _full_, with little drops all over the outside of it, and the ladle sticking out under the lid." "have you ever tasted turtle soup?" "rather. they give it you in the city. the fat's--ripping. but they're rather precious with it, you know. for my own part, i don't think soup should be _doled_ out. i always liked the soup we used to get at the harts'; but then they never give you enough, you know--not nearly enough." "about a tablespoonful," said marjorie. "it's mocking an appetite." "still there's things to follow," said trafford.... they discussed the proper order of a dinner very carefully. they decided that sorbets and ices were not only unwholesome, but nasty. "in london," said trafford, "one's taste gets--vitiated."... they weighed the merits of french cookery, modern international cookery, and produced alternatives. trafford became very eloquent about old english food. "dinners," said trafford, "should be feasting, not the mere satisfaction of a necessity. there should be--_amplitude_. i remember a recipe for a pie; i think it was in one of those books that man lucas used to compile. if i remember rightly, it began with: 'take a swine and hew it into gobbets.' gobbets! that's something like a beginning. it was a big pie with tiers and tiers of things, and it kept it up all the way in that key.... and then what could be better than prime british-fed roast beef, reddish, just a shade on the side of underdone, and not too finely cut. mutton can't touch it." "beef is the best," she said. "then our english cold meat again. what can equal it? such stuff as they give in a good country inn, a huge joint of beef--you cut from it yourself, you know as much as you like--with mustard, pickles, celery, a tankard of stout, let us say. pressed beef, such as they'll give you at the reform, too, that's good eating for a man. with chutney, and then old cheese to follow. and boiled beef, with little carrots and turnips and a dumpling or so. eh?" "of course," said marjorie, "one must do justice to a well-chosen turkey, a _fat_ turkey." "or a good goose, for the matter of that--with honest, well-thought-out stuffing. i like the little sausages round the dish of a turkey, too; like cherubs they are, round the feet of a madonna.... there's much to be said for sausage, marjorie. it concentrates." sausage led to germany. "i'm not one of those patriots," he was saying presently, "who run down other countries by way of glorifying their own. while i was in germany i tasted many good things. there's their leberwurst; it's never bad, and, at its best, it's splendid. it's only a fool would reproach germany with sausage. devonshire black-pudding, of course, is the master of any blutwurst, but there's all those others on the german side, frankfurter, big reddish sausage stuff again with great crystalline lumps of white fat. and how well they cook their rich hashes, and the thick gravies they make. curious, how much better the cooking of teutonic peoples is than the cooking of the south europeans! it's as if one needed a colder climate to brace a cook to his business. the frenchman and the italian trifle and stimulate. it's as if they'd never met a hungry man. no german would have thought of _soufflé_. ugh! it's vicious eating. there's much that's fine, though, in austria and hungary. i wish i had travelled in hungary. do you remember how once or twice we've lunched at that viennese place in regent street, and how they've given us stuffed paprika, eh?" "that was a good place. i remember there was stewed beef once with a lot of barley--such _good_ barley!" "every country has its glories. one talks of the cookery of northern countries and then suddenly one thinks of curry, with lots of rice." "and lots of chicken!" "and lots of hot curry powder, _very_ hot. and look at america! here's a people who haven't any of them been out of europe for centuries, and yet they have as different a table as you could well imagine. there's a kind of fish, planked shad, that they cook on resinous wood--roast it, i suppose. it's substantial, like nothing else in the world. and how good, too, with turkey are sweet potatoes. then they have such a multitude of cereal things; stuff like their buckwheat cakes, all swimming in golden syrup. and indian corn, again!" "of course, corn is being anglicized. i've often given you corn--latterly, before we came away." "that sort of separated grain--out of tins. like chicken's food! it's not the real thing. you should eat corn on the cob--american fashion! it's fine. i had it when i was in the states. you know, you take it up in your hands by both ends--you've seen the cobs?--and gnaw." the craving air of labrador at a temperature of - ° fahrenheit, and methodically stinted rations, make great changes in the outward qualities of the mind. "_i'd_ like to do that," said marjorie. her face flushed a little at a guilty thought, her eyes sparkled. she leant forward and spoke in a confidential undertone. "_i'd--i'd like to eat a mutton chop like that_," said marjorie. § one morning marjorie broached something she had had on her mind for several days. "old man," she said, "i can't stand it any longer. i'm going to thaw my scissors and cut your hair.... and then you'll have to trim that beard of yours." "you'll have to dig out that looking-glass." "i know," said marjorie. she looked at him. "you'll never be a pretty man again," she said. "but there's a sort of wild splendour.... and i love every inch and scrap of you...." their eyes met. "we're a thousand deeps now below the look of things," said trafford. "we'd love each other minced." she broke into that smiling laugh of hers. "oh! it won't come to _that_," she said. "trust my housekeeping!" chapter the fifth the trail to the sea § one astonishing afternoon in january a man came out of the wilderness to lonely hut. he was a french-indian half-breed, a trapper up and down the green river and across the height of land to sea lake. he arrived in a sort of shy silence, and squatted amiably on a log to thaw. "much snow," he said, "and little fur." after he had sat at their fire for an hour and eaten and drunk, his purpose in coming thawed out. he explained he had just come on to them to see how they were. he was, he said, a planter furring; he had a line of traps, about a hundred and twenty miles in length. the nearest trap in his path before he turned northward over the divide was a good forty miles down the river. he had come on from there. just to have a look. his name, he said, was louis napoleon partington. he had carried a big pack, a rifle and a dead marten,--they lay beside him--and out of his shapeless mass of caribou skins and woolen clothing and wrappings, peeped a genial, oily, brown face, very dirty, with a strand of blue-black hair across one eye, irregular teeth in its friendly smile, and little, squeezed-up eyes. conversation developed. there had been doubts of his linguistic range at first, but he had an understanding expression, and his english seemed guttural rather than really bad. he was told the tremendous story of trafford's leg; was shown it, and felt it; he interpolated thick and whistling noises to show how completely he followed their explanations, and then suddenly he began a speech that made all his earlier taciturnity seem but the dam of a great reservoir of mixed and partly incomprehensible english. he complimented marjorie so effusively and relentlessly and shamelessly as to produce a pause when he had done. "yes," he said, and nodded to button up the whole. he sucked his pipe, well satisfied with his eloquence. trafford spoke in his silence. "we are coming down," he said. ("i thought, perhaps----" whispered louis napoleon.) "yes," said trafford, "we are coming down with you. why not? we can get a sledge over the snow now? it's hard? i mean a flat sledge--like _this_. see? like this." he got up and dragged marjorie's old arrangement into view. "we shall bring all the stuff we can down with us, grub, blankets--not the tent, it's too bulky; we'll leave a lot of the heavy gear." "you'd have to leave the tent," said louis napoleon. "i _said_ leave the tent." "and you'd have to leave ... some of those tins." "nearly all of them." "and the ammunition, there;--except just a little." "just enough for the journey down." "perhaps a gun?" "no, not a gun. though, after all,--well, we'd return one of the guns. give it you to bring back here." "bring back here?" "if you liked." for some moments louis napoleon was intently silent. when he spoke his voice was guttural with emotion. "after," he said thoughtfully and paused, and then resolved to have it over forthwith, "all you leave will be mine? eh?" trafford said that was the idea. louis napoleon's eye brightened, but his face preserved its indian calm. "i will take you right to hammond's," he said, "where they have dogs. and then i can come back here...." § they had talked out nearly every particular of their return before they slept that night; they yarned away three hours over the first generous meal that any one of them had eaten for many weeks. louis napoleon stayed in the hut as a matter of course, and reposed with snores and choking upon marjorie's sledge and within a yard of her. it struck her as she lay awake and listened that the housemaids in sussex square would have thought things a little congested for a lady's bedroom, and then she reflected that after all it wasn't much worse than a crowded carriage in an all-night train from switzerland. she tried to count how many people there had been in that compartment, and failed. how stuffy that had been--the smell of cheese and all! and with that, after a dream that she was whaling and had harpooned a particularly short-winded whale she fell very peacefully into oblivion. next day was spent in the careful preparation of the two sledges. they intended to take a full provision for six weeks, although they reckoned that with good weather they ought to be down at hammond's in four. the day after was sunday, and louis napoleon would not look at the sledges or packing. instead he held a kind of religious service which consisted partly in making trafford read aloud out of a very oily old new testament he produced, a selected passage from the book of corinthians, and partly in moaning rather than singing several hymns. he was rather disappointed that they did not join in with him. in the afternoon he heated some water, went into the tent with it and it would appear partially washed his face. in the evening, after they had supped, he discussed religion, being curious by this time about their beliefs and procedure. he spread his mental and spiritual equipment before them very artlessly. their isolation and their immense concentration on each other had made them sensitive to personal quality, and they listened to the broken english and the queer tangential starts into new topics of this dirty mongrel creature with the keenest appreciation of its quality. it was inconsistent, miscellaneous, simple, honest, and human. it was as touching as the medley in the pocket of a dead schoolboy. he was superstitious and sceptical and sensual and spiritual, and very, very earnest. the things he believed, even if they were just beliefs about the weather or drying venison or filling pipes, he believed with emotion. he flushed as he told them. for all his intellectual muddle they felt he knew how to live honestly and die if need be very finely. he was more than a little distressed at their apparent ignorance of the truths of revealed religion as it is taught in the moravian schools upon the coast, and indeed it was manifest that he had had far more careful and infinitely more sincere religious teaching than either trafford or marjorie. for a time the missionary spirit inspired him, and then he quite forgot his solicitude for their conversion in a number of increasingly tall anecdotes about hunters and fishermen, illustrating at first the extreme dangers of any departure from a rigid sabbatarianism, but presently becoming just stories illustrating the uncertainty of life. thence he branched off to the general topic of life upon the coast and the relative advantages of "planter" and fisherman. and then with a kindling eye he spoke of women, and how that some day he would marry. his voice softened, and he addressed himself more particularly to marjorie. he didn't so much introduce the topic of the lady as allow the destined young woman suddenly to pervade his discourse. she was, it seemed, a servant, an esquimaux girl at the moravian mission station at manivikovik. he had been plighted to her for nine years. he described a gramophone he had purchased down at port dupré and brought back to her three hundred miles up the coast--it seemed to marjorie an odd gift for an esquimaux maiden--and he gave his views upon its mechanism. he said god was with the man who invented the gramophone "truly." they would have found one a very great relief to the tediums of their sojourn at lonely hut. the gramophone he had given his betrothed possessed records of the rev. capel gumm's preaching and of madame melba's singing, a revival hymn called "sowing the seed," and a comic song--they could not make out his pronunciation of the title--that made you die with laughter. "it goes gobble, gobble, gobble," he said, with a solemn appreciative reflection of those distant joys. "it's good to be jolly at times," he said with his bright eyes scanning marjorie's face a little doubtfully, as if such ideas were better left for week-day expression. § their return was a very different journey from the toilsome ascent of the summer. an immense abundance of snow masked the world, snow that made them regret acutely they had not equipped themselves with ski. with ski and a good circulation, a man may go about labrador in winter, six times more easily than by the canoes and slow trudging of summer travel. as it was they were glad of their canadian snow shoes. one needs only shelters after the alpine club hut fashion, and all that vast solitary country would be open in the wintertime. its shortest day is no shorter than the shortest day in cumberland or dublin. this is no place to tell of the beauty and wonder of snow and ice, the soft contours of gentle slopes, the rippling of fine snow under a steady wind, the long shadow ridges of shining powder on the lee of trees and stones and rocks, the delicate wind streaks over broad surfaces like the marks of a chisel in marble, the crests and cornices, the vivid brightness of edges in the sun, the glowing yellowish light on sunlit surfaces, the long blue shadows, the flush of sunset and sunrise and the pallid unearthly desolation of snow beneath the moon. nor need the broken snow in woods and amidst tumbled stony slopes be described, nor the vast soft overhanging crests on every outstanding rock beside the icebound river, nor the huge stalactites and stalagmites of green-blue ice below the cliffs, nor trees burdened and broken by frost and snow, nor snow upon ice, nor the blue pools at mid-day upon the surface of the ice-stream. across the smooth wind-swept ice of the open tarns they would find a growth of ice flowers, six-rayed and complicated, more abundant and more beautiful than the alpine summer flowers. but the wind was very bitter, and the sun had scarcely passed its zenith before the thought of fuel and shelter came back into their minds. as they approached partington's tilt, at the point where his trapping ground turned out of the green river gorge, he became greatly obsessed by the thought of his traps. he began to talk of all that he might find in them, all he hoped to find, and the "dallars" that might ensue. they slept the third night, marjorie within and the two men under the lee of the little cabin, and partington was up and away before dawn to a trap towards the ridge. he had infected marjorie and trafford with a sympathetic keenness, but when they saw his killing of a marten that was still alive in its trap, they suddenly conceived a distaste for trapping. they insisted they must witness no more. they would wait while he went to a trap.... "think what he's doing!" said trafford, as they sat together under the lee of a rock waiting for him. "we imagined this was a free, simple-souled man leading an unsophisticated life on the very edge of humanity, and really he is as much a dependant of your woman's world, marjorie, as any sweated seamstress in a marylebone slum. lord! how far those pretty wasteful hands of women reach! all these poor broken and starving beasts he finds and slaughters are, from the point of view of our world, just furs. furs! poor little snarling unfortunates! their pelts will be dressed and prepared because women who have never dreamt of this bleak wilderness desire them. they will get at last into regent street shops, and bond street shops, and shops in fifth avenue and in paris and berlin, they will make delightful deep muffs, with scent and little bags and powder puffs and all sorts of things tucked away inside, and long wraps for tall women, and jolly little frames of soft fur for pretty faces, and dainty coats and rugs for expensive little babies in kensington gardens."... "i wonder," reflected marjorie, "if i could buy one perhaps. as a memento." he looked at her with eyes of quiet amusement. "oh!" she cried, "i didn't mean to! the old eve!" "the old adam is with her," said trafford. "he's wanting to give it her.... we don't cease to be human, madge, you know, because we've got an idea now of just where we are. i wonder, which would you like? i dare say we could arrange it." "no," said marjorie, and thought. "it would be jolly," she said. "all the same, you know--and just to show you--i'm not going to let you buy me that fur." "i'd like to," said trafford. "no," said marjorie, with a decision that was almost fierce. "i mean it. i've got more to do than you in the way of reforming. it's just because always i've let my life be made up of such little things that i mustn't. indeed i mustn't. don't make things hard for me." he looked at her for a moment. "very well," he said. "but i'd have liked to."... "you're right," he added, five seconds later. "oh! i'm right." § one day louis napoleon sent them on along the trail while he went up the mountain to a trap among the trees. he rejoined them--not as his custom was, shouting inaudible conversation for the last hundred yards or so, but in silence. they wondered at that, and at the one clumsy gesture that flourished something darkly grey at them. what had happened to the man? whatever he had caught he was hugging it as one hugs a cat, and stroking it. "ugh!" he said deeply, drawing near. "oh!" a solemn joy irradiated his face, and almost religious ecstasy found expression. he had got a silver fox, a beautifully marked silver fox, the best luck of labrador! one goes for years without one, in hope, and when it comes, it pays the trapper's debts, it clears his life--for years! they tried poor inadequate congratulation.... as they sat about the fire that night a silence came upon louis napoleon. it was manifest that his mind was preoccupied. he got up, walked about, inspected the miracle of fur that had happened to him, returned, regarded them. "'m'm," he said, and stroked his chin with his forefinger. a certain diffidence and yet a certain dignity of assurance mingled in his manner. it wasn't so much a doubt of his own correctness as of some possible ignorance of the finer shades on their part that might embarrass him. he coughed a curt preface, and intimated he had a request to make. behind the indian calm of his face glowed tremendous feeling, like the light of a foundry furnace shining through chinks in the door. he spoke in a small flat voice, exercising great self-control. his wish, he said, in view of all that had happened, was a little thing.... this was nearly a perfect day for him, and one thing only remained.... "well," he said, and hung. "well," said trafford. he plunged. just simply this. would they give him the brandy bottle and let him get drunk? mr. grenfell was a good man, a very good man, but he had made brandy dear--dear beyond the reach of common men altogether--along the coast.... he explained, dear bundle of clothes and dirt! that he was always perfectly respectable when he was drunk. § it seemed strange to trafford that now that marjorie was going home, a wild impatience to see her children should possess her. so long as it had been probable that they would stay out their year in labrador, that separation had seemed mainly a sentimental trouble; now at times it was like an animal craving. she would talk of them for hours at a stretch, and when she was not talking he could see her eyes fixed ahead, and knew that she was anticipating a meeting. and for the first time it seemed the idea of possible misadventure troubled her.... they reached hammond's in one and twenty days from lonely hut, three days they had been forced to camp because of a blizzard, and three because louis napoleon was rigidly sabbatarian. they parted from him reluctantly, and the next day hammond's produced its dogs, twelve stout but extremely hungry dogs, and sent the traffords on to the green river pulp-mills, where there were good beds and a copious supply of hot water. thence they went to manivikovik, and thence the new marconi station sent their inquiries home, inquiries that were answered next day with matter-of-fact brevity: "everyone well, love from all." when the operator hurried with that to marjorie she received it off-handedly, glanced at it carelessly, asked him to smoke, remarked that wireless telegraphy was a wonderful thing, and then, in the midst of some unfinished commonplace about the temperature, broke down and wept wildly and uncontrollably.... § then came the long, wonderful ride southward day after day along the coast to port dupré, a ride from headland to headland across the frozen bays behind long teams of straining, furry dogs, that leapt and yelped as they ran. sometimes over the land the brutes shirked and loitered and called for the whip; they were a quarrelsome crew to keep waiting; but across the sea-ice they went like the wind, and downhill the komatic chased their waving tails. the sledges swayed and leapt depressions, and shot athwart icy stretches. the traffords, spectacled and wrapped to their noses, had all the sensations then of hunting an unknown quarry behind a pack of wolves. the snow blazed under the sun, out to sea beyond the ice the water glittered, and it wasn't so much air they breathed as a sort of joyous hunger. one day their teams insisted upon racing. marjorie's team was the heavier, her driver more skillful, and her sledge the lighter, and she led in that wild chase from start to finish, but ever and again trafford made wild spurts that brought him almost level. once, as he came alongside, she heard him laughing joyously. "marjorie," he shouted, "d'you remember? old donkey cart?" her team yawed away, and as he swept near again, behind his pack of whimpering, straining, furious dogs, she heard him shouting, "you know, that old cart! under the overhanging trees! so thick and green they met overhead! you know! when you and i had our first talk together! in the lane. it wasn't so fast as this, eh?"... § at port dupré they stayed ten days--days that marjorie could only make tolerable by knitting absurd garments for the children (her knitting was atrocious), and then one afternoon they heard the gun of the _grenfell_, the new winter steamer from st. john's, signalling as it came in through the fog, very slowly, from that great wasteful world of men and women beyond the seaward grey. the end * * * * * transcriber's notes: obvious punctuation and hyphenation inconsistencies have been silently repaired. words with variable spelling have been retained. the following spelling and typographical emendations have been made: p. : broken text "were they living and moving realities" was completed to "were they living and moving realities when those others were at home again?" p. : protruberant replaced with protuberant ("large protuberant") p. : pay replaced with play ("what the play was") p. : majorie replaced with marjorie ("marjorie loved singing") p. : feut replaced with felt ("that he felt") p. : téte-à-tête replaced with tête-à-tête ("silent tête-à-tête") p. : foundamental replaced with fundamental ("three fundamental things") p. : fina replaced with final ("working for her final") p. : challenege replaced with challenge ("challenge inattentive auditors") p. : presumbly replaced with presumably ("presumably billy's") p. : ino replaced with into ("into the air") p. : himse_f replaced with himself ("ask himself") p. : contradication replaced with contradiction ("any sort of contradiction") p. : calcalculated replaced with calculated ("indeed calculated") p. : hestitated replaced with hesitated ("she hesitated") p. : intriques replaced with intrigues ("culminations and intrigues") p. : america replaced with american ("american minor poet") p. : acquiscent replaced with acquiescent ("by no means acquiescent") p. : it's replaced with its ("its end was the agenda club") p. : regime replaced with régime ("the new régime") p. : number of section replaced with p. : gestulated replaced with gesticulated ("solomonson gesticulated") p. : the paragraphs starting with: "it was all" and "you said good-bye" were merged p. : the paragraphs starting with: "they aren't arranged" and "they'd get everything" were merged p. : devine replaced with divine ("by right divine of genius") p. : presumptious replaced with presumptuous ("extremely presumptuous") p. : mispelling replaced with misspelling ("as much misspelling as") p. : the replaced with they ("they gave dinners") p. : the replaced with they ("they could play") p. : docter replaced with doctor ("doctor codger") p. : authoritive replaced with authoritative ("authoritative imagine") p. : shuldered replaced with shouldered ("as he shouldered") p. : wet replaced with went ("trafford's eyes went from") p. : subthe replaced with subtle ("skilful, subtle appreciation") p. : fine replaced with find ("find god") p. : chidren replaced with children ("of having children at all") p. : serere replaced with serene ("brightly serene") p. : tundura replaced with tundra ("wide stretches of tundra") p. : rucksac replaced with rucksack ("chunks of dry paper, the rucksack") p. : realties replaced with realities ("expression of the realities") p. : the duplicate phrase "he stared at her" was removed p. : think replaced with thing ("salvation is a collective thing") p. : realty replaced with reality ("of sense and reality") p. : greal replaced with great ("a great lump") p. : caluclated replaced with calculated ("now they calculated") p. : travellel replaced with travelled ("i had travelled") p. : gutteral replaced with guttural ("seemed guttural") p. : gutteral replaced with guttural ("his voice was guttural") p. : slaughers replaced with slaughters ("he finds and slaughters") [illustration: fifth avenue, new york] the future in america a search after realities by h.g. wells author of "anticipations" "the war of the worlds" "thirty strange stories" etc. illustrated [illustration] harper & brothers publishers new york and london copyright, , by harper & brothers. _all rights reserved._ published november, . contents chap. page i. the prophetic habit of mind ii. material progress iii. new york iv. growth invincible v. the economic process vi. some aspects of american wealth vii. certain workers viii. corruption ix. the immigrant x. state-blindness xi. two studies in disappointment xii. the tragedy of color xiii. the mind of a modern state xiv. culture xv. at washington the envoy illustrations fifth avenue, new york _frontispiece_ entrance to brooklyn bridge _facing p._ state street, chicago " western farmers still own their farms " plump and pretty pupils of extravagance " new york's crowded, littered east side " breaker boys at a pennsylvania colliery " interior of a new york office building " where immigrant children are americanized " harvard hall and the johnson gate, cambridge " a bit of princeton university " in the congressional library " the future in america the future in america chapter i the prophetic habit of mind (_at a writing-desk in sandgate_) i the question "are you a polygamist?" "are you an anarchist?" the questions seem impertinent. they are part of a long paper of interrogations i must answer satisfactorily if i am to be regarded as a desirable alien to enter the united states of america. i want very much to pass that great statue of liberty illuminating the world (from a central position in new york harbor), in order to see things in its light, to talk to certain people, to appreciate certain atmospheres, and so i resist the provocation to answer impertinently. i do not even volunteer that i do not smoke and am a total abstainer; on which points it would seem the states as a whole still keep an open mind. i am full of curiosity about america, i am possessed by a problem i feel i cannot adequately discuss even with myself except over there, and i must go even at the price of coming to a decision upon the theoretically open questions these two inquiries raise. my problem i know will seem ridiculous and monstrous when i give it in all its stark disproportions--attacked by me with my equipment it will call up an image of an elephant assailed by an ant who has not even mastered jiu-jitsu--but at any rate i've come to it in a natural sort of way and it is one i must, for my own peace of mind, make some kind of attempt upon, even if at last it means no more than the ant crawling in an exploratory way hither and thither over that vast unconscious carcass and finally getting down and going away. that may be rather good for the ant, and the experience may be of interest to other ants, however infinitesimal from the point of view of the elephant, the final value of his investigation may be. and this tremendous problem in my case and now in this--simply; what is going to happen to the united states of america in the next thirty years or so? i do not know if the reader has ever happened upon any books or writings of mine before, but if, what is highly probable, he has not, he may be curious to know how it is that any human being should be running about in so colossally an interrogative state of mind. (for even the present inquiry is by no means my maximum limit). and the explanation is to be found a little in a mental idiosyncrasy perhaps, but much more in the development of a special way of thinking, of a habit of mind. that habit of mind may be indicated by a proposition that, with a fine air of discovery, i threw out some years ago, in a happy ignorance that i had been anticipated by no less a person than heraclitus. "there is no being but becoming," that was what appeared to my unscholarly mind to be almost triumphantly new. i have since then informed myself more fully about heraclitus, there are moments now when i more than half suspect that all the thinking i shall ever do will simply serve to illuminate my understanding of him, but at any rate that apothegm of his does exactly convey the intellectual attitude into which i fall. i am curiously not interested in things, and curiously interested in the consequences of things. i wouldn't for the world go to see the united states for what they are--if i had sound reason for supposing that the entire western hemisphere was to be destroyed next christmas, i should not, i think, be among the multitude that would rush for one last look at that great spectacle,--from which it follows naturally that i don't propose to see niagara. i should much more probably turn an inquiring visage eastward, with the west so certainly provided for. i have come to be, i am afraid, even a little insensitive to fine immediate things through this anticipatory habit. this habit of mind confronts and perplexes my sense of things that simply _are_, with my brooding preoccupation with how they will shape presently, what they will lead to, what seed they will sow and how they will wear. at times, i can assure the reader, this quality approaches otherworldliness, in its constant reference to an all-important here-after. there are times indeed when it makes life seem so transparent and flimsy, seem so dissolving, so passing on to an equally transitory series of consequences, that the enhanced sense of instability becomes restlessness and distress; but on the other hand nothing that exists, nothing whatever, remains altogether vulgar or dull and dead or hopeless in its light. but the interest is shifted. the pomp and splendor of established order, the braying triumphs, ceremonies, consummations, one sees these glittering shows for what they are--through their threadbare grandeur shine the little significant things that will make the future.... and now that i am associating myself with great names, let me discover that i find this characteristic turn of mind of mine, not only in heraclitus, the most fragmentary of philosophers, but for one fine passage at any rate, in mr. henry james, the least fragmentary of novelists. in his recent impressions of america i find him apostrophizing the great mansions of fifth avenue, in words quite after my heart;-- "it's all very well," he writes, "for you to look as if, since you've had no past, you're going in, as the next best thing, for a magnificent compensatory future. what are you going to make your future _of_, for all your airs, we want to know? what elements of a future, as futures have gone in the great world, are at all assured to you?" i had already when i read that, figured myself as addressing if not these particular last triumphs of the fine transatlantic art of architecture, then at least america in general in some such words. it is not unpleasant to be anticipated by the chief master of one's craft, it is indeed, when one reflects upon his peculiar intimacy with this problem, enormously reassuring, and so i have very gladly annexed his phrasing and put it here to honor and adorn and in a manner to explain my own enterprise. i have already studied some of these fine buildings through the mediation of an illustrated magazine--they appear solid, they appear wonderful and well done to the highest pitch--and before many days now i shall, i hope, reconstruct that particular moment, stand--the latest admirer from england--regarding these portentous magnificences, from the same sidewalk--will they call it?--as my illustrious predecessor, and with his question ringing in my mind all the louder for their proximity, and the universally acknowledged invigoration of the american atmosphere. "what are you going to make your future _of_, for all your airs?" and then i suppose i shall return to crane my neck at the flat-iron building or the _times_ sky-scraper, and ask all that too, an identical question. ii philosophical certain phases in the development of these prophetic exercises one may perhaps be permitted to trace. to begin with, i remember that to me in my boyhood speculation about the future was a monstrous joke. like most people of my generation i was launched into life with millennial assumptions. this present sort of thing, i believed, was going on for a time, interesting personally perhaps but as a whole inconsecutive, and then--it might be in my lifetime or a little after it--there would be trumpets and shoutings and celestial phenomena, a battle of armageddon and the judgment. as i saw it, it was to be a strictly protestant and individualistic judgment, each soul upon its personal merits. to talk about the man of the year million was of course in the face of this great conviction, a whimsical play of fancy. the year million was just as impossible, just as gayly nonsensical as fairy-land.... i was a student of biology before i realized that this, my finite and conclusive end, at least in the material and chronological form, had somehow vanished from the scheme of things. in the place of it had come a blackness and a vagueness about the endless vista of years ahead, that was tremendous--that terrified. that is a phase in which lots of educated people remain to this day. "all this scheme of things, life, force, destiny which began not six thousand years, mark you, but an infinity ago, that has developed out of such strange weird shapes and incredible first intentions, out of gaseous nebulæ, carboniferous swamps, saurian giantry and arboreal apes, is by the same tokens to continue, developing--into what?" that was the overwhelming riddle that came to me, with that realization of an end averted, that has come now to most of our world. the phase that followed the first helpless stare of the mind was a wild effort to express one's sudden apprehension of unlimited possibility. one made fantastic exaggerations, fantastic inversions of all recognized things. anything of this sort might come, anything of any sort. the books about the future that followed the first stimulus of the world's realization of the implications of darwinian science, have all something of the monstrous experimental imaginings of children. i myself, in my microcosmic way, duplicated the times. almost the first thing i ever wrote--it survives in an altered form as one of a bookful of essays,--was of this type; "the man of the year million," was presented as a sort of pantomime head and a shrivelled body, and years after that, the _time machine_, my first published book, ran in the same vein. at that point, at a brief astonished stare down the vistas of time-to-come, at something between wonder and amazed, incredulous, defeated laughter, most people, i think, stop. but those who are doomed to the prophetic habit of mind go on. the next phase, the third phase, is to shorten the range of the outlook, to attempt something a little more proximate than the final destiny of man. one becomes more systematic, one sets to work to trace the great changes of the last century or so, and one produces these in a straight line and according to the rule of three. if the maximum velocity of land travel in was twelve miles an hour and in (let us say) sixty miles an hour, then one concludes that in a.d. it will be three hundred miles an hour. if the population of america in --but i refrain from this second instance. in that fashion one got out a sort of gigantesque caricature of the existing world, everything swollen to vast proportions and massive beyond measure. in my case that phase produced a book, _when the sleeper wakes_, in which, i am told, by competent new-yorkers, that i, starting with london, an unbiassed mind, this rule-of-three method and my otherwise unaided imagination, produced something more like chicago than any other place wherein righteous men are likely to be found. that i shall verify in due course, but my present point is merely that to write such a book is to discover how thoroughly wrong this all too obvious method of enlarging the present is. one goes on therefore--if one is to succumb altogether to the prophetic habit--to a really "scientific" attack upon the future. the "scientific" phase is not final, but it is far more abundantly fruitful than its predecessors. one attempts a rude wide analysis of contemporary history, one seeks to clear and detach operating causes and to work them out, and so, combining this necessary set of consequences with that, to achieve a synthetic forecast in terms just as broad and general and vague as the causes considered are few. i made, it happens, an experiment in this scientific sort of prophecy in a book called _anticipations_, and i gave an altogether excessive exposition and defence of it, i went altogether too far in this direction, in a lecture to the royal institution, "the discovery of the future," that survives in odd corners as a pamphlet, and is to be found, like a scrap of old newspaper in the roof gutter of a museum, in _nature_ (vol. lxv., p. ) and in the smithsonian report (for ). within certain limits, however, i still believe this scientific method is sound. it gives sound results in many cases, results at any rate as sound as those one gets from the "laws" of political economy; one can claim it really does effect a sort of prophecy on the material side of life. for example, it was quite obvious about that invention and enterprise were very busy with the means of locomotion, and one could deduce from that certain practically inevitable consequences in the distribution of urban populations. with easier, quicker means of getting about there were endless reasons, hygienic, social, economic, why people should move from the town centres towards their peripheries, and very few why they should not. the towns one inferred therefore, would get slacker, more diffused, the countryside more urban. from that, from the spatial widening of personal interests that ensued, one could infer certain changes in the spirits of local politics, and so one went on to a number of fairly valid adumbrations. then again starting from the practical supersession in the long run of all unskilled labor by machinery one can work out with a pretty fair certainty many coming social developments, and the broad trend of one group of influences at least from the moral attitude of the mass of common people. in industry, in domestic life again, one foresees a steady development of complex appliances, demanding, and indeed in an epoch of frequently changing methods _forcing_, a flexible understanding, versatility of effort, a universal rising standard of education. so too a study of military methods and apparatus convinces one of the necessary transfer of power in the coming century from the ignorant and enthusiastic masses who made the revolutions of the eighteenth and nineteenth centuries and won napoleon his wars, to any more deliberate, more intelligent and more disciplined class that may possess an organized purpose. but where will one find that class? there comes a question that goes outside science, that takes one at once into a field beyond the range of the "scientific" method altogether. so long as one adopts the assumptions of the old political economist and assumes men without idiosyncrasy, without prejudices, without, as people say, wills of their own, so long as one imagines a perfectly acquiescent humanity that will always in the long run under pressure liquefy and stream along the line of least resistance to its own material advantage, the business of prophecy is easy. but from the first i felt distrust for that facility in prophesying, i perceived that always there lurked something, an incalculable opposition to these mechanically conceived forces, in law, in usage and prejudice, in the poiëtic power of exceptional individual men. i discovered for myself over again, the inseparable nature of the two functions of the prophet. in my _anticipations_, for example, i had intended simply to work out and foretell, and before i had finished i was in a fine full blast of exhortation.... that by an easy transition brought me to the last stage in the life history of the prophetic mind, as it is at present known to me. one comes out on the other side of the "scientific" method, into the large temperance, the valiant inconclusiveness, the released creativeness of philosophy. much may be foretold as certain, much more as possible, but the last decisions and the greatest decisions, lie in the hearts and wills of unique incalculable men. with them we have to deal as our ultimate reality in all these matters, and our methods have to be not "scientific" at all for all the greater issues, the humanly important issues, but critical, literary, even if you will--artistic. here insight is of more account than induction and the perception of fine tones than the counting of heads. science deals with necessity and necessity is here but the firm ground on which our freedom goes. one passes from affairs of predestination to affairs of free will. this discovery spread at once beyond the field of prophesying. the end, the aim, the test of science, as a model man understands the word, is foretelling by means of "laws," and my error in attempting a complete "scientific" forecast of human affairs arose in too careless an assent to the ideas about me, and from accepting uncritically such claims as that history should be "scientific," and that economics and sociology (for example) are "sciences." directly one gauges the fuller implications of that uniqueness of individuals darwin's work has so permanently illuminated, one passes beyond that. the ripened prophet realizes schopenhauer--as indeed i find professor münsterberg saying. "the deepest sense of human affairs is reached," he writes, "when we consider them not as appearances but as decisions." there one has the same thing coming to meet one from the psychological side.... but my present business isn't to go into this shadowy, metaphysical foundation world on which our thinking rests, but to the brightly lit overworld of america. this philosophical excursion is set here just to prepare the reader quite frankly for speculations and to disabuse his mind of the idea that in writing of the future in america i'm going to write of houses a hundred stories high and flying-machines in warfare and things like that. i am not going to america to work a pretentious horoscope, to discover a destiny, but to find out what i can of what must needs make that destiny,--a great nation's will. iii the will of america the material factors in a nation's future are subordinate factors, they present advantages, such as the easy access of the english to coal and the sea, or disadvantages, such as the ice-bound seaboard of the russians, but these are the circumstances and not necessarily the rulers of its fate. the essential factor in the destiny of a nation, as of a man and of mankind, lies in the form of its will and in the quality and quantity of its will. the drama of a nation's future, as of a man's, lies in this conflict of its will with what would else be "scientifically" predictable, materially inevitable. if the man, if the nation was an automaton fitted with good average motives, so and so, one could say exactly, would be done. it's just where the thing isn't automatic that our present interest comes in. i might perhaps reverse the order of the three aspects of will i have named, for manifestly where the quantity of will is small, it matters nothing what the form or quality. the man or the people that wills feebly is the sport of every circumstance, and there if anywhere the scientific method holds truest or even altogether true. do geographical positions or mineral resources make for riches? then such a people will grow insecurely and disastrously rich. is an abundant prolific life at a low level indicated? they will pullulate and suffer. if circumstances make for a choice between comfort and reproduction, your feeble people will dwindle and pass; if war, if conquest tempt them then they will turn from all preoccupations and follow the drums. little things provoke their unstable equilibrium, to hostility, to forgiveness.... and be it noted that the quantity of will in a nation is not necessarily determined by adding up the wills of all its people. i am told, and i am disposed to believe it, that the americans of the united states are a people of great individual force of will, the clear strong faces of many young americans, something almost roman in the faces of their statesmen and politicians, a distinctive quality i detect in such americans as i have met, a quality of sharply cut determination even though it be only about details and secondary things, that one must rouse one's self to meet, inclines me to give a provisional credit to that, but how far does all this possible will-force aggregate to a great national purpose?--what algebraically does it add up to when this and that have cancelled each other? that may be a different thing altogether. and next to this net quantity of will a nation or people may possess, come the questions of its quality, its flexibility, its consciousness and intellectuality. a nation may be full of will and yet inflexibly and disastrously stupid in the expression of that will. there was probably more will-power, mere haughty and determined self-assertion in the young bull that charged the railway engine than in several regiments of men, but it was after all a low quality of will with no method but a violent and injudicious directness, and in the end it was suicidal and futile. there again is the substance for ramifying enquiries. how subtle, how collected and patient, how far capable of a long plan, is this american nation? suppose it has a will so powerful and with such resources that whatever simple end may be attained by rushing upon it is america's for the asking, there still remains the far more important question of the ends that are not obvious, that are intricate and complex and not to be won by booms and cataclysms of effort. an englishman comes to think that most of the permanent and precious things for which a nation's effort goes are like that, and here too i have an open mind and unsatisfied curiosities. and lastly there is the form of the nation's purpose. i have been reading what i can find about that in books for some time, and now i want to cross over the atlantic, more particularly for that, to question more or less openly certain americans, not only men and women, but the mute expressive presences of house and appliance, of statue, flag and public building, and the large collective visages of crowds, what it is all up to, what it thinks it is all after, how far it means to escape or improve upon its purely material destinies? i want over there to find whatever consciousness or vague consciousness of a common purpose there may be, what is their vision, their american utopia, how much will there is shaping to attain it, how much capacity goes with the will--what, in short, there is in america, over and above the mere mechanical consequences of scattering multitudes of energetic europeans athwart a vast healthy, productive and practically empty continent in the temperate zone. there you have the terms of reference of an enquiry, that is i admit (as mr. morgan richards the eminent advertisement agent would say), "mammoth in character." the american reader may very reasonably inquire at this point why an englishman does not begin with the future of his own country. the answer is that this particular one has done so, and that in many ways he has found his intimacy and proximity a disadvantage. one knows too much of the things that seem to matter and that ultimately don't, one is full of misleading individual instances intensely seen, one can't see the wood for the trees. one comes to america at last, not only with the idea of seeing america, but with something more than an incidental hope of getting one's own england there in the distance and as a whole, for the first time in one's life. and the problem of america, from this side anyhow, has an air of being simpler. for all the philippine adventure her future still seems to lie on the whole compactly in one continent, and not as ours is, dispersed round and about the habitable globe, strangely entangled with india, with japan, with africa and with the great antagonism the germans force upon us at our doors. moreover one cannot look ten years ahead in england, without glancing across the atlantic. "there they are," we say to one another, "those americans! they speak our language, read our books, give us books, share our mind. what we think still goes into their heads in a measure, and their thoughts run through our brains. what will they be up to?" our future is extraordinarily bound up in america's and in a sense dependent upon it. it is not that we dream very much of political reunions of anglo saxondom and the like. so long as we british retain our wide and accidental sprawl of empire about the earth we cannot expect or desire the americans to share our stresses and entanglements. our empire has its own adventurous and perilous outlook. but our civilization is a different thing from our empire, a thing that reaches out further into the future, that will be going on changed beyond recognition. because of our common language, of our common traditions, americans are a part of our community, are becoming indeed the larger part of our community of thought and feeling and outlook--in a sense far more intimate than any link we have with hindoo or copt or cingalese. a common englishman has an almost pathetic pride and sense of proprietorship in the states; he is fatally ready to fall in with the idea that two nations that share their past, that still, a little restively, share one language, may even contrive to share an infinitely more interesting future. even if he does not chance to be an american now, his grandson may be. america is his inheritance, his reserved accumulating investment. in that sense indeed america belongs to the whole western world; all europe owns her promise, but to the englishman the sense of participation is intense. "_we_ did it," he will tell of the most american of achievements, of the settlement of the middle west for example, and this is so far justifiable that numberless men, myself included, are englishmen, australian, new-zealanders, canadians, instead of being americans, by the merest accidents of life. my father still possesses the stout oak box he had had made to emigrate withal, everything was arranged that would have got me and my brothers born across the ocean, and only the coincidence of a business opportunity and an illness of my mother's, arrested that. it was so near a thing as that with me, which prevents my blood from boiling with patriotic indignation instead of patriotic solicitude at the frequent sight of red-coats as i see them from my study window going to and fro to shorncliffe camp. well i learn from professor münsterberg how vain my sense of proprietorship is, but still this much of it obstinately remains, that i will at any rate _look_ at the american future. by the accidents that delayed that box it comes about that if i want to see what america is up to, i have among other things to buy a baedeker and a steamer ticket and fill up the inquiring blanks in this remarkable document before me, the long string of questions that begins:-- "are you a polygamist?" "are you an anarchist?" here i gather is one little indication of the great will i am going to study. it would seem that the united states of america regard anarchy and polygamy with aversion, regard indeed anarchists and polygamists as creatures unfit to mingle with the already very various eighty million of citizens who constitute their sovereign powers, and on the other hand hold these creatures so inflexibly honorable as certainly to tell these damning truths about themselves in this matter.... it's a little odd. one has a second or so of doubt about the quality of that particular manifestation of will. chapter ii material progress (_on the "carmania" going americanward_) i american certitudes when one talks to an american of his national purpose he seems a little at a loss; if one speaks of his national destiny, he responds with alacrity. i make this generalization on the usual narrow foundations, but so the impression comes to me. until this present generation, indeed until within a couple of decades, it is not very evident that americans did envisage any national purpose at all, except in so far as there was a certain solicitude not to be cheated out of an assured destiny. a sort of optimistic fatalism possessed them. they had, and mostly it seems they still have, a tremendous sense of sustained and assured growth, and it is not altogether untrue that one is told--i have been told--such things as that "america is a great country, sir," that its future is gigantic and that it is already (and going to be more and more so) the greatest country on earth. i am not the sort of englishman who questions that. i do so regard that much as obvious and true that it seems to me even a little undignified, as well as a little overbearing, for americans to insist upon it so; i try to go on as soon as possible to the question just how my interlocutor _shapes_ that gigantic future and what that world predominance is finally to do for us in england and all about the world. so far, i must insist, i haven't found anything like an idea. i have looked for it in books, in papers, in speeches and now i am going to look for it in america. at the most i have found vague imaginings that correspond to that first or monstrous stage in the scheme of prophetic development i sketched in my opening. there is often no more than a volley of rhetorical blank-cartridge. so empty is it of all but sound that i have usually been constrained by civility from going on to a third enquiry;-- "and what are you, sir, doing in particular, to assist and enrich this magnificent and quite indefinable destiny of which you so evidently feel yourself a part?"... that seems to be really no unjust rendering of the conscious element of the american outlook as one finds it, for example, in these nice-looking and pleasant-mannered fellow-passengers upon the _carmania_ upon whom i fasten with leading questions and experimental remarks. one exception i discover--a pleasant new york clubman who has doubts of this and that. the discipline and sense of purpose in germany has laid hold upon him. he seems to be, in contrast with his fellow-countrymen, almost pessimistically aware that the american ship of state is after all a mortal ship and liable to leakages. there are certain problems and dangers he seems to think that may delay, perhaps even prevent, an undamaged arrival in that predestined port, that port too resplendent for the eye to rest upon; a chinese peril, he thinks has not been finally dealt with, "race suicide" is not arrested for all that it is scolded in a most valiant and virile manner, and there are adverse possibilities in the immigrant, in the black, the socialist, against which he sees no guarantee. he sees huge danger in the development and organization of the new finance and no clear promise of a remedy. he finds the closest parallel between the american republic and rome before the coming of imperialism. but these other americans have no share in his pessimisms. they may confess to as much as he does in the way of dangers, admit there are occasions for calking, a need of stopping quite a number of possibilities if the american idea is to make its triumphant entry at last into that port of blinding accomplishment, but, apart from a few necessary preventive proposals, i do not perceive any extensive sense of anything whatever to be done, anything to be shaped and thought out and made in the sense of a national determination to a designed and specified end. ii a symbol of progress there are, one must admit, tremendous justifications for the belief in a sort of automatic ascent of american things to unprecedented magnificences, an ascent so automatic that indeed one needn't bother in the slightest to keep the whole thing going. for example, consider this, last year's last-word in ocean travel in which i am crossing, the _carmania_ with its unparalleled steadfastness, its racing, tireless great turbines, its vast population of souls! it has on the whole a tremendous effect of having come by fate and its own forces. one forgets that any one planned it, much of it indeed has so much the quality of moving, as the planets move, in the very nature of things. you go aft and see the wake tailing away across the blue ridges, you go forward and see the cleft water, lift protestingly, roll back in an indignant crest, own itself beaten and go pouring by in great foaming waves on either hand, you see nothing, you hear nothing of the toiling engines, the reeking stokers, the effort and the stress below; you beat west and west, as the sun does and it might seem with nearly the same independence of any living man's help or opposition. equally so does it seem this great, gleaming, confident thing of power and metal came inevitably out of the past and will lead on to still more shining, still swifter and securer monsters in the future. one sees in the perspective of history, first the little cockle-shells of columbus, the comings and goings of the precarious tudor adventurers, the slow uncertain shipping of colonial days. says sir george trevelyan in the opening of his _american revolution_, that then--it is still not a century and a half ago!-- "a man bound for new york, as he sent his luggage on board at bristol, would willingly have compounded for a voyage lasting as many weeks as it now lasts days.... adams, during the height of the war, hurrying to france in the finest frigate congress could place at his disposal ... could make not better speed than five and forty days between boston and bordeaux. lord carlisle ... was six weeks between port and port; tossed by gales which inflicted on his brother commissioners agonies such as he forbore to make a matter of joke even to george selwyn.... how humbler individuals fared.... they would be kept waiting weeks on the wrong side of the water for a full complement of passengers and weeks more for a fair wind, and then beating across in a badly found tub with a cargo of millstones and old iron rolling about below, they thought themselves lucky if they came into harbor a month after their private store of provisions had run out and carrying a budget of news as stale as the ship's provisions." even in the time of dickens things were by no measure more than half-way better. i have with me to enhance my comfort by this aided retrospect, his _american notes_. his crossing lasted eighteen days and his boat was that "far-famed american steamer," the _britannia_ (the first of the long succession of cunarders, of which this _carmania_ is the latest); his return took fifty days, and was a jovial home-coming under sail. it's the journey out gives us our contrast. he had the "state-room" of the period and very unhappy he was in it, as he testifies in a characteristically mounting passage. "that this state-room had been specially engaged for 'charles dickens, esquire, and lady,' was rendered sufficiently clear even to my scared intellect by a very small manuscript, announcing the fact, which was pinned on a very flat quilt, covering a very thin mattress, spread like a surgical plaster on a most inaccessible shelf. but that this was the state-room, concerning which charles dickens, esquire, and lady, had held daily and nightly conferences for at least four months preceding; that this could by any possibility be that small snug chamber of the imagination, which charles dickens, esquire, with the spirit of prophecy strong upon him, had always foretold would contain at least one little sofa, and which his lady, with a modest and yet most magnificent sense of its limited dimensions, had from the first opined would not hold more than two enormous portmanteaus in some odd corner out of sight (portmanteaus which could now no more be got in at the door, not to say stowed away, than a giraffe could be persuaded or forced into a flower-pot): that this utterly impracticable, thoroughly preposterous box, had the remotest reference to, or connection with, those chaste and pretty bowers, sketched in a masterly hand, in the highly varnished, lithographic plan, hanging up in the agent's counting-house in the city of london: that this room of state, in short, could be anything but a pleasant fiction and cheerful jest of the captain's, invented and put in practice for the better relish and enjoyment of the real state-room presently to be disclosed: these were truths which i really could not bring my mind at all to bear upon or comprehend." so he precludes his two weeks and a half of vile weather in this paddle boat of the middle ages (she carried a "formidable" multitude of no less than eighty-six saloon passengers) and goes on to describe such experiences as this; "about midnight we shipped a sea, which forced its way through the skylights, burst open the doors above, and came raging and roaring down into the ladies' cabin, to the unspeakable consternation of my wife and a little scotch lady.... they, and the handmaid before mentioned, being in such ecstacies of fear that i scarcely knew what to do with them, i naturally bethought myself of some restorative or comfortable cordial; and nothing better occurring to me, at the moment, than hot brandy-and-water, i procured a tumblerful without delay. it being impossible to stand or sit without holding on, they were all heaped together in one corner of a long sofa--a fixture extending entirely across the cabin--where they clung to each other in momentary expectation of being drowned. when i approached this place with my specific, and was about to administer it with many consolatory expressions, to the nearest sufferer, what was my dismay to see them all roll slowly down to the other end! and when i staggered to that end, and held out the glass once more, how immensely baffled were my good intentions by the ship giving another lurch, and their rolling back again! i suppose i dodged them up and down this sofa, for at least a quarter of an hour, without reaching them once; and by the time i did catch them, the brandy-and-water was diminished, by constant spilling, to a teaspoonful. to complete the group, it is necessary to recognize in this disconcerted dodger, an individual very pale from sea-sickness, who had shaved his beard and brushed his hair last at liverpool; and whose only articles of dress (linen not included) were a pair of dreadnought trousers; a blue jacket, formerly admired upon the thames at richmond; no stockings; and one slipper." it gives one a momentary sense of superiority to the great master to read that. one surveys one's immediate surroundings and compares them with _his_. one says almost patronizingly: "poor old dickens, you know, really did have too awful a time!" the waves are high now, and getting higher, dark-blue waves foam-crested; the waves haven't altered--except relatively--but one isn't even sea-sick. at the most there are squeamish moments for the weaker brethren. one looks down on these long white-crested undulations thirty feet or so of rise and fall, as we look down the side of a sky-scraper into a tumult in the street. we displace thirty thousand tons of water instead of twelve hundred, we can carry first and second class passengers, a crew of , and emigrants below.... we're a city rather than a ship, our funnels go up over the height of any reasonable church spire, and you need walk the main-deck from end to end and back only four times to do a mile. any one who has been to london and seen trafalgar square will get our dimensions perfectly, when he realizes that we should only squeeze into that finest site in europe, diagonally, dwarfing the national gallery, st. martin's church, hotels and every other building there out of existence, our funnels towering five feet higher than nelson on his column. as one looks down on it all from the boat-deck one has a social microcosm, we could set up as a small modern country and renew civilization even if the rest of the world was destroyed. we've the plutocracy up here, there is a middle class on the second-class deck and forward a proletariat--the _proles_ much in evidence--complete. it's possible to go slumming aboard.... we have our daily paper, too, printed aboard, and all the latest news by marconigram.... never was anything of this sort before, never. caligula's shipping it is true (unless it was constantine's) did, as mr. cecil torr testifies, hold a world record until the nineteenth century and he quotes pliny for thirteen hundred tons--outdoing the _britannia_--and moschion for cabins and baths and covered vine-shaded walks and plants in pots. but from onward, we have broken away into a new scale for life. this _carmania_ isn't the largest ship nor the finest, nor is it to be the last. greater ships are to follow and greater. the scale of size, the scale of power, the speed and dimensions of things about us alter remorselessly--to some limit we cannot at present descry. iii is progress inevitable? it is the development of such things as this, it is this dramatically abbreviated perspective from those pre-reformation caravels to the larger, larger, larger of the present vessels, one must blame for one's illusions. one is led unawares to believe that this something called progress is a natural and necessary and secular process, going on without the definite will of man, carrying us on quite independently of us; one is led unawares to forget that it is after all from the historical point of view only a sudden universal jolting forward in history, an affair of two centuries at most, a process for the continuance of which we have no sort of guarantee. most western europeans have this delusion of automatic progress in things badly enough, but with americans it seems to be almost fundamental. it is their theory of the cosmos and they no more think of inquiring into the sustaining causes of the progressive movement than they would into the character of the stokers hidden away from us in this great thing somewhere--the officers alone know where. i am happy to find this blind confidence very well expressed for example in an illustrated magazine article by mr. edgar saltus, "new york from the flat-iron," that a friend has put in my hand to prepare me for the wonders to come. mr. saltus writes with an eloquent joy of his vision of broadway below, broadway that is now "barring trade-routes, the largest commercial stretch on this planet." so late as dickens's visit it was scavenged by roving untended herds of gaunt, brown, black-blotched pigs. he writes of lower fifth avenue and upper fifth avenue, of madison square and its tower, of sky-scrapers and sky-scrapers and sky-scrapers round and about the horizon. (i am to have a tremendous view of them to-morrow as we steam up from the narrows.) and thus mr. saltus proceeds,-- "as you lean and gaze from the toppest floors on houses below, which from those floors seem huts, it may occur to you that precisely as these huts were once regarded as supreme achievements, so, one of these days, from other and higher floors, the flat-iron may seem a hut itself. evolution has not halted. undiscernibly but indefatigably, always it is progressing. its final term is not existing buildings, nor in existing man. if humanity sprang from gorillas, from humanity gods shall proceed." the rule of three in excelsis! "the story of olympus is merely a tale of what might have been. that which might have been may yet come to pass. even now could the old divinities, hushed forevermore, awake, they would be perplexed enough to see how mortals have exceeded them.... in fifth avenue inns they could get fairer fare than ambrosia, and behold women beside whom venus herself would look provincial and juno a frump. the spectacle of electricity tamed and domesticated would surprise them not a little, the elevated quite as much, the flat-iron still more. at sight of the latter they would recall the titans with whom once they warred, and sink to their sun-red seas outfaced. "in this same measure we have succeeded in exceeding them, so will posterity surpass what we have done. evolution may be slow, it achieved an unrecognized advance when it devised buildings such as this. it is demonstrable that small rooms breed small thoughts. it will be demonstrable that, as buildings ascend, so do ideas. it is mental progress that sky-scrapers engender. from these parturitions gods may really proceed--beings, that is, who, could we remain long enough to see them, would regard us as we regard the apes...." mr. saltus writes, i think, with a very typical american accent. most americans think like that and all of them i fancy feel like it. just in that spirit a later-empire roman might have written apropos the gigantic new basilica of constantine the great (who was also, one recalls, a record-breaker in ship-building) and have compared it with the straitened proportions of cæsar's forum and the meagre relics of republican rome. so too (_absit omen_) he might have swelled into prophecy and sounded the true modern note. one hears that modern note everywhere nowadays where print spreads, but from america with fewer undertones than anywhere. even i find it, ringing clear, as a thing beyond disputing, as a thing as self-evident as sunrise again and again in the expressed thought of mr. henry james. but you know this progress isn't guaranteed. we have all indeed been carried away completely by the up-rush of it all. to me now this _carmania_ seems to typify the whole thing. what matter it if there are moments when one reflects on the mysterious smallness and it would seem the ungrowing quality of the human content of it all? we are, after all, astonishingly like flies on a machine that has got loose. no matter. those people on the main-deck are the oddest crowd, strange oriental-looking figures with astrakhan caps, hook-noses, shifty eyes, and indisputably dirty habits, bold-eyed, red-capped, expectorating women, quaint and amazingly dirty children; tartars there are too, and cossacks, queer wraps, queer head-dresses, a sort of greasy picturesqueness over them all. they use the handkerchief solely as a head covering. their deck is disgusting with fragments of food, with egg-shells they haven't had the decency to throw over-board. collectively they have--an atmosphere. they're going where we're going, wherever that is. what matters it? what matters it, too, if these people about me in the artistic apartment talk nothing but trivialities derived from the _daily bulletin_, think nothing but trivialities, are, except in the capacity of paying passengers, the most ineffectual gathering of human beings conceivable? what matters it that there is no connection, no understanding whatever between them and that large and ominous crowd a plank or so and a yard or so under our feet? or between themselves for the matter of that? what matters it if nobody seems to be struck by the fact that we are all, the three thousand two hundred of us so extraordinarily got together into this tremendous machine, and that not only does nobody inquire what it is has got us together in this astonishing fashion and why, but that nobody seems to feel that we are together in any sort of way at all? one looks up at the smoke-pouring funnels and back at the foaming wake. it will be all right. aren't we driving ahead westward at a pace of four hundred and fifty miles a day? and twenty or thirty thousand other souls, mixed and stratified, on great steamers ahead of us, or behind, are driving westward too. that there's no collective mind apparent in it at all, worth speaking about is so much the better. that only shows its destiny, its progress as inevitable as gravitation. i could almost believe it, as i sit quietly writing here by a softly shaded light in this elegantly appointed drawing-room, as steady as though i was in my native habitat on dry land instead of hurrying almost fearfully, at twenty knots an hour, over a tumbling empty desert of blue waves under a windy sky. but, only a little while ago, i was out forward alone, looking at that. everything was still except for the remote throbbing of the engines and the nearly effaced sound of a man, singing in a strange tongue, that came from the third-class gangway far below. the sky was clear, save for a few black streamers of clouds, orion hung very light and large above the waters, and a great new moon, still visibly holding its dead predecessor in its crescent, sank near him. between the sparse great stars were deep blue spaces, unfathomed distances. out there i had been reminded of space and time. out there the ship was just a hastening ephemeral fire-fly that had chanced to happen across the eternal tumult of the winds and sea. chapter iii new york (_in a room on the ninth floor in the sky-scraper hotel new york_) i first impressions my first impressions of new york are enormously to enhance the effect of this progress, this material progress, that is to say, as something inevitable and inhuman, as a blindly furious energy of growth that must go on. against the broad and level gray contours of liverpool one found the ocean liner portentously tall, but here one steams into the middle of a town that dwarfs the ocean liner. the sky-scrapers that are the new-yorker's perpetual boast and pride rise up to greet one as one comes through the narrows into the upper bay, stand out, in a clustering group of tall irregular crenellations, the strangest crown that ever a city wore. they have an effect of immense incompleteness; each one seems to await some needed terminal,--to be, by virtue of its woolly jets of steam, still as it were in process of eruption. one thinks of st. peter's great blue dome, finished and done as one saw it from a vine-shaded wine-booth above the milvian bridge, one thinks of the sudden ascendency of st. paul's dark grace, as it soars out over any one who comes up by the thames towards it. these are efforts that have accomplished their ends, and even paris illuminated under the tall stem of the eiffel tower looked completed and defined. but new york's achievement is a threatening promise, growth going on under a pressure that increases, and amidst a hungry uproar of effort. one gets a measure of the quality of this force of mechanical, of inhuman, growth as one marks the great statue of liberty on our larboard, which is meant to dominate and fails absolutely to dominate the scene. it gets to three hundred feet about, by standing on a pedestal of a hundred and fifty; and the uplifted torch, seen against the sky, suggests an arm straining upward, straining in hopeless competition with the fierce commercial altitudes ahead. poor liberating lady of the american ideal! one passes her and forgets. happy returning natives greet the great pillars of business by name, the st. paul building, the world, the manhattan tower; the english new-comer notes the clear emphasis of the detail, the freedom from smoke and atmospheric mystery that new york gains from burning anthracite, the jetting white steam clouds that emphasize that freedom. across the broad harbor plies an unfamiliar traffic of grotesque broad ferry-boats, black with people, glutted to the lips with vans and carts, each hooting and yelping its own distinctive note, and there is a wild hurrying up and down and to and fro of piping and bellowing tugs and barges; and a great floating platform, bearing a railway train, gets athwart our course as we ascend and evokes megatherial bellowings. everything is moving at a great speed, and whistling and howling, it seems, and presently far ahead we make out our own pier, black with expectant people, and set up our own distinctive whoop, and with the help of half a dozen furiously noisy tugs are finally lugged and butted into dock. the tugs converse by yells and whistles, it is an affair of short-tempered mechanical monsters, amidst which one watches for one's opportunity to get ashore. noise and human hurry and a vastness of means and collective result, rather than any vastness of achievement, is the pervading quality of new york. the great thing is the mechanical thing, the unintentional thing which is speeding up all these people, driving them in headlong hurry this way and that, exhorting them by the voice of every car conductor to "step lively," aggregating them into shoving and elbowing masses, making them stand clinging to straps, jerking them up elevator shafts and pouring them on to the ferry-boats. but this accidental great thing is at times a very great thing. much more impressive than the sky-scrapers to my mind is the large brooklyn suspension-bridge. i have never troubled to ask who built that; its greatness is not in its design, but in the quality of necessity one perceives in its inanimate immensity. it _tells_, as one goes under it up the east river, but it is far more impressive to the stranger to come upon it by glimpses, wandering down to it through the ill-paved van-infested streets from chatham square. one sees parts of cyclopean stone arches, one gets suggestive glimpses through the jungle growth of business now of the back, now of the flanks, of the monster; then, as one comes out on the river, one discovers far up in one's sky the long sweep of the bridge itself, foreshortened and with a maximum of perspective effect; the streams of pedestrians and the long line of carts and vans, quaintly microscopic against the blue, the creeping progress of the little cars on the lower edge of the long chain of netting; all these things dwindling indistinguishably before brooklyn is reached. thence, if it is late afternoon, one may walk back to city hall park and encounter and experience the convergent stream of clerks and workers making for the bridge, mark it grow denser and denser, until at last they come near choking even the broad approaches of the giant duct, until the congested multitudes jostle and fight for a way. they arrive marching afoot by every street in endless procession; crammed trolley-cars disgorge them; the subway pours them out.... the individuals count for nothing, they are clerks and stenographers, shop-men, shop-girls, workers of innumerable types, black-coated men, hat-and-blouse girls, shabby and cheaply clad persons, such as one sees in london, in berlin, anywhere. perhaps they hurry more, perhaps they seem more eager. but the distinctive effect is the mass, the black torrent, rippled with unmeaning faces, the great, the unprecedented multitudinousness of the thing, the inhuman force of it all. [illustration: entrance to brooklyn bridge] i made no efforts to present any of my letters, or to find any one to talk to on my first day in new york. i landed, got a casual lunch, and wandered alone until new york's peculiar effect of inhuman noise and pressure and growth became overwhelming, touched me with a sense of solitude, and drove me into the hospitable companionship of the century club. oh, no doubt of new york's immensity! the sense of soulless gigantic forces, that took no heed of men, became stronger and stronger all that day. the pavements were often almost incredibly out of repair, when i became footweary the street-cars would not wait for me, and i had to learn their stopping-points as best i might. i wandered, just at the right pitch of fatigue to get the full force of it into the eastward region between third and fourth avenue, came upon the elevated railway at its worst, the darkened streets of disordered paving below, trolley-car-congested, the ugly clumsy lattice, sonorously busy overhead, a clatter of vans and draught-horses, and great crowds of cheap, base-looking people hurrying uncivilly by.... ii the coming of white marble i corrected that first crowded impression of new york with a clearer, brighter vision of expansiveness when next day i began to realize the social quality of new york's central backbone, between fourth avenue and sixth. the effect remained still that of an immeasurably powerful forward movement of rapid eager advance, a process of enlargement and increment in every material sense, but it may be because i was no longer fatigued, was now a little initiated, the human being seemed less of a fly upon the wheels. i visited immense and magnificent clubs--london has no such splendors as the union, the university, the new hall of the harvard--i witnessed the great torrent of spending and glittering prosperity in carriage and motor-car pour along fifth avenue. i became aware of effects that were not only vast and opulent but fine. it grew upon me that the twentieth century, which found new york brown-stone of the color of desiccated chocolate, meant to leave it a city of white and colored marble. i found myself agape, admiring a sky-scraper--the prow of the flat-iron building, to be particular, ploughing up through the traffic of broadway and fifth avenue in the afternoon light. the new york sundown and twilight seemed to me quite glorious things. down the western streets one gets the sky hung in long cloud-barred strips, like japanese paintings, celestial tranquil yellows and greens and pink luminosity toning down to the reeking blue-brown edge of the distant new jersey atmosphere, and the clear, black, hard activity of crowd and trolley-car and elevated railroad. against this deepening color came the innumerable little lights of the house cliffs and the street tier above tier. new york is lavish of light, it is lavish of everything, it is full of the sense of spending from an inexhaustible supply. for a time one is drawn irresistibly into the universal belief in that inexhaustible supply. at a bright table in delmonico's to-day at lunch-time, my host told me the first news of the destruction of the great part of san francisco by earthquake and fire. it had just come through to him, it wasn't yet being shouted by the newsboys. he told me compactly of dislocated water-mains, of the ill-luck of the unusual eastward wind that was blowing the fire up-town, of a thousand reported dead, of the manifest doom of the greater portion of the city, and presently the shouting voices in the street outside arose to chorus him. he was a newspaper man and a little preoccupied because his san francisco offices were burning, and that no further news was arriving after these first intimations. naturally the catastrophe was our topic. but this disaster did not affect him, it does not seem to have affected any one with a sense of final destruction, with any foreboding of irreparable disaster. every one is talking of it this afternoon, and no one is in the least degree dismayed. i have talked and listened in two clubs, watched people in cars and in the street, and one man is glad that chinatown will be cleared out for good; another's chief solicitude is for millet's "man with the hoe." "they'll cut it out of the frame," he says, a little anxiously. "sure." but there is no doubt anywhere that san francisco can be rebuilt, larger, better, and soon. just as there would be none at all if all this new york that has so obsessed me with its limitless bigness was itself a blazing ruin. i believe these people would more than half like the situation. it would give them scope, it would facilitate that conversion into white marble in progress everywhere, it would settle the difficulties of the elevated railroad and clear out the tangles of lower new york. there is no sense of accomplishment and finality in any of these things, the largest, the finest, the tallest, are so obviously no more than symptoms and promises of material progress, of inhuman material progress that is so in the nature of things that no one would regret their passing. that, i say again, is at the first encounter the peculiar american effect that began directly i stepped aboard the liner, and that rises here to a towering, shining, clamorous climax. the sense of inexhaustible supply, of an ultra-human force behind it all, is, for a time, invincible. one assumes, with mr. saltus, that all america is in this vein, and that this is the way the future must inevitably go. one has a vision of bright electrical subways, replacing the filth-diffusing railways of to-day, of clean, clear pavements free altogether from the fly-prolific filth of horses coming almost, as it were, of their own accord beneath the feet of a population that no longer expectorates at all; of grimy stone and peeling paint giving way everywhere to white marble and spotless surfaces, and a shining order, of everything wider, taller, cleaner, better.... so that, in the meanwhile, a certain amount of jostling and hurry and untidiness, and even--to put it mildly--forcefulness may be forgiven. iii ellis island i visited ellis island yesterday. it chanced to be a good day for my purpose. for the first time in its history this filter of immigrant humanity has this week proved inadequate to the demand upon it. it was choked, and half a score of gravid liners were lying uncomfortably up the harbor, replete with twenty thousand or so of crude americans from ireland and poland and italy and syria and finland and albania; men, women, children, dirt, and bags together. of immigration i shall have to write later; what concerns me now is chiefly the wholesale and multitudinous quality of that place and its work. i made my way with my introduction along white passages and through traps and a maze of metal lattices that did for a while succeed in catching and imprisoning me, to commissioner wachorn, in his quiet, green-toned office. there, for a time, i sat judicially and heard him deal methodically, swiftly, sympathetically, with case after case, a string of appeals against the sentences of deportation pronounced in the busy little courts below. first would come one dingy and strangely garbed group of wild-eyed aliens, and then another: roumanian gypsies, south italians, ruthenians, swedes, each under the intelligent guidance of a uniformed interpreter, and a case would be started, a report made to washington, and they would drop out again, hopeful or sullen or fearful as the evidence might trend.... down-stairs we find the courts, and these seen, we traverse long refectories, long aisles of tables, and close-packed dormitories with banks of steel mattresses, tier above tier, and galleries and passages innumerable, perplexing intricacy that slowly grows systematic with the commissioner's explanations. here is a huge, gray, untidy waiting-room, like a big railway-depot room, full of a sinister crowd of miserable people, loafing about or sitting dejectedly, whom america refuses, and here a second and a third such chamber each with its tragic and evil-looking crowd that hates us, and that even ventures to groan and hiss at us a little for our glimpse of its large dirty spectacle of hopeless failure, and here, squalid enough indeed, but still to some degree hopeful, are the appeal cases as yet undecided. in one place, at a bank of ranges, works an army of men cooks, in another spins the big machinery of the ellis island laundry, washing blankets, drying blankets, day in and day out, a big clean steamy space of hurry and rotation. then, i recall a neat apartment lined to the ceiling with little drawers, a card-index of the names and nationalities and significant circumstances of upward of a million and a half of people who have gone on and who are yet liable to recall. the central hall is the key of this impression. all day long, through an intricate series of metal pens, the long procession files, step by step, bearing bundles and trunks and boxes, past this examiner and that, past the quick, alert medical officers, the tallymen and the clerks. at every point immigrants are being picked out and set aside for further medical examination, for further questions, for the busy little courts; but the main procession satisfies conditions, passes on. it is a daily procession that, with a yard of space to each, would stretch over three miles, that any week in the year would more than equal in numbers that daily procession of the unemployed that is becoming a regular feature of the london winter, that in a year could put a cordon round london or new york of close-marching people, could populate a new boston, that in a century--what in a century will it all amount to?... on they go, from this pen to that, pen by pen, towards a desk at a little metal wicket--the gate of america. through this metal wicket drips the immigration stream--all day long, every two or three seconds an immigrant, with a valise or a bundle, passes the little desk and goes on past the well-managed money-changing place, past the carefully organized separating ways that go to this railway or that, past the guiding, protecting officials--into a new world. the great majority are young men and young women, between seventeen and thirty, good, youthful, hopeful, peasant stock. they stand in a long string, waiting to go through that wicket, with bundles, with little tin boxes, with cheap portmanteaus, with odd packages, in pairs, in families, alone, women with children, men with strings of dependents, young couples. all day that string of human beads waits there, jerks forward, waits again; all day and every day, constantly replenished, constantly dropping the end beads through the wicket, till the units mount to hundreds and the hundreds to thousands.... yes, ellis island is quietly immense. it gives one a visible image of one aspect at least of this world-large process of filling and growing and synthesis, which is america. "look there!" said the commissioner, taking me by the arm and pointing, and i saw a monster steamship far away, and already a big bulk looming up the narrows. "it's the _kaiser wilhelm der grosse_. she's got--i forget the exact figures, but let us say--eight hundred and fifty-three more for us. she'll have to keep them until friday at the earliest. and there's more behind her, and more strung out all across the atlantic." in one record day this month , immigrants came into the port of new york alone; in one week over , . this year the total will be , , souls, pouring in, finding work at once, producing no fall in wages. they start digging and building and making. just think of the dimensions of it! iv to fall river one must get away from new york to see the place in its proper relations. i visited staten island and jersey city, motored up to sleepy hollow (where once the headless horseman rode), saw suburbs and intimations of suburbs without end, and finished with the long and crowded spectacle of the east river as one sees it from the fall river boat. it was friday night, and the fall river boat was in a state of fine congestion with jews, italians, and week-enders, and one stood crowded and surveyed the crowded shore, the sky-scrapers and tenement-houses, the huge grain elevators, big warehouses, the great brooklyn bridge, the still greater williamsburgh bridge, the great promise of yet another monstrous bridge, overwhelmingly monstrous by any european example i know, and so past long miles of city to the left and to the right past the wide brooklyn navy-yard (where three clean white war-ships lay moored), past the clustering castellated asylums, hospitals, almshouses and reformatories of blackwell's long shore and ward's island, and then through a long reluctant diminuendo on each receding bank, until, indeed, new york, though it seemed incredible, had done. and at one point a grave-voiced man in a peaked cap, with guide-books to sell, pleased me greatly by ending all idle talk suddenly with the stentorian announcement: "we are now in hell gate. we are now passing through hell gate!" but they've blown hell gate open with dynamite, and it wasn't at all the hell gate that i read about in my boyhood in the delightful chronicle of knickerbocker. so through an elbowing evening (to the tune of "cavalleria rusticana" on an irrepressible string band) and a night of unmitigated fog-horn to boston, which i had been given to understand was a cultured and uneventful city offering great opportunities for reflection and intellectual digestion. and, indeed, the large quiet of beacon street, in the early morning sunshine, seemed to more than justify that expectation.... chapter iv growth invincible i boston's way of growing but boston did not propose that its less-assertive key should be misunderstood, and in a singularly short space of time i found myself climbing into a tremulous impatient motor-car in company with three enthusiastic exponents of the work of the metropolitan park commission, and provided with a neatly tinted map, large and framed and glazed, to explore a fresh and more deliberate phase in this great american symphony, this symphony of growth. if possible it is more impressive, even, than the crowded largeness of new york, to trace the serene preparation boston has made through this commission to be widely and easily vast. new york's humanity has a curious air of being carried along upon a wave of irresistible prosperity, but boston confesses design. i suppose no city in all the world (unless it be washington) has ever produced so complete and ample a forecast of its own future as this commission's plan of boston. an area with a radius of between fifteen and twenty miles from the state house has been planned out and prepared for growth. great reservations of woodland and hill have been made, the banks of nearly all the streams and rivers and meres have been secured for public park and garden, for boating and other water sports; big avenues of vigorous young trees; a hundred and fifty yards or so wide, with drive-ways and ridingways and a central grassy band for electric tramways, have been prepared, and, indeed, the fair and ample and shady new boston, the boston of , grows visibly before one's eyes. i found myself comparing the disciplined confidence of these proposals to the blind enlargement of london; london, that like a bowl of viscid human fluid, boils sullenly over the rim of its encircling hills and slops messily and uglily into the home counties. i could not but contrast their large intelligence with the confused hesitations and waste and muddle of our english suburban developments.... there were moments, indeed, when it seemed too good to be true, and mr. sylvester baxter, who was with me and whose faith has done so much to secure this mapping out of a city's growth beyond all precedent, became the victim of my doubts. "will this enormous space of sunlit woodland and marsh and meadow really be filled at any time?" i urged. "all cities do not grow. cities have shrunken." i recalled bruges. i recalled the empty, goat-sustaining, flower-rich meadows of rome within the wall. what made him so sure of this progressive magnificence of boston's growth? my doubts fell on stony soil. my companions seemed to think these scepticisms inopportune, a forced eccentricity, like doubting the coming of to-morrow. of course growth will go on.... the subject was changed by the sight of the fine marble buildings of the harvard medical school, a shining façade partially eclipsed by several dingy and unsightly wooden houses. "these shanties will go, of course," says one of my companions. "it's proposed to take the avenue right across this space straight to the schools." "you'll have to fill the marsh, then, and buy the houses." "sure."... i find myself comparing this huge growth process of america with the things in my own land. after all, this growth is no distinctive american thing; it is the same process anywhere--only in america there are no disguises, no complications. come to think of it, birmingham and manchester are as new as boston--newer; and london, south and east of the thames, is, save for a little nucleus, more recent than chicago--is in places, i am told, with its smoky disorder, its clattering ways, its brutality of industrial conflict, very like chicago. but nowhere now is growth still so certainly and confidently _going on_ as here. nowhere is it upon so great a scale as here, and with so confident an outlook towards the things to come. and nowhere is it passing more certainly from the first phase of a mob-like rush of individualistic undertakings into a planned and ordered progress. ii the end of niagara everywhere in the america i have seen the same note sounds, the note of a fatal gigantic economic development, of large prevision and enormous pressures. i heard it clear above the roar of niagara--for, after all, i stopped off at niagara. as a water-fall, niagara's claim to distinction is now mainly quantitative; its spectacular effect, its magnificent and humbling size and splendor, were long since destroyed beyond recovery by the hotels, the factories, the power-houses, the bridges and tramways and hoardings that arose about it. it must have been a fine thing to happen upon suddenly after a day of solitary travel; the indians, they say, gave it worship; but it's no great wonder to reach it by trolley-car, through a street hack-infested and full of adventurous refreshment-places and souvenir-shops and the touting guides. there were great quantities of young couples and other sightseers with the usual encumbrances of wrap and bag and umbrella, trailing out across the bridges and along the neat paths of the reservation parks, asking the way to this point and that. notice boards cut the eye, offering extra joys and memorable objects for twenty-five and fifty cents, and it was proposed you should keep off the grass. after all, the gorge of niagara is very like any good gorge in the ardennes, except that it has more water; it's about as wide and about as deep, and there is no effect at all that one has not seen a dozen times in other cascades. one gets all the water one wants at tivoli, one has gone behind half a hundred downpours just as impressive in switzerland; a hundred tons of water is really just as stunning as ten million. a hundred tons of water stuns one altogether, and what more do you want? one recalls "orridos" and "schluchts" that are not only magnificent but lonely. no doubt the falls, seen from the canadian side, have a peculiar long majesty of effect; but the finest thing in it all, to my mind, was not niagara at all, but to look up-stream from goat island and see the sea-wide crest of the flashing sunlit rapids against the gray-blue sky. that was like a limitless ocean pouring down a sloping world towards one, and i lingered, held by that, returning to it through an indolent afternoon. it gripped the imagination as nothing else there seemed to do. it was so broad an infinitude of splash and hurry. and, moreover, all the enterprising hotels and expectant trippers were out of sight. that was the best of the display. the real interest of niagara for me, was not in the water-fall but in the human accumulations about it. they stood for the future, threats and promises, and the water-fall was just a vast reiteration of falling water. the note of growth in human accomplishment rose clear and triumphant above the elemental thunder. for the most part these accumulations of human effort about niagara are extremely defiling and ugly. nothing--not even the hotel signs and advertisement boards--could be more offensive to the eye and mind than the schoellkopf company's untidy confusion of sheds and buildings on the american side, wastefully squirting out long, tail-race cascades below the bridge, and nothing more disgusting than the sewer-pipes and gas-work ooze that the town of niagara falls contributes to the scenery. but, after all, these represent only the first slovenly onslaught of mankind's expansion, the pioneers' camp of the human-growth process that already changes its quality and manner. there are finer things than these outrages to be found. the dynamos and turbines of the niagara falls power company, for example, impressed me far more profoundly than the cave of the winds; are, indeed, to my mind, greater and more beautiful than that accidental eddying of air beside a downpour. they are will made visible, thought translated into easy and commanding things. they are clean, noiseless, and starkly powerful. all the clatter and tumult of the early age of machinery is past and gone here; there is no smoke, no coal grit, no dirt at all. the wheel-pit into which one descends has an almost cloistered quiet about its softly humming turbines. these are altogether noble masses of machinery, huge black slumbering monsters, great sleeping tops that engender irresistible forces in their sleep. they sprang, armed like minerva, from serene and speculative, foreseeing and endeavoring brains. first was the word and then these powers. a man goes to and fro quietly in the long, clean hall of the dynamos. there is no clangor, no racket. yet the outer rim of the big generators is spinning at the pace of a hundred thousand miles an hour; the dazzling clean switch-board, with its little handles and levers, is the seat of empire over more power than the strength of a million disciplined, unquestioning men. all these great things are as silent, as wonderfully made, as the heart in a living body, and stouter and stronger than that.... when i thought that these two huge wheel-pits of this company are themselves but a little intimation of what can be done in this way, what will be done in this way, my imagination towered above me. i fell into a day-dream of the coming power of men, and how that power may be used by them.... for surely the greatness of life is still to come, it is not in such accidents as mountains or the sea. i have seen the splendor of the mountains, sunrise and sunset among them, and the waste immensity of sky and sea. i am not blind because i can see beyond these glories. to me no other thing is credible than that all the natural beauty in the world is only so much material for the imagination and the mind, so many hints and suggestions for art and creation. whatever is, is but the lure and symbol towards what can be willed and done. man lives to make--in the end he must make, for there will be nothing else left for him to do. and the world he will make--after a thousand years or so! i, at least, can forgive the loss of all the accidental, unmeaning beauty that is going for the sake of the beauty of fine order and intention that will come. i believe--passionately, as a doubting lover believes in his mistress--in the future of mankind. and so to me it seems altogether well that all the froth and hurry of niagara at last, all of it, dying into hungry canals of intake, should rise again in light and power, in ordered and equipped and proud and beautiful humanity, in cities and palaces and the emancipated souls and hearts of men.... i turned back to look at the power-house as i walked towards the falls, and halted and stared. its architecture brought me out of my day-dream to the quality of contemporary things again. it's a well-intentioned building enough, extraordinarily well intentioned, and regardless of expense. it's in granite and by stanford white, and yet--it hasn't caught the note. there's a touch of respectability in it, more than a hint of the box of bricks. odd, but i'd almost as soon have had one of the schoellkopf sheds. a community that can produce such things as those turbines and dynamos, and then cover them over with this dull exterior, is capable, one realizes, of feats of bathos. one feels that all the power that throbs in the copper cables below may end at last in turning great wheels for excursionists, stamping out aluminum "fancy" ware, and illuminating night advertisements for drug shops and music halls. i had an afternoon of busy doubts.... there is much discussion about niagara at present. it may be some queer compromise, based on the pretence that a voluminous water-fall is necessarily a thing of incredible beauty, and a human use is necessarily a degrading use, will "save" niagara and the hack-drivers and the souvenir-shops for series of years yet, "a magnificent monument to the pride of the united states in a glory of nature," as one journalistic savior puts it. it is, as public opinion stands, a quite conceivable thing. this electric development may be stopped after all, and the huge fall of water remain surrounded by gravel paths and parapets and geranium-beds, a staring-point for dull wonder, a crown for a day's excursion, a thunderous impressive accessory to the vulgar love-making that fills the surrounding hotels, a titanic imbecility of wasted gifts. but i don't think so. i think somebody will pay something, and the journalistic zeal for scenery abate. i think the huge social and industrial process of america will win in this conflict, and at last capture niagara altogether. and then--what use will it make of its prey? iii the tail of chicago in smoky, vast, undisciplined chicago growth forced itself upon me again as the dominant american fact, but this time a dark disorder of growth. i went about chicago seeing many things of which i may say something later. i visited the top of the masonic building and viewed a wilderness of sky-scrapers. i acquired a felt of memories of swing bridges and viaducts and interlacing railways and jostling crowds and extraordinarily dirty streets, i learnt something of the mystery of the "floating foundations" upon which so much of chicago rests. but i got my best vision of chicago as i left it. i sat in the open observation-car at the end of the pennsylvania limited express, and watched the long defile of industrialism from the union station in the heart of things to out beyond south chicago, a dozen miles away. i had not gone to the bloody spectacle of the stock-yards that "feed the world," because, to be frank, i have an immense repugnance to the killing of fixed and helpless animals; i saw nothing of those ill-managed, ill-inspected establishments, though i smelt the unwholesome reek from them ever and again, and so it was here i saw for the first time the enormous expanse and intricacy of railroads that net this great industrial desolation, and something of the going and coming of the myriads of polyglot workers. chicago burns bituminous coal, it has a reek that outdoes london, and right and left of the line rise vast chimneys, huge blackened grain-elevators, flame-crowned furnaces and gauntly ugly and filthy factory buildings, monstrous mounds of refuse, desolate, empty lots littered with rusty cans, old iron, and indescribable rubbish. interspersed with these are groups of dirty, disreputable, insanitary-looking wooden houses. we swept along the many-railed track, and the straws and scraps of paper danced in our eddy as we passed. we overtook local trains and they receded slowly in the great perspective, huge freight-trains met us or were overtaken; long trains of doomed cattle passed northward; solitary engines went by--every engine tolling a melancholy bell; open trucks crowded with workmen went cityward. by the side of the track, and over the level crossings, walked great numbers of people. so it goes on mile after mile--chicago. the sun was now bright, now pallid through some streaming curtain of smoke; the spring afternoon was lit here and again by the gallant struggle of some stunted tree with a rare and startling note of new green.... it was like a prolonged, enlarged mingling of the south side of london with all that is bleak and ugly in the black country. it is the most perfect presentation of nineteenth-century individualistic industrialism i have ever seen--in its vast, its magnificent squalor; it is pure nineteenth century; it had no past at all before that; in it was empty prairie, and one marvels for its future. it is indeed a nineteenth-century nightmare that culminates beyond south chicago in the monstrous fungoid shapes, the endless smoking chimneys, the squat retorts, the black smoke pall of the standard oil company. for a time the sun is veiled altogether by that.... and then suddenly chicago is a dark smear under the sky, and we are in the large emptiness of america, the other america--america in between. iv intimations of order "undisciplined"--that is the word for chicago. it is the word for all the progress of the victorian time, a scrambling, ill-mannered, undignified, unintelligent development of material resources. packingtown, for example, is a place that feeds the world with meat, that concentrates the produce of a splendid countryside at a position of imperial advantage, and its owners have no more sense, no better moral quality, than to make it stink in the nostrils of any one who comes within two miles of it; to make it a centre of distribution for disease and decay, an arena of shabby evasions and extra profits; a scene of brutal economic conflict and squalid filthiness, offensive to every sense. (i wish i could catch the soul of herbert spencer and tether it in chicago for awhile to gather fresh evidence upon the superiority of unfettered individualistic enterprises to things managed by the state.) want of discipline! chicago is one hoarse cry for discipline! the reek and scandal of the stock-yards is really only a gigantic form of that same quality in american life that, in a minor aspect, makes the sidewalk filthy. the key to the peculiar nasty ugliness of those schoellkopf works that defile the niagara gorge is the same quality. the detestableness of the elevated railroads of chicago and boston and new york have this in common. all that is ugly in america, in lancashire, in south and east london, in the pas de calais, is due to this, to the shoving unintelligent proceedings of underbred and morally obtuse men. each man is for himself, each enterprise; there is no order, no prevision, no common and universal plan. modern economic organization is still as yet only thinking of emerging from its first chaotic stage, the stage of lawless enterprise and insanitary aggregation, the stage of the prospector's camp.... but it does emerge. men are makers--american men, i think, more than most men--and amidst even the catastrophic jumble of chicago one finds the same creative forces at work that are struggling to replan a greater boston, and that turned a waste of dumps and swamps and cabbage-gardens into central park, new york. chicago also has its parks commission and its green avenues, its bright flower-gardens, its lakes and playing-fields. its midway plaisance is in amazing contrast with the dirt, the congestion, the moral disorder of its state street; its field houses do visible battle with slum and the frantic meanness of commercial folly. field houses are peculiar to chicago, and chicago has every reason to be proud of them. i visited one that is positively within smell of the stock-yards and wedged into a district of gaunt and dirty slums. it stands in the midst of a little park, and close by it are three playing-grounds with swings and parallel bars and all manner of athletic appliances, one for little children, one for girls and women, and one for boys and youths. in the children's place is a paddling-pond of clear, clean, running water and a shaded area of frequently changed sand, and in the park was a broad asphalted arena that can be flooded for skating in winter. all this is free to all comers, and free too is the field house itself. this is a large, cool italianate place with two or three reading-rooms--one specially arranged for children--a big discussion-hall, a big and well-equipped gymnasium, and big, free baths for men and for women. there is also a clean, bright refreshment-place where wholesome food is sold just above cost price. it was early on friday afternoon when i saw it all, but the place was busy with children, reading, bathing, playing in a hundred different ways. [illustration: state street, chicago] and this field house is not an isolated philanthropic enterprise. it is just one of a number that are dotted about chicago, mitigating and civilizing its squalor. it was not distilled by begging and charity from the stench of the stock-yards or the reek of standard oil. it is part of the normal work of a special taxing body created by the legislature of the state of illinois. it is just one of the fruits upon one of the growths that spring from such persistent creative efforts as that of the chicago city club. it is socialism--even as its enemies declare.... even amidst the sombre uncleanliness of chicago one sees the light of a new epoch, the coming of new conceptions, of foresight, of large collective plans and discipline to achieve them, the fresh green leaves, among all the festering manure, of the giant growths of a more orderly and more beautiful age. v the pennsylvania limited these growing towns, these giant towns that grow up and out, that grow orderly and splendid out of their first chaotic beginnings, are only little patches upon a vast expanse, upon what is still of all habitable countries the emptiest country in the world. my long express journey from chicago to washington lasted a day and a night and more, i could get sooner from my home in kent to italy, and yet that was still well under a third of the way across the continent. i spent most of my daylight time in the fine and graceful open loggia at the end of the observation-car or in looking out of the windows, looking at hills and valleys, townships and quiet places, sudden busy industrial outbreaks about coal-mine or metal, big undisciplined rivers that spread into swamp and lake, new forest growths, very bright and green now, foaming up above blackened stumps. there were many cypress-trees and trees with white blossom and the judas-tree, very abundant among the spring-time green. i got still more clearly the enormous scale of this american destiny i seek to discuss, through all that long and interesting day of transit. i measured, as it seemed to me for the first time, the real scale of the growth process that has put a four-track road nine hundred miles across this exuberant land and scarred every available hill with furnace and mine. bigness--that's the word! the very fields and farm-buildings seem to me to have four times the size of our english farms. some casual suggestion of the wayside, i forget now what, set me thinking of the former days, so recent that they are yet within the lifetime of living men, when this was frontier land, when even the middle west remained to be won. i thought of the slow diffusing population of the forties, the pioneer wagon, the men armed with axe and rifle, knife and revolver, the fear of the indians, the weak and casual incidence of law. then the high-road was but a prairie track and all these hills and hidden minerals unconquered fastnesses that might, it seemed, hold out for centuries before they gave their treasure. how quickly things had come! "progress, progress," murmured the wheels, and i began to make this steady, swift, and shiningly equipped train a figure, just as i had made the _carmania_ a figure of that big onward sweep that is moving us all together. it was not a noisy train, after the english fashion, nor did the cars sway and jump after the habit of our lighter coaches, but the air was full of deep, triumphant rhythms. "it goes on," i said, "invincibly," and even as the thought was in my head, the brakes set up a droning, a vibration ran through the train and we slowed and stopped. a minute passed, and then we rumbled softly back to a little trestle-bridge and stood there. i got up, looked from the window, and then went to the platform at the end of the train. i found two men, a passenger and a colored parlor-car attendant. the former was on the bottom step of the car, the latter was supplying him with information. "his head's still in the water," he remarked. "whose head?" said i. "a man we've killed," said he. "we caught him in the trestle-bridge." i descended a step, craned over my fellow-passenger, and saw a little group standing curiously about the derelict thing that had been a living man three minutes before. it was now a crumpled, dark-stained blue blouse, a limply broken arm with hand askew, trousered legs that sprawled quaintly, and a pair of heavy boots, lying in the sunlit fresh grass by the water below the trestle-bridge.... a man on the line gave inadequate explanations. "he'd have been all right if he hadn't come over this side," he said. "who was he?" said i. "one of these eyetalians on the line," he said, and turned away. the train bristled now with a bunch of curiosity at every car end, and even windows were opened.... presently it was intimated to us by a whistle and the hasty return of men to the cars that the incident had closed. we began to move forward again, crept up to speed.... but i could not go on with my conception of the train as a symbol of human advancement. that crumpled blue blouse and queerly careless legs would get into the picture and set up all sorts of alien speculations. i thought of distant north italian valleys and brown boys among the vines and goats, of the immigrants who had sung remotely to me out of the carmania's steerage, of the hopeful bright-eyed procession of the new-comers through ellis island wicket, of the regiments of workers the line had shown me, and i told myself a tale of this italian's journey to the land of promise, this land of gigantic promises.... for a time the big spectacle of america about me took on a quality of magnificent infidelity.... and by reason of this incident my last image of material progress thundered into washington station five minutes behind its scheduled time. chapter v the economic process i a bird's-eye view let me try now and make some sort of general picture of the american nation as it impresses itself upon me. it is, you will understand, the vision of a hurried bird of passage, defective and inaccurate at every point of detail, but perhaps for my present purpose not so very much the worse for that. the fact that i am transitory and bring a sort of theorizing naïveté to this review is just what gives me the chance to remark these obvious things the habituated have forgotten. i have already tried to render something of the effect of huge unrestrained growth and material progress that america first gives one, and i have pointed out that so far america seems to me only to refresh an old impression, to give starkly and startlingly what is going on everywhere, what is indeed as much in evidence in birkenhead or milan or london or calcutta, a huge extension of human power and the scale of human operations. this growth was elaborated in the physical and chemical laboratories and the industrial experiments of the eighteenth and early nineteenth century, and chiefly in europe. the extension itself is nothing typically american. nevertheless america now shows it best. america is most under the stress and urgency of it, resonates most readily and loudly to its note. the long distances of travel, and the sense of isolation between place and place, the remoteness verging upon inaudibility of washington in chicago, of chicago in boston, the vision i have had of america from observation cars and railroad windows brings home to me more and more that this huge development of human appliances and resources is here going on in a community that is still, for all the dense crowds of new york, the teeming congestion of the east side, extraordinarily scattered. america, one recalls, is still an unoccupied country, across which the latest developments of civilization are rushing. we are dealing here with a continuous area of land which is, leaving alaska out of account altogether, equal to great britain, france, the german empire, the austro-hungarian empire, italy, belgium, japan, holland, spain and portugal, sweden and norway, turkey in europe, egypt and the whole empire of india, and the population spread out over this vast space is still less than the joint population of the first two countries named and not a quarter that of india. moreover, it is not spread at all evenly. much of it is in undistributed clots. it is not upon the soil, barely half of it is in holdings and homes and authentic communities. it is a population of an extremely modern type. urban concentration has already gone far with it; fifteen millions of it are crowded into and about twenty great cities, other eighteen millions make up five hundred towns. between these centres of population run railways indeed, telegraph wires, telephone connections, tracks of various sorts, but to the european eye these are mere scratchings on a virgin surface. an empty wilderness manifests itself through this thin network of human conveniences, appears in the meshes even at the railroad side. essentially america is still an unsettled land, with only a few incidental good roads in favored places, with no universal police, with no wayside inns where a civilized man may rest, with still only the crudest of rural postal deliveries, with long stretches of swamp and forest and desert by the track side, still unassailed by industry. this much one sees clearly enough eastward of chicago. westward, i am told, it becomes more and more the fact. in idaho at last, comes the untouched and perhaps invincible desert, plain and continuous through the long hours of travel. huge areas do not contain one human being to the square mile, still vaster portions fall short of two.... and this community, to which material progress is bringing such enormous powers, and that is knotted so densely here and there, and is otherwise so attenuated a veil over the huge land surface, is, as professor münsterberg points out, in spite of vast and increasing masses of immigrants still a curiously homogeneous one, homogeneous in the spirit of its activities and speaking a common tongue. it is sustained by certain economic conventions, inspired throughout by certain habits, certain trends of suggestion, certain phrases and certain interpretations that collectively make up what one may call the american idea. to the process of enlargement and diffusion and increase and multiplying resources, we must now bring the consideration of the social and economic process that is going on. what is the form of that process as one finds it in america? an english tory will tell you promptly, "a scramble for dollars." a good american will tell you it is self realization under equality of opportunity. the english tory will probably allege that that amounts to the same thing. let us look into that. ii liberty of property one contrast between america and the old world i had in mind before ever i crossed the atlantic, and now it comes before me very vividly,--returns reinforced by a hundred little things observed and felt. the contrast consists in the almost complete absence from the normal american scheme, of certain immemorial factors in the social structure of our european nations. in the first place, every european nation except the english is rooted to the soil by a peasantry, and even in england one still finds the peasant represented, in most of his features by those sons of dispossessed serf-peasants, the agricultural laborers. here in america, except in the regions where the negro abounds, there is no lower stratum, no "soil people," to this community at all; your bottom-most man is a mobile free man who can read, and who has ideas above digging and pigs and poultry keeping, except incidentally for his own ends. no one owns to subordination. as a consequence, any position which involves the acknowledgment of an innate inferiority is difficult to fill; there is, from the european point of view, an extraordinary dearth of servants, and this endures in spite of a great peasant immigration. the servile tradition will not root here now, it dies in this soil. an enormous importation of european serfs and peasants goes on, but as they touch this soil their backs begin to stiffen with a new assertion. and at the other end of the scale, also, one misses an element. there is no territorial aristocracy, no aristocracy at all, no throne, no legitimate and acknowledged representative of that upper social structure of leisure, power, state responsibility, which in the old european theory of society was supposed to give significance to the whole. the american community, one cannot too clearly insist, does not correspond to an entire european community at all, but only to the middle masses of it, to the trading and manufacturing class between the dimensions of the magnate and the clerk and skilled artisan. it is the central part of the european organism without either the dreaming head or the subjugated feet. even the highly feudal slave-holding "county family" traditions of virginia and the south pass now out of memory. so that in a very real sense the past of this american community is in europe, and the settled order of the past is left behind there. this community was, as it were, taken off its roots, clipped of its branches and brought hither. it began neither serf nor lord, but burgher and farmer, it followed the normal development of the middle class under progress everywhere and became capitalistic. essentially america is a middle-class become a community and so its essential problems are the problems of a modern individualistic society, stark and clear, unhampered and unilluminated by any feudal traditions either at its crest or at its base. it would be interesting and at first only very slightly misleading to pursue the rough contrast of american and english conditions upon these lines. it is not difficult to show for example, that the two great political parties in america represent only one english party, the middle-class liberal party, the party of industrialism and freedom. there are no tories to represent the feudal system, and no labor party. it is history, it is no mere ingenious gloss upon history, that the tories, the party of the crown, of the high gentry and control, of mitigated property and an organic state, vanished from america at the revolution. they left the new world to the whigs and nonconformists and to those less constructive, less logical, more popular and liberating thinkers who became radicals in england, and jeffersonians and then democrats in america. all americans are, from the english point of view, liberals of one sort or another. you will find a fac-simile of the declaration of independence displayed conspicuously and triumphantly beside magna charter in the london reform club, to carry out this suggestion. but these fascinating parallelisms will lead away from the chief argument in hand, which is that the americans started almost clear of the medieval heritage, and developed in the utmost--purity if you like--or simplicity or crudeness, whichever you will, the modern type of productive social organization. they took the economic conventions that were modern and progressive at the end of the eighteenth century and stamped them into the constitution as if they meant to stamp them there for all time. in england you can still find feudalism, medievalism, the renascence, at every turn. america is pure eighteenth century--still crystallizing out from a turbid and troubled solution. to turn from any european state to america is, in these matters anyhow, to turn from complication to a stark simplicity. the relationship between employer and employed, between organizer and worker, between capital and labor, which in england is qualified and mellowed and disguised and entangled with a thousand traditional attitudes and subordinations, stands out sharply in a bleak cold rationalism. there is no feeling that property, privilege, honor, and a grave liability to official public service ought to go together, none that uncritical obedience is a virtue in a worker or that subordination carries with it not only a sense of service but a claim for help. coming across the atlantic has in these matters an effect of coming out of an iridescent fog into a clear bright air. this homologization of the whole american social mass, not with the whole english social mass, but with its "modern" classes, its great middle portion, and of its political sides with the two ingredients of english liberalism, goes further than a rough parallel. an englishman who, like myself, has been bred and who has lived all his life either in london, with its predominant west-end, or the southern counties with their fair large estates and the great country houses, is constantly being reminded, when he meets manufacturing and business men from birmingham or lancashire, of americans, and when he meets americans, of industrial north-country people. there is more push and less tacit assumption, more definition, more displayed energy and less restraint, more action and less subtlety, more enterprise and self-assertion than there is in the typical englishman of london and the home counties. the american carries on the contrast further, it is true, and his speech is not northernly, but marked by the accent of hampshire or east anglia, and better and clearer than his english equivalent's; but one feels the two are of the same stuff, nevertheless, and made by parallel conditions. the liberalism of the eighteenth century, the material progress of the nineteenth have made them both--out of the undifferentiated stuart englishman. and they are the same in their attitude towards property and social duty, individualists to the marrow. but the one grew inside a frame of regal, aristocratic, and feudal institutions, and has chafed against it, struggled with it, modified it, strained it, and been modified by it, but has remained within it; the other broke it and escaped to complete self-development. the liberalism of the eighteenth century was essentially the rebellion of the modern industrial organization against the monarchial and aristocratic state,--against hereditary privilege, against restrictions upon bargains--whether they were hard bargains or not. its spirit was essentially anarchistic,--the antithesis of socialism. it was the anti-state. it aimed not only to liberate men but property from state control. its most typical expressions, the declaration of independence, and the french declaration of the rights of man, are zealously emphatic for the latter interest--for the sacredness of contracts and possessions. post reformation liberalism did to a large extent let loose property upon mankind. the english civil war of the seventeenth century, like the american revolution of the eighteenth, embodied essentially the triumphant refusal of private property to submit to taxation without consent. in england the result was tempered and qualified, security for private property was achieved, but not cast-iron security; each man who had property became king of that property, but only a constitutional and conditional king. in america the victory of private property was complete. let one instance suffice to show how decisively it was established that individual property and credit and money were sacred. ten years ago the supreme court, trying a case arising out of the general revenue tax of , decided that a graduated income-tax, such as the english parliament might pass to-morrow, can never be levied upon the united states nation without a change in the constitution, which can be effected only by a vote of two-thirds of both houses of congress as an initiative, and this must be ratified either by the legislatures of three-fourths of the states, or by special conventions representing three-fourths of the states. the fundamental law of the states forbids any such invasion of the individual's ownership. no national income-tax is legal, and there is practically no power, short of revolution, to alter that.... could anything be more emphatic? that tall liberty with its spiky crown that stands in new york harbor and casts an electric flare upon the world, is, indeed, the liberty of property, and there she stands at the zenith.... iii aggregation and some protests now the middle-class of the english population and the whole population of america that matters at all when we discuss ideas, is essentially an emancipated class, a class that has rebelled against superimposed privilege and honor, and achieved freedom for its individuals and their property. without property its freedom is a featureless and unsubstantial theory, and so it relies for the reality of life upon that, upon the possession and acquisition and development of property, that is to say upon "business." that is the quality of its life. everywhere in the modern industrial and commercial class this deep-lying feeling that the state is something escaped from, has worked out to the same mental habit of social irresponsibility, and in america it has worked unimpeded. patriotism has become a mere national self-assertion, a sentimentality of flag cheering, with no constructive duties. law, social justice, the pride and preservation of the state as a whole are taken as provided for before the game began, and one devotes one-self to business. at business all men are held to be equal, and none is his brother's keeper. all men are equal at the great game of business. you try for the best of each bargain and so does your opponent; if you chance to have more in your hand than he--well, that's your advantage, and you use it. presently he may have more than you. you take care he doesn't if you can, but you play fair--except for the advantage in your hand; you play fair--and hard. now this middle-class equality ultimately destroys itself. out of this conflict of equals, and by virtue of the fact that property, like all sorts of matter, does tend to gravitate towards itself whenever it is free, there emerge the modern rich and the modern toiler. one can trace the process in two or three generations in lancashire or the potteries, or any industrial region of england. one sees first the early lancashire industrialism, sees a district of cotton-spinners more or less equal together, small men all; then come developments, comes a state of ideally free competition with some men growing large, with most men dropping into employment, but still with ample chances for an industrious young man to end as a prosperous master; and so through a steady growth in the size of the organization to the present opposition of an employer class in possession of everything, almost inaccessibly above, and an employed class below. the railways come, and the wealthy class reaches out to master these new enterprises, capitalistic from the outset.... america is simply repeating the history of the lancashire industrialism on a gigantic scale, and under an enormous variety of forms. but in england, as the modern rich rise up, they come into a world of gentry with a tradition of public service and authority; they learn one by one and assimilate themselves to the legend of the "governing class" with a sense of proprietorship which is also, in its humanly limited way, a sense of duty to the state. they are pseudomorphs after aristocrats. they receive honors, they inter-marry, they fall (and their defeated competitors too fall) into the mellowed relationships of an aristocratic system. that is not a permanent mutual attitude; it does, however, mask and soften the british outline. industrialism becomes quasi-feudal. america, on the other hand, had no effectual "governing class," there has been no such modification, no clouding of the issue. its rich, to one's superficial inspection, do seem to lop out, swell up into an immense consumption and power and inanity, develop no sense of public duties, remain winners of a strange game they do not criticise, concerned now only to hold and intensify their winnings. the losers accept no subservience. that material progress, that secular growth in scale of all modern enterprises, widens the gulf between owner and worker daily. more and more do men realize that this game of free competition and unrestricted property does not go on for ever; it is a game that first in this industry and then in that, and at last in all, can be played out and is being played out. property becomes organized, consolidated, concentrated, and secured. this is the fact to which america is slowly awaking at the present time. the american community is discovering a secular extinction of opportunity, and the appearance of powers against which individual enterprise and competition are hopeless. enormous sections of the american public are losing their faith in any personal chance of growing rich and truly free, and are developing the consciousness of an expropriated class. this realization has come slowlier in america than in europe, because of the enormous undeveloped resources of america. so long as there was an unlimited extent of unappropriated and unexplored land westward, so long could tension be relieved by so simple an injunction as horace greeley's, "go west, young man; go west." and to-day, albeit that is no longer true of the land, and there are already far larger concentrations of individual possessions in the united states of america than anywhere else in the world, yet so vast are their continental resources that it still remains true that nowhere in the world is property so widely diffused. consider the one fact that america can take in three-quarters of a million of workers in one year without producing a perceptible fall in wages, and you will appreciate the scale upon which things are measured here, the scale by which even mr. j.d. rockefeller's billion dollars becomes no more than a respectable but by no means overwhelming "pile." for all these concentrations, the western farmers still own their farms, and it is the rule rather than the exception for a family to possess the freehold of the house it lives in. but the process of concentration goes on nevertheless--is going on now perceptibly to the american mind. that it has not gone so far as in the european instance it is a question of size, just as the gestation of an elephant takes longer than that of a mouse. if the process is larger and slower, it is, for the reasons i have given, plainer, and it will be discussed and dealt with plainly. that steady trend towards concentration under individualistic rules, until individual competition becomes disheartened and hopeless, is the essential form of the economic and social process in america as i see it now, and it has become the cardinal topic of thought and discussion in the american mind. [illustration: western farmers still own their farms] this realization has been reached after the most curious hesitation. there is every reason for this; for it involves the contradiction of much that seems fundamental in the american idea. it amounts to a national change of attitude. it is a conscious change of attitude that is being deliberately made. this slow reluctant process of disillusionment with individualism is interestingly traceable through the main political innovations of the last twenty years. there was the discovery in the east that the supply of land was not limitless, and we had the single tax movement, and the epoch of the first mr. henry george. he explained fervently of course, how individualistic, how profoundly american he was--but land was not to be monopolized. then came the discovery in the west that there were limits to borrowing and that gold appreciated against the debtor, and so we have the populist movement and extraordinary schemes for destroying the monopolization of gold and credit. mr. bryan led that and nearly captured the country, but only in last may's issue of the _century magazine_ i found him explaining (expounding meanwhile a largely socialistic programme) that he too is an individualist of the purest water. and then the attack shifted to the destruction of free competition by the trusts. the small business went on sufferance, 'not knowing from week to week when its hour to sell out or fight might come. the trusts have crushed competition, raised prices against the consumer, and served him often quite abominably. the curious reader may find in mr. upton sinclair's essentially veracious _jungle_ the possibilities of individualistic enterprise in the matter of food and decency. the states have been agitated by a big disorganized anti-trust movement for some years, it becomes of the gravest political importance at every election, and the sustained study of the affairs and methods of that most typical and prominent of trust organizations, the standard oil company, by miss tarbell and a host of followers, is bringing to light more and more clearly the defencelessness of the common person, and his hopelessness, however enterprising, as a competitor against those great business aggregations. his faith in all his reliances and securities fades in the new light that grows about him, he sees his little investments, his insurance policy, his once open and impartial route to market by steamboat and rail, all passing into the grip of the great property accumulators. the aggregation of property has created powers that are stronger than state legislatures and more persistent than any public opinion can be, that have no awe and no sentiment for legislation, that are prepared to disregard it or evade it whenever they can. and these aggregations are taking on immortality and declining to disintegrate when their founders die. the astor property, the jay gould property, the marshall field property, for example, do not break up, become undying centres for the concentration of wealth, and it is doubtful if there is any power to hinder such a development of perpetual fortunes. in england when thelussen left his investments to accumulate, a simple little act of parliament set his will aside. but congress is not sovereign, there is no national sovereign power in america, and property in america, it would seem, is absolutely free to do these things. so you have president roosevelt in a recent oration attacking the man with the muck rake (who gathered vile dross for the love of it), and threatening the limitation of inheritance. but he too, quite as much as mr. bryan, assures the public that he is a fervent individualist. so in this american community, whose distinctive conception is its emphatic assertion of the freedom of individual property, whose very symbol is that spike-crowned liberty gripping a torch in new york harbor, there has been and is going on a successive repudiation of that freedom in almost every department of ownable things by considerable masses of thinking people, a denial of the soundness of individual property in land, an organized attempt against the accumulation of gold and credit, by a systematic watering of the currency, a revolt against the aggregatory outcome of untrammelled business competition, a systematic interference with the freedom of railways and carriers to do business as they please, and a protest from the most representative of americans against hereditary wealth.... that, in general terms, is the economic and social process as one sees it in america now, a process of systematically concentrating wealth on the part of an energetic minority, and of a great insurgence of alarm, of waves of indignation and protest and threat on the part of that vague indefinite public that mr. roosevelt calls the "nation." and this goes on side by side with a process of material progress that partly masks its quality, that keeps the standard of life from falling and prevents any sense of impoverishment among the mass of the losers in the economic struggle. through this material progress there is a constant substitution of larger, cleaner, more efficient possibilities, and more and more wholesale and far-sighted methods of organization for the dark, confused, untidy individualistic expedients of the victorian time. an epoch which was coaly and mechanical, commercial and adventurous after the earlier fashion is giving place, almost automatically, to one that will be electrical and scientific, artistic and creative. the material progress due to a secular increase in knowledge, and the economic progress interfere and combine with and complicate one another, the former constantly changes the forms and appliances of the latter, changes the weapons and conditions, and may ultimately change the spirit and conceptions of the struggle. the latter now clogs and arrests the former. so in its broad features, as a conflict between the birth strength of a splendid civilization and a hampering commercialism, i see america. chapter vi some aspects of american wealth i the spenders it is obvious that in a community that has disavowed aristocracy or rule and subordination or service, which has granted unparalleled freedoms to property and despised and distrusted the state, the chief business of life will consist in getting or attempting to get. but the chief aspect of american life that impinges first upon the european is not this, but the behavior of a certain overflow at the top, of people who have largely and triumphantly got, and with hand, pockets, safe-deposit vaults full of dollars, are proceeding to realize victory. before i came to america it was in his capacity of spender that i chiefly knew the american; as a person who had demoralized regent street and the rue de rivoli, who had taught the london cabman to demand "arf a dollar" for a shilling fare, who bought old books and old castles, and had driven the prices of old furniture to incredible altitudes, and was slowly transferring our incubus of artistic achievement to american soil. one of my friends in london is mr. x, who owns those two houses full of fine "pieces" near the british museum and keeps his honor unsullied in the most deleterious of trades. "they come to me," he said, "and ask me to buy for them. it's just buying. one of them wants to beat the silver of another, doesn't care what he pays. another clamors for tapestry. they trust me as they trust a doctor. there's no understanding--no feeling. it's hard to treat them well." and there is the story of y, who is wise about pictures. "if you want a botticelli that size, mr. record, i can't find it," he said; "you'll have to have it made for you." these american spenders have got the whole world "beat" at the foolish game of collecting, and in all the peculiar delights of shopping they excel. and they are the crown and glory of hotel managers throughout the world. there is something naïve, something childishly expectant and acquisitive, about this aspect of american riches. there appears no aristocracy in their tradition, no sense of permanence and great responsibility, there appears no sense of subordination and service; from the individualistic business struggle they have emerged triumphant, and what is there to do now but spend and have a good time? they swarm in the pleasant places of the riviera, they pervade paris and rome, they occupy scotch castles and english estates, their motor-cars are terrible and wonderful. and the london savoy hotel still flaunts its memory of one splendid american night. the court-yard was flooded with water tinted an artistic blue--to the great discomfort of the practically inevitable gold-fish, and on this floated a dream of a gondola. and in the gondola the table was spread and served by the savoy staff, mysteriously disguised in appropriate fancy costume. the whole thing--there's only two words for it--was "perfectly lovely." "the illusion"--whatever that was--we are assured, was complete. it wasn't a nursery treat, you know. the guests, i am told, were important grown-up people. this sort of childishness, of course, has nothing distinctively american in it. any people of sluggish and uneducated imagination who find themselves profusely wealthy, and are too stupid to understand the huge moral burden, the burden of splendid possibilities it carries, may do things of this sort. it was not americans but a party of south-african millionaires who achieved the kindred triumph of the shirt-and-belt dinner under a tent in a london hotel dining-room. the glittering procession of carriages and motor-carriages which i watched driving down fifth avenue, new york, apparently for the pleasure of driving up again, is to be paralleled on the pincio, in naples, in paris, and anywhere where irresponsible pleasure-seekers gather together. after the naïve joy of buying things comes the joy of wearing them publicly, the simple pleasure of the promenade. these things are universals. but nowhere has this spending struck me as being so solid and substantial, so nearly twenty-two carats fine, as here. the shops have an air of solid worth, are in the key of butlers, bishops, opera-boxes, high-class florists, powdered footmen, roman beadles, motor-broughams, to an extent that altogether outshines either paris or london. [illustration: plump and pretty pupils of extravagance] and in such great hotels as the waldorf-astoria, one finds the new arrivals, the wives and daughters from the west and the south, in new, bright hats, and splendors of costume, clubbed together, under the discreetest management, for this and that, learning how to spend collectively, reaching out to assemblies, to dinners. from an observant tea-table beneath the fronds of a palm, i surveyed a fine array of these plump and pretty pupils of extravagance. they were for the most part quite brilliantly as well as newly dressed, and with an artless and pleasing unconsciousness of the living from inside. smart innocents! i found all that gathering most contagiously interested and happy and fresh. and i watched spending, too, as one sees it in the various incompatible houses of upper fifth avenue and along the border of central park. that, too, suggests a shop, a shop where country houses are sold and stored; there is the tiffany house, a most expensive-looking article, on the shelf, and the carnegie house. there had been no pretence on the part of the architects that any house belonged in any sense to any other, that any sort of community held them together. the link is just spending. you come to new york and spend; you go away again. to some of these palaces people came and went; others had their blinds down and conveyed a curious effect of a sunlit child excursionist in a train who falls asleep and droops against his neighbor. one of the vanderbilt houses was frankly and brutally boarded up. newport, i am told, takes up and carries on the same note of magnificent irresponsibility, and there one admires the richest forms of simplicity, triumphs of villa architecture in thatch, and bathing bungalows in marble.... there exists already, of these irresponsible american rich, a splendid group of portraits, done without extenuation and without malice, in the later work of that great master of english fiction, mr. henry james. there one sees them at their best, their refinement, their large wealthiness, their incredible unreality. i think of _the ambassadors_ and that mysterious source of the income of the newcomes, a mystery that, with infinite artistic tact, was never explained; but more i think of _the golden bowl_, most spacious and serene of novels. in that splendid and luminous bubble, the prince amerigo and maggie verver, mr. verver, that assiduous collector, and the adventurous charlotte stant float far above a world of toil and anxiety, spending with a large refinement, with a perfected assurance and precision. they spend as flowers open. but this is the quintessence, the sublimation, the idealization of the rich american. few have the restraint for this. for the rest, when one has shopped and shopped, and collected and bought everything, and promenaded on foot, in motor-car and motor-brougham and motor-boat, in yacht and special train; when one has a fine house here and a fine house there, and photography and the special article have exhausted admiration, there remains chiefly that one broader and more presumptuous pleasure--spending to give. american givers give most generously, and some of them, it must be admitted, give well. but they give individually, incoherently, each pursuing a personal ideal. there are unsuccessful givers.... american cities are being littered with a disorder of unsystematized foundations and picturesque legacies, much as i find my nursery floor littered with abandoned toys and battles and buildings when the children are in bed after a long, wet day. yet some of the gifts are very splendid things. there is, for example, the leland stanford junior university in california, a vast monument of parental affection and richardsonian architecture, with professors, and teaching going on in its interstices; and there is mrs. gardner's delightful fenway court, a venetian palace, brought almost bodily from italy and full of finely gathered treasures.... all this giving is, in its aggregate effect, as confused as industrial chicago. it presents no clear scheme of the future, promises no growth; it is due to the impulsive generosity of a mob of wealthy persons, with no broad common conceptions, with no collective dream, with little to hold them together but imitation and the burning possession of money; the gifts overlap, they lie at any angle, one with another. some are needless, some mischievous. there are great gaps of unfulfilled need between. and through the multitude of lesser, though still mighty, givers, comes that colossus of property, mr. andrew carnegie, the jubilee plunger of beneficence, that rosy, gray-haired, nimble little figure, going to and fro between two continents, scattering library buildings as if he sowed wild oats, buildings that may or may not have some educational value, if presently they are reorganized and properly stocked with books. anon he appals the thrifty burgesses of dunfermline with vast and uncongenial responsibilities of expenditure; anon he precipitates the library of the late lord acton upon our embarrassed mr. morley; anon he pauperizes the students of scotland. he diffuses his monument throughout the english-speaking lands, amid circumstances of the most flagrant publicity; the receptive learned, the philanthropic noble, bow in expectant swaths before him. he is the american fable come true; nothing seems too wild to believe of him, and he fills the european imagination with an altogether erroneous conception of the self-dissipating quality in american wealth. ii the astor fortune because, now, as a matter of fact, dissipation is by no means the characteristic quality of american getting. the good american will indeed tell you solemnly that in america it is three generations "from shirt-sleeves to shirt-sleeves"; but this has about as much truth in it as that remarkable absence of any pure-bred londoners of the third generation, dear to the british imagination. amid the vast yeasty tumult of american business, of the getting and losing which are the main life of this community, nothing could be clearer than the steady accumulation of great masses of property that show no signs of disintegrating again. the very rich people display an indisposition to divide their estates; the marshall field estate in chicago, for example, accumulates; the jay gould inheritance survives great strains. and when first i heard that "shirt-sleeves to shirt-sleeves" proverb, which is so fortifying a consolation to the older school of americans, my mind flew back to the thames embankment, as one sees it from the steamboat on the river. there, just eastward of the tall red education offices of the london county council, stands a quite graceful and decorative little building of gray stone, that jars not at all with the fine traditions of the adjacent temple, but catches the eye, nevertheless, with its very big, very gilded vane in the form of a ship. this is the handsome strong-box to which new york pays gigantic yearly tribute, the office in which mr. w.w. astor conducts his affairs. they are not his private and individual affairs, but the affairs of the estate of the late j.j. astor--still undivided, and still growing year by year. mr. astor seems to me to be a much more representative figure of american wealth than any of the conspicuous spenders who strike so vividly upon the european imagination. his is the most retiring of personalities. in this picturesque stone casket he works; his staff works under his cognizance, and administers, i know not to what ends nor to what extent, revenues that exceed those of many sovereign states. he himself is impressed by it, and, without arrogance, he makes a visit to his offices, with a view of its storage vaults, its halls of disciplined clerks, a novel and characteristic form of entertainment. for the rest, mr. astor leads a life of modest affluence, and recreates himself with the genealogy of his family, short stories about treasure lost and found, and such like literary work. now here you have wealth with, as it were, the minimum of ownership, as indeed owning its possessor. nobody seems to be spending that huge income the crowded enormity of new york squeezes out. the "estate of the late j.j. astor" must be accumulating more wealth and still more; under careful and systematic management must be rolling up like a golden snowball under that golden weather-vane. in the most accidental relation to its undistinguished, harmless, arithmetical proprietor! your anarchist orator or your crude socialist is always talking of the rich as blood-suckers, robbers, robber-barons, _grafters_ and so on. it really is nonsense to talk like that. in the presence of mr. w.w. astor these preposterous accusations answer themselves. the thing is a logical outcome of the assumptions about private property on which our contemporary civilization is based, and mr. astor, for all that he draws gold from new york as effectually as a ferret draws blood from a rabbit, is indeed the most innocent of men. he finds himself in a certain position, and he sits down very congenially and adds and adds and adds, and relieves the tedium of his leisure in literary composition. had he been born at the level of a dry-goods clerk he would probably have done the same sort of thing on a smaller scale, and it would have been the little poddlecombe literary society, and not the _pall mall magazine_, that would have been the richer for his compositions. it is just the scale of the circumstances that differs.... iii the chief getters the lavish spending of fifth avenue and paris and rome and mayfair is but the flower, the often brilliant, the sometimes gaudy flower of the american economic process; and such slow and patient accumulators as mr. astor the rounding and ripening fruit. one need be only a little while in america to realize this, and to discern the branch and leaf, and at last even the aggressive insatiable spreading root of aggregating property, that was liberated so effectually when america declared herself free. the group of people that attracts the largest amount of attention in press and talk, that most obsesses the american imagination, and that is indeed the most significant at the present time, is the little group--a few score men perhaps altogether--who are emerging distinctly as winners in that great struggle to get, into which this commercial industrialism has naturally resolved itself. central among them are the men of the standard oil group, the "octopus" which spreads its ramifying tentacles through the whole system of american business, absorbing and absorbing, grasping and growing. the extraordinarily able investigations of such writers as miss tarbell and ray stannard baker, the rhetorical exposures of mr. t.w. lawson, have brought out the methods and quality of this group of persons with a particularity that has been reserved heretofore for great statesmen and crowned heads, and with an unflattering lucidity altogether unprecedented. not only is every hair on their heads numbered, but the number is published. they are known to their pettiest weaknesses and to their most accidental associations. and in this astonishing blaze of illumination they continue steadfastly to get. these men, who are creating the greatest system of correlated private properties in the world, who are wealthy beyond all precedent, seem for the most part to be men with no ulterior dream or aim. they are not voluptuaries, they are neither artists nor any sort of creators, and they betray no high political ambitions. had they anything of the sort they would not be what they are, they would be more than that and less. they want and they get, they are inspired by the brute will in their wealth to have more wealth and more, to a systematic ardor. they are men of a competing, patient, enterprising, acquisitive enthusiasm. they have found in america the perfectly favorable environment for their temperaments. in no other country and in no other age could they have risen to such eminence. america is still, by virtue of its great puritan tradition and in the older sense of the word, an intensely moral land. most lusts here are strongly curbed, by public opinion, by training and tradition. but the lust of acquisition has not been curbed but glorified.... these financial leaders are accused by the press of every sort of crime in the development of their great organizations and their fight against competitors, but i feel impelled myself to acquit them of anything so heroic as a general scheme of criminality, as a systematic organization of power. they are men with a good deal of contempt for legislation and state interference, but that is no distinction, it has unhappily been part of the training of the average american citizen, and they have no doubt exceeded the letter if not the spirit of the laws of business competition. they have played to win and not for style, and if they personally had not done so somebody else would; they fill a position which from the nature of things, somebody is bound to fill. they have, no doubt, carried sharpness to the very edge of dishonesty, but what else was to be expected from the american conditions? only by doing so and taking risks is pre-eminent success in getting to be attained. they have developed an enormous system of espionage, but on his smaller scale every retail grocer, every employer of servants does something in that way. they have secret agents, false names, concealed bargains,--what else could one expect? people have committed suicide through their operations--but in a game which is bound to bring the losers to despair it is childish to charge the winners with murder. it's the game that is criminal. it is ridiculous, i say, to write of these men as though they were unparalleled villains, intellectual overmen, conscienceless conquerors of the world. mr. j.d. rockefeller's mild, thin-lipped, pleasant face gives the lie to all such melodramatic nonsense. i must confess to a sneaking liking for this much-reviled man. one thinks of miss tarbell's description of him, displaying his first boyish account-book, his ledger a, to a sympathetic gathering of the baptist young, telling how he earned fifty dollars in the first three months of his clerking in a chicago warehouse, and how savingly he dealt with it. hear his words: "you could not get that book from me for all the modern ledgers in new york, nor for all that they would bring. it almost brings tears to my eyes when i read over this little book, and it fills me with a sense of gratitude i cannot express.... "i know some people, ... especially some young men, find it difficult to keep a little money in their pocket-book. i learned to keep money, and, as we have a way of saying, it did not burn a hole in my pocket. i was taught that it was the thing to keep the money and take care of it. among the early experiences that were helpful to me that i recollect with pleasure, was one of working a few days for a neighbor digging potatoes--an enterprising and thrifty farmer who could dig a great many potatoes. i was a boy perhaps thirteen or fourteen years of age, and he kept me busy from morning until night. it was a ten-hour day.... "and as i was saving these little sums, i soon learned i could get as much interest for fifty dollars loaned at seven per cent.--the legal rate in the state of new york at that time for a year--as i could earn by digging potatoes ten days. the impression was gaining ground with me that it was a good thing to let money be my slave and not make myself a slave to money. i have tried to remember that in every sense." this is not the voice of any sort of contemptuous trampler of his species. this is the voice of an industrious, acquisitive, commonplace, pious man, as honestly and simply proud of his acquisitiveness as a stamp-collector might be. at times, in his acquisitions, the strength of his passion may have driven him to lengths beyond the severe moral code, but the same has been true of stamp-collectors. he is a man who has taken up with great natural aptitude an ignoble tradition which links economy and earning with piety and honor. his teachers were to blame, that baptist community that is now so ashamed of its son that it refuses his gifts. to a large extent he is the creature of opportunity; he has been flung to the topmost pinnacle of human envy, partly by accident, partly by that peculiarity of american conditions that has subordinated, in the name of liberty, all the grave and ennobling affairs of statecraft to a middle-class freedom of commercial enterprise. quarrel with that if you like. it is unfair and ridiculous to quarrel with him. chapter vii certain workers i those who do not get let us now look a little at another aspect of this process of individualistic competition which is the economic process in america, and which is giving us on its upper side the spenders of fifth avenue, the slow accumulators of the astor type, and the great getters of the giant business organizations, the trusts and acquisitive finance. we have concluded that this process of free and open competition in business which, clearly, the framers of the american constitution imagined to be immortal, does as a matter of fact tend to kill itself through the advantage property gives in the acquisition of more property. but before we can go on to estimate the further future of this process we must experiment with another question. what is happening to those who have not got and who are not getting wealth, who are, in fact, falling back in the competition? now there can be little doubt to any one who goes to and fro in america that in spite of the huge accumulation of property in a few hands that is now in progress, there is still no general effect of impoverishment. to me, coming from london to new york, the effect of the crowd in the trolley-cars and subways and streets was one of exceptional prosperity. new york has no doubt its effects of noise, disorder, discomfort, and a sort of brutality, but to begin with one sees nothing of the underfed people, the numerous dingily clad and grayly housed people who catch the eye in london. even in the congested arteries, the filthy back streets of the east side i found myself saying, as a thing remarkable, "these people have money to spend." in london one travels long distances for two cents, and great regiments of people walk; in new york the universal fare is five cents and everybody rides. common people are better gloved and better booted in america than in any european country i know, in spite of the higher prices for clothing here, the men wear ready-made suits, it is true, to a much greater extent, but they are newer and brighter than the london clerk's carefully brushed, tailor-made garments. wages translated from dollars into shillings seem enormous. and there is no perceptible fall in wages going on. on the whole wages tend to rise. for almost all sorts of men, for working women who are not "refined," there is a limitless field of employment. the fact that a growing proportion of the wealth of the community is passing into the hands of a small minority of successful getters, is masked to superficial observation by the enormous increase of the total wealth. the growth process overrides the economic process and may continue to do so for many years. so that the great mass of the population is not consciously defeated in the economic game. it is only failing to get a large share in the increment of wealth. the european reader must dismiss from his mind any conception of the general american population as a mass of people undergoing impoverishment through the enrichment of the few. he must substitute for that figure a mass of people, very busy, roughly prosperous, generally self-satisfied, but ever and again stirred to bouts of irascibility and suspicion, inundated by a constantly swelling flood of prosperity that pours through it and over it and passes by it, without changing or enriching it at all. ever and again it is irritated by some rise in price, an advance in coal, for example, or meat or rent, that swallows up some anticipated gain, but that is an entirely different thing from want or distress, from the fireless hungering poverty of europe. [illustration: new york's crowded, littered east side] nevertheless, the sense of losing develops and spreads in the mass of the american people. privations are not needed to create a sense of economic disadvantage; thwarted hopes suffice. the speed and pressure of work here is much greater than in europe, the impatience for realization intenser. the average american comes into life prepared to "get on," and ready to subordinate most things in life to that. he encounters a rising standard of living. he finds it more difficult to get on than his father did before him. he is perplexed and irritated by the spectacle of lavish spending and the report of gigantic accumulations that outshine his utmost possibilities of enjoyment or success. he is a busy and industrious man, greatly preoccupied by the struggle, but when he stops to think and talk at all, there can be little doubt that his outlook is a disillusioned one, more and more tinged with a deepening discontent. ii the little messenger-boy but the state of mind of the average american we have to consider later. that is the central problem of this horoscope we contemplate. before we come to that we have to sketch out all the broad aspects of the situation with which that mind has to deal. now in the preceding chapter i tried to convey my impression of the spending and wealth-getting of this vast community; i tried to convey how irresponsible it was, how unpremeditated. the american rich have, as it were, floated up out of a confused struggle of equal individuals. that individualistic commercial struggle has not only flung up these rich to their own and the world's amazement, it is also, with an equal blindness, crushing and maiming great multitudes of souls. but this is a fact that does not smite upon one's attention at the outset. the english visitor to the great towns sees the spending, sees the general prosperity, the universal air of confident pride; he must go out of his way to find the under side to these things. one little thing set me questioning. i had been one sunday night down-town, supping and talking with mr. abraham cahan about the "east side," that strange city within a city which has a drama of its own and a literature and a press, and about russia and her problem, and i was returning on the subway about two o'clock in the morning. i became aware of a little lad sitting opposite me, a childish-faced delicate little creature of eleven years old or so, wearing the uniform of a messenger-boy. he drooped with fatigue, roused himself with a start, edged off his seat with a sigh, stepped off the car, and was vanishing up-stairs into the electric glare of astor place as the train ran out of the station. "what on earth," said i, "is that baby doing abroad at this time of night?" for me this weary little wretch became the irritant centre of a painful region of inquiry. "how many hours a day may a child work in new york," i began to ask people, "and when may a boy leave school?" i had blundered, i found, upon the weakest spot in america's fine front of national well-being. my eyes were opened to the childish newsboys who sold me papers, and the little bootblacks at the street corners. nocturnal child employment is a social abomination. i gathered stories of juvenile vice, of lads of nine and ten suffering from terrible diseases, of the contingent sent by these messengers to the hospitals and jails. i began to realize another aspect of that great theory of the liberty of property and the subordination of the state to business, upon which american institutions are based. that theory has no regard for children. indeed, it is a theory that disregards women and children, the cardinal facts of life altogether. they are private things.... it is curious how little we, who live in the dawning light of a new time, question the intellectual assumptions of the social order about us. we find ourselves in a life of huge confusions and many cruelties, we plan this and that to remedy and improve, but very few of us go down to the ideas that begot these ugly conditions, the laws, the usages and liberties that are now in their detailed expansion so perplexing, intricate, and overwhelming. yet the life of man is altogether made up of will cast into the mould of ideas, and only by correcting ideas, changing ideas and replacing ideas are any ameliorations and advances to be achieved in human destiny. all other things are subordinate to that. now the theory of liberty upon which the liberalism of great britain, the constitution of the united states, and the bourgeois republic of france rests, assumes that all men are free and equal. they are all tacitly supposed to be adult and immortal, they are sovereign over their property and over their wives and children, and everything is framed with a view to insuring them security in the enjoyment of their rights. no doubt this was a better theory than that of the divine right of kings, against which it did triumphant battle, but it does, as one sees it to-day, fall most extraordinarily short of the truth, and only a few logical fanatics have ever tried to carry it out to its complete consequences. for example, it ignored the facts that more than half of the adult people in a country are women, and that all the men and women of a country taken together are hardly as numerous and far less important to the welfare of that country than the individuals under age. it regarded living as just living, a stupid dead level of egotistical effort and enjoyment; it was blind to the fact that living is part growing, part learning, part dying to make way and altogether service and sacrifice. it asserted that the care and education of children, and business bargains affecting the employment and welfare of women and children, are private affairs. it resisted the compulsory education of children and factory legislation, therefore, with extraordinary persistence and bitterness. the commonsense of the three great progressive nations concerned has been stronger than their theory, but to this day enormous social evils are to be traced to that passionate jealousy of state intervention between a man and his wife, his children, and other property, which is the distinctive unprecedented feature of the originally middle-class modern organization of society upon commercial and industrial conceptions in which we are all (and america most deeply) living. i began with a drowsy little messenger-boy in the new york subway. before i had done with the question i had come upon amazing things. just think of it! this richest, greatest country the world has ever seen has over , , children under fifteen years of age toiling in fields, factories, mines, and workshops. and robert hunter--whose _poverty_, if i were autocrat, should be compulsory reading for every prosperous adult in the united states, tells me of "not less than eighty thousand children, most of whom are little girls, at present employed in the textile mills of this country. in the south there are now six times as many children at work as there were twenty years ago. child labor is increasing yearly in that section of the country. each year more little ones are brought in from the fields and hills to live in the degrading atmosphere of the mill towns."... children are deliberately imported by the italians. i gathered from commissioner watchorn at ellis island that the proportion of little nephews and nieces, friends' sons, and so forth, brought in by them is peculiarly high, and i heard him try and condemn a doubtful case. it was a particularly unattractive italian in charge of a dull-eyed little boy of no ascertainable relationship.... in the worst days of cotton-milling in england the conditions were hardly worse than those now existing in the south. children, the tiniest and frailest, of five and six years of age, rise in the morning and, like old men and women, go to the mills to do their day's labor; and when they return home, "wearily fling themselves on their beds, too tired to take off their clothes." many children work all night--"in the maddening racket of the machinery, in an atmosphere unsanitary and clouded with humidity and lint." "it will be long," adds mr. hunter, in his description, "before i forget the face of a little boy of six years, with his hands stretched forward to rearrange a bit of machinery, his pallid face and spare form already showing the physical effects of labor. this child, six years of age, was working twelve hours a day." from mr. spargo's _bitter cry of the children_ i learn this much of the joys of certain among the youth of pennsylvania: [illustration: breaker boys at a pennsylvania colliery] "for ten or eleven hours a day children of ten and eleven stoop over the chute and pick out the slate and other impurities from the coal as it moves past them. the air is black with coal-dust, and the roar of the crushers, screens, and rushing mill-race of coal is deafening. sometimes one of the children falls into the machinery and is terribly mangled, or slips into the chute and is smothered to death. many children are killed in this way. many others, after a time, contract coal-miners' asthma and consumption, which gradually undermine their health. breathing continually day after day the clouds of coal-dust, their lungs become black and choked with small particles of anthracite."... in massachusetts, at fall river, the hon. j.f. carey tells us how little naked boys, free americans, work for mr. borden, the new york millionaire, packing cloth into bleaching vats in a bath of chemicals that bleaches their little bodies like the bodies of lepers.... well, we english have no right to condemn the americans for these things. the history of our own industrial development is black with the blood of tortured and murdered children. america still has the factory serfs. new jersey sends her pauper children south to-day into worse than slavery, but, as cottle tells in his reminiscences of southey and coleridge, that is precisely the same wretched export bristol packed off to feed the mills of manchester in late georgian times. we got ahead with factory legislation by no peculiar virtue in our statecraft, it was just the revenge the landlords took upon the manufacturers for reform and free trade in corn and food. in america the manufacturers have had things to themselves. and america has difficulties to encounter of which we know nothing. in the matter of labor legislation each state legislature is supreme; in each separate state the forces of light and progress must fight the battle of the children and the future over again against interests, lies, prejudice and stupidity. each state pleads the bad example of another state, and there is always the threat that capital will withdraw. no national minimum is possible under existing conditions. and when the laws have passed there is still the universal contempt for state control to reckon with, the impossibilities of enforcement. illinois, for instance, scandalized at the spectacle of children in those filthy stock-yards, ankle-deep in blood, cleaning intestines and trimming meat, recently passed a child-labor law that raised the minimum age for such employment to sixteen, but evasion, they told me in chicago, was simple and easy. new york, too, can show by its statute-books that my drowsy nocturnal messenger-boy was illegal and impossible.... this is the bottomest end of the scale that at the top has all the lavish spending of fifth avenue, the joyous wanton giving of mr. andrew carnegie. equally with these things it is an unpremeditated consequence of an inadequate theory of freedom. the foolish extravagances of the rich, the architectural pathos of newport, the dingy, noisy, economic jumble of central and south chicago, the standard oil offices in broadway, the darkened streets beneath new york's elevated railroad, the littered ugliness of niagara's banks, and the lower-most hell of child suffering are all so many accordant aspects and inexorable consequences of the same undisciplined way of living. let each man push for himself--it comes to these things.... so far as our purpose of casting a horoscope goes we have particularly to note this as affecting the future; these working children cannot be learning to read--though they will presently be having votes--they cannot grow up fit to bear arms, to be in any sense but a vile computing sweater's sense, men. so miserably they will avenge themselves by supplying the stuff for vice, for crime, for yet more criminal and political manipulations. one million seven hundred children, practically uneducated, are toiling over here, and growing up, darkened, marred, and dangerous, into the american future i am seeking to forecast. chapter viii corruption i the problem of the nation so, it seems to me, in this new crude continental commonwealth, there is going on the same economic process, on a grander scale, indeed, than has gone so far in our own island. there is a great concentration of wealth above, and below, deep and growing is the abyss, that sunken multitude on the margin of subsistence which is a characteristic and necessary feature of competitive industrialism, that teeming abyss where children have no chance, where men and women dream neither of leisure nor of self-respect. and between this efflorescence of wealth above and spreading degradation below, comes the great mass of the population, perhaps fifty millions and more of healthy and active men, women and children (i leave out of count altogether the colored people and the special trouble of the south until a later chapter) who are neither irresponsibly free nor hopelessly bound, who are the living determining substance of america. collectively they constitute what mr. roosevelt calls the "nation," what an older school of americans used to write of as the people. the nation is neither rich nor poor, neither capitalist nor laborer, neither republican nor democrat; it is a great diversified multitude including all these things. it is a comprehensive abstraction; it is the ultimate reality. you may seek for it in america and you cannot find it, as one seeks in vain for the forest among the trees. it has no clear voice; the confused and local utterances of a dispersed innumerable press, of thousands of public speakers, of books and preachers, evoke fragmentary responses or drop rejected into oblivion. i have been told by countless people where i shall find the typical american; one says in maine, one in the alleghenies, one "farther west," one in kansas, one in cleveland. he is indeed nowhere and everywhere. he is an english-speaking person, with extraordinarily english traits still, in spite of much good german and scandinavian and irish blood he has assimilated. he has a distrust of lucid theories, and logic, and he talks unwillingly of ideas. he is preoccupied, he is busy with his individual affairs, but he is--i can feel it in the air--thinking. how widely and practically he is thinking that curious product of the last few years, the ten-cent magazine, will show. in england our sixpenny magazines seem all written for boys and careless people; they are nothing but stories and jests and pictures. the weekly ones achieve an extraordinarily agreeable emptiness. their american equivalents are full of the studied and remarkably well-written discussion of grave public questions. i pick up one magazine and find a masterly exposition of the public aspect of railway rebates, another and a trust is analyzed. then here are some titles of books that all across this continent are being multitudinously read: parson's _heart of the railway problem_, steffens's _shame of the cities_, lawson's _frenzied finance_, miss tarbell's _story of standard oil_, abbott's _industrial problem_, spargo's _bitter cry of the children_, hunter's _poverty_, and, pioneer of them all, lloyd's _wealth against commonwealth_. these are titles quoted almost at hap-hazard. within a remarkably brief space of time the american nation has turned away from all the heady self-satisfaction of the nineteenth century and commenced a process of heart searching quite unparalleled in history. its egotistical interest in its own past is over and done. while mr. upton sinclair, the youngest, most distinctive of recent american novelists, achieved but a secondary success with his admirably conceived romance of the civil war, _manassas, the jungle_, his book about the beef trust and the soul of the immigrant, the most unflattering picture of america that any one has yet dared to draw, has fired the country. the american nation, which a few years ago seemed invincibly wedded to an extreme individualism, seemed resolved, as it were, to sit on the safety valves of the economic process and go on to the ultimate catastrophe, displays itself now alert and questioning. it has roused itself to a grave and extensive consideration of the intricate economic and political problems that close like a net about its future. the essential question for america, as for europe, is the rescue of her land, her public service, and the whole of her great economic process from the anarchic and irresponsible control of private owners--how dangerous and horrible that control may become the railway and beef trust investigations have shown--and the organization of her social life upon the broad, clean, humane conceptions of modern science. in every country, however, this huge problem of reconstruction which is the alternative to a plutocratic decadence, is enormously complicated by irrelevant and special difficulties. in great britain, for example, the ever-pressing problem of holding the empire, and the fact that one legislative body is composed almost entirely of private land-owners, hampers every step towards a better order. upon every country in europe weighs the armor of war. in america the complications are distinctive and peculiar. she is free, indeed, now to a large extent from the possibility of any grave military stresses, her one overseas investment in the philippines she is evidently resolved to forget and be rid of at as early a date as possible. but, on the other hand, she is confronted by a system of legal entanglements of extraordinary difficulty and perplexity, she has the most powerful tradition of individualism in the world, and a degraded political system, and she has in the presence of a vast and increasing proportion of unassimilable aliens in her substance--negroes, south european peasants, russian jews and the like--an ever-intensifying complication. ii graft now what is called corruption in america is a thing not confined to politics; it is a defect of moral method found in every department of american life. i find in big print in every paper i open, "graft." all through my journey in america i have been trying to gauge the quality of this corruption, i have been talking to all kinds of people about it, i have had long conversations about it with president eliot of harvard, with district-attorney jerome, with one leading insurance president, with a number of the city club people in chicago, with several east-siders in new york, with men engaged in public work in every city i have visited, with senators at washington, with a chicago saloon-keeper and his friend, a shepherd of votes, and with a varied and casual assortment of americans upon trains and boats; i read my ostrogorsky, my otünsterberg, and my roosevelt before i came to america, and i find myself going through any american newspaper that comes to hand always with an eye to this. it is to me a most vital issue in the horoscope i contemplate. all depends upon the answer to this question: is the average citizen fundamentally dishonest? is he a rascal and humbug in grain? if he is, the future can needs be no more than a monstrous social disorganization in the face of divine opportunities. or is he fundamentally honest, but a little confused ethically?... the latter, i think, is the truer alternative, but i will confess i have ranged through all the scale between a buoyant optimism and despair. it is extraordinarily difficult to move among the crowded contrasts of this perplexing country and emerge with any satisfactory generalization. but there is one word i find all too frequently in the american papers, and that is "stealing." they come near calling any profitable, rather unfair bargain with the public a "steal." it's the common journalistic vice here always to overstate. every land has its criminals, no doubt, but the american, i am convinced, is the last man in the world to steal. nor does he tell you lies to your face, except in the way of business. he's not that sort of man. nor does he sneak bad money into your confiding hand. nor ask a higher price than he means to accept. nor cheat on exchange. for all the frequency of "graft" and "stealing" in the press head-lines, i feel the american is pretty distinctly less "mean" than many europeans in these respects, and much more disposed to be ashamed of meanness. but he certainly has an ethical system of a highly commercial type. if he isn't dishonest he's commercialized. he lives to get, to come out of every transaction with more than he gave. in the highly imaginative theory that underlies the realities of an individualistic society there is such a thing as honest trading. in practice i don't believe there is. exchangeable things are supposed to have a fixed quality called their value, and honest trading is, i am told, the exchange of things of equal value. nobody gains or loses by honest trading, and therefore nobody can grow rich by it. and nobody would do business except to subsist by a profit and attempt to grow rich. the honest merchant in the individualist's dream is a worthy and urbane person who intervenes between the seller here and the buyer there, fetches from one to another, stores a surplus of goods, takes risks, and indemnifies himself by charging the seller and the buyer a small fee for his waiting and his carrying and his speculative hawking about. he would be sick and ashamed to undervalue a purchase or overcharge a customer, and it scarcely requires a competitor to reduce his fee to a minimum. he draws a line between customers with whom he deals and competitors with whom he wouldn't dream of dealing. and though it seems a little incredible, he grows rich and beautiful in these practices and endows art, science, and literature. such is the commercial life in a world of economic angels, magic justice and the individualist's utopia. in reality flesh and blood cannot resist a bargain, and people trade to get. in reality value is a dream, and the commercial ideal is to buy from the needy, sell to the urgent need, and get all that can possibly be got out of every transaction. to do anything else isn't business--it's some other sort of game. let us look squarely into the pretences of trading. the plain fact of the case is that in trading for profit there is no natural line at which legitimate bargaining ends and cheating begins. the seller wants to get above the value and the buyer below it. the seller seeks to appreciate, the buyer to depreciate; and where is there room for truth in that contest? in bargaining, overvaluing and undervaluing are not only permissible but inevitable, attempts to increase the desire to buy and willingness to sell. who can invent a rule to determine what expedients are permissible and what not? you may draw an arbitrary boundary--the law does here and there, a little discontinuously--but that is all. for example, consider these questions that follow: nothing is perfect in this world; all goods are defective. are you bound to inform your customer of every defect? suppose you are, then are you bound to examine your goods minutely for defects? grant that. then if you intrust that duty to an employee ought you to dismiss him for selling defective goods for you? the customer will buy your goods anyhow. are you bound to spend more upon cleaning and packing them than he demands?--to wrap them in gold-foil gratuitously, for example? how are you going to answer these questions? let me suppose that your one dream in life is to grow rich. suppose you want to grow very rich and found a noble university, let us say? you answer them in the roman spirit, with _caveat emptor_. then can you decently join in the outcry against the chicago butchers? then turn again to the group of problems the standard oil history raises. you want the customer to buy your goods and not your competitor's. naturally you do everything to get your goods to him, to make them seem best to him, to reduce the influx of the other man's stuff. you don't lend your competitor your shop-window anyhow. if there's a hoarding you don't restrict your advertisements because otherwise there won't be room for him. and if you happen to have a paramount interest in the carrying line that bears your goods and his, why shouldn't you see that your own goods arrive first? and at a cheaper rate?... [illustration: interior of a new york office building] you see one has to admit there is always this element of overreaching, of outwitting, of fore-stalling, in all systematic trade. it may be refined, it may be dignified, but it is there. it differs in degree and not in quality from cheating. a very scrupulous man stops at one point, a less scrupulous man at another, an eager, ambitious man may find himself carried by his own impetus very far. too often the least scrupulous wins. in all ages, among all races, this taint in trade has been felt. modern western europe, led by england, and america have denied it stoutly, have glorified the trader, called him a "merchant prince," wrapped him in the purple of the word "financier," bowed down before him. the trader remains a trader, a hand that clutches, an uncreative brain that lays snares. occasionally, no doubt, he exceeds his function and is better than his occupations. but it is not he but the maker who must be the power and ruler of the great and luminous social order that must surely come, that new order i have persuaded myself i find in glimmering evasive promises amid the congestions of new york, the sheds and defilements of niagara, and the chicago reek and grime.... the american, i feel assured, can be a bold and splendid maker. he is not, like the uncreative parsee or jew or armenian, a trader by blood and nature. the architecture i have seen, the finely planned, internally beautiful, and admirably organized office buildings (to step into them from the street is to step up fifty years in the scale of civilization), the business organizations, the industrial skill--i visited a trap and chain factory at oneida, right in the heart of new york state, that was like the interior of a well-made clock--above all, the plans for reconstructing his cities show that. those others make nothing. but nevertheless, since he, more than any man, has subserved the full development of eighteenth and nineteenth century conceptions, he has acquired some of the very worst habits of the trader. too often he is a gambler. ever and again i have had glimpses of preoccupied groups of men at green tables in little rooms, playing that dreary game poker, wherein there is no skill, no variety except in the sum at hazard, no orderly development, only a sort of expressionless lying called "bluffing." indeed, poker isn't so much a game as a bad habit. yet the american sits for long hours at it, dispersing and accumulating dollars, and he carries its great conception of "bluff" and a certain experience of kinetic physiognomy back with him to his office.... and americans talk dollars to an astonishing extent.... now this is the reality of american corruption, a huge exclusive preoccupation with dollar-getting. what is called corruption by the press is really no more than the acute expression in individual cases of this general fault. where everybody is getting it is idle to expect a romantic standard of honesty between employers and employed. the official who buys rails for the big railway company that is professedly squeezing every penny it can out of the public for its shareholders as its highest aim, is not likely to display any religious self-abnegation of a share for himself in this great work. the director finds it hard to distinguish between getting for himself and getting for his company, and the duty to one-self of a discreet use of opportunity taints the whole staff from manager to messenger-boy. the politicians who protect the interests of the same railway in the house of commons or the senate, as the case may be, are not going to do it for love either. nobody will have any mercy for their wives or children if they die poor. the policeman who stands between the property of the company and the irregular enterprise of robbers feels his vigilance merits a special recognition. a position of trust is a position of advantage, and deserves a percentage. everywhere, as every one knows, in all the modern states, quite as much as in china, there are commissions, there are tips, there are extortions and secret profits, there is, in a word, "graft." it's no american specialty. things are very much the same in this matter in great britain as in america, but americans talk more and louder than we do. and indeed all this is no more than an inevitable development of the idea of trading in the mind, that every transaction must leave something behind for the agent. it's not stealing, but nevertheless, the automatic cash-register becomes more and more of a necessity in this thickening atmosphere of private enterprise. iii political dishonesty it seems to me that the political corruption that still plays so large a part in the american problem is a natural and necessary underside to a purely middle-class organization of society for business. nobody is left over to watch the politician. and the evil is enormously aggravated by the complexities of the political machinery, by the methods of the presidential election that practically prescribes a ticket method of voting, and by the absence of any second ballots. moreover, the passion of the simpler minded americans for aggressive legislation controlling private morality has made the control of the police a main source of party revenue, and dragged the saloon and brothel, essentially retiring though these institutions are, into politics. the constitution ties up political reform in the most extraordinary way, it was planned by devout republicans equally afraid of a dictatorship and the people; it does not so much distribute power as disperse it, the machinery falls readily into the hands of professional politicians with no end to secure but their immediate profit, and is almost inaccessible to poor men who cannot make their incomes in its working. an increasing number of wealthy young men have followed president roosevelt into political life--one thinks of such figures as senator colby of new jersey, but they are but incidental mitigations of a generally vicious scheme. before the nation, so busy with its diversified private affairs, lies the devious and difficult problem of a great reconstruction of its political methods, as a preliminary to any broad change of its social organization.... how vicious things are i have had some inkling in a dozen whispered stories of votes, of ballot-boxes rifled, of votes destroyed, of the violent personation of cowed and ill-treated men. and in chicago i saw a little of the physical aspect of the system. i made the acquaintance of alderman kenna, who is better known, i found, throughout the states as "hinky-dink," saw his two saloons and something of the chinese quarter about him. he is a compact, upright little man, with iron-gray hair, a clear blue eye, and a dry manner. he wore a bowler hat through all our experiences in common, and kept his hands in his jacket-pockets. he filled me with a ridiculous idea, for which i apologize, that had it fallen to the lot of mr. j.m. barrie to miss a university education, and keep a saloon in chicago and organize voters, he would have looked own brother to mr. kenna. we commenced in the first saloon, a fine, handsome place, with mirrors and tables and decorations and a consumption of mitigated mineral waters and beer in bottles; then i was taken over to see the other saloon, the one across the way. we went behind the counter, and while i professed a comparative interest in english and american beer-engines, and the alderman exchanged commonplaces with two or three of the shirt-sleeved barmen, i was able to survey the assembled customers. it struck me as a pretty tough gathering. the first thing that met the eye were the schooners of beer. there is nothing quite like the american beer-schooner in england. it would appeal strongly to an unstinted appetite for beer, and i should be curious to try it upon a british agricultural laborer and see how many he could hold. he would, i am convinced, have to be entirely hollowed out to hold two. those i saw impressed me as being about the size of small fish-globes set upon stems, and each was filled with a very substantial-looking beer indeed. they stood in a careless row all along the length of the saloon counter. below them, in attitudes of negligent proprietorship, lounged the "crowd" in a haze of smoke and conversation. for the most part i should think they were americanized immigrants. i looked across the counter at them, met their eyes, got the quality of their faces--and it seemed to me i was a very flimsy and unsubstantial intellectual thing indeed. it struck me that i would as soon go to live in a pen in a stock-yard as into american politics. that was my momentary impression. but that line of base and coarse faces seen through the reek was only one sample of the great saloon stratum of the american population in which resides political power. they have no ideas and they have votes; they are capable, if need be, of meeting violence by violence, and that is the sort of thing american methods demand.... now alderman kenna is a straight man, the sort of man one likes and trusts at sight, and he did not invent his profession. he follows his own ideas of right and wrong, and compared with my ideas of right and wrong, they seem tough, compact, decided things. he is very kind to all his crowd. he helps them when they are in trouble, even if it is trouble with the police; he helps them find employment when they are down on their luck; he stands between them and the impacts of an unsympathetic and altogether too-careless social structure in a sturdy and almost parental way. i can quite believe what i was told, that in the lives of many of these rough undesirables he's almost the only decent influence. he gets wives well treated, and he has an open heart for children. and he tells them how to vote, a duty of citizenship they might otherwise neglect, and sees that they do it properly. and whenever you want to do things in chicago you must reckon carefully with him.... there you have a chip, a hand specimen, from the basement structure upon which american politics rest. that is the remarkable alternative to private enterprise as things are at present. it is america's only other way. if public services are to be taken out of the hands of such associations of financiers as the standard oil group they have to be put into the hands of politicians resting at last upon this sort of basis. therein resides the impossibility of socialism in america--as the case for socialism is put at present. the third course is the far more complex, difficult and heroic one of creating imaginatively and bringing into being a new state--a feat no people in the world has yet achieved, but a feat that any people which aspires to lead the future is bound, i think, to attempt. chapter ix the immigrant i the flood my picture of america assumes now a certain definite form. i have tried to convey the effect of a great and energetic english-speaking population strewn across a continent so vast as to make it seem small and thin; i have tried to show this population caught by the upward sweep of that great increase in knowledge that is everywhere enlarging the power and scope of human effort, exhilarated by it, and active and hopeful beyond any population the world has ever seen, and i have tried to show how the members of this population struggle and differentiate among themselves in a universal commercial competition that must, in the end, if it is not modified, divide them into two permanent classes of rich and poor. i have ventured to hint at a certain emptiness in the resulting wealthy, and to note some of the uglinesses and miseries inseparable from this competition. i have tried to give my impressions of the vague, yet widely diffused, will in the nation to resist this differentiation, and of a dim, large movement of thought towards a change of national method. i have glanced at the debasement of politics that bars any immediate hope of such reconstruction. and now it is time to introduce a new element of obstruction and difficulty into this complicating problem--the immigrants. into the lower levels of the american community there pours perpetually a vast torrent of strangers, speaking alien tongues, inspired by alien traditions, for the most part illiterate peasants and working-people. they come in at the bottom: that must be insisted upon. an enormous and ever-increasing proportion of the laboring classes, of all the lower class in america, is of recent european origin, is either of foreign birth or foreign parentage. the older american population is being floated up on the top of this influx, a sterile aristocracy above a racially different and astonishingly fecund proletariat. (for it grows rankly in this new soil. one section of immigrants, the hungarians, have here a birth-rate of forty-six in the thousand, the highest of any civilized people in the world.) few people grasp the true dimensions of this invasion. figures carry so little. the influx has clambered from half a million to , , to , ; this year the swelling figures roll up as if they mean to go far over the million mark. the flood swells to overtake the total birth-rate; it has already over-topped the total of births of children to native-american parents. i have already told something of the effect of ellis island. i have told how i watched the long procession of simple-looking, hopeful, sunburned country folk from russia, from the carpathians, from southern italy and turkey and syria, filing through the wickets, bringing their young wives for the mills of paterson and fall river, their children for the pennsylvania coal-breakers and the cotton-mills of the south. yet there are moments when i could have imagined there were no immigrants at all. all the time, except for one distinctive evening, i seem to have been talking to english-speaking men, now and then to the irishman, now and then, but less frequently, to an americanized german. in the clubs there are no immigrants. there are not even jews, as there are in london clubs. one goes about the wide streets of boston, one meets all sorts of boston people, one visits the state-house; it's all the authentic english-speaking america. fifth avenue, too, is america without a touch of foreign-born; and washington. you go a hundred yards south of the pretty boston common and, behold! you are in a polyglot slum! you go a block or so east of fifth avenue and you are in a vaster, more yiddish whitechapel. you cross from new york to staten island, attracted by its distant picturesque suggestion of scattered homes among the trees, and you discover black-tressed, bold-eyed women on those pleasant verandas, half-clad brats, and ambiguous washing, where once the native american held his simple state. you ask the way of a young man who has just emerged from a ramshackle factory, and you are answered in some totally incomprehensible tongue. you come up again after such a dive below, to dine with the original americans again, talk with them, go about with them and forget.... in boston, one sunday afternoon, this fact of immigration struck upon mr. henry james: "there went forward across the cop of the hill a continuous passage of men and women, in couples and talkative companies, who struck me as laboring wage-earners of the simpler sort arrayed in their sunday best and decently enjoying their leisure ... no sound of english in a single instance escaped their lips; the greater number spoke a rude form of italian, the others some outland dialect unknown to me--though i waited and waited to catch an echo of antique refrains." that's one of a series of recurrent, uneasy observations of this great replacement i find in mr. james's book. the immigrant does not clamor for attention. he is, indeed, almost entirely inaudible, inarticulate, and underneath. he is in origin a peasant, inarticulate, and underneath by habit and tradition. mr. james has, as it were, to put his ear to earth, to catch the murmuring of strange tongues. the incomer is of diverse nationality and diverse tongues, and that "breaks him up" politically and socially. he drops into american clothes, and then he does not catch the careless eye. he goes into special regions and works there. where americans talk or think or have leisure to observe, he does not intrude. the bulk of the americans don't get as yet any real sense of his portentous multitude at all. he does not read very much, and so he produces no effect upon the book trade or magazines. you can go through such a periodical as _harper's magazine_, for example, from cover to cover, and unless there is some article or story bearing specifically upon the subject you might doubt if there was an immigrant in the country. on the liner coming over, at ellis island, and sometimes on the railroads one saw him--him and his womankind,--in some picturesque east-european garb, very respectful, very polite, adventurous, and a little scared. then he became less visible. he had got into cheap american clothes, resorted to what naturalists call "protective mimicry," even perhaps acquired a collar. also his bearing had changed, become charged with a certain aggression. he had got a pocket-handkerchief, and had learned to move fast and work fast, and to chew and spit with the proper meditative expression. one detected him by his diminishing accent, and by a few persistent traits--rings in his ears, perhaps, or the like adornment. in the next stage these also had gone; he had become ashamed of the music of his native tongue, and talked even to his wife, on the trolley-car and other public places, at least, in brief remarkable american. before that he had become ripe for a vote. the next stage of americanization, i suppose, is this dingy quick-eyed citizen with his schooner of beer in my chicago saloon--if it is not that crumpled thing i saw lying so still in the sunlight under the trestle bridge on my way to washington.... ii in defence of immigration every american above forty, and most of those below that limit, seem to be enthusiastic advocates of unrestricted immigration. i could not make them understand the apprehension with which this huge dilution of the american people with profoundly ignorant foreign peasants filled me. i rode out on an automobile into the pretty new york country beyond yonkers with that finely typical american, mr. z.--he wanted to show me the pleasantness of the land,--and he sang the song of american confidence, i think, more clearly and loudly than any. he told me how everybody had hope, how everybody had incentive, how magnificently it was all going on. he told me--what is, i am afraid, a widely spread delusion--that elementary education stands on a higher level of efficiency in the states than in england. he had no doubt whatever of the national powers of assimilation. "let them all come," he said, cheerfully. "the chinese?" said i. "we can do with them all."... he was exceptional in that extension. most americans stop at the ural mountains, and refuse the "asiatic." it was not a matter for discussion with him, but a question of belief. he had ceased to reason about immigration long ago. he was a man in the fine autumn of life, abounding in honors, wrapped in furs, and we drove swiftly in his automobile, through the spring sunshine. ("by jove!" thought i, "you talk like pippa's rich uncle.") by some half-brother of a coincidence we happened first upon this monument commemorating a memorable incident of the war of independence, and then upon that. he recalled details of that great campaign as washington was fought out of manhattan northward. i remember one stone among the shooting trees that indicated where in the hudson river near by a british sloop had fired the first salute in honor of the american flag. that salute was vividly present still to him; it echoed among the woods, it filled him with a sense of personal triumph; it seemed half-way back to agincourt to me. all that bright morning the stars and stripes made an almost luminous visible presence about us. open-handed hospitality and confidence in god so swayed me that it is indeed only now, as i put this book together, i see this shining buoyancy, this bunting patriotism, in its direct relation to the italian babies in the cotton-mills, to the sinister crowd that stands in the saloon smoking and drinking beer, an accumulating reserve of unintelligent force behind the manoeuvres of the professional politicians.... i tried my views upon commissioner watchorn as we leaned together over the gallery railing and surveyed that bundle-carrying crowd creeping step by step through the wire filter of the central hall of ellis island--into america. "you don't think they'll swamp you?" i said. "now look here," said the commissioner, "i'm english born--derbyshire. i came into america when i was a lad. i had fifteen dollars. and here i am! well, do you expect me, now i'm here, to shut the door on any other poor chaps who want a start--a start with hope in it, in the new world?" a pleasant-mannered, a fair-haired young man, speaking excellent english, had joined us as we went round, and nodded approval. i asked him for his opinion, and gathered he was from milwaukee, and the son of a scandinavian immigrant. he, too, was for "fair-play" and an open door for every one. "except," he added, "asiatics." so also, i remember, was a very new england lady i met at hull house, who wasn't, as a matter of fact, a new-englander at all, but the daughter of a german settler in the middle west. they all seemed to think that i was inspired by hostility to the immigrant in breathing any doubt about the desirability of this immense process.... i tried in each case to point out that this idea of not being churlishly exclusive did not exhaust the subject, that the present immigration is a different thing entirely from the immigration of half a century ago, that in the interest of the immigrant and his offspring more than any one, is the protest to be made. fifty years ago more than half of the torrent was english speaking, and the rest mostly from the teutonic and scandinavian northwest of europe, an influx of people closely akin to the native americans in temperament and social tradition. they were able to hold their own and mix perfectly. even then the quantity of illiterate irish produced a marked degradation of political life. the earlier immigration was an influx of energetic people who wanted to come, and who had to put themselves to considerable exertion to get here; it was higher in character and in social quality than the present flood. the immigration of to-day is largely the result of energetic canvassing by the steamship companies; it is, in the main, an importation of laborers and not of economically independent settlers, and it is increasingly alien to the native tradition. the bulk of it is now italian, russian jewish, russian, hungarian, croatian, roumanian, and eastern european generally. "the children learn english, and become more american and better patriots than the americans," commissioner watchorn--echoing everybody in that--told me.... (in boston one optimistic lady looked to the calabrian and sicilian peasants to introduce an artistic element into the population--no doubt because they come from the same peninsula that produced the florentines.) iii assimilation will the reader please remember that i've been just a few weeks in the states altogether, and value my impressions at that! and will he, nevertheless, read of doubts that won't diminish. i doubt very much if america is going to assimilate all that she is taking in now; much more do i doubt that she will assimilate the still greater inflow of the coming years. i believe she is going to find infinite difficulties in that task. by "assimilate" i mean make intelligently co-operative citizens of these people. she will, i have no doubt whatever, impose upon them a bare use of the english language, and give them votes and certain patriotic persuasions, but i believe that if things go on as they are going the great mass of them will remain a very low lower class--will remain largely illiterate industrialized peasants. they are decent-minded peasant people, orderly, industrious people, rather dirty in their habits, and with a low standard of life. wherever they accumulate in numbers they present to my eye a social phase far below the level of either england, france, north italy, or switzerland. and, frankly, i do not find the american nation has either in its schools--which are as backward in some states as they are forward in others--in its press, in its religious bodies or its general tone, any organized means or effectual influences for raising these huge masses of humanity to the requirements of an ideal modern civilization. they are, to my mind, "biting off more than they can chaw" in this matter. i got some very interesting figures from dr. hart, of the children's home and aid society, chicago, in this matter. he was pleading for the immigrant against my scepticisms. he pointed out to me that the generally received opinion that the european immigrants are exceptionally criminal is quite wrong. the census report collapsed after a magnificent beginning, and its figures are not available, but from the earlier records there can be no doubt that the percentage of criminals among the "foreign-born" is higher than that among the native-born. this, however, is entirely due to the high criminal record of the french canadians in the northeast, and the mexicans in arizona, who are not overseas immigrants at all. the criminal statistics of the french canadians in the states should furnish useful matter for the educational controversy in great britain. allowing for their activities--which appear to be based on an education of peculiar religious virtue--the figures bring the criminal percentage among the foreigners far below that of the native-born. but dr. hart's figures also showed very clearly something further: as between the offspring of native and foreign parents the preponderance of crime is enormously on the side of the latter. that, at any rate, falls in with my own preconceptions and roving observations. bear in mind always that this is just one questioning individual's impression. it seems to me that the immigrant arrives an artless, rather uncivilized, pious, good-hearted peasant, with a disposition towards submissive industry and rude effectual moral habits. america, it is alleged, makes a man of him. it seems to me that all too often she makes an infuriated toiler of him, tempts him with dollars and speeds him up with competition, hardens him, coarsens his manners, and, worst crime of all, lures and forces him to sell his children into toil. the home of the immigrant in america looks to me worse than the home he came from in italy. it is just as dirty, it is far less simple and beautiful, the food is no more wholesome, the moral atmosphere far less wholesome; and, as a consequence, the child of the immigrant is a worse man than his father. i am fully aware of the generosity, the nobility of sentiment which underlies the american objection to any hindrance to immigration. but either that general sentiment should be carried out to a logical completeness and a gigantic and costly machinery organized to educate and civilize these people as they come in, or it should be chastened to restrict the inflow to numbers assimilable under existing conditions. at present, if we disregard sentiment, if we deny the alleged need of gross flattery whenever one writes of america for americans, and state the bare facts of the case, they amount to this: that america, in the urgent process of individualistic industrial development, in its feverish haste to get through with its material possibilities, is importing a large portion of the peasantry of central and eastern europe, and converting it into a practically illiterate industrial proletariat. in doing this it is doing a something that, however different in spirit, differs from the slave trade of its early history only in the narrower gap between employer and laborer. in the "colored" population america has already ten million descendants of unassimilated and perhaps unassimilable labor immigrants. these people are not only half civilized and ignorant, but they have infected the white population about them with a kindred ignorance. for there can be no doubt that if an englishman or scotchman of the year were to return to earth and seek his most retrograde and decivilized descendants, he would find them at last among the white and colored population south of washington. and i have a foreboding that in this mixed flood of workers that pours into america by the million to-day, in this torrent of ignorance, against which that heroic being, the schoolmarm, battles at present all unaided by men, there is to be found the possibility of another dreadful separation of class and kind, a separation perhaps not so profound but far more universal. one sees the possibility of a rich industrial and mercantile aristocracy of western european origin, dominating a darker-haired, darker-eyed, uneducated proletariat from central and eastern europe. the immigrants are being given votes, i know, but that does not free them, it only enslaves the country. the negroes were given votes. that is the quality of the danger as i see it. but before this indigestion of immigrants becomes an incurable sickness of the states many things may happen. there is every sign, as i have said, that a great awakening, a great disillusionment, is going on in the american mind. the americans have become suddenly self-critical, are hot with an unwonted fever for reform and constructive effort. this swamping of the country may yet be checked. they may make a strenuous effort to emancipate children below fifteen from labor, and so destroy one of the chief inducements of immigration. once convince them that their belief in the superiority of their public schools to those of england and germany is an illusion, or at least that their schools are inadequate to the task before them, and it may be they will perform some swift american miracle of educational organization and finance. for all the very heavy special educational charges that are needed if the immigrant is really to be assimilated, it seems a reasonable proposal that immigration should pay. suppose the new-comer were presently to be taxed on arrival for his own training and that of any children he had with him, that again would check the inrush very greatly. or the steamship company might be taxed, and left to settle the trouble with the immigrant by raising his fare. and finally, it may be that if the line is drawn, as it seems highly probable it will be, at "asiatics," then there may even be a drying up of the torrent at its source. the european countries are not unlimited reservoirs of offspring. as they pass from their old conditions into more and more completely organized modern industrial states, they develop a new internal equilibrium and cease to secrete an excess of population. england no longer supplies any great quantity of americans; scotland barely any; france is exhausted; ireland, germany, scandinavia have, it seems, disgorged nearly all their surplus load, and now run dry.... these are all mitigations of the outlook, but still the dark shadow of disastrous possibility remains. the immigrant comes in to weaken and confuse the counsels of labor, to serve the purposes of corruption, to complicate any economic and social development, above all to retard enormously the development of that national consciousness and will on which the hope of the future depends. iv the educational alliance i told these doubts of mine to a pleasant young lady of new york, who seems to find much health and a sustaining happiness in settlement work on the east side. she scorned my doubts. "children make better citizens than the old americans," she said, like one who quotes a classic, and took me with her forthwith to see the central school of the educational alliance, that fine imposing building in east broadway. it's a thing i'm glad not to have missed. i recall a large cool room with a sloping floor, tier rising above tier of seats and desks, and a big class of bright-eyed jewish children, boys and girls, each waving two little american flags to the measure of the song they sang, singing to the accompaniment of the piano on the platform beside us. "god bless our native land," they sang--with a considerable variety of accent and distinctness, but with a very real emotion. some of them had been in america a month, some much longer, but here they were--under the auspices of the wealthy hebrews of new york and mr. blaustein's enthusiastic direction--being americanized. they sang of america--"sweet land of liberty"; they stood up and drilled with the little bright pretty flags; swish they crossed and swish they waved back, a waving froth of flags and flushed children's faces; and they stood up and repeated the oath of allegiance, and at the end filed tramping by me and out of the hall. the oath they take is finely worded. it runs: [illustration: where immigrant children are americanized] "flag our great republic, inspirer in battle, guardian of our homes, whose stars and stripes stand for bravery, purity, truth, and union, we salute thee! we, the natives of distant lands, who find rest under thy folds, do pledge our hearts, our lives, and our sacred honor to love and protect thee, our country, and the liberty of the american people forever." i may have been fanciful, but as i stood aside and watched them going proudly past, it seemed to me that eyes met mine, triumphant and victorious eyes--for was i not one of these british from whom freedom was won? but that was an ignoble suspicion. they had been but a few weeks in america, and that light in their eyes was just a brotherly challenge to one they supposed a fellow-citizen who stood unduly thoughtful amid their rhythmic exaltation. they tramped out and past with their flags and guidons. "it is touching!" whispered my guide, and i saw she had caught a faint reflection of that glow that lit the children. i told her it was the most touching thing i had seen in america. and so it remains. think of the immense promise in it! think of the flower of belief and effort that may spring from this warm sowing! we passed out of this fluttering multiplication of the most beautiful flag in the world, into streets abominable with offal and indescribable filth, and dark and horrible under the thunderous girders of the elevated railroad, to our other quest for that morning, a typical new york tenement. for i wanted to see one, with practically windowless bedrooms.... the educational alliance is of course not a public institution; it was organized by hebrews, and conducted for hebrews, chiefly for the benefit of the hebrew immigrant. it is practically the only organized attempt to americanize the immigrant child. after the children have mastered sufficient english and acquired the simpler elements of patriotism--which is practically no more than an emotional attitude towards the flag--they pass on into the ordinary public schools. "yes," i told my friend, "i know how these children feel. that, less articulate perhaps, but no less sincere, is the thing--something between pride and a passionate desire--that fills three-quarters of the people at ellis island now. they come ready to love and worship, ready to bow down and kiss the folds of your flag. they give themselves--they want to give. do you know i, too, have come near feeling that at times for america."... we were separated for a while by a long hole in the middle of the street and a heap of builder's refuse. before we came within talking distance again i was in reaction against the gleam of satisfaction my last confession had evoked. "in the end," i said, "you americans won't be able to resist it." "resist what?" "you'll respect your country," i said. "what do you mean?" in those crowded noisy east side streets one has to shout, and shout compact things. "_this!_" i said to the barbaric disorder about us. "lynching! child labor! graft!" then we were separated by a heap of decaying fish that some hawker had dumped in the gutter. my companion shouted something i did not catch. "_we'll_ tackle it!" she repeated. i looked at her, bright and courageous and youthful, a little overconfident, i thought, but extremely reassuring, going valiantly through a disorderly world of obstacles, and for the moment--i suppose that waving bunting and the children's voices had got into my head a little--i forgot all sorts of things.... i could have imagined her the spirit of america incarnate rather than a philanthropic young lady of new york. chapter x state-blindness i sense of the state in what i have written so far, i have tried to get the effect of the american outlook, the american task, the american problem as a whole, as it has presented itself to me. clearly, as i see it, it is a mental and moral issue. there seems to me an economic process going on that tends to concentrate first wealth and then power in the hands of a small number of adventurous individuals of no very high intellectual type, a huge importation of alien and unassimilable workers, and a sustained disorder of local and political administration. correlated with this is a great increase in personal luxury and need. in all these respects there is a strong parallelism between the present condition of the united states and the roman republic in the time of the early cæsars; and arguing from these alone one might venture to forecast the steady development of an exploiting and devastating plutocracy, leading perhaps to cæsarism, and a progressive decline in civilization and social solidarity. but there are forces of recuperation and construction in america such as the earlier instance did not display. there is infinitely more original and originating thought in the state, there are the organized forces of science, a habit of progress, clearer and wider knowledge among the general mass of the people. these promise, and must, indeed, inevitably make, some synthetic effort of greater or less homogeneity and force. it is upon that synthetic effort that the distinctive destiny of america depends. i propose to go on now to discuss the mental quality of america as i have been able to focus it. (remember always that i am an undiplomatic tourist of no special knowledge or authority, who came, moreover, to america with certain prepossessions.) and first, and chiefly, i have to convey what seems to me the most significant and pregnant thing of all. it is a matter of something wanting, that the american shares with the great mass of prosperous middle-class people in england. i think it is best indicated by saying that the typical american has no "sense of the state." i do not mean that he is not passionately and vigorously patriotic. but i mean that he has no perception that his business activities, his private employments, are constituents in a large collective process; that they affect other people and the world forever, and cannot, as he imagines, begin and end with him. he sees the world in fragments; it is to him a multitudinous collection of individual "stories"--as the newspapers put it. if one studies an american newspaper, one discovers it is all individuality, all a matter of personal doings, of what so and so said and how so and so felt. and all these individualities are unfused. not a touch of abstraction or generalization, no thinnest atmosphere of reflection, mitigates these harsh, emphatic, isolated happenings. the american, it seems to me, has yet to achieve what is, after all, the product of education and thought, the conception of a whole to which all individual acts and happenings are subordinate and contributory. when i say this much, i do not mean to insinuate that any other nation in the world has any superiority in this matter. but i do want to urge that the american problem is pre-eminently one that must be met by broad ways of thinking, by creative, synthetic, and merging ideas, and that a great number of americans seem to lack these altogether. ii a sample american let me by way of illustration give a specimen american mind. it is not the mind of a writer or philosopher, it is just a plain successful business-man who exposes himself, and makes it clear that this want of any sense of the state of any large duty of constructive loyalty, is not an idiosyncrasy, but the quality of all his circle, his friends, his religious teacher.... i found my specimen in a book called _with john bull and jonathan_. it contains the rather rambling reminiscences of mr. j. morgan richards, the wealthy and successful london agent of a great number of well-advertised american proprietary articles, and i read it first, i will confess, chiefly in search of such delightful phrases as the one "mammoth in character" i have already quoted. but there were few to equal that first moment's bright discovery. what i got from it finally wasn't so much that sort of thing as this realization of mr. richards's peculiar quality, this acute sense of all that he hadn't got. mr. richards told of advertising enterprises, of contracts and journeyings, of his great friendship with the late dr. parker, of his domestic affairs, and all the changes in the world that had struck him, and of a remarkable dining club, called (paradoxically) the _sphinx_, in which the giants (or are they the mammoths?) of the world of advertisement foregather. he gave his portrait, and the end-paper presented him playfully as the jolly president of the sphinx club, champagne-bottle crowned, but else an egyptian monarch; and on the cover are two gilt hands clasped across a gilt ripple of sea ("hands across the sea"), under intertwining english and american flags. from the book one got an effect, garrulous perhaps, but on the whole not unpleasing, of an elderly but still active business personality quite satisfied by his achievements, and representative of i know not what proportion, but at any rate a considerable proportion, of his fellow-countrymen. and one got an effect of a being not simply indifferent to the health and vigor and growth of the community of which he was a part, but unaware of its existence. he displays this irresponsibility of the commercial mind so illuminatingly because he does in a way attempt to tell something more than his personal story. he notes the changes in the world about him, how this has improved and that progressed, which contrasts between england and america struck upon his mind. that he himself is responsible amid these changes never seems to dawn upon him. his freedom from any sense of duty to the world as a whole, of any subordination of trading to great ideas, is naïve and fundamental. he tells of how he arranged with the authorities in charge of the independence day celebrations on boston common to display "three large pieces" containing the name of a certain "bitters," which they did, and how this no doubt very desirable commodity was first largely advertised throughout the united states in the fall of , and rapidly became the success of the day, because of the enormous amount of placarding given to the cabalistic characters 's-t- -x.' those strange letters and figures stared upon people from wall and fence and tree, in every leading town throughout the united states. they were painted on the rocks of the hudson river to such an extent that the attention of the legislature was drawn to the fact, and a law was passed to prevent the further disfigurement of river scenery. he calls this "cute." he tells, too, of his educational work upon the english press, how he won it over to "display" advertisements, and devised "the first sixteen-sheet double-demy poster ever seen in england in connection with a proprietary article." he introduced the smoking of cigarettes into england against great opposition. mr. richards finds no incongruity, but apparently a very delightful association, in the fact that this great victory for the adolescent's cigarette was won on the site of strudwick's house, wherein john bunyan died, and hard by the path of the smithfield martyrs to their fiery sacrifice. both they and mr. richards "lit such a candle in england--" well, my business is not to tell of the feats by which mr. richards grew wealthy and important as a tree may grow and flourish amid the masonry it helps to disintegrate. my business is purely with his insensibility to the state as an aspect of his personal life. it is insensibility--not disregard or hostility. one gets an impression from this book that if mr. richards had lived in a different culture, he would have been a generous giver of himself. in spite of his curious incapacity to appreciate any issues larger than large enterprises in selling, he is very evidently a religious man. he sat under the late dr. parker of the rich and prosperous city temple, and that reverend gentleman's leonine visage adorns the book. its really the light one gets on dr. parker and his teaching that appeals to me most in this volume. for this gentleman mr. richards seems to have entertained a feeling approaching reverence. he notes such details as: "at the conclusion of an invocation or prayer, his habit always was to make a pause of a few seconds before pronouncing 'amen.' this was most impressive.... "he spoke such words as 'god,' 'jesus christ,' 'no,' 'yes,' 'nothing,' in a way to give more value to each word than any speaker i have ever heard." they became great friends, rarely a week passed without their meeting, and, says mr. richards, he "was pleased, in the course of time, to honor me with his confidence in a marked degree, as though he recognized in me some quality which satisfied his judgment, that i could be trusted in business questions quite apart from those relating to his church. he was not only a born preacher, but possessed a marvellous grasp of sound, practical knowledge upon the affairs of the day. i often consulted with him regarding my own affairs, always getting the most practical help." when dr. parker came to america, the two friends corresponded warmly, and several of the letters are quoted. even "£ a year easily made" could not tempt him from london and the modest opulence of the city temple.... but my business now is not to dwell on these characteristic details, but to point out that mr. richards does not stand alone in the entire detachment, not only of his worldly achievements, but of his spiritual life, from any creative solicitude for the state. if he was merely an isolated "character" i should have no concern with him. his association with dr. parker shows most luminously that he presents a whole cult of english and american rich traders, who in america "sat under" such men as the rev. henry ward beecher, for example, who evidently stand for much more in america than in england, and who, so far as the state and political and social work go, are scarcely of more use, are probably more hindrance, than any organization of selfish voluptuaries of equal wealth and numbers. it is a cult, it has its teachers and its books. i have had a glimpse of one of its manuals. i find mr. richards quoting with approval dr. parker's "ten general commandments for men of business," commandments which strike me as not only state-blind, but utterly god-blind, which are, indeed, no more than shrewd counsels for "getting on." it is really quite horrible stuff morally. "thou shalt not hobnob with idle persons," parodies dr. parker in commandment v., so glossing richly upon the teachings of him who ate with publicans and sinners, and (no doubt to instil the advisability of keeping one's more delicate business procedure in one's own hands), "thou shalt not forget that a servant who can tell lies _for_ thee, may one day tell lies _to_ thee."... i am not throwing any doubt upon the sincerity of dr. parker and mr. richards. i believe that nothing could exceed the transparent honesty that ends this record which tells of a certain bitters pushed at the sacrifice of beautiful scenery, of a successful propaganda of cigarette-smoking, and of all sorts of proprietary articles landed well home in their gastric target of a whole life lost, indeed, in commercial self-seeking, with "what shall i render unto the lord for all his benefits?" "the now is an atom of sand, and the near is a perishing clod, but afar is a fairyland, and beyond is the bosom of god." what i have to insist upon now is that this is a sample, and, so far as i can tell, a fair sample, of the quality and trend of the mind-stuff and the breadth and height of the tradition of a large and i know not how influential mass of prosperous middle-class english, and of a much more prosperous and influential and important section of americans. they represent much energy, they represent much property, they are a factor to reckon with. they present a powerful opposing force to anything that will suppress their disgusting notice-boards or analyze their ambiguous "proprietary articles," or tax their gettings for any decent public purpose. and here i find them selling poisons as pain-killers, and alcohol as tonics, and fighting ably and boldly to silence adverse discussion. in the face of the great needs that lie before america their active trivality of soul, their energy and often unscrupulous activity, and their quantitative importance become, to my mind, adverse and threatening, a stumbling-block for hope. for the impression i have got by going to and fro in america is that mr. richards is a fair sample of at least the older type of american. so far as i can learn, mr. j.d. rockefeller is just another product of the same cult. you meet these older types everywhere, they range from fervent piety and temperance to a hearty drinking, "story"-telling, poker-playing type, but they have in common a sharp, shrewd, narrow, business habit of mind that ignores the future and the state altogether. but i do not find the younger men are following in their lines. some are. but just how many and to what extent, i do not know. it is very hard for a literary man to estimate the quantity and importance of ideas in a community. the people he meets naturally all entertain ideas, or they would not come in his way. the people who have new ideas talk; those who have not, go about their business. but i hazard an opinion that young america now presents an altogether different type from the young men of enterprise and sound baptist and business principles who were the backbone of the irresponsible commercial america of yesterday, the america that rebuilt chicago on "floating foundations," covered the world with advertisement boards, gave the great cities the elevated railroads, and organized the trusts. iii oneida i spent a curious day amid the memories of that strangely interesting social experiment, the oneida community, and met a most significant contemporary, "live american" of the newer school, in the son of the founder and the present head of "oneida limited." there are moments when that visit i paid to oneida seems to me to stand for all america. the place, you know, was once the seat of a perfectionist community; the large red community buildings stand now among green lawns and ripening trees, and i dined in the communal dining-room, and visited the library, and saw the chain and trap factory, and the silk-spinning factory and something of all its industries. i talked to old and middle-aged people who told me all sorts of interesting things of "community days," looked through curious old-fashioned albums of photographs, showing the women in their bloomers and cropped hair, and the men in the ill-fitting frock-coats of the respectable mediocre person in early victorian times. i think that some of the reminiscences i awakened had been voiceless for some time. at moments it was like hearing the story of a flattened, dry, and colorless flower between the pages of a book, of a verse written in faded ink, or of some daguerreotype spotted and faint beyond recognition. it was extraordinarily new england in its quality as i looked back at it all. they claimed a quiet perfection of soul, they searched one another marvellously for spiritual chastening, they defied custom and opinion, they followed their reasoning and their theology to the inmost amazing abnegations--and they kept themselves solvent by the manufacture of steel traps that catch the legs of beasts in their strong and pitiless jaws.... but this book is not about the things that concerned oneida in community days, and i mention them here only because of the curious developments of the present time. years ago, when the founder, john humphrey noyes, grew old and unable to control the new dissensions that arose out of the sceptical attitude of the younger generation towards his ingenious theology, and such-like stresses, communism was abandoned, the religious life and services discontinued, the concern turned into a joint-stock company, and the members made shareholders on strictly commercial lines. for some years its prosperity declined. many of the members went away. but a nucleus remained as residents in the old buildings, and after a time there were returns. i was told that in the early days of the new period there was a violent reaction against communistic methods, a jealous inexperienced insistence upon property. "it was difficult to borrow a hammer," said one of my informants. then, as the new generation began to feel its feet, came a fresh development of vitality. the oneida company began to set up new machinery, to seek wider markets, to advertise and fight competitors. this mr. p.b. noyes was the leader into the new paths. he possesses all the force of character, the constructive passion, the imaginative power of his progenitor, and it has all gone into business competition. i have heard much talk of the romance of business, chiefly from people i heartily despised, but in mr. noyes i found business indeed romantic. it had get hold of him, it possessed him like a passion. he has inspired all his half-brothers and cousins and younger fellow-members of the community with his own imaginative motive. they, too, are enthusiasts for business. mr. noyes is a tall man, who looks down when he talks to one. he showed me over the associated factories, told me how the trap trade of all north america is in oneida's hands, told me of how they fight and win against the british traps in south america and burmah. he showed me photographs of panthers in traps, tigers in traps, bears snarling at death, unfortunate deer, foxes caught by the paws.... i did my best to forget those photographs at once in the interest of his admirable machinery, which busied itself with chain-making as though it had eyes and hands. i went beside him, full of that respect that a literary man must needs feel when a creative business controller displays his quality. "but the old religion of oneida?" i would interpolate. "each one of us is free to follow his own religion. here is a new sort of chain we are making for hanging-lamps. hitherto--" presently i would try again. "are the workers here in any way members of the community?" "oh no! many of them are italian immigrants. we think of building a school for them.... no, we get no labor troubles. we pay always above the trade-union rates, and so we get the pick of the workmen. our class of work can't be sweated."... yes, he was an astonishing personality, so immensely concentrated on these efficient manufacturing and trading developments, so evidently careless of theology, philosophy, social speculation, beauty. "your father was a philosopher," i said. "i think in ten years' time i may give up the control here," he threw out, "and write something." "i've thought of the publishing trade myself," i said, "when my wits are old and stiff."... i never met a man before so firmly gripped by the romantic constructive and adventurous element of business, so little concerned about personal riches or the accumulation of wealth. he illuminated much that had been dark to me in the american character. i think better of business by reason of him. and time after time i tried him upon politics. it came to nothing. making a new world was, he thought, a rhetorical flourish about futile and troublesome activities, and politicians merely a disreputable sort of parasite upon honorable people who made chains and plated spoons. all his constructive instincts, all his devotion, were for oneida and its enterprises. america was just the impartial space, the large liberty, in which oneida grew, the stars and stripes a wide sanction akin to the impartial irresponsible harboring sky overhead. sense of the state had never grown in him--can now, i felt convinced, never grow.... but some day, i like to imagine, the world state, and not oneida corporations, and a nobler trade than traps, will command such services as his. chapter xi two studies in disappointment i the riddle of intolerance in considering the quality of the american mind (upon which, as i believe, the ultimate destiny of america entirely depends), it has been necessary to point out that, considered as one whole, it still seems lacking in any of that living sense of the state out of which constructive effort must arise, and that, consequently, enormous amounts of energy go to waste in anarchistic and chaotically competitive private enterprise. i believe there are powerful forces at work in the trend of modern thought, science, and method, in the direction of bringing order, control, and design into this confused gigantic conflict, and the discussion of these constructive forces must necessarily form the crown of my forecast of america's future. but before i come to that i must deal with certain american traits that puzzle me, that i cannot completely explain to myself, that dash my large expectations with an obstinate shadow of foreboding. essentially these are disintegrating influences, in the nature of a fierce intolerance, that lead to conflicts and destroy co-operation. one makes one's criticism with compunction. one moves through the american world, meeting constantly with kindness and hospitality, with a familiar helpfulness that is delightful, with sympathetic enterprise and energetic imagination, and then suddenly there flashes out a quality of harshness.... i will explain in a few minutes what i mean by this flash of harshness. let me confess here that i cannot determine whether it is a necessary consequence of american conditions, the scar upon the soul of too strenuous business competition, or whether it is something deeper, some subtle, unavoidable infection perhaps in this soil that was once the red indian's battle-ground, some poison, it may be, mingled with this clear exhilarating air. and going with this harshness there seems also something else, a contempt for abstract justice that one does not find in any european intelligence--not even among the english. this contempt may be a correlative of the intense practicality begotten by a scruple-destroying commercial training. that, at any rate, is my own prepossession. conceivably i am over-disposed to make that tall lady in new york harbor stand as a symbol for the liberty of property, and to trace the indisputable hastiness of life here--it is haste sometimes rather than speed,--its scorn of æsthetic and abstract issues, this frequent quality of harshness, and a certain public disorder, whatever indeed mars the splendid promise and youth of america, to that. i think it is an accident of the commercial phase that presses men beyond dignity, patience, and magnanimity. i am loath to believe it is something fundamentally american. i have very clearly in my memory the figure of young macqueen, in his gray prison clothes in trenton jail, and how i talked with him. he and mr. booker t. washington and maxim gorky stand for me as figures in the shadow--symbolical men. i think of america as pride and promise, as large growth and large courage, all set with beautiful fluttering bunting, and then my vision of these three men comes back to me; they return presences inseparable from my american effect, unlit and uncomplaining on the sunless side of her, implying rather than voicing certain accusations. america can be hasty, can be obstinately thoughtless and unjust.... well, let me set down as shortly as i can how i saw them, and then go on again with my main thesis. ii macqueen macqueen is one of those young men england is now making by the thousand in her elementary schools--a man of that active, intelligent, mentally hungry, self-educating sort that is giving us our elementary teachers, our labor members, able journalists, authors, civil servants, and some of the most public-spirited and efficient of our municipal administrators. he is the sort of man an englishman grows prouder of as he sees america and something of her politicians and labor leaders. after his board-school days macqueen went to work as a painter and grainer, and gave his spare energy to self-education. he mastered german, and read widely and freely. he corresponded with william morris, devoured tolstoy and bernard shaw, followed the _clarion_ week by week, discussed social questions, wrote to the newspapers, debated, made speeches. the english reader will begin to recognize the type. jail had worn him when i saw him, but i should think he was always physically delicate; he wears spectacles, he warms emotionally as he talks. and he decided, after much excogitation, that the ideal state is one of so fine a quality of moral training that people will not need coercion and repressive laws. he calls himself an anarchist--of the early christian, tolstoyan, non-resisting school. such an anarchist was emerson, among other dead americans whose names are better treasured than their thoughts. that sort of anarchist has as much connection with embittered bomb-throwers and assassins as miss florence nightingale has with the woman hartmann, who put on a nurse's uniform to poison and rob.... well, macqueen led an active life in england, married, made a decent living, and took an honorable part in the local affairs of leeds until he was twenty-six. then he conceived a desire for wider opportunity than england offers men of his class. in january, , he crossed the atlantic, and, no doubt, he came very much aglow with the american idea. he felt that he was exchanging a decadent country of dwarfing social and political traditions for a land of limitless outlook. he became a proof-reader in new york, and began to seek around him for opportunities of speaking and forwarding social progress. he tried to float a newspaper. the new york labor-unions found him a useful speaker, and, among others, the german silk-workers of new york became aware of him. in june they asked him to go to paterson to speak in german to the weavers in that place. the silk-dyers were on strike in paterson, but the weavers were weaving "scab-silk," dyed by dyers elsewhere, and it was believed that the dyers' strike would fail unless they struck also. they had to be called out. they were chiefly italians, some hungarians. it was felt by the new york german silk-workers that perhaps macqueen's german learned in england might meet the linguistic difficulties of the case. he went. i hope he will forgive me if i say that his was an extremely futile expedition. he did very little. he wrote an entirely harmless article or so in english for _la questione sociale_, and he declined with horror and publicity to appear upon the same platform with a mischievous and violent lady anarchist called emma goldman. on june , , he went to paterson again, and spoke to his own undoing. there is no evidence that he said anything illegal or inflammatory, there is clear evidence that he bored his audience. they shouted him down, and called for a prominent local speaker named galiano. macqueen subsided into the background, and galiano spoke for an hour in italian. he aroused great enthusiasm, and the proceedings terminated with a destructive riot. eight witnesses testify to the ineffectual efforts on the part of macqueen to combat the violence in progress.... that finishes the story of macqueen's activities in america, for which he is now in durance at trenton. he, in common with a large crowd and in common, too, with nearly all the witnesses against him, did commit one offence against the law--he did not go home when destruction began. he was arrested next day. from that time forth his fate was out of his hands, and in the control of a number of people who wanted to "make an example" of the paterson strikers. the press took up macqueen. they began to clothe the bare bones of this simple little history i have told in fluent, unmitigated lying. they blackened him, one might think, out of sheer artistic pleasure in the operation. they called this rather nervous, educated, nobly meaning if ill-advised young man a "notorious anarchist"; his head-line title became "anarchistic macqueen"; they wrote his "story" in a vein of imaginative fervor; they invented "an unsavory police record" for him in england; and enlarged upon the marvellous secret organization for crime of which he was representative and leader. in a little while macqueen had ceased to be a credible human being; he might have been invented by mr. william le queux. he was arrested--galiano went scot-free--and released on bail. it was discovered that his pleasant, decent yorkshire wife and three children were coming out to america to him, and she became "the woman nellie barton"--her maiden name--and "a socialist of the emma goldman stripe." this, one gathers, is the most horrible stripe known to american journalism. had there been a worse one, mrs. macqueen would have been the _ex officio_. and now here is an extraordinary thing--public officials began to join in the process. this is what perplexes me most in this affair. i am told that assistant-secretary-of-the-treasury h.a. taylor, without a fact to go upon, subscribed to the "unsavory record" legend and assistant-secretary c.h. keep fell in with it. they must have seen what it was they were indorsing. in a letter from mr. keep to the reverend a.w. wishart, of trenton (who throughout has fought most gallantly for justice in this case), i find mr. keep distinguishes himself by the artistic device of putting "william macqueen's" name in inverted commas. so, very delicately, he conveys out of the void the insinuation that the name is an alias. meanwhile the commissioner of immigration prepared to take a hand in the game of breaking up macqueen. he stopped mrs. macqueen at the threshold of liberty, imprisoned her in ellis island, and sent her back to europe. macqueen, still on bail, was not informed of this action, and waited on the pier for some hours before he understood. his wife had come second class to america, but she was returned first class, and the steamship company seized her goods for the return fare.... that was more than macqueen could stand. he had been tried, convicted, sentenced to five years' imprisonment, and he was now out on bail pending an appeal. anxiety about his wife and children was too much for him. he slipped off to england after them ("escape of the anarchist macqueen"), made what provision and arrangements he could for them, and returned in time to save his bondsman's money ("capture of the escaped anarchist macqueen"). several members of the leeds city council ("criminal associates in europe") saw him off. that was in . his appeal had been refused on a technical point. he went into trenton jail, and there he is to this day. there i saw him. trenton jail did not impress me as an agreeable place. the building is fairly old, and there is no nonsense about the food. the cells hold, some of them, four criminals, some of them two, but latterly macqueen has had spells in the infirmary, and has managed to get a cell to himself. many of the criminals are negroes and half-breeds, imprisoned for unspeakable offences. in the exercising-yard macqueen likes to keep apart. "when i first came i used to get in a corner," he said.... now this case of macqueen has exercised my mind enormously. it was painful to go out of the gray jail again after i had talked to him--of shaw and morris, of the fabian society and the british labor members--into sunlight and freedom, and ever and again, as i went about new york having the best of times among the most agreeable people, the figure of him would come back to me quite vividly, in his gray dress, sitting on the edge of an unaccustomed chair, hands on his knees, speaking a little nervously and jerkily, and very glad indeed to see me. he is younger than myself, but much my sort of man, and we talked of books and education and his case like brothers. there can be no doubt to any sensible person who will look into the story of his conviction, who will even go and see him, that there has been a serious miscarriage of justice. there has been a serious miscarriage of justice, such as (unhappily) might happen in any country. that is nothing distinctive of america. but what does impress me as remarkable and perplexing is the immense difficulty--the perhaps unsurmountable difficulty--of getting this man released. the governor of the state of new jersey knows he is innocent, the judges of the court of pardons know he is innocent. three of them i was able to button-hole at trenton, and hear their point of view. two are of the minority and for release, one was doubtful in attitude but hostile in spirit. they hold, the man, he thinks, on the score of public policy. they put it that paterson is a "hotbed" of crime and violence; that once macqueen is released every anarchist in the country will be emboldened to crime, and so on and so on. i admit paterson festers, but if we are to punish anybody instead of reforming the system, it's the masters who ought to be in jail for that. "what will the property-owners in paterson say to us if this man is released?" one of the judges admitted frankly. "but he hadn't anything to do with the violence," i said, and argued the case over again--quite missing the point of that objection. whenever i had a chance in new york, in boston, in washington, even amid the conversation of a washington dinner-table, i dragged up the case of macqueen. nobody seemed indignant. one lady admitted the sentence was heavy, "he might have been given six months to cool off in," she said. i protested he ought not to have been given a day. "why did he go there?" said a supreme court judge in washington, a lawyer in new york, and several other people. "wasn't he making trouble?" i was asked. at last that reached my sluggish intelligence. yet i still hesitate to accept the new interpretations. galiano, who preached blind violence and made the riot, got off scot-free; macqueen, who wanted a legitimate strike on british lines, went to jail. so long as the social injustice, the sweated disorder of paterson's industrialism, vents its cries in italian in _la questione sociale_, so long as it remains an inaudible misery so far as the great public is concerned, making vehement yet impotent appeals to mere force, and so losing its last chances of popular sympathy, american property, i gather, is content. the masters and the immigrants can deal with one another on those lines. but to have outsiders coming in! there is an active press campaign against the release of "the anarchist macqueen," and i do not believe that mr. wishart will succeed in his endeavors. i think macqueen will serve out his five years. the plain truth is that no one pretends he is in jail on his merits; he is in jail as an example and lesson to any one who proposes to come between master and immigrant worker in paterson. he has attacked the system. the people who profit by the system, the people who think things are "all right as they are," have hit back in the most effectual way they can, according to their lights. that, i think, accounts for the sustained quality of the lying in this case, and, indeed, for the whole situation. he is in jail on principle and without personal animus, just as they used to tar and feather the stray abolitionist on principle in carolina. the policy of stringent discouragement is a reasonable one--scoundrelly, no doubt, but understandable. and i think i can put myself sufficiently into the place of the paterson masters, of the trenton judges, of those journalists, of those subordinate officials at washington even, to understand their motives and inducements. i indulge in no self-righteous pride. simply, i thank heaven i have not had their peculiar temptations. but my riddle lies in the attitude of the public--of the american nation, which hasn't, it seems, a spark of moral indignation for this sort of thing, which indeed joins in quite cheerfully against the victim. it is ill served by its press, no doubt, but surely it understands.... iii maxim gorky then i assisted at the coming of maxim gorky, and witnessed many intimate details of what professor giddings, that courageous publicist, has called his "lynching." here, again, is a case i fail altogether to understand. the surface values of that affair have a touch of the preposterous. i set them down in infinite perplexity. my first week in new york was in the period of gorky's advent. expectation was at a high pitch, and one might have foretold a stupendous, a history-making campaign. the american nation seemed concentrated upon one great and ennobling idea, the freedom of russia, and upon gorky as the embodiment of that idea. a protest was to be made against cruelty and violence and massacre. that great figure of liberty with the torch was to make it flare visibly half-way round the world, reproving tyranny. gorky arrived, and the _éclat_ was immense. we dined him, we lunched him, we were photographed in his company by flash-light. i very gladly shared that honor, for gorky is not only a great master of the art i practise, but a splendid personality. he is one of those people to whom the camera does no justice, whose work, as i know it in an english translation, forceful as it is, fails very largely to convey his peculiar quality. his is a big, quiet figure; there is a curious power of appeal in his face, a large simplicity in his voice and gesture. he was dressed, when i met him, in peasant clothing, in a belted blue shirt, trousers of some shiny black material, and boots; and save for a few common greetings he has no other language than russian. so it was necessary that he should bring with him some one he could trust to interpret him to the world. and having, too, much of the practical helplessness of his type of genius, he could not come without his right hand, that brave and honorable lady, madame andreieva, who has been now for years in everything but the severest legal sense his wife. russia has no dakota; and although his legal wife has long since found another companion, the orthodox church in russia has no divorce facilities for men in the revolutionary camp. so madame andreieva stands to him as george eliot stood to george lewes, and i suppose the two of them had almost forgotten the technical illegality of their tie, until it burst upon them and the american public in a monstrous storm of exposure. it was like a summer thunder-storm. at one moment gorky was in an immense sunshine, a plenipotentiary from oppression to liberty, at the next he was being almost literally pelted through the streets. i do not know what motive actuated a certain section of the american press to initiate this pelting of maxim gorky. a passion for moral purity may perhaps have prompted it, but certainly no passion for purity ever before begot so brazen and abundant a torrent of lies. it was precisely the sort of campaign that damned poor macqueen, but this time on an altogether imperial scale. the irregularity of madame andreieva's position was a mere point of departure. the journalists went on to invent a deserted wife and children, they declared madame andreieva was an "actress," and loaded her with all the unpleasant implications of that unfortunate word; they spoke of her generally as "the woman andreieva"; they called upon the commissioner of immigration to deport her as a "female of bad character"; quite influential people wrote to him to that effect; they published the name of the hotel that sheltered her, and organized a boycott. whoever dared to countenance the victims was denounced. professor dewar of columbia had given them a reception; "dewar must go," said the head-lines. mark twain, who had assisted in the great welcome, was invited to recant and contribute unfriendly comments. the gorkys were pursued with insult from hotel to hotel. hotel after hotel turned them out. they found themselves at last, after midnight, in the streets of new york city with every door closed against them. infected persons could not have been treated more abominably in a town smitten with a panic of plague. this change happened in the course of twenty-four hours. on one day gorky was at the zenith, on the next he had been swept from the world. to me it was astounding--it was terrifying. i wanted to talk to gorky about it, to find out the hidden springs of this amazing change. i spent a sunday evening looking for him with an ever-deepening respect for the power of the american press. i had a quaint conversation with the clerk of the hotel in fifth avenue from which he had first been driven. europeans can scarcely hope to imagine the moral altitudes at which american hotels are conducted.... i went thence to seek mr. abraham cahan in the east side, and thence to other people i knew, but in vain. gorky was obliterated. i thought this affair was a whirlwind of foolish misunderstanding, such as may happen in any capital, and that presently his entirely tolerable relationship would be explained. but for all the rest of my time in new york this insensate campaign went on. there was no attempt of any importance to stem the tide, and to this day large sections of the american public must be under the impression that this great writer is a depraved man of pleasure accompanied by a favorite cocotte. the writers of paragraphs racked their brains to invent new and smart ways of insulting madame andreieva. the chaste entertainers of the music-halls of the tenderloin district introduced allusions. and amid this riot of personalities russia was forgotten. the massacres, the chaos of cruelty and blundering, the tyranny, the women outraged, the children tortured and slain--all that was forgotten. in boston, in chicago, it was the same. at the bare suggestion of gorky's coming the same outbreak occurred, the same display of imbecile gross lying, the same absolute disregard of the tragic cause he had come to plead. one gleam of comedy in this remarkable outbreak i recall. some one in ineffectual protest had asked what americans would have said if benjamin franklin had encountered such ignominies on his similar mission of appeal to paris before the war of independence. "benjamin franklin," retorted one bright young chicago journalist, "was a man of very different moral character from gorky," and proceeded to explain how chicago was prepared to defend the purity of her homes against the invader. benjamin franklin, it is true, _was_ a person of very different morals from gorky--but i don't think that bright young man in chicago had a very sound idea of where the difference lay. i spent my last evening on american soil in the hospitable home in staten island that sheltered gorky and madame andreieva. after dinner we sat together in the deepening twilight upon a broad veranda that looks out upon one of the most beautiful views in the world, upon serene large spaces of land and sea, upon slopes of pleasant, window-lit, tree-set wooden houses, upon the glittering clusters of lights, and the black and luminous shipping that comes and goes about the narrows and the upper bay. half masked by a hill contour to the left was the light of the torch of liberty.... gorky's big form fell into shadow, madame andreieva sat at his feet, translating methodically, sentence by sentence, into clear french whatever he said, translating our speeches into russian. he told us stories--of the soul of the russian, of russian religious sects, of kindnesses and cruelties, of his great despair. ever and again, in the pauses, my eyes would go to where new york far away glittered like a brighter and more numerous pleiades. i gauged something of the real magnitude of this one man's disappointment, the immense expectation of his arrival, the impossible dream of his mission. he had come--the russian peasant in person, out of a terrific confusion of bloodshed, squalor, injustice--to tell america, the land of light and achieved freedom, of all these evil things. she would receive him, help him, understand truly what he meant with his "rossia." i could imagine how he had felt as he came in the big steamer to her, up that large converging display of space and teeming energy. there she glowed to-night across the water, a queen among cities, as if indeed she was the light of the world. nothing, i think, can ever rob that splendid harbor approach of its invincible quality of promise.... and to him she had shown herself no more than the luminous hive of multitudes of base and busy, greedy and childish little men. macqueen in jail, gorky with his reputation wantonly bludgeoned and flung aside; they are just two chance specimens of the myriads who have come up this great waterway bearing hope and gifts. chapter xii the tragedy of color i harsh judgments i seem to find the same hastiness and something of the same note of harshness that strike me in the cases of macqueen and gorky in america's treatment of her colored population. i am aware how intricate, how multitudinous, the aspects of this enormous question have become, but looking at it in the broad and transitory manner i have proposed for myself in these papers, it does seem to present many parallel elements. there is the same disposition towards an indiscriminating verdict, the same disregard of proportion as between small evils and great ones, the same indifference to the fact that the question does not stand alone, but is a part, and this time a by no means small part, in the working out of america's destinies. in regard to the colored population, just as in regard to the great and growing accumulations of unassimilated and increasingly unpopular jews, and to the great and growing multitudes of roman catholics whose special education contradicts at so many points those conceptions of individual judgment and responsibility upon which america relies, i have attempted time after time to get some answer from the americans i have met to what is to me the most obvious of questions. "your grandchildren and the grandchildren of these people will have to live in this country side by side; do you propose, do you believe it possible, that under the increasing pressure of population and competition they should be living then in just the same relations that you and these people are living now; if you do not, then what relations do you propose shall exist between them?" it is not too much to say that i have never once had the beginnings of an answer to this question. usually one is told with great gravity that the problem of color is one of the most difficult that we have to consider, and the conversation then breaks up into discursive anecdotes and statements about black people. one man will dwell upon the uncontrollable violence of a black man's evil passions (in jamaica and barbadoes colored people form an overwhelming proportion of the population, and they have behaved in an exemplary fashion for the last thirty years); another will dilate upon the incredible stupidity of the full-blooded negro (during my stay in new york the prize for oratory at columbia university, oratory which was the one redeeming charm of daniel webster, was awarded to a zulu of unmitigated blackness); a third will speak of his physical offensiveness, his peculiar smell which necessitates his social isolation (most well-to-do southerners are brought up by negro "mammies"); others, again, will enter upon the painful history of the years that followed the war, though it seems a foolish thing to let those wrongs of the past dominate the outlook for the future. and one charming southern lady expressed the attitude of mind of a whole class very completely, i think, when she said, "you have to be one of us to feel this question at all as it ought to be felt." there, i think, i got something tangible. these emotions are a cult. my globe-trotting impudence will seem, no doubt, to mount to its zenith when i declare that hardly any americans at all seem to be in possession of the elementary facts in relation to this question. these broad facts are not taught, as of course they ought to be taught, in school; and what each man knows is picked up by the accidents of his own untrained observation, by conversation always tinctured by personal prejudice, by hastily read newspapers and magazine articles and the like. the quality of this discussion is very variable, but on the whole pretty low. while i was in new york opinion was greatly swayed by an article in, if i remember rightly, the _century magazine_, by a gentleman who had deduced from a few weeks' observation in the slums of khartoum the entire incapacity of the negro to establish a civilization of his own. he never had, therefore he never could; a discouraging ratiocination. we english, a century or so ago, said all these things of the native irish. if there is any trend of opinion at all in this matter at present, it lies in the direction of a generous decision on the part of the north and west to leave the black more and more to the judgment and mercy of the white people with whom he is locally associated. this judgment and mercy points, on the whole, to an accentuation of the colored man's natural inferiority, to the cessation of any other educational attempts than those that increase his industrial usefulness (it is already illegal in louisiana to educate him above a contemptible level), to his industrial exploitation through usury and legal chicanery, and to a systematic strengthening of the social barriers between colored people of whatever shade and the whites. meanwhile, in this state of general confusion, in the absence of any determining rules or assumptions, all sorts of things are happening--according to the accidents of local feeling. in massachusetts you have people with, i am afraid, an increasing sense of sacrifice to principle, lunching and dining with people of color. they do it less than they did, i was told. massachusetts stands, i believe, at the top of the scale of tolerant humanity. one seems to reach the bottom at springfield, missouri, which is a county seat with a college, an academy, a high school, and a zoological garden. there the exemplary method reaches the nadir. last april three unfortunate negroes were burned to death, apparently because they were negroes, and as a general corrective of impertinence. they seem to have been innocent of any particular offence. it was a sort of racial sacrament. the edified sunday-school children hurried from their gospel-teaching to search for souvenirs among the ashes, and competed with great spirit for a fragment of charred skull. it is true that in this latter case governor folk acted with vigor and justice, and that the better element of springfield society was evidently shocked when it was found that quite innocent negroes had been used in these instructive pyrotechnics; but the fact remains that a large and numerically important section of the american public does think that fierce and cruel reprisals are a necessary part of the system of relationships between white and colored man. in our dispersed british community we have almost exactly the same range between our better attitudes and our worse--i'm making no claim of national superiority. in london, perhaps, we out-do massachusetts in liberality; in the national liberal club or the reform a black man meets all the courtesies of humanity--as though there was no such thing as color. but, on the other hand, the cape won't bear looking into for a moment. the same conditions give the same results; a half-educated white population of british or dutch or german ingredients greedy for gain, ill controlled and feebly influenced, in contact with a black population, is bound to reproduce the same brutal and stupid aggressions, the same half-honest prejudices to justify those aggressions, the same ugly, mean excuses. "things are better in jamaica and barbadoes," said i, in a moment of patriotic weakness, to mr. booker t. washington. "eh!" said he, and thought in that long silent way he has.... "they're worse in south africa--much. here we've got a sort of light. we know generally what we've got to stand. _there_--" his words sent my memory back to some conversations i had quite recently with a man from a dry-goods store in johannesburg. he gave me clearly enough the attitude of the common white out there; the dull prejudice; the readiness to take advantage of the "boy"; the utter disrespect for colored womankind; the savage, intolerant resentment, dashed dangerously with fear, which the native arouses in him. (think of all that must have happened in wrongful practice and wrongful law and neglected educational possibilities before our zulus in natal were goaded to face massacre, spear against rifle!) the rare and culminating result of education and experience is to enable men to grasp facts, to balance justly among their fluctuating and innumerable aspects, and only a small minority in our world is educated to that pitch. ignorant people can think only in types and abstractions, can achieve only emphatic absolute decisions, and when the commonplace american or the commonplace colonial briton sets to work to "think over" the negro problem, he instantly banishes most of the material evidence from his mind--clears for action, as it were. he forgets the genial carriage of the ordinary colored man, his beaming face, his kindly eye, his rich, jolly voice, his touching and trusted friendliness, his amiable, unprejudiced readiness to serve and follow a white man who seems to know what he is doing. he forgets--perhaps he has never seen--the dear humanity of these people, their slightly exaggerated vanity, their innocent and delightful love of color and song, their immense capacity for affection, the warm romantic touch in their imaginations. he ignores the real fineness of the indolence that despises servile toil, of the carelessness that disdains the watchful aggressive economies, day by day, now a wretched little gain here and now a wretched little gain there, that make the dirty fortune of the russian jews who prey upon color in the carolinas. no; in the place of all these tolerable every-day experiences he lets his imagination go to work upon a monster, the "real nigger." "ah! you don't know the _real_ nigger," said one american to me when i praised the colored people i had seen. "you should see the buck nigger down south, congo brand. then you'd understand, sir." his voice, his face had a gleam of passionate animosity. one could see he had been brooding himself out of all relations to reality in this matter. he was a man beyond reason or pity. he was obsessed. hatred of that imaginary diabolical "buck nigger" blackened his soul. it was no good to talk to him of the "buck american, packingtown brand," or the "buck englishman, suburban race-meeting type," and to ask him if these intensely disagreeable persons justified outrages on senator lodge, let us say, or mrs. longworth. no reply would have come from him. "you don't understand the question," he would have answered. "you don't know how we southerners feel." well, one can make a tolerable guess. ii the white strain i certainly did not begin to realize one most important aspect of this question until i reached america. i thought of those eight millions as of men, black as ink. but when i met mr. booker t. washington, for example, i met a man certainly as white in appearance as our admiral fisher, who is, as a matter of fact, quite white. a very large proportion of these colored people, indeed, is more than half white. one hears a good deal about the high social origins of the southern planters, very many derive indisputably from the first families of england. it is the same blood flows in these mixed colored people's veins. just think of the sublime absurdity, therefore, of the ban. there are gentlemen of education and refinement, qualified lawyers and doctors, whose ancestors assisted in the norman conquest, and they dare not enter a car marked "white" and intrude upon the dignity of the rising loan-monger from esthonia. for them the "jim crow" car.... one tries to put that aspect to the american in vain. "these people," you say, "are nearer your blood, nearer your temper, than any of those bright-eyed, ringleted immigrants on the east side. are you ashamed of your poor relations? even if you don't like the half, or the quarter of negro blood, you might deal civilly with the three-quarters white. it doesn't say much for your faith in your own racial prepotency, anyhow."... the answer to that is usually in terms of mania. "let me tell you a little story just to illustrate," said one deponent to me in an impressive undertone--"just to illustrate, you know.... a few years ago a young fellow came to boston from new orleans. looked all right. dark--but he explained that by an italian grandmother. touch of french in him, too. popular. well, he made advances to a boston girl--good family. gave a fairly straight account of himself. married." he paused. "course of time--offspring. little son." his eye made me feel what was coming. "was it by any chance very, very black?" i whispered. "yes, _sir_. black! black as your hat. absolutely negroid. projecting jaw, thick lips, frizzy hair, flat nose--everything.... "but consider the mother's feelings, sir, consider that! a pure-minded, pure white woman!" what can one say to a story of this sort, when the taint in the blood surges up so powerfully as to blacken the child at birth beyond even the habit of the pure-blooded negro? what can you do with a public opinion made of this class of ingredient? and this story of the lamentable results of intermarriage was used, not as an argument against intermarriage, but as an argument against the extension of quite rudimentary civilities to the men of color. "if you eat with them, you've got to marry them," he said, an entirely fabulous post-prandial responsibility. it is to the tainted whites my sympathies go out. the black or mainly black people seem to be fairly content with their inferiority; one sees them all about the states as waiters, cab-drivers, railway porters, car attendants, laborers of various sorts, a pleasant, smiling, acquiescent folk. but consider the case of a man with a broader brain than such small uses need, conscious, perhaps, of exceptional gifts, capable of wide interests and sustained attempts, who is perhaps as english as you or i, with just a touch of color in his eyes, in his lips, in his fingernails, and in his imagination. think of the accumulating sense of injustice he must bear with him through life, the perpetual slight and insult he must undergo from all that is vulgar and brutal among the whites! something of that one may read in the sorrowful pages of du bois's _the souls of black folk_. they would have made alexandre dumas travel in the jim crow car if he had come to virginia. but i can imagine some sort of protest on the part of that admirable but extravagant man.... they even talk of "jim crow elevators" now in southern hotels. at hull house, in chicago, i was present at a conference of colored people--miss jane addams efficiently in control--to consider the coming of a vexatious play, "the clansman," which seems to have been written and produced entirely to exacerbate racial feeling. both men and women were present, business people, professional men, and their wives; the speaking was clear, temperate, and wonderfully to the point, high above the level of any british town council i have ever attended. one lady would have stood out as capable and charming in any sort of public discussion in england--though we are not wanting in good women speakers--and she was at least three-quarters black.... and while i was in chicago, too, i went to the peking theatre--a "coon" music-hall--and saw something of a lower level of colored life. the common white, i must explain, delights in calling colored people "coons," and the negro, so far as i could learn, uses no retaliatory word. it was a "variety" entertainment, with one turn, at least, of quite distinguished merit, good-humored and brisk throughout. i watched keenly, and i could detect nothing of that trail of base suggestion one would find as a matter of course in a music-hall in such english towns as brighton and portsmouth. what one heard of kissing and love-making was quite artless and simple indeed. the negro, it seemed to me, did this sort of thing with a better grace and a better temper than a londoner, and shows, i think, a finer self-respect. he thinks more of deportment, he bears himself more elegantly by far than the white at the same social level. the audience reminded me of the sort of gathering one would find in a theatre in camden town or hoxton. there were a number of family groups, the girls brightly dressed, and young couples quite of the london music-hall type. clothing ran "smart," but not smarter than it would be among fairly prosperous north london jews. there was no gallery--socially--no collection of orange-eating, interrupting hooligans at all. nobody seemed cross, nobody seemed present for vicious purposes, and everybody was sober. indeed, there and elsewhere i took and confirmed a mighty liking to these gentle, human, dark-skinned people. iii mr. booker t. washington but whatever aspect i recall of this great taboo that shows no signs of lifting, of this great problem of the future that america in her haste, her indiscriminating prejudice, her lack of any sustained study and teaching of the broad issues she must decide, complicates and intensifies, and makes threatening, there presently comes back to mind the browned face of mr. booker t. washington, as he talked to me over our lunch in boston. he has a face rather irish in type, and the soft slow negro voice. he met my regard with the brown sorrowful eyes of his race. he wanted very much that i should hear him make a speech, because then his words came better; he talked, he implied, with a certain difficulty. but i preferred to have his talking, and get not the orator--every one tells me he is an altogether great orator in this country where oratory is still esteemed--but the man. he answered my questions meditatively. i wanted to know with an active pertinacity. what struck me most was the way in which his sense of the overpowering forces of race prejudice weighs upon him. it is a thing he accepts; in our time and conditions it is not to be fought about. he makes one feel with an exaggerated intensity (though i could not even draw him to admit) its monstrous injustice. he makes no accusations. he is for taking it as a part of the present fate of his "people," and for doing all that can be done for them within the limit it sets. therein he differs from du bois, the other great spokesman color has found in our time. du bois, is more of the artist, less of the statesman; he conceals his passionate resentment all too thinly. he batters himself into rhetoric against these walls. he will not repudiate the clear right of the black man to every educational facility, to equal citizenship, and equal respect. but mr. washington has statecraft. he looks before and after, and plans and keeps his counsel with the scope and range of a statesman. i use "statesman" in its highest sense; his is a mind that can grasp the situation and destinies of a people. after i had talked to him i went back to my club, and found there an english newspaper with a report of the opening debate upon mr. birrell's education bill. it was like turning from the discussion of life and death to a dispute about the dregs in the bottom of a tea-cup somebody had neglected to wash up in victorian times. i argued strongly against the view he seems to hold that black and white might live without mingling and without injustice, side by side. that i do not believe. racial differences seem to me always to exasperate intercourse unless people have been elaborately trained to ignore them. uneducated men are as bad as cattle in persecuting all that is different among themselves. the most miserable and disorderly countries of the world are the countries where two races, two inadequate cultures, keep a jarring, continuous separation. "you must repudiate separation," i said. "no peoples have ever yet endured the tension of intermingled distinctness." "may we not become a peculiar people--like the jews?" he suggested. "isn't that possible?" but there i could not agree with him. i thought of the dreadful history of the jews and armenians. and the negro cannot do what the jews and armenians have done. the colored people of america are of a different quality from the jew altogether, more genial, more careless, more sympathetic, franker, less intellectual, less acquisitive, less wary and restrained--in a word, more occidental. they have no common religion and culture, no conceit of race to hold them together. the jews make a ghetto for themselves wherever they go; no law but their own solidarity has given america the east side. the colored people are ready to disperse and inter-breed, are not a community at all in the jewish sense, but outcasts from a community. they are the victims of a prejudice that has to be destroyed. these things i urged, but it was, i think, empty speech to my hearer. i could talk lightly of destroying that prejudice, but he knew better. it is the central fact of his life, a law of his being. he has shaped all his projects and policy upon that. exclusion is inevitable. so he dreams of a colored race of decent and inaggressive men silently giving the lie to all the legend of their degradation. they will have their own doctors, their own lawyers, their own capitalists, their own banks--because the whites desire it so. but will the uneducated whites endure even so submissive a vindication as that? will they suffer the horrid spectacle of free and self-satisfied negroes in decent clothing on any terms without resentment? he explained how at the tuskegee institute they make useful men, skilled engineers, skilled agriculturalists, men to live down the charge of practical incompetence, of ignorant and slovenly farming and house management.... "i wish you would tell me," i said, abruptly, "just what you think of the attitude of white america towards you. do you think it is generous?" he regarded me for a moment. "no end of people help us," he said. "yes," i said; "but the ordinary man. is he fair?" "some things are not fair," he said, leaving the general question alone. "it isn't fair to refuse a colored man a berth on a sleeping-car. i?--i happen to be a privileged person, they make an exception for me; but the ordinary educated colored man isn't admitted to a sleeping-car at all. if he has to go a long journey, he has to sit up all night. his white competitor sleeps. then in some places, in the hotels and restaurants--it's all right here in boston--but southwardly he can't get proper refreshments. all that's a handicap.... "the remedy lies in education," he said; "ours--_and theirs_. "the real thing," he told me, "isn't to be done by talking and agitation. it's a matter of lives. the only answer to it all is for colored men to be patient, to make themselves competent, to do good work, to live well, to give no occasion against us. we feel that. in a way it's an inspiration.... "there is a man here in boston, a negro, who owns and runs some big stores, employs all sorts of people, deals justly. that man has done more good for our people than all the eloquence or argument in the world.... that is what we have to do--it is all we _can_ do."... whatever america has to show in heroic living to-day, i doubt if she can show anything finer than the quality of the resolve, the steadfast effort hundreds of black and colored men are making to-day to live blamelessly, honorably, and patiently, getting for themselves what scraps of refinement, learning, and beauty they may, keeping their hold on a civilization they are grudged and denied. they do it not for themselves only, but for all their race. each educated colored man is an ambassador to civilization. they know they have a handicap, that they are not exceptionally brilliant nor clever people. yet every such man stands, one likes to think, aware of his representative and vicarious character, fighting against foul imaginations, misrepresentations, injustice, insult, and the naïve unspeakable meannesses of base antagonists. every one of them who keeps decent and honorable does a little to beat that opposition down. but the patience the negro needs! he may not even look contempt. he must admit superiority in those whose daily conduct to him is the clearest evidence of moral inferiority. we sympathetic whites, indeed, may claim honor for him; if he is wise he will be silent under our advocacy. he must go to and fro self-controlled, bereft of all the equalities that the great flag of america proclaims--that flag for whose united empire his people fought and died, giving place and precedence to the strangers who pour in to share its beneficence, strangers ignorant even of its tongue. that he must do--and wait. the welsh, the irish, the poles, the white south, the indefatigable jews may cherish grievances and rail aloud. he must keep still. they may be hysterical, revengeful, threatening, and perverse; their wrongs excuse them. for him there is no excuse. and of all the races upon earth, which has suffered such wrongs as this negro blood that is still imputed to him as a sin? these people who disdain him, who have no sense of reparation towards him, have sinned against him beyond all measure.... no, i can't help idealizing the dark submissive figure of the negro in this spectacle of america. he, too, seems to me to sit waiting--and waiting with a marvellous and simple-minded patience--for finer understandings and a nobler time. chapter xiii the mind of a modern state i recapitulatory i do not know if i am conveying to any extent the picture of america as i see it, the vast rich various continent, the gigantic energetic process of development, the acquisitive successes, the striving failures, the multitudes of those rising and falling who come between, all set in a texture of spacious countryside, animate with pleasant timber homes, of clangorous towns that bristle to the skies, of great exploitation districts and crowded factories, of wide deserts and mine-torn mountains, and huge half-tamed rivers. i have tried to make the note of immigration grow slowly to a dominating significance in this panorama, and with that, to make more and more evident my sense of the need of a creative assimilation, the cry for synthetic effort, lest all this great being, this splendid promise of a new world, should decay into a vast unprogressive stagnation of unhappiness and disorder. i have hinted at failures and cruelties, i have put into the accumulating details of my vision, children america blights, men she crushes, fine hopes she disappoints and destroys. i have found a place for the questioning figure of the south, the sorrowful interrogation of the outcast colored people. these are but the marginal shadows of a process in its totality magnificent, but they exist, they go on to mingle in her destinies. then i have tried to show, too, the conception i have formed of the great skein of industrial competition that has been tightening and becoming more and more involved through all this century-long age, the age of blind growth, that draws now towards its end; until the process threatens to throttle individual freedom and individual enterprise altogether. and of a great mental uneasiness and discontent, unprecedented in the history of the american mind, that promises in the near future some general and conscious endeavor to arrest this unanticipated strangulation of freedom and free living, some widespread struggle, of i know not what constructive power, with the stains and disorders and indignities that oppress and grow larger in the national consciousness. i perceive more and more that in coming to america i have chanced upon a time of peculiar significance. the note of disillusionment sounds everywhere. america, for the first time in her history, is taking thought about herself, and ridding herself of long-cherished illusions. i have already mentioned (in chapter viii.) the memorable literature of self-examination that has come into being during the last decade. hitherto american thought has been extraordinarily localized; there has been no national press, in the sense that the press of london or paris is national. americans knew of america as a whole, mainly as the flag. beneath the flag america is lost among constituent states and cities. all her newspapers have been, by english standards, "local" papers, preoccupied by local affairs, and taking an intensely localized point of view. a national newspaper for america would be altogether too immense an enterprise. only since , and in the form of weekly and monthly ten-cent magazines, have the rudiments of a national medium of expression appeared, and appeared to voice strange pregnant doubts. i had an interesting talk with mr. brisben walker upon this new development. to him the first ten-cent magazine, _the cosmopolitan_, was due, and he was naturally glad to tell me of the growth of this vehicle. to-day there is an aggregate circulation of ten millions of these magazines; they supply fiction, no doubt, and much of light interesting ephemeral matter, but not one of them is without its element of grave public discussion. i do not wish to make too much of this particular development, but regard it as a sign of new interests, of keen curiosities. now i must confess when i consider this ocean of readers i find the fears i have expressed of some analogical development of american affairs towards the stagnant commercialism of china, or towards a plutocratic imperialism and decadence of the roman type, look singularly flimsy. upon its present lines, and supposing there were no new sources of mental supply and energy, i do firmly believe that america might conceivably come more and more under the control of a tacitly organized and exhausting plutocracy, be swamped by a swelling tide of ignorant and unassimilable labor immigrants, decline towards violence and social misery, fall behind europe in education and intelligence, and cease to lead civilization. in such a decay cæsarism would be a most probable and natural phase, cæsarism and a splitting into contending cæsarisms. come but a little sinking from intelligence towards coarseness and passion, and the south will yet endeavor to impose servitude anew upon its colored people, or secede--that trouble is not yet over. a little darkening and impoverishment of outlook and new york would split from new england, and colorado from the east. an illiterate, short-sighted america would be america doomed. but america is not illiterate; there are these great unprecedented reservoirs of intelligence and understanding, these millions of people who follow the process with an increasing comprehension. it is these millions of readers who make the american problem, and the problem of europe and the world to-day, unique and incalculable, who provide a cohesive and reasonable and pacifying medium the old world did not know. ii birth struggles of a common mind you see, my hero in the confused drama of human life is intelligence; intelligence inspired by constructive passion. there is a demi-god imprisoned in mankind. all human history presents itself to me as the unconscious or half-unconscious struggle of human thought to emerge from the sightless interplay of instinct, individual passion, prejudice, and ignorance. one sees this diviner element groping after law and order and fine arrangement, like a thing blind and half-buried, in ancient egypt, in ancient judæa, in ancient greece. it embodies its purpose in religions, invents the disciplines of morality, the reminders of ritual. it loses itself and becomes confused. it wearies and rests. in plato, for the first time, one discovers it conscious and open-eyed, trying, indeed, to take hold of life and control it. then it goes under, and becomes again a convulsive struggle, an inco-ordinated gripping and leaving, a muttering of literature and art, until the coming of our own times. most painful and blundering of demi-gods it seems through all that space of years, with closed eyes and feverish effort. and now again it is clear to the minds of many men that they may lay hold upon and control the destiny of their kind.... it is strange, it is often grotesque to mark how the reviving racial consciousness finds expression to-day. now it startles itself into a new phase of self-knowledge by striking a note from this art, and now by striking one from that. it breaks out in fiction that is ostensibly written only to amuse, it creeps into after-dinner discussions, and invades a press which is economically no more than a system of advertisement sheets proclaiming the price of the thing that is. presently it is on the stage; the music-hall even is not safe from it. youths walk in the streets to-day, talking together of things that were once the ultimate speculation of philosophy. i am no contemner of the present. to me it appears a time of immense and wonderful beginnings. new ideas are organizing themselves out of the little limited efforts of innumerable men. never was there an age so intellectually prolific and abundant as this in the aggregate is. it is true, indeed, that we who write and think and investigate to-day, present nothing to compare with the magnificent reputations and intensely individualized achievements of the impressive personalities of the past. none the less is it true that taken all together we signify infinitely more. we no longer pose ourselves for admiration, high priests and princes of letters in a world of finite achievement; we admit ourselves no more than pages bearing the train of a queen--but a queen of limitless power. the knowledge we co-ordinate, the ideas we build together, the growing blaze in which we are willingly consumed, are wider and higher and richer in promise than anything the world has had before.... when one takes count of the forces of intelligence upon which we may rely in the great conflict against matter, brute instinct, and individualistic disorder, to make the new social state, when we consider the organizing forms that emerge already from the general vague confusion, we find apparent in every modern state three chief series of developments. there is first the thinking and investigatory elements that grow constantly more important in our university life, the enlarging recognition of the need of a systematic issue of university publications, books, periodicals, and of sustained and fertilizing discussion. then there is the greater, cruder, and bolder sea of mental activities outside academic limits, the amateurs, the free lances of thought and inquiry, the writers and artists, the innumerable ill-disciplined, untrained, but interested and well-meaning people who write and talk. they find their medium in contemporary literature, in journalism, in organizations for the propaganda of opinion. and, thirdly, there is the immense, nearly universally diffused system of education which, inadequately enough, serves to spread the new ideas as they are elaborated, which does, at any rate by its preparatory work, render them accessible. all these new manifestations of mind embody themselves in material forms, in class-rooms and laboratories, in libraries, and a vast machinery of book and newspaper production and distribution. consider the new universities that spring up all over america. almost imperceptibly throughout the past century, little by little, the conception of a university has changed, until now it is nearly altogether changed. the old-time university was a collection of learned men; it believed that all the generalizations had been made, all the fundamental things said; it had no vistas towards the future; it existed for teaching and exercises, and more than half implied what dr. johnson, for example, believed, that secular degeneration was the rule of human life. all that, you know, has gone; every university, even oxford (though, poor pretentious dear, she still professes to read and think metaphysics in "the original" greek) admits the conception of a philosophy that progresses, that broadens and intensifies, age by age. but to come to america is to come to a country far more alive to the thinking and knowledge-making function of universities than great britain. one splendidly endowed foundation, the johns hopkins university, baltimore, exists only for research, and that was the first intention of chicago university also. in sociology, in pedagogics, in social psychology, these vital sciences for the modern state, america is producing an amount of work which, however trivial in proportion to the task before her, is at any rate immense in comparison with our own british output.... iii columbia university i did my amateurish and transitory best to see something of the american universities. there was columbia. thither i went with a letter to professor giddings, whose sociological writings are world famous. i found him busy with a secretary in a businesslike little room, stowed away somewhere under the dome of the magnificent building of the university library. he took me round the opulent spaces, the fine buildings of columbia.... i suppose it is inevitable that a visitor should see the constituents of a university out of proportion, but i came away with an impression overwhelmingly architectural. the library dome, i confess, was fine, and the desks below well filled with students, the books were abundant, well arranged, and well tended. but i recall marble staircases, i recall great wastes of marble steps, i recall, in particular, students' baths of extraordinary splendor, and i do not recall anything like an equivalent effect of large leisure and dignity for intellectual men. professor giddings seemed driven and busy, the few men i met there appeared all to have a lot of immediate work to do. it occurred to me in columbia, as it occurred to me later in the university of chicago, that the disposition of the university founder is altogether too much towards buildings and memorial inscriptions, and all too little towards the more difficult and far more valuable end of putting men of pre-eminent ability into positions of stimulated leisure. this is not a distinctly american effect. in oxford, just as much as in columbia, nay, far more! you find stone and student lording it over the creative mental thing; the dons go about like some sort of little short-coated parasite, pointing respectfully to tower and façade, which have, in truth, no reason for existing except to shelter them. columbia is almost as badly off for means of publication as oxford, and quite as poor in inducements towards creative work. professors talk in an altogether british way of getting work done in the vacation. moreover, there was an effect of remoteness about columbia. it may have been the quality of a blue still morning of sunshine that invaded my impression. i came up out of the crowded tumult of new york to it, with a sense of the hooting, hurrying traffics of the wide harbor, the teeming east side, the glitter of spending, the rush of finance, the whole headlong process of america, behind me. i came out of the subway station into wide still streets. it was very spacious, very dignified, very quiet. well, i want the universities of the modern state to be more aggressive. i want to think of a columbia university of a less detached appearance, even if she is less splendidly clad. i want to think of her as sitting up there, cheek on hand, with knitted brows, brooding upon the millions below. i want to think of all the best minds conceivable going to and fro--thoughts and purposes in her organized mind. and when she speaks that busy world should listen.... as a matter of fact, much of that busy world still regards a professor as something between a dealer in scientific magic and a crank, and a university as an institution every good american should be honestly proud of and avoid. iv harvard harvard, too, is detached, though not quite with the same immediacy of contrast. harvard reminded me very much of my first impressions of oxford. one was taken about in the same way to see this or that point of view. much of harvard is georgian red brick, that must have seemed very ripe and venerable until a year or so ago one bitter winter killed all the english ivy. there are students' clubs, after the fashion of the oxford union, but finer and better equipped; there is an amazing germanic museum, the gift of the present emperor, that does, in a concentrated form, present all that is flamboyant of germany; there are noble museums and libraries, and very many fine and dignified aspects and spaces, and an abundant intellectual life. harvard is happily free from the collegiate politics that absorb most of the surplus mental energy of oxford and cambridge, and the professors can and do meet and talk. at harvard men count. i was condoled with on all hands in my disappointment that i could not meet professor william james--he was still in california--and i had the good fortune to meet and talk to president eliot, who is, indeed, a very considerable voice in american affairs. to me he talked quite readily and frankly of a very living subject, the integrity of the press in relation to the systematic and successful efforts of the advertising chemists and druggists to stifle exposures of noxious proprietary articles. he saw the problem as the subtle play of group psychology it is; there was none of that feeble horror of these troubles as "modern and vulgar" that one would expect in an english university leader. i fell into a great respect for his lean fine face and figure, his deliberate voice, his open, balanced, and constructive mind. he was the first man i had met who had any suggestion of a force and quality that might stand up to and prevail against the forces of acquisition and brute trading. he bore himself as though some sure power were behind him, unlike many other men i met who criticised abuses abusively, or in the key of facetious despair. he had very much of that fine aristocratic quality one finds cropping up so frequently among americans of old tradition, an aristocratic quality that is free from either privilege or pretension.... [illustrations: harvard hall and the johnson gate, cambridge] at harvard, too, i met professor münsterberg, one of the few writers of standing who have attempted a general review of the american situation. he is a tall fair german, but newly annexed to america, with a certain diplomatic quality in his personality, standing almost consciously, as it were, for germany in america, and for america in germany. he has written a book for either people, because hitherto they have seen each other too much through english media ("von englischen linseln retouchiert"), and he has done much to spread the conception of a common quality and sympathy between germany and america. "blood," he says in this connection, "is thicker than water, but ... printer's ink is thicker than blood." england is too aristocratic, france too shockingly immoral, russia too absolutist to be the sympathetic and similar friend of america, and so, by a process of exhaustion, germany remains the one power on earth capable of an "inner understanding." (also he has drawn an alluring parallel between president roosevelt and the emperor william to complete the approximation of "die beiden edelnationen"). i had read all this, and was interested to encounter him therefore at a harvard table in a circle of his colleagues, agreeable and courteous, and still scarcely more assimilated than the brightly new white germanic museum among the red brick traditions of kirkland and cambridge streets.... harvard impresses me altogether as a very living factor in the present american outlook, not only when i was in cambridge, but in the way the place _tells_ in new york, in chicago, in washington. it has a living and contemporary attitude, and it is becoming more and more audible. harvard opinion influences the magazines and affects the press, at least in the east, to an increasing extent. it may, in the near future, become still more rapidly audible. professor eliot is now full of years and honor, and i found in new york, in boston, in washington, that his successor was being discussed. in all these cities i met people disposed to believe that if president roosevelt does not become president of the united states for a further term, he may succeed president eliot. now that i have seen president roosevelt it seems to me that this might have a most extraordinary effect in accelerating the reaction upon the people of america of the best and least mercenary of their national thought. already he is exerting an immense influence in the advertisement of new ideas and ideals. but of president roosevelt i shall write more fully later.... v chicago university chicago university, too, is a splendid place of fine buildings and green spaces and trees, with a great going to and fro of students, a wonderful contrast to the dark congestions of the mercantile city to the north. to all the disorganization of that it is even physically antagonistic, and i could think as i went about it that already this new organization has produced such writing as veblen's admirable ironies (_the theory of business enterprise_, for example), and such sociological work as that of zueblin and albion small. i went through the vigorous and admirably equipped pedagogic department, which is evidently a centre of thought and stimulus for the whole teaching profession of illinois; i saw a library of sociology and economics beyond anything that london can boast; i came upon little groups of students working amid piles of books in a businesslike manner, and if at times in other sections this suggestion was still insistent that thought was as yet only "moving in" and, as it were, getting the carpets down, it was equally clear that thought was going to live freely and spaciously, to an unprecedented extent, so soon as things were in order. [illustration: a bit of princeton university] i visited only these three great foundations, each in its materially embodiment already larger, wealthier, and more hopeful than any contemporary british institution, and it required an effort to realize that they were but a portion of the embattled universities of america, that i had not seen yale nor princeton nor cornell nor leland stanford nor any western state university, not a tithe, indeed, of america's drilling levies in the coming war of thought against chaos. i am in no way equipped to estimate the value of the drilling; i have been unable to get any conception how far these tens of thousands of students in these institutions are really _alive_ intellectually, are really inquiring, discussing, reading, and criticising; i have no doubt the great numbers of them spend many hours after the fashion of one roomful i saw intent upon a blackboard covered with greek; but allowing the utmost for indolence, games, distractions, and waste of time and energy upon unfruitful and obsolete studies, the fact of this great increasing proportion of minds at least a little trained in things immaterial, a little exercised in the critical habit, remains a fact to put over against that million and a half child workers who can barely have learned to read--the other side, the redeeming side of the american prospect. vi a voice from cornell i am impressed by the evident consciousness of the american universities of the rôle they have to play in america's future. they seem to me pervaded by the constructive spirit. they are intelligently antagonistic to lethargic and self-indulgent traditions, to disorder, and disorderly institutions. it is from the universities that the deliberate invasion of the political machine by independent men of honor and position--of whom president roosevelt is the type and chief--proceeds. mr. george iles has called my attention to a remarkable address made so long ago as the year before the yale alumni, by president andrew d. white (the first president), of cornell, who was afterwards american ambassador at st. petersburg and berlin. president white was a member of the class of ' , and he addressed himself particularly to the men of that year. his title was "the message of the nineteenth century to the twentieth," and it is full of a spirit that grows and spreads throughout american life, that may ultimately spread throughout the life of the whole nation, a spirit of criticism and constructive effort, of a scope and quality the world has never seen before. the new class of ' are the messengers. "to a few tottering old men of our dear class of ' it will be granted to look with straining eyes over the boundary into the twentieth century; but even these can do little to make themselves heard then. most of us shall not see it. but before us and around us; nay, in our own families are the men who shall see it. the men who go forth from these dear shades to-morrow are girding themselves for it. often as i have stood in the presence of such bands of youthful messengers i have never been able to resist a feeling of awe, as in my boyhood when i stood before men who were soon to see palestine and the far east, or the golden gates of the west, and the islands of the pacific. the old story of st. fillipo neri at rome comes back to me, who, in the days of the elizabethan persecutions, made men bring him out into the open air and set him opposite the door of the papal college of rome, that he might look into the faces of the english students, destined to go forth to triumph or to martyrdom for the faith in far-off, heretic england." i cannot forbear from quoting further from this address; it is all so congenial to my own beliefs. indeed, i like to think of that gathering of young men and old as if it were still existing, as though the old fellows of ' were still sitting, listening and looking up responsive to this appeal that comes down to us. i fancy president white on the platform before them, a little figure in the perspective of a quarter of a century, but still quite clearly audible, delivering his periods to that now indistinguishable audience: "what, then, is to be done? mercantilism, necessitated at first by our circumstances and position, has been in the main a great blessing. it has been so under a simple law of history. how shall it be prevented from becoming in obedience to a similar inexorable law, a curse? "here, in the answer to this question, it seems to me, is the most important message from this century to the next. "for the great thing to be done is neither more nor less than to develop _other_ great elements of civilization now held in check, which shall take their rightful place in the united states, which shall modify the mercantile spirit, ... which shall make the history of our country something greater and broader than anything we have reached, or ever can reach, under the sway of mercantilism alone. "what shall be those counter elements of civilization? monarchy, aristocracy, militarism we could not have if we would, we would not have if we could. what shall we have? "i answer simply that we must do all that we can to rear greater fabrics of religious, philosophic thought, literary thought, scientific, artistic, political thought to summon young men more and more into these fields, not as a matter of taste or social opportunity, but as a patriotic duty; to hold before them not the incentive of mere gain or of mere pleasure or of mere reputation, but the ideal of a new and higher civilization. the greatest work which the coming century has to do in this country is to build up an aristocracy of thought and feeling which shall hold its own against the aristocracy of mercantilism. i would have more and more the appeal made to every young man who feels within him the ability to do good or great things in any of these higher fields, to devote his powers to them as a sacred duty, no matter how strongly the mercantile or business spirit may draw him. i would have the idea preached early and late.... "and as the guardian of such a movement, ... i would strengthen at every point this venerable university, and others like it throughout the country. remiss, indeed, have the graduates and friends of our own honored yale been in their treatment of her. she has never had the means to do a tithe of what she might do. she ought to be made strong enough, with more departments, more professors, more fellowships, to become one of a series of great rallying points or fortresses, and to hold always concentrated here a strong army, ever active against mercantilism, materialism, and philistinism.... "but, after all, the effort to create these new counterpoising, modifying elements of a greater civilization must be begun in the individual man, and especially in the youth who feels within himself the power to think, the power to write, the power to carve the marble, to paint, to leave something behind him better than dollars. in the individual minds and hearts and souls of the messengers who are preparing for the next century is a source of regeneration. they must form an ideal of religion higher than that of a life devoted to grasping and grinding and griping, with a whine for mercy at the end of it. they must form an ideal of science higher than that of increasing the production of iron or cotton. they must form an ideal of literature and of art higher than that of pandering to the latest prejudice or whimsey. and they must form an ideal of man himself worthy of that century into which are to be poured the accumulations of this. so shall material elements be brought to their proper place, made stronger for good, made harmless for evil. so shall we have that development of new and greater elements, that balance of principles which shall make this republic greater than anything of which we now can dream." chapter xiv culture i the boston enchantment yet even as i write of the universities as the central intellectual organ of a modern state, as i sit implying salvation by schools, there comes into my mind a mass of qualification. the devil in the american world drama may be mercantilism, ensnaring, tempting, battling against my hero, the creative mind of man, but mercantilism is not the only antagonist. in fifth avenue or paterson one may find nothing but the zenith and nadir of the dollar hunt, at a harvard table one may encounter nothing but living minds, but in boston--i mean not only beacon street and commonwealth avenue, but that boston of the mind and heart that pervades american refinement and goes about the world--one finds the human mind not base, nor brutal, nor stupid, nor ignorant, but mysteriously enchanting and ineffectual, so that having eyes it yet does not see, having powers it achieves nothing.... i remember boston as a quiet effect, as something a little withdrawn, as a place standing aside from the throbbing interchange of east and west. when i hear the word boston now it is that quality returns. i do not think of the spreading parkways of mr. woodbury and mr. olmstead nor of the crowded harbor; the congested tenement-house regions, full of those aliens whose tongues struck so strangely on the ears of mr. henry james, come not to mind. but i think of rows of well-built, brown and ruddy homes, each with a certain sound architectural distinction, each with its two squares of neatly trimmed grass between itself and the broad, quiet street, and each with its family of cultured people within. i am reminded of deferential but unostentatious servants, and of being ushered into large, dignified entrance-halls. i think of spacious stairways, curtained archways, and rooms of agreeable, receptive persons. i recall the finished informality of the high tea. all the people of my impression have been taught to speak english with a quite admirable intonation; some of the men and most of the women are proficient in two or three languages; they have travelled in italy, they have all the recognized classics of european literature in their minds, and apt quotations at command. and i think of the constant presence of treasured associations with the titanic and now mellowing literary reputations of victorian times, with emerson (who called poe "that jingle man"), and with longfellow, whose house is now sacred, its view towards the charles river and the stadium--it is a real, correct stadium--secured by the purchase of the sward before it forever.... at the mention of boston i think, too, of autotypes and then of plaster casts. i do not think i shall ever see an autotype again without thinking of boston. i think of autotypes of the supreme masterpieces of sculpture and painting, and particularly of the fluttering garments of the "nike of samothrace." (that i saw, also, in little casts and big, and photographed from every conceivable point of view.) it is incredible how many people in boston have selected her for their æsthetic symbol and expression. always that lady was in evidence about me, unobtrusively persistent, until at last her frozen stride pursued me into my dreams. that frozen stride became the visible spirit of boston in my imagination, a sort of blind, headless, and unprogressive fine resolution that took no heed of any contemporary thing. next to that i recall, as inseparably bostonian, the dreaming grace of botticelli's "prima vera." all bostonians admire botticelli, and have a feeling for the roof of the sistine chapel--to so casual and adventurous a person as myself, indeed, boston presents a terrible, a terrifying unanimity of æsthetic discriminations. i was nearly brought back to my childhood's persuasion that, after all, there is a right and wrong in these things. and boston clearly thought the less of mr. bernard shaw when i told her he had induced me to buy a pianola, not that boston ever did set much store by so contemporary a person as mr. bernard shaw. the books she reads are toned and seasoned books--preferably in the old or else in limited editions, and by authors who may be lectured upon without decorum.... boston has in her symphony concerts the best music in america, and here her tastes are severely orthodox and classic. i heard beethoven's fifth symphony extraordinarily well done, the familiar pinnacled fifth symphony, and now, whenever i grind that out upon the convenient mechanism beside my desk at home, mentally i shall be transferred to boston again, shall hear its magnificent aggressive thumpings transfigured into exquisite orchestration, and sit again among that audience of pleased and pleasant ladies in chaste, high-necked, expensive dresses, and refined, attentive, appreciative, bald, or iron-gray men.... ii boston's antiquity then boston has historical associations that impressed me like iron-moulded, leather-bound, eighteenth-century books. the war of independence, that to us in england seems half-way back to the days of elizabeth, is a thing of yesterday in boston. "here," your host will say and pause, "came marching" so-and-so, "with his troops to relieve" so-and-so. and you will find he is the great-grandson of so-and-so, and still keeps that ancient colonial's sword. and these things happened before they dug the hythe military canal, before sandgate, except for a decrepit castle, existed; before the days when bonaparte gathered his army at boulogne--in the days of muskets and pigtails--and erected that column my telescope at home can reach for me on a clear day. all that is ancient history in england and in boston the decade before those distant alarums and excursions is yesterday. a year or so ago they restored the british arms to the old state-house. "feeling," my informant witnessed, "was dying down." but there were protests, nevertheless.... if there is one note of incongruity in boston, it is in the gilt dome of the massachusetts state-house at night. they illuminate it with electric light. that shocked me as an anachronism. it shocked me--much as it would have shocked me to see one of the colonial portraits, or even one of the endless autotypes of the belvidere apollo replaced, let us say, by one of mr. alvin coburn's wonderfully beautiful photographs of modern new york. that electric glitter breaks the spell; it is the admission of the present, of the twentieth century. it is just as if the quirinal and vatican took to an exchange of badinage with search-lights, or the king mounted an illuminated e.r. on the round tower at windsor. save for that one discord there broods over the real boston an immense effect of finality. one feels in boston, as one feels in no other part of the states, that the intellectual movement has ceased. boston is now producing no literature except a little criticism. contemporary boston art is imitative art, its writers are correct and imitative writers the central figure of its literary world is that charming old lady of eighty-eight, mrs. julia ward howe. one meets her and colonel higginson in the midst of an authors' society that is not so much composed of minor stars as a chorus of indistinguishable culture. there are an admirable library and a museum in boston, and the library is italianate, and decorated within like an ancient missal. in the less ornamental spaces of this place there are books and readers. there is particularly a charming large room for children, full of pigmy chairs and tables, in which quite little tots sit reading. i regret now i did not ascertain precisely what they were reading, but i have no doubt it was classical matter. i do not know why the full sensing of what is ripe and good in the past should carry with it this quality of discriminating against the present and the future. the fact remains that it does so almost oppressively. i found myself by some accident of hospitality one evening in the company of a number of boston gentlemen who constituted a book-collecting club. they had dined, and they were listening to a paper on bibles printed in america. it was a scholarly, valuable, and exhaustive piece of research. the surviving copies of each edition were traced, and when some rare specimen was mentioned as the property of any member of the club there was decorously warm applause. i had been seeing boston, drinking in the boston atmosphere all day.... i know it will seem an ungracious and ungrateful thing to confess (yet the necessities of my picture of america compel me), but as i sat at the large and beautifully ordered table, with these fine, rich men about me, and listened to the steady progress of the reader's ever unrhetorical sentences, and the little bursts of approval, it came to me with a horrible quality of conviction that the mind of the world was dead, and that this was a distribution of souvenirs. indeed, so strongly did this grip me that presently, upon some slight occasion, i excused myself and went out into the night. i wandered about boston for some hours, trying to shake off this unfortunate idea. i felt that all the books had been written, all the pictures painted, all the thoughts said--or at least that nobody would ever believe this wasn't so. i felt it was dreadful nonsense to go on writing books. nothing remained but to collect them in the richest, finest manner one could. somewhere about midnight i came to a publisher's window, and stood in the dim moonlight peering enviously at piled copies of izaak walton and omar khayyam, and all the happy immortals who got in before the gates were shut. and then in the corner i discovered a thin, small book. for a time i could scarcely believe my eyes. i lit a match to be the surer. and it was _a modern symposium_, by lowes dickinson, beyond all disputing. it was strangely comforting to see it there--a leaf of olive from the world of thought i had imagined drowned forever. that was just one night's mood. i do not wish to accuse boston of any wilful, deliberate repudiation of the present and the future. but i think that boston--when i say boston let the reader always understand i mean that intellectual and spiritual boston that goes about the world, that traffics in book-shops in rome and piccadilly, that i have dined with and wrangled with in my friend w.'s house in blackheath, dear w., who, i believe, has never seen america--i think, i say, that boston commits the scholastic error and tries to remember too much, to treasure too much, and has refined and studied and collected herself into a state of hopeless intellectual and æsthetic repletion in consequence. in these matters there are limits. the finality of boston is a quantitive consequence. the capacity of boston, it would seem, was just sufficient but no more than sufficient, to comprehend the whole achievement of the human intellect up, let us say, to the year a.d. then an equilibrium was established. at or about that year boston filled up. iii about wellesley it is the peculiarity of boston's intellectual quality that she cannot unload again. she treasures longfellow in quantity. she treasures his works, she treasures associations, she treasures his cambridge home. now, really, to be perfectly frank about him, longfellow is not good enough for that amount of intellectual house room. he cumbers boston. and when i went out to wellesley to see that delightful girls' college everybody told me i should be reminded of the "princess." for the life of me i could not remember what "princess." much of my time in boston was darkened by the constant strain of concealing the frightful gaps in my intellectual baggage, this absence of things i might reasonably be supposed, as a cultivated person, to have, but which, as a matter of fact, i'd either left behind, never possessed, or deliberately thrown away. i felt instinctively that boston could never possibly understand the light travelling of a philosophical carpet-bagger. but i hid--in full view of the tree-set wellesley lake, ay, with the skiffs of "sweet girl graduates"--own up. "i say," i said, "i wish you wouldn't all be so allusive. _what_ princess?" it was, of course, that thing of tennyson's. it is a long, frequently happy and elegant, and always meritorious narrative poem, in which a chaste victorian amorousness struggles with the early formulæ of the feminist movement. i had read it when i was a boy, i was delighted to be able to claim, and had honorably forgotten the incident. but in boston they treat it as a living classic, and expect you to remember constantly and with appreciation this passage and that. i think that quite typical of the bostonian weakness. it is the error of the clever high-school girl, it is the mistake of the scholastic mind all the world over, to learn too thoroughly and to carry too much. they want to know and remember longfellow and tennyson--just as in art they want to know and remember raphael and all the elegant inanity of the sacrifice at lystra, or the miraculous draught of fishes; just as in history they keep all the picturesque legends of the war of independence--looking up the dates and minor names, one imagines, ever and again. some years ago i met two boston ladies in rome. each day they sallied forth from our hotel to see and appreciate; each evening, after dinner, they revised and underlined in baedeker what they had seen. _they meant to miss nothing in rome._ it's fine in its way--this receptive eagerness, this learners' avidity. only people who can go about in this spirit need, if their minds are to remain mobile, not so much heads as _cephalic pantechnicon vans_.... iv the wellesley cabinets i find this appetite to have all the mellow and refined and beautiful things in life to the exclusion of all thought for the present and the future even in the sweet, free air of wellesley's broad park, that most delightful, that almost incredible girls' university, with its class-rooms, its halls of residence, its club-houses and gathering-places among the glades and trees. i have very vivid in my mind a sunlit room in which girls were copying the detail in the photographs of masterpieces, and all around this room were cabinets of drawers, and in each drawer photographs. there must be in that room photographs of every picture of the slightest importance in italy, and detailed studies of many. i suppose, too, there are photographs of all the sculpture and buildings in italy that are by any standard considerable. there is, indeed, a great civilization, stretching over centuries and embodying the thought and devotion, the scepticism and levities, the ambition, the pretensions, the passions, and desires of innumerable sinful and world-used men--_canned_, as it were, in this one room, and freed from any deleterious ingredients. the young ladies, under the direction of competent instructors, go through it, no doubt, industriously, and emerge--capable of browning. i was taken into two or three charming club-houses that dot this beautiful domain. there was a shakespeare club-house, with a delightful theatre, elizabethan in style, and all set about with shakespearean things; there was the club-house of the girls who are fitting themselves for their share in the great american problem by the study of greek. groups of pleasant girls in each, grave with the fine gravity of youth, entertained the reluctantly critical visitor, and were unmistakably delighted and relaxed when one made it clear that one was not in the great teacher line of business, when one confided that one was there on false pretences, and insisting on seeing the pantry. they have jolly little pantries, and they make excellent tea. i returned to boston at last in a state of mighty doubting, provided with a wellesley college calendar to study at my leisure. i cannot, for the life of me, determine how far wellesley is an aspect of what i have called boston; how far it is a part of that wide forward movement of the universities upon which i lavish hope and blessings. those drawings of photographed madonnas and holy families and annunciations, the sustained study of greek, the class in the french drama of the seventeenth century, the study of the topography of rome fill me with misgivings, seeing the world is in torment for the want of living thought about its present affairs. but, on the other hand, there are courses upon socialism--though the text-book is still _das kapital_ of marx--and upon the industrial history of england and america. i didn't discover a debating society, but there is a large accessible library. how far, i wonder still, are these girls thinking and feeding mentally for themselves? what do they discuss one with another? how far do they suffer under that plight of feminine education--notetaking from lectures?... but, after all, this about wellesley is a digression into which i fell by way of boston's autotypes. my main thesis was that culture, as it is conceived in boston, is no contribution to the future of america, that cultivated people may be, in effect, as state-blind as--mr. morgan richards. it matters little in the mind of the world whether any one is concentrated upon mediæval poetry, florentine pictures, or the propagation of pills. the common, significant fact in all these cases is this, a blindness to the crude splendor of the possibilities of america now, to the tragic greatness of the unheeded issues that blunder towards solution. frankly, i grieve over boston--boston throughout the world--as a great waste of leisure and energy, as a frittering away of moral and intellectual possibilities. we give too much to the past. new york is not simply more interesting than rome, but more significant, more stimulating, and far more beautiful, and the idea that to be concerned about the latter in preference to the former is a mark of a finer mental quality is one of the most mischievous and foolish ideas that ever invaded the mind of man. we are obsessed by the scholastic prestige of mere knowledge and genteel remoteness. over against unthinking ignorance is scholarly refinement, the spirit of boston; between that scylla and this charybdis the creative mind of man steers its precarious way. chapter xv at washington i washington as anti-climax i came to washington full of expectations and curiosities. here, i felt, so far as it could exist visibly and palpably anywhere, was the head and mind of this colossal america over which my observant curiosities had wandered. in this place i should find, among other things, perhaps as many as ten thousand men who would not be concerned in trade. there would be all the senators and representatives, their secretaries and officials, and four thousand and more scientific and literary men of washington's institutions and libraries, the diplomatic corps, the educational centres, the civil service, the writers and thinking men who must inevitably be drawn to this predestined centre. i promised myself arduous intercourse with a teeming intellectual life. here i should find questions answered, discover missing clues, get hold of the last connections in my inquiry. i should complete at washington my vision of america; my forecast would follow. i don't precisely remember how this vision departed. i know only that after a day or so in washington an entirely different conception was established, a conception of washington as architecture and avenues, as a place of picture post-cards and excursions, with sightseers instead of thoughts going to and fro. i had imagined that in washington i should find such mentally vigorous discussion-centres as the new york x club on a quite magnificent scale. instead, i found the chief scientific gathering-place has, like so many messes in the british army before the boer war, a rule against talking "shop." in all washington there is no clearing-house of thought at all; washington has no literary journals, no magazines, no publications other than those of the official specialist--there does not seem to be a living for a single firm of publishers in this magnificent empty city. i went about the place in a state of ridiculous and deepening concern. i went through the splendid botanical gardens, through the spacious and beautiful capitol, and so to the magnificently equipped library of congress. there in an upper chamber that commands an altogether beautiful view of long vistas of avenue and garden to that stupendous unmeaning obelisk (the work of the women of america) that dominates all washington, i found at last a little group of men who could talk. it was like a small raft upon a limitless empty sea. i lunched with them at their round table, and afterwards mr. putnam showed me the rotunda, quite the most gracious reading-room dome the world possesses, and explained the wonderful mechanical organization that brings almost every volume in that immense collection within a minute of one's hand. "with all this," i asked him, "why doesn't the place _think_?" he seemed, discreetly, to consider it did. [illustration: in the congressional library] it was in the vein of washington's detached deadness that i should find professor langley (whose flying experiments i have followed for some years with close interest) was dead, and i went through the long galleries of archæological specimens and stuffed animals in the smithsonian institution to inflict my questions upon his temporary successor, dr. cyrus adler. he had no adequate excuses. he found a kind of explanation in the want of enterprise of american publishers, so that none of them come to washington to tap its latent resources of knowledge and intellectual capacity; but that does not account for the absence of any traffic in ideas. it is perhaps near the truth to say that this dearth of any general and comprehensive intellectual activity is due to intellectual specialization. the four thousand scientific men in washington are all too energetically busy with ethnographic details, electrical computations, or herbaria to talk about common and universal things. they ought not to be so busy, and a science so specialized sinks half-way down the scale of sciences. science is one of those things that cannot hustle; if it does, it loses its connections. in washington some men, i gathered, hustle, others play bridge, and general questions are left, a little contemptuously, as being of the nature of "gas," to the newspapers and magazines. philosophy, which correlates the sciences and keeps them subservient to the universals of life, has no seat there. my anticipated synthesis of ten thousand minds refused, under examination, to synthesize at all; it remained disintegrated, a mob, individually active and collectively futile, of specialists and politicians. ii the city of conversation but that is only one side of washington life, the side east and south of the white house. northwestward i found, i confess, the most agreeable social atmosphere in america. it is a region of large fine houses, of dignified and ample-minded people, people not given over to "smartness" nor redolent of dollars, unhurried and reflective, not altogether lost to the wider aspects of life. in washington i met again that peculiarly aristocratic quality i had found in harvard--in the person of president eliot, for example--an aristocratic quality that is all the finer for the absence of rank, that has integral in it--books, thought, and responsibility. and yet i could have wished these fine people more alive to present and future things, a little less established upon completed and mellowing foundations, a little less final in their admirable finish.... there was, i found, a little breeze of satisfaction fluttering the washington atmosphere in this region. mr. henry james came through the states last year distributing epithets among their cities with the justest aptitude. washington was the "city of conversation"; and she was pleasantly conscious that she merited this friendly coronation. washington, indeed, converses well, without awkwardness, without chatterings, kindly, watchful, agreeably witty. she lulled and tamed my purpose to ask about primary things, to discuss large questions. only once, and that was in an after-dinner duologue, did i get at all into a question in washington. for the rest, washington remarked and alluded and made her point and got away. iii mount vernon and washington, with a remarkable unanimity and in the most charming manner, assured me that if i came to see and understand america i must on no account miss mount vernon. to have passed indifferently by concord was bad enough, i was told, but to ignore the home of the first president, to turn my back upon that ripe monument of colonial simplicity, would be quite criminal neglect. to me it was a revelation how sincerely insistent they were upon this. it reminded me of an effect i had already appreciated very keenly in boston--and even before boston, when mr. z took me across spuyten duyvil into the country of sleepy hollow, and spoke of cornwallis as though he had died yesterday--and that is the longer historical perspectives of america. america is an older country than any european one, for she has not rejuvenesced for a hundred and thirty years. in endless ways america fails to be contemporary. in many respects, no doubt, she is decades in front of europe, in mechanism, for example, and productive organization, but in very many other and more fundamental ones she is decades behind. go but a little way back and you will find the european's perspectives close up; they close at ' , at ' , down a vista of reform bills, at waterloo and the treaty of paris, at the irish union, at the coming of victor emanuel; great britain, for example, in the last hundred years has reconstructed politically and socially, created half her present peerage, evolved the empire of india, developed australia, new zealand, south africa, fought fifty considerable wars. mount vernon, on the other hand, goes back with unbroken continuity, a broad band of mellow tradition, to the war of independence. well, i got all that in conversation at washington, and so i didn't need to go to mount vernon, after all. i got all that about , and i failed altogether to get anything of any value whatever about --which is the year of greater interest to me. about the direction and destinies of that great american process that echoes so remotely through washington's cool gracefulness of architecture and her umbrageous parks, this cultivated society seemed to me to be terribly incurious and indifferent. it was alive to political personalities, no doubt, its sons and husbands were senators, judges, ambassadors, and the like; it was concerned with their speeches and prospects, but as to the trend of the whole thing washington does not picture it, does not want to picture it. i found myself presently excusing myself for mount vernon on the ground that i was not a retrospective american, but a go-ahead englishman, and so apologizing for my want of reverence for venerable things. "we are a young people," i maintained. "we are a new generation." iv in the senate-house i went to see the senate debating the railway-rate bill, and from the senatorial gallery i had pointed out to me tillman and platt, foraker and lodge, and all the varied personalities of the assembly. the chamber is a circular one, with enormously capacious galleries. the members speak from their desks, other members write letters, read (and rustle) newspapers, sit among accumulations of torn paper, or stand round the apartment in audibly conversational groups. a number of messenger-boys--they wear no uniform--share the floor of the house with the representatives, and are called by clapping the hands. they go to and fro, or sit at the feet of the vice-president. behind and above the vice-president the newspaper men sit in a state of partial attention, occasionally making notes for the vivid descriptions that have long since superseded verbatim reports in america. the public galleries contain hundreds of intermittently talkative spectators. for the most part these did not seem to me to represent, as the little strangers' gallery in the house of commons represents, interests affected. they were rather spectators seeing washington, taking the senate _en route_ for the obelisk top and mount vernon. they made little attempt to hear the speeches. in a large distinguished emptiness among these galleries is the space devoted to diplomatic representatives, and there i saw, sitting in a meritorious solitude, the british _charge d'affaires_ and his wife following the debate below. i found it altogether too submerged for me to follow. the countless spectators, the senators, the boy messengers, the comings and goings kept up a perpetual confusing babblement. one saw men walking carelessly between the speaker and the vice-president, and at one time two gentlemen with their backs to the member in possession of the house engaged the vice-president in an earnest conversation. the messengers circulated at a brisk trot, or sat on the edge of the dais exchanging subdued badinage. i have never seen a more distracted legislature. the whole effect of washington is a want of concentration, of something unprehensile and apart. it is on, not in, the american process. the place seems to me to reflect, even in its sounds and physical forms, that dispersal of power, that evasion of a simple conclusiveness, which is the peculiar effect of that ancient compromise, the american constitution. the framers of that treaty were haunted by two terrible bogies, a military dictatorship and what they called "mob rule," they were obsessed by the need of safeguards against these dangers, they were controlled by the mutual distrust of constituent states far more alien to one another than they are now, and they failed to foresee both the enormous assimilation of interests and character presently to be wrought by the railways and telegraphs, and the huge possibilities of corruption, elaborate electrical arrangements offer to clever unscrupulous men. and here in washington is the result, a legislature that fails to legislate, a government that cannot govern, a pseudo-responsible administration that offers enormous scope for corruption, and that is perhaps invincibly intrenched behind the two-party system from any insurgence of the popular will. the plain fact of the case is that congress, as it is constituted at present, is the feeblest, least accessible, and most inefficient central government of any civilized nation in the worst west of russia. congress is entirely inadequate to the tasks of the present time. i came away from washington with my pre-conception enormously reinforced that the supreme need of america, the preliminary thing to any social or economic reconstruction, is political reform. it seems to me to lie upon the surface that america has to be democratized. it is necessary to make the senate and the house of representatives more interdependent, and to abolish the possibilities of deadlocks between them, to make election to the senate direct from the people, and to qualify and weaken the power of the two-party system by the introduction of "second ballots" and the referendum.... but how such drastic changes are to be achieved constitutionally in america i cannot imagine. only a great educated, trained, and sustained agitation can bring about so fundamental a political revolution, and at present i can find nowhere even the beginnings of a realization of this need. v president roosevelt in the white house, set midway between the washington of the sightseers and the washington of brilliant conversation, i met president roosevelt. i was mightily pleased by the white house; it is dignified and simple--once again am i tempted to use the phrase "aristocratic in the best sense" of things american; and an entire absence of uniforms or liveries creates an atmosphere of republican equality that is reinforced by "mr. president's" friendly grasp of one's undistinguishable hand. and after lunch i walked about the grounds with him, and so achieved my ambition to get him "placed," as it were, in my vision of america. in the rare chances i have had of meeting statesmen, there has always been one common effect, an effect of their being smaller, less audible, and less saliently featured than one had expected. a common man builds up his picture of the men prominent in the great game of life very largely out of caricature, out of head-lines, out of posed and "characteristic" portraits. one associates them with actresses and actors, literary poseurs and such-like public performers, anticipates the same vivid self-consciousness as these display in common intercourse, keys one's self up for the paint on their faces, and for voices and manners altogether too accentuated for the gray-toned lives of common men. i've met politicians who remained at that. but so soon as mr. roosevelt entered the room, "teddy," the teddy of the slouch hat, the glasses, the teeth, and the sword, that strenuous vehement teddy (who had, let me admit, survived a full course of reading in the president's earlier writings) vanished, and gave place to an entirely negotiable individuality. to-day, at any rate, the "teddy" legend is untrue. perhaps it wasn't always quite untrue. there was a time during the world predominance of mr. kipling, when i think the caricature must have come close to certain of mr. roosevelt's acceptances and attitudes. but that was ten years and more ago, and mr. roosevelt to this day goes on thinking and changing and growing.... for me, anyhow, that strenuousness has vanished beyond recalling, and there has emerged a figure in gray of a quite reasonable size, with a face far more thoughtful and perplexed than strenuous, with a clinched hand that does indeed gesticulate, though it is by no means a gigantic fist--and with quick movements, a voice strained indeed, a little forced for oratory, but not raised or aggressive in any fashion, and friendly screwed-up eyes behind the glasses. it isn't my purpose at all to report a conversation that went from point to point. i wasn't interviewing the president, and i made no note at the time of the things said. my impression was of a mind--for the situation--quite extraordinarily open. that is the value of president roosevelt for me, and why i can't for the life of my book leave him out. he is the seeking mind of america displayed. the ordinary politician goes through his career like a charging bull, with his eyes shut to any changes in the premises. he locks up his mind like a powder magazine. but any spark may fire the mind of president roosevelt. his range of reading is amazing; he seems to be echoing with all the thought of the time, he has receptivity to the pitch of genius. and he does not merely receive, he digests and reconstructs; he thinks. it is his political misfortune that at times he thinks aloud. his mind is active with projects of solution for the teeming problems around him. traditions have no hold upon him--nor, his enemies say, have any but quite formal pledges. it is hard to tie him. in all these things he is to a single completeness, to mind and will of contemporary america. and by an unparalleled conspiracy of political accidents, as all the world knows, he has got to the white house. he is not a part of the regular american political system at all--he has, it happens, stuck through. now my picture of america is, as i have tried to make clear, one of a gigantic process of growth, of economic coming and going, spaced out over vast distances and involving millions of hastening men; i see america as towns and urgency and greatnesses beyond, i suppose, any precedent that has ever been in the world. and like a little island of order amid that ocean of enormous opportunity and business turmoil and striving individualities, is this district of columbia, with washington and its capitol and obelisk. it is a mere pin-point in the unlimited, on which, in peace times, the national government lies marooned, twisted up into knots, bound with safeguards, and altogether impotently stranded. and peering closely, and looking from the capitol down the vista of pennsylvania avenue, i see the white house, minute and clear, with a fountain playing before it, and behind it a railed garden set with fine trees. the trees are not so thick, nor the railings so high but that the people on the big "seeing washington" cannot crane to look into it and watch whoever walk about it. and in this garden goes a living speck, as it were, in gray, talking, swinging a white clinched hand, and trying vigorously and resolutely to get a hold upon the significance of the whole vast process in which he and his island of government are set. always before him there have been political resultants, irrelevancies and futilities of the white house; and after him, it would seem, they may come again. i do not know anything of the quality of mr. bryan, who may perhaps succeed him. he, too, is something of an exception, it seems, and keeps a still developing and inquiring mind. beyond is a vista of figures of questionable value so far as i am concerned. they have this in common that they don't stand for thought. for the present, at any rate, a personality, extraordinarily representative, occupies the white house. and what he chooses to say publicly (and some things he says privately) are, by an exceptional law of acoustics, heard in san francisco, in chicago, in new orleans, in new york and boston, in kansas, and maine, throughout the whole breadth of the united states of america. he assimilates contemporary thought, delocalizes and reverberates it. he is america for the first time vocal to itself. what is america saying to itself? i've read most of the president's recent speeches, and they fall in oddly with that quality in his face that so many photographs even convey, a complex mingling of will and a critical perplexity. taken all together they amount to a mass of not always consistent suggestions, that and conflict overlap. things crowd upon him, rebate scandals, insurance scandals, the meat scandals, this insecurity and that. the conditions of his position press upon him. it is no wonder he gives out no single, simple note.... the plain fact is that in the face of the teeming situations of to-day america does not know what to do. nobody, except those happily gifted individuals who can see but one aspect of an intricate infinitude, imagines any simple solution. for the rest the time is one of ample, vigorous, and at times impatient inquiry, and of intense disillusionment with old assumptions and methods. and never did a president before so reflect the quality of his time. the trend is altogether away from the anarchistic individualism of the nineteenth century, that much is sure, and towards some constructive scheme which, if not exactly socialism, as socialism is defined, will be, at any rate, closely analogous to socialism. this is the immense change of thought and attitude in which president roosevelt participates, and to which he gives a unique expression. day by day he changes with the big world about him--contradicts himself.... i came away with the clear impression that neither president roosevelt nor america will ever, as some people prophesy, "declare for socialism," but my impression is equally clear, that he and all the world of men he stands for, have done forever with the threadbare formulæ that have served america such an unconscionable time. we talked of the press and books and of the question of color, and then for a while about the rôle of the universities in the life of the coming time. now it is a curious thing that as i talked with president roosevelt in the garden of the white house there came back to me quite forcibly that undertone of doubt that has haunted me throughout this journey. after all, does this magnificent appearance of beginnings which is america, convey any clear and certain promise of permanence and fulfilment whatever? much makes for construction, a great wave of reform is going on, but will it drive on to anything more than a breaking impact upon even more gigantic uncertainties and dangers. is america a giant childhood or a gigantic futility, a mere latest phase of that long succession of experiments which has been and may be for interminable years--may be indeed altogether until the end--man's social history? i can't now recall how our discursive talk settled towards that, but it is clear to me that i struck upon a familiar vein of thought in the president's mind. he hadn't, he said, an effectual disproof of any pessimistic interpretation of the future. if one chose to say america must presently lose the impetus of her ascent, that she and all mankind must culminate and pass, he could not conclusively deny that possibility. only he chose to live as if this were not so. that remained in his mind. presently he reverted to it. he made a sort of apology for his life against the doubts and scepticisms that, i fear, must be in the background of the thoughts of every modern man who is intellectually alive. he mentioned a little book of mine, an early book full of the deliberate pessimism of youth, in which i drew a picture of a future of decadence, of a time when constructive effort had fought its fight and failed, when the inevitable segregations of an individualistic system had worked themselves out and all the hope and vigor of humanity had gone forever. the descendants of the workers had become etiolated, sinister, and subterranean monsters, the property-owners had degenerated into a hectic and feebly self-indulgent race, living fitfully amid the ruins of the present time. he became gesticulatory, and his straining voice a note higher in denying this as a credible interpretation of destiny. with one of those sudden movements of his, he knelt forward in a garden chair--we were standing before our parting beneath the colonnade--and addressed me very earnestly over the back, clutching it, and then thrusting out his familiar gesture, a hand first partly open and then closed. "suppose after all," he said, slowly, "that should prove to be right, and it all ends in your butterflies and morlocks. _that doesn't matter now._ the effort's real. it's worth going on with. it's worth it. it's worth it--even then."... i can see him now and hear his unmusical voice saying "the effort--the effort's worth it," and see the gesture of his clinched hand and the--how can i describe it? the friendly peering snarl of his face, like a man with the sun in his eyes. he sticks in my mind as that, as a very symbol of the creative will in man, in its limitations, its doubtful adequacy, its valiant persistence amid perplexities and confusions. he kneels out, assertive against his setting--and his setting is the white house with a background of all america. i could almost write, with a background of all the world--for i know of no other a tithe so representative of the creative purpose, the _good-will_ in men as he. in his undisciplined hastiness, his limitations, his prejudices, his unfairness, his frequent errors, just as much as in his force, his sustained courage, his integrity, his open intelligence, he stands for his people and his kind. the envoy and at last i am back in my study by the sea. it is high june. when i said good-bye to things it was march, a march warm and eager to begin with, and then dashed with sleet and wind; but the daffodils were out, and the primulas and primroses shone brown and yellow in the unseasonable snow. the spring display that was just beginning is over. the iris rules. outside the window is a long level line of black fleur-de-lys rising from a serried rank of leaf-blades. their silhouettes stand out against the brightness of the twilight sea. they mark, so opened, two months of absence. and in the interval i have seen a great world. i have tried to render it as i saw it. i have tried to present the first exhilaration produced by the sheer growth of it, the morning-time hopefulness of spacious and magnificent opportunity, the optimism of successful, swift, progressive effort in material things. and from that i have passed to my sense of the chaotic condition of the american will, and that first confidence has darkened more and more towards doubt again. i came to america questioning the certitudes of progress. for a time i forgot my questionings; i sincerely believed, "these people can do anything," and, now i have it all in perspective, i have to confess that doubt has taken me again. "these people," i say, "might do anything. they are the finest people upon earth--the most hopeful. but they are vain and hasty; they are thoughtless, harsh, and undisciplined. in the end, it may be, they will accomplish nothing." i see, i have noted in its place, the great forces of construction, the buoyant, creative spirit of america. but i have marked, too, the intricacy of snares and obstacles in its path. the problem of america, save in its scale and freedom, is no different from the problem of great britain, of europe, of all humanity; it is one chiefly moral and intellectual; it is to resolve a confusion of purposes, traditions, habits, into a common ordered intention. everywhere one finds what seem to me the beginnings of that--and, for this epoch it is all too possible, they may get no further than beginnings. yet another decline and fall may remain to be written, another and another, and it may be another, before the world state comes and peace. yet against this prospect of a dispersal of will, of a secular decline in honor, education, public spirit, and confidence, of a secular intensification of corruption, lawlessness, and disorder, i do, with a confidence that waxes and wanes, balance the creative spirit in america, and that kindred spirit that for me finds its best symbol in the president's kneeling, gesticulating figure, and his urgent "the effort's worth it!" who can gauge the far-reaching influence of even the science we have, in ordering and quickening the imagination of man, in enhancing and assuring their powers? common men feel secure to-day in enterprises it needed men of genius to conceive in former times. and there is a literature--for all our faults we do write more widely, deeply, disinterestedly, more freely and frankly than any set of writers ever did before--reaching incalculable masses of readers, and embodying an amount of common consciousness and purpose beyond all precedent. consider only how nowadays the problems that were once the inaccessible thoughts of statesmen may be envisaged by common men! here am i really able, in a few weeks of observant work, to get a picture of america. i publish it. if it bears a likeness, it will live and be of use; if not it will die, and be no irreparable loss. some fragment, some suggestion may survive. my friend mr. f. madox hueffer was here a day or so ago to say good-bye; he starts for america as i write here, to get _his_ vision. as i have been writing these papers i have also been reading, instalment by instalment, the subtle, fine renderings of america revisited by mr. henry james. we work in shoals, great and small together, one trial thought following another. we are getting the world presented. it is not simply america that we swarm over and build up into a conceivable process, into something understandable and negotiable by the mind. i find on my desk here waiting for me a most illuminating _vision of india_, in which mr. sidney low, with a marvellous aptitude, has interpreted east to west. besides my poor superficialities in _the tribune_ appears sir william butler, with a livid frankness expounding the most intimate aspects of the south african situation. a friend who called to-day spoke of nevinson's raid upon the slave trade of portuguese east africa, and of two irrepressible writers upon the congo crimes. i have already mentioned the economic and social literature, the so-called literature of exposure in america. this altogether represents collectively a tremendous illumination. no social development was ever so lit and seen before. collectively, this literature of facts and theories and impressions is of immense importance. things are done in the light, more and more are they done in the light. the world perceives and thinks.... after all is said and done, i do find the balance of my mind tilts steadily to a belief in a continuing and accelerated progress now in human affairs. and in spite of my patriotic inclinations, in spite, too, of the present high intelligence and efficiency of germany, it seems to me that in america, by sheer virtue of its size, its free traditions, and the habit of initiative in its people, the leadership of progress must ultimately rest. things like the chicago scandals, the insurance scandals, and all the manifest crudities of the american spectacle, don't seem to me to be more than relatively trivial after all. there are the universities, the turbines of niagara, the new york architecture, and the quality of the mediocre people to set against these.... within a week after i saw the president i was on the _umbria_ and steaming slowly through the long spectacle of that harbor which was my first impression of america, which still, to my imagination, stands so largely for america. the crowded ferry-boats hooted past; athwart the shining water, tugs clamored to and fro. the sky-scrapers raised their slender masses heavenward--america's gay bunting lit the scene. as we dropped down i had a last glimpse of the brooklyn bridge. there to the right was ellis island, where the immigrants, minute by minute, drip and drip into america, and beyond that the tall spike-headed liberty with the reluctant torch, which i have sought to make the centre of all this writing. and suddenly as i looked back at the sky-scrapers of lower new york a queer fancy sprang into my head. they reminded me quite irresistibly of piled-up packing cases outside a warehouse. i was amazed i had not seen the resemblance before. i could really have believed for a moment that that was what they were, and that presently out of these would come the real thing, palaces and noble places, free, high circumstances, and space and leisure, light and fine living for the sons of men.... ocean, cities, multitudes, long journeys, mountains, lakes as large as seas, and the riddle of a nation's destiny; i've done my impertinent best now with this monstrous insoluble problem. i finish. the air is very warm and pleasant in my garden to-night, the sunset has left a rim of greenish-gold about the northward sky, shading up a blue that is, as yet, scarce pierced by any star. i write down these last words here, and then i shall step through the window and sit out there in the kindly twilight, now quiet, now gossiping idly of what so-and-so has done while i have been away, of personal motives and of little incidents and entertaining intimate things. the end the stolen bacillus and other incidents by h.g. wells author of "the time machine" methuen & co. essex street, strand london _colonial library_ to h.b. marriott watson most of the stories in this collection appeared originally in the _pall mall budget_, two were published in the _pall mall gazette_, and one in _st james's gazette_. i desire to make the usual acknowledgments. the third story in the book was, i find, reprinted by the _observatory_, and the "lord of the dynamos" by the melbourne _leader_. h.g. wells. contents i. the stolen bacillus ii. the flowering of the strange orchid iii. in the avu observatory iv. the triumphs of a taxidermist v. a deal in ostriches vi. through a window vii. the temptation of harringay viii. the flying man ix. the diamond maker x. aepyornis island xi. the remarkable case of davidson's eyes xii. the lord of the dynamos xiii. the hammerpond park burglary xiv. a moth--_genus novo_ xv. the treasure in the forest the stolen bacillus "this again," said the bacteriologist, slipping a glass slide under the microscope, "is a preparation of the celebrated bacillus of cholera--the cholera germ." the pale-faced man peered down the microscope. he was evidently not accustomed to that kind of thing, and held a limp white hand over his disengaged eye. "i see very little," he said. "touch this screw," said the bacteriologist; "perhaps the microscope is out of focus for you. eyes vary so much. just the fraction of a turn this way or that." "ah! now i see," said the visitor. "not so very much to see after all. little streaks and shreds of pink. and yet those little particles, those mere atomies, might multiply and devastate a city! wonderful!" he stood up, and releasing the glass slip from the microscope, held it in his hand towards the window. "scarcely visible," he said, scrutinising the preparation. he hesitated. "are these--alive? are they dangerous now?" "those have been stained and killed," said the bacteriologist. "i wish, for my own part, we could kill and stain every one of them in the universe." "i suppose," the pale man said with a slight smile, "that you scarcely care to have such things about you in the living--in the active state?" "on the contrary, we are obliged to," said the bacteriologist. "here, for instance--" he walked across the room and took up one of several sealed tubes. "here is the living thing. this is a cultivation of the actual living disease bacteria." he hesitated, "bottled cholera, so to speak." a slight gleam of satisfaction appeared momentarily in the face of the pale man. "it's a deadly thing to have in your possession," he said, devouring the little tube with his eyes. the bacteriologist watched the morbid pleasure in his visitor's expression. this man, who had visited him that afternoon with a note of introduction from an old friend, interested him from the very contrast of their dispositions. the lank black hair and deep grey eyes, the haggard expression and nervous manner, the fitful yet keen interest of his visitor were a novel change from the phlegmatic deliberations of the ordinary scientific worker with whom the bacteriologist chiefly associated. it was perhaps natural, with a hearer evidently so impressionable to the lethal nature of his topic, to take the most effective aspect of the matter. he held the tube in his hand thoughtfully. "yes, here is the pestilence imprisoned. only break such a little tube as this into a supply of drinking-water, say to these minute particles of life that one must needs stain and examine with the highest powers of the microscope even to see, and that one can neither smell nor taste--say to them, 'go forth, increase and multiply, and replenish the cisterns,' and death--mysterious, untraceable death, death swift and terrible, death full of pain and indignity--would be released upon this city, and go hither and thither seeking his victims. here he would take the husband from the wife, here the child from its mother, here the statesman from his duty, and here the toiler from his trouble. he would follow the water-mains, creeping along streets, picking out and punishing a house here and a house there where they did not boil their drinking-water, creeping into the wells of the mineral-water makers, getting washed into salad, and lying dormant in ices. he would wait ready to be drunk in the horse-troughs, and by unwary children in the public fountains. he would soak into the soil, to reappear in springs and wells at a thousand unexpected places. once start him at the water supply, and before we could ring him in, and catch him again, he would have decimated the metropolis." he stopped abruptly. he had been told rhetoric was his weakness. "but he is quite safe here, you know--quite safe." the pale-faced man nodded. his eyes shone. he cleared his throat. "these anarchist--rascals," said he, "are fools, blind fools--to use bombs when this kind of thing is attainable. i think--" a gentle rap, a mere light touch of the finger-nails was heard at the door. the bacteriologist opened it. "just a minute, dear," whispered his wife. when he re-entered the laboratory his visitor was looking at his watch. "i had no idea i had wasted an hour of your time," he said. "twelve minutes to four. i ought to have left here by half-past three. but your things were really too interesting. no, positively i cannot stop a moment longer. i have an engagement at four." he passed out of the room reiterating his thanks, and the bacteriologist accompanied him to the door, and then returned thoughtfully along the passage to his laboratory. he was musing on the ethnology of his visitor. certainly the man was not a teutonic type nor a common latin one. "a morbid product, anyhow, i am afraid," said the bacteriologist to himself. "how he gloated on those cultivations of disease-germs!" a disturbing thought struck him. he turned to the bench by the vapour-bath, and then very quickly to his writing-table. then he felt hastily in his pockets, and then rushed to the door. "i may have put it down on the hall table," he said. "minnie!" he shouted hoarsely in the hall. "yes, dear," came a remote voice. "had i anything in my hand when i spoke to you, dear, just now?" pause. "nothing, dear, because i remember--" "blue ruin!" cried the bacteriologist, and incontinently ran to the front door and down the steps of his house to the street. minnie, hearing the door slam violently, ran in alarm to the window. down the street a slender man was getting into a cab. the bacteriologist, hatless, and in his carpet slippers, was running and gesticulating wildly towards this group. one slipper came off, but he did not wait for it. "he has gone _mad_!" said minnie; "it's that horrid science of his"; and, opening the window, would have called after him. the slender man, suddenly glancing round, seemed struck with the same idea of mental disorder. he pointed hastily to the bacteriologist, said something to the cabman, the apron of the cab slammed, the whip swished, the horse's feet clattered, and in a moment cab, and bacteriologist hotly in pursuit, had receded up the vista of the roadway and disappeared round the corner. minnie remained straining out of the window for a minute. then she drew her head back into the room again. she was dumbfounded. "of course he is eccentric," she meditated. "but running about london--in the height of the season, too--in his socks!" a happy thought struck her. she hastily put her bonnet on, seized his shoes, went into the hall, took down his hat and light overcoat from the pegs, emerged upon the doorstep, and hailed a cab that opportunely crawled by. "drive me up the road and round havelock crescent, and see if we can find a gentleman running about in a velveteen coat and no hat." "velveteen coat, ma'am, and no 'at. very good, ma'am." and the cabman whipped up at once in the most matter-of-fact way, as if he drove to this address every day in his life. some few minutes later the little group of cabmen and loafers that collects round the cabmen's shelter at haverstock hill were startled by the passing of a cab with a ginger-coloured screw of a horse, driven furiously. they were silent as it went by, and then as it receded--"that's 'arry 'icks. wot's _he_ got?" said the stout gentleman known as old tootles. "he's a-using his whip, he is, _to_ rights," said the ostler boy. "hullo!" said poor old tommy byles; "here's another bloomin' loonatic. blowed if there aint." "it's old george," said old tootles, "and he's drivin' a loonatic, _as_ you say. aint he a-clawin' out of the keb? wonder if he's after 'arry 'icks?" the group round the cabmen's shelter became animated. chorus: "go it, george!" "it's a race." "you'll ketch 'em!" "whip up!" "she's a goer, she is!" said the ostler boy. "strike me giddy!" cried old tootles. "here! _i'm_ a-goin' to begin in a minute. here's another comin'. if all the kebs in hampstead aint gone mad this morning!" "it's a fieldmale this time," said the ostler boy. "she's a followin' _him_," said old tootles. "usually the other way about." "what's she got in her 'and?" "looks like a 'igh 'at." "what a bloomin' lark it is! three to one on old george," said the ostler boy. "nexst!" minnie went by in a perfect roar of applause. she did not like it but she felt that she was doing her duty, and whirled on down haverstock hill and camden town high street with her eyes ever intent on the animated back view of old george, who was driving her vagrant husband so incomprehensibly away from her. the man in the foremost cab sat crouched in the corner, his arms tightly folded, and the little tube that contained such vast possibilities of destruction gripped in his hand. his mood was a singular mixture of fear and exultation. chiefly he was afraid of being caught before he could accomplish his purpose, but behind this was a vaguer but larger fear of the awfulness of his crime. but his exultation far exceeded his fear. no anarchist before him had ever approached this conception of his. ravachol, vaillant, all those distinguished persons whose fame he had envied dwindled into insignificance beside him. he had only to make sure of the water supply, and break the little tube into a reservoir. how brilliantly he had planned it, forged the letter of introduction and got into the laboratory, and how brilliantly he had seized his opportunity! the world should hear of him at last. all those people who had sneered at him, neglected him, preferred other people to him, found his company undesirable, should consider him at last. death, death, death! they had always treated him as a man of no importance. all the world had been in a conspiracy to keep him under. he would teach them yet what it is to isolate a man. what was this familiar street? great saint andrew's street, of course! how fared the chase? he craned out of the cab. the bacteriologist was scarcely fifty yards behind. that was bad. he would be caught and stopped yet. he felt in his pocket for money, and found half-a-sovereign. this he thrust up through the trap in the top of the cab into the man's face. "more," he shouted, "if only we get away." the money was snatched out of his hand. "right you are," said the cabman, and the trap slammed, and the lash lay along the glistening side of the horse. the cab swayed, and the anarchist, half-standing under the trap, put the hand containing the little glass tube upon the apron to preserve his balance. he felt the brittle thing crack, and the broken half of it rang upon the floor of the cab. he fell back into the seat with a curse, and stared dismally at the two or three drops of moisture on the apron. he shuddered. "well! i suppose i shall be the first. _phew_! anyhow, i shall be a martyr. that's something. but it is a filthy death, nevertheless. i wonder if it hurts as much as they say." presently a thought occurred to him--he groped between his feet. a little drop was still in the broken end of the tube, and he drank that to make sure. it was better to make sure. at any rate, he would not fail. then it dawned upon him that there was no further need to escape the bacteriologist. in wellington street he told the cabman to stop, and got out. he slipped on the step, and his head felt queer. it was rapid stuff this cholera poison. he waved his cabman out of existence, so to speak, and stood on the pavement with his arms folded upon his breast awaiting the arrival of the bacteriologist. there was something tragic in his pose. the sense of imminent death gave him a certain dignity. he greeted his pursuer with a defiant laugh. "vive l'anarchie! you are too late, my friend. i have drunk it. the cholera is abroad!" the bacteriologist from his cab beamed curiously at him through his spectacles. "you have drunk it! an anarchist! i see now." he was about to say something more, and then checked himself. a smile hung in the corner of his mouth. he opened the apron of his cab as if to descend, at which the anarchist waved him a dramatic farewell and strode off towards waterloo bridge, carefully jostling his infected body against as many people as possible. the bacteriologist was so preoccupied with the vision of him that he scarcely manifested the slightest surprise at the appearance of minnie upon the pavement with his hat and shoes and overcoat. "very good of you to bring my things," he said, and remained lost in contemplation of the receding figure of the anarchist. "you had better get in," he said, still staring. minnie felt absolutely convinced now that he was mad, and directed the cabman home on her own responsibility. "put on my shoes? certainly dear," said he, as the cab began to turn, and hid the strutting black figure, now small in the distance, from his eyes. then suddenly something grotesque struck him, and he laughed. then he remarked, "it is really very serious, though." "you see, that man came to my house to see me, and he is an anarchist. no--don't faint, or i cannot possibly tell you the rest. and i wanted to astonish him, not knowing he was an anarchist, and took up a cultivation of that new species of bacterium i was telling you of, that infest, and i think cause, the blue patches upon various monkeys; and like a fool, i said it was asiatic cholera. and he ran away with it to poison the water of london, and he certainly might have made things look blue for this civilised city. and now he has swallowed it. of course, i cannot say what will happen, but you know it turned that kitten blue, and the three puppies--in patches, and the sparrow--bright blue. but the bother is, i shall have all the trouble and expense of preparing some more. "put on my coat on this hot day! why? because we might meet mrs jabber. my dear, mrs jabber is not a draught. but why should i wear a coat on a hot day because of mrs--. oh! _very_ well." the flowering of the strange orchid the buying of orchids always has in it a certain speculative flavour. you have before you the brown shrivelled lump of tissue, and for the rest you must trust your judgment, or the auctioneer, or your good-luck, as your taste may incline. the plant may be moribund or dead, or it may be just a respectable purchase, fair value for your money, or perhaps--for the thing has happened again and again--there slowly unfolds before the delighted eyes of the happy purchaser, day after day, some new variety, some novel richness, a strange twist of the labellum, or some subtler colouration or unexpected mimicry. pride, beauty, and profit blossom together on one delicate green spike, and, it may be, even immortality. for the new miracle of nature may stand in need of a new specific name, and what so convenient as that of its discoverer? "johnsmithia"! there have been worse names. it was perhaps the hope of some such happy discovery that made winter-wedderburn such a frequent attendant at these sales--that hope, and also, maybe, the fact that he had nothing else of the slightest interest to do in the world. he was a shy, lonely, rather ineffectual man, provided with just enough income to keep off the spur of necessity, and not enough nervous energy to make him seek any exacting employments. he might have collected stamps or coins, or translated horace, or bound books, or invented new species of diatoms. but, as it happened, he grew orchids, and had one ambitious little hothouse. "i have a fancy," he said over his coffee, "that something is going to happen to me to-day." he spoke--as he moved and thought--slowly. "oh, don't say _that_!" said his housekeeper--who was also his remote cousin. for "something happening" was a euphemism that meant only one thing to her. "you misunderstand me. i mean nothing unpleasant ... though what i do mean i scarcely know. "to-day," he continued, after a pause, "peters' are going to sell a batch of plants from the andamans and the indies. i shall go up and see what they have. it may be i shall buy something good, unawares. that may be it." he passed his cup for his second cupful of coffee. "are these the things collected by that poor young fellow you told me of the other day?" asked his cousin as she filled his cup. "yes," he said, and became meditative over a piece of toast. "nothing ever does happen to me," he remarked presently, beginning to think aloud. "i wonder why? things enough happen to other people. there is harvey. only the other week; on monday he picked up sixpence, on wednesday his chicks all had the staggers, on friday his cousin came home from australia, and on saturday he broke his ankle. what a whirl of excitement!--compared to me." "i think i would rather be without so much excitement," said his housekeeper. "it can't be good for you." "i suppose it's troublesome. still ... you see, nothing ever happens to me. when i was a little boy i never had accidents. i never fell in love as i grew up. never married.... i wonder how it feels to have something happen to you, something really remarkable. "that orchid-collector was only thirty-six--twenty years younger than myself--when he died. and he had been married twice and divorced once; he had had malarial fever four times, and once he broke his thigh. he killed a malay once, and once he was wounded by a poisoned dart. and in the end he was killed by jungle-leeches. it must have all been very troublesome, but then it must have been very interesting, you know--except, perhaps, the leeches." "i am sure it was not good for him," said the lady, with conviction. "perhaps not." and then wedderburn looked at his watch. "twenty-three minutes past eight. i am going up by the quarter to twelve train, so that there is plenty of time. i think i shall wear my alpaca jacket--it is quite warm enough--and my grey felt hat and brown shoes. i suppose--" he glanced out of the window at the serene sky and sunlit garden, and then nervously at his cousin's face. "i think you had better take an umbrella if you are going to london," she said in a voice that admitted of no denial. "there's all between here and the station coming back." when he returned he was in a state of mild excitement. he had made a purchase. it was rare that he could make up his mind quickly enough to buy, but this time he had done so. "there are vandas," he said, "and a dendrobe and some palaeonophis." he surveyed his purchases lovingly as he consumed his soup. they were laid out on the spotless tablecloth before him, and he was telling his cousin all about them as he slowly meandered through his dinner. it was his custom to live all his visits to london over again in the evening for her and his own entertainment. "i knew something would happen to-day. and i have bought all these. some of them--some of them--i feel sure, do you know, that some of them will be remarkable. i don't know how it is, but i feel just as sure as if someone had told me that some of these will turn out remarkable. "that one"--he pointed to a shrivelled rhizome--"was not identified. it may be a palaeonophis--or it may not. it may be a new species, or even a new genus. and it was the last that poor batten ever collected." "i don't like the look of it," said his housekeeper. "it's such an ugly shape." "to me it scarcely seems to have a shape." "i don't like those things that stick out," said his housekeeper. "it shall be put away in a pot to-morrow." "it looks," said the housekeeper, "like a spider shamming dead." wedderburn smiled and surveyed the root with his head on one side. "it is certainly not a pretty lump of stuff. but you can never judge of these things from their dry appearance. it may turn out to be a very beautiful orchid indeed. how busy i shall be to-morrow! i must see to-night just exactly what to do with these things, and to-morrow i shall set to work." "they found poor batten lying dead, or dying, in a mangrove swamp--i forget which," he began again presently, "with one of these very orchids crushed up under his body. he had been unwell for some days with some kind of native fever, and i suppose he fainted. these mangrove swamps are very unwholesome. every drop of blood, they say, was taken out of him by the jungle-leeches. it may be that very plant that cost him his life to obtain." "i think none the better of it for that." "men must work though women may weep," said wedderburn with profound gravity. "fancy dying away from every comfort in a nasty swamp! fancy being ill of fever with nothing to take but chlorodyne and quinine--if men were left to themselves they would live on chlorodyne and quinine--and no one round you but horrible natives! they say the andaman islanders are most disgusting wretches--and, anyhow, they can scarcely make good nurses, not having the necessary training. and just for people in england to have orchids!" "i don't suppose it was comfortable, but some men seem to enjoy that kind of thing," said wedderburn. "anyhow, the natives of his party were sufficiently civilised to take care of all his collection until his colleague, who was an ornithologist, came back again from the interior; though they could not tell the species of the orchid and had let it wither. and it makes these things more interesting." "it makes them disgusting. i should be afraid of some of the malaria clinging to them. and just think, there has been a dead body lying across that ugly thing! i never thought of that before. there! i declare i cannot eat another mouthful of dinner." "i will take them off the table if you like, and put them in the window-seat. i can see them just as well there." the next few days he was indeed singularly busy in his steamy little hothouse, fussing about with charcoal, lumps of teak, moss, and all the other mysteries of the orchid cultivator. he considered he was having a wonderfully eventful time. in the evening he would talk about these new orchids to his friends, and over and over again he reverted to his expectation of something strange. several of the vandas and the dendrobium died under his care, but presently the strange orchid began to show signs of life. he was delighted and took his housekeeper right away from jam-making to see it at once, directly he made the discovery. "that is a bud," he said, "and presently there will be a lot of leaves there, and those little things coming out here are aërial rootlets." "they look to me like little white fingers poking out of the brown," said his housekeeper. "i don't like them." "why not?" "i don't know. they look like fingers trying to get at you. i can't help my likes and dislikes." "i don't know for certain, but i don't _think_ there are any orchids i know that have aërial rootlets quite like that. it may be my fancy, of course. you see they are a little flattened at the ends." "i don't like 'em," said his housekeeper, suddenly shivering and turning away. "i know it's very silly of me--and i'm very sorry, particularly as you like the thing so much. but i can't help thinking of that corpse." "but it may not be that particular plant. that was merely a guess of mine." his housekeeper shrugged her shoulders. "anyhow i don't like it," she said. wedderburn felt a little hurt at her dislike to the plant. but that did not prevent his talking to her about orchids generally, and this orchid in particular, whenever he felt inclined. "there are such queer things about orchids," he said one day; "such possibilities of surprises. you know, darwin studied their fertilisation, and showed that the whole structure of an ordinary orchid-flower was contrived in order that moths might carry the pollen from plant to plant. well, it seems that there are lots of orchids known the flower of which cannot possibly be used for fertilisation in that way. some of the cypripediums, for instance; there are no insects known that can possibly fertilise them, and some of them have never be found with seed." "but how do they form new plants?" "by runners and tubers, and that kind of outgrowth. that is easily explained. the puzzle is, what are the flowers for? "very likely," he added, "_my_ orchid may be something extraordinary in that way. if so i shall study it. i have often thought of making researches as darwin did. but hitherto i have not found the time, or something else has happened to prevent it. the leaves are beginning to unfold now. i do wish you would come and see them!" but she said that the orchid-house was so hot it gave her the headache. she had seen the plant once again, and the aërial rootlets, which were now some of them more than a foot long, had unfortunately reminded her of tentacles reaching out after something; and they got into her dreams, growing after her with incredible rapidity. so that she had settled to her entire satisfaction that she would not see that plant again, and wedderburn had to admire its leaves alone. they were of the ordinary broad form, and a deep glossy green, with splashes and dots of deep red towards the base. he knew of no other leaves quite like them. the plant was placed on a low bench near the thermometer, and close by was a simple arrangement by which a tap dripped on the hot-water pipes and kept the air steamy. and he spent his afternoons now with some regularity meditating on the approaching flowering of this strange plant. and at last the great thing happened. directly he entered the little glass house he knew that the spike had burst out, although his great _palaeonophis lowii_ hid the corner where his new darling stood. there was a new odour in the air, a rich, intensely sweet scent, that overpowered every other in that crowded, steaming little greenhouse. directly he noticed this he hurried down to the strange orchid. and, behold! the trailing green spikes bore now three great splashes of blossom, from which this overpowering sweetness proceeded. he stopped before them in an ecstasy of admiration. the flowers were white, with streaks of golden orange upon the petals; the heavy labellum was coiled into an intricate projection, and a wonderful bluish purple mingled there with the gold. he could see at once that the genus was altogether a new one. and the insufferable scent! how hot the place was! the blossoms swam before his eyes. he would see if the temperature was right. he made a step towards the thermometer. suddenly everything appeared unsteady. the bricks on the floor were dancing up and down. then the white blossoms, the green leaves behind them, the whole greenhouse, seemed to sweep sideways, and then in a curve upward. * * * * * at half-past four his cousin made the tea, according to their invariable custom. but wedderburn did not come in for his tea. "he is worshipping that horrid orchid," she told herself, and waited ten minutes. "his watch must have stopped. i will go and call him." she went straight to the hothouse, and, opening the door, called his name. there was no reply. she noticed that the air was very close, and loaded with an intense perfume. then she saw something lying on the bricks between the hot-water pipes. for a minute, perhaps, she stood motionless. he was lying, face upward, at the foot of the strange orchid. the tentacle-like aërial rootlets no longer swayed freely in the air, but were crowded together, a tangle of grey ropes, and stretched tight with their ends closely applied to his chin and neck and hands. she did not understand. then she saw from under one of the exultant tentacles upon his cheek there trickled a little thread of blood. with an inarticulate cry she ran towards him, and tried to pull him away from the leech-like suckers. she snapped two of these tentacles, and their sap dripped red. then the overpowering scent of the blossom began to make her head reel. how they clung to him! she tore at the tough ropes, and he and the white inflorescence swam about her. she felt she was fainting, knew she must not. she left him and hastily opened the nearest door, and, after she had panted for a moment in the fresh air, she had a brilliant inspiration. she caught up a flower-pot and smashed in the windows at the end of the green-house. then she re-entered. she tugged now with renewed strength at wedderburn's motionless body, and brought the strange orchid crashing to the floor. it still clung with the grimmest tenacity to its victim. in a frenzy, she lugged it and him into the open air. then she thought of tearing through the sucker rootlets one by one, and in another minute she had released him and was dragging him away from the horror. he was white and bleeding from a dozen circular patches. the odd-job man was coming up the garden, amazed at the smashing of glass, and saw her emerge, hauling the inanimate body with red-stained hands. for a moment he thought impossible things. "bring some water!" she cried, and her voice dispelled his fancies. when, with unnatural alacrity, he returned with the water, he found her weeping with excitement, and with wedderburn's head upon her knee, wiping the blood from his face. "what's the matter?" said wedderburn, opening his eyes feebly, and closing them again at once. "go and tell annie to come out here to me, and then go for doctor haddon at once," she said to the odd-job man so soon as he brought the water; and added, seeing he hesitated, "i will tell you all about it when you come back." presently wedderburn opened his eyes again, and, seeing that he was troubled by the puzzle of his position, she explained to him, "you fainted in the hothouse." "and the orchid?" "i will see to that," she said. wedderburn had lost a good deal of blood, but beyond that he had suffered no very great injury. they gave him brandy mixed with some pink extract of meat, and carried him upstairs to bed. his housekeeper told her incredible story in fragments to dr haddon. "come to the orchid-house and see," she said. the cold outer air was blowing in through the open door, and the sickly perfume was almost dispelled. most of the torn aërial rootlets lay already withered amidst a number of dark stains upon the bricks. the stem of the inflorescence was broken by the fall of the plant, and the flowers were growing limp and brown at the edges of the petals. the doctor stooped towards it, then saw that one of the aërial rootlets still stirred feebly, and hesitated. the next morning the strange orchid still lay there, black now and putrescent. the door banged intermittently in the morning breeze, and all the array of wedderburn's orchids was shrivelled and prostrate. but wedderburn himself was bright and garrulous upstairs in the glory of his strange adventure. in the avu observatory the observatory at avu, in borneo, stands on the spur of the mountain. to the north rises the old crater, black at night against the unfathomable blue of the sky. from the little circular building, with its mushroom dome, the slopes plunge steeply downward into the black mysteries of the tropical forest beneath. the little house in which the observer and his assistant live is about fifty yards from the observatory, and beyond this are the huts of their native attendants. thaddy, the chief observer, was down with a slight fever. his assistant, woodhouse, paused for a moment in silent contemplation of the tropical night before commencing his solitary vigil. the night was very still. now and then voices and laughter came from the native huts, or the cry of some strange animal was heard from the midst of the mystery of the forest. nocturnal insects appeared in ghostly fashion out of the darkness, and fluttered round his light. he thought, perhaps, of all the possibilities of discovery that still lay in the black tangle beneath him; for to the naturalist the virgin forests of borneo are still a wonderland full of strange questions and half-suspected discoveries. woodhouse carried a small lantern in his hand, and its yellow glow contrasted vividly with the infinite series of tints between lavender-blue and black in which the landscape was painted. his hands and face were smeared with ointment against the attacks of the mosquitoes. even in these days of celestial photography, work done in a purely temporary erection, and with only the most primitive appliances in addition to the telescope, still involves a very large amount of cramped and motionless watching. he sighed as he thought of the physical fatigues before him, stretched himself, and entered the observatory. the reader is probably familiar with the structure of an ordinary astronomical observatory. the building is usually cylindrical in shape, with a very light hemispherical roof capable of being turned round from the interior. the telescope is supported upon a stone pillar in the centre, and a clockwork arrangement compensates for the earth's rotation, and allows a star once found to be continuously observed. besides this, there is a compact tracery of wheels and screws about its point of support, by which the astronomer adjusts it. there is, of course, a slit in the movable roof which follows the eye of the telescope in its survey of the heavens. the observer sits or lies on a sloping wooden arrangement, which he can wheel to any part of the observatory as the position of the telescope may require. within it is advisable to have things as dark as possible, in order to enhance the brilliance of the stars observed. the lantern flared as woodhouse entered his circular den, and the general darkness fled into black shadows behind the big machine, from which it presently seemed to creep back over the whole place again as the light waned. the slit was a profound transparent blue, in which six stars shone with tropical brilliance, and their light lay, a pallid gleam, along the black tube of the instrument. woodhouse shifted the roof, and then proceeding to the telescope, turned first one wheel and then another, the great cylinder slowly swinging into a new position. then he glanced through the finder, the little companion telescope, moved the roof a little more, made some further adjustments, and set the clockwork in motion. he took off his jacket, for the night was very hot, and pushed into position the uncomfortable seat to which he was condemned for the next four hours. then with a sigh he resigned himself to his watch upon the mysteries of space. there was no sound now in the observatory, and the lantern waned steadily. outside there was the occasional cry of some animal in alarm or pain, or calling to its mate, and the intermittent sounds of the malay and dyak servants. presently one of the men began a queer chanting song, in which the others joined at intervals. after this it would seem that they turned in for the night, for no further sound came from their direction, and the whispering stillness became more and more profound. the clockwork ticked steadily. the shrill hum of a mosquito explored the place and grew shriller in indignation at woodhouse's ointment. then the lantern went out and all the observatory was black. woodhouse shifted his position presently, when the slow movement of the telescope had carried it beyond the limits of his comfort. he was watching a little group of stars in the milky way, in one of which his chief had seen or fancied a remarkable colour variability. it was not a part of the regular work for which the establishment existed, and for that reason perhaps woodhouse was deeply interested. he must have forgotten things terrestrial. all his attention was concentrated upon the great blue circle of the telescope field--a circle powdered, so it seemed, with an innumerable multitude of stars, and all luminous against the blackness of its setting. as he watched he seemed to himself to become incorporeal, as if he too were floating in the ether of space. infinitely remote was the faint red spot he was observing. suddenly the stars were blotted out. a flash of blackness passed, and they were visible again. "queer," said woodhouse. "must have been a bird." the thing happened again, and immediately after the great tube shivered as though it had been struck. then the dome of the observatory resounded with a series of thundering blows. the stars seemed to sweep aside as the telescope--which had been undamped--swung round and away from the slit in the roof. "great scott!" cried woodhouse. "what's this?" some huge vague black shape, with a flapping something like a wing, seemed to be struggling in the aperture of the roof. in another moment the slit was clear again, and the luminous haze of the milky way shone warm and bright. the interior of the roof was perfectly black, and only a scraping sound marked the whereabouts of the unknown creature. woodhouse had scrambled from the seat to his feet. he was trembling violently and in a perspiration with the suddenness of the occurrence. was the thing, whatever it was, inside or out? it was big, whatever else it might be. something shot across the skylight, and the telescope swayed. he started violently and put his arm up. it was in the observatory, then, with him. it was clinging to the roof, apparently. what the devil was it? could it see him? he stood for perhaps a minute in a state of stupefaction. the beast, whatever it was, clawed at the interior of the dome, and then something flapped almost into his face, and he saw the momentary gleam of starlight on a skin like oiled leather. his water-bottle was knocked off his little table with a smash. the sense of some strange bird-creature hovering a few yards from his face in the darkness was indescribably unpleasant to woodhouse. as his thought returned he concluded that it must be some night-bird or large bat. at any risk he would see what it was, and pulling a match from his pocket, he tried to strike it on the telescope seat. there was a smoking streak of phosphorescent light, the match flared for a moment, and he saw a vast wing sweeping towards him, a gleam of grey-brown fur, and then he was struck in the face and the match knocked out of his hand. the blow was aimed at his temple, and a claw tore sideways down to his cheek. he reeled and fell, and he heard the extinguished lantern smash. another blow followed as he fell. he was partly stunned, he felt his own warm blood stream out upon his face. instinctively he felt his eyes had been struck at, and, turning over on his face to protect them, tried to crawl under the protection of the telescope. he was struck again upon the back, and he heard his jacket rip, and then the thing hit the roof of the observatory. he edged as far as he could between the wooden seat and the eyepiece of the instrument, and turned his body round so that it was chiefly his feet that were exposed. with these he could at least kick. he was still in a mystified state. the strange beast banged about in the darkness, and presently clung to the telescope, making it sway and the gear rattle. once it flapped near him, and he kicked out madly and felt a soft body with his feet. he was horribly scared now. it must be a big thing to swing the telescope like that. he saw for a moment the outline of a head black against the starlight, with sharply-pointed upstanding ears and a crest between them. it seemed to him to be as big as a mastiff's. then he began to bawl out as loudly as he could for help. at that the thing came down upon him again. as it did so his hand touched something beside him on the floor. he kicked out, and the next moment his ankle was gripped and held by a row of keen teeth. he yelled again, and tried to free his leg by kicking with the other. then he realised he had the broken water-bottle at his hand, and, snatching it, he struggled into a sitting posture, and feeling in the darkness towards his foot, gripped a velvety ear, like the ear of a big cat. he had seized the water-bottle by its neck and brought it down with a shivering crash upon the head of the strange beast. he repeated the blow, and then stabbed and jobbed with the jagged end of it, in the darkness, where he judged the face might be. the small teeth relaxed their hold, and at once woodhouse pulled his leg free and kicked hard. he felt the sickening feel of fur and bone giving under his boot. there was a tearing bite at his arm, and he struck over it at the face, as he judged, and hit damp fur. there was a pause; then he heard the sound of claws and the dragging of a heavy body away from him over the observatory floor. then there was silence, broken only by his own sobbing breathing, and a sound like licking. everything was black except the parallelogram of the blue skylight with the luminous dust of stars, against which the end of the telescope now appeared in silhouette. he waited, as it seemed, an interminable time. was the thing coming on again? he felt in his trouser-pocket for some matches, and found one remaining. he tried to strike this, but the floor was wet, and it spat and went out. he cursed. he could not see where the door was situated. in his struggle he had quite lost his bearings. the strange beast, disturbed by the splutter of the match, began to move again. "time!" called woodhouse, with a sudden gleam of mirth, but the thing was not coming at him again. he must have hurt it, he thought, with the broken bottle. he felt a dull pain in his ankle. probably he was bleeding there. he wondered if it would support him if he tried to stand up. the night outside was very still. there was no sound of any one moving. the sleepy fools had not heard those wings battering upon the dome, nor his shouts. it was no good wasting strength in shouting. the monster flapped its wings and startled him into a defensive attitude. he hit his elbow against the seat, and it fell over with a crash. he cursed this, and then he cursed the darkness. suddenly the oblong patch of starlight seemed to sway to and fro. was he going to faint? it would never do to faint. he clenched his fists and set his teeth to hold himself together. where had the door got to? it occurred to him he could get his bearings by the stars visible through the skylight. the patch of stars he saw was in sagittarius and south-eastward; the door was north--or was it north by west? he tried to think. if he could get the door open he might retreat. it might be the thing was wounded. the suspense was beastly. "look here!" he said, "if you don't come on, i shall come at you." then the thing began clambering up the side of the observatory, and he saw its black outline gradually blot out the skylight. was it in retreat? he forgot about the door, and watched as the dome shifted and creaked. somehow he did not feel very frightened or excited now. he felt a curious sinking sensation inside him. the sharply-defined patch of light, with the black form moving across it, seemed to be growing smaller and smaller. that was curious. he began to feel very thirsty, and yet he did not feel inclined to get anything to drink. he seemed to be sliding down a long funnel. he felt a burning sensation in his throat, and then he perceived it was broad daylight, and that one of the dyak servants was looking at him with a curious expression. then there was the top of thaddy's face upside down. funny fellow, thaddy, to go about like that! then he grasped the situation better, and perceived that his head was on thaddy's knee, and thaddy was giving him brandy. and then he saw the eyepiece of the telescope with a lot of red smears on it. he began to remember. "you've made this observatory in a pretty mess," said thaddy. the dyak boy was beating up an egg in brandy. woodhouse took this and sat up. he felt a sharp twinge of pain. his ankle was tied up, so were his arm and the side of his face. the smashed glass, red-stained, lay about the floor, the telescope seat was overturned, and by the opposite wall was a dark pool. the door was open, and he saw the grey summit of the mountain against a brilliant background of blue sky. "pah!" said woodhouse. "who's been killing calves here? take me out of it." then he remembered the thing, and the fight he had had with it. "what _was_ it?" he said to thaddy--"the thing i fought with?" "_you_ know that best," said thaddy. "but, anyhow, don't worry yourself now about it. have some more to drink." thaddy, however, was curious enough, and it was a hard struggle between duty and inclination to keep woodhouse quiet until he was decently put away in bed, and had slept upon the copious dose of meat-extract thaddy considered advisable. they then talked it over together. "it was," said woodhouse, "more like a big bat than anything else in the world. it had sharp, short ears, and soft fur, and its wings were leathery. its teeth were little, but devilish sharp, and its jaw could not have been very strong or else it would have bitten through my ankle." "it has pretty nearly," said thaddy. "it seemed to me to hit out with its claws pretty freely. that is about as much as i know about the beast. our conversation was intimate, so to speak, and yet not confidential." "the dyak chaps talk about a big colugo, a klang-utang--whatever that may be. it does not often attack man, but i suppose you made it nervous. they say there is a big colugo and a little colugo, and a something else that sounds like gobble. they all fly about at night. for my own part i know there are flying foxes and flying lemurs about here, but they are none of them very big beasts." "there are more things in heaven and earth," said woodhouse--and thaddy groaned at the quotation--"and more particularly in the forests of borneo, than are dreamt of in our philosophies. on the whole, if the borneo fauna is going to disgorge any more of its novelties upon me, i should prefer that it did so when i was not occupied in the observatory at night and alone." the triumphs of a taxidermist here are some of the secrets of taxidermy. they were told me by the taxidermist in a mood of elation. he told me them in the time between the first glass of whisky and the fourth, when a man is no longer cautious and yet not drunk. we sat in his den together; his library it was, his sitting and his eating-room--separated by a bead curtain, so far as the sense of sight went, from the noisome den where he plied his trade. he sat on a deck chair, and when he was not tapping refractory bits of coal with them, he kept his feet--on which he wore, after the manner of sandals, the holy relics of a pair of carpet slippers--out of the way upon the mantel-piece, among the glass eyes. and his trousers, by-the-by--though they have nothing to do with his triumphs--were a most horrible yellow plaid, such as they made when our fathers wore side-whiskers and there were crinolines in the land. further, his hair was black, his face rosy, and his eye a fiery brown; and his coat was chiefly of grease upon a basis of velveteen. and his pipe had a bowl of china showing the graces, and his spectacles were always askew, the left eye glaring nakedly at you, small and penetrating; the right, seen through a glass darkly, magnified and mild. thus his discourse ran: "there never was a man who could stuff like me, bellows, never. i have stuffed elephants and i have stuffed moths, and the things have looked all the livelier and better for it. and i have stuffed human beings--chiefly amateur ornithologists. but i stuffed a nigger once. "no, there is no law against it. i made him with all his fingers out and used him as a hat-rack, but that fool homersby got up a quarrel with him late one night and spoilt him. that was before your time. it is hard to get skins, or i would have another. "unpleasant? i don't see it. seems to me taxidermy is a promising third course to burial or cremation. you could keep all your dear ones by you. bric-à-brac of that sort stuck about the house would be as good as most company, and much less expensive. you might have them fitted up with clockwork to do things. "of course they would have to be varnished, but they need not shine more than lots of people do naturally. old manningtree's bald head.... anyhow, you could talk to them without interruption. even aunts. there is a great future before taxidermy, depend upon it. there is fossils again...." he suddenly became silent. "no, i don't think i ought to tell you that." he sucked at his pipe thoughtfully. "thanks, yes. not too much water. "of course, what i tell you now will go no further. you know i have made some dodos and a great auk? no! evidently you are an amateur at taxidermy. my dear fellow, half the great auks in the world are about as genuine as the handkerchief of saint veronica, as the holy coat of treves. we make 'em of grebes' feathers and the like. and the great auk's eggs too!" "good heavens!" "yes, we make them out of fine porcelain. i tell you it is worth while. they fetch--one fetched £ only the other day. that one was really genuine, i believe, but of course one is never certain. it is very fine work, and afterwards you have to get them dusty, for no one who owns one of these precious eggs has ever the temerity to clean the thing. that's the beauty of the business. even if they suspect an egg they do not like to examine it too closely. it's such brittle capital at the best. "you did not know that taxidermy rose to heights like that. my boy, it has risen higher. i have rivalled the hands of nature herself. one of the _genuine_ great auks"--his voice fell to a whisper--one of the _genuine_ great auks _was made by me_." "no. you must study ornithology, and find out which it is yourself. and what is more, i have been approached by a syndicate of dealers to stock one of the unexplored skerries to the north of iceland with specimens. i may--some day. but i have another little thing in hand just now. ever heard of the dinornis? "it is one of those big birds recently extinct in new zealand. 'moa' is its common name, so called because extinct: there is no moa now. see? well, they have got bones of it, and from some of the marshes even feathers and dried bits of skin. now, i am going to--well, there is no need to make any bones about it--going to _forge_ a complete stuffed moa. i know a chap out there who will pretend to make the find in a kind of antiseptic swamp, and say he stuffed it at once, as it threatened to fall to pieces. the feathers are peculiar, but i have got a simply lovely way of dodging up singed bits of ostrich plume. yes, that is the new smell you noticed. they can only discover the fraud with a microscope, and they will hardly care to pull a nice specimen to bits for that. "in this way, you see, i give my little push in the advancement of science. "but all this is merely imitating nature. i have done more than that in my time. i have--beaten her." he took his feet down from the mantel-board, and leant over confidentially towards me. "i have _created_ birds," he said in a low voice. "_new_ birds. improvements. like no birds that was ever seen before." he resumed his attitude during an impressive silence. "enrich the universe; _rath_-er. some of the birds i made were new kinds of humming birds, and very beautiful little things, but some of them were simply rum. the rummest, i think, was the _anomalopteryx jejuna. jejunus-a-um_--empty--so called because there was really nothing in it; a thoroughly empty bird--except for stuffing. old javvers has the thing now, and i suppose he is almost as proud of it as i am. it is a masterpiece, bellows. it has all the silly clumsiness of your pelican, all the solemn want of dignity of your parrot, all the gaunt ungainliness of a flamingo, with all the extravagant chromatic conflict of a mandarin duck. _such_ a bird. i made it out of the skeletons of a stork and a toucan and a job lot of feathers. taxidermy of that kind is just pure joy, bellows, to a real artist in the art. "how did i come to make it? simple enough, as all great inventions are. one of those young genii who write us science notes in the papers got hold of a german pamphlet about the birds of new zealand, and translated some of it by means of a dictionary and his mother-wit--he must have been one of a very large family with a small mother--and he got mixed between the living apteryx and the extinct anomalopteryx; talked about a bird five feet high, living in the jungles of the north island, rare, shy, specimens difficult to obtain, and so on. javvers, who even for a collector, is a miraculously ignorant man, read these paragraphs, and swore he would have the thing at any price. raided the dealers with enquiries. it shows what a man can do by persistence--will-power. here was a bird-collector swearing he would have a specimen of a bird that did not exist, that never had existed, and which for very shame of its own profane ungainliness, probably would not exist now if it could help itself. and he got it. _he got it_." "have some more whisky, bellows?" said the taxidermist, rousing himself from a transient contemplation of the mysteries of will-power and the collecting turn of mind. and, replenished, he proceeded to tell me of how he concocted a most attractive mermaid, and how an itinerant preacher, who could not get an audience because of it, smashed it because it was idolatry, or worse, at burslem wakes. but as the conversation of all the parties to this transaction, creator, would-be preserver, and destroyer, was uniformly unfit for publication, this cheerful incident must still remain unprinted. the reader unacquainted with the dark ways of the collector may perhaps be inclined to doubt my taxidermist, but so far as great auks' eggs, and the bogus stuffed birds are concerned, i find that he has the confirmation of distinguished ornithological writers. and the note about the new zealand bird certainly appeared in a morning paper of unblemished reputation, for the taxidermist keeps a copy and has shown it to me. a deal in ostriches "talking of the prices of birds, i've seen an ostrich that cost three hundred pounds," said the taxidermist, recalling his youth of travel. "three hundred pounds!" he looked at me over his spectacles. "i've seen another that was refused at four." "no," he said, "it wasn't any fancy points. they was just plain ostriches. a little off colour, too--owing to dietary. and there wasn't any particular restriction of the demand either. you'd have thought five ostriches would have ruled cheap on an east indiaman. but the point was, one of 'em had swallowed a diamond. "the chap it got it off was sir mohini padishah, a tremendous swell, a piccadilly swell you might say up to the neck of him, and then an ugly black head and a whopping turban, with this diamond in it. the blessed bird pecked suddenly and had it, and when the chap made a fuss it realised it had done wrong, i suppose, and went and mixed itself with the others to preserve its _incog_. it all happened in a minute. i was among the first to arrive, and there was this heathen going over his gods, and two sailors and the man who had charge of the birds laughing fit to split. it was a rummy way of losing a jewel, come to think of it. the man in charge hadn't been about just at the moment, so that he didn't know which bird it was. clean lost, you see. i didn't feel half sorry, to tell you the truth. the beggar had been swaggering over his blessed diamond ever since he came aboard. "a thing like that goes from stem to stern of a ship in no time. every one was talking about it. padishah went below to hide his feelings. at dinner--he pigged at a table by himself, him and two other hindoos--the captain kind of jeered at him about it, and he got very excited. he turned round and talked into my ear. he would not buy the birds; he would have his diamond. he demanded his rights as a british subject. his diamond must be found. he was firm upon that. he would appeal to the house of lords. the man in charge of the birds was one of those wooden-headed chaps you can't get a new idea into anyhow. he refused any proposal to interfere with the birds by way of medicine. his instructions were to feed them so-and-so and treat them so-and-so, and it was as much as his place was worth not to feed them so-and-so and treat them so-and-so. padishah had wanted a stomach-pump--though you can't do that to a bird, you know. this padishah was full of bad law, like most of these blessed bengalis, and talked of having a lien on the birds, and so forth. but an old boy, who said his son was a london barrister, argued that what a bird swallowed became _ipso facto_ part of the bird, and that padishah's only remedy lay in an action for damages, and even then it might be possible to show contributory negligence. he hadn't any right of way about an ostrich that didn't belong to him. that upset padishah extremely, the more so as most of us expressed an opinion that that was the reasonable view. there wasn't any lawyer aboard to settle the matter, so we all talked pretty free. at last, after aden, it appears that he came round to the general opinion, and went privately to the man in charge and made an offer for all five ostriches. "the next morning there was a fine shindy at breakfast. the man hadn't any authority to deal with the birds, and nothing on earth would induce him to sell; but it seems he told padishah that a eurasian named potter had already made him an offer, and on that padishah denounced potter before us all. but i think the most of us thought it rather smart of potter, and i know that when potter said that he'd wired at aden to london to buy the birds, and would have an answer at suez, i cursed pretty richly at a lost opportunity. "at suez, padishah gave way to tears--actual wet tears--when potter became the owner of the birds, and offered him two hundred and fifty right off for the five, being more than two hundred per cent. on what potter had given. potter said he'd be hanged if he parted with a feather of them--that he meant to kill them off one by one and find the diamond; but afterwards, thinking it over, he relented a little. he was a gambling hound, was this potter, a little queer at cards, and this kind of prize-packet business must have suited him down to the ground. anyhow, he offered, for a lark, to sell the birds separately to separate people by auction at a starting price of £ for a bird. but one of them, he said, he meant to keep for luck. "you must understand this diamond was a valuable one--a little jew chap, a diamond merchant, who was with us, had put it at three or four thousand when padishah had shown it to him--and this idea of an ostrich gamble caught on. now it happened that i'd been having a few talks on general subjects with the man who looked after these ostriches, and quite incidentally he'd said one of the birds was ailing, and he fancied it had indigestion. it had one feather in its tail almost all white, by which i knew it, and so when, next day, the auction started with it, i capped padishah's eighty-five by ninety. i fancy i was a bit too sure and eager with my bid, and some of the others spotted the fact that i was in the know. and padishah went for that particular bird like an irresponsible lunatic. at last the jew diamond merchant got it for £ , and padishah said £ just after the hammer came down--so potter declared. at any rate the jew merchant secured it, and there and then he got a gun and shot it. potter made a hades of a fuss because he said it would injure the sale of the other three, and padishah, of course, behaved like an idiot; but all of us were very much excited. i can tell you i was precious glad when that dissection was over, and no diamond had turned up--precious glad. i'd gone to one-forty on that particular bird myself. "the little jew was like most jews--he didn't make any great fuss over bad luck; but potter declined to go on with the auction until it was understood that the goods could not be delivered until the sale was over. the little jew wanted to argue that the case was exceptional, and as the discussion ran pretty even, the thing was postponed until the next morning. we had a lively dinner-table that evening, i can tell you, but in the end potter got his way, since it would stand to reason he would be safer if he stuck to all the birds, and that we owed him some consideration for his sportsmanlike behaviour. and the old gentleman whose son was a lawyer said he'd been thinking the thing over and that it was very doubtful if, when a bird had been opened and the diamond recovered, it ought not to be handed back to the proper owner. i remember i suggested it came under the laws of treasure-trove--which was really the truth of the matter. there was a hot argument, and we settled it was certainly foolish to kill the bird on board the ship. then the old gentleman, going at large through his legal talk, tried to make out the sale was a lottery and illegal, and appealed to the captain; but potter said he sold the birds _as_ ostriches. he didn't want to sell any diamonds, he said, and didn't offer that as an inducement. the three birds he put up, to the best of his knowledge and belief, did _not_ contain a diamond. it was in the one he kept--so he hoped. "prices ruled high next day all the same. the fact that now there were four chances instead of five of course caused a rise. the blessed birds averaged , and, oddly enough, this padishah didn't secure one of 'em--not one. he made too much shindy, and when he ought to have been bidding he was talking about liens, and, besides, potter was a bit down on him. one fell to a quiet little officer chap, another to the little jew, and the third was syndicated by the engineers. and then potter seemed suddenly sorry for having sold them, and said he'd flung away a clear thousand pounds, and that very likely he'd draw a blank and that he always had been a fool, but when i went and had a bit of a talk to him, with the idea of getting him to hedge on his last chance, i found he'd already sold the bird he'd reserved to a political chap that was on board, a chap who'd been studying indian morals and social questions in his vacation. that last was the three hundred pounds bird. well, they landed three of the blessed creatures at brindisi--though the old gentleman said it was a breach of the customs regulations--and potter and padishah landed too. the hindoo seemed half mad as he saw his blessed diamond going this way and that, so to speak. he kept on saying he'd get an injunction--he had injunction on the brain--and giving his name and address to the chaps who'd bought the birds, so that they'd know where to send the diamond. none of them wanted his name and address, and none of them would give their own. it was a fine row i can tell you--on the platform. they all went off by different trains. i came on to southampton, and there i saw the last of the birds, as i came ashore; it was the one the engineers bought, and it was standing up near the bridge, in a kind of crate, and looking as leggy and silly a setting for a valuable diamond as ever you saw--if it _was_ a setting for a valuable diamond. "_how did it end_? oh! like that. well--perhaps. yes, there's one more thing that may throw light on it. a week or so after landing i was down regent-street doing a bit of shopping, and who should i see arm-in-arm and having a purple time of it but padishah and potter. if you come to think of it-- "yes. _i've_ thought that. only, you see, there's no doubt the diamond was real. and padishah was an eminent hindoo. i've seen his name in the papers--often. but whether the bird swallowed the diamond certainly is another matter, as you say." through a window after his legs were set, they carried bailey into the study and put him on a couch before the open window. there he lay, a live--even a feverish man down to the loins, and below that a double-barrelled mummy swathed in white wrappings. he tried to read, even tried to write a little, but most of the time he looked out of the window. he had thought the window cheerful to begin with, but now he thanked god for it many times a day. within, the room was dim and grey, and in the reflected light the wear of the furniture showed plainly. his medicine and drink stood on the little table, with such litter as the bare branches of a bunch of grapes or the ashes of a cigar upon a green plate, or a day old evening paper. the view outside was flooded with light, and across the corner of it came the head of the acacia, and at the foot the top of the balcony-railing of hammered iron. in the foreground was the weltering silver of the river, never quiet and yet never tiresome. beyond was the reedy bank, a broad stretch of meadow land, and then a dark line of trees ending in a group of poplars at the distant bend of the river, and, upstanding behind them, a square church tower. up and down the river, all day long, things were passing. now a string of barges drifting down to london, piled with lime or barrels of beer; then a steam-launch, disengaging heavy masses of black smoke, and disturbing the whole width of the river with long rolling waves; then an impetuous electric launch, and then a boatload of pleasure-seekers, a solitary sculler, or a four from some rowing club. perhaps the river was quietest of a morning or late at night. one moonlight night some people drifted down singing, and with a zither playing--it sounded very pleasantly across the water. in a few days bailey began to recognise some of the craft; in a week he knew the intimate history of half-a-dozen. the launch _luzon_, from fitzgibbon's, two miles up, would go fretting by, sometimes three or four times a day, conspicuous with its colouring of indian-red and yellow, and its two oriental attendants; and one day, to bailey's vast amusement, the house-boat _purple emperor_ came to a stop outside, and breakfasted in the most shameless domesticity. then one afternoon, the captain of a slow-moving barge began a quarrel with his wife as they came into sight from the left, and had carried it to personal violence before he vanished behind the window-frame to the right. bailey regarded all this as an entertainment got up to while away his illness, and applauded all the more moving incidents. mrs green, coming in at rare intervals with his meals, would catch him clapping his hands or softly crying, "encore!" but the river players had other engagements, and his encore went unheeded. "i should never have thought i could take such an interest in things that did not concern me," said bailey to wilderspin, who used to come in in his nervous, friendly way and try to comfort the sufferer by being talked to. "i thought this idle capacity was distinctive of little children and old maids. but it's just circumstances. i simply can't work, and things have to drift; it's no good to fret and struggle. and so i lie here and am as amused as a baby with a rattle, at this river and its affairs. "sometimes, of course, it gets a bit dull, but not often. "i would give anything, wilderspin, for a swamp--just one swamp--once. heads swimming and a steam launch to the rescue, and a chap or so hauled out with a boat-hook.... there goes fitzgibbon's launch! they have a new boat-hook, i see, and the little blackie is still in the dumps. i don't think he's very well, wilderspin. he's been like that for two or three days, squatting sulky-fashion and meditating over the churning of the water. unwholesome for him to be always staring at the frothy water running away from the stern." they watched the little steamer fuss across the patch of sunlit river, suffer momentary occultation from the acacia, and glide out of sight behind the dark window-frame. "i'm getting a wonderful eye for details," said bailey: "i spotted that new boat-hook at once. the other nigger is a funny little chap. he never used to swagger with the old boat-hook like that." "malays, aren't they?" said wilderspin. "don't know," said bailey. "i thought one called all that sort of manner lascar." then he began to tell wilderspin what he knew of the private affairs of the houseboat, _purple emperor_. "funny," he said, "how these people come from all points of the compass--from oxford and windsor, from asia and africa--and gather and pass opposite the window just to entertain me. one man floated out of the infinite the day before yesterday, caught one perfect crab opposite, lost and recovered a scull, and passed on again. probably he will never come into my life again. so far as i am concerned, he has lived and had his little troubles, perhaps thirty--perhaps forty--years on the earth, merely to make an ass of himself for three minutes in front of my window. wonderful thing, wilderspin, if you come to think of it." "yes," said wilderspin; "_isn't_ it?" a day or two after this bailey had a brilliant morning. indeed, towards the end of the affair, it became almost as exciting as any window show very well could be. we will, however, begin at the beginning. bailey was all alone in the house, for his housekeeper had gone into the town three miles away to pay bills, and the servant had her holiday. the morning began dull. a canoe went up about half-past nine, and later a boat-load of camping men came down. but this was mere margin. things became cheerful about ten o'clock. it began with something white fluttering in the remote distance where the three poplars marked the river bend. "pocket-handkerchief," said bailey, when he saw it "no. too big! flag perhaps." however, it was not a flag, for it jumped about. "man in whites running fast, and this way," said bailey. "that's luck! but his whites are precious loose!" then a singular thing happened. there was a minute pink gleam among the dark trees in the distance, and a little puff of pale grey that began to drift and vanish eastward. the man in white jumped and continued running. presently the report of the shot arrived. "what the devil!" said bailey. "looks as if someone was shooting at him." he sat up stiffly and stared hard. the white figure was coming along the pathway through the corn. "it's one of those niggers from the fitzgibbon's," said bailey; "or may i be hanged! i wonder why he keeps sawing with his arm." then three other figures became indistinctly visible against the dark background of the trees. abruptly on the opposite bank a man walked into the picture. he was black-bearded, dressed in flannels, had a red belt, and a vast grey felt hat. he walked, leaning very much forward and with his hands swinging before him. behind him one could see the grass swept by the towing-rope of the boat he was dragging. he was steadfastly regarding the white figure that was hurrying through the corn. suddenly he stopped. then, with a peculiar gesture, bailey could see that he began pulling in the tow-rope hand over hand. over the water could be heard the voices of the people in the still invisible boat. "what are you after, hagshot?" said someone. the individual with the red belt shouted something that was inaudible, and went on lugging in the rope, looking over his shoulder at the advancing white figure as he did so. he came down the bank, and the rope bent a lane among the reeds and lashed the water between his pulls. then just the bows of the boat came into view, with the towing-mast and a tall, fair-haired man standing up and trying to see over the bank. the boat bumped unexpectedly among the reeds, and the tall, fair-haired man disappeared suddenly, having apparently fallen back into the invisible part of the boat. there was a curse and some indistinct laughter. hagshot did not laugh, but hastily clambered into the boat and pushed off. abruptly the boat passed out of bailey's sight. but it was still audible. the melody of voices suggested that its occupants were busy telling each other what to do. the running figure was drawing near the bank. bailey could now see clearly that it was one of fitzgibbon's orientals, and began to realise what the sinuous thing the man carried in his hand might be. three other men followed one another through the corn, and the foremost carried what was probably the gun. they were perhaps two hundred yards or more behind the malay. "it's a man hunt, by all that's holy!" said bailey. the malay stopped for a moment and surveyed the bank to the right. then he left the path, and, breaking through the corn, vanished in that direction. the three pursuers followed suit, and their heads and gesticulating arms above the corn, after a brief interval, also went out of bailey's field of vision. bailey so far forgot himself as to swear. "just as things were getting lively!" he said. something like a woman's shriek came through the air. then shouts, a howl, a dull whack upon the balcony outside that made bailey jump, and then the report of a gun. "this is precious hard on an invalid," said bailey. but more was to happen yet in his picture. in fact, a great deal more. the malay appeared again, running now along the bank up stream. his stride had more swing and less pace in it than before. he was threatening someone ahead with the ugly krees he carried. the blade, bailey noticed, was dull--it did not shine as steel should. then came the tall, fair man, brandishing a boat-hook, and after him three other men in boating costume, running clumsily with oars. the man with the grey hat and red belt was not with them. after an interval the three men with the gun reappeared, still in the corn, but now near the river bank. they emerged upon the towing-path, and hurried after the others. the opposite bank was left blank and desolate again. the sick-room was disgraced by more profanity. "i would give my life to see the end of this," said bailey. there were indistinct shouts up stream. once they seemed to be coming nearer, but they disappointed him. bailey sat and grumbled. he was still grumbling when his eye caught something black and round among the waves. "hullo!" he said. he looked narrowly and saw two triangular black bodies frothing every now and then about a yard in front of this. he was still doubtful when the little band of pursuers came into sight again, and began to point to this floating object. they were talking eagerly. then the man with the gun took aim. "he's swimming the river, by george!" said bailey. the malay looked round, saw the gun, and went under. he came up so close to bailey's bank of the river that one of the bars of the balcony hid him for a moment. as he emerged the man with the gun fired. the malay kept steadily onward--bailey could see the wet hair on his forehead now and the krees between his teeth--and was presently hidden by the balcony. this seemed to bailey an unendurable wrong. the man was lost to him for ever now, so he thought. why couldn't the brute have got himself decently caught on the opposite bank, or shot in the water? "it's worse than edwin drood," said bailey. over the river, too, things had become an absolute blank. all seven men had gone down stream again, probably to get the boat and follow across. bailey listened and waited. there was silence. "surely it's not over like this," said bailey. five minutes passed--ten minutes. then a tug with two barges went up stream. the attitudes of the men upon these were the attitudes of those who see nothing remarkable in earth, water, or sky. clearly the whole affair had passed out of sight of the river. probably the hunt had gone into the beech woods behind the house. "confound it!" said bailey. "to be continued again, and no chance this time of the sequel. but this is hard on a sick man." he heard a step on the staircase behind him and looking round saw the door open. mrs green came in and sat down, panting. she still had her bonnet on, her purse in her hand, and her little brown basket upon her arm. "oh, there!" she said, and left bailey to imagine the rest. "have a little whisky and water, mrs green, and tell me about it," said bailey. sipping a little, the lady began to recover her powers of explanation. one of those black creatures at the fitzgibbon's had gone mad, and was running about with a big knife, stabbing people. he had killed a groom, and stabbed the under-butler, and almost cut the arm off a boating gentleman. "running amuck with a krees," said bailey. "i thought that was it." and he was hiding in the wood when she came through it from the town. "what! did he run after you?" asked bailey, with a certain touch of glee in his voice. "no, that was the horrible part of it," mrs green explained. she had been right through the woods and had _never known he was there_. it was only when she met young mr fitzgibbon carrying his gun in the shrubbery that she heard anything about it. apparently, what upset mrs green was the lost opportunity for emotion. she was determined, however, to make the most of what was left her. "to think he was there all the time!" she said, over and over again. bailey endured this patiently enough for perhaps ten minutes. at last he thought it advisable to assert himself. "it's twenty past one, mrs green," he said. "don't you think it time you got me something to eat?" this brought mrs green suddenly to her knees. "oh lord, sir!" she said. "oh! don't go making me go out of this room, sir, till i know he's caught. he might have got into the house, sir. he might be creeping, creeping, with that knife of his, along the passage this very--" she broke off suddenly and glared over him at the window. her lower jaw dropped. bailey turned his head sharply. for the space of half a second things seemed just as they were. there was the tree, the balcony, the shining river, the distant church tower. then he noticed that the acacia was displaced about a foot to the right, and that it was quivering, and the leaves were rustling. the tree was shaken violently, and a heavy panting was audible. in another moment a hairy brown hand had appeared and clutched the balcony railings, and in another the face of the malay was peering through these at the man on the couch. his expression was an unpleasant grin, by reason of the krees he held between his teeth, and he was bleeding from an ugly wound in his cheek. his hair wet to drying stuck out like horns from his head. his body was bare save for the wet trousers that clung to him. bailey's first impulse was to spring from the couch, but his legs reminded him that this was impossible. by means of the balcony and tree the man slowly raised himself until he was visible to mrs green. with a choking cry she made for the door and fumbled with the handle. bailey thought swiftly and clutched a medicine bottle in either hand. one he flung, and it smashed against the acacia. silently and deliberately, and keeping his bright eyes fixed on bailey, the malay clambered into the balcony. bailey, still clutching his second bottle, but with a sickening, sinking feeling about his heart, watched first one leg come over the railing and then the other. it was bailey's impression that the malay took about an hour to get his second leg over the rail. the period that elapsed before the sitting position was changed to a standing one seemed enormous--days, weeks, possibly a year or so. yet bailey had no clear impression of anything going on in his mind during that vast period, except a vague wonder at his inability to throw the second medicine bottle. suddenly the malay glanced over his shoulder. there was the crack of a rifle. he flung up his arms and came down upon the couch. mrs green began a dismal shriek that seemed likely to last until doomsday. bailey stared at the brown body with its shoulder blade driven in, that writhed painfully across his legs and rapidly staining and soaking the spotless bandages. then he looked at the long krees, with the reddish streaks upon its blade, that lay an inch beyond the trembling brown fingers upon the floor. then at mrs green, who had backed hard against the door and was staring at the body and shrieking in gusty outbursts as if she would wake the dead. and then the body was shaken by one last convulsive effort. the malay gripped the krees, tried to raise himself with his left hand, and collapsed. then he raised his head, stared for a moment at mrs green, and twisting his face round looked at bailey. with a gasping groan the dying man succeeded in clutching the bed clothes with his disabled hand, and by a violent effort, which hurt bailey's legs exceedingly, writhed sideways towards what must be his last victim. then something seemed released in bailey's mind and he brought down the second bottle with all his strength on to the malay's face. the krees fell heavily upon the floor. "easy with those legs," said bailey, as young fitzgibbon and one of the boating party lifted the body off him. young fitzgibbon was very white in the face. "i didn't mean to kill him," he said. "it's just as well," said bailey. the temptation of harringay it is quite impossible to say whether this thing really happened. it depends entirely on the word of r.m. harringay, who is an artist. following his version of the affair, the narrative deposes that harringay went into his studio about ten o'clock to see what he could make of the head that he had been working at the day before. the head in question was that of an italian organ-grinder, and harringay thought--but was not quite sure--that the title would be the "vigil." so far he is frank, and his narrative bears the stamp of truth. he had seen the man expectant for pennies, and with a promptness that suggested genius, had had him in at once. "kneel. look up at that bracket," said harringay. "as if you expected pennies." "don't _grin_!" said harringay. "i don't want to paint your gums. look as though you were unhappy." now, after a night's rest, the picture proved decidedly unsatisfactory. "it's good work," said harringay. "that little bit in the neck ... but." he walked about the studio and looked at the thing from this point and from that. then he said a wicked word. in the original the word is given. "painting," he says he said. "just a painting of an organ-grinder--a mere portrait. if it was a live organ-grinder i wouldn't mind. but somehow i never make things alive. i wonder if my imagination is wrong." this, too, has a truthful air. his imagination _is_ wrong. "that creative touch! to take canvas and pigment and make a man--as adam was made of red ochre! but this thing! if you met it walking about the streets you would know it was only a studio production. the little boys would tell it to 'garnome and git frimed.' some little touch ... well--it won't do as it is." he went to the blinds and began to pull them down. they were made of blue holland with the rollers at the bottom of the window, so that you pull them down to get more light. he gathered his palette, brushes, and mahl stick from his table. then he turned to the picture and put a speck of brown in the corner of the mouth; and shifted his attention thence to the pupil of the eye. then he decided that the chin was a trifle too impassive for a vigil. presently he put down his impedimenta, and lighting a pipe surveyed the progress of his work. "i'm hanged if the thing isn't sneering at me," said harringay, and he still believes it sneered. the animation of the figure had certainly increased, but scarcely in the direction he wished. there was no mistake about the sneer. "vigil of the unbeliever," said harringay. "rather subtle and clever that! but the left eyebrow isn't cynical enough." he went and dabbed at the eyebrow, and added a little to the lobe of the ear to suggest materialism. further consideration ensued. "vigil's off, i'm afraid," said harringay. "why not mephistopheles? but that's a bit _too_ common. 'a friend of the doge,'--not so seedy. the armour won't do, though. too camelot. how about a scarlet robe and call him 'one of the sacred college'? humour in that, and an appreciation of middle italian history." "there's always benvenuto cellini," said harringay; "with a clever suggestion of a gold cup in one corner. but that would scarcely suit the complexion." he describes himself as babbling in this way in order to keep down an unaccountably unpleasant sensation of fear. the thing was certainly acquiring anything but a pleasing expression. yet it was as certainly becoming far more of a living thing than it had been--if a sinister one--far more alive than anything he had ever painted before. "call it 'portrait of a gentleman,'" said harringay;--"a certain gentleman." "won't do," said harringay, still keeping up his courage. "kind of thing they call bad taste. that sneer will have to come out. that gone, and a little more fire in the eye--never noticed how warm his eye was before--and he might do for--? what price passionate pilgrim? but that devilish face won't do--_this_ side of the channel. "some little inaccuracy does it," he said; "eyebrows probably too oblique,"--therewith pulling the blind lower to get a better light, and resuming palette and brushes. the face on the canvas seemed animated by a spirit of its own. where the expression of diablerie came in he found impossible to discover. experiment was necessary. the eyebrows--it could scarcely be the eyebrows? but he altered them. no, that was no better; in fact, if anything, a trifle more satanic. the corner of the mouth? pah! more than ever a leer--and now, retouched, it was ominously grim. the eye, then? catastrophe! he had filled his brush with vermilion instead of brown, and yet he had felt sure it was brown! the eye seemed now to have rolled in its socket, and was glaring at him an eye of fire. in a flash of passion, possibly with something of the courage of panic, he struck the brush full of bright red athwart the picture; and then a very curious thing, a very strange thing indeed, occurred--if it _did_ occur. _the diabolified italian before him shut both his eyes, pursed his mouth, and wiped the colour off his face with his hand_. then the _red eye_ opened again, with a sound like the opening of lips, and the face smiled. "that was rather hasty of you," said the picture. harringay states that, now that the worst had happened, his self-possession returned. he had a saving persuasion that devils were reasonable creatures. "why do you keep moving about then," he said, "making faces and all that--sneering and squinting, while i am painting you?" "i don't," said the picture. "you _do_," said harringay. "it's yourself," said the picture. "it's _not_ myself," said harringay. "it _is_ yourself," said the picture. "no! don't go hitting me with paint again, because it's true. you have been trying to fluke an expression on my face all the morning. really, you haven't an idea what your picture ought to look like." "i have," said harringay. "you have _not_," said the picture: "you _never_ have with your pictures. you always start with the vaguest presentiment of what you are going to do; it is to be something beautiful--you are sure of that--and devout, perhaps, or tragic; but beyond that it is all experiment and chance. my dear fellow! you don't think you can paint a picture like that?" now it must be remembered that for what follows we have only harringay's word. "i shall paint a picture exactly as i like," said harringay, calmly. this seemed to disconcert the picture a little. "you can't paint a picture without an inspiration," it remarked. "but i _had_ an inspiration--for this." "inspiration!" sneered the sardonic figure; "a fancy that came from your seeing an organ-grinder looking up at a window! vigil! ha, ha! you just started painting on the chance of something coming--that's what you did. and when i saw you at it i came. i want a talk with you!" "art, with you," said the picture,--"it's a poor business. you potter. i don't know how it is, but you don't seem able to throw your soul into it. you know too much. it hampers you. in the midst of your enthusiasms you ask yourself whether something like this has not been done before. and ..." "look here," said harringay, who had expected something better than criticism from the devil. "are you going to talk studio to me?" he filled his number twelve hoghair with red paint. "the true artist," said the picture, "is always an ignorant man. an artist who theorises about his work is no longer artist but critic. wagner ... i say!--what's that red paint for?" "i'm going to paint you out," said harringay. "i don't want to hear all that tommy rot. if you think just because i'm an artist by trade i'm going to talk studio to you, you make a precious mistake." "one minute," said the picture, evidently alarmed. "i want to make you an offer--a genuine offer. it's right what i'm saying. you lack inspirations. well. no doubt you've heard of the cathedral of cologne, and the devil's bridge, and--" "rubbish," said harringay. "do you think i want to go to perdition simply for the pleasure of painting a good picture, and getting it slated. take that." his blood was up. his danger only nerved him to action, so he says. so he planted a dab of vermilion in his creature's mouth. the italian spluttered and tried to wipe it off--evidently horribly surprised. and then--according to harringay--there began a very remarkable struggle, harringay splashing away with the red paint, and the picture wriggling about and wiping it off as fast as he put it on. "_two_ masterpieces," said the demon. "two indubitable masterpieces for a chelsea artist's soul. it's a bargain?" harringay replied with the paint brush. for a few minutes nothing could be heard but the brush going and the spluttering and ejaculations of the italian. a lot of the strokes he caught on his arm and hand, though harringay got over his guard often enough. presently the paint on the palette gave out and the two antagonists stood breathless, regarding each other. the picture was so smeared with red that it looked as if it had been rolling about a slaughterhouse, and it was painfully out of breath and very uncomfortable with the wet paint trickling down its neck. still, the first round was in its favour on the whole. "think," it said, sticking pluckily to its point, "two supreme masterpieces--in different styles. each equivalent to the cathedral..." "_i_ know," said harringay, and rushed out of the studio and along the passage towards his wife's boudoir. in another minute he was back with a large tin of enamel--hedge sparrow's egg tint, it was, and a brush. at the sight of that the artistic devil with the red eye began to scream. "_three_ masterpieces--culminating masterpieces." harringay delivered cut two across the demon, and followed with a thrust in the eye. there was an indistinct rumbling. "_four_ masterpieces," and a spitting sound. but harringay had the upper hand now and meant to keep it. with rapid, bold strokes he continued to paint over the writhing canvas, until at last it was a uniform field of shining hedge sparrow tint. once the mouth reappeared and got as far as "five master--" before he filled it with enamel; and near the end the red eye opened and glared at him indignantly. but at last nothing remained save a gleaming panel of drying enamel. for a little while a faint stirring beneath the surface puckered it slightly here and there, but presently even that died away and the thing was perfectly still. then harringay--according to harringay's account--lit his pipe and sat down and stared at the enamelled canvas, and tried to make out clearly what had happened. then he walked round behind it, to see if the back of it was at all remarkable. then it was he began to regret he had not photographed the devil before he painted him out. this is harringay's story--not mine. he supports it by a small canvas ( by ) enamelled a pale green, and by violent asseverations. it is also true that he never has produced a masterpiece, and in the opinion of his intimate friends probably never will. the flying man the ethnologist looked at the _bhimraj_ feather thoughtfully. "they seemed loth to part with it," he said. "it is sacred to the chiefs," said the lieutenant; "just as yellow silk, you know, is sacred to the chinese emperor." the ethnologist did not answer. he hesitated. then opening the topic abruptly, "what on earth is this cock-and-bull story they have of a flying man?" the lieutenant smiled faintly. "what did they tell you?" "i see," said the ethnologist, "that you know of your fame." the lieutenant rolled himself a cigarette. "i don't mind hearing about it once more. how does it stand at present?" "it's so confoundedly childish," said the ethnologist, becoming irritated. "how did you play it off upon them?" the lieutenant made no answer, but lounged back in his folding-chair, still smiling. "here am i, come four hundred miles out of my way to get what is left of the folk-lore of these people, before they are utterly demoralised by missionaries and the military, and all i find are a lot of impossible legends about a sandy-haired scrub of an infantry lieutenant. how he is invulnerable--how he can jump over elephants--how he can fly. that's the toughest nut. one old gentleman described your wings, said they had black plumage and were not quite as long as a mule. said he often saw you by moonlight hovering over the crests out towards the shendu country.--confound it, man!" the lieutenant laughed cheerfully. "go on," he said. "go on." the ethnologist did. at last he wearied. "to trade so," he said, "on these unsophisticated children of the mountains. how could you bring yourself to do it, man?" "i'm sorry," said the lieutenant, "but truly the thing was forced upon me. i can assure you i was driven to it. and at the time i had not the faintest idea of how the chin imagination would take it. or curiosity. i can only plead it was an indiscretion and not malice that made me replace the folk-lore by a new legend. but as you seem aggrieved, i will try and explain the business to you. "it was in the time of the last lushai expedition but one, and walters thought these people you have been visiting were friendly. so, with an airy confidence in my capacity for taking care of myself, he sent me up the gorge--fourteen miles of it--with three of the derbyshire men and half a dozen sepoys, two mules, and his blessing, to see what popular feeling was like at that village you visited. a force of ten--not counting the mules--fourteen miles, and during a war! you saw the road?" "_road_!" said the ethnologist. "it's better now than it was. when we went up we had to wade in the river for a mile where the valley narrows, with a smart stream frothing round our knees and the stones as slippery as ice. there it was i dropped my rifle. afterwards the sappers blasted the cliff with dynamite and made the convenient way you came by. then below, where those very high cliffs come, we had to keep on dodging across the river--i should say we crossed it a dozen times in a couple of miles. "we got in sight of the place early the next morning. you know how it lies, on a spur halfway between the big hills, and as we began to appreciate how wickedly quiet the village lay under the sunlight, we came to a stop to consider. "at that they fired a lump of filed brass idol at us, just by way of a welcome. it came twanging down the slope to the right of us where the boulders are, missed my shoulder by an inch or so, and plugged the mule that carried all the provisions and utensils. i never heard such a death-rattle before or since. and at that we became aware of a number of gentlemen carrying matchlocks, and dressed in things like plaid dusters, dodging about along the neck between the village and the crest to the east. "'right about face,' i said. 'not too close together.' "and with that encouragement my expedition of ten men came round and set off at a smart trot down the valley again hitherward. we did not wait to save anything our dead had carried, but we kept the second mule with us--he carried my tent and some other rubbish--out of a feeling of friendship. "so ended the battle--ingloriously. glancing back, i saw the valley dotted with the victors, shouting and firing at us. but no one was hit. these chins and their guns are very little good except at a sitting shot. they will sit and finick over a boulder for hours taking aim, and when they fire running it is chiefly for stage effect. hooker, one of the derbyshire men, fancied himself rather with the rifle, and stopped behind for half a minute to try his luck as we turned the bend. but he got nothing. "i'm not a xenophon to spin much of a yarn about my retreating army. we had to pull the enemy up twice in the next two miles when he became a bit pressing, by exchanging shots with him, but it was a fairly monotonous affair--hard breathing chiefly--until we got near the place where the hills run in towards the river and pinch the valley into a gorge. and there we very luckily caught a glimpse of half a dozen round black heads coming slanting-ways over the hill to the left of us--the east that is--and almost parallel with us. "at that i called a halt. 'look here,' says i to hooker and the other englishmen; 'what are we to do now?' and i pointed to the heads. "'headed orf, or i'm a nigger,' said one of the men. "'we shall be,' said another. 'you know the chin way, george?' "'they can pot every one of us at fifty yards,' says hooker, 'in the place where the river is narrow. it's just suicide to go on down.' "i looked at the hill to the right of us. it grew steeper lower down the valley, but it still seemed climbable. and all the chins we had seen hitherto had been on the other side of the stream. "'it's that or stopping,' says one of the sepoys. "so we started slanting up the hill. there was something faintly suggestive of a road running obliquely up the face of it, and that we followed. some chins presently came into view up the valley, and i heard some shots. then i saw one of the sepoys was sitting down about thirty yards below us. he had simply sat down without a word, apparently not wishing to give trouble. at that i called a halt again; i told hooker to try another shot, and went back and found the man was hit in the leg. i took him up, carried him along to put him on the mule--already pretty well laden with the tent and other things which we had no time to take off. when i got up to the rest with him, hooker had his empty martini in his hand, and was grinning and pointing to a motionless black spot up the valley. all the rest of the chins were behind boulders or back round the bend. 'five hundred yards,' says hooker, 'if an inch. and i'll swear i hit him in the head.' "i told him to go and do it again, and with that we went on again. "now the hillside kept getting steeper as we pushed on, and the road we were following more and more of a shelf. at last it was mere cliff above and below us. 'it's the best road i have seen yet in chin lushai land,' said i to encourage the men, though i had a fear of what was coming. "and in a few minutes the way bent round a corner of the cliff. then, finis! the ledge came to an end. "as soon as he grasped the position one of the derbyshire men fell a-swearing at the trap we had fallen into. the sepoys halted quietly. hooker grunted and reloaded, and went back to the bend. "then two of the sepoy chaps helped their comrade down and began to unload the mule. "now, when i came to look about me, i began to think we had not been so very unfortunate after all. we were on a shelf perhaps ten yards across it at widest. above it the cliff projected so that we could not be shot down upon, and below was an almost sheer precipice of perhaps two or three hundred feet. lying down we were invisible to anyone across the ravine. the only approach was along the ledge, and on that one man was as good as a host. we were in a natural stronghold, with only one disadvantage, our sole provision against hunger and thirst was one live mule. still we were at most eight or nine miles from the main expedition, and no doubt, after a day or so, they would send up after us if we did not return. "after a day or so ..." the lieutenant paused. "ever been thirsty, graham?" "not that kind," said the ethnologist. "h'm. we had the whole of that day, the night, and the next day of it, and only a trifle of dew we wrung out of our clothes and the tent. and below us was the river going giggle, giggle, round a rock in mid stream. i never knew such a barrenness of incident, or such a quantity of sensation. the sun might have had joshua's command still upon it for all the motion one could see; and it blazed like a near furnace. towards the evening of the first day one of the derbyshire men said something--nobody heard what--and went off round the bend of the cliff. we heard shots, and when hooker looked round the corner he was gone. and in the morning the sepoy whose leg was shot was in delirium, and jumped or fell over the cliff. then we took the mule and shot it, and that must needs go over the cliff too in its last struggles, leaving eight of us. "we could see the body of the sepoy down below, with the head in the water. he was lying face downwards, and so far as i could make out was scarcely smashed at all. badly as the chins might covet his head, they had the sense to leave it alone until the darkness came. "at first we talked of all the chances there were of the main body hearing the firing, and reckoned whether they would begin to miss us, and all that kind of thing, but we dried up as the evening came on. the sepoys played games with bits of stone among themselves, and afterwards told stories. the night was rather chilly. the second day nobody spoke. our lips were black and our throats afire, and we lay about on the ledge and glared at one another. perhaps it's as well we kept our thoughts to ourselves. one of the british soldiers began writing some blasphemous rot on the rock with a bit of pipeclay, about his last dying will, until i stopped it. as i looked over the edge down into the valley and saw the river rippling i was nearly tempted to go after the sepoy. it seemed a pleasant and desirable thing to go rushing down through the air with something to drink--or no more thirst at any rate--at the bottom. i remembered in time, though, that i was the officer in command, and my duty to set a good example, and that kept me from any such foolishness. "yet, thinking of that, put an idea into my head. i got up and looked at the tent and tent ropes, and wondered why i had not thought of it before. then i came and peered over the cliff again. this time the height seemed greater and the pose of the sepoy rather more painful. but it was that or nothing. and to cut it short, i parachuted. "i got a big circle of canvas out of the tent, about three times the size of that table-cover, and plugged the hole in the centre, and i tied eight ropes round it to meet in the middle and make a parachute. the other chaps lay about and watched me as though they thought it was a new kind of delirium. then i explained my notion to the two british soldiers and how i meant to do it, and as soon as the short dusk had darkened into night, i risked it. they held the thing high up, and i took a run the whole length of the ledge. the thing filled with air like a sail, but at the edge i will confess i funked and pulled up. "as soon as i stopped i was ashamed of myself--as well i might be in front of privates--and went back and started again. off i jumped this time--with a kind of sob, i remember--clean into the air, with the big white sail bellying out above me. "i must have thought at a frightful pace. it seemed a long time before i was sure that the thing meant to keep steady. at first it heeled sideways. then i noticed the face of the rock which seemed to be streaming up past me, and me motionless. then i looked down and saw in the darkness the river and the dead sepoy rushing up towards me. but in the indistinct light i also saw three chins, seemingly aghast at the sight of me, and that the sepoy was decapitated. at that i wanted to go back again. "then my boot was in the mouth of one, and in a moment he and i were in a heap with the canvas fluttering down on the top of us. i fancy i dashed out his brains with my foot. i expected nothing more than to be brained myself by the other two, but the poor heathen had never heard of baldwin, and incontinently bolted. "i struggled out of the tangle of dead chin and canvas, and looked round. about ten paces off lay the head of the sepoy staring in the moonlight. then i saw the water and went and drank. there wasn't a sound in the world but the footsteps of the departing chins, a faint shout from above, and the gluck of the water. so soon as i had drunk my full i started off down the river. "that about ends the explanation of the flying man story. i never met a soul the whole eight miles of the way. i got to walters' camp by ten o'clock, and a born idiot of a sentinel had the cheek to fire at me as i came trotting out of the darkness. so soon as i had hammered my story into winter's thick skull, about fifty men started up the valley to clear the chins out and get our men down. but for my own part i had too good a thirst to provoke it by going with them. "you have heard what kind of a yarn the chins made of it. wings as long as a mule, eh?--and black feathers! the gay lieutenant bird! well, well." the lieutenant meditated cheerfully for a moment. then he added, "you would scarcely credit it, but when they got to the ridge at last, they found two more of the sepoys had jumped over." "the rest were all right?" asked the ethnologist. "yes," said the lieutenant; "the rest were all right, barring a certain thirst, you know." and at the memory he helped himself to soda and whisky again. the diamond maker some business had detained me in chancery lane until nine in the evening, and thereafter, having some inkling of a headache, i was disinclined either for entertainment or further work. so much of the sky as the high cliffs of that narrow cañon of traffic left visible spoke of a serene night, and i determined to make my way down to the embankment, and rest my eyes and cool my head by watching the variegated lights upon the river. beyond comparison the night is the best time for this place; a merciful darkness hides the dirt of the waters, and the lights of this transition age, red, glaring orange, gas-yellow, and electric white, are set in shadowy outlines of every possible shade between grey and deep purple. through the arches of waterloo bridge a hundred points of light mark the sweep of the embankment, and above its parapet rise the towers of westminster, warm grey against the starlight. the black river goes by with only a rare ripple breaking its silence, and disturbing the reflections of the lights that swim upon its surface. "a warm night," said a voice at my side. i turned my head, and saw the profile of a man who was leaning over the parapet beside me. it was a refined face, not unhandsome, though pinched and pale enough, and the coat collar turned up and pinned round the throat marked his status in life as sharply as a uniform. i felt i was committed to the price of a bed and breakfast if i answered him. i looked at him curiously. would he have anything to tell me worth the money, or was he the common incapable--incapable even of telling his own story? there was a quality of intelligence in his forehead and eyes, and a certain tremulousness in his nether lip that decided me. "very warm," said i; "but not too warm for us here." "no," he said, still looking across the water, "it is pleasant enough here ... just now." "it is good," he continued after a pause, "to find anything so restful as this in london. after one has been fretting about business all day, about getting on, meeting obligations, and parrying dangers, i do not know what one would do if it were not for such pacific corners." he spoke with long pauses between the sentences. "you must know a little of the irksome labour of the world, or you would not be here. but i doubt if you can be so brain-weary and footsore as i am ... bah! sometimes i doubt if the game is worth the candle. i feel inclined to throw the whole thing over--name, wealth, and position--and take to some modest trade. but i know if i abandoned my ambition--hardly as she uses me--i should have nothing but remorse left for the rest of my days." he became silent. i looked at him in astonishment. if ever i saw a man hopelessly hard-up it was the man in front of me. he was ragged and he was dirty, unshaven and unkempt; he looked as though he had been left in a dust-bin for a week. and he was talking to _me_ of the irksome worries of a large business. i almost laughed outright. either he was mad or playing a sorry jest on his own poverty. "if high aims and high positions," said i, "have their drawbacks of hard work and anxiety, they have their compensations. influence, the power of doing good, of assisting those weaker and poorer than ourselves; and there is even a certain gratification in display...." my banter under the circumstances was in very vile taste. i spoke on the spur of the contrast of his appearance and speech. i was sorry even while i was speaking. he turned a haggard but very composed face upon me. said he: "i forget myself. of course you would not understand." he measured me for a moment. "no doubt it is very absurd. you will not believe me even when i tell you, so that it is fairly safe to tell you. and it will be a comfort to tell someone. i really have a big business in hand, a very big business. but there are troubles just now. the fact is ... i make diamonds." "i suppose," said i, "you are out of work just at present?" "i am sick of being disbelieved," he said impatiently, and suddenly unbuttoning his wretched coat he pulled out a little canvas bag that was hanging by a cord round his neck. from this he produced a brown pebble. "i wonder if you know enough to know what that is?" he handed it to me. now, a year or so ago, i had occupied my leisure in taking a london science degree, so that i have a smattering of physics and mineralogy. the thing was not unlike an uncut diamond of the darker sort, though far too large, being almost as big as the top of my thumb. i took it, and saw it had the form of a regular octahedron, with the curved faces peculiar to the most precious of minerals. i took out my penknife and tried to scratch it--vainly. leaning forward towards the gas-lamp, i tried the thing on my watch-glass, and scored a white line across that with the greatest ease. i looked at my interlocutor with rising curiosity. "it certainly is rather like a diamond. but, if so, it is a behemoth of diamonds. where did you get it?" "i tell you i made it," he said. "give it back to me." he replaced it hastily and buttoned his jacket. "i will sell it you for one hundred pounds," he suddenly whispered eagerly. with that my suspicions returned. the thing might, after all, be merely a lump of that almost equally hard substance, corundum, with an accidental resemblance in shape to the diamond. or if it was a diamond, how came he by it, and why should he offer it at a hundred pounds? we looked into one another's eyes. he seemed eager, but honestly eager. at that moment i believed it was a diamond he was trying to sell. yet i am a poor man, a hundred pounds would leave a visible gap in my fortunes and no sane man would buy a diamond by gaslight from a ragged tramp on his personal warranty only. still, a diamond that size conjured up a vision of many thousands of pounds. then, thought i, such a stone could scarcely exist without being mentioned in every book on gems, and again i called to mind the stories of contraband and light-fingered kaffirs at the cape. i put the question of purchase on one side. "how did you get it?" said i. "i made it." i had heard something of moissan, but i knew his artificial diamonds were very small. i shook my head. "you seem to know something of this kind of thing. i will tell you a little about myself. perhaps then you may think better of the purchase." he turned round with his back to the river, and put his hands in his pockets. he sighed. "i know you will not believe me." "diamonds," he began--and as he spoke his voice lost its faint flavour of the tramp and assumed something of the easy tone of an educated man--"are to be made by throwing carbon out of combination in a suitable flux and under a suitable pressure; the carbon crystallises out, not as black-lead or charcoal-powder, but as small diamonds. so much has been known to chemists for years, but no one yet has hit upon exactly the right flux in which to melt up the carbon, or exactly the right pressure for the best results. consequently the diamonds made by chemists are small and dark, and worthless as jewels. now i, you know, have given up my life to this problem--given my life to it. "i began to work at the conditions of diamond making when i was seventeen, and now i am thirty-two. it seemed to me that it might take all the thought and energies of a man for ten years, or twenty years, but, even if it did, the game was still worth the candle. suppose one to have at last just hit the right trick, before the secret got out and diamonds became as common as coal, one might realise millions. millions!" he paused and looked for my sympathy. his eyes shone hungrily. "to think," said he, "that i am on the verge of it all, and here! "i had," he proceeded, "about a thousand pounds when i was twenty-one, and this, i thought, eked out by a little teaching, would keep my researches going. a year or two was spent in study, at berlin chiefly, and then i continued on my own account. the trouble was the secrecy. you see, if once i had let out what i was doing, other men might have been spurred on by my belief in the practicability of the idea; and i do not pretend to be such a genius as to have been sure of coming in first, in the case of a race for the discovery. and you see it was important that if i really meant to make a pile, people should not know it was an artificial process and capable of turning out diamonds by the ton. so i had to work all alone. at first i had a little laboratory, but as my resources began to run out i had to conduct my experiments in a wretched unfurnished room in kentish town, where i slept at last on a straw mattress on the floor among all my apparatus. the money simply flowed away. i grudged myself everything except scientific appliances. i tried to keep things going by a little teaching, but i am not a very good teacher, and i have no university degree, nor very much education except in chemistry, and i found i had to give a lot of time and labour for precious little money. but i got nearer and nearer the thing. three years ago i settled the problem of the composition of the flux, and got near the pressure by putting this flux of mine and a certain carbon composition into a closed-up gun-barrel, filling up with water, sealing tightly, and heating." he paused. "rather risky," said i. "yes. it burst, and smashed all my windows and a lot of my apparatus; but i got a kind of diamond powder nevertheless. following out the problem of getting a big pressure upon the molten mixture from which the things were to crystallise, i hit upon some researches of daubrée's at the paris _laboratorie des poudres et salpêtres_. he exploded dynamite in a tightly screwed steel cylinder, too strong to burst, and i found he could crush rocks into a muck not unlike the south african bed in which diamonds are found. it was a tremendous strain on my resources, but i got a steel cylinder made for my purpose after his pattern. i put in all my stuff and my explosives, built up a fire in my furnace, put the whole concern in, and--went out for a walk." i could not help laughing at his matter-of-fact manner. "did you not think it would blow up the house? were there other people in the place?" "it was in the interest of science," he said, ultimately. "there was a costermonger family on the floor below, a begging-letter writer in the room behind mine, and two flower-women were upstairs. perhaps it was a bit thoughtless. but possibly some of them were out. "when i came back the thing was just where i left it, among the white-hot coals. the explosive hadn't burst the case. and then i had a problem to face. you know time is an important element in crystallisation. if you hurry the process the crystals are small--it is only by prolonged standing that they grow to any size. i resolved to let this apparatus cool for two years, letting the temperature go down slowly during that time. and i was now quite out of money; and with a big fire and the rent of my room, as well as my hunger to satisfy, i had scarcely a penny in the world. "i can hardly tell you all the shifts i was put to while i was making the diamonds. i have sold newspapers, held horses, opened cab-doors. for many weeks i addressed envelopes. i had a place as assistant to a man who owned a barrow, and used to call down one side of the road while he called down the other. once for a week i had absolutely nothing to do, and i begged. what a week that was! one day the fire was going out and i had eaten nothing all day, and a little chap taking his girl out, gave me sixpence--to show-off. thank heaven for vanity! how the fish-shops smelt! but i went and spent it all on coals, and had the furnace bright red again, and then--well, hunger makes a fool of a man. "at last, three weeks ago, i let the fire out. i took my cylinder and unscrewed it while it was still so hot that it punished my hands, and i scraped out the crumbling lava-like mass with a chisel, and hammered it into a powder upon an iron plate. and i found three big diamonds and five small ones. as i sat on the floor hammering, my door opened, and my neighbour, the begging-letter writer, came in. he was drunk--as he usually is. ''nerchist,' said he. 'you're drunk,' said i. ''structive scoundrel,' said he. 'go to your father,' said i, meaning the father of lies. 'never you mind,' said he, and gave me a cunning wink, and hiccuped, and leaning up against the door, with his other eye against the door-post, began to babble of how he had been prying in my room, and how he had gone to the police that morning, and how they had taken down everything he had to say--''siffiwas a ge'm,' said he. then i suddenly realised i was in a hole. either i should have to tell these police my little secret, and get the whole thing blown upon, or be lagged as an anarchist. so i went up to my neighbour and took him by the collar, and rolled him about a bit, and then i gathered up my diamonds and cleared out. the evening newspapers called my den the kentish-town bomb factory. and now i cannot part with the things for love or money. "if i go in to respectable jewellers they ask me to wait, and go and whisper to a clerk to fetch a policeman, and then i say i cannot wait. and i found out a receiver of stolen goods, and he simply stuck to the one i gave him and told me to prosecute if i wanted it back. i am going about now with several hundred thousand pounds-worth of diamonds round my neck, and without either food or shelter. you are the first person i have taken into my confidence. but i like your face and i am hard-driven." he looked into my eyes. "it would be madness," said i, "for me to buy a diamond under the circumstances. besides, i do not carry hundreds of pounds about in my pocket. yet i more than half believe your story. i will, if you like, do this: come to my office to-morrow...." "you think i am a thief!" said he keenly. "you will tell the police. i am not coming into a trap." "somehow i am assured you are no thief. here is my card. take that, anyhow. you need not come to any appointment. come when you will." he took the card, and an earnest of my good-will. "think better of it and come," said i. he shook his head doubtfully. "i will pay back your half-crown with interest some day--such interest as will amaze you," said he. "anyhow, you will keep the secret?... don't follow me." he crossed the road and went into the darkness towards the little steps under the archway leading into essex street, and i let him go. and that was the last i ever saw of him. afterwards i had two letters from him asking me to send bank-notes--not cheques--to certain addresses. i weighed the matter over, and took what i conceived to be the wisest course. once he called upon me when i was out. my urchin described him as a very thin, dirty, and ragged man, with a dreadful cough. he left no message. that was the finish of him so far as my story goes. i wonder sometimes what has become of him. was he an ingenious monomaniac, or a fraudulent dealer in pebbles, or has he really made diamonds as he asserted? the latter is just sufficiently credible to make me think at times that i have missed the most brilliant opportunity of my life. he may of course be dead, and his diamonds carelessly thrown aside--one, i repeat, was almost as big as my thumb. or he may be still wandering about trying to sell the things. it is just possible he may yet emerge upon society, and, passing athwart my heavens in the serene altitude sacred to the wealthy and the well-advertised, reproach me silently for my want of enterprise. i sometimes think i might at least have risked five pounds. aepyornis island the man with the scarred face leant over the table and looked at my bundle. "orchids?" he asked. "a few," i said. "cypripediums," he said. "chiefly," said i. "anything new? i thought not. _i_ did these islands twenty-five--twenty-seven years ago. if you find anything new here--well it's brand new. i didn't leave much." "i'm not a collector," said i. "i was young then," he went on. "lord! how i used to fly round." he seemed to take my measure. "i was in the east indies two years, and in brazil seven. then i went to madagascar." "i know a few explorers by name," i said, anticipating a yarn. "whom did you collect for?" "dawsons. i wonder if you've heard the name of butcher ever?" "butcher--butcher?" the name seemed vaguely present in my memory; then i recalled _butcher_ v. _dawson_. "why!" said i, "you are the man who sued them for four years' salary--got cast away on a desert island ..." "your servant," said the man with the scar, bowing. "funny case, wasn't it? here was me, making a little fortune on that island, doing nothing for it neither, and them quite unable to give me notice. it often used to amuse me thinking over it while i was there. i did calculations of it--big--all over the blessed atoll in ornamental figuring." "how did it happen?" said i. "i don't rightly remember the case." "well.... you've heard of the aepyornis?" "rather. andrews was telling me of a new species he was working on only a month or so ago. just before i sailed. they've got a thigh bone, it seems, nearly a yard long. monster the thing must have been!" "i believe you," said the man with the scar. "it _was_ a monster. sinbad's roc was just a legend of 'em. but when did they find these bones?" "three or four years ago--' , i fancy. why?" "why? because _i_ found 'em--lord!--it's nearly twenty years ago. if dawsons hadn't been silly about that salary they might have made a perfect ring in 'em.... _i_ couldn't help the infernal boat going adrift." he paused, "i suppose it's the same place. a kind of swamp about ninety miles north of antananarivo. do you happen to know? you have to go to it along the coast by boats. you don't happen to remember, perhaps?" "i don't. i fancy andrews said something about a swamp." "it must be the same. it's on the east coast. and somehow there's something in the water that keeps things from decaying. like creosote it smells. it reminded me of trinidad. did they get any more eggs? some of the eggs i found were a foot-and-a-half long. the swamp goes circling round, you know, and cuts off this bit. it's mostly salt, too. well.... what a time i had of it! i found the things quite by accident. we went for eggs, me and two native chaps, in one of those rum canoes all tied together, and found the bones at the same time. we had a tent and provisions for four days, and we pitched on one of the firmer places. to think of it brings that odd tarry smell back even now. it's funny work. you go probing into the mud with iron rods, you know. usually the egg gets smashed. i wonder how long it is since these aepyornises really lived. the missionaries say the natives have legends about when they were alive, but i never heard any such stories myself.[a] but certainly those eggs we got were as fresh as if they had been new laid. fresh! carrying them down to the boat one of my nigger chaps dropped one on a rock and it smashed. how i lammed into the beggar! but sweet it was, as if it was new laid, not even smelly, and its mother dead these four hundred years, perhaps. said a centipede had bit him. however, i'm getting off the straight with the story. it had taken us all day to dig into the slush and get these eggs out unbroken, and we were all covered with beastly black mud, and naturally i was cross. so far as i knew they were the only eggs that have ever been got out not even cracked. i went afterwards to see the ones they have at the natural history museum in london; all of them were cracked and just stuck together like a mosaic, and bits missing. mine were perfect, and i meant to blow them when i got back. naturally i was annoyed at the silly duffer dropping three hours' work just on account of a centipede. i hit him about rather." [footnote a: no european is known to have seen a live aepyornis, with the doubtful exception of macandrew, who visited madagascar in .--h.g.w.] the man with the scar took out a clay pipe. i placed my pouch before him. he filled up absent-mindedly. "how about the others? did you get those home? i don't remember--" "that's the queer part of the story. i had three others. perfectly fresh eggs. well, we put 'em in the boat, and then i went up to the tent to make some coffee, leaving my two heathens down by the beach--the one fooling about with his sting and the other helping him. it never occurred to me that the beggars would take advantage of the peculiar position i was in to pick a quarrel. but i suppose the centipede poison and the kicking i had given him had upset the one--he was always a cantankerous sort--and he persuaded the other. "i remember i was sitting and smoking and boiling up the water over a spirit-lamp business i used to take on these expeditions. incidentally i was admiring the swamp under the sunset. all black and blood-red it was, in streaks--a beautiful sight. and up beyond the land rose grey and hazy to the hills, and the sky behind them red, like a furnace mouth. and fifty yards behind the back of me was these blessed heathen--quite regardless of the tranquil air of things--plotting to cut off with the boat and leave me all alone with three days' provisions and a canvas tent, and nothing to drink whatsoever, beyond a little keg of water. i heard a kind of yelp behind me, and there they were in this canoe affair--it wasn't properly a boat--and, perhaps, twenty yards from land. i realised what was up in a moment. my gun was in the tent, and, besides, i had no bullets--only duck shot. they knew that. but i had a little revolver in my pocket, and i pulled that out as i ran down to the beach. "'come back!' says i, flourishing it. "they jabbered something at me, and the man that broke the egg jeered. i aimed at the other--because he was unwounded and had the paddle, and i missed. they laughed. however, i wasn't beat. i knew i had to keep cool, and i tried him again and made him jump with the whang of it. he didn't laugh that time. the third time i got his head, and over he went, and the paddle with him. it was a precious lucky shot for a revolver. i reckon it was fifty yards. he went right under. i don't know if he was shot, or simply stunned and drowned. then i began to shout to the other chap to come back, but he huddled up in the canoe and refused to answer. so i fired out my revolver at him and never got near him. "i felt a precious fool, i can tell you. there i was on this rotten, black beach, flat swamp all behind me, and the flat sea, cold after the sunset, and just this black canoe drifting steadily out to sea. i tell you i damned dawsons and jamrachs and museums and all the rest of it just to rights. i bawled to this nigger to come back, until my voice went up into a scream. "there was nothing for it but to swim after him and take my luck with the sharks. so i opened my clasp-knife and put it in my mouth, and took off my clothes and waded in. as soon as i was in the water i lost sight of the canoe, but i aimed, as i judged, to head it off. i hoped the man in it was too bad to navigate it, and that it would keep on drifting in the same direction. presently it came up over the horizon again to the south-westward about. the afterglow of sunset was well over now and the dim of night creeping up. the stars were coming through the blue. i swum like a champion, though my legs and arms were soon aching. "however, i came up to him by the time the stars were fairly out. as it got darker i began to see all manner of glowing things in the water--phosphorescence, you know. at times it made me giddy. i hardly knew which was stars and which was phosphorescence, and whether i was swimming on my head or my heels. the canoe was as black as sin, and the ripple under the bows like liquid fire. i was naturally chary of clambering up into it. i was anxious to see what he was up to first. he seemed to be lying cuddled up in a lump in the bows, and the stern was all out of water. the thing kept turning round slowly as it drifted--kind of waltzing, don't you know. i went to the stern, and pulled it down, expecting him to wake up. then i began to clamber in with my knife in my hand, and ready for a rush. but he never stirred. so there i sat in the stern of the little canoe, drifting away over the calm phosphorescent sea, and with all the host of the stars above me, waiting for something to happen. "after a long time i called him by name, but he never answered. i was too tired to take any risks by going along to him. so we sat there. i fancy i dozed once or twice. when the dawn came i saw he was as dead as a doornail and all puffed up and purple. my three eggs and the bones were lying in the middle of the canoe, and the keg of water and some coffee and biscuits wrapped in a cape _argus_ by his feet, and a tin of methylated spirit underneath him. there was no paddle, nor, in fact, anything except the spirit-tin that one could use as one, so i settled to drift until i was picked up. i held an inquest on him, brought in a verdict against some snake, scorpion, or centipede unknown, and sent him overboard. "after that i had a drink of water and a few biscuits, and took a look round. i suppose a man low down as i was don't see very far; leastways, madagascar was clean out of sight, and any trace of land at all. i saw a sail going south-westward--looked like a schooner, but her hull never came up. presently the sun got high in the sky and began to beat down upon me. lord! it pretty near made my brains boil. i tried dipping my head in the sea, but after a while my eye fell on the cape _argus_, and i lay down flat in the canoe and spread this over me. wonderful things these newspapers! i never read one through thoroughly before, but it's odd what you get up to when you're alone, as i was. i suppose i read that blessed old cape _argus_ twenty times. the pitch in the canoe simply reeked with the heat and rose up into big blisters. "i drifted ten days," said the man with the scar. "it's a little thing in the telling, isn't it? every day was like the last. except in the morning and the evening i never kept a look-out even--the blaze was so infernal. i didn't see a sail after the first three days, and those i saw took no notice of me. about the sixth night a ship went by scarcely half a mile away from me, with all its lights ablaze and its ports open, looking like a big firefly. there was music aboard. i stood up and shouted and screamed at it. the second day i broached one of the aepyornis eggs, scraped the shell away at the end bit by bit, and tried it, and i was glad to find it was good enough to eat. a bit flavoury--not bad, i mean--but with something of the taste of a duck's egg. there was a kind of circular patch, about six inches across, on one side of the yolk, and with streaks of blood and a white mark like a ladder in it that i thought queer, but i did not understand what this meant at the time, and i wasn't inclined to be particular. the egg lasted me three days, with biscuits and a drink of water. i chewed coffee berries too--invigorating stuff. the second egg i opened about the eighth day, and it scared me." the man with the scar paused. "yes," he said, "developing." "i dare say you find it hard to believe. _i_ did, with the thing before me. there the egg had been, sunk in that cold black mud, perhaps three hundred years. but there was no mistaking it. there was the--what is it?--embryo, with its big head and curved back, and its heart beating under its throat, and the yolk shrivelled up and great membranes spreading inside of the shell and all over the yolk. here was i hatching out the eggs of the biggest of all extinct birds, in a little canoe in the midst of the indian ocean. if old dawson had known that! it was worth four years' salary. what do _you_ think? "however, i had to eat that precious thing up, every bit of it, before i sighted the reef, and some of the mouthfuls were beastly unpleasant. i left the third one alone. i held it up to the light, but the shell was too thick for me to get any notion of what might be happening inside; and though i fancied i heard blood pulsing, it might have been the rustle in my own ears, like what you listen to in a seashell. "then came the atoll. came out of the sunrise, as it were, suddenly, close up to me. i drifted straight towards it until i was about half a mile from shore, not more, and then the current took a turn, and i had to paddle as hard as i could with my hands and bits of the aepyornis shell to make the place. however, i got there. it was just a common atoll about four miles round, with a few trees growing and a spring in one place, and the lagoon full of parrot-fish. i took the egg ashore and put it in a good place well above the tide lines and in the sun, to give it all the chance i could, and pulled the canoe up safe, and loafed about prospecting. it's rum how dull an atoll is. as soon as i had found a spring all the interest seemed to vanish. when i was a kid i thought nothing could be finer or more adventurous than the robinson crusoe business, but that place was as monotonous as a book of sermons. i went round finding eatable things and generally thinking; but i tell you i was bored to death before the first day was out. it shows my luck--the very day i landed the weather changed. a thunderstorm went by to the north and flicked its wing over the island, and in the night there came a drencher and a howling wind slap over us. it wouldn't have taken much, you know, to upset that canoe. "i was sleeping under the canoe, and the egg was luckily among the sand higher up the beach, and the first thing i remember was a sound like a hundred pebbles hitting the boat at once, and a rush of water over my body. i'd been dreaming of antananarivo, and i sat up and holloaed to intoshi to ask her what the devil was up, and clawed out at the chair where the matches used to be. then i remembered where i was. there were phosphorescent waves rolling up as if they meant to eat me, and all the rest of the night as black as pitch. the air was simply yelling. the clouds seemed down on your head almost, and the rain fell as if heaven was sinking and they were baling out the waters above the firmament. one great roller came writhing at me, like a fiery serpent, and i bolted. then i thought of the canoe, and ran down to it as the water went hissing back again; but the thing had gone. i wondered about the egg then, and felt my way to it. it was all right and well out of reach of the maddest waves, so i sat down beside it and cuddled it for company. lord! what a night that was! "the storm was over before the morning. there wasn't a rag of cloud left in the sky when the dawn came, and all along the beach there were bits of plank scattered--which was the disarticulated skeleton, so to speak, of my canoe. however, that gave me something to do, for, taking advantage of two of the trees being together, i rigged up a kind of storm-shelter with these vestiges. and that day the egg hatched. "hatched, sir, when my head was pillowed on it and i was asleep. i heard a whack and felt a jar and sat up, and there was the end of the egg pecked out and a rum little brown head looking out at me. 'lord!' i said, 'you're welcome'; and with a little difficulty he came out. "he was a nice friendly little chap, at first, about the size of a small hen--very much like most other young birds, only bigger. his plumage was a dirty brown to begin with, with a sort of grey scab that fell off it very soon, and scarcely feathers--a kind of downy hair. i can hardly express how pleased i was to see him. i tell you, robinson crusoe don't make near enough of his loneliness. but here was interesting company. he looked at me and winked his eye from the front backwards, like a hen, and gave a chirp and began to peck about at once, as though being hatched three hundred years too late was just nothing. 'glad to see you, man friday!' says i, for i had naturally settled he was to be called man friday if ever he was hatched, as soon as ever i found the egg in the canoe had developed. i was a bit anxious about his feed, so i gave him a lump of raw parrot-fish at once. he took it, and opened his beak for more. i was glad of that, for, under the circumstances, if he'd been at all fanciful, i should have had to eat him after all. you'd be surprised what an interesting bird that aepyornis chick was. he followed me about from the very beginning. he used to stand by me and watch while i fished in the lagoon, and go shares in anything i caught. and he was sensible, too. there were nasty green warty things, like pickled gherkins, used to lie about on the beach, and he tried one of these and it upset him. he never even looked at any of them again. "and he grew. you could almost see him grow. and as i was never much of a society man his quiet, friendly ways suited me to a t. for nearly two years we were as happy as we could be on that island. i had no business worries, for i knew my salary was mounting up at dawsons'. we would see a sail now and then, but nothing ever came near us. i amused myself, too, by decorating the island with designs worked in sea-urchins and fancy shells of various kinds. i put aepyornis island all round the place very nearly, in big letters, like what you see done with coloured stones at railway stations in the old country, and mathematical calculations and drawings of various sorts. and i used to lie watching the blessed bird stalking round and growing, growing; and think how i could make a living out of him by showing him about if i ever got taken off. after his first moult he began to get handsome, with a crest and a blue wattle, and a lot of green feathers at the behind of him. and then i used to puzzle whether dawsons had any right to claim him or not. stormy weather and in the rainy season we lay snug under the shelter i had made out of the old canoe, and i used to tell him lies about my friends at home. and after a storm we would go round the island together to see if there was any drift. it was a kind of idyll, you might say. if only i had had some tobacco it would have been simply just like heaven. "it was about the end of the second year our little paradise went wrong. friday was then about fourteen feet high to the bill of him, with a big, broad head like the end of a pickaxe, and two huge brown eyes with yellow rims, set together like a man's--not out of sight of each other like a hen's. his plumage was fine--none of the half-mourning style of your ostrich--more like a cassowary as far as colour and texture go. and then it was he began to cock his comb at me and give himself airs, and show signs of a nasty temper.... "at last came a time when my fishing had been rather unlucky, and he began to hang about me in a queer, meditative way. i thought he might have been eating sea-cucumbers or something, but it was really just discontent on his part. i was hungry too, and when at last i landed a fish i wanted it for myself. tempers were short that morning on both sides. he pecked at it and grabbed it, and i gave him a whack on the head to make him leave go. and at that he went for me. lord!... "he gave me this in the face." the man indicated his scar. "then he kicked me. it was like a cart-horse. i got up, and seeing he hadn't finished, i started off full tilt with my arms doubled up over my face. but he ran on those gawky legs of his faster than a racehorse, and kept landing out at me with sledge hammer kicks, and bringing his pickaxe down on the back of my head. i made for the lagoon, and went in up to my neck. he stopped at the water, for he hated getting his feet wet, and began to make a shindy, something like a peacock's, only hoarser. he started strutting up and down the beach. i'll admit i felt small to see this blessed fossil lording it there. and my head and face were all bleeding, and--well, my body just one jelly of bruises. "i decided to swim across the lagoon and leave him alone for a bit, until the affair blew over. i shinned up the tallest palm-tree, and sat there thinking of it all. i don't suppose i ever felt so hurt by anything before or since. it was the brutal ingratitude of the creature. i'd been more than a brother to him. i'd hatched him, educated him. a great gawky, out-of-date bird! and me a human being--heir of the ages and all that. "i thought after a time he'd begin to see things in that light himself, and feel a little sorry for his behaviour. i thought if i was to catch some nice little bits of fish, perhaps, and go to him presently in a casual kind of way, and offer them to him, he might do the sensible thing. it took me some time to learn how unforgiving and cantankerous an extinct bird can be. malice! "i won't tell you all the little devices i tried to get that bird round again. i simply can't. it makes my cheek burn with shame even now to think of the snubs and buffets i had from this infernal curiosity. i tried violence. i chucked lumps of coral at him from a safe distance, but he only swallowed them. i shied my open knife at him and almost lost it, though it was too big for him to swallow. i tried starving him out and struck fishing, but he took to picking along the beach at low water after worms, and rubbed along on that. half my time i spent up to my neck in the lagoon, and the rest up the palm-trees. one of them was scarcely high enough, and when he caught me up it he had a regular bank holiday with the calves of my legs. it got unbearable. i don't know if you have ever tried sleeping up a palm-tree. it gave me the most horrible nightmares. think of the shame of it, too! here was this extinct animal mooning about my island like a sulky duke, and me not allowed to rest the sole of my foot on the place. i used to cry with weariness and vexation. i told him straight that i didn't mean to be chased about a desert island by any damned anachronisms. i told him to go and peck a navigator of his own age. but he only snapped his beak at me. great ugly bird--all legs and neck! "i shouldn't like to say how long that went on altogether. i'd have killed him sooner if i'd known how. however, i hit on a way of settling him at last. it is a south american dodge. i joined all my fishing-lines together with stems of seaweed and things and made a stoutish string, perhaps twelve yards in length or more, and i fastened two lumps of coral rock to the ends of this. it took me some time to do, because every now and then i had to go into the lagoon or up a tree as the fancy took me. this i whirled rapidly round my head, and then let it go at him. the first time i missed, but the next time the string caught his legs beautifully, and wrapped round them again and again. over he went. i threw it standing waist-deep in the lagoon, and as soon as he went down i was out of the water and sawing at his neck with my knife ... "i don't like to think of that even now. i felt like a murderer while i did it, though my anger was hot against him. when i stood over him and saw him bleeding on the white sand, and his beautiful great legs and neck writhing in his last agony ... pah! "with that tragedy loneliness came upon me like a curse. good lord! you can't imagine how i missed that bird. i sat by his corpse and sorrowed over him, and shivered as i looked round the desolate, silent reef. i thought of what a jolly little bird he had been when he was hatched, and of a thousand pleasant tricks he had played before he went wrong. i thought if i'd only wounded him i might have nursed him round into a better understanding. if i'd had any means of digging into the coral rock i'd have buried him. i felt exactly as if he was human. as it was, i couldn't think of eating him, so i put him in the lagoon, and the little fishes picked him clean. i didn't even save the feathers. then one day a chap cruising about in a yacht had a fancy to see if my atoll still existed. "he didn't come a moment too soon, for i was about sick enough of the desolation of it, and only hesitating whether i should walk out into the sea and finish up the business that way, or fall back on the green things.... "i sold the bones to a man named winslow--a dealer near the british museum, and he says he sold them to old havers. it seems havers didn't understand they were extra large, and it was only after his death they attracted attention. they called 'em aepyornis--what was it?" "_aepyornis vastus_," said i. "it's funny, the very thing was mentioned to me by a friend of mine. when they found an aepyornis, with a thigh a yard long, they thought they had reached the top of the scale, and called him _aepyornis maximus_. then someone turned up another thighbone four feet six or more, and that they called _aepyornis titan_. then your _vastus_ was found after old havers died, in his collection, and then a _vastissimus_ turned up." "winslow was telling me as much," said the man with the scar. "if they get any more aepyornises, he reckons some scientific swell will go and burst a bloodvessel. but it was a queer thing to happen to a man; wasn't it--altogether?" the remarkable case of davidson's eyes the transitory mental aberration of sidney davidson, remarkable enough in itself, is still more remarkable if wade's explanation is to be credited. it sets one dreaming of the oddest possibilities of intercommunication in the future, of spending an intercalary five minutes on the other side of the world, or being watched in our most secret operations by unsuspected eyes. it happened that i was the immediate witness of davidson's seizure, and so it falls naturally to me to put the story upon paper. when i say that i was the immediate witness of his seizure, i mean that i was the first on the scene. the thing happened at the harlow technical college, just beyond the highgate archway. he was alone in the larger laboratory when the thing happened. i was in a smaller room, where the balances are, writing up some notes. the thunderstorm had completely upset my work, of course. it was just after one of the louder peals that i thought i heard some glass smash in the other room. i stopped writing, and turned round to listen. for a moment i heard nothing; the hail was playing the devil's tattoo on the corrugated zinc of the roof. then came another sound, a smash--no doubt of it this time. something heavy had been knocked off the bench. i jumped up at once and went and opened the door leading into the big laboratory. i was surprised to hear a queer sort of laugh, and saw davidson standing unsteadily in the middle of the room, with a dazzled look on his face. my first impression was that he was drunk. he did not notice me. he was clawing out at something invisible a yard in front of his face. he put out his hand, slowly, rather hesitatingly, and then clutched nothing. "what's come to it?" he said. he held up his hands to his face, fingers spread out. "great scot!" he said. the thing happened three or four years ago, when everyone swore by that personage. then he began raising his feet clumsily, as though he had expected to find them glued to the floor. "davidson!" cried i. "what's the matter with you?" he turned round in my direction and looked about for me. he looked over me and at me and on either side of me, without the slightest sign of seeing me. "waves," he said; "and a remarkably neat schooner. i'd swear that was bellows' voice. _hullo_!" he shouted suddenly at the top of his voice. i thought he was up to some foolery. then i saw littered about his feet the shattered remains of the best of our electrometers. "what's up, man?" said i. "you've smashed the electrometer!" "bellows again!" said he. "friends left, if my hands are gone. something about electrometers. which way _are_ you, bellows?" he suddenly came staggering towards me. "the damned stuff cuts like butter," he said. he walked straight into the bench and recoiled. "none so buttery that!" he said, and stood swaying. i felt scared. "davidson," said i, "what on earth's come over you?" he looked round him in every direction. "i could swear that was bellows. why don't you show yourself like a man, bellows?" it occurred to me that he must be suddenly struck blind. i walked round the table and laid my hand upon his arm. i never saw a man more startled in my life. he jumped away from me, and came round into an attitude of self-defence, his face fairly distorted with terror. "good god!" he cried. "what was that?" "it's i--bellows. confound it, davidson!" he jumped when i answered him and stared--how can i express it?--right through me. he began talking, not to me, but to himself. "here in broad daylight on a clear beach. not a place to hide in." he looked about him wildly. "here! i'm _off_." he suddenly turned and ran headlong into the big electro-magnet--so violently that, as we found afterwards, he bruised his shoulder and jawbone cruelly. at that he stepped back a pace, and cried out with almost a whimper, "what, in heaven's name, has come over me?" he stood, blanched with terror and trembling violently, with his right arm clutching his left, where that had collided with the magnet. by that time i was excited and fairly scared. "davidson," said i, "don't be afraid." he was startled at my voice, but not so excessively as before. i repeated my words in as clear and firm a tone as i could assume. "bellows," he said, "is that you?" "can't you see it's me?" he laughed. "i can't even see it's myself. where the devil are we?" "here," said i, "in the laboratory." "the laboratory!" he answered, in a puzzled tone, and put his hand to his forehead. "i _was_ in the laboratory--till that flash came, but i'm hanged if i'm there now. what ship is that?" "there's no ship," said i. "do be sensible, old chap." "no ship!" he repeated, and seemed to forget my denial forthwith. "i suppose," said he, slowly, "we're both dead. but the rummy part is i feel just as though i still had a body. don't get used to it all at once, i suppose. the old shop was struck by lightning, i suppose. jolly quick thing, bellows--eigh?" "don't talk nonsense. you're very much alive. you are in the laboratory, blundering about. you've just smashed a new electrometer. i don't envy you when boyce arrives." he stared away from me towards the diagrams of cryohydrates. "i must be deaf," said he. "they've fired a gun, for there goes the puff of smoke, and i never heard a sound." i put my hand on his arm again, and this time he was less alarmed. "we seem to have a sort of invisible bodies," said he. "by jove! there's a boat coming round the headland. it's very much like the old life after all--in a different climate." i shook his arm. "davidson," i cried, "wake up!" ii. it was just then that boyce came in. so soon as he spoke davidson exclaimed: "old boyce! dead too! what a lark!" i hastened to explain that davidson was in a kind of somnambulistic trance. boyce was interested at once. we both did all we could to rouse the fellow out of his extraordinary state. he answered our questions, and asked us some of his own, but his attention seemed distracted by his hallucination about a beach and a ship. he kept interpolating observations concerning some boat and the davits and sails filling with the wind. it made one feel queer, in the dusky laboratory, to hear him saying such things. he was blind and helpless. we had to walk him down the passage, one at each elbow, to boyce's private room, and while boyce talked to him there, and humoured him about this ship idea, i went along the corridor and asked old wade to come and look at him. the voice of our dean sobered him a little, but not very much. he asked where his hands were, and why he had to walk about up to his waist in the ground. wade thought over him a long time--you know how he knits his brows--and then made him feel the couch, guiding his hands to it. "that's a couch," said wade. "the couch in the private room of professor boyce. horsehair stuffing." davidson felt about, and puzzled over it, and answered presently that he could feel it all right, but he couldn't see it. "what _do_ you see?" asked wade. davidson said he could see nothing but a lot of sand and broken-up shells. wade gave him some other things to feel, telling him what they were, and watching him keenly. "the ship is almost hull down," said davidson, presently, _apropos_ of nothing. "never mind the ship," said wade. "listen to me, davidson. do you know what hallucination means?" "rather," said davidson. "well, everything you see is hallucinatory." "bishop berkeley," said davidson. "don't mistake me," said wade. "you are alive and in this room of boyce's. but something has happened to your eyes. you cannot see; you can feel and hear, but not see. do you follow me?" "it seems to me that i see too much." davidson rubbed his knuckles into his eyes. "well?" he said. "that's all. don't let it perplex you. bellows, here, and i will take you home in a cab." "wait a bit." davidson thought. "help me to sit down," said he, presently; "and now--i'm sorry to trouble you--but will you tell me all that over again?" wade repeated it very patiently. davidson shut his eyes, and pressed his hands upon his forehead. "yes," said he. "it's quite right. now my eyes are shut i know you're right. that's you, bellows, sitting by me on the couch. i'm in england again. and we're in the dark." then he opened his eyes, "and there," said he, "is the sun just rising, and the yards of the ship, and a tumbled sea, and a couple of birds flying. i never saw anything so real. and i'm sitting up to my neck in a bank of sand." he bent forward and covered his face with his hands. then he opened his eyes again. "dark sea and sunrise! and yet i'm sitting on a sofa in old boyce's room! ... god help me!" iii. that was the beginning. for three weeks this strange affection of davidson's eyes continued unabated. it was far worse than being blind. he was absolutely helpless, and had to be fed like a newly-hatched bird, and led about and undressed. if he attempted to move he fell over things or stuck himself against walls or doors. after a day or so he got used to hearing our voices without seeing us, and willingly admitted he was at home, and that wade was right in what he told him. my sister, to whom he was engaged, insisted on coming to see him, and would sit for hours every day while he talked about this beach of his. holding her hand seemed to comfort him immensely. he explained that when we left the college and drove home--he lived in hampstead village--it appeared to him as if we drove right through a sandhill--it was perfectly black until he emerged again--and through rocks and trees and solid obstacles, and when he was taken to his own room it made him giddy and almost frantic with the fear of falling, because going upstairs seemed to lift him thirty or forty feet above the rocks of his imaginary island. he kept saying he should smash all the eggs. the end was that he had to be taken down into his father's consulting room and laid upon a couch that stood there. he described the island as being a bleak kind of place on the whole, with very little vegetation, except some peaty stuff, and a lot of bare rock. there were multitudes of penguins, and they made the rocks white and disagreeable to see. the sea was often rough, and once there was a thunderstorm, and he lay and shouted at the silent flashes. once or twice seals pulled up on the beach, but only on the first two or three days. he said it was very funny the way in which the penguins used to waddle right through him, and how he seemed to lie among them without disturbing them. i remember one odd thing, and that was when he wanted very badly to smoke. we put a pipe in his hands--he almost poked his eye out with it--and lit it. but he couldn't taste anything. i've since found it's the same with me--i don't know if it's the usual case--that i cannot enjoy tobacco at all unless i can see the smoke. but the queerest part of his vision came when wade sent him out in a bath-chair to get fresh air. the davidsons hired a chair, and got that deaf and obstinate dependent of theirs, widgery, to attend to it. widgery's ideas of healthy expeditions were peculiar. my sister, who had been to the dogs' home, met them in camden town, towards king's cross, widgery trotting along complacently, and davidson evidently most distressed, trying in his feeble, blind way to attract widgery's attention. he positively wept when my sister spoke to him. "oh, get me out of this horrible darkness!" he said, feeling for her hand. "i must get out of it, or i shall die." he was quite incapable of explaining what was the matter, but my sister decided he must go home, and presently, as they went up hill towards hampstead, the horror seemed to drop from him. he said it was good to see the stars again, though it was then about noon and a blazing day. "it seemed," he told me afterwards, "as if i was being carried irresistibly towards the water. i was not very much alarmed at first. of course it was night there--a lovely night." "of course?" i asked, for that struck me as odd. "of course," said he. "it's always night there when it is day here.... well, we went right into the water, which was calm and shining under the moonlight--just a broad swell that seemed to grow broader and flatter as i came down into it. the surface glistened just like a skin--it might have been empty space underneath for all i could tell to the contrary. very slowly, for i rode slanting into it, the water crept up to my eyes. then i went under and the skin seemed to break and heal again about my eyes. the moon gave a jump up in the sky and grew green and dim, and fish, faintly glowing, came darting round me--and things that seemed made of luminous glass, and i passed through a tangle of seaweeds that shone with an oily lustre. and so i drove down into the sea, and the stars went out one by one, and the moon grew greener and darker, and the seaweed became a luminous purple-red. it was all very faint and mysterious, and everything seemed to quiver. and all the while i could hear the wheels of the bath-chair creaking, and the footsteps of people going by, and a man in the distance selling the special _pall mall_. "i kept sinking down deeper and deeper into the water. it became inky black about me, not a ray from above came down into that darkness, and the phosphorescent things grew brighter and brighter. the snaky branches of the deeper weeds flickered like the flames of spirit lamps; but, after a time, there were no more weeds. the fishes came staring and gaping towards me, and into me and through me. i never imagined such fishes before. they had lines of fire along the sides of them as though they had been outlined with a luminous pencil. and there was a ghastly thing swimming backwards with a lot of twining arms. and then i saw, coming very slowly towards me through the gloom, a hazy mass of light that resolved itself as it drew nearer into multitudes of fishes, struggling and darting round something that drifted. i drove on straight towards it, and presently i saw in the midst of the tumult, and by the light of the fish, a bit of splintered spar looming over me, and a dark hull tilting over, and some glowing phosphorescent forms that were shaken and writhed as the fish bit at them. then it was i began to try to attract widgery's attention. a horror came upon me. ugh! i should have driven right into those half-eaten--things. if your sister had not come! they had great holes in them, bellows, and ... never mind. but it was ghastly!" iv. for three weeks davidson remained in this singular state, seeing what at the time we imagined was an altogether phantasmal world, and stone blind to the world around him. then, one tuesday, when i called i met old davidson in the passage. "he can see his thumb!" the old gentleman said, in a perfect transport. he was struggling into his overcoat. "he can see his thumb, bellows!" he said, with the tears in his eyes. "the lad will be all right yet." i rushed in to davidson. he was holding up a little book before his face, and looking at it and laughing in a weak kind of way. "it's amazing," said he. "there's a kind of patch come there." he pointed with his finger. "i'm on the rocks as usual, and the penguins are staggering and flapping about as usual, and there's been a whale showing every now and then, but it's got too dark now to make him out. but put something _there_, and i see it--i do see it. it's very dim and broken in places, but i see it all the same, like a faint spectre of itself. i found it out this morning while they were dressing me. it's like a hole in this infernal phantom world. just put your hand by mine. no--not there. ah! yes! i see it. the base of your thumb and a bit of cuff! it looks like the ghost of a bit of your hand sticking out of the darkling sky. just by it there's a group of stars like a cross coming out." from that time davidson began to mend. his account of the change, like his account of the vision, was oddly convincing. over patches of his field of vision, the phantom world grew fainter, grew transparent, as it were, and through these translucent gaps he began to see dimly the real world about him. the patches grew in size and number, ran together and spread until only here and there were blind spots left upon his eyes. he was able to get up and steer himself about, feed himself once more, read, smoke, and behave like an ordinary citizen again. at first it was very confusing to him to have these two pictures overlapping each other like the changing views of a lantern, but in a little while he began to distinguish the real from the illusory. at first he was unfeignedly glad, and seemed only too anxious to complete his cure by taking exercise and tonics. but as that odd island of his began to fade away from him, he became queerly interested in it. he wanted particularly to go down into the deep sea again, and would spend half his time wandering about the low lying parts of london, trying to find the water-logged wreck he had seen drifting. the glare of real daylight very soon impressed him so vividly as to blot out everything of his shadowy world, but of a night time, in a darkened room, he could still see the white-splashed rocks of the island, and the clumsy penguins staggering to and fro. but even these grew fainter and fainter, and, at last, soon after he married my sister, he saw them for the last time. v. and now to tell of the queerest thing of all. about two years after his cure i dined with the davidsons, and after dinner a man named atkins called in. he is a lieutenant in the royal navy, and a pleasant, talkative man. he was on friendly terms with my brother-in-law, and was soon on friendly terms with me. it came out that he was engaged to davidson's cousin, and incidentally he took out a kind of pocket photograph case to show us a new rendering of _fiancée_. "and, by-the-by," said he, "here's the old _fulmar_." davidson looked at it casually. then suddenly his face lit up. "good heavens!" said he. "i could almost swear--" "what?" said atkins. "that i had seen that ship before." "don't see how you can have. she hasn't been out of the south seas for six years, and before then--" "but," began davidson, and then, "yes--that's the ship i dreamt of, i'm sure that's the ship i dreamt of. she was standing off an island that swarmed with penguins, and she fired a gun." "good lord!" said atkins, who had now heard the particulars of the seizure. "how the deuce could you dream that?" and then, bit by bit, it came out that on the very day davidson was seized, h.m.s. _fulmar_ had actually been off a little rock to the south of antipodes island. a boat had landed overnight to get penguins' eggs, had been delayed, and a thunderstorm drifting up, the boat's crew had waited until the morning before rejoining the ship. atkins had been one of them, and he corroborated, word for word, the descriptions davidson had given of the island and the boat. there is not the slightest doubt in any of our minds that davidson has really seen the place. in some unaccountable way, while he moved hither and thither in london, his sight moved hither and thither in a manner that corresponded, about this distant island. _how_ is absolutely a mystery. that completes the remarkable story of davidson's eyes. it's perhaps the best authenticated case in existence of a real vision at a distance. explanation there is none forthcoming, except what professor wade has thrown out. but his explanation invokes the fourth dimension, and a dissertation on theoretical kinds of space. to talk of there being "a kink in space" seems mere nonsense to me; it may be because i am no mathematician. when i said that nothing would alter the fact that the place is eight thousand miles away, he answered that two points might be a yard away on a sheet of paper and yet be brought together by bending the paper round. the reader may grasp his argument, but i certainly do not. his idea seems to be that davidson, stooping between the poles of the big electro-magnet, had some extraordinary twist given to his retinal elements through the sudden change in the field of force due to the lightning. he thinks, as a consequence of this, that it may be possible to live visually in one part of the world, while one lives bodily in another. he has even made some experiments in support of his views; but, so far, he has simply succeeded in blinding a few dogs. i believe that is the net result of his work, though i have not seen him for some weeks. latterly i have been so busy with my work in connection with the saint pancras installation that i have had little opportunity of calling to see him. but the whole of his theory seems fantastic to me. the facts concerning davidson stand on an altogether different footing, and i can testify personally to the accuracy of every detail i have given. the lord of the dynamos the chief attendant of the three dynamos that buzzed and rattled at camberwell, and kept the electric railway going, came out of yorkshire, and his name was james holroyd. he was a practical electrician, but fond of whisky, a heavy, red-haired brute with irregular teeth. he doubted the existence of the deity, but accepted carnot's cycle, and he had read shakespeare and found him weak in chemistry. his helper came out of the mysterious east, and his name was azuma-zi. but holroyd called him pooh-bah. holroyd liked a nigger help because he would stand kicking--a habit with holroyd--and did not pry into the machinery and try to learn the ways of it. certain odd possibilities of the negro mind brought into abrupt contact with the crown of our civilisation holroyd never fully realised, though just at the end he got some inkling of them. to define azuma-zi was beyond ethnology. he was, perhaps, more negroid than anything else, though his hair was curly rather than frizzy, and his nose had a bridge. moreover, his skin was brown rather than black, and the whites of his eyes were yellow. his broad cheek-bones and narrow chin gave his face something of the viperine v. his head, too, was broad behind, and low and narrow at the forehead, as if his brain had been twisted round in the reverse way to a european's. he was short of stature and still shorter of english. in conversation he made numerous odd noises of no known marketable value, and his infrequent words were carved and wrought into heraldic grotesqueness. holroyd tried to elucidate his religious beliefs, and--especially after whiskey--lectured to him against superstition and missionaries. azuma-zi, however, shirked the discussion of his gods, even though he was kicked for it. azuma-zi had come, clad in white but insufficient raiment, out of the stoke-hole of the _lord clive_, from the straits settlements, and beyond, into london. he had heard even in his youth of the greatness and riches of london, where all the women are white and fair, and even the beggars in the streets are white, and he had arrived, with newly-earned gold coins in his pocket, to worship at the shrine of civilisation. the day of his landing was a dismal one; the sky was dun, and a wind-worried drizzle filtered down to the greasy streets, but he plunged boldly into the delights of shadwell, and was presently cast up, shattered in health, civilised in costume, penniless, and, except in matters of the direst necessity, practically a dumb animal, to toil for james holroyd and to be bullied by him in the dynamo shed at camberwell. and to james holroyd bullying was a labour of love. there were three dynamos with their engines at camberwell. the two that have been there since the beginning are small machines; the larger one was new. the smaller machines made a reasonable noise; their straps hummed over the drums, every now and then the brushes buzzed and fizzled, and the air churned steadily, whoo! whoo! whoo! between their poles. one was loose in its foundations and kept the shed vibrating. but the big dynamo drowned these little noises altogether with the sustained drone of its iron core, which somehow set part of the ironwork humming. the place made the visitor's head reel with the throb, throb, throb of the engines, the rotation of the big wheels, the spinning ball-valves, the occasional spittings of the steam, and over all the deep, unceasing, surging note of the big dynamo. this last noise was from an engineering point of view a defect, but azuma-zi accounted it unto the monster for mightiness and pride. if it were possible we would have the noises of that shed always about the reader as he reads, we would tell all our story to such an accompaniment. it was a steady stream of din, from which the ear picked out first one thread and then another; there was the intermittent snorting, panting, and seething of the steam engines, the suck and thud of their pistons, the dull beat on the air as the spokes of the great driving-wheels came round, a note the leather straps made as they ran tighter and looser, and a fretful tumult from the dynamos; and over all, sometimes inaudible, as the ear tired of it, and then creeping back upon the senses again, was this trombone note of the big machine. the floor never felt steady and quiet beneath one's feet, but quivered and jarred. it was a confusing, unsteady place, and enough to send anyone's thoughts jerking into odd zigzags. and for three months, while the big strike of the engineers was in progress, holroyd, who was a blackleg, and azuma-zi, who was a mere black, were never out of the stir and eddy of it, but slept and fed in the little wooden shanty between the shed and the gates. holroyd delivered a theological lecture on the text of his big machine soon after azuma-zi came. he had to shout to be heard in the din. "look at that," said holroyd; "where's your 'eathen idol to match 'im?" and azuma-zi looked. for a moment holroyd was inaudible, and then azuma-zi heard: "kill a hundred men. twelve per cent, on the ordinary shares," said holroyd, "and that's something like a gord!" holroyd was proud of his big dynamo, and expatiated upon its size and power to azuma-zi until heaven knows what odd currents of thought that and the incessant whirling and shindy set up within the curly black cranium. he would explain in the most graphic manner the dozen or so ways in which a man might be killed by it, and once he gave azuma-zi a shock as a sample of its quality. after that, in the breathing-times of his labour--it was heavy labour, being not only his own, but most of holroyd's--azuma-zi would sit and watch the big machine. now and then the brushes would sparkle and spit blue flashes, at which holroyd would swear, but all the rest was as smooth and rhythmic as breathing. the band ran shouting over the shaft, and ever behind one as one watched was the complacent thud of the piston. so it lived all day in this big airy shed, with him and holroyd to wait upon it; not prisoned up and slaving to drive a ship as the other engines he knew--mere captive devils of the british solomon--had been, but a machine enthroned. those two smaller dynamos, azuma-zi by force of contrast despised; the large one he privately christened the lord of the dynamos. they were fretful and irregular, but the big dynamo was steady. how great it was! how serene and easy in its working! greater and calmer even than the buddahs he had seen at rangoon, and yet not motionless, but living! the great black coils spun, spun, spun, the rings ran round under the brushes, and the deep note of its coil steadied the whole. it affected azuma-zi queerly. azuma-zi was not fond of labour. he would sit about and watch the lord of the dynamos while holroyd went away to persuade the yard porter to get whiskey, although his proper place was not in the dynamo shed but behind the engines, and, moreover, if holroyd caught him skulking he got hit for it with a rod of stout copper wire. he would go and stand close to the colossus and look up at the great leather band running overhead. there was a black patch on the band that came round, and it pleased him somehow among all the clatter to watch this return again and again. odd thoughts spun with the whirl of it. scientific people tell us that savages give souls to rocks and trees--and a machine is a thousand times more alive than a rock or a tree. and azuma-zi was practically a savage still; the veneer of civilisation lay no deeper than his slop suit, his bruises, and the coal grime on his face and hands. his father before him had worshipped a meteoric stone, kindred blood it may be had splashed the broad wheels of juggernaut. he took every opportunity holroyd gave him of touching and handling the great dynamo that was fascinating him. he polished and cleaned it until the metal parts were blinding in the sun. he felt a mysterious sense of service in doing this. he would go up to it and touch its spinning coils gently. the gods he had worshipped were all far away. the people in london hid their gods. at last his dim feelings grew more distinct, and took shape in thoughts and at last in acts. when he came into the roaring shed one morning he salaamed to the lord of the dynamos, and then, when holroyd was away, he went and whispered to the thundering machine that he was its servant, and prayed it to have pity on him and save him from holroyd. as he did so a rare gleam of light came in through the open archway of the throbbing machine-shed, and the lord of the dynamos, as he whirled and roared, was radiant with pale gold. then azuma-zi knew that his service was acceptable to his lord. after that he did not feel so lonely as he had done, and he had indeed been very much alone in london. and even when his work time was over, which was rare, he loitered about the shed. then, the next time holroyd maltreated him, azuma-zi went presently to the lord of the dynamos and whispered, "thou seest, o my lord!" and the angry whirr of the machinery seemed to answer him. thereafter it appeared to him that whenever holroyd came into the shed a different note came into the sounds of the dynamo. "my lord bides his time," said azuma-zi to himself. "the iniquity of the fool is not yet ripe." and he waited and watched for the day of reckoning. one day there was evidence of short circuiting, and holroyd, making an unwary examination--it was in the afternoon--got a rather severe shock. azuma-zi from behind the engine saw him jump off and curse at the peccant coil. "he is warned," said azuma-zi to himself. "surely my lord is very patient." holroyd had at first initiated his "nigger" into such elementary conceptions of the dynamo's working as would enable him to take temporary charge of the shed in his absence. but when he noticed the manner in which azuma-zi hung about the monster he became suspicious. he dimly perceived his assistant was "up to something," and connecting him with the anointing of the coils with oil that had rotted the varnish in one place, he issued an edict, shouted above the confusion of the machinery, "don't 'ee go nigh that big dynamo any more, pooh-bah, or a'll take thy skin off!" besides, if it pleased azuma-zi to be near the big machine, it was plain sense and decency to keep him away from it. azuma-zi obeyed at the time, but later he was caught bowing before the lord of the dynamos. at which holroyd twisted his arm and kicked him as he turned to go away. as azuma-zi presently stood behind the engine and glared at the back of the hated holroyd, the noises of the machinery took a new rhythm, and sounded like four words in his native tongue. it is hard to say exactly what madness is. i fancy azuma-zi was mad. the incessant din and whirl of the dynamo shed may have churned up his little store of knowledge and big store of superstitious fancy, at last, into something akin to frenzy. at any rate, when the idea of making holroyd a sacrifice to the dynamo fetich was thus suggested to him, it filled him with a strange tumult of exultant emotion. that night the two men and their black shadows were alone in the shed together. the shed was lit with one big arc light that winked and flickered purple. the shadows lay black behind the dynamos, the ball governors of the engines whirled from light to darkness, and their pistons beat loud and steady. the world outside seen through the open end of the shed seemed incredibly dim and remote. it seemed absolutely silent, too, since the riot of the machinery drowned every external sound. far away was the black fence of the yard with grey shadowy houses behind, and above was the deep blue sky and the pale little stars. azuma-zi suddenly walked across the centre of the shed above which the leather bands were running, and went into the shadow by the big dynamo. holroyd heard a click, and the spin of the armature changed. "what are you dewin' with that switch?" he bawled in surprise. "han't i told you--" then he saw the set expression of azuma-zi's eyes as the asiatic came out of the shadow towards him. in another moment the two men were grappling fiercely in front of the great dynamo. "you coffee-headed fool!" gasped holroyd, with a brown hand at his throat. "keep off those contact rings." in another moment he was tripped and reeling back upon the lord of the dynamos. he instinctively loosened his grip upon his antagonist to save himself from the machine. the messenger, sent in furious haste from the station to find out what had happened in the dynamo shed, met azuma-zi at the porter's lodge by the gate. azuma-zi tried to explain something, but the messenger could make nothing of the black's incoherent english, and hurried on to the shed. the machines were all noisily at work, and nothing seemed to be disarranged. there was, however, a queer smell of singed hair. then he saw an odd-looking crumpled mass clinging to the front of the big dynamo, and, approaching, recognised the distorted remains of holroyd. the man stared and hesitated a moment. then he saw the face, and shut his eyes convulsively. he turned on his heel before he opened them, so that he should not see holroyd again, and went out of the shed to get advice and help. when azuma-zi saw holroyd die in the grip of the great dynamo he had been a little scared about the consequences of his act. yet he felt strangely elated, and knew that the favour of the lord dynamo was upon him. his plan was already settled when he met the man coming from the station, and the scientific manager who speedily arrived on the scene jumped at the obvious conclusion of suicide. this expert scarcely noticed azuma-zi, except to ask a few questions. did he see holroyd kill himself? azuma-zi explained he had been out of sight at the engine furnace until he heard a difference in the noise from the dynamo. it was not a difficult examination, being untinctured by suspicion. the distorted remains of holroyd, which the electrician removed from the machine, were hastily covered by the porter with a coffee-stained tablecloth. somebody, by a happy inspiration, fetched a medical man. the expert was chiefly anxious to get the machine at work again, for seven or eight trains had stopped midway in the stuffy tunnels of the electric railway. azuma-zi, answering or misunderstanding the questions of the people who had by authority or impudence come into the shed, was presently sent back to the stoke-hole by the scientific manager. of course a crowd collected outside the gates of the yard--a crowd, for no known reason, always hovers for a day or two near the scene of a sudden death in london--two or three reporters percolated somehow into the engine-shed, and one even got to azuma-zi; but the scientific expert cleared them out again, being himself an amateur journalist. presently the body was carried away, and public interest departed with it. azuma-zi remained very quietly at his furnace, seeing over and over again in the coals a figure that wriggled violently and became still. an hour after the murder, to anyone coming into the shed it would have looked exactly as if nothing remarkable had ever happened there. peeping presently from his engine-room the black saw the lord dynamo spin and whirl beside his little brothers, and the driving wheels were beating round, and the steam in the pistons went thud, thud, exactly as it had been earlier in the evening. after all, from the mechanical point of view, it had been a most insignificant incident--the mere temporary deflection of a current. but now the slender form and slender shadow of the scientific manager replaced the sturdy outline of holroyd travelling up and down the lane of light upon the vibrating floor under the straps between the engines and the dynamos. "have i not served my lord?" said azuma-zi inaudibly, from his shadow, and the note of the great dynamo rang out full and clear. as he looked at the big whirling mechanism the strange fascination of it that had been a little in abeyance since holroyd's death resumed its sway. never had azuma-zi seen a man killed so swiftly and pitilessly. the big humming machine had slain its victim without wavering for a second from its steady beating. it was indeed a mighty god. the unconscious scientific manager stood with his back to him, scribbling on a piece of paper. his shadow lay at the foot of the monster. "was the lord dynamo still hungry? his servant was ready." azuma-zi made a stealthy step forward; then stopped. the scientific manager suddenly stopped writing, and walked down the shed to the endmost of the dynamos, and began to examine the brushes. azuma-zi hesitated, and then slipped across noiselessly into the shadow by the switch. there he waited. presently the manager's footsteps could be heard returning. he stopped in his old position, unconscious of the stoker crouching ten feet away from him. then the big dynamo suddenly fizzled, and in another moment azuma-zi had sprung out of the darkness upon him. first, the scientific manager was gripped round the body and swung towards the big dynamo, then, kicking with his knee and forcing his antagonist's head down with his hands, he loosened the grip on his waist and swung round away from the machine. then the black grasped him again, putting a curly head against his chest, and they swayed and panted as it seemed for an age or so. then the scientific manager was impelled to catch a black ear in his teeth and bite furiously. the black yelled hideously. they rolled over on the floor, and the black, who had apparently slipped from the vice of the teeth or parted with some ear--the scientific manager wondered which at the time--tried to throttle him. the scientific manager was making some ineffectual efforts to claw something with his hands and to kick, when the welcome sound of quick footsteps sounded on the floor. the next moment azuma-zi had left him and darted towards the big dynamo. there was a splutter amid the roar. the officer of the company who had entered, stood staring as azuma-zi caught the naked terminals in his hands, gave one horrible convulsion, and then hung motionless from the machine, his face violently distorted. "i'm jolly glad you came in when you did," said the scientific manager, still sitting on the floor. he looked at the still quivering figure. "it is not a nice death to die, apparently--but it is quick." the official was still staring at the body. he was a man of slow apprehension. there was a pause. the scientific manager got up on his feet rather awkwardly. he ran his fingers along his collar thoughtfully, and moved his head to and fro several times. "poor holroyd! i see now." then almost mechanically he went towards the switch in the shadow and turned the current into the railway circuit again. as he did so the singed body loosened its grip upon the machine and fell forward on its face. the core of the dynamo roared out loud and clear, and the armature beat the air. so ended prematurely the worship of the dynamo deity, perhaps the most short-lived of all religions. yet withal it could at least boast a martyrdom and a human sacrifice. the hammerpond park burglary it is a moot point whether burglary is to be considered as a sport, a trade, or an art. for a trade, the technique is scarcely rigid enough, and its claims to be considered an art are vitiated by the mercenary element that qualifies its triumphs. on the whole it seems to be most justly ranked as sport, a sport for which no rules are at present formulated, and of which the prizes are distributed in an extremely informal manner. it was this informality of burglary that led to the regrettable extinction of two promising beginners at hammerpond park. the stakes offered in this affair consisted chiefly of diamonds and other personal _bric-à-brac_ belonging to the newly married lady aveling. lady aveling, as the reader will remember, was the only daughter of mrs montague pangs, the well-known hostess. her marriage to lord aveling was extensively advertised in the papers, the quantity and quality of her wedding presents, and the fact that the honeymoon was to be spent at hammerpond. the announcement of these valuable prizes created a considerable sensation in the small circle in which mr teddy watkins was the undisputed leader, and it was decided that, accompanied by a duly qualified assistant, he should visit the village of hammerpond in his professional capacity. being a man of naturally retiring and modest disposition, mr watkins determined to make this visit _incog_., and after due consideration of the conditions of his enterprise, he selected the rôle of a landscape artist and the unassuming surname of smith. he preceded his assistant, who, it was decided, should join him only on the last afternoon of his stay at hammerpond. now the village of hammerpond is perhaps one of the prettiest little corners in sussex; many thatched houses still survive, the flint-built church with its tall spire nestling under the down is one of the finest and least restored in the county, and the beech-woods and bracken jungles through which the road runs to the great house are singularly rich in what the vulgar artist and photographer call "bits." so that mr watkins, on his arrival with two virgin canvases, a brand-new easel, a paint-box, portmanteau, an ingenious little ladder made in sections (after the pattern of the late lamented master charles peace), crowbar, and wire coils, found himself welcomed with effusion and some curiosity by half-a-dozen other brethren of the brush. it rendered the disguise he had chosen unexpectedly plausible, but it inflicted upon him a considerable amount of aesthetic conversation for which he was very imperfectly prepared. "have you exhibited very much?" said young porson in the bar-parlour of the "coach and horses," where mr watkins was skilfully accumulating local information on the night of his arrival. "very little," said mr watkins, "just a snack here and there." "academy?" "in course. _and_ the crystal palace." "did they hang you well?" said porson. "don't rot," said mr watkins; "i don't like it." "i mean did they put you in a good place?" "whadyer mean?" said mr watkins suspiciously. "one 'ud think you were trying to make out i'd been put away." porson had been brought up by aunts, and was a gentlemanly young man even for an artist; he did not know what being "put away" meant, but he thought it best to explain that he intended nothing of the sort. as the question of hanging seemed a sore point with mr watkins, he tried to divert the conversation a little. "do you do figure-work at all?" "no, never had a head for figures," said mr watkins, "my miss--mrs smith, i mean, does all that." "she paints too!" said porson. "that's rather jolly." "very," said mr watkins, though he really did not think so, and, feeling the conversation was drifting a little beyond his grasp, added, "i came down here to paint hammerpond house by moonlight." "really!" said porson. "that's rather a novel idea." "yes," said mr watkins, "i thought it rather a good notion when it occurred to me. i expect to begin to-morrow night." "what! you don't mean to paint in the open, by night?" "i do, though." "but how will you see your canvas?" "have a bloomin' cop's--" began mr watkins, rising too quickly to the question, and then realising this, bawled to miss durgan for another glass of beer. "i'm goin' to have a thing called a dark lantern," he said to porson. "but it's about new moon now," objected porson. "there won't be any moon." "there'll be the house," said watkins, "at any rate. i'm goin', you see, to paint the house first and the moon afterwards." "oh!" said porson, too staggered to continue the conversation. "they doo say," said old durgan, the landlord, who had maintained a respectful silence during the technical conversation, "as there's no less than three p'licemen from 'azelworth on dewty every night in the house--'count of this lady aveling 'n her jewellery. one'm won fower-and-six last night, off second footman--tossin'." towards sunset next day mr watkins, virgin canvas, easel, and a very considerable case of other appliances in hand, strolled up the pleasant pathway through the beech-woods to hammerpond park, and pitched his apparatus in a strategic position commanding the house. here he was observed by mr raphael sant, who was returning across the park from a study of the chalk-pits. his curiosity having been fired by porson's account of the new arrival, he turned aside with the idea of discussing nocturnal art. mr watkins was apparently unaware of his approach. a friendly conversation with lady hammerpond's butler had just terminated, and that individual, surrounded by the three pet dogs which it was his duty to take for an airing after dinner had been served, was receding in the distance. mr watkins was mixing colour with an air of great industry. sant, approaching more nearly, was surprised to see the colour in question was as harsh and brilliant an emerald green as it is possible to imagine. having cultivated an extreme sensibility to colour from his earliest years, he drew the air in sharply between his teeth at the very first glimpse of this brew. mr watkins turned round. he looked annoyed. "what on earth are you going to do with that _beastly_ green?" said sant. mr watkins realised that his zeal to appear busy in the eyes of the butler had evidently betrayed him into some technical error. he looked at sant and hesitated. "pardon my rudeness," said sant; "but really, that green is altogether too amazing. it came as a shock. what _do_ you mean to do with it?" mr watkins was collecting his resources. nothing could save the situation but decision. "if you come here interrupting my work," he said, "i'm a-goin' to paint your face with it." sant retired, for he was a humourist and a peaceful man. going down the hill he met porson and wainwright. "either that man is a genius or he is a dangerous lunatic," said he. "just go up and look at his green." and he continued his way, his countenance brightened by a pleasant anticipation of a cheerful affray round an easel in the gloaming, and the shedding of much green paint. but to porson and wainwright mr watkins was less aggressive, and explained that the green was intended to be the first coating of his picture. it was, he admitted in response to a remark, an absolutely new method, invented by himself. but subsequently he became more reticent; he explained he was not going to tell every passer-by the secret of his own particular style, and added some scathing remarks upon the meanness of people "hanging about" to pick up such tricks of the masters as they could, which immediately relieved him of their company. twilight deepened, first one then another star appeared. the rooks amid the tall trees to the left of the house had long since lapsed into slumbrous silence, the house itself lost all the details of its architecture and became a dark grey outline, and then the windows of the salon shone out brilliantly, the conservatory was lighted up, and here and there a bedroom window burnt yellow. had anyone approached the easel in the park it would have been found deserted. one brief uncivil word in brilliant green sullied the purity of its canvas. mr watkins was busy in the shrubbery with his assistant, who had discreetly joined him from the carriage-drive. mr watkins was inclined to be self-congratulatory upon the ingenious device by which he had carried all his apparatus boldly, and in the sight of all men, right up to the scene of operations. "that's the dressing-room," he said to his assistant, "and, as soon as the maid takes the candle away and goes down to supper, we'll call in. my! how nice the house do look, to be sure, against the starlight, and with all its windows and lights! swopme, jim, i almost wish i _was_ a painter-chap. have you fixed that there wire across the path from the laundry?" he cautiously approached the house until he stood below the dressing-room window, and began to put together his folding ladder. he was much too experienced a practitioner to feel any unusual excitement. jim was reconnoitring the smoking-room. suddenly, close beside mr watkins in the bushes, there was a violent crash and a stifled curse. someone had tumbled over the wire which his assistant had just arranged. he heard feet running on the gravel pathway beyond. mr watkins, like all true artists, was a singularly shy man, and he incontinently dropped his folding ladder and began running circumspectly through the shrubbery. he was indistinctly aware of two people hot upon his heels, and he fancied that he distinguished the outline of his assistant in front of him. in another moment he had vaulted the low stone wall bounding the shrubbery, and was in the open park. two thuds on the turf followed his own leap. it was a close chase in the darkness through the trees. mr watkins was a loosely-built man and in good training, and he gained hand-over-hand upon the hoarsely panting figure in front. neither spoke, but, as mr watkins pulled up alongside, a qualm of awful doubt came over him. the other man turned his head at the same moment and gave an exclamation of surprise. "it's not jim," thought mr watkins, and simultaneously the stranger flung himself, as it were, at watkin's knees, and they were forthwith grappling on the ground together. "lend a hand, bill," cried the stranger as the third man came up. and bill did--two hands in fact, and some accentuated feet. the fourth man, presumably jim, had apparently turned aside and made off in a different direction. at any rate, he did not join the trio. mr watkins' memory of the incidents of the next two minutes is extremely vague. he has a dim recollection of having his thumb in the corner of the mouth of the first man, and feeling anxious about its safety, and for some seconds at least he held the head of the gentleman answering to the name of bill, to the ground by the hair. he was also kicked in a great number of different places, apparently by a vast multitude of people. then the gentleman who was not bill got his knee below mr watkins' diaphragm, and tried to curl him up upon it. when his sensations became less entangled he was sitting upon the turf, and eight or ten men--the night was dark, and he was rather too confused to count--standing round him, apparently waiting for him to recover. he mournfully assumed that he was captured, and would probably have made some philosophical reflections on the fickleness of fortune, had not his internal sensations disinclined him for speech. he noticed very quickly that his wrists were not handcuffed, and then a flask of brandy was put in his hands. this touched him a little--it was such unexpected kindness. "he's a-comin' round," said a voice which he fancied he recognised as belonging to the hammerpond second footman. "we've got 'em, sir, both of 'em," said the hammerpond butler, the man who had handed him the flask. "thanks to _you_." no one answered this remark. yet he failed to see how it applied to him. "he's fair dazed," said a strange voice; "the villains half-murdered him." mr teddy watkins decided to remain fair dazed until he had a better grasp of the situation. he perceived that two of the black figures round him stood side-by-side with a dejected air, and there was something in the carriage of their shoulders that suggested to his experienced eye hands that were bound together. two! in a flash he rose to his position. he emptied the little flask and staggered--obsequious hands assisting him--to his feet. there was a sympathetic murmur. "shake hands, sir, shake hands," said one of the figures near him. "permit me to introduce myself. i am very greatly indebted to you. it was the jewels of my wife, lady aveling, which attracted these scoundrels to the house." "very glad to make your lordship's acquaintance," said teddy watkins. "i presume you saw the rascals making for the shrubbery, and dropped down on them?" "that's exactly how it happened," said mr watkins. "you should have waited till they got in at the window," said lord aveling; "they would get it hotter if they had actually committed the burglary. and it was lucky for you two of the policemen were out by the gates, and followed up the three of you. i doubt if you could have secured the two of them--though it was confoundedly plucky of you, all the same." "yes, i ought to have thought of all that," said mr watkins; "but one can't think of everythink." "certainly not," said lord aveling. "i am afraid they have mauled you a little," he added. the party was now moving towards the house. "you walk rather lame. may i offer you my arm?" and instead of entering hammerpond house by the dressing-room window, mr watkins entered it--slightly intoxicated, and inclined now to cheerfulness again--on the arm of a real live peer, and by the front door. "this," thought mr watkins, "is burgling in style!" the "scoundrels," seen by the gaslight, proved to be mere local amateurs unknown to mr watkins, and they were taken down into the pantry and there watched over by the three policemen, two gamekeepers with loaded guns, the butler, an ostler, and a carman, until the dawn allowed of their removal to hazelhurst police-station. mr watkins was made much of in the saloon. they devoted a sofa to him, and would not hear of a return to the village that night. lady aveling was sure he was brilliantly original, and said her idea of turner was just such another rough, half-inebriated, deep-eyed, brave, and clever man. some one brought up a remarkable little folding-ladder that had been picked up in the shrubbery, and showed him how it was put together. they also described how wires had been found in the shrubbery, evidently placed there to trip-up unwary pursuers. it was lucky he had escaped these snares. and they showed him the jewels. mr watkins had the sense not to talk too much, and in any conversational difficulty fell back on his internal pains. at last he was seized with stiffness in the back, and yawning. everyone suddenly awoke to the fact that it was a shame to keep him talking after his affray, so he retired early to his room, the little red room next to lord aveling's suite. the dawn found a deserted easel bearing a canvas with a green inscription, in the hammerpond park, and it found hammerpond house in commotion. but if the dawn found mr teddy watkins and the aveling diamonds, it did not communicate the information to the police. a moth--genus novo probably you have heard of hapley--not w.t. hapley, the son, but the celebrated hapley, the hapley of _periplaneta hapliia_, hapley the entomologist. if so you know at least of the great feud between hapley and professor pawkins. though certain of its consequences may be new to you. for those who have not, a word or two of explanation is necessary, which the idle reader may go over with a glancing eye, if his indolence so incline him. it is amazing how very widely diffused is the ignorance of such really important matters as this hapley-pawkins feud. those epoch-making controversies, again, that have convulsed the geological society, are, i verily believe, almost entirely unknown outside the fellowship of that body. i have heard men of fair general education even refer to the great scenes at these meetings as vestry-meeting squabbles. yet the great hate of the english and scotch geologists has lasted now half a century, and has "left deep and abundant marks upon the body of the science." and this hapley-pawkins business, though perhaps a more personal affair, stirred passions as profound, if not profounder. your common man has no conception of the zeal that animates a scientific investigator, the fury of contradiction you can arouse in him. it is the _odium theologicum_ in a new form. there are men, for instance, who would gladly burn professor ray lankester at smithfield for his treatment of the mollusca in the encyclopaedia. that fantastic extension of the cephalopods to cover the pteropods ... but i wander from hapley and pawkins. it began years and years ago, with a revision of the microlepidoptera (whatever these may be) by pawkins, in which he extinguished a new species created by hapley. hapley, who was always quarrelsome, replied by a stinging impeachment of the entire classification of pawkins[a]. pawkins, in his "rejoinder[b]," suggested that hapley's microscope was as defective as his powers of observation, and called him an "irresponsible meddler"--hapley was not a professor at that time. hapley, in his retort[c], spoke of "blundering collectors," and described, as if inadvertently, pawkins' revision as a "miracle of ineptitude." it was war to the knife. however, it would scarcely interest the reader to detail how these two great men quarrelled, and how the split between them widened until from the microlepidoptera they were at war upon every open question in entomology. there were memorable occasions. at times the royal entomological society meetings resembled nothing so much as the chamber of deputies. on the whole, i fancy pawkins was nearer the truth than hapley. but hapley was skilful with his rhetoric, had a turn for ridicule rare in a scientific man, was endowed with vast energy, and had a fine sense of injury in the matter of the extinguished species; while pawkins was a man of dull presence, prosy of speech, in shape not unlike a water-barrel, over-conscientious with testimonials, and suspected of jobbing museum appointments. so the young men gathered round hapley and applauded him. it was a long struggle, vicious from the beginning, and growing at last to pitiless antagonism. the successive turns of fortune, now an advantage to one side and now to another--now hapley tormented by some success of pawkins, and now pawkins outshone by hapley, belong rather to the history of entomology than to this story. [footnote a: "remarks on a recent revision of microlepidoptera." _quart. journ. entomological soc_. .] [footnote b: "rejoinder to certain remarks," &c. _ibid_. .] [footnote c: "further remarks," &c. _ibid_.] but in pawkins, whose health had been bad for some time, published some work upon the "mesoblast" of the death's head moth. what the mesoblast of the death's head moth may be, does not matter a rap in this story. but the work was far below his usual standard, and gave hapley an opening he had coveted for years. he must have worked night and day to make the most of his advantage. in an elaborate critique he rent pawkins to tatters--one can fancy the man's disordered black hair, and his queer dark eyes flashing as he went for his antagonist--and pawkins made a reply, halting, ineffectual, with painful gaps of silence, and yet malignant. there was no mistaking his will to wound hapley, nor his incapacity to do it. but few of those who heard him--i was absent from that meeting--realised how ill the man was. hapley had got his opponent down, and meant to finish him. he followed with a simply brutal attack upon pawkins, in the form of a paper upon the development of moths in general, a paper showing evidence of a most extraordinary amount of mental labour, and yet couched in a violently controversial tone. violent as it was, an editorial note witnesses that it was modified. it must have covered pawkins with shame and confusion of face. it left no loophole; it was murderous in argument, and utterly contemptuous in tone; an awful thing for the declining years of a man's career. the world of entomologists waited breathlessly for the rejoinder from pawkins. he would try one, for pawkins had always been game. but when it came it surprised them. for the rejoinder of pawkins was to catch the influenza, to proceed to pneumonia, and to die. it was perhaps as effectual a reply as he could make under the circumstances, and largely turned the current of feeling against hapley. the very people who had most gleefully cheered on those gladiators became serious at the consequence. there could be no reasonable doubt the fret of the defeat had contributed to the death of pawkins. there was a limit even to scientific controversy, said serious people. another crushing attack was already in the press and appeared on the day before the funeral. i don't think hapley exerted himself to stop it. people remembered how hapley had hounded down his rival, and forgot that rival's defects. scathing satire reads ill over fresh mould. the thing provoked comment in the daily papers. this it was that made me think that you had probably heard of hapley and this controversy. but, as i have already remarked, scientific workers live very much in a world of their own; half the people, i dare say, who go along piccadilly to the academy every year, could not tell you where the learned societies abide. many even think that research is a kind of happy-family cage in which all kinds of men lie down together in peace. in his private thoughts hapley could not forgive pawkins for dying. in the first place, it was a mean dodge to escape the absolute pulverisation hapley had in hand for him, and in the second, it left hapley's mind with a queer gap in it. for twenty years he had worked hard, sometimes far into the night, and seven days a week, with microscope, scalpel, collecting-net, and pen, and almost entirely with reference to pawkins. the european reputation he had won had come as an incident in that great antipathy. he had gradually worked up to a climax in this last controversy. it had killed pawkins, but it had also thrown hapley out of gear, so to speak, and his doctor advised him to give up work for a time, and rest. so hapley went down into a quiet village in kent, and thought day and night of pawkins, and good things it was now impossible to say about him. at last hapley began to realise in what direction the pre-occupation tended. he determined to make a fight for it, and started by trying to read novels. but he could not get his mind off pawkins, white in the face, and making his last speech--every sentence a beautiful opening for hapley. he turned to fiction--and found it had no grip on him. he read the "island nights' entertainments" until his "sense of causation" was shocked beyond endurance by the bottle imp. then he went to kipling, and found he "proved nothing," besides being irreverent and vulgar. these scientific people have their limitations. then unhappily, he tried besant's "inner house," and the opening chapter set his mind upon learned societies and pawkins at once. so hapley turned to chess, and found it a little more soothing. he soon mastered the moves and the chief gambits and commoner closing positions, and began to beat the vicar. but then the cylindrical contours of the opposite king began to resemble pawkins standing up and gasping ineffectually against check-mate, and hapley decided to give up chess. perhaps the study of some new branch of science would after all be better diversion. the best rest is change of occupation. hapley determined to plunge at diatoms, and had one of his smaller microscopes and halibut's monograph sent down from london. he thought that perhaps if he could get up a vigorous quarrel with halibut, he might be able to begin life afresh and forget pawkins. and very soon he was hard at work, in his habitual strenuous fashion, at these microscopic denizens of the way-side pool. it was on the third day of the diatoms that hapley became aware of a novel addition to the local fauna. he was working late at the microscope, and the only light in the room was the brilliant little lamp with the special form of green shade. like all experienced microscopists, he kept both eyes open. it is the only way to avoid excessive fatigue. one eye was over the instrument, and bright and distinct before that was the circular field of the microscope, across which a brown diatom was slowly moving. with the other eye hapley saw, as it were, without seeing[a]. he was only dimly conscious of the brass side of the instrument, the illuminated part of the table-cloth, a sheet of note-paper, the foot of the lamp, and the darkened room beyond. [footnote a: the reader unaccustomed to microscopes may easily understand this by rolling a newspaper in the form of a tube and looking through it at a book, keeping the other eye open.] suddenly his attention drifted from one eye to the other. the table-cloth was of the material called tapestry by shopmen, and rather brightly coloured. the pattern was in gold, with a small amount of crimson and pale blue upon a greyish ground. at one point the pattern seemed displaced, and there was a vibrating movement of the colours at this point. hapley suddenly moved his head back and looked with both eyes. his mouth fell open with astonishment. it was a large moth or butterfly; its wings spread in butterfly fashion! it was strange it should be in the room at all, for the windows were closed. strange that it should not have attracted his attention when fluttering to its present position. strange that it should match the table-cloth. stranger far that to him, hapley, the great entomologist, it was altogether unknown. there was no delusion. it was crawling slowly towards the foot of the lamp. "_genus novo_, by heavens! and in england!" said hapley, staring. then he suddenly thought of pawkins. nothing would have maddened pawkins more.... and pawkins was dead! something about the head and body of the insect became singularly suggestive of pawkins, just as the chess king had been. "confound pawkins!" said hapley. "but i must catch this." and, looking round him for some means of capturing the moth, he rose slowly out of his chair. suddenly the insect rose, struck the edge of the lampshade--hapley heard the "ping"--and vanished into the shadow. in a moment hapley had whipped off the shade, so that the whole room was illuminated. the thing had disappeared, but soon his practised eye detected it upon the wall paper near the door. he went towards it, poising the lamp-shade for capture. before he was within striking distance, however, it had risen and was fluttering round the room. after the fashion of its kind, it flew with sudden starts and turns, seeming to vanish here and reappear there. once hapley struck, and missed; then again. the third time he hit his microscope. the instrument swayed, struck and overturned the lamp, and fell noisily upon the floor. the lamp turned over on the table and, very luckily, went out. hapley was left in the dark. with a start he felt the strange moth blunder into his face. it was maddening. he had no lights. if he opened the door of the room the thing would get away. in the darkness he saw pawkins quite distinctly laughing at him. pawkins had ever an oily laugh. he swore furiously and stamped his foot on the floor. there was a timid rapping at the door. then it opened, perhaps a foot, and very slowly. the alarmed face of the landlady appeared behind a pink candle flame; she wore a night-cap over her grey hair and had some purple garment over her shoulders. "what _was_ that fearful smash?" she said. "has anything--" the strange moth appeared fluttering about the chink of the door. "shut that door!" said hapley, and suddenly rushed at her. the door slammed hastily. hapley was left alone in the dark. then in the pause he heard his landlady scuttle upstairs, lock her door and drag something heavy across the room and put against it. it became evident to hapley that his conduct and appearance had been strange and alarming. confound the moth! and pawkins! however, it was a pity to lose the moth now. he felt his way into the hall and found the matches, after sending his hat down upon the floor with a noise like a drum. with the lighted candle he returned to the sitting-room. no moth was to be seen. yet once for a moment it seemed that the thing was fluttering round his head. hapley very suddenly decided to give up the moth and go to bed. but he was excited. all night long his sleep was broken by dreams of the moth, pawkins, and his landlady. twice in the night he turned out and soused his head in cold water. one thing was very clear to him. his landlady could not possibly understand about the strange moth, especially as he had failed to catch it. no one but an entomologist would understand quite how he felt. she was probably frightened at his behaviour, and yet he failed to see how he could explain it. he decided to say nothing further about the events of last night. after breakfast he saw her in her garden, and decided to go out to talk to her to reassure her. he talked to her about beans and potatoes, bees, caterpillars, and the price of fruit. she replied in her usual manner, but she looked at him a little suspiciously, and kept walking as he walked, so that there was always a bed of flowers, or a row of beans, or something of the sort, between them. after a while he began to feel singularly irritated at this, and to conceal his vexation went indoors and presently went out for a walk. the moth, or butterfly, trailing an odd flavour of pawkins with it, kept coming into that walk, though he did his best to keep his mind off it. once he saw it quite distinctly, with its wings flattened out, upon the old stone wall that runs along the west edge of the park, but going up to it he found it was only two lumps of grey and yellow lichen. "this," said hapley, "is the reverse of mimicry. instead of a butterfly looking like a stone, here is a stone looking like a butterfly!" once something hovered and fluttered round his head, but by an effort of will he drove that impression out of his mind again. in the afternoon hapley called upon the vicar, and argued with him upon theological questions. they sat in the little arbour covered with briar, and smoked as they wrangled. "look at that moth!" said hapley, suddenly, pointing to the edge of the wooden table. "where?" said the vicar. "you don't see a moth on the edge of the table there?" said hapley. "certainly not," said the vicar. hapley was thunderstruck. he gasped. the vicar was staring at him. clearly the man saw nothing. "the eye of faith is no better than the eye of science," said hapley, awkwardly. "i don't see your point," said the vicar, thinking it was part of the argument. that night hapley found the moth crawling over his counterpane. he sat on the edge of the bed in his shirt-sleeves and reasoned with himself. was it pure hallucination? he knew he was slipping, and he battled for his sanity with the same silent energy he had formerly displayed against pawkins. so persistent is mental habit, that he felt as if it were still a struggle with pawkins. he was well versed in psychology. he knew that such visual illusions do come as a result of mental strain. but the point was, he did not only _see_ the moth, he had heard it when it touched the edge of the lampshade, and afterwards when it hit against the wall, and he had felt it strike his face in the dark. he looked at it. it was not at all dreamlike, but perfectly clear and solid-looking in the candle-light. he saw the hairy body, and the short feathery antennae, the jointed legs, even a place where the down was rubbed from the wing. he suddenly felt angry with himself for being afraid of a little insect. his landlady had got the servant to sleep with her that night, because she was afraid to be alone. in addition she had locked the door, and put the chest of drawers against it. they listened and talked in whispers after they had gone to bed, but nothing occurred to alarm them. about eleven they had ventured to put the candle out, and had both dozed off to sleep. they woke up with a start, and sat up in bed, listening in the darkness. then they heard slippered feet going to and fro in hapley's room. a chair was overturned, and there was a violent dab at the wall. then a china mantel ornament smashed upon the fender. suddenly the door of the room opened, and they heard him upon the landing. they clung to one another, listening. he seemed to be dancing upon the staircase. now he would go down three or four steps quickly, then up again, then hurry down into the hall. they heard the umbrella stand go over, and the fanlight break. then the bolt shot and the chain rattled. he was opening the door. they hurried to the window. it was a dim grey night; an almost unbroken sheet of watery cloud was sweeping across the moon, and the hedge and trees in front of the house were black against the pale roadway. they saw hapley, looking like a ghost in his shirt and white trousers, running to and fro in the road, and beating the air. now he would stop, now he would dart very rapidly at something invisible, now he would move upon it with stealthy strides. at last he went out of sight up the road towards the down. then, while they argued who should go down and lock the door, he returned. he was walking very fast, and he came straight into the house, closed the door carefully, and went quietly up to his bedroom. then everything was silent. "mrs colville," said hapley, calling down the staircase next morning. "i hope i did not alarm you last night." "you may well ask that!" said mrs colville. "the fact is, i am a sleep-walker, and the last two nights i have been without my sleeping mixture. there is nothing to be alarmed about, really. i am sorry i made such an ass of myself. i will go over the down to shoreham, and get some stuff to make me sleep soundly. i ought to have done that yesterday." but half-way over the down, by the chalk pits, the moth came upon hapley again. he went on, trying to keep his mind upon chess problems, but it was no good. the thing fluttered into his face, and he struck at it with his hat in self-defence. then rage, the old rage--the rage he had so often felt against pawkins--came upon him again. he went on, leaping and striking at the eddying insect. suddenly he trod on nothing, and fell headlong. there was a gap in his sensations, and hapley found himself sitting on the heap of flints in front of the opening of the chalkpits, with a leg twisted back under him. the strange moth was still fluttering round his head. he struck at it with his hand, and turning his head saw two men approaching him. one was the village doctor. it occurred to hapley that this was lucky. then it came into his mind, with extraordinary vividness, that no one would ever be able to see the strange moth except himself, and that it behoved him to keep silent about it. late that night, however, after his broken leg was set, he was feverish and forgot his self-restraint. he was lying flat on his bed, and he began to run his eyes round the room to see if the moth was still about. he tried not to do this, but it was no good. he soon caught sight of the thing resting close to his hand, by the night-light, on the green table-cloth. the wings quivered. with a sudden wave of anger he smote at it with his fist, and the nurse woke up with a shriek. he had missed it. "that moth!" he said; and then, "it was fancy. nothing!" all the time he could see quite clearly the insect going round the cornice and darting across the room, and he could also see that the nurse saw nothing of it and looked at him strangely. he must keep himself in hand. he knew he was a lost man if he did not keep himself in hand. but as the night waned the fever grew upon him, and the very dread he had of seeing the moth made him see it. about five, just as the dawn was grey, he tried to get out of bed and catch it, though his leg was afire with pain. the nurse had to struggle with him. on account of this, they tied him down to the bed. at this the moth grew bolder, and once he felt it settle in his hair. then, because he struck out violently with his arms, they tied these also. at this the moth came and crawled over his face, and hapley wept, swore, screamed, prayed for them to take it off him, unavailingly. the doctor was a blockhead, a half-qualified general practitioner, and quite ignorant of mental science. he simply said there was no moth. had he possessed the wit, he might still, perhaps, have saved hapley from his fate by entering into his delusion and covering his face with gauze, as he prayed might be done. but, as i say, the doctor was a blockhead, and until the leg was healed hapley was kept tied to his bed, and with the imaginary moth crawling over him. it never left him while he was awake and it grew to a monster in his dreams. while he was awake he longed for sleep, and from sleep he awoke screaming. so now hapley is spending the remainder of his days in a padded room, worried by a moth that no one else can see. the asylum doctor calls it hallucination; but hapley, when he is in his easier mood, and can talk, says it is the ghost of pawkins, and consequently a unique specimen and well worth the trouble of catching. the treasure in the forest the canoe was now approaching the land. the bay opened out, and a gap in the white surf of the reef marked where the little river ran out to the sea; the thicker and deeper green of the virgin forest showed its course down the distant hill slope. the forest here came close to the beach. far beyond, dim and almost cloudlike in texture, rose the mountains, like suddenly frozen waves. the sea was still save for an almost imperceptible swell. the sky blazed. the man with the carved paddle stopped. "it should be somewhere here," he said. he shipped the paddle and held his arms out straight before him. the other man had been in the fore part of the canoe, closely scrutinising the land. he had a sheet of yellow paper on his knee. "come and look at this, evans," he said. both men spoke in low tones, and their lips were hard and dry. the man called evans came swaying along the canoe until he could look over his companion's shoulder. the paper had the appearance of a rough map. by much folding it was creased and worn to the pitch of separation, and the second man held the discoloured fragments together where they had parted. on it one could dimly make out, in almost obliterated pencil, the outline of the bay. "here," said evans, "is the reef and here is the gap." he ran his thumb-nail over the chart. "this curved and twisting line is the river--i could do with a drink now!--and this star is the place." "you see this dotted line," said the man with the map; "it is a straight line, and runs from the opening of the reef to a clump of palm-trees. the star comes just where it cuts the river. we must mark the place as we go into the lagoon." "it's queer," said evans, after a pause, "what these little marks down here are for. it looks like the plan of a house or something; but what all these little dashes, pointing this way and that, may mean i can't get a notion. and what's the writing?" "chinese," said the man with the map. "of course! _he_ was a chinee," said evans. "they all were," said the man with the map. they both sat for some minutes staring at the land, while the canoe drifted slowly. then evans looked towards the paddle. "your turn with the paddle now, hooker," said he. and his companion quietly folded up his map, put it in his pocket, passed evans carefully, and began to paddle. his movements were languid, like those of a man whose strength was nearly exhausted. evans sat with his eyes half closed, watching the frothy breakwater of the coral creep nearer and nearer. the sky was like a furnace now, for the sun was near the zenith. though they were so near the treasure he did not feel the exaltation he had anticipated. the intense excitement of the struggle for the plan, and the long night voyage from the mainland in the unprovisioned canoe had, to use his own expression, "taken it out of him." he tried to arouse himself by directing his mind to the ingots the chinamen had spoken of, but it would not rest there; it came back headlong to the thought of sweet water rippling in the river, and to the almost unendurable dryness of his lips and throat. the rhythmic wash of the sea upon the reef was becoming audible now, and it had a pleasant sound in his ears; the water washed along the side of the canoe, and the paddle dripped between each stroke. presently he began to doze. he was still dimly conscious of the island, but a queer dream texture interwove with his sensations. once again it was the night when he and hooker had hit upon the chinamen's secret; he saw the moonlit trees, the little fire burning, and the black figures of the three chinamen--silvered on one side by moonlight, and on the other glowing from the firelight--and heard them talking together in pigeon-english--for they came from different provinces. hooker had caught the drift of their talk first, and had motioned to him to listen. fragments of the conversation were inaudible and fragments incomprehensible. a spanish galleon from the philippines hopelessly aground, and its treasure buried against the day of return, lay in the background of the story; a shipwrecked crew thinned by disease, a quarrel or so, and the needs of discipline, and at last taking to their boats never to be heard of again. then chang-hi, only a year since, wandering ashore, had happened upon the ingots hidden for two hundred years, had deserted his junk, and reburied them with infinite toil, single-handed but very safe. he laid great stress on the safety--it was a secret of his. now he wanted help to return and exhume them. presently the little map fluttered and the voices sank. a fine story for two stranded british wastrels to hear! evans' dream shifted to the moment when he had chang-hi's pigtail in his hand. the life of a chinaman is scarcely sacred like a european's. the cunning little face of chang-hi, first keen and furious like a startled snake, and then fearful, treacherous and pitiful, became overwhelmingly prominent in the dream. at the end chang-hi had grinned, a most incomprehensible and startling grin. abruptly things became very unpleasant, as they will do at times in dreams. chang-hi gibbered and threatened him. he saw in his dream heaps and heaps of gold, and chang-hi intervening and struggling to hold him back from it. he took chang-hi by the pigtail--how big the yellow brute was, and how he struggled and grinned! he kept growing bigger, too. then the bright heaps of gold turned to a roaring furnace, and a vast devil, surprisingly like chang-hi, but with a huge black tail, began to feed him with coals. they burnt his mouth horribly. another devil was shouting his name: "evans, evans, you sleepy fool!"--or was it hooker? he woke up. they were in the mouth of the lagoon. "there are the three palm-trees. it must be in a line with that clump of bushes," said his companion. "mark that. if we go to those bushes and then strike into the bush in a straight line from here, we shall come to it when we come to the stream." they could see now where the mouth of the stream opened out. at the sight of it evans revived. "hurry up, man," he said, "or by heaven i shall have to drink sea water!" he gnawed his hand and stared at the gleam of silver among the rocks and green tangle. presently he turned almost fiercely upon hooker. "give _me_ the paddle," he said. so they reached the river mouth. a little way up hooker took some water in the hollow of his hand, tasted it, and spat it out. a little further he tried again. "this will do," he said, and they began drinking eagerly. "curse this!" said evans, suddenly. "it's too slow." and, leaning dangerously over the fore part of the canoe, he began to suck up the water with his lips. presently they made an end of drinking, and, running the canoe into a little creek, were about to land among the thick growth that overhung the water. "we shall have to scramble through this to the beach to find our bushes and get the line to the place," said evans. "we had better paddle round," said hooker. so they pushed out again into the river and paddled back down it to the sea, and along the shore to the place where the clump of bushes grew. here they landed, pulled the light canoe far up the beach, and then went up towards the edge of the jungle until they could see the opening of the reef and the bushes in a straight line. evans had taken a native implement out of the canoe. it was l-shaped, and the transverse piece was armed with polished stone. hooker carried the paddle. "it is straight now in this direction," said he; "we must push through this till we strike the stream. then we must prospect." they pushed through a close tangle of reeds, broad fronds, and young trees, and at first it was toilsome going, but very speedily the trees became larger and the ground beneath them opened out. the blaze of the sunlight was replaced by insensible degrees by cool shadow. the trees became at last vast pillars that rose up to a canopy of greenery far overhead. dim white flowers hung from their stems, and ropy creepers swung from tree to tree. the shadow deepened. on the ground, blotched fungi and a red-brown incrustation became frequent. evans shivered. "it seems almost cold here after the blaze outside." "i hope we are keeping to the straight," said hooker. presently they saw, far ahead, a gap in the sombre darkness where white shafts of hot sunlight smote into the forest. there also was brilliant green undergrowth, and coloured flowers. then they heard the rush of water. "here is the river. we should be close to it now," said hooker. the vegetation was thick by the river bank. great plants, as yet unnamed, grew among the roots of the big trees, and spread rosettes of huge green fans towards the strip of sky. many flowers and a creeper with shiny foliage clung to the exposed stems. on the water of the broad, quiet pool which the treasure seekers now overlooked there floated big oval leaves and a waxen, pinkish-white flower not unlike a water-lily. further, as the river bent away from them, the water suddenly frothed and became noisy in a rapid. "well?" said evans. "we have swerved a little from the straight," said hooker. "that was to be expected." he turned and looked into the dim cool shadows of the silent forest behind them. "if we beat a little way up and down the stream we should come to something." "you said--" began evans. "_he_ said there was a heap of stones," said hooker. the two men looked at each other for a moment. "let us try a little down-stream first," said evans. they advanced slowly, looking curiously about them. suddenly evans stopped. "what the devil's that?" he said. hooker followed his finger. "something blue," he said. it had come into view as they topped a gentle swell of the ground. then he began to distinguish what it was. he advanced suddenly with hasty steps, until the body that belonged to the limp hand and arm had become visible. his grip tightened on the implement he carried. the thing was the figure of a chinaman lying on his face. the _abandon_ of the pose was unmistakable. the two men drew closer together, and stood staring silently at this ominous dead body. it lay in a clear space among the trees. near by was a spade after the chinese pattern, and further off lay a scattered heap of stones, close to a freshly dug hole. "somebody has been here before," said hooker, clearing his throat. then suddenly evans began to swear and rave, and stamp upon the ground. hooker turned white but said nothing. he advanced towards the prostrate body. he saw the neck was puffed and purple, and the hands and ankles swollen. "pah!" he said, and suddenly turned away and went towards the excavation. he gave a cry of surprise. he shouted to evans, who was following him slowly. "you fool! it's all right it's here still." then he turned again and looked at the dead chinaman, and then again at the hole. evans hurried to the hole. already half exposed by the ill-fated wretch beside them lay a number of dull yellow bars. he bent down in the hole, and, clearing off the soil with his bare hands, hastily pulled one of the heavy masses out. as he did so a little thorn pricked his hand. he pulled the delicate spike out with his fingers and lifted the ingot. "only gold or lead could weigh like this," he said exultantly. hooker was still looking at the dead chinaman. he was puzzled. "he stole a march on his friends," he said at last. "he came here alone, and some poisonous snake has killed him ... i wonder how he found the place." evans stood with the ingot in his hands. what did a dead chinaman signify? "we shall have to take this stuff to the mainland piecemeal, and bury it there for a while. how shall we get it to the canoe?" he took his jacket off and spread it on the ground, and flung two or three ingots into it. presently he found that another little thorn had punctured his skin. "this is as much as we can carry," said he. then suddenly, with a queer rush of irritation, "what are you staring at?" hooker turned to him. "i can't stand ... him." he nodded towards the corpse. "it's so like--" "rubbish!" said evans. "all chinamen are alike." hooker looked into his face. "i'm going to bury _that_, anyhow, before i lend a hand with this stuff." "don't be a fool, hooker," said evans. "let that mass of corruption bide." hooker hesitated, and then his eye went carefully over the brown soil about them. "it scares me somehow," he said. "the thing is," said evans, "what to do with these ingots. shall we re-bury them over here, or take them across the strait in the canoe?" hooker thought. his puzzled gaze wandered among the tall tree-trunks, and up into the remote sunlit greenery overhead. he shivered again as his eye rested upon the blue figure of the chinaman. he stared searchingly among the grey depths between the trees. "what's come to you, hooker?" said evans. "have you lost your wits?" "let's get the gold out of this place, anyhow," said hooker. he took the ends of the collar of the coat in his hands, and evans took the opposite corners, and they lifted the mass. "which way?" said evans. "to the canoe?" "it's queer," said evans, when they had advanced only a few steps, "but my arms ache still with that paddling." "curse it!" he said. "but they ache! i must rest." they let the coat down. evans' face was white, and little drops of sweat stood out upon his forehead. "it's stuffy, somehow, in this forest." then with an abrupt transition to unreasonable anger: "what is the good of waiting here all the day? lend a hand, i say! you have done nothing but moon since we saw the dead chinaman." hooker was looking steadfastly at his companion's face. he helped raise the coat bearing the ingots, and they went forward perhaps a hundred yards in silence. evans began to breathe heavily. "can't you speak?" he said. "what's the matter with you?" said hooker. evans stumbled, and then with a sudden curse flung the coat from him. he stood for a moment staring at hooker, and then with a groan clutched at his own throat. "don't come near me," he said, and went and leant against a tree. then in a steadier voice, "i'll be better in a minute." presently his grip upon the trunk loosened, and he slipped slowly down the stem of the tree until he was a crumpled heap at its foot. his hands were clenched convulsively. his face became distorted with pain. hooker approached him. "don't touch me! don't touch me!" said evans in a stifled voice. "put the gold back on the coat." "can't i do anything for you?" said hooker. "put the gold back on the coat." as hooker handled the ingots he felt a little prick on the ball of his thumb. he looked at his hand and saw a slender thorn, perhaps two inches in length. evans gave an inarticulate cry and rolled over. hooker's jaw dropped. he stared at the thorn for a moment with dilated eyes. then he looked at evans, who was now crumpled together on the ground, his back bending and straitening spasmodically. then he looked through the pillars of the trees and net-work of creeper stems, to where in the dim grey shadow the blue-clad body of the chinaman was still indistinctly visible. he thought of the little dashes in the corner of the plan, and in a moment he understood. "god help me!" he said. for the thorns were similar to those the dyaks poison and use in their blowing-tubes. he understood now what chang-hi's assurance of the safety of his treasure meant. he understood that grin now. "evans!" he cried. but evans was silent and motionless now, save for a horrible spasmodic twitching of his limbs. a profound silence brooded over the forest. then hooker began to suck furiously at the little pink spot on the ball of his thumb--sucking for dear life. presently he felt a strange aching pain in his arms and shoulders, and his fingers seemed difficult to bend. then he knew that sucking was no good. abruptly he stopped, and sitting down by the pile of ingots, and resting his chin upon his hands and his elbows upon his knees, stared at the distorted but still stirring body of his companion. chang-hi's grin came in his mind again. the dull pain spread towards his throat and grew slowly in intensity. far above him a faint breeze stirred the greenery, and the white petals of some unknown flower came floating down through the gloom. printed by turnbull and spears, edinburgh a list of new books and announcements of methuen and company publishers: london essex street w.c. contents 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heroica' delightful to the hand and eye. andrew lang the poems of robert burns. edited, with introduction, etc., by andrew lang. with portraits. _crown vo_. _s._ also copies on hand-made paper. _demy vo_. s. this edition will contain a carefully collated text and notes on the text, a critical and biographical introduction, introductory notes to the poems, and a glossary. robert louis stevenson vailima letters. by robert louis stevenson. with an etched portrait by william strang, and other illustrations. _crown vo. buckram. s. d_. also copies on hand-made paper. _demy vo. s._ a series of long journal letters written from samoa to mr. sidney colvin during the last five years. they form an autobiography of mr. stevenson during this period, giving a full account of his daily life and literary work and ambitions. mr. colvin has written a prologue and epilogue, and has added numerous notes. english classics edited by w.e. henley. the books, which are designed and printed by messrs. constable, are issued in two editions--( ) a small edition, on the finest japanese vellum, limited in most cases to copies, demy vo, s. a volume nett; ( ) the popular edition on laid paper, crown vo, buckram, s. d. a volume. new volumes. the lives of donne, wotton, hooker, herbert, and sanderson. by izaak walton. with an introduction by vernon blackburn, and a portrait. the lives of the english poets. by samuel johnson, ll.d. with an introduction by john hepburn millar, and a portrait. _vols_. w.m. dixon a primer of tennyson. by w.m. dixon, m.a., professor of english literature at mason college. _cr. vo. s. d._ this book consists of ( ) a succinct but complete biography of lord tennyson; ( ) an account of the volumes published by him in chronological order, dealing with the more important poems separately; ( ) a concise criticism of tennyson in his various aspects as lyrist, dramatist, and representative poet of his day; ( ) a bibliography. such a complete book on such a subject, and 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'the volumes will in no sense disappoint the general reader. indeed, in their way, there is nothing in any sense so good in english.... mr. baring gould has presented his narrative in such a way as not to make one dull page.'--_athenaeum_. the deserts of southern france. by s. baring gould. with numerous illustrations by f.d. bedford, s. hutton, etc. _ vols. demy vo. s._ this book is the first serious attempt to describe the great barren tableland that extends to the south of limousin in the department of aveyron, lot, etc., a country of dolomite cliffs, and cañons, and subterranean rivers. the region is full of prehistoric and historic interest, relics of cave-dwellers, of mediaeval robbers, and of the english domination and the hundred years' war. 'his two richly-illustrated volumes are full of matter of interest to the geologist, the archaeologist, and the student of history and manners.'--_scotsman_. 'it deals with its subject in a manner which rarely fails to arrest attention.'--_times_. fiction six shilling novels marie corelli. barabbas: a dream of the world's tragedy. by marie corelli, author of 'a romance of two worlds,' 'vendetta,' etc. _seventeenth edition. crown vo. s._ 'the tender reverence of the treatment and the imaginative beauty of the writing have reconciled us to the daring of the conception, and the conviction is forced on us that even so exalted a subject cannot be made too familiar to us, provided it be presented in the true spirit of christian faith. the amplifications of the scripture narrative are often conceived with high poetic insight, and this "dream of the world's tragedy" is, despite some trifling incongruities, a lofty and not inadequate paraphrase of the supreme climax of the inspired narrative.'--_dublin review_. anthony hope. the god in the car. by anthony hope, author of 'a change of air,' etc. _sixth edition. crown vo. s._ 'ruston is drawn with extraordinary skill, and maggie dennison with many subtle strokes. the minor characters are clear cut. in short the book is a brilliant one. "the god in the car" is one of the most remarkable works in a year that has given us the handiwork of nearly all our best living novelists.'--_standard_. 'a very remarkable book, deserving of critical analysis impossible within our limit; brilliant, but not superficial; well considered, but not elaborated; constructed with the proverbial art that conceals, but yet allows itself to be enjoyed by readers to whom fine literary method is a keen pleasure; true without cynicism, subtle without affectation, humorous without strain, witty without offence, inevitably sad, with an unmorose simplicity.'--_the world_. anthony hope. a change of air. by anthony hope, author of 'the prisoner of zenda,' etc. _second edition. crown vo. s._ 'a graceful, vivacious comedy, true to human nature. the characters are traced with a masterly hand.'--_times_. anthony hope. a man of mark. by anthony hope, author of 'the prisoner of zenda,' 'the god in the car,' etc. _second edition. crown vo. s._ 'a bright, entertaining, unusually able book, quite worthy of its brilliant author.'--_queen_. 'of all mr. hope's books, "a man of mark" is the one which best compares with "the prisoner of zenda." the two romances are unmistakably the work of the same writer, and he possesses a style of narrative peculiarly seductive, piquant, comprehensive, and--his own.'--_national observer_. conan doyle. round the red lamp. by a. conan doyle, author of 'the white company,' 'the adventures of sherlock holmes,' etc. _fourth edition. crown vo. s._ 'the book is, indeed, composed of leaves from life, and is far and away the best view that has been vouchsafed us behind the scenes of the consulting-room. it is very superior to "the diary of a late physician."'--_illustrated london news_. 'dr. doyle wields a cunning pen, as all the world now knows. his deft touch is seen to perfection in these short sketches--these "facts and fancies of medical life," as he calls them. every page reveals the literary artist, the keen observer, the trained delineator of human nature, its weal and its woe.'--_freeman's journal_. 'these tales are skilful, attractive, and eminently suited to give relief to the mind of a reader in quest of distraction.'--_athenaeum_. stanley weyman. under the red robe. by stanley weyman, author of 'a gentleman of france.' with twelve illustrations by r. caton woodville. _seventh edition. crown vo. s._ a cheaper edition of a book which won instant popularity. no unfavourable review occurred, and most critics spoke in terms of enthusiastic admiration. the 'westminster gazette' called it '_a book of which we have read every word for the sheer pleasure of reading, and which we put down with a pang that we cannot forget it all and start again_.' the 'daily chronicle' said that '_every one who reads books at all must read this thrilling romance, from the first page of which to the last the breathless reader is haled along_.' it also called the book '_an inspiration of manliness and courage_.' the 'globe' called it '_a delightful tale of chivalry and adventure, vivid and dramatic, with a wholesome modesty and reverence for the highest_.' emily lawless. maelcho: a sixteenth century romance. by the hon. emily lawless, author of 'grania,' 'hurrish,' etc. _second edition. crown vo. s._ 'a striking and delightful book. a task something akin to scott's may lie before miss lawless. if she carries forward this series of historical pictures with the same brilliancy and truth she has already shown, and with the increasing self-control one may expect from the genuine artist, she may do more for her country than many a politician. throughout this fascinating book, miss lawless has produced something which is not strictly history and is not strictly fiction, but nevertheless possesses both imaginative value and historical insight in a high degree.'--_times_. 'a really great book.'--_spectator_. 'there is no keener pleasure in life than the recognition of genius. good work is commoner than it used to be, but the best is as rare as ever. all the more gladly, therefore, do we welcome in "maelcho" a piece of work of the first order, which we do not hesitate to describe as one of the most remarkable literary achievements of this generation. miss lawless is possessed of the very essence of historical genius.'--_manchester guardian_. e.f. benson. dodo: a detail of the day. by e.f. benson. _crown vo. sixteenth edition, s._ a story of society which attracted by its brilliance universal attention. the best critics were cordial in their praise. the 'guardian' spoke of 'dodo' as '_unusually clever and interesting_'; the 'spectator' called it '_a delightfully witty sketch of society_;' the 'speaker' said the dialogue was '_a perpetual feast of epigram and paradox_'; the 'athenaeum' spoke of the author as '_a writer of quite exceptional ability_'; the 'academy' praised his '_amazing cleverness_;' the 'world' said the book was '_brilliantly written_'; and half-a-dozen papers declared there was '_not a dull page in the book_.' e.f. benson. the rubicon. by e.f. benson, author of 'dodo.' _fourth edition. crown vo. s._ of mr. benson's second novel the 'birmingham post' says it is '_well written, stimulating, unconventional, and, in a word, characteristic_'; the 'national observer congratulates mr. benson upon '_an exceptional achievement_,' and calls the book '_a notable advance on his previous work_.' m.m. dowie. gallia. by mÃ�nie muriel dowie, author of 'a girl in the carpathians.' _second edition. crown vo. s._ 'the style is generally admirable, the dialogue not seldom brilliant, the situations surprising in their freshness and originality, while the subsidiary as well as the principal characters live and move, and the story itself is readable from title-page to colophon.'--_saturday review_. 'a very notable book; a very sympathetically, at times delightfully written book.'--_daily graphic_. _mr. baring gould's novels_ 'to say that a book is by the author of "mehalah" is to imply that it contains a story cast on strong lines, containing dramatic possibilities, vivid and sympathetic descriptions of nature, and a wealth of ingenious imagery.'--_speaker_. 'that whatever mr. baring gould writes is well worth reading, is a conclusion that may be very generally accepted. his views of life are fresh and vigorous, his language pointed and characteristic, the incidents of which he makes use are striking and original, his characters are life-like, and though somewhat exceptional people, are drawn and coloured with artistic force. add to this that his descriptions of scenes and scenery are painted with the loving eyes and skilled hands of a master of his art, that he is always fresh and never dull, and under such conditions it is no wonder that readers have gained confidence both in his power of amusing and satisfying them, and that year by year his popularity widens.'--_court circular_. baring gould. urith: a story of dartmoor. by s. baring gould. _third edition. crown vo. s._ 'the author is at his best.'--_times_. 'he has nearly reached the high water-mark of "mehalah."'--_national observer_. baring gould. in the roar of the sea: a tale of the cornish coast. by s. baring gould. _fifth edition. s._ baring gould. mrs. curgenven of curgenven. by s. baring gould. _fourth edition. s._ a story of devon life. the 'graphic' speaks of it as '_a novel of vigorous humour and sustained power_'; the 'sussex daily news' says that '_the swing of the narrative is splendid_'; and the 'speaker' mentions its '_bright imaginative power_.' baring gould. cheap jack zita. by s. baring gould. _third edition. crown vo. s._ a romance of the ely fen district in , which the 'westminster gazette' calls '_a powerful drama of human passion_'; and the 'national observer' '_a story worthy the author_.' baring gould. the queen of love. by s. baring gould. _third edition. crown vo. s._ the 'glasgow herald' says that '_the scenery is admirable, and the dramatic incidents are most striking_.' the 'westminster gazette' calls the book '_strong, interesting, and clever_.' 'punch' says that '_you cannot put it down until you have finished it_.' 'the sussex daily news' says that it '_can be heartily recommended to all who care for cleanly, energetic, and interesting fiction_.' baring gould. kitty alone. by s. baring gould, author of 'mehalah,' 'cheap jack zita,' etc. _fourth edition. crown vo. s._ 'a strong and original story, teeming with graphic description, stirring incident, and, above all, with vivid and enthralling human interest.'--_daily telegraph_. 'brisk, clever, keen, healthy, humorous, and interesting.'--_national observer_. 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'mr. w.e. norris is always happy in his delineation of everyday experiences, but rarely has he been brighter or breezier than in "matthew austin." the pictures are in mr. norris's pleasantest vein, while running through the entire story is a felicity of style and wholesomeness of tone which one is accustomed to find in the novels of this favourite author.'--_scotsman_. w.e. norris. his grace. by w.e. norris, author of 'mademoiselle de mersac.' _third edition. crown vo. s._ 'mr. norris has drawn a really fine character in the duke of hurstbourne, at once unconventional and very true to the conventionalities of life, weak and strong in a breath, capable of inane follies and heroic decisions, yet not so definitely portrayed as to relieve a reader of the necessity of study on his own behalf.'--_athenaeum_. w.e. norris. the despotic lady and others. by w.e. norris, author of 'mademoiselle de mersac.' _crown vo. s._ 'a delightfully humorous tale of a converted and rehabilitated rope-dancer.'--_glasgow herald_. 'the ingenuity of the idea, the skill with which it is worked out, and the sustained humour of its situations, make it after its own manner a veritable little masterpiece.'--_westminster gazette_. 'a budget of good fiction of which no one will tire.'--_scotsman_. 'an extremely entertaining volume--the sprightliest of holiday companions.'--_daily telegraph_. gilbert parker. mrs. falchion. by gilbert parker, author of 'pierre and his people.' _second edition. crown vo. s._ mr. parker's second book has received a warm welcome. the 'athenaeum' called it '_a splendid study of character_'; the 'pall mall gazette' spoke of the writing as '_but little behind anything that has been done by any writer of our time_'; the 'st. james's' called it '_a very striking and admirable novel_'; and the 'westminster gazette' applied to it the epithet of '_distinguished_.' gilbert parker. pierre and his people. by gilbert parker. _second edition. crown vo. s._ 'stories happily conceived and finely executed. there is strength and genius in mr. parker's style.'--_daily telegraph_. gilbert parker. the translation of a savage. by gilbert parker, author of 'pierre and his people,' 'mrs. falchion,' etc. _crown vo. s._ 'the plot is original and one difficult to work out; but mr. parker has done it with great skill and delicacy. the reader who is not interested in this original, fresh, and well-told tale must be a dull person indeed.'--_daily chronicle_. 'a strong and successful piece of workmanship. the portrait of lali, strong, dignified, and pure, is exceptionally well drawn.'--_manchester guardian_. 'a very pretty and interesting story, and mr. parker tells it with much skill. the story is one to be read.'--_st. james's gazette_. gilbert parker. the trail of the sword. by gilbert parker, author of 'pierre and his people,' etc. _third edition. crown vo. s._ 'everybody with a soul for romance will thoroughly enjoy "the trail of the sword."'--_st. james's gazette_. 'a rousing and dramatic tale. a book like this, in which swords flash, great surprises are undertaken, and daring deeds done, in which men and women live and love in the old straightforward passionate way, is a joy inexpressible to the reviewer, brain-weary of the domestic tragedies and psychological puzzles of everyday fiction; and we cannot but believe that to the reader it will bring refreshment as welcome and as keen.'--_daily chronicle_. gilbert parker. when valmond came to pontiac; the story of a lost napoleon. by gilbert parker. _second edition. crown vo. s._ 'here we find romance--real, breathing, living romance, but it runs flush with our own times, level with our own feelings. not here can we complain of lack of inevitableness or homogeneity. the character of valmond is drawn unerringly; his career, brief as it is, is placed before us as convincingly as history itself. the book must be read, we may say re-read, for any one thoroughly to appreciate mr. parker's delicate touch and innate sympathy with humanity.'--_pall mall gazette_. arthur morrison. tales of mean streets. by arthur morrison. _third edition. crown vo. s._ 'told with consummate art and extraordinary detail. he tells a plain, unvarnished tale, and the very truth of it makes for beauty. in the true humanity of the book lies its justification, the permanence of its interest, and its indubitable triumph.'--_athenaeum_. 'a great book. the author's method is amazingly effective, and produces a thrilling sense of reality. the writer lays upon us a master hand. the book is simply appalling and irresistible in its interest. it is humorous also; without humour it would not make the mark it is certain to make.'--_world_. julian corbett. a business in great waters. by julian corbett, author of 'for god and gold,' 'kophetus xiiith.,' etc. _crown vo. s._ 'there is plenty of incident and movement in this romance. it is interesting as a novel framed in an historical setting, and it is all the more worthy of attention from the lover of romance as being absolutely free from the morbid, the frivolous, and the ultra-sexual.'--_athenaeum_. 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the beginnings of modern little warfare iii. the rules-- the country the move mobility of the various arms hand-to-hand fighting and capturing varieties of the battle-game composition of forces size of the soldiers iv. the battle of hook's farm v. extensions and amplifications of little war vi. ending with a sort of challenge appendix-- little wars and kriegspiel i of the legendary past "little wars" is the game of kings--for players in an inferior social position. it can be played by boys of every age from twelve to one hundred and fifty--and even later if the limbs remain sufficiently supple--by girls of the better sort, and by a few rare and gifted women. this is to be a full history of little wars from its recorded and authenticated beginning until the present time, an account of how to make little warfare, and hints of the most priceless sort for the recumbent strategist.... but first let it be noted in passing that there were prehistoric "little wars." this is no new thing, no crude novelty; but a thing tested by time, ancient and ripe in its essentials for all its perennial freshness--like spring. there was a someone who fought little wars in the days of queen anne; a garden napoleon. his game was inaccurately observed and insufficiently recorded by laurence sterne. it is clear that uncle toby and corporal trim were playing little wars on a scale and with an elaboration exceeding even the richness and beauty of the contemporary game. but the curtain is drawn back only to tantalise us. it is scarcely conceivable that anywhere now on earth the shandean rules remain on record. perhaps they were never committed to paper.... and in all ages a certain barbaric warfare has been waged with soldiers of tin and lead and wood, with the weapons of the wild, with the catapult, the elastic circular garter, the peashooter, the rubber ball, and such-like appliances--a mere setting up and knocking down of men. tin murder. the advance of civilisation has swept such rude contests altogether from the playroom. we know them no more.... ii the beginnings of modern little warfare the beginning of the game of little war, as we know it, became possible with the invention of the spring breechloader gun. this priceless gift to boyhood appeared somewhen towards the end of the last century, a gun capable of hitting a toy soldier nine times out of ten at a distance of nine yards. it has completely superseded all the spiral-spring and other makes of gun hitherto used in playroom warfare. these spring breechloaders are made in various sizes and patterns, but the one used in our game is that known in england as the four-point-seven gun. it fires a wooden cylinder about an inch long, and has a screw adjustment for elevation and depression. it is an altogether elegant weapon. it was with one of these guns that the beginning of our war game was made. it was at sandgate--in england. [illustration: showing a country prepared for the war game] [illustration: showing countries prepared for the war game] the present writer had been lunching with a friend--let me veil his identity under the initials j. k. j.--in a room littered with the irrepressible debris of a small boy's pleasures. on a table near our own stood four or five soldiers and one of these guns. mr j. k. j., his more urgent needs satisfied and the coffee imminent, drew a chair to this little table, sat down, examined the gun discreetly, loaded it warily, aimed, and hit his man. thereupon he boasted of the deed, and issued challenges that were accepted with avidity.... he fired that day a shot that still echoes round the world. an affair--let us parallel the cannonade of valmy and call it the cannonade of sandgate--occurred, a shooting between opposed ranks of soldiers, a shooting not very different in spirit--but how different in results!--from the prehistoric warfare of catapult and garter. "but suppose," said his antagonists; "suppose somehow one could move the men!" and therewith opened a new world of belligerence. the matter went no further with mr j. k. j. the seed lay for a time gathering strength, and then began to germinate with another friend, mr w. to mr w. was broached the idea: "i believe that if one set up a few obstacles on the floor, volumes of the british encyclopedia and so forth, to make a country, and moved these soldiers and guns about, one could have rather a good game, a kind of kriegspiel."... primitive attempts to realise the dream were interrupted by a great rustle and chattering of lady visitors. they regarded the objects upon the floor with the empty disdain of their sex for all imaginative things. but the writer had in those days a very dear friend, a man too ill for long excursions or vigorous sports (he has been dead now these six years), of a very sweet companionable disposition, a hearty jester and full of the spirit of play. to him the idea was broached more fruitfully. we got two forces of toy soldiers, set out a lumpish encyclopaedic land upon the carpet, and began to play. we arranged to move in alternate moves: first one moved all his force and then the other; an infantry-man could move one foot at each move, a cavalry-man two, a gun two, and it might fire six shots; and if a man was moved up to touch another man, then we tossed up and decided which man was dead. so we made a game, which was not a good game, but which was very amusing once or twice. the men were packed under the lee of fat volumes, while the guns, animated by a spirit of their own, banged away at any exposed head, or prowled about in search of a shot. occasionally men came into contact, with remarkable results. rash is the man who trusts his life to the spin of a coin. one impossible paladin slew in succession nine men and turned defeat to victory, to the extreme exasperation of the strategist who had led those victims to their doom. this inordinate factor of chance eliminated play; the individual freedom of guns turned battles into scandals of crouching concealment; there was too much cover afforded by the books and vast intervals of waiting while the players took aim. and yet there was something about it.... it was a game crying aloud for improvement. improvement came almost simultaneously in several directions. first there was the development of the country. the soldiers did not stand well on an ordinary carpet, the encyclopedia made clumsy cliff-like "cover", and more particularly the room in which the game had its beginnings was subject to the invasion of callers, alien souls, trampling skirt-swishers, chatterers, creatures unfavourably impressed by the spectacle of two middle-aged men playing with "toy soldiers" on the floor, and very heated and excited about it. overhead was the day nursery, with a wide extent of smooth cork carpet (the natural terrain of toy soldiers), a large box of bricks--such as i have described in floor games--and certain large inch-thick boards. it was an easy task for the head of the household to evict his offspring, annex these advantages, and set about planning a more realistic country. (i forget what became of the children.) the thick boards were piled up one upon another to form hills; holes were bored in them, into which twigs of various shrubs were stuck to represent trees; houses and sheds (solid and compact piles of from three to six or seven inches high, and broad in proportion) and walls were made with the bricks; ponds and swamps and rivers, with fords and so forth indicated, were chalked out on the floor, garden stones were brought in to represent great rocks, and the "country" at least of our perfected war game was in existence. we discovered it was easy to cut out and bend and gum together paper and cardboard walls, into which our toy bricks could be packed, and on which we could paint doors and windows, creepers and rain-water pipes, and so forth, to represent houses, castles, and churches in a more realistic manner, and, growing skilful, we made various bridges and so forth of card. every boy who has ever put together model villages knows how to do these things, and the attentive reader will find them edifyingly represented in our photographic illustrations. there has been little development since that time in the country. our illustrations show the methods of arrangement, and the reader will see how easily and readily the utmost variety of battlefields can be made. (it is merely to be remarked that a too crowded country makes the guns ineffective and leads to a mere tree to tree and house to house scramble, and that large open spaces along the middle, or rivers without frequent fords and bridges, lead to ineffective cannonades, because of the danger of any advance. on the whole, too much cover is better than too little.) we decided that one player should plan and lay out the country, and the other player choose from which side he would come. and to-day we play over such landscapes in a cork-carpeted schoolroom, from which the proper occupants are no longer evicted but remain to take an increasingly responsible and less and less audible and distressing share in the operations. [illustration: showing the war game in the open air] [illustration: the war game in the open air] we found it necessary to make certain general rules. houses and sheds must be made of solid lumps of bricks, and not hollow so that soldiers can be put inside them, because otherwise muddled situations arise. and it was clearly necessary to provide for the replacement of disturbed objects by chalking out the outlines of boards and houses upon the floor or boards upon which they stood. and while we thus perfected the country, we were also eliminating all sorts of tediums, disputable possibilities, and deadlocks from the game. we decided that every man should be as brave and skilful as every other man, and that when two men of opposite sides came into contact they would inevitably kill each other. this restored strategy to its predominance over chance. we then began to humanise that wild and fearful fowl, the gun. we decided that a gun could not be fired if there were not six--afterwards we reduced the number to four--men within six inches of it. and we ruled that a gun could not both fire and move in the same general move: it could either be fired or moved (or left alone). if there were less than six men within six inches of a gun, then we tried letting it fire as many shots as there were men, and we permitted a single man to move a gun, and move with it as far as he could go by the rules--a foot, that is, if he was an infantry-man, and two feet if he was a cavalry-man. we abolished altogether that magical freedom of an unassisted gun to move two feet. and on such rules as these we fought a number of battles. they were interesting, but not entirely satisfactory. we took no prisoners--a feature at once barbaric and unconvincing. the battles lingered on a long time, because we shot with extreme care and deliberation, and they were hard to bring to a decisive finish. the guns were altogether too predominant. they prevented attacks getting home, and they made it possible for a timid player to put all his soldiers out of sight behind hills and houses, and bang away if his opponent showed as much as the tip of a bayonet. monsieur bloch seemed vindicated, and little war had become impossible. and there was something a little absurd, too, in the spectacle of a solitary drummer-boy, for example, marching off with a gun. but as there was nevertheless much that seemed to us extremely pretty and picturesque about the game, we set to work--and here a certain mr m. with his brother, captain m., hot from the great war in south africa, came in most helpfully--to quicken it. manifestly the guns had to be reduced to manageable terms. we cut down the number of shots per move to four, and we required that four men should be within six inches of a gun for it to be in action at all. without four men it could neither fire nor move--it was out of action; and if it moved, the four men had to go with it. moreover, to put an end to that little resistant body of men behind a house, we required that after a gun had been fired it should remain, without alteration of the elevation, pointing in the direction of its last shot, and have two men placed one on either side of the end of its trail. this secured a certain exposure on the part of concealed and sheltered gunners. it was no longer possible to go on shooting out of a perfect security for ever. all this favoured the attack and led to a livelier game. our next step was to abolish the tedium due to the elaborate aiming of the guns, by fixing a time limit for every move. we made this an outside limit at first, ten minutes, but afterwards we discovered that it made the game much more warlike to cut the time down to a length that would barely permit a slow-moving player to fire all his guns and move all his men. this led to small bodies of men lagging and "getting left," to careless exposures, to rapid, less accurate shooting, and just that eventfulness one would expect in the hurry and passion of real fighting. it also made the game brisker. we have since also made a limit, sometimes of four minutes, sometimes of five minutes, to the interval for adjustment and deliberation after one move is finished and before the next move begins. this further removes the game from the chess category, and approximates it to the likeness of active service. most of a general's decisions, once a fight has begun, must be made in such brief intervals of time. (but we leave unlimited time at the outset for the planning.) as to our time-keeping, we catch a visitor with a stop-watch if we can, and if we cannot, we use a fair-sized clock with a second-hand: the player not moving says "go," and warns at the last two minutes, last minute, and last thirty seconds. but i think it would not be difficult to procure a cheap clock--because, of course, no one wants a very accurate agreement with greenwich as to the length of a second--that would have minutes instead of hours and seconds instead of minutes, and that would ping at the end of every minute and discharge an alarm note at the end of the move. that would abolish the rather boring strain of time-keeping. one could just watch the fighting. moreover, in our desire to bring the game to a climax, we decided that instead of a fight to a finish we would fight to some determined point, and we found very good sport in supposing that the arrival of three men of one force upon the back line of the opponent's side of the country was of such strategic importance as to determine the battle. but this form of battle we have since largely abandoned in favour of the old fight to a finish again. we found it led to one type of battle only, a massed rush at the antagonist's line, and that our arrangements of time-limits and capture and so forth had eliminated most of the concluding drag upon the game. our game was now very much in its present form. we considered at various times the possibility of introducing some complication due to the bringing up of ammunition or supplies generally, and we decided that it would add little to the interest or reality of the game. our battles are little brisk fights in which one may suppose that all the ammunition and food needed are carried by the men themselves. but our latest development has been in the direction of killing hand to hand or taking prisoners. we found it necessary to distinguish between an isolated force and a force that was merely a projecting part of a larger force. we made a definition of isolation. after a considerable amount of trials we decided that a man or a detachment shall be considered to be isolated when there is less than half its number of its own side within a move of it. now, in actual civilised warfare small detached bodies do not sell their lives dearly; a considerably larger force is able to make them prisoners without difficulty. accordingly we decided that if a blue force, for example, has one or more men isolated, and a red force of at least double the strength of this isolated detachment moves up to contact with it, the blue men will be considered to be prisoners. that seemed fair; but so desperate is the courage and devotion of lead soldiers, that it came to this, that any small force that got or seemed likely to get isolated and caught by a superior force instead of waiting to be taken prisoners, dashed at its possible captors and slew them man for man. it was manifestly unreasonable to permit this. and in considering how best to prevent such inhuman heroisms, we were reminded of another frequent incident in our battles that also erred towards the incredible and vitiated our strategy. that was the charging of one or two isolated horse-men at a gun in order to disable it. let me illustrate this by an incident. a force consisting of ten infantry and five cavalry with a gun are retreating across an exposed space, and a gun with thirty men, cavalry and infantry, in support comes out upon a crest into a position to fire within two feet of the retreating cavalry. the attacking player puts eight men within six inches of his gun and pushes the rest of his men a little forward to the right or left in pursuit of his enemy. in the real thing, the retreating horsemen would go off to cover with the gun, "hell for leather," while the infantry would open out and retreat, firing. but see what happened in our imperfect form of little war! the move of the retreating player began. instead of retreating his whole force, he charged home with his mounted desperadoes, killed five of the eight men about the gun, and so by the rule silenced it, enabling the rest of his little body to get clean away to cover at the leisurely pace of one foot a move. this was not like any sort of warfare. in real life cavalry cannot pick out and kill its equivalent in cavalry while that equivalent is closely supported by other cavalry or infantry; a handful of troopers cannot gallop past well and abundantly manned guns in action, cut down the gunners and interrupt the fire. and yet for a time we found it a little difficult to frame simple rules to meet these two bad cases and prevent such scandalous possibilities. we did at last contrive to do so; we invented what we call the melee, and our revised rules in the event of a melee will be found set out upon a later page. they do really permit something like an actual result to hand-to-hand encounters. they abolish horatius cocles. [illustration: the war game in the open air] [illustration: fig. --battle of hook's farm. general view of the battlefield and red army] we also found difficulties about the capturing of guns. at first we had merely provided that a gun was captured when it was out of action and four men of the opposite force were within six inches of it, but we found a number of cases for which this rule was too vague. a gun, for example, would be disabled and left with only three men within six inches; the enemy would then come up eight or ten strong within six inches on the other side, but not really reaching the gun. at the next move the original possessor of the gun would bring up half a dozen men within six inches. to whom did the gun belong? by the original wording of our rule, it might be supposed to belong to the attack which had never really touched the gun yet, and they could claim to turn it upon its original side. we had to meet a number of such cases. we met them by requiring the capturing force--or, to be precise, four men of it--actually to pass the axle of the gun before it could be taken. all sorts of odd little difficulties arose too, connected with the use of the guns as a shelter from fire, and very exact rules had to be made to avoid tilting the nose and raising the breech of a gun in order to use it as cover.... we still found it difficult to introduce any imitation into our game of either retreat or the surrender of men not actually taken prisoners in a melee. both things were possible by the rules, but nobody did them because there was no inducement to do them. games were apt to end obstinately with the death or capture of the last man. an inducement was needed. this we contrived by playing not for the game but for points, scoring the result of each game and counting the points towards the decision of a campaign. our campaign was to our single game what a rubber is to a game of whist. we made the end of a war , , or or more points up, according to the number of games we wanted to play, and we scored a hundred for each battle won, and in addition for each infantry-man, - / for each cavalry-man, for each gun, / for each man held prisoner by the enemy, and / for each prisoner held at the end of the game, subtracting what the antagonist scored by the same scale. thus, when he felt the battle was hopelessly lost, he had a direct inducement to retreat any guns he could still save and surrender any men who were under the fire of the victors' guns and likely to be slaughtered, in order to minimise the score against him. and an interest was given to a skilful retreat, in which the loser not only saved points for himself but inflicted losses upon the pursuing enemy. at first we played the game from the outset, with each player's force within sight of his antagonist; then we found it possible to hang a double curtain of casement cloth from a string stretched across the middle of the field, and we drew this back only after both sides had set out their men. without these curtains we found the first player was at a heavy disadvantage, because he displayed all his dispositions before his opponent set down his men. and at last our rules have reached stability, and we regard them now with the virtuous pride of men who have persisted in a great undertaking and arrived at precision after much tribulation. there is not a piece of constructive legislation in the world, not a solitary attempt to meet a complicated problem, that we do not now regard the more charitably for our efforts to get a right result from this apparently easy and puerile business of fighting with tin soldiers on the floor. and so our laws all made, battles have been fought, the mere beginnings, we feel, of vast campaigns. the game has become in a dozen aspects extraordinarily like a small real battle. the plans are made, the country hastily surveyed, and then the curtains are closed, and the antagonists make their opening dispositions. then the curtains are drawn back and the hostile forces come within sight of each other; the little companies and squadrons and batteries appear hurrying to their positions, the infantry deploying into long open lines, the cavalry sheltering in reserve, or galloping with the guns to favourable advance positions. in two or three moves the guns are flickering into action, a cavalry melee may be in progress, the plans of the attack are more or less apparent, here are men pouring out from the shelter of a wood to secure some point of vantage, and here are troops massing among farm buildings for a vigorous attack. the combat grows hot round some vital point. move follows move in swift succession. one realises with a sickening sense of error that one is outnumbered and hard pressed here and uselessly cut off there, that one's guns are ill-placed, that one's wings are spread too widely, and that help can come only over some deadly zone of fire. so the fight wears on. guns are lost or won, hills or villages stormed or held; suddenly it grows clear that the scales are tilting beyond recovery, and the loser has nothing left but to contrive how he may get to the back line and safety with the vestiges of his command.... but let me, before i go on to tell of actual battles and campaigns, give here a summary of our essential rules. iii the rules here, then, are the rules of the perfect battle-game as we play it in an ordinary room. the country ( ) the country must be arranged by one player, who, failing any other agreement, shall be selected by the toss of a coin. ( ) the other player shall then choose which side of the field he will fight from. ( ) the country must be disturbed as little as possible in each move. nothing in the country shall be moved or set aside deliberately to facilitate the firing of guns. a player must not lie across the country so as to crush or disturb the country if his opponent objects. whatever is moved by accident shall be replaced after the end of the move. the move ( ) after the country is made and the sides chosen, then (and not until then) the players shall toss for the first move. ( ) if there is no curtain, the player winning the toss, hereafter called the first player, shall next arrange his men along his back line, as he chooses. any men he may place behind or in front of his back line shall count in the subsequent move as if they touched the back line at its nearest point. the second player shall then do the same. but if a curtain is available both first and second player may put down their men at the same time. both players may take unlimited time for the putting down of their men; if there is a curtain it is drawn back when they are ready, and the game then begins. [illustration: fig. --battle of hook's farm. a near view of the blue army] [illustration: fig. --battle of hook's farm. position of both armies after first move.] ( ) the subsequent moves after the putting down are timed. the length of time given for each move is determined by the size of the forces engaged. about a minute should be allowed for moving men and a minute for each gun. thus for a force of men and guns, moved by one player, seven minutes is an ample allowance. as the battle progresses and the men are killed off, the allowance is reduced as the players may agree. the player about to move stands at attention a yard behind his back line until the timekeeper says "go." he then proceeds to make his move until time is up. he must instantly stop at the cry of "time." warning should be given by the timekeeper two minutes, one minute, and thirty seconds before time is up. there will be an interval before the next move, during which any disturbance of the country can be rearranged and men accidentally overturned replaced in a proper attitude. this interval must not exceed five or four minutes, as may be agreed upon. ( ) guns must not be fired before the second move of the first player--not counting the "putting down" as a move. thus the first player puts down, then the second player, the first player moves, then the second player, and the two forces are then supposed to come into effective range of each other and the first player may open fire if he wishes to do so. ( ) in making his move a player must move or fire his guns if he wants to do so, before moving his men. to this rule of "guns first" there is to be no exception. ( ) every soldier may be moved and every gun moved or fired at each move, subject to the following rules: mobility of the various arms (each player must be provided with two pieces of string, one two feet in length and the other six inches.) (i) an infantry-man may be moved a foot or any less distance at each move. (ii) a cavalry-man may be moved two feet or any less distance at each move. (iii) a gun is in action if there are at least four men of its own side within six inches of it. if there are not at least four men within that distance, it can neither be moved nor fired. (iv) if a gun is in action it can either be moved or fired at each move, but not both. if it is fired, it may fire as many as four shots in each move. it may be swung round on its axis (the middle point of its wheel axle) to take aim, provided the country about it permits; it may be elevated or depressed, and the soldiers about it may, at the discretion of the firer, be made to lie down in their places to facilitate its handling. moreover, soldiers who have got in front of the fire of their own guns may lie down while the guns fire over them. at the end of the move the gun must be left without altering its elevation and pointing in the direction of the last shot. and after firing, two men must be placed exactly at the end of the trail of the gun, one on either side in a line directly behind the wheels. so much for firing. if the gun is moved and not fired, then at least four men who are with the gun must move up with it to its new position, and be placed within six inches of it in its new position. the gun itself must be placed trail forward and the muzzle pointing back in the direction from which it came, and so it must remain until it is swung round on its axis to fire. obviously the distance which a gun can move will be determined by the men it is with; if there are at least four cavalry-men with it, they can take the gun two feet, but if there are fewer cavalry-men than four and the rest infantry, or no cavalry and all infantry, the gun will be movable only one foot. (v) every man must be placed fairly clear of hills, buildings, trees, guns, etc. he must not be jammed into interstices, and either player may insist upon a clear distance between any man and any gun or other object of at least one-sixteenth of an inch. nor must men be packed in contact with men. a space of one-sixteenth of an inch should be kept between them. (vi) when men are knocked over by a shot they are dead, and as many men are dead as a shot knocks over or causes to fall or to lean so that they would fall if unsupported. but if a shot strikes a man but does not knock him over, he is dead, provided the shot has not already killed a man. but a shot cannot kill more than one man without knocking him over, and if it touches several without oversetting them, only the first touched is dead and the others are not incapacitated. a shot that rebounds from or glances off any object and touches a man, kills him; it kills him even if it simply rolls to his feet, subject to what has been said in the previous sentence. hand-to-hand fighting and capturing ( ) a man or a body of men which has less than half its own number of men on its own side within a move of it, is said to be isolated. but if there is at least half its number of men of its own side within a move of it, it is not isolated; it is supported. ( ) men may be moved up into virtual contact (one-eighth of an inch or closer) with men of the opposite side. they must then be left until the end of the move. ( ) at the end of the move, if there are men of the side that has just moved in contact with any men of the other side, they constitute a melee. all the men in contact, and any other men within six inches of the men in contact, measuring from any point of their persons, weapons, or horses, are supposed to take part in the melee. at the end of the move the two players examine the melee and dispose of the men concerned according to the following rules:-- either the numbers taking part in the melee on each side are equal or unequal. (a) if they are equal, all the men on both sides are killed. (b) if they are unequal, then the inferior force is either isolated or (measuring from the points of contact) not isolated. (i) if it is isolated (see ( ) above), then as many men become prisoners as the inferior force is less in numbers than the superior force, and the rest kill each a man and are killed. thus nine against eleven have two taken prisoners, and each side seven men dead. four of the eleven remain with two prisoners. one may put this in another way by saying that the two forces kill each other off, man for man, until one force is double the other, which is then taken prisoner. seven men kill seven men, and then four are left with two. (ii) but if the inferior force is not isolated (see ( ) above), then each man of the inferior force kills a man of the superior force and is himself killed. and the player who has just completed the move, the one who has charged, decides, when there is any choice, which men in the melee, both of his own and of his antagonist, shall die and which shall be prisoners or captors. all these arrangements are made after the move is over, in the interval between the moves, and the time taken for the adjustment does not count as part of the usual interval for consideration. it is extra time. the player next moving may, if he has taken prisoners, move these prisoners. prisoners may be sent under escort to the rear or wherever the capturer directs, and one man within six inches of any number of prisoners up to seven can escort these prisoners and go with them. prisoners are liberated by the death of any escort there may be within six inches of them, but they may not be moved by the player of their own side until the move following that in which the escort is killed. directly prisoners are taken they are supposed to be disarmed, and if they are liberated they cannot fight until they are rearmed. in order to be rearmed they must return to the back line of their own side. an escort having conducted prisoners to the back line, and so beyond the reach of liberation, may then return into the fighting line. prisoners once made cannot fight until they have returned to their back line. it follows, therefore, that if after the adjudication of a melee a player moves up more men into touch with the survivors of this first melee, and so constitutes a second melee, any prisoners made in the first melee will not count as combatants in the second melee. thus if a moves up nineteen men into a melee with thirteen of b's--b having only five in support--a makes six prisoners, kills seven men, and has seven of his own killed. if, now, b can move up fourteen men into melee with a's victorious survivors, which he may be able to do by bringing the five into contact, and getting nine others within six inches of them, no count is made of the six of b's men who are prisoners in the hands of a. they are disarmed. b, therefore, has fourteen men in the second melee and a twelve, b makes two prisoners, kills ten of a's men, and has ten of his own killed. but now the six prisoners originally made by a are left without an escort, and are therefore recaptured by b. but they must go to b's back line and return before they can fight again. so, as the outcome of these two melees, there are six of b's men going as released prisoners to his back line whence they may return into the battle, two of a's men prisoners in the hands of b, one of b's staying with them as escort, and three of b's men still actively free for action. a, at a cost of nineteen men, has disposed of seventeen of b's men for good, and of six or seven, according to whether b keeps his prisoners in his fighting line or not, temporarily. [illustration: fig. --battle of hook's farm. the battle developing rapidly.] [illustration: fig. a--battle of hook's farm. red cavalry charging the blue guns.] ( ) any isolated body may hoist the white flag and surrender at any time. ( ) a gun is captured when there is no man whatever of its original side within six inches of it, and when at least four men of the antagonist side have moved up to it and have passed its wheel axis going in the direction of their attack. this latter point is important. an antagonist's gun may be out of action, and you may have a score of men coming up to it and within six inches of it, but it is not yet captured; and you may have brought up a dozen men all round the hostile gun, but if there is still one enemy just out of their reach and within six inches of the end of the trail of the gun, that gun is not captured: it is still in dispute and out of action, and you may not fire it or move it at the next move. but once a gun is fully captured, it follows all the rules of your own guns. varieties of the battle-game you may play various types of game. ( ) one is the fight to the finish. you move in from any points you like on the back line and try to kill, capture, or drive over his back line the whole of the enemy's force. you play the game for points; you score for the victory, and for every gun you hold or are in a position to take, - / for every cavalry-man, for every infantry-man still alive and uncaptured, / for every man of yours prisoner in the hands of the enemy, and / for every prisoner you have taken. if the battle is still undecided when both forces are reduced below fifteen men, the battle is drawn and the points for victory are divided. note--this game can be fought with any sized force, but if it is fought with less than a side, the minimum must be a side. ( ) the blow at the rear game is decided when at least three men of one force reach any point in the back line of their antagonist. he is then supposed to have suffered a strategic defeat, and he must retreat his entire force over the back line in six moves, i.e. six of his moves. anything left on the field after six moves capitulates to the victor. points count as in the preceding game, but this lasts a shorter time and is better adapted to a cramped country with a short back line. with a long rear line the game is simply a rush at some weak point in the first player's line by the entire cavalry brigade of the second player. instead of making the whole back line available for the blow at the rear, the middle or either half may be taken. ( ) in the defensive game, a force, the defenders, two-thirds as strong as its antagonist, tries to prevent the latter arriving, while still a quarter of its original strength, upon the defender's back line. the country must be made by one or both of the players before it is determined which shall be defender. the players then toss for choice of sides, and the winner of the toss becomes the defender. he puts out his force over the field on his own side, anywhere up to the distance of one move off the middle line--that is to say, he must not put any man within one move of the middle line, but he may do so anywhere on his own side of that limit--and then the loser of the toss becomes first player, and sets out his men a move from his back line. the defender may open fire forthwith; he need not wait until after the second move of the first player, as the second player has to do. composition of forces except in the above cases, or when otherwise agreed upon, the forces engaged shall be equal in number and similar in composition. the methods of handicapping are obvious. a slight inequality (chances of war) may be arranged between equal players by leaving out men on each side and tossing with a pair of dice to see how many each player shall take of these. the best arrangement and proportion of the forces is in small bodies of about to infantry-men and to cavalry to a gun. such a force can maneuver comfortably on a front of or feet. most of our games have been played with about infantry, cavalry, or naval guns, and a field gun on either side, or with smaller proportional forces. we have played excellent games on an eighteen-foot battlefield with over two hundred men and six guns a side. a player may, of course, rearrange his forces to suit his own convenience; brigade all or most of his cavalry into a powerful striking force, or what not. but more guns proportionally lead to their being put out of action too early for want of men; a larger proportion of infantry makes the game sluggish, and more cavalry--because of the difficulty of keeping large bodies of this force under cover--leads simply to early heavy losses by gunfire and violent and disastrous charging. the composition of a force may, of course, be varied considerably. one good fight to a finish game we tried as follows: we made the country, tossed for choice, and then drew curtains across the middle of the field. each player then selected his force from the available soldiers in this way: he counted infantry as each, cavalry as - / , and a gun as , and, taking whatever he liked in whatever position he liked, he made up a total of . he could, for instance, choose infantry and guns, or cavalry and no guns, or infantry, cavalry, and guns. in the result, a boer-like cavalry force of with guns suffered defeat at the hands of infantry with . size of the soldiers the soldiers used should be all of one size. the best british makers have standardised sizes, and sell infantry and cavalry in exactly proportioned dimensions; the infantry being nearly two inches tall. there is a lighter, cheaper make of perhaps an inch and a half high that is also available. foreign-made soldiers are of variable sizes. iv the battle of hook's farm and now, having given all the exact science of our war game, having told something of the development of this warfare, let me here set out the particulars of an exemplary game. and suddenly your author changes. he changes into what perhaps he might have been--under different circumstances. his inky fingers become large, manly hands, his drooping scholastic back stiffens, his elbows go out, his etiolated complexion corrugates and darkens, his moustaches increase and grow and spread, and curl up horribly; a large, red scar, a sabre cut, grows lurid over one eye. he expands--all over he expands. he clears his throat startlingly, lugs at the still growing ends of his moustache, and says, with just a faint and fading doubt in his voice as to whether he can do it, "yas, sir!" [illustration: fig. b--battle of hook's farm. after the cavalry mêlée] [illustration: fig. a--battle of hook's farm. prisoners being led to the rear.] now for a while you listen to general h. g. w., of the blue army. you hear tales of victory. the photographs of the battlefields are by a woman war-correspondent, a. c. w., a daring ornament of her sex. i vanish. i vanish, but i will return. here, then, is the story of the battle of hook's farm. "the affair of hook's farm was one of those brisk little things that did so much to build up my early reputation. i did remarkably well, though perhaps it is not my function to say so. the enemy was slightly stronger, both in cavalry and infantry, than myself [footnote: a slight but pardonable error on the part of the gallant gentleman. the forces were exactly equal.]; he had the choice of position, and opened the ball. nevertheless i routed him. i had with me a compact little force of guns, infantry, and horse. my instructions were to clear up the country to the east of firely church. "we came very speedily into touch. i discovered the enemy advancing upon hook's farm and firely church, evidently with the intention of holding those two positions and giving me a warm welcome. i have by me a photograph or so of the battlefield and also a little sketch i used upon the field. they will give the intelligent reader a far better idea of the encounter than any so-called 'fine writing' can do. "the original advance of the enemy was through the open country behind firely church and hook's farm; i sighted him between the points marked a a and b b, and his force was divided into two columns, with very little cover or possibility of communication between them if once the intervening ground was under fire. i reckoned about to his left and or to his right. [footnote: here again the gallant gentleman errs; this time he magnifies.] evidently he meant to seize both firely church and hook's farm, get his guns into action, and pound my little force to pieces while it was still practically in the open. he could reach both these admirable positions before i could hope to get a man there. there was no effective cover whatever upon my right that would have permitted an advance up to the church, and so i decided to concentrate my whole force in a rush upon hook's farm, while i staved off his left with gun fire. i do not believe any strategist whatever could have bettered that scheme. my guns were at the points marked d c e, each with five horsemen, and i deployed my infantry in a line between d and e. the rest of my cavalry i ordered to advance on hook's farm from c. i have shown by arrows on the sketch the course i proposed for my guns. the gun e was to go straight for its assigned position, and get into action at once. c was not to risk capture or being put out of action; its exact position was to be determined by red's rapidity in getting up to the farm, and it was to halt and get to work directly it saw any chance of effective fire. "red had now sighted us. throughout the affair he showed a remarkably poor stomach for gun-fire, and this was his undoing. moreover, he was tempted by the poorness of our cover on our right to attempt to outflank and enfilade us there. accordingly, partly to get cover from our two central guns and partly to outflank us, he sent the whole of his left wing to the left of firely church, where, except for the gun, it became almost a negligible quantity. the gun came out between the church and the wood into a position from which it did a considerable amount of mischief to the infantry on our right, and nearly drove our rightmost gun in upon its supports. meanwhile, red's two guns on his right came forward to hook's farm, rather badly supported by his infantry. "once they got into position there i perceived that we should be done for, and accordingly i rushed every available man forward in a vigorous counter attack, and my own two guns came lumbering up to the farmhouse corners, and got into the wedge of shelter close behind the house before his could open fire. his fire met my advance, littering the gentle grass slope with dead, and then, hot behind the storm of shell, and even as my cavalry gathered to charge his guns, he charged mine. i was amazed beyond measure at that rush, knowing his sabres to be slightly outnumbered by mine. in another moment all the level space round the farmhouse was a whirling storm of slashing cavalry, and then we found ourselves still holding on, with half a dozen prisoners, and the farmyard a perfect shambles of horses and men. the melee was over. his charge had failed, and, after a brief breathing--space for my shot--torn infantry to come up, i led on the counter attack. it was brilliantly successful; a hard five minutes with bayonet and sabre, and his right gun was in our hands and his central one in jeopardy. "and now red was seized with that most fatal disease of generals, indecision. he would neither abandon his lost gun nor adequately attack it. he sent forward a feeble little infantry attack, that we cut up with the utmost ease, taking several prisoners, made a disastrous demonstration from the church, and then fell back altogether from the gentle hill on which hook farm is situated to a position beside and behind an exposed cottage on the level. i at once opened out into a long crescent, with a gun at either horn, whose crossfire completely destroyed his chances of retreat from this ill-chosen last stand, and there presently we disabled his second gun. i now turned my attention to his still largely unbroken right, from which a gun had maintained a galling fire on us throughout the fight. i might still have had some stiff work getting an attack home to the church, but red had had enough of it, and now decided to relieve me of any further exertion by a precipitate retreat. my gun to the right of hook's farm killed three of his flying men, but my cavalry were too badly cut up for an effective pursuit, and he got away to the extreme left of his original positions with about infantry-men, cavalry, and gun. he went none too soon. had he stayed, it would have been only a question of time before we shot him to pieces and finished him altogether." so far, and a little vaingloriously, the general. let me now shrug my shoulders and shake him off, and go over this battle he describes a little more exactly with the help of the photographs. the battle is a small, compact game of the fight-to-a-finish type, and it was arranged as simply as possible in order to permit of a full and exact explanation. [illustration: fig. b--battle of hook's farm. position of armies at end of blue's third move.] [illustration: fig. --battle of hook's farm. red's left wing attempting to join the main body.] figure shows the country of the battlefield put out; on the right is the church, on the left (near the centre of the plate) is the farm. in the hollow between the two is a small outbuilding. directly behind the farm in the line of vision is another outbuilding. this is more distinctly seen in other photographs. behind, the chalk back line is clear. red has won the toss, both for the choice of a side and, after making that choice, for first move, and his force is already put out upon the back line. for the sake of picturesqueness, the men are not put exactly on the line, but each will have his next move measured from that line. red has broken his force into two, a fatal error, as we shall see, in view of the wide space of open ground between the farm and the church. he has gun, cavalry, and infantry on his left, who are evidently to take up a strong position by the church and enfilade blue's position; red's right, of guns, cavalry, and infantry aim at the seizure of the farm. figure is a near view of blue's side, with his force put down. he has grasped the strategic mistake of red, and is going to fling every man at the farm. his right, of cavalry and infantry, will get up as soon as possible to the woods near the centre of the field (whence the fire of their gun will be able to cut off the two portions of red's force from each other), and then, leaving the gun there with sufficient men to serve it, the rest of this party will push on to co-operate with the main force of their comrades in the inevitable scrimmage for the farm. figure shows the fight after red and blue have both made their first move. it is taken from red's side. red has not as yet realised the danger of his position. his left gun struggles into position to the left of the church, his centre and right push for the farm. blue's five cavalry on his left have already galloped forward into a favourable position to open fire at the next move--they are a little hidden in the picture by the church; the sixteen infantry follow hard, and his main force makes straight for the farm. figure shows the affair developing rapidly. red's cavalry on his right have taken his two guns well forward into a position to sweep either side of the farm, and his left gun is now well placed to pound blue's infantry centre. his infantry continue to press forward, but blue, for his second move, has already opened fire from the woods with his right gun, and killed three of red's men. his infantry have now come up to serve this gun, and the cavalry who brought it into position at the first move have now left it to them in order to gallop over to join the force attacking the farm. undismayed by red's guns, blue has brought his other two guns and his men as close to the farm as they can go. his leftmost gun stares red's in the face, and prevents any effective fire, his middle gun faces red's middle gun. some of his cavalry are exposed to the right of the farm, but most are completely covered now by the farm from red's fire. red has now to move. the nature of his position is becoming apparent to him. his right gun is ineffective, his left and his centre guns cannot kill more than seven or eight men between them; and at the next move, unless he can silence them, blue's guns will be mowing his exposed cavalry down from the security of the farm. he is in a fix. how is he to get out of it? his cavalry are slightly outnumbered, but he decides to do as much execution as he can with his own guns, charge the blue guns before him, and then bring up his infantry to save the situation. figure a shows the result of red's move. his two effective guns have between them bowled over two cavalry and six infantry in the gap between the farm and blue's right gun; and then, following up the effect of his gunfire, his cavalry charges home over the blue guns. one oversight he makes, to which blue at once calls his attention at the end of his move. red has reckoned on twenty cavalry for his charge, forgetting that by the rules he must put two men at the tail of his middle gun. his infantry are just not able to come up for this duty, and consequently two cavalry-men have to be set there. the game then pauses while the players work out the cavalry melee. red has brought up eighteen men to this; in touch or within six inches of touch there are twenty-one blue cavalry. red's force is isolated, for only two of his men are within a move, and to support eighteen he would have to have nine. by the rules this gives fifteen men dead on either side and three red prisoners to blue. by the rules also it rests with red to indicate the survivors within the limits of the melee as he chooses. he takes very good care there are not four men within six inches of either blue gun, and both these are out of action therefore for blue's next move. of course red would have done far better to have charged home with thirteen men only, leaving seven in support, but he was flurried by his comparatively unsuccessful shooting--he had wanted to hit more cavalry--and by the gun-trail mistake. moreover, he had counted his antagonist wrongly, and thought he could arrange a melee of twenty against twenty. figure b shows the game at the same stage as a, immediately after the adjudication of the melee. the dead have been picked up, the three prisoners, by a slight deflection of the rules in the direction of the picturesque, turn their faces towards captivity, and the rest of the picture is exactly in the position of a. it is now blue's turn to move, and figure a shows the result of his move. he fires his rightmost gun (the nose of it is just visible to the right) and kills one infantry-man and one cavalry-man (at the tail of red's central gun), brings up his surviving eight cavalry into convenient positions for the service of his temporarily silenced guns, and hurries his infantry forward to the farm, recklessly exposing them in the thin wood between the farm and his right gun. the attentive reader will be able to trace all this in figure a, and he will also note the three red cavalry prisoners going to the rear under the escort of one khaki infantry man. figure b shows exactly the same stage as figure a, that is to say, the end of blue's third move. a cavalry-man lies dead at the tail of red's middle gun, an infantry-man a little behind it. his rightmost gun is abandoned and partly masked, but not hidden, from the observer, by a tree to the side of the farmhouse. and now, what is red to do? the reader will probably have his own ideas, as i have mine. what red did do in the actual game was to lose his head, and then at the end of four minutes' deliberation he had to move, he blundered desperately. he opened fire on blue's exposed centre and killed eight men. (their bodies litter the ground in figure , which gives a complete bird's-eye view of the battle.) he then sent forward and isolated six or seven men in a wild attempt to recapture his lost gun, massed his other men behind the inadequate cover of his central gun, and sent the detachment of infantry that had hitherto lurked uselessly behind the church, in a frantic and hopeless rush across the open to join them. (the one surviving cavalry-man on his right wing will be seen taking refuge behind the cottage.) there can be little question of the entire unsoundness of all these movements. red was at a disadvantage, he had failed to capture the farm, and his business now was manifestly to save his men as much as possible, make a defensive fight of it, inflict as much damage as possible with his leftmost gun on blue's advance, get the remnants of his right across to the church--the cottage in the centre and their own gun would have given them a certain amount of cover--and build up a new position about that building as a pivot. with two guns right and left of the church he might conceivably have saved the rest of the fight. that, however, is theory; let us return to fact. figure gives the disastrous consequences of red's last move. blue has moved, his guns have slaughtered ten of red's wretched foot, and a rush of nine blue cavalry and infantry mingles with red's six surviving infantry about the disputed gun. these infantry by the definition are isolated; there are not three other reds within a move of them. the view in this photograph also is an extensive one, and the reader will note, as a painful accessory, the sad spectacle of three red prisoners receding to the right. the melee about red's lost gun works out, of course, at three dead on each side, and three more red prisoners. henceforth the battle moves swiftly to complete the disaster of red. shaken and demoralised, that unfortunate general is now only for retreat. his next move, of which i have no picture, is to retreat the infantry he has so wantonly exposed back to the shelter of the church, to withdraw the wreckage of his right into the cover of the cottage, and--one last gleam of enterprise--to throw forward his left gun into a position commanding blue's right. [illustration: fig. --battle of hook's farm. the red army suffers heavy loss.] [illustration: fig. --battle of hook's farm. complete victory of the blue army.] blue then pounds red's right with his gun to the right of the farm and kills three men. he extends his other gun to the left of the farm, right out among the trees, so as to get an effective fire next time upon the tail of red's gun. he also moves up sufficient men to take possession of red's lost gun. on the right blue's gun engages red's and kills one man. all this the reader will see clearly in figure , and he will also note a second batch of red prisoners--this time they are infantry, going rearward. figure is the last picture that is needed to tell the story of the battle. red's position is altogether hopeless. he has four men left alive by his rightmost gun, and their only chance is to attempt to save that by retreating with it. if they fire it, one or other will certainly be killed at its tail in blue's subsequent move, and then the gun will be neither movable nor fireable. red's left gun, with four men only, is also in extreme peril, and will be immovable and helpless if it loses another man. very properly red decided upon retreat. his second gun had to be abandoned after one move, but two of the men with it escaped over his back line. five of the infantry behind the church escaped, and his third gun and its four cavalry got away on the extreme left-hand corner of red's position. blue remained on the field, completely victorious, with two captured guns and six prisoners. there you have a scientific record of the worthy general's little affair. v extensions and amplifications of little war now that battle of hook's farm is, as i have explained, a simplification of the game, set out entirely to illustrate the method of playing; there is scarcely a battle that will not prove more elaborate (and eventful) than this little encounter. if a number of players and a sufficiently large room can be got, there is no reason why armies of many hundreds of soldiers should not fight over many square yards of model country. so long as each player has about a hundred men and three guns there is no need to lengthen the duration of a game on that account. but it is too laborious and confusing for a single player to handle more than that number of men. moreover, on a big floor with an extensive country it is possible to begin moving with moves double or treble the length here specified, and to come down to moves of the ordinary lengths when the troops are within fifteen or twelve or ten feet of each other. to players with the time and space available i would suggest using a quite large country, beginning with treble moves, and, with the exception of a select number of cavalry scouts, keeping the soldiers in their boxes with the lids on, and moving the boxes as units. (this boxing idea is a new one, and affords a very good substitute for the curtain; i have tried it twice for games in the open air where the curtain was not available.) neither side would, of course, know what the other had in its boxes; they might be packed regiments or a mere skeleton force. each side would advance on the other by double or treble moves behind a screen of cavalry scouts, until a scout was within ten feet of a box on the opposite side. then the contents of that particular box would have to be disclosed and the men stood out. troops without any enemy within twenty feet could be returned to their boxes for facility in moving. playing on such a scale would admit also of the introduction of the problem of provisions and supplies. little toy army service waggons can be bought, and it could be ruled that troops must have one such waggon for every fifty men within at least six moves. moreover, ammunition carts may be got, and it may be ruled that one must be within two moves of a gun before the latter can be fired. all these are complications of the war game, and so far i have not been able to get together sufficient experienced players to play on this larger, more elaborate scale. it is only after the smaller simpler war game here described has been played a number of times, and its little dodges mastered completely, that such more warlike devices become practicable. but obviously with a team of players and an extensive country, one could have a general controlling the whole campaign, divisional commanders, batteries of guns, specialised brigades, and a quite military movement of the whole affair. i have (as several illustrations show) tried little wars in the open air. the toy soldiers stand quite well on closely mown grass, but the long-range gun-fire becomes a little uncertain if there is any breeze. it gives a greater freedom of movement and allows the players to lie down more comfortably when firing, to increase, and even double, the moves of the indoor game. one can mark out high roads and streams with an ordinary lawn-tennis marker, mountains and rocks of stones, and woods and forests of twigs are easily arranged. but if the game is to be left out all night and continued next day (a thing i have as yet had no time to try), the houses must be of some more solid material than paper. i would suggest painted blocks of wood. on a large lawn, a wide country-side may be easily represented. the players may begin with a game exactly like the ordinary kriegspiel, with scouts and boxed soldiers, which will develop into such battles as are here described, as the troops come into contact. it would be easy to give the roads a real significance by permitting a move half as long again as in the open country for waggons or boxed troops along a road. there is a possibility of having a toy railway, with stations or rolling stock into which troops might be put, on such a giant war map. one would allow a move for entraining and another for detraining, requiring the troops to be massed alongside the train at the beginning and end of each journey, and the train might move at four or five times the cavalry rate. one would use open trucks and put in a specified number of men--say twelve infantry or five cavalry or half a gun per truck--and permit an engine to draw seven or eight trucks, or move at a reduced speed with more. one could also rule that four men--the same four men--remaining on a line during two moves, could tear up a rail, and eight men in three moves replace it. i will confess i have never yet tried over these more elaborate developments of little wars, partly because of the limited time at my disposal, and partly because they all demand a number of players who are well acquainted with the same on each side if they are not to last interminably. the battle of hook's farm (one player a side) took a whole afternoon, and most of my battles have lasted the better part of a day. vi ending with a sort of challenge i could go on now and tell of battles, copiously. in the memory of the one skirmish i have given i do but taste blood. i would like to go on, to a large, thick book. it would be an agreeable task. since i am the chief inventor and practiser (so far) of little wars, there has fallen to me a disproportionate share of victories. but let me not boast. for the present, i have done all that i meant to do in this matter. it is for you, dear reader, now to get a floor, a friend, some soldiers and some guns, and show by a grovelling devotion your appreciation of this noble and beautiful gift of a limitless game that i have given you. and if i might for a moment trumpet! how much better is this amiable miniature than the real thing! here is a homeopathic remedy for the imaginative strategist. here is the premeditation, the thrill, the strain of accumulating victory or disaster--and no smashed nor sanguinary bodies, no shattered fine buildings nor devastated country sides, no petty cruelties, none of that awful universal boredom and embitterment, that tiresome delay or stoppage or embarrassment of every gracious, bold, sweet, and charming thing, that we who are old enough to remember a real modern war know to be the reality of belligerence. this world is for ample living; we want security and freedom; all of us in every country, except a few dull-witted, energetic bores, want to see the manhood of the world at something better than apeing the little lead toys our children buy in boxes. we want fine things made for mankind--splendid cities, open ways, more knowledge and power, and more and more and more--and so i offer my game, for a particular as well as a general end; and let us put this prancing monarch and that silly scare-monger, and these excitable "patriots," and those adventurers, and all the practitioners of welt politik, into one vast temple of war, with cork carpets everywhere, and plenty of little trees and little houses to knock down, and cities and fortresses, and unlimited soldiers--tons, cellars-full--and let them lead their own lives there away from us. my game is just as good as their game, and saner by reason of its size. here is war, done down to rational proportions, and yet out of the way of mankind, even as our fathers turned human sacrifices into the eating of little images and symbolic mouthfuls. for my own part, i am _prepared_. i have nearly five hundred men, more than a score of guns, and i twirl my moustache and hurl defiance eastward from my home in essex across the narrow seas. not only eastward. i would conclude this little discourse with one other disconcerting and exasperating sentence for the admirers and practitioners of big war. i have never yet met in little battle any military gentleman, any captain, major, colonel, general, or eminent commander, who did not presently get into difficulties and confusions among even the elementary rules of the battle. you have only to play at little wars three or four times to realise just what a blundering thing great war must be. great war is at present, i am convinced, not only the most expensive game in the universe, but it is a game out of all proportion. not only are the masses of men and material and suffering and inconvenience too monstrously big for reason, but--the available heads we have for it, are too small. that, i think, is the most pacific realisation conceivable, and little war brings you to it as nothing else but great war can do. appendix little wars and kriegspiel this little book has, i hope, been perfectly frank about its intentions. it is not a book upon kriegspiel. it gives merely a game that may be played by two or four or six amateurish persons in an afternoon and evening with toy soldiers. but it has a very distinct relation to kriegspiel; and since the main portion of it was written and published in a magazine, i have had quite a considerable correspondence with military people who have been interested by it, and who have shown a very friendly spirit towards it--in spite of the pacific outbreak in its concluding section. they tell me--what i already a little suspected--that kriegspiel, as it is played by the british army, is a very dull and unsatisfactory exercise, lacking in realism, in stir and the unexpected, obsessed by the umpire at every turn, and of very doubtful value in waking up the imagination, which should be its chief function. i am particularly indebted to colonel mark sykes for advice and information in this matter. he has pointed out to me the possibility of developing little wars into a vivid and inspiring kriegspiel, in which the element of the umpire would be reduced to a minimum; and it would be ungrateful to him, and a waste of an interesting opportunity, if i did not add this appendix, pointing out how a kriegspiel of real educational value for junior officers may be developed out of the amusing methods of little war. if great war is to be played at all, the better it is played the more humanely it will be done. i see no inconsistency in deploring the practice while perfecting the method. but i am a civilian, and kriegspiel is not my proper business. i am deeply preoccupied with a novel i am writing, and so i think the best thing i can do is just to set down here all the ideas that have cropped up in my mind, in the footsteps, so to speak, of colonel sykes, and leave it to the military expert, if he cares to take the matter up, to reduce my scattered suggestions to a system. now, first, it is manifest that in little wars there is no equivalent for rifle-fire, and that the effect of the gun-fire has no resemblance to the effect of shell. that may be altered very simply. let the rules as to gun-fire be as they are now, but let a different projectile be used--a projectile that will drop down and stay where it falls. i find that one can buy in ironmongers' shops small brass screws of various sizes and weights, but all capable of being put in the muzzle of the ' guns without slipping down the barrel. if, with such a screw in the muzzle, the gun is loaded and fired, the wooden bolt remains in the gun and the screw flies and drops and stays near where it falls--its range being determined by the size and weight of screw selected by the gunner. let us assume this is a shell, and it is quite easy to make a rule that will give the effect of its explosion. half, or, in the case of an odd number, one more than half, of the men within three inches of this shell are dead, and if there is a gun completely within the circle of three inches radius from the shell, it is destroyed. if it is not completely within the circle, it is disabled for two moves. a supply waggon is completely destroyed if it falls wholly or partially within the radius. but if there is a wall, house, or entrenchment between any men and the shell, they are uninjured--they do not count in the reckoning of the effect of the shell. i think one can get a practical imitation of the effect of rifle-fire by deciding that for every five infantry-men who are roughly in a line, and who do not move in any particular move, there may be one (ordinary) shot taken with a ' gun. it may be fired from any convenient position behind the row of five men, so long as the shot passes roughly over the head of the middle man of the five. of course, while in little wars there are only three or four players, in any proper kriegspiel the game will go on over a larger area--in a drill-hall or some such place--and each arm and service will be entrusted to a particular player. this permits all sorts of complicated imitations of reality that are impossible to our parlour and playroom little wars. we can consider transport, supply, ammunition, and the moral effect of cavalry impact, and of uphill and downhill movements. we can also bring in the spade and entrenchment, and give scope to the royal engineers. but before i write anything of colonel sykes' suggestions about these, let me say a word or two about kriegspiel "country." the country for kriegspiel should be made up, i think, of heavy blocks or boxes of wood about x x / feet, and curved pieces (with a rounded outline and a chord of three feet, or shaped like right-angled triangles with an incurved hypotenuse and two straight sides of feet) can easily be contrived to round off corners and salient angles. these blocks can be bored to take trees, etc., exactly as the boards in little wars are bored, and with them a very passable model of any particular country can be built up from a contoured ordnance map. houses may be made very cheaply by shaping a long piece of wood into a house-like section and sawing it up. there will always be someone who will touch up and paint and stick windows on to and generally adorn and individualise such houses, which are, of course, the stabler the heavier the wood used. the rest of the country as in little wars. upon such a country a kriegspiel could be played with rules upon the lines of the following sketch rules, which are the result of a discussion between colonel sykes and myself, and in which most of the new ideas are to be ascribed to colonel sykes. we proffer them, not as a finished set of rules, but as material for anyone who chooses to work over them, in the elaboration of what we believe will be a far more exciting and edifying kriegspiel than any that exists at the present time. the game may be played by any number of players, according to the forces engaged and the size of the country available. each side will be under the supreme command of a general, who will be represented by a cavalry soldier. the player who is general must stand at or behind his representative image and within six feet of it. his signalling will be supposed to be perfect, and he will communicate with his subordinates by shout, whisper, or note, as he thinks fit. i suggest he should be considered invulnerable, but colonel sykes has proposed arrangements for his disablement. he would have it that if the general falls within the zone of destruction of a shell he must go out of the room for three moves (injured); and that if he is hit by rifle-fire or captured he shall quit the game, and be succeeded by his next subordinate. now as to the moves. it is suggested that: infantry shall move one foot. cavalry shall move three feet. the above moves are increased by one half for troops in twos or fours on a road. royal engineers shall move two feet. royal artillery shall move two feet. transport and supply shall move one foot on roads, half foot across country. the general shall move six feet (per motor), three feet across country. boats shall move one foot. in moving uphill, one contour counts as one foot; downhill, two contours count as one foot. where there are four contours to one foot vertical the hill is impassable for wheels unless there is a road. infantry. to pass a fordable river = one move. to change from fours to two ranks = half a move. to change from two ranks to extension = half a move. to embark into boats = two moves for every twenty men embarked at any point. to disembark = one move for every twenty men. cavalry. to pass a fordable river = one move. to change formation = half a move. to mount = one move. to dismount = one move. artillery. to unlimber guns = half a move. to limber up guns = half a move. rivers are impassable to guns. neither infantry, cavalry, nor artillery can fire and move in one move. royal engineers. no repairs can be commenced, no destructions can be begun, during a move in which r.e. have changed position. rivers impassable. transport and supply. no supplies or stores can be delivered during a move if t. and s. have moved. rivers impassable. next as to supply in the field: all troops must be kept supplied with food, ammunition, and forage. the players must give up, every six moves, one packet of food per thirty men; one packet of forage per six horses; one packet of ammunition per thirty infantry which fire for six consecutive moves. these supplies, at the time when they are given up, must be within six feet of the infantry they belong to and eighteen feet of the cavalry. isolated bodies of less than thirty infantry require no supplies--a body is isolated if it is more than twelve feet off another body. in calculating supplies for infantry the fractions either count as thirty if fifteen or over, or as nothing if less than fifteen. thus forty-six infantry require two packets of food or ammunition; forty-four infantry require one packet of food. n.b.--supplies are not effective if enemy is between supplies and troops they belong to. men surrounded and besieged must be victualled at the following rate:-- one packet food for every thirty men for every six moves. one packet forage every six horses for every six moves. in the event of supplies failing, horses may take the place of food, but not of course of forage; one horse to equal one packet. in the event of supplies failing, the following consequences ensue:-- infantry without ammunition cannot fire (guns are supposed to have unlimited ammunition with them). infantry, cavalry, r.a., and r.e. cannot move without supply--if supplies are not provided within six consecutive moves, they are out of action. a force surrounded must surrender four moves after eating its last horse. now as to destructions: to destroy a railway bridge r.e. take two moves; to repair, r.e. take ten moves. to destroy a railway culvert r.e. take one move; to repair r.e. take five moves. to destroy a river road bridge r.e. take one move; to repair, r.e. take five moves. a supply depot can be destroyed by one man in two moves, no matter how large (by fire). four men can destroy the contents of six waggons in one move. a contact mine can be placed on a road or in any place by two men in six moves; it will be exploded by the first pieces passing over it, and will destroy everything within six inches radius.* next as to constructions: entrenchments can be made by infantry in four moves.* they are to be strips of wood two inches high tacked to the country, or wooden bricks two inches high. two men may make an inch of entrenchment. epaulements for guns may be constructed at the rate of six men to one epaulement in four moves.* [* notice to be given to umpire of commencement of any work or the placing of a mine. in event of no umpire being available, a folded note must be put on the mantelpiece when entrenchment is commenced, and opponent asked to open it when the trench is completed or the mine exploded.] rules as to cavalry charging: no body of less than eight cavalry may charge, and they must charge in proper formation. if cavalry charges infantry in extended order-- if the charge starts at a distance of more than two feet, the cavalry loses one man for every five infantry-men charged, and the infantry loses one man for each sabre charging. at less than two feet and more than one foot, the cavalry loses one man for every ten charged, and the infantry two men for each sabre charging. at less than one foot, the cavalry loses one man for every fifteen charged, and the infantry three men for each sabre charging. if cavalry charges infantry in close order, the result is reversed. thus at more than two feet one infantry-man kills three cavalry-men, and fifteen cavalry-men one infantry-man. at more than one foot one infantry-man kills two cavalry, and ten cavalry one infantry. at less than one foot one infantry-man kills one cavalry, and five cavalry one infantry. however, infantry that have been charged in close order are immobile for the subsequent move. infantry charged in extended order must on the next move retire one foot; they can be charged again. if cavalry charges cavalry:-- if cavalry is within charging distance of the enemy's cavalry at the end of the enemy's move, it must do one of three things--dismount, charge, or retire. if it remains stationary and mounted and the enemy charges, one charging sabre will kill five stationary sabres and put fifteen others three feet to the rear. dismounted cavalry charged is equivalent to infantry in extended order. if cavalry charges cavalry and the numbers are equal and the ground level, the result must be decided by the toss of a coin; the loser losing three-quarters of his men and obliged to retire, the winner losing one-quarter of his men. if the numbers are unequal, the melee rules for little wars obtain if the ground is level. if the ground slopes, the cavalry charging downhill will be multiplied according to the number of contours crossed. if it is one contour, it must be multiplied by two; two contours, multiplied by three; three contours, multiplied by four. if cavalry retires before cavalry instead of accepting a charge, it must continue to retire so long as it is pursued--the pursuers can only be arrested by fresh cavalry or by infantry or artillery fire. if driven off the field or into an unfordable river, the retreating body is destroyed. if infantry find hostile cavalry within charging distance at the end of the enemy's move, and this infantry retires and yet is still within charging distance, it will receive double losses if in extended order if charged; and if in two ranks or in fours, will lose at three feet two men for each charging sabre; at two feet, three men for each charging sabre. the cavalry in these circumstances will lose nothing. the infantry will have to continue to retire until their tormentors have exterminated them or been driven off by someone else. if cavalry charges artillery and is not dealt with by other forces, one gun is captured with a loss to the cavalry of four men per gun for a charge at three feet, three men at two feet, and one man at one foot. if artillery retires before cavalry when cavalry is within charging distance, it must continue to retire so long as the cavalry pursues. the introduction of toy railway trains, moving, let us say, eight feet per move, upon toy rails, needs rules as to entraining and detraining and so forth, that will be quite easily worked out upon the model of boat embarkation here given. an engine or truck within the circle of destruction of a shell will be of course destroyed. the toy soldiers used in this kriegspiel should not be the large soldiers used in little wars. the british manufacturers who turn out these also make a smaller, cheaper type of man--the infantry about an inch high--which is better adapted to kriegspiel purposes. we hope, if these suggestions "catch on," to induce them to manufacture a type of soldier more exactly suited to the needs of the game, including tray carriers for troops in formation and (what is at present not attainable) dismountable cavalry that will stand. we place this rough sketch of a kriegspiel entirely at the disposal of any military men whose needs and opportunities enable them to work it out and make it into an exacter and more realistic game. in doing so, we think they will find it advisable to do their utmost to make the game work itself, and to keep the need for umpire's decisions at a minimum. whenever possible, death should be by actual gun- and rifle-fire and not by computation. things should happen, and not be decided. we would also like to insist upon the absolute need of an official upon either side, simply to watch and measure the moves taken, and to collect and check the amounts of supply and ammunition given up. this is a game like real war, played against time, and played under circumstances of considerable excitement, and it is remarkable how elastic the measurements of quite honest and honourable men can become. we believe that the nearer that kriegspiel approaches to an actual small model of war, not only in its appearance but in its emotional and intellectual tests, the better it will serve its purpose of trial and education. the sea lady [illustration: "am i doing it right?" asked the sea lady. (see page .)] the sea lady by h. g. wells _illustrated_ [illustration] new york d. appleton and company copyright, by d. appleton and company _published september, _ copyright by h. g. wells contents chapter page i.--the coming of the sea lady ii.--some first impressions iii.--the episode of the various journalists iv.--the quality of parker v.--the absence and return of mr. harry chatteris vi.--symptomatic vii.--the crisis viii.--moonshine triumphant list of illustrations facing page "am i doing it right?" asked the sea lady _frontispiece_ "stuff that the public won't believe aren't facts" she positively and quietly settled down with the buntings a little group about the sea lady's bath chair "why not?" the waiter retires amazed they seemed never to do anything but blow and sigh and rustle papers adjusting the folds of his blanket to a greater dignity the sea lady chapter the first. the coming of the sea lady i such previous landings of mermaids as have left a record, have all a flavour of doubt. even the very circumstantial account of that bruges sea lady, who was so clever at fancy work, gives occasion to the sceptic. i must confess that i was absolutely incredulous of such things until a year ago. but now, face to face with indisputable facts in my own immediate neighbourhood, and with my own second cousin melville (of seaton carew) as the chief witness to the story, i see these old legends in a very different light. yet so many people concerned themselves with the hushing up of this affair, that, but for my sedulous enquiries, i am certain it would have become as doubtful as those older legends in a couple of score of years. even now to many minds---- the difficulties in the way of the hushing-up process were no doubt exceptionally great in this case, and that they did contrive to do so much, seems to show just how strong are the motives for secrecy in all such cases. there is certainly no remoteness nor obscurity about the scene of these events. they began upon the beach just east of sandgate castle, towards folkestone, and they ended on the beach near folkestone pier not two miles away. the beginning was in broad daylight on a bright blue day in august and in full sight of the windows of half a dozen houses. at first sight this alone is sufficient to make the popular want of information almost incredible. but of that you may think differently later. mrs. randolph bunting's two charming daughters were bathing at the time in company with their guest, miss mabel glendower. it is from the latter lady chiefly, and from mrs. bunting, that i have pieced together the precise circumstances of the sea lady's arrival. from miss glendower, the elder of two glendower girls, for all that she is a principal in almost all that follows, i have obtained, and have sought to obtain, no information whatever. there is the question of the lady's feelings--and in this case i gather they are of a peculiarly complex sort. quite naturally they would be. at any rate, the natural ruthlessness of the literary calling has failed me. i have not ventured to touch them.... the villa residences to the east of sandgate castle, you must understand, are particularly lucky in having gardens that run right down to the beach. there is no intervening esplanade or road or path such as cuts off ninety-nine out of the hundred of houses that face the sea. as you look down on them from the western end of the leas, you see them crowding the very margin. and as a great number of high groins stand out from the shore along this piece of coast, the beach is practically cut off and made private except at very low water, when people can get around the ends of the groins. these houses are consequently highly desirable during the bathing season, and it is the custom of many of their occupiers to let them furnished during the summer to persons of fashion and affluence. the randolph buntings were such persons--indisputably. it is true of course that they were not aristocrats, or indeed what an unpaid herald would freely call "gentle." they had no right to any sort of arms. but then, as mrs. bunting would sometimes remark, they made no pretence of that sort; they were quite free (as indeed everybody is nowadays) from snobbery. they were simple homely buntings--randolph buntings--"good people" as the saying is--of a widely diffused hampshire stock addicted to brewing, and whether a suitably remunerated herald could or could not have proved them "gentle" there can be no doubt that mrs. bunting was quite justified in taking in the _gentlewoman_, and that mr. bunting and fred were sedulous gentlemen, and that all their ways and thoughts were delicate and nice. and they had staying with them the two miss glendowers, to whom mrs. bunting had been something of a mother, ever since mrs. glendower's death. the two miss glendowers were half sisters, and gentle beyond dispute, a county family race that had only for a generation stooped to trade, and risen at once antæus-like, refreshed and enriched. the elder, adeline, was the rich one--the heiress, with the commercial blood in her veins. she was really very rich, and she had dark hair and grey eyes and serious views, and when her father died, which he did a little before her step-mother, she had only the later portion of her later youth left to her. she was nearly seven-and-twenty. she had sacrificed her earlier youth to her father's infirmity of temper in a way that had always reminded her of the girlhood of elizabeth barrett browning. but after his departure for a sphere where his temper has no doubt a wider scope--for what is this world for if it is not for the formation of character?--she had come out strongly. it became evident she had always had a mind, and a very active and capable one, an accumulated fund of energy and much ambition. she had bloomed into a clear and critical socialism, and she had blossomed at public meetings; and now she was engaged to that really very brilliant and promising but rather extravagant and romantic person, harry chatteris, the nephew of an earl and the hero of a scandal, and quite a possible liberal candidate for the hythe division of kent. at least this last matter was under discussion and he was about, and miss glendower liked to feel she was supporting him by being about too, and that was chiefly why the buntings had taken a house in sandgate for the summer. sometimes he would come and stay a night or so with them, sometimes he would be off upon affairs, for he was known to be a very versatile, brilliant, first-class political young man--and hythe very lucky to have a bid for him, all things considered. and fred bunting was engaged to miss glendower's less distinguished, much less wealthy, seventeen-year old and possibly altogether more ordinary half-sister, mabel glendower, who had discerned long since when they were at school together that it wasn't any good trying to be clear when adeline was about. the buntings did not bathe "mixed," a thing indeed that was still only very doubtfully decent in , but mr. randolph bunting and his son fred came down to the beach with them frankly instead of hiding away or going for a walk according to the older fashion. (this, notwithstanding that miss mabel glendower, fred's _fiancée_ to boot, was of the bathing party.) they formed a little procession down under the evergreen oaks in the garden and down the ladder and so to the sea's margin. mrs. bunting went first, looking as it were for peeping tom with her glasses, and miss glendower, who never bathed because it made her feel undignified, went with her--wearing one of those simple, costly "art" morning costumes socialists affect. behind this protecting van came, one by one, the three girls, in their beautiful parisian bathing dresses and headdresses--though these were of course completely muffled up in huge hooded gowns of towelling--and wearing of course stockings and shoes--they bathed in stockings and shoes. then came mrs. bunting's maid and the second housemaid and the maid the glendower girls had brought, carrying towels, and then at a little interval the two men carrying ropes and things. (mrs. bunting always put a rope around each of her daughters before ever they put a foot in the water and held it until they were safely out again. but mabel glendower would not have a rope.) where the garden ends and the beach begins miss glendower turned aside and sat down on the green iron seat under the evergreen oak, and having found her place in "sir george tressady"--a book of which she was naturally enough at that time inordinately fond--sat watching the others go on down the beach. there they were a very bright and very pleasant group of prosperous animated people upon the sunlit beach, and beyond them in streaks of grey and purple, and altogether calm save for a pattern of dainty little wavelets, was that ancient mother of surprises, the sea. as soon as they reached the high-water mark where it is no longer indecent to be clad merely in a bathing dress, each of the young ladies handed her attendant her wrap, and after a little fun and laughter mrs. bunting looked carefully to see if there were any jelly fish, and then they went in. and after a minute or so, it seems betty, the elder miss bunting, stopped splashing and looked, and then they all looked, and there, about thirty yards away was the sea lady's head, as if she were swimming back to land. naturally they concluded that she must be a neighbour from one of the adjacent houses. they were a little surprised not to have noticed her going down into the water, but beyond that her apparition had no shadow of wonder for them. they made the furtive penetrating observations usual in such cases. they could see that she was swimming very gracefully and that she had a lovely face and very beautiful arms, but they could not see her wonderful golden hair because all that was hidden in a fashionable phrygian bathing cap, picked up--as she afterwards admitted to my second cousin--some nights before upon a norman _plage_. nor could they see her lovely shoulders because of the red costume she wore. they were just on the point of feeling their inspection had reached the limit of really nice manners and mabel was pretending to go on splashing again and saying to betty, "she's wearing a red dress. i wish i could see--" when something very terrible happened. the swimmer gave a queer sort of flop in the water, threw up her arms and--vanished! it was the sort of thing that seems for an instant to freeze everybody, just one of those things that everyone has read of and imagined and very few people have seen. for a space no one did anything. one, two, three seconds passed and then for an instant a bare arm flashed in the air and vanished again. mabel tells me she was quite paralysed with horror, she did nothing all the time, but the two miss buntings, recovering a little, screamed out, "oh, she's drowning!" and hastened to get out of the sea at once, a proceeding accelerated by mrs. bunting, who with great presence of mind pulled at the ropes with all her weight and turned about and continued to pull long after they were many yards from the water's edge and indeed cowering in a heap at the foot of the sea wall. miss glendower became aware of a crisis and descended the steps, "sir george tressady" in one hand and the other shading her eyes, crying in her clear resolute voice, "she must be saved!" the maids of course were screaming--as became them--but the two men appear to have acted with the greatest presence of mind. "fred, nexdoors ledder!" said mr. randolph bunting--for the next-door neighbour instead of having convenient stone steps had a high wall and a long wooden ladder, and it had often been pointed out by mr. bunting if ever an accident should happen to anyone there was _that_! in a moment it seems they had both flung off jacket and vest, collar, tie and shoes, and were running the neighbour's ladder out into the water. "where did she go, ded?" said fred. "right out hea!" said mr. bunting, and to confirm his word there flashed again an arm and "something dark"--something which in the light of all that subsequently happened i am inclined to suppose was an unintentional exposure of the lady's tail. neither of the two gentlemen are expert swimmers--indeed so far as i can gather, mr. bunting in the excitement of the occasion forgot almost everything he had ever known of swimming--but they waded out valiantly one on each side of the ladder, thrust it out before them and committed themselves to the deep, in a manner casting no discredit upon our nation and race. yet on the whole i think it is a matter for general congratulation that they were not engaged in the rescue of a genuinely drowning person. at the time of my enquiries whatever soreness of argument that may once have obtained between them had passed, and it is fairly clear that while fred bunting was engaged in swimming hard against the long side of the ladder and so causing it to rotate slowly on its axis, mr. bunting had already swallowed a very considerable amount of sea-water and was kicking fred in the chest with aimless vigour. this he did, as he explains, "to get my legs down, you know. something about that ladder, you know, and they _would_ go up!" and then quite unexpectedly the sea lady appeared beside them. one lovely arm supported mr. bunting about the waist and the other was over the ladder. she did not appear at all pale or frightened or out of breath, fred told me when i cross-examined him, though at the time he was too violently excited to note a detail of that sort. indeed she smiled and spoke in an easy pleasant voice. "cramp," she said, "i have cramp." both the men were convinced of that. mr. bunting was on the point of telling her to hold tight and she would be quite safe, when a little wave went almost entirely into his mouth and reduced him to wild splutterings. "_we'll_ get you in," said fred, or something of that sort, and so they all hung, bobbing in the water to the tune of mr. bunting's trouble. they seem to have rocked so for some time. fred says the sea lady looked calm but a little puzzled and that she seemed to measure the distance shoreward. "you _mean_ to save me?" she asked him. he was trying to think what could be done before his father drowned. "we're saving you now," he said. "you'll take me ashore?" as she seemed so cool he thought he would explain his plan of operations, "trying to get--end of ladder--kick with my legs. only a few yards out of our depth--if we could only----" "minute--get my breath--moufu' sea-water," said mr. bunting. _splash!_ wuff!... and then it seemed to fred that a little miracle happened. there was a swirl of the water like the swirl about a screw propeller, and he gripped the sea lady and the ladder just in time, as it seemed to him, to prevent his being washed far out into the channel. his father vanished from his sight with an expression of astonishment just forming on his face and reappeared beside him, so far as back and legs are concerned, holding on to the ladder with a sort of death grip. and then behold! they had shifted a dozen yards inshore, and they were in less than five feet of water and fred could feel the ground. at its touch his amazement and dismay immediately gave way to the purest heroism. he thrust ladder and sea lady before him, abandoned the ladder and his now quite disordered parent, caught her tightly in his arms, and bore her up out of the water. the young ladies cried "saved!" the maids cried "saved!" distant voices echoed "saved, hooray!" everybody in fact cried "saved!" except mrs. bunting, who was, she says, under the impression that mr. bunting was in a fit, and mr. bunting, who seems to have been under an impression that all those laws of nature by which, under providence, we are permitted to float and swim, were in suspense and that the best thing to do was to kick very hard and fast until the end should come. but in a dozen seconds or so his head was up again and his feet were on the ground and he was making whale and walrus noises, and noises like a horse and like an angry cat and like sawing, and was wiping the water from his eyes; and mrs. bunting (except that now and then she really _had_ to turn and say "_ran_dolph!") could give her attention to the beautiful burthen that clung about her son. and it is a curious thing that the sea lady was at least a minute out of the water before anyone discovered that she was in any way different from--other ladies. i suppose they were all crowding close to her and looking at her beautiful face, or perhaps they imagined that she was wearing some indiscreet but novel form of dark riding habit or something of that sort. anyhow not one of them noticed it, although it must have been before their eyes as plain as day. certainly it must have blended with the costume. and there they stood, imagining that fred had rescued a lovely lady of indisputable fashion, who had been bathing from some neighbouring house, and wondering why on earth there was nobody on the beach to claim her. and she clung to fred and, as miss mabel glendower subsequently remarked in the course of conversation with him, fred clung to her. "i had cramp," said the sea lady, with her lips against fred's cheek and one eye on mrs. bunting. "i am sure it was cramp.... i've got it still." "i don't see anybody--" began mrs. bunting. "please carry me in," said the sea lady, closing her eyes as if she were ill--though her cheek was flushed and warm. "carry me in." "where?" gasped fred. "carry me into the house," she whispered to him. "which house?" mrs. bunting came nearer. "_your_ house," said the sea lady, and shut her eyes for good and became oblivious to all further remarks. "she-- but i don't understand--" said mrs. bunting, addressing everybody.... and then it was they saw it. nettie, the younger miss bunting, saw it first. she pointed, she says, before she could find words to speak. then they all saw it! miss glendower, i believe, was the person who was last to see it. at any rate it would have been like her if she had been. "mother," said nettie, giving words to the general horror. "_mother!_ she has a _tail_!" and then the three maids and mabel glendower screamed one after the other. "look!" they cried. "a tail!" "of all--" said mrs. bunting, and words failed her. "_oh!_" said miss glendower, and put her hand to her heart. and then one of the maids gave it a name. "it's a mermaid!" screamed the maid, and then everyone screamed, "it's a mermaid." except the mermaid herself; she remained quite passive, pretending to be insensible partly on fred's shoulder and altogether in his arms. ii that, you know, is the tableau so far as i have been able to piece it together again. you must imagine this little knot of people upon the beach, and mr. bunting, i figure, a little apart, just wading out of the water and very wet and incredulous and half drowned. and the neighbour's ladder was drifting quietly out to sea. of course it was one of those positions that have an air of being conspicuous. indeed it was conspicuous. it was some way below high water and the group stood out perhaps thirty yards down the beach. nobody, as mrs. bunting told my cousin melville, knew a bit _what_ to do and they all had even an exaggerated share of the national hatred of being seen in a puzzle. the mermaid seemed content to remain a beautiful problem clinging to fred, and by all accounts she was a reasonable burthen for a man. it seems that the very large family of people who were stopping at the house called koot hoomi had appeared in force, and they were all staring and gesticulating. they were just the sort of people the buntings did not want to know--tradespeople very probably. presently one of the men--the particularly vulgar man who used to shoot at the gulls--began putting down their ladder as if he intended to offer advice, and mrs. bunting also became aware of the black glare of the field glasses of a still more horrid man to the west. moreover the popular author who lived next door, an irascible dark square-headed little man in spectacles, suddenly turned up and began bawling from his inaccessible wall top something foolish about his ladder. nobody thought of his silly ladder or took any trouble about it, naturally. he was quite stupidly excited. to judge by his tone and gestures he was using dreadful language and seemed disposed every moment to jump down to the beach and come to them. and then to crown the situation, over the westward groin appeared low excursionists! first of all their heads came, and then their remarks. then they began to clamber the breakwater with joyful shouts. "pip, pip," said the low excursionists as they climbed--it was the year of "pip, pip"--and, "what ho she bumps!" and then less generally, "what's up _'ere_?" and the voices of other low excursionists still invisible answered, "pip, pip." it was evidently a large party. "anything wrong?" shouted one of the low excursionists at a venture. "my _dear_!" said mrs. bunting to mabel, "what _are_ we to do?" and in her description of the affair to my cousin melville she used always to make that the _clou_ of the story. "my dear! what are we to do?" i believe that in her desperation she even glanced at the water. but of course to have put the mermaid back then would have involved the most terrible explanations.... it was evident there was only one thing to be done. mrs. bunting said as much. "the only thing," said she, "is to carry her indoors." and carry her indoors they did!... one can figure the little procession. in front fred, wet and astonished but still clinging and clung to, and altogether too out of breath for words. and in his arms the sea lady. she had a beautiful figure, i understand, until that horrible tail began (and the fin of it, mrs. bunting told my cousin in a whispered confidence, went up and down and with pointed corners for all the world like a mackerel's). it flopped and dripped along the path--i imagine. she was wearing a very nice and very long-skirted dress of red material trimmed with coarse white lace, and she had, mabel told me, a _gilet_, though that would scarcely show as they went up the garden. and that phrygian cap hid all her golden hair and showed the white, low, level forehead over her sea-blue eyes. from all that followed, i imagine her at the moment scanning the veranda and windows of the house with a certain eagerness of scrutiny. behind this staggering group of two i believe mrs. bunting came. then mr. bunting. dreadfully wet and broken down mr. bunting must have been by then, and from one or two things i have noticed since, i can't help imagining him as pursuing his wife with, "of course, my dear, _i_ couldn't tell, you know!" and then, in a dismayed yet curious bunch, the girls in their wraps of towelling and the maids carrying the ropes and things and, as if inadvertently, as became them, most of mr. and fred bunting's clothes. and then miss glendower, for once at least in no sort of pose whatever, clutching "sir george tressady" and perplexed and disturbed beyond measure. and then, as it were pursuing them all, "pip, pip," and the hat and raised eyebrows of a low excursionist still anxious to know "what's up?" from the garden end. so it was, or at least in some such way, and to the accompaniment of the wildest ravings about some ladder or other heard all too distinctly over the garden wall--("overdressed snobbs take my _rare old english adjective_ ladder...!")--that they carried the sea lady (who appeared serenely insensible to everything) up through the house and laid her down upon the couch in mrs. bunting's room. and just as miss glendower was suggesting that the very best thing they could do would be to send for a doctor, the sea lady with a beautiful naturalness sighed and came to. chapter the second some first impressions i there with as much verisimilitude as i can give it, is how the folkestone mermaid really came to land. there can be no doubt that the whole affair was a deliberately planned intrusion upon her part. she never had cramp, she couldn't have cramp, and as for drowning, nobody was near drowning for a moment except mr. bunting, whose valuable life she very nearly sacrificed at the outset of her adventure. and her next proceeding was to demand an interview with mrs. bunting and to presume upon her youthful and glowing appearance to gain the support, sympathy and assistance of that good-hearted lady (who as a matter of fact was a thing of yesterday, a mere chicken in comparison with her own immemorial years) in her extraordinary raid upon humanity. her treatment of mrs. bunting would be incredible if we did not know that, in spite of many disadvantages, the sea lady was an extremely well read person. she admitted as much in several later conversations with my cousin melville. for a time there was a friendly intimacy--so melville always preferred to present it--between these two, and my cousin, who has a fairly considerable amount of curiosity, learnt many very interesting details about the life "out there" or "down there"--for the sea lady used either expression. at first the sea lady was exceedingly reticent under the gentle insistence of his curiosity, but after a time, i gather, she gave way to bursts of cheerful confidence. "it is clear," says my cousin, "that the old ideas of the submarine life as a sort of perpetual game of 'who-hoop' through groves of coral, diversified by moonlight hair-combings on rocky strands, need very extensive modification." in this matter of literature, for example, they have practically all that we have, and unlimited leisure to read it in. melville is very insistent upon and rather envious of that unlimited leisure. a picture of a mermaid swinging in a hammock of woven seaweed, with what bishops call a "latter-day" novel in one hand and a sixteen candle-power phosphorescent fish in the other, may jar upon one's preconceptions, but it is certainly far more in accordance with the picture of the abyss she printed on his mind. everywhere change works her will on things. everywhere, and even among the immortals, modernity spreads. even on olympus i suppose there is a progressive party and a new phaeton agitating to supersede the horses of his father by some solar motor of his own. i suggested as much to melville and he said "horrible! horrible!" and stared hard at my study fire. dear old melville! she gave him no end of facts about deep sea reading. of course they do not print books "out there," for the printer's ink under water would not so much run as fly--she made that very plain; but in one way or another nearly the whole of terrestrial literature, says melville, has come to them. "we know," she said. they form indeed a distinct reading public, and additions to their vast submerged library that circulates forever with the tides, are now pretty systematically sought. the sources are various and in some cases a little odd. many books have been found in sunken ships. "indeed!" said melville. there is always a dropping and blowing overboard of novels and magazines from most passenger-carrying vessels--sometimes, but these are not as a rule valuable additions--a deliberate shying overboard. but sometimes books of an exceptional sort are thrown over when they are quite finished. (melville is a dainty irritable reader and no doubt he understood that.) from the sea beaches of holiday resorts, moreover, the lighter sorts of literature are occasionally getting blown out to sea. and so soon as the booms of our great popular novelists are over, melville assured me, the libraries find it convenient to cast such surplus copies of their current works as the hospitals and prisons cannot take, below high-water mark. "that's not generally known," said i. "_they_ know it," said melville. in other ways the beaches yield. young couples who "begin to sit heapy," the sea lady told my cousin, as often as not will leave excellent modern fiction behind them, when at last they return to their proper place. there is a particularly fine collection of english work, it seems, in the deep water of the english channel; practically the whole of the tauchnitz library is there, thrown overboard at the last moment by conscientious or timid travellers returning from the continent, and there was for a time a similar source of supply of american reprints in the mersey, but that has fallen off in recent years. and the deep sea mission for fishermen has now for some years been raining down tracts and giving a particularly elevated tone of thought to the extensive shallows of the north sea. the sea lady was very precise on these points. when one considers the conditions of its accumulation, one is not surprised to hear that the element of fiction is as dominant in this deep sea library as it is upon the counters of messrs. mudie; but my cousin learnt that the various illustrated magazines, and particularly the fashion papers, are valued even more highly than novels, are looked for far more eagerly and perused with envious emotion. indeed on that point my cousin got a sudden glimpse of one of the motives that had brought this daring young lady into the air. he made some sort of suggestion. "we should have taken to dressing long ago," she said, and added, with a vague quality of laughter in her tone, "it isn't that we're unfeminine, mr. melville. only--as i was explaining to mrs. bunting, one must consider one's circumstances--how _can_ one _hope_ to keep anything nice under water? imagine lace!" "soaked!" said my cousin melville. "drenched!" said the sea lady. "ruined!" said my cousin melville. "and then you know," said the sea lady very gravely, "one's hair!" "of course," said melville. "why!--you can never get it _dry_!" "that's precisely it," said she. my cousin melville had a new light on an old topic. "and that's why--in the old time----?" "exactly!" she cried, "exactly! before there were so many excursionists and sailors and low people about, one came out, one sat and brushed it in the sun. and then of course it really _was_ possible to do it up. but now----" she made a petulant gesture and looked gravely at melville, biting her lip the while. my cousin made a sympathetic noise. "the horrid modern spirit," he said--almost automatically.... but though fiction and fashion appear to be so regrettably dominant in the nourishment of the mer-mind, it must not be supposed that the most serious side of our reading never reaches the bottom of the sea. there was, for example, a case quite recently, the sea lady said, of the captain of a sailing ship whose mind had become unhinged by the huckstering uproar of the _times_ and _daily mail_, and who had not only bought a second-hand copy of the _times_ reprint of the encyclopædia britannica, but also that dense collection of literary snacks and samples, that all-literature sausage which has been compressed under the weighty editing of doctor richard garnett. it has long been notorious that even the greatest minds of the past were far too copious and confusing in their--as the word goes--lubrications. doctor garnett, it is alleged, has seized the gist and presented it so compactly that almost any business man now may take hold of it without hindrance to his more serious occupations. the unfortunate and misguided seaman seems to have carried the entire collection aboard with him, with the pretty evident intention of coming to land in sydney the wisest man alive--a hindoo-minded thing to do. the result might have been anticipated. the mass shifted in the night, threw the whole weight of the science of the middle nineteenth century and the literature of all time, in a virulently concentrated state, on one side of his little vessel and capsized it instantly.... the ship, the sea lady said, dropped into the abyss as if it were loaded with lead, and its crew and other movables did not follow it down until much later in the day. the captain was the first to arrive, said the sea lady, and it is a curious fact, due probably to some preliminary dippings into his purchase, that he came head first, instead of feet down and limbs expanded in the customary way.... however, such exceptional windfalls avail little against the rain of light literature that is constantly going on. the novel and the newspaper remain the world's reading even at the bottom of the sea. as subsequent events would seem to show, it must have been from the common latter-day novel and the newspaper that the sea lady derived her ideas of human life and sentiment and the inspiration of her visit. and if at times she seemed to underestimate the nobler tendencies of the human spirit, if at times she seemed disposed to treat adeline glendower and many of the deeper things of life with a certain sceptical levity, if she did at last indisputably subordinate reason and right feeling to passion, it is only just to her, and to those deeper issues, that we should ascribe her aberrations to their proper cause.... ii my cousin melville, i was saying, did at one time or another get a vague, a very vague conception of what that deep-sea world was like. but whether his conception has any quality of truth in it is more than i dare say. he gives me an impression of a very strange world indeed, a green luminous fluidity in which these beings float, a world lit by great shining monsters that drift athwart it, and by waving forests of nebulous luminosity amidst which the little fishes drift like netted stars. it is a world with neither sitting, nor standing, nor going, nor coming, through which its inhabitants float and drift as one floats and drifts in dreams. and the way they live there! "my dear man!" said melville, "it must be like a painted ceiling!..." i do not even feel certain that it is in the sea particularly that this world of the sea lady is to be found. but about those saturated books and drowned scraps of paper, you say? things are not always what they seem, and she told him all of that, we must reflect, one laughing afternoon. she could appear, at times, he says, as real as you or i, and again came mystery all about her. there were times when it seemed to him you might have hurt her or killed her as you can hurt and kill anyone--with a penknife for example--and there were times when it seemed to him you could have destroyed the whole material universe and left her smiling still. but of this ambiguous element in the lady, more is to be told later. there are wider seas than ever keel sailed upon, and deeps that no lead of human casting will ever plumb. when it is all summed up, i have to admit, i do not know, i cannot tell. i fall back upon melville and my poor array of collected facts. at first there was amazingly little strangeness about her for any who had to deal with her. there she was, palpably solid and material, a lady out of the sea. this modern world is a world where the wonderful is utterly commonplace. we are bred to show a quiet freedom from amazement, and why should we boggle at material mermaids, with dewars solidifying all sorts of impalpable things and marconi waves spreading everywhere? to the buntings she was as matter of fact, as much a matter of authentic and reasonable motives and of sound solid sentimentality, as everything else in the bunting world. so she was for them in the beginning, and so up to this day with them her memory remains. iii the way in which the sea lady talked to mrs. bunting on that memorable morning, when she lay all wet and still visibly fishy on the couch in mrs. bunting's dressing-room, i am also able to give with some little fulness, because mrs. bunting repeated it all several times, acting the more dramatic speeches in it, to my cousin melville in several of those good long talks that both of them in those happy days--and particularly mrs. bunting--always enjoyed so much. and with her very first speech, it seems, the sea lady took her line straight to mrs. bunting's generous managing heart. she sat up on the couch, drew the antimacassar modestly over her deformity, and sometimes looking sweetly down and sometimes openly and trustfully into mrs. bunting's face, and speaking in a soft clear grammatical manner that stamped her at once as no mere mermaid but a finished fine sea lady, she "made a clean breast of it," as mrs. bunting said, and "fully and frankly" placed herself in mrs. bunting's hands. "mrs. bunting," said mrs. bunting to my cousin melville, in a dramatic rendering of the sea lady's manner, "do permit me to apologise for this intrusion, for i know it _is_ an intrusion. but indeed it has almost been _forced_ upon me, and if you will only listen to my story, mrs. bunting, i think you will find--well, if not a complete excuse for me--for i can understand how exacting your standards must be--at any rate _some_ excuse for what i have done--for what i _must_ call, mrs. bunting, my deceitful conduct towards you. deceitful it was, mrs. bunting, for i never had cramp-- but then, mrs. bunting"--and here mrs. bunting would insert a long impressive pause--"i never had a mother!" "and then and there," said mrs. bunting, when she told the story to my cousin melville, "the poor child burst into tears and confessed she had been born ages and ages ago in some dreadful miraculous way in some terrible place near cyprus, and had no more right to a surname-- well, _there_--!" said mrs. bunting, telling the story to my cousin melville and making the characteristic gesture with which she always passed over and disowned any indelicacy to which her thoughts might have tended. "and all the while speaking with such a nice accent and moving in such a ladylike way!" "of course," said my cousin melville, "there are classes of people in whom one excuses-- one must weigh----" "precisely," said mrs. bunting. "and you see it seems she deliberately chose _me_ as the very sort of person she had always wanted to appeal to. it wasn't as if she came to us haphazard--she picked us out. she had been swimming round the coast watching people day after day, she said, for quite a long time, and she said when she saw my face, watching the girls bathe--you know how funny girls are," said mrs. bunting, with a little deprecatory laugh, and all the while with a moisture of emotion in her kindly eyes. "she took quite a violent fancy to me from the very first." "i can _quite_ believe _that_, at any rate," said my cousin melville with unction. i know he did, although he always leaves it out of the story when he tells it to me. but then he forgets that i have had the occasional privilege of making a third party in these good long talks. "you know it's most extraordinary and exactly like the german story," said mrs. bunting. "oom--what is it?" "undine?" "exactly--yes. and it really seems these poor creatures are immortal, mr. melville--at least within limits--creatures born of the elements and resolved into the elements again--and just as it is in the story--there's always a something--they have no souls! no souls at all! nothing! and the poor child feels it. she feels it dreadfully. but in order to _get_ souls, mr. melville, you know they have to come into the world of men. at least so they believe down there. and so she has come to folkestone. to get a soul. of course that's her great object, mr. melville, but she's not at all fanatical or silly about it. any more than _we_ are. of course _we_--people who feel deeply----" "of course," said my cousin melville, with, i know, a momentary expression of profound gravity, drooping eyelids and a hushed voice. for my cousin does a good deal with his soul, one way and another. "and she feels that if she comes to earth at all," said mrs. bunting, "she _must_ come among _nice_ people and in a nice way. one can understand her feeling like that. but imagine her difficulties! to be a mere cause of public excitement, and silly paragraphs in the silly season, to be made a sort of show of, in fact--she doesn't want _any_ of it," added mrs. bunting, with the emphasis of both hands. "what _does_ she want?" asked my cousin melville. "she wants to be treated exactly like a human being, to _be_ a human being, just like you or me. and she asks to stay with us, to be one of our family, and to learn how we live. she has asked me to advise her what books to read that are really nice, and where she can get a dress-maker, and how she can find a clergyman to sit under who would really be likely to understand her case, and everything. she wants me to advise her about it all. she wants to put herself altogether in my hands. and she asked it all so nicely and sweetly. she wants me to advise her about it all." "um," said my cousin melville. "you should have heard her!" cried mrs. bunting. "practically it's another daughter," he reflected. "yes," said mrs. bunting, "and even that did not frighten me. she admitted as much." "still----" he took a step. "she has means?" he inquired abruptly. "ample. she told me there was a box. she said it was moored at the end of a groin, and accordingly dear randolph watched all through luncheon, and afterwards, when they could wade out and reach the end of the rope that tied it, he and fred pulled it in and helped fitch and the coachman carry it up. it's a curious little box for a lady to have, well made, of course, but of wood, with a ship painted on the top and the name of 'tom' cut in it roughly with a knife; but, as she says, leather simply will _not_ last down there, and one has to put up with what one can get; and the great thing is it's _full_, perfectly full, of gold coins and things. yes, gold--and diamonds, mr. melville. you know randolph understands something-- yes, well he says that box--oh! i couldn't tell you _how_ much it isn't worth! and all the gold things with just a sort of faint reddy touch.... but anyhow, she is rich, as well as charming and beautiful. and really you know, mr. melville, altogether-- well, i'm going to help her, just as much as ever i can. practically, she's to be our paying guest. as you know--it's no great secret between _us_--adeline-- yes.... she'll be the same. and i shall bring her out and introduce her to people and so forth. it will be a great help. and for everyone except just a few intimate friends, she is to be just a human being who happens to be an invalid--temporarily an invalid--and we are going to engage a good, trustworthy woman--the sort of woman who isn't astonished at anything, you know--they're a little expensive but they're to be got even nowadays--who will be her maid--and make her dresses, her skirts at any rate--and we shall dress her in long skirts--and throw something over it, you know----" "over----?" "the tail, you know." my cousin melville said "precisely!" with his head and eyebrows. but that was the point that hadn't been clear to him so far, and it took his breath away. positively--a tail! all sorts of incorrect theories went by the board. somehow he felt this was a topic not to be too urgently pursued. but he and mrs. bunting were old friends. "and she really has ... a tail?" he asked. "like the tail of a big mackerel," said mrs. bunting, and he asked no more. "it's a most extraordinary situation," he said. "but what else _could_ i do?" asked mrs. bunting. "of course the thing's a tremendous experiment," said my cousin melville, and repeated quite inadvertently, "_a tail!_" clear and vivid before his eyes, obstructing absolutely the advance of his thoughts, were the shiny clear lines, the oily black, the green and purple and silver, and the easy expansiveness of a mackerel's termination. "but really, you know," said my cousin melville, protesting in the name of reason and the nineteenth century--"a tail!" "i patted it," said mrs. bunting. iv certain supplementary aspects of the sea lady's first conversation with mrs. bunting i got from that lady herself afterwards. the sea lady had made one queer mistake. "your four charming daughters," she said, "and your two sons." "my dear!" cried mrs. bunting--they had got through their preliminaries by then--"i've only two daughters and one son!" "the young man who carried--who rescued me?" "yes. and the other two girls are friends, you know, visitors who are staying with me. on land one has visitors----" "i know. so i made a mistake?" "oh yes." "and the other young man?" "you don't mean mr. bunting." "who is mr. bunting?" "the other gentleman who----" "_no!_" "there was no one----" "but several mornings ago?" "could it have been mr. melville?... _i_ know! you mean mr. chatteris! i remember, he came down with us one morning. a tall young man with fair--rather curlyish you might say--hair, wasn't it? and a rather thoughtful face. he was dressed all in white linen and he sat on the beach." "i fancy he did," said the sea lady. "he's not my son. he's--he's a friend. he's engaged to adeline, to the elder miss glendower. he was stopping here for a night or so. i daresay he'll come again on his way back from paris. dear me! fancy _my_ having a son like that!" the sea lady was not quite prompt in replying. "what a stupid mistake for me to make!" she said slowly; and then with more animation, "of course, now i think, he's much too old to be your son!" "well, he's thirty-two!" said mrs. bunting with a smile. "it's preposterous." "i won't say _that_." "but i saw him only at a distance, you know," said the sea lady; and then, "and so he is engaged to miss glendower? and miss glendower----?" "is the young lady in the purple robe who----" "who carried a book?" "yes," said mrs. bunting, "that's the one. they've been engaged three months." "dear me!" said the sea lady. "she seemed-- and is he very much in love with her?" "of course," said mrs. bunting. "_very_ much?" "oh--of _course_. if he wasn't, he wouldn't----" "of course," said the sea lady thoughtfully. "and it's such an excellent match in every way. adeline's just in the very position to help him----" and mrs. bunting it would seem briefly but clearly supplied an indication of the precise position of mr. chatteris, not omitting even that he was the nephew of an earl, as indeed why should she omit it?--and the splendid prospects of his alliance with miss glendower's plebeian but extensive wealth. the sea lady listened gravely. "he is young, he is able, he may still be anything--anything. and she is so earnest, so clever herself--always reading. she even reads blue books--government blue books i mean--dreadful statistical schedulely things. and the condition of the poor and all those things. she knows more about the condition of the poor than any one i've ever met; what they earn and what they eat, and how many of them live in a room. so dreadfully crowded, you know--perfectly shocking.... she is just the helper he needs. so dignified--so capable of giving political parties and influencing people, so earnest! and you know she can talk to workmen and take an interest in trades unions, and in quite astonishing things. _i_ always think she's just _marcella_ come to life." and from that the good lady embarked upon an illustrative but involved anecdote of miss glendower's marvellous blue-bookishness.... "he'll come here again soon?" the sea lady asked quite carelessly in the midst of it. the query was carried away and lost in the anecdote, so that later the sea lady repeated her question even more carelessly. but mrs. bunting did not know whether the sea lady sighed at all or not. she thinks not. she was so busy telling her all about everything that i don't think she troubled very much to see how her information was received. what mind she had left over from her own discourse was probably centred on the tail. v even to mrs. bunting's senses--she is one of those persons who take everything (except of course impertinence or impropriety) quite calmly--it must, i think, have been a little astonishing to find herself sitting in her boudoir, politely taking tea with a real live legendary creature. they were having tea in the boudoir, because of callers, and quite quietly because, in spite of the sea lady's smiling assurances, mrs. bunting would have it she _must_ be tired and unequal to the exertions of social intercourse. "after _such_ a journey," said mrs. bunting. there were just the three, adeline glendower being the third; and fred and the three other girls, i understand, hung about in a general sort of way up and down the staircase (to the great annoyance of the servants who were thus kept out of it altogether) confirming one another's views of the tail, arguing on the theory of mermaids, revisiting the garden and beach and trying to invent an excuse for seeing the invalid again. they were forbidden to intrude and pledged to secrecy by mrs. bunting, and they must have been as altogether unsettled and miserable as young people can be. for a time they played croquet in a half-hearted way, each no doubt with an eye on the boudoir window. (and as for mr. bunting, he was in bed.) i gather that the three ladies sat and talked as any three ladies all quite resolved to be pleasant to one another would talk. mrs. bunting and miss glendower were far too well trained in the observances of good society (which is as every one knows, even the best of it now, extremely mixed) to make too searching enquiries into the sea lady's status and way of life or precisely where she lived when she was at home, or whom she knew or didn't know. though in their several ways they wanted to know badly enough. the sea lady volunteered no information, contenting herself with an entertaining superficiality of touch and go, in the most ladylike way. she professed herself greatly delighted with the sensation of being in air and superficially quite dry, and was particularly charmed with tea. "and don't you have _tea_?" cried miss glendower, startled. "how can we?" "but do you really mean----?" "i've never tasted tea before. how do you think we can boil a kettle?" "what a strange--what a wonderful world it must be!" cried adeline. and mrs. bunting said: "i can hardly _imagine_ it without tea. it's worse than-- i mean it reminds me--of abroad." mrs. bunting was in the act of refilling the sea lady's cup. "i suppose," she said suddenly, "as you're not used to it-- it won't affect your diges--" she glanced at adeline and hesitated. "but it's china tea." and she filled the cup. "it's an inconceivable world to me," said adeline. "quite." her dark eyes rested thoughtfully on the sea lady for a space. "inconceivable," she repeated, for, in that unaccountable way in which a whisper will attract attention that a turmoil fails to arouse, the tea had opened her eyes far more than the tail. the sea lady looked at her with sudden frankness. "and think how wonderful all this must seem to _me_!" she remarked. but adeline's imagination was aroused for the moment and she was not to be put aside by the sea lady's terrestrial impressions. she pierced--for a moment or so--the ladylike serenity, the assumption of a terrestrial fashion of mind that was imposing so successfully upon mrs. bunting. "it must be," she said, "the strangest world." and she stopped invitingly.... she could not go beyond that and the sea lady would not help her. there was a pause, a silent eager search for topics. apropos of the niphetos roses on the table they talked of flowers and miss glendower ventured: "you have your anemones too! how beautiful they must be amidst the rocks!" and the sea lady said they were very pretty--especially the cultivated sorts.... "and the fishes," said mrs. bunting. "how wonderful it must be to see the fishes!" "some of them," volunteered the sea lady, "will come and feed out of one's hand." mrs. bunting made a little coo of approval. she was reminded of chrysanthemum shows and the outside of the royal academy exhibition and she was one of those people to whom only the familiar is really satisfying. she had a momentary vision of the abyss as a sort of diverticulum of piccadilly and the temple, a place unexpectedly rational and comfortable. there was a kink for a time about a little matter of illumination, but it recurred to mrs. bunting only long after. the sea lady had turned from miss glendower's interrogative gravity of expression to the sunlight. "the sunlight seems so golden here," said the sea lady. "is it always golden?" "you have that beautiful greenery-blue shimmer i suppose," said miss glendower, "that one catches sometimes ever so faintly in aquaria----" "one lives deeper than that," said the sea lady. "everything is phosphorescent, you know, a mile or so down, and it's like--i hardly know. as towns look at night--only brighter. like piers and things like that." "really!" said mrs. bunting, with the strand after the theatres in her head. "quite bright?" "oh, quite," said the sea lady. "but--" struggled adeline, "is it never put out?" "it's so different," said the sea lady. "that's why it is so interesting," said adeline. "there are no nights and days, you know. no time nor anything of that sort." "now that's very queer," said mrs. bunting with miss glendower's teacup in her hand--they were both drinking quite a lot of tea absent-mindedly, in their interest in the sea lady. "but how do you tell when it's sunday?" "we don't--" began the sea lady. "at least not exactly--" and then--"of course one hears the beautiful hymns that are sung on the passenger ships." "of course!" said mrs. bunting, having sung so in her youth and quite forgetting something elusive that she had previously seemed to catch. but afterwards there came a glimpse of some more serious divergence--a glimpse merely. miss glendower hazarded a supposition that the sea people also had their problems, and then it would seem the natural earnestness of her disposition overcame her proper attitude of ladylike superficiality and she began to ask questions. there can be no doubt that the sea lady was evasive, and miss glendower, perceiving that she had been a trifle urgent, tried to cover her error by expressing a general impression. "i can't see it," she said, with a gesture that asked for sympathy. "one wants to see it, one wants to _be_ it. one needs to be born a mer-child." "a mer-child?" asked the sea lady. "yes-- don't you call your little ones----?" "_what_ little ones?" asked the sea lady. she regarded them for a moment with a frank wonder, the undying wonder of the immortals at that perpetual decay and death and replacement which is the gist of human life. then at the expression of their faces she seemed to recollect. "of course," she said, and then with a transition that made pursuit difficult, she agreed with adeline. "it _is_ different," she said. "it _is_ wonderful. one feels so alike, you know, and so different. that's just where it _is_ so wonderful. do i look--? and yet you know i have never had my hair up, nor worn a dressing gown before today." "what do you wear?" asked miss glendower. "very charming things, i suppose." "it's a different costume altogether," said the sea lady, brushing away a crumb. just for a moment mrs. bunting regarded her visitor fixedly. she had, i fancy, in that moment, an indistinct, imperfect glimpse of pagan possibilities. but there, you know, was the sea lady in her wrapper, so palpably a lady, with her pretty hair brought up to date and such a frank innocence in her eyes, that mrs. bunting's suspicions vanished as they came. (but i am not so sure of adeline.) chapter the third the episode of the various journalists i the remarkable thing is that the buntings really carried out the programme mrs. bunting laid down. for a time at least they positively succeeded in converting the sea lady into a credible human invalid, in spite of the galaxy of witnesses to the lady's landing and in spite of the severe internal dissensions that presently broke out. in spite, moreover, of the fact that one of the maids--they found out which only long after--told the whole story under vows to her very superior young man who told it next sunday to a rising journalist who was sitting about on the leas maturing a descriptive article. the rising journalist was incredulous. but he went about enquiring. in the end he thought it good enough to go upon. he found in several quarters a vague but sufficient rumour of a something; for the maid's young man was a conversationalist when he had anything to say. finally the rising journalist went and sounded the people on the two chief folkestone papers and found the thing had just got to them. they were inclined to pretend they hadn't heard of it, after the fashion of local papers when confronted by the abnormal, but the atmosphere of enterprise that surrounded the rising journalist woke them up. he perceived he had done so and that he had no time to lose. so while they engaged in inventing representatives to enquire, he went off and telephoned to the _daily gunfire_ and the _new paper_. when they answered he was positive and earnest. he staked his reputation--the reputation of a rising journalist! "i swear there's something up," he said. "get in first--that's all." he had some reputation, i say--and he had staked it. the _daily gunfire_ was sceptical but precise, and the _new paper_ sprang a headline "a mermaid at last!" you might well have thought the thing was out after that, but it wasn't. there are things one doesn't believe even if they are printed in a halfpenny paper. to find the reporters hammering at their doors, so to speak, and fended off only for a time by a proposal that they should call again; to see their incredible secret glaringly in print, did indeed for a moment seem a hopeless exposure to both the buntings and the sea lady. already they could see the story spreading, could imagine the imminent rush of intimate enquiries, the tripod strides of a multitude of cameras, the crowds watching the windows, the horrors of a great publicity. all the buntings and mabel were aghast, simply aghast. adeline was not so much aghast as excessively annoyed at this imminent and, so far as she was concerned, absolutely irrelevant publicity. "they will never dare--" she said, and "consider how it affects harry!" and at the earliest opportunity she retired to her own room. the others, with a certain disregard of her offence, sat around the sea lady's couch--she had scarcely touched her breakfast--and canvassed the coming terror. "they will put our photographs in the papers," said the elder miss bunting. "well, they won't put mine in," said her sister. "it's horrid. i shall go right off now and have it taken again." "they'll interview the ded!" "no, no," said mr. bunting terrified. "your mother----" "it's your place, my dear," said mrs. bunting. "but the ded--" said fred. "i couldn't," said mr. bunting. "well, some one'll have to tell 'em anyhow," said mrs. bunting. "you know, they will----" "but it isn't at all what i wanted," wailed the sea lady, with the _daily gunfire_ in her hand. "can't it be stopped?" "you don't know our journalists," said fred. the tact of my cousin melville saved the situation. he had dabbled in journalism and talked with literary fellows like myself. and literary fellows like myself are apt at times to be very free and outspoken about the press. he heard of the buntings' shrinking terror of publicity as soon as he arrived, a perfect clamour--an almost exultant clamour indeed, of shrinking terror, and he caught the sea lady's eye and took his line there and then. "it's not an occasion for sticking at trifles, mrs. bunting," he said. "but i think we can save the situation all the same. you're too hopeless. we must put our foot down at once; that's all. let _me_ see these reporter fellows and write to the london dailies. i think i can take a line that will settle them." "eh?" said fred. "i can take a line that will stop it, trust me." "what, altogether?" "altogether." "how?" said fred and mrs. bunting. "you're not going to bribe them!" "bribe!" said mr. bunting. "we're not in france. you can't bribe a british paper." (a sort of subdued cheer went around from the assembled buntings.) "you leave it to me," said melville, in his element. and with earnestly expressed but not very confident wishes for his success, they did. he managed the thing admirably. "what's this about a mermaid?" he demanded of the local journalists when they returned. they travelled together for company, being, so to speak, emergency journalists, compositors in their milder moments, and unaccustomed to these higher aspects of journalism. "what's this about a mermaid?" repeated my cousin, while they waived precedence dumbly one to another. "i believe some one's been letting you in," said my cousin melville. "just imagine!--a mermaid!" "that's what we thought," said the younger of the two emergency journalists. "we knew it was some sort of hoax, you know. only the _new paper_ giving it a headline----" "i'm amazed even banghurst--" said my cousin melville. "it's in the _daily gunfire_ as well," said the older of the two emergency journalists. "what's one more or less of these ha'penny fever rags?" cried my cousin with a ringing scorn. "surely you're not going to take your folkestone news from mere london papers." "but how did the story come about?" began the older emergency journalist. "that's not my affair." the younger emergency journalist had an inspiration. he produced a note book from his breast pocket. "perhaps, sir, you wouldn't mind suggesting to us something we might say----" my cousin melville complied. ii the rising young journalist who had first got wind of the business--who must not for a moment be confused with the two emergency journalists heretofore described--came to banghurst next night in a state of strange exultation. "i've been through with it and i've seen her," he panted. "i waited about outside and saw her taken into the carriage. i've talked to one of the maids--i got into the house under pretence of being a telephone man to see their telephone--i spotted the wire--and it's a fact. a positive fact--she's a mermaid with a tail--a proper mermaid's tail. i've got here----" he displayed sheets. "whaddyer talking about?" said banghurst from his littered desk, eyeing the sheets with apprehensive animosity. "the mermaid--there really _is_ a mermaid. at folkestone." banghurst turned away from him and pawed at his pen tray. "whad if there is!" he said after a pause. "but it's proved. that note you printed----" "that note i printed was a mistake if there's anything of that sort going, young man." banghurst remained an obstinate expansion of back. "how?" "we don't deal in mermaids here." "but you're not going to let it drop?" "i am." "but there she is!" [illustration: "stuff that the public won't believe aren't facts."] "let her be." he turned on the rising young journalist, and his massive face was unusually massive and his voice fine and full and fruity. "do you think we're going to make our public believe anything simply because it's true? they know perfectly well what they are going to believe and what they aren't going to believe, and they aren't going to believe anything about mermaids--you bet your hat. i don't care if the whole damned beach was littered with mermaids--not the whole damned beach! we've got our reputation to keep up. see?... look here!--you don't learn journalism as i hoped you'd do. it was you what brought in all that stuff about a discovery in chemistry----" "it's true." "ugh!" "i had it from a fellow of the royal society----" "i don't care if you had it from--anybody. stuff that the public won't believe aren't facts. being true only makes 'em worse. they buy our paper to swallow it and it's got to go down easy. when i printed you that note and headline i thought you was up to a lark. i thought you was on to a mixed bathing scandal or something of that sort--with juice in it. the sort of thing that _all_ understand. you know when you went down to folkestone you were going to describe what salisbury and all the rest of them wear upon the leas. and start a discussion on the acclimatisation of the café. and all that. and then you get on to this (unprintable epithet) nonsense!" "but lord salisbury--he doesn't go to folkestone." banghurst shrugged his shoulders over a hopeless case. "what the deuce," he said, addressing his inkpot in plaintive tones, "does _that_ matter?" the young man reflected. he addressed banghurst's back after a pause. his voice had flattened a little. "i might go over this and do it up as a lark perhaps. make it a comic dialogue sketch with a man who really believed in it--or something like that. it's a beastly lot of copy to get slumped, you know." "nohow," said banghurst. "not in any shape. no! why! they'd think it clever. they'd think you was making game of them. they hate things they think are clever!" the young man made as if to reply, but banghurst's back expressed quite clearly that the interview was at an end. "nohow," repeated banghurst just when it seemed he had finished altogether. "i may take it to the _gunfire_ then?" banghurst suggested an alternative. "very well," said the young man, heated, "the _gunfire_ it is." but in that he was reckoning without the editor of the _gunfire_. iii it must have been quite soon after that, that i myself heard the first mention of the mermaid, little recking that at last it would fall to me to write her history. i was on one of my rare visits to london, and micklethwaite was giving me lunch at the penwiper club, certainly one of the best dozen literary clubs in london. i noted the rising young journalist at a table near the door, lunching alone. all about him tables were vacant, though the other parts of the room were crowded. he sat with his face towards the door, and he kept looking up whenever any one came in, as if he expected some one who never came. once distinctly i saw him beckon to a man, but the man did not respond. "look here, micklethwaite," i said, "why is everybody avoiding that man over there? i noticed just now in the smoking-room that he seemed to be trying to get into conversation with some one and that a kind of taboo----" micklethwaite stared over his fork. "ra-ther," he said. "but what's he done?" "he's a fool," said micklethwaite with his mouth full, evidently annoyed. "ugh," he said as soon as he was free to do so. i waited a little while. "what's he done?" i ventured. micklethwaite did not answer for a moment and crammed things into his mouth vindictively, bread and all sorts of things. then leaning towards me in a confidential manner he made indignant noises which i could not clearly distinguish as words. "oh!" i said, when he had done. "yes," said micklethwaite. he swallowed and then poured himself wine--splashing the tablecloth. "he had _me_ for an hour very nearly the other day." "yes?" i said. "silly fool," said micklethwaite. i was afraid it was all over, but luckily he gave me an opening again after gulping down his wine. "he leads you on to argue," he said. "that----?" "that he can't prove it." "yes?" "and then he shows you he can. just showing off how damned ingenious he is." i was a little confused. "prove what?" i asked. "haven't i been telling you?" said micklethwaite, growing very red. "about this confounded mermaid of his at folkestone." "he says there is one?" "yes, he does," said micklethwaite, going purple and staring at me very hard. he seemed to ask mutely whether i of all people proposed to turn on him and back up this infamous scoundrel. i thought for a moment he would have apoplexy, but happily he remembered his duty as my host. so he turned very suddenly on a meditative waiter for not removing our plates. "had any golf lately?" i said to micklethwaite, when the plates and the remains of the waiter had gone away. golf always does micklethwaite good except when he is actually playing. then, i am told-- if i were mrs. bunting i should break off and raise my eyebrows and both hands at this point, to indicate how golf acts on micklethwaite when he is playing. i turned my mind to feigning an interest in golf--a game that in truth i despise and hate as i despise and hate nothing else in this world. imagine a great fat creature like micklethwaite, a creature who ought to wear a turban and a long black robe to hide his grossness, whacking a little white ball for miles and miles with a perfect surgery of instruments, whacking it either with a babyish solemnity or a childish rage as luck may have decided, whacking away while his country goes to the devil, and incidentally training an innocent-eyed little boy to swear and be a tip-hunting loafer. that's golf! however, i controlled my all too facile sneer and talked of golf and the relative merits of golf links as i might talk to a child about buns or distract a puppy with the whisper of "rats," and when at last i could look at the rising young journalist again our lunch had come to an end. i saw that he was talking with a greater air of freedom than it is usual to display to club waiters, to the man who held his coat. the man looked incredulous but respectful, and was answering shortly but politely. when we went out this little conversation was still going on. the waiter was holding the rising young journalist's soft felt hat and the rising young journalist was fumbling in his coat pocket with a thick mass of papers. "it's tremendous. i've got most of it here," he was saying as we went by. "i don't know if you'd care----" "i get very little time for reading, sir," the waiter was replying. chapter the fourth the quality of parker i so far i have been very full, i know, and verisimilitude has been my watchword rather than the true affidavit style. but if i have made it clear to the reader just how the sea lady landed and just how it was possible for her to land and become a member of human society without any considerable excitement on the part of that society, such poor pains as i have taken to tint and shadow and embellish the facts at my disposal will not have been taken in vain. she positively and quietly settled down with the buntings. within a fortnight she had really settled down so thoroughly that, save for her exceptional beauty and charm and the occasional faint touches of something a little indefinable in her smile, she had become a quite passable and credible human being. she was a cripple, indeed, and her lower limb was most pathetically swathed and put in a sort of case, but it was quite generally understood--i am afraid at mrs. bunting's initiative--that presently _they_--mrs. bunting said "they," which was certainly almost as far or even a little farther than legitimate prevarication may go--would be as well as ever. [illustration: she positively and quietly settled down with the buntings.] "of course," said mrs. bunting, "she will never be able to _bicycle_ again----" that was the sort of glamour she threw about it. ii in parker it is indisputable that the sea lady found--or at least had found for her by mrs. bunting--a treasure of the richest sort. parker was still fallaciously young, but she had been maid to a lady from india who had been in a "case" and had experienced and overcome cross-examination. she had also been deceived by a young man, whom she had fancied greatly, only to find him walking out with another--contrary to her inflexible sense of correctness--in the presence of which all other things are altogether vain. life she had resolved should have no further surprises for her. she looked out on its (largely improper) pageant with an expression of alert impartiality in her hazel eyes, calm, doing her specific duty, and entirely declining to participate further. she always kept her elbows down by her side and her hands always just in contact, and it was impossible for the most powerful imagination to conceive her under any circumstances as being anything but absolutely straight and clean and neat. and her voice was always under all circumstances low and wonderfully distinct--just to an infinitesimal degree indeed "mincing." mrs. bunting had been a little nervous when it came to the point. it was mrs. bunting of course who engaged her, because the sea lady was so entirely without experience. but certainly mrs. bunting's nervousness was thrown away. "you understand," said mrs. bunting, taking a plunge at it, "that--that she is an invalid." "i _didn't_, mem," replied parker respectfully, and evidently quite willing to understand anything as part of her duty in this world. "in fact," said mrs. bunting, rubbing the edge of the tablecloth daintily with her gloved finger and watching the operation with interest, "as a matter of fact, she has a mermaid's tail." "mermaid's tail! indeed, mem! and is it painful at all?" "oh, dear, no, it involves no inconvenience--nothing. except--you understand, there is a need of--discretion." "of course, mem," said parker, as who should say, "there always is." "we particularly don't want the servants----" "the lower servants-- no, mem." "you understand?" and mrs. bunting looked up again and regarded parker calmly. "precisely, mem!" said parker, with a face unmoved, and so they came to the question of terms. "it all passed off _most_ satisfactorily," said mrs. bunting, taking a deep breath at the mere memory of that moment. and it is clear that parker was quite of her opinion. she was not only discreet but really clever and handy. from the very outset she grasped the situation, unostentatiously but very firmly. it was parker who contrived the sort of violin case for it, and who made the tea gown extension that covered the case's arid contours. it was parker who suggested an invalid's chair for use indoors and in the garden, and a carrying chair for the staircase. hitherto fred bunting had been on hand, at last even in excessive abundance, whenever the sea lady lay in need of masculine arms. but parker made it clear at once that that was not at all in accordance with her ideas, and so earned the lifelong gratitude of mabel glendower. and parker too spoke out for drives, and suggested with an air of rightness that left nothing else to be done, the hire of a carriage and pair for the season--to the equal delight of the buntings and the sea lady. it was parker who dictated the daily drive up to the eastern end of the leas and the sea lady's transfer, and the manner of the sea lady's transfer, to the bath chair in which she promenaded the leas. there seemed to be nowhere that it was pleasant and proper for the sea lady to go that parker did not swiftly and correctly indicate it and the way to get to it, and there seems to have been nothing that it was really undesirable the sea lady should do and anywhere that it was really undesirable that she should go, that parker did not at once invisibly but effectively interpose a bar. it was parker who released the sea lady from being a sort of private and peculiar property in the bunting household and carried her off to a becoming position in the world, when the crisis came. in little things as in great she failed not. it was she who made it luminous that the sea lady's card plate was not yet engraved and printed ("miss doris thalassia waters" was the pleasant and appropriate name with which the sea lady came primed), and who replaced the box of the presumably dank and drowned and dripping "tom" by a jewel case, a dressing bag and the first of the sea lady's trunks. on a thousand little occasions this parker showed a sense of propriety that was penetratingly fine. for example, in the shop one day when "things" of an intimate sort were being purchased, she suddenly intervened. "there are stockings, mem," she said in a discreet undertone, behind, but not too vulgarly behind, a fluttering straight hand. "_stockings!_" cried mrs. bunting. "but----!" "i think, mem, she should have stockings," said parker, quietly but very firmly. and come to think of it, why _should_ an unavoidable deficiency in a lady excuse one that can be avoided? it's there we touch the very quintessence and central principle of the proper life. but mrs. bunting, you know, would never have seen it like that. iii let me add here, regretfully but with infinite respect, one other thing about parker, and then she shall drop into her proper place. i must confess, with a slight tinge of humiliation, that i pursued this young woman to her present situation at highton towers--maid she is to that eminent religious and social propagandist, the lady jane glanville. there were certain details of which i stood in need, certain scenes and conversations of which my passion for verisimilitude had scarcely a crumb to go upon. and from first to last, what she must have seen and learnt and inferred would amount practically to everything. i put this to her frankly. she made no pretence of not understanding me nor of ignorance of certain hidden things. when i had finished she regarded me with a level regard. "i couldn't think of it, sir," she said. "it wouldn't be at all according to my ideas." "but!--it surely couldn't possibly hurt you now to tell me." "i'm afraid i couldn't, sir." "it couldn't hurt anyone." "it isn't that, sir." "i should see you didn't lose by it, you know." she looked at me politely, having said what she intended to say. and, in spite of what became at last very fine and handsome inducements, that remained the inflexible parker's reply. even after i had come to an end with my finesse and attempted to bribe her in the grossest manner, she displayed nothing but a becoming respect for my impregnable social superiority. "i couldn't think of it, sir," she repeated. "it wouldn't be at all according to my ideas." and if in the end you should find this story to any extent vague or incomplete, i trust you will remember how the inflexible severity of parker's ideas stood in my way. chapter the fifth the absence and return of mr. harry chatteris i these digressions about parker and the journalists have certainly led me astray from the story a little. you will, however, understand that while the rising young journalist was still in pursuit of information, hope and banghurst, and parker merely a budding perfection, the carriage not even thought of, things were already developing in that bright little establishment beneath the evergreen oaks on the folkestone riviera. so soon as the minds of the buntings ceased to be altogether focused upon this new and amazing social addition, they--of all people--had most indisputably discovered, it became at first faintly and then very clearly evident that their own simple pleasure in the possession of a guest so beautiful as miss waters, so solidly wealthy and--in a manner--so distinguished, was not entirely shared by the two young ladies who were to have been their principal guests for the season. this little rift was perceptible the very first time mrs. bunting had an opportunity of talking over her new arrangements with miss glendower. "and is she really going to stay with you all the summer?" said adeline. "surely, dear, you don't mind?" "it takes me a little by surprise." "she's asked me, my dear----" "i'm thinking of harry. if the general election comes on in september--and every one seems to think it will-- you promised you would let us inundate you with electioneering." "but do you think she----" "she will be dreadfully in the way." she added after an interval, "she stops my working." "but, my dear!" "she's out of harmony," said adeline. mrs. bunting looked out of her window at the tamarisk and the sea. "i'm sure i wouldn't do anything to hurt harry's prospects. you know how enthusiastic we all are. randolph would do anything. but are you sure she will be in the way?" "what else can she be?" "she might help even." "oh, help!" "she might canvass. she's very attractive, you know, dear." "not to me," said miss glendower. "i don't trust her." "but to some people. and as harry says, at election times every one who can do anything must be let do it. cut them--do anything afterwards, but at the time--you know he talked of it when mr. fison and he were here. if you left electioneering only to the really nice people----" "it was mr. fison said that, not harry. and besides, she wouldn't help." "i think you misjudge her there, dear. she has been asking----" "to help?" "yes, and all about it," said mrs. bunting, with a transient pink. "she keeps asking questions about why we are having the election and what it is all about, and why harry is a candidate and all that. she wants to go into it quite deeply. _i_ can't answer half the things she asks." "and that's why she keeps up those long conversations with mr. melville, i suppose, and why fred goes about neglecting mabel----" "my dear!" said mrs. bunting. "i wouldn't have her canvassing with us for anything," said miss glendower. "she'd spoil everything. she is frivolous and satirical. she looks at you with incredulous eyes, she seems to blight all one's earnestness.... i don't think you quite understand, dear mrs. bunting, what this election and my studies mean to me--and harry. she comes across all that--like a contradiction." "surely, my dear! i've never heard her contradict." "oh, she doesn't contradict. but she-- there is something about her-- one feels that things that are most important and vital are nothing to her. don't you feel it? she comes from another world to us." mrs. bunting remained judicial. adeline dropped to a lower key again. "i think," she said, "anyhow, that we're taking her very easily. how do we know what she is? down there, out there, she may be anything. she may have had excellent reasons for coming to land----" "my dear!" cried mrs. bunting. "is that charity?" "how do they live?" "if she hadn't lived nicely i'm sure she couldn't behave so nicely." "besides--coming here! she had no invitation----" "i've invited her now," said mrs. bunting gently. "you could hardly help yourself. i only hope your kindness----" "it's not a kindness," said mrs. bunting, "it's a duty. if she were only half as charming as she is. you seem to forget"--her voice dropped--"what it is she comes for." "that's what i want to know." "i'm sure in these days, with so much materialism about and such wickedness everywhere, when everybody who has a soul seems trying to lose it, to find any one who hadn't a soul and who is trying to find one----" "but _is_ she trying to get one?" "mr. flange comes twice every week. he would come oftener, as you know, if there wasn't so much confirmation about." "and when he comes he sits and touches her hand if he can, and he talks in his lowest voice, and she sits and smiles--she almost laughs outright at the things he says." "because he has to win his way with her. surely mr. flange may do what he can to make religion attractive?" "i don't believe she believes she will get a soul. i don't believe she wants one a bit." she turned towards the door as if she had done. mrs. bunting's pink was now permanent. she had brought up a son and two daughters, and besides she had brought down a husband to "my dear, how was _i_ to know?" and when it was necessary to be firm--even with adeline glendower--she knew how to be firm just as well as anybody. "my dear," she began in her very firmest quiet manner, "i am positive you misjudge miss waters. trivial she may be--on the surface at any rate. perhaps she laughs and makes fun a little. there are different ways of looking at things. but i am sure that at bottom she is just as serious, just as grave, as--any one. you judge her hastily. i am sure if you knew her better--as i do----" mrs. bunting left an eloquent pause. miss glendower had two little pink flushes in her cheeks. she turned with her hand on the door. "at any rate," she said, "i am sure that harry will agree with me that she can be no help to our cause. we have our work to do and it is something more than just vulgar electioneering. we have to develop and establish ideas. harry has views that are new and wide-reaching. we want to put our whole strength into this work. now especially. and her presence----" she paused for a moment. "it is a digression. she divides things. she puts it all wrong. she has a way of concentrating attention about herself. she alters the values of things. she prevents my being single-minded, she will prevent harry being single-minded----" "i think, my dear, that you might trust my judgment a little," said mrs. bunting and paused. miss glendower opened her mouth and shut it again, without speaking. it became evident finality was attained. nothing remained to be said but the regrettable. the door opened and closed smartly and mrs. bunting was alone. within an hour they all met at the luncheon table and adeline's behaviour to the sea lady and to mrs. bunting was as pleasant and alert as any highly earnest and intellectual young lady's could be. and all that mrs. bunting said and did tended with what people call infinite tact--which really, you know, means a great deal more tact than is comfortable--to develop and expose the more serious aspect of the sea lady's mind. mr. bunting was unusually talkative and told them all about a glorious project he had just heard of, to cut out the rather shrubby and weedy front of the leas and stick in something between a wine vault and the crystal palace as a winter garden--which seemed to him a very excellent idea indeed. ii it is time now to give some impression of the imminent chatteris, who for all his late appearance is really the chief human being in my cousin melville's story. it happens that i met him with some frequency in my university days and afterwards ever and again i came upon him. he was rather a brilliant man at the university, smart without being vulgar and clever for all that. he was remarkably good-looking from the very onset of his manhood and without being in any way a showy spendthrift, was quite magnificently extravagant. there was trouble in his last year, something hushed up about a girl or woman in london, but his family had it all over with him, and his uncle, the earl of beechcroft, settled some of his bills. not all--for the family is commendably free from sentimental excesses--but enough to make him comfortable again. the family is not a rich one and it further abounds in an extraordinary quantity of rather frowsy, loose-tongued aunts--i never knew a family quite so rich in old aunts. but chatteris was so good-looking, easy-mannered, and clever, that they seemed to agree almost without discussion to pull him through. they hunted about for something that would be really remunerative without being laborious or too commercial; and meanwhile--after the extraordinary craving of his aunt, lady poynting mallow, to see him acting had been overcome by the united efforts of the more religious section of his aunts--chatteris set himself seriously to the higher journalism--that is to say, the journalism that dines anywhere, gets political tips after dinner, and is always acceptable--if only to avoid thirteen articles--in a half-crown review. in addition, he wrote some very passable verse and edited jane austen for the only publisher who had not already reprinted the works of that classic lady. his verse, like himself, was shapely and handsome, and, like his face, it suggested to the penetrating eye certain reservations and indecisions. there was just that touch of refinement that is weakness in the public man. but as yet he was not a public man; he was known to be energetic and his work was gathering attention as always capable and occasionally brilliant. his aunts declared he was ripening, that any defect in vigour he displayed was the incompleteness of the process, and decided he should go to america, where vigour and vigorous opportunities abound, and there, i gather, he came upon something like a failure. something happened, indeed, quite a lot happened. he came back unmarried--and _viâ_ the south seas, australasia and india. and lady poynting mallow publicly told him he was a fool, when he got back. what happened in america, even if one does not consult contemporary american papers, is still very difficult to determine. there appear to have been the daughter of a millionaire and something like an engagement in the story. according to the _new york yell_, one of the smartest, crispest, and altogether most representative papers in america, there was also the daughter of some one else, whom the _yell_ interviewed, or professed to interview, under the heading: an aristocratic britisher trifles with a pure american girl interview with the victim of his heartless levity but this some one else was, i am inclined to think in spite of her excellently executed portrait, merely a brilliant stroke of modern journalism, the _yell_ having got wind of the sudden retreat of chatteris and inventing a reason in preference to discovering one. wensleydale tells me the true impetus to bolt was the merest trifle. the daughter of the millionaire, being a bright and spirited girl, had undergone interviewing on the subject of her approaching marriage, on marriage in general, on social questions of various sorts, and on the relations of the british and american peoples, and he seems to have found the thing in his morning paper. it took him suddenly and he lost his head. and once he started, he seems to have lacked the power of mind to turn about and come back. the affair was a mess, the family paid some more of his bills and shirked others, and chatteris turned up in london again after a time, with somewhat diminished glory and a series of letters on imperial affairs, each headed with the quotation: "what do they know of england who only england know?" of course people of england learnt nothing of the real circumstances of the case, but it was fairly obvious that he had gone to america and come back empty-handed. and that was how, in the course of some years, he came to adeline glendower, of whose special gifts as his helper and inspiration you have already heard from mrs. bunting. when he became engaged to her, the family, which had long craved to forgive him--lady poynting mallow as a matter of fact had done so--brightened wonderfully. and after considerable obscure activities he declared himself a philanthropic liberal with open spaces in his platform, and in a position, and ready as a beginning, to try the quality of the conservative south. he was away making certain decisive arrangements, in paris and elsewhere, at the time of the landing of the sea lady. before the matter was finally settled it was necessary that something should be said to a certain great public character, and then he was to return and tell adeline. and every one was expecting him daily, including, it is now indisputable, the sea lady. iii the meeting of miss glendower and her affianced lover on his return from paris was one of those scenes in this story for which i have scarcely an inkling of the true details. he came to folkestone and stopped at the métropole, the bunting house being full and the métropole being the nearest hotel to sandgate; and he walked down in the afternoon and asked for adeline, which was pretty rather than correct. i gather that they met in the drawing-room, and as chatteris closed the door behind him, i imagine there was something in the nature of a caress. i must confess i envy the freedom of the novelist who can take you behind such a locked door as this and give you all that such persons say and do. but with the strongest will in the world to blend the little scraps of fact i have into a continuous sequence of events, i falter at this occasion. after all, i never saw adeline at all until after all these things were over, and what is she now? a rather tall, a rather restless and active woman, very keen and obvious in public affairs--with something gone out of her. melville once saw a gleam of that, but for the most part melville never liked her; she had a wider grasp of things than he, and he was a little afraid of her; she was in some inexplicable way neither a pretty woman nor a "dear lady" nor a _grande dame_ nor totally insignificant, and a heretic therefore in melville's scheme of things. he gives me small material for that earlier adeline. "she posed," he says; she was "political," and she was always reading mrs. humphry ward. the last melville regarded as the most heinous offence. it is not the least of my cousin's weaknesses that he regards this great novelist as an extremely corrupting influence for intelligent girls. she makes them good and serious in the wrong way, he says. adeline, he asserts, was absolutely built on her. she was always attempting to be the incarnation of _marcella_. it was he who had perverted mrs. bunting's mind to adopt this fancy. but i don't believe for a moment in this idea of girls building themselves on heroines in fiction. these are matters of elective affinity, and unless some bullying critic or preacher sends us astray, we take each to our own novelist as the souls in the swedenborgian system take to their hells. adeline took to the imaginary _marcella_. there was, melville says, the strongest likeness in their mental atmosphere. they had the same defects, a bias for superiority--to use his expressive phrase--the same disposition towards arrogant benevolence, that same obtuseness to little shades of feeling that leads people to speak habitually of the "lower classes," and to think in the vein of that phrase. they certainly had the same virtues, a conscious and conscientious integrity, a hard nobility without one touch of magic, an industrious thoroughness. more than in anything else, adeline delighted in her novelist's thoroughness, her freedom from impressionism, the patient resolution with which she went into the corners and swept under the mat of every incident. and it would be easy to argue from that, that adeline behaved as mrs. ward's most characteristic heroine behaved, on an analogous occasion. _marcella_ we know--at least after her heart was changed--would have clung to him. there would have been a moment of high emotion in which thoughts--of the highest class--mingled with the natural ambition of two people in the prime of life and power. then she would have receded with a quick movement and listened with her beautiful hand pensive against her cheek, while chatteris began to sum up the forces against him--to speculate on the action of this group and that. something infinitely tender and maternal would have spoken in her, pledging her to the utmost help that love and a woman can give. she would have produced in chatteris that exquisite mingled impression of grace, passion, self-yielding, which in all its infinite variations and repetitions made up for him the constant poem of her beauty. but that is the dream and not the reality. so adeline might have dreamt of behaving, but--she was not _marcella_, and only wanting to be, and he was not only not maxwell but he had no intention of being maxwell anyhow. if he had had an opportunity of becoming maxwell he would probably have rejected it with extreme incivility. so they met like two unheroic human beings, with shy and clumsy movements and, i suppose, fairly honest eyes. something there was in the nature of a caress, i believe, and then i incline to fancy she said "well?" and i think he must have answered, "it's all right." after that, and rather allusively, with a backward jerk of the head at intervals as it were towards the great personage, chatteris must have told her particulars. he must have told her that he was going to contest hythe and that the little difficulty with the glasgow commission agent who wanted to run the radical ticket as a "man of kent" had been settled without injury to the party (such as it is). assuredly they talked politics, because soon after, when they came into the garden side by side to where mrs. bunting and the sea lady sat watching the girls play croquet, adeline was in full possession of all these facts. i fancy that for such a couple as they were, such intimation of success, such earnest topics, replaced, to a certain extent at any rate, the vain repetition of vulgar endearments. the sea lady appears to have been the first to see them. "here he is," she said abruptly. "whom?" said mrs. bunting, glancing up at eyes that were suddenly eager, and then following their glance towards chatteris. "your other son," said the sea lady, jesting unheeded. "it's harry and adeline!" cried mrs. bunting. "don't they make a handsome couple?" but the sea lady made no reply, and leaned back, scrutinising their advance. certainly they made a handsome pair. coming out of the veranda into the blaze of the sun and across the trim lawn towards the shadow of the ilex trees, they were lit, as it were, with a more glorious limelight, and displayed like actors on a stage more spacious than the stage of any theatre. the figure of chatteris must have come out tall and fair and broad, a little sunburnt, and i gather even then a little preoccupied, as indeed he always seemed to be in those latter days. and beside him adeline, glancing now up at him and now towards the audience under the trees, dark and a little flushed, rather tall--though not so tall as _marcella_ seems to have been--and, you know, without any instructions from any novel-writer in the world, glad. chatteris did not discover that there was any one but buntings under the tree until he was close at hand. then the abrupt discovery of this stranger seems to have checked whatever he was prepared to say for his _début_, and adeline took the centre of the stage. mrs. bunting was standing up, and all the croquet players--except mabel, who was winning--converged on chatteris with cries of welcome. mabel remained in the midst of what i understand is called a tea-party, loudly demanding that they should see her "play it out." no doubt if everything had gone well she would have given a most edifying exhibition of what croquet can sometimes be. adeline swam forward to mrs. bunting and cried with a note of triumph in her voice: "it is all settled. everything is settled. he has won them all and he is to contest hythe." quite involuntarily her eyes must have met the sea lady's. it is of course quite impossible to say what she found there--or indeed what there was to find there then. for a moment they faced riddles, and then the sea lady turned her eyes with a long deferred scrutiny to the man's face, which she probably saw now closely for the first time. one wonders whether it is just possible that there may have been something, if it were no more than a gleam of surprise and enquiry, in that meeting of their eyes. just for a moment she held his regard, and then it shifted enquiringly to mrs. bunting. that lady intervened effusively with an "oh! i forgot," and introduced them. i think they went through that without another meeting of the foils of their regard. "you back?" said fred to chatteris, touching his arm, and chatteris confirmed this happy guess. the bunting girls seemed to welcome adeline's enviable situation rather than chatteris as an individual. and mabel's voice could be heard approaching. "oughtn't they to see me play it out, mr. chatteris?" "hullo, harry, my boy!" cried mr. bunting, who was cultivating a bluff manner. "how's paris?" "how's the fishing?" said harry. and so they came into a vague circle about this lively person who had "won them all"--except parker, of course, who remained in her own proper place and was, i am certain, never to be won by anybody. there was a handing and shifting of garden chairs. no one seemed to take the slightest notice of adeline's dramatic announcement. the buntings were not good at thinking of things to say. she stood in the midst of the group like a leading lady when the other actors have forgotten their parts. then every one woke up to this, as it were, and they went off in a volley. "so it's really all settled," said mrs. bunting; and betty bunting said, "there _is_ to be an election then!" and nettie said, "what fun!" mr. bunting remarked with a knowing air, "so you saw him then?" and fred flung "hooray!" into the tangle of sounds. the sea lady of course said nothing. "we'll give 'em a jolly good fight for it, anyhow," said mr. bunting. "well, i hope we shall do that," said chatteris. "we shall do more than that," said adeline. "oh, yes!" said betty bunting, "we shall." "i knew they would let him," said adeline. "if they had any sense," said mr. bunting. then came a pause, and mr. bunting was emboldened to lift up his voice and utter politics. "they are getting sense," he said. "they are learning that a party must have men, men of birth and training. money and the mob--they've tried to keep things going by playing to fads and class jealousies. and the irish. and they've had their lesson. how? why,--we've stood aside. we've left 'em to faddists and fomenters--and the irish. and here they are! it's a revolution in the party. we've let it down. now we must pick it up again." he made a gesture with his fat little hand, one of those fat pink little hands that appear to have neither flesh nor bones inside them but only sawdust or horse-hair. mrs. bunting leaned back in her chair and smiled at him indulgently. "it is no common election," said mr. bunting. "it is a great issue." the sea lady had been regarding him thoughtfully. "what is a great issue?" she asked. "i don't quite understand." mr. bunting spread himself to explain to her. "this," he said to begin with. adeline listened with a mingling of interest and impatience, attempting ever and again to suppress him and to involve chatteris by a tactful interposition. but chatteris appeared disinclined to be involved. he seemed indeed quite interested in mr. bunting's view of the case. presently the croquet quartette went back--at mabel's suggestion--to their game, and the others continued their political talk. it became more personal at last, dealing soon quite specifically with all that chatteris was doing and more particularly all that chatteris was to do. mrs. bunting suddenly suppressed mr. bunting as he was offering advice, and adeline took the burden of the talk again. she indicated vast purposes. "this election is merely the opening of a door," she said. when chatteris made modest disavowals she smiled with a proud and happy consciousness of what she meant to make of him. and mrs. bunting supplied footnotes to make it all clear to the sea lady. "he's so modest," she said at one point, and chatteris pretended not to hear and went rather pink. ever and again he attempted to deflect the talk towards the sea lady and away from himself, but he was hampered by his ignorance of her position. and the sea lady said scarcely anything but watched chatteris and adeline, and more particularly chatteris in relation to adeline. chapter the sixth symptomatic i my cousin melville is never very clear about his dates. now this is greatly to be regretted, because it would be very illuminating indeed if one could tell just how many days elapsed before he came upon chatteris in intimate conversation with the sea lady. he was going along the front of the leas with some books from the public library that miss glendower had suddenly wished to consult, and which she, with that entire ignorance of his lack of admiration for her which was part of her want of charm for him, had bidden him bring her. it was in one of those sheltered paths just under the brow which give such a pleasant and characteristic charm to folkestone, that he came upon a little group about the sea lady's bath chair. chatteris was seated in one of the wooden seats that are embedded in the bank, and was leaning forward and looking into the sea lady's face; and she was speaking with a smile that struck melville even at the time as being a little special in its quality--and she seems to have been capable of many charming smiles. parker was a little distance away, where a sort of bastion projects and gives a wide view of the pier and harbour and the coast of france, regarding it all with a qualified disfavour, and the bath chairman was crumpled up against the bank lost in that wistful melancholy that the constant perambulation of broken humanity necessarily engenders. [illustration: a little group about the sea lady's bath chair.] my cousin slackened his pace a little and came up and joined them. the conversation hung at his approach. chatteris sat back a little, but there seemed no resentment and he sought a topic for the three to discuss in the books melville carried. "books?" he said. "for miss glendower," said melville. "oh!" said chatteris. "what are they about?" asked the sea lady. "land tenure," said melville. "that's hardly my subject," said the sea lady, and chatteris joined in her smile as if he saw a jest. there was a little pause. "you are contesting hythe?" said melville. "fate points that way," said chatteris. "they threaten a dissolution for september." "it will come in a month," said chatteris, with the inimitable tone of one who knows. "in that case we shall soon be busy." "and _i_ may canvass," said the sea lady. "i never have----" "miss waters," explained chatteris, "has been telling me she means to help us." he met melville's eye frankly. "it's rough work, miss waters," said melville. "i don't mind that. it's fun. and i want to help. i really do want to help--mr. chatteris." "you know, that's encouraging." "i could go around with you in my bath chair?" "it would be a picnic," said chatteris. "i mean to help anyhow," said the sea lady. "you know the case for the plaintiff?" asked melville. she looked at him. "you've got your arguments?" "i shall ask them to vote for mr. chatteris, and afterwards when i see them i shall remember them and smile and wave my hand. what else is there?" "nothing," said chatteris, and shut the lid on melville. "i wish i had an argument as good." "what sort of people are they here?" asked melville. "isn't there a smuggling interest to conciliate?" "i haven't asked that," said chatteris. "smuggling is over and past, you know. forty years ago. it always has been forty years ago. they trotted out the last of the smugglers,--interesting old man, full of reminiscences,--when there was a count of the saxon shore. he remembered smuggling--forty years ago. really, i doubt if there ever was any smuggling. the existing coast guard is a sacrifice to a vain superstition." "why!" cried the sea lady. "only about five weeks ago i saw quite near here----" she stopped abruptly and caught melville's eye. he grasped her difficulty. "in a paper?" he suggested. "yes, in a paper," she said, seizing the rope he threw her. "well?" asked chatteris. "there is smuggling still," said the sea lady, with an air of some one who decides not to tell an anecdote that is suddenly found to be half forgotten. "there's no doubt it happens," said chatteris, missing it all. "but it doesn't appear in the electioneering. i certainly sha'n't agitate for a faster revenue cutter. however things may be in that respect, i take the line that they are very well as they are. that's my line, of course." and he looked out to sea. the eyes of melville and the sea lady had an intimate moment. "there, you know, is just a specimen of the sort of thing we do," said chatteris. "are you prepared to be as intricate as that?" "quite," said the sea lady. my cousin was reminded of an anecdote. the talk degenerated into anecdotes of canvassing, and ran shallow. my cousin was just gathering that mrs. bunting and miss bunting had been with the sea lady and had gone into the town to a shop, when they returned. chatteris rose to greet them and explained--what had been by no means apparent before--that he was on his way to adeline, and after a few further trivialities he and melville went on together. a brief silence fell between them. "who is that miss waters?" asked chatteris. "friend of mrs. bunting," prevaricated melville. "so i gather.... she seems a very charming person." "she is." "she's interesting. her illness seems to throw her up. it makes a passive thing of her, like a picture or something that's--imaginary. imagined--anyhow. she sits there and smiles and responds. her eyes--have something intimate. and yet----" my cousin offered no assistance. "where did mrs. bunting find her." my cousin had to gather himself together for a second or so. "there's something," he said deliberately, "that mrs. bunting doesn't seem disposed----" "what can it be?" "it's bound to be all right," said melville rather weakly. "it's strange, too. mrs. bunting is usually so disposed----" melville left that to itself. "that's what one feels," said chatteris. "what?" "mystery." my cousin shares with me a profound detestation of that high mystic method of treating women. he likes women to be finite--and nice. in fact, he likes everything to be finite--and nice. so he merely grunted. but chatteris was not to be stopped by that. he passed to a critical note. "no doubt it's all illusion. all women are impressionists, a patch, a light. you get an effect. and that is all you are meant to get, i suppose. she gets an effect. but how--that's the mystery. it's not merely beauty. there's plenty of beauty in the world. but not of these effects. the eyes, i fancy." he dwelt on that for a moment. "there's really nothing in eyes, you know, chatteris," said my cousin melville, borrowing an alien argument and a tone of analytical cynicism from me. "have you ever looked at eyes through a hole in a sheet?" "oh, i don't know," said chatteris. "i don't mean the mere physical eye.... perhaps it's the look of health--and the bath chair. a bold discord. you don't know what's the matter, melville?" "how?" "i gather from bunting it's a disablement--not a deformity." "he ought to know." "i'm not so sure of that. you don't happen to know the nature of her disablement?" "i can't tell at all," said melville in a speculative tone. it struck him he was getting to prevaricate better. the subject seemed exhausted. they spoke of a common friend whom the sight of the métropole suggested. then they did not talk at all for a time, until the stir and interest of the band stand was passed. then chatteris threw out a thought. "complex business--feminine motives," he remarked. "how?" "this canvassing. _she_ can't be interested in philanthropic liberalism." "there's a difference in the type. and besides, it's a personal matter." "not necessarily, is it? surely there's not such an intellectual gap between the sexes! if _you_ can get interested----" "oh, i know." "besides, it's not a question of principles. it's the fun of electioneering." "fun!" "there's no knowing what won't interest the feminine mind," said melville, and added, "or what will." chatteris did not answer. "it's the district visiting instinct, i suppose," said melville. "they all have it. it's the canvassing. all women like to go into houses that don't belong to them." "very likely," said chatteris shortly, and failing a reply from melville, he gave way to secret meditations, it would seem still of a fairly agreeable sort. the twelve o'clock gun thudded from shornecliffe camp. "by jove!" said chatteris, and quickened his steps. * * * * * they found adeline busy amidst her papers. as they entered she pointed reproachfully, yet with the protrusion of a certain marcella-like undertone of sweetness, at the clock. the apologies of chatteris were effusive and winning, and involved no mention of the sea lady on the leas. melville delivered his books and left them already wading deeply into the details of the district organisation that the local liberal organiser had submitted. ii a little while after the return of chatteris, my cousin melville and the sea lady were under the ilex at the end of the sea garden and--disregarding parker (as every one was accustomed to do), who was in a garden chair doing some afternoon work at a proper distance--there was nobody with them at all. fred and the girls were out cycling--fred had gone with them at the sea lady's request--and miss glendower and mrs. bunting were at hythe calling diplomatically on some rather horrid local people who might be serviceable to harry in his electioneering. mr. bunting was out fishing. he was not fond of fishing, but he was in many respects an exceptionally resolute little man, and he had taken to fishing every day in the afternoon after luncheon in order to break himself of what mrs. bunting called his "ridiculous habit" of getting sea-sick whenever he went out in a boat. he said that if fishing from a boat with pieces of mussels for bait after luncheon would not break the habit nothing would, and certainly it seemed at times as if it were going to break everything that was in him. but the habit escaped. this, however, is a digression. these two, i say, were sitting in the ample shade under the evergreen oak, and melville, i imagine, was in those fine faintly patterned flannels that in the year combined correctness with ease. he was no doubt looking at the shaded face of the sea lady, framed in a frame of sunlit yellow-green lawn and black-green ilex leaves--at least so my impulse for verisimilitude conceives it--and she at first was pensive and downcast that afternoon and afterwards she was interested and looked into his eyes. either she must have suggested that he might smoke or else he asked. anyhow, his cigarettes were produced. she looked at them with an arrested gesture, and he hung for a moment, doubtful, on her gesture. "i suppose _you_--" he said. "i never learned." he glanced at parker and then met the sea lady's regard. "it's one of the things i came for," she said. he took the only course. she accepted a cigarette and examined it thoughtfully. "down there," she said, "it's just one of the things-- you will understand we get nothing but saturated tobacco. some of the mermen-- there's something they have picked up from the sailors. quids, i think they call it. but that's too horrid for words!" she dismissed the unpleasant topic by a movement, and lapsed into thought. my cousin clicked his match-box. she had a momentary doubt and glanced towards the house. "mrs. bunting?" she asked. several times, i understand, she asked the same thing. "she wouldn't mind--" said melville, and stopped. "she won't think it improper," he amplified, "if nobody else thinks it improper." "there's nobody else," said the sea lady, glancing at parker, and my cousin lit the match. my cousin has an indirect habit of mind. with all general and all personal things his desperation to get at them obliquely amounts almost to a passion; he could no more go straight to a crisis than a cat could to a stranger. he came off at a tangent now as he was sitting forward and scrutinising her first very creditable efforts to draw. "i just wonder," he said, "exactly what it was you _did_ come for." she smiled at him over a little jet of smoke. "why, this," she said. "and hairdressing?" "and dressing." she smiled again after a momentary hesitation. "and all this sort of thing," she said, as if she felt she had answered him perhaps a little below his deserts. her gesture indicated the house and the lawn and--my cousin melville wondered just exactly how much else. "am i doing it right?" asked the sea lady. "beautifully," said my cousin with a faint sigh in his voice. "what do you think of it?" "it was worth coming for," said the sea lady, smiling into his eyes. "but did you really just come----?" she filled in his gap. "to see what life was like on land here?... isn't that enough?" melville's cigarette had failed to light. he regarded its blighted career pensively. "life," he said, "isn't all--this sort of thing." "this sort of thing?" "sunlight. cigarette smoking. talk. looking nice." "but it's made up----" "not altogether." "for example?" "oh, _you_ know." "what?" "you know," said melville, and would not look at her. "i decline to know," she said after a little pause. "besides--" he said. "yes?" "you told mrs. bunting--" it occurred to him that he was telling tales, but that scruple came too late. "well?" "something about a soul." she made no immediate answer. he looked up and her eyes were smiling. "mr. melville," she said, innocently, "what _is_ a soul?" "well," said my cousin readily, and then paused for a space. "a soul," said he, and knocked an imaginary ash from his extinct cigarette. "a soul," he repeated, and glanced at parker. "a soul, you know," he said again, and looked at the sea lady with the air of a man who is handling a difficult matter with skilful care. "come to think of it," he said, "it's a rather complicated matter to explain----" "to a being without one?" "to any one," said my cousin melville, suddenly admitting his difficulty. he meditated upon her eyes for a moment. "besides," he said, "you know what a soul is perfectly well." "no," she answered, "i don't." "you know as well as i do." "ah! that may be different." "you came to get a soul." "perhaps i don't want one. why--if one hasn't one----?" "ah, _there_!" and my cousin shrugged his shoulders. "but really you know-- it's just the generality of it that makes it hard to define." "everybody has a soul?" "every one." "except me?" "i'm not certain of that." "mrs. bunting?" "certainly." "and mr. bunting?" "every one." "has miss glendower?" "lots." the sea lady mused. she went off at a tangent abruptly. "mr. melville," she said, "what is a union of souls?" melville flicked his extinct cigarette suddenly into an elbow shape and then threw it away. the phrase may have awakened some reminiscence. "it's an extra," he said. "it's a sort of flourish.... and sometimes it's like leaving cards by footmen--a substitute for the real presence." there came a gap. he remained downcast, trying to find a way towards whatever it was that was in his mind to say. conceivably, he did not clearly know what that might be until he came to it. the sea lady abandoned an attempt to understand him in favour of a more urgent topic. "do you think miss glendower and mr. chatteris----?" melville looked up at her. he noticed she had hung on the latter name. "decidedly," he said. "it's just what they _would_ do." then he spoke again. "chatteris?" he said. "yes," said she. "i thought so," said melville. the sea lady regarded him gravely. they scrutinised each other with an unprecedented intimacy. melville was suddenly direct. it was a discovery that it seemed he ought to have made all along. he felt quite unaccountably bitter; he spoke with a twitch of the mouth and his voice had a note of accusation. "you want to talk about him." she nodded--still grave. "well, _i_ don't." he changed his note. "but i will if you wish it." "i thought you would." "oh, _you_ know," said melville, discovering his extinct cigarette was within reach of a vindictive heel. she said nothing. "well?" said melville. "i saw him first," she apologised, "some years ago." "where?" "in the south seas--near tonga." "and that is really what you came for?" this time her manner was convincing. she admitted, "yes." melville was carefully impartial. "he's sightly," he admitted, "and well-built and a decent chap--a decent chap. but i don't see why you----" he went off at a tangent. "he didn't see you----?" "oh, no." melville's pose and tone suggested a mind of extreme liberality. "i don't see why you came," he said. "nor what you mean to do. you see"--with an air of noting a trifling but valid obstacle--"there's miss glendower." "is there?" she said. "well, isn't there?" "that's just it," she said. "and besides after all, you know, why should you----?" "i admit it's unreasonable," she said. "but why reason about it? it's a matter of the imagination----" "for him?" "how should i know how it takes him? that is what i _want_ to know." melville looked her in the eyes again. "you know, you're not playing fair," he said. "to her?" "to any one." "why?" "because you are immortal--and unincumbered. because you can do everything you want to do--and we cannot. i don't know why we cannot, but we cannot. here we are, with our short lives and our little souls to save, or lose, fussing for our little concerns. and you, out of the elements, come and beckon----" "the elements have their rights," she said. and then: "the elements are the elements, you know. that is what you forget." "imagination?" "certainly. that's _the_ element. those elements of your chemists----" "yes?" "are all imagination. there isn't any other." she went on: "and all the elements of your life, the life you imagine you are living, the little things you must do, the little cares, the extraordinary little duties, the day by day, the hypnotic limitations--all these things are a fancy that has taken hold of you too strongly for you to shake off. you daren't, you mustn't, you can't. to us who watch you----" "you watch us?" "oh, yes. we watch you, and sometimes we envy you. not only for the dry air and the sunlight, and the shadows of trees, and the feeling of morning, and the pleasantness of many such things, but because your lives begin and end--because you look towards an end." she reverted to her former topic. "but you are so limited, so tied! the little time you have, you use so poorly. you begin and you end, and all the time between it is as if you were enchanted; you are afraid to do this that would be delightful to do, you must do that, though you know all the time it is stupid and disagreeable. just think of the things--even the little things--you mustn't do. up there on the leas in this hot weather all the people are sitting in stuffy ugly clothes--ever so much too much clothes, hot tight boots, you know, when they have the most lovely pink feet, some of them--we _see_,--and they are all with little to talk about and nothing to look at, and bound not to do all sorts of natural things and bound to do all sorts of preposterous things. why are they bound? why are they letting life slip by them? just as if they wouldn't all of them presently be dead! suppose you were to go up there in a bathing dress and a white cotton hat----" "it wouldn't be proper!" cried melville. "why not?" "it would be outrageous!" "but any one may see you like that on the beach!" "that's different." "it isn't different. you dream it's different. and in just the same way you dream all the other things are proper or improper or good or bad to do. because you are in a dream, a fantastic, unwholesome little dream. so small, so infinitely small! i saw you the other day dreadfully worried by a spot of ink on your sleeve--almost the whole afternoon." [illustration: "why not?"] my cousin looked distressed. she abandoned the ink-spot. "your life, i tell you, is a dream--a dream, and you can't wake out of it----" "and if so, why do you tell me?" she made no answer for a space. "why do you tell me?" he insisted. he heard the rustle of her movement as she bent towards him. she came warmly close to him. she spoke in gently confidential undertone, as one who imparts a secret that is not to be too lightly given. "because," she said, "there are better dreams." iii for a moment it seemed to melville that he had been addressed by something quite other than the pleasant lady in the bath chair before him. "but how--?" he began and stopped. he remained silent with a perplexed face. she leaned back and glanced away from him, and when at last she turned and spoke again, specific realities closed in on him once more. "why shouldn't i," she asked, "if i want to?" "shouldn't what?" "if i fancy chatteris." "one might think of obstacles," he reflected. "he's not hers," she said. "in a way, he's trying to be," said melville. "trying to be! he has to be what he is. nothing can make him hers. if you weren't dreaming you would see that." my cousin was silent. "she's not _real_," she went on. "she's a mass of fancies and vanities. she gets everything out of books. she gets herself out of a book. you can see her doing it here.... what is she seeking? what is she trying to do? all this work, all this political stuff of hers? she talks of the condition of the poor! what is the condition of the poor? a dreary tossing on the bed of existence, a perpetual fear of consequences that perpetually distresses them. lives of anxiety they lead, because they do not know what a dream the whole thing is. suppose they were not anxious and afraid.... and what does she care for the condition of the poor, after all? it is only a point of departure in her dream. in her heart she does not want their dreams to be happier, in her heart she has no passion for them, only her dream is that she should be prominently doing good, asserting herself, controlling their affairs amidst thanks and praise and blessings. _her_ dream! of serious things!--a rout of phantoms pursuing a phantom ignis fatuus--the afterglow of a mirage. vanity of vanities----" "it's real enough to her." "as real as she can make it, you know. but she isn't real herself. she begins badly." "and he, you know----" "he doesn't believe in it." "i'm not so sure." "i am--now." "he's a complicated being." "he will ravel out," said the sea lady. "i think you misjudge him about that work of his, anyhow," said melville. "he's a man rather divided against himself." he added abruptly, "we all are." he recovered himself from the generality. "it's vague, i admit, a sort of vague wish to do something decent, you know, that he has----" "a sort of vague wish," she conceded; "but----" "he means well," said melville, clinging to his proposition. "he means nothing. only very dimly he suspects----" "yes?" "what you too are beginning to suspect.... that other things may be conceivable even if they are not possible. that this life of yours is not everything. that it is not to be taken too seriously. because ... there are better dreams!" the song of the sirens was in her voice; my cousin would not look at her face. "i know nothing of any other dreams," he said. "one has oneself and this life, and that is enough to manage. what other dreams can there be? anyhow, we are in the dream--we have to accept it. besides, you know, that's going off the question. we were talking of chatteris, and why you have come for him. why should you come, why should any one outside come--into this world?" "because we are permitted to come--we immortals. and why, if we choose to do so, and taste this life that passes and continues, as rain that falls to the ground, why should we not do it? why should we abstain?" "and chatteris?" "if he pleases me." he roused himself to a titanic effort against an oppression that was coming over him. he tried to get the thing down to a definite small case, an incident, an affair of considerations. "but look here, you know," he said. "what precisely do you mean to do if you get him? you don't seriously intend to keep up the game to that extent. you don't mean--positively, in our terrestrial fashion, you know--to marry him?" the sea lady laughed at his recovery of the practical tone. "well, why not?" she asked. "and go about in a bath chair, and-- no, that's not it. what _is_ it?" he looked up into her eyes, and it was like looking into deep water. down in that deep there stirred impalpable things. she smiled at him. "no!" she said, "i sha'n't marry him and go about in a bath chair. and grow old as all earthly women must. (it's the dust, i think, and the dryness of the air, and the way you begin and end.) you burn too fast, you flare and sink and die. this life of yours!--the illnesses and the growing old! when the skin wears shabby, and the light is out of the hair, and the teeth-- not even for love would i face it. no.... but then you know--" her voice sank to a low whisper. "_there are better dreams._" "what dreams?" rebelled melville. "what do you mean? what are you? what do you mean by coming into this life--you who pretend to be a woman--and whispering, whispering ... to us who are in it, to us who have no escape." "but there is an escape," said the sea lady. "how?" "for some there is an escape. when the whole life rushes to a moment--" and then she stopped. now there is clearly no sense in this sentence to my mind, even from a lady of an essentially imaginary sort, who comes out of the sea. how can a whole life rush to a moment? but whatever it was she really did say, there is no doubt she left it half unsaid. he glanced up at her abrupt pause, and she was looking at the house. * * * * * "do ... ris! do ... ris! are you there?" it was mrs. bunting's voice floating athwart the lawn, the voice of the ascendant present, of invincibly sensible things. the world grew real again to melville. he seemed to wake up, to start back from some delusive trance that crept upon him. he looked at the sea lady as if he were already incredulous of the things they had said, as if he had been asleep and dreamed the talk. some light seemed to go out, some fancy faded. his eye rested upon the inscription, "flamps, bath chair proprietor," just visible under her arm. "we've got perhaps a little more serious than--" he said doubtfully, and then, "what you have been saying--did you exactly mean----?" the rustle of mrs. bunting's advance became audible, and parker moved and coughed. he was quite sure they had been "more serious than----" "another time perhaps----" had all these things really been said, or was he under some fantastic hallucination? he had a sudden thought. "where's your cigarette?" he asked. but her cigarette had ended long ago. "and what have you been talking about so long?" sang mrs. bunting, with an almost motherly hand on the back of melville's chair. "oh!" said melville, at a loss for once, and suddenly rising from his chair to face her, and then to the sea lady with an artificially easy smile, "what _have_ we been talking about?" "all sorts of things, i dare say," said mrs. bunting, in what might almost be called an arch manner. and she honoured melville with a special smile--one of those smiles that are morally almost winks. [illustration: the waiter retires amazed.] my cousin caught all the archness full in the face, and for four seconds he stared at mrs. bunting in amazement. he wanted breath. then they all laughed together, and mrs. bunting sat down pleasantly and remarked, quite audibly to herself, "as if i couldn't guess." iv i gather that after this talk melville fell into an extraordinary net of doubting. in the first place, and what was most distressing, he doubted whether this conversation could possibly have happened at all, and if it had whether his memory had not played him some trick in modifying and intensifying the import of it all. my cousin occasionally dreams conversations of so sober and probable a sort as to mingle quite perplexingly with his real experiences. was this one of these occasions? he found himself taking up and scrutinising, as it were, first this remembered sentence and then that. had she really said this thing and quite in this way? his memory of their conversation was never quite the same for two days together. had she really and deliberately foreshadowed for chatteris some obscure and mystical submergence? what intensified and complicated his doubts most, was the sea lady's subsequent serene freedom from allusion to anything that might or might not have passed. she behaved just as she had always behaved; neither an added intimacy nor that distance that follows indiscreet confidences appeared in her manner. and amidst this crop of questions arose presently quite a new set of doubts, as if he were not already sufficiently equipped. the sea lady alleged she had come to the world that lives on land, for chatteris. and then----? he had not hitherto looked ahead to see precisely what would happen to chatteris, to miss glendower, to the buntings or any one when, as seemed highly probable, chatteris was "got." there were other dreams, there was another existence, an elsewhere--and chatteris was to go there! so she said! but it came into melville's mind with a quite disproportionate force and vividness that once, long ago, he had seen a picture of a man and a mermaid, rushing downward through deep water.... could it possibly be that sort of thing in the year eighteen hundred and ninety-nine? conceivably, if she had said these things, did she mean them, and if she meant them, and this definite campaign of capture was in hand, what was an orderly, sane-living, well-dressed bachelor of the world to do? look on--until things ended in a catastrophe? one figures his face almost aged. he appears to have hovered about the house on the sandgate riviera to a scandalous extent, failing always to get a sufficiently long and intimate tête-à-tête with the sea lady to settle once for all his doubts as to what really had been said and what he had dreamed or fancied in their talk. never had he been so exceedingly disturbed as he was by the twist this talk had taken. never had his habitual pose of humorous acquiescence in life been quite so difficult to keep up. he became positively absent-minded. "you know if it's like that, it's serious," was the burden of his private mutterings. his condition was palpable even to mrs. bunting. but she misunderstood his nature. she said something. finally, and quite abruptly, he set off to london in a state of frantic determination to get out of it all. the sea lady wished him good-bye in mrs. bunting's presence as if there had never been anything unusual between them. i suppose one may contrive to understand something of his disturbance. he had made quite considerable sacrifices to the world. he had, at great pains, found his place and his way in it, he had imagined he had really "got the hang of it," as people say, and was having an interesting time. and then, you know, to encounter a voice, that subsequently insists upon haunting you with "_there are better dreams_"; to hear a tale that threatens complications, disasters, broken hearts, and not to have the faintest idea of the proper thing to do. but i do not think he would have bolted from sandgate until he had really got some more definite answer to the question, "_what_ better dreams?" until he had surprised or forced some clearer illumination from the passive invalid, if mrs. bunting one morning had not very tactfully dropped a hint. you know mrs. bunting, and you can imagine what she tactfully hinted. just at that time, what with her own girls and the glendower girls, her imagination was positively inflamed for matrimony; she was a matrimonial fanatic; she would have married anybody to anything just for the fun of doing it, and the idea of pairing off poor melville to this mysterious immortal with a scaly tail seems to have appeared to her the most natural thing in the world. _apropos_ of nothing whatever i fancy she remarked, "your opportunity is now, mr. melville." "my opportunity!" cried melville, trying madly not to understand in the face of her pink resolution. "you've a monopoly now," she cried. "but when we go back to london with her there will be ever so many people running after her." i fancy melville said something about carrying the thing too far. he doesn't remember what he did say. i don't think he even knew at the time. however, he fled back to london in august, and was there so miserably at loose ends that he had not the will to get out of the place. on this passage in the story he does not dwell, and such verisimilitude as may be, must be supplied by my imagination. i imagine him in his charmingly appointed flat,--a flat that is light without being trivial, and artistic with no want of dignity or sincerity,--finding a loss of interest in his books, a loss of beauty in the silver he (not too vehemently) collects. i imagine him wandering into that dainty little bed-room of his and around into the dressing-room, and there, rapt in a blank contemplation of the seven-and-twenty pairs of trousers (all creasing neatly in their proper stretchers) that are necessary to his conception of a wise and happy man. for every occasion he has learnt, in a natural easy progress to knowledge, the exquisitely appropriate pair of trousers, the permissible upper garment, the becoming gesture and word. he was a man who had mastered his world. and then, you know, the whisper:-- "_there are better dreams._" "what dreams?" i imagine him asking, with a defensive note. whatever transparence the world might have had, whatever suggestion of something beyond there, in the sea garden at sandgate, i fancy that in melville's apartments in london it was indisputably opaque. and "damn it!" he cried, "if these dreams are for chatteris, why should she tell me? suppose i had the chance of them-- whatever they are----" he reflected, with a terrible sincerity in the nature of his will. "no!" and then again, "no! "and if one mustn't have 'em, why should one know about 'em and be worried by them? if she comes to do mischief, why shouldn't she do mischief without making me an accomplice?" he walks up and down and stops at last and stares out of his window on the jaded summer traffic going haymarket way. he sees nothing of that traffic. he sees the little sea garden at sandgate and that little group of people very small and bright and something--something hanging over them. "it isn't fair on them--or me--or anybody!" then you know, quite suddenly, i imagine him swearing. i imagine him at his luncheon, a meal he usually treats with a becoming gravity. i imagine the waiter marking the kindly self-indulgence of his clean-shaven face, and advancing with that air of intimate participation the good waiter shows to such as he esteems. i figure the respectful pause, the respectful enquiry. "oh, anything!" cries melville, and the waiter retires amazed. v to add to melville's distress, as petty discomforts do add to all genuine trouble, his club-house was undergoing an operation, and was full of builders and decorators; they had gouged out its windows and gagged its hall with scaffolding, and he and his like were guests of a stranger club that had several members who blew. they seemed never to do anything but blow and sigh and rustle papers and go to sleep about the place; they were like blight-spots on the handsome plant of this host-club, and it counted for little with melville, in the state he was in, that all the fidgety breathers were persons of eminent position. but it was this temporary dislocation of his world that brought him unexpectedly into a _quasi_ confidential talk with chatteris one afternoon, for chatteris was one of the less eminent and amorphous members of this club that was sheltering melville's club. [illustration: they seemed never to do anything but blow and sigh and rustle papers.] melville had taken up _punch_--he was in that mood when a man takes up anything--and was reading, he did not know exactly what. presently he sighed, looked up, and discovered chatteris entering the room. he was surprised to see chatteris, startled and just faintly alarmed, and chatteris it was evident was surprised and disconcerted to see him. chatteris stood in as awkward an attitude as he was capable of, staring unfavourably, and for a moment or so he gave no sign of recognition. then he nodded and came forward reluctantly. his every movement suggested the will without the wit to escape. "you here?" he said. "what are you doing away from hythe at this time?" asked melville. "i came here to write a letter," said chatteris. he looked about him rather helplessly. then he sat down beside melville and demanded a cigarette. suddenly he plunged into intimacy. "it is doubtful whether i shall contest hythe," he remarked. "yes?" "yes." he lit his cigarette. "would you?" he asked. "not a bit of it," said melville. "but then it's not my line." "is it mine?" "isn't it a little late in the day to drop it?" said melville. "you've been put up for it now. every one's at work. miss glendower----" "i know," said chatteris. "well?" "i don't seem to want to go on." "my dear man!" "it's a bit of overwork perhaps. i'm off colour. things have gone flat. that's why i'm up here." he did a very absurd thing. he threw away a quarter-smoked cigarette and almost immediately demanded another. "you've been a little immoderate with your statistics," said melville. chatteris said something that struck melville as having somehow been said before. "election, progress, good of humanity, public spirit. none of these things interest me really," he said. "at least, not just now." melville waited. "one gets brought up in an atmosphere in which it's always being whispered that one should go for a career. you learn it at your mother's knee. they never give you time to find out what you really want, they keep on shoving you at that. they form your character. they rule your mind. they rush you into it." "they didn't rush me," said melville. "they rushed me, anyhow. and here i am!" "you don't want a career?" "well-- look what it is." "oh! if you look at what things are!" "first of all, the messing about to get into the house. these confounded parties mean nothing--absolutely nothing. they aren't even decent factions. you blither to damned committees of damned tradesmen whose sole idea for this world is to get overpaid for their self-respect; you whisper and hobnob with local solicitors and get yourself seen about with them; you ask about the charities and institutions, and lunch and chatter and chum with every conceivable form of human conceit and pushfulness and trickery----" he broke off. "it isn't as if _they_ were up to anything! they're working in their way, just as you are working in your way. it's the same game with all of them. they chase a phantom gratification, they toil and quarrel and envy, night and day, in the perpetual attempt to persuade themselves in spite of everything that they are real and a success----" he stopped and smoked. melville was spiteful. "yes," he admitted, "but i thought _your_ little movement was to be something more than party politics and self-advancement----?" he left his sentence interrogatively incomplete. "the condition of the poor," he said. "well?" said chatteris, regarding him with a sort of stony admission in his blue eyes. melville dodged the look. "at sandgate," he said, "there was, you know, a certain atmosphere of belief----" "i know," said chatteris for the second time. "that's the devil of it!" said chatteris after a pause. "if i don't believe in the game i'm playing, if i'm left high and dry on this shoal, with the tide of belief gone past me, it isn't _my_ planning, anyhow. i know the decent thing i ought to do. i mean to do it; in the end i mean to do it; i'm talking in this way to relieve my mind. i've started the game and i must see it out; i've put my hand to the plough and i mustn't go back. that's why i came to london--to get it over with myself. it was running up against you, set me off. you caught me at the crisis." "ah!" said melville. "but for all that, the thing is as i said--none of these things interest me really. it won't alter the fact that i am committed to fight a phantom election about nothing in particular, for a party that's been dead ten years. and if the ghosts win, go into the parliament as a constituent spectre.... there it is--as a mental phenomenon!" he reiterated his cardinal article. "the interest is dead," he said, "the will has no soul." he became more critical. he bent a little closer to melville's ear. "it isn't really that i don't believe. when i say i don't believe in these things i go too far. i do. i know, the electioneering, the intriguing is a means to an end. there is work to be done, sound work, and important work. only----" melville turned an eye on him over his cigarette end. chatteris met it, seemed for a moment to cling to it. he became absurdly confidential. he was evidently in the direst need of a confidential ear. "i don't want to do it. when i sit down to it, square myself down in the chair, you know, and say, now for the rest of my life this is it--this is your life, chatteris; there comes a sort of terror, melville." "h'm," said melville, and turned away. then he turned on chatteris with the air of a family physician, and tapped his shoulder three times as he spoke. "you've had too much statistics, chatteris," he said. he let that soak in. then he turned about towards his interlocutor, and toyed with a club ash tray. "it's every day has overtaken you," he said. "you can't see the wood for the trees. you forget the spacious design you are engaged upon, in the heavy details of the moment. you are like a painter who has been working hard upon something very small and exacting in a corner. you want to step back and look at the whole thing." "no," said chatteris, "that isn't quite it." melville indicated that he knew better. "i keep on, stepping back and looking at it," said chatteris. "just lately i've scarcely done anything else. i'll admit it's a spacious and noble thing--political work done well--only-- i admire it, but it doesn't grip my imagination. that's where the trouble comes in." "what _does_ grip your imagination?" asked melville. he was absolutely certain the sea lady had been talking this paralysis into chatteris, and he wanted to see just how far she had gone. "for example," he tested, "are there--by any chance--other dreams?" chatteris gave no sign at the phrase. melville dismissed his suspicion. "what do you mean--other dreams?" asked chatteris. "is there conceivably another way--another sort of life--some other aspect----?" "it's out of the question," said chatteris. he added, rather remarkably, "adeline's awfully good." my cousin melville acquiesced silently in adeline's goodness. "all this, you know, is a mood. my life is made for me--and it's a very good life. it's better than i deserve." "heaps," said melville. "much," said chatteris defiantly. "ever so much," endorsed melville. "let's talk of other things," said chatteris. "it's what even the street boys call _mawbid_ nowadays to doubt for a moment the absolute final all-this-and-nothing-else-in-the-worldishness of whatever you happen to be doing." my cousin melville, however, could think of no other sufficiently interesting topic. "you left them all right at sandgate?" he asked, after a pause. "except little bunting." "seedy?" "been fishing." "of course. breezes and the spring tides.... and miss waters?" chatteris shot a suspicious glance at him. he affected the offhand style. "_she's_ quite well," he said. "looks just as charming as ever." "she really means that canvassing?" "she's spoken of it again." "she'll do a lot for you," said melville, and left a fine wide pause. chatteris assumed the tone of a man who gossips. "who is this miss waters?" he asked. "a very charming person," said melville and said no more. chatteris waited and his pretence of airy gossip vanished. he became very much in earnest. "look here," he said. "who is this miss waters?" "how should _i_ know?" prevaricated melville. "well, you do know. and the others know. who is she?" melville met his eyes. "won't they tell you?" he asked. "that's just it," said chatteris. "why do you want to know?" "why shouldn't i know?" "there's a sort of promise to keep it dark." "keep _what_ dark?" my cousin gestured. "it can't be anything wrong?" my cousin made no sign. "she may have had experiences?" my cousin reflected a moment on the possibilities of the deep-sea life. "she has had them," he said. "i don't care, if she has." there came a pause. "look here, melville," said chatteris, "i want to know this. unless it's a thing to be specially kept from me.... i don't like being among a lot of people who treat me as an outsider. what is this something about miss waters?" "what does miss glendower say?" "vague things. she doesn't like her and she won't say why. and mrs. bunting goes about with discretion written all over her. and she herself looks at you-- and that maid of hers looks-- the thing's worrying me." "why don't you ask the lady herself?" "how can i, till i know what it is? confound it! i'm asking _you_ plainly enough." "well," said melville, and at the moment he had really decided to tell chatteris. but he hung upon the manner of presentation. he thought in the moment to say, "the truth is, she is a mermaid." then as instantly he perceived how incredible this would be. he always suspected chatteris of a capacity for being continental and romantic. the man might fly out at him for saying such a thing of a lady. a dreadful doubt fell upon melville. as you know, he had never seen that tail with his own eyes. in these surroundings there came to him such an incredulity of the sea lady as he had not felt even when first mrs. bunting told him of her. all about him was an atmosphere of solid reality, such as one can breathe only in a first-class london club. everywhere ponderous arm-chairs met the eye. there were massive tables in abundance and match-boxes of solid rock. the matches were of some specially large, heavy sort. on a ponderous elephant-legged green baize table near at hand were several copies of the _times_, the current _punch_, an inkpot of solid brass, and a paper weight of lead. _there are other dreams!_ it seemed impossible. the breathing of an eminent person in a chair in the far corner became very distinct in that interval. it was heavy and resolute like the sound of a stone-mason's saw. it insisted upon itself as the touchstone of reality. it seemed to say that at the first whisper of a thing so utterly improbable as a mermaid it would snort and choke. "you wouldn't believe me if i told you," said melville. "well, tell me--anyhow." my cousin looked at an empty chair beside him. it was evidently stuffed with the very best horse-hair that money could procure, stuffed with infinite skill and an almost religious care. it preached in the open invitation of its expanded arms that man does not live by bread alone--inasmuch as afterwards he needs a nap. an utterly dreamless chair! mermaids? he felt that he was after all quite possibly the victim of a foolish delusion, hypnotised by mrs. bunting's beliefs. was there not some more plausible interpretation, some phrase that would lie out bridgeways from the plausible to the truth? "it's no good," he groaned at last. chatteris had been watching him furtively. "oh, i don't care a hang," he said, and shied his second cigarette into the massively decorated fireplace. "it's no affair of mine." then quite abruptly he sprang to his feet and gesticulated with an ineffectual hand. "you needn't," he said, and seemed to intend to say many regrettable things. meanwhile until his intention ripened he sawed the air with his ineffectual hand. i fancy he ended by failing to find a thing sufficiently regrettable to express the pungency of the moment. he flung about and went towards the door. "don't!" he said to the back of the newspaper of the breathing member. "if you don't want to," he said to the respectful waiter at the door. the hall-porter heard that he didn't care--he was damned if he did! "he might be one of these here guests," said the hall-porter, greatly shocked. "that's what comes of lettin' 'em in so young." vi melville overcame an impulse to follow him. "confound the fellow!" said he. and then as the whole outburst came into focus, he said with still more emphasis, "confound the fellow!" he stood up and became aware that the member who had been asleep was now regarding him with malevolent eyes. he perceived it was a hard and invincible malevolence, and that no petty apologetics of demeanour could avail against it. he turned about and went towards the door. the interview had done my cousin good. his misery and distress had lifted. he was presently bathed in a profound moral indignation, and that is the very antithesis of doubt and unhappiness. the more he thought it over, the more his indignation with chatteris grew. that sudden unreasonable outbreak altered all the perspectives of the case. he wished very much that he could meet chatteris again and discuss the whole matter from a new footing. "think of it!" he thought so vividly and so verbally that he was nearly talking to himself as he went along. it shaped itself into an outspoken discourse in his mind. "was there ever a more ungracious, ungrateful, unreasonable creature than this same chatteris? he was the spoiled child of fortune; things came to him, things were given to him, his very blunders brought more to him than other men's successes. out of every thousand men, nine hundred and ninety-nine might well find food for envy in this way luck had served him. many a one has toiled all his life and taken at last gratefully the merest fraction of all that had thrust itself upon this insatiable thankless young man. even i," thought my cousin, "might envy him--in several ways. and then, at the mere first onset of duty, nay!--at the mere first whisper of restraint, this insubordination, this protest and flight! "think!" urged my cousin, "of the common lot of men. think of the many who suffer from hunger----" (it was a painful socialistic sort of line to take, but in his mood of moral indignation my cousin pursued it relentlessly.) "think of many who suffer from hunger, who lead lives of unremitting toil, who go fearful, who go squalid, and withal strive, in a sort of dumb, resolute way, their utmost to do their duty, or at any rate what they think to be their duty. think of the chaste poor women in the world! think again of the many honest souls who aspire to the service of their kind, and are so hemmed about and preoccupied that they may not give it! and then this pitiful creature comes, with his mental gifts, his gifts of position and opportunity, the stimulus of great ideas, and a _fiancée_, who is not only rich and beautiful--she _is_ beautiful!--but also the best of all possible helpers for him. and he turns away. it isn't good enough. it takes no hold upon his imagination, if you please. it isn't beautiful enough for him, and that's the plain truth of the matter. what does the man _want_? what does he expect?..." my cousin's moral indignation took him the whole length of piccadilly, and along by rotten row, and along the flowery garden walks almost into kensington high street, and so around by the serpentine to his home, and it gave him such an appetite for dinner as he had not had for many days. life was bright for him all that evening, and he sat down at last, at two o'clock in the morning, before a needlessly lit, delightfully fusillading fire in his flat to smoke one sound cigar before he went to bed. "no," he said suddenly, "i am not _mawbid_ either. i take the gifts the gods will give me. i try to make myself happy, and a few other people happy, too, to do a few little duties decently, and that is enough for me. i don't look too deeply into things, and i don't look too widely about things. a few old simple ideals---- "h'm. "chatteris is a dreamer, with an impossible, extravagant discontent. what does he dream of?... three parts he is a dreamer and the fourth part--spoiled child." "dreamer...." "other dreams...." "what other dreams could she mean?" my cousin fell into profound musings. then he started, looked about him, saw the time by his rathbone clock, got up suddenly and went to bed. chapter the seventh the crisis i the crisis came about a week from that time--i say about because of melville's conscientious inexactness in these matters. and so far as the crisis goes, i seem to get melville at his best. he was keenly interested, keenly observant, and his more than average memory took some excellent impressions. to my mind, at any rate, two at least of these people come out, fuller and more convincingly than anywhere else in this painfully disinterred story. he has given me here an adeline i seem to believe in, and something much more like chatteris than any of the broken fragments i have had to go upon, and amplify and fudge together so far. and for all such transient lucidities in this mysterious story, the reader no doubt will echo my heaven be thanked! melville was called down to participate in the crisis at sandgate by a telegram from mrs. bunting, and his first exponent of the situation was fred bunting. "_come down. urgent. please_," was the irresistible message from mrs. bunting. my cousin took the early train and arrived at sandgate in the forenoon. he was told that mrs. bunting was upstairs with miss glendower and that she implored him to wait until she could leave her charge. "miss glendower not well, then?" said melville. "no, sir, not at all well," said the housemaid, evidently awaiting a further question. "where are the others?" he asked casually. the three younger young ladies had gone to hythe, said the housemaid, with a marked omission of the sea lady. melville has an intense dislike of questioning servants on points at issue, so he asked nothing at all concerning miss waters. this general absence of people from the room of familiar occupation conveyed the same suggested warning of crisis as the telegram. the housemaid waited an instant longer and withdrew. he stood for a moment in the drawing-room and then walked out upon the veranda. he perceived a richly caparisoned figure advancing towards him. it was fred bunting. he had been taking advantage of the general desertion of home to bathe from the house. he was wearing an umbrageous white cotton hat and a striped blanket, and a more aggressively manly pipe than any fully adult male would ever dream of smoking, hung from the corner of his mouth. "hello!" he said. "the mater sent for you?" melville admitted the truth of this theory. "there's ructions," said fred, and removed the pipe. the act offered conversation. "where's miss waters?" "gone." "back?" "lord, no! catch her! she's gone to lummidge's hotel. with her maid. took a suite." "why----" "the mater made a row with her." "whatever for?" "harry." my cousin stared at the situation. "it broke out," said fred. "what broke out?" "the row. harry's gone daft on her, addy says." "on miss waters?" "rather. mooney. didn't care for his electioneering--didn't care for his ordinary nourishment. loose ends. didn't mention it to adeline, but she began to see it. asked questions. next day, went off. london. she asked what was up. three days' silence. then--wrote to her." fred intensified all this by raising his eyebrows, pulling down the corners of his mouth and nodding portentously. "eh?" he said, and then to make things clearer: "wrote a letter." "he didn't write to her about miss waters?" "don't know what he wrote about. don't suppose he mentioned her name, but i dare say he made it clear enough. all i know is that everything in the house felt like elastic pulled tighter than it ought to be for two whole days--everybody in a sort of complicated twist--and then there was a snap. all that time addy was writing letters to him and tearing 'em up, and no one could quite make it out. everyone looked blue except the sea lady. she kept her own lovely pink. and at the end of that time the mater began asking things, adeline chucked writing, gave the mater half a hint, mater took it all in in an instant and the thing burst." "miss glendower didn't----?" "no, the mater did. put it pretty straight too--as the mater can.... _she_ didn't deny it. said she couldn't help herself, and that he was as much hers as adeline's. i _heard_ that," said fred shamelessly. "pretty thick, eh?--considering he's engaged. and the mater gave it her pretty straight. said, 'i've been very much deceived in you, miss waters--very much indeed.' i heard her...." "and then?" "asked her to go. said she'd requited us ill for taking her up when nobody but a fisherman would have looked at her." "she said that?" "well, words to that effect." "and miss waters went?" "in a first-class cab, maid and boxes in another, all complete. perfect lady.... couldn't have believed if i hadn't seen it--the tail, i mean." "and miss glendower?" "addy? oh, she's been going it. comes downstairs and does the pale-faced heroine and goes upstairs and does the broken-hearted part. _i_ know. it's all very well. you never had sisters. you know----" fred held his pipe elaborately out of the way and protruded his face to a confidential nearness. "i believe they half like it," said fred, in a confidential half whisper. "such a go, you know. mabel pretty near as bad. and the girls. all making the very most they can of it. me! i think chatteris was the only man alive to hear 'em. _i_ couldn't get up emotion as they do, if my feet were being flayed. cheerful home, eh? for holidays." "where's--the principal gentleman?" asked melville a little grimly. "in london?" "unprincipled gentleman, i call him," said fred. "he's stopping down here at the métropole. stuck." "down here? stuck?" "rather. stuck and set about." my cousin tried for sidelights. "what's his attitude?" he asked. "slump," said fred with intensity. "this little blow-off has rather astonished him," he explained. "when he wrote to say that the election didn't interest him for a bit, but he hoped to pull around----" "you said you didn't know what he wrote." "i do that much," said fred. "he no more thought they'd have spotted that it meant miss waters than a baby. but women are so thundering sharp, you know. they're born spotters. how it'll all end----" "but why has he come to the métropole?" "middle of the stage, i suppose," said fred. "what's his attitude?" "says he's going to see adeline and explain everything--and doesn't do it.... puts it off. and adeline, as far as i can gather, says that if he doesn't come down soon, she's hanged if she'll see him, much as her heart may be broken, and all that, if she doesn't. you know." "naturally," said melville, rather inconsecutively. "and he doesn't?" "doesn't stir." "does he see--the other lady?" "we don't know. we can't watch him. but if he does he's clever----" "why?" "there's about a hundred blessed relatives of his in the place--came like crows for a corpse. i never saw such a lot. talk about a man of good old family--it's decaying! i never saw such a high old family in my life. aunts they are chiefly." "aunts?" "aunts. say, they've rallied round him. how they got hold of it i don't know. like vultures. unless the mater-- but they're here. they're all at him--using their influence with him, threatening to cut off legacies and all that. there's one old girl at bate's, lady poynting mallow--least bit horsey, but about as all right as any of 'em--who's been down here twice. seems a trifle disappointed in adeline. and there's two aunts at wampach's--you know the sort that stop at wampach's--regular hothouse flowers--a watering-potful of real icy cold water would kill both of 'em. and there's one come over from the continent, short hair, short skirts--regular terror--she's at the pavilion. they're all chasing round saying, 'where is this woman-fish sort of thing? let me peek!'" "does that constitute the hundred relatives?" "practically. the wampachers are sending for a bishop who used to be his schoolmaster----" "no stone unturned, eh?" "none." "and has he found out yet----" "that she's a mermaid? i don't believe he has. the pater went up to tell him. of course, he was a bit out of breath and embarrassed. and chatteris cut him down. 'at least let me hear nothing against her,' he said. and the pater took that and came away. good old pater. eh?" "and the aunts?" "they're taking it in. mainly they grasp the fact that he's going to jilt adeline, just as he jilted the american girl. the mermaid side they seem to boggle at. old people like that don't take to a new idea all at once. the wampach ones are shocked--but curious. they don't believe for a moment she really is a mermaid, but they want to know all about it. and the one down at the pavilion simply said, 'bosh! how can she breathe under water? tell me that, mrs. bunting. she's some sort of person you have picked up, i don't know how, but mermaid she _cannot_ be.' they'd be all tremendously down on the mater, i think, for picking her up, if it wasn't that they can't do without her help to bring addy round again. pretty mess all round, eh?" "i suppose the aunts will tell him?" "what?" "about the tail." "i suppose they will." "and what then?" "heaven knows! just as likely they won't." my cousin meditated on the veranda tiles for a space. "it amuses me," said fred bunting. "look here," said my cousin melville, "what am i supposed to do? why have i been asked to come?" "i don't know. stir it up a bit, i expect. everybody do a bit--like the christmas pudding." "but--" said melville. [illustration: adjusting the folds of his blanket to a greater dignity.] "i've been bathing," said fred. "nobody asked me to take a hand and i didn't. it won't be a good pudding without me, but there you are! there's only one thing i can see to do----" "it might be the right thing. what is it?" "punch chatteris's head." "i don't see how that would help matters." "oh, it wouldn't help matters," said fred, adding with an air of conclusiveness, "there it is!" then adjusting the folds of his blanket to a greater dignity, and replacing his long extinct large pipe between his teeth, he went on his way. the tail of his blanket followed him reluctantly through the door. his bare feet padded across the hall and became inaudible on the carpet of the stairs. "fred!" said melville, going doorward with a sudden afterthought for fuller particulars. but fred had gone. instead, mrs. bunting appeared. ii she appeared with traces of recent emotion. "i telegraphed," she said. "we are in dreadful trouble." "miss waters, i gather----" "she's gone." she went towards the bell and stopped. "they'll get luncheon as usual," she said. "you will be wanting your luncheon." she came towards him with rising hands. "you can _not_ imagine," she said. "that poor child!" "you must tell me," said melville. "i simply do not know what to do. i don't know where to turn." she came nearer to him. she protested. "all that i did, mr. melville, i did for the best. i saw there was trouble. i could see that i had been deceived, and i stood it as long as i could. i _had_ to speak at last." my cousin by leading questions and interrogative silences developed her story a little. "and every one," she said, "blames me. every one." "everybody blames everybody who does anything, in affairs of this sort," said melville. "you mustn't mind that." "i'll try not to," she said bravely. "_you_ know, mr. melville----" he laid his hand on her shoulder for a moment. "yes," he said very impressively, and i think mrs. bunting felt better. "we all look to you," she said. "i don't know what i should do without you." "that's it," said melville. "how do things stand? what am i to do?" "go to him," said mrs. bunting, "and put it all right." "but suppose--" began melville doubtfully. "go to her. make her see what it would mean for him and all of us." he tried to get more definite instructions. "don't make difficulties," implored mrs. bunting. "think of that poor girl upstairs. think of us all." "exactly," said melville, thinking of chatteris and staring despondently out of the window. "bunting, i gather----" "it is you or no one," said mrs. bunting, sailing over his unspoken words. "fred is too young, and randolph--! he's not diplomatic. he--he hectors." "does he?" exclaimed melville. "you should see him abroad. often--many times i have had to interfere.... no, it is you. you know harry so well. he trusts you. you can say things to him--no one else could say." "that reminds me. does _he_ know----" "we don't know. how can we know? we know he is infatuated, that is all. he is up there in folkestone, and she is in folkestone, and they may be meeting----" my cousin sought counsel with himself. "say you will go?" said mrs. bunting, with a hand upon his arm. "i'll go," said melville, "but i don't see what i can do!" and mrs. bunting clasped his hand in both of her own plump shapely hands and said she knew all along that he would, and that for coming down so promptly to her telegram she would be grateful to him so long as she had a breath to draw, and then she added, as if it were part of the same remark, that he must want his luncheon. he accepted the luncheon proposition in an incidental manner and reverted to the question in hand. "do you know what his attitude----" "he has written only to addy." "it isn't as if he had brought about this crisis?" "it was addy. he went away and something in his manner made her write and ask him the reason why. so soon as she had his letter saying he wanted to rest from politics for a little, that somehow he didn't seem to find the interest in life he thought it deserved, she divined everything----" "everything? yes, but just what _is_ everything?" "that _she_ had led him on." "miss waters?" "yes." my cousin reflected. so that was what they considered to be everything! "i wish i knew just where he stood," he said at last, and followed mrs. bunting luncheonward. in the course of that meal, which was _tête-à-tête_, it became almost unsatisfactorily evident what a great relief melville's consent to interview chatteris was to mrs. bunting. indeed, she seemed to consider herself relieved from the greater portion of her responsibility in the matter, since melville was bearing her burden. she sketched out her defence against the accusations that had no doubt been levelled at her, explicitly and implicitly. "how was _i_ to know?" she asked, and she told over again the story of that memorable landing, but with new, extenuating details. it was adeline herself who had cried first, "she must be saved!" mrs. bunting made a special point of that. "and what else was there for me to do?" she asked. and as she talked, the problem before my cousin assumed graver and yet graver proportions. he perceived more and more clearly the complexity of the situation with which he was entrusted. in the first place it was not at all clear that miss glendower was willing to receive back her lover except upon terms, and the sea lady, he was quite sure, did not mean to release him from any grip she had upon him. they were preparing to treat an elemental struggle as if it were an individual case. it grew more and more evident to him how entirely mrs. bunting overlooked the essentially abnormal nature of the sea lady, how absolutely she regarded the business as a mere every-day vacillation, a commonplace outbreak of that jilting spirit which dwells, covered deep, perhaps, but never entirely eradicated, in the heart of man; and how confidently she expected him, with a little tactful remonstrance and pressure, to restore the _status quo ante_. as for chatteris!--melville shook his head at the cheese, and answered mrs. bunting abstractedly. iii "she wants to speak to you," said mrs. bunting, and melville with a certain trepidation went upstairs. he went up to the big landing with the seats, to save adeline the trouble of coming down. she appeared dressed in a black and violet tea gown with much lace, and her dark hair was done with a simple carefulness that suited it. she was pale, and her eyes showed traces of tears, but she had a certain dignity that differed from her usual bearing in being quite unconscious. she gave him a limp hand and spoke in an exhausted voice. "you know--all?" she asked. "all the outline, anyhow." "why has he done this to me?" melville looked profoundly sympathetic through a pause. "i feel," she said, "that it isn't coarseness." "certainly not," said melville. "it is some mystery of the imagination that i cannot understand. i should have thought--his career at any rate--would have appealed...." she shook her head and regarded a pot of ferns fixedly for a space. "he has written to you?" asked melville. "three times," she said, looking up. melville hesitated to ask the extent of that correspondence, but she left no need for that. "i had to ask him," she said. "he kept it all from me, and i had to force it from him before he would tell." "tell!" said melville, "what?" "what he felt for her and what he felt for me." "but did he----?" "he has made it clearer. but still even now. no, i don't understand." she turned slowly and watched melville's face as she spoke: "you know, mr. melville, that this has been an enormous shock to me. i suppose i never really knew him. i suppose i--idealised him. i thought he cared for--our work at any rate.... he _did_ care for our work. he believed in it. surely he believed in it." "he does," said melville. "and then-- but how can he?" "he is--he is a man with rather a strong imagination." "or a weak will?" "relatively--yes." "it is so strange," she sighed. "it is so inconsistent. it is like a child catching at a new toy. do you know, mr. melville"--she hesitated--"all this has made me feel old. i feel very much older, very much wiser than he is. i cannot help it. i am afraid it is for all women ... to feel that sometimes." she reflected profoundly. "for _all_ women-- the child, man! i see now just what sarah grand meant by that." she smiled a wan smile. "i feel just as if he had been a naughty child. and i--i worshipped him, mr. melville," she said, and her voice quivered. my cousin coughed and turned about to stare hard out of the window. he was, he perceived, much more shockingly inadequate even than he had expected to be. "if i thought she could make him happy!" she said presently, leaving a hiatus of generous self-sacrifice. "the case is--complicated," said melville. her voice went on, clear and a little high, resigned, impenetrably assured. "but she would not. all his better side, all his serious side-- she would miss it and ruin it all." "does he--" began melville and repented of the temerity of his question. "yes?" she said. "does he--ask to be released?" "no.... he wants to come back to me." "and you----" "he doesn't come." "but do you--do you want him back?" "how can i say, mr. melville? he does not say certainly even that he wants to come back." my cousin melville looked perplexed. he lived on the superficies of emotion, and these complexities in matters he had always assumed were simple, put him out. "there are times," she said, "when it seems to me that my love for him is altogether dead.... think of the disillusionment--the shock--the discovery of such weakness." my cousin lifted his eyebrows and shook his head in agreement. "his feet--to find his feet were of clay!" there came a pause. "it seems as if i have never loved him. and then--and then i think of all the things that still might be." her voice made him look up, and he saw that her mouth was set hard and tears were running down her cheeks. it occurred to my cousin, he says, that he would touch her hand in a sympathetic manner, and then it occurred to him that he wouldn't. her words rang in his thoughts for a space, and then he said somewhat tardily, "he may still be all those things." "i suppose he may," she said slowly and without colour. the weeping moment had passed. "what is she?" she changed abruptly. "what is this being, who has come between him and all the realities of life? what is there about her--? and why should i have to compete with her, because he--because he doesn't know his own mind?" "for a man," said melville, "to know his own mind is--to have exhausted one of the chief interests in life. after that--! a cultivated extinct volcano--if ever it was a volcano." he reflected egotistically for a space. then with a secret start he came back to consider her. "what is there," she said, with that deliberate attempt at clearness which was one of her antipathetic qualities for melville--"what is there that she has, that she offers, that _i_----?" melville winced at this deliberate proposal of appalling comparisons. all the catlike quality in his soul came to his aid. he began to edge away, and walk obliquely and generally to shirk the issue. "my dear miss glendower," he said, and tried to make that seem an adequate reply. "what _is_ the difference?" she insisted. "there are impalpable things," waived melville. "they are above reason and beyond describing." "but you," she urged, "you take an attitude, you must have an impression. why don't you-- don't you see, mr. melville, this is very"--her voice caught for a moment--"very vital for me. it isn't kind of you, if you have impressions-- i'm sorry, mr. melville, if i seem to be trying to get too much from you. i--i want to know." it came into melville's head for a moment that this girl had something in her, perhaps, that was just a little beyond his former judgments. "i must admit, i have a sort of impression," he said. "you are a man; you know him; you know all sorts of things--all sorts of ways of looking at things, i don't know. if you could go so far--as to be frank." "well," said melville and stopped. she hung over him as it were, as a tense silence. "there _is_ a difference," he admitted, and still went unhelped. "how can i put it? i think in certain ways you contrast with her, in a way that makes things easier for her. he has--i know the thing sounds like cant, only you know, _he_ doesn't plead it in defence--he has a temperament, to which she sometimes appeals more than you do." "yes, i know, but how?" "well----" "tell me." "you are austere. you are restrained. life--for a man like chatteris--is schooling. he has something--something perhaps more worth having than most of us have--but i think at times--it makes life harder for him than it is for a lot of us. life comes at him, with limitations and regulations. he knows his duty well enough. and you-- you mustn't mind what i say too much, miss glendower--i may be wrong." "go on," she said, "go on." "you are too much--the agent general of his duty." "but surely!--what else----?" "i talked to him in london and then i thought he was quite in the wrong. since that i've thought all sorts of things--even that you might be in the wrong. in certain minor things." "don't mind my vanity now," she cried. "tell me." "you see you have defined things--very clearly. you have made it clear to him what you expect him to be, and what you expect him to do. it is like having built a house in which he is to live. for him, to go to her is like going out of a house, a very fine and dignified house, i admit, into something larger, something adventurous and incalculable. she is--she has an air of being--_natural_. she is as lax and lawless as the sunset, she is as free and familiar as the wind. she doesn't--if i may put it in this way--she doesn't love and respect him when he is this, and disapprove of him highly when he is that; she takes him altogether. she has the quality of the open sky, of the flight of birds, of deep tangled places, she has the quality of the high sea. that i think is what she is for him, she is the great outside. you--you have the quality----" he hesitated. "go on," she insisted. "let us get the meaning." "of an edifice.... i don't sympathise with him," said melville. "i am a tame cat and i should scratch and mew at the door directly i got outside of things. i don't want to go out. the thought scares me. but he is different." "yes," she said, "he is different." for a time it seemed that melville's interpretation had hold of her. she stood thoughtful. slowly other aspects of the thing came into his mind. "of course," she said, thinking as she looked at him. "yes. yes. that is the impression. that is the quality. but in reality-- there are other things in the world beside effects and impressions. after all, that is--an analogy. it is pleasant to go out of houses and dwellings into the open air, but most of us, nearly all of us must live in houses." "decidedly," said melville. "he cannot-- what can he do with her? how can he live with her? what life could they have in common?" "it's a case of attraction," said melville, "and not of plans." "after all," she said, "he must come back--if i let him come back. he may spoil everything now; he may lose his election and be forced to start again, lower and less hopefully; he may tear his heart to pieces----" she stopped at a sob. "miss glendower," said melville abruptly. "i don't think you quite understand." "understand what?" "you think he cannot marry this--this being who has come among us?" "how could he?" "no--he couldn't. you think his imagination has wandered away from you--to something impossible. that generally, in an aimless way, he has cut himself up for nothing, and made an inordinate fool of himself, and that it's simply a business of putting everything back into place again." he paused and she said nothing. but her face was attentive. "what you do not understand," he went on, "what no one seems to understand, is that she comes----" "out of the sea." "out of some other world. she comes, whispering that this life is a phantom life, unreal, flimsy, limited, casting upon everything a spell of disillusionment----" "so that _he_----" "yes, and then she whispers, 'there are better dreams!'" the girl regarded him in frank perplexity. "she hints of these vague better dreams, she whispers of a way----" "_what_ way?" "i do not know what way. but it is something--something that tears at the very fabric of this daily life." "you mean----?" "she is a mermaid, she is a thing of dreams and desires, a siren, a whisper and a seduction. she will lure him with her----" he stopped. "where?" she whispered. "into the deeps." "the deeps?" they hung upon a long pause. melville sought vagueness with infinite solicitude, and could not find it. he blurted out at last: "there can be but one way out of this dream we are all dreaming, you know." "and that way?" "that way--" began melville and dared not say it. "you mean," she said, with a pale face, half awakened to a new thought, "the way is----?" melville shirked the word. he met her eyes and nodded weakly. "but how--?" she asked. "at any rate"--he said hastily, seeking some palliative phrase--"at any rate, if she gets him, this little world of yours-- there will be no coming back for him, you know." "no coming back?" she said. "no coming back," said melville. "but are you sure?" she doubted. "sure?" "that it is so?" "that desire is desire, and the deep the deep--yes." "i never thought--" she began and stopped. "mr. melville," she said, "you know i don't understand. i thought--i scarcely know what i thought. i thought he was trivial and foolish to let his thoughts go wandering. i agreed--i see your point--as to the difference in our effect upon him. but this--this suggestion that for him she may be something determining and final-- after all, she----" "she is nothing," he said. "she is the hand that takes hold of him, the shape that stands for things unseen." "what things unseen?" my cousin shrugged his shoulders. "something we never find in life," he said. "something we are always seeking." "but what?" she asked. melville made no reply. she scrutinised his face for a time, and then looked out at the sunlight again. "do you want him back?" he said. "i don't know." "do you want him back?" "i feel as if i had never wanted him before." "and now?" "yes.... but--if he will not come back?" "he will not come back," said melville, "for the work." "i know." "he will not come back for his self-respect--or any of those things." "no." "those things, you know, are only fainter dreams. all the palace you have made for him is a dream. but----" "yes?" "he might come back--" he said, and looked at her and stopped. he tells me he had some vague intention of startling her, rousing her, wounding her to some display of romantic force, some insurgence of passion, that might yet win chatteris back, and then in that moment, and like a blow, it came to him how foolish such a fancy had been. there she stood impenetrably herself, limitedly intelligent, well-meaning, imitative, and powerless. her pose, her face, suggested nothing but a clear and reasonable objection to all that had come to her, a critical antagonism, a steady opposition. and then, amazingly, she changed. she looked up, and suddenly held out both her hands, and there was something in her eyes that he had never seen before. melville took her hands mechanically, and for a second or so they stood looking with a sort of discovery into each other's eyes. "tell him," she said, with an astounding perfection of simplicity, "to come back to me. there can be no other thing than what i am. tell him to come back to me!" "and----?" "tell him _that_." "forgiveness?" "no! tell him i want him. if he will not come for that he will not come at all. if he will not come back for that"--she halted for a moment--"i do not want him. no! i do not want him. he is not mine and he may go." his passive hold of her hands became a pressure. then they dropped apart again. "you are very good to help us," she said as he turned to go. he looked at her. "you are very good to help me," she said, and then: "tell him whatever you like if only he will come back to me!... no! tell him what i have said." he saw she had something more to say, and stopped. "you know, mr. melville, all this is like a book newly opened to me. are you sure----?" "sure?" "sure of what you say--sure of what she is to him--sure that if he goes on he will--" she stopped. he nodded. "it means--" she said and stopped again. "no adventure, no incident, but a going out from all that this life has to offer." "you mean," she insisted, "you mean----?" "death," said melville starkly, and for a space both stood without a word. she winced, and remained looking into his eyes. then she spoke again. "mr. melville, tell him to come back to me." "and----?" "tell him to come back to me, or"--a sudden note of passion rang in her voice--"if i have no hold upon him, let him go his way." "but--" said melville. "i know," she cried, with her face set, "i know. but if he is mine he will come to me, and if he is not-- let him dream his dream." her clenched hand tightened as she spoke. he saw in her face she would say no more, that she wanted urgently to leave it there. he turned again towards the staircase. he glanced at her and went down. as he looked up from the bend of the stairs she was still standing in the light. he was moved to proclaim himself in some manner her adherent, but he could think of nothing better than: "whatever i can do i will." and so, after a curious pause, he departed, rather stumblingly, from her sight. iv after this interview it was right and proper that melville should have gone at once to chatteris, but the course of events in the world does occasionally display a lamentable disregard for what is right and proper. points of view were destined to crowd upon him that day--for the most part entirely unsympathetic points of view. he found mrs. bunting in the company of a boldly trimmed bonnet in the hall, waiting, it became clear, to intercept him. as he descended, in a state of extreme preoccupation, the boldly trimmed bonnet revealed beneath it a white-faced, resolute person in a duster and sensible boots. this stranger, mrs. bunting made apparent, was lady poynting mallow, one of the more representative of the chatteris aunts. her ladyship made a few enquiries about adeline with an eye that took melville's measure, and then, after agreeing to a number of the suggestions mrs. bunting had to advance, proposed that he should escort her back to her hotel. he was much too exercised with adeline to discuss the proposal. "i walk," she said. "and we go along the lower road." he found himself walking. she remarked, as the bunting door closed behind them, that it was always a comfort to have to do with a man; and there was a silence for a space. i don't think at that time melville completely grasped the fact that he had a companion. but presently his meditations were disturbed by her voice. he started. "i beg your pardon," he said. "that bunting woman is a fool," repeated lady poynting mallow. there was a slight interval for consideration. "she's an old friend of mine," said melville. "quite possibly," said lady poynting mallow. the position seemed a little awkward to melville for a moment. he flicked a fragment of orange peel into the road. "i want to get to the bottom of all this," said lady poynting mallow. "who _is_ this other woman?" "what other woman?" "_tertium quid_," said lady poynting mallow, with a luminous incorrectness. "mermaid, i gather," said melville. "what's the objection to her?" "tail." "fin and all?" "complete." "you're sure of it?" "certain." "how do you know?" "i'm certain," repeated melville with a quite unusual testiness. the lady reflected. "well, there are worse things in the world than a fishy tail," she said at last. melville saw no necessity for a reply. "h'm," said lady poynting mallow, apparently by way of comment on his silence, and for a space they went on. "that glendower girl is a fool too," she added after a pause. my cousin opened his mouth and shut it again. how can one answer when ladies talk in this way? but if he did not answer, at any rate his preoccupation was gone. he was now acutely aware of the determined person at his side. "she has means?" she asked abruptly. "miss glendower?" "no. i know all about her. the other?" "the mermaid?" "yes, the mermaid. why not?" "oh, _she_--very considerable means. galleons. phoenician treasure ships, wrecked frigates, submarine reefs----" "well, that's all right. and now will you tell me, mr. melville, why shouldn't harry have her? what if she is a mermaid? it's no worse than an american silver mine, and not nearly so raw and ill-bred." "in the first place there's his engagement----" "oh, _that_!" "and in the next there's the sea lady." "but i thought she----" "she's a mermaid." "it's no objection. so far as i can see, she'd make an excellent wife for him. and, as a matter of fact, down here she'd be able to help him in just the right way. the member here--he'll be fighting--this sassoon man--makes a lot of capital out of deep-sea cables. couldn't be better. harry could dish him easily. that's all right. why shouldn't he have her?" she stuck her hands deeply into the pockets of her dust-coat, and a china-blue eye regarded melville from under the brim of the boldly trimmed bonnet. "you understand clearly she is a properly constituted mermaid with a real physical tail?" "well?" said lady poynting mallow. "apart from any question of miss glendower----" "that's understood." "i think that such a marriage would be impossible." "why?" my cousin played round the question. "she's an immortal, for example, with a past." "simply makes her more interesting." melville tried to enter into her point of view. "you think," he said, "she would go to london for him, and marry at st. george's, hanover square, and pay for a mansion in park lane and visit just anywhere he liked?" "that's precisely what she would do. just now, with a court that is waking up----" "it's precisely what she won't do," said melville. "but any woman would do it who had the chance." "she's a mermaid." "she's a fool," said lady poynting mallow. "she doesn't even mean to marry him; it doesn't enter into her code." "the hussy! what does she mean?" my cousin made a gesture seaward. "that!" he said. "she's a mermaid." "what?" "out there." "where?" "there!" lady poynting mallow scanned the sea as if it were some curious new object. "it's an amphibious outlook for the family," she said after reflection. "but even then--if she doesn't care for society and it makes harry happy--and perhaps after they are tired of--rusticating----" "i don't think you fully realise that she is a mermaid," said melville; "and chatteris, you know, breathes air." "that _is_ a difficulty," admitted lady poynting mallow, and studied the sunlit offing for a space. "i don't see why it shouldn't be managed for all that," she considered after a pause. "it can't be," said melville with arid emphasis. "she cares for him?" "she's come to fetch him." "if she wants him badly he might make terms. in these affairs it's always one or other has to do the buying. she'd have to _marry_--anyhow." my cousin regarded her impenetrably satisfied face. "he could have a yacht and a diving bell," she suggested; "if she wanted him to visit her people." "they are pagan demigods, i believe, and live in some mythological way in the mediterranean." "dear harry's a pagan himself--so that doesn't matter, and as for being mythological--all good families are. he could even wear a diving dress if one could be found to suit him." "i don't think that anything of the sort is possible for a moment." "simply because you've never been a woman in love," said lady poynting mallow with an air of vast experience. she continued the conversation. "if it's sea water she wants it would be quite easy to fit up a tank wherever they lived, and she could easily have a bath chair like a sitz bath on wheels.... really, mr. milvain----" "melville." "mr. melville, i don't see where your 'impossible' comes in." "have you seen the lady?" "do you think i've been in folkestone two days doing nothing?" "you don't mean you've called on her?" "dear, no! it's harry's place to settle that. but i've seen her in her bath chair on the leas, and i'm certain i've never seen any one who looked so worthy of dear harry. _never!_" "well, well," said melville. "apart from any other considerations, you know, there's miss glendower." "i've never regarded her as a suitable wife for harry." "possibly not. still--she exists." "so many people do," said lady poynting mallow. she evidently regarded that branch of the subject as dismissed. they pursued their way in silence. "what i wanted to ask you, mr. milvain----" "melville." "mr. melville, is just precisely where you come into this business?" "i'm a friend of miss glendower." "who wants him back." "frankly--yes." "isn't she devoted to him?" "i presume as she's engaged----" "she ought to be devoted to him--yes. well, why can't she see that she ought to release him for his own good?" "she doesn't see it's for his good. nor do i." "simply an old-fashioned prejudice because the woman's got a tail. those old frumps at wampach's are quite of your opinion." melville shrugged his shoulders. "and so i suppose you're going to bully and threaten on account of miss glendower.... you'll do no good." "may i ask what you are going to do?" "what a good aunt always does." "and that?" "let him do what he likes." "suppose he wants to drown himself?" "my dear mr. milvain, harry isn't a fool." "i've told you she's a mermaid." "ten times." a constrained silence fell between them. it became apparent they were near the folkestone lift. "you'll do no good," said lady poynting mallow. melville's escort concluded at the lift station. there the lady turned upon him. "i'm greatly obliged to you for coming, mr. milvain," she said; "and very glad to hear your views of this matter. it's a peculiar business, but i hope we're sensible people. you think over what i have said. as a friend of harry's. you _are_ a friend of harry's?" "we've known each other some years." "i feel sure you will come round to my point of view sooner or later. it is so obviously the best thing for him." "there's miss glendower." "if miss glendower is a womanly woman, she will be ready to make any sacrifice for his good." and with that they parted. in the course of another minute melville found himself on the side of the road opposite the lift station, regarding the ascending car. the boldly trimmed bonnet, vivid, erect, assertive, went gliding upward, a perfect embodiment of sound common sense. his mind was lapsing once again into disorder; he was stunned, as it were, by the vigour of her ladyship's view. could any one not absolutely right be quite so clear and emphatic? and if so, what became of all that oppression of foreboding, that sinister promise of an escape, that whisper of "other dreams," that had dominated his mind only a short half-hour before? he turned his face back to sandgate, his mind a theatre of warring doubts. quite vividly he could see the sea lady as lady poynting mallow saw her, as something pink and solid and smart and wealthy, and, indeed, quite abominably vulgar, and yet quite as vividly he recalled her as she had talked to him in the garden, her face full of shadows, her eyes of deep mystery, and the whisper that made all the world about him no more than a flimsy, thin curtain before vague and wonderful, and hitherto, quite unsuspected things. v chatteris was leaning against the railings. he started violently at melville's hand upon his shoulder. they made awkward greetings. "the fact is," said melville, "i--i have been asked to talk to you." "don't apologise," said chatteris. "i'm glad to have it out with some one." there was a brief silence. they stood side by side--looking down upon the harbour. behind, the evening band played remotely and the black little promenaders went to and fro under the tall electric lights. i think chatteris decided to be very self-possessed at first--a man of the world. "it's a gorgeous night," he said. "glorious," said melville, playing up to the key set. he clicked his cutter on a cigar. "there was something you wanted me to tell you----" "i know all that," said chatteris with the shoulder towards melville becoming obtrusive. "i know everything." "you have seen and talked to her?" "several times." there was perhaps a minute's pause. "what are you going to do?" asked melville. chatteris made no answer and melville did not repeat his question. presently chatteris turned about. "let's walk," he said, and they paced westward, side by side. he made a little speech. "i'm sorry to give everybody all this trouble," he said with an air of having prepared his sentences; "i suppose there is no question that i have behaved like an ass. i am profoundly sorry. largely it is my own fault. but you know--so far as the overt kick-up goes--there is a certain amount of blame attaches to our outspoken friend mrs. bunting." "i'm afraid there is," melville admitted. "you know there are times when one is under the necessity of having moods. it doesn't help them to drag them into general discussion." "the mischief's done." "you know adeline seems to have objected to the presence of--this sea lady at a very early stage. mrs. bunting overruled her. afterwards when there was trouble she seems to have tried to make up for it." "i didn't know miss glendower had objected." "she did. she seems to have seen--ahead." chatteris reflected. "of course all that doesn't excuse me in the least. but it's a sort of excuse for _your_ being dragged into this bother." he said something less distinctly about a "stupid bother" and "private affairs." they found themselves drawing near the band and already on the outskirts of its territory of votaries. its cheerful rhythms became insistent. the canopy of the stand was a focus of bright light, music-stands and instruments sent out beams of reflected brilliance, and a luminous red conductor in the midst of the lantern guided the ratatoo-tat, ratatoo-tat of a popular air. voices, detached fragments of conversation, came to our talkers and mingled impertinently with their thoughts. "i wouldn't 'ave no truck with 'im, not after that," said a young person to her friend. "let's get out of this," said chatteris abruptly. they turned aside from the high path of the leas to the head of some steps that led down the declivity. in a few moments it was as if those imposing fronts of stucco, those many-windowed hotels, the electric lights on the tall masts, the band-stand and miscellaneous holiday british public, had never existed. it is one of folkestone's best effects, that black quietness under the very feet of a crowd. they no longer heard the band even, only a remote suggestion of music filtered to them over the brow. the black-treed slopes fell from them to the surf below, and out at sea were the lights of many ships. away to the westward like a swarm of fire-flies hung the lights of hythe. the two men sat down on a vacant seat in the dimness. for a time neither spoke. chatteris impressed melville with an air of being on the defensive. he murmured in a meditative undertone, "i wouldn't 'ave no truck with 'im not after that." "i will admit by every standard," he said aloud, "that i have been flappy and feeble and wrong. very. in these things there is a prescribed and definite course. to hesitate, to have two points of view, is condemned by all right-thinking people.... still--one has the two points of view.... you have come up from sandgate?" "yes." "did you see miss glendower?" "yes." "talked to her?... i suppose-- what do you think of her?" his cigar glowed into an expectant brightness while melville hesitated at his answer, and showed his eyes thoughtful upon melville's face. "i've never thought her--" melville sought more diplomatic phrasing. "i've never found her exceptionally attractive before. handsome, you know, but not--winning. but this time, she seemed ... rather splendid." "she is," said chatteris, "she is." he sat forward and began flicking imaginary ash from the end of his cigar. "she _is_ splendid," he admitted. "you--only begin to imagine. you don't, my dear man, know that girl. she is not--quite--in your line. she is, i assure you, the straightest and cleanest and clearest human being i have ever met. she believes so firmly, she does right so simply, there is a sort of queenly benevolence, a sort of integrity of benevolence----" he left the sentence unfinished, as if unfinished it completely expressed his thought. "she wants you to go back to her," said melville bluntly. "i know," said chatteris and flicked again at that ghostly ash. "she has written that.... that's just where her complete magnificence comes in. she doesn't fence and fool about, as the she-women do. she doesn't squawk and say, 'you've insulted me and everything's at an end;' and she doesn't squawk and say, 'for god's sake come back to me!' _she_ doesn't say, she 'won't 'ave no truck with me not after this.' she writes--straight. i don't believe, melville, i half knew her until all this business came up. she comes out.... before that it was, as you said, and i quite perceive--i perceived all along--a little too--statistical." he became meditative, and his cigar glow waned and presently vanished altogether. "you are going back?" "by jove! _yes._" melville stirred slightly and then they both sat rigidly quiet for a space. then abruptly chatteris flung away his extinct cigar. he seemed to fling many other things away with that dim gesture. "of course," he said, "i shall go back. "it is not my fault," he insisted, "that this trouble, this separation, has ever arisen. i was moody, i was preoccupied, i know--things had got into my head. but if i'd been left alone.... "i have been forced into this position," he summarised. "you understand," said melville, "that--though i think matters are indefined and distressing just now--i don't attach blame--anywhere." "you're open-minded," said chatteris. "that's just your way. and i can imagine how all this upset and discomfort distresses you. you're awfully good to keep so open-minded and not to consider me an utter outcast, an ill-regulated disturber of the order of the world." "it's a distressing state of affairs," said melville. "but perhaps i understand the forces pulling at you--better than you imagine." "they're very simple, i suppose." "very." "and yet----?" "well?" he seemed to hesitate at a dangerous topic. "the other," he said. melville's silence bade him go on. he plunged from his prepared attitude. "what is it? why should--this being--come into my life, as she has done, if it _is_ so simple? what is there about her, or me, that has pulled me so astray? she has, you know. here we are at sixes and sevens! it's not the situation, it's the mental conflict. why am i pulled about? she has got into my imagination. how? i haven't the remotest idea." "she's beautiful," meditated melville. "she's beautiful certainly. but so is miss glendower." "she's very beautiful. i'm not blind, chatteris. she's beautiful in a different way." "yes, but that's only the name for the effect. _why_ is she very beautiful?" melville shrugged his shoulders. "she's not beautiful to every one." "you mean?" "bunting keeps calm." "oh--_he_----!" "and other people don't seem to see it--as i do." "some people seem to see no beauty at all, as we do. with emotion, that is." "why do we?" "we see--finer." "do we? is it finer? why should it be finer to see beauty where it is fatal to us to see it? why? unless we are to believe there is no reason in things, why should this--impossibility, be beautiful to any one anyhow? put it as a matter of reason, melville. why should _her_ smile be so sweet to me, why should _her_ voice move me! why her's and not adeline's? adeline has straight eyes and clear eyes and fine eyes, and all the difference there can be, what is it? an infinitesimal curving of the lid, an infinitesimal difference in the lashes--and it shatters everything--in this way. who could measure the difference, who could tell the quality that makes me _swim_ in the sound of her voice.... the difference? after all, it's a visible thing, it's a material thing! it's in my eyes. by jove!" he laughed abruptly. "imagine old helmholtz trying to gauge it with a battery of resonators, or spencer in the light of evolution and the environment explaining it away!" "these things are beyond measurement," said melville. "not if you measure them by their effect," said chatteris. "and anyhow, why do they take us? that is the question i can't get away from just now." my cousin meditated, no doubt with his hands deep in his trousers' pockets. "it is illusion," he said. "it is a sort of glamour. after all, look at it squarely. what is she? what can she give you? she promises you vague somethings.... she is a snare, she is deception. she is the beautiful mask of death." "yes," said chatteris. "i know." and then again, "i know. "there is nothing for me to learn about that," he said. "but why--why should the mask of death be beautiful? after all-- we get our duty by good hard reasoning. why should reason and justice carry everything? perhaps after all there are things beyond our reason, perhaps after all desire has a claim on us?" he stopped interrogatively and melville was profound. "i think," said my cousin at last, "desire _has_ a claim on us. beauty, at any rate---- "i mean," he explained, "we are human beings. we are matter with minds growing out of ourselves. we reach downward into the beautiful wonderland of matter, and upward to something--" he stopped, from sheer dissatisfaction with the image. "in another direction, anyhow," he tried feebly. he jumped at something that was not quite his meaning. "man is a sort of half-way house--he must compromise." "as you do?" "well. yes. i try to strike a balance." "a few old engravings--good, i suppose--a little luxury in furniture and flowers, a few things that come within your means. art--in moderation, and a few kindly acts of the pleasanter sort, a certain respect for truth; duty--also in moderation. eh? it's just that even balance that i cannot contrive. i cannot sit down to the oatmeal of this daily life and wash it down with a temperate draught of beauty and water. art!... i suppose i'm voracious, i'm one of the unfit--for the civilised stage. i've sat down once, i've sat down twice, to perfectly sane, secure, and reasonable things.... it's not my way." he repeated, "it's not my way." melville, i think, said nothing to that. he was distracted from the immediate topic by the discussion of his own way of living. he was lost in egotistical comparisons. no doubt he was on the verge of saying, as most of us would have been under the circumstances: "i don't think you quite understand my position." "but, after all, what is the good of talking in this way?" exclaimed chatteris abruptly. "i am simply trying to elevate the whole business by dragging in these wider questions. it's justification, when i didn't mean to justify. i have to choose between life with adeline and this woman out of the sea." "who is death." "how do i know she is death?" "but you said you had made your choice!" "i have." he seemed to recollect. "i have," he corroborated. "i told you. i am going back to see miss glendower to-morrow. "yes." he recalled further portions of what i believe was some prepared and ready-phrased decision--some decision from which the conversation had drifted. "the need of my life is discipline, the habit of persistence, of ignoring side issues and wandering thoughts. discipline!" "and work." "work, if you like to put it so; it's the same thing. the trouble so far has been i haven't worked hard enough. i've stopped to speak to the woman by the wayside. i've paltered with compromise, and the other thing has caught me.... i've got to renounce it, that is all." "it isn't that your work is contemptible." "by jove! no. it's--arduous. it has its dusty moments. there are places to climb that are not only steep but muddy----" "the world wants leaders. it gives a man of your class a great deal. leisure. honour. training and high traditions----" "and it expects something back. i know. i am wrong--have been wrong anyhow. this dream has taken me wonderfully. and i must renounce it. after all it is not so much--to renounce a dream. it's no more than deciding to live. there are big things in the world for men to do." melville produced an elaborate conceit. "if there is no venus anadyomene," he said, "there is michael and his sword." "the stern angel in armour! but then he had a good palpable dragon to slash and not his own desires. and our way nowadays is to do a deal with the dragons somehow, raise the minimum wage and get a better housing for the working classes by hook or by crook." melville does not think that was a fair treatment of his suggestion. "no," said chatteris, "i've no doubt about the choice. i'm going to fall in--with the species; i'm going to take my place in the ranks in that great battle for the future which is the meaning of life. i want a moral cold bath and i mean to take one. this lax dalliance with dreams and desires must end. i will make a time table for my hours and a rule for my life, i will entangle my honour in controversies, i will give myself to service, as a man should do. clean-handed work, struggle, and performance." "and there is miss glendower, you know." "rather!" said chatteris, with a faint touch of insincerity. "tall and straight-eyed and capable. by jove! if there's to be no venus anadyomene, at any rate there will be a pallas athene. it is she who plays the reconciler." and then he said these words: "it won't be so bad, you know." melville restrained a movement of impatience, he tells me, at that. then chatteris, he says, broke into a sort of speech. "the case is tried," he said, "the judgment has been given. i am that i am. i've been through it all and worked it out. i am a man and i must go a man's way. there is desire, the light and guide of the world, a beacon on a headland blazing out. let it burn! let it burn! the road runs near it and by it--and past.... i've made my choice. i've got to be a man, i've got to live a man and die a man and carry the burden of my class and time. there it is! i've had the dream, but you see i keep hold of reason. here, with the flame burning, i renounce it. i make my choice.... renunciation! always--renunciation! that is life for all of us. we have desires, only to deny them, senses that we all must starve. we can live only as a part of ourselves. why should _i_ be exempt. for me, she is evil. for me she is death.... only why have i seen her face? why have i heard her voice?..." vi they walked out of the shadows and up a long sloping path until sandgate, as a little line of lights, came into view below. presently they came out upon the brow and walked together (the band playing with a remote and sweetening indistinctness far away behind them) towards the cliff at the end. they stood for a little while in silence looking down. melville made a guess at his companion's thoughts. "why not come down to-night?" he asked. "on a night like this!" chatteris turned about suddenly and regarded the moonlight and the sea. he stood quite still for a space, and that cold white radiance gave an illusory strength and decision to his face. "no," he said at last, and the word was almost a sigh. "go down to the girl below there. end the thing. she will be there, thinking of you----" "no," said chatteris, "no." "it's not ten yet," melville tried again. chatteris thought. "no," he answered, "not to-night. to-morrow, in the light of everyday. "i want a good, gray, honest day," he said, "with a south-west wind.... these still, soft nights! how can you expect me to do anything of that sort to-night?" and then he murmured as if he found the word a satisfying word to repeat, "renunciation." "by jove!" he said with the most astonishing transition, "but this is a night out of fairyland! look at the lights of those windows below there and then up--up into this enormous blue of sky. and there, as if it were fainting with moonlight--shines one star." chapter the eighth moonshine triumphant i just precisely what happened after that has been the most impossible thing to disinter. i have given all the things that melville remembered were said, i have linked them into a conversation and checked them by my cousin's afterthoughts, and finally i have read the whole thing over to him. it is of course no verbatim rendering, but it is, he says, closely after the manner of their talk, the gist was that, and things of that sort were said. and when he left chatteris, he fully believed that the final and conclusive thing was said. and then he says it came into his head that, apart from and outside this settlement, there still remained a tangible reality, capable of action, the sea lady. what was she going to do? the thought toppled him back into a web of perplexities again. it carried him back into a state of inconclusive interrogation past lummidge's hotel. the two men had gone back to the métropole and had parted with a firm handclasp outside the glare of the big doorway. chatteris went straight in, melville fancies, but he is not sure. i understand melville had some private thinking to do on his own account, and i conceive him walking away in a state of profound preoccupation. afterwards the fact that the sea lady was not to be abolished by renunciations, cropped up in his mind, and he passed back along the leas, as i have said. his inconclusive interrogations elicited at the utmost that lummidge's private and family hotel is singularly like any other hotel of its class. its windows tell no secrets. and there melville's narrative ends. with that my circumstantial record necessarily comes to an end also. there are sources, of course, and glimpses. parker refuses, unhappily--as i explained. the chief of these sources are, first, gooch, the valet employed by chatteris; and, secondly, the hall-porter of lummidge's private and family hotel. the valet's evidence is precise, but has an air of being irrelevant. he witnesses that at a quarter past eleven he went up to ask chatteris if there was anything more to do that night, and found him seated in an arm-chair before the open window, with his chin upon his hands, staring at nothing--which, indeed, as schopenhauer observes in his crowning passage, is the whole of human life. "more to do?" said chatteris. "yessir," said the valet. "nothing," said chatteris, "absolutely nothing." and the valet, finding this answer quite satisfactory, wished him goodnight and departed. probably chatteris remained in this attitude for a considerable time--half an hour, perhaps, or more. slowly, it would seem, his mood underwent a change. at some definite moment it must have been that his lethargic meditation gave way to a strange activity, to a sort of hysterical reaction against all his resolves and renunciations. his first action seems to me grotesque--and grotesquely pathetic. he went into his dressing-room, and in the morning "his clo'es," said the valet, "was shied about as though 'e'd lost a ticket." this poor worshipper of beauty and the dream shaved! he shaved and washed and he brushed his hair, and, his valet testifies, one of the brushes got "shied" behind the bed. even this throwing about of brushes seems to me to have done little or nothing to palliate his poor human preoccupation with the toilette. he changed his gray flannels--which suited him very well--for his white ones, which suited him extremely. he must deliberately and conscientiously have made himself quite "lovely," as a schoolgirl would have put it. and having capped his great "renunciation" by these proceedings, he seems to have gone straight to lummidge's private and family hotel and demanded to see the sea lady. she had retired. this came from parker, and was delivered in a chilling manner by the hall-porter. chatteris swore at the hall-porter. "tell her i'm here," he said. "she's retired," said the hall-porter with official severity. "will you tell her i'm here?" said chatteris, suddenly white. "what name, sir?" said the hall-porter, in order, as he explains, "to avoid a frackass." "chatteris. tell her i must see her now. do you hear, _now_?" the hall-porter went to parker, and came half-way back. he wished to goodness he was not a hall-porter. the manager had gone out--it was a stagnant hour. he decided to try parker again; he raised his voice. the sea lady called to parker from the inner room. there was an interval of tension. i gather that the sea lady put on a loose wrap, and the faithful parker either carried her or sufficiently helped her from her bedroom to the couch in the little sitting-room. in the meanwhile the hall-porter hovered on the stairs, praying for the manager--prayers that went unanswered--and chatteris fumed below. then we have a glimpse of the sea lady. "i see her just in the crack of the door," said the porter, "as that maid of hers opened it. she was raised up on her hands, and turned so towards the door. looking exactly like this----" and the hall-porter, who has an irish type of face, a short nose, long upper lip, and all the rest of it, and who has also neglected his dentist, projected his face suddenly, opened his eyes very wide, and slowly curved his mouth into a fixed smile, and so remained until he judged the effect on me was complete. parker, a little flushed, but resolutely flattening everything to the quality of the commonplace, emerged upon him suddenly. miss waters could see mr. chatteris for a few minutes. she was emphatic with the "miss waters," the more emphatic for all the insurgent stress of the goddess, protestingly emphatic. and chatteris went up, white and resolved, to that smiling expectant presence. no one witnessed their meeting but parker--assuredly parker could not resist seeing that, but parker is silent--parker preserves a silence that rubies could not break. all i know, is this much from the porter: "when i said she was up there and would see him," he says, "the way he rooshed up was outrageous. this is a private family hotel. of course one sees things at times even here, but---- "i couldn't find the manager to tell 'im," said the hall-porter. "and what was _i_ authorised to do? "for a bit they talked with the door open, and then it was shut. that maid of hers did it--i lay." i asked an ignoble question. "couldn't ketch a word," said the hall-porter. "dropped to whispers--instanter." ii and afterwards-- it was within ten minutes of one that parker, conferring an amount of decorum on the request beyond the power of any other living being, descended to demand--of all conceivable things--the bath chair! "i got it," said the hall-porter with inimitable profundity. and then, having let me realise the fulness of that, he said: "they never used it!" "no?" "no! he carried her down in his arms." "and out?" "and out!" he was difficult to follow in his description of the sea lady. she wore her wrap, it seems, and she was "like a statue"--whatever he may have meant by that. certainly not that she was impassive. "only," said the porter, "she was alive. one arm was bare, i know, and her hair was down, a tossing mass of gold. "he looked, you know, like a man who's screwed himself up. "she had one hand holding his hair--yes, holding his hair, with her fingers in among it.... "and when she see my face she threw her head back laughing at me. "as much as to say, '_got_ 'im!' "laughed at me, she did. bubblin' over." i stood for a moment conceiving this extraordinary picture. then a question occurred to me. "did _he_ laugh?" i asked. "gord bless you, sir, laugh? _no!_" iii the definite story ends in the warm light outside lummidge's private and family hotel. one sees that bright solitude of the leas stretching white and blank--deserted as only a seaside front in the small hours can be deserted--and all its electric light ablaze. and then the dark line of the edge where the cliff drops down to the undercliff and sea. and beyond, moonlit, the channel and its incessant ships. outside the front of the hotel, which is one of a great array of pallid white facades, stands this little black figure of a hall-porter, staring stupidly into the warm and luminous mystery of the night that has swallowed sea lady and chatteris together. and he is the sole living thing in the picture. there is a little shelter set in the brow of the leas, wherein, during the winter season, a string band plays. close by there are steps that go down precipitously to the lower road below. down these it must have been they went together, hastening downward out of this life of ours to unknown and inconceivable things. so it is i seem to see them, and surely though he was not in a laughing mood, there was now no doubt nor resignation in his face. assuredly now he had found himself, for a time at least he was sure of himself, and that at least cannot be misery, though it lead straight through a few swift strides to death. they went down through the soft moonlight, tall and white and splendid, interlocked, with his arms about her, his brow to her white shoulder and her hair about his face. and she, i suppose, smiled above him and caressed him and whispered to him. for a moment they must have glowed under the warm light of the lamp that is half-way down the steps there, and then the shadows closed about them. he must have crossed the road with her, through the laced moonlight of the tree shadows, and through the shrubs and bushes of the undercliff, into the shadeless moon glare of the beach. there was no one to see that last descent, to tell whether for a moment he looked back before he waded into the phosphorescence, and for a little swam with her, and presently swam no longer, and so was no more to be seen by any one in this gray world of men. did he look back, i wonder? they swam together for a little while, the man and the sea goddess who had come for him, with the sky above them and the water about them all, warmly filled with the moonlight and set with shining stars. it was no time for him to think of truth, nor of the honest duties he had left behind him, as they swam together into the unknown. and of the end i can only guess and dream. did there come a sudden horror upon him at the last, a sudden perception of infinite error, and was he drawn down, swiftly and terribly, a bubbling repentance, into those unknown deeps? or was she tender and wonderful to the last, and did she wrap her arms about him and draw him down, down until the soft waters closed above him into a gentle ecstasy of death? into these things we cannot pry or follow, and on the margin of the softly breathing water the story of chatteris must end. for the tailpiece to that, let us put that policeman who in the small hours before dawn came upon the wrap the sea lady had been wearing just as the tide overtook it. it was not the sort of garment low people sometimes throw away--it was a soft and costly wrap. i seem to see him perplexed and dubious, wrap in charge over his arm and lantern in hand, scanning first the white beach and black bushes behind him and then staring out to sea. it was the inexplicable abandonment of a thoroughly comfortable and desirable thing. "what were people up to?" one figures him asking, this simple citizen of a plain and observed world. "what do such things mean? "to throw away such an excellent wrap...!" in all the southward heaven there were only a planet and the sinking moon, and from his feet a path of quivering light must have started and run up to the extreme dark edge before him of the sky. ever and again the darkness east and west of that glory would be lit by a momentary gleam of phosphorescence; and far out the lights of ships were shining bright and yellow. across its shimmer a black fishing smack was gliding out of mystery into mystery. dungeness shone from the west a pin-point of red light, and in the east the tireless glare of that great beacon on gris-nez wheeled athwart the sky and vanished and came again. i picture the interrogation of his lantern going out for a little way, a stain of faint pink curiosity upon the mysterious vast serenity of night. the end transcriber's note: a few obvious printer's errors have been silently corrected. otherwise spelling, hyphenation, interpunction and grammar have been preserved as in the original. the plattner story and others by the same author the stolen bacillus the wonderful visit the wheels of chance the island of doctor moreau the time machine the plattner story and others by h. g. wells methuen & co. essex street, w.c. london to my father contents page the plattner story the argonauts of the air the story of the late mr. elvesham in the abyss the apple under the knife the sea-raiders pollock and the porroh man the red room the cone the purple pileus the jilting of jane in the modern vein a catastrophe the lost inheritance the sad story of a dramatic critic a slip under the microscope the plattner story whether the story of gottfried plattner is to be credited or not, is a pretty question in the value of evidence. on the one hand, we have seven witnesses--to be perfectly exact, we have six and a half pairs of eyes, and one undeniable fact; and on the other we have--what is it?--prejudice, common sense, the inertia of opinion. never were there seven more honest-seeming witnesses; never was there a more undeniable fact than the inversion of gottfried plattner's anatomical structure, and--never was there a more preposterous story than the one they have to tell! the most preposterous part of the story is the worthy gottfried's contribution (for i count him as one of the seven). heaven forbid that i should be led into giving countenance to superstition by a passion for impartiality, and so come to share the fate of eusapia's patrons! frankly, i believe there is something crooked about this business of gottfried plattner; but what that crooked factor is, i will admit as frankly, i do not know. i have been surprised at the credit accorded to the story in the most unexpected and authoritative quarters. the fairest way to the reader, however, will be for me to tell it without further comment. gottfried plattner is, in spite of his name, a free-born englishman. his father was an alsatian who came to england in the sixties, married a respectable english girl of unexceptionable antecedents, and died, after a wholesome and uneventful life (devoted, i understand, chiefly to the laying of parquet flooring), in . gottfried's age is seven-and-twenty. he is, by virtue of his heritage of three languages, modern languages master in a small private school in the south of england. to the casual observer he is singularly like any other modern languages master in any other small private school. his costume is neither very costly nor very fashionable, but, on the other hand, it is not markedly cheap or shabby; his complexion, like his height and his bearing, is inconspicuous. you would notice, perhaps, that, like the majority of people, his face was not absolutely symmetrical, his right eye a little larger than the left, and his jaw a trifle heavier on the right side. if you, as an ordinary careless person, were to bare his chest and feel his heart beating, you would probably find it quite like the heart of anyone else. but here you and the trained observer would part company. if you found his heart quite ordinary, the trained observer would find it quite otherwise. and once the thing was pointed out to you, you too would perceive the peculiarity easily enough. it is that gottfried's heart beats on the right side of his body. now, that is not the only singularity of gottfried's structure, although it is the only one that would appeal to the untrained mind. careful sounding of gottfried's internal arrangements, by a well-known surgeon, seems to point to the fact that all the other unsymmetrical parts of his body are similarly misplaced. the right lobe of his liver is on the left side, the left on his right; while his lungs, too, are similarly contraposed. what is still more singular, unless gottfried is a consummate actor, we must believe that his right hand has recently become his left. since the occurrences we are about to consider (as impartially as possible), he has found the utmost difficulty in writing, except from right to left across the paper with his left hand. he cannot throw with his right hand, he is perplexed at meal times between knife and fork, and his ideas of the rule of the road--he is a cyclist--are still a dangerous confusion. and there is not a scrap of evidence to show that before these occurrences gottfried was at all left-handed. there is yet another wonderful fact in this preposterous business. gottfried produces three photographs of himself. you have him at the age of five or six, thrusting fat legs at you from under a plaid frock, and scowling. in that photograph his left eye is a little larger than his right, and his jaw is a trifle heavier on the left side. this is the reverse of his present living conditions. the photograph of gottfried at fourteen seems to contradict these facts, but that is because it is one of those cheap "gem" photographs that were then in vogue, taken direct upon metal, and therefore reversing things just as a looking-glass would. the third photograph represents him at one-and-twenty, and confirms the record of the others. there seems here evidence of the strongest confirmatory character that gottfried has exchanged his left side for his right. yet how a human being can be so changed, short of a fantastic and pointless miracle, it is exceedingly hard to suggest. in one way, of course, these facts might be explicable on the supposition that plattner has undertaken an elaborate mystification, on the strength of his heart's displacement. photographs may be fudged, and left-handedness imitated. but the character of the man does not lend itself to any such theory. he is quiet, practical, unobtrusive, and thoroughly sane, from the nordau standpoint. he likes beer, and smokes moderately, takes walking exercise daily, and has a healthily high estimate of the value of his teaching. he has a good but untrained tenor voice, and takes a pleasure in singing airs of a popular and cheerful character. he is fond, but not morbidly fond, of reading,--chiefly fiction pervaded with a vaguely pious optimism,--sleeps well, and rarely dreams. he is, in fact, the very last person to evolve a fantastic fable. indeed, so far from forcing this story upon the world, he has been singularly reticent on the matter. he meets inquirers with a certain engaging--bashfulness is almost the word, that disarms the most suspicious. he seems genuinely ashamed that anything so unusual has occurred to him. it is to be regretted that plattner's aversion to the idea of post-mortem dissection may postpone, perhaps for ever, the positive proof that his entire body has had its left and right sides transposed. upon that fact mainly the credibility of his story hangs. there is no way of taking a man and moving him about _in space_, as ordinary people understand space, that will result in our changing his sides. whatever you do, his right is still his right, his left his left. you can do that with a perfectly thin and flat thing, of course. if you were to cut a figure out of paper, any figure with a right and left side, you could change its sides simply by lifting it up and turning it over. but with a solid it is different. mathematical theorists tell us that the only way in which the right and left sides of a solid body can be changed is by taking that body clean out of space as we know it,--taking it out of ordinary existence, that is, and turning it somewhere outside space. this is a little abstruse, no doubt, but anyone with any knowledge of mathematical theory will assure the reader of its truth. to put the thing in technical language, the curious inversion of plattner's right and left sides is proof that he has moved out of our space into what is called the fourth dimension, and that he has returned again to our world. unless we choose to consider ourselves the victims of an elaborate and motiveless fabrication, we are almost bound to believe that this has occurred. so much for the tangible facts. we come now to the account of the phenomena that attended his temporary disappearance from the world. it appears that in the sussexville proprietary school, plattner not only discharged the duties of modern languages master, but also taught chemistry, commercial geography, book-keeping, shorthand, drawing, and any other additional subject to which the changing fancies of the boys' parents might direct attention. he knew little or nothing of these various subjects, but in secondary as distinguished from board or elementary schools, knowledge in the teacher is, very properly, by no means so necessary as high moral character and gentlemanly tone. in chemistry he was particularly deficient, knowing, he says, nothing beyond the three gases (whatever the three gases may be). as, however, his pupils began by knowing nothing, and derived all their information from him, this caused him (or anyone) but little inconvenience for several terms. then a little boy named whibble joined the school, who had been educated (it seems) by some mischievous relative into an inquiring habit of mind. this little boy followed plattner's lessons with marked and sustained interest, and in order to exhibit his zeal on the subject, brought, at various times, substances for plattner to analyse. plattner, flattered by this evidence of his power of awakening interest, and trusting to the boy's ignorance, analysed these, and even made general statements as to their composition. indeed, he was so far stimulated by his pupil as to obtain a work upon analytical chemistry, and study it during his supervision of the evening's preparation. he was surprised to find chemistry quite an interesting subject. so far the story is absolutely commonplace. but now the greenish powder comes upon the scene. the source of that greenish powder seems, unfortunately, lost. master whibble tells a tortuous story of finding it done up in a packet in a disused limekiln near the downs. it would have been an excellent thing for plattner, and possibly for master whibble's family, if a match could have been applied to that powder there and then. the young gentleman certainly did not bring it to school in a packet, but in a common eight-ounce graduated medicine bottle, plugged with masticated newspaper. he gave it to plattner at the end of the afternoon school. four boys had been detained after school prayers in order to complete some neglected tasks, and plattner was supervising these in the small classroom in which the chemical teaching was conducted. the appliances for the practical teaching of chemistry in the sussexville proprietary school, as in most small schools in this country, are characterised by a severe simplicity. they are kept in a small cupboard standing in a recess, and having about the same capacity as a common travelling trunk. plattner, being bored with his passive superintendence, seems to have welcomed the intervention of whibble with his green powder as an agreeable diversion, and, unlocking this cupboard, proceeded at once with his analytical experiments. whibble sat, luckily for himself, at a safe distance, regarding him. the four malefactors, feigning a profound absorption in their work, watched him furtively with the keenest interest. for even within the limits of the three gases, plattner's practical chemistry was, i understand, temerarious. they are practically unanimous in their account of plattner's proceedings. he poured a little of the green powder into a test-tube, and tried the substance with water, hydrochloric acid, nitric acid, and sulphuric acid in succession. getting no result, he emptied out a little heap--nearly half the bottleful, in fact--upon a slate and tried a match. he held the medicine bottle in his left hand. the stuff began to smoke and melt, and then--exploded with deafening violence and a blinding flash. the five boys, seeing the flash and being prepared for catastrophes, ducked below their desks, and were none of them seriously hurt. the window was blown out into the playground, and the blackboard on its easel was upset. the slate was smashed to atoms. some plaster fell from the ceiling. no other damage was done to the school edifice or appliances, and the boys at first, seeing nothing of plattner, fancied he was knocked down and lying out of their sight below the desks. they jumped out of their places to go to his assistance, and were amazed to find the space empty. being still confused by the sudden violence of the report, they hurried to the open door, under the impression that he must have been hurt, and have rushed out of the room. but carson, the foremost, nearly collided in the doorway with the principal, mr. lidgett. mr. lidgett is a corpulent, excitable man with one eye. the boys describe him as stumbling into the room mouthing some of those tempered expletives irritable schoolmasters accustom themselves to use--lest worse befall. "wretched mumchancer!" he said. "where's mr. plattner?" the boys are agreed on the very words. ("wobbler," "snivelling puppy," and "mumchancer" are, it seems, among the ordinary small change of mr. lidgett's scholastic commerce.) where's mr. plattner? that was a question that was to be repeated many times in the next few days. it really seemed as though that frantic hyperbole, "blown to atoms," had for once realised itself. there was not a visible particle of plattner to be seen; not a drop of blood nor a stitch of clothing to be found. apparently he had been blown clean out of existence and left not a wrack behind. not so much as would cover a sixpenny piece, to quote a proverbial expression! the evidence of his absolute disappearance, as a consequence of that explosion, is indubitable. it is not necessary to enlarge here upon the commotion excited in the sussexville proprietary school, and in sussexville and elsewhere, by this event. it is quite possible, indeed, that some of the readers of these pages may recall the hearing of some remote and dying version of that excitement during the last summer holidays. lidgett, it would seem, did everything in his power to suppress and minimise the story. he instituted a penalty of twenty-five lines for any mention of plattner's name among the boys, and stated in the schoolroom that he was clearly aware of his assistant's whereabouts. he was afraid, he explains, that the possibility of an explosion happening, in spite of the elaborate precautions taken to minimise the practical teaching of chemistry, might injure the reputation of the school; and so might any mysterious quality in plattner's departure. indeed, he did everything in his power to make the occurrence seem as ordinary as possible. in particular, he cross-examined the five eye-witnesses of the occurrence so searchingly that they began to doubt the plain evidence of their senses. but, in spite of these efforts, the tale, in a magnified and distorted state, made a nine days' wonder in the district, and several parents withdrew their sons on colourable pretexts. not the least remarkable point in the matter is the fact that a large number of people in the neighbourhood dreamed singularly vivid dreams of plattner during the period of excitement before his return, and that these dreams had a curious uniformity. in almost all of them plattner was seen, sometimes singly, sometimes in company, wandering about through a coruscating iridescence. in all cases his face was pale and distressed, and in some he gesticulated towards the dreamer. one or two of the boys, evidently under the influence of nightmare, fancied that plattner approached them with remarkable swiftness, and seemed to look closely into their very eyes. others fled with plattner from the pursuit of vague and extraordinary creatures of a globular shape. but all these fancies were forgotten in inquiries and speculations when, on the wednesday next but one after the monday of the explosion, plattner returned. the circumstances of his return were as singular as those of his departure. so far as mr. lidgett's somewhat choleric outline can be filled in from plattner's hesitating statements, it would appear that on wednesday evening, towards the hour of sunset, the former gentleman, having dismissed evening preparation, was engaged in his garden, picking and eating strawberries, a fruit of which he is inordinately fond. it is a large old-fashioned garden, secured from observation, fortunately, by a high and ivy-covered red-brick wall. just as he was stooping over a particularly prolific plant, there was a flash in the air and a heavy thud, and before he could look round, some heavy body struck him violently from behind. he was pitched forward, crushing the strawberries he held in his hand, and that so roughly, that his silk hat--mr. lidgett adheres to the older ideas of scholastic costume--was driven violently down upon his forehead, and almost over one eye. this heavy missile, which slid over him sideways and collapsed into a sitting posture among the strawberry plants, proved to be our long-lost mr. gottfried plattner, in an extremely dishevelled condition. he was collarless and hatless, his linen was dirty, and there was blood upon his hands. mr. lidgett was so indignant and surprised that he remained on all-fours, and with his hat jammed down on his eye, while he expostulated vehemently with plattner for his disrespectful and unaccountable conduct. this scarcely idyllic scene completes what i may call the exterior version of the plattner story--its exoteric aspect. it is quite unnecessary to enter here into all the details of his dismissal by mr. lidgett. such details, with the full names and dates and references, will be found in the larger report of these occurrences that was laid before the society for the investigation of abnormal phenomena. the singular transposition of plattner's right and left sides was scarcely observed for the first day or so, and then first in connection with his disposition to write from right to left across the blackboard. he concealed rather than ostended this curious confirmatory circumstance, as he considered it would unfavourably affect his prospects in a new situation. the displacement of his heart was discovered some months after, when he was having a tooth extracted under anæsthetics. he then, very unwillingly, allowed a cursory surgical examination to be made of himself, with a view to a brief account in the _journal of anatomy_. that exhausts the statement of the material facts; and we may now go on to consider plattner's account of the matter. but first let us clearly differentiate between the preceding portion of this story and what is to follow. all i have told thus far is established by such evidence as even a criminal lawyer would approve. every one of the witnesses is still alive; the reader, if he have the leisure, may hunt the lads out tomorrow, or even brave the terrors of the redoubtable lidgett, and cross-examine and trap and test to his heart's content; gottfried plattner, himself, and his twisted heart and his three photographs are producible. it may be taken as proved that he did disappear for nine days as the consequence of an explosion; that he returned almost as violently, under circumstances in their nature annoying to mr. lidgett, whatever the details of those circumstances may be; and that he returned inverted, just as a reflection returns from a mirror. from the last fact, as i have already stated, it follows almost inevitably that plattner, during those nine days, must have been in some state of existence altogether out of space. the evidence to these statements is, indeed, far stronger than that upon which most murderers are hanged. but for his own particular account of where he had been, with its confused explanations and well-nigh self-contradictory details, we have only mr. gottfried plattner's word. i do not wish to discredit that, but i must point out--what so many writers upon obscure psychic phenomena fail to do--that we are passing here from the practically undeniable to that kind of matter which any reasonable man is entitled to believe or reject as he thinks proper. the previous statements render it plausible; its discordance with common experience tilts it towards the incredible. i would prefer not to sway the beam of the reader's judgment either way, but simply to tell the story as plattner told it me. he gave me his narrative, i may state, at my house at chislehurst, and so soon as he had left me that evening, i went into my study and wrote down everything as i remembered it. subsequently he was good enough to read over a type-written copy, so that its substantial correctness is undeniable. he states that at the moment of the explosion he distinctly thought he was killed. he felt lifted off his feet and driven forcibly backward. it is a curious fact for psychologists that he thought clearly during his backward flight, and wondered whether he should hit the chemistry cupboard or the blackboard easel. his heels struck ground, and he staggered and fell heavily into a sitting position on something soft and firm. for a moment the concussion stunned him. he became aware at once of a vivid scent of singed hair, and he seemed to hear the voice of lidgett asking for him. you will understand that for a time his mind was greatly confused. at first he was distinctly under the impression that he was still in the classroom. he perceived quite distinctly the surprise of the boys and the entry of mr. lidgett. he is quite positive upon that score. he did not hear their remarks; but that he ascribed to the deafening effect of the experiment. things about him seemed curiously dark and faint, but his mind explained that on the obvious but mistaken idea that the explosion had engendered a huge volume of dark smoke. through the dimness the figures of lidgett and the boys moved, as faint and silent as ghosts. plattner's face still tingled with the stinging heat of the flash. he was, he says, "all muddled." his first definite thoughts seem to have been of his personal safety. he thought he was perhaps blinded and deafened. he felt his limbs and face in a gingerly manner. then his perceptions grew clearer, and he was astonished to miss the old familiar desks and other schoolroom furniture about him. only dim, uncertain, grey shapes stood in the place of these. then came a thing that made him shout aloud, and awoke his stunned faculties to instant activity. _two of the boys, gesticulating, walked one after the other clean through him!_ neither manifested the slightest consciousness of his presence. it is difficult to imagine the sensation he felt. they came against him, he says, with no more force than a wisp of mist. plattner's first thought after that was that he was dead. having been brought up with thoroughly sound views in these matters, however, he was a little surprised to find his body still about him. his second conclusion was that he was not dead, but that the others were: that the explosion had destroyed the sussexville proprietary school and every soul in it except himself. but that, too, was scarcely satisfactory. he was thrown back upon astonished observation. everything about him was extraordinarily dark: at first it seemed to have an altogether ebony blackness. overhead was a black firmament. the only touch of light in the scene was a faint greenish glow at the edge of the sky in one direction, which threw into prominence a horizon of undulating black hills. this, i say, was his impression at first. as his eye grew accustomed to the darkness, he began to distinguish a faint quality of differentiating greenish colour in the circumambient night. against this background the furniture and occupants of the classroom, it seems, stood out like phosphorescent spectres, faint and impalpable. he extended his hand, and thrust it without an effort through the wall of the room by the fireplace. he describes himself as making a strenuous effort to attract attention. he shouted to lidgett, and tried to seize the boys as they went to and fro. he only desisted from these attempts when mrs. lidgett, whom he (as an assistant master) naturally disliked, entered the room. he says the sensation of being in the world, and yet not a part of it, was an extraordinarily disagreeable one. he compared his feelings, not inaptly, to those of a cat watching a mouse through a window. whenever he made a motion to communicate with the dim, familiar world about him, he found an invisible, incomprehensible barrier preventing intercourse. he then turned his attention to his solid environment. he found the medicine bottle still unbroken in his hand, with the remainder of the green powder therein. he put this in his pocket, and began to feel about him. apparently, he was sitting on a boulder of rock covered with a velvety moss. the dark country about him he was unable to see, the faint, misty picture of the schoolroom blotting it out, but he had a feeling (due perhaps to a cold wind) that he was near the crest of a hill, and that a steep valley fell away beneath his feet. the green glow along the edge of the sky seemed to be growing in extent and intensity. he stood up, rubbing his eyes. it would seem that he made a few steps, going steeply down hill, and then stumbled, nearly fell, and sat down again upon a jagged mass of rock to watch the dawn. he became aware that the world about him was absolutely silent. it was as still as it was dark, and though there was a cold wind blowing up the hill-face, the rustle of grass, the soughing of the boughs that should have accompanied it, were absent. he could hear, therefore, if he could not see, that the hillside upon which he stood was rocky and desolate. the green grew brighter every moment, and as it did so a faint, transparent blood-red mingled with, but did not mitigate, the blackness of the sky overhead and the rocky desolations about him. having regard to what follows, i am inclined to think that that redness may have been an optical effect due to contrast. something black fluttered momentarily against the livid yellow-green of the lower sky, and then the thin and penetrating voice of a bell rose out of the black gulf below him. an oppressive expectation grew with the growing light. it is probable that an hour or more elapsed while he sat there, the strange green light growing brighter every moment, and spreading slowly, in flamboyant fingers, upward towards the zenith. as it grew, the spectral vision of _our_ world became relatively or absolutely fainter. probably both, for the time must have been about that of our earthly sunset. so far as his vision of our world went, plattner, by his few steps downhill, had passed through the floor of the classroom, and was now, it seemed, sitting in mid-air in the larger schoolroom downstairs. he saw the boarders distinctly, but much more faintly than he had seen lidgett. they were preparing their evening tasks, and he noticed with interest that several were cheating with their euclid riders by means of a crib, a compilation whose existence he had hitherto never suspected. as the time passed, they faded steadily, as steadily as the light of the green dawn increased. looking down into the valley, he saw that the light had crept far down its rocky sides, and that the profound blackness of the abyss was now broken by a minute green glow, like the light of a glow-worm. and almost immediately the limb of a huge heavenly body of blazing green rose over the basaltic undulations of the distant hills, and the monstrous hill-masses about him came out gaunt and desolate, in green light and deep, ruddy black shadows. he became aware of a vast number of ball-shaped objects drifting as thistledown drifts over the high ground. there were none of these nearer to him than the opposite side of the gorge. the bell below twanged quicker and quicker, with something like impatient insistence, and several lights moved hither and thither. the boys at work at their desks were now almost imperceptibly faint. this extinction of our world, when the green sun of this other universe rose, is a curious point upon which plattner insists. during the other-world night it is difficult to move about, on account of the vividness with which the things of this world are visible. it becomes a riddle to explain why, if this is the case, we in this world catch no glimpse of the other-world. it is due, perhaps, to the comparatively vivid illumination of this world of ours. plattner describes the midday of the other-world, at its brightest, as not being nearly so bright as this world at full moon, while its night is profoundly black. consequently, the amount of light, even in an ordinary dark room, is sufficient to render the things of the other-world invisible, on the same principle that faint phosphorescence is only visible in the profoundest darkness. i have tried, since he told me his story, to see something of the other-world by sitting for a long space in a photographer's dark room at night. i have certainly seen indistinctly the form of greenish slopes and rocks, but only, i must admit, very indistinctly indeed. the reader may possibly be more successful. plattner tells me that since his return he has dreamt and seen and recognised places in the other-world, but this is probably due to his memory of these scenes. it seems quite possible that people with unusually keen eyesight may occasionally catch a glimpse of this strange other-world about us. however, this is a digression. as the green sun rose, a long street of black buildings became perceptible, though only darkly and indistinctly, in the gorge, and, after some hesitation, plattner began to clamber down the precipitous descent towards them. the descent was long and exceedingly tedious, being so not only by the extraordinary steepness, but also by reason of the looseness of the boulders with which the whole face of the hill was strewn. the noise of his descent--now and then his heels struck fire from the rocks--seemed now the only sound in the universe, for the beating of the bell had ceased. as he drew nearer, he perceived that the various edifices had a singular resemblance to tombs and mausoleums and monuments, saving only that they were all uniformly black instead of being white, as most sepulchres are. and then he saw, crowding out of the largest building, very much as people disperse from church, a number of pallid, rounded, pale-green figures. these dispersed in several directions about the broad street of the place, some going through side alleys and reappearing upon the steepness of the hill, others entering some of the small black buildings which lined the way. at the sight of these things drifting up towards him, plattner stopped, staring. they were not walking, they were indeed limbless, and they had the appearance of human heads, beneath which a tadpole-like body swung. he was too astonished at their strangeness, too full, indeed, of strangeness, to be seriously alarmed by them. they drove towards him, in front of the chill wind that was blowing uphill, much as soap-bubbles drive before a draught. and as he looked at the nearest of those approaching, he saw it was indeed a human head, albeit with singularly large eyes, and wearing such an expression of distress and anguish as he had never seen before upon mortal countenance. he was surprised to find that it did not turn to regard him, but seemed to be watching and following some unseen moving thing. for a moment he was puzzled, and then it occurred to him that this creature was watching with its enormous eyes something that was happening in the world he had just left. nearer it came, and nearer, and he was too astonished to cry out. it made a very faint fretting sound as it came close to him. then it struck his face with a gentle pat--its touch was very cold--and drove past him, and upward towards the crest of the hill. an extraordinary conviction flashed across plattner's mind that this head had a strong likeness to lidgett. then he turned his attention to the other heads that were now swarming thickly up the hillside. none made the slightest sign of recognition. one or two, indeed, came close to his head and almost followed the example of the first, but he dodged convulsively out of the way. upon most of them he saw the same expression of unavailing regret he had seen upon the first, and heard the same faint sounds of wretchedness from them. one or two wept, and one rolling swiftly uphill wore an expression of diabolical rage. but others were cold, and several had a look of gratified interest in their eyes. one, at least, was almost in an ecstasy of happiness. plattner does not remember that he recognised any more likenesses in those he saw at this time. for several hours, perhaps, plattner watched these strange things dispersing themselves over the hills, and not till long after they had ceased to issue from the clustering black buildings in the gorge, did he resume his downward climb. the darkness about him increased so much that he had a difficulty in stepping true. overhead the sky was now a bright, pale green. he felt neither hunger nor thirst. later, when he did, he found a chilly stream running down the centre of the gorge, and the rare moss upon the boulders, when he tried it at last in desperation, was good to eat. he groped about among the tombs that ran down the gorge, seeking vaguely for some clue to these inexplicable things. after a long time he came to the entrance of the big mausoleum-like building from which the heads had issued. in this he found a group of green lights burning upon a kind of basaltic altar, and a bell-rope from a belfry overhead hanging down into the centre of the place. round the wall ran a lettering of fire in a character unknown to him. while he was still wondering at the purport of these things, he heard the receding tramp of heavy feet echoing far down the street. he ran out into the darkness again, but he could see nothing. he had a mind to pull the bell-rope, and finally decided to follow the footsteps. but, although he ran far, he never overtook them; and his shouting was of no avail. the gorge seemed to extend an interminable distance. it was as dark as earthly starlight throughout its length, while the ghastly green day lay along the upper edge of its precipices. there were none of the heads, now, below. they were all, it seemed, busily occupied along the upper slopes. looking up, he saw them drifting hither and thither, some hovering stationary, some flying swiftly through the air. it reminded him, he said, of "big snowflakes"; only these were black and pale green. in pursuing the firm, undeviating footsteps that he never overtook, in groping into new regions of this endless devil's dyke, in clambering up and down the pitiless heights, in wandering about the summits, and in watching the drifting faces, plattner states that he spent the better part of seven or eight days. he did not keep count, he says. though once or twice he found eyes watching him, he had word with no living soul. he slept among the rocks on the hillside. in the gorge things earthly were invisible, because, from the earthly standpoint, it was far underground. on the altitudes, so soon as the earthly day began, the world became visible to him. he found himself sometimes stumbling over the dark green rocks, or arresting himself on a precipitous brink, while all about him the green branches of the sussexville lanes were swaying; or, again, he seemed to be walking through the sussexville streets, or watching unseen the private business of some household. and then it was he discovered, that to almost every human being in our world there pertained some of these drifting heads: that everyone in the world is watched intermittently by these helpless disembodiments. what are they--these watchers of the living? plattner never learned. but two, that presently found and followed him, were like his childhood's memory of his father and mother. now and then other faces turned their eyes upon him: eyes like those of dead people who had swayed him, or injured him, or helped him in his youth and manhood. whenever they looked at him, plattner was overcome with a strange sense of responsibility. to his mother he ventured to speak; but she made no answer. she looked sadly, steadfastly, and tenderly--a little reproachfully, too, it seemed--into his eyes. he simply tells this story: he does not endeavour to explain. we are left to surmise who these watchers of the living may be, or if they are indeed the dead, why they should so closely and passionately watch a world they have left for ever. it may be--indeed to my mind it seems just--that, when our life has closed, when evil or good is no longer a choice for us, we may still have to witness the working out of the train of consequences we have laid. if human souls continue after death, then surely human interests continue after death. but that is merely my own guess at the meaning of the things seen. plattner offers no interpretation, for none was given him. it is well the reader should understand this clearly. day after day, with his head reeling, he wandered about this strange-lit world outside the world, weary and, towards the end, weak and hungry. by day--by our earthly day, that is--the ghostly vision of the old familiar scenery of sussexville, all about him, irked and worried him. he could not see where to put his feet, and ever and again with a chilly touch one of these watching souls would come against his face. and after dark the multitude of these watchers about him, and their intent distress, confused his mind beyond describing. a great longing to return to the earthly life that was so near and yet so remote consumed him. the unearthliness of things about him produced a positively painful mental distress. he was worried beyond describing by his own particular followers. he would shout at them to desist from staring at him, scold at them, hurry away from them. they were always mute and intent. run as he might over the uneven ground, they followed his destinies. on the ninth day, towards evening, plattner heard the invisible footsteps approaching, far away down the gorge. he was then wandering over the broad crest of the same hill upon which he had fallen in his entry into this strange other-world of his. he turned to hurry down into the gorge, feeling his way hastily, and was arrested by the sight of the thing that was happening in a room in a back street near the school. both of the people in the room he knew by sight. the windows were open, the blinds up, and the setting sun shone clearly into it, so that it came out quite brightly at first, a vivid oblong of room, lying like a magic-lantern picture upon the black landscape and the livid green dawn. in addition to the sunlight, a candle had just been lit in the room. on the bed lay a lank man, his ghastly white face terrible upon the tumbled pillow. his clenched hands were raised above his head. a little table beside the bed carried a few medicine bottles, some toast and water, and an empty glass. every now and then the lank man's lips fell apart, to indicate a word he could not articulate. but the woman did not notice that he wanted anything, because she was busy turning out papers from an old-fashioned bureau in the opposite corner of the room. at first the picture was very vivid indeed, but as the green dawn behind it grew brighter and brighter, so it became fainter and more and more transparent. as the echoing footsteps paced nearer and nearer, those footsteps that sound so loud in that other-world and come so silently in this, plattner perceived about him a great multitude of dim faces gathering together out of the darkness and watching the two people in the room. never before had he seen so many of the watchers of the living. a multitude had eyes only for the sufferer in the room, another multitude, in infinite anguish, watched the woman as she hunted with greedy eyes for something she could not find. they crowded about plattner, they came across his sight and buffeted his face, the noise of their unavailing regrets was all about him. he saw clearly only now and then. at other times the picture quivered dimly, through the veil of green reflections upon their movements. in the room it must have been very still, and plattner says the candle flame streamed up into a perfectly vertical line of smoke, but in his ears each footfall and its echoes beat like a clap of thunder. and the faces! two, more particularly near the woman's: one a woman's also, white and clear-featured, a face which might have once been cold and hard, but which was now softened by the touch of a wisdom strange to earth. the other might have been the woman's father. both were evidently absorbed in the contemplation of some act of hateful meanness, so it seemed, which they could no longer guard against and prevent. behind were others, teachers, it may be, who had taught ill, friends whose influence had failed. and over the man, too--a multitude, but none that seemed to be parents or teachers! faces that might once have been coarse, now purged to strength by sorrow! and in the forefront one face, a girlish one, neither angry nor remorseful, but merely patient and weary, and, as it seemed to plattner, waiting for relief. his powers of description fail him at the memory of this multitude of ghastly countenances. they gathered on the stroke of the bell. he saw them all in the space of a second. it would seem that he was so worked on by his excitement that, quite involuntarily, his restless fingers took the bottle of green powder out of his pocket and held it before him. but he does not remember that. abruptly the footsteps ceased. he waited for the next, and there was silence, and then suddenly, cutting through the unexpected stillness like a keen, thin blade, came the first stroke of the bell. at that the multitudinous faces swayed to and fro, and a louder crying began all about him. the woman did not hear; she was burning something now in the candle flame. at the second stroke everything grew dim, and a breath of wind, icy cold, blew through the host of watchers. they swirled about him like an eddy of dead leaves in the spring, and at the third stroke something was extended through them to the bed. you have heard of a beam of light. this was like a beam of darkness, and looking again at it, plattner saw that it was a shadowy arm and hand. the green sun was now topping the black desolations of the horizon, and the vision of the room was very faint. plattner could see that the white of the bed struggled, and was convulsed; and that the woman looked round over her shoulder at it, startled. the cloud of watchers lifted high like a puff of green dust before the wind, and swept swiftly downward towards the temple in the gorge. then suddenly plattner understood the meaning of the shadowy black arm that stretched across his shoulder and clutched its prey. he did not dare turn his head to see the shadow behind the arm. with a violent effort, and covering his eyes, he set himself to run, made, perhaps, twenty strides, then slipped on a boulder, and fell. he fell forward on his hands; and the bottle smashed and exploded as he touched the ground. in another moment he found himself, stunned and bleeding, sitting face to face with lidgett in the old walled garden behind the school. * * * * * there the story of plattner's experiences ends. i have resisted, i believe successfully, the natural disposition of a writer of fiction to dress up incidents of this sort. i have told the thing as far as possible in the order in which plattner told it to me. i have carefully avoided any attempt at style, effect, or construction. it would have been easy, for instance, to have worked the scene of the death-bed into a kind of plot in which plattner might have been involved. but, quite apart from the objectionableness of falsifying a most extraordinary true story, any such trite devices would spoil, to my mind, the peculiar effect of this dark world, with its livid green illumination and its drifting watchers of the living, which, unseen and unapproachable to us, is yet lying all about us. it remains to add, that a death did actually occur in vincent terrace, just beyond the school garden, and, so far as can be proved, at the moment of plattner's return. deceased was a rate-collector and insurance agent. his widow, who was much younger than himself, married last month a mr. whymper, a veterinary surgeon of allbeeding. as the portion of this story given here has in various forms circulated orally in sussexville, she has consented to my use of her name, on condition that i make it distinctly known that she emphatically contradicts every detail of plattner's account of her husband's last moments. she burnt no will, she says, although plattner never accused her of doing so: her husband made but one will, and that just after their marriage. certainly, from a man who had never seen it, plattner's account of the furniture of the room was curiously accurate. one other thing, even at the risk of an irksome repetition, i must insist upon, lest i seem to favour the credulous superstitious view. plattner's absence from the world for nine days is, i think, proved. but that does not prove his story. it is quite conceivable that even outside space hallucinations may be possible. that, at least, the reader must bear distinctly in mind. the argonauts of the air one saw monson's flying machine from the windows of the trains passing either along the south-western main line or along the line between wimbledon and worcester park,--to be more exact, one saw the huge scaffoldings which limited the flight of the apparatus. they rose over the tree-tops, a massive alley of interlacing iron and timber, and an enormous web of ropes and tackle, extending the best part of two miles. from the leatherhead branch this alley was foreshortened and in part hidden by a hill with villas; but from the main line one had it in profile, a complex tangle of girders and curving bars, very impressive to the excursionists from portsmouth and southampton and the west. monson had taken up the work where maxim had left it, had gone on at first with an utter contempt for the journalistic wit and ignorance that had irritated and hampered his predecessor, and had spent (it was said) rather more than half his immense fortune upon his experiments. the results, to an impatient generation, seemed inconsiderable. when some five years had passed after the growth of the colossal iron groves at worcester park, and monson still failed to put in a fluttering appearance over trafalgar square, even the isle of wight trippers felt their liberty to smile. and such intelligent people as did not consider monson a fool stricken with the mania for invention, denounced him as being (for no particular reason) a self-advertising quack. yet now and again a morning trainload of season-ticket holders would see a white monster rush headlong through the airy tracery of guides and bars, and hear the further stays, nettings, and buffers snap, creak, and groan with the impact of the blow. then there would be an efflorescence of black-set white-rimmed faces along the sides of the train, and the morning papers would be neglected for a vigorous discussion of the possibility of flying (in which nothing new was ever said by any chance), until the train reached waterloo, and its cargo of season-ticket holders dispersed themselves over london. or the fathers and mothers in some multitudinous train of weary excursionists returning exhausted from a day of rest by the sea, would find the dark fabric, standing out against the evening sky, useful in diverting some bilious child from its introspection, and be suddenly startled by the swift transit of a huge black flapping shape that strained upward against the guides. it was a great and forcible thing beyond dispute, and excellent for conversation; yet, all the same, it was but flying in leading-strings, and most of those who witnessed it scarcely counted its flight as flying. more of a switchback it seemed to the run of the folk. monson, i say, did not trouble himself very keenly about the opinions of the press at first. but possibly he, even, had formed but a poor idea of the time it would take before the tactics of flying were mastered, the swift assured adjustment of the big soaring shape to every gust and chance movement of the air; nor had he clearly reckoned the money this prolonged struggle against gravitation would cost him. and he was not so pachydermatous as he seemed. secretly he had his periodical bundles of cuttings sent him by romeike, he had his periodical reminders from his banker; and if he did not mind the initial ridicule and scepticism, he felt the growing neglect as the months went by and the money dribbled away. time was when monson had sent the enterprising journalist, keen after readable matter, empty from his gates. but when the enterprising journalist ceased from troubling, monson was anything but satisfied in his heart of hearts. still day by day the work went on, and the multitudinous subtle difficulties of the steering diminished in number. day by day, too, the money trickled away, until his balance was no longer a matter of hundreds of thousands, but of tens. and at last came an anniversary. monson, sitting in the little drawing-shed, suddenly noticed the date on woodhouse's calendar. "it was five years ago to-day that we began," he said to woodhouse suddenly. "is it?" said woodhouse. "it's the alterations play the devil with us," said monson, biting a paper-fastener. the drawings for the new vans to the hinder screw lay on the table before him as he spoke. he pitched the mutilated brass paper-fastener into the waste-paper basket and drummed with his fingers. "these alterations! will the mathematicians ever be clever enough to save us all this patching and experimenting? five years--learning by rule of thumb, when one might think that it was possible to calculate the whole thing out beforehand. the cost of it! i might have hired three senior wranglers for life. but they'd only have developed some beautifully useless theorems in pneumatics. what a time it has been, woodhouse!" "these mouldings will take three weeks," said woodhouse. "at special prices." "three weeks!" said monson, and sat drumming. "three weeks certain," said woodhouse, an excellent engineer, but no good as a comforter. he drew the sheets towards him and began shading a bar. monson stopped drumming, and began to bite his finger-nails, staring the while at woodhouse's head. "how long have they been calling this monson's folly?" he said suddenly. "_oh!_ year or so," said woodhouse carelessly, without looking up. monson sucked the air in between his teeth, and went to the window. the stout iron columns carrying the elevated rails upon which the start of the machine was made rose up close by, and the machine was hidden by the upper edge of the window. through the grove of iron pillars, red painted and ornate with rows of bolts, one had a glimpse of the pretty scenery towards esher. a train went gliding noiselessly across the middle distance, its rattle drowned by the hammering of the workmen overhead. monson could imagine the grinning faces at the windows of the carriages. he swore savagely under his breath, and dabbed viciously at a blowfly that suddenly became noisy on the window-pane. "what's up?" said woodhouse, staring in surprise at his employer. "i'm about sick of this." woodhouse scratched his cheek. "oh!" he said, after an assimilating pause. he pushed the drawing away from him. "here these fools ... i'm trying to conquer a new element--trying to do a thing that will revolutionise life. and instead of taking an intelligent interest, they grin and make their stupid jokes, and call me and my appliances names." "asses!" said woodhouse, letting his eye fall again on the drawing. the epithet, curiously enough, made monson wince. "i'm about sick of it, woodhouse, anyhow," he said, after a pause. woodhouse shrugged his shoulders. "there's nothing for it but patience, i suppose," said monson, sticking his hands in his pockets. "i've started. i've made my bed, and i've got to lie on it. i can't go back. i'll see it through, and spend every penny i have and every penny i can borrow. but i tell you, woodhouse, i'm infernally sick of it, all the same. if i'd paid a tenth part of the money towards some political greaser's expenses--i'd have been a baronet before this." monson paused. woodhouse stared in front of him with a blank expression he always employed to indicate sympathy, and tapped his pencil-case on the table. monson stared at him for a minute. "oh, _damn_!" said monson suddenly, and abruptly rushed out of the room. woodhouse continued his sympathetic rigour for perhaps half a minute. then he sighed and resumed the shading of the drawings. something had evidently upset monson. nice chap, and generous, but difficult to get on with. it was the way with every amateur who had anything to do with engineering--wanted everything finished at once. but monson had usually the patience of the expert. odd he was so irritable. nice and round that aluminium rod did look now! woodhouse threw back his head, and put it, first this side and then that, to appreciate his bit of shading better. "mr. woodhouse," said hooper, the foreman of the labourers, putting his head in at the door. "hullo!" said woodhouse, without turning round. "nothing happened, sir?" said hooper. "happened?" said woodhouse. "the governor just been up the rails swearing like a tornader." "_oh!_" said woodhouse. "it ain't like him, sir." "no?" "and i was thinking perhaps"-- "don't think," said woodhouse, still admiring the drawings. hooper knew woodhouse, and he shut the door suddenly with a vicious slam. woodhouse stared stonily before him for some further minutes, and then made an ineffectual effort to pick his teeth with his pencil. abruptly he desisted, pitched that old, tried, and stumpy servitor across the room, got up, stretched himself, and followed hooper. he looked ruffled--it was visible to every workman he met. when a millionaire who has been spending thousands on experiments that employ quite a little army of people suddenly indicates that he is sick of the undertaking, there is almost invariably a certain amount of mental friction in the ranks of the little army he employs. and even before he indicates his intentions there are speculations and murmurs, a watching of faces and a study of straws. hundreds of people knew before the day was out that monson was ruffled, woodhouse ruffled, hooper ruffled. a workman's wife, for instance (whom monson had never seen), decided to keep her money in the savings-bank instead of buying a velveteen dress. so far-reaching are even the casual curses of a millionaire. monson found a certain satisfaction in going on the works and behaving disagreeably to as many people as possible. after a time even that palled upon him, and he rode off the grounds, to every one's relief there, and through the lanes south-eastward, to the infinite tribulation of his house steward at cheam. and the immediate cause of it all, the little grain of annoyance that had suddenly precipitated all this discontent with his life-work was--these trivial things that direct all our great decisions!--half a dozen ill-considered remarks made by a pretty girl, prettily dressed, with a beautiful voice and something more than prettiness in her soft grey eyes. and of these half-dozen remarks, two words especially--"monson's folly." she had felt she was behaving charmingly to monson; she reflected the next day how exceptionally effective she had been, and no one would have been more amazed than she, had she learned the effect she had left on monson's mind. i hope, considering everything, that she never knew. "how are you getting on with your flying-machine?" she asked. ("i wonder if i shall ever meet any one with the sense not to ask that," thought monson.) "it will be very dangerous at first, will it not?" ("thinks i'm afraid.") "jorgon is going to play presently; have you heard him before?" ("my mania being attended to, we turn to rational conversation.") gush about jorgon; gradual decline of conversation, ending with--"you must let me know when your flying-machine is finished, mr. monson, and then i will consider the advisability of taking a ticket." ("one would think i was still playing inventions in the nursery.") but the bitterest thing she said was not meant for monson's ears. to phlox, the novelist, she was always conscientiously brilliant. "i have been talking to mr. monson, and he can think of nothing, positively nothing, but that flying-machine of his. do you know, all his workmen call that place of his 'monson's folly'? he is quite impossible. it is really very, very sad. i always regard him myself in the light of sunken treasure--the lost millionaire, you know." she was pretty and well educated,--indeed, she had written an epigrammatic novelette; but the bitterness was that she was typical. she summarised what the world thought of the man who was working sanely, steadily, and surely towards a more tremendous revolution in the appliances of civilisation, a more far-reaching alteration in the ways of humanity than has ever been effected since history began. they did not even take him seriously. in a little while he would be proverbial. "i _must_ fly now," he said on his way home, smarting with a sense of absolute social failure. "i must fly soon. if it doesn't come off soon, by god! i shall run amuck." he said that before he had gone through his pass-book and his litter of papers. inadequate as the cause seems, it was that girl's voice and the expression of her eyes that precipitated his discontent. but certainly the discovery that he had no longer even one hundred thousand pounds' worth of realisable property behind him was the poison that made the wound deadly. it was the next day after this that he exploded upon woodhouse and his workmen, and thereafter his bearing was consistently grim for three weeks, and anxiety dwelt in cheam and ewell, malden, morden, and worcester park, places that had thriven mightily on his experiments. four weeks after that first swearing of his, he stood with woodhouse by the reconstructed machine as it lay across the elevated railway, by means of which it gained its initial impetus. the new propeller glittered a brighter white than the rest of the machine, and a gilder, obedient to a whim of monson's, was picking out the aluminium bars with gold. and looking down the long avenue between the ropes (gilded now with the sunset), one saw red signals, and two miles away an ant-hill of workmen busy altering the last falls of the run into a rising slope. "i'll _come_," said woodhouse. "i'll come right enough. but i tell you it's infernally foolhardy. if only you would give another year"-- "i tell you i won't. i tell you the thing works. i've given years enough"-- "it's not that," said woodhouse. "we're all right with the machine. but it's the steering"-- "haven't i been rushing, night and morning, backwards and forwards, through this squirrel's cage? if the thing steers true here, it will steer true all across england. it's just funk, i tell you, woodhouse. we could have gone a year ago. and besides"-- "well?" said woodhouse. "the money!" snapped monson over his shoulder. "hang it! i never thought of the money," said woodhouse, and then, speaking now in a very different tone to that with which he had said the words before, he repeated, "i'll come. trust me." monson turned suddenly, and saw all that woodhouse had not the dexterity to say, shining on his sunset-lit face. he looked for a moment, then impulsively extended his hand. "thanks," he said. "all right," said woodhouse, gripping the hand, and with a queer softening of his features. "trust me." then both men turned to the big apparatus that lay with its flat wings extended upon the carrier, and stared at it meditatively. monson, guided perhaps by a photographic study of the flight of birds, and by lilienthal's methods, had gradually drifted from maxim's shapes towards the bird form again. the thing, however, was driven by a huge screw behind in the place of the tail; and so hovering, which needs an almost vertical adjustment of a flat tail, was rendered impossible. the body of the machine was small, almost cylindrical, and pointed. forward and aft on the pointed ends were two small petroleum engines for the screw, and the navigators sat deep in a canoe-like recess, the foremost one steering, and being protected by a low screen, with two plate-glass windows, from the blinding rush of air. on either side a monstrous flat framework with a curved front border could be adjusted so as either to lie horizontally, or to be tilted upward or down. these wings worked rigidly together, or, by releasing a pin, one could be tilted through a small angle independently of its fellow. the front edge of either wing could also be shifted back so as to diminish the wing-area about one-sixth. the machine was not only not designed to hover, but it was also incapable of fluttering. monson's idea was to get into the air with the initial rush of the apparatus, and then to skim, much as a playing-card may be skimmed, keeping up the rush by means of the screw at the stern. rooks and gulls fly enormous distances in that way with scarcely a perceptible movement of the wings. the bird really drives along on an aërial switchback. it glides slanting downward for a space, until it has gained considerable momentum, and then altering the inclination of its wings, glides up again almost to its original altitude. even a londoner who has watched the birds in the aviary in regent's park knows that. but the bird is practising this art from the moment it leaves its nest. it has not only the perfect apparatus, but the perfect instinct to use it. a man off his feet has the poorest skill in balancing. even the simple trick of the bicycle costs him some hours of labour. the instantaneous adjustments of the wings, the quick response to a passing breeze, the swift recovery of equilibrium, the giddy, eddying movements that require such absolute precision--all that he must learn, learn with infinite labour and infinite danger, if ever he is to conquer flying. the flying-machine that will start off some fine day, driven by neat "little levers," with a nice open deck like a liner, and all loaded up with bombshells and guns, is the easy dreaming of a literary man. in lives and in treasure the cost of the conquest of the empire of the air may even exceed all that has been spent in man's great conquest of the sea. certainly it will be costlier than the greatest war that has ever devastated the world. no one knew these things better than these two practical men. and they knew they were in the front rank of the coming army. yet there is hope even in a forlorn hope. men are killed outright in the reserves sometimes, while others who have been left for dead in the thickest corner crawl out and survive. "if we miss these meadows"--said woodhouse presently in his slow way. "my dear chap," said monson, whose spirits had been rising fitfully during the last few days, "we mustn't miss these meadows. there's a quarter of a square mile for us to hit, fences removed, ditches levelled. we shall come down all right--rest assured. and if we don't"-- "ah!" said woodhouse. "if we don't!" before the day of the start, the newspaper people got wind of the alterations at the northward end of the framework, and monson was cheered by a decided change in the comments romeike forwarded him. "he will be off some day," said the papers. "he will be off some day," said the south-western season-ticket holders one to another; the seaside excursionists, the saturday-to-monday trippers from sussex and hampshire and dorset and devon, the eminent literary people from hazlemere, all remarked eagerly one to another, "he will be off some day," as the familiar scaffolding came in sight. and actually, one bright morning, in full view of the ten-past-ten train from basingstoke, monson's flying-machine started on its journey. they saw the carrier running swiftly along its rail, and the white and gold screw spinning in the air. they heard the rapid rumble of wheels, and a thud as the carrier reached the buffers at the end of its run. then a whirr as the flying-machine was shot forward into the networks. all that the majority of them had seen and heard before. the thing went with a drooping flight through the framework and rose again, and then every beholder shouted, or screamed, or yelled, or shrieked after his kind. for instead of the customary concussion and stoppage, the flying machine flew out of its five years' cage like a bolt from a crossbow, and drove slantingly upward into the air, curved round a little, so as to cross the line, and soared in the direction of wimbledon common. it seemed to hang momentarily in the air and grow smaller, then it ducked and vanished over the clustering blue tree-tops to the east of coombe hill, and no one stopped staring and gasping until long after it had disappeared. that was what the people in the train from basingstoke saw. if you had drawn a line down the middle of that train, from engine to guard's van, you would not have found a living soul on the opposite side to the flying-machine. it was a mad rush from window to window as the thing crossed the line. and the engine-driver and stoker never took their eyes off the low hills about wimbledon, and never noticed that they had run clean through coombe and maiden and raynes park, until, with returning animation, they found themselves pelting, at the most indecent pace, into wimbledon station. from the moment when monson had started the carrier with a "_now!_" neither he nor woodhouse said a word. both men sat with clenched teeth. monson had crossed the line with a curve that was too sharp, and woodhouse had opened and shut his white lips; but neither spoke. woodhouse simply gripped his seat, and breathed sharply through his teeth, watching the blue country to the west rushing past, and down, and away from him. monson knelt at his post forward, and his hands trembled on the spoked wheel that moved the wings. he could see nothing before him but a mass of white clouds in the sky. the machine went slanting upward, travelling with an enormous speed still, but losing momentum every moment. the land ran away underneath with diminishing speed. "_now!_" said woodhouse at last, and with a violent effort monson wrenched over the wheel and altered the angle of the wings. the machine seemed to hang for half a minute motionless in mid-air, and then he saw the hazy blue house-covered hills of kilburn and hampstead jump up before his eyes and rise steadily, until the little sunlit dome of the albert hall appeared through his windows. for a moment he scarcely understood the meaning of this upward rush of the horizon, but as the nearer and nearer houses came into view, he realised what he had done. he had turned the wings over too far, and they were swooping steeply downward towards the thames. the thought, the question, the realisation were all the business of a second of time. "too much!" gasped woodhouse. monson brought the wheel half-way back with a jerk, and forthwith the kilburn and hampstead ridge dropped again to the lower edge of his windows. they had been a thousand feet above coombe and maiden station; fifty seconds after they whizzed, at a frightful pace, not eighty feet above the east putney station, on the metropolitan district line, to the screaming astonishment of a platformful of people. monson flung up the vans against the air, and over fulham they rushed up their atmospheric switchback again, steeply--too steeply. the 'buses went floundering across the fulham road, the people yelled. then down again, too steeply still, and the distant trees and houses about primrose hill leapt up across monson's window, and then suddenly he saw straight before him the greenery of kensington gardens and the towers of the imperial institute. they were driving straight down upon south kensington. the pinnacles of the natural history museum rushed up into view. there came one fatal second of swift thought, a moment of hesitation. should he try and clear the towers, or swerve eastward? he made a hesitating attempt to release the right wing, left the catch half released, and gave a frantic clutch at the wheel. the nose of the machine seemed to leap up before him. the wheel pressed his hand with irresistible force, and jerked itself out of his control. woodhouse, sitting crouched together, gave a hoarse cry, and sprang up towards monson. "too far!" he cried, and then he was clinging to the gunwale for dear life, and monson had been jerked clean overhead, and was falling backwards upon him. so swiftly had the thing happened that barely a quarter of the people going to and fro in hyde park, and brompton road, and the exhibition road saw anything of the aërial catastrophe. a distant winged shape had appeared above the clustering houses to the south, had fallen and risen, growing larger as it did so; had swooped swiftly down towards the imperial institute, a broad spread of flying wings, had swept round in a quarter circle, dashed eastward, and then suddenly sprang vertically into the air. a black object shot out of it, and came spinning downward. a man! two men clutching each other! they came whirling down, separated as they struck the roof of the students' club, and bounded off into the green bushes on its southward side. for perhaps half a minute, the pointed stem of the big machine still pierced vertically upward, the screw spinning desperately. for one brief instant, that yet seemed an age to all who watched, it had hung motionless in mid-air. then a spout of yellow flame licked up its length from the stern engine, and swift, swifter, swifter, and flaring like a rocket, it rushed down upon the solid mass of masonry which was formerly the royal college of science. the big screw of white and gold touched the parapet, and crumpled up like wet linen. then the blazing spindle-shaped body smashed and splintered, smashing and splintering in its fall, upon the north-westward angle of the building. but the crash, the flame of blazing paraffin that shot heavenward from the shattered engines of the machine, the crushed horrors that were found in the garden beyond the students' club, the masses of yellow parapet and red brick that fell headlong into the roadway, the running to and fro of people like ants in a broken ant-hill, the galloping of fire-engines, the gathering of crowds--all these things do not belong to this story, which was written only to tell how the first of all successful flying-machines was launched and flew. though he failed, and failed disastrously, the record of monson's work remains--a sufficient monument--to guide the next of that band of gallant experimentalists who will sooner or later master this great problem of flying. and between worcester park and malden there still stands that portentous avenue of iron-work, rusting now, and dangerous here and there, to witness to the first desperate struggle for man's right of way through the air. the story of the late mr. elvesham i set this story down, not expecting it will be believed, but, if possible, to prepare a way of escape for the next victim. he, perhaps, may profit by my misfortune. my own case, i know, is hopeless, and i am now in some measure prepared to meet my fate. my name is edward george eden. i was born at trentham, in staffordshire, my father being employed in the gardens there. i lost my mother when i was three years old, and my father when i was five, my uncle, george eden, then adopting me as his own son. he was a single man, self-educated, and well-known in birmingham as an enterprising journalist; he educated me generously, fired my ambition to succeed in the world, and at his death, which happened four years ago, left me his entire fortune, a matter of about five hundred pounds after all outgoing charges were paid. i was then eighteen. he advised me in his will to expend the money in completing my education. i had already chosen the profession of medicine, and through his posthumous generosity, and my good fortune in a scholarship competition, i became a medical student at university college, london. at the time of the beginning of my story i lodged at a university street, in a little upper room, very shabbily furnished, and draughty, overlooking the back of shoolbred's premises. i used this little room both to live in and sleep in, because i was anxious to eke out my means to the very last shillingsworth. i was taking a pair of shoes to be mended at a shop in the tottenham court road when i first encountered the little old man with the yellow face, with whom my life has now become so inextricably entangled. he was standing on the kerb, and staring at the number on the door in a doubtful way, as i opened it. his eyes--they were dull grey eyes, and reddish under the rims--fell to my face, and his countenance immediately assumed an expression of corrugated amiability. "you come," he said, "apt to the moment. i had forgotten the number of your house. how do you do, mr. eden?" i was a little astonished at his familiar address, for i had never set eyes on the man before. i was a little annoyed, too, at his catching me with my boots under my arm. he noticed my lack of cordiality. "wonder who the deuce i am, eh? a friend, let me assure you. i have seen you before, though you haven't seen me. is there anywhere where i can talk to you?" i hesitated. the shabbiness of my room upstairs was not a matter for every stranger. "perhaps," said i, "we might walk down the street. i'm unfortunately prevented"--my gesture explained the sentence before i had spoken it. "the very thing," he said, and faced this way and then that. "the street? which way shall we go?" i slipped my boots down in the passage. "look here!" he said abruptly; "this business of mine is a rigmarole. come and lunch with me, mr. eden. i'm an old man, a very old man, and not good at explanations, and what with my piping voice and the clatter of the traffic"-- he laid a persuasive skinny hand that trembled a little upon my arm. i was not so old that an old man might not treat me to a lunch. yet at the same time i was not altogether pleased by this abrupt invitation. "i had rather"--i began. "but _i_ had rather," he said, catching me up, "and a certain civility is surely due to my grey hairs." and so i consented, and went with him. he took me to blavitski's; i had to walk slowly to accommodate myself to his paces; and over such a lunch as i had never tasted before, he fended off my leading questions, and i took a better note of his appearance. his clean-shaven face was lean and wrinkled, his shrivelled lips fell over a set of false teeth, and his white hair was thin and rather long; he seemed small to me,--though, indeed, most people seemed small to me,--and his shoulders were rounded and bent. and watching him, i could not help but observe that he too was taking note of me, running his eyes, with a curious touch of greed in them, over me, from my broad shoulders to my sun-tanned hands, and up to my freckled face again. "and now," said he, as we lit our cigarettes, "i must tell you of the business in hand. "i must tell you, then, that i am an old man, a very old man." he paused momentarily. "and it happens that i have money that i must presently be leaving, and never a child have i to leave it to." i thought of the confidence trick, and resolved i would be on the alert for the vestiges of my five hundred pounds. he proceeded to enlarge on his loneliness, and the trouble he had to find a proper disposition of his money. "i have weighed this plan and that plan, charities, institutions, and scholarships, and libraries, and i have come to this conclusion at last,"--he fixed his eyes on my face,--"that i will find some young fellow, ambitious, pure-minded, and poor, healthy in body and healthy in mind, and, in short, make him my heir, give him all that i have." he repeated, "give him all that i have. so that he will suddenly be lifted out of all the trouble and struggle in which his sympathies have been educated, to freedom and influence." i tried to seem disinterested. with a transparent hypocrisy, i said, "and you want my help, my professional services, maybe, to find that person." he smiled, and looked at me over his cigarette, and i laughed at his quiet exposure of my modest pretence. "what a career such a man might have!" he said. "it fills me with envy to think how i have accumulated that another man may spend-- "but there are conditions, of course, burdens to be imposed. he must, for instance, take my name. you cannot expect everything without some return. and i must go into all the circumstances of his life before i can accept him. he _must_ be sound. i must know his heredity, how his parents and grandparents died, have the strictest inquiries made into his private morals"-- this modified my secret congratulations a little. "and do i understand," said i, "that i--?" "yes," he said, almost fiercely. "you. _you._" i answered never a word. my imagination was dancing wildly, my innate scepticism was useless to modify its transports. there was not a particle of gratitude in my mind--i did not know what to say nor how to say it. "but why me in particular?" i said at last. he had chanced to hear of me from professor haslar, he said, as a typically sound and sane young man, and he wished, as far as possible, to leave his money where health and integrity were assured. that was my first meeting with the little old man. he was mysterious about himself; he would not give his name yet, he said, and after i had answered some questions of his, he left me at the blavitski portal. i noticed that he drew a handful of gold coins from his pocket when it came to paying for the lunch. his insistence upon bodily health was curious. in accordance with an arrangement we had made i applied that day for a life policy in the loyal insurance company for a large sum, and i was exhaustively overhauled by the medical advisers of that company in the subsequent week. even that did not satisfy him, and he insisted i must be re-examined by the great doctor henderson. it was friday in whitsun week before he came to a decision. he called me down, quite late in the evening,--nearly nine it was,--from cramming chemical equations for my preliminary scientific examination. he was standing in the passage under the feeble gas-lamp, and his face was a grotesque interplay of shadows. he seemed more bowed than when i had first seen him, and his cheeks had sunk in a little. his voice shook with emotion. "everything is satisfactory, mr. eden," he said. "everything is quite, quite satisfactory. and this night of all nights, you must dine with me and celebrate your--accession." he was interrupted by a cough. "you won't have long to wait, either," he said, wiping his handkerchief across his lips, and gripping my hand with his long bony claw that was disengaged. "certainly not very long to wait." we went into the street and called a cab. i remember every incident of that drive vividly, the swift, easy motion, the vivid contrast of gas and oil and electric light, the crowds of people in the streets, the place in regent street to which we went, and the sumptuous dinner we were served with there. i was disconcerted at first by the well-dressed waiter's glances at my rough clothes, bothered by the stones of the olives, but as the champagne warmed my blood, my confidence revived. at first the old man talked of himself. he had already told me his name in the cab; he was egbert elvesham, the great philosopher, whose name i had known since i was a lad at school. it seemed incredible to me that this man, whose intelligence had so early dominated mine, this great abstraction, should suddenly realise itself as this decrepit, familiar figure. i daresay every young fellow who has suddenly fallen among celebrities has felt something of my disappointment. he told me now of the future that the feeble streams of his life would presently leave dry for me, houses, copyrights, investments; i had never suspected that philosophers were so rich. he watched me drink and eat with a touch of envy. "what a capacity for living you have!" he said; and then, with a sigh, a sigh of relief i could have thought it, "it will not be long." "ay," said i, my head swimming now with champagne; "i have a future perhaps--of a passing agreeable sort, thanks to you. i shall now have the honour of your name. but you have a past. such a past as is worth all my future." he shook his head and smiled, as i thought, with half-sad appreciation of my flattering admiration. "that future," he said, "would you in truth change it?" the waiter came with liqueurs. "you will not perhaps mind taking my name, taking my position, but would you indeed--willingly--take my years?" "with your achievements," said i gallantly. he smiled again. "kummel--both," he said to the waiter, and turned his attention to a little paper packet he had taken from his pocket. "this hour," said he, "this after-dinner hour is the hour of small things. here is a scrap of my unpublished wisdom." he opened the packet with his shaking yellow fingers, and showed a little pinkish powder on the paper. "this," said he--"well, you must guess what it is. but kummel--put but a dash of this powder in it--is himmel." his large greyish eyes watched mine with an inscrutable expression. it was a bit of a shock to me to find this great teacher gave his mind to the flavour of liqueurs. however, i feigned a great interest in his weakness, for i was drunk enough for such small sycophancy. he parted the powder between the little glasses, and, rising suddenly, with a strange unexpected dignity, held out his hand towards me. i imitated his action, and the glasses rang. "to a quick succession," said he, and raised his glass towards his lips. "not that," i said hastily. "not that." he paused, with the liqueur at the level of his chin, and his eyes blazing into mine. "to a long life," said i. he hesitated. "to a long life," said he, with a sudden bark of laughter, and with eyes fixed on one another we tilted the little glasses. his eyes looked straight into mine, and as i drained the stuff off, i felt a curiously intense sensation. the first touch of it set my brain in a furious tumult; i seemed to feel an actual physical stirring in my skull, and a seething humming filled my ears. i did not notice the flavour in my mouth, the aroma that filled my throat; i saw only the grey intensity of his gaze that burnt into mine. the draught, the mental confusion, the noise and stirring in my head, seemed to last an interminable time. curious vague impressions of half-forgotten things danced and vanished on the edge of my consciousness. at last he broke the spell. with a sudden explosive sigh he put down his glass. "well?" he said. "it's glorious," said i, though i had not tasted the stuff. my head was spinning. i sat down. my brain was chaos. then my perception grew clear and minute as though i saw things in a concave mirror. his manner seemed to have changed into something nervous and hasty. he pulled out his watch and grimaced at it. "eleven-seven! and to-night i must--seven--twenty-five. waterloo! i must go at once." he called for the bill, and struggled with his coat. officious waiters came to our assistance. in another moment i was wishing him good-bye, over the apron of a cab, and still with an absurd feeling of minute distinctness, as though--how can i express it?--i not only saw but _felt_ through an inverted opera-glass. "that stuff," he said. he put his hand to his forehead. "i ought not to have given it to you. it will make your head split to-morrow. wait a minute. here." he handed me out a little flat thing like a seidlitz-powder. "take that in water as you are going to bed. the other thing was a drug. not till you're ready to go to bed, mind. it will clear your head. that's all. one more shake--futurus!" i gripped his shrivelled claw. "good-bye," he said, and by the droop of his eyelids i judged he too was a little under the influence of that brain-twisting cordial. he recollected something else with a start, felt in his breast-pocket, and produced another packet, this time a cylinder the size and shape of a shaving-stick. "here," said he. "i'd almost forgotten. don't open this until i come to-morrow--but take it now." it was so heavy that i well-nigh dropped it. "all ri'!" said i, and he grinned at me through the cab window as the cabman flicked his horse into wakefulness. it was a white packet he had given me, with red seals at either end and along its edge. "if this isn't money," said i, "it's platinum or lead." i stuck it with elaborate care into my pocket, and with a whirling brain walked home through the regent street loiterers and the dark back streets beyond portland road. i remember the sensations of that walk very vividly, strange as they were. i was still so far myself that i could notice my strange mental state, and wonder whether this stuff i had had was opium--a drug beyond my experience. it is hard now to describe the peculiarity of my mental strangeness--mental doubling vaguely expresses it. as i was walking up regent street i found in my mind a queer persuasion that it was waterloo station, and had an odd impulse to get into the polytechnic as a man might get into a train. i put a knuckle in my eye, and it was regent street. how can i express it? you see a skilful actor looking quietly at you, he pulls a grimace, and lo!--another person. is it too extravagant if i tell you that it seemed to me as if regent street had, for the moment, done that? then, being persuaded it was regent street again, i was oddly muddled about some fantastic reminiscences that cropped up. "thirty years ago," thought i, "it was here that i quarrelled with my brother." then i burst out laughing, to the astonishment and encouragement of a group of night prowlers. thirty years ago i did not exist, and never in my life had i boasted a brother. the stuff was surely liquid folly, for the poignant regret for that lost brother still clung to me. along portland road the madness took another turn. i began to recall vanished shops, and to compare the street with what it used to be. confused, troubled thinking is comprehensible enough after the drink i had taken, but what puzzled me were these curiously vivid phantasm memories that had crept into my mind, and not only the memories that had crept in, but also the memories that had slipped out. i stopped opposite stevens', the natural history dealer's, and cudgelled my brains to think what he had to do with me. a 'bus went by, and sounded exactly like the rumbling of a train. i seemed to be dipped into some dark, remote pit for the recollection. "of course," said i, at last, "he has promised me three frogs to-morrow. odd i should have forgotten." do they still show children dissolving views? in those i remember one view would begin like a faint ghost, and grow and oust another. in just that way it seemed to me that a ghostly set of new sensations was struggling with those of my ordinary self. i went on through euston road to tottenham court road, puzzled, and a little frightened, and scarcely noticed the unusual way i was taking, for commonly i used to cut through the intervening network of back streets. i turned into university street, to discover that i had forgotten my number. only by a strong effort did i recall a, and even then it seemed to me that it was a thing some forgotten person had told me. i tried to steady my mind by recalling the incidents of the dinner, and for the life of me i could conjure up no picture of my host's face; i saw him only as a shadowy outline, as one might see oneself reflected in a window through which one was looking. in his place, however, i had a curious exterior vision of myself sitting at a table, flushed, bright-eyed, and talkative. "i must take this other powder," said i. "this is getting impossible." i tried the wrong side of the hall for my candle and the matches, and had a doubt of which landing my room might be on. "i'm drunk," i said, "that's certain," and blundered needlessly on the staircase to sustain the proposition. at the first glance my room seemed unfamiliar. "what rot!" i said, and stared about me. i seemed to bring myself back by the effort, and the odd phantasmal quality passed into the concrete familiar. there was the old glass still, with my notes on the albumens stuck in the corner of the frame, my old everyday suit of clothes pitched about the floor. and yet it was not so real after all. i felt an idiotic persuasion trying to creep into my mind, as it were, that i was in a railway carriage in a train just stopping, that i was peering out of the window at some unknown station. i gripped the bed-rail firmly to reassure myself. "it's clairvoyance, perhaps," i said. "i must write to the psychical research society." i put the rouleau on my dressing-table, sat on my bed and began to take off my boots. it was as if the picture of my present sensations was painted over some other picture that was trying to show through. "curse it!" said i; "my wits are going, or am i in two places at once?" half-undressed, i tossed the powder into a glass and drank it off. it effervesced, and became a fluorescent amber colour. before i was in bed my mind was already tranquillised. i felt the pillow at my cheek, and thereupon i must have fallen asleep. * * * * * i awoke abruptly out of a dream of strange beasts, and found myself lying on my back. probably everyone knows that dismal, emotional dream from which one escapes, awake indeed, but strangely cowed. there was a curious taste in my mouth, a tired feeling in my limbs, a sense of cutaneous discomfort. i lay with my head motionless on my pillow, expecting that my feeling of strangeness and terror would probably pass away, and that i should then doze off again to sleep. but instead of that, my uncanny sensations increased. at first i could perceive nothing wrong about me. there was a faint light in the room, so faint that it was the very next thing to darkness, and the furniture stood out in it as vague blots of absolute darkness. i stared with my eyes just over the bedclothes. it came into my mind that someone had entered the room to rob me of my rouleau of money, but after lying for some moments, breathing regularly to simulate sleep, i realised this was mere fancy. nevertheless, the uneasy assurance of something wrong kept fast hold of me. with an effort i raised my head from the pillow, and peered about me at the dark. what it was i could not conceive. i looked at the dim shapes around me, the greater and lesser darknesses that indicated curtains, table, fireplace, bookshelves, and so forth. then i began to perceive something unfamiliar in the forms of the darkness. had the bed turned round? yonder should be the bookshelves, and something shrouded and pallid rose there, something that would not answer to the bookshelves, however i looked at it. it was far too big to be my shirt thrown on a chair. overcoming a childish terror, i threw back the bedclothes and thrust my leg out of bed. instead of coming out of my truckle-bed upon the floor, i found my foot scarcely reached the edge of the mattress. i made another step, as it were, and sat up on the edge of the bed. by the side of my bed should be the candle, and the matches upon the broken chair. i put out my hand and touched--nothing. i waved my hand in the darkness, and it came against some heavy hanging, soft and thick in texture, which gave a rustling noise at my touch. i grasped this and pulled it; it appeared to be a curtain suspended over the head of my bed. i was now thoroughly awake, and beginning to realise that i was in a strange room. i was puzzled. i tried to recall the overnight circumstances, and i found them now, curiously enough, vivid in my memory: the supper, my reception of the little packages, my wonder whether i was intoxicated, my slow undressing, the coolness to my flushed face of my pillow. i felt a sudden distrust. was that last night, or the night before? at anyrate, this room was strange to me, and i could not imagine how i had got into it. the dim, pallid outline was growing paler, and i perceived it was a window, with the dark shape of an oval toilet-glass against the weak intimation of the dawn that filtered through the blind. i stood up, and was surprised by a curious feeling of weakness and unsteadiness. with trembling hands outstretched, i walked slowly towards the window, getting, nevertheless, a bruise on the knee from a chair by the way. i fumbled round the glass, which was large, with handsome brass sconces, to find the blind-cord. i could not find any. by chance i took hold of the tassel, and with the click of a spring the blind ran up. i found myself looking out upon a scene that was altogether strange to me. the night was overcast, and through the flocculent grey of the heaped clouds there filtered a faint half-light of dawn. just at the edge of the sky, the cloud-canopy had a blood-red rim. below, everything was dark and indistinct, dim hills in the distance, a vague mass of buildings running up into pinnacles, trees like spilt ink, and below the window a tracery of black bushes and pale grey paths. it was so unfamiliar that for the moment i thought myself still dreaming. i felt the toilet-table; it appeared to be made of some polished wood, and was rather elaborately furnished--there were little cut-glass bottles and a brush upon it. there was also a queer little object, horse-shoe-shaped it felt, with smooth, hard projections, lying in a saucer. i could find no matches nor candlestick. i turned my eyes to the room again. now the blind was up, faint spectres of its furnishing came out of the darkness. there was a huge curtained bed, and the fireplace at its foot had a large white mantel with something of the shimmer of marble. i leant against the toilet-table, shut my eyes and opened them again, and tried to think. the whole thing was far too real for dreaming. i was inclined to imagine there was still some hiatus in my memory, as a consequence of my draught of that strange liqueur; that i had come into my inheritance perhaps, and suddenly lost my recollection of everything since my good fortune had been announced. perhaps if i waited a little, things would be clearer to me again. yet my dinner with old elvesham was now singularly vivid and recent. the champagne, the observant waiters, the powder, and the liqueurs--i could have staked my soul it all happened a few hours ago. and then occurred a thing so trivial and yet so terrible to me that i shiver now to think of that moment. i spoke aloud. i said, "how the devil did i get here?" ... _and the voice was not my own._ it was not my own, it was thin, the articulation was slurred, the resonance of my facial bones was different. then, to reassure myself i ran one hand over the other, and felt loose folds of skin, the bony laxity of age. "surely," i said, in that horrible voice that had somehow established itself in my throat, "surely this thing is a dream!" almost as quickly as if i did it involuntarily, i thrust my fingers into my mouth. my teeth had gone. my finger-tips ran on the flaccid surface of an even row of shrivelled gums. i was sick with dismay and disgust. i felt then a passionate desire to see myself, to realise at once in its full horror the ghastly change that had come upon me. i tottered to the mantel, and felt along it for matches. as i did so, a barking cough sprang up in my throat, and i clutched the thick flannel nightdress i found about me. there were no matches there, and i suddenly realised that my extremities were cold. sniffing and coughing, whimpering a little, perhaps, i fumbled back to bed. "it is surely a dream," i whimpered to myself as i clambered back, "surely a dream." it was a senile repetition. i pulled the bedclothes over my shoulders, over my ears, i thrust my withered hand under the pillow, and determined to compose myself to sleep. of course it was a dream. in the morning the dream would be over, and i should wake up strong and vigorous again to my youth and studies. i shut my eyes, breathed regularly, and, finding myself wakeful, began to count slowly through the powers of three. but the thing i desired would not come. i could not get to sleep. and the persuasion of the inexorable reality of the change that had happened to me grew steadily. presently i found myself with my eyes wide open, the powers of three forgotten, and my skinny fingers upon my shrivelled gums. i was, indeed, suddenly and abruptly, an old man. i had in some unaccountable manner fallen through my life and come to old age, in some way i had been cheated of all the best of my life, of love, of struggle, of strength, and hope. i grovelled into the pillow and tried to persuade myself that such hallucination was possible. imperceptibly, steadily, the dawn grew clearer. at last, despairing of further sleep, i sat up in bed and looked about me. a chill twilight rendered the whole chamber visible. it was spacious and well-furnished, better furnished than any room i had ever slept in before. a candle and matches became dimly visible upon a little pedestal in a recess. i threw back the bedclothes, and, shivering with the rawness of the early morning, albeit it was summer-time, i got out and lit the candle. then, trembling horribly, so that the extinguisher rattled on its spike, i tottered to the glass and saw--_elvesham's face!_ it was none the less horrible because i had already dimly feared as much. he had already seemed physically weak and pitiful to me, but seen now, dressed only in a coarse flannel nightdress that fell apart and showed the stringy neck, seen now as my own body, i cannot describe its desolate decrepitude. the hollow cheeks, the straggling tail of dirty grey hair, the rheumy bleared eyes, the quivering, shrivelled lips, the lower displaying a gleam of the pink interior lining, and those horrible dark gums showing. you who are mind and body together, at your natural years, cannot imagine what this fiendish imprisonment meant to me. to be young and full of the desire and energy of youth, and to be caught, and presently to be crushed in this tottering ruin of a body.... but i wander from the course of my story. for some time i must have been stunned at this change that had come upon me. it was daylight when i did so far gather myself together as to think. in some inexplicable way i had been changed, though how, short of magic, the thing had been done, i could not say. and as i thought, the diabolical ingenuity of elvesham came home to me. it seemed plain to me that as i found myself in his, so he must be in possession of _my_ body, of my strength, that is, and my future. but how to prove it? then, as i thought, the thing became so incredible, even to me, that my mind reeled, and i had to pinch myself, to feel my toothless gums, to see myself in the glass, and touch the things about me, before i could steady myself to face the facts again. was all life hallucination? was i indeed elvesham, and he me? had i been dreaming of eden overnight? was there any eden? but if i was elvesham, i should remember where i was on the previous morning, the name of the town in which i lived, what happened before the dream began. i struggled with my thoughts. i recalled the queer doubleness of my memories overnight. but now my mind was clear. not the ghost of any memories but those proper to eden could i raise. "this way lies insanity!" i cried in my piping voice. i staggered to my feet, dragged my feeble, heavy limbs to the washhand-stand, and plunged my grey head into a basin of cold water. then, towelling myself, i tried again. it was no good. i felt beyond all question that i was indeed eden, not elvesham. but eden in elvesham's body! had i been a man of any other age, i might have given myself up to my fate as one enchanted. but in these sceptical days miracles do not pass current. here was some trick of psychology. what a drug and a steady stare could do, a drug and a steady stare, or some similar treatment, could surely undo. men have lost their memories before. but to exchange memories as one does umbrellas! i laughed. alas! not a healthy laugh, but a wheezing, senile titter. i could have fancied old elvesham laughing at my plight, and a gust of petulant anger, unusual to me, swept across my feelings. i began dressing eagerly in the clothes i found lying about on the floor, and only realised when i was dressed that it was an evening suit i had assumed. i opened the wardrobe and found some more ordinary clothes, a pair of plaid trousers, and an old-fashioned dressing-gown. i put a venerable smoking-cap on my venerable head, and, coughing a little from my exertions, tottered out upon the landing. it was then, perhaps, a quarter to six, and the blinds were closely drawn and the house quite silent. the landing was a spacious one, a broad, richly-carpeted staircase went down into the darkness of the hall below, and before me a door ajar showed me a writing-desk, a revolving bookcase, the back of a study chair, and a fine array of bound books, shelf upon shelf. "my study," i mumbled, and walked across the landing. then at the sound of my voice a thought struck me, and i went back to the bedroom and put in the set of false teeth. they slipped in with the ease of old habit. "that's better," said i, gnashing them, and so returned to the study. the drawers of the writing-desk were locked. its revolving top was also locked. i could see no indications of the keys, and there were none in the pockets of my trousers. i shuffled back at once to the bedroom, and went through the dress suit, and afterwards the pockets of all the garments i could find. i was very eager, and one might have imagined that burglars had been at work, to see my room when i had done. not only were there no keys to be found, but not a coin, nor a scrap of paper--save only the receipted bill of the overnight dinner. a curious weariness asserted itself. i sat down and stared at the garments flung here and there, their pockets turned inside out. my first frenzy had already flickered out. every moment i was beginning to realise the immense intelligence of the plans of my enemy, to see more and more clearly the hopelessness of my position. with an effort i rose and hurried hobbling into the study again. on the staircase was a housemaid pulling up the blinds. she stared, i think, at the expression of my face. i shut the door of the study behind me, and, seizing a poker, began an attack upon the desk. that is how they found me. the cover of the desk was split, the lock smashed, the letters torn out of the pigeon-holes and tossed about the room. in my senile rage i had flung about the pens and other such light stationery, and overturned the ink. moreover, a large vase upon the mantel had got broken--i do not know how. i could find no cheque-book, no money, no indications of the slightest use for the recovery of my body. i was battering madly at the drawers, when the butler, backed by two women-servants, intruded upon me. * * * * * that simply is the story of my change. no one will believe my frantic assertions. i am treated as one demented, and even at this moment i am under restraint. but i am sane, absolutely sane, and to prove it i have sat down to write this story minutely as the things happened to me. i appeal to the reader, whether there is any trace of insanity in the style or method of the story he has been reading. i am a young man locked away in an old man's body. but the clear fact is incredible to everyone. naturally i appear demented to those who will not believe this, naturally i do not know the names of my secretaries, of the doctors who come to see me, of my servants and neighbours, of this town (wherever it is) where i find myself. naturally i lose myself in my own house, and suffer inconveniences of every sort. naturally i ask the oddest questions. naturally i weep and cry out, and have paroxysms of despair. i have no money and no cheque-book. the bank will not recognise my signature, for i suppose that, allowing for the feeble muscles i now have, my handwriting is still eden's. these people about me will not let me go to the bank personally. it seems, indeed, that there is no bank in this town, and that i have an account in some part of london. it seems that elvesham kept the name of his solicitor secret from all his household--i can ascertain nothing. elvesham was, of course, a profound student of mental science, and all my declarations of the facts of the case merely confirm the theory that my insanity is the outcome of overmuch brooding upon psychology. dreams of the personal identity indeed! two days ago i was a healthy youngster, with all life before me; now i am a furious old man, unkempt, and desperate, and miserable, prowling about a great luxurious strange house, watched, feared, and avoided as a lunatic by everyone about me. and in london is elvesham beginning life again in a vigorous body, and with all the accumulated knowledge and wisdom of threescore and ten. he has stolen my life. what has happened i do not clearly know. in the study are volumes of manuscript notes referring chiefly to the psychology of memory, and parts of what may be either calculations or ciphers in symbols absolutely strange to me. in some passages there are indications that he was also occupied with the philosophy of mathematics. i take it he has transferred the whole of his memories, the accumulation that makes up his personality, from this old withered brain of his to mine, and, similarly, that he has transferred mine to his discarded tenement. practically, that is, he has changed bodies. but how such a change may be possible is without the range of my philosophy. i have been a materialist for all my thinking life, but here, suddenly, is a clear case of man's detachability from matter. one desperate experiment i am about to try. i sit writing here before putting the matter to issue. this morning, with the help of a table-knife that i had secreted at breakfast, i succeeded in breaking open a fairly obvious secret drawer in this wrecked writing-desk. i discovered nothing save a little green glass phial containing a white powder. round the neck of the phial was a label, and thereon was written this one word, "_release_." this may be--is most probably, poison. i can understand elvesham placing poison in my way, and i should be sure that it was his intention so to get rid of the only living witness against him, were it not for this careful concealment. the man has practically solved the problem of immortality. save for the spite of chance, he will live in my body until it has aged, and then, again, throwing that aside, he will assume some other victim's youth and strength. when one remembers his heartlessness, it is terrible to think of the ever-growing experience, that.... how long has he been leaping from body to body?... but i tire of writing. the powder appears to be soluble in water. the taste is not unpleasant. * * * * * there the narrative found upon mr. elvesham's desk ends. his dead body lay between the desk and the chair. the latter had been pushed back, probably by his last convulsions. the story was written in pencil, and in a crazy hand, quite unlike his usual minute characters. there remain only two curious facts to record. indisputably there was some connection between eden and elvesham, since the whole of elvesham's property was bequeathed to the young man. but he never inherited. when elvesham committed suicide, eden was, strangely enough, already dead. twenty-four hours before, he had been knocked down by a cab and killed instantly, at the crowded crossing at the intersection of gower street and euston road. so that the only human being who could have thrown light upon this fantastic narrative is beyond the reach of questions. without further comment i leave this extraordinary matter to the reader's individual judgment. in the abyss the lieutenant stood in front of the steel sphere and gnawed a piece of pine splinter. "what do you think of it, steevens?" he asked. "it's an idea," said steevens, in the tone of one who keeps an open mind. "i believe it will smash--flat," said the lieutenant. "he seems to have calculated it all out pretty well," said steevens, still impartial. "but think of the pressure," said the lieutenant. "at the surface of the water it's fourteen pounds to the inch, thirty feet down it's double that; sixty, treble; ninety, four times; nine hundred, forty times; five thousand, three hundred--that's a mile--it's two hundred and forty times fourteen pounds; that's--let's see--thirty hundredweight--a ton and a half, steevens; _a ton and a half_ to the square inch. and the ocean where he's going is five miles deep. that's seven and a half"-- "sounds a lot," said steevens, "but it's jolly thick steel." the lieutenant made no answer, but resumed his pine splinter. the object of their conversation was a huge ball of steel, having an exterior diameter of perhaps nine feet. it looked like the shot for some titanic piece of artillery. it was elaborately nested in a monstrous scaffolding built into the framework of the vessel, and the gigantic spars that were presently to sling it overboard gave the stern of the ship an appearance that had raised the curiosity of every decent sailor who had sighted it, from the pool of london to the tropic of capricorn. in two places, one above the other, the steel gave place to a couple of circular windows of enormously thick glass, and one of these, set in a steel frame of great solidity, was now partially unscrewed. both the men had seen the interior of this globe for the first time that morning. it was elaborately padded with air cushions, with little studs sunk between bulging pillows to work the simple mechanism of the affair. everything was elaborately padded, even the myers apparatus which was to absorb carbonic acid and replace the oxygen inspired by its tenant, when he had crept in by the glass manhole, and had been screwed in. it was so elaborately padded that a man might have been fired from a gun in it with perfect safety. and it had need to be, for presently a man was to crawl in through that glass manhole, to be screwed up tightly, and to be flung overboard, and to sink down--down--down, for five miles, even as the lieutenant said. it had taken the strongest hold of his imagination; it made him a bore at mess; and he found steevens, the new arrival aboard, a godsend to talk to about it, over and over again. "it's my opinion," said the lieutenant, "that that glass will simply bend in and bulge and smash, under a pressure of that sort. daubrée has made rocks run like water under big pressures--and, you mark my words"-- "if the glass did break in," said steevens, "what then?" "the water would shoot in like a jet of iron. have you ever felt a straight jet of high pressure water? it would hit as hard as a bullet. it would simply smash him and flatten him. it would tear down his throat, and into his lungs; it would blow in his ears"-- "what a detailed imagination you have!" protested steevens, who saw things vividly. "it's a simple statement of the inevitable," said the lieutenant. "and the globe?" "would just give out a few little bubbles, and it would settle down comfortably against the day of judgment, among the oozes and the bottom clay--with poor elstead spread over his own smashed cushions like butter over bread." he repeated this sentence as though he liked it very much. "like butter over bread," he said. "having a look at the jigger?" said a voice, and elstead stood behind them, spick and span in white, with a cigarette between his teeth, and his eyes smiling out of the shadow of his ample hat-brim. "what's that about bread and butter, weybridge? grumbling as usual about the insufficient pay of naval officers? it won't be more than a day now before i start. we are to get the slings ready to-day. this clean sky and gentle swell is just the kind of thing for swinging off a dozen tons of lead and iron; isn't it?" "it won't affect you much," said weybridge. "no. seventy or eighty feet down, and i shall be there in a dozen seconds, there's not a particle moving, though the wind shriek itself hoarse up above, and the water lifts halfway to the clouds. no. down there"-- he moved to the side of the ship and the other two followed him. all three leant forward on their elbows and stared down into the yellow-green water. "_peace_," said elstead, finishing his thought aloud. "are you dead certain that clockwork will act?" asked weybridge presently. "it has worked thirty-five times," said elstead. "it's bound to work." "but if it doesn't?" "why shouldn't it?" "i wouldn't go down in that confounded thing," said weybridge, "for twenty thousand pounds." "cheerful chap you are," said elstead, and spat sociably at a bubble below. "i don't understand yet how you mean to work the thing," said steevens. "in the first place, i'm screwed into the sphere," said elstead, "and when i've turned the electric light off and on three times to show i'm cheerful, i'm swung out over the stern by that crane, with all those big lead sinkers slung below me. the top lead weight has a roller carrying a hundred fathoms of strong cord rolled up, and that's all that joins the sinkers to the sphere, except the slings that will be cut when the affair is dropped. we use cord rather than wire rope because it's easier to cut and more buoyant--necessary points, as you will see. "through each of these lead weights you notice there is a hole, and an iron rod will be run through that and will project six feet on the lower side. if that rod is rammed up from below, it knocks up a lever and sets the clockwork in motion at the side of the cylinder on which the cord winds. "very well. the whole affair is lowered gently into the water, and the slings are cut. the sphere floats,--with the air in it, it's lighter than water,--but the lead weights go down straight and the cord runs out. when the cord is all paid out, the sphere will go down too, pulled down by the cord." "but why the cord?" asked steevens. "why not fasten the weights directly to the sphere?" "because of the smash down below. the whole affair will go rushing down, mile after mile, at a headlong pace at last. it would be knocked to pieces on the bottom if it wasn't for that cord. but the weights will hit the bottom, and directly they do, the buoyancy of the sphere will come into play. it will go on sinking slower and slower; come to a stop at last, and then begin to float upward again. "that's where the clockwork comes in. directly the weights smash against the sea bottom, the rod will be knocked through and will kick up the clockwork, and the cord will be rewound on the reel. i shall be lugged down to the sea bottom. there i shall stay for half an hour, with the electric light on, looking about me. then the clockwork will release a spring knife, the cord will be cut, and up i shall rush again, like a soda-water bubble. the cord itself will help the flotation." "and if you should chance to hit a ship?" said weybridge. "i should come up at such a pace, i should go clean through it," said elstead, "like a cannon ball. you needn't worry about that." "and suppose some nimble crustacean should wriggle into your clockwork"-- "it would be a pressing sort of invitation for me to stop," said elstead, turning his back on the water and staring at the sphere. * * * * * they had swung elstead overboard by eleven o'clock. the day was serenely bright and calm, with the horizon lost in haze. the electric glare in the little upper compartment beamed cheerfully three times. then they let him down slowly to the surface of the water, and a sailor in the stern chains hung ready to cut the tackle that held the lead weights and the sphere together. the globe, which had looked so large on deck, looked the smallest thing conceivable under the stern of the ship. it rolled a little, and its two dark windows, which floated uppermost, seemed like eyes turned up in round wonderment at the people who crowded the rail. a voice wondered how elstead liked the rolling. "are you ready?" sang out the commander. "ay, ay, sir!" "then let her go!" the rope of the tackle tightened against the blade and was cut, and an eddy rolled over the globe in a grotesquely helpless fashion. someone waved a handkerchief, someone else tried an ineffectual cheer, a middy was counting slowly, "eight, nine, ten!" another roll, then with a jerk and a splash the thing righted itself. it seemed to be stationary for a moment, to grow rapidly smaller, and then the water closed over it, and it became visible, enlarged by refraction and dimmer, below the surface. before one could count three it had disappeared. there was a flicker of white light far down in the water, that diminished to a speck and vanished. then there was nothing but a depth of water going down into blackness, through which a shark was swimming. then suddenly the screw of the cruiser began to rotate, the water was crickled, the shark disappeared in a wrinkled confusion, and a torrent of foam rushed across the crystalline clearness that had swallowed up elstead. "what's the idee?" said one a.b. to another. "we're going to lay off about a couple of miles, 'fear he should hit us when he comes up," said his mate. the ship steamed slowly to her new position. aboard her almost everyone who was unoccupied remained watching the breathing swell into which the sphere had sunk. for the next half-hour it is doubtful if a word was spoken that did not bear directly or indirectly on elstead. the december sun was now high in the sky, and the heat very considerable. "he'll be cold enough down there," said weybridge. "they say that below a certain depth sea water's always just about freezing." "where'll he come up?" asked steevens. "i've lost my bearings." "that's the spot," said the commander, who prided himself on his omniscience. he extended a precise finger south-eastward. "and this, i reckon, is pretty nearly the moment," he said. "he's been thirty-five minutes." "how long does it take to reach the bottom of the ocean?" asked steevens. "for a depth of five miles, and reckoning--as we did--an acceleration of two feet per second, both ways, is just about three-quarters of a minute." "then he's overdue," said weybridge. "pretty nearly," said the commander. "i suppose it takes a few minutes for that cord of his to wind in." "i forgot that," said weybridge, evidently relieved. and then began the suspense. a minute slowly dragged itself out, and no sphere shot out of the water. another followed, and nothing broke the low oily swell. the sailors explained to one another that little point about the winding-in of the cord. the rigging was dotted with expectant faces. "come up, elstead!" called one hairy-chested salt impatiently, and the others caught it up, and shouted as though they were waiting for the curtain of a theatre to rise. the commander glanced irritably at them. "of course, if the acceleration's less than two," he said, "he'll be all the longer. we aren't absolutely certain that was the proper figure. i'm no slavish believer in calculations." steevens agreed concisely. no one on the quarter-deck spoke for a couple of minutes. then steevens' watchcase clicked. when, twenty-one minutes after, the sun reached the zenith, they were still waiting for the globe to reappear, and not a man aboard had dared to whisper that hope was dead. it was weybridge who first gave expression to that realisation. he spoke while the sound of eight bells still hung in the air. "i always distrusted that window," he said quite suddenly to steevens. "good god!" said steevens; "you don't think--?" "well!" said weybridge, and left the rest to his imagination. "i'm no great believer in calculations myself," said the commander dubiously, "so that i'm not altogether hopeless yet." and at midnight the gunboat was steaming slowly in a spiral round the spot where the globe had sunk, and the white beam of the electric light fled and halted and swept discontentedly onward again over the waste of phosphorescent waters under the little stars. "if his window hasn't burst and smashed him," said weybridge, "then it's a cursed sight worse, for his clockwork has gone wrong, and he's alive now, five miles under our feet, down there in the cold and dark, anchored in that little bubble of his, where never a ray of light has shone or a human being lived, since the waters were gathered together. he's there without food, feeling hungry and thirsty and scared, wondering whether he'll starve or stifle. which will it be? the myers apparatus is running out, i suppose. how long do they last?" "good heavens!" he exclaimed; "what little things we are! what daring little devils! down there, miles and miles of water--all water, and all this empty water about us and this sky. gulfs!" he threw his hands out, and as he did so, a little white streak swept noiselessly up the sky, travelled more slowly, stopped, became a motionless dot, as though a new star had fallen up into the sky. then it went sliding back again and lost itself amidst the reflections of the stars and the white haze of the sea's phosphorescence. at the sight he stopped, arm extended and mouth open. he shut his mouth, opened it again, and waved his arms with an impatient gesture. then he turned, shouted "el-stead ahoy!" to the first watch, and went at a run to lindley and the search-light. "i saw him," he said. "starboard there! his light's on, and he's just shot out of the water. bring the light round. we ought to see him drifting, when he lifts on the swell." but they never picked up the explorer until dawn. then they almost ran him down. the crane was swung out and a boat's crew hooked the chain to the sphere. when they had shipped the sphere, they unscrewed the manhole and peered into the darkness of the interior (for the electric light chamber was intended to illuminate the water about the sphere, and was shut off entirely from its general cavity). the air was very hot within the cavity, and the indiarubber at the lip of the manhole was soft. there was no answer to their eager questions and no sound of movement within. elstead seemed to be lying motionless, crumpled up in the bottom of the globe. the ship's doctor crawled in and lifted him out to the men outside. for a moment or so they did not know whether elstead was alive or dead. his face, in the yellow light of the ship's lamps, glistened with perspiration. they carried him down to his own cabin. he was not dead, they found, but in a state of absolute nervous collapse, and besides cruelly bruised. for some days he had to lie perfectly still. it was a week before he could tell his experiences. almost his first words were that he was going down again. the sphere would have to be altered, he said, in order to allow him to throw off the cord if need be, and that was all. he had had the most marvellous experience. "you thought i should find nothing but ooze," he said. "you laughed at my explorations, and i've discovered a new world!" he told his story in disconnected fragments, and chiefly from the wrong end, so that it is impossible to re-tell it in his words. but what follows is the narrative of his experience. it began atrociously, he said. before the cord ran out, the thing kept rolling over. he felt like a frog in a football. he could see nothing but the crane and the sky overhead, with an occasional glimpse of the people on the ship's rail. he couldn't tell a bit which way the thing would roll next. suddenly he would find his feet going up, and try to step, and over he went rolling, head over heels, and just anyhow, on the padding. any other shape would have been more comfortable, but no other shape was to be relied upon under the huge pressure of the nethermost abyss. suddenly the swaying ceased; the globe righted, and when he had picked himself up, he saw the water all about him greeny-blue, with an attenuated light filtering down from above, and a shoal of little floating things went rushing up past him, as it seemed to him, towards the light. and even as he looked, it grew darker and darker, until the water above was as dark as the midnight sky, albeit of a greener shade, and the water below black. and little transparent things in the water developed a faint glint of luminosity, and shot past him in faint greenish streaks. and the feeling of falling! it was just like the start of a lift, he said, only it kept on. one has to imagine what that means, that keeping on. it was then of all times that elstead repented of his adventure. he saw the chances against him in an altogether new light. he thought of the big cuttlefish people knew to exist in the middle waters, the kind of things they find half digested in whales at times, or floating dead and rotten and half eaten by fish. suppose one caught hold and wouldn't let go. and had the clockwork really been sufficiently tested? but whether he wanted to go on or to go back mattered not the slightest now. in fifty seconds everything was as black as night outside, except where the beam from his light struck through the waters, and picked out every now and then some fish or scrap of sinking matter. they flashed by too fast for him to see what they were. once he thinks he passed a shark. and then the sphere began to get hot by friction against the water. they had underestimated this, it seems. the first thing he noticed was that he was perspiring, and then he heard a hissing growing louder under his feet, and saw a lot of little bubbles--very little bubbles they were--rushing upward like a fan through the water outside. steam! he felt the window, and it was hot. he turned on the minute glow-lamp that lit his own cavity, looked at the padded watch by the studs, and saw he had been travelling now for two minutes. it came into his head that the window would crack through the conflict of temperatures, for he knew the bottom water is very near freezing. then suddenly the floor of the sphere seemed to press against his feet, the rush of bubbles outside grew slower and slower, and the hissing diminished. the sphere rolled a little. the window had not cracked, nothing had given, and he knew that the dangers of sinking, at anyrate, were over. in another minute or so he would be on the floor of the abyss. he thought, he said, of steevens and weybridge and the rest of them five miles overhead, higher to him than the very highest clouds that ever floated over land are to us, steaming slowly and staring down and wondering what had happened to him. he peered out of the window. there were no more bubbles now, and the hissing had stopped. outside there was a heavy blackness--as black as black velvet--except where the electric light pierced the empty water and showed the colour of it--a yellow-green. then three things like shapes of fire swam into sight, following each other through the water. whether they were little and near or big and far off he could not tell. each was outlined in a bluish light almost as bright as the lights of a fishing smack, a light which seemed to be smoking greatly, and all along the sides of them were specks of this, like the lighter portholes of a ship. their phosphorescence seemed to go out as they came into the radiance of his lamp, and he saw then that they were little fish of some strange sort, with huge heads, vast eyes, and dwindling bodies and tails. their eyes were turned towards him, and he judged they were following him down. he supposed they were attracted by his glare. presently others of the same sort joined them. as he went on down, he noticed that the water became of a pallid colour, and that little specks twinkled in his ray like motes in a sunbeam. this was probably due to the clouds of ooze and mud that the impact of his leaden sinkers had disturbed. by the time he was drawn down to the lead weights he was in a dense fog of white that his electric light failed altogether to pierce for more than a few yards, and many minutes elapsed before the hanging sheets of sediment subsided to any extent. then, lit by his light and by the transient phosphorescence of a distant shoal of fishes, he was able to see under the huge blackness of the super-incumbent water an undulating expanse of greyish-white ooze, broken here and there by tangled thickets of a growth of sea lilies, waving hungry tentacles in the air. farther away were the graceful, translucent outlines of a group of gigantic sponges. about this floor there were scattered a number of bristling flattish tufts of rich purple and black, which he decided must be some sort of sea-urchin, and small, large-eyed or blind things having a curious resemblance, some to woodlice, and others to lobsters, crawled sluggishly across the track of the light and vanished into the obscurity again, leaving furrowed trails behind them. then suddenly the hovering swarm of little fishes veered about and came towards him as a flight of starlings might do. they passed over him like a phosphorescent snow, and then he saw behind them some larger creature advancing towards the sphere. at first he could see it only dimly, a faintly moving figure remotely suggestive of a walking man, and then it came into the spray of light that the lamp shot out. as the glare struck it, it shut its eyes, dazzled. he stared in rigid astonishment. it was a strange vertebrated animal. its dark purple head was dimly suggestive of a chameleon, but it had such a high forehead and such a braincase as no reptile ever displayed before; the vertical pitch of its face gave it a most extraordinary resemblance to a human being. two large and protruding eyes projected from sockets in chameleon fashion, and it had a broad reptilian mouth with horny lips beneath its little nostrils. in the position of the ears were two huge gill-covers, and out of these floated a branching tree of coralline filaments, almost like the tree-like gills that very young rays and sharks possess. but the humanity of the face was not the most extraordinary thing about the creature. it was a biped; its almost globular body was poised on a tripod of two frog-like legs and a long thick tail, and its fore limbs, which grotesquely caricatured the human hand, much as a frog's do, carried a long shaft of bone, tipped with copper. the colour of the creature was variegated; its head, hands, and legs were purple; but its skin, which hung loosely upon it, even as clothes might do, was a phosphorescent grey. and it stood there blinded by the light. at last this unknown creature of the abyss blinked its eyes open, and, shading them with its disengaged hand, opened its mouth and gave vent to a shouting noise, articulate almost as speech might be, that penetrated even the steel case and padded jacket of the sphere. how a shouting may be accomplished without lungs elstead does not profess to explain. it then moved sideways out of the glare into the mystery of shadow that bordered it on either side, and elstead felt rather than saw that it was coming towards him. fancying the light had attracted it, he turned the switch that cut off the current. in another moment something soft dabbed upon the steel, and the globe swayed. then the shouting was repeated, and it seemed to him that a distant echo answered it. the dabbing recurred, and the globe swayed and ground against the spindle over which the wire was rolled. he stood in the blackness and peered out into the everlasting night of the abyss. and presently he saw, very faint and remote, other phosphorescent quasi-human forms hurrying towards him. hardly knowing what he did, he felt about in his swaying prison for the stud of the exterior electric light, and came by accident against his own small glow-lamp in its padded recess. the sphere twisted, and then threw him down; he heard shouts like shouts of surprise, and when he rose to his feet, he saw two pairs of stalked eyes peering into the lower window and reflecting his light. in another moment hands were dabbing vigorously at his steel casing, and there was a sound, horrible enough in his position, of the metal protection of the clockwork being vigorously hammered. that, indeed, sent his heart into his mouth, for if these strange creatures succeeded in stopping that, his release would never occur. scarcely had he thought as much when he felt the sphere sway violently, and the floor of it press hard against his feet. he turned off the small glow-lamp that lit the interior, and sent the ray of the large light in the separate compartment out into the water. the sea-floor and the man-like creatures had disappeared, and a couple of fish chasing each other dropped suddenly by the window. he thought at once that these strange denizens of the deep sea had broken the rope, and that he had escaped. he drove up faster and faster, and then stopped with a jerk that sent him flying against the padded roof of his prison. for half a minute, perhaps, he was too astonished to think. then he felt that the sphere was spinning slowly, and rocking, and it seemed to him that it was also being drawn through the water. by crouching close to the window, he managed to make his weight effective and roll that part of the sphere downward, but he could see nothing save the pale ray of his light striking down ineffectively into the darkness. it occurred to him that he would see more if he turned the lamp off, and allowed his eyes to grow accustomed to the profound obscurity. in this he was wise. after some minutes the velvety blackness became a translucent blackness, and then, far away, and as faint as the zodiacal light of an english summer evening, he saw shapes moving below. he judged these creatures had detached his cable, and were towing him along the sea bottom. and then he saw something faint and remote across the undulations of the submarine plain, a broad horizon of pale luminosity that extended this way and that way as far as the range of his little window permitted him to see. to this he was being towed, as a balloon might be towed by men out of the open country into a town. he approached it very slowly, and very slowly the dim irradiation was gathered together into more definite shapes. it was nearly five o'clock before he came over this luminous area, and by that time he could make out an arrangement suggestive of streets and houses grouped about a vast roofless erection that was grotesquely suggestive of a ruined abbey. it was spread out like a map below him. the houses were all roofless enclosures of walls, and their substance being, as he afterwards saw, of phosphorescent bones, gave the place an appearance as if it were built of drowned moonshine. among the inner caves of the place waving trees of crinoid stretched their tentacles, and tall, slender, glassy sponges shot like shining minarets and lilies of filmy light out of the general glow of the city. in the open spaces of the place he could see a stirring movement as of crowds of people, but he was too many fathoms above them to distinguish the individuals in those crowds. then slowly they pulled him down, and as they did so, the details of the place crept slowly upon his apprehension. he saw that the courses of the cloudy buildings were marked out with beaded lines of round objects, and then he perceived that at several points below him, in broad open spaces, were forms like the encrusted shapes of ships. slowly and surely he was drawn down, and the forms below him became brighter, clearer, more distinct. he was being pulled down, he perceived, towards the large building in the centre of the town, and he could catch a glimpse ever and again of the multitudinous forms that were lugging at his cord. he was astonished to see that the rigging of one of the ships, which formed such a prominent feature of the place, was crowded with a host of gesticulating figures regarding him, and then the walls of the great building rose about him silently, and hid the city from his eyes. and such walls they were, of water-logged wood, and twisted wire-rope, and iron spars, and copper, and the bones and skulls of dead men. the skulls ran in zigzag lines and spirals and fantastic curves over the building; and in and out of their eye-sockets, and over the whole surface of the place, lurked and played a multitude of silvery little fishes. suddenly his ears were filled with a low shouting and a noise like the violent blowing of horns, and this gave place to a fantastic chant. down the sphere sank, past the huge pointed windows, through which he saw vaguely a great number of these strange, ghostlike people regarding him, and at last he came to rest, as it seemed, on a kind of altar that stood in the centre of the place. and now he was at such a level that he could see these strange people of the abyss plainly once more. to his astonishment, he perceived that they were prostrating themselves before him, all save one, dressed as it seemed in a robe of placoid scales, and crowned with a luminous diadem, who stood with his reptilian mouth opening and shutting, as though he led the chanting of the worshippers. a curious impulse made elstead turn on his small glow-lamp again, so that he became visible to these creatures of the abyss, albeit the glare made them disappear forthwith into night. at this sudden sight of him, the chanting gave place to a tumult of exultant shouts; and elstead, being anxious to watch them, turned his light off again, and vanished from before their eyes. but for a time he was too blind to make out what they were doing, and when at last he could distinguish them, they were kneeling again. and thus they continued worshipping him, without rest or intermission, for the space of three hours. most circumstantial was elstead's account of this astounding city and its people, these people of perpetual night, who have never seen sun or moon or stars, green vegetation, nor any living, air-breathing creatures, who know nothing of fire, nor any light but the phosphorescent light of living things. startling as is his story, it is yet more startling to find that scientific men, of such eminence as adams and jenkins, find nothing incredible in it. they tell me they see no reason why intelligent, water-breathing, vertebrated creatures, inured to a low temperature and enormous pressure, and of such a heavy structure, that neither alive nor dead would they float, might not live upon the bottom of the deep sea, and quite unsuspected by us, descendants like ourselves of the great theriomorpha of the new red sandstone age. we should be known to them, however, as strange, meteoric creatures, wont to fall catastrophically dead out of the mysterious blackness of their watery sky. and not only we ourselves, but our ships, our metals, our appliances, would come raining down out of the night. sometimes sinking things would smite down and crush them, as if it were the judgment of some unseen power above, and sometimes would come things of the utmost rarity or utility, or shapes of inspiring suggestion. one can understand, perhaps, something of their behaviour at the descent of a living man, if one thinks what a barbaric people might do, to whom an enhaloed, shining creature came suddenly out of the sky. at one time or another elstead probably told the officers of the _ptarmigan_ every detail of his strange twelve hours in the abyss. that he also intended to write them down is certain, but he never did, and so unhappily we have to piece together the discrepant fragments of his story from the reminiscences of commander simmons, weybridge, steevens, lindley, and the others. we see the thing darkly in fragmentary glimpses--the huge ghostly building, the bowing, chanting people, with their dark chameleon-like heads and faintly luminous clothing, and elstead, with his light turned on again, vainly trying to convey to their minds that the cord by which the sphere was held was to be severed. minute after minute slipped away, and elstead, looking at his watch, was horrified to find that he had oxygen only for four hours more. but the chant in his honour kept on as remorselessly as if it was the marching song of his approaching death. the manner of his release he does not understand, but to judge by the end of cord that hung from the sphere, it had been cut through by rubbing against the edge of the altar. abruptly the sphere rolled over, and he swept up, out of their world, as an ethereal creature clothed in a vacuum would sweep through our own atmosphere back to its native ether again. he must have torn out of their sight as a hydrogen bubble hastens upward from our air. a strange ascension it must have seemed to them. the sphere rushed up with even greater velocity than, when weighted with the lead sinkers, it had rushed down. it became exceedingly hot. it drove up with the windows uppermost, and he remembers the torrent of bubbles frothing against the glass. every moment he expected this to fly. then suddenly something like a huge wheel seemed to be released in his head, the padded compartment began spinning about him, and he fainted. his next recollection was of his cabin, and of the doctor's voice. but that is the substance of the extraordinary story that elstead related in fragments to the officers of the _ptarmigan_. he promised to write it all down at a later date. his mind was chiefly occupied with the improvement of his apparatus, which was effected at rio. it remains only to tell that on february , , he made his second descent into the ocean abyss, with the improvements his first experience suggested. what happened we shall probably never know. he never returned. the _ptarmigan_ beat about over the point of his submersion, seeking him in vain for thirteen days. then she returned to rio, and the news was telegraphed to his friends. so the matter remains for the present. but it is hardly probable that no further attempt will be made to verify his strange story of these hitherto unsuspected cities of the deep sea. the apple "i must get rid of it," said the man in the corner of the carriage, abruptly breaking the silence. mr. hinchcliff looked up, hearing imperfectly. he had been lost in the rapt contemplation of the college cap tied by a string to his portmanteau handles--the outward and visible sign of his newly-gained pedagogic position--in the rapt appreciation of the college cap and the pleasant anticipations it excited. for mr. hinchcliff had just matriculated at london university, and was going to be junior assistant at the holmwood grammar school--a very enviable position. he stared across the carriage at his fellow-traveller. "why not give it away?" said this person. "give it away! why not?" he was a tall, dark, sunburnt man with a pale face. his arms were folded tightly, and his feet were on the seat in front of him. he was pulling at a lank black moustache. he stared hard at his toes. "why not?" he said. mr. hinchcliff coughed. the stranger lifted his eyes--they were curious, dark-grey eyes--and stared blankly at mr. hinchcliff for the best part of a minute, perhaps. his expression grew to interest. "yes," he said slowly. "why not? and end it." "i don't quite follow you, i'm afraid," said mr. hinchcliff, with another cough. "you don't quite follow me?" said the stranger quite mechanically, his singular eyes wandering from mr. hinchcliff to the bag with its ostentatiously displayed cap, and back to mr. hinchcliff's downy face. "you're so abrupt, you know," apologised mr hinchcliff. "why shouldn't i?" said the stranger, following his thoughts. "you are a student?" he said, addressing mr. hinchcliff. "i am--by correspondence--of the london university," said mr. hinchcliff, with irrepressible pride, and feeling nervously at his tie. "in pursuit of knowledge," said the stranger, and suddenly took his feet off the seat, put his fist on his knees, and stared at mr. hinchcliff as though he had never seen a student before. "yes," he said, and flung out an index finger. then he rose, took a bag from the hat-rack, and unlocked it. quite silently he drew out something round and wrapped in a quantity of silver-paper, and unfolded this carefully. he held it out towards mr. hinchcliff--a small, very smooth, golden-yellow fruit. mr. hinchcliff's eyes and mouth were open. he did not offer to take this object--if he was intended to take it. "that," said this fantastic stranger, speaking very slowly, "is the apple of the tree of knowledge. look at it--small, and bright, and wonderful--knowledge--and i am going to give it to you." mr. hinchcliff's mind worked painfully for a minute, and then the sufficient explanation, "mad!" flashed across his brain, and illuminated the whole situation. one humoured madmen. he put his head a little on one side. "the apple of the tree of knowledge, eigh!" said mr. hinchcliff, regarding it with a finely assumed air of interest, and then looking at the interlocutor. "but don't you want to eat it yourself? and besides--how did you come by it?" "it never fades. i have had it now three months. and it is ever bright and smooth and ripe and desirable, as you see it." he laid his hand on his knee and regarded the fruit musingly. then he began to wrap it again in the papers, as though he had abandoned his intention of giving it away. "but how did you come by it?" said mr. hinchcliff, who had his argumentative side. "and how do you know that it _is_ the fruit of the tree?" "i bought this fruit," said the stranger, "three months ago--for a drink of water and a crust of bread. the man who gave it to me--because i kept the life in him--was an armenian. armenia! that wonderful country, the first of all countries, where the ark of the flood remains to this day, buried in the glaciers of mount ararat. this man, i say, fleeing with others from the kurds who had come upon them, went up into desolate places among the mountains--places beyond the common knowledge of men. and fleeing from imminent pursuit, they came to a slope high among the mountain-peaks, green with a grass like knife-blades, that cut and slashed most pitilessly at anyone who went into it. the kurds were close behind, and there was nothing for it but to plunge in, and the worst of it was that the paths they made through it at the price of their blood served for the kurds to follow. every one of the fugitives was killed save this armenian and another. he heard the screams and cries of his friends, and the swish of the grass about those who were pursuing them--it was tall grass rising overhead. and then a shouting and answers, and when presently he paused, everything was still. he pushed out again, not understanding, cut and bleeding, until he came out on a steep slope of rocks below a precipice, and then he saw the grass was all on fire, and the smoke of it rose like a veil between him and his enemies." the stranger paused. "yes?" said mr. hinchcliff. "yes?" "there he was, all torn and bloody from the knife-blades of the grass, the rocks blazing under the afternoon sun--the sky molten brass--and the smoke of the fire driving towards him. he dared not stay there. death he did not mind, but torture! far away beyond the smoke he heard shouts and cries. women screaming. so he went clambering up a gorge in the rocks--everywhere were bushes with dry branches that stuck out like thorns among the leaves--until he clambered over the brow of a ridge that hid him. and then he met his companion, a shepherd, who had also escaped. and, counting cold and famine and thirst as nothing against the kurds, they went on into the heights, and among the snow and ice. they wandered three whole days. "the third day came the vision. i suppose hungry men often do see visions, but then there is this fruit." he lifted the wrapped globe in his hand. "and i have heard it, too, from other mountaineers who have known something of the legend. it was in the evening time, when the stars were increasing, that they came down a slope of polished rock into a huge dark valley all set about with strange, contorted trees, and in these trees hung little globes like glow-worm spheres, strange round yellow lights. "suddenly this valley was lit far away, many miles away, far down it, with a golden flame marching slowly athwart it, that made the stunted trees against it black as night, and turned the slopes all about them and their figures to the likeness of fiery gold. and at the vision they, knowing the legends of the mountains, instantly knew that it was eden they saw, or the sentinel of eden, and they fell upon their faces like men struck dead. "when they dared to look again the valley was dark for a space, and then the light came again--returning, a burning amber. "at that the shepherd sprang to his feet, and with a shout began to run down towards the light, but the other man was too fearful to follow him. he stood stunned, amazed, and terrified, watching his companion recede towards the marching glare. and hardly had the shepherd set out when there came a noise like thunder, the beating of invisible wings hurrying up the valley, and a great and terrible fear; and at that the man who gave me the fruit turned--if he might still escape. and hurrying headlong up the slope again, with that tumult sweeping after him, he stumbled against one of these stunted bushes, and a ripe fruit came off it into his hand. this fruit. forthwith, the wings and the thunder rolled all about him. he fell and fainted, and when he came to his senses, he was back among the blackened ruins of his own village, and i and the others were attending to the wounded. a vision? but the golden fruit of the tree was still clutched in his hand. there were others there who knew the legend, knew what that strange fruit might be." he paused. "and this is it," he said. it was a most extraordinary story to be told in a third-class carriage on a sussex railway. it was as if the real was a mere veil to the fantastic, and here was the fantastic poking through. "is it?" was all mr. hinchcliff could say. "the legend," said the stranger, "tells that those thickets of dwarfed trees growing about the garden sprang from the apple that adam carried in his hand when he and eve were driven forth. he felt something in his hand, saw the half-eaten apple, and flung it petulantly aside. and there they grow, in that desolate valley, girdled round with the everlasting snows, and there the fiery swords keep ward against the judgment day." "but i thought these things were"--mr. hinchcliff paused--"fables--parables rather. do you mean to tell me that there in armenia"-- the stranger answered the unfinished question with the fruit in his open hand. "but you don't know," said mr. hinchcliff, "that that _is_ the fruit of the tree of knowledge. the man may have had--a sort of mirage, say. suppose"-- "look at it," said the stranger. it was certainly a strange-looking globe, not really an apple, mr. hinchcliff saw, and a curious glowing golden colour, almost as though light itself was wrought into its substance. as he looked at it, he began to see more vividly the desolate valley among the mountains, the guarding swords of fire, the strange antiquities of the story he had just heard. he rubbed a knuckle into his eye. "but"--said he. "it has kept like that, smooth and full, three months. longer than that it is now by some days. no drying, no withering, no decay." "and you yourself," said mr. hinchcliff, "really believe that"-- "is the forbidden fruit." there was no mistaking the earnestness of the man's manner and his perfect sanity. "the fruit of knowledge," he said. "suppose it was?" said mr. hinchcliff, after a pause, still staring at it. "but after all," said mr. hinchcliff, "it's not my kind of knowledge--not the sort of knowledge. i mean, adam and eve have eaten it already." "we inherit their sins--not their knowledge," said the stranger. "that would make it all clear and bright again. we should see into everything, through everything, into the deepest meaning of everything"-- "why don't you eat it, then?" said mr. hinchcliff, with an inspiration. "i took it intending to eat it," said the stranger. "man has fallen. merely to eat again could scarcely"-- "knowledge is power," said mr. hinchcliff. "but is it happiness? i am older than you--more than twice as old. time after time i have held this in my hand, and my heart has failed me at the thought of all that one might know, that terrible lucidity-- suppose suddenly all the world became pitilessly clear?" "that, i think, would be a great advantage," said mr. hinchcliff, "on the whole." "suppose you saw into the hearts and minds of everyone about you, into their most secret recesses--people you loved, whose love you valued?" "you'd soon find out the humbugs," said mr. hinchcliff, greatly struck by the idea. "and worse--to know yourself, bare of your most intimate illusions. to see yourself in your place. all that your lusts and weaknesses prevented your doing. no merciful perspective." "that might be an excellent thing too. 'know thyself,' you know." "you are young," said the stranger. "if you don't care to eat it, and it bothers you, why don't you throw it away?" "there again, perhaps, you will not understand me. to me, how could one throw away a thing like that, glowing, wonderful? once one has it, one is bound. but, on the other hand, to _give_ it away! to give it away to someone who thirsted after knowledge, who found no terror in the thought of that clear perception"-- "of course," said mr. hinchcliff thoughtfully, "it might be some sort of poisonous fruit." and then his eye caught something motionless, the end of a white board black-lettered outside the carriage window. "--mwood," he saw. he started convulsively. "gracious!" said mr. hinchcliff. "holmwood!"--and the practical present blotted out the mystic realisations that had been stealing upon him. in another moment he was opening the carriage-door, portmanteau in hand. the guard was already fluttering his green flag. mr. hinchcliff jumped out. "here!" said a voice behind him, and he saw the dark eyes of the stranger shining and the golden fruit, bright and bare, held out of the open carriage-door. he took it instinctively, the train was already moving. "_no!_" shouted the stranger, and made a snatch at it as if to take it back. "stand away," cried a country porter, thrusting forward to close the door. the stranger shouted something mr. hinchcliff did not catch, head and arm thrust excitedly out of the window, and then the shadow of the bridge fell on him, and in a trice he was hidden. mr. hinchcliff stood astonished, staring at the end of the last waggon receding round the bend, and with the wonderful fruit in his hand. for the fraction of a minute his mind was confused, and then he became aware that two or three people on the platform were regarding him with interest. was he not the new grammar school master making his début? it occurred to him that, so far as they could tell, the fruit might very well be the naïve refreshment of an orange. he flushed at the thought, and thrust the fruit into his side pocket, where it bulged undesirably. but there was no help for it, so he went towards them, awkwardly concealing his sense of awkwardness, to ask the way to the grammar school, and the means of getting his portmanteau and the two tin boxes which lay up the platform thither. of all the odd and fantastic yarns to tell a fellow! his luggage could be taken on a truck for sixpence, he found, and he could precede it on foot. he fancied an ironical note in the voices. he was painfully aware of his contour. the curious earnestness of the man in the train, and the glamour of the story he told, had, for a time, diverted the current of mr. hinchcliff's thoughts. it drove like a mist before his immediate concerns. fires that went to and fro! but the preoccupation of his new position, and the impression he was to produce upon holmwood generally, and the school people in particular, returned upon him with reinvigorating power before he left the station and cleared his mental atmosphere. but it is extraordinary what an inconvenient thing the addition of a soft and rather brightly-golden fruit, not three inches in diameter, may prove to a sensitive youth on his best appearance. in the pocket of his black jacket it bulged dreadfully, spoilt the lines altogether. he passed a little old lady in black, and he felt her eye drop upon the excrescence at once. he was wearing one glove and carrying the other, together with his stick, so that to bear the fruit openly was impossible. in one place, where the road into the town seemed suitably secluded, he took his encumbrance out of his pocket and tried it in his hat. it was just too large, the hat wobbled ludicrously, and just as he was taking it out again, a butcher's boy came driving round the corner. "confound it!" said mr. hinchcliff. he would have eaten the thing, and attained omniscience there and then, but it would seem so silly to go into the town sucking a juicy fruit--and it certainly felt juicy. if one of the boys should come by, it might do him a serious injury with his discipline so to be seen. and the juice might make his face sticky and get upon his cuffs--or it might be an acid juice as potent as lemon, and take all the colour out of his clothes. then round a bend in the lane came two pleasant sunlit girlish figures. they were walking slowly towards the town and chattering--at any moment they might look round and see a hot-faced young man behind them carrying a kind of phosphorescent yellow tomato! they would be sure to laugh. "_hang!_" said mr. hinchcliff, and with a swift jerk sent the encumbrance flying over the stone wall of an orchard that there abutted on the road. as it vanished, he felt a faint twinge of loss that lasted scarcely a moment. he adjusted the stick and glove in his hand, and walked on, erect and self-conscious, to pass the girls. * * * * * but in the darkness of the night mr. hinchcliff had a dream, and saw the valley, and the flaming swords, and the contorted trees, and knew that it really was the apple of the tree of knowledge that he had thrown regardlessly away. and he awoke very unhappy. in the morning his regret had passed, but afterwards it returned and troubled him; never, however, when he was happy or busily occupied. at last, one moonlight night about eleven, when all holmwood was quiet, his regrets returned with redoubled force, and therewith an impulse to adventure. he slipped out of the house and over the playground wall, went through the silent town to station lane, and climbed into the orchard where he had thrown the fruit. but nothing was to be found of it there among the dewy grass and the faint intangible globes of dandelion down. under the knife "what if i die under it?" the thought recurred again and again, as i walked home from haddon's. it was a purely personal question. i was spared the deep anxieties of a married man, and i knew there were few of my intimate friends but would find my death troublesome chiefly on account of their duty of regret. i was surprised indeed, and perhaps a little humiliated, as i turned the matter over, to think how few could possibly exceed the conventional requirement. things came before me stripped of glamour, in a clear dry light, during that walk from haddon's house over primrose hill. there were the friends of my youth: i perceived now that our affection was a tradition, which we foregathered rather laboriously to maintain. there were the rivals and helpers of my later career: i suppose i had been cold-blooded or undemonstrative--one perhaps implies the other. it may be that even the capacity for friendship is a question of physique. there had been a time in my own life when i had grieved bitterly enough at the loss of a friend; but as i walked home that afternoon the emotional side of my imagination was dormant. i could not pity myself, nor feel sorry for my friends, nor conceive of them as grieving for me. i was interested in this deadness of my emotional nature--no doubt a concomitant of my stagnating physiology; and my thoughts wandered off along the line it suggested. once before, in my hot youth, i had suffered a sudden loss of blood, and had been within an ace of death. i remembered now that my affections as well as my passions had drained out of me, leaving scarce anything but a tranquil resignation, a dreg of self-pity. it had been weeks before the old ambitions, and tendernesses, and all the complex moral interplay of a man, had reasserted themselves. it occurred to me that the real meaning of this numbness might be a gradual slipping away from the pleasure-pain guidance of the animal man. it has been proven, i take it, as thoroughly as anything can be proven in this world, that the higher emotions, the moral feelings, even the subtle tendernesses of love, are evolved from the elemental desires and fears of the simple animal: they are the harness in which man's mental freedom goes. and it may be that, as death overshadows us, as our possibility of acting diminishes, this complex growth of balanced impulse, propensity, and aversion, whose interplay inspires our acts, goes with it. leaving what? i was suddenly brought back to reality by an imminent collision with a butcher-boy's tray. i found that i was crossing the bridge over the regent's park canal, which runs parallel with that in the zoological gardens. the boy in blue had been looking over his shoulder at a black barge advancing slowly, towed by a gaunt white horse. in the gardens a nurse was leading three happy little children over the bridge. the trees were bright green; the spring hopefulness was still unstained by the dusts of summer; the sky in the water was bright and clear, but broken by long waves, by quivering bands of black, as the barge drove through. the breeze was stirring; but it did not stir me as the spring breeze used to do. was this dulness of feeling in itself an anticipation? it was curious that i could reason and follow out a network of suggestion as clearly as ever: so, at least, it seemed to me. it was calmness rather than dulness that was coming upon me. was there any ground for the belief in the presentiment of death? did a man near to death begin instinctively to withdraw himself from the meshes of matter and sense, even before the cold hand was laid upon his? i felt strangely isolated--isolated without regret--from the life and existence about me. the children playing in the sun and gathering strength and experience for the business of life, the park-keeper gossiping with a nursemaid, the nursing mother, the young couple intent upon each other as they passed me, the trees by the wayside spreading new pleading leaves to the sunlight, the stir in their branches--i had been part of it all, but i had nearly done with it now. some way down the broad walk i perceived that i was tired, and that my feet were heavy. it was hot that afternoon, and i turned aside and sat down on one of the green chairs that line the way. in a minute i had dozed into a dream, and the tide of my thoughts washed up a vision of the resurrection. i was still sitting in the chair, but i thought myself actually dead, withered, tattered, dried, one eye (i saw) pecked out by birds. "awake!" cried a voice; and incontinently the dust of the path and the mould under the grass became insurgent. i had never before thought of regent's park as a cemetery, but now, through the trees, stretching as far as eye could see, i beheld a flat plain of writhing graves and heeling tombstones. there seemed to be some trouble: the rising dead appeared to stifle as they struggled upward, they bled in their struggles, the red flesh was tattered away from the white bones. "awake!" cried a voice; but i determined i would not rise to such horrors. "awake!" they would not let me alone. "wike up!" said an angry voice. a cockney angel! the man who sells the tickets was shaking me, demanding my penny. i paid my penny, pocketed my ticket, yawned, stretched my legs, and, feeling now rather less torpid, got up and walked on towards langham place. i speedily lost myself again in a shifting maze of thoughts about death. going across marylebone road into that crescent at the end of langham place, i had the narrowest escape from the shaft of a cab, and went on my way with a palpitating heart and a bruised shoulder. it struck me that it would have been curious if my meditations on my death on the morrow had led to my death that day. but i will not weary you with more of my experiences that day and the next. i knew more and more certainly that i should die under the operation; at times i think i was inclined to pose to myself. the doctors were coming at eleven, and i did not get up. it seemed scarce worth while to trouble about washing and dressing, and though i read my newspapers and the letters that came by the first post, i did not find them very interesting. there was a friendly note from addison, my old school friend, calling my attention to two discrepancies and a printer's error in my new book, with one from langridge venting some vexation over minton. the rest were business communications. i breakfasted in bed. the glow of pain at my side seemed more massive. i knew it was pain, and yet, if you can understand, i did not find it very painful. i had been awake and hot and thirsty in the night, but in the morning bed felt comfortable. in the night-time i had lain thinking of things that were past; in the morning i dozed over the question of immortality. haddon came, punctual to the minute, with a neat black bag; and mowbray soon followed. their arrival stirred me up a little. i began to take a more personal interest in the proceedings. haddon moved the little octagonal table close to the bedside, and, with his broad black back to me, began taking things out of his bag. i heard the light click of steel upon steel. my imagination, i found, was not altogether stagnant. "will you hurt me much?" i said in an off-hand tone. "not a bit," haddon answered over his shoulder. "we shall chloroform you. your heart's as sound as a bell." and as he spoke, i had a whiff of the pungent sweetness of the anæsthetic. they stretched me out, with a convenient exposure of my side, and, almost before i realised what was happening, the chloroform was being administered. it stings the nostrils, and there is a suffocating sensation, at first. i knew i should die--that this was the end of consciousness for me. and suddenly i felt that i was not prepared for death: i had a vague sense of a duty overlooked--i knew not what. what was it i had not done? i could think of nothing more to do, nothing desirable left in life; and yet i had the strangest disinclination to death. and the physical sensation was painfully oppressive. of course the doctors did not know they were going to kill me. possibly i struggled. then i fell motionless, and a great silence, a monstrous silence, and an impenetrable blackness came upon me. there must have been an interval of absolute unconsciousness, seconds or minutes. then, with a chilly, unemotional clearness, i perceived that i was not yet dead. i was still in my body; but all the multitudinous sensations that come sweeping from it to make up the background of consciousness had gone, leaving me free of it all. no, not free of it all; for as yet something still held me to the poor stark flesh upon the bed--held me, yet not so closely that i did not feel myself external to it, independent of it, straining away from it. i do not think i saw, i do not think i heard; but i perceived all that was going on, and it was as if i both heard and saw. haddon was bending over me, mowbray behind me; the scalpel--it was a large scalpel--was cutting my flesh at the side under the flying ribs. it was interesting to see myself cut like cheese, without a pang, without even a qualm. the interest was much of a quality with that one might feel in a game of chess between strangers. haddon's face was firm and his hand steady; but i was surprised to perceive (_how_ i know not) that he was feeling the gravest doubt as to his own wisdom in the conduct of the operation. mowbray's thoughts, too, i could see. he was thinking that haddon's manner showed too much of the specialist. new suggestions came up like bubbles through a stream of frothing meditation, and burst one after another in the little bright spot of his consciousness. he could not help noticing and admiring haddon's swift dexterity, in spite of his envious quality and his disposition to detract. i saw my liver exposed. i was puzzled at my own condition. i did not feel that i was dead, but i was different in some way from my living self. the grey depression, that had weighed on me for a year or more and coloured all my thoughts, was gone. i perceived and thought without any emotional tint at all. i wondered if everyone perceived things in this way under chloroform, and forgot it again when he came out of it. it would be inconvenient to look into some heads, and not forget. although i did not think that i was dead, i still perceived quite clearly that i was soon to die. this brought me back to the consideration of haddon's proceedings. i looked into his mind, and saw that he was afraid of cutting a branch of the portal vein. my attention was distracted from details by the curious changes going on in his mind. his consciousness was like the quivering little spot of light which is thrown by the mirror of a galvanometer. his thoughts ran under it like a stream, some through the focus bright and distinct, some shadowy in the half-light of the edge. just now the little glow was steady; but the least movement on mowbray's part, the slightest sound from outside, even a faint difference in the slow movement of the living flesh he was cutting, set the light-spot shivering and spinning. a new sense-impression came rushing up through the flow of thoughts; and lo! the light-spot jerked away towards it, swifter than a frightened fish. it was wonderful to think that upon that unstable, fitful thing depended all the complex motions of the man; that for the next five minutes, therefore, my life hung upon its movements. and he was growing more and more nervous in his work. it was as if a little picture of a cut vein grew brighter, and struggled to oust from his brain another picture of a cut falling short of the mark. he was afraid: his dread of cutting too little was battling with his dread of cutting too far. then, suddenly, like an escape of water from under a lock-gate, a great uprush of horrible realisation set all his thoughts swirling, and simultaneously i perceived that the vein was cut. he started back with a hoarse exclamation, and i saw the brown-purple blood gather in a swift bead, and run trickling. he was horrified. he pitched the red-stained scalpel on to the octagonal table; and instantly both doctors flung themselves upon me, making hasty and ill-conceived efforts to remedy the disaster. "ice!" said mowbray, gasping. but i knew that i was killed, though my body still clung to me. i will not describe their belated endeavours to save me, though i perceived every detail. my perceptions were sharper and swifter than they had ever been in life; my thoughts rushed through my mind with incredible swiftness, but with perfect definition. i can only compare their crowded clarity to the effects of a reasonable dose of opium. in a moment it would all be over, and i should be free. i knew i was immortal, but what would happen i did not know. should i drift off presently, like a puff of smoke from a gun, in some kind of half-material body, an attenuated version of my material self? should i find myself suddenly among the innumerable hosts of the dead, and know the world about me for the phantasmagoria it had always seemed? should i drift to some spiritualistic _séance_, and there make foolish, incomprehensible attempts to affect a purblind medium? it was a state of unemotional curiosity, of colourless expectation. and then i realised a growing stress upon me, a feeling as though some huge human magnet was drawing me upward out of my body. the stress grew and grew. i seemed an atom for which monstrous forces were fighting. for one brief, terrible moment sensation came back to me. that feeling of falling headlong which comes in nightmares, that feeling a thousand times intensified, that and a black horror swept across my thoughts in a torrent. then the two doctors, the naked body with its cut side, the little room, swept away from under me and vanished, as a speck of foam vanishes down an eddy. i was in mid-air. far below was the west end of london, receding rapidly,--for i seemed to be flying swiftly upward,--and, as it receded, passing westward, like a panorama. i could see, through the faint haze of smoke, the innumerable roofs chimney-set, the narrow roadways, stippled with people and conveyances, the little specks of squares, and the church steeples like thorns sticking out of the fabric. but it spun away as the earth rotated on its axis, and in a few seconds (as it seemed) i was over the scattered clumps of town about ealing, the little thames a thread of blue to the south, and the chiltern hills and the north downs coming up like the rim of a basin, far away and faint with haze. up i rushed. and at first i had not the faintest conception what this headlong rush upward could mean. every moment the circle of scenery beneath me grew wider and wider, and the details of town and field, of hill and valley, got more and more hazy and pale and indistinct, a luminous grey was mingled more and more with the blue of the hills and the green of the open meadows; and a little patch of cloud, low and far to the west, shone ever more dazzlingly white. above, as the veil of atmosphere between myself and outer space grew thinner, the sky, which had been a fair springtime blue at first, grew deeper and richer in colour, passing steadily through the intervening shades, until presently it was as dark as the blue sky of midnight, and presently as black as the blackness of a frosty starlight, and at last as black as no blackness i had ever beheld. and first one star, and then many, and at last an innumerable host broke out upon the sky: more stars than anyone has ever seen from the face of the earth. for the blueness of the sky is the light of the sun and stars sifted and spread abroad blindingly: there is diffused light even in the darkest skies of winter, and we do not see the stars by day only because of the dazzling irradiation of the sun. but now i saw things--i know not how; assuredly with no mortal eyes--and that defect of bedazzlement blinded me no longer. the sun was incredibly strange and wonderful. the body of it was a disc of blinding white light: not yellowish, as it seems to those who live upon the earth, but livid white, all streaked with scarlet streaks and rimmed about with a fringe of writhing tongues of red fire. and, shooting half-way across the heavens from either side of it, and brighter than the milky way, were two pinions of silver-white, making it look more like those winged globes i have seen in egyptian sculpture, than anything else i can remember upon earth. these i knew for the solar corona, though i had never seen anything of it but a picture during the days of my earthly life. when my attention came back to the earth again, i saw that it had fallen very far away from me. field and town were long since indistinguishable, and all the varied hues of the country were merging into a uniform bright grey, broken only by the brilliant white of the clouds that lay scattered in flocculent masses over ireland and the west of england. for now i could see the outlines of the north of france and ireland, and all this island of britain, save where scotland passed over the horizon to the north, or where the coast was blurred or obliterated by cloud. the sea was a dull grey, and darker than the land; and the whole panorama was rotating slowly towards the east. all this had happened so swiftly that, until i was some thousand miles or so from the earth, i had no thought for myself. but now i perceived i had neither hands nor feet, neither parts nor organs, and that i felt neither alarm nor pain. all about me i perceived that the vacancy (for i had already left the air behind) was cold beyond the imagination of man; but it troubled me not. the sun's rays shot through the void, powerless to light or heat until they should strike on matter in their course. i saw things with a serene self-forgetfulness, even as if i were god. and down below there, rushing away from me,--countless miles in a second,--where a little dark spot on the grey marked the position of london, two doctors were struggling to restore life to the poor hacked and outworn shell i had abandoned. i felt then such release, such serenity as i can compare to no mortal delight i have ever known. it was only after i had perceived all these things that the meaning of that headlong rush of the earth grew into comprehension. yet it was so simple, so obvious, that i was amazed at my never anticipating the thing that was happening to me. i had suddenly been cut adrift from matter: all that was material of me was there upon earth, whirling away through space, held to the earth by gravitation, partaking of the earth-inertia, moving in its wreath of epicycles round the sun, and with the sun and the planets on their vast march through space. but the immaterial has no inertia, feels nothing of the pull of matter for matter: where it parts from its garment of flesh, there it remains (so far as space concerns it any longer) immovable in space. i was not leaving the earth: the earth was leaving _me_, and not only the earth, but the whole solar system was streaming past. and about me in space, invisible to me, scattered in the wake of the earth upon its journey, there must be an innumerable multitude of souls, stripped like myself of the material, stripped like myself of the passions of the individual and the generous emotions of the gregarious brute, naked intelligences, things of newborn wonder and thought, marvelling at the strange release that had suddenly come on them! as i receded faster and faster from the strange white sun in the black heavens, and from the broad and shining earth upon which my being had begun, i seemed to grow, in some incredible manner, vast: vast as regards this world i had left, vast as regards the moments and periods of a human life. very soon i saw the full circle of the earth, slightly gibbous, like the moon when she nears her full, but very large; and the silvery shape of america was now in the noonday blaze wherein (as it seemed) little england had been basking but a few minutes ago. at first the earth was large, and shone in the heavens, filling a great part of them; but every moment she grew smaller and more distant. as she shrunk, the broad moon in its third quarter crept into view over the rim of her disc. i looked for the constellations. only that part of aries directly behind the sun and the lion, which the earth covered, were hidden. i recognised the tortuous, tattered band of the milky way, with vega very bright between sun and earth; and sirius and orion shone splendid against the unfathomable blackness in the opposite quarter of the heavens. the pole star was overhead, and the great bear hung over the circle of the earth. and away beneath and beyond the shining corona of the sun were strange groupings of stars i had never seen in my life--notably, a dagger-shaped group that i knew for the southern cross. all these were no larger than when they had shone on earth; but the little stars that one scarce sees shone now against the setting of black vacancy as brightly as the first-magnitudes had done, while the larger worlds were points of indescribable glory and colour. aldebaran was a spot of blood-red fire, and sirius condensed to one point the light of a world of sapphires. and they shone steadily: they did not scintillate, they were calmly glorious. my impressions had an adamantine hardness and brightness: there was no blurring softness, no atmosphere, nothing but infinite darkness set with the myriads of these acute and brilliant points and specks of light. presently, when i looked again, the little earth seemed no bigger than the sun, and it dwindled and turned as i looked, until, in a second's space (as it seemed to me), it was halved; and so it went on swiftly dwindling. far away in the opposite direction, a little pinkish pin's head of light, shining steadily, was the planet mars. i swam motionless in vacancy, and, without a trace of terror or astonishment, watched the speck of cosmic dust we call the world fall away from me. presently it dawned upon me that my sense of duration had changed: that my mind was moving not faster but infinitely slower, that between each separate impression there was a period of many days. the moon spun once round the earth as i noted this; and i perceived clearly the motion of mars in his orbit. moreover, it appeared as if the time between thought and thought grew steadily greater, until at last a thousand years was but a moment in my perception. at first the constellations had shone motionless against the black background of infinite space; but presently it seemed as though the group of stars about hercules and the scorpion was contracting, while orion and aldebaran and their neighbours were scattering apart. flashing suddenly out of the darkness there came a flying multitude of particles of rock, glittering like dust-specks in a sunbeam, and encompassed in a faintly luminous haze. they swirled all about me, and vanished again in a twinkling far behind. and then i saw that a bright spot of light, that shone a little to one side of my path, was growing very rapidly larger, and perceived that it was the planet saturn rushing towards me. larger and larger it grew, swallowing up the heavens behind it, and hiding every moment a fresh multitude of stars. i perceived its flattened, whirling body, its disc-like belt, and seven of its little satellites. it grew and grew, till it towered enormous; and then i plunged amid a streaming multitude of clashing stones and dancing dust-particles and gas-eddies, and saw for a moment the mighty triple belt like three concentric arches of moonlight above me, its shadow black on the boiling tumult below. these things happened in one-tenth of the time it takes to tell of them. the planet went by like a flash of lightning; for a few seconds it blotted out the sun, and there and then became a mere black, dwindling, winged patch against the light. the earth, the mother mote of my being, i could no longer see. so, with a stately swiftness, in the profoundest silence, the solar system fell from me, as it had been a garment, until the sun was a mere star amid the multitude of stars, with its eddy of planet-specks, lost in the confused glittering of the remoter light. i was no longer a denizen of the solar system: i had come to the outer universe, i seemed to grasp and comprehend the whole world of matter. ever more swiftly the stars closed in about the spot where antares and vega had vanished in a luminous haze, until that part of the sky had the semblance of a whirling mass of nebulæ, and ever before me yawned vaster gaps of vacant blackness, and the stars shone fewer and fewer. it seemed as if i moved towards a point between orion's belt and sword; and the void about that region opened vaster and vaster every second, an incredible gulf of nothingness, into which i was falling. faster and ever faster the universe rushed by, a hurry of whirling motes at last, speeding silently into the void. stars glowing brighter and brighter, with their circling planets catching the light in a ghostly fashion as i neared them, shone out and vanished again into inexistence; faint comets, clusters of meteorites, winking specks of matter, eddying light points, whizzed past, some perhaps a hundred millions of miles or so from me at most, few nearer, travelling with unimaginable rapidity, shooting constellations, momentary darts of fire, through that black, enormous night. more than anything else it was like a dusty draught, sunbeam-lit. broader, and wider, and deeper grew the starless space, the vacant beyond, into which i was being drawn. at last a quarter of the heavens was black and blank, and the whole headlong rush of stellar universe closed in behind me like a veil of light that is gathered together. it drove away from me like a monstrous jack-o'-lantern driven by the wind. i had come out into the wilderness of space. ever the vacant blackness grew broader, until the hosts of the stars seemed only like a swarm of fiery specks hurrying away from me, inconceivably remote, and the darkness, the nothingness and emptiness, was about me on every side. soon the little universe of matter, the cage of points in which i had begun to be, was dwindling, now to a whirling disc of luminous glittering, and now to one minute disc of hazy light. in a little while it would shrink to a point, and at last would vanish altogether. suddenly feeling came back to me--feeling in the shape of overwhelming terror: such a dread of those dark vastitudes as no words can describe, a passionate resurgence of sympathy and social desire. were there other souls, invisible to me as i to them, about me in the blackness? or was i indeed, even as i felt, alone? had i passed out of being into something that was neither being nor not-being? the covering of the body, the covering of matter, had been torn from me, and the hallucinations of companionship and security. everything was black and silent. i had ceased to be. i was nothing. there was nothing, save only that infinitesimal dot of light that dwindled in the gulf. i strained myself to hear and see, and for a while there was naught but infinite silence, intolerable darkness, horror, and despair. then i saw that about the spot of light into which the whole world of matter had shrunk there was a faint glow. and in a band on either side of that the darkness was not absolute. i watched it for ages, as it seemed to me, and through the long waiting the haze grew imperceptibly more distinct. and then about the band appeared an irregular cloud of the faintest, palest brown. i felt a passionate impatience; but the things grew brighter so slowly that they scarce seemed to change. what was unfolding itself? what was this strange reddish dawn in the interminable night of space? the cloud's shape was grotesque. it seemed to be looped along its lower side into four projecting masses, and, above, it ended in a straight line. what phantom was it? i felt assured i had seen that figure before; but i could not think what, nor where, nor when it was. then the realisation rushed upon me. _it was a clenched hand._ i was alone in space, alone with this huge, shadowy hand, upon which the whole universe of matter lay like an unconsidered speck of dust. it seemed as though i watched it through vast periods of time. on the forefinger glittered a ring; and the universe from which i had come was but a spot of light upon the ring's curvature. and the thing that the hand gripped had the likeness of a black rod. through a long eternity i watched this hand, with the ring and the rod, marvelling and fearing and waiting helplessly on what might follow. it seemed as though nothing could follow: that i should watch for ever, seeing only the hand and the thing it held, and understanding nothing of its import. was the whole universe but a refracting speck upon some greater being? were our worlds but the atoms of another universe, and those again of another, and so on through an endless progression? and what was i? was i indeed immaterial? a vague persuasion of a body gathering about me came into my suspense. the abysmal darkness about the hand filled with impalpable suggestions, with uncertain, fluctuating shapes. then, suddenly, came a sound, like the sound of a tolling bell: faint, as if infinitely far; muffled, as though heard through thick swathings of darkness: a deep, vibrating resonance, with vast gulfs of silence between each stroke. and the hand appeared to tighten on the rod. and i saw far above the hand, towards the apex of the darkness, a circle of dim phosphorescence, a ghostly sphere whence these sounds came throbbing; and at the last stroke the hand vanished, for the hour had come, and i heard a noise of many waters. but the black rod remained as a great band across the sky. and then a voice, which seemed to run to the uttermost parts of space, spoke, saying, "there will be no more pain." at that an almost intolerable gladness and radiance rushed in upon me, and i saw the circle shining white and bright, and the rod black and shining, and many things else distinct and clear. and the circle was the face of the clock, and the rod the rail of my bed. haddon was standing at the foot, against the rail, with a small pair of scissors on his fingers; and the hands of my clock on the mantel over his shoulder were clasped together over the hour of twelve. mowbray was washing something in a basin at the octagonal table, and at my side i felt a subdued feeling that could scarce be spoken of as pain. the operation had not killed me. and i perceived, suddenly, that the dull melancholy of half a year was lifted from my mind. the sea raiders i until the extraordinary affair at sidmouth, the peculiar species _haploteuthis ferox_ was known to science only generically, on the strength of a half-digested tentacle obtained near the azores, and a decaying body pecked by birds and nibbled by fish, found early in by mr. jennings, near land's end. in no department of zoological science, indeed, are we quite so much in the dark as with regard to the deep-sea cephalopods. a mere accident, for instance, it was that led to the prince of monaco's discovery of nearly a dozen new forms in the summer of , a discovery in which the before-mentioned tentacle was included. it chanced that a cachalot was killed off terceira by some sperm whalers, and in its last struggles charged almost to the prince's yacht, missed it, rolled under, and died within twenty yards of his rudder. and in its agony it threw up a number of large objects, which the prince, dimly perceiving they were strange and important, was, by a happy expedient, able to secure before they sank. he set his screws in motion, and kept them circling in the vortices thus created until a boat could be lowered. and these specimens were whole cephalopods and fragments of cephalopods, some of gigantic proportions, and almost all of them unknown to science! it would seem, indeed, that these large and agile creatures, living in the middle depths of the sea, must, to a large extent, for ever remain unknown to us, since under water they are too nimble for nets, and it is only by such rare unlooked-for accidents that specimens can be obtained. in the case of _haploteuthis ferox_, for instance, we are still altogether ignorant of its habitat, as ignorant as we are of the breeding-ground of the herring or the sea-ways of the salmon. and zoologists are altogether at a loss to account for its sudden appearance on our coast. possibly it was the stress of a hunger migration that drove it hither out of the deep. but it will be, perhaps, better to avoid necessarily inconclusive discussion, and to proceed at once with our narrative. the first human being to set eyes upon a living _haploteuthis_--the first human being to survive, that is, for there can be little doubt now that the wave of bathing fatalities and boating accidents that travelled along the coast of cornwall and devon in early may was due to this cause--was a retired tea-dealer of the name of fison, who was stopping at a sidmouth boarding-house. it was in the afternoon, and he was walking along the cliff path between sidmouth and ladram bay. the cliffs in this direction are very high, but down the red face of them in one place a kind of ladder staircase has been made. he was near this when his attention was attracted by what at first he thought to be a cluster of birds struggling over a fragment of food that caught the sunlight, and glistened pinkish-white. the tide was right out, and this object was not only far below him, but remote across a broad waste of rock reefs covered with dark seaweed and interspersed with silvery shining tidal pools. and he was, moreover, dazzled by the brightness of the further water. in a minute, regarding this again, he perceived that his judgment was in fault, for over this struggle circled a number of birds, jackdaws and gulls for the most part, the latter gleaming blindingly when the sunlight smote their wings, and they seemed minute in comparison with it. and his curiosity was, perhaps, aroused all the more strongly because of his first insufficient explanations. as he had nothing better to do than amuse himself, he decided to make this object, whatever it was, the goal of his afternoon walk, instead of ladram bay, conceiving it might perhaps be a great fish of some sort, stranded by some chance, and flapping about in its distress. and so he hurried down the long steep ladder, stopping at intervals of thirty feet or so to take breath and scan the mysterious movement. at the foot of the cliff he was, of course, nearer his object than he had been; but, on the other hand, it now came up against the incandescent sky, beneath the sun, so as to seem dark and indistinct. whatever was pinkish of it was now hidden by a skerry of weedy boulders. but he perceived that it was made up of seven rounded bodies, distinct or connected, and that the birds kept up a constant croaking and screaming, but seemed afraid to approach it too closely. mr. fison, torn by curiosity, began picking his way across the wave-worn rocks, and, finding the wet seaweed that covered them thickly rendered them extremely slippery, he stopped, removed his shoes and socks, and coiled his trousers above his knees. his object was, of course, merely to avoid stumbling into the rocky pools about him, and perhaps he was rather glad, as all men are, of an excuse to resume, even for a moment, the sensations of his boyhood. at anyrate, it is to this, no doubt, that he owes his life. he approached his mark with all the assurance which the absolute security of this country against all forms of animal life gives its inhabitants. the round bodies moved to and fro, but it was only when he surmounted the skerry of boulders i have mentioned that he realised the horrible nature of the discovery. it came upon him with some suddenness. the rounded bodies fell apart as he came into sight over the ridge, and displayed the pinkish object to be the partially devoured body of a human being, but whether of a man or woman he was unable to say. and the rounded bodies were new and ghastly-looking creatures, in shape somewhat resembling an octopus, and with huge and very long and flexible tentacles, coiled copiously on the ground. the skin had a glistening texture, unpleasant to see, like shiny leather. the downward bend of the tentacle-surrounded mouth, the curious excrescence at the bend, the tentacles, and the large intelligent eyes, gave the creatures a grotesque suggestion of a face. they were the size of a fair-sized swine about the body, and the tentacles seemed to him to be many feet in length. there were, he thinks, seven or eight at least of the creatures. twenty yards beyond them, amid the surf of the now returning tide, two others were emerging from the sea. their bodies lay flatly on the rocks, and their eyes regarded him with evil interest; but it does not appear that mr. fison was afraid, or that he realised that he was in any danger. possibly his confidence is to be ascribed to the limpness of their attitudes. but he was horrified, of course, and intensely excited and indignant at such revolting creatures preying upon human flesh. he thought they had chanced upon a drowned body. he shouted to them, with the idea of driving them off, and, finding they did not budge, cast about him, picked up a big rounded lump of rock, and flung it at one. and then, slowly uncoiling their tentacles, they all began moving towards him--creeping at first deliberately, and making a soft purring sound to each other. in a moment mr. fison realised that he was in danger. he shouted again, threw both his boots, and started off, with a leap, forthwith. twenty yards off he stopped and faced about, judging them slow, and behold! the tentacles of their leader were already pouring over the rocky ridge on which he had just been standing! at that he shouted again, but this time not threatening, but a cry of dismay, and began jumping, striding, slipping, wading across the uneven expanse between him and the beach. the tall red cliffs seemed suddenly at a vast distance, and he saw, as though they were creatures in another world, two minute workmen engaged in the repair of the ladder-way, and little suspecting the race for life that was beginning below them. at one time he could hear the creatures splashing in the pools not a dozen feet behind him, and once he slipped and almost fell. they chased him to the very foot of the cliffs, and desisted only when he had been joined by the workmen at the foot of the ladder-way up the cliff. all three of the men pelted them with stones for a time, and then hurried to the cliff top and along the path towards sidmouth, to secure assistance and a boat, and to rescue the desecrated body from the clutches of these abominable creatures. ii and, as if he had not already been in sufficient peril that day, mr. fison went with the boat to point out the exact spot of his adventure. as the tide was down, it required a considerable detour to reach the spot, and when at last they came off the ladder-way, the mangled body had disappeared. the water was now running in, submerging first one slab of slimy rock and then another, and the four men in the boat--the workmen, that is, the boatman, and mr. fison--now turned their attention from the bearings off shore to the water beneath the keel. at first they could see little below them, save a dark jungle of laminaria, with an occasional darting fish. their minds were set on adventure, and they expressed their disappointment freely. but presently they saw one of the monsters swimming through the water seaward, with a curious rolling motion that suggested to mr. fison the spinning roll of a captive balloon. almost immediately after, the waving streamers of laminaria were extraordinarily perturbed, parted for a moment, and three of these beasts became darkly visible, struggling for what was probably some fragment of the drowned man. in a moment the copious olive-green ribbons had poured again over this writhing group. at that all four men, greatly excited, began beating the water with oars and shouting, and immediately they saw a tumultuous movement among the weeds. they desisted to see more clearly, and as soon as the water was smooth, they saw, as it seemed to them, the whole sea bottom among the weeds set with eyes. "ugly swine!" cried one of the men. "why, there's dozens!" and forthwith the things began to rise through the water about them. mr. fison has since described to the writer this startling eruption out of the waving laminaria meadows. to him it seemed to occupy a considerable time, but it is probable that really it was an affair of a few seconds only. for a time nothing but eyes, and then he speaks of tentacles streaming out and parting the weed fronds this way and that. then these things, growing larger, until at last the bottom was hidden by their intercoiling forms, and the tips of tentacles rose darkly here and there into the air above the swell of the waters. one came up boldly to the side of the boat, and, clinging to this with three of its sucker-set tentacles, threw four others over the gunwale, as if with an intention either of oversetting the boat or of clambering into it. mr. fison at once caught up the boathook, and, jabbing furiously at the soft tentacles, forced it to desist. he was struck in the back and almost pitched overboard by the boatman, who was using his oar to resist a similar attack on the other side of the boat. but the tentacles on either side at once relaxed their hold at this, slid out of sight, and splashed into the water. "we'd better get out of this," said mr. fison, who was trembling violently. he went to the tiller, while the boatman and one of the workmen seated themselves and began rowing. the other workman stood up in the fore part of the boat, with the boathook, ready to strike any more tentacles that might appear. nothing else seems to have been said. mr. fison had expressed the common feeling beyond amendment. in a hushed, scared mood, with faces white and drawn, they set about escaping from the position into which they had so recklessly blundered. but the oars had scarcely dropped into the water before dark, tapering, serpentine ropes had bound them, and were about the rudder; and creeping up the sides of the boat with a looping motion came the suckers again. the men gripped their oars and pulled, but it was like trying to move a boat in a floating raft of weeds. "help here!" cried the boatman, and mr. fison and the second workman rushed to help lug at the oar. then the man with the boathook--his name was ewan, or ewen--sprang up with a curse, and began striking downward over the side, as far as he could reach, at the bank of tentacles that now clustered along the boat's bottom. and, at the same time, the two rowers stood up to get a better purchase for the recovery of their oars. the boatman handed his to mr. fison, who lugged desperately, and, meanwhile, the boatman opened a big clasp-knife, and, leaning over the side of the boat, began hacking at the spiring arms upon the oar shaft. mr. fison, staggering with the quivering rocking of the boat, his teeth set, his breath coming short, and the veins starting on his hands as he pulled at his oar, suddenly cast his eyes seaward. and there, not fifty yards off, across the long rollers of the incoming tide, was a large boat standing in towards them, with three women and a little child in it. a boatman was rowing, and a little man in a pink-ribboned straw hat and whites stood in the stern, hailing them. for a moment, of course, mr. fison thought of help, and then he thought of the child. he abandoned his oar forthwith, threw up his arms in a frantic gesture, and screamed to the party in the boat to keep away "for god's sake!" it says much for the modesty and courage of mr. fison that he does not seem to be aware that there was any quality of heroism in his action at this juncture. the oar he had abandoned was at once drawn under, and presently reappeared floating about twenty yards away. at the same moment mr. fison felt the boat under him lurch violently, and a hoarse scream, a prolonged cry of terror from hill, the boatman, caused him to forget the party of excursionists altogether. he turned, and saw hill crouching by the forward rowlock, his face convulsed with terror, and his right arm over the side and drawn tightly down. he gave now a succession of short, sharp cries, "oh! oh! oh!--oh!" mr. fison believes that he must have been hacking at the tentacles below the water-line, and have been grasped by them, but, of course, it is quite impossible to say now certainly what had happened. the boat was heeling over, so that the gunwale was within ten inches of the water, and both ewan and the other labourer were striking down into the water, with oar and boathook, on either side of hill's arm. mr. fison instinctively placed himself to counterpoise them. then hill, who was a burly, powerful man, made a strenuous effort, and rose almost to a standing position. he lifted his arm, indeed, clean out of the water. hanging to it was a complicated tangle of brown ropes; and the eyes of one of the brutes that had hold of him, glaring straight and resolute, showed momentarily above the surface. the boat heeled more and more, and the green-brown water came pouring in a cascade over the side. then hill slipped and fell with his ribs across the side, and his arm and the mass of tentacles about it splashed back into the water. he rolled over; his boot kicked mr. fison's knee as that gentleman rushed forward to seize him, and in another moment fresh tentacles had whipped about his waist and neck, and after a brief, convulsive struggle, in which the boat was nearly capsized, hill was lugged overboard. the boat righted with a violent jerk that all but sent mr. fison over the other side, and hid the struggle in the water from his eyes. he stood staggering to recover his balance for a moment, and as he did so, he became aware that the struggle and the inflowing tide had carried them close upon the weedy rocks again. not four yards off a table of rock still rose in rhythmic movements above the in-wash of the tide. in a moment mr. fison seized the oar from ewan, gave one vigorous stroke, then, dropping it, ran to the bows and leapt. he felt his feet slide over the rock, and, by a frantic effort, leapt again towards a further mass. he stumbled over this, came to his knees, and rose again. "look out!" cried someone, and a large drab body struck him. he was knocked flat into a tidal pool by one of the workmen, and as he went down he heard smothered, choking cries, that he believed at the time came from hill. then he found himself marvelling at the shrillness and variety of hill's voice. someone jumped over him, and a curving rush of foamy water poured over him, and passed. he scrambled to his feet dripping, and, without looking seaward, ran as fast as his terror would let him shoreward. before him, over the flat space of scattered rocks, stumbled the two workmen--one a dozen yards in front of the other. he looked over his shoulder at last, and, seeing that he was not pursued, faced about. he was astonished. from the moment of the rising of the cephalopods out of the water, he had been acting too swiftly to fully comprehend his actions. now it seemed to him as if he had suddenly jumped out of an evil dream. for there were the sky, cloudless and blazing with the afternoon sun, the sea weltering under its pitiless brightness, the soft creamy foam of the breaking water, and the low, long, dark ridges of rock. the righted boat floated, rising and falling gently on the swell about a dozen yards from shore. hill and the monsters, all the stress and tumult of that fierce fight for life, had vanished as though they had never been. mr. fison's heart was beating violently; he was throbbing to the finger-tips, and his breath came deep. there was something missing. for some seconds he could not think clearly enough what this might be. sun, sky, sea, rocks--what was it? then he remembered the boatload of excursionists. it had vanished. he wondered whether he had imagined it. he turned, and saw the two workmen standing side by side under the projecting masses of the tall pink cliffs. he hesitated whether he should make one last attempt to save the man hill. his physical excitement seemed to desert him suddenly, and leave him aimless and helpless. he turned shoreward, stumbling and wading towards his two companions. he looked back again, and there were now two boats floating, and the one farthest out at sea pitched clumsily, bottom upward. iii so it was _haploteuthis ferox_ made its appearance upon the devonshire coast. so far, this has been its most serious aggression. mr. fison's account, taken together with the wave of boating and bathing casualties to which i have already alluded, and the absence of fish from the cornish coasts that year, points clearly to a shoal of these voracious deep-sea monsters prowling slowly along the sub-tidal coastline. hunger migration has, i know, been suggested as the force that drove them hither; but, for my own part, i prefer to believe the alternative theory of hemsley. hemsley holds that a pack or shoal of these creatures may have become enamoured of human flesh by the accident of a foundered ship sinking among them, and have wandered in search of it out of their accustomed zone; first waylaying and following ships, and so coming to our shores in the wake of the atlantic traffic. but to discuss hemsley's cogent and admirably-stated arguments would be out of place here. it would seem that the appetites of the shoal were satisfied by the catch of eleven people--for so far as can be ascertained, there were ten people in the second boat, and certainly these creatures gave no further signs of their presence off sidmouth that day. the coast between seaton and budleigh salterton was patrolled all that evening and night by four preventive service boats, the men in which were armed with harpoons and cutlasses, and as the evening advanced, a number of more or less similarly equipped expeditions, organised by private individuals, joined them. mr. fison took no part in any of these expeditions. about midnight excited hails were heard from a boat about a couple of miles out at sea to the south-east of sidmouth, and a lantern was seen waving in a strange manner to and fro and up and down. the nearer boats at once hurried towards the alarm. the venturesome occupants of the boat, a seaman, a curate, and two schoolboys, had actually seen the monsters passing under their boat. the creatures, it seems, like most deep-sea organisms, were phosphorescent, and they had been floating, five fathoms deep or so, like creatures of moonshine through the blackness of the water, their tentacles retracted and as if asleep, rolling over and over, and moving slowly in a wedge-like formation towards the south-east. these people told their story in gesticulated fragments, as first one boat drew alongside and then another. at last there was a little fleet of eight or nine boats collected together, and from them a tumult, like the chatter of a marketplace, rose into the stillness of the night. there was little or no disposition to pursue the shoal, the people had neither weapons nor experience for such a dubious chase, and presently--even with a certain relief, it may be--the boats turned shoreward. and now to tell what is perhaps the most astonishing fact in this whole astonishing raid. we have not the slightest knowledge of the subsequent movements of the shoal, although the whole south-west coast was now alert for it. but it may, perhaps, be significant that a cachalot was stranded off sark on june . two weeks and three days after this sidmouth affair, a living _haploteuthis_ came ashore on calais sands. it was alive, because several witnesses saw its tentacles moving in a convulsive way. but it is probable that it was dying. a gentleman named pouchet obtained a rifle and shot it. that was the last appearance of a living _haploteuthis_. no others were seen on the french coast. on the th of june a dead body, almost complete, was washed ashore near torquay, and a few days later a boat from the marine biological station, engaged in dredging off plymouth, picked up a rotting specimen, slashed deeply with a cutlass wound. how the former specimen had come by its death it is impossible to say. and on the last day of june, mr. egbert caine, an artist, bathing near newlyn, threw up his arms, shrieked, and was drawn under. a friend bathing with him made no attempt to save him, but swam at once for the shore. this is the last fact to tell of this extraordinary raid from the deeper sea. whether it is really the last of these horrible creatures it is, as yet, premature to say. but it is believed, and certainly it is to be hoped, that they have returned now, and returned for good, to the sunless depths of the middle seas, out of which they have so strangely and so mysteriously arisen. pollock and the porroh man it was in a swampy village on the lagoon river behind the turner peninsula that pollock's first encounter with the porroh man occurred. the women of that country are famous for their good looks--they are gallinas with a dash of european blood that dates from the days of vasco de gama and the english slave-traders, and the porroh man, too, was possibly inspired by a faint caucasian taint in his composition. (it's a curious thing to think that some of us may have distant cousins eating men on sherboro island or raiding with the sofas.) at anyrate, the porroh man stabbed the woman to the heart as though he had been a mere low-class italian, and very narrowly missed pollock. but pollock, using his revolver to parry the lightning stab which was aimed at his deltoid muscle, sent the iron dagger flying, and, firing, hit the man in the hand. he fired again and missed, knocking a sudden window out of the wall of the hut. the porroh man stooped in the doorway, glancing under his arm at pollock. pollock caught a glimpse of his inverted face in the sunlight, and then the englishman was alone, sick and trembling with the excitement of the affair, in the twilight of the place. it had all happened in less time than it takes to read about it. the woman was quite dead, and having ascertained this, pollock went to the entrance of the hut and looked out. things outside were dazzling bright. half a dozen of the porters of the expedition were standing up in a group near the green huts they occupied, and staring towards him, wondering what the shots might signify. behind the little group of men was the broad stretch of black fetid mud by the river, a green carpet of rafts of papyrus and water-grass, and then the leaden water. the mangroves beyond the stream loomed indistinctly through the blue haze. there were no signs of excitement in the squat village, whose fence was just visible above the cane-grass. pollock came out of the hut cautiously and walked towards the river, looking over his shoulder at intervals. but the porroh man had vanished. pollock clutched his revolver nervously in his hand. one of his men came to meet him, and as he came, pointed to the bushes behind the hut in which the porroh man had disappeared. pollock had an irritating persuasion of having made an absolute fool of himself; he felt bitter, savage, at the turn things had taken. at the same time, he would have to tell waterhouse--the moral, exemplary, cautious waterhouse--who would inevitably take the matter seriously. pollock cursed bitterly at his luck, at waterhouse, and especially at the west coast of africa. he felt consummately sick of the expedition. and in the back of his mind all the time was a speculative doubt where precisely within the visible horizon the porroh man might be. it is perhaps rather shocking, but he was not at all upset by the murder that had just happened. he had seen so much brutality during the last three months, so many dead women, burnt huts, drying skeletons, up the kittam river in the wake of the sofa cavalry, that his senses were blunted. what disturbed him was the persuasion that this business was only beginning. he swore savagely at the black, who ventured to ask a question, and went on into the tent under the orange-trees where waterhouse was lying, feeling exasperatingly like a boy going into the headmaster's study. waterhouse was still sleeping off the effects of his last dose of chlorodyne, and pollock sat down on a packing-case beside him, and, lighting his pipe, waited for him to awake. about him were scattered the pots and weapons waterhouse had collected from the mendi people, and which he had been repacking for the canoe voyage to sulyma. presently waterhouse woke up, and after judicial stretching, decided he was all right again. pollock got him some tea. over the tea the incidents of the afternoon were described by pollock, after some preliminary beating about the bush. waterhouse took the matter even more seriously than pollock had anticipated. he did not simply disapprove, he scolded, he insulted. "you're one of those infernal fools who think a black man isn't a human being," he said. "i can't be ill a day without you must get into some dirty scrape or other. this is the third time in a month that you have come crossways-on with a native, and this time you're in for it with a vengeance. porroh, too! they're down upon you enough as it is, about that idol you wrote your silly name on. and they're the most vindictive devils on earth! you make a man ashamed of civilisation. to think you come of a decent family! if ever i cumber myself up with a vicious, stupid young lout like you again"-- "steady on, now," snarled pollock, in the tone that always exasperated waterhouse; "steady on." at that waterhouse became speechless. he jumped to his feet. "look here, pollock," he said, after a struggle to control his breath. "you must go home. i won't have you any longer. i'm ill enough as it is through you"-- "keep your hair on," said pollock, staring in front of him. "i'm ready enough to go." waterhouse became calmer again. he sat down on the camp-stool. "very well," he said. "i don't want a row, pollock, you know, but it's confoundedly annoying to have one's plans put out by this kind of thing. i'll come to sulyma with you, and see you safe aboard"-- "you needn't," said pollock. "i can go alone. from here." "not far," said waterhouse. "you don't understand this porroh business." "how should _i_ know she belonged to a porroh man?" said pollock bitterly. "well, she did," said waterhouse; "and you can't undo the thing. go alone, indeed! i wonder what they'd do to you. you don't seem to understand that this porroh hokey-pokey rules this country, is its law, religion, constitution, medicine, magic.... they appoint the chiefs. the inquisition, at its best, couldn't hold a candle to these chaps. he will probably set awajale, the chief here, on to us. it's lucky our porters are mendis. we shall have to shift this little settlement of ours.... confound you, pollock! and, of course, you must go and miss him." he thought, and his thoughts seemed disagreeable. presently he stood up and took his rifle. "i'd keep close for a bit, if i were you," he said, over his shoulder, as he went out. "i'm going out to see what i can find out about it." pollock remained sitting in the tent, meditating. "i was meant for a civilised life," he said to himself, regretfully, as he filled his pipe. "the sooner i get back to london or paris the better for me." his eye fell on the sealed case in which waterhouse had put the featherless poisoned arrows they had bought in the mendi country. "i wish i had hit the beggar somewhere vital," said pollock viciously. waterhouse came back after a long interval. he was not communicative, though pollock asked him questions enough. the porroh man, it seems, was a prominent member of that mystical society. the village was interested, but not threatening. no doubt the witch-doctor had gone into the bush. he was a great witch-doctor. "of course, he's up to something," said waterhouse, and became silent. "but what can he do?" asked pollock, unheeded. "i must get you out of this. there's something brewing, or things would not be so quiet," said waterhouse, after a gap of silence. pollock wanted to know what the brew might be. "dancing in a circle of skulls," said waterhouse; "brewing a stink in a copper pot." pollock wanted particulars. waterhouse was vague, pollock pressing. at last waterhouse lost his temper. "how the devil should _i_ know?" he said to pollock's twentieth inquiry what the porroh man would do. "he tried to kill you off-hand in the hut. _now_, i fancy he will try something more elaborate. but you'll see fast enough. i don't want to help unnerve you. it's probably all nonsense." that night, as they were sitting at their fire, pollock again tried to draw waterhouse out on the subject of porroh methods. "better get to sleep," said waterhouse, when pollock's bent became apparent; "we start early to-morrow. you may want all your nerve about you." "but what line will he take?" "can't say. they're versatile people. they know a lot of rum dodges. you'd better get that copper-devil, shakespear, to talk." there was a flash and a heavy bang out of the darkness behind the huts, and a clay bullet came whistling close to pollock's head. this, at least, was crude enough. the blacks and half-breeds sitting and yarning round their own fire jumped up, and someone fired into the dark. "better go into one of the huts," said waterhouse quietly, still sitting unmoved. pollock stood up by the fire and drew his revolver. fighting, at least, he was not afraid of. but a man in the dark is in the best of armour. realising the wisdom of waterhouse's advice, pollock went into the tent and lay down there. what little sleep he had was disturbed by dreams, variegated dreams, but chiefly of the porroh man's face, upside down, as he went out of the hut, and looked up under his arm. it was odd that this transitory impression should have stuck so firmly in pollock's memory. moreover, he was troubled by queer pains in his limbs. in the white haze of the early morning, as they were loading the canoes, a barbed arrow suddenly appeared quivering in the ground close to pollock's foot. the boys made a perfunctory effort to clear out the thicket, but it led to no capture. after these two occurrences, there was a disposition on the part of the expedition to leave pollock to himself, and pollock became, for the first time in his life, anxious to mingle with blacks. waterhouse took one canoe, and pollock, in spite of a friendly desire to chat with waterhouse, had to take the other. he was left all alone in the front part of the canoe, and he had the greatest trouble to make the men--who did not love him--keep to the middle of the river, a clear hundred yards or more from either shore. however, he made shakespear, the freetown half-breed, come up to his own end of the canoe and tell him about porroh, which shakespear, failing in his attempts to leave pollock alone, presently did with considerable freedom and gusto. the day passed. the canoe glided swiftly along the ribbon of lagoon water, between the drift of water-figs, fallen trees, papyrus, and palm-wine palms, and with the dark mangrove swamp to the left, through which one could hear now and then the roar of the atlantic surf. shakespear told in his soft, blurred english of how the porroh could cast spells; how men withered up under their malice; how they could send dreams and devils; how they tormented and killed the sons of ijibu; how they kidnapped a white trader from sulyma who had maltreated one of the sect, and how his body looked when it was found. and pollock after each narrative cursed under his breath at the want of missionary enterprise that allowed such things to be, and at the inert british government that ruled over this dark heathendom of sierra leone. in the evening they came to the kasi lake, and sent a score of crocodiles lumbering off the island on which the expedition camped for the night. the next day they reached sulyma, and smelt the sea breeze, but pollock had to put up there for five days before he could get on to freetown. waterhouse, considering him to be comparatively safe here, and within the pale of freetown influence, left him and went back with the expedition to gbemma, and pollock became very friendly with perera, the only resident white trader at sulyma--so friendly, indeed, that he went about with him everywhere. perera was a little portuguese jew, who had lived in england, and he appreciated the englishman's friendliness as a great compliment. for two days nothing happened out of the ordinary; for the most part pollock and perera played nap--the only game they had in common--and pollock got into debt. then, on the second evening, pollock had a disagreeable intimation of the arrival of the porroh man in sulyma by getting a flesh-wound in the shoulder from a lump of filed iron. it was a long shot, and the missile had nearly spent its force when it hit him. still it conveyed its message plainly enough. pollock sat up in his hammock, revolver in hand, all that night, and next morning confided, to some extent, in the anglo-portuguese. perera took the matter seriously. he knew the local customs pretty thoroughly. "it is a personal question, you must know. it is revenge. and of course he is hurried by your leaving de country. none of de natives or half-breeds will interfere wid him very much--unless you make it wort deir while. if you come upon him suddenly, you might shoot him. but den he might shoot you. "den dere's dis--infernal magic," said perera. "of course, i don't believe in it--superstition--but still it's not nice to tink dat wherever you are, dere is a black man, who spends a moonlight night now and den a-dancing about a fire to send you bad dreams.... had any bad dreams?" "rather," said pollock. "i keep on seeing the beggar's head upside down grinning at me and showing all his teeth as he did in the hut, and coming close up to me, and then going ever so far off, and coming back. it's nothing to be afraid of, but somehow it simply paralyses me with terror in my sleep. queer things--dreams. i know it's a dream all the time, and i can't wake up from it." "it's probably only fancy," said perera. "den my niggers say porroh men can send snakes. seen any snakes lately?" "only one. i killed him this morning, on the floor near my hammock. almost trod on him as i got up." "_ah!_" said perera, and then, reassuringly, "of course it is a--coincidence. still i would keep my eyes open. den dere's pains in de bones." "i thought they were due to miasma," said pollock. "probably dey are. when did dey begin?" then pollock remembered that he first noticed them the night after the fight in the hut. "it's my opinion he don't want to kill you," said perera--"at least not yet. i've heard deir idea is to scare and worry a man wid deir spells, and narrow misses, and rheumatic pains, and bad dreams, and all dat, until he's sick of life. of course, it's all talk, you know. you mustn't worry about it.... but i wonder what he'll be up to next." "_i_ shall have to be up to something first," said pollock, staring gloomily at the greasy cards that perera was putting on the table. "it don't suit my dignity to be followed about, and shot at, and blighted in this way. i wonder if porroh hokey-pokey upsets your luck at cards." he looked at perera suspiciously. "very likely it does," said perera warmly, shuffling. "dey are wonderful people." that afternoon pollock killed two snakes in his hammock, and there was also an extraordinary increase in the number of red ants that swarmed over the place; and these annoyances put him in a fit temper to talk over business with a certain mendi rough he had interviewed before. the mendi rough showed pollock a little iron dagger, and demonstrated where one struck in the neck, in a way that made pollock shiver, and in return for certain considerations pollock promised him a double-barrelled gun with an ornamental lock. in the evening, as pollock and perera were playing cards, the mendi rough came in through the doorway, carrying something in a blood-soaked piece of native cloth. "not here!" said pollock very hurriedly. "not here!" but he was not quick enough to prevent the man, who was anxious to get to pollock's side of the bargain, from opening the cloth and throwing the head of the porroh man upon the table. it bounded from there on to the floor, leaving a red trail on the cards, and rolled into a corner, where it came to rest upside down, but glaring hard at pollock. perera jumped up as the thing fell among the cards, and began in his excitement to gabble in portuguese. the mendi was bowing, with the red cloth in his hand. "de gun!" he said. pollock stared back at the head in the corner. it bore exactly the expression it had in his dreams. something seemed to snap in his own brain as he looked at it. then perera found his english again. "you got him killed?" he said. "you did not kill him yourself?" "why should i?" said pollock. "but he will not be able to take it off now!" "take _what_ off?" said pollock. "and all dese cards are spoiled!" "_what_ do you mean by taking off?" said pollock. "you must send me a new pack from freetown. you can buy dem dere." "but--'take it off'?" "it is only superstition. i forgot. de niggers say dat if de witches--he was a witch-- but it is rubbish.... you must make de porroh man take it off, or kill him yourself.... it is very silly." pollock swore under his breath, still staring hard at the head in the corner. "i can't stand that glare," he said. then suddenly he rushed at the thing and kicked it. it rolled some yards or so, and came to rest in the same position as before, upside down, and looking at him. "he is ugly," said the anglo-portuguese. "very ugly. dey do it on deir faces with little knives." pollock would have kicked the head again, but the mendi man touched him on the arm. "de gun?" he said, looking nervously at the head. "two--if you will take that beastly thing away," said pollock. the mendi shook his head, and intimated that he only wanted one gun now due to him, and for which he would be obliged. pollock found neither cajolery nor bullying any good with him. perera had a gun to sell (at a profit of three hundred per cent.), and with that the man presently departed. then pollock's eyes, against his will, were recalled to the thing on the floor. "it is funny dat his head keeps upside down," said perera, with an uneasy laugh. "his brains must be heavy, like de weight in de little images one sees dat keep always upright wid lead in dem. you will take him wiv you when you go presently. you might take him now. de cards are all spoilt. dere is a man sell dem in freetown. de room is in a filty mess as it is. you should have killed him yourself." pollock pulled himself together, and went and picked up the head. he would hang it up by the lamp-hook in the middle of the ceiling of his room, and dig a grave for it at once. he was under the impression that he hung it up by the hair, but that must have been wrong, for when he returned for it, it was hanging by the neck upside down. he buried it before sunset on the north side of the shed he occupied, so that he should not have to pass the grave after dark when he was returning from perera's. he killed two snakes before he went to sleep. in the darkest part of the night he awoke with a start, and heard a pattering sound and something scraping on the floor. he sat up noiselessly, and felt under his pillow for his revolver. a mumbling growl followed, and pollock fired at the sound. there was a yelp, and something dark passed for a moment across the hazy blue of the doorway. "a dog!" said pollock, lying down again. in the early dawn he awoke again with a peculiar sense of unrest. the vague pain in his bones had returned. for some time he lay watching the red ants that were swarming over the ceiling, and then, as the light grew brighter, he looked over the edge of his hammock and saw something dark on the floor. he gave such a violent start that the hammock overset and flung him out. he found himself lying, perhaps, a yard away from the head of the porroh man. it had been disinterred by the dog, and the nose was grievously battered. ants and flies swarmed over it. by an odd coincidence, it was still upside down, and with the same diabolical expression in the inverted eyes. pollock sat paralysed, and stared at the horror for some time. then he got up and walked round it--giving it a wide berth--and out of the shed. the clear light of the sunrise, the living stir of vegetation before the breath of the dying land-breeze, and the empty grave with the marks of the dog's paws, lightened the weight upon his mind a little. he told perera of the business as though it was a jest--a jest to be told with white lips. "you should not have frighten de dog," said perera, with poorly simulated hilarity. the next two days, until the steamer came, were spent by pollock in making a more effectual disposition of his possession. overcoming his aversion to handling the thing, he went down to the river mouth and threw it into the sea-water, but by some miracle it escaped the crocodiles, and was cast up by the tide on the mud a little way up the river, to be found by an intelligent arab half-breed, and offered for sale to pollock and perera as a curiosity, just on the edge of night. the native hung about in the brief twilight, making lower and lower offers, and at last, getting scared in some way by the evident dread these wise white men had for the thing, went off, and, passing pollock's shed, threw his burden in there for pollock to discover in the morning. at this pollock got into a kind of frenzy. he would burn the thing. he went out straightway into the dawn, and had constructed a big pyre of brushwood before the heat of the day. he was interrupted by the hooter of the little paddle steamer from monrovia to bathurst, which was coming through the gap in the bar. "thank heaven!" said pollock, with infinite piety, when the meaning of the sound dawned upon him. with trembling hands he lit his pile of wood hastily, threw the head upon it, and went away to pack his portmanteau and make his adieux to perera. that afternoon, with a sense of infinite relief, pollock watched the flat swampy foreshore of sulyma grow small in the distance. the gap in the long line of white surge became narrower and narrower. it seemed to be closing in and cutting him off from his trouble. the feeling of dread and worry began to slip from him bit by bit. at sulyma belief in porroh malignity and porroh magic had been in the air, his sense of porroh had been vast, pervading, threatening, dreadful. now manifestly the domain of porroh was only a little place, a little black band between the sea and the blue cloudy mendi uplands. "good-bye, porroh!" said pollock. "good-bye--certainly not _au revoir_." the captain of the steamer came and leant over the rail beside him, and wished him good-evening, and spat at the froth of the wake in token of friendly ease. "i picked up a rummy curio on the beach this go," said the captain. "it's a thing i never saw done this side of indy before." "what might that be?" said pollock. "pickled 'ed," said the captain. "_what?_" said pollock. "'ed--smoked. 'ed of one of these porroh chaps, all ornamented with knife-cuts. why! what's up? nothing? i shouldn't have took you for a nervous chap. green in the face. by gosh! you're a bad sailor. all right, eh? lord, how funny you went!... well, this 'ed i was telling you of is a bit rum in a way. i've got it, along with some snakes, in a jar of spirit in my cabin what i keeps for such curios, and i'm hanged if it don't float upsy down. hullo!" pollock had given an incoherent cry, and had his hands in his hair. he ran towards the paddle-boxes with a half-formed idea of jumping into the sea, and then he realised his position and turned back towards the captain. "here!" said the captain. "jack philips, just keep him off me! stand off! no nearer, mister! what's the matter with you? are you mad?" pollock put his hand to his head. it was no good explaining. "i believe i am pretty nearly mad at times," he said. "it's a pain i have here. comes suddenly. you'll excuse me, i hope." he was white and in a perspiration. he saw suddenly very clearly all the danger he ran of having his sanity doubted. he forced himself to restore the captain's confidence, by answering his sympathetic inquiries, noting his suggestions, even trying a spoonful of neat brandy in his cheek, and, that matter settled, asking a number of questions about the captain's private trade in curiosities. the captain described the head in detail. all the while pollock was struggling to keep under a preposterous persuasion that the ship was as transparent as glass, and that he could distinctly see the inverted face looking at him from the cabin beneath his feet. pollock had a worse time almost on the steamer than he had at sulyma. all day he had to control himself in spite of his intense perception of the imminent presence of that horrible head that was overshadowing his mind. at night his old nightmare returned, until, with a violent effort, he would force himself awake, rigid with the horror of it, and with the ghost of a hoarse scream in his throat. he left the actual head behind at bathurst, where he changed ship for teneriffe, but not his dreams nor the dull ache in his bones. at teneriffe pollock transferred to a cape liner, but the head followed him. he gambled, he tried chess, he even read books, but he knew the danger of drink. yet whenever a round black shadow, a round black object came into his range, there he looked for the head, and--saw it. he knew clearly enough that his imagination was growing traitor to him, and yet at times it seemed the ship he sailed in, his fellow-passengers, the sailors, the wide sea, was all part of a filmy phantasmagoria that hung, scarcely veiling it, between him and a horrible real world. then the porroh man, thrusting his diabolical face through that curtain, was the one real and undeniable thing. at that he would get up and touch things, taste something, gnaw something, burn his hand with a match, or run a needle into himself. so, struggling grimly and silently with his excited imagination, pollock reached england. he landed at southampton, and went on straight from waterloo to his banker's in cornhill in a cab. there he transacted some business with the manager in a private room, and all the while the head hung like an ornament under the black marble mantel and dripped upon the fender. he could hear the drops fall, and see the red on the fender. "a pretty fern," said the manager, following his eyes. "but it makes the fender rusty." "very," said pollock; "a _very_ pretty fern. and that reminds me. can you recommend me a physician for mind troubles? i've got a little--what is it?--hallucination." the head laughed savagely, wildly. pollock was surprised the manager did not notice it. but the manager only stared at his face. with the address of a doctor, pollock presently emerged in cornhill. there was no cab in sight, and so he went on down to the western end of the street, and essayed the crossing opposite the mansion house. the crossing is hardly easy even for the expert londoner; cabs, vans, carriages, mail-carts, omnibuses go by in one incessant stream; to anyone fresh from the malarious solitudes of sierra leone it is a boiling, maddening confusion. but when an inverted head suddenly comes bouncing, like an indiarubber ball, between your legs, leaving distinct smears of blood every time it touches the ground, you can scarcely hope to avoid an accident. pollock lifted his feet convulsively to avoid it, and then kicked at the thing furiously. then something hit him violently in the back, and a hot pain ran up his arm. he had been hit by the pole of an omnibus, and three of the fingers of his left hand smashed by the hoof of one of the horses--the very fingers, as it happened, that he shot from the porroh man. they pulled him out from between the horses' legs, and found the address of the physician in his crushed hand. for a couple of days pollock's sensations were full of the sweet, pungent smell of chloroform, of painful operations that caused him no pain, of lying still and being given food and drink. then he had a slight fever, and was very thirsty, and his old nightmare came back. it was only when it returned that he noticed it had left him for a day. "if my skull had been smashed instead of my fingers, it might have gone altogether," said pollock, staring thoughtfully at the dark cushion that had taken on for the time the shape of the head. pollock at the first opportunity told the physician of his mind trouble. he knew clearly that he must go mad unless something should intervene to save him. he explained that he had witnessed a decapitation in dahomey, and was haunted by one of the heads. naturally, he did not care to state the actual facts. the physician looked grave. presently he spoke hesitatingly. "as a child, did you get very much religious training?" "very little," said pollock. a shade passed over the physician's face. "i don't know if you have heard of the miraculous cures--it may be, of course, they are not miraculous--at lourdes." "faith-healing will hardly suit me, i am afraid," said pollock, with his eye on the dark cushion. the head distorted its scarred features in an abominable grimace. the physician went upon a new track. "it's all imagination," he said, speaking with sudden briskness. "a fair case for faith-healing, anyhow. your nervous system has run down, you're in that twilight state of health when the bogles come easiest. the strong impression was too much for you. i must make you up a little mixture that will strengthen your nervous system--especially your brain. and you must take exercise." "i'm no good for faith-healing," said pollock. "and therefore we must restore tone. go in search of stimulating air--scotland, norway, the alps"-- "jericho, if you like," said pollock--"where naaman went." however, so soon as his fingers would let him, pollock made a gallant attempt to follow out the doctor's suggestion. it was now november. he tried football, but to pollock the game consisted in kicking a furious inverted head about a field. he was no good at the game. he kicked blindly, with a kind of horror, and when they put him back into goal, and the ball came swooping down upon him, he suddenly yelled and got out of its way. the discreditable stories that had driven him from england to wander in the tropics shut him off from any but men's society, and now his increasingly strange behaviour made even his man friends avoid him. the thing was no longer a thing of the eye merely; it gibbered at him, spoke to him. a horrible fear came upon him that presently, when he took hold of the apparition, it would no longer become some mere article of furniture, but would _feel_ like a real dissevered head. alone, he would curse at the thing, defy it, entreat it; once or twice, in spite of his grim self-control, he addressed it in the presence of others. he felt the growing suspicion in the eyes of the people that watched him--his landlady, the servant, his man. one day early in december his cousin arnold--his next of kin--came to see him and draw him out, and watch his sunken yellow face with narrow eager eyes. and it seemed to pollock that the hat his cousin carried in his hand was no hat at all, but a gorgon head that glared at him upside down, and fought with its eyes against his reason. however, he was still resolute to see the matter out. he got a bicycle, and, riding over the frosty road from wandsworth to kingston, found the thing rolling along at his side, and leaving a dark trail behind it. he set his teeth and rode faster. then suddenly, as he came down the hill towards richmond park, the apparition rolled in front of him and under his wheel, so quickly that he had no time for thought, and, turning quickly to avoid it, was flung violently against a heap of stones and broke his left wrist. the end came on christmas morning. all night he had been in a fever, the bandages encircling his wrist like a band of fire, his dreams more vivid and terrible than ever. in the cold, colourless, uncertain light that came before the sunrise, he sat up in his bed, and saw the head upon the bracket in the place of the bronze jar that had stood there overnight. "i know that is a bronze jar," he said, with a chill doubt at his heart. presently the doubt was irresistible. he got out of bed slowly, shivering, and advanced to the jar with his hand raised. surely he would see now his imagination had deceived him, recognise the distinctive sheen of bronze. at last, after an age of hesitation, his fingers came down on the patterned cheek of the head. he withdrew them spasmodically. the last stage was reached. his sense of touch had betrayed him. trembling, stumbling against the bed, kicking against his shoes with his bare feet, a dark confusion eddying round him, he groped his way to the dressing-table, took his razor from the drawer, and sat down on the bed with this in his hand. in the looking-glass he saw his own face, colourless, haggard, full of the ultimate bitterness of despair. he beheld in swift succession the incidents in the brief tale of his experience. his wretched home, his still more wretched schooldays, the years of vicious life he had led since then, one act of selfish dishonour leading to another; it was all clear and pitiless now, all its squalid folly, in the cold light of the dawn. he came to the hut, to the fight with the porroh man, to the retreat down the river to sulyma, to the mendi assassin and his red parcel, to his frantic endeavours to destroy the head, to the growth of his hallucination. it was a hallucination! he _knew_ it was. a hallucination merely. for a moment he snatched at hope. he looked away from the glass, and on the bracket, the inverted head grinned and grimaced at him.... with the stiff fingers of his bandaged hand he felt at his neck for the throb of his arteries. the morning was very cold, the steel blade felt like ice. the red room "i can assure you," said i, "that it will take a very tangible ghost to frighten me." and i stood up before the fire with my glass in my hand. "it is your own choosing," said the man with the withered arm, and glanced at me askance. "eight-and-twenty years," said i, "i have lived, and never a ghost have i seen as yet." the old woman sat staring hard into the fire, her pale eyes wide open. "ay," she broke in; "and eight-and-twenty years you have lived and never seen the likes of this house, i reckon. there's a many things to see, when one's still but eight-and-twenty." she swayed her head slowly from side to side. "a many things to see and sorrow for." i half suspected the old people were trying to enhance the spiritual terrors of their house by their droning insistence. i put down my empty glass on the table and looked about the room, and caught a glimpse of myself, abbreviated and broadened to an impossible sturdiness, in the queer old mirror at the end of the room. "well," i said, "if i see anything to-night, i shall be so much the wiser. for i come to the business with an open mind." "it's your own choosing," said the man with the withered arm once more. i heard the sound of a stick and a shambling step on the flags in the passage outside, and the door creaked on its hinges as a second old man entered, more bent, more wrinkled, more aged even than the first. he supported himself by a single crutch, his eyes were covered by a shade, and his lower lip, half-averted, hung pale and pink from his decaying yellow teeth. he made straight for an arm-chair on the opposite side of the table, sat down clumsily, and began to cough. the man with the withered arm gave this new-comer a short glance of positive dislike; the old woman took no notice of his arrival, but remained with her eyes fixed steadily on the fire. "i said--it's your own choosing," said the man with the withered arm, when the coughing had ceased for a while. "it's my own choosing," i answered. the man with the shade became aware of my presence for the first time, and threw his head back for a moment and sideways, to see me. i caught a momentary glimpse of his eyes, small and bright and inflamed. then he began to cough and splutter again. "why don't you drink?" said the man with the withered arm, pushing the beer towards him. the man with the shade poured out a glassful with a shaky arm that splashed half as much again on the deal table. a monstrous shadow of him crouched upon the wall and mocked his action as he poured and drank. i must confess i had scarce expected these grotesque custodians. there is to my mind something inhuman in senility, something crouching and atavistic; the human qualities seem to drop from old people insensibly day by day. the three of them made me feel uncomfortable, with their gaunt silences, their bent carriage, their evident unfriendliness to me and to one another. "if," said i, "you will show me to this haunted room of yours, i will make myself comfortable there." the old man with the cough jerked his head back so suddenly that it startled me, and shot another glance of his red eyes at me from under the shade; but no one answered me. i waited a minute, glancing from one to the other. "if," i said a little louder, "if you will show me to this haunted room of yours, i will relieve you from the task of entertaining me." "there's a candle on the slab outside the door," said the man with the withered arm, looking at my feet as he addressed me. "but if you go to the red room to-night"-- ("this night of all nights!" said the old woman.) "you go alone." "very well," i answered. "and which way do i go?" "you go along the passage for a bit," said he, "until you come to a door, and through that is a spiral staircase, and half-way up that is a landing and another door covered with baize. go through that and down the long corridor to the end, and the red room is on your left up the steps." "have i got that right?" i said, and repeated his directions. he corrected me in one particular. "and are you really going?" said the man with the shade, looking at me again for the third time, with that queer, unnatural tilting of the face. ("this night of all nights!" said the old woman.) "it is what i came for," i said, and moved towards the door. as i did so, the old man with the shade rose and staggered round the table, so as to be closer to the others and to the fire. at the door i turned and looked at them, and saw they were all close together, dark against the firelight, staring at me over their shoulders, with an intent expression on their ancient faces. "good-night," i said, setting the door open. "it's your own choosing," said the man with the withered arm. i left the door wide open until the candle was well alight, and then i shut them in and walked down the chilly, echoing passage. i must confess that the oddness of these three old pensioners in whose charge her ladyship had left the castle, and the deep-toned, old-fashioned furniture of the housekeeper's room in which they foregathered, affected me in spite of my efforts to keep myself at a matter-of-fact phase. they seemed to belong to another age, an older age, an age when things spiritual were different from this of ours, less certain; an age when omens and witches were credible, and ghosts beyond denying. their very existence was spectral; the cut of their clothing, fashions born in dead brains. the ornaments and conveniences of the room about them were ghostly--the thoughts of vanished men, which still haunted rather than participated in the world of to-day. but with an effort i sent such thoughts to the right-about. the long, draughty subterranean passage was chilly and dusty, and my candle flared and made the shadows cower and quiver. the echoes rang up and down the spiral staircase, and a shadow came sweeping up after me, and one fled before me into the darkness overhead. i came to the landing and stopped there for a moment, listening to a rustling that i fancied i heard; then, satisfied of the absolute silence, i pushed open the baize-covered door and stood in the corridor. the effect was scarcely what i expected, for the moonlight, coming in by the great window on the grand staircase, picked out everything in vivid black shadow or silvery illumination. everything was in its place: the house might have been deserted on the yesterday instead of eighteen months ago. there were candles in the sockets of the sconces, and whatever dust had gathered on the carpets or upon the polished flooring was distributed so evenly as to be invisible in the moonlight. i was about to advance, and stopped abruptly. a bronze group stood upon the landing, hidden from me by the corner of the wall, but its shadow fell with marvellous distinctness upon the white panelling, and gave me the impression of someone crouching to waylay me. i stood rigid for half a minute perhaps. then, with my hand in the pocket that held my revolver, i advanced, only to discover a ganymede and eagle glistening in the moonlight. that incident for a time restored my nerve, and a porcelain chinaman on a buhl table, whose head rocked silently as i passed him, scarcely startled me. the door to the red room and the steps up to it were in a shadowy corner. i moved my candle from side to side, in order to see clearly the nature of the recess in which i stood before opening the door. here it was, thought i, that my predecessor was found, and the memory of that story gave me a sudden twinge of apprehension. i glanced over my shoulder at the ganymede in the moonlight, and opened the door of the red room rather hastily, with my face half turned to the pallid silence of the landing. i entered, closed the door behind me at once, turned the key i found in the lock within, and stood with the candle held aloft, surveying the scene of my vigil, the great red room of lorraine castle, in which the young duke had died. or, rather, in which he had begun his dying, for he had opened the door and fallen headlong down the steps i had just ascended. that had been the end of his vigil, of his gallant attempt to conquer the ghostly tradition of the place, and never, i thought, had apoplexy better served the ends of superstition. and there were other and older stories that clung to the room, back to the half-credible beginning of it all, the tale of a timid wife and the tragic end that came to her husband's jest of frightening her. and looking around that large shadowy room, with its shadowy window bays, its recesses and alcoves, one could well understand the legends that had sprouted in its black corners, its germinating darkness. my candle was a little tongue of light in its vastness, that failed to pierce the opposite end of the room, and left an ocean of mystery and suggestion beyond its island of light. i resolved to make a systematic examination of the place at once, and dispel the fanciful suggestions of its obscurity before they obtained a hold upon me. after satisfying myself of the fastening of the door, i began to walk about the room, peering round each article of furniture, tucking up the valances of the bed, and opening its curtains wide. i pulled up the blinds and examined the fastenings of the several windows before closing the shutters, leant forward and looked up the blackness of the wide chimney, and tapped the dark oak panelling for any secret opening. there were two big mirrors in the room, each with a pair of sconces bearing candles, and on the mantelshelf, too, were more candles in china candlesticks. all these i lit one after the other. the fire was laid,--an unexpected consideration from the old housekeeper,--and i lit it, to keep down any disposition to shiver, and when it was burning well, i stood round with my back to it and regarded the room again. i had pulled up a chintz-covered arm-chair and a table, to form a kind of barricade before me, and on this lay my revolver ready to hand. my precise examination had done me good, but i still found the remoter darkness of the place, and its perfect stillness, too stimulating for the imagination. the echoing of the stir and crackling of the fire was no sort of comfort to me. the shadow in the alcove, at the end in particular, had that undefinable quality of a presence, that odd suggestion of a lurking living thing, that comes so easily in silence and solitude. at last, to reassure myself, i walked with a candle into it, and satisfied myself that there was nothing tangible there. i stood that candle upon the floor of the alcove, and left it in that position. by this time i was in a state of considerable nervous tension, although to my reason there was no adequate cause for the condition. my mind, however, was perfectly clear. i postulated quite unreservedly that nothing supernatural could happen, and to pass the time i began to string some rhymes together, ingoldsby fashion, of the original legend of the place. a few i spoke aloud, but the echoes were not pleasant. for the same reason i also abandoned, after a time, a conversation with myself upon the impossibility of ghosts and haunting. my mind reverted to the three old and distorted people downstairs, and i tried to keep it upon that topic. the sombre reds and blacks of the room troubled me; even with seven candles the place was merely dim. the one in the alcove flared in a draught, and the fire-flickering kept the shadows and penumbra perpetually shifting and stirring. casting about for a remedy, i recalled the candles i had seen in the passage, and, with a slight effort, walked out into the moonlight, carrying a candle and leaving the door open, and presently returned with as many as ten. these i put in various knick-knacks of china with which the room was sparsely adorned, lit and placed where the shadows had lain deepest, some on the floor, some in the window recesses, until at last my seventeen candles were so arranged that not an inch of the room but had the direct light of at least one of them. it occurred to me that when the ghost came, i could warn him not to trip over them. the room was now quite brightly illuminated. there was something very cheery and reassuring in these little streaming flames, and snuffing them gave me an occupation, and afforded a reassuring sense of the passage of time. even with that, however, the brooding expectation of the vigil weighed heavily upon me. it was after midnight that the candle in the alcove suddenly went out, and the black shadow sprang back to its place there. i did not see the candle go out; i simply turned and saw that the darkness was there, as one might start and see the unexpected presence of a stranger. "by jove!" said i aloud; "that draught's a strong one!" and, taking the matches from the table, i walked across the room in a leisurely manner to relight the corner again. my first match would not strike, and as i succeeded with the second, something seemed to blink on the wall before me. i turned my head involuntarily, and saw that the two candles on the little table by the fireplace were extinguished. i rose at once to my feet. "odd!" i said. "did i do that myself in a flash of absent-mindedness?" i walked back, relit one, and as i did so, i saw the candle in the right sconce of one of the mirrors wink and go right out, and almost immediately its companion followed it. there was no mistake about it. the flame vanished, as if the wicks had been suddenly nipped between a finger and a thumb, leaving the wick neither glowing nor smoking, but black. while i stood gaping, the candle at the foot of the bed went out, and the shadows seemed to take another step towards me. "this won't do!" said i, and first one and then another candle on the mantelshelf followed. "what's up?" i cried, with a queer high note getting into my voice somehow. at that the candle on the wardrobe went out, and the one i had relit in the alcove followed. "steady on!" i said. "these candles are wanted," speaking with a half-hysterical facetiousness, and scratching away at a match the while for the mantel candlesticks. my hands trembled so much that twice i missed the rough paper of the matchbox. as the mantel emerged from darkness again, two candles in the remoter end of the window were eclipsed. but with the same match i also relit the larger mirror candles, and those on the floor near the doorway, so that for the moment i seemed to gain on the extinctions. but then in a volley there vanished four lights at once in different corners of the room, and i struck another match in quivering haste, and stood hesitating whither to take it. as i stood undecided, an invisible hand seemed to sweep out the two candles on the table. with a cry of terror, i dashed at the alcove, then into the corner, and then into the window, relighting three, as two more vanished by the fireplace; then, perceiving a better way, i dropped the matches on the iron-bound deed-box in the corner, and caught up the bedroom candlestick. with this i avoided the delay of striking matches; but for all that the steady process of extinction went on, and the shadows i feared and fought against returned, and crept in upon me, first a step gained on this side of me and then on that. it was like a ragged storm-cloud sweeping out the stars. now and then one returned for a minute, and was lost again. i was now almost frantic with the horror of the coming darkness, and my self-possession deserted me. i leaped panting and dishevelled from candle to candle, in a vain struggle against that remorseless advance. i bruised myself on the thigh against the table, i sent a chair headlong, i stumbled and fell and whisked the cloth from the table in my fall. my candle rolled away from me, and i snatched another as i rose. abruptly this was blown out, as i swung it off the table, by the wind of my sudden movement, and immediately the two remaining candles followed. but there was light still in the room, a red light that staved off the shadows from me. the fire! of course, i could still thrust my candle between the bars and relight it! i turned to where the flames were still dancing between the glowing coals, and splashing red reflections upon the furniture, made two steps towards the grate, and incontinently the flames dwindled and vanished, the glow vanished, the reflections rushed together and vanished, and as i thrust the candle between the bars, darkness closed upon me like the shutting of an eye, wrapped about me in a stifling embrace, sealed my vision, and crushed the last vestiges of reason from my brain. the candle fell from my hand. i flung out my arms in a vain effort to thrust that ponderous blackness away from me, and, lifting up my voice, screamed with all my might--once, twice, thrice. then i think i must have staggered to my feet. i know i thought suddenly of the moonlit corridor, and, with my head bowed and my arms over my face, made a run for the door. but i had forgotten the exact position of the door, and struck myself heavily against the corner of the bed. i staggered back, turned, and was either struck or struck myself against some other bulky furniture. i have a vague memory of battering myself thus, to and fro in the darkness, of a cramped struggle, and of my own wild crying as i darted to and fro, of a heavy blow at last upon my forehead, a horrible sensation of falling that lasted an age, of my last frantic effort to keep my footing, and then i remember no more. * * * * * i opened my eyes in daylight. my head was roughly bandaged, and the man with the withered arm was watching my face. i looked about me, trying to remember what had happened, and for a space i could not recollect. i rolled my eyes into the corner, and saw the old woman, no longer abstracted, pouring out some drops of medicine from a little blue phial into a glass. "where am i?" i asked. "i seem to remember you, and yet i cannot remember who you are." they told me then, and i heard of the haunted red room as one who hears a tale. "we found you at dawn," said he, "and there was blood on your forehead and lips." it was very slowly i recovered my memory of my experience. "you believe now," said the old man, "that the room is haunted?" he spoke no longer as one who greets an intruder, but as one who grieves for a broken friend. "yes," said i; "the room is haunted." "and you have seen it. and we, who have lived here all our lives, have never set eyes upon it. because we have never dared.... tell us, is it truly the old earl who"-- "no," said i; "it is not." "i told you so," said the old lady, with the glass in her hand. "it is his poor young countess who was frightened"-- "it is not," i said. "there is neither ghost of earl nor ghost of countess in that room, there is no ghost there at all; but worse, far worse"-- "well?" they said. "the worst of all the things that haunt poor mortal man," said i; "and that is, in all its nakedness--_fear!_ fear that will not have light nor sound, that will not bear with reason, that deafens and darkens and overwhelms. it followed me through the corridor, it fought against me in the room"-- i stopped abruptly. there was an interval of silence. my hand went up to my bandages. then the man with the shade sighed and spoke. "that is it," said he. "i knew that was it. a power of darkness. to put such a curse upon a woman! it lurks there always. you can feel it even in the daytime, even of a bright summer's day, in the hangings, in the curtains, keeping behind you however you face about. in the dusk it creeps along the corridor and follows you, so that you dare not turn. there is fear in that room of hers--black fear, and there will be--so long as this house of sin endures." the cone the night was hot and overcast, the sky red-rimmed with the lingering sunset of midsummer. they sat at the open window, trying to fancy the air was fresher there. the trees and shrubs of the garden stood stiff and dark; beyond in the roadway a gas-lamp burnt, bright orange against the hazy blue of the evening. farther were the three lights of the railway signal against the lowering sky. the man and woman spoke to one another in low tones. "he does not suspect?" said the man, a little nervously. "not he," she said peevishly, as though that too irritated her. "he thinks of nothing but the works and the prices of fuel. he has no imagination, no poetry." "none of these men of iron have," he said sententiously. "they have no hearts." "_he_ has not," she said. she turned her discontented face towards the window. the distant sound of a roaring and rushing drew nearer and grew in volume; the house quivered; one heard the metallic rattle of the tender. as the train passed, there was a glare of light above the cutting and a driving tumult of smoke; one, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight black oblongs--eight trucks--passed across the dim grey of the embankment, and were suddenly extinguished one by one in the throat of the tunnel, which, with the last, seemed to swallow down train, smoke, and sound in one abrupt gulp. "this country was all fresh and beautiful once," he said; "and now--it is gehenna. down that way--nothing but pot-banks and chimneys belching fire and dust into the face of heaven.... but what does it matter? an end comes, an end to all this cruelty.... _to-morrow._" he spoke the last word in a whisper. "_to-morrow_," she said, speaking in a whisper too, and still staring out of the window. "dear!" he said, putting his hand on hers. she turned with a start, and their eyes searched one another's. hers softened to his gaze. "my dear one!" she said, and then: "it seems so strange--that you should have come into my life like this--to open"-- she paused. "to open?" he said. "all this wonderful world"--she hesitated, and spoke still more softly--"this world of _love_ to me." then suddenly the door clicked and closed. they turned their heads, and he started violently back. in the shadow of the room stood a great shadowy figure--silent. they saw the face dimly in the half-light, with unexpressive dark patches under the penthouse brows. every muscle in raut's body suddenly became tense. when could the door have opened? what had he heard? had he heard all? what had he seen? a tumult of questions. the new-comer's voice came at last, after a pause that seemed interminable. "well?" he said. "i was afraid i had missed you, horrocks," said the man at the window, gripping the window-ledge with his hand. his voice was unsteady. the clumsy figure of horrocks came forward out of the shadow. he made no answer to raut's remark. for a moment he stood above them. the woman's heart was cold within her. "i told mr. raut it was just possible you might come back," she said, in a voice that never quivered. horrocks, still silent, sat down abruptly in the chair by her little work-table. his big hands were clenched; one saw now the fire of his eyes under the shadow of his brows. he was trying to get his breath. his eyes went from the woman he had trusted to the friend he had trusted, and then back to the woman. by this time and for the moment all three half understood one another. yet none dared say a word to ease the pent-up things that choked them. it was the husband's voice that broke the silence at last. "you wanted to see me?" he said to raut. raut started as he spoke. "i came to see you," he said, resolved to lie to the last. "yes," said horrocks. "you promised," said raut, "to show me some fine effects of moonlight and smoke." "i promised to show you some fine effects of moonlight and smoke," repeated horrocks in a colourless voice. "and i thought i might catch you to-night before you went down to the works," proceeded raut, "and come with you." there was another pause. did the man mean to take the thing coolly? did he after all know? how long had he been in the room? yet even at the moment when they heard the door, their attitudes.... horrocks glanced at the profile of the woman, shadowy pallid in the half-light. then he glanced at raut, and seemed to recover himself suddenly. "of course," he said, "i promised to show you the works under their proper dramatic conditions. it's odd how i could have forgotten." "if i am troubling you"--began raut. horrocks started again. a new light had suddenly come into the sultry gloom of his eyes. "not in the least," he said. "have you been telling mr. raut of all these contrasts of flame and shadow you think so splendid?" said the woman, turning now to her husband for the first time, her confidence creeping back again, her voice just one half-note too high. "that dreadful theory of yours that machinery is beautiful, and everything else in the world ugly. i thought he would not spare you, mr. raut. it's his great theory, his one discovery in art." "i am slow to make discoveries," said horrocks grimly, damping her suddenly. "but what i discover...." he stopped. "well?" she said. "nothing;" and suddenly he rose to his feet. "i promised to show you the works," he said to raut, and put his big, clumsy hand on his friend's shoulder. "and you are ready to go?" "quite," said raut, and stood up also. there was another pause. each of them peered through the indistinctness of the dusk at the other two. horrock's hand still rested on raut's shoulder. raut half fancied still that the incident was trivial after all. but mrs. horrocks knew her husband better, knew that grim quiet in his voice, and the confusion in her mind took a vague shape of physical evil. "very well," said horrocks, and, dropping his hand, turned towards the door. "my hat?" raut looked round in the half-light. "that's my work-basket," said mrs. horrocks, with a gust of hysterical laughter. their hands came together on the back of the chair. "here it is!" he said. she had an impulse to warn him in an undertone, but she could not frame a word. "don't go!" and "beware of him!" struggled in her mind, and the swift moment passed. "got it?" said horrocks, standing with the door half open. raut stepped towards him. "better say good-bye to mrs. horrocks," said the ironmaster, even more grimly quiet in his tone than before. raut started and turned. "good-evening, mrs. horrocks," he said, and their hands touched. horrocks held the door open with a ceremonial politeness unusual in him towards men. raut went out, and then, after a wordless look at her, her husband followed. she stood motionless while raut's light footfall and her husband's heavy tread, like bass and treble, passed down the passage together. the front door slammed heavily. she went to the window, moving slowly, and stood watching--leaning forward. the two men appeared for a moment at the gateway in the road, passed under the street lamp, and were hidden by the black masses of the shrubbery. the lamplight fell for a moment on their faces, showing only unmeaning pale patches, telling nothing of what she still feared, and doubted, and craved vainly to know. then she sank down into a crouching attitude in the big arm-chair, her eyes wide open and staring out at the red lights from the furnaces that flickered in the sky. an hour after she was still there, her attitude scarcely changed. the oppressive stillness of the evening weighed heavily upon raut. they went side by side down the road in silence, and in silence turned into the cinder-made by-way that presently opened out the prospect of the valley. a blue haze, half dust, half mist, touched the long valley with mystery. beyond were hanley and etruria, grey and dark masses, outlined thinly by the rare golden dots of the street lamps, and here and there a gaslit window, or the yellow glare of some late-working factory or crowded public-house. out of the masses, clear and slender against the evening sky, rose a multitude of tall chimneys, many of them reeking, a few smokeless during a season of "play." here and there a pallid patch and ghostly stunted beehive shapes showed the position of a pot-bank, or a wheel, black and sharp against the hot lower sky, marked some colliery where they raise the iridescent coal of the place. nearer at hand was the broad stretch of railway, and half invisible trains shunted--a steady puffing and rumbling, with every run a ringing concussion and a rhythmic series of impacts, and a passage of intermittent puffs of white steam across the further view. and to the left, between the railway and the dark mass of the low hill beyond, dominating the whole view, colossal, inky-black, and crowned with smoke and fitful flames, stood the great cylinders of the jeddah company blast furnaces, the central edifices of the big ironworks of which horrocks was the manager. they stood heavy and threatening, full of an incessant turmoil of flames and seething molten iron, and about the feet of them rattled the rolling-mills, and the steam-hammer beat heavily and splashed the white iron sparks hither and thither. even as they looked, a truckful of fuel was shot into one of the giants, and the red flames gleamed out, and a confusion of smoke and black dust came boiling upwards towards the sky. "certainly you get some fine effects of colour with your furnaces," said raut, breaking a silence that had become apprehensive. horrocks grunted. he stood with his hands in his pockets, frowning down at the dim steaming railway and the busy ironworks beyond, frowning as if he were thinking out some knotty problem. raut glanced at him and away again. "at present your moonlight effect is hardly ripe," he continued, looking upward; "the moon is still smothered by the vestiges of daylight." horrocks stared at him with the expression of a man who has suddenly awakened. "vestiges of daylight?... of course, of course." he too looked up at the moon, pale still in the midsummer sky. "come along," he said suddenly, and, gripping raut's arm in his hand, made a move towards the path that dropped from them to the railway. raut hung back. their eyes met and saw a thousand things in a moment that their lips came near to say. horrocks's hand tightened and then relaxed. he let go, and before raut was aware of it, they were arm in arm, and walking, one unwillingly enough, down the path. "you see the fine effect of the railway signals towards burslem," said horrocks, suddenly breaking into loquacity, striding fast and tightening the grip of his elbow the while. "little green lights and red and white lights, all against the haze. you have an eye for effect, raut. it's a fine effect. and look at those furnaces of mine, how they rise upon us as we come down the hill. that to the right is my pet--seventy feet of him. i packed him myself, and he's boiled away cheerfully with iron in his guts for five long years. i've a particular fancy for _him_. that line of red there--a lovely bit of warm orange you'd call it, raut--that's the puddlers' furnaces, and there, in the hot light, three black figures--did you see the white splash of the steam-hammer then?--that's the rolling-mills. come along! clang, clatter, how it goes rattling across the floor! sheet tin, raut,--amazing stuff. glass mirrors are not in it when that stuff comes from the mill. and, squelch!--there goes the hammer again. come along!" he had to stop talking to catch at his breath. his arm twisted into raut's with benumbing tightness. he had come striding down the black path towards the railway as though he was possessed. raut had not spoken a word, had simply hung back against horrocks's pull with all his strength. "i say," he said now, laughing nervously, but with an undernote of snarl in his voice, "why on earth are you nipping my arm off, horrocks, and dragging me along like this?" at length horrocks released him. his manner changed again. "nipping your arm off?" he said. "sorry. but it's you taught me the trick of walking in that friendly way." "you haven't learnt the refinements of it yet then," said raut, laughing artificially again. "by jove! i'm black and blue." horrocks offered no apology. they stood now near the bottom of the hill, close to the fence that bordered the railway. the ironworks had grown larger and spread out with their approach. they looked up to the blast furnaces now instead of down; the further view of etruria and hanley had dropped out of sight with their descent. before them, by the stile, rose a notice-board, bearing, still dimly visible, the words, "beware of the trains," half hidden by splashes of coaly mud. "fine effects," said horrocks, waving his arm. "here comes a train. the puffs of smoke, the orange glare, the round eye of light in front of it, the melodious rattle. fine effects! but these furnaces of mine used to be finer, before we shoved cones in their throats, and saved the gas." "how?" said raut. "cones?" "cones, my man, cones. i'll show you one nearer. the flames used to flare out of the open throats, great--what is it?--pillars of cloud by day, red and black smoke, and pillars of fire by night. now we run it off in pipes, and burn it to heat the blast, and the top is shut by a cone. you'll be interested in that cone." "but every now and then," said raut, "you get a burst of fire and smoke up there." "the cone's not fixed, it's hung by a chain from a lever, and balanced by an equipoise. you shall see it nearer. else, of course, there'd be no way of getting fuel into the thing. every now and then the cone dips, and out comes the flare." "i see," said raut. he looked over his shoulder. "the moon gets brighter," he said. "come along," said horrocks abruptly, gripping his shoulder again, and moving him suddenly towards the railway crossing. and then came one of those swift incidents, vivid, but so rapid that they leave one doubtful and reeling. halfway across, horrocks's hand suddenly clenched upon him like a vice and swung him backward and through a half-turn, so that he looked up the line. and there a chain of lamp-lit carriage-windows telescoped swiftly as it came towards them, and the red and yellow lights of an engine grew larger and larger, rushing down upon them. as he grasped what this meant, he turned his face to horrocks, and pushed with all his strength against the arm that held him back between the rails. the struggle did not last a moment. just as certain as it was that horrocks held him there, so certain was it that he had been violently lugged out of danger. "out of the way," said horrocks, with a gasp, as the train came rattling by, and they stood panting by the gate into the ironworks. "i did not see it coming," said raut, still, even in spite of his own apprehensions, trying to keep up an appearance of ordinary intercourse. horrocks answered with a grunt. "the cone," he said, and then, as one who recovers himself, "i thought you did not hear." "i didn't," said raut. "i wouldn't have had you run over then for the world," said horrocks. "for a moment i lost my nerve," said raut. horrocks stood for half a minute, then turned abruptly towards the ironworks again. "see how fine these great mounds of mine, these clinker-heaps, look in the night! that truck yonder, up above there! up it goes, and out-tilts the slag. see the palpitating red stuff go sliding down the slope. as we get nearer, the heap rises up and cuts the blast furnaces. see the quiver up above the big one. not that way! this way, between the heaps. that goes to the puddling furnaces, but i want to show you the canal first." he came and took raut by the elbow, and so they went along side by side. raut answered horrocks vaguely. what, he asked himself, had really happened on the line? was he deluding himself with his own fancies, or had horrocks actually held him back in the way of the train? had he just been within an ace of being murdered? suppose this slouching, scowling monster _did_ know anything? for a minute or two then raut was really afraid for his life, but the mood passed as he reasoned with himself. after all, horrocks might have heard nothing. at anyrate, he had pulled him out of the way in time. his odd manner might be due to the mere vague jealousy he had shown once before. he was talking now of the ash-heaps and the canal. "eigh?" said horrocks. "what?" said raut. "rather! the haze in the moonlight. fine!" "our canal," said horrocks, stopping suddenly. "our canal by moonlight and firelight is an immense effect. you've never seen it? fancy that! you've spent too many of your evenings philandering up in newcastle there. i tell you, for real florid effects-- but you shall see. boiling water...." as they came out of the labyrinth of clinker-heaps and mounds of coal and ore, the noises of the rolling-mill sprang upon them suddenly, loud, near, and distinct. three shadowy workmen went by and touched their caps to horrocks. their faces were vague in the darkness. raut felt a futile impulse to address them, and before he could frame his words, they passed into the shadows. horrocks pointed to the canal close before them now: a weird-looking place it seemed, in the blood-red reflections of the furnaces. the hot water that cooled the tuyères came into it, some fifty yards up--a tumultuous, almost boiling affluent, and the steam rose up from the water in silent white wisps and streaks, wrapping damply about them, an incessant succession of ghosts coming up from the black and red eddies, a white uprising that made the head swim. the shining black tower of the larger blast-furnace rose overhead out of the mist, and its tumultuous riot filled their ears. raut kept away from the edge of the water, and watched horrocks. "here it is red," said horrocks, "blood-red vapour as red and hot as sin; but yonder there, where the moonlight falls on it, and it drives across the clinker-heaps, it is as white as death." raut turned his head for a moment, and then came back hastily to his watch on horrocks. "come along to the rolling-mills," said horrocks. the threatening hold was not so evident that time, and raut felt a little reassured. but all the same, what on earth did horrocks mean about "white as death" and "red as sin"? coincidence, perhaps? they went and stood behind the puddlers for a little while, and then through the rolling-mills, where amidst an incessant din the deliberate steam-hammer beat the juice out of the succulent iron, and black, half-naked titans rushed the plastic bars, like hot sealing-wax, between the wheels. "come on," said horrocks in raut's ear, and they went and peeped through the little glass hole behind the tuyères, and saw the tumbled fire writhing in the pit of the blast-furnace. it left one eye blinded for a while. then, with green and blue patches dancing across the dark, they went to the lift by which the trucks of ore and fuel and lime were raised to the top of the big cylinder. and out upon the narrow rail that overhung the furnace, raut's doubts came upon him again. was it wise to be here? if horrocks did know--everything! do what he would, he could not resist a violent trembling. right under foot was a sheer depth of seventy feet. it was a dangerous place. they pushed by a truck of fuel to get to the railing that crowned the place. the reek of the furnace, a sulphurous vapour streaked with pungent bitterness, seemed to make the distant hillside of hanley quiver. the moon was riding out now from among a drift of clouds, half-way up the sky above the undulating wooded outlines of newcastle. the steaming canal ran away from below them under an indistinct bridge, and vanished into the dim haze of the flat fields towards burslem. "that's the cone i've been telling you of," shouted horrocks; "and, below that, sixty feet of fire and molten metal, with the air of the blast frothing through it like gas in soda-water." raut gripped the hand-rail tightly, and stared down at the cone. the heat was intense. the boiling of the iron and the tumult of the blast made a thunderous accompaniment to horrocks's voice. but the thing had to be gone through now. perhaps, after all.... "in the middle," bawled horrocks, "temperature near a thousand degrees. if _you_ were dropped into it ... flash into flame like a pinch of gunpowder in a candle. put your hand out and feel the heat of his breath. why, even up here i've seen the rain-water boiling off the trucks. and that cone there. it's a damned sight too hot for roasting cakes. the top side of it's three hundred degrees." "three hundred degrees!" said raut. "three hundred centigrade, mind!" said horrocks. "it will boil the blood out of you in no time." "eigh?" said raut, and turned. "boil the blood out of you in.... no, you don't!" "let me go!" screamed raut. "let go my arm!" with one hand he clutched at the hand-rail, then with both. for a moment the two men stood swaying. then suddenly, with a violent jerk, horrocks had twisted him from his hold. he clutched at horrocks and missed, his foot went back into empty air; in mid-air he twisted himself, and then cheek and shoulder and knee struck the hot cone together. he clutched the chain by which the cone hung, and the thing sank an infinitesimal amount as he struck it. a circle of glowing red appeared about him, and a tongue of flame, released from the chaos within, flickered up towards him. an intense pain assailed him at the knees, and he could smell the singeing of his hands. he raised himself to his feet, and tried to climb up the chain, and then something struck his head. black and shining with the moonlight, the throat of the furnace rose about him. horrocks, he saw, stood above him by one of the trucks of fuel on the rail. the gesticulating figure was bright and white in the moonlight, and shouting, "fizzle, you fool! fizzle, you hunter of women! you hot-blooded hound! boil! boil! boil!" suddenly he caught up a handful of coal out of the truck, and flung it deliberately, lump after lump, at raut. "horrocks!" cried raut. "horrocks!" he clung crying to the chain, pulling himself up from the burning of the cone. each missile horrocks flung hit him. his clothes charred and glowed, and as he struggled the cone dropped, and a rush of hot suffocating gas whooped out and burned round him in a swift breath of flame. his human likeness departed from him. when the momentary red had passed, horrocks saw a charred, blackened figure, its head streaked with blood, still clutching and fumbling with the chain, and writhing in agony--a cindery animal, an inhuman, monstrous creature that began a sobbing intermittent shriek. abruptly, at the sight, the ironmaster's anger passed. a deadly sickness came upon him. the heavy odour of burning flesh came drifting up to his nostrils. his sanity returned to him. "god have mercy upon me!" he cried. "o god! what have i done?" he knew the thing below him, save that it still moved and felt, was already a dead man--that the blood of the poor wretch must be boiling in his veins. an intense realisation of that agony came to his mind, and overcame every other feeling. for a moment he stood irresolute, and then, turning to the truck, he hastily tilted its contents upon the struggling thing that had once been a man. the mass fell with a thud, and went radiating over the cone. with the thud the shriek ended, and a boiling confusion of smoke, dust, and flame came rushing up towards him. as it passed, he saw the cone clear again. then he staggered back, and stood trembling, clinging to the rail with both hands. his lips moved, but no words came to them. down below was the sound of voices and running steps. the clangour of rolling in the shed ceased abruptly. the purple pileus mr. coombes was sick of life. he walked away from his unhappy home, and, sick not only of his own existence, but of everybody else's, turned aside down gaswork lane to avoid the town, and, crossing the wooden bridge that goes over the canal to starling's cottages, was presently alone in the damp pinewoods and out of sight and sound of human habitation. he would stand it no longer. he repeated aloud with blasphemies unusual to him that he would stand it no longer. he was a pale-faced little man, with dark eyes and a fine and very black moustache. he had a very stiff, upright collar slightly frayed, that gave him an illusory double chin, and his overcoat (albeit shabby) was trimmed with astrachan. his gloves were a bright brown with black stripes over the knuckles, and split at the finger ends. his appearance, his wife had said once in the dear, dead days beyond recall,--before he married her, that is,--was military. but now she called him-- it seems a dreadful thing to tell of between husband and wife, but she called him "a little grub." it wasn't the only thing she had called him, either. the row had arisen about that beastly jennie again. jennie was his wife's friend, and, by no invitation of mr. coombes, she came in every blessed sunday to dinner, and made a shindy all the afternoon. she was a big, noisy girl, with a taste for loud colours and a strident laugh; and this sunday she had outdone all her previous intrusions by bringing in a fellow with her, a chap as showy as herself. and mr. coombes, in a starchy, clean collar and his sunday frock-coat, had sat dumb and wrathful at his own table, while his wife and her guests talked foolishly and undesirably, and laughed aloud. well, he stood that, and after dinner (which, "as usual," was late), what must miss jennie do but go to the piano and play banjo tunes, for all the world as if it were a week-day! flesh and blood could not endure such goings on. they would hear next door, they would hear in the road, it was a public announcement of their disrepute. he had to speak. he had felt himself go pale, and a kind of rigour had affected his respiration as he delivered himself. he had been sitting on one of the chairs by the window--the new guest had taken possession of the arm-chair. he turned his head. "sun day!" he said over the collar, in the voice of one who warns. "sun day!" what people call a "nasty" tone it was. jennie had kept on playing, but his wife, who was looking through some music that was piled on the top of the piano, had stared at him. "what's wrong now?" she said; "can't people enjoy themselves?" "i don't mind rational 'njoyment, at all," said little coombes, "but i ain't a-going to have week-day tunes playing on a sunday in this house." "what's wrong with my playing now?" said jennie, stopping and twirling round on the music-stool with a monstrous rustle of flounces. coombes saw it was going to be a row, and opened too vigorously, as is common with your timid, nervous men all the world over. "steady on with that music-stool!" said he; "it ain't made for 'eavy weights." "never you mind about weights," said jennie, incensed. "what was you saying behind my back about my playing?" "surely you don't 'old with not having a bit of music on a sunday, mr. coombes?" said the new guest, leaning back in the arm-chair, blowing a cloud of cigarette smoke and smiling in a kind of pitying way. and simultaneously his wife said something to jennie about "never mind 'im. you go on, jinny." "i do," said mr. coombes, addressing the new guest. "may i arst why?" said the new guest, evidently enjoying both his cigarette and the prospect of an argument. he was, by the bye, a lank young man, very stylishly dressed in bright drab, with a white cravat and a pearl and silver pin. it had been better taste to come in a black coat, mr. coombes thought. "because," began mr. coombes, "it don't suit me. i'm a business man. i 'ave to study my connection. rational 'njoyment"-- "his connection!" said mrs. coombes scornfully. "that's what he's always a-saying. we got to do this, and we got to do that"-- "if you don't mean to study my connection," said mr. coombes, "what did you marry me for?" "i wonder," said jennie, and turned back to the piano. "i never saw such a man as you," said mrs. coombes. "you've altered all round since we were married. before"-- then jennie began at the tum, tum, tum again. "look here!" said mr. coombes, driven at last to revolt, standing up and raising his voice. "i tell you i won't have that." the frock-coat heaved with his indignation. "no vi'lence, now," said the long young man in drab, sitting up. "who the juice are you?" said mr. coombes fiercely. whereupon they all began talking at once. the new guest said he was jennie's "intended," and meant to protect her, and mr. coombes said he was welcome to do so anywhere but in his (mr. coombes') house; and mrs. coombes said he ought to be ashamed of insulting his guests, and (as i have already mentioned) that he was getting a regular little grub; and the end was, that mr. coombes ordered his visitors out of the house, and they wouldn't go, and so he said he would go himself. with his face burning and tears of excitement in his eyes, he went into the passage, and as he struggled with his overcoat--his frock-coat sleeves got concertinaed up his arm--and gave a brush at his silk hat, jennie began again at the piano, and strummed him insultingly out of the house. tum, tum, tum. he slammed the shop door so that the house quivered. that, briefly, was the immediate making of his mood. you will perhaps begin to understand his disgust with existence. as he walked along the muddy path under the firs,--it was late october, and the ditches and heaps of fir needles were gorgeous with clumps of fungi,--he recapitulated the melancholy history of his marriage. it was brief and commonplace enough. he now perceived with sufficient clearness that his wife had married him out of a natural curiosity and in order to escape from her worrying, laborious, and uncertain life in the workroom; and, like the majority of her class, she was far too stupid to realise that it was her duty to co-operate with him in his business. she was greedy of enjoyment, loquacious, and socially-minded, and evidently disappointed to find the restraints of poverty still hanging about her. his worries exasperated her, and the slightest attempt to control her proceedings resulted in a charge of "grumbling." why couldn't he be nice--as he used to be? and coombes was such a harmless little man, too, nourished mentally on _self-help_, and with a meagre ambition of self-denial and competition, that was to end in a "sufficiency." then jennie came in as a female mephistopheles, a gabbling chronicle of "fellers," and was always wanting his wife to go to theatres, and "all that." and in addition were aunts of his wife, and cousins (male and female), to eat up capital, insult him personally, upset business arrangements, annoy good customers, and generally blight his life. it was not the first occasion by many that mr. coombes had fled his home in wrath and indignation, and something like fear, vowing furiously and even aloud that he wouldn't stand it, and so frothing away his energy along the line of least resistance. but never before had he been quite so sick of life as on this particular sunday afternoon. the sunday dinner may have had its share in his despair--and the greyness of the sky. perhaps, too, he was beginning to realise his unendurable frustration as a business man as the consequence of his marriage. presently bankruptcy, and after that-- perhaps she might have reason to repent when it was too late. and destiny, as i have already intimated, had planted the path through the wood with evil-smelling fungi, thickly and variously planted it, not only on the right side, but on the left. a small shopman is in such a melancholy position, if his wife turns out a disloyal partner. his capital is all tied up in his business, and to leave her, means to join the unemployed in some strange part of the earth. the luxuries of divorce are beyond him altogether. so that the good old tradition of marriage for better or worse holds inexorably for him, and things work up to tragic culminations. bricklayers kick their wives to death, and dukes betray theirs; but it is among the small clerks and shopkeepers nowadays that it comes most often to a cutting of throats. under the circumstances it is not so very remarkable--and you must take it as charitably as you can--that the mind of mr. coombes ran for a while on some such glorious close to his disappointed hopes, and that he thought of razors, pistols, bread-knives, and touching letters to the coroner denouncing his enemies by name, and praying piously for forgiveness. after a time his fierceness gave way to melancholia. he had been married in this very overcoat, in his first and only frock-coat that was buttoned up beneath it. he began to recall their courting along this very walk, his years of penurious saving to get capital, and the bright hopefulness of his marrying days. for it all to work out like this! was there no sympathetic ruler anywhere in the world? he reverted to death as a topic. he thought of the canal he had just crossed, and doubted whether he shouldn't stand with his head out, even in the middle, and it was while drowning was in his mind that the purple pileus caught his eye. he looked at it mechanically for a moment, and stopped and stooped towards it to pick it up, under the impression that it was some such small leather object as a purse. then he saw that it was the purple top of a fungus, a peculiarly poisonous-looking purple: slimy, shiny, and emitting a sour odour. he hesitated with his hand an inch or so from it, and the thought of poison crossed his mind. with that he picked the thing, and stood up again with it in his hand. the odour was certainly strong--acrid, but by no means disgusting. he broke off a piece, and the fresh surface was a creamy white, that changed like magic in the space of ten seconds to a yellowish-green colour. it was even an inviting-looking change. he broke off two other pieces to see it repeated. they were wonderful things these fungi, thought mr. coombes, and all of them the deadliest poisons, as his father had often told him. deadly poisons! there is no time like the present for a rash resolve. why not here and now? thought mr. coombes. he tasted a little piece, a very little piece indeed--a mere crumb. it was so pungent that he almost spat it out again, then merely hot and full-flavoured. a kind of german mustard with a touch of horse-radish and--well, mushroom. he swallowed it in the excitement of the moment. did he like it or did he not? his mind was curiously careless. he would try another bit. it really wasn't bad--it was good. he forgot his troubles in the interest of the immediate moment. playing with death it was. he took another bite, and then deliberately finished a mouthful. a curious tingling sensation began in his finger-tips and toes. his pulse began to move faster. the blood in his ears sounded like a mill-race. "try bi' more," said mr. coombes. he turned and looked about him, and found his feet unsteady. he saw and struggled towards a little patch of purple a dozen yards away. "jol' goo' stuff," said mr. coombes. "e--lomore ye'." he pitched forward and fell on his face, his hands outstretched towards the cluster of pilei. but he did not eat any more of them. he forgot forthwith. he rolled over and sat up with a look of astonishment on his face. his carefully brushed silk hat had rolled away towards the ditch. he pressed his hand to his brow. something had happened, but he could not rightly determine what it was. anyhow, he was no longer dull--he felt bright, cheerful. and his throat was afire. he laughed in the sudden gaiety of his heart. had he been dull? he did not know; but at anyrate he would be dull no longer. he got up and stood unsteadily, regarding the universe with an agreeable smile. he began to remember. he could not remember very well, because of a steam roundabout that was beginning in his head. and he knew he had been disagreeable at home, just because they wanted to be happy. they were quite right; life should be as gay as possible. he would go home and make it up, and reassure them. and why not take some of this delightful toadstool with him, for them to eat? a hatful, no less. some of those red ones with white spots as well, and a few yellow. he had been a dull dog, an enemy to merriment; he would make up for it. it would be gay to turn his coat-sleeves inside out, and stick some yellow gorse into his waistcoat pockets. then home--singing--for a jolly evening. * * * * * after the departure of mr. coombes, jennie discontinued playing, and turned round on the music-stool again. "what a fuss about nothing," said jennie. "you see, mr. clarence, what i've got to put up with," said mrs. coombes. "he is a bit hasty," said mr. clarence judicially. "he ain't got the slightest sense of our position," said mrs. coombes; "that's what i complain of. he cares for nothing but his old shop; and if i have a bit of company, or buy anything to keep myself decent, or get any little thing i want out of the housekeeping money, there's disagreeables. 'economy,' he says; 'struggle for life,' and all that. he lies awake of nights about it, worrying how he can screw me out of a shilling. he wanted us to eat dorset butter once. if once i was to give in to him--there!" "of course," said jennie. "if a man values a woman," said mr. clarence lounging back in the arm-chair, "he must be prepared to make sacrifices for her. for my own part," said mr. clarence, with his eye on jennie, "i shouldn't think of marrying till i was in a position to do the thing in style. it's downright selfishness. a man ought to go through the rough-and-tumble by himself, and not drag her"-- "i don't agree altogether with that," said jennie. "i don't see why a man shouldn't have a woman's help, provided he doesn't treat her meanly, you know. it's meanness"-- "you wouldn't believe," said mrs. coombes. "but i was a fool to 'ave 'im. i might 'ave known. if it 'adn't been for my father, we shouldn't have had not a carriage to our wedding." "lord! he didn't stick out at that?" said mr. clarence, quite shocked. "said he wanted the money for his stock, or some such rubbish. why, he wouldn't have a woman in to help me once a week if it wasn't for my standing out plucky. and the fusses he makes about money--comes to me, well, pretty near crying, with sheets of paper and figgers. 'if only we can tide over this year,' he says, 'the business is bound to go.' 'if only we can tide over this year,' i says; 'then it'll be, if only we can tide over next year. i know you,' i says. 'and you don't catch me screwing myself lean and ugly. why didn't you marry a slavey?' i says, 'if you wanted one--instead of a respectable girl,' i says." so mrs. coombes. but we will not follow this unedifying conversation further. suffice it that mr. coombes was very satisfactorily disposed of, and they had a snug little time round the fire. then mrs. coombes went to get the tea, and jennie sat coquettishly on the arm of mr. clarence's chair until the tea-things clattered outside. "what was that i heard?" asked mrs. coombes playfully, as she entered, and there was badinage about kissing. they were just sitting down to the little circular table when the first intimation of mr. coombes' return was heard. this was a fumbling at the latch of the front door. "'ere's my lord," said mrs. coombes. "went out like a lion and comes back like a lamb, i'll lay." something fell over in the shop: a chair, it sounded like. then there was a sound as of some complicated step exercise in the passage. then the door opened and coombes appeared. but it was coombes transfigured. the immaculate collar had been torn carelessly from his throat. his carefully-brushed silk hat, half-full of a crush of fungi, was under one arm; his coat was inside out, and his waistcoat adorned with bunches of yellow-blossomed furze. these little eccentricities of sunday costume, however, were quite overshadowed by the change in his face; it was livid white, his eyes were unnaturally large and bright, and his pale blue lips were drawn back in a cheerless grin. "merry!" he said. he had stopped dancing to open the door. "rational 'njoyment. dance." he made three fantastic steps into the room, and stood bowing. "jim!" shrieked mrs. coombes, and mr. clarence sat petrified, with a dropping lower jaw. "tea," said mr. coombes. "jol' thing, tea. tose-stools, too. brosher." "he's drunk," said jennie in a weak voice. never before had she seen this intense pallor in a drunken man, or such shining, dilated eyes. mr. coombes held out a handful of scarlet agaric to mr. clarence. "jo' stuff," said he; "ta' some." at that moment he was genial. then at the sight of their startled faces he changed, with the swift transition of insanity, into overbearing fury. and it seemed as if he had suddenly recalled the quarrel of his departure. in such a huge voice as mrs. coombes had never heard before, he shouted, "my house. i'm master 'ere. eat what i give yer!" he bawled this, as it seemed, without an effort, without a violent gesture, standing there as motionless as one who whispers, holding out a handful of fungus. clarence approved himself a coward. he could not meet the mad fury in coombes' eyes; he rose to his feet, pushing back his chair, and turned, stooping. at that coombes rushed at him. jennie saw her opportunity, and, with the ghost of a shriek, made for the door. mrs. coombes followed her. clarence tried to dodge. over went the tea-table with a smash as coombes clutched him by the collar and tried to thrust the fungus into his mouth. clarence was content to leave his collar behind him, and shot out into the passage with red patches of fly agaric still adherent to his face. "shut 'im in!" cried mrs. coombes, and would have closed the door, but her supports deserted her; jennie saw the shop door open, and vanished thereby, locking it behind her, while clarence went on hastily into the kitchen. mr. coombes came heavily against the door, and mrs. coombes, finding the key was inside, fled upstairs and locked herself in the spare bedroom. so the new convert to _joie de vivre_ emerged upon the passage, his decorations a little scattered, but that respectable hatful of fungi still under his arm. he hesitated at the three ways, and decided on the kitchen. whereupon clarence, who was fumbling with the key, gave up the attempt to imprison his host, and fled into the scullery, only to be captured before he could open the door into the yard. mr. clarence is singularly reticent of the details of what occurred. it seems that mr. coombes' transitory irritation had vanished again, and he was once more a genial playfellow. and as there were knives and meat choppers about, clarence very generously resolved to humour him and so avoid anything tragic. it is beyond dispute that mr. coombes played with mr. clarence to his heart's content; they could not have been more playful and familiar if they had known each other for years. he insisted gaily on clarence trying the fungi, and after a friendly tussle, was smitten with remorse at the mess he was making of his guest's face. it also appears that clarence was dragged under the sink and his face scrubbed with the blacking brush,--he being still resolved to humour the lunatic at any cost,--and that finally, in a somewhat dishevelled, chipped, and discoloured condition, he was assisted to his coat and shown out by the back door, the shopway being barred by jennie. mr. coombes' wandering thoughts then turned to jennie. jennie had been unable to unfasten the shop door, but she shot the bolts against mr. coombes' latch-key, and remained in possession of the shop for the rest of the evening. it would appear that mr. coombes then returned to the kitchen, still in pursuit of gaiety, and, albeit a strict good templar, drank (or spilt down the front of the first and only frock-coat) no less than five bottles of the stout mrs. coombes insisted upon having for her health's sake. he made cheerful noises by breaking off the necks of the bottles with several of his wife's wedding-present dinner-plates, and during the earlier part of this great drunk he sang divers merry ballads. he cut his finger rather badly with one of the bottles,--the only bloodshed in this story,--and what with that, and the systematic convulsion of his inexperienced physiology by the liquorish brand of mrs. coombes' stout, it may be the evil of the fungus poison was somehow allayed. but we prefer to draw a veil over the concluding incidents of this sunday afternoon. they ended in the coal cellar, in a deep and healing sleep. * * * * * an interval of five years elapsed. again it was a sunday afternoon in october, and again mr. coombes walked through the pinewood beyond the canal. he was still the same dark-eyed, black-moustached little man that he was at the outset of the story, but his double chin was now scarcely so illusory as it had been. his overcoat was new, with a velvet lapel, and a stylish collar with turn-down corners, free of any coarse starchiness, had replaced the original all-round article. his hat was glossy, his gloves newish--though one finger had split and been carefully mended. and a casual observer would have noticed about him a certain rectitude of bearing, a certain erectness of head that marks the man who thinks well of himself. he was a master now, with three assistants. beside him walked a larger sunburnt parody of himself, his brother tom, just back from australia. they were recapitulating their early struggles, and mr. coombes had just been making a financial statement. "it's a very nice little business, jim," said brother tom. "in these days of competition you're jolly lucky to have worked it up so. and you're jolly lucky, too, to have a wife who's willing to help like yours does." "between ourselves," said mr. coombes, "it wasn't always so. it wasn't always like this. to begin with, the missus was a bit giddy. girls are funny creatures." "dear me!" "yes. you'd hardly think it, but she was downright extravagant, and always having slaps at me. i was a bit too easy and loving, and all that, and she thought the whole blessed show was run for her. turned the 'ouse into a regular caravansery, always having her relations and girls from business in, and their chaps. comic songs a' sunday, it was getting to, and driving trade away. and she was making eyes at the chaps, too! i tell you, tom, the place wasn't my own." "shouldn't 'a' thought it." "it was so. well--i reasoned with her. i said, 'i ain't a duke, to keep a wife like a pet animal. i married you for 'elp and company.' i said, 'you got to 'elp and pull the business through.' she wouldn't 'ear of it. 'very well,' i says; 'i'm a mild man till i'm roused,' i says, 'and it's getting to that.' but she wouldn't 'ear of no warnings." "well?" "it's the way with women. she didn't think i 'ad it in me to be roused. women of her sort (between ourselves, tom) don't respect a man until they're a bit afraid of him. so i just broke out to show her. in comes a girl named jennie, that used to work with her, and her chap. we 'ad a bit of a row, and i came out 'ere--it was just such another day as this--and i thought it all out. then i went back and pitched into them." "you did?" "i did. i was mad, i can tell you. i wasn't going to 'it 'er, if i could 'elp it, so i went back and licked into this chap, just to show 'er what i could do. 'e was a big chap, too. well, i chucked him, and smashed things about, and gave 'er a scaring, and she ran up and locked 'erself into the spare room." "well?" "that's all. i says to 'er the next morning, 'now you know,' i says, 'what i'm like when i'm roused.' and i didn't 'ave to say anything more." "and you've been happy ever after, eh?" "so to speak. there's nothing like putting your foot down with them. if it 'adn't been for that afternoon i should 'a' been tramping the roads now, and she'd 'a' been grumbling at me, and all her family grumbling for bringing her to poverty--i know their little ways. but we're all right now. and it's a very decent little business, as you say." they proceed on their way meditatively. "women are funny creatures," said brother tom. "they want a firm hand," says coombes. "what a lot of these funguses there are about here!" remarked brother tom presently. "i can't see what use they are in the world." mr. coombes looked. "i dessay they're sent for some wise purpose," said mr. coombes. and that was as much thanks as the purple pileus ever got for maddening this absurd little man to the pitch of decisive action, and so altering the whole course of his life. the jilting of jane as i sit writing in my study, i can hear our jane bumping her way downstairs with a brush and dustpan. she used in the old days to sing hymn tunes, or the british national song for the time being, to these instruments, but latterly she has been silent and even careful over her work. time was when i prayed with fervour for such silence, and my wife with sighs for such care, but now they have come we are not so glad as we might have anticipated we should be. indeed, i would rejoice secretly, though it may be unmanly weakness to admit it, even to hear jane sing "daisy," or by the fracture of any plate but one of euphemia's best green ones, to learn that the period of brooding has come to an end. yet how we longed to hear the last of jane's young man before we heard the last of him! jane was always very free with her conversation to my wife, and discoursed admirably in the kitchen on a variety of topics--so well, indeed, that i sometimes left my study door open--our house is a small one--to partake of it. but after william came, it was always william, nothing but william; william this and william that; and when we thought william was worked out and exhausted altogether, then william all over again. the engagement lasted altogether three years; yet how she got introduced to william, and so became thus saturated with him, was always a secret. for my part, i believe it was at the street corner where the rev. barnabas baux used to hold an open-air service after evensong on sundays. young cupids were wont to flit like moths round the paraffin flare of that centre of high church hymn-singing. i fancy she stood singing hymns there, out of memory and her imagination, instead of coming home to get supper, and william came up beside her and said, "hello!" "hello yourself!" she said; and, etiquette being satisfied, they proceeded to talk together. as euphemia has a reprehensible way of letting her servants talk to her, she soon heard of him. "he is _such_ a respectable young man, ma'am," said jane, "you don't know." ignoring the slur cast on her acquaintance, my wife inquired further about this william. "he is second porter at maynard's, the draper's," said jane, "and gets eighteen shillings--nearly a pound--a week, m'm; and when the head porter leaves he will be head porter. his relatives are quite superior people, m'm. not labouring people at all. his father was a greengrosher, m'm, and had a chumor, and he was bankrup' twice. and one of his sisters is in a home for the dying. it will be a very good match for me, m'm," said jane, "me being an orphan girl." "then you are engaged to him?" asked my wife. "not engaged, ma'am; but he is saving money to buy a ring--hammyfist." "well, jane, when you are properly engaged to him you may ask him round here on sunday afternoons, and have tea with him in the kitchen." for my euphemia has a motherly conception of her duty towards her maid-servants. and presently the amethystine ring was being worn about the house, even with ostentation, and jane developed a new way of bringing in the joint, so that this gage was evident. the elder miss maitland was aggrieved by it, and told my wife that servants ought not to wear rings. but my wife looked it up in _enquire within_ and _mrs. motherly's book of household management_, and found no prohibition. so jane remained with this happiness added to her love. the treasure of jane's heart appeared to me to be what respectable people call a very deserving young man. "william, ma'am," said jane one day suddenly, with ill-concealed complacency, as she counted out the beer bottles, "william, ma'am, is a teetotaller. yes, m'm; and he don't smoke. smoking, ma'am," said jane, as one who reads the heart, "_do_ make such a dust about. beside the waste of money. _and_ the smell. however, i suppose it's necessary to some." possibly it dawned on jane that she was reflecting a little severely upon euphemia's comparative ill-fortune, and she added kindly, "i'm sure the master is a hangel when his pipe's alight. compared to other times." william was at first a rather shabby young man of the ready-made black coat school of costume. he had watery grey eyes, and a complexion appropriate to the brother of one in a home for the dying. euphemia did not fancy him very much, even at the beginning. his eminent respectability was vouched for by an alpaca umbrella, from which he never allowed himself to be parted. "he goes to chapel," said jane. "his papa, ma'am"-- "his _what_, jane?" "his papa, ma'am, was church; but mr. maynard is a plymouth brother, and william thinks it policy, ma'am, to go there too. mr. maynard comes and talks to him quite friendly, when they ain't busy, about using up all the ends of string, and about his soul. he takes a lot of notice, do mr. maynard, of william, and the way he saves string and his soul, ma'am." presently we heard that the head porter at maynard's had left, and that william was head porter at twenty-three shillings a week. "he is really kind of over the man who drives the van," said jane, "and him married with three children." and she promised in the pride of her heart to make interest for us with william to favour us so that we might get our parcels of drapery from maynard's with exceptional promptitude. after this promotion a rapidly increasing prosperity came upon jane's young man. one day, we learned that mr. maynard had given william a book. "smiles' elp yourself, it's called," said jane; "but it ain't comic. it tells you how to get on in the world, and some what william read to me was _lovely_, ma'am." euphemia told me of this laughing, and then she became suddenly grave. "do you know, dear," she said, "jane said one thing i did not like. she had been quiet for a minute, and then she suddenly remarked, 'william is a lot above me, ma'am, ain't he?'" "i don't see anything in that," i said, though later my eyes were to be opened. one sunday afternoon about that time i was sitting at my writing-desk--possibly i was reading a good book--when a something went by the window. i heard a startled exclamation behind me, and saw euphemia with her hands clasped together and her eyes dilated. "george," she said in an awestricken whisper, "did you see?" then we both spoke to one another at the same moment, slowly and solemnly: "_a silk hat! yellow gloves! a new umbrella!_" "it may be my fancy, dear," said euphemia; "but his tie was very like yours. i believe jane keeps him in ties. she told me a little while ago in a way that implied volumes about the rest of your costume, 'the master _do_ wear pretty ties, ma'am.' and he echoes all your novelties." the young couple passed our window again on their way to their customary walk. they were arm in arm. jane looked exquisitely proud, happy, and uncomfortable, with new white cotton gloves, and william, in the silk hat, singularly genteel! that was the culmination of jane's happiness. when she returned, "mr. maynard has been talking to william, ma'am," she said, "and he is to serve customers, just like the young shop gentlemen, during the next sale. and if he gets on, he is to be made an assistant, ma'am, at the first opportunity. he has got to be as gentlemanly as he can, ma'am; and if he ain't, ma'am, he says it won't be for want of trying. mr. maynard has took a great fancy to him." "he _is_ getting on, jane," said my wife. "yes, ma'am," said jane thoughtfully, "he _is_ getting on." and she sighed. that next sunday, as i drank my tea, i interrogated my wife. "how is this sunday different from all other sundays, little woman? what has happened? have you altered the curtains, or rearranged the furniture, or where is the indefinable difference of it? are you wearing your hair in a new way without warning me? i clearly perceive a change in my environment, and i cannot for the life of me say what it is." then my wife answered in her most tragic voice: "george," she said, "that--that william has not come near the place to-day! and jane is crying her heart out upstairs." there followed a period of silence. jane, as i have said, stopped singing about the house, and began to care for our brittle possessions, which struck my wife as being a very sad sign indeed. the next sunday, and the next, jane asked to go out, "to walk with william," and my wife, who never attempts to extort confidences, gave her permission, and asked no questions. on each occasion jane came back looking flushed and very determined. at last one day she became communicative. "william is being led away," she remarked abruptly, with a catching of the breath, apropos of tablecloths. "yes, m'm. she is a milliner, and she can play on the piano." "i thought," said my wife, "that you went out with him on sunday." "not out with him, m'm--after him. i walked along by the side of them, and told her he was engaged to me." "dear me, jane, did you? what did they do?" "took no more notice of me than if i was dirt. so i told her she should suffer for it." "it could not have been a very agreeable walk, jane." "not for no parties, ma'am. "i wish," said jane, "i could play the piano, ma'am. but anyhow, i don't mean to let _her_ get him away from me. she's older than him, and her hair ain't gold to the roots, ma'am." it was on the august bank holiday that the crisis came. we do not clearly know the details of the fray, but only such fragments as poor jane let fall. she came home dusty, excited, and with her heart hot within her. the milliner's mother, the milliner, and william had made a party to the art museum at south kensington, i think. anyhow, jane had calmly but firmly accosted them somewhere in the streets, and asserted her right to what, in spite of the consensus of literature, she held to be her inalienable property. she did, i think, go so far as to lay hands on him. they dealt with her in a crushingly superior way. they "called a cab." there was a "scene," william being pulled away into the four-wheeler by his future wife and mother-in-law from the reluctant hands of our discarded jane. there were threats of giving her "in charge." "my poor jane!" said my wife, mincing veal as though she was mincing william. "it's a shame of them. i would think no more of him. he is not worthy of you." "no, m'm," said jane. "he _is_ weak." "but it's that woman has done it," said jane. she was never known to bring herself to pronounce "that woman's" name or to admit her girlishness. "i can't think what minds some women must have--to try and get a girl's young man away from her. but there, it only hurts to talk about it," said jane. thereafter our house rested from william. but there was something in the manner of jane's scrubbing the front doorstep or sweeping out the rooms, a certain viciousness, that persuaded me that the story had not yet ended. "please, m'm, may i go and see a wedding to-morrow?" said jane one day. my wife knew by instinct whose wedding. "do you think it is wise, jane?" she said. "i would like to see the last of him," said jane. "my dear," said my wife, fluttering into my room about twenty minutes after jane had started, "jane has been to the boot-hole and taken all the left-off boots and shoes, and gone off to the wedding with them in a bag. surely she cannot mean"-- "jane," i said, "is developing character. let us hope for the best." jane came back with a pale, hard face. all the boots seemed to be still in her bag, at which my wife heaved a premature sigh of relief. we heard her go upstairs and replace the boots with considerable emphasis. "quite a crowd at the wedding, ma'am," she said presently, in a purely conversational style, sitting in our little kitchen, and scrubbing the potatoes; "and such a lovely day for them." she proceeded to numerous other details, clearly avoiding some cardinal incident. "it was all extremely respectable and nice, ma'am; but _her_ father didn't wear a black coat, and looked quite out of place, ma'am. mr. piddingquirk"-- "_who?_" "mr. piddingquirk--william that _was_, ma'am--had white gloves, and a coat like a clergyman, and a lovely chrysanthemum. he looked so nice, ma'am. and there was red carpet down, just like for gentlefolks. and they say he gave the clerk four shillings, ma'am. it was a real kerridge they had--not a fly. when they came out of church there was rice-throwing, and her two little sisters dropping dead flowers. and someone threw a slipper, and then i threw a boot"-- "threw a _boot_, jane!" "yes, ma'am. aimed at _her_. but it hit _him_. yes, ma'am, hard. gev him a black eye, i should think. i only threw that one. i hadn't the heart to try again. all the little boys cheered when it hit him." after an interval--"i am sorry the boot hit _him_." another pause. the potatoes were being scrubbed violently. "he always _was_ a bit above me, you know, ma'am. and he was led away." the potatoes were more than finished. jane rose sharply, with a sigh, and rapped the basin down on the table. "i don't care," she said. "i don't care a rap. he will find out his mistake yet. it serves me right. i was stuck up about him. i ought not to have looked so high. and i am glad things are as things are." my wife was in the kitchen, seeing to the higher cookery. after the confession of the boot-throwing, she must have watched poor jane fuming with a certain dismay in those brown eyes of hers. but i imagine they softened again very quickly, and then jane's must have met them. "oh, ma'am," said jane, with an astonishing change of note, "think of all that _might_ have been! oh, ma'am, i _could_ have been so happy! i ought to have known, but i didn't know.... you're very kind to let me talk to you, ma'am ... for it's hard on me, ma'am ... it's har-r-r-r-d"-- and i gather that euphemia so far forgot herself as to let jane sob out some of the fulness of her heart on a sympathetic shoulder. my euphemia, thank heaven, has never properly grasped the importance of "keeping up her position." and since that fit of weeping, much of the accent of bitterness has gone out of jane's scrubbing and brush work. indeed, something passed the other day with the butcher-boy--but that scarcely belongs to this story. however, jane is young still, and time and change are at work with her. we all have our sorrows, but i do not believe very much in the existence of sorrows that never heal. in the modern vein an unsympathetic love story of course the cultivated reader has heard of aubrey vair. he has published on three several occasions volumes of delicate verses,--some, indeed, border on indelicacy,--and his column "of things literary" in the _climax_ is well known. his byronic visage and an interview have appeared in the _perfect lady_. it was aubrey vair, i believe, who demonstrated that the humour of dickens was worse than his sentiment, and who detected "a subtle bourgeois flavour" in shakespeare. however, it is not generally known that aubrey vair has had erotic experiences as well as erotic inspirations. he adopted goethe some little time since as his literary prototype, and that may have had something to do with his temporary lapse from sexual integrity. for it is one of the commonest things that undermine literary men, giving us landslips and picturesque effects along the otherwise even cliff of their respectable life, ranking next to avarice, and certainly above drink, this instability called genius, or, more fully, the consciousness of genius, such as aubrey vair possessed. since shelley set the fashion, your man of gifts has been assured that his duty to himself and his duty to his wife are incompatible, and his renunciation of the philistine has been marked by such infidelity as his means and courage warranted. most virtue is lack of imagination. at anyrate, a minor genius without his affections twisted into an inextricable muddle, and who did not occasionally shed sonnets over his troubles, i have never met. even aubrey vair did this, weeping the sonnets overnight into his blotting-book, and pretending to write literary _causerie_ when his wife came down in her bath slippers to see what kept him up. she did not understand him, of course. he did this even before the other woman appeared, so ingrained is conjugal treachery in the talented mind. indeed, he wrote more sonnets before the other woman came than after that event, because thereafter he spent much of his leisure in cutting down the old productions, retrimming them, and generally altering this readymade clothing of his passion to suit her particular height and complexion. aubrey vair lived in a little red villa with a lawn at the back and a view of the downs behind reigate. he lived upon discreet investment eked out by literary work. his wife was handsome, sweet, and gentle, and--such is the tender humility of good married women--she found her life's happiness in seeing that little aubrey vair had well-cooked variety for dinner, and that their house was the neatest and brightest of all the houses they entered. aubrey vair enjoyed the dinners, and was proud of the house, yet nevertheless he mourned because his genius dwindled. moreover, he grew plump, and corpulence threatened him. we learn in suffering what we teach in song, and aubrey vair knew certainly that his soul could give no creditable crops unless his affections were harrowed. and how to harrow them was the trouble, for reigate is a moral neighbourhood. so aubrey vair's romantic longings blew loose for a time, much as a seedling creeper might, planted in the midst of a flower-bed. but at last, in the fulness of time, the other woman came to the embrace of aubrey vair's yearning heart-tendrils, and his romantic episode proceeded as is here faithfully written down. the other woman was really a girl, and aubrey vair met her first at a tennis party at redhill. aubrey vair did not play tennis after the accident to miss morton's eye, and because latterly it made him pant and get warmer and moister than even a poet should be; and this young lady had only recently arrived in england, and could not play. so they gravitated into the two vacant basket chairs beside mrs. bayne's deaf aunt, in front of the hollyhocks, and were presently talking at their ease together. the other woman's name was unpropitious,--miss smith,--but you would never have suspected it from her face and costume. her parentage was promising, she was an orphan, her mother was a hindoo, and her father an indian civil servant; and aubrey vair--himself a happy mixture of kelt and teuton, as, indeed, all literary men have to be nowadays--naturally believed in the literary consequences of a mixture of races. she was dressed in white. she had finely moulded pale features, great depth of expression, and a cloud of delicately _frisé_ black hair over her dark eyes, and she looked at aubrey vair with a look half curious and half shy, that contrasted admirably with the stereotyped frankness of your common reigate girl. "this is a splendid lawn--the best in redhill," said aubrey vair in the course of the conversation; "and i like it all the better because the daisies are spared." he indicated the daisies with a graceful sweep of his rather elegant hand. "they are sweet little flowers," said the lady in white, "and i have always associated them with england, chiefly, perhaps, through a picture i saw 'over there' when i was very little, of children making daisy chains. i promised myself that pleasure when i came home. but, alas! i feel now rather too large for such delights." "i do not see why we should not be able to enjoy these simple pleasures as we grow older--why our growth should have in it so much forgetting. for my own part"-- "has your wife got jane's recipe for stuffing trout?" asked mrs. bayne's deaf aunt abruptly. "i really don't know," said aubrey vair. "that's all right," said mrs. bayne's deaf aunt. "it ought to please even you." "anything will please me," said aubrey vair; "i care very little"-- "oh, it's a lovely dish," said mrs. bayne's deaf aunt, and relapsed into contemplation. "i was saying," said aubrey vair, "that i think i still find my keenest pleasures in childish pastimes. i have a little nephew that i see a great deal of, and when we fly kites together, i am sure it would be hard to tell which of us is the happier. by the bye, you should get at your daisy chains in that way. beguile some little girl." "but i did. i took that morton mite for a walk in the meadows, and timidly broached the subject. and she reproached me for suggesting 'frivolous pursuits.' it was a horrible disappointment." "the governess here," said aubrey vair, "is robbing that child of its youth in a terrible way. what will a life be that has no childhood at the beginning?" "some human beings are never young," he continued, "and they never grow up. they lead absolutely colourless lives. they are--they are etiolated. they never love, and never feel the loss of it. they are--for the moment i can think of no better image--they are human flower-pots, in which no soul has been planted. but a human soul properly growing must begin in a fresh childishness." "yes," said the dark lady thoughtfully, "a careless childhood, running wild almost. that should be the beginning." "then we pass through the wonder and diffidence of youth." "to strength and action," said the dark lady. her dreamy eyes were fixed on the downs, and her fingers tightened on her knees as she spoke. "ah, it is a grand thing to live--as a man does--self-reliant and free." "and so at last," said aubrey vair, "come to the culmination and crown of life." he paused and glanced hastily at her. then he dropped his voice almost to a whisper--"and the culmination of life is love." their eyes met for a moment, but she looked away at once. aubrey vair felt a peculiar thrill and a catching in his breath, but his emotions were too complex for analysis. he had a certain sense of surprise, also, at the way his conversation had developed. mrs. bayne's deaf aunt suddenly dug him in the chest with her ear-trumpet, and someone at tennis bawled, "love all!" "did i tell you jane's girls have had scarlet fever?" asked mrs. bayne's deaf aunt. "no," said aubrey vair. "yes; and they are peeling now," said mrs. bayne's deaf aunt, shutting her lips tightly, and nodding in a slow, significant manner at both of them. there was a pause. all three seemed lost in thought, too deep for words. "love," began aubrey vair presently, in a severely philosophical tone, leaning back in his chair, holding his hands like a praying saint's in front of him, and staring at the toe of his shoe,--"love is, i believe, the one true and real thing in life. it rises above reason, interest, or explanation. yet i never read of an age when it was so much forgotten as it is now. never was love expected to run so much in appointed channels, never was it so despised, checked, ordered, and obstructed. policemen say, 'this way, eros!' as a result, we relieve our emotional possibilities in the hunt for gold and notoriety. and after all, with the best fortune in these, we only hold up the gilded images of our success, and are weary slaves, with unsatisfied hearts, in the pageant of life." aubrey vair sighed, and there was a pause. the girl looked at him out of the mysterious darkness of her eyes. she had read many books, but aubrey vair was her first literary man, and she took this kind of thing for genius--as girls have done before. "we are," continued aubrey vair, conscious of a favourable impression,--"we are like fireworks, mere dead, inert things until the appointed spark comes; and then--if it is not damp--the dormant soul blazes forth in all its warmth and beauty. that is living. i sometimes think, do you know, that we should be happier if we could die soon after that golden time, like the ephemerides. there is a decay sets in." "eigh?" said mrs. bayne's deaf aunt startlingly. "i didn't hear you." "i was on the point of remarking," shouted aubrey vair, wheeling the array of his thoughts,--"i was on the point of remarking that few people in redhill could match mrs. morton's fine broad green." "others have noticed it," mrs. bayne's deaf aunt shouted back. "it is since she has had in her new false teeth." this interruption dislocated the conversation a little. however-- "i must thank you, mr. vair," said the dark girl, when they parted that afternoon, "for having given me very much to think about." and from her manner, aubrey vair perceived clearly he had not wasted his time. * * * * * it would require a subtler pen than mine to tell how from that day a passion for miss smith grew like jonah's gourd in the heart of aubrey vair. he became pensive, and in the prolonged absence of miss smith, irritable. mrs. aubrey vair felt the change in him, and put it down to a vitriolic saturday reviewer. indisputably the _saturday_ does at times go a little far. he re-read _elective affinities_; and lent it to miss smith. incredible as it may appear to members of the areopagus club, where we know aubrey vair, he did also beyond all question inspire a sort of passion in that sombre-eyed, rather clever, and really very beautiful girl. he talked to her a lot about love and destiny, and all that bric-à-brac of the minor poet. and they talked together about his genius. he elaborately, though discreetly, sought her society, and presented and read to her the milder of his unpublished sonnets. we consider his byronic features pasty, but the feminine mind has its own laws. i suppose, also, where a girl is not a fool, a literary man has an enormous advantage over anyone but a preacher, in the show he can make of his heart's wares. at last a day in that summer came when he met her alone, possibly by chance, in a quiet lane towards horley. there were ample hedges on either side, rich with honeysuckle, vetch, and mullein. they conversed intimately of his poetic ambitions, and then he read her those verses of his subsequently published in _hobson's magazine_: "tenderly ever, since i have met thee." he had written these the day before; and though i think the sentiment is uncommonly trite, there is a redeeming note of sincerity about the lines not conspicuous in all aubrey vair's poetry. he read rather well, and a swell of genuine emotion crept into his voice as he read, with one white hand thrown out to point the rhythm of the lines. "ever, my sweet, for thee," he concluded, looking up into her face. before he looked up, he had been thinking chiefly of his poem and its effect. straightway he forgot it. her arms hung limply before her, and her hands were clasped together. her eyes were very tender. "your verses go to the heart," she said softly. her mobile features were capable of wonderful shades of expression. he suddenly forgot his wife and his position as a minor poet as he looked at her. it is possible that his classical features may themselves have undergone a certain transfiguration. for one brief moment--and it was always to linger in his memory--destiny lifted him out of his vain little self to a nobler level of simplicity. the copy of "tenderly ever" fluttered from his hand. considerations vanished. only one thing seemed of importance. "i love you," he said abruptly. an expression of fear came into her eyes. the grip of her hands upon one another tightened convulsively. she became very pale. then she moved her lips as if to speak, bringing her face slightly nearer to his. there was nothing in the world at that moment for either of them but one another. they were both trembling exceedingly. in a whisper she said, "you love me?" aubrey vair stood quivering and speechless, looking into her eyes. he had never seen such a light as he saw there before. he was in a wild tumult of emotion. he was dreadfully scared at what he had done. he could not say another word. he nodded. "and this has come to me?" she said presently, in the same awe-stricken whisper, and then, "oh, my love, my love!" and thereupon aubrey vair had her clasped to himself, her cheek upon his shoulder and his lips to hers. thus it was that aubrey vair came by the cardinal memory of his life. to this day it recurs in his works. a little boy clambering in the hedge some way down the lane saw this group with surprise, and then with scorn and contempt. recking nothing of his destiny, he turned away, feeling that he at least could never come to the unspeakable unmanliness of hugging girls. unhappily for reigate scandal, his shame for his sex was altogether too deep for words. * * * * * an hour after, aubrey vair returned home in a hushed mood. there were muffins after his own heart for his tea--mrs. aubrey vair had had hers. and there were chrysanthemums, chiefly white ones,--flowers he loved,--set out in the china bowl he was wont to praise. and his wife came behind him to kiss him as he sat eating. "de lill jummuns," she remarked, kissing him under the ear. then it came into the mind of aubrey vair with startling clearness, while his ear was being kissed, and with his mouth full of muffin, that life is a singularly complex thing. * * * * * the summer passed at last into the harvest-time, and the leaves began falling. it was evening, the warm sunset light still touched the downs, but up the valley a blue haze was creeping. one or two lamps in reigate were already alight. about half-way up the slanting road that scales the downs, there is a wooden seat where one may obtain a fine view of the red villas scattered below, and of the succession of blue hills beyond. here the girl with the shadowy face was sitting. she had a book on her knees, but it lay neglected. she was leaning forward, her chin resting upon her hand. she was looking across the valley into the darkening sky, with troubled eyes. aubrey vair appeared through the hazel-bushes, and sat down beside her. he held half a dozen dead leaves in his hand. she did not alter her attitude. "well?" she said. "is it to be flight?" he asked. aubrey vair was rather pale. he had been having bad nights latterly, with dreams of the continental express, mrs. aubrey vair possibly even in pursuit,--he always fancied her making the tragedy ridiculous by tearfully bringing additional pairs of socks, and any such trifles he had forgotten, with her,--all reigate and redhill in commotion. he had never eloped before, and he had visions of difficulties with hotel proprietors. mrs. aubrey vair might telegraph ahead. even he had had a prophetic vision of a headline in a halfpenny evening newspaper: "young lady abducts a minor poet." so there was a quaver in his voice as he asked, "is it to be flight?" "as you will," she answered, still not looking at him. "i want you to consider particularly how this will affect you. a man," said aubrey vair, slowly, and staring hard at the leaves in his hand, "even gains a certain éclat in these affairs. but to a woman it is ruin--social, moral." "this is not love," said the girl in white. "ah, my dearest! think of yourself." "stupid!" she said, under her breath. "you spoke?" "nothing." "but cannot we go on, meeting one another, loving one another, without any great scandal or misery? could we not"-- "that," interrupted miss smith, "would be unspeakably horrible." "this is a dreadful conversation to me. life is so intricate, such a web of subtle strands binds us this way and that. i cannot tell what is right. you must consider"-- "a man would break such strands." "there is no manliness," said aubrey vair, with a sudden glow of moral exaltation, "in doing wrong. my love"-- "we could at least die together, dearest," she said. "good lord!" said aubrey vair. "i mean--consider my wife." "you have not considered her hitherto." "there is a flavour--of cowardice, of desertion, about suicide," said aubrey vair. "frankly, i have the english prejudice, and do not like any kind of running away." miss smith smiled very faintly. "i see clearly now what i did not see. my love and yours are very different things." "possibly it is a sexual difference," said aubrey vair; and then, feeling the remark inadequate, he relapsed into silence. they sat for some time without a word. the two lights in reigate below multiplied to a score of bright points, and, above, one star had become visible. she began laughing, an almost noiseless, hysterical laugh that jarred unaccountably upon aubrey vair. presently she stood up. "they will wonder where i am," she said. "i think i must be going." he followed her to the road. "then this is the end?" he said, with a curious mixture of relief and poignant regret. "yes, this is the end," she answered, and turned away. there straightway dropped into the soul of aubrey vair a sense of infinite loss. it was an altogether new sensation. she was perhaps twenty yards away, when he groaned aloud with the weight of it, and suddenly began running after her with his arms extended. "annie," he cried,--"annie! i have been talking _rot_. annie, now i know i love you! i cannot spare you. this must not be. i did not understand." the weight was horrible. "oh, stop, annie!" he cried, with a breaking voice, and there were tears on his face. she turned upon him suddenly, and his arms fell by his side. his expression changed at the sight of her pale face. "you do not understand," she said. "i have said good-bye." she looked at him; he was evidently greatly distressed, a little out of breath, and he had just stopped blubbering. his contemptible quality reached the pathetic. she came up close to him, and, taking his damp byronic visage between her hands, she kissed him again and again. "good-bye, little man that i loved," she said; "and good-bye to this folly of love." then, with something that may have been a laugh or a sob,--she herself, when she came to write it all in her novel, did not know which,--she turned and hurried away again, and went out of the path that aubrey vair must pursue, at the cross-roads. aubrey vair stood, where she had kissed him, with a mind as inactive as his body, until her white dress had disappeared. then he gave an involuntary sigh, a large exhaustive expiration, and so awoke himself, and began walking, pensively dragging his feet through the dead leaves, home. emotions are terrible things. * * * * * "do you like the potatoes, dear?" asked mrs. aubrey vair at dinner. "i cooked them myself." aubrey vair descended slowly from cloudy, impalpable meditations to the level of fried potatoes. "these potatoes"--he remarked, after a pause during which he was struggling with recollection. "yes. these potatoes have exactly the tints of the dead leaves of the hazel." "what a fanciful poet it is!" said mrs. aubrey vair. "taste them. they are very nice potatoes indeed." a catastrophe the little shop was not paying. the realisation came insensibly. winslow was not the man for definite addition and subtraction and sudden discovery. he became aware of the truth in his mind gradually, as though it had always been there. a lot of facts had converged and led him there. there was that line of cretonnes--four half-pieces--untouched, save for half a yard sold to cover a stool. there were those shirtings at ¾d.--bandersnatch, in the broadway, was selling them at ¾d.--under cost, in fact. (surely bandersnatch might let a man live!) those servants' caps, a selling line, needed replenishing, and that brought back the memory of winslow's sole wholesale dealers, helter, skelter, & grab. why! how about their account? winslow stood with a big green box open on the counter before him when he thought of it. his pale grey eyes grew a little rounder; his pale, straggling moustache twitched. he had been drifting along, day after day. he went round to the ramshackle cash-desk in the corner--it was winslow's weakness to sell his goods over the counter, give his customers a duplicate bill, and then dodge into the desk to receive the money, as though he doubted his own honesty. his lank forefinger, with the prominent joints, ran down the bright little calendar ("clack's cottons last for all time"). "one--two--three; three weeks an' a day!" said winslow, staring. "march! only three weeks and a day. it _can't_ be." "tea, dear," said mrs. winslow, opening the door with the glass window and the white blind that communicated with the parlour. "one minute," said winslow, and began unlocking the desk. an irritable old gentleman, very hot and red about the face, and in a heavy fur-lined cloak, came in noisily. mrs. winslow vanished. "ugh!" said the old gentleman. "pocket-handkerchief." "yes, sir," said winslow. "about what price"-- "ugh!" said the old gentleman. "poggit-handkerchief, quig!" winslow began to feel flustered. he produced two boxes. "these, sir"--began winslow. "sheed tin!" said the old gentleman, clutching the stiffness of the linen. "wad to blow my nose--not haggit about." "a cotton one, p'raps, sir?" said winslow. "how much?" said the old gentleman over the handkerchief. "sevenpence, sir. there's nothing more i can show you? no ties, braces--?" "damn!" said the old gentleman, fumbling in his ticket-pocket, and finally producing half a crown. winslow looked round for his little metallic duplicate-book which he kept in various fixtures, according to circumstances, and then he caught the old gentleman's eye. he went straight to the desk at once and got the change, with an entire disregard of the routine of the shop. winslow was always more or less excited by a customer. but the open desk reminded him of his trouble. it did not come back to him all at once. he heard a finger-nail softly tapping on the glass, and, looking up, saw minnie's eyes over the blind. it seemed like retreat opening. he shut and locked the desk, and went into the little room to tea. but he was preoccupied. three weeks and a day! he took unusually large bites of his bread and butter, and stared hard at the little pot of jam. he answered minnie's conversational advances distractedly. the shadow of helter, skelter, & grab lay upon the tea-table. he was struggling with this new idea of failure, the tangible realisation, that was taking shape and substance, condensing, as it were, out of the misty uneasiness of many days. at present it was simply one concrete fact; there were thirty-nine pounds left in the bank, and that day three weeks messrs. helter, skelter, & grab, those enterprising outfitters of young men, would demand their eighty pounds. after tea there was a customer or so--little purchases: some muslin and buckram, dress-protectors, tape, and a pair of lisle hose. then, knowing that black care was lurking in the dusky corners of the shop, he lit the three lamps early and set to, refolding his cotton prints, the most vigorous and least meditative proceeding of which he could think. he could see minnie's shadow in the other room as she moved about the table. she was busy turning an old dress. he had a walk after supper, looked in at the y.m.c.a., but found no one to talk to, and finally went to bed. minnie was already there. and there, too, waiting for him, nudging him gently, until about midnight he was hopelessly awake, sat black care. he had had one or two nights lately in that company, but this was much worse. first came messrs. helter, skelter, & grab, and their demand for eighty pounds--an enormous sum when your original capital was only a hundred and seventy. they camped, as it were, before him, sat down and beleaguered him. he clutched feebly at the circumambient darkness for expedients. suppose he had a sale, sold things for almost anything? he tried to imagine a sale miraculously successful in some unexpected manner, and mildly profitable, in spite of reductions below cost. then bandersnatch limited, , , , , , broadway, joined the siege, a long caterpillar of frontage, a battery of shop fronts, wherein things were sold at a farthing above cost. how could he fight such an establishment? besides, what had he to sell? he began to review his resources. what taking line was there to bait the sale? then straightway came those pieces of cretonne, yellow and black, with a bluish-green flower; those discredited skirtings, prints without buoyancy, skirmishing haberdashery, some despairful four-button gloves by an inferior maker--a hopeless crew. and that was his force against bandersnatch, helter, skelter, & grab, and the pitiless world behind them. whatever had made him think a mortal would buy such things? why had he bought this and neglected that? he suddenly realised the intensity of his hatred for helter, skelter, & grab's salesman. then he drove towards an agony of self-reproach. he had spent too much on that cash-desk. what real need was there of a desk? he saw his vanity of that desk in a lurid glow of self-discovery. and the lamps? five pounds! then suddenly, with what was almost physical pain, he remembered the rent. he groaned and turned over. and there, dim in the darkness, was the hummock of mrs. winslow's shoulders. that set him off in another direction. he became acutely sensible of minnie's want of feeling. here he was, worried to death about business, and she sleeping like a little child. he regretted having married, with that infinite bitterness that only comes to the human heart in the small hours of the morning. that hummock of white seemed absolutely without helpfulness, a burden, a responsibility. what fools men were to marry! minnie's inert repose irritated him so much that he was almost provoked to wake her up and tell her that they were "ruined." she would have to go back to her uncle; her uncle had always been against him: and as for his own future, winslow was exceedingly uncertain. a shop assistant who has once set up for himself finds the utmost difficulty in getting into a situation again. he began to figure himself "crib-hunting" again, going from this wholesale house to that, writing innumerable letters. how he hated writing letters! "sir,--referring to your advertisement in the _christian world_." he beheld an infinite vista of discomfort and disappointment, ending--in a gulf. he dressed, yawning, and went down to open the shop. he felt tired before the day began. as he carried the shutters in, he kept asking himself what good he was doing. the end was inevitable, whether he bothered or not. the clear daylight smote into the place, and showed how old and rough and splintered was the floor, how shabby the second-hand counter, how hopeless the whole enterprise. he had been dreaming these past six months of a bright little shop, of a happy couple, of a modest but comely profit flowing in. he had suddenly awakened from his dream. the braid that bound his decent black coat--it was a little loose--caught against the catch of the shop door, and was torn loose. this suddenly turned his wretchedness to wrath. he stood quivering for a moment, then, with a spiteful clutch, tore the braid looser, and went in to minnie. "here," he said, with infinite reproach; "look here! you might look after a chap a bit." "i didn't see it was torn," said minnie. "you never do," said winslow, with gross injustice, "until things are too late." minnie looked suddenly at his face. "i'll sew it now, sid, if you like." "let's have breakfast first," said winslow, "and do things at their proper time." he was preoccupied at breakfast, and minnie watched him anxiously. his only remark was to declare his egg a bad one. it wasn't; it was a little flavoury,--being one of those at fifteen a shilling,--but quite nice. he pushed it away from him, and then, having eaten a slice of bread and butter, admitted himself in the wrong by resuming the egg. "sid," said minnie, as he stood up to go into the shop again, "you're not well." "i'm _well_ enough." he looked at her as though he hated her. "then there's something else the matter. you aren't angry with me, sid, are you, about that braid? _do_ tell me what's the matter. you were just like this at tea yesterday, and at supper-time. it wasn't the braid then." "and i'm likely to be." she looked interrogation. "oh, what _is_ the matter?" she said. it was too good a chance to miss, and he brought the evil news out with dramatic force. "matter?" he said. "i done my best, and here we are. that's the matter! if i can't pay helter, skelter & grab eighty pounds, this day three week"--pause. "we shall be sold up! sold up! that's the matter, min! sold up!" "oh, sid!" began minnie. he slammed the door. for the moment he felt relieved of at least half his misery. he began dusting boxes that did not require dusting, and then reblocked a cretonne already faultlessly blocked. he was in a state of grim wretchedness; a martyr under the harrow of fate. at anyrate, it should not be said he failed for want of industry. and how he had planned and contrived and worked! all to this end! he felt horrible doubts. providence and bandersnatch--surely they were incompatible! perhaps he was being "tried"? that sent him off upon a new tack, a very comforting one. that martyr pose, the gold-in-the-furnace attitude, lasted all the morning. at dinner--"potato pie"--he looked up suddenly, and saw minnie's face regarding him. pale she looked, and a little red about the eyes. something caught him suddenly with a queer effect upon his throat. all his thoughts seemed to wheel round into quite a new direction. he pushed back his plate and stared at her blankly. then he got up, went round the table to her--she staring at him. he dropped on his knees beside her without a word. "oh, minnie!" he said, and suddenly she knew it was peace, and put her arms about him, as he began to sob and weep. he cried like a little boy, slobbering on her shoulder that he was a knave to have married her and brought her to this, that he hadn't the wits to be trusted with a penny, that it was all his fault, that he "_had_ hoped _so_"--ending in a howl. and she, crying gently herself, patting his shoulders, said "_ssh!_" softly to his noisy weeping, and so soothed the outbreak. then suddenly the crazy little bell upon the shop door began, and winslow had to jump to his feet, and be a man again. after that scene they "talked it over" at tea, at supper, in bed, at every possible interval in between, solemnly--quite inconclusively--with set faces and eyes for the most part staring in front of them--and yet with a certain mutual comfort. "what to do i don't know," was winslow's main proposition. minnie tried to take a cheerful view of service--with a probable baby. but she found she needed all her courage. and her uncle would help her again, perhaps, just at the critical time. it didn't do for folks to be too proud. besides, "something might happen," a favourite formula with her. one hopeful line was to anticipate a sudden afflux of customers. "perhaps," said minnie, "you might get together fifty. they know you well enough to trust you a bit." they debated that point. once the possibility of helter, skelter and grab giving credit was admitted, it was pleasant to begin sweating the acceptable minimum. for some half-hour over tea the second day after winslow's discoveries they were quite cheerful again, laughing even at their terrific fears. even twenty pounds to go on with might be considered enough. then in some mysterious way the pleasant prospect of messrs. helter, skelter, & grab tempering the wind to the shorn retailer vanished--vanished absolutely, and winslow found himself again in the pit of despair. he began looking about at the furniture, and wondering idly what it would fetch. the chiffonier was good, anyhow, and there were minnie's old plates that her mother used to have. then he began to think of desperate expedients for putting off the evil day. he had heard somewhere of bills of sale--there was to his ears something comfortingly substantial in the phrase. then, why not "go to the money-lenders"? one cheering thing happened on thursday afternoon; a little girl came in with a pattern of "print," and he was able to match it. he had not been able to match anything out of his meagre stock before. he went in and told minnie. the incident is mentioned lest the reader should imagine it was uniform despair with him. the next morning, and the next, after the discovery, winslow opened shop late. when one has been awake most of the night, and has no hope, what _is_ the good of getting up punctually? but as he went into the dark shop on friday he saw something lying on the floor, something lit by the bright light that came under the ill-fitting door--a black oblong. he stooped and picked up an envelope with a deep mourning edge. it was addressed to his wife. clearly a death in her family--perhaps her uncle. he knew the man too well to have expectations. and they would have to get mourning and go to the funeral. the brutal cruelty of people dying! he saw it all in a flash--he always visualised his thoughts. black trousers to get, black crape, black gloves--none in stock--the railway fares, the shop closed for the day. "i'm afraid there's bad news, minnie," he said. she was kneeling before the fireplace, blowing the fire. she had her housemaid's gloves on and the old country sun-bonnet she wore of a morning, to keep the dust out of her hair. she turned, saw the envelope, gave a gasp, and pressed two bloodless lips together. "i'm afraid it's uncle," she said, holding the letter and staring with eyes wide open into winslow's face. "_it's a strange hand!_" "the postmark's hull," said winslow. "the postmark's hull." minnie opened the letter slowly, drew it out, hesitated, turned it over, saw the signature. "it's mr. speight!" "what does he say?" said winslow. minnie began to read. "_oh!_" she screamed. she dropped the letter, collapsed into a crouching heap, her hands covering her eyes. winslow snatched at it. "a most terrible accident has occurred," he read; "melchior's chimney fell down yesterday evening right on the top of your uncle's house, and every living soul was killed--your uncle, your cousin mary, will and ned, and the girl--every one of them, and smashed--you would hardly know them. i'm writing to you to break the news before you see it in the papers"--the letter fluttered from winslow's fingers. he put out his hand against the mantel to steady himself. all of them dead! then he saw, as in a vision, a row of seven cottages, each let at seven shillings a week, a timber yard, two villas, and the ruins--still marketable--of the avuncular residence. he tried to feel a sense of loss and could not. they were sure to have been left to minnie's aunt. all dead! Ã� Ã� ÷ began insensibly to work itself out in his mind, but discipline was ever weak in his mental arithmetic; figures kept moving from one line to another, like children playing at widdy, widdy way. was it two hundred pounds about--or one hundred pounds? presently he picked up the letter again, and finishing reading it. "you being the next of kin," said mr. speight. "how _awful_!" said minnie in a horror-struck whisper, and looking up at last. winslow stared back at her, shaking his head solemnly. there were a thousand things running through his mind, but none that, even to his dull sense, seemed appropriate as a remark. "it was the lord's will," he said at last. "it seems so very, very terrible," said minnie; "auntie, dear auntie--ted--poor, dear uncle"-- "it was the lord's will, minnie," said winslow, with infinite feeling. a long silence. "yes," said minnie, very slowly, staring thoughtfully at the crackling black paper in the grate. the fire had gone out. "yes, perhaps it was the lord's will." they looked gravely at one another. each would have been terribly shocked at any mention of the property by the other. she turned to the dark fireplace and began tearing up an old newspaper slowly. whatever our losses may be, the world's work still waits for us. winslow gave a deep sigh and walked in a hushed manner towards the front door. as he opened it, a flood of sunlight came streaming into the dark shadows of the closed shop. bandersnatch, helter, skelter, & grab, had vanished out of his mind like the mists before the rising sun. presently he was carrying in the shutters, and in the briskest way, the fire in the kitchen was crackling exhilaratingly, with a little saucepan walloping above it, for minnie was boiling two eggs,--one for herself this morning, as well as one for him,--and minnie herself was audible, laying breakfast with the greatest _éclat_. the blow was a sudden and terrible one--but it behoves us to face such things bravely in this sad, unaccountable world. it was quite midday before either of them mentioned the cottages. the lost inheritance "my uncle," said the man with the glass eye, "was what you might call a hemi-semi-demi millionaire. he was worth about a hundred and twenty thousand. quite. and he left me all his money." i glanced at the shiny sleeve of his coat, and my eye travelled up to the frayed collar. "every penny," said the man with the glass eye, and i caught the active pupil looking at me with a touch of offence. "i've never had any windfalls like that," i said, trying to speak enviously and propitiate him. "even a legacy isn't always a blessing," he remarked with a sigh, and with an air of philosophical resignation he put the red nose and the wiry moustache into his tankard for a space. "perhaps not," i said. "he was an author, you see, and he wrote a lot of books." "indeed!" "that was the trouble of it all." he stared at me with the available eye to see if i grasped his statement, then averted his face a little and produced a toothpick. "you see," he said, smacking his lips after a pause, "it was like this. he was my uncle--my maternal uncle. and he had--what shall i call it?--a weakness for writing edifying literature. weakness is hardly the word--downright mania is nearer the mark. he'd been librarian in a polytechnic, and as soon as the money came to him he began to indulge his ambition. it's a simply extraordinary and incomprehensible thing to me. here was a man of thirty-seven suddenly dropped into a perfect pile of gold, and he didn't go--not a day's bust on it. one would think a chap would go and get himself dressed a bit decent--say a couple of dozen pairs of trousers at a west end tailor's; but he never did. you'd hardly believe it, but when he died he hadn't even a gold watch. it seems wrong for people like that to have money. all he did was just to take a house, and order in pretty nearly five tons of books and ink and paper, and set to writing edifying literature as hard as ever he could write. i _can't_ understand it! but he did. the money came to him, curiously enough, through a maternal uncle of _his_, unexpected like, when he was seven-and-thirty. my mother, it happened, was his only relation in the wide, wide world, except some second cousins of his. and i was her only son. you follow all that? the second cousins had one only son, too, but they brought him to see the old man too soon. he was rather a spoilt youngster, was this son of theirs, and directly he set eyes on my uncle, he began bawling out as hard as he could. 'take 'im away--er,' he says, 'take 'im away,' and so did for himself entirely. it was pretty straight sailing, you'd think, for me, eh? and my mother, being a sensible, careful woman, settled the business in her own mind long before he did. "he was a curious little chap, was my uncle, as i remember him. i don't wonder at the kid being scared. hair, just like these japanese dolls they sell, black and straight and stiff all round the brim and none in the middle, and below, a whitish kind of face and rather large dark grey eyes moving about behind his spectacles. he used to attach a great deal of importance to dress, and always wore a flapping overcoat and a big-brimmed felt hat of a most extraordinary size. he looked a rummy little beggar, i can tell you. indoors it was, as a rule, a dirty red flannel dressing-gown and a black skull-cap he had. that black skull-cap made him look like the portraits of all kinds of celebrated people. he was always moving about from house to house, was my uncle, with his chair which had belonged to savage landor, and his two writing-tables, one of carlyle's and the other of shelley's, so the dealer told him, and the completest portable reference library in england, he said he had--and he lugged the whole caravan, now to a house at down, near darwin's old place, then to reigate, near meredith, then off to haslemere, then back to chelsea for a bit, and then up to hampstead. he knew there was something wrong with his stuff, but he never knew there was anything wrong with his brains. it was always the air, or the water, or the altitude, or some tommy-rot like that. 'so much depends on environment,' he used to say, and stare at you hard, as if he half suspected you were hiding a grin at him somewhere under your face. 'so much depends on environment to a sensitive mind like mine.' "what was his name? you wouldn't know it if i told you. he wrote nothing that anyone has ever read--nothing. no one _could_ read it. he wanted to be a great teacher, he said, and he didn't know what he wanted to teach any more than a child. so he just blethered at large about truth and righteousness, and the spirit of history, and all that. book after book he wrote and published at his own expense. he wasn't quite right in his head, you know, really; and to hear him go on at the critics--not because they slated him, mind you--he liked that--but because they didn't take any notice of him at all. 'what do the nations want?' he would ask, holding out his brown old claw. 'why, teaching--guidance! they are scattered upon the hills like sheep without a shepherd. there is war and rumours of war, the unlaid spirit of discord abroad in the land, nihilism, vivisection, vaccination, drunkenness, penury, want, socialistic error, selfish capital! do you see the clouds, ted?'--my name, you know--'do you see the clouds lowering over the land? and behind it all--the mongol waits!' he was always very great on mongols and the spectre of socialism, and such-like things. "then out would come his finger at me, and with his eyes all afire and his skull-cap askew, he would whisper: 'and here am i. what do i want? nations to teach. nations! i say it with all modesty, ted, i _could_. i would guide them; nay! but i _will_ guide them to a safe haven, to the land of righteousness, flowing with milk and honey.' "that's how he used to go on. ramble, rave about the nations, and righteousness, and that kind of thing. kind of mincemeat of bible and blethers. from fourteen up to three-and-twenty, when i might have been improving my mind, my mother used to wash me and brush my hair (at least in the earlier years of it), with a nice parting down the middle, and take me, once or twice a week, to hear this old lunatic jabber about things he had read of in the morning papers, trying to do it as much like carlyle as he could, and i used to sit according to instructions, and look intelligent and nice, and pretend to be taking it all in. afterwards i used to go of my own free will, out of a regard for the legacy. i was the only person that used to go and see him. he wrote, i believe, to every man who made the slightest stir in the world, sending him a copy or so of his books, and inviting him to come and talk about the nations to him; but half of them didn't answer, and none ever came. and when the girl let you in--she was an artful bit of goods, that girl--there were heaps of letters on the hall-seat waiting to go off, addressed to prince bismark, the president of the united states, and such-like people. and one went up the staircase and along the cobwebby passage,--the housekeeper drank like fury, and his passages were always cobwebby,--and found him at last, with books turned down all over the room, and heaps of torn paper on the floor, and telegrams and newspapers littered about, and empty coffee-cups and half-eaten bits of toast on the desk and the mantel. you'd see his back humped up, and his hair would be sticking out quite straight between the collar of that dressing-gown thing and the edge of the skull-cap. "'a moment!' he would say. 'a moment!' over his shoulder. 'the _mot juste_, you know, ted, _le mot juste_. righteous thought righteously expressed--aah!--concatenation. and now, ted,' he'd say, spinning round in his study chair, 'how's young england?' that was his silly name for me. "well, that was my uncle, and that was how he talked--to me, at anyrate. with others about he seemed a bit shy. and he not only talked to me, but he gave me his books, books of six hundred pages or so, with cock-eyed headings, 'the shrieking sisterhood,' 'the behemoth of bigotry,' 'crucibles and cullenders,' and so on. all very strong, and none of them original. the very last time but one that i saw him he gave me a book. he was feeling ill even then, and his hand shook and he was despondent. i noticed it because i was naturally on the look-out for those little symptoms. 'my last book, ted,' he said. 'my last book, my boy; my last word to the deaf and hardened nations;' and i'm hanged if a tear didn't go rolling down his yellow old cheek. he was regular crying because it was so nearly over, and he hadn't only written about fifty-three books of rubbish. 'i've sometimes thought, ted'--he said, and stopped. "'perhaps i've been a bit hasty and angry with this stiff-necked generation. a little more sweetness, perhaps, and a little less blinding light. i've sometimes thought--i might have swayed them. but i've done my best, ted.' "and then, with a burst, for the first and last time in his life he owned himself a failure. it showed he was really ill. he seemed to think for a minute, and then he spoke quietly and low, as sane and sober as i am now. 'i've been a fool, ted,' he said. 'i've been flapping nonsense all my life. only he who readeth the heart knows whether this is anything more than vanity. ted, i don't. but he knows, he knows, and if i have done foolishly and vainly, in my heart--in my heart'-- "just like that he spoke, repeating himself, and he stopped quite short and handed the book to me, trembling. then the old shine came back into his eye. i remember it all fairly well, because i repeated it and acted it to my old mother when i got home, to cheer her up a bit. 'take this book and read it,' he said. 'it's my last word, my very last word. i've left all my property to you, ted, and may you use it better than i have done.' and then he fell a-coughing. "i remember that quite well even now, and how i went home cock-a-hoop, and how he was in bed the next time i called. the housekeeper was downstairs drunk, and i fooled about--as a young man will--with the girl in the passage before i went to him. he was sinking fast. but even then his vanity clung to him. "'have you read it?' he whispered. "'sat up all night reading it,' i said in his ear to cheer him. 'it's the last,' said i, and then, with a memory of some poetry or other in my head, 'but it's the bravest and best.' "he smiled a little and tried to squeeze my hand as a woman might do, and left off squeezing in the middle, and lay still. 'the bravest and the best,' said i again, seeing it pleased him. but he didn't answer. i heard the girl giggle outside the door, for occasionally we'd had just a bit of innocent laughter, you know, at his ways. i looked at his face, and his eyes were closed, and it was just as if somebody had punched in his nose on either side. but he was still smiling. it's queer to think of--he lay dead, lay dead there, an utter failure, with the smile of success on his face. "that was the end of my uncle. you can imagine me and my mother saw that he had a decent funeral. then, of course, came the hunt for the will. we began decent and respectful at first, and before the day was out we were ripping chairs, and smashing bureau panels, and sounding walls. every hour we expected those others to come in. we asked the housekeeper, and found she'd actually witnessed a will--on an ordinary half-sheet of notepaper it was written, and very short, she said--not a month ago. the other witness was the gardener, and he bore her out word for word. but i'm hanged if there was that or any other will to be found. the way my mother talked must have made him turn in his grave. at last a lawyer at reigate sprang one on us that had been made years ago during some temporary quarrel with my mother. i'm blest if that wasn't the only will to be discovered anywhere, and it left every penny he possessed to that 'take 'im away' youngster of his second cousin's--a chap who'd never had to stand his talking not for one afternoon of his life." the man with the glass eye stopped. "i thought you said"--i began. "half a minute," said the man with the glass eye. "_i_ had to wait for the end of the story till this very morning, and i was a blessed sight more interested than you are. you just wait a bit too. they executed the will, and the other chap inherited, and directly he was one-and-twenty he began to blew it. how he did blew it, to be sure! he bet, he drank, he got in the papers for this and that. i tell you, it makes me wriggle to think of the times he had. he blewed every ha'penny of it before he was thirty, and the last i heard of him was--holloway! three years ago. "well, i naturally fell on hard times, because, as you see, the only trade i knew was legacy-cadging. all my plans were waiting over to begin, so to speak, when the old chap died. i've had my ups and downs since then. just now it's a period of depression. i tell you frankly, i'm on the look-out for help. i was hunting round my room to find something to raise a bit on for immediate necessities, and the sight of all those presentation volumes--no one will buy them, not to wrap butter in, even--well, they annoyed me. i'd promised him not to part with them, and i never kept a promise easier. i let out at them with my boot, and sent them shooting across the room. one lifted at the kick, and spun through the air. and out of it flapped--you guess? "it was the will. he'd given it me himself in that very last volume of all." he folded his arms on the table, and looked sadly with the active eye at his empty tankard. he shook his head slowly, and said softly, "i'd never _opened_ the book, much more cut a page!" then he looked up, with a bitter laugh, for my sympathy. "fancy hiding it there! eigh? of all places." he began to fish absently for a dead fly with his finger. "it just shows you the vanity of authors," he said, looking up at me. "it wasn't no trick of his. he'd meant perfectly fair. he'd really thought i was really going home to read that blessed book of his through. but it shows you, don't it?"--his eye went down to the tankard again,--"it shows you, too, how we poor human beings fail to understand one another." but there was no misunderstanding the eloquent thirst of his eye. he accepted with ill-feigned surprise. he said, in the usual subtle formula, that he didn't mind if he did. the sad story of a dramatic critic i was--you shall hear immediately why i am not now--egbert craddock cummins. the name remains. i am still (heaven help me!) dramatic critic to the _fiery cross_. what i shall be in a little while i do not know. i write in great trouble and confusion of mind. i will do what i can to make myself clear in the face of terrible difficulties. you must bear with me a little. when a man is rapidly losing his own identity, he naturally finds a difficulty in expressing himself. i will make it perfectly plain in a minute, when once i get my grip upon the story. let me see--where _am_ i? i wish i knew. ah, i have it! dead self! egbert craddock cummins! in the past i should have disliked writing anything quite so full of "i" as this story must be. it is full of "i's" before and behind, like the beast in revelation--the one with a head like a calf, i am afraid. but my tastes have changed since i became a dramatic critic and studied the masters--g.r.s., g.b.s., g.a.s., and the others. everything has changed since then. at least the story is about myself--so that there is some excuse for me. and it is really not egotism, because, as i say, since those days my identity has undergone an entire alteration. that past!... i was--in those days--rather a nice fellow, rather shy--taste for grey in my clothes, weedy little moustache, face "interesting," slight stutter which i had caught in early life from a schoolfellow. engaged to a very nice girl, named delia. fairly new, she was--cigarettes--liked me because i was human and original. considered i was like lamb--on the strength of the stutter, i believe. father, an eminent authority on postage stamps. she read a great deal in the british museum. (a perfect pairing ground for literary people, that british museum--you should read george egerton and justin huntly m'carthy and gissing and the rest of them.) we loved in our intellectual way, and shared the brightest hopes. (all gone now.) and her father liked me because i seemed honestly eager to hear about stamps. she had no mother. indeed, i had the happiest prospects a young man could have. i never went to theatres in those days. my aunt charlotte before she died had told me not to. then barnaby, the editor of the _fiery cross_, made me--in spite of my spasmodic efforts to escape--dramatic critic. he is a fine, healthy man, barnaby, with an enormous head of frizzy black hair and a convincing manner, and he caught me on the staircase going to see wembly. he had been dining, and was more than usually buoyant. "hullo, cummins!" he said. "the very man i want!" he caught me by the shoulder or the collar or something, ran me up the little passage, and flung me over the waste-paper basket into the arm-chair in his office. "pray be seated," he said, as he did so. then he ran across the room and came back with some pink and yellow tickets and pushed them into my hand. "opera comique," he said, "thursday; friday, the surrey; saturday, the frivolity. that's all, i think." "but"--i began. "glad you're free," he said, snatching some proofs off the desk and beginning to read. "i don't quite understand," i said. "_eigh?_" he said, at the top of his voice, as though he thought i had gone, and was startled at my remark. "do you want me to criticise these plays?" "do something with 'em.... did you think it was a treat?" "but i can't." "did you call me a fool?" "well, i've never been to a theatre in my life." "virgin soil." "but i don't know anything about it, you know." "that's just it. new view. no habits. no _clichés_ in stock. ours is a live paper, not a bag of tricks. none of your clockwork professional journalism in this office. and i can rely on your integrity"-- "but i've conscientious scruples"-- he caught me up suddenly and put me outside his door. "go and talk to wembly about that," he said. "he'll explain." as i stood perplexed, he opened the door again, said, "i forgot this," thrust a fourth ticket into my hand (it was for that night--in twenty minutes' time), and slammed the door upon me. his expression was quite calm, but i caught his eye. i hate arguments. i decided that i would take his hint and become (to my own destruction) a dramatic critic. i walked slowly down the passage to wembly. that barnaby has a remarkably persuasive way. he has made few suggestions during our very pleasant intercourse of four years that he has not ultimately won me round to adopting. it may be, of course, that i am of a yielding disposition; certainly i am too apt to take my colour from my circumstances. it is, indeed, to my unfortunate susceptibility to vivid impressions that all my misfortunes are due. i have already alluded to the slight stammer i had acquired from a schoolfellow in my youth. however, this is a digression.... i went home in a cab to dress. i will not trouble the reader with my thoughts about the first-night audience, strange assembly as it is,--those i reserve for my memoirs,--nor the humiliating story of how i got lost during the _entr'acte_ in a lot of red plush passages, and saw the third act from the gallery. the only point upon which i wish to lay stress was the remarkable effect of the acting upon me. you must remember i had lived a quiet and retired life, and had never been to the theatre before, and that i am extremely sensitive to vivid impressions. at the risk of repetition i must insist upon these points. the first effect was a profound amazement, not untinctured by alarm. the phenomenal unnaturalness of acting is a thing discounted in the minds of most people by early visits to the theatre. they get used to the fantastic gestures, the flamboyant emotions, the weird mouthings, melodious snortings, agonising yelps, lip-gnawings, glaring horrors, and other emotional symbolism of the stage. it becomes at last a mere deaf-and-dumb language to them, which they read intelligently _pari passu_ with the hearing of the dialogue. but all this was new to me. the thing was called a modern comedy, the people were supposed to be english and were dressed like fashionable americans of the current epoch, and i fell into the natural error of supposing that the actors were trying to represent human beings. i looked round on my first-night audience with a kind of wonder, discovered--as all new dramatic critics do--that it rested with me to reform the drama, and, after a supper choked with emotion, went off to the office to write a column, piebald with "new paragraphs" (as all my stuff is--it fills out so) and purple with indignation. barnaby was delighted. but i could not sleep that night. i dreamt of actors--actors glaring, actors smiting their chests, actors flinging out a handful of extended fingers, actors smiling bitterly, laughing despairingly, falling hopelessly, dying idiotically. i got up at eleven with a slight headache, read my notice in the _fiery cross_, breakfasted, and went back to my room to shave. (it's my habit to do so.) then an odd thing happened. i could not find my razor. suddenly it occurred to me that i had not unpacked it the day before. "ah!" said i, in front of the looking-glass. then "hullo!" quite involuntarily, when i had thought of my portmanteau, i had flung up the left arm (fingers fully extended) and clutched at my diaphragm with my right hand. i am an acutely self-conscious man at all times. the gesture struck me as absolutely novel for me. i repeated it, for my own satisfaction. "odd!" then (rather puzzled) i turned to my portmanteau. after shaving, my mind reverted to the acting i had seen, and i entertained myself before the cheval glass with some imitations of jafferay's more exaggerated gestures. "really, one might think it a disease," i said--"stage-walkitis!" (there's many a truth spoken in jest.) then, if i remember rightly, i went off to see wembly, and afterwards lunched at the british museum with delia. we actually spoke about our prospects, in the light of my new appointment. but that appointment was the beginning of my downfall. from that day i necessarily became a persistent theatre-goer, and almost insensibly i began to change. the next thing i noticed after the gesture about the razor, was to catch myself bowing ineffably when i met delia, and stooping in an old-fashioned, courtly way over her hand. directly i caught myself, i straightened myself up and became very uncomfortable. i remember she looked at me curiously. then, in the office, i found myself doing "nervous business," fingers on teeth, when barnaby asked me a question i could not very well answer. then, in some trifling difference with delia, i clasped my hand to my brow. and i pranced through my social transactions at times singularly like an actor! i tried not to--no one could be more keenly alive to the arrant absurdity of the histrionic bearing. and i did! it began to dawn on me what it all meant. the acting, i saw, was too much for my delicately-strung nervous system. i have always, i know, been too amenable to the suggestions of my circumstances. night after night of concentrated attention to the conventional attitudes and intonation of the english stage was gradually affecting my speech and carriage. i was giving way to the infection of sympathetic imitation. night after night my plastic nervous system took the print of some new amazing gesture, some new emotional exaggeration--and retained it. a kind of theatrical veneer threatened to plate over and obliterate my private individuality altogether. i saw myself in a kind of vision. sitting by myself one night, my new self seemed to me to glide, posing and gesticulating, across the room. he clutched his throat, he opened his fingers, he opened his legs in walking like a high-class marionette. he went from attitude to attitude. he might have been clockwork. directly after this i made an ineffectual attempt to resign my theatrical work. but barnaby persisted in talking about the polywhiddle divorce all the time i was with him, and i could get no opportunity of saying what i wished. and then delia's manner began to change towards me. the ease of our intercourse vanished. i felt she was learning to dislike me. i grinned, and capered, and scowled, and posed at her in a thousand ways, and knew--with what a voiceless agony!--that i did it all the time. i tried to resign again, and barnaby talked about "x" and "z" and "y" in the _new review_, and gave me a strong cigar to smoke, and so routed me. and then i walked up the assyrian gallery in the manner of irving to meet delia, and so precipitated the crisis. "ah!--_dear!_" i said, with more sprightliness and emotion in my voice than had ever been in all my life before i became (to my own undoing) a dramatic critic. she held out her hand rather coldly, scrutinising my face as she did so. i prepared, with a new-won grace, to walk by her side. "egbert," she said, standing still, and thought. then she looked at me. i said nothing. i felt what was coming. i tried to be the old egbert craddock cummins of shambling gait and stammering sincerity, whom she loved, but i felt even as i did so that i was a new thing, a thing of surging emotions and mysterious fixity--like no human being that ever lived, except upon the stage. "egbert," she said, "you are not yourself." "ah!" involuntarily i clutched my diaphragm and averted my head (as is the way with them). "there!" she said. "_what do you mean?_" i said, whispering in vocal italics--you know how they do it--turning on her, perplexity on face, right hand down, left on brow. i knew quite well what she meant. i knew quite well the dramatic unreality of my behaviour. but i struggled against it in vain. "what do you mean?" i said, and, in a kind of hoarse whisper, "i don't understand!" she really looked as though she disliked me. "what do you keep on posing for?" she said. "i don't like it. you didn't use to." "didn't use to!" i said slowly, repeating this twice. i glared up and down the gallery, with short, sharp glances. "we are alone," i said swiftly. "_listen!_" i poked my forefinger towards her, and glared at her. "i am under a curse." i saw her hand tighten upon her sunshade. "you are under some bad influence or other," said delia. "you should give it up. i never knew anyone change as you have done." "delia!" i said, lapsing into the pathetic. "pity me. augh! delia! _pit_--y me!" she eyed me critically. "_why_ you keep playing the fool like this i don't know," she said. "anyhow, i really cannot go about with a man who behaves as you do. you made us both ridiculous on wednesday. frankly, i dislike you, as you are now. i met you here to tell you so--as it's about the only place where we can be sure of being alone together"-- "delia!" said i, with intensity, knuckles of clenched hands white. "you don't mean"-- "i do," said delia. "a woman's lot is sad enough at the best of times. but with you"-- i clapped my hand on my brow. "so, good-bye," said delia, without emotion. "oh, delia!" i said. "not _this_?" "good-bye, mr. cummins," she said. by a violent effort i controlled myself and touched her hand. i tried to say some word of explanation to her. she looked into my working face and winced. "i _must_ do it," she said hopelessly. then she turned from me and began walking rapidly down the gallery. heavens! how the human agony cried within me! i loved delia. but nothing found expression--i was already too deeply crusted with my acquired self. "good-baye!" i said at last, watching her retreating figure. how i hated myself for doing it! after she had vanished, i repeated in a dreamy way, "good-baye!" looking hopelessly round me. then, with a kind of heart-broken cry, i shook my clenched fists in the air, staggered to the pedestal of a winged figure, buried my face in my arms, and made my shoulders heave. something within me said "ass!" as i did so. (i had the greatest difficulty in persuading the museum policeman, who was attracted by my cry of agony, that i was not intoxicated, but merely suffering from a transient indisposition.) but even this great sorrow has not availed to save me from my fate. i see it, everyone sees it; i grow more "theatrical" every day. and no one could be more painfully aware of the pungent silliness of theatrical ways. the quiet, nervous, but pleasing e. c. cummins vanishes. i cannot save him. i am driven like a dead leaf before the winds of march. my tailor even enters into the spirit of my disorder. he has a peculiar sense of what is fitting. i tried to get a dull grey suit from him this spring, and he foisted a brilliant blue upon me, and i see he has put braid down the sides of my new dress trousers. my hairdresser insists upon giving me a "wave." i am beginning to associate with actors. i detest them, but it is only in their company that i can feel i am not glaringly conspicuous. their talk infects me. i notice a growing tendency to dramatic brevity, to dashes and pauses in my style, to a punctuation of bows and attitudes. barnaby has remarked it too. i offended wembly by calling him "dear boy" yesterday. i dread the end, but i cannot escape from it. the fact is, i am being obliterated. living a grey, retired life all my youth, i came to the theatre a delicate sketch of a man, a thing of tints and faint lines. their gorgeous colouring has effaced me altogether. people forget how much mode of expression, method of movement, are a matter of contagion. i have heard of stage-struck people before, and thought it a figure of speech. i spoke of it jestingly, as a disease. it is no jest. it _is_ a disease. and i have got it bad! deep down within me i protest against the wrong done to my personality--unavailingly. for three hours or more a week i have to go and concentrate my attention on some fresh play, and the suggestions of the drama strengthen their awful hold upon me. my manners grow so flamboyant, my passions so professional, that i doubt, as i said at the outset, whether it is really myself that behaves in such a manner. i feel merely the core to this dramatic casing, that grows thicker and presses upon me--me and mine. i feel like king john's abbot in his cope of lead. i doubt, indeed, whether i should not abandon the struggle altogether--leave this sad world of ordinary life for which i am so ill-fitted, abandon the name of cummins for some professional pseudonym, complete my self-effacement, and--a thing of tricks and tatters, of posing and pretence--go upon the stage. it seems my only resort--"to hold the mirror up to nature." for in the ordinary life, i will confess, no one now seems to regard me as both sane and sober. only upon the stage, i feel convinced, will people take me seriously. that will be the end of it. i _know_ that will be the end of it. and yet ... i will frankly confess ... all that marks off your actor from your common man ... i _detest_. i am still largely of my aunt charlotte's opinion, that playacting is unworthy of a pure-minded man's attention, much more participation. even now i would resign my dramatic criticism and try a rest. only i can't get hold of barnaby. letters of resignation he never notices. he says it is against the etiquette of journalism to write to your editor. and when i go to see him, he gives me another big cigar and some strong whisky and soda, and then something always turns up to prevent my explanation. a slip under the microscope outside the laboratory windows was a watery-grey fog, and within a close warmth and the yellow light of the green-shaded gas lamps that stood two to each table down its narrow length. on each table stood a couple of glass jars containing the mangled vestiges of the crayfish, mussels, frogs, and guineapigs, upon which the students had been working, and down the side of the room, facing the windows, were shelves bearing bleached dissections in spirits, surmounted by a row of beautifully executed anatomical drawings in whitewood frames and overhanging a row of cubical lockers. all the doors of the laboratory were panelled with blackboard, and on these were the half-erased diagrams of the previous day's work. the laboratory was empty, save for the demonstrator, who sat near the preparation-room door, and silent, save for a low, continuous murmur, and the clicking of the rocker microtome at which he was working. but scattered about the room were traces of numerous students: hand-bags, polished boxes of instruments, in one place a large drawing covered by newspaper, and in another a prettily bound copy of _news from nowhere_, a book oddly at variance with its surroundings. these things had been put down hastily as the students had arrived and hurried at once to secure their seats in the adjacent lecture theatre. deadened by the closed door, the measured accents of the professor sounded as a featureless muttering. presently, faint through the closed windows came the sound of the oratory clock striking the hour of eleven. the clicking of the microtome ceased, and the demonstrator looked at his watch, rose, thrust his hands into his pockets, and walked slowly down the laboratory towards the lecture theatre door. he stood listening for a moment, and then his eye fell on the little volume by william morris. he picked it up, glanced at the title, smiled, opened it, looked at the name on the fly-leaf, ran the leaves through with his hand, and put it down. almost immediately the even murmur of the lecturer ceased, there was a sudden burst of pencils rattling on the desks in the lecture theatre, a stirring, a scraping of feet, and a number of voices speaking together. then a firm footfall approached the door, which began to open, and stood ajar, as some indistinctly heard question arrested the new-comer. the demonstrator turned, walked slowly back past the microtome, and left the laboratory by the preparation-room door. as he did so, first one, and then several students carrying notebooks entered the laboratory from the lecture theatre, and distributed themselves among the little tables, or stood in a group about the doorway. they were an exceptionally heterogeneous assembly, for while oxford and cambridge still recoil from the blushing prospect of mixed classes, the college of science anticipated america in the matter years ago--mixed socially, too, for the prestige of the college is high, and its scholarships, free of any age limit, dredge deeper even than do those of the scotch universities. the class numbered one-and-twenty, but some remained in the theatre questioning the professor, copying the blackboard diagrams before they were washed off, or examining the special specimens he had produced to illustrate the day's teaching. of the nine who had come into the laboratory three were girls, one of whom, a little fair woman, wearing spectacles and dressed in greyish-green, was peering out of the window at the fog, while the other two, both wholesome-looking, plain-faced schoolgirls, unrolled and put on the brown holland aprons they wore while dissecting. of the men, two went down the laboratory to their places, one a pallid, dark-bearded man, who had once been a tailor; the other a pleasant-featured, ruddy young man of twenty, dressed in a well-fitting brown suit; young wedderburn, the son of wedderburn the eye specialist. the others formed a little knot near the theatre door. one of these, a dwarfed, spectacled figure, with a hunch back, sat on a bent wood stool; two others, one a short, dark youngster, and the other a flaxen-haired, reddish-complexioned young man, stood leaning side by side against the slate sink, while the fourth stood facing them, and maintained the larger share of the conversation. this last person was named hill. he was a sturdily built young fellow, of the same age as wedderburn; he had a white face, dark grey eyes, hair of an indeterminate colour, and prominent, irregular features. he talked rather louder than was needful, and thrust his hands deeply into his pockets. his collar was frayed and blue with the starch of a careless laundress, his clothes were evidently readymade, and there was a patch on the side of his boot near the toe. and as he talked or listened to the others, he glanced now and again towards the lecture theatre door. they were discussing the depressing peroration of the lecture they had just heard, the last lecture it was in the introductory course in zoology. "from ovum to ovum is the goal of the higher vertebrata," the lecturer had said in his melancholy tones, and so had neatly rounded off the sketch of comparative anatomy he had been developing. the spectacled hunchback had repeated it, with noisy appreciation, had tossed it towards the fair-haired student with an evident provocation, and had started one of those vague, rambling discussions on generalities, so unaccountably dear to the student mind all the world over. "that is our goal, perhaps--i admit it--as far as science goes," said the fair-haired student, rising to the challenge. "but there are things above science." "science," said hill confidently, "is systematic knowledge. ideas that don't come into the system--must anyhow--be loose ideas." he was not quite sure whether that was a clever saying or a fatuity until his hearers took it seriously. "the thing i cannot understand," said the hunchback, at large, "is whether hill is a materialist or not." "there is one thing above matter," said hill promptly, feeling he had a better thing this time, aware, too, of someone in the doorway behind him, and raising his voice a trifle for her benefit, "and that is, the delusion that there is something above matter." "so we have your gospel at last," said the fair student. "it's all a delusion, is it? all our aspirations to lead something more than dogs' lives, all our work for anything beyond ourselves. but see how inconsistent you are. your socialism, for instance. why do you trouble about the interests of the race? why do you concern yourself about the beggar in the gutter? why are you bothering yourself to lend that book"--he indicated william morris by a movement of the head--"to everyone in the lab.?" "girl," said the hunchback indistinctly, and glanced guiltily over his shoulder. the girl in brown, with the brown eyes, had come into the laboratory, and stood on the other side of the table behind him, with her rolled-up apron in one hand, looking over her shoulder, listening to the discussion. she did not notice the hunchback, because she was glancing from hill to his interlocutor. hill's consciousness of her presence betrayed itself to her only in his studious ignorance of the fact; but she understood that, and it pleased her. "i see no reason," said he, "why a man should live like a brute because he knows of nothing beyond matter, and does not expect to exist a hundred years hence." "why shouldn't he?" said the fair-haired student. "why _should_ he?" said hill. "what inducement has he?" "that's the way with all you religious people. it's all a business of inducements. cannot a man seek after righteousness for righteousness' sake?" there was a pause. the fair man answered, with a kind of vocal padding, "but--you see--inducement--when i said inducement," to gain time. and then the hunchback came to his rescue and inserted a question. he was a terrible person in the debating society with his questions, and they invariably took one form--a demand for a definition. "what's your definition of righteousness?" said the hunchback at this stage. hill experienced a sudden loss of complacency at this question, but even as it was asked, relief came in the person of brooks, the laboratory attendant, who entered by the preparation-room door, carrying a number of freshly killed guineapigs by their hind legs. "this is the last batch of material this session," said the youngster, who had not previously spoken. brooks advanced up the laboratory, smacking down a couple of guineapigs at each table. the rest of the class, scenting the prey from afar, came crowding in by the lecture theatre door, and the discussion perished abruptly as the students who were not already in their places hurried to them to secure the choice of a specimen. there was a noise of keys rattling on split rings as lockers were opened and dissecting instruments taken out. hill was already standing by his table, and his box of scalpels was sticking out of his pocket. the girl in brown came a step towards him, and, leaning over his table, said softly, "did you see that i returned your book, mr. hill?" during the whole scene she and the book had been vividly present in his consciousness; but he made a clumsy pretence of looking at the book and seeing it for the first time. "oh yes," he said, taking it up. "i see. did you like it?" "i want to ask you some questions about it--some time." "certainly," said hill. "i shall be glad." he stopped awkwardly. "you liked it?" he said. "it's a wonderful book. only some things i don't understand." then suddenly the laboratory was hushed by a curious braying noise. it was the demonstrator. he was at the blackboard ready to begin the day's instruction, and it was his custom to demand silence by a sound midway between the "er" of common intercourse and the blast of a trumpet. the girl in brown slipped back to her place: it was immediately in front of hill's, and hill, forgetting her forthwith, took a notebook out of the drawer of his table, turned over its leaves hastily, drew a stumpy pencil from his pocket, and prepared to make a copious note of the coming demonstration. for demonstrations and lectures are the sacred text of the college students. books, saving only the professor's own, you may--it is even expedient to--ignore. * * * * * hill was the son of a landport cobbler, and had been hooked by a chance blue paper the authorities had thrown out to the landport technical college. he kept himself in london on his allowance of a guinea a week, and found that, with proper care, this also covered his clothing allowance, an occasional waterproof collar, that is; and ink and needles and cotton, and such-like necessaries for a man about town. this was his first year and his first session, but the brown old man in landport had already got himself detested in many public-houses by boasting of his son, "the professor." hill was a vigorous youngster, with a serene contempt for the clergy of all denominations, and a fine ambition to reconstruct the world. he regarded his scholarship as a brilliant opportunity. he had begun to read at seven, and had read steadily whatever came in his way, good or bad, since then. his worldly experience had been limited to the island of portsea, and acquired chiefly in the wholesale boot factory in which he had worked by day, after passing the seventh standard of the board school. he had a considerable gift of speech, as the college debating society, which met amidst the crushing machines and mine models in the metallurgical theatre downstairs, already recognised--recognised by a violent battering of desks whenever he rose. and he was just at that fine emotional age when life opens at the end of a narrow pass like a broad valley at one's feet, full of the promise of wonderful discoveries and tremendous achievements. and his own limitations, save that he knew that he knew neither latin nor french, were all unknown to him. at first his interest had been divided pretty equally between his biological work at the college and social and theological theorising, an employment which he took in deadly earnest. of a night, when the big museum library was not open, he would sit on the bed of his room in chelsea with his coat and a muffler on, and write out the lecture notes and revise his dissection memoranda, until thorpe called him out by a whistle,--the landlady objected to open the door to attic visitors,--and then the two would go prowling about the shadowy, shiny, gas-lit streets, talking, very much in the fashion of the sample just given, of the god idea, and righteousness, and carlyle, and the reorganisation of society. and, in the midst of it all, hill, arguing not only for thorpe, but for the casual passer-by, would lose the thread of his argument glancing at some pretty painted face that looked meaningly at him as he passed. science and righteousness! but once or twice lately there had been signs that a third interest was creeping into his life, and he had found his attention wandering from the fate of the mesoblastic somites or the probable meaning of the blastopore, to the thought of the girl with the brown eyes who sat at the table before him. she was a paying student; she descended inconceivable social altitudes to speak to him. at the thought of the education she must have had, and the accomplishments she must possess, the soul of hill became abject within him. she had spoken to him first over a difficulty about the alisphenoid of a rabbit's skull, and he had found that, in biology at least, he had no reason for self-abasement. and from that, after the manner of young people starting from any starting-point, they got to generalities, and while hill attacked her upon the question of socialism,--some instinct told him to spare her a direct assault upon her religion,--she was gathering resolution to undertake what she told herself was his æsthetic education. she was a year or two older than he, though the thought never occurred to him. the loan of _news from nowhere_ was the beginning of a series of cross loans. upon some absurd first principle of his, hill had never "wasted time" upon poetry, and it seemed an appalling deficiency to her. one day in the lunch hour, when she chanced upon him alone in the little museum where the skeletons were arranged, shamefully eating the bun that constituted his midday meal, she retreated, and returned to lend him, with a slightly furtive air, a volume of browning. he stood sideways towards her and took the book rather clumsily, because he was holding the bun in the other hand. and in the retrospect his voice lacked the cheerful clearness he could have wished. that occurred after the examination in comparative anatomy, on the day before the college turned out its students, and was carefully locked up by the officials, for the christmas holidays. the excitement of cramming for the first trial of strength had for a little while dominated hill, to the exclusion of his other interests. in the forecasts of the result in which everyone indulged, he was surprised to find that no one regarded him as a possible competitor for the harvey commemoration medal, of which this and the two subsequent examinations disposed. it was about this time that wedderburn, who so far had lived inconspicuously on the uttermost margin of hill's perceptions, began to take on the appearance of an obstacle. by a mutual agreement, the nocturnal prowlings with thorpe ceased for the three weeks before the examination, and his landlady pointed out that she really could not supply so much lamp oil at the price. he walked to and fro from the college with little slips of mnemonics in his hand, lists of crayfish appendages, rabbits' skull-bones, and vertebrate nerves, for example, and became a positive nuisance to foot passengers in the opposite direction. but, by a natural reaction, poetry and the girl with the brown eyes ruled the christmas holiday. the pending results of the examination became such a secondary consideration that hill marvelled at his father's excitement. even had he wished it, there was no comparative anatomy to read in landport, and he was too poor to buy books, but the stock of poets in the library was extensive, and hill's attack was magnificently sustained. he saturated himself with the fluent numbers of longfellow and tennyson, and fortified himself with shakespeare; found a kindred soul in pope, and a master in shelley, and heard and fled the siren voices of eliza cook and mrs. hemans. but he read no more browning, because he hoped for the loan of other volumes from miss haysman when he returned to london. he walked from his lodgings to the college with that volume of browning in his shiny black bag, and his mind teeming with the finest general propositions about poetry. indeed, he framed first this little speech and then that with which to grace the return. the morning was an exceptionally pleasant one for london; there was a clear, hard frost and undeniable blue in the sky, a thin haze softened every outline, and warm shafts of sunlight struck between the house blocks and turned the sunny side of the street to amber and gold. in the hall of the college he pulled off his glove and signed his name with fingers so stiff with cold that the characteristic dash under the signature he cultivated became a quivering line. he imagined miss haysman about him everywhere. he turned at the staircase, and there, below, he saw a crowd struggling at the foot of the notice-board. this, possibly, was the biology list. he forgot browning and miss haysman for the moment, and joined the scrimmage. and at last, with his cheek flattened against the sleeve of the man on the step above him, he read the list-- class i h. j. somers wedderburn william hill and thereafter followed a second class that is outside our present sympathies. it was characteristic that he did not trouble to look for thorpe on the physics list, but backed out of the struggle at once, and in a curious emotional state between pride over common second-class humanity and acute disappointment at wedderburn's success, went on his way upstairs. at the top, as he was hanging up his coat in the passage, the zoological demonstrator, a young man from oxford, who secretly regarded him as a blatant "mugger" of the very worst type, offered his heartiest congratulations. at the laboratory door hill stopped for a second to get his breath, and then entered. he looked straight up the laboratory and saw all five girl students grouped in their places, and wedderburn, the once retiring wedderburn, leaning rather gracefully against the window, playing with the blind tassel and talking, apparently, to the five of them. now, hill could talk bravely enough and even overbearingly to one girl, and he could have made a speech to a roomful of girls, but this business of standing at ease and appreciating, fencing, and returning quick remarks round a group was, he knew, altogether beyond him. coming up the staircase his feelings for wedderburn had been generous, a certain admiration perhaps, a willingness to shake his hand conspicuously and heartily as one who had fought but the first round. but before christmas wedderburn had never gone up to that end of the room to talk. in a flash hill's mist of vague excitement condensed abruptly to a vivid dislike of wedderburn. possibly his expression changed. as he came up to his place, wedderburn nodded carelessly to him, and the others glanced round. miss haysman looked at him and away again, the faintest touch of her eyes. "i can't agree with you, mr. wedderburn," she said. "i must congratulate you on your first class, mr. hill," said the spectacled girl in green, turning round and beaming at him. "it's nothing," said hill, staring at wedderburn and miss haysman talking together, and eager to hear what they talked about. "we poor folks in the second class don't think so," said the girl in spectacles. what was it wedderburn was saying? something about william morris! hill did not answer the girl in spectacles, and the smile died out of his face. he could not hear, and failed to see how he could "cut in." confound wedderburn! he sat down, opened his bag, hesitated whether to return the volume of browning forthwith, in the sight of all, and instead drew out his new notebooks for the short course in elementary botany that was now beginning, and which would terminate in february. as he did so, a fat, heavy man, with a white face and pale grey eyes, bindon, the professor of botany, who came up from kew for january and february, came in by the lecture theatre door, and passed, rubbing his hands together and smiling, in silent affability down the laboratory. * * * * * in the subsequent six weeks hill experienced some very rapid and curiously complex emotional developments. for the most part he had wedderburn in focus--a fact that miss haysman never suspected. she told hill (for in the comparative privacy of the museum she talked a good deal to him of socialism and browning and general propositions) that she had met wedderburn at the house of some people she knew, and "he's inherited his cleverness; for his father, you know, is the great eye specialist." "_my_ father is a cobbler," said hill, quite irrelevantly, and perceived the want of dignity even as he said it. but the gleam of jealousy did not offend her. she conceived herself the fundamental source of it. he suffered bitterly from a sense of wedderburn's unfairness, and a realisation of his own handicap. here was this wedderburn had picked up a prominent man for a father, and instead of his losing so many marks on the score of that advantage, it was counted to him for righteousness! and while hill had to introduce himself and talk to miss haysman clumsily over mangled guineapigs in the laboratory, this wedderburn, in some backstairs way, had access to her social altitudes, and could converse in a polished argot that hill understood perhaps, but felt incapable of speaking. not, of course, that he wanted to. then it seemed to hill that for wedderburn to come there day after day with cuffs unfrayed, neatly tailored, precisely barbered, quietly perfect, was in itself an ill-bred, sneering sort of proceeding. moreover, it was a stealthy thing for wedderburn to behave insignificantly for a space, to mock modesty, to lead hill to fancy that he himself was beyond dispute the man of the year, and then suddenly to dart in front of him, and incontinently to swell up in this fashion. in addition to these things, wedderburn displayed an increasing disposition to join in any conversational grouping that included miss haysman, and would venture, and indeed seek occasion, to pass opinions derogatory to socialism and atheism. he goaded hill to incivilities by neat, shallow, and exceedingly effective personalities about the socialist leaders, until hill hated bernard shaw's graceful egotisms, william morris's limited editions and luxurious wall-papers, and walter crane's charmingly absurd ideal working men, about as much as he hated wedderburn. the dissertations in the laboratory, that had been his glory in the previous term, became a danger, degenerated into inglorious tussles with wedderburn, and hill kept to them only out of an obscure perception that his honour was involved. in the debating society hill knew quite clearly that, to a thunderous accompaniment of banged desks, he could have pulverised wedderburn. only wedderburn never attended the debating society to be pulverised, because--nauseous affectation!--he "dined late." you must not imagine that these things presented themselves in quite such a crude form to hill's perception. hill was a born generaliser. wedderburn to him was not so much an individual obstacle as a type, the salient angle of a class. the economic theories that, after infinite ferment, had shaped themselves in hill's mind, became abruptly concrete at the contact. the world became full of easy-mannered, graceful, gracefully-dressed, conversationally dexterous, finally shallow wedderburns, bishops wedderburn, wedderburn m.p.'s, professors wedderburn, wedderburn landlords, all with finger-bowl shibboleths and epigrammatic cities of refuge from a sturdy debater. and everyone ill-clothed or ill-dressed, from the cobbler to the cab-runner, was a man and a brother, a fellow-sufferer, to hill's imagination. so that he became, as it were, a champion of the fallen and oppressed, albeit to outward seeming only a self-assertive, ill-mannered young man, and an unsuccessful champion at that. again and again a skirmish over the afternoon tea that the girl students had inaugurated, left hill with flushed cheeks and a tattered temper, and the debating society noticed a new quality of sarcastic bitterness in his speeches. you will understand now how it was necessary, if only in the interests of humanity, that hill should demolish wedderburn in the forthcoming examination and outshine him in the eyes of miss haysman; and you will perceive, too, how miss haysman fell into some common feminine misconceptions. the hill-wedderburn quarrel, for in his unostentatious way wedderburn reciprocated hill's ill-veiled rivalry, became a tribute to her indefinable charm; she was the queen of beauty in a tournament of scalpels and stumpy pencils. to her confidential friend's secret annoyance, it even troubled her conscience, for she was a good girl, and painfully aware, from ruskin and contemporary fiction, how entirely men's activities are determined by women's attitudes. and if hill never by any chance mentioned the topic of love to her, she only credited him with the finer modesty for that omission. so the time came on for the second examination, and hill's increasing pallor confirmed the general rumour that he was working hard. in the aërated bread shop near south kensington station you would see him, breaking his bun and sipping his milk, with his eyes intent upon a paper of closely written notes. in his bedroom there were propositions about buds and stems round his looking-glass, a diagram to catch his eye, if soap should chance to spare it, above his washing basin. he missed several meetings of the debating society, but he found the chance encounters with miss haysman in the spacious ways of the adjacent art museum, or in the little museum at the top of the college, or in the college corridors, more frequent and very restful. in particular, they used to meet in a little gallery full of wrought-iron chests and gates, near the art library, and there hill used to talk, under the gentle stimulus of her flattering attention, of browning and his personal ambitions. a characteristic she found remarkable in him was his freedom from avarice. he contemplated quite calmly the prospect of living all his life on an income below a hundred pounds a year. but he was determined to be famous, to make, recognisably in his own proper person, the world a better place to live in. he took bradlaugh and john burns for his leaders and models, poor, even impecunious, great men. but miss haysman thought that such lives were deficient on the æsthetic side, by which, though she did not know it, she meant good wall-paper and upholstery, pretty books, tasteful clothes, concerts, and meals nicely cooked and respectfully served. at last came the day of the second examination, and the professor of botany, a fussy, conscientious man, rearranged all the tables in a long narrow laboratory to prevent copying, and put his demonstrator on a chair on a table (where he felt, he said, like a hindoo god), to see all the cheating, and stuck a notice outside the door, "door closed," for no earthly reason that any human being could discover. and all the morning from ten till one the quill of wedderburn shrieked defiance at hill's, and the quills of the others chased their leaders in a tireless pack, and so also it was in the afternoon. wedderburn was a little quieter than usual, and hill's face was hot all day, and his overcoat bulged with textbooks and notebooks against the last moment's revision. and the next day, in the morning and in the afternoon, was the practical examination, when sections had to be cut and slides identified. in the morning hill was depressed because he knew he had cut a thick section, and in the afternoon came the mysterious slip. it was just the kind of thing that the botanical professor was always doing. like the income tax, it offered a premium to the cheat. it was a preparation under the microscope, a little glass slip, held in its place on the stage of the instrument by light steel clips, and the inscription set forth that the slip was not to be moved. each student was to go in turn to it, sketch it, write in his book of answers what he considered it to be, and return to his place. now, to move such a slip is a thing one can do by a chance movement of the finger, and in a fraction of a second. the professor's reason for decreeing that the slip should not be moved depended on the fact that the object he wanted identified was characteristic of a certain tree stem. in the position in which it was placed it was a difficult thing to recognise, but once the slip was moved so as to bring other parts of the preparation into view, its nature was obvious enough. hill came to this, flushed from a contest with staining re-agents, sat down on the little stool before the microscope, turned the mirror to get the best light, and then, out of sheer habit, shifted the slip. at once he remembered the prohibition, and, with an almost continuous motion of his hands, moved it back, and sat paralysed with astonishment at his action. then, slowly, he turned his head. the professor was out of the room; the demonstrator sat aloft on his impromptu rostrum, reading the _q. jour. mi. sci._; the rest of the examinees were busy, and with their backs to him. should he own up to the accident now? he knew quite clearly what the thing was. it was a lenticel, a characteristic preparation from the elder-tree. his eyes roved over his intent fellow-students, and wedderburn suddenly glanced over his shoulder at him with a queer expression in his eyes. the mental excitement that had kept hill at an abnormal pitch of vigour these two days gave way to a curious nervous tension. his book of answers was beside him. he did not write down what the thing was, but with one eye at the microscope he began making a hasty sketch of it. his mind was full of this grotesque puzzle in ethics that had suddenly been sprung upon him. should he identify it? or should he leave this question unanswered? in that case wedderburn would probably come out first in the second result. how could he tell now whether he might not have identified the thing without shifting it? it was possible that wedderburn had failed to recognise it, of course. suppose wedderburn too had shifted the slide? he looked up at the clock. there were fifteen minutes in which to make up his mind. he gathered up his book of answers and the coloured pencils he used in illustrating his replies, and walked back to his seat. he read through his manuscript, and then sat thinking and gnawing his knuckle. it would look queer now if he owned up. he _must_ beat wedderburn. he forgot the examples of those starry gentlemen, john burns and bradlaugh. besides, he reflected, the glimpse of the rest of the slip he had had was, after all, quite accidental, forced upon him by chance, a kind of providential revelation rather than an unfair advantage. it was not nearly so dishonest to avail himself of that as it was of broome, who believed in the efficacy of prayer, to pray daily for a first-class. "five minutes more," said the demonstrator, folding up his paper and becoming observant. hill watched the clock hands until two minutes remained; then he opened the book of answers, and, with hot ears and an affectation of ease, gave his drawing of the lenticel its name. when the second pass list appeared, the previous positions of wedderburn and hill were reversed, and the spectacled girl in green, who knew the demonstrator in private life (where he was practically human), said that in the result of the two examinations taken together hill had the advantage of a mark-- to out of a possible . everyone admired hill in a way, though the suspicion of "mugging" clung to him. but hill was to find congratulations and miss haysman's enhanced opinion of him, and even the decided decline in the crest of wedderburn, tainted by an unhappy memory. he felt a remarkable access of energy at first, and the note of a democracy marching to triumph returned to his debating society speeches; he worked at his comparative anatomy with tremendous zeal and effect, and he went on with his æsthetic education. but through it all, a vivid little picture was continually coming before his mind's eye--of a sneakish person manipulating a slide. no human being had witnessed the act, and he was cocksure that no higher power existed to see it; but for all that it worried him. memories are not dead things, but alive; they dwindle in disuse, but they harden and develop in all sorts of queer ways if they are being continually fretted. curiously enough, though at the time he perceived clearly that the shifting was accidental, as the days wore on, his memory became confused about it, until at last he was not sure--although he assured himself that he _was_ sure--whether the movement had been absolutely involuntary. then it is possible that hill's dietary was conducive to morbid conscientiousness; a breakfast frequently eaten in a hurry, a midday bun, and, at such hours after five as chanced to be convenient, such meat as his means determined, usually in a chophouse in a back street off the brompton road. occasionally he treated himself to threepenny or ninepenny classics, and they usually represented a suppression of potatoes or chops. it is indisputable that outbreaks of self-abasement and emotional revival have a distinct relation to periods of scarcity. but apart from this influence on the feelings, there was in hill a distinct aversion to falsity that the blasphemous landport cobbler had inculcated by strap and tongue from his earliest years. of one fact about professed atheists i am convinced; they may be--they usually are--fools, void of subtlety, revilers of holy institutions, brutal speakers, and mischievous knaves, but they lie with difficulty. if it were not so, if they had the faintest grasp of the idea of compromise, they would simply be liberal churchmen. and, moreover, this memory poisoned his regard for miss haysman. for she now so evidently preferred him to wedderburn that he felt sure he cared for her, and began reciprocating her attentions by timid marks of personal regard; at one time he even bought a bunch of violets, carried it about in his pocket, and produced it, with a stumbling explanation, withered and dead, in the gallery of old iron. it poisoned, too, the denunciation of capitalist dishonesty that had been one of his life's pleasures. and, lastly, it poisoned his triumph in wedderburn. previously he had been wedderburn's superior in his own eyes, and had raged simply at a want of recognition. now he began to fret at the darker suspicion of positive inferiority. he fancied he found justifications for his position in browning, but they vanished on analysis. at last--moved, curiously enough, by exactly the same motive forces that had resulted in his dishonesty--he went to professor bindon, and made a clean breast of the whole affair. as hill was a paid student, professor bindon did not ask him to sit down, and he stood before the professor's desk as he made his confession. "it's a curious story," said professor bindon, slowly realising how the thing reflected on himself, and then letting his anger rise,--"a most remarkable story. i can't understand your doing it, and i can't understand this avowal. you're a type of student--cambridge men would never dream--i suppose i ought to have thought--why _did_ you cheat?" "i didn't--cheat," said hill. "but you have just been telling me you did." "i thought i explained"-- "either you cheated or you did not cheat." "i said my motion was involuntary." "i am not a metaphysician, i am a servant of science--of fact. you were told not to move the slip. you did move the slip. if that is not cheating"-- "if i was a cheat," said hill, with the note of hysterics in his voice, "should i come here and tell you?" "your repentance, of course, does you credit," said professor bindon, "but it does not alter the original facts." "no, sir," said hill, giving in in utter self-abasement. "even now you cause an enormous amount of trouble. the examination list will have to be revised." "i suppose so, sir." "suppose so? of course it must be revised. and i don't see how i can conscientiously pass you." "not pass me?" said hill. "fail me?" "it's the rule in all examinations. or where should we be? what else did you expect? you don't want to shirk the consequences of your own acts?" "i thought, perhaps"--said hill. and then, "fail me? i thought, as i told you, you would simply deduct the marks given for that slip." "impossible!" said bindon. "besides, it would still leave you above wedderburn. deduct only the marks--preposterous! the departmental regulations distinctly say"-- "but it's my own admission, sir." "the regulations say nothing whatever of the manner in which the matter comes to light. they simply provide"-- "it will ruin me. if i fail this examination, they won't renew my scholarship." "you should have thought of that before." "but, sir, consider all my circumstances"-- "i cannot consider anything. professors in this college are machines. the regulations will not even let us recommend our students for appointments. i am a machine, and you have worked me. i have to do"-- "it's very hard, sir." "possibly it is." "if i am to be failed this examination, i might as well go home at once." "that is as you think proper." bindon's voice softened a little; he perceived he had been unjust, and, provided he did not contradict himself, he was disposed to amelioration, "as a private person," he said, "i think this confession of yours goes far to mitigate your offence. but you have set the machinery in motion, and now it must take its course. i--i am really sorry you gave way." a wave of emotion prevented hill from answering. suddenly, very vividly, he saw the heavily-lined face of the old landport cobbler, his father. "good god! what a fool i have been!" he said hotly and abruptly. "i hope," said bindon, "that it will be a lesson to you." but, curiously enough, they were not thinking of quite the same indiscretion. there was a pause. "i would like a day to think, sir, and then i will let you know--about going home, i mean," said hill, moving towards the door. * * * * * the next day hill's place was vacant. the spectacled girl in green was, as usual, first with the news. wedderburn and miss haysman were talking of a performance of _the meistersingers_ when she came up to them. "have you heard?" she said. "heard what?" "there was cheating in the examination." "cheating!" said wedderburn, with his face suddenly hot. "how?" "that slide"-- "moved? never!" "it was. that slide that we weren't to move"-- "nonsense!" said wedderburn. "why! how could they find out? who do they say--?" "it was mr. hill." "_hill!_" "mr. hill!" "not--surely not the immaculate hill?" said wedderburn, recovering. "i don't believe it," said miss haysman. "how do you know?" "i _didn't_," said the girl in spectacles. "but i know it now for a fact. mr. hill went and confessed to professor bindon himself." "by jove!" said wedderburn. "hill of all people. but i am always inclined to distrust these philanthropists-on-principle"-- "are you quite sure?" said miss haysman, with a catch in her breath. "quite. it's dreadful, isn't it? but, you know, what can you expect? his father is a cobbler." then miss haysman astonished the girl in spectacles. "i don't care. i will not believe it," she said, flushing darkly under her warm-tinted skin. "i will not believe it until he has told me so himself--face to face. i would scarcely believe it then," and abruptly she turned her back on the girl in spectacles, and walked to her own place. "it's true, all the same," said the girl in spectacles, peering and smiling at wedderburn. but wedderburn did not answer her. she was indeed one of those people who seem destined to make unanswered remarks. the end printed by morrison and gibb limited, edinburgh transcriber's note words in italics were surrounded with _underscores_ and small capitals changed to all capitals. the original has been preserved, except for the following corrections, on page "contion" changed to "condition" (in an extremely dishevelled condition.) , changed to . (parables rather. do you mean) . added (but it hit _him_. yes, ma'am) " removed (was his silly name for me.) beginning double quotes added and nested double quotes changed to single quotes ("'have you read it?' ... 'the bravest and the best,' said i again). additional: the book mentioned on page "smiles' elp yourself" is an existing book "self help; with illustrations of conduct and perseverance" by samuel smiles, to be found on project gutenberg as ebook number . the wonderful visit * * * * * by the same author the time machine daily chronicle.--"grips the imagination as it is only gripped by genuinely imaginative work.... a strikingly original performance." saturday review.--"a book of remarkable power and imagination, and a work of distinct and individual merit." spectator.--"mr wells' fanciful and lively dream is well worth reading." national observer.--"a _tour de force_.... a fine piece of literature, strongly imagined, almost perfectly expressed." glasgow herald.--"one of the best pieces of work i have read for many a day." * * * * * macmillan's colonial library the wonderful visit by h. g. wells author of the "time machine" london macmillan and co. and new york no. _all rights reserved_ this edition is intended for circulation only in india and the british colonies to the memory of my dear friend, walter low. contents page the night of the strange bird the coming of the strange bird the hunting of the strange bird the vicar and the angel parenthesis on angels at the vicarage the man of science the curate after dinner morning the violin the angel explores the village lady hammergallow's view further adventures of the angel in the village mrs jehoram's breadth of view a trivial incident the warp and the woof of things the angel's debut the trouble of the barbed wire delia doctor crump acts sir john gotch acts the sea cliff mrs hinijer acts the angel in trouble the last day of the visit the epilogue the wonderful visit. the night of the strange bird. i. on the night of the strange bird, many people at sidderton (and some nearer) saw a glare on the sidderford moor. but no one in sidderford saw it, for most of sidderford was abed. all day the wind had been rising, so that the larks on the moor chirruped fitfully near the ground, or rose only to be driven like leaves before the wind. the sun set in a bloody welter of clouds, and the moon was hidden. the glare, they say, was golden like a beam shining out of the sky, not a uniform blaze, but broken all over by curving flashes like the waving of swords. it lasted but a moment and left the night dark and obscure. there were letters about it in _nature_, and a rough drawing that no one thought very like. (you may see it for yourself--the drawing that was unlike the glare--on page of vol. cclx. of that publication.) none in sidderford saw the light, but annie, hooker durgan's wife, was lying awake, and she saw the reflection of it--a flickering tongue of gold--dancing on the wall. she, too, was one of those who heard the sound. the others who heard the sound were lumpy durgan, the half-wit, and amory's mother. they said it was a sound like children singing and a throbbing of harp strings, carried on a rush of notes like that which sometimes comes from an organ. it began and ended like the opening and shutting of a door, and before and after they heard nothing but the night wind howling over the moor and the noise of the caves under sidderford cliff. amory's mother said she wanted to cry when she heard it, but lumpy was only sorry he could hear no more. that is as much as anyone can tell you of the glare upon sidderford moor and the alleged music therewith. and whether these had any real connexion with the strange bird whose history follows, is more than i can say. but i set it down here for reasons that will be more apparent as the story proceeds. the coming of the strange bird. ii. sandy bright was coming down the road from spinner's carrying a side of bacon he had taken in exchange for a clock. he saw nothing of the light but he heard and saw the strange bird. he suddenly heard a flapping and a voice like a woman wailing, and being a nervous man and all alone, he was alarmed forthwith, and turning (all a-tremble) saw something large and black against the dim darkness of the cedars up the hill. it seemed to be coming right down upon him, and incontinently he dropped his bacon and set off running, only to fall headlong. he tried in vain--such was his state of mind--to remember the beginning of the lord's prayer. the strange bird flapped over him, something larger than himself, with a vast spread of wings, and, as he thought, black. he screamed and gave himself up for lost. then it went past him, sailing down the hill, and, soaring over the vicarage, vanished into the hazy valley towards sidderford. and sandy bright lay upon his stomach there, for ever so long, staring into the darkness after the strange bird. at last he got upon his knees and began to thank heaven for his merciful deliverance, with his eyes downhill. he went on down into the village, talking aloud and confessing his sins as he went, lest the strange bird should come back. all who heard him thought him drunk. but from that night he was a changed man, and had done with drunkenness and defrauding the revenue by selling silver ornaments without a licence. and the side of bacon lay upon the hillside until the tallyman from portburdock found it in the morning. the next who saw the strange bird was a solicitor's clerk at iping hanger, who was climbing the hill before breakfast, to see the sunrise. save for a few dissolving wisps of cloud the sky had been blown clear in the night. at first he thought it was an eagle he saw. it was near the zenith, and incredibly remote, a mere bright speck above the pink cirri, and it seemed as if it fluttered and beat itself against the sky, as an imprisoned swallow might do against a window pane. then down it came into the shadow of the earth, sweeping in a great curve towards portburdock and round over the hanger, and so vanishing behind the woods of siddermorton park. it seemed larger than a man. just before it was hidden, the light of the rising sun smote over the edge of the downs and touched its wings, and they flashed with the brightness of flames and the colour of precious stones, and so passed, leaving the witness agape. a ploughman going to his work, along under the stone wall of siddermorton park, saw the strange bird flash over him for a moment and vanish among the hazy interstices of the beech trees. but he saw little of the colour of the wings, witnessing only that its legs, which were long, seemed pink and bare like naked flesh, and its body mottled white. it smote like an arrow through the air and was gone. these were the first three eye-witnesses of the strange bird. now in these days one does not cower before the devil and one's own sinfulness, or see strange iridiscent wings in the light of dawn, and say nothing of it afterwards. the young solicitor's clerk told his mother and sisters at breakfast, and, afterwards, on his way to the office at portburdock, spoke of it to the blacksmith of hammerpond, and spent the morning with his fellow clerks marvelling instead of copying deeds. and sandy bright went to talk the matter over with mr jekyll, the "primitive" minister, and the ploughman told old hugh and afterwards the vicar of siddermorton. "they are not an imaginative race about here," said the vicar of siddermorton, "i wonder how much of that was true. barring that he thinks the wings were brown it sounds uncommonly like a flamingo." the hunting of the strange bird. iii. the vicar of siddermorton (which is nine miles inland from siddermouth as the crow flies) was an ornithologist. some such pursuit, botany, antiquity, folk-lore, is almost inevitable for a single man in his position. he was given to geometry also, propounding occasionally impossible problems in the _educational times_, but ornithology was his _forte_. he had already added two visitors to the list of occasional british birds. his name was well-known in the columns of the _zoologist_ (i am afraid it may be forgotten by now, for the world moves apace). and on the day after the coming of the strange bird, came first one and then another to confirm the ploughman's story and tell him, not that it had any connection, of the glare upon sidderford moor. now, the vicar of siddermorton had two rivals in his scientific pursuits; gully of sidderton, who had actually seen the glare, and who it was sent the drawing to _nature_, and borland the natural history dealer, who kept the marine laboratory at portburdock. borland, the vicar thought, should have stuck to his copepods, but instead he kept a taxidermist, and took advantage of his littoral position to pick up rare sea birds. it was evident to anyone who knew anything of collecting that both these men would be scouring the country after the strange visitant, before twenty-four hours were out. the vicar's eye rested on the back of saunders' british birds, for he was in his study at the time. already in two places there was entered: "the only known british specimen was secured by the rev. k. hilyer, vicar of siddermorton." a third such entry. he doubted if any other collector had that. he looked at his watch--_two_. he had just lunched, and usually he "rested" in the afternoon. he knew it would make him feel very disagreeable if he went out into the hot sunshine--both on the top of his head and generally. yet gully perhaps was out, prowling observant. suppose it was something very good and gully got it! his gun stood in the corner. (the thing had iridiscent wings and pink legs! the chromatic conflict was certainly exceedingly stimulating). he took his gun. he would have gone out by the glass doors and verandah, and down the garden into the hill road, in order to avoid his housekeeper's eye. he knew his gun expeditions were not approved of. but advancing towards him up the garden, he saw the curate's wife and her two daughters, carrying tennis rackets. his curate's wife was a young woman of immense will, who used to play tennis on his lawn, and cut his roses, differ from him on doctrinal points, and criticise his personal behaviour all over the parish. he went in abject fear of her, was always trying to propitiate her. but so far he had clung to his ornithology.... however, he went out by the front door. iv. if it were not for collectors england would be full, so to speak, of rare birds and wonderful butterflies, strange flowers and a thousand interesting things. but happily the collector prevents all that, either killing with his own hands or, by buying extravagantly, procuring people of the lower classes to kill such eccentricities as appear. it makes work for people, even though acts of parliament interfere. in this way, for instance, he is killing off the chough in cornwall, the bath white butterfly, the queen of spain fritillary; and can plume himself upon the extermination of the great auk, and a hundred other rare birds and plants and insects. all that is the work of the collector and his glory alone. in the name of science. and this is right and as it should be; eccentricity, in fact, is immorality--think over it again if you do not think so now--just as eccentricity in one's way of thinking is madness (i defy you to find another definition that will fit all the cases of either); and if a species is rare it follows that it is not fitted to survive. the collector is after all merely like the foot soldier in the days of heavy armour--he leaves the combatants alone and cuts the throats of those who are overthrown. so one may go through england from end to end in the summer time and see only eight or ten commonplace wild flowers, and the commoner butterflies, and a dozen or so common birds, and never be offended by any breach of the monotony, any splash of strange blossom or flutter of unknown wing. all the rest have been "collected" years ago. for which cause we should all love collectors, and bear in mind what we owe them when their little collections are displayed. these camphorated little drawers of theirs, their glass cases and blotting-paper books, are the graves of the rare and the beautiful, the symbols of the triumph of leisure (morally spent) over the delights of life. (all of which, as you very properly remark, has nothing whatever to do with the strange bird.) v. there is a place on the moor where the black water shines among the succulent moss, and the hairy sundew, eater of careless insects, spreads its red-stained hungry hands to the god who gives his creatures--one to feed another. on a ridge thereby grow birches with a silvery bark, and the soft green of the larch mingles with the dark green fir. thither through the honey humming heather came the vicar, in the heat of the day, carrying a gun under his arm, a gun loaded with swanshot for the strange bird. and over his disengaged hand he carried a pocket handkerchief wherewith, ever and again, he wiped his beady face. he went by and on past the big pond and the pool full of brown leaves where the sidder arises, and so by the road (which is at first sandy and then chalky) to the little gate that goes into the park. there are seven steps up to the gate and on the further side six down again--lest the deer escape--so that when the vicar stood in the gateway his head was ten feet or more above the ground. and looking where a tumult of bracken fronds filled the hollow between two groups of beech, his eye caught something parti-coloured that wavered and went. suddenly his face gleamed and his muscles grew tense; he ducked his head, clutched his gun with both hands, and stood still. then watching keenly, he came on down the steps into the park, and still holding his gun in both hands, crept rather than walked towards the jungle of bracken. nothing stirred, and he almost feared that his eyes had played him false, until he reached the ferns and had gone rustling breast high into them. then suddenly rose something full of wavering colours, twenty yards or less in front of his face, and beating the air. in another moment it had fluttered above the bracken and spread its pinions wide. he saw what it was, his heart was in his mouth, and he fired out of pure surprise and habit. there was a scream of superhuman agony, the wings beat the air twice, and the victim came slanting swiftly downward and struck the ground--a struggling heap of writhing body, broken wing and flying bloodstained plumes--upon the turfy slope behind. the vicar stood aghast, with his smoking gun in his hand. it was no bird at all, but a youth with an extremely beautiful face, clad in a robe of saffron and with iridescent wings, across whose pinions great waves of colour, flushes of purple and crimson, golden green and intense blue, pursued one another as he writhed in his agony. never had the vicar seen such gorgeous floods of colour, not stained glass windows, not the wings of butterflies, not even the glories of crystals seen between prisms, no colours on earth could compare with them. twice the angel raised himself, only to fall over sideways again. then the beating of the wings diminished, the terrified face grew pale, the floods of colour abated, and suddenly with a sob he lay prone, and the changing hues of the broken wings faded swiftly into one uniform dull grey hue. "oh! _what_ has happened to me?" cried the angel (for such it was), shuddering violently, hands outstretched and clutching the ground, and then lying still. "dear me!" said the vicar. "i had no idea." he came forward cautiously. "excuse me," he said, "i am afraid i have shot you." it was the obvious remark. the angel seemed to become aware of his presence for the first time. he raised himself by one hand, his brown eyes stared into the vicar's. then, with a gasp, and biting his nether lip, he struggled into a sitting position and surveyed the vicar from top to toe. "a man!" said the angel, clasping his forehead; "a man in the maddest black clothes and without a feather upon him. then i was not deceived. i am indeed in the land of dreams!" the vicar and the angel. vi. now there are some things frankly impossible. the weakest intellect will admit this situation is impossible. the _athenæum_ will probably say as much should it venture to review this. sunbespattered ferns, spreading beech trees, the vicar and the gun are acceptable enough. but this angel is a different matter. plain sensible people will scarcely go on with such an extravagant book. and the vicar fully appreciated this impossibility. but he lacked decision. consequently he went on with it, as you shall immediately hear. he was hot, it was after dinner, he was in no mood for mental subtleties. the angel had him at a disadvantage, and further distracted him from the main issue by irrelevant iridescence and a violent fluttering. for the moment it never occurred to the vicar to ask whether the angel was possible or not. he accepted him in the confusion of the moment, and the mischief was done. put yourself in his place, my dear _athenæum_. you go out shooting. you hit something. that alone would disconcert you. you find you have hit an angel, and he writhes about for a minute and then sits up and addresses you. he makes no apology for his own impossibility. indeed, he carries the charge clean into your camp. "a man!" he says, pointing. "a man in the maddest black clothes and without a feather upon him. then i was not deceived. i am indeed in the land of dreams!" you _must_ answer him. unless you take to your heels. or blow his brains out with your second barrel as an escape from the controversy. "the land of dreams! pardon me if i suggest you have just come out of it," was the vicar's remark. "how can that be?" said the angel. "your wing," said the vicar, "is bleeding. before we talk, may i have the pleasure--the melancholy pleasure--of tying it up? i am really most sincerely sorry...." the angel put his hand behind his back and winced. the vicar assisted his victim to stand up. the angel turned gravely and the vicar, with numberless insignificant panting parentheses, carefully examined the injured wings. (they articulated, he observed with interest, to a kind of second glenoid on the outer and upper edge of the shoulder blade. the left wing had suffered little except the loss of some of the primary wing-quills, and a shot or so in the _ala spuria_, but the humerus bone of the right was evidently smashed.) the vicar stanched the bleeding as well as he could and tied up the bone with his pocket handkerchief and the neck wrap his housekeeper made him carry in all weathers. "i'm afraid you will not be able to fly for some time," said he, feeling the bone. "i don't like this new sensation," said the angel. "the pain when i feel your bone?" "the _what_?" said the angel. "the pain." "'pain'--you call it. no, i certainly don't like the pain. do you have much of this pain in the land of dreams?" "a very fair share," said the vicar. "is it new to you?" "quite," said the angel. "i don't like it." "how curious!" said the vicar, and bit at the end of a strip of linen to tie a knot. "i think this bandaging must serve for the present," he said. "i've studied ambulance work before, but never the bandaging up of wing wounds. is your pain any better?" "it glows now instead of flashing," said the angel. "i am afraid you will find it glow for some time," said the vicar, still intent on the wound. the angel gave a shrug of the wing and turned round to look at the vicar again. he had been trying to keep an eye on the vicar over his shoulder during all their interview. he looked at him from top to toe with raised eyebrows and a growing smile on his beautiful soft-featured face. "it seems so odd," he said with a sweet little laugh, "to be talking to a man!" "do you know," said the vicar, "now that i come to think of it, it is equally odd to me that i should be talking to an angel. i am a somewhat matter-of-fact person. a vicar has to be. angels i have always regarded as--artistic conceptions----" "exactly what we think of men." "but surely you have seen so many men----" "never before to-day. in pictures and books, times enough of course. but i have seen several since the sunrise, solid real men, besides a horse or so--those unicorn things you know, without horns--and quite a number of those grotesque knobby things called 'cows.' i was naturally a little frightened at so many mythical monsters, and came to hide here until it was dark. i suppose it will be dark again presently like it was at first. _phew!_ this pain of yours is poor fun. i hope i shall wake up directly." "i don't understand quite," said the vicar, knitting his brows and tapping his forehead with his flat hand. "mythical monster!" the worst thing he had been called for years hitherto was a 'mediaeval anachronism' (by an advocate of disestablishment). "do i understand that you consider me as--as something in a dream?" "of course," said the angel smiling. "and this world about me, these rugged trees and spreading fronds----" "is all so _very_ dream like," said the angel. "just exactly what one dreams of--or artists imagine." "you have artists then among the angels?" "all kinds of artists, angels with wonderful imaginations, who invent men and cows and eagles and a thousand impossible creatures." "impossible creatures!" said the vicar. "impossible creatures," said the angel. "myths." "but i'm real!" said the vicar. "i assure you i'm real." the angel shrugged his wings and winced and smiled. "i can always tell when i am dreaming," he said. "_you_--dreaming," said the vicar. he looked round him. "_you_ dreaming!" he repeated. his mind worked diffusely. he held out his hand with all his fingers moving. "i have it!" he said. "i begin to see." a really brilliant idea was dawning upon his mind. he had not studied mathematics at cambridge for nothing, after all. "tell me please. some animals of _your_ world ... of the real world, real animals you know." "real animals!" said the angel smiling. "why--there's griffins and dragons--and jabberwocks--and cherubim--and sphinxes--and the hippogriff--and mermaids--and satyrs--and...." "thank you," said the vicar as the angel appeared to be warming to his work; "thank you. that is _quite_ enough. i begin to understand." he paused for a moment, his face pursed up. "yes ... i begin to see it." "see what?" asked the angel. "the griffins and satyrs and so forth. it's as clear...." "i don't see them," said the angel. "no, the whole point is they are not to be seen in this world. but our men with imaginations have told us all about them, you know. and even i at times ... there are places in this village where you must simply take what they set before you, or give offence--i, i say, have seen in my dreams jabberwocks, bogle brutes, mandrakes.... from our point of view, you know, they are dream creatures...." "dream creatures!" said the angel. "how singular! this is a very curious dream. a kind of topsy-turvey one. you call men real and angels a myth. it almost makes one think that in some odd way there must be two worlds as it were...." "at least two," said the vicar. "lying somewhere close together, and yet scarcely suspecting...." "as near as page to page of a book." "penetrating each other, living each its own life. this is really a delicious dream!" "and never dreaming of each other." "except when people go a dreaming!" "yes," said the angel thoughtfully. "it must be something of the sort. and that reminds me. sometimes when i have been dropping asleep, or drowsing under the noon-tide sun, i have seen strange corrugated faces just like yours, going by me, and trees with green leaves upon them, and such queer uneven ground as this.... it must be so. i have fallen into another world." "sometimes," began the vicar, "at bedtime, when i have been just on the edge of consciousness, i have seen faces as beautiful as yours, and the strange dazzling vistas of a wonderful scene, that flowed past me, winged shapes soaring over it, and wonderful--sometimes terrible--forms going to and fro. i have even heard sweet music too in my ears.... it may be that as we withdraw our attention from the world of sense, the pressing world about us, as we pass into the twilight of repose, other worlds.... just as we see the stars, those other worlds in space, when the glare of day recedes.... and the artistic dreamers who see such things most clearly...." they looked at one another. "and in some incomprehensible manner i have fallen into this world of yours out of my own!" said the angel, "into the world of my dreams, grown real." he looked about him. "into the world of my dreams." "it is confusing," said the vicar. "it almost makes one think there may be (ahem) four dimensions after all. in which case, of course," he went on hurriedly--for he loved geometrical speculations and took a certain pride in his knowledge of them--"there may be any number of three dimensional universes packed side by side, and all dimly dreaming of one another. there may be world upon world, universe upon universe. it's perfectly possible. there's nothing so incredible as the absolutely possible. but i wonder how you came to fall out of your world into mine...." "dear me!" said the angel; "there's deer and a stag! just as they draw them on the coats of arms. how grotesque it all seems! can i really be awake?" he rubbed his knuckles into his eyes. the half-dozen of dappled deer came in indian file obliquely through the trees and halted, watching. "it's no dream--i am really a solid concrete angel, in dream land," said the angel. he laughed. the vicar stood surveying him. the reverend gentleman was pulling his mouth askew after a habit he had, and slowly stroking his chin. he was asking himself whether he too was not in the land of dreams. vii. now in the land of the angels, so the vicar learnt in the course of many conversations, there is neither pain nor trouble nor death, marrying nor giving in marriage, birth nor forgetting. only at times new things begin. it is a land without hill or dale, a wonderfully level land, glittering with strange buildings, with incessant sunlight or full moon, and with incessant breezes blowing through the Ã�olian traceries of the trees. it is wonderland, with glittering seas hanging in the sky, across which strange fleets go sailing, none know whither. there the flowers glow in heaven and the stars shine about one's feet and the breath of life is a delight. the land goes on for ever--there is no solar system nor interstellar space such as there is in our universe--and the air goes upward past the sun into the uttermost abyss of their sky. and there is nothing but beauty there--all the beauty in our art is but feeble rendering of faint glimpses of that wonderful world, and our composers, our original composers, are those who hear, however faintly, the dust of melody that drives before its winds. and the angels, and wonderful monsters of bronze and marble and living fire, go to and fro therein. it is a land of law--for whatever is, is under the law--but its laws all, in some strange way, differ from ours. their geometry is different because their space has a curve in it so that all their planes are cylinders; and their law of gravitation is not according to the law of inverse squares, and there are four-and-twenty primary colours instead of only three. most of the fantastic things of our science are commonplaces there, and all our earthly science would seem to them the maddest dreaming. there are no flowers upon their plants, for instance, but jets of coloured fire. that, of course, will seem mere nonsense to you because you do not understand most of what the angel told the vicar, indeed the vicar could not realise, because his own experiences, being only of this world of matter, warred against his understanding. it was too strange to imagine. what had jolted these twin universes together so that the angel had fallen suddenly into sidderford, neither the angel nor the vicar could tell. nor for the matter of that could the author of this story. the author is concerned with the facts of the case, and has neither the desire nor the confidence to explain them. explanations are the fallacy of a scientific age. and the cardinal fact of the case is this, that out in siddermorton park, with the glory of some wonderful world where there is neither sorrow nor sighing, still clinging to him, on the th of august , stood an angel, bright and beautiful, talking to the vicar of siddermorton about the plurality of worlds. the author will swear to the angel, if need be; and there he draws the line. viii. "i have," said the angel, "a most unusual feeling--_here_. have had since sunrise. i don't remember ever having any feeling--_here_ before." "not pain, i hope," said the vicar. "oh no! it is quite different from that--a kind of vacuous feeling." "the atmospheric pressure, perhaps, is a little different," the vicar began, feeling his chin. "and do you know, i have also the most curious sensations in my mouth--almost as if--it's so absurd!--as if i wanted to stuff things into it." "bless me!" said the vicar. "of course! you're hungry!" "hungry!" said the angel. "what's that?" "don't you eat?" "eat! the word's quite new to me." "put food into your mouth, you know. one has to here. you will soon learn. if you don't, you get thin and miserable, and suffer a great deal--_pain_, you know--and finally you die." "die!" said the angel. "that's another strange word!" "it's not strange here. it means leaving off, you know," said the vicar. "we never leave off," said the angel. "you don't know what may happen to you in this world," said the vicar, thinking him over. "possibly if you are feeling hungry, and can feel pain and have your wings broken, you may even have to die before you get out of it again. at anyrate you had better try eating. for my own part--ahem!--there are many more disagreeable things." "i suppose i _had_ better eat," said the angel. "if it's not too difficult. i don't like this 'pain' of yours, and i don't like this 'hungry.' if your 'die' is anything like it, i would prefer to eat. what a very odd world this is!" "to die," said the vicar, "is generally considered worse than either pain or hunger.... it depends." "you must explain all that to me later," said the angel. "unless i wake up. at present, please show me how to eat. if you will. i feel a kind of urgency...." "pardon me," said the vicar, and offered an elbow. "if i may have the pleasure of entertaining you. my house lies yonder--not a couple of miles from here." "_your_ house!" said the angel a little puzzled; but he took the vicar's arm affectionately, and the two, conversing as they went, waded slowly through the luxuriant bracken, sun mottled under the trees, and on over the stile in the park palings, and so across the bee-swarming heather for a mile or more, down the hillside, home. you would have been charmed at the couple could you have seen them. the angel, slight of figure, scarcely five feet high, and with a beautiful, almost effeminate face, such as an italian old master might have painted. (indeed, there is one in the national gallery [_tobias and the angel_, by some artist unknown] not at all unlike him so far as face and spirit go.) he was robed simply in a purple-wrought saffron blouse, bare kneed and bare-footed, with his wings (broken now, and a leaden grey) folded behind him. the vicar was a short, rather stout figure, rubicund, red-haired, clean-shaven, and with bright ruddy brown eyes. he wore a piebald straw hat with a black ribbon, a very neat white tie, and a fine gold watch-chain. he was so greatly interested in his companion that it only occurred to him when he was in sight of the vicarage that he had left his gun lying just where he had dropped it amongst the bracken. he was rejoiced to hear that the pain of the bandaged wing fell rapidly in intensity. parenthesis on angels. ix. let us be plain. the angel of this story is the angel of art, not the angel that one must be irreverent to touch--neither the angel of religious feeling nor the angel of popular belief. the last we all know. she is alone among the angelic hosts in being distinctly feminine: she wears a robe of immaculate, unmitigated white with sleeves, is fair, with long golden tresses, and has eyes of the blue of heaven. just a pure woman she is, pure maiden or pure matron, in her _robe de nuit_, and with wings attached to her shoulder blades. her callings are domestic and sympathetic, she watches over a cradle or assists a sister soul heavenward. often she bears a palm leaf, but one would not be surprised if one met her carrying a warming-pan softly to some poor chilly sinner. she it was who came down in a bevy to marguerite in prison, in the amended last scene in _faust_ at the lyceum, and the interesting and improving little children that are to die young, have visions of such angels in the novels of mrs henry wood. this white womanliness with her indescribable charm of lavender-like holiness, her aroma of clean, methodical lives, is, it would seem after all, a purely teutonic invention. latin thought knows her not; the old masters have none of her. she is of a piece with that gentle innocent ladylike school of art whereof the greatest triumph is "a lump in one's throat," and where wit and passion, scorn and pomp, have no place. the white angel was made in germany, in the land of blonde women and the domestic sentiments. she comes to us cool and worshipful, pure and tranquil, as silently soothing as the breadth and calmness of the starlit sky, which also is so unspeakably dear to the teutonic soul.... we do her reverence. and to the angels of the hebrews, those spirits of power and mystery, to raphael, zadkiel, and michael, of whom only watts has caught the shadow, of whom only blake has seen the splendour, to them too, do we do reverence. but this angel the vicar shot is, we say, no such angel at all, but the angel of italian art, polychromatic and gay. he comes from the land of beautiful dreams and not from any holier place. at best he is a popish creature. bear patiently, therefore, with his scattered remiges, and be not hasty with your charge of irreverence before the story is read. at the vicarage. x. the curate's wife and her two daughters and mrs jehoram were still playing at tennis on the lawn behind the vicar's study, playing keenly and talking in gasps about paper patterns for blouses. but the vicar forgot and came in that way. they saw the vicar's hat above the rhododendrons, and a bare curly head beside him. "i must ask him about susan wiggin," said the curate's wife. she was about to serve, and stood with a racket in one hand and a ball between the fingers of the other. "_he_ really ought to have gone to see her--being the vicar. not george. i----_ah!_" for the two figures suddenly turned the corner and were visible. the vicar, arm in arm with---- you see, it came on the curate's wife suddenly. the angel's face being towards her she saw nothing of the wings. only a face of unearthly beauty in a halo of chestnut hair, and a graceful figure clothed in a saffron garment that barely reached the knees. the thought of those knees flashed upon the vicar at once. he too was horrorstruck. so were the two girls and mrs jehoram. all horrorstruck. the angel stared in astonishment at the horrorstruck group. you see, he had never seen anyone horrorstruck before. "mis--ter hilyer!" said the curate's wife. "this is _too_ much!" she stood speechless for a moment. "_oh!_" she swept round upon the rigid girls. "come!" the vicar opened and shut his voiceless mouth. the world hummed and spun about him. there was a whirling of zephyr skirts, four impassioned faces sweeping towards the open door of the passage that ran through the vicarage. he felt his position went with them. "mrs mendham," said the vicar, stepping forward. "mrs mendham. you don't understand----" "_oh!_" they all said again. one, two, three, four skirts vanished in the doorway. the vicar staggered half way across the lawn and stopped, aghast. "this comes," he heard the curate's wife say, out of the depth of the passage, "of having an unmarried vicar----." the umbrella stand wobbled. the front door of the vicarage slammed like a minute gun. there was silence for a space. "i might have thought," he said. "she is always so hasty." he put his hand to his chin--a habit with him. then turned his face to his companion. the angel was evidently well bred. he was holding up mrs jehoram's sunshade--she had left it on one of the cane chairs--and examining it with extraordinary interest. he opened it. "what a curious little mechanism!" he said. "what can it be for?" the vicar did not answer. the angelic costume certainly was--the vicar knew it was a case for a french phrase--but he could scarcely remember it. he so rarely used french. it was not _de trop_, he knew. anything but _de trop_. the angel was _de trop_, but certainly not his costume. ah! _sans culotte!_ the vicar examined his visitor critically--for the first time. "he _will_ be difficult to explain," he said to himself softly. the angel stuck the sunshade into the turf and went to smell the sweet briar. the sunshine fell upon his brown hair and gave it almost the appearance of a halo. he pricked his finger. "odd!" he said. "pain again." "yes," said the vicar, thinking aloud. "he's very beautiful and curious as he is. i should like him best so. but i am afraid i must." he approached the angel with a nervous cough. xi. "those," said the vicar, "were ladies." "how grotesque," said the angel, smiling and smelling the sweet briar. "and such quaint shapes!" "possibly," said the vicar. "did you, _ahem_, notice how they behaved?" "they went away. seemed, indeed, to run away. frightened? i, of course, was frightened at things without wings. i hope---- they were not frightened at my wings?" "at your appearance generally," said the vicar, glancing involuntarily at the pink feet. "dear me! it never occurred to me. i suppose i seemed as odd to them as you did to me." he glanced down. "and my feet. _you_ have hoofs like a hippogriff." "boots," corrected the vicar. "boots, you call them! but anyhow, i am sorry i alarmed----" "you see," said the vicar, stroking his chin, "our ladies, _ahem_, have peculiar views--rather inartistic views--about, _ahem_, clothing. dressed as you are, i am afraid, i am really afraid that--beautiful as your costume certainly is--you will find yourself somewhat, _ahem_, somewhat isolated in society. we have a little proverb, 'when in rome, _ahem_, one must do as the romans do.' i can assure you that, assuming you are desirous to, _ahem_, associate with us--during your involuntary stay----" the angel retreated a step or so as the vicar came nearer and nearer in his attempt to be diplomatic and confidential. the beautiful face grew perplexed. "i don't quite understand. why do you keep making these noises in your throat? is it die or eat, or any of those...." "as your host," interrupted the vicar, and stopped. "as my host," said the angel. "_would_ you object, pending more permanent arrangements, to invest yourself, _ahem_, in a suit, an entirely new suit i may say, like this i have on?" "oh!" said the angel. he retreated so as to take in the vicar from top to toe. "wear clothes like yours!" he said. he was puzzled but amused. his eyes grew round and bright, his mouth puckered at the corners. "delightful!" he said, clapping his hands together. "what a mad, quaint dream this is! where are they?" he caught at the neck of the saffron robe. "indoors!" said the vicar. "this way. we will change--indoors!" xii. so the angel was invested in a pair of nether garments of the vicar's, a shirt, ripped down the back (to accommodate the wings), socks, shoes--the vicar's dress shoes--collar, tie, and light overcoat. but putting on the latter was painful, and reminded the vicar that the bandaging was temporary. "i will ring for tea at once, and send grummet down for crump," said the vicar. "and dinner shall be earlier." while the vicar shouted his orders on the landing rails, the angel surveyed himself in the cheval glass with immense delight. if he was a stranger to pain, he was evidently no stranger--thanks perhaps to dreaming--to the pleasure of incongruity. they had tea in the drawing-room. the angel sat on the music stool (music stool because of his wings). at first he wanted to lie on the hearthrug. he looked much less radiant in the vicar's clothes, than he had done upon the moor when dressed in saffron. his face shone still, the colour of his hair and cheeks was strangely bright, and there was a superhuman light in his eyes, but his wings under the overcoat gave him the appearance of a hunchback. the garments, indeed, made quite a terrestrial thing of him, the trousers were puckered transversely, and the shoes a size or so too large. he was charmingly affable and quite ignorant of the most elementary facts of civilization. eating came without much difficulty, and the vicar had an entertaining time teaching him how to take tea. "what a mess it is! what a dear grotesque ugly world you live in!" said the angel. "fancy stuffing things into your mouth! we use our mouths just to talk and sing with. our world, you know, is almost incurably beautiful. we get so very little ugliness, that i find all this ... delightful." mrs hinijer, the vicar's housekeeper, looked at the angel suspiciously when she brought in the tea. she thought him rather a "queer customer." what she would have thought had she seen him in saffron no one can tell. the angel shuffled about the room with his cup of tea in one hand, and the bread and butter in the other, and examined the vicar's furniture. outside the french windows, the lawn with its array of dahlias and sunflowers glowed in the warm sunlight, and mrs jehoram's sunshade stood thereon like a triangle of fire. he thought the vicar's portrait over the mantel very curious indeed, could not understand what it was there for. "you have yourself round," he said, _apropos_ of the portrait, "why want yourself flat?" and he was vastly amused at the glass fire screen. he found the oak chairs odd--"you're not square, are you?" he said, when the vicar explained their use. "_we_ never double ourselves up. we lie about on the asphodel when we want to rest." "the chair," said the vicar, "to tell you the truth, has always puzzled _me_. it dates, i think, from the days when the floors were cold and very dirty. i suppose we have kept up the habit. it's become a kind of instinct with us to sit on chairs. anyhow, if i went to see one of my parishioners, and suddenly spread myself out on the floor--the natural way of it--i don't know what she would do. it would be all over the parish in no time. yet it seems the natural method of reposing, to recline. the greeks and romans----" "what is this?" said the angel abruptly. "that's a stuffed kingfisher. i killed it." "killed it!" "shot it," said the vicar, "with a gun." "shot! as you did me?" "i didn't kill you, you see. fortunately." "is killing making like that?" "in a way." "dear me! and you wanted to make me like that--wanted to put glass eyes in me and string me up in a glass case full of ugly green and brown stuff?" "you see," began the vicar, "i scarcely understood----" "is that 'die'?" asked the angel suddenly. "that is dead; it died." "poor little thing. i must eat a lot. but you say you killed it. _why?_" "you see," said the vicar, "i take an interest in birds, and i (_ahem_) collect them. i wanted the specimen----" the angel stared at him for a moment with puzzled eyes. "a beautiful bird like that!" he said with a shiver. "because the fancy took you. you wanted the specimen!" he thought for a minute. "do you often kill?" he asked the vicar. the man of science. xiii. then doctor crump arrived. grummet had met him not a hundred yards from the vicarage gate. he was a large, rather heavy-looking man, with a clean-shaven face and a double chin. he was dressed in a grey morning coat (he always affected grey), with a chequered black and white tie. "what's the trouble?" he said, entering and staring without a shadow of surprise at the angel's radiant face. "this--_ahem_--gentleman," said the vicar, "or--_ah_--angel"--the angel bowed--"is suffering from a gunshot wound." "gunshot wound!" said doctor crump. "in july! may i look at it, mr--angel, i think you said?" "he will probably be able to assuage your pain," said the vicar. "let me assist you to remove your coat?" the angel turned obediently. "spinal curvature?" muttered doctor crump quite audibly, walking round behind the angel. "no! abnormal growth. hullo! this is odd!" he clutched the left wing. "curious," he said. "reduplication of the anterior limb--bifid coracoid. possible, of course, but i've never seen it before." the angel winced under his hands. "humerus. radius and ulna. all there. congenital, of course. humerus broken. curious integumentary simulation of feathers. dear me. almost avian. probably of considerable interest in comparative anatomy. i never did!----how did this gunshot happen, mr angel?" the vicar was amazed at the doctor's matter-of-fact manner. "our friend," said the angel, moving his head at the vicar. "unhappily it is my doing," said the vicar, stepping forward, explanatory. "i mistook the gentleman--the angel (_ahem_)--for a large bird----" "mistook him for a large bird! what next? your eyes want seeing to," said doctor crump. "i've told you so before." he went on patting and feeling, keeping time with a series of grunts and inarticulate mutterings.... "but this is really a very good bit of amateur bandaging," said he. "i think i shall leave it. curious malformation this is! don't you find it inconvenient, mr angel?" he suddenly walked round so as to look in the angel's face. the angel thought he referred to the wound. "it is rather," he said. "if it wasn't for the bones i should say paint with iodine night and morning. nothing like iodine. you could paint your face flat with it. but the osseous outgrowth, the bones, you know, complicate things. i could saw them off, of course. it's not a thing one should have done in a hurry----" "do you mean my wings?" said the angel in alarm. "wings!" said the doctor. "eigh? call 'em wings! yes--what else should i mean?" "saw them off!" said the angel. "don't you think so? it's of course your affair. i am only advising----" "saw them off! what a funny creature you are!" said the angel, beginning to laugh. "as you will," said the doctor. he detested people who laughed. "the things are curious," he said, turning to the vicar. "if inconvenient"--to the angel. "i never heard of such complete reduplication before--at least among animals. in plants it's common enough. were you the only one in your family?" he did not wait for a reply. "partial cases of the fission of limbs are not at all uncommon, of course, vicar--six-fingered children, calves with six feet, and cats with double toes, you know. may i assist you?" he said, turning to the angel who was struggling with the coat. "but such a complete reduplication, and so avian, too! it would be much less remarkable if it was simply another pair of arms." the coat was got on and he and the angel stared at one another. "really," said the doctor, "one begins to understand how that beautiful myth of the angels arose. you look a little hectic, mr angel--feverish. excessive brilliance is almost worse as a symptom than excessive pallor. curious your name should be angel. i must send you a cooling draught, if you should feel thirsty in the night...." he made a memorandum on his shirt cuff. the angel watched him thoughtfully, with the dawn of a smile in his eyes. "one minute, crump," said the vicar, taking the doctor's arm and leading him towards the door. the angel's smile grew brighter. he looked down at his black-clad legs. "he positively thinks i am a man!" said the angel. "what he makes of the wings beats me altogether. what a queer creature he must be! this is really a most extraordinary dream!" xiv. "that _is_ an angel," whispered the vicar. "you don't understand." "_what?_" said the doctor in a quick, sharp voice. his eyebrows went up and he smiled. "but the wings?" "quite natural, quite ... if a little abnormal." "are you sure they are natural?" "my dear fellow, everything that is, is natural. there is nothing unnatural in the world. if i thought there was i should give up practice and go into _le grand chartreuse_. there are abnormal phenomena, of course. and----" "but the way i came upon him," said the vicar. "yes, tell me where you picked him up," said the doctor. he sat down on the hall table. the vicar began rather hesitatingly--he was not very good at story telling--with the rumours of a strange great bird. he told the story in clumsy sentences--for, knowing the bishop as he did, with that awful example always before him he dreaded getting his pulpit style into his daily conversation--and at every third sentence or so, the doctor made a downward movement of his head--the corners of his mouth tucked away, so to speak--as though he ticked off the phases of the story and so far found it just as it ought to be. "self-hypnotism," he murmured once. "i beg your pardon?" said the vicar. "nothing," said the doctor. "nothing, i assure you. go on. this is extremely interesting." the vicar told him he went out with his gun. "_after_ lunch, i think you said?" interrupted the doctor. "immediately after," said the vicar. "you should not do such things, you know. but go on, please." he came to the glimpse of the angel from the gate. "in the full glare," said the doctor, in parenthesis. "it was seventy-nine in the shade." when the vicar had finished, the doctor pressed his lips together tighter than ever, smiled faintly, and looked significantly into the vicar's eyes. "you don't ..." began the vicar, falteringly. the doctor shook his head. "forgive me," he said, putting his hand on the vicar's arm. "you go out," he said, "on a hot lunch and on a hot afternoon. probably over eighty. your mind, what there is of it, is whirling with avian expectations. i say, 'what there is of it,' because most of your nervous energy is down there, digesting your dinner. a man who has been lying in the bracken stands up before you and you blaze away. over he goes--and as it happens--as it happens--he has reduplicate fore-limbs, one pair being not unlike wings. it's a coincidence certainly. and as for his iridescent colours and so forth----. have you never had patches of colour swim before your eyes before, on a brilliant sunlight day?... are you sure they were confined to the wings? think." "but he says he _is_ an angel!" said the vicar, staring out of his little round eyes, his plump hands in his pockets. "_ah!_" said the doctor with his eye on the vicar. "i expected as much." he paused. "but don't you think ..." began the vicar. "that man," said the doctor in a low, earnest voice, "is a mattoid." "a what?" said the vicar. "a mattoid. an abnormal man. did you notice the effeminate delicacy of his face? his tendency to quite unmeaning laughter? his neglected hair? then consider his singular dress...." the vicar's hand went up to his chin. "marks of mental weakness," said the doctor. "many of this type of degenerate show this same disposition to assume some vast mysterious credentials. one will call himself the prince of wales, another the archangel gabriel, another the deity even. ibsen thinks he is a great teacher, and maeterlink a new shakespeare. i've just been reading all about it--in nordau. no doubt his odd deformity gave him an idea...." "but really," began the vicar. "no doubt he's slipped away from confinement." "i do not altogether accept...." "you will. if not, there's the police, and failing that, advertisement; but, of course, his people may want to hush it up. it's a sad thing in a family...." "he seems so altogether...." "probably you'll hear from his friends in a day or so," said the doctor, feeling for his watch. "he can't live far from here, i should think. he seems harmless enough. i must come along and see that wing again to-morrow." he slid off the hall table and stood up. "those old wives' tales still have their hold on you," he said, patting the vicar on the shoulder. "but an angel, you know--ha, ha!" "i certainly _did_ think...." said the vicar dubiously. "weigh the evidence," said the doctor, still fumbling at his watch. "weigh the evidence with our instruments of precision. what does it leave you? splashes of colour, spots of fancy--_muscae volantes_." "and yet," said the vicar, "i could almost swear to the glory on his wings...." "think it over," said the doctor (watch out); "hot afternoon--brilliant sunshine--boiling down on your head.... but really i _must_ be going. it is a quarter to five. i'll see your--angel (ha, ha!) to-morrow again, if no one has been to fetch him in the meanwhile. your bandaging was really very good. i flatter _myself_ on that score. our ambulance classes _were_ a success you see.... good afternoon." the curate. xv. the vicar opened the door half mechanically to let out crump, and saw mendham, his curate, coming up the pathway by the hedge of purple vetch and meadowsweet. at that his hand went up to his chin and his eyes grew perplexed. suppose he _was_ deceived. the doctor passed the curate with a sweep of his hand from his hat brim. crump was an extraordinarily clever fellow, the vicar thought, and knew far more of anyone's brain than one did oneself. the vicar felt that so acutely. it made the coming explanation difficult. suppose he were to go back into the drawing-room, and find just a tramp asleep on the hearthrug. mendham was a cadaverous man with a magnificent beard. he looked, indeed, as though he had run to beard as a mustard plant does to seed. but when he spoke you found he had a voice as well. "my wife came home in a dreadful state," he brayed out at long range. "come in," said the vicar; "come in. most remarkable occurrence. please come in. come into the study. i'm really dreadfully sorry. but when i explain...." "and apologise, i hope," brayed the curate. "and apologise. no, not that way. this way. the study." "now what _was_ that woman?" said the curate, turning on the vicar as the latter closed the study door. "what woman?" "pah!" "but really!" "the painted creature in light attire--disgustingly light attire, to speak freely--with whom you were promenading the garden." "my dear mendham--that was an angel!" "a very pretty angel?" "the world is getting so matter-of-fact," said the vicar. "the world," roared the curate, "grows blacker every day. but to find a man in your position, shamelessly, openly...." "_bother!_" said the vicar aside. he rarely swore. "look here, mendham, you really misunderstand. i can assure you...." "very well," said the curate. "explain!" he stood with his lank legs apart, his arms folded, scowling at his vicar over his big beard. (explanations, i repeat, i have always considered the peculiar fallacy of this scientific age.) the vicar looked about him helplessly. the world had all gone dull and dead. had he been dreaming all the afternoon? was there really an angel in the drawing-room? or was he the sport of a complicated hallucination? "well?" said mendham, at the end of a minute. the vicar's hand fluttered about his chin. "it's such a round-about story," he said. "no doubt it will be," said mendham harshly. the vicar restrained a movement of impatience. "i went out to look for a strange bird this afternoon.... do you believe in angels, mendham, real angels?" "i'm not here to discuss theology. i am the husband of an insulted woman." "but i tell you it's not a figure of speech; this _is_ an angel, a real angel with wings. he's in the next room now. you do misunderstand me, so...." "really, hilyer--" "it is true i tell you, mendham. i swear it is true." the vicar's voice grew impassioned. "what sin i have done that i should entertain and clothe angelic visitants, i don't know. i only know that--inconvenient as it undoubtedly will be--i have an angel now in the drawing-room, wearing my new suit and finishing his tea. and he's stopping with me, indefinitely, at my invitation. no doubt it was rash of me. but i can't turn him out, you know, because mrs mendham----i may be a weakling, but i am still a gentleman." "really, hilyer--" "i can assure you it is true." there was a note of hysterical desperation in the vicar's voice. "i fired at him, taking him for a flamingo, and hit him in the wing." "i thought this was a case for the bishop. i find it is a case for the lunacy commissioners." "come and see him, mendham!" "but there _are_ no angels." "we teach the people differently," said the vicar. "not as material bodies," said the curate. "anyhow, come and see him." "i don't want to see your hallucinations," began the curate. "i can't explain anything unless you come and see him," said the vicar. "a man who's more like an angel than anything else in heaven or earth. you simply must see if you wish to understand." "i don't wish to understand," said the curate. "i don't wish to lend myself to any imposture. surely, hilyer, if this is not an imposition, you can tell me yourself.... flamingo, indeed!" xvi. the angel had finished his tea and was standing looking pensively out of the window. he thought the old church down the valley lit by the light of the setting sun was very beautiful, but he could not understand the serried ranks of tombstones that lay up the hillside beyond. he turned as mendham and the vicar came in. now mendham could bully his vicar cheerfully enough, just as he could bully his congregation; but he was not the sort of man to bully a stranger. he looked at the angel, and the "strange woman" theory was disposed of. the angel's beauty was too clearly the beauty of the youth. "mr hilyer tells me," mendham began, in an almost apologetic tone, "that you--ah--it's so curious--claim to be an angel." "_are_ an angel," said the vicar. the angel bowed. "naturally," said mendham, "we are curious." "very," said the angel. "the blackness and the shape." "i beg your pardon?" said mendham. "the blackness and the flaps," repeated the angel; "and no wings." "precisely," said mendham, who was altogether at a loss. "we are, of course, curious to know something of how you came into the village in such a peculiar costume." the angel looked at the vicar. the vicar touched his chin. "you see," began the vicar. "let _him_ explain," said mendham; "i beg." "i wanted to suggest," began the vicar. "and i don't want you to suggest." "_bother!_" said the vicar. the angel looked from one to the other. "such rugose expressions flit across your faces!" he said. "you see, mr--mr--i don't know your name," said mendham, with a certain diminution of suavity. "the case stands thus: my wife--four ladies, i might say--are playing lawn tennis, when you suddenly rush out on them, sir; you rush out on them from among the rhododendra in a very defective costume. you and mr hilyer." "but i--" said the vicar. "i know. it was this gentleman's costume was defective. naturally--it is my place in fact--to demand an explanation." his voice was growing in volume. "and i _must_ demand an explanation." the angel smiled faintly at his note of anger and his sudden attitude of determination--arms tightly folded. "i am rather new to the world," the angel began. "nineteen at least," said mendham. "old enough to know better. that's a poor excuse." "may i ask one question first?" said the angel. "well?" "do you think i am a man--like yourself? as the chequered man did." "if you are not a man--" "one other question. have you _never_ heard of an angel?" "i warn you not to try that story upon me," said mendham, now back at his familiar crescendo. the vicar interrupted: "but mendham--he has wings!" "_please_ let me talk to him," said mendham. "you are so quaint," said the angel; "you interrupt everything i have to say." "but what _have_ you to say?" said mendham. "that i really _am_ an angel...." "pshaw!" "there you go!" "but tell me, honestly, how you came to be in the shrubbery of siddermorton vicarage--in the state in which you were. and in the vicar's company. cannot you abandon this ridiculous story of yours?..." the angel shrugged his wings. "what is the matter with this man?" he said to the vicar. "my dear mendham," said the vicar, "a few words from me...." "surely my question is straightforward enough!" "but you won't tell me the answer you want, and it's no good my telling you any other." "_pshaw!_" said the curate again. and then turning suddenly on the vicar, "where does he come from?" the vicar was in a dreadful state of doubt by this time. "he _says_ he is an angel!" said the vicar. "why don't you listen to him?" "no angel would alarm four ladies...." "is _that_ what it is all about?" said the angel. "enough cause too, i should think!" said the curate. "but i really did not know," said the angel. "this is altogether too much!" "i am sincerely sorry i alarmed these ladies." "you ought to be. but i see i shall get nothing out of you two." mendham went towards the door. "i am convinced there is something discreditable at the bottom of this business. or why not tell a simple straightforward story? i will confess you puzzle me. why, in this enlightened age, you should tell this fantastic, this far-fetched story of an angel, altogether beats me. what good _can_ it do?..." "but stop and look at his wings!" said the vicar. "i can assure you he has wings!" mendham had his fingers on the door-handle. "i have seen quite enough," he said. "it may be this is simply a foolish attempt at a hoax, hilyer." "but mendham!" said the vicar. the curate halted in the doorway and looked at the vicar over his shoulder. the accumulating judgment of months found vent. "i cannot understand, hilyer, why you are in the church. for the life of me i cannot. the air is full of social movements, of economic change, the woman movement, rational dress, the reunion of christendom, socialism, individualism--all the great and moving questions of the hour! surely, we who follow the great reformer.... and here you are stuffing birds, and startling ladies with your callous disregard...." "but mendham," began the vicar. the curate would not hear him. "you shame the apostles with your levity.... but this is only a preliminary enquiry," he said, with a threatening note in his sonorous voice, and so vanished abruptly (with a violent slam) from the room. xvii. "are _all_ men so odd as this?" said the angel. "i'm in such a difficult position," said the vicar. "you see," he said, and stopped, searching his chin for an idea. "i'm beginning to see," said the angel. "they won't believe it." "i see that." "they will think i tell lies." "and?" "that will be extremely painful to me." "painful!... pain," said the angel. "i hope not." the vicar shook his head. the good report of the village had been the breath of his life, so far. "you see," he said, "it would look so much more plausible if you said you were just a man." "but i'm not," said the angel. "no, you're not," said the vicar. "so that's no good." "nobody here, you know, has ever seen an angel, or heard of one--except in church. if you had made your _debut_ in the chancel--on sunday--it might have been different. but that's too late now.... (_bother!_) nobody, absolutely nobody, will believe in you." "i hope i am not inconveniencing you?" "not at all," said the vicar; "not at all. only----. naturally it may be inconvenient if you tell a too incredible story. if i might suggest (_ahem_)----." "well?" "you see, people in the world, being men themselves, will almost certainly regard you as a man. if you say you are not, they will simply say you do not tell the truth. only exceptional people appreciate the exceptional. when in rome one must--well, respect roman prejudices a little--talk latin. you will find it better----" "you propose i should feign to become a man?" "you have my meaning at once." the angel stared at the vicar's hollyhocks and thought. "possibly, after all," he said slowly, "i _shall_ become a man. i may have been too hasty in saying i was not. you say there are no angels in this world. who am i to set myself up against your experience? a mere thing of a day--so far as this world goes. if you say there are no angels--clearly i must be something else. i eat--angels do not eat. i _may_ be a man already." "a convenient view, at any rate," said the vicar. "if it is convenient to you----" "it is. and then to account for your presence here." "_if_," said the vicar, after a hesitating moment of reflection, "if, for instance, you had been an ordinary man with a weakness for wading, and you had gone wading in the sidder, and your clothes had been stolen, for instance, and i had come upon you in that position of inconvenience; the explanation i shall have to make to mrs mendham----would be shorn at least of the supernatural element. there is such a feeling against the supernatural element nowadays--even in the pulpit. you would hardly believe----" "it's a pity that was not the case," said the angel. "of course," said the vicar. "it is a great pity that was not the case. but at anyrate you will oblige me if you do not obtrude your angelic nature. you will oblige everyone, in fact. there is a settled opinion that angels do not do this kind of thing. and nothing is more painful--as i can testify--than a decaying settled opinion.... settled opinions are mental teeth in more ways than one. for my own part,"--the vicar's hand passed over his eyes for a moment--"i cannot but believe you are an angel.... surely i can believe my own eyes." "we always do ours," said the angel. "and so do we, within limits." then the clock upon the mantel chimed seven, and almost simultaneously mrs hinijer announced dinner. after dinner. xviii. the angel and the vicar sat at dinner. the vicar, with his napkin tucked in at his neck, watched the angel struggling with his soup. "you will soon get into the way of it," said the vicar. the knife and fork business was done awkwardly but with effect. the angel looked furtively at delia, the little waiting maid. when presently they sat cracking nuts--which the angel found congenial enough--and the girl had gone, the angel asked: "was that a lady, too?" "well," said the vicar (_crack_). "no--she is not a lady. she is a servant." "yes," said the angel; "she _had_ rather a nicer shape." "you mustn't tell mrs mendham that," said the vicar, covertly satisfied. "she didn't stick out so much at the shoulders and hips, and there was more of her in between. and the colour of her robes was not discordant--simply neutral. and her face----" "mrs mendham and her daughters had been playing tennis," said the vicar, feeling he ought not to listen to detraction even of his mortal enemy. "do you like these things--these nuts?" "very much," said the angel. _crack._ "you see," said the vicar (_chum, chum, chum_). "for my own part i entirely believe you are an angel." "yes!" said the angel. "i shot you--i saw you flutter. it's beyond dispute. in my own mind. i admit it's curious and against my preconceptions, but--practically--i'm assured, perfectly assured in fact, that i saw what i certainly did see. but after the behaviour of these people. (_crack_). i really don't see how we are to persuade people. nowadays people are so very particular about evidence. so that i think there is a great deal to be said for the attitude you assume. temporarily at least i think it would be best of you to do as you propose to do, and behave as a man as far as possible. of course there is no knowing how or when you may go back. after what has happened (_gluck_, _gluck_, _gluck_--as the vicar refills his glass)--after what has happened i should not be surprised to see the side of the room fall away, and the hosts of heaven appear to take you away again--take us both away even. you have so far enlarged my imagination. all these years i have been forgetting wonderland. but still----. it will certainly be wiser to break the thing gently to them." "this life of yours," said the angel. "i'm still in the dark about it. how do you begin?" "dear me!" said the vicar. "fancy having to explain that! we begin existence here, you know, as babies, silly pink helpless things wrapped in white, with goggling eyes, that yelp dismally at the font. then these babies grow larger and become even beautiful--when their faces are washed. and they continue to grow to a certain size. they become children, boys and girls, youths and maidens (_crack_), young men and young women. that is the finest time in life, according to many--certainly the most beautiful. full of great hopes and dreams, vague emotions and unexpected dangers." "_that_ was a maiden?" said the angel, indicating the door through which delia had disappeared. "yes," said the vicar, "that was a maiden." and paused thoughtfully. "and then?" "then," said the vicar, "the glamour fades and life begins in earnest. the young men and young women pair off--most of them. they come to me shy and bashful, in smart ugly dresses, and i marry them. and then little pink babies come to them, and some of the youths and maidens that were, grow fat and vulgar, and some grow thin and shrewish, and their pretty complexions go, and they get a queer delusion of superiority over the younger people, and all the delight and glory goes out of their lives. so they call the delight and glory of the younger ones, illusion. and then they begin to drop to pieces." "drop to pieces!" said the angel. "how grotesque!" "their hair comes off and gets dull coloured or ashen grey," said the vicar. "_i_, for instance." he bowed his head forward to show a circular shining patch the size of a florin. "and their teeth come out. their faces collapse and become as wrinkled and dry as a shrivelled apple. 'corrugated' you called mine. they care more and more for what they have to eat and to drink, and less and less for any of the other delights of life. their limbs get loose in the joints, and their hearts slack, or little pieces from their lungs come coughing up. pain...." "ah!" said the angel. "pain comes into their lives more and more. and then they go. they do not like to go, but they have to--out of this world, very reluctantly, clutching its pain at last in their eagerness to stop...." "where do they go?" "once i thought i knew. but now i am older i know i do not know. we have a legend--perhaps it is not a legend. one may be a churchman and disbelieve. stokes says there is nothing in it...." the vicar shook his head at the bananas. "and you?" said the angel. "were you a little pink baby?" "a little while ago i was a little pink baby." "were you robed then as you are now?" "oh no! dear me! what a queer idea! had long white clothes, i suppose, like the rest of them." "and then you were a little boy?" "a little boy." "and then a glorious youth?" "i was not a very glorious youth, i am afraid. i was sickly, and too poor to be radiant, and with a timid heart. i studied hard and pored over the dying thoughts of men long dead. so i lost the glory, and no maiden came to me, and the dulness of life began too soon." "and you have your little pink babies?" "none," said the vicar with a scarce perceptible pause. "yet all the same, as you see, i am beginning to drop to pieces. presently my back will droop like a wilting flowerstalk. and then, in a few thousand days more i shall be done with, and i shall go out of this world of mine.... whither i do not know." "and you have to eat like this every day?" "eat, and get clothes and keep this roof above me. there are some very disagreeable things in this world called cold and rain. and the other people here--how and why is too long a story--have made me a kind of chorus to their lives. they bring their little pink babies to me and i have to say a name and some other things over each new pink baby. and when the children have grown to be youths and maidens, they come again and are confirmed. you will understand that better later. then before they may join in couples and have pink babies of their own, they must come again and hear me read out of a book. they would be outcast, and no other maiden would speak to the maiden who had a little pink baby without i had read over her for twenty minutes out of my book. it's a necessary thing, as you will see. odd as it may seem to you. and afterwards when they are falling to pieces, i try and persuade them of a strange world in which i scarcely believe myself, where life is altogether different from what they have had--or desire. and in the end, i bury them, and read out of my book to those who will presently follow into the unknown land. i stand at the beginning, and at the zenith, and at the setting of their lives. and on every seventh day, i who am a man myself, i who see no further than they do, talk to them of the life to come--the life of which we know nothing. if such a life there be. and slowly i drop to pieces amidst my prophesying." "what a strange life!" said the angel. "yes," said the vicar. "what a strange life! but the thing that makes it strange to me is new. i had taken it as a matter of course until you came into my life." "this life of ours is so insistent," said the vicar. "it, and its petty needs, its temporary pleasures (_crack_) swathe our souls about. while i am preaching to these people of mine of another life, some are ministering to one appetite and eating sweets, others--the old men--are slumbering, the youths glance at the maidens, the grown men protrude white waistcoats and gold chains, pomp and vanity on a substratum of carnal substance, their wives flaunt garish bonnets at one another. and i go on droning away of the things unseen and unrealised--'eye hath not seen,' i read, 'nor ear heard, nor hath it entered into the imagination of man to conceive,' and i look up to catch an adult male immortal admiring the fit of a pair of three and sixpenny gloves. it is damping year after year. when i was ailing in my youth i felt almost the assurance of vision that beneath this temporary phantasm world was the real world--the enduring world of the life everlasting. but now----" he glanced at his chubby white hand, fingering the stem of his glass. "i have put on flesh since then," he said. [_pause_]. "i have changed and developed very much. the battle of the flesh and spirit does not trouble me as it did. every day i feel less confidence in my beliefs, and more in god. i live, i am afraid, a quiescent life, duties fairly done, a little ornithology and a little chess, a trifle of mathematical trifling. my times are in his hands----" the vicar sighed and became pensive. the angel watched him, and the angel's eyes were troubled with the puzzle of him. "gluck, gluck, gluck," went the decanter as the vicar refilled his glass. xix. so the angel dined and talked to the vicar, and presently the night came and he was overtaken by yawning. "yah----oh!" said the angel suddenly. "dear me! a higher power seemed suddenly to stretch my mouth open and a great breath of air went rushing down my throat." "you yawned," said the vicar. "do you never yawn in the angelic country?" "never," said the angel. "and yet you are immortal!----i suppose you want to go to bed." "bed!" said the angel. "where's that?" so the vicar explained darkness to him and the art of going to bed. (the angels, it seems sleep only in order to dream, and dream, like primitive man, with their foreheads on their knees. and they sleep among the white poppy meadows in the heat of the day.) the angel found the bedroom arrangements quaint enough. "why is everything raised up on big wooden legs?" he said. "you have the floor, and then you put everything you have upon a wooden quadruped. why do you do it?" the vicar explained with philosophical vagueness. the angel burnt his finger in the candle-flame--and displayed an absolute ignorance of the elementary principles of combustion. he was merely charmed when a line of fire ran up the curtains. the vicar had to deliver a lecture on fire so soon as the flame was extinguished. he had all kinds of explanations to make--even the soap needed explaining. it was an hour or more before the angel was safely tucked in for the night. "he's very beautiful," said the vicar, descending the staircase, quite tired out; "and he's a real angel no doubt. but i am afraid he will be a dreadful anxiety, all the same, before he gets into our earthly way with things." he seemed quite worried. he helped himself to an extra glass of sherry before he put away the wine in the cellaret. xx. the curate stood in front of the looking-glass and solemnly divested himself of his collar. "i never heard a more fantastic story," said mrs mendham from the basket chair. "the man must be mad. are you sure----." "perfectly, my dear. i've told you every word, every incident----." "_well!_" said mrs mendham, and spread her hands. "there's no sense in it." "precisely, my dear." "the vicar," said mrs mendham, "must be mad." "this hunchback is certainly one of the strangest creatures i've seen for a long time. foreign looking, with a big bright coloured face and long brown hair.... it can't have been cut for months!" the curate put his studs carefully upon the shelf of the dressing-table. "and a kind of staring look about his eyes, and a simpering smile. quite a silly looking person. effeminate." "but who _can_ he be?" said mrs mendham. "i can't imagine, my dear. nor where he came from. he might be a chorister or something of that sort." "but _why_ should he be about the shrubbery ... in that dreadful costume?" "i don't know. the vicar gave me no explanation. he simply said, 'mendham, this is an angel.'" "i wonder if he drinks.... they may have been bathing near the spring, of course," reflected mrs mendham. "but i noticed no other clothes on his arm." the curate sat down on his bed and unlaced his boots. "it's a perfect mystery to me, my dear." (flick, flick of laces.) "hallucination is the only charitable----" "you are sure, george, that it was _not_ a woman." "perfectly," said the curate. "i know what men are, of course." "it was a young man of nineteen or twenty," said the curate. "i can't understand it," said mrs mendham. "you say the creature is staying at the vicarage?" "hilyer is simply mad," said the curate. he got up and went padding round the room to the door to put out his boots. "to judge by his manner you would really think he believed this cripple was an angel." ("are your shoes out, dear?") ("they're just by the wardrobe"), said mrs mendham. "he always was a little queer, you know. there was always something childish about him.... an angel!" the curate came and stood by the fire, fumbling with his braces. mrs mendham liked a fire even in the summer. "he shirks all the serious problems in life and is always trifling with some new foolishness," said the curate. "angel indeed!" he laughed suddenly. "hilyer _must_ be mad," he said. mrs mendham laughed too. "even that doesn't explain the hunchback," she said. "the hunchback must be mad too," said the curate. "it's the only way of explaining it in a sensible way," said mrs mendham. [_pause._] "angel or no angel," said mrs mendham, "i know what is due to me. even supposing the man thought he _was_ in the company of an angel, that is no reason why he should not behave like a gentleman." "that is perfectly true." "you will write to the bishop, of course?" mendham coughed. "no, i shan't write to the bishop," said mendham. "i think it seems a little disloyal.... and he took no notice of the last, you know." "but surely----" "i shall write to austin. in confidence. he will be sure to tell the bishop, you know. and you must remember, my dear----" "that hilyer can dismiss you, you were going to say. my dear, the man's much too weak! _i_ should have a word to say about that. and besides, you do all his work for him. practically, we manage the parish from end to end. i do not know what would become of the poor if it was not for me. they'd have free quarters in the vicarage to-morrow. there is that goody ansell----" "i know, my dear," said the curate, turning away and proceeding with his undressing. "you were telling me about her only this afternoon." xxi. and thus in the little bedroom over the gable we reach a first resting place in this story. and as we have been hard at it, getting our story spread out before you, it may be perhaps well to recapitulate a little. looking back you will see that much has been done; we began with a blaze of light "not uniform but broken all over by curving flashes like the waving of swords," and the sound of a mighty harping, and the advent of an angel with polychromatic wings. swiftly, dexterously, as the reader must admit, wings have been clipped, halo handled off, the glory clapped into coat and trousers, and the angel made for all practical purposes a man, under a suspicion of being either a lunatic or an impostor. you have heard too, or at least been able to judge, what the vicar and the doctor and the curate's wife thought of the strange arrival. and further remarkable opinions are to follow. the afterglow of the summer sunset in the north-west darkens into night and the angel sleeps, dreaming himself back in the wonderful world where it is always light, and everyone is happy, where fire does not burn and ice does not chill; where rivulets of starlight go streaming through the amaranthine meadows, out to the seas of peace. he dreams, and it seems to him that once more his wings glow with a thousand colours and flash through the crystal air of the world from which he has come. so he dreams. but the vicar lies awake, too perplexed for dreaming. chiefly he is troubled by the possibilities of mrs mendham; but the evening's talk has opened strange vistas in his mind, and he is stimulated by a sense as of something seen darkly by the indistinct vision of a hitherto unsuspected wonderland lying about his world. for twenty years now he has held his village living and lived his daily life, protected by his familiar creed, by the clamour of the details of life, from any mystical dreaming. but now interweaving with the familiar bother of his persecuting neighbour, is an altogether unfamiliar sense of strange new things. there was something ominous in the feeling. once, indeed, it rose above all other considerations, and in a kind of terror he blundered out of bed, bruised his shins very convincingly, found the matches at last, and lit a candle to assure himself of the reality of his own customary world again. but on the whole the more tangible trouble was the mendham avalanche. her tongue seemed to be hanging above him like the sword of damocles. what might she not say of this business, before her indignant imagination came to rest? and while the successful captor of the strange bird was sleeping thus uneasily, gully of sidderton was carefully unloading his gun after a wearisome blank day, and sandy bright was on his knees in prayer, with the window carefully fastened. annie durgan was sleeping hard with her mouth open, and amory's mother was dreaming of washing, and both of them had long since exhausted the topics of the sound and the glare. lumpy durgan was sitting up in his bed, now crooning the fragment of a tune and now listening intently for a sound he had heard once and longed to hear again. as for the solicitor's clerk at iping hanger, he was trying to write poetry about a confectioner's girl at portburdock, and the strange bird was quite out of his head. but the ploughman who had seen it on the confines of siddermorton park had a black eye. that had been one of the more tangible consequences of a little argument about birds' legs in the "ship." it is worthy of this passing mention, since it is probably the only known instance of an angel causing anything of the kind. morning. xxii. the vicar going to call the angel, found him dressed and leaning out of his window. it was a glorious morning, still dewy, and the rising sunlight slanting round the corner of the house, struck warm and yellow upon the hillside. the birds were astir in the hedges and shrubbery. up the hillside--for it was late in august--a plough drove slowly. the angel's chin rested upon his hands and he did not turn as the vicar came up to him. "how's the wing?" said the vicar. "i'd forgotten it," said the angel. "is that yonder a man?" the vicar looked. "that's a ploughman." "why does he go to and fro like that? does it amuse him?" "he's ploughing. that's his work." "work! why does he do it? it seems a monotonous thing to do." "it is," admitted the vicar. "but he has to do it to get a living, you know. to get food to eat and all that kind of thing." "how curious!" said the angel. "do all men have to do that? do you?" "oh, no. he does it for me; does my share." "why?" asked the angel. "oh! in return for things i do for him, you know. we go in for division of labour in this world. exchange is no robbery." "i see," said the angel, with his eyes still on the ploughman's heavy movements. "what do you do for him?" "that seems an easy question to you," said the vicar, "but really!--it's difficult. our social arrangements are rather complicated. it's impossible to explain these things all at once, before breakfast. don't you feel hungry?" "i think i do," said the angel slowly, still at the window; and then abruptly, "somehow i can't help thinking that ploughing must be far from enjoyable." "possibly," said the vicar, "very possibly. but breakfast is ready. won't you come down?" the angel left the window reluctantly. "our society," explained the vicar on the staircase, "is a complicated organisation." "yes?" "and it is so arranged that some do one thing and some another." "and that lean, bent old man trudges after that heavy blade of iron pulled by a couple of horses while we go down to eat?" "yes. you will find it is perfectly just. ah! mushrooms and poached eggs! it's the social system. pray be seated. possibly it strikes you as unfair?" "i'm puzzled," said the angel. "the drink i'm sending you is called coffee," said the vicar. "i daresay you are. when i was a young man i was puzzled in the same way. but afterwards comes a broader view of things. (these black things are called mushrooms; they look beautiful.) other considerations. all men are brothers, of course, but some are younger brothers, so to speak. there is work that requires culture and refinement, and work in which culture and refinement would be an impediment. and the rights of property must not be forgotten. one must render unto cæsar.... do you know, instead of explaining this matter now (this is yours), i think i will lend you a little book to read (_chum_, _chum_, _chum_--these mushrooms are well up to their appearance), which sets the whole thing out very clearly." the violin. xxiii. after breakfast the vicar went into the little room next his study to find a book on political economy for the angel to read. for the angel's social ignorances were clearly beyond any verbal explanations. the door stood ajar. "what is that?" said the angel, following him. "a violin!" he took it down. "you play?" said the vicar. the angel had the bow in his hand, and by way of answer drove it across the strings. the quality of the note made the vicar turn suddenly. the angel's hand tightened on the instrument. the bow flew back and flickered, and an air the vicar had never heard before danced in his ears. the angel shifted the fiddle under his dainty chin and went on playing, and as he played his eyes grew bright and his lips smiled. at first he looked at the vicar, then his expression became abstracted. he seemed no longer to look at the vicar, but through him, at something beyond, something in his memory or his imagination, something infinitely remote, undreamt of hitherto.... the vicar tried to follow the music. the air reminded him of a flame, it rushed up, shone, flickered and danced, passed and reappeared. no!--it did not reappear! another air--like it and unlike it, shot up after it, wavered, vanished. then another, the same and not the same. it reminded him of the flaring tongues that palpitate and change above a newly lit fire. there are two airs--or _motifs_, which is it?--thought the vicar. he knew remarkably little of musical technique. they go dancing up, one pursuing the other, out of the fire of the incantation, pursuing, fluctuating, turning, up into the sky. there below was the fire burning, a flame without fuel upon a level space, and there two flirting butterflies of sound, dancing away from it, up, one over another, swift, abrupt, uncertain. "flirting butterflies were they!" what was the vicar thinking of? where was he? in the little room next to his study, of course! and the angel standing in front of him smiling into his face, playing the violin, and looking through him as though he was only a window----. that _motif_ again, a yellow flare, spread fanlike by a gust, and now one, then with a swift eddying upward flight the other, the two things of fire and light pursuing one another again up into that clear immensity. the study and the realities of life suddenly faded out of the vicar's eyes, grew thinner and thinner like a mist that dissolves into air, and he and the angel stood together on a pinnacle of wrought music, about which glittering melodies circled, and vanished, and reappeared. he was in the land of beauty, and once more the glory of heaven was upon the angel's face, and the glowing delights of colour pulsated in his wings. himself the vicar could not see. but i cannot tell you of the vision of that great and spacious land, of its incredible openness, and height, and nobility. for there is no space there like ours, no time as we know it; one must needs speak by bungling metaphors and own in bitterness after all that one has failed. and it was only a vision. the wonderful creatures flying through the æther saw them not as they stood there, flew through them as one might pass through a whisp of mist. the vicar lost all sense of duration, all sense of necessity---- "ah!" said the angel, suddenly putting down the fiddle. the vicar had forgotten the book on political economy, had forgotten everything until the angel had done. for a minute he sat quite still. then he woke up with a start. he was sitting on the old iron-bound chest. "really," he said slowly, "you are very clever." he looked about him in a puzzled way. "i had a kind of vision while you were playing. i seemed to see----. what did i see? it has gone." he stood up with a dazzled expression upon his face. "i shall never play the violin again," he said. "i wish you would take it to your room--and keep it----. and play to me again. i did not know anything of music until i heard you play. i do not feel as though i had ever heard any music before." he stared at the angel, then about him at the room. "i have never felt anything of this kind with music before," he said. he shook his head. "i shall never play again." the angel explores the village. xxiv. very unwisely, as i think, the vicar allowed the angel to go down into the village by himself, to enlarge his ideas of humanity. unwisely, because how was he to imagine the reception the angel would receive? not thoughtlessly, i am afraid. he had always carried himself with decorum in the village, and the idea of a slow procession through the little street with all the inevitable curious remarks, explanations, pointings, was too much for him. the angel might do the strangest things, the village was certain to think them. peering faces. "who's _he_ got now?" besides, was it not his duty to prepare his sermon in good time? the angel, duly directed, went down cheerfully by himself--still innocent of most of the peculiarities of the human as distinguished from the angelic turn of mind. the angel walked slowly, his white hands folded behind his hunched back, his sweet face looking this way and that. he peered curiously into the eyes of the people he met. a little child picking a bunch of vetch and honeysuckle looked in his face, and forthwith came and put them in his hand. it was about the only kindness he had from a human being (saving only the vicar and one other). he heard mother gustick scolding that granddaughter of hers as he passed the door. "you _brazen_ faggit--you!" said mother gustick. "you trumpery baggage!" the angel stopped, startled at the strange sounds of mother gustick's voice. "put yer best clo'es on, and yer feather in yer 'at, and off you goes to meet en, fal lal, and me at 'ome slaving for ye. 'tis a fancy lady you'll be wantin' to be, my gal, a walkin' touch and go, with yer idleness and finery----" the voice ceased abruptly, and a great peace came upon the battered air. "most grotesque and strange!" said the angel, still surveying this wonderful box of discords. "walking touch and go!" he did not know that mrs gustick had suddenly become aware of his existence, and was scrutinizing his appearance through the window-blind. abruptly the door flew open, and she stared out into the angel's face. a strange apparition, grey and dusty hair, and the dirty pink dress unhooked to show the stringy throat, a discoloured gargoyle, presently to begin spouting incomprehensible abuse. "now, then, mister," began mrs gustick. "have ye nothin' better to do than listen at people's doors for what you can pick up?" the angel stared at her in astonishment. "d'year!" said mrs gustick, evidently very angry indeed. "listenin'." "have you any objection to my hearing...." "object to my hearing! course i have! whad yer think? you aint such a ninny...." "but if ye didn't want me to hear, why did you cry out so loud? i thought...." "_you thought!_ softie--that's what _you_ are! you silly girt staring gaby, what don't know any better than to come holding yer girt mouth wide open for all that you can catch holt on? and then off up there to tell! you great fat-faced, tale-bearin' silly-billy! i'd be ashamed to come poking and peering round quiet people's houses...." the angel was surprised to find that some inexplicable quality in her voice excited the most disagreeable sensations in him and a strong desire to withdraw. but, resisting this, he stood listening politely (as the custom is in the angelic land, so long as anyone is speaking). the entire eruption was beyond his comprehension. he could not perceive any reason for the sudden projection of this vituperative head, out of infinity, so to speak. and questions without a break for an answer were outside his experience altogether. mrs gustick proceeded with her characteristic fluency, assured him he was no gentleman, enquired if he called himself one, remarked that every tramp did as much nowadays, compared him to a stuck pig, marvelled at his impudence, asked him if he wasn't ashamed of himself standing there, enquired if he was rooted to the ground, was curious to be told what he meant by it, wanted to know whether he robbed a scarecrow for his clothes, suggested that an abnormal vanity prompted his behaviour, enquired if his mother knew he was out, and finally remarking, "i got somethin'll move you, my gentleman," disappeared with a ferocious slamming of the door. the interval struck the angel as singularly peaceful. his whirling mind had time to analyse his sensations. he ceased bowing and smiling, and stood merely astonished. "this is a curious painful feeling," said the angel. "almost worse than hungry, and quite different. when one is hungry one wants to eat. i suppose she was a woman. here one wants to get away. i suppose i might just as well go." he turned slowly and went down the road meditating. he heard the cottage door re-open, and turning his head, saw through intervening scarlet runners mrs gustick with a steaming saucepan full of boiling cabbage water in her hand. "'tis well you went, mister stolen breeches," came the voice of mrs gustick floating down through the vermilion blossoms. "don't you come peeping and prying round this yer cottage again or i'll learn ye manners, i will!" the angel stood in a state of considerable perplexity. he had no desire to come within earshot of the cottage again--ever. he did not understand the precise import of the black pot, but his general impression was entirely disagreeable. there was no explaining it. "i _mean_ it!" said mrs gustick, crescendo. "drat it!--i _mean_ it." the angel turned and went on, a dazzled look in his eyes. "she was very grotesque!" said the angel. "_very._ much more than the little man in black. and she means it.---- but what she means i don't know!..." he became silent. "i suppose they all mean something,", he said, presently, still perplexed. xxv. then the angel came in sight of the forge, where sandy bright's brother was shoeing a horse for the carter from upmorton. two hobbledehoys were standing by the forge staring in a bovine way at the proceedings. as the angel approached these two and then the carter turned slowly through an angle of thirty degrees and watched his approach, staring quietly and steadily at him. the expression on their faces was one of abstract interest. the angel became self-conscious for the first time in his life. he drew nearer, trying to maintain an amiable expression on his face, an expression that beat in vain against their granitic stare. his hands were behind him. he smiled pleasantly, looking curiously at the (to him) incomprehensible employment of the smith. but the battery of eyes seemed to angle for his regard. trying to meet the three pairs at once, the angel lost his alertness and stumbled over a stone. one of the yokels gave a sarcastic cough, and was immediately covered with confusion at the angel's enquiring gaze, nudging his companion with his elbow to cover his disorder. none spoke, and the angel did not speak. so soon as the angel had passed, one of the three hummed this tune in an aggressive tone. [illustration: music] then all three of them laughed. one tried to sing something and found his throat contained phlegm. the angel proceeded on his way. "who's _e_ then?" said the second hobbledehoy. "ping, ping, ping," went the blacksmith's hammer. "spose he's one of these here foweners," said the carter from upmorton. "däamned silly fool he do look to be sure." "tas the way with them foweners," said the first hobbledehoy sagely. "got something very like the 'ump," said the carter from upmorton. "dää-ä-ämned if 'e ent." then the silence healed again, and they resumed their quiet expressionless consideration of the angel's retreating figure. "very like the 'ump et is," said the carter after an enormous pause. xxvi. the angel went on through the village, finding it all wonderful enough. "they begin, and just a little while and then they end," he said to himself in a puzzled voice. "but what are they doing meanwhile?" once he heard some invisible mouth chant inaudible words to the tune the man at the forge had hummed. "that's the poor creature the vicar shot with that great gun of his," said sarah glue (of , church cottages) peering over the blind. "he looks frenchified," said susan hopper, peering through the interstices of that convenient veil on curiosity. "he has sweet eyes," said sarah glue, who had met them for a moment. the angel sauntered on. the postman passed him and touched his hat to him; further down was a dog asleep in the sun. he went on and saw mendham, who nodded distantly and hurried past. (the curate did not care to be seen talking to an angel in the village, until more was known about him). there came from one of the houses the sound of a child screaming in a passion, that brought a puzzled look to the angelic face. then the angel reached the bridge below the last of the houses, and stood leaning over the parapet watching the glittering little cascade from the mill. "they begin, and just a little while, and then they end," said the weir from the mill. the water raced under the bridge, green and dark, and streaked with foam. beyond the mill rose the square tower of the church, with the churchyard behind it, a spray of tombstones and wooden headboards splashed up the hillside. a half dozen of beech trees framed the picture. then the angel heard a shuffling of feet and the gride of wheels behind him, and turning his head saw a man dressed in dirty brown rags and a felt hat grey with dust, who was standing with a slight swaying motion and fixedly regarding the angelic back. beyond him was another almost equally dirty, pushing a knife grinder's barrow over the bridge. "mornin'," said the first person smiling weakly. "goomorn'." he arrested an escaping hiccough. the angel stared at him. he had never seen a really fatuous smile before. "who are you?" said the angel. the fatuous smile faded. "no your business whoaaam. wishergoomorn." "carm on:" said the man with the grindstone, passing on his way. "wishergoomorn," said the dirty man, in a tone of extreme aggravation. "carncher answerme?" "carm _on_ you fool!" said the man with the grindstone--receding. "i don't understand," said the angel. "donunderstan'. sim'l enough. wishergoomorn'. willyanswerme? wontchr? gemwishergem goomorn. cusom answer goomorn. no gem. haverteachyer." the angel was puzzled. the drunken man stood swaying for a moment, then he made an unsteady snatch at his hat and threw it down at the angel's feet. "ver well," he said, as one who decides great issues. "_carm_ on!" said the voice of the man with the grindstone--stopping perhaps twenty yards off. "you _wan_ fight, you ----" the angel failed to catch the word. "i'll show yer, not answer gem's goomorn." he began to struggle with his jacket. "think i'm drun," he said, "i show yer." the man with the grindstone sat down on the shaft to watch. "carm on," he said. the jacket was intricate, and the drunken man began to struggle about the road, in his attempts to extricate himself, breathing threatenings and slaughter. slowly the angel began to suspect, remotely enough, that these demonstrations were hostile. "mur wun know yer when i done wi' yer," said the drunken man, coat almost over his head. at last the garment lay on the ground, and through the frequent interstices of his reminiscences of a waistcoat, the drunken tinker displayed a fine hairy and muscular body to the angel's observant eyes. he squared up in masterly fashion. "take the paint off yer," he remarked, advancing and receding, fists up and elbows out. "carm on," floated down the road. the angel's attention was concentrated on two huge hairy black fists, that swayed and advanced and retreated. "come on d'yer say? i'll show yer," said the gentleman in rags, and then with extraordinary ferocity; "my crikey! i'll show yer." suddenly he lurched forward, and with a newborn instinct and raising a defensive arm as he did so, the angel stepped aside to avoid him. the fist missed the angelic shoulder by a hairsbreadth, and the tinker collapsed in a heap with his face against the parapet of the bridge. the angel hesitated over the writhing dusty heap of blasphemy for a moment, and then turned towards the man's companion up the road. "lemmeget up," said the man on the bridge: "lemmeget up, you swine. i'll show yer." a strange disgust, a quivering repulsion came upon the angel. he walked slowly away from the drunkard towards the man with the grindstone. "what does it all mean?" said the angel. "i don't understand it." "dam fool!... say's it's 'is silver weddin'," answered the man with the grindstone, evidently much annoyed; and then, in a tone of growing impatience, he called down the road once more; "carm on!" "silver wedding!" said the angel. "what is a silver wedding?" "jest is rot," said the man on the barrow. "but 'e's always avin' some 'scuse like that. fair sickenin it is. lars week it wus 'is bloomin' birthday, and _then_ 'e ad'nt ardly got sober orf a comlimentary drunk to my noo barrer. (_carm_ on, you fool.)" "but i don't understand," said the angel. "why does he sway about so? why does he keep on trying to pick up his hat like that--and missing it?" "_why!_" said the tinker. "well this _is_ a blasted innocent country! _why!_ because 'e's blind! wot else? (carm on--_dam_ yer). because 'e's just as full as 'e can 'old. that's _why_!" the angel noticing the tone of the second tinker's voice, judged it wiser not to question him further. but he stood by the grindstone and continued to watch the mysterious evolutions on the bridge. "carm on! i shall 'ave to go and pick up that 'at i suppose.... 'e's always at it. i ne'er 'ad such a blooming pard before. _always_ at it, 'e is." the man with the barrow meditated. "taint as if 'e was a gentleman and 'adnt no livin' to get. an' 'e's such a reckless fool when 'e gets a bit on. goes offerin out everyone 'e meets. (_there_ you go!) i'm blessed if 'e didn't offer out a 'ole bloomin' salvation army. no judgment in it. (oh! _carm_ on! _carm_ on!). 'ave to go and pick this bloomin' 'at up now i s'pose. 'e don't care, _wot_ trouble 'e gives." the angel watched the second tinker walk back, and, with affectionate blasphemy, assist the first to his hat and his coat. then he turned, absolutely mystified, towards the village again. xxvii. after that incident the angel walked along past the mill and round behind the church, to examine the tombstones. "this seems to be the place where they put the broken pieces," said the angel--reading the inscriptions. "curious word--relict! resurgam! then they are not done with quite. what a huge pile it requires to keep her down.... it is spirited of her." "hawkins?" said the angel softly,.... "_hawkins?_ the name is strange to me.... he did not die then.... it is plain enough,--joined the angelic hosts, may , . he must have felt as much out of place as i do down here. but i wonder why they put that little pot thing on the top of this monument. curious! there are several others about--little stone pots with a rag of stiff stone drapery over them." just then the boys came pouring out of the national school, and first one and then several stopped agape at the angel's crooked black figure among the white tombs. "ent 'e gart a bääk on en!" remarked one critic. "'e's got 'air like a girl!" said another. the angel turned towards them. he was struck by the queer little heads sticking up over the lichenous wall. he smiled faintly at their staring faces, and then turned to marvel at the iron railings that enclosed the fitz-jarvis tomb. "a queer air of uncertainty," he said. "slabs, piles of stone, these railings.... are they afraid?... do these dead ever try and get up again? there's an air of repression--fortification----" "gét yer _'air_ cut, gét yer _'air_ cut," sang three little boys together. "curious these human beings are!" said the angel. "that man yesterday wanted to cut off my wings, now these little creatures want me to cut off my hair! and the man on the bridge offered to take the 'paint' off me. they will leave nothing of me soon." "where did you get that _'at_?" sang another little boy. "where did you get them clo'es?" "they ask questions that they evidently do not want answered," said the angel. "i can tell from the tone." he looked thoughtfully at the little boys. "i don't understand the methods of human intercourse. these are probably friendly advances, a kind of ritual. but i don't know the responses. i think i will go back to the little fat man in black, with the gold chain across his stomach, and ask him to explain. it is difficult." he turned towards the lych gate. "_oh!_" said one of the little boys, in a shrill falsetto, and threw a beech-nut husk. it came bounding across the churchyard path. the angel stopped in surprise. this made all the little boys laugh. a second imitating the first, said "_oh!_" and hit the angel. his astonishment was really delicious. they all began crying "_oh!_" and throwing beechnut husks. one hit the angel's hand, another stung him smartly by the ear. the angel made ungainly movements towards them. he spluttered some expostulation and made for the roadway. the little boys were amazed and shocked at his discomfiture and cowardice. such sawney behaviour could not be encouraged. the pelting grew vigorously. you may perhaps be able to imagine those vivid moments, daring small boys running in close and delivering shots, milder small boys rushing round behind with flying discharges. milton screever's mongrel dog was roused to yelping ecstacy at the sight, and danced (full of wild imaginings) nearer and nearer to the angelic legs. "hi, hi!" said a vigorous voice. "i never did! where's mr jarvis? manners, manners! you young rascals." the youngsters scattered right and left, some over the wall into the playground, some down the street. "frightful pest these boys are getting!" said crump, coming up. "i'm sorry they have been annoying you." the angel seemed quite upset. "i don't understand," he said. "these human ways...." "yes, of course. unusual to you. how's your excrescence?" "my what?" said the angel. "bifid limb, you know. how is it? now you're down this way, come in. come in and let me have a look at it again. you young roughs! and meanwhile these little louts of ours will be getting off home. they're all alike in these villages. _can't_ understand anything abnormal. see an odd-looking stranger. chuck a stone. no imagination beyond the parish.... (i'll give you physic if i catch you annoying strangers again.) ... i suppose it's what one might expect.... come along this way." so the angel, horribly perplexed still, was hurried into the surgery to have his wound re-dressed. lady hammergallow's view. xxviii. in siddermorton park is siddermorton house, where old lady hammergallow lives, chiefly upon burgundy and the little scandals of the village, a dear old lady with a ropy neck, a ruddled countenance and spasmodic gusts of odd temper, whose three remedies for all human trouble among her dependents are, a bottle of gin, a pair of charity blankets, or a new crown piece. the house is a mile-and-a-half out of siddermorton. almost all the village is hers, saving a fringe to the south which belongs to sir john gotch, and she rules it with an autocratic rule, refreshing in these days of divided government. she orders and forbids marriages, drives objectionable people out of the village by the simple expedient of raising their rent, dismisses labourers, obliges heretics to go to church, and made susan dangett, who wanted to call her little girl 'euphemia,' have the infant christened 'mary-anne.' she is a sturdy broad protestant and disapproves of the vicar's going bald like a tonsure. she is on the village council, which obsequiously trudges up the hill and over the moor to her, and (as she is a trifle deaf) speaks all its speeches into her speaking trumpet instead of a rostrum. she takes no interest now in politics, but until last year she was an active enemy of "that gladstone." she has parlour maids instead of footmen to do her waiting, because of hockley, the american stockbroker, and his four titans in plush. she exercises what is almost a fascination upon the village. if in the bar-parlour of the cat and cornucopia you swear by god no one would be shocked, but if you swore by lady hammergallow they would probably be shocked enough to turn you out of the room. when she drives through siddermorton she always calls upon bessy flump, the post-mistress, to hear all that has happened, and then upon miss finch, the dressmaker, to check back bessy flump. sometimes she calls upon the vicar, sometimes upon mrs mendham whom she snubs, and even sometimes on crump. her sparkling pair of greys almost ran over the angel as he was walking down to the village. "so _that's_ the genius!" said lady hammergallow, and turned and looked at him through the gilt glasses on a stick that she always carried in her shrivelled and shaky hand. "lunatic indeed! the poor creature has rather a pretty face. i'm sorry i've missed him." but she went on to the vicarage nevertheless, and demanded news of it all. the conflicting accounts of miss flump, miss finch, mrs mendham, crump, and mrs jehoram had puzzled her immensely. the vicar, hard pressed, did all he could to say into her speaking trumpet what had really happened. he toned down the wings and the saffron robe. but he felt the case was hopeless. he spoke of his protégé as "mr" angel. he addressed pathetic asides to the kingfisher. the old lady noticed his confusion. her queer old head went jerking backwards and forwards, now the speaking trumpet in his face when he had nothing to say, then the shrunken eyes peering at him, oblivious of the explanation that was coming from his lips. a great many ohs! and ahs! she caught some fragments certainly. "you have asked him to stop with you--indefinitely?" said lady hammergallow with a great idea taking shape rapidly in her mind. "i did--perhaps inadvertently--make such--" "and you don't know where he comes from?" "not at all." "nor who his father is, i suppose?" said lady hammergallow mysteriously. "no," said the vicar. "_now!_" said lady hammergallow archly, and keeping her glasses to her eye, she suddenly dug at his ribs with her trumpet. "my _dear_ lady hammergallow!" "i thought so. don't think _i_ would blame you, mr hilyer." she gave a corrupt laugh that she delighted in. "the world is the world, and men are men. and the poor boy's a cripple, eh? a kind of judgment. in mourning, i noticed. it reminds me of the _scarlet letter_. the mother's dead, i suppose. it's just as well. really--i'm not a _narrow_ woman--i _respect_ you for having him. really i do." "but, _lady_ hammergallow!" "don't spoil everything by denying it. it is so very, very plain, to a woman of the world. that mrs mendham! she amuses me with her suspicions. such odd ideas! in a curate's wife. but i hope it didn't happen when you were in orders." "lady hammergallow, i protest. upon my word." "mr hilyer, i protest. i _know_. not anything you can say will alter my opinion one jot. don't try. i never suspected you were nearly such an interesting man." "but this suspicion is unendurable!" "we will help him together, mr hilyer. you may rely upon me. it is most romantic." she beamed benevolence. "but, lady hammergallow, i _must_ speak!" she gripped her ear-trumpet resolutely, and held it before her and shook her head. "he has quite a genius for music, vicar, so i hear?" "i can assure you most solemnly--" "i thought so. and being a cripple--" "you are under a most cruel--" "i thought that if his gift is really what that jehoram woman says." "an unjustifiable suspicion that ever a man--" ("i don't think much of her judgment, of course.") "consider my position. have i gained _no_ character?" "it might be possible to do something for him as a performer." "have i--(_bother! it's no good!_)" "and so, dear vicar, i propose to give him an opportunity of showing us what he can do. i have been thinking it all over as i drove here. on tuesday next, i will invite just a few people of taste, and he shall bring his violin. eigh? and if that goes well, i will see if i can get some introductions and really _push_ him." "but _lady_, lady hammergallow." "not another word!" said lady hammergallow, still resolutely holding her speaking trumpet before her and clutching her eyeglasses. "i really must not leave those horses. cutler is so annoyed if i keep them too long. he finds waiting tedious, poor man, unless there is a public-house near." she made for the door. "_damn!_" said the vicar, under his breath. he had never used the word since he had taken orders. it shows you how an angel's visit may disorganize a man. he stood under the verandah watching the carriage drive away. the world seemed coming to pieces about him. had he lived a virtuous celibate life for thirty odd years in vain? the things of which these people thought him capable! he stood and stared at the green cornfield opposite, and down at the straggling village. it seemed real enough. and yet for the first time in his life there was a queer doubt of its reality. he rubbed his chin, then turned and went slowly upstairs to his dressing-room, and sat for a long time staring at a garment of some yellow texture. "know his father!" he said. "and he is immortal, and was fluttering about his heaven when my ancestors were marsupials.... i wish he was there now." he got up and began to feel the robe. "i wonder how they get such things," said the vicar. then he went and stared out of the window. "i suppose everything is wonderful, even the rising and setting of the sun. i suppose there is no adamantine ground for any belief. but one gets into a regular way of taking things. this disturbs it. i seem to be waking up to the invisible. it is the strangest of uncertainties. i have not felt so stirred and unsettled since my adolescence." further adventures of the angel in the village. xxix. "that's all right," said crump when the bandaging was replaced. "it's a trick of memory, no doubt, but these excrescences of yours don't seem nearly so large as they did yesterday. i suppose they struck me rather forcibly. stop and have lunch with me now you're down here. midday meal, you know. the youngsters will be swallowed up by school again in the afternoon." "i never saw anything heal so well in my life," he said, as they walked into the dining-room. "your blood and flesh must be as clean and free from bacteria as they make 'em. whatever stuff there is in your head," he added _sotto voce_. at lunch he watched the angel narrowly, and talked to draw him out. "journey tire you yesterday?" he said suddenly. "journey!" said the angel. "oh! my wings felt a little stiff." ("not to be had,") said crump to himself. ("suppose i must enter into it.") "so you flew all the way, eigh? no conveyance?" "there wasn't any way," explained the angel, taking mustard. "i was flying up a symphony with some griffins and fiery cherubim, and suddenly everything went dark and i was in this world of yours." "dear me!" said crump. "and that's why you haven't any luggage." he drew his serviette across his mouth, and a smile flickered in his eyes. "i suppose you know this world of ours pretty well? watching us over the adamantine walls and all that kind of thing. eigh?" "not very well. we dream of it sometimes. in the moonlight, when the nightmares have fanned us to sleep with their wings." "ah, yes--of course," said crump. "very poetical way of putting it. won't you take some burgundy? it's just beside you." "there's a persuasion in this world, you know, that angels' visits are by no means infrequent. perhaps some of your--friends have travelled? they are supposed to come down to deserving persons in prisons, and do refined nautches and that kind of thing. faust business, you know." "i've never heard of anything of the kind," said the angel. "only the other day a lady whose baby was my patient for the time being--indigestion--assured me that certain facial contortions the little creature made indicated that it was dreaming of angels. in the novels of mrs henry wood that is spoken of as an infallible symptom of an early departure. i suppose you can't throw any light on that obscure pathological manifestation?" "i don't understand it at all," said the angel, puzzled, and not clearly apprehending the doctor's drift. ("getting huffy,") said crump to himself. ("sees i'm poking fun at him.") "there's one thing i'm curious about. do the new arrivals complain much about their medical attendants? i've always fancied there must be a good deal of hydropathic talk just at first. i was looking at that picture in the academy only this june...." "new arrivals!" said the angel. "i really don't follow you." the doctor stared. "don't they come?" "come!" said the angel. "who?" "the people who die here." "after they've gone to pieces here?" "that's the general belief, you know." "people, like the woman who screamed out of the door, and the blackfaced man and his volutations and the horrible little things that threw husks!--certainly not. _i_ never saw such creatures before i fell into this world." "oh! but come!" said the doctor. "you'll tell me next your official robes are not white and that you can't play the harp." "there's no such thing as white in the angelic land," said the angel. "it's that queer blank colour you get by mixing up all the others." "why, my dear sir!" said the doctor, suddenly altering his tone, "you positively know nothing about the land you come from. white's the very essence of it." the angel stared at him. was the man jesting? he looked perfectly serious. "look here," said crump, and getting up, he went to the sideboard on which a copy of the parish magazine was lying. he brought it round to the angel and opened it at the coloured supplement. "here's some _real_ angels," he said. "you see it's not simply the wings make the angel. white you see, with a curly whisp of robe, sailing up into the sky with their wings furled. those are angels on the best authority. hydroxyl kind of hair. one has a bit of a harp, you see, and the other is helping this wingless lady--kind of larval angel, you know--upward." "oh! but really!" said the angel, "those are not angels at all." "but they _are_," said crump, putting the magazine back on the sideboard and resuming his seat with an air of intense satisfaction. "i can assure you i have the _best_ authority...." "i can assure you...." crump tucked in the corners of his mouth and shook his head from side to side even as he had done to the vicar. "no good," he said, "can't alter our ideas just because an irresponsible visitor...." "if these are angels," said the angel, "then i have never been in the angelic land." "precisely," said crump, ineffably self-satisfied; "that was just what i was getting at." the angel stared at him for a minute round-eyed, and then was seized for the second time by the human disorder of laughter. "ha, ha, ha!" said crump, joining in. "i _thought_ you were not quite so mad as you seemed. ha, ha, ha!" and for the rest of the lunch they were both very merry, for entirely different reasons, and crump insisted upon treating the angel as a "dorg" of the highest degree. xxx. after the angel had left crump's house he went up the hill again towards the vicarage. but--possibly moved by the desire to avoid mrs gustick--he turned aside at the stile and made a detour by the lark's field and bradley's farm. he came upon the respectable tramp slumbering peacefully among the wild-flowers. he stopped to look, struck by the celestial tranquillity of that individual's face. and even as he did so the respectable tramp awoke with a start and sat up. he was a pallid creature, dressed in rusty black, with a broken-spirited crush hat cocked over one eye. "good afternoon," he said affably. "how are you?" "very well, thank you," said the angel, who had mastered the phrase. the respectable tramp eyed the angel critically. "padding the hoof, matey?" he said. "like me." the angel was puzzled by him. "why," asked the angel, "do you sleep like this instead of sleeping up in the air on a bed?" "well i'm blowed!" said the respectable tramp. "why don't i sleep in a bed? well, it's like this. sandringham's got the painters in, there's the drains up in windsor castle, and i 'aven't no other 'ouse to go to. you 'aven't the price of a arf pint in your pocket, 'ave yer?" "i have nothing in my pocket," said the angel. "is this here village called siddermorton?" said the tramp, rising creakily to his feet and pointing to the clustering roofs down the hill. "yes," said the angel, "they call it siddermorton." "i know it, i know it," said the tramp. "and a very pretty little village it is too." he stretched and yawned, and stood regarding the place. "'ouses," he said reflectively; "projuce"--waving his hand at the cornfields and orchards. "looks cosy, don't it?" "it has a quaint beauty of its own," said the angel. "it _'as_ a quaint beauty of its own--yes.... lord! i'd like to sack the blooming place.... i was born there." "dear me," said the angel. "yes, i was born there. ever heard of a pithed frog?" "pithed frog," said the angel. "no!" "it's a thing these here vivisectionists do. they takes a frog and they cuts out his brains and they shoves a bit of pith in the place of 'em. that's a pithed frog. well--that there village is full of pithed human beings." the angel took it quite seriously. "is that so?" he said. "that's so--you take my word for it. everyone of them 'as 'ad their brains cut out and chunks of rotten touchwood put in the place of it. and you see that little red place there?" "that's called the national school," said the angel. "yes--that's where they piths 'em," said the tramp, quite in love with his conceit. "really! that's very interesting." "it stands to reason," said the tramp. "if they 'ad brains they'd 'ave ideas, and if they 'ad ideas they'd think for themselves. and you can go through that village from end to end and never meet anybody doing as much. pithed human beings they are. i know that village. i was born there, and i might be there now, a toilin' for my betters, if i 'adnt struck against the pithin'." "is it a painful operation?" asked the angel. "in parts. though it aint the heads gets hurt. and it lasts a long time. they take 'em young into that school, and they says to them, 'come in 'ere and we'll improve your minds,' they says, and in the little kiddies go as good as gold. and they begins shovin' it into them. bit by bit and 'ard and dry, shovin' out the nice juicy brains. dates and lists and things. out they comes, no brains in their 'eads, and wound up nice and tight, ready to touch their 'ats to anyone who looks at them. why! one touched 'is 'at to me yesterday. and they runs about spry and does all the dirty work, and feels thankful they're allowed to live. they take a positive pride in 'ard work for its own sake. arter they bin pithed. see that chap ploughin'?" "yes," said the angel; "is _he_ pithed?" "rather. else he'd be paddin' the hoof this pleasant weather--like me and the blessed apostles." "i begin to understand," said the angel, rather dubiously. "i knew you would," said the philosophical tramp. "i thought you was the right sort. but speaking serious, aint it ridiculous?--centuries and centuries of civilization, and look at that poor swine there, sweatin' 'isself empty and trudging up that 'ill-side. 'e's english, 'e is. 'e belongs to the top race in creation, 'e does. 'e's one of the rulers of indjer. it's enough to make a nigger laugh. the flag that's braved a thousand years the battle an' the breeze--that's _'is_ flag. there never was a country was as great and glorious as this. never. and that's wot it makes of us. i'll tell you a little story about them parts as you seems to be a bit of a stranger. there's a chap called gotch, sir john gotch they calls 'im, and when _'e_ was a young gent from oxford, i was a little chap of eight and my sister was a girl of seventeen. their servant she was. but lord! everybody's 'eard that story--it's common enough, of 'im or the likes of 'im." "i haven't," said the angel. "all that's pretty and lively of the gals they chucks into the gutters, and all the men with a pennorth of spunk or adventure, all who won't drink what the curate's wife sends 'em instead of beer, and touch their hats promiscous, and leave the rabbits and birds alone for their betters, gets drove out of the villages as rough characters. patriotism! talk about improvin' the race! wot's left aint fit to look a nigger in the face, a chinaman 'ud be ashamed of 'em...." "but i don't understand," said the angel. "i don't follow you." at that the philosophic tramp became more explicit, and told the angel the simple story of sir john gotch and the kitchen-maid. it's scarcely necessary to repeat it. you may understand that it left the angel puzzled. it was full of words he did not understand, for the only vehicle of emotion the tramp possessed was blasphemy. yet, though their tongues differed so, he could still convey to the angel some of his own (probably unfounded) persuasion of the injustice and cruelty of life, and of the utter detestableness of sir john gotch. the last the angel saw of him was his dusty black back receding down the lane towards iping hanger. a pheasant appeared by the roadside, and the philosophical tramp immediately caught up a stone and sent the bird clucking with a viciously accurate shot. then he disappeared round the corner. mrs jehoram's breadth of view. xxxi "i heard some one playing the fiddle in the vicarage, as i came by," said mrs jehoram, taking her cup of tea from mrs mendham. "the vicar plays," said mrs mendham. "i have spoken to george about it, but it's no good. i do not think a vicar should be allowed to do such things. it's so foreign. but there, _he_ ...." "i know, dear," said mrs jehoram. "but i heard the vicar once at the schoolroom. i don't think this _was_ the vicar. it was quite clever, some of it, quite smart, you know. and new. i was telling dear lady hammergallow this morning. i fancy--" "the lunatic! very likely. these half-witted people.... my dear, i don't think i shall ever forget that dreadful encounter. yesterday." "nor i." "my poor girls! they are too shocked to say a word about it. i was telling dear lady ham----" "quite proper of them. it was _dreadful_, dear. for them." "and now, dear, i want you to tell me frankly--do you really believe that creature was a man?" "you should have heard the violin." "i still more than half suspect, jessie ----" mrs mendham leant forward as if to whisper. mrs jehoram helped herself to cake. "i'm sure no woman could play the violin quite like i heard it played this morning." "of course, if you say so that settles the matter," said mrs mendham. mrs jehoram was the autocratic authority in siddermorton upon all questions of art, music and belles-lettres. her late husband had been a minor poet. then mrs mendham added a judicial "still--" "do you know," said mrs jehoram, "i'm half inclined to believe the dear vicar's story." "how _good_ of you, jessie," said mrs mendham. "but really, i don't think he _could_ have had any one in the vicarage before that afternoon. i feel sure we should have heard of it. i don't see how a strange cat could come within four miles of siddermorton without the report coming round to us. the people here gossip so...." "i always distrust the vicar," said mrs mendham. "i know him." "yes. but the story is plausible. if this mr angel were someone very clever and eccentric--" "he would have to be _very_ eccentric to dress as he did. there are degrees and limits, dear." "but kilts," said mrs jehoram. "are all very well in the highlands...." mrs jehoram's eyes had rested upon a black speck creeping slowly across a patch of yellowish-green up the hill. "there he goes," said mrs jehoram, rising, "across the cornfield. i'm sure that's him. i can see the hump. unless it's a man with a sack. bless me, minnie! here's an opera glass. how convenient for peeping at the vicarage!... yes, it's the man. he is a man. with _such_ a sweet face." very unselfishly she allowed her hostess to share the opera glass. for a minute there was a rustling silence. "his dress," said mrs mendham, "is _quite_ respectable now." "quite," said mrs jehoram. pause. "he looks cross!" "and his coat is dusty." "he walks steadily enough," said mrs mendham, "or one might think.... this hot weather...." another pause. "you see, dear," said mrs jehoram, putting down the lorgnette. "what i was going to say was, that possibly he might be a genius in disguise." "if you can call next door to nothing a disguise." "no doubt it was eccentric. but i've seen children in little blouses, not at all unlike him. so many clever people _are_ peculiar in their dress and manners. a genius may steal a horse where a bank-clerk may not look over the hedge. very possibly he's quite well known and laughing at our arcadian simplicity. and really it wasn't so improper as some of these new women bicycling costumes. i saw one in one of the illustrated papers only a few days ago--the _new budget_ i think--quite tights, you know, dear. no--i cling to the genius theory. especially after the playing. i'm sure the creature is original. perhaps very amusing. in fact, i intend to ask the vicar to introduce me." "my dear!" cried mrs mendham. "i'm resolute," said mrs jehoram. "i'm afraid you're rash," said mrs mendham. "geniuses and people of that kind are all very well in london. but here--at the vicarage." "we are going to educate the folks. i love originality. at any rate i mean to see him." "take care you don't see too much of him," said mrs mendham. "i've heard the fashion is quite changing. i understand that some of the very best people have decided that genius is not to be encouraged any more. these recent scandals...." "only in literature, i can assure you, dear. in music...." "nothing you can say, my dear," said mrs mendham, going off at a tangent, "will convince me that that person's costume was not extremely suggestive and improper." a trivial incident. xxxii. the angel came thoughtfully by the hedge across the field towards the vicarage. the rays of the setting sun shone on his shoulders, and touched the vicarage with gold, and blazed like fire in all the windows. by the gate, bathed in the sunlight, stood little delia, the waiting maid. she stood watching him under her hand. it suddenly came into the angel's mind that she, at least, was beautiful, and not only beautiful but alive and warm. she opened the gate for him and stood aside. she was sorry for him, for her elder sister was a cripple. he bowed to her, as he would have done to any woman, and for just one moment looked into her face. she looked back at him and something leapt within her. the angel made an irresolute movement. "your eyes are very beautiful," he said quietly, with a remote wonder in his voice. "oh, sir!" she said, starting back. the angel's expression changed to perplexity. he went on up the pathway between the vicar's flower-beds, and she stood with the gate held open in her hand, staring after him. just under the rose-twined verandah he turned and looked at her. she still stared at him for a moment, and then with a queer gesture turned round with her back to him, shutting the gate as she did so, and seemed to be looking down the valley towards the church tower. the warp and the woof of things. xxxiii. at the dinner table the angel told the vicar the more striking of his day's adventures. "the strange thing," said the angel, "is the readiness of you human beings--the zest, with which you inflict pain. those boys pelting me this morning----" "seemed to enjoy it," said the vicar. "i know." "yet they don't like pain," said the angel. "no," said the vicar; "_they_ don't like it." "then," said the angel, "i saw some beautiful plants rising with a spike of leaves, two this way and two that, and when i caressed one it caused the most uncomfortable----" "stinging nettle!" said the vicar. "at any rate a new sort of pain. and another plant with a head like a coronet, and richly decorated leaves, spiked and jagged----" "a thistle, possibly." "and in your garden, the beautiful, sweet-smelling plant----" "the sweet briar," said the vicar. "i remember." "and that pink flower that sprang out of the box----" "out of the box?" said the vicar. "last night," said the angel, "that went climbing up the curtains---- flame!" "oh!--the matches and the candles! yes," said the vicar. "then the animals. a dog to-day behaved most disagreeably----. and these boys, and the way in which people speak----. everyone seems anxious--willing at any rate--to give this pain. every one seems busy giving pain----" "or avoiding it," said the vicar, pushing his dinner away before him. "yes--of course. it's fighting everywhere. the whole living world is a battle-field--the whole world. we are driven by pain. here. how it lies on the surface! this angel sees it in a day!" "but why does everyone--everything--want to give pain?" asked the angel. "it is not so in the angelic land?" said the vicar. "no," said the angel. "why is it so here?" the vicar wiped his lips with his napkin slowly. "it _is_ so," he said. "pain," said he still more slowly, "is the warp and the woof of this life. do you know," he said, after a pause, "it is almost impossible for me to imagine ... a world without pain.... and yet, as you played this morning---- "but this world is different. it is the very reverse of an angelic world. indeed, a number of people--excellent religious people--have been so impressed by the universality of pain that they think, after death, things will be even worse for a great many of us. it seems to me an excessive view. but it's a deep question. almost beyond one's power of discussion----" and incontinently the vicar plumped into an impromptu dissertation upon "necessity," how things were so because they were so, how one _had_ to do this and that. "even our food," said the vicar. "what?" said the angel. "is not obtained without inflicting pain," said the vicar. the angel's face went so white that the vicar checked himself suddenly. or he was just on the very verge of a concise explanation of the antecedents of a leg of lamb. there was a pause. "by-the-bye," said the angel, suddenly. "have you been pithed? like the common people." the angel's debut. xxxiv. when lady hammergallow made up her mind, things happened as she resolved. and though the vicar made a spasmodic protest, she carried out her purpose and got audience, angel, and violin together, at siddermorton house before the week was out. "a genius the vicar has discovered," she said; so with eminent foresight putting any possibility of blame for a failure on the vicar's shoulders. "the dear vicar tells me," she would say, and proceed to marvellous anecdotes of the angel's cleverness with his instrument. but she was quite in love with her idea--she had always had a secret desire to play the patroness to obscure talent. hitherto it had not turned out to be talent when it came to the test. "it would be such a good thing for him," she said. "his hair is long already, and with that high colour he would be beautiful, simply beautiful on a platform. the vicar's clothes fitting him so badly makes him look quite like a fashionable pianist already. and the scandal of his birth--not told, of course, but whispered--would be--quite an inducement----when he gets to london, that is." the vicar had the most horrible sensations as the day approached. he spent hours trying to explain the situation to the angel, other hours trying to imagine what people would think, still worse hours trying to anticipate the angel's behaviour. hitherto the angel had always played for his own satisfaction. the vicar would startle him every now and then by rushing upon him with some new point of etiquette that had just occurred to him. as for instance: "it's very important where you put your hat, you know. don't put it on a chair, whatever you do. hold it until you get your tea, you know, and then--let me see--then put it down somewhere, you know." the journey to siddermorton house was accomplished without misadventure, but at the moment of introduction the vicar had a spasm of horrible misgivings. he had forgotten to explain introductions. the angel's naïve amusement was evident, but nothing very terrible happened. "rummy looking greaser," said mr rathbone slater, who devoted considerable attention to costume. "wants grooming. no manners. grinned when he saw me shaking hands. did it _chic_ enough, i thought." one trivial misadventure occurred. when lady hammergallow welcomed the angel she looked at him through her glasses. the apparent size of her eyes startled him. his surprise and his quick attempt to peer over the brims was only too evident. but the vicar had warned him of the ear trumpet. the angel's incapacity to sit on anything but a music stool appeared to excite some interest among the ladies, but led to no remarks. they regarded it perhaps as the affectation of a budding professional. he was remiss with the teacups and scattered the crumbs of his cake abroad. (you must remember he was quite an amateur at eating.) he crossed his legs. he fumbled over the hat business after vainly trying to catch the vicar's eye. the eldest miss papaver tried to talk to him about continental watering places and cigarettes, and formed a low opinion of his intelligence. the angel was surprised by the production of an easel and several books of music, and a little unnerved at first by the sight of lady hammergallow sitting with her head on one side, watching him with those magnified eyes through her gilt glasses. mrs jehoram came up to him before he began to play and asked him the name of the charming piece he was playing the other afternoon. the angel said it had no name, and mrs jehoram thought music ought never to have any names and wanted to know who it was by, and when the angel told her he played it out of his head, she said he must be quite a genius and looked open (and indisputably fascinating) admiration at him. the curate from iping hanger (who was professionally a kelt and who played the piano and talked colour and music with an air of racial superiority) watched him jealously. the vicar, who was presently captured and set down next to lady hammergallow, kept an anxious eye ever angelward while she told him particulars of the incomes made by violinists--particulars which, for the most part, she invented as she went along. she had been a little ruffled by the incident of the glasses, but had decided that it came within the limits of permissible originality. so figure to yourself the green saloon at siddermorton park; an angel thinly disguised in clerical vestments and with a violin in his hands, standing by the grand piano, and a respectable gathering of quiet nice people, nicely dressed, grouped about the room. anticipatory gabble--one hears scattered fragments of conversation. "he is _incog._"; said the very eldest miss papaver to mrs pirbright. "isn't it quaint and delicious. jessica jehoram says she saw him at vienna, but she can't remember the name. the vicar knows all about him, but he is so close----" "how hot and uncomfortable the dear vicar is looking," said mrs pirbright. "i've noticed it before when he sits next to lady hammergallow. she simply will _not_ respect his cloth. she goes on----" "his tie is all askew," said the very eldest miss papaver, "and his hair! it really hardly looks as though he had brushed it all day." "seems a foreign sort of chap. affected. all very well in a drawing-room," said george harringay, sitting apart with the younger miss pirbright. "but for my part give me a masculine man and a feminine woman. what do you think?" "oh!--i think so too," said the younger miss pirbright. "guineas and guineas," said lady hammergallow. "i've heard that some of them keep quite stylish establishments. you would scarcely credit it----" "i love music, mr angel, i adore it. it stirs something in me. i can scarcely describe it," said mrs jehoram. "who is it says that delicious antithesis: life without music is brutality; music without life is---- dear me! perhaps you remember? music without life----it's ruskin i think?" "i'm sorry that i do not," said the angel. "i have read very few books." "how charming of you!" said mrs jehoram. "i wish i didn't. i sympathise with you profoundly. i would do the same, only we poor women----i suppose it's originality we lack---- and down here one is driven to the most desperate proceedings----" "he's certainly very _pretty_. but the ultimate test of a man is his strength," said george harringay. "what do you think?" "oh!--i think so too," said the younger miss pirbright. "it's the effeminate man who makes the masculine woman. when the glory of a man is his hair, what's a woman to do? and when men go running about with beautiful hectic dabs----" "oh george! you are so dreadfully satirical to-day," said the younger miss pirbright. "i'm _sure_ it isn't paint." "i'm really not his guardian, my dear lady hammergallow. of course it's very kind indeed of you to take such an interest----" "are you really going to improvise?" said mrs jehoram in a state of cooing delight. "_sssh!_" said the curate from iping hanger. then the angel began to play, looking straight before him as he did so, thinking of the wonderful things of the angelic land, and yet insensibly letting the sadness he was beginning to feel, steal over the fantasia he was playing. when he forgot his company the music was strange and sweet; when the sense of his surroundings floated into his mind the music grew capricious and grotesque. but so great was the hold of the angelic music upon the vicar that his anxieties fell from him at once, so soon as the angel began to play. mrs jehoram sat and looked rapt and sympathetic as hard as she could (though the music was puzzling at times) and tried to catch the angel's eye. he really had a wonderfully mobile face, and the tenderest shades of expression! and mrs jehoram was a judge. george harringay looked bored, until the younger miss pirbright, who adored him, put out her mousy little shoe to touch his manly boot, and then he turned his face to catch the feminine delicacy of her coquettish eye, and was comforted. the very eldest miss papaver and mrs pirbright sat quite still and looked churchy for nearly four minutes. then said the eldest miss papaver in a whisper, "i always enjoy violin music so much." and mrs pirbright answered, "we get so little nice music down here." and miss papaver said, "he plays very nicely." and mrs pirbright, "such a delicate touch!" and miss papaver, "does willie keep up his lessons?" and so to a whispered conversation. the curate from iping hanger sat (he felt) in full view of the company. he had one hand curled round his ear, and his eyes hard and staring fixedly at the pedestal of the hammergallow sèvres vase. he supplied, by the movements of his mouth, a kind of critical guide to any of the company who were disposed to avail themselves of it. it was a generous way he had. his aspect was severely judicial, tempered by starts of evident disapproval and guarded appreciation. the vicar leaned back in his chair and stared at the angel's face, and was presently rapt away in a wonderful dream. lady hammergallow, with quick jerky movements of the head and a low but insistent rustling, surveyed and tried to judge of the effect of the angelic playing. mr rathbone-slater stared very solemnly into his hat and looked very miserable, and mrs rathbone-slater made mental memoranda of mrs jehoram's sleeves. and the air about them all was heavy with exquisite music--for all that had ears to hear. "scarcely affected enough," whispered lady hammergallow hoarsely, suddenly poking the vicar in the ribs. the vicar came out of dreamland suddenly. "eigh?" shouted the vicar, startled, coming up with a jump. "sssh!" said the curate from iping hanger, and everyone looked shocked at the brutal insensibility of hilyer. "so unusual of the vicar," said the very eldest miss papaver, "to do things like that!" the angel went on playing. the curate from iping hanger began making mesmeric movements with his index finger, and as the thing proceeded mr rathbone-slater got amazingly limp. he solemnly turned his hat round and altered his view. the vicar lapsed from an uneasy discomfort into dreamland again. lady hammergallow rustled a great deal, and presently found a way of making her chair creak. and at last the thing came to an end. lady hammergallow exclaimed "de--licious!" though she had never heard a note, and began clapping her hands. at that everyone clapped except mr rathbone-slater, who rapped his hat brim instead. the curate from iping hanger clapped with a judicial air. "so i said (_clap, clap, clap_), if you cannot cook the food my way (_clap, clap, clap_) you must _go_," said mrs pirbright, clapping vigorously. "(this music is a delightful treat.)" "(it is. i always _revel_ in music,)" said the very eldest miss papaver. "and did she improve after that?" "not a bit of it," said mrs pirbright. the vicar woke up again and stared round the saloon. did other people see these visions, or were they confined to him alone? surely they must all see ... and have a wonderful command of their feelings. it was incredible that such music should not affect them. "he's a trifle _gauche_," said lady hammergallow, jumping upon the vicar's attention. "he neither bows nor smiles. he must cultivate oddities like that. every successful executant is more or less _gauche_." "did you really make that up yourself?" said mrs jehoram, sparkling her eyes at him, "as you went along. really, it is _wonderful_! nothing less than wonderful." "a little amateurish," said the curate from iping hanger to mr rathbone-slater. "a great gift, undoubtedly, but a certain lack of sustained training. there were one or two little things ... i would like to talk to him." "his trousers look like concertinas," said mr rathbone-slater. "he ought to be told _that_. it's scarcely decent." "can you do imitations, mr angel?" said lady hammergallow. "oh _do_, do some imitations!" said mrs jehoram. "i adore imitations." "it was a fantastic thing," said the curate of iping hanger to the vicar of siddermorton, waving his long indisputably musical hands as he spoke; "a little involved, to my mind. i have heard it before somewhere--i forget where. he has genius undoubtedly, but occasionally he is--loose. there is a certain deadly precision wanting. there are years of discipline yet." "i _don't_ admire these complicated pieces of music," said george harringay. "i have simple tastes, i'm afraid. there seems to me no _tune_ in it. there's nothing i like so much as simple music. tune, simplicity is the need of the age, in my opinion. we are so over subtle. everything is far-fetched. home grown thoughts and 'home, sweet home' for me. what do you think?" "oh! i think so--_quite_," said the younger miss pirbright. "well, amy, chattering to george as usual?" said mrs pirbright, across the room. "as usual, ma!" said the younger miss pirbright, glancing round with a bright smile at miss papaver, and turning again so as not to lose the next utterance from george. "i wonder if you and mr angel could manage a duet?" said lady hammergallow to the curate from iping hanger, who was looking preternaturally gloomy. "i'm sure i should be delighted," said the curate from iping hanger, brightening up. "duets!" said the angel; "the two of us. then he can play. i understood--the vicar told me--" "mr wilmerdings is an accomplished pianist," interrupted the vicar. "but the imitations?" said mrs jehoram, who detested wilmerdings. "imitations!" said the angel. "a pig squeaking, a cock crowing, you know," said mr rathbone-slater, and added lower, "best fun you can get out of a fiddle--_my_ opinion." "i really don't understand," said the angel. "a pig crowing!" "you don't like imitations," said mrs jehoram. "nor do i--really. i accept the snub. i think they degrade...." "perhaps afterwards mr angel will relent," said lady hammergallow, when mrs pirbright had explained the matter to her. she could scarcely credit her ear-trumpet. when she asked for imitations she was accustomed to get imitations. mr wilmerdings had seated himself at the piano, and had turned to a familiar pile of music in the recess. "what do you think of that barcarole thing of spohr's?" he said over his shoulder. "i suppose you know it?" the angel looked bewildered. he opened the folio before the angel. "what an odd kind of book!" said the angel. "what do all those crazy dots mean?" (at that the vicar's blood ran cold.) "what dots?" said the curate. "there!" said the angel with incriminating finger. "oh _come_!" said the curate. there was one of those swift, short silences that mean so much in a social gathering. then the eldest miss papaver turned upon the vicar. "does not mr angel play from ordinary.... music--from the ordinary notation?" "i have never heard," said the vicar, getting red now after the first shock of horror. "i have really never seen...." the angel felt the situation was strained, though what was straining it he could not understand. he became aware of a doubtful, an unfriendly look upon the faces that regarded him. "impossible!" he heard mrs pirbright say; "after that _beautiful_ music." the eldest miss papaver went to lady hammergallow at once, and began to explain into her ear-trumpet that mr angel did not wish to play with mr wilmerdings, and alleged an ignorance of written music. "he cannot play from notes!" said lady hammergallow in a voice of measured horror. "non--sense!" "notes!" said the angel perplexed. "are these notes?" "it's carrying the joke too far--simply because he doesn't want to play with wilmerdings," said mr rathbone-slater to george harringay. there was an expectant pause. the angel perceived he had to be ashamed of himself. he was ashamed of himself. "then," said lady hammergallow, throwing her head back and speaking with deliberate indignation, as she rustled forward, "if you cannot play with mr wilmerdings i am afraid i cannot ask you to play again." she made it sound like an ultimatum. her glasses in her hand quivered violently with indignation. the angel was now human enough to appreciate the fact that he was crushed. "what is it?" said little lucy rustchuck in the further bay. "he's refused to play with old wilmerdings," said tommy rathbone-slater. "what a lark! the old girl's purple. she thinks heaps of that ass, wilmerdings." "perhaps, mr wilmerdings, you will favour us with that delicious polonaise of chopin's," said lady hammergallow. everybody else was hushed. the indignation of lady hammergallow inspired much the same silence as a coming earthquake or an eclipse. mr wilmerdings perceived he would be doing a real social service to begin at once, and (be it entered to his credit now that his account draws near its settlement) he did. "if a man pretend to practise an art," said george harringay, "he ought at least to have the conscience to study the elements of it. what do you...." "oh! i think so too," said the younger miss pirbright. the vicar felt that the heavens had fallen. he sat crumpled up in his chair, a shattered man. lady hammergallow sat down next to him without appearing to see him. she was breathing heavily, but her face was terribly calm. everyone sat down. was the angel grossly ignorant or only grossly impertinent? the angel was vaguely aware of some frightful offence, aware that in some mysterious way he had ceased to be the centre of the gathering. he saw reproachful despair in the vicar's eye. he drifted slowly towards the window in the recess and sat down on the little octagonal moorish stool by the side of mrs jehoram. and under the circumstances he appreciated at more than its proper value mrs jehoram's kindly smile. he put down the violin in the window seat. xxxv. mrs jehoram and the angel (apart)--mr wilmerdings playing. "i have so longed for a quiet word with you," said mrs jehoram in a low tone. "to tell you how delightful i found your playing." "i am glad it pleased you," said the angel. "pleased is scarcely the word," said mrs jehoram. "i was moved--profoundly. these others did not understand.... i was glad you did not play with him." the angel looked at the mechanism called wilmerdings, and felt glad too. (the angelic conception of duets is a kind of conversation upon violins.) but he said nothing. "i worship music," said mrs jehoram. "i know nothing about it technically, but there is something in it--a longing, a wish...." the angel stared at her face. she met his eyes. "you understand," she said. "i see you understand." he was certainly a very nice boy, sentimentally precocious perhaps, and with deliciously liquid eyes. there was an interval of chopin (op. ) played with immense precision. mrs jehoram had a sweet face still, in shadow, with the light falling round her golden hair, and a curious theory flashed across the angel's mind. the perceptible powder only supported his view of something infinitely bright and lovable caught, tarnished, coarsened, coated over. "do you," said the angel in a low tone. "are you ... separated from ... _your_ world?" "as you are?" whispered mrs jehoram. "this is so--cold," said the angel. "so harsh!" he meant the whole world. "i feel it too," said mrs jehoram, referring to siddermorton home. "there are those who cannot live without sympathy," she said after a sympathetic pause. "and times when one feels alone in the world. fighting a battle against it all. laughing, flirting, hiding the pain of it...." "and hoping," said the angel with a wonderful glance.--"yes." mrs jehoram (who was an epicure of flirtations) felt the angel was more than redeeming the promise of his appearance. (indisputably he worshipped her.) "do _you_ look for sympathy?" she said. "or have you found it?" "i think," said the angel, very softly, leaning forward, "i think i have found it." interval of chopin op. . the very eldest miss papaver and mrs pirbright whispering. lady hammergallow (glasses up) looking down the saloon with an unfriendly expression at the angel. mrs jehoram and the angel exchanging deep and significant glances. "her name," said the angel (mrs jehoram made a movement) "is delia. she is...." "delia!" said mrs jehoram sharply, slowly realising a terrible misunderstanding. "a fanciful name.... why!... no! not that little housemaid at the vicarage--?..." the polonaise terminated with a flourish. the angel was quite surprised at the change in mrs jehoram's expression. "_i never_ did!" said mrs jehoram recovering. "to make me your confidant in an intrigue with a servant. really mr angel it's possible to be too original...." then suddenly their colloquy was interrupted. xxxvi. this section is (so far as my memory goes) the shortest in the book. but the enormity of the offence necessitates the separation of this section from all other sections. the vicar, you must understand, had done his best to inculcate the recognised differentiae of a gentleman. "never allow a lady to carry anything," said the vicar. "say, 'permit me' and relieve her." "always stand until every lady is seated." "always rise and open a door for a lady...." and so forth. (all men who have elder sisters know that code.) and the angel (who had failed to relieve lady hammergallow of her teacup) danced forward with astonishing dexterity (leaving mrs jehoram in the window seat) and with an elegant "permit me" rescued the tea-tray from lady hammergallow's pretty parlour-maid and vanished officiously in front of her. the vicar rose to his feet with an inarticulate cry. xxxvii. "he's drunk!" said mr rathbone-slater, breaking a terrific silence. "that's the matter with _him_." mrs jehoram laughed hysterically. the vicar stood up, motionless, staring. "oh! i _forgot_ to explain servants to him!" said the vicar to himself in a swift outbreak of remorse. "i thought he _did_ understand servants." "really, mr hilyer!" said lady hammergallow, evidently exercising enormous self-control and speaking in panting spasms. "really, mr hilyer!--your genius is _too_ terrible. i must, i really _must_, ask you to take him home." so to the dialogue in the corridor of alarmed maid-servant and well-meaning (but shockingly _gauche_) angel--appears the vicar, his botryoidal little face crimson, gaunt despair in his eyes, and his necktie under his left ear. "come," he said--struggling with emotion. "come away.... i.... i am disgraced for ever." and the angel stared for a second at him and obeyed--meekly, perceiving himself in the presence of unknown but evidently terrible forces. and so began and ended the angel's social career. in the informal indignation meeting that followed, lady hammergallow took the (informal) chair. "i feel humiliated," she said. "the vicar assured me he was an exquisite player. i never imagined...." "he was drunk," said mr rathbone-slater. "you could tell it from the way he fumbled with his tea." "such a _fiasco_!" said mrs mergle. "the vicar assured me," said lady hammergallow. "'the man i have staying with me is a musical genius,' he said. his very words." "his ears must be burning anyhow," said tommy rathbone-slater. "i was trying to keep him quiet," said mrs jehoram. "by humouring him. and do you know the things he said to me--there!" "the thing he played," said mr wilmerdings,"--i must confess i did not like to charge him to his face. but really! it was merely _drifting_." "just fooling with a fiddle, eigh?" said george harringay. "well i thought it was beyond me. so much of your fine music is--" "oh, _george_!" said the younger miss pirbright. "the vicar was a bit on too--to judge by his tie," said mr rathbone-slater. "it's a dashed rummy go. did you notice how he fussed after the genius?" "one has to be so very careful," said the very eldest miss papaver. "he told me he is in love with the vicar's housemaid!" said mrs jehoram. "i almost laughed in his face." "the vicar ought _never_ to have brought him here," said mrs rathbone-slater with decision. the trouble of the barbed wire. xxxviii. so, ingloriously, ended the angel's first and last appearance in society. vicar and angel returned to the vicarage; crestfallen black figures in the bright sunlight, going dejectedly. the angel, deeply pained that the vicar was pained. the vicar, dishevelled and desperate, intercalating spasmodic remorse and apprehension with broken explanations of the theory of etiquette. "they do _not_ understand," said the vicar over and over again. "they will all be so very much aggrieved. i do not know what to say to them. it is all so confused, so perplexing." and at the gate of the vicarage, at the very spot where delia had first seemed beautiful, stood horrocks the village constable, awaiting them. he held coiled up about his hand certain short lengths of barbed wire. "good evening, horrocks," said the vicar as the constable held the gate open. "evenin', sir," said horrocks, and added in a kind of mysterious undertone, "_could_ i speak to you a minute, sir?" "certainly," said the vicar. the angel walked on thoughtfully to the house, and meeting delia in the hall stopped her and cross-examined her at length over differences between servants and ladies. "you'll excuse my taking the liberty, sir," said horrocks, "but there's trouble brewin' for that crippled gent you got stayin' here." "bless me!" said the vicar. "you don't say so!" "sir john gotch, sir. he's very angry indeed, sir. his language, sir----. but i felt bound to tell you, sir. he's certain set on taking out a summons on account of that there barbed wire. certain set, sir, he is." "sir john gotch!" said the vicar. "wire! i don't understand." "he asked me to find out who did it. course i've had to do my duty, sir. naturally a disagreeable one." "barbed wire! duty! i don't understand you, horrocks." "i'm afraid, sir, there's no denying the evidence. i've made careful enquiries, sir." and forthwith the constable began telling the vicar of a new and terrible outrage committed by the angelic visitor. but we need not follow that explanation in detail--or the subsequent confession. (for my own part i think there is nothing more tedious than dialogue). it gave the vicar a new view of the angelic character, a vignette of the angelic indignation. a shady lane, sun-mottled, sweet hedges full of honeysuckle and vetch on either side, and a little girl gathering flowers, forgetful of the barbed wire which, all along the sidderford road, fenced in the dignity of sir john gotch from "bounders" and the detested "million." then suddenly a gashed hand, a bitter outcry, and the angel sympathetic, comforting, inquisitive. explanations sob-set, and then--altogether novel phenomenon in the angelic career--_passion_. a furious onslaught upon the barbed wire of sir john gotch, barbed wire recklessly handled, slashed, bent and broken. yet the angel acted without personal malice--saw in the thing only an ugly and vicious plant that trailed insidiously among its fellows. finally the angel's explanations gave the vicar a picture of the angel alone amidst his destruction, trembling and amazed at the sudden force, not himself, that had sprung up within him, and set him striking and cutting. amazed, too, at the crimson blood that trickled down his fingers. "it is still more horrible," said the angel when the vicar explained the artificial nature of the thing. "if i had seen the man who put this silly-cruel stuff there to hurt little children, i know i should have tried to inflict pain upon him. i have never felt like this before. i am indeed becoming tainted and coloured altogether by the wickedness of this world." "to think, too, that you men should be so foolish as to uphold the laws that let a man do such spiteful things. yes--i know; you will say it has to be so. for some remoter reason. that is a thing that only makes me angrier. why cannot an act rest on its own merits?... as it does in the angelic land." that was the incident the history of which the vicar now gradually learnt, getting the bare outline from horrocks, the colour and emotion subsequently from the angel. the thing had happened the day before the musical festival at siddermorton house. "have you told sir john who did it?" asked the vicar. "and are you sure?" "quite sure, sir. there can be no doubting it was your gentleman, sir. i've not told sir john yet, sir. but i shall have to tell sir john this evening. meaning no offence to you, sir, as i hopes you'll see. it's my duty, sir. besides which--" "of course," said the vicar, hastily. "certainly it's your duty. and what will sir john do?" "he's dreadful set against the person who did it--destroying property like that--and sort of slapping his arrangements in the face." pause. horrocks made a movement. the vicar, tie almost at the back of his neck now, a most unusual thing for him, stared blankly at his toes. "i thought i'd tell you, sir," said horrocks. "yes," said the vicar. "thanks, horrocks, thanks!" he scratched the back of his head. "you might perhaps ... i think it's the best way ... quite sure mr angel did it?" "sherlock 'omes, sir, couldn't be cocksurer." "then i'd better give you a little note to the squire." xxxix. the vicar's table-talk at dinner that night, after the angel had stated his case, was full of grim explanations, prisons, madness. "it's too late to tell the truth about you now," said the vicar. "besides, that's impossible. i really do not know what to say. we must face our circumstances, i suppose. i am so undecided--so torn. it's the two worlds. if your angelic world were only a dream, or if _this_ world were only a dream--or if i could believe either or both dreams, it would be all right with me. but here is a real angel and a real summons--how to reconcile them i do not know. i must talk to gotch.... but he won't understand. nobody will understand...." "i am putting you to terrible inconvenience, i am afraid. my appalling unworldliness--" "it's not you," said the vicar. "it's not you. i perceive you have brought something strange and beautiful into my life. it's not you. it's myself. if i had more faith either way. if i could believe entirely in this world, and call you an abnormal phenomenon, as crump does. but no. terrestrial angelic, angelic terrestrial.... see-saw." "still, gotch is certain to be disagreeable, _most_ disagreeable. he always is. it puts me into his hands. he is a bad moral influence, i know. drinking. gambling. worse. still, one must render unto cæsar the things that are cæsar's. and he is against disestablishment...." then the vicar would revert to the social collapse of the afternoon. "you are so very fundamental, you know," he said--several times. the angel went to his own room puzzled but very depressed. every day the world had frowned darker upon him and his angelic ways. he could see how the trouble affected the vicar, yet he could not imagine how he could avert it. it was all so strange and unreasonable. twice again, too, he had been pelted out of the village. he found the violin lying on his bed where he had laid it before dinner. and taking it up he began to play to comfort himself. but now he played no delicious vision of the angelic land. the iron of the world was entering into his soul. for a week now he had known pain and rejection, suspicion and hatred; a strange new spirit of revolt was growing up in his heart. he played a melody, still sweet and tender as those of the angelic land, but charged with a new note, the note of human sorrow and effort, now swelling into something like defiance, dying now into a plaintive sadness. he played softly, playing to himself to comfort himself, but the vicar heard, and all his finite bothers were swallowed up in a hazy melancholy, a melancholy that was quite remote from sorrow. and besides the vicar, the angel had another hearer of whom neither angel nor vicar was thinking. delia. xl. she was only four or five yards away from the angel in the westward gable. the diamond-paned window of her little white room was open. she knelt on her box of japanned tin, and rested her chin on her hands, her elbows on the window-sill. the young moon hung over the pine trees, and its light, cool and colourless, lay softly upon the silent-sleeping world. its light fell upon her white face, and discovered new depths in her dreaming eyes. her soft lips fell apart and showed the little white teeth. delia was thinking, vaguely, wonderfully, as girls will think. it was feeling rather than thinking; clouds of beautiful translucent emotion drove across the clear sky of her mind, taking shape that changed and vanished. she had all that wonderful emotional tenderness, that subtle exquisite desire for self-sacrifice, which exists so inexplicably in a girl's heart, exists it seems only to be presently trampled under foot by the grim and gross humours of daily life, to be ploughed in again roughly and remorselessly, as the farmer ploughs in the clover that has sprung up in the soil. she had been looking out at the tranquillity of the moonlight long before the angel began to play,--waiting; then suddenly the quiet, motionless beauty of silver and shadow was suffused with tender music. she did not move, but her lips closed and her eyes grew even softer. she had been thinking before of the strange glory that had suddenly flashed out about the stooping hunchback when he spoke to her in the sunset; of that and of a dozen other glances, chance turns, even once the touching of her hand. that afternoon he had spoken to her, asking strange questions. now the music seemed to bring his very face before her, his look of half curious solicitude, peering into her face, into her eyes, into her and through her, deep down into her soul. he seemed now to be speaking directly to her, telling her of his solitude and trouble. oh! that regret, that longing! for he was in trouble. and how could a servant-girl help him, this soft-spoken gentleman who carried himself so kindly, who played so sweetly. the music was so sweet and keen, it came so near to the thought of her heart, that presently one hand tightened on the other, and the tears came streaming down her face. as crump would tell you, people do not do that kind of thing unless there is something wrong with the nervous system. but then, from the scientific point of view, being in love is a pathological condition. i am painfully aware of the objectionable nature of my story here. i have even thought of wilfully perverting the truth to propitiate the lady reader. but i could not. the story has been too much for me. i do the thing with my eyes open. delia must remain what she really was--a servant girl. i know that to give a mere servant girl, or at least an english servant girl, the refined feelings of a human being, to present her as speaking with anything but an intolerable confusion of aspirates, places me outside the pale of respectable writers. association with servants, even in thought, is dangerous in these days. i can only plead (pleading vainly, i know), that delia was a very exceptional servant girl. possibly, if one enquired, it might be found that her parentage was upper middle-class--that she was made of the finer upper middle-class clay. and (this perhaps may avail me better) i will promise that in some future work i will redress the balance, and the patient reader shall have the recognised article, enormous feet and hands, systematic aspiration of vowels and elimination of aspirates, no figure (only middle-class girls have figures--the thing is beyond a servant-girl's means), a fringe (by agreement), and a cheerful readiness to dispose of her self-respect for half-a-crown. that is the accepted english servant, the typical english woman (when stripped of money and accomplishments) as she appears in the works of contemporary writers. but delia somehow was different. i can only regret the circumstance--it was altogether beyond my control. doctor crump acts. xli. early the next morning the angel went down through the village, and climbing the fence, waded through the waist-high reeds that fringe the sidder. he was going to bandram bay to take a nearer view of the sea, which one could just see on a clear day from the higher parts of siddermorton park. and suddenly he came upon crump sitting on a log and smoking. (crump always smoked exactly two ounces per week--and he always smoked it in the open air.) "hullo!" said crump, in his healthiest tone. "how's the wing?" "very well," said the angel. "the pain's gone." "i suppose you know you are trespassing?" "trespassing!" said the angel. "i suppose you don't know what that means," said crump. "i don't," said the angel. "i must congratulate you. i don't know how long you will last, but you are keeping it up remarkably well. i thought at first you were a mattoid, but you're so amazingly consistent. your attitude of entire ignorance of the elementary facts of life is really a very amusing pose. you make slips of course, but very few. but surely we two understand one another." he smiled at the angel. "you would beat sherlock holmes. i wonder who you really are." the angel smiled back, with eyebrows raised and hands extended. "it's impossible for you to know who i am. your eyes are blind, your ears deaf, your soul dark, to all that is wonderful about me. it's no good my telling that i fell into your world." the doctor waved his pipe. "not that, please. i don't want to pry if you have your reasons for keeping quiet. only i would like you to think of hilyer's mental health. he really believes this story." the angel shrugged his dwindling wings. "you did not know him before this affair. he's changed tremendously. he used to be neat and comfortable. for the last fortnight he's been hazy, with a far-away look in his eyes. he preached last sunday without his cuff links, and something wrong with his tie, and he took for his text, 'eye hath not seen nor ear heard.' he really believes all this nonsense about the angel-land. the man is verging on monomania!" "you _will_ see things from your own standpoint," said the angel. "everyone must. at any rate, i think it jolly regrettable to see this poor old fellow hypnotized, as you certainly have hypnotized him. i don't know where you come from nor who you are, but i warn you i'm not going to see the old boy made a fool of much longer." "but he's not being made a fool of. he's simply beginning to dream of a world outside his knowledge----" "it won't do," said crump. "i'm not one of the dupe class. you are either of two things--a lunatic at large (which i don't believe), or a knave. nothing else is possible. i think i know a little of this world, whatever i do of yours. very well. if you don't leave hilyer alone i shall communicate with the police, and either clap you into a prison, if you go back on your story, or into a madhouse if you don't. it's stretching a point, but i swear i'd certify you insane to-morrow to get you out of the village. it's not only the vicar. as you know. i hope that's plain. now what have you to say?" with an affectation of great calm, the doctor took out his penknife and began to dig the blade into his pipe bowl. his pipe had gone out during this last speech. for a moment neither spoke. the angel looked about him with a face that grew pale. the doctor extracted a plug of tobacco from his pipe and flung it away, shut his penknife and put it in his waistcoat pocket. he had not meant to speak quite so emphatically, but speech always warmed him. "prison," said the angel. "madhouse! let me see." then he remembered the vicar's explanation. "not that!" he said. he approached crump with eyes dilated and hands outstretched. "i knew _you_ would know what those things meant--at any rate. sit down," said crump, indicating the tree trunk beside him by a movement of the head. the angel, shivering, sat down on the tree trunk and stared at the doctor. crump was getting out his pouch. "you are a strange man," said the angel. "your beliefs are like--a steel trap." "they are," said crump--flattered. "but i tell you--i assure you the thing is so--i know nothing, or at least remember nothing of anything i knew of this world before i found myself in the darkness of night on the moorland above sidderford." "where did you learn the language then?" "i don't know. only i tell you--but i haven't an atom of the sort of proof that would convince you." "and you really," said crump, suddenly coming round upon him and looking into his eyes; "you really believe you were eternally in a kind of glorious heaven before then?" "i do," said the angel. "pshaw!" said crump, and lit his pipe. he sat smoking, elbow on knee, for some time, and the angel sat and watched him. then his face grew less troubled. "it is just possible," he said to himself rather than to the angel, and began another piece of silence. "you see;" he said, when that was finished. "there is such a thing as double personality.... a man sometimes forgets who he is and thinks he is someone else. leaves home, friends, and everything, and leads a double life. there was a case in _nature_ only a month or so ago. the man was sometimes english and right-handed, and sometimes welsh and left-handed. when he was english he knew no welsh, when he was welsh he knew no english.... h'm." he turned suddenly on the angel and said "home!" he fancied he might revive in the angel some latent memory of his lost youth. he went on "dadda, pappa, daddy, mammy, pappy, father, dad, governor, old boy, mother, dear mother, ma, mumsy.... no good? what are you laughing at?" "nothing," said the angel. "you surprised me a little,--that is all. a week ago i should have been puzzled by that vocabulary." for a minute crump rebuked the angel silently out of the corner of his eye. "you have such an ingenuous face. you almost force me to believe you. you are certainly not an ordinary lunatic. your mind--except for your isolation from the past--seems balanced enough. i wish nordau or lombroso or some of these _saltpetriere_ men could have a look at you. down here one gets no practice worth speaking about in mental cases. there's one idiot--and he's just a damned idiot of an idiot--; all the rest are thoroughly sane people." "possibly that accounts for their behaviour," said the angel thoughtfully. "but to consider your general position here," said crump, ignoring his comment, "i really regard you as a bad influence here. these fancies are contagious. it is not simply the vicar. there is a man named shine has caught the fad, and he has been in the drink for a week, off and on, and offering to fight anyone who says you are not an angel. then a man over at sidderford is, i hear, affected with a kind of religious mania on the same tack. these things spread. there ought to be a quarantine in mischievous ideas. and i have heard another story...." "but what can i do?" said the angel. "suppose i am (quite unintentionally) doing mischief...." "you can leave the village," said crump. "then i shall only go into another village." "that's not my affair," said crump. "go where you like. only go. leave these three people, the vicar, shine, the little servant girl, whose heads are all spinning with galaxies of angels...." "but," said the angel. "face your world! i tell you i can't. and leave delia! i don't understand.... i do not know how to set about getting work and food and shelter. and i am growing afraid of human beings...." "fancies, fancies," said crump, watching him, "mania." "it's no good my persisting in worrying you," he said suddenly, "but certainly the situation is impossible as it stands." he stood up with a jerk. "good-morning, mr--angel," he said, "the long and the short of it is--i say it as the medical adviser of this parish--you are an unhealthy influence. we can't have you. you must go." he turned, and went striding through the grass towards the roadway, leaving the angel sitting disconsolately on the tree trunk. "an unhealthy influence," said the angel slowly, staring blankly in front of him, and trying to realise what it meant. sir john gotch acts. xlii. sir john gotch was a little man with scrubby hair, a small, thin nose sticking out of a face crackled with wrinkles, tight brown gaiters, and a riding whip. "i've come, you see," he said, as mrs hinijer closed the door. "thank you," said the vicar, "i'm obliged to you. i'm really obliged to you." "glad to be of any service to you," said sir john gotch. (angular attitude.) "this business," said the vicar, "this unfortunate business of the barbed wire--is really, you know, a most unfortunate business." sir john gotch became decidedly more angular in his attitude. "it is," he said. "this mr angel being my guest--" "no reason why he should cut my wire," said sir john gotch, briefly. "none whatever." "may i ask _who_ this mr angel is?" asked sir john gotch with the abruptness of long premeditation. the vicar's fingers jumped to his chin. what _was_ the good of talking to a man like sir john gotch about angels? "to tell you the exact truth," said the vicar, "there is a little secret--" "lady hammergallow told me as much." the vicar's face suddenly became bright red. "do you know," said sir john, with scarcely a pause, "he's been going about this village preaching socialism?" "good heavens!" said the vicar, "_no!_" "he has. he has been buttonholing every yokel he came across, and asking them why they had to work, while we--i and you, you know--did nothing. he has been saying we ought to educate every man up to your level and mine--out of the rates, i suppose, as usual. he has been suggesting that we--i and you, you know--keep these people down--pith 'em." "_dear_ me!" said the vicar, "i had no idea." "he has done this wire-cutting as a demonstration, i tell you, as a socialistic demonstration. if we don't come down on him pretty sharply, i tell you, we shall have the palings down in flinders lane next, and the next thing will be ricks afire, and every damned (i beg your pardon, vicar. i know i'm too fond of that word), every blessed pheasant's egg in the parish smashed. i know these--" "a socialist," said the vicar, quite put out, "i had _no_ idea." "you see why i am inclined to push matters against our gentleman though he _is_ your guest. it seems to me he has been taking advantage of your paternal--" "oh, _not_ paternal!" said the vicar. "really--" "(i beg your pardon, vicar--it was a slip.) of your kindness, to go mischief-making everywhere, setting class against class, and the poor man against his bread and butter." the vicar's fingers were at his chin again. "so there's one of two things," said sir john gotch. "either that guest of yours leaves the parish, or--i take proceedings. that's final." the vicar's mouth was all askew. "that's the position," said sir john, jumping to his feet, "if it were not for you, i should take proceedings at once. as it is--am i to take proceedings or no?" "you see," said the vicar in horrible perplexity. "well?" "arrangements have to be made." "he's a mischief-making idler.... i know the breed. but i'll give you a week----" "thank you," said the vicar. "i understand your position. i perceive the situation is getting intolerable...." "sorry to give you this bother, of course," said sir john. "a week," said the vicar. "a week," said sir john, leaving. the vicar returned, after accompanying gotch out, and for a long time he remained sitting before the desk in his study, plunged in thought. "a week!" he said, after an immense silence. "here is an angel, a glorious angel, who has quickened my soul to beauty and delight, who has opened my eyes to wonderland, and something more than wonderland, ... and i have promised to get rid of him in a week! what are we men made of?... how _can_ i tell him?" he began to walk up and down the room, then he went into the dining-room, and stood staring blankly out at the cornfield. the table was already laid for lunch. presently he turned, still dreaming, and almost mechanically helped himself to a glass of sherry. the sea cliff. xliii. the angel lay upon the summit of the cliff above bandram bay, and stared out at the glittering sea. sheer from under his elbows fell the cliff, five hundred and seven feet of it down to the datum line, and the sea-birds eddied and soared below him. the upper part of the cliff was a greenish chalky rock, the lower two-thirds a warm red, marbled with gypsum bands, and from half-a-dozen places spurted jets of water, to fall in long cascades down its face. the swell frothed white on the flinty beach, and the water beyond where the shadows of an outstanding rock lay, was green and purple in a thousand tints and marked with streaks and flakes of foam. the air was full of sunlight and the tinkling of the little waterfalls and the slow soughing of the seas below. now and then a butterfly flickered over the face of the cliff, and a multitude of sea birds perched and flew hither and thither. the angel lay with his crippled, shrivelled wings humped upon his back, watching the gulls and jackdaws and rooks, circling in the sunlight, soaring, eddying, sweeping down to the water or upward into the dazzling blue of the sky. long the angel lay there and watched them going to and fro on outspread wings. he watched, and as he watched them he remembered with infinite longing the rivers of starlight and the sweetness of the land from which he came. and a gull came gliding overhead, swiftly and easily, with its broad wings spreading white and fair against the blue. and suddenly a shadow came into the angel's eyes, the sunlight left them, he thought of his own crippled pinions, and put his face upon his arm and wept. a woman who was walking along the footpath across the cliff field saw only a twisted hunchback dressed in the vicar of siddermorton's cast-off clothes, sprawling foolishly at the edge of the cliff and with his forehead on his arm. she looked at him and looked again. "the silly creature has gone to sleep," she said, and though she had a heavy basket to carry, came towards him with an idea of waking him up. but as she drew near she saw his shoulders heave and heard the sound of his sobbing. she stood still a minute, and her features twitched into a kind of grin. then treading softly she turned and went back towards the pathway. "'tis so hard to think of anything to say," she said. "poor afflicted soul!" presently the angel ceased sobbing, and stared with a tear-stained face at the beach below him. "this world," he said, "wraps me round and swallows me up. my wings grow shrivelled and useless. soon i shall be nothing more than a crippled man, and i shall age, and bow myself to pain, and die.... i am miserable. and i am alone." then he rested his chin on his hands upon the edge of the cliff, and began to think of delia's face with the light in her eyes. the angel felt a curious desire to go to her and tell her of his withered wings. to place his arms about her and weep for the land he had lost. "delia!" he said to himself very softly. and presently a cloud drove in front of the sun. mrs hinijer acts. xliv. mrs hinijer surprised the vicar by tapping at his study door after tea. "begging your pardon, sir," said mrs hinijer. "but might i make so bold as to speak to you for a moment?" "certainly, mrs hinijer," said the vicar, little dreaming of the blow that was coming. he held a letter in his hand, a very strange and disagreeable letter from his bishop, a letter that irritated and distressed him, criticising in the strongest language the guests he chose to entertain in his own house. only a popular bishop living in a democratic age, a bishop who was still half a pedagogue, could have written such a letter. mrs hinijer coughed behind her hand and struggled with some respiratory disorganisation. the vicar felt apprehensive. usually in their interviews he was the most disconcerted. invariably so when the interview ended. "well?" he said. "may i make so bold, sir, as to arst when mr angel is a-going?" (cough.) the vicar started. "to ask when mr angel is going?" he repeated slowly to gain time. "_another!_" "i'm sorry, sir. but i've been used to waitin' on gentlefolks, sir; and you'd hardly imagine how it feels quite to wait on such as 'im." "such as ... _'im_! do i understand you, mrs hinijer, that you don't like mr angel?" "you see, sir, before i came to you, sir, i was at lord dundoller's seventeen years, and you, sir--if you will excuse me--are a perfect gentleman yourself, sir--though in the church. and then...." "dear, dear!" said the vicar. "and don't you regard mr angel as a gentleman?" "i'm sorry to 'ave to say it, sir." "but what...? dear me! surely!" "i'm sorry to 'ave to say it, sir. but when a party goes turning vegetarian suddenly and putting out all the cooking, and hasn't no proper luggage of his own, and borry's shirts and socks from his 'ost, and don't know no better than to try his knife at peas (as i seed my very self), and goes talking in odd corners to the housemaids, and folds up his napkin after meals, and eats with his fingers at minced veal, and plays the fiddle in the middle of the night keeping everybody awake, and stares and grins at his elders a-getting upstairs, and generally misconducts himself with things that i can scarcely tell you all, one can't help thinking, sir. thought is free, sir, and one can't help coming to one's own conclusions. besides which, there is talk all over the village about him--what with one thing and another. i know a gentleman when i sees a gentleman, and i know a gentleman when i don't see a gentleman, and me, and susan, and george, we've talked it over, being the upper servants, so to speak, and experienced, and leaving out that girl delia, who i only hope won't come to any harm through him, and depend upon it, sir, that mr angel ain't what you think he is, sir, and the sooner he leaves this house the better." mrs hinijer ceased abruptly and stood panting but stern, and with her eyes grimly fixed on the vicar's face. "_really_, mrs hinijer!" said the vicar, and then, "oh _lord_!" "what _have_ i done?" said the vicar, suddenly starting up and appealing to the inexorable fates. "what have i done?" "there's no knowing," said mrs hinijer. "though a deal of talk in the village." "_bother!_" said the vicar, going and staring out of the window. then he turned. "look here, mrs hinijer! mr angel will be leaving this house in the course of a week. is that enough?" "quite," said mrs hinijer. "and i feel sure, sir...." the vicar's eyes fell with unwonted eloquence upon the door. the angel in trouble. xlv. "the fact is," said the vicar, "this is no world for angels." the blinds had not been drawn, and the twilight outer world under an overcast sky seemed unspeakably grey and cold. the angel sat at table in dejected silence. his inevitable departure had been proclaimed. since his presence hurt people and made the vicar wretched he acquiesced in the justice of the decision, but what would happen to him after his plunge he could not imagine. something very disagreeable certainly. "there is the violin," said the vicar. "only after our experience----" "i must get you clothes--a general outfit.---- dear me! you don't understand railway travelling! and coinage! taking lodgings! eating-houses!---- i must come up at least and see you settled. get work for you. but an angel in london! working for his living! that grey cold wilderness of people! what _will_ become of you?---- if i had one friend in the world i could trust to believe me!" "i ought not to be sending you away----" "do not trouble overmuch for me, my friend," said the angel. "at least this life of yours ends. and there are things in it. there is something in this life of yours---- your care for me! i thought there was nothing beautiful at all in life----" "and i have betrayed you!" said the vicar, with a sudden wave of remorse. "why did i not face them all--say, 'this is the best of life'? what do these everyday things matter?" he stopped suddenly. "what _do_ they matter?" he said. "i have only come into your life to trouble it," said the angel. "don't say that," said the vicar. "you have come into my life to awaken me. i have been dreaming--dreaming. dreaming this was necessary and that. dreaming that this narrow prison was the world. and the dream still hangs about me and troubles me. that is all. even your departure----. am i not dreaming that you must go?" when he was in bed that night the mystical aspect of the case came still more forcibly before the vicar. he lay awake and had the most horrible visions of his sweet and delicate visitor drifting through this unsympathetic world and happening upon the cruellest misadventures. his guest _was_ an angel assuredly. he tried to go over the whole story of the past eight days again. he thought of the hot afternoon, the shot fired out of sheer surprise, the fluttering iridescent wings, the beautiful saffron-robed figure upon the ground. how wonderful that had seemed to him! then his mind turned to the things he had heard of the other world, to the dreams the violin had conjured up, to the vague, fluctuating, wonderful cities of the angelic land. he tried to recall the forms of the buildings, the shapes of the fruits upon the trees, the aspect of the winged shapes that traversed its ways. they grew from a memory into a present reality, grew every moment just a little more vivid and his troubles a little less immediate; and so, softly and quietly, the vicar slipped out of his troubles and perplexities into the land of dreams. xlvi. delia sat with her window open, hoping to hear the angel play. but that night there was to be no playing. the sky was overcast, yet not so thickly but that the moon was visible. high up a broken cloud-lace drove across the sky, and now the moon was a hazy patch of light, and now it was darkened, and now rode clear and bright and sharply outlined against the blue gulf of night. and presently she heard the door into the garden opening, and a figure came out under the drifting pallor of the moonlight. it was the angel. but he wore once more the saffron robe in the place of his formless overcoat. in the uncertain light this garment had only a colourless shimmer, and his wings behind him seemed a leaden grey. he began taking short runs, flapping his wings and leaping, going to and fro amidst the drifting patches of light and the shadows of the trees. delia watched him in amazement. he gave a despondent cry, leaping higher. his shrivelled wings flashed and fell. a thicker patch in the cloud-film made everything obscure. he seemed to spring five or six feet from the ground and fall clumsily. she saw him in the dimness crouching on the ground and then she heard him sobbing. "he's hurt!" said delia, pressing her lips together hard and staring. "i ought to help him." she hesitated, then stood up and flitted swiftly towards the door, went slipping quietly downstairs and out into the moonlight. the angel still lay upon the lawn, and sobbed for utter wretchedness. "oh! what is the matter?" said delia, stooping over him and touching his head timidly. the angel ceased sobbing, sat up abruptly, and stared at her. he saw her face, moonlit, and soft with pity. "what is the matter?" she whispered. "are you hurt?" the angel stared about him, and his eyes came to rest on her face. "delia!" he whispered. "are you hurt?" said delia. "my wings," said the angel. "i cannot use my wings." delia did not understand, but she realised that it was something very dreadful. "it is dark, it is cold," whispered the angel; "i cannot use my wings." it hurt her unaccountably to see the tears on his face. she did not know what to do. "pity me, delia," said the angel, suddenly extending his arms towards her; "pity me." impulsively she knelt down and took his face between her hands. "i do not know," she said; "but i am sorry. i am sorry for you, with all my heart." the angel said not a word. he was looking at her little face in the bright moonlight, with an expression of uncomprehending wonder in his eyes. "this strange world!" he said. she suddenly withdrew her hands. a cloud drove over the moon. "what can i do to help you?" she whispered. "i would do anything to help you." he still held her at arm's length, perplexity replacing misery in his face. "this strange world!" he repeated. both whispered, she kneeling, he sitting, in the fluctuating moonlight and darkness of the lawn. "delia!" said mrs hinijer, suddenly projecting from her window; "delia, is that you?" they both looked up at her in consternation. "come in at once, delia," said mrs hinijer. "if that mr angel was a gentleman (which he isn't), he'd feel ashamed of hisself. and you an orphan too!" the last day of the visit. xlvii. on the morning of the next day the angel, after he had breakfasted, went out towards the moor, and mrs hinijer had an interview with the vicar. what happened need not concern us now. the vicar was visibly disconcerted. "he _must_ go," he said; "certainly he must go," and straightway he forgot the particular accusation in the general trouble. he spent the morning in hazy meditation, interspersed by a spasmodic study of skiff and waterlow's price list, and the catalogue of the medical, scholastic, and clerical stores. a schedule grew slowly on a sheet of paper that lay on the desk before him. he cut out a self-measurement form from the tailoring department of the stores and pinned it to the study curtains. this was the kind of document he was making: "_ black melton frock coat, patts? £ , s._ "_? trousers. pairs or one._ "_ cheviot tweed suit (write for patterns. self-meas.?)_" the vicar spent some time studying a pleasing array of model gentlemen. they were all very nice-looking, but he found it hard to imagine the angel so transfigured. for, although six days had passed, the angel remained without any suit of his own. the vicar had vacillated between a project of driving the angel into portbroddock and getting him measured for a suit, and his absolute horror of the insinuating manners of the tailor he employed. he knew that tailor would demand an exhaustive explanation. besides which, one never knew when the angel might leave. so the six days had passed, and the angel had grown steadily in the wisdom of this world and shrouded his brightness still in the ample retirement of the vicar's newest clothes. "_ soft felt hat, no. g. (say), s d._ "_ silk hat, s d. hatbox?_" ("i suppose he ought to have a silk hat," said the vicar; "it's the correct thing up there. shape no. seems best suited to his style. but it's dreadful to think of him all alone in that great city. everyone will misunderstand him, and he will misunderstand everybody. however, i suppose it _must_ be. where was i?)" "_ toothbrush. brush and comb. razor?_ "_½ doz. shirts (? measure his neck), s ea._ "_socks? pants?_ "_ suits pyjamas. price? say s._ "_ doz. collars ('the life guardsman'), s._ "_braces. oxon patent versatile, s ½d._" ("but how will he get them on?" said the vicar.) "_ rubber stamp, t. angel, and marking ink in box complete, d._ ("those washerwomen are certain to steal all his things.") "_ single-bladed penknife with corkscrew, say s d._ "_n.b.--don't forget cuff links, collar stud, &c._" (the vicar loved "&c.", it gave things such a precise and business-like air.) "_ leather portmanteau (had better see these)._" and so forth--meanderingly. it kept the vicar busy until lunch time, though his heart ached. the angel did not return to lunch. this was not so very remarkable--once before he had missed the midday meal. yet, considering how short was the time they would have together now, he might perhaps have come back. doubtless he had excellent reasons, though, for his absence. the vicar made an indifferent lunch. in the afternoon he rested in his usual manner, and did a little more to the list of requirements. he did not begin to feel nervous about the angel till tea-time. he waited, perhaps, half an hour before he took tea. "odd," said the vicar, feeling still more lonely as he drank his tea. as the time for dinner crept on and no angel appeared the vicar's imagination began to trouble him. "he will come in to dinner, surely," said the vicar, caressing his chin, and beginning to fret about the house upon inconsiderable errands, as his habit was when anything occurred to break his routine. the sun set, a gorgeous spectacle, amidst tumbled masses of purple cloud. the gold and red faded into twilight; the evening star gathered her robe of light together from out the brightness of the sky in the west. breaking the silence of evening that crept over the outer world, a corncrake began his whirring chant. the vicar's face grew troubled; twice he went and stared at the darkening hillside, and then fretted back to the house again. mrs hinijer served dinner. "your dinner's ready," she announced for the second time, with a reproachful intonation. "yes, yes," said the vicar, fussing off upstairs. he came down and went into his study and lit his reading lamp, a patent affair with an incandescent wick, dropping the match into his waste-paper basket without stopping to see if it was extinguished. then he fretted into the dining-room and began a desultory attack on the cooling dinner.... (dear reader, the time is almost ripe to say farewell to this little vicar of ours.) xlviii. sir john gotch (still smarting over the business of the barbed wire) was riding along one of the grassy ways through the preserves by the sidder, when he saw, strolling slowly through the trees beyond the undergrowth, the one particular human being he did not want to see. "i'm damned," said sir john gotch, with immense emphasis; "if this isn't altogether too much." he raised himself in the stirrups. "hi!" he shouted. "you there!" the angel turned smiling. "get out of this wood!" said sir john gotch. "_why?_" said the angel. "i'm ------," said sir john gotch, meditating some cataclysmal expletive. but he could think of nothing more than "damned." "get out of this wood," he said. the angel's smile vanished. "why should i get out of this wood?" he said, and stood still. neither spoke for a full half minute perhaps, and then sir john gotch dropped out of his saddle and stood by the horse. (now you must remember--lest the angelic hosts be discredited hereby--that this angel had been breathing the poisonous air of this struggle for existence of ours for more than a week. it was not only his wings and the brightness of his face that suffered. he had eaten and slept and learnt the lesson of pain--had travelled so far on the road to humanity. all the length of his visit he had been meeting more and more of the harshness and conflict of this world, and losing touch with the glorious altitudes of his own.) "you won't go, eigh!" said gotch, and began to lead his horse through the bushes towards the angel. the angel stood, all his muscles tight and his nerves quivering, watching his antagonist approach. "get out of this wood," said gotch, stopping three yards away, his face white with rage, his bridle in one hand and his riding whip in the other. strange floods of emotion were running through the angel. "who are you," he said, in a low quivering voice; "who am i--that you should order me out of this place? what has the world done that men like you...." "you're the fool who cut my barbed wire," said gotch, threatening, "if you want to know!" "_your_ barbed wire," said the angel. "was that your barbed wire? are you the man who put down that barbed wire? what right have you...." "don't you go talking socialist rot," said gotch in short gasps. "this wood's mine, and i've a right to protect it how i can. i know your kind of muck. talking rot and stirring up discontent. and if you don't get out of it jolly sharp...." "_well!_" said the angel, a brimming reservoir of unaccountable energy. "get out of this damned wood!" said gotch, flashing into the bully out of sheer alarm at the light in the angel's face. he made one step towards him, with the whip raised, and then something happened that neither he nor the angel properly understood. the angel seemed to leap into the air, a pair of grey wings flashed out at the squire, he saw a face bearing down upon him, full of the wild beauty of passionate anger. his riding whip was torn out of his hand. his horse reared behind him, pulled him over, gained his bridle and fled. the whip cut across his face as he fell back, stung across his face again as he sat on the ground. he saw the angel, radiant with anger, in the act to strike again. gotch flung up his hands, pitched himself forward to save his eyes, and rolled on the ground under the pitiless fury of the blows that rained down upon him. "you brute," cried the angel, striking wherever he saw flesh to feel. "you bestial thing of pride and lies! you who have overshadowed the souls of other men. you shallow fool with your horses and dogs! to lift your face against any living thing! learn! learn! learn!" gotch began screaming for help. twice he tried to clamber to his feet, got to his knees, and went headlong again under the ferocious anger of the angel. presently he made a strange noise in his throat, and ceased even to writhe under his punishment. then suddenly the angel awakened from his wrath, and found himself standing, panting and trembling, one foot on a motionless figure, under the green stillness of the sunlit woods. he stared about him, then down at his feet where, among the tangled dead leaves, the hair was matted with blood. the whip dropped from his hands, the hot colour fled from his face. "_pain!_" he said. "why does he lie so still?" he took his foot off gotch's shoulder, bent down towards the prostrate figure, stood listening, knelt--shook him. "awake!" said the angel. then still more softly, "_awake!_" he remained listening some minutes or more, stood up sharply, and looked round him at the silent trees. a feeling of profound horror descended upon him, wrapped him round about. with an abrupt gesture he turned. "what has happened to me?" he said, in an awe-stricken whisper. he started back from the motionless figure. "_dead!_" he said suddenly, and turning, panic stricken, fled headlong through the wood. xlix. it was some minutes after the footsteps of the angel had died away in the distance that gotch raised himself on his hand. "by jove!" he said. "crump's right." "cut at the head, too!" he put his hand to his face and felt the two weals running across it, hot and fat. "i'll think twice before i lift my hand against a lunatic again," said sir john gotch. "he may be a person of weak intellect, but i'm damned if he hasn't a pretty strong arm. _phew!_ he's cut a bit clean off the top of my ear with that infernal lash." "that infernal horse will go galloping to the house in the approved dramatic style. little madam'll be scared out of her wits. and i ... i shall have to explain how it all happened. while she vivisects me with questions. "i'm a jolly good mind to have spring guns and man-traps put in this preserve. confound the law!" l. but the angel, thinking that gotch was dead, went wandering off in a passion of remorse and fear through the brakes and copses along the sidder. you can scarcely imagine how appalled he was at this last and overwhelming proof of his encroaching humanity. all the darkness, passion and pain of life seemed closing in upon him, inexorably, becoming part of him, chaining him to all that a week ago he had found strange and pitiful in men. "truly, this is no world for an angel!" said the angel. "it is a world of war, a world of pain, a world of death. anger comes upon one ... i who knew not pain and anger, stand here with blood stains on my hands. i have fallen. to come into this world is to fall. one must hunger and thirst and be tormented with a thousand desires. one must fight for foothold, be angry and strike----" he lifted up his hands to heaven, the ultimate bitterness of helpless remorse in his face, and then flung them down with a gesture of despair. the prison walls of this narrow passionate life seemed creeping in upon him, certainly and steadily, to crush him presently altogether. he felt what all we poor mortals have to feel sooner or later--the pitiless force of the things that must be, not only without us but (where the real trouble lies) within, all the inevitable tormenting of one's high resolves, those inevitable seasons when the better self is forgotten. but with us it is a gentle descent, made by imperceptible degrees over a long space of years; with him it was the horrible discovery of one short week. he felt he was being crippled, caked over, blinded, stupefied in the wrappings of this life, he felt as a man might feel who has taken some horrible poison, and feels destruction spreading within him. he took no account of hunger or fatigue or the flight of time. on and on he went, avoiding houses and roads, turning away from the sight and sound of a human being in a wordless desperate argument with fate. his thoughts did not flow but stood banked back in inarticulate remonstrance against his degradation. chance directed his footsteps homeward and, at last, after nightfall, he found himself faint and weary and wretched, stumbling along over the moor at the back of siddermorton. he heard the rats run and squeal in the heather, and once a noiseless big bird came out of the darkness, passed, and vanished again. and he saw without noticing it a dull red glow in the sky before him. li. but when he came over the brow of the moor, a vivid light sprang up before him and refused to be ignored. he came on down the hill and speedily saw more distinctly what the glare was. it came from darting and trembling tongues of fire, golden and red, that shot from the windows and a hole in the roof of the vicarage. a cluster of black heads, all the village in fact, except the fire-brigade--who were down at aylmer's cottage trying to find the key of the machine-house--came out in silhouette against the blaze. there was a roaring sound, and a humming of voices, and presently a furious outcry. there was a shouting of "no! no!"--"come back!" and an inarticulate roar. he began to run towards the burning house. he stumbled and almost fell, but he ran on. he found black figures running about him. the flaring fire blew gustily this way and that, and he smelt the smell of burning. "she went in," said one voice, "she went in." "the mad girl!" said another. "stand back! stand back!" cried others. he found himself thrusting through an excited, swaying crowd, all staring at the flames, and with the red reflection in their eyes. "stand back!" said a labourer, clutching him. "what is it?" said the angel. "what does this mean?" "there's a girl in the house, and she can't get out!" "went in after a fiddle," said another. "'tas hopeless," he heard someone else say. "i was standing near her. i heerd her. says she: 'i _can_ get his fiddle.' i heerd her--just like that! 'i _can_ get his fiddle.'" for a moment the angel stood staring. then in a flash he saw it all, saw this grim little world of battle and cruelty, transfigured in a splendour that outshone the angelic land, suffused suddenly and insupportably glorious with the wonderful light of love and self-sacrifice. he gave a strange cry, and before anyone could stop him, was running towards the burning building. there were cries of "the hunchback! the fowener!" the vicar, whose scalded hand was being tied up, turned his head, and he and crump saw the angel, a black outline against the intense, red glare of the doorway. it was the sensation of the tenth of a second, yet both men could not have remembered that transitory attitude more vividly had it been a picture they had studied for hours together. then the angel was hidden by something massive (no one knew what) that fell, incandescent, across the doorway. lii. there was a cry of "delia" and no more. but suddenly the flames spurted out in a blinding glare that shot upward to an immense height, a blinding brilliance broken by a thousand flickering gleams like the waving of swords. and a gust of sparks, flashing in a thousand colours, whirled up and vanished. just then, and for a moment by some strange accident, a rush of music, like the swell of an organ, wove into the roaring of the flames. the whole village standing in black knots heard the sound, except gaffer siddons who is deaf--strange and beautiful it was, and then gone again. lumpy durgan, the idiot boy from sidderford, said it began and ended like the opening and shutting of a door. but little hetty penzance had a pretty fancy of two figures with wings, that flashed up and vanished among the flames. (and after that it was she began to pine for the things she saw in her dreams, and was abstracted and strange. it grieved her mother sorely at the time. she grew fragile, as though she was fading out of the world, and her eyes had a strange, far-away look. she talked of angels and rainbow colours and golden wings, and was for ever singing an unmeaning fragment of an air that nobody knew. until crump took her in hand and cured her with fattening dietary, syrup of hypophosphites and cod liver oil.) the epilogue. and there the story of the wonderful visit ends. the epilogue is in the mouth of mrs mendham. there stand two little white crosses in the siddermorton churchyard, near together, where the brambles come clambering over the stone wall. one is inscribed thomas angel and the other delia hardy, and the dates of the deaths are the same. really there is nothing beneath them but the ashes of the vicar's stuffed ostrich. (you will remember the vicar had his ornithological side.) i noticed them when mrs mendham was showing me the new de la beche monument. (mendham has been vicar since hilyer died.) "the granite came from somewhere in scotland," said mrs mendham, "and cost ever so much--i forget how much--but a wonderful lot! it's quite the talk of the village." "mother," said cissie mendham, "you are stepping on a grave." "dear me!" said mrs mendham, "how heedless of me! and the cripple's grave too. but really you've no idea how much this monument cost them." "these two people, by the bye," said mrs mendham, "were killed when the old vicarage was burnt. it's rather a strange story. he was a curious person, a hunchbacked fiddler, who came from nobody knows where, and imposed upon the late vicar to a frightful extent. he played in a pretentious way by ear, and we found out afterwards that he did not know a note of music--not a note. he was exposed before quite a lot of people. among other things, he seems to have been 'carrying on,' as people say, with one of the servants, a sly little drab.... but mendham had better tell you all about it. the man was half-witted and curiously deformed. it's strange the fancies girls have." she looked sharply at cissie, and cissie blushed to the eyes. "she was left in the house and he rushed into the flames in an attempt to save her. quite romantic--isn't it? he was rather clever with the fiddle in his uneducated way. "all the poor vicar's stuffed skins were burned at the same time. it was almost all he cared for. he never really got over the blow. he came to stop with us--for there wasn't another house available in the village. but he never seemed happy. he seemed all shaken. i never saw a man so changed. i tried to stir him up, but it was no good--no good at all. he had the queerest delusions about angels and that kind of thing. it made him odd company at times. he would say he heard music, and stare quite stupidly at nothing for hours together. he got quite careless about his dress.... he died within a twelvemonth of the fire." the end. turnbull and spears, printers, edinburgh. proofreading team. the sleeper awakes a revised edition of "when the sleeper wakes" h.g. wells preface to the new edition _when the sleeper wakes_, whose title i have now altered to _the sleeper awakes_, was first published as a book in after a serial appearance in the _graphic_ and one or two american and colonial periodicals. it is one of the most ambitious and least satisfactory of my books, and i have taken the opportunity afforded by this reprinting to make a number of excisions and alterations. like most of my earlier work, it was written under considerable pressure; there are marks of haste not only in the writing of the latter part, but in the very construction of the story. except for certain streaks of a slovenliness which seems to be an almost unavoidable defect in me, there is little to be ashamed of in the writing of the opening portion; but it will be fairly manifest to the critic that instead of being put aside and thought over through a leisurely interlude, the ill-conceived latter part was pushed to its end. i was at that time overworked, and badly in need of a holiday. in addition to various necessary journalistic tasks, i had in hand another book, _love and mr. lewisham_, which had taken a very much stronger hold upon my affections than this present story. my circumstances demanded that one or other should be finished before i took any rest, and so i wound up the sleeper sufficiently to make it a marketable work, hoping to be able to revise it before the book printers at any rate got hold of it. but fortune was against me. i came back to england from italy only to fall dangerously ill, and i still remember the impotent rage and strain of my attempt to put some sort of finish to my story of mr. lewisham, with my temperature at a hundred and two. i couldn't endure the thought of leaving that book a fragment. i did afterwards contrive to save it from the consequences of that febrile spurt--_love and mr. lewisham_ is indeed one of my most carefully balanced books--but the sleeper escaped me. it is twelve years now since the sleeper was written, and that young man of thirty-one is already too remote for me to attempt any very drastic reconstruction of his work. i have played now merely the part of an editorial elder brother: cut out relentlessly a number of long tiresome passages that showed all too plainly the fagged, toiling brain, the heavy sluggish _driven_ pen, and straightened out certain indecisions at the end. except for that, i have done no more than hack here and there at clumsy phrases and repetitions. the worst thing in the earlier version, and the thing that rankled most in my mind, was the treatment of the relations of helen wotton and graham. haste in art is almost always vulgarisation, and i slipped into the obvious vulgarity of making what the newspaper syndicates call a "love interest" out of helen. there was even a clumsy intimation that instead of going up in the flying-machine to fight, graham might have given in to ostrog, and married helen. i have now removed the suggestion of these uncanny connubialities. not the slightest intimation of any sexual interest could in truth have arisen between these two. they loved and kissed one another, but as a girl and her heroic grandfather might love, and in a crisis kiss. i have found it possible, without any very serious disarrangement, to clear all that objectionable stuff out of the story, and so a little ease my conscience on the score of this ungainly lapse. i have also, with a few strokes of the pen, eliminated certain dishonest and regrettable suggestions that the people beat ostrog. my graham dies, as all his kind must die, with no certainty of either victory or defeat. who will win--ostrog or the people? a thousand years hence that will still be just the open question we leave to-day. h.g. wells. contents i. insomnia ii. the trance iii. the awakening iv. the sound of a tumult v. the moving ways vi. the hall of the atlas vii. in the silent rooms viii. the roof spaces ix. the people march x. the battle of the darkness xi. the old man who knew everything xii. ostrog xiii. the end of the old order xiv. from the crow's nest xv. prominent people xvi. the monoplane xvii. three days xviii. graham remembers xix. ostrog's point of view xx. in the city ways xxi. the under-side xxii. the struggle in the council house xxiii. graham speaks his word xxiv. while the aeroplanes were coming xxv. the coming of the aeroplanes the sleeper awakes chapter i insomnia one afternoon, at low water, mr. isbister, a young artist lodging at boscastle, walked from that place to the picturesque cove of pentargen, desiring to examine the caves there. halfway down the precipitous path to the pentargen beach he came suddenly upon a man sitting in an attitude of profound distress beneath a projecting mass of rock. the hands of this man hung limply over his knees, his eyes were red and staring before him, and his face was wet with tears. he glanced round at isbister's footfall. both men were disconcerted, isbister the more so, and, to override the awkwardness of his involuntary pause, he remarked, with an air of mature conviction, that the weather was hot for the time of year. "very," answered the stranger shortly, hesitated a second, and added in a colourless tone, "i can't sleep." isbister stopped abruptly. "no?" was all he said, but his bearing conveyed his helpful impulse. "it may sound incredible," said the stranger, turning weary eyes to isbister's face and emphasizing his words with a languid hand, "but i have had no sleep--no sleep at all for six nights." "had advice?" "yes. bad advice for the most part. drugs. my nervous system.... they are all very well for the run of people. it's hard to explain. i dare not take ... sufficiently powerful drugs." "that makes it difficult," said isbister. he stood helplessly in the narrow path, perplexed what to do. clearly the man wanted to talk. an idea natural enough under the circumstances, prompted him to keep the conversation going. "i've never suffered from sleeplessness myself," he said in a tone of commonplace gossip, "but in those cases i have known, people have usually found something--" "i dare make no experiments." he spoke wearily. he gave a gesture of rejection, and for a space both men were silent. "exercise?" suggested isbister diffidently, with a glance from his interlocutor's face of wretchedness to the touring costume he wore. "that is what i have tried. unwisely perhaps. i have followed the coast, day after day--from new quay. it has only added muscular fatigue to the mental. the cause of this unrest was overwork--trouble. there was something--" he stopped as if from sheer fatigue. he rubbed his forehead with a lean hand. he resumed speech like one who talks to himself. "i am a lone wolf, a solitary man, wandering through a world in which i have no part. i am wifeless--childless--who is it speaks of the childless as the dead twigs on the tree of life? i am wifeless, childless--i could find no duty to do. no desire even in my heart. one thing at last i set myself to do. "i said, i _will_ do this, and to do it, to overcome the inertia of this dull body, i resorted to drugs. great god, i've had enough of drugs! i don't know if _you_ feel the heavy inconvenience of the body, its exasperating demand of time from the mind--time--life! live! we only live in patches. we have to eat, and then comes the dull digestive complacencies--or irritations. we have to take the air or else our thoughts grow sluggish, stupid, run into gulfs and blind alleys. a thousand distractions arise from within and without, and then comes drowsiness and sleep. men seem to live for sleep. how little of a man's day is his own--even at the best! and then come those false friends, those thug helpers, the alkaloids that stifle natural fatigue and kill rest--black coffee, cocaine--" "i see," said isbister. "i did my work," said the sleepless man with a querulous intonation. "and this is the price?" "yes." for a little while the two remained without speaking. "you cannot imagine the craving for rest that i feel--a hunger and thirst. for six long days, since my work was done, my mind has been a whirlpool, swift, unprogressive and incessant, a torrent of thoughts leading nowhere, spinning round swift and steady--" he paused. "towards the gulf." "you must sleep," said isbister decisively, and with an air of a remedy discovered. "certainly you must sleep." "my mind is perfectly lucid. it was never clearer. but i know i am drawing towards the vortex. presently--" "yes?" "you have seen things go down an eddy? out of the light of the day, out of this sweet world of sanity--down--" "but," expostulated isbister. the man threw out a hand towards him, and his eyes were wild, and his voice suddenly high. "i shall kill myself. if in no other way--at the foot of yonder dark precipice there, where the waves are green, and the white surge lifts and falls, and that little thread of water trembles down. there at any rate is ... sleep." "that's unreasonable," said isbister, startled at the man's hysterical gust of emotion. "drugs are better than that." "there at any rate is sleep," repeated the stranger, not heeding him. isbister looked at him. "it's not a cert, you know," he remarked. "there's a cliff like that at lulworth cove--as high, anyhow--and a little girl fell from top to bottom. and lives to-day--sound and well." "but those rocks there?" "one might lie on them rather dismally through a cold night, broken bones grating as one shivered, chill water splashing over you. eh?" their eyes met. "sorry to upset your ideals," said isbister with a sense of devil-may-careish brilliance. "but a suicide over that cliff (or any cliff for the matter of that), really, as an artist--" he laughed. "it's so damned amateurish." "but the other thing," said the sleepless man irritably, "the other thing. no man can keep sane if night after night--" "have you been walking along this coast alone?" "yes." "silly sort of thing to do. if you'll excuse my saying so. alone! as you say; body fag is no cure for brain fag. who told you to? no wonder; walking! and the sun on your head, heat, fag, solitude, all the day long, and then, i suppose, you go to bed and try very hard--eh?" isbister stopped short and looked at the sufferer doubtfully. "look at these rocks!" cried the seated man with a sudden force of gesture. "look at that sea that has shone and quivered there for ever! see the white spume rush into darkness under that great cliff. and this blue vault, with the blinding sun pouring from the dome of it. it is your world. you accept it, you rejoice in it. it warms and supports and delights you. and for me--" he turned his head and showed a ghastly face, bloodshot pallid eyes and bloodless lips. he spoke almost in a whisper. "it is the garment of my misery. the whole world ... is the garment of my misery." isbister looked at all the wild beauty of the sunlit cliffs about them and back to that face of despair. for a moment he was silent. he started, and made a gesture of impatient rejection. "you get a night's sleep," he said, "and you won't see much misery out here. take my word for it." he was quite sure now that this was a providential encounter. only half an hour ago he had been feeling horribly bored. here was employment the bare thought of which, was righteous self-applause. he took possession forthwith. the first need of this exhausted being was companionship. he flung himself down on the steeply sloping turf beside the motionless seated figure, and threw out a skirmishing line of gossip. his hearer lapsed into apathy; he stared dismally seaward, and spoke only in answer to isbister's direct questions--and not to all of those. but he made no objection to this benevolent intrusion upon his despair. he seemed even grateful, and when presently isbister, feeling that his unsupported talk was losing vigour, suggested that they should reascend the steep and return towards boscastle, alleging the view into blackapit, he submitted quietly. halfway up he began talking to himself, and abruptly turned a ghastly face on his helper. "what can be happening?" he asked with a gaunt illustrative hand. "what can be happening? spin, spin, spin, spin. it goes round and round, round and round for evermore." he stood with his hand circling. "it's all right, old chap," said isbister with the air of an old friend. "don't worry yourself. trust to me," the man dropped his hand and turned again. they went over the brow and to the headland beyond penally, with the sleepless man gesticulating ever and again, and speaking fragmentary things concerning his whirling brain. at the headland they stood by the seat that looks into the dark mysteries of blackapit, and then he sat down. isbister had resumed his talk whenever the path had widened sufficiently for them to walk abreast. he was enlarging upon the complex difficulty of making boscastle harbour in bad weather, when suddenly and quite irrelevantly his companion interrupted him again. "my head is not like what it was," he said, gesticulating for want of expressive phrases. "it's not like what it was. there is a sort of oppression, a weight. no--not drowsiness, would god it were! it is like a shadow, a deep shadow falling suddenly and swiftly across something busy. spin, spin into the darkness. the tumult of thought, the confusion, the eddy and eddy. i can't express it. i can hardly keep my mind on it--steadily enough to tell you." he stopped feebly. "don't trouble, old chap," said isbister. "i think i can understand. at any rate, it don't matter very much just at present about telling me, you know." the sleepless man thrust his knuckles into his eyes and rubbed them. isbister talked for awhile while this rubbing continued, and then he had a fresh idea. "come down to my room," he said, "and try a pipe. i can show you some sketches of this blackapit. if you'd care?" the other rose obediently and followed him down the steep. several times isbister heard him stumble as they came down, and his movements were slow and hesitating. "come in with me," said isbister, "and try some cigarettes and the blessed gift of alcohol. if you take alcohol?" the stranger hesitated at the garden gate. he seemed no longer aware of his actions. "i don't drink," he said slowly, coming up the garden path, and after a moment's interval repeated absently, "no--i don't drink. it goes round. spin, it goes--spin--" he stumbled at the doorstep and entered the room with the bearing of one who sees nothing. then he sat down heavily in the easy chair, seemed almost to fall into it. he leant forward with his brows on his hands and became motionless. presently he made a faint sound in his throat. isbister moved about the room with the nervousness of an inexperienced host, making little remarks that scarcely required answering. he crossed the room to his portfolio, placed it on the table and noticed the mantel clock. "i don't know if you'd care to have supper with me," he said with an unlighted cigarette in his hand--his mind troubled with ideas of a furtive administration of chloral. "only cold mutton, you know, but passing sweet. welsh. and a tart, i believe." he repeated this after momentary silence. the seated man made no answer. isbister stopped, match in hand, regarding him. the stillness lengthened. the match went out, the cigarette was put down unlit. the man was certainly very still. isbister took up the portfolio, opened it, put it down, hesitated, seemed about to speak. "perhaps," he whispered doubtfully. presently he glanced at the door and back to the figure. then he stole on tiptoe out of the room, glancing at his companion after each elaborate pace. he closed the door noiselessly. the house door was standing open, and he went out beyond the porch, and stood where the monkshood rose at the corner of the garden bed. from this point he could see the stranger through the open window, still and dim, sitting head on hand. he had not moved. a number of children going along the road stopped and regarded the artist curiously. a boatman exchanged civilities with him. he felt that possibly his circumspect attitude and position looked peculiar and unaccountable. smoking, perhaps, might seem more natural. he drew pipe and pouch from his pocket, filled the pipe slowly. "i wonder," ... he said, with a scarcely perceptible loss of complacency. "at any rate one must give him a chance." he struck a match in the virile way, and proceeded to light his pipe. he heard his landlady behind him, coming with his lamp lit from the kitchen. he turned, gesticulating with his pipe, and stopped her at the door of his sitting-room. he had some difficulty in explaining the situation in whispers, for she did not know he had a visitor. she retreated again with the lamp, still a little mystified to judge from her manner, and he resumed his hovering at the corner of the porch, flushed and less at his ease. long after he had smoked out his pipe, and when the bats were abroad, curiosity dominated his complex hesitations, and he stole back into his darkling sitting-room. he paused in the doorway. the stranger was still in the same attitude, dark against the window. save for the singing of some sailors aboard one of the little slate-carrying ships in the harbour the evening was very still. outside, the spikes of monkshood and delphinium stood erect and motionless against the shadow of the hillside. something flashed into isbister's mind; he started, and leaning over the table, listened. an unpleasant suspicion grew stronger; became conviction. astonishment seized him and became--dread! no sound of breathing came from the seated figure! he crept slowly and noiselessly round the table, pausing twice to listen. at last he could lay his hand on the back of the armchair. he bent down until the two heads were ear to ear. then he bent still lower to look up at his visitor's face. he started violently and uttered an exclamation. the eyes were void spaces of white. he looked again and saw that they were open and with the pupils rolled under the lids. he was afraid. he took the man by the shoulder and shook him. "are you asleep?" he said, with his voice jumping, and again, "are you asleep?" a conviction took possession of his mind that this man was dead. he became active and noisy, strode across the room, blundering against the table as he did so, and rang the bell. "please bring a light at once," he said in the passage. "there is something wrong with my friend." he returned to the motionless seated figure, grasped the shoulder, shook it, shouted. the room was flooded with yellow glare as his landlady entered with the light. his face was white as he turned blinking towards her. "i must fetch a doctor," he said. "it is either death or a fit. is there a doctor in the village? where is a doctor to be found?" chapter ii the trance the state of cataleptic rigour into which this man had fallen, lasted for an unprecedented length of time, and then he passed slowly to the flaccid state, to a lax attitude suggestive of profound repose. then it was his eyes could be closed. he was removed from the hotel to the boscastle surgery, and from the surgery, after some weeks, to london. but he still resisted every attempt at reanimation. after a time, for reasons that will appear later, these attempts were discontinued. for a great space he lay in that strange condition, inert and still--neither dead nor living but, as it were, suspended, hanging midway between nothingness and existence. his was a darkness unbroken by a ray of thought or sensation, a dreamless inanition, a vast space of peace. the tumult of his mind had swelled and risen to an abrupt climax of silence. where was the man? where is any man when insensibility takes hold of him? "it seems only yesterday," said isbister. "i remember it all as though it happened yesterday--clearer, perhaps, than if it had happened yesterday." it was the isbister of the last chapter, but he was no longer a young man. the hair that had been brown and a trifle in excess of the fashionable length, was iron grey and clipped close, and the face that had been pink and white was buff and ruddy. he had a pointed beard shot with grey. he talked to an elderly man who wore a summer suit of drill (the summer of that year was unusually hot). this was warming, a london solicitor and next of kin to graham, the man who had fallen into the trance. and the two men stood side by side in a room in a house in london regarding his recumbent figure. it was a yellow figure lying lax upon a water-bed and clad in a flowing shirt, a figure with a shrunken face and a stubby beard, lean limbs and lank nails, and about it was a case of thin glass. this glass seemed to mark off the sleeper from the reality of life about him, he was a thing apart, a strange, isolated abnormality. the two men stood close to the glass, peering in. "the thing gave me a shock," said isbister. "i feel a queer sort of surprise even now when i think of his white eyes. they were white, you know, rolled up. coming here again brings it all back to me." "have you never seen him since that time?" asked warming. "often wanted to come," said isbister; "but business nowadays is too serious a thing for much holiday keeping. i've been in america most of the time." "if i remember rightly," said warming, "you were an artist?" "was. and then i became a married man. i saw it was all up with black and white, very soon--at least for a mediocrity, and i jumped on to process. those posters on the cliffs at dover are by my people." "good posters," admitted the solicitor, "though i was sorry to see them there." "last as long as the cliffs, if necessary," exclaimed isbister with satisfaction. "the world changes. when he fell asleep, twenty years ago, i was down at boscastle with a box of water-colours and a noble, old-fashioned ambition. i didn't expect that some day my pigments would glorify the whole blessed coast of england, from land's end round again to the lizard. luck comes to a man very often when he's not looking." warming seemed to doubt the quality of the luck. "i just missed seeing you, if i recollect aright." "you came back by the trap that took me to camelford railway station. it was close on the jubilee, victoria's jubilee, because i remember the seats and flags in westminster, and the row with the cabman at chelsea." "the diamond jubilee, it was," said warming; "the second one." "ah, yes! at the proper jubilee--the fifty year affair--i was down at wookey--a boy. i missed all that.... what a fuss we had with him! my landlady wouldn't take him in, wouldn't let him stay--he looked so queer when he was rigid. we had to carry him in a chair up to the hotel. and the boscastle doctor--it wasn't the present chap, but the g.p. before him--was at him until nearly two, with me and the landlord holding lights and so forth." "do you mean--he was stiff and hard?" "stiff!--wherever you bent him he stuck. you might have stood him on his head and he'd have stopped. i never saw such stiffness. of course this"--he indicated the prostrate figure by a movement of his head--"is quite different. and the little doctor--what was his name?" "smithers?" "smithers it was--was quite wrong in trying to fetch him round too soon, according to all accounts. the things he did! even now it makes me feel all--ugh! mustard, snuff, pricking. and one of those beastly little things, not dynamos--" "coils." "yes. you could see his muscles throb and jump, and he twisted about. there were just two flaring yellow candles, and all the shadows were shivering, and the little doctor nervous and putting on side, and _him_--stark and squirming in the most unnatural ways. well, it made me dream." pause. "it's a strange state," said warming. "it's a sort of complete absence," said isbister. "here's the body, empty. not dead a bit, and yet not alive. it's like a seat vacant and marked 'engaged.' no feeling, no digestion, no beating of the heart--not a flutter. _that_ doesn't make me feel as if there was a man present. in a sense it's more dead than death, for these doctors tell me that even the hair has stopped growing. now with the proper dead, the hair will go on growing--" "i know," said warming, with a flash of pain in his expression. they peered through the glass again. graham was indeed in a strange state, in the flaccid phase of a trance, but a trance unprecedented in medical history. trances had lasted for as much as a year before--but at the end of that time it had ever been a waking or a death; sometimes first one and then the other. isbister noted the marks the physicians had made in injecting nourishment, for that had been resorted to to postpone collapse; he pointed them out to warming, who had been trying not to see them. "and while he has been lying here," said isbister, with the zest of a life freely spent, "i have changed my plans in life; married, raised a family, my eldest lad--i hadn't begun to think of sons then--is an american citizen, and looking forward to leaving harvard. there's a touch of grey in my hair. and this man, not a day older nor wiser (practically) than i was in my downy days. it's curious to think of." warming turned. "and i have grown old too. i played cricket with him when i was still only a boy. and he looks a young man still. yellow perhaps. but that _is_ a young man nevertheless." "and there's been the war," said isbister. "from beginning to end." "and these martians." "i've understood," said isbister after a pause, "that he had some moderate property of his own?" "that is so," said warming. he coughed primly. "as it happens--i have charge of it." "ah!" isbister thought, hesitated and spoke: "no doubt--his keep here is not expensive--no doubt it will have improved--accumulated?" "it has. he will wake up very much better off--if he wakes--than when he slept." "as a business man," said isbister, "that thought has naturally been in my mind. i have, indeed, sometimes thought that, speaking commercially, of course, this sleep may be a very good thing for him. that he knows what he is about, so to speak, in being insensible so long. if he had lived straight on--" "i doubt if he would have premeditated as much," said warming. "he was not a far-sighted man. in fact--" "yes?" "we differed on that point. i stood to him somewhat in the relation of a guardian. you have probably seen enough of affairs to recognise that occasionally a certain friction--. but even if that was the case, there is a doubt whether he will ever wake. this sleep exhausts slowly, but it exhausts. apparently he is sliding slowly, very slowly and tediously, down a long slope, if you can understand me?" "it will be a pity to lose his surprise. there's been a lot of change these twenty years. it's rip van winkle come real." "there has been a lot of change certainly," said warming. "and, among other changes, i have changed. i am an old man." isbister hesitated, and then feigned a belated surprise. "i shouldn't have thought it." "i was forty-three when his bankers--you remember you wired to his bankers--sent on to me." "i got their address from the cheque book in his pocket," said isbister. "well, the addition is not difficult," said warming. there was another pause, and then isbister gave way to an unavoidable curiosity. "he may go on for years yet," he said, and had a moment of hesitation. "we have to consider that. his affairs, you know, may fall some day into the hands of--someone else, you know." "that, if you will believe me, mr. isbister, is one of the problems most constantly before my mind. we happen to be--as a matter of fact, there are no very trustworthy connexions of ours. it is a grotesque and unprecedented position." "rather," said isbister. "it seems to me it's a case of some public body, some practically undying guardian. if he really is going on living--as the doctors, some of them, think. as a matter of fact, i have gone to one or two public men about it. but, so far, nothing has been done." "it wouldn't be a bad idea to hand him over to some public body--the british museum trustees, or the royal college of physicians. sounds a bit odd, of course, but the whole situation is odd." "the difficulty is to induce them to take him." "red tape, i suppose?" "partly." pause. "it's a curious business, certainly," said isbister. "and compound interest has a way of mounting up." "it has," said warming. "and now the gold supplies are running short there is a tendency towards ... appreciation." "i've felt that," said isbister with a grimace. "but it makes it better for _him_." "_if_ he wakes." "if he wakes," echoed isbister. "do you notice the pinched-in look of his nose, and the way in which his eyelids sink?" warming looked and thought for a space. "i doubt if he will wake," he said at last. "i never properly understood," said isbister, "what it was brought this on. he told me something about overstudy. i've often been curious." "he was a man of considerable gifts, but spasmodic, emotional. he had grave domestic troubles, divorced his wife, in fact, and it was as a relief from that, i think, that he took up politics of the rabid sort. he was a fanatical radical--a socialist--or typical liberal, as they used to call themselves, of the advanced school. energetic--flighty--undisciplined. overwork upon a controversy did this for him. i remember the pamphlet he wrote--a curious production. wild, whirling stuff. there were one or two prophecies. some of them are already exploded, some of them are established facts. but for the most part to read such a thesis is to realise how full the world is of unanticipated things. he will have much to learn, much to unlearn, when he wakes. if ever a waking comes." "i'd give anything to be there," said isbister, "just to hear what he would say to it all." "so would i," said warming. "aye! so would i," with an old man's sudden turn to self pity. "but i shall never see him wake." he stood looking thoughtfully at the waxen figure. "he will never awake," he said at last. he sighed. "he will never awake again." chapter iii the awakening but warming was wrong in that. an awakening came. what a wonderfully complex thing! this simple seeming unity--the self! who can trace its reintegration as morning after morning we awaken, the flux and confluence of its countless factors interweaving, rebuilding, the dim first stirrings of the soul, the growth and synthesis of the unconscious to the subconscious, the subconscious to dawning consciousness, until at last we recognise ourselves again. and as it happens to most of us after the night's sleep, so it was with graham at the end of his vast slumber. a dim cloud of sensation taking shape, a cloudy dreariness, and he found himself vaguely somewhere, recumbent, faint, but alive. the pilgrimage towards a personal being seemed to traverse vast gulfs, to occupy epochs. gigantic dreams that were terrible realities at the time, left vague perplexing memories, strange creatures, strange scenery, as if from another planet. there was a distinct impression, too, of a momentous conversation, of a name--he could not tell what name--that was subsequently to recur, of some queer long-forgotten sensation of vein and muscle, of a feeling of vast hopeless effort, the effort of a man near drowning in darkness. then came a panorama of dazzling unstable confluent scenes.... graham became aware that his eyes were open and regarding some unfamiliar thing. it was something white, the edge of something, a frame of wood. he moved his head slightly, following the contour of this shape. it went up beyond the top of his eyes. he tried to think where he might be. did it matter, seeing he was so wretched? the colour of his thoughts was a dark depression. he felt the featureless misery of one who wakes towards the hour of dawn. he had an uncertain sense of whispers and footsteps hastily receding. the movement of his head involved a perception of extreme physical weakness. he supposed he was in bed in the hotel at the place in the valley--but he could not recall that white edge. he must have slept. he remembered now that he had wanted to sleep. he recalled the cliff and waterfall again, and then recollected something about talking to a passer-by.... how long had he slept? what was that sound of pattering feet? and that rise and fall, like the murmur of breakers on pebbles? he put out a languid hand to reach his watch from the chair whereon it was his habit to place it, and touched some smooth hard surface like glass. this was so unexpected that it startled him extremely. quite suddenly he rolled over, stared for a moment, and struggled into a sitting position. the effort was unexpectedly difficult, and it left him giddy and weak--and amazed. he rubbed his eyes. the riddle of his surroundings was confusing but his mind was quite clear--evidently his sleep had benefited him. he was not in a bed at all as he understood the word, but lying naked on a very soft and yielding mattress, in a trough of dark glass. the mattress was partly transparent, a fact he observed with a sense of insecurity, and below it was a mirror reflecting him greyly. about his arm--and he saw with a shock that his skin was strangely dry and yellow--was bound a curious apparatus of rubber, bound so cunningly that it seemed to pass into his skin above and below. and this bed was placed in a case of greenish coloured glass (as it seemed to him), a bar in the white framework of which had first arrested his attention. in the corner of the case was a stand of glittering and delicately made apparatus, for the most part quite strange appliances, though a maximum and minimum thermometer was recognisable. the slightly greenish tint of the glass-like substance which surrounded him on every hand obscured what lay behind, but he perceived it was a vast apartment of splendid appearance, and with a very large and simple white archway facing him. close to the walls of the cage were articles of furniture, a table covered with a silvery cloth, silvery like the side of a fish, a couple of graceful chairs, and on the table a number of dishes with substances piled on them, a bottle and two glasses. he realised that he was intensely hungry. he could see no one, and after a period of hesitation scrambled off the translucent mattress and tried to stand on the clean white floor of his little apartment. he had miscalculated his strength, however, and staggered and put his hand against the glass like pane before him to steady himself. for a moment it resisted his hand, bending outward like a distended bladder, then it broke with a slight report and vanished--a pricked bubble. he reeled out into the general space of the hall, greatly astonished. he caught at the table to save himself, knocking one of the glasses to the floor--it rang but did not break--and sat down in one of the armchairs. when he had a little recovered he filled the remaining glass from the bottle and drank--a colourless liquid it was, but not water, with a pleasing faint aroma and taste and a quality of immediate support and stimulus. he put down the vessel and looked about him. the apartment lost none of its size and magnificence now that the greenish transparency that had intervened was removed. the archway he saw led to a flight of steps, going downward without the intermediation of a door, to a spacious transverse passage. this passage ran between polished pillars of some white-veined substance of deep ultramarine, and along it came the sound of human movements, and voices and a deep undeviating droning note. he sat, now fully awake, listening alertly, forgetting the viands in his attention. then with a shock he remembered that he was naked, and casting about him for covering, saw a long black robe thrown on one of the chairs beside him. this he wrapped about him and sat down again, trembling. his mind was still a surging perplexity. clearly he had slept, and had been removed in his sleep. but where? and who were those people, the distant crowd beyond the deep blue pillars? boscastle? he poured out and partially drank another glass of the colourless fluid. what was this place?--this place that to his senses seemed subtly quivering like a thing alive? he looked about him at the clean and beautiful form of the apartment, unstained by ornament, and saw that the roof was broken in one place by a circular shaft full of light, and, as he looked, a steady, sweeping shadow blotted it out and passed, and came again and passed. "beat, beat," that sweeping shadow had a note of its own in the subdued tumult that filled the air. he would have called out, but only a little sound came into his throat. then he stood up, and, with the uncertain steps of a drunkard, made his way towards the archway. he staggered down the steps, tripped on the corner of the black cloak he had wrapped about himself, and saved himself by catching at one of the blue pillars. the passage ran down a cool vista of blue and purple and ended remotely in a railed space like a balcony brightly lit and projecting into a space of haze, a space like the interior of some gigantic building. beyond and remote were vast and vague architectural forms. the tumult of voices rose now loud and clear, and on the balcony and with their backs to him, gesticulating and apparently in animated conversation, were three figures, richly dressed in loose and easy garments of bright soft colourings. the noise of a great multitude of people poured up over the balcony, and once it seemed the top of a banner passed, and once some brightly coloured object, a pale blue cap or garment thrown up into the air perhaps, flashed athwart the space and fell. the shouts sounded like english, there was a reiteration of "wake!" he heard some indistinct shrill cry, and abruptly these three men began laughing. "ha, ha, ha!" laughed one--a red-haired man in a short purple robe. "when the sleeper wakes--_when_!" he turned his eyes full of merriment along the passage. his face changed, the whole man changed, became rigid. the other two turned swiftly at his exclamation and stood motionless. their faces assumed an expression of consternation, an expression that deepened into awe. suddenly graham's knees bent beneath him, his arm against the pillar collapsed limply, he staggered forward and fell upon his face. chapter iv the sound of a tumult graham's last impression before he fainted was of the ringing of bells. he learnt afterwards that he was insensible, hanging between life and death, for the better part of an hour. when he recovered his senses, he was back on his translucent couch, and there was a stirring warmth at heart and throat. the dark apparatus, he perceived, had been removed from his arm, which was bandaged. the white framework was still about him, but the greenish transparent substance that had filled it was altogether gone. a man in a deep violet robe, one of those who had been on the balcony, was looking keenly into his face. remote but insistent was a clamour of bells and confused sounds, that suggested to his mind the picture of a great number of people shouting together. something seemed to fall across this tumult, a door suddenly closed. graham moved his head. "what does this all mean?" he said slowly. "where am i?" he saw the red-haired man who had been first to discover him. a voice seemed to be asking what he had said, and was abruptly stilled. the man in violet answered in a soft voice, speaking english with a slightly foreign accent, or so at least it seemed to the sleeper's ears. "you are quite safe. you were brought hither from where you fell asleep. it is quite safe. you have been here some time--sleeping. in a trance." he said, something further that graham could not hear, and a little phial was handed across to him. graham felt a cooling spray, a fragrant mist played over his forehead for a moment, and his sense of refreshment increased. he closed his eyes in satisfaction. "better?" asked the man in violet, as graham's eyes reopened. he was a pleasant-faced man of thirty, perhaps, with a pointed flaxen beard, and a clasp of gold at the neck of his violet robe. "yes," said graham. "you have been asleep some time. in a cataleptic trance. you have heard? catalepsy? it may seem strange to you at first, but i can assure you everything is well." graham did not answer, but these words served their reassuring purpose. his eyes went from face to face of the three people about him. they were regarding him strangely. he knew he ought to be somewhere in cornwall, but he could not square these things with that impression. a matter that had been in his mind during his last waking moments at boscastle recurred, a thing resolved upon and somehow neglected. he cleared his throat. "have you wired my cousin?" he asked. "e. warming, , chancery lane?" they were all assiduous to hear. but he had to repeat it. "what an odd _blurr_ in his accent!" whispered the red-haired man. "wire, sir?" said the young man with the flaxen beard, evidently puzzled. "he means send an electric telegram," volunteered the third, a pleasant-faced youth of nineteen or twenty. the flaxen-bearded man gave a cry of comprehension. "how stupid of me! you may be sure everything shall be done, sir," he said to graham. "i am afraid it would be difficult to--_wire_ to your cousin. he is not in london now. but don't trouble about arrangements yet; you have been asleep a very long time and the important thing is to get over that, sir." (graham concluded the word was sir, but this man pronounced it "_sire_.") "oh!" said graham, and became quiet. it was all very puzzling, but apparently these people in unfamiliar dress knew what they were about. yet they were odd and the room was odd. it seemed he was in some newly established place. he had a sudden flash of suspicion! surely this wasn't some hall of public exhibition! if it was he would give warming a piece of his mind. but it scarcely had that character. and in a place of public exhibition he would not have discovered himself naked. then suddenly, quite abruptly, he realised what had happened. there was no perceptible interval of suspicion, no dawn to his knowledge. abruptly he knew that his trance had lasted for a vast interval; as if by some processes of thought-reading he interpreted the awe in the faces that peered into his. he looked at them strangely, full of intense emotion. it seemed they read his eyes. he framed his lips to speak and could not. a queer impulse to hide his knowledge came into his mind almost at the moment of his discovery. he looked at his bare feet, regarding them silently. his impulse to speak passed. he was trembling exceedingly. they gave him some pink fluid with a greenish fluorescence and a meaty taste, and the assurance of returning strength grew. "that--that makes me feel better," he said hoarsely, and there were murmurs of respectful approval. he knew now quite clearly. he made to speak again, and again he could not. he pressed his throat and tried a third time. "how long?" he asked in a level voice. "how long have i been asleep?" "some considerable time," said the flaxen-bearded man, glancing quickly at the others. "how long?" "a very long time." "yes--yes," said graham, suddenly testy. "but i want--is it--it is--some years? many years? there was something--i forget what. i feel--confused. but you--" he sobbed. "you need not fence with me. how long--?" he stopped, breathing irregularly. he squeezed his eyes with his knuckles and sat waiting for an answer. they spoke in undertones. "five or six?" he asked faintly. "more?" "very much more than that." "more!" "more." he looked at them and it seemed as though imps were twitching the muscles of his face. he looked his question. "many years," said the man with the red beard. graham struggled into a sitting position. he wiped a rheumy tear from his face with a lean hand. "many years!" he repeated. he shut his eyes tight, opened them, and sat looking about him from one unfamiliar thing to another. "how many years?" he asked. "you must be prepared to be surprised." "well?" "more than a gross of years." he was irritated at the strange word. "more than a _what_?" two of them spoke together. some quick remarks that were made about "decimal" he did not catch. "how long did you say?" asked graham. "how long? don't look like that. tell me." among the remarks in an undertone, his ear caught six words: "more than a couple of centuries." "_what_?" he cried, turning on the youth who he thought had spoken. "who says--? what was that? a couple of _centuries_!" "yes," said the man with the red beard. "two hundred years." graham repeated the words. he had been prepared to hear of a vast repose, and yet these concrete centuries defeated him. "two hundred years," he said again, with the figure of a great gulf opening very slowly in his mind; and then, "oh, but--!" they said nothing. "you--did you say--?" "two hundred years. two centuries of years," said the man with the red beard. there was a pause. graham looked at their faces and saw that what he had heard was indeed true. "but it can't be," he said querulously. "i am dreaming. trances--trances don't last. that is not right--this is a joke you have played upon me! tell me--some days ago, perhaps, i was walking along the coast of cornwall--?" his voice failed him. the man with the flaxen beard hesitated. "i'm not very strong in history, sir," he said weakly, and glanced at the others. "that was it, sir," said the youngster. "boscastle, in the old duchy of cornwall--it's in the south-west country beyond the dairy meadows. there is a house there still. i have been there." "boscastle!" graham turned his eyes to the youngster. "that was it--boscastle. little boscastle. i fell asleep--somewhere there. i don't exactly remember. i don't exactly remember." he pressed his brows and whispered, "more than _two hundred years_!" he began to speak quickly with a twitching face, but his heart was cold within him. "but if it _is_ two hundred years, every soul i know, every human being that ever i saw or spoke to before i went to sleep, must be dead." they did not answer him. "the queen and the royal family, her ministers, church and state. high and low, rich and poor, one with another ... is there england still?" "that's a comfort! is there london?" "this _is_ london, eh? and you are my assistant-custodian; assistant-custodian. and these--? eh? assistant-custodians too!" he sat with a gaunt stare on his face. "but why am i here? no! don't talk. be quiet. let me--" he sat silent, rubbed his eyes, and, uncovering them, found another little glass of pinkish fluid held towards him. he took the dose. directly he had taken it he began to weep naturally and refreshingly. presently he looked at their faces, suddenly laughed through his tears, a little foolishly. "but--two--hun--dred--years!" he said. he grimaced hysterically and covered his face again. after a space he grew calm. he sat up, his hands hanging over his knees in almost precisely the same attitude in which isbister had found him on the cliff at pentargen. his attention was attracted by a thick domineering voice, the footsteps of an advancing personage. "what are you doing? why was i not warned? surely you could tell? someone will suffer for this. the man must be kept quiet. are the doorways closed? all the doorways? he must be kept perfectly quiet. he must not be told. has he been told anything?" the man with the fair beard made some inaudible remark, and graham looking over his shoulder saw approaching a short, fat, and thickset beardless man, with aquiline nose and heavy neck and chin. very thick black and slightly sloping eyebrows that almost met over his nose and overhung deep grey eyes, gave his face an oddly formidable expression. he scowled momentarily at graham and then his regard returned to the man with the flaxen beard. "these others," he said in a voice of extreme irritation. "you had better go." "go?" said the red-bearded man. "certainly--go now. but see the doorways are closed as you go." the two men addressed turned obediently, after one reluctant glance at graham, and instead of going through the archway as he expected, walked straight to the dead wall of the apartment opposite the archway. a long strip of this apparently solid wall rolled up with a snap, hung over the two retreating men and fell again, and immediately graham was alone with the newcomer and the purple-robed man with the flaxen beard. for a space the thickset man took not the slightest notice of graham, but proceeded to interrogate the other--obviously his subordinate---upon the treatment of their charge. he spoke clearly, but in phrases only partially intelligible to graham. the awakening seemed not only a matter of surprise but of consternation and annoyance to him. he was evidently profoundly excited. "you must not confuse his mind by telling him things," he repeated again and again. "you must not confuse his mind." his questions answered, he turned quickly and eyed the awakened sleeper with an ambiguous expression. "feel queer?" he asked. "very." "the world, what you see of it, seems strange to you?" "i suppose i have to live in it, strange as it seems." "i suppose so, now." "in the first place, hadn't i better have some clothes?" "they--" said the thickset man and stopped, and the flaxen-bearded man met his eye and went away. "you will very speedily have clothes," said the thickset man. "is it true indeed, that i have been asleep two hundred--?" asked graham. "they have told you that, have they? two hundred and three, as a matter of fact." graham accepted the indisputable now with raised eyebrows and depressed mouth. he sat silent for a moment, and then asked a question, "is there a mill or dynamo near here?" he did not wait for an answer. "things have changed tremendously, i suppose?" he said. "what is that shouting?" he asked abruptly. "nothing," said the thickset man impatiently. "it's people. you'll understand better later--perhaps. as you say, things have changed." he spoke shortly, his brows were knit, and he glanced about him like a man trying to decide in an emergency. "we must get you clothes and so forth, at any rate. better wait here until they can be procured. no one will come near you. you want shaving." graham rubbed his chin. the man with the flaxen beard came back towards them, turned suddenly, listened for a moment, lifted his eyebrows at the older man, and hurried off through the archway towards the balcony. the tumult of shouting grew louder, and the thickset man turned and listened also. he cursed suddenly under his breath, and turned his eyes upon graham with an unfriendly expression. it was a surge of many voices, rising and falling, shouting and screaming, and once came a sound like blows and sharp cries, and then a snapping like the crackling of dry sticks. graham strained his ears to draw some single thread of sound from the woven tumult. then he perceived, repeated again and again, a certain formula. for a time he doubted his ears. but surely these were the words: "show us the sleeper! show us the sleeper!" the thickset man rushed suddenly to the archway. "wild!" he cried. "how do they know? do they know? or is it guessing?" there was perhaps an answer. "i can't come," said the thickset man; "i have _him_ to see to. but shout from the balcony." there was an inaudible reply. "say he is not awake. anything! i leave it to you." he came hurrying back to graham. "you must have clothes at once," he said. "you cannot stop here--and it will be impossible to--" he rushed away, graham shouting unanswered questions after him. in a moment he was back. "i can't tell you what is happening. it is too complex to explain. in a moment you shall have your clothes made. yes--in a moment. and then i can take you away from here. you will find out our troubles soon enough." "but those voices. they were shouting--?" "something about the sleeper--that's you. they have some twisted idea. i don't know what it is. i know nothing." a shrill bell jetted acutely across the indistinct mingling of remote noises, and this brusque person sprang to a little group of appliances in the corner of the room. he listened for a moment, regarding a ball of crystal, nodded, and said a few indistinct words; then he walked to the wall through which the two men had vanished. it rolled up again like a curtain, and he stood waiting. graham lifted his arm and was astonished to find what strength the restoratives had given him. he thrust one leg over the side of the couch and then the other. his head no longer swam. he could scarcely credit his rapid recovery. he sat feeling his limbs. the man with the flaxen beard re-entered from the archway, and as he did so the cage of a lift came sliding down in front of the thickset man, and a lean, grey-bearded man, carrying a roll, and wearing a tightly-fitting costume of dark green, appeared therein. "this is the tailor," said the thickset man with an introductory gesture. "it will never do for you to wear that black. i cannot understand how it got here. but i shall. i shall. you will be as rapid as possible?" he said to the tailor. the man in green bowed, and, advancing, seated himself by graham on the bed. his manner was calm, but his eyes were full of curiosity. "you will find the fashions altered, sire," he said. he glanced from under his brows at the thickset man. he opened the roller with a quick movement, and a confusion of brilliant fabrics poured out over his knees. "you lived, sire, in a period essentially cylindrical--the victorian. with a tendency to the hemisphere in hats. circular curves always. now--" he flicked out a little appliance the size and appearance of a keyless watch, whirled the knob, and behold--a little figure in white appeared kinetoscope fashion on the dial, walking and turning. the tailor caught up a pattern of bluish white satin. "that is my conception of your immediate treatment," he said. the thickset man came and stood by the shoulder of graham. "we have very little time," he said. "trust me," said the tailor. "my machine follows. what do you think of this?" "what is that?" asked the man from the nineteenth century. "in your days they showed you a fashion-plate," said the tailor, "but this is our modern development. see here." the little figure repeated its evolutions, but in a different costume. "or this," and with a click another small figure in a more voluminous type of robe marched on to the dial. the tailor was very quick in his movements, and glanced twice towards the lift as he did these things. it rumbled again, and a crop-haired anemic lad with features of the chinese type, clad in coarse pale blue canvas, appeared together with a complicated machine, which he pushed noiselessly on little castors into the room. incontinently the little kinetoscope was dropped, graham was invited to stand in front of the machine and the tailor muttered some instructions to the crop-haired lad, who answered in guttural tones and with words graham did not recognise. the boy then went to conduct an incomprehensible monologue in the corner, and the tailor pulled out a number of slotted arms terminating in little discs, pulling them out until the discs were flat against the body of graham, one at each shoulder blade, one at the elbows, one at the neck and so forth, so that at last there were, perhaps, two score of them upon his body and limbs. at the same time, some other person entered the room by the lift, behind graham. the tailor set moving a mechanism that initiated a faint-sounding rhythmic movement of parts in the machine, and in another moment he was knocking up the levers and graham was released. the tailor replaced his cloak of black, and the man with the flaxen beard proffered him a little glass of some refreshing fluid. graham saw over the rim of the glass a pale-faced young man regarding him with a singular fixity. the thickset man had been pacing the room fretfully, and now turned and went through the archway towards the balcony, from which the noise of a distant crowd still came in gusts and cadences. the crop-headed lad handed the tailor a roll of the bluish satin and the two began fixing this in the mechanism in a manner reminiscent of a roll of paper in a nineteenth century printing machine. then they ran the entire thing on its easy, noiseless bearings across the room to a remote corner where a twisted cable looped rather gracefully from the wall. they made some connexion and the machine became energetic and swift. "what is that doing?" asked graham, pointing with the empty glass to the busy figures and trying to ignore the scrutiny of the new comer. "is that--some sort of force--laid on?" "yes," said the man with the flaxen beard. "who is _that_?" he indicated the archway behind him. the man in purple stroked his little beard, hesitated, and answered in an undertone, "he is howard, your chief guardian. you see, sire--it's a little difficult to explain. the council appoints a guardian and assistants. this hall has under certain restrictions been public. in order that people might satisfy themselves. we have barred the doorways for the first time. but i think--if you don't mind, i will leave him to explain." "odd!" said graham. "guardian? council?" then turning his back on the new comer, he asked in an undertone, "why is this man _glaring_ at me? is he a mesmerist?" "mesmerist! he is a capillotomist." "capillotomist!" "yes--one of the chief. his yearly fee is sixdoz lions." it sounded sheer nonsense. graham snatched at the last phrase with an unsteady mind. "sixdoz lions?" he said. "didn't you have lions? i suppose not. you had the old pounds? they are our monetary units." "but what was that you said--sixdoz?" "yes. six dozen, sire. of course things, even these little things, have altered. you lived in the days of the decimal system, the arab system--tens, and little hundreds and thousands. we have eleven numerals now. we have single figures for both ten and eleven, two figures for a dozen, and a dozen dozen makes a gross, a great hundred, you know, a dozen gross a dozand, and a dozand dozand a myriad. very simple?" "i suppose so," said graham. "but about this cap--what was it?" the man with the flaxen beard glanced over his shoulder. "here are your clothes!" he said. graham turned round sharply and saw the tailor standing at his elbow smiling, and holding some palpably new garments over his arm. the crop-headed boy, by means of one ringer, was impelling the complicated machine towards the lift by which he had arrived. graham stared at the completed suit. "you don't mean to say--!" "just made," said the tailor. he dropped the garments at the feet of graham, walked to the bed, on which graham had so recently been lying, flung out the translucent mattress, and turned up the looking-glass. as he did so a furious bell summoned the thickset man to the corner. the man with the flaxen beard rushed across to him and then hurried out by the archway. the tailor was assisting graham into a dark purple combination garment, stockings, vest, and pants in one, as the thickset man came back from the corner to meet the man with the flaxen beard returning from the balcony. they began speaking quickly in an undertone, their bearing had an unmistakable quality of anxiety. over the purple under-garment came a complex garment of bluish white, and graham, was clothed in the fashion once more and saw himself, sallow-faced, unshaven and shaggy still, but at least naked no longer, and in some indefinable unprecedented way graceful. "i must shave," he said regarding himself in the glass. "in a moment," said howard. the persistent stare ceased. the young man closed his eyes, reopened them, and with a lean hand extended, advanced on graham. then he stopped, with his hand slowly gesticulating, and looked about him. "a seat," said howard impatiently, and in a moment the flaxen-bearded man had a chair behind graham. "sit down, please," said howard. graham hesitated, and in the other hand of the wild-eyed man he saw the glint of steel. "don't you understand, sire?" cried the flaxen-bearded man with hurried politeness. "he is going to cut your hair." "oh!" cried graham enlightened. "but you called him--" "a capillotomist--precisely! he is one of the finest artists in the world." graham sat down abruptly. the flaxen-bearded man disappeared. the capillotomist came forward, examined graham's ears and surveyed him, felt the back of his head, and would have sat down again to regard him but for howard's audible impatience. forthwith with rapid movements and a succession of deftly handled implements he shaved graham's chin, clipped his moustache, and cut and arranged his hair. all this he did without a word, with something of the rapt air of a poet inspired. and as soon as he had finished graham was handed a pair of shoes. suddenly a loud voice shouted--it seemed from a piece of machinery in the corner--"at once--at once. the people know all over the city. work is being stopped. work is being stopped. wait for nothing, but come." this shout appeared to perturb howard exceedingly. by his gestures it seemed to graham that he hesitated between two directions. abruptly he went towards the corner where the apparatus stood about the little crystal ball. as he did so the undertone of tumultuous shouting from the archway that had continued during all these occurrences rose to a mighty sound, roared as if it were sweeping past, and fell again as if receding swiftly. it drew graham after it with an irresistible attraction. he glanced at the thickset man, and then obeyed his impulse. in two strides he was down the steps and in the passage, and in a score he was out upon the balcony upon which the three men had been standing. chapter v the moving ways he went to the railings of the balcony and stared upward. an exclamation of surprise at his appearance, and the movements of a number of people came from the great area below. his first impression was of overwhelming architecture. the place into which he looked was an aisle of titanic buildings, curving spaciously in either direction. overhead mighty cantilevers sprang together across the huge width of the place, and a tracery of translucent material shut out the sky. gigantic globes of cool white light shamed the pale sunbeams that filtered down through the girders and wires. here and there a gossamer suspension bridge dotted with foot passengers flung across the chasm and the air was webbed with slender cables. a cliff of edifice hung above him, he perceived as he glanced upward, and the opposite façade was grey and dim and broken by great archings, circular perforations, balconies, buttresses, turret projections, myriads of vast windows, and an intricate scheme of architectural relief. athwart these ran inscriptions horizontally and obliquely in an unfamiliar lettering. here and there close to the roof cables of a peculiar stoutness were fastened, and drooped in a steep curve to circular openings on the opposite side of the space, and even as graham noted these a remote and tiny figure of a man clad in pale blue arrested his attention. this little figure was far overhead across the space beside the higher fastening of one of these festoons, hanging forward from a little ledge of masonry and handling some well-nigh invisible strings dependent from the line. then suddenly, with a swoop that sent graham's heart into his mouth, this man had rushed down the curve and vanished through a round opening on the hither side of the way. graham had been looking up as he came out upon the balcony, and the things he saw above and opposed to him had at first seized his attention to the exclusion of anything else. then suddenly he discovered the roadway! it was not a roadway at all, as graham understood such things, for in the nineteenth century the only roads and streets were beaten tracks of motionless earth, jostling rivulets of vehicles between narrow footways. but this roadway was three hundred feet across, and it moved; it moved, all save the middle, the lowest part. for a moment, the motion dazzled his mind. then he understood. under the balcony this extraordinary roadway ran swiftly to graham's right, an endless flow rushing along as fast as a nineteenth century express train, an endless platform of narrow transverse overlapping slats with little interspaces that permitted it to follow the curvatures of the street. upon it were seats, and here and there little kiosks, but they swept by too swiftly for him to see what might be therein. from this nearest and swiftest platform a series of others descended to the centre of the space. each moved to the right, each perceptibly slower than the one above it, but the difference in pace was small enough to permit anyone to step from any platform to the one adjacent, and so walk uninterruptedly from the swiftest to the motionless middle way. beyond this middle way was another series of endless platforms rushing with varying pace to graham's left. and seated in crowds upon the two widest and swiftest platforms, or stepping from one to another down the steps, or swarming over the central space, was an innumerable and wonderfully diversified multitude of people. "you must not stop here," shouted howard suddenly at his side. "you must come away at once." graham made no answer. he heard without hearing. the platforms ran with a roar and the people were shouting. he perceived women and girls with flowing hair, beautifully robed, with bands crossing between the breasts. these first came out of the confusion. then he perceived that the dominant note in that kaleidoscope of costume was the pale blue that the tailor's boy had worn. he became aware of cries of "the sleeper. what has happened to the sleeper?" and it seemed as though the rushing platforms before him were suddenly spattered with the pale buff of human faces, and then still more thickly. he saw pointing fingers. he perceived that the motionless central area of this huge arcade just opposite to the balcony was densely crowded with blue-clad people. some sort of struggle had sprung into life. people seemed to be pushed up the running platforms on either side, and carried away against their will. they would spring off so soon as they were beyond the thick of the confusion, and run back towards the conflict. "it is the sleeper. verily it is the sleeper," shouted voices. "that is never the sleeper," shouted others. more and more faces were turned to him. at the intervals along this central area graham noted openings, pits, apparently the heads of staircases going down with people ascending out of them and descending into them. the struggle it seemed centred about the one of these nearest to him. people were running down the moving platforms to this, leaping dexterously from platform to platform. the clustering people on the higher platforms seemed to divide their interest between this point and the balcony. a number of sturdy little figures clad in a uniform of bright red, and working methodically together, were employed it seemed in preventing access to this descending staircase. about them a crowd was rapidly accumulating. their brilliant colour contrasted vividly with the whitish-blue of their antagonists, for the struggle was indisputable. he saw these things with howard shouting in his ear and shaking his arm. and then suddenly howard was gone and he stood alone. he perceived that the cries of "the sleeper!" grew in volume, and that the people on the nearer platform were standing up. the nearer platform he perceived was empty to the right of him, and far across the space the platform running in the opposite direction was coming crowded and passing away bare. with incredible swiftness a vast crowd had gathered in the central space before his eyes; a dense swaying mass of people, and the shouts grew from a fitful crying to a voluminous incessant clamour: "the sleeper! the sleeper!" and yells and cheers, a waving of garments and cries of "stop the ways!" they were also crying another name strange to graham. it sounded like "ostrog." the slower platforms were soon thick with active people, running against the movement so as to keep themselves opposite to him. "stop the ways," they cried. agile figures ran up from the centre to the swift road nearest to him, were borne rapidly past him, shouting strange, unintelligible things, and ran back obliquely to the central way. one thing he distinguished: "it is indeed the sleeper. it is indeed the sleeper," they testified. for a space graham stood motionless. then he became vividly aware that all this concerned him. he was pleased at his wonderful popularity, he bowed, and, seeking a gesture of longer range, waved his arm. he was astonished at the violence of uproar that this provoked. the tumult about the descending stairway rose to furious violence. he became aware of crowded balconies, of men sliding along ropes, of men in trapeze-like seats hurling athwart the space. he heard voices behind him, a number of people descending the steps through the archway; he suddenly perceived that his guardian howard was back again and gripping his arm painfully, and shouting inaudibly in his ear. he turned, and howard's face was white. "come back," he heard. "they will stop the ways. the whole city will be in confusion." he perceived a number of men hurrying along the passage of blue pillars behind howard, the red-haired man, the man with the flaxen beard, a tall man in vivid vermilion, a crowd of others in red carrying staves, and all these people had anxious eager faces. "get him away," cried howard. "but why?" said graham. "i don't see--" "you must come away!" said the man in red in a resolute voice. his face and eyes were resolute, too. graham's glances went from face to face, and he was suddenly aware of that most disagreeable flavour in life, compulsion. someone gripped his arm.... he was being dragged away. it seemed as though the tumult suddenly became two, as if half the shouts that had come in from this wonderful roadway had sprung into the passages of the great building behind him. marvelling and confused, feeling an impotent desire to resist, graham was half led, half thrust, along the passage of blue pillars, and suddenly he found himself alone with howard in a lift and moving swiftly upward. chapter vi the hall of the atlas from the moment when the tailor had bowed his farewell to the moment when graham found himself in the lift, was altogether barely five minutes. as yet the haze of his vast interval of sleep hung about him, as yet the initial strangeness of his being alive at all in this remote age touched everything with wonder, with a sense of the irrational, with something of the quality of a realistic dream. he was still detached, an astonished spectator, still but half involved in life. what he had seen, and especially the last crowded tumult, framed in the setting of the balcony, had a spectacular turn, like a thing witnessed from the box of a theatre. "i don't understand," he said. "what was the trouble? my mind is in a whirl. why were they shouting? what is the danger?" "we have our troubles," said howard. his eyes avoided graham's enquiry. "this is a time of unrest. and, in fact, your appearance, your waking just now, has a sort of connexion--" he spoke jerkily, like a man not quite sure of his breathing. he stopped abruptly. "i don't understand," said graham. "it will be clearer later," said howard. he glanced uneasily upward, as though he found the progress of the lift slow. "i shall understand better, no doubt, when i have seen my way about a little," said graham puzzled. "it will be--it is bound to be perplexing. at present it is all so strange. anything seems possible. anything. in the details even. your counting, i understand, is different." the lift stopped, and they stepped out into a narrow but very long passage between high walls, along which ran an extraordinary number of tubes and big cables. "what a huge place this is!" said graham. "is it all one building? what place is it?" "this is one of the city ways for various public services. light and so forth." "was it a social trouble--that--in the great roadway place? how are you governed? have you still a police?" "several," said howard. "several?" "about fourteen." "i don't understand." "very probably not. our social order will probably seem very complex to you. to tell you the truth, i don't understand it myself very clearly. nobody does. you will, perhaps--bye and bye. we have to go to the council." graham's attention was divided between the urgent necessity of his inquiries and the people in the passages and halls they were traversing. for a moment his mind would be concentrated upon howard and the halting answers he made, and then he would lose the thread in response to some vivid unexpected impression. along the passages, in the halls, half the people seemed to be men in the red uniform. the pale blue canvas that had been so abundant in the aisle of moving ways did not appear. invariably these men looked at him, and saluted him and howard as they passed. he had a clear vision of entering a long corridor, and there were a number of girls sitting on low seats, as though in a class. he saw no teacher, but only a novel apparatus from which he fancied a voice proceeded. the girls regarded him and his conductor, he thought, with curiosity and astonishment. but he was hurried on before he could form a clear idea of the gathering. he judged they knew howard and not himself, and that they wondered who he was. this howard, it seemed, was a person of importance. but then he was also merely graham's guardian. that was odd. there came a passage in twilight, and into this passage a footway hung so that he could see the feet and ankles of people going to and fro thereon, but no more of them. then vague impressions of galleries and of casual astonished passers-by turning round to stare after the two of them with their red-clad guard. the stimulus of the restoratives he had taken was only temporary. he was speedily fatigued by this excessive haste. he asked howard to slacken his speed. presently he was in a lift that had a window upon the great street space, but this was glazed and did not open, and they were too high for him to see the moving platforms below. but he saw people going to and fro along cables and along strange, frail-looking bridges. thence they passed across the street and at a vast height above it. they crossed by means of a narrow bridge closed in with glass, so clear that it made him giddy even to remember it. the floor of it also was of glass. from his memory of the cliffs between new quay and boscastle, so remote in time, and so recent in his experience, it seemed to him that they must be near four hundred feet above the moving ways. he stopped, looked down between his legs upon the swarming blue and red multitudes, minute and foreshortened, struggling and gesticulating still towards the little balcony far below, a little toy balcony, it seemed, where he had so recently been standing. a thin haze and the glare of the mighty globes of light obscured everything. a man seated in a little openwork cradle shot by from some point still higher than the little narrow bridge, rushing down a cable as swiftly almost as if he were falling. graham stopped involuntarily to watch this strange passenger vanish below, and then his eyes went back to the tumultuous struggle. along one of the faster ways rushed a thick crowd of red spots. this broke up into individuals as it approached the balcony, and went pouring down the slower ways towards the dense struggling crowd on the central area. these men in red appeared to be armed with sticks or truncheons; they seemed to be striking and thrusting. a great shouting, cries of wrath, screaming, burst out and came up to graham, faint and thin. "go on," cried howard, laying hands on him. another man rushed down a cable. graham suddenly glanced up to see whence he came, and beheld through the glassy roof and the network of cables and girders, dim rhythmically passing forms like the vanes of windmills, and between them glimpses of a remote and pallid sky. then howard had thrust him forward across the bridge, and he was in a little narrow passage decorated with geometrical patterns. "i want to see more of that," cried graham, resisting. "no, no," cried howard, still gripping his arm. "this way. you must go this way." and the men in red following them seemed ready to enforce his orders. some negroes in a curious wasp-like uniform of black and yellow appeared down the passage, and one hastened to throw up a sliding shutter that had seemed a door to graham, and led the way through it. graham found himself in a gallery overhanging the end of a great chamber. the attendant in black and yellow crossed this, thrust up a second shutter and stood waiting. this place had the appearance of an ante-room. he saw a number of people in the central space, and at the opposite end a large and imposing doorway at the top of a flight of steps, heavily curtained but giving a glimpse of some still larger hall beyond. he perceived white men in red and other negroes in black and yellow standing stiffly about those portals. as they crossed the gallery he heard a whisper from below, "the sleeper," and was aware of a turning of heads, a hum of observation. they entered another little passage in the wall of this ante-chamber, and then he found himself on an iron-railed gallery of metal that passed round the side of the great hall he had already seen through the curtains. he entered the place at the corner, so that he received the fullest impression of its huge proportions. the black in the wasp uniform stood aside like a well-trained servant, and closed the valve behind him. compared with any of the places graham had seen thus far, this second hall appeared to be decorated with extreme richness. on a pedestal at the remoter end, and more brilliantly lit than any other object, was a gigantic white figure of atlas, strong and strenuous, the globe upon his bowed shoulders. it was the first thing to strike his attention, it was so vast, so patiently and painfully real, so white and simple. save for this figure and for a dais in the centre, the wide floor of the place was a shining vacancy. the dais was remote in the greatness of the area; it would have looked a mere slab of metal had it not been for the group of seven men who stood about a table on it, and gave an inkling of its proportions. they were all dressed in white robes, they seemed to have arisen that moment from their seats, and they were regarding graham steadfastly. at the end of the table he perceived the glitter of some mechanical appliances. howard led him along the end gallery until they were opposite this mighty labouring figure. then he stopped. the two men in red who had followed them into the gallery came and stood on either hand of graham. "you must remain here," murmured howard, "for a few moments," and, without waiting for a reply, hurried away along the gallery. "but, _why_--?" began graham. he moved as if to follow howard, and found his path obstructed by one of the men in red. "you have to wait here, sire," said the man in red. "_why_?" "orders, sire." "whose orders?" "our orders, sire." graham looked his exasperation. "what place is this?" he said presently. "who are those men?" "they are the lords of the council, sire." "what council?" "_the_ council." "oh!" said graham, and after an equally ineffectual attempt at the other man, went to the railing and stared at the distant men in white, who stood watching him and whispering together. the council? he perceived there were now eight, though how the newcomer had arrived he had not observed. they made no gestures of greeting; they stood regarding him as in the nineteenth century a group of men might have stood in the street regarding a distant balloon that had suddenly floated into view. what council could it be that gathered there, that little body of men beneath the significant white atlas, secluded from every eavesdropper in this impressive spaciousness? and why should he be brought to them, and be looked at strangely and spoken of inaudibly? howard appeared beneath, walking quickly across the polished floor towards them. as he drew near he bowed and performed certain peculiar movements, apparently of a ceremonious nature. then he ascended the steps of the dais, and stood by the apparatus at the end of the table. graham watched that visible inaudible conversation. occasionally, one of the white-robed men would glance towards him. he strained his ears in vain. the gesticulation of two of the speakers became animated. he glanced from them to the passive faces of his attendants.... when he looked again howard was extending his hands and moving his head like a man who protests. he was interrupted, it seemed, by one of the white-robed men rapping the table. the conversation lasted an interminable time to graham's sense. his eyes rose to the still giant at whose feet the council sat. thence they wandered to the walls of the hall. it was decorated in long painted panels of a quasi-japanese type, many of them very beautiful. these panels were grouped in a great and elaborate framing of dark metal, which passed into the metallic caryatidae of the galleries, and the great structural lines of the interior. the facile grace of these panels enhanced the mighty white effort that laboured in the centre of the scheme. graham's eyes came back to the council, and howard was descending the steps. as he drew nearer his features could be distinguished, and graham saw that he was flushed and blowing out his cheeks. his countenance was still disturbed when presently he reappeared along the gallery. "this way," he said concisely, and they went on in silence to a little door that opened at their approach. the two men in red stopped on either side of this door. howard and graham passed in, and graham, glancing back, saw the white-robed council still standing in a close group and looking at him. then the door closed behind him with a heavy thud, and for the first time since his awakening he was in silence. the floor, even, was noiseless to his feet. howard opened another door, and they were in the first of two contiguous chambers furnished in white and green. "what council was that?" began graham. "what were they discussing? what have they to do with me?" howard closed the door carefully, heaved a huge sigh, and said something in an undertone. he walked slantingways across the room and turned, blowing out his cheeks again. "ugh!" he grunted, a man relieved. graham stood regarding him. "you must understand," began howard abruptly, avoiding graham's eyes, "that our social order is very complex. a half explanation, a bare unqualified statement would give you false impressions. as a matter of fact--it is a case of compound interest partly--your small fortune, and the fortune of your cousin warming which was left to you--and certain other beginnings--have become very considerable. and in other ways that will be hard for you to understand, you have become a person of significance--of very considerable significance--involved in the world's affairs." he stopped. "yes?" said graham. "we have grave social troubles." "yes?" "things have come to such a pass that, in fact, it is advisable to seclude you here." "keep me prisoner!" exclaimed graham. "well--to ask you to keep in seclusion." graham turned on him. "this is strange!" he said. "no harm will be done you." "no harm!" "but you must be kept here--" "while i learn my position, i presume." "precisely." "very well then. begin. why _harm_?" "not now." "why not?" "it is too long a story, sire." "all the more reason i should begin at once. you say i am a person of importance. what was that shouting i heard? why is a great multitude shouting and excited because my trance is over, and who are the men in white in that huge council chamber?" "all in good time, sire," said howard. "but not crudely, not crudely. this is one of those flimsy times when no man has a settled mind. your awakening--no one expected your awakening. the council is consulting." "what council?" "the council you saw." graham made a petulant movement. "this is not right," he said. "i should be told what is happening." "you must wait. really you must wait." graham sat down abruptly. "i suppose since i have waited so long to resume life," he said, "that i must wait a little longer." "that is better," said howard. "yes, that is much better. and i must leave you alone. for a space. while i attend the discussion in the council.... i am sorry." he went towards the noiseless door, hesitated and vanished. graham walked to the door, tried it, found it securely fastened in some way he never came to understand, turned about, paced the room restlessly, made the circuit of the room, and sat down. he remained sitting for some time with folded arms and knitted brow, biting his finger nails and trying to piece together the kaleidoscopic impressions of this first hour of awakened life; the vast mechanical spaces, the endless series of chambers and passages, the great struggle that roared and splashed through these strange ways, the little group of remote unsympathetic men beneath the colossal atlas, howard's mysterious behaviour. there was an inkling of some vast inheritance already in his mind--a vast inheritance perhaps misapplied--of some unprecedented importance and opportunity. what had he to do? and this room's secluded silence was eloquent of imprisonment! it came into graham's mind with irresistible conviction that this series of magnificent impressions was a dream. he tried to shut his eyes and succeeded, but that time-honoured device led to no awakening. presently he began to touch and examine all the unfamiliar appointments of the two small rooms in which he found himself. in a long oval panel of mirror he saw himself and stopped astonished. he was clad in a graceful costume of purple and bluish white, with a little greyshot beard trimmed to a point, and his hair, its blackness streaked now with bands of grey, arranged over his forehead in an unfamiliar but pleasing manner. he seemed a man of five-and-forty perhaps. for a moment he did not perceive this was himself. a flash of laughter came with the recognition. "to call on old warming like this!" he exclaimed, "and make him take me out to lunch!" then he thought of meeting first one and then another of the few familiar acquaintances of his early manhood, and in the midst of his amusement realised that every soul with whom he might jest had died many score of years ago. the thought smote him abruptly and keenly; he stopped short, the expression of his face changed to a white consternation. the tumultuous memory of the moving platforms and the huge façade of that wonderful street reasserted itself. the shouting multitudes came back clear and vivid, and those remote, inaudible, unfriendly councillors in white. he felt himself a little figure, very small and ineffectual, pitifully conspicuous. and all about him, the world was--_strange_. chapter vii in the silent rooms presently graham resumed his examination of his apartments. curiosity kept him moving in spite of his fatigue. the inner room, he perceived, was high, and its ceiling dome shaped, with an oblong aperture in the centre, opening into a funnel in which a wheel of broad vanes seemed to be rotating, apparently driving the air up the shaft. the faint humming note of its easy motion was the only clear sound in that quiet place. as these vanes sprang up one after the other, graham could get transient glimpses of the sky. he was surprised to see a star. this drew his attention to the fact that the bright lighting of these rooms was due to a multitude of very faint glow lamps set about the cornices. there were no windows. and he began to recall that along all the vast chambers and passages he had traversed with howard he had observed no windows at all. had there been windows? there were windows on the street indeed, but were they for light? or was the whole city lit day and night for evermore, so that there was no night there? and another thing dawned upon him. there was no fireplace in either room. was the season summer, and were these merely summer apartments, or was the whole city uniformly heated or cooled? he became interested in these questions, began examining the smooth texture of the walls, the simply constructed bed, the ingenious arrangements by which the labour of bedroom service was practically abolished. and over everything was a curious absence of deliberate ornament, a bare grace of form and colour, that he found very pleasing to the eye. there were several very comfortable chairs, a light table on silent runners carrying several bottles of fluids and glasses, and two plates bearing a clear substance like jelly. then he noticed there were no books, no newspapers, no writing materials. "the world has changed indeed," he said. he observed one entire side of the outer room was set with rows of peculiar double cylinders inscribed with green lettering on white that harmonized with the decorative scheme of the room, and in the centre of this side projected a little apparatus about a yard square and having a white smooth face to the room. a chair faced this. he had a transitory idea that these cylinders might be books, or a modern substitute for books, but at first it did not seem so. the lettering on the cylinders puzzled him. at first sight it seemed like russian. then he noticed a suggestion of mutilated english about certain of the words. "thi man huwdbi kin" forced itself on him as "the man who would be king." "phonetic spelling," he said. he remembered reading a story with that title, then he recalled the story vividly, one of the best stories in the world. but this thing before him was not a book as he understood it. he puzzled out the titles of two adjacent cylinders. "the heart of darkness" he had never heard of before nor "the madonna of the future"--no doubt if they were indeed stories, they were by post-victorian authors. he puzzled over this peculiar cylinder for some time and replaced it. then he turned to the square apparatus and examined that. he opened a sort of lid and found one of the double cylinders within, and on the upper edge a little stud like the stud of an electric bell. he pressed this and a rapid clicking began and ceased. he became aware of voices and music, and noticed a play of colour on the smooth front face. he suddenly realised what this might be, and stepped back to regard it. on the flat surface was now a little picture, very vividly coloured, and in this picture were figures that moved. not only did they move, but they were conversing in clear small voices. it was exactly like reality viewed through an inverted opera glass and heard through a long tube. his interest was seized at once by the situation, which presented a man pacing up and down and vociferating angry things to a pretty but petulant woman. both were in the picturesque costume that seemed so strange to graham. "i have worked," said the man, "but what have you been doing?" "ah!" said graham. he forgot everything else, and sat down in the chair. within five minutes he heard himself, named, heard "when the sleeper wakes," used jestingly as a proverb for remote postponement, and passed himself by, a thing remote and incredible. but in a little while he knew those two people like intimate friends. at last the miniature drama came to an end, and the square face of the apparatus was blank again. it was a strange world into which he had been permitted to see, unscrupulous, pleasure seeking, energetic, subtle, a world too of dire economic struggle; there were allusions he did not understand, incidents that conveyed strange suggestions of altered moral ideals, flashes of dubious enlightenment. the blue canvas that bulked so largely in his first impression of the city ways appeared again and again as the costume of the common people. he had no doubt the story was contemporary, and its intense realism was undeniable. and the end had been a tragedy that oppressed him. he sat staring at the blankness. he started and rubbed his eyes. he had been so absorbed in the latter-day substitute for a novel, that he awoke to the little green and white room with more than a touch of the surprise of his first awakening. he stood up, and abruptly he was back in his own wonderland. the clearness of the kinetoscope drama passed, and the struggle in the vast place of streets, the ambiguous council, the swift phases of his waking hour, came back. these people had spoken of the council with suggestions of a vague universality of power. and they had spoken of the sleeper; it had not really struck him vividly at the time that he was the sleeper. he had to recall precisely what they had said.... he walked into the bedroom and peered up through the quick intervals of the revolving fan. as the fan swept round, a dim turmoil like the noise of machinery came in rhythmic eddies. all else was silence. though the perpetual day still irradiated his apartments, he perceived the little intermittent strip of sky was now deep blue--black almost, with a dust of little stars.... he resumed his examination of the rooms. he could find no way of opening the padded door, no bell nor other means of calling for attendance. his feeling of wonder was in abeyance; but he was curious, anxious for information. he wanted to know exactly how he stood to these new things. he tried to compose himself to wait until someone came to him. presently he became restless and eager for information, for distraction, for fresh sensations. he went back to the apparatus in the other room, and had soon puzzled out the method of replacing the cylinders by others. as he did so, it came into his mind that it must be these little appliances had fixed the language so that it was still clear and understandable after two hundred years. the haphazard cylinders he substituted displayed a musical fantasia. at first it was beautiful, and then it was sensuous. he presently recognised what appeared to him to be an altered version of the story of tannhauser. the music was unfamiliar. but the rendering was realistic, and with a contemporary unfamiliarity. tannhauser did not go to a venusberg, but to a pleasure city. what was a pleasure city? a dream, surely, the fancy of a fantastic, voluptuous writer. he became interested, curious. the story developed with a flavour of strangely twisted sentimentality. suddenly he did not like it. he liked it less as it proceeded. he had a revulsion of feeling. these were no pictures, no idealisations, but photographed realities. he wanted no more of the twenty-second century venusberg. he forgot the part played by the model in nineteenth century art, and gave way to an archaic indignation. he rose, angry and half ashamed at himself for witnessing this thing even in solitude. he pulled forward the apparatus, and with some violence sought for a means of stopping its action. something snapped. a violet spark stung and convulsed his arm and the thing was still. when he attempted next day to replace these tannhauser cylinders by another pair, he found the apparatus broken.... he struck out a path oblique to the room and paced to and fro, struggling with intolerable vast impressions. the things he had derived from the cylinders and the things he had seen, conflicted, confused him. it seemed to him the most amazing thing of all that in his thirty years of life he had never tried to shape a picture of these coming times. "we were making the future," he said, "and hardly any of us troubled to think what future we were making. and here it is!" "what have they got to, what has been done? how do i come into the midst of it all?" the vastness of street and house he was prepared for, the multitudes of people. but conflicts in the city ways! and the systematised sensuality of a class of rich men! he thought of bellamy, the hero of whose socialistic utopia had so oddly anticipated this actual experience. but here was no utopia, no socialistic state. he had already seen enough to realise that the ancient antithesis of luxury, waste and sensuality on the one hand and abject poverty on the other, still prevailed. he knew enough of the essential factors of life to understand that correlation. and not only were the buildings of the city gigantic and the crowds in the street gigantic, but the voices he had heard in the ways, the uneasiness of howard, the very atmosphere spoke of gigantic discontent. what country was he in? still england it seemed, and yet strangely "un-english." his mind glanced at the rest of the world, and saw only an enigmatical veil. he prowled about his apartment, examining everything as a caged animal might do. he was very tired, with that feverish exhaustion that does not admit of rest. he listened for long spaces under the ventilator to catch some distant echo of the tumults he felt must be proceeding in the city. he began to talk to himself. "two hundred and three years!" he said to himself over and over again, laughing stupidly. "then i am two hundred and thirty-three years old! the oldest inhabitant. surely they haven't reversed the tendency of our time and gone back to the rule of the oldest. my claims are indisputable. mumble, mumble. i remember the bulgarian atrocities as though it was yesterday. 'tis a great age! ha ha!" he was surprised at first to hear himself laughing, and then laughed again deliberately and louder. then he realised that he was behaving foolishly. "steady," he said. "steady!" his pacing became more regular. "this new world," he said. "i don't understand it. _why_? ... but it is all _why_!" "i suppose they can fly and do all sorts of things. let me try and remember just how it began." he was surprised at first to find how vague the memories of his first thirty years had become. he remembered fragments, for the most part trivial moments, things of no great importance that he had observed. his boyhood seemed the most accessible at first, he recalled school books and certain lessons in mensuration. then he revived the more salient features of his life, memories of the wife long since dead, her magic influence now gone beyond corruption, of his rivals and friends and betrayers, of the decision of this issue and that, and then of his last years of misery, of fluctuating resolves, and at last of his strenuous studies. in a little while he perceived he had it all again; dim perhaps, like metal long laid aside, but in no way defective or injured, capable of re-polishing. and the hue of it was a deepening misery. was it worth re-polishing? by a miracle he had been lifted out of a life that had become intolerable.... he reverted to his present condition. he wrestled with the facts in vain. it became an inextricable tangle. he saw the sky through the ventilator pink with dawn. an old persuasion came out of the dark recesses of his memory. "i must sleep," he said. it appeared as a delightful relief from this mental distress and from the growing pain and heaviness of his limbs. he went to the strange little bed, lay down and was presently asleep.... he was destined to become very familiar indeed with these apartments before he left them, for he remained imprisoned for three days. during that time no one, except howard, entered the rooms. the marvel of his fate mingled with and in some way minimised the marvel of his survival. he had awakened to mankind it seemed only to be snatched away into this unaccountable solitude. howard came regularly with subtly sustaining and nutritive fluids, and light and pleasant foods, quite strange to graham. he always closed the door carefully as he entered. on matters of detail he was increasingly obliging, but the bearing of graham on the great issues that were evidently being contested so closely beyond the sound-proof walls that enclosed him, he would not elucidate. he evaded, as politely as possible, every question on the position of affairs in the outer world. and in those three days graham's incessant thoughts went far and wide. all that he had seen, all this elaborate contrivance to prevent him seeing, worked together in his mind. almost every possible interpretation of his position he debated--even as it chanced, the right interpretation. things that presently happened to him, came to him at last credible, by virtue of this seclusion. when at length the moment of his release arrived, it found him prepared.... howard's bearing went far to deepen graham's impression of his own strange importance; the door between its opening and closing seemed to admit with him a breath of momentous happening. his enquiries became more definite and searching. howard retreated through protests and difficulties. the awakening was unforeseen, he repeated; it happened to have fallen in with the trend of a social convulsion. "to explain it i must tell you the history of a gross and a half of years," protested howard. "the thing is this," said graham. "you are afraid of something i shall do. in some way i am arbitrator--i might be arbitrator." "it is not that. but you have--i may tell you this much--the automatic increase of your property puts great possibilities of interference in your hands. and in certain other ways you have influence, with your eighteenth century notions." "nineteenth century," corrected graham. "with your old world notions, anyhow, ignorant as you are of every feature of our state." "am i a fool?" "certainly not." "do i seem to be the sort of man who would act rashly?" "you were never expected to act at all. no one counted on your awakening. no one dreamt you would ever awake. the council had surrounded you with antiseptic conditions. as a matter of fact, we thought that you were dead--a mere arrest of decay. and--but it is too complex. we dare not suddenly---while you are still half awake." "it won't do," said graham. "suppose it is as you say--why am i not being crammed night and day with facts and warnings and all the wisdom of the time to fit me for my responsibilities? am i any wiser now than two days ago, if it is two days, when i awoke?" howard pulled his lip. "i am beginning to feel--every hour i feel more clearly--a system of concealment of which you are the face. is this council, or committee, or whatever they are, cooking the accounts of my estate? is that it?" "that note of suspicion--" said howard. "ugh!" said graham. "now, mark my words, it will be ill for those who have put me here. it will be ill. i am alive. make no doubt of it, i am alive. every day my pulse is stronger and my mind clearer and more vigorous. no more quiescence. i am a man come back to life. and i want to _live_--" "_live_!" howard's face lit with an idea. he came towards graham and spoke in an easy confidential tone. "the council secludes you here for your good. you are restless. naturally--an energetic man! you find it dull here. but we are anxious that everything you may desire--every desire--every sort of desire ... there may be something. is there any sort of company?" he paused meaningly. "yes," said graham thoughtfully. "there is." "ah! _now_! we have treated you neglectfully." "the crowds in yonder streets of yours." "that," said howard, "i am afraid--but--" graham began pacing the room. howard stood near the door watching him. the implication of howard's suggestion was only half evident to graham. company? suppose he were to accept the proposal, demand some sort of _company_? would there be any possibilities of gathering from the conversation of this additional person some vague inkling of the struggle that had broken out so vividly at his waking moment? he meditated again, and the suggestion took colour. he turned on howard abruptly. "what do you mean by company?" howard raised his eyes and shrugged his shoulders. "human beings," he said, with a curious smile on his heavy face. "our social ideas," he said, "have a certain increased liberality, perhaps, in comparison with your times. if a man wishes to relieve such a tedium as this--by feminine society, for instance. we think it no scandal. we have cleared our minds of formulae. there is in our city a class, a necessary class, no longer despised--discreet--" graham stopped dead. "it would pass the time," said howard. "it is a thing i should perhaps have thought of before, but, as a matter of fact, so much is happening--" he indicated the exterior world. graham hesitated. for a moment the figure of a possible woman dominated his mind with an intense attraction. then he flashed into anger. "_no_!" he shouted. he began striding rapidly up and down the room. "everything you say, everything you do, convinces me--of some great issue in which i am concerned. i do not want to pass the time, as you call it. yes, i know. desire and indulgence are life in a sense--and death! extinction! in my life before i slept i had worked out that pitiful question. i will not begin again. there is a city, a multitude--. and meanwhile i am here like a rabbit in a bag." his rage surged high. he choked for a moment and began to wave his clenched fists. he gave way to an anger fit, he swore archaic curses. his gestures had the quality of physical threats. "i do not know who your party may be. i am in the dark, and you keep me in the dark. but i know this, that i am secluded here for no good purpose. for no good purpose. i warn you, i warn you of the consequences. once i come at my power--" he realised that to threaten thus might be a danger to himself. he stopped. howard stood regarding him with a curious expression. "i take it this is a message to the council," said howard. graham had a momentary impulse to leap upon the man, fell or stun him. it must have shown upon his face; at any rate howard's movement was quick. in a second the noiseless door had closed again, and the man from the nineteenth century was alone. for a moment he stood rigid, with clenched hands half raised. then he flung them down. "what a fool i have been!" he said, and gave way to his anger again, stamping about the room and shouting curses.... for a long time he kept himself in a sort of frenzy, raging at his position, at his own folly, at the knaves who had imprisoned him. he did this because he did not want to look calmly at his position. he clung to his anger--because he was afraid of fear. presently he found himself reasoning with himself. this imprisonment was unaccountable, but no doubt the legal forms--new legal forms--of the time permitted it. it must, of course, be legal. these people were two hundred years further on in the march of civilisation than the victorian generation. it was not likely they would be less--humane. yet they had cleared their minds of formulae! was humanity a formula as well as chastity? his imagination set to work to suggest things that might be done to him. the attempts of his reason to dispose of these suggestions, though for the most part logically valid, were quite unavailing. "why should anything be done to me?" "if the worst comes to the worst," he found himself saying at last, "i can give up what they want. but what do they want? and why don't they ask me for it instead of cooping me up?" he returned to his former preoccupation with the council's possible intentions. he began to reconsider the details of howard's behaviour, sinister glances, inexplicable hesitations. then, for a time, his mind circled about the idea of escaping from these rooms; but whither could he escape into this vast, crowded world? he would be worse off than a saxon yeoman suddenly dropped into nineteenth century london. and besides, how could anyone escape from these rooms? "how can it benefit anyone if harm should happen to me?" he thought of the tumult, the great social trouble of which he was so unaccountably the axis. a text, irrelevant enough, and yet curiously insistent, came floating up out of the darkness of his memory. this also a council had said: "it is expedient for us that one man should die for the people." chapter viii the roof spaces as the fans in the circular aperture of the inner room rotated and permitted glimpses of the night, dim sounds drifted in thereby. and graham, standing underneath, was startled by the sound of a voice. he peered up and saw in the intervals of the rotation, dark and dim, the face and shoulders of a man regarding him. then a dark hand was extended, the swift vane struck it, swung round and beat on with a little brownish patch on the edge of its thin blade, and something began to fall therefrom upon the floor, dripping silently. graham looked down, and there were spots of blood at his feet. he looked up again in a strange excitement. the figure had gone. he remained motionless--his every sense intent upon the flickering patch of darkness. he became aware of some faint, remote, dark specks floating lightly through the outer air. they came down towards him, fitfully, eddyingly, and passed aside out of the uprush from the fan. a gleam of light flickered, the specks flashed white, and then the darkness came again. warmed and lit as he was, he perceived that it was snowing within a few feet of him. graham walked across the room and came back to the ventilator again. he saw the head of a man pass near. there was a sound of whispering. then a smart blow on some metallic substance, effort, voices, and the vanes stopped. a gust of snowflakes whirled into the room, and vanished before they touched the floor. "don't be afraid," said a voice. graham stood under the vane. "who are you?" he whispered. for a moment there was nothing but a swaying of the fan, and then the head of a man was thrust cautiously into the opening. his face appeared nearly inverted to graham; his dark hair was wet with dissolving flakes of snow upon it. his arm went up into the darkness holding something unseen. he had a youthful face and bright eyes, and the veins of his forehead were swollen. he seemed to be exerting himself to maintain his position. for several seconds neither he nor graham spoke. "you were the sleeper?" said the stranger at last. "yes," said graham. "what do you want with me?" "i come from ostrog, sire." "ostrog?" the man in the ventilator twisted his head round so that his profile was towards graham. he appeared to be listening. suddenly there was a hasty exclamation, and the intruder sprang back just in time to escape the sweep of the released fan. and when graham peered up there was nothing visible but the slowly falling snow. it was perhaps a quarter of an hour before anything returned to the ventilator. but at last came the same metallic interference again; the fans stopped and the face reappeared. graham had remained all this time in the same place, alert and tremulously excited. "who are you? what do you want?" he said. "we want to speak to you, sire," said the intruder. "we want--i can't hold the thing. we have been trying to find a way to you--these three days." "is it rescue?" whispered graham. "escape?" "yes, sire. if you will." "you are my party--the party of the sleeper?" "yes, sire." "what am i to do?" said graham. there was a struggle. the stranger's arm appeared, and his hand was bleeding. his knees came into view over the edge of the funnel. "stand away from me," he said, and he dropped rather heavily on his hands and one shoulder at graham's feet. the released ventilator whirled noisily. the stranger rolled over, sprang up nimbly and stood panting, hand to a bruised shoulder, and with his bright eyes on graham. "you are indeed the sleeper," he said. "i saw you asleep. when it was the law that anyone might see you." "i am the man who was in the trance," said graham. "they have imprisoned me here. i have been here since i awoke--at least three days." the intruder seemed about to speak, heard something, glanced swiftly at the door, and suddenly left graham and ran towards it, shouting quick incoherent words. a bright wedge of steel flashed in his hand, and he began tap, tap, a quick succession of blows upon the hinges. "mind!" cried a voice. "oh!" the voice came from above. graham glanced up, saw the soles of two feet, ducked, was struck on the shoulder by one of them, and a heavy weight bore him to the earth. he fell on his knees and forward, and the weight went over his head. he knelt up and saw a second man from above seated before him. "i did not see you, sire," panted the man. he rose and assisted graham to rise. "are you hurt, sire?" he panted. a succession of heavy blows on the ventilator began, something fell close to graham's face, and a shivering edge of white metal danced, fell over, and lay fiat upon the floor. "what is this?" cried graham, confused and looking at the ventilator. "who are you? what are you going to do? remember, i understand nothing." "stand back," said the stranger, and drew him from under the ventilator as another fragment of metal fell heavily. "we want you to come, sire," panted the newcomer, and graham glancing at his face again, saw a new cut had changed from white to red on his forehead, and a couple of little trickles of blood starting therefrom. "your people call for you." "come where? my people?" "to the hall about the markets. your life is in danger here. we have spies. we learned but just in time. the council has decided--this very day--either to drug or kill you. and everything is ready. the people are drilled, the wind-vane police, the engineers, and half the way-gearers are with us. we have the halls crowded--shouting. the whole city shouts against the council. we have arms." he wiped the blood with his hand. "your life here is not worth--" "but why arms?" "the people have risen to protect you, sire. what?" he turned quickly as the man who had first come down made a hissing with his teeth. graham saw the latter start back, gesticulate to them to conceal themselves, and move as if to hide behind the opening door. as he did so howard appeared, a little tray in one hand and his heavy face downcast. he started, looked up, the door slammed behind him, the tray tilted side-ways, and the steel wedge struck him behind the ear. he went down like a felled tree, and lay as he fell athwart the floor of the outer room. the man who had struck him bent hastily, studied his face for a moment, rose, and returned to his work at the door. "your poison!" said a voice in graham's ear. then abruptly they were in darkness. the innumerable cornice lights had been extinguished. graham saw the aperture of the ventilator with ghostly snow whirling above it and dark figures moving hastily. three knelt on the vane. some dim thing--a ladder--was being lowered through the opening, and a hand appeared holding a fitful yellow light. he had a moment of hesitation. but the manner of these men, their swift alacrity, their words, marched so completely with his own fears of the council, with his idea and hope of a rescue, that it lasted not a moment. and his people awaited him! "i do not understand," he said. "i trust. tell me what to do." the man with the cut brow gripped graham's arm. "clamber up the ladder," he whispered. "quick. they will have heard--" graham felt for the ladder with extended hands, put his foot on the lower rung, and, turning his head, saw over the shoulder of the nearest man, in the yellow flicker of the light, the first-comer astride over howard and still working at the door. graham turned to the ladder again, and was thrust by his conductor and helped up by those above, and then he was standing on something hard and cold and slippery outside the ventilating funnel. he shivered. he was aware of a great difference in the temperature. half a dozen men stood about him, and light flakes of snow touched hands and face and melted. for a moment it was dark, then for a flash a ghastly violet white, and then everything was dark again. he saw he had come out upon the roof of the vast city structure which had replaced the miscellaneous houses, streets and open spaces of victorian london. the place upon which he stood was level, with huge serpentine cables lying athwart it in every direction. the circular wheels of a number of windmills loomed indistinct and gigantic through the darkness and snowfall, and roared with a varying loudness as the fitful wind rose and fell. some way off an intermittent white light smote up from below, touched the snow eddies with a transient glitter, and made an evanescent spectre in the night; and here and there, low down, some vaguely outlined wind-driven mechanism flickered with livid sparks. all this he appreciated in a fragmentary manner as his rescuers stood about him. someone threw a thick soft cloak of fur-like texture about him, and fastened it by buckled straps at waist and shoulders. things were said briefly, decisively. someone thrust him forward. before his mind was yet clear a dark shape gripped his arm. "this way," said this shape, urging him along, and pointed graham across the flat roof in the direction of a dim semicircular haze of light. graham obeyed. "mind!" said a voice, as graham stumbled against a cable. "between them and not across them," said the voice. and, "we must hurry." "where are the people?" said graham. "the people you said awaited me?" the stranger did not answer. he left graham's arm as the path grew narrower, and led the way with rapid strides. graham followed blindly. in a minute he found himself running. "are the others coming?" he panted, but received no reply. his companion glanced back and ran on. they came to a sort of pathway of open metal-work, transverse to the direction they had come, and they turned aside to follow this. graham looked back, but the snowstorm had hidden the others. "come on!" said his guide. running now, they drew near a little windmill spinning high in the air. "stoop," said graham's guide, and they avoided an endless band running roaring up to the shaft of the vane. "this way!" and they were ankle deep in a gutter full of drifted thawing snow, between two low walls of metal that presently rose waist high. "i will go first," said the guide. graham drew his cloak about him and followed. then suddenly came a narrow abyss across which the gutter leapt to the snowy darkness of the further side. graham peeped over the side once and the gulf was black. for a moment he regretted his flight. he dared not look again, and his brain spun as he waded through the half liquid snow. then out of the gutter they clambered and hurried across a wide flat space damp with thawing snow, and for half its extent dimly translucent to lights that went to and fro underneath. he hesitated at this unstable looking substance, but his guide ran on unheeding, and so they came to and clambered up slippery steps to the rim of a great dome of glass. round this they went. far below a number of people seemed to be dancing, and music filtered through the dome.... graham fancied he heard a shouting through the snowstorm, and his guide hurried him on with a new spurt of haste. they clambered panting to a space of huge windmills, one so vast that only the lower edge of its vanes came rushing into sight and rushed up again and was lost in the night and the snow. they hurried for a time through the colossal metallic tracery of its supports, and came at last above a place of moving platforms like the place into which graham had looked from the balcony. they crawled across the sloping transparency that covered this street of platforms, crawling on hands and knees because of the slipperiness of the snowfall. for the most part the glass was bedewed, and graham saw only hazy suggestions of the forms below, but near the pitch of the transparent roof the glass was clear, and he found himself looking sheerly down upon it all. for awhile, in spite of the urgency of his guide, he gave way to vertigo and lay spread-eagled on the glass, sick and paralysed. far below, mere stirring specks and dots, went the people of the unsleeping city in their perpetual daylight, and the moving platforms ran on their incessant journey. messengers and men on unknown businesses shot along the drooping cables and the frail bridges were crowded with men. it was like peering into a gigantic glass hive, and it lay vertically below him with only a tough glass of unknown thickness to save him from a fall. the street showed warm and lit, and graham was wet now to the skin with thawing snow, and his feet were numbed with cold. for a space he could not move. "come on!" cried his guide, with terror in his voice. "come on!" graham reached the pitch of the roof by an effort. over the ridge, following his guide's example, he turned about and slid backward down the opposite slope very swiftly, amid a little avalanche of snow. while he was sliding he thought of what would happen if some broken gap should come in his way. at the edge he stumbled to his feet ankle deep in slush, thanking heaven for an opaque footing again. his guide was already clambering up a metal screen to a level expanse. through the spare snowflakes above this loomed another line of vast windmills, and then suddenly the amorphous tumult of the rotating wheels was pierced with a deafening sound. it was a mechanical shrilling of extraordinary intensity that seemed to come simultaneously from every point of the compass. "they have missed us already!" cried graham's guide in an accent of terror, and suddenly, with a blinding flash, the night became day. above the driving snow, from the summits of the wind-wheels, appeared vast masts carrying globes of livid light. they receded in illimitable vistas in every direction. as far as his eye could penetrate the snowfall they glared. "get on this," cried graham's conductor, and thrust him forward to a long grating of snowless metal that ran like a band between two slightly sloping expanses of snow. it felt warm to graham's benumbed feet, and a faint eddy of steam rose from it. "come on!" shouted his guide ten yards off, and, without waiting, ran swiftly through the incandescent glare towards the iron supports of the next range of wind-wheels. graham, recovering from his astonishment, followed as fast, convinced of his imminent capture.... in a score of seconds they were within a tracery of glare and black shadows shot with moving bars beneath the monstrous wheels. graham's conductor ran on for some time, and suddenly darted sideways and vanished into a black shadow in the corner of the foot of a huge support. in another moment graham was beside him. they cowered panting and stared out. the scene upon which graham looked was very wild and strange. the snow had now almost ceased; only a belated flake passed now and again across the picture. but the broad stretch of level before them was a ghastly white, broken only by gigantic masses and moving shapes and lengthy strips of impenetrable darkness, vast ungainly titans of shadow. all about them, huge metallic structures, iron girders, inhumanly vast as it seemed to him, interlaced, and the edges of wind-wheels, scarcely moving in the lull, passed in great shining curves steeper and steeper up into a luminous haze. wherever the snow-spangled light struck down, beams and girders, and incessant bands running with a halting, indomitable resolution, passed upward and downward into the black. and with all that mighty activity, with an omnipresent sense of motive and design, this snow-clad desolation of mechanism seemed void of all human presence save themselves, seemed as trackless and deserted and unfrequented by men as some inaccessible alpine snowfield. "they will be chasing us," cried the leader. "we are scarcely halfway there yet. cold as it is we must hide here for a space--at least until it snows more thickly again." his teeth chattered in his head. "where are the markets?" asked graham staring out. "where are all the people?" the other made no answer. "_look_!" whispered graham, crouched close, and became very still. the snow had suddenly become thick again, and sliding with the whirling eddies out of the black pit of the sky came something, vague and large and very swift. it came down in a steep curve and swept round, wide wings extended and a trail of white condensing steam behind it, rose with an easy swiftness and went gliding up the air, swept horizontally forward in a wide curve, and vanished again in the steaming specks of snow. and, through the ribs of its body, graham saw two little men, very minute and active, searching the snowy areas about him, as it seemed to him, with field glasses. for a second they were clear, then hazy through a thick whirl of snow, then small and distant, and in a minute they were gone. "_now_!" cried his companion. "come!" he pulled graham's sleeve, and incontinently the two were running headlong down the arcade of iron-work beneath the wind-wheels. graham, running blindly, collided with his leader, who had turned back on him suddenly. he found himself within a dozen yards of a black chasm. it extended as far as he could see right and left. it seemed to cut off their progress in either direction. "do as i do," whispered his guide. he lay down and crawled to the edge, thrust his head over and twisted until one leg hung. he seemed to feel for something with his foot, found it, and went sliding over the edge into the gulf. his head reappeared. "it is a ledge," he whispered. "in the dark all the way along. do as i did." graham hesitated, went down upon all fours, crawled to the edge, and peered into a velvety blackness. for a sickly moment he had courage neither to go on nor retreat, then he sat and hung his leg down, felt his guide's hands pulling at him, had a horrible sensation of sliding over the edge into the unfathomable, splashed, and felt himself in a slushy gutter, impenetrably dark. "this way," whispered the voice, and he began crawling along the gutter through the trickling thaw, pressing himself against the wall. they continued along it for some minutes. he seemed to pass through a hundred stages of misery, to pass minute after minute through a hundred degrees of cold, damp, and exhaustion. in a little while he ceased to feel his hands and feet. the gutter sloped downwards. he observed that they were now many feet below the edge of the buildings. rows of spectral white shapes like the ghosts of blind-drawn windows rose above them. they came to the end of a cable fastened above one of these white windows, dimly visible and dropping into impenetrable shadows. suddenly his hand came against his guide's. "_still_!" whispered the latter very softly. he looked up with a start and saw the huge wings of the flying machine gliding slowly and noiselessly overhead athwart the broad band of snow-flecked grey-blue sky. in a moment it was hidden again. "keep still; they were just turning." for awhile both were motionless, then graham's companion stood up, and reaching towards the fastenings of the cable fumbled with some indistinct tackle. "what is that?" asked graham. the only answer was a faint cry. the man crouched motionless. graham peered and saw his face dimly. he was staring down the long ribbon of sky, and graham, following his eyes, saw the flying machine small and faint and remote. then he saw that the wings spread on either side, that it headed towards them, that every moment it grew larger. it was following the edge of the chasm towards them. the man's movements became convulsive. he thrust two cross bars into graham's hand. graham could not see them, he ascertained their form by feeling. they were slung by thin cords to the cable. on the cord were hand grips of some soft elastic substance. "put the cross between your legs," whispered the guide hysterically, "and grip the holdfasts. grip tightly, grip!" graham did as he was told. "jump," said the voice. "in heaven's name, jump!" for one momentous second graham could not speak. he was glad afterwards that darkness hid his face. he said nothing. he began to tremble violently. he looked sideways at the swift shadow that swallowed up the sky as it rushed upon him. "jump! jump--in god's name! or they will have us," cried graham's guide, and in the violence of his passion thrust him forward. graham tottered convulsively, gave a sobbing cry, a cry in spite of himself, and then, as the flying machine swept over them, fell forward into the pit of that darkness, seated on the cross wood and holding the ropes with the clutch of death. something cracked, something rapped smartly against a wall. he heard the pulley of the cradle hum on its rope. he heard the aeronauts shout. he felt a pair of knees digging into his back.... he was sweeping headlong through the air, falling through the air. all his strength was in his hands. he would have screamed but he had no breath. he shot into a blinding light that made him grip the tighter. he recognised the great passage with the running ways, the hanging lights and interlacing girders. they rushed upward and by him. he had a momentary impression of a great round mouth yawning to swallow him up. he was in the dark again, falling, falling, gripping with aching hands, and behold! a clap of sound, a burst of light, and he was in a brightly lit hall with a roaring multitude of people beneath his feet. the people! his people! a proscenium, a stage rushed up towards him, and his cable swept down to a circular aperture to the right of this. he felt he was travelling slower, and suddenly very much slower. he distinguished shouts of "saved! the master. he is safe!" the stage rushed up towards him with rapidly diminishing swiftness. then-- he heard the man clinging behind him shout as if suddenly terrified, and this shout was echoed by a shout from below. he felt that he was no longer gliding along the cable but falling with it. there was a tumult of yells, screams, and cries. he felt something soft against his extended hand, and the impact of a broken fall quivering through his arm.... he wanted to be still and the people were lifting him. he believed afterwards he was carried to the platform and given some drink, but he was never sure. he did not notice what became of his guide. when his mind was clear again he was on his feet; eager hands were assisting him to stand. he was in a big alcove, occupying the position that in his previous experience had been devoted to the lower boxes. if this was indeed a theatre. a mighty tumult was in his ears, a thunderous roar, the shouting of a countless multitude. "it is the sleeper! the sleeper is with us!" "the sleeper is with us! the master--the owner! the master is with us. he is safe." graham had a surging vision of a great hall crowded with people. he saw no individuals, he was conscious of a froth of pink faces, of waving arms and garments, he felt the occult influence of a vast crowd pouring over him, buoying him up. there were balconies, galleries, great archways giving remoter perspectives, and everywhere people, a vast arena of people, densely packed and cheering. across the nearer space lay the collapsed cable like a huge snake. it had been cut by the men of the flying machine at its upper end, and had crumpled down into the hall. men seemed to be hauling this out of the way. but the whole effect was vague, the very buildings throbbed and leapt with the roar of the voices. he stood unsteadily and looked at those about him. someone supported him by one arm. "let me go into a little room," he said, weeping; "a little room," and could say no more. a man in black stepped forward, took his disengaged arm. he was aware of officious men opening a door before him. someone guided him to a seat. he staggered. he sat down heavily and covered his face with his hands; he was trembling violently, his nervous control was at an end. he was relieved of his cloak, he could not remember how; his purple hose he saw were black with wet. people were running about him, things were happening, but for some time he gave no heed to them. he had escaped. a myriad of cries told him that. he was safe. these were the people who were on his side. for a space he sobbed for breath, and then he sat still with his face covered. the air was full of the shouting of innumerable men. chapter ix the people march he became aware of someone urging a glass of clear fluid upon his attention, looked up and discovered this was a dark young man in a yellow garment. he took the dose forthwith, and in a moment he was glowing. a tall man in a black robe stood by his shoulder, and pointed to the half open door into the hall. this man was shouting close to his ear and yet what was said was indistinct because of the tremendous uproar from the great theatre. behind the man was a girl in a silvery grey robe, whom graham, even in this confusion, perceived to be beautiful. her dark eyes, full of wonder and curiosity, were fixed on him, her lips trembled apart. a partially opened door gave a glimpse of the crowded hall, and admitted a vast uneven tumult, a hammering, clapping and shouting that died away and began again, and rose to a thunderous pitch, and so continued intermittently all the time that graham remained in the little room. he watched the lips of the man in black and gathered that he was making some explanation. he stared stupidly for some moments at these things and then stood up abruptly; he grasped the arm of this shouting person. "tell me!" he cried. "who am i? who am i?" the others came nearer to hear his words. "who am i?" his eyes searched their faces. "they have told him nothing!" cried the girl. "tell me, tell me!" cried graham. "you are the master of the earth. you are owner of the world." he did not believe he heard aright. he resisted the persuasion. he pretended not to understand, not to hear. he lifted his voice again. "i have been awake three days--a prisoner three days. i judge there is some struggle between a number of people in this city--it is london?" "yes," said the younger man. "and those who meet in the great hall with the white atlas? how does it concern me? in some way it has to do with me. _why_, i don't know. drugs? it seems to me that while i have slept the world has gone mad. i have gone mad.... who are those councillors under the atlas? why should they try to drug me?" "to keep you insensible," said the man in yellow. "to prevent your interference." "but _why_?" "because _you_ are the atlas, sire," said the man in yellow. "the world is on your shoulders. they rule it in your name." the sounds from the hall had died into a silence threaded by one monotonous voice. now suddenly, trampling on these last words, came a deafening tumult, a roaring and thundering, cheer crowded on cheer, voices hoarse and shrill, beating, overlapping, and while it lasted the people in the little room could not hear each other shout. graham stood, his intelligence clinging helplessly to the thing he had just heard. "the council," he repeated blankly, and then snatched at a name that had struck him. "but who is ostrog?" he said. "he is the organiser--the organiser of the revolt. our leader--in your name." "in my name?--and you? why is he not here?" "he--has deputed us. i am his brother--his half-brother, lincoln. he wants you to show yourself to these people and then come on to him. that is why he has sent. he is at the wind-vane offices directing. the people are marching." "in your name," shouted the younger man. "they have ruled, crushed, tyrannised. at last even--" "in my name! my name! master?" the younger man suddenly became audible in a pause of the outer thunder, indignant and vociferous, a high penetrating voice under his red aquiline nose and bushy moustache. "no one expected you to wake. no one expected you to wake. they were cunning. damned tyrants! but they were taken by surprise. they did not know whether to drug you, hypnotise you, kill you." again the hall dominated everything. "ostrog is at the wind-vane offices ready--. even now there is a rumour of fighting beginning." the man who had called himself lincoln came close to him. "ostrog has it planned. trust him. we have our organisations ready. we shall seize the flying stages--. even now he may be doing that. then--" "this public theatre," bawled the man in yellow, "is only a contingent. we have five myriads of drilled men--" "we have arms," cried lincoln. "we have plans. a leader. their police have gone from the streets and are massed in the--" (inaudible). "it is now or never. the council is rocking--they cannot trust even their drilled men--" "hear the people calling to you!" graham's mind was like a night of moon and swift clouds, now dark and hopeless, now clear and ghastly. he was master of the earth, he was a man sodden with thawing snow. of all his fluctuating impressions the dominant ones presented an antagonism; on the one hand was the white council, powerful, disciplined, few, the white council from which he had just escaped; and on the other, monstrous crowds, packed masses of indistinguishable people clamouring his name, hailing him master. the other side had imprisoned him, debated his death. these shouting thousands beyond the little doorway had rescued him. but why these things should be so he could not understand. the door opened, lincoln's voice was swept away and drowned, and a rash of people followed on the heels of the tumult. these intruders came towards him and lincoln gesticulating. the voices without explained their soundless lips. "show us the sleeper, show us the sleeper!" was the burden of the uproar. men were bawling for "order! silence!" graham glanced towards the open doorway, and saw a tall, oblong picture of the hall beyond, a waving, incessant confusion of crowded, shouting faces, men and women together, waving pale blue garments, extended hands. many were standing, one man in rags of dark brown, a gaunt figure, stood on the seat and waved a black cloth. he met the wonder and expectation of the girl's eyes. what did these people expect from him. he was dimly aware that the tumult outside had changed its character, was in some way beating, marching. his own mind, too, changed. for a space he did not recognise the influence that was transforming him. but a moment that was near to panic passed. he tried to make audible inquiries of what was required of him. lincoln was shouting in his ear, but graham was deafened to that. all the others save the woman gesticulated towards the hall. he perceived what had happened to the uproar. the whole mass of people was chanting together. it was not simply a song, the voices were gathered together and upborne by a torrent of instrumental music, music like the music of an organ, a woven texture of sounds, full of trumpets, full of flaunting banners, full of the march and pageantry of opening war. and the feet of the people were beating time--tramp, tramp. he was urged towards the door. he obeyed mechanically. the strength of that chant took hold of him, stirred him, emboldened him. the hall opened to him, a vast welter of fluttering colour swaying to the music. "wave your arm to them," said lincoln. "wave your arm to them." "this," said a voice on the other side, "he must have this." arms were about his neck detaining him in the doorway, and a black subtly-folding mantle hung from his shoulders. he threw his arm free of this and followed lincoln. he perceived the girl in grey close to him, her face lit, her gesture onward. for the instant she became to him, flushed and eager as she was, an embodiment of the song. he emerged in the alcove again. incontinently the mounting waves of the song broke upon his appearing, and flashed up into a foam of shouting. guided by lincoln's hand he marched obliquely across the centre of the stage facing the people. the hall was a vast and intricate space--galleries, balconies, broad spaces of amphitheatral steps, and great archways. far away, high up, seemed the mouth of a huge passage full of struggling humanity. the whole multitude was swaying in congested masses. individual figures sprang out of the tumult, impressed him momentarily, and lost definition again. close to the platform swayed a beautiful fair woman, carried by three men, her hair across her face and brandishing a green staff. next this group an old careworn man in blue canvas maintained his place in the crush with difficulty, and behind shouted a hairless face, a great cavity of toothless mouth. a voice called that enigmatical word "ostrog." all his impressions were vague save the massive emotion of that trampling song. the multitude were beating time with their feet--marking time, tramp, tramp, tramp, tramp. the green weapons waved, flashed and slanted. then he saw those nearest to him on a level space before the stage were marching in front of him, passing towards a great archway, shouting "to the council!" tramp, tramp, tramp, tramp. he raised his arm, and the roaring was redoubled. he remembered he had to shout "march!" his mouth shaped inaudible heroic words. he waved his arm again and pointed to the archway, shouting "onward!" they were no longer marking time, they were marching; tramp, tramp, tramp, tramp. in that host were bearded men, old men, youths, fluttering robed bare-armed women, girls. men and women of the new age! rich robes, grey rags fluttered together in the whirl of their movement amidst the dominant blue. a monstrous black banner jerked its way to the right. he perceived a blue-clad negro, a shrivelled woman in yellow, then a group of tall fair-haired, white-faced, blue-clad men pushed theatrically past him. he noted two chinamen. a tall, sallow, dark-haired, shining-eyed youth, white clad from top to toe, clambered up towards the platform shouting loyally, and sprang down again and receded, looking backward. heads, shoulders, hands clutching weapons, all were swinging with those marching cadences. faces came out of the confusion to him as he stood there, eyes met his and passed and vanished. men gesticulated to him, shouted inaudible personal things. most of the faces were flushed, but many were ghastly white. and disease was there, and many a hand that waved to him was gaunt and lean. men and women of the new age! strange and incredible meeting! as the broad stream passed before him to the right, tributary gangways from the remote uplands of the hall thrust downward in an incessant replacement of people; tramp, tramp, tramp, tramp. the unison of the song was enriched and complicated by the massive echoes of arches and passages. men and women mingled in the ranks; tramp, tramp, tramp, tramp. the whole world seemed marching. tramp, tramp, tramp, tramp; his brain was tramping. the garments waved onward, the faces poured by more abundantly. tramp, tramp, tramp, tramp; at lincoln's pressure he turned towards the archway, walking unconsciously in that rhythm, scarcely noticing his movement for the melody and stir of it. the multitude, the gesture and song, all moved in that direction, the flow of people smote downward until the upturned faces were below the level of his feet. he was aware of a path before him, of a suite about him, of guards and dignities, and lincoln on his right hand. attendants intervened, and ever and again blotted out the sight of the multitude to the left. before him went the backs of the guards in black--three and three and three. he was marched along a little railed way, and crossed above the archway, with the torrent dipping to flow beneath, and shouting up to him. he did not know whither he went; he did not want to know. he glanced back across a flaming spaciousness of hall. tramp, tramp, tramp, tramp. chapter x the battle of the darkness he was no longer in the hall. he was marching along a gallery overhanging one of the great streets of the moving platforms that traversed the city. before him and behind him tramped his guards. the whole concave of the moving ways below was a congested mass of people marching, tramping to the left, shouting, waving hands and arms, pouring along a huge vista, shouting as they came into view, shouting as they passed, shouting as they receded, until the globes of electric light receding in perspective dropped down it seemed and hid the swarming bare heads. tramp, tramp, tramp, tramp. the song roared up to graham now, no longer upborne by music, but coarse and noisy, and the beating of the marching feet, tramp, tramp, tramp, tramp, interwove with a thunderous irregularity of footsteps from the undisciplined rabble that poured along the higher ways. abruptly he noted a contrast. the buildings on the opposite side of the way seemed deserted, the cables and bridges that laced across the aisle were empty and shadowy. it came into graham's mind that these also should have swarmed with people. he felt a curious emotion--throbbing--very fast! he stopped again. the guards before him marched on; those about him stopped as he did. he saw anxiety and fear in their faces. the throbbing had something to do with the lights. he too looked up. at first it seemed to him a thing that affected the lights simply, an isolated phenomenon, having no bearing on the things below. each huge globe of blinding whiteness was as it were clutched, compressed in a systole that was followed by a transitory diastole, and again a systole like a tightening grip, darkness, light, darkness, in rapid alternation. graham became aware that this strange behaviour of the lights had to do with the people below. the appearance of the houses and ways, the appearance of the packed masses changed, became a confusion of vivid lights and leaping shadows. he saw a multitude of shadows had sprung into aggressive existence, seemed rushing up, broadening, widening, growing with steady swiftness--to leap suddenly back and return reinforced. the song and the tramping had ceased. the unanimous march, he discovered, was arrested, there were eddies, a flow sideways, shouts of "the lights!" voices were crying together one thing. "the lights!" cried these voices. "the lights!" he looked down. in this dancing death of the lights the area of the street had suddenly become a monstrous struggle. the huge white globes became purple-white, purple with a reddish glow, flickered, flickered faster and faster, fluttered between light and extinction, ceased to flicker and became mere fading specks of glowing red in a vast obscurity. in ten seconds the extinction was accomplished, and there was only this roaring darkness, a black monstrosity that had suddenly swallowed up those glittering myriads of men. he felt invisible forms about him; his arms were gripped. something rapped sharply against his shin. a voice bawled in his ear, "it is all right--all right." graham shook off the paralysis of his first astonishment. he struck his forehead against lincoln's and bawled, "what is this darkness?" "the council has cut the currents that light the city. we must wait--stop. the people will go on. they will--" his voice was drowned. voices were shouting, "save the sleeper. take care of the sleeper." a guard stumbled against graham and hurt his hand by an inadvertent blow of his weapon. a wild tumult tossed and whirled about him, growing, as it seemed, louder, denser, more furious each moment. fragments of recognisable sounds drove towards him, were whirled away from him as his mind reached out to grasp them. voices seemed to be shouting conflicting orders, other voices answered. there were suddenly a succession of piercing screams close beneath them. a voice bawled in his ear, "the red police," and receded forthwith beyond his questions. a crackling sound grew to distinctness, and therewith a leaping of faint flashes along the edge of the further ways. by their light graham saw the heads and bodies of a number of men, armed with weapons like those of his guards, leap into an instant's dim visibility. the whole area began to crackle, to flash with little instantaneous streaks of light, and abruptly the darkness rolled back like a curtain. a glare of light dazzled his eyes, a vast seething expanse of struggling men confused his mind. a shout, a burst of cheering, came across the ways. he looked up to see the source of the light. a man hung far overhead from the upper part of a cable, holding by a rope the blinding star that had driven the darkness back. graham's eyes fell to the ways again. a wedge of red a little way along the vista caught his eye. he saw it was a dense mass of red-clad men jammed on the higher further way, their backs against the pitiless cliff of building, and surrounded by a dense crowd of antagonists. they were fighting. weapons flashed and rose and fell, heads vanished at the edge of the contest, and other heads replaced them, the little flashes from the green weapons became little jets of smoky grey while the light lasted. abruptly the flare was extinguished and the ways were an inky darkness once more, a tumultuous mystery. he felt something thrusting against him. he was being pushed along the gallery. someone was shouting--it might be at him. he was too confused to hear. he was thrust against the wall, and a number of people blundered past him. it seemed to him that his guards were struggling with one another. suddenly the cable-hung star-holder appeared again, and the whole scene was white and dazzling. the band of red-coats seemed broader and nearer; its apex was half-way down the ways towards the central aisle. and raising his eyes graham saw that a number of these men had also appeared now in the darkened lower galleries of the opposite building, and were firing over the heads of their fellows below at the boiling confusion of people on the lower ways. the meaning of these things dawned upon him. the march of the people had come upon an ambush at the very outset. thrown into confusion by the extinction of the lights they were now being attacked by the red police. then he became aware that he was standing alone, that his guards and lincoln were along the gallery in the direction along which he had come before the darkness fell. he saw they were gesticulating to him wildly, running back towards him. a great shouting came from across the ways. then it seemed as though the whole face of the darkened building opposite was lined and speckled with red-clad men. and they were pointing over to him and shouting. "the sleeper! save the sleeper!" shouted a multitude of throats. something struck the wall above his head. he looked up at the impact and saw a star-shaped splash of silvery metal. he saw lincoln near him. felt his arm gripped. then, pat, pat; he had been missed twice. for a moment he did not understand this. the street was hidden, everything was hidden, as he looked. the second flare had burned out. lincoln had gripped graham by the arm, was lugging him along the gallery. "before the next light!" he cried. his haste was contagious. graham's instinct of self-preservation overcame the paralysis of his incredulous astonishment. he became for a time the blind creature of the fear of death. he ran, stumbling because of the uncertainty of the darkness, blundered into his guards as they turned to run with him. haste was his one desire, to escape this perilous gallery upon which he was exposed. a third glare came close on its predecessors. with it came a great shouting across the ways, an answering tumult from the ways. the red-coats below, he saw, had now almost gained the central passage. their countless faces turned towards him, and they shouted. the white façade opposite was densely stippled with red. all these wonderful things concerned him, turned upon him as a pivot. these were the guards of the council attempting to recapture him. lucky it was for him that these shots were the first fired in anger for a hundred and fifty years. he heard bullets whacking over his head, felt a splash of molten metal sting his ear, and perceived without looking that the whole opposite façade, an unmasked ambuscade of red police, was crowded and bawling and firing at him. down went one of his guards before him, and graham, unable to stop, leapt the writhing body. in another second he had plunged, unhurt, into a black passage, and incontinently someone, coming, it may be, in a transverse direction, blundered violently into him. he was hurling down a staircase in absolute darkness. he reeled, and was struck again, and came against a wall with his hands. he was crushed by a weight of struggling bodies, whirled round, and thrust to the right. a vast pressure pinned him. he could not breathe, his ribs seemed cracking. he felt a momentary relaxation, and then the whole mass of people moving together, bore him back towards the great theatre from which he had so recently come. there were moments when his feet did not touch the ground. then he was staggering and shoving. he heard shouts of "they are coming!" and a muffled cry close to him. his foot blundered against something soft, he heard a hoarse scream under foot. he heard shouts of "the sleeper!" but he was too confused to speak. he heard the green weapons crackling. for a space he lost his individual will, became an atom in a panic, blind, unthinking, mechanical. he thrust and pressed back and writhed in the pressure, kicked presently against a step, and found himself ascending a slope. and abruptly the faces all about him leapt out of the black, visible, ghastly-white and astonished, terrified, perspiring, in a livid glare. one face, a young man's, was very near to him, not twenty inches away. at the time it was but a passing incident of no emotional value, but afterwards it came back to him in his dreams. for this young man, wedged upright in the crowd for a time, had been shot and was already dead. a fourth white star must have been lit by the man on the cable. its light came glaring in through vast windows and arches and showed graham that he was now one of a dense mass of flying black figures pressed back across the lower area of the great theatre. this time the picture was livid and fragmentary, slashed and barred with black shadows. he saw that quite near to him the red guards were fighting their way through the people. he could not tell whether they saw him. he looked for lincoln and his guards. he saw lincoln near the stage of the theatre surrounded in a crowd of black-badged revolutionaries, lifted up and staring to and fro as if seeking him. graham perceived that he himself was near the opposite edge of the crowd, that behind him, separated by a barrier, sloped the now vacant seats of the theatre. a sudden idea came to him, and he began fighting his way towards the barrier. as he reached it the glare came to an end. in a moment he had thrown off the great cloak that not only impeded his movements but made him conspicuous, and had slipped it from his shoulders. he heard someone trip in its folds. in another he was scaling the barrier and had dropped into the blackness on the further side. then feeling his way he came to the lower end of an ascending gangway. in the darkness the sound of firing ceased and the roar of feet and voices lulled. then suddenly he came to an unexpected step and tripped and fell. as he did so pools and islands amidst the darkness about him leapt to vivid light again, the uproar surged louder and the glare of the fifth white star shone through the vast fenestrations of the theatre walls. he rolled over among some seats, heard a shouting and the whirring rattle of weapons, struggled up and was knocked back again, perceived that a number of black-badged men were all about him firing at the reds below, leaping from seat to seat, crouching among the seats to reload. instinctively he crouched amidst the seats, as stray shots ripped the pneumatic cushions and cut bright slashes on their soft metal frames. instinctively he marked the direction of the gangways, the most plausible way of escape for him so soon as the veil of darkness fell again. a young man in faded blue garments came vaulting over the seats. "hullo!" he said, with his flying feet within six inches of the crouching sleeper's face. he stared without any sign of recognition, turned to fire, fired, and shouting, "to hell with the council!" was about to fire again. then it seemed to graham that the half of this man's neck had vanished. a drop of moisture fell on graham's cheek. the green weapon stopped half raised. for a moment the man stood still with his face suddenly expressionless, then he began to slant forward. his knees bent. man and darkness fell together. at the sound of his fall graham rose up and ran for his life until a step down to the gangway tripped him. he scrambled to his feet, turned up the gangway and ran on. when the sixth star glared he was already close to the yawning throat of a passage. he ran on the swifter for the light, entered the passage and turned a corner into absolute night again. he was knocked sideways, rolled over, and recovered his feet. he found himself one of a crowd of invisible fugitives pressing in one direction. his one thought now was their thought also; to escape out of this fighting. he thrust and struck, staggered, ran, was wedged tightly, lost ground and then was clear again. for some minutes he was running through the darkness along a winding passage, and then he crossed some wide and open space, passed down a long incline, and came at last down a flight of steps to a level place. many people were shouting, "they are coming! the guards are coming. they are firing. get out of the fighting. the guards are firing. it will be safe in seventh way. along here to seventh way!" there were women and children in the crowd as well as men. the crowd converged on an archway, passed through a short throat and emerged on a wider space again, lit dimly. the black figures about him spread out and ran up what seemed in the twilight to be a gigantic series of steps. he followed. the people dispersed to the right and left.... he perceived that he was no longer in a crowd. he stopped near the highest step. before him, on that level, were groups of seats and a little kiosk. he went up to this and, stopping in the shadow of its eaves, looked about him panting. everything was vague and grey, but he recognised that these great steps were a series of platforms of the "ways," now motionless again. the platform slanted up on either side, and the tall buildings rose beyond, vast dim ghosts, their inscriptions and advertisements indistinctly seen, and up through the girders and cables was a faint interrupted ribbon of pallid sky. a number of people hurried by. from their shouts and voices, it seemed they were hurrying to join the fighting. other less noisy figures flitted timidly among the shadows. from very far away down the street he could hear the sound of a struggle. but it was evident to him that this was not the street into which the theatre opened. that former fight, it seemed, had suddenly dropped out of sound and hearing. and they were fighting for him! for a space he was like a man who pauses in the reading of a vivid book, and suddenly doubts what he has been taking unquestionably. at that time he had little mind for details; the whole effect was a huge astonishment. oddly enough, while the flight from the council prison, the great crowd in the hall, and the attack of the red police upon the swarming people were clearly present in his mind, it cost him an effort to piece in his awakening and to revive the meditative interval of the silent rooms. at first his memory leapt these things and took him back to the cascade at pentargen quivering in the wind, and all the sombre splendours of the sunlit cornish coast. the contrast touched everything with unreality. and then the gap filled, and he began to comprehend his position. it was no longer absolutely a riddle, as it had been in the silent rooms. at least he had the strange, bare outline now. he was in some way the owner of the world, and great political parties were fighting to possess him. on the one hand was the council, with its red police, set resolutely, it seemed, on the usurpation of his property and perhaps his murder; on the other, the revolution that had liberated him, with this unseen "ostrog" as its leader. and the whole of this gigantic city was convulsed by their struggle. frantic development of his world! "i do not understand," he cried. "i do not understand!" he had slipped out between the contending parties into this liberty of the twilight. what would happen next? what was happening? he figured the red-clad men as busily hunting him, driving the black-badged revolutionists before them. at any rate chance had given him a breathing space. he could lurk unchallenged by the passers-by, and watch the course of things. his eye followed up the intricate dim immensity of the twilight buildings, and it came to him as a thing infinitely wonderful, that above there the sun was rising, and the world was lit and glowing with the old familiar light of day. in a little while he had recovered his breath. his clothing had already dried upon him from the snow. he wandered for miles along these twilight ways, speaking to no one, accosted by no one--a dark figure among dark figures--the coveted man out of the past, the inestimable unintentional owner of the world. wherever there were lights or dense crowds, or exceptional excitement, he was afraid of recognition, and watched and turned back or went up and down by the middle stairways, into some transverse system of ways at a lower or higher level. and though he came on no more fighting, the whole city stirred with battle. once he had to run to avoid a marching multitude of men that swept the street. everyone abroad seemed involved. for the most part they were men, and they carried what he judged were weapons. it seemed as though the struggle was concentrated mainly in the quarter of the city from which he came. ever and again a distant roaring, the remote suggestion of that conflict, reached his ears. then his caution and his curiosity struggled together. but his caution prevailed, and he continued wandering away from the fighting--so far as he could judge. he went unmolested, unsuspected through the dark. after a time he ceased to hear even a remote echo of the battle, fewer and fewer people passed him, until at last the streets became deserted. the frontages of the buildings grew plain, and harsh; he seemed to have come to a district of vacant warehouses. solitude crept upon him--his pace slackened. he became aware of a growing fatigue. at times he would turn aside and sit down on one of the numerous benches of the upper ways. but a feverish restlessness, the knowledge of his vital implication in this struggle, would not let him rest in any place for long. was the struggle on his behalf alone? and then in a desolate place came the shock of an earthquake--a roaring and thundering--a mighty wind of cold air pouring through the city, the smash of glass, the slip and thud of falling masonry--a series of gigantic concussions. a mass of glass and ironwork fell from the remote roofs into the middle gallery, not a hundred yards away from him, and in the distance were shouts and running. he, too, was startled to an aimless activity, and ran first one way and then as aimlessly back. a man came running towards him. his self-control returned. "what have they blown up?" asked the man breathlessly. "that was an explosion," and before graham could speak he had hurried on. the great buildings rose dimly, veiled by a perplexing twilight, albeit the rivulet of sky above was now bright with day. he noted many strange features, understanding none at the time; he even spelt out many of the inscriptions in phonetic lettering. but what profit is it to decipher a confusion of odd-looking letters resolving itself, after painful strain of eye and mind, into "here is eadhamite," or, "labour bureau--little side"? grotesque thought, that all these cliff-like houses were his! the perversity of his experience came to him vividly. in actual fact he had made such a leap in time as romancers have imagined again and again. and that fact realised, he had been prepared. his mind had, as it were, seated itself for a spectacle. and no spectacle unfolded itself, but a great vague danger, unsympathetic shadows and veils of darkness. somewhere through the labyrinthine obscurity his death sought him. would he, after all, be killed before he saw? it might be that even at the next corner his destruction ambushed. a great desire to see, a great longing to know, arose in him. he became fearful of corners. it seemed to him that there was safety in concealment. where could he hide to be inconspicuous when the lights returned? at last he sat down upon a seat in a recess on one of the higher ways, conceiving he was alone there. he squeezed his knuckles into his weary eyes. suppose when he looked again he found the dark trough of parallel ways and that intolerable altitude of edifice gone. suppose he were to discover the whole story of these last few days, the awakening, the shouting multitudes, the darkness and the fighting, a phantasmagoria, a new and more vivid sort of dream. it must be a dream; it was so inconsecutive, so reasonless. why were the people fighting for him? why should this saner world regard him as owner and master? so he thought, sitting blinded, and then he looked again, half hoping in spite of his ears to see some familiar aspect of the life of the nineteenth century, to see, perhaps, the little harbour of boscastle about him, the cliffs of pentargen, or the bedroom of his home. but fact takes no heed of human hopes. a squad of men with a black banner tramped athwart the nearer shadows, intent on conflict, and beyond rose that giddy wall of frontage, vast and dark, with the dim incomprehensible lettering showing faintly on its face. "it is no dream," he said, "no dream." and he bowed his face upon his hands. chapter xi the old man who knew everything he was startled by a cough close at hand. he turned sharply, and peering, saw a small, hunched-up figure sitting a couple of yards off in the shadow of the enclosure. "have ye any news?" asked the high-pitched wheezy voice of a very old man. graham hesitated. "none," he said. "i stay here till the lights come again," said the old man. "these blue scoundrels are everywhere--everywhere." graham's answer was inarticulate assent. he tried to see the old man but the darkness hid his face. he wanted very much to respond, to talk, but he did not know how to begin. "dark and damnable," said the old man suddenly. "dark and damnable. turned out of my room among all these dangers." "that's hard," ventured graham. "that's hard on you." "darkness. an old man lost in the darkness. and all the world gone mad. war and fighting. the police beaten and rogues abroad. why don't they bring some negroes to protect us? ... no more dark passages for me. i fell over a dead man." "you're safer with company," said the old man, "if it's company of the right sort," and peered frankly. he rose suddenly and came towards graham. apparently the scrutiny was satisfactory. the old man sat down as if relieved to be no longer alone. "eh!" he said, "but this is a terrible time! war and fighting, and the dead lying there--men, strong men, dying in the dark. sons! i have three sons. god knows where they are to-night." the voice ceased. then repeated quavering: "god knows where they are to-night." graham stood revolving a question that should not betray his ignorance. again the old man's voice ended the pause. "this ostrog will win," he said. "he will win. and what the world will be like under him no one can tell. my sons are under the wind-vanes, all three. one of my daughters-in-law was his mistress for a while. his mistress! we're not common people. though they've sent me to wander to-night and take my chance.... i knew what was going on. before most people. but this darkness! and to fall over a dead body suddenly in the dark!" his wheezy breathing could be heard. "ostrog!" said graham. "the greatest boss the world has ever seen," said the voice. graham ransacked his mind. "the council has few friends among the people," he hazarded. "few friends. and poor ones at that. they've had their time. eh! they should have kept to the clever ones. but twice they held election. and ostrog--. and now it has burst out and nothing can stay it, nothing can stay it. twice they rejected ostrog--ostrog the boss. i heard of his rages at the time--he was terrible. heaven save them! for nothing on earth can now he has raised the labour companies upon them. no one else would have dared. all the blue canvas armed and marching! he will go through with it. he will go through." he was silent for a little while. "this sleeper," he said, and stopped. "yes," said graham. "well?" the senile voice sank to a confidential whisper, the dim, pale face came close. "the real sleeper--" "yes," said graham. "died years ago." "what?" said graham, sharply. "years ago. died. years ago." "you don't say so!" said graham. "i do. i do say so. he died. this sleeper who's woke up--they changed in the night. a poor, drugged insensible creature. but i mustn't tell all i know. i mustn't tell all i know." for a little while he muttered inaudibly. his secret was too much for him. "i don't know the ones that put him to sleep--that was before my time--but i know the man who injected the stimulants and woke him again. it was ten to one--wake or kill. wake or kill. ostrog's way." graham was so astonished at these things that he had to interrupt, to make the old man repeat his words, to re-question vaguely, before he was sure of the meaning and folly of what he heard. and his awakening had not been natural! was that an old man's senile superstition, too, or had it any truth in it? feeling in the dark corners of his memory, he presently came on something that might conceivably be an impression of some such stimulating effect. it dawned upon him that he had happened upon a lucky encounter, that at last he might learn something of the new age. the old man wheezed awhile and spat, and then the piping, reminiscent voice resumed: "the first time they rejected him. i've followed it all." "rejected whom?" said graham. "the sleeper?" "sleeper? _no_. ostrog. he was terrible--terrible! and he was promised then, promised certainly the next time. fools they were--not to be more afraid of him. now all the city's his millstone, and such as we dust ground upon it. dust ground upon it. until he set to work--the workers cut each other's throats, and murdered a chinaman or a labour policeman at times, and left the rest of us in peace. dead bodies! robbing! darkness! such a thing hasn't been this gross of years. eh!--but 'tis ill on small folks when the great fall out! it's ill." "did you say--there had not been--what?--for a gross of years?" "eh?" said the old man. the old man said something about clipping his words, and made him repeat this a third time. "fighting and slaying, and weapons in hand, and fools bawling freedom and the like," said the old man. "not in all my life has there been that. these are like the old days--for sure--when the paris people broke out--three gross of years ago. that's what i mean hasn't been. but it's the world's way. it had to come back. i know. i know. this five years ostrog has been working, and there has been trouble and trouble, and hunger and threats and high talk and arms. blue canvas and murmurs. no one safe. everything sliding and slipping. and now here we are! revolt and fighting, and the council come to its end." "you are rather well-informed on these things," said graham. "i know what i hear. it isn't all babble machine with me." "no," said graham, wondering what babble machine might be. "and you are certain this ostrog--you are certain ostrog organised this rebellion and arranged for the waking of the sleeper? just to assert himself--because he was not elected to the council?" "everyone knows that, i should think," said the old man. "except--just fools. he meant to be master somehow. in the council or not. everyone who knows anything knows that. and here we are with dead bodies lying in the dark! why, where have you been if you haven't heard all about the trouble between ostrog and the verneys? and what do you think the troubles are about? the sleeper? eh? you think the sleeper's real and woke of his own accord--eh?" "i'm a dull man, older than i look, and forgetful," said graham. "lots of things that have happened--especially of late years--. if i was the sleeper, to tell you the truth, i couldn't know less about them." "eh!" said the voice. "old, are you? you don't sound so very old! but it's not everyone keeps his memory to my time of life--truly. but these notorious things! but you're not so old as me--not nearly so old as me. well! i ought not to judge other men by myself, perhaps. i'm young--for so old a man. maybe you're old for so young." "that's it," said graham. "and i've a queer history. i know very little. and history! practically i know no history. the sleeper and julius caesar are all the same to me. it's interesting to hear you talk of these things." "i know a few things," said the old man. "i know a thing or two. but--. hark!" the two men became silent, listening. there was a heavy thud, a concussion that made their seat shiver. the passers-by stopped, shouted to one another. the old man was full of questions; he shouted to a man who passed near. graham, emboldened by his example, got up and accosted others. none knew what had happened. he returned to the seat and found the old man muttering vague interrogations in an undertone. for a while they said nothing to one another. the sense of this gigantic struggle, so near and yet so remote, oppressed graham's imagination. was this old man right, was the report of the people right, and were the revolutionaries winning? or were they all in error, and were the red guards driving all before them? at any time the flood of warfare might pour into this silent quarter of the city and seize upon him again. it behoved him to learn all he could while there was time. he turned suddenly to the old man with a question and left it unsaid. but his motion moved the old man to speech again. "eh! but how things work together!" said the old man. "this sleeper that all the fools put their trust in! i've the whole history of it--i was always a good one for histories. when i was a boy--i'm that old--i used to read printed books. you'd hardly think it. likely you've seen none--they rot and dust so--and the sanitary company burns them to make ashlarite. but they were convenient in their dirty way. one learnt a lot. these new-fangled babble machines--they don't seem new-fangled to you, eh?--they're easy to hear, easy to forget. but i've traced all the sleeper business from the first." "you will scarcely believe it," said graham slowly, "i'm so ignorant--i've been so preoccupied in my own little affairs, my circumstances have been so odd--i know nothing of this sleeper's history. who was he?" "eh!" said the old man. "i know, i know. he was a poor nobody, and set on a playful woman, poor soul! and he fell into a trance. there's the old things they had, those brown things--silver photographs--still showing him as he lay, a gross and a half years ago--a gross and a half of years." "set on a playful woman, poor soul," said graham softly to himself, and then aloud, "yes--well go on." "you must know he had a cousin named warming, a solitary man without children, who made a big fortune speculating in roads--the first eadhamite roads. but surely you've heard? no? why? he bought all the patent rights and made a big company. in those days there were grosses of grosses of separate businesses and business companies. grosses of grosses! his roads killed the railroads--the old things--in two dozen years; he bought up and eadhamited the tracks. and because he didn't want to break up his great property or let in shareholders, he left it all to the sleeper, and put it under a board of trustees that he had picked and trained. he knew then the sleeper wouldn't wake, that he would go on sleeping, sleeping till he died. he knew that quite well! and plump! a man in the united states, who had lost two sons in a boat accident, followed that up with another great bequest. his trustees found themselves with a dozen myriads of lions'-worth or more of property at the very beginning." "what was his name?" "graham." "no--i mean--that american's." "isbister." "isbister!" cried graham. "why, i don't even know the name." "of course not," said the old man. "of course not. people don't learn much in the schools nowadays. but i know all about him. he was a rich american who went from england, and he left the sleeper even more than warming. how he made it? that i don't know. something about pictures by machinery. but he made it and left it, and so the council had its start. it was just a council of trustees at first." "and how did it grow?" "eh!--but you're not up to things. money attracts money--and twelve brains are better than one. they played it cleverly. they worked politics with money, and kept on adding to the money by working currency and tariffs. they grew--they grew. and for years the twelve trustees hid the growing of the sleeper's estate under double names and company titles and all that. the council spread by title deed, mortgage, share, every political party, every newspaper they bought. if you listen to the old stories you will see the council growing and growing. billions and billions of lions at last--the sleeper's estate. and all growing out of a whim--out of this warming's will, and an accident to isbister's sons. "men are strange," said the old man. "the strange thing to me is how the council worked together so long. as many as twelve. but they worked in cliques from the first. and they've slipped back. in my young days speaking of the council was like an ignorant man speaking of god. we didn't think they could do wrong. we didn't know of their women and all that! or else i've got wiser. "men are strange," said the old man. "here are you, young and ignorant, and me--sevendy years old, and i might reasonably before getting--explaining it all to you short and clear. "sevendy," he said, "sevendy, and i hear and see--hear better than i see. and reason clearly, and keep myself up to all the happenings of things. sevendy! "life is strange. i was twaindy before ostrog was a baby. i remember him long before he'd pushed his way to the head of the wind vanes control. i've seen many changes. eh! i've worn the blue. and at last i've come to see this crush and darkness and tumult and dead men carried by in heaps on the ways. and all his doing! all his doing!" his voice died away in scarcely articulate praises of ostrog. graham thought. "let me see," he said, "if i have it right." he extended a hand and ticked off points upon his fingers. "the sleeper has been asleep--" "changed," said the old man. "perhaps. and meanwhile the sleeper's property grew in the hands of twelve trustees, until it swallowed up nearly all the great ownership of the world. the twelve trustees--by virtue of this property have become masters of the world. because they are the paying power--just as the old english parliament used to be--" "eh!" said the old man. "that's so--that's a good comparison. you're not so--" "and now this ostrog--has suddenly revolutionised the world by waking the sleeper--whom no one but the superstitious, common people had ever dreamt would wake again--raising the sleeper to claim his property from the council, after all these years." the old man endorsed this statement with a cough. "it's strange," he said, "to meet a man who learns these things for the first time to-night." "aye," said graham, "it's strange." "have you been in a pleasure city?" said the old man. "all my life i've longed--" he laughed. "even now," he said, "i could enjoy a little fun. enjoy seeing things, anyhow." he mumbled a sentence graham did not understand. "the sleeper--when did he awake?" said graham suddenly. "three days ago." "where is he?" "ostrog has him. he escaped from the council not four hours ago. my dear sir, where were you at the time? he was in the hall of the markets--where the fighting has been. all the city was screaming about it. all the babble machines. everywhere it was shouted. even the fools who speak for the council were admitting it. everyone was rushing off to see him--everyone was getting arms. were you drunk or asleep? and even then! but you're joking! surely you're pretending. it was to stop the shouting of the babble machines and prevent the people gathering that they turned off the electricity--and put this damned darkness upon us. do you mean to say--?" "i had heard the sleeper was rescued," said graham. "but--to come back a minute. are you sure ostrog has him?" "he won't let him go," said the old man. "and the sleeper. are you sure he is not genuine? i have never heard--" "so all the fools think. so they think. as if there wasn't a thousand things that were never heard. i know ostrog too well for that. did i tell you? in a way i'm a sort of relation of ostrog's. a sort of relation. through my daughter-in-law." "i suppose--" "well?" "i suppose there's no chance of this sleeper asserting himself. i suppose he's certain to be a puppet--in ostrog's hands or the council's, as soon as the struggle is over." "in ostrog's hands--certainly. why shouldn't he be a puppet? look at his position. everything done for him, every pleasure possible. why should he want to assert himself?" "what are these pleasure cities?" said graham, abruptly. the old man made him repeat the question. when at last he was assured of graham's words, he nudged him violently. "that's _too_ much," said he. "you're poking fun at an old man. i've been suspecting you know more than you pretend." "perhaps i do," said graham. "but no! why should i go on acting? no, i do not know what a pleasure city is." the old man laughed in an intimate way. "what is more, i do not know how to read your letters, i do not know what money you use, i do not know what foreign countries there are. i do not know where i am. i cannot count. i do not know where to get food, nor drink, nor shelter." "come, come," said the old man, "if you had a glass of drink now, would you put it in your ear or your eye?" "i want you to tell me all these things." "he, he! well, gentlemen who dress in silk must have their fun." a withered hand caressed graham's arm for a moment. "silk. well, well! but, all the same, i wish i was the man who was put up as the sleeper. he'll have a fine time of it. all the pomp and pleasure. he's a queer looking face. when they used to let anyone go to see him, i've got tickets and been. the image of the real one, as the photographs show him, this substitute used to be. yellow. but he'll get fed up. it's a queer world. think of the luck of it. the luck of it. i expect he'll be sent to capri. it's the best fun for a greener." his cough overtook him again. then he began mumbling enviously of pleasures and strange delights. "the luck of it, the luck of it! all my life i've been in london, hoping to get my chance." "but you don't know that the sleeper died," said graham, suddenly. the old man made him repeat his words. "men don't live beyond ten dozen. it's not in the order of things," said the old man. "i'm not a fool. fools may believe it, but not me." graham became angry with the old man's assurance. "whether you are a fool or not," he said, "it happens you are wrong about the sleeper." "eh?" "you are wrong about the sleeper. i haven't told you before, but i will tell you now. you are wrong about the sleeper." "how do you know? i thought you didn't know anything--not even about pleasure cities." graham paused. "you don't know," said the old man. "how are you to know? it's very few men--" "i _am_ the sleeper." he had to repeat it. there was a brief pause. "there's a silly thing to say, sir, if you'll excuse me. it might get you into trouble in a time like this," said the old man. graham, slightly dashed, repeated his assertion. "i was saying i was the sleeper. that years and years ago i did, indeed, fall asleep, in a little stone-built village, in the days when there were hedgerows, and villages, and inns, and all the countryside cut up into little pieces, little fields. have you never heard of those days? and it is i--i who speak to you--who awakened again these four days since." "four days since!--the sleeper! but they've _got_ the sleeper. they have him and they won't let him go. nonsense! you've been talking sensibly enough up to now. i can see it as though i was there. there will be lincoln like a keeper just behind him; they won't let him go about alone. trust them. you're a queer fellow. one of these fun pokers. i see now why you have been clipping your words so oddly, but--" he stopped abruptly, and graham could see his gesture. "as if ostrog would let the sleeper run about alone! no, you're telling that to the wrong man altogether. eh! as if i should believe. what's your game? and besides, we've been talking of the sleeper." graham stood up. "listen," he said. "i am the sleeper." "you're an odd man," said the old man, "to sit here in the dark, talking clipped, and telling a lie of that sort. but--" graham's exasperation fell to laughter. "it is preposterous," he cried. "preposterous. the dream must end. it gets wilder and wilder. here am i--in this damned twilight--i never knew a dream in twilight before--an anachronism by two hundred years and trying to persuade an old fool that i am myself, and meanwhile--ugh!" he moved in gusty irritation and went striding. in a moment the old man was pursuing him. "eh! but don't go!" cried the old man. "i'm an old fool, i know. don't go. don't leave me in all this darkness." graham hesitated, stopped. suddenly the folly of telling his secret flashed into his mind. "i didn't mean to offend you--disbelieving you," said the old man coming near. "it's no manner of harm. call yourself the sleeper if it pleases you. 'tis a foolish trick--" graham hesitated, turned abruptly and went on his way. for a time he heard the old man's hobbling pursuit and his wheezy cries receding. but at last the darkness swallowed him, and graham saw him no more. chapter xii ostrog graham could now take a clearer view of his position. for a long time yet he wandered, but after the talk of the old man his discovery of this ostrog was clear in his mind as the final inevitable decision. one thing was evident, those who were at the headquarters of the revolt had succeeded very admirably in suppressing the fact of his disappearance. but every moment he expected to hear the report of his death or of his recapture by the council. presently a man stopped before him. "have you heard?" he said. "no!" said graham, starting. "near a dozand," said the man, "a dozand men!" and hurried on. a number of men and a girl passed in the darkness, gesticulating and shouting: "capitulated! given up!" "a dozand of men." "two dozand of men." "ostrog, hurrah! ostrog, hurrah!" these cries receded, became indistinct. other shouting men followed. for a time his attention was absorbed in the fragments of speech he heard. he had a doubt whether all were speaking english. scraps floated to him, scraps like pigeon english, like "nigger" dialect, blurred and mangled distortions. he dared accost no one with questions. the impression the people gave him jarred altogether with his preconceptions of the struggle and confirmed the old man's faith in ostrog. it was only slowly he could bring himself to believe that all these people were rejoicing at the defeat of the council, that the council which had pursued him with such power and vigour was after all the weaker of the two sides in conflict. and if that was so, how did it affect him? several times he hesitated on the verge of fundamental questions. once he turned and walked for a long way after a little man of rotund inviting outline, but he was unable to master confidence to address him. it was only slowly that it came to him that he might ask for the "wind-vane offices" whatever the "wind-vane offices" might be. his first enquiry simply resulted in a direction to go on towards westminster. his second led to the discovery of a short cut in which he was speedily lost. he was told to leave the ways to which he had hitherto confined himself--knowing no other means of transit--and to plunge down one of the middle staircases into the blackness of a cross-way. thereupon came some trivial adventures; chief of these an ambiguous encounter with a gruff-voiced invisible creature speaking in a strange dialect that seemed at first a strange tongue, a thick flow of speech with the drifting corpses of english words therein, the dialect of the latter-day vile. then another voice drew near, a girl's voice singing, "tralala tralala." she spoke to graham, her english touched with something of the same quality. she professed to have lost her sister, she blundered needlessly into him he thought, caught hold of him and laughed. but a word of vague remonstrance sent her into the unseen again. the sounds about him increased. stumbling people passed him, speaking excitedly. "they have surrendered!" "the council! surely not the council!" "they are saying so in the ways." the passage seemed wider. suddenly the wall fell away. he was in a great space and people were stirring remotely. he inquired his way of an indistinct figure. "strike straight across," said a woman's voice. he left his guiding wall, and in a moment had stumbled against a little table on which were utensils of glass. graham's eyes, now attuned to darkness, made out a long vista with tables on either side. he went down this. at one or two of the tables he heard a clang of glass and a sound of eating. there were people then cool enough to dine, or daring enough to steal a meal in spite of social convulsion and darkness. far off and high up he presently saw a pallid light of a semi-circular shape. as he approached this, a black edge came up and hid it. he stumbled at steps and found himself in a gallery. he heard a sobbing, and found two scared little girls crouched by a railing. these children became silent at the near sound of feet. he tried to console them, but they were very still until he left them. then as he receded he could hear them sobbing again. presently he found himself at the foot of a staircase and near a wide opening. he saw a dim twilight above this and ascended out of the blackness into a street of moving ways again. along this a disorderly swarm of people marched shouting. they were singing snatches of the song of the revolt, most of them out of tune. here and there torches flared creating brief hysterical shadows. he asked his way and was twice puzzled by that same thick dialect. his third attempt won an answer he could understand. he was two miles from the wind-vane offices in westminster, but the way was easy to follow. when at last he did approach the district of the wind-vane offices it seemed to him, from the cheering processions that came marching along the ways, from the tumult of rejoicing, and finally from the restoration of the lighting of the city, that the overthrow of the council must already be accomplished. and still no news of his absence came to his ears. the re-illumination of the city came with startling abruptness. suddenly he stood blinking, all about him men halted dazzled, and the world was incandescent. the light found him already upon the outskirts of the excited crowds that choked the ways near the wind-vane offices, and the sense of visibility and exposure that came with it turned his colourless intention of joining ostrog to a keen anxiety. for a time he was jostled, obstructed, and endangered by men hoarse and weary with cheering his name, some of them bandaged and bloody in his cause. the frontage of the wind-vane offices was illuminated by some moving picture, but what it was he could not see, because in spite of his strenuous attempts the density of the crowd prevented his approaching it. from the fragments of speech he caught, he judged it conveyed news of the fighting about the council house. ignorance and indecision made him slow and ineffective in his movements. for a time he could not conceive how he was to get within the unbroken façade of this place. he made his way slowly into the midst of this mass of people, until he realised that the descending staircase of the central way led to the interior of the buildings. this gave him a goal, but the crowding in the central path was so dense that it was long before he could reach it. and even then he encountered intricate obstruction, and had an hour of vivid argument first in this guard room and then in that before he could get a note taken to the one man of all men who was most eager to see him. his story was laughed to scorn at one place, and wiser for that, when at last he reached a second stairway he professed simply to have news of extraordinary importance for ostrog. what it was he would not say. they sent his note reluctantly. for a long time he waited in a little room at the foot of the lift shaft, and thither at last came lincoln, eager, apologetic, astonished. he stopped in the doorway scrutinising graham, then rushed forward effusively. "yes," he cried. "it is you. and you are not dead!" graham made a brief explanation. "my brother is waiting," explained lincoln. "he is alone in the wind-vane offices. we feared you had been killed in the theatre. he doubted--and things are very urgent still in spite of what we are telling them _there_--or he would have come to you." they ascended a lift, passed along a narrow passage, crossed a great hall, empty save for two hurrying messengers, and entered a comparatively little room, whose only furniture was a long settee and a large oval disc of cloudy, shifting grey, hung by cables from the wall. there lincoln left graham for a space, and he remained alone without understanding the smoky shapes that drove slowly across this disc. his attention was arrested by a sound that began abruptly. it was cheering, the frantic cheering of a vast but very remote crowd, a roaring exultation. this ended as sharply as it had begun, like a sound heard between the opening and shutting of a door. in the outer room was a noise of hurrying steps and a melodious clinking as if a loose chain was running over the teeth of a wheel. then he heard the voice of a woman, the rustle of unseen garments. "it is ostrog!" he heard her say. a little bell rang fitfully, and then everything was still again. presently came voices, footsteps and movement without. the footsteps of some one person detached itself from the other sounds, and drew near, firm, evenly measured steps. the curtain lifted slowly. a tall, white-haired man, clad in garments of cream-coloured silk, appeared, regarding graham from under his raised arm. for a moment the white form remained holding the curtain, then dropped it and stood before it. graham's first impression was of a very broad forehead, very pale blue eyes deep sunken under white brows, an aquiline nose, and a heavily-lined resolute mouth. the folds of flesh over the eyes, the drooping of the corners of the mouth contradicted the upright bearing, and said the man was old. graham rose to his feet instinctively, and for a moment the two men stood in silence, regarding each other. "you are ostrog?" said graham. "i am ostrog." "the boss?" "so i am called." graham felt the inconvenience of the silence. "i have to thank you chiefly, i understand, for my safety," he said presently. "we were afraid you were killed," said ostrog. "or sent to sleep again--for ever. we have been doing everything to keep our secret--the secret of your disappearance. where have you been? how did you get here?" graham told him briefly. ostrog listened in silence. he smiled faintly. "do you know what i was doing when they came to tell me you had come?" "how can i guess?" "preparing your double." "my double?" "a man as like you as we could find. we were going to hypnotise him, to save him the difficulty of acting. it was imperative. the whole of this revolt depends on the idea that you are awake, alive, and with us. even now a great multitude of people has gathered in the theatre clamouring to see you. they do not trust.... you know, of course--something of your position?" "very little," said graham. "it is like this." ostrog walked a pace or two into the room and turned. "you are absolute owner," he said, "of the world. you are king of the earth. your powers are limited in many intricate ways, but you are the figure-head, the popular symbol of government. this white council, the council of trustees as it is called--" "i have heard the vague outline of these things." "i wondered." "i came upon a garrulous old man." "i see.... our masses--the word comes from your days--you know, of course, that we still have masses--regard you as our actual ruler. just as a great number of people in your days regarded the crown as the ruler. they are discontented--the masses all over the earth--with the rule of your trustees. for the most part it is the old discontent, the old quarrel of the common man with his commonness--the misery of work and discipline and unfitness. but your trustees have ruled ill. in certain matters, in the administration of the labour companies, for example, they have been unwise. they have given endless opportunities. already we of the popular party were agitating for reforms--when your waking came. came! if it had been contrived it could not have come more opportunely." he smiled. "the public mind, making no allowance for your years of quiescence, had already hit on the thought of waking you and appealing to you, and--flash!" he indicated the outbreak by a gesture, and graham moved his head to show that he understood. "the council muddled--quarrelled. they always do. they could not decide what to do with you. you know how they imprisoned you?" "i see. i see. and now--we win?" "we win. indeed we win. to-night, in five swift hours. suddenly we struck everywhere. the wind-vane people, the labour company and its millions, burst the bonds. we got the pull of the aeroplanes." "yes," said graham. "that was, of course, essential. or they could have got away. all the city rose, every third man almost was in it! all the blue, all the public services, save only just a few aeronauts and about half the red police. you were rescued, and their own police of the ways--not half of them could be massed at the council house--have been broken up, disarmed or killed. all london is ours--now. only the council house remains. "half of those who remain to them of the red police were lost in that foolish attempt to recapture you. they lost their heads when they lost you. they flung all they had at the theatre. we cut them off from the council house there. truly to-night has been a night of victory. everywhere your star has blazed. a day ago--the white council ruled as it has ruled for a gross of years, for a century and a half of years, and then, with only a little whispering, a covert arming here and there, suddenly--so!" "i am very ignorant," said graham. "i suppose--i do not clearly understand the conditions of this fighting. if you could explain. where is the council? where is the fight?" ostrog stepped across the room, something clicked, and suddenly, save for an oval glow, they were in darkness. for a moment graham was puzzled. then he saw that the cloudy grey disc had taken depth and colour, had assumed the appearance of an oval window looking out upon a strange unfamiliar scene. at the first glance he was unable to guess what this scene might be. it was a daylight scene, the daylight of a wintry day, grey and clear. across the picture, and halfway as it seemed between him and the remoter view, a stout cable of twisted white wire stretched vertically. then he perceived that the rows of great wind-wheels he saw, the wide intervals, the occasional gulfs of darkness, were akin to those through which he had fled from the council house. he distinguished an orderly file of red figures marching across an open space between files of men in black, and realised before ostrog spoke that he was looking down on the upper surface of latter-day london. the overnight snows had gone. he judged that this mirror was some modern replacement of the camera obscura, but that matter was not explained to him. he saw that though the file of red figures was trotting from left to right, yet they were passing out of the picture to the left. he wondered momentarily, and then saw that the picture was passing slowly, panorama fashion, across the oval. "in a moment you will see the fighting," said ostrog at his elbow. "those fellows in red you notice are prisoners. this is the roof space of london--all the houses are practically continuous now. the streets and public squares are covered in. the gaps and chasms of your time have disappeared." something out of focus obliterated half the picture. its form suggested a man. there was a gleam of metal, a flash, something that swept across the oval, as the eyelid of a bird sweeps across its eye, and the picture was clear again. and now graham beheld men running down among the wind-wheels, pointing weapons from which jetted out little smoky flashes. they swarmed thicker and thicker to the right, gesticulating--it might be they were shouting, but of that the picture told nothing. they and the wind-wheels passed slowly and steadily across the field of the mirror. "now," said ostrog, "comes the council house," and slowly a black edge crept into view and gathered graham's attention. soon it was no longer an edge but a cavity, a huge blackened space amidst the clustering edifices, and from it thin spires of smoke rose into the pallid winter sky. gaunt ruinous masses of the building, mighty truncated piers and girders, rose dismally out of this cavernous darkness. and over these vestiges of some splendid place, countless minute men were clambering, leaping, swarming. "this is the council house," said ostrog. "their last stronghold. and the fools wasted enough ammunition to hold out for a month in blowing up the buildings all about them--to stop our attack. you heard the smash? it shattered half the brittle glass in the city." and while he spoke, graham saw that beyond this area of ruins, overhanging it and rising to a great height, was a ragged mass of white building. this mass had been isolated by the ruthless destruction of its surroundings. black gaps marked the passages the disaster had torn apart; big halls had been slashed open and the decoration of their interiors showed dismally in the wintry dawn, and down the jagged walls hung festoons of divided cables and twisted ends of lines and metallic rods. and amidst all the vast details moved little red specks, the red-clothed defenders of the council. every now and then faint flashes illuminated the bleak shadows. at the first sight it seemed to graham that an attack upon this isolated white building was in progress, but then he perceived that the party of the revolt was not advancing, but sheltered amidst the colossal wreckage that encircled this last ragged stronghold of the red-garbed men, was keeping up a fitful firing. and not ten hours ago he had stood beneath the ventilating fans in a little chamber within that remote building wondering what was happening in the world! looking more attentively as this warlike episode moved silently across the centre of the mirror, graham saw that the white building was surrounded on every side by ruins, and ostrog proceeded to describe in concise phrases how its defenders had sought by such destruction to isolate themselves from a storm. he spoke of the loss of men that huge downfall had entailed in an indifferent tone. he indicated an improvised mortuary among the wreckage, showed ambulances swarming like cheese-mites along a ruinous groove that had once been a street of moving ways. he was more interested in pointing out the parts of the council house, the distribution of the besiegers. in a little while the civil contest that had convulsed london was no longer a mystery to graham. it was no tumultuous revolt had occurred that night, no equal warfare, but a splendidly organised _coup d'état_. ostrog's grasp of details was astonishing; he seemed to know the business of even the smallest knot of black and red specks that crawled amidst these places. he stretched a huge black arm across the luminous picture, and showed the room whence graham had escaped, and across the chasm of ruins the course of his flight. graham recognised the gulf across which the gutter ran, and the wind-wheels where he had crouched from the flying machine. the rest of his path had succumbed to the explosion. he looked again at the council house, and it was already half hidden, and on the right a hillside with a cluster of domes and pinnacles, hazy, dim and distant, was gliding into view. "and the council is really overthrown?" he said. "overthrown," said ostrog. "and i--. is it indeed true that i--?" "you are master of the world." "but that white flag--" "that is the flag of the council--the flag of the rule of the world. it will fall. the fight is over. their attack on the theatre was their last frantic struggle. they have only a thousand men or so, and some of these men will be disloyal. they have little ammunition. and we are reviving the ancient arts. we are casting guns." "but--help. is this city the world?" "practically this is all they have left to them of their empire. abroad the cities have either revolted with us or wait the issue. your awakening has perplexed them, paralysed them." "but haven't the council flying machines? why is there no fighting with them?" "they had. but the greater part of the aeronauts were in the revolt with us. they wouldn't take the risk of fighting on our side, but they would not stir against us. we _had_ to get a pull with the aeronauts. quite half were with us, and the others knew it. directly they knew you had got away, those looking for you dropped. we killed the man who shot at you--an hour ago. and we occupied the flying stages at the outset in every city we could, and so stopped and captured the greater aeroplanes, and as for the little flying machines that turned out--for some did--we kept up too straight and steady a fire for them to get near the council house. if they dropped they couldn't rise again, because there's no clear space about there for them to get up. several we have smashed, several others have dropped and surrendered, the rest have gone off to the continent to find a friendly city if they can before their fuel runs out. most of these men were only too glad to be taken prisoner and kept out of harm's way. upsetting in a flying machine isn't a very attractive prospect. there's no chance for the council that way. its days are done." he laughed and turned to the oval reflection again to show graham what he meant by flying stages. even the four nearer ones were remote and obscured by a thin morning haze. but graham could perceive they were very vast structures, judged even by the standard of the things about them. and then as these dim shapes passed to the left there came again the sight of the expanse across which the disarmed men in red had been marching. and then the black ruins, and then again the beleaguered white fastness of the council. it appeared no longer a ghostly pile, but glowing amber in the sunlight, for a cloud shadow had passed. about it the pigmy struggle still hung in suspense, but now the red defenders were no longer firing. so, in a dusky stillness, the man from the nineteenth century saw the closing scene of the great revolt, the forcible establishment of his rule. with a quality of startling discovery it came to him that this was his world, and not that other he had left behind; that this was no spectacle to culminate and cease; that in this world lay whatever life was still before him, lay all his duties and dangers and responsibilities. he turned with fresh questions. ostrog began to answer them, and then broke off abruptly. "but these things i must explain more fully later. at present there are--duties. the people are coming by the moving ways towards this ward from every part of the city--the markets and theatres are densely crowded. you are just in time for them. they are clamouring to see you. and abroad they want to see you. paris, new york, chicago, denver, capri--thousands of cities are up and in a tumult, undecided, and clamouring to see you. they have clamoured that you should be awakened for years, and now it is done they will scarcely believe--" "but surely--i can't go ..." ostrog answered from the other side of the room, and the picture on the oval disc paled and vanished as the light jerked back again. "there are kineto-telephoto-graphs," he said. "as you bow to the people here--all over the world myriads of myriads of people, packed and still in darkened halls, will see you also. in black and white, of course--not like this. and you will hear their shouts reinforcing the shouting in the hall. "and there is an optical contrivance we shall use," said ostrog, "used by some of the posturers and women dancers. it may be novel to you. you stand in a very bright light, and they see not you but a magnified image of you thrown on a screen--so that even the furtherest man in the remotest gallery can, if he chooses, count your eyelashes." graham clutched desperately at one of the questions in his mind. "what is the population of london?" he said. "eight and twaindy myriads." "eight and what?" "more than thirty-three millions." these figures went beyond graham's imagination. "you will be expected to say something," said ostrog. "not what you used to call a speech, but what our people call a word--just one sentence, six or seven words. something formal. if i might suggest--'i have awakened and my heart is with you.' that is the sort of thing they want." "what was that?" asked graham. "'i am awakened and my heart is with you.' and bow--bow royally. but first we must get you black robes--for black is your colour. do you mind? and then they will disperse to their homes." graham hesitated. "i am in your hands," he said. ostrog was clearly of that opinion. he thought for a moment, turned to the curtain and called brief directions to some unseen attendants. almost immediately a black robe, the very fellow of the black robe graham had worn in the theatre, was brought. and as he threw it about his shoulders there came from the room without the shrilling of a high-pitched bell. ostrog turned in interrogation to the attendant, then suddenly seemed to change his mind, pulled the curtain aside and disappeared. for a moment graham stood with the deferential attendant listening to ostrog's retreating steps. there was a sound of quick question and answer and of men running. the curtain was snatched back and ostrog reappeared, his massive face glowing with excitement. he crossed the room in a stride, clicked the room into darkness, gripped graham's arm and pointed to the mirror. "even as we turned away," he said. graham saw his index finger, black and colossal, above the mirrored council house. for a moment he did not understand. and then he perceived that the flagstaff that had carried the white banner was bare. "do you mean--?" he began. "the council has surrendered. its rule is at an end for evermore." "look!" and ostrog pointed to a coil of black that crept in little jerks up the vacant flagstaff, unfolding as it rose. the oval picture paled as lincoln pulled the curtain aside and entered. "they are clamorous," he said. ostrog kept his grip of graham's arm. "we have raised the people," he said. "we have given them arms. for to-day at least their wishes must be law." lincoln held the curtain open for graham and ostrog to pass through.... on his way to the markets graham had a transitory glance of a long narrow white-walled room in which men in the universal blue canvas were carrying covered things like biers, and about which men in medical purple hurried to and fro. from this room came groans and wailing. he had an impression of an empty blood-stained couch, of men on other couches, bandaged and blood-stained. it was just a glimpse from a railed footway and then a buttress hid the place and they were going on towards the markets.... the roar of the multitude was near now: it leapt to thunder. and, arresting his attention, a fluttering of black banners, the waving of blue canvas and brown rags, and the swarming vastness of the theatre near the public markets came into view down a long passage. the picture opened out. he perceived they were entering the great theatre of his first appearance, the great theatre he had last seen as a chequer-work of glare and blackness in his flight from the red police. this time he entered it along a gallery at a level high above the stage. the place was now brilliantly lit again. his eyes sought the gangway up which he had fled, but he could not tell it from among its dozens of fellows; nor could he see anything of the smashed seats, deflated cushions, and such like traces of the fight because of the density of the people. except the stage the whole place was closely packed. looking down the effect was a vast area of stippled pink, each dot a still upturned face regarding him. at his appearance with ostrog the cheering died away, the singing died away, a common interest stilled and unified the disorder. it seemed as though every individual of those myriads was watching him. chapter xiii the end of the old order so far as graham was able to judge, it was near midday when the white banner of the council fell. but some hours had to elapse before it was possible to effect the formal capitulation, and so after he had spoken his "word" he retired to his new apartments in the wind-vane offices. the continuous excitement of the last twelve hours had left him inordinately fatigued, even his curiosity was exhausted; for a space he sat inert and passive with open eyes, and for a space he slept. he was roused by two medical attendants, come prepared with stimulants to sustain him through the next occasion. after he had taken their drugs and bathed by their advice in cold water, he felt a rapid return of interest and energy, and was presently able and willing to accompany ostrog through several miles (as it seemed) of passages, lifts, and slides to the closing scene of the white council's rule. the way ran deviously through a maze of buildings. they came at last to a passage that curved about, and showed broadening before him an oblong opening, clouds hot with sunset, and the ragged skyline of the ruinous council house. a tumult of shouts came drifting up to him. in another moment they had come out high up on the brow of the cliff of torn buildings that overhung the wreckage. the vast area opened to graham's eyes, none the less strange and wonderful for the remote view he had had of it in the oval mirror. this rudely amphitheatral space seemed now the better part of a mile to its outer edge. it was gold lit on the left hand, catching the sunlight, and below and to the right clear and cold in the shadow. above the shadowy grey council house that stood in the midst of it, the great black banner of the surrender still hung in sluggish folds against the blazing sunset. severed rooms, halls and passages gaped strangely, broken masses of metal projected dismally from the complex wreckage, vast masses of twisted cable dropped like tangled seaweed, and from its base came a tumult of innumerable voices, violent concussions, and the sound of trumpets. all about this great white pile was a ring of desolation; the smashed and blackened masses, the gaunt foundations and ruinous lumber of the fabric that had been destroyed by the council's orders, skeletons of girders, titanic masses of wall, forests of stout pillars. amongst the sombre wreckage beneath, running water flashed and glistened, and far away across the space, out of the midst of a vague vast mass of buildings, there thrust the twisted end of a water-main, two hundred feet in the air, thunderously spouting a shining cascade. and everywhere great multitudes of people. wherever there was space and foothold, people swarmed, little people, small and minutely clear, except where the sunset touched them to indistinguishable gold. they clambered up the tottering walls, they clung in wreaths and groups about the high-standing pillars. they swarmed along the edges of the circle of ruins. the air was full of their shouting, and they were pressing and swaying towards the central space. the upper storeys of the council house seemed deserted, not a human being was visible. only the drooping banner of the surrender hung heavily against the light. the dead were within the council house, or hidden by the swarming people, or carried away. graham could see only a few neglected bodies in gaps and corners of the ruins, and amidst the flowing water. "will you let them see you, sire?" said ostrog. "they are very anxious to see you." graham hesitated, and then walked forward to where the broken verge of wall dropped sheer. he stood looking down, a lonely, tall, black figure against the sky. very slowly the swarming ruins became aware of him. and as they did so little bands of black-uniformed men appeared remotely, thrusting through the crowds towards the council house. he saw little black heads become pink, looking at him, saw by that means a wave of recognition sweep across the space. it occurred to him that he should accord them some recognition. he held up his arm, then pointed to the council house and dropped his hand. the voices below became unanimous, gathered volume, came up to him as multitudinous wavelets of cheering. the western sky was a pallid bluish green, and jupiter shone high in the south, before the capitulation was accomplished. above was a slow insensible change, the advance of night serene and beautiful; below was hurry, excitement, conflicting orders, pauses, spasmodic developments of organisation, a vast ascending clamour and confusion. before the council came out, toiling perspiring men, directed by a conflict of shouts, carried forth hundreds of those who had perished in the hand-to-hand conflict within those long passages and chambers.... guards in black lined the way that the council would come, and as far as the eye could reach into the hazy blue twilight of the ruins, and swarming now at every possible point in the captured council house and along the shattered cliff of its circumadjacent buildings, were innumerable people, and their voices, even when they were not cheering, were as the soughing of the sea upon a pebble beach. ostrog had chosen a huge commanding pile of crushed and overthrown masonry, and on this a stage of timbers and metal girders was being hastily constructed. its essential parts were complete, but humming and clangorous machinery still glared fitfully in the shadows beneath this temporary edifice. the stage had a small higher portion on which graham stood with ostrog and lincoln close beside him, a little in advance of a group of minor officers. a broader lower stage surrounded this quarter-deck, and on this were the black-uniformed guards of the revolt armed with the little green weapons whose very names graham still did not know. those standing about him perceived that his eyes wandered perpetually from the swarming people in the twilight ruins about him to the darkling mass of the white council house, whence the trustees would presently come, and to the gaunt cliffs of ruin that encircled him, and so back to the people. the voices of the crowd swelled to a deafening tumult. he saw the councillors first afar off in the glare of one of the temporary lights that marked their path, a little group of white figures in a black archway. in the council house they had been in darkness. he watched them approaching, drawing nearer past first this blazing electric star and then that; the minatory roar of the crowd over whom their power had lasted for a hundred and fifty years marched along beside them. as they drew still nearer their faces came out weary, white, and anxious. he saw them blinking up through the glare about him and ostrog. he contrasted their strange cold looks in the hall of atlas.... presently he could recognise several of them; the man who had rapped the table at howard, a burly man with a red beard, and one delicate-featured, short, dark man with a peculiarly long skull. he noted that two were whispering together and looking behind him at ostrog. next there came a tall, dark and handsome man, walking downcast. abruptly he glanced up, his eyes touched graham for a moment, and passed beyond him to ostrog. the way that had been made for them was so contrived that they had to march past and curve about before they came to the sloping path of planks that ascended to the stage where their surrender was to be made. "the master, the master! god and the master," shouted the people. "to hell with the council!" graham looked at their multitudes, receding beyond counting into a shouting haze, and then at ostrog beside him, white and steadfast and still. his eye went again to the little group of white councillors. and then he looked up at the familiar quiet stars overhead. the marvellous element in his fate was suddenly vivid. could that be his indeed, that little life in his memory two hundred years gone by--and this as well? chapter xiv from the crow's nest and so after strange delays and through an avenue of doubt and battle, this man from the nineteenth century came at last to his position at the head of that complex world. at first when he rose from the long deep sleep that followed his rescue and the surrender of the council, he did not recognise his surroundings. by an effort he gained a clue in his mind, and all that had happened came back to him, at first with a quality of insincerity like a story heard, like something read out of a book. and even before his memories were clear, the exultation of his escape, the wonder of his prominence were back in his mind. he was owner of the world; master of the earth. this new great age was in the completest sense his. he no longer hoped to discover his experiences a dream; he became anxious now to convince himself that they were real. an obsequious valet assisted him to dress under the direction of a dignified chief attendant, a little man whose face proclaimed him japanese, albeit he spoke english like an englishman. from the latter he learnt something of the state of affairs. already the revolution was an accepted fact; already business was being resumed throughout the city. abroad the downfall of the council had been received for the most part with delight. nowhere was the council popular, and the thousand cities of western america, after two hundred years still jealous of new york, london, and the east, had risen almost unanimously two days before at the news of graham's imprisonment. paris was fighting within itself. the rest of the world hung in suspense. while he was breaking his fast, the sound of a telephone bell jetted from a corner, and his chief attendant called his attention to the voice of ostrog making polite enquiries. graham interrupted his refreshment to reply. very shortly lincoln arrived, and graham at once expressed a strong desire to talk to people and to be shown more of the new life that was opening before him. lincoln informed him that in three hours' time a representative gathering of officials and their wives would be held in the state apartments of the wind-vane chief. graham's desire to traverse the ways of the city was, however, at present impossible, because of the enormous excitement of the people. it was, however, quite possible for him to take a bird's-eye view of the city from the crow's nest of the wind-vane keeper. to this accordingly graham was conducted by his attendant. lincoln; with a graceful compliment to the attendant, apologised for not accompanying them, on account of the present pressure of administrative work. higher even than the most gigantic, wind-wheels hung this crow's nest, a clear thousand feet above the roofs, a little disc-shaped speck on a spear of metallic filigree, cable stayed. to its summit graham was drawn in a little wire-hung cradle. halfway down the frail-seeming stem was a light gallery about which hung a cluster of tubes--minute they looked from above--rotating slowly on the ring of its outer rail. these were the specula, _en rapport_ with the wind-vane keeper's mirrors, in one of which ostrog had shown him the coming of his rule. his japanese attendant ascended before him and they spent nearly an hour asking and answering questions. it was a day full of the promise and quality of spring. the touch of the wind warmed. the sky was an intense blue and the vast expanse of london shone dazzling under the morning sun. the air was clear of smoke and haze, sweet as the air of a mountain glen. save for the irregular oval of ruins about the house of the council and the black flag of the surrender that fluttered there, the mighty city seen from above showed few signs of the swift revolution that had, to his imagination, in one night and one day, changed the destinies of the world. a multitude of people still swarmed over these ruins, and the huge openwork stagings in the distance from which started in times of peace the service of aeroplanes to the various great cities of europe and america, were also black with the victors. across a narrow way of planking raised on trestles that crossed the ruins a crowd of workmen were busy restoring the connection between the cables and wires of the council house and the rest of the city, preparatory to the transfer thither of ostrog's headquarters from the wind-vane buildings. for the rest the luminous expanse was undisturbed. so vast was its serenity in comparison with the areas of disturbance, that presently graham, looking beyond them, could almost forget the thousands of men lying out of sight in the artificial glare within the quasi-subterranean labyrinth, dead or dying of the overnight wounds, forget the improvised wards with the hosts of surgeons, nurses, and bearers feverishly busy, forget, indeed, all the wonder, consternation and novelty under the electric lights. down there in the hidden ways of the anthill he knew that the revolution triumphed, that black everywhere carried the day, black favours, black banners, black festoons across the streets. and out here, under the fresh sunlight, beyond the crater of the fight, as if nothing had happened to the earth, the forest of wind vanes that had grown from one or two while the council had ruled, roared peacefully upon their incessant duty. far away, spiked, jagged and indented by the wind vanes, the surrey hills rose blue and faint; to the north and nearer, the sharp contours of highgate and muswell hill were similarly jagged. and all over the countryside, he knew, on every crest and hill, where once the hedges had interlaced, and cottages, churches, inns, and farm houses had nestled among their trees, wind-wheels similar to those he saw and bearing like them vast advertisements, gaunt and distinctive symbols of the new age, cast their whirling shadows and stored incessantly the energy that flowed away incessantly through all the arteries of the city. and underneath these wandered the countless flocks and herds of the british food trust, his property, with their lonely guards and keepers. not a familiar outline anywhere broke the cluster of gigantic shapes below. st. paul's he knew survived, and many of the old buildings in westminster, embedded out of sight, arched over and covered in among the giant growths of this great age. the thames, too, made no fall and gleam of silver to break the wilderness of the city; the thirsty water mains drank up every drop of its waters before they reached the walls. its bed and estuary, scoured and sunken, was now a canal of sea water, and a race of grimy bargemen brought the heavy materials of trade from the pool thereby beneath the very feet of the workers. faint and dim in the eastward between earth and sky hung the clustering masts of the colossal shipping in the pool. for all the heavy traffic, for which there was no need of haste, came in gigantic sailing ships from the ends of the earth, and the heavy goods for which there was urgency in mechanical ships of a smaller swifter sort. and to the south over the hills came vast aqueducts with sea water for the sewers, and in three separate directions ran pallid lines--the roads, stippled with moving grey specks. on the first occasion that offered he was determined to go out and see these roads. that would come after the flying ship he was presently to try. his attendant officer described them as a pair of gently curving surfaces a hundred yards wide, each one for the traffic going in one direction, and made of a substance called eadhamite--an artificial substance, so far as he could gather, resembling toughened glass. along this shot a strange traffic of narrow rubber-shod vehicles, great single wheels, two and four wheeled vehicles, sweeping along at velocities of from one to six miles a minute. railroads had vanished; a few embankments remained as rust-crowned trenches here and there. some few formed the cores of eadhamite ways. among the first things to strike his attention had been the great fleets of advertisement balloons and kites that receded in irregular vistas northward and southward along the lines of the aeroplane journeys. no great aeroplanes were to be seen. their passages had ceased, and only one little-seeming monoplane circled high in the blue distance above the surrey hills, an unimpressive soaring speck. a thing graham had already learnt, and which he found very hard to imagine, was that nearly all the towns in the country, and almost all the villages, had disappeared. here and there only, he understood, some gigantic hotel-like edifice stood amid square miles of some single cultivation and preserved the name of a town--as bournemouth, wareham, or swanage. yet the officer had speedily convinced him how inevitable such a change had been. the old order had dotted the country with farmhouses, and every two or three miles was the ruling landlord's estate, and the place of the inn and cobbler, the grocer's shop and church--the village. every eight miles or so was the country town, where lawyer, corn merchant, wool-stapler, saddler, veterinary surgeon, doctor, draper, milliner and so forth lived. every eight miles--simply because that eight mile marketing journey, four there and back, was as much as was comfortable for the farmer. but directly the railways came into play, and after them the light railways, and all the swift new motor cars that had replaced waggons and horses, and so soon as the high roads began to be made of wood, and rubber, and eadhamite, and all sorts of elastic durable substances--the necessity of having such frequent market towns disappeared. and the big towns grew. they drew the worker with the gravitational force of seemingly endless work, the employer with their suggestion of an infinite ocean of labour. and as the standard of comfort rose, as the complexity of the mechanism of living increased, life in the country had become more and more costly, or narrow and impossible. the disappearance of vicar and squire, the extinction of the general practitioner by the city specialist; had robbed the village of its last touch of culture. after telephone, kinematograph and phonograph had replaced newspaper, book, schoolmaster, and letter, to live outside the range of the electric cables was to live an isolated savage. in the country were neither means of being clothed nor fed (according to the refined conceptions of the time), no efficient doctors for an emergency, no company and no pursuits. moreover, mechanical appliances in agriculture made one engineer the equivalent of thirty labourers. so, inverting the condition of the city clerk in the days when london was scarce inhabitable because of the coaly foulness of its air, the labourers now came to the city and its life and delights at night to leave it again in the morning. the city had swallowed up humanity; man had entered upon a new stage in his development. first had come the nomad, the hunter, then had followed the agriculturist of the agricultural state, whose towns and cities and ports were but the headquarters and markets of the countryside. and now, logical consequence of an epoch of invention, was this huge new aggregation of men. such things as these, simple statements of fact though they were to contemporary men, strained graham's imagination to picture. and when he glanced "over beyond there" at the strange things that existed on the continent, it failed him altogether. he had a vision of city beyond city; cities on great plains, cities beside great rivers, vast cities along the sea margin, cities girdled by snowy mountains. over a great part of the earth the english tongue was spoken; taken together with its spanish american and hindoo and negro and "pidgin" dialects, it was the everyday-language of two-thirds of humanity. on the continent, save as remote and curious survivals, three other languages alone held sway--german, which reached to antioch and genoa and jostled spanish-english at cadiz; a gallicised russian which met the indian english in persia and kurdistan and the "pidgin" english in pekin; and french still clear and brilliant, the language of lucidity, which shared the mediterranean with the indian english and german and reached through a negro dialect to the congo. and everywhere now through the city-set earth, save in the administered "black belt" territories of the tropics, the same cosmopolitan social organisation prevailed, and everywhere from pole to equator his property and his responsibilities extended. the whole world was civilised; the whole world dwelt in cities; the whole world was his property.... out of the dim south-west, glittering and strange, voluptuous, and in some way terrible, shone those pleasure cities of which the kinematograph-phonograph and the old man in the street had spoken. strange places reminiscent of the legendary sybaris, cities of art and beauty, mercenary art and mercenary beauty, sterile wonderful cities of motion and music, whither repaired all who profited by the fierce, inglorious, economic struggle that went on in the glaring labyrinth below. fierce he knew it was. how fierce he could judge from the fact that these latter-day people referred back to the england of the nineteenth century as the figure of an idyllic easy-going life. he turned his eyes to the scene immediately before him again, trying to conceive the big factories of that intricate maze.... chapter xv prominent people the state apartments of the wind vane keeper would have astonished graham had he entered them fresh from his nineteenth century life, but already he was growing accustomed to the scale of the new time. he came out through one of the now familiar sliding panels upon a plateau of landing at the head of a flight of very broad and gentle steps, with men and women far more brilliantly dressed than any he had hitherto seen, ascending and descending. from this position he looked down a vista of subtle and varied ornament in lustreless white and mauve and purple, spanned by bridges that seemed wrought of porcelain and filigree, and terminating far off in a cloudy mystery of perforated screens. glancing upward, he saw tier above tier of ascending galleries with faces looking down upon him. the air was full of the babble of innumerable voices and of a music that descended from above, a gay and exhilarating music whose source he did not discover. the central aisle was thick with people, but by no means uncomfortably crowded; altogether that assembly must have numbered many thousands. they were brilliantly, even fantastically dressed, the men as fancifully as the women, for the sobering influence of the puritan conception of dignity upon masculine dress had long since passed away. the hair of the men, too, though it was rarely worn long, was commonly curled in a manner that suggested the barber, and baldness had vanished from the earth. frizzy straight-cut masses that would have charmed rossetti abounded, and one gentleman, who was pointed out to graham under the mysterious title of an "amorist," wore his hair in two becoming plaits _à la_ marguerite. the pigtail was in evidence; it would seem that citizens of chinese extraction were no longer ashamed of their race. there was little uniformity of fashion apparent in the forms of clothing worn. the more shapely men displayed their symmetry in trunk hose, and here were puffs and slashes, and there a cloak and there a robe. the fashions of the days of leo the tenth were perhaps the prevailing influence, but the aesthetic conceptions of the far east were also patent. masculine embonpoint, which, in victorian times, would have been subjected to the buttoned perils, the ruthless exaggeration of tight-legged tight-armed evening dress, now formed but the basis of a wealth of dignity and drooping folds. graceful slenderness abounded also. to graham, a typically stiff man from a typically stiff period, not only did these men seem altogether too graceful in person, but altogether too expressive in their vividly expressive faces. they gesticulated, they expressed surprise, interest, amusement, above all, they expressed the emotions excited in their minds by the ladies about them with astonishing frankness. even at the first glance it was evident that women were in a great majority. the ladies in the company of these gentlemen displayed in dress, bearing and manner alike, less emphasis and more intricacy. some affected a classical simplicity of robing and subtlety of fold, after the fashion of the first french empire, and flashed conquering arms and shoulders as graham passed. others had closely-fitting dresses without seam or belt at the waist, sometimes with long folds falling from the shoulders. the delightful confidences of evening dress had not been diminished by the passage of two centuries. everyone's movements seemed graceful. graham remarked to lincoln that he saw men as raphael's cartoons walking, and lincoln told him that the attainment of an appropriate set of gestures was part of every rich person's education. the master's entry was greeted with a sort of tittering applause, but these people showed their distinguished manners by not crowding upon him nor annoying him by any persistent scrutiny, as he descended the steps towards the floor of the aisle. he had already learnt from lincoln that these were the leaders of existing london society; almost every person there that night was either a powerful official or the immediate connexion of a powerful official. many had returned from the european pleasure cities expressly to welcome him. the aeronautic authorities, whose defection had played a part in the overthrow of the council only second to graham's, were very prominent, and so, too, was the wind vane control. amongst others there were several of the more prominent officers of the food department; the controller of the european piggeries had a particularly melancholy and interesting countenance and a daintily cynical manner. a bishop in full canonicals passed athwart graham's vision, conversing with a gentleman dressed exactly like the traditional chaucer, including even the laurel wreath. "who is that?" he asked almost involuntarily. "the bishop of london," said lincoln. "no--the other, i mean." "poet laureate." "you still--?" "he doesn't make poetry, of course. he's a cousin of wotton--one of the councillors. but he's one of the red rose royalists--a delightful club--and they keep up the tradition of these things." "asano told me there was a king." "the king doesn't belong. they had to expel him. it's the stuart blood, i suppose; but really--" "too much?" "far too much." graham did not quite follow all this, but it seemed part of the general inversion of the new age. he bowed condescendingly to his first introduction. it was evident that subtle distinctions of class prevailed even in this assembly, that only to a small proportion of the guests, to an inner group, did lincoln consider it appropriate to introduce him. this first introduction was the master aeronaut, a man whose sun-tanned face contrasted oddly with the delicate complexions about him. just at present his critical defection from the council made him a very important person indeed. his manner contrasted very favourably, according to graham's ideas, with the general bearing. he offered a few commonplace remarks, assurances of loyalty and frank inquiries about the master's health. his manner was breezy, his accent lacked the easy staccato of latter-day english. he made it admirably clear to graham that he was a bluff "aerial dog"--he used that phrase--that there was no nonsense about him, that he was a thoroughly manly fellow and old-fashioned at that, that he didn't profess to know much, and that what he did not know was not worth knowing. he made a curt bow, ostentatiously free from obsequiousness, and passed. "i am glad to see that type endures," said graham. "phonographs and kinematographs," said lincoln, a little spitefully. "he has studied from the life." graham glanced at the burly form again. it was oddly reminiscent. "as a matter of fact we bought him," said lincoln. "partly. and partly he was afraid of ostrog. everything rested with him." he turned sharply to introduce the surveyor-general of the public schools. this person was a willowy figure in a blue-grey academic gown, he beamed down upon graham through _pince-nez_ of a victorian pattern, and illustrated his remarks by gestures of a beautifully manicured hand. graham was immediately interested in this gentleman's functions, and asked him a number of singularly direct questions. the surveyor-general seemed quietly amused at the master's fundamental bluntness. he was a little vague as to the monopoly of education his company possessed; it was done by contract with the syndicate that ran the numerous london municipalities, but he waxed enthusiastic over educational progress since the victorian times. "we have conquered cram," he said, "completely conquered cram--there is not an examination left in the world. aren't you glad?" "how do you get the work done?" asked graham. "we make it attractive--as attractive as possible. and if it does not attract then--we let it go. we cover an immense field." he proceeded to details, and they had a lengthy conversation. graham learnt that university extension still existed in a modified form. "there is a certain type of girl, for example," said the surveyor-general, dilating with a sense of his usefulness, "with a perfect passion for severe studies--when they are not too difficult you know. we cater for them by the thousand. at this moment," he said with a napoleonic touch, "nearly five hundred phonographs are lecturing in different parts of london on the influence exercised by plato and swift on the love affairs of shelley, hazlitt, and burns. and afterwards they write essays on the lectures, and the names in order of merit are put in conspicuous places. you see how your little germ has grown? the illiterate middle-class of your days has quite passed away." "about the public elementary schools," said graham. "do you control them?" the surveyor-general did, "entirely." now, graham, in his later democratic days, had taken a keen interest in these and his questioning quickened. certain casual phrases that had fallen from the old man with whom he had talked in the darkness recurred to him. the surveyor-general, in effect, endorsed the old man's words. "we try and make the elementary schools very pleasant for the little children. they will have to work so soon. just a few simple principles--obedience--industry." "you teach them very little?" "why should we? it only leads to trouble and discontent. we amuse them. even as it is--there are troubles--agitations. where the labourers get the ideas, one cannot tell. they tell one another. there are socialistic dreams--anarchy even! agitators _will_ get to work among them. i take it--i have always taken it--that my foremost duty is to fight against popular discontent. why should people be made unhappy?" "i wonder," said graham thoughtfully. "but there are a great many things i want to know." lincoln, who had stood watching graham's face throughout the conversation, intervened. "there are others," he said in an undertone. the surveyor-general of schools gesticulated himself away. "perhaps," said lincoln, intercepting a casual glance, "you would like to know some of these ladies?" the daughter of the manager of the piggeries was a particularly charming little person with red hair and animated blue eyes. lincoln left him awhile to converse with her, and she displayed herself as quite an enthusiast for the "dear old days," as she called them, that had seen the beginning of his trance. as she talked she smiled, and her eyes smiled in a manner that demanded reciprocity. "i have tried," she said, "countless times--to imagine those old romantic days. and to you--they are memories. how strange and crowded the world must seem to you! i have seen photographs and pictures of the past, the little isolated houses built of bricks made out of burnt mud and all black with soot from your fires, the railway bridges, the simple advertisements, the solemn savage puritanical men in strange black coats and those tall hats of theirs, iron railway trains on iron bridges overhead, horses and cattle, and even dogs running half wild about the streets. and suddenly, you have come into this!" "into this," said graham. "out of your life--out of all that was familiar." "the old life was not a happy one," said graham. "i do not regret that." she looked at him quickly. there was a brief pause. she sighed encouragingly. "no?" "no," said graham. "it was a little life--and unmeaning. but this--we thought the world complex and crowded and civilised enough. yet i see--although in this world i am barely four days old--looking back on my own time, that it was a queer, barbaric time--the mere beginning of this new order. the mere beginning of this new order. you will find it hard to understand how little i know." "you may ask me what you like," she said, smiling at him. "then tell me who these people are. i'm still very much in the dark about them. it's puzzling. are there any generals?" "men in hats and feathers?" "of course not. no. i suppose they are the men who control the great public businesses. who is that distinguished looking man?" "that? he's a most important officer. that is morden. he is managing director of the antibilious pill department. i have heard that his workers sometimes turn out a myriad myriad pills a day in the twenty-four hours. fancy a myriad myriad!" "a myriad myriad. no wonder he looks proud," said graham. "pills! what a wonderful time it is! that man in purple?" "he is not quite one of the inner circle, you know. but we like him. he is really clever and very amusing. he is one of the heads of the medical faculty of our london university. all medical men, you know, wear that purple. but, of course, people who are paid by fees for _doing_ something--" she smiled away the social pretensions of all such people. "are any of your great artists or authors here?" "no authors. they are mostly such queer people--and so preoccupied about themselves. and they quarrel so dreadfully! they will fight, some of them, for precedence on staircases! dreadful, isn't it? but i think wraysbury, the fashionable capillotomist, is here. from capri." "capillotomist," said graham. "ah! i remember. an artist! why not?" "we have to cultivate him," she said apologetically. "our heads are in his hands." she smiled. graham hesitated at the invited compliment, but his glance was expressive. "have the arts grown with the rest of civilised things?" he said. "who are your great painters?" she looked at him doubtfully. then laughed. "for a moment," she said, "i thought you meant--" she laughed again. "you mean, of course, those good men you used to think so much of because they could cover great spaces of canvas with oil-colours? great oblongs. and people used to put the things in gilt frames and hang them up in rows in their square rooms. we haven't any. people grew tired of that sort of thing." "but what did you think i meant?" she put a finger significantly on a cheek whose glow was above suspicion, and smiled and looked very arch and pretty and inviting. "and here," and she indicated her eyelid. graham had an adventurous moment. then a grotesque memory of a picture he had somewhere seen of uncle toby and the widow flashed across his mind. an archaic shame came upon him. he became acutely aware that he was visible to a great number of interested people. "i see," he remarked inadequately. he turned awkwardly away from her fascinating facility. he looked about him to meet a number of eyes that immediately occupied themselves with other things. possibly he coloured a little. "who is that talking with the lady in saffron?" he asked, avoiding her eyes. the person in question he learnt was one of the great organisers of the american theatres just fresh from a gigantic production at mexico. his face reminded graham of a bust of caligula. another striking looking man was the black labour master. the phrase at the time made no deep impression, but afterwards it recurred;--the black labour master? the little lady in no degree embarrassed, pointed out to him a charming little woman as one of the subsidiary wives of the anglican bishop of london. she added encomiums on the episcopal courage--hitherto there had been a rule of clerical monogamy--"neither a natural nor an expedient condition of things. why should the natural development of the affections be dwarfed and restricted because a man is a priest?" "and, bye the bye," she added, "are you an anglican?" graham was on the verge of hesitating inquiries about the status of a "subsidiary wife," apparently an euphemistic phrase, when lincoln's return broke off this very suggestive and interesting conversation. they crossed the aisle to where a tall man in crimson, and two charming persons in burmese costume (as it seemed to him) awaited him diffidently. from their civilities he passed to other presentations. in a little while his multitudinous impressions began to organise themselves into a general effect. at first the glitter of the gathering had raised all the democrat in graham; he had felt hostile and satirical. but it is not in human nature to resist an atmosphere of courteous regard. soon the music, the light, the play of colours, the shining arms and shoulders about him, the touch of hands, the transient interest of smiling faces, the frothing sound of skilfully modulated voices, the atmosphere of compliment, interest and respect, had woven together into a fabric of indisputable pleasure. graham for a time forgot his spacious resolutions. he gave way insensibly to the intoxication of the position that was conceded him, his manner became more convincingly regal, his feet walked assuredly, the black robe fell with a bolder fold and pride ennobled his voice. after all, this was a brilliant interesting world. he looked up and saw passing across a bridge of porcelain and looking down upon him, a face that was almost immediately hidden, the face of the girl he had seen overnight in the little room beyond the theatre after his escape from the council. and she was watching him. for the moment he did not remember when he had seen her, and then came a vague memory of the stirring emotions of their first encounter. but the dancing web of melody about him kept the air of that great marching song from his memory. the lady to whom he talked repeated her remark, and graham recalled himself to the quasi-regal flirtation upon which he was engaged. yet, unaccountably, a vague restlessness, a feeling that grew to dissatisfaction, came into his mind. he was troubled as if by some half forgotten duty, by the sense of things important slipping from him amidst this light and brilliance. the attraction that these ladies who crowded about him were beginning to exercise ceased. he no longer gave vague and clumsy responses to the subtly amorous advances that he was now assured were being made to him, and his eyes wandered for another sight of the girl of the first revolt. where, precisely, had he seen her?... graham was in one of the upper galleries in conversation with a bright-eyed lady on the subject of eadhamite--the subject was his choice and not hers. he had interrupted her warm assurances of personal devotion with a matter-of-fact inquiry. he found her, as he had already found several other latter-day women that night, less well informed than charming. suddenly, struggling against the eddying drift of nearer melody, the song of the revolt, the great song he had heard in the hall, hoarse and massive, came beating down to him. ah! now he remembered! he glanced up startled, and perceived above him an _oeil de boeuf_ through which this song had come, and beyond, the upper courses of cable, the blue haze, and the pendant fabric of the lights of the public ways. he heard the song break into a tumult of voices and cease. he perceived quite clearly the drone and tumult of the moving platforms and a murmur of many people. he had a vague persuasion that he could not account for, a sort of instinctive feeling that outside in the ways a huge crowd must be watching this place in which their master amused himself. though the song had stopped so abruptly, though the special music of this gathering reasserted itself, the _motif_ of the marching song, once it had begun, lingered in his mind. the bright-eyed lady was still struggling with the mysteries of eadhamite when he perceived the girl he had seen in the theatre again. she was coming now along the gallery towards him; he saw her first before she saw him. she was dressed in a faintly luminous grey, her dark hair about her brows was like a cloud, and as he saw her the cold light from the circular opening into the ways fell upon her downcast face. the lady in trouble about the eadhamite saw the change in his expression, and grasped her opportunity to escape. "would you care to know that girl, sire?" she asked boldly. "she is helen wotton--a niece of ostrog's. she knows a great many serious things. she is one of the most serious persons alive. i am sure you will like her." in another moment graham was talking to the girl, and the bright-eyed lady had fluttered away. "i remember you quite well," said graham. "you were in that little room. when all the people were singing and beating time with their feet. before i walked across the hall." her momentary embarrassment passed. she looked up at him, and her face was steady. "it was wonderful," she said, hesitated, and spoke with a sudden effort. "all those people would have died for you, sire. countless people did die for you that night." her face glowed. she glanced swiftly aside to see that no other heard her words. lincoln appeared some way off along the gallery, making his way through the press towards them. she saw him and turned to graham strangely eager, with a swift change to confidence and intimacy. "sire," she said quickly, "i cannot tell you now and here. but the common people are very unhappy; they are oppressed--they are misgoverned. do not forget the people, who faced death--death that you might live." "i know nothing--" began graham. "i cannot tell you now." lincoln's face appeared close to them. he bowed an apology to the girl. "you find the new world amusing, sire?" asked lincoln, with smiling deference, and indicating the space and splendour of the gathering by one comprehensive gesture. "at any rate, you find it changed." "yes," said graham, "changed. and yet, after all, not so greatly changed." "wait till you are in the air," said lincoln. "the wind has fallen; even now an aeroplane awaits you." the girl's attitude awaited dismissal. graham glanced at her face, was on the verge of a question, found a warning in her expression, bowed to her and turned to accompany lincoln. chapter xvi the monoplane the flying stages of london were collected together in an irregular crescent on the southern side of the river. they formed three groups of two each and retained the names of ancient suburban hills or villages. they were named in order, roehampton, wimbledon park, streatham, norwood, blackheath, and shooter's hill. they were uniform structures rising high above the general roof surfaces. each was about four thousand yards long and a thousand broad, and constructed of the compound of aluminum and iron that had replaced iron in architecture. their higher tiers formed an openwork of girders through which lifts and staircases ascended. the upper surface was a uniform expanse, with portions--the starting carriers--that could be raised and were then able to run on very slightly inclined rails to the end of the fabric. graham went to the flying stages by the public ways. he was accompanied by asano, his japanese attendant. lincoln was called away by ostrog, who was busy with his administrative concerns. a strong guard of the wind-vane police awaited the master outside the wind-vane offices, and they cleared a space for him on the upper moving platform. his passage to the flying stages was unexpected, nevertheless a considerable crowd gathered and followed him to his destination. as he went along, he could hear the people shouting his name, and saw numberless men and women and children in blue come swarming up the staircases in the central path, gesticulating and shouting. he could not hear what they shouted. he was struck again by the evident existence of a vulgar dialect among the poor of the city. when at last he descended, his guards were immediately surrounded by a dense excited crowd. afterwards it occurred to him that some had attempted to reach him with petitions. his guards cleared a passage for him with difficulty. he found a monoplane in charge of an aeronaut awaiting him on the westward stage. seen close this mechanism was no longer small. as it lay on its launching carrier upon the wide expanse of the flying stage, its aluminum body skeleton was as big as the hull of a twenty-ton yacht. its lateral supporting sails braced and stayed with metal nerves almost like the nerves of a bee's wing, and made of some sort of glassy artificial membrane, cast their shadow over many hundreds of square yards. the chairs for the engineer and his passenger hung free to swing by a complex tackle, within the protecting ribs of the frame and well abaft the middle. the passenger's chair was protected by a wind-guard and guarded about with metallic rods carrying air cushions. it could, if desired, be completely closed in, but graham was anxious for novel experiences, and desired that it should be left open. the aeronaut sat behind a glass that sheltered his face. the passenger could secure himself firmly in his seat, and this was almost unavoidable on landing, or he could move along by means of a little rail and rod to a locker at the stem of the machine, where his personal luggage, his wraps and restoratives were placed, and which also with the seats, served as a makeweight to the parts of the central engine that projected to the propeller at the stern. the flying stage about him was empty save for asano and their suite of attendants. directed by the aeronaut he placed himself in his seat. asano stepped through the bars of the hull, and stood below on the stage waving his hand. he seemed to slide along the stage to the right and vanish. the engine was humming loudly, the propeller spinning, and for a second the stage and the buildings beyond were gliding swiftly and horizontally past graham's eye; then these things seemed to tilt up abruptly. he gripped the little rods on either side of him instinctively. he felt himself moving upward, heard the air whistle over the top of the wind screen. the propeller screw moved round with powerful rhythmic impulses--one, two, three, pause; one, two, three--which the engineer controlled very delicately. the machine began a quivering vibration that continued throughout the flight, and the roof areas seemed running away to starboard very quickly and growing rapidly smaller. he looked from the face of the engineer through the ribs of the machine. looking sideways, there was nothing very startling in what he saw--a rapid funicular railway might have given the same sensations. he recognised the council house and the highgate ridge. and then he looked straight down between his feet. for a moment physical terror possessed him, a passionate sense of insecurity. he held tight. for a second or so he could not lift his eyes. some hundred feet or more sheer below him was one of the big wind-vanes of south-west london, and beyond it the southernmost flying stage crowded with little black dots. these things seemed to be falling away from him. for a second he had an impulse to pursue the earth. he set his teeth, he lifted his eyes by a muscular effort, and the moment of panic passed. he remained for a space with his teeth set hard, his eyes staring into the sky. throb, throb, throb--beat, went the engine; throb, throb, throb--beat. he gripped his bars tightly, glanced at the aeronaut, and saw a smile upon his sun-tanned face. he smiled in return--perhaps a little artificially. "a little strange at first," he shouted before he recalled his dignity. but he dared not look down again for some time. he stared over the aeronaut's head to where a rim of vague blue horizon crept up the sky. for a little while he could not banish the thought of possible accidents from his mind. throb, throb, throb--beat; suppose some trivial screw went wrong in that supporting engine! suppose--! he made a grim effort to dismiss all such suppositions. after a while they did at least abandon the foreground of his thoughts. and up he went steadily, higher and higher into the clear air. once the mental shock of moving unsupported through the air was over, his sensations ceased to be unpleasant, became very speedily pleasurable. he had been warned of air sickness. but he found the pulsating movement of the monoplane as it drove up the faint south-west breeze was very little in excess of the pitching of a boat head on to broad rollers in a moderate gale, and he was constitutionally a good sailor. and the keenness of the more rarefied air into which they ascended produced a sense of lightness and exhilaration. he looked up and saw the blue sky above fretted with cirrus clouds. his eye came cautiously down through the ribs and bars to a shining flight of white birds that hung in the lower sky. for a space he watched these. then going lower and less apprehensively, he saw the slender figure of the wind-vane keeper's crow's nest shining golden in the sunlight and growing smaller every moment. as his eye fell with more confidence now, there came a blue line of hills, and then london, already to leeward, an intricate space of roofing. its near edge came sharp and clear, and banished his last apprehensions in a shock of surprise. for the boundary of london was like a wall, like a cliff, a steep fall of three or four hundred feet, a frontage broken only by terraces here and there, a complex decorative façade. that gradual passage of town into country through an extensive sponge of suburbs, which was so characteristic a feature of the great cities of the nineteenth century, existed no longer. nothing remained of it here but a waste of ruins, variegated and dense with thickets of the heterogeneous growths that had once adorned the gardens of the belt, interspersed among levelled brown patches of sown ground, and verdant stretches of winter greens. the latter even spread among the vestiges of houses. but for the most part the reefs and skerries of ruins, the wreckage of suburban villas, stood among their streets and roads, queer islands amidst the levelled expanses of green and brown, abandoned indeed by the inhabitants years since, but too substantial, it seemed, to be cleared out of the way of the wholesale horticultural mechanisms of the time. the vegetation of this waste undulated and frothed amidst the countless cells of crumbling house walls, and broke along the foot of the city wall in a surf of bramble and holly and ivy and teazle and tall grasses. here and there gaudy pleasure palaces towered amidst the puny remains of victorian times, and cable ways slanted to them from the city. that winter day they seemed deserted. deserted, too, were the artificial gardens among the ruins. the city limits were indeed as sharply defined as in the ancient days when the gates were shut at nightfall and the robber foeman prowled to the very walls. a huge semi-circular throat poured out a vigorous traffic upon the eadhamite bath road. so the first prospect of the world beyond the city flashed on graham, and dwindled. and when at last he could look vertically downward again, he saw below him the vegetable fields of the thames valley--innumerable minute oblongs of ruddy brown, intersected by shining threads, the sewage ditches. his exhilaration increased rapidly, became a sort of intoxication. he found himself drawing deep breaths of air, laughing aloud, desiring to shout. after a time that desire became too strong for him, and he shouted. they curved about towards the south. they drove with a slight list to leeward, and with a slow alternation of movement, first a short, sharp ascent and then a long downward glide that was very swift and pleasing. during these downward glides the propeller was inactive altogether. these ascents gave graham a glorious sense of successful effort; the descents through the rarefied air were beyond all experience. he wanted never to leave the upper air again. for a time he was intent upon the landscape that ran swiftly northward beneath him. its minute, clear detail pleased him exceedingly. he was impressed by the ruin of the houses that had once dotted the country, by the vast treeless expanse of country from which all farms and villages had gone, save for crumbling ruins. he had known the thing was so, but seeing it so was an altogether different matter. he tried to make out familiar places within the hollow basin of the world below, but at first he could distinguish no data now that the thames valley was left behind. soon, however, they were driving over a sharp chalk hill that he recognised as the guildford hog's back, because of the familiar outline of the gorge at its eastward end, and because of the ruins of the town that rose steeply on either lip of this gorge. and from that he made out other points, leith hill, the sandy wastes of aldershot, and so forth. save where the broad eadhamite portsmouth road, thickly dotted with rushing shapes, followed the course of the old railway, the gorge of the wey was choked with thickets. the whole expanse of the downs escarpment, so far as the grey haze permitted him to see, was set with wind-wheels to which the largest of the city was but a younger brother. they stirred with a stately motion before the south-west wind. and here and there were patches dotted with the sheep of the british food trust, and here and there a mounted shepherd made a spot of black. then rushing under the stern of the monoplane came the wealden heights, the line of hindhead, pitch hill, and leith hill, with a second row of wind-wheels that seemed striving to rob the downland whirlers of their share of breeze. the purple heather was speckled with yellow gorse, and on the further side a drove of black oxen stampeded before a couple of mounted men. swiftly these swept behind, and dwindled and lost colour, and became scarce moving specks that were swallowed up in haze. and when these had vanished in the distance graham heard a peewit wailing close at hand. he perceived he was now above the south downs, and staring over his shoulder saw the battlements of portsmouth landing stage towering over the ridge of portsdown hill. in another moment there came into sight a spread of shipping like floating cities, the little white cliffs of the needles dwarfed and sunlit, and the grey and glittering waters of the narrow sea. they seemed to leap the solent in a moment, and in a few seconds the isle of wight was running past, and then beneath him spread a wider and wider extent of sea, here purple with the shadow of a cloud, here grey, here a burnished mirror, and here a spread of cloudy greenish blue. the isle of wight grew smaller and smaller. in a few more minutes a strip of grey haze detached itself from other strips that were clouds, descended out of the sky and became a coast-line--sunlit and pleasant--the coast of northern france. it rose, it took colour, became definite and detailed, and the counterpart of the downland of england was speeding by below. in a little time, as it seemed, paris came above the horizon, and hung there for a space, and sank out of sight again as the monoplane circled about to the north. but he perceived the eiffel tower still standing, and beside it a huge dome surmounted by a pin-point colossus. and he perceived, too, though he did not understand it at the time, a slanting drift of smoke. the aeronaut said something about "trouble in the under-ways," that graham did not heed. but he marked the minarets and towers and slender masses that streamed skyward above the city wind-vanes, and knew that in the matter of grace at least paris still kept in front of her larger rival. and even as he looked a pale blue shape ascended very swiftly from the city like a dead leaf driving up before a gale. it curved round and soared towards them, growing rapidly larger and larger. the aeronaut was saying something. "what?" said graham, loth to take his eyes from this. "london aeroplane, sire," bawled the aeronaut, pointing. they rose and curved about northward as it drew nearer. nearer it came and nearer, larger and larger. the throb, throb, throb--beat, of the monoplane's flight, that had seemed so potent, and so swift, suddenly appeared slow by comparison with this tremendous rush. how great the monster seemed, how swift and steady! it passed quite closely beneath them, driving along silently, a vast spread of wire-netted translucent wings, a thing alive. graham had a momentary glimpse of the rows and rows of wrapped-up passengers, slung in their little cradles behind wind-screens, of a white-clothed engineer crawling against the gale along a ladder way, of spouting engines beating together, of the whirling wind screw, and of a wide waste of wing. he exulted in the sight. and in an instant the thing had passed. it rose slightly and their own little wings swayed in the rush of its flight. it fell and grew smaller. scarcely had they moved, as it seemed, before it was again only a flat blue thing that dwindled in the sky. this was the aeroplane that went to and fro between london and paris. in fair weather and in peaceful times it came and went four times a day. they beat across the channel, slowly as it seemed now to graham's enlarged ideas, and beachy head rose greyly to the left of them. "land," called the aeronaut, his voice small against the whistling of the air over the wind-screen. "not yet," bawled graham, laughing. "not land yet. i want to learn more of this machine." "i meant--" said the aeronaut. "i want to learn more of this machine," repeated graham. "i'm coming to you," he said, and had flung himself free of his chair and taken a step along the guarded rail between them. he stopped for a moment, and his colour changed and his hands tightened. another step and he was clinging close to the aeronaut. he felt a weight on his shoulder, the pressure of the air. his hat was a whirling speck behind. the wind came in gusts over his wind-screen and blew his hair in streamers past his cheek. the aeronaut made some hasty adjustments for the shifting of the centres of gravity and pressure. "i want to have these things explained," said graham. "what do you do when you move that engine forward?" the aeronaut hesitated. then he answered, "they are complex, sire." "i don't mind," shouted graham. "i don't mind." there was a moment's pause. "aeronautics is the secret--the privilege--" "i know. but i'm the master, and i mean to know." he laughed, full of this novel realisation of power that was his gift from the upper air. the monoplane curved about, and the keen fresh wind cut across graham's face and his garment lugged at his body as the stem pointed round to the west. the two men looked into each other's eyes. "sire, there are rules--" "not where i am concerned," said graham, "you seem to forget." the aeronaut scrutinised his face "no," he said. "i do not forget, sire. but in all the earth--no man who is not a sworn aeronaut--has ever a chance. they come as passengers--" "i have heard something of the sort. but i'm not going to argue these points. do you know why i have slept two hundred years? to fly!" "sire," said the aeronaut, "the rules--if i break the rules--" graham waved the penalties aside. "then if you will watch me--" "no," said graham, swaying and gripping tight as the machine lifted its nose again for an ascent. "that's not my game. i want to do it myself. do it myself if i smash for it! no! i will. see i am going to clamber by this--to come and share your seat. steady! i mean to fly of my own accord if i smash at the end of it. i will have something to pay for my sleep. of all other things--. in my past it was my dream to fly. now--keep your balance." "a dozen spies are watching me, sire!" graham's temper was at end. perhaps he chose it should be. he swore. he swung himself round the intervening mass of levers and the monoplane swayed. "am i master of the earth?" he said. "or is your society? now. take your hands off those levers, and hold my wrists. yes--so. and now, how do we turn her nose down to the glide?" "sire," said the aeronaut. "what is it?" "you will protect me?" "lord! yes! if i have to burn london. now!" and with that promise graham bought his first lesson in aerial navigation. "it's clearly to your advantage, this journey," he said with a loud laugh--for the air was like strong wine--"to teach me quickly and well. do i pull this? ah! so! hullo!" "back, sire! back!" "back--right. one--two--three--good god! ah! up she goes! but this is living!" and now the machine began to dance the strangest figures in the air. now it would sweep round a spiral of scarcely a hundred yards diameter, now rush up into the air and swoop down again, steeply, swiftly, falling like a hawk, to recover in a rushing loop that swept it high again. in one of these descents it seemed driving straight at the drifting park of balloons in the southeast, and only curved about and cleared them by a sudden recovery of dexterity. the extraordinary swiftness and smoothness of the motion, the extraordinary effect of the rarefied air upon his constitution, threw graham into a careless fury. but at last a queer incident came to sober him, to send him flying down once more to the crowded life below with all its dark insoluble riddles. as he swooped, came a tap and something flying past, and a drop like a drop of rain. then as he went on down he saw something like a white rag whirling down in his wake. "what was that?" he asked. "i did not see." the aeronaut glanced, and then clutched at the lever to recover, for they were sweeping down. when the monoplane was rising again he drew a deep breath and replied, "that," and he indicated the white thing still fluttering down, "was a swan." "i never saw it," said graham. the aeronaut made no answer, and graham saw little drops upon his forehead. they drove horizontally while graham clambered back to the passenger's place out of the lash of the wind. and then came a swift rush down, with the wind-screw whirling to check their fall, and the flying stage growing broad and dark before them. the sun, sinking over the chalk hills in the west, fell with them, and left the sky a blaze of gold. soon men could be seen as little specks. he heard a noise coming up to meet him, a noise like the sound of waves upon a pebbly beach, and saw that the roofs about the flying stage were dense with his people rejoicing over his safe return. a black mass was crushed together under the stage, a darkness stippled with innumerable faces, and quivering with the minute oscillation of waved white handkerchiefs and waving hands. chapter xvii three days lincoln awaited graham in an apartment beneath the flying stages. he seemed curious to learn all that had happened, pleased to hear of the extraordinary delight and interest which graham took in flying. graham was in a mood of enthusiasm. "i must learn to fly," he cried. "i must master that. i pity all poor souls who have died without this opportunity. the sweet swift air! it is the most wonderful experience in the world." "you will find our new times full of wonderful experiences," said lincoln. "i do not know what you will care to do now. we have music that may seem novel." "for the present," said graham, "flying holds me. let me learn more of that. your aeronaut was saying there is some trades union objection to one's learning." "there is, i believe," said lincoln. "but for you--! if you would like to occupy yourself with that, we can make you a sworn aeronaut to-morrow." graham expressed his wishes vividly and talked of his sensations for a while. "and as for affairs," he asked abruptly. "how are things going on?" lincoln waved affairs aside. "ostrog will tell you that to-morrow," he said. "everything is settling down. the revolution accomplishes itself all over the world. friction is inevitable here and there, of course; but your rule is assured. you may rest secure with things in ostrog's hands." "would it be possible for me to be made a sworn aeronaut, as you call it, forthwith--before i sleep?" said graham, pacing. "then i could be at it the very first thing to-morrow again...." "it would be possible," said lincoln thoughtfully. "quite possible. indeed, it shall be done." he laughed. "i came prepared to suggest amusements, but you have found one for yourself. i will telephone to the aeronautical offices from here and we will return to your apartments in the wind-vane control. by the time you have dined the aeronauts will be able to come. you don't think that after you have dined you might prefer--?" he paused. "yes," said graham. "we had prepared a show of dancers--they have been brought from the capri theatre." "i hate ballets," said graham, shortly. "always did. that other--. that's not what i want to see. we had dancers in the old days. for the matter of that, they had them in ancient egypt. but flying--" "true," said lincoln. "though our dancers--" "they can afford to wait," said graham; "they can afford to wait. i know. i'm not a latin. there's questions i want to ask some expert--about your machinery. i'm keen. i want no distractions." "you have the world to choose from," said lincoln; "whatever you want is yours." asano appeared, and under the escort of a strong guard they returned through the city streets to graham's apartments. far larger crowds had assembled to witness his return than his departure had gathered, and the shouts and cheering of these masses of people sometimes drowned lincoln's answers to the endless questions graham's aerial journey had suggested. at first graham had acknowledged the cheering and cries of the crowd by bows and gestures, but lincoln warned him that such a recognition would be considered incorrect behaviour. graham, already a little wearied by rhythmic civilities, ignored his subjects for the remainder of his public progress. directly they arrived at his apartments asano departed in search of kinematographic renderings of machinery in motion, and lincoln despatched graham's commands for models of machines and small machines to illustrate the various mechanical advances of the last two centuries. the little group of appliances for telegraphic communication attracted the master so strongly that his delightfully prepared dinner, served by a number of charmingly dexterous girls, waited for a space. the habit of smoking had almost ceased from the face of the earth, but when he expressed a wish for that indulgence, enquiries were made and some excellent cigars were discovered in florida, and sent to him by pneumatic despatch while the dinner was still in progress. afterwards came the aeronauts, and a feast of ingenious wonders in the hands of a latter-day engineer. for the time, at any rate, the neat dexterity of counting and numbering machines, building machines, spinning engines, patent doorways, explosive motors, grain and water elevators, slaughter-house machines and harvesting appliances, was more fascinating to graham than any bayadère. "we were savages," was his refrain, "we were savages. we were in the stone age--compared with this.... and what else have you?" there came also practical psychologists with some very interesting developments in the art of hypnotism. the names of milne bramwell, fechner, liebault, william james, myers and gurney, he found, bore a value now that would have astonished their contemporaries. several practical applications of psychology were now in general use; it had largely superseded drugs, antiseptics and anesthetics in medicine; was employed by almost all who had any need of mental concentration. a real enlargement of human faculty seemed to have been effected in this direction. the feats of "calculating boys," the wonders, as graham had been wont to regard them, of mesmerisers, were now within the range of anyone who could afford the services of a skilled hypnotist. long ago the old examination methods in education had been destroyed by these expedients. instead of years of study, candidates had substituted a few weeks of trances, and during the trances expert coaches had simply to repeat all the points necessary for adequate answering, adding a suggestion of the post-hypnotic recollection of these points. in process mathematics particularly, this aid had been of singular service, and it was now invariably invoked by such players of chess and games of manual dexterity as were still to be found. in fact, all operations conducted under finite rules, of a quasi-mechanical sort that is, were now systematically relieved from the wanderings of imagination and emotion, and brought to an unexampled pitch of accuracy. little children of the labouring classes, so soon as they were of sufficient age to be hypnotised, were thus converted into beautifully punctual and trustworthy machine minders, and released forthwith from the long, long thoughts of youth. aeronautical pupils, who gave way to giddiness, could be relieved from their imaginary terrors. in every street were hypnotists ready to print permanent memories upon the mind. if anyone desired to remember a name, a series of numbers, a song or a speech, it could be done by this method, and conversely memories could be effaced, habits removed, and desires eradicated--a sort of psychic surgery was, in fact, in general use. indignities, humbling experiences, were thus forgotten, widows would obliterate their previous husbands, angry lovers release themselves from their slavery. to graft desires, however, was still impossible, and the facts of thought transference were yet unsystematised. the psychologists illustrated their expositions with some astounding experiments in mnemonics made through the agency of a troupe of pale-faced children in blue. graham, like most of the people of his former time, distrusted the hypnotist, or he might then and there have eased his mind of many painful preoccupations. but in spite of lincoln's assurances he held to the old theory that to be hypnotised was in some way the surrender of his personality, the abdication of his will. at the banquet of wonderful experiences that was beginning, he wanted very keenly to remain absolutely himself. the next day, and another day, and yet another day passed in such interests as these. each day graham spent many hours in the glorious entertainment of flying. on the third, he soared across middle france, and within sight of the snow-clad alps. these vigorous exercises gave him restful sleep; he recovered almost wholly from the spiritless anemia of his first awakening. and whenever he was not in the air, and awake, lincoln was assiduous in the cause of his amusement; all that was novel and curious in contemporary invention was brought to him, until at last his appetite for novelty was well-nigh glutted. one might fill a dozen inconsecutive volumes with the strange things they exhibited. each afternoon he held his court for an hour or so. he found his interest in his contemporaries becoming personal and intimate. at first he had been alert chiefly for unfamiliarity and peculiarity; any foppishness in their dress, any discordance with his preconceptions of nobility in their status and manners had jarred upon him, and it was remarkable to him how soon that strangeness and the faint hostility that arose from it, disappeared; how soon he came to appreciate the true perspective of his position, and see the old victorian days remote and quaint. he found himself particularly amused by the red-haired daughter of the manager of the european piggeries. on the second day after dinner he made the acquaintance of a latter-day dancing girl, and found her an astonishing artist. and after that, more hypnotic wonders. on the third day lincoln was moved to suggest that the master should repair to a pleasure city, but this graham declined, nor would he accept the services of the hypnotists in his aeronautical experiments. the link of locality held him to london; he found a delight in topographical identifications that he would have missed abroad. "here--or a hundred feet below here," he could say, "i used to eat my midday cutlets during my london university days. underneath here was waterloo and the tiresome hunt for confusing trains. often have i stood waiting down there, bag in hand, and stared up into the sky above the forest of signals, little thinking i should walk some day a hundred yards in the air. and now in that very sky that was once a grey smoke canopy, i circle in a monoplane." during those three days graham was so occupied with these distractions that the vast political movements in progress outside his quarters had but a small share of his attention. those about him told him little. daily came ostrog, the boss, his grand vizier, his mayor of the palace, to report in vague terms the steady establishment of his rule; "a little trouble" soon to be settled in this city, "a slight disturbance" in that. the song of the social revolt came to him no more; he never learned that it had been forbidden in the municipal limits; and all the great emotions of the crow's nest slumbered in his mind. but on the second and third of the three days he found himself, in spite of his interest in the daughter of the pig manager, or it may be by reason of the thoughts her conversation suggested, remembering the girl helen wotton, who had spoken to him so oddly at the wind-vane keeper's gathering. the impression, she had made was a deep one, albeit the incessant surprise of novel circumstances had kept him from brooding upon it for a space. but now her memory was coming to its own. he wondered what she had meant by those broken half-forgotten sentences; the picture of her eyes and the earnest passion of her face became more vivid as his mechanical interests faded. her slender beauty came compellingly between him and certain immediate temptations of ignoble passion. but he did not see her again until three full days were past. chapter xviii graham remembers she came upon him at last in a little gallery that ran from the wind-vane offices toward his state apartments. the gallery was long and narrow, with a series of recesses, each with an arched fenestration that looked upon a court of palms. he came upon her suddenly in one of these recesses. she was seated. she turned her head at the sound of his footsteps and started at the sight of him. every touch of colour vanished from her face. she rose instantly, made a step toward him as if to address him, and hesitated. he stopped and stood still, expectant. then he perceived that a nervous tumult silenced her, perceived, too, that she must have sought speech with him to be waiting for him in this place. he felt a regal impulse to assist her. "i have wanted to see you," he said. "a few days ago you wanted to tell me something--you wanted to tell me of the people. what was it you had to tell me?" she looked at him with troubled eyes. "you said the people were unhappy?" for a moment she was silent still. "it must have seemed strange to you," she said abruptly. "it did. and yet--" "it was an impulse." "well?" "that is all." she looked at him with a face of hesitation. she spoke with an effort. "you forget," she said, drawing a deep breath. "what?" "the people--" "do you mean--?" "you forget the people." he looked interrogative. "yes. i know you are surprised. for you do not understand what you are. you do not know the things that are happening." "well?" "you do not understand." "not clearly, perhaps. but--tell me." she turned to him with sudden resolution. "it is so hard to explain. i have meant to, i have wanted to. and now--i cannot. i am not ready with words. but about you--there is something. it is wonder. your sleep--your awakening. these things are miracles. to me at least--and to all the common people. you who lived and suffered and died, you who were a common citizen, wake again, live again, to find yourself master almost of the earth." "master of the earth," he said. "so they tell me. but try and imagine how little i know of it." "cities--trusts--the labour department--" "principalities, powers, dominions--the power and the glory. yes, i have heard them shout. i know. i am master. king, if you wish. with ostrog, the boss--" he paused. she turned upon him and surveyed his face with a curious scrutiny. "well?" he smiled. "to take the responsibility." "that is what we have begun to fear." for a moment she said no more. "no," she said slowly. "_you_ will take the responsibility. you will take the responsibility. the people look to you." she spoke softly. "listen! for at least half the years of your sleep--in every generation--multitudes of people, in every generation greater multitudes of people, have prayed that you might awake--_prayed_." graham moved to speak and did not. she hesitated, and a faint colour crept back to her cheek. "do you know that you have been to myriads--king arthur, barbarossa--the king who would come in his own good time and put the world right for them?" "i suppose the imagination of the people--" "have you not heard our proverb, 'when the sleeper wakes'? while you lay insensible and motionless there--thousands came. thousands. every first of the month you lay in state with a white robe upon you and the people filed by you. when i was a little girl i saw you like that, with your face white and calm." she turned her face from him and looked steadfastly at the painted wall before her. her voice fell. "when i was a little girl i used to look at your face.... it seemed to me fixed and waiting, like the patience of god." "that is what we thought of you," she said. "that is how you seemed to us." she turned shining eyes to him, her voice was clear and strong. "in the city, in the earth, a myriad myriad men and women are waiting to see what you will do, full of strange incredible expectations." "yes?" "ostrog--no one--can take that responsibility." graham looked at her in surprise, at her face lit with emotion. she seemed at first to have spoken with an effort, and to have fired herself by speaking. "do you think," she said, "that you who have lived that little life so far away in the past, you who have fallen into and risen out of this miracle of sleep--do you think that the wonder and reverence and hope of half the world has gathered about you only that you may live another little life?... that you may shift the responsibility to any other man?" "i know how great this kingship of mine is," he said haltingly. "i know how great it seems. but is it real? it is incredible--dreamlike. is it real, or is it only a great delusion?" "it is real," she said; "if you dare." "after all, like all kingship, my kingship is belief. it is an illusion in the minds of men." "if you dare!" she said. "but--" "countless men," she said, "and while it is in their minds--they will obey." "but i know nothing. that is what i had in mind. i know nothing. and these others--the councillors, ostrog. they are wiser, cooler, they know so much, every detail. and, indeed, what are these miseries of which you speak? what am i to know? do you mean--" he stopped blankly. "i am still hardly more than a girl," she said. "but to me the world seems full of wretchedness. the world has altered since your day, altered very strangely. i have prayed that i might see you and tell you these things. the world has changed. as if a canker had seized it--and robbed life of--everything worth having." she turned a flushed face upon him, moving suddenly. "your days were the days of freedom. yes--i have thought. i have been made to think, for my life--has not been happy. men are no longer free--no greater, no better than the men of your time. that is not all. this city--is a prison. every city now is a prison. mammon grips the key in his hand. myriads, countless myriads, toil from the cradle to the grave. is that right? is that to be--for ever? yes, far worse than in your time. all about us, beneath us, sorrow and pain. all the shallow delight of such life as you find about you, is separated by just a little from a life of wretchedness beyond any telling. yes, the poor know it--they know they suffer. these countless multitudes who faced death for you two nights since--! you owe your life to them." "yes," said graham, slowly. "yes. i owe my life to them." "you come," she said, "from the days when this new tyranny of the cities was scarcely beginning. it is a tyranny--a tyranny. in your days the feudal war lords had gone, and the new lordship of wealth had still to come. half the men in the world still lived out upon the free countryside. the cities had still to devour them. i have heard the stories out of the old books--there was nobility! common men led lives of love and faithfulness then--they did a thousand things. and you--you come from that time." "it was not--. but never mind. how is it now--?" "gain and the pleasure cities! or slavery--unthanked, unhonoured, slavery." "slavery!" he said. "slavery." "you don't mean to say that human beings are chattels." "worse. that is what i want you to know, what i want you to see. i know you do not know. they will keep things from you, they will take you presently to a pleasure city. but you have noticed men and women and children in pale blue canvas, with thin yellow faces and dull eyes?" "everywhere." "speaking a horrible dialect, coarse and weak." "i have heard it." "they are the slaves--your slaves. they are the slaves of the labour department you own." "the labour department! in some way--that is familiar. ah! now i remember. i saw it when i was wandering about the city, after the lights returned, great fronts of buildings coloured pale blue. do you really mean--?" "yes. how can i explain it to you? of course the blue uniform struck you. nearly a third of our people wear it--more assume it now every day. this labour department has grown imperceptibly." "what _is_ this labour department?" asked graham. "in the old times, how did you manage with starving people?" "there was the workhouse--which the parishes maintained." "workhouse! yes--there was something. in our history lessons. i remember now. the labour department ousted the workhouse. it grew--partly--out of something--you, perhaps, may remember it--an emotional religious organisation called the salvation army--that became a business company. in the first place it was almost a charity. to save people from workhouse rigours. there had been a great agitation against the workhouse. now i come to think of it, it was one of the earliest properties your trustees acquired. they bought the salvation army and reconstructed it as this. the idea in the first place was to organise the labour of starving homeless people." "yes." "nowadays there are no workhouses, no refuges and charities, nothing but that department. its offices are everywhere. that blue is its colour. and any man, woman or child who comes to be hungry and weary and with neither home nor friend nor resort, must go to the department in the end--or seek some way of death. the euthanasy is beyond their means--for the poor there is no easy death. and at any hour in the day or night there is food, shelter and a blue uniform for all comers--that is the first condition of the department's incorporation--and in return for a day's shelter the department extracts a day's work, and then returns the visitor's proper clothing and sends him or her out again." "yes?" "perhaps that does not seem so terrible to you. in your time men starved in your streets. that was bad. but they died--_men_. these people in blue--. the proverb runs: 'blue canvas once and ever.' the department trades in their labour, and it has taken care to assure itself of the supply. people come to it starving and helpless--they eat and sleep for a night and day, they work for a day, and at the end of the day they go out again. if they have worked well they have a penny or so--enough for a theatre or a cheap dancing place, or a kinematograph story, or a dinner or a bet. they wander about after that is spent. begging is prevented by the police of the ways. besides, no one gives. they come back again the next day or the day after--brought back by the same incapacity that brought them first. at last their proper clothing wears out, or their rags get so shabby that they are ashamed. then they must work for months to get fresh. if they want fresh. a great number of children are born under the department's care. the mother owes them a month thereafter--the children they cherish and educate until they are fourteen, and they pay two years' service. you may be sure these children are educated for the blue canvas. and so it is the department works." "and none are destitute in the city?" "none. they are either in blue canvas or in prison. we have abolished destitution. it is engraved upon the department's checks." "if they will not work?" "most people will work at that pitch, and the department has powers. there are stages of unpleasantness in the work--stoppage of food--and a man or woman who has refused to work once is known by a thumb-marking system in the department's offices all over the world. besides, who can leave the city poor? to go to paris costs two lions. and for insubordination there are the prisons--dark and miserable--out of sight below. there are prisons now for many things." "and a third of the people wear this blue canvas?" "more than a third. toilers, living without pride or delight or hope, with the stories of pleasure cities ringing in their ears, mocking their shameful lives, their privations and hardships. too poor even for the euthanasy, the rich man's refuge from life. dumb, crippled millions, countless millions, all the world about, ignorant of anything but limitations and unsatisfied desires. they are born, they are thwarted and they die. that is the state to which we have come." for a space graham sat downcast. "but there has been a revolution," he said. "all these things will be changed. ostrog--" "that is our hope. that is the hope of the world. but ostrog will not do it. he is a politician. to him it seems things must be like this. he does not mind. he takes it for granted. all the rich, all the influential, all who are happy, come at last to take these miseries for granted. they use the people in their politics, they live in ease by their degradation. but you--you who come from a happier age--it is to you the people look. to you." he looked at her face. her eyes were bright with unshed tears. he felt a rush of emotion. for a moment he forgot this city, he forgot the race, and all those vague remote voices, in the immediate humanity of her beauty. "but what am i to do?" he said with his eyes upon her. "rule," she answered, bending towards him and speaking in a low tone. "rule the world as it has never been ruled, for the good and happiness of men. for you might rule it--you could rule it. "the people are stirring. all over the world the people are stirring. it wants but a word--but a word from you--to bring them all together. even the middle sort of people are restless--unhappy. "they are not telling you the things that are happening. the people will not go back to their drudgery--they refuse to be disarmed. ostrog has awakened something greater than he dreamt of--he has awakened hopes." his heart was beating fast. he tried to seem judicial, to weigh considerations. "they only want their leader," she said. "and then?" "you could do what you would;--the world is yours." he sat, no longer regarding her. presently he spoke. "the old dreams, and the thing i have dreamt, liberty, happiness. are they dreams? could one man--_one man_--?" his voice sank and ceased. "not one man, but all men--give them only a leader to speak the desire of their hearts." he shook his head, and for a time there was silence. he looked up suddenly, and their eyes met. "i have not your faith," he said, "i have not your youth. i am here with power that mocks me. no--let me speak. i want to do--not right--i have not the strength for that--but something rather right than wrong. it will bring no millennium, but i am resolved now, that i will rule. what you have said has awakened me... you are right. ostrog must know his place. and i will learn--.... one thing i promise you. this labour slavery shall end." "and you will rule?" "yes. provided--. there is one thing." "yes?" "that you will help me." "_i_--a girl!" "yes. does it not occur to you i am absolutely alone?" she started and for an instant her eyes had pity. "need you ask whether i will help you?" she said. there came a tense silence, and then the beating of a clock striking the hour. graham rose. "even now," he said, "ostrog will be waiting." he hesitated, facing her. "when i have asked him certain questions--. there is much i do not know. it may be, that i will go to see with my own eyes the things of which you have spoken. and when i return--?" "i shall know of your going and coming. i will wait for you here again." they regarded one another steadfastly, questioningly, and then he turned from her towards the wind-vane office. chapter xix ostrog's point of view graham found ostrog waiting to give a formal account of his day's stewardship. on previous occasions he had passed over this ceremony as speedily as possible, in order to resume his aerial experiences, but now he began to ask quick short questions. he was very anxious to take up his empire forthwith. ostrog brought flattering reports of the development of affairs abroad. in paris and berlin, graham perceived that he was saying, there had been trouble, not organised resistance indeed, but insubordinate proceedings. "after all these years," said ostrog, when graham pressed enquiries; "the commune has lifted its head again. that is the real nature of the struggle, to be explicit." but order had been restored in these cities. graham, the more deliberately judicial for the stirring emotions he felt, asked if there had been any fighting. "a little," said ostrog. "in one quarter only. but the senegalese division of our african agricultural police--the consolidated african companies have a very well drilled police--was ready, and so were the aeroplanes. we expected a little trouble in the continental cities, and in america. but things are very quiet in america. they are satisfied with the overthrow of the council. for the time." "why should you expect trouble?" asked graham abruptly. "there is a lot of discontent--social discontent." "the labour department?" "you are learning," said ostrog with a touch of surprise. "yes. it is chiefly the discontent with the labour department. it was that discontent supplied the motive force of this overthrow--that and your awakening." "yes?" ostrog smiled. he became explicit. "we had to stir up their discontent, we had to revive the old ideals of universal happiness--all men equal--all men happy--no luxury that everyone may not share--ideas that have slumbered for two hundred years. you know that? we had to revive these ideals, impossible as they are--in order to overthrow the council. and now--" "well?" "our revolution is accomplished, and the council is overthrown, and people whom we have stirred up--remain surging. there was scarcely enough fighting.... we made promises, of course. it is extraordinary how violently and rapidly this vague out-of-date humanitarianism has revived and spread. we who sowed the seed even, have been astonished. in paris, as i say--we have had to call in a little external help." "and here?" "there is trouble. multitudes will not go back to work. there is a general strike. half the factories are empty and the people are swarming in the ways. they are talking of a commune. men in silk and satin have been insulted in the streets. the blue canvas is expecting all sorts of things from you.... of course there is no need for you to trouble. we are setting the babble machines to work with counter suggestions in the cause of law and order. we must keep the grip tight; that is all." graham thought. he perceived a way of asserting himself. but he spoke with restraint. "even to the pitch of bringing a negro police," he said. "they are useful," said ostrog. "they are fine loyal brutes, with no wash of ideas in their heads--such as our rabble has. the council should have had them as police of the ways, and things might have been different. of course, there is nothing to fear except rioting and wreckage. you can manage your own wings now, and you can soar away to capri if there is any smoke or fuss. we have the pull of all the great things; the aeronauts are privileged and rich, the closest trades union in the world, and so are the engineers of the wind-vanes. we have the air, and the mastery of the air is the mastery of the earth. no one of any ability is organising against us. they have no leaders--only the sectional leaders of the secret society we organised before your very opportune awakening. mere busybodies and sentimentalists they are and bitterly jealous of each other. none of them is man enough for a central figure. the only trouble will be a disorganised upheaval. to be frank--that may happen. but it won't interrupt your aeronautics. the days when the people could make revolutions are past." "i suppose they are," said graham. "i suppose they are." he mused. "this world of yours has been full of surprises to me. in the old days we dreamt of a wonderful democratic life, of a time when all men would be equal and happy." ostrog looked at him steadfastly. "the day of democracy is past," he said. "past for ever. that day began with the bowmen of creçy, it ended when marching infantry, when common men in masses ceased to win the battles of the world, when costly cannon, great ironclads, and strategic railways became the means of power. to-day is the day of wealth. wealth now is power as it never was power before--it commands earth and sea and sky. all power is for those who can handle wealth. on your behalf.... you must accept facts, and these are facts. the world for the crowd! the crowd as ruler! even in your days that creed had been tried and condemned. to-day it has only one believer--a multiplex, silly one--the man in the crowd." graham did not answer immediately. he stood lost in sombre preoccupations. "no," said ostrog. "the day of the common man is past. on the open countryside one man is as good as another, or nearly as good. the earlier aristocracy had a precarious tenure of strength and audacity. they were tempered--tempered. there were insurrections, duels, riots. the first real aristocracy, the first permanent aristocracy, came in with castles and armour, and vanished before the musket and bow. but this is the second aristocracy. the real one. those days of gunpowder and democracy were only an eddy in the stream. the common man now is a helpless unit. in these days we have this great machine of the city, and an organisation complex beyond his understanding." "yet," said graham, "there is something resists, something you are holding down--something that stirs and presses." "you will see," said ostrog, with a forced smile that would brush these difficult questions aside. "i have not roused the force to destroy myself--trust me." "i wonder," said graham. ostrog stared. "_must_ the world go this way?" said graham with his emotions at the speaking point. "must it indeed go in this way? have all our hopes been vain?" "what do you mean?" said ostrog. "hopes?" "i come from a democratic age. and i find an aristocratic tyranny!" "well,--but you are the chief tyrant." graham shook his head. "well," said ostrog, "take the general question. it is the way that change has always travelled. aristocracy, the prevalence of the best--the suffering and extinction of the unfit, and so to better things." "but aristocracy! those people i met--" "oh! not _those_!" said ostrog. "but for the most part they go to their death. vice and pleasure! they have no children. that sort of stuff will die out. if the world keeps to one road, that is, if there is no turning back. an easy road to excess, convenient euthanasia for the pleasure seekers singed in the flame, that is the way to improve the race!" "pleasant extinction," said graham. "yet--." he thought for an instant. "there is that other thing--the crowd, the great mass of poor men. will that die out? that will not die out. and it suffers, its suffering is a force that even you--" ostrog moved impatiently, and when he spoke, he spoke rather less evenly than before. "don't trouble about these things," he said. "everything will be settled in a few days now. the crowd is a huge foolish beast. what if it does not die out? even if it does not die, it can still be tamed and driven. i have no sympathy with servile men. you heard those people shouting and singing two nights ago. they were _taught_ that song. if you had taken any man there in cold blood and asked why he shouted, he could not have told you. they think they are shouting for you, that they are loyal and devoted to you. just then they were ready to slaughter the council. to-day--they are already murmuring against those who have overthrown the council." "no, no," said graham. "they shouted because their lives were dreary, without joy or pride, and because in me--in me--they hoped." "and what was their hope? what is their hope? what right have they to hope? they work ill and they want the reward of those who work well. the hope of mankind--what is it? that some day the over-man may come, that some day the inferior, the weak and the bestial may be subdued or eliminated. subdued if not eliminated. the world is no place for the bad, the stupid, the enervated. their duty--it's a fine duty too!--is to die. the death of the failure! that is the path by which the beast rose to manhood, by which man goes on to higher things." ostrog took a pace, seemed to think, and turned on graham. "i can imagine how this great world state of ours seems to a victorian englishman. you regret all the old forms of representative government--their spectres still haunt the world, the voting councils, and parliaments and all that eighteenth century tomfoolery. you feel moved against our pleasure cities. i might have thought of that,--had i not been busy. but you will learn better. the people are mad with envy--they would be in sympathy with you. even in the streets now, they clamour to destroy the pleasure cities. but the pleasure cities are the excretory organs of the state, attractive places that year after year draw together all that is weak and vicious, all that is lascivious and lazy, all the easy roguery of the world, to a graceful destruction. they go there, they have their time, they die childless, all the pretty silly lascivious women die childless, and mankind is the better. if the people were sane they would not envy the rich their way of death. and you would emancipate the silly brainless workers that we have enslaved, and try to make their lives easy and pleasant again. just as they have sunk to what they are fit for." he smiled a smile that irritated graham oddly. "you will learn better. i know those ideas; in my boyhood i read your shelley and dreamt of liberty. there is no liberty, save wisdom and self-control. liberty is within--not without. it is each man's own affair. suppose--which is impossible--that these swarming yelping fools in blue get the upper hand of us, what then? they will only fall to other masters. so long as there are sheep nature will insist on beasts of prey. it would mean but a few hundred years' delay. the coming of the aristocrat is fatal and assured. the end will be the over-man--for all the mad protests of humanity. let them revolt, let them win and kill me and my like. others will arise--other masters. the end will be the same." "i wonder," said graham doggedly. for a moment he stood downcast. "but i must see these things for myself," he said, suddenly assuming a tone of confident mastery. "only by seeing can i understand. i must learn. that is what i want to tell you, ostrog. i do not want to be king in a pleasure city; that is not my pleasure. i have spent enough time with aeronautics--and those other things. i must learn how people live now, how the common life has developed. then i shall understand these things better. i must learn how common people live--the labour people more especially--how they work, marry, bear children, die--" "you get that from our realistic novelists," suggested ostrog, suddenly preoccupied. "i want reality," said graham. "there are difficulties," said ostrog, and thought. "on the whole--" "i did not expect--" "i had thought--. and yet perhaps--. you say you want to go through the ways of the city and see the common people." suddenly he came to some conclusion. "you would need to go disguised," he said. "the city is intensely excited, and the discovery of your presence among them might create a fearful tumult. still this wish of yours to go into this city--this idea of yours--. yes, now i think the thing over, it seems to me not altogether--. it can be contrived. if you would really find an interest in that! you are, of course, master. you can go soon if you like. a disguise asano will be able to manage. he would go with you. after all it is not a bad idea of yours." "you will not want to consult me in any matter?" asked graham suddenly, struck by an odd suspicion. "oh, dear no! no! i think you may trust affairs to me for a time, at any rate," said ostrog, smiling. "even if we differ--" graham glanced at him sharply. "there is no fighting likely to happen soon?" he asked abruptly. "certainly not." "i have been thinking about these negroes. i don't believe the people intend any hostility to me, and, after all, i am the master. i do not want any negroes brought to london. it is an archaic prejudice perhaps, but i have peculiar feelings about europeans and the subject races. even about paris--" ostrog stood watching him from under his drooping brows. "i am not bringing negroes to london," he said slowly. "but if--" "you are not to bring armed negroes to london, whatever happens," said graham. "in that matter i am quite decided." ostrog resolved not to speak, and bowed deferentially. chapter xx in the city ways and that night, unknown and unsuspected, graham, dressed in the costume of an inferior wind-vane official keeping holiday, and accompanied by asano in labour department canvas, surveyed the city through which he had wandered when it was veiled in darkness. but now he saw it lit and waking, a whirlpool of life. in spite of the surging and swaying of the forces of revolution, in spite of the unusual discontent, the mutterings of the greater struggle of which the first revolt was but the prelude, the myriad streams of commerce still flowed wide and strong. he knew now something of the dimensions and quality of the new age, but he was not prepared for the infinite surprise of the detailed view, for the torrent of colour and vivid impressions that poured past him. this was his first real contact with the people of these latter days. he realised that all that had gone before, saving his glimpses of the public theatres and markets, had had its element of seclusion, had been a movement within the comparatively narrow political quarter, that all his previous experiences had revolved immediately about the question of his own position. but here was the city at the busiest hours of night, the people to a large extent returned to their own immediate interests, the resumption of the real informal life, the common habits of the new time. they emerged at first into a street whose opposite ways were crowded with the blue canvas liveries. this swarm graham saw was a portion of a procession--it was odd to see a procession parading the city _seated_. they carried banners of coarse black stuff with red letters. "no disarmament," said the banners, for the most part in crudely daubed letters and with variant spelling, and "why should we disarm?" "no disarming." "no disarming." banner after banner went by, a stream of banners flowing past, and at last at the end, the song of the revolt and a noisy band of strange instruments. "they all ought to be at work," said asano. "they have had no food these two days, or they have stolen it." presently asano made a detour to avoid the congested crowd that gaped upon the occasional passage of dead bodies from hospital to a mortuary, the gleanings after death's harvest of the first revolt. that night few people were sleeping, everyone was abroad. a vast excitement, perpetual crowds perpetually changing, surrounded graham; his mind was confused and darkened by an incessant tumult, by the cries and enigmatical fragments of the social struggle that was as yet only beginning. everywhere festoons and banners of black and strange decorations, intensified the quality of his popularity. everywhere he caught snatches of that crude thick dialect that served the illiterate class, the class, that is, beyond the reach of phonograph culture, in their commonplace intercourse. everywhere this trouble of disarmament was in the air, with a quality of immediate stress of which he had no inkling during his seclusion in the wind-vane quarter. he perceived that as soon as he returned he must discuss this with ostrog, this and the greater issues of which it was the expression, in a far more conclusive way than he had so far done. perpetually that night, even in the earlier hours of their wanderings about the city, the spirit of unrest and revolt swamped his attention, to the exclusion of countless strange things he might otherwise have observed. this preoccupation made his impressions fragmentary. yet amidst so much that was strange and vivid, no subject, however personal and insistent, could exert undivided sway. there were spaces when the revolutionary movement passed clean out of his mind, was drawn aside like a curtain from before some startling new aspect of the time. helen had swayed his mind to this intense earnestness of enquiry, but there came times when she, even, receded beyond his conscious thoughts. at one moment, for example, he found they were traversing the religious quarter, for the easy transit about the city afforded by the moving ways rendered sporadic churches and chapels no longer necessary--and his attention was vividly arrested by the façade of one of the christian sects. they were travelling seated on one of the swift upper ways, the place leapt upon them at a bend and advanced rapidly towards them. it was covered with inscriptions from top to base, in vivid white and blue, save where a vast and glaring kinematograph transparency presented a realistic new testament scene, and where a vast festoon of black to show that the popular religion followed the popular politics, hung across the lettering. graham had already become familiar with the phonotype writing and these inscriptions arrested him, being to his sense for the most part almost incredible blasphemy. among the less offensive were "salvation on the first floor and turn to the right." "put your money on your maker." "the sharpest conversion in london, expert operators! look slippy!" "what christ would say to the sleeper;--join the up-to-date saints!" "be a christian--without hindrance to your present occupation." "all the brightest bishops on the bench to-night and prices as usual." "brisk blessings for busy business men." "but this is appalling!" said graham, as that deafening scream of mercantile piety towered above them. "what is appalling?" asked his little officer, apparently seeking vainly for anything unusual in this shrieking enamel. "_this_! surely the essence of religion is reverence." "oh _that_!" asano looked at graham. "does it shock you?" he said in the tone of one who makes a discovery. "i suppose it would, of course. i had forgotten. nowadays the competition for attention is so keen, and people simply haven't the leisure to attend to their souls, you know, as they used to do." he smiled. "in the old days you had quiet sabbaths and the countryside. though somewhere i've read of sunday afternoons that--" "but _that_," said graham, glancing back at the receding blue and white. "that is surely not the only--" "there are hundreds of different ways. but, of course, if a sect doesn't _tell_ it doesn't pay. worship has moved with the times. there are high class sects with quieter ways--costly incense and personal attentions and all that. these people are extremely popular and prosperous. they pay several dozen lions for those apartments to the council--to you, i should say." graham still felt a difficulty with the coinage, and this mention of a dozen lions brought him abruptly to that matter. in a moment the screaming temples and their swarming touts were forgotten in this new interest. a turn of a phrase suggested, and an answer confirmed the idea that gold and silver were both demonetised, that stamped gold which had begun its reign amidst the merchants of phoenicia was at last dethroned. the change had been graduated but swift, brought about by an extension of the system of cheques that had even in his previous life already practically superseded gold in all the larger business transactions. the common traffic of the city, the common currency indeed of all the world, was conducted by means of the little brown, green and pink council cheques for small amounts, printed with a blank payee. asano had several with him, and at the first opportunity he supplied the gaps in his set. they were printed not on tearable paper, but on a semi-transparent fabric of silken flexibility, interwoven with silk. across them all sprawled a facsimile of graham's signature, his first encounter with the curves and turns of that familiar autograph for two hundred and three years. some intermediary experiences made no impression sufficiently vivid to prevent the matter of the disarmament claiming his thoughts again; a blurred picture of a theosophist temple that promised miracles in enormous letters of unsteady fire was least submerged perhaps, but then came the view of the dining hall in northumberland avenue. that interested him very greatly. by the energy and thought of asano he was able to view this place from a little screened gallery reserved for the attendants of the tables. the building was pervaded by a distant muffled hooting, piping and bawling, of which he did not at first understand the import, but which recalled a certain mysterious leathery voice he had heard after the resumption of the lights on the night of his solitary wandering. he had grown accustomed to vastness and great numbers of people, nevertheless this spectacle held him for a long time. it was as he watched the table service more immediately beneath, and interspersed with many questions and answers concerning details, that the realisation of the full significance of the feast of several thousand people came to him. it was his constant surprise to find that points that one might have expected to strike vividly at the very outset never occurred to him until some trivial detail suddenly shaped as a riddle and pointed to the obvious thing he had overlooked. he discovered only now that this continuity of the city, this exclusion of weather, these vast halls and ways, involved the disappearance of the household; that the typical victorian "home," the little brick cell containing kitchen and scullery, living rooms and bedrooms, had, save for the ruins that diversified the countryside, vanished as surely as the wattle hut. but now he saw what had indeed been manifest from the first, that london, regarded as a living place, was no longer an aggregation of houses but a prodigious hotel, an hotel with a thousand classes of accommodation, thousands of dining halls, chapels, theatres, markets and places of assembly, a synthesis of enterprises, of which he chiefly was the owner. people had their sleeping rooms, with, it might be, antechambers, rooms that were always sanitary at least whatever the degree of comfort and privacy, and for the rest they lived much as many people had lived in the new-made giant hotels of the victorian days, eating, reading, thinking, playing, conversing, all in places of public resort, going to their work in the industrial quarters of the city or doing business in their offices in the trading section. he perceived at once how necessarily this state of affairs had developed from the victorian city. the fundamental reason for the modern city had ever been the economy of co-operation. the chief thing to prevent the merging of the separate households in his own generation was simply the still imperfect civilisation of the people, the strong barbaric pride, passions, and prejudices, the jealousies, rivalries, and violence of the middle and lower classes, which had necessitated the entire separation of contiguous households. but the change, the taming of the people, had been in rapid progress even then. in his brief thirty years of previous life he had seen an enormous extension of the habit of consuming meals from home, the casually patronised horse-box coffee-house had given place to the open and crowded aerated bread shop for instance, women's clubs had had their beginning, and an immense development of reading rooms, lounges and libraries had witnessed to the growth of social confidence. these promises had by this time attained to their complete fulfilment. the locked and barred household had passed away. these people below him belonged, he learnt, to the lower middle class, the class just above the blue labourers, a class so accustomed in the victorian period to feed with every precaution of privacy that its members, when occasion confronted them with a public meal, would usually hide their embarrassment under horseplay or a markedly militant demeanour. but these gaily, if lightly dressed people below, albeit vivacious, hurried and uncommunicative, were dexterously mannered and certainly quite at their ease with regard to one another. he noted a slight significant thing; the table, as far as he could see, was and remained delightfully neat, there was nothing to parallel the confusion, the broadcast crumbs, the splashes of viand and condiment, the overturned drink and displaced ornaments, which would have marked the stormy progress of the victorian meal. the table furniture was very different. there were no ornaments, no flowers, and the table was without a cloth, being made, he learnt, of a solid substance having the texture and appearance of damask. he discerned that this damask substance was patterned with gracefully designed trade advertisements. in a sort of recess before each diner was a complex apparatus of porcelain and metal. there was one plate of white porcelain, and by means of taps for hot and cold volatile fluids the diner washed this himself between the courses; he also washed his elegant white metal knife and fork and spoon as occasion required. soup and the chemical wine that was the common drink were delivered by similar taps, and the remaining covers travelled automatically in tastefully arranged dishes down the table along silver rails. the diner stopped these and helped himself at his discretion. they appeared at a little door at one end of the table, and vanished at the other. that turn of democratic sentiment in decay, that ugly pride of menial souls, which renders equals loth to wait on one another, was very strong he found among these people. he was so preoccupied with these details that it was only as he was leaving the place that he remarked the huge advertisement dioramas that marched majestically along the upper walls and proclaimed the most remarkable commodities. beyond this place they came into a crowded hall, and he discovered the cause of the noise that had perplexed him. they paused at a turnstile at which a payment was made. graham's attention was immediately arrested by a violent, loud hoot, followed by a vast leathery voice. "the master is sleeping peacefully," it vociferated. "he is in excellent health. he is going to devote the rest of his life to aeronautics. he says women are more beautiful than ever. galloop! wow! our wonderful civilisation astonishes him beyond measure. beyond all measure. galloop. he puts great trust in boss ostrog, absolute confidence in boss ostrog. ostrog is to be his chief minister; is authorised to remove or reinstate public officers--all patronage will be in his hands. all patronage in the hands of boss ostrog! the councillors have been sent back to their own prison above the council house." graham stopped at the first sentence, and, looking up, beheld a foolish trumpet face from which this was brayed. this was the general intelligence machine. for a space it seemed to be gathering breath, and a regular throbbing from its cylindrical body was audible. then it trumpeted "galloop, galloop," and broke out again. "paris is now pacified. all resistance is over. galloop! the black police hold every position of importance in the city. they fought with great bravery, singing songs written in praise of their ancestors by the poet kipling. once or twice they got out of hand, and tortured and mutilated wounded and captured insurgents, men and women. moral--don't go rebelling. haha! galloop, galloop! they are lively fellows. lively brave fellows. let this be a lesson to the disorderly banderlog of this city. yah! banderlog! filth of the earth! galloop, galloop!" the voice ceased. there was a confused murmur of disapproval among the crowd. "damned niggers." a man began to harangue near them. "is this the master's doing, brothers? is this the master's doing?" "black police!" said graham. "what is that? you don't mean--" asano touched his arm and gave him a warning look, and forthwith another of these mechanisms screamed deafeningly and gave tongue in a shrill voice. "yahaha, yahah, yap! hear a live paper yelp! live paper. yaha! shocking outrage in paris. yahahah! the parisians exasperated by the black police to the pitch of assassination. dreadful reprisals. savage times come again. blood! blood! yaha!" the nearer babble machine hooted stupendously, "galloop, galloop," drowned the end of the sentence, and proceeded in a rather flatter note than before with novel comments on the horrors of disorder. "law and order must be maintained," said the nearer babble machine. "but," began graham. "don't ask questions here," said asano, "or you will be involved in an argument." "then let us go on," said graham, "for i want to know more of this." as he and his companion pushed their way through the excited crowd that swarmed beneath these voices, towards the exit, graham conceived more clearly the proportion and features of this room. altogether, great and small, there must have been nearly a thousand of these erections, piping, hooting, bawling and gabbling in that great space, each with its crowd of excited listeners, the majority of them men dressed in blue canvas. there were all sizes of machines, from the little gossiping mechanisms that chuckled out mechanical sarcasm in odd corners, through a number of grades to such fifty-foot giants as that which had first hooted over graham. this place was unusually crowded, because of the intense public interest in the course of affairs in paris. evidently the struggle had been much more savage than ostrog had represented it. all the mechanisms were discoursing upon that topic, and the repetition of the people made the huge hive buzz with such phrases as "lynched policemen," "women burnt alive," "fuzzy wuzzy." "but does the master allow such things?" asked a man near him. "is _this_ the beginning of the master's rule?" is _this_ the beginning of the master's rule? for a long time after he had left the place, the hooting, whistling and braying of the machines pursued him; "galloop, galloop," "yahahah, yaha, yap! yaha!" is _this_ the beginning of the master's rule? directly they were out upon the ways he began to question asano closely on the nature of the parisian struggle. "this disarmament! what was their trouble? what does it all mean?" asano seemed chiefly anxious to reassure him that it was "all right." "but these outrages!" "you cannot have an omelette," said asano, "without breaking eggs. it is only the rough people. only in one part of the city. all the rest is all right. the parisian labourers are the wildest in the world, except ours." "what! the londoners?" "no, the japanese. they have to be kept in order." "but burning women alive!" "a commune!" said asano. "they would rob you of your property. they would do away with property and give the world over to mob rule. you are master, the world is yours. but there will be no commune here. there is no need for black police here. "and every consideration has been shown. it is their own negroes--french speaking negroes. senegal regiments, and niger and timbuctoo." "regiments?" said graham, "i thought there was only one--" "no," said asano, and glanced at him. "there is more than one." graham felt unpleasantly helpless. "i did not think," he began and stopped abruptly. he went off at a tangent to ask for information about these babble machines. for the most part, the crowd present had been shabbily or even raggedly dressed, and graham learnt that so far as the more prosperous classes were concerned, in all the more comfortable private apartments of the city were fixed babble machines that would speak directly a lever was pulled. the tenant of the apartment could connect this with the cables of any of the great news syndicates that he preferred. when he learnt this presently, he demanded the reason of their absence from his own suite of apartments. asano was embarrassed. "i never thought," he said. "ostrog must have had them removed." graham stared. "how was i to know?" he exclaimed. "perhaps he thought they would annoy you," said asano. "they must be replaced directly i return," said graham after an interval. he found a difficulty in understanding that this news room and the dining hall were not great central places, that such establishments were repeated almost beyond counting all over the city. but ever and again during the night's expedition his ears would pick out from the tumult of the ways the peculiar hooting of the organ of boss ostrog, "galloop, galloop!" or the shrill "yahaha, yaha yap!--hear a live paper yelp!" of its chief rival. repeated, too, everywhere, were such _crèches_ as the one he now entered. it was reached by a lift, and by a glass bridge that flung across the dining hall and traversed the ways at a slight upward angle. to enter the first section of the place necessitated the use of his solvent signature under asano's direction. they were immediately attended to by a man in a violet robe and gold clasp, the insignia of practising medical men. he perceived from this man's manner that his identity was known, and proceeded to ask questions on the strange arrangements of the place without reserve. on either side of the passage, which was silent and padded, as if to deaden the footfall, were narrow little doors, their size and arrangement suggestive of the cells of a victorian prison. but the upper portion of each door was of the same greenish transparent stuff that had enclosed him at his awakening, and within, dimly seen, lay, in every case, a very young baby in a little nest of wadding. elaborate apparatus watched the atmosphere and rang a bell far away in the central office at the slightest departure from the optimum of temperature and moisture. a system of such _crèches_ had almost entirely replaced the hazardous adventures of the old-world nursing. the attendant presently called graham's attention to the wet nurses, a vista of mechanical figures, with arms, shoulders, and breasts of astonishingly realistic modelling, articulation, and texture, but mere brass tripods below, and having in the place of features a flat disc bearing advertisements likely to be of interest to mothers. of all the strange things that graham came upon that night, none jarred more upon his habits of thought than this place. the spectacle of the little pink creatures, their feeble limbs swaying uncertainly in vague first movements, left alone, without embrace or endearment, was wholly repugnant to him. the attendant doctor was of a different opinion. his statistical evidence showed beyond dispute that in the victorian times the most dangerous passage of life was the arms of the mother, that there human mortality had ever been most terrible. on the other hand this _crèche_ company, the international crèche syndicate, lost not one-half per cent, of the million babies or so that formed its peculiar care. but graham's prejudice was too strong even for those figures. along one of the many passages of the place they presently came upon a young couple in the usual blue canvas peering through the transparency and laughing hysterically at the bald head of their first-born. graham's face must have showed his estimate of them, for their merriment ceased and they looked abashed. but this little incident accentuated his sudden realisation of the gulf between his habits of thought and the ways of the new age. he passed on to the crawling rooms and the kindergarten, perplexed and distressed. he found the endless long playrooms were empty! the latter-day children at least still spent their nights in sleep. as they went through these, the little officer pointed out the nature of the toys, developments of those devised by that inspired sentimentalist froebel. there were nurses here, but much was done by machines that sang and danced and dandled. graham was still not clear upon many points. "but so many orphans," he said perplexed, reverting to a first misconception, and learnt again that they were not orphans. so soon as they had left the _crèche_ he began to speak of the horror the babies in their incubating cases had caused him. "is motherhood gone?" he said. "was it a cant? surely it was an instinct. this seems so unnatural--abominable almost." "along here we shall come to the dancing place," said asano by way of reply. "it is sure to be crowded. in spite of all the political unrest it will be crowded. the women take no great interest in politics--except a few here and there. you will see the mothers--most young women in london are mothers. in that class it is considered a creditable thing to have one child--a proof of animation. few middle class people have more than one. with the labour department it is different. as for motherhood! they still take an immense pride in the children. they come here to look at them quite often." "then do you mean that the population of the world--?" "is falling? yes. except among the people under the labour department. in spite of scientific discipline they are reckless--" the air was suddenly dancing with music, and down a way they approached obliquely, set with gorgeous pillars as it seemed of clear amethyst, flowed a concourse of gay people and a tumult of merry cries and laughter. he saw curled heads, wreathed brows, and a happy intricate flutter of gamboge pass triumphant across the picture. "you will see," said asano with a faint smile. "the world has changed. in a moment you will see the mothers of the new age. come this way. we shall see those yonder again very soon." they ascended a certain height in a swift lift, and changed to a slower one. as they went on the music grew upon them, until it was near and full and splendid, and, moving with its glorious intricacies they could distinguish the beat of innumerable dancing feet. they made a payment at a turnstile, and emerged upon the wide gallery that overlooked the dancing place, and upon the full enchantment of sound and sight. "here," said asano, "are the fathers and mothers of the little ones you saw." the hall was not so richly decorated as that of the atlas, but saving that, it was, for its size, the most splendid graham had seen. the beautiful white-limbed figures that supported the galleries reminded him once more of the restored magnificence of sculpture; they seemed to writhe in engaging attitudes, their faces laughed. the source of the music that filled the place was hidden, and the whole vast shining floor was thick with dancing couples. "look at them," said the little officer, "see how much they show of motherhood." the gallery they stood upon ran along the upper edge of a huge screen that cut the dancing hall on one side from a sort of outer hall that showed through broad arches the incessant onward rush of the city ways. in this outer hall was a great crowd of less brilliantly dressed people, as numerous almost as those who danced within, the great majority wearing the blue uniform of the labour department that was now so familiar to graham. too poor to pass the turnstiles to the festival, they were yet unable to keep away from the sound of its seductions. some of them even had cleared spaces, and were dancing also, fluttering their rags in the air. some shouted as they danced, jests and odd allusions graham did not understand. once someone began whistling the refrain of the revolutionary song, but it seemed as though that beginning was promptly suppressed. the corner was dark and graham could not see. he turned to the hall again. above the caryatids were marble busts of men whom that age esteemed great moral emancipators and pioneers; for the most part their names were strange to graham, though he recognised grant allen, le gallienne, nietzsche, shelley and goodwin. great black festoons and eloquent sentiments reinforced the huge inscription that partially defaced the upper end of the dancing place, and asserted that "the festival of the awakening" was in progress. "myriads are taking holiday or staying from work because of that, quite apart from the labourers who refuse to go back," said asano. "these people are always ready for holidays." graham walked to the parapet and stood leaning over, looking down at the dancers. save for two or three remote whispering couples, who had stolen apart, he and his guide had the gallery to themselves. a warm breath of scent and vitality came up to him. both men and women below were lightly clad, bare-armed, open-necked, as the universal warmth of the city permitted. the hair of the men was often a mass of effeminate curls, their chins were always shaven, and many of them had flushed or coloured cheeks. many of the women were very pretty, and all were dressed with elaborate coquetry. as they swept by beneath, he saw ecstatic faces with eyes half closed in pleasure. "what sort of people are these?" he asked abruptly. "workers--prosperous workers. what you would have called the middle class. independent tradesmen with little separate businesses have vanished long ago, but there are store servers, managers, engineers of a hundred sorts. to-night is a holiday of course, and every dancing place in the city will be crowded, and every place of worship." "but--the women?" "the same. there's a thousand forms of work for women now. but you had the beginning of the independent working-woman in your days. most women are independent now. most of these are married more or less--there are a number of methods of contract--and that gives them more money, and enables them to enjoy themselves." "i see," said graham, looking at the flushed faces, the flash and swirl of movement, and still thinking of that nightmare of pink helpless limbs. "and these are--mothers." "most of them." "the more i see of these things the more complex i find your problems. this, for instance, is a surprise. that news from paris was a surprise." in a little while he spoke again: "these are mothers. presently, i suppose, i shall get into the modern way of seeing things. i have old habits of mind clinging about me--habits based, i suppose, on needs that are over and done with. of course, in our time, a woman was supposed not only to bear children, but to cherish them, to devote herself to them, to educate them--all the essentials of moral and mental education a child owed its mother. or went without. quite a number, i admit, went without. nowadays, clearly, there is no more need for such care than if they were butterflies. i see that! only there was an ideal--that figure of a grave, patient woman, silently and serenely mistress of a home, mother and maker of men--to love her was a sort of worship--" he stopped and repeated, "a sort of worship." "ideals change," said the little man, "as needs change." graham awoke from an instant reverie and asano repeated his words. graham's mind returned to the thing at hand. "of course i see the perfect reasonableness of this. restraint, soberness, the matured thought, the unselfish act, they are necessities of the barbarous state, the life of dangers. dourness is man's tribute to unconquered nature. but man has conquered nature now for all practical purposes--his political affairs are managed by bosses with a black police--and life is joyous." he looked at the dancers again. "joyous," he said. "there are weary moments," said the little officer, reflectively. "they all look young. down there i should be visibly the oldest man. and in my own time i should have passed as middle-aged." "they are young. there are few old people in this class in the work cities." "how is that?" "old people's lives are not so pleasant as they used to be, unless they are rich to hire lovers and helpers. and we have an institution called euthanasy." "ah! that euthanasy!" said graham. "the easy death?" "the easy death. it is the last pleasure. the euthanasy company does it well. people will pay the sum--it is a costly thing--long beforehand, go off to some pleasure city and return impoverished and weary, very weary." "there is a lot left for me to understand," said graham after a pause. "yet i see the logic of it all. our array of angry virtues and sour restraints was the consequence of danger and insecurity. the stoic, the puritan, even in my time, were vanishing types. in the old days man was armed against pain, now he is eager for pleasure. there lies the difference. civilisation has driven pain and danger so far off--for well-to-do people. and only well-to-do people matter now. i have been asleep two hundred years." for a minute they leant on the balustrading, following the intricate evolution of the dance. indeed the scene was very beautiful. "before god," said graham, suddenly, "i would rather be a wounded sentinel freezing in the snow than one of these painted fools!" "in the snow," said asano, "one might think differently." "i am uncivilised," said graham, not heeding him. "that is the trouble. i am primitive--paleolithic. _their_ fountain of rage and fear and anger is sealed and closed, the habits of a lifetime make them cheerful and easy and delightful. you must bear with my nineteenth century shocks and disgusts. these people, you say, are skilled workers and so forth. and while these dance, men are fighting--men are dying in paris to keep the world--that they may dance." asano smiled faintly. "for that matter, men are dying in london," he said. there was a moment's silence. "where do these sleep?" asked graham. "above and below--an intricate warren." "and where do they work? this is--the domestic life." "you will see little work to-night. half the workers are out or under arms. half these people are keeping holiday. but we will go to the work places if you wish it." for a time graham watched the dancers, then suddenly turned away. "i want to see the workers. i have seen enough of these," he said. asano led the way along the gallery across the dancing hall. presently they came to a transverse passage that brought a breath of fresher, colder air. asano glanced at this passage as they went past, stopped, went back to it, and turned to graham with a smile. "here, sire," he said, "is something--will be familiar to you at least--and yet--. but i will not tell you. come!" he led the way along a closed passage that presently became cold. the reverberation of their feet told that this passage was a bridge. they came into a circular gallery that was glazed in from the outer weather, and so reached a circular chamber which seemed familiar, though graham could not recall distinctly when he had entered it before. in this was a ladder--the first ladder he had seen since his awakening--up which they went, and came into a high, dark, cold place in which was another almost vertical ladder. this they ascended, graham still perplexed. but at the top he understood, and recognised the metallic bars to which he clung. he was in the cage under the ball of st. paul's. the dome rose but a little way above the general contour of the city, into the still twilight, and sloped away, shining greasily under a few distant lights, into a circumambient ditch of darkness. out between the bars he looked upon the wind-clear northern sky and saw the starry constellations all unchanged. capella hung in the west, vega was rising, and the seven glittering points of the great bear swept overhead in their stately circle about the pole. he saw these stars in a clear gap of sky. to the east and south the great circular shapes of complaining wind-wheels blotted out the heavens, so that the glare about the council house was hidden. to the southwest hung orion, showing like a pallid ghost through a tracery of iron-work and interlacing shapes above a dazzling coruscation of lights. a bellowing and siren screaming that came from the flying stages warned the world that one of the aeroplanes was ready to start. he remained for a space gazing towards the glaring stage. then his eyes went back to the northward constellations. for a long time he was silent. "this," he said at last, smiling in the shadow, "seems the strangest thing of all. to stand in the dome of st. paul's and look once more upon these familiar, silent stars!" thence graham was taken by asano along devious ways to the great gambling and business quarters where the bulk of the fortunes in the city were lost and made. it impressed him as a well-nigh interminable series of very high halls, surrounded by tiers upon tiers of galleries into which opened thousands of offices, and traversed by a complicated multitude of bridges, footways, aerial motor rails, and trapeze and cable leaps. and here more than anywhere the note of vehement vitality, of uncontrollable, hasty activity, rose high. everywhere was violent advertisement, until his brain swam at the tumult of light and colour. and babble machines of a peculiarly rancid tone were abundant and filled the air with strenuous squealing and an idiotic slang. "skin your eyes and slide," "gewhoop, bonanza," "gollipers come and hark!" the place seemed to him to be dense with people either profoundly agitated or swelling with obscure cunning, yet he learnt that the place was comparatively empty, that the great political convulsion of the last few days had reduced transactions to an unprecedented minimum. in one huge place were long avenues of roulette tables, each with an excited, undignified crowd about it; in another a yelping babel of white-faced women and red-necked leathery-lunged men bought and sold the shares of an absolutely fictitious business undertaking which, every five minutes, paid a dividend of ten per cent, and cancelled a certain proportion of its shares by means of a lottery wheel. these business activities were prosecuted with an energy that readily passed into violence, and graham approaching a dense crowd found at its centre a couple of prominent merchants in violent controversy with teeth and nails on some delicate point of business etiquette. something still remained in life to be fought for. further he had a shock at a vehement announcement in phonetic letters of scarlet flame, each twice the height of a man, that "we assure the propraiet'r. we assure the propraiet'r." "who's the proprietor?" he asked. "you." "but what do they assure me?" he asked. "what do they assure me?" "didn't you have assurance?" graham thought. "insurance?" "yes--insurance. i remember that was the older word. they are insuring your life. dozands of people are taking out policies, myriads of lions are being put on you. and further on other people are buying annuities. they do that on everybody who is at all prominent. look there!" a crowd of people surged and roared, and graham saw a vast black screen suddenly illuminated in still larger letters of burning purple. "anuetes on the propraiet'r--x pr. g." the people began to boo and shout at this, a number of hard breathing, wild-eyed men came running past, clawing with hooked fingers at the air. there was a furious crush about a little doorway. asano did a brief, inaccurate calculation. "seventeen per cent, per annum is their annuity on you. they would not pay so much per cent, if they could see you now, sire. but they do not know. your own annuities used to be a very safe investment, but now you are sheer gambling, of course. this is probably a desperate bid. i doubt if people will get their money." the crowd of would-be annuitants grew so thick about them that for some time they could move neither forward nor backward. graham noticed what appeared to him to be a high proportion of women among the speculators, and was reminded again of the economic independence of their sex. they seemed remarkably well able to take care of themselves in the crowd, using their elbows with particular skill, as he learnt to his cost. one curly-headed person caught in the pressure for a space, looked steadfastly at him several times, almost as if she recognised him, and then, edging deliberately towards him, touched his hand with her arm in a scarcely accidental manner, and made it plain by a look as ancient as chaldea that he had found favour in her eyes. and then a lank, grey-bearded man, perspiring copiously in a noble passion of self-help, blind to all earthly things save that glaring bait, thrust between them in a cataclysmal rush towards that alluring "x pr. g." "i want to get out of this," said graham to asano. "this is not what i came to see. show me the workers. i want to see the people in blue. these parasitic lunatics--" he found himself wedged into a straggling mass of people. chapter xxi the under-side from the business quarter they presently passed by the running ways into a remote quarter of the city, where the bulk of the manufactures was done. on their way the platforms crossed the thames twice, and passed in a broad viaduct across one of the great roads that entered the city from the north. in both cases his impression was swift and in both very vivid. the river was a broad wrinkled glitter of black sea water, overarched by buildings, and vanishing either way into a blackness starred with receding lights. a string of black barges passed seaward, manned by blue-clad men. the road was a long and very broad and high tunnel, along which big-wheeled machines drove noiselessly and swiftly. here, too, the distinctive blue of the labour department was in abundance. the smoothness of the double tracks, the largeness and the lightness of the big pneumatic wheels in proportion to the vehicular body, struck graham most vividly. one lank and very high carriage with longitudinal metallic rods hung with the dripping carcasses of many hundred sheep arrested his attention unduly. abruptly the edge of the archway cut and blotted out the picture. presently they left the way and descended by a lift and traversed a passage that sloped downward, and so came to a descending lift again. the appearance of things changed. even the pretence of architectural ornament disappeared, the lights diminished in number and size, the architecture became more and more massive in proportion to the spaces as the factory quarters were reached. and in the dusty biscuit-making place of the potters, among the felspar mills, in the furnace rooms of the metal workers, among the incandescent lakes of crude eadhamite, the blue canvas clothing was on man, woman and child. many of these great and dusty galleries were silent avenues of machinery, endless raked out ashen furnaces testified to the revolutionary dislocation, but wherever there was work it was being done by slow-moving workers in blue canvas. the only people not in blue canvas were the overlookers of the work-places and the orange-clad labour police. and fresh from the flushed faces of the dancing halls, the voluntary vigours of the business quarter, graham could note the pinched faces, the feeble muscles, and weary eyes of many of the latter-day workers. such as he saw at work were noticeably inferior in physique to the few gaily dressed managers and forewomen who were directing their labours. the burly labourers of the old victorian times had followed that dray horse and all such living force producers, to extinction; the place of his costly muscles was taken by some dexterous machine. the latter-day labourer, male as well as female, was essentially a machine-minder and feeder, a servant and attendant, or an artist under direction. the women, in comparison with those graham remembered, were as a class distinctly plain and flat-chested. two hundred years of emancipation from the moral restraints of puritanical religion, two hundred years of city life, had done their work in eliminating the strain of feminine beauty and vigour from the blue canvas myriads. to be brilliant physically or mentally, to be in any way attractive or exceptional, had been and was still a certain way of emancipation to the drudge, a line of escape to the pleasure city and its splendours and delights, and at last to the euthanasy and peace. to be steadfast against such inducements was scarcely to be expected of meanly nourished souls. in the young cities of graham's former life, the newly aggregated labouring mass had been a diverse multitude, still stirred by the tradition of personal honour and a high morality; now it was differentiating into an instinct class, with a moral and physical difference of its own--even with a dialect of its own. they penetrated downward, ever downward, towards the working places. presently they passed underneath one of the streets of the moving ways, and saw its platforms running on their rails far overhead, and chinks of white lights between the transverse slits. the factories that were not working were sparsely lighted; to graham they and their shrouded aisles of giant machines seemed plunged in gloom, and even where work was going on the illumination was far less brilliant than upon the public ways. beyond the blazing lakes of eadhamite he came to the warren of the jewellers, and, with some difficulty and by using his signature, obtained admission to these galleries. they were high and dark, and rather cold. in the first a few men were making ornaments of gold filigree, each man at a little bench by himself, and with a little shaded light. the long vista of light patches, with the nimble fingers brightly lit and moving among the gleaming yellow coils, and the intent face like the face of a ghost, in each shadow, had the oddest effect. the work was beautifully executed, but without any strength of modelling or drawing, for the most part intricate grotesques or the ringing of the changes on a geometrical _motif_. these workers wore a peculiar white uniform without pockets or sleeves. they assumed this on coming to work, but at night they were stripped and examined before they left the premises of the department. in spite of every precaution, the labour policeman told them in a depressed tone, the department was not infrequently robbed. beyond was a gallery of women busied in cutting and setting slabs of artificial ruby, and next these were men and women working together upon the slabs of copper net that formed the basis of _cloisonné_ tiles. many of these workers had lips and nostrils a livid white, due to a disease caused by a peculiar purple enamel that chanced to be much in fashion. asano apologised to graham for this offensive sight, but excused himself on the score of the convenience of this route. "this is what i wanted to see," said graham; "this is what i wanted to see," trying to avoid a start at a particularly striking disfigurement. "she might have done better with herself than that," said asano. graham made some indignant comments. "but, sire, we simply could not stand that stuff without the purple," said asano. "in your days people could stand such crudities, they were nearer the barbaric by two hundred years." they continued along one of the lower galleries of this _cloisonné_ factory, and came to a little bridge that spanned a vault. looking over the parapet, graham saw that beneath was a wharf under yet more tremendous archings than any he had seen. three barges, smothered in floury dust, were being unloaded of their cargoes of powdered felspar by a multitude of coughing men, each guiding a little truck; the dust filled the place with a choking mist, and turned the electric glare yellow. the vague shadows of these workers gesticulated about their feet, and rushed to and fro against a long stretch of white-washed wall. every now and then one would stop to cough. a shadowy, huge mass of masonry rising out of the inky water, brought to graham's mind the thought of the multitude of ways and galleries and lifts that rose floor above floor overhead between him and the sky. the men worked in silence under the supervision of two of the labour police; their feet made a hollow thunder on the planks along which they went to and fro. and as he looked at this scene, some hidden voice in the darkness began to sing. "stop that!" shouted one of the policemen, but the order was disobeyed, and first one and then all the white-stained men who were working there had taken up the beating refrain, singing it defiantly--the song of the revolt. the feet upon the planks thundered now to the rhythm of the song, tramp, tramp, tramp. the policeman who had shouted glanced at his fellow, and graham saw him shrug his shoulders. he made no further effort to stop the singing. and so they went through these factories and places of toil, seeing many painful and grim things. that walk left on graham's mind a maze of memories, fluctuating pictures of swathed halls, and crowded vaults seen through clouds of dust, of intricate machines, the racing threads of looms, the heavy beat of stamping machinery, the roar and rattle of belt and armature, of ill-lit subterranean aisles of sleeping places, illimitable vistas of pin-point lights. here was the smell of tanning, and here the reek of a brewery, and here unprecedented reeks. everywhere were pillars and cross archings of such a massiveness as graham had never before seen, thick titans of greasy, shining brickwork crushed beneath the vast weight of that complex city world, even as these anemic millions were crushed by its complexity. and everywhere were pale features, lean limbs, disfigurement and degradation. once and again, and again a third time, graham heard the song of the revolt during his long, unpleasant research in these places, and once he saw a confused struggle down a passage, and learnt that a number of these serfs had seized their bread before their work was done. graham was ascending towards the ways again when he saw a number of blue-clad children running down a transverse passage, and presently perceived the reason of their panic in a company of the labour police armed with clubs, trotting towards some unknown disturbance. and then came a remote disorder. but for the most part this remnant that worked, worked hopelessly. all the spirit that was left in fallen humanity was above in the streets that night, calling for the master, and valiantly and noisily keeping its arms. they emerged from these wanderings and stood blinking in the bright light of the middle passage of the platforms again. they became aware of the remote hooting and yelping of the machines of one of the general intelligence offices, and suddenly came men running, and along the platforms and about the ways everywhere was a shouting and crying. then a woman with a face of mute white terror, and another who gasped and shrieked as she ran. "what has happened now?" said graham, puzzled, for he could not understand their thick speech. then he heard it in english and perceived that the thing that everyone was shouting, that men yelled to one another, that women took up screaming, that was passing like the first breeze of a thunderstorm, chill and sudden through the city, was this: "ostrog has ordered the black police to london. the black police are coming from south africa.... the black police. the black police." asano's face was white and astonished; he hesitated, looked at graham's face, and told him the thing he already knew. "but how can they know?" asked asano. graham heard someone shouting. "stop all work. stop all work," and a swarthy hunchback, ridiculously gay in green and gold, came leaping down the platforms toward him, bawling again and again in good english, "this is ostrog's doing, ostrog the knave! the master is betrayed." his voice was hoarse and a thin foam dropped from his ugly shouting mouth. he yelled an unspeakable horror that the black police had done in paris, and so passed shrieking, "ostrog the knave!" for a moment graham stood still, for it had come upon him again that these things were a dream. he looked up at the great cliff of buildings on either side, vanishing into blue haze at last above the lights, and down to the roaring tiers of platforms, and the shouting, running people who were gesticulating past. "the master is betrayed!" they cried. "the master is betrayed!" suddenly the situation shaped itself in his mind real and urgent. his heart began to beat fast and strong. "it has come," he said. "i might have known. the hour has come." he thought swiftly. "what am i to do?" "go back to the council house," said asano. "why should i not appeal--? the people are here." "you will lose time. they will doubt if it is you. but they will mass about the council house. there you will find their leaders. your strength is there--with them." "suppose this is only a rumour?" "it sounds true," said asano. "let us have the facts," said graham. asano shrugged his shoulders. "we had better get towards the council house," he cried. "that is where they will swarm. even now the ruins may be impassable." graham regarded him doubtfully and followed him. they went up the stepped platforms to the swiftest one, and there asano accosted a labourer. the answers to his questions were in the thick, vulgar speech. "what did he say?" asked graham. "he knows little, but he told me that the black police would have arrived here before the people knew--had not someone in the wind-vane offices learnt. he said a girl." "a girl? not--?" "he said a girl--he did not know who she was. who came out from the council house crying aloud, and told the men at work among the ruins." and then another thing was shouted, something that turned an aimless tumult into determinate movements, it came like a wind along the street. "to your wards, to your wards. every man get arms. every man to his ward!" chapter xxii the struggle in the council house as asano and graham hurried along to the ruins about the council house, they saw everywhere the excitement of the people rising. "to your wards! to your wards!" everywhere men and women in blue were hurrying from unknown subterranean employments, up the staircases of the middle path; at one place graham saw an arsenal of the revolutionary committee besieged by a crowd of shouting men, at another a couple of men in the hated yellow uniform of the labour police, pursued by a gathering crowd, fled precipitately along the swift way that went in the opposite direction. the cries of "to your wards!" became at last a continuous shouting as they drew near the government quarter. many of the shouts were unintelligible. "ostrog has betrayed us," one man bawled in a hoarse voice, again and again, dinning that refrain into graham's ear until it haunted him. this person stayed close beside graham and asano on the swift way, shouting to the people who swarmed on the lower platforms as he rushed past them. his cry about ostrog alternated with some incomprehensible orders. presently he went leaping down and disappeared. graham's mind was filled with the din. his plans were vague and unformed. he had one picture of some commanding position from which he could address the multitudes, another of meeting ostrog face to face. he was full of rage, of tense muscular excitement, his hands gripped, his lips were pressed together. the way to the council house across the ruins was impassable, but asano met that difficulty and took graham into the premises of the central post-office. the post-office was nominally at work, but the blue-clothed porters moved sluggishly or had stopped to stare through the arches of their galleries at the shouting men who were going by outside. "every man to his ward! every man to his ward!" here, by asano's advice, graham revealed his identity. they crossed to the council house by a cable cradle. already in the brief interval since the capitulation of the councillors a great change had been wrought in the appearance of the ruins. the spurting cascades of the ruptured sea-water mains had been captured and tamed, and huge temporary pipes ran overhead along a flimsy looking fabric of girders. the sky was laced with restored cables and wires that served the council house, and a mass of new fabric with cranes and other building machines going to and fro upon it projected to the left of the white pile. the moving ways that ran across this area had been restored, albeit for once running under the open sky. these were the ways that graham had seen from the little balcony in the hour of his awakening, not nine days since, and the hall of his trance had been on the further side, where now shapeless piles of smashed and shattered masonry were heaped together. it was already high day and the sun was shining brightly. out of their tall caverns of blue electric light came the swift ways crowded with multitudes of people, who poured off them and gathered ever denser over the wreckage and confusion of the ruins. the air was full of their shouting, and they were pressing and swaying towards the central building. for the most part that shouting mass consisted of shapeless swarms, but here and there graham could see that a rude discipline struggled to establish itself. and every voice clamoured for order in the chaos. "to your wards! every man to his ward!" the cable carried them into a hall which graham recognised as the ante-chamber to the hall of the atlas, about the gallery of which he had walked days ago with howard to show himself to the vanished council, an hour from his awakening. now the place was empty except for two cable attendants. these men seemed hugely astonished to recognise the sleeper in the man who swung down from the cross seat. "where is ostrog?" he demanded. "i must see ostrog forthwith. he has disobeyed me. i have come back to take things out of his hands." without waiting for asano, he went straight across the place, ascended the steps at the further end, and, pulling the curtain aside, found himself facing the perpetually labouring titan. the hall was empty. its appearance had changed very greatly since his first sight of it. it had suffered serious injury in the violent struggle of the first outbreak. on the right hand side of the great figure the upper half of the wall had been torn away for nearly two hundred feet of its length, and a sheet of the same glassy film that had enclosed graham at his awakening had been drawn across the gap. this deadened, but did not altogether exclude the roar of the people outside. "wards! wards! wards!" they seemed to be saying. through it there were visible the beams and supports of metal scaffoldings that rose and fell according to the requirements of a great crowd of workmen. an idle building machine, with lank arms of red painted metal stretched gauntly across this green tinted picture. on it were still a number of workmen staring at the crowd below. for a moment he stood regarding these things, and asano overtook him. "ostrog," said asano, "will be in the small offices beyond there." the little man looked livid now and his eyes searched graham's face. they had scarcely advanced ten paces from the curtain before a little panel to the left of the atlas rolled up, and ostrog, accompanied by lincoln and followed by two black and yellow clad negroes, appeared crossing the remote corner of the hall, towards a second panel that was raised and open. "ostrog," shouted graham, and at the sound of his voice the little party turned astonished. ostrog said something to lincoln and advanced alone. graham was the first to speak. his voice was loud and dictatorial. "what is this i hear?" he asked. "are you bringing negroes here--to keep the people down?" "it is none too soon," said ostrog. "they have been getting out of hand more and more, since the revolt. i under-estimated--" "do you mean that these infernal negroes are on the way?" "on the way. as it is, you have seen the people--outside?" "no wonder! but--after what was said. you have taken too much on yourself, ostrog." ostrog said nothing, but drew nearer. "these negroes must not come to london," said graham. "i am master and they shall not come." ostrog glanced at lincoln, who at once came towards them with his two attendants close behind him. "why not?" asked ostrog. "white men must be mastered by white men. besides--" "the negroes are only an instrument." "but that is not the question. i am the master. i mean to be the master. and i tell you these negroes shall not come." "the people--" "i believe in the people." "because you are an anachronism. you are a man out of the past--an accident. you are owner perhaps of the world. nominally--legally. but you are not master. you do not know enough to be master." he glanced at lincoln again. "i know now what you think--i can guess something of what you mean to do. even now it is not too late to warn you. you dream of human equality--of some sort of socialistic order--you have all those worn-out dreams of the nineteenth century fresh and vivid in your mind, and you would rule this age that you do not understand." "listen!" said graham. "you can hear it--a sound like the sea. not voices--but a voice. do _you_ altogether understand?" "we taught them that," said ostrog. "perhaps. can you teach them to forget it? but enough of this! these negroes must not come." there was a pause and ostrog looked him in the eyes. "they will," he said. "i forbid it," said graham. "they have started." "i will not have it." "no," said ostrog. "sorry as i am to follow the method of the council--. for your own good--you must not side with--disorder. and now that you are here--. it was kind of you to come here." lincoln laid his hand on graham's shoulder. abruptly graham realised the enormity of his blunder in coming to the council house. he turned towards the curtains that separated the hall from the ante-chamber. the clutching hand of asano intervened. in another moment lincoln had grasped graham's cloak. he turned and struck at lincoln's face, and incontinently a negro had him by collar and arm. he wrenched himself away, his sleeve tore noisily, and he stumbled back, to be tripped by the other attendant. then he struck the ground heavily and he was staring at the distant ceiling of the hall. he shouted, rolled over, struggling fiercely, clutched an attendant's leg and threw him headlong, and struggled to his feet. lincoln appeared before him, went down heavily again with a blow under the point of the jaw and lay still. graham made two strides, stumbled. and then ostrog's arm was round his neck, he was pulled over backward, fell heavily, and his arms were pinned to the ground. after a few violent efforts he ceased to struggle and lay staring at ostrog's heaving throat. "you--are--a prisoner," panted ostrog, exulting. "you--were rather a fool--to come back." graham turned his head about and perceived through the irregular green window in the walls of the hall the men who had been working the building cranes gesticulating excitedly to the people below them. they had seen! ostrog followed his eyes and started. he shouted something to lincoln, but lincoln did not move. a bullet smashed among the mouldings above the atlas. the two sheets of transparent matter that had been stretched across this gap were rent, the edges of the torn aperture darkened, curved, ran rapidly towards the framework, and in a moment the council chamber stood open to the air. a chilly gust blew in by the gap, bringing with it a war of voices from the ruinous spaces without, an elvish babblement, "save the master!" "what are they doing to the master?" "the master is betrayed!" and then he realised that ostrog's attention was distracted, that ostrog's grip had relaxed, and, wrenching his arms free, he struggled to his knees. in another moment he had thrust ostrog back, and he was on one foot, his hand gripping ostrog's throat, and ostrog's hands clutching the silk about his neck. but now men were coming towards them from the dais--men whose intentions he misunderstood. he had a glimpse of someone running in the distance towards the curtains of the antechamber, and then ostrog had slipped from him and these newcomers were upon him. to his infinite astonishment, they seized him. they obeyed the shouts of ostrog. he was lugged a dozen yards before he realised that they were not friends--that they were dragging him towards the open panel. when he saw this he pulled back, he tried to fling himself down, he shouted for help with all his strength. and this time there were answering cries. the grip upon his neck relaxed, and behold! in the lower corner of the rent upon the wall, first one and then a number of little black figures appeared shouting and waving arms. they came leaping down from the gap into the light gallery that had led to the silent rooms. they ran along it, so near were they that graham could see the weapons in their hands. then ostrog was shouting in his ear to the men who held him, and once more he was struggling with all his strength against their endeavours to thrust him towards the opening that yawned to receive him. "they can't come down," panted ostrog. "they daren't fire. it's all right. we'll save him from them yet." for long minutes as it seemed to graham that inglorious struggle continued. his clothes were rent in a dozen places, he was covered in dust, one hand had been trodden upon. he could hear the shouts of his supporters, and once he heard shots. he could feel his strength giving way, feel his efforts wild and aimless. but no help came, and surely, irresistibly, that black, yawning opening came nearer. the pressure upon him relaxed and he struggled up. he saw ostrog's grey head receding and perceived that he was no longer held. he turned about and came full into a man in black. one of the green weapons cracked close to him, a drift of pungent smoke came into his face, and a steel blade flashed. the huge chamber span about him. he saw a man in pale blue stabbing one of the black and yellow attendants not three yards from his face. then hands were upon him again. he was being pulled in two directions now. it seemed as though people were shouting to him. he wanted to understand and could not. someone was clutching about his thighs, he was being hoisted in spite of his vigorous efforts. he understood suddenly, he ceased to struggle. he was lifted up on men's shoulders and carried away from that devouring panel. ten thousand throats were cheering. he saw men in blue and black hurrying after the retreating ostrogites and firing. lifted up, he saw now across the whole expanse of the hall beneath the atlas image, saw that he was being carried towards the raised platform in the centre of the place. the far end of the hall was already full of people running towards him. they were looking at him and cheering. he became aware that a bodyguard surrounded him. active men about him shouted vague orders. he saw close at hand the black moustached man in yellow who had been among those who had greeted him in the public theatre, shouting directions. the hall was already densely packed with swaying people, the little metal gallery sagged with a shouting load, the curtains at the end had been torn away, and the antechamber was revealed densely crowded. he could scarcely make the man near him hear for the tumult about them. "where has ostrog gone?" he asked. the man he questioned pointed over the heads towards the lower panels about the hall on the side opposite the gap. they stood open, and armed men, blue clad with black sashes, were running through them and vanishing into the chambers and passages beyond. it seemed to graham that a sound of firing drifted through the riot. he was carried in a staggering curve across the great hall towards an opening beneath the gap. he perceived men working with a sort of rude discipline to keep the crowd off him, to make a space clear about him. he passed out of the hall, and saw a crude, new wall rising blankly before him topped by blue sky. he was swung down to his feet; someone gripped his arm and guided him. he found the man in yellow close at hand. they were taking him up a narrow stairway of brick, and close at hand rose the great red painted masses, the cranes and levers and the still engines of the big building machine. he was at the top of the steps. he was hurried across a narrow railed footway, and suddenly with a vast shouting the amphitheatre of ruins opened again before him. "the master is with us! the master! the master!" the shout swept athwart the lake of faces like a wave, broke against the distant cliff of ruins, and came back in a welter of cries. "the master is on our side!" graham perceived that he was no longer encompassed by people, that he was standing upon a little temporary platform of white metal, part of a flimsy seeming scaffolding that laced about the great mass of the council house. over all the huge expanse of the ruins swayed and eddied the shouting people; and here and there the black banners of the revolutionary societies ducked and swayed and formed rare nuclei of organisation in the chaos. up the steep stairs of wall and scaffolding by which his rescuers had reached the opening in the atlas chamber clung a solid crowd, and little energetic black figures clinging to pillars and projections were strenuous to induce these congested, masses to stir. behind him, at a higher point on the scaffolding, a number of men struggled upwards with the flapping folds of a huge black standard. through the yawning gap in the walls below him he could look down upon the packed attentive multitudes in the hall of the atlas. the distant flying stages to the south came out bright and vivid, brought nearer as it seemed by an unusual translucency of the air. a solitary monoplane beat up from the central stage as if to meet the coming aeroplanes. "what has become of ostrog?" asked graham, and even as he spoke he saw that all eyes were turned from him towards the crest of the council house building. he looked also in this direction of universal attention. for a moment he saw nothing but the jagged corner of a wall, hard and clear against the sky. then in the shadow he perceived the interior of a room and recognised with a start the green and white decorations of his former prison. and coming quickly across this opened room and up to the very verge of the cliff of the ruins came a little white clad figure followed by two other smaller seeming figures in black and yellow. he heard the man beside him exclaim "ostrog," and turned to ask a question. but he never did, because of the startled exclamation of another of those who were with him and a lank finger suddenly pointing. he looked, and behold! the monoplane that had been rising from the flying stage when last he had looked in that direction, was driving towards them. the swift steady flight was still novel enough to hold his attention. nearer it came, growing rapidly larger and larger, until it had swept over the further edge of the ruins and into view of the dense multitudes below. it drooped across the space and rose and passed overhead, rising to clear the mass of the council house, a filmy translucent shape with the solitary aeronaut peering down through its ribs. it vanished beyond the skyline of the ruins. graham transferred his attention to ostrog. he was signalling with his hands, and his attendants were busy breaking down the wall beside him. in another moment the monoplane came into view again, a little thing far away, coming round in a wide curve and going slower. then suddenly the man in yellow shouted: "what are they doing? what are the people doing? why is ostrog left there? why is he not captured? they will lift him--the monoplane will lift him! ah!" the exclamation was echoed by a shout from the ruins. the rattling sound of the green weapons drifted across the intervening gulf to graham, and, looking down, he saw a number of black and yellow uniforms running along one of the galleries that lay open to the air below the promontory upon which ostrog stood. they fired as they ran at men unseen, and then emerged a number of pale blue figures in pursuit. these minute fighting figures had the oddest effect; they seemed as they ran like little model soldiers in a toy. this queer appearance of a house cut open gave that struggle amidst furniture and passages a quality of unreality. it was perhaps two hundred yards away from him, and very nearly fifty above the heads in the ruins below. the black and yellow men ran into an open archway, and turned and fired a volley. one of the blue pursuers striding forward close to the edge, flung up his arms, staggered sideways, seemed to graham's sense to hang over the edge for several seconds, and fell headlong down. graham saw him strike a projecting corner, fly out, head over heels, head over heels, and vanish behind the red arm of the building machine. and then a shadow came between graham and the sun. he looked up and the sky was clear, but he knew the little monoplane had passed. ostrog had vanished. the man in yellow thrust before him, zealous and perspiring, pointing and blatant. "they are grounding!" cried the man in yellow. "they are grounding. tell the people to fire at him. tell them to fire at him!" graham could not understand. he heard loud voices repeating these enigmatical orders. suddenly he saw the prow of the monoplane come gliding over the edge of the ruins and stop with a jerk. in a moment graham understood that the thing had grounded in order that ostrog might escape by it. he saw a blue haze climbing out of the gulf, perceived that the people below him were now firing up at the projecting stem. a man beside him cheered hoarsely, and he saw that the blue rebels had gained the archway that had been contested by the men in black and yellow a moment before, and were running in a continual stream along the open passage. and suddenly the monoplane slipped over the edge of the council house and fell like a diving swallow. it dropped, tilting at an angle of forty-five degrees, so steeply that it seemed to graham, it seemed perhaps to most of those below, that it could not possibly rise again. it fell so closely past him that he could see ostrog clutching the guides of the seat, with his grey hair streaming; see the white-faced aeronaut wrenching over the lever that turned the machine upward. he heard the apprehensive vague cry of innumerable men below. graham clutched the railing before him and gasped. the second seemed an age. the lower vane of the monoplane passed within an ace of touching the people, who yelled and screamed and trampled one another below. and then it rose. for a moment it looked as if it could not possibly clear the opposite cliff, and then that it could not possibly clear the wind-wheel that rotated beyond. and behold! it was clear and soaring, still heeling sideways, upward, upward into the wind-swept sky. the suspense of the moment gave place to a fury of exasperation as the swarming people realised that ostrog had escaped them. with belated activity they renewed their fire, until the rattling wove into a roar, until the whole area became dim and blue and the air pungent with the thin smoke of their weapons. too late! the flying machine dwindled smaller and smaller, and curved about and swept gracefully downward to the flying stage from which it had so lately risen. ostrog had escaped. for a while a confused babblement arose from the ruins, and then the universal attention came back to graham, perched high among the scaffolding. he saw the faces of the people turned towards him, heard their shouts at his rescue. from the throat of the ways came the song of the revolt spreading like a breeze across that swaying sea of men. the little group of men about him shouted congratulations on his escape. the man in yellow was close to him, with a set face and shining eyes. and the song was rising, louder and louder; tramp, tramp, tramp, tramp. slowly the realisation came of the full meaning of these things to him, the perception of the swift change in his position. ostrog, who had stood beside him whenever he had faced that shouting multitude before, was beyond there--the antagonist. there was no one to rule for him any longer. even the people about him, the leaders and organisers of the multitude, looked to see what he would do, looked to him to act, awaited his orders. he was king indeed. his puppet reign was at an end. he was very intent to do the thing that was expected of him. his nerves and muscles were quivering, his mind was perhaps a little confused, but he felt neither fear nor anger. his hand that had been trodden upon throbbed and was hot. he was a little nervous about his bearing. he knew he was not afraid, but he was anxious not to seem afraid. in his former life he had often been more excited in playing games of skill. he was desirous of immediate action, he knew he must not think too much in detail of the huge complexity of the struggle about him lest be should be paralysed by the sense of its intricacy. over there those square blue shapes, the flying stages, meant ostrog; against ostrog, who was so clear and definite and decisive, he who was so vague and undecided, was fighting for the whole future of the world. chapter xxiii graham speaks his word for a time the master of the earth was not even master of his own mind. even his will seemed a will not his own, his own acts surprised him and were but a part of the confusion of strange experiences that poured across his being. these things were definite, the negroes were coming, helen wotton had warned the people of their coming, and he was master of the earth. each of these facts seemed struggling for complete possession of his thoughts. they protruded from a background of swarming halls, elevated passages, rooms jammed with ward leaders in council, kinematograph and telephone rooms, and windows looking out on a seething sea of marching men. the men in yellow, and men whom he fancied were called ward leaders, were either propelling him forward or following him obediently; it was hard to tell. perhaps they were doing a little of both. perhaps some power unseen and unsuspected propelled them all. he was aware that he was going to make a proclamation to the people of the earth, aware of certain grandiose phrases floating in his mind as the thing he meant to say. many little things happened, and then he found himself with the man in yellow entering a little room where this proclamation of his was to be made. this room was grotesquely latter-day in its appointments. in the centre was a bright oval lit by shaded electric lights from above. the rest was in shadow, and the double finely fitting doors through which he came from the swarming hall of the atlas made the place very still. the dead thud of these as they closed behind him, the sudden cessation of the tumult in which he had been living for hours, the quivering circle of light, the whispers and quick noiseless movements of vaguely visible attendants in the shadows, had a strange effect upon graham. the huge ears of a phonographic mechanism gaped in a battery for his words, the black eyes of great photographic cameras awaited his beginning, beyond metal rods and coils glittered dimly, and something whirled about with a droning hum. he walked into the centre of the light, and his shadow drew together black and sharp to a little blot at his feet. the vague shape of the thing he meant to say was already in his mind. but this silence, this isolation, the withdrawal from that contagious crowd, this audience of gaping, glaring machines, had not been in his anticipation. all his supports seemed withdrawn together; he seemed to have dropped into this suddenly, suddenly to have discovered himself. in a moment he was changed. he found that he now feared to be inadequate, he feared to be theatrical, he feared the quality of his voice, the quality of his wit; astonished, he turned to the man in yellow with a propitiatory gesture. "for a moment," he said, "i must wait. i did not think it would be like this. i must think of the thing i have to say." while he was still hesitating there came an agitated messenger with news that the foremost aeroplanes were passing over madrid. "what news of the flying stages?" he asked. "the people of the south-west wards are ready." "ready!" he turned impatiently to the blank circles of the lenses again. "i suppose it must be a sort of speech. would to god i knew certainly the thing that should be said! aeroplanes at madrid! they must have started before the main fleet. "oh! what can it matter whether i speak well or ill?" he said, and felt the light grow brighter. he had framed some vague sentence of democratic sentiment when suddenly doubts overwhelmed him. his belief in his heroic quality and calling he found had altogether lost its assured conviction. the picture of a little strutting futility in a windy waste of incomprehensible destinies replaced it. abruptly it was perfectly clear to him that this revolt against ostrog was premature, foredoomed to failure, the impulse of passionate inadequacy against inevitable things. he thought of that swift flight of aeroplanes like the swoop of fate towards him. he was astonished that he could have seen things in any other light. in that final emergency he debated, thrust debate resolutely aside, determined at all costs to go through with the thing he had undertaken. and he could find no word to begin. even as he stood, awkward, hesitating, with an indiscreet apology for his inability trembling on his lips, came the noise of many people crying out, the running to and fro of feet. "wait," cried someone, and a door opened. graham turned, and the watching lights waned. through the open doorway he saw a slight girlish figure approaching. his heart leapt. it was helen wotton. the man in yellow came out of the nearer shadows into the circle of light. "this is the girl who told us what ostrog had done," he said. she came in very quietly, and stood still, as if she did not want to interrupt graham's eloquence.... but his doubts and questionings fled before her presence. he remembered the things that he had meant to say. he faced the cameras again and the light about him grew brighter. he turned back to her. "you have helped me," he said lamely--"helped me very much.... this is very difficult." he paused. he addressed himself to the unseen multitudes who stared upon him through those grotesque black eyes. at first he spoke slowly. "men and women of the new age," he said; "you have arisen to do battle for the race!... there is no easy victory before us." he stopped to gather words. he wished passionately for the gift of moving speech. "this night is a beginning," he said. "this battle that is coming, this battle that rushes upon us to-night, is only a beginning. all your lives, it may be, you must fight. take no thought though i am beaten, though i am utterly overthrown. i think i may be overthrown." he found the thing in his mind too vague for words. he paused momentarily, and broke into vague exhortations, and then a rush of speech came upon him. much that he said was but the humanitarian commonplace of a vanished age, but the conviction of his voice touched it to vitality. he stated the case of the old days to the people of the new age, to the girl at his side. "i come out of the past to you," he said, "with the memory of an age that hoped. my age was an age of dreams--of beginnings, an age of noble hopes; throughout the world we had made an end of slavery; throughout the world we had spread the desire and anticipation that wars might cease, that all men and women might live nobly, in freedom and peace.... so we hoped in the days that are past. and what of those hopes? how is it with man after two hundred years? "great cities, vast powers, a collective greatness beyond our dreams. for that we did not work, and that has come. but how is it with the little lives that make up this greater life? how is it with the common lives? as it has ever been--sorrow and labour, lives cramped and unfulfilled, lives tempted by power, tempted by wealth, and gone to waste and folly. the old faiths have faded and changed, the new faith--. is there a new faith? "charity and mercy," he floundered; "beauty and the love of beautiful things--effort and devotion! give yourselves as i would give myself--as christ gave himself upon the cross. it does not matter if you understand. it does not matter if you seem to fail. you _know_--in the core of your hearts you _know_. there is no promise, there is no security--nothing to go upon but faith. there is no faith but faith--faith which is courage...." things that he had long wished to believe, he found that he believed. he spoke gustily, in broken incomplete sentences, but with all his heart and strength, of this new faith within him. he spoke of the greatness of self-abnegation, of his belief in an immortal life of humanity in which we live and move and have our being. his voice rose and fell, and the recording appliances hummed as he spoke, dim attendants watched him out of the shadow.... his sense of that silent spectator beside him sustained his sincerity. for a few glorious moments he was carried away; he felt no doubt of his heroic quality, no doubt of his heroic words, he had it all straight and plain. his eloquence limped no longer. and at last he made an end to speaking. "here and now," he cried, "i make my will. all that is mine in the world i give to the people of the world. all that is mine in the world i give to the people of the world. to all of you. i give it to you, and myself i give to you. and as god wills to-night, i will live for you, or i will die." he ended. he found the light of his present exaltation reflected in the face of the girl. their eyes met; her eyes were swimming with tears of enthusiasm. "i knew," she whispered. "oh! father of the world--_sire_! i knew you would say these things...." "i have said what i could," he answered lamely and grasped and clung to her outstretched hands. chapter xxiv while the aeroplanes were coming the man in yellow was beside them. neither had noted his coming. he was saying that the south-west wards were marching. "i never expected it so soon," he cried. "they have done wonders. you must send them a word to help them on their way." graham stared at him absent-mindedly. then with a start he returned to his previous preoccupation about the flying stages. "yes," he said. "that is good, that is good." he weighed a message. "tell them;--well done south west." he turned his eyes to helen wotton again. his face expressed his struggle between conflicting ideas. "we must capture the flying stages," he explained. "unless we can do that they will land negroes. at all costs we must prevent that." he felt even as he spoke that this was not what had been in his mind before the interruption. he saw a touch of surprise in her eyes. she seemed about to speak and a shrill bell drowned her voice. it occurred to graham that she expected him to lead these marching people, that that was the thing he had to do. he made the offer abruptly. he addressed the man in yellow, but he spoke to her. he saw her face respond. "here i am doing nothing," he said. "it is impossible," protested the man in yellow. "it is a fight in a warren. your place is here." he explained elaborately. he motioned towards the room where graham must wait, he insisted no other course was possible. "we must know where you are," he said. "at any moment a crisis may arise needing your presence and decision." a picture had drifted through his mind of such a vast dramatic struggle as the masses in the ruins had suggested. but here was no spectacular battle-field such as he imagined. instead was seclusion--and suspense. it was only as the afternoon wore on that he pieced together a truer picture of the fight that was raging, inaudibly and invisibly, within four miles of him, beneath the roehampton stage. a strange and unprecedented contest it was, a battle that was a hundred thousand little battles, a battle in a sponge of ways and channels, fought out of sight of sky or sun under the electric glare, fought out in a vast confusion by multitudes untrained in arms, led chiefly by acclamation, multitudes dulled by mindless labour and enervated by the tradition of two hundred years of servile security against multitudes demoralised by lives of venial privilege and sensual indulgence. they had no artillery, no differentiation into this force or that; the only weapon on either side was the little green metal carbine, whose secret manufacture and sudden distribution in enormous quantities had been one of ostrog's culminating moves against the council. few had had any experience with this weapon, many had never discharged one, many who carried it came unprovided with ammunition; never was wilder firing in the history of warfare. it was a battle of amateurs, a hideous experimental warfare, armed rioters fighting armed rioters, armed rioters swept forward by the words and fury of a song, by the tramping sympathy of their numbers, pouring in countless myriads towards the smaller ways, the disabled lifts, the galleries slippery with blood, the halls and passages choked with smoke, beneath the flying stages, to learn there when retreat was hopeless the ancient mysteries of warfare. and overhead save for a few sharpshooters upon the roof spaces and for a few bands and threads of vapour that multiplied and darkened towards the evening, the day was a clear serenity. ostrog it seems had no bombs at command and in all the earlier phases of the battle the flying machines played no part. not the smallest cloud was there to break the empty brilliance of the sky. it seemed as though it held itself vacant until the aeroplanes should come. ever and again there was news of these, drawing nearer, from this spanish town and then that, and presently from france. but of the new guns that ostrog had made and which were known to be in the city came no news in spite of graham's urgency, nor any report of successes from the dense felt of fighting strands about the flying stages. section after section of the labour-societies reported itself assembled, reported itself marching, and vanished from knowledge into the labyrinth of that warfare. what was happening there? even the busy ward leaders did not know. in spite of the opening and closing of doors, the hasty messengers, the ringing of bells and the perpetual clitter-clack of recording implements, graham felt isolated, strangely inactive, inoperative. his isolation seemed at times the strangest, the most unexpected of all the things that had happened since his awakening. it had something of the quality of that inactivity that comes in dreams. a tumult, the stupendous realisation of a world struggle between ostrog and himself, and then this confined quiet little room with its mouthpieces and bells and broken mirror! now the door would be closed and graham and helen were alone together; they seemed sharply marked off then from all the unprecedented world storm that rushed together without, vividly aware of one another, only concerned with one another. then the door would open again, messengers would enter, or a sharp bell would stab their quiet privacy, and it was like a window in a well built brightly lit house flung open suddenly to a hurricane. the dark hurry and tumult, the stress and vehemence of the battle rushed in and overwhelmed them. they were no longer persons but mere spectators, mere impressions of a tremendous convulsion. they became unreal even to themselves, miniatures of personality, indescribably small, and the two antagonistic realities, the only realities in being were first the city, that throbbed and roared yonder in a belated frenzy of defence and secondly the aeroplanes hurling inexorably towards them over the round shoulder of the world. there came a sudden stir outside, a running to and fro, and cries. the girl stood up, speechless, incredulous. metallic voices were shouting "victory!" yes it was "victory!" bursting through the curtains appeared the man in yellow, startled and dishevelled with excitement, "victory," he cried, "victory! the people are winning. ostrog's people have collapsed." she rose. "victory?" "what do you mean?" asked graham. "tell me! _what_?" "we have driven them out of the under galleries at norwood, streatham is afire and burning wildly, and roehampton is ours. _ours_!--and we have taken the monoplane that lay thereon." a shrill bell rang. an agitated grey-headed man appeared from the room of the ward leaders. "it is all over," he cried. "what matters it now that we have roehampton? the aeroplanes have been sighted at boulogne!" "the channel!" said the man in yellow. he calculated swiftly. "half an hour." "they still have three of the flying stages," said the old man. "those guns?" cried graham. "we cannot mount them--in half an hour." "do you mean they are found?" "too late," said the old man. "if we could stop them another hour!" cried the man in yellow. "nothing can stop them now," said the old man. "they have near a hundred aeroplanes in the first fleet." "another hour?" asked graham. "to be so near!" said the ward leader. "now that we have found those guns. to be so near--. if once we could get them out upon the roof spaces." "how long would that take?" asked graham suddenly. "an hour--certainly." "too late," cried the ward leader, "too late." "_is_ it too late?" said graham. "even now--. an hour!" he had suddenly perceived a possibility. he tried to speak calmly, but his face was white. "there is are chance. you said there was a monoplane--?" "on the roehampton stage, sire." "smashed?" "no. it is lying crossways to the carrier. it might be got upon the guides--easily. but there is no aeronaut--." graham glanced at the two men and then at helen. he spoke after a long pause. "_we_ have no aeronauts?" "none." he turned suddenly to helen. his decision was made. "i must do it." "do what?" "go to this flying stage--to this machine." "what do you mean?" "i am an aeronaut. after all--. those days for which you reproached me were not altogether wasted." he turned to the old man in yellow. "tell them to put it upon the guides." the man in yellow hesitated. "what do you mean to do?" cried helen. "this monoplane--it is a chance--." "you don't mean--?" "to fight--yes. to fight in the air. i have thought before--. a big aeroplane is a clumsy thing. a resolute man--!" "but--never since flying began--" cried the man in yellow. "there has been no need. but now the time has come. tell them now--send them my message--to put it upon the guides. i see now something to do. i see now why i am here!" the old man dumbly interrogated the man in yellow nodded, and hurried out. helen made a step towards graham. her face was white. "but, sire!--how can one fight? you will be killed." "perhaps. yet, not to do it--or to let some one else attempt it--." "you will be killed," she repeated. "i've said my word. do you not see? it may save--london!" he stopped, he could speak no more, he swept the alternative aside by a gesture, and they stood looking at one another. they were both clear that he must go. there was no step back from these towering heroisms. her eyes brimmed with tears. she came towards him with a curious movement of her hands, as though she felt her way and could not see; she seized his hand and kissed it. "to wake," she cried, "for this!" he held her clumsily for a moment, and kissed the hair of her bowed head, and then thrust her away, and turned towards the man in yellow. he could not speak. the gesture of his arm said "onward." chapter xxv the coming of the aeroplanes two men in pale blue were lying in the irregular line that stretched along the edge of the captured roehampton stage from end to end, grasping their carbines and peering into the shadows of the stage called wimbledon park. now and then they spoke to one another. they spoke the mutilated english of their class and period. the fire of the ostrogites had dwindled and ceased, and few of the enemy had been seen for some time. but the echoes of the fight that was going on now far below in the lower galleries of that stage, came every now and then between the staccato of shots from the popular side. one of these men was describing to the other how he had seen a man down below there dodge behind a girder, and had aimed at a guess and hit him cleanly as he dodged too far. "he's down there still," said the marksman. "see that little patch. yes. between those bars." a few yards behind them lay a dead stranger, face upward to the sky, with the blue canvas of his jacket smouldering in a circle about the neat bullet hole on his chest. close beside him a wounded man, with a leg swathed about, sat with an expressionless face and watched the progress of that burning. behind them, athwart the carrier lay the captured monoplane. "i can't see him _now_," said the second man in a tone of provocation. the marksman became foul-mouthed and high-voiced in his earnest endeavour to make things plain. and suddenly, interrupting him, came a noisy shouting from the substage. "what's going on now?" he said, and raised himself on one arm to survey the stairheads in the central groove of the stage. a number of blue figures were coming up these, and swarming across the stage. "we don't want all these fools," said his friend. "they only crowd up and spoil shots. what are they after?" "ssh!--they're shouting something." the two men listened. the new-comers had crowded densely about the machine. three ward leaders, conspicuous by their black mantles and badges, clambered into the body and appeared above it. the rank and file flung themselves upon the vans, gripping hold of the edges, until the entire outline of the thing was manned, in some places three deep. one of the marksmen knelt up. "they're putting it on the carrier--that's what they're after." he rose to his feet, his friend rose also. "what's the good?" said his friend. "we've got no aeronauts." "that's what they're doing anyhow." he looked at his rifle, looked at the struggling crowd, and suddenly turned to the wounded man. "mind these, mate," he said, handing his carbine and cartridge belt; and in a moment he was running towards the monoplane. for a quarter of an hour he was lugging, thrusting, shouting and heeding shouts, and then the thing was done, and he stood with a multitude of others cheering their own achievement. by this time he knew, what indeed everyone in the city knew, that the master, raw learner though he was, intended to fly this machine himself, was coming even now to take control of it, would let no other man attempt it. "he who takes the greatest danger, he who bears the heaviest burden, that man is king," so the master was reported to have spoken. and even as this man cheered, and while the beads of sweat still chased one another from the disorder of his hair, he heard the thunder of a greater tumult, and in fitful snatches the beat and impulse of the revolutionary song. he saw through a gap in the people that a thick stream of heads still poured up the stairway. "the master is coming," shouted voices, "the master is coming," and the crowd about him grew denser and denser. he began to thrust himself towards the central groove. "the master is coming!" "the sleeper, the master!" "god and the master!" roared the voices. and suddenly quite close to him were the black uniforms of the revolutionary guard, and for the first and last time in his life he saw graham, saw him quite nearly. a tall, dark man in a flowing black robe he was, with a white, resolute face and eyes fixed steadfastly before him; a man who for all the little things about him had neither ears nor eyes nor thoughts.... for all his days that man remembered the passing of graham's bloodless face. in a moment it had gone and he was fighting in the swaying crowd. a lad weeping with terror thrust against him, pressing towards the stairways, yelling "clear for the start, you fools!" the bell that cleared the flying stage became a loud unmelodious clanging. with that clanging in his ears graham drew near the monoplane, marched into the shadow of its tilting wing. he became aware that a number of people about him were offering to accompany him, and waved their offers aside. he wanted to think how one started the engine. the bell clanged faster and faster, and the feet of the retreating people roared faster and louder. the man in yellow was assisting him to mount through the ribs of the body. he clambered into the aeronaut's place, fixing himself very carefully and deliberately. what was it? the man in yellow was pointing to two small flying machines driving upward in the southern sky. no doubt they were looking for the coming aeroplanes. that--presently--the thing to do now was to start. things were being shouted at him, questions, warnings. they bothered him. he wanted to think about the machine, to recall every item of his previous experience. he waved the people from him, saw the man in yellow dropping off through the ribs, saw the crowd cleft down the line of the girders by his gesture. for a moment he was motionless, staring at the levers, the wheel by which the engine shifted, and all the delicate appliances of which he knew so little. his eye caught a spirit level with the bubble towards him, and he remembered something, spent a dozen seconds in swinging the engine forward until the bubble floated in the centre of the tube. he noted that the people were not shouting, knew they watched his deliberation. a bullet smashed on the bar above his head. who fired? was the line clear of people? he stood up to see and sat down again. in another second the propeller was spinning and he was rushing down the guides. he gripped the wheel and swung the engine back to lift the stem. then it was the people shouted. in a moment he was throbbing with the quiver of the engine, and the shouts dwindled swiftly behind, rushed down to silence. the wind whistled over the edges of the screen, and the world sank away from him very swiftly. throb, throb, throb--throb, throb, throb; up he drove. he fancied himself free of all excitement, felt cool and deliberate. he lifted the stem still more, opened one valve on his left wing and swept round and up. he looked down with a steady head, and up. one of the ostrogite monoplanes was driving across his course, so that he drove obliquely towards it and would pass below it at a steep angle. its little aeronauts were peering down at him. what did they mean to do? his mind became active. one, he saw held a weapon pointing, seemed prepared to fire. what did they think he meant to do? in a moment he understood their tactics, and his resolution was taken. his momentary lethargy was past. he opened two more valves to his left, swung round, end on to this hostile machine, closed his valves, and shot straight at it, stem and wind-screen shielding him from the shot. they tilted a little as if to clear him. he flung up his stem. throb, throb, throb--pause--throb, throb--he set his teeth, his face into an involuntary grimace, and crash! he struck it! he struck upward beneath the nearer wing. very slowly the wing of his antagonist seemed to broaden as the impetus of his blow turned it up. he saw the full breadth of it and then it slid downward out of his sight. he felt his stem going down, his hands tightened on the levers, whirled and rammed the engine back. he felt the jerk of a clearance, the nose of the machine jerked upward steeply, and for a moment he seemed to be lying on his back. the machine was reeling and staggering, it seemed to be dancing on its screw. he made a huge effort, hung for a moment on the levers, and slowly the engine came forward again. he was driving upward but no longer so steeply. he gasped for a moment and flung himself at the levers again. the wind whistled about him. one further effort and he was almost level. he could breathe. he turned his head for the first time to see what had become of his antagonists. turned back to the levers for a moment and looked again. for a moment he could have believed they were annihilated. and then he saw between the two stages to the east was a chasm, and down this something, a slender edge, fell swiftly and vanished, as a sixpence falls down a crack. at first he did not understand, and then a wild joy possessed him. he shouted at the top of his voice, an inarticulate shout, and drove higher and higher up the sky. throb, throb, throb, pause, throb, throb, throb. "where was the other?" he thought. "they too--." as he looked round the empty heavens he had a momentary fear that this second machine had risen above him, and then he saw it alighting on the norwood stage. they had meant shooting. to risk being rammed headlong two thousand feet in the air was beyond their latter-day courage.... for a little while he circled, then swooped in a steep descent towards the westward stage. throb throb throb, throb throb throb. the twilight was creeping on apace, the smoke from the streatham stage that had been so dense and dark, was now a pillar of fire, and all the laced curves of the moving ways and the translucent roofs and domes and the chasms between the buildings were glowing softly now, lit by the tempered radiance of the electric light that the glare of the day overpowered. the three efficient stages that the ostrogites held--for wimbledon park was useless because of the fire from roehampton, and streatham was a furnace--were glowing with guide lights for the coming aeroplanes. as he swept over the roehampton stage he saw the dark masses of the people thereon. he heard a clap of frantic cheering, heard a bullet from the wimbledon park stage tweet through the air, and went beating up above the surrey wastes. he felt a breath of wind from the southwest, and lifted his westward wing as he had learnt to do, and so drove upward heeling into the rare swift upper air. whirr, whirr, whirr. up he drove and up, to that pulsating rhythm, until the country beneath was blue and indistinct, and london spread like a little map traced in light, like the mere model of a city near the brim of the horizon. the southwest was a sky of sapphire over the shadowy rim of the world, and ever as he drove upward the multitude of stars increased. and behold! in the southward, low down and glittering swiftly nearer, were two little patches of nebulous light. and then two more, and then a glow of swiftly driving shapes. presently he could count them. there were four and twenty. the first fleet of aeroplanes had come! beyond appeared a yet greater glow. he swept round in a half circle, staring at this advancing fleet. it flew in a wedge-like shape, a triangular flight of gigantic phosphorescent shapes sweeping nearer through the lower air. he made a swift calculation of their pace, and spun the little wheel that brought the engine forward. he touched a lever and the throbbing effort of the engine ceased. he began to fall, fell swifter and swifter. he aimed at the apex of the wedge. he dropped like a stone through the whistling air. it seemed scarce a second from that soaring moment before he struck the foremost aeroplane. no man of all that black multitude saw the coming of his fate, no man among them dreamt of the hawk that struck downward upon him out of the sky. those who were not limp in the agonies of air-sickness, were craning their black necks and staring to see the filmy city that was rising out of the haze, the rich and splendid city to which "massa boss" had brought their obedient muscles. bright teeth gleamed and the glossy faces shone. they had heard of paris. they knew they were to have lordly times among the poor white trash. suddenly graham hit them. he had aimed at the body of the aeroplane, but at the very last instant a better idea had flashed into his mind. he twisted about and struck near the edge of the starboard wing with all his accumulated weight. he was jerked back as he struck. his prow went gliding across its smooth expanse towards the rim. he felt the forward rush of the huge fabric sweeping him and his monoplane along with it, and for a moment that seemed an age he could not tell what was happening. he heard a thousand throats yelling, and perceived that his machine was balanced on the edge of the gigantic float, and driving down, down; glanced over his shoulder and saw the backbone of the aeroplane and the opposite float swaying up. he had a vision through the ribs of sliding chairs, staring faces, and hands clutching at the tilting guide bars. the fenestrations in the further float flashed open as the aeronaut tried to right her. beyond, he saw a second aeroplane leaping steeply to escape the whirl of its heeling fellow. the broad area of swaying wings seemed to jerk upward. he felt he had dropped clear, that the monstrous fabric, clean overturned, hung like a sloping wall above him. he did not clearly understand that he had struck the side float of the aeroplane and slipped off, but he perceived that he was flying free on the down glide and rapidly nearing earth. what had he done? his heart throbbed like a noisy engine in his throat and for a perilous instant he could not move his levers because of the paralysis of his hands. he wrenched the levers to throw his engine back, fought for two seconds against the weight of it, felt himself righting, driving horizontally, set the engine beating again. he looked upward and saw two aeroplanes glide shouting far overhead, looked back, and saw the main body of the fleet opening out and rushing upward and outward; saw the one he had struck fall edgewise on and strike like a gigantic knife-blade along the wind-wheels below it. he put down his stern and looked again. he drove up heedless of his direction as he watched. he saw the wind-vanes give, saw the huge fabric strike the earth, saw its downward vanes crumple with the weight of its descent, and then the whole mass turned over and smashed, upside down, upon the sloping wheels. then from the heaving wreckage a thin tongue of white fire licked up towards the zenith. he was aware of a huge mass flying through the air towards him, and turned upwards just in time to escape the charge--if it was a charge--of a second aeroplane. it whirled by below, sucked him down a fathom, and nearly turned him over in the gust of its close passage. he became aware of three others rushing towards him, aware of the urgent necessity of beating above them. aeroplanes were all about him, circling wildly to avoid him, as it seemed. they drove past him, above, below, eastward and westward. far away to the westward was the sound of a collision, and two falling flares. far away to the southward a second squadron was coming. steadily he beat upward. presently all the aeroplanes were below him, but for a moment he doubted the height he had of them, and did not swoop again. and then he came down upon a second victim and all its load of soldiers saw him coming. the big machine heeled and swayed as the fear-maddened men scrambled to the stern for their weapons. a score of bullets sung through the air, and there flashed a star in the thick glass wind-screen that protected him. the aeroplane slowed and dropped to foil his stroke, and dropped too low. just in time he saw the wind-wheels of bromley hill rushing up towards him, and spun about and up as the aeroplane he had chased crashed among them. all its voices wove into a felt of yelling. the great fabric seemed to be standing on end for a second among the heeling and splintering vans, and then it flew to pieces. huge splinters came flying through the air, its engines burst like shells. a hot rush of flame shot overhead into the darkling sky. "_two_!" he cried, with a bomb from overhead bursting as it fell, and forthwith he was beating up again. a glorious exhilaration possessed him now, a giant activity. his troubles about humanity, about his inadequacy, were gone for ever. he was a man in battle rejoicing in his power. aeroplanes seemed radiating from him in every direction, intent only upon avoiding him, the yelling of their packed passengers came in short gusts as they swept by. he chose his third quarry, struck hastily and did but turn it on edge. it escaped him, to smash against the tall cliff of london wall. flying from that impact he skimmed the darkling ground so nearly he could see a frightened rabbit bolting up a slope. he jerked up steeply, and found himself driving over south london with the air about him vacant. to the right of him a wild riot of signal rockets from the ostrogites banged tumultuously in the sky. to the south the wreckage of half a dozen air ships flamed, and east and west and north they fled before him. they drove away to the east and north, and went about in the south, for they could not pause in the air. in their present confusion any attempt at evolution would have meant disastrous collisions. he passed two hundred feet or so above the roehampton stage. it was black with people and noisy with their frantic shouting. but why was the wimbledon park stage black and cheering, too? the smoke and flame of streatham now hid the three further stages. he curved about and rose to see them and the northern quarters. first came the square masses of shooter's hill into sight, from behind the smoke, lit and orderly with the aeroplane that had landed and its disembarking negroes. then came blackheath, and then under the corner of the reek the norwood stage. on blackheath no aeroplane had landed. norwood was covered by a swarm of little figures running to and fro in a passionate confusion. why? abruptly he understood. the stubborn defence of the flying stages was over, the people were pouring into the under-ways of these last strongholds of ostrog's usurpation. and then, from far away on the northern border of the city, full of glorious import to him, came a sound, a signal, a note of triumph, the leaden thud of a gun. his lips fell apart, his face was disturbed with emotion. he drew an immense breath. "they win," he shouted to the empty air; "the people win!" the sound of a second gun came like an answer. and then he saw the monoplane on blackheath was running down its guides to launch. it lifted clean and rose. it shot up into the air, driving straight southward and away from him. in an instant it came to him what this meant. it must needs be ostrog in flight. he shouted and dropped towards it. he had the momentum of his elevation and fell slanting down the air and very swiftly. it rose steeply at his approach. he allowed for its velocity and drove straight upon it. it suddenly became a mere flat edge, and behold! he was past it, and driving headlong down with all the force of his futile blow. he was furiously angry. he reeled the engine back along its shaft and went circling up. he saw ostrog's machine beating up a spiral before him. he rose straight towards it, won above it by virtue of the impetus of his swoop and by the advantage and weight of a man. he dropped headlong--dropped and missed again! as he rushed past he saw the face of ostrog's aeronaut confident and cool and in ostrog's attitude a wincing resolution. ostrog was looking steadfastly away from him--to the south. he realized with a gleam of wrath how bungling his flight must be. below he saw the croydon hills. he jerked upward and once more he gained on his enemy. he glanced over his shoulder and his attention was arrested. the eastward stage, the one on shooter's hill, appeared to lift; a flash changing to a tall grey shape, a cowled figure of smoke and dust, jerked into the air. for a moment this cowled figure stood motionless, dropping huge masses of metal from its shoulders, and then it began to uncoil a dense head of smoke. the people had blown it up, aeroplane and all! as suddenly a second flash and grey shape sprang up from the norwood stage. and even as he stared at this came a dead report; and the air wave of the first explosion struck him. he was flung up and sideways. for a moment his monoplane fell nearly edgewise with her nose down, and seemed to hesitate whether to overset altogether. he stood on his wind-shield, wrenching the wheel that swayed up over his head. and then the shock of the second explosion took his machine sideways. he found himself clinging to one of the ribs of his machine, and the air was blowing past him and _upward_. he seemed to be hanging quite still in the air, with the wind blowing up past him. it occurred to him that he was falling. then he was sure that he was falling. he could not look down. he found himself recapitulating with incredible swiftness all that had happened since his awakening, the days of doubt, the days of empire, and at last the tumultuous discovery of ostrog's calculated treachery. the vision had a quality of utter unreality. who was he? why was he holding so tightly with his hands? why could he not let go? in such a fall as this countless dreams have ended. but in a moment he would wake.... his thoughts ran swifter and swifter. he wondered if he should see helen again. it seemed so unreasonable that he should not see her again. it _must_ be a dream! yet surely he would meet her. she at least was real. she was real. he would wake and meet her. although he could not look at it, he was suddenly aware that the earth was very near. the end.